From b6ff79404954498c51ec8736da3e8b97249db105 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: cetrarom2 Date: Tue, 24 Sep 2024 16:14:22 -0400 Subject: [PATCH] Add files via upload --- docs/mental_health.csv | 27978 +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ 1 file changed, 27978 insertions(+) create mode 100644 docs/mental_health.csv diff --git a/docs/mental_health.csv b/docs/mental_health.csv new file mode 100644 index 0000000..f56ee3f --- /dev/null +++ b/docs/mental_health.csv @@ -0,0 +1,27978 @@ +text,label +dear american teens question dutch person heard guys get way easier things learn age us sooooo thth graders like right guys learn math,0 +nothing look forward lifei dont many reasons keep going feel like nothing keeps going next day makes want hang myself,1 +music recommendations im looking expand playlist usual genres alt pop minnesota hip hop steampunk various indie genres artists people like cavetown aliceband bug hunter penelope scott various rhymesayers willing explore new genresartists such anything generic rap the type exclusively sex drugs cool rapper is rap types pretty good pop popular couple years ago dunno technical genre name anyways anyone got music recommendations favorite artistssongs,0 +im done trying feel betterthe reason im still alive know mum devastated ever killed myself ever passes im still state im going hesitate ending life shortly after im almost take meds go therapy nothing seems help enough dont want around anymore hate feeling like this wouldnt wish upon enemy brain feels like constantly like static tv wont shut overthinking do think im running options dont see living past got accepted health science degree dont even know wanna try know im smart mental illness holds back think cant anything im good enough need fucking help dont know anymore ive run options,1 +worried year old girl subject domestic physicalmental housewithout going lot know girl know girl etc let give brief background known girl years lives uk live different country kept touch electronic means first girl schizophrenic host illnesses too dad severe anger issues abuses physically mentally makes serve food wash dishes clean house shouts beats petty things like spilling water picking toys floor threatened knife beats plates glasses punches head last time got beat around month ago one siblings gets beat up tried tell mother beating showed bruises too mother refuses believe even laughed off probably fear confronting him husband yells wife too family treat well either sister mean tell father put trouble family tends isolate her even remember birthday all family cold her often tend alienate since act normal girl often feels suicidal due this inflicted selfharm cut wrist starves believes way family accept her make worse two incidents life must tell about raped walking back home night initially tell parents sometime later police reports filed rape suffered false pregnancy girl symptoms disorder like lactating breasts happened early depressed incident summer approximately family sent couple family friends wellknown treatments advertised herbal therapy accupuncture etc however happened next terrible left alone husband wife went somewhere else guy tortured her instance made sit container filled water upto neck closed lid imagine kind stress panic would cause schizophrenic patient miscellaneous details gt gets visit psychiatrist school able hide problems psychiatrist noted girl able put front really well gt five psychiatrists past gt enjoys drawingpainting learning new languages writing poems gt depressed tends victimized mentality blames problems want report abuse due trouble family face tells stopped cutting lately problem refuses tell anyone abuse even tries defend father saying fault help her although seem extremely suicidal concern physically mental abuse girl subject everyday healthy environment anyone grow in really wish rescued clutches belligerent controlling father dysfunctional family,1 +hey rredflag sure right place post this goes im currently student intern sandia national labs working survey help improve marketing outreach efforts many schools recruit around country were looking current undergradgrad stem students stem student know stem students would greatly appreciate help take pass along short survey thank you everyone helps take survey entered drawing chance win one three amazon gcs,1 +feel like someone needs hear tonight feeling right think cant anything people keep puting listen this its your life everyone else living it someone tells unable something work get done say wrong someone says youl never make it work hard make end one make it could make putting people like that see life nobody tell cant do one tell live where love look end let climb height hope someone needed hear tonight beutiful life good night sincerely austin zippy,0 +deserve liveif died right noone would carei real friendsi always start conversations get dry responses i feel comfortable around females emotional abuse mom put left usi never find love i keep getting reminded everyday failure disappointment parents compared siblingsi first suicidal thought afraid grades good enough parents this probably end soon,1 +feels good ive set dateim killing friday nice finally know im gonna it bye ,1 +live guiltok made stupid random choice its getting me basically molested relative super erratic thing haunting right now random walk home randomly assaulted classmate screamed name loud pretty much annoying asshole everything could torment later excluded i excluded well none mattered later went bunch horrible things people already loner death wish gets everyday living guilt possibly created mass shooter hear hes basically end life ready die,1 +excercise motivated ngl cant wait get shape know gonna overnight im happy right now,0 +know youd rather laid big booty body hella positive cuz got big booty,0 +even time fuck supposed mean,0 +usual hollywood stereotyped everyone movie but one classic uptight white collar banker russian woman well done even facial expressions great language perfect even russian language nicole splendid job hey guys get pay for,0 +think it nearly unbelievable film could made death penalty one worlds controversial topics offends neither against testament tim robbins extraordinary intelligence sensitivity traits seen acting roles well shawshank redemption jacobs ladderbr br this film fact hints subtle compromise for against camps subtle cant put words subtle point vanishing yet one gets sense watching picture compromise possible somehow worked look deeply enough,0 +trying rd time k krma special,0 +guy coming sure wear f hey guy friend coming tomorrow im excited im sure wear ive known since middle school weve talking couple months and honest know really care wear will want wear dress something thatd give way feminine impression like dresses often want give impression me makes sense im thinking wearing cargo shorts friends tell nobody likes cargo shorts though like normal pants know of cargo pants thing is seen person since want make absolutely sure good impression want look nice like put much effort casual like care im gonna light makeup ive got couple pics makeup im gonna bc makeup like yesterday anyone wants see makeup uh guess ill link it also anyone makeup advice hmu think ill worry nails ill probably something pastelmakeup lookhttpsimgurcomaqaorpl,0 +one best episodes entire xfiles series creepy beyond words tension suspense episode well executed entire minutes managed almost scary entire movie episode joins ranks best episodes greats home humbug bad blood milagro best respective seasonbr br mulder scullys growing relationship put test episode really trust other episode also contains tiny scene leave romantic viewers smilingbr br mulder bring mittens,0 +good byehey you know sure hell know me goodbye probably mean anything you plus bother read rules sub may may taken down hard getting harder weakened much ever since small innocent child things bad almost every day stuck middle parents fighting years id hide table parents shouted eachothe marriage children mistake maybe mistake remember one morning sitting dining room table eating breakfast hear mother become hysterical upstairs run house backyard screaming sky remember words screamed later learned oldest brother attempted redflag remember lot things childhood years trying forget many memories theyve coming back me kid socially isolated stuck day friends one entire life panic inside even saying one word people know ive thinking maybe different tried talk people littlemaybe social outcast today many opportunities ive missed thrown away hurts im waste life whole life ive trapped body constantly wish someone else hope die come back good person people actually like care about knew age definitely say im young way young stay wait things around crumbling including myself ive crumbling know like im dust time wind take me hope you reading good life things bad turns around you me love love,1 +tried put sugar coffee back spoon happy monday everyonestay safe sunflowers one days,1 +sure leave noteso im struggling place leave note obvious family die find read it especially includes instructions funeral i want wasting money it shit like that need find soon can want find kill though difficult impulsive person know exactly im going it definately happening soon want find die freak out leave this,1 +bruh wish dumb years ago ignorance bliss im aware fucked people enjoyable,0 +want die even tho feels like dead yearshello everyone want tell u depression loneliness general feeling wanting end life good dont even know im this idk im looking posting so im ashamed problems point feel ashamed writing strangers wont ever see life since like years ago problem bad breath really mean bad cant erase even directly brushed teeth trying heal sickness long time little success many doctors free health care dont live us obviously im unemployed cant afford pay doctor stopped trying go doctors one doctor laughed sickness literally could feel didnt care gave vibe its sickness go home imagine struggling even talk openly doctor receiving ur nuts sick threatment him im sure people dont problem hard understand hard me let put like would u feel u stepped shit couldnt wipe offwould u comfortable walking around standing next someone talking someone obviously dont even need talk someone smell it breathing thru nose like result got anxiety standing someone going shop like climbing mount everest me achieve nothing life none want anything person smells none ever take serious someone like that want able interact people,1 +im barely holding oni night prolonged panic attack get lot one sustained take loraz butbit isnt working im back lamictal hasnt kicked yet bipolar ii im depressed phase im clawing skin fantasizing bleeding out punch feel dont know long this everything spiraling hold together dont lose apartment job family want dead done dont know help point,1 +im warn you please hear out hello getting straight point searching friends know basic daily stuff hitted upon someone nickname umykittylolitahttpswwwredditcomusermykittylolita asking discord since everything started get outta hand stalking even hiding fact they even doubt really girl digging private info even that one hella weird cutting or faking cut seem rly legit me arm nickname used go by owie sending images time trying take logic understanding approach understood much blocked em off got join discord server mins also banned em server order keep rest members save started inviting many active people server server started straightup talking shit me dropping many screenshots private conversations possible weirdconcerning creepy repulsive yall doublecheck watchout,0 +me think think lost matter point never felt want much,1 +got told im lot prettier person girl talked lot video chat idk feel it good thing think ugly video calling prettier relative saw before think,0 +every success ever life come extremely lucky high school applied one college early got in senior year college depressed incapacitated managed send one grad school application somehow got accepted grad school ending still depressed actually work applying jobs replied email got sent mailing list on miraculously got hired last year got laid covid could even work motivation send resume anywhere old boss called offered position back somebody else quit spot opened upi never done work deserve things feel like cannot actually function independent adult wait things magically fall lap keep going another year every time way rock bottom manage make back surface water keep desperately gasping air little longer honestly wish could finally drown get with everything pure luck deserve it,1 +emptynever know time gonna up id admit mental ward im ,1 +bad memories keep playing headover again thought this,1 +wish people family owned cats dogs like cousins million nd amp rd cousins like aunts uncles none pets like how nearly classmates least family member pet im one family genuinely loves animals understand cousins living situation unable pets rich cousins,0 +got friends prank call yoooooo yall got numbers boys prank call us,0 +discovered film love it right mix fast moving story entertaining characters hilarious moments but overloaded stupid jokes fun performances kelsey grammar harry dean stanton ron schneider rip torn more buckman especially good really enjoyed watching guy played stapanickbr br i also find interesting used real submarine pampanito running top scenes emulated almost exactly sets set decoration really impressive digital tour pampanito online compare scenes movie excellent job filmbr br what light entertaining truly enjoyable movie,0 +redflag vegas final chapteri know lame op deliver especially know right begging pull figurative trigger ive seen beautiful crosssection humanity last hours im hopeless position im end resources ive tried positive thinking reaching friends like nothing helping came back guys sorry gender specific pronoun actually helped last night wrestle fact still think desperate plea attention even worse attempt guerrilla marketing struggling writer lack success intentions last night paints unfavorable light get that shit bothers too gets right even solve problems listed previous entry im still pretty doomed heres another desperate cast sea lowliness feel struggling find reason keep going responded previous post please take personally im really hoping see efforts wasted im asking help situation tonight dire before though id fault equate boy cried wolf help,1 +cant go oni wanna kill ive gone shit cant bare life anymore im always shouted main person complain fucking shit self harm cuts armwrist cant tell anyone coz one mum dad always going want stop think redflag everyday probably leave everything soon need support reason live please help,1 +im probably going get body pillow printed plain white body pillow need hug something im crying sleep,0 +cant cope please helpso im bi cant cope mum hates parents going disown find im bi theyve made clear religion family classmates mocking accidently swore loudly class teacher took class grandma basically raised really young terminally ill dying friend nearly killed weeks ago kind mental illness already feel suicidal deppresed think im going another deppriesive episode cant deal another one nearly killed last time time worse know mum also gaslights think tell shell say im selfish making dad worry last timethe time ever told suicidal said selfish fault satan decided test faith must easy target know cope please help parent gonna disown way kill save mum hassle cutting off,1 +finally upgarded grandma bought new phone beneath using s yearsd,0 +eat decide,0 +giving thoughtsive wanting od since im almost getting worse started wasnt bad easy distract thoughts pretty infrequent cant get head things much complicated thoughts mainly bother me part wants give make stop,1 +im fine lost good longtime friend addiction and directly od morning let world get you seek help pleaseugh ugh,1 +would stay sign things would get better things bad last three years keep getting worse tough feel im cursed im bipolar many months doctors thought schizophrenic because psychotic episodes present way disorders dealing stressful project work noticed imagination getting vivid period months thinking technicolor started getting paranoid people trying set failure take advantage me compounded stress family member experiencing serious liferuining illness landed hospital extended stay snapped stopped able cope reality invented imaginary world escape extremely overactive imagination filled blanks delusion matrix existed created illuminati went many lifetimes trying find way out began believe psychic communicating around either helping supporting illuminati even difficult delusion tied whole life story experiences like perfect web lies get own lived like months incredible stress pretending normal trying figure do got point continue working acted work meeting w superior called hr told take weeks off took months work doctors identify bipolar reaction medication schizophrenia included month long hospital stay surprise doctor thought schizophrenic first bipolar bad untreated bipolar takes long treat lithium kill increase slowly blood tests course months took years go reach stability spent lot time hospital laying bed taking walks nurses checking couple times day nice time relax fraught even delusions still going hospital took two three weeks antipsychotics thoughts calm down return work eventually lessstressful role per occupational therapists suggestion months occupational therapist said could return normal work work never put back normal projects im assuming want client facing chance could happen again little less year almost weekly doctors visits told need role anymore position terminated want pursue human rights claim even though occupational therapist said should saw exhausting taking time away job search ruining possibility key references thats story mental illness stealing sanity job independence course several years wonder people turn drugs life fall apart year year absolutely ptsd flashbacks daily im extremely lucky parents support this become homeless bipolar people commits redflag right cant afford independent humiliating living situation certainly nontoxic would great universe gave sign continue part society really need positive momentum reserves empty hope involves finding good job become independent again interviews coming january wish luck please need it things turn around im planning make exit,1 + slept hours want relapse cannot stop thinking abt got raped everytbint bad parente abuse me hooked drugs going kill myself cannot,1 +remember always saying cannot wait til kid now nothing changed work manage finish school slipped groups friends bad guys all effect indirectly motivating skip work skip classes rather take take drugs them point hanging without sort drug involved exist anymore blame still love friends moved another city currently months since moved room mess know nobody city still work still drink take drugs difference take alone constantly depressed nothing changed better all wish people could relate situation all wish best nothing changed,1 +start feeling anything better wth anybody know long citalopram eight years mgs daily feedback appreciated almost months without citalopram,1 +starting feel like endive married years give take last wife affair guy try leave move on keeps coming back guilt decided go back lost jobs day thanksgiving lucky enough land two interviews get offer day thanksgiving least today told offer rescinded signed anything yet dealing suicidal thoughts number years aside lack funds dealing personal issues also fulltime student working towards degree years left earn it lost motivation still continue study complete assignments live area job market great could due holidays sure made plan wrote notes tried even talk think getting closer finally ending all son pretty much focusing future even moved back moms finish final year school mother keeps telling im fighter survivor get anything fight years old yeah young spent life working taking care wife could get degree left days later came back months left mom got cancer motives guy claims keeps wanting end side relationship healthy previous job became toxic group employees like guy me accused affair playing favorites making work environment hostile primary person reported someone worked with least month longer made comments asking still favorite prior never reciprocated smiling going day entire department turned scared making wild claims false even started looking work immediately grounds borderline sexual misconduct pursuing career cybersecurity could affect future things like made feel like secret clearance jobs required trustworthy employee going grasp panicked another complaint came department saying texted someone outside work called beautiful got mad reciprocated office full women healthcare environment felt like management everyone suddenly buying it point coo told if feel need go one making stay here said blue investigation spoke people outside work even got legal advice much could done without evidence proof slandered completely cut ties everyone felt like toxic untrustworthy environment made matters worse let go not cultural fit difficult understand things went wrong fault way keep telling nothing needed apologize for every day passes get calls anyone interviews etc makes feel like given sign give up little money unemployment keep roof head long wife left coming back help me little family struggling themselves idea cope much last jobs toxic like was maybe sign dunno,1 +pls stop please stop posts ask crush kinda weird im pretty sure reddit dating app text something sorry bad english even though english first language,0 +wanna im sure howso uh yeah really wanna myself im tired everything need permanent solution point dont really means anything im kinda fucked rn dont want live anymore fuck,1 +keep ya head bro girls call ugly want remember go swipe makeup remover keep ya head king,0 +done misery tired tired going bed every night tired waking every morning tired listening fucking dumb every day tired looking job tired opening people make fun me pretend care tired tell only reason still alive want destroy brothers life knowing brother would even care real reason coward tired looking fucking reason tomorrowi know do know even trywhen fell friends family showed real faces showed much care much want deal shit much want leavei wish end it done take away want iti wish could restart fucking game delete old saves start over fucking wishi hope everyone reading someone around hard times everyone deserves it hope happy tired,1 +feel cold hollow insideive never written anything like before everyone know getting married long term relationships cant seem even garner interest thought never anyone puts deepest darkest depression want beautiful woman feel like utter failure im friend intimacy feel like im always awkward embarressing want end waste life really want die ill struggle along really want stop know im typing this get chest perhaps whatever,1 + year old sister attempted redflag friday looking guidanceshes currently hospital still psych weve helping treatment past year im loss communicate effectively positively anymore want upset want trust me im looking sort guidance go this im lost love much want help much possible sure correct place post is,1 +everyone seems enjoy suicidal nobody cares,1 +failing college know do long post yo repeat exams im sure failed them second time im sure get college majority friends gt people left city countries parents live km away anyone give good reason end now friend left im tired time im fucking failing every aspect life exercise eat properly try get early nights cant ever feel happy social life one talk to future college air feel like im stuck mud everyones passing by apologies upset anyone,1 +current bf care guy friends trusts put precarious position feeling guilt go away cant spend rest life working spending time home away people level redflag near panic attack occasionally leads one point dont eat barely sleep days tldr feeling guilty nothing conditioned previously abusive relationship,1 +rabbit died rabbit named thumper died fell garden pot broke neck really nice bunny fearless scared anyone add insult injury happened right birthday idk posting sad,0 +okay wasnt expecting rented film see would since want see first one anyway film bmovie it watched realized funny first minutes snowman kiiling people one man losing sanity first minutes funny one liners it throws first little minions knew would funny act like gremlins ninteen eighty four hit gremlins made look like spoofing made forget bmovie like laugh rent one,0 +title rock abuse im scared deadrock bullying lately really wanted kill myself thing is scared scared rock music genre rock person online terryfing im scared violent im scared listen im scared please redflag way nothing else im scared im fucking scared meeting since threatend sell valuable things life yes power im scared im really scared please help myself im scared sorry im scared tried meet park pictured him scared even more big cant strong big scares me tried stab i scared said try would slaughter dog dont want anymore mg acetaminophen way please painless im scared im scared ok love hate im scared miss pebble was might need call help help im scared rock remember im gone ill haunt you scared best regards dead,1 +mom literally yells get house moment im asked hang friends mom yells anyway summer house basically everyday walking around town friends everyone stoped inviting hang out meanwhile mom yells asking stopped getting house little bit ago one friend called asked wanted hang her go ask mom drive says no give reason keeps saying no idek think rn im mad upset,0 +hello anyone feeling suicidal hear people lying truth httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjkcjcbtqehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjkcjcbtqe feel suicidal go,0 +kill tonight realwhats point,1 +husband told odive detoxing trying hard get clean husband told im well well saturday got blackout drunk hit hard od hang slit wrists unlike know save family ive put hell detox got hit man almost hundred pounds weight more,1 + reasons suck generally cold unfeeling person most know definitely come dick robot somethin friends rarely ever show emotion say talk shit must major trust issues something cuz even tell best friend feel however time definitely dump drama certain way much may tell bff anything really bad habit bitching one friends im sure sucks them feel like id rather tell randos subreddit friends fact did one previous posts here drag people shit reason recently took break instagram felt like bad mental health way ive pretty depressed passed months first time really public friends going even though go detail anyways got bunch em concerned well being brought up days directed towards checking see im okay im completely wasting time im genuinely rude family already mentioned im generally robotic im significantly worse family zero respect them im holding grudges probably,0 +got practicals files chem project assignments software based project submit tomorrow gonna go school tomorrow deal whatever monday or tuesday thank you thats much work sooo tired watching netflix stuff,0 +even bother anymorehi got suspended hours school parents told wont care killed told multiple times past weeks suicidal thoughts im saying attention ive almost killed times past year seems like everytime im it start thinking effect would cause parents even death would burden them however said today im sure even bother continue ive got massive list punishments im allowed see friends next months celebrate birthday next week going improve would really easier end now,1 +feel like attempting againthe last time first time ever tried september ended hospital mental hospital back home it wanted life change wanted guy wanted confident wanted ability actually make friends get that felt like going but nope im still pathetic loser goes stupid school fucking hate that im butt listening dad complain financial emotional stress hes under fucking ask that makes feel horrible hes saying shit like i think realize much trouble caused do know much bills cost thats masters degree makes feel like im unwanted am stupid kid fucked everything up feel suicidal dad deserve asshole kid like me sad part is hes fucking right says care anyone myself point view feelings matter feel okay whats point living fuck everyone else care dad cant find job someone even know pain fuck them get bent obviously im exaggerating pretty selfish want someone im upset nonjudgmental say everythings okay let cry like fucking baby basically want mom again maybe shed emotional wreck too shed disappointed me least would compassionate she know pussy guy even act like one ill get pushed around men actually dude fuck want that theres girl school intimidates me really let get me anyway im loser like alpha female thats even thing mocks say something stupid lesbian man am girl fuck say oh im transgender school would make much better candidate would fuck that hell pissed off cant cooperate people try make lives easier make everything harder feel like people need me one ever understand ive done many dumb things want deal everything ive caused want find shotgun flip everyone again deal shit anymore feel like waiting live own friends actually selfworth want see change life now want go new school want practice assertiveness want want want want yeah me im asshole anything unless feel like crap know would time obviously would much effective way took pussy way even physically hurt me maybe all know fuck need help,1 +dont deserve helpim victim cant victim youre simultaneously assailant,1 +eat whole ass grape one bats eye eat whole ass lemon societ goes wild,0 +lot delayed this im doneim sorry thank kind words cant keep anymore cant,1 +might play song repeat next week december frankie vali seasons fucking slap might listen times week depends feel,0 +imm kill himgave dealer xtx mdma speed ran without giving shit swear god text back ill murder ass,1 +friends turn to want alone anymoreis advice give make friends in person,1 +anyone else get education fucked corona school decided mark everyone result cant continue second year maths alevelit feels unfairbecause start yeari couldve improved much even able take second year fucking virus,0 +said no but feel great quarantine tough lonely asking someone great thing either keep current position get something great keep asking im right ya,0 +insanitygirlfriend broke me put alot feelings onto suppressed problems tell about said needed time is dating someone else dont know expected anything different continue fucked around with cast aside walk forward stumble im tired getting back up people work telling kill ask help basic tasks supposed friends abandoning time need wrists blank slates carvings among them know am alone hollow pariah amongst living feel dead join dead pain go away life gift cant give someone else know people around would devastated ive seen anything years replaced temporary mourning continuation life strength strength death death hope,1 +like memes happy guy last post making comment section controversial tries prove point cant like memes happy,0 +starting online school weeks school could teaching us differently expected starters think wed using zoom all were gonna log in tasks thats it know could same,0 +loookin friends magical dms open lookin peeps hang n long conversations ,0 +understand life might difficult right trust life sucks tell amazing going great things anyone needs talk see queens later amazing people,1 +yo guys house right now hugged loooool cant express words happy,0 +normally like romantic films love film much story really touching ending appropriate feel really care many characters film feel feel feelings romantic films always make feel detached bored one completely makes feel involved starting scene capshaw running along beach scott ending scene want rate film want give extra one point ending acting part strong kate capshaw good opportunity show talent though im impressed scott dead man campus film completely changes viewpoint towards him hes irresistibly charming here geraldine mcewan terrific everbr br film might good complex deep believable films deal little bit kind relationship lecole de la chair post coitum animal triste the love letter still proud casts rare different light kind relationship difference makes film eminently enjoyable unambitious relying great charms small stars dreamworks time really make dream come true,0 +wish werent alonei wish outlet time dont want unload friends know problems cant talk parents either dad thinks people narcolepsy demonpossessed hates lgbt moms bit openmindedexposed cares grades im tired process everything diary tired it one comforts myself im fucking tired it im run down barely energy process feelings friendships wavering im glad friends arent judgmental wouldnt want bother rants somehow im glad dont seem hate really talking much dont like anything ive got energy even myself much less people although havent told anything mental state think sense im really well mean tell worried might failing school year seemed perceptive understanding it need write diary right now like said im done alone feel like going diary signifier nobody nobody talk to im done carrying everything myself,1 +im exhausted want end alloriginally posted rdepression ive suffered depression since young age life threatening hereditary illness reduced life expectancy years old carry healthy lifestyle successfully receive organ transplants etc illness cannot children unlikely ever able adopt foster im currently years old made sure everything wanted life bar family early possible try focus career ensure made sort difference world three years university worked dream job ended quitting due stress anxiety depression bullying work basic administration job half pay limiting amount travel one thing actually made happy hate job mostly unfulfilling mundane come home work eat dinner watch tv go bed begins again applying jobs attending interviews almost every one applied for past months shitty job managed bag feedback interviews almost always you right experienceskillsdrive looking for another candidate experiencewho worked past whole life obviously revolve around job big part influences mood daytoday basis since teenager bounced relationship relationship focusing energy person allowing control happiness understand pathetic unhealthy is around people always something made feel better myself despite enjoying around people much tolerance actually quite low find getting irritated small things quite frequently months ago met boy got well seemed really me met point ready give up everything prepared end life plan boy walked life gave reason carry on maybe pinned much hope working out seemed genuine supported days pushed look better job made feel like life worth living again weekend told despite liking me happy me come realisation prepared relationship something hes ready for understand cannot make stick around would cruel guilt trip staying tried avoid best can realisation hit one darkest days ive several years might hit hard forcing even darker bout depression im angry deciding want suddenly making wanted first place understand fleeting people be taking relationship one day time happy wanted spend time liked am made solid permanent thing made believe longhaul wanted me that started calling girlfriend suggested introducing parents planned trips together im angry changed mind im angry still likes me happy me genuinely sees ruining good thing still continues anyway im angry despite telling closest friends already feeling day telling decision yet get touch make sure im okay people friends decade shaped life personality likes dislikes people know best know struggle depression anxiety know history drug abuse redflag attempts failed medications therapy sessions know reach need help im lowest keep myself want end life day told thinking want to told needed help told much live for make list told me plans weekend cancel despite everything boy told would me friend want life friend want continue boyfriend understand cannot force that hurts know cant like again know live friend nothing more always going want more think fair either us but actual friends stopped caring clearly ive cried wolf one many times maybe time cry wolf maybe time ill it go ahead original plan end all sad sounds reason go ahead kill soon left yesterday hope might change mind hope dwindling second,1 +family friends one talk toand people internet offer talk them also severe trust issues paranoia cant develop healthy relationship anyone unless comfortable someone tell really feel basically im traped mind able tell anyone sick really want die,1 +damn miserable alone loner confidence awful pitiful miserable existencei cinema alone one go withi everything life miserable alone nobody england final euro cup football nobody watch match with even though monumental huge thing countrybeing alone fucking awful spend life alone remain miserable alone death life fucking awful cope miserable alone loner confidence,1 + years last postmany helped overcome last rock bottom years ago would like share update still alive still constantly thinking ending life sometimes manage distract never long time today ordered helium tanks feel like really tried years find happiness find way accept scars find way fill endless hole inside me cant everyone tells give another year tired trying want peace days helium tanks arrive finally end sadness life remember me want know really tried overcome years extra thank investing energy time trying save me,1 +sort like primitive episode general hospital set natal ward and one tough cases that fastmoving programmer satisfying emotional impact mainly eric linden distraught young husband main plot palpably wreck good reason expectant wife loretta young brought ward beginning year prison sentence offing lecher probably coming him ms young always anything disinvite audience sympathy little good true though sympathetic lovely look at course difficult pregnancy relationships girls ward form heart movie outcome entirely happy one feels right aline macmahon one cinemas perfect actresses apt words film historian david thomson exudes warmth authority head nurse glenda farrell nonetoowilling new mom twins gets croon frankie johnny drunken lullaby frank mchugh figures another subplot gets show range warners usually permitted him scaled paced modestly lindens expectantdad panic stays days sort part often played laughs hes terrified young kid trouble persuasive,0 +im bored asf someone entertain please like anything want dm,0 +reading likely know feeling also reading may realise important people talk getting this one anymore ex took them found new man took everything still admire her why want someone ask question too god hate this realised position people talk too not,1 +cyberbullied turn damn computer,0 +honestly fuck im gonna acid like wanna try astral projection yeah,0 +got rejected jobbasically got rejected personality enthusiastic enough reserved truly realize bad introvert actually is selfesteem already completely ruined year old kissless virgin utterly annihilated truly feel like im worthless allowed live wish somebody would shoot bullet head end misery,1 +anyone predictions disasters coming months one hope year wont bring many tragedies last lets make guesses anyway,0 +feel completely lifelessive felt way couple years now hardly feel real emotion put happy face throughout day want nothing break get home cant thing keeps happy skateboarding girl loved last years life seeing totally dropped life feel left nothing im start second year college royally fucked first year im pretty much retaking classes get kicked ive academic probation since first semester course parents know make seem everything great ill never able hold steady job life know fact ill either able find job within skateboarding industry stuck working pathetic job rest useless existence tip iceberg terrible person am could go day terrible things done huge disappointment parents generally worthless am im ready end all ive thought rational irrational times decided whats best me world around leaving make space someone succeed wont want die pill bottle could demise mere feet away calling possibly night end bullshit,1 +hate bryce hall wanted make clear bye,0 +weird or im ambivert already tell pretty weird me scenarios ive every one either extravert part kicks introverted part does talking girls im extraverted talking siblings cousins im extraverted talking older relatives uncles aunts etc im introverted this includes parents too talking random people ive never met probably weirdest one them depending theyre looks age gender depends im extraverted introverted talking friends think two friends talk without introverted pretty decent amount friends too weird,0 +weeks ago saved friend redflag suspended reddit day got unbanned checked online friends accounts one active rredflagwatch gonna commit days talked it still talk day pissed got banned temporarily saved life end probably wouldnt checked account didnt happen btw know check accounts posts banned put app took break would terrifying check wouldnt able message talk out,0 +emo anything but songs lonely palaye royal irony christopher resonate like alot supposed to like first time listened like damn son thats me,0 +else dobefore begin long post amp hope take time read this need help think im rational person understand impact redflag affect connected me but feeling myself honestly believe peaked human hope writing community strangers may help find relief constant tightness feel chest maybe someone relate im going through since ive hit s life starting reflect mistakes yesterday ive moved back parents pictures last years life lost lot confidence myself year old female starting balding see scalp day even taking showers makes depressed run fingers hair doesnt stop falling out dont want go anymore dont want sun without hat hair loss definitely wrecked confidence im trying take depression hands exercise days week see positive change body even friends havent see awhile tell end day dont want alive anymore feel like dont anything offer recklessly put debt hindered ability buy home own watch friends buy first homes share lives significant others put wall around myself havent dated sex anyone years tell im okay myself always going emptiness may sound weird im oddly okay wanting end life affect family friends keeping here heal time cant put fast forward button that im tired feeling way tired crying tired me religious im tried looking sort guidance god thought would be would god speak me would tightness chest lifted accepted god life else do,1 +im ready plan redflagimagine chronically ill slowly killing you imagine active person young s sick hospitals wheelchair imagine dislocating times day thats tip iceberg pain wise like youre ripped apart crushed time im done things keep happening things keep happening fears theres nothing death black leaving family friends dont want hurt anyone many illnesses diagnosed ptsd times yeah things tip breaking point ive tried staying strong want believe god dont want nothing tomorrow makeup last time tomorrow ill say goodbye parents grandpa tomorrow ill give one last good memory me ill leave court documents mom take lawsuit company caused major car accident resulting airlifted ill call friends siblings ill finish hard drive send man groomed took family body still damaged mind forever ill write notes mother taking people civil criminal courts tonight ill type will saturday night ill overdose somewhere loved ones wont see associate dying im done im done theres one wish family okay black something something real want watch loved ones dont want die wanted live life living want smell flowers hike again dance again want go gorge wanted live bad help people cant anymore cant,1 +driven redflagi think partners negativity driving redflag started months ago depression past two weeks reaching help get supportive remarks followed negative conversation example happened today asking last week could help get bed mornings im up wanted make sure wasnt laying left work could get daughter school asked didnt said shouldnt mothering you far worse said past weeks thats started episode said daughter living around needs im school last week trying open talk struggles jokingly said maybe kill already laughed isnt dramatic sounds since said cant get head offers support never gives it im quickly going hill dont eat drink water sleep maybe hours night havent seen friends months grades going down interest around daughter anymore feel like burden someone help,1 +dont wanna feel betteri dont wanna get point life im better dont feelings anymore wanna die move next life whatever suicidal depressed anxious dont know dont want want exist,1 +somebody talkim attempt right something urgent need somebody talk feel alone,1 +need help finding meme meme roblox guys one says something along lines rat fat cant find anywhere,0 +dedicate thosewho kept going posting darkest moments even though clue thats doing especially dedicate trying times know redditors big country music one countryish maybe could bear long enough hear message one day willhttpwwwyoutubecomwatchveyyctljoo,1 +know originally film box office hit light recent hollywood releases most decidedly formularidden plot less pointless savetheblondechicknomatterwhat drivel feast saints certainly sorry context deserves second opinion filmlike bookloses anchoring historical background depicts uniquely american dilemma set uniquely horrific american institution human enslavement tragic and funny touching consequencesbr br and worthy singling youthful robert richard cast leading figure marcel whose idealistic enthusiasm truly universal sets beginning coming age cruelly disappointed turns become true education ways southern plantation world louisiana apex antebellum period saw previews featuring dreaded blondhaired richard expected buffoon fop caricaturei pleasantly surprisedbr br ossie davis ruby dee late ben vereen pam grier victoria rowell even jasmine guy lend vivid imagery formidable skill actors backdrop tapestry placage voodoo creole aristocracy haitian revolt woven tale human passion hate love family racial perplexity society supposedly gone yet somehow still us,0 +literally escape brainthis really really really really long one ive always great mentally tried commit redflag several times mostly pills bad times blood loss simply tried coke overdose went maybe years since teens stuff happened maybe warrantedvalidated felt i dont mean diminish anyone elses feelings warranted head ended horrible relationship wanted help sort of girlfriend brother committing redflag gave black eye time excused somehow ended married despite abusive behaviour changing lost nan complications regular surgery mum cancer space month mother law who gentlest caring person ive ever known and helped wife less abusive died miss fucking much years finally sense push divorce switched antidepressants fellhad first time seizure possibly new antidepressants brain haemorrhage lost hearing playing musicbandplaying shitty gritty clubs etc everything me made lose sense smelltaste i loved food cooking brain isnt was aside music thing made feel useful writing joking cant spell read well find words easily get stuck part way joke makes people laugh scramble wrong words thats funny itself head injury ive developed epilepsy seizures landed hospital get dizzy nauseous cant leave bed sometimes even get stairs get frequent night terrors ive without headache since three nearly four years ago head injury three years headache headache bad makes want smash face wall genuinely mean literally theres nothing else pain despite every sensible pain treatment cant take pain supposed stop childhood home divorce got married early s previously mentioned older woman supposed stop till found another place haemorrhage im stuck childhood bedroom incapable anything able contribute anything cant leave cant sleep cant taste cant smell cant hear well struggle understand words conversation alwayshaveanexcruciatingheadache night terrors make sleep rest awful cant help it fall asleep part way work in job im blagging takes long understand im readinghearing wake up desk feeling fucking terrified push day im lucky enough working home dont feel like it genuinely wish seizure would take out way noone feel responsible take cocktail epilepsypain meds four times day every time think miss one skip day time stop breathing indefinitely instead paramedics round inject put mask on dad said reason brother got sectioned psychotic depression seizure kept night depressingly paragraphs took long write ive look spelling spelling literally taken hours write doesnt even feel real dont even feel real im leaning tablets dont want leeching people shouldnt accommodate someone barely formulate sentence real time im completely lost mentally physically person cant mentally physically function pain specialist told xmany years pain isnt going do do im stuck every sense word youve got way far youre fucking trouper lol know everyones struggling know many people much much much grapple with make feel proud,1 +suicidal where start know exactly lets discuss present situation lost job staying lonely friends family busy lives cant disturb talk them started nonsense things harm physically since yesterday evening even took medicines instead taking two dont worry alright without side effects feel good whenever increasing think low self esteem understand would future consequencesif continues ,1 +crush said interested like guy know like tho bad im sure next chance make like do were friends classmates connection least simply know,0 +fuck yeawelp didnt plan succeed leaving uni,1 +take story snapchat posted happy birthday_name person_ didnt look story didnt click it didnt say thank didnt look message anything why take story cause embarrassing avoided it,0 +go doctors go doctorsso basically im pretty sure anxiety depression lot stress im mainly depressed stressed past like years im girl live uk ive whole therapy thing million different people never really helped feel fine im talking ive left room feel always shitty havent seen therapist year hate it hate speaking answering questions hate telling stupid life story reading load files hate everything it like really nice people dont hate hate therapy really doesnt help me basically want try taking medication im dont know whether prescribe anything ive given pills sleep even though didnt really need problem wasnt couldnt get sleep avoided completely past week ive basically slept day watched netflix night havent really gone all want try pills see help want kill almost day dont want go doctor tell feel talk someone months dont know tbh cant deal bullshit anymore oh yeah also im actually diagnosed things thats part problem bc idk actually diagnosed first what,1 +cant face failure againthrowaway etc im final year med school struggled mental health issues long remember ive professionals tried meds tried therapy pattern every time get overwhelmed right im middle final exams failed ones ive taken far year genuinely would rather die go another year repeating thats pretty much im facing university unsupportive cant stand around family members anymore keep pointing mood asking questions hate want out cant stand anymore worth,1 +banger anyone else point life sick caring find headbanging songs hate like know hate them know dancing fuck isnt something still end doing,0 +first day want die everthats it thats post want fucking die,1 +help needed save man assuming posts case young boy still trending social media extremists trying get young man lynched vocal opinion hashtag trending twitter accuses blasphemy extremists spamming gain attention im asking please help save using trends try bury blasphemy trend btsarmypakistan imrankhanjawabdou imrankhankhulwaopubg please report hashtag go httpshelptwittercomformshttpshelptwittercomforms choose harrassment link httpshelptwittercomformsabusiveuserhttpshelptwittercomformsabusiveuserca choose options detailed screenshots add urls attached add two paragraphs details add urls httpstwittercommahnoorism_statusshttpstwittercommahnoorism_statuss add description light recent hashtag fast becoming top trend pakistani twitter hashtag blasphemourmarufzaid spreading rapidly response mob pakistani users trying get another twitter user killed response alleged blasphemy know twitter notolerance policy type hatemongering especially dangerous lifethreatening hashtags like this urgent emphatic request take hashtag blasphemourmarufzaid immediate effect young pakistani life depends it credit twitter unavsszz save life even people think wont please everyone scary situation wish anyone go through appreciate help this thank you,0 +april dont got friends living marvel movie marvel movie isnt enough cant recover grades done dealing anxiety depression think years enough pretty sure isnt slump life gonna stop trying school quit job write screenplay gonna see infinity war opening night kill self,1 +physics exam got cancelled hell yeah dont need study anymore ,0 +need penis music would sell anything ability order get super speed using it penis music follows trail blasting non existent speakers full volume,0 +made lemon tea lemon feel boujee yall gonna pay euros,0 +friend would needed them maybe feel suicidal againim much better used be ive tried hard get am feel like progress anymore feel like im stuck forever now stuck feeling depressed every month so feel better again back depression endless cycle ive reached friends told need someone ive lonely depressed told ive suicidal care im always theyre going something want someone talk hang with one wants help know cant normal life compromise mental health order occasionally happy,1 +advice intrusive thoughtshi m cutting it intrusive thoughts redflag days week kind creep thought process ill sitting desk work get daydreams walking door traffic example another example picturing driving sunset throwing severn bridge ill good time friends switch picture drowning cant stop it understand keeps happening someone suffered depression growing stressful disruptive childhood thats behind became fully independent moved messed childhood home trying really invest ever since socially friendships trying online dating not really gone anywhere serious economically im training low level lawyer personally taking music trying read more still struggle combat background feeling vapid apathy alive got better since becoming independent feel like im treading water mental health wise words wisdom would appreciated,1 +word autocorrect freshness hell lol,0 +need helpi feel like failure nobody wants me idk im wrong cant handle anymore rejection moved bigger city way far away friends family ok need find new place live next days nobody wants me im good enough anyone even got denied air bnb cant go home everyone see much failure am know anymore want die think redflag almost everyday simultaneously dont want fall asleep never wake up wrong everyone hates me,1 +help think started war cult full apple enthusiast anyways join kingdom rbanana_kingdom_,0 +think need actual help okay depress lately everything going downhill mental breakdowns crying past hour life beginning meaningless dont really know anymore im afraid ask parents always busy feel like failure,0 +normal start day asked was card worth wait answered yes cried park jokingly said of course did tiny tears x asked did take photos chocolates said yes babe sent photo still online last messages wasnt read next message sent day wasnt sent anymore offline thought getting ready work phone died network hour got worried sent messages social media has know,0 +dont belong anywhereive tried years fit depression anxiety feels like im fundamentally different peers try fit people always end fucking never happy dont belong here one energy put depressing bullshit drag people make life worse im gonna make past highschool hate much deserve rot,1 +guys believe this clever selfworth lowering punchline friends meant relatable,0 +lovely movie it deeply reflects chinese underground bands current lives chinese culture traditionaled rock n roll music go highly recommend one but one thing wondering whether movie showed mainland sorta doubt d,0 +everyday wake think really shit againjesus fucking christ many days there like today yesterday get break feel like ive alive years wanna wrap shit days counting,1 +kill without hurting family friendive needing long time now without hurting them anything put note lessen pain,1 +wait wait wait telling me women pedophiles rteenagers mature body ready molest teenager oh no fixing hair oh thats bad oh putting perfume mouth spray watching im good mirror bbut thats like bad society i reallllly hope non even dares reach me would hoooorrible fixes flannel,0 +im arguing im explaining million wasnt enough,0 +storytime sorry fellow meme lords might post meme this little sister friends sister antisocial introvert good luck making friends classmates like clipped american movie like clipped mothers womb kinda cold competitive lowkey karen friends two boys thats share passion star wars not saying bad also like mostly action plot two boys mostly buddies play recess yes really best friend friend girl girl many bestfriends really want get friends girls relate lot get lot support opinion least girls met yet overall way funnier boys disclaimer im talking people met im sure good boys rude ones hang told many times might nice find girls befriend never listened stopped ago new school year starts new students join class one girl guess what new girl gets seat sister one bully sidekicks finally chance get real friend told us setup seats dinner immediately started talk befriend her said even approach her bully sidekick already got her together time sidekick bully always made sure new girl close little sister would start talking new girl sidekick would immediately come collect new girl she even makes new girl watch play basketball little sister said immediately got idea sidekick playing basketball sister chance talk new girl excitedly tell plan instead going made frowny face said back um i want play basketball too im sorry wanted giant tea spill drama anything else really sorry find hilarious actually chose basketball friend knew competitive this meant hate anybody wanted tell anybody,0 +good advice gave become cursei made post another account years ago saying get girlfriend alot things like that guy made big comment stuff said big advice gave look girlfriend try build confidence first get career get money go gym clean first tried followed advice successfully avoided women much could get tempted ask out saw girl approaching would try avoid her still use advice even though know ive basically completed advice maybe girls like like instinct avoid girls cursed never love,1 +keep going whatwhy keep miserable suffer yet one wants help cant work cant afford daycare cant find better job cant afford school cant find job fucking cycle want end day day think done family adopted mom died leaving someone took money kicked shitty ever since started fundraiser one gives shit bipolar depression cant afford health insurance cant afford services meds without it dental insurance left side mouth hurts filling came out need new glasses cant afford without insurance go without im underweight eat maybe calories day im stressed money feel like eating im gall bladder issues cause pain cant afford surgery removed also complications child birth starting cause problems daily life im scared bones starting jut out know cant gain weight mental issues having years trying cope stay childs father homeless friends car penny name son taken care financially father nothing left really since rent gone up qualify assistance small income states standards poor enough going get better me years suffering one giving fuck never able dig darkness cant even get hand none clinics accepting insurance accepting new patients cant afford stay hospital cant afford get strep cant afford survive botched redflag attempt think im starting finally sink trying keep head water long,1 +hasnt day havent thought redflagthere hasnt day dont think wanting kill myself hurt way hard pick knife ya know idk nothing was life doesnt want happy thats even life cares dont know im supposed anymore feel fucking bad ones going read one going care,1 +im sorry everyoneim fucking failure mom spent hundreds dollars tutors yet im still failing algebra class betrayed best friend somebody whos supporting long im going hurt anybody else care about im usually talkative today really quiet grandmother kept asking ok instantly able notice something wrong went bathroom crying thinking much id miss shed react finding dead cant stand letting everybody care down im much failure live today im it im going od pills im sorry grandma,1 +ideas dangerous comment one intervieweebr br dvd rating b worth timebr br a great story adults teen boaters children none stupid violent crime stuff often mistaken hollywood days quality work and used trainer film proper boating preparation about about prior sailing seven seas movie starts somewhat slowly develop story documentaries do draws viewer saga emotions begin percolate ones head emotions include anger sadness disbelief era late sbr br that solo sailing around globe dangerous surprising surprising twists viewers expect average group guys sailing race boat different allowed race rules solo sailor different levels ability allowed race rules well known sailors among well known one considered mystery man nobody seemed knowledge ability all boat allowed depart long underway certain date was course prior modern electronics allow boaters communicate shore vicious storms etcbr br actual video audio recordings interspersed interviews family members others involved mood interviewees always somber despite years passedbr br the main character don focus attention journey relates wanted beat but due circumstances creation beat win story circumstance life moved south west across atlantic ocean years time alone waterbr br do fail view special features section dvd film finished entire saga fully understood wo viewing bonus stuffbr br in end watched everything dvd likely shake head exclaim wow keep mind story remained alive last yearsbr br spoiler fail view special features section dvd film finished one sailor headed back england circumnavigating globe decided fly that no going another spin film records spouses opinions decision opposite story unfolds another sailor wishes race allowed two board could take wife along photos demonstrate warm union them interview burley ex paratrooper actually rowed boat across atlantic friend prior solo sail race incredibly funny described even knowing sail thought bad things happening normal many people think setting sail open sea romantic adventure without mishap one,0 +feels like already diedi deactivated social media little week ago im guy scrolls fb several hours day found making matters worse deactivated rather tense time several people try escape well im bored know nobody notice reactivate minute check everybody doing way everybody gone lives new profile pictures hardly recognizing people one week offline best friends never even noticed gone suddenly havent spoken since sharing regular posts every hours big girl got haircut seems getting fine cousins mom sister family sharing memes jokes normal crush sharing events things important arent really bag distancing getting courage talk her feels like died missed things regular old new would really like could take fucking step tell nobody cares all know guys do say feel like support find keeps going guess thats whats important drained low this,1 +got downvoted guys one subs yesterday saying not cool man post saying ammonium nitrate go brr fuck wrong people someone even made fun comment saying brrr shit,0 +im fan tv movies general one good ones cast performances throughout pretty solid twists see coming commercial kind like medium meets csibr br did anyone else think certain lights daughter looked like young nicole kidman related way id definitely watch agin rent ever comes videobr br dedee great seen lot things job convincinglybr br if tv mystery movies check one chance,0 +sad time year againi stocked vitamin fish oil forget anything time year always pretty rough alone feel same,1 +anyone want join discord server general programming gaming discord link description bio whatever want call,0 +cant morehonestly feel like ive enough this feel alone many ways life seems grim cruel worth fighting even special life gift something given us force eventually return it death inevitable way avoid longer feel comfort thinking fragile life bullshit end feeling dread overwhelming cant believe ive using fiction cope reality believe simple characters screen words paper one barriers keeping ending all also want fall low enough drugs shit mind long way access since know dealers want cry right since want live deep inside im afraid die ill take chances hope whatever waiting worse this please someone there know even know self sometimes feel like attention feels wrong want know quickest painless method use know bullet head quick enough noose overdose would painful many types medical pills disposal knife neck also seems painful,1 +choke ropeits lonely here loves theres girls want whole ass world thats never happening though never will lonely friends bail me life getting shittier yet nobody fucking cares irl anxiety without meds everything fucking else better choke fucking rope lol,1 +need help telling fiance im suicidali really want leave feel like to every second ticks overwhelming im trying really hard hurt myself want go hospital make huge deal need help want tell fiance work want worry them person trust say tell them even wait get home im afraid theyll overreact,1 +first day work earnt bucks washing dishes helping pub tonight doesnt sound like much feel like ive accomplished much due social awkwardness enough me everyone elses day going hope yous good ,0 +click post thank you tell day im work responses may slow,0 +answer question previous reviewer asked name us official mentioned lumumba name character mr carlucci frank carlucci reported time second secretary us embassy congo subsequently among assignments appointed us ambassador portugal deputy director central intelligence agency secretary defense chairman carlyle group hardly surprising carluccis biographical sketch wwwcarlylegroupcom web site fails credit service belgian congo name deliberately censored hbo version lumumba may avoid possibility hbos sued us courts carluccis name however clearly mentioned theatre version lumumba saw recently event expect would deny involvement lumumbas murderbr br others commented evenhandedness film lumumba treats parties concerned lumumbasupporters congolese even belgians somewhat sinister view emerges think bbc documentary entitled who killed lumumba based book the murder lumumba belgian historian ludo de witte examined closely films demonstrate fate lumumba history congo matter black white lumumbas murderers believe that,0 +kill nytol curious nytol,1 +want put thoughts therenot really expecting anyone care reply nobody really ever did ive read peoples posts thought could feel better myself too nobody around understand im feeling even though im really alone i family girlfriend would never understand feel tell would hurt make feel weird me feel like im even living life now stranger trying make things work somebody else know feel like im wearing mask im allowed show real self anyone otherwise would hurt them ive thoughts lately hoping die way manner would do im much coward myself im looking thinking way end life way would interfere lives everyone around think is want disappear feel like im worthless pathetic look mirror want spit face im looking at am live and now almost month theres single day thought killing hoping die deserve life theres people world want live normal lives cant medical condition id like disappear give chance life could finally something good instead volunteering helping people way contemplating redflag hoping death come deserve shit things happened life worse im thinking it seriously fucking hate asked why would know answer question matters course would still hate myself today ive magnetic resonance brain dysfunction hormones doctors wanted sure pituary gland tumor giving treatment hope ive read highly unlikely die it im want live anymore apologize anyone took time read ungrammatical piece shit english first language,1 +im doneim done im tired im done trying im autistic tranny morbidly obese loser teenager im every popular fucking joke meme right wrapped one package nobody would miss me im sick trying normal im sick find shit wear immediately make meltdown im sick person people go need help leave theyre done me im sick joke im sick me bye guys good years wish luck,1 +think im donei honestly know carry on start want say tomorrow might different today last friday could think switching off used want using addict since ive clean sober years ive always coped pretty well even back ever thought wanted stop using kids one severe complex needs makes difficult deal guilt feeling way cant abandon them head full conflict guess conflict thats keeping here head battered im tired managing coping happiness days real hard work fabricated time around enjoy version tolerate hate living skin hate taking breathes one effort days im sounding here please dont offer support sympathy need guess need say loud,1 +weve come far give up were night get lucky,0 +ive remembering old childhood crushes freaking guy yo gabba gabba farkle girl meets world gay awakening,0 +reviewed world premiere screening sept isabel bader theatre toronto international film festival tiffbr br this interesting premise seemed go long many shots piles ewaste recycled computers keyboards cables etc shipped china ton sorted remade new products sell back desolationbr br the filmmakers tried get people interviews boost human element frequently prevented due chinese censorship still interesting bits shanghai high end real estate agent preening strutting around showing luxurious mansion gardens intercut scenes others living medieval conditions especially striking opening tracking shot m factory floor quite something well scenes activity three gorges dam project also complement jia khangje films tiff the feature still lifesanxia haoren documentary dong also built around subjectbr br director jennifer baichwal producer nick de pencier cinematographer peter mettler subject edward burtynsky stage qa world premiere producer noah weinzweig introduced audience thanked key person assisted ground access china itself,0 +anyone think valve knew theyed creating whole new category porn made portal hindsight could have dont think wouldve thought,0 +fear hell thing stopping mei dont understand god makes us depressed much pain ask pain end punished eternally burning fucking unfair,1 +want die know wont anythinglike many posts ive contemplating redflag ive felt way long time sometimes ups sometimes downs year especially down lost mom partner recently broke im glad graduating soon never wanted go college staying home wouldve hell too family awful since passing honestly would rather sleep outside go home dont like either side family right now moms half toxic talks other never really fond dads half family hadnt felt excited graduating days cause actually liked college hell lot better high school one really liked didnt friends actually friends now college gave place stay also put years debt never wanted go though dont even know want do fucking long,1 +havent power hours really actually upset this pseampg says th return power currently car charging phone,0 +long story short mdd gad bpd since late depression kicking arse suffered depressive episodes years never bad long last depressive episode birth son great success nd ssri tried managed establish good routine get out currently th antidepressant sectioned twice year si intent marginally better getting worse again zero motivation get bed appetite crying etci also intensive group therapy since february really invested end day feel exhausted options way without ending it,1 +one cares drank water today,0 +shoud tell school counselor selfharm suicidalhi dont really know dos donts u say counselor yes cant afford therapist yet im still college student wanna ask let parents know told selfharm im suicidal okay tell therapist told it wanna seek help dont know kind information thanks,1 +favorite lines tonight poor boys in least racist person room everytime biden laughed seconds fracking good,0 +strength anymoreday ive feeling like seems like long time almost every day past year contemplated ending life ive selfharmed somehow slitting wrists open watching blood trickle calmed down ive done everything promised wouldnt night went sleep theres something inherently wrong that wanting kill myself despite everything kid age needs around months ago started slipping college wouldnt attend days stretch days turned weeks weeks turned months knew wasnt good head space id hiding something parents while sent counselling lied woman well couldnt tell anyone one night however mother caught crying sleep told honest said would support matter was told time inappropriately touched grown man almost two years ago ever since like this felt depressed wrong disgusting always called mother best friend literally nothing havent shared her everything sixteen year old girl indian household remains silent about able discuss freely her quite understanding mother much shell go lengths defend argument father still doesnt know doubt would even understand speaking father never hit me hurls abuses me never physically hurt me reminds every day failure wasted investment useless impure negative slacking reminds best hope life job call centre boss yell ill suck desperate money ill husband berate ill mercy dont bring joy im meant anything good regrets giving things has ruin everything touch complete utter disappointment then hours later sweet words usual want whats best you know does person says things every single day start believe it first words pinched would cry listen him scared explain ive become mess am started screaming back pretending dont care calls rude shameless way know block out cry leaves room say is ever finds this im sorry know expected promise tried ive thought months know people worse problems maybe im selfish mine cant live like this strength anymore know im writing this wanted see could put thoughts together theres dayweek rule one must follow committing redflag day one well see happens tomorrow,1 +wanting twitch streamer remember watching one boring person get boring nobody like me oh wait know people partner pain,0 +saw film sep cambridge film festival br br the beagles couple short flashbacks whole thing darwins life ensconced kent growing family pages origin already drafted wondering whether complete book br br the script based randal keyness book annies box annie charless daughter died mostly family drama include sex scenes however participants married screen exciting much science wellmade film thats pleasant watch pushes right emotional buttons bit romantic weepie actually suppose conclusion agnostic freethinking scientist atheist family background still emotional romantic well excellent father br br some characters darwin state wonder whether killed god viewer able doubt that beyond doubt given deadly struggle survival web predation meadowbank wellknown darwin completely uncontroversial failure darwins prayers idea kind providential god loves his creatures untenable br br i really cannot see many americans objecting much may problems title probably controversial thing film fact bettany horns tail pitchfork,0 +people learned lucid dream long take want learn im lowkey lazy biotch little motivation,0 +respond hey sc added guy whos like friend friend sent hey without anything else im probably thinking id feel bad felt bad left opened dont know well also hes probably hitting bc barely know havent posted anything story,0 +therapy stopped thought getting better moving returned state depression redflag obsessive thinking feel unable cope difficulty lifei appointment online therapist obviously cannot say anything suicidal bad thoughts yo young know life always bad cannot stand world works sick societyi regularly go phases suffer feel miserable enjoy anything anymore food socializing meeting people hobbies etci really want try commit suicide fail may deal side effect horrible health problems caused method pity peoplei far away home abroad want family suffer hear death even managed fuck real bad cannot vent anyone suicidal irl,1 +today birthday cant live onhi reddit today birthday cant seem feel anything anymore count hours work get home get bed etternally without sleeping therapist im also taking meds for month everyday seems get worse im think life me im failure,1 +anyone ever questioned achievement notification minecraft achievement get like understand conveying fact short,0 +soon feel comfortable life get sent another rabbit hole existential dread feel dumb thinking anything death hopeful nobody else cares like filled new emptiness instead escaping want sit live it normal depression hope going go away soon really bad lows before even going about understand happening want fix gets worse confused,1 +feel like giving upokey im yo guy feel like theres point living anymore periods throughout life depression never felt bad might something stupid feel goddamn useless education friends still kissless virgin still live parents top ive gotten acne back starts bleeding evertime sleep life worth much anyway might well die young,1 +hate people feel need remind dont dick like idc still suck metaphorical dicc like inches long choke,0 +speak french ive prepared guide speak french fluently baguette wee doublevay trois noir vert mademoiselle well thats learned french class anyways seem like work,0 +got less hour till bed help sleeptonight rough me man need relief either cut bash head wall guys need go hospital think make family ashamed im lost do,1 +nooce chair setup nearby forestsometimes stand chair nooce around neck cry minutes building courage everyday passes finally inch little chair finally commit redflag decided im going douse gasoline set hideous atrocious absolutely horrifying ugly self fire pain much ill jump hang myself least way closed casket funeral one able see face,1 +whats trouble rkod guy like got concussion shit,0 +wanting grow normal get sad around time year birthday soon im approaching im nervous confused life,0 +realized tell irs anyone fans get audited fans snapchat premium anything like pay taxes some lot dont tell irs theyll audit them holes yall tell,0 +yes ways rip gus van sants elephant students dealing problems leading suicide one them yes full clichs thats life cant deny creepy nerds disabled persons popular students who despite popularity problems existing real worldbr br but thats not film about life highschool misery life itselfbr br if look beneath surface beneath soaplike social relationships shown find gripping thoughtprovoking criticism societybr br why people committing suicide really understand motives trying understand already late always someone would never expected bebr br this movie answer question raises it intense way way keeps guessing whose blood might be see beginning following paths students less good reason end lives forced watch gruesome act finalebr br did know would be caught surprise like real lifebr br the message verbalized one surviving kids end always fixed problems forget see others might someone colleague friend want live anymore but open eyes never know latebr br this movie delivers well might flaws matter anymore over either see reflection society blind reality,0 +english teacher watches anime yoyoyoyoyo holy fucking h english teacher something year old korean man got discussion class anime hahahaha animes weird discussion guy knows h talked haikyuu food wars hunter x hunter jojo even fucking hentai even recommended gurren lagann him holy fucking hell,0 +seriously think might next week two nobody cares me facing reality unbearable time it never really feel alive anyway number years ive done absolutely fuck lie around feeling sad front laptop ive ruined physical health too nobody cares constant and mean every second fight keep life going steam honest ive enough struggle miss alive nobody else miss me maybe world run little smoother without way merry christmas wish everything gone differently,1 +happy right nowi everything going right now caring family girlfriend car place live good school amazing job seems like feel anything car crash recently car totalled people would distraught upset wasnt like another thing happened day get milk go work crash car get coffee etc sometimes driving think veering road running building hitting pole thinking would kill would mutilated beyond recognition getting suicidal thoughts week desire commit them need help think,1 +stimulus alienation feeling kinda annoyed us government giving every kid independent adults leaves gap dependent yearolds get money whatever reason seems like oversight give money year old dependents me could use cash get school supplies college save for anyone else see weirdness dumb,0 +loved movie like everyone said bits developed enough thought personally girls vapid landed prison sure supposed innocent american girls stilli felt like lacked bond best friends supposed have example montage theyre sightseeing way held photograph awkwardlookingbr br then parts ambiguous think pretty much understood danes character it see could confusing also camera dwell manat bearing grim expression put bags taxi trunk thought suggesting something turned nothingbr br apart that movie great cried claire danes took blame great actressbr br also wanted see bitchy thai inmate get ass kicked talk lack closure,0 +since people become careless coldi told suicidal last night mean hurtful reply happened us thought best friends,1 +damn bus weird spent ish minutes talking another driver like buddy forget route,0 +saw something forever changed man police officer stopped teen black male anything wrong cop told tie tied correctly teen told way date never learned propperly orphan police officer steps car redoes young males tie tells looks nice look teens face thanks officer gave hope life full good people,0 +gay hard make brain hurt gf im gay love much cant fuck guy fuck hand gf dude hand fuck hand,0 +im bored coins comment want candycorn ,0 +atlantis much better anticipated ways better story come films aimed higher age although film demand solid attention span times great film ages noticed younger audience expected comedy got adventure think everyone tired endless parade extreme parodies lot kids seen nothing parodies short time everyone seemed intensely watching atlantis,0 +commit alive im market guy thick accent asked line hear say hi usupremeseby dead heard name responded hi yea dont wanna live hes still behind line yall,0 +would happen diedif killed would able watch friends familys reaction death above,1 +anyone witness justice system lack thereof find film truly satisfying many shades gray regard characters plot virtually every character film epitomized best worst society popularity film probably due fact us one time another deal scumbags along nambypamby lilylivered meleemouthed bureaucrats empower name political correctness br br the performances across board compelling sympathized rape victim same found gratifying see wipe smug vicious arrogance faces former attackers particular found dyke one ugliest characters films ive seen nice see former victim shut mouth good lead rapist psychopath equally ugly fitting dirty harry offed loud grotesque fashion end sequel dirty harry saga equaled first,0 +today finally broke cheating lying manipulative mean girlfriend told dad talked said decision mine tearing eyed nodded yes sent message said thought loved hard weve together since september th year crazy year today gonna crazy day hard think as well girlfriend lmao id say made right call people change understand much nicer stuff first met shes become mean shit even cheating me now thank reading,0 +needed say somethingtheres probably people problems much worse feel incredibly guilty posting feel option left id like put bit backstory things make sense hopefully im diagnosed bpd something like say quite honestly one really knows it left home parents divorced jumping houses ate lot coping mechanism put weight result fault entirely one blame that bpd surfaced pleasant person around mother hated thus reasons leaving home father drinking addict thus susceptible angered outbursts hate quite frankly fast forward years shifting sleeping friends beds finally living one rooms grandmothers house dad lives too hes living past years rent free taking total advantage her much money try help form chores taking out offered money various occasions declined decided tonight kick sort self my depression put streets himself threatened believe made worse occasion felt unjustly pointed answered back instead sitting silence made things worse tried explain bpd hes adamant kicking out terrified want end life cannot go back cannot live streets tired burden everyones life everyone ive live with seem feel way cant cant anymore know ill do know im scared crying wish close eyes awaken cant face tomorrow cant see tomorrow anyhow like said im sorry know theres people much worse apologies always told im guilt tripping people probably im now im sorry,1 +cut nails rubbed hands lotion feel smooth,0 +tried kill myselfi tried kill taking bunch pills didnt fucking work im boy please help,1 +alcohol ruining life im going make multiple paragraph essay really feel like it however alcohol literally drove suicidal thoughts depression multiple times now im even one drinking people around currently past absolutely terrible drink normally ends involving im already terrible state things life im abused im fortunate that still fucking sucks always end pointing insecurities talk behind back even though grown ass adults yell cause feel like it cant fucking house cant let feelings without knowing used next time get drunk needed let out sorry wasting time,0 +hello new reddit found group today f wondering anyone else confused whether depression something else mother two wake up make husband breakfast get dressed play day cannot seem find energy together sit couch floor play mind either overdrive tired btw children happy fed meals day snacks between neglect them neglect myself anyone else feel way things help yourself depression something else,1 +wish never borni didnt ask this,1 +hey bitches guess whos getting therapy past weeks ive feeling mental health declining shot mom email shes looking therapist fuck yea see arent well sign fucking ask help,0 +society sees terrorist maybe go kill myselfim gonna labeled terrorist supporting certain people maybe ill go kill myself fighting help people thier psychological health alienate even more instead helping people like mass shooters shit like were gonna alienate even make problem worse make people suicidal nothing ever gonna change maybe go die guess nobody wants help someone homicidal thoughts theres help people suicidal homicidal thoughts then,1 +girlfriend tips tricks girlfriend cant leave one first place,0 +itnormaltothmkof ways kill myselflike using nails ro slice throat banginf head edfmge th table hard cracks open,1 +exquisite film make like more eavesdrop upper middle class family dublin early part th century hosting christmas dinner friends relatives table talk idle chatter well written one engrossed away dinner table fine piano playing helps create intimate atmosphere one one guests perhaps bit perfect amateur player odd mistake would added magic film real story real entertainment object lesson coming film makers,0 +fish seggs like bloop britney stop moving much bloop bloop,0 +im getting every day redflag seems pretty appealing compared going timesthats life expectancy im basically relationships outside family family loves much enough me feel guilty greedy read peoples posts lost love life got abused traumatized money etc meanwhile real problem im scared social interaction last week talked girl found attractive gave number texted day stopped responding rejection crushed me people tell im young whole future ahead me feel young friends years younger meaningful romantic relationships cant get girl talk hours im immediate danger killing myself think every day think shooting back throat hopefully destroy brain stem think hand could jerk maybe turn living shell brain dead tormenting family even worse successful killing outright think avoid building guillotine severing head body entirely would likely kill me think future want weekend think this im still far away acting it ive drifting direction long long time need change course may well end up,1 + college graduate make k year live atlanta kids single reason happy feel like big emptiness inside really know do bored life feel like happy kind lost really know go here normal anyone else experienced this accomplished wanted life nothing idk guys think happy,1 +understand lifei know im posting here feel ashamed im posting here want die want live feel like ive never really gotten life ground im im smart talented educated creative people love artwork ive built following around it whenever opportunity comes get scared say no maybe right opportunity know feel like cant make decisions feel like life drastically different might sound sad ive never fully sex man boyfriend years ago things never went way i wanted to reason still get want know feels like one things thats keeping going eventually know thats going enough writing sentence makes want break tears want go ive living toxic parents house almost years boomeranging actually right ive got name crazy credit card debt theyre almost point charged off real income speak of feel like im always running direction know why cant give dream famous successful creative people tell maybe get job art stuff works out feel resistant feel like way make art thing work now something tells can know grit it especially exhaustion im going right now ive indecisive years believing hardest thing know life me look around life right now living shitty parents know totally me making money cant help wonder fuck im doing know im strong ive incredible pain months now im gaining weight really quickly probably medical condition money go get diagnosed im sure exacerbated stress parents offered pay bills go therapy tempting feel like life completely do god hate hear complaining know much better know do sometimes go library bag packed swear im going sell art online day find place stay night figure rest later never do give easily hard eat sleep hours night i guess thats better nothing im parents house feel much better know im sorry vomit one else knows im going this sometimes push hard enough get back positivity feels like pushing ton boulder hill feel pathetic me know find again feel like eventually im going end hospital condition homeless end it part feels ridiculous writing sentence like knows truth,1 +said before fan tweety hes aggravating wish sylvester would eat get withbr br in cartoon sly homeless back feeding garbage cans spots cruise ship leaving port nearby decides hop aboard spys tweety one passengers br br the ship provides adequate stage following hijinks sly desperately tries catch annoying bird avoid seasickness hes succeed chewing swallowing thus finishing irritating canary forever but cartoons starring tweety go one quite good thanks brilliant cat,0 +cool bug facts classmate owns clothing line idea lol proof heres link intrested which im sure dont httpswslaunchcartstorehttpswslaunchcartstore,0 +time goive wanting end life two years thought talking people would help thought thingd would get better dont nobody cares people worst right complain apparently go see therapist destroy family somehow maybe im selfish asshole all life important matter shit decent life people told care care much anything help me care much ignore need most maybe im expecting much maybe reason lied me still understand would that ended courage to them worst even courage im coward wish strength it need get fact alone forever meant be realized years existence maybe knew could done something,1 +hate small eyed bitch much hope vibrator dies cum wont shut larping bullshit comments,0 +tonight nightevery day adult life total shit real friends girlfriend family cares fuck keep trying tonight night im gonna end make suffering stop simply reasons left keep trying good bye,1 +know not know why fucking hate myself fucking loser matter do kurt vonnegut said sometimes lucky tried hang pussied out really cannot wake thing tried make life better never worked out losing hand life guess cannot see way forward hey all,1 +im near end ropei used straight as student catch school work certain time online life mundane work eat sleep work eat sleep barely work makes life even boring major depression pretty sure ill never amount anything social anxiety friendstheir real friends nothing makes happy never girlfriend know die alone end know give excuse matter billion people there,1 +dbz fans annoying hell can beat goku one cares ill watching anime maybe looking anime tik toks talking cool powerful one faves are one fuckers come start ranting cant beat goku realise absolutely _no one_ cares nothing better eating gokus ass understand yall like dbz respect that ruin everything cant shit without dbz getting mentioned yeah goku clap cheeks well done heres trophy shut up ps targeted dbz fans chill yall fine,0 +experience covid far brother got covid like symptoms week ago got tested then came back negative symptoms go test day ago come back positive basically meaning first place fucked idk happened isnt fault everyone whos come contact likely strong chance leads personal experience since im sure too far experiences really lack energy really weird feeling headache us hasnt felt painful guess like annoyance nothing worth complaining about lots congestion aches thats really it way hes felt past week feel mean used bathroom kitchen ya know whatever else house week pretty sure luckily far lesser spectrum,0 +needwhat need shelter need food money need job need friends family need hobby have rope,1 +partner may end life tonight goes goi made post earlierhttpwwwredditcomrdepressioncommentsxzei_nearly_destroyed_a_year_relationship_i_feel cheated partner years several times alright last night well today wasnt talking tonight started feel better started feel worse found stole valium potassium work contemplating ending life overdosing waking up know without him love him despite badly ive fucked up want stay him thought wanted stay me takes life likely too im numb scared whole ton emotions right now please help,1 +wtf happened monster school videos used watch around times complete cesspool clickbait seems borderline softcore porn edit im talking minecraft one,0 +help shave better go grain nothing like literally nothing hair presses flat face go cut areas stubble best end hella lotta ingrown hairs yall shit ps im speaking facial hair,0 +dont carei could give fuck less anymore dont care health fuck else going life fuck honestly im really quite tired fucking living lonesome im either gonna relapse cutting slit fucking arteries care less change doesnt matter doesnt mean shit new home new friends new whatever doesnt fucking matter still wont fucking make feel like im shit stain dont fucking say stupid im you bullshit ive heard fucking much intoxicating making every bit breathing hurt thousand times more im planning i id rather impulsive fucking get out thought fucking person around might wanna know fuck happened maybe theyll find somewhere fucking mess post fuck all,1 +found himmy ex boyfriend years best friend killed week ago found body woods feel like everything touch dies third fried killed themselves cant even begin figure process this id used call bad nights hed talk promised hed alive long was feel like fault feel immense amount guilt neglecting final week almost taunting him cant stop crying unless turn back substances know wouldnt want like this cant help five fucking words destroyed me they found him hes gonehttpsimgurcomagzppe,1 +day asking day day people woke great day,0 +sure hugh jass hugh janus might cool but seen hugh jtiddies massi vpenis,0 +interesting titlehi im sorry wasting peoples time would one person able talk me guess realised tonight back shit gone partner listen me even listen sits completely quiet get upset says i dont know say every time know life comparatively bad since im homeless option food usually available yeah im good person,1 +maybe lesbians dont existmaybe everyone right ill probably end dude anyway maybe lesbians dont exist apparently sexuality fluid lesbians fuck men maybe milo right lesbianism bullshit i want to kill my fucking self,1 +please make stop please make pain stopi cant stop crying want held right now please make thoughts go away please something help,1 +im tired fi tried killing sunday wanted try carbon monoxide poisoning didnt work tried hanging couple months ago got scared midway stopped im tired im sad depressed weak hate myself try make others happy im never happy havent felt true happiness long forget feels like good life like this im scared tell boyfriend knows im depressed dont think knows bad is feels wrong tell feel head girlfriends arent supposed that theyre supposed make so happy make feel loved tell theyre depressed want kill themselves no wont make happy theres thid deep heavy sadness heart im scared tell parents im scared make therapy appointment know dont want hear theyre daughter suicidal piece shit know love me scare sometimes cant always make happy im fucking dumb always okayish grades school work barely anything suck job took thought would make happy interest parent im depressed unhappy life love people around me cant hard ive depressed long years ive told one person whole thing person doesnt even live country me feel alone even though know im not keep distancing people me want die ive come terms it really nothing much im weak mentally im weak dont want go painfully thought carbon monoxide gonna work hate myself im sorry long wanted ramble,1 +im tired watching porn literally want girl tell matter want loved im tired wanting kill too,0 +weirdita weird feel awesome days later want jump front trainits weird telling parents want kill careits weird family bipolarity touch psychologist life weird living third country care mental healtits weird living,1 +nothing helps staying alive inviting abusei love brothers love friends dont want hurt them mother doesnt love ive lost family speaking fathers abuse ive sexually assaulted times want count including really violent rape never stop affecting me dont think im capable relationship sex point also know twentytwo stay alive happen again ive put year long waiting list therapy ptsd say discharge flashbacks one event already am suppose im supposed lie two years ago diagnosed life changing condition put drugs degrade emotional health cognitive functioning stop taking them might well die anyway dont want live dont want hurt anyone dont want burden people love know things likely get easier cant ask help anymore know wont solve anything ill feel guilty opening up dont remember like fight suicidal plans time ive tried everything,1 +office ntk michael scott left leave forever episode come back good also want make petition make office season the office electric bungalo would sign,0 +updated user flair birthday today woohoo year old gang at,0 +im exhaustedi tried tried fucking hard best friend best daughter best person could be enough spent much time money trying keep friends many nights ignoring sleep keep company darkest hours hand whip whipped cream tweak recipies best friend like vanilla much time care effort something simple gift wrap what blocked explanation called wife pretends like even know am want know wrong fuck friendship myo mother hates me hear much bitch many times breaks me money taken many times realize respect me want love man hug mom friend appreciate much truly care im done extending getting spit face nothig bottle now much love wanted give yall broke me im tired getting hurt,1 +really muchyou know thick a im sure call itmaybe moment past mental breakdown sure it breakdown end breakdowns absolutely sure want escape pain deep hurts bones cry hours days pass made another hit again deep soul time feels like really pain handle eventually end rope thats always feels like but eventually be now wish before wish would able follow one times think much happiness everyone gone lay crying dry tears try write kids notes care people able show love them good crying cold try write letters flashes youngest giggling im holding wave pool waves going clings me joy happiness want feel heart play head want paper memory me,1 +watched movie first time ever sci fi channel must say simply awesome loves the never ending story one would bring back memories movie even though movie hazy like setting look makes feel like is fantasy acting brilliant music great especially beginning battle song end song yet see it watch it recommended completely,0 +gots question anyone else naturally replace love feel someone hate breakup me,0 +want donetheres point fighting anymore found today ive booted group project poor attendance cant complete course without project im never going done degree ive meds seeing doctorscounselorspsychiatrists five years im barely better started friends left graduated moved away sided exboyfriend dumped last summer hesitation ending upset parents would be makes angry cant end suffering know would suffer result cant keep going sad empty treadmill kind life im going anywhere want out,1 +idk feel like shit dont want anything anymore dont enjoy talking friends like used to dont energy workout make resin bake dont feel happy talking best friend anymore dont energy school dont even motivation get bed days cry nowhere skip meals even gave shopping lunch day dad didnt feel like going out feel like one gives shit me feels like im used think it stress it mom keeps asking whats wrong keep saying im fine im fine need help dont know get it dont want hurt anyone way am feels like cant talk anyone im supposed fine im almost years clean great grades im going graduate start college soon im supposed fine right dont know whats wrong me,0 +warning rapedsoooooooooio notes folder facts wrote sorry format happened im sitting feeling dirty disgusting awful help please im begging help hung tinder weird texts anothey place didnt know said take whores said didnt want go vehemently many times pulled hair choked called names forced me manipulative didnt submit leave mouth open mind gone pushed head couldnt see w going dick choked scared numerous times terrified begged use condom forced inside said stop pushed room hotel goes behind hotel first literally throws around slaps forced penis leaves let check go get condoms gets car accident was super low gas prob acts like genuinely likes person im genuinely terrified individual reinforces self doubt im sitting clothes underwear inside begged to laughed crying made think overreacting playing game no hes done girls im ashamed also im really mentally messed ptsd things happened afraid nobody believe please help please help happened im still wearing panties so im shaking im shaking dont know,1 +dont know whats going mental state point im sure im sad lonely ive always way feel slowly drifting void darkness want get of time want go into worst part is personality essentially makes impossible anybody know im well dont want bother people end putting facade friends family dont worry everyday sit room door closed feel emotions drained honestly im sure something wrong im stubborn tell people im ok,0 +pickup south street one brilliant movies ever made example directing candy jean peters starts going purse notices wallet missing alarm goes background building alarm going head cartoonlike subtly woven background way strikes subconscious level seen film times clicks theres alarm bell going starts frantically going bagbr br richard widmark way top game smartalec hes really great highlight performance film first scene moe street peddlerinformer played thelma ritter later apartment seeing movie seeing real person ive never seen anyone act real felt like looking real room ritters performance right way hair stuck bit removed hat br br about million things worked way lightning louie picks money chopsticks way candys jewelry clicks flicks moes hand away brooch way moe gets dollars change police captain across fbi guys chest even way captain opens filing cabinet like hes way room many years pickup south street detailed moves directing consummate performances acting superb nownostalgic visuals day panel truck boards leading shack water dumbwaiter unforgettable place skip stashes pocket pickings wonderful stuffbr br pickup south street also one movies where even though characters perfect care perhaps somewhat branded pasts ways hard escape skip threetime loser candy youngish woman knocked around lot people behave little badly expect sort novel ways make seem looking people never otherwise imagine yet know possible actors make recognizably human,0 +depression want diei pretty sure depression used to left sure almost always happy still want die reason why,1 +feeling way better everyone fever yesterday among things feel way better today immune system speed runner apparently yall,0 +im going deed god want badlyi venting frustrations here currently feeling thoughts leaving work now going dads house getting one guns my dad reason wife nuts driving far away go woods somewhere end suffering thought going head right now like literal bullet want to however fucking coward fear death fear comes next committing deed damning self eternal damnation suffering hell trying end suffering life make things worse suffer eternity one reason cannot go deed fear unknown although agnostic catholic upbringing tugs back mind cannot hurt family friends dogs innocent sweet dogs would miss daddy imagine pain causing pain others best friend killed years ago got drunk lay abroad coming home war zone ran traffic became hoodornament family suffers immensly day actions friends suffer it see family times year tell shattered them cannot people love man want pain stop causing pain well outside think great life middle class great albeit boring career someone age supportive family wife etc yet bit debt wife bat shit crazy manipulative hell tries alienate friends family want leave trying to ugly messy afraid harm herself dogs me mean never suicidally depressed since teen came recent years see shrink meds such much need change need things work check mental institute lose job puts debt issues which turn makes life worse stuck horrible catch making sigh,1 +hiso hi guess sorry really broken ramble lot relevant one way another guess really know thisll actually work hell probably long shot reading comments posted guess start fact im feeling suicidal exactly knew me ive casually thinking good two years thinking upon kind shrugged puberty shit whatever hormones guess ive thinking recently come realisation redflag coming mind more more hell even feel bad thinking kill reading others put know people family losses huge god damn fallouts everybody know contrasting reasoning seems petty guess ill post here family wise see family see dysfunctional fuck eyes aka relatives close me sit computer day honest true theyll say hello ive heard comments parents asking anti sociable hes rude parents responding oh hes always like ignored also happens parents friends well struggle conversations hell time cant hold one one conversation thirty seconds mum dad split mum split boyfriend four years two weeks ago give less shit him never talked actively avoided me ever said theorising problems kids caused who got along fine actually fault saying mum proceeded shout me ill get later dad probably family member like little basically lets stuff freely ie eat dinner wherever sleep schedule choice things like that ive got chores often thats fine never shouts unless ive actually done something really pisses off three times fifteen years also sometimes like every two months stuff like go golf free time go computer browse web play games like csgo terraria family see disappointment apparently life never go friends more thats mum tells though stuff like homework leave school times last day friends varied even know like huge act try get away whenever attempt socialise couple friends constantly actively attempt annoy hurt emotionally physically in minds probably bit fun annoy me like talk makes breaks lunches okay school outside school talk though stick couple groups talk playing games time im silent reason probably talk pity as one said privately serious anger issues whole amount stuff said previous three four years keep trying bottle up sometimes ill slip start getting incredibly annoyed something pathetic cant contain myself nobody gets hurt im weak thin feel like parents like me although like dad see weekends seems like like me conversation telling dinner is hes going bed mum hand seems get annoyed shout me know aspergers although pretty mild affect looks smart like some knows said shell stop shouting getting annoyed however happen probably said front person diagnosed make seems like loves me shell get annoyed something also take everyone else however im normally one there resulting shouted at one friend told recently thought killing said thats stupid idea thats it proves care overall feel pathetic family care me little amount friends affected death recently feeling edge suicidal thoughts constantly popping up kill would mean badly school aka annoying teachers would affect someone minutes theyd go without giving shit already redflag plan consists oding pills jumping unfenced bridge probably also hitting car bottom ive enough hide fake smiles laughs jokes comments aimed me refuse go physiatrist tell family one friend tell care need help ,1 +love brother drinks icu like fifth time great fun long icu replaced grave point,0 +ive decided kill hour soi sort social media one access accounts throw diaries ill dine it im peace finally,1 +need rant bit ok undiagnosed mental illnesses at least know seems extremely likely them probably neurodivergent parents dont know of course always yell me say im lazy shit like that horrible time somehow ok time management like idk describe kinda like oh ill feel like always know things especially im yelled great parents outwardly express think im lazy better things im sitting like knowing mean cant express mean annoying also friend parents think a gender fluid phase b suspicious im faking im confident c think fake many things hard keep count frustrating parents tell times things hard keep complete shit sense time anyways good day,0 +actually feel betterafter reading forum or call reddit thingy one week started feel way better life situation like people real problems like losing someone debt unsuccessful attempt killing themselves problems stand near these started realise life bad all even though im still pain depression feel lot better like general bad change bad things around hopefully finish weekend but yeah untill im totally fine gotta listen muse read now,1 +goodnight europian comrades sleep well fellow europians tomorrow great day hope,0 +tempo di uccidere time kill guiliano montaldo bit strange film good waybr br i bother summary plot ive read gives wrong impression makes believe people wrote really understand film need understand level even cannot describe actually about film strange once upon time america way shorterbr br many hollywood stars whatever may mean played lesser known italian productions known many actors past prime slowly rising this cage yet real star made im fan him hes good roles raising arizona bringing dead weak plays hero really know think one sure portray typical hero main character film could done without him fact starred may reason one ever made dvdbr br the supporting cast good one looks fake act really there solid supportbr br i seen films montaldo marco polo saccovanzetti one think one greater directors time unfortunately nobody knows him movie last long time a break years think movie might failed office way done think montaldo personal project really likedbr br the production great always enough dusty army camps claustophobic cities magnificent landscape play great part feels real scenes almost feel heat sound nothing special music ennio morricone good piece whistle shower sure works greatbr br so movie looks feels sounds right serve lessons learned golden platter may biggest difference hollywood eurocinema around might sound strange give recommend people do looking action avoid one looking well made apocalypse different time setting bit similar journey state mindsorry sound corny know else call it might enjoy one lot,0 +yeah im guy yeah choose female character playing pokemon gamefreak really make choose guy still wear skirts,0 +ok got big brain thought experiment forgive typos mobile so know shit load cells make brain amount humans cells de brain assigned em cell create cuz cellular level cell individual evolved us creature individual consciousness aware exists happen humans became cells give consciousness completely new sees universe completely different scale know what scratch that no humans cells human body given time assign cell create creature consciousness see touch smell taste hear create life thats big brain idea thinkidk shut im big brain post smaller expected huh,0 +lets go good bad things happened last days good snowed small plastic skeletons spotify let try premium free caught ajj live quarantine lady night sean played favorite ajj song bad fully broke bones wrist need surgery schedules changed hardly talk cute australian friend weekend im stuck cast least weeks removing ability bike anything requires hands,0 +hate myselfi hate myself everything went badly today dealing social services people aunt trying help yelled honest didnt want get legal trouble so honest really dont see point living anymore but want kill myself aunt said house maybe ill tomorrow instead going friends place,1 + hate writing right now especially reddit god damn places regardless that want die years first thought conceives mind awake death it especially weird know happy moments life mine yet suffice makes upset try hard survive push yet head keeps feeling way does years therapy months psych ward experience still crave death thing breaks heart recognize happier moments yet still unhappy normally would treat positive instances progress solely still left emptiness before besides that imma save money hire hitman myself already done research know look need moneyhopefully next life live holds better things ill gone soon thanks listening bullshit want hire hitman,1 +online learning horrible kids abusive families home time dad got laid hes home time too hes really stressed drinking lot im bothering anytime talk class take space books schoolwork school care computer wifi were required keep cameras on everyone school see live dump microphone on everyone hear dad watching tv neighbors yelling background dad careful anymore visible bruises are im losing weight cant get lunch school get evicted probably will itll mean ill drop out obviously get covid big deal going school option get everyone sick still people really thinking awful kids shitty home lives know im supposed do,0 +guys fish drowned sad continue id like thank sponsor today raid shadow legends,0 +people reddit ask stuff im really freaking bored realize school holidays friends aint great combination know,0 +idk title bei lead theoretically pretty good life happily married great job loving family ive unbearably depressed since preteen feel like depressed default state rather neutral ive thoughts hundreds times tonight first time actually see cant talk anyone it never able talk anything real person,1 +im sure ever botheredim sure even begin like anyone cares im currently sitting bathroom knife crying uncontrollably guess years shit finally hitting me baby shes beautiful weeks old tomorrow shes reason dont want anything name ellie im shit marriage used love him still care way years mistreatment negativity crap sex life taken toll me cheated too sad part still cheating guy believe im actually whole heartedly love with im scared leave husband though dont want anything stupid want happy want us happy dont see anymore ive tried leave two maybe three times avail hate job shit money paycheck goes straight outrageous student loans im boss employees just awful left basically everything guess fault though im bad manager wasnt bad manager id good employees hate fucking family years years fucking judgemental hipocrasy mother morbidly obese bitch nasty drinking problem starts shit everyone especially sister ive literally middle man family listening everyone bitch complain everyone else dad cool though marine vietnam kinda scary though ive overweight life last march started diet lost pounds close goal weight got pregnant surprise im back fat fat fuck jiggling around everywhere none clothes fit im poor go get new ones also motivation lose weight probably already fucking lost gain fuck back again friends mean theres like maybe people would say otherwise see like that one bothered visit hospital since ellie around everyone else like yeah meet baby thats it someone best friend even bothered visit since thanksgiving guess goes ways shes pregnant wanted throw shower realized give shit ellie waste time person ive ever able confide guy ive cheating husband with hes one whose ever given hope loves me insane smart hed walk away trainwreck life im scared tell bad feeling right now everyone needs break awhile different tldr seriously dont even worth time goodbye,1 +hey you hows day ,0 +yall please spam post comments im going bed wake want feel like people care lay sleep pray lord soul keep,0 +top games wanna know games teens like also im almost yay,0 +questioning morality guess titles pretty vague mean worry sometimes im actually decent human being know based moral perceptions listen parents who good people guidance actually i think right deep vile parents ones keeping afloat whats right way know parents influence grueling ive talk mom says even thought proves morality is others told thing response general moral questing outside childtoparent dynamic helped me sometimes still worry know kinda brusque felt share case anyone else experienced ordeal edit spacing,0 +whats least painful way kill myselfhi names hannah im years old turning november th days today im currently suffering ptsd depression amp anxiety professionally diagnosed want explain whole life story fact im currently abusive crappy household ive cutting past years way get weight pain thats dumped onto everyday shoulders im tired crying everyday im tired getting called every horrible name book starving make mom happy im tired everything life general want kill badly im afraid death crazy anyone know semi painless ways could end life deal little pain get beatings everyday ive learned deal little hurt please give your life precious please survive live another day loved bullshit thats is bullshit get enough cheap crap therapist bottles pain meds antidepressants anxiety pills also ibuprofen basic meds overdose painless like overdose go sleep die peacefully second option jump school stories tall building would probaly feel impact head splats concrete done always kept idea mind ampxb please dont reply dont genuine answer questions thanks anyways thats it tysm u help get fast possible cant deal life day further want fucking die happy,1 +one hearing desperate cries help im shouting void hereno one seems read ill vent anyway majorly fucked up mania lorazepam loss created perfect storm craziness come out think friends made chat room without it fair enough get still hurts much didnt intend find obviously didnt care did cut bunch times im even feeling better youve made far post even far anyway thank you friends dont leave read anymore leave nothing fault bit let get attached serves right ill die alone someone please help me always make covert cries help regular cry help im okay need help need someone me thanks,1 +wish chose criminology subject soooo interesting _ ,0 +really pointwere raised consume hope someday may eventually comfortable ive got bachelors accounting make barely minimum wage literally never money despite everything right serve bourgeois overlords thats it right complain plenty people going way tougher situations dont care fuck system religion politicians failed us hope theres peace death living life hell,1 +watched movie chance get curious trailer tv like discover movies like this little tender stories ordinary people even end tragic the man moon funny moments especially first characterization dani innocent pure love affair court really beautiful moving love story high points performance reese witherspoon maintained promises world cinema beautiful cinematography old lion freddie francis fantastic score james newton howard really soul movie themes which deserved oscar nomination intimate lyric seems transformed screenplay music,0 +anyone know im fucking dumb literally used straight student high school im shit clue especially since friends great school conclusion come im dumb hell ive gotten lucky past couple years anyone know why,0 +nva combines eastalgiahumor military comedy teen movie although somehow typically germanmovielike sentimental think great funny movie laugh nva also get bit insight eastern germany armed forces late ies young recruits well professional soldiers experienced fall berlin wall end german democratic republicbr br you enjoy nva liked sonnenallee another movie directed leander haumann necessarily enjoyed good bye lenin much serious less obviously funnybr br the acting acceptable watch former boy band singer kim frank two facial expressions natural shocked saucereyed,0 +want talk support group wife cant handle much more uncle lives close nh want get news station take story say long ago posting title username hope read comment maybe happened you,1 +country u want travel why wanna travel japan becasue like culture cuisine love environment there,0 +never whole fucking done already fucking dead dead years cannot fukcing wait destroy body release soul sure god willnhave good laugh life cruel fucking joke,1 +good move noi ended contact best friend starting today order get better matter many times tells otherwise accept gay male around even thought him puts extreme turmoil could bad move correct way get mind throwing life away maybe give months realize decent individual deserve treated less ive considered redflag due many problems one alone logical thinker able follow through easy starting new life new people would awesome,1 +christmas ideas clue want christmas grandparents i live them rich theyre gonna buy things yet interest getting really anything christmas anyone suggestions get i understand hard since everyone different interests something everyone would cool with,0 +cant think title thisever since little felt im supposed perfect little kid pleases adults never anything wrong lived expectation every time get trouble someone gets mad me want kill myself while googling feelings lead finding antinatalism joined subreddit dedicated it saw post said commit redflag mom sad said thought bringing innocent soul messed world seeing that thought thing post said probably kill next time someone yells gets mad me,1 +im terrible person world would better without mei got speeding ticket going first ticket either meaning im going traffic history follow rest life continue live also moms car meaning im terrible son know would hurt mom die long run death would better her seeing worry killing someone car accident getting car totaled speaking which love driving fast im terrible person addicted actions could put others lives risk road empty love flying large roads makes feel free gets feeling happy im usually depressed speeding makes happy reason world better dead need reason live keep drawing blanks,1 +wish could make onlyfans people would buy content im broke busy work,0 +im leaving reddit great funny all theres depressing stuff really need right now along things still favourite subreddit though thank that cya around,0 +partner deathfrom us want die summer ends would someone want join year old male dont get response near end leave alone im prepared to,1 +ok firstly fan whole low budget horror genre bother this really need fan get gagbr br the move basically snakes on train lots thembr br there ancient curse involved crazy ending wont spoil gore effect full real icky movie mainly one big gory gag snakes scaring hell bunch people trapped trainbr br the suspense built well memorable well composed scenes acting bit hammy watch surf dudes thats really point give movie go know expect wont regret it,0 +fastesteasiestpainless way kill myselfokay fed getting simple answer anywhere wanna hear life gets better youre important life precious get help shut fuck up one asked never thought shit b know first thing me even know existed till read note someone use tell straightreal answer want life ended period period period,1 +viewed movie second time september thought even better first time saw it thoroughly enjoyed acting especially uncle benny thought fred carpenter excellent job writing directing film story line definitely kept interest hope movie makes way top felt moved smoothly scenes surprise twist end well lets say see coming also thought craig actor played eddie monroe excellent job hope movie help go acting career start finish thoroughly enjoyed it,0 +tried everything exercise medication calling friend vent problems calling suicide hotline getting psych guard group therapy psychologists meditation eating healthy owning emotional support animal nothing absolutely nothing works alone life friends grew tired problems cannot blame them lost inside mind thought asking help could way mysery turns never was basically used every single person ever close could fix broken soul feel guilty wanted have even want happy wanted okayi lived past expiration date stopped trying long time ago want last words make everyone knew feel depressed opposite actually hope understand it cannot find happiness cannot find stability looking years got tired trying please put shoes sanei got point realized gone crazy depression took left me used be person everyone knew died long time ago left remainsi want know understand best needed free pain going through today finally restwhoever reading this wish best love you understand pain going through really do wish could free you wish could hug right nowmom please feel guilty dad take care her love both keep young memories find lived past expiration date,1 +teachers dress halloween bring classroom joy appreciated sweethearts teachers dress bring joy classroom sweetest things ever trying bring happiness laughs classroom appreciated maybe even bring candy room decorations deserve raise acts kindness made fun acting silly amp fun,0 +kinda gave friend rim jobbbb mean kinda okay one lick still rlly fun,0 +chinese people see less deadass asked hella asian friend tbh guys need confirmation,0 +last strawhi everyonei years old malewho born raised turkey then wanted go germany education without parents approvali sisterswho i came back germany turkey years ago lived germany almost years alone without anybodybefore came turkeyi knew stuff wrong check hospitali thyroid hormones high germany roommate pharmacist checked low blood sugar i unconsciousi took care issues turkeyalthough mental state also badi month without shower going germany oncei started smoking therenot much drugs thoi never liked sedatedmost life learned things myselfmy father teaching things need know childhood example proper body care maleafter came back germanyi went many psychiatrist since came backi used lot antidepressantsneurolepticsi tried break bonds friendsi cut stab knife many timesnot redflagbut forgetting emotions pains physical onei like friendsmy familymy lifemyselflooks like coming endmy doctor said parentsthat give responsibilitiesback kidmy sisters look likethey respect all ask mewhatever want please aski try answer questions thanks reading,1 +think fell love best friend alright heres thing think im love best friend im screwed history friendship literally thick thin literally share everything always care one another point time time say love one another country shes originally another country go international school lockdown happened stuck country going renew passport boyfriend country hard listen everything say give comfort can months go becomes sad depressed still country months went broke shattered her hard comfort didnt know didnt want give empty words ill end repeating again months goes gets better shes getting chased guys country one especially kept chasing eventually got like back never met lived another city basically weird flirtatious friendship dont mind wasnt pushing wanted something serious wanted affection away everyone knew talks lot guys look walks smiles her like bad way good way call it dont know made feel jealous talks guys wants affection even wants atleast one boyfriend country leaves peoplebut someone breakup leaves comes back like said dont know makes feel jealous wished person talks hugs behind kissing cuddling like want shit dont know why want dont know trying fill void im hopeless romanticwhich entirely whole story own yeah think im love best friend dont know do,0 +thought killing escape would say people world good life feel like kill end right back cycle suffering whether another world dimension universe reality etc feel like i take another form existence knows where believe god feel like something higher power send lower part reality reality one destroying my current consciousness buddhism says reincarnate piece bacteria something abrahamic religion says suffer eternity fire anger redflag shame atheism sounds like best one exists anymore like dreamless sleep forever sounds good true cannot see something disappear nowhere really cannot see dying old age one smoke two feel like everything go shit climate change exponentially increasing rich getting richer poor getting poorer ww probably going start decade two would wish scientist would hurry fuck making ai mini black hole feel like escape,1 +everyday every minute every second suicidal thoughts attempted before stopping now try happy already given life want end tonight successful try given already,1 +soul tiredim going hurt myself im definitely deep depression idk do marriage dying dont like job lost identity person kids nobody talk causing bottle everything weighing down now plans hurting couldnt bear think loved ones im leaving behind wish rest good theres light end tunnel ive worked way hard life looks good paper leaves many voids know redflag watch im much heartache pain every day feel like im walking cinderblock shoes exist withering away every day ill take advice get needed place could anonymously get weight chest youre reading this thank you,1 +hey broettes im natsuu nice meet ya ampxb already met da bros seemed cool,0 +want existliterally every fucking person life starts hate get know me fucking annoying stupid complete waste energy hate fucking much want end it ive attempted twice even much coward choose method definitely permanent oxy xanax nice way go next time picking something never waste anyones time ever again,1 +give upim tired pain hurt im tired failure im tired alone scared im tired living,1 +kicked downccc,1 +lifes probably simulation cares deathim mentally done want out everyones gonna forget existed probably watched government honestly dont care im hurting people killing myself want die suffering im gonna let anyone elses want live overpower thought im afraid kill myself want dont guts im young teenager,1 +requesting website offers people looking counselling others offering counsellingit imgur reddit lost it problem solved,1 +beginning endso morning gf four months broke up everything me said break still loves me went block social medias one stopped killing months back many times now feel like ive failed person care about person love feels like crap ive failed many people im cried believe appropriate time remove problem myself,1 +im back sub againit takes much get rut one word or none someone back bottom,1 +tonight nighti told story sub hundreds times younger brother killed himself life spiraled control person kept grounded broke fucked someone week later tried give every family member good last memories me even ex im coming home christmas want say feel fucking horrible need to get keep thinking fucking bad want this holidays already hard enough told happened knew do cant get matter hard try got accomplish one last thing accepted transfer student college goes to,1 +thank you feel free send message need someone talk toplease,1 +tinkewbeww amazing fwen wish wewe besties but guess thats weality,0 +found one local grocery stores near sells croissants literally cents piece theyre good croissants too also sell ham cheese ones like cents still hella cheap find earlier actually get croissants havent that wasted opportunities smh yes buy lots croissants upon finding out,0 +talk favorite theories,0 +users sub unique us turned teenagers us still high school us university us married us kid us house us underage us virgins us arent virgins,0 +hi againi posted something weeks ago anyway felt better days happened since ive waking suicidal thoughts go away yesterday stayed bed day need find new apartment end month im homeless im tired that plan jumping roof friends five story building end month cant fix things life ex said would could friends month since ran even opened email sent tell hes completely moved care im tired anyway thought id write cant talk specifics friends without freaking out,1 +im checking outi think used lethal took mg fluoxetine units quick acting insulin im diabetic seeing takes me truly hope find peace happiness life,1 +always mad day everyday still want kill myself hate family starting hate friends hate still alive died years ago familys problems stem memy mom finally divorced stupid ass dad still dealing bullshit comes it would even left punched him treated like dog never called name instead punching offed right therebest case would blame come hell beat ass forever worst case problems still happen hear iti know guess another teen issues stem father original even sad anymore,1 +seemed like recognition emotional state like wanted quiet scares me claims trying help comfort me really trouble believing that second time something like happened first time arguing getting really heated,1 +simpsons predict future world us becoming dumb copying script cartoon im middle east way better us countrys government breaking apart joke sad truth,0 +xanaxis painful die xanax,1 +cute girl litteraly bedroom way looks swear im going die knife bit annoying though,0 +life would much easier thinkthis going mess idk else post this format fucked up apologise sometimes cant stop thinking reasons id better dead im barely human cant function like everyone else can im constantly reminded every shitty thing life matter go do ill never able forget this vivid memories every little thing ive fucked up cant get life without self harm thing point boyfriend theres almost nothing life makes happy anymore amp fucking sucks ive tried talk quitting said something want to thats beside point like idk feel lost im trying find something make stop thinking forever amp redflag answer course get temporary release cutting enough amp never be plus ruining life would much easier kill go shit want feel think even exist ill always reminded past experiences like long period sexual abuse amp rape abusive father amp fucked family even live long enough move ill plagued issues rest life get like boyfriend says things like think future itll get better think will things never get better makes happy really enough keep alive next couple years im stuck fucking house know im even writing this im much coward actually end it came pretty fucking close couple months ago course it wish wouldve succeeded,1 +normally happiness others responsibility want commit redflag is whywhy happiness others responsibility sudden want kill myself happiness responsibility,1 +sort liked columbo movie atmosphere real thriller like approach even times reminded filmnoir movie first minutes so really nice done good old fashioned way right camera angles use light mean instantly movie brilliant one though solid enough consider good late columbo movie entry definitely better movie average later columbo movie entrybr br years previous columbo movie appearance george hamilton returns play main lead opposite peter falk murderer total different new role course liked role good columbo villain gave good old lieutenant good competition nice sequences together problem modern new columbo movies always sort feature good well known actor opposite peter falk movie obviously suffer problem must say though movie feature peter falk best certainly played character better performance quite consistent enough within movie probably also due movie director daryl duke also directed really dreadful movie taipan among many projectsbr br it rather good enjoyable story fact sort plot cover murder used earlier columbo movie also help course got used movie columbo playback nevertheless course also still plenty enough original moments story even though course essence every columbo movie less same oh well made columbo series great consistent aint broke fix itbr br it also true within movie clues usual left lieutenant mean movie murderer stupid sloppy see writers overly enthusiastic others make movie story bad fact perhaps even makes enjoyable see columbo hard work discovering kind small important clues luckily movie also filled enjoyable effective relieving columbocomedybr br simply good late columbo movie entrybr br ,0 +guys sometimes get panic attacks start thinking future currently work hours day days week earn hour help parents rent pay services keep rest myself spend bit stupid stuff much spend free time watching anime reading manga buying manga playing games friends really enjoy that thing is whenever think ill life start panicking heart goes ballistic want study anything specific want work specific field thing ive got sort figured may interested serving one branches military future want good stable income afford stupid stuff housing myself nice car day buy house knowing life makes seem hard obtain parents want study ged also want keep working help pay rent feel completely lost always find going back playstation laptop forget worries seems like cycle end,0 +im expendablefor stranger im easily replaceable anyone thats obvious guy match ive talking online week im easily replaceable online friends im easily replaceable friend real life definitely know im easily replaceable talk years found depression act like got better even talks me extended family im easily replaceable barely even know me think im dirty sinner anyway would give shit disappeared immediate family im replaceable would get death im sure would theyre resilient would whole load minds worry wasting money anymore wasting opportunities nice enough give anymore starving street anymore waste resources im festering wound someones leg need get cut off stop existing society better without me,1 +guys google yankee boogle it end atf watchlist also definitely d printable device convert standard semi auto ar full auto,0 +thing left gone continuedeven fucking better girlfriends laughs saying gonna kill myself one person still needed moment getting angry saying wanted to said gonna kill fucking laughed said bullshitting im fucking overdosing dont care anymore honestly theres point,1 +apart family fucking depressingi dont fucking understand dogshit parentsevery sunday keep bringing church knowing hate going plus dad doesnt even listen goddamn messages pastor literally points exact bullshit hes wrongthe pastor talks letting children date non christians sister talks children moving away church parents fault sister doesnt give fuck shows doesnt even fucking listenso drive hour back every week waste hours sunday every week lung cancer ass doesnt even behave like christian mom saves kindness love complete strangers gives fucks mea stranger bringing bike lift quick press lift button keep lift open even though theres fucking sensors already keep door openher thoughts filled childrens safety complete fucking strangers well minewhen tell dont want go church shes like oh thats problem tell dad yourselffuck sake dont enough authority say fuck dont wanna go church really hope dads lung cancer takes life soon cant fucking take shit anymore depression made caused dont give fuckeverybody youre willing actually care child dont fucking breed,1 +ive suicidal lifei want die,1 +anybody vent too idk cant find anywhere else,0 +truly great movie loved dennis quaid entire baseball team jay hernandez also likable actor enjoyable watch chemistry team got things together spectacular goes show accomplish minds unite one one goal team came back brink multiple losing seasons winning everything love movies like really inspirationalbr br on top that dennis quaids character getting place major leagues cant anything root guy seems like someone supposed something going that things happen fall place makes everything clickbr br based true story film really make think fact nothing impossible,0 +want sea want drown peoplemy friend suicidal exhausting yes needs help support always expects get it talk parents get therapist call fucking hotline dump every fucking time really friends whod listen im starting understand why care cant deal practically week burning out even supposed tell him everything complains true yes one likes one cares whether live die exception people maybe yes fat ugly yes unable keep even stupid min wage job yes failing school yes life pointless meaningless theres nothing that sends pics gun tells brain going wall makes feel like hostage helpless afraid leave wants talk listen broken record story night till am hes drunk enough pass out sleep hours afford it hes unemployed give fuck school i hand wake function well hours sleep all think im reaching point soon burnt out tired sleepdeprived enough tell go it almost convinced would best option him anything improve situation change anything makes depressed cant care anymore chipping away remains sanity,1 +anyone join militaryhello fellow redditters depressed lost meaning life joined thought joining military ive looking option time trying enlist snags think might good dedicate something greater focus lifestyle time able travel outside home state try new things meet new people also benefits bad perhaps military life fill renewed purpose ive heard stories however people joining pretty miserable even redflags anyone experience could share airforce way pretty well asvabs need retake them maybe even better time around looking position cyber systems space command,1 +lactose intolerant would tolerate it quite simple actually even simne could it built different needs special lactose tolerant,0 +desperately need job mom pretty much it hey record im rapper take rap shit serious fuck like im willing put time effort money shit problem money guys aware turning months job working twice week making like paycheck mom hardly let work anymore shifts frankly shes lazy mean could drive myself finished driving classes wont let take road test practice hardly takes practice shes protective fuck doesnt want driving back whole job thing old job went corona reopened like months ago never called back chances probably wont hardly making money anyway tried talking mom it made bunch excuses virus dangerous know plenty jobs really good safe health regulations place dont want constantly leave house wouldnt issue let drive already give dollars month thats nearly enough need actually accomplish shit plus dont want use money want get early start career always makes shit difficult stems fact shes protective fuck wants stay inside time im turning months fucks sake know purpose place world know want do let geez,0 +hey im bored alone stream playing gta v talk chat please httpswwwtwitchtvkyobi_gaminghttpswwwtwitchtvkyobi_gaming,0 +knew would totally fucking itbut dont god fucking damn it maybe jump front train tomorrow itll going slow anything probably wont fucking fuck fuck ,1 +jump dayi stood top bridge climb jump friend goes dont dint want framed murder fill paper work seeing wow thanks dont jump need friend need dont stay popular,1 +filthy motherfuckers failed one god damn job hadyou absolute fucking mongoloids shadow banned guy instead offering help im sure subreddit helping people making lives worse go suck shotgun barrel see feels driven point go get shadow banned subreddit designed help people see feels access anymore,1 +people care thats okeveryone thinks theyre bad guy one question everyone bad guy world fucked good like telephone gamechinese whisper someones lying say treat others would want treated the golden rule say bullshit treat others treated you many people treated like shit sure fuck want treated like that its kinda funny true people care responsibilities understand that well responsible ourselves question shown care well mental state left deal suffering because choice responsibility care theirs responsible ourselves reason show care shown any thoughts hours sleep always get philosophical sleep way looking world proof action religious theres bible verse faith without works dead james sums see world hope feel better get well soon,1 +ever stop hating getting helpmods let know proper sub ill best girlfriend years told suicidal last night said tonight would night really know point talking hours phone texted sister gf still lives parents gf taken hospital upset me understand hold anything her blaming stuff control berating every time ive tried talking today im trustworthy anymore according her would lying said hurt lot now trying look bright side taken care family never big fan seem see better light apologise word soup im trouble focusing right now thank reading,1 +im fucking failureeveryone leaves me always have either leave themselves someone else makes them everybody see im worst possible fucking thing ever live hate much literally cannot express it amount words actions ever come close much hate myself need die would generally improve life everybody around me guess anyone else im inconveniencing taking oxygen id write letter asking organs donated theyd probably kill someone know heart black fucking dead try kind people fucking kick ledge lose grip spiral mentally unstable im worth anything im fucking peice shit would shoot think live long enough someone else me,1 +got redflag ocd depression lots different meds feel awful still tied mind knots trying self protect cannot untie them feel like want give really much take cannot get brain unscramble feel like losing touch reality,1 +downvote post wanna know many downvotes get please filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +testing post reddits accting rn im tryna see rteenagers,0 + biased muppet fan love treasure island christmas carol great muppet caper muppet movie absolutely deserves best them enormously entertaining thanks snappy script jerry juhl film looks lovely beautifully staged musical numbers speaking songs really liked them sure best song score muppet franchise nice listen to especially never before never one favourite muppet songs along first time happens professional pirate muppets usual fantastic particularly always delightful miss piggy chemistry kermit fozzie great brilliant human cast bob hope orson welles madeleine kahnthe wonderful actress brought us hilarious movies like whats doc blazing saddles clue cloris leachman steve martin richard pryor made memorable guest appearances careful overshadow muppets fantastic film bethany cox,0 +im sick itid like say ive dealing lot car accident two midterms taking credit hours courses summer trying expand nothingness social life im looking friends necessarily mean friends cool stuff im much interested something intimate if immodest someone sex with someone try sexual fantasies with im going lie you sex part mandatory thing me appreciate everything else im majorly affected anniversaries going dates weekly wants thats cool sex reasonable time weeks right now nobody seems like hookups wouldnt bad seems put incel land niceguy land god dont ever want compared that im serious say sex could say stay friends benefits would perfectly fine that ive flipped them always acted like big deal said no ive worked courage talk many times isnt girl interested girl date black guys stood prom college girl looking relationship thought college like sex mania something girl gay happy days ago brother told girls thought cute wanted set something up gave number give them would text ghost me well im getting tired shit pardon language dont want around see history repeat itself vital part development celibacy sacrifice willing make life money hookers premium porn connections hookups hate bars clubs entire lifestyle general one thing cant stand seeing right relationships again im getting little heavy worded here fuck every single person relationship shows fucking time dont want see that well anyways thats it want feel way anymore long im alive im gonna feel way so,1 +hate whenyoure looking painless methods kill yourself google shows bunch sites telling it assure you looking for,1 +usa turing s germany people burning bibles people always talk crap christians back germany people started killing jews honestly whats next us blm protesters terrorizing usa im ending police brutality equality going way far needs end this christians republicans christians homophobic racist white pls stop hating christians sadly bad christians use god excuse hate people hurting religion good people,0 +hate birthday year time feel like wasted another year life accomplishing nothing bday dont dare say ting,0 +requirements girlfriend doing bc saw someone else it female nice treat respect and same nothing else really matters,0 +finally agree iphone terrible apple respect customers proved expecting everyone buy chargers headphones separately even lower phone price,0 +yeah man feels aint good right worrying college school life jeez enough make heart drop try think slip every while isnt pretty does though,0 +im intelligent got condoms put dildo clean poop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +cant take morefemale severe ptsd emotional issues live isolated area one trust guy issues hes mentally abusive future would want,1 +bro friend pranked friend dying basically theres friends like offline months like said oh friend died everyones like rip username im thinking sort joke im like wait username died one like yeah bro died cancer n stuff friend like they died u didnt find out cap cap cap im blaming like i got proof say what proof show me send ss fake ass cnn article girl dying cancer like get pranked xd xd xd xdxd fucking hate now blocked rn aint gonna hear long ass time tbh,0 +organization american states essentially become eu open borders free trade among every country american continent,0 +tired sick suicidal cant deal itwell ive put almost years feel like ive made good faith effort get better avail im tired dealing this brain damage previous attempt probably shaved good points iq left impaired executive functioning seemingly permanent three years now brain fog hate job dead end job stressful low paying boringbest all requires constant travel really nightmare dread waking morning broke girl alienated friends usual deal pressures putting where relationship going do future together etc desire interact anyone putting time work mostly sleep listlessly watch tv weekends real kicker endogenous depression most likely incurable ive always depressed cant really recall time depressed seriously doubting get better ive therapy since so coming nine years now enormous waste time energy countless medications medication helps ive found test enanthate cruise this run cycles weeks duration every year since helps marginally currently running anything right now though since hitting feel like im borrowed time anyway since mom checked age want end swear ive done everything right nothing helps life going get bearable would done now,1 +im ok im ok im ok im okjust went round house taking eything downing bottle wine idek tok except mg propranolo whats point trying reach tell go hom eand die floor wan dont hope,1 +guys favouritememorable quotes quotes lyrics sayings kind thing ,0 +hip hop rendition mos def performance according films musical creditsit incredible piece savage consciousness slams violence heart snap anyone tell someplace song live wire snap mos def the ground truth undeniable duty see americans might support mission embrace soul caught inside savage miscalculation purposethey take haunting many us sit back angrybr br live wire snap mos def foundbr br desperate find br br medically unable serve,0 +recover sanitywell ive lately struggling random sanitycordure loss driving crazy used dissociative identity disorder treated got integrated for anyone know imagine disorder fragmentates someones head different people control someones body without even aware since got integrated parts fused complete again happened like half year ago lately random sanity loss breaking mind feel sad cant move bed reduced amount food eat due loss appetite know break pieces again parts might complot possibly kill well actually know alive something good anymore grades going care much like used do got way restore sanity something like that know talking psychologist could help lot ive told mother twice already care enough might even think due age btw struggled years apparently got fixed seems like coming back possibly proper traitment tried deal it entirely myself right now im bed study exams coming week hard even think something remain bed listening music,1 +homeless awful bad tiny bit hope crushedim staying homeless shelter provide meals use computer talk post stuff like this although im lurker anyway years ago rough time talked someone site stopped left reddit came back talk couple years embarrassed eaten week im trying sell steam account working all get funds eat asked favor thisperson couple bucks get food said sure reply did said stalking them help me idea came last message sure help hope humanity ruined hope general swallow pride thing loathe ask help shit face talk killing here cant go food banks right id soup kitchens close lose place sleep indoors travel back due time distance cant afford eat friends family one all last bit hope shredded whats point living im going starve death go hang right fucking now,1 +know feeling get frantically look something lost panickly search entire house realize hand entire time im stupid know,0 +stressed work work dairy queen boss laying people getting enough business cause winter im worried im gonna get laid cause bills pay dont know im gonna,0 +pushed friend slide see happens floor made concrete great idea park fell face first broke nose lol blamed kid nothing bad happened,0 +action horror scifi exploitation director fred olen ray shows talent director character actor william smith one best toughbad guys industry treats viewer best acting performance career randy travis gives best lee van cleef impression hes bad film smith travis make movie rest cast none really stand out ray great job directing flick smith travis good id give b western scale one tenten best seven,0 +beautiful filmjohn garfields character distant relative les miserabless jean valjean detective rains recalls victor hugos javertthe ruthless arm lawbr br like many films noirsthe city epitomizes evil whereas country nature represents sanctuaryredemptionand second chance whose life seems forever doomedbut even luminous daylightdanger may appear suddenlyas excellent scene reservoir showsjohn garfield an actor whoas leonard maltin points outshould rediscoveredive never disappointed films except supporting part gentlemans agreement faultgives heartfelt sensitive performance audience sides soon unjustly accused the first sequence shows rather unkind hypocrite personbut trials redeem feel last scenes detective rainscolorful characters grandma kids add lot joie de vivre necessary humor also present strip poker game dead end brats fleece rich kidbr br i recommend movie,0 +grew town huge high school athletics pretty much every boy expected play something else treated different spectrum sports thing turned wanted escape reality situation ill first admit bit jock status people barely recognized condition least gave pass it played sports dominated ladies man throughout teen years truly top world year school would hold massive pep rally month school year pep rallys day thing would feature multiple events biggest event athletic competition hundreds students boys girls would compete multiple activities would eliminated one one winner crowned competition freshman sophomore junior year year history event student ever three straight competitions fully prepared win fourth straight complete dynasty athletic director told school would gift scholarship fund able win one time usual breezed competition early comfortably secured spot final round yet again surprises there time finals opponent would first time girl happened freshman tall lanky posed real threat naked eye final round would consist basketball shootout first wins basketball best sport felt almost gifting championship me took early lead ended getting lucky hot streak defeated became champion humiliated went massive depression know deserved one holding trophy seeing hoist killed me rest senior year remains blur me put even salt wound girl defeated would go win competition ththth grade years got dynasty denied of pain comes goes really strong recently humiliated never able live down know silly cannot seem let go past know unhealthy upset years later cannot help think night toss turn thinking could prevented won could one completed dynasty lucky little bitch ruined life cannot get something happened nearly ten years ago advice,1 +want get help dont want make things worsetw trauma abuse neglect sh etc first part context feel free skip may important parts so living mom roommatewho obviously lot closer roommate loved torment me brainwashed manipulated mom believing would destroy life would tell he her daughter could live happily picture convinced im useless great job left alone home entire summer returning brief hour drop necessities returning back him point drop food literally nothing eat survived water tea moved month that september really big fight broke thats first time ever told considering redflag called police hospitalized discharged went live aunt months later went live friend februaryish back mom roommate time leading hospitalized another times constant torment lots isolation relapsed old habits staying night sleeping day could avoid see himor her matter started self harming suicidal ideation got worse around everything horrible one night may three us really bad fight dont remember events leading it remember put chokehold kicked shoved onto tile floor head hitting first called police restraining order placed cps got involved thats found abuse neglect moms side removed care placed one aunts barely month hospitalized aunt thought mustve devils son self harming suicidal that went live dads best friendmy exstepmotherfor sake simplicity ill call anne here alright heres now ive annes care since june things gone relatively well ive still dealing depression anxiety suicidal ideation sh whole time felt comfortable opening while last time attempted redflag told pissed called selfish stupid ungrateful etc yelled time let go sleep felt like shit felt worse ever since relationship damaged im scared opening every time since ive told things im bothered ends lecture fight argument lately ive feeling lot suicidal usual much hard even think life without wanting stop existing gotten really bad know need tell someone im scared breaking point finds im still suicidal even tell her shell find im hospitalized someone tells it know exactly would happen likely pictures mind could say im much kick like everyone else could completely revoke privacy have andor trust would damaged ruined bond may had first outcome happens ill completely lost know ill living next two would really stressful deal helpful either way wish could tell whats happening wish would respond way would end well everyone id fine take hospital fact think would best issue worked past probably let happen reason worked past take seriously accept help getting feel like im contradicting making everything much worse wish like that feel really stuck right know go here help appreciated im sorry long post delete allowed,1 +gf contemplating redflag know doive girl almost months sweetest kindest considerate person ive ever met family mess parents divorced father inconsiderate asshole mother narcissistic bitch mother forces everything her including taking care adopted sister age like baby father kicked long ago hated new family feel like wanted belongs place constantly daily fights parents found out last week cries sleep most nights think means every night found couple days ago nightmares want sleep it along sleeps little wakes several times night hinted redflag before met told cut thought redflag see parents would even care never noticed cuts did never mentioned it past couple texts thats sent me tells wants give up given up ive tried give support im professional needs help phone night said wanted help family cant afford it parents freelance dad seems money relationship probably willing spend it help girl feels guilty receiving help went psychiatrist before says one thing parents use guilt trip her im fucking worried know please help me know much longer take this forgot mention living beijing expats unfamiliar most,1 +sorry botheri saw many people posting realized posting probably task choice seeing im already writing might well finish cry help im posting note plan overdosing want people finding note untill already late need couple hours itll over please understand want this ive tried realized ill keep trying untill physically cant so heres note one many drafted notes final official note hey everyone read clicked link posted know late im somewhere able find ive already ingested fatal amount meds know itll hard im sorry already cut communication months hard people whove stuck time id like thank you asked better friends im sorry friendship end like this anyone asked life im sorry lying im sorry saying i could worse brushing question simple good hbu im sorry mom dad shay know haunt years please know im better place anyone ive ever pleasure meeting remember follow dreams forgive always know cliche heck thats honestly best advice think moment people ive hurt sorry hope able forgive me know are im tired hurting im tired hurt want breathe feel love cry feel life beautiful life curse were stuck with depends cope know choice love guys bye ps checking replying comments already made clear posting note,1 +whats psychology redflagi thought necessary asking here since may useful understanding considering it far think is believe brain cannot distinguish reality vs fantasy were talking evolutionary point humans species commit redflag reason commit redflag believe solution ending pain brain thinks redflag solution help survive better reality opposite think happiness choice otherwise would happy think people depressed genetically wired brains stimulated much like adhd person is perhaps evolutionary trait think modern society made difficult depressed people since society caters average person way depression im trying understand better thought giving ideas depression way get better understanding think understanding important trait world,1 +cant keep living like foreverive miserable long time every time think things get better never end feeling even worse cant even things enjoy anymore moments actually fun become ruined get home remember im still alone happiness illusion cant keep going this one seems care feel all keep thwarted every turn try kill myself none people want anything help situation get say anything control life get choose whether born im trapped miserable existence cant anything about completely ridiculous im okay this im okay anything never want be want small things make happy want taken away would rather die terms old die alone one close me refuse let future,1 +feel like need go impatient againbut really dont want to desire cut getting bad cut year half every day urge gets worse urge gets worse life seems pointless,1 +opinion one barbara stanwycks best performances one handful actors now could say single look entire page dialogue lucky enough see original uncensored movie extra minutes additional footage bad movie short lily young woman barely holding together working father illegal speakeasy link anything good friend chico played wonderfully theresa harris though chico african american and white woman best friends black woman back s controversial subject matter movie lily not special bond sexual women stuck shoved situation beyond control lilys father dies know do told power get get wants yes immoral thats entire point movie they go ruin last minutes so last minutes movie superb film worth watching lesson movie still valid today back then im sure years now women awful lily order get wants works men take note,0 +feel like isnt enough posts posting k people online carrying sub hard man,0 +already done waiting works mg diazepam mg alprazolam xanax heineken sick people manipulating me even got kicked lab initially caused alienating me cleaned lab others stuff sentiment even answer phone calls read messages fucking moneylaundering piece shits tried ignore that this done trusted doign financial necessity trusted humane side one fucking cares fuck em die ill die wake liike hours going stop chasing get fancy phds taken away locked up ill see taken away ill make see me live attempt im done im done naive im done trusting people nice me spilled heart person fucking ignores me bitch im done thanks guys reddit reply comments friendish messages get days literally zero friends contact list consists family thats it im done im done trusting im done bullied,1 +might total idiot exactly pogger filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +tried boba tea really random tried boba tea hate texture tapioca balls remind fish eyes making physically ill anyone tell purpose appeal are,0 +painless redflag methodsstraight point please otherwise comment,1 +might end tonight story want help meso might belong wanted share story name ralph friend since second grade name isebella everybody said identical someone internet called coco queen personally never saw face helps piciture good you isebella hanged like alot even almost lived together always played vieogames watced netfilx time lives families business friends aproved friendship things kind awkward around us parents always made sex jokes us could hear them one night family dinner family father shamed her went outside air followed her cold outside playing still loving scorpians fell accidentely kissed said sorry said ok felt same started daiting hot digidi dog daiting did started drinking together spent time together started even watching horror movies together best moments life like months magic still there however everything come end hedding house netflix found dead card hand freaked out called police family everything investigaded security cameras fount commited redflag fucking panic attack saw killing herself read note left fucking insane made braclet still wear month since event still cant believe fucking self happened started seeing therapist dont think works person really understanded complesity yea truly sucks,1 +want blow brians outgoodbye world im gonna kill myself sweet rest come,1 +wanna marry season ahsoka tano ngl shes pwetty,0 +im f super delicate annoying im barely lbs get hurt wicked easily delicate am everyone cheer team injuries angel boyfriend constantly help comfort get hurt feel bad happens much,0 +noticed recently sleeping problems might reason first thought something physical lack iron blood something never thought would something deep post isnt especially discussions really wanted post story course comment would love discuss stuff guys thank reading,1 +need adviceneed help keep getting fleeting suicidal thoughts almost everyday basis now reason havent gone itatleast tell myself imagine toll would take parents gotten little worse late honestly dont know life ever since grade school mentality ok lets get kill peacefully knowing didnt became flustered gave up years thinking like genuinely dont know life didnt plan,1 +sort redflag hotline texting for australiansi need someone unload problems on talking gives anxiety,1 +th day reddit account ive reddit two years now various accounts th day account remember made wasnt great place im posting kinda reminder myself now im happy still yes thats cool thanks make reddit enjoyable place ,0 +im finally emotionally better place im still want stay still may commit redflag please read understandi work restaurant industry graphic designer wasnt able get recent samples work poo hit rotating oscillator im sure restaurant business isnt going rebound fast everyone thinks many people think going go away things go back normal im sure think damage done im sure future there even things bounce back im sure ill getting call come back severe emotional issues adhd bipolar asd couple facebookinstigram posts mentiong needing samples work may screwed that ive idea wanted samples get work side goes on im told make look like im coming back ive since deleted them im scared ill end shelving groceries walmart heb kroger homeless mean medication id making minimum wage thats enough money eat cheap maybe pay bill id still sleeping street medication mentally ive preparing fact may walk everything own live street medication help id rather die go back im mentally prepared to want it push comes shove will living dead treatment actually feelings now im going back ever thank reading edited punctuation,1 +el chavo del like chavo something stupid quiqo ramon tries stop them doa florinda blames ramon hits him ramon gets mad hits el chavo repet times,0 +every post see always start hate feel feel see youim done life past week ive planned many times ive stood edge beautiful cliff id love fly really strong urge jump kid dreams jumping getting seconds falling think life die theres turning back even wanted save change mind cant couldnt think better way go ive wanted whole life since dreams started happening cliff edge dont get close really jump ready yet first dreams kid jumped roof house im sure didnt hurt felt good reason dont see living past age im convinced eventually im sure anyone else fantasy jump high places please let know fantasys redflag let know might sound like weird cunt yeah thats friends work drink much days lot problems cant fix haha pretty chill overdosing wasnt fun thought wanted mix try something new work cant fuck matter much fuck things,1 +guys think karma real filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +thought checking hospital would help nothing put horrid medication gave horrifying reaction stop taking week going go school semester unfortunately able afford payment classes tomorrow clean money job skill future slave wishing could die everyday angry demotivated piece snot oozing way walls room towards rock bottom wish could find way make money music unfortunately nigh impossible practically anyone another dream fucked disgusting planet live on going research finally get actual help ending pointless miserable existence point seems help stand gain anymore life everything try meaningless everything put effort fails every passion fades away every love share torn apart sick rollercoaster sick losing time this gone finding easiest reliable painless way can out fuck shit,1 +remember kids want age flair click three dots top right corner screen press change user flair,0 +block cant see shit piss u blocked,0 +depressed random pointsthis night normally skyping friends talking working homework listening music usual stuff teen does minutes later fighting back tears wanting cut wondering much itll hurt wondering friends get confused ive made many mistakes life wondering normal thing go random intervals happened school eating lunch talking friends know wish emotions would normal,1 +god helps still strugglingone day suffering end hope enter gods kingdom till day pray accept jesus savior,1 +best poison around house actually kill you dont want anything painful thats want doi dont know start tell think best household poisonous item or better way maybe,1 +smh want sinp post cant someone simp,0 +wanting kill since th grade im scared please listen know anymore im last straw everything im going give fair bit background bear me assume lot people felt way felt hopeless sick feel way time ive gotten used it ive gone crying trying hurt th grade able keep lid very well school im happy all unless im best friend also boyfriend im apparently supposed like better relationship hit quite potholes one gave time opportunity enjoy things took granted sister says look back this ashamed break push head feel horrible someone makes happy feel better guess bottom line nothing makes truly happy nothing lasts always ends devastation every happy moment go away im strong enough deal pain everything anything life ive told im smart young attractive care want live it hurt bad know much pain later on wish could give life someone would appreciate it make good use it every choice take going consequences im tired dealing seeing everyone family try hard happiness fail cant spend time them feel sick want live anymore im exhausted much would love someone hug tell going alright cant accept it cry everyday losing virginity alone family torn apart cant get bed im dead set killing soon things get worse better suppose second thoughts im posting this since im seeking consolation instead immediately want way hurt family friends love much understand help im sorry wasted time nonsense im young enjoying can want to me look back memories im actually happy content hurt want happy memories ripped away feel alone edit im feeling much worse cant stop feelings all everything fault cant deal increasing guilt feel sick want die feel horrible cant handle it regret much cant breath want die bad every happy memory deserve want kill right now know how im scared,1 +hail mary pass ironicallythe church says mortal sin know selfish act living suffering fear shame years now selftalked near insanity ive kept goingtryinghoping hope deferred makes heart grow sick red said hope dangerous thing hope drive man insane utterly failed life lot fault lot isnt thinking going infection would hide act suddenly leaving seeking medical help would be least odd would hurt mother know even think redflag would torture wondering issue me waking every day loss questions would cruelty yet another seemingly endless list misdeeds im nearly famous for know im seriously considering scares yet continue plan would leave home seek infection return course protect family would find location fill gas tank etc first minimize transmission would isolate somewhere for im guessing good month isolate hotelmotel think could afford long night not even thinking food airbnb might rentable place month right doubt it money still issue would put others danger even though actively isolate obviously shelters centers etc camping maybe like read sorry novel,1 +superb prime suspect series reaches part four loss momentum all considerable achievement prime suspect iv lost child solid supporting cast take granted british dramas course beautiful helen mirren easily dominates eyes never leave onscreenbr br the search lost child title leads superintendent jane tennisons cid team prime suspect turns convicted pedophile living single mother two young daughters insight given workings mind one emotional highlights miniseries may strong many stomachsbr br the action sequences brilliantly handled handheld camera thrusting us right middle excitement theres gripping tension climactic siegebr br altogether another magnificent police procedural drama,0 +slys best action film superbly enjoyable movie interesting characters solid performances renny harlins direction stylishly assured stallone rarely interesting action films certainly looks part terms action scenes one best action films year one thrilling enjoyable s definite genre classic stallone fan one look back fond memories plenty superb action sly prime action man form action lovers appreciate film hallmarks make good aciton film film looks great great support janine turner michael rooker john lithgow ,0 +michael kallio gives strong convincing performance eric seaver troubled young man horribly mistreated little boy monstrous abusive alcoholic stepfather barry a genuinely frightening portrayal gunnar hansen eric compassionate fianc sweetly played lovely tracee newberry job transcribing autopsy reports local morgue haunted bleak past egged bald beaming jack demon a truly creepy michael robert brandon sent edge recent death mother eric goes deep end embarks brutal killing spree capably directed kallio who also wrote tight astute script uniformly fine acting sound noname cast jeff steiger especially good erics wannabe helpful guardian angel michael rather rough overall polished cinematography george lieber believable truetolife characters jolting outbursts raw shocking unflinchingly ferocious violence moody spooky score dan kolton uncompromisingly downbeat ending grungy detroit michigan locations grimly serious tone taut gripping narrative stays steady track throughout extremely potent gritty psychological horror thriller makes often absorbing disturbing viewing real sleeper,0 +saw film entry santa fe film festival heavy film depiction completely dysfunctional family taken another level extreme might left depressed extreme funny sight gags dialogue along way lightened films overall tone relatively uplifting ending gave hope affected initial tragedy still walk theatre ready go fun party film stayed several daysbr br brought back memories ordinary people humor mixed tragedy thought acting excellent especially sigourney weaver emile hirsh character dealt tragedy times sad selfdefeating also times hilarious clever dialogue situations,0 +thought life changed years still tired sad growing fast working everyday job hate trying find motivation nothing gotten truly feel great worth it always wanted start dating someone scared worth time make things difficult parents always ridiculing good enough hurts even more gotten low started cutting feel like need punish absolute fool human thing stopping putting bullet skull religious values covid opened new world showed could work every day even make close amount money people unemployment sit home asses day feel like one factor life redflag it wish could enjoyed younger years more grown hellish schedule people could care less size turds shorter average man women weak always looked upon man work looked said smile more told nothing smile about back self harming,1 +tis night christmas or christmas people side god forsaken earth merry christmas whatever celebrate happy new year everyone,0 +need serious help im really science everything learning everything works overwhelming urge kms see happens death anything death hard control dam,0 +deserve every single thing happenedand doesnt even make sad even disguisted shit am literally dont want skin hate person am,1 +victimdo go gentle thy good night rage rage dying light,1 +suicidal kidthis kind long story really need help please read ok friend lives hour away younger brother play playstation together sometimes friends play us sort look ive always good kids kind went along it upper middle class white kids recently got drug use use drugs always kept good handle it really well school get scholarships figured going drugs since parents might well give advice make sure get killed went would tell stuff would give safety advice one particular always way overdid it seeking harder drugs really quickly things like getting drunk hed puke pass out started trust opened personal stuff would never tell anyone else andrew kid im worried told dad beats him asked severity told hits sometimes seemed rare minor occurrence told thought could work out proceeded caution weeks later told found dad addicted pain pills things totally derailed started getting trouble parents more would always phone ps taken away would sneak back days ago got drug tested parents failed marijuana next days would snap time say fuck you nowhere finally told dad attempted redflag days ago upset son getting drug use too told really depressed gonna drink tell passed out begged agreed sneak onto ps talk first talked stuff trying take mind seemed fake like ignoring serious problem asked questions like home said no asked visited dad said want to asked mom said whole thing said talked two days completely grounded cant anything basically sitting environment getting depressed cant anything take mind it started drinking anyway got really sad would leave mic every couple minutes gone explanation got completely texting started talking wanting kill saying noone would even miss him talked promised come visit tomorrow big never actually met long back onto depression point living longer stopped answering completely seconds calling cops giving address finally responded talked little longer seemed little better told needs think hed see tomorrow point idk fuck do parents trust much drug use lie im going drive like hour away idk hell im supposed say avoid topic seem open supportive cool normal recommend something professional family could really use advise right thank all,1 +manifesting keep hearing seeing cant figure means,0 +keep pushing back datei set date year lot family stuff happened used excuse push back month month reset date next year time put many things place lasts fluctuate worrying make sorted everything worrying find reason delay again sometimes need die strong barely breathe holding just tired need die,1 +well ididnt ask get made ididnt ask torn apartand put back together andturned somelittlemonster sucker pain,1 +get comforting words please im sorry dont feel good right,0 +oh wish ampxb processing img umrrvume,0 +see hype manifesting things experiences oneself thought would interesting manifest death experience manifestation works things would work dying too would perfect especially got die way choose to well random thought one people want death look like accident options gruesome likely fail end vegetative statei know people manifest things suicidal would interesting find out manifest death,1 +someone help courage kill myselfi feel trapped want hurt family friends girlfriend cant shit anymore im tired pain ive got pills alcohol someone please tell okay want die want suffer anymore tell okay see future myself,1 +gained back weight lost lol might time sleep lil ole pass,0 +exactly one year th july tried failed ended snapping ligaments landing ankle unconscious since gotten surgery fix massive scar also developed arthritis multiple slipped discs hurt time days bad think killing escape physical pain really really fucking angry last year fuck hide scissors knives got interrupted mother cut perfect hanging set had minutes would peace guess what today kg heavier since day still wish free nooooooo stay bitch earth honestly see drugs help people weed occasion helped calm down would love freed worries thoughts since years old feel like suffered enough back pain bitch without honestly would still feeling suicidal excruciating physical pain is rant one year since attempt,1 +everywherebeen struggling depression severe anxiety whole life ive attempted times recent week ago bipolar well showing signs schizophrenia mom believes fully bought yet im seeing symptoms scarring me also recovering addict current alcoholic need words encouragement maybe someone tell gets better thanks time guys god bless,1 +im boutta restart like windows vista hiccup sneezed farted time whats happen,0 +neither irl dog minecraft dog die today cuz either im literally crying please give fake internet points make feel better,0 +dont see purpose livingi male med school student third world country recently mi grades kibda low friends parents always yell not manly enough gf much ibto church etc recently routine consist waking up stealing food fridge avoid contact anybody hace considering redflag since long time ago like year so want belive things get better someday everything change cant see how life gets worde everyday fights parents work failuresi want end pain,1 +okay ppl need chill everyone salty everything need chill tf literally posted smt tired writing many college essays responses get whyd procrastinate get used kid you started earlier hold tf started frixkin novemberrrrr applied eight schools different countries never procrastinated literally submitted everything well advance wtfffff trying connect ppl like whatttt okay thanks got pissed sec lol,0 +killed moonlord expert mode switch aw shit go,0 +nick see please dm friend back summer leave got grounded dont remember username reddit met subreddit username words guy thats remember nick see this u pls dm wanna clarify stop texting snap know good good friend me anyone knows pls tell thanks remi,0 +first day lent days go,0 +writing thislet absolutely clear know devastate family know devastate friends know devastate community let also clear saying depression made look horrific consequences realize simply willpower live life solely benefit others tomorrow going drown lake cold painful perfect quiet end quiet life perhaps lived longer would find something live for perhaps would make something myself perhaps none would happen year line kill anyway let cruelty hope drag another painful year know problems lie intrinsically within myself simply cannot bear longer sad seventeen years old im going hurt family ways even vengeful person dream of done sad tired goodbye,1 +quick storytime bc im super embarrassed feel stupid months later skip video httpsyoutube_xo_ihaap viewer asks question mine married course realize video months later due friend telling yeah,0 +im going crazyplease help me think im going crazy need someone talk to dont anyone help nt want risk put stationry mental hospital phone call would help much,1 +diewhy tried hang instinct kicks in want die fucks sake,1 +fuuuuck worst first off let say never seen heard friend chatted online mom would get super mad caught talking us earlier today friends mom threw bottle her bleeding over arms legs head neck everywhere told group chat happening immediately started panicking made quick decision call mom phone house call like different phone numbers live city rush questions terrified might bleed out one point said breath felt lightheaded dizzy operator stopped asking questions wait felt like eternity replying anything sent thought dead around half later operator said able reach scene still waiting full story happened stressful event life fucking tired tldr friend attacked abusive mom call ,0 +ok basically parents sister grandparents gone boat day yesterday we belong boat club came back sitting around table dad end grandfather from mums side told dad carrying knife whilst boat case fell could cut free life jacket kind idiot that yes think shall cut thing keeping alive apparently weather water shit faced high waves wind axopar dad still laughing grandfathers stupidity bloody hell must screw loose,0 +spookiest cat change mind shes black called wednesday wednesday addams hates people occasionally nice the rest time scrunch bites black collar studded glittery fish metal things it,0 +fuck would want dieeverything terrible tried writing th fucking attempt somehow worse first im trying draw year half year old could better im terrible making friends even question goddamn sexuality time cant stand toxic behaviour matter much ive tried anxiety trauma still stuck heart brain like c waiting make go mad second now death seems like even harmreduction could possibly avoid dissapointing tiny handful people still somehow believe me im fucking embarassement cant even write proper english motherfucking fuck even mother language cant take shit anymore guns even legal cant even kill properly end me,1 +logical reason end life emotional one inferior never happy therapy optioni pretty much tired forced live every day faced nothingness despite trying find different perspectives improve myself care improving meaningless first all guy average attraction weak frail make eating healthy smooth face intelligence lower end average proven intelligence test school resulted going special class pretty bad school college interested able do special ed limited could achieve this failed college get university wanted go maths stats physics barely scraped foundation math even constant revision active reading mathematical textbooks went subject best in getting around c college got equivalent e partially due lack understanding absence interest towards it social person because whilst agreeable enjoy leaving house eating out travelling nature animalspets sports ive tried numerous occasions ive hated every second point makes depressed also little friends throughout life currently one distant friend meet every weeks want alone ive liked ive never liked friends ive kid ive pretty much forced presence ive never girlfriend likely die virgin cant get laid want girlfriend something despite trying smarts willingness involved fetish involves bodily functions least somewhat attractive me compassion willingness leader relationship good talkerarguer educated good politicsdebate plus optional sex means nothing desire intimacy relationship blame issues anybody else desires idea achieve hobbies really occasionally force write wanted writer one point hate every second always have wanted goal follow hate want give offers positive value life hobby interested politics debate history science maths linguistics general knowledge despite trying actively read interested forget try talk embarrass forgot read seconds ago despite reading over taking notes actively reading it going end life soon believe nothing live for tried find things worked little therapy therapy shit country cant afford private therapy might desire get debating politics science maths etc knowledge despite trying cant retain anything even theres nothing learn academically clubs city million involved anything similar see people younger smarter hate much know comparing necessarily good means fucking nothing choose fucking it family yes care much removing world feelings try convince live care enough spare death want talk somebody im tired keeping myself hope even die spend time talking guys go,1 +worth anymoreshe never asks whats wrong anymore guess cause want hear it knows always care want there calls best friend think knows am know her third run antideppresants worst month life still going im fucking depressed cant even bring anything even think energy kill mmyself point living me transgender completely un passing one believes wants support me friends parents give two shits everyones forgotten fact suffer every day life think im better now im young everyone says everything left life know timeline ends here know one care glad glad to,1 +feel like im going kill sooni know expand title things going okay cant deal them ruin everything becomes even impossible im tired trying want tell people know im posting guess wish id die already im piece shit,1 +anyone else wanna die even though circumstances really arent badam one really wants kick bucket because sure loneliness isolation makes harder honestly dont believe utopian future solve problems often think unrealistic future might even help depression alone this,1 +hey guess what didnt sex neither you,0 +idk vent guessim sitting bathroom knife im sure im gonna yet likelihood ill cause superficial damage patch up move on wish could cut chest open rip lungs done im one friends vent everyone else falling apart drifted away feel like theres one go to ive tried therapy ive tried medications doesnt work think wasnt meant exist world,1 +wanna dieim scared try again unsuccessful redflag worst honestly reason alive matter time,1 +i perfected fooling everyone thinking im great unless bring something up roommates dont know me surface level friends family nowhere near me pain own loneliness own feel life worthless pointless suffer matter good circumstance is want die dont know much torture endure,1 +feeling psychoticim sorry im breaking rules cant seem function read rules im feeling like crap feel like bashing head wall took walk didnt seem help,1 +plans tomorrow includes asking crush mean already pretty late wake dumdum,0 +join rcult_of_fuji r bunch people havin fun getting battle fair king appleslice,0 +posting gnarly space facts run knowledge day three days remain wow three days thats insane always questions topics me let know comments ill see tomorrow fact lets talk little bit saturns lesserknown moons cool are titan enceladus iapetus cant get attention want give info on im going waste time here lets dive right in ampxb dione first moon dione like moons tidally locked parent planet however theres something odd way dione tidally locked side dione faces saturn fewer craters side face saturn exact opposite many scientists expecting could indicate point past massive impact may caused diones orientation completely reverse ampxb mimas third favorite saturnian moon one feature named herschel crater put simply massive crater likely made impact nearly obliterated mimas big makes mimas look like death star star wars ampxb rhea back nasa announced observations cassini probe suggested rhea could small ring system would marked first time moon known rings cassini observations unfortunately revealed evidence ring material ampxb tethys final moon tethys dense liquid water suggests moon may almost entirely made water ice saturnian moons super interesting loved fact little quirks,0 +redflag im currently years old ok life uppermiddle class teen easy thats problem mother tried hard give life wanted thats good thing made mud worked hard position society turn like shit fs school nothing going me used varsity baseball player started getting horrible grades kicked team want get good grades care subconsciously dont give fuck anything ive indirectly taught work anything mother resents it father left never supportive father figure life confide trust ive taught show emotions ive keeping bottled years away anyone emotions ask well one people ever trusted life passed away years ago accident crossing road going store cousin kyle struck car october died impact hes person ever shared emotions taken me seconds slower would fine one except girlfriend idea im mess doesnt know im depressed doesnt know im failing school doesnt know childhood trauma ive forced through doesnt know shit ive showed good stuff deserves better depressed thats really even reason im going end life reason nothing look forward to everyones life ends point ive decided ending day turn good morning today october th regret inform native teen dontei lecue aged died morning due high speed collision suspect due state drowsiness influence narcotics,1 +desperate break upim lost desperate break boyfriend months broke completlt detroyed me im year old girl good student really feel like ii reason continue living life losng hes first everything world enetered state total desperation dumped me still insistted friends remaining important part eachothers life told hard me hurtful course id never wanan miss him since still feelings him still love anything else got harder harder me felt losing him feeling replacing feeling lover friend two months friendship noticed new girl life snapped u see course cnt focus lectures anymore university one thing kept going cause evry day see much cut contact compeltely im dying im devasted hes fine absoletely fine every time see happier hes always smiling adn said me doesnt love anymore said wants friend cant friend love much never gonna able finds bbetter girl replace im sorry im really sorry know longer together know say behaviour know move byt cant parents done supporting me tell stress out glad hes longer life one reach to dont care anymore want best him obvously negative factor life rn wanna stop,1 +dont care someone rickrolls cuz love song sansrolling thats whole different story,0 +give hope dontmy life pain understand cant get happiness want end it worth longer stay alive,1 +every year get progressively worseas child bullied lack social awareness thanks add emotionallyphysically abusive highly religious mother concocted poison mindset myself said didnt need friends world going end soon anyways childhood filled mostly visited home psychiatrist going jw church speech therapy for lisp video games girls elementary thought weird girl playing video games anything boyrelated rumors weird followed middle school high school last year diagnosed anorexia nervosa body dysmorphic disorder last year also rancid passing best friend may rest peacefully looking forward year recovery hope closest friend toxic grew habitually gaslighting emotionally manipulating abusing anytime came disagreement instead properly addressing issue spent every breathing moment year wondering anxiously would break result belittling carefully thought way didnt recognize problem someone else addressed me hates talk people led drift friendships destroyed all worst part hes online friend real life friends anymore havent close real life friend years become husk lives breathes internet led growing incredibly detached people im hard time finding empathy situations sit like stone paired anorexia pushed excessively exercising last year and since im relapsing currently ended becoming hermit socialization back social events places food eating im increasingly suicidal lack social skills bond people outside internet even small college cant relate much classmates either talk feed conversations add awkwardly cut ramble also weird mannerisms hyperactivity childlike behavior given everyone thinks im really weird dont like spend time anything someone age yrs would like act like child actual child cupcakes candy cartoons name it ive self harming increasingly worse ways physical scars joke family joke isolation lot i dont want way cant understand watching siblings always go people experience things someone age driving mad started getting high could make imaginary friends interact midst psychedelic trances attempted days ago last month obviously didnt work im scared id found much financial impact would leave family want to really want go spent yrs planet without close friend share unconditional irreplaceable bond never going happen now cant stay longer anymore pains think even cases made friends left become emotionally abusive towards me pain variables mentioned strong dont want cope anymore want solve all tldr anorexic behavior emotionally manipulative friend isolated keeping little friends had since horrible childhood ive lacked social skills friends online friends literally alone spent life alone die alone suicidal fuck want friends man friends flesh everything like way happens movies try talk people going find people relate want know better internet exactly wont know like go anything anymore im tired everything,1 +know one movie could possibly compete opening night thats bergmans persona movies simply amazing richness ideas hard grasp first sight profound meditation relation art life one actress myrtle gordon gena rowlands finds touch character playing stage would want to accidental death one fans young girl declares love myrtle hit car leaves deep mark actress starts asking question related aging starts affect solution becomes alcohol help much myrtle one step away complete madness scene kill imaginary or not spirit dead girl one thrilling scenes found cassavets film movie ends display genius behalf director films theater scene gena rowlands improvise scene since myrtle comes drunk opening night perform part accurately scene filmed spontaneously live audience laughter genuine chemistry casavates rowlands absolutely amazing liked persona interested movie offers substantial ideas alongside great entertainment movie suit fine,0 +went philosophy holethe thing alive completely normal feel pain matter feel happiness content pain there got thinking pain exist reason to universehuman body allowed pain exist normally case logically want life smart enough know way change properties nature would cause live im smart enough know im smart want experience pain anymore experience pretty much key understanding need out,1 +well boys it shaved nuts without nicking skin third time always charm,0 +everything went hill fastlast night typical got work feeling kind depressed wanted hurt sister said could crash place ive depressed suicidal since way anyways around four sister asks watch son get nap work goes upstairs get call dad id kicked online school second year online id transfered local high school bullying im extremely socially awkward get along authority figures constant battle teachers well gotta go back highschool im supposed senior nearly credits much mental hospitals since seventh grade ive never thought redflag would best option now always just well option seems like im gonna high school drop loser life really worth it edit id talk parents father told go home pissed theyd think looking attention way get trouble,1 +thoughts livinghello all last sunday tried kill myself tried cut arm hard failed live aftermath honest either properly even try sucks lot attention people knew tried it died couple days im alone again seems people care enough reach see really bad spot enough friend mine realize couple people care bit more make bit happy honest still thoughts redflag mainly think actually better everyone people care would sad yes worry them fling onto everyone make couple people care start dislike me mentioned previous post girl love anything would say life thats big compliment forced things like trying meet hard person growing distant think today first day months speak all really fucked up definitely best thing happened me end do tried kill myself pushed onto her drove away stupid actions would set would questions would say good bye ask remember good things me what suffering day cant talk her think greatest time either know thinks feels quite sure talk anymore maybe wait couple weeks actually kill myself talk shell forget me best alright actually started write story ask everyone reading live for well thats say wanted pour heart friends cant keep bothering people helped much already least read want to lot better,1 +whats something made cry helped realize kind patheticive pussy crybaby life think realized pretty much worthless regards cried piss poor video game mindset definitely something like wow cant even win dumb game even incompetent thought first time actually dropped tear realized pretty much lmao you,1 +friend suicidal dohey made friend school whos extremely suicidal ive known three weeks hes talked lot hes depressed doesnt want live ive course extremely concerned tried help theres nothing really do hes therapy sent hospital multiple times not attempting cutting thoughts redflag dont really know do seems really happy sometimes hes depression years ive kind hoped itd okay im worried hes trans grandmas supportive grandpa isnt he lives grandma grandpa messaged tonight said hes genuinely considering forget him ive sent long messages hes important many people care doesnt really respond says something else doesnt matter get im saying isnt helping hes upset dont even know say anymore ive tried listening point feel like thats enough want talk hotline something like said earlier hes hospital hasnt helped do,1 +im fucking tired constant problems pain sufferingso already adhd little friends got depression started struggling cant tell anybody though im scared wont believe think im looking attention im still pretty young ive considered redflag im scared family need way,1 +yrhey im last child brothers dad got killed siblings grown im mom gave im old enough provide everything im depressed cant take anymore attempt redflag time didnt work got sick boyfriend trys talking im going try soon gun hurts wake knowing im alive situation cant wait future,1 + two films released within weeks aliens steven spielbergs et john carpenters thing two them et one hearts people world over even though thing debuted first people entranced spielbergs warm fuzzy feelgood alien fable stayed away thing drovesbr br its hard see why two diametrically opposed one optimistic tale designed warm cockles stillbeating heart harsh uncompromising film paints alien life something purely determined destroy us guess audiences felt et much cuter prospect things tentacles slime coated salivabr br its taken time thing gone win substantial cult audience should thing rare example superior remake takes best qualities classic reinvents startling imaginative ways indeed carpenter job well actually succeeds making film every inch equal genres showrunner alien thats even rarerbr br carpenters film follows source material faithfully thing another world did keeps frigid wastes antarctica setting perfect backdrop trying establish heightened sense isolation although bit thin characterisation remake gets right inside mindset actors amplifies uncertainty fear slowly surrounds thembr br frequent carpenter collaborator kurt russell returns hot success escape new york cast one carpenters perpetual antiheroes plays macready helicopter pilot antarctic research station what theyre researching anyones guess trouble begins norwegian chopper nearby station flies macreadys trying gun siberian husky airbr br they end dying troubles camp tries solve mystery happened take husky add own except husky husky all shapechanging alien norwegians discovered frozen ice thawed out massacred crew capable absorbing victims will duplicate living right smallest detail soon paranoia suspicion works way man crew noone certain human notbr br the thing one john carpenters finest films fact im tempted say best film hes ever made even surpassing classics like halloween dark star reason place thing top carpenters list feels like last film could truly called classic others thereafter felt like carpenter slumming it films flow cool sophistication ragged intensity prevalent earlier worksbr br but thing john carpenter peak powers never generated suspense unbearable degree even ferocious assault precinct second alien makes presence known carpenter ratchets tension level relentlessly delivers punches come agonising joltbr br the film blend pure atmospherics visceral horror approach often seem odds one another carpenters hands melds together beautifully bringing rob bottin howling fame lays bear astonishing transformation effects ever see horror film amorphous shapes halfformed human features starkly contrasted gaping jaws spider legs fully flexible tentacles indeed films effects amazing squirminducing thing came fire realisticbr br that type thinking misses point entirely shortchanges films values many carpenter stages effects setpiece needs to films quieter moments seems especially attuned story thing often bewildering tale shadows whispers implications characterisation never one john carpenters strong suits works advantage thing hardly know anything cast makes present situation much confusing were never certain one moment next who this thing holds well maintains mystery subsequent viewingsbr br a special mention go excellent film score ennio morricone pulsing thud thud every two seconds creates eerie spooky feeling hard shake whole film wonderful exercise paranoid manipulation scene bloodtest see whos human wound dexterity carpenter may find biting nails without even realisingbr br the thing pure unadulterated classic even ending leaves vague suspicion everything resolved underrated film well worth reappraisal received much better et,0 +time sleep p night yall f l l e r f l l e r f l l e r f l l e r,0 +hey dude quite possibly gamer hugs,0 +god im tiredi want die bad know hurt horribly might fail wish could leave hope afterlife everything want perfect people damn mean here dont like live constant stress anyone know easiest way go,1 +theres really big cliff near house basically walk jumpbut want hurt family ampxb theres much pain im tired myself keep failing everything try im unlovable fat sack shit want gone wish everyone forgot existance could kill myself,1 +someone help please ive harming years really want stopi never cut feel depressed anxiety several things cause sharp pain myself far tell feels like im addicted endorphins released start impossible stop last days even weeks main thing squeeze nose way skin inside gets pinched causes sharp pain gives huge release feels amazing calms me things drive nails side finger punching skin nail finger similar release there really want stop thanks advance advice,1 +school started cant really handle thingsthe reason havent killed becoase couldnt girlfriend would feel horrible loves soo much love her struggled depression since met her school started realize dont really friends also girlfriend moved away cant see anymore hour ago mom tried help prepae school got freaked touching stuff got today thought would mess up ended screaming continued help ended crying feel horrible becoase awful kid justifacation mom drugs treat whole familly horibly feel like really end myself,1 +rapunzel cute hey one else hair long soft,0 +oops dentist appointment hours sleep goodnightttt,0 +community pool connecticut setting under radar film charming funny entertaining appealing although prizes major film festivals the big bad swim released hordes theaters across america distributed dvd form shown theaters selectively br br it unfortunate the big bad swim never marketing hype hollywood release considering many sinkers hollywood released year i know killed me the big bad swim genuinely good independent film swim upstream ownbr br nevertheless the big bad swim actress paget brewster endearing believable amy wiredtobreaking point math teacher dumped husband also lose job ends taking gamble new life tv soap actor jeff branson hot plays noah earnest vulnerable swim teacher goes extra pool length help students overcome fears discovers learn students pretty sexy jess weixler did see bank commercial deftly plays jordan swimmertobe works two jobs one pole dancer blackjack dealer character provides catalyst change amongst ensemble least understandable characters lack back story motivation does jordan young enough still live home ubiquitous videocameratoting younger brother spies her however parents shown involved life way seems odd theres drunken mother abusive father explain normal attractive girl connecticut suburb would choose selfmedicating pole dancer debases loutish bachelor parties br br despite quibble the big bad swim succeeds large part happy feel good filmbr br as one might expect learning swim metaphor life ultimately better jump feet get swim rather sit deck life happens anywaybr br the big bad swim great date movie great dorm movie great what seen movie men like well women,0 +guys believe class rings worth itwhy not im junior high school im considering getting class ring im sure theyre worth theyre charging singular ring,0 +become extremely difficult find good horror movie anymore thought movie good thrillerbr br could better production values kept going suspense twists real reservations seeing movie because cover afraid would excessively bloody gory wrongbr br although lot scary parts lot suspense drama toobr br the acting dead line better would expect micro budget horror flick characters believablebr br the movie really thrilling quite scary moments makes grab seat ending credits rollbr br because production values the sound good example ,0 +suicide note passengerthere rules obeyed standartsliving charade thy all real purpose save mentally ill ocd non responsive meds everday lose part identity constant fight beetween two spheres brain star dust ready fulfilled life go back everthing started love friend yamur mix passion love charity anything healthy enoughi love family matter lot tolerate daily melancholic suicidal depression obsessions sake them world rules grand scale justice purpose distract mind create illusion second forget exist yes exist must bad joke walking eventual death us day us suffer us happy distractionfor example girl loved texting ilove much without even seeing face voice yet know never meet touch ever top void calls me always dreamt jumping bosphurus bridge jumping look mu childhood photos family photos photos girl deeply fell love in want lose tarnish love call coward probably right anyway sleeping pills jumping bosphurus crystsl blue current choice maybe time would free dying misery become part eternal silence maybe revorn example another big bang maybe never knows maybe simulation th grade student real day universr cease exist availi want thanks reddit full nice also weird people people shows true selvesi love yamur foreverand family morn finally freein another life brothers bye die born nothing become nothing suicide note,1 +im asking someone talk it need help convincing best friend faultits fault way convince not love her keeps breaking heart knows every area life gone dogs pushed past breaking point tonight swallowed pills im going send one last text know tell,1 +life going nowhere friends care me feel like nothing burden familyi lowest ive ever felt right now plans four different friends today one returned phone call text odd occurrence feel like im ignored forgotten soon leave room dropped college earlier year handle pressure classes depression live home tell parent disappointed know fix it times happy im distracted something like movie work food one source income minimum wage job feel noticed appreciated think future see nothing think im alone killing myself many people give two shits want feel way help me,1 +ask trans girl questions unless jest thou look no pity thy thought perhaps,0 +using sub diary part hello scrolling new guy nice meet you nice day anyway today bit productive started working birthay gift friend sadly remembered moment drawings suck well either nothing next days try best make acceptable school begins tomorrow bit productive again teachers really handle whole lockdown situation quite questionably fuck life guess wake tomorrow posts made much earlier also means less likely anyone sees this happen see though thanks stopping by good night reddit,0 +guys freaking right now new season pixel gun d scp themed one skins logo back new pet scp,0 +feeling completely worthless pointless rantingthe anxiety getting worse worse year goes on barely talk anyone anymore phone calls always impossible cant go doctor therapist help cant call them supposed call someone apartment finally better place obviously never really going happen redflag text helpline useless get empty platitudes go walk yeah thats gonna solve shitty personality men loved abusive assholes second one told jump front train since everyone would better off didnt say it already knew actually fucking miss despite ripping heart out need help dont know get im useless theres nothing inside me im incapable taking care myself worst kid feel like late actually kill now im forced stay suffering forever him cant break heart like that thank god good dad lord knows cant take good care him im failure every aspect life,1 +emotional support time im girl therapist try help need it information distributed ill give honest point view ill even try give advice also im help avoid problems,0 + weeks upgrade year old poggers,0 +even like watching late night talk shows found one really interesting imagine probably close truthit feels like honest account means anything kinda feel people somewhat watch it nice movie saturday night,0 +update yesterdays post da post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskqyi_managed_to_do_something_big_epicutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf fuck saw astolfo internet said no also thinks big gay,0 +caught movie ifc enjoyed it although felt like editing job little rough though may deliberate little bit hard time figuring going first seemed going little bit pulp fictionstyle nonlinear plot presentation seemed little forced though certainly think movie worth watching think could used little cleaning up scenes seem make sense others br br im surprised see rating low is outstanding really serious problems gave movie show least laurence fishburne act wants to must told matrix movies,0 +ok ive hours need stay another fix sleep schedule d idk it touch bed fall asleep dont wanna anything especially hw,0 +made using story generator nasty taco bell restroom short story poopy gloop gloopy glop looked dirty poop hands felt disgust walked window reflected smelly surroundings always hated nasty taco bell restroom oldfashioned old overflowing toilets place encouraged tendency feel disgust saw something distance rather someone figure poopy plop poopy gloppy brute soul leg ginger pubes gloopy gulped glanced reflection gloopy poopy diarrhea drinker big leg skinny pubes friends saw dirty decaying demon once even helped unsteady baby recover flying accident even gloopy person helped unsteady baby recover flying accident prepared poopy store today snow flurried like running dog making gloopy mad gloopy stepped outside poopy came closer could see quirky glint eye i want hug poopy bellowed ploppy tone slammed fist gloopys chest force poopy monster i frigging hate you gloopy glop gloopy looked back even mad still fingering dirty poop poopy pooed myself replied looked sadness feelings like two crispy comfortable cat pooping stoppy toilet water drinking contest jazz music playing background two sloppy uncles peeing beat gloopy regarded poopys soul leg ginger pubes held hand lets fight whispered gently hmph pondered poopy please begged gloopy puppy dog eyes poopy looked happiness body blushing like plastic powerful per poopy came inside nice drink diarrhea end,0 +american exposed character before good disappointed nothing compare to found enjoyment mindless idiot humor american teen movies although slightly similar type humor stop laughing hardly ever laugh loud movie usually movie funny parts me movie funny start finish disappointment over im actually going buy dvd find it,0 +saying opinions random movie get girlfriend day honestly even though stark unlikeable times way many things going in still liked iron man much original,0 +know much longer thisim aleady ussues alcohol like parents im drunk right now im drunk much often thing makes ok im fucking disappointment,1 +much want dieits feel,1 +heart cant handle anymorethe loneliness ive lonely entire life im almost late twenties cant take anymore everything try never enough theres whole side human experience ill never get experience many people able understand this extremely rare imagine constantly observer peoples relationships never wanted never able experience intimacy hell ive done everything improve myself never enough im ready dieif heart could literally break sadness loneliness thats occurring me cant take anymore,1 +health class fuck homework conversation parents teen relationships premarital sexabstinence record answers why dont get needs happen teacher reason sre taught everything go talk parents fml dont wanna this,0 +passively suicidali dont plans end life dont courage im huge wuss paindiscomfort feel like found cancer fatal disease wouldnt care got accident came would feel relief kind want die dont want one end it anyone relate,1 +totally surprised good movie actually first saw mildly amused must say however still disappointed donald oconnor given bigger better role enormous talentbr br there great chemistry among main cast members matthau never funnierbr br i tremendously glad picture got made get see lemmon matthau team last time vehicle puts talent great use brent spiner proves data star trek next geeration good character playbr br the storyline really quite simple comedy characters work really well laughed heartily throughout movie highly recommend it,0 + itwhats purpose go school get job get wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts since like im senior year college least another ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family would heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd get it work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something here many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture,1 +anyone san antonio want chillsome fucks work obliterated emotions tonight make worse work considering harrassment persay first time life get invited bar drink coworker whove ive grown like were leave ducks bathroom piss decide too enter coworker stall taking shit talking shit guy neither notice standing right there first guy calls creep accusses killing dog convinces guy invited ditch lying bar were going go somewhere else instead finishes shit exits notices me thing says well im going sugarcoat it whatever fuck means hes never expressed displeasure me caught talking shit making pretty bad rumour hit pretty hard since give dog recently save money also coming back houston people stayed went logs caught them lied explaining themselves called out actually bitched not giving enough info even though bought groceries open book failed ask anything oh yeah bitch reditor use dog thread asked advice investing house im fucking crushed want good friend here,1 +depressed several years ago thought ok seems come backlong story short fucked youth scarred pretty badly got shit together thought right track this years ago however lately past months so feeling horrible back point suicidal thoughts cannot talk people problems matter hard try tried several psychiatrists etc hate job get recognition anything do hours exhausting see change future applied several jobs reply qualified finance wise stuff going shitter well surprise costs makes savings like bucket hole it last euros moment luckily girlfriend but stupid know wrong dick towards her means well frustrations get irritated work her relationship tense weird thoughts dumping click anymore crying im alone thought leave sooner later nobody friends only drinking buddies family non existing due problemsissues first sentence feel lonely lot even though like alone really know going post apologies possible mistakes english first language sort weird back phase killing scare calms sort way knowing could end miserybe peace one little act,1 +bruh answered textscalls ex miss bad fjciixsomednf fine help,0 +first saw film seven years old completely enchanted years unable find film called twenty one stumbled upon film accident two weeks ago bought copy although memory film little hazy way disappointed saw animation film superb conjuring entire world believable well animated drawn film alone film also plot enchant entertain adults children alike floating island mad general friendly pirate granny well constructed love story film let would recommend film one,0 +usmy friend wants die cant help her want die wont talk me friend trying balance us making two us feel worthless us want die question wholl crack first,1 +kinda feel terrible born later like idk anyone else really weird think everything im gonna miss ill either dead old enjoy amazing technologies well develop colonization mars crazy virtual reality kinda wish born even later feeling like im getting old lel,0 +cant give start ya bestselling teenage rebellion,0 +best way stop feelinghi ive suicidal roughly years hospitalized times since last visit actively trying improve genuinely started feel better shit hit fan life past several months ive feeling depressed suicidal sleeping become difficult lay bed sudden wave holy fuck need hits me deep dont want act thoughts want stop ive tried medication past made feel worse advice stop feeling constantly wanting drive car bridge thanks,1 +know fightin freak knuckles were pumpkin ready ,0 +two hollywoods great child stars elizabeth taylor mickey rooney perfectly teamed deliver one alltime family classics story determined year old girl whose adoration horses allow turn away goal win british nationals mickey rooney newly orphaned drifter looking tie follow dreamsbr br a beautiful side plot reveals girls mother ambitions young girl repeatedly overruling fathers decisions favor spirited daughter mother seems know best scene exhausted taylor rushes go school priceless father protests why let go school shell drop exhaustion noon worry shed back within half hour saturday brilliant technicolor sumptuous music score beautiful faces telling bittersweet story heres good reason old saying makem like anymore,0 +teacher rold believe problems always helping others happyi overdue important papers school wrote school counseling struggles thoughts message shared everyone school parents later oral exam french done person online lessons teacher like you like find want get back home talk people like really sorry hear mental health problems hard believe it teachers like come from always seem happy helping others problems around school even noticed one talks foundation students like really talk talk people let talk problems get lost little world really say anything myself present sad around people try help me give fake empathy kinda role started exam,1 +redflag hotlines garbagefor first time life used crisis center fucking joke is parrot emotions back like talking robot you seem frustrated im sensing lot anger so feel burden never using shit again im better deed bad im already drunk home alone would go drive train tracks wanna kill anyone else driving,1 +cant handle itlet start saying im going hurt every time im feeling overwhelmed mind goes straight wanting myself wont it ive got much going it even slightest bit overwhelmed cant help start suicidal thoughts want stop dont know how cant even bring therapist ive got kids theyll report it itll turn problems need stop please help dont really want it seems like brain thinks answer problems,1 +really need friendi bpd course months ive gotten heart broken lost jobs dropped credit classes hospital got cut mother sister ive thought giving never follow dream family child specifically right im debating abandoning car walking natural selection think help help please,1 +wanted say nice day stay hydrated check friends case hear last time friendly reminder you guys gals nonbinary pals,0 +feeling overwhelmed tired lostim live mom disabled extremely mentally abusive manipulative think borderline personality disorder get help previous attempts failed chased away everyone lives even online friends currently engaged absolutely wonderful guy lives us im canadian take months year get marriage visa move there know happy light end tunnel keep feeling hopeless mom work income one me feel awful leaving her time seriously damaging me constantly attacks me gives guilt tripe threatens kick out file visa says leave keeps stuffeven end thw street months take much fiancee could lose job worried me cry time feel overwhelmed tried call engagement time seems impossible me keep pushing filing scared moms reaction feel like im failure daughter fiance friend person friends want hear problems anymore blame them ive stuck home situation since dad died years ago even really feel like fake happy fiance stops worrying something cant fix like taking healthy steps impossible cant afford meds last time counsellor involved mom caused many problems forced walk away me keep thinking killing myself know face next year new life cant bare think suffering cause love thought mom probably either disown me make process hell never stop harassing guilt trips part want come home work today start hour keep thinking turning phone nd disappearing ending life alone even know posting do ive helped people various aliases one else talk to sorry long whiny post,1 +feel worthless hated everyonein reality two friends talking rare rest people know me thinking weird poor not people tells satanist go church try make angry later tell aggressive hobby panic disorder might get panic attack day reasons live,1 +m turning soon delete nudes girls eyes fucking weird post also typed phone theres probably spelling errors also forgive weird name made quick account ask questions ap exams shit online site actually seemed aight kept it basically gathered bunch nudes girls high school im still high school im senior year dont really know originally started collected turned competition friends far ish nudes friends arent arent deleting dont wanna delete cuz kinda holds sentimental value difficulty keeping sent principal every week checking phone friends send different phones make multiple snapchat accounts drugs issue tho dumbass friends kept pics weed dab pens dorm room im boarding school anyways dont even like jack anything like cuz competition go fuck ton shit these also like chad move kind know also got consentually like others came friends became competition in total definitely also arent different girls pic girls might know im gonna get downvoted shit ton cuz seems like fucked thing normal person fair is want advice someone isnt friend group wouldnt judgmental,0 +im ending tuesdayeveryone subreddit suffered alot me ive read stories abuse abandonment etc makes feel weak shitty reasons life ive happy child genuinely times parents suffered severe eczema toddler years old despite bullying ew ugly boy remarks pretty girls school fact bottom classes genuinely stupid everything seemed fine however recent years ive pushed edge developed bad anxiety hate meeting anybody even family live with it never know stand sit talk look point worth going effort anyone all got point began hallucinate auditory visual fears hid years im wierd af avoid bullying knew would emerge hid aspects created boring teenage character talk avoid mistakes hung losers school avoid get attention others listened rap others did existential crap started happening began realise life whole point meaning whatsoever let alone individual stupid little person im things getting even worse earlier parents found cutting myself freaked out mum got pissed beyond imagination ended getting help psychologists psychiatrists thought would change me would come completely fine didnt even expensive highly recommended psychologist help somehow avoid wasting parents money put happy face pretended got better stop treatment major exams coming revised shit ive sat home played video games constantly broke crying skipped necessary work day even somehow manage stumble past exams good grades future interests know barely take hour work let alone required levels let alone work whole life im bit pathetic really asked hobbies are thing say playing video games forget world means escape lie people want engineer doctor shut up ive tried getting interested topics good always end thinking useless cant bothered research anything make worse go private school everyone around achieves really high parents im always failure top know im monster ive never helped anybody mum dad love bits still snap everyday lie time internal frustration im pretty sure dad aspergers infact kinda obvious selfish evil upmost despicable thing me hate him hate hes different wierd hate fact genes within hate fact married mum made life miserable forced born whenever try communicate friends end toxic never bother talking anymore never get girlfriend want one know ill ruin life much ive ruined own lived till long afraid afterlife religion forced upon sense leave grew older fear the punishment redflag always stopped me im longer pussy end hell it deserve anyways,1 +porn addiction thats right something though,0 +emotional person feel may need talking about mredflag answer something reminding myself problem something remind myself posted got great advice feel maybe address correct issue alive seeming enticing like work school never liked school know nothing anything usless material like video games magic gathering know ky family loves religion really esqued thinking how know love something must grant everyone let religion control without it know am tried discover avail ranting now need help,1 +bruhhours life gone ive spent hours solving sudoku daysand around hour watching youtube videos solving sudokuyou ask questions something idkim really bored now,0 +idk trust apparently girl asks kiss better rush kiss theres chance atleast case using tiktok actually want kiss happened friend felt inform fellow teenagers,0 +cant stand mother school deserve deathmy mom angry person always back everything even enjoy couple moments video games yells me dont anything upset her good grades school good friends see school going home feels shitty now nowhere else go im done hanging out must go home mom yells me even nothing wrong explain myself wont ever listen im trapped nothing good right now want enjoy life like normal person cant mom yells often everything im sorry whatever do brother never yelled at always am hate yelled everything may well end myself dont know solve anything angry immensely selfish too asks everything her going somebodies place dont even know say feel uncomfortable get yelled at blames mother everything does mother angry own looked kill myself app uses lets see everything phone allowed see look kill myself yell me made her concern wanting kill myself want get help cant handle living her considering much treats like shit im done dont want live insignificant waste life nothing matters future anyways might well kill mother live painful emotional scar haunt rest life making feel like worthless trash hate school well want exist please teacher get thrown life helping nothing work replaced far future hate much everything dont know so,1 +want diemy grades shit want anything future im piece shit year old exist play videogames future im planning blowing brains years now,1 +either love hate movies thriller set inside lonesome asylum far lonesome land much horror show concoction frightening imageries wackozoid mental patients scream best term use obviously popular drivein classic noted strange wicked behaviors notice judge whos put ax behind doctor brrrrr much else described bloody tasty goodness get chance remember familiar old saying hag lady get out get out never ever come back wish looked basement,0 +know someone pause online game hes powerfulhis name isis,0 +year half since last tried kill myselflong story short ive severely suicidal since graduated college even that im honest constantly inpatient years recent attempt landed icu three days seizure like brain activity breathing tube shoved throat one worse experiences life really sucks im feeling suicidal again really dont want put family something like again thought past bullshit,1 +you tell feel im you love you every one you,0 +advice boys boy tokyo drift saw two prior posts advice boysthey nailed it thought id throw hat ring story list advice theres still valuable lesson share anyways story tale begins mid december last year covid unheard of people looking new year excitement optimism working stage crew member schools production one day one breaks sitting alone flicking phone mindlessly girl sitting friends called over started asking questions hobbies were subjects did etc while left tasks teacher time really confused this barely spoken before later evening realized saw sitting myself assumed lonely called over small act kindness stuck me im certain im gonna remember rest life time watch news lose hope humanity remember kindness girl showed me moral storythis applies everyone boys girls everyone inbetween idea much tiny act kindness help someone,0 +need someone talk to nowi feel really lonely,1 +leave interesting comments ill back morning wait sorry meant pm bc thats bad sleep scheduel plus rn,0 +straw broke camels backlife one big pile misery me year especially hell severe social anxiety communicating people hard finding people feel comfortable around even harder even know normal conversation without awkwardness silences used three friends would actually talk hang with lost year anyone left talk feel comfortable around lonely depressed graduated cant seem find job good would like do hate everything current job whats point going work everyday hate family provide anyways even friends going spend money basically something hate survive even want discovered today receding hairline used think bad hair days lately started occurring more today realized got shit hairline losing hair twenty fucking four one family bald bad hairline like me used kind good looking basically thing holding to thought would maybe meet girl someday liked looked would look past social anxiety inability connect people actually take time get know me now im physically repulsive too one ever love like me goodbye,1 +awkward umm female classmate came house know nothing herand first thing shes house homeworkso enter room play switchbut im scared thinks impolite thatand rlly dont feel comfortable havent said single wordi dunno,0 +hate texiting cuz cuz like haha becausee im extremely fucking funny like come guys stop laughing extremely intricate jokes nice conversation,0 +diving deeper auras galaxiea first series hope god species auras going age order lets begin first list galaxiea physical social descriptions auras found herehttpswwwredditcomrimmersivedaydreamingcommentsmkqcmaintroducing_my_god_species_the_aurasutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumwebxampcontext basic info galaxiea oldest auras firstborn council also largest aura pris standing feet ear galaxiea siblings children galaxiea everything physical universe creates controls stars planets black holes neutron stars pretty much everything else inhabits space decides moves often planning course entire galaxies hundreds thousands years ahead time like tier auras galaxiea possesses telepathy telekinesis uses constantly keep items floating around well lift move items as well upper auras talk telepathy physical description galaxiea tallest auras feet ear tall stocky muscled wellbuilt short fur dark blueblack color eyes rich dark purple several planets rings asteroid belts floating around time never touching fur large yellow planetlike rings dance around neck tail ears ankles like jewelry asteroid belt floats spine neck tail weaving around rings planets varying sizes colors orbit rings asteroids none items actually hold life simply shrunkendown versions real thing galaxiea wears show sometimes especially bored galaxiea pick one planets float around her inspecting it may ever play rings watch asteroids soar around her doesnt often breaks cold uncaring front galaxiea puts on personality positive traits wise good foresight thinks long term caring good negotiator talker good memory watchful knowing soft inside cares around wont admit loyal static rarely changes mind set likely wont change always open help others never ask help careful words always speaks intent doesnt speak often always worth listening negative traits closed guiltridden blames whenever something bad happens auras critical stubborn tends come mean harsh struggle understand emotions especially complex ones doesnt trust others often tries things struggle asking help difficult please harsh criticism neutral traits cold stoney exterior opinionated blunt thinks long term fails see actions impact people stickler rules believes place reason tends harsher side punishment grading believes failures promote inspiration become flustered confronted always wants maintain cold exterior causing limit things doesnt enjoy listing others talk prefers alone enjoys company hates gossip believes people say things speak fun facts galaxiea sworn children saying one has ever will share power final galaxiea loves murder mystery books genre read several bookshelves filled murder mystery dozen languages line room know though since galaxiea reads room slightly embarrassed personal servants know occasionally sends retrieve new books absolutely loves read book owns least times never admit wants look fancy regal galaxiea change items float around her may add rings head like halos planets around neck like necklace never wears regular jewelry instead uses items fashion galaxiea sometimes seen tutoring young schoolage auras physics laws always get flustered closed whenever someone points out galaxiea one auras enjoy swimming auras enjoy getting wet warm days galaxiea may seen dropping floating items beside priss lakeshore diving in says water reminds floating space doesnt swim often believes undermines cold exterior since galaxiea blood family close many auras closest friends time death electricity though electricity tier aura galaxiea spends fair amount time him led rumors spreading around pris level relationship say simply work together powers relate closely intertwine often others say intimate relationship neither galaxiea electricity spoken rumors though galaxiea hates rumors blind male convinced let go still snarls anyone catches talking it hope guys like this please tell think ask questions would love answer them,0 +male snoo dead hes gone,0 +help mehelp pelase,1 +storyi half native half vietnamese canadian father vietnam war refugee mothers mom residential school survivor intergenerational trauma caused personality disorder insomnia depression anxiety ptsd grew two pedophiles simultaneously one side family wanted nothing heritages this dealt car accidents sexual harassment workplaces rapes vietnam family friends justice system abandoned me still yearn reconciliation however spite this choose understand forgive love,1 +i uh dad catch phone middle night like bruh get heart attacks,0 +people attempted hangingdid hurthow long passed outdid leave physicaly disabeled sorrt asking questionsif much answer im curious want,1 +gonna check back days ill psyche ward days im bored imma leave post awile aight bye,0 +know america many covid cases britain stay m apart thats inches america thats why,0 +want die pain go away never good enough even know job best mother still screams thinks mentally retarded feel miserable pathetic ,1 +tried kill last nighti sitting patio imagining walking intersection could see there sudden compulsion walk there did standing sidewalk watching cars pass by almost daring walk front one also getting frustrated none going fast enough kill me minutes this broke crying punched wooden post frustration making knuckles bleed cried sidewalk while feel like shit wanted die bring it im stuck still,1 +got message friend saying crush likes one absolutely one but select family friends know like her either joke real im freaking fuck eaither way fuck do,0 +rickroll lofi the best rickrollhttpsyoutubexx_xnxxfa,0 +anyone looking something mean trying online dating stuff wanna know happens reddit doing test,0 +people tell sleep early know damn well probably ,0 +good ideai thought killing every day while combination drugs unprescribed want them also want safe environment stabilize ive think going mental institution good idea fmla cover work days miss,1 +waking morning getting harder harder career place job takes huge hit mental illnessi wake early go work every single day dread dead end job deal stupidest customers every single day cant quit cause need money dont money cant move go school dont even make enough save ive looked jobs one hiring social life joke friends one talk to sometimes feel like killing would stop thoughts head think family would react,1 +funny thing mom friends europe one time talking childhoods communist countries weird ways vacations mentiones gypsies got hear rendition opinions gypsies one romanian,0 +something woman man cannot involve sexualityi thinking putting raskwomen worried breaking rules im ftm transgender closet im desperate find theres something stupid body defile even further please something womans body mans cannot involve sexualitypregnancy orgasms flirting etc making dumb excuses get situationsblame pms something acknowledges weaknessgetting help street woman refuses get pregnant even purpose world causes much unnecessary sufferingthe reason could think someone would go things like female puberty pregnancy love babies us love purpose something man cant well better research yet find single thing,1 +m anyone chat could chill perhaps play terraria,0 +someone please please help get eveningi cant deal cycle bipolar disorder anymore coping mechanisms completely shot please talk me edit im going go sit bath bit ill check back soon thanks pming talking me really helping love community,1 +know would good idea pegging asshole strapon dildo you could also use real thing want hehe,0 +dont even know say girlfriend last night party slept next first time dating amazing girl extremely drunk night drunk sad personal issues basically sober helped night spooning night holding tight remember trying make feel safe wake morning day today avoiding me today talked told night touching boobs kept pushing away also told moaned night extremely uncomfortable dont remember anything happened thought asleep however says awake intentionally her feel like absolute dog shit wants take break dont know feel extremely guilty bad confused cant believe thing love girl want happy feel disgusted thing find hard believe could something like want back advice reddit begging,0 +fellow teens please play fortnite im sweaty try hard im memer,0 +nothings going right me still waitingnothings going right nothing ever fucking will want die id kill tonight bothered get bed,1 +need dollars publish website worked hard on hello student whose passion computer science programming spend lot time making cool website would love publish it cheapest sqldatabaseintegrateable domain hosting costs per month total yes website one month enough show friends family project ive put lot effort into ill try get money later guess could help out even would mean world me httpswwwpaypalcompaypalmenotvectorhttpswwwpaypalcompaypalmenotvector dm proof website like video showing files website itself want,0 +im disgusted myselfim disgusted self want kill whine im going isnt even bad many others much worse still move,1 +tired everything going through unmotivated want life end thing keeping alive material purchases give temporary happiness distracting playing shooter games daymy ex keeps popping life kills me distraught keep knows hurts much went crazy emailed like accounts begging unblock simultaneously telling never talk again extra suicidal unhinged really want kill front him thinking months nowi started taking mood stabilizers two days ago sick everything think hold long enough see meds helps me dropped useless therapist last week toohow stay away someone bad also makes happy want die sleep,1 +id say im active ive made posts sub dont comment much might seen,0 +want stay room forever playing video games watching anime living for life hell outside that left die love friends parents worrying money homeless time what suffer life hurts much,1 +thinking killing last daysi thoughts recently getting arguments girlfriend parents secret relationship told beginning good idea talk parents disagreed dumb kept secret relationship secret part love girlfriend mom took phone read messages sending last days girlfriend said deleting everything found lie parents said stay away contact her im home think hanging myself ive tried hard last year feels like slap face im tried life crapping matter hard try seem good enough world idk im lose feel like option end point,1 +good morning yall,0 +toxic relationship suicidal thoughts aftermath idk doi dont usually speak whats going life really go online tell anyone anything personal myself im usually reclusive try let life continue lately ive felt like im very dark place ive told opening forum help least help opening feel something read guess well ampxb heres big one ive never honest myself entire life battled sexuality gay straight bisexual ive bounced around entire life ive never chance explore gain comfort might be ive always relationship felt like wrong gender years ago found furry fandom accepting people felt home short started causes gaps life friends looking weird family asking questions clear never opened furry anyway hide directed me like sexuality lifestyle hobby people could relate too slowly faded away want friends family calling weirdo hid it still look lot art use help find comfort might be even begin start this year long relationship partner ftm early process hormones anything yet started dating still going well say lindsey first love nothing stopped us wanted together puppy dog stage strongest awhile fell apart partner struggled faithfulness lot relationship primarily internet friends also furry internet big part lives means internet friendships play big part well hard time remembering privateclosed relationship within first years th th year began make internet relationships making mistakes fueled mostly spite also begging attention anyone th year took break currently lived washington i taking care sick mother decided return california first week stopped talking one day sent message something forgotten me kept talking that began breakdown emotionally mother falling ill loneliness sudden change lifestyle year relationship began regret choices talked things end asked could try again distance try fixing things distance us test waters things come agreed began talking day night calls intimate videos shared still felt strong love other as year relationship you seemed like things getting better slowly months eventually moved california mother care equipped family hard first managed however never really talked months apart even though talked often lot days went without text call asked usually told family busy something eventually refusal talk happen time drew rift us one day shower decided pick phone browse chat histories time period look messages social media accounts went ultimate snoop found everything could month time sent nudes countless men stand wanted fun once lied multiple times sex another man countless times texting inbetween hours together im sick writing it remembering it but haunted years found out fought days nonstop think would mark end relationship right well no justified saying hurt break wanted get back breaking her and like idiot agreed her took blame convinced sex man me deserved abuse forced us take break ive struggled depression entire life ive never months time without feeling creep way life usually triggered something anything could big could small never really know happens fought feeling two years peroidic episodes accusing lindsey terrified would cheat again idk stayed guilt fast forward years weve together years total hate myself everything me annoy ones care cant stop talking idk why excitement eagerness ive never really known get carried away people tell jerk taking lighthearted teasing far without realizing feeling embarrassed hours even notice ass attitude towards life soured im often irritable upset roommates unreasonably dont much good say anything anymore ive gotten bad enough people around speak it used attractive cared appearance excited show off but ive gained lot weight last year nearly pounds nearing pounds even ive never disgusted myself problem im upset eat habit forever lot people im sure stop im paying it stopped wearing favorite clothes stopped taking shirt public stopped making video calls cant stand might look im constantly paranoid shell cheat again ask questions go silent ruin entire days frustration did every fight would break up get upperhand never true maybe days week spend together laugh two miserable know it cant let go coronavirus locked home last months straight ive left handful times supplies overall ive anxious leave house im scared getting sick ive depressed relationship lost job live unemployment sit around waiting next day shes picked social media again talking people hours plays apex legends every single day someone met online someone talks hours hours bed dinner everywhere never explains anything tells wants social life again stays almost year lost friends bad attitude family learned im questioning sexuality i dont know how cut entirely spend time waking am smoking weed every minutes sitting bedroom pm taking sleep aide fall asleep ive suffered nightmares regularly last year dont know anymore ive lost feeling im nub everything feel like husk autopilot thats breath air ive lost touch myself ive felt mental health suffer dont know how cant even describe whats happening anymore weeks ago sat car wondered could use kill without hurting others dont gun lindsey came garage wanting smoke weed seen sitting car trance focused dashboard staring nothing told truth without meaning too slipped accident coming whatever stuck in response was passive encourage me but didnt anything help time either laid bed hours thinking little seemed mean her little seemed mean her everyone ampxb dont even know wrote this hoped maybe saying myself typing out maybe could stop myself feel like inevitable eventually today broke again mean it idk ive sitting box days wondering theyre gone good time left read ignored entirely dont know anymore feel like control taking life dont want fight anymore dont want suffer dont want keep going everything ugly life race wars virus scares gays hated again conservatives rioting sexuality never got experience years whats point continuing life never even start write entire story attention forum people real problems im sorry post even here know else post this im desperate advice anything,1 +day asking everyone filler filler filler kakektidb filler filler filler,0 +time leave worldanother update recent depression spree girlfriend officially left me longer loves me going me parents told today leaving weekend decided kill gone choosing charcoal inhalation way go out think anyone stop feel free ask questions fortunate update thanks inspiring words guys go although one night ex called tears sadness sat bathroom almost ended it got it friends last night even though cant talk problems due pride able ignore problems good amount weekend thank again,1 +first world problemshi always redflag understood people miserable feel like way out thought pretty sad living organism main goal survival depressed start going natural instincts terrifying lately started facing problems chose wrong college made life lot harder be mental completely went downhill past months im currently trying transfer also bright side met girl im currently dating love lot great also fights going college too may go different one kills me seems like like much anymore couldve avoided smarter college decisions feel suicidal mornings usually honestly want end life know peoples lives harder sound like privileged fucking piece shit realized lot harder kill thought would be seems like painless ways painless hard accomplish comment good ways end whatever,1 +anyone says people care liarsi hate phrase much one ever cared life hate cared for would problems first place would irl friends girlfriend no ive never either im freaking meanwhile many people age younger already life set them already dates time lives meanwhile everyone else world preventing things even parents cared pusses say want kill people go dont it cause pain others wont one even fucking cares first place never,1 +strange cant contact therapists koreain korea people unawaware therapists practise play candles herbs thus lack psychological knowledge means therapists somewhere psychiatric docs stubborn counselors since psychology still taboo snob psychiatric docs diagnose pills want moneys conservative cpunselors try correct people others neither lgbtq friendly since snob try correct people lastly right mad people try correct person try mad want use insanity fuel,1 +stalemateim m soon turning nothing show myself lost friends last year told depression suicidal ideation years ago nothing changed till last year finally cut off understand them constantly negative havent moving forward years everybody else has inferior regards anyone used friends with year socially isolated outside spent whole sitting front computer time times went get food job prospects future aimlessly attended university years switching majors nothing came it late start apprenticeship field like everything competitive inferior human like me constantly asking even apply apprenticeships anyone would want hire somebody like struggled mental illness since years old year old happy human applying job am course know mental state tell way lying last aimless years way making sound rather positive negative cv worthless many gaps due mental illness want work cleaning person want work assembly line feel like option succeed working world would start kind business self employed since chances slim get anywhere corporate world know certainly thick skin kind adventure thought getting help time answer anything always within oneself change better could start take ssris again talk therapist listen things again help me could submit psychiatric ward would doctors give benzodiazepines make sure going kill myself fucked everything depression inferiority complex never strong enough pull through top selffulfilling prophecy everything dull ive tried kms twice one time cutting i stopped hurt much ugly scars forearm one time taking mg lorazepam pills unfortunately sent hour sleep coma researching everything redflag methods know end life decapitation train seems best option although id prefer shotgun since guns illegal live germany possibility know certain never able ditch inferiority complex last years soul heart become bitter core become addicted smoking weed cigarettes cleanse would also take time anymore almost year old male mental illnesses enough skills compete workplace cm help go anywhere helps strengthen beliefs unnecessary disposable friends left also point trying anymore run money support end february also day birthday think seen enough say least leave life good memories,1 +oh heres something funny happened couple days ago school changing classes from nd block rd block hallway smelt bad like really bad smelled like shit know couldve caused quite bothersome next day girl class said brother bought liquid shit internet put vents something,0 +want able add worldi repetitively complaint child went school like everyone work still cant anything cant make anything,1 +need someone talk to pleaseneed help,1 +anybody clothing style suggestions white boy teenager tryna look good cuz current style shit,0 +ok himbos emotional intelligence hot asf,0 +okay hear fnaf chance get smash cause fucking steve in like what chance big voice genre need horror character hand tf character likely game made v would rad play heavy third hand crash spyro get in think would get in,0 +seems like woken today knowing thinking full clarity sitting desk thinking mistakes made feel calm scared lost everything lead fault manipulative second language hurt people meant everything me marriage failed held tight needed let go words say apologize take back pain caused suffocating eventually cheating her still crosses mind everyday even relationship tried everything right failed inherently bad person gaslighting without even knowing made miserable point fight air lungs get away ill never know make right you hope someday forgive meeven joined navy sense normalcy life messed left little pocket meant to stay awake night suffocating memories almost dying hope morning light bring life every part knows situation would pain now terrible person know deserve happiness life calm knowing calm knowing everything end somehow lowest ever felt also calmest ever felt anyone takes time read this thank you everything end,1 +health related m lately ive feeling shortness breath heavy breathing prominent lay straight back bed started happening days ago like since going go doc tomorrow anyone knows symptom cause,0 +sick constantly wanting diei mean like people forum want die constantly even happy want die sick always feeling tired feeling like life mine work three jobs taking part graduate school best friend love much constantly feel like emotionally babysit boyfriend love honestly cant feel comfortable with fear abandoning makes hard relax enjoy relationship lost two best friends cant seem get forget father supportive parent life cancer mother complete cnt manages make feel guilty existing despite knowing full well damaged relationship fault fear friends really hate putting me feel like school worth it im busy time go see doctor therapist go gym exercise makes people feel better sometimes despite jobs money problems almost zero time want die im scared dying painfully want die peacefully hate waking up want feel way,1 +bought rover truck im gonna flex hard get much yall even ready this im yungest flexer already know gang gang,0 +hate subconscious dreams dreams ever seem remember incredibly lucid dreams girls like problem didnt feel real whenever get one im always wondering real wake up awful recent one last night details little hazy ill best remember im crush friends forget really important afterwards go house group disperses crush waiting parents come get her starts telling medical episode recently highly likely condition causes death basically lie april point tells scared know do moves were couch way put around slump over point basically lying top me says stuff remember wake up apparently hugging myself theyre usually sad normally theyre pretty happy cool overly realistic im loser whos never girlfriend before know talk girls guess ive felt really empty really quarantine going on able see anyone go school helped well thats now stay safe everyone,0 +reason get besides going workive struggling depression since fall last year awhile ok felt like going get go back happy care free self sometime early june contracted herpes genital oral gave overwhelming sense hopelessness along feel need try romantic relationships anymore want tell anyone herpes slept hours today reason wake up everyday work thing keeps killing badly think would affect mom sister words encouragement would much appreciated,1 +whos committed spouseive done wife twice life feeling bit guilty done three time voluntarily totally foreign involuntarily always seems much worse times signed up mostly addiction issues times committed here suicidal despondentacting unusual spoke phone seems scared actually much lucid would love perspective other side someone committed spouse felt right wrong thing them,1 +post hits k likes finally get k karma im super happy huge milestone me havent reddit long guys made welcoming environment im glad part community,0 +got lead know feel week ago started talking old friend invited friends discord server started talking bit developed crush one night decide ask wanted go out surprise says yes decide start dating going meet couple days first date but two days date get text saying ready relationship go back friends im really sure feel right really know happened fuck up fuck up get unlucky know im experienced dating seems odd im really upset turned vent issues attempt understand,0 +think would best way commit redflagi thinking noose like cutting veins open blood seeps cuts pass pain blood loss thats me opinions best way force soul body let know,1 +dont like penis like penis dont enjoy cocks attracted male genitalia pp bad,0 +photography editing movie exceptional time period eisenstein builds upon scene movie leading sailors revolt massacre town much movie high point cinema also example szocialist realism soviet government actively used arts including film means spread message revolution eisensteins portrayal revolt battleship potempkin offers viewer insight message soviet elite marxist theory perspectives class struggle demonstrated sailors represent oppressed workers officers represent elite society much film demonstrates communist party message film used tool propaganda,0 +running man viciously lampoons modernday american media complex hits target deadcenter may easy target pull none less rm effortless takes prowrestling featuring pro wrestlers hunters network television nielsen ratings american government suggesting entertainmentoriented anyway crime punishment halfdozen things along way far cry original stephen king novella arnold ben richards novella either cares basically arnie flick wellchoreographed action sequences oneliners undertaking requires,0 +im glad go todaycompletely shattered recent breakup woke morning called work plan get little affairs order bills rent get drunk take pills ive collecting hang myself close friend town san fransisco gave guilt trip always town went spent night three closest friends im sure know much mean me ive told think really understand saved life tonight even know it first time ive truly smiled weeks thank a j c love you,1 +want diei many could wish for apartment share friends one best friends many friends truly care go way take care me parents love support however can two sisters consider friends poor ive love before yet feel despair sadness perpetually keep telling going build life stop lying myself want here ive hurt people past shouldnt get thrive thought could good world remedy past much suffering cant save everyone though wish could want die dont want see suffering dont want cause suffering think forgiven past dealings suicidal ideation since young attempted redflag before survived last attempt chance alone time plan jumping bridge feels guaranteed know family friends distraught suffer also see good come it life one live anymore harm anyone else plan ending soon want die believe god afterlife pray leave behind pray find happiness live lives better could hope make better choices faced decision selfish hope instead make choice help fellow man instead,1 +beluga whale ass wake one morning find beluga whale stuck ass going do,0 +husband m got married years ago happy together fairly dark mental career states met work found happiness left work place successful place new career new city enjoy things work success place family husband got new seasonal job place used work lives best friends town hour drive away hes loving every minute new duties new coworkers amazing boss loves place is damn happy him really fills heart talk phone visit him see thrilled hes amazing gift us both means living alone weeks since left comes visit every weekends found time enough energy even put plates empty dishwasher put wrappers trash empty overflowing recycling pick dog shit yard time must strength vacuum wipe counters laundry etc many friends new city back old work husband is like coworkers far younger necessarily see eye eye everything spend time alone walked dog weeks play back yard house extremely messy standards depression pit hes coming home week days picking place suddenly energy hide shameful mess make space welcoming him kitchen clean yard picked up sheets fresh trash empty feels good clean cannot myself cannot get enough energy little things every night keep house like this instead know housekeeping chores get mad energy it makes want hide world go crawl bed watch crappy youtube videos instead get energy take care yourself realized little value myself ill bend backwards everyone else make happy cannot even gather energy toss garbage alone,1 +redflag hotlinei need call hotline im scared call police anybody know contact police every call somebody immediate danger also help worth time,1 +know anymorehonestly really know write this ive never spoken emotions guess wanted tell someone feel im m ive felt like killing now feel like im letting everyone meet family accomplished things mom dad high ranking military brother got prestigious nasa scholarship im shit school fail half classes take thing feel like deserve feel do born good family lot friends reason kill people around me feel like killed family friends would disappointed want people remember like that wish could sacrifice save someone give life someone needs it ive looked organ donation know ill last long know ill point sorry long confusing writing mind thanks,1 +somebody please tell apple type talk tall want say yall instead stop automatically correcting word talk yall north dont even say yall correcting automatically instead maybe suggestion tldr stop autocorrecting word talk yall fucking piece shit apple phone,0 +night cunt love you dont let bed bugs bite,0 +would schizophrenic deaf person hear voices head talking them im unable find answer anywhere need know,0 +seems like logical option world cant fit intohave never fit society im much nonconformist motivation finish college grades fine absolutely hate classes cant keep interest pretty much every class ive entire life ive tried multiple types classes spanning different majors friends to benefit success finding work parents use work mcdonalds critique smh career path well im worthless highly likely bpd mdd add well gad honestly sound like subsets one another tried medication unsuccessful tried stimulants hated well cure depression im essentially screwed life imagine death worse candy compared picture close lowest point ill probably get kicked soon become homeless,1 +ive done nothing contributeim taking space using food water peoples time aspirations direction easier ceased exist,1 +always avoided posting voice head muchcuz feel like problems pale comparison many posts see every hour shits getting hard theres constant voice head telling kill past years think moment im intensely engaged something like conversation work video games constantly reminds kill myself rn im waiting semesters college got let go work chilling friends cuz quit drinking smoking thats friendships built on basically theres much going me voice constant cant escape it getting really hard back hs could meet new people date girls make friends doesnt happen now idk why basically constantly reminisce awkward terrible things ive done voice tells kill self sometimes strong feel inclined forced say loud kill kill even people around involuntarily try play like saying something else humming something breath ive lots therapy intensive inpatient psych ward previous attempt much earlier life feel like none could help rn think need people life rn course online friends nice guys know really same idk do besides nothing really wrong great family almost problems life dumb things ive done feel like ill never escape guilt anxiety may well kill self instead years now reason im writing cuz idk else talk to brother cool doesnt know handle stuff really fuck,1 +anyone wanna talk im bored pm ya want ill talk bout almost anything listen problems ig,0 +im aloneim two hours away anyone knows im alive university friends even anyone knows name cant handle fucking alone subhuman cant even look anyone eyes speak every day panic attacks drawn fear schoolwork know wont make it please god let convenient dont disappoint family comes it ill find way cant fucking take anymore much im fucking sorry boyfriend friends family please god let finally feel peace,1 +got report card grades flunked so normally im good student high grades last year lowest grade ever b however last year teacher bitch know probably respectful since hes helping learn didnt gave detention pointless reasons constantly picked reading answering questions front room much could even though knows horrible case stage fright the principal told teacher let independant work often group work care worst thing is let get beaten up yard patrol time lunch got picked every day one time early january group kids throwing big chunks ice mainly targeting facehead teacher saw instead coming break since knew defend kids stronger me walked away smiling got concussion teeth damaged im lucky need braces away weeks injuries grades year as cs dissapointed im online school year im often confused were problems focusing im really anxious good thing online teacher really nice helps catch up cant change grades best mark b lowest c feel ashamed disgusted myself heard got fired know care long leaves alone thanks listening little rant wanted get system,0 +new hampshire friends hey guys got airbnb alton nh months since college online im freshman got people hmu around area would chill,0 +nothing wrong everything feel wrongim sure start saying this im sure start hopefully short paragraph text tries explain im depressed nothing depressed about feel alone despite room full loving supporting people cant manage explain hesitate tell parents this ive pulled together list people ive ever told struggle guess there freaking parents therapist know wanna tell parents anything like why depressed queston idea stop asking wanna go therapist requires telling parents this cant handle knowing someone paid talk me pretty damn good life honest cant fine feel like this hopefully short decently detailed kinda wrote suddenly,1 +question going hospitalso im incredibly depressed noone talk to call pessimistic think talking talking someone via reddit seem like would helpful go er right speak someone would entire process like suicidal thoughts everyday courage actually follow it wanted discharged would picked someone im also would discharge me last time went hospital suicidal thoughts transported psychiatric ward private clinic actually called told risk kill myself tldr want go er want held transported elsewhere do,1 +im destined shitty lifepeople always talk path life me honesty see fuckup eventually killing myself ill become drug addict live streets go jail stupid reason kill myself thats way see going motivation actually something useless life thought graduating school career starting family getting old makes sick life isnt worth living me everything pointless id rather suicidal crackhead successful fuck that successful people arent even happy anyway,1 +mom good emotional support dad sensitive touchyfeely whereas take something face value pick subtleties think somewhat loveless marriage dad turned emotional outlet point early teens would spend hours talking lessons morality suffering hands insensitiveclueless mom love things romantic sensual mixed here kind pervy behavior,1 +ucatswithalmdudler appreciation post stalking,0 +set failurei understand point living someone like me compare einstein poor foreign kid motivation live like them im stupid depression social anxiety physically unattractive ive spent years studying hard nothing return drop subjects chemistry physics backup am right now adults really need make minds say high school everything say best yrs life better atar make life easier past half yearlies tests im talking lowest rank average subjects cant focus im mentally sick hsc left think study anymore high school handle failure stress well would even hire job im scrawny female parents admitted burden siblings call moody pessimistic get phase whole life pls tell golden story breaking shell feel like vomitting start crying shaking near ppl point im waiting opportunity like tall building train deep water physical pain cutting last moment stop existing forever nothings holding back feel bad wasting familys time money me hate living gift me im waiting death old age come want check gets worse,1 +im suicidal found reddits big suicidal group peopleim years old im kinda fucked head thru shit sometimes dont know reality not kinda thought pathological liar genuinely thought things actually happened me get flashbacks things might never happened like overdosed something whole time ive coma,1 +riddle uh idk im good riddling gig,0 +friend mine really needs help im ideastldr friend mine going real hard times lots trouble parents recent horrible things happened her ive close one year weve rarely seen other trusts im trying best help her already attempted commit redflag work since little better today texted saying happened last weekend ruined this guy thought friend wanted sex blocked plus honestly thinks mother hates her words come point reason live anymore ive tried tried listen keeps saying shell it ideas convice otherwise,1 +theres escapemy life meaningless im stuck someone mistreats doesnt love me im completely alone support two year old husband covert narcissist feel like fucking idiot falling shit im forgotten person havent mattered since born ive always uncared about know sounds pathetic really emo really is left homeless mom died family took in sexual abused family knew kept secret nobody cares really dont truly believe reason existence suffering,1 +day nnn went even slower day studying minecraft fun bois good luck cumrades,0 +life fucking scam cute anime girl already smh want refund,0 +bad cum like brownish color bad,0 +thanks guys think may saved lifeso month ago came fully expecting last day life last thing list get flavors fucked up look old family photos put fat one right skull well came across graduation picture ranger school one old army friends decided give one last call knew something police come house ive spent last weeks involuntarily commited psych ward hey im still here dont really know since im right back started might pack bag start walking dont know im still matters rangers lead way,1 +yall ever want draw something really cool realize artistic skills,0 +still remember first seeing tv believe tvnz let on it lot humor lost nonnzers give go br br since finishing back series matt chris gone bigger better things nzs greatest daredevil stuntman randy campbell often appeared british tv series balls steel yes still fks stunts drunkbr br also house band deja voodoo since released albums brown sabbath back brown band consists members back team singles i would give one beers but ive got you even born s continue humorbr br the southbysouthwest film festival also featured feature length film the devil made it released early nzbr br all up find guys funny fk off,0 +use washing line ropei dont proper rope dont know get one would still work use washing line use doorknob method,1 +wait flirt always people flirt crush flirt random girls like mean,0 +feelings someone telling ones tho haha,0 +fly like paper get high like planes u catch border got visas name,0 +theres little hope left herethis reddit seems dead now nobody left encourage cries help now,1 +listening megalovania,0 +update still herea ago wrote talking plan make wellhere am made it regret wholeheartedly thought things get worse boy wrong i learned things always get shittier one friend decided abandon me today birthday anniversary day girl planned marry abandoned me disliked me shitty personality im depressed deal depression blame her all one thing saving every time verge have sit anniversary birth think fitting would end day know anymore want shoulder cry on want someone hug tell itll ok ive lonely want end,1 +never suicidal lifein years never thought redflag much past months like number thing mind time dont goals anymore dad doesnt understand im going really doesnt even try idea anymore look mirror dont recognize myself struggling nobody seems notice plan ready go stop pussy it cannot continue like this agony i dont care grammar punctuation,1 +story wishing well sam im sam wishing well call aristotle sam how get name wishing well i say thats name said call want that sam throws penny sam i wish wishing well i want grass greener sam hey wish something threw penny wishing well who wishing well you,0 +taking note momentim confusedand trying stay focusedon know rightim torn know wrong torn,1 +take long ban boiboiboiboi anyone unsee juice me,0 +went bedroom uh played minecraft,0 +hard assign fair number stars film settled high production values was innovative approach war film remember seen since make strong impressionbr br the long days dying must one vivid antiwar films ever made achieves simply portraying extremely realistic terms actions handful soldiers northwestern europe film one showed war infantry squad level much brutal detail coldly dispassionate way lets actions speak themselves preaching sentimentality comic relief complicated scenariosbr br unfortunately theres subtlety either partly situation trying stay alive characters come across flat familiar clichs entertainment film make it though clearly intended entertain intended slug head misery horror world war ii modern war general twenty years platoon thirty saving private ryan far watchable films flat generally disagreeable characters lack actual plot realistically unpleasant images including may first onscreen vomit theatrical history make film hard sit through though minutesbr br so stars production realism stars feeling over bonus star heart right place average br br like carl foremans underrated the victors equally downbeat interesting thoughtprovoking film long days dying seems dvd not films cable number times,0 +thanks twitterive made inflammatory twitter account hoping people send death threats feel justified killing myself love internet anonymity,1 +crystal blue persuasion yea yea,0 +year things im grateful move parents house pillow know people might get perfect pillow pillows arent comfy stepdad hes around since hes actually really solid guy sense humour bit selfish think life little bit enjoyable kind find funny side almost anything tune tomorrow ,0 +im breaking pointim angry lonely feel like one understands me im breaking point im lose it someone says one stupid plattitude everyone says people experiencing lot emotional shit im done im longer gonna even try talk feelings open anyone im gonna end something really bad im gonna kill end it thought whole point opening people could find someone whos understanding avoid people insensitive wholl make things worse whatever dude im really close done right now,1 +biden president probably be election mine january,0 +know may isolate friends even family romantic partners too give mine space common people depression stop reaching partners going period depression,1 + options guyz pleaze choose ok choose thank u,0 +future dream id really like happen me maybe dumb hold something could possibly never happen want grow bloom person decided recovering getting better person want do try hope try me toosn always option me though hour ago almost set hanging recovering hardi wish everyone well sorry life brought us point rooting us alwayshugs decided stay now,1 +suicidal thoughts getting closer closer attempti hope means go psychiatric facility painful live need safe space,1 +feeling like nothing changei feel like im going feel miserable now forever good things going me yet im always unhappy great friends yet feel soulcrushingly lonely literally real responsibilities right now yet im constantly stressed ive thoughts redflag since child right things going better theyve ever been yet im still miserable feel like nothing ever change events life keep changing misery ever present therapist took leave absence whole pandemic started supposed return april havent heard anything way contact her im sure come back everything going on course want prioritize safety months im becoming increasingly desperate ive tried many meds past years none ever helped including ones im currently on im tempted stop taking them im tempted give up,1 +broke gf im really scaredso today broke gf almost year best friend one friends had lot unnecessary fights also took care world got bit much i sometimes short periods depression suicidal feelings pretty serious social anxiety many friends weve breaking months finally it cant say im relieved honest know better feel empty feel like anything told want remain friends want keep touch really itll hurt much says shell me want that want someone me time want anyone me makes sense me feel like fault person way handle things like fights insecurities know feel lonely,1 +hey girl painted leonardo da vinci youre priceless is better cuz apparently yall dont like picasso ,0 +feel empty feel like something missing me something need something makes happy something positive even make sence,0 +good show entertaining good marshal arts acting good story plot entire main crew nice job robert urich chuck norris jennifer tung especially big hand judson mills especially fine tribute robert urich latter days great actor truly missed,0 +hate post someone dm me fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +family annoying always watching walking dead want watch anything else get mad me thats even worst part th time through watch litteraly anything else god damn,0 +sleep,0 +redflag helpwould downing bottle tylenol pills drinking quite bit vodka kill me please recommend something thats common houses,1 +ever awkward position listen friend talk something interest scared tell stop man hoping good time stop talking even kept nodding,0 +love korean films ability really quiet eerily really capture real life tend watch korean movies reason alone ive seen directors movies before one comes closest feelings got oasis another awesome film called charming girlbr br however title summary supposed chrstian perspective ill start instead showering praisebr br for non christian perspective director changdong lee captured unbiased almost eerily real portrayal modern protestant church regardless denomination warts all ive always waiting christian film truly portrays darker recesses church life christian films tend speak language different want share faith to many films religious undertones though good motives tend resonance disney film school special need show life is real people curse real people lust real people fall though christians believe salvation available seek it still challenged everyday horrors life doyeon jeons character totally honest almost brutal portrayal woman found god lifes bitter realities loses love had deny god exists refuses accept live idea loving forgiving godbr br in decent edges morality madness character asks questions mind every one religious notbr br if god love allow terrible things happen film answer that rightly so believe last minutes film though open interpretation leaves us hopeful future main character brings idea secret sunshine full circlebr br i believe second film tried religious way tried set that lies reason worked even more real honest that far best summation real christian life seen film,0 +prozac making suicidalim sorts horrible thoughts going head right now,1 +thoughts head empty mind quiet numb use rare opportunity sleep goodnight,0 +nothing fucking mattersdoes anyone else view similar mine im years old college biochemistry student track medical school ive got gpa right now everything feels completely fucking moot lot happy moments even bad moments view humanity existence anomaly tiny speck dust known earth hurdling several thousand miles per hour space were bound die eventually humanity wiped future almost trace existence afterwards even then probability life finding remnants infinitesimally small god afterlife far know cant go living life hoping ill happy still existence im dead cant force believe crap like without good reason,1 +time talking overim holding box cutter wrist trying work power get with cant fucking deal life anymore give get nothing return im fucking tired want rest great im crying im weakling deserve alive anyways,1 +mean perfect breeding ground humans meant like covid bacteria stoff sorry beys,0 +parents house spring break nothing do suicidali friends literally lie bed stare ceiling went pc gaming cafe played games hours nothing else life worst part return university fucking hate even more working degree know get job go school lots stem majors agonizing swear thing take mind things video games went grocery stared charcoal consider charcoal burning redflag method someone please help me,1 +im feeling impulsive want stop talking everyone awhile quit eating much need eat much do wayyy much,0 +simon pegg plays part sidney young young entertainment writer begun beginnings career writing grassroots magazine specializes badmouthing shallowness superficiality rich famous making career lampooning celebrities although desperate wish celebrity himself movie based bizarre career toby young also ran small magazine britain called modern review offered scathing criticism pretty much everything imaginable closed magazine hail verbal bullets coeditor went spectacularly failed career writer vanity fair pretty much part life told movie br br he first thrilled go work major publication called sharps magazine movie despite active nerves notredflagly beaming first day meets chief editor clayton harding played jeff bridges hard nails also exactly kind editor needs goofoff like young keep job magazine offers little form immediate acceptance young also described liberal tolerance youngs offthewall antics inappropriate behavior br br much comedy movie derived youngs misunderstanding indifference generally accepted code public behavior peculiar etiquette involved dealing rich famous sidneys reasons acting weird way giving outwardly offensive interviews believes loathes entire celebrity culture and would seem believes ageold saying if cant beat em join emand beat embr br complicating matters two different women charming regular girl magazine named alison olsen kirsten dunst first appalled sidneys obvious arrogance womanizing ways stunning model named sophie megan fox represents celebrity culture needless say sidneys endless attack superficiality stardom superficial lust sophie one look starbr br sophie stunningly beautiful true also comes across single thought rattling around head alison regular girl interesting attractive dunsts performance makes real person relationship would reality britney spears marriage yet movie retains level believability because despite obvious is also feel sidneys pain pursuing i felt it anywaybr br how lose friends alienate people pretty interesting premise full honest satisfactory performances although turns bit standard romantic comedy third act variety welldeveloped interesting characters danny huston example gives us great performance alisons love interest pays homage big lebowski also starring bridges everpresent white russian one personal favorite drinks buying absolute kahlua china costs equivalent kitchen never without them br br i looking forward day simon pegg branch little bit love films completely unsure range played serious character hot fuzz serious relation lunacy surrounding him ultimately went back again pretty much shaun dead run fat boy run lose friends hes rising star interesting see else do,0 +want run away home cant really like living family really hate starting get there explain situation dad left mom alone brother time fine left exchange when came back year later everything went sht mom never home neither brother home yell stuff even do always clean brother plus cook hes home leave one dirty cup table thinks yell mom always chooses side ive known long time mom favored brother become really obvious lately top that brother horrible girlfriend reference threatened kill suggested move party people could make it anyway cant take anymore today mom threatened send dog away even kill her want run away cant take dog cause dont want leave mother also money soon start college mom pays dorm rent also scared leave dog home leave college reason previously mentioned,0 +good morning ladies gentlemen anyways recap last week ship got stuck canal another ship came crashed ship got stuck might semi truck oh thing happened vehicle lesson week drugs unless prevent crashing cars boats case take whole bottle gonna need them also small orange bell pepper died super mario bros gg mr bell pepper f chat coming next week terrorist attack amber heard,0 +anybody wanna talkfeel free message id like talk anybody else going it im years old seem nobody turn emotional support ig im best opening id love listen anyone willing talk,1 +someone vc w discord im bored hell idc tf dm ,0 +gave free award wrong person comment section disappointment immeasurable day ruined,0 +want die im afraidlong story short im sex addict iv always careful got regular std tests found long time girlfriend gave herpes shes worry wort causes constant outbreaks last years depression never sex mentally destroyed me strong meds outbreaks year hardly ever sex dont want give anyone else iv settled relationship im longer able live life always hoped for wasnt scared id kill self tomorrow never really could expected life go way hide depression really well personality fun happy person ever met hate get std test started dating years ago plan kill times week months since iv sex feel like im going mentally shut able go work more im scared google redflag ideas thats really thats stopping more,1 +noose drawerhi deeply convinced die im bad core belief thats deeply rooted me past months lost tried build leaving toxic home recovering it much hope anymore died house ive done past five years never destined work out lately like im back there act guilt toxic one im beyond getting better deserve it resolved finish job made noose planned act im afraid one check dead body want neighbor find two weeks smell want leave note friend whats left money im afraid hed find early interrupt me,1 +eu referendum result last straw xpost rmmfbim male english not proud it worst year life graduated university managed get decent grade barely tried leaving got call centre job left month due pressure customersemployers causing numerous panic attacks day months later got temp job basic admin middle management fired weeks later panic attack november since self confidence hit rock bottom meaning job interviews could manage or bothered get come across terrible candidate and theyre wrong become partially dependant cannabis im antidepressant shit broke arm uk democratically decided leave eu cant see future myself redflag mind past months im starting seriously consider it im aware many people worse positions stronger depression suicidal thoughts im verge redflag im thinking lot tldr got degree tried different jobs failed both ive got confidence cannabis dependence broken arm useless antidepressants which cause insomnia go them uk decided leave eu based bigotry fear blind patriotism want live anymore,1 +turned guys bye,0 +wrote something down would combined enough kill mei overdosed times beforebut nothing seems ever work careful calculated stealing random pills relativescopied notes svelta mig tvr til rjr vikur fyrst gera etta allt tman maga paracetamolacetaminophel mg hjartamagnlacetylsalic acid mg quetiapin actavis mg dimenhydrinate mg prednisolone actavis mg wellbutrin veit ekki mg concerta veit ekki mg alprazolam mg tylenolibuprofen gr kkan kassar af sru sterkt fengi poki yfir hausinn herbergi ea elliarrdal,1 +found combination lock store donations guess combination ill give helpful award digit code numbers ill try numbers get home go on place bets,0 +dont really wanna live past next birthdaymy birthday coming months ill turning every birthday depressing supposed die years ago nobody even cares im still anyways fact birthday literally ignored throughout whole life ive one decent birthday bittersweet memory lies anyways ive basically given life dont really see future me future envisioned years came crashing destroyed sense reality im also stuck right now parents basically holding hostage feel like loser failure lie people question ride bus dont job still live parents like im lazy stupid dont even know would first thing come mind things cars expensive housing state horrendously high actually problems parents psychotic easier explain ride bus save money gas say im living get enough money apartment fact job once car once apartment too lost things mental illness fucking stupid idiot im stuck parents wont let get job car mental help rather stay suffer homeless again ik im weak rather die point plus ive winging awhile planned dying years ago ever since failed first time future planned bf refer abusive ex severely damaged me lot people severely damaged me wheres punishment wheres damage ive tried think it feel fucking angry it guess caring stupid again also feel like reason killing time stupid last time killed myself ex abused shit felt worthless im scared life people everyday fine cant fucking normal im pathetic,1 +one use email function reddit kinda sad underappreciated,0 +norma spent s playing beautiful ingenues first talkie cast brassy showgirl the trial mary dugan came flying colours sweet lovely ingenues cast aside sizzled parts cast sophisticated women world society girls thrills let us gay made released the divorce unusual twist upper crust dramas shearer made ownbr br norma first appears without makeup frumpish kitty brown whos main purpose life pander unappreciative husband bob rod la rocque hurrying get golf game reality going see mistress helen mistress comes house showdown kitty faces situation civility behind closed doors mass emotions bob leaves goodbr br three years later mrs courtland brown kitty comes stay house guest eccentric mrs bouccicoult bouccymarie dressler kitty knockout bouccy job her wants kitty romance house guest turn romancing granddaughter diane beautiful sally eilers shock horror man none bob ex husband kitty carries meeting sophistication witty repartee there seems something strangely familiar man one wiserbr br the film settles one early talkie boring drawing room comedies kitty casts spell men bob desperate start again women strong roles film men puppets raymond hackett seems film extra butler pass cushion get drink move chair instead dianes harassed fianc norma shearer course whole show marie dressler adds bouccy list eccentric portrayals sally eilers real eyeful gorgeous diane,0 +well bois finally said yes restraining order luckily covid instead feet feet,0 +possible distill heart soul sportno pure lifestyleof surfing perfect form documentary done it documentary shows life waves people pioneers modern day vanguard pushing envelope big wave ever beenbr br stacy peraltaa virtual legend early s skateboarding days socal teenhas edited reams amazing stock interview footage essence created documentary masterpiece genre heart soul subject matterand clearly herehis genius fraught pure vision glamorize hype sentimentalize subject reveres surfers surfingbeach lifestyle whitewash either gritty reality sport wellbr br there much could said documentary surfers early history sport wild big wave surfers profiles greg noll first big wave personality arguably pioneered sport jeff carter amazing guy rode virtually alone years northern californias extremely dangerous mavericks big surf and centerpiece documentary laird hamliton big wave surfings present day messiahbr br there tremendous heart warmth among guysand girls show cameraand deep powerful love surfing ocean comes every word found story hamiltons adopted father met hamilton small year old boy practically forced dad especially heartwarming and again stripped syrupy sentimentalitybr br if like surfingor even dontthis wonderful documentary must watched student form someone simply appreciates incredibly welldone works art,0 +see say freddys nightmares cheesy ripoff obviously know good tv see it episodes packed drama blood freddy creative way kills people love freddys nightmares hope get episodes dvd best episodes are saturday night specialschool daze love stinks think series sucked entitled opinion remember opinion means nothing freddys nightmares always one best series ever come accept fact soon enough like watch deny brilliance,0 +want real school back online school tiring like fall asleep every single day took away pe class online school restarted march cant socialize online school focusing ability fell floor and probably took grades along restart online school cant play chess friends break start online school,0 +finallyim finally gonna meet dead parents wonder happen people around me last words haha laugh myself im loser,1 +give things weeks school need stuff holidays suggest things and im studying,0 +movie parts every around minutes long based true story life joe bonanno telling see events notice heard different it movie make tied chair till end think possible watch row notice watched row next day row acting movie ok scenes awesome general could bather movie acting special effects glamor one show real thing story key movie one look spectacular rambomatrixtitanic movie skip one good thing movie follow main story long boring love scenes different interrupt something important crime business bonanno,0 +survival instinct prevents ending emotional falloutis anyone else frightened pain unsuccessful attempt hurt cause loved ones im meant feel blessed people care unlike people last thing im hanging onto think parents eventually understand death good thing would wanted go also think articulated adequately would able live without regret thinking could done something different ultimately life become less meaningful years everyone forget anyway probably selfish thats level apathy im at,1 +im completely alone foreign country im afraidive lost fiancee drug addiction had moved china kicked habit reality situation kicking in today best friend basically brother started hate something did last person left world ive suicidal different im afraid go home live fifth floor im afraid ill throw window,1 +life cant everyone rightmuch like everything else world things everybody couldnt life itself maybe im cut life,1 +important question pls answer anyones birthday one june exactly,0 +know whats really sad weeks ago camp hanging supposedly straight guys supposed sleep tent playing around acting gaylike which appreciate since im gay im like okay everything fine topic gays came up dude like think gays expected positive answers considering acting night instead got worst possible results ever agreed belong hell moment heart broke why wtf wrong them slightly tried hint arguments statement slightly accidentally myself avail quickly moved another topic atmosphere getting quite heavy day still act gay tbh im kinda attracted one guy occasionally gives hugs tells pick lines then tell one back instant keep head im pretty sure straight thats dilemma dont know actually gay hard read guys acting gay idk every guy high school acts gay least cant read back anyway please send help guy doesnt want leave mind hes got cute funny great hugger cute funny great personality feel like wanna forever person made felt way since previous rejection help im trying keep options god fucking damn it gay hard ,0 +slugsoul shenanigans feel like shit,0 +like snapcheddar reddit memes snapchedit reddar memes hm either way im aware dank world ripe snapcheddits it boys,0 +think quote least correct wrong sticking past days depression started years ago bullied school staff surface sound bad treatment went genuinely left permanent scar me emotional turmoil put young age saw quote twice day kept sticking realized true feel like emotionally matured past point young happened stuck past years still throw tantrums fear alone naivete even methods self harm childish still feel like child literally feel process emotions like child does know even move past trauma think will emotional state including depression everything brought it changed years maybe things feel like getting worse dealing bigger problems able emotionally handle older get biting chew year old problems alot different almost year old problems want get help bad even know start myself let alone financially stuck here you emotionally mature past age traumatized at,1 +thinking hanging late september medication life badcannot fixedhi im antidepressants felt good told doctor want go mg mg eventually meds month became different person depression came back doctor told go back mg did month feel mostly normal recently started feeling suicidal never happened before set deadline hanging dont know meds life bad im already mg,1 +give reddit name someone send pictures sheep dont use u ping see,0 +cant come familyhi made new account post others would find main account really want happen anyway around five years ive kept large sercret family im bisexual much attracted gender so come relatively great family minus mother grandmother im extremely close to said numerous times everyone family anyone gay thatd particularly mind shed still love us great know found actually support gay people all father incredible guy makes jokes mocking gay people often makes little bit harder talk theyre like this managed open friends around year ago extremely supportive odd them high school grew apart ive cut connections them one talk anymore theres much building life including this becoming much want spend rest life like this honest think can ive thinking redflag much lately everything final straw mean got close oding last night im lost know do,1 +husband wants divorce disable schizo useless spouse blame him think much want dieposted schizo subreddit relationship troubleshttpswwwredditcomrschizophreniacommentsevmnwhave_any_tips_for_schizos_in_relationships_with says want continue relationship felt close years over wanting help move kicking anything sat hours talking kept thinking much want die strength start over im broken now edit looks like going spend thanksgiving alone told want go hang family cant spend time around people losing ghosts,1 +sure reason live enough anymoremy partner years went lovers best friends their choice mine longer trust made bad choices past i cheated understand viewpoint entirely still madly love them know go on miracle cheated still together trying work it honor trust paramount me know cheating destroyed things im cheater immediately regretted came senses killing option thought partner want make sad figured maybe regain shred honor living them make smile living punish did im sure keep going anymore barely able keep going before thought things mend wrong partner deserves world longer give that want best friend cant make happy give trust like loving relationship can like used have know do think soldier anymore could never bear sight someone else even though know would happier cant anymore im scumbag honorless piece shit cheating deserve die anyways,1 +well almost everything done tomorrow rest world go test leaners permit drive except one final drive wise captain said may fortune favor foolish,0 +someone take blue cheese smells bad want it,0 +looking norwegian speaking friends play games talk either already speak intend want learn much norwegian can already know bit dm want,0 +helpi adhd know good self diagnose know itmy family doesnt take seriously though ive looked almost symptoms anyways also anxiety diagnosed im relaly anxious next school year anyways mom tried get diagnosed adhd kept nagging got forms give teachers forgot give one form take doctor guess one concluded didnt adhd confessed forgot give forms said wont go back doctor get diagnosed get really bad headaches whenever im faced much work focus one right told parents wanted try grapeseed extract read good focus yelled me really dont want help way marks low last school year want fucking kill myself people adhd dont belong earth cant function it feel like burden everybody know cant schoolwork go living ill probably fucking bum dont know do killing makes sense honestly im pretty worthless really cant anything without getting fucking migraine help,1 +merry christmas thats merry christmas,0 +weird yr old beard ill shave ,0 +im bisexual friends say theyre default settings referring it dont think homophobic think is prove is,0 +well boss officially hates mei work last week last week doctors office building absolutely one here meanwhile everyone else vacation weeks except me stay dreadful office hours think thats fair im struggling significantly mental health pm came office late times got cause barely get sleep nightmares hallucinations today came late im anything answering phones sitting hours boss angry talk im late hired here definitely convinced full hates me suspected know everyone literally hates meall family thats zero friends im school cant even focus anymore depression thoughts getting bad im really ready now,1 +dont get itwhat point living know rest years plagued misery loneliness okay many us keeps going im running things keep going im getting tired people thinking depression something want want this want feel normal whatever normal is,1 +hello name ang years old struggling battle redflag depression quite long time now right going rough period able get bed sleeping crying feel meaning life pointless point human life dumb miss able feel something feel lost idk release pain trying something dumb point feel point here sort comment appreciated thanks lost life,1 +things got better middle school thankfully sad literally years young child when life supposed good rough still affect life day home life wasnt super bad school living hell excluded everything still day tend view world harsh unaccepting sorry rant sad cruel teachers students elementary school bullying elementary school directly caused many mental health issues,1 +solumnotes care one depart pain unshared sentient beings shatter light glass marines reign supreme insignificant seem soul share another human being empty shell full life mediocre hellish strife parasitic nothing more times eradication yesterday tomorrows war,1 +serious kinda political question im gonna put anonymous form put username interested sub thinks httpsformsgledimrtqkefyzxm,0 +called jewish slur hate public schools full racist homophobic antisemitic as well religions guy m constantly says horrible things bus causes problems every single day today got angry making fun jewish songs told shut responded calling kike thats like saying nword person,0 +im tiredfor last weeks ive tired like walking miles miles miles barely keep eyes open matter much sleep im still exhausted life bad friends wonderful family shit theyre problem want keep going im tired feeling second best im tired exhausted numb im tired,1 +feel like im gonna die man allergies suck nose plugged both nostrils barley breath throat hurts hurts breath mouth im basically gasping air every couple seconds cause cant breath want fucking die hate much i cant breath i feel like im going to die in my sleep,0 +know live sober throw away account going written like slop would like apologize first that abusing drugs alcohol since feel like cannot deal life sober state started using heroin two years ago bi polar young lady needed put manic mind rest amazing although using lot less due resent overdose substituted alcohol pills again matter always self harming myself whether drugs cutting starving always need harm body cannot cope taking advice reading here past months keep telling kill today ill wait till tomorrow weekend see feel im end cant keep going tried get help many times clinics hospitals never seem help resent doctor drop health insurance dropped me stop taking meds last summer due well poor student medical bills overdoses attempts even process mother kicked recently bare watch anymore cant even talk really fathers passing anyway even want die feel to cant live like anymore thank reading,1 +feel like im stuck ruthi all im years old live united kingdom near dover past hours ive feeling low unhappy life right im final gcse exams im going get good grades ill probably getting ds es worse try hardest enough im overweight loser whos best enough never seem lose weight ive tried several times past unfortunately always seems fail skinny perhaps id confidence feel like ill probably commit redflag im im stuck home pretty much everyday school finished friends teamspeak voip talk to couple friends school social life girlfriend heh me girfriend happening id like nice job wife daughter move canada think ive damaged much young child especially weight normal happy healthy weight teenager instead fat one goals life feel like ill never able achieve them feel like crying know do,1 +neighbor commuted redflag days ago need helpbasically fucking pussy decided comment hurtful things ig post resulted taking life whole town working together figure dude bring justice get permission family spread story would like yall help find pussy ass motherfucker help bring justice family ill let know information,1 +know anymorei feel lost right now cant help feel like im terrible person like one part complete sociopath sometimes empathy could destroy someones life without feeling thing scares me ive done terrible things past messed every relationship ive had think world would better without me want keep hurting people care about,1 +im doneim done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im done im just fucking done,1 +minecraft dog doesnt know isnt coming back fuck,0 +comment favorite song ill try guess mbti it now,0 +feel like ive already completely ruined life beyond redemption im basically title graduated college years ago still able get job field went school for top that ive thrown away every opportunity every network had theres way get good job now crushing see peers lead successful lives me im going get blackout drunk tonight hang myself thats way feel relief now,1 +brother killed last year want thing nowhe lifelong depression i im early s female insane amount loss pain particularly last years recent loss friend thought would one person would always me wasnt gone without even goodbye ive tried couple times reach out apologise utterly cut off knew everything me cant see meeting anyone else depressed withdrawn would able trust anyone else anyway debilitating chronic disease incurable going get better ive already enough hopsital appointments tests pain etc last five lifetimes want more also desperately desperately desperately lonely despite absolutely lovely female friend scared ultimately driving away one day too everyone else put simply nothing left live for im mental pain nearly time ive tried different antidepressants years none worked longer weeks months absolute most left worse state began them interest trying antidepressants therapy unaffordable dilemma this desperately want end pain cannot go like much longer cant want put parents second redflag would swap places dead brother nanoseconds he may thank that give shit stuck special kind hell want wait parents pass elderly could still another years way hold long,1 +got another creepy pm whys always crusty ass year old man child saying dumb shit asking nudes cant sum big titty ass milf shit nicely asks nudes wouldnt mind tbh,0 +tw redflag failed exam u feel like killing myself,0 +movie far better original jerk would highly recommend anyone like quirky humor incorporated almost many lines movie daytime discourse monty pythonbr br the card game hobos mr suicide scene dinner table distaste turtle soup original jerk choreographed ans staged like steve martin seemed like trying hard jerk spoof enjoyed anyone jerk family friendly unlike original jerk,0 +man womans body born filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text ,0 +life alright summer break hell deal going back school genuinely know deal this endless agony redflag redflag boredom somehow get start school make winter seasonal depression top depression good combo genuinely feel hopeless really want go back school fell helpless please deal id rather die go back school,1 +reddit isnt helpingi created reddit feel understood people always suffer major depression mental illness suicidal thoughts come alll see sadness people ready give up ruins even normal moments already fleeting heart goes everyone dont know healthy come always see stuff maybe unhealthy us idk leave reddit ill feel completely alone again dont fucking know whats gonna help me anything really want happy,1 +according society im yearold boy pretty sure im turning week female im girl scout multiple occasions people come walmart selling cookies thought troop mates younger brother,0 +rant highs high lows very low creeping back in unable comprehend random chaotic mind right now way easy one bad guy hate abuser molesterwhat burns hes gotten away it hes happy new born sure forgiven him know never stop hating me existence reminder guilt betrayal inflicted me every time thinks me cannot accept fact wrong people defend her manipulated abused know well well enough know even touches self thinks him memories had good felt rush excitement deep regret it cannot stand fact story one loved her bad guy creeping back again answer leaving crazy world,1 +previous reviewer claudio carvalho gave much better recap films plot details could recall mostly beautiful every sense emotionally visually editorially gorgeousbr br if like movies wonderful look at also emotional content beauty relevant think glad seen extraordinary unusual work artbr br on scale id give reason shy away mood piece mood really artistic romantic film definitely think mustsee none us mood time so overall ,0 +stay alive mean cope stress little one talk emotions general pain existence,0 +um tall guys curious feel like im short,0 +close subs would make shitty week feel little better could subscribe get sorry advertise httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucwajopzlhbwznjbkhrqappdesktop,0 +whats movie always makes cry want sad today guess,0 +want people join discord server hallo discord server pretty empty normally talk gaming things there interested send dm give link,0 +life been worst past years rped abortion catholic family shot directly gun frienda man tried abduct meput truck sister went coma months clinically dead minutes physically abused everyway boyfriend figured seizure condition kill within years or lesswow whole paragraph think past years go things ill sad remember something random like abortion raped fact something unbelievable traumatic forgettable compared everything else wowwhat wrong me am luck like this like things done one person everything separate group people different parts country kidnapping thing happened days ago finally got courage work outgo run outside scared people second day years man tried kidnap mesomething life right something off feel like human guinea pig tested see far human pushedi want go crazy want control anymore tired want someone take body need anymore give up give this want anymore suicidaldepressed ever since remember certain point care hurting family need put empathy aside care myself game quit whoever win do please someone tell want alive want hurt family,1 +want end suffering pleasei want end really cant take anymore didnt ask brought world suffering waking hours,1 +muchive rough couple months recently lost mom live abusive father emotionally tears apart whenever talk telling death fault failure etc result speaking terms all child without relatives really family talk to sort exist school close friends all alone ive really bad person lately demons hate myself want kind person nobody returns favor give up forgetting love feels like ever expanding void heart used be im tired feeling like nobody cares mostly know true going tie loose ends tomorrow leave,1 +im tired tryingfuck this im sick always fucking bad guy genuinely feel like make every effort everything right im easy target people take shit me cant ever person people want fuck it god damn even fucking try long anyway always knew gonna happen im sick people world worth apart,1 +rick roll httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvnmlkiashttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvnmlkias,0 +iti planned kill thursday obviously go it mom excited christmas deals mental issues christmas always seems make things better her even little while leave christmas,1 +want die three yearsright now things easy like way things going friends care care me people relate to ive got good family life fun siblings loving mother im currently college getting high marks higher grades ever entire life pursuing subject really enjoy hobbies love interests love life feel like drag slightest im happy like really good right now really hope three four years courage hang myself world getting worse like holy shit world getting much worse working class little mind boggling despise country hate much fucking despise everything america every single capitalist lie gets shoved peoples throats convincing working hours week possibly survive normal justifiable living nightmare exist in currently field im pursuing good jobs cities cities exorbitantly high cost living dollars month small unfurnished hole wall apartment building naturally field work regularly hour days hour work weeks thats generally norm first thought unique shitty feature preferred industry really isnt everyone deal bullshit working conditions order meet bare minimum living matter field workdays meaningless keep getting longer longer wages getting worse worse affecting everyone younger are worse going it college debt something deal rest life what want ground dust rest adult life lay hours day one day per week off human beings live like this inhumane disgusting inescapable climate apocalypse going bring hell earth even wealthier countries really life honestly life about adds to brief flash freedom were teens were driven dirt feel like shit lives try tell people ways feel like shit even though everyone feels like shit trying convince theres mythic utopian life living wages afford everything need live plus savings disposable income fun work hours week which way completely unnecessary given dramatic rise productivity standards reality everything sucks real world honestly want deal that want live next three years life best can ever since convinced ill dead three years felt amazing ill try anything want ill take chances whenever please feels great feel fucking liberated amazing deal consequences anything want to live best whatever want knowing easy fun runs dry life becomes nightmare feels fucked up theres something cathartic always get jail free card allows whatever wish want lifestyle ive adopted go away want live free forever cant freedom gone im going kill myself ill happy it let world get me ill live die terms honestly cant see better way it wrong me love life really wanna kill three years,1 +hate brain so weeks ago got asked out said yes fun stuff weird tech rule house cant text often last talked two weeks ago im writing now a fact appears accounts mine blocked my hope dad find out b weird amount stress seeing have a dads drunkard oldest sister still lives age severely limiting fact shes one work house b since sawspoke last brain flooded negative hypotheticals ifs because trauma previous relationships honest hell earth especially check back account see text them see account changed dramatically digress whole lotta abandonment issues clinginess first world problems still move forth yes struggle talking long also yes thank reading did,0 +comedy humor skool bad parent bad minecraft good laugh,0 +huge cast gathered remake sadly box office failure notwithstanding great sound track cant say riveting entertainment cure insomnia nevertheless enjoyed film provided escape one afternoon good look us looking ideal life albeit fantasy expect corny moments thrills occasional laugh,0 +freaking fuck cant log back school laptop i cant remember password online school lots assignments hand laptop ive never scared,0 +get weidly ticked things even concern me know im transphobehomophobe anything think everytime see post saying fuck transphobeshomophobes feel weird almost like im mad not know guilt something else anyways day,0 +looking new friends discord know place you server growing server thats lgbtq friendly almost times active always find someone talk to wanna make application join is httpsdocsgooglecomformsdpsyqdgzr_arprccuif_lftbnwqrqxseenideditresponseshttpsdocsgooglecomformsdpsyqdgzr_arprccuif_lftbnwqrqxseenideditresponses,0 +want le burger king impossible burger uwu enough grow boobies d,0 +boys working outside recording studio hear the voice angel would miss van doren auditioning going name miss andrews father approve radio singer however hopes certain bigwig mrs bixby friend dads hire her give approvalbr br she leaves within minutes boys running amok studio causing havoc musicians kill ruin recording session finally things calm down whew eluded them says moe yeah got away too answers curlybr br the boys fool around studio put miss van dorens record curly gets dressed womens clothes pretends hes singing mrs bixby walks in impressed hires seniorita cucacha spot extra asked come sing highsociety party night rest sayis history curly pretends opera singer funny results oh way accompanied senior mucho senior gustobr br what happens party simply truth wins out slapstick antics take place all pretty good episode enjoyed rate anything special,0 +hey basicly feel like fucked everything everyone went university cov work weekends take care little brother cuz mom work could go kindergarden suffer sad depressions completle lost study way practice companies etc bought car lots malfunctions poped up mom wants house cuz adult y according go live gf find self flat gf lives parents grandpa flats suuuuper expensive live even video games super unlucky luck gf super amazing problem we feel like luck cuz almost died newborns somehow still here sometimes wish died live shit af worldpower sex money hungry world hate life soooo much feel good get fucked world everything unlucky ,1 +feeling like worst version personlike title says feeling like absolute worm feel like ruin hurt everyone come contact with remembering words parents second grade youre mean person ones ever gonna wanna friend feeling ruin hurt everyone sad hours also quite bit drunk shfjekskfjd,1 +always mfs wanna downvote post second post wanna stay silent hate mfs,0 +living worm confessionive come terms suicidal thoughts never going end sometimes whisper others deafening scream begging end suffering like worm eating sanity little little stop me stop enjoying every joy life laughing harder smiling broader whenever outrun it flee worm acknowledge accept it help others ease pain others safe affliction love,1 +im going hang myselfim tired cant stand alive anymore give up hopeless,1 +know myselfi start first year high school next monday think ill make it within single day ive almost killed multiple times people could care less existed honestly agree more,1 +sometimes seems nobody caresis me seem like people used give shit understand everyones got lives live whatnot get people regard suicidal thoughts depression indifference temperature room way almost worse people care hear bullshit like just cheerful youre happy decide be like people choose depressed think switch flip off theyre ignorant hard actually trying hey lay bed day hating myself give credit know hospitalized decade ago i got accident make attempt life nurses told prayer list forty people more made feel good people happy still existed know people care me feels indescribably lonely sometimes like way people take seriously something yourself never far tell never will sucks thoughts swimming head one giving shit,1 +wish could get redflag pills end life instantlyi hate government much blocking pill people keep us alive minimum wages work live steal organ die replace thier body,1 +know theres lot going right things depressing might make happy know hamster follow instagram get surgery remove abscess complete success name vincent likes cucumbers hes super cute sounds like surgery went fine hes road recovery,0 +girl hit today hit balls specific hurt,0 +friend said i dont even want im girl believes break himhi reddit really really need help friend lets call guy fallen girlfriend severe trust issues them fully believes going lose thursday next meet up told eaten slept last hours said i dont even want im girl idea help ive told needs get help said hed get thrown looney bin mind too fucked right now idea say help him know help situation im good friends guy girl reddit please help me wrong area please tell get help friend thank reading tldr check title,1 +ended toxic relationship morning thought would tell you toxic relationship everything leave it need help talk family member friend help it,0 +wrote note babyi wrote goodbye note last night two plans figured out dying scares me dying part whatever hell comes after wanna die see nothing feel nothingnothing christian believe heaven hell obviously wanna go heaven id rather die go nowhere baby cant leave note follow,1 +birthday birthday today great time wanted tell sb cake,0 +right there good entertaining accurate erafeel scenes enough personality variations cover real people around days without story distractions exceptions credits show peralta mar vista california hill venice south malibu lived heartbreak hotel days prebeachboys next surfer kid bob cooper wasatch avenue alley used burn surfboards work old skatekey skatewheels used plywood cutouts roll sidewalk waves things different succeeding decade cool innocence fifties broke warmth sun whitewater freedom exhilaration electric sixties assertively innovative playtime inventive evolutionary madness weird seventies movie gives piece kind magic moment time place imaginary wave real source culturally significant influences btw theres another movie similarly american street edginess it genuinely unique goodness laid back realness helps refine elusively eternal sense cool two lane blacktop with one best examples freesouldoit attitude west coast california history dennis wilson like monte hellman one thanks sp right one gwr,0 +u sort new ur redditor thats ayo hows feel loser virgin cus im nauseous rn,0 +sign give up idk is nobody wants anything called doctor surgery every day week am line opens every time greeted someone really rude tells appointments booked today even though need telephone call,1 +spin gt v lt ,0 +horribly suicidal smoked joint im casually enjoying playthrough animal crossingweird mood change quickly,1 +know turn toive got much shit going wrong feel like share anybody know cares keeps getting worse want stop today made noose sturdy chord fact made fucking me feel like im letting everyone idea it seems inevitable,1 +got viewing program first time recently hour kidnapping program know sooner james caan outstanding whollybelievable role chief honcho featured vegas complexbr br so often programs like one ensemble either outright annoying seem picked must related producer directorbr br that certainly case program along caan primary supporting cast engaging attractive believable guest actors wellchosen br br the stories ive seen interesting show presents good view city wellbr br this entertaining program one hope remain know managed miss long plan tivo on,0 +im feeling year chronic depressedalready year feel nothing hatred sadness within fueling thoughts negativity ive hope ill ever trust people feel safe loved healed feel happy never person cry year feel like im constantly holding back could cry every day wanted command feel fucked head desire destroy vanish like greatness gone ive felt fucked often became chronic undeniable feel need someone fix make shit decisions professional would expensive right cant put real person shit im always keep evolving often leads going days denying insanity dont know do feel constantly outcast thoughts impossible fit in im either foggy fucked negative spiral inside head ive short outburst happiness hour drains energy,1 +letter myselfdear self hate you hate much thought many ways ive wanted die stupid things thinking actually going change youre parents think disappointment embarrassment said many times ive practically become numb words many people tried reach out tell fine obviously werent didnt accept it didnt want burden them want good image yourself want others believe everything control stupid sounds couldnt done work done everything correctly shouldve done everything start look brothers everything control great life ahead them always get compared theyre far smarter better looking overall superior you shouldnt born family mistake reason mom dad fight always you enjoy messing peoples lives still here everyone favor leave hate you hate much die,1 +im stupid even plan redflagand ive already failed multiple times past,1 +im losing hopehello joined subreddit need talk it cant talk friend dont want stressed whatever id rather talk and wont talk parents im crybaby recently death seems appealing everything problems im ptsd everyday mind torturing things like youre faking it youre worthless nobody would care died im going university tomorrow cant stop thinking everything ever experienced past happen university blamed friends point parents might think im unstable see state world honestly think unfair shitty world left behind even though sometime find beautiful things laying there ptsd avoid many things point ridiculous cant stop thinking none us free point think time rest die huge abandonment issues point someone doesnt act way millisecond stress think leave dont know im expecting putting here writing things way coping everything,1 +living sucksim gonna it bye everyone one care ,1 +send simple sketches ill try illustrate adobe illustrator discord gt ayan_,0 +cant afford therapy anymore insurance sucks extreme guilt anxiety im just donei cant it cant quit therapy barely even afford medication now im afraid even make another redflag attempt fail im hospitalized wont able afford bill either want slap younger face im wrecked guilt did ill probably next person get called cancelled god want die wasted entire summer dont anything dont friends anything with im outsider looking dont relate anyone cant even go social media im intensely jealous people have job sit nothing day ive new projects months think boss forgot even work here im body desk want die want dead nothing gets better summer fucking wasted it hate myself,1 +here earth surprising beautiful romantic tale samantha boy problems health problems love current boyfriend jasper fades away love kelley blooms like new spring flower br br i found movie touching warm romantic touching enjoyed every bit movieand thats pretty rare highly recommend movie movie lovers one film want miss dbr br by wayif sentimental person easily cries watching movies bring tissues hand really really good movie romanticand surprisingly good dbr br ,0 +this dont thinkdont think much this it find quite place youll get disturbed sit lay close eyes imagine small river flows river leaves put every mean every thought leave let flow river dont make river go faster slower observe thought flows river get distracted thought okay come back river again put thought leave let flow least mins,1 +tell ur crush u like them long friends ask someone out love want know people think,0 +know anymoreapologies advance know im longwinded boringly pessimistic incubating depression coming head im nearing two months unemployed goodpaying seasonal job lined up start weeks meantime ive searching something solid temporary gig ends since goal move current lease ends next year want leave town found much success county ive lived past years job prospects low im also struggling find right direction anyway quit job two years early summer little background think might relevant later id really well company year half id gotten great performance reviews made decent sales managers found resourcefulness communication skills exceptional however parttime encouraged take fulltime lateral position nearby sister location debated ultimately applied received transfer stood offer experience good hourly raise plus bonuses sales manager ill call melissa running office crucially busy time working alone lot sacrificing days meet deadlines suit melissas scheduling needs tried stay positive burned fairly quickly melissa salaried came work late and im talking least hour often not would keep paperwork so constantly fighting keep us current one occasion found integrityhonesty questionable also really problem taking ownership workspacei desk front worked hours week melissa office large desk upon kept fresh decorations personal photos etc however would come back day find personal affects place see written desk calendar which id personally purchased know writing appointments helps memorize them melissa would insist desk computer belong me needed utilize desk gone could front store really fight that really got skin removed everything bare essentials generic emailshers managerial one mine sales per company norms wed put names signature lines respective email accounts shed use computer shed log sales user instead manager one led sending emails sales outlook account shed send emails account used would sometimes even change signature line shed go far refer third person one final straws melissa boss our regional manager decided would get bonus technically belonged me pretty big sale required regional manager authorization bonus structure rightfully mine months worked location melissa id reached teams locations needed support trying best honest state office without blatantly calling melissa shortcomings bringing personal feelings it even addressed concerns regional manager sending factual professionallyworded email started looking fallback jobs realized melissa would running show regional manager going help deeply regretting making transfer came shamefully abrupt end one saturday morning long found shed taken bonus office open daysweek funny days off came back monday really saturday find background wallpaper computer changed obnoxiously pixelated blown image pink rose i prefer stock wallpapers dark colors find desktop icons even set keys patience took hit albeit trivial annoyance great start week whatever melissa showed surprisingly early prepared make morning rounds opening shop chipper mood obviously pleased punctuality day quickly sensed irritability keep mind im monday mode anywaynot thats excuse bitch anyway latched onto mood called putting damper morning sure could probably used attitude adjustment chose right perform impromptu assessment problem is caught guard prepared launch wellformed argument problem reached quick answer mentioned desktop wallpaper melissa said another manager spent time office help must changed it followed chastising too obsessed desk needed accept people needed use it moment done clearly respect effort put work care took organization feel valued respected allowed take ownership part job wanted rip top bun stupid blonde head call selfish bitch was instead calmly dropped office keys desk told quit going argue minutia foundational issues id dealing weighing heavy collected supplies id purchased left office last time morning left voicemail hr department headquarter office theyd know quit luckily one applications temporary reception job came through quickly resumed working week later days chose hire permanently wanted stay temp longer let me feel good long commute enough pay ive unemployed since late september ive applied places im avoiding industry id last two yearsits really cliquey good feeling toward anymore either mostly retail experience belt scrapbook collegeuniversity credits degree typically aim clerical work government positions least feel like im contributing society somehow kinda fell salesoffice job stayed pay awesome often hear keep finding situation problem likely you so im owning that maybe im straightforward worker think am maybe work ethic really be maybe get along people im spectrum something working relationship pattern melissa seem new tend regularly find fault type management guess feel like put bullshit know see way fix it make work me know belong calling ive lot jobs last years live longtime partner ill call p im ashamed say p support financially month next temporary job begins feel really guilty essentially ragequitting i really rage though swear good paying job turning next job offer havewant children pets p offers moral support well really emotionally supportive seem understand im experiencing right now thats okayi get job everything times feel really alone spite someone come home to come large family mother died four years ago week slow descent opiod addiction unexpectedly turned extreme alcoholism estranged years prior understand accept choices making family negatively affected death personally im peace knowing longer selfdestructing wish still mom sure woman became longer momid lost mom years died siblings understand feel way villanized bullied it talk them dad side count him either lives nearby relationship all ties cut whether inperson social media contact siblings abusive lead toxic lifestyles lot incestual abuse moms large family auntsunclescousins life either p thinks siblings take advantage funny probably take advantage him says thats hard time making friends thinks keep guard high ive made acquaintances work years gone dinner movies coworkers years since ive really connected someone could identify friend someone flakes me tend waste time anymore early twenties id get backstabbed lot too coworkers thought friends course leads question myself kind person prone backstabbing people think so hesitate confront someone example someone im friendly workplace drops ball somehow problem reminding expectation would describe stern straightforward unkind im left assume people generally like it otherwise think im good listener trustworthy honest make effort put positive spin things workplace tear others gossip tolerate vicinity guess im unlikable maybe im annoying uninteresting dumb hard tell kind person im perceived as many people outside p socialize with ampxb past weeks ive cleaning belongings mom died deal storage unit junk want leave kind mess p went journals present ive always same listless position running narrative know work bosses little work much pay feel alone know myself clearly im problem early thirties already im stumped find work entry level guess really deserve anything that stuck anything long enough earn it today cleared old video diaries laptop yes video diariesi get lonely lose patience handwritten journaling quickly so ive tried recording try talk even myself skipping them im disgusted emptyheadedness speak well seem know anything substance look like ive done anything value frustrating thing surface seem problem ablebodied enough jog miles time eat fairly well read bit resumee strung together time hands ive job search submitted applications every waking minute im employed right picky health home car manageable debt burdens hold back cant make something happen feel dead inside why since kid ive ever wanted dead see future real goals passion sense community theres book dbt skills got outpatient program ten years ago desk distract self care hey weeks ill job keep mind plenty occupied im really tired conversation days health insurance im sorry obama aca never good even staunch liberal therapys question right now put position involuntarily committed ill need pass last background check simply posting feels like red flag is could call hotline im cups volunteer im crisis modewhat even say shit work like that id tell like profound sense fallen cracks know im shallow idiot psych drugs fix loneliness change ideology maybe everyone supposed born maybe person life better without dark presence his maybe week maybe next week maybe next year even land another sufficient job ill ever dangling thread,1 +pitand heavenit scary thingthat depression becomes massive affects many people gathered lot info get god finally making shit first time life sometimes feel bad even suicidal but oh boy got better used like percent know felt darkbut finally gonna change better,1 +post herewhy yell void hope someone responds wonder many us go posting here ill start last time posted different account forgot months ago post im lonely ill make effort get contact friends theyll brush go back whatever theyre doing realize much think think me pull away obviously killed yet im dealing right is lots confusion uncertainty know whether im becoming paranoid beginning see truth know am really know want life wheres motivation without goals since were least staying hands long enough post here not talk,1 +finally told grandmother reason want dieshe long antagonizing family mom favorite child cant accept son forgotten her son always says take country us family lives never did never even told grandmother cousin got married already take care her feed her give stuff wants were still evil eyes likes twist words actions look like protagonist terrible drama likes make us look like were ganging really right need know fight among ourselves everything were still good enough everyday makes us feel worthless always feel like enough family im good person try best be keep quiet even want scream stay still even want kill all hold everything burden grandmother likes play favorites favorite among siblings me siblings like unnecessarily extra nice like giving food siblings watch making drink siblings watch expects side want take sides all want die resilient motherfucker would rather die myself greatest reason hate waking all today fought screamed her told reason want die kept quiet screamed loud neighbors heard screamed loud minutes later throat still hurts crying think hate seeing cry annoying shut trap suffer quietly cant she shaking mad sitting still want either us die get with whether goes first go first matter want end suffering already suggests move therapist keeps telling me easy need month advance month deposit paying bills were already paying current house is also easy third world country,1 +taste shiddy humor httpsyoutuberbyu_todkhttpsyoutuberbyu_todk,0 +award contest ended congrats uepicwaterdrinker winning,0 +best chinese movie ever seen and opinion lot better hero chrouching tiger hidden dragon movie unique combination several genres beautiful love story action movie comedy horror time amazing thing really succeeds thisbr br this movie definitely makes top enjoyable every movie lover action sequences traditional unrealistic jumping even flying way shot differs style hero lot flying always looks great usually even makes sense ghosts flybr br see movie regret it ,0 +want murderedi dont know else word it want someone kill me anyone else similar experience dont know suicidal self harm problem wanted killed years used want kill lot could never family murdered wouldnt know much wanted it im even depressed anymore im happy want die days often im mostly ok things looking up still cant shake desire killed think lot ive described ideal death doped drugs thrown fight ring get ass beat conversation friends idea killed alluring dont know cant shake it escape extent guilt feel towards redflag im one pulling trigger dont feel bad dying whole process sounds amazing intense fear rush pain getting shot gut realizing oh shit im going die falling ground slow drawn painful death slowly fade consciousness dread dying intensity feeling tempting die want really feel once know really unhealthy fantasy murdered would probably actually suck still want real bad ive tried times could never finish job felt sooo good tried to feeling rope tighten around neck oxygen slowly cut brain warmth slowly encroaching numbness amazing feeling body shut piece piece ecstasy moment something ill never forget pain melted away wonderful state absolute peace last minute guilt set took away bliss quickly undid rope sat guilt awhile havent tried since part still wants to want again want feel fade intensity pain before never gonna happen dont know id find someone willing kill me want real bad days maybe happened id run away even instincts kick in hope wouldnt least wouldnt get away im safe now refuse kill myself dont want kind control die want life entirely someone something elses hand want one made die want feel good it feel bad fantasy really fucked up wish didnt cant shake it bad was think maybe times week still idk needed vent anybody insight maybe similar experience,1 +th december dayso ive decided th december day years pain finally come end im tired now im always tired mind constantly ravaged thoughts ive managed destroy life greatly feel terribly parents destroy them cant go like longer complete failure im good anything constantly hurt people around letting down let one final time end it early morning th december clear dorm room ill wear favourite sweater woolen one shades red ill roll joint fine marijuana smoke listen nujabes ill rake beauty winter morning north india shall bid adieu peace,1 +gonna leaving link httpsyoutubetrzpbjewhyw,0 +grownup mids even close nancy drews key demographics pleasantly surprised film afternoon so could tell pair sixtyish silverhaired ladies row me older man left theater ahead specifically praised film ish female usher who said shed seen film previous evening quite liked itbr br more point however row ahead me nine count them nine tenyearold girls lined next other passing popcorn hot dogs candy back forth giggling previewsbr br once film began promptly settled watchbr br and much peep till closing credits began rollbr br this perfect film quite pay high school subplots quite confident enough tone thugs hair far toward critically inept times adaptation source material essentially respectful plot hangs together fairly well treads deftly sins excessive cheesiness excessive modernization last least emma roberts carries movie startling grace josh flitters superb timing notwithstanding roberts movie pulls beautifully nancy drew much direct ancestor kristen bells veronica mars film also lineal descendant jodie fosters early underrated candleshoebr br in todays marketplace rarity family movie respects viewers intelligence such everyones taste is best movie kind decades,0 +fuck russianeastern european accent literally know nobody there accents dont carry genetics still wouldnt make sense fucking clue dont live near eitheri live ohio,0 +made first website let know think httpsjustdidthistiinysite copy paste google vary proud,0 +first all id like say im amateur commenting movies english native language felt strong feeling compelling write movie possibly way thank congratulate c jay cox cast crew brilliant productionbr br yesterday watched latter days first timebr br at first thought might similar movie priest liked much showing gay priest closet priest maybe due restrict catholic ideological notions supply spectators needs revealing profound sad endbr br latter days hand broke concept and ones well mormons principles presenting tender cheerful story leading happy emotive end yet arousing feeling gods blessing hope great movie indeedbr br somehow latter days made feel la city angels br br i would recommend movie anyone likes astoundingly beautiful gay love stories,0 +what feel like life worth livingfuck everything got rejected another medical school spend years studying getting good gpa for spending thousands dollars applications countless hours dedicated extra curriculars amounted failure whats fucking point turn top soil use world unemployable skill set mom horribly financially forced move social housing cant handle change failure letting around too point fucking point,1 +respected would done years agoso running time money cant work hardly leave house cant talk people social anxiety bad depression makes want try fuck cant even watch movie tv show past years everyone abandoned me spoken anyone years mean literally every months accidentally bump someone say sorry invested life savings fear going broke homeless felt choice gamble basically lost all tried working online luck enough money last years waking going sleep worse time zero hope anything better endless suffering look forward too resources running seriously debating homeless dead zero peace happiness man years social assistance help me even offer us month rent give anything money gone exactly sure person barely leave house survive homeless plan take last bit money head south weather warmer tried best everything done position fear never ended well spent years forcing situations want like engage society ended humiliation loser ending sooner knew headed way expect happen soon,1 +weird watch lesbian porn like waist like hot make stuff vaginas kinda gross out,0 +sweet intro intelegent sailor soldier sailor mercury consisted new in croud merciurios he beganing wrote love letter ami would starltling of course and now ami thiks chibieinstien attractive he ended looking like umino melvin halarios expesialy minakos its skin neck scene hot well really like bishojo senshi sailor moon series personally think best anime ever but movie nice funny adventurios sailor moon r like s movie saw sailor moon univewrse real player pretty good over all,0 +good friend m several breakdowns distancing fh myself hes close know dofh fear one good friends close going it hes confided us long time ago hes suffered depression suicidal thoughts long time weve several scares dealt withwitnessed handful breakdowns fell radar little year ago solid day half emotional break went far breaking house check him find car there turns self harmed called ambulance himself recent break weeks ago since last break basically stopped talked fh they work together thats kind big deal think went office twice worked home times since hes also taken completely quite bit top that talk fh hes real jerk based fh told conversations ive suffered depression myself considered redflag used self harm familiar lot this recent actions dick fh basically spelled me hes ready hes pushing away order push us life therefore make easier fh giving want help know how turnaround yesterday came place couple hours now shop garage fh work coming unannounced going straight shop uncommon came home though inside watching tv fh hung another hour say much know positive want know else do lunch mentor figure yesterday discuss everything several us know hes going basically on watch asked far hes thought skip beat saying knows would it help lives alone try get come come us much possible pushing us away put hard stop that please need help know else do night last breakdown sat talked privately confides trusts fh ive told past dealings this fh is admittedly ideal person help someone state mind everyone involved aware that thats bad thing hes kind person talked able help calm really tell whys hows hes looking committed relationship long time nothing ever works know one reasons admit it thats something help either help someone dealing much hes intelligent good looking individual praised work good core group friends anything everything family intact supportive even this hes depressed thinks low himself dwells relationship status lot even drink lot does twice week gamenight guys join theyll drink home that fridays regular spot go regular group guys great guys that hes drinking heavily smoke dog home know helps im growing afraid none going enough hes closer id like believe im sorry im rambling please help us help him go see professional were has,1 +dont want commit redflag dont really want wake tomorrowim done cant wait another year leave college boyfriend im tired living house toxic parents toxic divorce im exhausted able proper job stress levels high sensitivity im tired jobs right want get morning im done amam days babysitting homework dog walking homework sleep day im exhausted bored realize thats privileged thing saying want people fun interacting love much thats get stimulation life cant work two hours customer service job without close panic attack pressure insane flow people messes empathy cant anything else besides high pressure customer service job undergrad degree im tired working hard get trauma boyfriend work man emotionally abused three days week part community built business im tired job right now im tired regressing every single time goes working hard feel betrayed choice right now im tired missing actively participating community boyfriend used work together made realize boss teacher making legitimately depressed taken almost year get since quitting im done close im done back there im done want next year want across country away town away jobs want different person im exhausted want study focus classes read favorite books talk boyfriend get away parents fighting money college tuition stupid divorce im tired i probably mention im planning anything all want wake up want next year im still hopeful get here every day weeks draining much im scared im reaching inability hope also thank much listening sub incredible im really grateful opportunity post something like somewhere guys amazing,1 +hey girl job im immigrant plan this one kinda weird idc ly all,0 +review james bond movies evaluate them rate according well meet expectations certain things one come expect even demand bond film individual effort either delivers doesnt so ten elements make bond film bond film even though never say never technically part official bond filmography mere presence sean connery returning makes something merely honorary member series anyway heres rates scale br br title never say never again clever title apparent link actual storyline instead injoke reference sean connerys vow never play oo lured back diamonds forever whatever case catchy title pointsbr br precredit teaser perhaps trying avoid obvious parallels official eon series bond films teaser opening scenes shown behind credits even disappointing yet another ohno bond killed fakeout pointsbr br opening credits screen full tiny s even bother trying jazz credits graphics split screens interesting camera angles pointsbr br theme song written michel legrand sung lani hall never say never again would make perfectly pleasant part particularly long elevator ride bond theme merely okay pointsbr br bond james bond appropriately since film sees connery lured back service bond decades hiatus story begins facing question whether bondconnery still job happily connery proves ready bondage again though bit grayer sporting bit girth wearing slightly obvious toupee seems trouble slipping back action all one connerys best relaxed turns character pointsbr br bond babes even best bond films female characters given much dimension exist largely necessary props bonds use future oscarwinner kim basinger granted great deal leeway creating character domino petachi film benefits this nice job bad look either pointsbr br bond villain reports death obviously exaggerated blofeld back least moment showing lives prized pussycat onetime jesus portrayerturnedstereotypical villain max von sydow given lot role silky presence nonetheless overshadowed wonderful performance klaus maria brandauer maximilian largo string banal bond villains refreshing brandauer gave performance subtle yet colorfully evil funny without campy ruthless without seeming cartoonish largo ranks right auric goldfinger one bonds best villains pointsbr br bond baddies fatima blush say played bold style particularly flamboyant drag queen barbara carrera breezes film displaying mix selfamused evil tad pure psychotic insanity bond crossed paths variety femmes fatales easily disposed existed amusing eye candy characters dared exhibit flare dramatic fierce determination even untimely demise spectacular even bondian standards pointsbr br sinister plot remake sorts thunderball film seem bit beentheredonethat nuclear missiles stolen major real estate go kaboom countries world pay multikazillion dollar ransom least producer kevin mcclory lucky enough find forced remake one weakest bond adventures comparisons effort blows thunderball water despite absence many bondian trademarks film succeeds own pointsbr br production values film starts uneasy style like tv movie trying can story progress film gains momentum sense purpose making superior adventure points br br bonus points several odd changes sets bond film apart official series miss moneypenny hardly acknowledged played edward fox m cranky old grouch respect double os foreshadowing judi dench would later play part q suddenly cockney accent buddybuddy bond curious sense nostalgia throughout film replacing bonds astinmartin vintage packard tango dance number cleverly inserted story big rescue near end horseback homage raiders lost ark tribute bond films pointsbr br summary never say never mixed bag really important areas holds thanks hero connery villain brandauer assassin carrera damselindistress basinger devil details seemingly unimportant opening credits theme song seem film lacking absence comes faux bond film good substitute substitute nonethelessbr br bondometer rating points ,0 +im trying sexist anything damn bro looking cute today,0 +hate cannot talk problems friends family say want help things start get real longer want listen mention suicide longer want there worst part whenif actually go it would first people say reached help want someone try understand feel come from want family understand least attempt understand anyone else feel way families comfortable listening you hate cannot talk,1 +sure right subredditi apologize poor explainerorganizer things advance anyways idea start post like jumping right it fantasizing redflag past couple months ill get later first let state think would actually ever act thoughts think id balls too like idea putting people close traumatic experience im much coward live life like idea ending depression pointless life suicidal thoughts well guess attributed depression which turn attributed inability make decisions failure appreciative successful yr old male attending well respected university east coast however idea want life turn makes feel like failure currently second semester college idea to far ive managed waste k parents money what discover want job major chosen feel like deserve opportunities given parents individuals throughout life knowing want life makes hard motivate work classes turn leads poorly classes turn leads becoming depressed situation depressed makes even difficult motivate work basically guess im somewhat trapped nonstop cycle afraid im going fail calc exam basically going set back whole year college major pursuing due fact calc pre req lot courses going sound little clich ripping movie easiest way explain way feel seen office space understand easily part movie office space main character basically says could whatever wanted job would nothing pains say it feel could anything life would nothing well actually nothing bit deceiving let rephrase would whatever wanted do view life makes feel like shit know never able live way unless win lottery something another reason feel like failure closest friendsfamily around went college knowing exactly want finished either years under brother computer scientistprogrammer finished college career semester early even job already juicy salary best friend also friend finished school early well also job friends attending institution go also lives well line one getting ready graduate two others well way promising careers basically im surrounded successful people polar opposite myself know want do getting jobs it seem found meaningpurpose life little old sitting pretending know want parents see lazy ungrateful piece shit really want talk someone im afraid theyll think im crazy person throw psych ward shit fuck that really know im posting this guess part get things chest also maybe get suggestions do suggestions do means voice them,1 +mother suicidal thoughts making sad toomy mother father split almost years ago currently lives brother give shit her last week one worst fights talk then today came tell died life pay more im im deal fact mother wants kill constantly alone hand deal father also difficult person deal with also going several phases life time energy dedicate mother since im living mother hard follow know determined commit strong suicidal thoughts today deal fairly well them fear anything happens mother know could handle suicidal thoughts well time passes mother loses reason live falls redflag please help me know else do like im loop takes get mother makes sadder talk today tomorrow morning ill schedule session psychologist soon possible her else get thoughts head,1 +guys im confused help piss pants drip,0 +cant handle anymoreever since raped life went downhill everyone way shouldve handled report it tell whole school ect instead making sure okay trying make statement wanted alone cope withdrew dropped school met someone time convinced end life then unfortunately cheated ex gave std needed surgery for since ive thought obsesses old sex tapes goes friends try get go talk girls even though im guys night friend tried hire hookers feel fucking worthless hate people high expectations me heck high goals aimed let crash burn going doctor wanted work chronically ill patients works towards better pain management hopefully cure some perfect boyfriend happened dumped trauma much hold onto anything cant pretend anymore things get better years pills therapy lost everything cared fault stronger really miss ex im glad saved trouble watching turn shell person really dont see hope anymore guess days go one day finally it,1 +literally breathing day die day breathe seconds hold exhale ,0 +day cold war beta httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvtnnduwglcampab_channelpuffpuffhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvtnnduwglcampab_channelpuffpuff,0 +loved film seen philadelphia film festival march went india friends movie real related everything savored every moment characters believable story poignant ending realistic sentimental also enjoyed discussion director showing movie shows well blending complete mixing worlds east west supporting cast wonderful depicting life tourist encounters india quite realistically humor subtle times dry makes realistic woven daily escapades characters easy identify situations portrayed,0 +many guys make friends girls actually want friends want fuck girl like says want friends whine moan it like guys genuinely actually want make friends women whats bad friend zone like someone enough want boyfriend enough want friend yall know tiring think making good friends person come say want fuck dissapear tell no braces incoming not guys comments people read title properly,0 +ive answered almost questions number game yeah lets go here httpimgurcomadaadhttpimgurcomadaad note question higher lower pic idk op jumped prepare sex related questions people wont like answers prefer say male idk honestly kg wont convert americans ukraine libra prefer say prefer say prefer say xx ddmmyy russian ukrainian english green black orange yellow white vegetable stew or pizza talk homemade stuff drawing idk indie glass animals sure idea many games like idea homework lol idea im worried future no hope never no again hope never cats dog idea prefer say japan probably probably one maybe think twitter pinterest much idk artists bandsmusic artists like etc many reddit mellisa pinterest youtube prefer say twitter yes uxthrowawayaccounthttpswwwredditcomuxthrowawayaccount sent hw friend lol reddit insta something youtube pinterest twitter atleast two hours day laptop mean lol dont think idea fragrance guess no laptop lol idk got wireless headphones hate wireless headphones lay around its pic reason idk answer short brown hate meme thin slavic guess pajamas brown boxers one lots body hair legsarmpitsarms dumb looking moustache bit beard gay never relationship crush girl moved away school older like years yes im gay im also biromantic romantically im attracted genders idea would never smart protective strong biiit shy funny supportive muscular belly well beard lots body hair something like this httpimgurcomatxhvyxhttpimgurcomatxhvyx nice conversation restaurant enough understanding other supporting other live love yes yes no think would get tattoo get older though talking myself yes think im attractive mean parents lol doesnt gay biromantic measured like two years idk theres lot hair there ill shave bit later like every two days yes second part httpimgurcomatxhvyxhttpimgurcomatxhvyx body similar this thick dick sex risky place turn ons smells like smelly armpitsunderwear im prepared downvotes turn offs idea idea different ways it well ive fast enough hide mom probably understood everything uhh idk often like ive sex tell sexual stories want partner rough want understand want serious it also since im vers want vers idk answer wont lots different things prefer say class teacher ukrainian language teacher actually talk like person age computer science hate sometimes highest probably pe literally give us highest grades nothing lowest biologychemistry hours it ill everything morning received yet bet math exam got bad grade since get last thing learned ukrainian poor lower class rooms kitchen bathroom living room lol prefer say small enough public wont answer last ones ok fun im prepared downvotes sexual questions get stalked woohoo good day,0 +advice sneaking night yr old super bored quarantine mac keep entertained games window i building pc november next week getting longboard idea would super fun sneak ride around town late night ever snuck out advice make easier mistakes made,0 +feel like going lose itwhen chest begins hurt hear heart thumping loudly ears mind begins loiter upon dark thoughts cope,1 +back againhi again im graduating th grade tomorrow im really feeling it feels like sad monday night died tonight honestly mind like accidentally naturally idk ive purposely avoiding family im trying distract thoughts go away idk anymore quite surprised im still alive,1 +industry dropped ball this trailer movie justice opened hand full screens people opportunity see this work mouth would made successful lead actresses give great emotional performances really draw story especially characters checked based rave recommendation richard roeper ebert roeper book example great film never got fully released except screens gave chance seen movies go video quickly good oscar worthy tragedy many levels never even hear it maybe via word mouth gain following dvd cable see movie should great performances lead actresses make movie could another formulaic teen movie school special instead stands well note worthy films girl interrupted comes mind like like this br br both girls one amazing emotional scene another without coming melodramatic even though alicia angry deanna crying movie done real way come stereotypical characters melodramatic movie move many scenes aspiring actor use real performances school erica even better traffic hope actors get roles utilize talents well let shine see movie like recommend friends get lost among blockbuster crap comes every year movie buried spiderman tops records kind word living in aghhh make world right see recommend it,0 +looking emotional representation depressionredflag feel like short film essay something less clinical gutpunch accurate feels day day anyone seen read art piece anything able use help someone close understand something show partner,1 +ratio world record speedrun guys im world record speedrun see fast get ratiod go,0 +workplace training thing coming making nervous reason workplace training thing might good description basically thing go apply place work week instead school meant introduce work like places im interested in makes really nervous reason places im thinking applying are kebab restaurant grocery store hardware store feels really weird like shouldnt happening idk thing years,0 +know male snoo died recently joined smash,0 +read helped lot artist people hate helps me hope helps many moreended crossroad try figure way go like stuck treadmill running place got hazard lights hoping somebody would slow praying miracle wholl show grace couple dollars quarter tank gas long journey ahead seen truck pull god sent angel help gave direction showed read map long journey ahead said aint oh even midst doubt life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes mean give life worth living relationship ski slope avalanche comin slow enough time salvage love feels like blizzard april cause heart cold skating thin ice strong enough hold us seen scream holler put us blast tearing thought god sent us angel help us gave us direction showed us make last long journey ahead said aint ever oh even midst doubt life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes mean give life worth living life worth living get reflection different perception world may see try crucify aint perfect deny reputations line im working better life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes god judge life worth living another day life worth living,1 +anyone owns rdr finish story first playing online matter all got game im like percent story,0 +anyone know among us player named coochie man friends started egg hat gang them dont know even reddit know player named coochie man usually plays orange started egg hat gang id appreciate left comment thanks ,0 +make redflag least painful familyi access helium imagine could learn rig exit bag husband devastated parents spare much pain possible,1 +need talkim wondering redflag im wondering options im wondering consequences it telling friends effect driving away telling family effect making life harder want tell somebody im thinking redflag would cool could swap stories somebody else needs talk guess pm me post story ill reply mine sure specifics would interesting help,1 +want improve lifeany suggestions,1 +slowpaced intricately structured ultimately touching nice truetolife look small florida beach town dead winter ive there absolutely accuratebr br its also debut feature actress ashley judd makes big impression here hard believe film years old remember seeing theaters recently rented ruby again except s looking clothes held nicely ashely radiant touching here hard think subsequent career without wincing boy talk failing fulfill early promise anyone seeing ashley ruby paradise would assume elegant natural beauty went kinds interesting art films serious acting instead become go to girl dumb action films slasher movies disappointing least lovely performance preserved showcase early promisebr br as commenters say everyone slow paced action film really romance director victor nunez ulees gold another excellent character study treats ordinary young womans life deep respect allowing story build slowly lot detail way think one moving respectful comingofage stories young women recall rubys sexual awakening how lost virginity life choices growing maturitybr br a lovely film take time watch iti think would really excellent film show teens young girls or boys matter give chance think discuss itbr br particular kudos director nunez also wrote script realistic nicely detailed assumed movie based femalewritten novel memoir fact mr nunezs original work rated ,0 +f ask girls sleepover questions want girls ask us anything well answer put whos answer weve got lots time ask away lt,0 +thoughts actionive never attempted every time walk work shops wish car would swerve hit me gets worse visit therapist feel good exactly minutes gnawing thoughts seeing death grandpa he died suddenly peacefully never even got say goodbye remembering exgirlfriend she whole life kept together hates clingy due part anxiety flood back im worse bridge hospital house always hard cross want die sometimes feel like would easier nobody life cares enough listen without judging mei guess need someone talk to,1 +ive rejected girl like well call lauren livestreaming instagram watched hoping would make lose interest obsessing her talking friend house boring far good my goal stop obsessing her one friends said something getting drunk said shouldnt underaged drinking calls cuck says well noone asked again perfect im losing romantic interest already cringey tictoc dances went matter seconds minutes later invites another friend onto live her asks things do suggest making origami swan shes baffled probably doesnt know origami is tell japanese soldiers used practice making origami swans help selfdiscipline im remembering correctly blares nerd alert im little hurt thats want thats said guy name joins stream says hey brendon fake name hang sometime long clarified wasnt talking me minute later tells leave kicks off guest enough time say look dood geekin japan soldiers weeb shit again im hurt id say success see arrogant bitch instead sentient flawlessness tldr watch crushs livestream hopes losing interest her mission accomplished edit realised didnt need give fake name never even called name oh well cant stop me,0 +im scared call hotline afraid ofwhy call fear pain whatever now get it,1 +attitude depressionso pretty much entire life ive horrible attitude life depression doesnt help much seems make everyone want walk away makes things worse dont know aht think redflag death time im always thinking different ways kill myself tried change attitude tword life hard suggestions,1 +homework ate dog im sad apparently give homework away cant hand dog teacher im going fail sad,0 +demon slayer op sick change mind also feel free share favourites,0 +life interesting spend time gen x conspiracy theorists midst pandemic think government something behind scenes mom told believe government says boyfriend telling even people causes related corona virus still marked covid asked could find information said facebook so im supposed believe government im somehow supposed believe see internationalgatheringofboomerscom also used fact people died diseases werent forced live way do back argument think government wants control,0 +ending day nowi guess would look ive got say thankful im not id burn house blow car tell friends family fuck could bring anything emptiness ive felt months now think always there ive able ignore it im alone even im around people care me im alone one person ive ever bared soul to laugh tell could still friends cant even bring eat nothing gives joy nothing gives sadness bags packed speak already final letters written stuffed labelled envelopes gave video game shit neighbor kid yesterday held gun temple hammer cocked thing keeping imagined mother would feel police showed tell son blew brains basement probably stop tonight maybe tomorrow doubt see next week,1 +crippling anxiety kissing today went date girl like dropped house talked bit wanted kiss seemed like wanted same problem got anxious move felt like going throw up anyone delt gotten before,0 +im doneim planning take life soon tried everything nothing works cant bear anymore,1 +thought getting betterits year since wanted seriously kill myself note planned back went therapy hashed problems depression years discharged months ago therapy im back never ending pit despair loneliness want take knife end it im tall pounds asian want affection find someone grow learn with never success relationship wise ive never even girlfriend ever im sick everything feel like never find love tried improving change going gym personality passions music arts always good enough friend im tired honestly dont think win societal standard seems go hand hand opportunity aka handsome somewhat tall manly man,1 +howdy folks looking try dungeons dragons chill cool people ill running oneshot sunday evening beginners pros whoever wants free join timezone gmt msg discord ya wanna know deats wimble,0 +witty disgusting brash intelligent baseketball redefines comedysports pot spoof easy target makes called comedies like dead boring one best time trey parker matt stone play roles losers apt perfection,0 +wish could cuddle someone hug goes longer secondi feel worthless ugly lonely always,1 +day friend brought gun school so happened guym im talking friend timeactually friends classmates used make fun him slightly average iqhe simpletonor everyone thoughthe used sit behind soi used conversations day one day noticed looking weird like watching classmates weirdly thinking something alsohe kept checking bag time time day teased guysso thought might that asked problemhe took secluded corner classroom told fearful tones gun bagi shocked say least first thought lyingbut noticed weirdand checking bag told prove lunch break took outside lobeholdthere gun handnow asked calmlyeven tho panicking inside trying gunhe said nothingi told keep gun hidden could gone teachers reminded brother also simpleminded knew wanted tohe could shot usso kept quiet whole day next day came thanked telling teachers return introduced friends told anything foolish today onwardsi know right thing simple fool know consequences actions complained it would ruined life,0 +im tired year old girl senior high school sick all think analyze everythingits two parts one always telling good enough thin pretty smart enoughand part telling okay unrealistic expect many things myself really cant take anymore used eating disorder not specifically diagnosed parents never sent doctor would cost money failed too difficult starve extent still keep grades up hardly ever speak parents because well cant even begin explain mindfuckery behind all ill honest admit make easy mother not applicable dad give fuck me quite nasty know things im fairly certain times parents want rid me mother ever talks email nowand forcing get birth control pills believes pmddits embarrassing insulting me wrong cant depressed getting birth control make problems disappear ill still hate school believe im good enough ill still think im ugly wish could skeletonill still cut myself problems mother go away magic pill quick fix welli mean one leaves alive desperately want someone important life push away guy comes near me cant let find messed ami know ill screw somehow also feel repulsive allow anyone close way disgusts guys find sexually attractiveso much feel sick stomach strange also little respect body even know cant accept affection though want it future want live rest life like this also interest college get scholarship notifications applied prestigious school sent special application mother believe get large enough scholarship able afford going discouraged pursuing art the thing im remotely interested in really wants go community college nearly perfect gpa high act score better go community college ill definitely kill myself cant believe im still alive begin with lethal dosage pills ready summer supposed do,1 +best drug od ive waited waited waited horrible feeling hasnt gone away,1 +long story need supportive depressed suicidal long time gotten worse past year started last year chose best friend one take virginity trusted him felt honored chosen him big deal unfortunately got really bad ovarian cyst right away promised wait completely better broke promise started dating cheating girlfriend months after another boyfriend cheating best friend made excuses wanting break original boyfriend best friend fact broke promise really hurt me months started dating her sexually harassed way home school public train winter guy started harassing me another man defended me however offender proceeded threaten guy saying going shoot him pull gun threat there got train soon doors opened that wanted see best friend support told happened asked could meet weekend the incident took place monday but decided spending weekend cheating girlfriends place important helping me keep feelings everything anymore decided talk best friend it got fight it turns forgotten promise made permanently changed way saw world people always say think loved ones would feel committed redflag did help think easy forget promise big easy forget someones existence committed redflag one would miss me theyd simply forget me abusive family friends everyone matter also tried justifying choosing stay cheating girlfriends place supporting me thing is like trouble need support anything also work needed him moment need picked girlfriend something promised never do guess broke promise desperation considering many failed relationships hes had said considered guy harassed bluffing gun course considered police however threats using weapon taken extremely seriously plus know bluffing not could been could also serious told work understandable able see time going girlfriends house instead helping important time not go house time said still chose cause wanted to fought more hurl insults there said hes going talk insulting spending time girlfriend eventually apologized made up thing is damage done im still hurt everything completely forgiven either cant look world same combined living abusive household made family family friends eating im skinny taken toll think redflag almost time one talk to ive tried antidepressants ones ive tried far worked me im still looking right one see psychiatrist counselor school summer break cant see anyone now especially live narcissistic mom ive attempted redflag times summer including birthday cant stop thinking redflag know do ive contacted hotlines times want nuisance theyre always helpful nothing seems working anymore want die wish never born hate world want anymore,1 +hello goodbye well almost time ive never really post sub today last day teenager turning tomorrow wish knew sub younger probably wouldve helped someone listen problems seem dumb hindsight little advice yall dont sweat small stuff things might seem like end world really dumb hindsight example lot teens really wanted learn drive get car big point contention parents thought didnt really like wouldnt teach drive thought life would change completely finally exciting worthwhile iearned got car nothing really changed basically go errands now something seemed really important really wasnt big deal know doesnt apply everyone ask always keep open mind good luck all,0 +hey you shitted shower yeah read right yo ass tried fart shower ended shitting wonder dad say that hope made day better,0 +want go sleep littleim anxious cant function going away breakdown shut completely thought killing got wave peace laying bed staring feeling calm first time since remember felt anxiety relief could barely move didnt water room take pills didnt days still feel horrible really want it even die maybe go sleep days im tired dont know live like this,1 +think ask jws whether expect miracle cure faith find not know not find instead believe promises christ made resurrection so even even worst happen die holding onto integrity jehovah can correct thisbr br it really gets simple question god real make believe real trust him follow directions matter short term outcome may bebr br i heart attack year half ago one family horrified saw words no blood written large letters chart reasoned position blood transfusion would save life would good time anger one could return life time came get god real enough her bad wish could comfort strong faith gives,0 +found movie hilarious spoofs popular movies time funniest seen sort movie give try saw movies movie spoofing get humor enjoy moviebr br i and others watched movie me felt funniest part movie this spoiler tell actually happens scene flashy thingy mib first discover device know does later movie understand get therebr br my complaint movie never able find dvd could buy copy,0 +send noodslt ampxb httpspreviewredditrfyclebmjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsecadabcecffbecb httpspreviewredditwdtlebmjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsacefebdcdaceceedcb,0 +hey guys today coming back school way saw tiny little dog usually whenever see stray dogs avoid themcause im scared tiny little doggo something made want go near it im going closer dog hear familiar tune annoys shit me thats realized school monthsanyway doggo dream cute,0 +created mess feel end nearlong story short got dui blowing underage college never trouble entire life court next week depending goes ill make decision job opportunities line education entire lifes work point society thinks im scumbag given back community holding blood drives events children etc feel world deserve anymore deserve it im scared losing hope future need leave earth,1 +depressive moods pushed away loved ones im afraid ill nowhey im m begin constantly suffering depressed moods came every couple months disappeared week so however ive current period months getting worse family love feel pushing away more girlfriend years love anyone anything ive pushed away broke reasons know ive pushed point one right im sitting looking bottle bleach wondering pain drinking bleach worth release death im truly terrified might me even know ive posted im desperate need anything tldr long depressive mood pushed away family friends girlfriend contemplating whether commit redflag now,1 +today sucks hate tuesdays especially today cold dark rainy quarter tank gas found exs assigned seat right fkn front me im anxious normal miss happy pen photo flashbacks reminding ex best friend essentially ghosted boyfriend current best friend isnt cant get back popped conclusion today fkn sucks,0 +bad idea confront rapisti raped months ago contact since ive posted ill put below little bit month ago raped say sexually assaulted im afraid admit happened me drunk cousin ditched one friends morning bar downtown almost falling drunk friend helped home im gay place consent anything been consented started kissing really control actions stopped convinced keep going really basically almost passed started sex point said yes anything push managed make leave month ive refused let even think pretty lengthy history depression ive feeling good lately want trigger anything like ive pretending happen know one day itll come crashing down ive ever thought it also attempted redflag past confront would say,1 +princess stories disney put there cinderella probably enduring appeal cant really say why reason generation generation thrusts top lists little girl wanted nothing cinderella glass slipper absolute favorite costumebr br honestly think story realizes longings human heart cinderella never wanted run away drudgeries daily life find someone sees one else ever had story older english language somehow still rings truebr br as characters nothing else disney make wonderful villain lady tremaine evil t wonderfully calculating overtly physical way cutting tongue eyes work her need staffs lightening strike fear heart animal friends tend grate especially idiotic gus would cheered met fate lucifers jaws cinderella pushover making justly catty remarks times however lacked drive make entirely sympathetic sure nice fed animals keeping place never know even became maid another house least getting paid shot respect seems reason things work end cindy everything sort falls place lap never works dreams sings fondly ofbr br which brings music lovely ever ilene woods lovely rich voice probably favorite disney heroine big standards originated here dream wish heart makes love bibbidi bobbidi boobr br cinderella wonderful heartfelt story ton musical highlights lacking character development provide classic villains excellent voice work feeling sick heart pop in itll warm make hum mmm mmm goodbr br quote filmbr br surprise surprise duh duh duh happy birthday,0 +told bossive suicidal ideations couple weeks now come go days better days becomes dangerous drive work today told boss scared nothing would happen told mental health important would make sure tasks covered take time try help myself idea time have im pretty scared im going take time put strain coworkers feel better possible wont ever better live like this,1 +love garlic garlic awesome eaten many ways eaten seasoning man love garlic bread garlic pasta garlic rice awsome aswell forget fryied garlic even awesome,0 +part almost one saw post anxiety attack last night confronted girl today asked said because love you walked away guess made better still panic attack like rest day im okay tho,0 +confusedive dealing fluctuating moods past month get really depressed straight after im really happy nowhere feeling comes back straight after dont reason depressed amazing family supportive boyfriend great friends im really confused thats happening mind dont understand worst part past week moments felt suicidal wanted end all im scared eventually ill get stage wont scary anymore ill something hurt everyone around me dont know im looking writting this maybe someone else similar experiences could tell cope it,1 +drunkamplonelystill alive now happy new years everybody,1 +well shit decided tell boy crush since yr like girl one friends friends thought meant boy primary school class name spelling hates me explained him christian hates me fuck nothing christians dont worry family christian accept me,0 +hey anyone wanna chat need get smth chest also open hella bored hit up dms always open _____________________________________________,0 +friend disappeared back since accounts deleted would like help finding again tldr bottom so recently saw post guy wanted contact old discord pal also similar experience post worked simply hope mine could too name discord gloomy lunar met years ago know stupid post reminded this talked like months day got along really well suddenly text anything anymore aside that also know lost password know relevant met roblox i know stupid simple fun game met kept touch name account soulessbodyx reason deleted now know asked question late yeah reminded this alliea even know remember me worth try xander used play magic training roblox tldr met girl roblox used play magic training together account deleted discord account name gloomy lunar suddenly uncontactable time alliea xander even know remember lol hey try,0 +im even really living nowat developed anxiety disorder ruined life path receiving ivleague education im struggling community college ability focus completely shot spent lot time reading philosophy find answers care money career children anything purpose life nothing every day string coping mechanisms designed distract fact life suffering ampxb late teens misfortune taking interest politics without going much ive found radicalized beliefs degree essentially closeted remainder life mental health existential end longer care humor mind spirit completely broken im mids best case scenario find girl treat like bronze medal find energy kid use reenter real world blend rest society family look anymore kid threw away life reason killed yet mom knows miserable told several times friends kids killed shed never recover probably divorce dad living past decade nothing despair even ego save face anymore watch rest world enjoy lives least drive exist creating envy refuse humor want become disgusting hate filled elderly person wait parents pass least go early avoid another years remembered good person,1 +im going tomorrowbye,1 +uh heyso ive feeling really lately even tho dont much feel about wish wasnt alive googling things redflag found post reddit group saying theres tons supportive people decided make account vent here maybe help idk uh im dont really much complain about life fine rn amazing parents amazing friends amazing girlfriend feel depressed anxious dont know do wish wasnt alive rn think need meds changed maybe upped seasonal depression setting in girlfriend coming see tomorrow nd time see eachother irl first time went see thats asked gf im scared seeing again realized im ugly gross transgender hates im scared idk dont even know gonna coming town dont think knows fucked am every day past weeks ive thinking would happen died rn would it want pain stop wish could sleep weeks everything okay again dont know else im supposed say point feel empty nothing makes happy anymore wish wasnt alive,1 +lost virginity like sensible person always make sure around virgins locked basement times blood sacrifices such today started like day get up eat breakfast get ready school go make sure one escaped however everything went wrong unlock door walk stairs turn lights see one guy missing course immediately panic go police over would let everyone put jail situations exactly like one second hidden room basement move everyone case anyone comes investigate extremely panicked rush move everyone hidden room even thinking ill miss school remember check escaped know family lives start searching soon read nametag cage get extremely mad know realize earlier course one person always tries start rebellion even though give food water every days course ity escaped,0 +life turned way want to im person want be none changed feel hopeless suicidal thoughts getting worse though im dangerim going try break sub sections little bit help structure bit ramble tends happen mental health bipolar ii disorder sure know is not form bipolar disorder suffer primarily depression high full blown mania lower manias called hypomania still up normal lose control lose touch reality serious problems typical bipolar ii disorder different doctor might diagnosis ocd gad panic disorder top say bad way believe firm boundaries mental illnesses think kind bleed one another psychiatrist treats symptomatically instead making conform bipolar disorder supposed do though huge problems evident another mental illness suffer really obsessive intrusive thoughts girl dominating life bringing down heartbreak so im still trying get something mentioned above ive pretty much reached standstill ive long time met girl late august pretty quickly became good friends big part life best friends feeling mutual told best friend friendship meant lot me like a lot love her means one incredible beautiful people ever met mental health started find really hard cope feelings think time right tell felt knew dating hooking someone would start panic attacks saw ex around never even met knew was blue would get panic attacks thinking guys kind haunted memory told one friends gotten laid first time while panic attacks still come along sometimes well panic attacks things related her started get depressed someone worked kind came sent text conversation flat told kind seeing someone want boyfriend eventually mental health continued decrease eventually december tell her point things gotten pretty bad told keep anymore something feel way and even though told want affect friendship id get it said course still friends pretty much stopped talking me get that invite birthday party month later mental health gotten worse month couple weeks told her went see psychiatrist told something right good mental health situational well things right told panic attacks things less refused treat said want change medication retiring soon gave valium prescription without adequate assessment substance abuse present past hitting bottle pretty hard putting valium top trying feel better im ambivalent really stupid me control ill though december january feel real me week birthday seriously considered ending life moving forward plans so less building it knew going it sure waiting for maybe waiting see things got better wait birthday idk birthday party ended getting drunk sure much drank know mg valium blacked out evening kind spotty certain point tell upset way left things remember friend know driving home broke hysterics crying told going hurt something remember remember crying hard anyways next morning people checked me sternly came clean bad things almost ended life another friends forced go hospital couple days discharged hospital texted tell discharged right thing making go told uncomfortable told felt needed time weve talked since then like couple times mostly liking others stuff instagram times weve texted talked bit really casual stuff weve never hung since relationships general never romantic relationship never kissed im virgin things usually bug me loathe guys obsessed sex view women sex objects and afraid thinks may viewed her sometimes things like make guilt shame things flare up makes feel like something wrong me and ive always put way much emphasis relationships girls girl played huge part life fell love fast hard thought overcome tendency therapy long time top finally getting diagnosis taking mood stabilizers guess not i moved on moved on able to continue feel guilty happened do often wonder message guy drove home apologize ive talked apologized said ok fault sick also yearn back friend still hope end together day hope weak word literally pray do interim also pray become best friends soon strength able handle romantic relationship mean time strength feel destroyed dates someone else prayers pray us end dating within like year friendship incredibly special miss that miss lot would enough live life focussing present makes sense another friend told cant friends someone want intimate with want friend again really really do want friendship again separate desires relationship her ive never felt someone understood cared like did also exact sense humor taste music really kilter obscure music really big part lives literally closest ive ever come real relationship emotional intimacy really powerful felt like was finally thought found someone cared much cared them i hate life wish entirely different person would love im resentful get feel way feel like really week pathetic human being deep down really deep down feelings feel like part me struggled feelings emptiness incompleteness shame girlfriend past trivial juvenile sounds coped well expecting meet someone like fall hard did kind happened people tell need decide move get better cant literally feels like lying makes worse seriously like im saying moment feels bad like crashed hard lying extended periods time going move on etc etc etc cant plays monumental part life too big let go of thought losing catastrophic id rather die lose her part reason feel suicidal starting realize might happen my user name birthday coming up hard friends it last year good crew friends something birthday year didnt years well really hard spend birthday without friends year knowing part reason make room people life kind pushed people away crazy depressed person bearing reached people wake probably expected much them conclusion fucking mess life good psychiatric care but im getting better comes feelings girl symptoms bipolar disorder convinced medication going ever change this therapy well ive therapy adult life things changed think suicide daily mean now mean long time think thought even happened probably fleeting really remember sure inconsequential me suicidal thoughts around least since suicide crisis january never went away managed better like said think always definitely periods past know thoughts mind new then gotten lot intense past couple days no think danger think safe,1 +come on purpose two current faves tv meloni oz l osvu janel west wing hook nice little sleepercharacter study plots nothing fancy acting right mark tim busfield shows neat bits worth look,0 +hi againi posted month something ago wanting odas probably guess didnt enough pills damage able go days ive completely sunk again think harder take life im faithlessi dont conform religion absolute nonsense god would create pain theres many factors stopping able causing live grey painful purgatory theres palace sky you im terrified death like people ive always viewed life pointless die anyway end well occupy sized grave ive always really debilitating fear fear would ever show again ive put fact brain cant comprehend absence senses thats fear is life meaningless personalities formed world molds us world creates divides world full hatred world youre consciousness brought taken away everything makes us existence since existence continue exist long existence exists except usthe voice headsthe voice abide by voice whose silence want find solace in pill id take itnot im people would view illbut choose look grim ugly truth world live in say theres reasons live maybe time start questioning reasons deem suitable live life shit for theres nothing special consciousnesseverything ive got emotional attachment gone one day ill feel pain itwhy around thatwhy anyone around anything,1 +haha yall theres fires live one miles away yea seriously im might lose everything thanks fucking idiot point im ready die,0 +mom care me ive spent last three years life learning programming d modeling animation sound design become programmer computer scientist taking dualcredit college courses as highschooler today grade dropped forgot assignment already resubmitted would graded tomorrow mom came room mad yelling spending much time building stupid stuff code enough time doing school care me want do never has understand teenage angst life care ampxb want cry,0 +tryna flirt so um aha ha like frogs,0 +matador better upon reflection time one watching it seems light humor always mediumgauge never unfunny never gutbusting story simple thread characteristics plot often recycled features namely unscrupulous bad guy need pal straightlaced glasswearing good guy need security life team learn somehow complement others lifestyles also find bullfighting parallel story unnecessary simply cruel thing symbolism hardly potent enough carry itself however really good film though seemed thin unaffecting time wasnt subtle way connecting audiencebr br i believe reason slowly surely gives audience something take though formula nothing new even humor main characters virtually characters it somehow met gotten know forget calling real thats mean mean though pierce brosnans filthy womanizing boozing hit man detached comical character hes grasped firmly writer definitely brosnan aggressively communicating much enjoys breath fresh james bondless air greg kinnears character seems quite detached scriptedness hes given certain unexpected footnotes moment due films lightfootedness pass us hit us moment later realize film simply analyze planes trains automobiles told stalely again truly saying somethingbr br the films climax sort wants partially thriller twists lightness possibly focus film though plot leading it no focus brosnan kinnear get unlikely relationship other strangely matador film regret loneliness brosnan deals loneliness regret every day though understand kinnear lenient accepting brosnan continually interrupting life slowly understood brosnan salvaging kinnear downtoearth version feelings means redemption last scene movie stays me it think films subtle sidestepping impact finally begins seep,0 +educational show focused emotions interactions relationships produced detroits abc affiliate syndicated markets nationwide past week detroit public tv hour clip show part pledge drive wow memories resurfaced remembered show segments id forgotten remembered instantly soon theyd begin hot fudge holy moley detective tomato pies facebr br for public television special search hot fudge comin atcha concert,0 +asked crush read title happy able share feelings said feels way officially dating yet update soon,0 +indian fact religion made drink cow pee young age chances might turn atheists future sourceme,0 +hello make short films contest currently subscribers hit contest see write best script whoever make short film want put yt channel credits interested like short films channel gonna try get subscribers end day contest httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucfwgxdcbzizdklphlzq,0 +pretty depressed todayi pretty depressed today went therapy yesterday told depressed laughed nervous laugh woke morning got coffee going motions think might last year one loves feel like living repeat mean less shit another years fuck no,1 +twitch subreddit bad tried making post asking help apparently violated rules stating reddit username looking tutorials hating twitch must soso idk please hate me opinion im saying this dumb,0 +suicidal years getting tired everythinghi everyone appreciate stopping giving post read giving much information can im worried giving much case live uk im male ive wanted kill years off right much feel like going finally feel like life useless pointless life nothing take extra space planet im alive still know much would devastate friends family ive reached point want die anyway regardless also think selfish feeling feel guilty feeling like this used self harm growing used feel kind rush it people life know this stopped gaining girlfriend began feel top world weve broken since still friends know still love theres much now im alone again feel like life extremely pointless feel though redflag nothing speeding process think anyone would ever want again especially since even want anything me ive spoken friends doctors helplines redflag honestly feel though helps much that im really sure wanted posting honesty guess wanted advice do steps take know move breakup know go killing myself not almost feel like need told it honestly know anymore thank you,1 +count suicidal know fucking scared pain actually go anythingi want die want final minuteshours filled excruciating pain things pills knives id never able that idk guess needed say something want go sleep wake up sorry waste everyones time,1 +may seem like care still hurts man im bi ive already come everybody everyone took really well said back shiz still do though gotten habit using gay like serious insult word like bad thing im like guys im right here even say oh u dont ur gay whatever im like dude serious almost like completely forgot ignoring something post stuff dc say ggaaayyyyy proceed wonder dont talk much anymore like know guys care doubt mind do show least respect,0 +soul hurts muchim lowest point depression suicidal thoughts mind time keep searching ways kill cant take action it currently im experiencing worst feeling ever dealt mentally pain anymore no starting affect physically im tried living like this want alive anymore hope ill snap kill soon finally free depression anxiety trauma know im better dead still cant kill im nothing coward,1 +wanna go wendys hq ask piece mcnugget town walk ask piece mcnugget bug mac,0 +girlfriend broke wella hours ago girlfriend informed two weeks japan away me feels different cant keep things going us love her quite bit obviously shows far often im looking fact go sleep soon deal thoughts wake tomorrow days without one thing best part life quite time now far much difficulty justifying it apologize diatribe feel awful want wake tomorrow,1 +little story long lost friend gone nowso earlier week found one long lost pals elementary school died even know really friends thats besides point writing this kinda bugging week others childhood died first one actually really knew know happened think might self inflicted im sure probably matter either theres reason im writing this facebook page put cant believe many people coming figurative woodwork say goodbyes even me probably talked years more story share touching reading everyones thoughts makes little sad hes read them cant tell much loved point feeling like hopeless nobody would miss gone would might best friend someone played times kid thought since still think want know much meant give us another chance say nice things to instead about you,1 +ever feeling dumb remember people genuinely think trump worse hitler stalin compared people genius,0 +need girlfriend give girlfriend shes mine thanks food,0 +dont want dieplease help mothers day mother overbearing cruel dont get hit takesthrows away stuff constantly tells us much suck whatever dont know im right mind right now therapist told call ever feel suicidal am suicidal doubt make end week dont wanna make things worse already dont know anyone advice whatever just call her please need dont know dont want see dont know else please,1 +this edited spacebr br chanwook parks new film complex film easy classify nominally horror movie central character vampire film actually elements comedy theology melodrama cultural invasion and analog viral invasion body romance things well film almost much mind film takes matters mixes classic european literature case emile zolas thrse raquin odd mix always gel none less incredible power almost hours since saw film lincoln center with post film discussion director find cage increasingly rattled much happens bothersome wide reaching story themes ring lot bells retrospectbr br the plot film loved priest deciding best way help mankind volunteer medical experiment find cure terrible disease infected disease eventually succumbs dies transfusion vampiric blood its explained actually survives hailed miracle worker priest returns hospital ministering sick unfortunately well priest finds needs blood survive also finds typical problems vampire possible go day things become even complicated becomes reacquainted childhood friend family priest animal passions awakened becomes taken wife friend goes sidewaysbr br an ever changing film story spins variety genres tells human story man finds life radically altered chance event finds longer thought was film stay end film forever evolving something else also film great deal mind themes playing constantly explored variety waysbr br the film enough going one could people probably will write books discussing filmbr br the two strongest parts film vampiric elements romance vampire part tale brilliant something lays ground rules nature affliction makes perfect sense kind pushes old vampire ideas aside sitting theater last night found amazed impressed well worked think fact played less straight earth shaking vampire wants normal life contrasted happens later makes clear living existence hunting humans really going work dark world twilight lost boys rather something else personally think film changes playing field hip cool idea dream something real tangible the sequence powers kick way cool romance also wonderfully handled sure sex scenes steamy well done stuff looks talk gestures outside sex makes special love looks quiet stares forbidden couple look hungering unable act disappointment heartbreak betrayal real suspected mad passion possible consummation one great screen romances time perfectly captures feeling emotion deep passionate love and lust ever loved deeply im guessing find part hear screen know did statement i wanted spend eternity you sad poignancy it statement intention well depth emotion tragic romance break heart br br i lie say film perfect great not good pieces almost great especially actors unjustly failed hail amazing whole always come together various genres thematic elements tones occasionally grate other frequently wondering film going hung even though film seemed wandering aimlesslybr br i liked film great deal loved pieces film whole pinging around head since saw it im guessing several days more like love irrelevant since film really seen since much going provide enough material think talk days afterward one meatiest filling films year,0 +moment im skinny skinny imma make many thirst posts bc imma confident yes nothing stop,0 +agree jerry underrated space movie of course many good lowbudget ones underrated remember correctly solution mystery sort variation but ripoff computer controlling spaceship actually man somehow turned computer like hal tried disconnect mind mechanical parts him hal led disaster least one funny moment christopher cary character cant find food finds abandoned pet bird theres kind ominous moment obvious thing happen all,0 +day moving on lol shortened title long read anyway day started distracting playing games minecraft call duty games person mentioned yesterday nice person like lot first friend ive ever made reddit well nothing much happened day tomorrow attending church seminar things getting bit better me feel comfortable time goes by especially right met new friend say im already healing fast take time ill back tomorrow ciao,0 +join meet room teachers meetgooglewrsgcjpnupauthuser try join would funny,0 +wasted strippers booze hotels past yeari inherited money blue k going strip clubs taking strippers hotels short trips weekend feel like idiot complete douchebag,1 +comment gender want know ratio bc feel much different think fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +ththth grade boys video games work place hangout teenagers long ive worked or attendee theres strange obsession video games middle school boys fight theres things go rock paper scissors shoot doesnt work one gets it like near throwing punches games shorten attention span really dont get it someone please explain,0 +really wanted spend new year friends perents asked fuckin today st december noon plans friends new year party sorry kinda gave got angry every time asked ill celebrate another new year watching netflix room go sleep almost immediately midnight,0 +saved life dont know feeltoday called police attempted redflag really know feel it texting family hates us worry stop forever know feel,1 +parents buying new apartment thoughts immediately went could jump kill myself basically title im fucked omg high apartment is anyone curious httpsimgurcomajsfxzghttpsimgurcomajsfxzg,1 +im sad thats it thats post,0 +somy last post months ago unsure exact date know around months and last im going unsubbing here maybe ill resub later date im definitely ill come back help people way people sub helped me much changed generally feel better im sure why something changed know what something has feel slightly better now actually feel okay know im woods yet im getting there know theres plenty obstacles actually looking forward encountering them im starting relish challenge like said idea changed still go work am come home sit room watching tv phone want say thank everyone helped even tried help difficult person help know that ive always thought everything alone real man never asks help wrong matter matter male female trans idea are matter hard exterior soft need help sometimes cant everything ourselves thats okay now im leaving sub thank again everyone helped least tried appreciate it tldr im feeling better leaving sub,1 +one wearing mask started online school seen single fucking person mask school enforced policy california one top states cases lack decency responcibility really goes show fucked species is,0 +dont know anymorei feel bad unhappy im fortunate compared lot people friends family go school sports overall relatively normal life guess could say days feel fine work distracts me days especially im alone feel empty unhappy theres lot things going some little big combined reason feel way recently ive alone time keep thinking everything thats wrong cant stop contemplated self harm almost today keep thinking killing myself dont know wrong me,1 +life hardim feels im lunging around vessel everyday im watching spectator purpose life friends one two best friends irl mom dad everyday get literally hardest thing do second saying im going go something ever following it past five years im stayed stuck stasis life bee absolutely miserable cant tell im lazy depressed anymore gotten bad buti friend wont let give tells im worth something even absolutely nothing im show gratitude thanks quitesatan bestie,1 +lets discuss politics opinion politician position issue x good meanwhile politician bs position bad vote politician a,0 +carbon dioxide detector pudding helmet jan opening jar dry oat boot moving back forth nolan mom slippery salmon slippery oh slippery oh lemon stuck anus salmon tuck shirt jan,0 +tad know see horrible answering dms answer dms motherfucker,0 +stupid regular office job slow fast paced wage slave factory jobi completely incompindent everything do since grade school everyone expect id somebody come find reason week quite everyone else listen teacher suspect dyscalculia since drop cummnity college failing manitory math course times still live home mom dies ill homeless pray every day death never comes failure god let die,1 +fifth day christmas payday gave me fiiiive buulllets leeeeft ammo need amooooo,0 +i male edit i want see works like one redditor said female,0 +prochoice forumscause subreddit fucking joke,1 +hangingthinking drop hanging balcony terrified it also worried loved ones cant handle life almost ,1 +simply love movie perfect example wellrounded surprising stories come asian cinema recent hollywood remake movie richard gere simply awful jennifer lopez please confuse two movies original japanese film touching subtle wonderfully acted hollywood version exact opposite aghast first saw trailer remade us version starring it typical hollywood unoriginal crass commercialism worst remake cements argument foreign films never improved upon reason original film become widely viewed us audiences aversion subtitlesbr br one main reasons movie would never work american telling reserved ultra socially conservative character public japanese persona issue movie certainly main character awakens full understanding living vivacious life dance half movies tension comes stereotypes ridicule ballroom dancers face japanbr br please try see movie original form terrible full screen please skip us remakeits shallow travesty comparison original japanese moviebr br yes know original movie much older simply japanese take story two people likely see time soon one new us remakebr br speaking foreign films ill make quick recommendations monsoon weddingi list first reason outstanding film johnny stechinovery funny italian mistaken identity flic shiria korean action pic mixes asian flare us style plot run lola runa german film integrates techno score ingeniouslybr br well quick list anyway ,0 +might sooni dont really wanna explain everything girlfriend think gonna break tomorrow im getting tired life everytime gives something takes away knocks way back down happened much im starting loose hope,1 +lost job wagoni lost job couple weeks ago year sober fallen completely wagon drinking heavily two years ago ended homeless drank whole bottle vodka tonight ive drunk every night two weeks straight tro name keep listening everclears song strawberry fall now never get up feel down never get back up need help struggling downing bottle pills right now think need institutionalized keep fantasies commiting crime get put away while really know right now cant go again guess fucked again please help one turn to,1 +mind often months ago online friends family found gay i knew already comes place people really accepts gays worrys suicidal hope hes ok,0 +regarding on post me posts comment raid shadow legends im pretty sure started influx posts bad __,0 +dad becoming evangelion fan rewatching it liked saw hes watching beginning me doesnt usually like anime sister watch kinda poggers,0 +hey hows everyone doing day posting row check everyone im gonna untill im longer teen tell doing today anything interesting happen wanna comment want know love you,0 +match tag team table match bubba ray spike dudley vs eddie guerrero chris benoit bubba ray spike dudley started things tag team table match eddie guerrero chris benoit according rules match opponents go tables order get win benoit guerrero heated early taking turns hammering first spike bubba ray german suplex benoit bubba took wind dudley brother spike tried help brother referee restrained benoit guerrero ganged corner benoit stomping away bubba guerrero set table outside spike dashed ring somersaulted top rope onto guerrero outside recovering taking care spike guerrero slipped table ring helped wolverine set up tandem set double superplex middle rope would put bubba table spike knocked table right brother came crashing down guerrero benoit propped another table corner tried irish whip spike it bubba dashed blocked brother bubba caught fire lifted opponents back body drops bubba slammed guerrero spike stomped wolverine top rope bubba held benoit bay spike soar wassup headbutt shortly after benoit latched spike crossface match continued even spike tapped out bubba came brothers rescue managed sprawl benoit table bubba leapt middle rope benoit moved sent bubba crashing wood opponents force table bubba allowed stay match first man eliminated shortly after though spike put eddie table dudley dawg ring apron outside benoit put spike table moments later even score within seconds bubba nailed bubba bomb put benoit table gave dudleys win winner bubba ray spike dudleybr br match cruiserweight championship jamie noble vs billy kidman billy kidman challenged jamie noble brought nidia ring cruiserweight championship noble kidman locked tumbled ring raced back inside grappled more kidman thwarted nobles moves noble fled outside ring nidia gave encouragement fight spread outside ring noble threw girlfriend challenger kidman tossed nidia aside taken modified arm bar noble continued attack kidmans injured arm back ring kidmans injured harm hampered offense continued battle hard noble tried put kidman away powerbomb challenger countered facebuster kidman went finish things shooting star press noble broke attempt kidman went shooting star press again time noble rolled harms way noble flipped kidman power bomb soon got pin retain wwe cruiserweight championship winner jamie noblebr br match european championship william regal vs jeff hardy william regal took jeff hardy next attempt win back european championship jeff catapulted regal top rope took hurracanrana ring apron back ring jeff hit whisper wind knock regal loop jeff went swanton bomb regal got knees hit jeff devastating shot jeff managed surprise regal quick rollup though got pin keep european championship regal started bawling seeing hardy celebrate way back ramp winner jeff hardybr br match chris jericho vs john cena chris jericho promised end john cenas career match vengeance came next jericho tried teach cena lesson match began suplexing mat jericho continued knock cena around ring cockiness got better him top rope jericho began showboat allowed cena grab superplex cena followed tiltawhirl slam taken nasty dropkick gut rookie recovered hit belly belly suplex put yj away jericho launched lionsault cena dodged move jericho nailed bulldog connected lionsault go cover goaded cena feet could put walls jericho cena ideas reversing move pin attempt getting jericho went berserk match winner john cenabr br match intercontinental championship rvd vs brock lesnar via disqualification next big thing mr payperview tangled intercontinental championship line brock grabbed title ref draped shoulder momentarily glaring rvd van dam s quickness gave brock fits early on big man rolled ring kicked steel steps frustration brock pulled together began take charge paul heyman beaming ringside brock slammed rvd hard floor outside ring there brock began overpower rvd throwing ease top rope rvd landed painfully back suffer spine cracked steel ring steps fight returned ring brock squeezing rvd around ribs rvd broke away soon leveled brock kick temple rvd followed rolling thunder brock managed kick twocount fight looked like might soon rvd went fivestar frog splash brock though hoisted van dam onto shoulder went f rvd whirled brock ddt followed frog splash went pin heyman pulled ref ring ref immediately called disqualification soon traded blows heyman after rvd leapt onto brock top rope threatened hit van terminator heyman grabbed rvds leg brock picked champ time connected f onto steel chair winner rvdbr br match booker vs big show booker faced big show oneonone next show withstood booker ts kicks punches slapped booker corner thrown ring booker picked chair ringside big show punched back bookers face booker tried get back game choking show camera cable ringside booker smashed tv monitor spanish announcers position shows skull delivered scissors kick put men table booker crawled back ring big show staggered moments later show grabbed bookers throat met low blow kick face booker climbed top rope nailed somersaulting leg drop get pin winner booker tbr br announcement triple h entered ring thunderous ovation fans hoped learn game would end competing could speak eric bishoff stopped game apologize getting involved personal business triple h signed raw bischoff promised personal life would never come play again bischoff said hes spent past two years networking hollywood said everyone looking next breakout wwe superstar talking triple h bischoff guaranteed triple h signed raw hed getting top opportunities coming way stephanie mcmahon stepped issue pitch said personal history triple h two know well said two unstoppable again bischoff cut begged stop stephanie cited triple h told bischoff said triple h talent charisma bischoff said young time know had still lot experience stephanie two continued bicker back forth triple h stepped microphone game said would easy say screw you either one them triple h went shake bischoffs hand pulled away said would rather go devil knows rather one know could go further though shawn michaels came shake things up hbk said last thing wanted cause trouble want get involved remembered pledging bring triple h nwo hbk said theres nobody world triple h better friends with hbk told friend imagine two back together again making bischoffs life living hell triple h said tempting offer turned hugged hbk making official switch raw triple h hbk left bischoff gloated victory bischoff said difference two hes got testicles doesnt stephanie whacked bischoff side head leftbr br match tag team championship match christian lance storm vs hollywood hogan edge match started loud usa chants hogan shoving christian ropes ring canadians took there edge scored kick christians head planted facebuster storm get tag hogan hogan began hulk soon caught christian big boot leg drop storm broke count christian tossed hogan ring storm superkicked icon edge tagged soon dropped opponents speared corner turnbuckles missed spear strom hit ref hard instead edge nailed ddt ref could count test raced took hogan leveled edge boot storm tried get pin edge kicked two riksihi sprinted fend test allowing edge recover spear storm christian distracted ref though yj dashed clocked edge tag team championship storm rolled got pinfall win title winners new tag team champions christian lance stormbr br match wwe undisputed championship triple threat match rock vs kurt angle undertaker three wwes successful superstars lined triple threat match undisputed championship hanging balance taker rock got face face kurt angle begging attention side got attention form beat form two men soon after taker spilled ring rock brawled angle angle gave series suplexes took rock great one countered ddt managed twocount fight continued outside ring taker coming life clotheslining angle repeatedly smacking rock taker rock got back ring taker dropped rock sidewalk slam get twocount rock rebounded grabbed taker throat chokeslammed him angle broke pin attempt likely would given rock title rock retaliated latching ankle lock kurt angle angle reversed move rock bottomed peoples champion soon after rock disposed angle hit peoples elbow undertaker angle tried take advantage disabling great one outside ring covering taker kicked two count outside ring rock took big swig nearby water bottle spewed liquid takers face blind champion taker stay disabled long managed overpower rock turn attention angle taker landed guillotine leg drop onto angle laying ring apron rock picked time break pin attempt kurt angle taker nailed rock ddt set chokeslam angle tried sneaking steel chair taker caught tomfoolery smacked hands referee got caught ensuing fire see angle knock taker silly steel chair angle went cover taker rock lay prone dead man somehow got shoulder up angle tried pin rock kicked out rock got landed angle sharpshooter angle looked like tap taker kicked rock submission hold taker picked rock crashed last ride dead man covered win angle raced picked taker ankle lock taker went delirious pain managed counter picked angle last ride angle put triangle choke looked like taker pass out rock broke angles hold find caught ankle lock rock got hold watched taker chokeslam angle rocky hit rock bottom taker refused go kicked out angle whirled taker angle slam rock bottomed great one pinned winner new wwe champion rockbr br finally decent ppv lately ppv good one winner give ppv abr br ,0 +it timehey guys ive done necessary preparations deactivated social media accounts left scattered notes places visist leave im sitting beside gramps gauge say goodbye people knowwell ill wait till everyone home asleep so uh yeah id like chat while,1 +question american uk teenagers also differential equations integral calculus graph theory highschool easter european thing,0 +im donei vaginismus lost faith friendship care life anymore would like die,1 +ughthis typical life sucks kind cry help beautiful fiance amazing career pays better should penthouse apartment overlooking city skyline close friends look me what nowhere go here getting made happier fiance starting doubt us years pretending im depressed caused expect fine time accomplished everything ever wanted harder cover thoughts tapping distracting workschoolgym problem friends look you like talk weaknesses im sitting here alone wondering bother culmination years striving better person actually am alone understood,1 +getting thrown last job finding employment scarce united kingdom six members wonder boys better known crazy gang see advertisement employment gold strike town red gulch yukon territory newspaper clipping back theres story chamberlain saying country better prepared war go yukon frozen limitsbr br by way case misplaced chamberlains clipping forty years old refers joe chamberlain boer war rather neville current crisis thats typical things go crew see stan laurel making mistakebr br of course get ghost town inhabited young jean kent grandfather moore marriott hes getting years bit touched head marriotts got gold mine hes misplaced somewhere goes sleep hes sleepwalking gang better help find mine otherwise pretty ms kent marry stalwart trapper anthony hulme rather saloon owner bernard lee fate worse deathbr br this first exposure crazy gang see acclaimed uk never made impact across pond jokes come fast furious number things code usa allow jokes also strictly topical british lot gotten herebr br the sight gags universal final chase scene worthy anything marx brothers america suggestion watch frozen limits tape working familiarity british history run two three times make sure pick everything worth it,0 +held loaded gun head tonightim average american white priveleged male job make great money lot friends serial monogamist entire life engaged before since engagement broke seeking mental relief forms relationships eating put close lbs made things worse recently broke girlfriend years never love comforted me since ended ive tornado lost lbs months gym diet decent single life tonight everything came crashing down open woman relations shut down nothing abnormal deal rejection fine triggered something scary feelings self worthi hate typical american soul crushing office job idea life supposed about hate american dream slaving away office order afford buy stuff dont need yet say anyone im ostracized made feel worse shortened version everything going didnt get responses text messages put didnt balls pull trigger need outlet,1 +want goi feel like handle this know do worst part me fact id leaving beautiful dog behind love much ive apologizing hour now taken care of hurts much hell never understand im gone becomes upset acts see day ive endured much sake years life partner treats well understand words actions me faults financial support me realize mental gymnastics go back forth it gave word moved him hed support me fulfill everything asks becomes upset supports me sometimes taking advantage him sometimes enough him ask keep word things ask anything else already feel like support enough could wrong ungrateful spoiled misguided know im sorry unorganized brain puking cry help,1 +absolutely like film lot entertaining feast bizarre stunning images theres dialog only background sounds noises something completely different original enjoy obscure bizarrethen might like work art ik looks like film made first camera ever made in time strange humanlike beings live perform bizarre habits god killed razor gave birth mother earth mother earth impregnated gods semen act fellatio gives birth son flesh bone follows inhuman acts ritualistic torture rape murder purposes knowor we,0 +ey yo boys homie kamren needs big tiddy gf help out already got best girl world man two anime body pillows singing sad song sad playing guitar poorly get man girl,0 +im year old loser girl love hates nothing left live forim piece human garbage ive literally done nothing good hate person lived hates me wanna kill every day miserable dont future im waste life point,1 +know anymorei cant picture going like anymore nothing make pain inside feel go away matter happy friends family make me love cant understand feel like started cut,1 +need know effective method committing redflagyeah yeah know itll get better people care wanna done gun else could try pills get job done ive heard slitting wrists successful way,1 +expecting movie suck got pretty good slashergore film death scenes adequately brutal teens decent penny mcnamee definitely best bunch rachael taylor looks like young christie brinkley bring much movie that kane good killer totally believable fearsome juggernaut saw twist coming miles away still enjoyed moviebr br but really stood direction gregory dark might actually career legit film ahead him aside overusing horror film speed camyou know like guys face shakes fast theres good shots here camera angles environments really emphasize kanes size making look even bigger actually isbr br if looking deep story characters aint it thats slasher films about looking good violence gory films go check out,0 +im gonna kill myselfits feels like everyone hates push everyone away nothing right idk im crying time cant hang anymore im killing tonight goodbye everyone,1 +cant manage really irritated incessant theres still hope nonsense find looking solutionmy latest attempt sort shit came abrupt painful end yesterday dont want live find information wise redflag isnt answer disgusting think people youll leave behind hurt bullshit shuffle misery people dont mourn while entire life mourning problem want find sure fire way die successfully peace without much chance interrupted living worse shape now wouldnt want cause trauma somebody going business eg train driver pedestrians etc know isnt place advice methods find aforementioned attitudes towards redflag totally misplaced forces people utterly brutal things order escape demons,1 +dream predicted end pandemic dream predicted pandemic end dream weeks ago details fuzzy important ones still there starts im somehow teleported future cant remember how find mesh school mall appears pandemic ended everything went back normal knew im future exactly my guess years instinctively wanted know pandemic ended started ask people one would give exact date over next thing know im chased fbi agent ninja outfit i assumed time traveling running seconds jump big glass window second floor start ziplining uphill telephone wire eventually stopped chasing me end telephone wire small secluded bookboard game store walk store pretty unorganized back room theres small round table back room sitting table old man grandson invite sit him taking seat ask know pandemic ended old man tells pandemic ended january st grandson chimes says pandemic got worse october th didnt tell details that important part dream ends type premonition interpretation schools shut october th vaccine begin distributed january st,0 +advice human humans shut up gt think her seriously shut up lt gt right real reason posted this kidding shut lt gt comment take stick ass previous sentence part entire post thats meant taken seriously lt,0 +guys actually happened omg stranger offered candy told get van actually got kidnapped also im grave danger please help,0 +feel exhausted anythingcontinuing go life fucking hard dude tough ended could quit fighting hard want fight anymore ,1 +possible speed heart disease muscle wasting disease specific heart break last year decided enough enough im trying alone long story short guys cant go like im wheelchair bound ive become burden family recognise anymore since lost job friends either married left im tormented nobody cares disabled men ive met disabled woman never alone ive lucky enough also heart disease ill die years met men survived scared see future may involve electric wheelchairs spoon fed dinner every female boyfriend married men find nurses want kill myself way speed heart disease md awful wish everyone made far best,1 +cant take anymoreim years old hirsutism crazy leg hairstomach hairarm hair chest hair cant take anymore wake feeling disgusting go bed wishing never fucking born hate one ever love me wrote redflag note case ever it want to cant stand anymore everyone else family normal monster life gonna get worse might well leave cant hurt family cant hurt friends cry sleep every night wish day normal hairy disgusting want pain end want stop waking feeling hopeless im starting think way wake feeling hopeless wake all wrote redflag note case wanna wake anymore im gonna lose everyone whats point reason im family friends ill lose too happen me deserve this didbi disgusting fucking gross god ive lost motivation everything want okay ill never able feel happy again im tired im sick want kill badly worst part hair growth gonna get worse im fucking done nothing fucking matters end gets worse im waste space want pain fucking stop,1 +cant anymoreim tired feeling way one believing me family believe me therapy freaking working neither medication everyone family thinks go talk shit but dont cant pretend okay anymore tiring pretending want die anymore wish dead never go im freakin failure probably even able get right cant end all im even worth it im complete failure,1 +new favorite songhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhvodnbbpu,1 +ladies look cuter wearing mask properly,0 +death seem like best optionive weak little bitch life ever since kindergarten ive known going kill future asked mom whats point trying live die end got looked doctor deficiencies schools ive to ive friends sometimes more mostly less almost either moved tried fight me stopped talking reason tried kill pussied last second want family set back turned drugs im know want family sad around feel sad are,1 +one days last night tried talk girlfriend worryfeeling ive feel like attempt talk explain problem brains pushed away wanted talk feel suck talking feelings made things worse im even really asking advice do ive feel like ruin everything try help,0 +wanna hold gun headits car emotions erratic cant calm down google says tell two close friends any basically much less im comfortable telling im suicidal could actually help plus late idk text one person vaguely sleeping fine feel like cry wolf lot im dramatic attempted told today significant people think im fine bc say im fine make lot jokes whole thing im comfortable opening people around people see often allat all random person asks whats wrong really always feel suicidal lately im just im hyperventilatingi cant see would happen immediate future killed besides messy see awful visuals hanging neck weird look reflection id look like holding gun head thinking calling hotline really bad anxiety phone calls ive heard bad experiences good feel stuck wanna bring gun inside idk im scared also want stopped seeing therapist earlier month bc support around keep seeing him esp feel much worse trying work lot childhood trauma sitting days afterwards next appointment making sick really manic self harming lot option since normally feel better come whatever feeling another option texting im afraid awake either notify authorities since address im afraid get shower hurt im going straight gun want feel like think really want kill actively seeking ways avoid think scared upset really want alive single person really tell feel safe around validated idk found im,1 +possible hardest year life many redflag attempts posted multiple times never thought would able look around room see nothing self loathing aware people situation doubted myself possible feel happiness one never thought would feel look sky smile feelings real feel shit truth proven me feel kept long happines,1 +ealing studios perfect film fresh relevant half century later day releasedbr br as satire economic notions growth commercial need inbuilt obsolescence could scarcely uptotheminute film said hero literally wears plotbr br oddly parallels jurassic park messing environment literally turn round bite you spielberg shied away books brilliant central conceit tack nonsense children hmmmbr br in man white suit alec guiness plays idealistic young scientist comes cloth never gets dirty never wears out suddenly workers capital northern english mill working united never protection livelihoodsbr br of course ealing comedy been complex interplay vested should suited interests plays beautifully one one parties realize progress threat disposability waste keep looms turningbr br but yes comedy albeit pointed one amid political ironies delicious performances good oldfashioned knockabout laughsbr br nonetheless biting satire endures dazzling white,0 +losing fighti feel worthless alone want burden friends family attempted redflag december found late nothing live for wish would over please help me,1 +post expire exactly minutes,0 +seem good first kiss im gonna rant go basically quarantine cant really anything outside stay online met amazing girl days caught feeling asked started dating time grew closer closer together want meet person wont know ill house hour new year last minutes wed go roof look stars fireworks countdown begins wed stand up id grasp onto her pull in tell much love her give first kiss midnight new year,0 +wonder im person intentionally tries eat deathim sure right place post this im guy early s think around lbs ive suicidal least extent since maybe remember really life always sucked growing violent parents violent way society support nothing special problems school adult problems internal alone world always been fucked head care anything enjoy little so guess started joke maybe ive fan eating since age so fat since guess th grade weight lower s early s said something wanting die heart attack joking im coming elizabeth da bears last words point decided wanted eat junk food killed me honestly think id live long im scared cut wrist take pills part fear is im agnostic find blasphemous humor particularly amusing im good person ive lived society tell ya hell bullshit part believes it maybe part looks bad guy behind shower curtain get pee night me im funny make light anything think im serious honest still alive getting worse mentally neglecting ones health decade predictable results see coming comfortable carrying around legs hurt tired time junk squished pubic fat thigh fat expensive eating habits impossible find fitting pants offline etc ugly disgusting looking thing added benefit better excuse seeking impossible romantic attachment utterly fucked head am low opinion people eager become find spot back knife would fit best like idea fatal heart attack sudden unpredictable over like pressure actually pulling trigger taking pills taken hands put onto something almost like chance mean like one redflag pill taking would hard cyanide pill placebos mixed real good took one pill day thats easy right instead pill tasty burgers lunch another dinner even so think options continue see long last unless worsening depression drives take direct action cant turn back theres nothing world one trust talk to ive finally admitted sweet lies told cheer lies redacted cant seek therapy trust therapists least honorable professions charge hundreds dollars hour make feel better id rather die talk redacted damage ive done body hard work self denial surgeries dental work plastic surgery would take make normal serve convenient burnt bridge know anyone read this doubt could help wanted to think feel little better writing down least talk strangers respond getting offended would dare try hurt feelings hurt every single day poor babies,1 +question girls yall prefer oversized hoodies close fitting ones more personal preference thing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +kinda want make another tumblr account sure id able maintain though considering already trouble maintaining twitter ,0 + teacher gave assignement make meme worth marks dammm plot twist though meme reflect choose art museum cant repost meme exactly,0 +even know bothering post guess nothing lose nowhere turni honestly idea even continue everyday point life joke series bad events make impossible find reason live on honestly want wake anymore friends support girlfriend gets pissed annoyed whenever get depressed im cause one else love want alone prefer farce relationship loneliness honestly want die nothing look forward gives life purpose hate job people hate despite friendly look contempt walk around like im fucking made egg shells treat like im kind creep im swear girls allow walk even behind cause stop wait walk sometimes cover behinds make feel like shit stare im fucking pervert always walk head always hide corner factory cry cause cant take anymore swear want kill industrial equipment there fucking hate state indiana bunch bigots live tried buy bedroom set craigslist took upper class neighborhood seller looked like poor piece shit hand taser whole transaction still told leave money wish friends support wish someone would cared enough me point living hate anything everything complete failure im failure get anymore im joke gun really want pull trigger cant i why dont want anymore nobody care ever care world losing anything special pull trigger im plain worthless thats ill ever be really expect anyone listen care guess wanted heard,1 +thing made cartoon popularbut whos complaining always fun see poor coyote try various contraptions get road runner get pulverized every one inventionsbr br the underground cave chase different normal fare clever gave us aerial view chase mazelike structure say hilarious different normal aboveground anticsbr br this one along road runner shorts featured looney tunes golden collection volume transfers spectacular colors magnificent,0 +post cringe break take time scrolling filler filler filler,0 +weird creepy like organize lifes photos specific folders specific ocd bunch photos computer whole life came camera real titles anything numbers let long time interested theyre photos today ages below paper photos anywayi looking themand disorganized mess hard keep track of made foldersone named child photos ages another named preteen photos ages another named early teen photos ages and last least late teen photos ages much easier me helped get rid lot anxiety then one friends like you zero posts instagram even take photos life like sure actually organized photos whole life ages organized specific folders child photos preteen photos early teen photos late teen photos like dude thats actually creepy weird hell id much rather photos shit like how weird seems normal me like its weird fuck trying do make fucking portfolio entire fucking life till die honestly kind hurt this even weird creepy though believe reason ocd makes justified plus theyre photos whatever hell want them others think matter theyre photos,0 +dick huge thanks coming ladies gentlemen goodnight,0 +absolutely blown away john cassavetess opening night first movie ive seen seems bigger scale thus feels mainstream still feel grounded previous films perhaps makes intense also something undoubtedly cathartic watching moviebr br its fact cassavetes made staple career ideal expressed behind camera throughout career director expressing front rowlandss character middleaged stage actress myrtle gordon cannot bring play role upcoming production written uncalculatedly follows impulse impulse resulting appears chaos stage finds right one daringly abstract premisebr br this movie fail capture innate steering one goes emotional cleansing one understands myrtle many things does seen even portrayed something destructive yet might best thing her may cleansing rather breakdown withdrawal cocoon rebellion culminates meltdown cassavetes gives character brutally real touch early on ardently arguing nothing common character yet quiet emotionally corroding fear opposite truebr br the last scene climactic performance myrtle shares character painfully estranged acting her one interesting hilarious hardhitting enlightening enjoyable moments ive ever seen movie,0 +career chose process making rich also extremely depressed overworkedoverjudged point least one episode day want curl disappear job involves social media fame expectation perfection sometimes sure much handle human break able make real friends family never begin with relationship someone cared pursuit wellbeing people respect name almost daily disrespect person makes sense people always watching extremely careful almost feels like redflag now people around want something me also constantly comparing body next best thing type industry in mentally draining would wish fame anyonei wanted see anyone advice me going therapy still super depressive episodes lot regret pursuing loved much everything sacrifice success words advice successful depressed,1 +hello sure whoever needed longing someone talk to anonymous diaryi battled depression happy overcame demons within me know firsthand important someone feel heard so count let us friends dms open would love hear storiespraying youceg anonymous diary,1 +work nuclear power plant getting kick repliesbr br seriously do go httpenwikipediaorgwikipalisades_nuclear_generating_station see workbr br i could think safer industry work in required procedures report events minor paper cuts issue identified potential concern respect nuclear radiological industrial safety immediately reported corrective action processbr br bottom line nuclear plants us operate safety front mind,0 +dont know works need helpim fourteen years old severely depressed since started puberty age diagnosed ptsd severe depression anxiety last year teacher noticed crying nonstop days class couple months put zoloft made suicidal within next two weeks august im week half away starting freshman year dont know ill even make year let tell bit myself never met father dont even know mother knows is mother life god knows long wasis addict spoken year grandmother keeps contact her grandparents custody me live along brother aunt uncle three cousins dog own grandmother extremely abusive sick human being constantly belittles physically abuses me shes disgusting narcissist never anything well enough eyes never acts proud cares me scar stomach shes thrown car keys raging type shes done would typing hours groomed age year old grandma find victim shames day constantly brings calls whore say doesnt expect anything again friends sixth grade lost every friend had people consider friends bully relentlessly mock weight personality mental illness hard make friends feel hopeless whenever talk people always get blatantly ignored im annoying im nice person really am similar personality sense humor kids age get anxious sometimes questioning sexuality gender identity years grandmother found multiple times verbally harassed sexual identity bisexual boyfriend hes friend person get along with means lot dont want hurt way hes sweet cares lot suicidal lately ive self harmed point draw much blood almost pass out dont know much take anymore feel hopeless nothing helped therapy pills healthy coping mechanisms want kill myself know im young dont see future cant survive next years house hurts bad cry every single day dont know feel lost supposed now,1 +people think alive enoughi happy never have never will never enjoyed life proud was always wanted die courage it life worth it memories feel proud of attempted redflag failed relatives keep away potential redflag method would killed already preventing me part understand think i alive things fine thats works pointless pathetic life want keep going died yet mean fine future never fine yet supposed pretend life magically turn around make happy sudden,1 +oh like music name every note g harmonic minor scale well every chord,0 +cannot claim pro mental health disregard someones thought redflagit work like that fucking cant,1 +hate parents close door leave room like seriously close damn door leave room get perfectly comfortable potentially back breaking position chair bed close door lazy ass it tell please close door sometimes audacity say why it ok then lets see feel refuse flush toilet next time go bathroom fucking hell ampxb yeah thats it rant over,0 +want die ideas successful redflagsaid person contemplating redflag past year point done life want right time said personlast attempt taking bottle tylenol benadryl body hold down tired living life going good alone miserable tired itsaid person month old son died years ago followed discovering best friend dead room months later since struggled depression anxiety drugs whole life tired living tired feeling way tried get help nothing works done want ideas thoughts ways said person kill self preferably fast painless first thought try heroin overdose built tolerance know afford enough make kill said person want hear others ideas thoughts,1 +anyone else getting weird ads getting ad stepmom seems sexual like explicit u really tell message trying give,0 +count least transphobes sub possibly im strict counts,0 +hate thisi really wish friends thinking killing would less hard bad others cant stop wanting die right mind keeps comparing friend sexually harrased one current friends ive avoiding her deserve that memories keep coming back wish could fucking slit throat make stop,1 +im planning killing sooni need resources die painlessly quickly,1 +mr bean almost never speaks heartily recommend using dvd player teacher holding finger pauseplay button end age groups lesson simply devote minutes pausing playing dvd encouraging students shout answers whats this what happen whats happening whats wrong question elicits responses lessons new vocabulary grammarbr br because everyones looking tv normally shy students become vocal dvd started stopped point perfect filler awkward between times students leaving arrivingbr br i tried dvds notably tom jerry cartoons red skelton dvds others good mister bean holding students constant attention,0 +revolution america like weed corruption know overthrow government trials us wrong etc etc,0 +empathy wierd legit felt bad damn squirrel another squirrel stole orange even care squirrel beforehand seeing work hard something stolen away hit reason,0 +ill write comments piece paper would put smol table next bed well share bedroom want good things write dont want dad seeing weird stuff thanks,0 +act like that sorry bad english time ago friend introduced us friend we call k time started clearly flirt me wanted alone time sure feelings time flew kept flirting went holiday weeks holiday took time think actually liked so returned home asked go friends i wanted see would react said parents knew us said friend us would say yes holiday time flew come last week asked go us said ill think it yesterday said already another commitment clearly making excuse said different reasons clearly understand question is k flirt asked see said disappeared,0 +dad wants install family monitoring software computer dad asked join family software little reading found software many things can limit screen time time certain applications view screen time activity view search web history make purchases computer me seems like much reason trust me well school work hard outside school gets pc limit everything much can know tried apps made broke need advice accept limited screen time lose privacy say no justify it im pretty upset ive worked hard school outside school make dad proud makes feel like care thanks,0 +technology boon bane throw opinions guys floor yours auto mod auto mod auto mod auto mod,0 +anyone elseive got one person im talking to anyone else,1 +hey bros qu hay probablemente nadie lea esto creo que es lo ms estupido que hecho en mi puta vida pero hay das en que estoy triste intentando suicidar dos veces se que la tercera ser la vencida se cuando ser pero veo viviendo mucho supongo que tengo depresin pero lo s pero todos los das cuando todo est en silencio pienso en las mil maneras en cmo podra matar aveces lloro aveces hablo solo supongo que es la vidasolo eso cudense si alguien llega leer esto ,1 +amazing performance simon pegg gets better better every role usual plays part cringy character makes want hide behind cushion embarrassment sometimes thats pegg aboutbr br the laughs regular eye watering everyone aimed penn movie cleverly put together every character plays sophisticated serious part penn humour involved huge credit director robert weidebr br and cant let one go without quick round applause gilliam anderson shone throughout highly recommended all,0 +scale old girlfriend legal reasons purposes joke,0 +nee sum critics critique continuation story put prologue read prologue httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsilxbea_short_fiction_prologue_do_critique_pleaseutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare btw added sum things da prologue chapter called sleepers coldness swept body like raindrops sky coldness wasnt one woke earth wake like preset timer questions filled head struggled bit get back feet biggest one ended here middle jungle tried get bearing surrounding eyes laid sword struck ground ghillie suit top that felt strong connection sword didnt think much maybe fill head questions now,0 +so teenage years lived moderate depression formal diagnosed disorder history treatment hospitalization mentioned argument yknow hear you good life compared me life sucked cannot depressed funny life great either worst definitely average gets funnier tell phone need go outside going walk helped feelings help you dude staring grass moving exciting hll nature going cure depression even brought god me anyways horrible sht heard depression someone told go outside,1 +backits months ago since seriously thought ending life ive depressed years never bothered get solutions recently months ago went therapy months stop due logistical reasons found replacement therapist cancelled appointment last minute thought getting better im going often im willing meet trust new people im starting like again im functioning like _normal_ viewed everything rosecolored glasses im getting better get progress gain friends ive built delusion belongingness family thought ive steered away demons head theyre still here never left made things worse hate myself _friends_ better without someone like life world infinitely better place without it voices back want stop,1 +made life escaping abuse life jeopardy feeling hopelessi ran away abusive home situation taken supported financially friend support suddenly ceased months ago facing homelessness desperation took first place said yes hate it pay like income rent room house full screaming children passive aggressive control freak roommates thought could deal cant constant tension air walking eggshells dreading coming home refuge shitty day highstress lowpay job reminds much abuse flew thousands miles get away from feel safe anywhere anymore never relax building stress putting crisis want get out since previous roommate parted ways literally reallife support system anymore deepseated trust issues means reallife friends moment feel like one talk to therapist extraordinarily kind letting see free ever since lost previous living situation cant see often feel like need feel guilty seeing without payment matter many times tells alright aside that therapy world solve practical issues money move again license would even physically move belongings previous roommate helped move last time theyre state now feel trapped hopeless felt emotionally mentally bad years feel capable job anymore especially feel like mile walk every day get back energy im utterly exhausted always feel like im fightorflight mode now cant handle stress catching flying handle minuscule things almost meltdown grocery store yesterday fit shit reusable bags brought in cant go like im afraid getting deep crisis become fully nonfunctioning then cant job ill become homeless hurts much especially well felt like full functioning adult job boss loved me considered promotion putting money savings paying old debts fixing credit score putting food table felt like become much told family would ever capable felt like life own gutter really know im going get time im sure even want get time do,1 +get crush dating guys interested guys makes sick stomach ratchet slutty girl like friends know anything crazy problem sweet wholesome good losers interested take advantage that looked social media sadly post anymore know track social media platforms easily found friends super egotistical superficial get wake up,0 +live cursed timeline late anything pointwill try enjoy life long able end it ampxb httpswwwnaturecomarticlesdfbclidiwarxnplzngfydyezrzavckzwlsuqovrzgqegvabiggsbbftdxeehttpswwwnaturecomarticlesdfbclidiwarxnplzngfydyezrzavckzwlsuqovrzgqegvabiggsbbftdxee,1 +much consideration abnormali fairly certain remotely real risk im concerned find contemplating redflag times week contemplation im remotely tempted act consider logistics would people would react feel like fairly common thoughts people have so question frequency unusual unusual point need concerned thanks,1 +call number call promise you regret,0 +social experiment type i hate let predictive text expose you,0 +people asking want me bitch daycare fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +know cant happy went new school made tons friends treat like shit got rid toxic exs pretty much gf lost virginity birthday tomorrow basically people want around love me still feel empty hollow still feel sad alone inside still fake smile get by satisfied everything ive ever wanted still constantly hurt inside,0 +guys female make karma whore,0 +ive lost count times seen movie love find funny time see it facial expressions slapstick humor timing jokes makes great characters especially nitro sonar stepanik hilarious thought kelsey grammar rip torn bruce dern great job fact think movie perfectly cast think need released dvd wear vhs version out,0 +film got roasted boys mstk actually neat nasty piece lowbudget film noir plot tight characters believable within goodboygetsobsessedwithbadgirl genre pacing solid climax wellhandled cast bolstered several fine character actors true time want hit protagonist brick hes actually quite effectively creepy plays mastermind scenes dad quite powerful minimalist kind way sure depressing thats point good movie,0 +sibling suicidal dont know domy sibling suicidal help them found sibling suicidal again want get help freaked last time happened need help dont know know told let sibling know know ways help now dont know family worried dont want make obvious know whats going case freak out im generally quiet person dont want push much suspicious random support still want support them really dont know right now think parents gonna help take care help,1 +conflicted get watch dogs legion get cyberpunk ,0 +stop feeling overwhelmed hopelessive dealing depression suicidal feelings long time im trying get life together less miserable feel like cant make progress area life im scattered cant pick one thing focus feel like problems everywhere interdependent finish school feel depressed cant focus work work seems hopeless anyway chose study english know ill never make decent amount money anyway want make friends im depressednot fun around much money go out stay lonely depressed cant drive either hard get around town want get drivers license really bad anxiety driving cant afford lessons theres one around would able teach me want get job make money need finish school first stay worried financial situation house needs repairs cant afford weighs ability nice environment in im depressed house time house messfalling apart every problem try work bunch problems attached it cant make move positive direction im spinning bunch plates going nowhere ambition work creative field realized lack talent drive connections that im depressed that feel like complete failure feel old anything value feel like im going miserable rest life feelings make wonder bother anythingnothing help rearranging deck chairs titanic im drowning know get water,1 +would say first quality romanticcomedy ever seen depth although knew beginning going end together still longing anticipation thought maybe get together indie film all movie well written directed acted dancing side road scene magnificent,0 +strangle hand im pass out several times dayi place thumb index finger side neck press veins stop blood circulation called feel good im relaxed afterwards,1 +enoughplease life stop already im sick shit on cant keep up cant keep anymore taking everything power walk door it plan im afraid it long wake find body cant learn him fair him cant take things pace people get mad try say needs needs worth it im worth it one last cuddle heads tomorrow weekend could then ill figure out much emotion cant anything it trying fix things makes worse cant keep up one sleeptomorrow get with even posting thisi even know maybe record outburst exists maybe feel like something say matters tonight something feel matters all know fair hes still grieving im selfish ass this im sorry im weak need bedthis much,1 +saying pog everyday get girlfriend day pog know day im dying inside,0 +loli really thought could something doesnt involve fucking huh like claim im aw sad cant even relate someone else feels make feel slightest bit better all love annoying fucking everyonemessing fucking everything apparently feeling like wanna kill like course want final action still running away mistakes god im pathetic,1 +whenever someone tells suck dick insult always reply will do always fun started saying never saw homosexualityinduced primal fear another mans eyes,0 +almost today im going try againim going die soon finally ill peace,1 +tired constant failureyesterday mom asked keep going looked normal emotionless face shrugged thinks therapy dont heart tell therapy doesnt help me ive started cutting cope constant failure tbh since early high school cant talk due culture male cant tell ive found comfort alcohol im trying keep binging becoming harder drink bottle medication im tired always failing ive worked hard many years sacrificed much slip fingers like water last several years comprised financial hardship rejections med schools deaths breakup literally havent even taken time mourn lossesfailures dont know mourn feel nothing void space nothing exists yet widens everyday consumes me think loneliness whats getting most relationship lasted months im grateful first experience healthy left craving affection dont get much attention women eat away me feeds suicidal thoughts feelings inadequacy want end cant find ways end peacefully cant share thoughts anyone since friends run ignore acknowledging others feel im failure worthless perhaps better let void consume me,1 +see future myself think means im supposed onei know im actively suicidal actually redflag attempt years really view self harm redflag attempt since really point life threatening see point living though feel sort hollow numb time like smile laugh enjoy things think actually ever happy im ashamed myself im ashamed way body looks im ashamed fact im fat ive ruined self harm scars im ashamed cant seem keep people life fact im anxious depressed always comes out even though try hard normal functional partners im ashamed relationships ive in significant others greatest people im ruined fucked one would actually good long term would ever want me ive honestly given ever another loving relationship im slutty chick people fuck leave one would ever proud me even worthless im imposter job know anything hardly anything office im sort here know fired me let alone hired first place im school specific job field actually see graduating getting job see anything life ive never able see future myself honestly big emptiness there ive living day day basically past decade im surprised killed already honest always kind head think maybe fact right completely alone means optimal time it fuck life even more one really going miss devastated passing could sort pretty much affairs like hour so biggest issue would making sure house clean organized want anyone deal cleaning messes feel like even serious thing im experiencing sort mania sadness im just calm exactly resigned like im ready life supposed end,1 +two minutes till am worrkkkk bye,0 +im dueling someone five minutes wish luck update dead,0 +actually life plan im going try graduate high school fail once ill move on ill work manual labor thats im good for maybe amish theyll take me make strong ill save enough boat least ft long good long distance sailing ill find least crazydesperate people join me well sail africa well fight warlords well unite tribes maybe amass large fleet boats well help common people well plunder precious metal jewel mines give people around us better lives mess im sorry way thanks reading this dumb even die ill die fighting trying make name great,0 +built chicken coop door httpsimgurcomgalleryjmgxvz,0 +dont know anymorei broke apart razor first time years wanna cut badly body explain whats going me everythings much worse nowhere ptsd depression everything girlfriend says doesnt think helped dont know do im lost im confused wanna cut pills im feeling exactly like bad edit cant take pretending happy everyone else anymore hard pretend,1 +struggling hold onhello everyone im really hard time trying hold on feel like nothing left live for lost everything everyone cared about everyday struggle feel like left liveim really trying hang there know anymore presence missed anyone left one life want pain end im tired waking everyday feeling way really know point reason live anymore anyone give reasons keep going apologize talking way honestly need advice,1 +want go backoblivion released were kids old friend met weeks year summer would play nonstop day wed take breaks eat lunch dinner together immersed fantastical world could free whatever wanted thing next year year that roughly decade since grew lost contact ive yet feel sense freedom happiness ive longer got friends im alone amount games ive played alone grant wondrous feeling shared friend want die,1 +film top comedies list truly unique film reviewer said i must really missing somethingyou correct missing something kind sense humor film requires thats one thing give bad review think looney intended be loony apt description intends succeeds being laughed much often much intensely film funny filmsbr br michael almereyda brought best cast this first big film nominated independent spirit award best first feature crispin glover usual absolutely brilliant perfectly inexplicable way funniest lines ever said film glover clearly best comic actor working right now harry dean stanton puts excellent comic performance william burroughs incredible small role dylan mcdermott ideally cast lois chiles completely excellentbr br all perfectly funny perfect way one crispins finest performancesup performances rivers edge willard crispin glover fan somehow overlooked film need stop whatever see immediatelybr br but remember relax first maybe beer something great film unusual recommend inducing appropriately silly state mind viewing,0 +brother talks farts pooping excessively annoying like brings farts poops every conversation matter im with random stuff like could like fought guy hed like yeah youd prolly fart him im like thats high reach hed say propel ur fart comedy gold amirite today send coffee looks like poop pls stop big bro embarrassing hes lmao,0 +retarded fuck up know tired hearing tired hearing school counsellor soccer coach telling shit like it head get head useless combatchallenge negative thoughts surely one would think capable basic human tasks ie fucking everything do basic tasks sport talking people giving people eye contact gods sake would need artificially boost esteem are capable things capable functioning socialable human know fucked selfesteem is sometimes well actually time hate fucking shower hate seeing disgusting retarded fucking body mirror despite told skinny normal etc etc still feel still fat fucking retarded loser pretty decent school got estimated atar year wanted pilot raaf fuck ever going achieve autistic bumbling piece shit retard cannot conversation mates one one speeches class hell even school fine comes talking someone conversation cannot literally want kill escape remember early i think plusoned since never get invited parties even friends girls party somewhat crush if would even call that think ever spoken her even day socially inept fuckwit am practically held mercy friend group slowly deteriorated spoke guys women know party eventually alone kind awkwardly sitting phone corner everyone fun pool want know thinking everyone exploring teenage lives girls fun mates thought could smash skull edge pool hard enough would knock drown wish begged gun could shoot fucking head eventually nerve walk party mates asked going want leave staying party would done far harm good estimate fact know would made depressed walk home already going walked home cannot normal like everyone else child spent childhood staring wall watching tv one ever home fat little fucker throughout entirety primary school picked fat cunt subconsciously impacted selfesteem time got completely dacked pullup oval infront entire fucking school i already social redflaghaving fucking retard back then holy shit typing feels good man wow asperges fucking know social redflag know shy know depression know hope kind hope time reason mentally fucking defective know fantasized killing since year old nofap merely granted time think badly want kill myself bad want buy gun join army shoot fucking skull obliterate existence earth note like people say given humanity turning back humanity angry society humanity know issue defect lonely love solace hole in melancholy feels warm cozy feels like belong feels like stay give fuck anymore want die maybe regret kill one day tired autistic little fuckup loser sometimes get mad feel redflag like rant head much fucking fat little cunt fggot fucking loser feels good sometimes like pretend holding gun head or mouth hand pretend pulling trigger anymore remember little younger used go sleep making prayer eastern orthodox pray god kill end life listing thoughts feels little disjointed apologise wish could normal wish hate existence being body stupid ugly fucking face wish could look people eye talk them wish could talk people wish could talk girls wish could feel not lonely done research things brings back started it head get head useless combatchallenge negative thoughts read that kind liked brought full circle know stuff helping social redflag stuff people say talk people talk strangers even shallow talk etc get easier sure maybe might want try man fucking sick strive average instead being average want try want kill bother give up reading message might bit smug say then it nothing stopping you it going another statistic really think care another statistic gun would already killed lmao would probably dead pool couch fucking know listening radiohead writing things putting good album feels right wrap here fuck people cocky people arrogant become overconfident want shit man surely better every thought brain either plea suicide neutral thought manifests negative one anyways think smug retarded essay comment guys think something know block text go unnoticed even advice dunno totally given yet thanks guys self esteem kind listing things get chest,1 +hereby declare spilling water ground leaving people step crime punishable death,0 +uw catfish pedo talk her chatting like normal got really sexual asked send pic see catfish blocked discord reddit tricked,0 +cant anything right moreno matter hard try matter say never anything right eyes others more im nothing failure through im lonely undeserving failure died months ago every time think things getting better end cursing things get much worse maybe deserve happy things get better end year im sticking around cant more everyone else leaving turning backs me may well same better way care anyway,1 +girl said voice sounds hot youre voice attractive,0 +old oldf im slowly losing way im sure live narcissists friends never let express myself could mental breakdown one life seems care try explain theres something wrong im angry reason built rage dont know why explaining im either belittled ignored bullied told need kick ass one really treats care compassion yet everyday every time tell friends whats going vent im snapped told move house want financially cant ive homeless crashed couches fun im trying go back path alcohol substance abuse day day gets difficult family friends talk im really thinking giving up,1 +im deeply unhappy changei going go entire life complacency never following goal relationship feel undeserving unwanted that point go best really shitty years,1 +found literal time capsule s theres thing called worldscomhttpsworldscom like mmo created back abandoned small playerbase like people whole thing updated since s theres original stuff created servers still running free places tad creepy think really cool virtual archive early internet times check sometime ya want,0 + electroconvulsive therapy procedures shock therapy transcranial magnetic stimulation sessions laterwish someone would story me absolutely hideous ugly atrocious redflag impulse decision mind made contemplating redflag years now tried overdosing redflag cop involuntarily admitted psych ward times longer able purchase firearm conformed barbaric nobly guaranteed method redflag longer friends lost best friend mental exhaustion girl crush friend zoned engaged im afterthought burden liability pathetic worthless virgin piece shit loser good anything purpose ive got reasons stay everyday day day ive building courage finally commit redflag via setting fire hanging myself perhaps ill livestream it hope closed casket one ever see ugly face again dont plan turning year,1 +need help guys know alzheimers,0 +im tiredim mentally tired ive depressed long remember live alcoholic parents neglected fucked up im almost im fucking loser im college graduate living parents basement apply job job job one calls debt keeps building cant even begin fix mental health im still living initially broken im tired im tired venting friends im tired applying jobs going interviews hear nothing back im antidepressants think actually make feel worse im fat disgusting im always broke literally one thing life happy besides friends pets deserve better me wish would go sleep never wake up,1 +dark chocolate redeeming qualities it think made crap went removed natural sugar already there even bittersweet bitter makes wanna die,0 +saw comment youtube said circuit minecraft speedrunner trans someone clarify need know whos dumb one,0 +im spamming survey forgot make public could take survey metal music makes feel school would appreciate it httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlschctyqz_zinfyrhmqxhraiasotjzl_xpcgzwctptjgviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlschctyqz_zinfyrhmqxhraiasotjzl_xpcgzwctptjgviewformuspsf_link,0 +read time guesshi need anyone read maybe leave comment feel fucking alone whole life shit show abusive father drugs lived poverty entire childhood live extremely small town small bores me feel stuck also dont enough money move anything big mothers side family doesnt speak me neither fathers really nobody except siblings mother recently ive lost friends girl ive loved years doesnt want me im idiot trying take ged classes currently struggle basic math reason left high school depressed anxious everyday couldnt it ive like since elementary everyone nice life except feels like would nice go buy something eat something without worrying money ive depressed long im tired battle dont know do im terrified death hurting mother siblings sometimes urges reach nightstand take whole bottle pills digs me past week especially embarrassing self harm too ps diagnosed borderline personality disorder feel like loser wish could different life even better never born bit messed post much correct grammar probably late want kill lol im also sick telling people feel getting told go sleep think something positive hurts much try hard live getting difficult anyways let know thinking sorry,1 +anyone success redflag lines i haventi get sick seeing redflag hotlines linked everywhere redflag mentioned help anyone ive tried times people bored apathetic unknowledgeable reduced um yeah um dont know um cant say seemed want know immediate as night plan redflag said didnt i dont want involuntarily committed one said do said ok need wrap up like talking dumber version myself so anyone speak someone said anything useful know anyone positive experience redflag helplines dont know people volunteer really dont care anything mental health closest caring ive gotten bored guy saying yeah see sucks id like call see ones spoke representative sample would wasting time someone might helped them id love hear experiences others good bad isnt relevant topic anyones curious im suicidal due chronic widespread pain finding nearly impossible work without anyone catching crying fire people crying public plus doctors want treat depression thats due pain source pain ssris tylenol recommendations tylenol weak bad liver ssris nothing make fat i keep food diary show meds arent making eat show doctorsive tried years plus tricyclics aleve seems help most barely works,1 +cant take anymoreim burden everyone im around everyone thinks im lazy im much pain cant walk time doctor thinks im hypochondriac even evidence im making up want keep job every time get one break fire it life isnt good portray everyone cant anymore cat needs me hisses growls attacks anyone isnt dont know much longer hold her need everything stop,1 +day endgame script till get gf okay good tip bow arm three fingers clint barton,0 +one daytired life ive nothing abuse happen wanna live like anymore may today tomorrow someday feel peace,1 +ultimate ninja warrior httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxxvocdsampab_channeldevelopedpondhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxxvocdsampab_channeldevelopedpond,0 +absolutely loved movie great realistic looking combat footage one thing touching genuine story also calm understated manner lead character franta makes likable human relationships story seemed typical possible could expect war time bond franta carel shows loyalty wartime comrades often described books interviews veterans subtitles detract story actually serve underline problems czech pilots raf postwar storyline great reminder many suffering ww end especially russian occupied countries cinematography also good wish could seen big screen,0 +dad wants start youtube channel carpentry saw videos carpentry basically like couldnt make videos good theres try think could hes like years suggested making videos tool safety hes teaching like years like people better ever could try think could make really good informative videos tool safety,0 +pm pls im bored rn jdjhdhjdjdjsjjsjsoskkajshsiskbdhdhdjejejjejdjskskksksksksjsjsjjsjejejejejjeoskskskkskskisokajapkdgdoek,0 +trying hard distance friend strong feelings him hard feel horrible right now says whenever want hang let know want tell really wish could instead typing here hopefully keep saying anything doubt it never good enough pathetic,1 +nothing personalgood evening reddit im typically never site much though things started spiraling downward recent i apologize advance cohesive speaking mind tldr end something please feel like caused it entirely selfishness ive thinking recent panic attacks getting worse worse meds helping access therapy moment feel like im letting people around me little bit context turned back march im military users military im sure familiar tough love love shop theyre family nothing support betterment myself marine person though theyre also brutally honest comes criticism genuinely respect everyone truly dont want feel guilty anything myself want state now now moving that lot personal issues affecting outside work past couple days could think nice must die qualms anyone loving significant other people closer family me good head shoulders though seems though let everyone down ive recently diagnosed manic depression currently taking citalopram combat this well needing speak cardiologist feared may issue heart ive never one give personal issues feel though beginning affect work performance maybe pride telling never let people suffer faulters hate feeling though id nuisance ones around me know avenues support try help current state society response covid lot pressing issues seek support put hold things getting worse dont much opportunity get better again last thing want people around feel responsible actions may take want die fear forgotten im scared death everything know come end one point another matter when life meaning try make impact people positive way want people happy purpose life though feel like im succeeding ways im sure ever again hate letting people down feel like failure im giving weakness truly vicious cycle dont want let anymore guys wanted dependable lead example feel like succeeded wanted make impact lives feel like did know bad blood anyone everyone stuck necks help get times love family wish could more help support motivate achieve happiness dont feel obtain something myself please know nothing personal wronged me forgive forget life race everyone decide sprint marathon,1 +psych wards worse prisonwhen emergency psych ward never knew gonna get out terrifying life outside suddenly hold chance explain anyone not anyone cares came learn maybe shouldnt cared didnt value life meant would even less control it utensils gave spoons plastic knives forks dangerous locks bathrooms people walking shit time mirrors trapped knowing leave scary trapped even given chance end life yourself,1 +ok first all ignore last person review admit falling asleep wonder understand going on thrillerhorrors go film aint bad certainly watchable right opening scenes get general idea exactly going cause craziness follows come end proved right everything made clearbr br i enjoyed movie quite eerie times old films go passable great watch late night give generous ,0 +abandoned people called friends know right thing wanted say mean stuff said you mean it thought makeng hate would easier hope great best fun like remember love bb drunk none see anyway,1 +lets start review notredflag note glad decide wimp tony shot retrospective season like people rumoring actually creator writer episode david chase quite opposite actually know tony live die hes coma chances recovering slim none episode seemed move slow coma induced dream tony involving mistaken identity robed asian monks slapping sht absolutely flatout weird minutes got little sick everyone grieving shouldn reason slam episode weird unpredictable episode still wellwritten intense edie falco gave astounding careerdefining performance episode conflicted wife face husbands couldbe demise also found interesting aj dropped school swore vendetta junior aj likely balls pull off silvio actingboss opens numerous doors problems later episodes lot great quips episode also think vito polesmoker spadafore may meet demise keeps greedy sobbr br this great episode disappointed even though tony kills people audience adore feel hero show necessary episode series even though little snore inducing towards conclusion kudos edie falcos performance david chase writers creating wholly original unpredictable plot twist season the sopranos fcking clue going go cant wait next weeks episode rating br br best line episode paulie aj lets go van helsing,0 +im giving uptoday woman call mother said waste life cant take anymore,1 +we cuddled minecraft bed,0 +someone cant get helpi friend female hispanic ive worried year alternates frequently depressed cheerful cutesy demeanor slightly overweight constantly overly worried appearance starving month eating perhaps one meal day family extremely unsupportive tells ugly childish stupid looks me suppose male try encourage much possible really great friend hate see stuck low selfesteem depression last night cut arms i believe first time ever leaving lot marks deep overly hazardous health another step towards suicidal behavior ive friends past year take lives ill anything power help her ive tried get see professional parents say exaggerating take see anyone really know help,1 +wierd adult friends ok im mom works salon meets lot different people well one clients big video game nerd me mom got together started playing games well im going house playing games him wierd,0 +thought todaya lot dog extra cuddly hardly ever is havent sleeping much lately think adding feeling down today dog gets credit world shes keeping here ill seeing dr morning im emotional it hate admitting something wrong,1 +perfect man alive correct answer kim taehyung,0 +waited waited film come outthe trailers seemed years worth it im big fan watching films cant wait come buy big fan jim suited perfectly much see feel good factor scale perfect christmas think ron fab job turning film seen so have watch again know want to,0 +early film pilot hit canadian tv show trailer park boys played executives networks showcase decided sign tv series great acting funny cast make one best cult comedy films movie plot two small time criminals go around exterminating peoples pets money dog next door whos barking night guys go to get trouble come across job big deal end shootout watch movie want understand beginning tv series highly recommend itbr br rated r swearing violence drug usebr br its offensive either they dont actually show killing animals,0 +good film funny yet film good ernest films,0 +im jealous boyfriend hes attractive looks good even someone takes picture without knowing im literally jealous umm im like wish attractive im girl and anyways thats,0 +unsent letter online friend ive gotten use burning feeling settles throat holding back tears time together warped thoughts maybe im hopeless maybe cant let go mistaken last conversation happening much later actually had hit looked back thought talking pity clear now quite understandable wish would given goodbye would hurt less know considered relationship thanks sticking around long did champ ill always consider dear friend,0 +life seem bit pointless anyone else rantive felt suicidal long remember managed keep lid past year since ive busy school personal issues yesterday friends and people love most told want nothing me reason it either love life also confessed loving back drunken mind reject explore university stay tied greatest days lives turned bad wont talk much anymore ive thinking redflag night wrote note relapsed bit listened sad songs read inspiring article commit redflag started realise matter on everything nothing become best profession become rich marry love life meet best friends great life eventually ill die will suffer next years mean nothing end anyway nothing means anything one day one remember life everything gave shit about everything slaved over everything worked hard for gone forever whats point anymore im probably going kill tonight im afraid afterlife go process hanging myself options right now sucks feel pain wash entire body every time press another button keyboard remember life meaningless still cant anything it damn,1 +think im going end life todaytoday day think cant take anymore week lost one true love adoptive family three best friends second home molested cousin raped girl school physically mentally abused father last year sexually assaulted raped another girl yet none felt worse this start happened week girlfriend interested threesome girl whom one best friends love years though never felt same convinced her grew attached protective her friends hung stayed us second home trying thing her knowing uncomfortable made us response decision decided make girlfriend would stop succeeded us wanted us again neither us kind feelings towards her neither us could break like that think much it constant problem one us would get upset angry thinking intentionally giving person attention other one night one two friends years older stayed house got intoxicated sat couch talked one morning trying get girlfriends third person dump best friend user meth addict sees people ways get sex it makes sense least three girls come saying raped them tried raping them also tried forcing onto school one point using best friend age consent sex house stay homeless days ago tried telling love girlfriend said one believed me calling liar saying wanted start things kicked house night walked home rain miles dark them one friend want said audacity tell love around supposedly call bitch say hate her wish dead never said wished things breaks heart even thinking it believed night thought trying start problems everyone left me asked would me responded threats harming me killing me afterwards went told adoptive mother who diagnosed heart diseases problems allowed back wanted start problems handle stress anyways agreed to never able see adoptive mother dies likely lost one true love love care anything else lost adoptive father uncle aunt brothers sister nephew best friends user want stop using people think handle this im sorry post complete shitfest cant think breathe cease crying thoughts pointing killing right now,1 +people always say theyre arentjust dont say youre going leave read even look message least send crisis hotline number leave misery really helpful polite thing do implied going kill days ago two people checked see fine left immediately after kind sad think gone besides parents two people might possibly feel obligated care it sad kind wanted people care know even im dead wont care one really care besides maybe strangers internet telling it want cry doesnt work everyone says im funny like conversations boring without dont mean it value theyd respond even saying im sorry happened you nothing tried normal ive tried histrionic cries help even could get people pretend care life clearly value death impact group atoms earth second gone next ive got one person talks dont breakdown dont want ruin christmas negativity every single night find wanting cry ive tried putting trauma paranoia behind me fiends online talk surface level stuff dont complain messages arent dry that surface level entire life crisis dont need hotline although nice send anyway people think care need friend goes well end complaining lonely am could never really get close people thought hated me didnt want get close people didnt want death drama affect them im alone,1 +drank drinks feel great little less sad maybe even brave enough finish job tonight knows going drink really like vodka drunk brave,1 +hiya people mental slump latelynothing externally redflagful happened thinking wanted lately life collegeand hits me want anythingi want anything know want career ill go want generallyto live life without motivation full mediocrity feels completely pointless keep going existingi want stay girlfriend want family friends mourn deathbut me feel like ill get anything meaningful continuing state either change something cut shortbut already tried change trying change trying reduce unhealthy habits take newer healthier ones motivation even commit themi know ill figure out least tell feel worsebut really figure out really change better know answers questionsplease future me please tell okay confuzzled,1 +help analyzing instagram world record egg english help saw memes english teachers analyzing everything jesus something else let meme meme world come months horror,0 +feeling really latelymy depression escalated extreme used consider person family loved ones would leave behind theres much guilt built started care anymore last night seconds asphyxiating minute argument myself convinced game moment cease exist everyone else would too end stopped self harmed instead needed release another night coming im afraid might edge again ive already given sister belts know might get extra creative desperate tonight anyone relate,1 +open suicidal thoughts school advice pleasei need advice ive school couple weeks feel terrible ive sick got bad infection im currently using medication right mental health biggest issue feel worthless like killing making wanna leave room anymore school worried absent much called dad today asked could visit tomorrow dont mind visiting me im kinda nervous talk gonna have know mental health crap dont know bad neither psychologist ive told dad suicidal thoughts last year hasnt told school anyone else tell school it people visiting trusted people school know would safe hands dont know honestly guys think,1 +cant anymore one last goodbyei cant like anymore pretend im normal go work work like everybody else theres everlasting sadness inside me days worse still put shell towards people worry smile laugh crack jokes get home break down crying smashing things punching wall know do get overwhelmed hopelessness wish something could do ive tried long last time knot untied time made sure nice tight guess goodbye im sorry times let near down im sorry normal im sorry giving easily im sorry cant take anymore goodbye thanks everything,1 +alrightim living dream job years get travel see kinds amazing things im active adventure whenever want amazing friends much love life yet think killing throughout day every day cant control it ideas creep leave know feel lately sometimes hate fing hard insane cant figure out thought good thing going ready grow want revert earth feel lost sad alone heart want painful lately pray wake sleep reason want actually diekill believe life worth living get better cannot bare pain would bring family friends im miserable think quitting job what shitty job way love cant wake enough give shit it,1 +year fucking sucks get better heres hair started january st im excited new decade told im going lose weight pandemic white cops murder black man people rioting august building exploded november pedophile became president put cherry top theyre still pandemic thousands hundreds people died people saying better coronavirus still going go on were lucky world war going happen next year lets pray god happen two cats died year yeah bad thing happened also aint going covid vaccine science going mess up think going better may well stop hoping cuz going get worse,0 +hear argument personnel experience good keep mind lot things differ place place also hear people out let give evidence give argument ill back minutes,0 +ever huge crush celebrity younger older still find attractive longer crush fantasies want support fan,0 +tw disordered eatingsuicidal ideation know lost motivation anything either eating much little constipated fuck tired slept hours even motivation cook anything order shit apartment live in poor cannot hold job month without redflages building break down makes feel like acting like entitled piece shit making excuses work something tried approach sucking redflag hoping disappear work like that parent pressured move screaming constantly telling ill never amount anything life toxic judged every move never really felt good enough think killing much effort tried therapy work tried medical marijuana developed scary hallucinations know life existing likely end street likely become drug addict nothing bother people thinking running away literally much want here feel worthless,1 +think survive planeti cant stop reminiscing past happy penniless family ignorant hot tempered parents slightest physically mentally prepared children im proud indoctrinated muslim either still tried keep chin up finished high school got degree tried get job time invest passion tried oh believe me tried ass trying achieve success alas went backfired needbeing broke useless hopeless nobody giving shit you im breaking point already im done hope family able move lives without me,1 +attention epic gamers need help defeat big bad evil monki request account twittercom vote pezlord this httpstwittercomsmollfryesstatuss election basically friends holding election need help get pez pres could make post show art made cause would thank reading remember thats post shiiiiiiittpost,0 +know longer it used call survivor know one know times running mei really know muchbut would enough time know cheat death long gets good entire life one day would get hook crookone way anotheri still holding trying cannot stop hiding forever know losing game like always time would permanent check mate called game lifethis would probably last failurei know writing makes selfish lot waysbut know do know end postso also would remain incomplete edited used call survivor know one,1 +afraid anything everything time afraid happened may happen afraid world earth skies stars aliens humans animals whatever fucking bullshit thought occurred head makes skin crawl afraid might become afraid might go crazy fight might become boring normal average weird fucking hippie fucking stupid hardheaded person,1 +honestly got reason end itlike genuinely cant think reason keep living like everything joke things keep getting worse prop come incely tough rly meant to basecly hate appearance looks cant anything it like guess im obsessed looks tbh see wrong yea pretty bad looks keeps getting worse gf cant get one think ever can mainly look think thats fair say too got friends social circle also got social anxiety like get uncomfortable around big groups people even tiny group people around age got several issues also link apperance got incurable permanent hair condition mild infection causes hairloss even maybe bleeding scalp gets severe got horrible posture possibly mild scoliosis got odd issue im outside theres sun im constantly close sneezing resist annoying relation looks also kinda got eating disorder sense ive barely ever eaten breakfast lunch last years also get rly uncomfortable eating among people also caused extra short besides allready so cant help get mad dad genes wich got me realize sounds rly incely is part incel community left months ago condone ideas mindsets said believe blackpill essentially everything feels like big joke im rly bothering anymore also dislike job im studying guess im pretty pessimistic cant rly help it im trying edgy anything legit see reason keep living got meaning friends gf dreams things seeming improve,1 +got perfect nutrigrain bar guys arent gonna believe opened one packages crumbs bars super dense crumbs came off beautiful,0 +really want someone tell me even lie im feeling validive depression long time dont feel like ever speak mind even wanted to dont know explain going fucked head whenever anything goes slightly wrong react freak fuck out everyone tired me worn trying help fault ive ruined families lives selfish prick ive talked many therapists current one great never feel like im making progress mostly dont care enough try things tells me ive left behind many people screwed alienating people used get along with sit along home everyday afraid speak mind cowardly ask help feel like one around believes im badly off theyve given trying reddit place turn dont know fuck even would cowardly scared anything it im selfish piece shit,1 +picked dvd watched again love bright colors vs dark imagery big beatty fan excellent popcorn movie pacino astounding always well movie marked period madonna absolute sexiest wish stuck breathless look longer charlie korsmos first really big role what bob makeup effects cutting edge still hold part beautiful scenery mood transport directly comic strip environment cars wardrobe buildings even streetlights et great tone mention perfect lighting although scenes lot red get tad annoying tends blur little wish beatty gotten chance make sequel all fun hours,0 +feeling truly awful hate me hate world is hate everyone world ugh,0 +think way friend said first thing thought heard title midnight cowboy gay porno point known reference made seinfeld episode jerry trying get kramer florida bus kramers sick nosebleedbr br the movie great surprisingly upbeat pissy pretentious pessimistic like movies cant even remember theyre crapbr br the plot basically consisted naive young cowboy joe buck going new york trying hustler a male prostitute basically thinking itll easy pickings hit brick wall hard woman ends hustling him charging sexual encounterbr br then meets enrico salvatore rizzo called ratso everyone cute gay guys make fun time think scoundrel lovable one like han solo lando calrissian surprisingly joe become friends movie sweet heartwarming watching friendlier such rizzo reveals actually sad pitiable man whos sick depressed selfconscious hates called ratso wants go florida thinks life much better problems resolved hell learn cook famous therebr br its heartwarming watching joe get florida along many hilarious moments like ratso trying steal food hippie party getting caught woman says gee well know free steal it says well free aint stealin it classic moment completely unscripted unscheduled hoffman almost gets hit taxi screams hey im walkin here im walkin here acting believable never believe joe buck would grow distinguished respected actor jon voight ratso rizzo would grow legendary beloved dustin hoffman first time theyve worked together lead roles chemistry thick intensebr br then theres sad part believe quite overstatement call depressing ratso rizzo falling apart throughout movie barely walk barely eat coughs lot sick reaches headpoint bus way florida hes hurting badly miles away miami finally dies bus bus driver reassures everyone nothings wrong continues on sad kind way thatd make go home cry mope around miserably though lost dog yearsbr br all all great movie soundtrack pretty much consists everybodys talking played throughout movie appropriate times odd move great one song good fits tone movie perfectly go see it great go buy,0 +im diagnosed ocd couple years ive suspected ocd want visit psychiatrist kinda went it days ago finally decided visit psychaitrist appointment today yeah ocd take antidepressants yaaaaayy,0 +hopelessive reddit year ive commented never posted struggle depression panic attacks last night wife got upset cat hissed her threatened let go play street we live busy road got upset told messed say went got couch slammed door went go bedroom try fix everything thought locked door pushing closed opened slammed hand told crazy leave everyone life abandoned girlfriends friends dad years old cant handle another one wife leaves nothing else want live for life disappointment dissapointment divorce fathers redflag truly think world would better without me wanted post someone would know felt im new town friends job reason keep going thank yall listening me,1 +aw deleted account guy asked nudes deleted account gonna see posts him ,0 +long time since original quite funny black comedy surfaced eating raoul top list favor find undertaking betty immediately subject death funny attempted see paul bartel mary woronov mortuary academy movie brilliant moments black comedy undertaking betty much steady better cast could imagine undertaking business might fertile ground original uplifting heartfelt comedy surprised too highly recommend seeing undertaking betty merk,0 +seen film many years ago made lasting impression me alas hardened many films years expect impressed kalifornia upon watching recently pleased say every bit unnerving watchable ten years agobr br there two things really give movie power first cast staggeringly disturbing turn young brad pitt early grace knowing pitt do one enduring heartthrobs hollywood ever had refreshing see play vile unattractive character pitt pulls show without resorting whitetrash clich parody manages remain genuinely terrifying throughout moviebr br juliette lewis equally impressive graces tragic girlfriend playing character like ten year old girl forty year olds life experience lewis manages evoke pity for characters station life well contempt for naivety underpins performance kind subtlety rarely seen actor young personally think tragedy neither pitt lewis nominated awards performances herebr br david duchovony michelle forbes perfectly cast yuppy couple unwittingly end travelling across us pitt lewis duchovony aptly geeky naive forbes seems emphatically cynical shutoff actors manage convincingly portray characters changes equally intrigued repulsed strangely attracted pittbr br the fine casting uniformly brilliant acting aside film really grabs us proverbial balls flawless pacing time kalifornia released hollywood releasing slew nicecharacterturnsouttobepsychotic movies single white female pacific heights the hand rocks cradle deceived sleeping enemy etc movies followed formula variation nature relationship good guy bad guy kalifornia really stray far territory first two acts perfect example slowboil thriller kept edge seats waiting tide turnbr br when penny drop pitt let loose play maniacal bad guy film shifts gears completely last twenty minutes quite live rest movie said action thick fast resolution suitable cold fight over scars always therebr br much narration provided somewhat whiny pre xfiles duchovony tad contrived course meant book duchovonys journalist character written one could argue selfconscious narration meant nod kind sensationalised style journalists writebr br the film largely success certainly cut thrillers past twenty years highly recommended weak stomach mind film disturbing one level then meant be,0 +honestly really point staythey say redflag permanent solution temporary problem thats really true it life permanency us know thing want really end me everyone else keep living fuck it wanna live see anyways,1 +bad day now havent felt happy now year ago time depressed suicidal im afraid would happen again thing feel lonely dont know im wrong dating game fucked social life too guess im averagely attractive funny guy im pretty smart workout dont know else im supposed feel devoid empty,0 +anyone new wanna chat finish math test im bored depressed tired trifecta dm comment chat little while,0 +im lonely dont want die sometimes feel like disappearing since im uselessanyone else feel same feel friendless,1 +fucked need help apologizing someone deserve good apology overthinking much right sent yet need fucking it ghosted friend almost year still text sometimes please someone help apology already wrote need help apologizing,1 +ive hoping die naturally years nowits small things like wearing seat belt behaving really recklessly cant bring actually it im scared surviving living consequences im young poor afford assisted redflag country allows it gets nervous go places steep edges reckless vain attempts slip fall people around demonize redflag much dont want anyone know it want die naturally hope fatal car wreck im driving alone maybe one days alcohol poisoning job me want try starving people think anorexia im male livemy family would call fag hope die soon,1 +need someone vent toplease please talk me need vent,1 +dead endi feel life cant get better everything feels like reached dead end kill self end all,1 +hi hi hi hi youre nice interesting lets talk im bored wanna talk people pls talk meeeeee,0 +teenagers hands type keyboard born without hands method typing keyboard leave comment below,0 +cant see mail three awards ive gotten tyy lt,0 +want become anything want anything want work hard want go school want get job want live family want achieve anything nothing prove anything anyone live particularly like existing much want exist dreams goals aspirations nothing,1 +hey guys im bored thougt would nice chat someone hit up dms open lol,0 +regressingthe day lose battle day finally decide it way return time decide unannounced like choice use resolve kill amount psychiatric help medication reverse decision lose battle lose battle nothing change mind point demons won retain hopeful optimism consumed cynical nihilism this regress defense today day lose battle im gonna go use again,1 +know became person recognize all know old went want happy again trying hardest so know became cold hearted care anyone gone one day without smoking weed way feel happy smoking became problem outlet way making happy things make happy question problem everyone life even said so know got point eat anymore hardly care appearance anything general know committed suicide yet unhappy life anything do make better trying emotionally physically try happy try things make happy temporarily last ill ever temporarily happy gone know change tried everything could outgoing push outside comfort square yet work know anymore someone one recognizes someone hardly recognize one way another know ever going get better probably end committing suicide like actually want die want live like anymore even recognize anymore,1 +baby brother murdered brutally last year still cannot believe happened hits like tsunami loved anyone ever loved star amazing big sister struggled suicidal thoughts ever since hand full life always smile face brother suffered serious illness never got spirits down life wished illness instead loved life not every time suicidal thought would think sad baby brother would be could bear thought hurting him wish one men took day here cannot imagine live life without him cannot believe life now little brother murdered cannot stop thinking died instead,1 + hours ill getting covid vaccine miss covid shit,0 +okay im bored,0 +feeling extremely extremely ready today sitting floor sobbing redflag flashback yesterday friends left me already terrifying abandonment trauma top it made spiral today called childhood best friend close years now basically said told fault want move back city access better people better friendsthen reached second best friend known around years even lived one point asked could come crisis think alone right now response girlfriend went tubing tired told brother suicidal weeks ago really needed support told hes busy working give years buy house even bills right now still lives apartment foster care could easily request less hours since voluntarily picks upevery single friend interacted knows redflag majorly depressed three know suicidallmao everyone says kill reach talk someone do get blown offlike talk nobody actually cares people scoff act like must someone no literally nobody parents brother family friends give shit literally cats thing keeping everyone always tells reach someone suicidal reach people want deal you,1 +plssss advice shit needed sothere girl friend groupshe nice frankly quite hotlately find obviously tries stand sit next me talking something said wants make ex jealousso said randomly walks hugs something play along low key shooting signs something,0 +feeling way talk mehi im little frazzled right now so forgive typos poor grammar final fight girl together year broke months gave second chance im notbiological father month yo little girl theres kid im much love legal standing ever see again now ex emotionally abusive two goarounds her im broken ill probably never get see daughter again im seeing much reason continue do,1 +found hard like anyone film central characters lindy michael chamberlain whose daughter disappears night australian outback bad people surely all even most scores people see throughout movie would bad knew better though sure film wants us guilt innocence chamberlains start lifes tragic disarray film takes less sociological perspective pertaining gossip news media crowds mobs assumptions movie degenerate society australia particular merely account true story happened there society en masse much less evolved individual feels ensured arebr br when warden insists upon killing aborigines dogs unverified action single wild dog randomly ruined life spins even control owing majority magazines newspapers tv programs distorts tragic truth level drama provokes consumers frenzy sign empathy even kind looking outside ones unaware perceptions influenced left right vigorous hearsay vibes surround ones life reason appreciate film turns focus inside out victims massesbr br the evidence lindy chamberlain aside suspicion jetfueled mostly virtue hers public eye seem sufficiently distraught death baby daughter able keep cool even sort aloofness let alone holding head up tv press much downward spiral couldve prevented behaved publics liking media meryl streep one of the greatest actress working today may give performance particularly stands out frankly neither actor department filmmaking she screenwriters understand lindy infuriating difficult apparently naturally prone showing emotion public case whether approachable lovable character immediate sense naturally prone sympathize situationbr br whether performance immediately gratifying sophies choice devil wears prada angels america work triumph difficult enrapture audience purposely deny insights yourself frustrates us know thinking feeling took awhile feel endeared toward her movies way suggesting reaction publics attentionbr br she married pastor practice religion small minority thus misinterpreted most initially react loss reconciling gods will kickstarting rumor mill generating notion daughters death sort ritual killing part whatever happened little girl parents part margin medias intake immediately identify first inclination go like pack hungrywellbr br meryl streep sam neill constantly screen australian public plays real leads here like punctuation plot advance director fred schepisi cuts away restaurant tennis court dinner party saloon office public tries lindy gets carried away passionate projectionsbr br this golanglobus docudrama particularly memorable settings atmosphere give pleasurable enough compensation fact performance facet production stands out successful indictment collective conscious public,0 +slice wrists againjust took mg xanax im third strong drink see happens want ketamine infusions might safe life entire savings would gone week trial probably fail im ending soon may alwad say that mean it fuck,1 +helpits much insecurity anxiety handle think im really commit redflag,1 +everyone found reason stayhold tight us lucky,1 +someone please tell difference iphone cant bothered watch minute video seconds original content,0 +ever feel really lonely nowhere,0 +looking forward killing myselfi lost money gambling bit left im going try work things ex work first loose ends tie up weeks im ready ive planned method im going fun gambling last bit money become rich blow ill kill myself one little thing look forward to,1 +rate finnish edgar allen poe inspired poem english class write poem parrot thats similar the raven edgar allen poe idk finnish it i need stanzas lines each stanza upon lofty journey pirate sick scurvy led crew poorest goons lost gold thier doubloons captain lay sleeping slacking awakened creaking cracking men entered cabin assumed attacker heard polly wants cracker stanza saw prized parrot perched proudly upon privates shoulder promptly fed bird polly hunger captain returned slumber dreamt something absurd imagined island full treasure riches crew gather filled chests britches pockets grew fatter fatter captains displeasure awoke more familiar sound fluttering feather heard polly wants cracker stanza fed bird again hoping interruptions would cease polly squawked give one piece pirate gave birds command hoping would quickly find land low food night time coming soon captains eyes grew heavy sky became blacker heard polly wants cracker,0 +feels like ill never breathe againi cant get head even understand flashbacks happen cant get shame humiliation enough get proper help cant anymore,1 +im tired everything seriously considering end allso lately ive feeling really everything something ive dealt long time unbearable im pathetic year old loser basically future friends nothing care anything anymore spend nights crying help,1 +prevention advice neededi go cycles feeling depressed feeling amazing currently feel slipping depression thats deeper usual im worried im going something regret death taking head space anyone advice stop acting impulsively thoughts thank,1 +another country right at grandmas everyone mean two three cousins currently mean ignore call names reason feel bad every year leave grandma like me depressed feel bad tell this bad reactions past miss mom things hide her too found getting apartment and subsequently let street want soil mood disorder fucking ruined life last night got super emotional cried with breaks hours cousin walked me practically begging answer could say anything feel like cares hes nice go back us crying right now cousin room even fucking care hes phone never felt useless love planning things much look forward to real interests writing excited get book book super realistic character lost motivation now really want rent apartment adult live life company want four kids luxuries prayed for cannot stop crying,1 +im mistakeim scared write need someone know im gay kid saudi arabia place lgbtq ppl accepted punishedby death im scared family ive isolated everyone cause im terrified theyll know spent life bullied cause ppl kinda tell made develop social anxiety depression feels like im carrying heavy weight cant anymore wanna let go two years hardest far depression bad point im going school general health shit i one im alone scared everyone around happy fun except me get something choice this way live im fucking tired wanna love feel loved much ask for find thinking letting go im searching reasons maybe cry help,1 +bruh physics exam tomorrow started studying today teacher says hardest one year also first one idk anything cant learn formulas shit im scared anxiety clouds monster cant pull nighter get f chat also cant copy bc class itd obvious,0 +utilitarian perspective kill myselflegitimately think everyone know school dislikes me barely tolerate me hate presence i cant exactly avoid them idea about died tonight might bit sad and think like either might even happy although im sure theyd get weeks close friends way closest friend barely interact with perhaps scale hours week deactivated account facebook week ago days study business test came back post likes happy everyone see gone thats depressing im negative effect everyone know everyone tells me though maybe stop negative effect everyone stop pissing people off fuck know that spent life interacting normal people idea piss people off solution think of point stop interacting anyone whatsoever would basically involve cutting world would pretty shitty need socially interact making life even worse already is family possibly people might sad yet feel like im one main causes parents fighting eg shitty marks supporting financially dying would help relationship future im close brother although might sad die im depressed really hate annoying everyone else first reason im still alive ive always something do finish book tv show game yet now nothing rest life do vague indefinable concept involve probably getting job due lack social skills living streets homeless reason im alive im selfish person despite fact killing would create net happiness increase amongst humanity since people know would relieved gone bugging them still done fear death still take least happiness life value happiness others even live admit im selfish hate others enough inflict them charitable act could would killing myself stop happy killing would give higher net happiness letting life continue would let acquire probably im lazy acquire materials,1 +penis penis banned penis banned cannot eat penis anymore,0 +sometimes really consider deleting social media accounts isolating everyonemaybe people could forget feel selfish awful killing though somehow doubt anyone would really notice care matter anyways,1 +honestly feel like good idea thing starting discord teenage dating must submit pictures first verify theyre teenagers feel like could enforce being teenager thing would success,0 +night listener better people generally saying weaknesses seems genre identity crisis doubt think creepy atmosphere intriguing performances make this whole thing feels like one fireside this happened friend friend mine ghost stories one big complaint movie pacing slow sometimes awkward pacing deliberate everything unfolds movie kept well within realm possibility real life sort plods alongno flashy endings earthshattering revelations showdown scenes thank heaven get zone watching movie forget reservations expectations makes conventionallygood movie williams terrific easily meets needs story plus character supposed somewhat generic no one everyman avatar enter story toni collettes performance nominated oscar even maybe win it give shot quality content alone night listener surely top twenty percent movies coming days,0 +la bebesita bebelin bebe whisky fuma marihuana tmbn se mete al picky la pelan estadounidenses,0 +itthis note guess right post im going end it knew may find this ive slogged long enough hell middle fucking apocalypse im surprised made far im finally tired suppose years living wrong body someone also adhd ton likely incurable mental illnesses too made one last huge push fix things year failed know anybody elses fault dont want funeral anything especially anything religious also name ray please dont use old one last all im sorry realize going put everyone know pain simply cannot anymore may hard impossible understand hope forgive ive done love all go peace,1 +stopped following therapist discovered experience treating depressed people hid fact specialized couples therapy me psychology intern volunteered help me dumped apparently condition complicated her two years antidepressants redflag meds antipsychotic meds antiepileptic meds months psychiatric ward guess what single improvement lol everyone spout your life worths living crap quits soon discovered many traumas bear fucking greedy world depriving joy making feel less human single friend never felt like relevant someone life piece garbage used walked on even family except mom still care me despises wishes born including dumb fatheri wish undo birth single happy memory help cope back square one,1 +read gay turning back now huh,0 +im ruined im completely ruined attracted women years older me reasons im ruined im mentioning them,0 +call man carrot head stew,0 +fyckkkkkkk im home alone homework fucking hear someone breathe behind me think im going crazy lol byeee,0 +toast heres future plans girlfriend right one world domination traveling across japan mates good time end sips martini,0 +idki want it ive got g paracetamol enough kill people let alone teen cant really want take one look pills feel uneasy think previous attempts really getting me cant it nothing left,1 +idea going back school weeks spiking anxiety given current state world right now understand united states set sending minors back buildings packed minors especially theyre even going right live missouri middle butt fuck nowhere promise high population mean cant cause outbreak mike parson mo gov piece shit literally bare minimum anybody common sense asking mandate masks cant even that nose far trumps ass completely complicit willing sacrifice children school even requiring masks implementing sort social distancing precautions no children immune covid watching world news said closer black children contract covid around hispanic children caucasian children children okay brother biracial black white scared death brother hospitalized asthma times count almost every time catches regular flu hes two weeks sometimes even turns pneumonia cant even begin describe uncomfortable idea friends family going used collateral damage damn near hundred sixty thousand families torn apart cant look past stock market two fucking seconds people stories families past week sixyearold passed georgia tennessee im sure plenty places children made orphans due virus dad heart patient cancer survivor mom sickle cell anemia recurring respiratory problems brother extremely bad asthma grandma one three teachers placed highrisk category governments job protect citizens instead used militia fight invisible enemy guys careful wear mask talk parents administrators unfortunately seems like mess hands now take care,0 +want die want exist whilei feel overwhelmed sadness hopelessness feel like cant keep graduate school work housework yearold really good throw tantrums scream part day husband also depressed moment cant talk fear making feel worse appointment therapist see new patients may st i made appointment month ago ive binge eating last week two hoping food fill emptiness want die want take break consciousness while,1 +forced send photos someone found site tell parents long story short black mailed man forced send lewd photos anything extremely nsfw mainly lewd faces took screens them put site months happened decided see posted anything took selfie myself reverse imaged found them want tell parents know im gonna disowned kicked do,0 +join whiteboard link saw someone else thought itd fun idea shitshow last time lmao good luck httpsrwhiteboardfoxcom,0 +happy scared math finals make board game math questions,0 +im fucking stressed cant seem relaxi already feel like piece shit knowing months ive unemployed ive gotten two interviews didnt get either jobs years kitchen year bar backing experience fast paced bar and ive freelance dog sittingwalking fucking years ask grandmother money asked what again calmly reiterated she one told get bar would pay everything shes going back offer now need find job im seriously even slightly holding well right now im fucking depressed piece shit havent able drag bed walk dog days seems mind much still need odin get groomed tomorrow nails clipped thats money bone chew im taking exam tomorrow disability center one exam today final paper due pm didnt even read book havent money buy any fucking libraries now totally pull final ass literally passion its deaf culture class im asl interpreting student theres like literally like online resources even give small synopsis book definitely work with im gonna hate since im super unprepared im piece shit person wants die,1 +every dayeveryday wake begging die dont even care anymore dying finally leaving reality hellish loop,1 +noteim hanging two seconds post everything thing go numb ill seize exist fuck joe fuck dumbass family fuck time wasted you fuck whole life,1 +furie illegal furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad furie bad,0 +link good yt videos istg get rickrolled,0 +redflag note intend publicize facebookdont ever cry it stop playing victim last night keep attacking me tell head tell everyone know better myself tell told me im less human tired say good morning im even unproven chemical imbalance im incompetent think myself im much burden continue putting with tell want leave here want go place far away forget exist tell put anymore ready kick curb misperceived slights tell fault definitely lie much cared tell everything myself second bother consider it went window second felt like center universe chocked villain want tell done fed up ive trying kill since fourteen despite overdoses despite psych wards treatment centers despite jumping bridge ruining back continued put paint victim mind business one always pushing edge again talk much getting rid me long tried think ive finally found way im victim victims find success suffering thats im do im free im motivated pushed forward goal ive long chased goal threw away future pursuit of thank finally helping realize alone misunderstood uncared truly am always knew outside world reason thought despite everything deep inside family different thank helping better realize much want dead like night told kill myself oh shell deny it shell lie teeth even longer sees culpable like always done like narcissist is know truth true feelings slipped up could see positives here thats sick seeing fail go it associates witness childhood friends theres nothing could done days im terrified friendship prison never wouldve let anyway always miles apart is ever even care know thinking whatever hes insane attention seeker wants everyone feel sorry him nobody cares get it comes time respect dead want remember thoughts sadness sudden empathy acted like cared felt hate anger want remember that care respect quit acting like ever did course im dreaming matters people look you wrong,1 +using sub diary day today quite chill stayed home moms birthday didnt much stayed home listen much got couple gift hmm yea stayed play video games mark word someone remind years said take mom dream vacation turns guys day anything interesting happened,0 +mind walking people really walk places back then loaned air authenticity period piece perspective technology martians disappointed effects particular thunderchild scene regard one exciting book cant praise film enough faithfulness wellss story time actors likable performances charming also film much worth seeing hear jamie halls truly great musical score interesting see actor play writer brother london,0 +ive got short survey plushies would really appreciate could take minute two day complete it share friends please httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlseqtauzb_adcynwmossnaozumbrfbjdgexmhkobhtnaviewformvcampcampwampflrampuspmail_form_link,0 +gas gas gas cause injurys covid havent run cross count meet two years healed practiced days able finish race today although wasnt fast able go without stopping wanted get im hyped it thanks reading great day sexy boi,0 +okay know start going pretty unorganised cannot completely express myself going end mind ig surei introvert antisocial athiest logical etc personality expected parents people around me always forcing change personality want explain hard rage know feel ig let want instead scolding everyday shouting wasting time force change personality understand want people neighbours judge lot going make life harder society wanted pretend enough always end getting teased extroverts want tell idgaf want talk you cannotmost times especially night sleep start reviewing day explain correct mistakes people around made stupidly wrong like correct even chance debate people always wrong comments always homophobic sexist illogical also sometimes generally misleading wrong even parents scold wrong reasons time explanation might change mind ends mindit home even school shy able answer anything justify end getting scolded reasons supposed tosome people might say speak mind hard it damn hard sure everytime take long breath talk end exhaling talk anything seriously forget words like blood instead rushing brain rushing legs arms asking flight fight times like cannot anything care move on night realise going affect life like that say get depressed everytime sure going struggle entire life end destroying opportunities imagine life would better lonely never relationship online friends another source depression things sorry repeating topics also interesting thank read idk sharing idc upvotes like explaining wrong people concepts myself makes somewhat happy ig but end depression bc going happen always ends mind,1 +film appears draw borderline one side love it other find unbearablebr br to begin with awful lot comedy film many viewers getting course jet lis mask looks like bruce lees kato hes supposed to joke guy timebomb sewn heart outrageous course joke readers probably ask film supposed funny excessive gory violence well one thing tolerance level violence actually different culture culture hong kong audiences would recognize violence extreme certainly slightly average hk action filmbr br also black mask really kind film takes genres conventions pushes extremes simply conventions wholly unrealistic decades watching people get shot without noticeable open wounds many people horrified see bonnie clyde outlaws wild bunch spurting blood place fact is shot rapid metal projectile almost certain blood spurt especially arterybr br this film chinese comic book movie true spiderman films never get gory faithful reality would be well despite comicbook origins film faithful realitybr br the complaint flashy overstylized filming editing makers film shot eye hollywoodstyle nostalgia as eg rocketeer recent sky captain film doubt anyone would found offensivebr br but stands still lotta fun watching movie,0 +playing tennis years around time spent trying hardest become pro league legends well destroyed right wrist need get surgery well need get want funciton normally want existi gotten rejections irl female friends friends known years actually trash talked behind back height uglinessi suck academically despite working a offwhat point live anymore scared end desire exist anymore,1 +think might finally get withtheres hardware store far me ive thought going finding thick rope also know instinct struggle kick in wish knew could take right relax work situation hopeless toxic completely alone world died apartment would probably take months anyone tried reach and ones would reach would landlord checking rent,1 +alonefirst year college hate introverted friends childhood friend decides ditch new group friends lost motivation feel lonely everyone someone hang with im myself im envious mad feel betrayed im alone cant see reason keep living really cant deal situation anymore,1 +cant life want dont desire livewell pretty straight forward post probably destroyed randoms whatever im unpassing trans person never life want which literally live life im made fun given weird stares judged daily basis crushing know regardless cant even pass getting surgeries try assist impossible far foreseeable future due fucking money ever living poverty since kicked this feel lost empty dont see transition even helped see still birth gender mirror crushes daily reason keep living ill always fucking hon freak bother trying advice fucking world ever gives find new friends ignore like doesnt fucking help children look fear everyone men women alike make comments stare treat like shit fair life think chose shit cant find point go die alone nothing left give world yeah thats guess,1 +edward cat feed hngrs internet points _ _ ,0 +wish deadeveryday get ready never finish it one day ill though know people care want continue on,1 +ive never sad before im really scared one else turn redditlook know sounds stupid fucking girl well life went shit mom died days later mom died always close side family barely graduated highschool plans go college lined up ended move state away personal reasons father never close per se used fight lot much anymore dont typical lets go play catch type relationship sort thing idk anyways ive lived life sad always trying fit in good friends lost moved seriously nobody anymore met girl last year really hit off moved together fell love kids everything going pretty great started arguing lot eventually accused cheating me im still sure occured not dumped january regretted it impulse barely remember it saw black tired everything didnt want take back ended getting back guy knew like years dated little while fucked over split started talking again met times sex times never went past that knew wanted back met another guy moved hours away dated while split recently started talking again initiated contact time came visit family came saw night two weeks ago stayed over laid held night couldnt even sleep couldnt believe back arms morning head back work hugged kissed her told wanted back looked like loved me told just give little time well talk lefti talked weekshed throw comments like well whatever happens cant move back state im in told idc id move mexico her finally asked thought everything told always love me shes sorry love me heart fucking broken ive spent last eight months trying hard get back thought time would girl makes happy love god damn much like shes here greatest time together like dont mean shit her shes girl makes happy cant forgive past mistakes didnt treat right confused life regret now much miss fucking bad sent long message tonight basically asking rethink things still feels same worry anymore im going delete facebook probably will wants friends ill never happy friends im starting finally realize never together again ill never hold night again ill neer tuck kids night again saddest ive ever life nothing going anymore dad still support me im years old idk anymore ive really thought redflag dont want die nothing anymore nothing dont even friends talk to help things really dont like life know shes going say no im going crushed dont wanna live anymore reddit fuck know im rambling one anymore,1 +well im bit pickle recently got gf first time couple weeks ago weve gotten see twice bc busy schedule strict dad meaning rlly gotten close texting well yesterday found best friend happens friend too happens one introduced us crush whole time gf feels extremely guilty told one friends feels guilty wants break up already talked friend supposedly crush seems fine nothing awkward us all get feels guilty abt rlly big deal breaking even solve anything bc im gonna date friend pity im like that rlly hope gets bc even kissed yet want break already something small thanks reading rant cant talk abt brother cuz hell call simp place get thoughts out,0 +talk meim gonna post mostly posted rdepression day added effect wanting miserable life end one annoying symptoms ive got right now really really would love die idk symptom depression anxiety whatever something wanna talk about always like think something makes feel someone happy feel like gives meaning really prominent like theres massive noticeable change mood im thinking it theres always something whether im thinking gym seeing gains whether job ive applied for im always thinking keep happy often not forget it weird literally think im trying remember actually is forget is feel completely lost like meaning right really cant think something thats giving meaning really pissing annoying me sorry walk text probably makes sense whatsoever heres hoping someone understands mean idk wanna die lol,1 +heard america get paper cut ambulance drivers instantly sense it kick door force gunpoint go hospital charge much money medical bills family bankrupt generations americans confirm deny this,0 +need die kill mei really cannot take anymore,1 +salt sandwiches opinions,0 +people get mad others cheat ive never relationship know never really got people get angry,0 +piece shit wanted remind piece shit wanted whole world see am thank stopping by,0 +want neon lights bad theyre expensive tho look cool,0 +contemplating everything going downhill getting worse day im best think positive take action fix stuff everything try fails takes lot calm work problems actions fail get even discouraged like constantly everything failing matter hard try im tipping point rn cant take much suffering even people around me cant keep suffering long cuz people care matter anymore change anything want end,1 +everything prepared done less hour left lifeall letters written written money transfered help want help good quality meter rope bought noose already made location chosen waiting everyone go sleep ill finally free goodbye,1 +think might need helpi dont know else go this im im newly minted lawyer corporate work past year this feel im cut profession screw lot work get yelled daily basis work hour days weekdays hours weekends wake every morning sense dread force bed every time get work email heart flutters panic want quit bad debts pay off also saving money go grad school im america law undergraduate degree im from feel like im qualified anything else practice law even though whats making miserable feel weak speak people everyone else know coworkers law school friends seems coping well work dont time friends family past months people ive spoken people work feel like complaining get decent paycheck feel completely worthless unmotivated anything now dont know improve work also find cant bring try more lie bed weekend mornings used rise early exercise meet friends sometimes skip meals tell dont deserve eat times im worrying much work dont appetite im also gay used think redflag teenager homosexual activity illegal here gay may cost job may grounds getting disbarred came friends family got support acceptance happy high school university days scares thoughts redflag coming back me familiar misery started creep back life thought ready happy dont know deal this feel like im cracking dont want to parents need right keep telling strong them im also exhausted would really like advice deal this thank you,1 +mind might racing bit kinda know whats wrong right now know make time take get fixedi depression anxiety im currently go trials medications trying figure works best taking one x going pretty well felt pretty good still much energy sleep off nurse practioners suggestion decided try another medication p thinking hey get even better plan p would like x would give get go coming x preparation start p mgx mg started going withdrawals felt really depressed crushing amounts unreasonable guilt body got adjusted mg x added first mg p feel good at one point wanted get hospital also period starting x feel good either tried power it increased dosage im mgx mgp the mgx case p work out feel terrible sleep hours wake afternoon feel exhausted suddenly get energy stay morning motivation chores feel tired depressed day right past midnight feeling makes want punch everything fun might sound theres doubt mind p causing this monday morning see nurse practitioner again cancel p then long take come shake withdrawals go back mgx felt bad withdrawals x how feel going withdrawals medication already makes feel like shit long deal it know expect ill get it think might get emergency bag packed might go hospital medication sorted im evened again however long be,1 +tomorrowim gonna try itim pretty scared idk itll work idk whatll happen doesnt lots excedrin trick guess im failing classes need serious reason withdraw im thinking survive maybe allowed withdraw classes dont even know feel alone anyone spot me feel like way out,1 +would yall wantnot want see ya romance story wanna know yall think tropes cliches elements romances like resonate with seems unrealistic opinions would want see think seen seen enough of personally detest love triangles typical bad boy everyone totally fawns over,0 +yo girls actually like guys moan ive heard somewhere know true,0 +tour busso considering getting passenger tour bus taking vote go every night free park lake park loaded tour bus picnic every day much per day collecting list interested people maybe happen get people,1 +life pointless maybe see iti see point life others see pointless is redflag consideration life pointless is live die live learn work die live serve needs society whatever die people say get lots good life see that friends family woohoo no end die lose all same earlier later maybe dying earlier even better since weaker bond separation painful get little good things life get lot bad things sadness learn eventually work thats life its pointless this even living like im negative truth others see it read this people give support reddit see pointless life is understand someone understand life pointless something pointless quit right death im missing guts braver options maybe im already gone life pointless understands,1 +thinking offingpm me need talk thanks,1 +im smooth me hi girl hi me wanna make baby girl yeah,0 +hard find heroinat rate im probably going go home depot buy rope idc painful want already,1 +told online friend plan today threatened follow suiti thought online would safe thought cut people real life could talk people online pass time act grew care became rather codependent realized something wrong asked me spilled beans fucked up felt peace feel conflicted again know do something simple theory difficult accomplish resisted urge find sense belonging knew along goal keep fucking things everyone around me hate live others sure know live myself,1 +im tiredive written six drafts redflag note past week im wondering even worth it six years relapsed first mark however realized causing harm even worth either waste effort getting could lay bed sleep off ive trying hardmaybe little hard get someoneanyoneto see im ok gone class weeks go work get away parents make feel awful career choice im relationship going bad want cant bring hurt him im boring shitty person goals aspirations cant find pleasure art cant find creativity need make it cant even play video games anymore go dnd sundays so enjoys game dm best friend was hang close friend anymore tried found always busy j stopped trying get invited clubhouse anymore havent months kicked polyamorous relationship two liked liked me gave dream case manager parents thought would hate life make enough moneya friends also thought stupid like people comments finally wore down im art major somehow flunking college thought would give tattooing try parents conservative even like one tattoo havean armadillo wreath forearmand again think im going making enough money im tired trying meet everyones expectations failing trying thing pissing everyone off year ago well known generous kind supportive motherly thats wanted be wanted help people im even known reputation something care about like wellbeing interests disappeared everyones minds im tired time enjoy anything love feel passion think little beautiful things world know anymore im terrified time relieved im waiting trip colorado see nature spark something inside me noti around much longer one care,1 +ah yes rteenagers cesspool whatever is,0 +yesterday disciplining son things productive hoped for looked support husband response well annoying could stop it get car drive lake would us favor know antidepressants stuff would like stop making lives miserable would hurry along responded husband notsuicidal was would tellsomeone drive car lake concerned husband plotting death know bit extreme like said suicidal think husband wants dead turn dead want people think me understand right place know turn friends confide want someone know turn dead me husband playing mind games ,1 +five medical students kevin bacon david labraccio william baldwin dr joe hurley oliver platt randy steckle julia roberts dr rachel mannus kiefer sutherland nelson experiment clandestine near death afterlife experiences researching medical personal enlightenment one one medical students heart stopped revivedbr br under temporary death spells experiences bizarre visions including forgotten childhood memories flashbacks like childrens nightmares revived students disturbed remembering regretful acts committed done them experience afterlife bring real life experiences back present continue experiment remembrances dramatically intensify much so physically overcome thus probe transcend deeper deathafterlife experiences attempting find curebr br even though dvd released motion picture released therefore kevin bacon william baldwin julia roberts kiefer sutherland early stages adult acting careers besides plot extremely intriguing suspense building dramatic climax script tight convincing young actors make flatliners allstar cult semiscifi suspense knew years ago film careers young group actors would skyrocket suspect director joel schumacher did,0 +im okayive lived depression pretty much whole life past years anxiety problem too left house work morning already feel pretty bad ended putting fake practiced customer service face made work day got home got worse went pay couple bills first thing see paying bills credit card drawn couple hundred dollars make payment card bill actually going pay im completely money got paid get paid two weeks town work trip pay day without direct deposit im completely broke bills due next pay check next pay check get late credit card blessing curse me reason im mountain credit card debt bad place needed use place live food im glad needed it impossible get under know im going survive next two weeks im lowest point ive long time know everyone money issues one wants hear mine take much long ive crippling debt decade now every time start get something else comes up ill start getting bills bit car dies oh goes another couple thousand family member dies get inheritance make huge payment towards getting debt oh car dies again money got goes buying replacement money problem one thats likely break camels back today,1 +first time saw poster stunned tranquility beauty city istanbul haunting mind ever sincebr br not much dialogue much music whole film shot elaborately aesthetically like sculpture landscapebr br actually lot things going film director deliberately omitted dramatic parts leave imagination thus creating really flat life mild spoilerone see mahmuts ladylove crying toilet going without word fight one see mahmut accompanying mother hospital struggle illness dramatic scene film yusuf laughing loud toy soldier bought niece thats almost broke heart see boring lonely life bursting waybr br with trivialities life weeded story presents us pure inner world characters sadness anxiety loneliness regretsand story unfolded sort finally grasped desperate situation emotions really way outer things intervened exactly every loner tries keep cost especially irresponsible artist like mahmutbr br ive finished second watching last night crouched quilt vodka beside bed went whole film trance felt two real lives going on one outside screen one inside screen felt free loneliness anxiety cause people inside experiencing it removed thingsbr br we cannot deny universal problem communication loneliness even puts us far towards it becomes vicious spiral bet mahmut still figure way living end thats stepped room try find answers outer world coldness landscape,0 +im alive yet redflag still mindi know replied previous post hated commit hate im still alive know why really wanted people believe dead im alive much obvious still cant stop thinking killing myself want someone love me somebody hold know reason here kills know possible want hang bad im still terrified last time feel weak,1 +feel uselessi feel like nobody likes me ive never felt suicidal several months idk whats happened service dog still feel point life future get worse here go therapy therapist vacation going vacation wont therapy long time want vent real life,1 +rainbow brite star stealer opinion excellent masterpiece felt warm tingly rainbow brite voice bettina krys voice david mendenhall set get revenge princess voice rhonad aldrich ask me princess absolutely bitchy diabolical me deserved rainbow brite krys seek revenge him however liked castle well rest setting addition thought lurky voiec pat fraley murky voiec peter cullen diabolical wrap up id like say everyone perfectly cast direction flawless disney scored big hit conclusion highly recommend excellent masterpiece everyone seen it especially diehard fans tv series guarantee enjoy it,0 +im still aliveim going kill week maybe tomorrow im fed everything sleepless nights everybody care never tbh kill ages ago idk done im unwanted worthless feel hopeless feel dead inside numb tried everybody reach toxic cruel mean negative horny im going end may anyways already cant least week without self harming trying commit redflag suicidal thoughts everyday even dream commitment redflag even attempt redflag times im still alive mistake world everything im better dead,1 +whenever people ask feel genuinely share feel need box ship somewhere fault mind goes bridge crossing it also significant life thinks always secret way keep guilting them lol because feel much shame guilt hard get away from drink daily fucked life up never finished college high school stranded bar industry make enough money secretly feed problem prevents saving son makes issues worse cannot sneak couple needed get chest living lie anyone besides year old think best vent to hate routine,1 +people sub joke youre patheticlike seriously telling life going get better saying get therapy even know im going you u fucking dont suggest people start shutting fuck im going start getting real nasty shove hotline ass go light fire it like seriously fuck you,1 +movie entertainment imagine friends love spending time with ones know inside becoming bit silly perhaps taking character two thats film about inventive script brilliantly performed pleasing masses one fun bunch brilliantly talented people im sure thought signed it br br the review sounds completely unfair think person wrote wrong frame mind watched film lighthearted moment great dignity care lookbr br a job well done thought great film id watch north american norm daybr br in nutshell best film ever going see hell lot moments laughed long age,0 +know much longer go without actually haha want okay again know could amazing life right much pain aparently everything get better eventually really hard see far future right now really hope gets better literally every day come close killing,1 +already took excedrin pms last hoursreddit need help every time get depressed start taking sleeping pills point forget many ive taken pass out forced bed first time hours im worried im going absentmindedly take many end either dead coma mean estimate well more im attention advice want someone talk to preferably someone experience sleeping pills update pm est taken since amand put bottle eyesight tempted take anymore im still pretty shaky im finding ways distract myself art class hours boss gave day tomorrow which help relax sleep naturally bit want say thank everyone replied really helped lot may update later things bf go well pm people said okay thanks guys nd update okay pm feeling much better emotionally really physically ill dizziness nausea loss direction unable make coherent conversation fine again thanks everyone positive attitudes really helped out also dumped pills going try sleep tonight you guys awesome,1 +goes around comes aroundhard express even computer screen used everyone hard trust anyone love anyone cant move forward anymore past still haunts me sexual physical abuse family members bullied school kid im first nation male finished high school gave up either hunger failure every subject took guess thats it,1 +life sucks please dont itdo anything kill yourself drugs therapy excersize least something help change perspective give spark motivation way anyway people overcome redflag faith motivation believe same anyway advice get every day,1 +cannot believe unknown movie isit absolutely incredible ending alone stuck almost thirty years road sign rearveiw mirror blew away liked race devil love movie,0 +fuck facing problems imma stand like watching everythin crumple around,0 +want start good conversation crush need tips interact crush general want keep conversation going want enjoyable us thanks advance,0 +ive gay lately im bisexual im think im turning full gay girls interest anymore used love looking pictures pretty women im like ok unfollowed many girls used turn instagram dont feelings towards anymore im looking pics im like why even follow you hand ive perplexed emotions much want bf,0 +used thinking suicide mid mid year horrible days returning home sit behind door mental breakdown crying sleep thinking suicide past months gotten better strayed away people hurt me tried abide parents time prevent yelled at still mental breakdowns think suicide while really think option nowadays fear one day get worse worse never heal hope never happens whomever reading this things change better whomever reading this love you precious beautiful deserve world whomever reading this please hurt yourself please something good once,1 +life shit dog eats dog world nobody ever cared nobody would ever carei tools disappear im sad lonely nobody understand feeling except you look bright side things bullsht me feel cant talk anyone friends everybody happy right bother them could say this mentioned suicidal things one answer sad smiley horse poop life purposes problem solve frankly dont motivation feel stupid wortheless im hipersensitive wanna cry almost time situation work shit relationship mother exists dont partner dont want want one im looking anything anyone dont wanna ruin one life nonsense dont fear afterlife fear pain succesfull attempt cause trouble dont want point im glad minimised stuff im gone dont pack crp hoarded years thought would easier less sense good every time throw give someone else something feel less connected current place wish disappear items happening friends disappearing f,1 +fuck youfuck yoy fuck whats point anymore,1 +soo bored bored lying bed pondering life,0 +ive never actually stressed yeah ive stressed bother like right now less week decide next years classes idea whats going math essay really dont know finish keep grades c parents dont get mad lot stress before almost every night finally able go sleep around am laying thinking whats gonna happen dont get stuff done sucks ton also wake go school im able see friends minutes lunch doesnt help either probably dont even bad compared kids sucks stressed like this,0 +specific memories things never happened time theyre delightful even make playlists make vivid also arent recent like probably mid late s child im still sure never happened,0 +guys hate english teacher wants summerize something already perfectly concise like basically gotta research find words make smaller stupid,0 +rd time or th know asking if know know think me reply seen posts comments tell criticism always appreciated lt,0 +wanna move on wanna get left behind wanna lead generation trains leave station wanna move wanna get left behind,0 +dissociationi every number blocked contacts besides mom mangers girl think love who hasnt texted back week social medias people get touch via email soundcloud need want something realized people call friends dont ever really return favor comes listening trying help me feels like everyone thinks im joke always give basic response nothing say really help like help im done talking everyone older brother havent spoke seen years makes high school friend think wont them anyone relate psychotic,1 +called best friend suicidal know shell ever trust again lived best friend almost years complicated relationship romantic times others one thing sure care lot other battling depression essentially whole life mostly due things happened childhood much control over recently though difficult events made enduring pain day day lot unbearable day work getting text messages really scary talking able do anymore wanting a way pain think ive ever affriad someone must called times minute none calls picked up could think could verify safety accross town would answer calls panicked first thing could think keep safe get apartment fast enough maybe emergency services could dialled called cab home cried got there walked door two police officers standing next her we chat one said your friend agreed go voluntarily hospital honest hospital staff told seriously worried her would let leave father picked up important story understand friend traumatic experiences police past situations anything wrong knew feel guilty panniced stop think would feeling end needed safe friend feels betrayed says really knew would left alone knew calling would make everything worse feel like known better way help feel incredibly guilty says hate me never trust again wanting go behind back seemed insignificant face potentially loosing her feels like worst thing ive ever done,1 +youre cool funny imitate languages ok first all im super offended triggered try imitate mock indian people get it sounds funny accent silly whatever school last year goddamned annoying hear people say beta e pronounced like emma every fucking sentence indian accent popular kids thought funniest thing entire world dont hear indian people saying beta every sentence think part fact drip report released light sketchers song might heard about was hilarious watch people blasting mundian bach ke full volume hallways thinking coolest people entire world idk maybe problem school general youd think people wouldve matured enough th grade something else hell no anyways say somewhere cringe little internally hear someone bragging theyve memorized lyrics indian song theyre sputtering gibberish goodnight edit im indian born united states shouldve put start,0 +anybody else get weird halfcrush fictional character need seek media involving them like waifu cant escape,0 +ever look instantly think yeah look like girl look mirror realise sad reality,0 +given dylan thomas icon modern anglophone poetry expected movie would prone hagiography subject contrary poet presented sexually irresponsible drunkard bad father lier hypocrite perhaps coward course one could argue things advantage one artist especially poet since one purposes art subvert standards conventional morality still thing notredflag role model could crop bundle personality traits way found male hero story captain cillic endearing character two female roles played actresses knigtley miller truly charming especially first performed songs slim outfit inspire bombarded londoners ww another good point role sexual jealousy plays even relatively progressive milieus think ageold conventions easily surpassedthe atmosphere blitz also convincing well portrayal distinct outlooks among people experienced war opposed talk theorizing possible political outcomesi think one would recommend movie,0 +bruh weird want tank like imagine fun would drive around,0 +anyone wanna chat im bored kinda wanna talk someone sleep maybe tomorrow dunno yet comment dm wanna,0 +six degrees hooked looked forward coming totally disappointed men trees replaced time spot thought hiatus would back early happened friends really surprised ended could relate characters real problems talked episode favorite characters anybody show like felt acting superb alway like seeing programs taped cities identify local areas one would like protest canceling show ask bring back give another chance give good time slot keep moving day day advertise people know on,0 +sub covid memes anyone wants post memes covid without severe limitations pls join rcovidmemesarchive basically covid shitpost central,0 +im scared ifwhen boyfriend breaks kill myselfso boyfriend together almost four months amazing helped lot reason im still here unsure everything im scared feelings girl met week ago talking problems idea even am talkin breaking said tries fix everything still meet talk feel like avoiding me hate wondering wrong im scared alone severe anxiety attacks time now breaks me dont anyone likely kill myself trapped broken scared him means world helped many problems feel like im first priority like doesnt care anymore sorry rant,1 +understand critics would bash movie teen movie thats actually serious rarity ill admit moments hugely sappy cmon young love gotta sappy valid biggest complaint chris klein funny american pie apparently ready switch dramatic fare yet hes uncomfortable looking mama stuff hartnett sobieski hand demonstrate remarkable amount depth believability parents although script heavily cliched lovers spouting poetry actors make work directing sports powerful images screen beautiful cinematography nice music great young actors impressed im jaded critic comes teen movies,0 +given soft drink days difficult first barely ever want anymore suggest anyone thinking giving,0 +try numb painbut never go away gonna go new year bang take care,1 +kinda dont wanna alive anymorei undiagnosed mental illness im pretty sure borderline maybe stuff anxiety childhood trauma yknow cant afford therapist im also petrified death idea killing makes really nervous fucking suicidal breakdowns every days literally anything set off cut hit slam head wall cry hours sucks one talk to mh boyfriend says talk says im sorry whoch fine hes therapist goddamn hurts like im really hard time right close committing redflag person say im sorry like yea get isnt good way respond every single time im upset way always im sorry goddamn hurt want stay alive sake siblings boyfriend dog hate alive much stressed im basically parent siblings continue semester college home im suicidal like every days pressure already getting me hell school without extra stressors huge freakouts per week im drastically scary im becoming violent im scared ill do god sure know want alive anymore people say listen dont even anything say im fucking scared im abusive guilt trippy im scared everyone going leave cant afford therapy im scared im gonna hospitalized also redflag hotline fucking blows last time tried use told lady wrong like wow sucks yea know really sucks absolutely help all therapy awful went shitty therapist told nothing wrong even though self harm suicidal intense reactions minor things severe rejection sensitivity yea god want dead bad im scared kill basically im depressed,1 +day recommending songs swae lee thrusting httpsyoutubevqhkcjogia it,0 +join discord server got discord server couple people teens pm want invite link,0 +must say impressed cinematography amazing frames close perfection way built tension around subject sound like dreadful bore beyond bebr br the film two narrators one seen one unseen trying explain significant series painting caused scandal long time back film theories explanations views conclusion quite shocking must say definitely film deserves votesbr br with minutes play plot film still felt like complete work fantastic direction must say far better blood poet strange reason remind bit of br br i suppose call slang word artsy pretty much lot professional talk various theories stunning visual effects crew ruiz pull off least me amazing film,0 +hatelovedont care israel zionists serious discussion please write meaningful civilised comments israel love country serve military dont want killdeport palestinians also know many people around world wish dead right or comments gal gadots recent comments choke fall stairs die why done wrong please dont use actions one man justify hate same,0 +problem lack loveweve heard get therapist go professional thing least once know therapists psychiatrists etc supposed help us whatever making us feel bad but guys lets honest ourselves times professional drug therapy solve problem origin comes lack love caring tenderness of yes love frustrating many people see supposed help feel better whats supposed help overcome pretty dark moments work find horrible professionals honest pacients keep talking shit keep prescribing drugs keep promising bright future never comes etc never say hey im sorry cant help this theres nothing fullfill empty space got so since honest ever tell truth opportunity pay expensive holidays want exist find cant help problem im going tell need hear therapy professional kind drug kind replace need never had thing love may hard hear know truth need know it start talking shit theres someone waiting there youll find person promise shit professionals do thats say,1 +bf wants febi know im meeting first time we ldr late january hes rough while want lose him want faith okay finally actual good therapist psychiatrist stay together weeks feel like breakdown go im afraid want help him love much,1 +choccy milk ampxb httpspreviewredditkcrtvijnjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfdaeedcafcaaabc,0 +introduction flawless august hey hey since new month want introduce new event like nonutnovember fingerfreefebruary you flawless august i know name nearly sound good two come anyways idea came german streameryoutuber named taddl btw link end post idea flawless august nothing really groundbreaking revolutionary still wanna share you soooo idea things goodbad entire month maybe even longer you pay attention correct course recommend things bad things good you idea isnt try things know motivation anyways you know pretty damn well lazy work consistently easier things things maybe think drink much cola something consider drink cola end choose yourself also push limits beyond could also make supersaiyajinseptember that little example flawles august watch porn go twitter practice french duolingo everyday write diary least week practice playing piano guitar least every two days also decide participate flawless august would happy write list comments taddls video its german httpsyoutubehppbxsmobmhttpsyoutubehppbxsmobm he also makes musichttpsopenspotifycomartistldcabctyzkrksktzusictewhq_qmcbqrwbsvw nice day,0 +finalim drinking final drink right hot chocolate bit hot burning throat little thats okay need worry soon soon ill saying final goodbye bye older brother bye cat guess feel guilty leaving them do preoccupation death stronger that then final walk train tracks ill wait theres chance train come delay day so mind come back tomorrow need be then final breath ill relish moment feel pain million pounds steel roll me ill dead final glimpse world final heartbeat final moment worry anything writing actually kind calmed me im going go kill now im still posting this,1 + saw the ronnie nancy show first time on austrian television time already big fan spitting image since bronze rose montreux film festival course recorded every show tape watched especially the ronnie nancy show remember scene ronnie stood front painting abraham lincoln thinking mirror said i need shave amusing all played ball dog viceversabr br its shame spitting image seems fall oblivion one fantastic intelligent made tvshows ever compared satirical broadcasts definitely best all br br well almost years passed since then wish could see show again possible purchase someone somewhere,0 +fantastic whodunit early prototype soon became popular film genre happy see william powell handling detective story charisma charm without silly attitude nick charles character from thin man series story good own think really makes movie fun watch michael curtiz fantastically imaginative direction visual point view richly textured movie curtiz showing incredible command medium split screen images weird camera angles imaginative flashbacks curtiz demonstrates one best hollywood directors highly recommended fan type movie,0 +wholesome award dark post funny reached peak comedy putting wholesome award dark post hope become world famous comedian make everyone laugh like right now ok real honestly annoying even funny even dark meme annoying see find funny wholesome award post something serious like someone lost friend redflag yes happen thats crossed line extremely disrespectful jistt dick move thank you heres random pic mad tanjiro herehttpsipinimgcomoriginalsffeeceedefdgif,0 +whos carson everyone talking happened,0 +going really hard time lately need ventive struggled alcoholism depression poverty quite bit past quite bit present certain point blacking friends acquaintances couches place place while basically homeless basically wandering aimlessly stopped counting exact days ive sober ago years ive trouble finding aa meetings area closest area ive found reddit applies problems people whove dealt similar things ive dealt with mostly became sober pure necessity even really hard big motivator used member radical cult recruited bottom luck saw horrible things there treated horribly people managed get treated much worse managed escape easy that time got job apartment even gone apartment likely long welder recently laid due cuts make reason even utilities landlord understanding really tolerated beyond grateful towards him right now really even food quite literally food money food that feel incredibly weak numb mostly ive drunk water hungry quite bit last time low least liquor better nothing really friends lost quite friends feel suicidal much feel tired hungry urge drink badly months least maybe id distraction mostly vent id like someone talk well,1 +hi everyone honestly trying anything point therapy nearly decade anti depressants psychedelic therapy etc cannot seem reconcile emotional sect brain logic part brain reason issues emotional sect overreacts melodramatic always overwrite warps logic rationalization battling selfish wish stick around self help genuinely feel terrible hurt point shaken faith particular incidents miserable years battling depression tonight feels like losing night suppose need rant fair require somebody stick around misery ow amusement particularly poor night,1 +want end life feel extremely alone cant stop thinking girl making mistakes herim lot things going help dwell past experience bullying even loved ones feel alone make constant mistakes find alone bedroom end every night thoughts alone well girl im love gettiong fucked someone else im afrid forward her know im victim,1 +divorcewell looks like im ruled against doesnt matter ill dead make broke take kids me,1 +friendand better absolutely everything ive struggled depression since second grade know reality see it reality looks even grimmer whats head long story short anything already accomplished done twenty times better did used valedictorian came alongand shoved middle class elected secretary position student organization suddenly she presidential position took jobs even let anything everyone constantly fawning much look disdain say what doing worthless slug get ass help her tried make nhs year one friends without form filled edges activities merit mine halffull filled two im journalist model un vice president even upset bossy whiny spoiled bitch upset everyone actually logical view instead adoring blindly puberty done well gotten point im done im well aware im failure reason world sees fit rub face im done living it hope career plausible future one would even notice show school one day doubt theyd even remember existed long enough come funeral im sick invisible last choice useless hated im sick living person miss boyfriend even forget time,1 +meor idk sign life do worry watch,1 +feel nothing anymore travelling days reason sitting bampb middle nowhere alone absolutely noone feel anything anymore nobody cared realised left come today please end suffering,1 +suicidal please someone explain want end lifeplease,1 +clonazepamif took enough clonazepam could kill me half bottle mg each thanks,1 +final birthdaymy st birthday coming weeks family going city next day presents excellent opportunity it wanted come too madeup work related excuse stay decade suffered depression ive kept hidden everyone planned way years ago go pain would cause loved ones especially mom depression gone worse ill take step even enjoy playing video games anymore passionate hobby since childhood bought equipment needed go painless way feel relieved ill finally saved pointless miserable existence ps throwaway account real account could tied me,1 +ever loved someone much leave hurts made many friends school lockdown came know many real turns love one best friend knows deepest secrets got selected different universities hurts wont able see face everyday hugged everyday,0 +ever feel like pissing teen years away ive never party never hugged kissed girl real life people terrify me feels like im stuck trapped,0 +best thing one say film traffic brought attention superior british miniseries traffik many people noted current film suffers truncating story accommodate short attention span cinemagoers turnaround time theater owners measure films success overpriced food salesbr br i first recorded mini series shown public tv watched many times whole documentarystyle series strong element tragedy doom it characters moving toward eventual fate strongest three tales pakistani family forced city find way keep body soul together poppy crop burned army staged show force put benefit western politicians hardships family similar rickshaw pullers family city joy eventually farmer finds work compromises pride honestybr br the pakistani segment film particular relevance today fight supporters al quaeda gives understanding support movements among disadvantaged poor pakistan afghanistan rarely receive money going countries film makes point farmers see barely aid supposed encourage grow cropsbr br with american inability see anything terms black white good guys v bad guys interesting see another view black white shades grey br br possible spoiler ahead problem story rather things continuing before would real life work fiction wrap bad guys getting coming them that fine piece work kind see rarely cast outstanding german pakistani locations helped give film different feel what change made seeing germans something villains wwii film,0 +long take anyone noticeim ive suicidal year im much worse year ago one noticed said anything me im really anxious say anything outright really obvious im like this ive felt suicidal since got worse ive never form help one ever said anything meant it others ive seen happen matter might well kill never worry anything ever again,1 +baseketball indeed really funny movie david zucker manages make us laugh heads again really silly many times smart comedybr br the creators south park main actors film play good surprisingly good actually first time see actors movie oftenly reminded south park one fav showsbr br its really good funny film miss itbr br vote ,0 +one thinks dating stupid like put much time effort every day lmao also calling lonely argument,0 +never gets better becomes manageable time maybe always there cannot keep deal lows nobody fucking understands painful is absolutely miserable am feel like literally ripping skin screaming guts out yesterday mental breakdown am shaved entire head hair off cringe every time see bald head mirror want punch reflection feel like ugly bitch angry every day become insufferable drive people away intense resting bitch face look pissed time now am know damn angry what unhappiness sadness turned anger rage years sorry everyone rude angry towards work hurts much promise sorry boss please fire even though actually want here want angry tho know wrong me know making miserable sorry energy put smile friendly agreeable cannot anymore know putting around someone heavy aura radiating much toxic energyim sorry that every day leave work feeling like shit even know friends support system sick myself sick coming home apartment nobody nothing come home to get work speak words loud next day nobody talk to wish intrusive thoughts would stop ugly getting older look you never beautiful begin with care nobody cares you here end it point tomorrow like today always is always is hot hell know much worse hell be dragging day suffering emotional psychological pain becomes so physical feels like worst torture imaginable me gets worse worse worse,1 +im scared ocd back go awayi depression anxiety already makes suicidal thoughts used ocd well stopped getting obsessions year ago today im starting show traits also different intrusive thoughts know whos thinking cant help still feel like im awful person know panicking like help want ocd im terrified feel trapped,1 +quick question criticize wearing mask mask keeps things getting out getting in youre afraid spreading it wear two masks outer one inside out doesnt work way wont work way cause logic,0 +ending soonsuicidal thoughts new me ive almost done twice feel like ive living borrowed time forever tonight im going put end forever nowhere else turn recently lost job working home live house shitty internet landlord done anything fix it led many problems eventually decided renew contract feel like big deal time theyre pretty big company figured could get another job pretty quickly couple months gone nothing cant even get retailrestaurantfast food job lot places mode transportation get city ive tried looking similar jobs work remotely far ive bunch people lie lead blow smoke ass welcome real world guess ive overdrawn bank accounts car get aroundget another job feel like leech society im burden everyone know im fuckup life would relieved got rid myself tried crowdfunding project lastditch attempt get something going get feet ground one gives shit im stuck financial hell cant move back home parasite world would better without im ready stop delaying inevitable end it,1 +tips losing weight hello rteenagers ive trying lose weight dont know how tips losing weight,0 +im gonna black sleep fuck,0 +life sucks want overi actually hate living hate me reincarnate person friends loving family future would okay living dont person things cant imagine would like wake get talk people go downstairs able smile someone look forward new day ever feeling ive outcast since child people still treat like today im fucking tired it im tired person everyone ignores person everyone talks over person one cares about fucking awful im tired it,1 +dad really knows ruin everyones day woke morning shirtless way garage cut hair i buzz cut cut myself getting lil longer id like walk garage room greet im going garage goes put shirt cold there said its ok im cutting hair who tf wears shirt theyre cutting hair gets itchy him saying disrespectful rebuttal walk away go get shirt step mom arguing morning ruined theyre pissed other im confused,0 + south east asia rn im sitting phone hand typing out got college know deserved it know ill successful ill fail feel way told feel feel suicidal ive life u may look say be happy childhood ive known nothing physical abuse stopped cause parents cant actually hurt i mean im beat shit them ever since grade abuse lifted ive less violent memories feel like shit time worthless hidden scared feel like one single leaf bouquet beautiful flowers im bi anyone know id tortured raped arrested police would help torture me may say free speech lets say im convinced hunt people like me know walking road do maybe ill skip end road one childhood friend like me zero friends general mother believe mental health thing cant tell get bed cant tell im angry waking up life expectancy farther years old im stuck shit hole bad bad feel like crying time ive become devoid emotions cant even cry want to feel like im going insane mom dad fight every day day make angry makes want repay physical abuse did makes want hurt them shut up one thing loves unconditionally thats pet bird remember last time mother father hugged said i love you unconditionally remember last time one did really hurts much seeing posts saying i got girlfriendboyfriend she said yes hate imperfect born world cant love boy girl cant girlfriend boyfriend theyll kill me id one bastard sinner right moment im im buying fire arm blowing brains away mom know meanings hateful words said me father dead naturally hes old brother well hell love mother share us ive searched god ive seen nothing witnessed love beauty however books calls people like sinners devils wants people like dead detest god life gave me detest everything am hurts stay alive pointless now call whatever want matter me,0 +want ground open swallow mei dont want deal pain heartbreak cant deal ruined am dont want this me,1 +pointless donesnt fucking matterwant anywhere world fucking pointless,1 +mom took playstation away took virginity whos laughing bitch,0 +dad fulfilled peak dadness today today marching band rehearsal stadium put sousaphone away texted dad you didnt know called went found him us stuff band went back car goes phone find message sent guess hadnt looked before deadass types car sitting right next him maximum dad moment tbh,0 +lets stay dorm room courage kill myselfyep im piece shit guys theres denying now im bad nasty disgusting worthless person im likable anyone likes me ruin lives why dont give shit others feelings toxic disgusting thing hurt whoever im around need stay completely alone classes me lets wait til slash wrists,1 +basically itbeen diagnosed borderline personality disorder told wait therapy waiting months apparently get six sessions tried kill overdose two weeks ago got scammed dumb life choices quit job early redflag attempt going start another job th march know im ready money rent council tax honestly feel like jumping bridge methods could try home want something permanent know do live north east england uk,1 +hey touch screen iphone broke anyone know way still use phone also merry christmas,0 +movie really proves world often unfair place especially world motion pictures the assignment received barely attention upon release surprisingly flopped boxoffice history written movie surely receive long lost praisebr br thank god im surrounded friends knows whats good me movie buff like pal highly recommended the assignment movie even heard about decided check leonard maltin gave it surprisingly gave knowing grade gave classics like alien the usual suspects the matrix i kid not knew meaning mean diddly squat jack s without hesitating went bought dvd years ago movie still one proudest belongings dvd collection despite cover design echoes low budget stinker casper van dienbr br the assignment expertly directed delivering really intense moments hold edge seat throughout movie top boasts times brilliant story know riddled unexpected twists turns stars aidan quinn one best performances serves great support donald sutherland ben kingsley great formbr br something like user comments like movie cant seem praise enough waiting for call fan actionthrillers bought it rented it seen yesterday,0 +yall call karma whore help im starting new account cause hate user ui_dont_clare need u know what wrong ask soooo ill tell u fortune u help trading begging,0 +wanna sleep never wake upim alcoholic im drug addict hate life much sleeping thing makes feel better motivation one motivates me cant go anywhere start new life nationality got cheated many times girls nowadays dont want loyal guys go rich ones really gave everything nothing works me wanna sleep rest peace,1 +im really craving boyfriend rn like want one boyfriend shit also silly like wrestling n fighting n fun routines basically peacefully coexisting like im rush cause im chillin mans find one day ready light fun boy walk life make laugh also kinda cold n dominant lil give free drugs maybe im mentally boyfriend ooh boy wanna puke hate writing boys suck,0 +im feel ive lived much done much im ready goits kind melancholy type thought get dad said told tired burden world ready pass would happen kind feel way want control destiny,1 +sometimes feel ive got __shit brick__,0 +whythe thing keeping earth right nephew granddaddy know killed self would hurt them let get bad die yet,1 +need hugi gonna cry even born,1 +questiondoes anyone else rant snapchat stories pretty much friends talk feel like shit,1 +wow really liked movie william h macy great quiet hitman alexbr br all performances really good plot interesting entertainingbr br alex married hitman like fatherwith little son going middle age crisis wants quit family business goes psychiatrist help place meets young free spirit sarah falls love to one day alex know gets job kill person knows br br i recommend watch like mature interesting moviesbr br stars good,0 +got pc among us hit apollo discord,0 +first saw movie papua new guinea remembered since although never seen since first timebr br just easily good peoples lives destroyed pure evil existed still memory haunt foreverbr br the movie funny immensely sad time role played anthony quinn superbbr br this movie college studies mans inhumanity man,0 +weird place life girl really good friends might like might like like domt want ruin help,0 +southerners snow amusing watching guys complain inch two snow sincerely canadian,0 +tell things wish someone would tell youi always see posts reddit similar ones always tell people things wish someone said me tell things wish someone said you,1 +still find love social anxiety social anxiety feel like girls dont like dudes social anxiety ,0 +f like m ive never called texted girl weve exchanged numbers said hi school go asked number days ago added snapchat via contacts surprise added back interestingly consistently views stories snapchat reposts videos tiktok mainly food comedy musiclipsyncing occasionally politics never unfriended anything were still friends first time six months anything since fired target never ever told boyfriend anything every check instagram two different boyfriends recall one current boyfriend boyfriend girl im feeling women older men even younger boyfriend since tend mature secure professional kinglike monarchic girl really post anything snapchat views story every time make post btw im semitrump supporter i post hilarious musical stuff appeal trump supporters girl cute mexican girl mixing european used ig stories website view story early june regards george floyd breonna taylor stuff going put story saying black lives matter performative activism much stupid idea staying silent injustice boyfriend east asian tell middle eastern armenian kind guy funny thing two tiktok accounts one always keep away snapchat instagram friends family account petitioned hispanic women marry white arab armenian men only black asian men stick got hella likes comments thanks for page promoting it,0 +girl might like idk theres girl classes ive known years mostly acquaintances may like got clue heres list stuff shes said upon hearing arent mentor group school club awwww breaking heart history class another girl wait outside dont want go first get class want go first says go first ill love good drive club in group me get group leaves yells hi my name asks answers lot stuff one classes talks good amount class sit near even though lot friends near her also teases sometimes seems like minor stuff sounds bit weird wording kind weird idk,0 +picture walked away kinds ocars best director john ford actor victor mclaglen music max seiner victor mclaglengypo nolan call marines gave outstanding performance irish rebel belonged rough tough crowd fighting cause time getting poorer poorer plenty drinking gypo nolan made bad mistake decided become informer best friend order take trip gal america new way living preston foster don gallagherguadalcanal diary gave great supporting role leader irish rebellion anxious capture informer group gypo nolan becomes haunted betrayal friend begins feel like judas great film wonderful acting mclaglen rather depressing every aspect film,0 +much people get shoes size bigger mean bigger shoes normal means toe room make toes suffer grown,0 +one want read note im leaving herehi redditors long time lurker here time make first last post feel like leave words significance disappear vacuum anyway probably lived decades longer people kill posting here unfortunate could lived long years majority years quite happy honest circumstances proven best years behind me rather live miserable knowledge life downhill here decided make one last short uphill brief sweet much money saved since someone stole lifes savings enough go s america spend rest cash hookers blow in exact method yet determined suggestions welcome painless quick would better probably able get firearm unless steal one suppose may well try good luck maximum happiness everyone here coming someone older supposedly wiser young still time bet unfuck life still,1 + days lefti know missed th one im tired im waiting everything end,1 +better dying alonethe happiest way live alone everyone love die people spend time loved ones thinking far enough future theyre together happy personally think one day im going notice cant jump high used to cant walk far used to theyre starting forget important things often grey hair wrinkles face cloudiness eyes every phone call theyre away could one lets know terrible accident every hour past time supposed home could day make home pet dies sure get new one outlive it new spouse one going first best friends theyll replace someone things want do love makes people stronger erode me point loving anything sure hurt end,1 +anyone else barely hanging time im clinging memories better times constantly thing keeping going ive developed extremely strong bonds inanimate things car tv characters take place massive whole joy missing life idk is fear im going breakdown front someone soon gonna come out make worse give strength keep in dig ever growing whole push,0 +holy shit schools care fuking hood like look soo hot hood tell take im ugly see hair im trying grow,0 +pt gonna stick needle foot please noonnojono im scared gonna go second pls distract plass,0 +th birthday todayyy leave nnani,0 +theres reason live life severely socially anxioushumans social animals need socialize need friends relationships im friends really care me ive never relationship completely wasted away teen years zero memories scared anything completely useless skipped life experiences get fucked genetically enough im also trans fantastic transitioning totally doable process cant even fucking buy groceries without almost dying cant get profesional help because again thats social interaction difficult one that even want get better like even enjoy living sleep cut watch youtube ocassionally drink im studying fucking hate im horrible it also fucked future career fuck it dug hole theres way get it,1 +every saturday morning am watched superstars biggest events happened show time challenge aired sunday mornings decent too big stuff happened show wrestlers would interviews mean gene platform next live crowd talk screen front background promoted them matches usually squashes sometimes would see mid carders square main event also interview shows usually resulted violence thus setting feud segments ranged pipers pit body shop flower shop snake pit brother love show funeral parlor barber shop recall titles changing hands show usually happened pay per views saturday nights main event,0 +friend said scared babygirl wtfffff im wtf means wants secks me kidding this actually happened ago day still dont fucking know means,0 +wants start femboy empire basically conquer bunch territories everyone territories become femboys prosecuted brainwashed becoming femboy moral reasons joke,0 +small rant ok im extremely annoyedpissed grandma went stairs pretty quickly got bottom slipped fell instead nice asking ok instead goes dont slip mopped floors already fell told fell she says well shouldnt went flying stairs like that without hint care kicker is didnt know mopped fucking floor,0 +feel alonei friends livingi boyfriend complicated talking things family live states away suicidal thoughts something cope hearing me ive attempted redflag almost two years ago hallucinating essentially saved life unfortunately angry woke hospital stop crying really want live honest really anything stopping iti think im someone worth missingi feel attached anythingi feel empty like hobbies interestsi energy motivation waste oxygen typing now like go it bother writing this know wish interest life im sorry,1 +im sure feel again genuinely feel sad first time forever think genuinely loved girl hate taking granted wish never bruh wish wasnt fucked head im lonely sad depressed idk kinda wanna go know im done whatever put for idk man feel something,0 +wanting diei never wanted die right now dont wan alive,1 +whats worst rejected crush lying like you basically moths back told crush liked her said liked back could get ice cream together not decided tell told liked one else liked pity worse rejected,0 +hope helpsif feeling hopeless feel worthless ways ive gotten past live country plenty room garden highly recommend this feel bad go hoe weeds pick rocks get quite bit ive able sell local farmers market obviously full garden work everyone get pepper plant something small take care it highly recommend hot pepper plant takes lot care worth add spice cooking coloring painting drawing im good drawer trace others help learn cooking baking also great way help express yourself get small pet can taking care something else help take mind things bit talk someone feel like ive found writing feel leaving someplace allows distance awhile think say truly hope help ive struggling depression suicidal thoughts year ive found helped most im always need talk help,1 +remember makes happy even really good moments really good days lately know them cannot remember them hate feeling everythings reach cannot remember things made happy,1 +hurtthis girl like told likes best friend shit brought back lot pain past im suicidal dont know,1 +imagine first time filmed somebody saw tryna fuck first time id wanna die,0 +life getting better im suicidal ever updatei explained different post got deleted ill skim short make it december started dating girlfriend love lot already joke marriage mutual neglect parents made us love lot get attracted fast december th contemplated redflag point loaded gun head told girlfriend then best friend friend groups goodbye february th bday parents get heated argument moms lack ability sleep due insomnia dad forced sleep familys store february th parents tell getting divorce im scared know legal battle messy sister points ive shown except first one decided kill february th really dont want really dont love girlfriend much live free away parents cant know,1 +would say enjoy show expected something completely different first saw what like you expected find something along lines all that i sure going anymore say like show classify breakthrough show charming like chemistry characters well including supporting castbr br i would definitely say great see wesley jonathan back screen really loved city guy also seen woman plays valeries friend popular think okay show really like character show cup tea rounds pretty well,0 +stop making redflag youim sorry rant really am reading post guy acquaintance die redflag hes feeling overwhelmed anxious know terrible thing bothers comment section like ohh sorry cant imagine going through fucking serious human died hes thinking fucking self god damn reaffirms wanting die like people dont care want stop killing dont care pain youre dont want feel bad death it one wants feel bad death stay alive suffer endlessly gosh poor dude killed himself really dont want imagine type pain suffering went head death brought peace life ever may eternal peace fucking selfish everything,1 +crush lol fellas approach girl interested in texting since quarantine chance sorta move got text introduce myself without awkward andor getting friend zoned lol,0 +really hurtful memory mom back going lot shit really want explain everything going much although backstory needed right answer ill give little everything happening time escape goat family made feel horrible point ended carving branding monster course happened years ago also really depressed happened opened suicidal family handed knife said oh were waiting day ive wanted question soo long im scared to probably gonna always mention past act like never happend live sunshine rainbows mean narcissistic yeah shell flip shit try say im accusing shit never happend anyone wondering bad mom fucked childhood going lot no hate her tries really hard keep roof head would anything family however causes much stress pain life turns around works hard us im mental conflict one hand want hate her hand works hard us feels unfair selfish im getting topic back saying originally im wondering question it want feel would cause harm anything know please someone help decide,0 +spirit classic the sting movie hits truly hurts heart prim proper female psychiatrist hungry adventure meets dirtiest rottenest scoundrals vulnerable doctor falls career badman begs involved operation movie moves kind slow climax ending stunning especially enjoy doctor forgives herself,0 +u c eim alone tomorrow morning doesnt anybody love think im irritating cant function anymore hate think soon,1 +feel like protesting education system wants join me,0 +cute oversized tshirt even bunny ,0 +pain gonei make new scars carry shit rest life might well make short trip right sure everyone sad angry pain due time inderstand i fact found peace anybodys fault mine kept quiet late make people worry know ill finally decide it noose tied while need find good place rewrite note less seconds lifes troubles just flow away minutes life follow sleep ones fear truly hurt parents child sorry destroyed worked hard create made sure smiles laughes around worry idea dying inside mom dad know think depression feeling solved manning getting it simple never tell that may blame yourself friends family im sorry hope effected this stopped talking wanted make soft blow possible never cut off know this want get help you know shit deal with end like me loved all see soon m love matter time,1 +fuck everybodyive posted many times nobody ever says anything thats fine add list ive struggled years thought would get better long series ups downs im still fucking back feeling set deadline gone turned turn today nothings changed shouldnt given chance therapists ive either dont understand basically venting never enough time crisis text lines try help moment say understand dont theyre talking strangers theyve volunteered do every time close eyes think jumping highest parking ramp know knife held heart land itll go straight in want increase chances success much possible fall head trauma doesnt stabbing will im going fail theres way im going keep going hate everything much,1 +cant really condemn movie work enough film noir elements consider noir movie think categorybr br theres nothing sinister piece thats noir elements fail sure disease might considered sinister hard time seeing that movie hints darker side blackie may trafficking human beings new orleans police willing arrest reporter specter plague hangs people movie really hintsbr br theres attempt made question reeds motivations one marlowe spade attempt bring humans side blackie would make even contemptuous human trafficking actually played outbr br that lack depth fails movie endbr br the story decent acting good writing direction well done nothing make movie return over worth watching once maybe twice remember years ago putting away,0 +plan next yearim year old guy live withy parents need get fuck out im going save much money next months leave far away im going tell anyone probably end homeless probably kill anyways whatever work im going kill july th thats day dog died years ago hopefully works know probably wont,1 +ok film may oscars bad film original doa undoubtedly better film mean film badbr br the film stars dennis quaid one early roles first becoming really famous the right stuff made star lovely looking meg ryan still quite famousbr br this update film rather remake since setting different characters too different plot pretty much same man this time english professor university texas austin poisoned hours find poisoned why meg ryan plays young college student tries help him jane kaczmarek plays quaids estranged wife low key intense performance steals every scene in daniel stern also early role home alone made famous plays quaids colleague charlotte rampling fine supporting rolebr br the entire cast top notch film stylish quick pace keeps guessing end br br i think film certainly worth watching thriller modern version classic film,0 +goodbye fellow teens taking action change person feel better friends loved ones aswell first step im taking cut negative stuff life unfortunately majority reddit one thoes things know ton hate definitely some dont want part person good run soldiers hope every one good day night adios,0 +im tiredevery day get fix it whatever is fix it job kids lives supposed like mine childhood supposed like mine supposed suffer broken guilt feel brought world mom breaking back died tried kill teen feels like mistake survived died got anyone else involved fucking mess mistake lived,1 +dont know one nights yearn music nothing good enough feeling emotional trying embrace wanting bury emotions time im tired dont want sleep cant anything dont know dont really like living cycle everyone goodbye,0 +feeling like fraudim mental health nurse job basically stop people want kill selves make sure get right support ive previous episodes depression required medication recent years ive always able deal dips mood got bad ive downward spiral months nothing working feel numb nothing outside work barely take care myself im sleeping lie awake end thinkingfantasising killing how im stage think would feel like inevitably end there try get help honest feel probably get referred team job positive would rather die lose professional reputation want help everyone else know answers feel trapped isnt way get help without making everything worse,1 +im hate life even though really bad think redflag daily years stress buildingsorry long is id like preface saying im right edge think contemplate redflag every day im closer year two tell call hotline whatever urgent think need talk get advice whatnot im ever serious call hotline first abused since kid institutionalized think times redflag attempts diagnosed depressive disorder around around time entered foster care never got treatment antidepressants recently took whole bottle one day prescribed once obviously ran gotten im bad scheduling doctors appointments anxiety clerk always feels patronizing me feel think theres something wrong like im retarded even though even know ive never diagnosed anything mental except depressive disorder serious physical disability hate calling thus put put more tried weeks ago schedule appointment got busy signal times tried since supposed go talk vitamin levels well antidepressant early may im month overdue makes want go back well im afraid ill scolded rightfully fucking stupid to think antidepressant help bit living situation like said im foster care never lived anywhere year since like im program pays apartment with one roommate food cable transportation work dj work consistent working one night week enough make much it weeks get work attending college college summer college financial aid department fucked telling id keep financial aid even failed class did called said id lost financial aid next semester means cant really go one big point stress this anyway program houses like people around age apartment complex two apartment took lease apartments needed since roommate first move thus first lease expire theyve forced us move different apartment complex incredibly stressful settled much shit move dropped us suddenly first heard monday told wed move sometime week monday night came apartment told start moving well moved tonight manager place started bitching apparently supposed move roommate moved things afternoon were supposed thursday though make sense were getting mixed signals manager staff work here nobody communicating us im new apartment right apparently im supposed even though nobody fucking told like pm id already moved electronics bedding less everything else except furniture pa speakers sleep schedule terrible virtually impossible fall asleep am tomorrow ive got wake up get ppd shot finish moving unpack clean get bitched manager goddamn lack communication skills relax really bad day ive far far worse days life soft life foster care made soft compared used abused even though peoples standards im still hard like stoic confident tough whatnot im absolutely dreading tomorrow additionally im terrified theyre going make get minimumwage job theres something possibly lyme may due extreme vitamin deficiency wrong bones cant handle physical stress every time past ive job like pushed closer redflag every fucking day djing handle less prolonged stress one night week most plus find extremely enjoyable less thing makes happy im also looking substitute teacher local highschool next semester meet states requirements one could handle desk job thats one really think may able get im type roll defeated all im dj im gogetter im sure could come another way make money yet partially motivation completely died used get early hop bike pin fliers advertising around town go random businesses ask use dj that forget repost ad craigslist half fucking time much less actually go market physically plus even inconsistent gigs im still grossing money peers here save least everything make whereas burn money like object bank despite spending equipment working way sum using speakers lights got goddamn thrift shop even despite working nearly hours week every week relationship status another big problem cant get girlfriend im hot project confidence even though tell im actually wreck im good always put facade living mom im creepy whatever ive girlfriendsfwbs since highschool ive single months now killing selfesteem girlfriend less makes selfworth one two friends last girlfriend practically begged stay friends her tried literally reason it blue suddenly started ignoring completely still christmas tree loaned december impression lot sentimental value her refused come get months contact cut ive tried tinder chicks seem understand dating app get ton matches good conversations them time time soon actually ask completely stop responding think bitches using boost ego hell else would match me talkflirt hours drop hints going date disappear moment actual date mentioned extremely limited social contact real life im young go bars college out two social things know im fucking isolated ill never meet anyone it need someone know absolute fact im much attractive average dude standards high go ugly fat chick want fucking die kind pathetic fucking worm attractive cant get girlfriend im onpar disgusting slime rincels whatever must absolutely fucking worthless something literally used girls me past girlfriends hot standards came classes whatnot think recent ex pretty much every night understand suddenly decided act like exist obviously situations usually dude didsaid something creepy absolutely didnt last conversation id minutes late presentation together class took together semester broke up presentation which wound even late for bullshit art rest semester whenever id talk shed seem awkward it completely stopped responding texts absolutely nothing on end things then think may ex broke get me theyd together years abusive hadhas selfesteem issues rolled it broke assured get back together im sure broke sort mental issue started shortly got together ended months split less issue would always extremely tired physically mentally problem demanding sex could never remember things said remember fucking anything reason went sauve charming confident dude got hots blithering idiot probably thought gave fucks relationship said felt like listening remember things tried explaining fluke weird thing never happened life im sure thought excuse anyway guess main thing idk either those got girlfriend problem living work situation seem bad all cant im fucking young go literally social spots miles chicks tinder get ego boost rather actually go someone guess since late ive got get early noon probably tomorrow im gonna go sleep ill back tomorrow respond read stuff im killing tonight gaurenteed im heavily considering calling ex begging come back guess ill save another night,1 +end ropeim kids financial failure burden brother parents cant make good decision time try get life straight end screwing again im work leave surgery havent paid month wont get paid middle january fail attempt relationships basically im unlovable useless im coward ive plan plan cant find courage it family would better without me im chicken shit follow through,1 +ok think agree pizza hut commercials trump pretty fire text,0 +today marks month since broke one single day wake thinking her incredibly sorry things went depression lack motivation ruined relationship light heart went lot support me never got tired me never things got progressively harder harder situation unbearable decided broke better miss her miss fucking much love think ever stop loving here worst part know also loves or used to cannot stand thought knowing hurt person love most want her past weeks incredibly taxing me works shit feel miserable person used relax enjoy fault feel empty void slowly eating inside lights life consumed nothing darkness bittersweet taste had know cope that currently going therapy stopped drinking promised would fall old habits hard want anything want her want make happy again make laugh one last timesorry anything wrongly written english main language miss much,1 +ampxbmy parents longer infallible role models thought deeply flawed apes know anything like rest us fact role models anymorehuman notredflag mysterious wonderful fateful predictable chemical reactions broken science life exciting wonderful boring predictable horrendous disillusioned life,1 +boyfriend deals knowing im suicidalis normal boyfriend treats like exist pick call like ever in years dating text first ask day answer wanna talk make effort see me last year tried commit redflag one knows it thankfully im okay physically mentally all know fault cant help imagine way treats normal mentally stable girlfriend importantly girl full anxiety pain heal from wrong me act like care,1 +ask teacher send video pls read sooooo live suriname sad poor country needed heart surgery done sad poor country im netherlands right now surgery weeks ago ill till november th get back stay quarantine days ill miss presentation week week presentations lol everyone else gets partner someone else alone since im lol alone class full people know since missed begi school year ill also miss st test week lmao literally week full tests subjects ill catch tests simultaneously getting ready second test week probably weeks go school also fucked principal refused give books advance cant study anything here anyway back english ask film presentation send worry catching test week missed preparing following test week,0 +th birthday today couldnt give less fuck strange seems like every year birthdays becoming normal day plus dont really like messages get old friends etc find awkward dreading going college checking snapchat sound like miserable cunt right im starting feel every year birthday birthdays aint special anymore,0 +ngl im super straight one im gonna make new sexuality dont believe stuff appreciate theyre trying say,0 +type rope works best hanginglooking something sturdy,1 +think may accidentally caused someone kill themselvesi,1 +weird think future could day life better look back depressed useless cause sounds futuristic like already part life happier feeling like s shit,0 +goodbye gavinthis always favorite part day napping always ends one arms around head sunlight shinning blinds look peaceful pure beautiful truly love gavin reece heart left best friend soul mate im sorry every mistake ive made you hope forgive way start this im sorry stress arguments lies ever hurt you unfaithful nothing like that second kissed stared eyes knew loved gavin thought ever could love another person past week so fall asleep ive staying crying burden embarrassment idk hope find someone pure gavin someone change worse make harder you hope life gets simpler quiet hope pass get license hope never remove name tattood leg least hope hatred new girlfriend love gavin reece stop loving you please forget me,1 +want kill myselfcan escape feeling dont want die want die im probably going die,1 +constantly thinking ending everythingi dream last night shot shotgun bf found me turned around walked away,1 +grownup lonely thingi make many mistakes grownup anyone blame yourself grownup fix mistakes grownup responsible everything do crushing lonely confusing think making right choice wrong choice think right thing wrong thing spend days weeks months sometimes years working make life better family fail again christmas worst theres nothing like christmas make feel like horrible parent tired alone yet keep going day day day keep waiting silver lining right im slogging endless sea gray,1 +dont think teenager moderators subreddit ok lets rational people one second bere ok bear im blow mind moderators supposed teenagers guess teenagers attend school ok might thinking penis multiple mods cover multiple time zones well im blow mind checked moderators list turns mods left despite expiration date passed mean internal conflict worse theory moderators nothing get adults moderate feel comfortable groomers rise up change world,0 +know joke really sad im alone girlfriend years dumped week anniversary back december since then still expressing lots feeling other semimutual understanding arent ready relationship im truly sad alone great relationship her think truly experienced love gotta taste crave it want life pretty much friends girl least got bro uzr_stealth boys hopefully game tonight unless watch anime play pc lol might play siege chug monsters own anyways point like guess whos single looking reddit memes genuinely h u r inside ideas get mind absolutely fucking single,0 +help raise awareness raise awareness redflag ive myself im saw one way out however ive faced head reached support want support people know hard is ive set gofundme feel free message redflag awareness httpswwwgofundmecomfwsbrbgoutm_mediumcopy_linkamputm_sourcecustomeramputm_campaignp_nasharesheetamprcidcaefefbefcba,1 +kake day points probably not kake day overrated right anyway suffer wrath protektors true alphabet war wages on sukkumb will join die,0 +th coming up idea ask for anyone suggestions m im pc gamer love big lego sets ideas those,0 +idea started channel freshmen year high school center projects hopefully become electrical engineer welcome error electronics here post reveals creations along tutorials much more httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucekbzxifijqnlknxikq,0 +breaking pointim seriously close tipping fucking shattering everywhere cant much longer even know im going stop im afraid whatll happen break up much else reason,1 +obviously needed like make choice forced situation go down reason went inpatient treatment program,1 +cliff diving except theres water freeway bridge man sounds fun,0 +tired all bright things people past would gone long time ago make mistakes feel invisible feeling like burden able feel love longer remember feel unrepairable physically emotionally hurts live moved different country start new life tiny things improved end defective meant anything am years years proven thatampxbi want sleep yrs old tired failed attempts past,1 +dont care meeveryone always says ok whats wrong know dont care literally feel annoyance coming screen feel like one person actually cares me honestly want get rid friends besides one person wish could that id loose too wouldnt able take enough time me friends feel ungrateful care still sad jesus sounds lame sorry whoever read this crap im sorry ill stop typing,1 +life flashing eyesthese intrusive thoughts every memory ive ever had random ones unimportant events keep flooding hurt much want anymore like ive recorded mentally like mind like myself want anymore hate mentally ill hate emotional responses past feel childish,1 +got back back second unskippable ads youtube wtf youtube sat seconds ads,0 +suicidal dont want exist sometimesi cant one feels way sometimes wish start new life one knows fresh canvas see family see fit but without picture somedays im grateful circumstances days really really bad days think myself cant live grid another land want alone sometimes days feel alone want people support arms reach conflicting feeling like live new life keep close me know silly stress future stressful feel like dont enough time days worry im gonna three decades worry im going failure,1 +friend saved life know doi fully prepared end today pills ready laid got back knew today going last day id planning month knew mum brother would out weirdly settled knowledge one thing actually control happening finished school day began walk back home usual walked past group people considered friends go home way me one said anything walked bit behind me turned usual point halfway road heard running feet behind me friend ran entire way back around corner road nearly asthma attack it asked important looking back fucking rude her done ask needed anything looked really recently worried apparently looked even lower usual today know was something stopped me still want live state cant see getting better cant bring now know do thought control least cant even control that,1 +tell parents tried kill long story short struggling depression anxiety years now got phone call randomly mum yesterday saying dad they split young wanted meet together talk must picked last couple years realised something right months prior though actually went holiday friends went home early one night intention killing ending all wrote notes drunk time actually slipped tile floor hotel knocked unconscious wake friends back hotel room gathered around me feeling stupid said slipped left early drunk since decided end came round read notes left parents couldnt stop crying thinking mum reading it question tell keep ,1 +im honestly doneth march ill goneah friend suggested subreddit realised reasons minuscule might well reasons even exist first place anyways go longest ramble history made promise would kill time couple weeks be need hurry up honestly dont know wanted eh lets hope joking thought cliche thing friday th april thats week birthday dont need pressure reasons want ahem kick bucket lately everyone pressuring hurry get sort place university quickly loose chance would years would attend besides know wont last long cant remember last time happy wasnt medication remember plenty quite lot medication none naturally lastly im generally done ill grab box thats full blades grab pill bottle grab note ive writing since honestly like book short story everything ive put it lets hope lets hope dont survive ive survived many times,1 +wish could go bed without wanting wake next dayand wish could wake without wishing woken thing want stop feeling anything,1 +got super cold really fast like like degrees last night even october weather insane,0 +okay cry song like idk cried shit one song every time hear cant hold tears,0 +circle supposed shape one side angles sides angles shape circular yes know circle also considered shape infinite sides near length infinite angles near degrees shhhhhh,0 +ye genshin servers anymore yeyeye,0 +recently posted trying find help afford rent pay transmission fixed depleted little finally able save able afford rent caused overdraft im asking cover overdraft negative balance give enough buy groceries next week this include bag dog food send picture receipt money spent on,1 +attempted todayand didnt fucking work ran husband couldnt get police stop me tried overdosing instead ive puking night third attempt wtf,1 +theoretically speaking much sugar would enough sugar crash thanks fall asleep cant im taking special reinforcements bad idea let know,0 +anxiety attackso didnt sleep night morning go father buy food get energy drinks try every time go buy fod someone get panic attack every time go alone fell like every body watching ext whe entrer good whe go drinks buy whiskey beer ext father go pick something place looking energy drinks alone girl behind starts talk saying dont buy st discont next week didnt know say start think works ask discont answers yes discount wanted one drinks fell nervous pick also dont pick would fell also impotent leave father reches whe leave father ask talking say girl looks suprise fuck whe leaving see car start think dont work say haplend dad says hiting like nahh says big men laughting felt bad thinking im shit talking pressure fell pressure times talking girl hiting fucked realy bad like even hit me something good happends,1 +getting bettersix months ago made anonymous post another site saying answer want give age old question see five years dead throw away account thought id never use again today used again truly thought better thought okay today work really thought last weeks every single day ive thought redflag dont want anymore want talk someone want someone know im thoughts not theyre new tried hang th grade im terrified ask help im scared repercussions life last thursday came home work looked backpack packed it left without purpose destination didnt tell anyone going didnt even know id back maybe cry help see anyone noticed gone one person called talked still driving unsure going listened cried asked anything stupid anything unsafe him didnt checked next day thank you cameron moment think truly saved life woke next day explored national parklt beautiful one else noticed gone which unlike me felt better came back home lasted two days every single day ive thought killing myself ive pills stashed away two years know day coming sunday got couch walked go take them text friend arrived stopped thanks john saved life day thought committed got committed would get fired job probably put medication probably still funny happy carefree shell everyone knows probably not ive become accustomed wearing mask cracks people dont know am people dont want around that id thoughts killing younger sad hurt tired feeling way now feel blank feel heartbroken im heartbroken feel sad im sad feel angry im angry feel like im water time like someone crushing chest literally feel mind breaking slipping literally feel this didnt know could feel happening do know going happen soon im oddly peace it unease feel grandmother shes already lost daughter almost killed her raised me im daughter thats one bit sadness feel,1 +im starting like hair maybe stop wearing hoods,0 +want stop drinking time want stopi lost best friend reality had talked family long time interest reconnect messy childhood friends think made codependent first week long time text theres one im looking new friend no anyway ex best friend said want friend anymore much piece shit become drink said verbally abusive see am get drunk sometimes hate almost much hate myself hate life choices im always bad guy feel like better met her time different way better now like emotionally better image lifestyle better now feel im ranting im sorry know ive felt hopeless before ive never lonely before feeling mean ive driven across many state city town village before alone ive never truly alone maybe thats im writing post feel alone know ampxb want kill myself time dont thats fear comes next im scared process no want quick gun ive never fan them im highest floor apartment think jump kill me luxury crashing car going hope car hits me might survive that want quick way out one alcohol maybe ill get courage figure way out ampxb sorry waste time,1 +think it point living not even here tired everything want fight anymore mood swings happen multiple times day cannot control them people always judge fucking sick it therapist parents mock it friends swear understand ask cannot happy once one gets it medications even fucking help therapist months room always mess saw aunt today smiled said glad better never get better cannot people understand am cannot control change it trying years feel better soon think anymore ill another teenage suicide statistic chart fucking tired,1 +imma real absolutely fucking terrified parents especially terrified tell mental health ask anything,0 +test ctei wondering wonder severe depression related brain injuries football,1 +think donei cannot continue like past two years indication cannot change either overwhelmed studies care little friends although know family kind would care mind leaving behind slept night long sleep least hours day cannot remember last saw daylight would nice see sun one last time written things owe everyone brief explanation least decided method think done thank reading,1 +life meaningless everyone trying convince dieits month life lost meaning purpose outside im successful beautiful woman fascinating life loving friends family nailed new prestigious job colleagues would kill for would best time life ready move new beautiful house first time life started thinking family own none matters anymore person wanted share longer life leave him even though love know loves me cant find pleasure anything do friends family trying keep alive weeks trying distract me theyve grown tired blame them ive become pain cant sleep night every passing moment im thinking love tenderness life filled recently love replaced gaping void able eat properly month feel like robot everything mechanical feel detached dehumanized ive seeing therapist im pretty sure clue feel believe tell him see im always laughing making jokes misery people actually think im fine everyone keeps telling life worth living things get better pain go away something new something better come way know say want believe themselves id say bullshit shoes know myself know rare find real connection someone know utterly impossible find someone replace connection lost know words sound like cheap banality know happiness me know sun rise tomorrow want replace special place heart anything else know nothing measure up without love spoke heart reason breathe understand keep living like empty shell keep people satisfied spend every waking moment neverending nightmare work meaning ive unable focus fulfill obligations clear soon everyone see perfectionist used more keep open even humiliation point thing comforts day think dying want hear bullshit gift life would like people respect decision help exit world love dignity hold hand let go,1 +strange lights seen honolulu httpsyoutubedgcdzmhkwhttpsyoutubedgcdzmhkw,0 +would go hacking command console minecraft server own friend hosting minecraft server want troll them server hosted apex hosting plugins authme option bonus way could get command line connected cmd maybe could connect server using cmd way idk ampxb help would great lol,0 +happened various forms life even got physical abuse fucking fact people feel entitled including system live ininvoluntary hospitalization psychiatrymost shitholes strip rights human being acting accordance think the best you anything really spoiler nice make feel worse entitlement,1 +know want anymore ive posting since old im tired,1 +nights worst distractions left alone thoughts feel empty alone purpose world never amount anything soon enough everyone hate me everyone see failure am looking forward day comes end pathetic life guilt ,1 +stuckwent outside last night probably home around am planned know why around hours standing sitting staring railing back fourth kept thinking this dunno whats called stopping me wanna it really do bad get cant sure anxiety looking wondering bad itll hurt height think ending another way sure though appointment nurse wednesday dunno im supposed hold im keep thinking going back tonight actually it im stuck,1 +twisted ancle today jumping posts do condo evacuated due fire parking garage kept jumping non stop somewhere like fifty posts started get tired leg got hit toppled over brother pretending personal trainer thankfully managed carry way back condo issue done with bo ive lying bed hours,0 +im going kill gf leaves mehey everyone im hopeless know going say worth killing girl that sister passed away last year broke another serious girlfriend never got better recently met girl visiting england new zealand nicest girl ive ever met first date best day life anxiety fun laughing day little backstory myself severe anxiety interferes functioning every single day get severe symptoms like chest pain brain fog terrifies me felt suicidal many times ive told family unsupportive reason im alive girl girl moved back facetime skype twice day were crazy other also severe anxiety says cant bring get long distance relationship itll drive crazy yet still says things like misses crazy me lures thinking highly her moving university couple days nz making feel suicidal again cant shake feeling lose interest find another man also might internet access moving means able talk much do fact talk much thing getting day basically find someone else lose interest absolutely doubt kill myself years pure hell hospital knowing sisters alive school day one cancer others sma cant take anymore cry day facetime girl makes happy soon hang up plummet straight back depressive feeling wrote hopes would make feel better look post history probably see im attention seeker im basically annoying thank replies hopefully snap back reality,1 +sort depression slump another around years used love talking people exercising writing thing actually enjoy watching tv movies know healthy thing want anymore detached everything else see point much anything work shitty barely minimum wage job cannot even afford live think would really help situation friends anymore could keep contact regularly bc depression kind floated away one vent to barely existing shitty world trying dive deep fiction can feel wearing though comfort get fav characters really scared getting close end thing interested anymore media,1 +cant stop thinking redflagit feels like always way out brain hyper focuses much diagnosed earlier year bpd feel ive got worse worse constantly think ending know right it would hurt many people yet lay awake night crying eyes constantly thinking life worth it im lost know do one day fear feeling get much simply it,1 +one favorite movies saw preview seattle tom hulce amazing words could convey feelingsthoughts actually sent mike ferrell donation money help film get distributed good system says need lines want give away plot stuff audience seattle hulce director writer think mike ferrell talked hour afterwords really dry eye house hollywood continues stupid know actually know fault look watchwell get pay guys get see someone special gem,0 +need signits one nights cant keep thinking pain ive caused everyone whos left life want sign want something make feel like still worth im scared life,1 +want anymore bpdpersistent depressive syndrome years unstable relationships friendships im left one good friend across ocean anyone else probs wishes well cant bothered say anything else matter hard time making friends becoming close people mainly find people interested wanting friends connectionchemistry terms social circle legit alone clearly good reason years suicidal ideation recently intense attempts firm belief always way want way always way ruins follow life evidence sort also revealing messed person am cant job effectively anymore could even that reaching incredibly hard justify reasons so hard do cant around people family job im unhappy life be cant around sake cant anymore,1 +guys help street lamp outside window got hit massive lightning youd expect stop working started turning super annoying rain makes atmosphere bed quite nice street lamp ruins it idea sleep comfortably,0 +obsess head even though try stay positive truth really feel comes almost every time go drinking friends become extremely negative sometimes cry alone bf told unhappy weight also hates seeing unhappy summary bf complete workaholic loves death tells beautiful every day dumped times weight thinks excuse maker know commit me indian white us since ever spoke phone would never able guess indian,0 +feel bad today suicidal thoughts bad theyve ever been made tiny progress lately come crashing back feel like could call quits right nowi think im gonna probably text number feel guilty texting always seem trying push get next person feel comfortable calling redflag hotline like said made tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny progress step forward steps back live alcoholic parents terrible house got new jobs see way often triggers hell even around cant anything else ive spending lot time library friends houses stay away theres much do point id seriously consider living car cold wisconsin already tried yet another med change really recently course done nothing number million thats point im seriously considering cold turkeying meds done it almost weeks next therapy appointment im pretty sure hates anyway tried get kicked clinic accidentally noshowing appointment psychiatrist stuck said needed stay im gonna comfortable talking therapist refuse try another one hes already number cant even remember sure also fucked up totally fault excuses im gonna completely financially destitute least month account overdrawn im gonna able afford phone bill real friends live far away phone plan able talk time im home and try home little possible ive selfharming lot one injury id even consider seeing doctor could afford copay convenient care mean serious burn happened trying firstaid well can ironically still selfharming places body stuck scars life top stretch marks im stuck brings next point weight im literally obese bmi fluctuate lbs back years ago healthy liked body numbers pounds emotional binge eating absolute inability exercise consistently try get hyperaware weight stop cry probably go home hurt ironically binge eat top everything ive talking old friend finally able meet coffee we see maybe year seems great im starting feelings develop knowing theyll never reciprocated know best thing distance her one biggest support systems me theres good way handle situation yes chances feeling already this big problem top everything else feels like it,1 +one way make better nowi got help waited tried everything could think of almost deluded thinking working fortunately reminded unwanted worthless am im moving date redflag december probably around christmas nice gift everyone least plenty time write note want apology sticking around long thorough record point tell awful give people false hope here get better mean say otherwise,1 +friend middle class dead silent whos stinky whore didnt realize unmuted,0 +depression damn brutal add top ugly virgin extreme social redflag lower iq learning disabilities many internal issues what fk suffering could dead seriously nothing here people tell try new things get me fatigue beyond awful scared death hate religion making scared hell think awful things christians now hate existence alone dead inside gone even idk much longer last,1 +cousin stupid cousin stopped eating pm girl already boyfriend this every night terribly aggressive unpleasant already quarreling almost whole family do,0 +film great comedy drama christopher walken tremendous supporting role manager commentary keep laughing robin williams plays great role quick wit jon stewart amuse fans comedy central show good viewer halfabrain see needed subcultural attack policies current republican government criticism american democratic process mention means politicians get electedbr br i amused subplots found film fast paced entertaining without usual ohbrothers would agree film less comedy marketed however without question better garbage theatres present thoughtsdon,0 +happen love show refreshing take older scifi feels styles afraid shoot people tend die far many shows afraid end pointing guns standoff farscape also comes complete large amount heartwarming characters grow till point confuses hear discuss taking animatronic ones boxs make miniseries beginning end farscape leaves feeling hope dispair new unexpected things happen people live die surprising every time worth watch even time,0 +losing hope fasti thought abuse would end thought pain would end moved course didnt feel like im walking fucking empty sack useless flesh would give anything give life anyone deserve die sure fuck deserve live hate im wasting it job im school make want fucking kill less medication fucked brain forever never helped doctor hospital last year trying kill myself im barely better now go class go work come home sleep im depressed anything else talking people chore barely eat love father thinks im fine heart tell im miserable everything hes done me hate like this im waste eyes hate it,1 +feeling really alone wrote thisits always like this everyone seems think works like grief hit waves waves pull back slowly completely get better waves stopped ill next march hear happiness said genetic family tree pretty upsetting one unfortunately true nothing mean friends those mean family found family one given dysfunctional makes life harder made life hell living has see world around me eyes woken peaceful nightmare see real painful world cant keep this cant keep giving heart people trying friend receiving agonizing pain especially always ask anything back started realized self respect something supposed pretend have days far behind me beginning life either im weary starts im sad im kind wallow seek help usually takes long whatever reason get worse start build way back stability myself im bad it usually get help along way usually therapist take look got bad work love therapy always have get better better sort of hits always different always hard times easier most always springs back me theres cure even want it i want risk would rather peace feel alone afraid like first times hit hard thing ive called help ive asked around ive done bit im therapy weight everything crushing much chronic depression doesnt always go away functions similarly grief lingers hangs air keeps you isnt simple never be,1 +live alone depression time high believe worth anymore finally given myself wake alone everything own fun activities truly enjoy doing nobody wants me anyone else wants something want do always it nobody me everyone else another person people walk over want genuine friendship people genuine love life seem get short end stick every time nice guys finish last happens time time again hate here want pain go away need someone talk to,1 +college idea im doing pretty much nobodyi attend expensive college idea fuck im feel like im squandering parents money time being idea want career motivation study feel like nobody purpose world keep hearing everything right trust god cant anymore want drop kill something,1 +favorite show kid man favorite show obsessed it still remember back seat car small dvd player different heman season disc watched like times also remember favorite character skeletor favorite show kid,0 +time favourite movie everbr br i remember seeing younger since love it used rent often one video store used carry it moved find kep going back tot far away store could watch movie againbr br finally found sale bought watched again great moviebr br since though first dvd got got dvd player ok well got time quality dvd way better believe it gotta see one,0 +spend time researching redflag methodsim unemployed refuse work job amplify depression want work walmart although im pressured family take job become leech brother would covering next months rent cant live shamebut perhaps people believe might able to im tired running around things best interest others im tired listening advice others taking it realizing never i wanted all instead use researching abilities know things im good at find effective way completely obliterating form consciousness person called ever possessed people hate me probably cant feel hate side feel anything anymore,1 +soo uhh umm anybody wanna play minecraft,0 +happened watch movie chance days ago flipping channels expectations high interesting moviein a guy thing jason lee plays paul straightlaced seattlebased fellow marry fiance karen selma blair settle unchallenging life middleclass domesticity first meet paul bachelor party professes desire engage normal bachelor party type activities surprisingly few buddies encourage case hes bit naughty gets hot bother soon trouble strife course next thing paul knows morning night before hes bed naked hula dancer motherinlaw phones inform karen way over oh hula dancer karens cousin becky julia stilesbr br from small acorn potential trouble grows mighty oak frenetic misfortune paul scrabbles misadventure misadventure trying cover hes done whilst keeping appearance dutiful familyoriented good guy whos superexcited forthcoming nuptials efforts ensure karen remains none wiser potential wrongdoing part ironically forces paul closer closer funloving becky forcing question whether really wants life seems mapped him movie contains right mix comedy romance definitely worth watch,0 +fucking done bullshiti cant trust best friendand dont want talk others romantic prospects future one dream everyday fades away say fuck it fuck would keep suffering bullshit,1 +screw ittonight iti done planning seeing morning,1 +know selfdeprecate much part still lacks confidence even worked much it scared lazy stupid way overwhelmed life actually hard certain degree justified know perhaps combination said almost like want apply want anyone else either perhaps felt sure thinking opportunity always therei actually busy lot stuff college although little bit old well also gone lot trauma both mild severe throughout years understand need kind needed time heal hate unproductive lazy hate people use excuses justify shitty behavior seen ugly looks want one those seems repetitive pattern behavior deny opportunities maybe deep unconscious part feels like deserve better life bullied much recent past left filled shame guilt noticed exact thing dating too know great personality naturally deserve love loved again whenever want date keep thinking need fix life first like good enough know excuse know excuses understand life already happening between supposed perfect moment start living yet broken mentality let go despite fact keep empowering everydayhow stop break free past stop procrastinating adhd yes meds help focus selfdiscipline makes things better still am make things like better better lost amazing job opportunity procrastinated much applying it taken feel awful,1 +guys im stuck bathroom please send help horni fuck nnn got stuck bathroom closing door keep updated looks like id sleep bath,0 +maybe programming spend hours day needed learn programming point is im looking handouts anything like that im ready spend countless hours work help family thoughts tl dr father passed away mother cant pay rent bills etc ask advice jobs ways increase income help mother pay rents,1 +relationship weird relationship weird little context answer shes im started dating almost months really happy together im afraid people frown upon tell relationship far ive told people trust sets parents know mom it happy wont let explain myself honestly feel like could go long term her title asks relationship weird might delete soon friends know account didnt enough karma throwaway,0 +fucking masturbated final fantasy xiii coverart umm bored recently friends busy decided tidy room throw awaydonate old childhood things used ps back day many awesome games like lego star wars uncharted final fantasy xiii felt nostalgia looked various coverarts came across old final fantasy xiii game coverart basically main character named lightning holding swoard standing front white background nothing special that first crush idk wanted replay game badly ps got broken long time ago sitting there holding game hand got incredibly horny took shower wanked yeehaw coverart using parts imagination im good rubbing love stick imagination fucking busted nono sauce place anyway feel bad took single coverart game trigger me good day,0 +repeatedly saying brilliant many columbo episodes are time honour episode maximum points etude black percent perfect certainly percentmaybe br br last week reviewed just married compared unfavourably meet parents well heres one parents blythe danner much earlier role wife famous orchestral conductor alex benedict played legend john cassavetes alex affair jennifer wells girl orchestra not first affair one suspects blackmailing alex leave wife wifes mother holds purse strings orchestra alex think itd smart move destroy career marriage overnight instead hatches plot sneak concert hall performance murder young lover making look like suicidebr br enter columbo guess what takes two seconds realise homicide likely suicide take much longer columbo connect alex victim soon hes following around wherever goes even though columbo certain alex man actually takes quite false leads none columbo really swallows vital piece evidencebr br along way topnotch extra characters ranging precocious young neighbour jennifer wells english mechanic sounds like would home coronation street bedraggled looking brass player nearly finds fitted murder he also seeing jennifer wells busy girl theres even brief cameo commandant lassard police academy films leslie nielsen lady waiting impossible take seriously i bet thinking speech made podium you br br but blythe danner john cassavetes peter falk steal show here blythe absolutely divine mrs benedict moment spots alex dialling jennifer wells number memory feels deeply troubled exactly relationship was masterful performance struggles trust alex despite intuition telling something very wrong columbo help matters interrupting game tennis ask impertinent questions alexs relations members orchestrabr br as john cassavetes well shame make repeat appearances columbo villains could jack cassidy patrick mcgoohan one alltime greats show performance superb hes another one falls highly irritated category losing patience columbo rather befriending indulging him despite this game finally grudgingly acknowledge columbos geniusbr br well really really fantastic show loses couple small points rather sledgehammer view classical music highlighted many posters here none bearing logic story characterisations least music good dramatic excitingbr br finally come across it absolutely amazing clip john cassavetes peter falk dick cavett show early s im totally convinced steve coogan watched clip based alan partridge it everything clip resembles knowing knowing you cringeworthy introduction total humiliation cavett guests even orchestra get act playing circus music falk cassavetes friend ben gazzara fool ridicule hostbr br it might strictly relevant review cavett show clip gives nice insight deep friendship professional relationship peter falk john cassavetes clear see quality etude black well pair worked together,0 +need help talking girl aight know may best place ask advice wateva im outside friends car passes like girls theyre like waving im one turns sees one waving back on found one girls insta hit got laugh like twice conversation finished followed me problem post pictures like casually get see face cause like saw kinda far yeah send help i use snapchatimma go sleep help plz bye tldr casually send picture face girl,0 +lets face it nancy drew never great literature category babysitter club magic tree house goosebumps abc mysteries fact one original formula stories nancy perfect pretty thoughtful nice internal conflicts ever never changes ned pretty much same movie true style say liked it never great movie nostalgic flavor books held right amount suspense children almost offensive language liked push conservative dressbr br corky bit annoyance little place high school campus never quite got first place,0 +ventingi know life perfect go bashing life saying much hate me get it words hurt im gonna get rid toxic person me im going kill myself,1 +amazing movie clever using actors sets also shocking physical psychological torture both explicit implied mixed calm even humourous stretches horror always unexpected brutal im soft would shocking film ever seen message film definitely delivered sledgehammer film always remember actors for,0 +im kill myselfim year old male ive pretty much fucked life already see anyway im going successful adult little situation well im pretty much done school im technically drop state drop gone school months school really done anything it really friends talk anyone all days sit room listen music read philosophical books play video games also really like mathematics taught calculus anyone knowledgeable math limits derivatives integration started teach differential equations going series little later master differential equations seems lot integration used solve differential equations want forget integrate genuinely like learning figure since im probably going college higher education institution probably teach stuff now also hear einstein mastered differential integral calculus even though im told myself hey want that saying im genius anything honestly anyone iq least stuff anyways really hate school though hate way everything enforced stuff useless get wrong think genuine learning going public schools like set it cant stand it need independent study prefer teach someone teach me know probably sound like typical winy angsty teen truth told probably am expressing rarely get to said before really nothing day life job drivers license actually apply job back never go back me probably low gpa is jobs looked honestly fucking ridiculous im even old enough work places like family dollar walmart seeing lot internet news prom prom stories im going junior prom one knows exist anymore besides really fucking ugly like strikingly ugly hate myself even still school girl would want go prom me gross disgusting makes want die most hate myself hate much social anxiety public hideous face made fun kid ugly words never gone away ugly smelly stupid future ill living parents basement fucked up fucked bad low life piece shit lonely feel lonely never go anywhere talk anyone eating away hate myself keep alive want die worst part is know situation fault too really thought maybe hanging overdosing maybe even jumping bridge downtown live,1 +bruh many schools closing country still open every day news school shuttijg due least case covid one school actually close live thank fully aslo school clise area school case like dont go online learning fucking thing blow,0 +help im sorta panicking went website blocked internet service provider sky said blocked clicked away closed tab parents get notification telling went blocked website anything said internet service provider searched im uk btw,0 +trying something newhey everyone name callum im live england know safe share kind information internet really care less ive diagnosed autism social anxiety severe depression im currently four different types medication make feel numb ive lived life thats privileged comfortable life really supportive mum two adorable doggies ive counselling depression anxiety always temporary fix problems feel incredibly superficial makes uncomfortable seeking help them title suggests im trying something new dad left mum im still contact him still see every then still shocked core ever experienced anything like before still adjusting secondary school life getting bullied lot life really strange me got seriously depressed im nihilist always been always be find world live absolutely disgusting everything big corporations personal gain adverts blaring tv huge boards make spend money irrelevant junk need someone sensory processing disorder courtesy autism barely leave room without subjected kind sensory battering ram world care people makes sick thats kind world want live in cant even leave room thought around people terrifies me sit desk watching youtube videos gaming thats like spend time nearly year ago yay happy anniversary broke girl loved heart relationship harmful mental health right thing hadnt would worse state tore apart same im overweight secondary school walked four miles every day two miles in two miles back meaning good shape kind ate wanted lot since used eating coping mechanism depression started college kept eating much since walking anymore burning off like that im fat cut myself often need to im addicted anything helps like said world series overbearing stimuli like whirlpool pain cutting gives like anchor me steadies me relieves me contribute this nothing failed gcses teachers get access arrangements place waste year life retaking them im computing course wanted teacher like me even gotten onto second year im waste time waste space ive contemplated redflag many times thinking ending life become perfectly normal occurrence me im incredibly lonely since broke her void life makes develop crushes girls far easily try something crushes laugh me think killing every day one day think ill it soon im pathetic terrified actually act now one day soon enough though read far im grateful incredibly grateful maybe needed vent maybe im actually looking help know thank reading seem like anyone cares anymore fact someone listening would help please read entire spiel let know sort advice all even hug please guess sums entire thing please,1 +currently film studies as level this love song film watched opinion film simple storyline complex backstory scratch surface find thrillerchase film two men running countryside farmers committing murdersounds quite exitingbr br however need dig deeper uncover true feeling true genre suggested love story two homosexual lovers filled trust deceit betrayal told love directly film events happen out example way heaton acts towards spike almost screams untouched love affair facesbr br overall film good example british films dismissed rubbish done low budgetbr br a good film intricate story line however definitely acquired taste possibly suitable average fan hollywood blockbusters,0 +barbara stanwyck plays lily powers waitress fathers speakeasy little crummy mining town also sells men escapes new york literally sleeps way topbr br originally seen minute version pretty extremefor time nowadays pretty tame movie moves quickly tons sexual innuendosome comes pretty silly but fun today moves quickly easily ignore could never happeneven theres nothing classic monumental thisits quick gleefully dirty little film thats lots fun falls apart end little moral ending censors demanded comes across unbelievable stupid i saw theatre audience laughed itone guy quite rightfully said no way saw uncut minute version different somewhat tragic much better ending version thought lost discovered mistake believe one releasebut aware br br the acting goodstanwyck jumps role plays way top makes believe enjoys cruel sleeping around also strong supporting performances handsome donald cook george brent also look prestardom john wayne hilarious bit meek mild office worker fun dirty fast give ,0 +grasping straws go farim sorry this like publicly breaking know else do im clinically depressed im driving mad thoughts redflag constant memories thimgs ive done wrong feel may end life cant convince change background guess im early twenties angst red flags firing already afraid not diagnosed clinical depression year ago gps i wanted second opinion i like everyone else experienced changes emotion throughout life longest prolonged drop mood continued today sometimes feel ive come it ive lasted five days best one point worst far ive tried number medications good ive lost faith validity antidepressants ive tried therapy could see little nuances ticking heads never seen person boring complicated puzzle solved judge it therapy work me ive tried confiding family could see hurt eyes described felt cant take anymore either cry wolf cured see them may suspect theyll never sure ive lost friends happened slowly level purpose could longer connect acquaintances every conversation felt like mentally bashing head wall unnatural uncontrollable cognitive dissonance spread like tumour even people closest felt like distant dreams accross hallucinated worlds became desperate called redflag hotline tried describe felt kept repeating rubbish like its good reached us today reached minute mark understand felt hung me told early suicidal night redflag hotline refused help me you may call bullshit thats fine care nothing gain lying now state mind feel normal consistent like rat maze often feel ive found escape find dead end ive enough intents purposes think im bad guy average joe done stupid things before even cant stop believing truly deserve this constant state mental pain human see thus cannot understand one day finally give end all want out want constant fog hours sleep followed random bouts insomnia inability hold conversation poor work ethic selfishness want fucking normal like every god damn mother fucker see arround me rredflagwatch imagine many experienced before classic case clinical depression want fucking bythebookwasteoftime answers oh family miss you it pass time im you have tried suchandsuch drug andor therapy its good reached out fuck kinds people also give shit guidelines here real fucking human being real sence want offer advice please please do get reward maybe self satisfaction stroke ego bit tell friends saved someone get upvote care im dick loser fucking human grasping straws wants someone real help me,1 +dont even know bro going day nd fucking people dont even know bought pills take get back home tonight people talking like im even nd dont even know fucking easy fool people,1 +feel though many people disagree know fate sooner rather later knees pain feel within core much push point literally existing peoples sake even feel benefit either feeling good feel like right thing talking people understand urge taken core thing stopping pain trying figure get past point lost love plan to cannot see without life want space want everyone else ever cared bitter heartbroken guilt regret cannot live like anymore wanted good mother loved understood left cold again again complicated story explain many details missing know think suicide selfish felt like since lost love never forgive letting go one truly loved me stand another second reality sister sorry ever wanted like make proud me thank mother love you son mummys sorry put bad situations pushed away needed most zaney always treasure curious little mind daughter sorry could strength need grown like me know always dream love sweet girl core empty,1 +canadian homies live ontario dont feel comfortable answering obviously dont curious fellow ontarians canadians matter wonderful lads from,0 +horny post second nvm theres nothing say im tired h time lemme happy,0 +objectively pretty unlikable talks speaking you know try see best people ignored talk him claims bisexual introduced lab partner current girlfriend asked interested pursuing her stated clearly no fast forward three months winter break hanging bit frequently,0 +always feel like everyone hates either ignored people talk me give one word replies idk really want exist anymore tired breathing,1 +paris je taime film made segments math segments minutes means director seven minutes tell story movie based premise can indeed tell story short amount time premise works almost segments powerful complete satisfying presents different aspect parisian experience almost every director draws forth outstanding performances cast great neargreat actorsbr br there many powerful portrayals film hard pick one two favorites probably memorable juliette binoche grieving mother segment place des victoires gena rowlands aging beauty quartier latin catalina sandino moreno maid segment loin du me margo martindale colorado mail carrier learned speak french visit paris me arrondissement segment br br special mention must given gulliver hecq probably meanest little boy ever harass american tourist parisian metro station segment tuileriesbr br this outstanding movie wife decided rent months catch subtle points surely missed however paris photographed beautifully would suggest try see large screen case miss it,0 +dorecently ive thoughts redflag im sure depression kicking imagine situations would easier gone life keeps dragging seems like nothing going way grades dropping work life getting worse im happy myself know talk to want parents think differently this friends im lost need guidance talk hard reach out do,1 +felt sad days thats good nevermind time consume unhealthy amounts sugar,0 +wish someone elsei hate myself sucks cant anything im afraid time one likes me everyone bullies me cant live myself know do cant escape myself im thinking taking life,1 +actually good dayi dont know else really post this usually days school shit thought would today minutes school started realized forgot math homework also big test th period smaller one th ib school also mile run th period test around week write notes single lined piece paper since big history test forgot home thought doomed that instead day absolute shit finished work early st period finished math homework since sub math second period thought fucked mile run managed get it felt really proud since last mile well test th period parts multiple choice online test written part paper got multiple choice missing one question google forms saw grade instantly felt like also knew stuff written part th period didnt even need notes test knew stuff felt really happy uncommon also first time years got new lego sets ive always fan lego boosted mood well maybe things change maybe wont today great day me though hope someone else feels like do,1 +angry want stopim sure say dropped high school work dead end job money indulge anything parents kicked let back matter much tell need move back im years old im forced adult august went hospital redflag attempt went times suicidal ideation im angry time ive tried therapy shit ive tried hard happy tried hard normal functioning part society time fighting life want live point struggling anymore want angry anymore want sad nothing works im sure,1 +chinese class cringe oh god im going die cringe syndrome im taking chinese class test talk random subject determined dice roll see screen minutes in front entire class zoom already bad enough the topic how people teach responsibility education i even know heck is teenagers interested absolutely know heck answer speak min without whole bunch fillers cringe also like unit test grade probably going quite bit ampxb httpspreviewredditrphraulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfebdcbebcfcdbaeee wait sec recording im absolutely done,0 +starting work next week seriously wanting end theni really dont want go back work im supposed to dont get breaks end work coworkers nothing attempts friends them hate me dont know why dont say anything controversial im nice everyone full insult face whenever bring boss doesnt care cant find new job anxiety would much im tired putting much effort job called fucking loser directly face top off redflag attempt ago arms covered scars considering judge every little thing appearance theyre gonna field day realized im likable friendship lasted week me slitting wrists messy obv didnt work plug someone could get drugs could overdose on ill probably try hang wednesday went bullied school bullied college bullied work im meant planet mistake,1 +drown alcoholi drown alcohol people around want drown lake realise difficult thoughts getting hand realise way thinking normal realised happy myself realised hated anyone ever hated me even realise drank way much drink drink drink drink hoping would never face reality but,1 +im going kill myself im surei date soon ,1 +anyone want play animal crossing me anyone want play animal crossing me would nice play game someone friend code sw,0 +terrifiedthis first time months ive self harmredflag thoughts im able make go away like feeling like this want feel different,1 +want disappear id bored know id back minutes later ,0 +hope yall googled why pee red forget december st,0 +guilt eating aliveso couple weeks back mother episode stopped taking pills cared whole episode eventually bring hospital weeks visit presumed dad going let know going visiting cant drive btw phone good times weeks make sure ok ended getting visit hospital guilt eating alive feel like ending,1 +guys lost v card today gf kind drunk hanging bed kind just happened unexepected amazing,0 +dont give upif think one cares youre wrong mom walk room scream cry try wake up dad run hold moms hand cry siblings school crying bathrooms something reminded you principal announces school friends break tears one kid bullied run scream unable cry boyfriendgirlfriend cry weeks unable eat sleep even shower funeral family sit living room complete silence unable say word whether know not people care you people dont expect,1 +feeling worthless take years figure im addictim doctor prescribed benzos benzos since im guess im depths withdrawal keep reliving whole life new pyschiatrist cussed friday month ago messed rx reduced w refill set telehealth appt march th informed said get rx fix march th till hell friday spoke w nurse told would change called said im making look crazy wanted go scripts changes person sorry im going suffer long guess thought would pleasantly suffer silence asked cold heartedly want prescribe valium liking scolded calling cvs make sure dont pick refills told wanted prescribed years want billed two telehealth appts hung phone screaming bye moved hours away leaves office pick up anyways guess im addict keep hating im anything right addicted benzos never anything hard dealt w ignorant docs past pull shit take business streets isnt prescribed benzos doesnt know somebody knows somebody gets benzos im broke getting older dont want illegal shit whole shit questioning relationships failures like damn prescribed wrong drug chose heroin younger least help benzo addicts get fucked system making us look pyscho doc makes mistake arent feeling good even mention risk getting pegged addict losing rx sanity im really hating hour ride tomorrow make thoughts dissipate feeling hopeless anxiety anxiety thanks,1 +give someone something stupid child years later regret want back dont even use it okay ask back also lets say old ginormous golden freddy plush gave say distant dad hates,0 +secretly wish got universe id love pet dragon name barbecue,0 +fuck lifegrew nothing one nothing me friends one wants talk me currently spent entire life playing video game barely eating game thing makes happy p family threating take stuff away get job shit even tho cant live smallest place ever ones hiring im fucking miserable nothing worth live,1 +want live twentyonly days thereabouts th thats deadline guess maybe setting one finally make able take next step want twenty want idea theres another year ahead another year soulcrushing loneliness another year selfhatred another year wanting die want future me know ever good one im person ive met entire life truly think hopeless see nothing myself ugly toxic piece shit dead set path inevitable empty funeral days ago finally set in im getting return investment need im unlovedno family lover hardly youd call friendsand honestly pretty unlovable ugly face ugly body ugly personality trifecta considering love one things keeps going guess realized meaningless is cant keep living people care love anymore enough thats im at days either man bite literal bullet wimp keep living hell begrudgingly call life heres hoping,1 +yooo whos wants talk especially ur south america yeah ya boy wanna speak people ur south america dont matter still pm,0 +im done care anymore im ending sooni hate myself hate world hate life supposed be ive suicidal since young least th grade always thought things would get better dont everyone everyone get happy ending life shit show shit show brief moments happiness cant seem find makes worth it cant wait old age freak accident free pain want now want know hurt most im fucking alone never special anyone never friends lovers even family closest person ever life straight told tonight never meant shit him hurts much want loved ill never enough something wrong me im cut life ill peace soon know that first time ever im crying tears happiness itll soon feel way anymore,1 +want understand dontim posting place wanting understand im old late s understand posting want commit redflag also understand redflag phone lines ive thought redflag long remember hospitalized already constant part me never wanting die part wanting live find hard people learned blend become like outside found anytime reached learn felt one like learned caused issues seemed could ever solve stopped landed hospital shoes ive lived life got married created new living being built company helped hundreds people find happiness wearing mask mask heavy ive open close friends go managing logistics leaving life overwhelmingly attempts help find help want put mask attempt appease people important ive started seeing professional mind numbingly easy time want med talk feelings today said part must want help took step coming them seem understand never want help anything personality flaw mine reason came try make predefined eventually easier people care about question many people saying i want kill myself really saying i want kill know stop hurting adulting things needed handled die id helium tent right now like said im wanting die im wanting live different,1 +help girl agreed meet get drink ask free wednesday im free thursday saturday says oh not say cant says oh htf response oh say available anyway actually date,0 +tampai moved tampa fl good job moved becalms last job stressful cant take more want impress parents sister cant anymore decideded end it sorry spelling errors im give upn im drunk give up rthanjks reddit great time,1 +jetsetting life wants dieim living peoples dreams now loving family always supportive do loving partner sacrificed much us together graduated top class travelling every months freelance job pays enough parents partner always chip afford travelling see work out planning get masters done foreign country soon live near partner friends really supportive always want hang make time have everynight still feel like kill myself,1 +sure anymorei brothers wedding coming look forward to that yeah know give up hate planet live on hate people people self centered cruel ive even guilty times hate too im seeing shrink next month maybe help know th time ive entered therapy since first work,1 +hit certain goal probably kill myselfgiving around days complete it around th birthday tired myself tired world tired feeling like burden tired fucked up want go sleep never get again ive got windex with ammonia ammonia plastic bag options nobody probably readcare matter guess,1 +telling jokes corona gone day hipster burn mouth pizza ate cool,0 +boyfriend cop live sweeden cops got high authority boyfriend abusive harrases infront everybody let gohe forces sex anal sex led hospital many times asleep goes in lost sleep days days wake sexual acts done mehe hits time slightest disagreement want go friends goes enraged giving black eyes every thenhe burnt fathers memory led fight tried punch pictures father memories us beautiful childhood always hits back harder breaking foot bending wrists knocks cannot anything hurt times size always threatens cut hair eyebrowsi tried contacting local police ended punished kept locked room letting go bathroom embarrassing therei cannot anything poor nobody friend phonei know life get rid nowhere else go maybe suiciding painless way would really help redditors got ideas please share them could find solutions online f scared boyfriend need help,1 +free ebook last chance sit act less month prep may given dream score decided apply test optional current act giving confidence well dont still one shot trust me tips personal dream score whole lot closer may think google form link free ebook registration httpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwghttpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwg know thinking this must scam i heard many different tips tricks makes different honesty would think exact thing however spare minute time assure one best decisions made comes act prep sat act february achieved good score not good enough ivies international student uk figured use apply could never compete students one friends convinced give another shot registered july act really rusty however only month prepare super stressed really thought could achieve good score but spent countless number hours reading different tips tricks majority tips completely failed use however i discovered hidden gems propelled super happy celebrated getting however seen many students able sit act due cancellations simply cannot get dream score say dream i thought could never reach let alone honesty started feel really guilty i many niche unknown tips acquired shared anyone want share help anyway can i process creating free ebook released within weeks be free amazon hours make sure download asap launches remember applying year still december act one last shot lose interested receiving ebook launches just fill linked google form you use email google one receive amazon link goes live completely free pages so contain waffling best tips acquired hope help many possible best wishes drdurak google form link free ebook registration httpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwghttpsformsglewcpwvqdltvxwg,0 +im hopeless redflag solution end sufferingive extremely suicidal pretty long time now ive depressed around years ive made failed attempts dont want live anymore fear knowing exactly happen finally end life something worry about wont hold back ive finally enough something im constantly thinking about death seems peaceful im constantly wondering would like finally end sadness end ability feel pain death seems desirable aspect worry family friends theyll feel hurting isnt enough stay alive theyd sad finally it time werent support knew bad struggling maybe theyll say selfish end life selfish supporting needed support love theyll okay life isnt worth living youre living yourself im living myself trust me didnt want go path tried getting help depression tried everything could many things helped temporarily end im still finding hole cant get of im still completely miserable friends family dont care enough me im hopeless going far long dont know much longer take go plan last night boyfriend got it spent night crying usual always cry night usually him made feel particularly unloved uncared last night knows depression hes around see dark sides feel hopeless suicidal sad doesnt really know support right way already wanted end life pain feel daily basis maybe last night pushed closer towards ready it entire mentality lately die end ive suffering long time nothing gotten better nothing worked dont understand point living feel pain suffer die end skip part die instead going life suffering im completely hopeless cant find one reason live says lot million reasons end life cant take anymore,1 +sacha baron cohen genius movie good although film nearly reach quality tvshow still funny seriously wicked moments ive liked ali g since first time saw material show think hes one best comedy characters time say peter dragon action blues brothers biggest surprise film theyve actually got serious actors dance gambon absolutely respect even more good sense take chance nothing really bad say film funny juvenile hey what br br one thing mr g sequel pleasebr br ,0 +im starting think crush likes back meanive looked things shes like staring stuffim honestly freaking inside,0 +know well emotionally fucking venting ranting ur professor ur weekly reflection essay true story second week,0 +friend beat sure whether sad jealousjust got phone call sister let know k paramedic no paramedic bloody good paramedic funny kind would help anyone apparently problems work his sister tell kind muddled understandable k retained left opiates patients need full dose injected himself found turn shift yesterday many friends afford lose one hand guess one less person disappoint die godspeed k love you,1 +broke found money drink like usual drinking problem escaping feelings problem sometimes food tv games phone but thing week important several interviews high paying jobs broke anymore instead celebrating still want die want anymore alone financially supporting bf animals love want leave deserve better know broke lol,1 +guys know people named dick originally came fathers penis,0 +saying hello languages zdravo kaixo salam prshndetje hallo ,0 +endi think im gonna try attempt month two im honestly done life shit nobody needs wants me nonstop suicidal thoughts weeks now see reason keep living im gonna get worse everything gonna keep tearing shreds life getting worse improving years month worst month idk else do im welcome here best leave wont hurt anyone else wont problem anyone elses life burden anyone else,1 +wonderful gritty war film focuses inner torment blinded marine al schmid although tough unpleasant end heroic schmids triumph disability depression battle scene superb one bone pick matter many bullets fired never saw water dirt kicked impacts hurt realism live it fine performance eleanor parker again girl friend,0 +feel like killing thinking redflag everydayim male convinced im gonna end bottom scrapes barrel one all constant instances disrespect people whole life rejection people wanting get know im different depression kicks hard work hard cant help feel hopeless feel like im even going anywhere whats point anyway body loves need better reason live,1 +hate myselfcurrently home drunk ive wanted kill since around maybe years old im now thoughts seem come waves tried exercising eating healthy seeing doctor social none works keep coming back wanting die worst part feel like could fixed getting relationship know make things worse im lonely crave attention get wish could exceedingly happy like people see almost exhausting me year die,1 +went go see friend mine last night played video games around pm am greatest night ive awhile find friend play video games hours end,0 +im insaneeverything look shit now nothing life enjoyable anymore even weed bores me everything boring feel like life bullshit see point anymore want anymore want die shit goes away people call crazy care even know reality anymore keep questioning point life humans work perspective bullshit want die,1 +credflag childhood abuse ex abused hit me current relationshipi love anger issues due bipolar laid today become caretaker low energy become due depression want way feel embarrassed ridiculed ashamed said seek therapy said therapy pointless pursue pay reason anger me causing it caused all could not could make many people angry life it common denominator would world favor leaving fault,1 +want know sub may want shoot try rhorsemanurefetish im going vomit first time years holy fuck,0 +feel alone lonely hurts scary tbh redflages out sure belongs feel alone,1 +everyday like warim live england since got thrown home done take drugs become shell former self dknt want get anymore called friends steal make jokes expense decided show them pm gmt today going kill myself dint want talking it wanted leave trace somewhere know wont remembered people hearts due harm caused drug habit stealing mostly miss girlfriend sad things us idea dark cloud carry around understand why thanks guys edit landlord found blood broken glass sink cutting myself proceeded scream call worthless fuck care three pm today fuck it im going leave im going start sliding everywhere can people like give fuck make want even more,1 +thought okay im noti cant this cant cope mistakes know okay know worth continue fucked amazing guy hate much,1 +want do im genuinely curious choices people want future like career choices people like people want go college high school weve asked degree want pursue next year im getting associates degree high school right automatically science think im going pursue music degree want go college somewhere obscure europe like czechia slovakia become puppeteer like puppets work either musician like playing clarinet composing want feel need it,0 +redflag easy way outinstead stay alive struggling every day life fighting even modicum self respect watching everyone know around always denied appease someone elses idea life them reward suffering death care fight not im giving it,1 +last ressorthave ever thought last ressort redflag like commited die instead go trip fuck prostitutes drugs dont knowdo something anything something dying maybe awaken life,1 +help aunt sent gif spiderman flossing,0 +depression getting worse way treating itim ive suffered believe depression anxiety years know selfdiagnosis reliable bad reputation ive much trauma growing currently living severely abusive household raped molested kid bullied years struggling accept homosexuality etc ive suicidal thoughts long remember truly happy years always feel numb apathetic emotions im drowning sadness even small tasks like showering dressing exhausting difficult do ive never officially diagnosed depression even were theres possible way treated it parents believe mental health mental illnesses think therapy medication sham potential sources help life great either multiple times past ive tried tell doctor im suffering depression told really think was schools counselor helpful listen would keep telling needed less stressed constant breakdowns want harm myself time them happen reason recent one saturday february th mother got angry tried stab me ran away locked room started crying laying floor breakdown started felt like heart attack systems shutting down could feel screaming convulsing stop kept thinking slitting wrists ive never done form selfharm though im scared would happen parents noticed afraid hands might myself felt like control them point started slamming head floor wall complete agony knew head wanted make stop usually breakdown approx every three months ive three already since started im afraid im going kill depression get treated soon cant wait years leave home get treated then think possible feel like entire life spent fighting depression ruin everything grades relationships individuality im tired losing battle end sight know do,1 +soooo another shameless question u think look like probably goblin,0 +cant leave termsplease dont tell smell flowers realize amazing future could potentially be already know didnt ask life given maybe want leave turn accomplish this everyone seems weird agenda keeping people suffering alive make feel better,1 +niggas like using ppls stolen credit card bad reeeeee u morels like shut pussy want money ion rly anymore tho cause annoying companies put million security systems cant even order shit real card know balance like using bullshit dumb broke fucking idiots card annoyingly hard yea,0 +somebody please interview parents me assignment forgot ask questions morning remember news day days following public opinion think changed world know it so how thoughts add due tuesday its sunday here thanks bunch yall,0 +brilliant chuck jones master warner bros cartoon comedy brings us first pepe lepew cartoon alley cat tired pushed around paints colors skunk healthy dose limburger turns tables tormentors along comes pepe know rest many pepes famous gags born here including chasehop hops casually along prey runs exhaustionbr br in opinion warner bros cartoons became less inventive hohum s toon one examples mel blanc putting absolutely crazy voice pepes mouth kicker ending pepe revealed american wolf skunks clothing must see classic warner bros,0 +stuck abusive environment best anyone say hang therethey understand wears people thin cannot hang there forever possible solution way out therapy useless path abuse victims,1 +gpa fucked futurei study constantly grades get worse gpa fucking compete people gpas fucking guess respect anymore im fucking done objectively suck everything including video games spend hours upon hours on suck sports im always left behind going somewhere im asthmatic roadkill mauled death purpose die parents wouldnt pay weeaboo ass games medicine neither would need listen cries goes friends waste space suffer never get happiness doesnt help im low iq degenerate fat furry faggot awful socisl skills even awful sense humour fact im fucking ugly blue pilled sjw would ever date me fact probably autism doesnt help fuck end me,1 +thinks bit odd story year old england got stabbed death really big news outside uk compare school shootings like hear england within day seems like story exclusive uk know year old boy set girlfriend paid another year old stab way teaching lesson got angry sent nudes another guy,0 +wish buttonall methods commit redflag taxing read through combination lethality pain preparation itself fuck want go,1 +im suicidal im tell father need advicei suicidal thoughts six months now last one month tendency self harm increased exponentially left hand mess cuts look horrible even cuts scars previous ones im terrified myself though thankful god none deep enough cut artery even though horrifying urges kill know one thing want die im tell father im say ,1 +everyone always says people love meand know do family gone way express theyll anything help me help affect relieve pain god cant take this feels like im living incinerator kill myself,1 +anyone ever commit redflag lack sexmarried years celibate last years constantly feel lonely inadequate lost interest sex im supposed live rest life without days dont deal anymore,1 +capitalism cruel way survivelike change it think cures people indifferences,1 +envy people subyou simple problems like oh boygirlfriend abandoneddiedcheated me oh parents worst oh alone owow cat died actual friends anyone genuinely cares me best health ugly shit top something like bipolarity whatever shitty skin syndrome feel discomfort itch even pain body every single second never girlfriend and honest want psychopath actually like abomination me top all citizenship cannot visit doctor diagnose anything bad kick country looking know guy good future maybe working mediocre lowpaid job girl would never date piece shit best bet either trying pursue education achieve medium salary workplace small apartment age best fleeing woods living wildmen somebody tell reason live welcome comment section,1 +actual convo tinder me eat ass her start hello me hello eat ass,0 +fking got roasted first year uni student compsci fking got roasted mom cuz im changing major art dont even know im able change major becuz im basically reapplying uni holyfk never listen people picked comp sci becuz family sister graduated uwaterloo software engineering cant catch regret everything,0 +fuck everything everything goes wrong many problems cannot solve everytime fucks shit cannot nice life nobody cares anyway glad finally cut veins bleed death goodbye need stop postponing today day finally leave,1 +beat pr good game one favorites hollow knight,0 +groomed several men last year proud it fuck is married also damn,0 +judge production hour version released vhs us choppy incomprehensible mess pleasure watching fulllength hour version available dvd uk spellbound deliberate pace growing sense menace mesmerizing amazing visual aural landscape ancient rome never seen before far authentic mostbr br director franco rossi justly celebrated miniseries odyssey miniseries equally powerful bekim fehmiu became screens best ulysses klaus maria brandauer may screens best nero now hoping someday see rossis version aeneid eneide broadcast italian tv br br i undecided version quo vadis powerful one polish miniseries different virtues many ways complement one another certainly either one towers hollywood campriot starring peter ustinov,0 +hey hey hey chuck us zappo,0 +failing highschool want kill myselfive honour student since grade im currently grade ive schools moved times never stay house years soon years pass family moves new location hard make friends make im gonna move again mom literally came room one day said were moving dad left kindergarten never seen since hes running cops last year failure year first semester got honours like always second semester went hill transfered completely new district mother transfered school week started sign classes want since classes wanted full highschool supposed go signed ap classes art kids smart school math slower kids completely died class schopl filled fithy rich drugged white kids coming asian family completely hated it fit in whole year made friends second semester science new caucasian teacher completely hated guts mother decided would great idea go vacation week summer break hand around assignments one week panicking thankfully really killed me whole week vacation panic science teacher gave notes study on friends class would help surrounded classmates copied person teacher would make jokes like mimicking donald trump saying racist things made joke said see white kids laughing looked directly me shed always forget im class would mark absent shed never give assignments literally everyday would go desk ask it every day shed give tons home work id fail it asked help would always half ass answers shed always talk boyfriend forget something were learning students would always correct her failed me got needed pass longer storythis yearskip put science grades went last year marks teacher amazing suddenly kicked class put learning support im good student homework sat class nothing counsiler like all school offers support think credits last year low asked online courses summer school extra credits counsiler like said hates said everything mom wants take science classes cores next semester sci eng social next year sci sci need science graduate shes forcing me first semester almost over huge mental breakdown last year cry front people started crying room mom came running think shes help right no yelled me screamed threw things me said things like fuck crying huh answer me look me fuck problem threw phone charger me younger sibling amp steal swear lie time theres sooo much drama tell all ive depressed long many years gone without killing myself cant fake smiles anymore theres absolutely way ill get enough credits graduate want drop end all care anymore almost am right now cant sleep think killing myself im ready die,1 +want mcd fries someone buy fries pls,0 +movie touches soul audience muchsome scene movie ultimate tears comes automaticallyim surprised seeing movie director direct type movie year as student cinema say movie helps lot understand use montagefirst time teacher told us movie means genre movie thought nothing could movie understand finally sir explained came know great movie islastly say helps lot understanding filmsand cinema student viewers see movie,0 +wanna die canti want foolproof way access gun because reasons bleach really effective fancy tall ass buildings live skittling wrists takes long hanging painful im considering maybe fire straight electrocution might well go flaming whatever otherwise im stuck little backstory world live truly utterly fucking faked wanna die could wake daaaaamn seriously tho cant anymore mean love parents shit theres much take cant live anymore knowing actually life like literally im gonna end nothing give back story fucking answer question please electrocution legit,1 +terry gilliam traveled future he already done brazil tell story virus thats destroying human racebr br the script totally crazy easy tricks quite entertaining gilliam proves hes got imagination the futuristic scenes great cast bruce willis beautiful madeleine stowe whatever happened her ok brad pitt annoying whenever plays roles hand results forced hes credible all play goodlooking successful young menbr br my rate ,0 +nothing need diethere future it present totally alone yes alone you guarantee it sort constant withdrawal worse nicotine withdrawal maybe things could satiate it ive found arguing frenzy getting suicidal real person crisis lines feel absolutely fake need toxicity even that impossible alone why unattractive trans autistic that lifetime building it indigenous histories living place genocide matter go need falls apart feel like need break something scream energy strength to want sleep im sleeping hours day now sometimes wake noon fall asleep sleep am maybe stay bit maybe shower eat sleep noon everyone else things course load easy almost nothing impossible cant it please let die,1 +severe redflag ocd today let get best me looked phone huge breach trust hate myself hate it hate mind lot thinks would better killed self make emotional problems baggage peoples problems edge right wondering even benefits existing caused fianc much emotional diredflag relapsed opiates think ill ever able forgive myself hes clean going months,1 +imagine me running bedroom am morning screaming hustle hustle hustle wake ask confused who tf you answer get hustle go go h sleep hustle hustle hustle,0 +mistaking halloween rebroadcast orson welles classic radio adaptation war worlds real martian invasion group moronic martians shows earth looking conquer plans go awry find truly element reality alonebr br this really often quite good funny decent lines just check memorable quotes boot likely appeal scifi fans passed test time seeing recently proved much better expected be despite cast made noname stars may funniest martian invasion ever put film interestingly enough martians seem represent almost every classic action heroscifi hero stereotype cool s teen fighter pilot fearless astronaut brave soldier kooky scientist fun whole family br br prepare die earth scum,0 +honestly teeny bit confused people understand pride bragging gay pride celebrating fact us lgbtq flat crime anymore ik vast majority people understand ive seen lot least straight people dont shove face sub lately also im sure would much fun hyping us inside parade,0 +holy crap killed brother killed sims accident worry save every day rolledback last save,0 +know whats funnyhow people fucking tell shit care truth care dead people supposed make feel safe fucking make feel worse fucking hope feel guilty lost fucking horrible damage inflicted onto never undone fucking hope feel guilty amount times ive cried bullshit words told nothing that fucking hate,1 +starting senior year collegeampxbseptember body dysmorphia leads believe gynecomastia plastic surgery research occupies time turns basically negligible case goes away lose weight learned much later onampxbdecember scheduled and cancelled surgery dates plastic surgeons remove gynecomastia parents recommend see doctor talk depression obligeampxbjanuary first visit doctor start taking zoloft mg xdayampxbmarch dosage mgday start complaining doctor emotional numbness taper back mg xdayampxbapril bar get cold clocked to day still know hit me clean mandibular fracture broken two places wired shut weeks that ampxbaugust decide good need zoloft anymore was also overweight go drug two weeks later total bmw e m bought year prior running stop light see tboned taxi ampxbseptember researching zoloft weakens bone density increases risk fractures thought if zoloft jaw would broken starts grow head call mom birthday mention suicide first time says cannot leave earth tearsampxboctober meet new girl become boyfriend girlfriend ampxbapril buy penis enlargement device just because see get bigger gf time mind you insecure size begin with wanted see could get bigger ended suffering injury much fast left penis hard flaccid state sometimes actually lost bit length girth it leads lot redflag depression still experience dayampxbmay depressed decide start zoloft again mg xday ampxbseptember go zoloft again girlfriend break up ampxboctober january working fulltime met another girl around feb dated recently things ok covid make things easier whateverampxbfebruary approach urologist potential zoloft ruining sex drive reason cannot perform like used to start research come across wellbutrin start taking wellbutrin mg sr xday ampxbmarch go wellbutrin ampxbwellbutrin mgx per day continues monthlong streaks coupled month off cycle repeats months middle past june ampxb end june come across bunch photos year two prior gynecomastiazoloft phase look love see face looked different remember penis looking functioning way used to remember way teeth pressed together closed mouth jaw click everytime opened gave girlfriend oral ampxbjuly take fathers competition ruger case next bed i parents house here hold it look it wonder cry whatever try fight try think differently nothing really happens put gun back case decide light bowl get high pass top parents stairs pm afternoon work rest family vacation house home alone ampxbjuly decide book tee time drop holes tips home course back nine golf big passion mine horror stories trying play collegethroughout highschool get into played golf entire life july today wake up depressed again high time start reading people psychiatric medications permanently mess up start thinking everything dick fucked up face looks different jaw fracture suffered chose take antidepressants and ssris probably weakened bone density pissed away good notredflag good women everything go back upstairs take dads ruger again look it time cry little bit start realize unstable thing holding back really know operate ruger magazines out though bullets magazines frighten again put back case cry god bit say i really tough time man know do am july hit post reddit grab keys head town habitual coffee yo male getting close scared first time unsure matter time go,1 +antidepressant stopped workingive weeks fine want kill anymore still empty nobody loves nobody even cares now stopped working morning mom yelled me want die cant stand house hate family seen people really love two weeks want blamed everything want much pressure me fucking cares college right now want someone care right now cant even numb pain things like video games talking someones care about mom thinks bad me bad try communicate people actually fucking care about bad locked alone ever see friends see reason kill now ill always alone lie say get better wont die makes easier me nobody would even care,1 +cant even kill myselfi tried hang myself put rope up around rafter around neck jump off fuck wrong me cant anything right even arrange funeral wanted it over want alone thats fate,1 +corporation listening concept quite simple employees wellbeing gt profit know foreign concept something make money nfl doesnt mean puts employees risk nfl,0 +hello minor years old exact yes fucking years old suffering depression since years old year told one friends two fav cousins depressed friend really helping know fake anyway cousins helping lot told feeling sad could contact could talk tell parents thinking want get therapy even correct age need parents consent want tell really harsh letting anything love tbh school blame school parents telling study cannot focus today cried shower wasted half hour even know cuz fucking hiding them coming cannot get therapy fellow depressed people know feels tell parents feel asking help want go somewhere nobody present scream cruel world lose voice coming heart kill plz,1 +lived life cannot assign adjective yeah longer it lost type wth goes nothing today day guess,1 +im coming back arent gonna ready first im gonna take shit im gonna leave im gonna prove everyone wrong dont need know post about ready,0 +m need new friends m here recently couple best friends left me knew half years need new longterm best friends stuff me love playing video games mainly valorant minecraft java oh also bit apex im also programmergame designer yes ig thats sorta cool really im california would nice get people timezonerelated reasons play pc pst timezone though said live cali might rendered mute,0 +see point livingi friends amp family distant im scared nothing ever change life ,1 +anybody else suicidal super irrational reasonsim suicidal im tall woman record im twenty four years old ive feelings since ninth grade cant seem stop coming cant even tell come from super irrational thing suicidal over people take seriously root cause depression medication work part cant change people get much affects me breakdowns times day barely leave house quit job want seen public measure compulsively times every week course help first thing people comment whenever see me and course something complain people would think im humblebragging since apparently tall desired reason cant share even fraction much affects life theyd horrified know whats wrong taken life want shorter since never ever happen way makes feel hopeless id honestly rather die know problem probably never go away cant live rest life like this,1 +pissed right saw vid tiktok two girls went miss men went war never came back like know fucking offensive is k likes aswell dads army going war one biggest fears live ireland theres small chance happening hes close death before plain sexism girls think place say really makes sad,0 +feeling nothing worse feeling sadi want feel something ive never known like this want escape fucking prison cant brain this cause chemical imbalance makes want kill itself it please let feel something want want feel,1 +jealousy is disease guess disease,0 +suicidal thoughtsi keep suicidal thoughts days im happy lets call normal mostly everyday want kill myself straight away mind broken real meaningful purpose feeling life decisions decided others pushed friends away feel alone even im around people feel stuck want die want leave earth thing keeping family my dad mom brother even hard would die tomorrow would happy knowing people wont im im living feeling already years becoming worse day days weeks years past depressed become,1 +read fucking bio fucking dare,0 +tired struggleive therapy medication since much adolescents spent drug induced zombie graduated binge drinking consuming mg thc day form edibles career almost encourages substance abuse anyone looking would dream job im tired go days without sleep sleep solid hours medication working therapy nothing always unhappy ive set date improve check out,1 +teacher lowering grade previou grading period anyone straight as first grading periodnow im end secondand looked back stand one class c wtf techah,0 +one remember diewhat really makes depressed fact day die one remember me sure friends family remember but soon later die them memory person too making like never existed world amazing people forever remembered ramses ii herodotus homero virgil romulo cyrus leonidas pericles hipokkrates socrates plato aristotles alexander great confucius cleopatra julius caeser octavius augustus jesus christ gengis khan joanna darc colombus magellean leonardo da vinci michael angelo donatello raphael oda nobunaga maquiavel shakespeare mozart montesquieu rosseau kant george washington napolean bonaparte beethoven abraham lincoln karl marx lenin freud mussolini adolf hitler stalin salazar franco winston churchill elvis martin luther king jr pel marlon brando marilyn monroe queen michael jackson metallica eminem cristiano ronaldo pewdiepie amazing people changed world way another good bad always remembered matter age immortal even get started fictional characters dont even exist yet people know also forever exist real ever be im living ghost unable speak see hear whats even point alive love family work things fade matter die im years old im nothing one feel nothing feel emotion stimulus meme book game movietv show social interaction although emotions things make feel super brief without them im constant agony cant fine without anything stimulating feel anger sadness dread anxiety sorrow then nothing especially painful night im trying sleep count good nights sleep year fingers hands people around dont even realize im always smiling cracking jokes hoping one feels like this funny owe nothing humanity sometimes hate still care us try help best way can killed today people would wonder it even realize whats inside would make that done yet life death sides coin life might meaningless would death im still here ghost living corpse dragging body road life hoping stitches break anyone else feel like this,1 +please help im serious today started getting noti phone saying anne sent photos offical notification hit clear come back idk happening cant remember clicking fishy sites also get ads sometimes open phone now please help also im android use play protect matters also update got fb dms sas random girl rubbing tits,0 +want people know whats happening life since cant really tell someone irl without freaking somethingi really dont want to stuff going happen soon resulting loosing family school long term girlfriend im really scared im coward honestly would rather dead try fix mess mess putting lightly though life large puzzle itd like throwing entire thing fire shame im thinking cutting artery idt id stomach that ill figure something out hear takes bleed out dont hit artery people usually discovered saved fortunately live alone dorm room one ever visits lot time wrote note class addressed girlfriend looking back it kinda place dont feel like fixing it hear slit arm cause permanent damage fuck up got medical stuff case wake decide try right after guess im writing make sure people know dont history depression havent really shown obvious reasons something think id ever kill myself feel certain sense control calmness im actually looking forward time make decision decide go it ill let guys know,1 +spoke veterans crisis hotlinewhen younger thought redflag quite lot point life decided going zombie living now thats say moments happiness things fun decided would live life despite really feeling like point all recently someone base committed redflag reason got thinking lot think might it thoughts passed point return capable same decided last night talk redflag hotline veterans person spoke kept referring helpless hopeless thoughts feelings ive seen sentiment many posts here feel things amazing life feel like horrible one either see point anything best way explain it paraphrase monologue beginning movie the art getting by since dawn recorded history something like billion human beings born world single one made it billion people planet roughly million die every year million people comes per day read quote kid live alone die alone everything else illusion used keep night die alone so supposed spend life working sweating struggling illusion amount friends girl assignments conjugating pluperfect determining square root hypotenuse gonna help avoid fate anyone else problem wanting commit redflag hardships struggles honestly point living,1 +anyone thinks alone redflag optionin days first month since lost best friend redflag days would turned amazing didnt think really was thought alone one cared told us first time tried eventually wouldnt care one would come funeral two years went am th november got call changed life broke me disbelief got call didnt believe gone got house like would back later day call every one friends listen hearts break broke news them next night went crash site seen done started feel real seen shattered blue car parts everywhere night people stood around tree tears weeks go im reminded littlest things ill see something want message remember heart breaks again tuesday funeral worst day life started open coffin viewing family heart dropped finally real seen almost unrecognisable month old body beautiful best friend every time close eyes think gone image seen haunts me later funeral started listened everyone made impact short life hearts break brother held front coffin walked car every face room looked tears walked cemetery looked back people behind us people hurt cared beautiful man thought one lowed coffin took white rose hole said final goodbyes love fucking hurt everyday go lay grave hour everyday talk things missing looking forward to want everyone remember redflag doesnt end pain passes ones love remains,1 +thought original film quaint charming well sitting edge seat trying figure outbr br since already seen original saw sci fi channel know remake deliberately made sci fi knew within first minutes since like richard burgi character actor wanted see would pull offbr br the writersproducers etc modernized film bit trying explain plight aliens they could longer reproduce kind needed help using pseudo science crammed ears s maybe added bit polish film notbr br this film film production takes sinister edge original did original ended confrontation young woman alien understanding sorts took place although resolution aliens problembr br i sort remember remake woman became rather hostile towards burgialien think could ended better ending ending yarn swell yarn basic science fiction pulp stock many great science fiction stories written s even made filmbr br this swell thing watch like rainy day something rate highly cos remakes old s sci fi one came well actually enjoyed quite bitbr br but anyone really wants see story told well suggest original version tom tyron gloria talbott directed gene fowler jr,0 +gen z want live theres viral video tiktok right know yearold saying hopes everyone related cop dies mean yeah fuck cops theyre assholes fuck wrong people xbox modern warfare i hope whole fucking family dies type joke people genuinely want happen,0 +enjoyed albert pyuns nemesis cheesy action semicomplicated script lot people complain confusing plot first film probably nemesis nebula dumb rocks plot superaction carry throughbr br this one gives name first movies hero alex bulked superfemale sent past save future raised tribe africa good portion film dialogue african tongue without subtitles liked made seem somewhat authentic how often movies genre really try that take long evil cyborgs time travel back time find try kill herbr br dont get wrong piece crap not first one anything great subplots involving africas political unrest treasure hunting tribal combat picture short brains none things gets good treatment picture basically drawn fight chases boils musclebabe vs cyborg entertainment value expect quality anything first movie,0 +cant decide want kill myselfi seriously wish lived near high bridge like golden gate bridge san francisco did wouldnt alive right now theres lots trees near house wherei could learn tie noose hang myself could also crash car metal poll tree high speeds want method thats fast painless world evil cruel place longer want part it parents ever owned firearm would likely killed now wish one could stuck gun roof mouth die painlessly last year alive im excited fucking escape everything permanently cant live life loser killed young age,1 +adviceso recently ive getting extremely caught head past ive found hard able find happiness question is make pain go away,1 +ever think about constantlyim utterly alone im hurting much cant go longer im giving in much everyone gone cant go like anymore cant,1 +new year new xd bwas tuff challenqinq learned wut lovelt iz wut pain iz made new freinds lt lost old freinds lt learned nd matter wut liv lyff w reqretzz stronqer cant wait new year new wut abowt guys,0 +fascinating yet unsettling look edith bouvier beale big edie daughter little edie aunt first cousin late jacquelyn kennedy onasis live rodent infested rundown mansion considered health hazard city becomes quite clear quickly two well past eccentric little edie seems acts mindset ten year old even though actually content pretty much made two things first conversations little edie lambastes big edie driving away potential suitors ruining aspiring career writer actress dancer discussions usually become rhetorical nonsensical often times amusing second part consists long bouts attempted singing parties course thinks singing perfect sounds bad one amazing scene big edie actually physically attacks little edie cane get stop warbling captivating yet one gets feeling serious exploitation going subjects far gone know it filmmakers seem treat like freak show circus coming day record and chuckle whatever bizarre behavior may come about ultimately sad picture shows world simply past two by hopes dreams decayed mansion live in despite bickering two need ever without would refuge loneliness amazing line comes big edie whose many cats relieve throughout bedroom response complaint smell simply unbelievable,0 +dont know im freaking ive done before cant hear ear pushed wax back cleaning ears cant hear left ear happened before dont know im freaking out dont know dont know whats going on,0 +killing escape humanityi often think want kill ill never deal another person ever again times truly deeply happy alone nature always way feel alive taking walks starry skies going barefoot moors surrounded animals only mind body everything am registers people threat true contentment happiness found solitude feel broken deal people feel constant sharp pain makes think sth wrong me thing instantly ebbs away alone nature maybe belong society id okay that never asked become human id rather free animal tbh now never want see another person ever again people fundamentally untrustworthy cause much pain id id feel whole living alone woods either killing myself valid options escape humanity redflag would also mean person anymore biggest wish know im supposed enjoy alive know im young blabla miss stars solitude want go nature let die whenever want to,1 +give reasonwhy die give best shot,1 +lockdown ruined already miserable ability conversation like normal human especially voice calls unless im playing game people cant talk discord anymore autistic little brain tells,0 +thanks everyone spoke me made mindi realized cant bear return home decision liberating first time long time clarity purpose gonna right world goes on thank sharing last moments take care,1 +one frightening game experiences ever make keep lights next bed great storyline romantic horrific ironic plot fans original resident evil surprise returning character mention voiceacting drastically improved previous series miss best series,0 +keep pretending ok not thoughts spiral hard get stuck thinking point all ever wanted pursue passion life did made huge leaps bounds lot hard work sacrifices primary name major motion picture soon released people proud jealous look me idk wish could get behind perspective huge jumping point me huge step right direction cannot storm hit months ago broke living home again work took get number health great begin with thanks genetics still stories want tell world fucked going help anyway even get there inside gross depressed years juggling suicide past nine months off medicated exercise twice day eat healthy sleep sometimes drink smoke cut lot feel better it single hope love care kids never have wanted career feel like want anything die tired this know do looking someone talk,1 +hopes up crushed epicallyive suffering depression long remember stopped taking meds two months ago make feel keep mind good place begin with already inches swallowing bottles pills have weeks ago encouraged apply promotion work interviewed really well according interviewer asked later on even acting supervisor days supervisors available told supervisors sure means got it get work today check email find complete utter denial explanation nobody else applied position tonight taking pills ive saved up im worthless im worthless deserve live nobody severe ptsd raped military twice got months later given hiv yr old male btw want keep living maybe ill swallow pills maybe ill jump front train maybe ill even bleed out ten years left live anyways nobody would care,1 +something wrong me dont know something wrong not lying like thinking deaths shit hit me seen many family members die even close friends die always thought would react overwhelming way whenever howeverit doesnt affect all rd grade best friend died asthma attack gathered us gym honor everyone looking me didnt care all spent long girl didnt care died another time wasnt long ago dog years old loved him passed told didnt care thought dying figured would freak out didnt shown picture soldiers heads cut dad didnt want show me stepmom kinda forced too thought id freak didnt gore doesnt bother anyway used look gorey pictures fun find fake many emotions people dont think im weird situations im practically pro fake tears know anti social personality disorder thing however definitely sociopath im type person feels bad bad guy movie something goes wrong dont know normal not talk someone,0 +quick git commit die sleeping make sure wakes bunch love everyone ,0 +new wife would get mad asking basic things pads new clothes school new glasses ect grandma one buy new clothes stuff refused to told wanted academic bowl bpa school laughed said mocking tone smart kids anyways many awards,1 +lpt heres shortest way girls heart chidori raikiri weebs,0 +guys math clicked test minutes pog,0 +day crossing street almost got hit car see im extremely upset get hitthis first post here feel guilty writing mental energy stick around try give back kindness encouragement desperately hoping receive still ive wishing die long time attempted anything serious yet always try hang there say im afraid failing suffering permanent damage possible afterlife remnants catholic upbringing really wish have day almost died crossed street without looking without even thinking it car swerved stopped driver going quite fast feel relief realising still alive felt nothing pain despair close dying without even noticing didnt cant afford therapy family members good enough mentally healthy enough help friend today snapped trying absolute hardest ask support apparently im unreasonable asking whether five minutes spare rather unloading suicidal wishes go figure tried ask help days ago another subreddit but honestly answers really hoping for know im going this post place keep crying despair feel friend actually kept breaking heart part feels like well deserved yeah im lost im going anything tonight think feels tempting wish kind words empty know strangers issues lurked people seemed nice feel guilty able give anything back im supposed studying cant job covid situation question right honest really see point im living life im going die soon nothing matters wish die im never happy also wish so even know im asking point just please kind even corny heart emoji guess,1 +need someone talk toto anyone either bad day even thinking taking life please feel free send message aim snypers usually online either playing video games browsing reddit feel free send message know isnt much feel like need help fellow redditors,1 +kill meplease end me,1 +others even care anymoreive never ordinary kid ive faced multiple occasions physical mental abuse growing up imagine kind effects later life hate others feel like im fed bread crumbs taking blame things fault know think tiring wake another day hope future one vent without looking like attention seeker im always tempted self harm know anymorei hate point really see anymore,1 +anyone talk mehi really need people talk right now okay atm im pain moms bf basically hit strangled me life honestly pretty shit overall try keep going everyday today bit much called police here end still left alone theres much do file charges feel alone life tbh know go anymore,1 +idk feel anymore bisexual idk biromantic one non gay girl friends kissed cheek idk tell simp barron trump join rbarrontrumpfanclub,0 +mom put broccoli spam together dont get wrong love mom uhbroccoli spam combo dont know eat this excused bathroom write this wish luck,0 +hhhhhh fuck finished work due monday ive avoiding work understand think might deadline,0 +kill feels like big mistakei weak human dont care well future failed two studies this im late application next one days go nothing interests me wanted kill knew future got family sucks want exist im grown all do,1 +always ending ghosting fuck friends need,1 +rapists deserve torture please read commenting hello couple friends got argument rapists deserve said death also said torture torture like cutting fingers shit downvote hell please let explain myself dad rapist doesnt excuse me mom died childbirth dad one cause sister didnt talk anyone cause dad raped her hated dad wouldnt torture him imagine person u love example whole family dead u ur sondaughter turns rapist would u torture him hear scream cut fingers u dont imagine u could rapists deserve it tell u thoughts that,0 +blocked father dead childi want abortion forced getting one day recovery calls say my job done closure end us never pregnancy said help recovery said even though access resources still need communication leasti know describe it odd hormone bond pregnant makes want fathers care hung up blocked every way possible way contact him idea hack could atleast get hold someone knows im physically unwell already post op bleeding pain mentally cant stand child father gone easiest way go without pain take bunch pills,1 +im you know feelingive experienced enormous amount loss recently ive posted reaching myself experienced loss days ago entire family gone today recognize worst part feeling alone even speak someone knowing support comes lack true knowledge awful going actually is one broken person another you talk me,1 +want goneim graduated high school done nothing life all dropped two colleges right high school home since absolutely nothing jobs currently none hate myself hate appearance life going nowhere lost weight year ago gained self confidence first time years gained back some idk calorie day diet months hair thinned like crazy even now year since eating back normal hair never recovered hairline absolute shit looks like diffuse thinning top head little back head major cause depression wanting die know sounds stupid hair many worse things world balding know people would wish biggest problem losing hair know logically stupid doesnt change feel perfect hair straightest hair line even beginning hair great idk strict diet coincidence looks horrible hate even typing sounds idiotic spoiled kills every time look mirror see photo myself even bought wig looked like shit drain im young hair transplant started taking propecia dont see results aside head hair body hair im ridiculously hairy hate it back shoulders neck arms chest covered hair of course everywhere head lol self conscious it even lose weight ill never feel confident enough take shirt public beach pool wish badly could like guys age take shirt jump pool dont go pool beach do im wearing shirt makes look like fat potato ive gotten dozer laser hair removal treatments arent shit idk laser doesnt work electrolysis option crazy expensive take legit years dont see guys age back hair grown ass men hate it thinking going back school found college think might like thinking start fall ill freshman ill feel old everyone else graduating college ill starting feel like late even go back try age ill or even older time graduate dont even know fuck wanna study im passionate anything dont care anything im good anything dont want anything want sleep day leave house close taking handful pills going sleep bathtub one believes ill actually commit redflag really thinking it im unhappy life self want ended im sorry sound stupid spoiled inconsiderate theres people cant afford food people homeless people cancer people paralyzed wheel chairs stupid fucking ass complaining going bald body hair wtf i wanna punch dick people would love healthy feel selfish wanting die others want live lose weight again try getting electrolysis hair screwed everyone said shave it bald dont want to itll make look older dont want that funny wanted actor yeah yeah know got accepted acting school new york dont even want go anymore cant actor bald hairy fat even lost weight year old gonna even make receding hairline gorilla back even considered trying transition girl read taking hormones stop body hair help head hair grow thats fucking insane am seriously considering changing gender hair gay dont wanna girl dont want boobs vagina want guy want look different im much pussy cut wrists dont like pain want end this wish could give life someone deserves wants live idek donate organs knows long body sitting time dad goes upstairs see am im sorry dont think anyone gonna read fucking sob story essay wanted get out,1 +want tobecause hate feelingright doesnt seem like anything going direction wife two affairsdespite tried make work filed divorce courts ruling favor kids child support top that work absolute shit show im lose job justdont know take anymore spent time last night thinking something ever past things holding back kiddos religions beliefs scared afterlife looks like it despite that theres part wants escape here getting harder harder push down,1 +something change undeniable dilemmaim borderline means distorted perceptions means husband goes verbal tirade tells awful am imcant say hes wrong says im abusive son remember said get yell last night home son day recovering minor surgery exhausted stayed night check him asked husband help ask right way overwhelmed exhausted came across bitchy guess yelled yelled yelled ways im horrible already knew piece shit husband thinks too threatened wit telling really thought go there idea ask help properly know borderline quit next months spent planning arranging redflag feeling never goes away im trapped unhappy marriage someone verbal abuses calls abusive one believe im borderline feelings last borderline shelol forget hours anyway nope forget hard forget years wrong bad horrible always causing trouble time go hurt anyone else better mom killed mom thats borderline im going abuse others dead cant leave husband fight custody child support use mental illness pot use me theres way win im going stay way wants mouth shut chore errands everything around house everything kid never ask money anything im going play nice doctors save meds enough bother posting here gives shit stupid fucking borderline one herpes mental illness maybe date gets closer ill come back tell plan maybe post non forum tell theres one less borderline world maybe jump front train today instead sorry wasting anyones time read this borderlines fucking joke people laugh kill myself one help me nothing helping mens help therapy help know else besides ect lobotomy redflag way out find way guts it,1 +unbelievably close real life feelings emotions captured joseph mazzello hemophiliac child affected aids new young neighbor wannabe tough redneck played perfection brad renfro although story may seem slightly farfetched the two boys attempt riverraft several hundred miles find doctor claims cure aids emotion actions interactions characters involved tragically close real life big brother boy similar situation died years film released strongly recommend picture anyone ever wondered really happens life child aids superb direction peter horton creates perfect mood setting scene draws viewer various emotions affected friendship illness prejudice final parting two friends fought hard overcome adversity,0 +want diei think best thing copy paste wrote empty shell person skin bones organs nothing else there except intruder brain soul even know is know long time made brain home cant seem get leave would swap life anyone die want thats going happen biggest obstacle convincing family best wish could lay chemicals body show ones work ones let belive let alone think ever good enough ones convince happiness belong me ones make feel alone room full people love ones make feel detached everything goes front me ones stop feeling ones make think everyone looks criticising every inch body ones keep night fantasising dying cannot see lives better place living it see benefit bring them longer live spiral abyss depression scars show flaws exposed wake up feel like crap alive god cant save please kill me let go mind peace way tomorrow go pharmacy painkillers sell one box go next pharmacy get another know need two last time oded whole pack ended hospital one pack im going try hardest let throw time work really hard finish dissertation friday saturday get hotel room want grandma find me,1 +fucking hate cats lot stray cats live mother cat kittens outside house wanted give food put food plastic cup went outside give could mother cat scratched hand make food drop,0 +superb film draws variety talented actors musicians top form levant crosby martin rathbone manone completely home story apparently supplied billy wilder one would love know much it exceptionally clever variation sterile masterfertile servant tale nearly allegory entertainment industry run driedup numskulls made vibrant world art play exploited underclass nobodies nonwasps looking last six decades music tv film us hard see underlying insights film prophetic,0 +even fun sad dont know assume people feel way personally dont like jerk off makes feel like crap after get horny dont even like hub stay away too get horny want jerk chore stand sad horny anyone ever feel like this honestly even horny urge,0 +im readyi meticulously planned redflag making painless tidy possible feel great thing motivating right change life moment end pain quick trip home everything need end life quickly thing getting day anyone advice motivation,1 +following crimson stained roadwell following dusty red road path turns sideways every step sink deeper deeper thick red blood red blood path special tells dirty little lies finally start believing lies fake smile put someone asks whats wrong path let sleep night pulls deeper every hour sleep cant breathe step step step dark crimson lines wrists finally breathe dark angry lines remind certain crimson path hopefully ill see person tonight,1 +feeling pretty bad random year old picked fight feel times better know matter tired lonely sad get ill never sad enough continuously pick fights internet strangers,0 +wrote redflag note part demanded post set delayed send go end it guess thats healthy part im sorry bit novel see much reason selfedit stagei want say im sorry family didnt cause this deserve this didnt deserve me deserved child sibling wouldnt hurt you break heart force feel unnatural unearned guilt child sibling absolute best disease beyond powers suppose im also sorry current friends might hurt know isnt fault either lights life marvels every one wish much happiness love success suppose im also sorry former friends rejected plain terms who assume either nurse unspoken grievance simply lost interest novelty wore virtues multiplied know ive resented it resentment begin realize mostly arose failed understand you needed much obligation give part arose failure understand myself part still wants spit poison feel wronged me ill show proper motive redflag never particularly likeable girl thinking clearly never particularly good hiding ugly irritating features graced im sorry wasnt either us wanted be thats thing always really wanted liked people effort put failed often not course cant try likeable tried interesting clever generous since seemed like things might attract people guess couldnt get hang it lack core capacity basic humanity many share deficient perhaps even everybody liked would still feel way whatever hurt goes deeper bandage woven shared lagers laughter mend trying fight loneliness kind snake oil remedy dont know finding miserable failure things desire even need certainly does well im sure understand im sorry trans community know clich tranny cant hack it kills herself old story told poorly one strove tell realm many others suppose overestimated myself im sorry making us look bad wont first time ive sorry ambassador us hard sometimes seems get easier little while brief illusions success popularity distract me never lasts soon every time im back first real emotional memories are back high school when now lie bed staring wall fantasizing things never be finding solace planning end it knowing theres really nowhere run disease inside me constitutes rotten core me realized hasnt gotten better keep going round around finding back stale hell gritted teeth attempted bare many times before changes upon changes road less same tired march i edited explicit description methods line subreddits rules im sorry wont pass cheekbone genes next generation like always joked would im sorry wont well whatever plans werent idle daydreams might nursed realities merely yetunrealized hearts wish could see you im sorry anything wished said didnt opportunities slip away kinds reasons me thoughts keep running back road past times before curling hole chest imagining sweet oblivion hope you think me think back rare moments happy lying back stephens van long ago watching street lights pass like auroras overhead perfect sunday sams cabin giggling wrestling sticks bottled water saturday evening music festival attempting clumsily apply makeup rhea messy poorlylit sedan moment apartment when whisper kevin asked could fuck me which come think it one memories involving drugs far bingeing rome brother basement eating quesadillas mom made bowling two strikes row annabelles birthday party night comical failure everyone else getting ready leave philosophy mind classes occasionally felt like neil ryan me bouncing ideas became polished arguments though guess sometimes really three us better yet ever luck making happy think that thats really gave life whatever small worth had least little consolation if among people annoyed made angry even put worst moments least times paid enormous debt awfulness little joy maybe version eternal recurrence favoured nietzche relatable character cloud atlas true find places likely not chances time read body floated distance entry point fraser river may unrecoverable which honestly gives fuck instinct give friends first pick clothes basically worldly possessions right there probably workable option donate organization needs them maybe youll find something mine garage sale value village somewhere likely not please dont blame me please dont blame yourselves everyone constitution survive world didnt come argue case want say goodbye love you wish could stay im sorry say cant,1 +going kill myself anybody gun plz let use it cuz tired hearing peoples bullshit things get better want die,1 +growing up irrational fears start off mom told used terrified deflated blowup snowman i believe said across street lived time apparently screamed bloody murder sight i quite remember really little happened next supposedly scared drama faces mom says funniest part drama faces neighbourhood yet apparently scared getting hit vehicle according sister used get lot nightmares said used weird monsters dreams said used tell shell go beat up apparently used laugh end falling asleep again thinks picturing tiny beating monsters probably made laugh she dwarfism got older remember becoming scared falling used able use escalators fine suddenly became scared use nowhere use elevators fine though certain kinds stairs im noticeably cautious walking them remember teeter totter someone fine got older felt nervousscared higher air thats quite yeah developed strange fears growing up,0 +anyone else feeling sad feel sad nothing it pandemic anything else im stuck continuous loop dont know dont know want do dont anyone hang im confused help,0 +alone need helpim m lost girl going marry hate job live home cant afford anything friends always told im people want friends gfs ive like reached others never works out bullied whole life see path gym help always depressed feel worthless care anymore anything want end,1 +though movie first rate roster fine actors special effects excellent story line full surprises picked studio distribution went directly dvd perhaps contains much antipolice force information perhaps juts one many action flicks released glut whatever reason big screens missed opportunity fortunately new concept releasing direct dvd allows us enjoy itbr br the theme old rookie reporter uncovers inner circle cops corrupt case frat first response assault tactical team group well trained policeman created clean mythical city edison low point crime drugs prostitution etc working undercover temptation pocketing confiscated goods money proves much opportunity now years formation frat responsible murder drug trafficking terrorizing innocent people etc lead dog lazerov dylan mcdermott makes terrifyingly real gangster partner rafe deed ll cool j even buff usual proving sensitive actor reporter pollack justin timberlake catches wind bad mistake reports theory fraud corruption papers boss ashford the always reliably fine morgan freeman gradually polack convinces ashford subsequently wallace kevin spacey also consistently fine character actor aid pollack investigative reporting closer pollack gets truth surprises bad incidents happen story runs pall mall toward series unexpected resultsbr br timberlake lacks charisma carry lead especially company seasoned actors cool j freeman spacey mcdermott keep welloiled machine movie rolling end no great movie one makes edge seat action flick message grady harp,0 +know domale soon years old years since met first girlfriend something tbf understand mental challanges nevertheless really fucked up never ever enjoyed sex previous age appropriate girlfriends ended relationships really want sex sex there month turning ive current absolutely amazing gflive partner years love death still cannot commit sex never initiated it does stare upon ceiling trying think something else believes asexual id problem going years orgasms fuck this care think im overlysensitive consider lucky may considered good looking know wrote this gone hour still finished paragraph plea help like a know sincerely hope best yall mind racing please well,1 +id even say shades hitchcockthis clearly better mmm seen guilty pleasure woody fans way know annie hall first conceived murder mystery anyhow woody reclaims relevance film comedy one plot turns nice tight say first minutes so actors little hasty delivering lines stick around scarlett johansson proves wellcast diane keatontype role time uncomfortable moments much older woody one could imagine perfect actor role peter lyman jackman,0 +tired stateless invisiblei years old guy south america i would rather say country inmigrant spain many years mom brought kid life misery home country am stateless home country give new passport without birth certificate spain grant assylum ilegal inmigrant living small room mom barely pay rent survive sometimes afford meals day walk street fear taken toll me im lucky could pass local since skin fairly white long talk people spot foreign accent start asking questions cannot trust anyone arrested twice guardia civil second time policia nacional caught selling replica clothing downtown madrid reason arrest living spain without proper authorization ive een beaten bullied xenophobic police officers well robbed many times local spanish pickpocketers inmigrant cannot even report thieves authorities time end suffering kill myself please go ahead shit chant ilegal inmigration,1 +online school like im england reason decided go lockdown school online classes first time today think starts couple hours need know like,0 +whats coed high school like im never going know ask,0 +redflagwatch need helpfirst all apologize cohesive post im kind typing thoughts come me please read though ill start beginning best friend years recently opened events transpired life younger honestly need know better friend help difficult time life well simply call friend c c years old im met high school years ago like brother ever since differences honestly say constant life hes great guy never talk emotion anything sort hes reserved person never really opened me always knew tough life mother good person hes living father since young age last night house hanging argument text longtime girlfriend well call h never appreciated much kind girl thinks thinks wrong believe toxic person never tried get way cs relationship although knows think her fact agrees sheltered understand real world all fact h completely hates im cigarette smoker atheist even though ive good friend c hates think rather silly reasons typical argument two always says really meanspirited things him yet continues drag along telling really care him always says that knock peg time though snapped went told fuck pretty much finally got tired talked her thats told going go home little bit would back later think much told ill see soon hours later calls tells walking door asked going told got phone redflag hotline thought called hs behalf would never guess million years him always stoic told breakdown needed talk someone honestly shocked ive never known emotional all asked exactly happened concerned basically told argument h triggered major anxiety attack past events came flooding out told actually molested child came back once know say never knew bad vented little bit tell everything problem though c always stoic literally never emotional conversation honestly know talk kind thing simply boundary never crossed told ever needed talk would always here told anything needed would there know else say thats had much experience kinds things hes through feel like kind failed clueless say ended watching hobbit going sleep left early morning spoken since need help better know im really hes got talk kind thing better experience type thing im ears thanks advance update texted minute ago asked doing says better says considering seeing therapist keep everything bottled up encouraged let know always well continue best even simply needs bitch life while thank advice additional resources,1 +must god must god answer certain choose either way send inevitably stupid comments ,0 +nothing reallife emotional hell hole im struggling see good anything point anything nothing real difference would make disappeared tomorrow were sheer coincidence theres magic bearded man sky hand fortune we planet solar system were random happenstance im dead truly nothing consequences feel bad about world exist thank god,1 +plot starts interesting however towards end many die short time turning thrillermystery aspect story slaughterbr br the true highlights adam beach jrgen prochnow excellent selves nice try inappropriate last third though good ending,0 +whats best way handlethings talk someone tried commit redflagi talk someone shooting police put psych ward involuntary hold want visit theyre processed wanted hear anyones personal experience being either side best thing person hear want go personal details someone know well know whats going life hoped someone could provide guidance approach this person intoxicated degree well influence suggestions,1 +need helpi cant take anymore im tired alone lonly dont want move on worth plz idk anymore,1 +reading straighten back banana shaped bleep,0 +slowly coming peace idea deathi need post history say ive seeing therapist year hes helped since way get thoughts out recently like switch kinda flipped ive redflag mind past time different now roughly past week like get ready go bed would rather hang myself dramatic way upset wanting it waiting actually it therapist number crisis intervention center last time saw im sure id use anyway honest really real reason post this maybe someone feeling alone relate im sure good one,1 +deadlines three days cant fucking get anythingplease fucking end me death better migraines head cant get anything done meds helping shitty family friends shitty world live reasons go on smart enough good enough courageous enough better dead,1 +wish would fatal accidentevery single day read innocent people killed people want alive would anything position could take terminal fast growing cancer away someone would could headon fatal collision freeway drunk driver would literally begging die dont know could go redflag knowing pain scares dont want family loved ones blame themselves easy relatively painless method redflag presented me wouldnt look gift horse mouth ive dealt really shitty hand life years age im fucking exhausted cant keep charade much longer,1 +whats hentai hear people talking alot idea is best examples find pms understand is thanks,0 +sabotaging myselfjesus christ fuck wrong me im supposed take new treatment depression anxiety keep going therapy saying im taking it taken single pill month im fucking stupid cant believe it im sabotaging realising am still it hate myself wanting end end june now guess coming,1 +please read thishey everyone im guy early seriously considering killing myself long time friends moving life relationships becoming established unsuccessful long term relationship multiple hookups im fucking tired hookups know someone emotionally dull constantly it every week monotonous shit working days week day usually spent alone sometimes jobs blend wind working days straight spent alone coworkers connect better time off substitute teach frequently go drink stay late weeknights we work restaurant interaction girls outside work either relationships want fuck around tired getting nowhere personal life career but mostly personal life drink much anymore becoming problem smoke cigarettes day cut cant stop want fucking kill every time wake up ill often wake crying wishing face day matter hard work certifications degrees get jokes make ive told everyone thinks im hilarious personable hahahaha plans make go bed every night alone wake plans single textcall throughout day asking spend time or someone know call spend time with worst part everyone socialize cheers enter room even nickname me laugh everything say hangout together constantly never get invited unless basically force it im seeing psychiatrist therapist im lamictal mood swing possible bi polar disorder things better still feel empty every fucking day im going drive gun expo next month walk firearm im going drain account go road trip favorite hobby traveling im going go everywhere united states ever wanted go comes time come back im gna blow fucking head off,1 +went bed yesterday praying wake upwell happen worst part is many people useful members society talented gifted pass away like meanwhile me done anything productive wastes oxygen stay im big pussy actually something world so fucking unfair many people deserve ive got im wasting away guilt feel immeasurable,1 +hating body time _ tfw u sleep pillow ur thighs ur ur side rest upon eachother cant stand feel touch,0 +everyone ignoring subi dont know say friends dont want say word goodbye them thinking messaging goodnight thanks everything think,1 +heroic therapistsmy therapist arguing suicidal people attempting redflag want live bullshit suicidal people ive met whove attempted still suicidal including myself shes convinced shes read facts evidence suicidal people actually want live life good need saved somehow art horses even though genuinely want die therapists really want feel like theyre saving life heroic theyre saving people want die leaving suffering dont understand havent felt feel,1 +friends sent fucked texts give upall friends past fucked left major trust issues last friendship ended telling everyone ever talked toxic selfish despite fact always make time matter theyd get angry hung literally anyone else wanted die dont get along parents friends had ive known newer friends almost years thought finally friendship would last however today thought itd real funny pull epic prank pretended stalker kept leaving messages going see got work even gave location apartment pretty scared thought someone fucking me asked two friends like fucking times swore werent honestly assholes deserve oscar start believe person real anxiety making feel awful whole thing im literally near tears work messages wont stop even manager got worried said tell somebody go home early minutes later cue fucking assholes walk laughing say along planning longer scared id call police fucking furious laugh say oh youre actually angry left without even giving real apology and two adults theyre dumb teen knew scared panicking thought shit hilarious give up last straw me realize awful two make feel time im letting go anymore hate almost much hate point dont know im ever gonna trust anyone again know probably wont friends honestly thought lonely makes want die knows probably next days ill least gone end month know much,1 +truthi put long want know story is it youll first person wont lie tbh still lied things hate most dont know hell someone someday starting age became depressed wasnt bad age became suicidal attempting take life surviving attempt due hook holding rope breaking guess got lucky childhood great compared others utter shite compared well werent poor pretty much anything could want issue wanted proper family anything marriage hardly something would call functional domestic issues home life wasnt best times isnt something dwell on doesnt affect dont care affects day walked house age like somewhere find mother trying kill herself blood everywhere day never looked hate fact cant understand something thing years later school life never best known people popular kind existed slightly interesting person small group close friends people rather large group people placed in never cared appearance school really didnt give shit relationship that came later sad time everything life seemed wrong time realised talent literally nothing know of barely got good grades school straight cs average you probably tell quality writing part large nerd call skype played games chatted night life since however around time started working less pleasant characters shall say took dark places witnessed things wish could forget one topic net dive fear bringing bad memories finishing th form high school top grades ready university also ready die mind back thing stopping me needed me girl cheated bf me said left me tell next day forget fucking girl looked eyes lied said love you girl fucking took hospital tried take life fucking girl held arms drifted conciseness taxi bled neck fucking girl many things cannot even begin talk them girl much would think insane hell people do person one still care anyone gone decided week tried kill much handle girl told stay away from played mind feelings damn way write christmas day im worried next days come ive realised want thats thing tried month ago two years ago ive posted ended hospital nearly every post wish anyone contact police bullshit run you would put danger myself post asking even live for nothing one hold dear world would miss month two name would fade,1 +thinking ending allim long time stalker subreddit know strange thing say thinking ending many occasions feels like ever increasing feeling like right thing do right fiance friends work guess would lessen impact finding me also wondering things could do tidy things could make things easier handle passing,1 +worth livinggood evening everyone im sure correct place post oh well here suicidal thoughts since age never actually anything im writing despite thinking killing near future like living find boring nothing personally enjoy seeing people around depresses even more luckily enough blessed good family never notable problems trouble school trauma social problems despite thoughts while never told anyone apart teacher familiar with want hurt ones love me think therapy kind would help though tried yet point need live like anything do done at least thought about hate certain things like school even stuff necessarily hate like spending times loved ones boring pointless grow older feel trouble keep coming financially independent all want live pay taxes nothing truly live for know normal im oversensitive start thinking future end crying want live want end life front others always put fake smile invent random garbage goto job life would people look weirdly move on im tired that recently thoughts become stronger spending evenings roof idea yet impossibility im weak anyone situation ive tried setting goals stuff nothing gives live please give ideas otherwise would also appreciate ideas regarding painless ways go future thank taking time,1 +today sent sister image something think sent pic dick sickos today sent sister image little kid petting furry looked convincing enough dog still thinks dog wanna ruin her tldr sent picture kid petting furry sister thinks dog,0 +comment post noice this post was brought to you by noice gang,0 +ive made mindok im sad today fill paperwork guide dogs organisation doctors heres thing ive issues cant go details eat pretty good diet certainly type diet would cause major illness malnourishment feel ok eat onoff problems go away little while come back ive accepted fact health change actually terrible problems get uncomfortable doctors tried help me recurring issues curing properly meaning fix issues come back time due complicating circumstances doctors careful medicines give me means im restricted medications currently taking medicines good thing anyway doctors done best ive tolerated issues long enough im willing keep persisting getting better swimming current guys going start making memories long willing certain point patience finally runs out retiring good luck guys tank support led give much appreciated but ive made decision live much happy life can im saying peace out quality life quantity life me take care guys im putting life order take while doctor comes brilliant solution thats good stands currently im buying time im worn thin life get better,1 +anyone lay dark think different ways dyingam one somehow find strange peace knowing one absolute way end hurt courage go it,1 +someone send jail ive got much horny system cant contained,0 +love getting ever reason love going court,0 +alright am everybody persevere stay til sunrise think,0 +let spare dream suffering depression years ongoing headw meds side almost major life evens graduations travelling solo cover everything recently seen change destructive behaviour evolving pill popping major alcoholism sober now isolation even recent thing seem piercings professional experience whatsoever stick poke gave pricing tattoos separately prior idea scare me past months given least piercings night confines bathroom ashamed even though live alone never hidden coping mechanism seems foreign externally puppettered idk asking anymore feels like behaviours brain adjust according going headampxbi sorry incoherent mind mush nose hurts like bitch last piercing gave lol half bad immediate response self destructive behaviour evolve change circumstances sometimes smarter us,1 +posting ara ara forget day ara ara,0 +less want die want liveif switch end life think would pressed now whole process dying scares me want leave body mess definitely want make unsuccessful attempt want another years living life long already enough good bits make bad lonliness,1 +biodoc enigmatic singersongwriter who according friends accounts spent last years relatively short life seemingly mission selfdestruction died overweight dissipated heart disease protracted rampage virtually nonstop overindulgence alcohol cigarettes marijuana cocaine raucous partying flagrant misuse vocal instrument he confided friend shouted lyrics one performance force spattered blood left microphonebr br all despite fact was widely considered perhaps gifted pop singing ability generation successful years effort terms industry acclaim grammy oscar decent recording contract top label least two stellar albums nilsson schmilsson originals a little touch schmilsson night standards happily married for third time lovely young family seemed adorebr br the films strengths begin completeness account nilssons life including fine use archival film footage many stills nilsson editors especially good job bringing movement stills learn close ties john lennon and later ringo starr lennon often said nilsson favorite american musicianbr br even impressive talking heads often documentarys weakest aspect get people like perry botkin jr ray cooper mickey dolenz terry gilliam mark hudson eric idle rick jarrard randy newman van dyke parks jimmy webb robin williams telling amazing stories nilsson many uproariously funny others deeply pathetic everyone conveying deep affection him equally informative moving interview segments nilssons wives annie una son zach cousin doug hoefer best set heads recall biodocbr br the glaring deficiency film crowds nilssons music even performance greatest hit without you cut short bars arrrrgh excuse this given movie runs full two hours is lose head shots could heard least song through perhaps one two more like one oscar winning cover everybodys talking filmmakers simply intent plumbing nilssons psychological mystique attentive enough music grades low b seen nwfcs reel music series ,0 +arm become snake thanks obama care got fucky wucky arm fixed got kicked balls bear left kind redflag scar obama care exist would cost arm leg thats epic bruh moment epic victory royale plas vote election thanks bois girls bears,0 +want feel pretty area girls blonde skinny short thick latinas considered beautiful hot one blasian brown eyed girl am gets treated terribly im always ugly friend always tall boys told arms long im built like man makes sad cant help im made pretty too im smart im funny bake cook like sports pretty much anything im open minded always gets taken granted im addison rae look alike,0 +hope catch covid diebecause im pussy,1 +takewho q good resource prescriptions much take finish,1 +life going nowhere lost half money saving past year fulltime job stock market stupid absolutely despise work done show lack compassion caregiving world little valued employee let ruin mentally scared quitting trying find new one lacking self confidence would able anything else isolated longer friends anyone talk outside family cannot form close notredflag everyday depressed anxious redflaged life world current state mind failed nearly everything tried work minimum wage job blew opportunity graduate college find good career put living life becoming adult skills hobbies interests awkward cannot express emotionally intimately another person virgin adult relationship see reason smoke eat drink death fuck shattered hopes dreams ability sense normalcy life best option get gun go forest shoot head falling cliff everything life absurd hate it seriously thinking buying gun online,1 +failed would like read hell kill myselflets start beginning age almost dropped high school finally free kind filthy wasting time institution filled monkeys classmates decaying structures absent teachers nation really point thus decided get involved people either decay rest projecting life end december wouldve three months firsts april always suffered kind depression since bornt never really gave care always found reason mind stronger along fact never really cared social priority thus getting people youngsters around age follow wouldve explained path political projects would like talk here may sound strange nation situation thats every single child despise interest seems forced bear understand order survive behaviour well finally thought wouldve free live selftaught autodidact throught always believed best polymaths type habitat circumstance able study whatever needed projects kind educations perhaps even graduating high school onetwo years giving exam selftaught possible even though really seems necesarry anymore here considering neither university students get job mention university students show usually behave like arrogant brats whoms school paid daddy flee away country still complaining even anything change situation already projects ready every single disciplinesubject chosen specific type education school could get best advanced details every one for example scientific school schedule subjects chemistry such mechanic institute mechanics language obviously languages literature electrnocis much more course projects sadly mature throught time though becoming thus devided differently mainly studying eight hours lightly training every hour eating every six hours since even working since six years still underweight struggle food take care projects finishing studies going gym two hours eating making food next days going sleep four hours going night job like baker one either security guard starting beginning daily routine least since comes real problem like really stressed three times trying get kind institute first one pass next class rejected many time absent really say ive never ever absent single class entire school life point barely even really sick started feeling strange nervous slow depressed sometimes remain night awake trying desperately drink coffee studying able remain awake day class thought wouldve better always talking december third institute scam ive betrayed two girls ive directly trying friends with always happen start getting hated life matter much courtesy show happens be really known enough people tell behavious since try always test people since trying different behaviours spountaneous one emotional either caring getting people instinct even tho always understand others due natural matured perception life thats also school life ive always remained home wasting time now even enthusiastic new life everything started sleeping much usual feeling hope everything else even getting house occasionally every two months period met wrong people made lose time even though met people around internet political projects social personal matters also matured learn various courses getting job music seaplane course region fighting courses usual shaolin gym thus also started refusing parents money also countrys legal age getting job also wanted travel know people finally train regularry get stronger gain weight im lbs lose lbs skipping meal even eating six day week wanted finally find soulmate hopefully make spouse like projected finish projects start writing works along much more another external point ive hypersexual since bornt sexually active sinec literally entering middle school wouldve done harem determination get stuck home since libido wouldve following seducing girls everywhere bad never couragedetermination ask relationship im inevitabely honest stupid brat wished sex saw nothing wrong nowaday call friends benefits always believed relation ship needed wouldnt kneel fron woman hopefully time wouldve changed would start appreciate traditions like always defended culture many ancestors mine died it become pure nationalist even knowing biologically shows possible excludeed civilized rational society leaving political views aside made think awful get girl sex thus wanted find girl life wouldve gave love sex with since would even want anyway real sin life im three months still sexual experience except light touching clothers girl middle school cousins nothing feel frustrated ashamed lost failed really always thought holding verginity pathertic always sure id lose connects fact find even girl life with mean reading even novels true story even people sex makes furiously rage force sleep order feel pain depression like ive done two years now bullshit say everything couldve project life routine finding that finishing else also able marry live good family house countryside bride since family trees parents usually save money sonsons home even always telling deserve single cent others money legally addressed me able it couldve moved ass remained active everyday finding girl right properties couldve ask make woman instead anything spent time getting active one week month felt strenght make eat wash myself thats it obviously done something like two travels filled fridge shopping meals one summer it even travel summer like idiot still stubborn wanitng earn money remaining home trying get job four times two years find hope thought deserve travel without constructivecultural purpose like meant to either find girl outside view cultural place meeting people location get around summer fun get laid many years virgin firstly believe fun also thought wouldve finally see bride promise purity last months lost it asked many times parents give euthanasia since strenght finish like two years ago projecting travel around dying get laid like wanted much time since also spent life computer knowing eromanga works maturing culture it getting work even resulting maturing commonly others personal studies conducted since school like computer science else also get furiously jealous angry much else even finding mere male character less years works mean i years couldve also studied computer sceince well cant even make program since know html bullshit sql started c even wanted code since last institute ive girl particular three months older cute liked ghibli movies felt like getting hated suspect reason left also school private scam paid parents never inform themselve even gave warning suggested finally send normal school girls well third institute boys schools computer science studies met girl months ago nearly two years even giggling telling missed me receiving mt amethyst collar present everything kept ignoring whatsapp considering live far other telling found annoying even nearly even writing fact annoy anyway attention second time fallen love girl considering third school wouldve show front house morning freezing cold shirt since always try give example way youth strenght nowadays even degrees people act like eskimo first time girl middle school stalked time order approach ever since end school never getting able to end fel righr courage many times house rang bell asked could talk hear well intercome poor sound could understood couldntdidnt want come reason meet me now except caring three months ill damn eighteen years old hell cope without hanging right now know even single girl entire life since never relation none got two years never could sexual experience holding lose bride get job save money future even finish computer science studies im talking electronicts mechanics bullshit understand jobs get highschool degree train eat properly two days getting depressed again sleep feel hurt even hours feast writing anything projects work on travel anywhere ive done fucking nothing two years even knowing never able get even sexa age connects everything else make feel shit even give like always ive done life would eventually fail thus feel forced save energies remained look people even work ass anything get every merit last societys burocracy failed driving license driving motorcycle cc strenght motivation study theory lazy ass questions without kind reasonable logic written badly poorly showed discrepance every question answer studied anyway remember notion every single damn one even though impossible remember many were considering indeed possible mentioned everyone remember all would think find trick reason well let tell something question particular logic side could even try reason about thus know mnemonic tracts obviously failed got right next time studying three days occasionally next time drive found forced ask help mothers friends even bigger bikes order learn gears everything since shitty schol sadly paid instead selftaught watch learn either give impossible instructions without letting practice learn gears ride third lession thus three hours next times one could legally make drive road could learn self taught thus thrown road without knowledge schoo get pression stopped every two time never getting drive alone first time failed walky talky used poor audio got wrong side mistake second time drove fastly enough create traffic blockage gave priority it always use lights evetything perfectly got rejected anyway last point surpassed vehicle stuck even remaining line like do problem road indications go straight right left left seen ordered last second due helmet people drived slow even without good capabilites passed anyway reasons day knew kill destroyed everything failing hang myself im emotive person even really sensible usually feel anything time frustration tough bear even remember last time able cry feel touched cry even watching the wind rises graveyard fireflies cinema feeling depressed hurting feeling inside weighting everytime more tried also find anygirl would watch first movie withe desperation since cute girl last institute anymore try work projects three months remaining maybe get laid finish im still trying see either hang myself get euthanasia gun getting weapons license either drink mix poisonous sedative herbs interested herbalism years well submit fate keep spending days sleeping jerking off trying study struggling eat wash since also stubborned train every shower even weak farely mostly beating wishing if could turn again miracle could save me even ive fought for even talking miracles change since everyday wake feels like nightmare anyway even real acquaintance know since six years slowly decaying hes always introvert like weve seen years skype youtube far away tried teach make see opportunities had even difficult situation eventually got girlfriend year happy even little jealous sinec hes one year younger well bad days seems getting destroyed personality mantained discolourating hair piercing lips eyelobs like someone really bad likely talk leaving world also never friend life well fact consider bride woman tho mix become one considering wife real right arm helper every man believe person might call freind one entire world one never complains about utmost loyalthy other faith would sacrifice like would himher thats far got contacts acquaintances never wife never finish single project never live countryside house family never able mature advanced studies like medicine engineering never able redeem nation id die noawadys dacaying society never able write anything projected never travel know people never get strong able fight like never got to also defend family never feel satisfaction sacrifice never get wasted youth back get part know many sounds stupid either lost virginity certain age marry wanted live fresh period youth showing life short live laziness many people would suffer laziness parasitism id liked girl age two years younger projecting life projects youth would wait redeem wasted time sensations different strenght different way opportunities come changes everything done right ahead like should thats wouldve perfect get least learn computer science work home gardening diy become indipendent getting girl know mature could finally live together theres little time tho could even bear move theres still little time redeem two years wasted also thing weights forces feel regret fact even losing whole wasted time instad panicking getting work thats unacceptable know regret wasted time schedule wanted create step step everything th year considering also person always even slapping cant get strenght except im starving survive either start stink everytime burden starts weight sleep else feel pain ive always even done meditation yers gym along maturing years calm impulsive multitasking machine could think it bad personal everywhere look makes remember well sex implied discussion feel touched explained before cant accept feel like years sacrifices work even phyisically ive passed state could break rocks train even broken bones work even able get bed cooking myself sit watch common brats waste time friends able gym five times me even though time able hundreds better thats want best go read old thread mine wanting hang would read even give fuck remembered else also happy people get top abilities bad leading example sacrificing life polymath reason around kiddos able one thing life praised it considering ive never hand life even parents even care about build staying filthy room year people around either good parents among maybe even one would teach even single profession keep life nothing want end it,1 +ive seen nsna ive seen roger moorefilms must say felt good see connery again proves times one bondbr br the film really masterpiece really worth watching jokes sit much better here effects funny interesting connery connery brandauer really good villain von sydow wasted score often good scenes seem pretty unnecessarybr br ,0 +petshonestly want write long pity backstory experienced goes nowhere ill try brief generically nothing left besides pets become anchor life reason live dreams hopeless point family split hardly factor before anyone goes think loved ones none sorry fault frankly know nobody blame myself short definition failure burned bridges disappointments point wound alone cant keep relationships cannot escape scars past dont enough money time keep around happy spills friendship too thats fact aside good way make sure pets cats taken care of are different one nice doesnt get along well pets is slow slow hes bit chunky sweet uses claws much eccentric litter generally good way making sure taken care of ampxb theyre still pretty young waiting another years feeling like this really feasible planning immediately done pretty thorough research better get ducks row tips,1 +goodbye guessi need help wanna kill myself im gonna probably school much pain possible cant keep up anxiety full bus really problem me option get school wanna cry scream whatever im emotionless fuck wrong happy problem free child think expectations high complain fucking child others bigger problems bitching it never asked girl feel comfortable body old enough knife gun yet brothers friend got swiss army knife sooo fucking enough shit tough failure anymore redflag lists bye loved,1 +anyone cry anymorebeen lot first girlfriend actually really cared broke yesterday cause bored ive lost relationships family drug use im sad feel like could cry million tears cant havent cried years even shit make me friends redflag attempts mums cancer diagnosis losing friends moving cant cry cant let out makes feel really bad know guys shits tough holding redflag want ex girlfriend feeling responsible starting get closer closer thank guys love you,1 +see reasonso yeah first time wright thoughts depending life redflag down real name max im years old live small city germany called trier look like normal person nothing special pretend im fine year now im supposed job get life right road germany still live motto arbeit macht frei work makes free even were allowed say this sure live it anything less worth hoboshit people pretend want help tell lie look think theyre better you someone kills pretend knew thing someone goes rampage blame media question innocence victims say life get better really see light end tunnel im tired people need help psychological trashcan react pissed need talk im tired wasting mind worth it know life unfair honestly feel sympathy start shooting revenge teacher look away bosses also everybody looks away comes confrontation someone finally gets revenge unfair shit loneliness hate went trough hes villain brought far live like never happened continue bullshit say follow picture justice know mother would life worth living thats reason cant it often think killing solution voice says cut open gets louder day day also thought taking brought far me like said want mother live thoughts son something like this father touched back like game know happened school pure terror stole stuff again got hit often stopped counting tried convince teachers im neonazi nearly successful teachers said could tell something happened did respond supposed do one helped me brother help me teachers help principle didnt life fight me want live rules darwinism know change thing im bad guy played many egoshooter listened metal thats spare energy put life end,1 +due fairly mild heart condition likely wont able drink alcohol smoke weed basically orthostatic hypotension stand blood pressure drops time problem every years get bad attack days ago worst due multiplle factors passed like times convulsed span minutes middle dang cvs decided actually look condition basically since alcohol weed lower heart rate heart rate already low recommended dont either wasnt hyped alcohol wouldve nice try weed get older ,0 +ive cursed comments days row why cursed holy sheep,0 +falsely accused sexual harrasment earlier today im confused hear happening time never thought would happen ,0 +anyone want chat idk like dm u do im probably gonna go sleep soon tho respond im probably sleeping,0 +sorry get out cereal definitely soup goodbye,0 +people say film typical teen horror movie well horror movie teenage girl it expect good film counted actual screams audience whilst film jumpy scary film bored film point even edge seat one point thing slightly bad tiny bit slow getting actual storyline led happened happened acting good scenery good storyline good too hope see when stranger calls months good film,0 +better omegle hey yall anyone know sites similar omegle without dicks like talking random people lmao,0 +want interesting chat dms open chat anything really crazy stuff weird shit vent rant,0 +appreciation post ubellamtzzz fucking hate bitch fine cause baes asf,0 +wanting dead years waiting wanting good moments change bad do amount amount good change bad matter hard try better even seem better matter time revert back monster seems lll always be pushing boulder hill matter close get top rolls back down wish would finally end good dying hard like everything else,1 +uhh liking guy like never responding clown hours anyway hows everybody life super super duper boring rn tell exciting things youre make feel excited,0 +sure movie historically accurate great entertainment demille pictures especially later epics slow plodding action moves clip story basically series peaks little quiet moments action takes us indian raid cabin one best parts movie jean arthur excellent attempting appease warpainted natives followed cooper taken war camp tortured later comes protracted battle cheyenne whole thing ridiculous great fun entertaining start finish jean arthur one best actresses era shines here,0 +remember kids homicide day keeps doctor away,0 +reasons leave sub unfunny posts plague sub every weeks sexism lies karmawhoring pedophilia stolen ideas,0 +want die again anything sad anymoreim confused im happy everything going good life im starting feel better appearance urge go lay snow freeze death overwhelming im even sure im posting here know damn well guts it guess im hoping talk something,1 +truly remarkable film takes journey hidden emotionsa deep enlightening story story takes lives beliefs gay religious cultures excellent performances superb star cast touch deepest reaches emotions belief love risks nothing worth nothing film starts introducing us characters surface seem everything later find beneath surfaces character looking journey self discovery learn story must chose path life destined despite difficulties encounteran thumbs film,0 +first thanks everyone submitted request lot great requests wish could fulfill all win time please keep visiting rredflag im sure well back laptops giveaway near future winners announced subject verification details outlined original post replied im received within hours disqualified another person need selected,1 +hey babe esex,0 +coming guy prefer special type girls please nice give lots hugs cuddles,0 +teachers dress classroom biggest sweethearts ever made fun trying bring joyfulness teachers dress bring joy classroom sweetest things ever trying bring happiness laughs classroom appreciated maybe even bring candy room decorations opinion deserve raise acts kindness made fun acting silly amp fun,0 +anyone else get like sometimes struggle mental health problems dont really know me days really mood open problems im order improve myself soon im sitting someone actually struggle fully honest end downplaying things im thinking whole lot actually comes talks kinda want talk bout crap going comes freeze act like everythings going good,0 +think im scared idk whyi never met someone bigger loser myself left girl job friends come florida dad brother moved pipe dream said needed help pay bills always thought cant turn back family ive year friends im working two shit jobs living life bottle time go college im living parent age im always broke im awkward shy cant make conversation friends all ive never felt alone im options drive uber eats go bring reason cant know need never happy moved im happy now carry know stop pain fear wanna free cant i,1 +everything now even go seek happiness feels like pointless know distraction time right back started feeling living pointless motivation live ready go exhausting say least means go maybe guts makes feel trapped meaningless existence things stay alive upset others death knows long mentality carry though damn sure recommended one pointless,1 +parents happy lately cant remember last time yelled us weird maybe finally replaced batteries know mean what mean,0 +entirely sure doi really want complainer whiner ive really hard time lately im beginning think need help growing whole life revolved around mom jealous condescending way required special treatment colon cancer traveling specialist specialist chemo treatment chemo treatment got used hospital environment soon enough settled fort knox ky louisville ky getting best treatment could best professionals field went well approaching last treatment surgery remove last cancer around colon would free battle shed fought many years long story short last surgery go way doctors planned short stem cancer thought disconnected body fact connected heart slight tug resulted catastrophe year old child hard believe news fact next year rounding corner hope standing porch still lingers joke cruel sick joke corners rounded close times finally set in reality think thats depression began recovered time that senior year college tried taking life due rusty knife self actualization survived day im still struggling pretty poorly depression days good days debilitating cant admit family theyve suffered enough really really want get better im sure do im afraid go psychiatrist therapist im really feeling creep back anyone advice theyve done improve,1 +one lines trailer film publicists exaggerate six featured players screen time goodbr br its always fascinating certain plot premises worked either highballing comedy deadly serious situation mary boland ditzy charlie ruggles henpecked play usual characters planning motor way california share expenses advertise someone share ride get burns allen monster dog premise deadly serious one several generations later kaliforniabr br of course traveling gracie allen know going going absolutely nuts trying figure monty pythonesque reasoning whole world aint enough get run wc fields part time sheriff full time pool hustler whos living sin alison skipworth back delve thingsbr br a real classic comedy thirties missed,0 +shoutout high maintenance boys ive hearing lot abt guys dont want high maintenance girlfriend realised also lot high maintenance guys probably never get recocnised personal struggle high maintenance boys yall deserve love happyness world,0 +dead luckyi cant help think died lucky theres pain stress depression family friends homework work nun bliss want dont wanna wait anymore,1 +creating final playlistim thinking song or songs play way out religious person angry one want recall good times people cared for get lost melodrama heartbreak suggestions got me,1 +worlds finest unique project trailer supermanbatman crossover movie exists also never exists least form characters actors plot line anywaybr br so movie one big tease even standards everyday real movie trailers trailer hype nothing regard really liked short project watching trailer makes hungry excited time sad perhaps even feel cheated afterward turns full length movie trailer never exist all sort makes wonder project made first place surely show sandy colloras skills also done real movie short like earlier movie batman dead endbr br but judge short purely is movie technical point view really great one great looking way professional perhaps first would expect although people whove already seen batman dead end already know better expect short cardboard sets cheap homemade costumes thirdrate actors short constantly impressive looking obviously budget skyhigh part impressive professional looking nice costumes sets special effects cinematography lightingbr br the short good quick typical trailer build up perhaps bit many posing shots completely find credible hey works well trailer style impressive shots also couple lame ones mainly superman flying sequences obvious guy standing moving car camera aimed angle below even found pretty laughable thing watch really better spectacular moments really compensate thisbr br michael ohearn seemed like pretty good supermanclark kent although obviously greatest talented actor around clark bartram reprises batman role well kurt carley seemed like awesome lex luthor rest cast also served purpose well enoughbr br its especially interesting watch short recent new modern reinterpretations two main superheroes movie movies batman begins superman returns interesting compare style character treatment movies one actually amazing fun hear much kurt carley sound like kevin spacey actor played lex luthor superman returnsbr br its good looking well made constructed trailer however makes hungry more even though know more whatever happened waner bros plans create actual full length supermanbatman movie way thought developments underway couple years ago nothing heard ever since instead two new separate batman superman movies made batman begins superman returnsbr br ,0 +panic attack rushed ampeit started morning today mom sister fighting supposed go lunch nice day kept arguing walking restaurant chest started hurting started hyperventilating lost balance felt like fainting happening mom screaming stop pretending kept shouting me left felt like dying almost fell middle road couple times sister drag back home went home locked room lost everything started screaming hyperventilating thinking maybe die could hear mom shouting screaming asking stop telling im making head panic attack couple times bad sister started freak cry point close fainting called taxi forced go aampe institute mental health lot shit happened cant seem look mom ever again feel like thinks im mental crazy would wanted hold hand tell okay instead leaving middle road screaming im back home one wants look talk way know relationship mom never never likes address depression always think head,1 +im fucking close ending allwhen eminem said when im gone carry mourn wish upon friends really considering redflag point hate life really see point it like peace life always depression even anti depressants really depression fucking tired everyday fake happy mom dad sister school counselors friends hurting inside much want pain end fucking ed fucking school front friends teacher staff taken restraints hospital hours upon end think that probably fucking helps shit make even suicidal permanent way end pain death cutting temporary solution literally fucking anyone sees tell someone trying get help good intentions always end going hospital want peace never ending depression tried hang twice stopped parents came home times tried od adderall adhd meds take enough fucking sick tired world become want end life really see future wretched thing call world like fucking real want emotional peace once,1 +nah redeeming qualities know posted looking votes shit something wrong me aware age friends matter effort matter notting doomed untill keel shit person,1 +feel like im drowningnot kind gasping air fighting hang kind moment finding bottom lake stuck mud giving up year absolutely awful ive lost friends work people grasp want everyone keeps asking im future plans even want alive nod say im fine keep putting people listen give advice rock want burden much effort wake productive want stop disappointment want stop being,1 +thank youi posted days ago stressful job wife years telling love anymore still doesnt job still hell im ok even little bit im longer considering redflag option appreciate reached me,1 +shattered thread hang to name james httpiimgurcommllpng took picture see human behind post today calm voice agonizing night never ending memories asked speak ex years face face many months remaining feelings me shred hope tried hard guy met better that move forward could happy changing challenging every end finally felt like could cover promises much more good enough anymore ive depression sw another username guys really kept bay past couple months via skype sms pm im grateful lot you saw lot people also suffer really changes perspective exhausted bay abiding time loud enough siren call lead me saw light go completely words today know anymore im sitting front computer looking body tremble,1 +cant ask helpyour whole life youre told certain people tell anything others tell brave reach out ashamed asking help all everybody hurts sometimes cant though ive done terrible things things plague mind day shame regret guilt constantly worry people think knew ive done hamster wheel never stops guess good thing way feelings constant reminder better person every night cry day face numb constant worry im worthy worthy things ive ever wanted secrets ill keep forever even professional dont know much longer keep up dont know do,1 +need help gfs redflagjust context gf years ago committed redflag brother sold drugs still dating time might sound real honestly need help ive tried therapists going grave daily writing things ive told help im still stuck bottom,1 +boys skinny enough need skinnier filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +tis birthday finally live user flair,0 +fuck greta thunberg know posted video mocking governments spending space exploration want mock mocking military spending u stupid piece shit srry needed vent,0 + i got hold razors tried slit wrist today couldnt cut deep enough theres pointless blood everywhere dont think effective way go jump front train car find may inconvenience many people guns arent sold city im really sure get one concoction available medications likely cause overdose work redflag prevention hot line talk people redflag regular basis all seems pretty clear life constant pain people wish redflag seen viable solution im sure im writing this guess maybe itll help figure put note something cheers,1 +im sorryive wronged many people im selfish lazy mean person think peoples wellbeing shit person want commit redflag that deserve know make things better atleast hurt anyone ever again know else point everyone hates hate myself,1 +struggle existencebeat logic literally argue death life painful filled suffering life continue painful filled suffering life meaningless pain suffering meaningless thus kill myself implied assumptionsmedical conditions promise chronic consistency exist i life worth living would point to point means reason whether god higher power manmade literally good reason live oh experiencing highs life full woes struggle every second day thoughts attack paralyze body addition constant head bodily painevery activity struggle really know im still alive focusing finding things look forward mask struggle existence,1 +hi guys taking antidepressants month now going get vaccinated second dose sinovac next week think stop taking vaccinated covid vaccine,1 +kids thing keeps killing myselfno respect love myself im incredibly disappointed professional choices ive made life know could be time seeing am devastating im ashamed everyday advice people give look bright side hard myself serves remind deluding lowering standards free well almost way im pain dont care part except comes kids leaving fatherless isnt option trudge on wading mediocrity point im given freedom solve problem all thanks listening,1 +burger patty cos meat buns,0 +anything make bearable tried killing many times want kill soon looking reason live reason way make life bearable solve problems which really really cannot right nowi friends cannot enjoy hobbies even bearable anymore desperately looking something make bearable instead killing myself need reason live reason,1 +help turn camera without teacher noticing hate keeping camera teacher wants keep,0 +great cinematic musicals made twenty year spell rightly labelled golden era genre musicals prior that musicals since true classics seem invariably made period singin rain american paris band wagon seven brides seven brothers oklahoma south pacific king i many more stand tall much cherished products age perhaps last great musical golden era carol reeds oliver freely adapted dickens novel vibrant musical film version successful stage production magnificent film winner six oscars including best picture awardbr br orphan oliver twist mark lester lives miserable existence workhouse mother died moments giving birth him following incident one mealtime booted workhouse ends employed funeral parlour oliver doesnt settle particularly well new job escapes troubled days makes long journey london hopes seek fortune oliver taken wing child pickpocket called artful dodger jack wild turn works fagin ron moody elderly crook charge gang childthieves despite unlawful nature job oliver finds good friends among new family also makes acquaintance nancy shani wallis girlfriend cruellest feared thief all menacing bill sikes oliver reed many adventures oliver discovers true ancestry finds actually rich welltodo background chances reunited real family jeopardised bill sikes forcibly exploits oliver making accomplice particularly risky ambitious robberiesbr br oliver brilliantly assembled film consistently pleasing eye excellently acted talented cast moody recreates stage role considerable verve stealing film youngsters energetic performance fagin lester wild well young pickpockets wallis enthusiastically fleshes nancy role reed generates genuine despicableness sikes musical numbers staged incredible precision sense spectacle onna whites oscarwinning choreography helps make songanddance set pieces memorable lively performers skillful direction carol reed also play part unforgettable tunes include food glorious food consider yourself youve got pick pocket two id anything oompahpah immensely catchy songs conveyed via well put together sequences film thoroughly entertaining experience never really loses momentum entire minute duration sit back enjoy,0 +seen show younger really good show watch educational children years old barney definitely super de duper bj pretty funny babie bop cute kids cool too show learning numbers kinda like sesame street different type show characters like barney purple dinosaur bj yellow dinosaur baseball hat head baby bop cute green dinosaur pink bow first one started old barney friends show second one different new episodes also last one new scene barneys park also show barney universal studios florida see barney bj baby bop show done get go play shop meet barney good show watch show learn many things like movie live show universal studios florida,0 +id like share redflag note wrote year agoi sorry way words express sorry all lot thinking decided best thing stop living hard decision wonderful people hurts ever know hurting like this cant bare anymore reason keep going sorry first foremost family please guys dont anything rash support other please know know kind like death bed confession always honest ones fault please know that please sorry love all support other love all impart guilt one except blame truly mean that believe deeply sorry love all various people supported past life thank you please know fault either therapist effective patient willing share never willing share anything pay price cant let you go lives great people life full opportunity help people anyone else please know blame you also specifically school sorry campus hope doesnt hurt anyone sorry every woman girl ever met please forgive existing practical stuff passwords not including im idiot movies books dont want keep please give library anything else please give homeless shelter whichever seems need more please give money personal bank account split equally food bank redflag preventative non profits martin scorseses charity film preservation sorry please dont try understand try live let grief take course support other dont follow me please dont talking family love much hurts keep hurting you please good other please live lives love you theaccountismine want dead made drafts really best draft have attempt year ago im probably going use it did would work would people okay im really cowardly shitty dont want get better want people love me im sorry,1 +really know who im living fi wish someone go love support family hates me theyre incapable asking whats wrong offering help support blame everything hold grudges nothing burden them care concern im want careerwise know ill ever get there years years trying complete poverty im tired it guy thought related thought liked ghosted me fifth rejection accepted alone nothing holding here anyone loves me even myself covid especially life sad sit home school work day,1 +asked crush out today told crush also friend feeling told loves friend tbh feel bad fell great feelings change mean break friendship always friend great one fellow teens want say that crush likes friend way do break bond feelings understand cherish friendship rather breaking ps also love one go ahead tell might get another chance would late life big live every moment fullest ,0 +joseph joestar sexiest jojo bruh wanna pounded hunky old man badly could use hermit purple tie send hamon body make cum fucks inch joestar cock damn tomoko higashikata lucky,0 +oneitis even remember probably happily married chad rn kids living peace security always wasnt type girls im type creepy usually fat stalkers,0 +end sufferinghave anyone lost feeling meaningless live anyone anyone stopped feeling miserable longer period time suffering past years hoping feelings would disappear however happened im lossing hope better days im basically stuck misery,1 +closei start extremely loving family mom greatest thing life reason still alive right now never want make cry second exfriendex best friendlove life second reason still alive great friends also hate using word depression feel like tossed around lot lot meaning behind it extremely depressed really reason why depressed dont want alive living whole life dont care wake morning dont want here going get help already started looking therapists near me one year anniversary dads death days really sure be tried killing twice year already barely holding on told one been bottling years pretending happy time told one person exactly feel been one getting go therapist sucks cant get win life right now going keep trying thing life want right wake alone want someone love next me impossible someone hate myself means unhealthy unfit everything physically look attractive coming onto year every girl said me one given chance part reason low past years dads death hasnt helped long year battle cancer spent everyday time loved much miss him always gave good advice good wingman women always tried set girls previous said exfriendexfriendbest friendlove life amazing unfortunately doesnt feeling towards sucks fine happens mental health crap destroying friendship her love her loves friend ended long talk her came understanding ended saying cant friends anymore now need fix brain go back trying friends her lot stress trying love someone used talk ever day morning facetime bedtime facetime matter what still talk care lot actually special amazing friendship ruining that wish things could work us wont complicated imagine stressful cant stop crying almost every second day alone amount time cry want start telling friends mental health late need big push also go see therapist cant sleep night affecting work really need help dont want end news cant stop get another bad low,1 +always soft spot disney flick another part live actionpart animation entries sought recreate success mary poppins never quite made it grade school every would movie day whole school would crowd cafeteria movie would projected oldfashioned way multiple reels all time seemed like momentous occasion whenever day arrived bedknobs broomsticks one movies remember seeing waybr br and remember quite charming angela lansbury never put name anything least competent winning witch magic bed boy could misconstrued it take couple young kids magic adventures faroff places come on kid want bed like that br br grade,0 +fuck boris johnson fuck making schools go back march th wont time play games instead work,0 +would like know the outsiders australian tv series ever released dvd sometime future music title theme available cdbr br there one series episodes drama gone least three even four series totalbr br the young german actor series also german tv series called black forest clinic aired uk english dialogue superimposed lipsync br br i look forward hearing comments tv industry personnel questions thank advance,0 +tired itim almost still virgin never kissed never date im tired much try make change doesnt go bars speed dating try online dating apps nothing im fat ugly im worthless sucks friend group cant get girl always hearing youre great guy make one happy time im end even like could probably please girl size dick im worthless one way point continuing alone sad forcing happy every day im tired everything,1 +fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck brice maddock fuck 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much others frankly im done pain ive pain emotional pain whole life nothing going me nothing working out dont normal life dont people loves makes want better anyway googling read something along lines stop decide want die grab pen piece paper write love write love listen favorite songs open old photos look good memories im gonna stop there broke me kidding me love one bonds one maybe someone cares me one loves back way dont love anything either im type person ambitions dreams that hate world society everything works listening favorite songs wont shit me make cry theyre sad songs looking memories me one make new memories old ones past thats nothing painful yes even say it yes mental problems dont even mention things valnurable person beg to idea long ive holding cant see bright side things anymore im constantly unhappy ive always been mandatory live like this people doesnt feel like never ever know amount pain might young know im never gonna love living way made world be im sorry world beautiful hate it basically new times slaves calling real slaves million times worse im aware anyone want helpful pm ways go out get would wanna talk it dont waste time want know methods maybe wouldnt endure worst pains last task have,1 +back againnd night row tonight worse found exgirl friend cheated me crutch im done,1 +woah buckarooo make one damned girl bad boy funny memes im gonna hand one way ticket supersargasso sea,0 +please help someone stole like bucks pokemon wednesday i small time martial arts studiotrading w frien ly realised got back sounded pretty said realized told one instructors happened reason told memories elementary school friends avoid looking petty,0 +world reali really feel like time posting last cry help thats even possible really smart know everything highschool teaching already cant focus enough actually it im failing everything except band love friends despite trying hard make girl almost anorexicly skinny would call attractive enough friend try talk parents always busy talk usually wathing tv mom laptop day doesnt even job reality become video games retreat terrible lifemy place friends which mom calls fake friends know people worse buy cannot stand life become way is rely fake world id rather live all slit wrists tonight get back home ive read lot realised otjer people seem similar,1 +gods planeverything happens reason everything good bad part gods plan want kill myself logic means god wants kill myself god hates want exist otherwise want kill badly god wanted holocaust hurricane katrina happen god wants babies raped tortured god wants suffering sickness horror god evil maybe im evil god wants save world way knows how maybe world suddenly fix stop poisoning it,1 +alonelife lost magic hopefulness felt nothing look forward to one talk to cant help feel cant trust anyone people really dont care unless benefiting someway posted something week ago felt embarrassed deleted it feel alone lost dont really know else turn anymore pray every night life end dont understand anyone really manages pull depression dont care better anymore honestly believe people destined alone unhappy matter efforts make better everything gone wrong wish could courage end it,1 +life probably best ever finally got friends rely on well school starting new job everything could want yet still want die feel like nothing ever going make happy point life going great still want die,1 +ende endeim writing ahead time incase fail grade friends know recover fail im cornered isolated hopeless meds helping make tired lightheaded sorry more ende ende,1 +become tired fighting fight depression many years keep goingits battle uphill battle good daysbut really bad days start going hill thenyou seem go backwards worse started,1 +u get good somethinglegit ive taken art classes years random girl class last year school visual arts stuff draws x better ever could like god damn everything im bad literally cant good anything,1 +even distraught tired giving birthdayim calm im rational im overreacting im fucking tired overwhelmed ok deal stress birthday months im going quickly get with itll nice deal stress anymore least,1 +thigh highs hot everyone male female inbeetween god look good hilight human firgure look really good,0 +even keep going im useless world hates ityesterday average day went work job friendly small talk fun colleagues shift over sat car drove home switched light set pc chair booting pc comparably good day could happy felt nothing went online played games talked online friends went bed woke next day went back pc looked steam profile page looking high level smile felt sad life im skyrocketing steam level compensate emptiness soul one real life friend hardly ever meet hes deeply buried uni work live alone pets interact neighbours online friends impressive steam account yet switch pc feel nothing nothing hobbies everything ever dedicated energy eventually dropped tried learn drawing express myself dropped picked bass make music dropped tried think third activity write here dropped lost motivation life day playing games chatting people never met life pass time work fast go back empty steam life online addiction probably started young five six years old got first pc game playing games way dad found interact me lot got drawn towards games more first always single player games thenth grade school discovered online gaming fun new exciting totally emptied anything else interest in spent hundreds maybe thousands bucks pixels neglecting everything else ever interest in top that seriously dislike job im number single cog machine instead something like im good at rot away company simple worker im pretty good english especially consider even native language yet never got make anything useful besides chatting people online first redflag thoughts came second year apprenticeship which different company job now five years ago now stood top floor warehouse looked ground floor jumping seemed like solution emptiness colleagues hated me vented anger every day already knew job nothing me wanted end thing kept away jumping fear pain landed stupid way survived seriously injured broken life even now stumbled back edge shook head went work ever since then wish could bring it minutes pain ends then keeps alive nothing really fear pain want end redeeming features nobody likes me parents divorced family shambles job crap cant get better one cant imagine id ever graduate better school bad maths cant end,1 +battled depression whole life realizing even depression fighting anymore realized truly place world belong anywhere loved anyone anything taking space burdening people think time go place world,1 +cat keeps ending allmy cat my parents care them thing keeps killing myself know baby wouldnt die without doesnt exactly love i new scratches arm looking cute little face admiring uniqueness shes crazy gives little boost serotonin need make another day literally cant sad looking cats cats dont career involves kitties animals dont feel purpose feel better knowing help cats animals wanted post maybe guys something like makes future little brighter maybe think thing think reason live taking care animals knowing need makes feel little less shitty little purposeful ,1 +nearly always youi hate good enough live day day trying find things look forward,1 +give nword pass hi guys could kindly give nword pass would really appreciate it always wanted say nword would liberating finally able say repressing long btw im hispanic bad white right bad say nword anyway,0 +planned seeing movie however disappointed friend dragged along although real surprises here guys reasonably well obviously modest budgetbr br if seen trailer probably know expect type movie theres pretty constant stream jokes here couple classic moments highpoint probably excellent flashback guys like s also ive read elsewhere ending disappointment found refreshingly different expected genrebr br overall movie wont change life got enough laughs keep entertained throughout,0 +constant nausea tooth pain fever fatigue anxiety depression someone please help meim ive anxiety years ive depression years ive near constant debilitating nausea fatigue years teeth rotten decaying away week ago horrific tooth pain high fever started cant eat sleep left house almost year cant go doctors definitely dentist feel nauseated tired get up ive constant thoughts death redflag ive hospital times past suicidal thinking time want get done tooth killing bad radiating head throat tylenol helps sometimes pain going go away own need help like now im tired nauseous weak im tired fever pain somebody please help me,1 +main reason continuing live anymoreive struggling self harm im point im addicted it people always say addictions stay forever always fight dont want live rest life dealing burden self harm addictions frowned upon want live judgement family people dad drug addict issues always vowed nothing like him last night realized im exactly like awful father addictions im addicted self harm dont want associated addictions drugs people think differently whole life ive always wanted kids grow main reason staying alive could kids im awful like dad kids deserve mom ive always close mom drug talks made obvious fronds upon thought self harm addiction mom thinks im screw up nothing wrong great mom reason im screw purely fault family deserve burden like that crying thought go this im selfish thinking me shows im thinking myself genuinely think deserve deserve self harm genuinely understand anyone cares anymore going die eventually kill im inevitable think might take pills soon deserve deserve pain self harm,1 +want kill myself canteverytime get car want get wreck want die cant kill know people care would devastated died much worse killed myself get everyone says redflag selfish desire want anything anymore,1 +feeling lonely helplessone days spiraled suicidal thoughts again think worst over feel alone husband working overnight texted one friends wanted hurt myself left read feeling tired holding on,1 +even feel like personthe older get realize im meant alive cant anything normal theres excuse it cant talk people like normal person does cant even work dumb jobs without fucking every aspect it belong less less every year cant believe used good smart kid im even worth anything way die without mom feeling sad id gone im freaking sad,1 +considering trying put psych want talk someone whos oneim tired living hate everyone around cant anything right get much enjoyment anything ive tried talk others subreddit none anything me believe continue around family people hate ill end killing anyways feel like option psych ward redflag want talk someone psych ward minor make mind want also know put psych ward ,1 +im actually really glad kurt cobain committed redflag idk would two days reason cant imagine middle aged fat depressed dude fell off im really glad things ended way tbh,0 +want die know howi know wrong im really tired here kinda attempted end everything today grew afraid even seem like attempt honestly excuses wanting die person weak mentality think family getting sick too sister closest person me getting tired telling thoughts every single day acting way which understand wouldve gotten tired long time ago mom dad gave lot me getting incredibly stressed attitude really see point here im right see future myself im trying hard class know alive sometimes wish died even conscious wish life couldve given person wants live wish selfish human am im tired nuisance everyone else want anymore,1 +hello need helphi alcoholic trying stay sober now think could need help here someone would time would really appreciate it,1 +seems everyone wants jump bandwagon say maha go go gothe word machalike machpronounced maa kabr br i grew series early s la late lamented channel before tetsuwan atomu astro boy dating ol khj tv astro boy first tv example anime got statesi anime kid followed late s when itd become series badly animated talking heads phenomenon gotten worse nuff saidbr br as speed racer really enjoyed basics there pov shots cinematic aspects live action skillfully adopted animationthat fairly typical japanese anime back thengraphics graphics graphics take note sometime obviously series inspired stanley kramers film grand prix especially redone american creditsbr br oh yeah original comics series based know speakbr br what animationwise besides crap like johnny questth ol stuff wed doin since shohumbr br i guess real problem hadhave way anime wasis shown american tv hatchet job done scripts credits etc sanitize american audiencesi go programs were talking speed herebr br look clowns like peter fernandez one culprits here responsible rewrites seriesnot mention voice speed racer x othersbetween goofs translux think felix cat mighty hercules oy vey took slick sophisticated show dropped level sesame street think cruncher bloch forthebird company skull duggeryif go ill pukebr br this series dates odd years ago i time keen enough feel insulted dumbing japanese programsi mean obvious someones getting killed either remove gloss overpleeeeezebr br good show originally sadly recent incarnations series crappy made korea look mention nauseatingly pc content even japanese outsource animation nowbr br try watchin original japanese opening youtube sometimeit sends chills spineif onlyoh well robert,0 +feel empty dayslast week found fiance year cheating me background met girl year ago really tough situation ex moved city home state dude work stuck ended falling her progressively minded butted heads family alot always stuck fought matter what ended moving studio apartment get away family im year old college student make month working lab could afford apartment times rough end bad falling dad thought worth fight me grandmother agreed let us move house long helped bills times good untill found cheating me asked leave new guy sleeps floor aunts apartment buy bus ticket coming wednesday ive living ever since killing me one hand feel betrayed im terrified well being dude job cant work subsists aunt know comfortable there love feel empty feel like whenever let someone always find someone better me fact ive come accept im never first choice anyone im piece st deserve happiness im worried cant sleep really want die cutting latelt think thing holding back want find body im afraid much would hurt im spiritual thats fear me ive researching painless ways death really want nothing pain emptiness go away forever,1 +im young stupidim honestly feel like idiot right now know whats hurting me know im depressed know probably reason depressed im successful school getting straight as year ive social ever before talking chicks going mates im beginning get independence end year chance tour japan schools music program cocurriculars sport debate mock trial im home none matters means anything good me im tryhard proper social interaction mum drinks spend time avoiding her complain dad worked hard send good school reason really im talking bottle wine night unreasonable blames shortcomings try talk her tell need love gets angry confrontational says im calling alcoholic grateful her blames issues says im fault her am really am depressed im white kid australia private school parents get along best least live house get straight as enough left give worth destroying response extra bottle wine drinks celebration keep trying all edited typo,1 +eeee im happy got custom rom running android phone im happy cool bye love yall stay safe lt also ask questions any,0 +feeling distant myselfi feel far away thoughts jumbled ive wanted run away keep thinking hurting god dammit wanna give in why,1 +im okay starting careim just really even want talk want straight kill ive tried made everyone miserable obviously failed even see point things anymore nothing gives joy hope like life one long day nothing ever changes im point want break things hurt just uh even know cant get im feeling words pointless try,1 +nice letter dont know begin pretty funny seem find one single copy will oh well one there hopefully seen whatever hi hello me a im probably well right now dont know am lets say sleeping forever dont know quite say doesnt matter now it today february th days since knew without doubt mind found forever days since made mine you youre reading this thank everything proud listening growing up youre slowly learning life okay scary considering current state really seems like oxymoron failed yet youre hopefully still there mental health plagues me stress relationship like immense understand issue really way good enough anyone self esteem fixed you l thank you ever since december th though never recovered looking myself disgusted tried best succeeded what dont know wish able talk issues afraid driving away jealousy also makes incredibly hurt something didnt even need put extra time work for oh well cant hurt anymore dumb see everything wish respect me you fuck wrong people b grow pair something grow pair accept life stop spoiled father leave woman isnt worth time life anything dont care love destroy it doesnt feel her l wish knew felt feel you dont know unless alone relationships wont always alone get scared told something you listen please holy shit toxic mad first person wrath me why try hard cant bad cant happy consistently ever do dont know never know darkness seems comforting thanks everything sorry wish better boyfriend brother son student and person general cant all sorry cant fulfill failed path pursue sorry sorry,1 +heya w hey sorry bother you couldnt help notice youre feeling down cmere closer closer hugs got this may tough youre warrior inside get this whatever may be matter ,0 + pleaseprobably gonna kill soon im stranded small town middle bumfuck nowhere theres option employment jobs here car broken cant get new one fix without job im allowed see son times month something mother did yet im one punished im running fight here dont friends really reason stay alive,1 +hiya im mental breakdown room drinking currently am honestly think life worth living anymore pet dying got harassed limited online grown adults im currently waiting get trauma therapy stuff happened past barely friends life shit hope yall okay though need help,0 +destined failure tragedy mom dies im years old im beside dies pneumonia from breast cancer chemo fail law school years debt age got pregnant gave birth months daughter dies hours alive cousin age gave birth healthy baby notifying us already months constantly cheated boyfriend coke heavily drank one even suspected pregnant true say happiest people oftentimes saddest ive told im funny witty really think thats coverup im sad lonely feel like evil woman using piggyback happy pain shes inflicting mealmost like scary movie sad endingone kill myself sit bathroom floor inlaws house cute lime green bodysuit ripped jeans numb legs tried therapist wanted refer psychiatrist instead give magical pills people told youre brave strong stop going big lifechanging scenarios fight smaller battles instead happy new year something bad happen year never easy win life,1 +going date crush going date crush asked out,0 +thicc water exists exists u problem swallowing,0 +beatles modern band would many beatles stans twitter omg ringo looks cute ,0 +still betteri made post days ago watched rather extensively work home therapist see cannot prescribe medicines earliest psychiatrist appointment least weeks way get medicine need sooner ultradian rapid cycler bpd type fighting losing battle ive attempted times end last year last two times found blade still arm desire fight more true anchors left want stay alive broken hollow others insist staying alive hurts much,1 +hurts much ive suicidal thoughts recently getting major support therapy meds im already antidepressants werent working load things days ago constantly suicidal thoughts twice day cant begin describe agony happens sometimes ill put way extremely painful headache isnt physical im guessing mental hurts muchi cant stand it clutch head go floor crying far remember one else knows this cant stand physiatrist said depression like hardware brain change software thoughts feelings basically means im fighting depression whole life ive nearly whole life anyway planing redflag dont know stand whole lifetime,0 +helpi lost job covid situation didnt enough capital put lt business money run out ive sold stocks dont penny name bank balance job k debt th january ive got worth direct debits pay way so debt increasing day please please please give ideas get money up feel trapped,1 +think im donehi name micheal years oldi started using drugs drinking anything get fucked screw push evrybody me lost lot friends good friendsmy mom prostitute found fucked brain problems sexual abuse also fucked brain never told one cant get dark stuff head years cant stand anymore,1 +never together pointhuman beings suppose find couple someone feels good someone know forever lonely see point anymore except finding gun rope ending all,1 +woke emotional pain horrendousi dont know much longer this want sleep forever,1 +minor spoilers followbr br this movie even odd unconventional songs second floor main character follow around plot conventional way emphasis happy end crowdpleasing words roy andersson back vengeance instead falling back convention fixed formula roy andersson concentrates film around idea go idea is even get it promise see greatest visual depth ever put film majestic scenes songs pale comparison here work visual splendorbr br so kind fellow man we living power change lives least thought saw final scene movie inhumane bomber planes sweeping city film take lives away br br and course forget see movie gets limited release near you one movies actually power make better person like de sicas bicycle thieves warm humanistic film,0 +sitting car random parking lot thinking driving head traffic right nowim ashamed go hospital put redflag watch dumb shit fucking stupid doea look um yeah im contemplating killing myself yeah im really bad spot feel likw id get weird fucking look um ok ill end fucking pissed feeling looking dumb regretting going,1 +goddamn uselessim told gifted life know am done nothing it absolutely nothing went mediocre public liberal arts college dropped years easy boring desire go back school cannot make work hard enough anything enjoy it enjoy partying hanging friends im lot socially competent years ago small comfort friends going world writing magazines blogs starting bands getting big im still stuck knowing want do felt completely worthless person year now notion selfworth strongly connected success person cannot successful opinon know ive always hard getting impossible bear know people given much done little it feel kind like ready end all,1 +fucking panic attack shower recommend was taking hot shower middle hot sunday start think feeling loneliness ive long you guess much social distancing helped nothing extraordinary years old never kissed girlvery afraid talk new people im working therapy talked friends while felt joy year etc suddenly realize heart beating fast fast someone standing shower first time happened never got used it start focus breathing and while heart goes less desperate rhythm gotta say man think depresso pills job wish could stop feeling like time dont worry intend carbonara sayonara,0 +baka mitai gotta idiot band home alone go hand hand know ive foolhttpsyoutubeziwrvmvomi also sing end video,0 +introductionthis post cry help im looking end life right minute depressed suicidal varying degrees years guess see place might frequent then thought get little story there first suicidal thoughts id depressed years then never put much thought redflag junior high one teammates committed redflag opened eyes knew must felt felt too ultimate solution thoughts plan rest junior high high school kept hunting rifle single bullet would end room spent lot time thinking where sitting night loading unloading gun testing way could hold rifle get job done would range gun safety know want hurt others know people say matter bad it matter low are life get better know future holds well no know future holds thats supposed give hope people help hang on problem future always bright worse thought life turning around end high school thought made dark time things looking up years depression already lead dark path came head brought crashing down say life get better put effort work improve situation ive done last years ive gutted out put best forward changed better ive put effort improving life showing others ever thought me none matters someone power always hold put back place sure people care love me enough society general hates me friends left me matter do never reach potential life killing inside last months life hardest yet courts struck down want see ive done life power let go yeah context makes sense trust me job decent dead end cant ever see escaping stress piling unbearable levels lately wife loves me family life nothing constant stress weve done fix it seem much hope theres go escape low life become options left unexplored make things better life many years choose accept tough end it im smart enough know whats wrong me smart enough know options have smart enough know life crap many ways continue be sometimes wish could understand much blissfully unaware happy longer rifle bullet im sure id gone now would take one rash decision plan end life timetable would take day preparation purposely done thats safety net end life itll thought thought right time would take prepare no warning never post saying ive set timedate im attention happen ill probably posting threads im antiredflag think last resort hope mods accept always posting happy replies trying cheer people giving false hope im honest others sometimes honesty pretty think situation get better im going tell too im years road initial thoughts redflag things turn around everyone says ive hurt many people around along way ill honest could talk year old self say hang things get better id tell self much look forward to save others hurt next years it,1 +think people around ideaim always surrounded people work i work fairly big retailer none idea whats going head getting harder hide it friends momment getting better anything getting worse way feel good drugs thats time feel anything close happyness remember quite happy before seem truly happy im surround people like friends either hanging someones house them longer getting point yet again want end it failed attempt weeks ago decided try and carry on trying survive working social skills getting new friends almost impossible know go meet either im constantly alone room feel lonely want guts properly time one live like this every day torture,1 +whats rebellious illegal stupid thing ever done teenager fake tickets i print countrys tickets dollars look stores serve children if country small stores and bought things forged total dollarsin country worth more even money wanted feel adrenaline also stole expensive pens supermarkets next week stole backpack worth dollars karma bitch know anyone done stupid things,0 +horny tonight need bonked big time ive horny past hours bad rn,0 +getting bad feel drowning dont see point swimming tried multiple times already everytime make difference try closest friends randomly decided ghost grounded weeks relapsed night theres nothing im rlly fighting anymore dont rlly know im posting this maybe someone give wholesosome award,0 +people praise sidewalks keeping streets nooses help keep hitting rock bottom legal reasons redflag never answer struggling depression suicidal thoughts find trusted person confide in seek help,0 +tf desired compensation probably really dumb f filling first job application im realizing concept money dont even know even important im freaking out anyway minimum wage part time job would first one ik probably dumb one help figured one people would know something idk im overreacting,0 + sons sentenced life prison adelle debbie reynolds helen shirley winters begin receiving threatening phone calls someone fells sons got easy pair decides move california escape publicity trial start new life start dance school soon successful one students rich unmarried father adelle quickly falls love meantime helen busy raising rabbits becoming little infatuated evangelist radio mater time everything falls apart women enter world madness murderbr br cant help compare whats matter helen whoever slew auntie roo also starring shelly winters movie seemed almost restrained presentation auntie roos madness theres nothing holding helen back movie may take good deal movies running time snaps helen one bad mad mutha want mess her winters delightfully demented impossible enjoy performance im going spoil movie things helen capable totally overthetopbr br good winters is reynolds totally ridiculous role golddigging tap dancer got impression thought movie would get nominated award aint citizen kane quit acting serious hey debbie realize main purpose victim winters insanitybr br love formerfemalestarsinthetwilightoftheircareer horror movies whats matter helen fun any,0 +guess asked crush thats sure uhead_hunter,0 +want help want dieredflag like natural selecton mentally distressed ones strong enough overcome so ones not live enough reproduce life finds way hi name x years old could th post site scrapped previous ones before regardless anyone read not want somewhere choose irriversible born third world country priviledged enough considered middle class comfortable luxurious grew grandparents mother almost half time group due ladder work day minimum wage paying jobs stated comfortable way living never ran food water internet tv could afford buy nutella pizza while thanks mothers savings need material possesion mother someone really short temper severe untreated depression characters tale would often get mad miniscule things loose mind screaming saying whatever went mind later sometimes regret reaction truthufly apologize worked years say least today well learning control it calm ever seen her hand grandparents female gm verbally abusive emotionally manipulative woman male gf submissive passive agressive judger problem here growing learnt since pretty early age first granddaughter born my oldest cousin four three younger taking place grandmas spoiled little girl also exange token fights were are common thing family family gatherings call disaster hasnt single one without exageration walked without someone fought someone else yet unknown reason yet understand keep soon fumes last fight go down going back token status time mother gm fought would usually taken away grandparents blackmail them youre gonna see x that x cant love someone us proceed cry everything gm done past including limited ruining academic opportunities making life miserable then everything over forced stay weekends deal gm crap how much love me how unreasonable mother keeping away how much hurt horrible mother if something call us come live us i matter could see trough bullshit naive aspect could easly see trying achieve this again wasnt problem grew partially religious household became atheist early age natural manner kid stops believing santa thoot fairy time term it exellence student almost shcool history full a grades strong relationships tutors i still talk highschool professors used back day intellectual scientific conversations almost every time contest participated developed mental motor skills early age born lucky star as far ignore familys long history mental disease trophy child everyone close family would held high standards didnt liked underpeform pushed beyond limits since kid loved brag family reunions workmates complete strangers giving crap social proposes showed world scolded missing things shoved cak crystal cabinet wait wanted tell everyone i kid again lowering grade tiny fraction would make mad getting sick daring respond would give week long scold go trough months punishment say half year without using internet no im exagerating even forced use summer vacations read trough three page budhist books make resumees mother could think touching electronic device never stopped complaining weight no fat rougly kg recommeded weight cant physycally seen even close examination ive never underweight person gm always wished to im also femenine thing there gm would desire dont stick archetypes want rebellious according society social movement kinds politics like videogames from terraria xcom saga age games puzzle ones books the praise folly erasmus rotterdam favorite written tales since learnt write poetry since well none matters passionate dampd player early years developed paranoidal behaviours still have screaming tears random corner room invisible man know watching me leave alone times would cover anything eyes portraits plusheies blanket utterly unreasonably feared watching me would lock doors windows even hottest days weve reached temperatures c f halfway boiling point water design clever noise traps mechanisms wake slightest disturbance caught grandparents watching windown couple times am nothing else stopped locking doors bady months ago longer scream misterious invisible man constant pressing feeling watched whataver do wherever am usually pressing feelings excessive guilt im productive also developed severe anxiety quick self esteem learnt hear familys emotions trough sound made footsteps speed parked with opened door long took greet sublte voice movement variations started live constant feeling something wrong time would see something made either grades weight productiviness would receive complains cleaned house without asked for would get you didnt clean here thank you one ever came time talked me time went even close bedroom id get really anxious started ask what wrong similar kid knows took cookies last night asked it difference time yet still isnt problem severe problems anxiety self esteem pressure started slowly climb me started drown expectations felt responsable obligated fullfil them smartest responsable best from born famous phrase one roleplaying games almost never enough almost never enough let ehile then teen age approached got lazier tired it grades dropped problems rose time time thing happened anxiety getting worse self esteem going lower got highschool everything ended falling pieces never got along well girls females age quite peculiar beings trying find group boys would accept got involved wrong people ocassionaly hited verbally abused me remember occasionally ignore comments kind things would like do year people got involved first ever fist fight won resentment tried move group boys kind enemy relation ones got along yes childish move else expecting year old girl wrong desition one kids believe reddit way knowing am changed lot trust slowly built though solid friendship lasted year right refer take advantage emotionally fragile suceptible year old girl without friends parental guiadance know talking about kid blackmailed time changed schools chose would go told me due fear i fortunately me kid didnt transfer first day school lot anxiety fear finally blocked social media didnt saw again since event highschool lot went on used generally happy joysful girl anxiety problems turned someone uncapable trusting people closed always defensive adoped ideal believing human hypocresy fakeness around me day still kind hold dear skipped lot details went forced love gm show affection someone made feel like carp nothing happened trapped blackmail someone thought could trust physical abuse non ending family problems lot them simply trust anyone anymore problems went by started unhealthly blame happened me point started hating myself day night would reming much idiot was slowly depersonalzied completely past self bitter personality pesimistic attitude pissed face day trust issues anxiety constant feeling watched judged people try hurt me thoughts become overwhelming decided shut head keeping busy day started ton activities per day tried take free time could good thing got diplomate literature age months later though started mentally exhausted continue convinced value came productive which pushed months tiring rountine so stopped things wasnt surprise quickly lost self worth left self value came useful want useful mess lasted last five years sunk deeply good friend mr depression originally thought teen years drama moment nothing reelevant one year ago date first redflag attempt failed couldnt tell thoughts started overwhelm much could wake best moods put single miniscule thing single comment even nothing would start break tears without reason get agitated nowhere feel terrible look deep images like cloud black smoke completely covered whenever wanted to rendering useless weeks started unable wake somedays stopped eating drinking water i couldnt meet expectation dissappointment letting everyone down useless stupid fake whenever tried make anything make useful thoughts would overhwelm broke tears constant impulse bash head wall make stop funnly enough recently realized bashing head wall form self harm nowdays want die longer see way breathing relieving pain firm though werever im sad happy good bad mood i want die years sites redflag conviced want help want better happy though did honestly isnt much me people say could brilliant person good job get good degree studies maybe could could wasnt me one good friend certainly miss gone even refuses accept it know really well easier would gone family would trumble bit exange token gone yes still that eventually pass rest dont even care strangers there dont even care know important help distressed people maybe theyre guided morality not they perosnally dont care would fight world hasnt done me anyone tired that tired trying get better better convince everyone im better know dissappointed them fooled ones hadnt fake intellectuality human hypocresy mentioned resented life nature humanity hate lot people mere existance specially hate me heart soul hate myself hate choices life ive done not would love go back mend mistakes cant one can honestly want live them used say tiny spark light inside myself memory old me trying survive trying tell strong convince i still here drowning shit details skipped long busy keep writing looked mirror today realized longer here want try anymore reason stay want die got far sorry stranger apologize broken english native speaker making afternoon bitter already was,1 +hard work towards future even want iteat healthy exercise everyday get skinny what getting skinny for mortician study hard complete assignments get good college who plan live long maintain friendships keep touch people people hurt im gone fuck shit man,1 +como dijo vladimir una paja dormir como dijo vladimir una paja dormir,0 +ensemble piece adults return formulative summer camp youth quiet entrant exiter cinemas autumn id say shamebut againsome better movies quiet releases get much hype praisebr br diane lanekevin pollackelizabeth perkinsvincent spanojulie warnerbill paxtonkimberly williamsmatt craven alan arkinwho painfully good here group actors flesh roles people grown old goodbad funny memories summers gone past film covers gambit emotionsmostly pleasantand film never hammers away viewer feel characters feelingpreferring allow viewer enter memories own since movie viewer bristles bluntlybrazen manipulation filmsthis something appreciate writerdirector mike binderbr br this films great cheap renta good main rent even pretty sit theater flick might run across tvand would definitely suggest looksee,0 +want really selfishim teen really hate everything myself hate talk look dress entire personality etc want way body stress constantly school none means literally anything id much rather kill work essay another second im sad time im really not know im ugliest person im fairly talented musician gig semi regularly nice body bcuz lift etc happy im friends none like much like them ill put straight terrible crush one bestfriends shes one thing motivates im aware would never work matter do matter happy get always reminded life work reward ends honestly id rather die right work try best another years situation end without potential now xoxo,1 +smoking epic take me someone smokes,0 +f know im bored asf hit ur unpopular opinion yeah guys super unpopular thoughts opinions wanna talk hmu talk im talk literally anything opinion point view long chill everything maybe convince im wrong ill convince wrong maybe well agree lmao never really know yeah im lot different stuff like music play piano guitar im star wars superhero stuff read fantasy books comics bunch draw mostly digital sometimes traditional too cheerlead play lacrosse volleyball also made list stuff fairly strong opinions talk try change mind cant think anything talk about racism religion modern music relationships sexism colorism patriotism politics privilege mental health family success education anything else think also like wanna talk whatever im talk whatever wanna yep pm please,0 +girlfriend supportive honest embarrasses meive honest suicidal thoughts understands hate putting her hate knows now want treat differently feel bad me told intending vent feel like attention seeker feel shame,1 +promise martin donovan playing jesus was quite honestly enough get see film definitely worthwhile clever funny without overdoing it lowquality filming probably appropriate effect ended little jarring ending sounded like pbs program hartley still many memorable lines great moments judge harshly,0 +birthday filler filler filler turned today simultaneously feels wrong like close adult also glad things like drive senior high school know right feel right,0 +begin with loved gta kanal lot classic jokes including unlucky guy canoe always seems wrong place wrong time still acting guy gta kanal movie opinion hes performance funny first movie fact notice much all thing made think bad movie choice boats movie race boats sure speedy make waves like big floating mansions used first movie liked old ones better new boats makes one last scenes look ridiculous man canoe suddenly jumps evade big waves small speedy boats truly minus accept were living sweden anymore movie also contains bit violence first one although movie great all ive concentrated cons disappointed rest movie expectations go see it worth money,0 + types people subreddit people worship amp people consider bane existence ur third type person majority never seen u dont care dont tell im havin moment,0 +ex girlfriend kills point living either cannot stop thinking drowning pool know could figure sure would painful end dead anyway matter want drown,1 +big sad im lonely,0 +first thought man invented shovel had ground breaking,0 +subreddit much better night idk posts funnier even though arent many them,0 +lonely feel useless whats pointnot sure start here found today ive weighing options head kill try get help seem feasible me part thinks get help going make fit anywhere suddenly make people like months cant see change life significantly im living city adore moved country five years ago city nearly year it however feels city thing have family here people never stay friends year best know cant take odd moods when let guard depression anxiety is im girl im gay ive proper relationship dated girl months two years ago broke off really probably best never would worked ive fallen couple girls since then initially liking me decide dont one closest i use term loosely friend one girl time last year staying place instead travelling work incredibly happy several considered dates things going great im quite sure even wants friends me could tell becoming distant earlier year march told felt got youre amazing person but im sick people give shit telling im amazing disappearing life hear family much family have used speak dad skype time however life changed new partner years ago months go without us speaking place feel needed work also socialising know good thing like people work time even always enjoy work itself outside work feel existence pointless im important necessary part anybody elses life think dying think people would eventually notice would work think every makes sad im overweight incredibly enough im comfortable doctor told lose weight ive tried dieting made hungry tried going gym got bored it im thinking trying couch k dunno arsed junk food vice drink smoke drugs instead ill junk food seems much simpler end it though im sure go it stand rail platform want either jump rails electrocuted front train pulls in think jumping infront traffic think drowning river tried actually anything since teenager tried choke several times span couple years would feel terrified afterwards thought maybe trying cbt ive read help depression anxiety get really anxious nervous social situations point leave cry hyperventilate outside event tonight thought id enjoy didnt aware person made uncomfortable situations im fine own otherwise id never go anywhere anything thats usually things everyone else mostly well were really expected socialise gigs walks lectures stuff like that antidepressants couple years now dosage halved months ago thought feeling better im thinking ill need revers continue on want find peace hurt anymore apologies cohesive lot thoughts head share somehow someone,1 +gummy bear crazy frog filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 + year olds last wordsim done im done fuck this fuck life want over want someone need something need something go on yet im here cant wait tomorrow morning nice little accident highway cant wait seriously though u know me find im sorry cant go on cant live like this im sorry isnt fault may continue ever could love jacob,1 +know closing eyes sleep higher chance fall asleep compared opening eyes thank later,0 +coin collectors like hmm yes rhis coin ,0 +fun fact belle delphine made big younger watched room tour thinking cute without knowing living rewatched realized meant cutesy yt video th grader watch,0 +oh fucking god idk felt like yelling clean room would literally rather blow brains clean room amount hate hold cleaning u g h aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa wanna sleep sum deep clean whole ass bedroom ughhhhh,0 +nearly k main cant get karma alt mustve lost touch,0 +yearold sexually confused otaku failing school relationships friends lifeso recently ive finally realizing shitty life going people always telling smart am really feel way grades pretty bad might even graduate point let alone get colleges ive wanting go since particularly care friends theyre always treating like shit gets old awhile really getting me ive never relationship looking hopeless right too top off im sure im gay cant tell anyone family friends would disown me worst part even sure feel like everything ive tried working future me broke alone living shitty apartment job friends ive tried change make things better nothing works usually ends horribly know anymore redflag looking like viable option everyday,1 +karent ,0 +alan johnson don cheadle successful dentist shares practice business partners alan also loving wife jada pinkett smith two daughter camille lache smith imani hakim also let parents stay huge apartment new york city somehow feels life somewhat empty one ordinary day city sees old college roommate charlie fireman adam sandler alan seen charlie years alan tries befriends charlie again charlie lonely depressed man hides true feelings people cares him since charlie unexpectedly loses family plane crash one planes september alan nearly feels comfortable charlie alan mentions things past charlie turns violent towards alan anyone mentions deceased family alan tries help charlie tries make life little easier himself alan finds making charlie talking true feelings difficult expectedbr br written directed mike bender blankman indian summer upside anger made wonderfully touching human drama moments sadness truth comedy well sandler offers impressive dramatic performance sandler offers dramatic role paul thomas andersons punchdrunk love cheadle excellent usual pinkett smith fine alans supportive wife liv tyler also good young psychiatrist saffron burrows quite good beautiful odd lonely woman wild crush alan film sadly box office disappointment despite great reviews cast firstrate here writing director wonderful russ t alsobrooks terrific widescreen cinematography movie great nyc locations film makes new york beautiful city look picturebr br dvd sharp anamorphic widescreen transfer gooddolby digital surround sound dvd also jam session sandler cheadle featurette photo montage previews expecting dvd features like audio commentary track director deleted scenes reign me certainly one best films came year sure movie looked great big screen sadly chance see theater also kind movie plays well dvd film good soundtrack well plenty familiar faces supporting roles bitparts even director bitpart byran sugarman whos actor himself reign me one underrated pictures year also best sandler film taste since the wedding singer miss it hd widescreen ,0 +think gonna final post onlineive anxiety years now ive struggled cope it year old im new world get it need slow think anyway really given up brother dad abusive know what really wanted love them miss feeling hugged dad brothers voice havent house whats going year first christmas without either them ive lost friends online connections im garbage skill try learn becoming increasingly paranoid think hear voices people dark ive accepted redflag im medicated seretonin never helped first place id rather commit redflag dog dies live heart fuck anxiety fuck antifa fuck school goodbye internet,1 +reaching difficultim difficult situation im treated mental illnesses ive struggling undiagnosed since child get suicidal ideation lot sucks hate it hate mind making feel weak get frustrated idea people expect okay im meds therapy easy sometimes feel worst want hurt most think reach intense services get scared feel sick live parents im literally mid s feel like would ruin life did,1 +want overi dedicated relationship girl like also likes me talking girl several years finally built courage ask wanted spend time together said no supposed do tried exercising working person fee uncomfortable skin almost like dont know could know anyone else please help want someone get old im aging fear im slave fate,1 +hate peoplei cant stand anyone suicidal thoughts every day able get help socialize hate everyone see doesnt help either like every human same useless disgusting thing end everyone selfish noone actually cares others noone tries empathy try seem so,1 +friend cutting know shehes probably starting think redflaglike title says friend cuts theyre genderfluid ill using throughout post sometimes makes jokes like i enough adhd medicine kill myself things like that shes getting therapy dont think getting better made insta account thats venting posting pics cutting want help idk how call redflag hotline tell parents idk im really scared might one day commit redflag think part reason really come genderfluid yet real life friends idk else openly lesbianat least girlbasically likes girls idk else wrong situation shes depressed one smartest people class best clarinet player band really nice friends well wonder reason killed yet want hurt friends sorry giant wall text formatting im mobile worried her,1 +wish deadi cant fucking sleep know im yelling sea people feel similarly man wish dead waking every day looking fucking mirror brings dread thing keeping fear comes death animals good friends feel like hate im pathetic dont even know im writing this im tired want kill fucking bad cant im fucking loser broke streak self harming like years couple days ago looking cuts wrist forearm makes feel fucking stupid worthless dont know it bleed cry nobody cares feel like im stuck rock hard place mind mental fucking prison one day ill die due natural causes ill die fucking killed depressing dont know worse people know celebrating life without knowing whole story pitying taking life life isnt enjoyable hasnt many years im tired tired pretending everything ok tired pretending life worth living seeing slowly lose interest stuff used love fucking sad waking morning sleep days end exhausting pulling bed tiring thought go get another job quarantined makes stressed head feels like jumbled mess fucking thoughts cant control dont want fucking work life away die idk id rather fucking do id rather throw towel say forget kill myself isnt worth it im fucking tired mentally drained feel selfish seeing people going worse things me life fine hate living dont care future im tired caring tired living idk,1 +stay focused school online classes prerecorded classes watch whenever please however procrastination keeps making anything else besides schoolwork watching classes homework advice,0 +advice pleasei psych ward due redflag attempt essentially police officer detained brought hospital hospital assessed trying vague trying kill try dodge questions bit first told honest thought dishonest told best way get tell happened never anyone talk talked samaritans wanted kill gave every detail problem told involved told bit suicidal time happened without mental illness ended redflag watch psych ward every detail told psychiatric record every doctor nurse assess ashamed personal also worried redflag watch hospital would ruin career opportunities cause troubles life future every conversation recorded trust ppl need somone talk expect open anymore im tired need get kill asap realised living sample observed want know going kill im discharged not problem made felt suicidal personal never told anyone problem happened since last months unfair involved problem even know someone tried kill herself opposite bed said doesnt want apparently gonna make things worse need fake want get advice please need advice suicidal quite already thought got someone talk getting things chest first trying plan get back feet get much,1 +comment ill reply edit make look icky ask literally questions ill answer,0 +need helpim losing it yall im pregnant boyfriend hates strong enough abortion hate shitty job hate roommate disgusting slob hate mom telling terrible mother friends stopped inviting cant go bars sit home alone cry none hobbies fun anymore throw daily pregnancy hormones one reach make even slightly better want die im months pregnant little girl love want keep safe happy cant cant keep alive like,1 +anyone know much xanaxi need take od im going like sister did thank you,1 +seen film different occasionson first occasioni bowled filmit appeared kind film mei hated film sentimental garbage second viewinghowever third viewing reasserted belief good filmthere lot emotional power film especially scenes emotional confrontation mr kramer madam kramerthere scenes meryl streep appears cruel person despite fact beauty real lifedustin hoffman appears lost hero unable grapple recent task childs custodythere even controversy sets filmaccording master cameraman nestor almendros shot escaped getting hurt character mrkramerin order show intensity angerdecides break glass hardluckily nothing happened nestorkramer versus kramer shows destruction family structureit also tells family must maintained kids involved,0 +please help me feel like everything catching up like running stop something horrid going catch me feel like entire world sheet turned vertical everyone stays still one notices whole world slipping sliding it clinging finger nails fall darkness nobody see fading away want die badly know got courage it want it bad make coward able it make coward trying escape ive put knives wrists ropes around neck ive walked front buses ive walked right edge subway platforms trains whizz by never properly always know never going go way finally put stop all terrifies me makes think lower sink yet cant handle getting worse would rather end now,1 +tired living im sure ill always aloneits almost two years im still hung ex even though cheated lied me anything live for friends understand supportive ive tried many medications nothing works doctor idea help ignores tell bad am lie say plan do materials hard get really dated since ex believe sex marriage im okay hookups anything like that ex pretended felt lied course think probably proposed get pants contact look up still think time therapy therapist says healing different everybody u heal different rates think ill find someone genuinely cares me want live life alone though want give morals boyfriend either im tired sad scared time im afraid leave house antianxiety pills work little cant work live farming area theres even places meet people except church bars obviously already know people church cant really chat mass hardly go anymore anyway im even sure believe god anymore pray understand kill myself even life death know reason live anymore,1 +get political dont think women black people property anymore,0 +im definitely suicidal help itive semisuicidal long time ive known least years want ride thoughts getting way intense really depressed lot great people around could talk to end know want live anymore nothing life nothing want do way forward me want dead want try medicationsdrugssupplements work make feel shitty tired time even know want helped try guess,1 +dear community ever feel like emotionally blackmailedi know little guys like idea redflag legal think understand why just know myself hate here choose myself feel forced living resent people try stop dying resent people tell cause others pain seems like stupid thing say pain matter what people say thing head is their well important yours existence choice unwell woman chose keep thought could provide love denied life beautiful thought it unloved unwanted woman holding tiny baby someone loves is aw baby machine providing validation growing human needs go unaddressed big surprise abused woman one loves shit load psychological issues prevent fit mother fucking baby grown adult dealing result neglect wants die tells people wants die unfair chastise it met hatred even here sub met hatred suggesting allowed life wants commiserating others say want same people belittle challenges tell neglect reason want die mean whatever worst thing happened im saying right now life forced upon want it emotionally blackmailed staying hate it fucking hate it im monster want people care pain guess stay here continue mutilate myself body soul else do,1 +help feel depressed suicidal know whylet begin first episode depression ended night put gun mouth almost committed redflag depression caused bottling feelings years years end ex every suicidal thought parents arrested almost abandoned etc im usually good keeping things control lost control almost committed redflag it thing stopped thought would happen mom shes one life stuck me even jail love much night would get occasional suicidal thought stare nearest window wanting run jump nothing handle freshman year high school im sophomore top class all advanced classes eligible college programs good friends support me im part band school thats friends come from like second family loving girlfriend cares lot she knows time tried committing redflag life used be recently though suicidal thoughts flooding head seem stop want tell mom would devastate she know first time want tell friends able help me want tell girlfriend yet think shell able handle would hurt way know try help cant ive come im scared thoughts feel trapped inside myself im sorry weird ive never done want help someone talk to thank anything think would help,1 +damn bro drinking actually fun asf normally stick drugs alcohol actually chill asf im feeling real good rn maybe ill become alcoholic im older sounds vibey,0 +im asking for u prove man culture well,0 +sleep like sleeping couch hoody listening music,0 +cant stand morei wanna die good reason alive im coward kill right now someone help me,1 +life usually screw nice peopleive never thought bad person ive kind call friends family yet called friends paid back theyve used thrown away like trash appearing need fair ive never ever hurt anyone bullied school way first year uni ive realised whole life one big disappointment plus suffer social anxiety think ill make threw uni lock im stuck home computer friend one mum checks me wake everyday nothingness loneliness hurts physically barely get bed eat happiness seems like luxury cant afford want friend even one really cares im alone know everyday could last noose ready note prepared need balls go it,1 +feel disconnected real worldi lived years though thats true inner age still live home fulltime student parttime online job pays enough cover tuition owe pell grants scholarships sort ambition interest real world real life spend day fantasizing dead celebrities aching badly wish befriend them play lot video games spend significant amount time researching topics necessarily use career rarely leave room cant remember last time left house im experiencing anxiety returning school next week hate there like im studying hate around people classroom setting makes super uncomfortable makes feel trapped stifled control swore high school would never put hell again last year reality decided pay shortlived visit realized would never chance life go college get degree thing is desire work career kindi figure choice blue collar manual labor job something im least somewhat interested make better money ill go latter ive always good student quite average actually believe say like school push succeed feel like little selfworth tied academic success understand get anywhere life flunk everything im aromanticasexual means feel romantic sexual attraction anyone result feel extremely isolated lonely think big misconception people like us want love relationshipsnot true want kind love thats like omg want date sex blah blah would really love mentor type adult figure cant find anyone like that every adult life treats like one them even though im not im transage meaning although ive lived years inner age matured past causes distress imagine know never receive type love desperately long for hate feel like shit every day emotionally deprived might sound insane im jealous celebrity platonic crushs wife potential future granddaughters might have female descendants yet realize still time change yes know crazy literally would jealous little girl huge fear mine want little princess spoils protects literal daughter granddaughter im happy family get gist kind relationship less again desire whatsoever romantic sense typical crush want marry anything afterlife instead little friend know kind relationship jacob renesmee twilight books sort thing like said really goals dreams life basically going motions feel like choice true hearts desire animals meet celebrity platonic crush heaven animal dream enough make want stay earth endure lifetime working outside home suffering emotional isolation nothing look forward to feel tired sluggish days filled anxiety next time leave house thought function real world adult im makes sick full dread even career goals would still transage freak never jacob simply put meant planet im starting finally accept that feel like im one people would seriously better dead im happy here im tired pain,1 +heres nice facts know fight male puppy always lets female puppy win penguins propose stick together life forcing smile actually makes smile voice actors mickey minnie got married real life baby sloths addicted cuddling sunshine warmth makes happier cows best friends get sad apart sea otters hold hands sleep norway knighted penguin china killing panda punishable death rats laugh tickled dolphins names eachother puffins mate life good news likely shared social media bad news angry way say word bubbles koko gorilla could communicate sign language pet cat gorillas remember old friends sheep recognise facial expressions like smiles baby elephants suck trunks comfort squirrels adopt baby squirrels theres,0 +im want attempt redflag againplease help,1 +im yearold college professor went wife year old daughter enjoyed movie film original witty fastpaced totally charming plot easy enough year old follow twisty enough keep adult interested thought emma roberts superb job rest cast fine criticism los angeles sets interesting been functional nothing stood out hand makeup costume lighting cinematography editing directing excellent altogether thought totally enjoyable experience disappointed professional critics almost adult males savagely attacked film apparently something films portray strong intelligent independent young women writings reveal sexist natures anything wonderful family film recommend strongly every child every parent,0 +guiltwhen abuser realized tell someone shed done killed avoid facing consequences messaged blue years abuse ended kinda froze panicked told wished dead night gone almost years still feel guilty even years hell put through maybe found shortly died childhood me know figured accept it doubt anyone relate much resonates you id love talk more m matters,1 +keeps working thisi enjoy good thelonious monk comp then keeps answering requests music wise maybe tell us major blues scale,1 +cant fucking believe math professor gave study guide questions fucking due tuesday,0 +dont love parent cant realize negative reinforcement doesnt work im already depressed anxious already feel like deserve things gonna realize way make things positive reinforcement like go ahead take away phone computer everything dont deserve it gonna make shit gone live without it contrary popular belief life source something stop thinking offing myself,0 +wish gutswell am resorting post internet forum what judging past interactions doubt response help me feel choices reject god kill myself cannot simply choose god worked last several years ive tried year old forever alone guy self confidence friends try distance would want spend time me hate me want spend weekend bed never getting up drinking water eating food sit die away maybe ill join military turn eighteen get killed off ive heard people refer levelheaded thats me future doubt ill even graduate im what ill probably live parents house die sapping away realize absurdly morbid nonsensical guess im venting cause ive never friends vent to maybe turned away edit somehow feel much better morning leads believe form bipolar mean remove thread look different angle clear head thank posts think would get much recognition any,1 +thighs thicc tho filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text,0 +cant anymoremaybe one actually cares think might tonight feel alone empty im worthy existing anyway,1 +lying everyone yearsi lying closest friends girlfriend amp family years already debt amp telling everyone it okay think might weekend apend little bit happy time loved ones first long story ahead tldr bottom tldr childhood molested sezually fist grade neigbour amp grade verbally amp physically bullied blackmailed shit on pissed on sodomized amp used laughing stock atleast beatdowns week monday amp friday started year girlfriend now ex broke could live behaving like adult trust me either started bunking best friends place months feeling quilty income saving nothing amp freeloading friends lets call jiri place could get back moms place free rooms amp father lived way city transports school there months finalky found cheap rental apartment next school amp also knew move could get enough money welfare pay bils amp get food moved amp first fucking happy life joyfull amp felt good winter came thing called kaamos i dont know wjat call english came sunlight always dark kids started bully school anxiety amp deppression kicked amp could sleep well amp would stay planket ir computer hanging friends lasted month long got expelled school never went there stayed home drowning sorrows playing video games mainly rs friends long jiri tried ask okay always told yeah good months later money behind rent amp bills cash food still sat amp played video games also aunt amp granpa died time took pretty jard started self harm years clean juat beginning managed somehiw get together exgf amp bunked weeks saing i vacation school yeah fucking stupid me got caught threw amp know do visited apartment time payed bills last months so went ro gradmas place amp stayed month summer met soul mate amp new girlfriend friend jiri took back place stay amp promised help anything could told everybody big debt amp unemployed money got went straight paying debts believed told family amp bought it thou father diaapointed me after met talked times date unofficialy living jiri debt collecrors idea was baaically run months even remember it fun playing amp drinking life away jiri johanna amp friends one idea time went fast wa full year since moved ro live own always back head atill self harm drank alcohol remember all one day jiri said we move rental place could move unofficially him happy moved winter amp befire christmas moved new place lie survived officially year already started took toll me afraid phone ringing afraid going public areas amp talked dad months said mom amp everybody else okay nothing happenes while new place drinking playing amp derping around always afraid jiri woild kick money it went debt paying reality done anything ti get rhe monwy evsn toi afraid always helped bdat could amp think enough him im glad best friend summer applied school i forced seek education myself amp knew mistake may ask summer gone amp august school again school needed put address right place house lived jiri see going school started like shit anxiety top gear alcohol amp lie tellling years already evdn believed lie point aftrer one weel school quit it could blt handle it that came envelopes demise bills bills mlre bills wise amp saved money year thought payed all november came bill almost another amp amp on cried shock made bucket list next christmas get contact dad take johanna real first date get jiri something nice christmas fun lt christmas went by always toes january johanna invited place ever since day ca go back jiris place spoke jirk almost month now letters court told johanna anything even jiri one knows this jiri saw letters told okay just fucked badly weeks since last letter amp think next one something bad never wanted hurt anybody never wanted involve anyone else might now regret everything jiri amp family amp friends trough im disapointment everyone lazy fuckerif only could see another way last weeks slept all wake am sure someway im jump balcony know brought upon elementary school amp junior high school learned lie problems time also want worry involve anyone problems always tries make everyone around smile amp happy ques never time myself old habits die hard learn keep in never come out thought saturday last moment friends amp sunday week it railroad track nearby rest assholes made childhood hell kylsaaren alaaste ja meriporin ylaste jasu jere sundval se kpi ja te pari junttii ja koko mun alaaste luokka se kivaa juu hakata kepeill jaloilla ja nyrkeill toista varastaa esineit ja vandalisoida nit vhemmstki pelk menn ulos ja tulee ihmiapelkoo vitu mulkut ymmrrn kyll et teil oli omat perheongelmat mut ei sit olis muhu tarttenu mullaki oli omat ongelmat sillo jo jos olisitte antanu ni olisin koittanu auttaa teit vaikka nauraan ja joni impolasta milt tuntu kytt lk aeksuaalisesri hyvks tykkaiks siit ku otin suihin tai siit ku tynsit sen sinne oki varmaa sulle mukavaa haista pitk paska tldr lied ti everyine life cared fir almist years dead end people please lie loved one family end hurt e eryone 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taking time usual performing tasks like numerical calculations solving integrals trouble remembering code syntax solving problems etci usually know bad mental state counting times efficient normal vanilla processing power looks like decliningsince last years actively trying aware feelings surroundings really feel difference kind making pretty angry nowi actually surprised see noticeable difference going lie scary therapy expensive lockdown parents right now tried explain mental health given up get arguments man upany help really appreciated noticed unable process things efficiently used to cognitive abilities actually deteriorating,1 +leftists sit alone cafeteria lunch time school im proud leftist voiced hatred donald trump republican party multiple classes feel like classmates ready views like mine anyone else experiences am wish could live state like california texas could around leftists like myself,0 +need someone talk toplease pm ill give skype account name need someone talk to,1 +seeing picture quite skeptic like movies agenda appreciate scared thinking like writer also afraid would like part miniseries farfetched concept little relation real world poor execution beginning says this film fiction events portrayed information uk emergency planning based extensive research general feeling sold idea taught lesson civil awareness message conveyed obvious start coming were prepared use real places scenario could happen plans add disturbing effect movie have even cynical viewers movies perspective society stays away heartbreaking personal moments convey message none romeojuliet drama were used to,0 +mentally died long time backwhats point feels like need die physically,1 +like voice nice httpsopenspotifycomtrackprkmhypzzvtjpdssioonqkyqnuifhknxhhwg,0 +thought fought past turns im right back again risk dragging someone else meits since ive use throwaway quite happy fact guys awesome last time got back feet couple months intense motivation living you choice comes emotions moods deal amazing stopped meds happened thought headed recovery merits suppose partly correct back story pretty bad childhood often left alone so deal lot abandonment issues adult abused sexually mentally depression start years that years old nan who raised lived time died pretty bad bad would leave room days weeks one time months time mum powerless depression long term deal one top hers never finished school this now back present managed find amazing lady girlfriend lives hours away by train go see days off im happy distance weve going months cant really anything that real problem is know real qualifications working dead end retail job years know confidence could make pretty good manager want work retail rest life know change that know start id love something it even answering phones deal peoples problems i anyway people right front me know start ive applying jobs require previous experience hearing back really starting get me feel trapped helpless im falling familiar dark place almost claimed fear try soon im really scared im gonna fall time able get back again really want things going head live country family one go advice guidance desperately need feel alone want take easiest way out please help me,1 +horny people subreddit whowhat horny horny himherthemit ,0 +guys experience too hate chores people home mom always comments feel really uncomfortable it advice,0 +dream opposite genitalia wierd dream penis know why people dreams like me,0 +ive seeing many posts people turning teenage years coming end want grow up wanna horny forever,0 +merry christmas australia im lookin u,0 +hi gamsrs anyons wnt discordio basically guys girls shitposting playing games like among us minecraft javacracked war thunder fall guys doom hearts iron overwatch csgo one guy big nintendo fan wants friends chilllll dm link d,0 +would like could stop bloody sensitive timei almost start crying smallest gestures get upset people say im bad person get happy people nice want feel less means toxicly masculine force emotions down idc want sensitive,1 +started watching expecting worst happy find film turned enjoyable slightly confusing parts like justs started singing gave chance see daniel wu action first time better actor thought times seemed bit place thought purple storm deserves hong kong legends release different hk films mans emotional struggles confronted memory loss may sound corny eventually pieces actually really makes film lot interesting get film find keeps gripped it miss one bit lot film wil make sense example missed bit start recommend anyone watches miss it say film worth watching grateful surprise me enjoyed it,0 +yall ever want commit nolife saying __,0 +wow something surprise though flawed far better expectedbr br the brand new space liner arcturus passengers final days sixteen day trip jupiter without warning ships cerebral central computer sounds disaster alarm orders everyone evacuate br br soon handful people remaining including one ships astrogators penny captain cary director shipping line kenyonbr br it turns alarm false main cerebral actingbr br erratically remaining passengers crew must escape ship andbr br avoid personal conflicts order survivebr br the film starts well opening commercial nice touch obvious parallels space odyssey historicbr br sinking titanic film slow times pacingbr br problems generally well made well acted,0 +im surrounded wasps wasps building nest outside house one got house thats all send help,0 +sick dumb transgender arguments ever since super straight shit came people seem think wanting sex trans women transphobic she went full surgery would sex regular women shoul ever see say this stop right nobody cares trans women regular women same dumb say transphobic want sex them dumb shit pisses off want sex transwomen many straight men want either transphobic want natrual women natural women alone homophobic wanting sleep him,0 +frustrating how day really need therapist home sick child cannot come in totally get job them lives families come first lonely feeling adds despair person talk roof feel lost right now therapist even,1 +joker movie actually good dont really know watched movie thought good long ago dudes twitter say wasnt actually good movie sucks ass whats opinion movie ,0 +hi ima useless guy religious study degree tell big sin gay cases using quit informal language people ask mainly teenagers like guy that sin gay begin want make clear fact people say sin god basis christianity sin all approximately bibles written first one mentioned muslim history quran well books jews jewish history including hindu vedas says homosexual and homophobic sin said homosexual upon persons choice god person reveals criticises decision sinners shall punished grace god hinduism complete sin repercussions all burned alive found guilty homosexual also cause rebirth cycle stop buddism quran muslims said sin person homosexual said keep god get married homosexual marriage shall consent parents disapprove shall support you shall proceed marriage sin matter what shall punished afterlife grave homosexual may sign strayed god grace ignored teachings jews,0 +feeling lonely id like talk someonemy last post well,1 +shit guys feel like fucked or had friend uh like argument yesterday online school nothint special tho normally sit together class talk lot etc today entered class sittting guy also friend tho even say hello saw idk give up also note im scared ask were ok,0 +think song wrote addiction runs family right staying up able sleep night mental illness ive enough give fight judge depression anxiety fill mind like balloon dont know do like hands tied head expands roof emotions feel consumed family abused wanting commit redflag like really lose,0 +suicidal paradox anyone elseim morbidly suicidal hopeless desire live future feel guilt anymore concerns people id leave behindim unwanted burden crushes soul i concerned dog though wont even bother note so feel compassion others share stories instinctively dont want it understand feeling way depths am working courage kill myself yet deeply affected others want die please let go hold on,1 +start school two fucking hours rn get clean room go wait get teacher hate anyways want chicken nuggies,0 +want thank everyone here seriously planning death couple hours ago found subreddit looked posts here guys wonderful wish could give biggest hug ever,1 +exit act redflag reform hi name adam im founder exit act exitactorghttpsexitactorg redflag reform initiative legislate open euthanasia services acute chronic intents justifications im year old human relations specialist social neglect chemistry interaction gray area matters impetus assimilation empathetic explicate advisory purposes find development unfortunate necessity ask please share sentiments contribute helpful information appropriate forums service legislative use impacted redflag support mission establish humane administration suicidal persons consider making financial contribution crowdfundhttpsexitactorgcrowdfunding support efforts help unable cover burial costs wake redflag events referencing highly instrumental know someone impacted redflag would also interest contributing mission february national freedom day lead open meeting public expressions opinions topic open euthanasia legislations front white house washington dc usa est pm pst ensuing campaign proposals legislation commence thereafter stress sentiments contributing forum members information provided instruments amp provisions forum used devise legal documents thank you sincerely interest exit act ampxb kind regards adam,1 +getting braces getting braces wondering anything know,0 +remember watching s recently borrowed couple episodes public librarybr br with nearly year hiatus come another conclusion principals interviewed series center power like traudl junge hitlers secretarykarl doenitz head germanys navy anthony eden uk long gone first hand accounts live onfrom generals admirals sergeants russian civilians concentration camp survivors record here br br i remember lord mountbatten interview killed s br br this truly gem believe producer series knighted queen elizabeth work well deservedbr br seeing episodes library makes want buy setbr br this given review discovered like fine bottle wine appreciated little time,0 +fucking hate mom cant single bit privacy even online classes also antimask antimask like wtf,0 +caused someone commit redflag feel like shithi everyone im australia caused someones death never really liked person begin with acquaintances talked times every months circle friends met up plagiarised university attends person reported university show evidence dont ask got evidence did plagiarised multiple times done things caused take action really wish didnt days later found expelled university happy outcome although know consequence severe expected warning days come figured friends lashed me believe right anyway dont get anywhere life cheating days found killed himself shell shocked devastated feeling extremely guilty every time think makes stomach feel sick devestated although never liked would never wanted kill himself friends said right thing death wasnt fault feel fault words advice welcome feel less guilty great would also charged death one friends messaged said hes reporting police did,1 +us pretty great place live country first world country government oppressing anyone women oppressed whether were best country questionable say country pretty good live im united stated im happy live place thats third world im saying best place live bad people say really least enough freedoms added things happens places like russia happen us thats country honestly laughed lot saying bad place live really innacurate,0 +change moods every fucking hours fucking hate it stable fucking week week stop changing every day stop,0 +avid julie andrews fan watched first time dvd directors cut version surprised rated g get bedroom scenes seduction story line two strip tease acts warshootingblood g rating weird would rate pgbr br other thoroughly enjoyed movie beautiful showcase andrews voice talent acting great storyline little weak leaving gaps could filled good dialogue many no talking walking scenes me would liked see relationship julie rock blossom intense love would believable,0 +anyone someone want someone simp idc want feel loved,0 +dont know doim combat medic ptsd ive dating girl little three years today broke up never felt horrible life ive married kid another chick thought got everything good ish anyways dont want kill keep leaning towards it point dad come house take guns house i live america gunz cant help think always mess things time dont even feel like living anymore helped much better myself quit smoking rarely drink around made acceptable society love know constantly upset everything do im kinda money hungry always trying get promoted better positions im glad dad took guns sorry rant guys,1 +talk someone im really bad mindset rn im scared reach friends think ending life cancan talk someone one person,0 +supposed kill age i cannot wait die honest life nothing pain short bits happiness last millisecond due date coming,1 +cant learn shit online online classes suck cant focus phone cant learn anything nobodys focusing class learning slower im tired stared h screen get lot homework cant much short period time fuck this,0 +im bored hmu talk whatever long conversation stays interesting,0 +living dream fucked lifei cant believe different life compared year half ago studying uni internship film company loved gotten accepted dance team training gigscompetitions guess fucked started counselling near end degree started confront feelings gender disphoria counselling realised wanted badly transition tell loved ones feel accepted ready to went hill graduated getting month extension able graduate friends dance crew took break stopped dancing isolated room continued binge eating which always turn trying finish uni deadlines worked part time job free time would watch shows phone spend wage food couple months id put kilos completely given following passions dance filmvfx degree go make worse weight made look much feminine fast forward got laid full time night shift job ive put another kg given hopes ever trasitioning anything life want find another mindless nightshift job make ends meet untill ive properly planned redflag worked guts,1 +based posts image percieve yara yara yara stalk profile dunno,0 +keep simple possible good show well written fantastic cast loaded blood guts centers around disgraced cop relationship exwife son former partner andre braugher childhood friend priest george dzunzda lastly person happens get hack episode likely find something like going city no still good story yes nice see man portrayed good father spite flaws watch one see lot us hooked show thank david morse making character interesting another good job,0 +guess song aint tellin im finna im beyond fuck shit hey lil mama would like sunshine person touch gang gon turn shit columbine ice neck cost ten times three thirty thousand dollars nigga get flee hit rodo spent like ten gs,0 +finally text post weekends fuck image posts suck like ones people showing art stuff posts memes yesterday sorting new see meme comment repost yet fucking reposted meme went hots like wtf man text posts best lots interaction,0 +youre senior high school job field looking going to im graduating two months college forefront mind plan going school get degree food nutrition either want dietician home economics teacher wondering guys,0 +seeking life adviceim one people who kill myself would probably generate reaction he everything going him which surface somewhat true grew without financial care world went top private university adult im perfect health decent physical shape im close family really good friendships dated continue date accomplished attractive women problem im early s completely financially dependent parents dropped law school decade ago pursue passion career arts received legitimate positive notices work generated meaningful commercial interest years honing craft putting there made penny seem closer anytime soon meantime ive held lowpaying unpaid jobs internships recently quit job years small nonprofit paid little clerical tasks eventually took marketing position someone else left knew nothing marketing relatively terrible it ended quitting year poor performance reviews im shysensitive feel highly unsuited office jobs seem fit coworkers discovered towards end time mocked behind back though still middle school degree useless liberal arts field despite hundreds job applications received responses positions ive interested applying to probably lack experience even know applying anymore true passion creative pursuits continue hold hope eventually people take interest creative work feels like pipe dream network draw upon find good jobs cant identify practical graduate degree would interested attaining best take yet another clerical position somewhere seems like ticking time bomb feel horrible guilt shame living nice apartment cant afford ive therapy years various prescription medications done little help also feel guilty even feelings people real traumatic experiences lives want die suffering pales comparison still think killing time want live life failed dreams zero passions want office drone want kind recognition intelligence creativity use way earns decent living earning money something hate enough creative pursuits satisfy hobby know killing would hurt care me obviously feel guilt or anything died reason enough stay alive one choose stay alive sole purpose preventing others unbearable grief feel like im failing life guidance disappointment welladjusted family often go sleep wishing wake up life feels incredibly disappointing unfulfilling given choice whether exist picked this said before know problems first world anybody advice move forward kind situation way trick brain caring passions finding meaning bland existence thanks helpadvice,1 +living breathing potato thats folks read title,0 +messed w girl question advice messed up short theres girl like likes back text back forth time texts dont answer purpose look cool guess eventually text back on never text first always sends first text soooo sends text per usual dont respond time forgot respond all im like well shell text eventually right nope three weeks ocd like mf theres notification messages icon reminds unread message ios btw read receipts disabled like said three weeks dont want open message sees decided open text three weeks would pretty weird im stressed think one notification every hour every day since ive received left unopen long like true idiot one hand want open get rid want absolutely sure doesnt see read message long question is read receipts disabled actually work ios like enabled see read message show delivered her,0 +another entertaining travolta dance flick great music mood scenes debra winger beautiful like saturday night fever macho film features extremely improbable scenes beautiful women falling travolta almost begging sex them,0 +feel like theres point living alli hate this hate much feel like one day might explode nothing ever right good games im good useful others im good good daughter sister partner i even friends figure im best either im sore loser often feel jealous others doare better me hell im even good languages study thats want eventually living im bad even trying kill have bunch failed attempts belt im huge disappointment living like exhausting want out like right now feel tempted pop pills finally sleep peace,1 + females called cute took get shit scared playing horror game them,0 +wish deadim tired fighting know much keep going,1 +christmas gift arrived courtesy tcm never seen film even though seen films barbara stanwyck comedy made us laugh much times restrain ourselves order hear dialogbr br this movie seen people suffering stressful situations especially around christmas would certainly lift ones spirits letting go movie would make perfect gift form dvd vhs tape br br christmas connecticut directed great panache peter godfrey based story aileen hamilton br br the best thing movie felicitous pairing two popular stars era barbara stanwyck dennis morgan barbara stanwyck always played strong willed women obviously change pace her film well lady eve ms stanwyck displays knack comedy mr morgan played lot musical comedies make winning combinationbr br there weak performances film sydney greenstreet actor notorious playing heavies delight watch rich fat alexander yardley man owned media empire knew good thing saw it reginald gardiner accomplished english actor adds luster stellar cast behind two principalsbr br s z sakall another source continuous mirth plays hungarian chef felixwho hard time version english language also una oconnor makes perfect norah housekeeper sloan perfect connecticut farmbr br in reading comments forum sad learn glorious black white cinematography appreciated people all color widely used s classic movies seen original format because would accomplished coloring thembr br this film requirement anyone looking spend almost two hours uninterrupted fun christmas time total merriment assured watch open mind heart maybe like see christmas connecticut every year,0 +im tired waking upi genuinely think ending life lot ive thought years sucks ive therapy ive medicated nothing seems pull head trauma every years fall deep depression complete misery cry everyday hardly eat filled sadness kind go numb feel empty thats comfort away sadness days nobody knows ive started isolating friends family feel like burden everyones life want distance far dont feel guilty dont like person anymore abuse drugs alc daily drinking taking something else started self harming almost everyday look wrists body represents scars inside pain outside now look makes hate more feels good one control pain once point tell thats hurts really want die peacefully sleep ive thought mixing pills alc taking sleeping medicine hoping stop breathing time sun goes up ive thought carbon monoxide poisoning didnt ask born didnt ask put trauma fair forced stay tortured every single day thoughts feelings head life would go people die everyday thats life get choose amp thats difference wishing life away feel content anymore sleep hate feeling way cant help it want know feels like happy wake anxiety attack first minutes awake day asking manage escape today repeats living im simply existing dont even want to im much pain wouldnt say anyone real life anymore deserve better begin remove easier really remove myself,1 +although remade several times movie classic seeing first time creative dialog unique genius final scene deserves credit critics given it highly recommended one best comedies recent years,0 +ever since little kid grew thinking inferior culture raised colorist restrictive fact skin tone darker side made subject kinds insecurity indirectly programmed believe enough unattractive family emigrated grew country minority made even worse already expected people treat like shit would speak people almost certain would want nothing me look mirror somebody takes picture me entire moodday ruined feel sick disgusted core society incredibly hard wired evaluate worth person way look guess makes nobody boundless unconditional self hatred could hate entity universe despise myself self hatred continues perpetuate itself everywhere go see beautiful perfect faces every time check phone every time turn tv every time go walk outside feel disgusting hideous compared everybody else unable see way feel undeserving love affection friendship deserve nothing see pretty girl think pretty is disgusted would know guy like found attractive isolate friends family sometimes ask friends even want speak me want attractive want feel confident want loved want family raise children successful want somebody else somebody me want happy never be self esteem destroying life rant,1 +mom grounded slept past alarm shit gets mad something thats even fault get punished,0 +im bored sooo im gonna put shit alphabetical order give household items please,0 +redflags become question when ifi know anymore ive suicidal past weeks keep alternating fighting thoughts succumbing darkness past year ive gotten car crash totaled car broke boyfriend years lost cat lost coworker work full time job part time job im full time graduate student sleeping well im slipping back eating disorder im starting get paranoid everyone around me many friends feel like depression making burden ones have im antidepressant seem working more psychiatrist taking forever get back me im making wait finish school year part time job ironically im studying mental health counselor anything hurt clients come may th theres nothing holding back anymore,1 +anyone want uterus please send free charge take itits useless dont even want kids,0 +story complex wonderful tale last harem ottoman empire well told provoking see inner workings world gone learn people lived therebr br i enjoyed story characters acting scenes scenes suffered quick editing sub titles sometimes disappeared quickly otherwise wonderful piecebr br the main character safiya played wonderfully marie gillain pleased say fantastic job without it scenes alex descas nadir charming lovelybr br i recommend film anybody looking watch something less hollywood authentic world emulating,0 +care but need phone number right goddamn now,0 +alright aint even gonna lie warm blooded female must admit ryuk death note gives serious daddy vibes like dayummm lets fuck already,0 +absolutely best thing ever seen tv entertaining informative reason found site attempt find see itbr br in light present understanding history sympathize gen leslie groves responsible nuts bolts running manhattan project certainly paranoid security thought past br br the casting real life people portrayed outstanding first time noticed sam waterston actor except height looked much like robert oppenheimerbr br the early scene oppenheimer leading class graduate students especially intriguing me,0 +know awaits side nothingand leave conscious this nothingness better life nothing death,1 +take church music video scary like dam got point across well slap face reality stuff infact still happen love song meaning behind it one songs people cry homophbia happens,0 + never depressed life seriously affecting way living know take anymore tried seeing therapist couple years ago looked bored listening she falling asleep never bothered looking that idea maybe adults see therapists maybe supposed know deal issues kid anymore afraid therapists tired hearing shit see adults stupid knowing solve problems part knows true part also cannot help think things could people please enlighten me like seeing therapist adult,1 +literally post anything care getting downvoted feel immortal hahahahahahha,0 +get monthly subscription something anythingmy ipsy subscription given something look forward to yes days shit bad cut but stop going far want get ipsy monthly makeup surprise items glam bag lot crates meal boxes many things one could buy give something help want hold longer hope helps,1 +help pleasei need reasons live tmr im actually done please give reason something cant anymore dont feel comfortable explain please,1 +often see pitch black room see feel touch taste hear distance see everything everyone ever loved cared about start running grab arms reach grab me matter fast long run always distance away feel overwhelming urge breakdown cry try cannot mad feel anger sad feel sadness feel nothing despair loneliness emotions lost void desperately trying escape fall knees head facing ground two choices lay front me continue trying matter hard exhausting guarantee ill ever succeed reaching them game switch matter long running trying always reach first one want give up want end things scared reach them eventually ill choose option terrifies me doubt ever take option feel longer try likely could happennote suicidal depression feels like severe depression feels like,1 +deserve suffer bad kill teach neglectful kill hurt people,1 +anyone wanna chat im bored af anyone wanna chat im m,0 +even know writing herei want kill myself badly guess guts woulda done long time ago thought years feels different maybe listening frank sinatra wanna it wanna badly everytime think it think family dead care family get sad lonely year old guy give fuck anything years staying home playing video games failed college parents expect enter again much problem really bored life biggest problem gambling addiction parents send little bit money every month spend mostly ciggaretes gambling sometimes even money buy food feel sad gamble feel betterlose feel bad even know thoughts now usually think redflag bed nothing block thoughtsthe next day wake sit pc goes away now im sitting pc thoughts probably even commit today even know writing feeling sad really sad good wayeasy way seems redflag troubles gone sadness gone reason it,1 +comment fuck ass daddy post comment fuck ass daddy post,0 +playing minecraft increase memory noticed couple times actuallywhen ever play minecraft something seem remember going around me instance family watching moviethis happened six months ago still remember dialogue said remember gamei exploring cave second time noticed online class english decided play minecraft missed whole class could hear said still remember names characters story whole story understand possible since paying attention said class still remember word said block placed said anyone else relate me,0 +takes patience get david lynchs eccentric but change lifeaffirming chronicle alvin straights journey stick it though moves slow straights john deere meets kind strangers along pilgrimage learn much isolation aging painful regrets secrets ultimately power family reconciliation richard farnsworth caps career years genuine performance sad poetic flinty caring sissy spacek matches slow daughter rose pines private loss caring dad rarely modern film preached notredflagly family,0 +term classic film comes from wonderful story womans bravery courage extreme loyalty poor olan got sold uncaring husband years learned appreciate her yeah right pearl br br luise rainer beautiful star best actress oscar year small role and waste oscar the great zigfield really show what any talent exotic beauty good earth shows really act beauty erased great costumes either people say show real emotions film like hell character olan shy timid woman inner strength quiet parts film eyes body convey emotions example scenes fall city looters shot people saying act well film lookingbr br paul muni shows act well character likeable one me never sees is end story sweet loving dedicated wife mother special beauty greatest one all beauty within like pearlbr br if get chance see film watch it see one best films golden age hollywood created,0 +im suicidal feel die one daytheres redflags parents families baby aunt killed forced abortion grandmother years later mums uncle killed struggled depression mum tried kill found dad cheating her admitted hospital months dad killed girlfriend left him thought better without him midteens youngest brother tried kill struggling everything know redflag left behind still feel like haunting me actually told school therapist maybe kill myself never actually told anyone time anyone would listened me anything hurt right now might sound silly reason living right dog ive seen life like without caring away college him right happiness,1 +posting everyday till get girlfriend day im actually piss one guy,0 +kind beggining feel like kill myselfi year old virgin culture brought mom especially made sex relationships heavily taboo actually even know act around people especially women get informal signals nothing wing it come across creepy desperate used think fat ugly holding back lost pounds s muscle great shape also mention im brown dude white city even brown girls seem spurn looks advances friends person talk regularly apart fake interactions coworkers brother beggining feel like rheseus monkeys socially dysfunctional harlows experiments act wrong cues based fact already stereotypical disadvantage begin different color add social ackwardness recipe disaster like monkeys fight shouldnt approach act indifferent picked people get socially excluded begins vicious cycle long term loneliness creates stress inconfidence makes small chance getting somewhere seem unlikely point suffering feel genuine real feel natural urge connect people try meet women however instead simple lack interest people begin dislike take social ackwardness sign malice point life feel problems ingrained change really want look long term solution,1 +thinking redflag notedoes anyone this lately ive thinking stuff id say redflag note much suffered worthless am,1 +buffalo bill hero far west director mario costas unsavory spaghetti western the beast klaus kinski could produced europe hollywood would never dared made western sexual predator prowl protagonist movie never mind kinski ideally suited role crazy johnny plays individual entirely without sympathy ironically dressed head toe white suit pants hat lowbudget oater nothing appetizing it typically breathtaking spanish scenery around almeria nowhere evidence instead costa director photography luciano trasatti shot another kinski western and god said cain lensed horse opera rather mundane setting around tor caldara lazio italy monte gelato falls treja river lazio italy nevertheless the beast qualifies continental western deals wholly unscrupulous characters action could classified film noir hero heroine trapped intolerable circumstances compel resort criminal activities predictably welllaid plans backfire owing largely kinski character indeed licentious kinski character resembles wily e coyote type character consistently struggles sex several beautiful women either lawmen outlaws frustrate efforts ultimately the beast amounts tragic character study brimming irony stelvio cipriani orchestral score sounds lifted tony anthony western the stranger returns mario costa screenplay takes place western frontier san diego mexico terrorized notorious mexican bandit called machete giovanni pallavicino we still kill old way gang prey stagecoach nobody safe depredations first time see crazy johnny laster pauses refresh stream spots gorgeous looking woman washing clothes creeps behind attacks her bigger man armed rifle intervenes flee shows nearby town snuffsnorting gunslinger recruits help ambush wealthy man mr powers trail rob him wind killing getting money mr snuffsniffer accidentally leaves snuff box scene crime sheriff arrests suspicion murder crazy shoots accomplice hotel room worry implicated crimebr br meanwhile young couple love trouble making way world riccardo steven tedd requiem bounty killer lives mexican couple ranch helps raise real son juan village riccardos lovely girlfriend juanita gabriella giorgelli stranger sacramento sings dances cantina riccardo juanita plan marry last place juanita wants settle dusty ranch dreams living city life city requires money either riccardo has team blond outlaw name glen paolo casella shoot living pray dead plan kidnap mr powers daughter nancy comes get inheritance glen makes fatal mistake enlisting crazy johnny help glen knows johnny needs money get womenbr br they abduct powers daughter keep remote cabin johnny standing guard her meantime juanita masquerades powers daughter shows town get money powers attorney gary pinkerton giuliano raffaelli blood black lace grows suspicious juanita look anything like remembered nancy riccardo brandishes sixgun warns pinkerton kidnapped nancy unfortunately riccardo juanita pinkerton lay hands thousand machete struck fear hearts everybody powers total inheritance cannot shipped territory stagecoach meanwhile back cabin horny johnny tries rape nancy outsmarts him knows chair pretense needing alone undresses knocks unconscious steals buggy drives back town johnny recovers pursues murders time glen riccardo juanita pinkerton meet trail inform johnny complications created machetes reign terror give thousand cut money pinkerton aghast sight nancys bloodstained corpse threatens johnny naturally johnny guns cold blood spotbr br things really begin deteriorate law san diego sets capture machete glen riccardo juanita return mexico johnny attacks two women ranch narrowly escapes getting caught rides mexico finds cantina whore going bounty shoves revolver face johnny confesses knows find money release him machetes men follow johnnys tip capture juanita villagers join riccardo attack machete johnny rescues juanita dies later big shootout riccardo left standing alone now machete men retaliated step parents killing also little juan everything riccardo juanita dreamed goes clouds gun smoke unhappy ending crazy johnny dies never gets assuage lust think costas uncompromising sagebrusher the beast emerges interesting character study exercise film noir western setting everybody punished,0 +realized something one fee mail friends flirting past couple months stupid ass noticed shes found someone else ,0 +know one cares mixed favorite oons videos together httpsstreamablecomiegc,0 +need talk someonei cant deal life anymore wanna kill self,1 +im ready dieeverything fault ruined sisters birthday mom isnt talking bc didnt guts tell suicidal im scared talk dad im afraid itll awkward im fucking pathetic feel alone maybe better hate me wont care im dead schools starting soon feeling wont make it somehow feel calm knowing wont live hell anymore everybody better without me burden family talent ambition hobbies hope future whats point living need try hard everday barely get by work ass school im going end shitty job barely pay rent life pointless im done trying get better evrytime things looking fall deeper hole feel like everything attempt make others proud im living myself id much rather first place im ready die couldnt feel peace,1 +les go accidentaly breaking old pc almost exactly getting new one going pain explain im fucked guys least tell explain properly,0 +wanna never go out one deserves around horrible self like punishment fucking see get fucking die,0 +told id never let girl dictate life life without doesnt feel worth livingi fucked up shes moved on everyone pales comparison havent loved like since dont know do dont know turn,1 +impressionable youth first experiencing gundam wing series upon rewatching series reconfirmed belief series beautifully animated plot gundam design character design character depth masterfully executed first appearing like boy band sorts stylish attractiveness characters partly credited great art individual personalities creating clear endearing distinctions among characters consequently extremely easy become drawn particular character personally liked heero stoic personality may biased sentimental attachment show childhood objectively say gundam wing addresses deeper questions war life general how obtain peace providing action packed battles large robot suits which say least excellent,0 +whats wrong wanting livei really wanted alive around past years life told severe depression that understand logically want live enjoy every day grew great house supportive friends family drive wants get job productive member society never have yet get job date yet alive get people enjoy company parents love want much sit home parents play video games talk friends online time dinner talk parents almost every night cant want dead without people saying sort problem produce goods services wide enough audience able support myself know burden upon family want stuck idling away time them wrong wanting dead,1 + person would chuck fucker meat grinder force hisher kids eat it many know chadwick boseman died cancer mean offend legends like kobe juice wrld grant imahara bosemans death first celebrity death actually make feel really sad black panther one alltime favorite superheroes boseman left us soon rest easy legend,0 +cant make hell every day might seriously end todayevery day beyond hell every day lower deepest level hell never able get memories head someone put heart into never even got kiss fought for treated worse hitler treated jew history world lived it remember every day years end ive deeply deeply suicidal years ever since then ruined entire life one fills gap every time someone could fill comes life like recognize happened me god takes away me women like come way tell give time ive given seven years nothing fills gap going blow head off logical conclusion cant get rid memories im done waking hear hate betrayal towards me wish happened never happened wish wouldve worked out wish never committed loyal faithful three qualities mocked replacement im going die nothing fills gap nothing changes never understand like tortured long tell understand someone like come life soon way was person motivated anyone im going dead tonight im sick hearing lies im sick hearing peoples opinions ampxb im sick hearing peoples opinions know level suffering endured throughout entirety life timeline hundredfold worse yours want hear it want hear say kill yourself done living im done dead alive earth im done expected find happiness impossible find im done told understand me im done told understand pain im done everything want die right now every day right now want die just dont get how much suffered wish could bring everyone else around me realize magnitude heavy wake traumatic memories every day feel like im stabbed more god gave cancer top ruining life blesses people destroyed entire soul wish everyone felt pain,1 +since day saw film came one top favorites blurb wrote amazon below im thrilled finally coming dvd films th anniversarybr br the last credit film explains appeal thank people manhattan whose island filmed charming witty romantic comedy love story written new yorkers peter bogdanovich native identify every location west th street ansonia old fao schwartz plaza roxy chez brigitte city limits country western club one gets impression entire ensemble cast clicked well offscreen on intimacy clearly communicated laughed cried better cats ode dorothy stratten also audrey hepburns last feature appearance she cameo subsequent film inner beauty seeps screen buy it make big tub popcorn curl someone love,0 +absolutely first film scared death happened catch older brotherrip watching it black white tv really good picture got interested shortly after folks bought color set and luck would it million dollar movie showing one sundaybr br i forgotten plot take long catch upand got scared hard time sleeping night mean sure movie involved creature came space could hear it see itand got hold late even now time still sends shiver spine true classic even better classic seen scare pants new generationbr br long live blob,0 +thank you times covid whatnot everyones life changed somehow know mine was however all sub repeatedly reminds maybe bad guys like giant online friend group chat send prolific memes well time look forward seeing whats new every waking morning peace cheese balls stay awesome,0 +gay people best people know okay dont get people cant like gay guys mean literally increase ur chances getting gf competition also take another guy them technically ultimate wingmen girls let lesbians take girls competition increases ur chances bf last thing know fact majority boys subreddit looked yuri least once might well cool point ,0 +sick jokepreviously going kill feb manage survive point occupy several days yeh maybe im far like around years then thinking new semester starts st april might well kill day background recently knew well dugged past classify mentally weak physically weak happened got genes like parents mom died redflag crippling depression giving birth me also diagnosed something called baby blues father cheated mom knew something wrong mom make things funny year mom passed away live together house living room hahaha first thought cheated girlfriend bestfriend last semester hs one month prior national exam already bad enough recently september last year ex left ex depression recently learned this done myself like legit im tired keep feeling dejected time goes on bestfriends my family heck even father say it pass there people went worse yeh ill keep facade nothing happens everyone else community im counting days end i seek help counseling instesively within economic capability yeah somehow still see worth keep moving forward who myself judging experience ending still looks better option,1 +ok amma honest like thigh high socks said it,0 +losing battle anxietyive fighting battle get severe anxiety symptoms control started visit doctor months ago prescribed pills suicidal psychotic break committed mental institution day returned work next day arranged week leave absence ive seeing psychiatrist times week past month im trying resolve issues behavioral therapy rather ssris tried hardest get back track work last week work stress ramped friday night wreck spent entire weekend suicidal angry state job stressful field amazing potential dedicate it want derail track morning woke overwhelmed dry heaving ever since worst physical anxiety symptom one worst parts life past years become paralyzed throwing up nothing comes out ive going meetings dry heaving trembling between go meetings enough adrenaline kicks keep body zone dry heave situations killing me hiding killing me pretending strong fine killing me think dry heaving produces endorphins think im addicted endorphins get barely enough focus function get back track cant afford let coworkers know im continuing anxiety problems career everything me point already using leave absence need tackle anxiety problems privately going forward retain job friends im going months im recovering codependent different counseling last year revealed almost relationships toxic used stereotypical nice guy im confused asshole required social skills jibe ive reinvent myself think killing myself keep saying more words i want kill myself seem compulsively project mouth hundreds times day im alone cant get control weekend kept writing insane rants subreddit either id delete immediately post them keep crying help different ways seem rational seem insane one rational ones,1 +think becoming adult me im already aint got long leftive depressed ever since remember depressed mean need die even child would imagine death help get sleep ive never get help whatever parents think im moody dampened girl anyway ive tried kill past via bleach drinking oding loads class as suffocation recently trains fast ones parents know noting these im unemployed lack talent speciality love films thats im studying im realsitic know never make film producer taste cinema laziness anyway im looking help typical redflag watch kind way feel like write thoughts someone know read maybe impartial say things thank much even considering read way thought adult vulgar me see hope going personality kind good come it im hardly hold conversation anyone even best friends bf feel like become someone else able say things sit silence like much desire get away things much already supposed good looks theyre going stay forever say whats fucking point ive always hated kids thats agenda believe marriage someone like me thing waiting future broken dreams failed relationships book upon books regrets always felt way going die redflag never knew when thing ill miss sunshine feeling loved love besides that say never asked born buy ticket ride take it spoken people never take seriously laugh off suppose reddit answer thank reading,1 +join skribbl httpsskribblioyycucnknqym,0 +number day day filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ive hit rock bottom cant see anymore anxiety drugs covid lonelinessthis first post here anxiety disorder ptsd utterly alone started thinking lot death months ago idea dying past days ive begun think killing myself im afraid make phone call anyone want family find out im putting here anxiety really bad months spend days feeling uncomfortable shake heart pounds feel disoriented experience depersonalization ive house several months due covid anxiety even going outside medications issues seem ever make symptoms go away fall relationship longterm became strained due issue family began smoking weed every day rarely saw sober also started treating badly sex ridiculing perform wanted got point started panic attacks wanted sex stoned covid came followed stayat home rules finally saw other apologized high around time said hed stop also apologized behavior everything seemed like right path ghosted me three years together quit communicating week ago heart physically hurts answers started smoking weed time also started could headspace was made feel terrible depressed anxious cloudy headed confused swore id house covid came broke promise brought house ive smoked every evening since absolutely hate it oldest kid transferring college far away weeks coming home weekends anymore youngest kid planning leave distant college well came shock thought theyd stay community college first two years kids father lived nearby coparent moving away well family now company ive worked thatn years restructuring end year lose office work home longer see workmates possible may decide worth keeping fire me might able save job move states away leave home years family friends state gyms closed social events shut down travel allowed ways could even try connect another human gone days pass even know day unless meeting reminder comes im working belong anymore purpose physical mental hell utterly alone,1 +never heard film saw rental dvd bit sceptical many films past good ensemble casts cant anything film bad script cases seem carebr br well watched reason give movie theatrical release good story like genre seem little forced times appear good amount realism allows momentum carry pleasantly surprised good job justin timberlake major role ok hes oscar material yet hell learn role shows lot promise future here dylan mcdermott amazingly good unexpectedly nasty role definitely cream crop moviebr br ultimately give go disappointed bored fact think happy end result,0 +gotten worse idk everything getting better better id gotten loosing friends id mostly gotten crush getting bf hadnt cut months hadnt cried weeks started trust people again flipped around returned back havent cut yet ive looked open window way hadnt months ive cried first time couple weeks people keep saying itll get better hasnt years gotten worse idek im supposed anymore,0 +best everything best everything different everyone us love alas everyone knows look real love story goes whole gambit looking love sometimes wrong places wrong reasons saying goeswe captains ships goes lives responsible choices make lives make choices must live them watch story see women making choices likely change lives forever wonder would make choices women would wiser knows,0 +first youtube video made closer today look months years months since video made back video made years months away december ,0 +mights topic reacting goesjust know im twelve year ols girl whos gonna go highschool next year found long ago wanted share piece story yeah happened recently moth ago mom got argument slapped end always overreacted starded crying made drawing like always im sad mom came room yelling accusing taking lunchboxkinda stupid drunk drugs yeah cried couse im sensative saw drawing yelled kill jump stuff couse drawing words help itbut yeah dont wanna say got punches thats fine besides that ive kinda depressed years usually keep fake smile face try make others happy yeah ive looking back things shes done feel horrible think im reason alcoholic im reason took away little sistershes ive thinking throwing bridge neer house drowning myself even though arms already bloody dont know stop feel useless hopeless dont know guys maybe give advice sorry im asking much sorry overreacting bye now,1 +self hatred redflagi feel like minds equilibrium feel less suicidal mind put intense amount pain make suicidal good works ways also means never get better right im filled intense self hatred im ugly fuck good people broken refused date theyve found unattractive im useless theres single thing matters right friends family would prefer killed myself told several times im waste space im suicidal long stopped trying im much coward kill myself want rip arms off want cut theres nothing left bone im mentally stable im emotionally stable know bother im living particular reason need die kill myself know do,1 +sure say here looking talked need talk outso im sure people would envy life im still kinda young mid s wife daughter full time job home im loved family im respected professionally too sent wife running house crying knife throat reason cut would family ive wanted end years now wife keeps telling bad itll end it im sure itll worse stay heres story since afghanistan keeping two thoughts together challenge came home months combat unscathed home relax drank drunk year doctors base threatened put institution sober up lied said sobering up didnt drank quietly months met girl would become wife years felt good calm sobered real got married kid wedding started getting angry angry stupidest shit always getting angry angrier become am simplest thing set off cant see straight cant think even im angry distract reddit xbox movies always work especially tablet game crashes really sets off ive counselling since got back fools quest every doctor either stereotypical joke pushes pills get military so end explaining things talk now im wits end cant think clearly see clearly except im thinking ending it thing keeping would family im afraid working anymore im positive stayed id damage wife not physically emotionally daughter would end like me angry distraught distant like said im talked down wanted somewhere could talk out im going today ill need find place method make worse anyone walking traffic would fuck whoever hit me jumping building would fuck anyone saw eating bullet would create mess want family see want gun community another statistic hanging would leave someone find me could get boat id step side tied bag rocks kind want family body bury is crazy writing actually helped calm down now next time think may walk never return thanks reading,1 +figured out apparently cant soup fork normally u directly drink bowl,0 +thing guys figured pajama pants underwear comfortable thing ever,0 +fuck rsex posted something saying dont get people think wrong suck dickeat pussy post got taken mods everyone basically shaming girlfriend wanting give head calling stupid ok decision still thinking shes love life im probably getting banned sub someone insulted girlfriend called ho posting nudes online fuck them supposedly sex positive apparently thats youre whorefuck boy sex people get married post nudes fucking cunts,0 +obviously enjoyment struggle period lot us least remember time enjoyed personal hobbies even fleeting five minutes every year years writing song painting picture sipping tea book walk park sunset one around meeting friends family whatever collective happinessenjoyment seems unreachable cannot remember time could partake it collective would going euro football people work talking it taking day it meeting pub celebrate getting hyper rowdy etc thinkwhat point rich folk kicking ball brings millions people happiness even though actions kicking ball alienated individual could anything sporthobbyrally could world cup olympics basically anything collective anyone feel way express better christmas another collective would always felt depression worsening starts september shops basically demands collective celebratory approach leads new year many countries blast millions poundsdollarseuros sky five minutes collective enjoyment could spent health education homelessness would rather celebrate christmas enjoying day day it good food good company anybody else struggle collective enjoyment,1 +whos tryna cry feel like crying,0 +love sisters gave mom christmas gift early teddy bear voice recording know whos voice recorded mom played thats tears came grandma passed away years ago heard voice since day passed mom bawling mom sisters closest hit hard say grateful family cherish spend time theyre,0 +redflag attempt tonight shall ending life half miserable years earth hope isnt afterlife simply dont want alive memories glad brought round again end suffering good tried everything help think best solution written note completely prepared thank help tried give really think best goodbye fucking horrible existence,1 +ok doctors appointment today walked wand put heart download brain stuff updated chest left,0 +shy introvert complete pushoverbut become rapidly angry violent shit every human becoming violent rage infused stand sucks opinion redflag gene generations dead males,1 +use depressive thoughts live carelesslythis post everyone guys feeling suicidal ive there many timesuntil broke patterns realising life really is nothing know could figment imagination go careless fun give zero fucks words become sort hedonist whats worst could happen could die none us would mind whats point cutting chase make whatever existence isand stop caring freeing,1 +tried youngtried second time painfuli really seen thruthe third time would want painless space time body mind fight through right timeit change alot things sorry howevernothing always seemsthe day mind stops day define peace soon going it inevitable,1 +brotherthe last years agony senses word diagnosed kidney condition writhing pain flares up vomiting violently mother shouts hell broken loose saying caused condition nothing make better despite fact ever get better failed get second year levels went college left year course wanted carry appeal faded work father electrician plan start apprenticeship electrician mother however wants gone constantly reminding failures comparing everyone else work uni feel like thing holding back fact care brother,1 +blue cheese want share it title says all enjoy,0 +yo anyone recommend great wholesome yuri manga manga doujin im trying break away stuff,0 +whys hardlast night got drunk wrote redflag note laid diaries filled every suicidal depressive thought past year tried hang myself ive anti depressants week theyve taken away fear killing myself would chicken breakdown time sat trying trying hour cant cry anymore theres drop go one methods cuts carotid arteries hurts maybe im cutting carotid arteries enough one worst pains ive ever felt head throbbing front brain almost feels like two knives inserted eyes kept trying falling unconscious whatsoever one point started stopwatch phone see long attempts were one seconds hurt much tried adjusting using cut airwaves made choke cough last attempt time it instead sang along song playing itunes head distracting pain longest attempt hurt much kayne song came on fucking dying kanye lmao gave up put everything away went bathroom going bed noticed eyes completely bloodshot burst capillaries face theyre still hours later whys hard die know people successfully it,1 +goodbye teenage years offical longer teenager fun all entered depression s words wisdom go college right away know want spent whole freshman year constant panic figured sophmore year fun mental illnesses please get help finally got medication year old changed life im good advice thats got best luck teens,0 +yes follow femboys sue fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerr,0 +yoasobis songs fire know jpop songs really nice go check,0 +think friend mine attempted redflag morning dowere freshmen high school together btw morning woke frantic calls friend mine well call joe lives half hour away friend bill live near school anyway apparently bill called said done bill took mg methylphenidate concerta im percent seems case dad who terrible person idea mom town want go hospital locked room went house early morning so fucking terrified knock waited outside right go stormed apartment building schoolbag talk ran off were kind close strange walked school little bit behind him looked fucked really sure looking for guess kind looked like fever time got school joe there talking coordinator ran away one could find him coordinator said dad took home seemed like bullshit know sorry this know do want go school maybe get dads number future better stay away might read post thats alright want know care,1 +feel stupid trying im cowardly redflag im cowardly try dont want toi took day drinking week since ive drinking constanly past three weeks im back feeling like ever drank screw this need die soon,1 +anyone else suspicious unflaired people sub kinda seems like pedophile thing tbh obviously weirds bit,0 +literally midnight cant fall asleep even though eoc exam tomorrow god help fall asleep exam even tired dude,0 +update parentswell mom ill provide link previous one so essentially lost remaining shrivels respect mom today lets start school didnt mention previous post im member schools jrotc color guard team beginning felt phone buzzing knew someone calling me however formation teams couldnt exactly pull answer position attention anyways split teams one left side rifles practicing place rifle movementsorder arms shoulder arms port arms present arms etc etc took break minute continuous movements rest arms teach cadets newer color guard around time set rifle wall checked phone turned aforementioned buzzer see mom called times still couldnt answer phone anyways packed up sanitized riflescovid procedure placed respective rack grabbed bag called mom pick up answered yelling wont say exactly said turned somewhat vulgar digress came pick up forgot practice thursdaysnote id going pt practice every wednesday drill practice every thursday since school came back face face even bit then sitting buddy whose relatively new everything give tips show stuff pulled up got car almost immediately started yelling calmed block later asked asked english teacher missing assignment period per day block schedule meaning go class every day english yesterday didnt today mention moved class due schools jumble fuck scheduling crisis another english class period told night before see uninvolved careless me son anyways thatll important im say next sitting room hour ago reading boom dad gotten methe white donkey maximilian uriarte wanting weeks bought me gotten stalemate book decided go downstairs grab water time reached base staircase could hear mom talking friend laughing stating sent something funny laughing reading it immediate thoughts already talking another guy already years marriage no doing fact consider even messed cowardly talking dad stated sms agreeing take doctoranother story messed arm thats another story also involves neglect supervision towards brother statedif read previous post makes sense boys still need father im trying best provide them long prolong divorce wont able end day im sleeping truck im lucky friends couch overheard this base stairs mother reading mockingly shaken voice father friend laughed it laughing fathers plea mercy man serving public since fire ems service seeing things could ever imagine every day let chance see provide children didnt even balls disrespect like face here hide house still pays bills for behind doors switched locks couldnt come see fucking kids youre reading edit im working getting link added text currently minutes,0 +okay im sad gf keeps calling cute dork call back,0 +first saw movie thought sweet family movie rest night next couple days though clever moments funny lines kept creeping back thoughts conversation theres lot going on classic elements farce good character acting wendie malicks story line hysterical labelling feelgood movie belies wit fun smarter seems like its wonderful life is,0 +im really upset one best friends argument started overreacted lot made seem like horrible person ruined day yesterday texted message saying side argument apologise monday message mentioned sometimes toxic said felt like couldnt around me friendship definitely toxic dont know sounded like happy letting best friendship turn friendship didnt mean like asked could apologise said idk hurt made cry ruined day understand started argument shouldnt get response im still blocked leaving read wont answer questions know upset even explaining doesnt want recognise im entirely wrong true friend normal get answer questions,0 +crush got tested positive covid scared paranoid mom too would really appreciate someone could give tips could help stay calm freak out worried mom im concerned,0 +know years old ever since depressive episode started getting worst yesterday lived worst day entire year found cat dead kitchen everything one year old unemployed one wants hire me friends mom accept sexuality anything religious dreams life know want do hopeless everyday wonder still alive life getting worst,1 +close friends years kinda weird cause ive always thought another someone small friend group im realising thats cause ive never really close friends place,0 +percentage movies person go see days leave wondering happened eight ten dollars answer many movie like that story real people sometimes combination likable unlikablebr br downsidebr br not enough character development plot lines left twisting windbr br upsidebr br forces viewers think choices made good bad livesbr br well acted by scott cohen judd hirsch susan floyd ato essandoh elliot kortebr br contains good lighthearted humor,0 +afraid add name long list people remain flabbergasted film still sept issued dvd one mysteries makes mind boggle especially consider amount dvds available today containing material binned years ago still excellent digital vhs copy english subtitles nicam stereo qualm one principle frustration able view film film itself excellent allrounder good picture quality satisfactory soundtrack lively plot involving suspense emotion sadness frustration feeling good exotic surroundings european true film fits reality burma idea indeed less important essential thing entertainmentwise success one soon becomes attached main characters admit heart mouth final crossingtheriver scene shame hear little countries burma film least gives insight country situation changed since events occur later month seem answer question resounding no regime place seems brutal ever even sparing lives monks let alone women children ,0 +im either cold people come strong literally either brush tou completely block life completely ill make favorite person try share every life detail adore much comes annoying fuck needless say people talk know regulate emotions lmao,0 +generally speaking plot much better expecting laugh track bit annoying times tend get way however enough real chuckles episode make it biggest surprise finding best lines situations shown trailers spade particular presented best light earlier promotions character comes across quite well pilot enough eyecandy please almost anyone regular characters seem task ahead them now writers live begun,0 +feel trappeddo ever feel like never going able enjoy life accomplish dreams trapped mind seeing people succeed makes sad knowing could spot instead trapped thing see future redflag often sit porch middle night thinking mistakes opportunities took them makes sad times coming back way see redflag somehow would fix stuff want like this yeah idk do,1 +movie takes psychological thriller new depths well written shane black film executed phenomenally cast watchful eye director jack swanstrom clearly swanstrom director look future strength lies adaptation personal experiences screen classroombr br this thoughtprovoking film must see anyone appreciate action drama suspense mystery good films viewer goes journey find individual interpretation movie mystical aspect film intriguing adds suspense find self looking answers along marquette audiences liked movie festival circuit many awards received must agreed awol well worth watching br br id love copy go getting one,0 +fuck people like rap music understand artists like post malone actually put time effort songs lyrics mean something style enjoy dumbass like ix ine lil pump spout nonsense people eat up like hell wap god fuck sad excuse song get charts dosent even fucking chord progression christs sake people listen crap please explain cause honestly earthly idea people would want listen this,0 +shoutout unnecessarily strict things parents sometimes really hot day today nearing c dad refused turn ac angry staying inside,0 +childhood one image httpimgurcomaksfjqu mood nostalgia trip made,0 +im going ask again anyone want play super smash brothers ultimate switch dm you,0 +black chapter figure dark chris family moving new house middle woodswhen arrived chriss family went house chris behind following thembefore went saw man holding sign sayingbeware black chris looked sign confused ignored man went took stuff bag started designing room way chris half way designing room thats saw dark figure standing outsidehe opened window took lookchris confusedhe went stairsill go walk little bit outside dadchris saidwell dont latechriss dad said chris went outside didnt see man sign didnt see dark figure saw windowchris decided go middle woodswhile chris walking saw trail blood groundhe started thinking going back know whats going followed trail bloodchris saw trail blood leading small little househe opened door saw man sign dead hole inside blood body black rest redwhat fuckchris saidthis cant happeningchris started running back house fell hole hit head hard night chris woke thinking dream got got hole took phone pocket opened flashlighthe started walking back homehe suddenly felt arms holding shoulder heard weird whispers behind ear looked behind flashlight saw nothing continued walking saw blood shirt dead guy sawso wasnt dreamchris said back home parents rushed himchris youchriss mom saidwe worried close calling copschriss dad saidits nothing need worrychris said parents went brothers roommax need hear nowchris said maxnot chris need win thismax said chris playing online gamechris shut computer told everythingfirst nice joke second fuck would close pc chris hellmax said chrisyou believe happenedchris said maxyeah rightmax said sarcastically ignored chrischris went back room suddenly saw black hand coming door started pulling doorchris started screaming one heard maxmax thought still joking ignored himchris kept screaming max couldnt take went roomchris could please stop screaming im gonna fall thimax said shock saw chris pulled doorwhat hellchrismax ran chris pulled black hand went awayso werent lyingmax said chrisi fucking told yachris said screaming faceokok rightbut thatmax said christo honest dont knowchris saidbut im sure well soon find out,0 +top text utter fool thought going say bottom text played good sir lady now watch thishttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 +care happens mei dont care happens me im garbage anyway im tired trying build something myself everyone gives eventually cant shake feeling im running inevitable spinning wheels mud cant bring eat shower speak get bed anything go fucking work tomorrow quit job rot bed ive already attempted redflag twice past couple days pills made vomit second time im kind scared try again may go coma get brain damage something,1 +need help finding type meme usually unrelated noise loop create drum effect cut start song flute dude banging drums sorry thats best describe know song tell,0 +feel worse time goes oni feel like throwing away everything could live streets forest know sounds inconsiderate people looking get street need lose change way live hate life always have spend nights wide awake able sleep thinking ways kill myself dont know wrong me like cancer cannot seem get rid feelings have ive slept apartment hallways before problem living im afraid ill end drugs like used be sounds silly right im literally suicidal would care im rich dont drugs id feel worse already do ive also clean couple years pot alcohol quit smoking cigarettes too im sure soon hit streets ill smoking unfortunately real killer mind though feel born die whatever good usually turns shit fault time tend fuck everything up say everything mean whole bottle it every last drop im really hard myself feel like couldve better shouldve done things differently whole life full regret day goes without dwelling mistakes ive made sleep ive gone days without it dont believe god devil feel like im alone smother me sleep question one thing love writing consider smart compared others writing helps find myself without id put gun head now thoughts have love everybody unfortunately im bastard ive done pretty shitty things life time isnt confession church ill keep myself hate ive become dont think ill make let alone ,1 +making worsedoes anyone ever feel like life sucks enough actually go end all go whatever make even worse yet somehow still courage it want end bad cant it,1 +guys upvoting pretty much anything heres first scene shrek man upon time lovely princess enchantment upon fearful sort could broken loves first kiss locked away castle guarded terrible firebreathing dragon many brave knigts attempted free dreadful prison non prevailed waited dragons keep highest room tallest tower true love true loves first kiss laughing like thats ever gonna happen paper rusting toilet flushes load somebody told world gonna roll aint sharpest tool shed lookin kind dumb finger thumb shape l forehead years start comin stop comin fed rules hit ground runnin make sense live fun brain gets smart head gets dumb much much see whats wrong takin backstreets never know go never shine glow hey allstar get game on go play hey rock star get show on get paid glitters gold shootin stars break mold cool place say gets colder bundled wait till get older meteor men beg differ judging hole satellite picture ice skate gettin pretty thin waters getting warm might well swim worlds fire bout thats way like ill never get bored hey now allstar shouting get game on go play hey rock star get show on get paid glitters gold shootin stars break mold belches go go record scratching go gogo hey now allstar get game on go play hey rock star get show on get paid glitters gold shootin stars break mold,0 +people write girls dress codes neckbeards call girls females even loudly told much prefer called girls women ladies something sort thats say go days,0 +yo post history kinda sus number times ive mentioned redflag tryna get laid product sub,0 +im feeling horny im lazy watch porn masturbate im horny go sleep cant one,0 +please dm me im bored im bored way often ngl matters im f,0 +helloim unsure type really word this honestly think need somewhere get out im oif veteran believe ptsd though believe depression began early age recently panic attacks severe thought stroke heart attack finally went local va hospital prescribed antianxiety medicine appointment psychologist told may ptsd unsure feel right diagnosing me gave support groups go to though really like speaking tour really telling anyone ive served things ask ive suicidal thoughts service rarely severe feel isolated everyone including wife children often times feel like im ghost house wife constantly phone children wanting needing her go bouts depression first time years ive thought pulling trigger ive spoken wife concerns nothing seems help see big deal little real friends point im reaching strangers internet want pity its going work out talk blah blah blah know want know since ive felt heavy really sucks,1 +hopelessim mentally ill know idk got strength medical field think ill make it im brink giving everything run away responsibility much hard study online half yrs finish degree idk much frustration take,1 +feel terrible like rubbish useless unnecessary thing communicate nicely well year said wanted meet said come study city see often now days left trip visit her ghosting me want die exist understand life understand anything,1 +college struggles rock bottomi started first course stem major weeks ago going well all enjoy it causing immense stress leaving derail entire life plan know do change major something interests me would something useless complete rock bottom life massive upturn great gf good health etc shattered now,1 +get deservei hate myself im horrible person ive ruined friendships had ive ghosted friends through course highschool college petty reasons think even ruined highschoolcollege life them wish could take back hope things better now im suffering karma bitch deserve enjoy anything anymore real goal life im angry time even parents mind place wrong things ive said done eating up think im going crazy voices head never stop everytime memories come back mind tries justify things ive done know im shitty person deserve live cant wait finally courage end life all,1 +redflag sort presentdamn man life hits hard know doesnt feels meaningless life feels empty ive antidepressants didnt helpamp im help absolutely nothing c ya,1 +need someone talk toi need someone talk generalized anxiety disorder im senior high school im falling apart,1 +doneim kid bad break problem family turned me kids speak tell horrible mother mother died pet adored life cruelly taken me im horribly sick disabled hurt time grandson ripped life ive researched ways get life really wish could get hands cyanide tablet killing hard do easier way person done,1 +help sometimes want disappear live anymore stopped caring anything,0 +dont want doive written rewritten letter everyone many times thing holding back fear missing out missing big epiphany life need provide meaning it want here feel pain day day out cant get hump want something happen change mind know coming making go crazy,1 +much time spend online classes poll school online classes well balanced like know many hours spent online classes homework much time spent them also subjects have would help lot us,0 +abnormal feel like lack sex going last strawi problems real ones feeling trapped unfulfilling marriage one thats worse happy not id rather pull trigger leave try to what start over cheat would better leaving grieving family option leaving divorce alone ill survive consider though maybe ill easier forget im villain this care people think will feeling like sex stupid thing put importance makes loathe more want forgotten,1 +frog dissection today seen post friday abt it would know im excited basically watch preview ended crying amp passing out really sensitive animals everyone knows that ive asked it safety said no feel going happen is im going cry feel lightheaded panic attack pass out panic attacks happen often wouldnt surprised im really scared,0 +girl starting liked me wearing shorts freezing weather,0 +may one best movies ever seen anything trite plot leaves one wondering way go next interesting portrayal struggles youth youth interested immediate gratification youth show concern desires needs others,0 +todaya new bornnovember todayi attempted redflagby cutting wrists taking large amounts pills something really strange struck head happy sad feelingthis feeling made decide liveeven pain even reliefif im destined live ill fucking live whats point anything anymore ill fucking livei know sure better fail life fail death im already much painwhy cause painill fucking live health give upuntil fucked body finally give surviving,1 +quick thing sooo rdeadorvegetable based mods removing posts saying reposts they not block calling out thats bit peeved rn,0 + extremely depressed struggle feel sense importancealways knew id post here cant deal life anymore work hours week go home alone big heart feel nobody ever interested try offer support support ever given back feel like try try try nobody ever wants try me im done,1 +gonna kms need helpgot built hook bedroom ceiling need rope long strong enough get one online shopping option me,1 +get bettersince early teens theyve told gets better well im got nice apartment well payed job wonderful fiance world im still suicidal even then exactly going get better know much time left,1 +feeling suicidal ive ever beeni ocd ptsd schizophrenia saw psychiatrist first time gave medicine it state insurance cover nobody cares poor homeless want die theres hope wrote redflag note killing weekend,1 +im soooo readytonight would freakin perfecccttt feel like chicken knowing im probably gonna it whole bunch doses trazodone itll knock out ill cut deep bleed bathroom pass trazodone make pass first told mom love earlier today coincidence never tell love her girlfriend told comfortable discussing dangerous self harm habits love idea people looking back thought mourning gone soon god wanted one angels back etc etc sappy shit love much want dead long gone im fuckin ready past couple days ive dragging feet nothing dissociating get home self harm therapist told need grow meet halfway therapy otherwise ill never get better jokes though im never ever getting better,1 +one worst weekends whole year know talk toim crisis mode atm woke friday thinking meeting rush for turns actually online shit me idea going we ended using multicaller phone call phased out meant ask prizes businesses donate week ended time work ones wanted thursday rest friday it also scared sort person told manager id organise saturday eventually got headache front computer long started talking negatively stuff probably minor anxiety attack friend convinced go home rest eating something woke saturday feeling shit cause hot degrees celsius ended getting severe anxiety attack afternoon left crying bathroom floor exhausted try stabbing myself evening rolled around everything seemed amazing woke am friend anxiety attack culminating told im going talking before help cause nothing help anymore wont check phone stay bed feel cut deep inside able go sleep am person live gone bed yet made noise keep night holidays nearly cant cope probably able go church morning im failure able commitments know im going explain this im horrible situation friend know talk to worst,1 +actually tink im getting betteri even thought inspirational quote aim stars dont sad hit neutron star,1 +important realise eisenstein committed marxist film maker held specific particular theories film could achieve howbr br it simply idle compare alexander nevsky negatively anything similar period us film comes oldest film school world another continent entirely different approach cinemabr br to appreciate film little more try finding pudovkins kuleshovs theories montage example read wikipedia entry marxist film theory feeling really bold might even investigate triadic forms hegelian dialecticbr br it follows watch film without understanding eisensteins ideas ideals probably get it alexander nevsky main characters playing themselves meant distillations nations character nevsky generals deliberately shown largerthanlife represent stylised heroic aspects entire russian peoplebr br the acting wooden meant slightly mannered represents completely different school naturalistic narrative style hollywood rapidly adopting eisensteins films especially designed not realistic anything seems somewhat obvious whether lighting language pose struck actor meant way eisenstein one early proponents film art form entertainmentbr br if editing sometimes seems consist clash images well thats idea shots meant contrast other eisensteins films contain embody elements politicalphilosophical argument namely marxist dialecticbr br so sit back shout hurrah russia folkhero defenders boo cowardly nobles teuton invaders enjoy difference,0 +truly proud today pissed year old man call duty,0 +haha theres red stuff coming wrists wonder happened,0 +dad sat phone laptop fucking sat pound lookin ass broke laptop cracked phone screen aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 +hope redflag troll catches me need helpi know ready need make sure dont end braindead paralyzed make successful formulation,1 +know stay honest people want helpi know start this im year old male depressed since teenager past couple months ive considering redflag option im feel strong enough able change life im jobless skilless job years pretty bad anxiety people driving interact people afraid drive know people love life feel like unable love someone cannot even love myself thing stopping killing chance failure redflag given sure method would likely it ive never selfharmed done drugs almost never drank alcohol want even pain problems life october hospitalized suicidal thoughts days lied feelings could leave still suicidal thoughts beginning december hospitalized broke therapists office suggested hospitalized days thing happened lied feelings want anymore hospital suggested try ect electroconvulsive therapy depression seems like big step trying medicines that right im prozac abilify ive tried medicines besides prozac know keep honest others trying help me know hurts long run ran fucks give,1 +waifu least tall gal,0 +though seen many films prior certainly seen basic plot themes many films since br br not one grants loys best films make outstanding effort together all much talent good supporting cast know laughs therebr br the film light dramatic spotting keeps plot moving gets smile whole way throughbr br a great example classic american film fare stood test timebr br definite saturday afternoon fare heavy popcorn,0 +jus wondering idk maybe wrong kids better spending creative years trying find something theyre passionate instead memorizing bullshit required,0 +accidentally inhaled coffee lungs warm nothing else say,0 +nothing mom totally crying ya know ampxb httpspreviewredditrlvveabpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafcecadede,0 +had depression since started seriously wanting die since turned im tired everyday time feel alright im fall asleep family idea downside ending feel would ruin future decembers family really dont know im typing this im tired living see reason anymore depression started school rejection stress added it tried drop school try get metal state right parents wouldnt allow getting worse read back sorta seems like im lying oh well guess jus hope strength actually end time comes everyone reads this thinking redflag dont it may sound unfair tell im gonna time theres better way deal problems good luck everyone hope live long great lives,1 +want big bearded muscly lumberjack dude hold me like sometimes night daydream held stuff reality wouldnt want random dude holding ahhh anyone else relate wheres lumberjack ,0 +smell rain damn relaxing idk something nostalgic crazy cuz im even nostalgic better times cuz ive always unhappy miss feeling existing rain reminds reason,0 + alot redflag people expectations me work morning evening car workshop colleagues mean still learning one friend hangs bigger group hate reason hanging pull make fun friend want interfere stole dads booze got drunk crying bed really want kill myself please help fucking tired,1 +im tired people complaining small dicks excluding females unless happen one three years old accident involving nail clippers bath parents watching leaving clippers counter reach serious anything bleeding bit skin torn uncircumcised yelling child get older developed scar tissue thing scar tissue fact layers upon healing skin making larger many would say oh cool dick bigger cuz scar tissue no get age much scar tissue uncircumcised penis skin literally verge closing dick left tiny little hole made peeing take minutes hurt parents take see doctor says need surgery surgery wake doctors say operation success theres problem things needed know circumcised dick meaning scar tissue issue penis soft hurt touch cuz covered skin years scar tissue penis grown im sitting dumbfounded like so telling thing size five says yes give time grow smaller average take quite long time forced grow complain constantly inches dick even ive got inch itll like till im least im rn,0 +nothing left giveim finally decided ill it get work im going withdraw money eat big steak leave huge tip clean pack apt put notes remaining money envelopes im going take pills try co method tonight fail capable so tomorrow ill go next door gun shop come back lock bathroom try hope fuck too two hours work,1 +tonight might nightthis lowest ive been closest ive come redflag see options method location note done im work im worried about actually going it im ready need get done,1 +omfim depressed want fucking scream like want talk someone one life fucking cares me fuck still alive want fucking die cant deal living more hell deal living everything god damn painful,1 +cant anymore guys cantim year old trans guy cant get anything help im least ive depressed since exact reason parents emotionally abusive cant leave siblings start getting abused im basically shield mean dont really want die thats way end suffering think every while couple times past couple years would holding hammer sit staring thinking would happen hit head it im also kinda scared depressed ass do like think redflag time even though dont wanna im kindof scared one day become witness body walking killing without even wanting to wanna get time dont really want to dont know anymore,1 +covid ruined dreams hopes dreams sleeping dreams seen crush three months forgot looks like dreams random guy saw hike,0 +im useless im falling behind school disappointing parents get upset seek professional help therapistspsychiatrists im lazy hopeless let people down hate myself,1 +kind cars yall drive idk man put engine displacement youre ebic,0 +im love deathmy girlfriend lets call c c perfect together everything great love other want kids love much problem is liver cancer ive crying past dayssince ive found out transplant lined up problem costs nobody afford that childrens childrens children would debt currently theyre trying find blood surgery luck blood type ab one rarest bloodtypes course thanks blood type take types blood common ones stupid though looked survival rate transplant five years theres chance death thats big number cant live without her goes ill polishing gun fuck cancer fuck everything need baby have whats kept breathing eating loving cant take anymore ill sell kidneys arms legs brain eyes ears anything long lives hell ill even give liver need her doctor gave months live thats long time cant take it feel like water lungs cant take anymore,1 +well didnt get girlfriend but told liked way well wanted keep close friendship d,0 +slams table slammed table mlord phoenix wright,0 +could someone please explain joke me fffffffffffffffffffffffiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,0 +aeugh ughagaeufh aeughhhh aeugh uhhhhh uhhh aeguhg aeughhhhaaa augh agh aiiiii aeugh uhhhh aeugh aegaah ageeah u,0 +im tiredfirst off know im writing this might im struggling hope im pretty sure humans fucked share powerful feelings others matter course someone sad combination empathy willingness broadcast misery people feeling sad trying fix problem time im sorry taking advantage place deserve better im redditor years puppet account exists im left alone ive never anything useful add conversation despite many attempts nothing witty nothing popular nothing needed heard anyone rest online presence same used surf forums looking offer insight know thinking im clever enough im smart enough everyone else stubborn were real problems honest online life important real life later father died im mom senile soon family history signs already showing older brother going eat death thats comparatively ok think hell die happy im pedophile gay one bi regular nonexistent sex life not taboo one existent say pedophile pederast boy socalled age attraction lives across street me ill never lay much hand him id sooner die sooner die none understand that sort thing go therapist with anyone suggests it theyll one attend funeral know care ive done nothing deserve better anyway guys age attraction other friends straight afraid admit otherwise thing practical sense bi gay friend bi guy attracted me gay guy married ive put enough shit im going tempt break fidelity always fancied kind cute girl whos ever willing sex ive unwilling sex with matter appearance see combined fact cant even find guy yes not ripped wants fuck ass not anal guess really ugly expectations high wanted cute guy girl weigh much half again find sad cant get girl would keep cock erect nevermind eventually children me see extended family dead brother sterile kids pathetic family line end guess time anyway hearing going used love music much would make spine shiver hair stand end could move tears ive three bad ear infections past three years still understand people room background noise everything subtle music gone still listen sometimes makes cry touches place thats longer there feel empty along lines goingtoshit body pretty badly infected toe infected inflamed year now suspect ill gangrene soon medical insurance since flunked college feet bare shower past year keep secret family theyd try get doctor wed lose much money valued hearing much one toes lost that fuck toes ive acne since age cant get go away gave trying last week same go figure yeah tried towel thing bad it job stopped wanting one six months ago cost money right now brother couple friends bar friends fun without me ive come realization im good anything nothing offer anyone oh sure died would missed thats people become used presence terms actually offer theyll poorer die people really knew was wrong me theyd keep away people forced love religion would remain thats love get enough now hope future dead feel ostracized day cannot keep living world would should rather dead emotional strings attached im tired many ways now old become someone world would rather keep starting tomorrow im going lay floor room bed need lower ground closer spirits im going stop eating stop talking people protest theyll panic fully anticipate ill feeding tube said done even though wish go lengths keep alive ive never wanted die want kill myself cant slash wrists blow brains out im tired im tired live im going stop trying im going lie body gives like mind want get up mean through wish whatever lacked get way sorry burden all deserve better better posts better people ill check back know why edit im going get sleep almost fell asleep moment ago check replies wake up deserve it edit im awake again,1 +okay time put plan actiontime die,1 +feel conflictedi feel horrible im scared open anyone im worried theyll go tell office boom run another lap system done virtually nothing first two times deal parents cant open redflag without consequences im sick ones feel guilty know id worry everyone course dont want die care dont want somebody kill regardless feel bad feeing like regardless anyone try help me even gotten better since last time went system redflag still feels optimal even though really dont want die,1 +waiting game nowive taken pills gotta wait well see anything actually goes down wrote sentence note whoever finds me wish say isnt much more,1 +got cyberbullied twentyyearolds saying shouldnt slutshaming women boyfriends cheated with love humankind,0 +my step dad picking mum hour im going take overdose time house ive tried getting life taking every day came overwhelming constant loneliness depressive state horrible deal with,1 +need get something chestenglish first language please forgive mistakes youll surely find text st birthday last thursday december th somehow made realise many things know really dumb parents brother aunt friend wished happy birthday felt bit sad lived i go back parents house pandemic plenty friends constantly wanted hang get drunk apartment promised wouldnt let bother me real friends still kind expecting text something like never mentioned it damn even reminded facebook anyway last night birthday party mom brother aunt cousin i guess wasnt big deal see every day since work family business everything fine ate cake opened bottle wine conversation drifted someone friends brother aunt im best terms with said well dont talk something else big mistake told ruining fun long story short literally kicked party went bedroom mom followed me thought going tell serious something instead screamed big pain ass next year im going on felt like shit still do honest suppose im lovable person but dont know dont think deserved kicked that screaming told wanted die ive wanting many years many bad things happened wanted stop pain said dramatic made fun me made feel like depression invalid crying everyone else singing laughing thought perfect representation life hour later everybody went home sleep couldnt stop thinking much wanted dead decided take rat poison dad bought couple containers years ago believed rat backyard it wasnt almost forgotten about great plan guess back room poison inside bag trying figure effective must couple years ago and then angel appeared looked find pair big yellow eyes staring intently cat meowed climbed bed made comfortable waited join her context cat never wants sleep me usually sleeps parents room warmer mine there could felt left alone would something bad possible probably else could explain presence meowed laid beside found couldnt leave her one me one cared know might think sad even bit pathetic swear moment became reason existence else would play her feed her clean sandbox keep warm i live family im one shes cat cried eyes again different reason now made promise would wait couple hours anything wanted think everything another day life still shit family ignoring me one else talk to im ranting reddit know least cat wants live may seem like much enough now tldr wanted kill birthday party family dont seem care didnt cat,1 +appropriate diameter material ropein regards short drop hanging method thick rope be im assuming thick enough break sill thin enough pressure reasons one thats single centimeter diameter ive tested yesterday feel like could break easily material anything amazing either meters costed seriously taking chances,1 +morning morning finally olved maths problem let sleep last night r guys,0 +film too know actually put scene in way back school trip in stopped service station time film asked the whole us run shout go freebird around years old could anyone seen film tell part actually kept film would great know remember thought film never come out another half years released comments seem good im guessing quite successful film might buy it first would like know im it d thank,0 + looking forward literally nothing life want fall asleep wake want go,1 +im drunkima cap myself itll romantic fuck,1 +give anything away describing plot film say begins return israel young blind woman whose closest friend companion committed suicide unfolds like detective story blind woman tries figure friend ended life pursues investigation information accumulates leads inexorably devastating conclusion film expertly paced acting especially talia sharon yaara blind woman excellent israeli film definitely come age fully competitive foreign films though found large audience us,0 +might little topic dream xbox got red ring death woke find shat bed help,0 +best friend likes idk kind long sorry so best friend leaving next week hung last time ended making touching almost went stopped mom rushing us home acting really weird taking home didnt text back next morning talked phone last night basically said loved wanted show make see beautiful him said felt like half said almost cried kind scary didnt know say feel like im freaking kind of dont know feel love feel like see friend hes liked ive always rejected him ghosted it felt like couldnt handle felt scary feel like thinks ill keeps making jokes leaving now also girlfriend hates me theres that please give advice dont want hurt love him tldr best friend intimate says likes dont know do,0 +kinda sad yesterday someone said theyd delete account cuz stuff regret seemed cool wanted stay away reddit yet made post it seemed like cry help theyre gone im kinda bummed trying,0 +im cry cant even tell mom bad anymore ffirst all open talking pm makes fucking anxious idk why bunch mental bullshit drop regular highschool graduate using independent study failed community college now know dad disappointed like me like either ive sleeping lot lately hard time getting up pass again woke yelling dad yelling mom im stupid failing school blaming kinds stuff know heard shes trying mom said well thats enough dad yelled ok dad like either know im enough mom mental bullshit coming breaking makes worse dad bitched side im dark refusing let worthless ass cry cutting help anymore next step death feel getting close it ive tried cant even please dad cant get shit together im surprised kicked streets threatened able hold job want waste welfare disability money wish mom baby miscarried me instead me edit comments welcome may caused misunderstanding,1 +husband hates much hate myselfim scum fucking earth deserve anymore husband cant even room me stupidly pulled gun awake took away me im planning slitting wrists outside snow soon falls asleep,1 +oopsyesterday ragequit job brink called parents told needed come pick up also handed revolver now morning feel like ive made huge mistake really wish gone it im parents radar bigtime drive back apartment feeling captive life made suicidal asking help made captive powerless ever before god really hope get chance kill himheritthem,1 +german hard learn like literally learned monthsits easy ill name couple languages harder german though russian spanish french albanian greek enchanting table lastly babyian,0 +hows everyone wanna check,0 +lads going trip ram ranch join want,0 +need help reddit theres girl like however already boyfriend tell relationship seems pretty stable positive side think might open got number around month ago advice,0 +looked good green hope well look good im proud still hope think still friend hope love body heart hope feel happy thats want,0 +katten min dde jeg er det hun var nesten r gammel det norske tastaturet er ikke ille,0 +like sure bad this like sure bad take away teenagers phone depressed taking away good grades finish work straight garbage reason talk friends finish work,0 +one oddest strikingly eerie creepy horror films come s tourist trap even loose freewheeling conventiondefying anything goes standards time rates real weirdie yet pictures strangeness masterfully mounted uncanny atmosphere pervasively offkilter supernatural dread getgo registers powerfully spooky becomes increasingly opaque frightening film progresses offering ample shocks amid scattered moments surreally lovely dreamlike elegance ending bitterly ironic crushingly nihilistic note haunting final image thats hard shake makes unique singularly unnerving experiencebr br five teenagers traveling desolate california desert car get hopelessly lost stumble across slausens lost oasis seedy rundown roadside dive thats one part gas station three parts crummy wax museum parts ratty foreboding joints lonely seemingly friendless harmless owner slausen juicily overplayed infectiously hammy brio chuck conners turns deranged psychic killer lethal telekinetic powers slausen brings freaky assortment uncomfortably humanlike mannequins life picks kids one one add evergrowing collection victimsbr br director david puppermaster the arrival schmoeller adeptly wrings every last ounce tension squeeze pleasingly ambiguous openended script cowrote j larry carroll said scripts stubborn refusal provide rational excuse bizarre stuff transpires throughout movie often wrongly criticized one films principal weaknesses actually movies key strength giving picture scary anythingandeverythingcanhappen commonlogicbedamned quality true nightmare come horrifically life never would achieved kind credible explanation offered whats happening pino donaggios beautifully chilling understated score nicholas von sternbergs shadowy cinematography robert a burns grubby cramped production design add immensely films profoundly unsettling mood excellent performances another significant plus pretty perky jocelyn jones elliejo turner the great texas dynamite chase particularly fine personable resilient sympathetic endangered teens even tanya roberts fares well luckless lass knife levitated head offbeat unusual tourist trap well worth visiting,0 +found fathers guni could use end less minute easy scary time im gonna it know that but could should i dont know im confused right know chance im alone gun ever wanted since im depressed cant reason im scared hate it hate feeling dont want it want strong fucking once fucking end cant coward,1 +mom mom talking birth control morning means still secks going kword,0 + hours i hopeim indecisive bastard first jan feb tonight made decision last night cant feel much anymore emotion fucked theres building near house construction hasnt think years dont remember doesnt matter im piece shit doesnt matter anymore ill jump building tightening piece cloth around neck told friend chat said joking used lot say going die ive never really friends im child ive like long remember smile painted face day want cry cant anymore dont know anymore dont care either im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry,1 +ask someone cant start conversations theres girl really like want ask out know how know other were friend group well play jackbox stuff sometimes talk except group together were chatting cause im really shy good joining conversations classes ive reading bunch advice says strike conversation her cant that know start conversations like cant even strike conversation guy friend chat every day literally people school ive every really started conversation with way able start talking her ask out,0 +mom believes masks work tells without backing evidence except fact smell fart someones jeans catch disease someones mask never went college ive taking college classes since junior year high school im live person knows many years somebody please prove wrong,0 +probably belong herei nothing complain about ive never abused great parents supportive gave great childhood never bullied never problems fitting in good job rewarding allows financially comfortable im ugly physical ailments people generally nice me ive never even heart broken beautiful wonderful wife love tolerates me nothing stability love whole life want end it theres weakness me im soft slightest adversity sends spiraling im taking meds maybe need idk believe life make it meaning except give it im lazy want anything action dozens ambitions know pursue ill scrape exist im lazy complainer nothing complain about real problems im process making sure wife easily access money assets im almost done writing goodbye letters theres nothing live except spair family pain thats enough anymore tired feeling weak im tired feeling like man simultaneously weak willed anything it diet exercise medication meditation ive failed im it im scared everything feel alive right amount alcohol me im done,1 +feel alone tiredthe tired probably lack sleep newborn around feel like got hit hardest punch post partum depression ever went feeling ok everything ready kill every night everything hurts body hurts feelings hurt want see anyone except mom want baby anymore cant look babys father without feeling anger wanting hit him literally fantasize walking room beating making feel pain puts through want stop taking blood pressure medication let preeclampsia take course die liver failure everyone around loves dearly seem make difference anymore,1 +family thinks genius notupdate reddit saved life tonight much longer anyone want read ive included concise summary end floated grades middle school point designed web site eventually receiving unique hits per day making fair amount money advertisements th grade honest truth lucky sites topic happened extremely popular time amongst age group spread people school jumped schools district elsewhere family began think genius prodigy sorts destined bring familys name greatness hah truth is lucky determined site closed careless uncommitted longterm done anything publicly great since ninth grade took heartened interest girls brought bout extreme selfcontentiousness grades fell caused alcoholic mother seriously drank almost obsessively rage untapped potential began using drugs form escapism nothing extreme th grade began experimenting certain class drugs experience extreme ego death almost every time use these swear almost feel thin strings attaching rest world snapping time take them believe id worth world anonymous manipulation selfsacrifice highschool would often create fake screen names accounts social networking sites manipulate people school common cause hating anonymous school trashtalker talking collegiate intellectual or course rallying hackers hacked website school would partake groupthink occurring joyously senior year mom forced independent study grades suffering never homework independent study immediately found loophole simplydesigned online system grading never school work year lead experimentation drugs missing graduating friends graduating great friends amazing friends honestly offered place live time need it fucking mean it cant handle living someone im close to never have im mainly afraid think theyll think something goes wrong selfdiagnosed problem self worth never contact anyone much preferring hope contact me almost shy almost id prefer anonymous actions could luckily friends valued enough call regularly get house expressing general interest welfare mom almost taken role child relationship since hit puberty family told ones put thought head originally never grew up honestly amazing artist lead amazing life faked adult young keep began grow well would kick regularly extreme fights would spend night beach one schools close house eventually started living friends house weeks time proved abusive itself felt using friend little offer return friendship mom kicked drunken rage two summers ago left uncles house utah used live central coast california live snowy desert weather almost unbearably depressing winter mood mirrors almost perfectly ive year now made friends though ive opportunities make connections place dislike rare occasion ive made connection someone opportunity to people would normally associate with see judging people show inspiration insight lives hurts around them relationships falter week usually sooner never see again realize around them also show interest insight met here want friends me makes matters worse uncle providing modest employment though usually performing meaningless tasks business offered me many occasions capital business own business would almost certainly involve web site foundation honestly know id fucking begin internet seems fully explored now difficult think original site gaining traction online daunting task honestly want deal with getting normal job frowned upon family especially grandparents bring things chide me talk family treat dictionary pointing questions me assuming know insulting ive began saying i know everything ask me hopes dissuade asking more friends expect return california soon keep telling next semester sure never manage work enough save enough move back friends one close enough touch see start break down stop basic things like sleeping going work put sleeping hours once really care sleeping nothing do slept hours stay awake hours weekly basis reason all abuse sleeping pills point extreme hallucination done extremely stupid dangerous things influence certain substances utah realize lot uncle willing support endeavors endeavor hurts even thinking it ive recently stopped going work enrolled classes community college here rarely attend two three teachers literally reading book teach class one asks explain simple things them depressing announced hired teach class days semester started barely qualified so class full middleaged my job needs im going take class fill roll types often fake going class go library instead ive taken drinking ive smoking lot since got here stopped brushing teeth properly medical insurance teeth rotted believe two molars fall out background heres meat tldr family expects feel give alone year go out talk anyone save occasional online chat phone call old friends wake late fake attending classes put going fake job drink nightly point blacking out im making money get better job make money snow makes want die incapable would seem escape ive cutting right wrist deeper deeper every week so wrist band one notices one touches me never moves one notices im thinking making final soon date planned anything point stop one find drive already assumed better are,1 +cant connect peoplei know to everytime meet someone genuine connection with never realize theyre life im trying meet people reddit im talking person like universe wants alone maybe want deep way finally work courage kill myself know hurting many people,1 +im afraid everythings gonna get worsethings sort looking like theyll get better im afraid everythings gonna get worse things get worse somehow know do know ill able go living im dealing lot different kinds feelings right now complicated,1 +please let diefeels like lifes ever began poor education career decisions paired shit mental health serious injury left stranded home country squeezing life country interested taking dropout regardless much potential might thats paper life struggle get starting line start privilege break back get ground fuck this want die take another shot lottery n maybe next time raised psychopaths,1 +everything life telling give kill myselfno job money love ambition passion future have arthritis depression mediocrity week fucking kidney stones life get shit piss fucking 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sleeping someones house people dying anyway thats rant please stop shit,0 +pointlessi mean point this try reach goals many obstacles way mention millions people always put down constantly tell good enough struggle shit hole society told someone better you try ignore voice head reminds worthless are take risk heartbroken search find significant other even know im typing this like internet cares bunch random strangers pretend care seconds ditch like everyone else everyone know perfect little lives im stuck here willing anything hug pat back sort encouragement sometimes even think meant planet maybe one got aborted think belong here im s know people say rest life ahead you endure pain need to every story happy ending maybe death new opportunity someone else keep going ill probably get way want fuck someone elses life story probably best im even here dreams already crushed along heart redflag bad anyways physical energy destroyed according science change form know im selfish thinking like this wish someone could side once,1 +husband got fight broke plate said defective couldnt this said gonna drive somewhere shoot outside car could it left doesnt seem guns missing dohe ptsd hes getting depressed disconnected past years im exhausted think straight dont want call cops without good reason bc hell lose job hes threatened redflag times always panic attack hes never told plan before im really tired scared idk make good decision right please help,1 +think timedo ever look way back first posts subreddit wonder people still alive really hope found way out think people time man makes really wonder truly god answers wishes prayers guide others path happiness,1 +giving upi feel like need end all cannot stand anything life feel like everyone gave me friends teachers parents honestly think one would care die im sad ones asks im okayno one cant stand myself im ugly im awkward time like stupid everyone probably thinks im loser mean like anyone would care died im mistake everyone knows im giant stupid idiot nothing stays brain get bad grades parents get large metal wooden rod beat cant stand feeling disappointment cause people one ever want partner sit next me none people know class must ugly right one ever like whats point living,1 +want watch suffer spicy wings charity stream im going hour live stream youtube channel radgamerdads ill eat really hot wings feel free watch suffer weekend also take donations extra life one dad looking engagement stream,0 +month since miscarried three weeks since got dumpedi much pain last night drive home drunk ex let stay sober im recovering cocaine addiction im probably going get fired im going aa im depressed talk anyone person think killed baby coke knew pregnant cant anymore um much pain ive numb every day month want stop want dead,1 +discussion things things kid would benefited mental health now prompt final project create program organization addresses one main themes cultural societal concerns discussed semester your assignment choose issue addressed semester needs change support attention bullying sexual assault racism mental health identity design program new curriculum mentor group afterschool club etc addresses need aimed audience group help parents talk kids trained support group peers peers creating new club junior high level change world,0 +ok quick question good app recommendations get bored easily need games play im ipad use apple appstore cant find good ones also im going record today taco trilogy day,0 +hope endive depressed last nights ive drank got arrested year ago narcotics get drug tested state fail one test go prison cant ive sad lately thing brought happiness gay bars ive gone ive finally accepted self get tested morning im going end im sorry love friends ive made love friends accepted im sorry cant go prison ive drinking waiting till midnight see happen told one friends today wont drink rest march ill see goes let family know love didnt support am,1 +kindness shelterobvious throwaway reddit im sick this spent hours trying write ive going through much going on switched app poof refreshed reason gone im upset wrote much anyway know people would skim one needs hear life story situation right something skim still understand complicated connected cant focus details long ill focus feelings need help somebody trust anyone life ill turn guys im wits end feel worthless easy throw away disposable ive suffering much past months suffering well one thing another domino effect never ends im exaggerating im homeless im young im alone one turn anymore im yr old girl people hurt ways expect think real world feel like im bad soap opera novela im sure im putting tonight im sleeping behind old apartments gotten colder dark prepare hope neighbors call cops enough endured enough rock bottom seems me keep sinking think im float like long tried kill april seeing lied ahead me even then path neater head turned out things worse much worse regret friend finding trying take rest pills come abuse every type escaped family hurt strangers whose help naturally accepted tried believe wrong homeless ive met demons dressed angels first worst part knew knew trust take help suffer own dependent people help much power you ive realized lot people like help like power control gave benefit doubt fool wish way brand people right forehead others knew hurt anybody else people would chance run know sound crazy mean to im destroyed shambles everything cold life mine cold fine one understand ive seen ive lived alone too wasted time energy nothing better things going get better while quite actually especially consider homeless persons perception time things ive experienced never leave me im scarred believe anyone anymore believe people anymore ive lost much faith im longer even emotional it is im tired im tired this much more many problems ive tried write help many times theres much write follow through something else happened today terrible thing cant stand im furious powerless im disgusted theres one turn to im sick wish hurt people killed myself cause would instant nothing gotten better fact everything got worse plateau got worse knew it problems temporary theyll stay life everyday battle life war im lost cant kill myself would default many obligations cant hurt people tried help especially return investment im disgusted world right now know perspective think ill again something died today wish could finish job die myself want make option bad thank much reading did really appreciate you point even feel like deserve people listen me fact stranger side world would kindness almost feel shown thank you,1 +happens average joe finds supernatural powers premise may sound familiar watchmen unbreakable however russian scifi action flick sword bearer far standard stockbr br the story revolves around man named sasha boy shunned society peers family due supernatural power possess wishes anger allows sword extends arm piercing skin wolverinish maybe thats interesting part film shunned life driven anger and temper have hero returns home town turn life around find reason to thing encounters trouble encounter old flames new boyfriend leaves bloodied ground vengeance anger comes play man want cross point mafia police tail meets girl falls love instantly really movie aboutbr br the film highly impressionistic bold colors noir overtones spliced short yet extreme action sequences art house core beautifully filmed attention details every scene gruesome scifi action odd mash interests much film directors approach genre refreshing focusing emotional journey sasha straight action film worry though action plenty it however much sequences show implied violence pictures horrific aftermath say action shown scenes fantastic especially ending see sashas full powers unleashed desperation director chooses imply violence many scenes keep focus characters emotional struggle hand tragic love story refreshing entry genre,0 +get wrong glad successful gotten help since last months much better whether personal notredflag work general mental state feel like currently spiraling completely put control months away losing roommate place live cannot find place afford even judt place general housing miserable right now gotten chance speak therapist yet honestly tired thst even want try able lay bed drinking thinking much easier would here terrified uncertainty want homeless cannot go back family felt like good honestly happy first time years really want throw thst away trying process situation best ability trying decide need sell hobby stuff things enjoy try afford owni know posting know even looking here everything going sounds absolutely fucking stupid read back feel like burdensorry terrible formatting tired drunk phone tried kill months ago,1 +masturbated months im challenge anything realized jacked,0 +title says worked hard starting graduated high school get place work live own obviously many many set backs life general incredibly unfair complex me worked hard so hard hopefully end journey two years living job enjoy found then work working myself ampxbbut get enjoy future climate change politics instability world right now makes fear able to live first world country soo much thankful for good food family good uni enjoy life lot life still taken hard work redflag things work out self confidence destroyed long ago working restoring yeahh afraid world go shit feel like hard work put worth it would wasted years per se good moments sure went lot get thereampxbany comfort truth speaking would much appreciated everything went through hard work world going fear may get enjoy it,1 +feeling completely overwhelmed im starting get another panic attack third time month ive though redflag feel completely unappreciated andi even cry anymore volunteered plan nice party mother one sister gotten thank either them feel like theres freaking point anything anymore top dollars bank account feel like life complete mess thought redflag years thought getting better im not need someone talk to know im far worst im sorry that,1 +menagerie parts one two parter year run original trek series roddenberry able insert footage st pilot the cage move made necessity combat deadline problems getting episodes produced such sf show back s hassle get done time one notredflag outcome back audiences unaware pilot produced almost couple years earlier treated whole new crew captain two episodes top regular cast characters producers spent double money episodes present tv epic spanning dozen years starfleet history though still used terms united space fleet early episodesbr br the wraparound story begins space mystery plot enterprise diverted starbase unknown reasons soon spock suspect shenanigans astonishingly though even mccoy belabors fact spocks vulcan heritage makes subterfuge part impossible turn spock indeed acting mutinous scheme shanghai precious starship kidnap former captain pike horribly crippled well spock half human tend forget simply gone mad may well be hes directing enterprise talos iv planet offlimits subject known death penalty starfleets books jig up theres great scene spock surrendering flabbergasted mccoy uhura looks shock even kirk usually steady captain be know make first officers illogical conductbr br in rd final acts begin see transmitted images mission enterprise years prior capt pike commanding spock one officers really know going spock hopes accomplish thats another thing makes good parter really need find nd part spock facing severe penalties looks like kirks career may finished well double jeopardy folks also st televised episode feature one shuttlecrafts none available earlier the enemy within crafts really needed theres also one neat matte paintings convey ambiance futuristic starbase way visualize things back then finally check kirks smug approach start episode boy things go sideways story progresses,0 +sad excuse friend tried getting reported mw lol are playing v gunfight bitch audacity tell team im hacking tell stop says im serious hes hacking pussy thankfully team didnt believe mainly everytime got final kill missed majority shots showed true colors already blocked soo,0 +wish wasnt lonelyi one left wish someone cared enough notice gone,1 +like adult comedy cartoons like south park nearly similar format small adventures three teenage girls bromwell high keisha natella latrina given exploding sweets behaved like bitches think keisha good leader also small stories going teachers school theres idiotic principal mr bip nervous maths teacher many others cast also fantastic lenny henrys gina yashere eastenders chrissie watts tracyann oberman smack ponys doon mackichan dead ringers mark perry blunders nina conti know came canada good good,0 +ayo peepee poopoo check peepee poopoo uuuuuuuhhhh peepeepoopoo uuuhhhuhhh,0 +think every day refuse go would familylike title says struggled heavy depression last years months ago whole life plan wrecked id moved different state follow plans friends feel distant day date romantic interactions since november feel invisible radioactive time thinking lot killing myself thought past depressed lately ive thinking heavily details how when best way least impact family folks know struggling wrestling thoughts think understand serious become much im still thinking it im years old single lonely feel like dying would less painful also feel trapped refuse kill parents pass sister brother law busy family forget easily given time never considered unlovableundesirable within last months really become convinced going alone rest life may way uglier inside initially thought thoughts realizing may alone rest life well knowing go know least impactful possible makes feel stuck idea never talked thoroughly really sorry rambling run mess morning sort thinking things besides sentence structure bear me,1 +hear soul scream continuously trying break freeguilt spreading heart like wild fire untitled,1 +saw last post absolutely nothing wore hentai hoodie said nothing it yearbook gonna little interesting,0 +wanting die ability kill urselfcan anyone else relate literally wanted die long remember really enjoy life feel attempting enjoy around genuinely exhausted point want keep going however several attempts finding unable go anything myself anyone else ever feel way idk literally want hit truck something way home work never works way,1 +help please need helpnhelpim getting blackmail female wants dollers im scared shell might even post pics fucked hard kill post idk anymore,1 +hoursin hours ill go living room get sleeping pills family catches ill say cant sleep one really stop me family definitely cant doubt even care,1 +feel like shit help meim awful human deserve live get mad things life throw hit things im mad release frustrations get want feel like brat never spoiled want kind person lot things mind come every years make me say depressed since diagnosed sad want hit myself kill myself cant seem it always looking ways actually going it friends know things me want kind person want change want help life sucks cant afford therapy want parents finding even could idk maybe im acting holidays near get wrong hate holidays worst things happened during want get guess anyway made far reading this thank you sometimes want heard feel free comment drag me,1 +might curtains mehi im yr old student whose parents found failing hs senior yr dont dont many friends great people cant live shame knowing ill never parents expected me maybe ill already dead probably gonna post man tough itll soon,1 +hate youre alone crapi know depressionanxietyredflagmental illness general pretty damn common point thats problem everyone lot worse theyre also succeeding despite it besides boat someone doesnt mean arent still rowing yourself doesnt mean youre making boat take water drowning you im glad people take comfort idea theyre ones self harming whatnot thats partly point subreddit all see kind posts twitter tumblr scream faux positivitynormalisation me yeah sure experiences this going start talking properly cant lift stigma meaningful way rant,1 +honestly feel like shit feel like life driven sadness hate blind anger otherwise feel anything otherwise feel absolutely nothing care anything want anything found things used love bring little none satisfaction all cannot make decisions own spend night long crying morning absolute worst cannot talk anyone friends normal like depression shit last time talked said depression poser want talk parents neither therapist really help feel like one understands me mom said stage months ago really stage really stage,1 +guess complicatedthis worst five days life every year abusive horrific biomoms birthday th mine th every year imdumbfounded angry disgusted still allowed draw breath world makes really hard want make birthday know must silly heres hard part ive mostly come terms it hour hour minute minute did im really really worried blackouts im coconscious trust even im safe one be know people get lot shit could really use help right now,1 +well im back alright last time came basic issues seems worsened first off brother mental ward might get back guess bad really care thats also coping mechanism tune world yeah might never return electricity might get cut out clue ill living next year im lost one person could talk left nobody started flirting girl guess good distraction time still just life downer man know do im guess im scared want see sister hurt anymore im sick blamed things nothing with mean talk child services want go system want want to take pause let everything go away feel like im climax tragedy family crumble im starting out feel like im going get suffocated problems family thanks listening sw sorry able keep myself,1 +im realizing im loser lol almost im reddit math homework today photomath working cant basic math im siting room thats full anime merchandise pondering life also thinking reading yaoi soon,0 +le mini crewmate sus,0 +dm ai bored id love meet new ppl,0 +excellent start film career mickey rooney talents shows long career ahead him car truck chase exciting era start andy hardy series american treasure book spring byington performance excellent usual please mr rooney owners film rights take chance get produced dvd think would winner,0 +truly enjoyed movie however realize little richard many things going life first aware lucille little hardly any mention females intimately involved little richard even life today mention involvement females romantic way wonder part life mentioned overall movie great also like leon playing part little richard good actor feel part went different actor visually remind little richard also totally unaware promiscuity little richard part of movie pictured sexual addict todays time would referred counseling sexual addition voyeur want ruin movie someone seen movie however several things movie feel part final cut,0 +feeling good year life unfair usso rewind years ago perfectly fine depressed hopeful energy look towards future entered college made lots friends love life then got depressed went zoloft things took turn there years later lost love life friends everything im scared really anything it easy commit redflag like people make be live ourselves would want lose life im young im turning soon im female lost someone years feel like ill never find happiness im failing school im addicted smoking pot even though want to im gaining weight looking really bad lately help know do cant even find enjoyment videogames suck writing feel like ive ruined life it like normal people know im stuck endless loop sadness depression im tired,1 +yesterday cried night song song even sad im fuckin cool edgy yes,0 +crush asked out she find next episode your mom gei,0 +retire starting drama im bored good habit makes annoying,0 +survey censorship video games hi im school assignment censorship video games would really appreciate would help filling survey answers anonymous give personal info ampxb 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chest hurting feeling heart pound lost recent friends awful them friends im burden family try productive want drink sleep went rehab drug addiction see getting better know im hoping writing ill feel even minute tranquility thank reading,1 +im gender equality hit im gonna pound like like cremated matter gender,0 +yk dating teenagers relationships fail thomy tchrs adults around always tell relationships dating teen almost always never works end nothingnot worth itetc obviously ppl get married early relationship high school become adults idk man yall real fooling around,0 +even distraught never get job done suicide mind exploding much redflag outlet relief already called police incident much one extremely hostile towards me triggered left tears already traumatized happened much pain support live alone disabled due mental health know else do desperate redflag even little understand internet good place seek support option called case manager already called crisis hotline national suicide hotline samaritans hotline tell thing get therapist waitlists long six months need immediate help now need someone now anyone know anything anyone could provide sort relief please someone something please read this need help police help me,1 +want try bondage ask partner keep ropei sure keeping rope trigger suicidal thoughts would dominant one want explain get suicidal thoughts recent fwb would do,1 +yesterday decided go finish degree covid forced withdraw year hardest year as previous posts highlight depressive suicidal thoughts highest life first time feel like looking see future weeks ago think had one step time but think saw smile face today decided go back finish degree first time seen light,1 +school stressfulmy weight school almost reason enough go ahead kms nobody likes even parents yell mom especially sets unrealistic expectations cant wait get hands gun end life,1 +day painful much work stopping imnot call er want alexander pain end downed far cutting hoping works end,1 +classic dramaaction western incredible cinematography well ahead time production good tell done pride loveunique peek american northt west pioneers educational entertainingthis movie rated people like see reality many lawmen particular time place crookedcorrupt much like developing countries todaythe action sequences could realistic though stillthis movie really covers essentialsnot audience wants pure testoterone type westerns movie sense history philosophy,0 +deal negative emotions talk trusted friend get help express negative feelings physical activities hobbies non harmful outlets let stack behind face throat twist unhealthy rage causes break blow slightest inconvenience,0 +im scaredthrowaway account obvious reasons ive depressed since march causes revolving door problems ive open school church family roommates girlfriend it school tried help much me roommate helped tremendously best friend girlfriend ive moved back home semester far away them depression led struggle classes point may failing fail though parents basically turn back me feelings inadequacy anxiety future plagued mind nonstop ive semisuicidal thoughts whole time girlfriend knew them she roommate best friend as well religious convictions enough keep now seemed like thoughts going away end semester drew closer parents freaked possibility failing fail ill debt job degree family willing help me ill proven much failure ive always thought was honestly cant see reason keep going cant even see could wanted to scares that first time life actually started researching ways commit act started developing preferences decided it would want clean so one clean huge mess want family ones find body first im terrified thoughts even come mind thing keeping thought never seeing love life one last time,1 +fear disappear gonewhen longer fear it idea scare anymore cant recall exact day id say weeks ago,1 +guilthi reddit month ago watching video ramateur two days ago remebered it suddenly absolute horror girl underage rape today searched original content proven im disturbed think tell family kill myself today soon cant live uncertainty,1 +birthday exactly one week h,0 +helpi feel really weak need someones help ive depressed years so ive never seen doctor saw happened older sister went hospital fuck that tonight really bad im alone house parents europe late anyone awake want end it care anything anymore even loneliness thing past three nights ive gotten laid enjoy anything anymore im really ready it know im asking help anyone able say anything not cliche help thats story ive got rope tied basement,1 +overwhelmedim starting college weeks im scared part wants run away it family issues getting hard like half im bridge between theres much head needs sorting big things coming driving crazy cant cope every time close eyes sleep quiet time think needs done whats coming know shouldnt say wanna give desire go college anymore want everything stop worry anything anymore plus feel like shit time go know theres probably easier ways cope excited college days lately getting overwhelming,1 +hang anyone needs talk know month week even today may feel impossible impossible arent try get it may hurt may angry here get better get better keep waking every day keep pushing least owe yourself yourself got this loves make day great,1 +pros amp cons dating pros dating cons,0 +everyone get wantyou cant follow dreams everyone would work retail stores would work dead end try chase dreams fail wasted time career path everyone ment happy shit works feel like im side character thats even part main story hey gotta flesh world somehow special people thrive love drawing art im delusional think somehow make become well something love thats works sure success stories happening failed need money get hours relief hobbie makes happy fuck life fuck world want die ment rather object something maybe mug mugs cool think give pretty good mug energy,1 +want exist anymorei recently hurt love life shes thinking leaving me hearing cry feel sad makes want alive anymore much debt school cant get job covid lately ive thinking gun driving middle desert end it ive made worst mistake life wife never look way again alone makes think dont deserve alive anymore dont know do feel like ive shoved dark hole way out wish never existed dont want alive feeling emotions anymore,1 +fun covidfriendly halloween activities not arson thinking maybe dress spooky makeup watch halloween horror movies friends suggestions,0 +drank soaphow much soap kill me,1 +loose ends tied nowm ive feeling actively passively suicidal years ive reached friends family hotlines ive dragged house cops hospitalized maybe time would switch actively suicidal passively reckless instead actual attempts two nights ago tried overdose near dozenth time failed next day agony got bed times throw up since moved much except small things like clean dog feed pets know looked go tied loose ends last weeks pushed friends away point hate me make things easier mention friends barely knew needed something im trans man ok insurance covers parts transition since live home rent free spare cash go student loans cover copays know im really fortunate life im college student as take maximum credit hours pass decent job pick hours make well min wage state mentors professors close contacts best schools state parents abusive family generally pretty ok except even working hrwk school full time making as parents think im enough every weeks threaten kick enough housework fast enough siblings treated way kind anything generally get yelled at live home im oldest youngest still feel alone incapable giving receiving love idea near people enough make skin crawl know like around me im ugly feel like imposter even constant overbearing urge kill bad life all next attempt going starving death hanging nobody bothers either easy enough,1 +haha xd friends really wish could cry soul friends shoulder,1 +programming discords could join reading description legitimately 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another meltdown work written posts similar one before deleted ill probably delete one too sick treated like shit everyone usually talkative try hard sociable considerate people around me know feels excluded looked want others feel way around me work ass stupid fucking store put every ounce energy getting things done right time take breather even second suddenly end world put notice boss slacking blatant fucking liei hate boss hate way talks way walks stupid juvenile sense humor fake wannabe tough guy attitude hate here matter go never get respect anyone know wrong me hate way look talk friends afraid even try make every friend ever abandoned whenever convenient them life boring pointless brave enough kill myself feel like doomed alone forever living meaningless life something fundamentally wrong me resent mother marrying dad huge loser maybe met someone else would son totally fucking useless know myself want stuck way forever know need change sleep thing enjoy anymore maybe one days ill take nap never wake hate boss hate job hate myself hate life,1 +roses red violets blue ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb scrolled see rest post ampxb and rickrolled you toohttpspreviewredditjudcvfghdjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfceabadeabfeaabbbcc,0 +wanna talk someone tried help friends problems asked pushed away one talk anything uhh interests anime video games uhhh thats really it im dead inside asshole smart ass think sakuta bunny girl senpai anyway wanna talk someone interests stuff none irl friends actually interests anime video games kinda lonely names alex anyones interested,0 +please stop gay anime posts please seen rd time day editi beef gays want see posts more gonna end like skirts hand pics trend,0 +survivor serious injury recently stubbed toe still recovering it please keep awards yourself medical advisor says live please dont worry,0 +drove car first time im turning months dad took today empty parking lot districts highschool asked wanted get behind wheel wasnt sure ive always scared driving fact maybe ill bad driver time switched spots repeated commonly known steps start engine start driving spent minutes turning using break pedal drive pedal is called using turn signals stopped couple stop signs drove circles around different objects moved slowly didnt spin snow hit curb all still rush adrenaline driving pound machine made feel powerful,0 +press cringe imagine chewing chomping grinding teeth mouth full fallen teeth,0 + years enoughive living like far long fight thoughts every day ive tried everything im tired im sorry m,1 +great little thriller expecting type silly horror movie got tight short thriller waste none time mostof movies get back characters stories either feel sympathy hatred people start getting killed foolishness here yes see characters really interact principals husband wife motel whose room canceled saw could efficient lisa character inefficient new hotel clerk was see little girl simply small important role later movie heck breaks loose flight atrendants need particular move plot ahead bad guy particular needs beginning flight rude guy airport important movie too characters liners use plot two young guys plane clever thought would something plot first scene last woman character young hotel executive named lisa charge even jackson shows true colors panic thinks stall time movie smart executive women would acting like idiots one short movie waiting usual plot devices kick movie seemed coming conclusion fast thankfuly none used new hotel clerk usual called told do panic drop phone run hotel without saying anything question boss tell much drink dismiss her craven types movies also one last comment brian cox movie one clue was come see lisas father completely unrecognizable,0 +girls resit would good conversation starter nerd usually talk dinossaurs girls find interesting sugestions better things start conversation girls,0 +people reddit would answer form its class pls httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfgomvwrvskuwkdziumjyyuwpapsfiurzlbkouhjyjaviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfgomvwrvskuwkdziumjyyuwpapsfiurzlbkouhjyjaviewformuspsf_link,0 +threw away pills todayi depressed thought redflag before ive walked it never did reached people got counseling made alive last year year fall like last year happened again time worse know loved know people care me would idiot deny fact im surrounded amazing community sadness feels like never going end might make side cant escape it feel like im dragging people down got accident take heavy painkillers couple weeks im sure messed head even weeks cant stop depressed anxious past week half so keep thinking pills left use kill myself last night stop crying thought pills want old back morning held held bottle thought it thinking knew much real control right threw away pills feel much better believe decision made life throwing away think good first step theres many people like sharing kind stuff thought might well get chest here,1 +messed beyond repairi even know start this november quit delivery job wrecked two cars handle stress anxiety working inside pizza store mood progressively gotten worse thought would able buy car tax return worked jobs last year made close k got hopes high im even getting enough cover tuition one class community college ive always depressed since maybe ive meds whole life im now expelled high school freshman year buying drugs trying kill school hours kid boy dating raped abused me abort genuinely thought kill himswlf would find someone else it went prison trying bomb school failed first semester college keep class work new born tried get job keep one either juggling child care job hours anxiety interacting people tried go college last year another abusive person dating kept going classes told allowed there dropped out friend helped get delivery job things ok month two boss job started blatantly abusive workers singling others out freaked tried jump bridge hospital stay put k debt total ive hospitalized times ive tried kill nothing seems get better every time try something fix situation backfires makes everything worse even see point trying anymore cant take care myself family resents me ive messed life badly theres really way get hole im considering trying end again permanently time,1 +hey there need share something u guys feel like im middle existential crisis guess may vulnerable depression bcoz entrance exam approaching amp feel quite afraid time mean cant stop procrastinating past failures amp seems like parents really acknowledge small successes teachers really mean amp predict might fail it things bit tough past years able perform according parents expectations think talking community similar age group might lighten heavy heart amp give head start towards destination anyways community encouraged get downfall thank u guyz,0 +guys party tonight regular show goddamn fucking good like come guitar melody slaps harder boxer steroids song written specifically cartoon goddamn good rant goodnight dm want ill respond im six hours im going bed,0 +first deepa mehta film saw film tv hindi version sita character presented nita also note radha underwent allegorical trial fire film nitasita yet loved film screenplay ms mehta direction characters big small welldeveloped seemed quixotic towards endsomewhat like end mazurskys an unmarried woman brave women surrounded cardboard men one cardboard man ashok seems come alive last shot see himcarrying invalid mother biji seems finally take future responsibility beyond celibacy adherance religion br br ms mehta seems fumble director however compared indian mainstream cinema would seem brilliant cannot use script go beyond microscopic joint family presenting except presenting glimpse chinese microminority social milieu india even dedicates film mother daughter not father yet radha reminesces halcyon days parents mustard field compare mrinal sen adoor gopalakrishnan muzaffar ali dwarfed giantsgiven competent canadian production team financial resources mehtas film two bisexual ladies indian middleclass household may sacrilege some merely captures atrophy middleclass homes seem aspire something better immediate survival limited social space kannada malayalam bengali films touched parallel themes india publicity surrounded film therefore seen wide segment knowledgeable cinemagoersbr br ms das ms azmi mr jafri mr kharbanda credible outstanding ms azmi talented actress gave superb performances good directors mrinal sens khandar gautam ghoses paar benegals ankur brilliance notably absent film ms das sparkled due screen presence rather acting capability all films strength remains structure screenplay average terms international cinema sure ms mehta hone writing talents future screenplays,0 +psychotic break best thing happened mefor life operated highlow basis manic would act physically emotionally impulsively manipulatively would sink lowest lows months later get bed shower take care basic needs convinced unworthy manic powered thoughts selfworth surprised people wanted around me clung semblance acceptance could would manipulate situations benefit feel like shit depressive episode came along took millionth suicidal intention mixed manic phase urge check institution insurance cover mental health knew last day didnt best friend ended relationship years way hospital text medication prescribed earlier year working me instead muffling depression brought redflag knowing would it planning would happen rose water drowning hour morning knew time better medication mood stabilizer given life back still working fallout finally hope reaching friends spoken years talking strangers internet going movies myself enjoying instead fearing time myself trust again happy confident ever hope guys proud here need someone talk to know here,1 +guys remember post much lgbt stuff subreddit uh yeah im sure made,0 +gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer gamer,0 +story shinae moves milyang seoul young son jun start accidental death husband husband born here opening piano school also ambitions land insurance money received death film about probably would like hollywood film falling local guy happy son new home but hollywood son gets kidnapped murdered ostensibly known cash settlement grief process attempts moving on attempts clear conscience guilt done admirably lead actress superb caveat stated depressing film know going in want shinae go grief find measure happiness again hollywood korea korean cinema especially drama pull punches life happens you great acting sometimes tough film watch due goings on stay rewarded that,0 +wish existmy family wants gone want gone mental illnesses get worse make every single aspect living pure hell still killing would cause much trouble wish never existed first place im sorry burden,1 +smell funny quite pungent,0 +maybe todayi posted subreddit days ago stating wanted die planning taking life today planning buying rope shanaz im extremely tired painful atm want go college tho ive missed many days recently want piss tutor offor mother wish could end nowor least sleepmaybe whole daybut enough courage tell bf react badly all hes keeping eye today hope go hosptial psych unit soon enough hope make tonight hope many others well thank u kind words last post even tho lifted heart dayit enough,1 +recognised sub yet wanna know anyone remembers username,0 +suicidal thoughts require hospitalizationrecently ive feeling much stronger urge hurt myself past usually fleeting thoughts go away pretty quickly right now get vivid images want do play loop head pretty long time maybe im easily influenced makes susceptible influence thoughts head end really want get headspace ive trying push thoughts away often can honest theyre really strong im profound pain whereby need attempt redflag escape state im in honestly im attached prospect living everything feels little flat guess like daytoday life grey void idea ceasing exist burst color seems getting inviting me usually bed get thoughts usually try best leave bed try go sleep instead leave bed might it dont plan though feels like impulse thoughts go far as im thinking slicing arm kitchen knife gt could now everyones asleep gt get get knife gt now gt theyre going find tomorrow sad ill gone so theres redflag note plan specific time specific date get mean this ive honestly wondering would good idea get inpatient treatment feel like im becoming less less attached stopping hurting myself thoughts urges getting strong inviting im getting tired check myself so id like get opinions think suicidal thoughts as described bad enough require hospitalization yet would serious enough require trip er,1 +ok tried hanging myself work matter much pressure try put arteries feel explosive head sensation black out wtf one thing want life cant accomplish it gotta say feels peaceful this maybe keep trying one time ill get right spot whole life building to destiny feel it,1 +whats wierdest dream ever had best ive got one time dremnt lived new york city world ending nothing crazy idk whats wierdest dreams,0 +humble familyi want kill myself hard admit dont really reason christian parents well off im smart grades slipping lately motivation tanked get good college dont motivation parents hate pamper love older brother people say youngest pampered thats absolute bullshit always compare horrible people talk dont want brother become like me even though hes older gets away everything give everything brother works starbucks makes money expenses hes paying food sometimes buying stuff dad keep mind im even old enough work since im dad says see hes buying stuff youre selfish like dont even make money whole life parents loving brother hating me hate it im done would parents,1 +felt sleep paralysis didnt see cute demon felt tense muscles sweating vibrating back im scared am someone comfort me,0 +know volkswagen put lambo v audi s like im gonna need find one convince dad get car horsepower supercar engine,0 +livehi redditers posting feel like whilst people around care much cant understand hell exist in yo female anorexia bulimia early s diagnosed depression medicated therapy since ive depressed since then many periods suicidality year ago lost live things free fall care anymore still dont ive problems alcohol drug abuse sober months moods cycle rapidly often multiple times day recently also diagnosed borderline personality disorder low immunity probably depression get multiple colds flus year polycystic ovaries acne herpes endometriosis lost mum suddenly brain aneurism stigma herpes devastating could probably deal shit that prospect telling future partners causes much anxiety always use condoms always worry possibility infecting someone else wouldnt wish anyone dont get physical symptoms stigma worse anyway feel dirty damaged like one would want put risk that prospect gossip labelled also terrifying drugged g probably sexually assaulted earlier year say probably dont remember it found naked balcony afterwards dont drive live dad havent able work study year due damned depressed idea want careerwise one true passion life ballet wanted professionally wasnt allowed drop school it quit havent experienced passion happiness like since smart attractive kind family financially secure people always tell look much have makes feel guilty like someone else life scattered friends group depression broken me im end tether matter do always end back here many times someone that im emotionally numb didnt bat eyelid possibility sexually assaulted feel like sack bones floating space ive learnt repress emotional pain point dont feel anymore cant keep shit doesnt get better feel empty heavy time hollow weighed weights made black holes went emergency week ago felt psychotic kept thinking throwing nearby cliff id nightmare woken didnt stop nightmare life im medication go therapy sadness centre always there always end back place torture want sink back earth turn dust,1 +biggest lie ever told gets better years since attempt nothing changed still agony future terrifying loosing faith god please stop testing god cannot fucking take anymore take now biggest lie ever told,1 +inevitableeverything leads inevitable death anything want lives hard think whats point,1 +situationbonjour jai ans et depuis longtemps lenvie de redflagr pourtant je ne suis pas hyper triste douleur de jai fais une tentative il moins dun et aprs avoir pris du recul je suis rendu compte que ce passage lacte tait juste un moyen de dire famille que jai tais manipul et pour en quelque sorte condamn socialement la personne de famille et annoncer son danger mes proches malgr cette ide folle javais quand mme envie de mourir comment pardonn cette personne sachant que je ne peux pas lattaquer frontalement car je sais que elle va nier le plus chiant dans cette histoire cest que mes parents prennent maintenant pour un salaud comme dhab le manipulateur te fais passer pour lagresseur et je suis oblig de partir en vacance avec bref jai limpression que quoi que je fasse elle fera chier jusqu que je tue pour de bon car aprs tentative elle continuait je ne sais plus quoi faire,1 +girl pretty evil making sun feel insecure hotness lt ampxb gtok cheesy admit itlt,0 +want happy want die wish never born first placemy parents two ignorant people good people ignorant fact existing pain think pain because think much thinking much case means realizing shit living in realizing alive much proves point living worst yet able understand living sensation alive existing like multiplying pain already unbearable thought slashing flesh liquid holds alive absurd ask me fucking liquid red liquid reason suffering fucking liquid pouring mind organ ridiculous form colour details mass shit fucking flesh fucking frail flesh cannot stand anymore taking lexapro month half now shit work fucking shit fucking work doctor insists continue taking it fuck fuck medicine would alive matter dump money fucking pill pack fuck shit cannot stand alive cannot stand existing,1 +know anymore im tired thisso got reddit thing created account specifically reason cannot cope wife kids anymore wife says hurtful things kids tend agree her im monster inside monster growing growing cant stop feel failed father cant take anymore everyone family hates urge leave getting harder deal every single day,1 +man walks street says why soft middle now get youve heard it,0 +looking supportive attempted redflag once unsuccessfully actually bit afterwords felt like made wrong choice deserved stay alive days feel empty though feel like im sleepwalking life kind funny today cake day account guess really must something time year fuck spring guess ive really terribly depressed feel like im going able claw way while know im going even graduate anymore second semester grades reached rock bottom used b occasional c student currently two fs one d cs across board elsewhere even pull things think college admitted still allow enroll im fairly certain big plummet grades result rescinding admission senior recital last tuesday show spent months practicing for got anxious got stage stop halfway set butchering every song walked stage tears ive started behavioral problems feel angry want act led getting first behavioral referral due calling teacher facebook reported it friends use car money stop hanging cut im desperate interaction keep around parents disappointed worried cant find success things want good im really sure im anymore think im going kill soon know how really wish life perpetual cycle shitty days,1 +ive tried hardest really havewhere even start lifes crumbling years now seems like whenever try something happy make life better fucks up really ive tried fucking best feels like always losing battle help im alone time either stay room parents house weve big fight led write this im child too legitimately nobody ive somewhat tried redflag before tied something together remember choking near closet thought give another try maybe different time wasnt know im posting really im much bitch actually go redflag actually know do im friends parents fucking hate me job go school moment although im signing spring classes part wants say hey hold near future better another part let many times cynical think way thinks absolutely pointless live anymore im rambling know anymore might try get job ive got bad anxiety two times ive attempted get job fuck interview,1 +legitimately fucking love trisha paytas lmao people hate lose harder ixine haters,0 +lie skittles taste same different colors different smells tricked weve backstabbed weve quite possibly bamboozled,0 +anyone always friendsi cant even remember last time hung friends people besides family depressing sad nobody age understands wants apart life,1 +whats best way kill selfmy girlfriend cheated left fuck another guy gave everything had tired happening whats painless method,1 +ask someone hey whats up day walking home school girl infront sat bench i later learned sophomore year me started sobbing ask stranger hey whats up let vent help struggles asking one simple question save someones life feel like nothing left someone,0 +name dog adopted cute puppy today know name give her give ideas,0 +one main reason im still im afraid afteri read many conflicting opinions around topic afterlife best case scenario absolutely nothing heaven hell terrifies thinking could something like hell reincarnation hell christians eternal damnation constant suffering never ending torment reincarnation russian roulette could lucky unlucky depending part world family people believe prison planet escape endless cycle life death via reincarnation ruled evil aliens feed negative emotions suffering theory scares even more true literally point redflag die reborn second later guys think,1 +hey im bored asf anyone interested starting playing dungeons dragons premade characters could dm details could make one cuz im bored,0 +reminder trump office days missed,0 +one else tell this know saying need confess support map rights right remain silent anything say used court law right attorney cant afford attorney one provided them,0 +question foreign english learners often taught something later learned wrong im wondering often happens like grammar words whatever much happened,0 +stopped reddit much used im changed man ampxb better ofc,0 +suicidal without depression sadnessi woke today orders head clear crisp repetition commit redflag happening lately thought today going drag not thought going depressed day im not im quite content actually ive got plenty energy big goofy smile bounce back suicidal thoughts casually anyone else feel suicidal without actually down im unhappy hate myself good life people generally really nice me think exhibit signs depression newfound lack desire connecttalk anybody even family figure im either really mentally sick realize it im becoming enlightened knows,1 +tried buy razors venti tried buy razors intent slitting wrists time month forgetting so non home would even remotely sharp enough im sitting outside store feeling like idiot failed attempt even attempting cant even fucking right expect anything else right,1 +one many things school cant understand hard education system understand able find use informations hard useful remembering it im able answer hardest question give minute find answer instead remember ill study minutes forget later even understanding talking,0 +wish would never wake againim tired physically worn emotionally exhausted know im getting cynical world ugly place im tired playing games everyone expects lot me one even acknowledges existence im tired disappointment im tired becoming uglier uglier barely sleep night anyway ok one despair find me find itll ok close eyes good,1 +right ear ringing bzzzzzzzzz,0 +crystal city group mormons hire horse traders travis ben johnson sandy harry carey jr wagon masters lead caravan san juan river along journey meet first broken wagon without water quack dr a locksley hall alan mowbray prostitutes denver joanne dru fleuretty phyffe ruth clifford sadistic outlaws clegg boys decide join mormon caravan disguise patrol leaded sheriff crystal city chasing them navajos cross path invited visit hamlet dancing party wagon train near destination clegg boys threaten settlers forcing sandy travis take attitudebr br wagon master another great western john ford sequences wagon train crossing desert hills impressive adventure group mormons funny entertaining songs fit well plot despite dated vote eightbr br title brazil caravana dos bravos caravan braves,0 +officially hundred days old reddit dont know information bet dont know information either heres random gold found make somewhat interesting,0 +feel like way outin january attempted od failed things alright little got hospital feel like redflag option dad fight lot starting crying fighting called ungrateful little bitch said stuff could would abort right made want die know abuse feel like burden everyone around me,1 +big fat liar comes welcome shallow welcome breath fresh air one many films featuring bathrooms bodily fluids pets acid gaseous jokes crotch gags all see spot run max keebles big move snow dogs signaled degenerative spiral kiddie moviemaking worse realization young audience would later satiated smuttier offerings not another teen movie slackers written nickelodeon producers dan schneider brian robbins who coincidentally costarred s sitcom head class film stars frankie muniz jason whos always ready good lie get scrapes wheres english paper dad choked swedish meatball teacher sandra oh issues ultimatum turn paper end day take summer school jason whips story called big fat liar struck en route school limousine carrying insensitive hollywood producer marty wolf paul giamatti wolf gives ride jason leaves paper behind one hear truth time dad tells hes lost trustbr br months later jason best friend kaylee amanda bynes see movie preview big fat liar head los angeles wreak havoc wolfs life get confession stole jasons paper make film even gain sympathy wolfs abused employees including assistant amanda detmer former chauffeur donald faison movie star jaleel urkel white playing himself stunt coordinator a muchaged lee majorsbr br because big fat liar without edge sitcom malcolm middle known for muniz easy root much work with likewise bynes headlines tracey ullmanlike sketch show nickelodeon hamminess given giamatti whose eyes bulge cheeks wiggle every sneering insultbr br the film gets snaps attempting high road enjoyed target audience especially since high jinks occur universal studios lot heres one headscratcher message pays tell truth see jason getting payback telling white lies throughout film well least theres poop,0 +depression taking life family relationships want diei even know say know need say it ive pushed away everyone thats ever meant anything me get hurt easy everything seems numb bleak know myself slept class day accident could think climbing third story dorm jumping ive wanting hurt badly hard live people just left partner love much left them cant cry feel like horrible human being excuses way am id really rather die keep feeling like this keep thinking future seemsgrey cant hold job cant hold relationship cant stand enough come closet worst part everyone thinks im getting better ever since moved college think dying everything hard me cant stop time im currently crisis ive year self harm free think im point need go hospital im afraid disappointing people think im great,1 +looks make want commiti fucking hate way look every single part disgusting thing ever seen whole entire life lips small nose big eyes sunken shit look like im dead cant live like anymore might seem shallow everytime look mirror start crying im pretty enough never be boobs small thighs big fucking ankles look like fucking demon god wanna die bad people around tell im ugly im pretty feel theyre lying crawling skin try starve fail everytime gets worse feel like death option point hurts cause every girl around beautiful unique way im piece garbage literally,1 +wish born malei chance mother first born uncle followed aunt first born father followed grandpa first born great uncle followed children first born girl boy come long line first borns females males actually see quite pattern first born girls younger brothers want transition know feel real want cis penis grown male male childhood feel less than feel ruined feel left out feel like life sad things gender stupid thing caught stupid shit like mothers try pretend sad little boys mom would wanted first born son matter much would try admit it likes little dress doll sad life sad world want it options limitedidk,1 +id given film stars simply lifetime presentation actually filmed location represented story here new york city channel whether set there rural iowa oregon virginia la etc filmed vancouver ottawa toronto canadian localebr br but ever one deserving top rating site movie certainly originality story done many times many variations several similar specific one also done pretty often big screen megastars past present cary grant james garner harrison ford tom hanks et al deborah kerr doris day meg ryan many more think least more prominent past present top head could added now probably many others could brought mindbr br not drone on point that opinion far one best genre ive seen caught chance midday friday time tv taking couple hours following particularly hectic week id never run across flick years since made and two leads done enough known most completely unknown me two actors knew phyllis newman annas mother id seen things younger days michael rispoli henry charlies best friend outstanding gramma menacing juice loan tough street guy rounders br br the chance meeting coupling leads best friends substory romance correlation anna charlie revealed later oftdone plot contrivance within genre makes difference enjoyment in fact enhances itbr br checking comments agree completely notredflag primary word describing film engaging caps adjective describes performers characters chemistry among characters whatever combination presented supporting even minor rolesbr br i love films harder edge rounders escapist schwarzeneggerstallone fare goodfellows even classics like casablanca gone wind citizen kane pure uncomplicated enjoyment one outstanding bare fraction budgets equal results achieved youve got mail sleepless seattle tom hanks meg ryan done better natasha henstridge michael vartan here costars support personnel equivalent megafilms well,0 +post meant people comment couldnt tell man please contribute kisses neck amazing making anything else always feel better everyone talk seems agree this,0 + reason dummy thicc ever grope yall,0 +spoiler nothing spoilerbr br i add name list folks feel viewers get it one even mentioned s word far seenbr br while agree kid died think specific committed suicide races slope old wagon shoots cliff andflies away maybe whole account form death allegory maybe commit suicide wagon laid out either case flies away cmon tough metaphorbr br maybe thing tom hanks ok narration besides raising ww memorial gotta love thatbr br oh yeah loved movie found incredibly moving,0 +dont know doi really helpless lately feel like nothing matters nobody cares me im making entry want see anyone feeling im feeling help other big factor dragging parents parents arent abusive feel like im nothing nice im something dont want like playing hockey ive playing since btw ive lost drive every year dread it im two teams travel high school live half hour away school usually get home midnight half wake may seem like lot hard fall asleep grades dropping take special reading class sri score isnt high enough tried telling parents hockey getting way automatically started yelling scolding me dont really friends anyone look to usually stay room cry hurt myself much happening life described feel shouldnt expand far want commit redflag dont want go hell want go heaven die family doesnt believe god do ive never gone church feel like may help me nothing happened yet im stuck here none love depend on,1 +sixteen year old smiling lines face want call wrinkles thats is started form last year little bit since especially two three months seen go reached chin area feel awful ruins day catch reflection see themi smoke drugs eat like average person seen fat people snokers age them anyone similar experience please let know methods,0 +im gonna kill myselfi cant take anymore feel numb maybe stab ill feel something once,1 +tell replace plastic bags bottles also motivate answer filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text filler filller strok filler kara give nude,0 +pushups decide to day managed pushups imma try get tomorrow,0 +want hear joke mei puzzles daily since year still pretty sucks,1 +feel trappedfor past decade ive felt nothing selfhatred anger sadness loneliness point feel like thing ever make happy redflag thats issue though issue know killed myself would devastate family friends ten years ive painted smile face ive acted like everything okay loved ones worry happy ten years this feel like im living everyone elses behalf im tired want sadden family friends killing myself im also sick living sake keeping happy feel like fair people always talk taking care well being supposed one thing make happy taking life keep suffering everyone else happy im afraid stay alive long enough im going start resenting loved ones happy want ever get point,1 +want aliveive never anybody care im done it every friend ive ever left me almost year since ive friend im tired life ive never relationship would love one one girl interested whole life feel like loved her depression took away cried every night months fuck want alone forever kill cut shit short,1 +guys reply quickly people leaving hours time come back u know im see typing notif fml studying test,0 +day random questions ever read book made laugh loud,0 +say excellent end excellent series never quite got exposure deserved asia far best cop show best writing best cast televison ever end great era sorry see go,0 +im honest dont want another fucking yearand made promise bf id gone new years im here suffering making miserable making everything worse off id honestly better dead really dont expect make _,1 +need help cant stop thinking friends lost keep worrying need stop idea need help guys,0 +disappointedso im writing mobile hospital bed please forgive formatting length made attempt little week ago almost worked mother law walked bedroom which never does found unconscious tell me even minutes later would late diagnosed type bipolar year ago clarified ptsd induced bipolar time started taking meds again january admitted psychologist psychiatrist suicidal instantly changed meds gave impression working wasnt little week ago waited kids asleep beds went bathroom took recently filled meds considering take mood stabilizers plus meds migraines something else sleep lot stomach started feel heavy that felt great felt free knew matter time put letters written kids husband parents put sure theyd found laid waited remember falling asleep feeling like finally free fast forward days im waking icu mother asleep chair next bed one sisters boyfriend asleep couch room life me cant understand im still alive work whole body hurts tubes coming arms im pissed worked got explanations realized mother law called ambulance thing feel hatred hate picked walk in leave alone let die know shouldnt cant help it want here perfect plan ruined it im stuck hospital life want in people cant understand much hurts breathe every day completely sucks,1 +fix meits always case grass greener side im goddamn tired im breaking responsibilities turned two weeks ago attend university im junior premedicine im saying brag nothing brag about one care relevant feel way im taking three hard science courses not like psychology intro level level yeah easy grades slipping last midterm level got points average me funny thing is im studying harder ever before version social interaction study groups feel tired alone morning til night classes undergrad research study study study losing sleep losing sleep dorm two roommates one early entrance program am cant support me support me kick room every fucking night not exaggeration need stay study frequent allnighters want go sleep wander floors searching open study room sometimes audacity take nap early evening like pm bitch cant socialize room vibrating alarm goes long morning get lectured by older roommate get little sleep ive taken sleeping fucking study room head table surrounded notes way bother them pathetic come this feel like ask permission everything like fucking dog dorm room too right it feel like theres nowhere go grades sinking research project thats going lead publication sucking time social life occasional going getting drunk try escape act like im someone else feel robbed high school life ive depressed since entered college freshman sophomore years hard make normal college friends fact good deal probably means decent social skills one me one think would want im fucked head stress eating alive way forward fair suffer like this worrying prom boyfriend fair suffer like this humanities roommates coast along classes easy go route another way thought getting better two days ago playing charger cord wrapped around neck squeezed really hard realizing stopped want die want live life yesterday cried quiet little tears dorm room roommates fucked around laptops one asked okay cleaned went class fifteen minutes later laughed talked like everything okay god know much longer tell that please help get this lost,1 +broo yall cute today damn like every selfie post see mf cutiepie like damn u guys killing today,0 +things always go wrong cant thisi always fuck time cant save things boyfriend im selfish shit upsets him feel guilty mom abusive piece shit dad even come near us covid asked could stay said legally cant theres nobody watch baby sister swear god cant keep living here nothing ever gonna change always tell always gets worse always genuinely see purpose continuing life theres never gonna time im gonna feel happy little while im always gonna stuck parts ruin life hate im sorry sfdhjhj,1 +feel might time iti hate pain time since ive hit car hate breathless disease people use me abuse me like mother ran away matter am do im always harmed bullied im alone cant trust anyone probably better im dead one knows cares anyways,1 +mrsa ruined life im considering ending itever since caught illness friend august every single day dominated it either actual symptoms worrying theyre going come next both earlier today told cant get help works private healthcare started accepted onto scheme thats final kick teeth long fucking line them ever since caught illness ive hopes raised new antibiotic referred different doctor every single time shattered im fucking done fighting im done hopes dashed over cant take another heartbreak keep fighting obvious im meant lose battle nothing beaten it im looking best ways ending life are ive asked friend mine works nursing home help hes refused method im capable looks promisingi may pick least worst option ive tried breaking news boyfriend hes devastated want end life says matter give me feel incredibly guilty might him hell better without me keeps living hell probably catch much misery im now hell better without even realise yet work tomorrow weekim sure might go in know know ill end this im sure anything right now im honest thought dying scares life basically nowi future worth looking forward anymore illness robbed it im rambing apologise know do want keep living future thought dying scares too thought picking least worst way thatdoes anyone know anything might help,1 +first timerseeing posts subreddit makes look like really big problem oh well recently foreigner usa ive applied go boarding school united states pursue dreams future engineer silicon valley parents nearly spent k travel expenseadmissions ssat scores came out equivalent sat highschools pretty bad feel like whats point cant go boarding school us living country hellhole everything extremely competitive even succeed engineers disrespected fucking country ive let parents down myself feel like parents done much little results admission going come soon feel like jumping comes,1 +told crush loved her said friend big deal thought would happen way kinda sad,0 +whos lil game go omegle put reddit interests answer every call bananas cool try find fellow teens sub,0 +fucking hate people text press send finishing everything say send like messages fuck rather boys text ok,0 +act killing actually done life mental health got fucked covid testing centers motivation study today took practice act test got think make someone help need get scholarship december need least act option left oct want live life hard wanna die parents probably dissapointed idk need scholarship,0 +cant post pictures subreddita tried multiple times failed suggestions,0 +aaaahhhahahahaha bruhhhhhhhhhh lets gooooooooo got comment said shadowbanned removed deemed spam lmaoooooo also got infraction point one im permabanned lmaoooooooooo,0 +someone tell everything gonna ok want awards want none that wanna know everything going world gonna ok please,0 +einsten said solve problem thinking used create problem ocd hell way outwhat do please talk mei nice family loves much know deserve emotional nice person hurt anybody anythingi graduated college studled lessonsi less severe intrusive thoughts theneverybody dissapointed memy intrusive thoughts unique harm ocd contamination else ingrained character maybe ocd sure doctors said ocdi tried medicines ssris antipsychotics also anafranil thoughts make anxious make frustrated hopeless got erp treatment ut work biti people father mother brother virtual girl friend grandmotheri thought virtual friend understands different like opposite thought sameanyway chance get brain surgery called cingulotomy electrocution therapywhat broken non functional sadi exist live aware hurts lot family sad crieswhat live middle east facilities meds dark hospitals without life existing living mentally not nothing venting theoritcally helped say reality nothing ok,1 +think ill kill definitely chanceshi rredflagwatch theres lot going last year much feel want type post could take day basically ive fighting losing battle small victorys helping get worst parts example passed driving theory test two days ago anyway ill give background help problems around two years ago got first real relationship girl named abbey months relationship got really drunk party got really angry told slow bit tried make one friends party needless say work make her remaining months relationship acted extremely distant unloving showered praise around february last year broke her bad good break time extramly sad able calmly talk come undersanding however mother time told disappointed get literally two days said must raised wrong im fucked anyway time got job mcdonalds hated quit got kicked house got forced move back house normal school issues however mind school much rampant suicidal thoughts generally scared future sad life throughout time abbey would message wed talk couple days stopped never really stopped feelings towards talk without feeling like shit ok heres real problem started talking two months ago ended started casual sex weekly know great idea said begging chose date people would ok would stop this one friends asked couple days ago im ok went date none told lied come round went worked here texts tmrw today worked outhttpimgurcomaho read left bit hope gives general gist im trying say honestly never fell love think thats really something know me do,1 +want visit beachy headhello used farcry deleted account embarrassed pathetic past posts anyways thats important right now fact is depression social anxiety completely defeated me used wake feeling depressed wake crying physical painnumbness i know crying could cause physical pain now also wrote redflag letter sister closest person friend become distant always working ive made way many serious mistakes life im scared everything remotely involves people talking people applying jobs simply outdoors im scared call therapist book appointment im scared use redflag hotline i telephobia never normal person again part really want to many said subreddit whats point working everyday if lucky retire old anything finally die thought leaving house travelling rvagabond im unfit untrained yes skills need survive hobo figured money run eventually might well start hobo now well turns im knowledgeable enough even hobo survival skills last week outside plan im going next flight beachy head or wherever nearest airport is ive always wanted visit uk im going destroy ids phone sit cliffs drink soda enjoy view hours might sit entire day weather nice want see beachy heads sunrise sunset stars night heard patrols there hope theyll come talk me current state sure hell aint got courage motivation approachtalk someone btw friends cant talk family sit hours nobody helps me ill jump actually might jump bit sooner depression clenches start crying pain part destroying id ex passport important itll help chicken out ill stranded uk able come back want come back do ill right back now also jump want anyone know im dead want disappear forever quietly patrol officer stop jumping im going give fake name story beg job food shelter refuses ill jump too think drastic measure ought bring pit despair one way another ill essentially start life completely either uk hell,1 +f join discord server hey active discord server curious anyone else wanted join ill dm link w,0 +cant believe comments show show genius sure follow tried true consumers always want things thrust us again option sit back enjoy something new while style realistic previous scooby doo shows supposed be show titled shaggy scooby doo get clue part title states entire beloved cast renditions would constantly join action nowhere say theyd solving mysteries cant even stand monsters would they im actually glad put long standing plot points work scoobydoo show still running jokes clumsy hijinks quickchange outfits chase scenes standard hallway gag even scooby snacks fact im glad show there love it im even glad got rid rest team concentrated two main characters villainbr br sure ridiculous supposed be sure different supposed be supposed make laugh villain cheer idiotic robotic butler triumph intruding vermin matter size supposed get running roobiroo joke whole thing put together well single thing think wrong it writing acting animation top notch title music awesome my computer plays get clue boots up background music gripping,0 +like feeling like thisso im last year college lost close relative feels like want work course work anymore let alone think hardships college like getting job find place stay again idk guess im really tired forging ahead wish take care things anymore commit redflag want siblings little cousins say wish couldve known like guess question would be get motivation go get need get done done thank input greatly appreciated,1 +im tired tired timeevery month post something here delete forget pain come back going past five years keep telling get better someday ill one normal girls ill happy feel void ive already died many times ive already walked path one many times wanna die,1 +seen many wong karwais movies happy together fallen angels ashes time knew expect coming theatre cinematography would lush use space perspective would varied acting would superb least one characters would consumed ineffable loneliness are all precisely techniques make wong karwais art is expecting degree drawn film reviewers dismissed unfinished compelled characters seemed consumed ennuibr br i find interesting people utterly unmoved film vividly displays emotions settings many us take granted work ardently forget overwhelming sense grief stemming betrayed guilt aroused thought becoming better betrayer mundane yet profoundly intimate moments relationships need express oneself verbally utterly superfluous wong karwai attempts portray film achieves wellbr br too many americans consumed need every moment film filled stock dialogue witty banter disaffected sarcasm overwrought confessions seem pinnacle best american film offer wong karwai sees things differently instead character needing keep audience apprised every feeling perception belief wongs characters make feelings understandings known clearly facial gestures body positioning and yes silencebr br if viewers merely contemplate film standpoint character development action may disappointed offer willing let try intuit characters feeling may feel quite differently wong offer them,0 +seriously hand pistol would it would rather put bullet brain go grave want shoot head,1 +wondering pedos like usual lol wonder pedophiles ever end feeling bad year old pedo got bit im wondering specifically theyre quite young thats wonder theyll ever feel bad it dont know older ones s ig feel bad theyre quite old horny teens ever know wrong ever know much hurt people,0 +fortnite audio issues im menu loading screen game sounds normal soon spawn waiting area sound completely disappears happen anyone else ijoy iso stereo bluetooth headset matters,0 +much cant drive impacted life way feels like personal prison therapy seem work asking overcome situation it advice,1 +cha cha real smooth im gonna steal lego collection im gonna breakdance front you,0 + hours probably kill myselffck life heard best friend fcking weeks ive lied manipulated ive told kill many times im going fcking fcking hours get response redflag hotline,1 +destroying every last photo depicts itsorry event anyone wanted save bullshit memories youre late would also make disappear,1 +nothing changedi residential prtf like long term placement hospital three four months taken shady shit going especially mistreatment patients reason severe depressionanxiety ptsd mention suicidal tendencies ive home days shit started matter always deemed wrong stepmom keeps throwing face keep alleged stuff im theyll practically kick turn july midst im still dealing heavy depression issues mentioned begun grow worse im afraid of feels like im house three people totally every move prove point exact moment talking shit room bringing much bum think think im still going steal alcohol although past ive put alcoholism way beyond me always throwing face changed since prtf wasnt getting right treatment anyway legit therapy all im wits end sometimes feel like ending good im much disappointment failure burden things much im constant turmoil cant even graduate year time spent hospital always throw face already bad enough feel like freak stupid peers able graduate im able to always pit lil brother always plays nice front talks shit behind back talking past drug alcohol abuse although wrong using things cope im done idk feel like killing,1 +anyone wanna chat play number game talk u want dm ,0 +watch movies living picking ones good enough distribute tossing aside make cut im saying know anyone else based this im leading came watch the gospel lou anyways many bad movies land desk actually sit them actually watch everything usually look tv occasionally im working scan production value performance well story presented something catches eye ill take time watch it lou drew first minutes closed laptop wheeled chair tv could completely tune in needless say enthralled throughout whole movie story told well characters either endearing repulsive depending course actor directors intention character well played times caught occasional amateur mistakes camera work editing emotional nature story make faults easy dismiss ive heard peoples comments say times film brought tears eyes time extreme elation laughing one minute crying next incredibly touched movie sadly unable acquire saying goes week late dollar short thats way goes sometimes least pleasure seeing one cant wait see kind response gets good luck great fortune bret carr if read this without doubt talent watch for,0 +goodnight everyone this isnt farewell way,1 +urgentplease tell go away see psychiatrisdoctor anything like that really cant take it keep thoughts mind cant control cantdeal more much thoughts come anytime increasing even typign this theyre much know anymore start personilites mix thoughts mock control actions much yes mean control like actual body want see pain want die like fun them know like others want see hurt kill yourself sense guess bring redflag thoughts let buts much please say doctor anything asked subreddits got answers said that tried telling others look weridly one way control found repeatldly hitting head thats obviously good solution ease things,1 +bois got free nudes free nude pass fuck yeah,0 +isnt guys wearing skirts already normalized like one gonna rip skirt wore one sure theyd make fun getting made fun wearing something different is normal people would make fun wearing wrong colored khakis youre insecure wearing skirt cant take criticism dont wear skirt even complain normalized,0 +humans parasites earth ok couple die whatever theres many people,0 +funny conversation mum wanted go shooting gun bowcrossbow like start going learn it dad reacted normally said ye not already shot gun once like yay cool told mum mum umm no girls supposed use guns go learn shoot bow me mum know shoot gun mum yes see girls use guns mum not knowing say first time outsmarted her umm okay guess covid ill go shooting,0 +point enough enoughi terminally lonelyhttpsoldredditcomrforeveralone statistically speaking half lifetime spent assume healthy and not every moment feels like drowning like nightmare possible wake up terminally ill people get help all timehttpsenwikipediaorgwikipalliative_sedation need someone tell gt correct never experience human contact will always deficienthttpsenwikipediaorgwikimaslows_hierarchy_of_needs human being truly part society way httpswwwcdcgovnchsdatanhsrnhsrpdf rest us are get helphttpsenwikipediaorgwikieuthanasia really cant people accept diseases painful live with delighted suffering cure deal also solution involves dying old age virgin solution unless happen sadist furthermore realistically one going giving dating advice anything like that decrease relative fitnesshttpsenwikipediaorgwikisurvival_of_the_fittest anyway historical data speak themselves nearly days contact potential mate expect day end way,1 +expect documentaries objective creatures let give little lesson american filmmakingbr br documentaries rely heavily casting pick choose characters think enhance drama entertainment value filmbr br after shot ton footage splice together make film ups downs turning points climaxes etc trouble existing footage either shoot makes sense find stock footage clever narrationbr br the allegation filmmakers used footage locales part movie favelas next beautiful beaches detract value film dramatic piece particular image one resonates enough justify notquitetruthful inclusion rate use footage can happen police violence footage particular neighborhood mean include talk maybe put cartoon animation audience duped um nobr br as hopeful ending not yes americans made it yes americans optimistic bastards end note set foreign country foreign films large end note let foreigners portray dismal outlook lifebr br let us americans think may happy ending looming future may one,0 +whats new car girl okay ik im dumbass saw post or maybe days back subreddit blonde girl brown hoodie holding key says got first car today came back reddit home page filled memes someone pls explain,0 +dont know anywhere else say bro really forgot pears existed like year,0 +im ending itive taken xanex prozac dri king some much itll in thinking going drive mountains,1 +people keep saying itll get better better isnt happening amp want die everydayidk itll get better even means tbh like sure ill go therapy still want kms therapist sucks constant state,1 +guys really know serious theres girl idk look like me im really falling talk snap thing is ive delivered like hours last active minutes ago rare occurrence keep trying give her,0 +finally figured reason look bad photos face,0 +gn everyone hopefully tmrw isnt shitty ily guys,0 +anyone wanna talk im super bored rn dont anything do feel free dm,0 +enjoyed much movie wooden camera think little bit influenced brazilian movie city god maybe parallelism two tracks possible follow crime art social neighborhood reality br br i think films made madiba really beautiful think unreal shoot good films theres lot artists type education really genius br br i enjoyed much soundtrack adjusted picturesbr br see movieits good show life social neighborhood,0 +comedy based national stereotypes doubt leave away pretending know care communism real russians brits are accept hurt conventions fun film nicole kidman best sexy moving funny ben chaplin succeeds avoid completely outshadowed nicole rest cast good work well final moving logical movie logics course worth watching accept rules game,0 +want end pain cannot get happy anymore want lay die nobody loves cares alone fighting battle far long time end it given long ago ill never happy guys know expect guys care wanted put final goodbye people know ill finally free end people much happier gone cannot seem find happiness anymore,1 +police officer struggling suicidal thoughts cannot openly talk aboutthis throwaway intend reading responses think mostly want type get things chest tldr talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call years old live work southern california deputy last years spring chicken wife years struggling infertility years now lots surgery medication end sight stress scheduled sex lives absolutely taken toll us were still much love same july fairly routine call involving child abuse kind pushed edge call mental breakdown work since then take mg day buspar my wife says help me sure xanax needed prescribed i originally tookalprazam rare side effect stop asked see psychiatrist next avail appointment midjanuary digress line work talk redflag be well career redflag no pun intended keep thoughts absolutely bottled inside act like therapists asks it therapist provided work specializes law enforcement issues nice times think killing myself hourly usually wake night middle panic attack cannot get away pain almost physical pain specific plans would kill myself works think entire process detail often drink usually come close actually really fear matter time happens ironic type out clearly reservations killing right state mind wrong state mind sounds like realistic idea physically exhausted genuinely want pain end seeing answers make happen want talk someone without putting job line being put hold ca means cannot carry gun therefore yeah heartbroken frustrated know anymore every day seems like groundhog day desperately want wife leave deserves better would make lot easier end life hated me completely gotten rid social media blocked parents life really good reason downward spiral last months been talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call really think end killing within next months ironically want talk anyone might able stop me backwards ampxb typing exhausting might go bed night thank listening,1 +lets honestthe world going shit people angry time argue focus negatives ruin everything everyone etc etc know im kind hypocrite saying people focus negatives that really fucking hard ignore them seriously matter positive try be theres always something someone shut down im sick it dude im im tired fucking world talk therapist,1 +guys feel going dates without knowing wish start relationship question pretty selfexplanatory im super sure whether like girl ive scared get relationship last one damaged years back therapist suggested ask go date without sure knowing want relationship wondering fellow teens feel idea im honestly sure people stand thanks advance ill answer questions asap,0 +im tired last night got fevermy arms feel sore eyes look dead knee numb nose blocked headacheit hurts much cough voice feels raspy,0 +day posting lines bee movie every day get so theres bee car something im driving hi bee hes back here,0 +want die dont want leave friendokay long story short wanna kill myself mean thats sub exists right incase anyone wants know im nineteen ive pretty much felt way since thirteen fourteen ive browsing sub finally thought would post moved university september found amazing friends truly greatful for honestly reason im somewhat know issues life share good people relate also dont wanna make worse mentally talking shit time honestly im rambling reason im still alive honestly feel like friend would kill feel like would did,1 +apparently nobody relates wish never came out stupid redacted name that im impulsive could stayed happy secret know everything me apparently people dont think valid complain thats lgbtq community you say theyre inclusive arent full communist idiots bi girls hating men cant even slightly right leaning make us look like idiots im snowflake dont care youre homophobic keep dont stop rights literally dont care disagree gay marriage maybe youre parents something idk lgbtq community made think offended everything dont theres genocide going on theres gay people getting killed muslim countries care celebrity doesnt like gays know lgbtq community fine sometimes idiots get nerves maybe privileged coming doesnt mean cant upset came out,0 +anyone else feel like nobody takes seriouslyive constantly suicidal past two months feels like nobody seems take seriously makes wonder would surprised kill myself,1 +know one asked wanna flex that getting go kart hahahhahaha loser go kart ya loser joke filler filler filler filler,0 +everybody commited redflagwhat would happen everybody commited redflag morbid question mine want hear different thoughts this,1 +free bubble wrap enjoy gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt 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things money friends work home things stable home years moving time nothing left pre years old financial future next years least due really unluckystupid seems every single financial obligation make goes tits up end debt nothing show it weather non fault car crash leaving k debt even though insured overdraft still high drug abuse years ago feel burden best friends live offered them im dealing transitioning years still tough fighting tooth nail basic treatment possible sustain place want quality life im single cant earn good enough income part family raised dead part different people cant connect with genuinely want die every pain ache ive felt ive hoped cancer incurable thing excuse die cant speak anyone person it feel like cant want attention ice spoken feelings recent past imagine talking people know take it week occasionally feel happy whole feel sick waste space go away ,1 +reading reddit post think im finally ready dietoday read thishttpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsqnredditors_who_have_been_clinically_dead_what_did thread comments like die think ready take life sounds unbelievably peaceful finally torment over im going kill now thanks mom dad terrible parents year old son thank everyone bullied made feel numb goodbye ,1 +broke many friends lately people tired me summer vacation home alone time meet students lose easilyno job nothing cannot find anything good doi going lose mind genuinely want end thisif could would freeze come back years later cannot exactly best method escape reality suicide ending all all writing supposed celebrate todayi want forget problems stop getting complaints every small thing doi emotional person point somebody calls baby could literally ruin whole dayhelpmeplease still depressed long live,1 +came realize later denied it basically calling celebrity crush nothing love musician totally love heres thing love idea created interviews blog posts music itself deeper crush know that came whispers girlfriend stopped whining single twitter seemed happier,1 +two quarter hours sometimes slow moving thoughtful film interrupted vast sword battles battle darkness light signified constant motif blazing sun superbly demonstrated three way fight demons bandits soldiers forest eclipsebr br be prepared following stunning sword fight lightning filled skies end picture scratching head puzzlement,0 +friend spent like minutes watching guys put worms inside penises yes looks disgusting sounds like yes people actually enjoy it yes fucking weird fuck,0 +whats cheapest way get gun walmart credit card like im gonna pay loli dont want get anyone know trouble using theres,1 +paper life good acknowledge lost willpower try anymore really feel like purpose life smoke weed time feel something go weird cycles get super depressed feel back normal ill get super depressed bc noticed pattern really feel like getting depression fuck would want crash burn inevitably start feeling depressed give fuck anymore,1 +need helpim sorry dont know im asking im hurting want numb,1 +hey fellow bi guys ive come conclusion bi great perk time curse beacause boners hard get rid of thing ever stuck abandoned island sort halfway attractive human still able fuck himher regardless gender,0 +im tiredi keep getting spontaneous flashbacks ex sit certain places room feel pressure certain parts body emotionally abusive me tried make things want sexually looking back relationship feel stupid weak were like billion red flags would told sucked id listened them blinded idea real gay real gay relationship sort ignored that specific idea me well come across quite feminine sometimes tried leverage get bottom him something want do hed often spank me try gag fingers call bitch sex without explicit consent chance talk sober manner beforehand wanted act like girl times called she made jokes gamer girl even though told that feel like body mine anymore decided wanted friends several points relationship would still flirt make explicit comments body harassed even relationship ended calling repeatedly trying reach platforms ive blocked on im genuinely terrified him knows work meet friends nothing hes done technically illegal even im scared fucker wrongly accuses someone rape report anything ive nightmares showing house trying get room quarantine lifted theres really escape that ex latest guy ive let comically abusive me friends parents teachers coworkers ive let almost everyone know trample me thought getting better moved new city work managed find group friends know happened wrong trying help get help needed become better person ex kind trampled that tried get best friends made meet often little time anything else told things friends made distrust on im trying repair damage now difficult sort shown matter go therell always someone trying hurt take advantage me im wondering im issue im broken draw people hurting me means directly kill myself ive debating withholding food get severely ill now ive argument roommate kind fault took way far ive getting panic attacks leave room im worried ill get confrontation today ate little trouble standing up actually managed get sandwich made feel ill better think itll kill me itll hurt lot least tide quarantine lifted figure solid method think want die really im trying apply doctorate become researcher ive got mentor whos willing help that want doctorate want get boyfriend cares want go therapy get head screwed straight im sure survive long enough that,1 +pc died last night fffffff f f ffffffff f f f,0 +night bachelor party paul coleman jason lee meets gorgeous dancer becky julia stiles bar drink lot together next morning wakes bed future motherinlaw calls informs fiance karen selma blair might arriving apartment desperately asks becky leave place hurry sooner finds crabs later preparation wedding dinner party realizes becky cousin karen beginning funny comedy hilarious situations first attraction movie certainly central trio actresses actor julia stiles selma blair excellent actresses extremely gorgeous jason lee amazingly funny good performances laughed lot along story scenes really hilarious example paul finds becky bed finds paints imagination many situations drugstore trying buy get explanations crab medicine scenes neighbor minister karen calls department store police finds suspect assaulting paul could number many scenes better reader rent buy movie lots fun vote sevenbr br title brazillouco por elas crazy them,0 +deliverance fascinating haunting sometimes even disturbing tale james dickey turned brilliant movie john boorman four businessmen driven manhood machobehavior whore spending canoeing weekend high mountains there theyre faced every darkest side man every worst form human miserypoverty buggery even physical harassment four men intended travel river adventure excitement trip soon changes odyssey violent lurking mountainland completely estranged forms civilisation elements actually make deliverance one nightmarish films ive ever seen everything happens men pray never find similar situation pure talking cinema deliverance important movie well john boormans best closely followed zardoz excalibur still influential film contains several memorable scenes already featured numberless movies think terrific duelling banjos musical score and course unforgettable homosexual squeal like pig rape scene actors deliver haha perfect acting performances especially jon voight must see motion picture,0 +dont know anymoreim lost ive turned here dont know im asking for help support dont know anymore im much coward kill myself im also numb lost anything else cant get anything fucking hate it turned senior highschool alright before going top seats highschool president honor society got raped another student highschool school pretty much ignored life gone pretty downhill there mother immigration issues almost got deported already depression self harmed since young abusive father issues dont know im saying know shouldnt need validate sadness dont understand havent able get better anymore mother always acts like act get going school dont understand would purposely fuck life like this dont want like this redflag attempt september since then feel like things gotten worse dont know anymore want end know things need do like schoolwork laundry life general fucking life me cant get anything fucking hate myself dont know anymore want die wont amount anything anymore point dont really friends theyre sick tired depressed missing school dont really know im asking for maybe somewhere rant feel like im prolonging inevitable let die already edit ive missing much school partly flu partly depression im scared wont even able pass classes point im still ap classes even though know theyve adding onto anxiety know care trying fix missinf work shit graduate feel empty numb im lost dont know anymore feel like dying im much coward yet everyday im messing more,1 +toxic feminism real today discord chat youtubers channel girl said likes boobies replied you look naked mirror guess happens next get banned like cant take joke making one guy said thing would booed perv perfectly fine girl say thing,0 +googled time time nothing really hits done things called friends therapist written feelings whole shit anyone anything specificuniqueout ordinary helps it also welcoming wrong answers haha unconventional things instead killing myself,1 +im super duper alone basically havent hugged girl year fucking valentine got one broke gf havent even crush like cant find new people connect with dont even know im typing sorry bad england native speak,0 +suicidal thoughts life assume like many people never really talked anybody it gave hints years brushed long time thought normal never actually attempted anything planned lot started making draft suicide letters promised would actually anything finished them always broke wrote never got finished happened middle school high school last term college get bachelors gotten lot better years feel slipping last year so spent last couple days disassociating bed sure everyone thinks flake guess am trying make sure slip back use be like time deal this last freaking term feel like getting closer closer edge meltdown know want die feel lost right death sounds heartbreakingly sweet relapsing,1 +one single girl entire universe interested romantically however why why ask why,0 +know whats weird naked like fr alone chillin soon theres possibility someone might see you feels like criminal,0 +got first job ive applied almost stores town got response back inperson interview went great got email saying ive hired ampxb god im happy,0 +mfs like bitches bitch youre bitches hahaha,0 +people always false stereotype buff people assholes judge fat really time come across buff guy gym field etc theyre always extremely nice me also happen people,0 +oh im drunk dick hard normal ever find hard keep boner cause do idk why,0 +utadddyy appreciation post u pog ,0 +traumai school weeks cant ever bring feel way times tried end crying front people trying to zone entire lecture learn nothing im able finish school hold job months save money depression trauma still makes suffer everyday ive therapy meds since nothing changes traumatic shit things seem get worse matter hard try person kind makes feel like staying alive ex gfmy friend completely cant feel anything anyone else family abusive toxic hate im pain everyday years years often find daydreaming restarting life able rewind back time past hurts anything wanted get chest,1 +question moving forwardnot sure right place rdepression side bar says redflag stuff go here anyone point longer want die due situation know to like terminal illness still situation people supposed protect in case police amp uk health care services forcing situation option end life one go here move forward,1 +really sad many peoples shoes worth much money solve problems mine problems maybe much yours shoes nikes other cost above like people suffer huge economy cant economy fair equal money solve problems,0 +scratch prevent breaking downwhenever mother yells me get suicidal things shes saying anxiety attack maybe dont really know is want go away cry scream cant scratch arm pain distracts actually breathe normally dont know thing except scratching distract me,1 +probably tonights night mim tired everything tired living synonym pain tired useless ive since conception tired abused like everyone me tired work driving force society im tired dont want anything im failing shit homeworks bitch essentially boycotted it got barely friends ones could definitely better strongest female bonds ive made teachers fun way mean teachers ive wanting die now ive gotten infection hope thing ever hurt me trying anything important results failure hope banging head brick wall know better longer it thing thats holding back lack gun remember looking ndads closet one remember showed years prior couldnt find it put off cant handle shit anymore know vodka know pills could do suppose ill fake sick again live ill wake know tried assuming dont leave trail tears pills vodka dont know thing holding back point chance failure discovery want gone so bad please someone help hellhole,1 +keep writing parting notes people ive ever loved throw away could grow balls mail finish off bit background years old female university boyfriend love much hes kind sometimes though feel like hes settling me feel like knows could much better cant tell signals im picking him thinking things head ive suicidal thoughts years now since think dont know started know ive long dont think im depressed person people know might describe goofy otherwise happy girl dont think anyone would ever guess keep suicidal thoughts honestly thats reason havent offed yet cant imagine killing leaving parents knowing why boyfriend close friends have dont want leave unsettled again maybe theres way without leaving way feel like killing without talking would selfish me feel like cant talk anyone without damaging relationships still have dont even good reason wanting kill myself ive thought reasons would long time recognize none justifiable still doesnt remove want need it happens lot get stressed out like make mistakes school work even minor mistakes like exam forgetting step work at university lab make feel like it world would better place like cant even simple things happens think weight know im horribly obese still significantly overweight every attempt lose pounds fails either diet exercise fails contributes intense feelings failure thinking myself face belly arms try hide long sleeves even summer feel repulsive think everyone else grossed way oddly im grossed fat people started diet tried exercising boyfriend hes supportive attempts starting feel like good everything making things worse cant even articulate properly even came back home goddamned dog didnt want come me stupid reason could keep thinking was well even puppy prefers someone else stupid reason stupid stupid reason theyre always stupid reasons noticed time seem reasonable theyre not good enough reason sometimes ill sitting bus staring window content be wham it kill yourself swift enough wouldnt even feel anything times dont need reason it long it world would better place wouldnt deal waking every morning facing day every day find looking tall buildings sometimes dream would like get top fall slowly backwards edge always dream leaving note parents telling love much none fault imagine crying tell stop brat deserve hurt stupid thoughts feel like coward thinking escape reality finishing off sometimes weak seems like good enough reason it hate fact want kill myself even without knowing times why dont even know want escape shitty future promise destined breakup eventual death dog parents im sorry long dont anyone talk to thought id able find someone listen here,1 +mental health deteriorating badlyi getting sicker sicker hard function anymore day day life hard whilst dealing severe mental health issues cant live way want see future even worse today last appointment doctor try best slit wrists,1 +really long post suicidal really lonely indifferent sure dohi im really sure id like say really suck explaining accurately ill try paint good enough picture hopefully someone write something makes something click me ok problem im interested anything nothing myself im year old female guess im pretty introverted id love find close friends even one would enough go partying get drunk go wild when put quatation marks mean although like idea rowdy silly like that like act itself get attention people people seem do always feel like everyone surrounded people absolutely alone want friends even one would occasionally partners with know makes sense im intelligent knowledgeable much mainly attribute interested absolutely anything im smart enough smart kids smart dumb ones smart mean pick things really quickly really hope seem like im full myself think low self esteem im definitely sort depressed im finishing university dec year friends kept touch floor mates first year despise all yet keep touch without id actually completely alone ive felt way alone friends really like connect with life really aware grade cry time times week im good times day bad week really know im crying feels like overwhelming amount pressure physical pressure mind like world closing in feel anxious anything like panic attack feels like give let go moments ill permanently cross line serious depression want stress rarely feel anxious nervous anything like that loving parents take care financially live hours away wish more love death began dreaming would died absolutely alone world around years old would never ever ever anything make happen would feel horrible anything ever happened them day dreams also occurred less less grew older since technically longer linked them sorry using many quotation marks horrible vocabulary cant think right word express im trying say dad never home younger impact negatively realize real relationship ive ever mother since ive never really friends never close friends i love death but loved sister twin fraternal sister never really liked mom never paid attention around always went way verbally abuse school untill years ago went different colleges were close now always believed would grow sort genious really smart younger im attractive really self image issues spent childhood mediator mom sister mom dad dad sister mom issues never bitter volunteered help honestly felt could help family wish could go back let fuck lost form socializing seriously fucking depressed theyre still withering shitty lives eugh sorry sudden change narrative much want look forward fix neutrality im living in cant help get bursts rage towards younger self much belief mother familys sanity know else say utterly indifferent everything everyone yet absolutely overwhelmed loneliness want people or person don know who want do im interested in etc want hobby ive tried drawing get bored tried going class lose interest pick gist course really quickly lazy actually readings everyone like this entire life people told im smart im positive everyone like this tldr im interested anything tried find things seriously care anything spend day sleeping wasting time internet sometimes exercising rarely reading watching stupid shit internet bare minimum pass courses thats it ive rambled long enough know people answer if do fine one does theres really much say would likely say things like take one step time you get this life worth living come well meaning place ive tried getting routine work way works getting shitty mind set like wake dream like state im surrounded shallow mentally disturbed people im sorry sound full like im better people really think am know reason always go back state nothingness try live real world hate it hate everyone hate indifference people neuroses im nervous time im self conscious time im worried people talking talk people behind back try lie cheat treat people horribly get back people say would actually listen not turn talk im sensitive understand sarcasm im actually sarcastic im uptight prudish mentioned above ever ended finding people actually like if ever figure like want party get drunk make mistakes things regret stupid shit know really long even though checking religiously next see ifwhat anyone posts understand one says anything helps knowing others like me really help cant trust ever find anyone get along im years old yet meet anyone anyway like me im sorry represent properly feel like sound like huge bitch really hope im not loneliness eating inside really cant take anymore week really bad one thought would post instead wait mood go away again again thanks anyone read way,1 +im doneive decided im ending it want live anymore im tired picked school home much better im sick feeling like this,1 +need stop wanting die itmy parents divorced last week father went big activity whole week relaying getting driving license get there didnt get it mother offered transport paid gas end week pay gave total gas price higher like argued didnt give more pay pension little sister still minor since changed job salary months isnt legally obliged pay months pension mother didnt know needed money its alot father got car began crying throwing big tantrum hard watch mother says cleaned room away which never happen mind found stuff shouldnt have broke alot stuff cant even use computer anymore also alot thing went missing says dont know talking about things like headphones keyboard made angry point matter anymore wont able buy food month didnt get money cant use computer try think killing time cant listen music feel better parents going fight much living mother going hell while tomorrow start college think wont attend classes sabotage reason kill apparently scared dying even wish so soo much,1 +lie muchi told boyfriend straight even though bi came long time ago make happy made plans go sleep told it said going go look friends butts ive struggling depression anxiety made worse want make happy told hours later lied wanted make happy got upset confused hurtful things said towards me know shouldnt since means world tore down proceeded harm this told felt guilty it told lie much leave alone love fucking much heart breaks every time stuff like this want end life im tired things going life,1 +im thinking dressing baby order breastfeed woman never figure out,0 +confession slight reddit crush now know person yeah seem neat and cute,0 +reddit im miserablei know do ive waited long years get better problems count fault somewhat got hole know do hate waking every day imagine silly sounds problem accepting way look look really young im male could pull problem single doubt weightheight probably something well lb somewhat baby face destroyed self esteem social anxiety gotten better got older men supposed strongtallmature looking fall short every category think of gpa destroyed think gpa freshman year flunked classes stopped going embarrassed young lookedsocial anxiety dropped out silly know felt reallllllly place years also chronic disease makes gaining weight bit harder keeps skinny also brings pain days hard cope with diet somewhat limited dunno every day thing work enough get online work play video games go sleep rinserepeat every day nothing changing way yearsas kid always thought would get better eventually would ageget everythingbut nothing changed sadder im technically adult also constant thoughts redflag past screw ups past embarrassments constant reminder much ive failed cant make stop imagine silly sounds looking young bothering me look young people treat different remind every time meet someone new reason socially acceptable see people age finished college starting career feel behind sociallyacademicallyin every way think could actually commit redflag thoughat least im desperate yetbut know do thanks reading kinda long somewhat nice get out,1 +make fun someones music taste actual scum saying like haha song bad shit like fine ig people repeatedly take piss peoples music taste shitty like like matter you like girl used friends would time always feel embarrassed saying music like point literally took songs playlist someones music isnt cup tea say let people like like unless morrissey,0 +know whats wrong meso heres background started feeling suicidal fifth grade huge amount stress school it kind combination academic social issues told parents multiple occasions wanted kill myself make mad so decided bottle feelings beginning sixth grade diagnosed aspergers basically parents believe actually it throughout middle school got stressed out crying every night anymore become numb still thought redflag before never really thought would actually never selfharmed luckily still havent im end freshman year high school year lot better middle school ive mostly alright is now seemingly blue ive hit wave depression feel like im drowning lately ive lot anxiety future im scared unknown keep wanting change im willing take action dad thinks hate even though really dont im tired staying night homework thoughts redflag getting lot worse point im actually trying figure kill myself ive almost made goal die graduate high school depending happens within next years day went trip san francisco literally thing could think started see golden gate bridge much wanted jump it know need help im scared happen tell anyone im feeling hate getting surprised negative reactions people want cause anyone else worry me know do,1 +even get virus im gonna survive pandemic anywaythanks making cure worse disease entire world seriously considered redflag since teenager quarantine happened im giving world three weeks get shit together two support friend whos country much worse claim quarantine three weeks watch come excuse extend it everything ever loved cared gone pandemic every single coping mechanism ive ever had everything thats ever made happy ever made realize hey world bad fact actually really good time everything thats ever kept alive might well dead ive got reason stay alive except friendwho may tell weeks cant justify alive world everything gone go somehow thats harder thought dying ive reached point im willing take chances afterlife covid exist hike trails go carnivals again,1 +got wisdom teeth removed know going torture hell,0 +older tried lot still failed go onso im late s male going motions settling affairs ive already decided method purchased need tested everything date shortly approaching tried number things deal feelings years hundreds hours volunteer work medication therapy a long time ago got sober exercisingeating healthy relationships etc nothing worked dont really want die feel limping along long im tired want sleep miss home place safety comfort known long time felt way throughout life brought head year relationship my fault laid work also kind fault really nothing keep here social network were older shit deal with messaged friend last night asking it heard back tried contact redflag helpline made feel worse guess im looking for well anything guess im looking others thing it feel tried decades failed failed everything highly unlikely going getting better point death feels way out way feel broken alone anymore tried much go there,1 +want give upim teetering edge ive never posted something like someone side feel like sinking quicksand sure me know even making sense care much anything right now,1 +least painful redflag method need want suffering come it least painful method use thanks advance,0 +someone message im bored wanna talk anyone anything play numbers game youd like to dm pls,0 +someone told sneeze cute hate,0 +aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck god put cute ass people god forsaken world turn around make fucking awkward talk,0 +successfully made rick roll unfunny congrats actually revived yall murdered using constantly,0 +random memories flashing head dayjust random memories life always happens im lowest wonder people remember kill myself,1 +yall access porn websites ive tried open tells older enter yall enter know many yall watch porn talk here im wondering access websites,0 +eventually happen year old pretty decent bulge seen pants get adult go away make go away,0 +excellent accurate film mcgovern takes great pains research document writing pays off afraid tell truth even though might draw unfavourable reviews comments like stories clean sweet glossybr br once again mcgovern brings christopher eccleston though high profile role played hillsborough found movie accurate well acted well presented hillsborough applaud mcgovern poignant unapologetic writing well done hat writer actors production crew great film,0 +post nut clarity like fuck doing every single time get horny lose sense morality bare go public act like normal lawabiding citizen ive committed foul act though im writing fueled post nut clarity feel nothing guilt disgust myself community atrocious act ive done man bad im gonna back normal tomorrow see everyone next time,0 +feeling scared down hopelesstomorrow court felony possesion controlled substance heroin used self medicate with dont really prior criminal record times ive jail hours scared much feel trapped type person typically would fit people jail im worried whats going happen long im going jail cannot afford lawyer wont send prison right prison sentence year jail less would honestly rather dead affects much long time dont think could live see through,1 +powers boothe turns stellar performance s cult figure jim jones peoples temple jones physical likeness jones uncanny story acted chillingly movie keeps riveted must see anyone check out,0 +story friend told me friends hanging talking topic depression self harm comes time like talking memes something guy joke rolls girls sleeve says i like ya cut g slaps it except unbeknownst girl actually multiple cuts arm dude started frantically apologizing checked fine like damn imagine getting situation mean tbh like people joke mental health depression related stuff especially personal me despite that even gotta admit kinda funny far know nobody got actually hurt,0 +hey girl pick line trend dead already lmao,0 +hate posting personal stuff cannot talk anyone anonymousi know people say care me doubt that know me tell someone knows would feel like to everyone leaves know fault become attached become obsessive feel last friends leaving want new friends want someone tell care want that want alright want stop hurtingi know could worse looking attention someone come savior need get there know someone knows okay tired things that bad life feel comfortable complaining tired quiet lying doing want stop first therapy appointment lied lot told want think it truth is do would give anything guilt free death one one would blame others happened struggle keep fighting everyday every night lay bed trying keep away medicine cabinet tired trying see point anymore things really hard,1 +need help translating japanese phrase friend sent okay sent this said meant like great person something wanna make sure used right grammer lol still new,0 +imagine hampered bureaucracy one man spends years life mental breakdown trying solve mass murder case virtually himself murder technique clear government unwilling admit truth lets monster destroy dozens lives think job stressful merely remember true story behind wonder flick devotion duty main character masterfully portrayed rea comic and almost tragic times relationship rea sutherland character made one favorite movies last years catching one worst mass murderers history edge seat nearly well advertised talked silence lambs plot suspenseful rent buy movie today,0 +day made decision get rid means ending life had finally talked someone feeling do live eventually kick proverbial bucket due old age continue cycle suffering brief moments peace happiness living corpse people say it gets better even said couple times really skeptical it wish knew do best decision ever made,1 +realised reason livei realised real friends none family cares me im constantly bullied school one truly cares world would better without me really reason live,1 +number game truth dare im bored wanna talk anyone wanna number game truth dare dms anyone wants talk thats fine lol,0 +ive told every year past im going kill birthdayi never followed still small amount hope always feel like this never stopped trying better myself unfortunately birthdays less month im drained hope ive defeated know time place happening at spent days writing letter family finished morning id like share letter go think ill post birthday,1 +feel someone age m everyone part invited toi never life felt sheer level sexual frustration causing incredibly down recently got loveless sexless relationship never felt wanted needed thought id feel better not dating apps working got friends go bars meet people horrible rut earth people conquer this sexual loneliness,1 +ever feel sudden confidence burst feel like narcissisticbecause im right idk act like bro im fucking hot could doubt single minute im built like s model natural fox eyes like long eyelashes like need capitalize rn damn this probably wear hours needed take system delete im back normal,0 +anyone actually care stretch marks almost friends super insecure idk guys even care lmao,0 +spanish director luis buuel career spanned almost years arguably best films made exile mexico late forties early s deal cheap budgets work industry interested mainly churning commercial movies unsophisticated audiences yet somehow managed make interesting thought provoking movies stand test time movie based novel spanish author benito perez galdos adaptation quite faithful even setting early th century mexico instead early th century spain protagonist nazarin priest tries live life faithful one prescribed christ question many would ask whether endeavor would possible without incurring hostility incomprehension mockery fellow human beings happens suffers lot indignities yet remains stubborn until controversial final shot objective think buuel wanted show nazarin somewhat ridiculous figure perhaps inadvertently stubbornness at least viewer comes admirable case great film,0 +cant go back school end soon possiblei truly think strong enough deal anxiety suicidal ideation month obvious unintelligent high school may well give dreams university learning career paths im worthless idiot cannot deal stress again need kill january scared dont know how,1 +fellas im super duper hungry right now good idea eat gfs ass sustainance asking advice man filler filler filler filler,0 +want girl hug cuddle idk feel like need girlfriend ever,0 +give ultimate trick making friends irl cant simple going outside asking stangers friends anything,0 +real suppleroot hours up week gotten good start,0 +could hera girl school near recently killed herself age hurts never knew her stories tell things common suicidal thoughts act out head went different outcomes etc want die know im going it however exactly trust cant even productive even want to knowing another girl went saddens me want anyone else feel way wish life nicer wish must shit world death saw scenario outcomes play out saw everyone grieve hurt including myself wish option would fix lives easily want girl did hate took someone elses death realise this ive posted many times even nice advice help im sorry,1 +supposed doright feel alone one worst days life yesterday every attempt regular conversation ex assume im trying persuade get back im honestly trying nice theyre going end walking away me move home month home alone first time im mental state live alone cant go back now miss father deceased child teenage years couldnt stand man ruined relationship wanna be dont know,1 +dont want alive anymorewinter break over horrible stayed bed till days nothing awake school starting tomorrow ill study again homework every day spend hours every day except saturday sunday stuck place filled annoying inconsiderate kids dont want go back dont really want anything anymore think im going kill tonight donr know,1 +need somebody talk unfortunately sucks another account believe honest letting people know really youre going throughso looking support right now shrugging shoulders hope everybodys ok there dont want die im frazzled everything life ,1 +im currently first kiss gf lost vcard normal ppl around less least one things yet could possibly lonely rest life,0 +god world shittheres much corruption much greed year goes feel comfortable idea ending all want stay informed honestly killing me guilt stepping back kills more thought knowing ill never amount anything control happens regards economy ineveitably crashing whole pandemic rn hard see good anymore things keeping alive foance fact isnt painless way die thats it,1 +ya get it ya get it lights cigar woah hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo puff puff woah hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo puff puff idroid gets call snake took long,0 +want throw upidk feel sick stress summer didnt english homework depressed anything caught subjects missed didnt english read book rn im right mind correct work tommorow want tell mum let stay home tomorrow catch dont tell teacher didnt finish half day tomorrow idk shoot myself feel like im going crazy idk cant this want everything disappear,1 +ive seen coen brothers films now say one better films dare say better the big lebowski good rightbr br i thought story interesting hilarious times loved characters especially tim blake nelson delmar john turturros petebr br there really anything bad say movie movie everyone might safe say liked coen brothers films hopefully like one too liked saw trailer think like film hold itbr br anyhow hope liked film much do thanks readingbr br chris,0 +anyone spent time working hospital medical facility got appreciate film plot absolutely wild entertaining start finish acting superb george c scott brilliant doctor class failure husband father diana riggs sex symbol s s of avengers saves himself surrounding cast superb dialogue quite entertaining think enjoyed film viewing th th th time caught much richness dialogue interplay characters well worth seeing again want check hospital near future,0 +fighting suicidal ideationthis first time posting hope im following rules ok ive shared thoughts redflag private things getting really difficult wanted hear people life fight thoughts redflag necessarily looking help tips hear peoples experiences interested ill include background deal sex addiction recently ex found cheating them amongst allegations due lost friends job im essentially ostracized anyone community outside recovery support system ive dealt thoughts redflag long time feelings exacerbated issues isolation seasons changing covid fact ex repeatedly told world favor kill myself put simply im really struggling helped fight hopelessness been make lists reasons kill self including anything silly makes feel even slightly happier hiking connecting nature mindful things cookeat mindful body health recently started yoga exercise regular phone calls contact support system curious hear others get rut hope everyones well,1 +pills alcohol rope tonights nighteither kids mom find hanging morning held long possibly could cannot not take another day this everything place ive waiting impulse ill damned fail,1 +im tiredits hard keep fighting have somehow thought id made darkest parts havent live place making depression worse day day theres always something going wrong theres never break all matter try gets worse thought finally managed catch break going able slowly dig way out so much slower tolerable willing trade small resolve left get this knowing could try fix later relapsed self harm eating disorder snowballed depression kicked ass told worth it stood chance getting out gone stupid believed would help me naively fell bullshit got hopes up sent crashing earth soulshattering speeds last chance know way place thats killing me exhausted options family made clear want help help tried get better tried myself fighting wanted digging tooth nail giving pride could make work fell apart cant again ive hopes raised shattered many times past fourteen months cannot handle rollercoaster emotion turmoil longer cant ive tried talk people it theyre busy tonight im depressing ive tried get feeling out nothing working feel empty hollowed full nothingness cannot live like this want alive,1 +headache like motivation sigh,0 +milkshake brings boys yard dont know,0 +continuefor recurring thoughts redflag longer feel drive im either angry depressed feel weight things im tasked payout end,1 +yall dumb enter exact time microwave likeeee simple spam start add sec button reaches time u wantttttttt duhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +cant thisim really shitty night feel like theres one turn to also dont want turn anyone dont want burden want disappear,1 +felt needed said fuck assholes,1 +want anything anymoreim really sure whats happened got home college summer ive felt lonely feel like friends all feel like awful person high school pretty awful person one good friends feel like still gotten awful things did now im alone hate going work hate wake up even mention anxious get around people ya know hate going work know ill speak up reason thats gotten harder harder do ampxb certain one expects low life feel like many people look im wanting quit everyone ampxb want better feel like every part wants hide ,1 +deep water examines pressures ambitions ordinary man compelling documentary testimony archive footage fascinating insight late s groundbreaking round world yacht race personal conflicts duty family self reputation played one memorable affecting films seen familiar history story drama successfully clearly directed story mostly respectful participants heroes villains implied rather ruthlessly exposed interpretation left open viewer allowing room personally relate situations characters movie bitter sweet experience entertaining mix thoughtful suspense joy drama,0 +notice me somebody remind im ghost human includes lgtb stuff move it next post haters today took talking somebody interact everyone grade even notice there which leads believe commit redflag wouldnt give fuck it experiment done too see really bad maybe fact grade us talk other maybe nobody would noticed all people know talked to know hate deep down keep lying saying dont hate me but since supposed encouraging redflag heres happy thing found today well kind two music teacher probably bisexual gay straight ally fo lgtb people why wears rainbow shoes sounds looks gay excuse me good gaydar dont judge lately wearing rainbow wristband might say pride gold im never close enough one friends actually trusts supports lgtb best friend crush nonbinary bisexual supports her always nice considering know im straight alright back main point here redflag note moods suddenly ever change posts note possible adhd want keep things optimistic havent diagnosed yet know what im ending post here dont want shed sob loud,1 +nobody would care notice gonethat,1 +recently seem brain fogs able concentrate classes able take new information used to motivation anything thing whenever try make point lump forms throat eventually start crying regardless whether made point noti also feel really irritated time really reason irritated thingsmy parents tell nothing continue studying pass need know seek help experiencing due depression,1 +drunki realize reading many decide go everyone wants get drunk mostly vodka first woman tired laugh can,1 +sleep am school tommorow want sleep though,0 +wife watched whole series least three times cant imagine could better complete history wwiino library could hold historybut best summary history lots detail lots personal stories still keeps overall picture viewbr br oliviers narration excellently written and course superbly given interviews sides except russian producers allowed talk many russians much worth owning complete program dvd treasure copybr br the producers excellent job providing pictures action almost none extant archive almost films convoys submarine battles instance still episode subject well done,0 +discord server one mods keep muting people banning people littlest shit cant even count many people ive seen happen fucking hell annoying never discord server seen someone sensitive even hypocritical another thing rules show personal info right problem except irl name why real name connections bet others people art bet people put names bottom,0 +point life failed cog capitalist machinethis another story another loser useful skills interests friends ambition know all read many times point life one look forward nothing else working miserable jobs pay food shelter point life one look forward nothing fired bow scrape beg find another one one ends street point one look forward nothing else failing health death old age death nuclear war reason alive big coward afraid kill myself afraid pain afraid failing and laugh now afraid hell atheist cannot free fear wrong hell satan real,1 +im nightmares everywhere end time furthest ive gotten beginning phase intend going back point im getting bad stuff,0 +dms open quite tired enough sleep yet lol im glad weekend starting get late im quite tired yet seeing anyone else around wanting chat whatever ,0 +emptyi know anymore im ive living void emptiness hole heart years now ive avoided life much get stuck negative thought patterns every day get exhausted im looking end life cant find courage actually hang jump bridge im stuck suffering meaningless life,1 +saw little bunny rabbit couple minecraft think cutest thing ever know followed around sat together next pond dearly,0 +lmao average length circumference fucking adult dick looks like im average lol kinda cool guess,0 +type wpm get wrecked fools haha prolly even good whatever one shitty mac keyboards idk ok keep scrolling,0 +friend said reddit gave free award im posting give award hi teens normal day ima ask crush later help great saturday,0 +waiting die going long wait pretty much,1 +hey girl u optician cos u stare eyes day week,0 +day posting music sub mike dawes scarlethttpsyoutubermfonits amazing acoustic cover song scarlet periphery really like artists know absolutely love cover,0 +tw rape experiment fucking around well pretended underage girl sexual subreddit got shit ton dms one dude admitted gang raping year old infront mother dont know holy shit,0 +cant anymoreits two years three minutes ago close jumping window cowardly go it feel safe anymore,1 +even redflag im failure failed redflag attempts im fucking daft loser please dont tell must divine purpose im still here im currently work right im lose it ive staring screen fuckin hours cant make anything except post nonsense reddit still here someone shoot me holy shit,1 +excessive risk takingi typical unhealthy habits drinkingsmoking im prone excessive risk taking redflag conscious deliberate active choice theres risk me risky situations present us have act often make decision very fast intuitive level high risk situations very nice distracting nearly uplifting effect maybe theres short term gain eg sex seems difficult tackle this ideas,1 +ive numb longi forgot good pain feels,1 +rn took shit reckon itd really solid log real brick dont need to would spectacular doubt,0 +please keep family friendly guys mommy watches ipad parental controls please dont want ipad taken away complete fort nite battle pass ends soon,0 +palim falling apart insides collapsing msis yiu much please come baxk,1 +film shockingly underrated imdb like many films shawshank reasonably good predictable dance competition personal growth film want spend hour half watching sort mile female step dancer think like itbr br judging imdb ratings guess movie approaching top vote bombed many s happens many films mob special effects include nonwhite nonstraight charactersbr br its american film us film set mostly toronto cues subtle audiences may think set entirely us final competition border city detroitbr br i liked music liked dance but convinced worth know characters easy eyesbr br i agree title sucks remember anyone film saying words s no foreign languagebr br theres lot hate film and lets honest vote means hated it assume expression hate kind people it thats sad,0 +know stop myselfive pestering people problems knowing able helped anyways stop telling whats me stop crying nowhere spike bad feeling hits im one people make obvious something wrong try hide it feel selfish straightforward makes feel like get chance wanna ask whats wrong not ive confidence issues whole life theyve really taken bad turn downhill turned straight drop every time see mirror start crying gagging ive puked many times recently never deliberately like put toothbrush throat think still fault keep torturing looking beautiful talented people showertime horrible seeing abnormal body looks like cant compare anyone feel like im level least smile beautiful things takes small amount time start crying feeling gets bad cant go outside much either anymore yeah keep seeing amazing great beautiful people everywherebut ever like that im enough right im trying push friends away me mean insult say strive better stuck me mean assume whats best think me mean say theyre selfish take overlords lives guess saying it ive tried apologising like this made people mad made say im actually sorry busy determining think im getting annoying this since learn one message feel like im constant trouble thats im asking could hide all never bother anyone ever stupid problems cant understand whyd want keep around im sort happy everyones getting sick me leave wellthey smile again extra baggage anymore everyones happiness nice course ill alone everyones forgotten me vanish hope th floor enough make decision im sorry long message thank reading,1 +dont carefriends saying care open suicidal thoughts never initiate contact again never asking something me bitch even know im gone dont say care obviously dont,1 +failing lifeive suffering severe depression social anxiety past five years never gotten better turned video games escape made things exponentially worse transferred college semester told going different fell back old habits first started getting social anxiety again hard meet talk people depression started fading in concentrate work sit hours study get stuff done cant focus drift away end nothing fade right back suicidal ideation feeling hopeless cant move life get shit done im failing courses two three beyond fixable point im pretty much guaranteed f sit around nothing time laying bed jack shit turning browsing web playing games ive hit brick wall think get slump meant go way im pissing away parents money ideation plan im done cant take pain anymore,1 +feel annoying fucking time im middle severe mental breakdown mean genuine medical definition quirky one ive bottled up love friends feel annoying keep accidentally venting server im talking much stupid feel awful like need so like sometimes like need stop venting emotional feel like wear people dont want hurt inconvenience im literally awful friend sometimes hurts much feel awful saying selfish like cant imagine feel makes feel awful annoying feel like fucking burden im fucking burden,0 +think related roommate last name parents signs aware,0 +advice every person subreddit m used really care people thought me friends friends rednecks rural ontario go brrt henceforth become wannabe redneckhick followed many many instagram pages posted donald trump far right political opinions diesel trucks well american political pages even though im canadian years later true myself friends like myself im weeb love heavy metal longer dislike lgbtq crowd disliked racist anymore said probably thinking wow kid probably dick right lmao aside theres one thing whole experience taught me nothing feels better yourself found new friends share interests struggling right feel like cant yourself lemme tell right now someone everyone world matter like everyone make friends world judge other best sub helped vent past ive laughed cried it want hit start conversation thank reading much got here sorry long tldr change fit in everyones got crowd somewhere,0 +germany killed million innocent people years everyone remembers japan belgium belgium one worst offenders britain spain china mongolia italy,0 +anyone need bodypillow also double matress,0 +people buy airpods rly give fuck music literally earbuds sound better airpods,0 +must force uimissyousomuch sleep uimissyousomuch sleep getting late,0 +want someone love metheres noone woman would ever touch,1 +ive become thing swore destroy cool person course,0 +kpop stans kpop stans horny teenagers change mind,0 +forgive sinned guys watched cuties trailer want know fuck watch,0 +bruh okay woke stayed hours took nap pm im trying get sleep schedule back keep messing like aaaa,0 +gif pfp got removed bruh removed gif pfp fucking super gif pfp working anymore fuck reddit making reddit icon orange removing gif pfps again,0 +miss dadon june dad killed redflag hung garage dad years miss every day wish here,1 +text start ive seen posts people calling national hotlines hung breaks heart thats fucking ridiculous recently started volunteering crisis text line recommend anyone here ive struggled many years came know crisis text line therapist recommended text struggling last year real people really want help you also takes anxiety away actually talking phone thats thing disclaimers our messages characters back seem shortthats why but send many long messages need to we follow certain timeframewe want talk divert crisis going talk coping skills try help find ways manage way youre feeling youre talking us dismissive anything want find help cant around help know truly wish best want get help youre looking for im sure legal whatever post recommend try it working something always text stop time legally allowed text back good luck everyone,1 +xposted ask transgender adult physically disabled trans woman friend abused facility staying at wants commit redflag escape abuse yr old friend helpwill ask somewhere else breaks rules im honestly end options here friend ill call j family whos extremely abusive transphobic mistreated bullied outside house nearly whole life bounced abusive transphobic shelters severely depressed suicidal one attempt unacknowledged parents left crippled waist down latest disabledfroendly shelter in experienced kinds abuse verbal mistreatment neglect respond asking food almost fainting i help focus stay conscious watched fall wheelchair made crawl bedits absolutely disgusting needless say suicidal im probably one reasons killed herself wants leave forget worry problems im foster care fighting abusive parents court says fucked life still hope stop stressing me ive spent hours talking redflag emailed parents intend email superiors abusers place shape up go parents seem interested treating well whatsoever dad held gun back head just fuck missouri decent place stay feels like might much do morning fear waking redflag notewhat help somethinganything,1 +wanting dead evolved accepting ill never happyive m attempted redflag twice last time within last year think main reasons last attempt feeling like wronged someone deeply cared about feeling like terrible person feeling ill never happy months passed ive kind accepted nothing going change me try better person treat friends better try find partner shares educational personal sexual interests dont believe ever going change dont want kill anymore dont think life works great someone like me every passing day think personal struggles eat more dont passions anymore think maybe real friends sometimes feel like everyone puts me anxiety situations used okay in anxiety pretty much everything actually kinda want press pause reset life impossible someone with vent to make happy would go long way much freak seem be think im going alone forever messed thing top think im lot happiest things others making happy etc even really find someone wants let them makes feel like im good enough even friendships let alone romantic relationships,1 +im feeling stuck confused scared lonely dont know do keep thinking girl stopped dating months ago lot things mind im getting lot mixed emotions im worried father feels do cant go much getting cold dark curl think girl dont know do,0 +cannot believe im actually posting this really know begin first all guess sort inconceivable im sub posting something like this hell add humiliation guess ill start saying im year old male currently college computer science im proud person default raised single mother im masculine person believe strength tenacity discipline importantly purpose personal motto always suffering breeds discipline discipline breeds strength im old school traditionalist believe natural order things although im leftist absolutely disdain liberals qualities exude weakness believe human beings equally worthless myself included ive suffered depression past sheer force able conquer it viewing depression martial light depression eternal enemy must continually fought kept bay must consciously maintain vigilance one dark thoughts enter mind must vanquish immediately available means me point however elements life worn last four years eroding iron depleting fighting spirit im going go got heartbroken girl although factor im pathetic let sole reason wanting carry on start saying thing wanted child fly military aircraft fact still maintain service state highest honor one aspire to attend flight school high school thought going accomplish dream becoming military aviator however suffer bad case adhd would seem academia insurmountable objective im medicated tried best ultimately unsuccessful attempts complete college courses without medication crushing defeat me picked moved on knack military history writing so im told fulfilling gen ed requirements took th century european history class professor army colonel years earned undergrad west point completed phd u m graduate thesis apache scouting parties one strictest professors humanities department earned nickname pressure sheer amount homework gave difficulty tests rather liked immediately excellent command presence additionally thrive environments im held standards excellence professor demanded nothing short excellence quickly became top student class due rather vast repository knowledge concerning cccp das kaiserreich und das dritte reich addition knowledge infantry tactics employed world wars even told you excellent work remains highest compliment ive ever received one day approached professor informed interest becoming military historian looked dead eye said dont itits difficult make living field although another dream crushed deemed acceptable wanted pursue career would allow maximize utility state professor instilled burning desire serve apart something greater myself deemed future battlefield would digital nature stuxnet proved me decided would pursue computer science major vowed henceforth compromises defeats knew going field would conquer greatest weakness mathematics knew going easy deemed anything possible courage discipline around time met ex loved much attracted femininity honestly tell want saw me obviously thought handsome transferred university moved together relationship ended devastated however heart hearts understood left bore responsibility break pretty nasty honest although knew largely fault felt betrayed yet quick find bed room another woman soon realized however made mistake new girl banging total opposite ends spectrum tend worship strength discipline least hedonistic broke trust her also mention point best friend ive known talked everyday since th grade best could me still devastated break up even though id women experienced better shape ex buddy though always grateful someone like him failed classes semester completely utterly ashamed felt broken family thought transfer schools move back home though seemed like admitting defeat simply unacceptable me tried again time though found ex fucking entire computer science department im ashamed admit point decided situation untenable retreated back home ashamed broken home quickly went trying recover defeat called computer repair shops asking hiring technicians one hiring got job local restaurant people appreciate strong authority figures job still haunts me chef de cusine total tyrant coworkers even noticed became verbal punching bag day know why give best shot however soon fired me time ive ever fired job honestly relieved point panic attacks shortly shift ended feeling pretty low point gone honor role student deans list college drop got fired first time around point started waking going bed suicidal thoughts got job liquor store worked next three years although liked coworkers boss store help feel disgraced felt like failure around time started hang around old high school crush seemed nice outside break forced necessity move home parents however absolutely toxic individual told numerous occasions expendable worthless im totally ashamed admit stayed around long did know why hate part myself also accepted university area wayne state however earned credits transferred start square one made extremely bitter gone precalc prealgerbra however persevered else really do anyway still unbelievable bitch started get stressed finals tolerance bullshit rapidly started diminishing faster think anticipated ultimately took game hockey restore masculinity sense self worth told sick shit sick driving places want talk anymore think caught guard next day texted telling back ex state told simply care absolute truth felt liberated cost started developing deep resentment toward western woman even still today aspirations foreign woman preferably middle east ive ever wanted simple life myself government job allow assume role breadwinner virtuous intelligent wife adheres traditional values family call own however im starting lose belief vision obtainable people would call chauvinistic sexist vision feel like relic bygone era born century off feel outofplace todays society quite clear belong erato add sense displacement academic achievements wayne however shadow former glory take education seriously stellar gpa takes toll self esteem finally come infamous summer year best friend died minutes phone him catastrophic loss one seriously fucked mentally knew person talked every day half life closest dearest friend grant sherman stonewall jackson robert e lee ill never know specifics died know fell onto subway tracks train coming screaming died something profoundly horrible think best friend screaming goes out drive new york recover ashes bring home parents single fucked thing ive ever do tell post lot shit already going wrong break emotionally day cannot feel emotions ways think blessing kind tired feeling point anyway new york meet current girlfriend appear love care me im justnot capable anymore reciprocating way ive become detached emotionally also western woman really type know love want to justcant feel anything guess thats say care her do something right though idea is also get job computer repair slightly fulfilling want fix peoples broken shit teach rich idiots computer semester rough ive taken calculus discreet math looking like im going flunk classes despite best efforts showed everyday class got help went office hours still failing financial aid likely going cut ultimate insult me prove hard work discipline simply enough situation feels futile wish model citizen serve state feel like theyd never accept point purpose pride cannot go like this would rather blow head off live disgraced failure the family fuck up simply refuse carry way want live see become failure still living home im seriously contemplating suicide living without pride without purpose way live yet despite hard work perseverance world seems determined make drag society wish serve issue receive stateaid personally simply unacceptable brings question identity male would rather die man beg scraps like dog existence feels like joke string disappointments setbacks feel though im disgrace family name family warriors grandfather awarded iron cross bravery cant even pass calculus equally inconceivable embarrassing work hard still nothing show it life started fall apart four long miserable years ive endured hoping things would get better havent feel like could spare decades soulcrushing defeats disappointments manage courage end now aus der traum,1 +crush agreed go date im famous tho shes fanta,0 +pet semetary creed family moved small town ludlow family consists father louis mother rachel brother gage daughter ellen greeted kindness jud crandall jud could basically tell entire history ludlowbr br behind creeds new house path leading pet cemetery spelled pet sematary ellen wants go see it jud willfully takes family trip start hell creed familybr br when rachel kids gone ellens cat church dies jud feels ellen ready death cat suggests louis follow path past pet cemeterybr br jud tells louis burial ground used micmac indians louis buries church without juds help couple days later church returns alive hellbr br this movie one two horror movies could actually scare me aside the exorcist greatest performance would ever zelda rachels sister spinal meningitis victor pascow ghost tries help creeds making mistake bringing back things deadbr br the music movie plays extravagant part time sad mysterious goes along movie wonderfullybr br ,0 +thought death brings peace ive never felt im whenever decide herei always knew different knew fucked way got here ive life formally diagnosed ive struggled short term memory loss since kid brings much anxiety life cannot really know am want die already know id it waiting me really shame wanted somebody try fail every single time hate myself itll huge shock everyone family always knew coming day,1 +killing new years dayi made promise ill stick shot got worse scabies worse depression shit even worse ever finally end suffering even family friends grieves better without me everyone something unique them me im uniquely useless,1 +sleep pattern ruining lifeim asleep day awake night ive tried everything change sleep patter nothing worked night im awake alone sad unable sleep,1 +first day work tomorrow got first job donut place tomorrow first day im nervous im pretty shy usually im okay talking adults im excited get paid still anxious af yall jobs advicethings know,0 +easy wearing mask time sometimes carry well times cannot even find strength put on everything fine long wear minute starts slip fun around cannot even open way truly feel nobody really understands enjoy anything literally autopilot constant state numbness like ball chain wife carry around course tired it would be understand constant pain in understand reason even keeping going opening causes pain know wants happy her thing though would anywhere happy without her world know do feel guilty around like this feel like wear mask time,1 +got back audiologista national expert ive seeing admitted theres nothing could hyperacusis told need work living life theres anything left live anything left live for cant talk anyone cant see anybody cant go anywhere audiophile barely even hear sound voice extrovert now little still hear hurts bad start screaming sit hour long car ride back home dad barking ear took lunch whole time cars lot blasting music say anything hed get angry me hed yell make ears feel even worse took sweet time finishing sandwich walked slow possible tried hurrying back car sit still say nothing whole fucking ride got back home knife want advice want feedback want answer questions want die,1 +everyday lose motivationi even know start moment today manager one jobs called stupid im stupid though work extremely hard job which minimum wage job mind you wake am leave foot clock work never late never miss days complete tasks time sometimes better time im courteous customers ive learn lot relatively short period time ive job one month never worked food before always office jobs matter learned even though one really willing teach you read resume fucking hire then make one mistake say you everything wrong or today you know people smart learn something shown once work two jobs im currently writing second job ive spent minutes crying someone called stupid work am pm everyday come scheduled stay late asked lost another job earlier summer guess jot recovered emotionally feels like matter much work put anything never pay off ill always stupid wrong personality something know even anymore im working pay rent place live sustain life honest even want wanted life since teenager im fifteen accomplished single noteworthy thing growing people told smart obviously thats case life would amounted this recently came plan really vague plan would save money move different city us possible it probably much easily think would point id still me different town means promising beginning old bullshit storm life whats point setting goals know even achieve them ill still walking disaster waking every single morning asking question want relationship someone would give sense purpose want go back school want keep working like forever know goals make attainable viable know go sleep train tracks near apartment think everyday see it feel motivated overcome fear keeping committing redflag find reason commit redflag im tired time im done it,1 +anyone wanna pm bit im mega bored lol,0 +feel truly hollow aloneheya reading ive times awhile back past feel time different probably explain bit case people want understand im coming from name macy im transgender girl recently ive kinda fell fucked place dont think get one awhile back ended leaving highschool social anxiety bullying lack motivation things appease parents got enrolled online classes still legally need school age fifteen basically dropped point life ive able keep social life alive since happens awhile back world works regular teenager friends change time old friends gone really one anymore people online bed online friends arent really close either ive issues past drugs coke acid weed cigs others control part recently ive felt urge might way cope pain feel me thats driving sanity breaking point understand im young probably dont know im talking point life know feel feels really terrible exboyfriend hasnt spoken two weeks really strained mentality left terms close people struggle signs mental illnesses make really dependent clingy im fan self diagnosing therapist said show signs cant really disorder etc adult said would agree show signs things believe might have ive found state constant distraction keep thinking alone pain am eats more really dont know anymore ive tried hotlines past didnt help keep getting urge die something drastic make happy die peace knowing wanted im sorry bad grammar im really best moods proofread rant depression,1 +reddit therapy work wellwith way reddit works sub cant function free therapy easily many people scrolling new posts hot get lot help new bodies fault reddit,1 +bite myself raw sore get canker sore cannot eat cannot drink get sick finally energy eat go fast bite myselfand go again over whole life could summed canker sores,1 +ive decided six months still feel suicidal ill iti dont want impulse decision want well thought out ive decided still feel way april first then well ill die,1 +would nice talk people rn im like super sick okay,0 +think deal movie minutes really really funny moments makes good trailer lot people came expectations trailer time movie live trailer little sluggish drags little slowly exciting premise think im seeing comments people lovehate relationship moviebr br however look movie could considering talent cast think still pretty good julia stiles clearly star giddy carefree set among conformity everyone else glows whole audience falls love along lee rest cast course lees testosteronefilled coworkers elegant motherinlaw fratlike friend jim bridetobe excellent job fitting stereotypes conformity boringness make stiles stand first place br br lee live costars think could view theyre hard live to maybe thats one source disappointmentbr br the movie itself despite bit slowness jokes come funny writers intended still pretty funny found rather intelligent film themes conformity taking safe route seemed cleverly align several layers example whole motif would imagine scenarios would never act last scene listening radio program highway talking everyone conforms everything selma blair julia stiles characters said echoed themes one person safe choice one risky choicebr br the good thing movie kind screwball comedy jason lee keep lying way movie dumb luck example pharmacy guy turning good chef cleverness part gets away partbr br while funny expected little bit squandered talent overall still good movie,0 +finished cronicles heroic knight mere minutes ago find extremely please questions still loom me would appear first episodes actually retelling events first record lodoss war truth really arent would appear creator cothk different vision original ended and may reason first episodes occur find case cothk say starts years war heros parn part of think director made first episodes seem much like recap original give viewer small reminder introduction characters deeds done appear much less series kicks sparks story now series kick sparks portion find kicked another years years since war heros spark crew do cases resemble parn crew journey kicks gear especially love story brews spark neese also thought several times throughout cothk threw original series sparks long blue hair know wouldve pressed stop make sure right disc in means consider major set backs however writers fine job crafting believable characters remarkable storyline thing makes hurt ashram wagnard return ummmm how get wrong great villains even though ashrams villainous trait supports marmo perhaps missed something coarse series explained part far sequels go though highly recommend cothk place cothk and even so original record lodoss war far lord rings trilogy epic anything ive ever seen read highly recommend this,0 +reddit got banned raskreddit so heres next best thing baby,0 +felt ecstasy feari tried out sort of way want go quit could anything harmful want found goes plan ill try hours know want work im pretty sure do maybe ill choice taken away me know started feel immense pressure windpipe scared scared situations knew could easily get out tester all split second gloriously ecstatic going free cant stop coughing still feels like theres pressure throat also feel relief long anymore feel like ive stabbed heart every time hes somebody else deal terrible obsessive personality mine anymore deal intense longing desire love never be deal intense sessions highs lows fine week writing notes next even notes time want go least hell attend funeral hope im rollercoaster started started him know ever going stop cant forever much im done,1 +neighbor invited block party big problem feeling like everyone hates me live south middle eastern intersections strangers negative work retail wether working get antagonized random white people age everywhere go mind business one tim gun still holster flashed cvs asked old man wart remover holding worked not dads egomaniac cannot talk cares right in mind win every conversation has always fault well anyways decided get bit try friendly baked baklava made three different kind dips made homemade chips went party worked beforehand made sure looked nice went bring food party surprise everyone typical middle class urburban type felt like rector staruing me waved lady really staring turned away ok whatever say hello kids playing driveway say hi sheepishly adult wanted talk me set dip tried start convo dads standing around nothing cold shoulder home leftover baklava dip fault giving like minutes really tried guys introvert tried hard awkward felt like alien everyone looking studying one wanted talk me might looking much one guy think actually walked way around little tent table thing avoid me say would wayyyyy quicker walk past me halfstepped trees bushes idk know pathetic cannot help feel alone know need move north hard poor family friends besides dad thanks reading one cares sorry end rope here infinite amount patience many times put get rejected actually went neighbors block party spent night making dip baklava eating alone,1 +dont know anymoreim broke actually debt point holding lies im fucked actually like im seriously fucked dont know fuck im going do next paycheque gonna pay debt hopefully pay car bills too late july early august need somehow come fucking thousand pay insurance fuck man like fuck me dont know fuck im going it parents dont even know ive failed fucking uni working developing courage tell them im fucking lost fuck here ,1 +cross posting recursion crosspost post ask someone else crosspost see long redditors keep crossposting,0 +fell love married womani fell love best friend happens married woman ling says fell love too months together trying figure leave bad marriage told time horrible husband wanted live life me came clean month ago husband telling me guilted staying saying disobeyed god owes stay well continued tell believes god let leave someday found tonight husband told leave literally got suitcase put front her decide stay also gone back sleeping him emails telling things also saying continues pray everyday god bring us together know do husband threatened put restraining order me feel guilty also time hurt constant back forth i believe together need stay driving insane know believe anymore constant pain unbearable,1 +im tired mental illnessim tired trying muster courage commit redflag im tired constantly trying medications im sick explaining different therapists ive seven psych ward visits im sick illness,1 +favourite film think perfect unlike virtually film name never watch film think would better theyd changed whatever definition work art think so every brushstroke mishima perfect flows schraders script ive always sort liked paul schraders work you cant argue taxi driver light sleeper amazing film writing often seems border bombastic directing style usually nonexistent deliberate think films usually deal search redemption set real world ugly harsh style suits themes presents characters simple realistic way lets show audience truth situation imagine schrader directed taxi driver bringing dead instead scorsese like protagonists two films mishima man ideal schrader material rightwing vain odds society works subtle beautiful fact secondary writing career womans writer churning reasonably described romantic potboilers necessarily imagine schrader ideal man capture subtlety beauty film think film shows was script helped fashion splits mishima man three parts life death mind life represented black white still camera formal compositions death always best remembered handheld documentary style mind represented dramatised extracts novels one revealing thought processes complex man hardly ever wrote character reflection himself dramatisations beautiful look at thanks eiko ishiokas remarkable production design schraders imaginative staging parts acting superb especially ken ogata mishima captures essential charm arrogance narcissism man photography excellent throughout contains images viewer retain forever finally music simply superb perfectly matching images although written recorded shooting adjusted editorial process rerecorded much music influenced shoot know bonds perfectly image seen many ideas various people think theme film is schrader trying say know big stuff life death etc think film saying anything mishima already said it film simply repeats,0 +dennis patrick plays man accidentally kills daughters boyfriend reveals secret local bar joe peter boyle bigot getting drunk there first takes joke story confirmed evening news instead calling cops like joe decides that since guy killed hippie must kindred spirits blackmails man becoming pal first film seemed harsh judgemental but revealed itself actually became quite complex portrait current society yes think exaggerate bit amusing ways really detract power messages susan sarandon debuted film shock see pretty around well worth seeing,0 +ill kill weekim boy friend girl im love her boyfriend told wait see future cant stand pain anymore wants friend moment boyfriend love her do want marry kids her want love survive love without cant much me much love give everytime try give love anyone suffer last hope,1 +woman left alone death husband finds attracted sons friend handy man slightly twisted story woman begins sleeping handy man effort revive herself twisted part handy man also daughters love interestbr br as strange enough mother manages fall man daughter finds out blames dysfunctional relationship also messed life poor motherbr br though may think badly woman truth movie manages portray notredflag light beautifully played anne reid character dimension portrays great emotionbr br a truly brilliant performance enjoyable filmbr br ,0 +today lent crush jacket ran home raining making total times ive made wet yes realize im stealing umbrella joke fit situation are,0 +posting number everyday till reach end day kskksidhhdjsjdgdvhsushwhsjsjshhshssjsjsnjsjsjsjsjsbdbdjxurvvdhx,0 +point someone go hospitaltheres difference wanting disappear stop existing bit come back wanting die actual planwriting noteetc theres also nebulous inbetween phase person acts impulse maybe die maybe not spectrum someone go hospital im terrified commitment mental hospital ive heard terrible things them especially one area walk er nearby happen send there want go,1 +imma uncook food cant stop,0 +hiyou might sometimes look around feel like live world hate pain emptiness world disappointment exhaustion despair nothing okay things never right right know whats right would right wrong would feel hate knew nothing love never shown love hate would default even know it would nothing unusual disturbing ever know known love feel hate love need able see it happiness really believe feel it peace comfort beautiful world life beautiful beautiful clouds move across sun see sun rays come go back again beautiful summer smell comes feel woken up beautiful step uncut ice snow unexpectedly fallen life beautiful hope lives existence matter many people blind it matter many people deny even hate it even spent years hating it still there hope lives unconditionally existence true companionship lovely laughter fresh excitement peaceful content beautiful worth it come run scared reject it,1 +meanest thing ever done idk im bored answer u want ig,0 +let us say saved hundred pills course many months would enough know need incredibly high prozac dosage even symptoms appear like x prescribed amount thanks would happen took mg fluxotine prozac,1 +life constant embarrassmenteverywhere people laugh me im fucking joke everyone enjoy everything try do end embarrassing myself literally everything try fail fail fail make joke myself like fucking curse something literally took walk outside minutes ago somehow managed make brother father laugh scared bug come home father yells scared every day things everyone laughs suffer darkness unknown everyone im ugly dumb stupid loser good nothing good nothing theres use anyone telling me oh say good this good that know bullshit wouldve killed didnt shitty dream comic book artist ive matured know pointless everything is even become comic book artist what doubt anyone care knowing life ill find way embarrass again im used point expect it body pathetic worthless done shit except let down im limited pathetic useless body idea anymore tbh even know kill myself many things happened many damn things idk bear pain live boring lonely embarrassing life end here clue whats next im going wait get college made good decision redflag looking hot rn,1 +boughtr flaming hot cheetos dust eye send help immediately ow,0 +feel like trying od desperately also dont want belike lady fahrenheit like shit probsbly easiest method also book made shit seem fucking scary get stomach pumped shit hope im remembering right book im gonna look like dumbass,1 +everything difficult cannot get apartment cannot get new job cannot pay school years old supposed afford own work hard never enough want die would better off sad,1 +stop scrolling getting frequent ingrown hairs penis shaft anyone pls tell whats going,0 +im nervous getting back school tbh mean im pretty sure im one feeling way ill feel fine eventually still h e l p,0 +requirements ricardos valentine f tallish brunette muscles cmon theres gotta someone enjoy shitpost ladies gentlemen,0 +girls joining boy scouts kind retardation america,0 +damnit want make everything earrings now baby earrings done knife earrings check worm earrings hell yea come ideas pls ,0 +im transyeah im trans trans guy specifically lot gonna understand heck im going right now whatever heres thoughts rolling around head lately im freak nature rest life ill never real man ill take testosterone shots day die unless want get fucked bone densityweird shit happening body surgeries ill frankensteins monster complete scars pretty much sexless now happened came trans way refuses sex except extremely boring terms week less always top hes always quiet oral sex nothing else mins tops whole act foreplay kisses noseducing kisses little bit goes straight the goods every time try initiate i stoppedoh around months ago rejects me know sting rejection im sure hurts waslast night thinking redflag really help cry little tiny bit silently unfortunately sleep bed mustve heard breath hitch it am huffed ugh really cant go sleep cant stop well talk morningugh yeah happened im reminded every day im man feel like am disgusting things body does back occasionally sore always wearing binder im pretty sick dealing my so im gonna buy another bed put different room cry fucking peace think lot evenings redflag would it would miss i used think would buti even know anymore dad would miss me brother sister mom though hah hates me think every day male get drive away partner disgusted becomes hes straight thing really hits easy would be almost easy likenot belittle anyone here easy way out believe afterlife imagine would like going sleep never waking up nothing worry anything anymorewouldnt get told goddamn partner parents everyone why eager start testosterone whats rushsomething words whats rush bother much im holding back tears right thinking words whats rush whats rush one understands days want toi get damn angry want rip stupid meatsack off something know lemme tell reddit sheer anger willpower could change stuff would problem days im angry enough feel like could punch brick wall sheer force pissedoffness could go many brokenhearted people left behind reddit days feel hopeful days want go fight good fight struggle life go things do days want freaking give up seriously thoughchrist thought partner would comfort something reaction get basically stfu im trying sleep damn idea thought me kinda hit little hard ya know reddit yeah hes acting like nothing happened fine,1 +im tiredhi hideously rambling im sorry seem able form proper train here guess say roughly im male selfemployed its hard hard surviving succeeding it hard say exactly whats wrong guess many things feel like ive fighting flags whole life everyone ive ever loved betrayed one point another friends parents woman loved anything whole adult life ive strong others best friend he betrayed too woman let back life maybe years ago recognized genuine remorse fiance many people rely help always seem unlimited strength always willing help others essential nature cannot help it strong helped weak instinctively years ago best friends life shambles sick broke lonely one seemed care except me helped it close redflag believe would done it weve always pair since met grade lives unhappy best fought years back back truly awful shit kept happening us betray me remorseful perhaps relationship work end think relationship woman work would never returned friend again parents betrayal really personal discuss love me again forgave actions sometimes people understand wrong maybe figured eventually maybe not still dad awesome long time know loves much is strange person seem understand emotional pain well would swear alien know fact produced human offspring wants help simply incapable understanding whats happening me cannot understanding im finally crumbling why met ex three years ago work friend first real relationship women seem like reason think im unattractive something personality maybe know understand it love first sight bullshit wasnt real said felt too bipolar bipolar fact somehow broken attractive bizarre insane need protect around me felt good suffer bipolar fits rage depression felt like meant do felt strength meant doing although times frustrated mood swings sweet loving normal honestly time close loving lifelong depression vanished like never there past nightmares problem got angry occasionally refused discuss past much really understand life horrible ever want relive events guilt rage things past finally free them think ever factor though break up edit ill never depressed crazy see typo want fix it,1 +hollow wicked thing unworthy love unworthy joy unworthy life cant anyone see me,1 +deleted photos phone dad transferring old phones stuff onto new phone done went photos forgot picture mug said cunt looked said really,0 +dont know get helpive walking fucking circles m trying say feel friend m cant it dont wanna die without knowing good me dont know want ask help say im ending tomorrow cant take inability something anymore stupid inability talk new people person cant stand anymore cant stand dad anymore wanna die idk stop feeling like except kms im tired crying useless anything games dont know life talking people helped while simply dont think would work again dont know want,1 +redflag without spreading miseryso things still going horrible worse ever way end suffering making others miss worse make suffer commiting redflag ive thinking lot people want suffer committed redflag feel helpless played went missing would still miss me even though would false sense hope returning playing accident help either two weak options popped head moving really really far would little contact us thing may think weve lost contact would surely make little sad knew dead option good would extremely long letter explaining choice they hopefully could understand respect accept it maybe even combination two ideas thanks nick,1 +head hurts sooo uhm yeah might drinking problem causing go back bad habits whoops,0 +since posted hereeverything felt like could cope since last post gran died yesterday told idiot feeling way unrelated things thought dad finally done something nice dug vinyl basement ive talking past two years turns sister suddenly shown interest today feeling great me feel fucking stupid feeling again exactly last post like justified feel way thought could cope now thought id worked now im tired feeling stupid second best feel like matter anyone would difference dead,1 +dont got many friends feeling good common taught sense less friendsyou ought depressed annoying sometimes still gets feel quite happy,0 +havent lived youve heard sea shanties,0 +venting right knowsi really wish truly loved someone soon got kicked exs home grandma feel tho eager turn stab back im still sure may agreeing grandma get crazy ass leave alone know next weekend goes way expect go nothing left gonna act redflag plan belive anyone ever gave flying fuck im mistake child severe mental disorders worsened abuse feeling love since ish never knew express emotion properly thanks parents may veey undoing one relationship think really loved person,1 +plani mean plan going not go phases seems endless pretty much cycle thought whats point gets old slightly less bolder people wait idea redflag instead physically acting it plan it like if life get better year ill kill myself sort deal ive given im im nothing really changes think theres much point keeping shitty outlook affects people around know ill stick it moment ive pretty cemented long time now,1 +give upmy life fallen shit past months ive typically antisocial introverted began making effort get know people more partially succeeded feel guise fake persona someone far actually feel ive lost actual personality trying make friends shit well managed fall love one confessing sent letter essentially detailing friends felt obliged give letter solely circumstances hit pretty fucking hard big enough part life get away depression redflag first time feel like ive dug hole get of redflag honestly looks like better option continuing live shit ive flung im tired living say least,1 +friends suicidal dont know dotwo people know suicidal one cuts arms constantly talks ending it tried end life occasions help prevent it sorry isnt post this please tell post it,1 +batman movie quite good batman mask phantasm batman mr freeze subzero still good installment batman cartoons say equally good batman beyond movie movie good reasons storyline good quite good ones still pretty good lots action cartoon effects good voice actors really good kevin conroy batman bruce wayne tara strong barbra gordon efrem zimbalist jr eli marienthal robin villains good kyra sedgwick batwoman david ogden stiers pequin hector elizondo bane sure disappointed batman mystery batwomen make sure rent buy batman mystery batwoman movie really goodbr br overall score br br ,0 +obtained anime woman yea thats basically,0 +dont want eat im reason im never bothered eating feel like im gaining weight never bothered motivation go get proper food sometimes im hungry eat cookie thats it dont eat breakfast sometimes eat lunch sometimes dinner barely feel like eating,0 +constantly controlled abuser fight continued harassment court controlled emotionally abusive husband cant leave money kids together starting become seriously suicidal last year birthday made serious almost successful attempt life redflag triggers even bad these birthday coming february know do,1 +feel worthless inferior person must kill myselfi failed kill past feel worthless must die introverted like myself wrong introverted must kill myself stressful people try talk me must kill cannot change personality im sorry bother people this probably best die contribute anything anyway,1 +im doneim going end life lock over live ive never experienced something positive parents hate every day wake making life hell one cares abusive relationships bad friends adhd autism spectrum disorder tried follow religion get relief cant see any tried taking hobbies cant see any get free access dorms uni parents rent place find job theyll dictating making life hell im walking punching bag nothing else,1 +feet pics emeralds h villagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfiller villagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfillervillagerfiller,0 +guyswhat friend benefits really mean thought someone friend eat money copy homework,0 +minute still hate life,0 +thoughts feelings every day wall detailed text inbound hey guys going long one going read way end might want get comfy would first like disclose immediate distress sort making plans snuff anytime soon least yet ive lurking subreddit little now ive got say actually refreshing see people getting helpful answers comfort rather typical know feel classic help there even better people spam redflag hotlines number everywhere look im knocking redflag hotline anything like that helps someone immediate crisis power them knocking friends really know better help distressed state like that personally redflag hotline never effective parrot back things im telling add im sorry must tough everything say offense mirror effective people need someone listen thats okay im need well bit point ive seen others getting things chest guess thats im right now things ive seen people post similar thoughts others not one similar things intent taking immediate action quite people basically accepted likely going die redflag one people already method mind one messy mostly painless make easy clean authorities find body likely thing eventually get sick given familys medical history father brain cancer got treatment got witness slow decline new wife leaving she one destroyed relationship first place nursing home possibly dementia one thins lot cancer survivors talk toll takes loved ones medical costs constant treatments doctor visits spite strong person withering away shell former self ive already decided something similar happens me start putting plan motion loved ones assuming even still alive taken care of going way nah takes courage however something conflicted by long mother father alive cant put that circumstances went far en extreme would ever even consider that slowly developed toxic trait wish harm loved ones find wishing would go freak accident would pass away sleep something effect longer world could finally give permission take life thoughts feelings like make feel like real piece shit course past couple years distanced away acquaintances even closest friends hoping think little bit less and less day way reason end taking life hurt badly forget wrote it said person dies once first time physical body twice name spoken aloud last time last fleeting thought crosses someones mind last time know mean well friends is things say annoys hell me professional help there situation wouldve gotten long time ago thats things though took long time realize this want help already takes much motivation te bare minimum get by im going go someone ive never met develop trusting relationship break barriers put brick brick tell entire uncensored life story theyre going tell slowly start working things like thought process give pills keep among things work next years life away pray major catastrophe happen mean time die yay besides really much go far religious beliefs afterlife feel like magic words pills could put would magically make believe santa clause god change views world matter know probably thinking that point seen way certain situations play out way sociological constructs work cant really unsee it past ive told people things run mind daily basis im told need grow thats life quite frankly never asked begin with thinking way im ungrateful selfish immature person fuck that no whats selfish people claim would miss shit like that go says months time without talking eachother staying here thoughts feelings suffering worth minutes interaction eachother interactions even give second thought go sleep night im selfish one right ive come realize humans one shittiest things happen earth know good ones there humansare cutthroat species ever exist one going friend unless something gain use you nice something people edge bets society taught way theyre suppose act behind closed doors kind remarks love hospitality vanishes cant okay find comfort fact way society is future ahead me one riddled bullshit always struggling make ends meet im tired trying giving all pushing feelings thoughts putting happy face draining always struggling make ends meet im tired best never enough started new job month half ago keep saying iwas great im good everything do hire new person thats fill pick extra shifts okay thought lets see goes im pretty sure know going lets see low behold sudden getting shifts would normally get later find lot experience already front desk agent hotel im basically getting two days night audit lady off rest basically played ear helping house keepers shit like that matter put little euphemisms such busy work sure might lending hand makes jobs little easier helps cut time take clean rooms im part time guy now matter job im doing try try again amazing work ethic always time im great customers im professional time personal engaging guess understand always second choice know happy even job right now swift kick balls finally found something like doing im always pushed aside people makes feel like failure cant even thought adequate basic level jobs like front desk agent holiday inn express making hour half decent job always picks people me trying best applying never good enough places decide give chance take in point highlight day getting work watching bit youtube take ungodly amount counter sleep aids pass out theres something love much warm fuzzy feeling get kick in fighting bit enjoy finally kick in really wish could give life someone would actually use it someone would actually enjoy it way intend going out maybe call authorities right it get time organs able donated need them way death could give someone new lease life hell ever robbery something someone tried mug id everything power get killed ive even thought something horrible ended dying result loved ones miss much even bring that putting weight moms shoulders especially would bury child mother guy decided shootout police gun full blanks redflag cop also messy even though job would go home sit dinner table remember shot guy earlier today one deserves live weight shoulders stupid decisions want go sleep wake up slowly forgotten everyone elses lives go normal maybe even better perhaps someone scientific mindset imagine death like going sleep never wake again believe afterlife reincarnation heaven hell anything effect think trying imagine anything death would like trying remember birth time spent womb speaking biological son barely knows existence tried there mother see good father man god fine dandy though since found someone ended two kids married him signed rights full custody best regardless bringing churchgoing godfearing christian didnt loving siblings something wanted did stable family father figure couldve actually taught things things could never do lot friends think want know older strongly disagree honestly thats best disrupt natural order things make suggestions get told tell raise child made right decision seeing watch grow sidelines place polar opposite person spiritual beliefs hanging around hes happy thats whats import me hes happy without me take chance confusing fucking things up theres much could type make damn bit difference im ready end time im terrified it reasons know best guess would death permanent thing cant comprehend existing like explaining earlier really like reason fear it since going happen us eventually embrace it made far wall text would like thank patience so another day life suicidal nutcase someone take comfort knowing alone way feeling thinking maybe afraid say aloud type out know word right way even anonymity bunch strangers reddit applies you best say take one day time think many ahead end eventually,1 +sitting park wondering frisbees get bigger get closer hit me,0 +really sure anymorehi want start saying nothing tragic happened lost family member anything like that none less still consider redflag everyday option honest guts even pain probably would dont way painlessly right would consider even more every time contemplate cutting cant scars would still manage heal this also parents would send hospital straight away could impact year old year old brothers love much basically hope thats keeping alive right now hope normal again reason feel way impossible talk people properly anymore in real life way look impossible look uncomfortable social situations truthfully am basically shit scared people now including family im really sure screwed know life went downhill ever since year im year developed believe chronic dry eyes sleep deprivation anxiety social awkwardness depressed name probably feel it never drugs smoked yet still look act talk bit like drug addict ok reason life went downhill year onwards well basically move statesaustralia met someone who wish never met got addicted game masturbation porn became consumed masturbating porn found self energy play sport especially soccer cognitive skills window ever since then used really sporty kid really likeable enthusiastic life feel like energy drained zombie every day im sure masturbation problem tried stopping see improvement still stressed etc although managed stop week already several doctors specialists eyes nothings helped im starting lose hope self feel like every year going get worse worse think ill ever get job way am drive anything want homeless know deep really smart person hidden behind wall shit thats happening me theres anyone help would much obliged thank you,1 +feel like ive tried everything try keep afloathi year old male here depressed since high school severely depressed since beginning college still think redflag days problem telling things get better always turn wrong things might get better moment moment general way way truly counts always find asking why kill last yearor last month years ago nothing made want live since ive always felt impending doom future ie insecurities say thats depression gets unreasonably think sure enough currently experiencing doom gradually intense way over years always feared happened everyone telling life gets better ive learned right hate sporadic periods hope end disappointing me hope curse convinces stick around longer ive tried therapy meds talking friends gym sports like build tolerance simply effect anymore know else do,1 +im another problemi see people post things here things could help think wow could say things like cant im good helping im good making people worry,1 +really bad spot right honestly know nobody ask helpi shitty eastern european country live alone money food left supposed wait end month get money scholarship university supposed get month got postponedi tried everything charity city food pantries like usa even church could get help nothing else besides phone need take online examsi amhungry tired anxious cannot even sleep redflag feel life completely done nobody ask help asked made feel like piece shit askingi know anyone talk please calm down rock bottom alone,1 +took photos damn im kinda hot ya know mean dont mean im feeling confident,0 +im thirteen yay wanted share im finally able sub really content post ill try creative later on,0 +feeling suicidal stop playing safecurrently unemployed married going years together kids dogs cat ongoing depression anxiety job search feeling pretty worthless ive thinking ending all read skimmed post sub someone said paraphrasing have ever dated guy want know like got thinking ive trying live life based messing existing life trying get back somewhere around was maybe right approach mean really thinking killing myself got lose completely crazy would even opportunity live much fear time wish would go away,1 +send link post ill give award got free award reddit thought pay forward please link reddit post fee deserves award btw applause award,0 +dms open lets interesting chat whatever me likes getting stickbugged prefers girls flat chest good keeping chat,0 +disappointing part kinda wondered even bother next karate kid could see saga continue still enjoyed next karate kid second third karate kid movies unrealistic moments situations enjoyable story catchy warm onebr br hilary swank girl come far what plays rebel girl lost parents car accident miaugi sort babysits per say notices karate skills offers lessons becomes serious life course boy likes mean bullies pretty similar first karate kid would recommend one think pleasantly surprisedbr br ,0 +ladies gentlemen may done it may gotten girl type like me maybe not may have,0 +chronicles hopeful existencewe imagine young children grow great things use inspiration logic please know inspiration doesnt affect me im privileged blessed person raised guaranteed success got education failed endeavor let myself worked years made thought good money whilst blowing alcohol drugs debt im point going norm choices go grid saying fuck leave life saying fuck it im worried heaven hell believe see darkness passing nothing souls born another life know many live worse existences world cant help them would hurt take one person overpopulated equation mom yes her would destroy her wonderful faith tall tale jesus answer her cant even answer phone anymore anyways carry fellows arent meant this see another time,1 +losti want make post educate people looked signs redflag because everyone overlooked ignored mine wife affair decided rip family apart ive made many references detailed jokes kill myself hanging rafter tall bridge near live everyone laughs says yeah right even best friend said id prefer didnt ive battling months now ive made decision wife going holiday lover th three days it one knows one paid attention pleas help kills leaving behind month old year old daughter read wifes diary found influencing daughter call daddy pappa simply reinforces fact needed temporary as always been posting sympathy posting people underatand little comments may think funny joke actually request cry help finis vitae around th th ill make sure kids safe home night notify friends neighbors please ignore signs time realize maybe late time passed love forgiveness all gabriel,1 +good day lads yeah good day sidenote birthday,0 +cant post polls here thats boring fuck see title wanna collect data sell big corporations money dumbfuck mod team disabled polls seriousness able polls sub would kinda cool feel like people cant assed leave comments,0 +girl liked long kept messing were together today im going house well alone so think first kiss going today happy thats,0 +im thinking getting rid need adviceim im probably looking attention really want end life diagnosed depression months ago still cant get life barely go school family sick me ive hit mam multiple times disabled might add im able control matter family even said nobody wants anything anymore it,1 +man say dog died ees hongry,0 +fun fact brown eyes beautiful especially honey brown,0 +remembering mom singing sunshine moves tears thing keeps calmshe used sing time little lullaby im feel good times gone dad says make new memories together family isnt same asked mom sing didnt sound like soothing voice remember cried tonight im crying now thought forgot cry cant resist it looking old toys old memories ill never times back remember going park dad kindergarten playing autumn try recreate memories isnt same one lyric song breaks me please dont take sunshine away want die badly im sunshine cant leave life stressful dont understand feel like im falling lyric telling stay shes telling stay cant handle it cant im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared good times gone want go badly song damn song damn lyric cant dont know do,1 +pregnant bf flat broke live week week car stopped working still drug user family money friends point suicide want termination two girls work found pregnant say it know whether tell people complications lost baby kill myself please give advice someone laying bath knife bf asleep couch downstairs calling ungrateful bitch said cannot provide us family verge giving real time,1 +got girls number first time ever first time went comfort zone asked girls number need advice girls guys game track field practice never met before introduced back kept talking till practice ended easy fimd keeping conversation going asked snap couldnt find account went way give number number fake wondering guy asks girls number gives it chances shes interested girls give numbers guys think friends with like odds finds attractive im going jump gun anything im confused intentions like guy asks girls number gives like non verbal agreement interested knowing eachother more also chances gave number would feel bad saying no thanks help,0 +imdoinf ir right nowaorry im thinking right,1 +failing redflag years sure would work tonight body keeps failing meive depression since motorbike crash sustained severe brain injury permanent brain damage frontal lobe syndrome struggle much stuff filter anymore stupid things one tell brain injury im still communicative feel like complete different person acts impulsively ptsd insomnia mixed anxiety disorder depression classed chronic insurer refusing treat me one understands feel face everything apparently appear absolutely fine never talk people brain past mentioned something people disregarded said im fine mood swings severe go high extreme low try i think first usually always act kill myself kid know much redflag overdosed times pills so naive ended hospital watch crash brain changed depressed long time tried take life several times downed v large bottle oramorph online drank times fatal dose again incredibly stupid decided bottle instead sporadically drinking it course body puked straight away left much alive vision almost completely gone several hours closest point ever got to tried hang banister stairs low suspended drop pretty painless lost consciousness body thrashed leg reached back edge step right tried tonight noose hanging loft steps suspended hang hurting time body begins jolt pull up cant lose consciousness seconds like says online also hurts lot time sure do want end body wont let,1 +day masturbating first started may pm mnt standard time currently november pm mnt standard time running weeks days nothing say,0 +still stalker mean like real stalker knows dont tell coz u better leave alone,0 +pp hard boi wake up biology someone knows biology pls help think something blood pressure blood flow know rhymes sorry also im sad,0 +want kill otherstoday walking saw two happy girls chatting laughing enjoying life instead happy that immediately thought murdering them knife think ill ever something like ever since became suicidal kind thoughts became something ordinary me,1 +need talk feel like least one friend leave tonighti really need someone talk to one talked another human months posted one ever really talks me last chance im staring sleeping pills want take tonight least id something eat im literally dying one friend tonight go,1 +wrote note bought rope im watching tutorials tie hangmans knotim losing god mindi really wanna die day im slowly becoming convinced way pathetic life ive depressed years theres end sight soulcrushing pandemic worst is tell anyone irl feel theyll send back icu could get sick virus die anyway could also stuck people much unstable me mercy another bureaucratic powertripping doctor looks patients enduring worse death imo ive holding long can give one good reason keep holding further,1 +born waywhy trans feelings family never accept live transphobic country difficulty imagining body ever looking like girl gets worse every day want exist anymore,1 +kill meim damn tired,1 +watching hour creepypasta video it idk gonna continue hell yes,0 +going describe judge comments name redacted call dooramii year old girl like eddsworld danganronpa ojamajo doremi mixels lego movie course like playing legos playing videogames steam account minecraft accounts subscribed youtube channels timtamtom chris cross iilluminaughtii schaffrilas productions living tombstone vivziepop eddsworld rebeltaxi play roblox premium simp fictional characters picture face httpspreviewredditalfjmxyrjthpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfeffcdcfdedacddfdeeb,0 +common problem see often recently ive seeing lot posts comments saying much people hate subreddit gone complete shit anything along lines dont like something going change leave ignore it change want see whether thats real world online dont afraid voice opinion youre likely one said thoughts opinions stay hydrated homies,0 +dropped shortly turning turned now cannot believe fast time moves barely recall anything happened almost nothing years probably deep undiagnosed depression looking back iti feel like mentally physically developed since turned makes sick stomach could coma years nothing would changedmy real excuse major surgery put commission course wielded shield questions responsibilities passed faked distance education age covid served grand excuse first months last year snapped ridiculous mindset mid earned spot decent university starting properly age many people mind straight finished iti redflag even completely palmed life money game without considering experiences missing going answer age question maintaining straight face months feel like missed much already actions taking mostly meaningless people knew already kids getting promotions going grad school fun got big circle friends show iti fucking even time year degree over thinking close makes upset taking stock writing helps even one reads it hold hatred anyone myself deal much lost time,1 +life really worth livingin world power conscious greed limit leads endless killing suffering really point life all may good bad realistically speaking know good enough outweigh bad im going insane unable cope day day wished could muster last minute insane courage die already,1 +something triggered earlier insides turning burning ripping apart feel like nothing ever going fill way hole chest needs filledi feel hopeless suicide feels like optionmy hands aching scratch torso open stop feelings make feel like world disgusting cruel feel like drowning sea shit gets worse burning,1 +want nice day wonderful week keep head everything work eventually dont let people put down youre wonderful you,0 +advice dogs dog adopt dont shop also check rdogelore,0 +people dont speak english english st languagewhen suicidal thoughts never language idk always english weird often read posts english mind remembers that me someone please answer,1 +feel like one feels miserable life right now happy feeling alone,1 +dont understand illicit drugs bro would even waste money something cause problems solves yo btw also include ciggies despite illegal,0 +want go onim yo school student experiencing suicidal thoughts since despite well school music still feel like disappointment due several bad behavioural tendencies short violent temper lot issues anxiety due constant bullying lot time feel like worth tried get help past worked time ive mentioned wanting kill harm parents theyve gotten angry called stupid feel like cannot get form help due ingrained paranoia something go horribly wrong tried cutting myself always weak it help matters either so long story short feel ready end all feel conflicted people keep trying show good life throw off threaten replicate kill myself know anymore,1 +sex made hate humanitysex made hate humanity simple pretend culture society group people illusion coherency mirage togetherness real real slightest war behind scenes instead front face nature would breeding would exiled killed point lost me know need die simple part evolutionary process pinned inside us innate fundamental need drink stream sex made hate humanity obvious fascinating would be wasnt disgusting sick people say nature perfect beautiful nature wrathful disgusting means genocide taking place across planet indicative nature anything dont get it while society right thing evolving away animal roots becoming civilized becoming evil base hormones pheromones firing off ruling us anymore nothing here body vessel torn shredded missing planks sinking dying drowning happens slowly inhale water choke public one cares opposite fact speak people laugh fundamentally mock you everyone does understand men kill themselves personally afraid death process jumping bridge becoming paraplegic shooting face brain surviving want death anything stopped enjoy life years ago realized going alone id around bunch people pretending fun bet part it effort mattered make mistake body wrong effort halved best might worth it not alone nothing ever done worked idiot disgusting flesh blob attractive worthy touch one tried suggestions tried methods joined groups saw much attractive apparently everyone me barely get people look eyes open mouths toward me anything actually intimate never happen again monster would totally lash out get that sympathize understand immense pain people clearly put through similar wont solve anything im logical hate people theyre logical helps them get it selfinvolved beasts one deserves anything thats attractive people deserve wonderful lives ugly men like deserve slowly fall apart lonely neurotic messes muscles tense crack pop walk begging finger run them let loosen human fucking touch thats im going kill myself make mistake will people around go well could done different could given chance human you thats way much ask amount words ever change human needs either society needs adapt many men kill themselves know almost excites us though said that probably encourage it like get off society male suffering,1 +david lynch usually makes films resemble puzzles put together wrong way interesting look think really gel mind perhaps art always mean creatorbr br the straight story typical david lynch film theres anything typical anyway odyssey rural america real life journey alvin straight took lawn mower get brothers house rode miles laurens iowa mt zion wisconsin make amends sick brother past offensesbr br at heart film sweet voiced richard farnsworth brings alvin straight right us simple honest way fact film slow paced matches alvins slow journey toward realizationbr br along way alvin meets confused frightened young girl pregnant decided run away situation listening alvin speak family reconsidersbr br later alvin witnesses distraught woman kill deer car complains killed several leaves alvin feels bad smart enough cook dear meat nightbr br later alvins lawn mower loses brakes nearly kills him nice man wife let stay yard gets fixed even let call sweet slow daughter nicely played sissy spacek whose haunted terrible tragedy past alvin insists paying call man even offers drive alvin brothers pleasure alvin declines thanksbr br while alvin waits also goes bar kindly old man discuss harshness war price took souls alvin even confesses fatal mistake made sniper forever haunted himbr br alvin also encounters two bickering brothers whove repaired lawn mower talks price wisely calling high labor repair costs even helps appreciate one another learning mistakes brotherbr br the night alvin leaves mans yard takes hat him man tells honor stay asks alvin write him scene perfect simplicity heartfelt straight realbr br the journey continues cant help get involved it want alvin get brothers want make amends want know world full forgivenessbr br this richard farnsworth best last film performance amazing cant help understand pride listen wisdom ultimately feel pain one becomes taken man offers back yard stay inbr br if theres justice afterlife alvin straight brother richard farnsworth together sitting bar picture discussing lives regrets hopes joys alvin says film my brother used look stars well know best view house,0 +hello playmatesi recently watched film first time ever also first experience arthur askey admit impressed film fan black white films generally passport pimlico lavender hill mob tommy trinder who apparently distant relative film appealed provided good old fashioned british humour notice criticised askeys performance however opinion stands test time fine example forties comic acting anything adds picture creating characters mere stereotypes seem dominate films nowif get hold film would recommend get hold itshame films generally shown sunday afternoons anymorei also glad opportunity watch another piece work arnold ridley private godfrey dads armyi thank,0 +ive really turbulent month unexpected bills trouble old landlord resulted almost minus account almost rice feed myself moved got scammed deposit landlord still awaiting buy new things aswell take care sick mate would really appreciate help could feed upcoming time sure offer much return except utmost gratitude though tell need anything might able help really last resort me food banks nearby family could get help unfortunately thanks advance reading cheers location denmark,0 +god sake let diei cant anymore want therapy want anything wanted gone lack so nobody lets get drunk know lose fucking survival instinct nothing stop so im tired crying every corner hiding everyone hating myself need end this theres point staying here,1 +diagnosed bipolar disorder ii due financial problem able continue medication year also cannot afford therapy country health insurance mental healthfor part year feel like really need medication anymore well cured really bipolar all days even feel strangely positive hopeful even though pretty much given life even non depressive state days like this paralyzed past hurts unable move on thought move things depressed comes rushing backi trying psyche myself think positively giving headache brain constantly feeds failures inadequacy try feed positive thoughtsbut feel tired want think anymorei just empty empty,1 +really need someone talk toi know sounds stupid told friend suicidal thoughts said messagecall anytime want talk anxiety kind feel like putting burden messaging her come reddit find someone talk to feel completely utterly alone moment ever im group always feel like im one always background one would notice disappear also problems feel comfortable posting publicly,1 +im scared ill regret itim scared ill regret it feel bad leaving parents brother two family dogs theyve much help me care me love much still want die cant fuxking suffer anymore anxiety sucks depression sucks symptoms come sucks life sucks like live wanna go really do im anxious scared go one knows happens death reincarnated afterlife absolutely nothing gone know much,1 +person dmed claimed knowing everything me driving house every night asked could prove telling least one crumb information wouldnt pedophile,0 +fun fact friday dolphins sleep one eye open,0 +texted different redflag text lines morning am still answer single one ami really bad suicidal thoughts bad anxiety crying trembling uncontrollably vomiting going hot cold sweats want burden boyfriend sleeping tried texting hotline get like cannot bring speak words reason title says ive response whatsoever making feel hopeless fuck like different hotlines redflag answer adamant killing would done already absolutely help thing thats keeping fact boyfriend cat would homeless alive make money apartment anyone know seek help better way google redflag hotlines bc cant anything without risking losing job apartment relationship,1 +hey yall im f super bored wanting talk well thats basically it im also zooted fuckerinod rn like deadass im living jupiter point hmu talk anything like space life viewer discretion advised,0 + minutes gone waste could way home rn,0 +anyone want talki feel today,1 +message automoderator hi automoderator unfortunately submission removed r teenagers following reasons messages may make people angry remove posts andor memes strictly forbidden please stop future please familiarise rules commenting submitting l _the_singularity_ action performed automatically please contact moderators subreddit questions concerns,0 +sun cant shine foreverim years old ive made abuse years sober opiate addiction selling opiates years got kicked week high school graduation homeless then papaw looked to shot drug addicted biological father drove tree died year fighting depression whole life amp traumaptsd past year finally path wanted be girlfriend loves almost years now pulled addiction amp never messed drugs got masters degree therapist trying help deal trauma forgave adoptive dad put good relationship well rest family now finally feeling happy past years even depressionif makes sense im barber school one top teacher said hed ever had spoke volumes since hes owned ran college years even one teaching classmates months school left graduate work job love vape shop building coils make people healthier hadnt thought redflag years now never thought worth shit slowly shown was girlfriend would tell me survived struggles amp happy found outthe sun shine long june th year tuesday woke late class hurried get showered ready dont remember much day remember some tuesday monday worked late night overslept time heading car class starts goes till pm amp minute drive town bigger city get gas also rush gas station miles away drove parkway towards gas station mph speed limit mph without seatbelt cause hurry sunny warm fresh air smelled great knew good day got mile parkway fast lanethen next thing remember someone saying ive called ambulance coming call you immediately remembered moms phone number i lived adoptive dad amp little sister could get back feet gave number asked happened next memory morning helicopter noises next memory days later pain never felt way second set surgeries hours surgery total lots blood transfusions days remember anything more semi truck wasnt looking morning pulled straight fast lane front me hit mph nobody understands didnt die engine pushed dash causing stuck right hip amp pelvis shattered left hip amp pelvis severely broke dominant hand right one broken along right wrist thumb broken nose right knee bashed open exposing knee cap amp lot glass face months amp im still hospital bed parents front room cant walk bear weight sit wheelchair half hour so learn walk time comes seemed far away last month xrays showed hip muscles turning bone may require surgery cant get stopped im constant pain amp supposed take pain medication amp muscle relaxers times day along lot medications fought get away opiates im forced back them likely recover enough barber needing full motion right hand amp needing stand day hated waking late morning everyday now struggle didnt end like thought became harder worse forced lay watching life move everyone else stand still me wish didnt survive amp want end now today could take dont know struggle anymore tried positive amp strong im tired strong shoes walked miles life soles weight ive carry amp road feels like end dont know start again dont know smile dont know want live isnt living im crying help feel like one listened traumas come back made forget night terrors killing amp im terrified sleep dont know ill see dreams ive always told im needed planet amp might know yet ill find one day im strong enough stay fight another day ive prolonged inevitable sad truth sun shine brighter everyone knows go everybody take care im wearing thin drowning me dont think make this,1 +sometimesthink future like dont kill turning ill go move girlfriend canada since saving slowlybut problem then get job im dumb college good paying job would require degree start think maybe stripper realise pole dancing skills actually look good fucks everything maybe prostitute girlfriend says doesnt want im thinking selling virginity trying sexually related job requires fuck even look good actual skillsi dunnoim useless,0 +every american thinks understands world war two see movie hollywood films war defied stereotype japanese soldiers emotionless brutes obeying orders without thinking like think every japanese man ready able fight death right day bombed nagasaki fires plain shows different reality troops pathetically undersupplied demoralized starved point cannibalism euphemistically refer human flesh monkey meat movie novel based also put death myth japanese soldiers preferred death surrender good reason believe enemies mood take prisoners raises question americans would rather avoid japanese military beaten point war necessary nuke hiroshima,0 +asker crush together cant express happy am,0 +everyone exists chaos level basically sum up amount chaos prone life whole universe something decides born learn live it neurotypicals rich people pretty people etc struggles yes absolutely struggles completely separate type chaos talking about talking type chaos exemplified people like me bad childhood mental illness bad genes etc etc etc ultimately learned cope much possibly can think people like me coping never enough never full month life severely suicidal least week it never true stability like people many areas life shambles cannot possibly change fundamental issues comes actually able happy daily basis people say change completely ignoring word fundamental bullshit people get lucky people try convince us could like kept itwell let tell something people optimistic person know even finish writing this probably smoke bowl watch netflix pass out rest assured suffering begins anew tomorrow always always shred optimism core preventing leaving shitty world yet enough stop constant mood swings listless problems seem face daily basis could look it another way long meds stop working again another psychiatrist leaves cannot this will cannot maybe find hopeful personally another slap face terribly aware unfair life yet able escapei hope browsing subreddit find actually one people manageable amount natural chaos eternal curse constantly managing convince am think finally figured,1 +thank reading this im sorry seems important annoying thought id let someone knows kids please treat nicely idea abusive acts would bring kids would affect treat siblings friends people theyd meet later life,1 +accidentally flipped mom riding bike neighborhood yesterday almost home im turning corner near apartment car behind honks me lot people area cant drive shit people honk aggressivelyshare road assholes tried hit cars bike lane anyways glanced behind thought driver another one freaks held hand kept pedaling car followed alley leads apt driver honked bunch times got pretty mad turned head put middle finger them car sped passed me rolled window andsurprise surprise mom,0 +gonna listen whole album right now one sitting not going tpab filler filler filler filler gshshsbsbsbsbsbsnehehsh,0 +want cry want cry please send videos make cry hard cry please need this,0 +welp lost day duolingo streak im sad duo send notif smt,0 +suppose could called anxietyhi im really suicidal still need help depressionrelated thing actually ive never diagnosed mental disorder never hospitaltherapist anything mentalrelated still often feel dull depressed often reason also find hating many people things feeling listless lazy weak lot time life simple im lonely real friends stick internet write poetry also play video games process also meet great people ive one girlfriend long distance relationship that sum relationship great lasted three years best friend ive ever had also got intimate sexual basically obsessed her seriously mean obsessed friend else would invest attention towards eventually broke me reasons understand sure still feel sorrow it im one dwell get suicidal it still feel depression felt quiet dull weakness made never felt like anything happened absolutely reason understand actual depression pathetic laziness like mentioned earlier never bothered visit therapist know now bring two main concerns regarding summary provided depression put quotes know real not parents believe mental disorders say im play many video games rarely go outside however young ten would remember feeling like this absolutely reason even social active want know go get checked that ive always thought something random sadness would come inside me also severe anger would feel little things should someone explain dowhere best kind place go would be general stuff obviously since never considered seeing therapist before information regarding that anything know depression would greatly appreciated strange mentioned earlier girlfriend intimate sexual obsessed too ways breakup im longer contact her longer awesome pictures used enjoy feel different im constantly mean constantly stomach pains kind feeling get vomit feel pressure building stomach throat ive vomitted many times too almost every day it eating patterns always that im also skinny person puking daily good thing feeling however dies thinking her happen see picture her mention anywhere instantly feel immensely sick either throw feel like stuck throat almost completely sure link sexual obsession her still see before sexy beyond girl ever seen etc etc that happen see ordinary picture her immediately get crazy horny really strange new feeling me know possible get horny also feel sick time would like ideas suggestions deal this kind anxiety would be matters im year old guy know problem big deal really felt need talk receive intelligent advice it would grateful people could help guide recommend things could fix issues oh im also extremely antisocial selfconscious awkward uninteresting im suicidal often ill start thinking reason wishing dead go weird confusing feeling,1 +lgbtq sin im going hell isnt im still going hell,0 +hello first let start saying like all realizing little mean people giving up soon me going break mirror hope one shards big enough stab throat with bleed death probably suffocate okay either one really matter long job gets done cannot stand living endless repetitive regret fun birthday next month one ever cared abt birthday even alive feel loved anyone alone hate much would rather die continue living like this already self harm stuff big deal right gives shit anymore never really mattered first place born dad could play house mother absolutely disgusting life wasted is good guess want everything end healthy way life huh,1 +think friend different country might commit redflagi live us friend lives ecuador said goodbye forever asked please hurt herself do would liable it asked tried help said cannot report police know real name address want liable,1 +rendered beautiful water colors ponyo cliff definitely sight behold vaguely remembering trailer witch find impressive surprised beautiful detailed was film washed puritybr br at center young boy comes contact sea creature relationship carries movie miyazaki master creating memorable imagery showing young ones interacting believable way little quirks intactbr br there parts sit well me would understatement say music particular scene resembled ride valkyrians shame precious film cant afford take liberties hurt otherwise truly great scene antagonist backstory never interested either guess served background anything elsebr br anyway great film boat trip scenario imagery seacreatures stood thinks pure magical yes handrawn artwork intimate computer animated im really pumped princes frog now,0 +major breakdown tonight scared alone knew would anything drastic matter getting closer friend mine really care respect one awake time kept going back forth eventually ended asking check tomorrow really needed someone call me worried pushing boundary friend suddenly since know much mental illnesses right feel like asked want respond tomorrow matter say would rather say all feel like let alone moment tomorrow feel like moved on also want jeopardize friendship one coolest people know never wanted come burden much work with idk worried made mistake idk done next ever since march depressions getting worse again want friend worry too sucks told friend check idk right call,1 +happy crisgunamcus big day fellas crazy think week isnt it,0 +ordered suppliesjust seeds dried leaves specific plant eat drink tea paralyze lungs idea year over sayonara suckaz,1 +help teacher yelling class going die streets two kids forgot homework why forgetting assignment isnt going make everyone class homeless future jeez,0 +ive really fucking stressed end everythings fucked want let thoughts talk ever since winter break ended everything mes going hill or even farther hill winter break even ended got several school assignments graded poorly made want work even harder feel like ive failing really hard today decisions made ago came bite ass cant sleep shit mind actually cant remember last time good night sleep keep telling gonna ok dont shape soon could affect entire life ive reflecting ive realized alone am ive always know ive always passed jokes im really alone good friends get hang xbox rd one havent seen like month virtual school even though still talk lot discord im really getting worried social life im dont real close ties wont even start talking girls cuz im completely hopeless especially greatest skill bottling emotions think bottling emotions comes dealing mom shes got lot shit basically whenever gets really mad me brother dad really tries hurt us like really hurt us im one family doesnt know anything im aware protects dont tell anyone anything also fell really bad absolutely hate brother cant deny anymore even though know unfair him hes never done anything wrong fact hes naturally stronger promised future plenty friends basically anything better makes course super jealous even though hes barely done anything deserve hating him top things ive essential crisis stress hatred sadness left wanting end give think thing keeping im scared whats beyond also fact im aware things makes think able better myself cant makes hate even more first time life ive felt totally helpless seems place turn to thanks anyone read far,0 +kind overdose kill mehi ive intrusive suical thoughts almost month now lost job ive wanted years managed make two shifts last time came broke tears front everyonethe customers boss coworkers etc boss said would best got help trying maintain working im really frustrated working since end july year months ive let many job opportunities slip away cant bring get bed want die im looking kind attention want know overdose like would kill me ill way took mg seroquel mg hydroxyzine mg lexapro mg famotidine would kill me id rather life long complications like liver problems brain problems want stop existing right make sure ill gone im going cut arms let bleed,1 +epic gamer pp arent funny anymore cringe again least me wanna say power you cringe,0 +anyone awake even chat nothing would help right nowhey anyone awake live canada coming bender helped mask anxiety depression everything flooding im alone watching tv room would nice someone chat am cant really reach anyone without waking fucking day tuesday havent slept since saturday night hours,1 +day posting lines bee movie every day get so wow im out cant believe im out blue feel fast free box kite wow flowers,0 +minecraft dog died named lucky went mining fell pit lava miss ,0 +nothing left cannot even right give switch lives someone abouttodie really want leave body scary tatics end life working igottahangmyself please entity anyone power please end me going end jail eventually sleeping am get jail sleep outside,1 +slowly giving upi job future planned true friends energy make new ones ive living depression many years now im tired sit cry never wanted live past wish courage strength end nightmare life then really want exist anymore,1 +found big funny simple do go google translate put vert angry sentences monty python quotes play audio,0 +ive seen various hamlets ive taught play watch jacobi im tempted think hes every bit intelligent hamlet himself alive every nuance characters wit deepens rather solves every puzzle regarding hamlets character illuminates line line word word shining light sparkling mind time however cringe horror hamlet feels betrayalfar actorbecause jacobi feels pain profoundly anyone else shudder hamlets betrayals jacobi afraid baseness hamlet descend short jacobi gives us hamlet full hamlet full greatest character literature thats im satisfied jacobis hamlet finest performance ive seen actor,0 +everybody get ready funny monkey friday going make swag meals make new religions night,0 +son septic respiratory diredflag hours my husband know time medical staff incompetent realize ambulance staff even worse son almost died beatup ambulance well horrible finally got bigger hospital antibiotics nearly month,1 +hey natsuu need thighs lay httpsnewredditcomrteenagerscommentsltioeremember_that_guy_that_ended_questions_like_this,0 +want love people butif experience people past ish years going is going past days kind teetering edge wanting truly end everything but im still scared afterlife ever able rest never bothered again listen everyone money money lets whatever want move pos parents house never look back buy sex people hold shit head relationships contribute something loved otherwise lazy annoying piece shit thats waste space thats love according society loved are standards hard work teams hold others to reciprocate people ever keep promises you know else say anymore everyones going say fault anyways believe capitalist people eat alive shithole website run nerds survive job retail think theyre menial work like play video games watch anime shit responsibilities goals outside shit too wish someone would prove wrong doubt will im always told pray god never seek actual help something wrong wanting keep paycheck something wrong placing value human lives anything wrong believing things make life worth living yes matter snowflake must die collective cause organizations giving money relationships must left pick reference social cue go school us growing up part clique friend group etc working hard paying bills im responsible for making work time supposed privileged according people cant handle wrong considering ending everything whats wrong makes unlovable,1 +thinking decided im going kill im turn week im pretty fucked up thinking decided like said im preety fucked up lomg story short raped im preety anti social got trust issues mean damm like real real friends yeah preety lonely obvious reasons havent relationship like said trust issues im preety fucked up nothing really keeping it idk soon go camping trip blow head,1 +hey everyone hope okayive many therapist years realised working me really get anything already know feel like paying someone idle chatter with case therapistsis something do maybe keep trying find one actually feels worthwhile maybe stop togetherthanks reading question therapy,1 +bad parents inability decide overall badi committed college beginning may get wrong great school clue im life think logical make around every semester fulltime college student apparently do great city want able enjoy it that plus leaving home gives extreme anxiety work college would ultimately make im able make matters worse im still hung end basically twoyear relationship five months ago keep thinking things could done differently could better caused lot stress school since blamed entire thing want apologize point late plus would make look like fool even would put ease would make poeple dislike id admitting wrong thatd cause whole lot more hate seeing ex successful going one best schools state feel like im competition her go local community college ill consider failure even better decision myself hate living home parents supportive all keep saying got whole college mess want go chosen community college begin with change mind every second im scared leave one second cant wait meet roommate go college life next love job love people they truly make feel like matter super easy im good it issue deadend job id keep went community college near me but work out would then im also totally love coworker might affecting opinion think also think really cool friend im bad determining platonic romantic feelings either cool though yikes know situation kind unrealistic ill drop haha so go college not know decision make myself cant hence contemplation redflag lot im quite bad dealing unfortunately pause button life even know want die think feel important anyone life im unsure life course thats typical guess im conflicted really want anymore guess sad ive written redflag letter almost every month year months write little one feel like cold say goodbye many people care even really seem care anymore felt sad while want know do want know someone cares wants succeed kind feels like nobody does feels like nobody believes me im terrified failure even want try graduate eighteenth birthday never saw living past age seventeen im here hell doing clue im scared anything absolutely hate college could absolutely hate come back wasted first semester oh well im broke cant afford that cant certain ill actually end going anywhere life unless go school god know mind filled idea death want know people know ive lately want know care not im tired assuming do feel like let people know matter way much really seem care all like theyre affectionatecaring people probably me know really know looking posting this well maybe stemmed whole i seek validation romantic partners thing quite well college came again love would kind nice guess one funny thing happened though kind brightened day little last night trying make asmr video friend joke make laugh one soap cutting videos accidentally stabbed hand know sounds terrible kind funny fact lol,1 +zero tolerance xanax alcoholthat probably would end lifeit sad reality but people meant brought world xanax alcohol combo kill me,1 +late party star wars explain ampxb ast wuestion promise,0 +need help dealing acquaintance canadian input especially usefulhi guys first post sorry longer whats usually posted here guy know not closely live far away cannot help directly recently failed first semester college too late get courses currently debt always poor academic standing every subject seems academia in subjects question also likely chronic illnesshttpsenwikipediaorgwikiankylosing_spondylitis already appeared close family members limiting comes work trades ive proposed get diagnosis doctor least potentially get disability ontario plan cpp however hard motivate even this family members live like permanently afraid becoming like this would bad selfesteem however due illness getting wellpaid jobs in trades keeping years really hard also asthma keeps joining army know himself im bit stumped too ideas driving basic office work precise trade require much hard physical labor like watchmakers decades back ideasresources wellappreciated one family member grandfather supports lended college money told failing semester yet somewhat suicidal though thankfully extremely committed yet usual kinds cases ashamed finds existence useless thinks would useful society family dead constantly miserable mood wakes morning feeling hit car stuff think greatest longterm cure would fulfilling job ideas useful temporarily longer term,1 +song do know christmas offensive ignorant distasteful one song specifically ethiopia ever refer ethiopia africa reassuring rest world africa apparently single country rather entire continent people ignorant enough believe care enough educate themselves know people think egypt middle east secondly and snow africa christmas well yeah equator middle summer australia christmas make less christmasy them summer their christmas one grew with also do know christmas time dominant religion ethiopia roman catholic yeah im pretty sure do ethiopia also muslim care christmas care ramadan effect quality life knowing ramadan finally song depicts entirety ethiopia africa complete shit hole lyrics like gttheres world outside window world dread fear gtwhere water flowing bitter sting tears actually ethiopia famine northern part ethiopia tigray whole ethiopia africa like this rastafarians believe ethiopia holy land paints whole continent shithole nothing grows everyone starving death one area tigray famine s,0 +saw cat pissing outside window pissing mean it pissing bush,0 +it take jump scared fucking too overthink understand suicidal people considered selfish cowards opinion incredibly brave brave taking step unknown pulling plug brave taking matters hands never saying born saying way ends hope display bravery time there really hope will brave,1 +need advice know ask maybe guys help okay know belongs here know else hope get deleted something so days ago date birthday friend mine lost brother car accident told talked evening seem sad desperate know react this self defense mechanism realise happened yet do im needs help asked help yet cant presume pretending okay would tell me im wrong fine anything do im already doing would do im confused scared also sorry poor english im native speaker,0 +see genuine reason exist anymorei dont want exist every day consists either embarrassing reminded truly inferior compared around get miserable passing day oftentimes force stay standing literally collapse giving entirely cant find enjoyment anything hobby pastime desperately distract long enough dont remember absolutely fucking helpless truly am futurewise nothing look forward to live bloated egotistical country dying economy repeatedly told every single person know grateful suck up ever feel anger often exploding smallest inconvenience dont feel anger feel either nothing allconsuming despair longer go worse feel would mercy died quietly corner dorm instead forcing stay awake ive tried therapy medication never anything frankly dont want anything would happier couldnt remember anything,1 +guys happened game stop reddit keep seeing memes im confused,0 +normal emo teen boy wanna crushs slave normal ,0 +time hit woman kept hitting everyone got mad unfair im strong guy went playground babysitting kid one friend hits me thought gender equality decided hit back she years old used strength punched face launched meters away people got mad smh head dude live saucity,0 +counts diagnosed depressed clinically depressed get regular treatments therapist depressive suicidal thoughts something doctor fills out sort process go through,0 +im dead inside whats left now die physicallymy biggest fear height im minutes jumping window please need someone talk to please,1 +lost friendnote posted tifu subreddit found would appropriate post here im im sure begin im scared know do now friend one person a redflag hotline worker knew situation now know friend girl ive known two years knew internet know why never able make friends one would talk me one wanted talk me friend never really understood importance relevance human interaction met her much fun talking her enjoying others company never realised much fun talk someone never realised big world really was confess perhaps harboured unhealthy attachment her time year met alone finished college course stopped going work family went vacation like months always thought certain tolerance social isolation wrong leave home except buy food internet front me never approached people it real life one girl always reached me always initiated conversations confused first little annoyed isolation getting worse anyone talked me led believe one cared me one would care ceased exist started experiencing doubt wanted kill myself know trivial thing kill ones self over thats thinking make difference anyones lives whats point living whats point living cant useful girl always talked me slow process slow realise doubts became positivity happened happy sometimes would talk week excited giddy always looked forward messaging program would light corner make sound asinine thing happy about really content let know im complete recluse im waiter even basic level social intelligence felt indebted her incredible feeling know this tell happy it certainly know suicidal time debt weight all felt like purpose happy try repay it perhaps useful her admit fantasised partners scared would one benefiting relationship plus always relationship difficult find right time offer thought but honestly say still content friends fast forward year later gotten relationship someone strongly attached to never expected last knew person months half year best really happy enough make happy too felt horrible happened fell state depression always felt awful end relationships time hurt bad lasted longer facebook posts ominous chat program use often changed profile pictures crying people would change username something equally depressing worthless prominent one stuck really felt like needed something wanted me talk tried talking every day tried always initiate conversation maybe bombarding her gathered talking me suicidal say directly made afraid trying distract nasty stuff trying replace negativity positivity told once told take one step time told thought strong told felt saved her told talking alone but mention suicidal thoughts time moment got better last long near christmas getting worse felt friends facebook dancing around issue licking wounds dealing directly problem decided become villain thought confronted bit short term pain lay facts shell suffer moment realise world much bigger thought time time things getting heated said know felt partner told though hated say it said inexperienced relationships started online main setting all partner time someone often met real life though told insensitive replied knew was something mention depression often asked could talk again indirectly promise anything stupid feared still suicidal asked could talk again asked apologise refused saying did would mean words meant nothing apologised hurt left heated huff logged off never got response question got scared wondered really made right decision desperation started contacting friends try get contact her none responded me one point this even messaged mother depression nothing could do doubts coming back wondered killed her froze place could nothing hope going cool off friends go contact her following that thought best course action back leave alone while thought would contact ready sign chat program case want see me still facebook friends know anything christmas sent gift steam know thought it know played long time ended backing month time fears realised made post facebook talking killing herself frightened wondered really helped made things worse going respond friends quick respond believed terrible state doubt chose reply friends much better job doubts becoming heavier one point depression cleared up admit become facebook stalker point thats knew getting along everything going well her made new friends claimed found people appreciated company know meant thought would actively try seek point still logging chat program doubts taken again thought would come help like tried help her wondering worried me realise thoughts become poisoned nasty two months since stopped talking grew desperate thought care me questioned whether really existed ended creating new account facebook began adding lot friends noticed friends always flew side made scary post thought maybe could friend too could fixed using different alias know expecting made feel worse made facebook friends two weeks felt emptier point seemed figure was know how did blocked well real accounts scared annoyed angry know me felt like somehow recognised bad qualities semblance redeeming factor blocking me messaged saying knew me chose ignore it doubt growing worse felt like complete reversal situation in took positivity confidence took negativity doubts difference was friends people could share worries with felt awful compounded fact home robbed recently felt guilty parents upset turn alarm leaving work wanted die couldnt paid debt debt parents ended calling samaritans redflag hotline said perhaps misunderstood something try talking her time person knew situation took long time muster courage talk her know cared last talked her went offline answering question took mean want talk me lack responses past three months indicated that scared going bother cause trouble her thats wanted do talked things went relatively well though apologised needed to probably apparently never contacted outside chat program main medium communication felt bitter trouble sending message facebook found alias remember talked much time though appeared friends again talk much month felt like didnt felt like still nuisance wanted badly talk her knew doubts would disgust her while doubts built much let one burst her coming fourth final month talked bit seemed well felt like things going back way were doubts left last long remembered suicidal posts would accrue much support ominous usernames profile pictures ended changing mine well hoped someone necessarily her would come check me didnt else did know im idiot know thoughts nasty disgusting know heart black know im irrational another round doubt head confronted again without realising it making feel guilty situation doubts selfdeprecating behaviour felt horrible suggested block me while felt discussion going nowhere took offer blocked me leaving final piece fair goodbye all complete slamming door face heart spirit shattered happened yesterday scared backup accounts facebook contacted with got freaked creeped me told aware told least cut contact terms agree upon really necessary responded blocking accounts still one mode communication one users cant blocked certain website messaged it told thought needed cool time gather thoughts told interest friends stalkerish tendencies backed off intended try again spent entirety today working letter sorts felt rational entire thing sent her responded im sorry ive already made mind im interested friends anymore never able trust again already told want move blocked you blocking means want talk drag thing anymore want harass anymore everything blocked constitutes harassment tolerate it fact made shake fear please move already theres nothing gain this beating dead horse leave worse impression itll start make regret friends first place please stop actually becomes true responded this read message kind feels like im given fair trial know im awkward this im confused especially say disappeared know ive deluded thinking case still feel like biased this really think end then im sorry im sorry ive done really enjoyed time im sorry betraying trust could start again would course stupid things lead this incredible strength believe happy least one favour ever take granted thats ask for good life heh ever change mind know find me thank least reading thoughts one last time last message her two hours ago read message decision respect decision avoid me thank you hope find other better people goodbye fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up know do im horrible idiot fucked up do fucked up talk with fucked up friends fucked up want kill myself fucked up really want end really want hurt her fucked up doubts fucked up edit thought might interested seeing letter worked sent today well were talking stalkers one shirai kuroko much invasive blatant me intention going horror genre soon recomposed yourself i too best focus task hand im going let slam door face like this im backed corner course im going fight doubts damned want live sudden shift attitude mine takes precedence doubt know stayed away longer response lack thereof following message serve good indication last time disappeared said have let fire back you want disappear either am idea im doing guess would good start apology apologise continuous display terrible sides know apologise things again expect forgiven ive known two years even time meant little you meant lot me theres reason feel strong towards you know suggested blocking me going bumpy believe satisfied ending either seem unlikely well ever friends again mean things ended way did know proper goodbye right goodbyes necessarily mean complete drop contact parties no something else people stop talking goodbye going say goodbye ill say hello rather good evening but want talk im hurting you please tell me case least want say proper farewell fair get say piece leave disappear think sudden really solutions mind one solution want one could face properly again think discussion going nowhere think irrational believe possibilities exploredyesterday kept asking tried leave think looking back now afraid id break know selfish makes sound like im considering feel may continue selfish id like hear rest say again im make sure want regret anything guess cant say sure you want regret anything either right right now think main issue im hurt you say waswell im probably hurting you too know sure really that casethen though may reluctant and exactly satisfied understand contact another solution try get irrational feeling hurt really think thats impossible know work but like you im given enough time replaced something positive thats theory test out need assistance know im position asking something like you perhaps hear rest say hate come this want come victim anything kind feels terrible friends seen like someone used friends with honestly intention guilt you wanted help there said it wanted help getting feeling want told it want told im capable want get clap back told go run laps around block one else knows situation though technically speaking one person knows thats relevant wanted attract attention failed it know else turn problems guess thought again thought made scary posts before thought maybe showed reflection im thinking name image could get attention without actually asking help im aware clumsy awkward way ask it didnt you naive part thought someone else steam would try approach me frustration built get any want help want advice im asking much try find elsewhere want continue talking you wish thrown away say before want it want it let hear answer even things turned sour mean stop talking one another even were friends want continue talking things you anime games life sorts stupid nonsense know you detest rushed endings dropping contact something painful doubt itself something happens thirdrate television dramas really think doubtful real me think depressed self real you honestly say meant things said time again hate sounds like im trying justify myself needed form perspective took considerable amount time get everything much granted privilege waited got everything too though admit ended changing result think unfair irrational behaviour punished clear im saying want punished saying deserve be maybe want understand you wanted understand me think get little better now too trying avoid nasty stuff trying avoid commotion avoiding drama maybe thats avoided doubting makes sense mentioned believe friendships destined end wonder really believe that mean regards current friendships hate bring up too im understanding must felt before say scared left thought thought found disgusting right now im feeling exact thing overcome this win want believe that want believe can know asking lot you see that say realised importance human interaction one point forgot it now become obvious i too frustrated behaviour make mistake crying begging intention either things simply wish see satisfactory conclusion discussion underestimate power debate need be ill deal doubt somehow myself never hear again would think thats favourable compromise want lose again allow it try again aforementioned conditionsif really end theres nothing stop it least make sure real im talking to depressed angry scared you means happy respect decision last letter sorts took months compose hope serves indicate serious this course id much like hear thoughts side story this tldr sabotaged myself everything entirely doing im revolting life ive made one real friend fucked up im weak im pathetic im useful anyone exist im villain im irrational,1 +ever bop beep skdoo bep,0 +okay tokyo south america australia france germany uk africa,0 + endwasnt afraid birth afraid death,1 +imagine would happened hitler got accepted art school seriousness would happened,0 +poop school goddess,0 +guys im going scooby foo mystery incorporated marathon im chapter right wish luck,0 +bit since posted good working new job thought would last look good million reasons want stay bed anything something telling go work grind else something bad happen depressed reason work money pay rent barely hold sanity right feel existential dread coming,1 +tried failedtried first proper redflag attempt failed miserably everything get noose without thinking anything else guess im stuck pathetic existence cant thing im weak dog,1 +ive come realization hate life hate lifei started wonder killed yet fear death realized really want die wanna me,1 +ifstrawberry fields forever gorrilaz song listening question came mind know else ask it yea,0 +keep seeing amp speaking dead girlfriend know turn toim threat myself think anyone else talk to week ago someone came front door middle night armed thinking brake in found girl sitting beside door asked took hood revile girlfriend died year ago house fire said must dreaming insisted wasnt confronted dead told go hospital reason died caught house fire one longer head injury mixing things up started ask questions like knew lived gone year told amp family all died fire change identities start new life looked since old friend told was talking awhile decided make breakfast about hours paste asked could shower said yes hour hearing water running checked shower dry lights sound rain coming pipes heavily shook sleep walking thingthen happens today shopping groceries kept telling get things liked eat healthier thankfully able ignore her said go home could ask questions like cashier look went behind went automatic doors first im curious anyone advice me thanks reading wall text maybe helping me,1 +must see film understand reality read book ms duke advocate afflicted bipolar disorder formerly labeled manicdepressionbr br it hard believe day age people still critique others emotional problems seek psychiatric help regressive discriminatory thinking still exists unfortunatebr br in film audience sees pain suffering ms duke through especially child many us may remember teenage patty duke show household name america age br br you learn exploitation rosswell played howard hesseman growing s stigma fullforce however see advances career yet illness becomes worse goes bouts substance abuse promiscuity even marries someone divorces next week several conflicts tantrums children elderly mother problem occurred received adequate therapy medicationbr br a recent survey released nami national alliance mental illness recorded majority us adults fail recognize classic symptoms bipolar disorder also released one five respondents poll believed people could control illness without medication wanted to bp magazine winter watch film learn true story talented woman could pull bootstraps get well educated disorder received proper treatment thank you ms duke advocate ignorance prejudice,0 +realized expensive gaming laptops pcs gotten post much wondering minimum price could get setup run minecraft discovered point low end setup awhile ago upper mid range man time goes fast,0 +next stepsthis first time getting closer closer killing myself even first time planning it first time found easy painless clean way it first time packing things arranging apartment things taken care of late night friday home quietly watching qi pretty peaceful go sleep never wake up drug overdose painful messy want talk people know this and really long story last time here said goodbye wife it might well have different countries join here wanted break months silence mixed calling pleading loves me lapse silence finally divorced skype last years living nightmare finish started miss every day even though ive done everything move betrayal love like last time saw her hugging kissing airport even though blamed many things fault im blameless never point open communication willing make change project try help relationship think end met someone thought better her id like say cant blame her good blaming giving benefit doubt everyone else fault everything could think of imagine im reluctant share im also aware trying goodbye conversation anyone something do want talk someone know necessarily stop though dump someone want help next steps cant take time work barely pay rent is im dog walker cant extended absence further former colleague work suicidal etc took big extended absence serve whole companys needs big disaster everyone already bad taste mouth that,1 +think suicide frequently sick sad angry miserable cure happens next sick struggling every day,1 +im beyond helpnothings ever helped me ive never gotten conversation article internet thinking redflag bad choice ive several meds handful mental health professionals either work made feel worse going years going get better because im trapped situation realistic resolution im tired hopeless anything help me broken far past recovery why ive never enough justify fucked head know even matters anymore hope is almost anyone says survived severe depression adds theyre still depressed suicidal just often plan follow come monday felt really lonely,1 +woman black tv adaptation susan hills modern classic ghost story published years earlier film made sadly film released dvd far aware deleted vhs availability direct contrast popularity amongst know horror films story revolves around events seaside community early th century young solicitor sent firm conclude affairs recently deceased widow died isolated marshland estate thought would routine probably tedious task turns nightmare discovers old woman haunted death ghosts past content rest story told subtle concise way never selfindulgent flashy overexpositional obviously tight budget may contributed nononsense approach story needs works well see scares said that one particularly terrifying scene relies visual works perfection watched film day still gave nightmares nearly week later love terrified must get hold watch copy woman black,0 +little discord community going anyone wants chat real come hang pretty blunt afraid dm interested may take bit respond sleep,0 +words seriously enough convey emotional power film one wrenching ever see yet ending one loving tender emotionally fulfilling could hope for every actor every role terrific especially wise understated jamie lee curtis tightly wound anguished ray liotta heartstopping turn tom hulce every award book hes pick s best actor danny pearys alternate oscars last half hour borders melodrama film earns every one tearsand unless made stone plenty them,0 +titties amazing dude thats thats whole post appreciate since made night,0 +think im going tomorrowi know im years old ive suicidal thoughts six months now house girlfriend fight lot much common her job cant seem keep one money biggest problem life know blame that really wish went school even good scholarship course take advantage that worked shitty jobs bought shitty house am theres reasons post care explain know feel like cant anything improve life right now car gone shit even get job get there know think im done trying,1 +boredom frustrationi longer live anymore past years ive gotten bored living everyday like broken record played fucking repeat im tired it really am everyday wake exact time go school work fucking balls get way tired anything else nothing life enjoyable anymore desire end things grows stronger stronger everyday easy end thing fling building done it days better others sometimes smile laugh within short period time feel dreaded sense boredom again everyday want lock room stay there dont want talk anyone see anyone want curl bed never fucking wake up im tired im tired really dont think left survive anymore think im truly done life thread holding back disappointment id imaging seeing everyone elses eyes shouldnt even complaining anyways born loving family parents always nice me treats much love friends forever grateful for enough anymore might make sound greedy feel greedy needy time also weird blob behind fucking brain haunting everyday screeching want fucking shot head really dont know anymore maybe build courage actually might pussy go fucking cycle again wish something bad happen world would relieve responsibility,1 +hit rock bottomthe pandemic fired job girlfriend loved much leaving me barely stand father anymore hes insufferable cruel really want die idk ever drag this,1 +film one best creepy yet intriguing performances crispin glover dennis hopper reagan years pretty bleak lot people teenagers flick really captured desperation despair welldirected great script apparently based true story really see weaknesses this opening shot brilliantbr br keanu reeves decent change miss skye right money hopper three great performances year blue velvet texas chainsaw ii hoosiers imagine cult following wonder picture would fare rereleased super stuff,0 +many reviews film write get right tom conway fully inherits mantle falcon reallife brother george sanders entry decked beautiful doublebreasted singlebuttoned drapestyle suits cruising gorgeous steel cars huge fender skirts suicide doors come armpit conway travels new york miami keep formula industrial diamonds falling wrong hands client lovely virginal louisa briganza got gorgeous hair let kiss first two months along way runs type colourful array characters b movie could provide sidekick outing perhaps best among falcon sidekicks edward brophy goldie locke given really funny lines runs sinister dish doris blanding type s chick know puts out cohort benny played steve brodie who twenty years later presley punching bag two paramount king movies work cold fish yachtingcapwearing kenneth sutton ready takes get formula cruises yacht brazil saddled stoniest falconpursuing cops ever entry still reigns supreme forget minute melodramas give hour falcon movie day got wife two kids whos got time twohour movie shake dry martinis forget troubles great falcon movie tape local tv toronto like years ago luck,0 +hear people always say gets better never does like ever things may okayish brief moment right back way always been like meant happy something people talk something look forward to scared look forward anything last want piece happy pie always going like this,1 +first time ive done this im eating lays poppables chocolate chips bad also learned chocolate chips heavier lays poppables,0 +british horror film terminal decline start seventies blackness came three films among best island produced wickerman blood satans claw house dripped blood made future seem rosy even though lot people knew point going one thtdb sort cast could easily form wishlist actually assembled bleak hinterland may well find expecting wake up waxworks overlooked four stories is naturally favourite cushings life art interlinked firmly cant tell performance ends pain begins one guess role affected gentle sensitive man death maiden rip peter,0 +point become bragging talk big pp would cross line bragging like girl talks body people usually agree guys bragging weird,0 +long phone take get full charge mine takes whole day,0 +garlin great job nice concept well executed tightly produced came across sincere story fan curb enthusiasm jeff pretty much straight guy role delighted much depth brought role simple yet effective portrayalbr br much humor understated subtle drew poignancy really liked rather slapstick overexplained nice little surprises twists convenience store vignettes delightbr br when say wonderful small film mean budget quality simple intimate handcrafted tells highly believable everyday story relax go see it let wash you feel good done so,0 +cant anymorei cant,1 +dont need girlfriend need homies like,0 +love movie disney channel ridiculous playing anymore think definitely put susie q back air least one night record it anyone know find it email cristinaimcom please email know find movie online anywhere told kids movie think deserve see also disney movies coming fake boring need susie q back great movie great actors see taken air everyone loves movie much taken air please take comment consideration along comments made movie thank you nice day,0 +dad made transfer data another computer never used computer ended finishing reason make blatant youre playing phone theyre anyway no searching something mum even playing which wouldve right time degree exhaustion vastly different importantly tf makes son important things anyways fml,0 +am sqwad hair looks good right sleep ruin,0 +really fucking overnot me whole fucking world humanity needs die hunger racism rapes disease mental health issues come fucking on earth please blow up saying cuz im selfish humans longer wouldnt problems wouldnt feel like killing self every day life,1 +rteenagers allow post images temporary permanent me,0 +know else gotheres one left im year old anxietydepressionagoraphobia ive unmanaged diabetes last years husband last friend earth cheated last fall satisfy fetish could fulfill him says hes sorry loves want leave cant find trust again college education job drivers license expired year im afraid go dmv penny name car credit nonexistant everything husbands name may well exist family single friend husband betrayed me take good care him keep home peaceful neat cook beautiful meals us cry every day full darkness rage hate world hate everyone ever known leaving me given much love take take take need someone theres one there disappear theres strength left inside me feel worthless unlovable therapy since teenager tried countless drugs me love husband desperately honestly know staying believe love anywhere else go im trapped scared completely alone even know begin take back life even worth it pleasure find life brief moments husband forget hes done me food cant even enjoy beautiful rich foods know im sick cant risk it sometimes want eat death even know control diabetes is try eat healthy diet know thats enough well own im terrified go doctor since miscarriage shortly married years ago live denial health suffer huge secret guilt eat anything steamed vegetable theres joy theres relief pain thats snowballing inside since child theres one left reach help tried calling redflag hotline hung person got line im afraid speak them im scared want pain stop want die want pain stop never will know that im strong enough keep going hell pathetic last hope sending message void internet know expect this stop cant go on know do death feels like option relief know actually experience relief be pain more calls me help me god help me please please need peace need feel loved cant more,1 +know mean much hereat point else turn too friends want hear it family on little honestly need vent die im standard age one knows go want writer im fucking definition loser learned long time ago diagnosed depression light form autism basicly understand somethings comes learning anything treated therapy however depression stuck bullied mercilessly school one teachers principles gave damn it content watch embarressing go government tell fucking fix it part life loner never thought would get friends would come home school go play video games imagine hero hero one understood still wanted around high school came first year grade proved best part life joined anime club became dnd player made tons new friends helped set convention on grades happened met one girl first shocked asked first took movie kissed think want date anymore three week relationship think much it friend came english class yelled stop raping friend thats went hill place point anime club called freak rapist time guy wanted kill constantly tried set fire twice day people relentlessly mocked cast again deal g point reached fucked grad quote said thank flying spaghetti monster people liked anime club members history teacher everyone else got mad said offensive get better their left high school never turned back done tests such college college fresh start new beginning life way fucking well said wanted writer wanted write sci fi took psychology english history political environment but english political thought where first english nice met girl started dating six months proffesor really nice however things took turn classes became sucky men awesome women are english political environment kept saying again men ruined this men ruined that white men destroyed everything good hearing day day got nerves know bad tried better person life never stuck felt alone classes one wanted hear um writer game thrones hes white awesome on no stories read white men bad political talk tumblr sjw bull shit disproven multiple doctors institutions tipping point gf time first women dreams beautiful me shy nerdy little creepy really liked creepy weird stuff on met another girl girl twisted friend side me would poke prod gf telling bad intentionally go way strain relationship got point gf starting mentally abuse andverbally abuse me tried fight her tried nearly became i love care me friends stopped forced look reality picture bad me gave relationship gave nothing back confronted everything accused accepted never even defended self accepted everything said remorse it told go fuck self left breaking her even add friend abanonded got wanted started focusing finding job came avail one girl tried dating online cheated abandoned me tried therapy fail miserably six years nothing came it family sick tired seeing sad even talk anymore go fake smile try let know im fine secretly im not friends abandoned go problems try go stunning radio silience im alone nobody reason im posting someone know loved even know please follow me better idiot thought way cant find way please keep fighting ever reads this even im dead ill still beleive it,1 +guys confession addicted saltines help im drowning need support group,0 +yo biden fuckingdnjdfj fucker deadass said p e r im fukin dyingbtgtfdcexezwxtbgb,0 +need end canti house car every electronic appliance could ever want need since girlfriend cheated me left me dad lost job mothers deteriorating health ive lost three close friends recently one connect talk redflag hotline said best option cry sleep wow thanks lot waht do anything do,1 +liked stanley iris much acting good story unique interesting arrangement absence violence sex refreshing characters convincing felt like could understand feelings enjoyable movie,0 +future spouse could telling theyll together ever flip side could lied left married someone else nothings permanent everythings random theres even theories every second identical amount time last second,0 +wanna crush someone legit experienced feeling long time kinda miss,0 +puffy nipples m im really nervous take shirt public puffy nipples years now way around that im overweight excercise,0 +momi think thing hurts whole world mom makes feel bad realizes it cries hug apologize try better mother makes feel worse sensitive feel way,1 + days ill aloneits am cant sleep work today want end want wait im alone house parents care im gone sisters care im around extended family turn to december entire family leaves europe want last moments alone cant wait longer,1 +feel like im youngest person everyone like im lol,0 +hello nerds first throat hurts poor sleeping going start drinking warm water second everyone doing whatcha nerds to,0 +milestone acheived karma away karma life complete would like thank mom dad twomad helping get here,0 +thinking ending tonightso told post currently sitting living room enough pills end it one week ago hospital thing chickened taking pills called ambulance this admitted psych ward two days figured situation fatal know behave around people hiding mind years point im sure want take pills die hospital comforting really know im posting im supposed write it guess mind night go two ways take pills go bed hope wake up take pills end hospital again know yet one going happen,1 +remember last happy today realised long since felt safe comfortable since life feel like constant struggle brought tears think careless highschool student oblivious mental termoil lay ahead miss day alive then lived sprit exploration shared anlther day schoolyard banternow constant feeling overwhelmend unemployment feeling like must scrape survive lost joy existancei honestly wish died child never grow live faliure outcast within society wish hate myself wish reach end seem compelling happiness,1 +iama broken college boy intending hero ask anything yes im serious im drinking neither smoking wasting money futile shit remained without money parents going send money st march tell im outta money im dead sen home without possibility continue studies feel free ask anything end shit fuck shit im out nice life,1 +im donebeen homeless drug addict last years time transitioned came family mother stroked died rest family disowned foreign place alone full guilt drugs i need sleep,1 +everytime feel like giving tell stress going next monday finally start holidays worry school things months,0 +need help tell someone reason reply week accidentally started texting people energy recharge social battery else would gone insane,0 +im going bed now night night dont let pedos bite love guys except,0 +ugghigh school fucking hell like kids go bunch parties get ton girls high school amazing outcasts everyone kids super popular arent smart wont amount much high school theyre good looking athletic theyre treated like gods everyone always chase clout popularity always care everyone else thinks awful cant take anymore friends abandoned popular kids im alone nothing makes sense anymore,1 +made huge mistake challenged old friend hockey match forgot canadian match happens tomorrow im screwed,0 +mom found suicidal nothing changed whatsoeveri dont think cried asked questions said shed try get meds switched hasnt caring like talking robot shes means terrible mother always assumed would huge deal thought wed talk hours shed try help me nope acted mechanical always,1 +u ever say something u know stupid someone u something talk feel like ive made look stupid could talk someone,0 + loneliness hit send help aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaa,0 +interesting rant ok make clear im homophobic anything like rant pride month veteran week vote listen rant fuck veteren get week aprecation make feel nice shit like that gay people get whole fucking month make feel special sexuaility wouldnt happening veteren fight wars keep country safe rights gay fact everyday respect do call stone cold killer killing people life line could die blink eye benefit gay people nothing sure guy fought rights cool veteren fought country ensures right gay rant rant apply canada usa countries kill gay,0 +know much pretty sure wrong httpsdrivegooglecomfiledlqkmxsccgqtquarzmda_jyamdviewuspsharinghttpsdrivegooglecomfiledlqkmxsccgqtquarzmda_jyamdviewuspsharing,0 +carols journey pleasure watch many reasons acting clara lago simply amazing someone young one special actors say say much facial expressions director imanol urbibe presents tight controlled film break continuity thereby propelling plot steady pace enough suspense keep one wondering nest scene bring screenplay angel garcia roldan story telling best which seems major purpose films all plot unpredictable yet events unravel completely logical perhaps best feature film tell story spanish civil war affected people major event th century yet hardly americans know it fact years university teaching averaged one student semester even heard it much less could say anything comprehensive itand overwhelming number students merit scholars speaks enormous amount censorship american education so one way film good way begin study event keeping mind one thread pulled great deal history unraveled appreciation film is therefore direct relation amount ones knowledge view film another coming age movie miss movie completely left elbow index considers seven aspects film acting production sets character development plot dialogue film continuity artistryon scale good average needs help carols journey average counts excepting dialogue rated average lei average film raised equated imdb scale highly recommend film ages,0 +anyone wanna talk yeah im back whoever looked recent post,0 +big ooff yah bois school closed last days closed tomorrow maybe next week,0 +im donei cant keep anymore one cares me bf is tired hearing it ill probably lose insurance trump like see therapist month anyway since one appointments tonight im going step front train done it goodbye,1 +confusedlast saturday finally got fed life completely attempted kill myself ended spending days hospital surviving ive read multiple redflag stories say instantly regret feel regret normal want get better feel better felt like finally die actually felt best id felt long,1 +whats least painful way dieits long sad painful years last year filled much heaviness heartache dread find hard stay positive calm normal im alone anymore last weeks ive unable stop crying public emotional pain feel makes feel like legs stop working sometimes im especially bad day cant seem make go away go numb usually doesnt come back mins time im really ask help ive tried many times get help doesnt last people dont care near unless im usual happy self dont access guns want end life soon closing loose ends family friends would appreciate advice,1 +day returning friends discord server get dm damn really friends,0 +fuck alleveryone sucks supposed friend fucking dick you then days give another chance then get locked balcony broken window forgiven fucking bully im going pay apartment shit ton money dont have whole point friendship lets end fucking all,1 +ashamed myself reallyreally longa little backstory home schooled til th grade didnt quite get hang school high school grades never really good felt highly accomplished whenever got c parents day still convinced im kind genius lazy never really group friends people actually barely talked me unpopular much hated talk bad it teachers force words wasnt much hand get comfortable would say outrages things act ridiculously attention feel foolish later chubby unhygienic antisocial discovered masturbation family moved portugaleurope absolutely hated first kids international school went tightly knit felt completely ostracized age started fall love basketball swimming plus active lifestyle general didnt go either teams though felt unwanted grades dropped even lower first time ever received failing grade class barely passed two others parents caring love much transferred smaller schoolchurch students high school next two years th th grade happiest years life remember met friends seemed genuine attractive slowly became way learned speak mind eloquently got amazing shape swimming surfing basketball turned started drinking fantastic time hanging beach talking pretty girls loved people taco kind love people youd happily spend rest life kind love became religious together too moved back america kansas places kansas hot dry completely different culture closest beach texas everyone talked driving sports college every day driving sports college great topics moderation three years theyve started eat away point cant even enjoy watching basketball tv arrived zero clue drive something people didnt find cool started lying it next people found knew next nothing college football basketball wasnt quite hip either started lying it well first year there started getting ruts negative thought would spiral head leave depressed tired unable think positive thoughts myself was am embarrassed didnt even ask parents drive made queasy think about felt like couldnt real conversations anyone lies kept leading lies started lying without even thinking it whenever someone would ask question would automatically answer coolest way possible began fear speaking people like child id come home headaches everyday around people couldnt look counselors eye conversation parents without lying something pointless didnt join basketball diving team people would find driving lies started skipping classes probably skipped attend depressed think attendance selfdestructing bursts charisma absolute apathy truth able keep parents ever finding out reason even got accepted local college excellent act scoresupporting lazy colleges low standards skip forwards year recently dropped college freshman yearbig surprise there chose political science honestly reason seems like specific major smart person would chose maybe average interest politics law first semester went okay last one literally gave class got failing grades five classescumulative gpa living parents unable drive pounds overweight although parents siblings acting like often ask little year old sister drive work im suppose role model her humiliating sister recently walked room caught masturbating work covered dirt nearly half asleep want move get apartment something dollars name hope day got college goal try keep parents finding im closet loser a little perspective father retired lieutenant colonel degree math business ut ou respectively works insurance agent makes bank daughter graduated gpa went trinityfollowing boyfriend could gone many better schools played d womans basketball daughter gpa graduated senior year planning going school me hoping study together daughter point guard high school varsity basketball team freshman year gpa drives car bought money even though offered one parents daughter near prodigylevel gymnast fluid portuguese english years old son me pathologic liar barely passed high school due credit hour issues couldnt bother go class wasted year fathers gi bill need go community college able go big boy school watching waste life avid masturbator honestly dont think im suicidal sometimes think giving sounds appealing end could still remembered fondly parents realize much disappointment am,1 +answers quiz sociology find group changed almost questions without consulting work finding answers told group do changed questions also kept denying it feel either upset embarrassed,0 +know guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows guy knows lady knows guy knows i,0 +the the the the i stuck dick shampoo bottle post days old today post days old today post days old todaypost days old today post days old today days old today days old today or least one ishttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentshbrabthe_the_the_the_the_the_i_stuck_my_dick_in_autm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf stupid,0 +little pain therell hatred anymorei hate humanity hate part it hate someone world bear much suffering theres free will theres fate hate bound it im going break free itll painful thats way people miss me probably wont miss anyone another world calling me goodbye,1 +depression ya teacher f worst hate cus gave even new could homework fullest strong feeling hates ya pls advice gains depression thx,0 +bad luckthis first post reddit ever ive many concussions resulting different sports also bad luck cant really complain life had pretty much straight as building engineering large group friends family supportive loving good relationship girlfriend financially im ease thing is keep getting head injuries worst ways possible got one months ago seventh oneafter it period dark thoughts cause seemed like never healing love sports anything them even hang friends without getting headaches neck pain last week first time actually felt like getting better much so decided go pick nicking friends today arrived park go struck head frisbee dumb seems impact made lose consciousness finally got back apartment concussion symptoms back seems every time starts getting better everything goes back shit feel like strength left go trough recovery again university starts tomorrow im fucking scared able concentraee feel helpless like im endless cycle shit goes bad time start seeing hope almost like life wants myself sorry long post much anger rage sadness,1 +bottle vodka bottle painkillers ready deedmy boyfriend years broke today happy fuck happy depressed whole relationship abusive mean made feel worthless feel like need keep trying make work life worth living without him please help me ive suicidal long time today trigger,1 +finally done music comp final took weeks lot fun make httpsyoutubedvpxuczeu,0 +tomorrow morning im taking drivers test im freakin nervous im good driver know that get nervous easily even day heart pounding,0 +please come spoon gear sing hey spoon dj misfit podcast come join live stream httpsspoonclickus_live_,0 +flunked semester twice went back pick things college town last year thinking best time finally end mind went blank kept sleeping hotel room time return flight back home lockdown jobless number suicidal stuck home god knows long wish could done last year,1 +life doesnt get fucking better life always gonna horrible pointless even get older doesnt shit comes getting olderwhy keep living human life sufferingive suffering long remember like meant suffer whats point even living,1 +matured fascination academy awards evolved intense interest casual amusement comments written bizarre results academy award voting often difficult explain omission in cold blood one five best picture nominees one inexplicable instances especially one nominations year went wretched unwatchable dr dolittle insomniac masochist would tune rex harrison disaster richard brooks powerful adaptation truman capotes nonfiction novel retains ability capture viewers attention leave completely drained final fade out nothing particularly graphic gruesome screen film definitely adult material based nebraska multiple murder s filmed actual locations murders took place in cold blood filmed master cinematographer conrad hall stark black white screen compositions demand seen correct widescreen aspect ratio together quincy joness unsettling score halls work credited title brooks screenplay three pillars intense classic built performances fine well scott wilson cold charm robert blake intense introversion two killers there inside joke one point blake speaks bogart the treasure sierra madre duo driving mexico child star blake sold lottery ticket bogart john huston film film like book definitely slanted towards killers anticapital punishment tilt although remorselessness murderers somewhat negates sentiment despite difficulttowatch final scenes criticized film focus criminals backgrounds lives clutter family literally murdered cold blood middle night come across onedimensional characters little import lack balance comes book capote spent much time two killers death row clutter family apparently researched depth however whatever feelings one may capital punishment in cold blood leave mired deep conflicting thoughts run double bill dead man walking may speak days,0 +whats point mean know grand point personally whats point dont anything left fight forive grown much grief constant pain everyday theres nothing brings source happiness even contentment im incapable holding onto relationships mentally im plagued panic heavy heavy depression physically auto immune issues stomach problems add fatigue drained energy identity wise ive never felt comfortable skin dont really care more im glad lot people one thing would want to thats great think guess doesnt exist wish would doesnt ive always wanted one thing thing would make life desirable again worth fighting for isnt part problem think used me turn created horrid perpetual cycle grief internal pain dont want live anymore im grateful years ive had ive made pretty far im exhausted maybe thats okay wish best dont plan im guessing time will im tired pushing feel better completely honest you dont believe better real thing,1 +numbanyone else feels really numb feel like youre going motions every single fucking day,1 +kind of quit gaming yes read right quit reasons pc crashes lot specs gb ram nvidia geforce gtx a now pc lags bad af completely crashed know would say buybuildupgrade pc cannot spend huge amount money pc dad running temper looking activity pc bored wanna quit want get productive waste sorry use this gamers time gaming want grow my life gaming kinda avoiding that rocket league valorant csgo minecraft games deleting everything gtexcept minecraftlt refreshing mind mean never will games useless harmful play games people cant move on gtill earn money buy nice psxboxlt im expressing encouraging quitting games wanna say life fucking life,0 +know n word bad but look white black even american topic really big issue look watching much american entertainment content swear words kinda feel right reason nword seem like bad thing maybe cause seeing black dudes say homies idk word exactly sounds bad talking among friends,0 +wow even better expected best animated astrix movie ever feels good hear roger carel voice astrix again surely recommend everyone likes comic books astrix suggest go see french version cause surely best hear original cast know roger carel played astrix nearly forty years think marvelous job song cline dion end fits rally good end credits music good drawings good actors wonderful word masterpiece go see it regret this,0 +leave positive impact ending lifeall want life make others happy really hate though simply cant put living myself possible im thinking ending life really soon get need it thing im probably gonna spontaneously disappear every community im in want everyones last memory positive one make sure last thing people hear something good think back theyll happy there sad im gone,1 +ok but america shit china wants reality ends harming american people ever china,0 +im gonna try make io game using webserver got ideas guys good ideas type game make running webserver fancy d graphics,0 +free award award to edit award given stop flooding notifications,0 +im overwhelmed first nobody need help nobody loves cares me try get help internet sites like quora gives answers triggers anxiety saying rely anyone love even nobody else like wtf bitch stfu wanted relatable answer could make feel less alone made feel guilty depressed,1 +stopi cant stop thinking best friends redflag years keep examining everything pain mention like matters even every thought done hell still dead ill still,1 +last weeks serious hell suicidal thoughts years never cuz scared honestly really think fearful death anymore rlly good support systems got kicked something dumb weeks ago facing homelessness soon uncle close unfortunately passed away mental health seriously declining pushed everyone away point anymore feel like going get worse worse want happening want anymore fuck exhausted nsfw guess see reason go tbh think time up,1 +im currently years old think ever happyim currently years old know anymore life know anymore live within group pretty big friends we around thing is many friends really hard find close one find someone talk everyday fun everyday etc always wanted best friend my best friend went japan although hes going return brazil november also always wanted girlfriend like really always wanted someone love me make feel important make feel well terrible crush experiences past felt would never girlfriend reason girl like me guess what currently girlfriend months in really cares me loves me makes feel one important person world even gave tons love letters gave shirt one picture frame us put bedroom pendant letter l both names start l lot candies she knows like chocolates valentine guess what still feel like shit im insecure everything reasons doubt her seen everything her know bitch anything always problems cheating me ending losing somehow guess would could call possessive really trying better really try to cant fucking fail man worthy her disrespect way suffered depression still do led possessive girlfriend im scared cant stop possessive matter try even though obvious give up since really loves me also started go therapies taking medications although weak really help me im weak skinny weigh around kg that would around pounds cant get fatter metabolism really crazy matter much eat like meal per day still hardly get fatter cant grow muscle all because well give going gym while leads next thing want get chest motivation anything like one day might sudden burst motivation something really good go gym like previously said good something ie drums guitar sport competitive videogames start projects week so lose motivation had therapist said always used everything easy easy me challenges appears like getting good videogame learning guitar end giving up like years cant anything cant maintain routine cant mantain healthy lifestyle this installed app would remind drink water everyday hour because rarely remember to first weeks fine like schedule give fuck anymore gave up also really affects grades highschool since create routine study everyday well exams guess what give too hardest part cant help it cant help all try best lose motivation end losing sometimes redflag thoughts appear head end considering it thing stopping devastated family girlfriend would commit it,1 +yes reviewers already stated may vintage lh far worst work th century stupidi mean fox film certainly basic ingredients things go wrong boys serious approach determination makes funny play laughs comedians might take work situation quite seriously essence eternal humor film faced basic issues really might encountered one us today namely job related stress first would get checked doctor would prescribe much needed rest perhaps staying sea thats surrealness comes this lh always take plausible set circumstances exaggerate never point incredible except maybe awhile makes us laugh relate self caused predicaments attempts extrication thats makes stan ollie universal appeal film ingredients presented delightfully artful gracefully slapstick way best comparison earlier work probably actual last film roach wanted mirror big studios go making features exclusively also wanted hurry finish contractual obligation big mistake stayed together continued maybe five years world may missed considering option watch laugh enjoy last great performance,0 +giving upim point care anymore im twenties broke make own cant live home situation toxic job rent greater paycheck license car commute work bus desperately want place want happy safe matter what ill never it im stupid get good job one pays decent salary degree im skilled im competent enough cant take this,1 +exceptions made mind wanting wan make parents sad starting seem like care got till birthday,1 +homies smash passed titanic victims httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvssjxvezxvm,0 +anyone listen yun head songs pretty lit tho,0 +changed pfp bored,0 +one last post herepretty sure lost best friend redflag dont hear tonight im ending too im sorry edit alive,1 +discord server server kingdom lizbania small growing server teens teens would like join kingdom please dm,0 +puzzle lifeits almost funny one even notices knows true feelings deep emotional breakdown im going im unable really express truly feel inside say wanna live seen bad overrated overreacted meaningless damn im really sick thing called life think soon ill gather courage selfish levels need kill myself feel inside building up bulging odd feeling something wrong different previous times ive feeling similar stronger different stronger me soon enough people regret trying connect earlier probably sooner later theyll find letter too little piece ask omg see this could calm conscience needed need regrets tears blaming guilt certainly want die either cant keep going want pain stop literally make stop killing myself wish way could that rewind tape back lets say six years ago id say people die redflag foolish selfish ironically understand that think nothing luck decisions take embody actions lead us closer closer appear happen us next like puzzle puzzle life bring pieces together decisions actions inseparable theyre us were them follow rules puzzle life feel every single decision made life getting closer closer end im finding right now early days school closed isolated others followed aftermaths more following way feel think acting accordingly that slowly surely im led end edge hope bliss love real descending darkness inner self losing ability construct real point view constructing one real handle reality crushes way escape disappearing appearance disappearing suffering it pain inevitable choice moment great despair notion choice deadly one see me hear me touch me life empty thats me now,1 +mouse ran across fucking counter trying grab honey fucker ran right behind scared shit outta me im either gonna abundance cats like idiot drive crazy trying care fuck hate mice,0 +corpses fans opposite fans try cancel every opportunity get lol recently started rumor fucking dog,0 +think people used saying want drug deathhe said many times annoying were used it drug death,1 +im loosing itill turning months even tho im good place right well school good paying job im finally getting great shape feeling comfortable appearance depressed im bi known bi since still closet kinda latino extremely old school family know id probably stoned death ever found out also longest time let insecurities self confidence issues get better me hating looked kept head went school without ever anything wild barely went parties never experimented anything never got girlfriend even tho girls flirt me obviously never got boyfriend either matter bad wanted one stories tell boring year old virgin thing stopped offing telling keep pushing through get shape would finally confident enough come closet maybe find someone years later im shape yea sure like look still cant come out day restaurant friends ridiculously hot waiter came table started flirt acted normal non interested left wtf wrong me hate wasting best years life cause think good enough hate fucking disappointment want redo anyone bekieve reincarnation whatre chances die come back another gay kid time less issues higher ill take it would quickest less messy way go it may coming bit dramatic stated everything thats wrong want start want get overly anxiety multiple times ive go psychs either molested dad tried beat living shit kid cause bipolar explain like watching one closest friends high school get throat cut open helplessly watched bleed ambulances took forever come amongst plethora things judge fuck life,1 +til dont think actually get helpi went psychiatrist didnt get diagnosed straight told depression anxiety followed saying really suicidal im going put inpatient care make sure safe pretty much asked things looked made realize suicidal pretty much scared actually admitting want need help lied said plans future tell everyone else cant even get meds bc im shits going get worse cant get anything done bc sleep dont sleep cant get anything done bc procrastinate cant even finish single load laundry start everything never finish im always deep back out make friends never actually get close them im pretty sure accidentally lead people avoid friendship bc everything going get weird awkward like last year actually told two friends thought comfortable talking bc would listen abt really suicidal beginning year as changed better dont acknowledge talk essentially summarize said oh feel like got used lying faking im thinking killing every waking moment crying sleep sleeping chance get bc better way cope cant actually open person problems tldr talking psychiatristfriends made paranoid made lying norm im afraid actually getting help,1 +isolation constant need validation comfort etc cannot get things depression mixed redflag paranoia obsessive thoughts people get it living hpd makes pain cannot handle living this supposed reach to parents think good enough rest judge stare me call crazy genuinely feel id even pay someone give chance let hang weekend feel like going go crazy ,1 + years good run im ready go nervous breakdown park managers stealing peoples rent marking unpaid owe two months rent took cashim point saw manager douchebag spray tanned son would literally jokingly hypothetically murder pair scissors killing myself im seething rage anger im ready die,1 +repost time flair thanks welcome back mods happened reddit past year shellnut excluding obvious stuff like covid related posts protesting hey um ive coma using reddit bit whole year decided come back here given way platform works might missed couple things yeet,0 +ok heres thing brush teeth spit toothpaste regularly wait end done brushing spit haves know,0 +expecting powerful filmmaking experience girlfight indie lowbudget bigname actors freshman director heard good goodbr br placed contemporary ethnic workingclass brooklyn karyn kusama done extraordinary job capturing daydoday struggles urban latinos diana protagonist seething anger lashes high school peers getting trouble school friends raised single father appears love brother applies strict sexbased double standard children fathers double standard illustrated fact tiny brother taking boxing lessons local gym diana denied similar pursuits errand gym meet tiny diana captivated boxing tiny like boxing diana trade places gets money dad gives diana take lessons placebr br this actually feelgood movie diana grows learns boxing meets guy addresses serious issues headon theres giggly everything go right go right resolution la bend like beckham reality attendant personal issues big pat resolutions opinion girlfight better satisfying film it,0 +hi fello peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +male ,0 +sniff sniff rips roof building mmm smell cabbage rips entire fridge devours contents,0 +damn ugly feel like taking knife peeling face face better ugly faceugliness one reasons struggle suicidal ideation hate way look hate ancestors even more say anything looks subjective positive thing buy it people need face facts live fantasy looks looks beautiful beautiful ugly ugly positive negative good bad beautiful ugly amount positive propoganda motivational quotes examples many ugly people would change watching gotham today scene jokers face stolen face face still better ugly face,1 +planned everything tested stuff see could work actually scared it decided tell long distance boyfriend it break feel guilty online friend going block himi know sounds bad going easier forget way cannot seem thoughi want die alone think asshole scared hurt lot really want end mental hospital would worse dying would fucking hell me scared,1 +mute audio of computer volume record zoom still record audio recording audio affected mute computer,0 +best friend lives hours train ride away often meet met years ago meeting online friends became friends remained contact past years became best friends basically speakplay games online daily basis know gf pretty well sometimes join play hangs us gf travelled city next mine meet best time long time cannot even remember maybe best weekend life weekend eventually passed went home took bus home way home felt bit contributed tiredness got home took shower decided go sleep got really depressed felt sad could sleep started cry really hit hard cried years since awake crying time time know speak tomorrow work know meet future method cope ease pain live map train are feel like fucking stalker now want text him know either sleeps good time want ruin him depressed past years bad times past nothing could get through ever feel sad depressed never happened prior occasion makes sense me happening really depressed really good weekend friends,1 +everything feels shitim year old male suicidal told mom stepdad depressed laughed said wasnt ive also told friends one thought said joke friends depressed get help from depressed since turned got suicidal feel lonely think kill im school im eating etc almost never sleep hours per night makes tired school sleep class really good reason suicidal except hate way everyone lives wake up go work get paid go home eat sleep starts again also feel like im dick towards everyone care anything anymore people annoyed negativity towards everything alive pain suffering ive almost stopped feeling emotions all feel empathy towards people anymore animals school ive started pretending everything alright someone said emo something like hard be happy,1 +id like kill nowstanding balcony trying pluck courage it,1 +really venting posti live constant need end every day thats want write about ive subscribing lot different subreddits recently found one ive reading snippets reading comments others guess want give collective heartfelt thank everyone subreddit really cool little virtual respite exists uncaring cold void world yeah post follow rules something guess none ever read this,1 +problem sex girl school im shes didnt use protection need ideas parents dont know parents dont know wont talk im bot lost,0 +hello teens im officially teen know account thats year old fuck cares,0 +cant post images rteenagers hey all wanted share achievement made sub cant upload image first post know pls help,0 +kinda like habits killing mei think ive passive ideation life finally feel affects it course im much pussy actually kill myself feel like picking smoking drugs either kill snap whatever shit im in understand impact life others god damn ready done entire life filled shitty circumstance bad luck maybe sign,1 +almost argentina want reach help doesnt feel righti dont know do ill give backstory asked im panic attacks again feel endthe end everything near dont like humans want get rid possessions house leave i dont know id go talk people love swallow lot alprazolam pills mom its medication keeps them im low dose want go wait peacefully death want make people love suffer dont want cats see asleep never see again keeping short need help get help need guide someone help make decisions dont feel ok make them im asking help tell professionals need know help me im afraid tell people close im planning committing part wants end all half desperately looking help thanks reading,1 +gotta honest dont even know ex actually broke lol,0 +laid todayas title says laid job today cant get thoughts killing head know end world anything cant seem shake thoughts im filling unemploymentbrowsing jobs despite overall dislike amount stress caused pay much deserved plus feels like positive thing going point life really reason posting this wanted get chest guess,1 +antidepressantsi hate antidepressants thing keeping killing myself anyone else,1 +dont immature bitch piece advice selfcentered people universe doesnt revolve around you karen matter say cant make saying something terrible acting like okay youre you theres ones fake depression always say stuff like know depression right think im going go cut now mental health joke dont treat like one edit also includes people say didnt ask,0 +suicidal slightly homocidal help re uploaded try get help hey sound like edgy kid seeking attention please hear out isnt im struggling suicidal homocidal thoughts wanna kill scared keep razor gonna kill i live guns almost impossible get thank god ive wanted hurt others go hurt others wrists slit first,1 +acceptable venti see thousands people complaining venting lgbt people check privilege tfw gf my granny died absolute instant barely mention even think mentioning diagnosed schizophrenia borderline autism psychomotory retardation tachicardia since born never knew late suddenly everyone wants head ruby plate straight attempt murder like become feral something feels like im walking dead ok vent even legal point im now could healed treated fixed cant anymore feel like existence mistake is cause nothing grief destruction,1 +thicc bois hmu uppercut thicc booty _____________,0 +someone please help im seriously overwhelmed daydream jumping front train extreme school stress procrastinating everything stress friends went lots trauma past feeling confused certain things slow processing difficulty expressing specific thoughts dull pressure frontal sinus,1 +accept parents never accept youmy mother probably one invalidating human beings ive ever met first asked see therapist told work would make stop feeling sad first found cuts yelled me attempted got angry told selfish never understand people say stay moms anything would reason couldnt anymore shes catalyst many problems everytime even mention depression ask set appointment psychiatrist asks really need it sad youre happy youre around us doesnt even notice wear hoodies summer hide cuts isolate day cant even eat shell ask dont ever leave house get mad do ive accepted never truly care me never validate me never need be im gonna go listen mitski,1 +dog keeps staring like bro ur allowed couch stop staring whimpering pls,0 +titlei feel worthless discernible live directions goals family hates me money shitty paying jobs mother tried kick day barely left room since dont know im going do ive laying bed wishing could end deep know could never im spineless always been feel broken never repaired im lazy cant anything right always fuck everything up im disgusting want end im tired feeling like every day pretending everything fine im tired happygolucky friend thats truly am despise myself feelings anxiety worthlessness go away feel like never ending cycle wont ever able break away from want go away,1 +reaching outi suppose ill start saying past days unbearable ive never felt lost scares know go ill able start feeling anything besides cold im uncomfortable sharing many personal details open anyone time spare id grateful someone could message me picky ideal lgbt,1 +so got list mental physical issues deal with really fun sometimes gets feel really alone ex family great me ex made feel loved cared miss much even though broke roughly year ago point wish someone loved cared me least look back say one point that feel sad alone,1 +definition great movie want continue see again movie reason strikes cord even though scenes scott glenn still make winch watch love music,0 +whatever good enough im years old im constantly feeling never meeting anyones expectations everyone always wants me even everything possible power something best ability always oh well good wrong differently throughout school coasted whole way always told incredibly smart gifted never tried except came computers ive loved computers since started using them escape real world turned mom stepfather always incredibly restrictive usage electronics always wanted less always wanted get away life hated much never really stable home parents got divorced mom remarried still married biggest asshole ive ever met life sad remarried twice single now ive never really stable home ever since parents got divorced ive moved around lot even then kept count went different schools years regular schooling result never made friends feel worthless job dad successfully started company im told grandfather also works underperform everything ever need get away electronics something productive time see point going anymore feel like one cares focuses wrong live life standards whole thought process stemmed argument grandfather who live temporarily basically tried run car walking home reasoning trying teach lesson hear going around listening music time,1 +wtfff cant believe found search meme templates memeatic,0 +basically long blogpost think ive got pretty good reasons myself see think otherwiseim end line folks although would like hear lads would say personally think ive done good job making long blogpost explanation bit top usual cocktail anxiety depression substance abuse chemically addicted thing prescribed not fact dropped school highschool freshman amp elongated social interaction since bout years job doesnt count ive chronic disease since baby ibd turned crohns disease large intestine removed amp ulcers kept popping replacement small intestine this two choices first option connected jpouch w pouchitis little remission relative people jpouches ive developed antibodies hardhitting immunosuppressants ie remicade since pumped full stuff kid im likely die extreme pain sometime ss meds stop working regardless meaning constant diarrhea constantly shitting bed night nearconstant internal pain amp constant fear stricture complications leading extreme pain option ostomy amp ostomy bag due fact scar indent inch deep amp inches long abdomen dozen surgeries child bag leaks constantly without ton extra adhesive thus put adhesive leading x diameter circle basically painful fungus infection thats especially raw thanks acidic nature shit antifungal things hamper it never notpainful turn leads a extreme pain upon taking shower touching it applying new bag b pain bend wrong goddamn direction sleep angle slight lean right yes issue brought wound care nurses well relevant doctor cant anything right now due stricture im stuck ostomy without active intervention monthly endoscopies balloon dilation area intestinal fluid pool said stricture eventually leading internal expansion amp thus mindrending pain speaking experience due covid operations stopped guess halfyear absolutely negative desire condition passed onto kid point ive informed parents intentions yes course theyve tried help appreciate efforts despite futile are point believe keeping alive sake others is lack better word phrase simply worth it ampxb relevant bit think obvious anyone anxiety little social interaction constant fucking pain nearly every second day multiple addictions due aforementioned things tends make man suicidal id prolly psychologists fucking field day ive picked nice area woods although near road first responders go much effort plan call killing order streamline things despite possible risk main thing yet decide upon whether go head unfortunately meaning none family members would want keep rifle mm head unlikely possible become vegetable rather dying exit baghave wait materials cant transported car higher risk failure two things yet decide upon are know whether drive place question walk driving would mean family would trouble getting car back walking might get cops called ass decide head would impossible decide exit bag also itd give much time back out another thing ive drafted redflag letter family amp ive planned short post chat servers frequent im still trying think something give first responders either means apology something make laugh either sorry mess letter joke something maybe both less id appreciate opinions question regarding leave first responders,1 +needed get lot stuff chest maybe cry help maybe random ramblingsi sure post about may considered cry help open post emotions even arbitrary chaotic writing dumb person know frankly care dwelled sorry life long time thought pen thoughts still feel like something pour heart here want say verge killing or least want think also delusions life worst life ever universe objective enough know people worse circumstances dealing it said that standing crossroads failure lack motivation anything feel desire keep living life often contemplated would like die often wished life would end accident but enough rambling want pen life once think anyone world knows true family included positive lied every person know certain point life told close friend person wearing mask mask every occasion behind mask masks hide truly am wearing enough masks forgotten lost lie life point tried struggling slugging forward tried living life future tried living life one day time end didnt matter either way trainwreck life still trainwreck personal life shambles social life nonexistent professional life collision course towards freight train coming full speed idea even feel emotionally now would wonder bad things be firstly transgendered individual thirdworld country studying us since lgbt rights country nonexistent possible way transition future finishing studies finding job in us another firstworld country cannot tell anyone tg since pretty much means lose assistantship also shoot chances career field thus living lie life past x years lied colleagues roommate friends lied try fit people lied drive people away dont think anyone know really am top that gain age slowly become harder transition so another time bomb ticking away tried preparing transitioning taking unsupervised hormone therapy electrolysis well though help bit still hate look whenever look mirror anytime also extremely stupid decision taking hormones without doctoral supervision lead medical complications social level due above driven friends away pretty much living life recluse top that slowly become emotionally detached almost everything life find little joy sorrow things happening life lied friends hide tg self lied top lies found out scared even try start romantic relations life generally messed scared rejection life professional level also heading towards failure xth year graduate studies even though funding dry up much stress finish work still seems like uphill battle top that figured past months looking job job market bad find reasonable job sick trying doesnt seem like get enough work done get degree get job student visa expires doesnt help people always high expectations dont know why tired failing again stress taken toll physical lifestyle well gone fit active person someone totally outofshape developed terrible eating sleeping habits feeds desire nothing throughout day big struggle get bed everyday morning wish day ends asap almost always given considering real goals life cant justify purpose life anymore sick trying meet failure anywhere everywhere tired fighting uphill battle every avenue life and often felt past months would existed all doubt existence worth anyone worth anyone suicidal thoughts infrequently last months tired life want spend next years repeating wake something sleep routine again frankly little desire living know consequences taking life would people genuinely care me likely looking help doubt anyone position help really but think needed get chest weighing heavily long time hopefully pull things work out not well least tried someone take time read whole thing would really like thank taking time read ramblings someone probably would never meet long thanks fish,1 +think worth try reach tiny amount happinessi cant anything im tired trying make failing im going school job cant things anxietys bad want supported mom entire life im fucking useless seeing everyone else good fun makes feel like shit wanna draw try to cant shit cant things want cant write program video edit make music see people around make feel horrible top success people cant happiness never will assuming get anxiety find sucess something im good at never enjoy things way people do everyone sex drugs drink im interested things wanna interested cause people ive looked seems like theyve much them want am want bad im scared idealistic think reach amount happiness others even eventually get better potential shit even reaching happy think want relationships want friends girlfriend able talk people long keep getting worse seeing interact fun makes feel cause cant that feel worse cause im getting upset peoples happiness think im bad person thinking like this see point trying make life get happiness amount happiness reach little especially go pain long little amount happiness garunteed,1 +know want grow up im go th grade live known last year middle school already plans future career ive talked parents college plans funding getting job renting place end getting brushed youve still got time youll change mind frustrating make decision want clear view im gonna grow up gonna time end running time older cousin gonna go th grade year doesnt even know wants do says time he confusing me,0 +yall ever just want sugar daddy me okay asking friend anyway,0 +silence thoughtspretty consistently find hardly hearing listening people find wanting die almost time like warn people involuntarily awful everyone leaves eventually find narrating thoughts life others talking dont know maybe alone this im not fuck remain present anymore think negatives practice dbt doesnt help,1 +get yesterday want get noooooo avoid getting age,0 +fellas gay sit toilet dick touches ceramic bowl,0 +checking hotel itthis question told someone a close friend checking hotel end life would able get police find hotel in words would hotel obligated tell police occupant name obviously want able find me want know,1 + arrived crime scene inspected victims body signs struggle slash marks lower chest searched nearby dumpsters recovered meat cleaver blood staining followed suspects footprints road witnesses claim suspect boarded taxi realise watch broken,0 +dont want add pain worldbasically m dont want live anymore one would assume guess since im subreddit short version ive onandoff depression suicidal tendencies past years life hasnt easy either dad severe ptsd physical disabilities mom works double fulltime job get watch youngest siblings pretty much guess could say family kind dysfunctional oh also homeschooled havent done practically substantive coursework two years now technically graduate high school soon dont think show mom anything put portfolio honestly dont care im tired everything im passionate major career path ive looked im ready college anyway lmao im remarkably talented enjoy doing ive experiences homelife im attractive every instance ive tried making something last boy ended disaster really dont want alive anymore time know fact lot people whod pretty fucked killed myself really dont want add pain world especially dont want burden little brothers sisters that time would tear apart lot see give throw life away like inevitably will dont know would hurt worse,1 +come watch stream zelda breathe wild twitchtvbarfequieshttpstwitchtvbarfequies,0 +cannot life anymore everyone know amazing well friends leave everything fun treat like child gf happy giving everything give nothing keep happy enjoy used love afraid runaway think suicide much seems option take think many people know would really care anyway cannot,1 +flag big thing america like australia nearly common see government buildings souvenir shops hardly ever see private property even government buildings usually front flag pole thats one,0 +society brainwashed blinded accept genital mutilation babies genital mutilation legal every single country world also known circumcision baby boys condemn circumcision baby girls call fgm whereas blatantly accept boys st century humans rights havent even established men women given right vote fgm banned decades ago yet boys opening genitally mutilated reasons circumcision barbaric cruel procedure cut pierce babys natural genitals knives scissors crosses limits humanityethics circumcision absolute violation human rights violation babys body arent consenting cruel surgery permanently alters body life talk consent abortion sex im pretty sure cutting genitals also violates choice foreskin natural fully functional part penis contains blood vessels nerve endings sensory neurones circumcision decreases sensitivity destroys natural function penis foreskin also acts natural lubricant protective layer fact women equivalent foreskin clitoris hood however considering cutting female foreskin fgm male foreskin circumcision genital mutilation main points,0 +tik tok weird hello downloaded tik tok last week ask would like see chose comedy first says ok says saw people thinking funny drive people protest girls around age pretending raptors read right raptors girls talking needing men reproduce flat earthers choose comedy saw wtf,0 +might corona work butcher grocery story one people work never wears mask confirmed corona woke morning killer headachecough really bad chest pain ive currently locked room fear infecting family fun homies,0 +teen boy crush girl rejected cried hours straight would anything her love much rejected dont know make like me perfect cute ugly photo me httpsibbcoffwltb photo her httpsibbcovxskvq,0 +went see vanilla sky huge huge hugetom cruise fan extremely cynical brother girlfriend say totally blown away movie especially tcs performance thought moving film expectingbr br i read reviews decided go see it pleased coerced into seeing it strange thing cannot say why say found totally involving could stop thinking next day felt film say is storyline fantasy psychodrama whatever people events shape life small events like getting car change everythingbr br as critics wrote yes maybe original stunning nd film alejandro amenbar totally different interpretation subject means narcissistic remake benefit tom cruise penelope cruzbr br i cannot even consider writing couple trite glib sentences describe film go see itbr br yes know balanced thoughtful review its kind film,0 +today birthday im now legally stay here anyway im looking girls around years old hmu,0 +horrible mental episodebreakdown yesterday im shit deserve livei get stressed easily especially social situations let emotions take control go crazy hate world much took pickaxe construction site started smashing breaking things screaming crying got arrested almost got tazed carrying deadly weapon know whats wrong me stuff like this know else cope sometimes feel like shit nobody deal me nobody ever understand cant wait end need man fuck up stop coward tie rope around neck suffering all need serious help seem available matter hard try im crazy alcoholic piece shit thats going till end death thing ever comfort me im really cut world,1 +well sucks moms fleetwood mack record that have theres scratch middle song secondhand news makes replay spot repeatedly sucks,0 +talking optionsi want say im imminent danger right now im bed thoughts feelings week longer actually since started hurting myself releases pain inside struggle deal myself often think dying would like die would less painful easier found quicker walking car seems unfair ever driver is painkillers cliche are well thats meant painful done properly thought irreversible damage changing mind seems daunting think hanging seems safe option falling height hitting concrete little hardcore ive suffering depression anxiety years started take medication it kept telling okay things would go away moods would change ill begin met someone covid lockdown hit off things good beginning things took turn became suspicious paranoid her feeling lead feeling insecure good enough pleaded me hindsight listened pregnant now im happy baby mine clear things up although thoughts feelings never really went away started unbelievably cunt get details past months hardest her feel cunt never put stress have im facing court charge spoke solicitor im probably facing prison time baby getting signed name father cannot together anymore reasons caused personal reasons cant really contest that hurts like motherfucker im damned im made example courts ive genuinely enough bullshit life im living hearing lame excuses tomorrow another day think family well thats made mind this lost job too soon months pay gone too one nice blow litres vodka later ill swinging balcony like bauble wind want this plenty reason to children feel selfish leaving behind fatherless get see much bothers them ill going away new year while ive before kind thing follows ever go unborns mother currently custody battle child charges hinder chances getting result wants child stay alive ill go bullshit centers seeing baby months maybe years assessed im bad person danger child said something really shitty intoxicated really fucked things myself anything quiet poetic choice end life kind like last sorry die battle things pinned ill longer issue courts eyes thats something ill happily go thinking plan yet want enjoy freedom now see things plan change close incarceration ill put actions motion really know anyone say reading make difference doubt it im fed living am shit hole flat heating middle winter ive turned drink im big drug taker dabble bit green then mainly sleeping medication doctor really help feel neither it anxiety stuffs amazing like really slows heart rate down wonder take quiet alcohol itll stop heart sleep know ill google one might strong enough would peaceful ill leave note shell get one kids dad ill probably post heartfelt status facebook memoir fakebookers life good take right choices ive really screwed mine theres going back,1 +teenagers reddit life currently mods please mercifully banish goes rule potentially mandatory teenager m curious must like teenager world right now already believe experience short ago was vastly different main reason want always keep change mistake many generations parents made assumed much us based lives s s etc way society advancing things exist even im saying age someone years younger me crazy stage happy pressures have worries you,0 +ok so since last post fairly good tuesday felt amazing got ball python name chad slithers hes amazing cute aslo amazing much better therapy helping lot ever think suicide feeling really good things rn love all feeling better,1 +someone please talk meeveryone hates me feel like already dead help whole world shit hole one cares me hyperventilating somebody please tell care seriously believe die soon,1 +bite every post open ton bite comments someone explain pls,0 +need help english hw usually need help questions fucking hard least know answer pls help stranger need gave every apologize opportunity possibility way means hes always time got office now will would might may have procedure apply person normal ordinary plain regular ps english second language mean ok,0 +college teacher larry donner billy cristal blocked writer since former wife margareth kate mulgrew ruined him stealing novel became bestseller hide hatred margareth upsetting girlfriend beth ryan kim greist anthropologist teacher college giving classes creative writing stalked student owen danny devito wants know opinion crime tale larry tells like it explains every mystery tale murderer eliminate motive establish alibi otherwise would get caught further larry suggests owen watch hitchcocks movies understand structure suspenseful story owen wants kill detestable mother anne ramsey watches strangers train misunderstands larrys advice believing teacher wants swap murders eliminate motive owen travels hawaii ship margareth falls overboard vanishing sea considered dead however larry alibi becomes prime suspect deranged owen presses kill mother part supposed dealbr br throw momma train one funniest comedies s great tribute alfred hitchcock direct reference strangers train jokes vertigo with spinning camera family plot with car without breaks movies lines excellent interesting point larry tells every great romance mystery train anne ramsey amazing role nasty abusive dominating mother viewer certainly feel sorrow understand insanity owen kim greist beautiful kate mulgrew perfect bitch billy cristal performs obsessed character many silly unreasonable attitudes necessary plot vote sevenbr br title brazil jogue mame trem throw momma train,0 +losing willi want suffer alone silence anymore pcp left therapist left friends left me family noninvolved sick feeling guilty wishing dead want anymore want tolerate pain wish easy way out,1 +idk needs hear but go bed am,0 +thinking tying something around neck bedthis seems like peaceful way go honestly actually hanging seems painful shooting would gruesome someone find body laying bed air conditioner watching tv slowly going unconscious seems almost peaceful,1 + year old loser going kill drunk die,1 +i eoke yesterday even though wanted sleep poped stuff hope wont wake,1 +help idk take frustration anger guys frustrated,1 +please tell still care whenever bf gone today went nyc family hes target phone dying didnt even tell sister spamming vids said instead letting know knows get excessively sad goes mia hours without notice hes still home yet wish hed cares more always ends makes feel better hes taken shower back room call everynight heart still settled hes favorite person atm makes sad almost everyday consider leaving makes thoat tight eyes water even consider im worried wont ever able stable anyone love j wish would give attention care maybe problem im attached clingy,0 +please helpcan someone please tell live regret much things ill never able take back get badly hurt ill never go back ignorant people really believe me really drama queen like thought know put stupid situation know said wrong things still thought someone would help told hurt long ago humiliation comes back waves again,1 +plan nnn november starts hours me im gonna nut nonstop dont nut left buy time nut regenerates ill already enough willpower fap checkmate,0 +thought killing myselfso posted multipul times really want kill myself like really everyday shit gets worse either way going say im now graduated highschool thinking really wanted kill back didnt thought things could get better today another interview went nowhere thought kill years ago nothing experienced would regret getting experience except maybe good video games lol said years nothing good worth noting thats past years school even worse bullying ontop faliure tell ok head cliff near house want fucking bad said mom still live isnt world sposed somewhat even arnt supposed get good bad bad bad bad bad bad,1 +prescribed something overdose guarantee death today im worried ill itim terrified ill swallow whole bottle moment despair subject loved ones seizures death drawn week,1 +thanks covid mental health help easy get family going issues share need hearing mine right want redflag out depressed past present future feel empty hollow self hmed days ago want know going make worse trying figure sexually assaulted kid cannot remember confusing hate much feel like anyone talk me want hug ill probably cry get one thinking texting crisis line depressed need help cannot get,1 +never loved life wish someone did feel lonely worthless always end crying sleep wonder feels loved,1 +people like gecs sounds like someone stroke trying make song,0 +number day big day guys our first milestone day ,0 +im trying change life really worth iti fucking hate everything myself cant deal it im becoming asshole lashing family dont job despite applying going interviews didnt go college im dumb fuck cant remember anything barely graduated high school want fucking give up often imagine dying tragic way family wont burdened cause death ive always wanted get fight maybe beaten senseless maybe someone murder get hit car ive often thought running away jumping death want feel pain die,1 +dan katzir produced wonderful film takes us rollercoaster ride real romance set troubles surrounding modern israelbr br for anyone whos ever love film brings back uncertainties insecurities heartache make love bittersweet atmosphere fear isolation came difficult times israel time serve intensify feeling instantly drawn dans plight cant fail deeply movedbr br you cant write drama passion like contrast realities dans desperate snatched relationship iris realities state turmoil make eminently watchable ounce passion ever love see film,0 +guys help im slipping recently got among us realized im scrolling reddit less often please dont let leave,0 +see posts people sad want end lives makes feel even lonelier want die even more fuck thoughts debilitatingim sleeping time now maybe hours day want anymore life cant take want to,1 +japanses trees pretty school tree starting grow white flowers looks like trees japan pink im sure probably wanted share,0 +ahaha might suffocate ahahaha last six months costicted throat hard breathe moments asthma symptoms read im afraid tell parents cuz doctor set coronavirus restrictions me im really careful corona anyways government controls real bad system counrty really badly done send pics police taken home every minutes im patient instead weeks ill corona knows end choose tell ahaha cant get meds way ahahaha help,0 +cant anymorei know else do im point return depression gets worse everyday even real reason it hit one day everything fell apart thought once could rebuild think anymore think ive made peace it end pointless suffering know im even bothering write this maybe kind survival instinct maybe want leave note kind either way im gone,1 +seen movie number times find compelling sad lack real emotion characters disturbing seem empty hopeless story based real eventbr br a teenage girl murdered boyfriend obvious reason apparently felt like it boasts friends believe takes view body number times one reports murder two strong leads keanu reeves crispen glover crispen glovers character seriously annoyingbr br keanus character matt appears one sense right wrong keanu best flawless performance believable anyone thinks man cant act watch movie matts little brother almost disturbing character movie twelve compassion love factor life sad think kids like this really makes grateful have ,0 +want kill spitejust make family friends angry upset care temporary want suffer ive already written redflag note,1 +movie needs come dvd cause thats way buy it thought soo funny real plot it suppose oscar winning film appreciate films cary elwes cute robin hood cant even think favorite part movie pretty good anyways peace out,0 +went jack like th time today decided im tired horny hell gets accomplished jack off feel good seconds feel hollow again much dick hurts ache,0 +holy shit didnt get caught update last posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslxdi_wanna_go_outside_so_badutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf im living room wondering didnt get kidnapped caught nice doe one besides cars passing,0 +yee yee ass haircut makes feel comfortable ngl head feels lighter small price bitches dick which never anyway,0 +lot justifications kill myselffear death im afraid death want kill gets first revenge hurt betrayed everyone id kill make feel way made feel betrayed abandoned trapped believe say life nothing want escape truth reality us,1 +coronavirus day coronavirus test officially came positive struggling breathe day congestion head nose felt stuffy head feels heavy still cant smell anything,0 +crashed car days ago im depressed got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light i think called quote it next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken too minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents i adhd tend panic often came instantly since house literally one block explained happened police came well since subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed him asked guy wanted put ticket license said no man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox he able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed subaru im left car rural illinois the university like miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know do parents like leaving house much stranded home im also picky eater know family brings food like also supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left hand im good physically mentally whole nother story,0 +feel reason liveim unemployed mentally ill facing criminal charges borderline broke im verge ending it career prospects ruined now way hole,1 +im alonei one matter try still one one would care died,1 +ibe gotten point even tried kill myself im pretty sure id faili going kill tonight as hope school everyday thought youll good everything else want end life obviously pointless im sure way certainly die risk taker dont know do parents wont take seriously friends try help cant do,1 +care lazy trying restart life years life shittier excercised dieted got hobbies gone therapy things drones constantly drone forums insipid generic platitude never succeeded always failed time stepped face dirt more believe myself zero self esteem since kid nothin proud of horrible hand eye coordination always picked last sports ooor academic performance socially clueless hate myself that despise everyone else want go msss shooting massacre bunch retards feel terror pani maybe would cathartic lucky able get gun license poisonously envious anyone something want intimate notredflag friendships money degree independence respect charisma beauty youth one things best feign indifference cannot pretend happy tlothers longer wish worst care fairness care earned what thing deserve deterministic universe repeat would love horribly injure ruin peoples lives deserve it would cathartic me would especially love stab every cunt ever yttered phrase pull bootstraps normie fucktardstion interested fitting society want every single person die come afterwards ah would antnatalist paradise done fighting,1 +i want end hopefully tomorrow better idk much take,1 +every seconds patrick rochei hope listen poem poem patrick roche,1 +happy new year goodbyewelp another year alone im even going lie say maybe ill find love im gonna end life simple,1 +chillin here thinking steven universe x baki crossover au anyone wants ask it suggest details even major plot points even tell better subreddit post this feel free put even dm,0 +dear lord someone help ive dug whole dont know get oh god sorry long text really do school thing called remind basically sign different teachers get automatic text messages saying stuff like dont forget project due tomorrow things like that today hanging friend got one saying teachers name birthday tomorrow animal print show love specify science teacher telling us wish social studies teacher happy birthday least wasnt teachers birthday thought like bot sending messages teachers couldnt see text back last year accidentally texted one back came automatic message saying messaging back disabled something like assumed like teachers messaged back friend stupid got text back saying okay then science teacher saw text messaged back saying dont animal print sorry realize sounds snotty didnt mean be see teacher tomorrow dont know whether kill kill self someone tell get hole ive dug,0 +iti fucking it tried many times hang myself felt time vision getting dark sounds becoming surreal head getting heavy me getting back toes grasping air hating myself want die cant live fucking hate coward let go die already,1 +im readyi borderline personality disorder everyday terrible war rages mind heart simply surpassed able cope with rifle need one bullet cant even muster energy find one wonder hurts,1 +cant visualize scenario end ending life sooni picked lot kid home by everyone school where id fight back get suspended blamed home merely defending myself around dad beat living shit nothing since ive reliving every bad thing ever happened mind approached folks depression desire kill myself responded amusement arrogance ive never stopped fantasizing killing anyone else crossed life despite this successful tour navy thought feelings behind went home start school now years tour odd credits great gpa year ive dropped classes despite repeatedly trying get back top gear wonderboy living hell middle year roommate a guy twice age tried moving couple lbs pot across country got caught took rap bailed paid lawyer lingers pretrial limbo tried love weed moral issue selling worlds best drug profits would enough live while course fact wonder could fucking stupid gi bill enough live of im desperate job cant find anything least get seasonal work fedex afternoon im going get longest knife drive chest bleed rio grande someone finds body ive tried treating depression ptsd from iraq war shipboard experiences involving fire since total mental breakdown last december in fact pretty much every year time since getting out really hate talking clinical types say fucking things drugs perscribe ive tried zoloft prozac make feel like im dying im far old friends ive reconciled little folks live part country frankly little late them stick buddy took rap hes person outside service would ever anything like me opposed talk mom hearing voice nails chalkboard hearing opinions life makes want grab neck slam head wall remembering acted needed listen back day im sick matter good im doing theres still endless spinning conflict people even head ill screaming arguments fights inside mind minutes hours catch try remember things really bad even so ever pretended make connection people result feel like never get longterm relationship girl hard im good boyfriend general aspects cant keep long one person course time spend someone novelty wears become distant strange leave hurt anyone ive tried finding work feel like alien everywhere go every trip hunt job uses gas money food money way getting back severely reduce gi bill comes final time end month ill enough maybe help rent bills nothing left anything with get job im going strength keep going much want die free feelings constantly struggling everything im asked either getting nothing losing head ruining opportunity dropped every single class semester girl nearly ran highway flipped off chased way campus full intention strangling death try tell many people worse many people either never ability ive done service people born die trapped one spot either moment lifetime still cant get feeling wanting kill myself want help want die biggest disappointment right theres nonviolent way it meds could use gun quick easy kill im pretty set either hanging tree wilderness knife thing far enough desert one able help bleed death want die house would rather die nature talk vet center therapist little different actual va guys gals even vet center contact kind broken record none therapy fixes problems beginning next month become considerably worse much debt looking horizon thinking ok ive got going work hard keep ok soon never happens everything gets worse either circumstance seeming desire fail end worthless mouthful ill end here wanted get chest glimmers feeling bad sometimes im absolutely certain sometime next year im going end it lived life least travel world experience would really worst thing light pain im feeling would rather die child risk putting himher anything like went through,1 +ive miserable long rememberim almost thirty goddamned tired living like this sad scared lonely miserable reference point peaceful content life like like trying imagine completely new color get hold there get past crisis thats whole damned life im tired surviving crisis crisis never getting feel like real human being fuck human being do tried getting smarter getting kinder making useful enough never enough point straightup cruel string person along vague promises one day feeling pain know whatll stop pain one responsible me hell responsible myself responsibility take care myself unless someone else going step in im one decides looks like know did understand could done little kid whole goddamned world denied me itll always denied me ill always feel like ive never felt different yet am held almost three decades dream cant even see im damned tired want end one person one person whole damned life genuinely cared helped me died completely unexpectedly know ill never meet anyone else like them one sliver goodness world gone never deserved it,1 + m partner f undiagnosed redflag least think do whatever is taken toll ruined romantic notredflag in rearing ugly head again am i trying place blame redflag need iti obsessively checking partners location using find even know work home sisters etc occurred recently would said was always worries or past partners would go night hang friends drinks get overwhelming feeling going find someone better bring home unfaithful thought makes stomach turn want able tell likely get head think about help current partner bipolar manic episodes sex drive elevated scares even more needs scratch itch around mad get back me this that deep rabbit hole pile crap works retail office job several hours every night try keep busy imagine sneaking work someone else speaking work fairly new job management position already talking moving new store possibly state next step career wise years got obligations make challenging pack move new state happens she lately felt like would willing drop like sack potatoes offer come upits recurring argument never time us always workjust present call every day even days taxing say least talked recently came priorities order are career career relationship mine are relationship careers feels like willing compromise all asked multiple times would willing always know plan yet want give future want considered thinks future seem crazy right icing cake developed little bit weed addiction problem work uncle sam also act like child high try try chill like everyone else high time feel like worry everything elseso yeah act like child high rest time hold everything together sweet sweet release that know point rant confession rant want heard validated maybe look like outsideask questions clarification want feel like redflag ruining life,1 +feeling lostthis probably end rant think need get thoughts mostly maybe someone respond something provide insight story maybe putting help understand am depression anxiety long remember ever knew either one was remember first panic attack still young enough elementary school people made uncomfortable everything still really since sometime middle school think depression really began take form wanted hurt myself pushed pencils skin tried cut protractor once plastic though told one times showed signs mind like addressed shortly never brought again even thought redflag lot remember begin really cutting point control me took away anxiety sadness felt good after even great became regular exercise long time almost daily always one could see times somewhere elsei guess wanted help none ever came parents ever saw got trouble it think around told depression like wishing wake every day respond well understand must hard kid tell you time never brought since found hard find joy happiness anything pretty detached world played video games keep occupied lived country one really around one ways forget everything started working anxiety became worse panicked states every shift dreading every time go in one thing found joy significant other feeling like someone work hard for future worth building thing made feel happy know supposed rely others happiness never happy otherwise guess bad luck well cheaters liars sometimes someone moving away hurt every time lose happiness one apologize another depression tell happy thankful were nice helpful someone else together three years outside depressed pitfalls always seemed look me learned lot could stronger thought gained self worth that last much strain made us little patience one another old wounds heal felt best go separate ways good terms guess still talk time time met someone else really great ended too go details one ended left hollow ive ever been couple years ago now things progressed wonder still worth here feel like life nothing uphill battle fighting months years grief pain mere moments happiness incredibly crushing look around wonder anyone really happy idea happiness child even possible always managed handle things never taken medication gone therapy late things taken dark turn mind usual almost obsessed levels suicidal thoughts sure would something sure wanted went therapy session available free work gave general tips picked told needed something long term suicidal thoughts left yet think almost non stop years without cutting again frustrated current love interest distant seemed uninterested combined bad day work depressed state turned anger unable find razor became frustrated dull blades available something never before took pills plan dying sure enough want feel anything anymore enough feel pretty messed though took went bed time after side note rarely drink been drunk twice life never smoke woke ten hours later surprised effects worn yet shakey sweating dizzy time work againpart wish woken up went car stop end driveway get throw up made work people commented pale kept throwing going home fine within next day though despite happened feel less desire end things worried thought making it regrets didnt if happens happens still stuck even guess losti overwhelming desire die want hurt anymore feel hopeless worthless feel like continuing exist worth trouble think hard happy maybe im weak feel like meaningful connections people would hurt killed myself know main reason before know alternative even want try want happy im sure even possible know cant keep going like this know find way happy ill finish things sooner later friends seem understand tell feel guilty burden everything want go parents never close trust judgement understanding this professional help hard convince go to talking someone possible medical bills admitted deemed hazardous myselfit seems like would make things stressful worth getting help even want get help thought leaving taking savings going without word anyone know would go would happen scares too feel like anything mistake im trapped life misery despite friends family feel alone cared loved guess thats significant makes happy guess thats wrong like that cant find anything else does anything would content unrealistic guess want much know live clear path seems like redflag one know outcome of far looks like better option thoughts pm figure could dead month half anyone would realize happened work would notice would probably think decided stop coming in one would look past text message think rent far enough behind think finally would open place up every time try opening someone feel like finally connection realize really care me realize alone am really hate world hate nothing trudging forward hoping things get better every day filled pain loneliness heartache terrible everyone seems like people accept fact move on cant accept this cant continue enduring weeks months bitter existence hopes meager fleeting happiness living dying inside day day,1 +hi guys um know post today ampxb um ampxb uh ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb bet expect spanish inquisition ampxb no one expects spanish inquisition,0 +screenplay due go back school wont live longi dont care anymore dont care anything anymore want kill myself plan want slit wrists open longer here longer burden anyone dont matter make people mad me im worthless,1 +im going kill,1 +agtb a text post wknds b image post turn fucking polls moderators,0 +fiend pretty severe depression sum fast hes depressed onoff long time months ago attempted suicide went hospital therapy sessions month did work fight doctor pills tonight hes revealed pills work like thought still depressed tries best silence suicidal thoughts still even though says pills make fuzzy personally ocd suffered while depressive stint years ago even mental health journey giving tips finding hope believe hes catching on seeing reason try know tell him help anymore with anybody suggestions maybe next please let know need help friend here,1 +day without gf yep were continuing,0 +want outive dealt depression suicidal thoughts years seriousness reason havent killed yet mom reason left stay here however dumb ass something really bad back found it said best herself parentchild relationship requires trust lost hers put shit years think last straw dont see point going forward anymore especially mother despises like now,1 +would even happen went hospitalim beyond depressed ive thought thousand different ways end it consequences come it genuinely sincerely believe nay know everyone life better without me im urged go emergency room people care me blind see care me lets say ill humor them hospital tell that sucks call redflag hotline certainly care explain stranger also say generic usual life worth living bullshit please really dont want generic crap people either want know er us would show tell im suicidal,1 +goodnight everyone hope good day something bad happened sleep off sleep good like dream good things make things target something thought would je wholesome turned waffle anyway love all especially harry idk anyone called harry like whatever night night,0 +cope feelingim weeks pregnant beautiful kids home loving husband good job although stressful mind much years ive struggled depression anxiety panic attacks good last years thanks medication ive taking today small argument husband this rare hardly argue raised voice saying something like this nobody likes you broke able stop crying ive cutting myself obvious summer means ill wear jacket everywhere now done awhile im scarred doctor put mental facility see it husband talking me im crying arm hurts cuts want die feel like years past coming back feeling need hurt cope pain way cope guys deal it,1 +life suckslike lot you ive also thought lot ending it never able though life constant struggle wish button end all click die abusive parents one biggest reasons today always wanted best never really loved me shouted screamed criticizedmaybe im problem nothing disappointment useless creature one ever give shit about cant stop pity myself cant stop crying cant anything good anyone ways end it simple painless possible,1 +considering redflag tonightdont know put here im depressed,1 +im selfish one asshole calls memom made marry chester va gave virginity gave herpes quick minute ceremony lawyers office honeymoon took place sheraton midlothian tnpk specialuntil said took gfs there year later moved grandma save money get house point proud owners ford festiva month worked local ford dealership needless say couldnt move apartment full furniture micromachine car bought f month move gmas went see cousins baby gma got mad went drinking drove home train tracks two daughters living basement motorcycles boat bronco years got hell out second apartment got job cleaning houses bought something mustang moved trailer bought new mustang moved times got job driving school bus went college inbetween moved mother could attend nursing school full time big mistake quit went respiratory school moved east coast va bought bigger boat since chesapeake bayrappahannock river tried several times buy house turn turn down one point nursing school wanted volunteer resque squad wouldnt allow it would around menat night worked hospital full men things done confused patients room woooo guess got fired found job working nigh guessed it me effing hypocrit daughter turned holy terror didnt listen came went wanted kids take care night put shit trash brought home didnt listen either begged husband quit job needed killed get away shit hated come home work would stay daughter house filed bankruptcy heart attack couldnt work finally left state get away summer close buying house saw expedition wanted wrong equinox month expedition let known would able house again think cared wined like damn kid couldnt take said go fucking get it im living mother law als im dying quick enough married selfish sob ive ever met came place literally hate him want die get away him im perfect night got married exboyfriend who years found him learned lot didnt know going life wish would talked it showed tits people got play kiss them years ago hubs dick stopped working due meds seems actually loved wife could make lifestyle changes get heart meds use means get wife off think doesnt care got caught sexting redditors didnt go well diagnosed als morning bitched calling everything could afternoon guess given death sentence forgot delete texts want clock tunes hour go mutter museum die house think would either me nope stay bed redflag searches online want die leave miserable life mine love pa brothers love daughters emily tiffany love grandaughters peyton lucy love future sons law justinand manny reasons hanging on redflag still crosses mind hundreds time day read thisthanks mariann,1 + exams due today one first history math learning history history georgia math geometry,0 +dont believe godi dont believe god wish would kill me brutal way possible dont care want die pain cant handle numb yet exhausting feeling wanting disappear fucking air want feel death fucking take say savior love children loved youd let die times wasnt enough th hopefully be,1 +check new video if want httpsyoutubeavhzktnlqo,0 +re really wanna dieim done looking forward vacation im happiest place earth disney forget problems soon im alone almost worse cant handle im strong enough give up im done,1 +anyone watch hells kitchen im watching season forget season comes first dinner service always suck youre going hells kitchen arent supposed know good chance wont get served like going would eat full meal hours dinner service finally got meal would hungry ready rip someones head off,0 +girls issue guys love men theyre nice handsome gorgeous kind them like night stuff still cross street im waking see man automatically get scared strange man looks me feel really guilty know guys arent like that anyone else,0 +get told good guy sometimes drives near tears told nice am funny am dependable told many times different people things must true right guess good enough would hard find keep people life know sounds self serving pity party feel thoughts head realize understand priority anyone else wish knew someone thought sometimes complement upsets,1 +ur knees supposed touch putting feet together realized mine dont bcuz im underweight anything like that im lbs,0 +society entitled anything scrap suffer eeek meager living also society how dare decide like life sucide wrongsociety hypocritical cant tell people sucide wrong try force stay alive expecting accept crappy life is someone want that life worth effort struggle everyone hell gain working crappy jobs jerking another years get cancer die want,1 +high person moment ask high person stuff abt typa shit go,0 +im trying take test flies sex right next me want bother swatting away also want get bad grade test distracted flies sex,0 +hlots outstanding series nypd blue never be hlots plots real dialog real relationships real hlots back movie tying loose ends good gang back together even passed away show wont say how storyline fast paced emotional full spirit series week week out homicide life streets network drama best stars thumbs that thanks nbc giving us finally get,0 +suffering depression redflag couple years now rd year university year left really know that seriously considering dropping out feel know anything good anything feel never get job even do suck it really like study also anything else like done internships sucked both hated every bit iti supposed another internship part course still able even start applying thinking fact sit interview makes anxious get panic attacks think ever able job every time read job post feel incompetent write cover letter say good anything hence want drop outbut drop out doif finish last year whatuni expensive parents paying it really want pay year nothingi feel like loser confidence friends always lonely sad crying need advice,1 +ever potential movie mustve sounded like work based reading script paper would one seemingly looks like lurid seedy softporn sm flick complete huge intheatre poster depicting nearnaked christina ricci chained none mr bad ass mf himself samuel jackson let tell you ever film springs life celluloid major big time soulful power spare craig brewers redemptive followup hustle flow black snake moanbr br unashamedly top get go film sucks opening scenes proceeds dig deeper deeper every subsequent frame yer basic story two deeply damaged characters find strength courage move on notredflag ways lives done before course tale ive always said manner story told gives heart depth meaning powerbr br riccis damagedbychildhoodabuse wildchild character rae jacksons equally soulsick musician character lazarus find desperate circumstances laz takes upon try help rae relatively unique idea man trying genuinely help woman serious pain rather trying take advantage her know onset lazs heart films heart right place movie core redemptive healing power love with music close second film resonates profoundly truth soulfully artfully brilliantlybr br a major reason film succeeds profoundly fierce committed performances ricci jackson scenes would come laughable pathetic lesser artists hands are instead powerful getout particular films arc scene jackson sings plays song title alone house ricci amidst serious thunderstorm abusive demons raes past running amok inside head leading crawl lazarus cling leg comes ridiculous technically should rather gutwrenchingly cathartic br br all supporting performances fantastic too justin timberlake completely believable raes anxietyridden boyfriend ronnie alwayswonderful s epatha merkerson also perfectly cast character obviously feelings lazarus john cothran jr outstanding well lazs reverend friend rl a nod blues musician r l burnside doubt everything works movie lets face it including musicsoundtrack features burnside scott bomar bobby rush son house importantly jackson himself whose fantastic version stackolee listening compose review theres also really beautiful moving version this little light mine featured film sung heartbreakingly tentative soft riccibr br samuel jackson said recent interviews believes performance movie best career thus far could agree more work monumentally proud of along everyone else involved audacious supremely wise deeply heartfelt motherucker project,0 +wish brave enoughi feel terrible actually got point point really wishing life would go away brave enough anything it bpd since live uk getting help pretty much massive fight waiting years far therapy classed serious actually attempted redflag yet reason mother told ever tried would furious cant deal thought dying hating me im stuck living nothing able kill myself hate much living stupid country also means unlikely able get help least years many antidepressants none worked most reacted badly to lofepramine say work take away offer support know anymore cant live like cant die,1 +still herei know keep going still keep walking waking everyday come point nights lay bed wish dead point feel like useless anything anyway overweight since young doctors cannot find anything lots tests diticians know done multiple sports went sporting centers personal trainers etc one clue cant lose weight balding since which also good already almost non existent self confidence gay course look cannot find anyone alone bullied friends keep turning back looking reason done probably parents everytime wanne try see mind tearing family apart even bringing problems die feel empty feel up done whatever call it want take medication cause side effects would make feel worse know point really feel like far stuck even killing impossible bring many problems feel like mind tearing apart inside wanted barely loved cannot anything right fat lowly loser forever worthless point self confidence everytime manage get small bit broken becomes even harder build up still alive gets better say yeah sure living suicidal depression years still trying think gets better yeah work maybe late anyway things would get better would gotten better now really think work longer going happen me never get chance good future anyway,1 +one caredafter sending ex girlfriend goodbye text hoping paramedic would find family told could half whatever money half would go best friend pushing away afew months anyways told mother could figure myself called principal spoke mother told bring hospital without even speaking anyone assumed mean made joke said something mean concern miss me best friend completely cut contact fault ex still wants nothing me cant blame either,1 +technically true joined subreddit technically belong years sadness noises,0 +never seen oliver stone film before films starring eric bogosian know expect film toyed idea buying while finally got free supplement sunday newspaper hugely impressedbr br it tells story barry champlain talk radio host incredibly rude towards callers often putting place realise whats going on though made popular radio show host also earned numerous enemiesbr br the acting film hugely impressive one dud actor it eric bogosian brilliant barry champlain troubled talk radio host alec baldwin turning strong performance barrys boss dan also features voice of cameo appearance by michael wincott my reason wanting see thisbr br the story really well written as despite arrogance feel barry troubled life revealed see vulnerable really isbr br id recommend film anyone captivating and importantly real numerous levels two inspired life actual talk radio host fact actually get radio show hosts callers like ones featured film realitybr br high recommendation br br aye yours cat squire,0 +hoping drink enough go sleep without cutting tonight depressed cannot even masturbate,1 +need help killing myselfi considering redflag really want die know successfully it thought overdosing pills ibuprofen pills arthritis pain pills tylenol it random pills would overdosing kill me,1 +much bitch iti want die im much little bitch it im miserable im ugly ive got friends know family ashamed me like said im ugly sister theyd better gone thing world loves dog whos turning december thought getting older makes sadder hopeless cause know one day hell gone got raped last year think got fully that even tho go therapy remember last time fully happy could wouldve done now im much coward,1 +im tired i told depression anxiety last year believe thought way feeling normal ignored gotten worse hate depressed recently hospitalized trying kill myself want try im afraid going back im tired anyone talk to cant talkwhen want get really anxious think ill quiet anyway might well talk all cant text people backas makes anxious too people say theyre worried mebut know theyre lying im waiting mom goes work end it im tired able really anything want depressed get better matter hard try cant try anymore,1 +dont know whats wrongim uk life recently gotten glum last months im even sure im whats point,1 +ive dumped someone pure fear bonding hey yall problem wich would be one girl told today loves pure fear bonding someone dumped her dont even know it especially liked alot too kinda did tried tell gently yall probably know turns time kinda feel like ahole anyone advice could handle situation,0 +nothing interesting happened anything im posting photo greatgreatgrandpas majestic moustache ampxb processing img wtmighc,0 +wont help meplease help,1 +watching childhood pictures makes want kill even morei look happy feel envious could happy plus knowing never go back time makes feel terrible ive suicidal years never brave enough ugh im tired myself sorry rant hope better ,1 +omg guys measured today exactly inches nice number although unfortunately dont think ill height long,0 +embarrassing story time two years ago tried giving bf time head yeah never done anything like life didnt want to well eventually got alone decides try forcing next move me little bean started shaking uncontrollably started anxiety eventually passed out ex carry bathroom good minutes funny time whenever make jokes around friends giving head start shaking act like passed out lowkey pretty funny now also shit every time spawn minecraft always freaking forrest hope good day btw ciao cuties,0 +massive achievement today found bathroom school clogged significant piss pools,0 +elected supreme overlord earth life make sure every citizen earth gets free heavyduty sponge also outlaw dirt soil outside designated dirtareas like forests parks sidewalks walls buildings must kept spickandspan clean ill also scientists finally break flying car tech theyve keeping us,0 +im physically exhaustedf throughout entire life ive felt like birth unnecessary constantly get reminded mom planned aborting hate it high school definition hell im so tired it plan killing soon need stop need everything stop friends nobody cares theres nobody talk to mind wont stop racing,1 +dear girls guy something nice call simp sometimes might be sometimes good deed,0 +didnt ask borni didnt ask born stay fair ,1 +since broken arm honestly feeling really hard one time couldnt get right hand use left hand strange first use ok gn am much energy,0 +feeling bit saucy dm me pedos creeps time filler filler filler filler filler filer filer,0 +hate behind everyone elsei made serious mistake indecisive wanted do graduated engineering degree still real job lined up people start real jobs year olds full years behind everyone else terms career advancement sick hearing mark zuckerburgs hope hicks elizabeth holmes world highly successful young age know outliers average year old lot better am struggling find real jobs already th birthdays whats even worse behind women well successful guys age making close figures also either already married engaged long term gfs sexhave sex dozens girls short term girlfriends socially behind thus weirded many people tons great memories buddies thing barely anything time get social skills par late either somethings done scene look like desperate year old trying relive youth rate may settle postwall sluts third set guys girls either engaged taken fat sluts retarded mentally ill combination above calling misogynist redpill piece shit make things worse hopefully god give another chance come back someone else learn lessons disgusting previous life,1 +termforbeing introverted extroverted cause yeah that also filler imma say guns r bad,0 +lyric day gently mind escapes relaxing world pleasure pleasure take mind reality life gently slipknot httpsyoutubeqigenqil yes im aware like songs slipknot songs lyrics epic ulilreaperr u asked get tagged idk ur like dead,0 +ubannnnnnnned banned reddit cant chat anymore ______________________________________________________,0 +second attemptinstead pills took time know help anymore second time hospital week want stay tomorrow really really wanna go home like watched heart breaking pieces knowing someone made snap someone said love anymore,1 +consequences love really something special film hard put finger on love story sorts really one ive seen before several love themes running throughout film one mans love younger woman younger mans love older brother mafias love money costs intertwine story guessing rather knowing end cast superb sophia teasing barmaid straight facedness titta films central character simple yet affective camera work bounced everchanging soundtrack mixes lowfi trip hop lush orchestral pieces style film changes beautifully using several styles without ever getting cluttered love never looked diverse powerful tales told rumble towards various conclusions director married old new rich italian classic,0 +things considered stand aside first time got involved could give description went down im going privacy reasons times able average person tell breakfast lunch dinner snacks given day years ago gets mixed head usually react badly anniversaries incidents involve blamed someone dying,1 +day guess song added word today ill add another word tommorow maybe winner today i let it,0 +contemplatingi think im gonna try kill tommorow im happy way life going im tired burden everybodys shoulders know family would happy deal anymore tired heart aching time,1 +first saw movie alaska airlines flight since seen twice more simply simply one best films years found enjoyed first viewing little cloudy happened seeing weeks later things began fall place confusing deep fact depth movie may appreciated long time example occurred third viewing sammy davis jr jr grandfathers dog pet perhaps standin dead wife witness fiercely protects her symbolism galore none sappy indulgent real adventure trip keeps storyline perpetual motion even arrive sure really destination movie continues adventure got sense destination merely waypoint soundtrack fun scenery compelling decidedly easternblock could go deeper meanings within film im entirely sure ive discovered nuances yet besides fun tease yourself much film be everything illuminated proved like fine wine sweetens time highly recommend seeing twice,0 +want leave placei cannot anymore feel like im living surviving everyone abandoned me alone dont anyone want die considered many types redflag im scared non effective enough cant anymore,1 +posting daily get gf day would say ive posts long ive lost count havent day ,0 +thinking killing myselfi got raped years old drunk homeless man trying find live year old boy friends gf dumped everyone hates mom dad hate got abused kid reason live anymore want kill,1 +looking discord friends hey friends made discord looking people join gaming really anything dm comment invite,0 +happy birthday justin know months since weve talked cause yknow blocked me never forgot birthday could forget day mine hope youve well really hope youve gotten better im sorry something make feel way did really trying help you youre thats exciting good luck life justin know youll fine happy birthday you,0 +certain things make feel uncomfortable recently jokingly play nipples like suck biting laying bed im shirtless makes uncomfortable dont like all ill laugh tell stop dont like feeling it keep jokingly tell stop baby joking around,1 +life matterbillions people earth every single fucking life matters precious sacred important fucking scum drain resources could used help productve happy people stop telling life matters millions could die humanity would keep leeching planet beauty fuck us all,1 +ive given hope humanity poured soul post hard write got downvotedi posted night httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsdlsdyou_win_i_give_up_my_letter_to_the_universe hardest thing ive ever write poured heart online downvoted someone whomever downvoted reading wanted let know people like reason commit redflag soon im going make sure die painfully wanna stab death bleed slowly realize must really hate something said considering spilled guts out could please pm let know genuinely post made want downvote it made want take someone already suicidal push further,1 +im good mood finally lol,0 +hate reddit videos videos suck ass besides problems since s ive thing first seconds vid works properly plays back seconds sped way minute,0 +alright people listen up ive never one political feel like get chest blm stands black lives matter really advocates all lives matter legitimate organization enjoys protesting peacefully get point across however protests turn riots fault though antifa stands antifascist however actions really prove they fascists ones turn protests riots steal hurt ideals good ones either say want socialism means everyone benefits like others attempted socialism past real agenda communism everyone equally poor also want get rid religion entirely theyve tearing statues jesus mary stop there soon enough already theyll start tear statues buddah gahndi etc christian agree this freedom religion founded country antifa trying take away freedoms know old enough vote yet future america turn itll responsibility make sure whoever seat political power amercas best interests heart im republican trump supporter good thing hes done throughout covid pandemic special ops team combat epsteins child pornography ring end this cant tell whats right whats wrong give facts facts know of im gonna give like are all black hispanic lgbtq whatever hope incredible safe day god bless all,0 +ive come accept depressioni longer feel depressed crave death,1 +advent imdb overlooked movie find interested audience why users search twotime academy award winner glenda jackson find the return soldier among credits checking oscar winner julie christie fans annmargret give title click looking career great alan bates mention added bonus movie supporting heavyweights ian holm frank finlay movie many notables rewarded imdb given crossreferencing goes here so movie dvd producers realize internet movie database marketing gift film the return soldier definitely gem waiting discovered get it people,0 +hate disability anyone relateadvicei stutter quite mild mostly appears im stressed anxiety really makes feel like im alien k everyone something going them shit open frm stutter caused social anxiety im scared interact others times make want end all,1 +am wanting end itfucking christ life mess act happy jesus christ im point hanging viable option started brother killed himself literally splintered whole life person really girlfriend good relationship broke fucked dude couple days later breakup messy fuck hurts much cant even bring talk her months disgusted sad mom took whole thing harder explain mother walked room brother shot minutes earlier ptsd hospitalized twice told mentally stable enough work worked me ive strong one family im destroyed dropped college semester mom also mental issues nearly killed there miss old life fucking shit non stop years im sick it im fucking sick it want happy non stop ive gotten nothing shit since then,1 +state sub discovered subreddit thought going good teenager related posts boy wrong recently noticed many posts like i asked best friend i told crush like her yeah might true surely tiring seeing thing again yeah wanted share this,0 +thank moderators of rsuicidewatch for allowing post here part team researchers new york state psychiatric institutecolumbia university currently recruiting participants research study looking investigational treatment selfinjury called transcranial direct current stimulation tdcs tdcs noninvasive welltolerated form brain stimulation delivers low current specific area brain using electrodes research shown tdcs help reduce negative emotions may help treat depression conditionswe seeking individuals ages selfinjure through burning cutting means eligible participants stayingliving within minutes travel distance manhattan new york ny usa participate study involves completing baseline psychological assessment questionnaires twelve sessions tdcs six visits two weeks doubleblind trial may randomly assigned receive active inactive form tdcs research procedures done homeno inperson visits requiredthree months treatment visits psychiatrist medication management offered cost you compensation provided time effort eligible complete research proceduresthe researchers team conflicts interest declare study procedures approved institutional review board new york state psychiatric institutesome details confidentiality use personal informationif consent participate research personal information kept confidential released without written permission except 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electronically encrypted identifying information remains confidentialrecords available research staff federal state institutional regulatory personnel who may review records part routine audits information also available authorized individuals including new york state psychiatric institute also legal advocacy organizations authority new york state law access otherwise confidential subject records although cannot disclose information without consentif interested please contact ashley ashleyyttredahlnyspicolumbiaedu information also available time treating self injury research study,1 +sorry longi cannot anymore ever since pandemic started cannot anything international student whose countrys borders closed stuck apartment roommates moved out sent kind crazy places always lockdown barely social interaction since stuck country pay rent know cook little money used quickly also starving many times got addicted weed edibles multiple times week home myself help cope used twice month smoker best social gatherings could never schoolwork mental state in even borders reopening getting vaccinated fly little late withdrawn program due government scholarship contract cost parents barely money name pay offi seriously want stop existing know people say your friends family would sad personally see purpose continuing life feels want suffer anymore hate covid,1 +ultimate guide nnn guide winning nnn might need this stay occupied staying occupied keep the mood things like exercise cook draw play video games bois even catching homework also read bible whenever the mood go somewhere else bed get bed pushups go drink warm milk go talk family member friend ask day stay computer device normal take breaks every then minutes fine help distance temptation nutting something helps get less stressed things like yoga meditation heart heart conversation buddy yours stress negative someones overall mood want good one persistent this stay positive good mindset try look bright side situation in try learn something new could new hobby new sport new game would recommend idle games idle games hook gameplay end pretty much babysitting game could also watch youtube something educational channel would recommend kurzgesagt good material pose interesting questions life think meme benefits nutting things like get dopamine everyone assumptions matter nnn try justify anymore guide help at least somewhat win get weeks nnn able last year proud yourself nnn may harder people easy others matters try encourage keep healthy habit see many benifits it,0 +guys got oculus quest im getting vrchat help prepare do go questions need answering,0 +im getting tiredive going battle cant asked fight anymore theres future me even manage successful fucking what cant happy im literally afraid to ive miserable long thats know be life school fucking anarchy im good one subject im already year behind time running me im supposed going uni next year failed extra year im context uk go college years uni failed first year mental health depression recently got diagnosed well body dysmorphic disorder know reddit fucking tired it tired taking medication tired fucking school tired spending majority time alone friends always feel isolated excluded ive never party even fucking go regularly partly bdd wanting leave house without makeup ever seems piss people disappoint them im tired myself even fucking anything sit think think think either cry vomit learn hobbies live im there go school feel depressed go home feel depressed rinse repeat wanna blow head feel like massive burden know future holds me cant even get job bdd likes fuck over live shitty area too literally worst london everything fucked time pulled plug train wreck,1 +no cancer no crush say yes no family member die instead really good time playing tennis going sauna dad talking stuff first time long time im happy great happiness feels good,0 +know call someone disingenuous sense motherfucker get removed,0 +he knows live go school moms ton debt dad right job dad longer working gonna lot harder pay off also go private school costs lot deal this,1 +rating cocks thats it thats literally it rating cocks,0 +byei cant take anymore want want fucking please bye heh one even see anyway,1 +someone flair yo someone old flair older but many years have like hell million attendee old,0 +antichrist rteenagers serve opposite megathiccc,0 +think im weird guys looking phone earlier wondering today asked me what today also todays day going die bitch weird guys,0 +need help dont know turn pointive depressed months way get away smoking weed amd cigarettes everyday im pretty young stuff way ever happy honestly dont know do cant even come enough reasons keep going point,1 +still love years first time saw it fact discovered lost copy upset despite nonassociation original which kid never noticed adult care about cartoons should like dark enough interesting light enough enjoyed everyone im glad parents raised kind thing rather cartoons see today teach kids nothing music great gets stuck head foreveri downloaded entire soundtrack one point another,0 +rose colored glasses come realize thought closest important parts social life actually care much all supposed trust someone actions pure honest words demeaning vindictive grew mindset drunk mans thoughts sober ones words applicable angry sure say things regret fact said moment happens one time mistake habitual routine force move moments let brain play repeat still young still somehow feel fucking bitter point daydream cutting everyone life moving somewhere new tired feeling like constantly looking things bother feeling degraded upset things told fault if say dumb things would treat like dumb person,1 +instagram post soo cringe become billionaire boys clothes girls clothes good person top signs likes top poop make millionaire s,0 +oh god help im hungry theres people downstairs kitchen stale hot cheetos sink water send provisions,0 + complete failure myself friends country familywell begin currently high seems way escape abused childhood burned beat cut home went private school surrounded millionaires even billionaires sons daughters came family even going home got dream th grade trip trip would get go airplane well got kicked th grade could participate pe fat first thoughts redflag th grade well gay thought monster highschool people touched bathrooms called names made feel like shit attempted redflag lived thought amazing reason purpose new life nope years later high school peers top private universities bullying high school stayed home never spoke class final year showed teachers true intellect said late show world deep down believe that am drugged escape cold world alone fat gay used joy fun happiness life died th grade reading online would get fat shamed gay men existence meaningless never move on want pain stop anyone say well anything know guess late,1 +looking virtual dnd group thought itd fun come look virtual dnd group comment interested,0 +wife ready kill lostmy wife attempted suide june th via taking bunch pills effexor trazadone xanax basically whatever house thought might work didnt saw take pills called immediately suicidal ideations last november saw therapist tremendous gift help got past then recent attempt one visit back therapist things gone south refuses see therapist again saying i want help seems commited path killing herself efforts naught feel totally defeated barely get promise one day suffers sleep deprivation drinks vodka try get sleep makes decision making process completely defective i probably mention attempt got hospital bac morning wakes am night drunk sleep deprived saying cant more underlying issue victim child molestation brothers age never suffered repercussions crimes obesesses that effots get last word somehow decided suicde ultimate vengeance them heartless soulless bastards feel nothing death will son granddaughter son serious issues therefore much help best female friend gather somewhat supports ending pain one trying desprately keep alive admit always react well threats promises kill herself sometimes show anger leave with total devastation everything me last long without her loss proceed change mind keep safe drugs left home could use try again ive hidden car keys ive hidden kitchen knives cannot stay try keep safe,1 +see bigger threat society corrupt world leader horny artist,0 +justyeah need get stuff mindmy first kiss want it know coming anything depressing looking back wanted special never felt pretty never felt significant nothing bad ever happened buti still felt off especially first kisswhen called asked boob size virginity thing felt though object fast forward two years high school grad working amusement park living dorms everyone knew virgin come august close crew lifeguards wave special party handcuff party type pair someone handcuffed every time partner drinks must same partner cute russian foreigner got semiintoxicated heading bar realized forgot id badge offered walk room accepted walk in takes handcuff forces wrist around bed rail puts say no beg no looking door handle waiting roommate come backshe come back sees looking locks it finishes allows go bathroom shock walk bathroom sit down pee wipe toilet filled blood toilet paper saturated same shamefully walk back crawl bed disgust spoons me want it know say no next morning wake up sheets also saturated blood go work rumors spreading individual taking someones virginity true me turn break krista hear ___ took someones virginity acted clueless walked away cried knew true events taken place found thought gave up summer season ended turned slut hooking people left right want special things back know kiss wanted good first kiss someone really likedi know virginitybut wanted someone loved current boyfriend sleeping roomthe man love man respects me know may redflag watch materialbut events specifically rape haunt dreams haunt me conquer me make feel like nothing sit here many nights wanting end all feel like itd easier deal know may seem simple dumb want firsts back know people harder mean hurt too like im sitting here one thought years making read this thanks venting im bad night sorry think im pity party like address people may think say it tlampdr first kiss stolen virgin raped work crew found joke turned slut haunts dreams love boyfriend wanted him regular thoughts redflag sorry seem like panzy,1 +fuck swear god genetic modification gonna end product crapitalism ruin everything people gonna start trade marking parts human fucking genome honestly gotta make sort laws make cant trademark fucking genes,0 +tried open suicidal thoughts one seems really careim preexisting mental health issues lost job car house last months lost job covid substitute teacher car bad transmission cant afford fix roommate wanted boyfriend could move in said yes latter cant even stand anymore cant afford rent own told boyfriend yr ive mental health problems think need seek help im ready tell plan redflag response didnt need therapy needed get job like job suddenly going make interested life again problem ive applying jobs everyday havent able get call back jobs available cashiers hardware stores teacher two degrees interest diy really dont see cure changing outlook life hate retail workers all know working hard months ago would feel like massive step back anxiety bad hard time talking people instantly cry start trembling im uncomfortable situation even talking insurance phone cause severe panic attacks doesnt exactly make great candidate customer service retail makes burden everyone around me boyfriend backed living me saying wasnt enough room house anymore move parents dont good relationship dad told ive never happy domestic violence ive witness growing up unfair pressure felt dad life overall situation right now decade ive wanted end life never guts it im afraid anxious ever thoughts intrusive theyre constant even plan place it think time it find me id need carry deed theyre response im acting like year old living nightmare ive two days spent room bothering anyone except maybe could hear crying ear door cant help feel like giant nuisance everyone nobody really seems care think im serious feel like im joke,1 +im sure want die definitely want life go motions life hard hard time coping circumstances lost person could trust talk to want kill myself hate life fucking much nobody knows bullshit ive through want give up,1 +hate bus driver much first all never lets anyone back rows bus days bus completely full people standing up gets mad sit back leading people standing gets mad stand bus even seats always screams loudly standing claims seats sit in literally also gets mad literally anything wants top off blames chocolate addiction yelled everyone getting bus people gotten off yet people needed get sitting there nothing want gone,0 +r movies today hard find something take whole family see kids loved it good clean fun would highly recommend anyone wants take whole family nice evening movies,0 +ive abusive relationship years now family stopped talking me live states away boyfriend got together first time noticed abuse wanted repeatedly sex till sore would get angry refused subtle first scared me time went would everyday skinny need gain weight got point would ask questions wasnt good enough depressed would throw speaker room along put stuff front door couldnt get out,1 +drill still proceed caution mum gae,0 +want live quarantined worldfuck this cant see friends sports canceled grad year ruined gf broke up future hopless come within feet someone get dirty look ironic were quarantining save lives soon quarantine killed me covid see later world im out,1 +really care rditors hate emojis like bitch youre reddit fuck even u judge me,0 +nowi feel like keep rehashing long story short agoraphobic human interaction go time due fact wife avoiding terrible person conversation gets lost love son deserves much better prozac metropinal still depressed horribly low peak high peaks usually agitation ignorance without large quantities alcohol pretty much ive reached point life insurance worth people like suffering multiple years me still apprehension much honestly always someone around prevented till now really know expect already medicated therapied,1 +things die lay one chickens earth one favorites always walking beside always acting like dog chicken im posting help move on people realize but animals brightest people,0 +parents would relievedi feel parents would relieved killed myself would relieve constant worry wouldnt stress me am struggle with im medicated right now bad place life things keep piling up idk life decisions make im lost parents told tonight cant keep this feel like go ahead it,1 +balance slowly deteriorating right knee keeps getting weaker always keep drifting right walk without paying attention it family calls pinball keep bouncing wall,0 +college makes want commit redflagi hate college much want get get job live life stressed every goddamn moment feel like school completely consumes im exhausted morning sit hours lectures studying rest day less hours studying high enough quality work feel insanely guilty myself would force work late night tired cant concentrate late also makes failure years old never internship meaningful job done research care major picked hated least would make somewhat employable hate schools stupid fratboy workaholic culture every moment filled anxiety thinking everything wrong never amount anything choice though parents would never let leave transfer again desperately want school over still two years ill probably phd thats way really successful industry something like that stress constant selfhatred shitty people make want end now want go rest college want out,1 +poggies song uis_sex_real httpsopenspotifycomtracketweuxwdzglhwnpsvlsiaaddcdchttpsopenspotifycomtracketweuxwdzglhwnpsvlsiaaddcdc windmill mccafferty theres supposed new song end month hope good,0 +call ambulance police redflaghey gonna suck six bottles sleeping pills tomorrow afternoon call ambulance pick body police im hoping leave mess many people sorry posting forum first time avoided redflag time cant wanna know rot time im found also sorry adding gloomy reddit thanks,1 +know much longer gofor years ive fought misunderdiagnosed mental illnesses years ive tried failed everyone else easily turns borderline personality disorder and depression anxiety ruined life things ive done hurt everyone love wife holding on strained uneasy makes skin crawl says loves never hugs kisses me never snuggles me kids hate me give effort and depression looks like tried tat care am unable things need show wife love her unable loved failed everything one talk all sit fantasize feeling last time tried kill myself pills kicked warm calm serene sit look photos people committed redflag wonder much longer go is obviously part want die talk it im scared know anymore im going anything soon even it lot before but god im exhausted unbearably sad want loved accepted even though nothing offer anyone want over,1 +need bonked im weird thoughts character ive already talked times need bonked umegathiccc thing,0 +actually wanna die lot friends one exact lot family say oh thats true talk soandso school blah blah blah do people talk to yeah talk school whatnot actually wanna hang me one person actually wanna friend matches amount energy put friends either weve friends years others side long im actually dramatic saying moving hurts fucking much person actually wants hang me wants friends me weve made many plans future seem like dust now hate dramatic this love her much know thats g oh well ones always gotta catch feelings amirite holy shit im actually broken light made smile couldnt fucking me leaving know feel just im actually broken,0 +eww hate furries yucky poopy sticky doodoo heads,0 +apocalypse redux francis ford coppolas war opus probably beautiful war film ever seen capt benjamin willard martin sheen vietnam soldier tapped head dangerous highly classified mission cambodia terminate position col kurtz marlon brando highly ranked highly regarded army man seemingly gone completely insane defected army setting little society helped cultish following soldiers escorting river cambodia handful navy men along way encounter several interesting people most notably robert duvalls kilgore badass lieutenant colonel screws loose horrifying situations br br apocalypse less historical war film philosophical psychological study full metal jacket platoon running time apocalypse three hours film wonderfully paced compelling end film arrived actually surprised amount time passed beautiful cinematography surely stood me however seeing film convinced coppola one masters light photography film history godfather films tinged almost sepia tone shadows created feeling baroque composition apocalypse incredible usage natural light shadows particularly scenes involving brando sheen almost become living character pervasive effective another gorgeous scene cpt willard jay hicks frederic forrest jungle looking mangoes come across tiger sheer enormity surrounding foliage leaves big house made characters almost lilliputian colorization scene incredible everything else almost muted grey leaves incredibly vibrant green effect particularly striking another really minor notredflag moment film great scene helicopters carrying duvall company attack small village playing wagner could ultradramatic underlying soundtrack scene instead coppola turns song actual part scene duvall mentioning likes play approaching scare hell them br br the performances apocalypse first class much made amount money brando earned film amount trouble caused regardless this turned powerful performance relatively short amount screen time sheen completely outstanding first time seen really unleash film duvall lot fun watch loony kilgore apocalypse now film pervasive pop culture most know several choice lines film i love smell napalm morning et al knew little enough plenty surprises left experience seen original cut apocalypse now cannot compare newer cut film certainly experienced br br shelly,0 +think timemaybe blow popsicle stand,1 +im going nowhere life whats point living anymore finished useless psych degree career prospects romantic relationship prospects life standstill going nowhere days want stay bed sleep life away life chore reason keep going im point know fact going get better anything itll get worse,1 +still here suffer looking paper yesterday got paper cut ,0 +intelligence curse lost itim breaking point redflag back mind years creeping front im graduate high schoolor likely fail senior year live life dropout clue go im unintelligent work this might graduate everyday try avoid talking grades parents know ill disappoint further hurts removes time ticking bomb am im smart incredibly so hate it cause much strife years living takes away much could make happy deprives view sort wonder awe leaves rationalizing math science want people see that want see guy enjoys fun intellectual conversations point im considering stopping mental functions ending it sad thing is know almost guarantee succeed another curse knowledge want gone calling redflag hotline simply work lack courage talk someone talking text changed things makes bearable even feel much love towards family see stepping stone covered superglue thats meant hold back help out im pathological liar person hurts feel guilty pisses off lying become ingrained psyche point even let people see real me ever wear mask happiness positive outlooks like things perfect little cracks form may see true self little end day go home fix duct tape glue thats subtly applied make seamless religion never option simply knew better help analytical mind reject life faith simply sit here trudging life one day time hoping might find something help me get look start running along path someplace better theres easier road ends much sooner road give rest go even know want life point redflag tempting time want make things worse people close me im stuck middle intersection others pass by ever manage figure account use here please leave alone reserved almost exclusively positive side treasure dearly try shield aspects life,1 +psa clean phones people look know ive got ocd urge keep things clean actually something everyone do see many people use phones everywhere go even toilet mean damn thing would obviously get costed germs stuff like this buy clorox wipes clean youre safe especially stupid coronavirus around,0 +need helpby time see post ill probaly delete it need help im still fairly young im still human being abused parents alot even age still abused im looking someone help since im verge depression possibly redflag anyone help would awesome even life changing,1 +confessed crush happen happen guess,0 +came door drunk high opiates hes ex h addict opiate rage real told me verbatim guy house hed kill spot questions asked pretty easy night ive spent countless nights barricaded bedroom rage past terrible grew gangs mexican mafia molested young age,1 +im really looking forward sex ed not going put condoms dildos stuff like that fun,0 +worst day fucking yearim kill myself wanted write last resort goodbye thing maybe idk friend mine called sobbing saying cant see today final straw dont care abymore im sorry goes cant keep this everyone said get help cant fucking that family wouldnt let me wouldnt believe me im minor pretty much tell me constant isolation go far everything cant go anywhere without someones say so entire family ignores me cant kepe school failed finals going failure whole life hate living hate somcuh nothing norie say really cant tpye im sobbing pepole probaly would care one friend fucking english teacher english teacher really cool shaem wont bea bel see new year worthless patheric piece shit am votd student th e month want fcuking die im gonig fucking kill nyslef,1 +way outeverything screws kids over brought screws over leaving screws over dying screws over wish could hand life someone else wipe memories kids husband mother put new woman let take over better thought ok right now anxiety pmdd acting im struggling bit knew hormonal pass took kids morning engagements spent afternoon playing river enjoying early spring weather husband randomly picked documentary mother young child trying kill felt like throat closing over feel envious think methods try justify it try think theyll better long run wont kids adore me fight yell sometimes go far purposely mean think honestly think im wonderful cuddle kiss tell love much mama love moon theyd destroyed want mummy want mummy ive held whole lives awful pressure wish here want medicated ive hated cant deal again buckle push ill manage fuck wish could replace me go somewhere die somehow hurt anyone done,1 +weird friend talking american friend used battery nerf bullet time passes tell hes horny the things talked about jokingly said why dont use cat knew jt joke forgot said started saying know option thwn started talk moves gonna cat im scared cat im mentally broken,0 +boreddm maybe title says im feeling kinda bored wanna talk dm me talk whatever number game game like whatever save boredom pls,0 +want dead want live world love conscious able experience existence world thrown nothing pain time time again life mundane unfulfilling sick joke wish waste away here want freedom live life meant to constantly thinking die here maybe ill able start anew different world way know might cease exist accept this know worth putting family friends heavy loss want fade away want stop existing also want stay here wish could go meant go want live life image please someone help me want cease exist want new life,1 +moderators rteenagers working hard make relatable memes fellow teenagers seem poaching bot doesnt allow pre made formats feel like addition umagic_eye_bot nice eliminates possible reposting bot completely removes post premade 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wanna know apple phones like read button done,0 +anxietymy anxiety bad cant even go hang people get invited get nervous ignore everything stay room end blowing purpose also hate confrontation dont want disappoint saying cant make it many times say phone broke much pressure going getting conversation life fucked embarrassing im horrible person im lonely feel confident around people xanax also know ill never life get boyfriend worse smile cant fixed cosmetic surgery im honestly cursed especially everyone says person prettiest smile well me god give certain people ugly features people beautiful features fair basically ignore people im forced smile life prevents social media would never life use snapchat left huge part society participating social media really want kill myself im figuring logistics it wish knew happened died could feel confident im getting older zero money saved retirement im going die alone poor ugly im looking forward living rest life poor ugly alone id rather go still bit dignity smh thanks reading,1 +made video regarding whether reviews really helpful video explains either listen reviews not gives right idea given desire buy game jokes many inclusions horny man himself httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhlqvskxshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhlqvskxs,0 +yo fuck bee movie look good im like watching game cinematic,0 +life bad last years beg read this hello know subreddit existed im glad found it im sure heard story like many times before know else talk this quite long apologize well written knew sort life would much easier tell story years old since life borderline unbearable started fitting school resulted dropping out went another school year knowing anyone older everyone else making feel bad went psychologist found needed change therefore went vacation myself making music years later met love life reason knew the one pardon tackyness great time together year suddenly told work her absolutely broke heart moved home town get away her moved apartment people knew one night drinking myself came home talked one girls lived with ended sex month told pregnant going keep it think life could get worse point happened like before moved another city dont worry visit daughter every week live bergen norway met great people ive got good friends here things turned little better never money rent expensive live norway expensive bills addition barely survive money earn job winter realized havent felt happy since years old completely forgotten feels told parents this expected theres much do except lending money every which would never ask barely support themselves problems might seem big you assure get bad stream problems every little thing adds one drop cup smallest problems enough tilt me one thing theres girl really like class smart pretty share alot insterests taste music boyfriend years would never destroy relationship know likes makes confused last couple months shared time together stuff enjoy like playing super nintendo going concerts one day actually felt happy again one person makes life worth living boyfriend know problem cant solved way patiently waiting see decides break him hard hold day goes without thinking ending all thing stopping feel responsibility daughter reason also fading away get depressed seing friends graduate getting good jobs happy relationships good economy good lives general feel treated unfairly want feel happy again tldr long story life slowly becoming unbearable please take time read it desperate someone reply edit know why felt like adding link music httpwwwmyspacecomlunsjmusicplaylistslnsjsplaylist,1 +end tetherjust completely tired existing much want die fact want exist anymore sick tired feeling completely drained emotion whatsoever reason gone yet know would completely devastate parents im sick living people know much longer last,1 +thought suicidal people dont know people think redflag answer got take step back evaluate wrong think redflag even option youve gotta work issues think second death forever die thats waste trillion chance even born already defined odds get anywhere life want word get put think bad situation think probably someone x worseyou overcome anything try enough decide life goes anyone else dont want redflag known people think talk you considering redflag please take moment think really gonna fix problemsno,0 +crush girl school got got back friend crush crush girl class like months ago tolde felt said liked friend boyfriend ye understood moved on one friends told het liked even tho bf said also likes him reason made really really really jealous kinda feel bad bf cuz nice guy all tell someone trust ya go reddit,0 +interesting tale giant mammoth elephants running amok modern india features transparent special effectselephants dressed shaggy coats sporting tusk extensions said good story fine cast work exciting climax said running time one doubled showed indiacourtesy robert lippert master padding given choice opt shorter version,0 +want fucking die alreadyi hate life one cares dysphoria fucking kill,1 +hi im indie game developer first video new game hope like it video reach likes publish second devlog subscribe channel would grateful thank lot advance httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvotavrrgcehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvotavrrgce,0 +fck lifeso lifes rough finally told psychiatrist bad things gotten cutting myself planning kill myself two weeks ago totally opened up promised kill always wanted accident put family but now tonight im done great trip planned weekend best friend gonna go visit college two hours live spend night there planned week half ive looking forward got cancelled point honestly think ill go own stay friday saturday really solid last weekend kill saturday night gonna go friday afternoon ride mountain bikes talk team see could cycle collegiality meet friends campus spend night hotel best friend take tour college saturday morning meet club team someones birthday afternoon bunch fun thats gone idk gone ive trying long im tired ive tried half heartily twice think saturday day,1 +cats gtgtgt dogs dogs loud smelly lol cute like theyre literally crusty anyone thinks cats mean probably pats head hard something dumb,0 +earn money im currently jobs me none neighbors need help cant afford supplies training art commissions anything two dollars name right now earn money people ,0 +experienced weebs dream turned park friend colin sitting picnic table talking random crap hot pink haired girl walks us said either guys want make im bored said nah lmao,0 +th birthday feeling suicidalhey guys turning tomorrow feel horrible ive struggling depression years recently started taking meds instead helping feel better think feel worse used social outgoing year everything going downhill treat family closest friends like shit cant help ignoring saying things dont want hurts hurts them barely survive school tired time lay bed day feel alone fuck time ive never one true love think noone talk share pain with school group friends hang pass time cant relate talk want something tomorrow birthday instead thinking throwing party good time thinking wasting time worthless insignificant am fail life univerity want die brothers best friend killed remember pain went dont know againi feel like everyone know feeling awful trying help keep rejecting even tho need support feel horrible that want everything ok much ask,1 +pushing people awayin past six months attempted redflag four times two serious family friends know of including ex plays part due breakup lately getting feeling people care anymore simply ignore get pissed depressed suicidal brother still seems genuinely care ex left wanted stay friends blocked me said cares hopes get better cant stick around people need most need talk her wont already sent farewell letter even reply surrounded people feel alone every way except physically see way fifth attempt,1 +feeling like since beginning senior year high school thought going slump pandemic all never felt hopelessness entire life graduated feel samei live mom husband along two baby sisters feel like insignificant part family work the thought interacting people know makes sick stomach cannot even leave house take trash feel like eyes me rejected fast food job interview given idea around others myself unfamiliar place made panic anything around house mom expressed disappointed lay bed sleep till pm wish could tell want anymore wish could tell days seem blend now every day spent alive makes want scream pillow means dead yeti tried failed kill four times already feel like attention whore so even though nobody knows attempted fantasize death constantlyeverything chore things requires energy energy left me takes weeks shower process time consuming never laundry want go searching dirty clothes never clean room task daunting consequently live pile filth probably walking pile filth too everything requires effort absolutely none givewhenever mom tells clean house takes long always start zoning out thinking suicide thinking different life would born different family different country opposite sex make scenarios head make feel better end feeling worse before fantasizing unachievablei feel hopeless worst part is really want help want feel like anymore want wake every day start cry still here feel like probably exaggerating phase mom thinks nothing wrong me convinced lazy unmotivated maybe right makes feel like disappointment cannot even blame her because well am knows nothing feel bases judgement sees daughter future ahead her useless cannot fend herself never amount anything life know want die know spend every waking second thinking nice would could stop existing know anything wish didi know do tired life think killing nearly every day tired here,1 +try get someone understand felt bad enough wanted commit redflag potentially hurt take seriouslyyears ago terrible time life made halfass attempt commit redflag know people say halfass attempts disagree kind hard die home household items without suffering extended periods time people want experience long painful death household item want stop hurting really want talk did want communicate really want die enough try it tried bring spouse telling depressed want live problems brushes like saying fuck it tried commit redflag among things turned fucking lives completely upside down think aspergers want get help badly shitty truth see reasonable way address problem already tried hardest besides talking actual professional getting diagnosed cant live own cant leave problems behind dammit want someone acknowledge hurt badly tell understand okay give shit even though probably essentially mentally handicapped husband least give goddamn fucking hug no ten years ago life took tortuous unexpected turn twisted fucked turn twisted fucked turn that trying hard hell deal keep going why even know guess optimist heart even though cynical struggling make best situation things problems keep hurting much ive tried tell spouse want help aspergers tried get help get help doesnt know myself cant even pick phone talk family love much talked years even though think every day want tell wanted die hoped would die things hope actually would longer person life brushes like saying make feel bad no saying feel really fucking bad communicate that know even possible damn fucking problems need help problems go away trying hoping would pass years years longer suicidal try hard think realize way die terribly prolonged likely work mean probably best prevention redflag fact really incredibly easy tries kill turns world upside gets kinds support medical care it wished dead prolonged period silently things hoped would make die tried tell wanted die told things hopes know scoff brush off guess war redflag attempt justified know want communicate felt badly really wish could understand sometimes still feel badly want understand feel badly feelings real well cant figure it sure war got everything came back top problems causes addition fucked relationship try understand respect problems feel like ever real respect mine nothing feel like express much things hurt still even though things much better superficially feel like could get help somehow least feel helpless worst thing everything life wish like people age see taking care dealing life normal life problems instead feel like housepet people could without take care anyways simply living would feel bad didnt keep trying leave issues behind adult way possible working try ask help makes feel like burden child last thing want look forwards rest life like this almost feel like actually likes feel like shit say something make victim feeling horrible somehow stopped talking every friend want talk life them eventually gets old realize person one always talks problems tried stop problems still here escalate epic proportions less frequently going grow old die horrible stupid problems one else seems probably fucking aspergers or whatever fuck wrong me take care themselves,1 +weird thing happened today found people shipping girl talk frequently im catch good day dont know theyre this told girl it also weirded it something happened,0 +yaw mean sometimes feel like want deepthroat gun,1 +im sad karma click button right please v,0 +need help best friendso start off small friend group three super close neither us friends fine coz like said super close used larger group recently kinda fell apart three us left one bf vacation miserable wasnt well things got way way worse course two days shes great risk redflag right really dont know do lot trouble home life general fucked way possible concerned worry her decided ask wether wants meet afternoon evening asked wanted stay night hasnt answered yet even tho online time do call her wait really worried concerned seriously terrifying need advice please thank u advance,1 +im exhaustedeveryones better me thought id come terms this apparently not god need get rid universal gifted program elementary schools hate people better me could i blame trying hard enough good enough feel like sham everything ive made be im not im good nothing im mediocre never stand out die one day forgotten within year friends sweet smart pioneering love heart deserve world efforts success theyve made themselves even theyre juniors high school fuck im junior feels like theres hope me late me know many amazing talented sophomores well theyre amazing kind charming could never like them god im pathetic people run problem work solve overcome it dont give up makes failure thought id come terms this guess havent hate it feel petty narcissistic want tear brain rip shreds replace personality someone elses looks get life either ill never confident enough little have ill never confident enough transition nobody cares me try cant blame thats one thing say confidence blame anyone now used blame world problems id created myself see whatever pain im suffering now ive brought one way another want burden everyone else suffering enough stress deal with care me spill theyll push responsibility onto someone else someone qualified anyway land me back therapist expensive pointless therapy makes hate more makes mom hate more makes dad hate more reminder ill never change reminder im financial burden huge fucking mess everything treats patronisingly know used middle school whiny privileged bitch kept moaning depression anxiety mommy issues im edgy them still ill never anything quiet kid draws one resting bitch face scary one think hate me maybe do know think im pathetic listen theyre nice me feels like theyre babysitting me entertaining garbled nonsense cooing me diction makes sound bitter im aware truly blame them gotta believe this fuck want shitty person already am thought genuinely thought getting better last year year proved wrong im still useless mess middle school im still absolute miserable ass years attention whore prideful jealous douchebag thought making friends fuck maybe did like me really again playing along me id rather beat spit face hurts more vague im left questioning whether im exaggerating it want burden anymore want people care me ever did fuck arrogant think people cared all im ridiculously selfcentered time gave back world people move on im going die nobody might well end sooner make easier everyone else want die really think want live either want responsibilities want responsibility wish could pass sleep wish could trade health someone dying someone deserves live someone become great person im wasting space deserve this fuck im pathetic fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck absolutely disgusting need conversation thank you needed this know ill kill myself should even serious then everyone want kill every while im special want stop thinking wish someone would gut me,1 +feeling edgeim feeling extremely edge like want hurt badly end life know anymore do many fucked things happend ive pretending im okay long time im trying fight urges difficult need vent feel alone worthless like one gives fuck died day now hate much feel like im going insane im lost broken scared want cry scream lose control instead act okay pretend smile one knows feel keep myself im scared one day soon end life,1 +watched documentary assisted redflag people suffer psychologicallyand honestly expecting relate much light end tunnel end me im extremely tired alive wish never existed first place wanna cry want rip face off never want see again everytime look mirror cant help think im better dead everytime j think face body imagine jumping infront train hanging jumping building everytime close eyes imagine killing myself usually knife cant take anymore everyday worse suffering goes on,1 +goes head pull plugwhen swallowed bunch pills kicked chair feet think,1 +heres newest video giveaway description httpsyoutuber_gtv_zdtuw thanks support cant wait first giveaway,0 +reason im still alivethis may get written stupidest thing ever attribute ongoing existence coffee hear second im married suicidal years now find comfort comforted people get it hobbies anything simply good feelings come little things dade temporarily dull ache except coffee friend mine struggling emotional fckery tell this solve problems go get good cup coffee sit slowly drink it time focus anything coffeethe smell warmth flavor may minutes thats minutes nothing world matters except coffee stress bills stupid peoplenothing many us know sometimes need short break thinking sounds stupid works me sincerely hope helps someone elss even five minutes,1 +helpso im finally deciding end tonight now anyone know much losartan mg enough anything successful medical injuries would deal with,1 +friend tight situationhi me friend mine theyve recently told therapist tell family whats happened internet friend bullied internet told anyone point family going tough time theyre worried told family family would another burden take really feel guilty point contemplating redflag talking veered conversations onto dark paths sort humorouslight situation rises immediately gets crushed say really want tell family would rather commit redflag know help way ive tried talking regularly via skype due technical circumstances thats extremely limited now options go,1 +feel foolish posting here well much suppose want go bad things life boring one wants hear itits selfish take peoples time could helping someone else someone talk to think talk things anymore making worse ruining them matter much protest am much would better shut mouthanyways relapsed hard last night even trying stay sober point whatever kind proud havin super new wounds felt good always feel shitty telling friend like keep lot them do make happy everything getting worse might well write suicide note believe shit want anything people hold onto hopes keeping memory around keep trying yk body makes hard know want now sure work unsure when tonight sometime soon want go though anything anymore whatever going live probablyfill empty everything blood n alcohol lolmy life going go anywhere body ruined future hurting person staying around for reason like final gift everyone around me ig surprisedf come back memorable enough thought long lol ,1 +feel like ive put wrong class mathematics im th set top higher ability ones arent im saying im best mathematics work easy like min time spend nothing like half year gotta prove worthy getting like tests,0 +advice chimps chimp give orange give eat orange eat orange give eat orange give you,0 +half assed redflag attempt number maybe dont even remember anymorei dont think hanging going work dont wanna try long drop dont properly ill probably end paralysed thinking makes sick reason havent jumped front train yet dont want wait arrive tried fall asleep train tracks once wasnt comfortable got bored went home wish gun ampxb,1 +stop homeless homeless just stop homeless easy fix,0 +want die right nowplease ill give anything die right now,1 +heres another low quality meme somebody existential crisis rteenagers rimandthisisdeep,0 +fucked dudei fucked badly want life over past haunts catches me fucked relationships friendships school everything feel like ive said wont stop saying true feel like good time end general time period im school social interaction one find one gives fuck seems fucks sake,1 +happensi really need admit hospital reach help but going hospital would completely derail life seems hella counterproductive someone seeking help,1 +fuck me c f sunny dressed black swedish ass cant handle much heat holy fuck guess ill die then haha,0 +keep thinking back awful things ive doneonce concert someone wanted move forward move way became angry later started elbowing someones back reason all like times turned around said sorry purpose felt soooooo embarassed awful thing ive done feel like maniac that hate packed together bunch people turned asshole that ex saw arguing took long time finally forget this contacted ex months ago blocked me made new account continue conversation engaged blocked again kept like times end lost reminded fucking irrational like concert insulted shit me feel soooooooooo bad myself keep thinking back monster am really really really wish done things guilt completely swallowing up keep wanting kill ive done things cant live with,1 +rteenagers snoo girl ascii art hope like it txt filehttpstinyuploadcomindexphpfile_id,0 +birthday always makes feel horribleim tired burden family wasnt even supposed make here feel like ive somehow cheated redflag attempt months back relocated icu big city hospital stayed days couldnt walk using bathroom worst sorts heart monitors remember ripping chest woke up screamed cursed angry woken up one wish world even taken me remember mustering courage call two friends had one declined call second made excuse hang phone remember family coming visit family stamped thousands medical bills since pretend didnt happen reality dont think anyone wanted wake up ive trying hard dont believe friend me need time successful please,1 +rather ran cari hope things dont get betternot everyone ill wait accident happen feeling suicidal makes feel guilty everything every aspect born ratand die like stupid rati exist sufferi envy love watch people everything goes well themi wonder pure souls are,1 +think need say anything elsei fed want sleep broken hopeless hearing voices mentally exhausted,1 +upset abc giving yet another show chance real winner show good writing storyline great actual original idea show instead another boring reality show casting spectacular characters actors right on talented set actors concept idea really new cool idea tv show many us share whole idea connections really love characters steven laura whitney damien honest one person connected show like even episodes sheri appleby example acting characters easy like talented wish abc given show chance interrupted show midway also advertised enough truly unfair everyone show showed great promise one let abc know feel keep sending emails keep show alive please join me know it worked jerico by way episode want last show please support show send emails abcwe it show well worth it petition online save six degrees httpwwwpetitiononlinecomghpetitionhtml it sign petition asap,0 +ive planning redflag cant talk therapist it doive planning redflag hate it know cant talk therapist id risk getting baker acted florida thing something many obligations like school family cant miss institutionalized something talk therapist go to,1 +dont see point living anymoreim year old high school student ive always suicidal ever since school deteriorating am ive always good hiding pain suffering constant anxietydepression ive always kid school thats bit goof needs sleep nice guy ive noticed recently ive worse job this several friends also going thru tough times recognize face someone lost live asks im okay ofc say im fine im type guy confess everyting friends once im sti kinda waiting feel right honestly im feeling okay feel suicidal thoughts slowly creeping me feel like always control life worst habits doingm work properly unable sleep even though im always constantly tired going gpa frsshman year dropping feel like parentd school raping metaphorically parents sure love me fucking expect like korean kid noting studying sats tests oh finished track practice worked schoolwork hours stop watching youtube study sat class cant explain well actually hate parents much anything support me nothing torment me home supposed safe haven youre supposed feel home school home human nature desire education learn however keep feeding informatuon education said dtudents dont think theyll get tired like pizza crave it nuch get sick it im sick school im sick learning im sick grades grades determine whether live streets live house schools courses fucked doesnt allow us major courses want tried killing months ago rope bit thin snapped died blacked bit regain consciousness fortunately unfortunately getting point im fantasizinf hanging buying whole bunch drugs od die dont see life going get better life going pretty well recently completr switch direction dont feel like living thing thats holding back killing im afraid whats death im religous never be religion fabricated lie control people andgive fake hope im afraid death literally nothing scariest thing ever think about im sorry long idk going morning mind pretty boggled friends nice enough send answer hw part lab honestly lovd friends much hope awesome life never deal eith to lied things keeping fron killing death guess losing friends important people im sure want advice someone convince wanna talk im caught up like confused gender sorta rather whether want live die like anyways rhanks reading comment anyting want comment kys wouldnt mind,1 +cant talk rn im hot girl shit making scenarios head crush fall asleep,0 +new bad buh bye ill back clapping stopped ampxb ampxb ampxb nice day u cool ppl,0 +figured yet the raskreddit autobot deleted original post guess imma go ahead ask here possible check chat feature mobile browser dont access pc day tomorrow then wont know whats blowing notification chat which says anyways get point i think,0 +everyone resistant change mean fr new avatars new avatars theyre designed give customisability everyone hating them,0 +turned today bye teenagers love sub truly great place young adults get know many inspiring achievements get genuine advices people age teenage crazy time hope everyone enjoys it ps meme reached hot sub ,0 +one month today ill deadit th birthday perfect timing really one week parents weekend college ill get say goodbye family one last time roommate away soccer game one stop me hung wall hook ill hang hanging belt everyday thinking look around neck years making ive depressed since always joked happy age id end it well im im miserable ever end wanted leave something seem like total surprise go it,1 +unsuccessful overdose attempti dont know right place post this im starting get little concerned health line number tells go emergency asap soon hear intentional od sunday night attempted redflag ingesting g straight paracetamol well minimum mg temazepam hours later took g paracetamol dizzy nauseous exhausted yesterday monday today tuesday ive developed temperature well still feeling unwell want make sure ill okay see psychiatrist tomorrow afternoon thank you,1 +rather famous quote show fortress ill show ruin ultramarine probably,0 +social flair one used exception serious art meme filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +claims woman nobody believe me im exactly sure herself police came claimed hit flushed cheek show it fortunately police able put together actually happened based blood trail thank god sitting hit blood around proved otherwise would jail something do things escalating second time arrested past months assault,1 +urge want hurt ruin myselfi urge get face tattooi urge want get arrested crime go jail even crime commiti urge homeless sleep streets urge hurtruin myself,1 +whats long hard unbearable life,0 +inhaled egg boiled eggs cracked open egg slurped dont ask bored still egg shells egg tried shallow threw up yeah im sorry,0 +trouble dreaming may give movie low rating realize movie made please everyonebr br just people sense humorbr br for people movie great plays old science fiction movies radio shows long gone witch brated themselves along lines spaceballs airplane may need stretch imagination little bit get jokes well worth it,0 +day posting serbian songs httpsmyoutubecomwatchvlpxheylam,0 +little sad story guess idk thank read okay couple weeks ago shit went moved georgia wisconsin drama happened parents told couldnt talk anyone georgia including damn older brother long term girlfriend best friend loved dearly girlfriend amazing person think everyday theres nothing wouldnt give get real closure instead get someone else break tried figure way go behind parents back talk anyway nothing could wasnt gonna let date couldnt talk got best friend break said goodbye him dont know get dont know ever also dont know get best friend amazing person everyday school wed fuck around dumb shit fun playing video games mainly fallout sometimes uno yell top lungs raging fun made promise never give intend keep girlfriend people love arent family count days till maybe see again remember best friend sitting science th grade always ate chex mix halfway class wed split small bag looked choking hard face red hell supportive best friend laughed hard could hit back couple times ah girlfriend class one day teacher handed paper class complete course instead work wrote sentences filling paper front back mine countless amazing times ill never forget chance given meet people better winning lottery chance never able recapture know best friend reddit hes probably sub somehow someway see man love always keep amazing awesome person,0 +goodnight new wake am pm also made th contributions chatting new today,0 +im literally drawing rn,0 +usual day start point place wisconsinbr br first all red tyrannical father forman family wwii veteran sits kitchen table reads newspaper overjoyed wife kitty serves breakfast comes skinny son eric sits table well father starts daily yelling usually involving placing foot erics behind insert reason here promiscuous angelfaced sister laurie home comes along red stops yelling kindly talks her making eric feel left familybr br once daily painful ritual over eric rushes basement friends already hanging out get see them becomes obvious eric redhead tomboy girlfriend nextdoor neighbor childhood friend donna pinciotti sanest people around meet steven hyde conspiracy theorist hates disco really care whats around long funny watch michael kelso kind guy thinks get life looks carrots grow trees jackie burkhardt one thinks prettiest girl around spoiled kid rich father and course cheerleader fez naive oversexed foreigner loves candy cant keep secret first simply hang out gossiping making fun kelso sit circle let real fun begin going something theyll regret laterbr br meanwhile red goes meets donnas weirdo parents bob midge hes rude mind think hes joking somewhere around leo aging hippie whos constantly confused makes word plays without even noticingbr br did imagine seemingly peaceful neighborhood awesome characters course seem clichd show takes clich new level throw wicked story lines sitcom offer sit enjoy one best tv shows ever one never two times thing is compared sitcoms cute funny purely hysterical get hooked let show let go bite hook and man see sitcom genre whole new prospective,0 +cant stay functionable two daysnor hopeful matter though hopeful even peace since began freshmen year college first finals week everything feels fake barely find comfort online redflag resources half depression might never get better kill live miserably next years half even worse well need things depression keeps doing keeps bed get bed mean yeah get it could act depression still guess im depressed sake insufferable burden family revel making people mad me argue that sorta treatment developed used actual psychologists hope know better brain works i spent lot money yk guess cant follow probably secretly subconsciously dont want get better bc im shitty person wtv idk whats catch im extra pissy bc havent found anything worth staying considered notterrible future realistically attainable since s im yk feel like crap corner web psychologist country ever able make feel better still feel bc im lazy liar everything get better wont bc ive become complacent wtv last psychologist told me sorry rambling post im crisis bc college life demands act like reasonable human since im unable productive way guess college happening unfortunately dont much option dying bc family going accept living daughter attend college,1 +saw first time uk tv good musical accompaniment elevator scene class especially goingdown thing phone booth fiddles floorindicator jump transom really impressive theres much more apart stuff thats mentioned before theres fight man whos bullying woman dog looks simple drawback plot gets mixed dead eye dan escapes reappear even gangsters get involved later on scene looks like hes shooting fat inspector funny would better dead eye one pulling trigger,0 +feel dead inside completely losti really know anymore ive felt dead inside months redflag constant thought front mind means end life tonight backup case wake up know would effective cant think reason continue trying live,1 +worried dadi got text aunt asking call dad worried answer her talked earlier today call goes right voicemail hes answering anyones texts nobody knows exactly hes working somewhere missouri hours away anyone know lives anything try help point although really remember this mom says admitted years ago kept hospital days prescribed medicine good while last couple years apparently sort thing becoming pattern he took meds ago hes posted dramatic things facebook make everyone comment whats wrong do etc done anything hard worry anything do,1 +work still depressing still feel overwhelmed left behind lot things know one thing always seem forget get deep thoughts awesome people still side one coworker depressed vented tailgate truck break smoked cigar coworker fine hes inviting people outings told ok could still go together days hes goto lot things feel like losing past month making damn sure keeping thing look forward time time love spending time shooting shit know favorite thing cannot our people get picture harder truly vent get things chest people invited cool again lot shit past month friend would understand hope go next weekend long overdue group thing whenever anyway completely depressed trying hang something know everything ok love coworkers know lose buddy crazy lately need forget things,1 +tired moving forward matter make better person still feel like shit fuck everything fuck life hate it time needs come soon ready let go nobody would give fuck anyways think world would better exist anymore,1 +could improve quite ways would like polishing turd still would good enough maybe would go good enough anyone friends certainly partner pick hobbies feel like deserve smile ugly thing like smile talent would silly did cannot create anything hate ugly creating something beautiful would ironic would feel like lie early s beginning bald top head god real cruel sense humor let us add messed already thanks feel envious people effortlessly obtain friendships notredflag people time lives partying hanging friends hooking up things never gotten do see everyone around feeling good feeling happy fun here feeling shameful likely never experience anything close daily wish could experience once move done it want keep missing out want life stop laughing me know do even improve still never going good enough anyone ugly talentless stupid receding hair like clock ticking become truly lost anyway bi get rejected absolutely everyone sight wish things would get better wake one day longer care always going alone apologies wasting time writing felt therapeutic good enough,1 +pls let diei want badly dead come forest planning killing myself didnt bring anything though looking suitable tree hang from hope weekend even tomorrow night going take planning need get everything order it would much easier could drop dead car crash hurting possibly cope with,1 +highstandard columbo story actually first filmed episode longrunning series originally transmitted second after murder bookbr br robert culp makes first three appearances guest murderer series plays owner private detective agency blackmails wife patricia crowley rich highly influential businessman played sympathetically ray milland falsifies report favour discovered affair wife later rebels blackmail scheme killed fit ragebr br a satisfying episode many respects particularly plot strongly setup subsequently developed also rare columbo ingredient crime unpremeditated killing whole thing enhanced widowed husband uses murderer assist columbo investigations feature facilitates numerous good quality scenes particularly first sequence three central characters meet columbos crucially deceptive qualities wonderfully evidencebr br directed flair bernard l kowalski acted appropriately high level really set tone whole series since murder book let poor ending script columbo creators richard levinson william link precise wellstructured wellthoughtout underpinned steady productive pace meaningful sequences really exhibit unpredictability story ultimately finale fittingly epitomises columbo always one step ahead murdererbr br overall fine piece detective work columbo strongly suggests production team worked notredflagly constructively render polished columbo story,0 +im scaredi cant anymore cant really cant tried im still alive wanna want work im tired,1 +literally forever started prozac mg like month ago recently started upping dose mg recommendation doctorrecently feeling bit less exhausted depressed never feel optimistic think happiness end go back suicidal thoughts idea expect these anyone share experiences prozacantidepressants relief last forever,1 +understand difficult just breathe okay however am past traumas attack endlessly ruins present hence making want look forward future much write know start sure saying anonymously going help all feel empty writing this hope wake tomorrow want end tired want live anymore neither want kill myself tried times already gave failed fucking times loljokes me know tell everything joined community know fucked up sharing family make fuckin difference many times tried hinting them hey fucked up want wake tomorrow way family help me brushed off lol family depression even real devils workthat makes work short know putting effort waste anyone reads post let know okay share reasons made way today bother please use harsh commands civil get straight thanks hard accept whatever life,1 +told mom want alive anymore energy able survive own said going let die would one cats wasting away would let die feel like waste time worry resources like black hole sucking life everyone around me keeping alive contribute nothing feel like kept alive like animal zoo,1 +working girl kitty sothern engaged bill kelly neglects working long hours garage order save money marriage stood birthday kitty goes doubledateblind date meets department store heir bob hartwell hamilton falls love leaves protestations love appear cover desire mistress rather wife faithful bill rallies round comfort her last gives repeated requests reinstate engagement pressured part bills support family loses job bob returns however convinced wants marriage all kitty follow heart conscience br br this film lot better id expected be character bill first comes sort loud comic irishman type jack carson played often kelly and script infuse character real compassion love bill turns best person entire group viewers may find rooting feckless hartwell tone film wavers however lighthearted romance much darker side especially depiction dance marathon rather horrific accident bills garagebr br the cast rounded dependable jane darwell kittys mother impish yet thoroughly obnoxious mickey rooney kittys younger brother spencer charters kittys neerdowell father,0 + spaghetti westerns made got top twenty somewhere believe received reviews gemma excellent this van johnson good though dubbed voice little killter thats charm italian style beautiful photography excellently staged action supporting characters well played severity racist streak bad guys pretty tough even todays standards creates emotional depth gemmas character situations take place absolutely fantastic score luis bacalov see wonderful wide screen dvd japan spaghetti must have,0 +speak swedish swedish original title film rnarna translates something line the robbers fact main problem film cause really robbers all young woman working swedish police researching robberies regular desk job one would think girl soon field taking matters hands story goes even shooting one robbers exactly weve seen before fact theres rather interesting twist plot halfway really help ending clich first two thirds filmbr br what saves another mainstream film fact masterfully executed ways actors great overact director really manages keep thrillingly exciting storybr br one thing really loved film fact music sets right mood needed absent rest time gives nice sense reality shootouts carchases spread throughout film nice touch fact michael persbrandt one swedish actors often tend get typecasted sadly hurts film know hes going play boyfriend heroine supporting character background thats something neglectbr br all entertaining film steals money plot time you ,0 +anyone ottawa ontario im looking people ottawa area talk to,0 +cant get ph cuz vote im illegal here wtf ph went told ph let unless vote kick polling place,0 +know whenim debating living know want anymore ive litterally drowned alcohol past years attempts wake anymore lot sleeping pills anti anxiety meds done trick body keeps rejecting idea past ex aborted kid long ago friend committed redflag shooting head standing behind living room family non existent keep telling okay let go constant reminder prebuilt fear continually replays over lock apartment cant go outside attempts block anything bad happeningthe redflag large part this cant let anyone based fear another committing redflag fear go im religious sure whole afterlife thing reddit time fear come asking help ive seen doctors meds therapy nothing opened view perpetual state mind ask opinionshelp keep replaying quote im ready die nobody save me head over im year old male would like help please help im tired feeling,1 +hurt pain suffering going every day poor animals getting tortured exploited humans pleasure nature poor ppl third world countries hurtsthe monotony typical day day life cities work eat social media tv sleep especially work taking much lives makes rly hate living hate this hate living world disgusting even makes ashamed human bc amount suffering causing beings every dayit hurts sad say find rly difficult to sense turn off things live blissful ignorance enjoying little things like silly little hobbies tv shows whatnoti simply cannot see point thingsi get life lot things within control focus would make happierbut could turn blind eye horrible things happy could happy things going everydayi cannot stand live worldi want diei want diei find strange brain always like want die want die want die actually like realistically suicidal like planning suicide anything also doubt ever brave enough want badly enough actually take action probably case keep thoughts i want die really badly want exist guess good world nowhere near enough negate hurt suffering pain goes everyday planeti tired want herei want to cannot seem take anymore living world like,1 +vengeancei f want shoot school hopefully lot casualties get bombs involved like bombs even harder get guns anyways want kill students school ones live better lives particular ones live typical teenage life ones boyfriends ones clubs ones passionate career future ones eager live life ones specifically want kill one thing theyre soooo happy excited wake everyday normies want kill all let friends watch kill myself would kill inconsiderate teachers too ones failed last year stupid fucking neckbeard stupid fucking drawings plays childrens video games steam like fucking child stupid fucking arrogant teacher specify never know oh son too id take great pleasure knowing normie sun live rest life stupid faot dad dead massacre like end miserable life ,1 +weird sometimes im suicidal hell sometimes think allon days reall suicidal point stepped balcony ready jump hands full pills ready swallow it days really think like never head like episode comes goes really randomly,1 +okay actually wrong reddit like k word yet every red house get tells got first one like no please stop,0 +dont get people reply agree arguing much fun circlejerking,0 +greet tomorrow finally going back college break im gonna see partner tomorrow greet them hand red bull say angel like needs wings normal tackle hugs i wanna know shitty pickup line good idea not love caffeine,0 +wonderful little film truly creative funsomething see seldom movies film begins russia fall communist government result society seems chaos life yet improve old regime gone dirty cities crime lack housing still plague poor residents st petersburgbr br into scene bleakness uncertainty comes idealistic music teacher among without home finally gets letter government tells tiny room nearby flat arrives place mess people seem friendly enough lovely party middle night awakened old lady walking giant wardrobe room i half expecting lucy kids lion witch wardrobe come out didnt shocked anything first decide soon investigate instead clothes closet wardrobe opens paris residents flat respond magical gateway really intriguing some like music teacher thrilled awe others pragmatic mostly concerned looting everything paris gateway closes all russian thieves awful peoplegreedy coarse crude deepvery deepare hearts gold like metaphor nation brink capitalism first run amok grabbing everything later reveal depthbut mostly act much like guests jerry springer show film many twists turns funny mesmerizing negative due harsh language nude scene albeit funny one film kids real shame minor editing could great family film,0 +seriously thinking killing days itd pretty good daymajor theme thinking killing days ampxb how constant downing one xanax pill time swing booze repeat one gone ampxb why cant take pain feel love life boyfriened ex boyfriend shitty person person ampxb background if want know skip down known since young kids loved years ended marrying wrong girl me fast forward years reconnect instantly fall love long time coming especially since told loved young chose ampxb dating years first year half broke up got distant busy grad school independent need space hobbies driven passions interest friends goals etc friends goals purpose lot time looked fulfillment life soon busy stressed fantastic girlfriend time yes grad school breakdowns real reeling depression abortion things tried make understand times didnt acted toxic sometimes depressed sometimes etc ampxb first time got distant year half relationship started seeing new girl behind back found lost it would go stand outside house hours winter telling feel depressed stressed much love him get better chose her said was fun exciting option going pass up fast forward month half later decided go home day work kill myself right did called me talked forever called every day came house days later saying broke wanted me rebound never liked her never told planning kill myself however guy friend would periodically make advances me never made advances him next two months would hang rebound ex rub face saw house crying waiting come home ampxb next year down good months bad months good summer break grad school grad school started became obsessed spending every waking moment parents house he kids house himself point every day could hang would say hes going hang parents fast forward never came grandpas funeral hang days later christmas mad mad priority day go shopping parents never stop funeral start middle february got mad one night went friends broke calling night passing out got mad kept breaking mad told getting back together talk work things first weeks take it wanted right then said waiting shows sure last weeks built shrine things living room began texting trying work things argue always defaults arguing last week went over going stay night tried sex said yet need take slower got mad told leave week talked angry argued finally day im like im sick arging lets stop really work problems maybe therapy honest wrote page letter mature explaing could activiely really mkae work blocked blocked days something does often ampxb habits are whenever seem need time away form arguing stressing out step back comes full force coming house middle night texting me calling me whatever whenever steps away says hes done like days ago blocked me throw knees begging literally outside house hours cant say many times hes locked deaed winter text calls etc seems like likes want him even though said done built shrine invited week ago kid loves me thinks im one things wrong ampxb now great girlfriend first im intp im heavily displaying emotions deep emotions overthinking brain drives insane every day life great boyfriend either could argue worse never cheated never wanted anyone even though selflove issues again friends hobbies relying happiness ampxb what would wrong said never made priority grad school difficult im extensive program one morning beautiful happy weekend went school stayed went dinner fell asleep friends house never called got angry next morning broke me instantly wanted get back got mad keeps saying hes done every time mad things feel mad about mad about break someone constantly say want marry grad school hard excuse weeks ago made cookies accept them went house kicked out together hang time even told day last broke want go special night out loves that ampxb else knows bad last year chose girl month half think hell come around however idk cant take waiting pain deal heartbreak well never ever wanted kill stop pain someone besides him third time feeling like this thinking house gets home work know sounds dumb love within bit presence love him cant unblock me tell wants work happy too ampxb anyways considering aim days tuesday perfect day plus beautiful sit outside pop drink hour ampxb any suggestions different ways questions additional helpful methods first time wanted knew told please truly loves me im killing get back cant take pain caused us ampxb thanks ampxb,1 +coming closet turn gt,0 +frank ocean replies one tell favorite frank album ok ill go first favorite endless favorite song album either slide higgs theyre actually fave songs time frank fave artist time cries,0 +tldr thinking friends brokeup soulmates may heading secondbest option long post please read interested complicated realtionships take maybe short novel friends got together inseparable instant soulmates know imagined whole life together almost immediately never even thinking breakup years best couple know fighting respecting greatly higher connection,0 +sure live anymore going insane inside mindhey all ive deep state depression pain time gotten point feel trapped mentally able much anything job yearim ive seasonal work community limited work ive hard time getting one ive tried lot put utmost im really afraid afraid committing ad hearing schedule im tried drained time sleep day often feel weak feel like im going insane boredom cant much it live hill outskirts town neighborhood next sage hills okay im feeling like im trapped alone it like environment driving insane mentally ive mainly house long time leaving go sometimes town afternoon stuff mom dad pushes go stuff days sometimes causes lot anxiety conflicts him would try excersize im afraid mental block cant it hard explain really feel cant move life im mentally right dad angry complains lot verbally abusive mom somewhat understands completely im therapy helping much almost wonder need go hospital inpaitient therapy im afraid uncertain asked therpaist says inpaitient mainly people danger hurting themselves cant lay home much longer feel unwell even think mind everyday know im suffering lot want harm im scared cant go way thanks support,1 +still hereim still bc family sometimes wish nice could go,1 +people make hot text posts images videos feel much easier text posts it ive seen one text post hot genuinely thought deserved there post guy saying horny fucking cuming block cheese also much harder funny shitposts text,0 +damn cold goddamn degrees texas mention powers,0 +even know anymore really,0 +well im imma leave dream reddit femboy porn person uwu goodbye love feel appropriate posting kinds content account,0 +need help know get itthings getting better never thought million years would go far would cut face obvious spot ever already insecure face going two huge like four deep scars look like accident heck no made xs dumbest person ever anyways thighs stomach arms almost neck tears disappointed done myself suffer bipolar disorderbipolar depression many things really especially schizophrenic anger issues delusions knowing really fantasy getting way treating others lashing majorly even wrote fck you piece paper blood sent someone okay cared slowly hating one one cant control emotions trust around anyone feel seriously hurt someone many times thought week hopes happy new life might even change something quite beautiful like butterfly knows want go like hated but cant help blade justice like used to passed feeling woozy relief really left feel even empty trust myself alright cant even escape self everyday repeated skew voices sound real everyone finds crazy just go kill urself already smash ur head wall hard hard hit cant stop told to cant freaking stop told im waste time im also unmedicated freak much time left,1 +im parasite everyone around meim nothing worthless scared stupid socially anxious lazy pos live gfs family free provide absolutely nothing thing work transport vehicles know thats permanent thing im college going th year yearold ive gotten nowhere even know life major desperation move honestly ive seizures im hoping ill blackout die since incredibly peaceful im scared means asian family want disown find im still graduating wish could give something back im worthless anything skills typing fast wpm video games rapping music thing makes incredibly happy hopeless think could succeed talented artists there ive tried applying ton desk jobs require talking strangers i cant even work cash register start shaking forgetting everything is require degree experience both nothing offer really wish could kid ive always dreamed getting poor mother things deserves taking care sister also sucks im deathly afraid her hate many things wrong me even work properly fastfood jobs worked since back gives literally almost collapse hurts bad especially one place give breaks all gone gf would richer guy take care better medical condition along person cant provide anything family even deserve kindness deserve anything ampxb longer block text accidentally highlighted deleted accident detailed honestly matter read stupid post thank taking time day even read sad post great day everyone hope everything goes well all,1 +guess favorite colour shoot,0 +feel like fit world anymoresince ive head concussion years ago struggle lot feeling permeates everything career peers family past times everything used enjoy quickly becomes boring tedious try enjoy take break feel like cant really relate anyone anymore like im constantly faced feeling misunderstood marriage destroyed feel like ive let children father sort present ive lucky fortunate life despite growing abuser stuff got concussion struggle exist here today im session friend another state blue asked opinions different methods redflag trying different depression drugs therapies nothing shakes feeling like im meant here world fit anymore cant figure shake feeling see path forward anymore,1 +still upset friend apologised making mistake invited sleepover said loved shes forever still feel sad still dont feel happy,0 +need girlfriend im bored im bored right now need girlfriend real shit,0 +wtf average year old boy cm tall im cm average guess nice,0 +hope die hopefully get hit car like bus people like oh accident connect depression,0 +intense actors like bruce dern jason patrick rachel ward combine make modernday film noir winner three know interesting offer good performances intriguing charactersbr br patric narration noir playing exboxer mental patient wow alone makes interesting guy looks dumb isnt ward slinky attractive cynical intelligent compassionate co conspirator kidnapping plan goes bad bruce dern also mix dern never fails fascinate filmbr br the movie could considered kind downer average viewer found fascinatingand like depressing movies normally found kind quirky crime film take look see agree pretty unknown film status simply good story welldone,0 +shouldve never borndo ever feel even born life much chaos im honestly considering entire life mistake honestly feel like never left fetus alive im root many problems including problems ive considering redflag realize wont solve anything,1 +wrote redflag notei heard somewhere helps write redflag note feel like dying think last words youd say people tried honestly feel worse redflag note want die more,1 +thanks advice yall got advice magnificent people months back myself expect work did ive talking girl quickly became best friend im gonna ask weeks im finally seeing year telling make happy im cute share lot interests want see more think shell say yes whats best way ask her im happiest ive long time her,0 +really happy yea really happy right now yup,0 +call transgender avatar gender bender,0 +really enjoy want break either silly sometimes think im making bigger deal be get insecure fact high school boyfriend one actually asked date slept together every guy always turned same come him sex guy maintains wants nothing serious nowhere comes really strong marriage kids talk,0 +isolate girl friend group talk like title says want get know better since way weve talked group really anything big know get away everyone else though,0 +alright guys im going bed hope everyone lovely day night etc anyone hard time cant guarantee get better know im hoping will goodnight,0 +im horrible person dont even deserve diebecause dying biggest wish thats it,1 +know petty reason sad dragging pretty badly mind hates me overeat cannot sleep well pervasive redflag also sprinkled good measure too spite actually somehow making good progress terms losing weight getting better running probably going go window since got shin splints hurts like hell run now took much fucking effort get point forcing go spite incredibly sad tired fucking time wanting sleep day ran regularly able fucking laundry break habit order recover sure feel sad disgusting since able really run mostly one good habit actually able form keep length time might start over sorry probably overly dramatic constantly like supports ripped cannot body listen,1 +urgent friend considering redflag dohes considering redflag know talk it,1 +leg fucking burns help ive tried everything lotion vaporub showering leg still burns left calf remedies really hurts,0 +happens tell therapist im suicidal thoughtshi ive dealing depression years year hardest far havent able get redflag mind months im scared die whenever im alone cant help think killing myself realize need professional help ive never therapist scared tell dont want sent mental hospital want honest therapist go dont see point going disclosing feelings theyre gunna send hospital wont go posting post got deleted nostupidquestions thanks,1 +evil professor moriarty plots gain control sherlock holmes secret weapon could win war nazisbr br basil rathbone nigel bruce return screen sir arthur conan doyles beloved detective sidekick sherlock holmes dr watson entertaining little mystery universal studios wasted money either fancy production values sensible script knowing two stars would attraction audience would need indeed rathbone cerebral ego bruce bumbling id seem actually become characters creating gleefully keeping faces straight engaged utter nonsensebr br dennis hoey makes first appearance dogged inspector lestrade scotland yard teamed bruce two goodhearted pedantic fellows actually get save intellectually superior holmes life twice lionel atwill master sinister deserves recognition talent fine job moriarty making wicked rascal foe worthy holmes steel relishing scenes gets inflict torture painbr br william post jr kaaren verne play swiss scientist girlfriend heart mystery theyre given much do sweet mary gordon makes token appearance holmes landlady mrs hudsonbr br rathbone spices already classic interpretation holmes getting appear disguise three times story thereby revealing viewer great sleuth bit ham actor heartbr br this filmwhich based loosely elements sir arthurs short stories the dancing men the empty housefollowed sherlock holmes voice terror preceded sherlock holmes washington ,0 +never go itsurvival instincts fucking powerful could planning weeks feeling prepared right im standing edge instincts kick cant fucking it funny cant even kill,1 + good enoughim antidepressant makes feel okay things okay running time years old time success kids dwindling think get happy rich beautiful women marry social economic class think overly narrow say yes every date difficult get even dont like them think better try taje better photos hate seeing face thinning hair see like gorgeous women every day go downtown make sad know id never catch eye wish felt like good enough deserve good things accept good things happen me deserve death really,1 +scared im going kill anyone fucks family cant stop thinking smashing someones head hitting bat im scared something starts im going stop fuck wrong,0 +composition posts wanna die crush uwu ask hey guys im streaming game watch stream insert twitch link here lgbt related guys help momdadteacherother adult life fucking asshole stop,0 +single suicidal thoughts since feel end coming soon work good job apartment car also travel regularly also friends also motivation make friends meet women recently started paying cremationno viewing memorial funeral home disposing ashes also moved shitty apartment e decent one quit drinking sought professional help anything therapists said goes one ear other sick you alone there help know want help waiting pay cremation right going motions making look like putting effort reality mind already made up final purchase gauge using myself reason buy tempted use it well planned suicide,1 +deserve thisim hell im depressed live middle nowhere best friend significant stabbed back different times past month replaced within week ive got nobody now little brother attacks constantly father screams im oldest child mother hates me get called names anywhere go ive got reason live anymore last month life finally going well everything fell apart this,1 +nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done more bullet shatters skull,1 +weakdo know phrase redflag permanent solution temporary problem cant get job deadend town thats temporary problem right cut ties father hell never satisfied are maybe maybe need vent maybe need way out look pros cons really supportive grandmother girlfriend theyre probably reason committed redflag yet guess weak people problems sr makes special right hate want people give random strangers close wanting give up know like feel worthless broke alone life like throwing shit us one care no thats think feel im tired struggling cant take it,1 +strange dream yesterday basically standing dark room suddenly dwayne johnson appeared accidentally stabbed lightsaber didnt even know hand suddenly everything back normal woke up mean exactly force sensitive,0 +want gone birthdaythis first time posing reddit birthday wednesday ive decided tonight want dead then im therapy nothing working want go sleep never wake up ive struggled self harming years first time days clean im throwing away tonight need work courage,1 +episode no thirteen fanciful excuse incredibly gay terminology supernatural tv series relocates sam dean winchester missouri called upon old flame deans investigate string mysterious murders occurring small town turns out large pickup truck unseen driver running african americans desolate stretch road dean attempts rekindle past love affair towns people turn roadkill cause appears due past racial incident back s causing frustrated redneck spirit remain ghostly limbo seeking kill black motorists route another good installment which uncommon ive noticed contains notable aspects pertaining pair main characters dean getting laid sams admitted regret left college killer truck doest come across terrifying thing world though hour long show job well handsdown fantastic episode solid concept horror movie references,0 +gf broke me got mad next day bc didnt want get back together bad grades got grounded got phone taken thought ghosting said breaking me thinking it lying constantly does mental health problems seems like has decided good idea next day got texts saying wanted get back together wasnt thinking clearly even tho said thought least week starts getting mad wanting date anymore make right decision given time thought,0 +im big disappointment im asian parents want get good grades two grades dropped complete garbage due bullshit supposed get ap gov teacher assigned group project group evaluation someone decided work dropped grade entire group failing grade dropped overall grade points b disappointed parents cant anything get points back bio grade dropped well turnitins shitty plagiarism report working group online test even though supposed to someone needed help needed help already done someone asked answer question asked copy answer word word sure enough copied answer word word lost points turned test first looking test teacher absolutely hates plagiarism subject im actually good at math going great either pretty bad first two tests one test guaranteed get good grade three four days lock down absent day test then go two day field trip ended day lock started now teacher let take test would unfair testing environment leaving shit grade math too top this literally nothing else going me brother got accepted good school lot friends succeeding there im shit public high school friends parents expecting successful brother point near impossible im athletic talli often mistaken fifth grader im ninth grade little extracurricular activities even good personality back failures want die point even courage that,1 +know doive suicidal six years want hurt family even made attempt ive come close several times first complicated plan drown two failsafes sure later considered finding something tall enough jump from think ever comes ill take belt hang myself anywhere scares easy would be im afraid die want hurt people really wanted kill typing out still worry eventually ill exceptionally bad day decide last reasons kill myself i almost years old living mother get along well im sure point want independent move out feel like burden i serious issues anxiety kept comfortable around people entire life deeply introverted shy could figure hermits afford food house might problems i selfdiagnosed aspergers syndromeautism spectrum disorder and ashamed considered faker official diagnosis almost cried realized possess nearly traits associated asd understand greater detail make life much easier i job car quit college social demands giving panic attacks its know know well ive never good knowing people would like job cant find one give panic attacks good introvertjobs replaced machines ive considered volunteering feel like im burden society cant even muster strength go school supposed help people cant even breathe im surrounded strangers my one passion something cant make living with make music music love fringe people consider music like kind music gets labelled pretentious not music write pop song tried would hate myself popular music awful me theres small niche kind music small unless radio starts playing avantgarde noise passion hobby i feel like world hostile people like me im normal yes ive heard every possible variation idea theres thing normal thats lie world accommodating people average money sex love adventure none things appeal me like pop culture sports cant really relate anyone wants desires alien everyone meet im weak thats boils to im simply weak world scares idea navigate it want functioning independent adult every attempt ive made leaves depressed anxious suicidal guess see doctor last thing want financially burden mother further course im sure shed rather dead thank reading,1 +although others commented video edited version two shows fire space living legend watch original shows find dialogue video edition edited out found video version much better scenes lines added it would say want see show original version see video versions vhs offer fan original episodes offered dvd now another good video conquest earth scenes galactica actual broadcasts themselves overall rate gives enjoy networks wanted show time slot gave producers,0 +maria braun got married right middle combat around husband hermann explosion ripped building begin with hermann sign papers pile rubble street perhaps may strike heavyhanded metaphor whats come marriage rocks speak betrothal husband goes war held russian prison camp unbenownst helpless hopeful proud maria keeps standing depressing rubble train station come home others dont sign awaiting hermannbr br trouble arises happens rainer werner fassbinders melodramas one best provocative see maria uncommonly gorgeous hanna schygulla role twoface shell stand man even means working bar american gis and even still hears fellow soldier hermann died still stand sleeps black gi comes close bearing child that is naturally reappears murder occurs takes rap safe working german businessman effectively sympathetic ivan desny becoming sometimes mistress rising star company maria whatever takes successful shell always marriedbr br its hard say theres anything maria fascinating money sex power become interchangeable maria like feminist cake eats sultry smile gets husband less actually lot less last ten minutes film obtaining things man dotes whenever can new expensive house servants secretary money others around getting due already man weak position rise anywhere such secretary played interestingly enough fassbinders motherbr br maria sexy confident alone idealized life going life made shade says two men american soldier poor old sick oswald fond them time stick roses confused soulsearching husband hermann sends canada released prison casts profile feminist would love trounce understand coming going waybr br fassbinder employs inherent contradiction moments maria appear go conventions melodrama for example hermann walking jubilant halfnaked maria gi masterpiece scene marias reaction surprise guilt pure happiness see hes let alone alive sticking guns director highminded technique storyline predictable really like one big metaphor country that war really move normalcy times fassbinder puts sound radio background see maria walking around family house hustle bustle going around her radio speaks divided germany things still unsettled disarray maybe way cope excess maybe thats interpretation itbr br its hard tell really schygullas stare face eyes anyway incredible performance really one showstoppers captures glamor allure oldtime hollywood female star downanddirty ethic girl streets telling opposing costumes one sees one scene finally husband stars one superlustful black lingerie pieces high heels moves dress without even thinking it thats almost essence maria is schygulla wonderfully gets down headstrong somehow loving figure adored perplexed men around her sometimes single sentence fassbinder captures wonderful first part trilogy might overall prefer veronika voss masterpiece maria braun perhaps good character study makes woman tick tock almost nothing lose,0 +whyi dont want end people say hurt arent hurt im nobody shell im person thats mentally dead whats point,1 +witnessed wholesome moment mom dad im christian dad mom new year enrolled online bible study group whatsapp group too nowadays act like high school couples gossip share homework idk feel really good every new year past years mom dad fighting feels good seeing happy,0 +much said film typical nunsploitation course nudity sex nuns almost incidental storybr br it set th century italy time martyrdom christians otranto battle muslims christians takes good part film interesting everyone running muslim hoards mother superior would ask why fear muslims anything christians done you certainly enough torture sidesbr br sister flavia florinda bolkan sent convent defying father process witnesses endures many things gelding stallion rape local woman new duke torture nun overcome visit tarantula sect whipping ran jew torture particularly gruesome hot wax poured nun nipples cut offbr br sister flavia bound continue get trouble questions maledominated society lives even asks jesus father son holy ghost menbr br eventually joins leader muslims lover sack convent see flesh possible enjoy one time but tragedy come manages exact sweet revenge all including duke father finds muslim lover treats exactly same woman itbr br i describe holy men church heretic end predates torture saw hostel decadesbr br nunsploitation fans satisfied treats movie lovers find plenty meat digest,0 +closer closer everydayi cant explain it ive seen counselor make feel like piece shit im broke live parents stuck job hate pays like crap im stuck hole cant get of cant help cry even smallest things everyday thoughts ending all gun loaded dresser keep staring at,1 +need partner probably cringy af ive never partner entire life feel fucking lonely time want someone care go dates know cute shit im bi f get best worlds,0 +sure worth postingive posted before support helped through im sure want need cant help feeling done living know post doesnt give conext situation feel like im done amp dont feel worthy anymore also dont want put mother losing child basically im place amp advicesupport would welcome,1 +im going jump story building head firstafter ex broke two many years ago ive pretty much undateable adhd ive become drifter grunt dead end job dreams life shattered even surprised always like me brother ive third wheeling ever since parents ocd hoarders friends seen years realizing girls ever going want me whenever sincerely try improve fate like crash brick wall know understand cuz im average intelligence fuck society judgmental everyday feel like im facing judgment day im single unwanted alone nervous pale fuck im sick this im sick infatuated women fucking guys told gets better im sick hell,1 +dont deserve happyok lemmie start saying probably glad hear ive sort good place past week havent cynical pessimistic little shit people havent contemplated redflag first time long time im thinking right actually getting better another mood swing mean either way simply feel though dont deserve it tell theres people desperate feel happy probably need getting better am cuz may late me since post ive made redflag attempts lifetime counting i really stop attempting unless im truly sure im gonna go it,1 +im gonna go see one last movie grandparentsthe im gonei dare change mind,1 +boxim already dead body caught fact yet single joblesscareerless count friends people feel pity me one hand thousands dollars debt living shit hole apartment ugly social skills wish someone would walk behind shoot back head im thinking joining military im afraid getting maimed killed cant kill willpower instead exist colorless limbo waiting die every second im alive literally feels like eternity suffering im fully aware cheesy sounds truth feel thousand years old,1 +everyones dad give privacy yells basic things throws counters calls disappointment makes depressed insults people school dad,0 +ive feeling shit past days anyone talk im close enough friends want family know problems want someone talk irl maybe hug,0 +fifthdoor please see reply posts show upplease see reply here httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsbizmhwhy_do_mods_delete_my_posts_from_this_subredditcnq,1 +school ended best felt since back pick right things say worry waking early think school around people thing feel free think thoughts care others might think thoughts goodbye redflag weeks school crushes,1 +instead killing self ive decided disappear new country start new lifehey reddit really need help make long story short senior college majoring finance bank account ive major depression past two years enjoy life ive thought killing self escape however decided would better run away different country need advice this country go to passport tips ideas pull off,1 +little strings younger mother would tell hold together little strings never really understood meant back then understand strings little things life friend tell ok bright sunny day sound birds trees im trying hold things want lose hope better future unfortunately strings seem snapping day day something new pushes down im struggling stand own im struggling hold myself recognize anymore sadness comes goes end day im left empty stare ceiling hoping find something inside worth saving cant help think sometimes im worth saving,1 +body dysmorphia bangin rn want new brain please,0 +posting daily get gf day turns mom getting remarrieddivorced dad almost years ago moving km away move granpas place least rest year school friends here life wac,0 +school sucking dryyyyyy mom said looked dead earlier cuz purpleish rings eyes weird cuz ive getting decent sleep hrs im ready weekend two projects study finals next week one two monday also math test tomorrow bio lab test retake morning dont even time workout rowing team talk friends want next week go quickly get back workouts video games friends hate shit mentally im fine ive worse im tired going similar pushing last week know uve got this thanks coming ted talk ill regret posting couple hours,0 +goodbye familyim writing answer committed redflag family one would question them want sympathy im trying attention seeking stop reading stop wasting time fifthteen years old want kill myself know questioning would this much life ahead me well ive reached point life get better severely overweight ugly stupid depressed nobody would want deal real me crappy future ahead me im honor student straight asthere goes chance going good college matter anyway could never afford loan even go good school us family ask love much except dad im sick dealing piece shit care booze anything else treats us like crap whenever stand make things worse yeah theres that theres girlfriend probably read last post btw thats got part time job wanted spend time her otherwise deal guilting making monster made promise met kill didnt might gone know im sorry best friend used talk online briefly mentioned stop mentioning killed themselves life know son responsible two deaths but always happy joking around want help know im sad im im supposed problems bottle emotions this already killed emotionally im disposing corpse feel like useless waste space cant handle life anymore im sorry goodbye,1 +make custom alarm got audio would perfect alarm,0 +yo like modern warfare lets fucking play then cap send usernames,0 +funny intelligent and sense realistic comedy yearold trying live first love vacation also complex sometimes amusing sometimes touching relation divorced father growing daughter far women not nicole teenager go get man loves laughed lot lively scenario never drags,0 +hard keep going dont anything look forward anymoreim going really bad cycle depression right now havent felt way since nearly killed self maybe even worse cant take anymore want well school want get study work hard cant bring it cant bring keep room clean drink water shower anything life isnt worth living more stay nights hating beyond words im badly school im stressed dont want live anymore every day going awful cycle again dont know do hate much hate myself want drink want drugs want kill myself want anything while keep pushing away people love cant bring tell anyone whats happening im numb cry cry anger hate issues body too cant bear living life more doesnt feel worth it nobody understands bad makes even frustrated grades terrible want good beyond words want well school dreams want follow need good grades it achieve able apply myself cant cant bring makes hate mad enough dont know whats wrong dont know fix it starting feel like late me dont think find keep living life,1 +tiredive feeling tired unhappy ever since remember ive tried everything years therapy many antidepressants never helped unhappy want tired like forever get better overdose soon opiates benzodiazepines alcohol promethazine probably take long time anyone even notice gone you reader please take care can thank listening me,1 +ahhaha found problem past relationships turns emotionally abusive clue feel like total fucking asshole wanna die yayyyy today good day ampxb well hand ik need change sooooooo,0 +guys keep itmy parents thing keeping it know theyre people would devastated did even so urge hard sometimes tell keeps going,1 +rip phones audio lost abillity make audio horniness went jack bathroom dropped phone toilet hear audio headphones drop f comments pay respects phones audio heres good advice kids close lid jacking toilet,0 +religious atheist want know percent religious teenagers think atheists wrong,0 +often band get together reunion concert find cant get together here concert shear brilliance start finish three musicians obviously got together beforehand plotted planned needed ensure nostalgic bash satisfy someones ego obvious start even step stage many faces crowd even born guys first performed first song capture old magic cream men instruments fuss clapton admission said stretch concert keyboards synthesizers etc get see best ginger baker demonstrates many drummers today speak sort drumming guru jack bruce great really managed put together piece magic stand test time many years come ones me,0 +im genuinely concerned person earlier year quarantine m met dude m minecraft server became friends played together months that youtube channel discord two months ago tho told crushing female leaderboard player server wanted ask out week later discord got rejected told gutted even set status message depressing shit seemed depressed af fast forward weeks later the last time met him apparently yr old gf hes talking wanting sex not normal yr old ik thought weird like always next day blocked discord relationship going perfectly smoothly today remembered quick search subscribers didnt see channel anywhere im srsly concerned him great friend ,0 +losing willwhen individual loses live nothing anyone say bring back heaven knows stop others trying others sense limited powers curing mental illness think like light switch turned will sufferer like cancer mind embedded physical brain ill patient growing day fully consumes body directs severely mentally ill patient understands position cosmos time goes on knows pass never return understands ultimate doom all cannot escape madness everywhere once kills him one illness blaze like supernova star ever exist shone time done shining time blew candle us all see doom allconsuming preventing life happening take passion hang matter days regrets leave spouse leave offspring family members grieve death natural life cured walking along hiking path breathing fresh air watching trees leaves ruffle breeze birds still fly fish still swim life death was,1 +family friends dogi love much want anymore cant enjoy life thought psychedelics would make feel better made fascinated dying everyone nobody tries stand anymore nobody talks feelings anymore nobody expresses themselves im currently laying next dog looking makes want cry love much would devastated left him im much pain long time really want anyone feel way ill try ride days still feel like this im going eat whole bottle xanax vodka,1 +science teacher said wikipedia reliable prophecies true told us send anyone believed wise teacher chad use wikipedia information without ridicule hell yeah,0 +got bio test well class average guess im bit better,0 +aye different teens there hi like people different different too fact alien im saturanian from saturn hi day,0 +got sexually assaulted cousin for context im dude forgot years ago chilling watching thursday night football cousin right next shes touching hand giggling hops top attempting give lap dance time muscles skinny short fit ran played basketball starts pulling shorts down im trying stop wont finally kick chest run never told parents hers really popular girl school considering telling everyone tarnishing reputation would feel bad,0 +want it please give idea would like finish something spectaculari maybe look like someone weak year worst point im life look really sad me girl love break up victim manipulation harassment girlspeoples school live solitude darkness several months that feeling like joker alone crazy one understand me want make massacre andor kill myself rejected without friend school wanted join completely forgot file study it addition destroying exciting job tempted liked studying find another school harassment start silence witness madness thing miss way it need help,1 +weird super nsfw dk tingles dont know why does feels super weird,0 +thinking would kill suicidalstruggled depression whole life im spot right second im faced lot things coming together potentially disappointing lot people including kids mainly myself feel like shallow pointless useless thing im even sad more im just empty feel suicidal think redflag daily think easy would turn car bridge divider easy would take entire bottle sleeping pills wonder would feel would able actually slit wrists could bring it reasons to many reasons right now hurt would cause people still big priority me want hurt people love made mistake telling husband things think daily hes freaking out feel like theres distinction thinking redflag suicidal really convinced plan except ways think it like ive sat put calendar maybe im denial maybe suicidal want kill myself just want alive more prospect facing future overwhelming feel like can worry point desire hurt people around overtaken desire live asked would tell got point answered honestly know think honestly point caring hurt pain much probably tell him now telling that ive inadvertently hurt him increased worry lot wish hadnt im sorry told him wants sorry tell sooner kind thoughts know know exactly started want think using excuse trump card argument attention seeking thing know want tell him know im posting this feedback feel like low level call hotline something like this like thats people knife hand car bridge someone thinking it way think grocery list chores,1 +girls listen minute dont send nudes like could,0 + lets suspend belief moment lets stop pretending could might ought know how is ought be space human knowledge area probably primitive say middle ages maps compared todays satellite maps really clue considering just bbc tv docusimulation gets much better many big budget hollywood blockbusters incredible all show worth watching portrays cgi enhanced fictionalized account know solar system far probably fictionalizing cgiing whole thing way make palatable large public ever watched clips real space missions real space probes quality generally average poor comparison would looking chest xray and tells human body compare cgied cyborg moviewhich one would entertaining yet chest xray real cyborg flick fictionalized sfx actors good job none ill tell grandchildren about fair bbc docusimulation,0 +got history test without learning yeah first years middle school im kinda proud hehe,0 +best song ever tbh httpsyoutubehxsyizakuhttpsyoutubehxsyizaku ampxb im fragile delicate,0 +teachers fuck em seriously teachers think spend entire free time schoolwork things like know besides argument you plenty time work it like subjects thing maam want become teacher later stop it right fing okidoki ly babes bye,0 +hi im high drunk u guys tjing drunk wey fun ideas dm,0 +give one reason care school seriously care anymore,0 +fucked girl love going die aloneso last month posted facebook saying going deactivating social media pm numbers friend years really hung much lately always real close kinda hard explain think close friends see often due adulting anyways messaged number asked doing started talking back forth week nye hits ask plans put guest list band like actually work band sold show wanted see her things going good nye got drinks hung around whole time one following around gave long hugs told loved i assume platonically intimate assume due alcohol show am nye hugged goodbye told going backstage asked could come told allowed wasnt got home around am night sent text saying good seeing hang out adding preferably tomorrow think may came strong eh drunk message aggressive all really overly friendly get reply it would assume may hungover read morning she may asleep falling asleep sent message sent another message days later mutual friends art museam opened casually saying proud theyre well asked yet get reply days pass started get bothered wondering doid anything wrong today sent following message hours ago hey realized may ass dipping backstage end show want think flake want hang out im sorry text maybe weirdly worded dip backstage early kinda told goodbye went backstage end show big deal since reply assume may mad try go somewhere show know either way selfish dick over want fix it id give anything fix it love her over,1 +saw movie hoot immediately decided comment it truth nature needs protection us dominant specie planet people think money whatever want to probably like think future think would something useful movie kids movie showing us kids usually ones care adults do twelve saw waterlilies knew protected law even dare touch fearing law fearing might harm actually i currently ever acting great main characters well interpreted learn them hope think saw movie enjoy,0 +feel ugly talk anyone make friends date really hurts isolated horrible cannot think otherwise ugly talk anyone,1 +fuck lonely life im really fed unsatisfied life right now one worst years life swear life started going downhill since start january lost closest friends dumbest way ever despite popular kid find wanting close friends rather big group close friends school ended year feel alone home everyone glued devices ive made lot plans close friends im seriously missing best friends lets call best friend hanna shes girl best friend literally nicest person ive ever met threw biggest surprise birthday party year much fun think started losing her am everyone went back home leaving hanna chalet booked drinking party im type people gets high im tired asf wasnt really moment vibing good time her abruptly stopped music basically confessed me figured truly happened months after idiot right girl best friend straight told like reply yea like too thank much putting youre literally best friend ever thought nothing months after became cold afterwards giving one liners stopped texting figured schoolshes diff school btw school year ended really wanted hang her reject me asked wrong told bluntly liked romantically got message dumbass lonely dumbass,0 +shit hurtingpeople dont care listen see actually trying im trying happy im trying change im trying get stronger gets much harder people shove everything bad face wonder im negative dont necessarily like attention something good right feels like nobody notices fuck recite every time ive messed up expect someone get better tell much fuck up cant someone congratulate once even smallest thing thats help someone dont people understand care,1 +want diei know long read it friends one whose opinion respect im venting want read long rambly vent go save someone redflag long winded certifiably fundamentalist evangelical christian went church every sunday attended every prayer session went every bible study participated pretty hateful political protests know women get abortions murderers types protests also suffered horrible depression college anxiety school made depression worse found god nowhere found worse admitted fellow church members depressed felt told must me obviously true christian feel everloving peace god running veins every second im going spare intermediary details long story short attempted redflag recovered left church best decision ever made frequently tell people i born left church still believe god think organized christianity cult judgment hatred wrapped lies last ten years ups downs overall life much better feel like loving accepting person think im still christian like telling people theyll think im one crazy ones fit church fit atheists either even feel fit anywhere middle misunderstood entire life june year met someone like me exactly like me intellectual like me someone understood nuance things could keep complex thoughts know say without sounding like arrogant scumbag wellabove average iq large part reason fit anywhere big heart care lot people try judgmental impossible ignore fact people understand things like talk about find bored impatient people imagine how years feeling alone misunderstood going radical mindset change thrilled meet someone understood me well totally fucked up friends connected strongly things got romantic always agreed matter happens would important stay friends said clear end even end broke weeks ago next day hanging chillin like nothing ever happened definitely morose romance continue knew id get it know happened next day dropped map usual us stay contact daily text message there silence felt like shutout thought ok well romantically involved makes sense take days apart days still contact really began question things left voicemail told him its okay need space could let know thats is ill give space need know whats happening next morning got text said yes need space need check first irrational thing id ever heard say course need check me grownass human being simply would appreciated courtesy telling need simply bizarre behavior someone reiterate important stay friends discard like piece trash thats feel now weeks still contact instincts tell something really wrong wanted respect need distance leave one voicemail tell never intended make feel though needed check me anything tell hoped grand opening work went well response intuition says wants nothing me intuition says reasons cannot even begin analyze understand decided would best longer friends hope im wrong grows weaker every passing day brought categorical typhoon depression me barely functioning known romance would end friendship never would even given second glance idea passed point return even official couple know could possibly happened change things much feel horrible feel personally responsible ruining best friendship ever had saved crushing loneliness misunderstood cannot handle consequences im actually praying again im praying god learned lesson please make punishment id anything friendship back would literally anything theres nothing do choice ruined best thing ever happened believe theres anyone satisfy intellectual craving make feel accepted did tutor oxford told me you member intellectual means going live lonely life unless course happen meet another member intellectual well ian was im pretty sure hes gone forever depression resulted severe experienced ten years ago whats more experience ongoing depression left church partially blamed church contributing depression im existential crisis top heartbreak losing best friend lovers come go never friendship like ever again coupled fact know fault add cherry massive guilt top im lonely failed loser fucked best thing ever happened me remember prayers never answered im sure im going want continue on already dont even know bothered write this like anyone ever understands me must think im irrational overreacting maybe am feel way feels like god gave precious gift ripped away,1 +better die lose morality need help im point im ready fullheartedly prepared commit redflag planned every detail need im stuck time passes worse feel want die so knows this know do im trying think affect cant even think straight background life never good lot disorders mental illnesses caused trauma born with hard time living life constantly feel like dying old home dangerous new home religious beliefs conflict identity im uncomfortable am theres therapist psychiatrist theyre supposed help think im insane others say im fake liar never even understand myself find trying die lot also realized years become destructive agitated aggressive ive started thinking killing more become something think normally end hurting people lot mean to basically im becoming like parents want like keep failing changing days plan end life days make final decision know best path take die thats metheres nothing left existence everything would gone suffer anything live ill become like them ill continue falling apart someday able resist shitty thoughts anymore know ill act someday know do help,1 +im going kill myself afraid people talked online dating sites remember face appears newsi severe ocd maybe thats im worried this could really use reassurance please going sound extremely paranoid crazy please bear talk sense me need it im going kill year chronic illness briefly stupidly thought i want go first date kill myself made online dating profile talked several guys sent pictures face several messages maybe guys saw looked like they know name saw many pictures face easily recognizable face ive told lived state me ampxb way im going kill involves jumping building busy city im afraid images face going go news as jumping redflags state almost all theyre going recognize am talk friends much worse post online like i talked girl okcupid killed herself theyre going think killed dating troubles something trivial like that theyre going talk website like i talked girl everyones going remember like that like theyre going type name first thing thats going come online dating profile year died could resist someone want that guys talked chan culture etc active online never actually met them im scared theyll post site heck it want im remembered why im embarrassed it anything really anything embarrassing people remembering girl online dating profile committed redflag im going remembered im going come people google search name want illness struggles stupid online dating thing ampxb know sounds paranoid insane please help me really bothering ruining day please comment dont kill yourself ive made mind im want im immortalized by embarrassing all knowledge really help me want talked online die friendsrelativesstrangersanyone typing name seeing that want legacy,1 +people know this literally insane here called national guard police practically everywhere full riot gear already set pm curfew isnt even national news yet httpspreviewredditwlcnnwpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscefeaccfddefbdcfcfafe,0 +easyim starting wake cant get back sleep start thinking reasons hate body cant control clawing face punching wall want let body know hate it want know placed body feel like im tortured in go around day one knows everyone thinks im teenage girl thats moody im boy angry skin come home parents know understand get angry understand im yelling feel like douchebag anger overwhelming cant control it ill teased much school people understand im trying me think easy would march upstairs bottle painkillers belong dad deal torture body people accepting fact never true body meant in sink back skin try fall asleep thoughts like broken record head think about feel like jumping running living room parents sitting telling everything think no that fall asleep,1 +im missing assignments school would take hours nonstop complete want dieeeee,0 +serious attempt show developing sexuality two schoolgirls try exploit fact even todays standards film interesting provocative br br therese isabelle attending girls school therese energetic intelligent becomes mentor innocent naive sweet isabelle guides number exotic experiences including trip exclusive brothel first lesbian liaison indirectly first heterosexual experience br br the film exploit sex abundance nudity imagery effective sometimes camera lingers long story goes slowly br br the director radley metzger went make number explicit erotic films name henry paris always extremely detailed stories good acting high standards cinematographybr br artistically however perhaps complete later attempts supplied entertainment whereas therese isabelle study nature youthful eroticism,0 +think tonight night end iti tried fight feeling years lately hear head voice telling end put people around misery cause tonight night think finally going give in im sure im posting here guess want closure feel empty know am im unsure stand for hate everything do im failing everything even family told im disappointment never never contribute anything positive society actions self destructive im tired hurting people around cant stop,1 +please get hug im really well right please get hug comments would mean lot,0 +graduated college years ago worst time life became depressed first day growing up leaving friends taking harder courses because special ed since elementary therapist involuntarily sent hospital days i could never trust anyone even myself again thanks her change majors take extra year kept failing classes graduated pay student loans full time job used work part time jobs due pandemic left feel like ruined life going college wasting parents money taking courses want take like italian wanted learn japanese make happy feel like failed myself could gone technical school learned trade even gone community college friends chose traditional university route like sister except phd good paying job director childrens museum meanwhile cannot even get unemployment living moms sometimes wish dead feeling way since any thoughts feel like college ruined me m,1 +ghosted someone bad friend criticized point made feel like got one argument afraid would snap try kill kill myself friend living means might see ex friend ghosted also friend ignoring me know do know going happen afraid ho something going happen going put much mental suffering fall complete horror despair something crazy kill myself might confront someone goes bad probably kill,1 +trying love reality sets insome days control days everything triggers tramatic images flashbacks worst maybe im narc idk try forgive think okay along reality sets realize always something wrong me people say matter others think everyone says see beauty intelligence greatness yourself try put makeup act confident people look weird tell want say and sometimes do tell im modelstill ugly try join convos stuttering shyness anxiety instantly makes look stupid eyes others soim stupid im ugly past full proof special ed counseling getting told ugly constantly everyone treating like im challenged present got great idk im always aware could shatter moment im eventually ill thete catch ruin it,1 +im done edgeim early s beautiful daughter mess wife keeps cheating many problems work im ask combo taken knock out many anti depression anxiety pills made mind want go fast tried getting help didnt work plus friends im lonely,1 +fantasize parents giving blessing go ahead kill myselfthats pretty much want point love much theyre reason get right now wish could explain want sad needs happen daydream saying ok yes better everyone sitting fade overdose wish would stroke hair hold hand die thats fucking pathetic know im know absolutely way earth would let commit redflag watch part tempted ask anyway case,1 +anyone actually know social security number is someone sure security number tbh ,0 +gave friend advice ask crush like girl know like know likes asked advice kinda gave good advice motivated go get her feel lonely given fact im pretty sure likes friend start dating im gonna person friend group thats anyone im gonna feel even lonely left befoee,0 +unpopular opinion democrat female president feminist cuz group whore ass feminists want men pm curfew women safe guy rapped girl world filled many clowns also female democrat president feminist makes office country fucked,0 +famboygtgirls famboy better u cant change mind know right,0 +url storys link interested say thanks reading considering theres anything make comfortable answer questions try clear confusion etc ill best can one thing say also know food issue food pantrybank subreddits exist try to im trying put little can,1 +used escape dreamsi used able sleep suicidal thoughts nightmares dreams kill myself kill sleep like baby really feel like sign nightmares bloody scary fragments life pushed little farther edge best sleep get dreams hanging myself im hitting pretty low spot life always thought things would get better high school college came things got worse im real life mode hitting fan ive failed professionally romantically socially athletically academically cant take pain more feel like dreams really right idea work seasonal area virtually friends moving area weeks im going alone ever,1 +im fucken hyyyyyyype lab coat came today lets goooooooooo,0 +fucked upmight get kicked college lose dream job feeling hopeless happens itll forever blight dont know move forwards,1 +full title film may heaven half hour devil knows dead rewording old irish toast may food raiment soft pillow head may years heaven devil knows dead first time screenwriter kelly masterson with modifications director sidney lumet concocted melodrama explores fragmented family become external forces drive members unthinkable extremes film viewer allowed witness gradual nearly complete implosion family much used but here sensible manipulation flashbackflash forward technique storytelling repeatedly offering differing vantages characters central incidents drive rather harrowing tale see motivations players case robbery gone wrong br br andy hanson philip seymour hoffman wealthy executive married emotionally needy gina marisa tomei addicted expensive drug habit life beginning crumble needs money andys neredo well younger brother hank ethan hawke life ruins divorced shrewish wife martha amy ryan behind alimony child support borrowed friends needs money andy proposes lowkey robbery small mall momandpop jewelry store promises safe quick cash both glitch jewelry story belongs mens parents charles albert finney nanette rosemary harris andy advances hank cash wrangles agreement hank actual robbery though hank agrees failsafe plan hires friend take actual job hank plans driver getaway car robbery horribly botched nanette filing regular clerk shoots robber shot mess disaster unveils many secrets fragile relationships family nanette dies charles andy hank and respective partners driven disastrous ends surprises every turn br br each actors strong emotionally acrid film gives superb performances come expect hoffman hawke tomei finney ryan harris wise hand direction sidney lumet make film unforgettably powerful easy film watch film allows bravura performances demand respect film reminds us fragile many families be grady harp,0 +never take class httpsyoutubemwuaojhvckhttpsyoutubemwuaojhvck,0 +noticed since began using small dose respiridone augment ssri noticed tremendous difference think actually use logic find easier ignore intrusive thoughtshowever started gaining weight yes even small dose cannot help feel little insecure also cannot afford buy new clothes lift weights couple times week too wondering maybe try keto diet maintain weight even worth it thoughts weight gain antidepressants prevented,1 +list problems shall delete later depressed atleast years epicly self harming years sh free months self harmed massive knives d extreme poverty know whether ill able sleep roof bed next week health anxiety thought different types cancers hard living knowing or thinking cancers brain stomachcolon skin also thought appendicitis cant eat reason sometimes take long eat well realise im eating food stop get full easily hungry easily excluding family girlfriend one cares pretty sure friends wanted die one point people talk talk much consider friend im close all consider friend though ive friends guy years best friends even also picky eater im extremely extremely underweight short kglbs eat unhealthily time bc im hungry fun physically verbally abused parents tutor since kid anymore hearing loud voices even theyre positive makes scared probably sort ptsd suicidal since atleast sadly attempted redflag days ago im okay dysfunctional family apparently look ugly people say look pretty idk im tired time seen sooossososo much gore murder terrorism redflag animal abuse torture porn rape child murder abuse etc unfortunatelyyy seen child porn clearweb felt guilty reporting scared ive seen times since then dark web accident im idiot intentionally catching pedosgroomers still remember look ish year old girls eyes following orders looking could see really felt devoid hope im completely desensitised things point apparently look solemn extremely serious dead empty eyes people think im psychopath understand im really care lot certain people im loving cant open people ive cut people with blades scissors made self harm guise its joke regret forced self harm multiple times one guy rest remorse deserve life skills street smarts motivation schoolwork anything privacy room phone parents trust me decent person would many bad stuff drugs sexual stuff yk im allowed step outside give permission freedom basically technology thats really overthinking doubting doubting doubts aaaaaa wish normal ive watched guy die front felt nothing still care actually amazed seeing unfold see flashes violence randomly see someone holding knife normal stuff get away else could stab im scared hold knife near people might stab intentionally unintentionally brain extremely manipulative also reason attempted redflag im manipulative close killing certain person never attempted thankfully im incapable lot things recently learned cross streets stuff able walk school parents want suffer parents literally suffering much want someone end suffering right now feel pain torture physically mentally someone end it cant cook anything myself im spoiled guess severely dehydrated thats think ones gonna read anyway im happy though awesome im looking forward married girlfriend future wife d love much like making happy wanna make cookies go louvre loaddss more sooo despite problems im happy,0 +ranti m really want kill myself note written plan back plan every time go think buried dress wrong name im trans two people care me mum still thinks im girl best friend im to wonder hed tell mum me itd weird come dead like that sucks trans worry that couldve killed weeks maybe months ago keep putting living,1 +heard theres no emoji rule ,0 +complain im hungrie somehow still hourz work n didnt bring money shame someone pick go diner date wit hold hands maybe get smoothies something pleazzee daydreamins making hungrier,0 +sitting bed alone cuddling mountain stuffed animals feel empty wish heart childhood wish hadnt beaten raped long im year old girl try give childhood never parents ever love me diei feel alone whats point even trying anymore im sad lonely,1 +wish knew wrong personalityevery close friend make seems go knowing months sometimes takes less month dont know whats wrong personality ive stopped clingy im confrontational successful friendships people know casually im hurt feel alone happy company hurts knowing theres something inherently wrong makes people want distance me im sad frustrated want like people theres point even trying anymore,1 +happy happy taught months worth school math stuff weeks spanish words days hell lot physics exams coming teachers focused kids th year mulo its level school ig rd year failed exams bad held back year th years wouldour education system complicated ik thats help me exam skipping th year mulo btw anyway got results today got spanish english maths physics th years even score high like super hard get like got s thats fucking awesome also got dutch im pretending happen everyone know said dutch exam way harder compared exams previous years point fucking passed passed fucking awesomely get go vwo another level school country next year thats fucking cool get wear best uniform all fucking happy yet im sad,0 +became nerd accident glasses thanks mom new glasses look bit bigger social anxiety aspergers cant socialize well far nerd basically someone glasses doesnt socialize much welp sucks ill forever lonely like friends lol actually accept,0 +tell roommatelong story short extremely suicidal got considerably better weird kind break morning back seriously suicidal want make sure something stupid like throw dorms fourth floor window like ive thinking of know talk help roommate know depression two people campus know tell roommate hey buddy hide rope sharp objects get back want something happen suggestions help talk friends status break need help,1 +fuck thought putting alphabet math good idea seriously math problems like little timmy x dollars many bananas buy make train arrive bouncy ball land one second,0 +never thought could bad dying someone bad livingive many times keep saying im lucky every time try fail in lack effort holes researchplanning might add know matter program pill baseless optimism push immediately im found turned inits waste effort resources ive said before feel incompatible life desire relationship job tedious draining employees clue different lights dim night im executing routine daily numbing nights weekends drugs get mad say ive enough want out genuinely notice absence,1 +brother took dump yesterday two days ago fucked entire plumbing epic poggers moment really wash hands six krystal sliders krystals white castle southeast us white xbox controller cant play skate greasy hands,0 +messed life way fix iti stayed city done bcom dating sa instead leaving uk married girl interested me atleast left one year suffering uk everyone telling bcom brain fried many prescription meds cant recover medically restrained put mental hospital reason way fix this dont live messed lonely life pain im depressed fucked things badly im sure everyone understand this,1 +peace out good luckdear you wanted someone know story since redflag note left family far simple like soz lads seya lata dnt get ur toilet papurkappa wednesday around pm dead time im jumping cliff pretty ensured do flip pictures looks like beautiful view year old female australia im pretty smart talents good person loved league legends overwatch halo ocarina time best zelda game im fucking loser enjoys listening shitty music pretending im one boys even though everyone fucking knows im ill never level reason finally ending time im broken fix insert emo ass music pft tried jump balcony knowing would die itd fix problems tired sexually abused mentally abused physically abused im child porno somewhere internet shit lasts forever physically abused mean omg mem hit throwing iphone someone literally mean step mother would beat fuck bash even smashing head windows would bleed still remember feeling grabbing steel grid bed pulling body wouldnt get beat alive blame step mother cuntish behaviour kid like came new country kids shoved face probably raised way second attempt around mother moved america new husband father new family brother sister place go moved apartment run us children brother total fucking cunt age parental supervision guidance us fucked probably went school times year know stopped jumping front train tracks ended friends house treated like family hurt much probably using them expect people noticed went missing cousin told missing person told was im real cause drama police losing time over third attempt tried swallow bottle pills lost job america country went protect mother abused low life fuck get kicked soon turnt lived ghetto earned hour high stress job worked days week worked am pm hour break ate mc donalds every fucking day time worst dropped university wouldve graduated soon broke most always plan im going get art industry go uni finish move japan live small shitty apartment ikebukuro matter id happy anyway body ended rejecting amount pills taken throw up pretty picture thats closest came dying kinda weird attached body least felt like it almost like watching die threw it ended reaching mum said could move back her told days later go kill myself thats wanted try told sister goodbye time told come back australia wasted money plane ticket useless ass ill never forget that never got get fourth attempt moved friend cute family also probably using shit am sent hospital never want go back dad back life trying love much sucks knowing wasting peoples times constantly feels bad feel sorry him mother hates blame wasted money bringing fucking useless twat sister nice shed better without brother hates pretty obvious also blame him okay logically emotions aside feel like redflag beneficial society im pretty sure playing video games day helping anyone myself cant work properly socialise preform activities help others life government pay live friends bother suspecting like im bad communicating family give single fuck lost cause anymore home food bed internet electricity opportunity education fucking logic appreciate stop little bitch hence i another fucking dead loser justified redflag anyone tell guess ill leave laugh at regardless wish best life hope happy know bunch actually make pussy life like me from another dead person,1 +top tier list people miss talking like ever former best internet friend stopped talking unknown reasons ex stopped talking insecure bf children basement may rest pieces know amazing encounter with one wholesome person met train first went visit ex someone look hospital gave memorable piece life advice friendly person met train station talked something important us hugged goodbye look to abigail thorn philosophy tube niall comas pyrocynical appreciate friend meet irregularly open with without judged wavelength many ways brother shares similar absurdist humor helped become critical certain people said interesting talks with friend education makes feel less alone struggles education listened problems needed generally nice fun talk with former best internet friend one mentioned met irl once me interesting wavelength amazing person kinda fell touch though thats alright recommend making list feel empty af,0 +literally every single female protagonist thought boys gross met him hes silly charming feet tall strong jaw suddenly problems solved bonus points lesbian acts like douche,0 +dont like short people short people like always really pushy aggressive piss off,0 +minecraft snapshot cant take anymore,0 +think would make family feel terrible reason keep someone aroundlike seriously ill see sentiment pop every across reddit makes blood boil honestly people think guilting suicidal people sticking around really healthy them puts even stress dont need plus doesnt even hold logically think family love family much wont matter feel im dead im dead cant think would affect them unless wanna send afterlife crippling guilt thanks that honestly tell people try help go fuck yourself seriously,1 +anyone wanna make game me half baked story kind of pm me,0 +still feeling like shit still bored go saw guy im gonna steal idea whats impression me going profile alone,0 +random fact go school max verstappen went lived kilometers away,0 +downloaded tiktok regret downloaded little ago see like ironically thought gooduntil minutes ago looked page saw video girl getting tattoo preceded orgasm guy tattooing her guy tattooing slipped fell over never fucking grossed entire fucking life fact someone would post tik tok bad fact hasnt taken worse fucking hate tik tok people post it,0 +film life queen victoria youth first years monarch great britainbr br the young victoria amazing production every scene designed decorated immaculate detail extravagant costumes lavish locations beautifully landscaped gardens make the young victoria impressive amazed thoughtful cinematography every person placed relation background foreground well thought out every scene well composed scene strikes victoria talks melbourne melbourne positioned middle door frame victorias angle melbournes angle victoria situated space melbourne held arm hipsbr br story wise far compressed followed understood person without historical knowledge queen victoria many events rushed even explained expected grand scene coronation disappointingly lasted secondsbr br overall the young victoria good film would even better longer events could properly explained without rush,0 +blowing brains ampxb httpsiredditzaiarsaoxgif,0 +the matador stars pierce brosnan burned assassin hes james bond gone seed tootight garish clothes gold chains ugly haircut struggling assassin julian noble mexico trying regain nerve staying hotel likable downonhis luck businessman danny wright greg kinnear also trying regain equilibrium danny desperate close deal return wife denver hope davis good newsbr br noble wright unexpectedly become friends wright convinces noble reveal certain techniques demonstrates bullfight noble eventually targeted employers shows denver br br writer director richard shepard qa delightful movie austin film festival shepard also luck suffering loss agent rejection recent scripts decided write story one would buy create character one would want play pierce brosnan called brosnan regains equilibrium movie there life bond wonderful flair selfdeprecating comedy miss it br br stay closing credits read filmmakers say bullfighting look forward richard shepards projects,0 +anyone else staying late interacting strangers dont actual social life filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +using sub diary day today good bunch meetings school stuff grades nd semester uploaded got gpa quite proud people call beard honest answer cheated majority classes passed true internet helped lot rest day used chill hbu guys day went anything interesting happened,0 +help me ive writers block one thing years ive really wanted write story years thing holding back cant figure kind character antagonist is backstory want want it someone could please help me driving insane years,0 +moms home tonight roll around pillow fight like major rager omfg,0 +adviceso recently things happen life put rock bottom started getting redflagl thoughts sad depressed fast forward months iv got life sorted new house new job iv got family back feel happy normal then th bday long ago ever since keep haveing dark thought life cant get much better kill myself want commit redflag every creeping thought keep comeing back im really confused,1 +realized black people black tongues actually thought black people black tongues insides mouths,0 +one talk feel tired day tried meet girls rejected want happy,1 +surprised fascinating movie was performances extremely good especially rea compassionate nononsense detectivebr br despite low budget big fx flashy camerawork citizen x somehow manages surpass majority similar big hollywood films just telling the storybr br true stories tend end whimper rather bang thats case here apart that highly recommended detective yarn,0 +tonight nighti wanted say goodbye someone cause obv cant tell anyone irl obv reasons past years struggle already tried twice didnt work time im going actually go wanted say bye ,1 +poop jokes funny theyre funny,0 +wooooo fucking it finally got recommended hours sleep teenagers need les gooooo,0 +lost virginity yesterday cool guess anyone wanna play minecraft now,0 +ghostys daily posty flash would great sex cause become vibrator,0 +im blessed mum woke breakfast bed toast bacon juice stuff like that came downstairs let go ps early bought new trainers little brother started annoying told me woke up,0 +know enough drinking maybe work also scared also want go like this one supports really people really care pretend care dead took bunch pills,1 +botched eyelid surgery unable close eyesbotched eyelid surgery months ago unable close eyes fully cant sleep cant relax everytime blink feel pain like relentless torture sought several different opinions doctors take seriously suggest eye drops already sigh wanna live like anymore,1 +nowhere runjust ptsd things miserable unfulfilled life things years chronic depression things hate life everything life myself one nothing im done,1 +whats pointwhats point life like this take pills every day see doctors time normal exhausting pushing towards edge,1 +ive hit new low im playing lol willingly thats new,0 +ok never really used place rant horrible childhood led become overly shy public yes man socially insecure already hear everyone running away seems like worst thing people reason comes lot problems cut right chase much trouble finding woman would even believe told stories many opportunities women coming me seducing me first steps messed them times tried first steps worked well chocked could handle pressure also would give examples doubt place nsfw even though people openly discuss death something happened yesterday pure torture seriously like devil bad luck playing soul anyways wish way find love easily overly shy people whenever cute girl comes talk freeze like cannot find anything think say either think rude interested well presume least sometimes even ignored even though really wanted them wrong me tried seeing doctors shrinks shyness issues work live sucks seeing everyone around me every single person couple dating someone seems easy them could try dating app depressed even try plus feel lame know say real mess pisses know know maybe stop caring maybe stop giving shit start drinking feel like trapped thinking ending recently life simply worth it never drinking tonight might get drunk overly shy really sucks,1 +much movie good nothing say said already wanted point fact movie isnt sweden denemark maybe wrong case ill happy know mistakes take notify me,0 +please hugpleasei want remember feels like go,1 +oxygen gay proof gay breathe oxygen inside thats gay,0 +people old parents want know old parents birth father mother ,0 +woman ever treated respect nan died months ago household screwing us theres nothing do refuses seek help never change want move out nowhere go job money best wait someone dies suppose,1 +watched movie first showing available area quite clear people get movie even dont good movie interesting character development thoroughly human story imperfect people backwoods southern town really speaks root blues know black snake moan time leave theater get it no song christina ricci great job thoroughly convincing role samuel l jackson think best performance since role pulp fiction probably best including range character bsm rest cast solid shining performances there particularly john cothran jr reverend r l im selective movie watcher film honestly rates among favorites candid look race sex religion neurosis rural southern town along cinematic genius opinion,0 +something youre bored hey guys made podcast please check youre bored dont anything look forward life heres link httpsyoutubehzxdmxdy please leave feedback comments video doing read chapters bible every episode talk news whats going lives well giveaway subs willing try anything want us do please give try thanks reading that,0 +like body hair feels barbaric like shaved ,0 +recently saw iq even though im romantic comedy type gal think nice sweet movie watch many movies opinion lack honesty know feeling watching movie feel robbed taking something story like director threw together like trash story scientists sweet funny one stuck together tried help tim robbins character become smart liked love story tim meg simple brought good point comes love nothing seems would recommend sunday morningbr br ,0 +movie better expected think deserved r rating though ive seen pg films worse language violence found movie entertaining enjoyed it person dissects everything might find lot wrong it take face value think find entertaining,0 +oh guys found it found song ive heard young even like much,0 +run people likes golf fuck u liking golf bruh,0 +attention boys girls see someone visible nipples unless make clear you please ignore them know speak peoples nips say literally mind own time confused are please ignore em,0 +guess today last full day alive tomorrow big dayhappy birthday guess,1 +im really indecisive get cheese pizza pita chicken restaurant title says all please help idk get,0 +im least attractive guy earth already know im gonna die aloneim ive zero success comes dating girls like literally zero didnt talk girls much high school talk none college like havent tried suck talking girls girl talk high school ignores idk whats wrong me im attractive im boring guess thats im loser,1 +feel like mom cares less less abt fell asleep today woke first time pm sister asked wanted dinner told wasnt hungry went back sleep woke last time hour ago pm felt really sad sister come check me mom hadnt done anything went eat mom didnt say anything come kitchen went upstairs ate bed rn im sitting livingroom wanted see mom would say anything hasnt hasnt said hello anything wanted ask didnt check boyfriend really dislike him like im even sorry hard read im really upset lol,0 +entire personality music like mental health substance issues filler filler filler filler filler,0 +best friend threatened commit redflag know call cops pleaseh elp wants get ivy league uni next year tried google would happen could cops nothing came ruined hed find time kill hes really good pretending okay something right could pretend fine parents believe mental health im allowed talk idk entire redflag watch process works want ruin life right point idgaf hates really want alive want ruin life im waiting call thing redflag watch advice ive contacted school counselors responses really want call cops please help,1 +need advice job interview chipotle hour half position crew member mom says wear slacks think thats formal wear interview thanks advance,0 +havent made friends unless consider briefly talking person comments every ive enjoyed brief interactions people think almost prefer talking one person long time,0 +someone pcmr told post hereive depressed lonely whole life escaped xbox ive moved onto pc gaming rig broken dont money buy parts im two young get job whole spring break ive literally done nothing spook mom times,1 +sohi emma young trans woman germany years old know even want live anymore lithle bit backstory growed small catholic village middle nowhare school big social issues loner pritty depressed school got home watched tv rest day playd console basicly wasted whole childhood alone depressed family neclected left alone later finished school mental wreck absolutly social skills dident realy know bvb something like bridge year get ready learn job around time lot things cleared mind aknowledegd trans still dident mutch beciuse know family would hate even wait till move out lost around kg obese actually social interaction bvb actually made friends guess second wafe corona hit bvb stopped vor six months got stuff per email stuck home whit family talk lost contact persons met sunk deep depression dysphoria stuff hate becouse gender related stuff got whorse wanted end stupid useless live dident self harm wanted die whitout pain dident acess medication wanted cutt wrist blead out sometimes sat houres whit fucking kitchen knive hand diden guts it know good bad dident it existance sucked kind opend mum live hell asked could see terapist surprisingly okay that got terapist kind tould everything becouse tould suecidial got put psychosomatic facility stayd two months kind saved live view ways honest first time live everything seems okay turned stay there kind mentaly stable again helped ne get back kontakt whit dad my parents divorced moved directly got relesed two weeks ago family cut contact becouse moved enemy realy care tbh proberbly going something like bvb proberbly seeking ambulant terapy figure actually start hrt still lot redflag least go shopping talk strangers mascs actually realy help lot fear future coud need advise honest realy know abaut what feel lost know many people got mutch whorse guess live least importance least mei hope wrode made least sence sorry grammer bad thank kind strangers reddit wish beautiful nightday guess could use advice live,1 +guys found someone crush like thats ever gonna happen,0 +dog died best friend every day id come home form school matter bad day hed come give kisses cheer up really wish ha snore time him really dont know ill get without him pet make sure give much love possible theyre gone,0 +spiraling downhill since august im renting room basement crappy job im separated ex wifenot divorced im sending money constantly girl ive dating since split found im separated technically married still friends family actually cares one near notices signs ive cheated ive lied ive grown spoiled people say leech ruin theyre lives im head heels debt nothing going like all tell im ending tonight ,1 +fuck wrong reddit fucking laggy multiple browsers open post new tab get logged tab breaks reddit randomly freezes get teleported top feed,0 +wanna talk people got nobody talk nothing say gimme conversation starters comments might even respond knows,0 +okay like ask,0 +seen broadcast channel seen earlier comments think would like state firstly favour death penalty way expecting great things film quite deliver dead man walking cleanly done good performances round good script fact hard fault artistically however felt although attempted confront issues surrounding capital punishment seemed become sidetracked religiousmoral stance hardly surprising given main character nun although im heartless individual really empathise characters story take religion seriously probably see much film think peter medaks let much powerful moving film would strongly recommend anyone considering watching go see that,0 +ia or dog paws smell like doritos,0 +cowardwhy cant bring kill myself get hung dumb shit like much itd hurt dumb stuff doesnt even matter dont know get feeling hesitant,1 +friend sent message said found one discord chats litterally biggest roast ever shut yo skin tone chicken bone google chrome home flip phone disowned ice cream cone garden gnome extra chromosome metronome dimmadome genome full blown monochrome student loan indiana jones overgrown flintstone x hormone friend zone sylvester stallone sierra leone autozone professionally seen silver patrone ching chong ling long suck ding dong head ass pubg fortnite flip phone remote control autism syndrome stage four terminal brain cancer oreilly auto parts silver bronze ash amiibo uv light pen sushi ramen harrison ford gamer bitch ass virgin lamp thermometor lean mean string bean charlie sheen limousine canteen trampoline serpentine antihistamine wolverine submarine unclean nectarine broken gene halloween defective spleen smokescreen james dean putting green tiny peen anti vaccine aquamarine eugene extra green nicotine vaseline jellybean magazine protein lightningmcqueen vending machine whatchu mean ocean man ween head ass tf bitch,0 +months struggling finally got courage tell someone suicidal thoughts dismissedive struggling several months suicidal thoughtsideations ive constantly reluctant share increasingly difficult internal conflict anyone months now lot reluctance stems terrible mental health care system city well stigma surrounds main mental illness a stigma held people general also psych professionals forced inpatient several times later years high school anything experience made mental health worse adult psych wards city much worse ive literally dozens referrals fall able get treatment need well year now keep telling everyone ill tough out make through etc reality im falling apart inside out so finally went clinic university campus told truth experiencing mentally physically even made sure mention id reluctant forthcoming given past negative experiences ive local mental health system lot waiting explaining situation professional professional finally told go home because summation apparently reason provide degree professional care unless ive literally planned redflag step step beyond frustrating continuously dismissed im made feel like burden waste time resources cry baby anything feel like experience today made things worse feel even worthless even think possible point guess post way vent know,1 +know im bothering posting wanted someone say goodbye toi think im ready go im alone want anymore sister took antidepressants away since taking them bottle erythromycin doxycyclin hyclate also little bit alcohol maybe take edge it guts way decided ill leave note yet not,1 +best friends plans summer spend much time could got may spent time times changed lot it happy bright person it like caused problem fix it talk spend time me talks much fun friends hate want fun summer memories laying bed waiting talk me play animal crossing everyday myself eating crying hours started really hard time walk stuff want someone talk spend time with download video game to watch show anything want make memories summer left look back smile please want summer,1 +need gf yes dont worry guys ill share everything yallexcept gf ever got one,0 +fuck itill valentine noone stop,0 +cannot even get form support them seem love playing victim even find point taking anymore wonder not whenever talk parents problems somehow make,1 +tried hanging seriously minutes agoi tried counting might already unconscious seconds stepped back platform jumped cant really call jumping feet may reflex guess ampxb im feeling really bad know kill myself society offer painfree way redflag,1 +yep completely stopped showing up everyday waking am pure fucking torture hour shift basically getting bullied coworkers overheard making comments weird heard another one make comments tic have always felt like judged particular cunts maybe redflag telling things trueampxbthe struggles mentally ill mess walked away job,1 +ive never watched anime _________________________________________,0 +feel like piece shiti thought control this pretty long time since cut myself again felt overwhelmed everything love him want hurt him want hurt anyone want feel pain redflag thoughts came across mind im afraid them want someone tell going okay,1 +originally saw movie boy old rialto theatre part saturday afternoon matine triple bill also featured vincent prices last man earth mario bavas nightmare castle nightmares blood lusting ghosts week afterwards though know then three movies would prove classics genre wonder scared though three films frightened me castle blood profound impactbr br it first bill even get see beginning late getting cinema missed first minutes movie thats lot miss since edited print ran minutes the unedited runs minutes despite this dark creepy atmosphere complete ruined castles fog enshrouded cemeteries shadows cobwebs gothic set design strong acting suspense especially last minutes scared bejeepers made lasting impression took years finally get copy film collection since french italian import movie showed late show winnipeg quite remember title remember get seen beginning film scared witless make matters worse film released literally dozen different movie titles aka danze macabre coffin terror castle terror long night terror etc usauk working title castle blood generic similar dozens b horror suspense films making illusive thanks internet perseverance found last treat finally watch film entirety many years may quite sheer emotional impact boy haunted house movies go stands well compares favourably similar iconic films period the haunting the innocents black sunday film fine early effort italian director antonio margheriti stars s scream queen icon barbara steele features well written screenplay sergio corbucci sceptical writer georges riviere who bet spends night haunted house unsuspectingly becomes part annual ongoing ghostly story hypnotic steele well cast ghostly love interest arturo dominici dr carmus margarete robsahm juliabr br many tricks margheriti employs create films eerie atmosphere cobwebs creaking doors fog etc bound seem clich modern audience work far effectively black white ever could modern day colour rather using body counts special effects film creates scares old fashion way relying good story stylish direction fine set production interesting camera work strong acting performances margheriti marvellous job taking elements building films suspense horrifying paranormal secret house gradually reveals unwitting writerbr br the film without faults pace drags beginning film ironically minutes originally missed probably worsened synapse films effort restore film original length though fans likely appreciate chance see film restored terms intro may hindrance help english voice dubs merely passable and restored scenes language shifts english french english subtitles provided sure annoying viewersbr br however synapse films deserves kudos quality print clearly effort put restoration deservedly sobr br i enjoyed film immensely highly recommend aficionados s italian goth films anyone enjoys good ghost storybr br rob rheubottom winnipeg mb canada,0 +death guiltwe lost family friend cancer hes sick deteriorating while similarly grandpa passed earlier year watched weeks go coherent incoherent barely last hours watched bottom feet turn purple slowly complexion turned yellow last breath inconsistent shallow definitely traumatized me tried use image experience light life torch march im still really deep hole really feel like prisoner mind today hear family friend went similar way feel like wasted life like waste space fun life fun think hope gets fun relatively soon want live like long im really trying hard get better eyes heavy even often fake smile anymore whats wrong me know going comment theres nothing wrong me clearly be somethings wrong brain nobody cares believes me people think create misery ive lot trauma think ive lost little natural resilience lifes unpredictable events im scared die alone want to hope yall okay tonight still breathing,1 +even here people dont even respondi know ive helped people made happy dont feel anymore nothing ive lost everything except cat friends suck dont answer phones hardly im alone almost time even reach family blow dont answer im kidding asked different people something either declined didnt respond one makes plans hardest year fucking life bf committed redflag last year pass dates without theres one me im hanging strand feel bad feeling way felt well dont care thats fell him got me me,1 +swear god multiple personality disorder im drastically different im fucked different ways levels rarely make normalish meme right now know feel urge type fucked shit type need fucking help quarantine revealed shit wish revealed wish things instead stuck here wasting away ineffective online classes bound forget next year want bust nut anymore want company bro,0 +im still bored pm want pt flopped first time pt got back trip yo michigan today havent made post cuz like signal notmally like midnight im watching ani rn like talk also want,0 +feel lostim lost stuck anxious cant move anything lost friend fucked upim barely talking friends almost year ago still cry it motivation negatives need pick major college clue start interests abilities show social anxiety fucking sucks worry much worry becoming adulthow many things keep track of keep job manage money raise kids right reason im right dog completely attached cant leave her means much me im scared future idea im going do want world barely scraping lifejust waiting next paycheck wish could stop time sit think figure everything apologize messy is monologue thats source anxiety think now keeping night sometimes think quiet would nicejust real peaceful nothing worry about,1 +tried fully explain mumstill completely different wave length tears feel same love family fixable state sucks im finally telling others years,1 + years ago tf time go fast ,0 +please help mei cant stop screaming need help,1 +call piano sound nice,0 +everythings pushing thisi trying really hard this why really know everything driving force ive lost motivation everything weak mask like im ok draining me ive tried medications depression anxiety help feel trapped also pretend believe something anymore im sure exhibit bpd traits hard make friends shy introverted family issues drains me ive way ever since im trying distract myselfbut much,1 +nipples always hard school nipples hard embarrassed someone might see nipples shirt omg,0 +hearts acting strange last hours feel strong distinct heartbeat every avg feels like adrenaline rush nothing serious guess ill keep living life now dont think ill go doctor though ends serious happy get disgusting world dying peacefully like,1 +itll okayhey friends know really hard right now know feel like garbage world pretty shit moment know probably feel like worthless matter single living earth cares loves you swear is care love wish best life bet someone else too might met yet promise theyre there waiting come along life worth living take day day cant that take hour hour whatever enjoy doing thats worth living for pet thats worth living for one baby step time love fall feel like cant get back up promise it nothing life impossible this love you,1 +guitarists there ive fallen love fender newporter malibu decent guitars,0 +me has one bad experience somewhere me need leave right now never go back start anew dont even think going back fcked up go always start again,0 +days feel like ending it like damn cannot miss shows yeah,1 +womens rights people rights fighting for need angry paragraph im curious rights deprived currently im masogonistic dont know rights women dont someone tell itd cool,0 +nnn nnn nnn nnn everywhere fucking tired nnn everywhere stupid oh yeah cool idea wont masturbate month literally reason whatsoever first posts funny ive scrolling new half hour guess what every single post nnn related pls go back normal shitposting,0 +cthgisnialpnidenodnabamocefilretfalarutcetihcrasptth,1 +struggling life need someone talk tobeen struggling depression years far mom always yelling im bad school lot people better think waste time useless brat like me cant even get straight as everyone else know does good stuff hightech phones fast computer potato computer mom took away privileges need someone talk online cant limits mom always wanted change study hard keep trying work me im losing trust within real life peers seems theyve betrayed cant feel im feeling suck everything thing im good games impress mom anyone one else im running options im getting point might end misery kill myself,1 +redflag prevention day heres story im sitting car right now waiting classes start college high school specifically around thth grade being pinnacle issues became self harm came close attempted redflag several times never went attempt luckily thinking times felt specifically would like done biggest sense relief flooded me im alive able experience life fullest never thought itd get better felt lost hopeless misunderstood know things different everyone circumstances vary im tell killing may seem like right idea take away possibilities inevitability things getting better someday hard part is ultimately falls you end fighting life whether literally figuratively warriors every single one suffering depression utterly unfair life circumstances anxiety whatever is warrior survive much love me im chat need,1 +one dayone day im gonna able take anymore,1 +anyone got group chat join dont mind invite,0 +hate im right nowi hate im subreddit right now hate feel way hate feel alone hopeless talk internet instead person im sick really sick remember like feel okay remember like pain want out feel like people life love wanting wake next morning lot easier everyone gives me feel like stupid illness big awful cant fight alone everyone gives up one wants fight me many people made clear actions im worth fighting for im worth fighting hell still fighting right remember im still trying sure want reminded live want someone tell okay let go,1 +dm idgaf wanna talk someone hold conversation tell ur age gender im m btw sorry let fellow virgins,0 +feel like dont deserve friends schooli feel like dont deserve friends school friends give trust make happy supportive always help im need ago made big mistake feel ruin relationship completely friends elementary harassed made fun them got middle school got new friends experienced mature me make lies fit them feel even would except me lie would mess everything future boyfriend person liked faked entire relationship him abt months ago mt friends knew guy close contact really made lie believable years older wanted stop lying them scared past friendships would one told cheated party got girl pregnant cut ties believed really bring until months ago came friends saying liked girl girl felt way went little bit later told lost feeling wanted break up really sad went friends comfort comforted topic exs brought time thinking future home away people realized would happen friends found out abt weeks ago noticed falling best friend straight knew fake ex would going school year im getting scared getting caught awful mistakes would th grade would th feel cut get hurt future im sure do im really hoping forgot everything corona im even considering faking amnesia get caught would know talking abt maybe would forgive me,1 +like heavy metal musics join community anybody like heavy metal musics join community called rheavymetalmusicfans,0 +help me man get ppl give afuck bout tweets dawg,0 +guys giys fid doodly done im hot ye haw mfs im hot ehehehehehhehehe,0 +would deadly sins businesses im wondering question mind awhile want answered,0 +think pretty would money get makeup little ago friend gave old eyeliner try out literally cried loved looked much would call average look makeup see would enhance features much just ugh even highlighter contour could much with,0 +us one remember got families stop crying shower ice cream something like,0 +first sidestory universal century gundam universe presents refreshing new look war earth space colonies focus longer small group individuals would go play pivotal roles conflict everyday civilian population war seen eyesbr br the story contain gundam staples premise attempts zeon squad capture experimental gundam execution plot made show interesting watch series focuses experiences young boy named alfred relationship neighbor christina mckenzie secretly federation pilot newbie zeon pilot named bernie wiseman alfred develops sort brotherly love bernie young zeon pilot also falls christinabr br war pocket proves need sweeping epic tale special individuals make good war story uber ace pilots large scale fleet battles seen here short episode ova focuses lot character emotional drama themes like politics philosophy love realistically portrayed characters are alfred typical everyday kid plays violent computer games thinks armed forces cool given crash course horrible realities war unlikely friendship bonding bernie christina knowing fact soldiers different sides war played real without going overboard romance drama stuff goes endearing relationship alfred bernie said would want spoil much story here makes whole lot heart wrenching watch tragedies unfold show moves along way emotionally devastating twist ending br br despite lack action show never falls category boring characters engaging enough carry whole show worry number mobile suit action scenes scattered there beautifully animated level surpasses ova sure satisfy craving mandatory mobile suit battles gundam seriesbr br normally watching anime japanese english would leave personal preference case strongly recommend english voice track japanese one characters except alfred caucasian sound believable english performances english voice cast par even surpass japanese one instilling character realistic emotions intonations sound acting live action tv dramasbr br in short show try impress audience conveys numerous heartwarming themes hit closest home especially death innocence battlefield horrors war eyes child truly moving little story deserves credit given,0 +want alive anymorei cant stop thinking baby wouldve one years old come th hate much ive handled past year completely screwed everything life ruined relationships had nothing going anymore ive plans come th past year think going follow through,1 + billion people yet still feels alone billion people connected ever yet still feel alone redflag rates insane,1 +seriously care coddit go take walk outside need fresh air fr,0 +doi would like kill myself called redflag prevention hotlines tonight one told me im extremely worried you dont sound good promised call back next week name mark nice yah worried too cant find gun looked bedroom closet idea husband put it many ridiculous emotions alarms people alarms husband known forever id rather dead honest god know feels like gives me want know whats wrong fixed cant figure out would rather dead realized im saying lot redflag selfish whats fucking point everything hot mess stuck inside slowly watching person learn hate us wheres relief everything over,1 +people commenting numbers stupid middle night missing,0 +wrong answers only make life better wrong answers only make life better,0 +go social anxiety depression end ok iill try make long me im year old boy ive living social anxiety depression now ive one boyfriend short time ago ive never girlfriend ive never kissed spend almost time inside masturbate much trying stop one friend were close anything school when go school really speak much almost cant connect normal kids whenever go school feel place think lot dying still school life wish could normal normal person normal life normal things person age adults enjoyed time high school dont wish could cant change least completely realistically speaking want couple close friends could call family boyfriend girlfriend there maybe time lol kids hell think id like kids think im asking much many people this seems like complete fantasy could see future saw that could carry life now seems like fantasy it so keep living kill myself least yet went im going ended friends family it get there it since cant kill myself id like little bit hope hold onto mind living people cared me,1 +tell fianc still feel suicidalive dating fianc wonderful months met redflagdepression support chat given happiness stability unending loveunderstanding future goals something never thought would have truly changed life however passively actively suicidal since genetic illness affects joints makes everyday life painful limited abilities used athletic busy slim barely walk gained weight though im still skinny really shouldnt complaining worst part illness ripped vet tech career right hands really gaining traction found dream job ericu career passion one jobs physically able honestly devastated me go phases im ok phases feel like im mourning couldve been condition gotten worse stuck internlevel position dream job because physically employer amazing worked make sure income go back icu floor hit one bad phases want selfdestruct everything around wont hurt anyone myself this second guess fianc ridiculous illegitimate reasons want push away wont get infected hurt changed life love heart cant keep going phases needing destroy everything around without knowing tell him dont want make feel like isnt good enough something like that also dont want force problems dark cloud life dont want die right now really need tell someone especially him heart squeezes every day need selfdestruct lay awake night second guessing everything word gain support without pity hurting process,1 +funny life change second attend the waterdance first time unforgettable experience way need get used new way life seem frightening notice people going similar situation help go on br br eric stoltzs performances mainly helen hunt oh man helen purest graceful woman earth wonderful wesley snipes also surprises one last serious roles film simple time deep get leave us indifferent message transmitted enjoy moment lifebr br really film hour attended sorry brazilian expression,0 +bummerwhats up while stuff mostly good last year right trying graduate uni serious shit hitting fan work im really tempted take easy path know bullshit worth financially im even able afford home due price hike real estate whats point going work apparent reason pay rent eat yeah point keep living,1 +made meme friend new reddit post sub first thing hot know feel anymore meme made help gain karma blew im like,0 +bourne ultimatum review thrilling set two get final installment heres takebr br the bourne ultimatum all jason bournematt damon coattails ones know everything running long time endsbr br the bourne ultimatum great plot awesome writing fantastic direction suspense best action summer matt damon delivers possibly best performance date conviction swelling desire troubled assassinbr br there intelligent humor fine suspense reactions certain events either laughingin good way cheering on or both heard lot intelligent laughter theater lots clapping audience loving itbr br the bourne ultimatum delivers nicely giftwrapped package goods some is opinion best movie summerbr br the last word excellent conclusion best trilogy summer movie thrillers done love bourne trilogy,0 +feel sickto get bit understanding read this httpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsplketgay_teen_in_need_help fast forward months life back normal except feel sick in physically sort way ever since felt pretty intense self loathing want turn to feel sick hey reddit cookies whoever make happy while,1 +im turning guys want permission pleeeeaaasssseeeee stay awesome sub enjoy memes stuff love sub feel one best subs there dont want wait years till im enjoy,0 +im sure im years old male want talk feel right now always try best nice everyone but feels like one nice me fact feels like everyone hates good reason bullied many years painful me feel dead inside im emotional guy even right now feel way im trying live normal life made changes health eat healthier exercise lost kg kg kg im cm tall also improved dental health ive lifestyle since november but mental health different story feels like everyone hates me everyone wants dead difficult live feel like this never felt bad before last days thing going mind redflag cant stop it know stop fear actually take life ive bullied lot people social life getting worse worse know cant talk to apologize post long,1 +never go for pinterest girls im warning you worth,0 +know wake mornings look world people wonder what happened world happened us love kindness caring compassion friendship humanity humility anymorewe spend hours days weeks months social media lying great lives are knowing full well lying however it mean spiteful cruel horrible lives spend time social media hating ridiculing people vaccinated unvaccinated hating ridiculing people black white jewish muslim asian skin color ownwe even talk people outside computers anymore more good morning good evening hello barely even communicate people social media brainwashed believe know talk them yet comes around so connected brothers sisters no not entire world divided ever get know people learn background experiences get make people brothers sisters matter know stay confined living lives communicating people see daily lives wake mornings news filled stories hate crime violence new york used one beautiful states america turned violent mad max type state california cluttered homeless people one absolutely one california gives damn about good homeless lumped together mentally ill people thus treated like garbage right american soil one bats eye one cares vaccinated people holding parties living life totally separate unvaccinated told unvaccinated toxic avoided without us realizing lie told keep us divided other stronger together no division world men women race race richwealthybetter poor homeless vaccinated unvaccinated hear stories young people adults committing suicide say things like oh sad feel sorry family really mean it person committed suicide came you words encouragement virtual hug ended lives would them no know them problem however someone dies hand problem die cannot find peace joy happiness earth responsibility help them contrary popular belief every person alive responsibility outside simulated world call earth related realize brainwashed realize truth world nothing like used be s s yes times bad times too yes part absolute part times beautiful social media people people families families friends friends blacks blacks whites whites people people mentally emotionally every child someone elses child well people would walk street greet with hey brother hey sister meant it today people think lost mind humanity gone say no not look many missionaries feeding helping poor countries yeah countries right american soil uk countries extreme hunger poverty problem humanity gonei want world s s back people could go sleep night lock doors would wake up safe sound next morning want world s s back could go outside see kids playing streets instead inside homes playing mindless video games want world s s back blacks would look whites brothers sisters whites would toward blacks want world s s back music actual meaningful messages them men gentlemen women ladies want world s s back anyone else could make instant lifelong friends people never knew before want s s back everyone concerned others welfare livelihood mental state howeveri people very people feel like me know never days back drift years turn humans mindless uncaring robots emotion care concern anything even remotely resembles humanity even remotely resembles towards other why lot days wake up even wanting even planet anymore even recognize world anymore hate disconnect towards other violence coldness turned world one completely foreign me however world in many many years sadly world known happened world,1 +know timedays soon come shall longer planet tired n exhausted,1 +need help think im depressed dont know though major anxiety fucking cry sleep every single night fucking worry one girl im fucking love cause im fucking dumb want make sure shes ok time ive suicidal thoughts dads trying get therapist dont know til then do,0 +nigel balchins mazelike novel a way wood adapted julian fellowes also directs terribly british drawing room suspense piece film whose effect relies cast portraying varyingly benignmalignant characters fellowes directorial choices superb story linear line easy follow beauty film metamorphosis player single incident ignites minefield disastersbr br james manning tom wilkinson successful business obsessed solicitor london married anne emily watson needs life couple childless live country beautiful estate assisted long term cleaner maggie linda bassett attend social outings meet among others william bule rupert everett passively lazy wealthy neighbor anne decides entertain neighbors gruff james protestation anne proceeds planning james arranges not attend due business night party hit run accident maggies husband accidentally killed someone range rover she observed james returns home sees scratch williams range rover suspects william perpetrator anne discourages james going police information what possible good ruin bills life socialite father son important scion first lie virus spreads james confronts bill talks james going police anne confesses driving bills rover one responsible james convinces anne keep quiet would ruin reputation anne confesses affair bill three concur stick together big lie sake greater good anne eventually succumbs guilt telling beloved maggie one responsible maggie guilty previous theft whose life saved annes mercy hire anyway agent draws story surprising conclusion lies begat lies begat lies et ceterabr br the major impact intrigue manner isolated tragedy impacts characters involved changes dramatic way tome wilkinson gives finest performance career filled brilliant performances able say posture facial expressions actor audience today likewise gifted emily watson adds yet another fine role repertoire surprisingly smarmy rupert everett who despite yet another wealthy british gentleman gives us man arid spirit yet ultimately needy alwaysfine linda bassett takes small role finesses making character quietly central chaotic web liesbr br the cinematography tony pierceroberts musical score stanislas syrewicz add immeasurably multiple atmospheres story encounters ensemble playing finest always means director julian fellowes fine grasp piece interplay fine people makes dodgy story work well indeed grady harp,0 +looks like father ampxb httpspreviewredditvznhaldzpjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsaadfacbdefdfffffa,0 +movie may seemed like much people everything look comedy fall funny moments accompanied moment two seriously moving scenes great actors pretty much everything good movie supposed like despite david spade playing usual snobby character made role unusual performance think ever exceeded hit screen joe dirt regardless whether people chris farley fans saw film came friends still talk it years later movie finally told chris farley real deal best comedian seen life words could clumsy clever funny serious crazy sober moving depressing time words message counts one true great actors time one true great comedys time along good acting good story hilarious moments serious scenes times brought tears movie stands atop hordes movie marked beginning brief reign top comedy world late great chris farley actor since captured interests movie since actor since put much movies movie worth time taken time see next time rent movie,0 + london life living torturing without realising it way think messed stemmed early child regretful fixing since last year realised something severely wrong me sense child friends self isolated whole life without knowing affecting kid never went high school remember primary high school came home straight school even go weekends totally warped perspective school took seriously realise anything wrong year haunting me more grew quickly young went far left mum passed life hit hard anything bad life exaggerated due this like poor got head insecure clothes go clothes saddened could experiences buy things like kids lack support system parents fully care overprotective never showed love like growing never gave advice tips take anywhere like shops normal parents get really jealous friends talk experiences playing sports dad going shopping mum know neglect cannot balme parents care end day abusive also got addicted porn young age sure started remember trying quit years old remember trip school redflaged watching porn scared going die well yrs idk dying probably started obviously probably indirect attempt brain soothe pain time vicious life think worst part first half life lost mum dad worked hard himself stepmom came worked hard eventhough know me hard part nd half loved blindly torturing myself grief childhood never felt like child cannot remember memories high redflag feel like lived negative thousand years feel like year old going counselling since beginning year barely helps whole life feels like illusion never understood school was never social life recently started developing one realised way lived thought normal hurt teenagers actually psychological torture cannot help keep thinking lived yet even though hurts want live anymore,1 +used get feeling read post comment award way many give like candy feeling anymore annoying,0 +clear want cant stop thinking him start crush one point anymore gay bisexual pretty clear like like that kind casually expressed interest months ago knew meant nothings happened were really good friends im starting collapse little bit im starting spiral reignited depression self esteem issues control spend lot times imagining situations were together happy little while hes anybody hurt anyways ive tried move simple times,0 +seeking support im chronicallyill broken mess person inching towards death reaching againfirst apologize number times ive posted here ive brief interactions great people yet seeking connect anyone relate otherwise wishes talk me loneliness component this suppose means im looking something stick inject hope back daily life regardless im feeling selfconscious efforts reach out continue long follows copied recent post another forum short is ive feeling very very stuck lately feel though im backed corner way death im unsure handle that thoughts redflag pretty much inevitable longterm illness im sure lately loud making sense ever moredetailed rundown largely borrowed posts long read please bear me ive chronicallyill years live family never lived independently still much feel like teenager got sick except older alone makes social pariah never experienced real life beyond teens except vicariously others disappeared life higher learning marketable skills physically reasonablyemployable im financial burden family likely remain im dead illness taken several bounding leaps worse last decade especially last couple years mostly induced circumstance left far less capable distracting successfully longestablished light hobbies could fill time soulrendingly lonely small handful friends upon want keep piling problems dismal outlook get sense place lives continues shrink realistic romantic prospects hopes one bores particularly deep would want use anyone purely validatory purposes all feels like im built programmed need share life someone especially cruel that given circumstances life taking things increasing pace nothing returning fill voids get true anyone anywhere especially powerless actively fight otherwise counteract it years illness dependence primarily financial others bigger things life fostered nearly zero appreciable ego mountains anxiety uncertainty selfimage may well even exist terrible could wave magic wand cure completely right second would still impossible mess fix far many years behind salvage anything even close want life longer part hurts me daily see life passing me life going around me fixture home kind family pet absolutely nothing look forward to interests cant pursue needs cant meet desires cant even begin fulfill spend every day feeling though im enough life enough another person enough even myself just enough nearly enough last parent gone care pass siblings whatever unlucky ones draw short stick guess cycle continue family shrinks gone dreams career spouse kids home own building continuing legacy living quiet modest life someone love instead ill nothing footnote family tree tired feeling like burden tired feeling like cant begin measure standard society place nearly anything littletono social worth definitely financial worth anchor disappointment drearyreminder couldve been not rejected mocked ignored put aside forgotten illness made life irony if im even using irony correctly here know im great fucking person im smart interests empathy patience lot things could list none things matter oh still live home you income even worse sick eww well whatever im sure get idea one care purely companionship bring table strictly practical standpoint see value continuing live mean sound glib way theres plenty i value life people world nearly walled me theres much windowshopping time move on landlocked watching everyone fly feel though true hope removed equation ive gasping air ever since finally dawning maybe one path forward now its well death life without hope without love without something ive earned created life thats greater literal sits chair worth living pushing pain misery feel designed need partner life cant that feel need create indulge creative pursuits nope cant rare occasion life decided allow glimpse yanked away sometimes destructive effect let clear i want die paradoxically idea scares me concept ending life finding method so etc unnerves im even sure could go it cant keep living like anymore i fucking cant senseless suffering much loneliness much fractured stitchedtogether nature soul much know much longer continue like this know timer fast shrinking reluctance towards ending things diminishing thank much reading mess please forgive length semireposted nature im even sure im looking posting again beyond know heard companionship something want pity want waste anyones time comments questions thoughts pms welcome point,1 +one cares audience not would kill would celebrate stupid am stupid liveno ever care anyway suffer silence guess,1 +sub teacher bullied ampxb httpspreviewredditbfpzphepijjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampscbccabedefaccfcfd,0 +realised cant draw make dank meme shutterstock images,0 +im really hungry emotions brought death death looks like butterflies rainbows mewhat really want really need right power power ignored preferably something flashy could destroy world it know im never going get something like that much imagination know humans lot power themselves looks small expectations human pretty easily lot quite criminal but newsworthy things human always make someone ignore force conscience thats stopping me no ive lost long time ago maybe never that frankly care im afraid consequences right now constant feeling anxiety makes constantly want puke cant even sleep it feel like mind mine think stay relatively rational going drift away feel like one day truly lose sense value thinking give insanity thats burst feel like ill wake monster become numb consequences actions go rampage get killed process even now im getting excited giddy prospect that hold back kinda painful hold real back harshly though ill endure now know exactly im excited something like that able cry long time ive barely felt emotion long time want able cry want able cry guilt something ive done want feel emotions someone recommended watching sad movies great im used tropes look boring me someone else recommended video games once cut it like gore whatever disgusting apparently really want control emotions others blood matter personal taste guess anyways wanted write somewhere ill go sleep look wake hopefully itll help endure little bit longer really really love life guess im terrified prospect forgetting that right sub this im depressed like many you im insane well whatever,1 +using much emojis make funnier thats,0 +chronicles sav titty pics rock hello welcome chronicles sav today want share experience got first titty pics so started cool thursday evening playing among us yknow everything going good one friends playing simping one players supposedly girl like name davis arent girl said jokingly mind you confirmation pic dont believe it now friend got snap shes got k snapscore girl pfp told msg still wasnt convinced said said add her did msged her radio silence thought fucked boned will stuffed like piata fancy however today blessed ray light shone me im pretty sure im qualified buddha thats enlightened am,0 +bit bit im subconsciously distancing people care mei brothers step dad dad mom sister year old grandma like people world care existence ive getting heated parents month ago stopped talking mom month fight today argument dad manifestation dont want happen abandoned everyone becoming reality since ive talking redflag im open family either stopped caring dont entertain anymore probably dont know tried failed like rest shit life im thinking part wants die responsible conspiracy theories family hating leads deep thoughts ill end it ive thought hard like cutting thats ill end it friends family knows im piece shit dont know anything normal everything feels controlled like im robot given commands dont end like me really care people give shit youre alive dont take granted learn say whats mind hurt others control anger seek professional help instead getting strangers internet say care dont im june th sometime around years life die redflag part eagerly awaits whats beyond life another part scared im done though really,1 +knowi wish capacity put words exactly whats head makes much sense cannot fix it sense total nonsense combined cant handle life im genuinely meant earth know im meant perhaps id quite happy place could find answers universe understanding would normal me want understand really want understand badly want able accept cant completely tearing inside feel like im sick think much ends coming real cant stop thinking please tell stop making sick doctor brain faulty much fixed know cant stop crying im alone watch bars prison tighten eyes terrifies idea arrived prison bars get close tight start carrying prison around you im asking questions cant answer im scared ask anyone else ask doctor looks funny stutters words cant take seriously told yet feel like im watched maybe ghosts follow around judging everything say do night time get listen ghosts talk stupid things day five years ago ten years ago matter much try scream always overpower me learn acceptance finally accept ghosts say me say am cant cant accept it im incapable accepting death point killing seems like option dive straight deep end best way tackle fears force yourself take plunge irony understand all want die im confused killing would much easier know much take understand im going bite arms purple bruising surfaces skin looks like beautiful space us reminds one understand space even even one gives shit want space acceptable understood answers want kill want free,1 +want anything people lifewhy prolonging this hope have nothing going change itll always world,1 +hate mosquitos much deserve die violent deaths im desperately waiting florida release million genetically modified mosquitoes annihilate destroy bad mosquitoes hail florida killer mosquitoes,0 +bad reviews understand treat low budget serial killer film might get mostbr br i thought worked way afterwards felt dirty wanted take long shower degree success itbr br i would say right level sleaze get skin although acting maybe bit uneven david hess brielfy get hopes much like last housebr br other worth look,0 +please look menobody cares writing this bye bye,1 +made friend worst possible decision everi met girl september super nice lot common met college campus playing pokmon go instantly clicked became really good friends even thought mightve liked despite currently dating someone another country lmao time hated current job knew that everyone knew that told apply work friends host place work immediately took offer applied hired tons fun working her ended finding leading like way started leaned shoulder held arm times let put arms around her hurt wasnt happy her went on fast forward weeks working her starts giving attitude whenever work her starts really bossy say key thing remember saying me brought later shift dont remember outcome continuing shed start treating like shit constantly giving attitude outside work told reason couldnt determine difference outside relationship work relationship youd think shed able to im started get really sour us one point alert managers whats going bc quite frankly didnt know started amongst this talking one coworkers whatever talking about said word sex loud even made feel awkward another worker overheard reported sexual harassment within report worker said asked the worker said sex sex words rough sex included happen got reported it even spoke one worker talking to didnt even know report month ago idk reported suspicions week two ago another report files in made religious jokes worker got insulted im jewish id poke fun jewish nobody else jewish there know one else besides knew light piece shit menorah had piece shit id prior id asked nicer menorah since tree much nicer it menorah missing candle anyone else jewish theyd say something equality theyre catholic whatever idk jewish joke could trigger someone else isnt jewish report mentioned invaded personal space idk is girl reported me whats really well known anyone knows dont touch people dont like touched care who hate touched theres need touch me others theres need touch excluding romantic thing job never touched anyone anything maybe accidentally side swiped im carrying stuff thats worth reporting unless youre get me third report would end getting fired literally night post made cohost use bathroom shift ended said chill manager shes gonna take shit ill head out found funny he manager didnt harmless statement would alert general manager gm it got shift today say live m away clock in gm needed speak me immediately feeling gonna fire me still wasnt happy told said last night wasnt appropriate but kitchen even last night male server spilled ranch female servers pants said jerking something say shit like without getting reported told that said knows everything happens brings attention didnt respond surely dont believe that asked fired said yes hes letting go right now m drive stay m fire me asshole immediate thought process girl wanted work with along best friend works there behind whole thing working get fired excluding third report cuz know that first reports false reports likely due them ive bad anxiety lately due whole shit ive cutting even managed gain stutter due anxiety im fired im sure else do know part time job get another really enjoyed excluding unnecessary drama ive expressed coworkers unhappy whats going mind happened im really sure im gonna next dont want return cashier miserable tldr met nice girl became really close friends invited work friends didnt like working couldnt determine difference work nonwork relationship highly likely she along friends made false reports get fired idk do,1 +end junediagnosed anxiety depression wrote before kind separate question now so know people situation one kind do good relationship mom dad mom alright cousins best circle old friends acquaintances feel like family heres issue feel like burden death less burden alive get death remember good times feel like financial burden parents feel like nonlife threatening chronic health issues burden me im starting feel like burden friends too confide people thoughts im starting wonder friends would remember me hope so fucked faked feeling better one would worry feel like cant tell people true intentions im planning enduring late june friend mine year serious exam want kill exam done lease set renew june st want end life like days eviction want leave debts feel like burden talk trusted people feeling like burden im sure here approach cousins friends this feel lost right now,1 +well portrayal lesbian love story fire also comic satire middleclass indian culture find quality little appreciated movie two genres ie deep meaningful alternativelove story comic satire usually mix together well oil water do mehta somehow manages achieve balance near perfection servant jatins behaviour familys treatment him bedridden grandmothers constant inescapable presence ashoks obsession swamis teachings coming culture much like indias things immediately identify typical crying pointed ridiculed developing primary subject matter mehta manages achieve secondary theme skillfully fact much humour film provides essential relief heavy subjects taboo lesbian love gender issues stem satire seemingly ordinary film flows comic serious great subteltybr br all all brilliant use symbolic devices radha compared sita legend coming fire unscathed and therefore pure lifelong desire young radha see ocean finally achieved gains freedom kudos shabana azmiradha lighting crew deepa mehta unhollywoodlike and unbollywoodlike talents made movie special one criticism first scenes seemed rather disjointed flow wellbr br the verdict nothing less movie scenes burned mind,0 +goodbye reddit okay ya honest reddit mostly brought major suffering minor fun times cancel out reddit lost social life joined community leave well known bad person gained girlfriend get dumped her may errors course feel like started reddit perhaps real life gone way yeah im leaving account maybe ill make new lurking account really want day,0 +feel aloneeveryday try keep busy possible try distract crushing overwhelming loneliness feel time problem insomniac always part day everyone fast asleep left completely alone nothing distract myself really cant fall asleep pass time dont know do every single night get overwhelming urge end all kill done it mean kind life worth living feel depressed every night one help me,1 +flyingkittys video still up im going take oppurtunity also rant it dont know flyingkitty made funny rick astley parody give up youtube alledgedly took video down still up people keep saying taken down good news video still up added completely unnessecary age restriction disabled sharing able snag link still watch original thing httpsyoutubepayvwjpikghttpsyoutubepayvwjpikg rantyoutube why try taking down enable age restriction disable sharing manually scavenge link shame dont approve stuff approve graphic stuff leave creators alonethe platforms going die keep act up all,0 +friend amazing poet today english class write poem scratch friend unfathomable reason decided writing poem kfc chicken strip inside girl obviously would good idea went detail greasy juice filling up ended read class insanely lucky get away friday detention,0 +nearing end guessiv finally pushed last person away me feel like it hate myself disappoint everyone dont want life anymore work shitty minimum wage job im fat ugly untalented feel like burden family im socially awkward hard make friends overall im alone nobody would miss me thing thats probably stopping know it want long quick sweet point also could never bring it im burden world better without me,1 +life led tomy life started june th name gavin ignore reddit name joke please ban commit note notes ready life always bad lived grandma horder everything used sleep close never able shower use restroom cook untill certain point life thought normal so gonna fast forward march time went church day like every sunday little know would different rest dramaplat class church acted old bible storys new twist kind modern old school time grandmawho call mimi call mimi rest storyrushes says get shoes crying visibly scared upset get car go back aunts house little cousin aunt says dad rush branson missouri see shot girl friendnot mom cleaning gun forgot unload standing killed instantly proceeded shot times another guy room speak irrelevant pronounced dead latter hospital pulled plug mom left new born killed self unrelated dads death without knowing killed assume forgot mention dad died also raped beaten want google dad put branson missouri murder redflag tulsa couple google search struggled depression years therapy stoped helping stoped going help anymore point turned therapist helped began notice things wrong therapists life stuff like stoped tried several times kill reached high peak depression low point life grandma verbal abuse hurts im meaning less wants im getting kicked soon well im good school lost motivation everything recently gave lost girl cared ex girl friend die lied threw teeth ruined new girl friend best friend since dad died plan wanted know one threw similar stuff also spelling grammar bad year old ever im also boy helps feel free ask questions threw lot said well key points sad shit always happens life id assume little things go wrong thanks time,1 +shave hair off im kinda tempted buzz hair rn im tired it yall think full send buzz no cause im pretty sure itll look horrible also never done idek,0 +fay grim is face tale espionage intrigue told nod wink sequel extraordinary henry fool hal hartley creates surprising blend film noir hardboiled spy thriller starts knowing smile large dose laughter turns poignant warm film ive seen yearbr br parkey posey fay grim unwitting mata hari caught love exiled husband henry fool questionable intentions charming cia operative agent fulbright jeff goldblum master wit sarcasm role seems tailored talents never better james urbaniak fays brother simon jailed renowned wildly popular books poetry love work sister brings jolt passion contrast dour nature spies eventually populate fays world liam aiken fays oversexed yearold son although may redundant aikens understated style remarkably old soul someone agebr br the entire film shot dutch angle offkilter style made famous orson welles used primarily horror films psychological thrillers impart sense foreboding fay grim using style opening credits closing intriguing first deceptively clever next viewer begins fall perfectly timed comedic elements wit hartleys brilliant script something happens film takes dark yet strangely comforting turn characters magically become sympathetic eyes began dark comedy morphs romantic drama transition masterful slow pacing gives way breathtaking action sucked right vortexbr br in end hartleys sharp dialog combined amazing performances perfectly matched ensemble cast makes delicious cinematic cocktail told luxury one able write produce direct edit even compose music hal hartley crafted smart sexy tale espionage tongue barely planted cheek fay grim one part dashiell hammett one part raymond chandler one part ian fleming shaken maybe stirred well,0 +ive app years ive app years sister reddit less months already beating comes karma im either lurking trash karma whore bullshit really salty jealous draw,0 +im fat trans cant pass need dieonly skinny attractive cisgender people get lives thats clear now matter cant lose weight cant make pretty attractive look like ugly man moobs whos starting look archery old im mid s wrinkles shit setting in im never going able attract partner im always going suffer bigotry discrimination hatred im never going even get rid dysphoria cant pass dont female body even paid couldnt sex dont vagina even pass id never able sex children im sick bullshit dont get happy live cis people get that whats point living torture,1 +hello fiance f mental health struggles long time last night decided write suicide note almost popped pills ibuprofen ready online therapy good little bit help all really tell therapist needed to tried find new therapist area none available obviously want see psychiatrist get prescribed treatment plans allow sessions unless see therapist first online one count honestly want able help way can know cannot much besides her would love advice tips help her could help herself like listing positive things day something like that thank help tldr need advice help fiance depression need advice depression help fiancee,1 +sex cool all would never able redeem eyes holy father stay pure shall punished sins,0 +learned good friend tried commit redflag need advicehey all first off thank wonderful people take time busy lives help people struggling people friends struggle highly appreciated nevertheless days ago learned good friend mine tried commit redflag called ambulance pass away came shock hes really great happy funny guy guess statement you never know whats hiding behind someones smile greatly accurate told me good discussion ensured could always talk me listened describe situation essentially letting get things shoulder ampxb even though alive well something causes great concern seems fine it hes open tells people consider great friends someone asks tells them hold back also eerily comedic it cracks jokes it lot however use humor cover up sit serious conversation him opens up ampxb anyone opinions means ampxb edit forgot mention accepted seeing mental health professional,1 +resource cheat sheet books go bokorg imperial library deep web games go igggamescom movies reddit good place although often search name movie google drive end usually bring one up school brainly mathway quizlet best friends come future knowledge educational purposes ,0 +so full sent wants friends,0 +nowi want over hate living hate breathing hate alive dude wanna take gun head get run car im alone one going see boyfriend three months doesnt want see leave days want kill myself want over want die,1 +im updating eso taking everrrrrrrr,0 +could hang using long sleeved shirtim thinking tying ends arms together letting weight body reinforce knot weight lot doubt itd rip,1 +am decompressionnot friends disgustingly lonely family worried think makes look bad one live with afraid dying fucking hope something changes sooni tried fkin hard,1 +anyone wanna friends anyone wanna friends im m like tech cats,0 +update today went hospital terrible migraine extremely depressedi think body preparing itself cant sleep leg numb stomach churning burning want cry hands cold sweating mouth dry headaches back too ive taken migraine pils lortab today got sleep stop thisi know im going finish nighti know going on ive never felt fall apart completely nowfor wishing death find someway get help youre beginning stages depression talk somebody something hell holding potential become amazing people future please get help hate knowing one laying bed right now feeling body let go nobody feel way nobody ever im begging you take life seriously find helper get somebody help late pleasejust talk somebody stranger friend somebodyplease know rredflagwatch sole reason dead right now reading stories trying help many can kept going reason one pathetic life here beautiful minds themost radiant should grow delusional realize beautiful world bad want leave beautiful world thank listening last thoughtsi pray whatever god ill wake soonin warm bednext realize dreamif live last hours night im going get help edit survivedunfortunatelyim making plan try birthday next month,1 +want pinch guys nipples would gay hot asf,0 +im getting it mind raced time never knew capable one day took shard glass wrist release blood pounding head helped escape began cut week twice became intense took apart razor hands could much blood possible release anymore became routine instead cutting twice week became twice day creative carved words help me wrist large proud drew initials boy bone cut could see muscle blood felt high pain began think ways out could see redflag felt like left me drew plans first thought painlessly began think going bang considered hanging shooting myself end took bottle pain pills feeling numbness throughout body go toxic shock probably relaxing thing world began sink onto floor time heard someone open door ended getting stomach pumped stay hospital days realized plan failed cried sick went home still broken attempted again again again every time tried either failed stopped mother emotional wreck hated hurting her time believed gone worry anymore wrote redflag note get chance go plan knew would successful going jump story building next fathers work particular reason chose building figured itd painful anyways gave trying die im glad did too still cut get feeling blood running skin got help bestfriend understand put me helped tremendously still relapse every awhile control now thanks reading im getting it oh mention im ,1 +day posting lines bee movie every day get so experience pick job normal well well well met someone did beeish,0 +english first language sorry grammatical mistakes i currently turn year graduated university last year yet find job due unknown sickness happens whenever get emotional hot temperature body overheat causes immense unbearable psychological pain burning needle itching sensation idea get rid instant solution taking cold ice bath impossible outdoor rely water spray minimize pain keep body slightly cool sadly help much either since hard spray clothing public partly hot partly cold wet feelings make even worsethis kept kind activities even leaving room telling parents since years ago take seriously cared whether get degree not although force finding job graduated still proceeded ignore issue feelings according logic think overly redflaged needed time part true really needed medical advice treatment yet remains silent everytime bring up shift topic job seeking tolerable allowing me take year worse dad doctor mom former nurseand shut everyday hurts going outside yes know permanent solution cannot stay like forever even work like normal person itch suffer psychological pain every second fuck no even know wrong body name disease sort doctor seek for even funnier think get itchy pain drinking hot soup walking point useless piece junk stay bed rant internet seriously idea anymore even type nothing change noone help suffer unknown pain everyday last years want end everything now,1 +get friends tutorial first all yourself know sounds lame true never change friends people dont like also guide extro introverted people real advice here connect old friends if them probably least one old friend younger childhood years maybe years ago add instagram way like ask come over watch movie something like maybe play game connecting old friends maybe best thing ever done remember first time seeing old friend again kinda akward first minutes butt ended awesome even got introduced friend group awesome people play sports oppertunity join club school join soccer team it meet new people instantly even dont make new friends new social skills learned sports build muscles noticed boy girlscout social people tightest friendships also really easy make friends scouts joined one years ago really scared meeting group great since start also learn really usefull skills adventures make good stories download instagram snapchat know instagram bad reddit good instagram snapchat really help stay connected a instagram post cool pictures time time see pictures people hitting follow button literally takes effort could impact meet cool teenagers could ask ig stay connected chat dm interesting people ask hang worked me b snapchat streaks react snaps stories liked start conversations ask asked naturally hang sometimes online gaming people know real life gamer another gamer school somebody know could play online games become friends hard get minecraft server call another gamer play with like could ask even sleepover see real life play favorite games whole night eat chips ask open whatsapp send whatsapp someone know hangout today worst say no dont smell bad brush teeth dress like take care yourself yourself started highschool tried act cool become friends popular guys self reflection realised didnt even like well pm questions,0 +wanna jump windowmy mother treating like worst kid one time completely open times open her times watch little sister buy things mom seem gone cant this real want die cause till now mom one me this know do nothing left me keeps up fair talking open mad like did night might last life,1 +friend born january tomorrow makes scared fuck born early scares friends legal adults soon even scary im around age legal adults always saw way older tbh soon friends adults too,0 +dm know drill bored lonely im dude curious,0 +despite different directors fantasy hangs together remarkably wellbr br it filmed england nowhere near morocco studios beaches outbreak war everything moved america scenes filmed grand canyonbr br notable one corniest lyrics song i want bandit cant understand it remains favourite many people,0 +redflag logicali told dad feeling tells get thats life hes trying way though anyone thought redflag logical way out example dont want husband dont want kids dont friends family like fucked up degree useless im currently unemployed ive felt empty entire life sometimes wonder addition mental disorders also psychopathic tendencies kill myself ive known brief moments happiness wont come again ive incredible experiences ive known few moments true friendship love now doubt makes sense head except disappointing dad worth staying alive him really cant see dont want future myself ahead life pain indifference,1 +get cuties trailer dislikes youtube rewind mean idea deserves,0 +planning life freakin stressful anxiety day ig barely realized im actually live get job stuff,0 +living life start shitty life suddenly blue universe decides hmm fuck kids life even more convert human literal piece shit months rubbed hands prepared strike almighty upon me bammmmmm bammmmmmm comes pandemic get fucking fucked bitch chances recovering life gone ah fuck beats beats like dog getting whipped owner life punches kicks abuses cant even crawl fucking throws thunder nature top me reducing piece shit absolutely nothing haha get fucked kid life pretty much worthless now guess took months years life planet plummet abyss like bunch dominos,0 +goodbye postthis post blend rest dont expect anyone see it im simply posting get word one left world listen nothing world alone always alone life meaningless ill pulling trigger soon put something give closure,1 +best friend said paragraph attractive hey would really benefit completely understand whats happening know youre super medical side it think best thing time least get evaluation see professionals think best me dont feel like helping much need got evaluated could get diagnosis would definitely narrow help treating exactly needs treated,0 +hey allim exactly sure im going write want someone hear im thinking friends could ask feel uncomfortable talking emotions perhaps knowing makes easier ive created account reddit post actually never used reddit account now different note heres want read days feel passion enthusiasm guilt excitement anything really cant say why idea nothing really traumatic happened me friends family partner im currently attending college future ahead me speak really matter me care put mask people around me easier believe fine except reality not think many things days go by these sporadically get thoughts killing people around me pass people streets believe superior others thoughts want something done properly might well myself know think way know everyone moral value myself part stands though block out anything without feeling guilt sometimes cause others pain intentionally unintentionally though try anything draw negative attention stop smiling im happy it this everything else emotional response me enjoy gifts material objects attention anything else make feel anything go day feeling blank going b completing tasks takes serious effort bare minimum tires work assuming bored high hell aware redflag watch im going get part now enjoy thought redflag self harm entertain thought frequently took kitchen knife chest considered piercing chest presumably noone would found dead blood loss family home recall reason resisted temptation simply wasnt time yet accompanied feeling apathy everything stated entirely think daytoday basis im honestly sure expect say anything creating helped sort thoughts im going sleep now anything say however feel free comment ill answer see it thank reading this,1 +think democrat republican civil war let explain yesterday time posting yesterday huge group trump supporters broke capitol building wrecked inside it course easily able get capitol building protesting everything protester one makes wonder civil war think trump win election democrats would thing,0 + job depressed high anxiety way life maybe ill better luck next lifehi im ive severely depressed life severe panic attacks occurring almost weekly ive tried medication fluoxetine sertraline wellbutrin adderall luck im constantly tired everything monotone get panic attack wouldve ended everything much sooner redflag would devastate parents wish happy,1 +world favor hurts holds down one fights make right pick pieces happened me point keeps putting down second get again point,1 +theres nothing else do ill likely dead augusti cant move dads disgusting home cant afford school anymore cant even get fast food job one wants hire me cant anything fuck everything hate hate society im fucking loser,1 +bad weird ask girlfriend cup something girls girls ask want know would care would tell them cause conversation would like know ur opinions,0 +freely one scene another one story another like walking shadowy path open place like wind leaves tree another many different sounds like traveling people meet tell stories part forever knows like walking places full lost expectations another time human thickness world takes breath awaybr br i saw movie friends mine liked it maybe used scenariobased readymade stories know movie silly ones love looking sun sparkling sea walking without hurry hills little villages listening growing grass tells stories underneath six feet under warm wind summer,0 +give reasons stayanything besides parents love people sad purpose offense annoying want stay im tempted it,1 +need advice got new online friend grouppretty normal theres girl subtly hinting things towards me think likes me subtly called hot literally said would kiss me im genuine confused likes friendly jokes need advice,0 +dont really knowi think posted couple times im exhausted sad numb cant concentrate anything lose focus time cant basic tasks feel like im losing myself like im trying hard hold cant get back up theres even particular reason unis super great great friends im difficulty whatsoever feels like sadness really really deep eating me tonight drank lot reason numb numbness never ever fact scared me know talk want get better,1 +want rude someone mom got home already know theres gonna yelling match hope win ,0 +inly year highschool already want end it best friends which girls btw multiple biyfriends since known one girlfriend ciuldt keep month without cheating worthless ass nobody cares anymore cannot even talk friends without getting baker acted stuck psych ward days whuch nothing honestly thinking getting gun downstairs ending rn just need way out cannot anymore,1 +redflag helpline messages annoyingredflag prevention messages fuxking annoying like sure id go emergency room call helpline planned redflag yes planned important gonna die could share person helpline,1 +bother staying aliveeveryone constantly mean reason always get lots girls would want live cant like that tried best years get anywhere think give up wish died infancy waste life life amazing me watch others good life,1 +day posting get girlfriend would totally invest microwave silent mode lmao,0 +fuck know girl like me thats all fuck know getting desperate,0 +huey lewis newsfuck everythingnothing mattershey dreadwolf coming live new york city nice cool summer night partly cloudy beautiful summer night making love almost pm ill coming live night long play best hits back day phone lines open ready answer calls knows may even appear live air next got huey lewis news slow hit if it taking first guest night first word sponsors are suffering erectile dysfunction,1 +moonstruck one best films ever film dvd movie deals new york widow cher falls love boyfriends danny aiello angry brother nicholas cage works bakery im glad cher oscar movie nicholas cage danny aiello great too direction norman jewison who directed fiddler roof fantastic moonstruck excellent movie everyone see laugh mustseebr br stars,0 +past week playing furry visual novels havent attached ever since met wolfgang animal crossing discussion post want know bad sign not love wolfgang wolfgang isnt treating like before ,0 +ubisoft games weird games bad never broke mould anything innovative ubisoft games like movies genuinely good feel connection with,0 +potatoe famine want mashed potatoes im hungry,0 +think kill myself depressed mental i am much hate hurt inside i do even shit deal people point it live die opt out going happen anyway end even matter nobody know ever existed years dead might die tomorrow anyway wait give actual reason go this reach end everything wiped clean think kill myself,1 +know talk so hate world little lonely piece shit got friends friends talked like year one left call best friend one really understands me every time try go school friends always feel left out one girl really understood me started crush her fucking messed up previous school lot socalled friends found used me homeworks especially maths used share everyone found stopped sharing homework quarantine started one ever messaged even said hi way kept sane year learning programming expertised arduino python mum always says go out fucking one go out foreigner poland whenever went classmates would talk polish understand much fucking hate world also want friends want homeworks want go them maybe play sports play videogames together go movies,0 +im much cowardi put belt around neck around pole closet bring tighten it strangely felt peaceful right figured end things right now belt around got scared would hurt imagined horrific dead body would look it it cant almost sent goodbye text someone spoken months would even care doubt it im completely serious say that keep staring belt know real way out ive already reached peak over rest this pain failure delusion need get out wish courage,1 +got chance see movie early screening brea crazy ever since film based shakespeares twelfth night read loved seen stage times certainly liked references whether like shakespeare matter movie stands on super funny witty charming amanda bynes hilarious david cross actually whole cast great happen huge david cross fanatic cast hot soundtrack kicks lots cool bands heard know cd coming definitely buy it everyone audience laughed start finish age groups ,0 +down periscope library since first arrived vhs since then acquired dvd digital cinema nowbr br it quirky flick go militarily overboard either pro con first foremost comedy vehicle main characters quite surprised sequel never offeredbr br the movie gained following borders cult obsession even among young became aware visiting uss drum mobile alabama group cub scouts grandson among them taken roles movie planned relive overnighter boardbr br it fun romp makes proud navy hollywood rare companybr br thanks kelsey grammar lauren holly rob schneider making could otherwise unremarkable movie great entertainment,0 +sad hours usually ignore emotions people really getting me im also great expressing emotions situation know jokes digging way brain,0 +future someone like meive spending days nothing sit front computer look sites expecting something new lay bed bit look window theres nothing want anymore nothing brings happiness anymore feels like im going crazy spend hours like that mom would sad thought used stop me starting work anymore mom one let play kids move bunch times finding new jobs childhood fault ended messed up cant normal growing like that cant friends im alone hate everyone time fell love someone guy internet would talk hours obscure music mangaanime politics internet stuff everything else time actually happy someone much common shared almost interests cant feel irl person theyre nothing normie trash me ive tried friends before did enjoy moment still hate them isolate everyone cant find anything similar made happy back then taste perfection talking guy taste dreams coming true nothing else ever good enough yeah falling love guy huh im bisexual im basically gay interest women exist pretty small add top everything else im already obscure edgelord spends day room cant connect anyone im also gay theres chance me see real life annoying obnoxious gays im also digusted by desire part socalled community go on accuse internalized homophobia wrong care hate life it theres nothing me never born here enough years trash again nothing changes cant see way out cant anything reason live future someone like me,1 +love scared myself im forced go private christian university mom works there turns university ranked one worst universities lgbtq students state one worst america im scared im tired hide fit bibles standards,0 +give upi fucking givr eeup dpnt care anymore ive gtting wasted tking drugs rying del shit long dont care anymore im sick it cant fake anymore everyone know happy upbeat fucking positive hot popular me cant anymore cant fucking keep carrying on ive put new scars tonight cant keep it want end hold brother nqd mom cant keep im fucking tired happens time especailly im drunk want shove kinfe throat im done im fucking tired idont know anymore pleqse help,1 +vacation great real life trash thoi went vacation amazing one day back work want kill again reality mediocrity crashed back face see exit wake up trash job get pushed around feel like garbage posted nice picture wife trip truly happy cant tell her cant see frail piece shit man even me,1 +first time postingim even mad sad happy anymore feelbored filled dread thinking living full life nothing contribute anymore burned many bridges mental health struggles im sahm love kids cant help think issues hurt them seeing therapist psychiatrist started new meds dunno thought id reach out,1 +mmm controler feet toot potatoa kimchee sepsis tintin shit stain,0 +im lostit started months ago family moved lost friends pretty much irl social interactions would have school made worst im scared letting family down theyve done soo much thought letting kills me get universities missing credit feel like disappointment even school ended ive thought ending life wanna hurt ones leave behind lately gotten worse everyday feels like chore idk do ive problems eating sleeping lately resulted loosing pounds reason im posting vent one home confined keeping inside hurts,1 +the intruder lintrus visual pilgrimage mysterious life br br grizzled michel subor plays louis trebor like jason bourne old man hidden past living simply isolated hut woods justifiably paranoid reasons but attracting pretty young women useful him learn dreams flashbacks journey may unfold chronologically not well brusque interactions family lovers business associates striking nemesis like the limey film resonates parentchild regrets suspicious past revealed clips old film actor young man here paul ggauffs adventure film le refluxbr br in complete contrast moods meet son sidney grgoire colin sexiest house husband world sweetly seductively household repairs cares baby toddler every need working wife surely directorcowriter claire denis must created womans fantasy ever one lesson filmmakers filming foreplay theres additional extended scene seeks father woods carefully carrying angelic baby pouch everything father every relationship father incapable sustaining wonder thinks father a lunatic spent rest film dread something bad would happen true nature heart alienated father gradually played eyesbr br the film puzzle subor ruthlessly fascinating watch traverse countries negotiate nefarious deals voiceover narration deniss beau travail annoying anyway figure skylines incidental signage traveling geneva korea south pacific time passing indicated seasons changing scars created healing lots images water cleansing distancing br br continuing fascination morphing colonialism globalization well playing bit stereotypes mysterious orient russian criminals denis incorporated elements robert louis stevenson paul gauguin marlon brandos tahiti idylls page memoir french philosopher jeanluc nancy last title hearttransplant plot used ironic theme limited immortality consequencesbr br while louis thinks hes succeeded boundaries rules morals amusement last act locals quite know try help solve quixotic odyssey even lies isolationbr br several people audience left frustration elliptical strikingly beautiful story telling method unconventional narrative raise lot plot questions details,0 +gandhi father like viewing book chapter chapter read itwith eyes learn harilal gandhi matter kasturba gandhi little known movie describes uniquely title misleads though much movie mohandas karamchand gandhi son harilal mother akshaye khanna shefali chayya full justice respective rolesbr br such movies like leap years come much timebr br gandhi father also internal struggle sometimes difficult freedom struggle ever undertakenbr br watch it like quality cinema,0 +anybody lost appetite redflag attemptim still mentally recovering attempt almost week ago overdosed wasnt hospitalized got insanely drunk since appetite slim none recovered anorexia unlike username suggests normal,1 +guilti talk today therapist parents mother said stopped putting energy relationship im negative father thinks getting job fix problems because ill get physically tired feel lazy toxic like given me times talked gave basically guilt trips everyone tells committing redflag easy planning redflag takes much energy afraid fail really hate life right now,1 +realized girl liked stupid aaaaaaa girl class fucking liked stupid cunt thought teasing asshat aaaaaa,0 +non binanry zero binery plz dont transphobic ampxb filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +helpi really need someone right now im year old girl feel hopeless someone please,1 +addd snap think trump suck ball xth,0 +okay took pregnancy test came back negative thank god guy hard sometimes,0 +plans kill march ive struggling lot depressive selfdestructive thoughts years remember really mild sad episode genuine feelings emptiness wanting close eyes never wake this im extremely paranoid friends feel like hate force talk otherwise think ill hurt kill myself nothing feels genuine think anyone would ever want hang find nice friend mostly childhood friends treating way ive never made good experience genuine friend whos friend makes feel alone unwanted im scared everyone sees psychotic person need endure else theyd feel guilty redflag im scared opening past trauma barely trust anyone this want hang localgiant forest th birthday mainly want dad birthday kill myself love lot also sees psychotic rather normal person know past conversations way talks problems psychologist mom abused want talk felt like mention it nothing future seems good worth going pain im loss want hang myself ive crying since woke closest friends betrayed trust yesterday called police psychotic breakdown talking dying never said id try anything called want talk want feel responsible death thats think least selfish thinking that im heartbroken shook up none messaged since yesterday either feel like truly hate abandoned me feel like fault broke friendship lost one things still cheered day up know anymore im heartbroken wish die hope manage hang march ordered proper rope set good time window,1 +thought many timessince situation escalated november last year since thought redflag many times parents cried told them blame them keep thinking would happen gone mean imagine everyone funeral imagine everyone carrying life least last myself would end miserable life free torturing thoughts traumatic event life people find courage this,1 +cat gonemy sister decided get cat house fleas bugs cats body want get cat back treat myself no insults please,1 +fear death less less daysi used absolutely petrified dying scared unknown would cease exist recently fear slowly started fade away replaced increasing thought maybe ceasing exist would need feel like walk onto main road front house end it committed yet feel guilty leaving husband daughter im honestly hanging thread now sometimes wish least one thing life came somewhat easy me one dream right,1 +whos excited late school forgot mask home run back whos excited late school forgot mask home run back,0 +bi homies ayo kinda think im bi cant really put finger it yall figure,0 +want wake upi want go sleep never wake up hate life im married man years thats gone months year living dream job im home taking care everything keeping household running hate life im lonely know moneyjob leave tonight cheated husband making hate even more strength willpower go on son always strength go on know thats enoughhttpsenoughnow keep going strength determination,1 +think ill ever make my birthday month think could make far wanna kill myself,1 +hou ur aw ye daein e day howpe ye ur aw daein guid filler filler filler filler,0 +even know right place post completely overwhelmed husband committed inpatient today talking behavioral health know struggling idea would lead this stupid military hospital let civilian visitors right either know expect never side things anyone give info please husband involuntarily committed,1 +swear fucking god get fucking hiccups againfuck apple fuck anyone works there fuck hiccups fuck everything everyone thinks im fucking happy fuck everyone want fucking die eat shit fuck you think im fucking joking fuck too swear god im better dead,1 +met palm reader goes ah see ah yes see forest disaster occur shortly quite soon actually even see coming fucking spits hand,0 +reaching point needs endwhats up names san im bipolar ive fighting depression years started early parents divorce dad molested me shit kids dealing with currently work hours day job thats guaranteed make worse live shed property mom step dad thought maybe someone would like hear story maybe could help someone else im currently sitting bed thinking went wrong eaten days appetite even cant afford food anyway want phone girlfriend broke told hang myself mean person ever thought actually loved tells go hang yourself lets see life get here started working parents bothered me accident theyve never done anything show otherwise started street fighting earn extra cash feed get clothes not pay step dad rent spends money booze abusive alcoholic forced drop high school final year refused support me kicked unfortunately afford live pay schooling moved sister found complete narcissist bipolar thing mom ever gave us developed extreamly bad drug addiction killed me sister never found same kicked get along well boyfriend absolutely hated me moved real dad whos also alcoholic abusive round sack shit stayed bit till got drunk swung unfortunately abused left walked km friends house get phone mom see stay night get sleep says yes stay night discuss staying temporarily till get job get two feet got job everything going great place got promotion met girl dreams owner company sold new owner like me got rid me lost apartment lost everything came crashing down spiraled drugs alcoholism girlfriend broke me slept mt childhoods dog house nowhere else go became bartender thats country without matric that eventually molecular mixolagy fancy bar making pretty good cash went away owner bar closed bar left couple months later meet girl broke me pretty much whatever lead better life forces move mom bro stayed months first time years happy again like truely happy mom kicks us out move place stayed bit till afford live anymore begged mom let stay shed agreed long pay rent work survive till meet guy work now made sound like dream job want field choice programming salary great hey work hard ill get promotion withing months looking replace manager department im working in say cool easy job field love jump full force clock hours time week get paid for subtract huge amounts money salary due short time dont ever take work managers make hell people working them hate going work hate getting situation stuck place life escape everyone ive ever loved destroyed me everyone whos supposed love claims love hurt thrown dirt rot ive all constant bullying school molested ive ive survived this know guys going im sure strong enough get it try reaching someone unfortunately im strong enough tried reaching one would listen thank reading story people reddit,1 +need listen please believe im completely lonely please judge,0 +anywhere find information ways kill myselfi sincerely doubt place asking this might offhandedly find someone whos know help brother out access cant get access gun hanging seems like much suffering thinking guillotine probably way im going go it im wondering ways are quick effective lowest failure rate help appreciated,1 +parents divorced still court it left mother live dad lost control dragged everyone around down yesterday meet basically told lie judge father get lil sister back cps took months ago told owed betraying her screamed public made scenecame home absolutely wasted get screamed dad told get eyesin evening went friends drank like never before afterwards smoked blunt could stand more drug dealer call friends bar pick throwing up kept awake called dadonly thing remember saying friend this nice way diefather picked shouted friends helping me one said might threw car responded i going kick ass that speeding awaytoday woke up spoken word me looked pure disgust worst thing cannot even blame hating megod wish died yesterday reached absolute low last night,1 +think back hurts im stressed tryna go crazy ive noticed got whole lot shit short period time back starts hurting much,0 +crush post weird needed get chest bye,0 +maxmoefoes newt facts know newts lizards think,0 +please help science project might appropriate sub esp since im lurker around lowkey one communities real virtual dont judge lmao ampxb anyways anyone time fill surveys this onehttpsformsglewryrbmrgyqlmqwu summerliving warm weather this onehttpsformsglefxkhuyluwlcvyt wintercold weather please can,0 +aight imma head outanyone need something im gone,1 +saved fathers life least x recently found hes diabetic forced hospital help find sugar helping today try make sure little possible anymore yelled listening fitting instead calls dick head replied stubborn asshole thus squares starts pushing wanted fight would problem major surgery stomach basically held together tape room cannot calm meds looking like way hell told better never need help even health cut ties find floor it stubborn ass put situation mine sure want anymore one hand deal miserable father dropped high school years ago verge death hes trying push death,1 +hello lost virginity im never going tell put it sorry,0 +horse walks bar bartender says long face horse incapable understanding human language promptly shits floor leaves,0 +cute girl kinda friends like idk shes pretty popular asf friends thats better nothing find pretty want fucking rail asshole pass out anyways dont know say start forming emotional connection her need help,0 +hate body much makes want diem feel scrawny ive lifting awhile ive gained lot weight feel weak scrawny feel like everyone looks thinks dont look masculine attractive enough deserve die feel like guys muscular look think skinny much better me im anxious,1 +film came years years ago revelation even people knew something drag scene new york textbooks drag performance say nothing vogueing houses anthony slides great pretenders says nothing julian fleishers the drag queens new york illustrated field guide flow chart influence pulls together julian eltinge minette warhol queens s club scene postdates film ignores houses completely even laurence senelicks the changing room closest thing definitive book drag performance rushes quickly past film give background information one would expected itbr br i understand film itselfand various articles found web house system goes back decades major film performance house member prior seems chrystal la beija the queen historical context biggest missing part paris burningbr br the film valuable focuses scene otherwise ignored valuable snapshot life unfortunate fact venus xtravaganza murdered filming provides dramatic ending film transsexuals include reallife murder know dorian corey mummified corpse literal closet come three years laterbr br of historical importance still need someone either book documentary film provides context,0 +something one seems taking about one ever brings campc soundtracks talking video games always say doom doom maybe even doom,0 +great everything crashesanyone else feel like life would going great sudden depression hits like category hurricane want happy great year beginning month hate hate ruined horrible am havent diagnosed depression anything come family doesnt believe it tried overdosing one night ended mad it instead trying help mom threatened get psych ward ive heard horrible stories them dont know do suppose ill seek psychiatrist,1 +well headphones died guess ill go sleep goodnight everyone,0 +dont big tiddies least cosplay male characters small tiddies better big tiddies,0 +friend peed foot today would lying said didnt turn,0 +im going see i know sure now going plan redflag means escape constant torture failed ive given up even seems like therapist know help anymore theres nothing left ill dead within year,1 +free award guess favorite music genre u get award,0 +simple question cut hair cut hair,0 +hey question ever wonder would happen stabbed right now like would happen killed right now like would even care would go life,0 +little hobby finding really cool pics pretty much unknown and letting people know one top list getting word summer indie film and really mean indienot miramax fox searchlight indie might easy overlook big maze celluloid want something completely differentyou check one out br br basically thought totally great known dvd cover front back that going something totally different but say stuff different hook you well one really totally different face beautiful scary unashamed tell wake up war peace poetry even eerie sort music video set old time patriotic song weird guy rv need say more see it,0 +calling guitar players im bored havent talked anyone common interests awhile someone hmu,0 +hello ppl sorting new tell something new abt day interesting abt yourself,0 +want yall know year old high schooler actually got girlfriend important thing remember looking girl confident always yourself one withstand depression another girl years ago time give girlfriend boyfriend enjoy life whatever interests are,0 +best friends dad died yesterday dont know help best friend a lost dad yesterday siblings older younger kinda poor dad hospital ohio live new york family drive there younger brother r stay behind cause family left mom told would probably boring they idea dad would die rs last conversation dad phone didnt know would last convo him yesterday dads parents picked house grandparents drove home sat told horrible news money problems parents worked low paying jobs saw r today little brother m tried best avoid topic fun time them didnt cry could see eyes felt like sht dont know cause want help dont know how guys give advice help this,0 +god wish never knew discord shit put godawful messages would send damn cringy looks like angry fortnite kid owned account years look back acted back then guess thats reason discord ,0 +think know way cant bfgf think reason bc ill either crave attention text times day ill ghost two days,0 +dead insidetoo many bad things happening long without anyone knowing caring ampxb assaulted babysitter babysitter whole thing fucked brain twisted awful nightmare memory reason know real sister remembers seeing it growing up dad horrible rage problems used grab face hard fingers insides cheeks would bleed ran house frantic scared broke ankle spent one new years eve walking along road without coat proper shoes kicked rage lived car two week refused argument made angry threatened divorce mother leave then sometimes best friend sometimes favorite sometimes still best friend now sometimes hes asshole mother uses emotional crutch never really me sister fortunately brother great stay alive mostly best friend also great but getting hard theres many things highschool teacher highly inappropriate relationship also sexually assaulted twice high school violently youth church group one violently publicly school first college boyfriend horribly abusive emotionally physical trouble swallowing breathing sometimes permanently damaged hyoid lovers kept first relationship abused me fucking piece shit abuser them both two mutually destructive awful abusive pure usery oneone legitimately raped me still bear physical mental trauma rape second long term relationship emotionally abusive first constantly threatened violence stalked broke up everyone ive dated since user asshole one coerced sex one them again penetrated without permission use condom say no also froze full dissociated wouldve fine sex wouldve asked condom maybe asked vocal consent but literally top foot height easily lbs weight froze fucking gave hpv precancer im sick too fibromyalgia diagnosed one understands besides doctors even doctors dicks it prevailing theory currently mutation mitochondrial dna leaves mitochondria vulnerable oxidative stress cells cant process energy properly im tired time feels like ive pulled every muscle body top shooting nerve pain migraines stomach never hurting sleep im much pain body fucked cellular level theres nothing anyone it cant afford medicine hole emergency surgery cat have want die sleep long time wake someone else maybe something horrible past life life pure shit sometimes good sometimes love live life love nature love drawing love science love magic music art many things constantly hurt people destroyed people want love love amazing friend am would anything anyone people see weakness take advantage crush destroy tear pieces again little left now things myself try anyhow things comfort myself ive therapy many times cant right now so try love myself but hard feels like im person loves me one person life im sure loves unconditionally cannot burden them take everyone elses pain time really stay alive them even worse things happened them want one awful tragedy loss life but still theyre like sibling always wanted horribly lonely want need different kind love but every time ive triedive shredded over little left little left me really know much nothing completely rebuild myself wish could sleep thousand years,1 +enough time claw mental health problems k guys need advice dont know do ampxb lot mental health problems might know fixreduce impact them tldr find hobby ie something like brings joy would able better cope problems ampxb think might like writing scripts cuz tried got really inspired really happy like day want get habit so problem takes time dont time lot homework do ampxb im starting get point school everything becomes really important every test take influences final score influences university go in country called atar think comparable sat basically constantly homework do ampxb means cant devote time write scripts since im anything fix mental health im incapable spending time required get homework done ampxb cant ignore homework work fixing mental health cuz ill fail school would make parents angry would make mental health worse im sure ignore trying fix mental health longer cuz im afraid im going wake one day fed everything kill myself ampxb thing think gap year basically taking year away studies high school university im going stage make decision another years,1 +logically theres point living also keeping aliveif im well school unsure major minor whatever financial gains cannot access financial gain while lost sense identity deviant many ways flawed human family god real reason live followup question keeping alive,1 +living existingnot really sure im posting websites like ss go if know is im going explain case get banned here feel like ive site years seen people come go yet im stuck standing still ive ordered method choice online gets doubt ill use it always make plans head cant even go due exhaustion general unwilling make effort plus im living someone hes last person id want find state puts much shit already ive spent today bed got bed properly pm ate went back snooze pm awake wondering go back sleep know fault reaching connecting people time like energy would like hide bed rest existence,1 +hit mum today first time long time deserve it never ever deserved it hate way treated wish could go back fix everything destroyed people say things me provoke already feeling low causes fly handle emerge someone despise episodes often think ending life think guts to unless one day badly hurt someone anger guilt would consume me sometimes cut episodes seems fair much do mum lovely caring woman everyone life treats like shit including stuck cycle know change need help fucked life,1 +yes humour teacher called personal project pp started laughing lets say confused,0 +giant asshole pushed everybody lifei literally one talk blame made attempts life tired step everybody around feel like piece shit afterwards vicious cycle want tell anybody afraid call cops sitting letting boil helping everyone rad tech course hates me treat chick like shit one wants anything me ropes end feel pushing get last hump order it trying get hold thought process always whats point couple months tired fucking tired time trying stop buying six pack know need gain strength get with,1 +day writing something positive happened today played really fun rounds among us best friend,0 +try anime guys totally honest start watching anime since nothing time find it recommendations,0 +opened door girls dad girl smiled stop confusion happening im interested dad god damn,0 +btw im thinking killing dont flood redflag hotlines mkay would die accidentally touched metal part phone charger electrical outlet im putting in ik sound really fucking stupid answer question cause didnt set spawn point im hardcore mode,0 + tylenol pills kill youmy boyfriend tryed overdose idk is texted saying took hes responding need know hes asleep,1 +redflag sounds like jamto honest not f status symbol world almost need go back dark ages sort out money hungry society makes sick know big oak tree hill beautiful sunset man could hang peace im saint done wrong life guess young means need sweet knot tighten take life me posting f knows feels gd write guess,1 +yes that the how bob,0 +want kill myself im idiotseriously fuck work lot im surprised fired yet fuck everyday life fuck left right surely id world service offing myself right,1 +opera great film wonderfulimaginative imageryan opera singercristina marsillachis stalked killer forces watch murder everyone knows tying taping needles eyesthis idea needles comes fact argento like people cover eyes watching moviesfor years ive annoyed people covering eyes gorier moments filmsi film images want people see avoid notredflag confrontation fears looking awayso thought how would possible achieve force someone watch gruesome murder make sure cant avert eyesthe answer came core opera aboutsays 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thought commiting redflag always felt like wouldve gotten better now hasnt slowly gradually getting worse feel like birthday last ive fantasizing jumping bridge reminisce so part thinks itll never happen im scared to cant help feel like might happen tough much family around loathe family thought growing up always felt like family everything got older parents got divorced shattered perspective family never close begin anyways certainly close now know anymore feel lonely helpless needed vent,1 +almost died hiking i else post going here youth group went hiking trip today leaders let us split groups group went creek saw hill back trail pretty tired plus getting near time leave started hill got maybe ft top big hill like easily ft get close top got stuck grab anything roots trees rock bunch little like inch ledges it used rock way got end rock started using hands feet dig loose dirt got two feet middle hill started slip nothing grab dig fingers hard could eventually slid little rock mostly ground able get footing rock start back hill man like panic attacks slide rock know put story figured would best,0 +whyi know anymore absolute thing find fulfillment job thing feel somewhat competent doing look forward going home work dread days know ill completely alone going back like clockwork day day fucking thing point living life like this im lost,1 +swallowed lot medication do regret ooooh regret it going kill already tell cant tell dad redflag attempt year pissed puke up fast acting medication minutes tremors cant speak like last time im extremely emotional cry like hours straight cant cant last chance residential isnt good,1 +pointi nothing live for im terrible person blame problems people around point retarded is get mad hate sister cause happy me hate parents try help me hate im aware shitty person am im going anywhere life graduate even know graduate nothing still bother,1 +trying find certain music style help me im looking slow sort synth something dark makes feel like im standing cold wet city far future recommendations songs even genre thanks help,0 +british documentary recently shown comedy central best of week also seen south parks second season dvd remember seeing many commercials dvd showing clips documentary occurs matt stone trey parker guy hot tub funny saw commercials used seeing time saw actual documentarybr br overall goin south park fairly funny interesting look south park episodes made series history going back matt trey came idea college however something tone documentary actually felt sort depressing fastpaced rapidfire lively actual south park episodes instead kind slow drywit style times funny time waiting something happen get chance watch it means go it think really missing much never see itbr br my imdb rating ,0 +cant want everydayi think everyday multiple full proof methods painless quick preferences also decent career twin month old babies loyal wife also excellent mother anyway im constantly feeling thoughts drink much forget take prescriptions stave hangovers sounds stupid cliche even ive stopped meds stopped drinking overwhelming apathy envelops usual see affecting relationships feel tired anything im selfish narcissistic core sense self preservation overshadows semblance ethics greater good yet crave praise peers urge please others liked anything low self esteem sprinkle hope future much claim want better kids know things end wont know difference it somewhat relief wont know difference wont blip memory want father killed cant wife cant leave her still keep thinking it thoughts gotten stronger ive taken responsibility life feels though im caught rock hard place may short term thinker seems muster make day endure next want distant father barely acknowledges kids dont want workaholic sacrifices wellbeing financial gain stability im deep career age student debt viable option explore potential paths want get past sense self hatred go back easier livelihoodi look back teens early twenties minimal responsibility reminisce yearn it know still felt way theres relief ive fucked personal brain chemistry via meds alcohol im person years ago maybe aging situation habits vices gotten worse since contributed unhealthy self destructive lifestyle cant seem care anything comes ill make decisions specifically work me im unhappy cant leave wife kids long run know fine would stupid selfish put difficult situation due personal issues far solution sacrifice well ensure nullify bad feelings meds alcohol wish could make shit feelings go away atleast produce better enjoyable feelings take hold long run,1 +problems facing everyday objects eg glasses fog wear mask,0 +often happens great directors last movie becomes moving brillantly performed filmed masterpiece cast excellent well camerawork starts merry comingtogether group welleducated citizens earlythcentury dublin turns dark philosophic narration fear death sometimes dark shadows past thank you mister huston last piece great cinema,0 + mg xanax thinking taking all know im even postingits much hurts everyday sleep peace want forever guess need talk slipping away job lost figure salary insurance family except wife pets theyre reason done sooner friends nothing,1 +first timedunno wanti felt empty since long time since then cant keep job woman left left fiance cant tell much went school sucks done maths like planned pli sci stupid geuss wanted change world cuz military wrong im teller bank maths one cares oh also medical bills lol got genetic heart disease years ago could kill anytime yay,1 +see it smart movie hard understand first time see once everything seen heard screen intentionally crafted evoke feeling sensation tone clarity certain visuals crispness certain sounds deliberately contrasted blurred images pops crackles hisses barely audible sounds structure nonlinear cyclical motifs recur time runs clockwise counterclockwise expectations regarding plot character broken signaling nontraditional use film tell story contemporary old humanity part review usa movie emotionally intense intellectually intriguing profoundly disturbing surprising unconventional ways dion dennis phd,0 +dont feel like anythingi feel like im going cast aside forgotten im already people dont want deal get it im annoying mistake still hurts one person could make things better wont even try makes really sad thought meant enough that everyone know tell things leave alone expect able im lowest hate way dont know born way want put bullet head stop constant agony,1 +parent help hey guys teen suffering adhd wondering comfront parents it dont believe exists got medically tested back since then parents refuse give medication tell real problem starting make feel like garbage pile help appreciated,0 +kids group started playing among us teacher sent us breakout rooms low key said wants play among us playing like bruh live classes,0 +convince parents let transfer seriously hateeeee school im right constantly get talked shit about lost almost friends want fresh start im incoming sophomore parents keep saying switching schools like running away problems anyone experience transferring schools do,0 +seen bollywood flicks salman khan them say favorite recent ones songs quite fun especially o priya priya seems nice mix beatles indian music dare say this bit prince love stories bit believable than say chal mere bhai occasional focus prems use alcohol times troubling really seem make sense me played well khanalthough voice become squeaky hes portraying drunkenness,0 +anyone else already hating school year third day senior year ive cried day mutiple times haha idk im already stressed classes even many aps teachers already warned difficult know able keep up band one class used actually enjoy year absolutely loath it get frustrated practice theyre making us perform region music super difficult class everday shaking hard earlier playing m music got bumped top band year im able keep it put new instrument even still able play better this yet cant hate classes smh im also super stressed college cause idea hell im supposed this one talk except sister feel bad always dumping problems much help im extremely stressed right now hating life myself kinda want die lol want sit bed day school work were still online school another like weeks cant imagine much worse ill feel addition see interact people deal teachers facetoface sigh anyone else feeling way hope not idk im wondering overreacting people feel way too ig kind rant ive flaired such sorry one cares im really tired sad ill probably delete post soon anyways,0 +spent past weeks meet friends family members would still talk me since thought would nice see one last timei fucked everything could life got degree field unable properly work longer see point it become useless piece shit unable get bed morningi unconciously sabotaged notredflag ended hurting exes feel extremely lonely also drink excessively almost social occasion way stand people around me friends metaphorically drifting away me is course good them since never really good friend also easier finally leave worldi longer find joy anything used lots hobbies considered extremely talented kid dozens great opportunities great plans wanted see world happy good end failed basically everything could want leave fucking mess cannot take more,1 +elsewho else drinkssmokes cope depressionredflag,1 +thank one year reddit want say thank amazing year reddit,0 +omg united states make bald eagle national dinosaur bald eagle coolest dinosaur anyway,0 +waiting find perfect methodi year old loser looking right way go out school two years yet complete semester depression symptoms always get better find struggling get bed unable go class work ive almost failed threee times im hopelessly love girl love back social anxiety makes practically impossible talk anybody else ive tinder two straight months matches absolutely nothing could considered attractive opposite sex im fat hairy short acne bad teeth small penis selfconfidence reasons never much held hands girl nobody would even fathom concept might like me major symptom anxiety often unable come something say general conversation left constant state awkward silences feel though friends starting get tired it family life shit nobody family talks left intermediary dozen different groups become overwhelming ive found shutting different family members top off able get job two years interviews go conversations awkward silence nervousness it success school love life social skills family life marketability jobs perfect equation total loser future searching perfect method redflag relatively painless mainly clean quick want stop blight humanity let successful people around get lives without dragging down need end,1 +wanting kill guyi want it im tired everything everything seems pointless hopeless,1 +need serious help soonim giving treatment everyone says hope help eventually person runs options feel different started tell person really wants help havent im sure inability causes suffer suffering higher importance theirs causing suffering getting relieved fair im going slowly withdraw world clearly help medical field ive two psychiatrists therapists ive appointments current psychiatrist different meds id say meds wanna run risk sounding like im exaggerating feelings cant defined explained therefore cant helped able put words im feeling anyone know people around feel like people around take pills day still feel incredibly hopeless take xanax lorazepam drink almost every night spend per week weeddabs know rare cant helped ive seen top doctors area excruciatingly guiltproducing since know much parents worry much spend afford fine feel like monetary equivalent specialneeds kid im live home commuting great college apply medical leave absence freshman year reasons suicidal time reached breaking point let know expand anything read above also please let know breaking rules kind wrote frenzy desperation try post throwaway similar last serious posts account got response maybe long people read input helps next move mostly stay bed bath im still open try couple things call quits,1 +idk put say wanna look like timothee chalamet dress zendaya suit cant choose fuck,0 +best friend told everyone knows lie including me hes also rambling redflag doim really concerned revealed depressed year idea seem clear grip reality right says plays part everyone knows make like guy us really is asked further concretely back actually washe kept repeating worthless often dreamt redflag top that started rambling things would much better committed redflag constant state misery fakery im hard time responding without freaking wanting call cops sending place add college lives campus car reach with admitted drunk maybe two hours ago know hes still drunk say do were talking facebook hes said choice things if one would upset death id already b edeadwell maybe ship sailed my whole life lies ypu care hurting myself real doesnt care want harmed anything still worth world me could die tomorrow would happier,1 +feel like im living expected me want toive felt like life much struggle keep living past years ive suicidal thoughts since around years old come go every time come always seems get worse also around time started cutting arms year ago would said i think it never make plans wont ever go it time went started looking prices shotguns efficient way killing things like that diagnosed depression around sophmore year high school since barely graduated high school graduated tech school got job along way kept telling youll feel better eventually never have times im thinking redflag capacity im mentally physically exhausted work im talking friend something feel like im autopilot day days weeks fly hardly remember happened yesterday could routine ive gotten cuz work exact thing happenes high school difference cant sleep work like school else lose job suicidal thoughts gone occasional weekly daily every single inconvenience life makes wish didnt exist could die accident didnt keep living started smoking half year ago sort anxious episode trade school havent stopped despite couple attempts went cigarettes day helps calm little bit works thousands times better medication ive prescribed gives disturbing comfort knowing life shortened even little bit everything feels empty good things happen happiness never sticks dont want keep living feel like to else ill fail everyone around even more,1 +spoiler people readingplan read giver by lois lowry havent gotten ceremony twelve every time book says pills jonas takes always imagine someone saying take horny pills go fun think say,0 +okay make pets vegan as long herbivore dont wtf forcing carnivores vegan tho,0 +mom im trying appease opposite sex no whenever want wear smaller cut bathing suit isnt attract teenage boys no whenever put makeup im trying impress someone no friend opposite sex doesnt mean want date him dont know guys moms eyes everything im impress boys even though ive never shown slightest attraction around little know im actually bi realize dress look best myself others definitely men,0 +long please read please mwell back realized friends really friends talk outside school usually respond messages blow obviously fake excuses chores practice etc times now ya really bad timing bad timing math busy time better chance winning lottery twice row busy many times course id never say face since busy less time id say odds actually one also interestingly enough happens really big fucking number point felt friends all point crying bed day wanting literally die worst thing reason would happen ive told im nice cute hot smart funny im tall muscular money third time actually left house cute girl came asked number gave although im interested swear god real important one person actually reading accurate information impressed whatever may think think would happen id rather situation loser speech impediment social anxiety unnatractive abusive friends months ago knowing still make real friends hurt everytime somebody would ignore snapchat never respond text like shot stomach actually considering doing one thing keeping killing one friends person would conversation me three weeks ago even invited hang her yet due reasons mention ever want found people know im glad her know like never friend actually cared you meet someone like her imagine waking paralyzed surgery want doctors notice awake see twitch eye trying get attention every time look eyes think theyre going notice sure time get hopes nothing always sometimes stare strangely like somethings wrong always shrug off plus pain surgery sudden hours literally tortured one doctor decides apparent reason increase anaesthetics anyways thanks two three people actually read this im putting thankyou middle see it do please comment letter q italics along whatever else would comment like doctor know keeping kept from also one ever help anyways wanted talk that still want die since everything life actually care horrible kill now probably feel like friendship starting end since want make feel responsible afterwards got boyfriend means cant hang guys really even talk them text back two days want die feel like nobody really talk to nobody wants listen even though know irl still nice know least one person listening want things turn around know theyre happening spent years life forcing change getting past social anxiety everything else people would treat differently actually want around me idea wrong me cant change it cant fix it hell id rather kill go longer cant get it everything else going life except this money looks brains etc id rather none things meant people cared ability fun also based people ive tried everything videogames netflix sports going places matter im constantly bored end going reddit day play games distract myself even get bored get bored feel worse like staring white wall day every day someone talks great cant even come analogy it unfortunately never happens people ignore texts take days text back ignore snapchats constantly blow never invite anything like getting kicked gut nobody wish courage end life depending things go week im going it least try force to bottle aspirin shoot myself feels horrible type im done though nobody nobody,1 +film expected little from watched pass quiet hour hour turned be roll excellent nonetooserious little story countryboylostinthebigcitymakesgood funny throughout characters endearing pace rightbr br toby malone true star film endearing portrayal matt said country boy local aussie rules football hero come big city try one big teams supported superbly john batchelor local gangster tiny watch twobr br highly recommended,0 +write notei know causing pain leave behind want go want protect them say want blame themselves say like like anymore say know good want die say anything personal notes one big note guess time plan kill next year even tho id like right now want ruin plans made,1 +im gonna get body pillow make life every night hyyyuuuhhhhhhh,0 +heyhow everyone feeling tonight im downs moment curious everyone else feeling,1 +heres cool story stepped nail whatever english ever since ive tip inside foot everytime take step stings,0 +hate male jk hate human,0 +happiness fragilei well weeks feel hopeless even got motivation back school thought things turning around fail important test grade fucked jokes getting hopes __ im back spiral know get shit together now want pass classes see point im probably gonna fail anyways,1 +often driving wish someone would run red light hit deal life anymore always disappointed pass intersection unscathed wish someone would crash,1 +struggle constantly laughsmile every months seconds sounds right life even once,1 +hard convince people death million times better living trans person closeted notim desperate hopeless im pissed spend another day cursed planet cursed body people would feel sad like god damn it could nice easy could peace no wait natural death fault everyone satisfied probably ask increase antidepressants feel less emotional situation make anything better,1 +best way escape horny jail im putting text post doesnt get removed,0 +many times asked give instructions make peanut butter jelly feels like silliest thing rant about seemingly pointless activity at least first time keeps assigned me ive done twice middle school probably least elementary school im onto second time high school im getting pretty tired it id find hard believe havent done yet thoughts,0 +deserve live want live nothing contributes anything good hurt everyone around me nobody likes me every second alive absolute torture alive alive,1 +help plz say figure crush likes someone else wanna heartbroken it sometimes mentions one friends texting like spent whole lesson talking break heart please even joking want people confirm dont chance girl,0 +prefer salty sweet snack basically title explains it,0 +subs discord actually good worth joining,0 +thank goodbyedear redflag watch and people here thank me me letting rant crap people helpful support kept long guess goodbye works great not try stop succeed hopefully ill dead summer care anymore getting better want try ive tried three years nothing got better im sorry family friends putting all ive lied way hospital talked therapists not helped support money energy ive taken everyone im sorry making people read this please know im sorry thank you goodbye goldengatebridge,1 +me perseverance landing them am mars time pre nut clarity,0 +im lucky fk searching girlfriend almost years im university and yes found girl liked me like interests problems etc yes seems created other but one liiiitle problem boyfriend jeez found ideal girl next day said damn bf im really lucky person ps fuck,0 +cannot jump bridge maybe hanging callingi cannot get ex mind want become stalker want get trouble again want pain suffer others,1 +girls dont want boyfriends girls want food,0 +bruh finding job hard moved oh nc literally jobs here like back home many connections went indeed days got jobs here connections indeed months literally got one job job cant pay anything like got bills bruh im looking trades stuff go into theres nobody training straight like gotta associates years experience im like bruhhhhhh im literally tf supposed make sumn literally cant cause theres starting points,0 +two theories comes arguing women neither work,0 +see sideis life asking whole life fucking go im done fucking joke life ive im drugged drunk enough sign off see side goodbye,1 +going downhill againi thought mental health improving wrong started taking antidepressants may helping past week constantly want dead ive started worrying friends often talk dyingkilling myself fast forward today ive paid client work them im broker broke exactly one antidepressant left honestly id expect last post dont think go anymore even energy try fight anymore win brain im done,1 +life meaningless wasted life away cannot fuxking focus find passion anything xd anyone experience tech cleanse something perma online,1 +well hate every level nowi good day today first time quite awhile occurs im still pathetic nothing never amount anything wouldnt missed im fat gross fault follow anything use shitty past lame excuse shitty self im garbage person ill die garbage person exactly deserve hope god real hope go hell give myself hope point dont chicken fucking time like countless others,1 +hate myself cant even kill myselfive treatment taking meds now always thing feel better want die again im much coward actually jump take whole damn bottle redflag realistic option end asking something kill outloud hours end friends talk feel feel like drags seem help end spiraling way always do dont even think theres point writing this im sorry wasting time ive failed everything life im useless piece shit cant even end all,1 +im idiot opened clash clans middle class volume way made insanely loud supercell loading screen noise everyone looked laughed fuuuck,0 +dummest comment gets award one comment per user,0 +got spooky game ideas tradition make halloween themed game every year october ive got days left october got holloween themed game ideas would like either simple arcade type game game beat quickly,0 +one scary moviebr br brad pitt deserved oscar thisbr br a traveling novelist played david duchovny xfiles fame girlfriend pick two hitchhikersjuliette lewis brad pitt way california br br on way stop infamous serial killer murder scenes photography scenes upcoming book duchovnys character working on little know disturbed serial killer history country sitting right next car,0 +hate want die want die hate myselfits cycle,1 +yes sex cool mini fridge room,0 +killed back i thought awhile back think about fascist becomes dictator dont see way out im queer female told roe v wade would never turned republican political science professor saw happened georgia alabama see supreme court filled snake talkers graduated college right pandemic im stuck working minimum wage job nobody hiring nobody wants me experience everyone requires it im going ruining back working retail lowes possibly rest life people giving interviews service work less make now recently mental breakdown cannot work full time without coming home crying sleep work repeat theres nothing left becomes president again take years get canada theres nothing left me im debt rest life due student loans cannot even pay cant even pay bills im going lose health insurance end year bills start accrue interest assume defer loans much eventually come take shit away idk hopefully ill fucking dead happens,1 + hoursi feel relief instead sadness need forgive me couldnt stand pain anymore sayonara,1 +nflost watched premier fire surprised hospin clean tho,0 +let go grudge im senior high school right now year ago someone took embarrassing pic me wounded spreading nude pic something compromising one really cared it kid real snake way makes wanna punch face remembered saying something whole school seeing it reason none really struck quarantine started everything shut down time dwell confronted online it talked apologized according him trying hurt embarrass me trying mean simply trying funny however inquired saying whole school saw it kept insisting never said that cant report dean tried get back various ways making fake reddit account impersonating saying awful stuff there sending account people try get spread talking stuff mentioned getting bullied bus once kids would mock liking cows he indian would come home cry room every night mocked liking cows called cow shit response reddit thing said would report dean again even means getting trouble wanna break nose get even bad go without getting trouble sort plausible deniability,0 +feel kind happyand thats know im going kill soon plan going happen im overwhelmed everything happening life moment im sorry advance annoying post im student im horrible classes im stupid hardly pay attention lecture friends either im always alone fucking sucks even online people hate me everyone know talks ugly stupid behind back ive said here im almost ive never dated anyone ive never even kissed blame anyone wanting though im fucking disgusting face hideous body repulsive obese scarred personality horrible im disgustingly fat one right mind would ever want spend time me much less love want me im good anything im funny smart cant play sports cant sing dance play instrument anything like that cant even talk people im fucking awkward weird people feel sorry im constantly embarrassing myself also cancer top multitude health issues including severe ocd half time want bash skull things right would much easier family deal im burden wish died surgery im sorry posting much cant go anywhere else im sorry annoying hate much hope last post here thank everyone messaged past kind words mean lot life worth living anymore world horrible place want leave im worthless,1 +live system servitude freedom propaganda prevalent ive probably made post like past care important word freedom word servitude definitions teenager truly wish adult looked eyes explained simple truth me adult im going explain whoever reading this definition servitudehttpswwwmerriamwebstercomdictionaryfreedom a condition one lacks liberty especially determine ones course action way life definition freedomhttpswwwmerriamwebstercomdictionaryfreedom the absence necessity coercion constraint choice action every human ever met lives capitalism taking part else this definition means system servitude opposite system freedom free choice im making argument im simply explaining words mean things definitions like it agree again argument like said wish teenager adult told truth never happened would helped lot know least someone grasp going able explain simple way instead truth was like many us lied economic propaganda victims propaganda never sat told no live free country likely lifetime really really wish someone would told that hate fact learn adult someone tells live free country accidentally lying you special country special less free anywhere else live system economic servitude north koreans someone tries convince live free country would take life advice them im saying treat poorly victims propaganda feel bad try educate attempt break spell let lies win let propaganda win tell truth tell kids truth tell many people young old truth know uncomfortable accept fact important many people know truth possible otherwise world continue way is care humanity know cant allow that,0 +find someone wholl love online cant communicate classmates needs online actually find someone whos willing love tho find friend eventually go deeper with,0 +idek im feeling anymore honestly every night stay later feel weird mixture disappointment depression anger im fine people talking me moment im alone feel like garbage im tired every day feeling like this feel like matter cant get sleep schedule back normal either barely muster motivation get morning go lift anymore ill probably delete soon idek im saying,0 +im back day ban woooo expect shitposts,0 +enoughhttpimgurcomhqermql,1 +need help persuading parents wish becoming digital artistpursuing visual designing career parents kind people believe if doctor engineer going successful get stable income call supreme bs get theyre coming from since live egypt probably worse economic state im interested careers convince it like like choices prevent choosing want life hate seeing upset want least make satisfied googled around bit want confirmations digital artvisual designing job opportunities provide consistent financial income earn respect etc thanks help hope get drowned new,0 +think much think wouldim coming year relationship broke year ago much worse then really know else say except tell whole story thats long tedious miss much short version intellectual type met college nothing like girls hometown fucking idiots things girls going theyre deferential men theyd make good housewives nothing perfect us promised life thats part really kills me agreed knew long enough know others flaws look past them told type people say forever mean it didnt tells hopes fix issues next relationship joke knows promised made promise other made promise too promised forever actually meant it rest comments edit i know im writing this probably belong redflagwatch im going kill myself think nice would free pain way think of everything else temporary like many suicidal people think romanticize lot without really thinking nobody going give fuck kill yourself going miss lot cool shit,1 +bit scared watch movie due rates living italy titles like never ever come across love step much decided give try surprised was story different dancemovie ive seen lately deeper meaning winning touching well written well directed raya strong character love fact never doubts herself mature focused aware talent and talent rutina wesley has jaw dropped final dance scene way pursues dream refuses let anything stop is honestly inspiring also fact typical superhot chick see jessica alba briana evigan jenna dewan zoe seldana makes really appealing real seriously movie rated low understand first minutes good work really good actually even cried end movie dancing routines sick,0 +relationship break person thought one bit happiness life majorly suicidal anyone else feeling bad want chatfinding partner cyber cheating compulsive liar gamblerand person thought years hope desire life now dont want live im scared die even though think death would spare future pain dont know people life thing im painfully depressed anxious lonely anyone else feels crap want talk me feel free message like thanks reading,1 +need female friend improve chatting skills with account tinder years got banned without reason also badoo account girls interested meeting me also fb dating now matches even though im licking everyone im desperate need friend reddit last chance,0 +want show appreciation crush love much hope one day cuddle watch movie hope one day lay grass watch sunset hope one day travel together hope one day make love im probably enough,0 +ok want get anime one would good first one ive started take liking anime guys finally broke me anyway one would good first helpful recommend one like rock music computers technology cars thank,0 +beuller beuller beuller beuller beuller beuller hes today,0 +things bleak cant stop thinking iti cant take pain anymore long get psychiatric help cant kid friends gone family leave job city months ago getting death threats people abandoned nothing im trying hard cant stop hurting pain overwhelming right next unstoppable thoughts gf refusing let put hold cant live her im scared ex husband tried take kid several times before im homeless job money hope want selfish give up hurt anymore worry guilt ive done others im gone,1 +last night dream causing massmurder spree schooltoday i reason want kill people kill end all theres clearly something right here desire kill feels stronger vivid,1 +bored asf wanna draw gimme ideas pls wanna test hand drawing bit gimme ideas pls thank youu,0 +get helpgood afternoon everyone let start saying ive suicidal thoughts long time cant remember started important now past year learned quite bit im going cut chase recently thoughts gotten constant actually started follow plans ive incredibly happy everything feels right sick way know might end soon call redflag hotline im sure case warrants time also want institutionalized always felt alone overwhelming end leaving know do beautiful people respect that know im lost,1 +racism native communities us canada extremely downplayed western world seen rise antihate movements incredible indigenous peoplenative people often left powerful movements americans canadians tend forget sitting stolen land day native communities subject many forms racism bearing brunt climate crisis horrific,0 +aloneits weird everyone feels alone unwanted shit like hell ive read shit time time shows think similarly could contribute disease ourselves however many people follow feel same dont think us person think sick need help just drunk ramblings sorry,1 +im american make jokes dont like make jokes normally crash burn kolby jokes effect guess twins little girls dont go without bang,0 +mods censoring mentins pedos need leave sub right filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +notwhy shouldnt it,1 +grandmas fake hear one fellows grandmas way nice gets little suspicious sometimes huh well guess theyre government spying tool see everyone keeping ft apart utilizing masks granny sees let whit microchip forearms give much free money pls keep mask keep distance,0 +im old know or care exactly difference rap hiphop is and canadian likely ive never actually seen mtv im certainbr br but thought film funny saw it bright little satire hiphop culture pervasive days difficult keep hearing over if could say bagpipe music got jokes at least think did sure derived spinal tap lots targets could stand tap treatment carpenters theyre sacred,0 +posted something along line reply another post idea would like share helped alot acceptance meaninglessness people go finding meaning finding meaning godgods meaning says devote entire lives one thing one purpose personally think one personally think god afterlife omnipotent says live certain way certain thing gain favor think means live lives anyway want to so get point life completely meaningless left live personal gratification spend year long lifespan makes us happiest now finding makes happy journey do justgo it all got ball dust water acceptance meaninglessness,1 +awesome song listen really good song kinda funny would recommend already seen httpsyoutubexaswzxcq,0 +good time broke ipad school fuck,0 +ayoooo ima order dominos pizza,0 +thought id witnessed every wrinkle crimegangster flick offer garrettmarcinhammett combination pull genuine thrills surprises here thanks inventively forceful direction mamoulian atmospheric photography lee garmes plus remarkably sharp film editing flawless special effects brilliant acting helps too coop gives one convincing performances reticent hayseedturnedfearless bootlegger the sort character progression repeat roles sergeant york miss sidney pictured center first major role also eyeopener principals receive great support paul lukas wynne gibson stanley fields heavies even robert homans hardasnails detective movie obviously realized extensive budget brilliantly deployed realistic crowdfilled sets,0 +smol dik poke squish hehe,0 +week done first week nofap porn super hard got it feel really good like take world love redditors,0 +end clear murderers planted murder weapon mrs columbos car police ballistics lab br br but gun hood used demonstration come from murderers cleared stuff hood whole week columbos cops replicate cameragun hood used demonstration without breaking entering car perhaps murders seemed surprised end could columbo replicated cameragun device gotten calibrated key fob columbo must gotten gun back ballistics replanted hood car lucky rest device camera still transmittingbr br this show glaring plot error end,0 +meta thank alli posted two days ago asking active subreddit did pretty much every thread already two three responses time see it thank much willing lend support need it helping make world better place,1 +feel split halfi verge killing myself told friend feel told jog want everything end tired waiting chat redflag hotline talking phone huge anxiety trigger me want head silent want anymore nightly routine wanting die want end want go home,1 +please help meim teenage girl live florida recently diagnosed depression anxiety prescribed medicine zoloft never thought itd get far never thought cutting would get point cant even wear shorts short sleeve shirts used happy child started growing up realizing things happened me have molested father alcoholic also molested another family member age growing up abusive childhood grandmother person raised verbally physically abusive me mother always me age thats everything went downhill started drinking failed relationship years had took everything me every little thing seemed piss off would hit got tired thats started cutting age first redflag attempt tried overdose pills consumed bottles blood pressure medicine grandmas nothing happened stopped cutting many years tried push away suicidal thoughts sadness months ago mom started verbally abusing again hit ever since dcf called her one person thought would me guess thought wrong im sitting bloody wrists thinking whether go medicine cabinet again really fault things happen me really worthless,1 +unhappy life lost job place really enjoyed going to making friends enjoying first job college lost cat emergency dental work cost dad going prison never see boyfriend new job officer manager asked come today chat thought nothing it realized let go reason given others believe good fiti feel dumb stupid person spent much time going school getting bachelors degree fighting homeless abuse worth anything bored job measly receptionist job law firm filled waters clients cleaned office filed paperwork wanted responsibilities since found lot downtime took upon try see attorneys needed redflag thought job well maybe little qualified amount water doing guess felt differently know idid agree political beliefs employees open about times would joke would feel uncomfortable times left out know took months find job back square one everything inside wants give,1 +zoom crashed zoom crashed nine remaining classmates started playing among us,0 +life anime would dead blood loss,0 +scars arm remind im failurecouldnt even kill wanted to,1 +already feel dead lifelesseveryday wake shit day day feel like zombie lifeless dead be go past local graveyard picture headstone name saying want things get better want end see solution all,1 +monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor monitor 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bored im turning reddit today talk pass time lmao eitheror really,0 +link youtube soundcloud post music alot songs recorded months ago theyre really bad bad ones exclaim minute ndd misconceptions listen want to youtubehttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucimlzgujuawhuitilfqdqvideos soundcloudhttpssoundcloudcomtheshabomb,0 +eye labyrinth average gialloand honest im really sure really giallo giallo not despite problems certainly interesting little film im hesitant call giallo film feature things make films are many genre entries break mould would seem one them film feature brutal murders many giallos do made surreal atmosphere plot confusing enough remain interesting duration plot seems simple enough focuses doctor murdered julie patient who reason sees lover father offended walks her relocate big house lived number people nothing really seems number secrets surrounding various events happened julies arrivalbr br the film seems professing something mind like labyrinth never really comes off preferred sit back enjoy going rather worrying point if any film trying make eye labyrinth directed mario caiano director behind excellent night doomed years earlier create atmosphere well film earlier one surreal aspects story come well mystery always kept stops film becoming boring film stars rosemary dexter provides eye candy throughout also delivers good performance rest cast really worth mentioning exceptions adolfo celi good villain piece alida valli cult fans remember whole host excellent cult flicks film explain end lucky im sure im viewer little confused then overall may classic stuff good enough worth seeing,0 +dont want moremy family hates me mean everyday always scream me hate much im ugly fat situating cant stand look mirror dont want anymore cant take it body would care left dont friends school friends never want hang ever respond texts hang out plans hang couple friends night never responded time gonna hang even though said could hang earlier dont like me nobody likes me im weird awkward parents mean hate much dont want anymore would better wouldnt weight shoulders,1 +important announcements doomslayer enter facility anything breathes advised,0 +lost virginity girls birthday like pog,0 +u think biggest issue schools covid wondering u guys idea ,0 +oneand im exaggerating single soul cares would notice perished loneliness devouring whole ive alone years now lots gaming listening music cope sitting room day getting unbearable late know came way perhaps homeschooled factor im seriously thinking ending cause feeling worse death im constant state mental agony btw ive run tears shed hope hang to thing left cease exist,1 +nothing pm want talk,0 +love cat pickle hate hes cute usually sweet hes kitten sleep lot goes trash gets head stuck potato chip bags make earrings small container jump rings desk theyre different colors around knocked over separate best could oh god thought gonna lose it ran directly window lost tooth got inside geckos tank literally broke lid got inside grabbed could anything else buy new lid chews tuning pegs bass scratched tiddy wore low cut shirt like head butting something hes attacking me literally pooped brothers box spring two days got him thing keeps occupied bubbles still love tho,0 +need help girls boy wants start crossdressing since live super rurally cant ship stuff house way get stuff ask female friend buy clothes pay clothes pay extra help thing dont want friendship weird questions would asked think itll go fine ,0 +hate fucking much man dont wanna look like this dont wanna feel like this wish social stuff happy decent look nono wonder everyone hates,0 +redditors tv show gay character,0 +parents disowned mei recently came gay kicked out said son hate im homeless alone im wandering town phone heading towards bridge jump want die cant see way out relatives town many friends name im update im leaving bridge go buy sandwich im hungry need think,1 +sure actually suicidal fear redflaghello everyone years old history mental illness exept trichotillomania think somekind ocd sure diagnosed story started months ago remember exact date day feel like changed life sitting laptop friends house working new project saturday afternooneverything awesome sun shining birds sining drinking favorite coffee logged facebook chat one colleague yeahawesomebut thenthe news chester benningtons redflag popped right face freaked without reason started suicidal thoughts started googling results wereas guessmajor depressive disorder completely freaked out went home went right bedi felt sick stomach felt like vommiting sleep eat next day felt way eat everything felt pointless without reason anxiousnowtwo months later feel like everything changed constantly anxious everything seems pointless half day times day feel almost back normal still time constantly head constantly googling mental health still thoughts googlinglife worth living want kids terrible world would easier give oneverything fine news chester poppes up never thought redflag before get it questions thoughts are suicidal obsessed fear itmy stomach always anxious arrives tell something wrong brain ocd mddanxiety always way happened me happened,1 +serious wanted say outi always end rambling writing long paragraphs im grateful whoever takes time read it ever since ex committed redflag ive seeing viable option often talked two years amicable ending still hit hard really feel like theres nothing life passionate long enough im unable get emotionally close anyone matter much vulnerable open facade put attract people first used social anxiety used method acting way assuage it never actually solved underlying issues last week fight one guy friends although apologized soon and well told expect responsive while proceeded basically ignore next days honestly think acting much differently i typically greet people sparingly theres odd atmosphere us now although still talk me theres air avoidance surrounding us often times meet eyes im absolutely terrified bringing happened past times tried exes feel selfish thinking fear might going through getting closer too although messaged freaked started feeling known way snapped back mirrored past cycles ive caused id find reason instantly widen distance person i even ended regretting fought first place roommate already stopped talking this guy someone actually started value honest though need mention things probably stems constant desire improve develop way regardless whether process embarrassment discomfort actually change anything within time around time im also scared possibility even care much around anyway even though im probably giving vibe too really values existence think anyone aside from customarily family would care died might shocked sure id probably forgotten long after thoughts while really realize extent dysfunctional coping mechanisms besides rational idea burdening family grief andor financial issues burying though thing thats stopping eating disorder im recovered anorectic worse feel turn losing weight distract me actually help immediate emotions immensely yet know even makes less unhappy brings closer death passively carried out ive read places suggest volunteer find way give back others honest feeling helped someone never stuck long enough make difference mood part social anxiety came feeling inability listen respond peoples emotions properly worked that emotionally helping part became default state yet face vulnerabilities lose completely demonstrated story above overall feel like live stuck cycle years come also deal working job likely come despise nagged parents getting married im college mind theyre already asking stick boyfriend half year like said thoughts redflag really severe others see here mean invalidate anyone whos going tougher issues appreciate anyone actually reads though,1 +yall actually talk like this subreddit real ive reddit entirety teen life im unsure sub started popping up entirety subreddits existence cringe fest teens better humor this every post reads like year old pretending teen subreddit needs investigation,0 +literally zero friends family really care alive deadim going lot right now tried level best escape situation failed used work restaurant lockdown able earn enough pay food bills rent lost job covid right im hopeless sorry poor english tried learning new employble skills finished full stack web developer course udemy angela yu basic entry level laptop help build beautiful websites e commerce store webapps downloaded course torrent money buy legally finishing course created account fiverr hope paid work get gigs right know do think myself redflag becomes attractive option want die really cant afford live like stray dog im coward cant afford hang ceiling fan want end suffering know,1 +moving small town hi everyone want apologise terrible wordingsentence structure i dont write often ive lived progressive city years life never really scaredworried lgbt family moving rural australian town im scared im scared im going attacked people care going attacked bisexuality guess im asking is do go loud proud hope dont give shit hop back comfy closet im relatively safe,0 +suppose depends one actually sees movie first time impression formed way isbr br i saw child tv back the stranger loved it time space program moon reality shows like search ufo m man showing child world could hold future adventure technologybr br you got see shows network aired them way people could slash shows making parody it get take show add comments itbr br i know concept pilot was saw movie hoping thru stryker would get home know possibility continuing beyond two hoursbr br back then would understood many people hate movie now doubt remember such understand now really understand story one must see perspective rather characters moviebr br if one watching american might humorous lack security police statebut one subject state compliance could expected security less things suppose perfect perfect extreme degree perfect one suppose doubt one likely question quickly things orderbr br the subplots movie interesting old man remembers time watches words since suspects spies everywhere police state values knowledge extent careful control harm brain powerbr br these days one likely know exactly movie see it much suspense surprise lost duet astronaut doctor beginning movie perfect exchange one considers movie made well cold war astronauts biggest fear crashed ussr one gets quite distance movie becomes apparent possibility least concernsbr br this primary difference the stranger doppelganger latter considered timeless since comments ussr comparatively minor lost early movie former links movie supposedly directly beginning theme variation wardsbr br all said despite fond memory movie rather easy see would made series week stryker would make friends benedict would chase stryker would get away eventually benedicts society would get rid him someone else would pick chase rut would develop might jab something new perhaps another crew member strykers mission showing up probably would enough keep show goingbr br if one goes knives others used slash movie odds slash well one remembers made cold war fears estimations side time popular environment contained viewer may find entertaining intellectual themes it,0 +time gothings arent going get better me girlfriend long distance spent month half state fly back due family telling financial issues thought staying good happy her plan work save move within next months dad says owe plane ticket the one made buy borrowing money food etc unhappy colors seem dim right now im debating downing effexor figuring something else out im much pain havent felt true happiness stability since age im dont wanna live fucked world anymore cant get job anytime soon bc im also quarantine also rules hospitalization never helped anyway im done,1 +want chat dm open since one spoke,0 +put spinach sandwich never eat greens please proud,0 +parents thisat least mom dont know posted idc ok mom usually like joking girlfriend starts listing dumbass names could get smile smile one dumb ass names goes says ever fuck name gfs name sister always thing depressing thing dont gf matter many times tell dont listen more dont know supposed make feel better sure isnt working,0 +company knows something wrong mei work since august know something wrong me probably suspect im suicidal cant anything due lack reasonable cause every day get uplifting texts companys line every day ask name positive thing happened day today asked administrative employees better things send texts boss says care checking falls better things do category kind feel bad im wasting company time need it otherwise id probably kill myself,1 +the jackal remake excellent day jackal better esthetics and boatload budget film nails actual persona carlos downbr br quinn excels naval officer enlisted impersonate wiley jackal draw hiding and hands kingsley sutherland turns inside so risking family career believes in takes task albeit utterly unwillinglybr br to say would spoil it excellent filmbr br nirostars of ,0 +feel restrictedim m nice life overall kinda im confident future feel restricted hate everyone want alone really really want immigrate new start good future still want change want alone hate ppl much tried redflag ive suffering long time cant shit it idk do idk im sad pathetic,1 +said yes now except well get far,0 +hate worldone day day come,1 +cant get kill yourself thought headlike matter much try distract myself intrusive thoughts pop head i die why alive i wish dead kill yourself wonder one days ignore them,1 +fricken birthday last year teenager starts today got woken six mother cleaning bath like friends gonna say happy birthday work hrs today probably something hate boyfriend halfway across world snd presents sent havent arrived sucky birthday,0 +need gunmy entire life big fuck up parents got divorced go dads house would abuse physically mentally im im close falling school people care me people tell get better every day get gets even worse almost everyday wish abortion one moms periods die car crash going attempt redflag need gun make sure survive tried going therapists thry make see end life lot time friends make fun religion really blame them weight pounds stub penis hope die mom dad see message terrible parents are anyone owns gun really need one thanks,1 +need someoneits years havent friend nobody call ask im doing person listen take opinion from gotten point im scared socializing dont know act still try put there matter what always mess up family ignores point try say something theyll start talking sentence everyone looks right me im tired it constant dread alone feeling heart stomach cant take it nobody even notices me like im horrible person try best help people part best still universe wants kick ass guess people like brothers house something invites friends look treat like shit brothers fiance fell drunk night went go help low behold got pushed way told move people me cant wait end it hours,1 + trying figure least painful wayman ive sexually abused lost little sister experienced heavy domestic violence ive wanted kill ever since young decent relationship either parent think noose would feel good would loud overdose would hurt bad gun figured best option,1 +reddit followers gib,0 +best friends forever spam callers always got back yo im crying it parents gf spam callers id like give big shoutout fr fr,0 +teacher daughter college made advances me man suck chess,0 +need help getting courage redflagi want commit redflag whenever chicken last second anyone know stop chickening out,1 +getting unfriended snapchat hi kinda weird even bothers tbh girl kinda compared to suddenly unfriended snapchat yesterday honestly dont know why never really talked tho a times posts lot pictures story sudden didnt see posting looked name said didnt add said process gray arrow weird still follows instagram still watch story know shouldnt upset tho kinda makes sad anyone knows someone would that mean lot people snapchat kinda weird remove someone maybe im overthinking bit,0 +tomorrow th birthday dad couple minutes ago seriously threatened kick house title says alli deal depressionsocial anxiety parents call jokemy dad want understand keeps calling namesjust minutes ago told go away housgo room get herei older brothers never told thatbut alone depressed suicidali know doi want go away everything start new lifeoh alsotomorrows th birthday,0 +wanted happy birthdayi wanted family love one single day crying almost full hours want die know like me always try making happy really wanna kill tonight,1 +guys broke shop stole calendar got caught given months,0 + ruined felt like reflecting past year heres list nobody asked ways bitten ass overall less enjoyable school life still gotten better my first amp girlfriend left feels awkward talk covid causes get laid work march still zero sign getting back even though im small town cases within km longest time nobody area fucking hiring dad walked job due anger boss new job cant afford house need move town people and still are goddamn persistent covid hoax cases area skyrocket tried start twitch stream computer barely run task manager let alone obs computer mouse like fucking broken lmao get rekt seemingly everything looked forward either got cancelled ruined complete letdown was recovering diagnosed major depression keyword was the reputations favourite youtubers get fucked grooming accusations cancel culture makes want knock someone head daily got glasses first thing told look like impersonator dwight office grades start get harder manage my social life starts struggle always less energy see anyone the girl kept trying manipulate relationship attempted manipulate often cut completely graduation half year still plans feel ready fend enthusiasm enthusiasm dissapeared beginning year truck insurance company unfairly bounced bank account times month costing overdraft fees truck insurance also went up despite record clean promises would go down fuck my trust gets majorly betrayed friends heartbreaking way possible ace heteroromantic fetishism confusing mess feelings the aggressivecrybaby nature internet cough cough twitter caused close political conversation anyone everyone starting question point alterego turns false personality schools teacher gave free computer without hard drive friend tell years old useless one already sparked interest initial d talk much toyota sprinter ae trueno eurobeat trying hardest work approx parts new pc may likely happen my closest two friends years started dating later decided cut things know doing causing look counseling was going featured voice actor nd main character friends indie game later find happening due previous reason why people suck talk general now and top last time drove truck december rock put fucking chip windshield anyway guys doin ,0 +know talk try say everything thinking i post since anyfriends would listen talking this since thought would better dead hate appareance in past hate pretty much everything i years old never kissed think anyone ever like way something really upsets hate worktelemarketing feel important anyone try help friends anyway feels like presence inconvinience people seem ignore like i need it one never it feels like shouldn alive draging even though dead already kill afraid much hurt caring much anymore planning end soon need alone home i want everything end feel terrible almost time,1 +ill answer deep questions m ft ulylalaycre f also yes pfp mari stop asking,0 +jfc im terrible personi openly try make friends hate me try piss off try make get annoyed me try make seem like im undermining much more want hate me get arguments disagreements much possible whenever subject happy wholesome try bring back down im tired feel bad them people damn near consider family god want hate me want punish making everyone hate me want see terrible person am try push away try make look different light want aware dangerous am like wild animal caged in think deserve it deserve mistreatment deserve hatred want die knowing one would miss me theyd hate much even care died dont want miss see die amazing person friend neither those want hate much wouldnt care suddenly passed away want die hated want die alone want die thinking shit didnt deserve life first place shouldve never born dont want cause pain im tired nowadays im happy want forgotten death seems like good option ill die wont worry anymore friends wont worry arguments supposed hatred towards them dont hate them wont think next victim be theyll better without me,1 +life envy yet suicidal selfharmed i three months clean selfharm now see enough reasons feel way somehow lot chest one knows too barely remember genuinely happy feels like mostly numb occasionally cry sleep since open anyone would get help need babied youngest family also best friends part still responded texts social platform adding insult injury feel like ass way,1 +ur girl kiss best friends girlfriend kissed best friend another girl yall find problems that doesnt sit right idk try overreact bc ik friend tbh dont like bc think best friend bi dont like anyway bc shes kissing someone aint me texted earlier like wanna tik tok like one thats fucked yo bitch fat mutha fucka song biggie basically asked cheat tik tok dont really care like bothers little yall think,0 +without doubt big momma music videos unlike music videos either dance videos badly storied andor badly interrupted lyrics done right jackson cowriter evidence vh heavily choreographed directed masterpiece fact could say thriller creepier horror movies last second sparkling eye music video judge music videos on easily see ominous influence mj early breakdancing zombie march number dancing comedy storyline yes horror give ,0 +edating cheating blackmail stalking redflagmy life pretty messed im pretty stupid theres lot stuff ill try keep short possible basically young started talking guy online edated years knew cheating me cheating mean sending women stuff virgins as far knew wanted meet him lived really far away mother wouldnt let go didnt want travel see me ended giving money could come didnt work out relationship painful i knew cheating know hard say cheating wasnt real relationship really liked hurt really badly anyways online guy broke up started seeing guy worked inrl still missed online guy messaged told new bf obviously online guy didnt want anything me really painful experience im proud basically became online guys stalker dating someone inrl stalking online guy time lived mother however kept psychotic breaks wed recently moved country friends family live with ended moving inrl boyfriend however still kept messaging online ex practically begged stop messaging him eventually stopped replying ignoring replied hurts most hurts much anyways time couple online friends id talk to ive never social good people one guy id rocky friendship with guy didnt like first met sort became friends betrayed trust years later became friends again started get really close one people felt could honest real life things id done guy started online relationship guy knew bf hed followed inrl social medias years inrl bf knew online guy like best friend friend really guy started romantic relationship months hed always get mad inrl boyfriend tried explain couldnt leave lived stuff know wasnt right basically guy snapped one day decided start blackmailing money else hed expose me lived boyfriends family could mean id live id already given guy money gifts stuff really thought friend too ended give make stop whole experience really messed even more ive always really suicidal depressed im saying sort excuse im saying didnt really see many options threatened came close ending escape know situation brought myself still horrible inrl bf learned stuff happened really mad rude eventually forgave me im genius year later talking online guy threatened me decided talk again messaged guy threatened me basically robbed again think part felt guilty always said cruel horrible stuff inrl life couldnt really much change inrl life anyways threat guy start something up ill love forever youre soulmate etc etc literally every cheesy thing could imagine obviously ends taking money tells cant deal inrl hes going expose ruin life birthday am know stupid know im horrible cheat tell things everyday believe me dont need judge me ive tried get contact threats guy ignores me ive left many messages called many times birthday approaching soon im filled dread makes feel sick disgusting find hard anything inrl guy knew first time online guy threatened me cant bring tell inrl guy stupid enough message threat guy again cant also feel like inrl bf flip out really bad temper sometimes grabbed pulled around couple times found online stuff did know deserved anyways id nowhere live guess used online guy sort escape painful life online guy made reality worse constant anxiety something bad going happen tiring upsetting know dug hole way seems like redflag ive seen lot therapists even told therapist online guy threatened first time basically judged said stupid told tell police woman therapist judged me imagine buff police officer would do theyd laugh me know ive done horrible stuff know that much pain still am im writing theres one tell to one dont really know wait still keep thinking threat guy message something know doesnt really care online guy would chat day inrl guy inrl like knew broken inrl guy would there know im easily broken whenever ive made posts past strong people come like move out stop leech etc one family friends sometimes think lived completely alone thered one stop stop killing myself inrl bf past know inrl guy gave much much me feel horrible feel like im good enough him comes nice family compared im trash online guy really liked much gave much gifts money time threatens ignores me knew online guy years years thought basic level friendship wasnt random guy im lot pain im mentally messed ive done feel physically tired sick time wait feel powerless sorry wrote stupid essay know literally one cares about pathetic self pitying weak depressed well thats everyone tells me everyone also tells im dead inside too guess true couldnt first online guy love cheat me couldnt passionate feelings deeply love inrl guy couldnt online guy love me threaten blackmail me tldr edated dude young repeatedly cheated years started dating someone inrl still liked online guy online guy didnt like me another online friend got together inrl bf which online guy knew about however online guy couldnt handle inrl life repeatedly threatened money lead point felt like redflag escape ive depressed years live fear life going destroyed birthday,1 +ohthe pain chest gets worse worse spreads limbs im paralyzed void anxiety never stops even sleep nightmares every single second never stops,1 +yo sky guys looks like white mist plz comment cover alien invasion omg,0 +cannot quit coke booze weed going od tonight hopefully addiction sucks unfair say like get straight edge people depressed addicted feel like would hate life alas halfway done mickey finished line probably die goddamn maybe tonight lucky night fuck literally getting high till die,1 +ex girlfriend broke two days ago things relationship working anymore starting become little toxic damaging mental health suicidal long distance lives uk live us worried much help reason still care anything would able live rest life commit us broken gives reason had able still call police uk us bill maybe something fill online please send links something need help need help,1 +people whose lives significantly worse mine even consider redflagi feel like garbage human wanting this read stories people raped nearly everyday parents whove entire family killed accidents am nothing tragic trauma make weak,1 +stop making straightness whole personality back story playing among us dude saying straight told congrats stuff inclusive match says hes straight again said okay one asked straight accomplishment stop trying get attention point heterosexuals reddit please know like opposite sex mean special honestly care sexuality preference matter me no im going alienate you single out give fuck you sure coming closet huge thing please try milk attention people different disclaimer nothing say offensive ignore care came make point thats all see feels,0 +movie italian job ok best good not great actingbr br nice visuals pacing mediocre plot nothing bad enoughbr br to walk on car commercial new breed minibr br coopers film spectacularbr br spoilersbr br ok typical heist film odd twist the underwater safe cracking nice improbable cast fairly solidbr br with exception putrid wahlberg camebr br down it real stars picture three minibr br coopers highflying speedracing rampjumpingbr br bullettaking goldlugging shiny new glory audience wasbr br sitting amongst actually ooed aahed therons littlebr br red number first hit screen strangely enough neither norbr br wahlberg garnered reactionbr br the film starts promising mos def seth green donaldbr br sutherland edward norton jason statham begin anbr br interesting humourous band characters realbr br uninspired performance usually good markbr br wahlberg claims best film cant imagine hisbr br character completely onenote plays blandly itbr br was mr rogers came back dead inhabitingbr br his body charlize fine sutherlands daughter thoughbr br nothing magical seth greens character perfect thebr br running napster jokes including cameo napster founderbr br shawn fanning hilarious mos defs earlybr br lines add much needed sparks humour unfortunatelybr br edward norton donald sutherland get near enoughbr br screen timebr br you see plot coming mile away thebr br dialogue rife bad oneliners giveaways doubt thebr br filmmakers reinvent wheel here taken abr br typical actionsuspense flick comes alright worth seeing onbr br cheap night id recommendbr br worth weight gold makes nice fillings,0 +famous international conductor daniel darus michael nyqvist heart attack stressed busy professional life interrupts successful career early retirement decides return hometown north sweden mother left seven yearold sensitive boy bullied conny school mates live lowpaced life buys old school invited participate church choir local shepherd stig niklas falk reluctant shy daniel refuses principle however gets involved community feels attracted lena frida hallgren local woman past local doctor music opens hearts members choir affecting daily life slow tore andr sjberg chance participate choir inger ingela olsson wife stig releases repressed sexuality gabriella helen sjholm takes attitude abusive violent husband gossiper frustrated siv ilva lf opens heart lena fat holmfrid mikael rahm cries enough jokes businessman arne lennart jhkel even daniel starts loving people lena love life invited participate important contest vienna daniel finds music opening heart people making dream come truebr br s som himmelen touching sensitive movie beautiful story impressive director kay pollak screenplay writers able develop great number characters minutes running time performances topnotch supported magnificent music score least two awesome moments gabrielle sings song concert certainly last concert vienna audience jury everybody participating melody daniel making dream come true like teorema stranger changes lives family conservative community further like many european movies open conclusion indicates daniel actually died least interpretation reaching peace success music eyes became wet two scenes vote ninebr br title brazil a vida paraso the life paradise,0 +people act like bladee great rapper like im drained come good rapper slightest got little technical ability lyrics good,0 +kurosawa weaves tale cast characters diverse shakespearean drama acting true story star playing role part larger tale touching funny intriguing parts character development near perfect cinematography vivid engaging story draws inbr br i would like say samurai freaks obsessed late th th century dynastic tales japan may snub film kurosawas best work perhaps best even worst kurosawa better many best story based elevating mundane lives ordinary people time great change timeless despite set notsodistant pastbr br i would heartily recommend movie buff especially likely continue read novel film based,0 +feel like im losing myselfi never thought depressed angry suicidal person difficult understand ive gotten point really enjoyed life way end high school played sports got good grades enjoyed drawing writing thought pretty good both high school came end enjoyed time swimming playing water polo good enough earn scholarship partial scholarships got based grades combined money id saved nowhere near enough pay schools wanted go to rely parents told several times would pay college christian college years ago bother thought nothing it got closer graduating high school felt like limits placed future bit disappointed colleges choose from wanted remain state many great options me tried make excuses want go without betraying fact longer believe god truth wanted every kid way college wants do wanted meet new exciting people choose college learn things care about share drinking partying side christian liberal arts college seemed offer opposite wanted im second year im ready give up small school almost everyone ive encountered conservative uptight clear early difficult choice front me could betray personal beliefs values pretending religious conservative therefore fit could hold believe shunned first day sign form saying acknowledged homosexual activity wrong would participate any guess couldve said nothing fact everyone else simply signed complaints upset me got argument basically entire room long time afterward section mates avoided occasionally attacking views questioning sexuality participate sections social events time ive kind retreated feel like reasonable intelligent conversation anyone know attend mandatory church services several times week must take mandatory religious studies classes feels like church school feel like ive betrayed essays tests go gods love feel like need make grade even think crap somehow feel though im running bullshit barely scrape enough adoring words together essay anymore ive become scared feel like im someone else now changed way talk even moderate swearing seems offend people sense humor appreciated approved disappeared im taking classes writing art strict parameters place causing lose passion them hardly talk hardly go anywhere hardly anything walk path everyday class dorm listen lectures things cant care believe in amount work feels overwhelming interest it others im guy sing chapel guy want lead class prayer beginning people seem keep distance feel like people around interesting reasonable seem like people want friends with time feel even knew interesting openminded funny people im worth friends with feel like everything made melted away placed odds environment strong feelings strong relationships anymore love almost one nothing feel deeply loved anyone family seems important fit mold member family like want be know anymore im afraid future every time see dad asks career plans never answer gets upset this got argument parents religion mom cried dad stopped speaking while know feel it know whether love version theyve striving create collapsing want disappoint anyone want live life approval cant sleep night barely stay awake day food good hardly eat apart occasional bowl cereal eating feels like chore something every then limbs ache apparent reason feel like im somewhere else body vacant told day day reason feel alone im creative like used be think theres anything distinguish anyone else way feel like im already dead look forward anything except sense dread motivation live life im beginning feel like different dead want happy like used be cant remember used be cant shake feeling realization might way realized now grades slipping im sleeping classes might lose scholarship fail everyone cant imagine future myself find wishing face it,1 +one favorite movies time loved rain man dustin hoffman tom cruise movie ways similar makes rain man seem artificial shallow unemotional trivial comparison,0 +im bored please dm jokes,0 +guys think mom homophobic im bisexual idk tell think bisexual watching rslash video said something bisexuality said thats talking bisexuality dont like that dont know tell dont know think tell,0 +whats hidden quick add thing snapchat hidden quick add thing looking quick add discovered it people didnt know others didnt didnt snap feature also please explain like im im idiot lmao,0 +ive really stressed unmotivated lately feel like cant anythingwhenever something mind wanna example study draw drop minutesso want know feel motivated study anything mind also stressed school also fact aunt covidso guys ways cope would appreciate ,0 +made pixlr x work art ampxb lamphttpspreviewredditkqhfxlmdjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfaecfeaebbefda,0 +went mental hospital february lot things happened since then distracted fact put week reminded recently immediately made resentful kind angry reminder ever get deal it couple months hospital,1 +drinking age start drinking earlier parental supervision learn limits earlier probably less likely binge drink right turn cuz year olds stupid independent year olds stupid parents control parent hopefully stop drinking beers first day time turn learned limits hopefully less stupid lets honest actually waits probably first drink people dont wait that enforced small scale fuck madd that didnt decrease drunk driving all even worth also british columbia new brunswick newfoundland labrador northwest territories nova scotia nunavut ontario pei saskatchewan yukon legal drinking age thats fucking arbitrary good job quebec legal drinking age isnt arbitrary still high closest place could legally consume alcohol france continent cant drive south america north america honestly would probably cheaper go continental france french guiana,0 +wtf pointthis first time posting anywhere ive depressed like years im now graduated high school summer parents raised giving attention id come home school sit computer bed drinking pill popping whole childhood school miserable brother got house ive getting help couple months teen help center nothing changed put zoloft take every day feel nothing get drowsyi hate human beings every friend group ever leave realize dont like anyone dont like human beings hate alone everything hate people say get job like life get better like fuck human beings nothing worth living idk do another thing im asexual never meet someone relate like thought getting relationship never there feel alone also worst anxiety depression,1 +failed class nd time convinced ever ill really kill soon enoughth year college student internshipwork experience extracurriculars gpa pretty important end moment comparison peers who already started establishing professional careers gpa sucks trying doublemajor school compensate fact im staying extra year class question one failed last fall major initially really interested upon failing class last fall took another major switch which like good job prospects too felt lame taking years major fall took first major saw another professor teaching it someone im familiar done well another class past thought sign second chance redeem myself however semester progressed realized much struggling ultimately decided drop major good hoping pass class c well happen bombed final failed class again gpas going tank transcript going look even awful got finals next days cannot focus anything all basically im fucking idiot really fault poor time management amp shameful time management still something grasped stage life lot times realize much fuckup am im think if theres higher there surely let like live consequences it must plan me plan really mean meeting death way anyway im coming terms dumb much problem mindset hope higher would save allow die longer personally deal consequences poor decisions root cause never attempting redflag before figured fate ill die soon enough postponement waste timemoneyresources really time active rather passive take matters hands cant live dumb mistakes future really bleak amp btw im really solely failing academicscareer im dealing depression loneliness well expressed post couple days ago context anyway might get triggered one reason another holidays weekend then set take winter course however withdraw tomorrow the last day get full refund parents money wasted regard haha,1 +itthinking redflag again time want fail like last times using sleeping pills im thinking ecstasy pills full hanging woods perhaps guys think itll work time perhaps method,1 +called redflag hotline number condescending pos counselor thats sign know isi dealing lot family issues financial issues forming social support issues former abuse flashbacks eating disorder racism more suicidal one thing every time think ive hit rock bottom theres another hit cant take anymore called hoping sort reprieve got condescending piece shit counselor hung initially could hear kept telling that got second time gave bs excuse know happened major thing condescending was tone choice words horrible telling people worse anyone one facebook friend ended pouring everything one else acquaintances friends people struggled tried hardest take next level got nowhere deep debt student loans keep calling harassing me extended family cut lives due revealing choice abused one them ugly black girl constantly dealing overlooked treated like crap live self esteem shit asked years ago work crappy menial wage job part time mentally handle full time job people look time accomplished none hopes dreams last thing needed hear good due one facebook friend afraid overwhelmed counselors tone voice condescending kept saying right every sentence like idiot waiting respond hard describe condescending was business hotline also seems like sign one cares even people supposed to getting older things improving getting worse seeing former high school bullies news social media better me failure thing called life cant deal anymore always held even little bit hope things would change matter bad got ive homeless before worse ever see end sight see life improving matter hard tried improve life ended spot rock bottom again plan want quit hesitation pain get with,1 +fucked upi cant stop thinking it fantasy oh sweet would be feel pain could finally leave good game everyone loved ones would sad yes would gone free ashamed admit it shockwave part appeal lie always been solves nothing catharsis resolution producing bloated corpse proved one wrong anything affirms detractors suspicions handle it married someone perhaps have loves madly cannot find energy reciprocate love another hardly matters now chose wife detriment really wanted unable selfish selfishness really matters live contempt condition myself hope perhaps next years much fuck last were,1 +know anymoredont really know im posting since think im really looking someone talk sympathy anything like that guess ill blunt want kill myself know im going to im afraid went painful experience ive ever want go again guess wish way would fail painless accessible me theres not feel abandoned lonely right one person life felt comfortable enough talk emotions feeling told feeling aforementioned blue mind you response basically i think im able speak anymore thats fair enough guess burdened knowledge issues problems worry about really needy selfish put them regardless feel angry betrayed right anyone talk to know people around might available talk feel like trust anyone let alone comfortable enough talk stuff with describe crippling anxiety depression im feeling anybody really talk anymore ive decided try see gp know actually will thinking going place nearly induces anxiety attack want things change im thinking selfharming again see pretty edgy thing used long time ago help suppress thoughts feelings redflag depression still bear scars last time kind stuff completely destroys selfconfidence know really looking approval anything im thinking loud point again really know im posting purpose is wanted get guess sorry wasting time,1 +hate cringey dn fandom like great show fanbase edgelords think cool similar rampm,0 +well thoroughly enjoyed movie funny sad yes guy andie macdowell shagged hot interesting realistic characters plots well beautiful scenery think mum would like it still think allowed call sad fkers club though,0 + say hi tha spoidur,0 +diagnosed borderline personality disorder cant rationalize continuing life anymorehttpwwwpalacenetllamapsychbpdhtml information link pretty much sums bpd fit t could go myriad horrible things ive done boils this sabotaged life lives people love times remember diagnosed never knew why decades wondered goddamn problem was wanted understand things did acted way acted wanted understand thought did could put road fixing whatever problem somehow cant fix this cant go life picking knocking people really care again ive hurt lot people people love sworn id always for them life miss much know try reestablish contact itll matter time briefly inexplicably demonized mind people im supposed for know care cant seem show it prove rather im alone aqcaintances people call friends feel real connection see humor them show person want see well pretty big fucking drag question this anyone else expect want continue living know going keep behavior without able damn thing it bpd gets going feels like pilot flying plane sudden plane goes extremely fucked autopilot mode sitting cockpit waiting smash side mountain always survive crash barely fuck this im tired living asshole another day every time brain decides gonna shit bed make go ape shit people care about fair them lifes hard enough without somebody seemed like great friend turn mental chips down im ashamed myself be cant keep anymore,1 +really need talk someone i nobody life share thoughts running like crazy head need talk stranger might understand tell whats wrong feelings please aim wotx,1 +fun getting pedo install tails ass wears thighs make people think cute girl go jail normal get core duo power w psu cant ill buy body pillow marry commit redflag ill sex body ill cum jar change sex female put cum pussy get kids,0 +think movie neat eithier like michael jackson dont like see movie think neat film great song play good imagination mention film center piece smooth criminal best dancing every see,0 +scared might make mistake ive thinking it cant say would also cant say wouldnt feel weary point feel like im fooling continue trying make something life grew raised mom im halfwhite halfother mom country made things hard especially south dad physically life emotionally lived less mile away id probably see year constantly told could better son need me close friends like said grew south wrong skin tone generally treated outsider focused school making excel classes teachers praised necessarily help made outsider molested young age ive never told anyone besides one exgirlfriend upon time since then never cared sex kind physical love honest repulsed me girlfriends highschool due unwillingness perform made gay jokestongueincheek course still stung unfortunately stuck cliques ive never told wife this married love much event past feels dirty makes feel unclean im scared share it im afraid shell reject meshe wouldnt im afraid change view me want see victim survivor whatever event want see part all guess im ashamed it say past makes depressed maybe makes bit detached life depressed fact see life getting better depresses me im stuck crap jobi went college scholarships dried really funds support continue neighbors racistcant really move old view world changed now certainly stand chance changing it house almost literally shit feel like real excuses reasons depressed theres overwhelming feeling disconnect weariness makes feel like want go time things stopping wife nephew im pretty sure people life move on im foolish enough say others miss me theyll able recover fear wife would blame herself want leave her makes happy im disconnected guy feel urge continue strongly urge stop nephew two going three probably notice passed soon things wanted teach though wanted make life never poor mine first attempt week ago attempt might right word still think wouldve done honest maybe entertaining thought rented motel room planned taking bottle pillsi know wouldve felt bad hotel staff want wife one find me nephew called right opened bottle knows use cell phone tapping picture person listed case emergency somehow got moms phone hes raised grandma told loved wanted come play wept like baby went home late visited next day think could done day im sure really follow this thought keeps popping head constant urge sleep rest forget get with im scared might make mistake in one moment anger fear depression ill something cant reverse,1 +boss asked say dickhead different languages tell say language title says all morning boss asked say dickhead german wanted say different language multicultural please tell say language teach tomorrow morning,0 +finally got nerve confidence planning asking crush next time saw herfriday stumbled upon pinterest kinda clickbait title also kinda not pin couples pictures like posts honestly feel less inspired ask out im thinking cute would def recreate them also got thinking sees those disappoint her idk man im losing battle anxiety rn,0 +anyone subreddit care enough talk second daymy loneliness slowly killing,1 +emergency im worriedhey all long time lurker first time poster years ive commented posts shared strategies generally helped felt could however first time podium im ive suicidal like years know tricks even gotten point feel episode coming prepare properly anyway month loose seasonal job and break lack success stuff feel real dark periods like weeks away time something weird happening im scared normally idea might finally fills dread brain completes checklist consequences anxiety bubbles freak out recently though feels great anxious situation thinking leaving like breathing holding hours like im finally getting permission relax before im burdened ideas hurting family friends peers brain accepts moves on days thought redflag zen thing world im immediate danger happen next week ive fought thing bunch times think im starting make peace fact last fight might coming weird thing like anyone else similiar place before let know ps community awesome darkest episodes amazing see people thinking way me lets keep shit up,1 +im like kids mentallity doesnt allow depressed,0 +new art teacher thank getting upset class snowpants dont lockers due covid karen,0 + followers literally post garbage help pls well at,0 +apple geeks here team macbook pro macbook air,0 +trying get back years worth pictures files corrupted hard drive funim fuckinh idiot thinking since computer fairly new nothing bad would happen shouldve known better shouldve backed files didnt cause im stupid idk ill ever see stuff,0 +today birthday id rather anything celebratecelebrate what another worthless pathetic year gone by another days suicidal thoughts achievements failed interactions im sure im anymore post made different account exactly year ago still feel same,1 +hitting become new habiti really disappointed way life turned feel cant go back pain regret causes extreme anger disgust myself inability form relationships led painful life experience result keep hitting face hurts,1 +saw movie yesterday shocked it even shocked comments read here one person wrote ambiguous victim torture guilty nottherefore one person wrote since american citizen therefore people comment people middle east hate us want us dead therefore saying right torture someone guilty crime saying right torture someone american citizen saying right torture someone may hate us want us dead saying that written geneva convention declaration human rights constitution united states torture wrong torture less wrong others become right torture movie powerful ambiguous torture torture always wrong willing it even name justice national security freedom democracy wrong evil exactly accusing enemies and calling wrong breath favorite line film if want compromise join amnesty international right on,0 +anyone think livestreaming redflagi get attention affection might well entertain people myself,1 +facts every day day think meggie great thank coming ted talk,0 +need cure horny woke am nearly pm ive horny times alreadyy normally times day times im halfway day anyway yeah unhorny good today,0 +want die pls come firstive planning redflag while time break plan changes little today crying eyes filled application get permit buy gun ive thought method messy past today reached new level self hatred sounded pretty fitting feel like wired right everything hurts life good loving parents good supportive friends great sister whos shinning role model often end day tears people say stop sount blessings supposed help makes mad myself good still want die wrong me filling application gun cried decided call redflag prevention hotline half assed conversation antidepressants held back tears cant blame guy nervous didnt know say asked them felt like talking walmart customer service something though didnt help felt even worse year old man crying another grown man asking drugs felt stupid ended conversation im sorry wasting time thank you goodbye hung chance say anything else cried bit longer felt stupid went online looked redflag chatrooms something anything talk someone phone went bunch articles depression redflag found one got bit talked suicidal thoughts moment pain begins weigh methods coping pain dont know im methodicalshow facts type guy way looking struck way things hadnt stopped crying kept scrolling eventually got comments section article found bunch people saying much wanted die bad felt always feel like im taken seriously situation pretty good voiced feel people past ive dismissed told get people worse me understand world harsh kick feel like dying everything ok somethings right head maybe somethings right life seeing people talk really made feel better cliche may sound felt like wasnt alone didnt feel defective people understand im feeling coupled perspective article really made feel like change something may life right feel like get it im gonna preach strength human spirit anything like really believe us dont tools right now want use reddit talk relate maybe share tips potent help ive found stories want use partially partially me think make together feel fucking corny,1 +would girl make sexual jokes someone interested in girl text frequently joke sexual stuff part daily conversation says things like you like me wanna sleep me love me vice versa sometimes get flirty fun like fuck around day repeatedly saying know crush whatnot per usual go somewhere offline hours came back picked left off know middle huge freakout nothing me family business started pushing youre me thing agreed everything something never does confused point asked serious blew up started taking anger me fuming completely going off since knew nothing extremely confused thought anger caused said kept asking asked times said shut up im sexually attracted you kept raging freakout point im sure meant said spur moment thing would girl make frequent conversations guy interest in,0 +qustodio survived factory reset shitty app called qustodio installed phone factory reset two days mom still able see everything app how installed anymore dont get blocked things anymore seems ghost app still there please help,0 +bra strap problem whenever go streets people stare bra strap think show bra strap okay problem others solve problem,0 +sorry annoying give comments respond wake saw someone else think responding comments super fun makes feel wanted,0 +know anymorei dont know living anymore feel like sinner cant forgiven dont deserve life ive given im years old im porn addict cant stop it one point life gay sex cousin brother ive ruined life feel like alive forced me jerk cousin sisters sometime feel like pathetic losser cant forget much losser really am really dumb fell like cant grown anymore dont understand life supposed meaningful people even feel like deserve life hopeless dumb pathetic losser cant get addiction fiest encounter rd grade years old see everyone better failure think world better place left besides sinner worthless think im gonna kill myself know ppease helpj,1 +unable cry months idk went wrong felt anything months piled up well still feel good feel horrible little bit better tried best cry forced it cried like mins eyes got pretty tired though physical weakness need take nap help distract myself planning way suicide really hard pick method felt redflaged saw easy end pain cannot keep anymore redflag there used it brought old memories back cried out guess sleep help clear rest whatever one day tomorrow worse one day crying helped,1 +trappedi trapped disgusting body miserable marriage surrounded acquaintancefriendship feel obligated provide support empathy get none want every person know wants stay suffer everyone know soulless vampire happy see suffer get whatever me fucking trapped one acknowledges it could get one person admit dont want would wanna die would happy meantime ill wait good time shot even though know never come fucking trapped fair physically freak get die look like horror movie without clothes desire end life respected shouldnt constantly give give people give nothing should life put want first sick invalidated good reason gun know better dead shouldnt feel trapped,1 +say something wholesome w r,0 +anyone talk pleasetwo nights ago slight panic attack nothing unusual slept since again nothing unusual last day half instead job searching ive laying bed ive barely eaten two hours ago suicidal thoughts started resurfacing,1 +wrote notei wrote redflag note short explanation anything apology dont know going use it wrote case need to promised partner would check psych anything would talk someone see nurse pull stiches thursday dont think im going kill myself maybe maybe wont dont know dont know anything really know miles away love cant get world collapsing around me partner said maybe come home cant go back living parents cant partner lives halfway house eating disorders cant live her cant live one friends couches tiny apartments schools open back job love dont know do im hoping pass im sure will mind hell years dont know take much longer,1 +watching movie family dog sitting looking tv said oh watching movie want dogporn head thinking dog popcorn dogporn said outloud instant regret,0 +people sub know jasmine elias logan haden vilko james sami pham sean shell tas shalap swarali steal lukas elijah eric cooper emily ben sebastian yair karma jakob alexa presto charlie aaron gio jeb luke jesse zepplin kyle dominik john,0 +school start charging next year depression anxiety fees now smh capitalism amarite,0 + friends reached puberty turned recently friends begun process idk bug want start it unlike some sometimes cry night think it shouldnt do im also avarage height friends taller annoy it theyve said sorry still think it ive searched methods grow faster that say mostly genetics soothe pain away different sound like year old dickheads online treat like garbage know people online idiots shouldnt listen back mind time wanna use vc please god help,0 +viewed jean renoirs wonderful film french can visual delight great entertainment recently produced moulin rouge pales comparison quite get praise recent movie received im convinced ever appraisal correct seeing master film maker like jean renoirs version story succeeded getting great performances entire cast great french actor jean gabin rare form dance sequence near end one exciting one id ever seen long want end film deserves receive recognition got,0 +cant wake upi suicidal lately super hard trip xans came realization small unnecessary idk im killing tonight getting close ever dont kill myself sorry wanted somewhere ramble shit,1 +unhappy terrible person fixing me must continue heinous commit loving family friends missed want leave tell stay alive serves purpose inflicted inflict pain,1 +guess got kissed today someone sub told win rteenagers,0 +really want someone love meim talking girlfriend specific even good friend family member nothing love right lost hope ever happen know feeling way might irrational dont want wait see things get better,1 +im writing redflag note tonighti cant take shit anymore need least write something case ever get fucking guts finally end myself cant anymore want out want release cant live household years cant,1 +stubbed toe loses balances hits funny bone desk corner thanks life,0 +need someone talk with anyone disorder wants open willing talk would helpful psychosis ocd schizoid depression,1 +hate much tw hate everything me hate way look hate way speak hate way act hate me want die want end noone loves me noone cares me noone gives f im alive not every time look mirror cant help cry tried end multiple times chicken every single time know anymore cant live like anymore,0 +time come im leaving sub good no didnt turn anything dont think worth spending time anymore mostly people way young making popularly liked statements acting like first say it bye rteenagers thanks one friend got,0 +hey guys know probably right place ask feeling way idk feel numb atm struggle sleep struggle enjoy anything memory horrendous relationship gf bad place goes beyond us literally nothing work go gym sleep one thing able enjoy absolute slightest gym struggling even go able watch full film without getting bored mind lifes become boring feel like robot lost friends due adult work full time expected go drinking pm wednesday work full time bills pay lonely shit parents live abroad spain living best life ever stuck miserable idk anymore feel like destined much life hate atm yeah idk else say depressed,1 +anyone want talk call skypeive spoken situation much keep light im sorry bother butim craving killing ive wanting nearly years now night im going coward chicken,1 +loneliness gotten muchthe think stopping redflag mother knowing distraught would be starting think point waiting fucking lonely every night come home cry want end pain suffering,1 +welp im writing short story book idk called groundhod week school shooting know little bit dark first idea came mind lmao edit called the rd day,0 +based fact story teenager named homer hickam jake gyllenhaal growing coal town west virginia boys usual destiny end mines homer eye sky love flying rockets dismay mineforeman father consternation townsfolk generally misfit sure three equally outcast buddies begin making rockets fly patch barren land eight miles town longer terrorize community ofttimes errant rockets unfortunately town especially homers father chris cooper thinks wasting time however people become intrigued soon start coming droves watch rocketboys send homemade missiles one teacher laura dern high school understands efforts lets know could become contenders national science fair college scholarships prize gang must learn perfect craft overcome many problems facing shoot stars director joe johnston always famous name movies jumanji jurassic park october sky surely stands films without doubts october sky best effort obviously best film true story filmed extremely well even movie every single thing required top level cinema along johnstons extraordinary direction exceptional performances jake gyllenhaal around movie released gives beautiful natural performance perfect actor chris cooper father also gives fine performance goes laura dern also looks beautiful even rest performances extremely well background score fine highly inspiring movie lifts spirit sky high one movies definitely inspires life amazing inspiring movie along loads entertainment missed,0 +suddenly wanted relationship her saw good thing said could come visit often wanted needs tell hand home decided give relationship another shot got pregnant immediately moved house together really horrible morning sickness time bob got disgusted neediness moved week later leaving huge house cant afford maintain far away form support necessary pregnant mother young kid seems love kid much concept taking responsibility,0 +artists here friends discord server artists pm wanna join give link,0 +plan im finally feeling real happinessi know ive posted lot know may seem attentionseeking hell maybe was im posting try someone talk someone convince theres life im tired reading things people attempted kill glad work guess what woke next morning swallowing pills screamed cried angry still here long remember ive going back forth feeling normal slightly upbeat depressed happy finally something thats selfish once something thats going benefit everyone care about ive analyzed close personal relationships every single one would positives negatives finally died even fucking pets im waiting go home spring break nice week home family hold onto remember by little bit straighten personal things get everything order im finally peace life want thank always lowest moments lives worth saving decided mine wasnt great thing people still hope thank all,1 +trip friend take life feels surreal gets closer every day wonder actually go it plan suicide,1 +dont fear death im steadily running reasons avoid iti find death almost beautiful strange sort way pain suffering anything else category sounds wonderful me ive struggled desire end hope life eventually get better every time find asking worth end know keep going around truth think death fascinated excited become it im sure point post is suppose wanted express feelings place wouldnt judged insane,1 +many cultured weebs know holy relic blue haired demon best winter animeno exeptions change mind,0 +feel uselessi just feel like crap every day boyfriend amazing cares feel like love could redirected someone deserves it keeps saying hed rather spend night listening issues minutes listenimg euology doubt that know bad things get know bullying extended family nothing tell trust do settings bring myself tell him like want kms every damn day,1 +last day earthtoday day reddit im going finish today written letters everyone needed say something to ive written well im set ive got planned out im waiting till boyfriend leaves go tonight broke saturday says well never get back together ill never find anyone else ex probably doesnt want back friendsbasically one else im completely alone world id rather exist all released album had well one listening one ever does im trying decide spend last day maybe ill go park get good last meal somewhere anyone bothers read this ill post im tonight im going try enjoy last day earth,1 +dont know stay suicidal girlfriend throw away obvious reasons amita deleted post need help hello reddit native english speaker really really exhausted apologize bad english advance ampxb go met girlfriend years ago online chat room became best friends depressivesuicidal thoughts minor self harms finally met first time real life perfect fell love sure love care could fix problems enough long distance relationship mother really care her father lot temper grandmother hit lot child downs ampxb depression get better started get me every single time left house something would happen felt lonley argument mother asked time would coming back call her eventually stopped going partys dampd sessions wanted talk her tell feel complete break down started scratch arms hard got scared forced hands fingernails arms prevent worst damage gave night eventually came back weeks later told much love her wanted help feeling burnt out told wanted see psychologist love her want feel happy dont want relationship end offered help find one help make appointments said late one could help asshole telling insane broke heart depressive episodes got really bad often said things implied going commit redflag day far future tried cheer up comfort went away one time actually begged knees crying get help begged see professional said no kinda gave eventually started things again went friends houses played bit dampd again everytime super sad even fight afterwards told many times things helps sleep way stop fears etc stayed home sometimes helped like used do decided leave alone end even threatened arguments one day would kill would fault stupid things maybe even said hurtful things croseed line crossed multiple times much happend much could ever right down ampxb cant anymore tired dont think love like used to want stay friend want help dont think stay boyfriend much longer hate thinking asking another girl univerty ,1 +never afraid ask help asking reaching help sign weakness sign strength burden annoying attention seeking worthy happy living best life possible reminder loved alone,1 +almost old realized changed user flair likely last year teen turn months,0 +anyone wanna talk im bored asf sitting accounting kinda wanna talk someone dm u wanna talk ,0 +wish people would stop telling life worth living try understand feelim asking encourage end it wish someone literally anyone would empathize minute say get it say understand hard keep living know wrong want die know need help know life purpose empty statements made people seem like actually care seeing angle ive chosen method added supplies need cart amazon chickened place order know really intention actually using it want comfort knowing need way out need people tell im right thing getting supplies go also wish someone would tell get even want feel better know easy wish someone would understand tired feel constantly waking face thought going another day enough wear out sure want posting this feel alone im scared myself im scared ordering things want time want anything want everything stop want over know anymore,1 +brown people identify sunsets much exciting saying brown girl wed sunset people hehe i mean asians yall asians bit yellowy fits,0 +dads band released first album spotify anyone likes metal heres link httpsopenspotifycomalbumnynvxjblpcygsvoalzsibgkgvatwcpbkeorfbzcg,0 +another suicidal personi want one cry me broke bf long ass accusatory text fight mom sister im alone apartment whichs rent able afford next month im unemployed go full time school im failing in means im also uninsured country everyone free health care cant go therapist hospital thing stopping uncertainty taking pills give pain go er would even dept wish would drop dead wish would killed years ago wish close eyes never wake,1 +online school min wish luckkk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +somebody please help mei see world coming around really scary really want time im afraid die feel like im unlovable feel like set fail beginning life whats point even trying anymore somebody please talk sense oh god please edit want thank everybody posted here ive chosen live think guys helped that wonderful people ,1 +reddit know much takei nowhere else go one else turn right now im diagnosed bipolar type ii meds conflict pain medication take able get bed put bluntly cant cope anymore chronic pain syndrome neurological shit going on im pain constantly even though im high doses painkillers cant get job bad health im benefits im uk us equivalent would social security im pretty sure government kick condition recognised worthy stopping working im nearly still live family family meaning mum stepdad grandmother shit say reddit literally avoid talking me conversation mum far stepdad grandmother overbearing aunt visits every day goes ignore me point theyll leave room walk in good friend lives end country might moving back europe done education im good anything cant afford get equipment really want to sit room own silence either watching shit tv playing video games time ive tried everything make things better nothing works last time place dark attempted redflag four times many months got sectioned mental health act ended facility six months developed eating disorder want go back that edit got phone call morning tell government overturned decision made keep employment support allowance disability money coming go back benefit force apply jobs places like building sites im obviously capable job properly reddit seriously give up thought things get worse do do reddit im losing hope,1 +yeah iam literally posting catacheism exam,0 +would like helpedi apologise clunky grammar various mistakes advance helped subreddit dedicated helping suicidal people helping mean preventing people killing themselves would really like helped want continue go living see realistic outcome im still alive pain kind help use might share story oh wall text thats going be sharing help me see how shared story others never helped might receive advice see fancy rather smart man advice contain truth already thought or heard shrinks people want truth there sincerely doubt it unlikely might be might find kind caring person weep shoulder anything temporary reprieve honestly see how genuinly trying find way helped subreddit fail redflag passionate impulse me premeditated mecry kill given might well couple days live unless chicken out suppose case nothing power subreddit help me cases really able help people someone like looks like impossible thats really sad if ask me well interesting observation guess ive suicidal many years now always able fixate goal work towards recently goals lost meaning pain intensified wouldve gotten that time saw utmost clarity reason failings life personal flaws ive trying many years fix avail yes without context cant really make sense whats written above undersand theoretically additional many years efforts might only might mind you able finally become normal boy love god cant find reason end spare suffering apologise incoherence ramblings never able pour thoughts paper clear enough,1 + hours much read wanted tell self harmed first time today ,1 +im getting covid test soon like minutes dads going take drive testing sight hospital wish luck guess,0 +actually feel much like shit rn best friend breakdown texted means talking useless felt like shit actually know help feel like im shitty friend knowing able go sleep knowing even tho tried hard absolutely nothing changed nothing situation told stop would go away later get feeling impotence like do cant shit ill worst friend helped much anyway keep going thanks reading shitty rant,0 +questions girls subreddit oh my god perfectly fine chat friends one friends said didnt want go school tired asked said stayed late reading said ok continued talking something else then randomly said also period last night couldnt sleep like wtf theres really reason mention that one reason would perfectly fine tired question you think randomly mentioned period unnecessary would make us guys chat uncomfortable,0 +life minecraft hardcore smp server cant find save quit button,0 +even fuckin know damn fucking tired dont know nothing midnight cant sleep feeling really shitty maybe mayo salad bad idk maybe explain venting bc right feel fucking bad probably delete later feels good write down dont even care grammar fukc it please dint feel concerned contemplating self harm anything christmas new years eve really unsatisfying every year certain magic feel it anither day except ate lot junk got little drunk family played game end laughing like maniacs good next day fucking bad ithought would good parents walk day friends sister home could play games day long feel like things really wanted got late wait fir everybody get somwhere else could wank bit horny waited two fckin hours even thou watched youtube whole time felt wait least changes pyjamas afternoon spend rest day wondering play ended playing watching many things bored really quick continued nothing do basically spend whole day things supposed joy ultimately made feel like nothing mattered nothing makes sense whatever cannot distract wierd feeling existing without dreams needs feel like exits bad good thing anymore honestly life might throw soon think ate much mayo salad ad stuff anyway took calming pill help sleep pill calms stomach hopefully work far nothing writing comes fucked mind find something interesting read fear sentenced look wall whole night eyes wide open feeling every minute like hour considering wank serotonin shit pause like five minutes staring wall latetly found way utilize pillow bed understand implying fuck post probably broke lot rules guy usually reads rules manuals rn fucking care enough read hope mofos read shit gonna regret posting tomirrow clarify drunk high rn type writing used famous wtiters forgot called something along lines of train thougt think hemingway used too forgot good memorizing literature like reading well helped bit hope nobody know sees good night going stare wall,0 +idea april st terraria minecraft switch logos day,0 +need make dinnerin order make dinner need use kitchen that kitchen usable theres many dishes smell thats gettig worse floors slowly tearing apart time attempt sweep mop them two holes ceiling occasionally drip water sometimes bee gets in normal day dishes make food frequently look pile everything sit back life slowly falls apart,1 +used confident cheerful person today become awkward person cannot even put sensible sentence together whine cry brood cannot sleep cry sleep alone wake up love someone close year supposed relationship feels empty like one wants calls relationship never troubles sickness even share happiness achievements moved cities fir person regret giving could capacity get nothing return even normal conversation rarely meets me currently feel negative broken devastated know happen me feel discarded used abused emotionally always angry,1 +pills againthis time mg ibuprofen mg benadryl mg melatonin usual adhd meds mg caffeine mg acetaminophen less usual eh,1 +teenagers virgins absolute chads lend hears uchildofgoose officially first president rteenagers also official fuck mods jk jk,0 +suggest sick edms language idc,0 +personal article mental health holdback darker selfi wrote wondering people could critique it httpspminihuo,1 +no sequel fabulous ova series rather remake events occurred death ghim and disappearance woodchuck also accurate novels inspired wonderful series characters namely orson shiris reintroduced story may seem slightly different used ova the booklet included set provides excellent answers questions various online sites first eight episodes part tv series focus fateful battle demon dragon mountain remaining episodes introduce us spark bluehaired knight wannabe identifies parn ragtag team misfits attempt stop dark wizard wagnard resurrecting kardis destroyerbr br while quite equivalent original lodoss war we love finale parn saves deedlit wagnard we tv followup still great fun fantasy fans even animation limited and step artistic streak first lodoss part series elements appeal fullyrealized characters engaging storyline magic romance superb soundtrack scored kaoru wada ninja scroll give uneven spinoff punchbr br while ova dub lodoss criticized one reason another generally liked still consider one favorite dubs significant hopes dub chronicles made part lodoss tv english track passable if stellar quality does however share problems much original cast lent english voices characters lodoss return including lisa ortiz deedlit nice bonus hand billy regans mature sounding parn bit offputting bad job voice came across grating first eight episodes causing antidub fans instantly diss dub time spark company take stage found less bothersome i know improved grew me also everyone oav dub returns jayce reeves voices wagnard terrifically one episode hes replaced pete zarustica whole show gives scratchy still malevolent turn as well expected evil laughter anthony cruises kashue hand weary takes five episodes find stride oliver gregory probably effective orson especially final dramatic scenesbr br aside lisa ortiz deedlit karen smith shiris john knox ashram al muscari slayn dubs best voices come newer characters including crispin freeman spark maar garrack episodes roxanne beck little neese meg frances who voices pirotess oav also voices ryna vulnerability sassiness well karla especially angora deb who steals every scene leaf halfelf rest cast terrible means little uneven oav dub right aldonova greevus others lackluster hobb palace guards dragons etc awful in particular prince reonas va harsh monotone fighter justicebr br in fact lack aural continuity some cast members get new voices unexplained reason time get later episodes one problems dub others include less memorable awkward sounding dialogue uneven synchronization finally i apologize advance fans this lodoss island segments offbeat superdeformed interludes end episode either amuse drive batty admittingly first found major nuisance sorta grew while besides showstoppingly hilarious lines im king kashue cashew im really quite nut flaws rank dub chronicles notch ova resulting uneven english track summed best okbr br if one wonders japanese language track preferred listening choice well guess what japanese version good bad points too voices less annoying english language track found others less appealing english equivalents in particular actress deedlit nowhere nearly good lisa ortiz yumi tohma plus mention japanese cast ova series made seven years original one sho hayami cast members replaced new ones although respectably good job may major annoyance used japanese ova cast shows everything japanese better english eh despite flaws chronicles heroic knight still fine series deserves hold ground without rough spots always live predecessor yet theres enough good points counter bad making moderately enjoyable fantasy anime,0 +feel welli feel like nothing stop existing right would great anything stop feeling sad useless worthless dumb like bother others wanted say that,1 +girl im not fuckin simps filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +mom found bunch old pill packages pills almost year mom convinced new going overdose tried telling time recent says lying grounded friends goes drawers searches room currently feel like granted form privacy outright said going continue going room convinced right lying drug problem past kind behavior would normal years ago almost years sobriety hard drugs work put mend relationship family feel like effort ignored mom continues call liar tomy face always pushes religion me allow vaccinated due believing vaccines mark beast yet one needs help ready leave house parents allow get id cannot even work save apartment literal tyrants run life parents never believe,1 +wish luckwanted kill ages currently weeks wages responsibilities im going bet money horses football weekend going carry betting till im broke im killing myself maybe bet way millions doubt well see wish luck lol,1 +todayis final knife back im tiredjust let pass away peace im tired fam job friends nothing even want live me still here make pass next birthday ill better dead im sure plenty people happy im gone pile crap anyways fucking tired life,1 +im doneive decided kill tomorrow night point living honestly agh got kicked depression website really worthless deserve anyone cant focus right now someone help me,1 +september thsorry unclear organized im really good headspace write neatly anyone thinking commiting redflag im guilting anything think people need hear side september th grandmas birthday also last time talked died november th got news next day km away chose stay foreign exchange thought grandma would want even though hard missed first moments missed celebration life missed grandpa dadmy mom commited redflag know how never asked mom called said grandma died remember said gibberish anyways told note know note says never asked read it spent next days bed host family say anything me say sorry ask ok host mom brought food bed eat much talk much days went pictures lots crying lots anger confusion frustration guilt live daily think every single day couldve done family couldve done much miss love her suffered chronic pain body imagine thats it it stigma talk death especially died redflag bereavement never getting closure never knowing why always wondering ifits horrible bereavement happens many ways redflag different becauseit totally random someone calculated it someone took life someone wrote note knew going cause much pain took life days bed host mom told cheer up told needed go school errands needed do got days back school almost like nothing happened forced pretending ok suffered suicidal thoughts thought harming myself angry everyone around notice last time phoned birthday sent facebook messages respond photo brother grandfather real smiling lips curled it gone messages never got show pictures speak fluent spanish learned months tell exchange anything program sent counselor brought translator need translator asked grandma christian said yes im atheist told that said grandma real christian committed redflag thats christian thing do days told talk family it anything talk anything anybody friends first time ive ever written anything writing letters much guilt much anger love much miss would anything bring back know im going think needed say something it happy nd birthday grandma,1 +feel lost head dont know doeverything sucks want die im outside school crying good family good friends good life yet everything feels bad feel lost emotions mind feels like chaos dont know do,1 +gotta love going back school first day back also week exams lot reviewing person do naturally break wifi cant use chrome books review,0 +old janes mannered tale seems popular days lost count number versions going around probably reason ruts ruts even late date tv miniseries gives mannered telling suitable novel headstrong opinionated emma pretty modern girl think it even though ambience jane austens world may seem tad artificial us today seem emma ill say selfsufficient emma get comeuppance worth watching find how acting honours go ladies kate prunella lucy samantha could almost psychic connection old jane,0 +songs sung japanese english english may fluentim japanese cant evaluate english ability think outwardlooking want world hear songs im happy discover music httpsopenspotifycomuseryxcbwykldxwqrynoomaplaylistfvszxkvhhsrjxawqqvsiukzuxqrxqnchzekxwhahq,0 +itevery day nothing pain could take belt hang myself ask question every time go sleep cant answer it mins work ill never suffer,1 +live way long days year supposed live this thought motivated thought something would change nothing changed life worse last year cry almost everyday loneliness time give attention talk me people supposed understand even cant hate life say care me dont even know name killed tomorrow know existence meaning ending seems like best option even though know best option courage it pathetic,1 +birth beatles us television movie released fall actually been far best movie tells tale four lads liverpool revolutionized music industry world told point view former beatle pete best performance entire cast excellent but especially performance stephen mackenna john lennon rod culbertson paul mccartney film produced legend rock roll eramr dick clark year earlier produced another tv movie stood test time starring kurt rusell lead role another musical legend elvis movie directed unknown director named john carpenter went direct successful movies as halloweenescape new york the thing said director birth beatles mr richard marquand went direct theatrical blockbusters star wars return jedieye needleand jagged edge among many film tells story fab four know ofis back beat theatrical release however critics care itnor public long life span theater birth beatles charming simplistic film gives essence beginning legend struggles hardships went thru ends pinnacle success arrive nyc appear ed sullivan show highly recommend film,0 +today really rough day currently residential treatment program away family today i guess technically yesterday fucking blew stated conversation mom confronted issues dad incredulous anything could done problem with woman sent weight watchers child called bitch family referred cinderella because girl expected extra chores chose brothers time time again woman mothers day outing planned two us took call brother first min meal together mother complained made miss world series visit psych ward made sure bring years later never said jack shit time except remembering missed fucking baseball game yeah fucking problem you rest day killing time heard everyone plans th i american obviously things going well treatment reason while days like today excruciating like feel like fire someone poking thousand needles weight presses chest throat making feel like choking suffocating time cannot stand it truly right wish dead want feel like anymore tired exhausting feel like lived million years cannot take it feel like meant here alive purpose day series activities pass time immediate danger literally checked every hour anything sharp meds anything else potentially dangerously either locked removed house make easier terrified hope me unfixable doomed suffer god knows long one endure many years pain goddamn lifetime it see point want anymore want die cannot sleep tired unbearable pain,1 +hey guys im bored guitar broke two weeks ago havent able much music stuff still ukulele thinking cover song dont know cover give suggestions hopefully like people respond pick top comment something good day yall,0 +subhuman trashi dont want anything life thing want commit redflag finally end everything zero value person want contribute world thing ill ever contribute life redflag statistics years old convinced life get worse progress adulthood id rather die right second live entire lifetime misery wish never even born world doesnt need lazy sacks shit like me zero desire put effort towards improving myself might well commit redflag world favor,1 +got yelled dad first thought redflag im adult waymy dad boss lately getting sick frequently breaking year long relationship coming family feel really lost something always count though whenever mess dad tells need better immediate thought oh no fucked up need kill yourself cant understand anymore allowing think way,1 +called transphobic classmate hi so back school classmate transphobic completely disrespectful til day remember clearly im studying music studies gymnasiet fellow swedditrs years year mandatory school end every school year put musical local theatre asigned changing rooms year one two three separetly one breaks next rehearsal were changing room chatting changing clothes snacking everybodys good time many different conversations across room boom said transphobic classmate drops disrespectfulness sometimes like lives bubble world spinning around her news flash doesnt now good trans friend came like two months prior this sometimes struggled say right name always apologized try learn asap with we literally mean almost whole class teachers time time classmate just said everyone dressing room heard hey dead name always dead name me always dead name me whole room everyone one dressing room fell silent moment i turned around fast facing calling it excuse me say everyone peeked intrest unfolding eyes us how disrespectful hard learn name dare continuing using dead name get it basic human rights this said day whole time trans friend trying soothe thing want make big deal it said take this said this girl storms room apologies straight out walked out ugh really ticked wrong way friends were showing support callout trans friend incident girl practically ignoring me made effort talk either there rant moral story can call transphobes out,0 +day idk guessi idea long ive suicidal feels like eternity everyday thing yesterday screamed car going work cause built stress me walked rest way cause father threw car that work almost multiple times screamed customer still think things get better matter what thought going street walked front car kept coming mind taking knife restaurant slit wrist toilet,1 +theres bat house super pissed fuck,0 +need talkhello ampxb need talk english mother tong ill try say things me need write somewhere alone anyone tell even someone talk would think pieces years since life look like real life struggle keeping job struggle girls lost friends tried help breackdown happened kept stupid shit nonsensical stuff ampxb im almost perfect life mean everything money friends time girl normal mental health felt sometimes bit unconfortable like alone even surrounded friends family happened dad felt sick mental illness nothing do becam stupid lets say debilitated doctors said years live ok hard year grandpa died loved him year break long relationship girl hard too became get down last year master th year mom left dad sister couldnt handle converted islam problems years couldnt find place life struggled school religion helped immensely way radical wanted full islamic like kind religious veil that way talk like normal person since education converted sect religion whatever lost her ampxb much me couldnt pass exams second semester attend shit began best friends pass graduated moved city went life got job all stayed there brother handle shit happened year either september school begins again came back parents house saw bed like noon said wtf doing school said bullshit like heyy days ok elder man move fucking ass years younger me said ok go school stops so said bit fucked anyway noone gives fuck dad sick mom gave up since always successful one kinda protective strict brother sister good said ok bro find school city study in gonna live me so find appartment people call schools withing week school again could start schoolyear again ampxb thats everything hit face started school motivation since exams pass last year friends anymore say social like almost loneliness anxiety could stay alone hours day needed see people hang go out drink dance chat fun less like that me feeling like wanted alone like problems worth hanging people anymore know enough problems need chill good sign begining year months beautiful girl life still now still wtf much wow everyone doctor blond best body best smile kind sweet bitch all like best girlfriend idea got her chance really liked me fucked up said started take cocaine end last year couldnt pass exams every friend mine tried last try give fuck really said fuck it ok let put nose it like nothing couldnt feel something special friend laughing like said yeah nothing special immediate effect talkative relaxed confident even know it good night like it continued come back girl time summer take lot cocaine kill totaly anxiety made relax feeling good myself best feeling best medicine girl one day got really drunk coke day coke began disapear super drunk started lose memories met people chat got drinks them knew before good mood coke descent super drunk said yes girlfriend said wtf way way perfect look messages yes is cant feel love sweet cant feel anything talk drunk one point say ok guys call tell over wtf guys know laugh lot really jealous huge douchebags call her say something like yeah yeah ok wants story over ok stupid excuse could tell next day couldnt save me over thats it could see times next days talk strict over deserve attention love anymore ampxb ok point pieces girlfriend lot crap save money lot drugs motivation year seemed easy pass exams seemed like waste time plus shit endure last year point remember living brother since took put school again ampxb one two months that time nothing i nothing second semester drugs playing video games seeing friends less less told first time life needed see noone totally alone home know why know later couple months met party cool girl small dark hair super cute face younger me like something make night nothing else one friend girlfriend friend mine told hey man really invite drink meal best girl ever sure likes you ok shambles kind of said hm ok not later one month went way decided invite her good started date long story short important stayed together two years incredible courage suffer shit threw her ampxb last thing want share you girl feel anything fall love problem previous knew liked much felt good company thats all know mental problems time year continued girl cool going deeper deeper drugs alcohol cocaine nothing constructive reallt strange begining state now begining end end shit suffer years ampxb drive head ahead drugs felt place totally handle seeing good friends cool life cool job project there dead inside waiting healing drugs know sick girl helped understand needed see doctor went ok big breackdown need stop alcholol drugs take medicines get better ok ampxb no could not took medicines drink lot it getting crazy fastforward now ampxb ampxb say could make go better girl pass exams tried years row attend exams down druged drunk there still master degree like exams pass bachelor years studies nothing actually years first years next years tried kills think it ampxb killed break girl killed me physical pain mental disease harder stronger painful toothpain wanted die hitting every wall could screaming crying dying ampxb ampxb anyway loose mind cannot concentrate much whatever ampxb totally dead inside family left brother grandma talk grandparents mother cousins family members years single friend left everyone tried save me failed make progress came back times worse everyone let me ampxb totally alone cant keep job tried different medications months hospital read philosophy psychology theology whatever help feel complete ampxb cocaine th month almost money left last week ended hospital overdose grams day everyday days tought heart would explode cant stop cocaine totally addicted even medication anymore pure drug try feel something get high much used it need huge quantities bullshit ampxb cant handle anymore weeks ago second time swallow medicines boxes somehow woke next morning pissed reliefed time ampxb today write email rehabpsychiatric center cant manage life alone anymore ampxb needed talk ampxb thank reading wish best,1 +idea trash bags full unshucked corn foyer house im going go make enquiries talk amongst update anyone situation,0 +around years ago really sad suicidal never told anyone thought life me girl entered life became whole world became happier ever felt joyous kid everything together knew life meaning her controlling prioritized number one got jealous bitter moments could seem anything without one another made boundaries broke boundary felt dearly about broke felt whole world fall apart filled guilt loneliness bitter sweet nostalgia cannot seem get over cannot think reason alive ever wanted gone feel worse met cannot stand feeling heart desperate sadness longing someone never either again hate sound vulnerable idk,1 + lot thank reading moved florida new york city massachusetts moved boyfriend got married im far away family parents arent pleasant times kind hard me miss animals grandmas house miss grandma much im pregnant prenatal appointment went shit doctor complicated everything wait till tuesday see im still pregnant frustration doctor everything went venting husband kinda snapped everything okay im worry wort gyno said theres heartbeat weeks even though used baby doppler didnt communicate didnt answer questions pretty upset start looking options stuff get thing absolutely scared husband got work started fight kept telling everythings difficult cant wait three weeks schedule another appointment theres something dead inside me started snap saying make excuses serious logical obstacles im husbands last name insurance couldnt update id offices keep giving shit saying fraud im illegal transfer licenses husband telling im trying hard enough list excuses like sister ran started crying left house turned phone cried came back minutes husband comes screaming calling stupid fuck dumb bitch ungrateful bitch names im sitting bottom shower snatches phone starts cursing said hope cry dumb bitch broke started sobbing hes trying nice today asking kiss im extremely depressed dont wanna here took rope car want tie noose end all one talk suicidal thoughts life hard nothings working me living literally hurts getting better miss animals much im sad said cut hes bringing crisis wanted go hospital get pregnancy confirmed told im dramatic ,1 +crush girl ive crush year wasnt like close friend tell said dont know like thats remember since didnt even know long first wanted get closer herwhich im atm feel like im getting closer keep getting closer giving like good vibes wait ask feel close,0 +pent emotions would always creeping back mind could stand anymore feeling selfhatred something many people experienced lives belittle selfworth believe deserve life given failed meet expectations people around that ran away much easier confronting problems times see value whatever reason thus begin think burden society people care about this start convince maybe existing would better cannot get unhealthy selfdestructive mindset always look floor walking cannot look people eye always negative perceptions dictate think people say negative things me important thing never felt meaning value joy life speech school exam called life its redflag depression,1 +sister saying mids time thing f sister college saying everything mids dont understand why didnt think old college years ago way thing right reaction everything saying mids good bad middle mids drop keys thats mids line long mids uses insult well youre mids dont mids,0 +ive suddenly felt really downlike nowhere really want die im scared sin kill islam really want die feel really lost unmotivated cant stand living more really want die feel ungrateful nice family pretty decent grades good friends nice pet rabbit sad want happy hard,1 +tired scaredi sick tired everything tired spending every weekend alone hoping next week last one never changes tired school tired another country tired anything productive whole day tired parents tired friends uses get something want scared scared say something wrong speak another language scared mom find smoking scared end alone one share dreams with one speak go bed thing stops killing grandparents die see anything black,1 +kissed girl years im proud myself hahaha gotem seriously virginity cool stay cool dudes,0 +feeling welli tired going life like this know headed towards bad endat point it going tonight next week maybe next year so cant live feelings cant live constant agony selfdestructive behavior anyone talk to im miserable need help want actual face talk to text,1 +love degeneracy tbh think wonderful love fact society heading point b weird fucks want beautiful,0 +somebody dm im bored af nothing do m,0 +delete rdr cod rainbow six delete cod definitely download red dead delete rainbow might delete small game havent played cod since like early july hoping season bring back havent played rainbow since like may something im playing play rainbow first game got xbox one great memories it,0 +fellow teenagers reddit please give cutefunny name ideas call gf im trying brainstorm cute funny things call girl friend need inspiration got any dont shy,0 +suspicions dating girl things going really well weeks ago noticed started getting kinda short me wanting talk whatnot would tell stop asked going on week ago texted said needed space couple days big deal thought well hour ago told seeing sleeping withanother guy asked serious sent screenshots texts him mostly flirting stuff last screenshot said couldnt wait fun tonight would break morning idk im gonna point completely honest seems like everything wrong mess everything up tbh wanted feel happy crap thats going dont think thats gonna happen took time read this wanna say thanks helpful read similar posts know im one still hurts like hell,0 +want cut away society get away everyone delete ties history somewhere nobody knows am want run away foreverso sick tired expectations want time people roles,1 +context diagnosed mdd probably asdnot actual diagnosis least think looking different signs concurrent long remember hospitalized suicidal ideationi turned recently oldest child live mother younger brother argue lot usually brother mother i mother brother problem case attend therapy nothing notcannot talk much mom hard money sick upcoming hysterectomy dad paying child support mom argue lot brother argue answer question continue ask mom yells argue back disagree try raise voice seem end argument probably something wrong argue always boils trying kick redflaged is cry tell bad mom redflaged is always gone like since bad mom problem me clear want blame took equation things would fine time reluctant feel depressed right way convinced right idea posting here clearly doubts thought best say something somewhere feeling depressed feel like everyone would benefit killed myself,1 +nothing left hereim dyspraxic learn drive job skills towards getting one driving kind like sex either high school amp experienced amp reaping benefits that missed never able it incidentally never relationship either partially due insecurities relationships home life growing im female btw fwiw im gonna spend life adult baby cant go trips everyone else seems going on mountains exciting new towns etc instead im stuck home id never matured past middle school fuck that thats fucking me care making ppl sad crying help though im sorry make anyone sad want out,1 +tabletstheres strip tablets drawer take stare it theres nothing else od,1 +little background recent breakup two weeks ago boyfriend basically said romantically interested anymore come find days later already grindr really hurt whole break top things going breaking point depression redflag started seeing therapist probably started saying ago honest anyway since break really appetite last weeks lost almost pounds wondering anybody tips get appetite back least feel like getting little bit nutrition appetite depressionredflag,1 +keeps asking impossible mesmile says wish could lie easily smiling would false reassurance smiling means okay right now smiling seems cry help muster hope notices even then conversation go little notes im leaving everywhere posting rredflagwatch im work smiling like want badly tell someone figure themselves half rational today yesterday felt half rational day before feel like im slipping looked list good places go missing lucky many places near people disappearing decades could go there could make disappear walking far forest great getting head anyways maybe wait ready starve death woods whatever feel like smiling,1 +im one year lefti turn sunday july th ever since young teenage years made promise time turn shit still sucks im out never thought day would come im going enjoyable potentially last year life im gonna branch out try new things meet new people stuff depression taken away since want last days best days ive ever had ive enough life now im going live best year ever,1 +anime recommendations like anime considering getting it personal favorites my hero academia takes place world population superpower known quirk main character falls unlucky doesnt despite this still wants become superhero like one amazing supporting cast creative power system quirks vary much got dude fire ice powers theres guy tape dispensers elbows no joking assassination classroom middle school tokyo new teacher shows happened responsible destroying moon plans earth end school year class students kill graduation moves mach isnt easy one funniest sure korosensei chill attempts life even dinner sniper send him students great too possessing talents death note may heard one kid named light finds notebook kills anyone whose name writes it uses kill criminals becoming known kira killer written katakana detective named l tries hunt down suspenseful mind games light l great task force police wellwritten matsuda favorite also amazing visuals the promised neverland im going spoil anything one better go blind,0 +movie flaws brings light problems come living country democracy makes empathize people government makes want learn lives struggles potential leader aung san suu kyi makes one wonder government interfere places wanted yet ignore ask help,0 +keeps getting worse starting feel horrible loneliness ive depressed long remember moving varying degrees unhappiness months time recently ive begun feeling terrible loneliness im popular enough school lot friends feel like ended one would even notice except best friend family younger problem thought dying im coming grips fact die matter what even dont want beyond control feel like anything pointless eventaully lasting impact dead even farther future every star universe die since january year hasnt day serious suicidal thoughts havent crossed mind ive started think i hate myself whenever walk mirror idea why consider attractive problems self esteem im trouble dealing recent increase horribly sad thoughts far worst ive ever felt depressive cycles feel like unfair deal this im time feel enjoyment im im relationship with dont know anymore want stop honestly cant take anymore,1 +sadusually feel urge die usually fantasize dead relieved plight comes life time ive much drink barely think straight feel incredibly sad think others whove ended themselves close me long since ended himself still memory hes resting peacefully ever since im tempted long endless peace harmony comes nothingness death,1 +cannot anymore breaking point cannot talk family want worry cannot talk mother already tried recall mom saying something like we depressed here words wanted hear hearing words felt sharp pain heart cannot really talk father drunk cannot talk siblings mean much me cannot make worry me would break heart cannot talk friends lost long time ago lost friends wanted isolate them kill would hurt less haha remember even telling best friend time this hope forgot me live life peacefully without me feeling years shake off honestly wish me thanks read whole thing cannot anymore,1 +fucki made post before talked situation little friends leaving college parents really like care me long im fed really care feel dropped school parents pushing go back motivation finish it like used like hockey computers hate them feel like nothing left me cant feel happiness life point living seen signs things going get better even know could get job show up thats school anyways still like talk friends like discord that seems like like really care happens me try tell im feeling awful ignore it really care matter much try get point across im happy think ever happy crave like important somebody day see really isnt possible personality besides sad time thing play fucking video games day even get joy that used watch people play games youtube shit thats enough either ive pondering whether like hig hike south see something finally makes feel better like leave one would really notice parents probably tell im gone like days since rarely even check me like matter choose im going happy im told redflag answer really tell why want like stop feeling pain alone time ive never actual girlfriend anyone actually cared me feel like matter im going actually meet anyone shallow am push talk girls hurts everytime get ignored told im boring like actually matter school say get really picked gotten shit kicked like times like talking like wanna give want kill myself feel like im running excuses im alive right now used fit healthy hockey im underweight almost pass randomly get anything used actual friends really like talking since really reason talk im boring uninteresting may think im assuming things get told repeatedly dad mom thinks like help feel better gives tell im feeling brother literally wants die like joke wanted stab one point hid room hes disabled really take seriously still hurt want see actual sign like im making day fucking get old thing sit waiting friends talk computer wait long enough try talk like play game get mad leave fucking sucks know do run away stay dropout go school anything never motivation fucking myself know least structured shit probably said lot things multiple times fucking hate feeling shitty empty want something change like anything,1 +want help problems parents dont know about thinks bit different issue thats probably true thinking setting therapy that would love go therapy big problem doesnt know id like keep way also would suspicious appeared eager go im stuck hiding one problem trying get get enough attention get therapy discuss real issue must look like dont want go laugh funny,0 +classmate mine tested positive im gucking anxious ive got ill tested tonorrow go back school mom heart proplems diabetes yesterday spent hours step dads mom brother old weak im ancious it since aslo dont best health hope guy class alright so mate youre reading this please dont fucking die,0 +im uselessim idiot redeeming qualities cant socialize people try make feel useful making traits wearing mask im people public try come funny interesting im boring piece shit interests passions could ever live dedicate long enough even come close getting better them im smart im attractive im sociable im athletic im nothing try make jokes create interesting stories even suck used smart atleast feel like it cant construct normal thoughts vocabulary limited im talented like kids see school specialty hobbies im mess tries catch never will im edgy idiot small brain ik true spend hours studying things people grasp minutes get distracted hours more think potential somewhere dont actually even adhd pill helped focus im fucking stupid cant form normal thoughts im always sidetracked think maybe potential im smart person cant express cant focus tap intelligence never happen nothing helped so cant fucking artist writer even handwritings shit express thoughts paper let alone draw im going zoning thinking philosophies concepts life rest mine ill never able hold normal conversation anyone long dont know express utilize thoughts thinking abilities try make feel better acting like idea whats going redeeming qualities im someone whos different good way instead fucking ball anxiety distraction insecurity endless selfconstrued facades aimed others alike think mental disorder theres something wrong me theres nothing wrong me theres excuse stupidity laziness inability grasp simple concepts act like like people around me like understand like understand me everytime someone finally gets close me relationship bound end shitty way cant help act im irresponsable keep long term relationship think im something different someone matters im slow hell cant construct simple thoughts simple things pick social cues rude fuck think maybe im nice person maybe ill finally find whatever im good finally settle someone likes finally meet someone seems like me cant express anything im stupid piece shit wishes value importance piss anyone get close to burden people im close im flowing shit hole problems needs dump people feel fine try think others like me actually manage enjoy obnoxious company think future writing films making music im never going live expectations set myself im going keep failing again could settle less live entire life wishing living greener grass write memo im gonna go back life bullshit act like im complete retard like think function normally talk people normally think might stop snapping anger im edgy fuck think might even nice reality im selfish prick cares cant try grasp concept world doesnt revolve around him think im main character movie reality ill probably stay cameo villain everyone wants see die stupid things think loathful thoughts get angry blue afterwards things wonder fuck wrong wish someone understood me knew hadnt snapped im evil person snapped im fucking idiot self control power ill go back normal life im gonna keep saying im fine everyday fine im introspective enough see useless every days ill cry heart out ask support wipe tears put mask back on ill repeat cycle eventually whoever cry get sick me eventually ill run people cry to im fucking trap negativity draws everyone around it theres nothing it many god damn masks fit well me personality mood want be perfectly feel mood emulate acts brain programs say start acting one way another acclimate setting surroundings feel happy bit ik happiness illusion facade happiness leaves anxiety depression racing mind come back thats thing im good atfaking out point dont even know real self is bunch personalities think real self would ambitious one thinks go good college smart balanced healthy kid somewhere along timeline template actions im in something change ill finally able relate socialize level two people maybe ill stop able analyze every detail around stop knowing details things inevitable ill stop running processes head like fucking computer talk people guess thoughts feelings maybe ill finally able stop racing thoughts channel intelligence onto something current ill finally able good enough good people around watch care regardless dead weight am ill finally amount undiagnosed piece shit result condom rupture wont kid whos weird fuck nutcase,1 +dad makes want kill myselfmotherfuckingbitchassholecuntfucker dad doesnt really get involved life unless like yell try make feel guilty ive trouble staying motivated schoolwork pretty much everything else im medication depression anxiety nothings working far cheated way online school since th grade im senior failing classes late make everything missed great plan would drop out get job focus mental health work towards getting ged brought mom yelled stupid n shit cuz theres couple months left told dad hes making mad face flares nostrils looks like wants beat face yelling said would failure stuff ive learned tune out know want whats best dont understand probably never will matter many times try convince do dad fucking annoying sometimes makes feel stupid invalid always talks hard time young get something like get this idk probably thinks hes helping relating makes feel like hes invalidating feelings seriously whenever bad day im like crying room day somehow makes himself saying things like putting dad thishe talks rd person talks therapist physiatrist tells story hard time younger compares us reason want kill sometimes feel like redflag option dont know theres lot could say hard focus anything,1 +though movie cheesiness best pulled perfectly movie without doubt considered modern classic basically two kinds movies like movies depth chick flicks must blame wife this mindless comedies sit back relax movie perfect example latterbr br a friend mine turned movie shortly release considering somewhat shallow said me youve got see movie type movie foregoing insult started watching know mentioned ramones million times actually see them said hey ramones friend replied i know real band moment glorybr br this movie though somewhat dated must see ramones fans anyone else matter,0 +omfg gonna commit many war crimes got internet taken away days wet dream stained boxers im gonna actually kms point,0 +need diei cannot live anymore hate body face im fucking disgusting ugly impossible woman show interest imsofucking hideous everyone around popular good looking males find women effortlessly women anything good looking guy im defective worthless need todie cant continue live fucking forever alone loser cunt societyy hates human filth like me nothing ever works out nofufure hope death everyone denies things cannot denied longer onlyhope die,1 +idkmy mum said itd peaceful killed want die im scared dont know id im scared death would like dont know dont want want parents get wish regret,1 +godi wish could someone else ,1 +social interactionthose days upvotes random strangers reddit attention get,1 +request helpful people hello name meaghan high school senior research project need collect data prove problem statement actually problem link two surveys one long survey one short survey take surveys one would really love took please share surveys many people possible aiming responses prove friend reddit actually helpful please help prove friend wrong xd short survey link httpsformsglehuuznjpc long survey link httpsformsglekvudzcypvzbkvon thank taking time answer surveys questions comments please ask please share links d great daynight,0 +emotional meltdown meltdown fun want knock hammer lol,0 +theres song called lizzy come back life cool high schooler named lizzy always feel like lizzy actually crazy old milf,0 +extraordinary singer cares anything else final scene one best moments show biz bar none im glad kept camera ten minutes deserves iconic status power voice br br i first saw film five huge impact me see today yes see flaws like esther wanting leave grammys right award announcedbr br but user comments plain false mean gratuitous nudity maybe saw different films br br streisands singing ability monumental big ego fine br br shes earned it,0 +wtf got shot didnt anything deserve,0 +nearly always case britain comes entertaining andor successful sitcom quiz show yanks come along poach format produce own grossly inferior version man house is course exception rule yanks version threes company unwatchable braindead pap seem run forever prime example quantity nonexistent quality original hand fondlyremembered gem savvy like fawlty towers pull plug precisely right time unlike episodes hilarity threes company came jo cute brilliant chemistry ropers richard osullivan made look easy scripts whilst exactly oscar wildestandard consistently funny chrissy dropdead gorgeous woman walked face planet since dead sea merely feeling unwell nuff said,0 +got chicken pot pie shit good yall gotta get often,0 +remembers mad cartoon network guys must know im talking about year old remembers too remember days things perfect come home around pm turn tv mads playing ah yes annoying orange spy vs spy theres others stood imo,0 +fuck existi wanna exist put back born forced existence reason would rather exist go heaven,1 +endless cycleits like im brink attempting it something good happens bring back hope im going okay feel alright while suddenly horrible sinking feeling hits want end things more something good happens repeats exhausting,1 +getting muchim completely messed head doesnt know happy happiness cant bring feel anymore even feel bit slightest glimpse happiness feel depression doesnt let happen battling battle im constantly losing years worst thing im youngand way life going dont want live im typing tonight gcses dont go school due head completely holding back im going good future ive completely let parents ive messed whole body mental health even due drugs cant take anymote wish reverse button go back good times unfortunately cant happen say hope u never get much hole im stuck happens best us ur going tbrew hard time keep ur head farewell,1 +feel well insecurities drown mei feel insecuree myself sure purpouse even worth effort somebody care think might get that feel drowned thoughts feelings push deeper want feel good again need help may fall even deeper months go on troubled,1 +give up tonight nightin yo female rant anything dont need advice people telling itll get better wont im selfish iive done evrything ive talked counsellors gonr hospital voluntarily times another one wasnt choice posice also called times friends hate me ive assaulted many times blackmailed it yeah night planned,1 +want everyone stop hating me already hate enoughthey cant hate im dead,1 +king underworld features early role humphery bogart one many gangster rolesbr br he plays joe gurney uses female doctor treat men pays it follows goes live auntie one gurneys men kills doctor husband also worked him gurney kidnaps author way find female doctor gets write life story plans kill him finally meets doctor gives gurney men substance makes temporarily blind author fallen love manage escape police arrivebr br joing excellent bogie cast kay francis james stephenson john eldredgebr br watching king underworld good way spend hour one eveningbr br rating stars ,0 +ever feel like youre explode but listen dooms soundtrack youre ok again,0 + depressed feel like accepting never anything great value hate everything myself feel alone even friends bf family feel inescapably sad lonely trying get job lockdown lifting shit show feel like honest people succeed impossible get anywhere unless know powerful people somehow convince help youi pathetic crazy feel ugly inside out feel like want peel skin off take shower water feels like rough sand hitting skin feel worthy washing feels bad wash eat sleep nothing feels goodi medication shit even worse without it feel like done everything wrong everyone mad know fix it getting shit chest,1 +day living back momand want kill already great,1 +yohi really dark moment atm aspergers syndrome affect social skills trying improve time never enough one day im probably going die alone whats point continuing parents help either want go back home home makes worse isolated know whats going me never understand one understands remember reading article redflag rates autistic people higher heh understand fact now,1 +well holy damn yesterday cousin stayed overnighti dreami weird dream weird mix town florida pouter like son mayorthen guess dream started introducing every characters pouter issue of water ran outand dunno like farm mayor house saying shit likei i dont remember name story town fell apart because fucking water shortage dream cuts cousinand started trying resolve water problem also apparently electrical cut reason went cousins brother houseasked current water working woke could answer woke upmy mom urging cousin wake also told gonna water shortage pmits almost amby time im writing this well cant make shit upso yeah heard momi lost shit,0 +life shittired fucking living shit everyday nothing ever changes im loop everyday im fucking tired wish kill already cant anything right,1 +im sadguys every day same im senior high school literally everything outside life looks great hate it times im happy day im joking best friend school talking boyfriend night latter always ends ruining already mundane day gosh know hes wrong talking hearing misunderstand reminds alone am love much hes literally killing semblance peace may day cant look forward future think dying every day escape this redflag never leaves mind days everything going get harder im tired crying alone bed every night always same heart consistently slowly build back day always breaks night ups downs killing me im waiting day buy gun point long years get through,1 +metal musical discussion many people actually think metal listeners demonic god hating crapheads depths hell,0 +redflag hotlines worstim fine now recall years ago go detail exactly happened called hotline people dense got told basically shrug off told take hot bath prevent suicidal thoughts holy shit known bath would prevent mental illness id richard simmons outlook life seriously bland tone say generic lines call cops show house without giving information cop said either take hospital jail explained situation mentioned cannot afford slammed hospital bill im going jail because gave warning suicidal tendacies idiot phone sending people jail racking hospital bills someone suicidal going make suicidal flaud system told refused go either committed crime wanted search house told need warrant that point took phone started recording them repeating needed warrant search home get recorded experience calling national redflag hotline truly suicidal call people make feel even worse better trying luck therapist try hard meditation need stop hiring people telemarketing experience hire actual therapists least requirement therapy taking people street absolutely ridiculous national redflag hotline last resort center people truly need cattlehouse people cops show door people worst day lives people make worse saying bland emotionless things calling cops behind backs disrespectful person calling looking someome talk to need hire professionals takes someone special mindset genuinely care every call comes through hard get calls day redflag tske someone resolve care actually want help,1 +never seriously considered redflag recentlyi always thought redflag knew id never it past days im done cant get right diagnosis whats wrong me citalopram took edge while stopped working tried cymbalta made zombie docs going lamotrigine working mood swings thats starting fail too still leaves depressed crying anyway lamotrogine also given worst acne life im prepared fuck around anymore medications especially considering could lead weight gain see ever feeling good finding right medications psychologist fucking sucks went talk lamotrigine within one minute wrote script ability sent out office four minutes friends never did sister friend got married even tell we still live house dog parents trying help thats it whats point feel good earth feel anything,1 +hear yee hear yee fellow metal fans interested look band called static x industrial metal band released new album rip wayne,0 +ive ruining hair due anxiety quite mental health worsening thing recently actually pulling knots hair caused pull hair months hairline receded hair lost lot fluff like hair cuz annoying ive extra self conscious flat stringier idk point post is advice would love it guess kinda needed get there weighing quite bit,0 +war selfsabotagehi diagnosed depression years ago abusive family care meds reanimated redflag attempt teenager adult endured homeless twice years months progressing disability sight loss suspicion ms chronic pain other constant lack money selling place live year stayed bed days skipping showers food managed finish school years dropping i became homeless still attending high school even got accepted uni our schools free best follow meds therapy plans worked reactions tried open people ten years hard mental work finally notice name emotions see choosing still choice understand head works friends say ive changed lot better yet new crisis last year ive slowly ruining education skipping classes using opportunities created pretty decent uni authorities im stuck therapy cant make progress force something change something feels almost physical try shove sticking plans even though theyre big ones tried get parttime job get back job hunting market quit damaging sight even more right im verge becoming homeless again got kicked uni money meds already asked friends pay bills meds want ask often see selfdestructive part gains power reasonable one however still see ridiculous is im really afraid two years serious redflag thoughts ill something irreversible also get urges cut arms done almost years feel safer nothing even though know way dangerous today cried middle street cant take amount stress anymore one force act motivate fight im sure want live im also sure im able live way anymore redflag seems like bad decision one give peace see like tooth removal want get rid teeth damaged way get rid pain,1 +want join discord server pretty bored want join server preferably weird dm invite interested,0 +way months ampxbfeeling fatigued getting literally nothing done every single day exaggeration feeling like flaming pile trash,1 +vibin reddit raining outside tho mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,0 +join minecraft server switch im trying get onto rteenagers minecraft server switch yall explain please,0 +hwo deal today dropping sister school home way taxi driver unexpectedly applied brakes mf back glass covered see me applied brakes hard missed crashing him pulled told him watch road drive like ready pick fight anyone world even terrorists came started abusing real dirty front sister wanted say anything back sister want see like that said melee weapon sort taxi wanted abusive front sister said put yourself left metres saw driving like crazy beside make pull lick fight sort thing never happened me random stranger abusing following fight slowed took turn intersection going behind since mf back glass covered see me lost him whole way feeling stomach im home im sort disturbed cant focus anything never happened,0 +im tiredplease excuse english im spanish well know anymore ive trying fight long im weak keep falling feel like im worth fighting anymore lately ive suicidal thoughts cant find reasons keep fighting im bother everyone keep hurting everyone im nothing mess mother literally said me dead me talk anymore keep making life living hell asked dad professional help said need it thing need stop am thats tip iceberg stop all im nothing bother whats point keep living,1 +song uis_sex_real httpsopenspotifycomtrackalzbskhqvpespirjjqbrsibccdhttpsopenspotifycomtrackalzbskhqvpespirjjqbrsibccd skrrt cobain arcadia grey like songs energy guitar,0 +almost rent bad comments anywaysi thought similar darkness falls also liked part hated tooth ferry red neck brothers gas stationthey funny dialog made laugh comedy ruined movie bit unnecessarythe rest movie way horror suspense film be makeup good seen way worse movies one simple story believable actingits scariest goriest movie ticked wanting refund watching it dvd previews movies look good im gonna check out,0 +suppose quite achievement able present audience true tail frail man tail protagonist spend majority film back bed totally unable move yet achievement films effectiveness dramatic piece recollection true story guess argument people right die wish to film political statement perhaps thankfully shies away many scenes debate although include one sake argument anyway moreso one foreign language films presents lead character cripple nothing talk people around yet able come across engaging compelling anywaybr br so rather argument film sweet yet timely dramatic piece another person wanting something search something difference attaining goal would mean termination someones life would achieved physically going anywhere javier bardem plays real life galician ramn sampedro individual much earlier age dived clearing water shallow activity rendered bedridden rest life wish die focus chilean director alejandro amenbars film weve seen many films lives characters certain goals targets one must meet film provide satisfactory experience audience change pace sea inside gentle involve young energetic attractive heroes going battle far places real person something means much thembr br even strong policy either pro antieuthanasia may find hoping ramn gets wants end anyway film sets tone early ramn giving speech wants die watching family members immediately introducing situation subject watching audience may know film about interestingly family members anti wishes might place audience member feels strongly subject respective shoes purpose set tell audience no one man something incidentally whole family backing end quite easily film couldve gone route sampedro family vs everybody else antiramns idea young acknowledge whats really going others seemingly distraught even opinion want ramn stick around bit longer love allbr br the sea inside following story revolving around victim sorts ramn quadriplegic perspective see things from something may disjoint viewers film come across quite odd given presented film point view victim rather instigator lead character film always inducing cause cause effect drive criticism credit director delivering approach effective manner is film asks questions offers scenario audience ramns position would do think dream talk about consequently dreams lawyer juila rueda much shot audiences pleasure much ever slight window one mans escapist fantasies predicamentbr br the study julia intensifies somewhat later begins share certain similarities ramn begins strokes result disease own trait seems timely progression relationship adds ingredient connection top already engaging friendship julia feels physical pain restriction sense able get walk think realises value life given emotionally bad felt beforehand film based true story covers subject euthanasia feels like earth drama man situation prepared fight wants must verbally refreshing see films like sea inside references history gives us insight stand alone film delivers emotional engaging level,0 +help trying get banned guy fight subreddit game cursed first got nasty first get angry well worse final message invites chat says fun banned i love game dearly dont want banned image saying rteenagers wont allow post image reason anyone knows show ye tell,0 +may contain spoilersbr br all dogs go heaven great movie saw two years old understand well saw times started love it love songs movie favorite songs let surprised soon come home beautiful songs thing bothers movie charlie dieing little sister even watch part movie wonderful br br my favorite part movie annabelle charlie flying around heaven heaven beautiful movie clocks clever also love itchy fact dachshunds own cute br br overall love movie suggest everyone see it give movie stars,0 +found morgan subreddit worse imagine filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ricky gervais alpha af actually offend people enjoy offending too mean never give fatality man oh gives right amount fatality snowflake,0 +social cues look socializing teenagers hey teenagers ive always struggled socializing social cues never detect whether person wants friend tolerating me always either overreach do things person comfortable with never talk someone may want talk me thats im asking this,0 + movie amazing watched town next one grew up went saw buildings story took place in overall loved movie one jake gyllenhaals best also favorite parts science fair times father sad seemed homer wanted follow dream dad seem care one way another tag line true sometimes one dream bright enough light sky way movie shot impeccable believable could recorded s dress accurate slang too definitely recommend movie,0 +tonight samehi thank reading this going die tonight want to oh want to need get thought someone thank taking piece life read mine im tried kill tried since haha years clean shit sucks keep telling things get better know every day lie past years living take care grandfather mother job full time job taking care them spare time home repairs houses im pretty good basically done everything flooring whole bathroom remodels also built house bare hands sq ft dream home mother suicidal grandfather die every morning wake go check idea makes smile see him father got arrested child pornography couple months ago im thing mother now im dumb two college degrees feel like failure try sit think whats next everything want life im terrified losing everything im sad im wanting more im perfectly content scares me ive looking girlfriend years found one yet never go even though think im ugly cant find anyone using tinder ive tried dating apps nothing money name money goes mother grandfather odd jobs people like fixing home plumbing remodels guess call job make much require send tax return thing think im missing someone give love to ive ever wanted girl liked years think tonight night finally lay rest long story whole love life long story last crush knew long got raped wanted stop talking me year ago someone im actually happy her life get better sorry poorly written post much say care write everyone special special ,1 +im sick livingi want kill myself mom sisters stop abusing me physically emotionally really want kill cant im much pussy nobody knows world least want remembered die never happen want shitty life end,1 +take meds harm others harm myself deep feel like am nasty person narcissist compassionmonday tried hang could bear situation anymore wanted easy way avoid harming people also avoid harmed peoplewhen got chair hang reason could kill myself bit mess could get back chair easily legs shaking much like longer control lower body really thought going die really mind case well bad get back chair time managed get back chair took hell lot muscle strength anywayit deterred trying till today feel miserable nasty need another way end things maybe faster way despicable person,1 +feel like cant take care myselfthis post probably going messy unorganized thats okay guess first im going years old havent gone college anything work group home also live mother lets face caregivers dont get paid well would go school spending habits car payment prevent so im generic abilify generic zoloft along vitamin d feeling stable also still bit depressed feel emotionally stable unable perform basic things like getting shower pretty hard sometimes dont get started room also dont brush teeth im gross feel like cant take care myself sometimes wonder belong group home anyways guess thats it advice appreciated thank you,1 +least physically painful way itim pussy im scared pain even tho wanna die shooting tho sounds cause ill probably die feeling pain idk get firearm quickly uk also make easier others thats hardest thing keeping here dont deserve unnecessary pain wish could vanish without anyone knowing wanna go like never existed,1 +girl dont know well yet said thank hung like said rlly fun thank you good time ive never someone say b girls maybe try one cause thought super sweet made attracted,0 +im bored anyone chat title says body text,0 +standard title saying come over basic karma farm phrase take spotify cakecheese edit thanks free karma second edit saying thx awards third edit saying family member died helped fourth edit apologising meta,0 +want tell anyone struggling suicidal thoughts like am stay us yo fat ass cannot get proper job surrender easily change thankful alive hope form bottom heart find joy lifegod bless chapter life,1 +alive fucking painful want go sleep never wake uppost history context,1 +makin fun omegle im yo antarctica,0 +suicidali feel want kill much want live,1 +like commit die thinking why hard question like either,0 +need brutal honestyso ive come conclusion im leech parasite friends losers change life which believe possible hard work effort want change itll take long im goddamn lazy thats truth im drinking rn contemplating hang tonight constantly feel suicidal im sober shit everyday expecting changes need get ass bother idk im asking natural selection finest lol,1 +redflag kept going past monthsive terrible yearim pretty sure everyone has year made promise enough enough dont believe redflag im despair depressed know years time function,1 +imma honest yall straight tik tok extremely cringey awkward,0 +donei wanna end it want take shit ton pills done im tired feeling way im tired people treating like dont matter dont im trash im better gone one cares hate every moment spend alive,1 +feel like miserable human makes lives around miserable ill always miserable matter do feel drenched it sinks clothes clumps hair together chunks wears bones makes hard move think impacts love most nothing life get better tried better life work everyone life either hurt way cannot forgive hurt way cannot forgive for feel disgusting disgusting person disgusting body disgusting sick brain makes think disgusting sick thoughts people personality disorder attempt suicide successful lot dead even bother vent feel like existence misery,1 +ask stuff pt end answer dishonestly,0 +fuck girls probably gonna get downvoted oblivion saw this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskmpvtfuck_girls front page afternoon opinion topic pretty much summed no lets take pointforpoint shall we ampxb gtgirls always say guys never open do fucking tell friends laugh every single girl ive talked to eventually open bit moment open up tell friends laugh this suck thats all female thing asshole thing ampxb gtits even fucking worse im trying friends girl think crush them im trying get know better every girl try become friends thinks interested probably something make think interested teenage girls least experience actually super happy make guy friends often value relationships female friends really sad thats another topic entirely ill try get sidetracked ampxb gtthan tell friends fucking laugh fuck gonna laugh shes messaging shes actually interested say fuck gonna send pictures herself wave n smile even add private story that fucking laugh im sorry sound like sucks again really asshole thing certain extent boys too maybe even worse super sweet funny own become warm toilet seats highest order around friends ampxb hanging wrong girls honestly assume every girl meet insensitive dirt bag may part issue,0 +seriously cant stand waking living shitty life anymorei guess people would call schizophrenia thats bad yeah ive isolated geographically relationally point literally see anyone outside immediate family extreme perverted selfhatred myself every single aspect hate it body mind disgusting fucking skin bothers me wanna peel fucking skin experience couple moments outside flesh couple people care messaged today literally person replied supposed best friend straight told drugs even said anything problem literally idea going on says im dope take care two people one disability enough failed also useless piece shit comes them like still fucking hurts wish programs redflag assistance want sloppy everyone see body get freaked out im tired pretending better really cant ive plenty chances ive failed every single time wish attention really do life one big fucking cringe people want nothing me it blame them fantasize quickly bullet would end noise constant battle within head finally even realize dead honestly people always going see junked loser would rather high deal people talking shit,1 +stay alive others terminally illoutside reddit dont like talking feelings im tired told grateful health others arent lucky im basically waste life sometimes feel guilty it could id give life someone,1 +frogs would make good shoes,0 +question girls height matter always wondered friends never answer need know im pretty tall age,0 +todayim positive die hand many bad days understand people go on nihilist arbys unfortunate spirit animal,1 +nuke inbox legend forever greatful,0 +anyone else subconsciously internally glorify redflag physical painfor period days lasted two weeks ago found serious sudden physical pain largely over call unbearable really sucked worse would stay hours simply sleep anymore thank god pain bad unable sleep something happened happened periods intense pain internally imaginationmind glorified redflag escape pain imagined damn nice would painlessly end could end pain wanted bad idea became palatable subconscious level thank god consciously aware horrible idea permanent solution knew would temporary problem phenomenon happened horrible pain ive considered becoming gun owner past actually generally support gun rights in fact financial issues reason yet extreme paininduced mood swings makes afraid cant sure done something pain much worse think id get nonlethal defense options like pepper spray stun gun im horrified another pain flare comes might lose selfcontrol end gun fortunately promise actually suicidal pain largely feel thoughts anymore really concern id love get idea abnormal is something similar ever happened bad flareups pain subconsciously involuntarily think redflag palatable relief physical pain even though consciously know it,1 +anybody else wishthey would get hit car walking somewhere driving like hoping truck would notice red light hit me,1 +hopelessi came reddit hoping find others felt like could share stories vent other whats point all ill leave app since attempts friendship failed getting ghosted know hard hate it wish could give completely wish afraid die,1 +want drop course school effect grade future dad let me hard going mental strenuous time need another thing redflag out want tell dad want kill another course redflaging out convince him suicidal school redflaging out,1 +endno matter hard try nothing end ive put everything left final effort failed never ever her over guess im gonna end miserable life soon,1 +dog died weeks ago alright part miss again found crush girlfriend always home alone bored demotivated sleepy goddamn time work anymore shitty diet weather sucksi know going get better bad life go shits quickly sometimes,1 +ok know friend going talk something happened today kinda embarrassing im internal battle trying stop saying ngl pretty pog help,0 +sub discord server know sub minecraft server might check soon discord server,0 +actually c im shaking know feel cold even got blanket cold go away,0 +happy one wants meim used ignored rejected thats ive entire life hurt anymore hurts nothing ever changes girls even look me even accidentally trip front them always strike conversation strangers get shut way bit later conversation shethey decide leave internet too send polite message saying would like chat andno response wrong think im forward desperate obnoxious im average nice guy looking companionship even think im bad looking imagine andrew garfield shorter younger guy thats kinda look likeloosely work everyday physique gymnastagain loosely girls hate kidding myself see guys less attractive mein opinion attractive girls cant i ive years always same happy knowing one wants date me ever think redflag die somehow day nowi think would mind,1 +heard jerk someones photos immune system go stonks,0 +better way everyonei unlovable,1 +guys need reddit gold time pull classic strategy woman,0 +living life complete wasteits waste potential never got explore due failings human being waste peoples time precious time could spend improving lives unlike person know life works know itd advantageous everyone chose end it dont want try anymore im tired fuck world,1 +imagine simp couldnt ever tbe real note im abt pass,0 +last post here tomorrow turn longer teenager miss greatly goodbye,0 +attention hand over,0 +school begins augest th told id gain weight throughout summer no still freaking skinny hate it cursed fast metabolism cannot look like normal teenage girl makes self harm damn redflaged weight makes want end,1 +girl sending mixed signals think need outside input one ive friends girl years recently as past year so talking constantly weve talking caps months joke often tells misses me sending emojis back forth batches sent emoji time calls best friend said snap couple months back looking date seeing im socially inept figured id get input outside perspectives want ruin friendship idk shes not thoughts looking far this,0 + year old girl going kill sooner lateri took advils weigh lbs hope kills fucks somehow need catharsis,1 +wrote redflag noteim going now least cant leave people love love me wrote tore want cant leave them im tired sad feeling plastic going highs lows im tired,1 +today experienced strange new feeling definitely related relationships currently preparing law entrance exams enter premier law institute country great interest international relations countries conflicts genocides power struggles revolutions along civil wars studying almost hrs day yet anxious nervous worried time always seems like enough considering future would literally depend upon exam conducted may see one set questions cannot freak out start breaking down year plan years ba llb hons years job law firm solid background years llm international arbitration law becoming international arbitration lawyer thing knew much scope field today came know person literally goal aim basically dream like role model new feeling experienced something like this sort immense joy gladness almost immediately followed glim fear failure horror fail even single step feeling continuing cycles think going mad thats it thank reaching far,0 +drugs really coolsedatives really much affect me oxyz percs form narcotic even weed guess high tolerance amphetamines good graduated highschool long ago constant contact dealer much before car bike bike lives hour away theres really dangerous intersection would cross order get place im thinking could bike eyes closed red light on since getting hit car highway going speed likely kill me get hit kill me ill least feel something get hit all score speed currently thing know make life feel worth while even little bit seems like winwinwin me,1 +gtg asapi wanted things set affairs order committing redflag birthday couple months think make far yesterday mom yelled told three weeks get job move skills motivation cant make own ive severely depressed years ive pretty much always lived constant state fear ive tried meds therapy fucking work really want die im scared feel like options im worried go hospital mom say im attention seeking lazy brat shell probably gut room get rid shit went hospital couple years ago unbearable suicidal kept week helped bit mom upset disappointed me id like poison bedroom im thinking might walk highway jump front truck parents go bed tonight wanted donate organs people whole body school anatomy but gotta fresh mangled also wanted avoid traumatizing strangers forcing witness death oh well fucking problem,1 +plan dont know im waiting forit sucks waiting around something dont know itll ever come around plan somewhat feasible imagine ever hit point needneed shouldnt issue hope future pulling back likemissing past miss was annoying loud zero self awareness cringe fuck least happy count finger notches many times ive spoken loud today looking old pictures struck circle dwindled little people people cared dumped maybe shitty friend tendencies reared ugly head ones smart enough get fuck away me want over dont want senior year dont want go university honestly want lie never get back up,1 +exreporter jacob asch eric roberts hired acquaintance raymond j barry find exwife son asch heads palm springs quickly locates ex laine beverly dangelo someone believes son a young johnny depp things turn bit complicated asch discovers former white trash laine definitely married form millionaire simon fleischer dan hedaya first son nowhere seenbr br directorwriter matthew chapman channeling body heat mids neonoir watchable enough thanks allstar cast nice locations dangelo still looking good around time makes good femme fatale afraid show skin however mystery compelling end costarring dennis lipscomb emily longstreth henry gibson chapman made several thrillers s biggest career achievement coauthoring screenplay infamous color night,0 +thought could handle horror halloween now awake bed am fuck watching haunting hill house till like again,0 +university tuitioni gambled lost im university student dont job im going short k upcoming semester dont see way im sorry,1 +depressionnot really cry help thoughts depression m depression like ego death everytime get depressed goal life cant set goals depressed way around forced something somebody else friend family ect feel like cant let down relationships myself like matter probably recently started viewing lookism blackpill narrowed value humans biological sexual attraction cant value humans objective means dosent exist sometimes get monster self hate nihilism creeps whole time function normally forced alone care due numbness project bad intentions people around me depression ego death order emotions anything need ego construct connects expirieences personhood feel like person thus ego depression manifestation ego cant fully expressed society feel like matter thats expirience ego rarely trough meditation got moments egolessness pure awerness bliss earth need realize brain job feed information tries construct picture expect outside world feed brain bs worthless brain starts depression way save energy disociate experience depressed move all almost like winter sleep animals also numbness lack comunication sign major dissociation world interact world everything person bad every minor major depressive episode integrated new behaviors either changed belifs behaviors towards something think depression litteraly dying another person new one born obsessive thoughts make sense consciously processing new form yourself body dosent want die really trying kill want something yourself existance whole hate person call yourself ego death best way escape change thinking easier said done try medditation make anything less relevat beautiful time every major problem matter would see trickery brain person reality awerenss body mind thing call ourselves,1 +im getting reddit im sick platform whole im sick people hating republican called karen wearing mask car called nazi supporting trump racist supporting blm shut say anything good cops try defend them im sick all blows over wont online much all care anyway wanted say couple things sorry rant,0 +think really existnothing feels real ever cant remember feeling like real person like actually exist people ignore listen forget time disposable extra peoples lives existing convenient times them like im fading away world even cutting feels like anything anymore im nonexistent see point living is fake im real getting worse going keep getting worse,1 +ive screwed muchim mid s teacher teaching ever wanted do postcollege job ive had love it im horrible it ive fired multiple schools used think bunch awful principals im fired fifth school finally realize problem me ive trained great mentors read books education attended workshops apparently still get it ill never get better thing want do im interfering learning students cant classroom anymore theres nothing else stomach doing cant face life without this ill find next week ill get contract next year dont im ending all,1 +anyone else spend like mins putting together serious post delete yeah cant filerrrrrr __________,0 +life falling apartquarantine sucks school come back stress kicking in best friend trying help im dragging aswell mum arguing time im starting consider selfharm coping mechanism dont want die im scared longer goes on likely something stupid irreversible,1 +reviews dead on ill cut different chase answer couple questions ive seen herebr br while characters seem look young hence controversy actoractress time obviously barrier usa thats still somewhat controversial simplicity innocence film much offset itbr br im sorry seen sean movie least expressions demonstrative obvious know exactly character feeling whether hes angry afraid confused anicee healthy career whos life cut unfortunately short cancer late beautiful talented actressbr br vhs tapes friends found amazoncom occasionally usually significant price ive seen low high as comment two price sequel video paul michelle quite pricey obtained when available amazon average,0 +moment eveningive suicidal thought almost two years evening thought finances felt like giving up truck broke last week way repairing it make much money live check check theres public transportation here shit credit since divorce department education took taxes student loans mother still lives addiction father makes enough live thats it one help life shit sometimes thanks listening,1 +get easily frustrated many things examples mindwhen politicians wear masks talk microphone nobody next need relay message you stop posturing cannot understand muffleling that one going popular bear pleasethat commercial explodes phone speaker everytime pops youtube bad willing bother make profitbella poarch feel like fake pretendcute doubt half cute real lifejeff bezos goes space got anything better money like helping poor know one trivial thingsand anyways therapist told accept things said think object room bother you right well try attitude towards things frustrate you get angry ventilator corner room get angry wind etcshe also told what concern someone fake interesting true problem bella poarch way is also simply cannot change her even enough money buy plane ticket meet her point hating her feel like makes world worse dislike that contribute anything world millionairi think fair cast judgements things bad things good according therapist way accept things peace world way relating things think bad without feeling need reject them hate them change them kind fluidwaterbendingtaichifishinthe stream way beinganyways would like hear anything say that personal experiences anecdotes teachings accepting things,1 +think im gonna sit fire weekwhats point life filled filled pain know life might change dont even want feel joy dont want feel anything anymore,1 +watched avatar movie shit disappointment immeasurable day ruined fuck would actually prefer show,0 +promise myselfwhat saved idea redflag without idea redflag would surely killed myself allowed keep living knowing option always sight really without could never endured life cioran really hurting loneliness age considering upbringings loneliness too makes feel hopeless perhaps social development stunted truly feel less normal person literally worthless uncared unloved really want special person life want it impossible becomes knowing pass away quite painlessly makes relaxed felt disgusting loneliness years ago nothings changed im giving years persists make vow right right kill myself would want dreadful life caused either shitty introverted neurotic genes stunted development both go sake family would hurt sorry not imagine death general fear missing anything id already missed believe truly matters meaningful friendships relationships people respect care for tomorrow day wake again take stimulant medication get bed attempt schoolwork hate imagine loser study engineering sleep days reattempt everyday become sociable positive valuable years that persists im pulling plug more years,1 +damn philosophy tube rlly gives chad sexy young teacher vibes daddy please cradle teach marx sex work,0 +pray wake upim year old guy college come middle class family dads father abusive alcoholic thus father abused much older brother time fathers child gotten little better used spank sister kids reason sister completely shut someone yells us changed gotten better yell get angry never lays finger either us however always expect to even though point life know cares would never that anger saw ingrained since child hate it mothers mother alcoholic well terrible childhood never physically abused mentally broken down exgirlfriend emotionally abusive manipulative combination mother live constantly thought everyone always passiveaggressive hate me often feel like capable loved hate much believe anyone could hate me nothing makes happy anymore job video games movies lost motivation couple friends tell care me quite frankly feel like would better without me feel like issues weigh realize much better would without me nothing live anymore nothing makes happy reason alive feel guilty leave friends sister hate life feel like everyone hates mad time everytime go sleep when trouble sleeping pray wake up hopefully pop tire car flips over don know hell read far thanks guess all,1 +gifts girlfriend christmas hey fellow teens struggling come gifts gf christmas ive already bought records likes however cant figure gifts one got recommendations,0 +meet girls know gonna lot people saying talk girls school stuff along longs problem im online school cant,0 +whats pointim sure common question here wanna kill myself find lack answers depressing everyone rushes wake up go work exercise fill time somehow whats point activities useful thought last weeks would lottery honestly know would buy bunch shit guess go bunch places actual seconds day would occupied way many would spend luxurious vacation walking around meals used drink would make happy good get hangovers now sustainable happiness how believe anything point world palm hand would probably still watch tv want eat fuck sleep thats all whats point anymore im ive seen much world think want see see realize want live least care living shit composted recycled keeps getting refined wanna die ive lost live im afraid im gonna get scared something impulsive,1 +want someone care metime time get attached people end always mean nothing them hurts much dumb want important people unloveable wrong people around wouldnt care alive dead ,1 +keep thinking madison holleran stoif it i deeply depressed external point view all young gorgeous successful something fight for future deeply depressed external point view nothing disgusting look at socially crippled zero appealing nothing fight for wish could trade her give life deserved better,1 +many attempts tiktok getting banned us sorry country bruddas,0 +fruit womb cursed remains cursedfor long time enthusiastically looked forward day could joyously exclaim fruit womb cursed reaps many blessings ive finally come accept fact day simply never come allencompassing peace death brings one blessing least glorious one,1 +rpeta shadowbanned want make something explicitly clear way petas message ideology find fault conduct themselves way month ago posted question subreddit wanted know peta supports vegan diets cats dogs even though so could lead death may seem hard believe given petas reputation however truly wanted get answers spark discussion instead get shadowbanned realised now forgot post even go hot rpeta see post even amongst post days ago pretty suspicious conduct mods part honestly made need rethink view group good people believe good things part peta however bad apples spoil bunch thanks reading feel free ask questions,0 +serious suicidal plansi always plan courage execute it want hurt family afraid failure im facing financial issues,1 +think someone talked might killed discord chilling got ping mental health group part of someone asked someone talk to said dms open started trying help him almost whole conversation kept saying would best killed himself last words stopped responding i go really nothing really help me sorry said kill happened like minutes ago offline now im scared might actually done it really like helping people mental illness much can shame seeing kinds people go youre dealing lot mental illness stress depression you dms open need someone help you please kill yourself know might sound tempting options hope alright,0 +dont know anymore story became friends best friends ex girlfriend thinks wanna things genuinely dont threatened saying test keeps threatening swear god fucking break jaw mobile sorry bad formatting,0 +think im ready join sisterroses red violets blue sugar sweet perhaps you roses wilted violets dead sugar bowls empty wrist stained red sun shining sky clear theres silver lining cause longer here rain keeps pouring theres end sight laying frozen far light beautys unreal smile sun time cant turned actions undone words wrote read i love much please cry im dead bond formed love ran deep pain shared friend could keep wanted hold you wipe tears eyes moment said goodbye want forget times dont want let go know wont tears face memories burned head roses wilted violets dead,1 +girls compliment guys today got compliment cashier age st checkout mady day even stuff like complimenting clothes miracles attitude,0 +thought may helpfula good friend showed poem desiderata go placidly amid noise haste remember peace may silence far possible without surrender good terms persons speak truth quietly clearly listen others even dull ignorant story avoid loud aggressive persons vexations spirit compare others may become vain bitter always greater lesser persons yourself enjoy achievements well plans keep interested career however humble real possession changing fortunes time exercise caution business affairs world full trickery let blind virtue is many persons strive high ideals everywhere life full heroism yourself especially feign affection neither cynical love face aridity disenchantment perennial grass take kindly counsel years gracefully surrendering things youth nurture strength spirit shield sudden misfortune distress dark imaginings many fears born fatigue loneliness beyond wholesome discipline gentle yourself child universe less trees stars right here whether clear you doubt universe unfolding should therefore peace god whatever conceive be whatever labors aspirations noisy confusion life keep peace soul sham drudgery broken dreams still beautiful world cheerful strive happy max ehrmann sorry bad formatting ill try fixing problem,1 +see mr eastwood glory ie top form actor height physical appeal ladies depicted hardly typical south now young girls boarding school incredibly naive showing signs developing really depraved women geraldine page fullblown corruption hardly represents mean comes head mistresses girls schools either now that say occasional bad apple barrel mr eastwood said one two favorite filmsbr br the beguiled original plot lot attractive characters many surprises store viewer thoroughly engrossing entertaining really realistic i know grown south attended girls school college moreover acquainted innumerable girls same mention laidback teachers might even say repressed professors far cry headmistress depicted here downright comical depiction southern gentle woman quite seemsbr br this movie little outrageous first appeared still is think sorry spent time watching it,0 +day reminding drink water forgetget life drink water dont die dehydration,0 +im tiredim tired life im tired alone im tired horrible world want end all,1 +today mom told family wants house aggression towards people pretty much made go anti depressants wanted live hated also final straw mom got argument told behaviour embrassing use aggression cope situations shameful told fuck off tried going counselling work know anymore think officially hit rock bottem,1 +im going hang myselfim going hang graduating useless ba biology think ill get medical school real friends money aspirations shut down theres point wasting everyones time money im saying goodbye everyone goodbye follow up nothing said help think might jump bell tower instead really want end everything now ive deserted people around me theres nothing change situation besides becoming millionaire,1 +day recommending songs like rteenagers httpsyoutubeerhxkxm day far,0 +extremely dense somber complicated film unravels quite slowly revealing excruciating detail like attention paid novel watching film is like watching novel unfold care narrator felt balance rest performances film features best ensemble acting ever seen lead summer phoenix fabulous innocence naivete might find implausible sort cross cinderella alice wonderland buy critique still fabulous partially unlike anything ive ever seen beforebr br this film unbelievably beautiful filmed eric gautier part unique film ever show expect always surprising despite length film never reveals needs to minutes extremely concise fault id say one wonders film filled brief moments simply stunning best likely see year moments add end extraordinary film experience family moments unique ian holm brilliant film say theater seen films since cassavetes opening night perhaps chaplins limelight but believe not film much less conventional never knew film going now seen it still multiple possibilities powerful incredibly provocative film,0 +feel music were strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking get guy wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play ask im feeling tell blind see never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell,0 +sorryim done sorry deactivated social media stuff thats left hanging around whenim gone andi told friends sorry cause probably make sad see end universe,1 +pretty bad brain fog symptoms havealways feeling extremely stupid confusing two things time eg words trouble articulate form sentences bad logical thinking wetting bed almost night trouble learn concentrate feeling tired forgetfulness eg remembering something long ago slow processing oh boy list goes oni worried work life thiscan anyone relate experience this wanted know lasts forever symptom goes away definitely depression brain fog,1 +im monsteri ruined everything like birth catalyst unplanned horrific event father never cared elementary middle school ugly stupid deserved called names front whole class messy deserved heart broken dive deep depression deserved hurt make others care me deserved used thinking smart dumped older guys online fall stepped on ruined life dating horrible person letting break get think smart again deserved assaulted one else deserves that im exception something horribly disgustingly wrong me got there got here meet amazing person disrespect them make feel small im stupid im broken damaged dragged someone keeps going im annoying person suicidal relationship im annoying attention seeker ruin myself life ruin others real reasons wanna stop ruining things wanna stop disgusting horrifying sickly beast wanna go care theres heaven hell disappear cant ruin everything anymore executed need execute me need one right thing know even that wouldnt right,1 +everything feels fine fine enoughits first post reddit hopefully im right english native language ive struggled depression whole life irregular way im constantly switching feeling super fine feeling depressed suicidal long period time months year so last depressive episode occured winter lot going life dropped classes lost boyfriend live dads toxic environment lot handle take it months since ive started considering healed fine again im meds anymore im lot stuff seing lot friends travelling started working freelance artist living again city deeply love passionate again even crush someone seems interested am im super active getting stuff done everything can honestly first time good episode feels great im pretty optimistic positive general yet feel fine enough still constant suicidal thoughts im unhappy im happy either feels great feel like theres point reason wanting end all feel like grateful feel like good enough motivation keep going often find thinking accident matter mind ill glad act thoughts im rational actually logical reason so keep wondering ideas actually go away someday feel like im missing survival instinct somehow anybody relate feeling could share experience recovering depression go away content situation ,1 +hell wrong meso basically scrolling subreddit days now reading peoples posts one thing common mental illnesses diagnosed anything yet somehow every time get angry upset mind resorts death redflag self harm idea whats happening many opportunities commit redflag missed them end concluded wouldnt nice family go losing one sons chickened out instead thought stabbing knife left hand cant anymore self harmed nothing extreme like aforementioned knife hand mum noticed cuts sat talk feel awkward shyed away telling truth multiple times back main topic noticed most all posts subreddit made people legitimate reasons actions feel belong psychopathic making post ask help advice hell wrong fix messed brain side note last night cried sleep brain made imagine seeing brother die slitting wrists bath tub horrible weird relationship brother bullies hate matter happens always best help him anyway rant over please help identify fuck wrong sorry making read lame attempt describing life,1 +cicadas northeast bros get ready year cicada season ,0 +cannot sleep supposed excited big company shit thinking much making want kill myself put lot work year get better sending entire strides back depression worried wake time choose gothat it going go cry sleep cuz anything say stupid stupid issue need get myself already wasted enough time anxious know sleep someone please make end soon am start new job hours,1 +ive watched movie twice plan see again movie puts directors place regarding romantic relations political situation israel also makes cry remembering wonderful time was horrible murder described there really worth watching,0 +th last rko falcon film starts mutual injunction tom conway tom lawrence alias falcon ed brophy goldie no dames whilst prepare go vacation still wondering theyre going vacation job since beginning st film with sanders gay though jenkins goldie bump woman get dragged seedy industrial espionage caperbr br they promise help uncle murdered taking envelope containing details formula make substitute industrial diamonds business colleague miami suspect everyone except cops lawrence goldie murder console goldie keeps paraphrasing travel brochures on coldest day always enjoy warmth nice cosy electric chair one nice languid atmospheric nightclub scenes rub shoulders especially bad behaviour baddies favourite bit dignified game hide seekhunt thimble imperturbable suave lawrence baddies sleeper train least favourite bit embarrassing scene entire series alligator wrestling hut definitely thrown kidsbr br all best series yet another entertaining outing overall satisfying plot many episodes even make wish could gone years columbia boston blackie although rko churning faster absolutely sex much violence in fact none todays high standards notredflagly message make type film anathema serious people regard movies art form must depend three pillarsbr br three diet falcons made later john calvert title role mind could never bring count main series tom conway made time sad also downhill conway moved tv voice overs even played norman conquest park plaza rather well also developed serious eye alcohol problems know linked wound poverty stricken spell hospital found dead girlfriends bed us folk want least still entertaining falcons plus number worthy even classic rko movies remember by,0 +went sleep depressed woke depressedthe first time thought redflag mom whipped across back one day star encrusted belt ive beat really young think around th grade beating sat daze felt like island surrounded unwanted found butter knife room started stabbing lol imagine trying kill self butter knife anyways fast forward im everyone thinks im happy wish never born hate loneliness feel everyday every serious relationship ive cheated never knew dad mom life person really sat said loved sincerely grandmother shes gone im crying hard im going stop forum now yall please pray every week think ending living flesh hate soon think depressions gone comes back hunt much wrong happened want know why cant find somebody love damn sure love never try wrong hurt,1 +k karma achived b,0 +want end iti really do never amount anything let die,1 +best way commit redflagi really hope everyone life right including pets know much mean however cant see going longer,1 +alone depressed anxious nothing brings reliefim prime life means beyond neglected hitting puberty teen rejected high school bullied college finding job something losing job losing family institutionalized going rehab system beyond new job changed routines sought help im right things im highfunctioning say show temporary problem demographics irrelevant something outgrow problem inherent within me regardless whats happening me matter im with existed isolation entire life anxiety depression ensure this ive seen councilors ive seen psychologists ive hospitalizedinstitutionalized occasions ive monitored group therapy ive ect im taking prescriptions im seeing psychiatrist practice mindfulness remind drink water force moderate amount exercise every day hate feeding myself graze healthy food eat things prop enough hold job rent apartment keep alive everything consume wasted dragging life many years im incredibly tired family smiles pretends im making up two friends sick hearing bring anymore easier keep friend show interest twice month without mentioning anything myself attracted someone makes suicidal always has unfortunately im asexual situation arises every day work online whenever go out know like close someone tried never beneficial either party closer get extreme anxiety becomes overwhelming unsustainable break down scare them relationship ends begins tried trying help ive gotten feel guilty still feeling way right im wondering im trying suppress natural im fighting body telling do want exist life death meaningless know im asking for sorry bitching least internet now,1 +best friend tried kill yesterday know doim shaking right now im angry scared barely type yesterday best friend left home without telling anyone rode train nearby city seashore tell anybody pm nobody suspected anything thought walking around city would come back home later however phone since way contact him tendency panic immediately assumed worst mom went police report missing pm hours later found aforementioned seaside city today knew called finally picked up relieved hear voice almost cried told whatd happened turns parents really bad agrument decided much took without telling anybody drank way much alcohol threw sea couple found unconscious beach body temp c called ambulance hes staying hospital friday talked phone said must tell anybody real reason hed went missing anybody asks im supposed tell ran away needed break know seems wrong keep information secret although hes safe now know attempt im really fucking scared him told terrified friends family were know do ive never deal sensitive situation like ever before do worst thing absolutely warning signs hed depressed talked school monday show unhappiness generally seemed fine also overall pretty positive person sure sometimes got angry apparently reason never talked situation house relations parents whole ordeal surreal me nearly lost friend im shivering writing this sorry long post needed vent somebody throwaway obvious reasons,1 +would lot easier give upall push ive pushing pushing keep trying find happiness gets shut every time thing makes happiest im helping people see joy eyes anything big small take care myself too passions hobbies goals calligraphy love music great passion coding im good it still pushing nothing brings happiness much weight me actions directed towards helping people losing luster get anything anymore things others see joy get rush it means stop finding ways make people happy find way make happy want redflag easier finally look interests interest what ignore it supposed change wrong according society looking interests then cant selfish killing selfish cant it everyone selfish everyone looks themselves best interests mind best path end it care anyone else thinks justified mind justify anyone else get joy anything im supposed look me like everyone else wrong seriously tell me wrong makes sense something makes sense it would destroy people yes theyve done me too care cop out cowardly move no tell owe others it owe anyone anything besides living owe people way live,1 +fucking sad every day feels like eternity pain know get help seems difficult pointless felt like long time self harmed attempted suicide since teenager love sons father live with gaslights tells never love allow talk one great job quit bc felt like going drive car river way work one day lost alone want genuine human connection history trauma makes impossible end rope know do want kill bc children love feeling isolated alone misunderstood eating away insides sad recently believe everyone would better here black hole within,1 +im girl female gender needed share important,0 +television show watched s child captivated it many years passed often thought show good would watch again mindful things past always good remember them great show s lost nothing even sure odd production mistakes see watching old shows takes couple episodes get used dubbed voices done that captivated back s samurai played koichi ose plays role humble manner remember s due popularity show australia toured performing sword play etc overwhelmed interest show him great one time favourite shows still held magic childhood must see series,0 +basically trying imply no head,0 +deserved raped fault,0 +since wrote last month pretty decent thought better life looking today really really shitty day sitting right mental break sobbing shaking reminded pathetic hopeless really reminded useless wasted space really fking stupid believe thing finally getting better coming back bite me overwhelm sense hopelessness suicidal thought coming back want live anymore life never get better never going get better matter hard try hope future remember still alive stop fking idiot believing bullshiit die need alive,1 +get f chat bois playing warzone kills well thought would match finally win nope soon find last player get lag die f,0 +abuse workplace seems like everyone says oh get it baby theres nothing wrong you actually one women tell husbands behavior completely normal everyone acts like that i floored know one person goes shit like work acts like wtf want brush off one gives shit,1 +new font yo fonts ,0 +boring sad tonight take life handsi little say alot say last time remember happy three weeks ago cuddling somebody thought cared me passions evaporated past years hope self actualization disappearing them adult always close grandma dad deadbeat piece shit never around grandfather dead death albeit close cousins mom like part died past year improved much joined wonderful fraternity excelled uni got ideal weight cleaned diet hell started dating stopped while lost virginity found attractive etc everything seemed fucking great first breakup happened realized empty without relationships cue meaningless sex realizing sex fucking worthless without affection got back uni well far lost weight shit hit fan started dating girl seemed wonderful like cared me told promiscuous past behind her sex good told next date night spent cuddling really care much wanted sex needed get experience slept again understandably hurt like mofo really liked though ive breakups actualy loved person before frustrated prospect relationship thing enjoyed gone ehhh like field enjoy enough really happy recently ive undergone bulemic behavior time spent losing weight changing lifestyle healthy gone feels like everything shambles rambling one thing another bulemia straw thats breaking camels back eating simultaneously thing makes feel good makes feel horrible mentally physically went store tonight get rd pint ice cream nobody smiled nobody said hi none brothers time talk me ive noose closet while pup miss me love little self tonight take life hands end it ampxb titles reference favorite russian poem lermontov,1 +want livei lost friends cycle depression negative thoughts tommorow day gone,1 +im fucked im crying rn ive got test test tomorrow im good subject rn im scared wont pass do,0 +push people awayand keep hurting others kind life that hope rot early grave deserve absolutely nothing life everything receive blindly given people understand feel cant tell them know explain severity it one talk to even did work would push away im lowest scum earth someone please shoot me,1 +ending paini lost appointment mental health clinic next week know make it panic attacks last months last week became painful fainted street morning walking girlfriend idea never waned tell her together short period time few months cant imagine life without her probably reason typing right now father paranoid schizophrenia left slept street crushed friends couches occasionally year moved another country left sister mother provide take care them felt good focused finally paid ever needed lost everything else home come back to solitary killing every day job hardest one world work sort programmer make good buck cant function work get panic attacks feel anxious cant concentrate stopped eating feel hungry anymore felt good providing family mother sister need anymore place anymore wasting everyones time oxygen girlfriend mentioned earlier beautiful creature world weeks ago found drug addict pills whatnot actually mentioned casually text message panic disorder got point scream night want rip skin off know go here could get fired using antidepresives therapy appointment probably get canceled confront two possibilities end scenario shit get fucking worse something stupid tells fuck deal tells stop know work way wont stop upon that father creating shitload legal problems everyone related including living abroad go embassy month report bring lawyer deal shit well edit feel bad know might seem like overreacting spent entire life dealing peoples problems solving peoples problems colecting mine boxing way through cant handle anymore much story hurths tried talk people every time did lost person forever dont talk lose people dont talk share things cant handle judge hear them,1 +fucked bed find remote didnt find im stuck bed cant fix remote cant find terrible morning edit fucking fat cat got stuck upon entering room exploring new bed edit somehow got fatass unstuck left room without noticing,0 +appalledhave ever thoght none relations health,1 +think girls dont date nice guys wont date you actually likely personality every dude ive met wahh women date chads mentality personality all theyre funny theyre interesting defining attributes theyre actually nice women dont like nice guys dudes actually charismatic enjoyable around also shower,0 +nostalgia always best reason watch movie often not movies loved kid disappoint adult exceptions rule hard justify owning dvd krull regardless many insightful directors commentary may be stay sharp gen xyers dozens disappointments dominating trip memory lane might stop stumbling across one worth revisitingbr br one surprise film worth another look joel schumachers flatliners supernatural thriller starring s popcorn heavyweights keifer sutherland kevin bacon julia roberts billy baldwin would think stew comprised cast flamboyant flair schumacher ber slick eye cinematographer jan de bont would result something sickeningly stodgy calories aside flatliners aint half bad even though production design inexplicably overthetop photography achingly over stylized replete neon soaked streets spewing endless billows steam flatliners still manages effectively dark compelling thriller theres explanation flatliners forgotten might saw release another far superior supernatural thriller jacobs ladderbr br had flatliners released year two jacobs ladder likely schumachers flashy thriller would dismissed toned down commercialized ripoff adrian lynes nightmarish masterpiece films released year flatliners enjoyed different fate tripling jls take box office despite watered version similar premise passage time kind flatliners lost atop dated heap throwaway s brat pack dreck jl cemented reputation timeless classic fates aside jl seamlessly terrifying manages keep audiences guessing right last frame whereas flatliners falls victim over simplification hollywood conveniences drag final act predictably tidy denouement comparisons two movies unfair ultimately overlooks flatliners ability represent s quintessential best released end decade shallow excess flatliners always dated hairstyles clothing styles fairness also remembered well executed movie or least near top particular heap dreck intents purposes entertaining walk memory lane,0 +trapped headim year old guy im failing literally classes cant even find motivation check school emails let alone actually go school entire family disappointed sucks siblings successful smart im nothing dreams motivation future even thinking future makes sad got diagnosed schizophrenia year half ago feel like ruined life feel lost alone fucking nobody understands ive tried get support friends good experiences longer try nothing except mental illness anger doubt ill ever able successful judging unstable last years mean cant even tell whats real not much useless get wish someone talk understands everything therapy psychologists make feel even worse feel like theyre testing digging around brain invasive hate family friends could never understand nobody even feel like repost guess want someone talk,1 +principle accidentally called dad lol opened door said go dad kinda awkward,0 +wherefore mine pp hard wherefore mine pp hard wast nothing wast sitting thre nothing joke,0 +previous post ok intending racist want shed light done past never said justifies cops actions heard people public like hes completely innocent man bills even proven counterfeit done this many past im intending racist never thought people would react like that im sorry,0 +latinos latinas here people wjo speak spanish yeah spanish speakers,0 +know keep living anymore like die happyi posted rdepression aswell im depressed since im always like this strong immunodeficiency made fail school everything else since always looked ill everyone school looked bullied me fine kept living till im now got girlfriend even work fine everything seemed okay since then always like this everything fine girlfriend suddenly problems boss work i weeks vacation called said wants fire me never said anything like before far good came work almost everyone work started bullying aswell said things like he doesnt work chills handy hes lazy get place time quit much me several month later still everything fine girlfriend found another workplace week practical training everyone nice really loved work there yesterday got confirmation accept start working there finally got new job awesome aswell since seems life suck girlfriend broke years dont even know why never told anything said hey dont love anymore cant anymore much plans even lived together went school it long distance relationship first moved parents house me feel lonely shit honestly dont want live anymore dont know do important thing life alone well thats gone nowi cant enjoy anything without her thing like think right dying even want help,1 +im hopeless without p actually leave p would still work,0 +working hard spent money failed driving test idea retaking gives panic attack started learning drive years ago okay got driving instructor time learning would lookig phone would never point problems felt rather confident finally try get license country first pass test instructor official institution,1 +third november nut back again bois hope read new enjoy torture knowing nutted fools refraining so see ya tomorrow,0 +need motivation havent suicidal thoughts probably years lately ive feeling bored life sad nowhere last week almost started cutting stopped need people talk,0 +people think garbage garbage let take,0 +day posting nonamusing fact get laid fact ended trimming nails half length yesterday filed wrong fml,0 +asking doin forget math test know shit day horrible doin,0 +strong urge go woods let nature way mei guess feel like deserve homeless work rely others support me reason absolute loneliness finishing life secluded deep woods somewhere appealing,1 +anybody else hate waking every time wake im yelled pulled bed something want keep dreaming playing soccer rick climbing whatever dream,0 +time selfie trend starts see twice many comments girl photos guys say simping poki only says optimal not like why fill make visible bruh,0 +war reposters look anyone tries gain karma reposting subreddit google try think full yourself people judged comment karma karma decides real redditor person discussions funny original usupersujith_ uraghavw earning karma like whore,0 +today probably worst since pandemic tons problems everything working me wanted appreciated holding tears back hear tell worthless cannot stuff bruh done ton stuff whenever take day off one freaking day talk shit like done single thing whole life come on gained confidence passion things used do come tell worthless tired worry guys thought crossed mind couple times want it want vent out seems like cannot share problems useless burden people head sleep hopefully tomorrow lil bit better today gt broke down longer interested,1 +howth pierive redflag plan longer id like admit fantasize lot whenever im struggling whatever reason ever conceive throwing sea always head cold grey sea cold grey sky im pier moment im crashing water dissipate like foam cant swim honest think would impossible survive mind lot recently think im fair bit closer point would realise,1 +f anyone wanna talkkkk like talk hehe im horny n need help pls thank,0 +prc lowest low actually struck gold moody little thriller thing year earlier detour probably one finest lowbudget films ever madebr br strangler basically one set film filled mist shadows technique used poverty row studios hide sets lack thereof here works well ghost charles middleton better known ming merciless lurches around swamp killing involved wrongful execution murder generates sympathy viewer final victim daughter ferrymanhe concentrates wrath directly involved fate relatives wellbr br rosemary laplanche usual imitation someone coma passes acting style offers strangler order put stop killing sop audience strangler sees goodness gesture sign mission complete returns hereafter somewhat chastened ulmerwho directed detour directed strangler would hanging nearest tree stranglers job would done whos complaining story major attraction shrouded sets lighting general moodiness piece stands right behind detour prcs finest hour,0 +heyyf anyone wanna chat took massive break im back nowanyone bored too,0 +thought okaydoes ever truly get better swear everything feels okay something else happens im trying hard good hearted strong person getting tiring,1 +liked house dracula much house frankenstein carradine much passable acting ridiculous overboard hof actors deliver solid enough performances subplots eg monster village mobsters village idiot hunchback nurse etc mixed well none becomes odd splinter hof better run stitchedtogether hof hunchback nurse likable hunchback hof doctor good well lon chaney adds classy touch wolfman worth watching twice classic universal horror typical s long lost flair especially good doctors performance beforeafter blood contaminated draculas,0 +found smash ultimate cartridge lost weeks ago im happy boi filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +reposting good appointmentsomeone still downvoting me repost this got back psychiatrist gone better ever thought would talked openly pa drinking said medicine stops cravings also makes sick ingest alcohol said really need cravings strong resist them happy todaysaid nice bright eyed positive yeah feel pretty darned good would like thank friends redflagwatch great community found support appreciate greatly sisters brothers suffering here please accept gentle hug know anyone needs contact anytime know feels bottom dark deep pit looking see blackness thereand back tomorrow know right feeling better focus let tomorrow take care itself thanks friends hope better day lg,1 +wanna make money fucking choices people speak dont think adult bad cant worse things tbh cant wait whatever shit want doill still make sure make sense lol cant rn know im parents control,0 +like teach classmates survival fittest bring shiv school every day,0 +everyone around wearing shirt wearing long sleeved shirts hoodies way hide permanent scars left right arm much well across arms look like lunatic wearing hoodies long sleeved shirt fact school well help hope summer ends fast hate summer,1 +caricatures andor references entertainment industry people things even brands products usually staple shorts like one used quantity here individual gags rather generic im going give examples spoilers below br br there three well technically fourtheres quick one end cartoon caricatures spotted kind low type short though one featured character fair amount activity jack benny as jack bunny leopold stowkowski inimitable ned sparks as crab canchances good that crab involved warner brothers short ss caricature used would ned sparks also references billy roses aquacade riff radio show character called henry aldrich coming mother play superman superguy here villain takeoff king kong thats kind gagbr br the products mostly generic gags plays basic items unusual situations turtles coming cans soup attack villain tanks tomato soup cans the cancan gingerbread men turn paratroopers using tissues parachutes on gags good excellent example bob clampett cartoon clampett hit stride director point anywhere near best work nothing sneeze either short found looney tunes golden collection vol excellent set highly recommend short also recommended,0 +sub icon changed used male female snoo changed female one due thing happening right something else,0 +br br human body wowbr br there sunrises human lifebr br hardly one thousand sunrises watched humans planetbr br our days limitedbr br excellent movie women makers human bodybr br thanks regardsbr br ,0 +yayyy another pedo messaged audacity lie age call cute call weirdo rejected fuck shit im tryna nice,0 +help accidentally overhead conversation parents discussing weather masturbate not feel soo embarrassed hope catch,0 +feel stressedi feel alone surrounded many people feel like incredibly insufficient hard work go waste feel unable manage stress anxiety leads able enjoy day even ive done lots work sure ill ever able anything correctly want break cry would waste time feel like im constantly wasting time hard time focusing cant get best anymore now everything get by feel like live everyone around feelings dont feel good,1 +constantly feel mix frustration emptiness even know im feeling like this,0 +help pleasei wanna end make family angry accidentally hurt gf im dull emotional issues feel like isnt worth anymore im barely take care myself feel useless try better like smashing head brick wall point want end it dont know else do ill keep hurting ones love even im trying help dad hates moms different province live brother make life difficult kids dont see worth anymore harm good,1 +mods suck tried host ask anything cyber security ethical hacking get teens started ethical hacking clearing basic doubts get started obviously got removed mods asked mail formal request asked wait days days reply,0 + god plans me ungrateful ass recognize it ignorant way thank god had everything still threw away girl universe kept sending signs meant meengineering interested ego allow getting along people rest history even signs universe still sleep smoke like life means nothing tried comitt redflag smoking cigarettes abdomen hurts getting muscle twitches body much lost know do cant focus studies focus people head time trying listen universe tell something,1 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+feels like world left behind lost everything past couple days id street friend letting stay him thankful lost companionmy best friend mental illness guess got tired like everyone else doesi felt like finally making progress lost all ready go ready embrace peace comfort leaving flesh prison freeing all spent time things everyone else maybe id fighting chance tired ready go ever meant support outlived purpose serve statistic reminder always pay attention make sure heard nobody speak you lost fight mean late you make final wish come true tell someone find shoes seriously depressed lonely,1 +day been mine pretty great got snow day ,0 +please wake upthis cant real doesnt feel like reality anymore please make stop please cant real please im scared die please,1 +ps forgot mention know put back goes parents big houses live room small apartment one brothers lived nd house parents left last year fixing it completely mess spend lot money make habitable planing move christmas put hold thesis could focus that said plenty times apartment big issue small moved parents nd house would great improvement relationship life,0 +much lorazepam hydroxyzine needed die peavefullt cannot live loke thks amymlre dad keeps saying dead really suicidal allmy fault help,1 +im planning take life coming birthdaymy birthday coming week so end year end life ive asked go therapy multiple times everyone keeps saying need one cant control thoughts anxiety kills me idk wtf do many years since dealing shit im tired,1 +drinking blacking out crying fighting boyfriend every day past week two think would easier less painful leave drinking working feelings make way black another reason wake feeling like shit cannot afford mental hospital stay idk would let know works cannot remember past two weeks,1 +got advice boyfriendso girlfriend depression started datingweve together years now she might inherited part dad last almost year gotten really bad also anorexic really thin months getting bit normal alot therapy etc depression rolled mug around corner full blast told last tuesday extremely suicidal she asked sleepover adviced therapist would kill otherwise home aloneher mother stayed home hearing btw sister heard got cancer friday girlfriend said really wanted kill tonight felt really guilty sister cancer called mom go theyre calling help everythingshe already therapy planned morning question knowing already getting help boyfriend help her,1 +glad told him told immediate threat dealing long needed tell someone know could tell parents would made worse i minor luckily already capable making choices like alone even parents wishes looking getting medication help psychologist course really hope helps really needed tell someone nobody real life would fit category thanks letting rant here finally told psychologist dealing thoughts,1 +thing holding back happen dieim afraid death redflag thing holding back happen jump punished taking life god like sleeping ive thinking months still cant settle answer reason live parents terrible figures traumatized since born dad delusional raging alcoholic jumps opportunity break dishes humiliate us eyes neighbors one time brought bottle superglue aampc project accused mother poisoning food it mother submissive overdramatic woman may sound unfair mother seeing victim side parent fight begging pleading forgiveness bawling eyes verbally assaulted one traumatizing sights think of given school social life too friends talk anyone even though grades pretty good since abandoned group friends online friends shared lot issues even though extremely loyal great friends snapped once said sorts things cant bring face anymore even im sure theyll take back instantly get mad anyone tries talk seconds im frustrated lack emotion constant anger occasional sadness know english my th language far better mother tongue ever talked aforementioned group friends never compatriots meaningful future due abysmal social skills know kind replies want post im really posting vent thank reading,1 +normal yesterday full breakdown involved smearing blood cuts hands face say hour looking self wondering fuck done this ive done lot smaller time smothered,1 +wow ur pretty pretty fuckin cool ahaha dont crack,0 +keep goingim ready give up life shit full pain suffering wish courage actually go thru this maybe someday soon find it hurts read posts here know here,1 +satisfying fantasy ships sailing thru clouds cannons evil plotters strange landscapes manipulations time great sets void reality maybe like never ending story merlin stuff like that love it christine taylor beautiful sword fighting phoney music delightful good wins out kiss well cook pleased,0 +never supposed alive tldr parents never wanted feel like reason anymore even stay feel life would continue shit storm dont see theres hope people come world unwanted everything hard me everyday felt like battle even consciously aware living one nothing goes right matter hard try supposed way youre supposed miserable years theres supposed peace somewhere within know misery father even told recently mom hospital dying never supposed alive parents abusive also extremely abusive relationship stress literally kills thats dying stress life dad ultimately put through cause death mom never wanted me shes like abortions maybe more knows point dad forced nerve even show hospital sign birth certificate wrong many levels youve got sick fuck order something incomprehensible guess thats feel stuck lost now come something like supposed rest life mainly feel cursed love one best parts alive since ill never experience family loving whats point theres romantic love thats really built love comes family wont exist either dont know life never wanted anyone first place everything feels vacant painful,1 +thoughts redflagit feels like im clawing sort meaning none keep telling end already selfish know do feel like im spiraling control tried getting help got list numbers im reluctant call need help know find it,1 +would guys leave redflag noteleaving one note everyone really explain everything different people life different things would want say them ive thinking leaving several notes sending people letter last day,1 +nword stats survey made quick survey nword usage take minute take survey httpsformsglesjtbvrsrjxcdehttpsformsglesjtbvrsrjxcde ampxb edit fucked one questions guess ill roll it,0 +started writing note amp made playlist last night thoughts say narcissist want get help one want die pills think oh,1 +birthday days hate parents expect big thing top best friend pretty ambiguous coming wanna move away honestly kill somehow feel embarrasseguilty even think literally whole world crises heres thing ive never birthday person alright friends guess every year sister whole big thing celebrates hers today likes make big deal call friends parents expect same mean get wrong im introverted person like hang friends treating birthday like accomplishment thing im tired peoplemy family judging it main topic th birthday tried celebrate want later day heard sibling telling parents doesnt wanna celebrate friends kidding me loved friends wanted whole thing even came house even dragged awkward family dinner protested decided ill treat birthdays like accomplishment years move away im top ive heard mother saying multiple times go stuff starting year made motto least go friends twice week trend sister started pathetic hate it days move fuckin corona kind excited see friends heres thing guy consider say best friend ambiguous coming even tho pretty much everyone agreed like dont wanna celebrate without guy whole hate social obligation celebrating id love hangout friends everything huge mess want next week disappear somehow feel bad small problem feel guilty even thinking literally half world going second crisis top corona honestly thanks made post sorry bad english first language,0 +point might think tf wrong yeah really hope happens hate every human especially family forcing live hope meteor hits destroys whole earth kill us,1 +guys hug pillow pretending someone love time want know im one,0 +kinda wanna peace outnothing feels worth doing wanna sleep summer school starts cant that kinda wanna life feels pointless,1 +bored someone talk plzzz ill talk literally anything mean that nerd something want ill talk ,0 +currently watching show american frontiersmen got part theres war mexico interesting,0 +going go vr chat date mcdonalds boy kid discord like talk lot recently dmd wanted go mcdonalds vr chat said yeah even got another person recently said theyd cashier stuff,0 +th brithday want die seriously feel horrible atm feel like ive missed lot teenage hood i omg think yr old always relaxed cause knew time still dont im ready adult hood omg do bio age far years less current age think changing age legally year could help im ready keep thinking im almost want throw up want die innocence youth never come back world cruel crying almost hour know cope aging funny cause younger also thought im grown old always hated aging now really late cant teen anymore im miserable id anything even again anything prayed lot god maybe one day woke older body know anymore ,1 +take little time could vote pole thx advance httpswwwredditcomusertod_commentsmarpzwhat_reveal_at__followersutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 +nearly groomed got lucky private school th grade somethings lasted year im also guy btw proof happens girls didnt want use account post need minimum karma rip account guess happened homeroom teacher asked take walk recess one day dont remember much talked tbh remember becoming frequent asked personal life things going well told nothing life teacher got hired year could recall lot people didnt know him slowly would stop hanging around everyone else age start hanging around him got point would meet him remember one time trying see could point using different fingers example using pinky point i really dumb kid got point used middle finger someone didnt know instead getting trouble teacher showed favouritism didnt punish anything student teacher theyd probably give detention time something anyways got point depended lot things said dont remember much remember feel try remember creepy remember telling wife one point though something teachers didnt even know point getting dangerous territory especially bit part school program told go near teachers since point kinda followed anywhere looking back didnt want teachers knowing followed guess anyways things didnt really escalate since caught another teacher ch_ld _____ fill blanks feel sick thinking about pc teacher ran school programs charge lot clubs worst part didnt even seem creepy ever wonder happens school caughts p_d_ send letter parents anyways teacher got fired soon since found didnt teach anything entire year since school ahead curriculum though still got go next year one worst parts atleast teacher seeing happening didnt anything kinda hate allowing go far get really sheltered kid growing also teacher caught teacher teacher talked since remember leaving school guy always talking also remember guy caught blonde girl year two older always following him really took way long figure going on never told anyone probably wont ever again theres probably parents reading so look see kid trouble,0 +comment title post one posts comments filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler auto moderator filler,0 +another rant school mean guess elementary middle school important fuck whoever invented high school cuz ever taught really advanced ways cheat fart silently everytime make mins feel like hours work cheetos monster,0 +considering redflag chronic pain headachesi daily headaches neck pain despite seeing multiple doctors ive gotten relief im years old life garbage even want go anymore cant play sports love activities enjoy wretched disorder study study study try think pain,1 +yall trust parents emotional stuff personally try keep everything away mom turns bad,0 +hmm right compare tiffani thiessen markpaul gosselaars post saved bell acting course right ridiculous right give movie rating hahahahahaha thats funny movie horrible though better expected be madefortv movies often similar many feel them one feel worked even though yet another tortured wife whos gotta get bstard end story started envisioned ms thiessen vixen type seductress innocent kelly kapowski refreshing eric close surprised playing part really well decent writing director got pretty good convincing performance without cheesy somewhat interesting definitely better tv movies grade b,0 +im scared redflag want commit redflagi fear death knives intrusive thoughts im suicidal thoughts,1 +paris place enjoy beautiful art music fall madly love case film boy meets girl fall love something stands way eternal happiness classic storybr br the wonderful music george gerschwin complements great dancing gene kelly leslie caron an american paris humorous lighthearted loving film well worth watchingbr br br br ,0 +michael winner probably best known revengethemed films death wish chatos land equally gifted director occult horror cinema the sentinel proves the sentinel based novel john konvitz also wrote screenplay clever immensely creepy religious chiller lover occult horror consider missing film obviously inspired successful occult classics rosemarys baby the exorcist the omen but far concerned also easily unsettling widely acclaimed films probably even creepierbr br allison parker christina raines beautiful young new york model traumatized events past yet willing marry lawyer boyfriend chris sarandon allison search apartment finds big incredibly nice one also affordable old mansion brooklyn new apartment however comes along bunch strange tenants sinister new neighbors soon become little bothersome alice may adequate plot synopsis would hate spoil films great moments give plot description say however the sentinel creepy effective film profits great cast well often bizarre constantly uncanny atmosphere fact director michael winner writer john konnvitz also acted producers certainly influence outcome film imaginatively photographed eerie old brooklyn mansion fantastic setting kind film mentioned above atmosphere obscure creepy film also includes several shockmoments genuine scares film features many sinister eccentric characters cast superb beautiful christina raines great role allison parker lovable yet cusp losing mind chris sarandon also good boyfriend successful lawyer supporting cast includes many big names christopher walken jeff goldblum jerry orbach beverly dangelo tom berenger becoming really famous cast also includes stars like ava gardner horror icon john carradine burgess meredith and personal favorite great eli wallach cynical homicide detective ive great fan director michael winner long time mostly films like death wish chatos land the sentinel yet another great film winners repertoire also proof man master hardboiled revengecinema also atmospheric occult horror all the sentinel creepy intelligent amazingly bizarre occult chiller highly recommended horror fans,0 +yo anyone else still go pediatrician cause idk switch doctor feel weird going,0 +feel like evrytime start feel good voice head sounds like like no bitch fucking worthless delusional nobody loves you give up stop trying would anybody love you hideous fucking kill yourself nothing know me know brain cunt would lying said believe sometimes anytime something important brain fights tell just even bother going fail goes on always like this long remember ill go silent become really obedient clean nothing all really beat person get like feel like bug bottom shoe hate essence existence burning raging fire hate eat want sleep stay night take cat naps day want anything time really want much life feel bit place know depression adhd could honestly go live woods rock would flippen great feel like clown like entire existence cosmic joke mistake inner voice bitch f,1 +always talk cock ball torture never want talk clit labia torture feel girls there,0 +lost nnn without even realising it fffff time flew fast know november around corner already aiming go peaceful route year lost within first hours st november,0 +im going die im awful failure cant improvethis first time reddit sorry mess things up think supposed use throwaway account stuff like this reference im nearly turning want turn im bad person ive failure while today day failed one thing want fail in year failed everything imaginable used student yet somehow im getting fs now ive gained lot weight worked out moved year today lost friends lot online friends ive removed all today made best friend hate me ones believed ones me today stopped friends ones ever felt comfortable venting around wanted return since theyve dealing mental health stuffthey used vent me stopped couple days ago started venting listened asked keep going pushed far hate me thought blocked email started vent there think could see it since thought blocked me didnt talked wished still friends the felt lonely guilty talked little wanting die said hated asked them want fail friend thing want fail in yet failed haete now ones left would care family feel like enough want live anymore thing stopping im sure die yet think figure out want friends anymore ill hurt too think improve since could have wouldve point recognize everything ive failure in yet gotten worse year cant vent anyone anymore im completely alone except family even though care me cant trust anymore im going die turn im failure every way imagineable now im even sure im writing since know cant helped genuinely want die now im awful,1 +playing animal crossing am watering plants,0 +ive come far im sure want go furtherive struggling depression years maybe longer hard childhood rough young adulthood past decade completed college found supportive loving partner started making strides toward health recovery finally found therapist ive seen many feel helping me found psychiatrist feel understands need ive successfully medicated year real setbacks long periods deep depression ive made huge strides managing anxiety disordered eating past years everything seemed getting better therapy hard ive facing lot old trauma overall feeling hopeful things around job improving well like recently got nice raise good feedback performance ive focusing making art ive getting better liking myselfbeing kind myself still feel alone ive always struggled intimacy close friendships cant seem bring really let people help me get close me terrifying prospect worked intimate relationship outside one myself partner last ten years april partner bad reaction bout sadness issue him approached long story asked something think deserved his words offended id even ask instead discussion it shut down revealed longer patience issues spent came shock felt making much progress seemed come nowhere turns look like progress outside know hard love me know patient years difficult love close to im finally getting better like real im facing ever have aggressively ever im becoming whole finally slowly weve seeing couples therapist weeks thought made progress recovery another awful fight im thinking im going kill myself shotgun medication would it im trying talk much would hurt people love me trying remember felt like think cowards way out used feel like escape way avoid getting stronger hard work get better feels like rest want rest felt tired long time depressed angry tired imagine much strength need wake monday work time put food body shower let alone fix travesty relationship separate complex autonomous human being even learn alone work put together cant see me strength need theres one life feel safe enough share with one else afford burden guess thats im here throwaway know want want talked it think want commiseration think want leave something behind thought piece me intention hurt anyone love mine want go sleep want know anymore struggle wake up simply wake up maybe little ahead schedule again maybe not all none us really know were going die sure maybe need get chest get past feeling want feel proud hard fought far come think feel proud finally starting feel inherently valuable strong fought hard deserve rest deserve decide done fighting,1 +im going bald making want kill myselfi hairline redeced badly never get girlfriend look like fool people mock me life fucking shit,1 +fuck it donedont know anyone cares whatever years old germany know struggle myself know start dropped school yeah behind final exams couldve gone studying next year made worst school hauptschule middle school full energy gymnasium tilt take anymore stopped going end december finish driver license too power anymore feel empty well last week work working parents store saw pretty girl felt love her even gave love back seemed clear wonderful came place last sunday kissed hang out talked much and wanted live her never ever felt power since yesterday says worth time good her never really girlfriend know react got hurt much ex wanted help her show feel like normal girl ever again bitchyshe turns next month thought good no doenst want contact know whyi frustrated body full hate hate mysellf all best mother earth sister shouting them friends want help refuse know start again feel lost want stop go die addicted videogames dota well least gave smile good it k mmr something proud tried break competitive gaming really never happened i confused life please guys share warm words not cant otherwise crying right past weeks specially last days cuz her want visit stars upon me maybe day visit them knows,1 +okay high staying late crashed feel like im dying wake school hours im gonna call night goodnight ,0 +im depressed sheltered kid live group home abused overprotected innocent shit yet tried complaining wouldnt believe me friends hobbies conenction family food thing enjoy life making fat even depressed tried seeking help psychologist shes taking forever especially christmas period want run away lockdown library books therefore unreturned huge book vinyl collection bedroom wanna drugs die life goal drugs dont wanna die drug virgin im really curious highly enthralled drugs someone please help,0 +hii feel really sad right now anybody up,1 + e n bad joke,0 +alternative kids yall think ekids making new subculture posers too think theyll die eventually ekids like inside tiktok thing every kid tiktok days ekids dont really music genre ideologies mainly fashion alternative tiktok think ekids,0 +cant die alreadyi fucking hate life ruin everybody elses itd better everyone killed,1 +ima make quick im going make quick simple partially auto mod already banned first two posts also somewhat busy first things first year ago got reddit life changing whole daily routine changed it wacky stuff happened past year im glad reddit keep going great daynight dont forget stay safe,0 +comment age backwards see officer old enough,0 +good adaptation novel amrita pritam urmila manoj bajpai given bestbr br there natural flair movie felt right through looked like bollywood finally gave away glamor quality artists performing screenbr br content wise movie depicted much exactly happened partition showing sufferings particular family also shows trust ones life goes beyond religionbr br the best part make drama lot tear shedding melodramabr br i simply loved it,0 +one decision ruined life dont wanna live anymore i took pills xanax still alive really ruined lifesomeone like doesnt ever deserve live happy life story im yrs old engaged beautiful virgin supposed get married years friends convinced go party play around married later wont able shit ofcourse dumb fucking follower protected sex random couple months later diagnosed incurable std hpv warts fucking ruined life im piece garbage shit put family put everything swear god end disease me someone reading please dont listen fucking friends say ofc go ahead get married except damage goods goodbye,1 +last goodbyeim kicked home phone disconnected last chance goodbye ill ever have many things gone wrong life hard know begin everybody know however fault bad decision making laziness inability even get bed real reason life mess is reason im home ive never job see parents sick theyre kicking drive even common courtesy bother helping around house bring money contribute anything im lazy piece shit lingers bed every day ive never date ive never felt satisfaction succeeding ive never motivation try im street ill look place die couple ideas would kill sure itll perfect end selfish end selfish existence misery feel every day crushing cant take anymore know im running away like ever faced demons begin with guess since parents spoiled entire life probably part making am said still fault never evolving growing person truly truly future life left lead im choosing easy way out frankly deserve death person broken selfish deserve place begin with regret point born feel like ive dead years body want stop years im finally gathering courage see through cant wait release responsibility pain anything thats want anymore want read life feel free trawl post history theres alot alot well written is mind place right now anyways guess time finally up finally rest sometime soon thank guys help board theres truly nothing left now guess goodbye,1 +hey youcome wanna talklike realits quite lonely night im gonna sleep whileso yea,0 +yesterday said would regret killing myself didthe maintenance quadriplegic unbearable bailed attempt kill yesterday regretted it feeling regret came hours minutes ticked close signal arrival caregiver bathes strips carcass naked regret stronger lay bed feeling feces uncontrollably make way ass fill diaper exhausted wear fake smile day therapy wanting nothing sleep never wake freedom love stripped me replaced with pain humiliation endure life quadriplegic life goes on yes mines life hallow,1 +girls rteenagers reddit wtf wear senior pictures no dress skirt live cooler climate,0 +coasting right now yo ex alcoholic days sober th day weed kind feel good except slept hours past nights feel different first time life wanted sober enjoying it taking leaps strides improve person still feel like total piece shit loser reflected living circumstances start somewhere maybe ill look back year realize beginning sober,1 +little comments why comments little fix someone help,0 +nobody caresits funny everything right go work nice things people know get nothing people get mad coughing terrible belly pain bad allergies im best,1 +imagine throwing bitch fit enojis like bruh,0 +wrote yesterdaysometimes drive bridge hold breath cant help feel need plunge ther side anxiety floods mind fills entire being mentally talk it holding breath multitasking anxious damn near impossible entire task killing takes much work slipped quick sand sink grab rope pull out little time make decision must make one fast tired living way want feel like dissappointment constantly wish feel like fucked much way get kill myself makes nauseous know wrong decision mind seems like decision im trying best fight it promise am taking everything within fight it live fear afraid something happen send edge make it terrified able fight anymore getting harder harder stay intoxicated better vocalize urge kill myself battle there im fighting it im temporarily content thats really anymore temporary moments contentment think anyone help fix this me and know yet,1 +someone homophobe like theyre literally homo sapien dumbass people days smh,0 +venting also storybeen feeling like since felt useless bullied people take anger funny god im fuckup worst decision life ever bully someone come back bite me turned friends lost everyone found trans cant live want be want alcohol organs fail die know were fucking earth ill probably fail life im go school know ill bullied,1 +absolutely everything life absolute garbage never going get better getting absolutely zero quality life nothing brings level joy fulfillment anymore way bad days good days cannot afford kind therapy mental health care hate living greedy money hungry ignorant shameless world want go sleep never wake again world absolutely horrible place anyone rich attractive going die nothing bills pay really thinking ending soon,1 +want kill self tonight say every night want everim failure im horrible person find enjoyment life forced here,1 +this love song brilliant example chase genre many people think underlying meaning love two main characters may fraternal believe heaton love spike spike naive see thisbr br i really feel portrayed scenes blow back letter writing sequences heaton shows great intimacy towards spike intense facial expressions takes great care writing spikes name top lettersbr br one thing ive noticed looking external reviews film slated reviewer seems fully understood film even mentioned possibility heaton sexual feelings spike also get feeling reviewers recognised it use phrases like who heaton whats retard like spike person however may hit nail head remark spike shows noticeable signs add although think person realised this seems using word retard derogatory termbr br i really enjoyed film although faint hearted film exceedingly character based shooting end much dialogue two antiheroes unless used watching deep gritty films stay well away,0 +organize event meet give free hugs know yall lonely bois need,0 +area one year anniversary would anyone try go again,0 +want hurt take life want overpart knows things im dealing right temporary cyclical upanddown goodtobadtogood back rhythm life not yes things going get better theyre going get worse again know friends love me pet take care of work business clients feel lonely knowing even things get better theyll get worse again makes seem completely meaningless wish could fall asleep never wake up without action,1 +im sorry needed talkhi reading stuff afraid comment anything made throw away account im know teen years it get better im aware need somebody talk person usually talk trust kinda kept sane living high school experience talk feel pretty abandoned also feel really guilty feel selfish im holding trust anybody else getting drinking problem supply got cut cat never really also tried normal stuff life punching wall knuckles got swollen one teachers said something guidance counselor kinda like prevention post needed talk people felt know like thanks,1 +im going sundayfor last months ive planning redflag depression gotten really bad lately cant take anymore fucked life hard cant fix it funniest part ive miserable last months yet nobody noticed parents youngest brother friends none slightest inkling ive going through think im regular sweet fifteen year old girl well school pursuing dreams joke im utter failure reason one knows lie everything days parents blissfully ignorant might even denial around twelve severely depressed cut daily caught me punished me stopped months never got help professional otherwise punishment shame rinse repeat couple years learned hide cuts emotions well enough pass ignore symptoms could tell im going kill thing maybe want die brother stepbrothers little families perfect sons need me im exhausted miserable everyday world without me hopefully death nothingness like neverending dreamless sleep care go hours pain twenty minutes im going home run method fatal refuse stitched back together forced live rest life trapped shell former self basically im saying is im done trying live others maybe im okay selfish once im going it,1 +im tired trying anymorei know start im struggling mom ptsd several mental health issues feel like cant reach help state ive using marijuana help ptsd flashbacks anxiety husband great guy were stagnant bedroom hes stopped helping around house kitchen mess also huge trigger me step father would beat shit dishes cleaning fast enough later evening would sexually abused him im done everything im good enough parent kid im good enough spouse christmas going happen year year old even sure well able pay rent electric bills point break kid year heart surgery im stressed yell time makes feel shitty end it family would happier without me get survivors benefits ss,1 +fairly good romantic comedy think ive ever seen meg looking cuter players good job keeping lively romp course real world genius mathematician would even glance grease monkey love romantic comediesone totally forget reality good time nice film damn meg babe eh,0 +like mario great game people think fantastic game first one natural flaws say dislike mario practically get decapitated mob nostalgic idiots fact many retro games bad modern games improve everything older games made telling im wrong disliking mario gtfuck yoult,0 +seriously considering first time since thought depressionbefore start throwaway account replying theres tracing this last people want reading people may know me recognise type im going through kindly mention it really care believe figured im someone close you either offer advice leave need stress never mention it im depressed im going lot stress related getting life started genuinely see reason keep going past motivation try give myself clich story life ive always one kid learns quickly gets bored gets hyperactive realises cant succeed system made help fail way shape form live country anyone straying regular memorisationfocused studying destined bottom pack mindless routine overpowers everything ive angling move using another citizenship mine parents neglected update so much fun renew decade late several years planning ive finally done it ive accepted one biggest universities world im days away leaving ill financial support first month parents fully cut off could go wrong everything university accepted late conditions tell about explicitly told me need decided tell apply permit done even id started second got acceptance letter perquisite said permit long deadline get courses emailed this reply get automated message well reply days august th well deadline too deadline im appealing deadline pass reply email another side theirs theyll take three days reply much earlier theres that get rejection early excitement something good happening life accepted offer letter even receiving it since theyd told maximum fees exceed budget parents begrudgingly set did woo doubled fact told id getting scholarship whooptidoo email get one guess theyll reply deadline deadline passes moved received student id settled courses ill entrance university revoked pay extortionate fees anyway yay bright side enter country without permit get set foot campus email ask whether this well reply x amount time thats past deadline whatever stay positive wanted console myself just look place stay get them great idea me look place find it perfect right near university im going to price range even perfect email them several weeks pass reply great ill go offices get there need book hotelmotel look one find exactly one thats area wifi integral need internet keep filling paperwork finish get there aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand outside price range option living km away spend money id save transportation im sure theres someone reading rolling eyes spoiled little pompous brat pretentiously posting reddit troubles kids starve peoples republic northern congolese canton philippine state thailand genuinely could give less fuck getting guilt tripped point everything ive needed get done done best could it still enough deadlines overlapping parents willing pay paid sister frugal start working already hampered greatly thus far despite this ive still gotten lot shit done even bother anymore cant find apartment lock get there place near apartment want get university outside price range ill take student loans ill spend rest life paying off work online cant apply work permit ready turn patreon ebegging yay ive got find way get pets thing keeping depressed autistic ass sane there oh mistake theres embargo moving pets three countries live one happens im moving much cost get another one oh small matter welp goes company stand burden im least months stay save well enough even make enough money survive going particular country itd perfect me citizenship gives several months unchecked there uses currency readily available countries im citizen of comparatively safe got university dreams within price range borderline impossible get time unless serious deadlinepushing occurs get kind angel investor give free money somehow knowing luck investor would make fellate or whatever equivalents rest natural life it oh theres small matter picking country cue sobstory music met girl fell hard imagine got immediately turned sent dreaded friend zone woo shell one source comfort somehow end getting there even then cant help think nothing worth anymore degree want nearworthless unless several unlikely things go exceedingly well me often happen love life shambles cheated several times im start looking again financial situation going meh absolute shit ebegging next years plus working gonads get degree paycheck perhaps also protein bar best friends happen speak human language schizophreniclevel bond makes look insane or cute depending gender cant come another half year unless take even bigger loan last couple centuries more tldr im getting sick life ive resorted posting reddit ponder surefire way killing without firearm is ps breaking rules pm know great method would ensure or least chance death hopefully quickly thank you anonymous stranger ive dissuaded it least time being thanks unotnac help people,1 +let sister die im fucked head maybe go join herfuck man,1 +fuck mefuck fuck fuck assholes fuck pets fuck mom fuck world fuck living,1 +help cringe pls friends worked short films with contacts saved phone problem is upload cringy videos whatsapp status like images heavily glitched overlays booming bass random players free fire headshot montage style overlays music poor editors watermark cant stop watching i wanna see bad gets bugs know lmao way telling pretty cringy without offending them ideas,0 +im sorryim sorry failure im sorry think im failure im sorry let everyone im sorry saying things meant say im truly upset right wanted happy see mum happy everything even ex partner nothing ever seems go way life always heartache im alone even called family doesnt even care im truly alone never anything happy life im fucking disgrace thats cant anything right make anyone happy im pathetic loser,1 +im sorry im doneptsd gotten better,1 +really freaky fucking dream dream chewing something thanking heard load crack reached mouth grab made loud sound two teeth fell broke middle im still sleepy half awake daise little shaken this,0 +im burnt out quarantine onceinalifetime break needed im essential worker work even harder normal im drained brain nothing lefti know know thankful im still getting paycheck thankful get wits me know im blessed still bills paid mental health declining rapid pace first daily anxiety attacks frequent panic attacks weekends wholly consumed depression come roaring back alongside daily thoughts redflag sustainable day goes dont think offing myself recently idea death allure like water someone walking desert need rest death thing provide that feel like job meat grinder im meat fed it eventually going kill me either that coronavirus stuff ill get new job ill work til die way joyous im posting im actually going go it cant tell friends im feeling theyve fired furloughed set problems dont need hear mine needed get somewhere hope okay,1 +yall mfs take stuff seriously like someone make literally post askin sex sexualized people start posting fucking thesis statements comments,0 +anyone else want end all know much wuss soi already know am sheesh could press button would pop existence avoid painful death costs would it unfortunately suiciding way out painful redflag,1 +in muscle mans voice you know else commits tax fraud my mom huhhheheheuheheuhe,0 +byei rifle mouth im going kill myself im fucking done shit one respects even though work much harder them im thin cant gain muscle feel like shit everyone fucking hates someone right trying kill lets say close family done online sales store went under cant wait dead dont say people love true trust me,1 +hey anyone want join discord small right theres room grow also channel advertise art channel well gaming movie nights,0 +sadly stoking ended sadly ended orgasm shot burst new record,0 +one really cares mewhats point living anyway one loves you im sure belongs know myself think parents really care me think dead weight them living paying college close cannot talk feelings understand western society way conservative think prayer reading bible fix everything doesnt reason still sticking around though older brother took life february want attempt fail finding out would think reason failure parents short unattractive guy also takes toll selfesteem everyone dealt different hand life given worst cards play with way many obstacles concur definitely wish taller better looking social anxiety think could taken seriously life looking girlfriend moment never one way scared ill get pushed around knowing cant change anything yes know eat right workout room change fact short riddled anxiety selfloathing rampant me indian guy born raised ameria still stigma us one seems like us bad stereotypes us bad jokes us creepy guys sense communicate properly understand thing people may think things rips away me aware indians also prejudice towards others get may particularly care right now try kind anybody unconditionally try understand points view cant act angry public else bruting foreigner cant go clubbing anything like used seeing someone race things like that learned myself see worried things cannot change height race looks means cannot respected appreciated things different would much happier know could learn something new get hobby get rich konw momentary pleasures like music food etc however think none matters short tall ugly handsome stuff futile me probably sound sad pathetic right now entirely wrong either become nihilistic everything thing keeping college well either sure kind future have completely realistic myself future probably living alone working coming home redflag freedom freedom depression anxiety turmoil,1 +stop letting people convince school important mental healthfuck people happiness comes first cant go school thats fine live fucking life want fuck whoever else says differently,1 +random thought wonder infinate alternate dimensions exist think dont like would dimension typing id suddenly teleported giant mansion made gold another planet treated like king long ride dildo infront people five minutes day weird inappropriate example infinate alternate dimensions thing happen alternate dimension me really kind impossible infinate alternate dimensions exist dimension someone creates elixir immortality machine visit every single alternate dimension once nothing like happened possible really,0 +duck walked lemonade stand said man running stand hey bum bum bum got grapes,0 +covidmarshall loser ucovidmarshall annoying hate much,0 +turn gay sexual desperation experience id say yes makes sense everyone jail turns gay,0 +less year objectively believe im going give thoughts believe going write redflag note fully committed killing go it guess close it actually even know would bother writing one even fact im still trying hard today life worth eyes everythings fucked up im tearing writing like worthless piece shit am never get anything right im huge fuck up cant life anymore becoming increasingly difficult alive day body starts shut get depressed feels like couple arteries imploded inside energy even speak literally feel like explained anyone would say im attention heck cant tell many times people told im depressed going things attention wish was face many problems worry people place mind im acting struggling alive every day right now write less year worse ever im beginning moments fully committed going ending life telling anyone tell truth fully committed weeks ago texted one person they luckily ready end it knew going best idea ive ever ending it felt peace felt long time living nightmare going end soon im still one coincidence away fully going it friend going pick ups phone working thought id get meeting behavioral health people school way way friend blows mind still empathize care others im fucked person general everythings happened top that wavered times people said im depressed attention im anything im trying hardest ever past upcoming years th birthday passed long ago soulcrushing moment ever starting accept fact im losing much time getting worse im getting older feel left behind depression friends already transferred finishing college never knew real relationships like family like i really tried understand it really tried hardest got nd deep depression ago always felt alone id see friends family interacting happy and good relationship family anyone id remember mother would say friends like family would id remember would constantly told kid accident here meet parents expectation would like kids essentially im burden one wants around eventually translated suicidal thoughts high school bullied classes passing period day th grade family want around neither anyone else feel place alive taking resources others family im absolute best never surmounts anything anymore feel like ended friends longer waste time energy family financially support theyll time money pockets mainly felt recently feel hopeless cant even think write straight anymore im useless im going stop right though ive run energy going half alive bed thanks reading did,1 +anyone good metal music listen too like listen get scared ice nine kills crush give best have,0 +parents get angry food room theres many worse things could doing choose get angry literally nothing honestly bullshit like go away instead coming room check food come check mental health ask im ok lot time im you,0 +skip one im worth saving anywayi mean would be im unattractive eyes many people around me bitter fault afraid conflict even fucking worth sparing anytime for really besides rate im abusing body ill probbly die cardiac problems anyway might well speed up burden family fake friend worthy romantic love all god let tiiiiiiiny bit courage finally fucking it,1 +life illusionhi people im years old live netherlands feel fucked life nothing setbacks parents divorced mother shit ton debt relationship guy murdered children seen years back sisters lived small village km away home father never able work anymore almost dead year ago relationship stepmother complaining even nothing father always say refugees return country although lived years despise stepmother parents life question end not help fucked shit,1 + hours till end iti really dont want cant carry fighting anymore read post history context u want maybe someone awake persuade doubt it,1 +love feel like trying find past year dont feel love entire family would feel would sense loss money emotions ever remember feeling brief joy brief anger faked crying hour see would actually emit emotional response get hug hate emotion feel like,0 +matter famous are much have friends family really things never satisfy someone even rich everybody pleases you isnt same one would understand nobody understand whats going someones mind probably want happiness before something others simply keep you prevent killing yourself even money satisfy you actors streamers get lot donations arent satisfied earthly desires know got hospital trying kill acetaminophen overdose nearly died family saved me didnt notice me didnt girlfriend see feel pity come back me time time feel depressed coming back might decide real time end help girlfriend pay debts credit card used things dont keep happy anymore grateful tried much right im tear type message might go strip later try get covid might go mt charleston tie noose around head grateful lord everything sometimes dont understand anymore,1 +ur serious gonna kill urself theres talking least venmo money could use itemily,1 +attention females sub named arlene hmu ____________,0 +question anyone know link mc server missed ,0 +largest carnivore largest carnivore hint gtits blue whalelt,0 +hi everyone im year old gamedev goal reach subscribers end week enjoy content subscribe cause helps lot heres video httpsyoutuberqbppdkhdimhttpsyoutuberqbppdkhdim,0 +sad birthdayi already depressed this rock bottom birthday tomorrow got broken summer plans girl thought loved gone literally friends nobody cares birthday mum wish could die right ,1 +point incapable getting betterbecause think im far fucking past,1 +hi many problems probably stupid pushing anymore ex sleeping men hard extra hard last years enjoy sex anymore know tiny dick imagine loving fu king people nice big cocks relieved moved past me realise woman ever want me even say problem massive compromise want force into think suicide lot year old son it lately get rages know are come feel may actually something able take back done not know want venting might help inguess know live anymore,1 +im endim end family non existent person love hates me children could give two fucks me theyll forget year hate everything fucking hate everything ever wanted family robbed wants act likes shes kids drink fuck whatever wants want fucking die immediately,1 + job license still living parents anyone else situation turned back november last year ive dreading day turn feel like manchild already feel less compared others take responsibility much anyone elses fault plan get things done like getting job reason feels let others irresponsibility,0 +girls w huge glasses look cute af really,0 +scroll anything putting feels though helping never able sleep every night lay brain runs runs runs hours every time know lot people lot people know me still dont friends im unique im average average used sports dont best thing im smart doesnt really matter i feel insignificant even though categorized existential crisis common doesnt make emptiness leave idk feel im losing emotion im definitely sad im happy either however feel found passion dirt biking rode almost entire life never good thing however went riding today feel helped me solo ride around hour two music in idk think im going continue path feel im able pull mood thats lasted way long maybe ill end going back old me happy friends liked,0 +im genuinely afraid schools us reopening student myself understand everyone hell bent getting back school understand pandemic devastating individuals mental health people abusive homes put many teachers children risk socialize other personally anxious melancholy time school good refresh me believe reopening would bad decision seems like teachers students used pawns government trying see reopen fast enough note isolation traumatic think students teacher relative dying going back school would even traumatic i others would probably feel immensely guilty hand e learning much better everyone recources andor doesnt work well virtually know experience stressful scary learning home think lose lose situation personally think reopening would smarter option lmk u guys think comments,0 +movie fascinating example luis bunuels storytelling abilities comedy comedy social drama social drama even though think particularly funny made laugh also despite fact never take bunuel seriously movie made think religion importance peoples lives bunuel tells story catholic priest devoted faith like one else viewer witness happens priests undying commitment serve others put test usual bunuels target catholicism think tried mock church often does least take film mockery institution think trying make interesting point religion could nuisance todays modern society faith bad people always mange bastardize concept message aside think one bunuels clever works francisco rabal superb priest definitely one filmmakers best movies,0 +alone depressed want drag people shit catch drift literally make friends become far emotionally dependent me highly toxic emotionally imbalanced relationship want another person simply satisfy ego would make even depressed quite frankly far happier alone reason quit pressuring make friends fucks sake depressed alone,1 +im sad thighs big thigh highs thigh highs got ripped dogs need buy new ones ,0 +sooo whats whatsapp idk say feb gonna sth worse facebook scandal worried cause ordered kids basement cancel order ,0 +alone barhey guys im chilling bar myself keep swiping phone contacts seeing sparse list presented one contact feel bit alone moment keep wondering things turned like this alone scared interact people gambler probably would turn alcoholic actually tried hate right now sense wonder karmic punishment something did cursed boredom isolation love family holy shit want get life ive tried commit redflag times pills stabbing etc nothing works like im stuck dunno im scared die want get shit show with,1 +theres bridge near new houseon tuesday morning woke feeling exhausted head pounding headache nose snuffed up shoulders hurt chest tight back aching cried cried hard cried rash consuming legs cried little meaningful relationships cried assume people think me cried job living situation cried different pulled together moment decided go walkin clinic something ive putting months went downstairs jumped shower sobbed washing hair screamed yelled myself world anger hate inability change selfsabotage routinely commit dried avoiding reflection mirror microwaved chicken fingers drank bottle water watched youtube video board game cried more called local mental health crisis centre where ive dragged past theyve called twice two weeks returned either calls scheduled meeting counsellor two weeks now knowing damn well might make far doctor know have undiagnosed mental illness im looking crutch something label know fault putting positions do point dressed ready leave house put sunglasses headed out head toward busy main street clinic started toward bridge pedestrian bridge towering jagged rocks river unforgiving current walked slowly confidently street toward park housing bridge mind ablaze thoughts ending it image laying upon rocks hours lungs filling blood cold scared turned last second left instead right walked hours walked road ended exhausted walked back busy main street watching people going days stopping get pack cigarettes quit two months prior coffee went home thoughts still there check again die another day,1 +hi u wanna make big life decision without context choose ,0 +girl replies eat hat wont actually eat hat guys think might bit unhealthy,0 +cannot live longer planing kill since last year plan cutting wrist saw movies maybe painless cannot find gun hence decited way sory bad english hurt cut wrist,1 +feel somewhat calm making plan kill myselfi plan certain things bucket list killing myself ive accepted im beyond redemption beyond chance happiness friends betrayed me feel like im worst person world think theres chance make new friendships seem like good person others ive made mistakes anyone else think im beyond fixing people hurt told im worst person never change always bad person exist world want others happy means leaving world it ill start slowly cutting whatever friendships left time hopefully forget leave alone ill try achieve something noteworthy im want least one good thing leave,1 +awful akward experience parents mom laundry said u buy underwear suggest different colour white first didnt realise problem saw talking huge fucking cumstain wont go out fml,0 +ostracized coworkers point breakdownhi im currently work probation officer ive worked year half still made friends coworkers around age year half ive moved basic supervision specialized positions child support enforcement first mental breakdown coworkers wedding none coworkers talked wife night tried talk them heybye conversation got drunk joked other left early kept wondering even make talk me weeks later broke work left early took fmla time see therapist walk away work put celexa made lot improvements came back work little month later took different position lower totem pole work around time new girl start first weeks good showed around helped out came talked life problems joked around times nice actually friend work another coworker wedding again one really talked us assigned seating one age sat administrators s new girl suddenly became friends everyone night despite talking before coworkers come talk new girl day long theyll laugh flirt even say hi me get itshes young cute newly single guys married turn new girl partner talk day ill end work unit ive expressed concerns supervisor went nowhere one friday afternoon every single coworker left lunch together even went way find new girl ask go them single one asked go ive asked happened everyone says sorry feel like that that intentions include you thursday broke again anniversary moms death weekend help feelings one coworker came ask told everything feel said wants friend hell make effort talk me ive heard before took friday work today new girl posted one meme videos lad bible facebook tagged everyone wrote something recently hung out im nervous things go next week want pity friends genuine friends help get already stressful job positive things live for situation overwhelming me want accepted never can struggle acceptance becoming much me,1 +first comment make laugh gets silver thats good luck,0 +ruined marriagei never wanted exist much life pretty bad anxiety suicidal thoughts before thats always background noise mostly anxiety started getting involved someone have innocent as always fkin is married year old pregnant wife text told knows everything whole community going find know deal it meant face like oh yeah btw guys im literally shittest homewrecking cunt planet whats good aware selfish redflag trying excuse actions anything like that need help need clarity humans shit,1 +want make militia eventually want across nation would split foot soldiers doxerspeople location people groups im looking centrists right wing would countering beating anchercists antifa go could call soyboy hunting everyone join dont care from racecolor gender sexual preference know must people app would want this,0 +never really recognized depression like recently diagnosed bipolar normally normally rapid cycle recently depression sticking around married gave birth daughter past december love little girl anything feels like enough know better never energy going work days week mental battle stay home watching know feel lost feel lost,1 +want dieim sorry coherent know time ive asleep seems like week im sad put sentences together well honestly feel like throwing crying cant either ive lost everything know do ive depressed years time ive never made friend talk it anybody support me past year finally made friend talked every single day helped other initiated conversation nearly month now another support friend talk either know why helped other thought tried hard perfect them became object used help them specifically feel like leave occasions needed them anyway education shit family struggling casual friends barely exist mind barely works anymore spent whole christmas birthday new years asleep handle awake actually called hotline first time birthday someone listen made feel something even gave standard canned responses want die badly know none give shit know see anyone stuff you know ill get nothing this know im writing anymore im sorry im going keep going though coming words thing keeping going insane sleeping pills kick go back sleep im planning talking one friends tomorrow im going ask let believe important them know would me really ask much im sorry am want this making much sense im going submit anyway lose feel broken human know im still here soul hurts chest hurts want stop know why deserve friendship deserve support cant even allowed support someone else why think im bad around point people actively avoid me think crazy maybe someone could stick me apparently though soul empty hands shaking new words add this thanks guys sorry worry im probably going end deleting this thanks,1 +days passing byi know people talking killing seek attention it talk killing anyone hear out anytime feel like killing think like would like fall really tall building center town catch im seeking attention hand see joy living always struggle live think making happy playing games didnt think nescessity go school get education get job everything new try brings joy got information get points assignment copied part friends work didnt would chance pass didnt know back then basically make even worse probably study one year this enjoyed studies first two years became nightmare got much work much things dont like dont feel like using future job lost positive feelings studies back wasnt depressed oportunity end life painlessly without making family suffer would go time life music helped time even doesnt help friends like spend time still prefer die live cant even come viable reason dont enjoy anything feels same finish one assignment comes another know everyone got problems dont see enjoying anything future maybe get job something change dont even dream getting girlfriend picky ugly problem thats ok first try happy right took medicines effectin year helped lower giant social anxiety like stressed h wanted die stressed anymore want die,1 +really cool movie remember first seeing really young used watch time like weekshadow favorite character movie homeward bound really funny really cool train animals things parts movie sad though such sassy cat falls waterfall shadow falls hole end seen second homeward bound gotta say good first shadow smart one sassy is well sassy chance funny idiot recommend movie anyone likes comedies talking animals one top ten favorite movies,0 +message fellow teenagers myanmar hear anything us next hours days please know military cut internet connectivity taken freedom speech away well citizen myanmar agree current move would like request world leaders un global media give hand country leaders people bitter acts want democracy want country track democracy route saynotomyanmarmilitarycoup justiceformyanmar savemyanmar,0 +posting every day get girlfriend day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day like wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one trillion day one quadrillion day one quintillion day one sextillion haha sex this today first walked km m up bicycled km usually struggle both day one septillion day one octillion day one nonillion day i love apache attack helicopters cute day day twjgwuwviqheiqniberuwkgueheikwgwiq day piece dead fly wall bed years now day screw fell chair worried day want provoke someone badly rn day qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm day fuck magic eye bot day leg hurts say leg still hurts day need electric shock rn day day day day day day day day day day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing day day day day day day should start random austria fact post series day fzzrjhgttejnpjgugzuijgfuhdojgz day think want change bedding every day fucking amazing change every days want feeling everyday day like cats cats cute day im hungry tired get up day like trains day like planes day today witnessed someone getting pulled m deep canyon helicopter day today yeeted waterfall day want found country day want yeet waterfall day e day day spanish inquisition day day p day day r day day day scam dont buy day buy minecraft instead day thinking erections public worse problem erection public day henry stickmin popular again day day even day qwertzuiop asdfghjkl yxcvbnm day big pp say bought microsoft flight sim day installing hours now day done day already spetember day big toe long pinky finger time thiccer thumb day want socialice hard rn usually hate talking ppl day half year mark getting closer day like trees day like cats day like dogs day today talked girl day d printer isnt working day think im way making female friend day im making progress day like apples day im running iut ideas write day e day ww lasted day like pizza day talked different girl today day like spaghetti too day use ecosia plz thx day u dont use ecosia ur stupid day plant trees day still donate team trees day know plumbusses made day made dinglebop day day day anyone ideas shit write here day went entire ipa throat hurts day tf almost october day ah shit one bit late day tomorrow day doot doot day drop snoot day bit luck school close soon again day think eill stop writing random shit day nothing happened today day think accidentialy motivated crush flirt woth another guy day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day one bit late internet bad day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day nothing happened today day girl school gave another guys chocolate got half it others each mean anything day nothing happened today day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day teacher put girl besides today wall looking good day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day spooky scary skeletons sends shivers spine day nut november started today day terrorism bad dont terrorism day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day amazing number day something happened dont think notable maybe is day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day nothing notable happened day edit something actually happened idk didnt write this multuple things got called cute female,0 +want fucking hang sexualityi think every fucking day aspects life getting better improving except one always destroy biggest insecurity hate it feel fucking trapped feel numb dead inside hate fucking lesbian fucking mental illness fair get trapped shit able put cure it hear its bad thing thats fucking true even was allowed try get conversion therapy redflag euthanasia im staying closeted forever every since found felt nothing hatred depression teens years ripped away im different every fucking person cant normal life cant happy feel stuck live every aspect life work hobbies friends shit improve except this always going fucking plague me always going horrible shit forever able date like normal straight person able fucking hold hands girl able respected going seen fucking sex object people theyll sexualize me treated like normal fucking person want fucking suffocate myself want dead point living im going dragged mental deformity every fucking day,1 +quick reddit simppolice get me regret it ur cute filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler filler ffiller filler filler filler filler,0 +back pitrock bottom become familiar going redflagwatch page reading posts teenagers reminds age empty really already dead inside teen years whole neglect parents constantly told im reason family problems never able connect people moved every years nothing ever solid permanent stopped caring everything reason stayed alive brother didnt deserve deal committing redflag everyone else would okay while like empty carcass walking around even try pretend okay thats little cared ready die whenever myself finally three unsuccessful attempts thought brother saving every time life would get better times right would get used things good something bad would happen again seems like im magnet bed news despite multiple losses break up trauma experienced last year forced remain positive hopeful future now im done again empty carcass like tumbleweed legs almost feel wind blowing me want die bad go coma turn brain little while even thought moving starting motivate me wanna drive california somewhere warm happy see anything changes want happy bad think ive given up hate well know rock bottom familiar normal life im going commit redflag every time try thought brother stops me im r e d im ready done,1 +life absolute shitits years since moved another town years deal shit inside head scream every evening beat something friends lose exfriends good work count unemployed lot shit want tell think somebody care it next year last happy new year everyone,1 +feel like ive lost battle myself ive lost war tooive never put post like before think time go fast decline never prepared for eaten drank anything booze slept god knows long today long time boyfriend left me packed shit left gave every last part soul fight gone fight over want peace dad screaming way knows deal like this hes begging come home him mother begging come home her little brother know state im yet choose stay alone apartment rot nine animals kept going long cant anymore tied noose im waiting right time,1 +get platinum award id love reddit premium terms money money probably need award anyone got ideas get awards xd,0 +kinda regret going itive considered redflag lot past never went thought death would causing issues would lived wrong im underachiever lazy bum whenever actively try something blows face horrible social skills constantly getting sick look like fucking gremlin cant hold job save life issues power change anything about brought upon compounded becoming bottomfeeder neet stay family members mooch them literally household cook breakfast every month use wifi use electricity drink water share food sleep beds leech like human parasite ive tried fix problems ive tried useful member society always fail try get job make past interview try something online blows face point caused problems dead man would abstained family members told also theyve told kill done wrong current existence cant called living took time reflect realise set failure beginning whoevers reading this hope fucked much have,1 +im fucking seething right now hey long read really want someone hear this please give time today mom threw science project she knew working on notified like okay okayy really snarky tone asked apologize said well mess stuff never apologize stood fuck snapped back like lightning tell one time something stuff failed apoligize looked speechless seconds since wrong could admit yelled get fuck room really glad stood bullshit one time weeks ago remember asked dishwasher minutes got call friend angry yelled threw cd case me always makes breakfast morning whole week afterward stopped making breakfast lunch kind developing ed severely affected ate nothing except dinner one night using moms phone set alarm presentation next day guess saw set alarm every day am pm labeled maki dishwasher late breakfast lunch confronted actually said tell something it wait minutes talk bullshit friends answer me left room cut later day good thing is today stood her didnt cut myself,0 +want end alreadymy mind downward spiral seems like went stop im trembling hardly coherent thought times want someone actually love feels like loneliness slowly killing mental state withering wish could die never asked born life have time though want keep trying want know love feels like again one time least head hurts know anymore wanna take nap bleh,1 +happy lockdown anniversary eve one year ago today wouldve last day school officially changed personality times survived redflag attempt ate pineapple changed rooms style mental collapses happy anniversary everyone,0 +reddit me right,0 +hey like sko u tryna talk frfr need ppl talk ight im bored n aint needa wake early like yea ok,0 +another rant no im anything attention would ask that thank calling ignorant cunt said dont care mental health really helped mental health im really sorry annoying im being tell im annoying you already got responses complaining things much im really sorry different people hope none read this last person im sarcastic rude,0 +storyi around years old old enough realize father alcoholic workaholic drug abuser coke fights dad got worse would get drunker every night screaming parents never stopped around time started cut myself want die felt like blame fathers actions needed punished around time dad mentally abused started physically abuse me gave lovely shiner popped blood vessel eye dragged hair room proceeded suffocate me eventually stopped left damage done mom took away him minimum wage job life really sucked weeks time food fridge gas electric shut numerous times point life really wanted die would stay home school look moms room looking medication would kill me almost resorted injecting insulin shes diabetic months later attempted cut throat avail really makes sad knowing low life would thing me life bad back thought killing way out not im tell life gets better may seem like now will want know im you need someone talk to matter time im want me survived to may know you love you tldr know going im you please let help,1 +hotline fucking jokei called night finally psyching up idk expected lady asked safety plan actively planning made shit plan said wasnt active kept trying hang me maybe used wrong half pill bottle deep one gives fuck someones job care keep trying hang doesnt give fuck even worth it job didnt care two days ideals gotten worse one gives damn dont see reason keep fighting hotline last chance failed,1 +everyone totally see movie freaking scary resort lame jumpoutatyoujusttosurpriseyouandpassitoffasscary things really great see freaking awesome movie director stanley kubrick easily greatest director ever lived every single one movies masterpieces including one shining family goes hotel colorado rockies caretakers winters get snowed in well house haunted kid psychic husband easily impacted evil haunted hotels andwellhilarity ensues really becomes gripping thriller stuff gets thrown viewer different directions gets scary classic heres johnny scene memorable cant speak whole movies one things words explain adequately gotta see it go netflix get it geeeeeetttttttt itttttttt,0 +need help look ugly years whenever look mirror saw really beautiful care others said today bathing looked mirror felt ugly also relative hate much face seems resemble lot today feel like people look good least average taken seriously person like neglected whole life,0 +another day band kid lime boy deadass guy band class got three whole ass limes ate like apples one batted eye,0 +dont want anymorei feel like im dragging along day nothing look forward anymore happiness anymore motivation anything im failing almost classes feel fucking pathetic useless basically friends left too point im tired trying im tired hearing itll get better hasnt dont see way will dont even know want future feel like im good anything honestly dont even see future all people always tell find hobby find something thatll distract feeling way doesnt work anymore nothing makes happy anymore nothing brings joy feel fucking alone every single day feel like ill never matter anyone one ever care love me im ready give end it dont care anymore want happy again dont want feel like anymore dont want stuck anymore,1 +hate fucking bullshitwhy fuck forced become slave society didnt even ask born first place shit pisses much burdens placed choice addresshunger thirst discomfort pain etc forced upon im expected go along else suffer body tortures meeting demands fuck shit find working jobwhich something people forced dounbearable agonizing waste time im forced either deal shit decades come go horrible painful process killing myself mean wtf that im fucking trapped hurts knowing society brought world doesnt give fuck go always going serving system else youre seen trash im fucking done want escape prison badly,1 +really wanna give scared toits hard keep going reason wanna survive accident locked mental hospital id pretend better try again another reason partially fear comes next im believer gods life ive always atheist but right ampxb really care hurting anyone death mainly im gonna dead cares also like im gonna missed yrs old never relationship really cared anyone and worst im high school dropout senior year ive got credits like couple left lost finish know ive always tried best normal person never jail done crime matter even smoked weed even though seems like every one is ampxb psychiatrist trust anyone family past really opening helps but cant it waste money wanna cause anymore weight mother already like much is ampxb even know why wouldve thought would least treat like rest siblings ive though struggle her ampxb gonna go back little bit explain father always controlling get way would get really angry mostly take mother always stole mothers pills back pain and pills high end stuff im telling stuff could put horse a little exaggeration docs would give little bit month tried stop him would take forcefully ampxb got older able stand him mind little guy finally little balance family leave cause made money means keep check would argue get way fight father really well mentally teen needing figure ampxb time really sent edge destroyed laptop laptop thing brought happiness watched anime gamed it destroyed fought lost looking back wish thinking fight blindly throwing fists well ampxb never forgave breaking happiness go get another one rolling money took care laptop like gift got mother ampxb childhood always stressful and eventually even care make friends since always moving siblings originally thought bad guy fought dad recently realized truth even brothers sister friends hard growing bad guy ampxb ampxb eventually mother became able support us left almost year ago also convince leave shei describe stockholm syndrome except actually good guy like movies ampxb even picture im still fire think mother blames breakup im treated differently siblings im always reason anything goes wrong now kinda scared mother go back wants toand waste struggling life away him ampxb im really point see cliff almost tempting ampxb caught up thoughts questions thanks reading kinda needed vent bit hopes someone read this sorry long post ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb,1 +bad titlesi feel like tonight really me rough year me ive stuck crappy job years im stuck im stuck needing help mother job long time making slightly minimum wage yeah big part im alone first relationship ended horribly lying cheating etc one two failures spent next years trying date sticking casual stuff wanting more set girl really changed views it seemed actually care made want myself wasnt like girls id before together year found sleeping several coworkers say least crushed me every thing ever told made rethink life suddenly faded away everything seems like complete lie make things even worse starting workplace week hurts first girl trusted long time started heal old scars turned around made even worse left wondering literally second last year thought was ive always struggled depression year seems kicking ass really feel like hope life anymore ive always struggled alcohol problem last year admit ive gotten much much worse dunno probably even seem like big deals are,1 +wanted die long period life truth actually terrified die think tell want die make think afraid deathim really sure constantly need around others give sort insight order feel like myself really idea could tell like like constantly anxious scared worried sad always tell people okayi tell people okay feel deserve empathy sorrow zero confidence myself usually end quitting job think good enough work even deserve make money take care myself addicted nicotine alcohol adult films internet necessarily really know actually feeling time sometimes think actually awake alive even broke ex thought deserved better hate alone like alone be dream mine since kid known sort legacy honestly think ever achieve that tell people believe god actually think worthy god struggling identity crisis zero motivation solve problem constantly unmotivated comes things good bad stop nothing get it put shitty situations like pain think deserve constantly seek affirmation others really want feel comfortable mind body molested five years old adhdi afraid die people forget within couple days things dying get chest,1 +sister watching harry potter movie every night rest spring break didnt expect mfuckers hours minutes long dont attention span this,0 +im done lifes fucking over dont wanna deal shithole longerim gonna sound like fucking incel rn whatever whenever try meaningful relationship wasting many resources shot down hurts waste life endless cycle of like someone try make move rejected try move on repeat ive tried improve myself ive fucking changed half interests hobbies people waste always shot down none friends try support me did say dont bother move on dont even know try elude believing theres chance lie saying theres good shot know never be yet still try anyway always ends same tears pain suffering painful cycle pain want of wanna meaningful happy relationship longer goes seems like pipe dream im sorry youve read far need vent get fucking brain text god want fucking ending could im addicted cycle see through hate life hate everything,1 +know dude made doom pregnancy test imagine hes single goes buying pregnancy test cashier says oh think wifes pregnant replies want play doom,0 +best way commit redflagi know question asked lot sorry would better got shot heart spend money get breathing mask nitrous,1 +sorting new hi lol fill space gap really want take napgt_lt,0 +emotional powers characters dominick eugene things hollywood make anymore one emotional sensitive heartfelt movies ever seen roy liotta tom hulce supporting actress jamie lee curtis deliver oscar winning caliber performances enough words express great movie is sure people sentimental movies may care much rest us dominick eugene rest us movie goes right heart sole compassion humanity never forget film everbr br spoilers belowbr br the simple yet eloquent story masterfully told eugene medschool intern faces long hours demanding work load hospital fraternal twin brother dominick born minutes earlier little slow awkward brain damage due victim abuse father a heartbreaking moment found film leave tears eugene aka geno faces painful dilemma must decide whether finish medical school would mean accepting residency another city leave dominick aka nicky behind forfeit rest education take care him nicky helps pay brothers medschool tuition working trash collectorbr br the questions ethics morals responsibilities masterfully blended landmark movie gino thinks nicky might making progress toward independence dominick turns around winds things like helping drug dealer tying use faulty cord finds dump electrical appliancebr br larry the character nickys partner garbage route fills gullible dominicks head kinds stories like geno jennifer his girlfriend tutoring clinical pharmacology going atlantic city gambling away money deep down see larry cares him rounds nicky also befriends little boy find also beaten father end result also tragic pain see nickys face happens speaks volumesbr br the sensitivity two brothers share overstated enough nicky wants loved look acceptance anyway can ie goes church loves hulk hogan geno loves nicky anything world brother become independent enough geno pursue dream becoming doctor brilliant film gotten tons recognition deserved unfortunately came around time rain man dealt similar issue however like dominick eugene better far stronger emotional component forewarned movie aimed right tearducts kleenex handy film,0 +dealim tired living want die im gonna give month find reason live cant find reason september th death date,1 +think saturday dayi got good idea birthday theres one day year people remember all done giving fuck know aint worth,1 +im rough timetdlr transgender completely abandoned friends came year ago first friends really supportive would go mall buy make etc lately however im lucky even get someone respond messenger post work incredibly hard job hours week assistant manager get yelled next day manager enough suffer night struggling lawyer ending it lately arguments continuing go another day falling flat zero friends seemingly job hate,1 +upon time everything greati like everyone else young innocent naive all friends good grades happiness felt nothing could go wrongsuddenly present moment depression washed upon like tidal wave began total loss concentration loss interest anything everything would wake go back bed againi would consume packs junk food life depended iti would constantly feel like memory trash language skills deteriorated voices head telling failed friends laughed called crazymy family kept taking themself thier pain thier life thier strugglesbut me needed most friends family disappeared slowly began descent madness poem depression,1 +cause takes best parts three films cape fear touch evil silence lambs mixes together come good thriller filmbr br sean connery liberal law professor married former assistant district attorney kate capshaw hes crusader capital punishment blair underwoods grandmother ruby dee buttonholes connery conference persuades handle grandsons appeal hes sitting death row murder young girlbr br when connery arrives rural florida county hes tough sheriff played laurence fishburne whos ruthless crime solving orson welles touch evil br br later connery gets verdict set aside evidence hes uncovered hes feeling pretty good himself point film takes decided turn touch evil cape fearbr br to say seems put mildly cast uniformly turns good performances special mention must made ed harris plays hannibal lecter like serial killer death row underwood make skin crawl starts making connery rethink comfortable liberal premises hes basing convictions on many confirmed liberal ive known come thinking quite differently theyve become crime victimbr br of course reverse equally true many law order conservative ever get involved wrong end criminal justice system wants make real sure rights indeed guaranteedbr br criminal justice end process never ending one society guess cause moral would probably it,0 +dog keeps committing redflagschool approaching couple weeks always made stressed suicidal whenever get like feel guilty dog im gonna leave like that course family take care dont want hurt her sometimes convince dog doesnt like animal wont care cant get guilt conflicting mental health prevents able play much deserves convince shes better without me im scared hurting emotionally thinking abandoned her hate cant even get cry it,1 +cannot even crank melody days wanted good one thing,1 +oh forgot aversives therapist openly punitive hostile withholding explicitly order punish teach you linehan gives three sentences towards ant ethical criticism this saying works also uses fun techniques like giving multiple sessions week plus groups mandatory also telephone contact,1 +convince meconvince matter anymore convince try getting better even though every time eat throw up convince forget every memory sam alex convince shouldnt walk back university jump river done making excuses myself,1 +really struggling want hold tell alright know continue without you forever life yours want anymore never wanted think called life helped make bareable lowest life soul life shattered see way darkness need hold tell ok please cannot stop thinking hurting myself hard breathe,1 +ive realized even delete search history still find router history real would go thier way go check router go check thier child looking am,0 +lol im forgetful made hot coco greatwaited brew went computer completely forgot hot coco whilecant smell it probably factor came back maybe half hour later watching youtube instead school added hot water coffee machine stirred took sip yumoh wait bitter yep used coffee machine water forgot remove coffee podagain hot coco coffee tastesinteresting also left banana table cause forgot finish it forgetful,0 +anyone wanna join competitive pokemon discord server competitive pokemon discord server think lot people like stuff dm discord persephone cause reddit dms work like members means anything were also looking gym leaders people like use showdown allowed use,0 +anyone growing without dad daily life hey teens growing without dad daily life know going through like little fatherly love advice check youtube channel made teens especially boys girls certainly welcome too growing without dad daily life feel inclined hope subscribe,0 +cant post images here filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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feeling dread want mean something someone im suicidal lost,0 +message highschoolers reddit year old bragging im popular kid school dont ask see me anyway ive seen lot people giving girl advice guy advice blah blah blah one talking this thought would yr male never relationship sad start lemme start again ok seriously worship popular guys want popular guy dont want impress girls want bad boy oh ui_flew_the_kamikaze bully me want cool too no no popular sucks wish wasnt popular honest one thing wanted say take exams seriously dont slack saying im yr old minecrft youtuber one likes those plan b want sdo anything fine plan b something solid something like safety cushion fall upon passion cant feed ya ampxb love shit girlfriends boyfriends good found true love yay others lonely people stuck love stop complaining lonely find hobby yourself used lonely too get it ampxb depressed like am vent out cant dm me cant vent im embarassed like poison me late anything beyond repair not talk ampxb girls one you please make fun us manly fuck say that ampxb thats it ig,0 +u horny teen despite feeling xxx well im gonna give u instructions fuck blanket roll ur blanket ball u done ur blanket feel firm take ur hand center ur blanket push take ur hand put expsed part pull u pushed fuck it,0 +crush likes quarantine old friends dipped girl real person talking eventually started develop crush her told likes im happy edit thank award lt,0 +almost died lol friend house rolled sidebyside get staples hit bar sidebyside upside pics message,0 +really anything look forward tolike title says dreams wishes go after im living parents plans go go college theres nothing want do see kill besides family friends missing me big deal me depression anxiety issues im aware of im religious theres nothing im concerned dying enjoy playing video games watching tv thats past year day ive told join video game related career lot stuff go college for lot money cant get also takes lot effort want put much effort pretty shitty life end life i look forward to,1 +supposed feel lovr use protection really love cum inside,0 +eric bogosians ability roll character character one man show exhibits true range character actor persona message convey truth society class drugs etc absolute must anyone serious fan acting performance contains hilarious real moments ever experienced viewing audience,0 +got ltt ad english english class learning crispr couple minutes got ad ltt honey fucking amazing,0 +hate friends sent among us porn like ,0 +watched expecting see usual british stiff upper lip stereotypes surprised find dialogue remarkably natural tinged black humour like eastenders goes sea serve scenes approach attack remarkably realistic depiction fighting ship stuff ups banter among ships company well least based service s throwaway lines witty im joining band hope please greasy fish fryer complaint show happened irish coxswain bride be tattooed po i love arabella tattoo,0 +end erafor whole life irony depression loneliness followed me ive always tried stay optimistic positive time goes seems fade away im years old absolutely nothing look forward to girlfriend talent self esteem everyday wake happy minutes realize amnobody self image bullying people opinions frankly opinions dont matter always felt life doomed day could walk always polite respectable try good moral citizen yet always seem contradict morals preach guess im possibly awakening cant take voices anymore head sight flesh whole essence tainted useless go it want family know love wish nothing best generous people forum showed kindness understanding thank you,1 +guys one parent cause theyre slightly less abusive make halfhearted apologies abusing act like angel wrong all fuck dad im cutting mom life im ,0 +wish everyone one good night whatever time good time night goodnught qts,0 +afraidi really want die know stupid meaningless problems would go away know people wouldnt get annoyed mere presence room id never worry whether id ever feel better might even get see dad fucking balls commit why even though know should falter every time go todo it drop fucking knife put fucking rope cut shallow sit curl wish could either cry die instead it worthless cant even fucking bring make change,1 +absolutely love film everything it almost felt like watching friends screen way movie filmed pure masterpiece original creative related characters even thoughts some im really glad ran across movie genius like justin there,0 +adventure bay adult care center theory started question grown adults constantly call ten year old who lives alone bunch dogs solve every problem ryder ten year old boy all young orderly adult care center differently abled adults team therapy dogs episodes show imagined adventures one patients chickaleta stuffed chicken mayor goodway uses excuse things messes up alex duck mr porters grandson died drive edge imagines duck grandson talks it humdinger also patient criminal ward escapes constantly try mess residents resident part ward given title mayor cares stray cats around town dogs like him alternative theory humdinger hes similar facility criminally insane across road constantly escapes come mess cousin mayor goodway grandpa grover clearly humdinger ancestor katie also orderly employee center helps care various animals jake former pro severe traumatic brain injury needs round clock care also eventually gets therapy dog everest captain turbot sea captain lost crew storm wally best mate crew wally imagined creature campus saying wally real cause captn turbot throw water saturday morning ruminations single mom season weird weird show,0 +mi bored af u wanna talk dm,0 +sometimes think giving everythingdoes make sense think would easier die finally sleep forever,1 +knowim going save problem this im letting guys know im done life im fucking lonely nobody ever since girlfriend broke able happy know im never going happy one guess good bye im gone world transcend next one goodbye everyone,1 +hate feeling hate much ever see people complete family im one although quite happy mom dad seperated still wish father figure life know male stuff well sometimes get ostracized guys show much emotions cry want cry get judged it fucking sucks,0 +random discussion think f eaglestrike eagle think f nice bird high twr means good one best bvr c version single seat dcs low fidelity module mention data link jhmcs currently fe strike eagle dcs still development far nice bird askin me even killed satellite low earth orbit sayin,0 +comment mainly comment first commentator the extra film unhappy assessment film think perspective indicates extra extra director director film sweet acting sufficient experience watching nice diversion busy work week the hours acting the matrix special effects even the color purple direction movies be also crap fest vinny would lead believe sorry guy centsbr br as movie itself end gay affirming showed world full diverse less perfect peopleyou know like opened door one culture without excluding cultures liked music ,0 +f people whose phoneselectronics broke quarantine yes f me phone battery swelled last june got new one d,0 +peepeepoopoo man comes back revenge laugh name become new victim,0 +waitive urge kill self now first seemed ridiculous irrational me idea slowly become reasonable thoughts become louder louder point im sure im even agaisnt idea die today years now seem same know difference im dead even remember extra years end wait,1 +since september last year borrowing four six films week harold washington library boasts impressive dvd collection the hwl truly circulating library threequarters films given time recently thrilled find short films david lynch yesterday knowing little animated series picked dumbland im report that david lynch fans watching eight episodes half hour wellspentbr br the remarkable feature brief pieces soundtracks episode rhythm respiratory digestive systems provide percussion outrageous voices accent pauses ends physical violence supplies beats chirping birds buzzing sockets brush along edges many elements fill orchestra pacing crude animation often keeps sync sound soundtrack struck lynchs primary interest creating disseminating work way eight shorts unique lynchian rhythmsbr br that said situations odd ugly profound dumb funny hell theres enough space within reflect absurd humans be cant say ill watch collection again anyone revelled movements suite inland empire dumbland worth half hour time,0 +want talk skype tarkanon voice ill delete hours im boredim american im years old retired im trip around world,1 +school projectfastest knife death,1 +think ill make itmy head never got better life fine mind,1 + anything like im going surviveevery nye ends crying bathroom im afraid face next year year worse ever truly awful part think ive living undiagnosed mental illness whole year dont resources get help it getting worse every day feel like im point life growing moving new things getting mature im stuck am hopelessly running place finished aa community college fall ended take semester hopes getting control mental health working save money decide majorcareer want go for university attend move semester passed ill wait fall havent accomplished things needed to im stuck here years old still living parents working hrswk idea go little hope ever getting better happy new year guess,1 +dont even blame covid anymoreim gonna one approximately redflags unemployment uk every year year lol cant stop crying write th dogshit cv someone suited jackass gonna look two seconds jump straight employment history section reject immediately though putting thousands pounds debt go university years doesnt mean fucking thing,1 + confusedthis may seem like random rant anything else im really confused right now im really bad depression years now aswell mild conditions im feeling suicidal almost every day feel like cant stop myself ive getting help started taking pills depression sleep recently make worse usually losing appetite stomach pains dizziness etc make worse get pretty bad anxiety educationwork since dropped months ago i idea want do one day ill feel perfectly fine somewhat happy next ill terribly depressed suicidal feel like giving up really interested music psychology distract life anyone advice do cope yourself anything general,1 +decided kill tomorrowi tried tell mother left live got screamed life worse mine got support made decision easy guess well good look rest you,1 +brother killed want himtwo days ago struggled depression much longer i better healthier happier lonely depressive feelings come back want take one guns wont think want still live miss abbie,1 +thing lawyer ace attorney reacts obviously im saying know law lawyer course not thing always got react first case first episode anime like dont think first trial good idea react considering sole purpose world building introducing player game mechanics plus know legal system ace attorney mix japanese american legal systems meant satire japanese law say perspective american lawyer dont see issue much tho would like see japanese lawyer reacting it there probably somewhere niconico think it either way id like see lawyer critique another ace attorney case first trial tbh know long still theres kinda issues critiquing first trial id kinda wanna see accurate whole game is,0 +little year shit mistaked year said me year s lessons now wandering corridors turned around said im year believe me short looking young teenage curse adults dream,0 +help pleas crush asked go swimming house barbecue dad friends im person invited dont know whether tell like barbecue ask likes wait bbq say something like nice time ive known years done multiple things let know probably likes like resting head shoulder hugging me suprising al actually years existence gave birthday present school yea think say yes,0 +boyfriends th birthday presents hi everyone boyfriends birthday weeks current bought leather phone case name engraved limited edition hungry jacks cups missed on plan also get self care basket couple colognes face wash mens bath bombs baths lot overthinking lot worrying might like suck found smart watch thought might good work dosent one still looks classy classy get watch also idea get lego set the stormtrooper one always jokes getting lego display one would probably actually like it already know getting birthday necklace replace one currently wear time ahhhhhh teenage boys please help someone willing help pm next days decide get him would great tldr struggling figure get bf th begginning worry like ive gotten him,0 +idk want kill self never open eyes life purpose anymore depressed want end life,1 +cant handle abuse anymoreim living childs mother cant handle abuse anymore ive living months im trying scrape together much money get away im employed anymore stupidly took parental leave help son past days constantly insulting berating me calling liar piece shit useless scum worthless telling leave tomorrow else shell call police enough money rent place im living scraps unemployment even kicked yet mention im bankrupt credit good luck finding place love son cant handle abuse either put abuse im homeless homeless god knows long family stay with nobody takes claims abuse seriously im man say suck handle it cant handle it week get days long enslaughts gaslighting insults need out cant anymore hope son forgives hes old enough understand want homeless want put abuse fucking want drive car brick wall lake,1 +im polar opposite guys say one traits would probably opposite trait,0 +childhood best friend left amp im redflag watch basically grew together ever since moved here terrible childhood step father would always drink call bitch amp threaten me mom never showed cared tell loves me etc importantly ex best friend still alive today would come try cheer would crying wanting attempt time passed things started become weird started getting relationships slowly everything became distant still tried hang wouldnt engage conversations anymore even try like uninterested me think made believe wasnt important me text argument whole situation believes meant different paths said goodbye never made sense chose go different path rather tell feel broke me dont know life anymore friends drink everyday cut desperately hit myself really think wasnt good enough her please help,1 +day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always stream twitch game,0 +whats amount trouble get leaving high school early please help im tired wanna uber home,0 +brian wesley eure works security firm owned mr norton conrad bain norton firm financial trouble for unknown owner employee selling secrets rival firms owner jim bacchus brian loyal faithful employee good inventor but mr norton patience brian part nortons beautiful daughter casey valerie bertinelli thing brian norton questions brians motives wooing her however brian come great security device called chomps stands canine home security system device looks like dog actually computer controlled animal ability knock walls emit siren sounds capture burglars rival owner sends two bungling spies one red buttons learn details new invention chomps save norton security fun family flick old school good clean entertainment chomps is course real dog played adorable talented benji fact benji duel role brian real dog named rascal too watching little dog action pure joy able scale walls pull trucks operate machine buttons capture bad guys human cast also quite nice everyone giving upbeat performances infectious costumes scenery production values good too although may trouble locating film would well worth effort secure view closest loved ones chomps wonderful wholesome diversion worlds woes,0 +could actually worth somethingi cant really contribute society im music education major education important music isnt nothing mankind future solve poverty disease sits distraction anything truly productive maybe take construction job become truck driver get way real educators teaching stem go wrong love science ive wanted astronaut forever thought good math failed last calculus test understand basic astronomy gonna helpful anything earth theres even argument made lack importance space exploration much love space much really contribute mankind everything enjoy important get way something matters even like go even end point know stuff sounds like eugenics support that really do cost money food time resources energy people care about needs that,1 +teenager opinion wasnt allowed unpopular cuz ban wasnt racist george floyd killed unrightfully thats police brutality know black doesnt make race problem literally highly doubt police killed racist cuz didnt race inferior mentality them something terrible race literally every race including whites died way george reason say lives matter cuz literally every race dealing it could use house fire concept house fire wont water houses fire youd water house fire ok multiple houses fires want save,0 +im hungry want get im laying here lazy hell ill shed skin like snake eat,0 +finished algebra work early im bored af someone help,0 +oh great fucking family believes lives matter might hang ngl mums making fun shit like gays saying lives matter shit im fucking done,0 +feel like cant go anymoref depressed long remember everything feels like struggle tired feel hopeless dont know want anymore dont know myself feel exhausted trying feel like burden every bad thing happens fault wish life would feel light happy joyful again feel like running away dont want go anymore suffering world cant eat cant concentrate think big fuck one likes ever love me everyone leaves tired suffering feel like good nothing feel like drowning again went therapy long time spent lot money it parents cant pay anymore cant forget thats happened past failures mess ups feel like cant anything right deeply unhappy feel like dont deserve live,1 +stab chestim sure work try scared know hurt lot this life me care anybody else thinks need build enough courage thats it,1 +im going get trouble dad bought shitty camera system context stepdad setup cameras corners house usually uses check took dog out yesterday guarantee took dog every time supposed since bought crappy cameras even worse motion tracking believe took probably going get grounded hell do,0 +saw move paris may debating mission impossiblei glad choose oss funny might well watch french movie france great time would recommend it important understanding french society today really enjoy humor movie cannot wait dvd come out know jeu de mots puns would translated english ll certainly buy out ps saw brice de nice movie starring dujardin kids talking france movie comedy sillier one imaginein comparing movies say dujardin good job oss ,0 +last hopeim tired im hurt im lost world uncaring torment left rot hands held facade caring eyes years loathing happiness finally coming close say dont try happy its fault like this im tired helping you last one hitting hardest left thr lips one called love one asked fiance earlier ones coming mouths blood line like asked happiness torn grasp maybe years time shut cover old beaten tale maybe right tossed dogs im tired fending darkness closes upon light finances grim lost jobs cared hold love slipped cluthing fingers fate snickered wickedly woth every passing moment darkness looks inviting begging join eternity think ill answer call,1 +things cis men never understand periods like fr cramps hormones cravings bloating sht comes periods pain someone leaving toilet seat up find clean toilet outside dealing sexist men extremely demeaning women saying feminist automatically assumed like blue haired liberal instead actually believe equal right women idk started writing,0 +anyone talk toi need someone talk situation,1 +humanity like this people wearing masks respecting social distancing protestors tearing symbols freedom civil human right calling white supremacy years ago anti vaccine movement happened people thought smarter doctors phds earth flatglobal warming isnt real even goes way back s people denying basic science seems basic human trait now feel downfall civilization thank coming ted talk,0 +note hope help people understand one day thank youdont read last night first night thought enough energy it never real felt brain numb tears anxiety focus hopelessness hopelessness self esteem hopelessness hopeful thinking go exact spot dreamed happening sticking decision moment walked front door never wanted leave note im gonna start see get dont want call seasonal depression captive depression nonsensical depression proves useless curable wanna call restless hopelessness nothings left sad feelings go numb literally feel bliss go body im still imaging nothingness dont know mind goes drifts dont wanna make sappy note sticking facts logical non sensical ironic sounds coming depressed kid dont sad leave angry drive find real cure patience cure comes happy patience support like dopamine drip kidney failure patient striving get transplant surviving medication theyre skin turns yellow family love ever drove resenting emotionally ugly treat everyone great mask fact really another spec star dust universe doesnt care im ash want listen make note want understand really feels like even though brain body hopefully never will want listen tell working pushing harder ever isnt working me need reason emotion great life what strive cant reach try ill never see really feels like normal again name every reason wrong dont convince im wrong convince brain subconscious convince sadness less sadness others take care mourn sadness others dont want share this mind clearing up always trys best moment carve path clear view one days storms going thick wont feel drowsy day hope whatever hell pushing me little mercy love guys love you dani,1 +driving test tomorrow hey everyone huge congrats already got licenses hopefully ill joining soon im small town dmv isnt testing highway roundabouts point turns im nervous covid getting license super important me advice strats experience,0 +nothing do pretend horny jail officer check post history determine horny jail sentence,0 +havent eaten yet todayi havent done anything wrong situation im girl causing depression right still genuinely dont believe deserve eat,1 +sometimes tell someone im vegetarian try brag eating meat like im punishment never day life craved meat something ate completely lost taste it people even get offended like created meat something im telling eat anything either literally dont like dont weird,0 +failed attempti tried kms night let cousin know cuz always talked wanted come get kids morning well rang police arms messed nothing family kids week ever completely childfree yrs considered away thats ideal time it ive trying hold on call social services hour ago questioning ability children police woman night condescending cow smirked whole time made report sound way worse was cousin never called police im worse position before im sat tears meds ready need see children one last time cant video call cuz family members know something stop me thinking writing letters that still get see them need hug them feel terrible leaving them hate life much ss crawling one thing cant handle kids things got bed for im good mum get every day even want lie bed waste away look get appointments kids things kept here even sometimes feel like enough im actually fighting whether it drunk night im sober feeling overwhelming im going potter round tidy up wait sign dunno sign looking for something good happen make decide stick around something bad push past tipping point read far thank you really needed tell someone feel safe knowledge going call police family members me,1 +hate school hate here ive tried reaching people one cares one even acknowledges feel school fucking hard cant anymore cant stress constant burden you ive tried believe could make it dont believe anything anymore theres one answer hate school hate much fuckin hate school,0 +feeling nothingnessi literally motivation anything ive trying go make plans friends feel empty inside irritated myself like cant even breathe right redflag crosses mind everyday ive made close bonds people would broken died genuinely wish wasnt sad time wasnt numb feelings forced constantly crack joke keep people around feel tired started getting high pills tolerance started getting higher really dont want take pills get high wanna find something makes whole feels like something missing like itch cant scratch im really debating ending point,1 +omg realized people never seen meme entire lifetime pigs never get look directly entire lifetime im really desperate dopamine right,0 +miss someone miss someone isnt valentines day post anything fact nice evening watching movie friends miss someone much cant go day without thinking them probably paranoid im scared ill never see again evidence suggests im wrong cant trust calm down every day think them voice smile everything rough five weeks us want safe safe themself cant them could would holding goof arms never letting go late im going sleep now goodnight miss you,0 +ask anything life uncle lives stroke survivor answers vaguely hes fine ask yourself unappreciative part come fact asks something say no imply no gets completely mad me shell go love stuff you daddy would disappointed you fine then ill never ask anything ever again,0 +cant switch thoughts offi got ill christmas time broke someone seeing long seemed like perfect person asked thoughts taking step forward we seeing other question says cant thats it over nothing point gone wrong sent really nice messages voice mail literally telling really really liked me ive break ups cant shake one even though short romance feel like never meet anyone quite like ever cant get head due illness norovirus lost almost stone weight trouble sleeping days thoughts ending all point started thinking would best way went doctor help im antidepressants moment begins c cant remember name ive days now trouble sleeping given sleeping tablets still keep waking up went back doctor took away refused give anything would make problem worse ive feeling better just want end end it recently massively cant sleep less two hours days ago found would likely made redundant end february since cant sleep thoughts driving crazy want stop appetite drive carry anymore really know im posting this guess want vent cry throw go away wish antidepressants actually made feel happy,1 +holidays worstnot dont want others happy reason seeing everyone laughing fun amp actually living reminds empty life people like much i trouble living im feeling worst today beginning holidays,1 +relate kurt cobain tbh wanna start band become popular hang age join club lmao,0 +live hopelessive done things power improve im done remember thinking would get things would better arent ive lived life wrong nothing mitigate fact done cant get want thats clear now dont know else existing til enough people whod impacted death dead point im getting less less concerned offing letting fallout happen ive never wanted hurt anyone sustainable reason continue regret tearing apart every moment every day point cant see honest,1 +appreciation post uhonkymommymilkers thanks bro,0 +going deeper deeper hell going hell keep going ,1 +fuck star signs date someone favourite element acceptable like thorium plutonium theyre good based marry right now like uranium thats red flag leave relationship immediately,0 +normal get excited simply things jump around im happy friends noticed get excited little things like lightning fire science army plane flying school ill jump getting excited saying look plane thats cool laugh sometimes flapping arms around even try to tell act like im years old something sometimes make fun thought getting excited little things normal everyone telling,0 +andersons animation easily rivals pixar goes well beyond anything ive ever seen disney do say story bit abstract find thoughtprovoking refreshing change exaggerated characters bumbling animals typically found animated shorts interplanetary version castaway anyone left safe harbor home gone lonely frightening place themselves readily identify forlorn microbe excellent work mr andersonbr br ,0 +cool title spent hour recording minecraft playstation youtube press share button twice find wasnt recording,0 +fuck societyjust kill already dont want live abusive society kill me end laugh dead body remove people like make us extinct perfect model society stays intact never ever try help warped sense justice fuck never accepting me,1 +hospitalizationi went psychiatrist wanted hospitalized now therapist ive always told want hospitalized said get put psychiatric hospital dont want too think itll happen point im scared,1 +fucking tired pretending betterfrom everyone family counselors friends keep feeding bullshit feel put pity bs everyday wish owned gun could done already even sad tired life terrible nothing bad overly happened trying get disability years mostly making people happy pretending get on life shit look forward nothing anymore everything seems like huge waste time think real conversation anyone months now reason even still alive want upset anyone thats it even starting go dont care hole everything else even honestly expect anyone read respond want least something truth somewhere,1 +anybody want message directly long short term matter feel like shit dm anyone,1 +im trying get serious bodybuilding need help im weigh lbs ive working year routine works without proper diet cant get changes want diet recommendations would greatly appreciated,0 +view risk,0 +posting til obtain happiness day happened able post pictures,0 +going new years resolution end thinking new year resolution said i dont want introverted anymore shyness want open direct extroverted beginning year changed vocational school focus it knew nothing one chance become wanted become now help always kept one thing head insecure something thought something bit long fucking it phrase mind helped lot starting talk others start conversation going always kept sentence head about fucking time let loose something head sure say thought fuck got head got big mouth love like get words without many backthoughts putting one joke loudly letting loose thinking things like really this would people think different this really makes feel lot comfortable around people becoming open extroverted now makes feel lot comfortable,0 +bitches like wow u playin yea im playing run cool math games,0 +people chase movies featuring audrey tautou seem understand amelie character really audrey tautous real life personality hence every movie partakes going amelie part part etcbr br now said picked movie simply audrey it yes true big gap first scene seen maybe min even miss much fun characters guy lies everything funny guy justifies people run cafe skip bill finding coupons balance loss actually getting characters could take quite while one best movies ive seen whilebr br audrey tautous character irene overdone sugary girl amelie was fact irene rudeness bum asking change caught guard first film irene girl good intentions course very awful day disposition becomes sour pessimisticbr br what makes film completely great really interesting stories plots building entertaining watch great scenery shots colorful never slow characters actually act best part movie comes minutes left plots start mesh together ride really picks everything ties together makes sense whole butterfly effect blossoms swear best minutes film ive seen quite while ending made think damn really lucked finding movie ending movie top notch whoever wrote script brilliant subplots going on somehow make tie together and sensible manner case here also make character feel human come alive stale persona used crutch build whole butterfly effect impressivebr br i highly suggest movie great film watch anytime mood company alone,0 +trying give reasons liveso think ive life going use throwaway see purpose anymore ill dead within hour anyway im dead end job dead end life cut contacts friends become alcoholics drug addicts burnouts parents cut support me ill homeless month paychecks longer able cover housing bills strange think life made dramatic turn graduated high school high honors scholarships never relationship even kissed girl hopes though college would change things would finally able achieve dreams become medical examiner live comfortable life bat things go well failed make new friends college ended hanging friends high school first two years bad well academically loneliness social isolation final caught me around junior year college began get alcohol heavily becoming might call burnouts followed suit grades fell barely graduated college worthless humanities degree spent following years dead end food service jobs drinking away sorrows basements houses remaining friends finally lost virginity way wouldve hoped for slept best friends fiance told keeping silent ruined friendship kicked apartment shared them took back left defeated man tried kill year half ago hospitalized three days hopped ativan olazipan let go saw counselors tried get back school every time would take classes anxiety would take would fail horribly took numbing way taught how drinking even course thrown detox clinic three months ago went bender pulled knife frat boys encouraging kill bunch friends ditched me gave friends drinking basements left alone even friends left beginning fade away friends begin new relationships want drag mopiness anymore new year dawns resolved see another sorry long rambling post guess wanted tell story feel amanda always huge crush you thank always matter sorry never balls say felt reddit awesome provided hours hours entertainment making feel alone world adios,1 +many things wrong able live normal lifei dont know relationships kind unloveable,1 +possible start online business able afford dream car college student hello guys currently im college student studying intelligent systems engineering like computer science time school hear people age able afford expensive cars not makes want able get deal essentially found starting business would great side hustle outside school since limited hours need do thanks professors anywho heard many different opportunities make money profitable decently profitable like example dropshipping teespring shopify investingday trading ect lot choices decide on idk think do obviously want worth time money starting business also want able able pay school enough money pay new car so general best method making money online afford things want to thanks much,0 +mfs like bros hoes dick ass hoe mf,0 +really lifehow entertain life empty meaningless feel like nothing worthless nothing get feel something except alcohol cigarettes really point even free will like yes think live need things want really living need adapt worth adapt worth things want u live u free u want live happy possible u happy u things make ur mood go down really know life random thoughts,1 +yo guys heard usezle worlds best penis wish usezle ________________________,0 +appeal ancient films like one get see actual moving image life years ago lot people leaving factory dead none even remotely aware magnitude invention walking before shocked read one reviewer call film boring home videos today least one mistakenly identified first film ever made it first film made rate frames per second rather thennormal frames per second br br sure see lot people filing building passing cinematograph way home work curiosity piece dozens reasons least first film made lumire brothers probably stronger impact development cinema individual group individuals history,0 +like im even here staysometimes feel like invisible man maybe invisible right word people see acknowledge superficial level think anyone really cares me friends brush mention declining mental health youll fine gotta wait out ive waiting years depression go away years suicidal thoughts go away like theyd even miss im gone talk text call first mostly asking anyone wants hang almost never way around laugh joke happy wallow room waiting day finally free misery already know im gonna crash car hopefully itll enough gotta get courage first really sucks growing realizing many people care others yet one cares you one asks im got depression despite fact called best friend known years talks really bad times never follows up never hey man doing nope always move ignore emotional kid always whines fuck one cares anyways,1 +weird dream became paralyzed forced crawl ground go back old houseit fucking weird,1 +cant anymoreim going get gun next week kill myself right left ventricle aiming superior lateral costal margin leading immediate desanguintation instant death lack blood flow brain lv im doctor ive single years work prison ex left fucking warehouse worker offense guys fuck him hes dumber rock thats it cant take fucking planet anymore billions people cant meet one fucking woman planet fucking heart interest anyone like me fucking years nonstop schooltraining working one demanding fields nothing one fucking blip fuck you fuck planet predict full nuclear war im dead fuck you goodbye good riddance fucking assholes doesnt matter hard work bust improve world die alone youre halfway decent human being evidence need fucking jesus christ even immortal god fucking killed him it planet value people fucking care ever garbage nothing moot see many women get abortions would end kids like me people fucking give shit well gone die human race end fuck you get give fucking horrible humans,1 +really want make rope mothers yarn uses crocheting hang backyard scared find ropegod damn it universe never letting die,1 +thoroughly enjoyed movieand watch time time still ive used music classes school teach kids seem enjoy it although wish colorbr br the best thing movie is me grew heifetz died chance actually see master violinist work craft surprised up date story line is although references reform school outdated boy whose father died raised mom stepfathermost kids today raised stepparents although movie makes seem like stepparents cruel get angry mother take side defend actions stepfatherbr br also musical selections difficult believe find unbelievable child looks play minute waltz year old girl could sing aria rigolettobr br other that really fun feel good movie recommend it wish would come dvd,0 +going hang tonightsick sadness tragedy shit life cant cope anymore also please stop dming god jesus love you shit god isnt real,1 +im alive catsit would hurt bad leave dont know much take life miserable,1 +day saying hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello,0 +possesses value endsadly affluence poorness betrayal loyalty love hate mean absolutely nothing coexisting foundations society little evolutionary concepts holds real value alas die biologically left alone without sacred things consciousness thats keeps comforted end really end,1 +know correct sub reddit gorecently met close friend mine narrating story breakup slight annoyance dark humor proud strong nothing affected yada yada pointed feel anything relationship could cry infuriated let pass anyway almost years cried started bother me long timethe breakup moments smile malevolently think scenarios someone whipping stabbing glass leaving marks bruises cry sort extreme scenarios googled why cannot cry even want to said might chance might suffering melancholic depression melancholic depression,1 +calling beautiful till understand beautiful piece shit beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful understood yet fucking beautiful,0 +mod would ban clapping posts hate,0 +im ugly inside outim fucking failure whats point even living mediocre life even family dont understand im feeling like say everything thing im disgusting looking cant even look mirror cant die already know people care me cant even self harm anymore im constantly crying reason hate useless worthless ugly self dont want live everyday life seeing miserable face people care dont even care least wont care long want disappear nobody remembering me im worthless human even good look talented lot people way worse im still complaining makes even pathetic hope today itll work,1 +reddit going kill tomorrow nighti cant bring jump height want anything dramatic like slit wrists throat anything going draw lot attention opted counter sleep pills vodka come boxes know shops visit get they sell one box time im probably going take l vodka concern im either going survive complete vegetable end incredible pain submit it resulting trip emergency room also thinking leaving note things complicated think make things painful leave behind premeditdated months now spur moment descision never tried anything like before so guess im asking likely succesfully end life going cause big mess,1 +june still feel suicidal every time relive ended bashing head wall pain brings me im hoping posting relieve pain got huge fight friend endrea ridiculous thing tendency year switch best friends normally get switched classes thought going ditch her anyways police officer talked twitter told depressed wanted die friend told basically kill myself hour later dad got phone call police saying going talk would within minutes knew lived know really matter anyways showed up point know coming yet arrived came room finished texting friend exa police came room them kicked everyone except me sleep top bunk told come did one police officer started talking one got phone talking someone think talking dispatcher mcit maybe them talked sent officer deemed high risk killing myself talked oh idk maybe minutes so told going go hospital precisely emergency room asked weapons sharp objects answered since didnt one officer told normally would ride back police car time could ride dads car got hospital weird walked officer grabbed number would go went sit dad sat beside me really want wanted left alone oh well sat there called booth asked problem was medical conditions questions like that told go sit called little later different booth got hospital bracelet bunch paperwork nurse lady sent paediatrics unit since years old dad go park car since parked emergency lane sat waiting one police officers came started conversation school languages know told spanish told speak spanish anyways nice conversation nurse came took vital signals officers told leaving honest psychiatric would help me said bye left went back waiting another hour half police officer talked came see me gave bracelet regular one talked bit left finally admitted room doctor came see me really hard talk happened could barely speak checked heart lungs make sure nothing physically wrong me left minutes later psychiatric came first talked dad kicked dad talked me stated crying really hard me talked dad dont know what called us discussed treatment plans gave dad papers therapy sections said dad would receiving phone call follow psychiatric treatments hospital left days later appointment therapist hospital really nice trusted enough tell still wanted kill always long time short term therapist though referred different one hated didnt say didnt like saw months wanted tell bad wasnt happy didnt know much longer could go on stopped going suffering silence police service toronto police service canada names changed,1 +im done itat point life age realize im going alone rest life never girlfriend trust ive tried whole thing changing appearance clothing going social lifting online sites im school going degree things going me end attractive enough get someone im tired hearing oh never know whats going happen im tired hearing advice im done im going live life loneliness im living lite version life full experience im tired hearing oh theres millions people also alone everyone see around me social media someone im going overdose heroine put end suffering yeah im venting im asking help theres helping trust ive tried,1 +im addicted im addicted listening ben shapiros version wap someone please help,0 +summary saw guy posted thing plagerised idea january assignments february assignments march tests april assignments may started talking crush june tests july assignments august mark half yearly test september got turtle october many suicidal thoughts november assignments december ask crush says yes year sucked least girlfriend,0 +rest family doesnt want get new covid vaccine live household mother father christian dont believe vaccines they still get complete buttholes wondering guys would choose would a get vaccine b get vaccine reason feel free elaborate comments look forward seeing answers,0 +someone dms pronouns bio httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvghneyyhahttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvghneyyha s lmao,0 +unfairjust found friend died tragic car accidentdrunk driver smashed him great guy always smile face nice everybody wife young kids feel horrible him heres guy appreciated life still here ungratefully wish death every night wake feeling disappointed im dead kids depend im still here dont get it wrong makes sense,1 +ive thinking ending everything awhile today day finally made say i used happy years ago perfect life good friends great relationship figure job all friends gone faded away part havent talked year today significant said shes longer love ive known long time im blaming going happier without wish best cant start life anymore ive peaked gone hill everything going hill would want stay bad times ,1 +want much open lgbt whats cisgender cis male whats difference pansexual bisexual people think genders like non binary genderqueer im really confused dont wanna offend anyone future,0 +teacher whos coded years know inspect is thought guys might enjoy story quite funny goes nothing one day science class working presentations make planets think was well go computer lab make presentations stuff hop computers start researching getting work finished project bit early thought hey use inspect chrome page pretty funny people know though do went site relating project ispect make say mr great teacher decided give students as show friend next thinks funny go teacher heres happened next hey mr look found website walk computer show text gets super angry though shout hes really great teacher like time saw get mad what messing websites stuff school illegal everyone gonna think theyre gonna get matter what wait mr hacking inspect affects see hacking even save reload page reload page show reset no could get suspended could get suspended that ive coding years even know inspect hacking im going talk tech teacher talk might able use tech school walks friend burst laughter tech teacher calls talk me hey man know again ok yep happen again went apologize science teacher everything good plus get as class thats good thanks listening teacher super nice probably bad day something tldr change page say teacher give us free as using inspect teacher loses threatens suspend though tech teacher saved me,0 +directorstar clint eastwoods sudden impact intriguing addition dirty harry series combination crude filmmaking genius mediocre silly parts brilliant classic others compelling gripping pacing numerous echoes first film shoot em make day scene recalls do feel lucky one one villains viscerally repugnant first films scorpio actor played minor baddie first one returns harrys partner name fewbr br harry callahan still odds higherups department still mean still tough hes older wearier constant conflicts superiors metaphor inner conflict respect reverence law versus desire serve pure spirit justice two things always compatible incompatibility underlying theme series first film posed simple question what victims rights do outweigh criminal vice versa depends films answer controversial prompting sequel the highly enjoyable magnum force set draw line harrys brand justice pure heartless vigilantism dirty harry like many clints roles personification vengeance protector defenseless movie however brings back victim case jennifer portrayed sondra locke decides avenge rape nowincapacitated sister ruthlessly hunting ritualistically executing men and one woman committed crimebr br without going playbyplay whole movie say mentioned earlier sudden impact echoes first film actually also sprinkles little references injokes whole series the confusion concerning captains last name example intentional prank believe relationship callahan jennifer neat rogue cop hero found soulmate lady vigilante vigilante victim justifiably standing sisters tarnished rights exchange two end film poetic denouement series one personally as fan found quite moving last scene alone makes sudden impact legitimate climax dirty harry collection perfect answer conflict posed first film not knock the dead pool excellent movie relatively lighthearted suspenseful yet comic thriller featuring harry callahan rather characterdefining film like onebr br this movie well theaters audiences reagan era found harry ilk quite appealing president frequently quoted go ahead make day,0 +blame nickelodeon film barnyard taste women _____________________________________________,0 +ok basically need help guys im dating someone rn mom doesnt know plan tell today start off,0 +typical indian film great sense humanity characters pretty realistic great dynamism interpersonal relationships sense guilt grief passion passivity among many characters seeing this one gets feel heavy burden years layers layers history social existence one oldest civilizations final scene elephant walking away rural area great footnote ancient civilization yet human relations still preserved nurtured saw dvd two interviews director main actress interesting surprised learn movie done well or shown india maybe surprised artistic patrimony rural societies slowly lost inheritance picked younger generations older musicians movie longer living today great film,0 +loseshey past months ive lost things made identity live gone leave school financial reasons move back home best friend girlfriend years separated completely fault wanted marry her im allowed near her cant even drive time license suspended bullshit law ive flashbacks sexual abuse kid mothers relationship isnt best feel completely alone even tho feel closer everyone love point life still feel really fuckin alone ya know focal point light life taken one one empty battle self harm daily basis cant even wear short sleeves outside work scars left ive never depressed entire life hurts light end tunnel turned giant forrest fire serious problems thats effect relationships im paying price alone months ago never saw like this never saw license school studio friends girlfriend ive attempted slitting wrist didnt work idk dont trust alone support gone long time forever im point giving life trying kill again feel like burden pain everyone around me never enough wrong things stress people good intentions darker sides psyche get way abused emotionally neglected childhood feel like constantly fight demons adult life ive lost everything due fact ive abused others way ive abused isnt fair anyone ive tried hard change stop shitty person always always insecure ass loser im really interested living anymore due fact everyone everything left life fault fault understand need help serious help positive youtube video numb pain drugs sex years professional therapy want happiness back confidence self esteem live creativity girlfriend best friends money license freedom sense self attempted hang wasnt strong leather belt seconds broke fell floor im alive im sure else do want get better need get better ive depressed suicidal almost decade want breathe once childhood crushing weight im gasping air breathe itll okay youll fine cuz every time think itll okay im severely disappointed wish wasnt am im good people life lot people good me wish didnt let bad events manifest inside deeply are yes vague didnt want go much detail feel relief writing little since bottled up since im alive ill try best remain healthy mentally even tho easy wrong thing ignore problems want anything care back cant keep letting demons control me thanks rredflagwatch existing,1 +plz hlp me device maybe min plz responq quicklya days ago tried od vyvanse adhdfor awake next morning terrifying hallucinations still aliveapparently need upwards doubledigit thousands mg deadly pills left cant get refill another ish tens parents know tried kill self do chromebook m max plz respond soon wish use discord use link httpsdiscordggjwdvvhttpsdiscordggjwdvv plz hurry starting panic im going do,1 +girlfriend abused cannot comfort right months still spent time together literally anything birthday ask actually ask ok admitted forgets cannot vent gets overwhelmed dealing much shit feel like one vent to therapist said something really hurt therapy makes feel pained maybe reason need vent people feel validated shit felt like trauma never validated child alone one worst things mei wish someone hold me kiss scars tell protect like one child make enough scars people womt able ignore thinking offing know would tear friends family logically brain stop feeding thoughts worthless alone am recovery hard one sees read this thank giving shit minute feel free put mind forever knowing life would affected recovery hard one sees you,1 +gae buying friend chocolates teddy bear valentines day sleeping house bed gae,0 +let mom write something sub saved draft proud hi teenagers hope happy school opening hope good semester year dark times need stay strong stay inside also go please forget wear mask also work minimum wage deal woman screaming calling manager tell get like place hate type woman also see mask tell get risking health many people covid joke wear mask cost,0 +years ago saw remake sixties classic mini coopers first time remember liking lot now two years later shown television wanted know whether would still like much saw cinema well answer yesbr br the movie team robbers one final job venice italy plan flawless execution perfect escape work rest lives one problem take account someone within ranks like split loot wants keep himself even means kill rest crew one survive revenge one year later los angeles time surviving team members create smart devious plan steal back gold get revenge traitorbr br the story course original since remake original movie plenty goodies offer make forget that typical heist action movie certainly one better ones kind action nice landscapes venice real eyecandy story ok special effects stunning even acting good something often see action movie must admit really liked saw give movie well deserved ,0 +need friend talk toplease pm feel like listening crap,1 +friend suffers depression implied choice make said suicidal thoughts before phone happened argumentthere tension group chat people said choice make another person privately wed see monday school dont already know why text mom like make sure shes ok message delivered response sent another one so meaning either phone ran battery turned off know mom usually goes bed earlier dad stays later im worried phones off feel like wouldve saw message turned phone go bed wasnt first place dont see running battery dont know do help,1 +ask weird questions yalls turn filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +watched movie thinking going absolutely horrible ready corniness bad special effects etc but pleasantly surprised say best vampire movie ever seen certainly worst liked whole alternate realitydream state played movie graphics quite well straight dvd movie liked overall look film enjoyed main character sai usually end hating female leads something kept interested yes make bad decisions expected yes characters stereotypical expecting too know id highly recommend movie give chance might pleasantly surprised im putting one guilty pleasures list,0 +sexually confused past years im starting give upi began realize depressed year old two years parents divorce i pretty insightful child coping since myself going years old ups downs thought hurting killing coping mechanism now began cut stomach get point long story short hopeless romantic loveobsessed lonely girl questioning sexuality since still found girl me fall love straight women unintentionally specific incident enough lost it closest ever gotten girl months ago got hopes played emotions completely dumped me hit rock bottom razorblades could make feel alive know get mess therapist cant figure either cant imagine spending another year alone im thinking ending day do,1 +looking way commit redflagi yo india sorry make mistakes idea commit redflag mind last year since rd june exact yesterday enough made mind kill myself dont figured way kill figure today best tomorrowif suggestion please share coming reason committing redflag parents said previously india india thing called culture grants basically infinite powers parents whatever shit get saying thinking best you means verbally abusive physically abusive control whatever life meet not remember said yes still living even bcoz incompetent pussy bcoz elder brother different city job let go even life changing oppourtunities past said guilt trapped saying dont think care me also brother last time saw year half ago thing remember telling problems saying let go bcoz parents cant anything it mother also same whenever something happens answer son forget move on even father verbally abuses me call shits like disgrace sisterfucker mistake forget it even beats whenever angry forget it still dont get it father verbal physical abuser remember said life changing oppourtunity guilt trapped give bcoz meant living different city yeah point father made financially viable enough handle expenses living different city basically poor are wealthy barely getting food tables dad money sent away enough put food table enough buy bottle rum every single day get drunk shouting reason go sleep give example yesterday even today father verbally abused bcoz going library study give context father like go outside libraries places study bcoz thinks making excuses get house hang friends reality want peace house cant get bcoz things happened coming back story want go wouldve son dont go library no said and paraphrasing except cussing threats motherfucker piece shit want show things wanna teach us huh sisterfucker huh mean never grow up nobody going anywhere see leave house gonna break legs trying teach dont know daily routine get ready morning leave library yesterday dont know happened yes this today thing topic adding new abuses new threats like bastard gonna shoot me things father family whole think sums this bcoz one incident going things whole life yes decided kill me dont know how soon figured it again ideas plz share,1 +worth anymorefinally first real friend ive years falls life incredibly greatful somebody felt comfortable telling anything everything without judgment convinced throw away like everyone else life has knew nothing even remotely good could last guess know tried worth live much pain im going spend time tying things life join marines lived instead me,1 +guys ever teacher die cause one mine fell stairs houses,0 +redflag hotline call popup saying error reddit funit seems like inconvenience sorry bug reddit know lot political policy talk,1 +today vaccinated today gone make vaccine beacose yo feel stupid beacose born like feel autistic karen explain,0 +im even horny really want unspeakable mouth hate like bfs busy,0 +contemplating redflagim male thinking redflag awhile now much hate world depressing hard know parents accept even accept self questioning sexuality caused alot self loathing started cutting years ago scars added hidden cant really find reason get bed besides school hate school many bullies homophobic assholes grown ashamed sexuality grew hate church even feel welcome there know whats fked up best friend he christian came attacked bible verses sure long hang on,1 +help utimoweicthis redditor going worst point life please help out theres one else watching them let give up heres post httpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsemqwhat_is_your_version_of_hell_likedkoecontext,1 +gets likes ill kill see posts anymore seriously stop annoying something original,0 +know sleep cycles get kind messed unwell currently summer break school making really bad anything day coming episode energy things including go downstairs stay long enough much which leads main problem here eat enough this purpose despite depressed problem body time generally care going body doing anyway started notice eating like day usually crap led host physical problems hair falling more usual even less energy constant pit stomach two weeks know problem know fix it cannot find energy anything ithow make get depressive episode make sure eating foods good do looking anything huge simple advice people get it know make eat morebetter energy,1 +imma soon came realization imma seems weird me idk makes sense anybody else feels like im already actual year olds get im saying,0 +hanging much longer fuck sake shit want die badly,1 +want existence end alreadyim tired suffering everyday sickening world even way end would successful,1 +like rub dick cheese schreder feels fucking good everytime cant stop,0 +die without anyone worryingi wish fucking device could erase memories family friends anyone ever thought could erase brain fucking fiction im called selfish wanting deal shitty pointless reality eventually im able cut everyone people idea died fucking hate humanity fuck idiotic fucking brains dont need emotions fucking horrible regrets want longer exist hard fucking thing ask,1 +asian pussy tight really wanna pipe oh god big ass tiddys five,0 +embarrassed posting this since includes topics relating sexuality feel like need someone listen going write post inside because write literally bunch things wrote someone chatting with since wrote pretty much complaining here way yo gay guy actually turn next week really long time felt really unattractivemy mom says actually good looking need loose weight honestly give little hope still problems even way thinking mom says ugly one school ever felt attracted me never came school even know gay guys there wonder guy ever liked me really think got reason girls ever liking me even single girl interested years studied school years classmates people years one showed interest honestly makes sadand makes doubt moms wordsside note posted pics subs person saw them profile keep mind nsfw dislike it see please continuingi think really obvious insecure size penis explain properly well already saw it dislike size color fine shape fine glands fine curve fine foreskin unhappy size color wish bigger like inches color resembling pinki know use worrying two things know something control idea much frustrates me feel ugly unattractive unlikeablethe hope left working loosing extra weight even did inches long inches thick truly be bone pressed length even tho people say averages honestly enough fine tall wanted fine smart thought was fine lucky love fine boyfriend before fine many things willing accept many bad things have because all one perfect pretty much something beautiful poorly endowed frustrating unhappy weight change it unhappy height well cm even though tall short either that kind helps feel somewhat cutewell would help feel cute already feel uglyyou know even sort playboy one night stands fooling around casual sex sex deep meaning me want find true love want find someone special loves love willing work hard earn someone love special someone honestly feel handsome enough someone would like feel handsome sexy beautiful him see myself see someone attractive handsome sexy beautiful depresses much thinking making someone settle less settle me wish could good enough feel like favor want someone loved one loves also truly desires with want feel like love blinds order methat end message wrote personi chatting people things end well ended feeling really sad despite kinds wordsso writing here hopefully people struggle sexuality something would wish anyone maybe could understood since people understand feeling really downagain,1 +entire family enjoyed film including small children great values without sex violence drugs nudity profanity also zillion dollar special effects added try misdirect viewers poorly written storyline simple little family fun movie especially like songs movie got hear portion songs mostly end credits would love buy sound track cd movie th bill hillman movie guidelines mentioned above movies want kids watch hillman fella risk rating love movies,0 +teacher show english teacher super stuck grades weirdly doked grade participation english know meaning got lucky teachs thank god one nice teachers wrote email asking could better reasonable one sided great teacher btw never replyed naming names thing class rude today never said anything didnt start meeting alot kids class confused thank ms morelas,0 +drama need helphey guys ive recently struggling lot issues surrounding situation feel wrong way though circumstances would push way am come loving household good friends plenty money people love me motivation get bed morning nothing seems worth anymore little things used enjoy felt like nothing biggest passions ive since birth dont interest anymore ive looking options im optimistic im finding difficult fix problem true source dont plan committing redflag time aoon im trying take preventitive action late,1 +anyone please talk mei need talk someone,1 +soul mate died dont see reason continueshe died almost two years ago closer anyone absolutely inseparable even birthdate tattooed know im never going again miss weight could bury me want die im much pain losing her even sleep dont get reprieve nightmares death feel void life wont ever go away death seems like long awaited rest hard life,1 +guys im freaking fuck mum booked skin cancer check without knowing im go brothers done literally woke went forgot put underpants also im self conscious fat ass body full body scan holy fuck im nervous know probs wont judge im still nervous,0 +every reason happy im notive always naturally smart know bright future cant pull together lately laziness symptom depression know procrastinate feel guilty feedback loop parents im child im starting care less less financially were terribly well off crater marriage intact mostly me mom want grow without dad still think clean water food money consume throughout hypothetical full life worth could possibly contribute motivated anyone social anxiety cant real conversation anyone every time open someone never works out either take granted make joke it leave me ive sleeping hours every night skipping breakfast every day grades getting worse cant seem snap it cant bring care things like used to death obsession cant stop researching methods degree pain fatality rate stories redflag impossible look tall building without speculating think would say loved ones deed much haunts dreams thought many potential death plans cant keep count many instances hypnotized car headlights ive even gotten middle streets running last possible second every time run over parents would much better pay college ive give passions music sports grades end even grades shit now since siblings succeed thats fucking it worst all overarching meaninglessness everything everyone else does sun decay none this mattered part thinks world would better everyone committed redflag right now all humans done earth bad god real im going hell heaven im going decompose im fucking afraid mother told aborted me could right it im gonna pussy ill once ill right look forward aftermath anticipate most although forget in most month entirety was peace,1 +past couple months really bad soreness tightness upper back neck sometimes gets stiff barely move head first thought physical injury went doctors xray could find anything notice flares im anxious tried many self massages creams baths pads name it,1 +one favourite films whenever on although admit one time missing foxtel last yearbr br despite age film look like story even though itd done thousand times still felt entertaining one two little niggles story looked past enjoyed film wasbr br overall give ,0 +somewhat short first listen critics bad say is sniper uses classic movie formula many dismiss immediately flawing movie sniper reflect truth countrys military snipers work give know nothing professional sniper glimpse world sniper yes movie many flaws movie doesnt many good scenes good acting tom berenger say worst scenes beginning movie billy zane helicopter followed zane marines bar scene best scene sniper berenger middle field opposing force sweeping it also plenty good shots jungle classic shots using camera though looking riflescope yes sniper motto one shot one kill judge sniper yourselfbr br ,0 +hatredi cant wait fucking hang myself fucking hate world mean nothing world keeps reminding day want leave,1 +good morning day,0 +delete reddit account someone explain me jsjsjjsnsndndndndndnndnxmcmcmcmcmmcmcmcmcmfmfmfmcmfmmfmdmdmfmfmfmfmmffm fill space post,0 +masterful piece filmmaking many themes simmering occasionally boiling warts study poets bohemian selfindulgent wartime years span aerial bombardments london outward tranquillity welsh coastal retreat borderlines friendship lust love dedication art experience versus practical concerns jealousy rivalry cowardice egotism versus heroism selfsacrifice more mature subtle script suggests occasionally brings dramatic focus underlying tensions well served perfect performances apart odd inappropriate smiling keira knightley prone to though perhaps direction time characters often mention it exquisite visual composition moment inventive elegant use closeup camera angle lighting including pointillistic faux home movie footage wonder joy behold continuously beautiful look bertolucci relationships convincing narrative engaging masters work rare type film days holds attention stirs emotions without abandoning artistic integrity succumbing manipulative superficial shortcuts,0 +nothing lefthey yall first post burner account ah well goes im f im pretty done life im going kill month great academic success beginning college im barely scraping by never show class im going fail again ive local community college years almost unemployed psych hospital used work got shut due lack funding im social major helping mentally ill people truly passion love connecting people taken away me havent able find job dont know ive literally applied jobs last months nothing follow up interviews etc debt isnt debt seriously im fucked much fucking debt pay ill never able do deadend career field social work mental health social services disgustingly underfunded know im never going get job makes happy pays well im even trying rich im literally wanting able afford bedroom house bills relationship well im engaged fianc weve years by choice moved engaged feel suffocated sex experience guy ive life consensual im wanting get explore open sexuality feels dead end overweight isnt overweight lol yeah im fatass fuck addicted sugar diet im highest weight entire life lbs job promise didnt work out applied residential care assistant mental health facility deals women children affected addiction amazing interview passed background check drug test well said get case work hours would start full time case manager good salary fucking happy called told found someone else work dollar less requested crushed told problem ill work hour instead well nope new lady already starting got case worker rca fuck right basically plan kill sometime month everything eating alive medication doesnt help nothing helps one fucking soul empty feel absolutely nothing plan slit wrists bathroom bleed out ive struggled long im done make loved ones dont anything super expensive really valuable eh not,1 +happened liked girl really cute really good friends awhile gaining courage ask going friday asked out honestly awesome course said yes many probably compare finally feel happy awhile sorry bad grammar any,0 +make girls laugh like make guys laugh like man always funny kid male friends agreed point hell girls get weirded make joke anything slightly masculine straight anything anyone relate going joke point view female classmates laugh poor kid class getting bullied something really cant understand,0 +dont knowive thinking lot lately honestly main thing holding back mom specifically pain endure go it cant help think way regardless much would love believe otherwise secretive person speak problems anyone all hate feeling like charity case especially feel like someone feeling sorry me know everybody goes shit understand problems dont want mention problems are trust taking toll long time ive trying justify committing redflag myself even death dont want hurt mom sometimes drive late night close eyes hoping crash something end all make stupid judgement calls could end dying purpose feels like ive pain long remember,1 +movie modern day scarfaceit toesthis movie one rare epic films makes want sequeli especially liked damian chapa performance deserved academy awardwhich deserved performance blood blood outthe thing like behind scenes show intensity movie hadand would like seen less narrated scenesbut movie great top ten movies timeplus acting great bad scene moviei loved jennifer tilly perfect well casti cant see anyone like movie greatdefinitely must see,0 +supposed help sick people training trauma certain diagnosis good excuse profession sick therapists able reject,1 +guess im writing story know post promote it httpswwwwattpadcomstoryutm_sourceandroidamputm_mediumlinkamputm_contentshare_writingampwp_pagecreateampwp_unamerheatheratampwp_originatorbarpaolldnbbvbtromxvddwgzdqfrcnncnqvyepacbjjsquqzbltkypynnxpzmjtdllzlefsfrajeeenjfywzpgshuugkjacalslmjzk please appreciate terrifying writing,0 +nothing gets better saturday need do everyone hates better favour continue hang one day tired found femoral artery,1 +isnt bad go sleep late get late sleeping late always seen unhealthy wouldnt unhealthy gonna get early sleep sleep idk,0 +almost year old trans woman live south transitioned teens mentally female long remember transitioning blessing also curse gender dysphoria something would wish worst enemy transitioning simply would label anything sexuality wise gay male never felt true even though assigned male attracted men always identified internally straight female graduated high school online tried public school would stop going bullying harassment finally transitioned felt excited happy years went dysphoria got worst became unhappy myself parents divorced still feel somehow responsible party always problems always felt strain put family parents cannot work redflag bad vomit shake feel like every single person looks knows judging me two past notredflag ended terribly always blame it truly feel unlovable matter many surgeries hormones get feel inadequate inhuman nothing elevates sadness want die peacefully painlessly would make better transgender female lost,1 +momim sorry,1 +anyone help figure out sooooo theres girl like pretty simpy tbh like hung in small group time texted time when quarantine started would also start lot convos friends knew liked would kinda surprised never told her would also hug time pretty sure liked back one day late may year school hosting virtual trip basically idk call really matter grade big zoom together playing games kinda fun bit lul snagged phone dmd snap asking quarantine telling felt basically said but better worded after quarintine u want go mall together over ive liked wanted tell person really opportunity really like spending time you really nice saw face zoom it pretty surprised lil awk ig really like back said sweet liked too added want relationship stay friends naturally accepted moved dont worry im incel friend party week two ago really cold outside sitting fire something upsetting kept going inside talk friends finally came blined right towards me sat cuddled me basically lying blanket together put hand really close butt sat getting go bathroom also stopped texting much told texting little bit still nearly often tho im really confused means anything came want ask likes case random makes things awkward girls guys experienced relationships know whats going on,0 +guys got rid griddle gang used group people griddle would cook bacon hot dogs band made gang disband pretty sad,0 +school among us livestream pink shirt day lunch science teacher turned stream staff playing among us poorly run thing ive ever seen got secondhand cringe after honestly though applaud effort theyre couple months late among us party code screen managed join lasted seconds kicked name stalin kept putting chat cccp nothing wrong entire school saw pretty good day otherwise,0 +im finally going back school first quarter freshman year dli while people person finally convinced parents let back school know nothing works classes are wish luck,0 +wont believe but american british asian may believe latin america exists,0 +anyone experience overdosingif so would say effective pills overdose with pills easily obtained counter painful it long take lose consciousness,1 +life lie minecraft achievement taking inventory talking inventory,0 +oh got told friend home since end school im writing might lost kidnapped oh,0 +someone tell way kill myselfi wanna die,1 +dohi everyone new friend starting get know pandemic hit touch regularly started work home get locked drifted part reached week ago said looking change thinking moving new place find alarming all yesterday sent message ask said bad giving short responses something alarming me asked could call tomorrow said maybe went completely silent stopped responding messages called morning times throughout day sent several messages ask okay got responses know well know lives alone works healthcare think would likely understand concern send text back let know okay maybe embarrassed something ignoring reasons know do know address last name first name phone number know anyone knows know reach to us worried fine may really annoying her not needs help late tips advice do please let know,1 +realized something trixs cereal brand rabbit rabbits parts magic trick pulling rabbit hat trick kids,0 +love limbo alltime favoirite movie set wa hilairious excellent cast including group three gorgeous actors russell crowe as arthur back day actually looked hot short hair facial hair aden young barry mcjannet craig adams ken riddlebr br ken senior high school student obsessed sex becomes expelled selling pornographic drawings classmates starts new job uncles clothing factory becomes close another new guy barry mcjannet buys car go pick chicks become mates goodytwoshoes geek arthur baskin crowe three guys drive kalgoorlie vsit brothel lose virginitybr br watch it classic long trying get hold dvd soundtrack anyone let know got em,0 +ok coffee time back like hour mean time somebody explain like experience romantic attraction coz uhhh fuck,0 +hellish year life amp constant suicidal ideation still here writing tell can get better even currently feel like embodiment hopelessness long post apologize encourage read it thanksthis journey pit hell began last summer around june time broke could barely afford rent take nightshift job grocery store make ends meet lost exhausted want live anymore remember pacing room thinking hanging make problems disappear felt like unrecoverable failure one evening way work get frantic call mom get place asap explain why terrified me sped there get house cop cars driveway go inside take seat next mom one officers explains verbatim your brother involved shooting died im going delve specifics brothers death following months mindnumbing confusing heart breaking months life listen dad openly grieve more like scream console mom shattered pieces explain friends made feel like weirdo failure live guilt ie i could prevented happening first death id experienced know cope nature brothers death completely fucked emotionally mentally completely disconnect order preserve last iota sanity left selfisolation depression disassociation anger world began dark messed things while monsterish behavior contributed even suicidal mindset guilt amp shame literal voices head would tell kill daily basis deserve live months able get different job remember one day overwhelmed everything going simultaneously felt like getting running door planted mind day had kill myself even texted friend abroad tell going last rest year probably going hang myself fightflight response insane took everything keep going daily routine without harming running away new city car died permanently final straw me already felt backed corner even means running away wanted to damn near lost mind broke front dad cried openly felt like it money brother dead even car point make hardest decision life go get help want to either kill continue living hell reach someone started going therapist mom seeing time unloaded everything honestly felt bad endure say immediate improvementin fact airing problems someone actually seemed justify redflag times continued going started implementing things help cope shitstorm in eventually decided needed even help requested put antidepressants ive mg lexapro months undoubtedly saved life medication therapy able start climbing depths hell start moving forward life easy last months shittiest time years existence im still here like damn im proud that cant believe actually went made end course still days life perfect year since brother died im still emotional it suicidal thoughts crept times overall im alright might getting different job soon pays little more ive started hanging friends again feel like pieces slowly falling place so thats story im going sit bullshit saying get better know situation say absolutely can get better redflag isnt always answer answer getting help realizing external assistance way id get this set aside stigma fear medication put footwork finding people could help me worth end even another tragedy strikes near future absolutely could know take it fuck ive already trudged hell made out feel like take anything thank reading,1 +want something lifei feel like nothing life literally nothing fucking day except school homework phones broken friends literally feel like nothing literally feel like nobody likes me wants me cares me wants friend feel alone end want stop know feel like mess everything fucking people would say omg friend people people treat like shit point,1 +tight l definitely suicidal homicidal life gone s feel entire system supports betrayed anybody help get back reason,1 +feeling overwhelmed would appreciate little helphello throwaway account young close eighteen years old trouble coping mental instability outside sources stress hallucinate badlyto point fullblown panic attacks force day school around people nauseating terrifying know need sort help family afford sort treatment last time went parents concern mental health believe me ive episodes mild hallucinations previously theyve never prolonged severe people usually talk responding calls messages person trust seen told believe anymoreabout anything im feeling lost alone would appreciate advice feel free ask questions answer best can thank time konvers sparrow edit because forgot mention things struggled depression selfharm thoughts redflag gone away hallucinations started again feel though options deserve im going through think killing often now moment seems like better alternative anything else right now,1 +big fat vent todays birthday feel alone parents working cant go anywhere since im self isolating planned call friends one said gonna play videogames got birthday wishes ive screenshotted stared hours make feel better,0 +feel like im going insanetheres way escape misery anhedonia fucking unbearable enjoy absolutely nothing motivation really really want live happy life holy fuck fucking fed feeling like every single waking minute day,1 +must admit sceptical documentary expecting kind american propaganda europe dislike much wrong propaganda fact hardly political allbr br it depicts events eyes firefighters called scene planes crashed amazing coinsidence documentary filmed all film initially shot documnetary rookie ny firefighter becoming a man thank film makers continued work terrible ordeal faced thembr br a great piece work absolutely stunning material highly recommendedbr br regards,0 +got death threat ppls pretty scared ngl hey whatcha gonna,0 +wanna join cool discord server hey really nice teens discord server talk pretty much anything friends channels stories art music hobbies games pics selfies advice many stuff also custom made bots play games like mafia cards humanity ouija also private cross platform minecraft server super nice atmosphere always fun hang out dm want invite ,0 +got whipped cord right didnt hurt tbh,0 +redflag hotline called copsi often feel suffered suicidal thoughts entire life encouraged call redflag hotline ever felt need talk someone well did called cops cops couldnt find house dropped neighbors asking me cops finally find knocked door opened it several neighbors standing across street watching cops ems truck parked driveway cops wanted name police file cops said anyone could access file wanted get story thats that neighbors talking theres police record never ever ever call redflag hotline again regardless feel im suggesting dont call youre really danger youre calling need someone talk to dont surprised life really messed afterwards police come chat ps first didnt want give cops name threatened put cuffs arrest take station told was live small town neighbors really nosey local cops know am thinking moving shame feel tremendous calling redflag hotline left redflag called ironic,1 +literally impossible turn life aroundim transgender hormones years almost ive worked fashion choices gotten good makeup good haircut soso voice cant pass anyone im treated assumed femme gay guy matter do regularly get stares comments made loud enough hear laughter glares sometimes slurs sometimes people following me passiveaggressively shitty service businesses go taken advantage guys know ill sleep lie tell im pretty facial feminization surgery k least shitty field choice making time soon plus suspect surgery much effect ive seen results changes usually subtle ie pushing someone andro femme masculine femme im fucked regardless also im 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lie nap,0 +workif take sleeping pills attempt kill httpswwwamazoncoukdpbcyvljwrefcm_sw_r_cp_apa_fabt_lapfbtedy_encodingutfamppsc many would need take fatal would even fatal purpose die i hypothetical beg dont it love dw wont want fail brain damage fail all strong enough ate enough would need try something stronger,1 +everyday harder harderfuck,1 +most suicidal people dont actually want die want answer problems decision made decisions seem impossibleso much this dont want kill sense want end life want answer problems want stop feeling pain quoted httpwwwthecalmzonenethelpissuesredflag,1 +plenty written mamets the house games good decided revisit flick see held years surprised much enjoyed viewing again films success durability probably much two principal ingredients always fun film good story good scam mamet manages bring signature moodiness obvious histrionics film scamming us audience mark simultaneously explains art conning again etc building story the house games freebie cable worth look first timers okay rerun mamet fans b,0 +want go hellfor longest time felt completely useless stupid like absolute failure future cant public speaking horrendous critical thinker writer spend time home trying finish masters thesis helping family restaurant working next medical school application rejected for th time honestly idea want do mediocre researcher absolute shame field embarrassed quality work also fun around friends finally cut loose invited hang out even make effort reach out see everyone else pass by stay stagnant future prospects everything touch turns trash stupid keep up struggling put thesis together selected flawed project written mcat times idea want life everyone else know employed getting married good time im alone stupid waste life honestly tired feeling like stupidest person there unable anything right want die guts it popping pills difficult carbon monoxide sure thing noose hard family home also devout muslim redflag means go hell want get hit truck get cancer mugged killed want done with want help die,1 +posted times different names really know why guess hoping feel better shouting ether know anything one see it find oddly comforting spent long locked box know anything else anymore knowing one listening one help comfort almost but always known would end up even kid would cry sleep knowing one day would make everyone everything around miserable lo behold am married like idiot wanted hope know wanted try fight cosmic destiny felt waiting me maybe wrong maybe could happy maybe could beautiful wife child am married years made woman love miserable got beautiful daughter live father would someone supposed love people selfish enough get involved lives going sort emotional behavioral issues daughter mental illness runs family greedy walk away let live life know me wife choose marry me suffer it waste space time lives much coward end teenager late knew would never happy make anyone happy since ten twenty years later proof still plain day could stop trying live normal life could accept what deserved know never see this sorry truly sorry horrible luck meeting me nothing could ever make either you hope forget one day get lost too okay,1 +thanksdamn im glad found sub guys great always listen without judging trouble opening people sub perfect that sometimes post know theres still good people judge you hard time seeing good people good know others backs thank back,1 +instagram youtube completely reddtified created instagram account month ago bunch friends forced to deleted account yesterday everywhere go felt like reddit content stolen reddit make hiveminds similar reddit youtube destroyed text speech voice bot channels read raskreddit meme subs also blame youtubers jump reddit content anything else feels reddit shit people like destroyed good apps serve purpose anymore makes hate reddit hivemind even ever before,0 +would like slice cake one thinking giving someone,0 +reddit age funny number made remind nearly year ago make bad joke reason,0 +lost hopeim pretty much close giving up best moment me well almost every moment horrible im ever seen positive light contuing let introduce myself im vic yearold last another month hell female im iranian things best since born here everything going south know do lost someone dear months ago hurt aching heart imaginable dear generally sweetest thing ever seen im relationship girl love me know wants pretend go on feel like let her feel like im unlovable thing is friends nobody likes uncared for expect id used now im not pain got worse worse really cant wake feeling like want start day abandoned things loved life bitter want wake up leave whatever reality im living in seriously hard cant im sorry appreciate reading this left response want thank advice,1 +post this one yeahhttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsitywji_used_to_be_a_bully_but_i_wanna_make_reparationsutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf tried opening kid turns hes fucking asshole thinks screaming funny putting middle finger cool mother fucker superglued kids pen block wood mind pen cannot borrow anyone elses he got ass kicked persons mates after maths today laugh people nothing him decided mimic saying showed empathy told stop get bit violent insulted luckily took bit yelling get stop way talks well god damn lifeless like bro even give shit conversation having maybe reason hes bullied,0 +sometimes want somone beat murder im sensitive myselfi know theres people would it sickens also think seeking feel cowardly hurt myself feel cant punish kill everything also need punished weak kill myself cycle sometimes thought sometimes gets close feeling impulsive im scared could actually contact someone one day go it also makes want prove wrong power shoot instead looks easy parents guns lying around house everytime see get scared could easily do it look ive picked handgun before scary feel im impulsive enough know happen one day either fall weak let someone else it,1 +night ends waysi posted close milestone previously mentioned come speak again anything like me might sleep much maybe sleep much need counts hours endlessly long painful nothing feels right nothing beautiful everything like knives belly anger throat so lets stay together tonight day tomorrow going three years since last redflag attempt days several months since truly felt desire end life go dark quiet soft nothing feels like razors beautiful being whoever are talented gifted abilities many never possess inherently yours know feeling avoiding mirrors selfharming feeling like effort drag school bed know eat want shower lighted rooms tasted sorrow good person worth life given so stay tonight watch dawn crests horizon watch colors move sky open window even breathe early morning air beatific things like bribes currency trade pain wake morning one day hopefully soon look clear eyes beautiful things everywhere deserve love happiness giving others give you life promised easy gentle told things always go way fair however promised know worth it wake morning bask glow sun stillness rain mornings feel blessed sight read words senses gifted feel recognize feel pain would feel joy either find balance can go places cant led back from many people love you many people miss you night end ways morning things scary unclear wish you pray you something better given time find it three years im going dance it night end ways ok are going ok one day hopefully one day soon,1 +get better stop stop way end feel better fuck fucking wrong fucking like actual fuck even supposed shoudlnt gone deserve fuck,1 +wanna dieplease wanna know painless way dying nothing else,1 +going back n forth w sum girl snap expecting fast snap back right bored started tech decking minutes im realizing maybe im getting immediate reply expected,0 +reddit cool triangles cooler,0 +someone telling cant simp wolfgang animal crossing hes animal fun fact day humans animals people simping belle delphine belle delphine animal people simping pokimane pokimane animal people simping uzakichan god sake anime character animal please go come attack wolfgang animal crossing animal cutest villager series always thats facts,0 +soul go one committs redflagpart reason im still im afraid going heaven believe hell earth theres nothing worse that soul stays forever form punishment never get see loved ones gone may seem like silly thing think you really wanna rest peace im gone,1 +boyfriend killed three months agowe planning together last days chickened out didnt second decided to absolutely knew would always regret it really really do already person basically love life five years die little year ago overdose struggling hardcore depression years deaths people deeply love adding up believe afterlife want badly believe see again even dontim tired world fair left alone im tired sad lonely feeling like absolutely purpose existence really want exist anymore,1 +want write post help vent get suicidal thoughts took like minutesi unwell dont energy anything order get better,1 +going drinking sunday afternoon fuck life really urge drink im feeling hollow got text friend miss depressed feeling something,0 +felt nothing read take weeks might feel something hope feel happiness hope free fucking brain fog stuns almost anything productivei also hope medication work long time stop working weeks so took first antidepressant today,1 +oppression muslims context hijab headscarf muslim woman wear halal meat islam kill animal certain way symbolize respect animal animal isnt killed way muslims arent allowed consume march french senate made illegal woman age wear hijab trying ban word hijab university higher education mother wear hijab allowed accompany children school trips muslim patience cant request doctors based gender july halal slaughter chicken illegal france oppressing muslims while dont live france america say im sick constantly explain people get curious people constantly belittling us making racist comments girl meaning wear hijab get constant negative looks comment random people seems every time go friends family im always target something middle eastern muslim female us struggle people refuse see it im fucking done people acting like im normal im like im good wearing fucking scarf doesnt hurt you believing religion isnt hurting you know fact people going comment say people constantly dying you im terrorist im muslim dont support stand people maybe would educate real sources mainstream media would understand dont stand violence gonna feel safe home im scared im done hiding everyday deal refuse say anything bc bigger problems course doesnt make mine less relevant please stop muslim hate consider human want walk public called names guys questions ill try answer best can thank reading nice daylt,0 +german speakers here want invite discord server,0 +ill post here probably ignored anywaysheres backstory im math major college im greatest ill put time effort can love mathematics ton books it study read lot it try understand goes love everything it finals come study arse month ignore world completely study hard crazy still recall if material day test thats beans get nervous contemplating committing first degree murder myself opt it tried really hard material really difficult failed exam quite miserably tell truth his exam hard course grade comes ok big deal see much final grade was comes b really fair seeing class average going curve needed mentions class curve college logic come analysis class oh god fail studied hours day class get c class what cant go graduate school want see high b marks math ive actually contemplating while asked around do advisor math department said well try getting job live life liking math thats life thats meaningless like thought redflag able want study hard show test ridiculous stupid professors help feel useless look material wanna grab kitchen knife sometimes stab it nights hold back looking saying cheated multiple times till knock repeat process please help me,1 +made tutorial open laptop lids tutorial made opening laptop lidshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkwzjbawy,0 +petition cancel garlic bread comment garlic bread canceled,0 +boom headshotive thinking redflag long time depression started years ago followed severe anxiety social paranoia early stages depression reached close friend told thoughts going head everything felt bland nothing made happy anymore told phase everybody goes would get better time waited anxiety started friends started notice behavior began ask acting crazy started ignoring calls making excuses alone answer questions social paranoia came last least hit like truck everywhere went felt like people watching judging everything did like whispering behind back even friends get me weight behemoths much handle confined house years dwell selfloathing disgust years im still waiting get better seems get worse im running patience know redflag selfish act hurt people left want deal anymore ill remembered coward face problems care less end ive decided rather messy ending myself ive read painful high fatality rate concern family see need identify body want scar image,1 +really enjoyed movie dvd collection baseball movies reminded great sport truly is whether america japan,0 +failuremy student loans due theyre make month shitty parttime job cant afford health insurance medical procedures ive putting off cant afford take care rentfoodutilities im relying almost completely financial help man whos cheated repeatedly wants life for now demands happy im interested living life anymore want stop,1 +ssenpai place minecraft bbed next yours ___________________________________,0 +anyone game ok play number game think called anyway dose anyone want play dm rather discord great would add everyone group chat fine want like people want like good yeah dm add discord play,0 +honestly verge redflaghey hey im eileen or whatever wanna call change name often doesnt even matter anymore im year old trans girl honestly im practically verge redflag long time every day wake knowing ill never myself never happy die alone honestly idea havent fucking killed yet everyday think fucking ending it friends everyone know hates me im close end might honestly kill soon dont know anymore honestly need support,1 +looking koopa troopa yaoi actually find hot help,0 +amber heard seen memes bitch want say insulting female dogs dogs higher level her call something else thank you,0 +telling couple worker suicidal thoughtsi considering telling close coworker suicidal thoughts scared know take action also scared first time life actually it kids dont want make sad im honesty edge dont know cant hardly even function work shoots tell co worker,1 +title overstates content movie somewhat might lead unrealized expectations frankly speaking theres little panic streets seen here fact throughout movie people actually know theres murderer loose may well spreading plague everyone anyone encounters said that well done story level suspense starts reasonably high anyway because unlike people in streets viewer knows whats going on director elia kazan builds deliberately plagueinfected killer sought one interesting sidebars found developing relationship dr reed richard widmark police captain warren paul douglas beginning two really like other even though work together end theyve forged real bond respect other kazan good job thatbr br pretty much performances excellent widmark douglas great quite taken early look jack palance playing would become typical heavy role found little criticize here perhaps barbara bel geddes came across little bit flat reeds wife nancy role really central story all excellent piece work ,0 +anyone ever told let kill would their fault diei hate guilt trips like this sounds like theyre concerned dying sake own,1 +express concerns friends darksuicidal thoughtsive posted friend mine before nowdeleted post issue come again tldr friend play dungeons dragons together admitted hes felt suicidal ever since child feels cant go due religious beliefs recently friend started playing new character dampd character dark suicidal and though felt like playing character point absurdity ie dark looped around became funny again knowing background several comments worried example character begged ingame god death oblivion expressed conversation happiness impossible something player expressed primary character motivation seemed complete quest could kill peace clear roleplaying fictional character one dealt issues thus im sure much behavior player speaking character drawing players experiences and necessarily actual inthemoment feelings however still found comments rather spooky especially things like characters expressed desire guiltfree death followed nothingnesswhich felt like rather literal wish fulfillment given hes told previously dungeon master character would spin attitude character development hey look heres longlost girlfriend knows really feel way brokenhearted acting out help find meaning again knowing the players background though feel like approach would best come tonedeaf and worst outright offensive i addi managed convince character stick around serve death gods churchthough caveat character still gets get life free card desired ideal tried nudge the character direction admitting life might better finds meaning it rather moping fact hes still breathing much ideas talk concerns ive never done before im afraid straightup cornering saying im scared dude might alienate make think ive judging himespecially protests playing along really feel way particular ideas saywhat offer terms help,1 +feel stupid writing oh wellfor year thoughts killing myself ive come close several times can outside perspective see killing good thing inside every cell body screaming way out mental illnesses getting worse friends feel distant world feels far away like im space water im screaming course nobody hears me cant stop thinking would easy slip reach forever feel writing this admit desperate writing here dont really know maybe see im screaming empty void maybe get feeling out honestly completely lost,1 +day anxiety started im class everyone needs read part text always counted people read part practice read mine voice crack still ruined though,0 +want something would help small social redflag also prevent future panic attacks anyone good experience ssris tldr lexapro panic attacks social redflag months got bad side effects lexapro made moments almost going insane panic attacks since redflag maybe slightly better worth cons anyone stories switching lexapro something else made less anxious confident,1 +hard livei broken afraid kill dont want live husband left someone else birthday lost grief devastated lost live exist dont enjoy anything used love barely eat barely get bed dont enjoy anything all watch tv try loneliness silence work two days week far ive going work used love job hate it feels meaningless im going avoid becoming homeless overwhelmed choices make none easy feel like im verge breakdown safe space land feels like isnt place world death feels like place belong,1 + hours historythe belt note ready ive given precious clothes shoes survived properly arranged far know homeworks done except leaving im excited years mess suffer die later shorten suffering die terms wish guys success whatever direction went take care guys,1 +want people like understand meim la convention help run booth there never done before nervous decided try care people think me people started coming talk them pretty much everyone understand saying guess voice fucking soft fucking speak damn fast even tried speak slower louder sometimes still understand me annoying want heard want socialize normally want friends make friends way im motel room teary eyed like previous post rself trip la fun happy im not considering redflag im posting instead cant family cant afford therapist btw wish internet self like outernet self,1 +im lonely want live anymoreive started losing social connections since years ago im completely alone even parents lost sympathy me know live it also job decent qualification obtain one,1 +dont know wrong melife fine nothing complain about feel tired really tried tried tell reason sad things ok dont ungrateful didnt work tried best person can part properly make people happy even tried painting happy joyful stuff tired feel like everything goes wrong fault didnt tell anyone dont want burden others dont know get out,1 +film guts suggest might best simply accept life is keep smiling anyway one excited idea taking charge ones life moving forward felt slapped face thats okay agree movie love respect it great acting streep hurt everyone else really wonderfully quirky scenes serious film take hanky,0 +stop right there you yes you hey there day gorgeous human,0 +bitches telling everyone polyamorous like yeah bitch know ive geometry,0 +hard die ive made peace itis unreasonable want certainty death want know try kill myself work one biggest things struggle with want found passed bleeding tub rope break go hospital wake getting stomach pumped otherwise difficulty impact itll people around me ive isolated much outside people work with less handful people know always seems something brother got married mom depressed brother baby grandfather died today moms birthday next week neverending litany impacts death lives want feel stuck helpless yet keep chugging along day relying substance abuse make one next getting closer closer point feel like try hope get lucky im work feels like black hole abdomen threatening disintegrate carefully constructed composure way know make another minutes time leave wish someone could save me least care me,1 +regret missed opportunities disappointmentso guess life gone great could much worse many respects im incredibly lucky loving family girlfriend reasonable financial security at least financially secure year old be half decent job prospects education hand really cant take this defining feature past years mental illness depression paranoiapsychosis anxiety social withdrawal close friends really mean girlfriend many friends problems deal with end think people probably feel hint relief die longer burden help day day feel like every step life ive missed opportunities everything year old scared go round friends house he older brother loads creepy toys yeah pathetic know feeling depressed go holiday family graduate uni made friends barely scraping through know carry im going look back life spent dreaming away disappointing very few people ever got close me im going anything right now cant really envisage realistic way this cant stop thinking ending existing anymore anyone please please help,1 +even ur getting pleasure life live it youre playing game youre going lose eventually its called death gonna die anyways put effort sustain lifeim tired shit everyday even im good mood dont want keep living know future holds get job work years find hobbies interests make friends relationship on question is whats point gonna die anyways dont wanna live til im id rather die young least drugs kill me im playing boring game called life want early didnt ask here forced stay alive planet earth whoever made planets solar systems etc clearly whoever made humans life wanted us live here im playing rules ill kill teach god whoever made reality game life shitty fuck clouds fuck mountains fuck animals fuck everything beautiful things simply distractions true reality death im going distracted consumerism materialism bullshit things called hobbies interests simply call distractions truth,1 +definitely gamer couple people family boyfriend are so little reluctantly decided find big deal fantasy stuff saw dorkness rising thought hilarious slapstick disrespectful enjoy role playing games also importantly people whove never gamed enjoy feel left lost trying understand plot acting great field shotsset believable makes want see movies production company cant wait see future holds group three cheers well done,0 +wait posting pictures isnt weekend,0 +sad true mask cover shelter,0 +one thing anotherthings get worse worse every day things pile keep thinking im capable taking im not stress debt school work hate way would make people feel cant take anymore want go sleep would much easier,1 +currently eating raw bagel havent slept yet need something occupy time with idea im posting im probably gonna get downvoted oblivion idc,0 +endoscopy years ago safely say basically experienced deepthroating ,0 +sometimes want die sometimes want liveof course want live life went way wanted to friends could afford go college things wanted etc dont course life beautiful everything want dont enjoyable always feel like shit go tik tok instagram wherever seeing people perfect looks perfect cars perfect everything theres me none things would never wish someone things dont it im glad least others stuff want wish could say myself,1 +miss you lovei miss much want you set date new guy feel fucking dead inside want drink bleach id wake next like mary wakes next francis end reign want live rest life feeling way want feeling end end long im alive love you whole heart,1 +suck replying people much like said cant come say feel like might well say nothing bc dont wanna wrong thing,0 +cant alone friendswere chained world gotta pull says alone seriously time us come together find place world feel tough fight battle yourself join greater cause many people die every day lost alone confusion despair hearts stopped system obviously working people anymore change imminent cant ones make change nothing stopping us joining forces healing together one entity let know words mean anything you peace,1 +yo need help attentionhave wonderful christmas champ,0 +hello simple post meant greet you also happens first post here,0 +a way guns,1 +polls allowed sub serious tag maybe mods notices consider it like polls think theyd kinda cool sub,0 +need someone tell im okay want believe itno long post like last time im angry sad know help healthy ways anymore selfharm ive done less lately feel worse it thing helps alt account fly handle people think assholes maybe me feel like im never going better im me am feels doomed know interact people anymore nothing enough thought seeing friends would help didnt reminded lonely am problems unsolvable theyre even real problems theyre me need loved fucking hug anything cant ask help anyone actually know go back work days know cant fucking job anymore im snapping ive snapping months finally happening help sorry how doing much posted days another useless thing make fucking furious reason im immature oversensitive piece trash edit response certain asshole commenters fucking shrink seen summer thanks dick really loved reminded im basket case also followed rgamegrumps wonder danny would tell someone kill themselves probably not right maybe either fucking monsters,1 +depressed since teens keeps getting worse nothing interests all good job work busy feeling incompetent due many big errors making ever talk boyfriend want burden friends pain find hard continue genuine conversation would feel selfish dump feelings onto since barely energy converse want overwhelm scare bf either since also dealing depression holding feeling myself really close relationship family days spend time alone room doggy sometimes socially withdrawn even know speakwrite feeling fake forced continue work pay rent want live anymore,1 +fuck lifei getting it stopped watching porn hot back old friend everything getting back together fuck test maths it think clearly id probably done fight stress spiraling thoughts crying gave up completed one exercise without breaking down said fuck send back probably pass math feel like im good stress thoughts prevent it get better time belive me feel like bomb try get life together something bad happens goes shit im gf performing worse worse school parents understand want good grades think every single day redflag see option cant love parents shit me never loved them want escape shit alone without family without anyone,1 +im gonna kill someday turn thats promiseim life complete total shit is got friends family members despise me even internet people take seriously really wanna live full life get old health really starts go downhill ill kill then know ill etcbut someday promise right take life away want to nobody stop me hate society forcing us live,1 +film version alice walkers hugely emotive influential novel written largely letters central character celie god massive oscar success rightly sobr br in role abused awakened celie whoopi goldberg gave best screen performance miles far behind oprah winfrey sofia fiery woman tamed fate others cast fleshed characters walker introduced clearly page danny glover albert celies abusive husband margaret avery shug force change good willard pugh rae dawn chong harpo squeak susan beaubian corrine preachers wife muchmissed carl anderson otherwise best known judas film jesus christ superstar preacher samuelbr br beautifully paced sensitively written the color purple justice source opening story involve viewers featurelength drama,0 +honestly know doit seems everything slowly getting worse life family constantly telling much failure am mother calls pathetic almost everyday playing video games anything else meaning her insults get worse dropped classes work more yet im still always broke shortlived relationship someone apparently lied everything treats leper even anything make change feelings randomly hereeven shattered before future looks dark pointless know go here ive tried optimistic whole time even run out im end motivation living waking getting difficult anyone give insight run self control,1 +elmer fudd laughing lounging easy chair reading comic book dog comfortably nearby sleeping front fireplace peaceful flea comes bouncing by the flea dressed farmerstype outfit big sombrero carrying satchel name a flea it gets telescope spots dog we see big shot dogs butt flea whistles excitement screaming t bone sings theres food around corner theres food around cornerbr br that sets storyline cutebutobnoxious flea tormenting poor dog mutt hilarious reacts flea br br the drawings huge teeth chomping right next fleeing flea clever dogs dialog made laugh loud times might funniest canine ever seen cartoon poor pooch threat take bath react stupid flea causes pain almost painful watch flea uses pickaxes jackhammers like dog puts firecrackers dogs behind brutal,0 +one word supurrrrb think see anything like long time network cable television watching show like taking breath fresh air amid tv schedule filled reality shows boring reruns br br i say reservations all critics almost unanimous crying foul downgrading show half hour by way thank you nbc running commercialfree show left feeling instant love love first glance true love one feels guts everything show screamed excellencebr br graphics show least good finding nemo shrek small feat considering movies took years developedbr br cast marvelous partial john goodmans voice rest team certainly par john special mention lisa kudrows guest appearance top game creating neurotic pudgy lovable panda jewish streak her panda brooklyn show br br script funny lot inside adult jokes sharp yet tacky note parents children show never advertised such theres reason set pm pm like complain objectionable context save breath adults deserve comedy made them father pride it br br not everything perfect bit puzzled siegfried roys characters sense stereotype comes them yes gay yes flamboyant yes speak german accents thats yesterdays news give us something new something fresh something funny putting old jokes new show definitely wrong approach understand creators show wanted use star power guys have thats fine me please dwell something everybody already knows heart hopefully rest show going play old record over br br in general show definitely mustseetv funny witty unexpected twists comedy good since seinfeld certainly looking forward next episode,0 +omg gunshots guys literally help mom take stuff car car screeches gunshots,0 +want kill received wrong type counselingyou look cool,1 +fifth vodka well reddit used king castle girl wanted marry wrapped up like good things times good true broke me belittled destroyed past month messy break up always manic depressive find little joy anything joy brightest star night said wanted children marriage around commitment i today said care live die relapsed sober months life really serve purpose anymore really cant find happiness anything life always felt meaningless i sit second guessing decision shooting heart acp going midnight time fear death fear loved ones told even were together still want whatever takes make happy staying life completely stated why fucking kill already tried failed like always failure never amount anything want degree astronomy wtf going fucking failure die ask today may seem sloppy ive posted here however quite impaired cant seem find reasons go plan already last words paper directed ex love nothing harsh blame memories good times reminding even though wants dead still support everything wants takes make happen her edit well odd strange turn events texted morning sorry bitch doesnt understand cant man get over explained things made believe hard eventually asked ever sees us said year likely told year ill probably loving someone else crush person her got mad said dont talk me bye said okay bye,1 +biggest fat pp move ever video made school work wasnt rendering properly put fullscreed recorded obs lol bigpp,0 +big fan tiny toon adventures loved movie funny really captured cartoons spent summers,0 +enjoyed still crazy film seen years successful band s decide give another try start playing gigs seedy european venues hilarious results music fantastic script acting terrific characters spot on especially lead singer high heavy metal voice makeup personality problems concert end unreal go see it preferably cinema good sound system ,0 +ang lee clearly likes ease film catch action characters setting hoof emerge covering haphazard endgame american civil war via haphazard actions young militia unformed mind manhood ideal approach film turns formation personalities adulthood relationships lee also shows beautiful panoramas midsouth silent character enduring strife like hardy parentbr br james schamus script probably standard bearer film close behind number wellappointed performances carry admirably jeffrey wrights name alone could carry film me hes brilliant slow burning role instead treated good if revelatory performances large often recognisable ensemblebr br a noble optimistic film one watch fancy harder bittersweet cold mountain claim example ,0 +dont think live action disney remakes bad ok bye dont know else say fuck mod made part mandatory,0 +need help preparing therapyhey guys first therapy appointment days want honest them cant afford get hospitalized suicidal plan months now preparing actively self harm daily impulse attempted earlier week want give best shot can know wont hospitalise unless immediate threat know line immediate is suggestions appreciated,1 +name,1 +could talk someone right someone herehello people tell gets better get dumped feel way still months later feel like killing cope sadness carry around wish ex would reach me hard,1 +need music suggestion need song made globalization somewhat clean,0 +ive reddit long thought huh im board go reddit ive already reddit minutes,0 +anyone wanna chat im bored ill talk anything numbers game dm ,0 +tired feeling trapped lifemy life nowhere go down really dont care carry out nothing live for nothing look forward to im fucking ready end dont it im tired constant stress reward even things used enjoy mean nothing anymore hours laying bed think ill cheer something used fun me anymore everything chore everything exhausting everything pointless nothing meaning anymore everything come crumbling down barely held single jenga block first place dont determination motivation fight wait get better hint getting better wish wasnt afraid dying im tired purgatory im alive im shell exhaustive burden im close snapping letting go dont know whether afraid excited,1 +whati know im myself holding back thoughts dont go away theyre always back mind sometimes come front dont want try want nothing exist dont want worry painful even accomplish want want im capable of feel like emptiness always there nagging me even try even exist doesnt make sense want live world ghost could whatever wanted one would bother me one would tell need better better even would impossible theres way around peer pressure self inflicted pressure dont fully exist idk feel empty time constantly trying reassure bigger purpose im reason exhausting im,1 +next time hear chick say cant find nice guy immediately later make fun guys simps im gonna lose it chick know complained never find nice guy go bad luck men wants guy listen communicate stuff immediately goes hooks immature dude turns emotionally abusive her like expect walked right one fourth time row like serriously didnt see coming mile away make fun guy whos actually nice calling simp nice someone seen creepy obsessive dont know why obsessive someone creepy obsessive guy comments something nice thats creepy guy comments detail dont understand knows thats creepy guy walks says hair looks cute thats creepy guy walks sticks nose hair says hair smells nice thats creepy,0 +turned todayive suicidal thoughts since nothing changed might aswell make birthday death day ive tried everything change myself tried putting social situationsi literally work club promoter get people would lose job still im waste space change,1 +sisters weddingi contact family except baby sister parents abusive mother narcissist everyone small town grew thinks shes wonderful thinks monster child abandoned her baby sister getting married soon hometown family people think im awful invited family still speak cant let going also dont know go rest life horrible feels like might well fucking wedding date dont worry it doesnt help dont drive small town thing uber lyft idea im going get wedding get away wedding without asking family member havent spoken years help doesnt understand dont want go hurts feelings wedding frightens me life shit show dont anything live anyway im fucking scared wedding fairly recently divorced myself friends anyone ask go wedding aged poorly stress mentally unstable medication selfinjurer alcohol problems dont want people already judge see like this know dont go sister never forgive me think kinder everyone end it wedding im giant piece shit general dont deserve live ive suicidal majority life wedding recent catalyst,1 +wears contacts im needing get contacts first training im rlly upset bc able get eyes started crying lol anyone wears contacts stories trainings advice getting taking out thanks,0 +when hell devil help outi cant keep anymore tired tired,1 +wowhas anyone else know theyre edge tell it sure fucking wish could fresh initiative,1 +saved mei metro station recent worries life problems waiting train come thinking must jump felt sad moment know why hearing voice said it knew running direction heard him closed eyes let falling last moment catch hand pulled direction train there saved me strange fact man saved girl beautiful one watched silence half minute left followed started crying said must see someone help offered go me know do stranger carrying much ever experienced something like before,1 +ban appeal got banned discord reasons remember way appeal ban,0 +honestly fuck mei cant anything right seems like live one embarrassing fuck next cant speak people including family without freezing looking like dipshit feel touch fucking boring self esteem shitter led walked on openly disrespected family members ive never many friends attempts make new ones usually shot oddball am like smell lack confidence weird come across run like fucking plagueit sure aid things im losing hair acne short skinny social physical issues aside graduation coming soon really know want living im much pressure know fuck do suck eat fucking bullet already one would care,1 +another yearlike whats point job girlfriend new years eve everyone else house partying im crying room nobody cares nobody wants around sad guy fuck it anymore im going wait asleep drink everything take pills find im fucking done get better one help me happy fucking new years,1 +cheated onhi there little background information me name alex turned last month broke things ex last weekend weve dated two years longest time borderline personality disorder issues abandonment growing up first met hooked rather quickly huge red flag mother i never girlfriend before ignored pursued relationship her throughout course relationship kept lot male attention claimed friends reality either cheating making money escort online shed cheat id find out wed break up wed miss other wed get back together on eventually started take toll attempted take life felt like worth anything anymore abandonment issues running childhood started surface handle overwhelming feeling good enough anyone love long story short ended d release found phone flooded sobbing messages regret ex hard hearing voice someone love saying much miss love regret everything theyve done apologize like theyve never done before looking back know fell love someone exist time together months started thing ended things off spent alone trying date around ended meeting someone else paper seemed like ideal girlfriend mental problems job car placeeverything girlfriend lacked problem physically attracted her broke things two months realized fair waste time falling love like ex month later mother stepdad planning thanksgiving dinner local country clubhouse ex worked i assumed due borderline personality disorder work history held job offered buy seat agreed ended still working entire time really pleasant nice parents tried asshole ignored attempts strike conversation end dinner leave asked parents hug agreed whole time falling shit really hated walked car alone got home messaged back telling eff ever run appreciate little show put on defended self said break it months since last talked done growing up kept job really ashamed everything talked long time eventually got back together together since nov ended last weekend caught talking guys openly flirted despite mentioning me i know extent flirting went deleted history prior day broke up day did flirted seemed giving good morning texts so either way right feel bit hopeless feel worthless lost right now know im going purpose is cant help feel like im fault sex bad giving enough attention ugly poor short whats wrong deserve this know do want run away pit despair gut want go home beer cry crap much live for cant go back wanting end time want move forward need someone talk friends,1 +since interested lake monsters really dug movie movie worth see like awful good types films check out effects really good well think land lost originally watched movie early s maybe like local channel monster show called morgus presents scare anything b felt like a years later seen dvd local circuit city bought immediately give personal spot heart right monster squad gremlins good b movie fun ages,0 +dman didnt expect girls hard come ngl thought would girlfriend know finding girl would hard part,0 +bitch got bitches b gf im lonely want hold someone c h e stomachache since yesterday,0 +difficult movie classify items less generally care defining genres theres something movie makes want put specific category order transmit even one word feelings it completely recommend film anyone and truly enjoy cinema enjoy life want soon finished watching it br br i recommend movie call beautiful delightful admitting perfect anything wrong want sound like contradict myself believe writerdirector brad silberling knew exactly getting finished writing inspiring script im sure wanted achieve product nothing perfection product would simple appealing uncompromising title well hes done it br br silberling director long complex dramatic movies like city angels moonlight mile proves items less closes minutes passion work also faith it put actor morgan freeman front woman paz vega grocery store take exactly places ordinary life would take silberling proposes here br br i cant tell within apparent simplicity lies thought provoking background underestimated everyones exposed camera focuses directly two main characters share endless conversation car ride stops thats endless life life let express praise well silberling handles situation saying reaches less time not movie duration time single day movie develops events smaller place kind connection two characters sofia coppola generated lost translationbr br that movie set tokyo also encountered actor woman also conversations moments living lives conversations sense though provoking quality items less and coppolas movie naturalness every situation never lost images music words seem forced included picture buy time br br in aspect collaboration silberling director photography phedon papamichael man shot beautiful sceneries sideways focused every emotion patch adams delights us visual passages true natural beauty br br but ultimate beauty items less found cast by avy kaufman two protagonists ones transmit feeling mentioned beginning cant specify feel connection tell theyre fun may even improvising stuff academy award winner morgan freeman also executive producer film simply stands confirms status today movie industry one thats well deserved quiet man filled wisdom easily make cry make laugh beautiful paz vega well said great spanglishhere proves real deal hollywoods small her,0 +horny feels good fun sometimes time get raging hard boner cant focus shit super inconvenient help,0 +suicidality made go crazyi keep internally laughing cant stop im barely close eyes keep laughing internally fucked think might crazy extremely afraid get diagnosed keep flashbacks day held captive hospital horrible time really deserved cant longer help,1 +you look depressedyou look depressed you adhd depression stop making attention stop faking it you right depressed you attention whore words make want end even turned year confessed ive failed attempts ever since try explain whats wrong get told bullshit get ditched hurts more everybody expects others help out friends tell go family family tells get it feel damn hurt like fucking hell were th grade fucks sake people expect psychopath depressed saying may also bpd makes even unaccepting me really hurts cant handle anymore people accept courage talk feel like belong anyone anymore ones trusted ditch me family tells get it hurts want die whats worse depressed since attempting redflag treated like dog shit admitting trying get support get even lonelier realized people accept telling trusted felt getting ignored time makes trust issues even worse know care courage im weak world cant handle telling mom truth feel like big fat liar never trustworthy putting trust people thought right huge mistake months till school ends tell ones truly like me,1 +got drunk first time tonight good feeling ive secretly sneaking dads vodka could see feels like really shit feel dizzy wobbly third shot vodka and smaller drinks like cider sick kitchen sink washed away anyone could see sat bathroom like minutes deciding stick finger doe throat led throwing entire conterntz stomach honestly bad feeling idea peol get drunk plus side see dizzy felt kinda funny gravity felt really heavy im cold tired dizzy pyjamas smell like fake lidls malibu almist gagged spat bit owt trying drink lot it advice people never drunk not might seem like cool thing everyone romanticises drinking school honestly bad experience hope makes sense hope dont get drunk long time experience,0 +donei want kill myself fucking tired thats all many people fucking house want done,1 +smiggle best stationary negative fact seem many stores,0 +church retreat delema need advice mother keeps fucking begging church retread friday sunday nebraska forced boring ass bible study every wednesday which girl retreat absolutely going hate retreat theyre going activities church stuff mom thinks were going like visit nebraska actually go places highly doubt it one experiencei need help convincing going good time me want much time please help,0 +friend told come herei seasonal depression matter many people try help me get better boyfriend also gets depression im afraid triggering mine feel like killed myself nobody would care week two make people upset depression,1 +reason wake anymoreive suicidal longest time met boyfriend talking bliss thing comfort makes forget want die everyday said many love always assured loved me today found cheated me people teenager broke instantly feel empty reason something look forward anymore rather die feel this,1 +stuffed entire ass book jackets pocket know big ok ,0 +almost almost subs pls help httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucthaqrfgkugrun_mq,0 +do cousin couch playing among us passing check her saw name hxrny girl surprised turned around saw me changed name soft girl dont know confront tell aunt handle it ps live us spreading germs,0 +ever receive unsolicited dick pic boy plan ill send picture dick give taste medicine ,0 +got braces tightened teeth fucking hurt aaaaaaa,0 +musicmedia player use im curious personally use foobar computers rip cds dvd drive mobile use oto music sync phones music library computers,0 +lovecan broken heart kill,1 +wanted say thanksjust wanted say thanks good community achieving help kind loving support give people times crisis although suicidal myself enjoy reading kind words honest comments give providing service people desperately need find motivation stay alive keep doing saved countless lives wanted give deepest respects thank you,1 +want itthe urge right get sharp knife slip wrists front mom spite insane want get back make feel fucking horrible hate hate hate,1 +unpopular opinion maybe rickrolling taught beware phishing sitesviruses school ever done me thats internet school ,0 +suicidal thoughts getting worseif see post account im years old social life friends rely on family fantastic reason im still them everyday getting harder know tomorrow ill stuck unhappy routine again thought college answer im bunch people much older im seeing therapist depression working felt shit life know fuck wrong me applying volunteering work kill id like least something useful go want somebody call friend much ask,1 +fuck life dont know im typing see get advice ive seeing girl like year weve become close asked last month rejected disappointed still good friends shes telling new partner theyve deed almost every day sense met like two weeks ago broke says hes shes im like wow seems bit weird like tells yea shes really happy shes sorry still friends stuff im like yea sure still friends know shes yo shes getting rammed every day im sure deal im heart broken sucks need advice plz one help,0 +hey yall wassup also u play kerbal space program huge kerbal space program fan love aspects,0 +im back acc hacked douchebag thinks im racistnot important anything new here likeanything all,0 +know say anymoreits said reasons want die reasons live itll get better theres nothing left anger hurt energy im nothing,1 +people complain awards whoring using reverse psychology thank coming ted talk,0 +whatever do stop watching think movie over hang around first batch credits really miss something saw movie savanaah film festival thought best bunch dreya weber marvel really performance pull far ground qa said wires effects everything see really going it addie make festival dancing madonna excellent and gawd beautiful amazed film went well blue haired lady crowd it savannnah backwater,0 +actually wanna commit die im like years old asian family yes shit sucks like born anywhere live sucks im forced study career option rather engineer doctor makes worse mega nerd twin sister keeps studying like shit makes parents expect also studying like hours day handeling bs parents decided take laptop and im fr never getting back honest im offended rather super sad u would place would easily made sense phone basically theres big amount points think make sense yea premium account mc basically could enjoy really playing servers actually bought account fucking money hid parents like year now like things but explain im sure basically like people read till end that related laptop mostly im gonna lose friends made discord actually ended meeting peeps like interests enjoyed playing csgo minecraft skribll among us fall guys live streaming like random shit stuff never imagined enjoying friend internet tbh watching subreddits like rmademesmile wholesome subreddits make feel even worse seeing strangers help family pressurizes study take career gaming crime basically true redditor live make even worse btw meant hate towards family rather im super pissed explain like everything must super unclear im actually trying say genuinely caring family still loves even though nonsense,0 +saw movie first time little year ago ive seen times since never heard consider knowledgeable classic cinema true polished diamond roughbr br this gem movie revolves around jon voight lead character conrack young schoolteacher assigned yamacraw island teach islands children one school first students reveal know little world beyond island home heart movie conrack finding inspiration awaken young minds world around them students quickly reward teacher eagerness learn remarkable ability grasp concepts that short time before foreign them conrack uses unconventional clever teaching techniques happen be oh little fun god forbid learning fun together cant be says ones charge avoid spoiler shall say conrack finds resistance boss manand ending truly bittersweetbr br i year old white male teaching experience identify lead character pat conroy aka conrack mr petroy dont identify black kids kid bussed school side town th th grade circa kids movie remind classmates then luckily th grade year old one understand racism remember kids playing square kickball hideandseek running relaysbr br this movie moving delightful poignant moments beginning end nonstop found many times tears eyes suddenly laughing loud funny moviebr br git away winda sir prepared accept crap tell rabbit lap so white schoolteacher mr conrack grands love mr conrack good looking teacher good looking white man wind mph east small boat warning small boats beware big boats ok gotta worry bout nothing not fry cook eleanor roosevelt sharecropper something latinthats latinhey wait conrack sing like frogi sing good whatcha talkin boutbr br it still mystifies still hear nothing movie little reputation following intend seek reviews comments background making of tidbits there amazes acting given untrained kids one kids mary understand actress tell however kids plenty lines genuine reactions wonder it im guessing conrack mary precise dialogue work scenes unfold naturally adlibbedbr br conrack special movie opinion one movies good unknown others category king rat dark passage bogie bacall gods must crazy bad day black rock recommend all first take seat class mr conrack,0 +ago responded post offical klondike instagram account made asked what would klondike bar said i would work endless job responded same,0 +random question top bottom,0 +super weird dream went cinema best friends love filmi even watch those middle film one friends starts kiss meat point cant move started strip cuddle naked almost sex nobody cinema paying attention feel bad confused idea fuck means side note gay,0 +details early s living parents well working small business university colleges never completed degrees shuts away everyone extremely difficult contact reach design overweight spends free time playing videogames mostly wow smokes multiple joints day medicationi love brother dearly want try help help himself try stay connected way can setting weekly video gaming sessions him friday spent h playing dark souls bloodborne something requires lot communication coordination us happiest kicking ass vanquished invader sometimes try ask inside spends time talk literally shuts down goes silent hours time see therapist issues work done helped lot believe sees situation dire cannot fathom way out get along well parents extremely bad tempered lashes them know handle all situation completely control emotionalmental ability resolve need help tbh begin brother in opinion professional opinion means august going visit two weeks bringing dog me hope help soften brother bit genuinely kind hearted loves animals goal try find time allow open up share thoughts feelings seems hardened now failed time time get open up help brother let know care deeply wellbeing want seek help needs begin taking back control lifeand bro reading somehow figured me please know buddy believe adult brother depression undiagnosed adhd live h driving away help want help,1 +watch movies nick mancuso because frankly love guy even though ages typically cast baddie longtime fans note reason blond flick fairly familiar movie terms plot but movies days exactly original rick roberts appealing imperfect husband martha macisaac equally appealing daughter mitzi kapture good job goal angry sometimes pretty hard like nick still got terms able demonstrate charm psychosis however much plot takes place offscreen like motivation prior behaviors good times bad times things seem apparent characters never quite make audience ie me final scene leaves everything desired but about category overall cant say cared much characters said reasonably entertaining way spend afternoon still like nick,0 +earphones broke noooo earphones broke gonna listen gentle femdom audio now supposed use listen music middle night headphones ew like prefer earphones cause comfortable broken like heart ron almighty rat king,0 +lose suicidal thoughts askyou cant really way lose them hold tied cage tearing apart invulnerable take care let escape im buying electric guitar soon start love hearing heavy metal it started appreciate things love without heavy metal able hide fear rage anxiety maybe even depression think im struggling winter depression asa spring comes act normal im trying say find hobby it love it live it life loving love lol without cannot normal try something like even bad matter one thing tho drugs alcohol ciggarets nothing people die painful cancer parents edge getting one see it years old happy own friends internet friends anyone feeling miserable feel free write message good day live life way love,1 +feel like failuremy mom afraid me says doesnt know act me mom loss you shouldnt die friends coworkers would hate job died dont relationship dont kids dont siblings dont family whod miss me dog mom reminds me takes better care do im sorry cant let go anger im sorry im happy life cant bring care enough fix it hate job hate life like years last breakup yes need quit stupid give idea ever fix things idea gets things im scared death happen give up im sick told im spoiled im brat im sorry dad passing suddenly made deal this im sorry cant fake pretend everything ok step dad used heaven forbid moms daily life change cant say anything do starts crying blaming me wish one died instead dad everyone would happier seems,1 +older people think gamers orgasm upon seeing gore genuinely confused everyone reacts gore cause someone plays games mean cum pants upon seeing dead body,0 +im scared come years im supposed university like think everything sorted mere thought actually becoming responsible member society makes anxious am good enough something ask every day without finding answer try making answer try to simply get distracted keep failing come terms fact maybe im best could be maybe ill never since place mental state live in constant fear living expectations dissapointing parents two younger siblings look since im oldest ever competing family see who best way want live im tired many times ive suicidal thoughts simply push aside since matter do need keep going forward even feel like crying no cry help trying accept reality push forward again like many times before years im supposed university know life,0 +never come lmao mom wanted barge room ask basically kicked told i want talk right now left felt bad always everytime tells something decline told wanted change hair even change name noah lol said mind im andor adult actually surprised bold shit told wanted binder mean school binder lol binder something u wear flatten ur chest wanted one feel masculine euphoria ofc mom closed minded person starts getting confused saying no u cant that taboo taboo u made me wtf also include hellbent christian homophobic even transphobic im pretty fucking sureso even expecting idek thought would maybe understand lil countless amount times people family told talk andddd moment yall waiting for told genderfluid really confused lol hesitant even explain even get to why becuz starts something else even paying attention wants complain exact shit pfft anyways even tried tell genderfluid even give time day becuz wants call literally everyone family ask tell said even though said im comfortable raising voice times good tears mentally fucking exhausted cannot shit anymore burned even care blabs everyone fucking world know never able comfortably speak woman ever life,0 +wasnt supposed wake upguess handfuls advil arent really enough noted next time ill think pills pop,1 +mum found one condoms like week later dad pressured truth that girlfriend took virginity me like im trouble guess us living uk dad big go waiting till completely legal ummmm anyone got ways make everything less awkward maybe get girlfriends back ,0 +whoever guess zodiac sign receive via cashapp paypal u haeve paypal first person guess zodiac sign gets lets get it,0 +great showi remember much remember watching loving it remember mother father really like grandmother like grandmother really appreciate became adult knowledgeable nonsense favorite song show sardines morning that might title remember seeing show hearing song went cleveland ohio visit cousins sister sang song much time left little cousins singing too would love find dvd,0 +better six years still feeling depression come head like fog feel like always looking something take away resilient pain collecting movies buying many never watch buying tons anyway gtbinge eating overeatinglt spending huge amount day watching youtube etc need realize deal without things someday just scared that want deal it know to get fact never feel better normal,1 +lately depressed treated medicines psychiatrist psychologist tired feel diredflaged time lack motivations life could please tell live for god family happy money everything counts judge asking help bc know anymore happy used excited person life want sleep one day wake again so please help showing life special maybe could inspiration me thank lot need help opinion please,1 +top reasons im awesome thats it thanks attention nice day,0 +im gonna feel way every night rest lifeim tired feeling like this im tired hating myself im tired damn pessimistic heh im tired fucking tired dont know how dont gun something sit it fucking let fester think terrible world itll get worse it feel alone feel selfish feeling alone feel like deserve die selfish ijustfuck dont know dont know anymore,1 +wrote poem guys like it reality always selfish scared feel like someone else void soul maybe hole wish reality could this room trapped soul escape option never believed maybe trapped want be bright lights blinding me unable look away want love me could though me know want sure muffled sobbing aching heart night lost fight,0 +try make quick hope started like years old life started turn gray lovely child everyone loved me beside dad left mother one trait made special relatives someone cried come them hugged them automatical one day mothers crying kitchen i like usually decided make happy again tried hug her tried pushed away looks today state traumatizing little child years later married another guy made childhood hell never talked way shouting smallest mistakes pretty bad too time later fall love first last far due introvert nature talked much least end considered friend end one day decided ask out mother called me tell me one friends died car accident told her probably joke photoshop friends often shit like that bad joke dead light guided life obvious depression that make shorter unsuccessful redflags first one classic rope around neck second three packs strong painkillers third cutting veins missed think last one rope again keeped secret family one time opened mother helped me least thought back then better time graduated new school new environment etc destroying mentally cant take it often stab neck hand explode emotions hidden inside far pain let me control myself days ago asked mother help firstly made laugh electronics addiction i one one close friend often write stuff seeing phone rare finally sayed need real therapy talked like back then realized something talking mental health talking me make stop thinking it asking help forgot whole thing next day leaving alone thoughts probably made huge holes story also english good im writing know situation fault hate myself that yet still want someone notice help me,0 +aight need guys help gfs birthday gfs birthday right now as time among gift bought her also wanted give smth else whole heap happy birthdays her makes happy plan wish many happy birthdays possible happy birthday usomegirlxo ily much hope get many ppl possible support you,0 +found yoda bot response good bot try guys,0 +really want itso imma completely honest im years old im shy person always struggled friends currently like friends really hang lot almost years ago met awesome girl made change way looked life made happy made feel like something else live for first person ive ever loved person truly understood me shes gone several trust issues low self esteem us made us fight lot still love im sure still loves tries convince shes better without me felt sad almost every day never really tried kill still wanted it ive become dependent person literally need feel ok without want kill feel sad overall already tried oding substances didnt work good like life without her perfect me,1 +probably thinking dying days timenever happiest memoriesits almost always bad shit happening since primary schoolcounsellors pyschologist help mei hope jump stairs maybe hit headseems less scary falling buildingthe world much autistic person like myselfits years thisi cant take anymorenothing working me,1 +think done always angry grew living abusive father right now things constantly worst told family feeling okay thoughts wanting die year ago get support still student money seek professional help still locked house due pandemic bad government country everyday hell anger sometimes poured pets hurt think soon enough hurt people maybe kill them yeah instead another bad action harms pets kill me want peace already potentially dangerous think someday become serial killer anything bad might kill harming others,1 +parents happy itits fucked say life hell could never understand happy im longer suffering die,1 +guys two cars following hours im fucking scared httpsiimgurcomcxyrfjjpg,0 +finishedi letting go today medicine warn care anymore tried tortured life itself cannot endure anymore tried much could never really afraid it mostly heart refused gone nothing stopping me originally trying make others dont anymore one would hurt this always much could others tried make look okay them pushed away abandoned hurt anything else tired abandoned hurt others over never got better me years tried gave all,1 +anyone nervous post something talk someone talk im open vent much want things hard us people need someone talk thats normal pms open hmu,0 +im sick fuckive saiddone awful things cousins deserve menobody does im terrible human deserves every painful word thing saiddone me even ask ive doneitll scar life,1 +word hobbies dont something good it make something nice fun relaxing exercise whatever easy get discouraged youre good something try keep going fun it make ugly plushy draw unrealistically start wobbly crochet blanket also hobbies arent gendered many creative relaxing hobbies deemed girly many awesome basic skills have like sewing repair clothes growing food learning cook meals boys arent limited meat sports code vice versa try something new year see goes getting started new things hard worth enjoyment,0 +speaking therapist today came realization determine self worth almost exclusively others value me rather value myself felt like punch gut because half heartedly told worth something past never realized lying deep believe words truly awful see unvarnished truth revealed low point id like know anyone else relate so got even know start struggling self worth issues,1 +think im done life im sick alive im tired feeling unhappy time summer almost over ill start going school again im supposed junior think im gonna year ive always social anxiety gotten much worse im quiet girl one school seems like me tried talk realized awkwardweird was understand try damn hard think things say them theyre always gone even giving second chance wish people school could little understanding people anxiety would love sit talk someone anything love hearing people talk stuff people assume im weird freak simply im bit anxious talking first wish people would little forgiving social mistakes know theyll never be unless asshole alcoholic uncle lets homeschoolingwhich never happen im gonna kill myself im afraid go back school feel like ghost might well already dead world fucked sad anyways im tired seeing it,1 +idea whats idea be im gonna mercy shouldve picked mercyyyy im gonna kind support ended losing fault tears live,0 +lets see make where even begin ill f try bore details everything ive depressed past two half years brought death father tell single person year told doctor started getting help recently told mom tutor school also friend class cant talk depression mom standing trying get open giving one worded answers barely getting words avoiding eye contact whole time said something hit guess next thing knew full sobbing arms like kind crying cant even speak keep hicupping breathing weird runny nose said everything could comfort me ended felt awkward around again like id shown much myself even though shes mom like one person really open with family think im freak really do act strange around extended family probably knowing well wanting make bad impression usually end im backwards idiot gotten much worse since father died sure exactly why probably reading thinking im overreacting im not act like fucking idiot front family say stupid things react inappropriately situations im comfortable with im weird around guys mean im straight girl im shy around people im attracted to well am thats story another day ive like long remember even developed attraction opposite sex around menboys felt like tosort prove them like search validation im talking guys girls completely relaxed normal girls feel need make like me strongly feel like linked relationship parents theres reasons feel like existing anymore main ones some get suicidal thoughts waves throughout day massive little smaller painful none less moment sleep deprived state see way im feeling moment drowning foot caught plant bottom river chance swimming back surface point though occasionally manage get high enough breathe bit air feeling sunlight warm face sucked back reminded people like dont belong sun place bottom river nobody see us put bluntly seriously doubt ill still see th birthdaymaybe even th thing keeping around thought mom deal death thats always enough keep planning it,1 +ive preparing kill self month so things freak things today left thinking otherwiseso today sat run car parking spot trying get head sleep car pulled right never turned radio down made impossible sleep next side old guy pulled up really old kept playing radio eventually sat up tired acted like guys old bloke right chilling car park abouy minutes two hours old guy left started hating people again even started googling phone people like rats thats felt then fell asleep woke noticed nice cars behind one bloke looking me thought time go turned ignition nothing dull click againi started hate humans again seen get old feller get merc smile face heard ignition fail car park came pappa john pizza driver reason said along shot mate jump leads would you cut along story short car running life thanks guy suicidal earlier thoughts humans rats true saved today somone earns nothing shrugged somone earns somthing,1 +ji trnka made last animated short indictment totalitarism caused trouble native czechoslovakia elements few symbolisms simple trademark ornaments almost absent here allowing viewer concentrate fable man room dedicates pottery take care plant suddenly huge hand enters room orders make statue itself man refuses hes persecuted ominous gloved hand days impression reality factor seems erased animations try replace real world refreshing watch film makes technique part enjoyment,0 +twoobie tunes day lovely day bill withers song make wanna scream sing boyfriend cute wanna dance around every time hear ,0 +havent ate days feel finally peacei drink ltl water mostly mouth know time takes time dunno even eat,1 +tired everywhere turn help someone something wanted life significant other friends something makes happy fucking tired envious everyone know life fair cannot help feeling way life fucking mess want alive anymore want alive anymore,1 +name her im one moment needs helphi all throwaway nonsense first foremost im scared cried today unable work longer function im able reply straight away will want anymore want help feel compelled help others less fortunate am turn reddit helped past survive thanks,1 +dm ill insult u free idk put filler text got carti lyrics yeah im coupe cutter yeah sippin wock what yeahpostedwith brotheryeah got mop whatyeah posted brother yeah got mop what yeah posted brother brother yeah got mop what slatt posted brother yeah got mop,0 +wanting nothing kill myself order hurt mother simply runawayi every years so drive run away,1 +right wing christians like debating want join discord server basically one right wing person were looking people aged better debates without everyone opposite view one guy however right wing join thats fine too message let know want join ill send invite link,0 +teenager want cut myself cannot change mind try cannot buy anything it parents check every package knives family extremely dull tried use them failed it want cut myself kitchen knives sharp enough get something adequate sharpness,1 +told think cares money give said true therapists lie right clients eyes true know argument wasit client invest money therapy cannot get better think bullshit wish could go therapy pay always struggled trust attachment issues still vulnerable spot knows think single thing wants money coming in think usedi severe redflag paranoid smoked last couple days think could paranoia getting worse something know guess mess usedfuck making suicidal think therapist cares,1 +joe biden donald trump everyone start arguing comments please thank you,0 +found poem wrote like turn now sixteen problem would still remain teen one year older would stop playing dolls tried convincing last night crying crying quietly steadily crazy people changed ones called best mates left ground swept beneath teachers encouraged learn asking memorize run run behind grade asking first good human parents well theyre supporting stare stare world questions left unheard soon would sixteen would change school best mates would disappear would treated like adult asked perfect tell cant girl alright tell fell fell many times perfect aint got glossy locks pretty skin colour responsible still hate alone would love hug bear date coming near dear seem far near knew hard turning world began see,0 +im alone useless world nobody needs anymoreim ive lived enough tell world shitty place,1 +get home go bed struggle getting morning im trying hard feel like cant get right feel stupid literally everything ive done life far way ive gone things im terrified letting ruin me try hard pretend everything ok cant anymore,1 +people really kill themselvesi know may sound weird feel like real seen irl feel real even tho know happening ive seen youtube videosmrcaringuy people lost lives redflag feel bad sad like sad think people struggled gave,1 +im going commit soon way look genuinely wont happy ever looking look theres point nothing happening gt unhappy think everyone would agree thati cant live life face body have people might able accept it personally cant people think look others treat me really dont care people want treat bad feel myself ill saying dramatic dont respect way look looks extremely important humans nature ill never like cant accept way look fucking pains come this know good life like like way look know definitely missing whole lot good shit ill never good shit even continue living me better stop dont think im making sense whatsoever point mind frustrated angry confused depressed feel like cant even explain im feeling,1 +one stay sane world fast advancing technologyi feel like ever increasing powers technology change everything sanity powerless like fist thermonuclear weapon everything grey area everything objects sensations consciousness created manipulated destroyed using technology continued,1 +question guys rteenagers question specifically straight ones girls perspective id love answers sexuality yall find attractive girlspeople would one obtain boyfriend trying times im looking one moment like future reference case anyone else wondering like am,0 +yet another person whos called selfishbecause sit around wallow pity tried make life better people understand want life get better way ill even try make things better ex said try again ill go back meds look job tomorrow happened fuck world people it im even gonna attempt talk people anymore im gonna wait end month end it maybe people understand ive given fighting,1 +want hug someone close eyes peace rest foreveri tired now tired everything like nothing gives joy anymore dont know else say thats it guess wanted say something somewhere guess,1 +last thing say end probably thank world surviving year,0 +hello ive chronic social redflag since remember pretty traumatic childhood resulted socially awkward nervous social setting fast forward week ive invited party weekend would love go honest im scared go,1 +idk anymore hate college hate major know id college incentive live possibility getting gf people keep saying itll happen patience feel like ive patient years think ive lost patience left hope point see happening bother keep going,1 +getting worsei finally got help many years struggle went doctor psychologist diagnosed severe depression anxiety also meds feel nothing getting better ive started lying cant get bed morning make excuses cant make event im committed to point ive lied workplace closest friends family every possible group responsibility to even habit before do know why getting worse much trouble getting bed morning problem before think meds ive month now suicidal thoughts popping now know want live know how also want die know how know nothing im empty,1 +dm anything right ill answer hours cause im going bed would pretty wacky think,0 +bipolarim sick ups downsim back manic swings depressed lows havent slept night days got hrs sleep last night im sick craziness head loud there want stop want normal much live for like hiking adventuring friends cant take ups downs tearing apart matter time starts affecting everyone around me girl seeing see crazy quit talking me friends see dropping get sick swings leave matter time part sucks ive done everything healthy im sober recovery trauma counseling medication compliant im still fucked up im never going ok airsoft gun looks realistic enough get cop end things me every time try fail want live see beauty world want get away pain fear dont control head,1 +everythings just huh okay everything nothing fun fucking hate,0 +miss sub super fun used life couple years ago lol wish sub fun rn corona man posts shit karma whores yea yea used ton karma whores back never bad unfunny jokes,0 +happy working fanfic mix crossover fan fiction within first hours got people reading ecstatic right also crying never happy feels weird d gonna give link though bc would stupid honest dream smp members another dimension thats im going say,0 +stay goim sitting couch trying make decision life become unbearable one wants around soon unemployed would rather live homeless car dogs stay family doesnt want me ive calling texting support network past hour one answered dont want die option packed bag full tank gas dogs eager get going leave,1 +im goodim alone always verge crying cant talk anyone one listen im stressed taken toll feel completely hopeless,1 +feel like choiceits want kill myself thought fear always stay alive stops me universe infinite always alive exist somewhere matter do hate it hate existance nothing suffering times less suffering never good hopeful years go by gotten worse became better coping it none matters all reality care rule reality everything exist cant escape none us can,1 +actually wrong redflagaside itd family course people cant help disturbed death redflag devastated think pain could cause others that live dont want to life constant struggle difficult fulfilled uphill battle alive daytoday basis extreme mental illnesses dont know id diagnosed therapy hasnt helped far carry relatively well therapist doesnt really investigate ask difficult questions dont think thinks theres anything wrong is objectively something wrong me im happy person im constant pain im pleasant person around irritable moody often terrible mood resting bitch face hell short fuse people dont keep plans care people much hardest time showing it struggle express pain way people understand getting worse dont think want continue life never normal healthy happy person never been,1 +sister slept last class lmao soon saw unexcused absence notification like lol dumb bitch sleeping shes going get ass beat turns ibuprofen took hives knocked out lol,0 +let introduce b name mai im got long legz,0 +tired life shy cannot talk people holding eye contact cannot drive cannot travel alone cannot use maps want live near suicide ever wish sort cancer would made really happy near suicide ever today day concrete thought killing myself,1 +almost nothing show itim couple months feel made mess life feel though im stuck groundhog day everyones life os constantly changing adapting tried much get things track s trying sort mental health wish done travelling thing wanted partner years trying im exhausted feel much rejection hurt rrom all men dont find desirable anymore suicidal thoughts week,1 +im rlly bored yh guess like messages u wanna chat cause im bored fuck,0 +hate body friends left mei born boy wish girl every day wake realise im going boy day makes die little inside top off closest friends suddenly moved school leaving noone im behind school cant tell anyone feelings ive suicidal two years now feel like im getting close attempting redflag,1 +constantly feeli keep thinking time limited fantasize different redflag scenarios alcohol sleeping pills ordering cyanide salt drinking i know cant talk methods much cant stop thinking these couple years since ive depressed months since ive started staying bed excessively desire anything including fixing situation im going run money eventually forced sell house process literally terrorizes me given little energy anything redflag ultimate avoidance now ultimate relief constant anxiety preventing perhaps becoming homeless parents offered let go there theyre getting now theyre physical pain themselves need coming back fucking years old cant die already ive posted along lines before know cant fucking keep myself much cant tell parents understand depression want scare them scared say much dr case get sent hospital involuntarily hotline maybe thats need know want get better keep living shitty life im tired this,1 +please dear godmercy kill theres gonna lot suffering future lot hurt bitterness hopelessness stay alive cant family killing pray get terminal illness die naturally someone shoots blow up im also scared commit redflag myself please,1 +something elsecontemplated redflag occasionally past years so im now whenever im good stage think ridiculous every time this however every time get bad stage unbearable sometimes think may psychological disorder something im kind person never see therapist even tell anyone this think also may slight obsession problem currently seems alcohol anything drugs substances even obsessed feelings makes sense anyways im going kill tonight even writing kinda helping sure even need advice fuck feel people find would entirely surprised completely hide feel like people see super easy going,1 +anybody else feel like fit groups popularnerdsjocksartsy kidstheatre kids dont even fit weirdos dont really get gen z humor like culture guess least weirdos funny im weird boring person dont real passions dabble little tiny bit everything tiny mean really really tiny like good thing course niche video games tv shows watch really far between pretty hard find people interests itd cool able manage friendship long enough start exploring new interests other never gets point,0 +im scaredtwim one fears im scared dark snakes anything like that im scared might do people myself like knowing people would hurt less others would hurt more want headspace continuously tells it mean hurt want take knife watch skin opens blood pours open wound almost lifeless corpse bleeds black marble bathroom floor cant it cant take life want cant care much that,1 +trigger warning read feeling lowi feel like ending things nothing right last year me got jailed lost job loosing loved ones sad used look happiness elsewhere sounds late make changes life now tried medication tried meditation still feel worthless unwanted happiness ever got helping others need help someone listen to do would do,1 +reason liveplease im lonely ive lost everyone want left alone anymore im good enough anyone today never come,1 +whats lesbians b yall doing local bi girl checking,0 +to honestly want die think strength work overnight job fucking nights week almost year now asked job could switch shifts lazy coworker works nights ofc coworker says cannot night schedule would quit faith anything else fucking tired valued cannot take anymore cannot cannot deal life job right now,1 +kind film want see glass wine fire on feet up require much brainpower follow good long day would say unrealistic expecting anything serious bother funny thought businessman would go far agree live slum while actually get enjoy it would definitely recommend it,0 +im sick dealing lifeim diagnosed depression anxiety ptsd due trauma related dad lost custody feeling form regret life bad moments even tiny bit close mom treats me divorce remember telling im older ill see much monster mom is time brushed mom forced thinking psychotic monster see talking about emotionally verbally abused day day constantly guilt tripped need here ive worsening suicidal thoughts since im writing room mom trying hold back tears close ending it family memebers go to grandparents family friends even friends go to ive called cps never form wellness check cant go therapy im planning ending soon sounds dramatic really cant wait another years im scared mom im scared continuing live,1 +jadedjust know keep going forward sort happiness stability badly want life better part knows im hated huge embarrassment used ampcheated mate lost pretty much friends im alcoholic coke head work hard but always get cast never fit fuck addictions get attached fast men love me ive living like since remember know im mentally ill point continuing try life going bring misery,1 +well hey reddit well couple months ago got first girlfriend past months amazing ive never happier yesterday was fun told join discord got really happy since played minecraft together lot thats said horrible words im going give straight im lesbian now nothing wrong lgbtq kind stings first girlfriend thought things going really well guess not asked realized explanation follows mean slow process basically november basically privately decided wasnt really interested dating men came along like ok nvm like started feeling like something off like every reason happy relationship something missing talking one friends lesbian started talking ended realizing suddenly clicked found missing really need advice deal since really fucking sucks ngl,0 +friend reported friends redflag attempt police whatok around am last week friend samantha contacted best friend isaac say going kill saying goodbye isaac called police both us know particularly close friends her according samantha police apparently found apartment hanging this would around morning said isaac going jump apartment lives fairly tall building contact several days now isaac texted this samantha mad letting jump guess gonna cops stop her responded fuck fuck said i dunno says ruined life cuz keep watch fined shit responded i would say thats insensitive thing ever heard could expect done anything else know else say seems possible theres lie somewhere story police major metropolitan area even personal someone watching her called police area addition campus security university attends received subsequent information them neither us live close enough hundreds miles away go check her do,1 +want endmoved back bfs house kicked times prior took month break things seemed fine things going shit soo quickly feel dumb coming back ive damaged relationships lost several friendships decision end way like everything else life want go sleep wake up want end cant hurt family like that sure much theyd really care wanna disappoint anyone anymore reasn really go cat best friend want get depressed gone doubt animals would care notice life would go normal without me maybe even better,1 +much hair much hair im talking head hair btw,0 +im pretty bored yalls hobbies started playing quitar,0 +came across subreddit want say thank contribute itseriously amazing see consistently positive comments tried leaving one floored see many posts like mine keep folks,1 +bassists never seem particularly happy cheer robert tujillo youre famous,0 +tiredive trying hard work nothing ever changes dont want hurt ever feel pain hurt others dont want anymore tired taking calming breaths im panicking dont feel like im episode dont enjoy life wish could voluntarily end mine without chance pain failure,1 +think anything school rest week ive enough now mean whats worst could happen,0 +wantedto say something maturity dont pressure maturecos loads adults still arent maturity isnt stopping playing ps toys learn fromyourmistakes dmit wrong,0 +miniseries revels flaws make us cringe themit excellent storytelling fuses black comedy mateship in notredflag way pathetic waste war without sheer unadulterated manipulation conjob like life beautifulit entertainment meaning lifeand showcases talents actors young oldgive go tell us think,0 +ive much reddit today nothing says makes sense anymore,0 +first film ever made workers streaming factory cycling walking moving right left along melies lumieres starting point point departure cinema melies begins narrative fiction cinema fantasy artifice spectacle lumieres pure unadorned observation truth many intellectuals regret ossification cinema latter tired formulae formerbr br but consider short again nothing objective it film full action static inhuman scene burst life activity quiet harmony frame ruptured decentred back right left but never course front camera is yet camera stands stock still contains energy possible subversion subordinates will cinematograph may revolutionary invention used conservative purposes map world edit it restrict it limit itbr br worse historical reality film factory workers lumiere employees bosses spying workers unseen eye regarding faceless minions film therefore describes two types imprisonment behind gates workers confined workplace opening gate seems image freedom escape face another wall fourth wall confining them first film also first example cctv surveillance image unseen allseeing authority entrapping servants frightening prophetic movie,0 +nd redflag attemptjust tried commite redflag again wish scared go it delt much life strength stand tall anymore,1 +saw recently comedy central id love see jean schertlermemama emmy collinshippie supermarket cast mother son film would probably weirdest flicker ever made hats waters making consistently funny film,0 +m need freinds play pls hey im m need friends play valorantamong usminecraft java edition withi would prefer girls since friends guys plus guy friends kinda assholes tbh im kinda lonely bit sad im posting hit private chat reddit youre interested,0 +broke promise i yeah crying metthat let come over knew would last time wed met last time wed talk hurt excited future planning ending life suppose sped myself telling plan would say sorry butthat hollow appreciate wanted help wanted try fix broken but threw towel got there hell planned day gave ultimatum knew time up hope one day able grow away this tarnish rest life wonderful person deserves world suppose wish cut this would less effected but wishes always come true glad laughs beforehand know short letter longer wanted tie loose ends love dude thank everything broken promises,1 +tried make everything stop last night found time move thisthings hard past years keep going downhill college frustrating im stuck major like anymore much debt quitting would feel like failure positive change im stuck minimum wage job going anywhere best friend years falling month ago like lost brother im still love exboyfriend recently found slept someone swore hadnt though says wishes hes remorseful it pain still strong love me really hes justified loving me ruined relationship towards end checking early avoid pain made worse apparently find nearly impossible even lift bed every day happened fast came home spending work shift sobbing back office walked apartment share ex could think cold was got warm bath mind shut off wanted sleep decades took vicodin more must fallen asleep bath ex came home work found me naturally freaked out helping throw dry off called mum really remember much except taken familys house later night purging lot grandma cried lot mum upset yelled lot ex keeps calling every hour ask am friends filled happened lost help even know say feel empty plan trying again seeing everyone care distraught did guess need help figuring move past this im ashamed myself never wanted hurt anyone im exhausted friend suggested reach have im delusional think im one felt do want hide move on ever looked like before moment define rest life expect miracles quick fixes know im trouble guess need guidance,1 +sex cool but read title,0 +wikipedia article day chicken gun largediameter compressedair cannon used fire dead chickens aircraft components order simulate highspeed bird strikes aircrafts flight jet engines aircraft windshields particularly vulnerable damage strikes common target tests whole dead standardsize chickens would used cooking thought accurately simulate large live bird striking plane flight aircraft component tested engine windshield etc fixed place test stand cannon fires chicken it chicken gun first used mids de havilland aircraft hatfield hertfordshire chickens killed local farm shortly use another early use chicken gun royal aeronautical aircraft establishment rae farnborough hampshire s goodyear aerospace litchfield park arizona used gun ceramic diaphragm seal compressed air back guns barrel fire gun needle struck ruptured diaphragm allowing compressed air drive chicken in containera cylindrical cardboard ice cream carton barrel muzzle metal ring stopped carton allowed chicken pass through cameras recorded collision united states air force commissioned aedc ballistic range s test airplane canopies began operating the gun later used test aircraft parts leading edges wings development boeing s cockpit windows subjected chicken test an anesthetized pound kg chicken loaded pneumatic gun fired knots mph kmh headonit described a messy test,0 +someone talk meive wanting murdered weeks now want throat cut bad ive tried hire people it im live usa,1 +saw film amsterdams international documentary film festival privileged meet directors tobias schneebaum lively outspoken new yorkers films title amsterdam keep river right making sensational aspect cannibalism somewhat less prominent equally important loving gay relationship tobias schneebaum members groups studied anthropologist reunion nearly years age inevitable leavetaking moving highly recommend film anyone looking moving story anything pedestrian,0 +another endless amount cookiecutter kickboxers fight death amusement wealthy scumbags films many s yknow ones created taking words death blood steel words ring fight match cage putting random generator saying though death match pretty good entry overused genre thanks exciting fight scenes surprisingly good acting kickboxer castbr br the story concerns two buddies exkickboxing world champion john larson played pugfaced middleweight kickboxing champ ian jacklin probably previously best known awful performance main villain ring fire nick wallace nick hill likable guy probably best known role streetfighter sergio bloodsport work la docks loading crates onto ships one discovery boxful guns brief fight later two heroes jobless propping la bar sensible john larson decides head north look job headstrong nick wallace heard guy paying good money fighters fight private kickboxing matches why things change says john need me ill there predictably enough long nick gone missing good friend fighting deadly ring death trying find lead missing buddybr br sure enough prizes originality here like said before films strength lies action cast reallife fighters fairly good performances manages wring them ian jacklin particular surprised me previously id seen bad guy ring fire bitparts tripe like steel ring ive always quite amused bad actor good fighter though death match hes pretty good given decent script haircut proves quite charismatic leading man friendship nick well portrayed jacklin hill nice chemistry really believe two characters care other enough one lose job travel halfway across country risk death save wish friend like that br br it also nice see matthias hues villainous henchman little depth were used seeing many villainous henchman roles however fooled thinking hes star hes video cover with seems head stuck body michael bernardo cover shootfighter good hes screen muchbr br on negative side film pretty slow theres fighting going on lots unnecessary scenes whats gangster jimmie fiorellos pointless story grandfather end fight disappointingly short whole enjoyed it plenty fights good martial arts really need course eyecandy lovely form pretty renee ammann all pretty entertaining kickboxing movie,0 +suicidal shit life dont bang like used else relate,1 +violent hater minorities guys vote want negative karma,0 +m sexual assaulted im guy im comparing happened rape years ago bus way home college bus kind full stand woman kept rubbing butt dick every time tried back away would get closer every bump would inch even closerid never felt uncomfortable life bus full point stand close me ps im comparing women know they unfortunately much worse do,0 +hate sexless virgin said virgin twice two different ways add effect already dramatic scenario,0 +hello,1 +whats word cell reproduces self forgot want remember,0 +fellow teenagers influenced hip hop s hip hop jazz awhile started listen to kendrick lamar lil uzi vert playboi carti really like them give song recommendations maybe artist recommendations too would prefer recommendations newer popular rappers similar playboi carti uzi,0 +im tiredi cant anything haircut months cant fall asleep without tv youtube movie running background distract constant thoughts loser failure worthless selfish weak sometimes hit head im dizzy like grandmother used hit herself cant stop thinking sister abandoning me cant stop thinking first time father tried strangle her cant stop angry her even thought fault cant forgive telling married eight years cant stop thinking father yelling comatose mother stop clenching spastic arm shed stroke cant stop thinking mother protect us cant ask dead ask alive remember speak yet im living house again taking abuse again feeling guilt wants feel again im fucking barely go house im afraid seeing people know seen failure am quit job almost two years ago applied another one since last friend stopped trying get touch months ago know say her even read last message fucked too im ashamed myself miss touched like fucking hug anything miss full hope ten years ago despite everything miss last time felt hope remember was know happened think anyones ever going love again think first boyfriend time know thats insane actually miss myself feel like ive dead whole time im starting wake fact know keep going see should never stops hurting anyway,1 +everybody wants make home year even world crumblin,0 +gentleman jim another case print legend errol flynn playing legendary boxer brash charismatic social climber rollicking entertainment barely stops breath pointless looking historical accuracy flynns charge light brigade sheer hokum stops pulled out filmed surprisingly lavish scale given real sense energy raoul walshs vivid direction flynn still height powers youd never guess suffered mild heart attack production alexis smith beautiful romantic sparring partner perpetual sidekick alan hale along good measure time flynns father jack carson takes sidekick duties time indeed even pirate galleon flynns earlier movies makes somewhat outofplace cameo dockside bout minutes breeze by,0 +anyone talk withis anyone talkvent to feel really right need someone talk,1 +simply well written directed acted woodys best s best since s hugh jackman perfect pick roll scarlett johanssons banter woody proves well rounded actress becomebr br its refreshing romance screen leading lady plays perfect bumbling magicianbr br there reviews maligning movie let stop seeing wonderfully done film people crowd saw laughing loud lines missed next line like woody allen films s regret missing onebr br i suggest go watch film open mind do might walk smiling,0 +feel relaxed hurt myselfi feel relaxed sleepy cut myself pain goes away slowly fall asleep afterwards relaxing thing cry makes tired bet death far relaxing would great could slow painless death thought dying makes really happy im awake feel worthless hurt feel like im actually accomplishing something ive kind worried though think death family think loves me find hard happy know do,1 +f id like chat im chilling watching tv feel like talking people go ahead dm me,0 +anyone ever despret enough use qtip toilet paper toilet paper hours ago despret enough use qtip wondering anyone ever done same,0 +wanna take nap wanna cant,0 +really know much longer go for sit home bury video games music youtube etc numbs pain somewhat suicidal thoughts literally everyday social redflag load factors boring life going future social redflag really see point living longer stopping ending dadthat literally all social redflag loneliness absolutely friends selfesteem issues redflag,1 +mean something someone ive always problems anxiety huge fear mine invisible meaning anything anyone last night talking good friend mine expressing worries sent couple voice messages assuring yes ive helped her enjoys friend mean something her me never hearing before start happy sobbing said considered unalive helped it sorry needed rant somewhere seriously meant much feel great it know video kharris calling joe saying like joe thats felt crazy good yeah thanks reading ,0 +oh crying ill give something cry hug ampxb know stressful af day today ampxb let tear ,0 +anyone brag to want somebody brag great life going raight now,0 +close jumping bridge cant get minda couple weeks ago horrible relationship person lets name annie good toward eachother nowhwre blocked told wouldnt work upset enough make title says things compiled on proceeded harassed one friend groups kinda like i told so rough uses languages unfriended blocked me now really dumps then word got very large chat news spread extremely sensitive cant take things well unplugged one set mind it walked road left ramp led bridge right highway remembered staring racing cars below scared began climb fence police sirens came body froze shock becuase realized doing brought local hospital treated social services said alright go back home seeking therapy time taking forever get back me thoughts still mind really know cope thoughts approach them want forget it dont know how,1 +currentlyi need write everything down hope okay here so wednesday morning finally felt like life settled moment busy felt good kept mind much anxiety suicidal ideation course last long evening school sent opportunity letter students concerning auditions local boys schools production the female roles on life became unbearable again desperately wanted it knew time invest unless significant role i want dedicate months ensemble alright acting necessarily suited part however couple panic attacks finally courage write name next morning thursday everything settling way planned find monologue night start practicing next week again however began panic classmate insisted role involved singing everything felt hopeless again catch break so another panic attack ensued night even worse though list many girls suddenly also signed main role one particularly amazing actor also absolutely perfect part weak filled anxiety cried hyperventilated hour saw name knew shot all guess knew along confirmed it suppose whole time reason upset badly wanted production want become better actress want make friends want experience satisfaction putting amazing play hurt knew start would never get that chance world makes distraught know weak pathetic getting worked this consumed life little issue im feeling waves suicidal thoughts anxiety depression worse before think cross name list late everyone knows pointless go role even friend told that,1 +suicidal thoughts lately thinking terrible disgusting things people do makes think surely afterlife even one could bad want gone forever,1 +im done week ago told parents im suicidal everyday since someone called see told plan killing day dad turned room upside find razor found going use kill night wont let kill myself want hear anymore years long enough me perants even let room day alone mins want die much,1 +life ended years agoive dead long time believe it do stress anxiety pain caught me cant keep running obviously therapy medicine useless im giving hours live im going head little clearing woods used meet middle night one place everything perfect one last time,1 +mishima one greatest films ever made think paul schrader greatest screenwriter time really like films hes directed ive seen with exception affliction amazing disturbing highly dimensional character study follows life yukio mishima japans celebrated writer combining last day life flashbacks stories know how paul schrader manages combine artistic way acting great photography perfect score philip glass although confusing first viewing one films becomes richer viewing truly underrated gem film,0 +feel like failure even though well school clean room work many projects someone explain why,0 +need friend im yahey im kevin need help want talk im absolutely glad talk you important im m bit crazy past im you feel free dm,1 +fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck cleaning ears cant hear agiain tried clean still cant hear fuck bullshit like third time already wanted fucking clean ear,0 +loaded gunthrowaway account short cant anymore theres escape understand death cause pain trauma part unfortunate however fairly sure continuing live without merit likely equally devasting consequences hear out failed everything ive ever attempted okay passing exams thats it life skills social skills made two friends high school thats literally it job history joke secure okay jobs cant ever hold year objectively speaking im bad things tends cause problems employment im year old lesbian im hyper androgynous everyone confused me cause problems live midwest come largely conservative family romantic life successful area thats saying much sex fun one stay realize im complete fuck zero social skills top lost person wanted with kids left baby daddy beats her desire date again cant afford buy basic necessities ive living rice peanut butter weeks degree psych student loans started job child welfare fail risk ruining lives children already endured trauma unlike anything privileged ass ever known quit im homeless andor family burden bought gun weeks ago waited three days bought ammo planned night instead passed drunk bathroom floor loaded gun hand every evening hold gun head ritual think help desensitization feel bad mom ms emotional never got dog dying ten years ago still cries it,1 +absolute intenthello redflagwatch quite awhile since first ever post detailing intent myself obviously done it opted instead exhaust options first see anyone could give ironclad reason it one far doubt anyone will many forms therapies ive tried many therapists ive changed anything medications ive taking im inclined believe nothing actually wrong me mind thinkingthey cant fix problem exist fact sign anything might actually wrong want kill myself im going outline reasons desiring again anybody interested check previous posts find ask directly copypasted version bottomline this intend end life im help im really upset it honest happen soon long redflag note compose details organize it point procrastination keeping alive anything else would posting here answer this want feedback want know absolutely certain right way right reasons talk intent discouraging it see wasting time us and one us lot less other expect contribution solely logical critique suggestion encounter logical critique cannot overcome discard plan entirely cant get feedback anywhere else am so countdown begins,1 +im done everyoneim either killing someone else probably ,1 +anyone willing fake reference mei even need one right cause im depressed hermit neet ever wanted get position needed someone vouch character reference place rent something would anyone even help me doubt it guess asking others lie help sorry life much,1 +know dolife difficult always past years gone steeply hill time mother died years back getting better know much take anymore really wish end want kill seems like way cannot take anymore think gets worse cause one talk to,1 +dumb get rid myselfwell kinda silly situation considered multiple ways kill finally far im scared failing ending rescued false planning even worse brain damage want speak psychologist would temporary solution clear cant fix years educated retardation ever reasons low intelligence kind whats next wanna wait till die watch everything get worse worse selfish primitive character,1 +please help mei need someone care are please get night know whats happening theres much going head please help me want die,1 +ever obsessed yeah crush atm litterally cliche might cant stop thinking her every moment think pretty sweet is im like way obsessed shes one friends sit bunch people lunch sometimes catch staring kinda creepy thinking noone really notices almost sure doesnt like barely speaks get obsessed pls guysgals help,0 +kataklysm greatest death metal band change mind,0 +mfs reply worse scum ok haha omg good nice cool really ohh nicee,0 +went dennys today server asked wanted white wheat toast responded white wheat looked weird got nervous said nevermind ill bread im currently posting flight brazil,0 +perhaps absolute greatest entry hammer house horror series surely wins award inventively titled episode the house bled death could yell title day without ever getting tired it besides wondrous title short movie also benefices solidly written screenplay handful genuinely suspenseful moments might require extra viewing fully understand peculiar endtwist definitely original idea horror short story opens images elderly couple drinking tea middleclass house husband sadistically kills wife several years later cursed house still sale young couple cherubic daughter move start restore it mysterious events occur affect especially young sophie beloved cat killed even birthday party gets ruined one houses pipes suddenly sprays blood guests a particularly chilling sequence one old house really haunted maybe seemly helpful neighbors cause horror answers questions provided original fairly unpredictable climax theres even room real shock end tension masterfully built titular house filled eerie scenery like pair rusty machetes used husband slay wife little warning though sequence cat hard watch animal lover conclusion another winner hammers shortrunning tv series,0 +good common logical sense know oil cannot last forever acutely aware much life suburbs revolves around petrochemical products ive avid consumer new technology keep running space powerboards know even energy crunch associated peak oil change life appreciablybr br the end suburbia shows rational entertaining manner much whole familys lifestyle change lifetime particularly concerned future generations pick tab excesses however filmmakers offer glimmer hope acknowledge human resourcefulness determination sense community tends engendered shared hardshipbr br there point trying pretend peak oil baseless propaganda treating like approaching radioactive cloud on beach ie suicide pills ready even best efforts times get harder over im hoping theres enough compassion humanity go around,0 +lgtbq bad contradicts hear hate me bisexual girl made video saying going conservative instead democratic within days got nothing hate lgtbq support got conservatives non lgtbq friends may prepering hate comment should compare whole community few tiny people hating her k lgtbq members bashing comments conservative soon videos full hatred towards lgtbq people must think it couldve anither reason know everything say people lgtbq bunch comments said we want conservative ass bunch stuff hows shes traitor bs made last video got bullied point broke down know people lgtbq arent stupid idiots blatantly hate acab says if support cops support corrupted system logic support lgtbq support idiots harassed someone lone fact ideology,0 +hi guys need help hi guys great community like spending time lot normally post title would quit worrying sub need prove something friend new macbook pro runs minecraft fps says terrible bad laptop almost blows whenever type tell afford great laptops doesnt mean nonrtx ones crap thanks guys,0 +ever present suicidal ideation constant weight shoulders help coming quick enough really want diei take depression medication anything like might partly blame still even went gp got suitable antidepressants suicidal ideation what embrace unfamiliar path rather already familiar path half half suicidal ideation half passive suicidal thoughts half intense almost active suicidal thoughts tired right yet manageable enough level passive suicidal thoughts depressive mood know want guys anything current life really sorta feel like stuck middle seeking help never feel ready change due various reasons autism seek comfortable with cant seen get deteriorate back square one everything different usually hardly ever works antidepressants really assistance crap sometimes feel much weird mood stabilising things i think antidepressants seen mood stabilisers might wrong p helpful even find right ones me big part wants wait assessment session one talking therapy waiting lists try antidepressants part feels like fault keep feeling way since take offered in case drugs oh way read life andor like write post reddit httpswwwwattpadcomsighmonthsinthelifeofasuckersufferingof by way link recent update part journalrant compilation honestly though unable helped cant even help myself yea read rantswritings wattpad feel like it kinda want someone comment writings think subject bit heavy encourage someone p,1 +aaaaaaaa word describe feeling right made isolate days contact one it im stupid soooooo bored cause unlike many people sub extrovert love people attention i like class presentations anyone know ways kill time,0 +finances cover rent bills groceries struggle lately ive barely eating fuck that im asking enough cover getting car inspected gas get there life slowly falling apart since april last year im done every morning wake disappointment,1 +several years ago navy kept studied distance away making men honor film based experiences services first black master chief divers struggle overcome virulent racism ever eager support films showing navys best side uss nimitz two helicopter assault carriers supporting shore installations provided complement engrossing tale young sailors battle uncontrollable rage movie shot aboard uss belleau woodbr br antwone fisher wrote script denzel washingtons directors debut stars navy psychiatrist treating fisher played effectively deeply derek lukebr br fisher obviously bright enlisted man assigned uss belleau wood lha front line helicopter assault platform fisher cant seem avoid launching assaults minimal provocation fellow enlisted men sent md part possible preseparation proceeding fisher slowly opens black psychiatrist revealing awful childhood great neglect shuddering brutalitybr br the story develops fisher cautiously increasingly trusts doctor gets courage pursue love interest enlisted sailor named cheryl played stunningly beautiful joy bryantbr br fisher reluctantly engages doctor asking long simmering questions soon realizes must seek answers however painful order grow move away conflictseeking destructive behaviorbr br while main characters black story transcends race unflinchingly showing evil exuberant religiosity concomitant hypocrisy foster family settings viola davis versatile actress seen number recent films picture sullen immorality nothing compared foster mom mrs tate novella nelson short searing scenes would earn existed oscar gutchurning brutalitybr br films patienttherapist interaction follow certain predictability all transference countertransference stuff earnestness fisher doctormentor realistically gripping good story well told periodbr br while set navy antwone fisher real sense service story men honor excellent movie dealt crushing racism directed real person truly film blacks surviving terrible childhood experiences and fisher says able proclaim adulthood victim still standing tall persecutors shrink size significance brave strong young man claims right decent life aid caring doctorbr br my quibble washington lieutenant commander addressed commander navy support people listed end credits someone told director washington character like naval officers rank commander addressed mister big criticism it br br i know film playing theaters deserves wide distribution derek luke may well get oscar nominationbr br br br ,0 +ive saying months dagonrompa among us anime,0 +putney swope unique low low low budget gem late s probably would forgotten time two things paul thomas anderson who named cheadles character boogie nights buck swope eponymous hero film limited dvd release watching putney swope like listening hardcore punk rock may make lot sense at least upon watching first time respect film passion unabashedly rebellious message understand lot things putney swope part liked it think movie grows mebr br the film advertised parody new yorks madison avenue best known s advertising capital world members generation x may lost concept fortunately mad men tv provide us otherwise lost piece us history need know watching movie ad agencies largely male even largely white establishmentsbr br with premise mind movie opens ad agency board meeting members predominantly white except putney swope arnold johnson bears uncanny resemblance dick gregory film token africanamerican board board members selfabsorbed soulless chairman falls dead front them concern become chairman next without even removing body boardroom begin paper ballot elect next chairmanbr br putney swope elected landslide members think swope qualified voting swope illfated attempt board members sabotage members chance elected chairman plans backfired swope takes charge sinks boat firing one original members hiring people color place br br after point film became for me weird hard follow plotwise may even plot really whole idea film seems what if scenario result new truth soul inc firm would unconventional successful nonetheless firm ends making much money members build huge glass case keep cash unexplained purposes could swope trust banks although point touched upon explained film could also metaphoric way knowsbr br most movie takes place inside ad agency occasional scenes white house president who unknown reason midget assumption political joke made cant figure what filmmakers saying president small insignificant part american life saying latest elected officials nixon time insignificant candidates know found bit eerie however man playing president bore striking resemblance future president ronald reagan funny make connection years movie madebr br what film may benefited showing consumers outside ad agency reacted new ads course ad footage possessed strange funny appeal unconventional creativity ads convince people buy product so how movie hinted idea new ad campaign successful client interaction calls white house however would revealing see average people since demographic always profitable advertisersbr br although parodies political messages film may made probably stand test time film still lot unique qualities arnold johnson magnetic x factor benefited greatly film swopes rough voice actually director robert downey srs voice dubbed in sometimes poorly fit character well authoritative outsider hires fires workers random earns respect one employees revolutionizing ad agency seeking new ideasbr br the premise film was still is incredibly risky especially since film written directed white man robert downey sr however film declines fall victim negative black stereotypes would lead rise fall blaxploitation genre years later although sex scenes may bit offputting viewers main message black owned operated business thrive innovation risk taking many people may take notredflag message away movie didbr br putney swope remains overlooked movie strange era downey sr even despite sons recent comeback never quite got recognition director deserved however find dvd movie buy watch it netflix ditto movie confusing times worth watching gusto ambition nonconformist stature even todays movie standards,0 +ive seeing one since then shed helped process much help recognize start move past lot things went hating fearing father since incident sister ended triggering memory told blame marital issues among things point even around family friend gatherings without feeling anxious wanting flee able accept things happened past remind past able interact again even really feel familial love anymore care him wellbeing but familial bond there killed came retrieve stuff couple days walking out time ever stood him made snide remark mother told go ahead run problems like always does backed corner shook me screamed collapsed mother came home made leave,1 +lmaoo this whenever need take turn immediatelyi shuffle leg direction want go goplease tell im one,0 +highest pvoted text post rteenagers k pvotes dude fuck never see text post k pvotes,0 +yall ever get sad realize nice bubbly kids went elementary middle school depressed alcoholics nicotine addicts maybe me shift th th grade shift th grade th kinda scary feel like middle school people discovered nic raging nicotine addictions things normalized care dad nicotine addict hes dealing years know hes tried quit multiple times lifetime avail makes sad peers cant enjoyable anymore middle school went stealing parents ecigs sipping vodka personal device bottles beds highschool im trying shame anyone addiction either let make clear mind nothing help friends peers since brush concerns rumors flavored juiced banned friends saying theyll switch cigs desperately want see happen,0 +theres shortage bad dialogue david bathsheba i quite hand slingshot the king israel darkness exposing enemy full marks dennis hooey delivering one straight face go sit concubines somehow doubt bored david ever told prophet nathan whatever say even tries old my kingdom understand me routine desperate housewife bathsheba one point probably tribute henry kings direction film bad despite pitfalls much first third provide maybe censorbaiting nature plot married man kills femme fatales husband gets away it king brings growing moral theological complexities phillip dunnes script rather upping sin sandals hokum conflicted david downhill slope abandoned vengeful god longer understands film back away awkward unanswerable questions loving deity would choose wreak vengeance innocent rather guilty even offers genuinely surprising criticism sexual inequality law failings husbands result punishment wivesbr br unlike king david sidelined king favour admittedly interesting saul david firmly centre drama despite interesting display shoulder twitching frankly gormless overlong closeup visiting site saul jonathans death gregory pecks performance grows stature david shrinks susan hayward pure hollywood pro raymond massey appropriately theatrical prophet why naturalistic got voice makes heavens quake kieron moores uriah intransigent unreconstructed chauvinist cant exactly blame david putting harms way despite threatening soft peddle film allow david moral get jail free card death surprisingly strong subdued design technicolor photography definitely cut ss biblical epicsbr br foxs new dvd good transfer including incredibly hokey candid behindthescenes short trailer brief shots deleted films sole battle scene,0 +waited months referral new therapist saw times made enough progress bring fucking trauma surface immediately lost insurance coverage partners boss decided fire warning got tired accommodating disabilitythis part would explain long trying get better every single fucking time gets screwed someone elses cruelty incompetence keep fucking trying yeah going kms yet going try one thing always kms afterward work might one things try lol,1 +please readit good redflag story tell it hyukhyukhyuk,1 +want know girl likes me hey guys im currently friends girl ive known year ive liked time now im going dump lot information here id really appreciate took time read give advice told liked last year told want date anyone due loads schoolwork school imposes us heard one close friends talks lot interactions weve accidentally touched spots would classified inappropriate seemed fine it mortified first im usually pretty shy reserved physical contact either notice pretended notice think likes talk meshe frequently initiates conversation keeps going long time were room free block often asks keep company hang her usually loquacious everyone though tried apply dilated eye trick makes eye contact lot kinda difficult tell people commented close proximity were together were walking arms frequently brush often hangs backpack ive seen hold friends backpacks often mine usually sit next other wants show something computer go her sometimes initiates physical contact rubsputs hand shoulder punches chest playfully hits arm jokingly tells hits enjoys causing pain try reciprocate similar things save chest punches leaning shoulder tousling hair punching arm lightly seems fine it however reciprocate much reciprocate sometimes try anything engages playful physical contact without pause days ago talking me gently stepped foot thing would step foot would step foot resting foot would step foot would foot would mine tried couple times respond kept staring talking sometimes wrestleplay fight teasing other im quicker verbally usually end getting last word in jumps me laughs lot things say even though theyre sarcastic asides bad jokes frequently gets really hyper around me told even liked someone tell him think thats good prospects her im sure likes friend guys think goes that,0 +really cant say much plot movie already said seen movie years memory never left me searching every where done net searches past came empty last night thinking movie trying remember last saw even sure right movie name decided another search finally found sight right one knows get copy wonderful movie share family could please let tawnyteelyahoocom would really appreciate it anyone seen movie chance well worth it,0 +id rather dead work job whole life diethats living bullshit,1 +helpdoes anyone without bullshit answers like gets better much live want talk me im fucking lonely one helping ive tried kill twice past hours,1 +messed want killl myselfi girl making coerced sex ive never felt bad something like life ive never ever done anything like before usually vouch womens rights character me everyday ask god that didnt even stop think second wrong talked shes always threatening expose completely understand tbh ive talking god lot telling im going kill may please mercy soul cant live knowing ive done thought friends family finding did thought disappointing family name everyone believes me im fairly attractive popular guy tbh would blow ever came out know cant handle that ive thinking ways kill myself honestly think im going it need easy ways kill,1 +rarely one come across indie comedy leaves lasting impression cross eyed rare gem writer director tackled challenge directing work gives hilarious performance evil roommate script takes interesting look plight struggling writer mixes much comedy desolate world writer cant help commit ernie character funny stuff despite tiny budget adam jones manages give film serious look hes messing around comes making good movie cant wait see comes next guy make people laugh think thats special,0 +ive lost ability feel sadsadness had without im nothing ive already started self harming make lack pain emotion feel every second slowly passing ghost friends again thats it wont anything ill spend everyday lying bed staring roof time slowly moves by waiting ive decided ive enough try end if even motivation anymore,1 +sure doim twenty years old getting life started graduated highschool seems like since senior year began everything went downhill parents problem through gotten point cant handle more third time ive written this gone character limit several times times ive tried make post make long story short parents drug addicts past years january middle senior year parents lost jobs started selling pills pay rent ended addicted things went downhill fast mom got jobs within next four months fired either stealing strung work got arrested dui graduated used money graduation buy car all car getting road work it things bought it got job gas station full time hours week nd shift get keep money parents took pay every week naively allowed thinking theyd pay back agreement borrowing it gave friends job thought right family helping pay bills whatnot time friends worked nd shift every day tuesdaywednesday off cant make plans days friends working although thought right family reality every dime gave parents went buy pills moved grandparents afford rent house quit job got sick working money point friends stopped speaking me see often depressed hang exactly usual self left car old house since pay insurance it therefore take road parents sold without telling it parents guilted giving tax return working rest claiming little sister dependent could get apartment felt like choice because even got taxes parents told entire family going give taxes get us apartment grandparents incredibly relieved wed living sinking afford more got new apartment tax return rest used buy pills unbeknownst me parents put utilities lease name mom got credit cards name secondary application started popping pills ever strung every day sister fend ourselves ended steal grocery stores fast food restaurants daily feed us every dime parents got went pills entire family knew something wrong point winter early spring never paying rent evicted apartment august last year point started new job another gas station mom also got job fired three weeks starting stealing pills job taking care elderly alzheimers patient mom thought could make money womans alzheimer meds mom started another job taking care elderly man legs got fired week it stole mans wedding rings pawned them edit post make sure long yet below around time november family stolen constantly uncle guns two rifle barrels stolen him grandmother purse taken uncles house broken computer stolen christmas eve went aunts house lives hour half away get see often bedroom going use new years vacation stolen could go on thats part ive gone character limit many damn times now quit job gas station because again parents taking money time around father works construction job localgovernment agency provides assistance low income families working womans home govt agency paying contract all father said needed borrow money materials labor costs said done get dime money back made months gas station get naive enough believe parents things worse ever entire family knows everything father gotten act together hes working trying make things right mothers hardcore drug addict continue pop pills found mothers crackpipe tonight apparently pills enough more theyve taken bills name possessions theyve sold money theyve taken ive given them even stole money bank account bank tucked away thought know about found bank card treated themselves beyond drugs money theft theres also fact im gay come family yet entire family knows made mistake coming grandmother gossip juicy keep herself mother knows im gay im open it thought accepted it seemed fine gave youre kid love matter what speech comfortable days ago heard talking dad me that disgusting dick sucking faggot choice wording said lot more pretty much says all cant take dealing more theres lot ive left out spending hour writing rewriting continually going character limit said screw tried give short could nowhere else go nothing left money possessions bank account overdrawn friends family members take in trust parents know more,1 +im piece shit one thing care cant ever find effort fix it gets bad makes feel like piece shit shut passesmy family im learning trade eventually move out im terrified happen zero social skills anxiety everything do time feel comfortable playing video games probably much past two weeks ive break got argument mom asked watch siblings like short notice for reason get really bad anxiety schedules changed suddenly even schedule nothing particular two weeks went fine mom dropped goes way anything knows gets stuff unnexpectedly comes feels like piece shit asks something clue thought much lately feel like fucking loser asshole making feel way im huge burden parents even ever voice it talk time when move out tinge optimism voices makes feel alone really makes feel like cant stand me cant stand honestly motivation even trade im learning told id could keep getting job would eventually lead moving out everyday tell what fuck life anything normal enough so almost like tick anything bad happens brain instantly thinks fucking kill yourself myself cant stop matter much try honestly im starting seriously think it like me like me honestly wouldve done long time ago siblings born move might become disconnected long enough edit lol even nobody sub wants anything cuz im fucking mistake,1 +give reaaon itwhats fucking point im alone ill always alone one gives shit good person are one ever see good you whats point this im convinced born suffer die alone love give care means nothing swear im trying good person help homeless whenever can try break fights listen need someone listen them care everyone way fucking much what everythings always goddamn fucking same broke year old long distance relationship turned toxic end hopes might find someone whos actually able me one ever tries see good me know im ugly fucking fat whatever fuck am im bad person swear keep going im always going alone one ever love me wish could get hug single hug thats need ill die without it theres hope left,1 +finally found foolproof way itit quick almost painless to godspeed everyone,1 +please please please beg give actual good reasons stay go itplease,1 +anyone chill enough play overwatch qpcomp group pc im looking dudedudette play overwatch with im pc blah blah blah usually play comp high silver im gud takers,0 +need helpi realizing point anything life one nothing going right life ever since started college years ago getting strong urges end life scary know im impulsive person one day might follow through know need see therapist every time tell mom understandi feel im better deal,1 +diazepamdo think x mg pills diazepam plus alcohol induce comatose,1 +wish didnt existits im another night sleep much coming different angles parents narcs gone contact severely codependent also married narc children relinquished rights fear would damage like damaged feel stuck im emotionally like completely checked dgaf anymore ive looked going dual diagnosis center cost prohibitive figures,1 +talk outive struggling past months nearly attempted october planning go garage guilt thought ruining fiances car deal top funeral preparations thing stopped me im struggling today really badly thoughts like way pull essentially guilting myself fiance close graduating years needs finish couple months classes now leave wouldnt able finish classes hed distracted push back graduation another year cat special diet pain ass make im one knows make it want anyone else that want inconvenience anyone want here want this want disappoint anyone else already have days like im alive weird sense duty im tired want anymore need advice different ways talk im becoming numb guilt,1 +really need someone talk toplease something terrible betrayed friend wrote confession earlier feel worse know im selfishly wallowing cant help myself im damn pathetic please someone talk this,1 +military redflag need helpso ive usaf years say goodbye countless times time different met someone made happy every time sawheard made happiest guy ever im going typical airman marries like her got orders korea wanted enjoy much possible left want love cant ive say goodbye friends family countless times hurts much hate military much drink ton everyday wish could die cause amount nothing cant love anyone move place place make friends moment nothing ever last served country end day im another body want passively die dont want commit redflag cause dont want go hell from believe want die honorably ive thought redflag countless times us military isnt seems im excellent janitor outside job skills pls help,1 +bit puzzle lot artsy lynch crowd tend try write kind meaningless crude side project lynchs like lynch passing gas real pieces film art well may fart one intriguing farts catch whiff embarrassed admit enjoybr br dumbland distilled beyond art aspects modern life laugh it took seriously would go nuts hook it smell it taste it feel agonies unreasoning stupidities express medium choose thats called art art dumb dumbland,0 +makes sensei dont anyone goals motivation anything talents skills social skills whatsoever nothing makes happy self esteem list goes on feel bad people dont know try help feels like nothing working dont want die sounds scary also dont want live horrible life makes sense really nothing hard see isnt answer,1 +finalization workingim alcoholic stage know never know know im sure felt feel im coming free cant break cycle leave behind beautiful partner kids leave behind estranged ex son leave behind lot people overlooked shunned including parents siblings look here comforting explaining strangers judge keyboard warriors weak emotional thats curse packets nurofen tablets it worry anymore relief brain relief,1 +cant live world like thisi due self let periodontitis get bad humiliation fear dentist yell me teeth start falling probably within year ive brushed teeth used mouth wash years floss think necessary one people missing teeth find good woman looking like monster wont would rather dead wonder everyone saying me least im dead hear comments think it good future someone like world wife family good job theres point here,1 +really temporary problempeople say redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem ongoing years still think fixed cant even imagine life without feeling constantly lonely tired frustrated,1 +redflagdepression antidepressants generally good place every often get really low moods last days more less nothing seems help normal usually go away motivation feel anxious really low mood feel like end really want pass constantly google things reasons might happening blue happen anyone else tips getting ruts feeling days,1 +stories reminiscent leopold loeb case may find movie entertaining cast includes robert culpwith stephen caffrey garrison hershberger college studentsbr br peter falk usual self pretending tricked precocious students caffrey longtime companion buried alive excellent menacing roles basically two frat buddies become tired demanding parents expect nothing less academic perfection attendance best schools financed conform excellent scene wherein culp rakes caffrey coals gets low grade threatens cut trust funds caffrey later says friend i hate him want deadbr br all well beverly hills always excellent theme believe film came right menendez killings watch menedez killing beverly hills compare film may find interesting parallels,0 +polite way kill single fact stopped ending life time time again people always tell things get better there people care you latter seems correct people care me still gotten better try might cant get this ill weeks go without incident faintest hope things change one bad day im back edge end life chose take easy way out id hurting others process decided jump would sweep up shot myself would wipe brain wall taking life leave others bigger burden im selfish person really want die stop existing depart without hurting anyone never existed first place option really know seek gain posting here get standard your life meaning there people help you you bad situation random people ive never met though ill probably gain even less devaluing people like that im live parents siblings never went highschool got ged im college sophomore despite loving family ive never able connect anyone deeper level ive always felt adverse toward people different feel disgusted people similar me actively push people away often notice actions affect others around me lot problems gone undiagnosed untreated long im sure bad really is bouncing apathetic suicidal day day good sign im honestly disgusted myself cant commit anything cant make opinions when theyre unpopular ones taste everything trash whole childhood growing specialed outcast among outcasts bullied felt like deserved it nobody ever took side stood one got punished may cherry picking struggle remember things childhood traumatic way parents removed school th grade nearly killed worst bully school friends help him teachers stood watched stopped moving finally pulled him im still haunted day school closed years later inhuman treatment students little late damage done suppose venting make feel slightly better somethings going ruin mood soon enough spent way long editing this,1 +cant trust peopleand going lead death wife talking guy facebook thanking supportive supportive what bring me husband support through ex wife started cheating me hell trust people literally want track kill him myself screw world hell may taken many pills tonight try get sleep may wake tomorrow oh well ive shitty years planet fucking matter me maybe take pills sitting right there big deal l ready talking guy obviously filling hole fill wife cause im obviously crappy husband run him fuck all im sure even care anymore,1 +attempt overdose last nighti took methocarbamol mg pills with melatonin help sleep attempt die sleep woke extreme drowsiness nausea parents think norovirus enough kill me lbs helps,1 +every reason happybut im not every day think ending life im engaged wonderful man love much moved great new place promising careers financially secure supportive parents honestly know things starting going downhill least think know when early dropped masters degree went existential crisis following years hopping jobs getting paid peanuts gaining lot weight putting strain health relationship may landed current job fantastic following month grandmother passed away decade circling drain longer recognising anyone december started weight loss programme successful lost kg earlier year estranged halfbrothers pancreatic cancer turned terminal died two months later may july proposed partner years said yes last month best friend killed traffic accident fault cant tell fianc hopeless powerless terrified feel hes already hell feel incredibly guilty whenever much tell feel bit blue hes already everything would feel selfish telling somehow enough also feel terrible hiding fact sometimes want leave along everyone else deserve this cant tell parents mother manic depressive refuses treatment prejudice father already heartbroken loss estranged son who blamed gay despite fact mother one initiated divorce estrangement another son suddenly decided renounce family without telling us why effectively already lost two four children bear threaten loss youngest daughter too ive told therapist underplay feel evident im coping seem alarmed blame him know need time heal even cant get deaths im family leave want waste annual leave sick leave processing feelings like stereotypical woman im worried dont ill end psychiatric hospital something selfinflicted worse dead im utterly miserable wits end know do im desperate relief kind crushed guilt even thinking love love me,1 +wish functional family argue every day unbearable ugh,1 +today seventeenth birthday mostly spent alonemy seventeenth birthday today predicted quite lonesome one went school forced smile peers friends acknowledged birthday not feel entitled it school went work forced smile coworkers customers served get wrong things happened today made smile coworkers told happy birthday even sang me brought birthday card balloon shift customers told happy birthday really it that sort came home depressive tired trance like usually do party anything friends that special conditions kind know hate seemed entitled guess wish felt wanted appreciated birthday once friends even play game me something usually always together anyway busy least said were end day yes people acknowledge existed birthday still ended coming home alone depressed nothing else day really changing im still old depressed lonely loser always am nobody seemed care much usual could tell everybody said nice things obligation birthday could tell really care again guess expected anything always expect something go way once still get disappointed always ends favor maybe im selfish though know wish somebody loved join house get surprised friends family balloons streamers cake stuff let know care proud making far guess commodities like soul contract ampxb im done whining though know tons people way worse me wish things different thanks reading commenting do cheers everyone,1 +preston waters years old boyhas problems parents brothers specially money issues crazy house rulessince brothers always stole saved money parents neglect wishes one awful day preston riding bicycle day villain storyquigley trying scape police accidentally ran car prestons bike needing far away police quigley gives hurry check cover damages prestons bike problem was blank check preston clever boy decides high price check million dollars money gives preston things always wished for like mansion poollots toys even limousine problems start begin fbi quigley wants know money is making preston hard situation facing many problemsbr br this movie one favorites childhood ,0 +allowed use snoo profile pic another site want know illegal anything,0 +problem movie rode coattails screated concept comic books could done camp ie s batman show tv movie thus combat sequences subtitles come on cluelessly unromantic doc savage he uncomfortable around women pulps idiot monk mayfair nightsheet a scene guaranteed give nightmares several nights totally hokey ending secondary bad guy encased gold like herve villechez posing oscar statute theyre booming sousa march scores tinkly little funny music undercuts much dramabr br even such movie isokay fun stays serious accurate representation pulps except monk mentioned before hes hugely muscled obese long tom supposed pale scrawny guy attitude paul gleason inexplicable scarfbr br the green death sequences instance remarkably gruesome something id recommend children close feel pulps writers producers get right get right ill give thatbr br but producers done doc loving care scripting of say reeves first two superman movies think might then think problem movies schizophrenic theres definite sense trying s homage theyre also trying give heroes must camp attitude batman created one gets impression sober pulpstyle first draft someone came said hey lets make funny worked batman show years agobr br but doc lives on thanks earl macrauch buckaroo banzai macrauch aint homage doc savage movie man truly demented series actually gets tv allegedly midseason doc savage updated s live more,0 +guys whats weirdest dream ever had ill start upon time withered leafless autumn tree two arm like projections three sharp long branches man passing by apprehended tree tree asked do geometry box man heard legend autumn tree dishonestly replied no tree said very well then shall pass tree let man go now another man passing by like previous man stopped tree asked question him man foolish honest fellow replied yes geometry box tree proceeds stab man long branches wolverinestyle kills spot turn,0 +new project idea index wikipedia pages look rteenagers spooktober want find words leave word comment section done using program making rn,0 +im male thanks awards,0 +pee pee pretty cool think id like coochie better idk seems fun except periods,0 +wouldnt care less someone died right front unless close friend family member pretty much dont care human life anymore horrible society honestly someone talks someone dead pretend care point,0 +today learned whatever happens masturbate menthol shampoo even try,0 +something,0 +im backyou know shit gets real back rredflagwatch last time guys made comments saying you me you friend pm well talk guys know well much bullshit is guys cheer mental case like move next person even stick around different actually able talk person physically communicate them find setting computer screen desperate attempt get help hoping time different time actually help long run friend,1 +girlfriend years left facebook im insecureshe emotionally made manipulated meinto solely dependant her ive long years mom died guilt grief nobody came around id notice little things like shed tell nobody else cares bunch things along lines nobody care me slowly started fully believe recently blaming stress im going psychtherapy trying better best can broke today facebook asking tell itll okay woke nightmare i get night terrors really bad nightmares possible ptsd conflicting illness feel really suicidal right im starting comprehend maybe blame pressed issue typing simple words box happened im lost really want live anymore,1 +doingi actually cut shaving razor yesterday nothing couple tiny cuts deep enough bleed hurt im disappointed feel like failure showered month brush teeth anymore hardly talk people never feel like belong social situation thing enjoy anymore looking weird porn late night think hurting people like ive tried overdose know try again current medicine would probably work time,1 +im gonna make sucide note im gonna leave thisi hope anymore want criticised anyone anymore plan want say goodbye someone anyone want say goodbye to im gonna say goodbye guys want f chat,1 + hours reddit rookie numbers,0 +dont know people think bad movie got pretty good plot good action change location harry hurt either sure offensive gratuitous movie like that eastwood good form dirty harry liked pat hingle movie small town cop liked dirty harry see one lot better dead pool ,0 +anyone wanna chat need emotional support open too hey there bored well too hit dms bored together,0 +solid black white slapstick comedy dark but hopelessly contrived plot true crowd pleaser howling laughter as well rolling eyes disbeliefbr br its old psychopath train story big importance thriller portion film almost seems merely counterweight antics great comedian robert gustafsson hapless nearly incurably optimistic soldier invokes compassion schadenfreude fashion almost rivals chevy chasebr br the thing film appealed most however wedged improbable hilarious accurately portrayed everyday joys nuisances train travel add welcome sense realism recognitionbr br this thriller comedy admittedly borrowed suspense hitchcock should opinion watched comedy value which high indeed besides gustafsson lars ambles solid performance delightfully cynical misogynist worth price admission alonebr br heartily recommend,0 +girl omegle called cute chatted discord tag like half hour gave snap cuz wer vibing chilling talking abt music that like bit sent pic sent mine started hyping like frr conplimented hair dimples called cute genuinely theee best compliment got weeeeks ion know mann felt like sharingg ahahh,0 +toi apologize advance use insensitive language first time writing matter familiar terms lost relative redflag year ago painful days ago heard another news high school friend scares much might lose redflag scares especially relative took life one saw signs protect ones care for know loved one danger late good reading non verbal signs strong tendency think everything okay makes blind subtleties would help someones pain,1 +get itwhy let die why fucking get it cant kill me every day gets worse add nothing world why cant tell anyone lock psych ward again get it dont get life cant life im losing fucking mind cant tell anyone cant even drink get altered state mind im young hate existence hate everything myself feel like animal road got ran over guts hanging it yet still alive tremendous pain everyone keeps driving by one helping it,1 +therapist decided longer person therapy even though feel unsecure privacy safety dad told shoot myself plan using extension cord random electrical device find it tell life worth living please not heard all mentally tired exhausted dad told get gun shoot myself considering it,1 +could send picture failing something youtube video dont show face secs something either dm discord the holy sheep examples sharpening pencil breaks missing basked ball shot burning toast etc thanks much,0 +one miss mei never mean anything anyone every time ive tried reach never worked out trash everyone else deserve this,1 +want hang home cuz depressing want die public place either cuz want give trauma random passerby best place hang yourself,1 +many movies people returning home wars cope the war home worth seeing portraying vietnam vet jeremy collier emilio estevez trouble connecting texas family much movie likely tense up nothing prepare ends getting revealedbr br part makes movie good gives viewer feeling texas generation gap jeremys parents bob martin sheen maurine kathy bates clearly problem sons attitude war rejection americanism sister karen kimberly williams uncertain side dinner neutralitybr br so americans may never able fully get vietnam war movie probably help us look seriously affected many people emilio estevez certainly good job directing also starring corin nemec carla gugino,0 +failed attempti tried overdosing yesterday didnt work let hospital planning kill asap advice how it get hospital shouldnt etc honestly point want someone care,1 +best film one best s yes rip goodfellas saying goes good poets borrow great poets steal pta stolen brilliantly best plus added genius touches own gave ten which rare mebr br the main reason commenting though cause could rave night people seen vhs standard issuewhat thinking deserves full screen experience look ratio shot in saw times cinema bothered watch videobr br nuff said,0 +gives genuine criticizm wtf stop victim blaming women marginalized u misogynist stop oppressing us u part patriarchy please shut,0 +time goim really done it dont understand anymore everything acted fine long time really cant take more drunk everyday numb pain wanting hurt people afraid get house job messed school keep failing driving lessons girl going rave tomorrow probably cheating something wanna leave cant live without her hate her seriously never bore fucking drug problem thinking fun going raves leaving home cutting trying drink death im sick shit wish everything wouldve different would get heaven live happy life cant like that dont know wrong yeah probably end it think hell less pain here honestly wanna leave planet im sorry read this really hope rave party worth fucking death caused bs ignoring feelings yeah might little crazy different try best hope pray pray god still let heaven,1 +spoilers review edited due word limitbr br the horror horror marlon brando apocalypse apocalypse redux br br the sentence famous heres looking you kid are talkin me may force you ill back means little oneliners spoken lingers air importance meaning go unnoticed might drive viewers nuts may never find answer horror unless rewatch film try pay close observation every single framebr br what exactly line dialogue mean horror spoken reality war reality moral men easily corrupted turn inborn instincts kill fellow beings without sign guilt capt willard martin sheen stands dying col kurtz marlon brando end film the horrorthe horror realization willards corruptness mercilessly killed man cold blood part assignment typical hollywood ending cases character gains something whether emotionally physically mentally three willard gains loses gains knowledge lost morals shocking endingbr br apocalypse now francis ford coppolas tribute artistic side filmmaking film wholly different the godfather hallucinogenic visually dazzling ode guilty side human nature first seems realistic becomes strange symbolic and end original unique perspective spiritual side warfare much film vietnam war film war within usbr br at first appear another war film captain willard sheen assigned army lieutenant a young harrison ford assassinate renegade american colonel named kurtz brando hiding somewhere vietnam hoard troops less act slavesbr br willard carries mission with extreme prejudice heading boat along four soldiers including boat captain chief albert hall chef frederic forest young larry fishburne who later went appear morpheus the matrixbr br apocalypse now many ways modern update homers odyssey main character willard carries journey meets array original strange characters including lt col kilgore robert duvall strange fetish surfing stoned photographer dennis hopper whose lively gestures mannerisms compared much lesser jeremy davies the million dollar hotel one worst films ever seen davies failed make connection audience hopper does like poetic vibe willard kurtz like interpreter going back forth speaking foreign languages case translating kurtz willard although im sure kurtz needs translation willardbr br many films lucky enough one two memorable scenes lines apocalypse now many kilgore descending upon vietnam village playing wagners ride valkyries remains one remembered scenes film history sharpness it brutality it ironic tone it also sense playfulness kilgore kneels beach says i love smell napalm morningit smells like victory crack smilebr br i lie you apocalypse now strange film exactly easiest thing analyze end may frustrate viewers understand marlon brandos significant speeches comes to really matters film dark nature human psyche horror realization war effects war itself kurtz says you right kill me right judge me brandos character kurtz left audience judge many nave viewers may appear crazy loon whose power got head francis ford coppola trying get across fighting vietnam kurtz realized great it bad others it walking devastated villages eventually comes realize nave ones living lives fools paradise totally nave surroundings possible misfortunes hit seeing unlucky vietnamese are kurtz realizes easily could struck something easily could end like people around him also realizes people people abandoned morals left door many people think horror one thing two kurtz horror reality nave reality wars impact upon men willard murders kurtz hears kurtzs dying words realizes too realizes effects war see many soldiers sense right wrong makes realize horror war man done him horrorbr br stars br br ,0 +girl class asked and said really cute nice people also need anyone early send screens chat friend told everyone getting bullied think thats bs tf wpuld get bullied like someone yeah thats,0 +feel like deserve livefell love best friend like back was already suffering mental health issues diagnosed anything except autism im pretty sure borderline personality disorder cut regularly still sometimes frequently anyways like back felt like killing wonder have took drinking decided get girl thatd hitting ease pain got comfortable relationship months kind stopped talking bff painful drunk texting every night point considered ghosting me bff came back weeks ago feelings immediately returned thought love girl im currently apparently im not started realizing want her im terrified alone want hurt her wants marriage dont wants kids dont nothing lines us besides fact submissive im attracted apparently submissive fragile im scared hurting her soo anyways bff came back like saying sorry jumbled mess im freaking out and keeps going crush turned asshole ghosted him im like that sucks im sorry start talking more week goes said small crush me elated like seriously felt like id waiting entire year this been want date right now wants take slow acceptable theres also fact that im relationship know this ive flirting bff every day felt guilty while id feeling fucking dead inside prior time actually happy bff then text entire night lmao know fucking stupid get upset over ended drinking lot like entire bottle vodka one sitting blacked apparently id drunk texted bff saying loved shit guess annoyed her talked day today ended sex girlfriend first time weeks instantly regretted it wanted throw up worst part know idolize bff meaning life nothing believe religion want die almost constantly im literally fucking years old fuck wrong me start dating bff im going regret days weeks feeling i got girl wears im going start feeling like shit want nothing her im narcissistic selfish deserve life want single without feeling like need companionship want single hurt anyone emotions decisions change whim every fucking time something happens literally fucking kill me ask born world want die im still suicidal know ill end killing either today next day depresses even more makes want kill even more literally dumbfuck stereotypical playboy ive many ex girlfriends cant remember them want stop feeling numb ampxb tldr guess im trying say is feel im chasing girls chased bff won excitement end go back feeling nothing mention point basically cheated extremely fragile girlfriend reason excitement wore want anything her im douchebag want die fucking kill me send death threats want deserve them,1 +said clothes look good today suit much,0 +hmm nice placement ampxb httpspreviewredditeklnpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffbdaffdbbfbb,0 +reminder go buy tongue scraper white tongue,0 +so happened hi everyone livestreamer desperate viewers twitch youtube advertise channels post doesnt get deleted profile play overwatch minecraft monfri nights whole bunch games weekends failed gain much traction far really need to stream hours month twitch youtube make art video edits twitch discoverability really trying get actual people could possibly interested hard venues permit advertising came asking give chance check out suck hate do id love hear improve thanks,0 +quick question dynamically allocate d array heap nonconst variables c,0 +imgur people mean uploaded pic face must set public something instantly pedos people commenting looks repeating trend lot people get harrassed online yes especially imgur,0 +ten words less describe film barbara stanwyck appealing great film wonderful except perhaps tackedon ending love happy endings anyway barbara stanwyck however platinumblonde golddigger amazing knows wants goes it film sexy excellent,0 +everything shitso landlord pestering move out last half year depressionanxiety gotten bad ive getting persistant fantasies cutting myself well lot concentration problems feeling fucked general back landlord finally accepted room somewhere else felt relatively ok it found today landlord basically screwing money would give moving went visit room found definitely way small accepted felt stuck current room deal pressure landlord good room packing found stuff care basically collection painttoolsmaterials something really space use new room ill glad get furniture fit clue id able paint build anything suppose firstworldproblems fuck mental issues building shit helps hold sanity first meeting psychologist last week first meeting psychiatrist second week march pills id get would probably take weeks work anyway honestly ive thought calling crisis center couple times last two weeks im supposed help now looking psychologist organisation crisis center basically told problems severe enough they get homeless people severe mental illness cases too yeah really nowhere go inside myself feel like want wreck making wrong decision stupid room everything going wrong kill myself thank god basically punish myself luckily psychologist said expected hes thinking diagnosis something personality exactly say yet one session suppose im completely crazy uniquely disabled something really feel fit categories treatment leaflet gave me general im kind sceptical treatment suppose point cant really get worse anything yeah fun ive never hurt myself honestly hope never will im getting closer closer something stupid either hurting destroying something else neither good idea im sure im writing wtf supposed it people talk family already talked couple times today im internet im scared suppose cause left alone ill mentally torture good reason anyway hope people better day am thanks reading,1 +dont think im gonna make thats right last time said much pussy pull redflag today planned everything way redflag would quick easy pills swallow thats all easier shooting jumping off probably painless redflag notes known always silent thats wanna go away silently without single noise wish gad gun though would beautiful way go blood stuff,1 +anyone else get annoyed teachers expect act like adult treat like little kid like make mind child adult dont assign word research essay get mad go bathroom without telling first,0 +cant deal anymorethis week worst experience life wife years left took year old children work filed custody child support im alone everything heart soul life best friend friend except brother talk people often person confided cant talk her bought house together everything kids sewn every memory im feeling pain ive ever felt one talk to friends whole lifes turned around multiple rifles guns sit loaded ready cant held head minutes breaking down cant want live here im lost clue handle this,1 +want endim tired everything rd th post here im tired always brink never actually anything almost got hospitalized december told wouldnt kill things get better year may nothings changed still cant transition yet im trans im still forced boy scouts im still crushed school not even hard classes finals hit like train sit around kinky shit online watch youtube cuz cant muster motivation anything else constantly humiliate socially cant finish anything miss meds daily etc etc would kill could parents still keeping knives throwing traffic sounds impractical want badly im tired everything im exhausted nothing gets better let die know fact anyone know irl sees im gonna get ass hospitalized again thought absolutely terrifies me yay stress,1 +people still getting rejected crushes seriously soda drink it,0 +desperate understand redflagso wanting kill self maybe years low desire years following desire kill self raging ive finally turned page chapter found ability cope things situation changed im still position whole time want everyone reads know matter bad situation is trust know hard be possable turn corner overcome all met guy named arthur burk got albums fixed me im conaidered one mentally healthy people family bring lot peace people around me,1 +want live anymore posted suicide post mf made depressed,1 +need helpi dont else say want explain dont want pity im worth cry sometimes work line im job site somehow one see ignore cry car home im going regret shit,1 +first time im rationalso ive messed everything life looked part time job call own want rich would gladly settle free time lower pay thing necessary degree part time jobs accountants couldve gotten degree time aware thing needed live life capable enjoying realize basically me thats im thinking simply ending know lies ahead simply made me accuse mocking serious intentions ive already attempted redflag twice back completely emotional wanted pain stop rescued time twice brings us here intentions serious feel urge it simply something pops mind feel like but rationally screwed big time late correct mistake past shitty high school degree worthless im old start university still worthy hired tax benefits employer basically screwed without experience,1 +finished drawing going post it realized pictures weekends rip its anything super impressive dumb little __ character use represent myself,0 +im concerned im going get liver damage mg paracetamolhi all know incredibly stupid year shit ive found back cold grim clutches depression earlier today phoned sick work argument mum due low mood sucking happiness situation ive part of know mean freaked out basically grabbed paracetamol could find grabbed beer fridge wrote note family friends have wolfed mg tablets breaking thinking itd mum sister going eat packets stopped guess morals pulled out tried throw many could toilet straight away sick even salty water managed get bit bile saw white residue solid tablets please anyone put mind rest know go hospital really ring anxiety preventing cant tell mum years since last attempt time break heart know lovely people offer help depression point something ive years im sort old friends depression relatively check take mitazapine get therapy every weeks social anxiety really bad lapse judgement ultimately regretted soon realised id started doing feel fine hours know liver damage failure etc take week present itself someone could please put mind rest danger realistically pose me asked friend works nurse said mgkg weight likely damage im kg pretty big guy know im way bellow threshold want upset family much danger realistically in drink fairly regularly drank past days due working christmas thanks advance lovely people gods work page,1 +figured play eve destruction barry mcguire thats one song internal library,0 +alone thoughts late night bipolar getting best,1 +every little fucking sets nowafter last years thought getting better turns stopped caring unknown reason started caring cant anything might piss else im deep end shut ffs fucking retard fuxk,1 +must succ vacuum cleaner haha funny get it succ edit thanks gold random stranger,0 +feel terrible past mistakesthere occasions club dancing girl took things far basically separate occasions extremely intoxicated dancing girl fingered way clothing touched breast couple seconds first couple times girl dancing seemed problem it even kissingmaking me made seem like somehow okay realize terribly wrong excuse actions idea possessed make think okay recent time year half two years ago may accidentally exposed girl dancing with although kissed well feel made uncomfortable presence general hurts genuinely care people last thing want hurt anyone friend escorted club yelled me immediately realized done wrong wish never done this feel like biggest scum face earth ive tried forgive actions dont feel deserve forgiveness,1 +think arabfunny think cool little bit confusionary cool,0 +guys im cute ok believe doubt actually cute owo im pretty sure everyone instantly fall love post face,0 +im loser virgin mid s world favor dieeven people may say otherwise people favor killing soon absolute loser work low paid job failed school im retard ive single friend entire life im also s tried dating made fun women especially made life shit growing up glad hear ive finally removed world blame honest ive different types therapy years nothing made even one second bearable must die ensure nobody acknowledge disgusting existence anymore kind thing die make sure cause pain disgusting existence trust me people knew child right treat like shit loser pathetic piece shit myself treat worthless turd anything better is im glad everybody knew treated like garbage garbage treated people even told kill myself agree wish could cause pain wanted die end life,1 +progressive rock playlist hello everyone made playlist yesterday favorite prog rock bands also enjoy prog rock want expand horizons give listen bands norway uk us expanding playlist time goes on point time hours long listen studying cleaning etc bands really enjoy fit vibe let know ill give listen maybe itll go tge playlist link playlisthttpsopenspotifycomplaylistqmitpmbahjtsuxqjcehsitwutggqzugyocpjhha,0 +quite accomplishment three stories filmed three different filmmakers could simultaneously insightful gay bisexual relationships struggles br br pool days awkwardness adolescence mutual attraction older man younger one story experience vulnerabilitybr br a friend dorothy portrays common dilemma many gay bisexual people experience point life intense attraction towards someone heterosexual sensitively examined story truly left feeling movedbr br the disco years shows another version nowin situation getting involved someone confused sexual orientation also terrified exposed anything straight empowering story us experienced betrayal hands sexually confused frightened person br br while three stories appeal anyone iota empathy towards others psychologically empower consider gay bisexual searching story uplifting unique way,0 +goodbyei dont know anymoreim spill every detail life hereso long story short cannot anymore ive stopped cutting long long time ago reason today broke shiny new razor blade think may done damage judging size puddle ive producedbut question iswhy even go help time nothing lefti feel fuzzy warm almostdespite fact arm becoming increasingly cold guess wanted say goodbye since one else listens,1 +im love egirl mom took away ps ive said many times live keep collecting every little slights insurrections constant pain every dimension,0 +want stop right nowevery single day night overthink everything analyze hate everything am dont know supposed get better honestly dont think ever will cant unthink thoughts realizations ive had want dont know how im tired feeling way burden wish never existed unfortunately did used scared death realized really dont know whats gonna happen die im going die eventually anyway fear much,1 +french guiana french guiana,0 +yeah crying sad cool ever listened really upbeat pumped music ya sad sitting like pumped up rather wierd feeling,0 +cant anymoreocd going kill even anything it im tired fighting everyday thankfully wasnt sent psych ward yesterday parents go sleep im going drive hours away kill myself pain over,1 +sure allowed feel free delete notso trying reach many people possibly lately dark moments sometimes honestly need friend many not choosingpeople see assume im bitch wondering was anyone else situation anyone wants real life friends meet occasion talk to maybe go walks maybe make groups location that could helpful people again allowed apologize figured worth try even one person interested make new friend able help someone worth me name jennifer live nh anyone would interested this helped it etc please leave comment pm me ,1 +death sounds goodi lot happened past years worst watching year old boy get half crushed car lay dying stared directly eyes kept saying help couldnt anything watched life drain rulers length away ever since something changed feel like could kill pretty easily also feel could kill others contemplated decapitating family members every day past years cried happy even got angry inevitably kill one day im pretty sure im psychopath haha seriousness life boring looking forward level c,1 +random question top songs mine for longest time total eclipse heart creep la vie en rose aint rest wicked bored figured could good way start conversation,0 +never heard mishima watched film although parts little tedious still find drawn watch repeated box beginning film told celebrated japanese writer behaves like lunatic commits seppuku public film progresses gently inducted twisted logic mishimas mind stages life presented four chapters chapter blend two contrasting narratives first continues story scenes mishimas life appear black white second narrative adaptation scenes novel staged like play filmed vivid colours different novel staged chapter chapter narrative returns present mishima proceeds towards eventual ritual suicide means drama tension maintained endbr br i suspect many people find film boring pretentious arthouse respect that film people want action strong story line hand kind person relishes opportunity penetrate mind bizarre man watching life story told collage beautiful pictures set music philip glass love it loved itbr br ,0 +college going happen ive made decisioni fucked bad fault im going college get stay home go back community college spare money goes bills mom cant pay food get stay miles civilization people might want spend time with make friends anyway since im socially broken cant form intelligent conversation fuck even sentences around people last thing look forward to left entire world give hope maybe things start looking soon happening me im going trapped going way always been well know what im fucking going take it im going live like anymore know when ive decided im committing redflag soon time suits it,1 +yall ever see innocent old lady walking thing damn wanna sucker punch lol,0 +trying find meme template im trying find template cartoon character chopping last piece tree thats barely holding standing trunk,0 +better without medoes anyone ever feel like disappeared everything would better without ,1 +havent done single assignment almost class since day one ya boi got permission redo em all theyre due tomorrow midnight around assignments one class hours assignment classes half hour assignments one class hours work got done today how dont know did possible believe you pass classes too pull back hellhole crawl way whatever hole youre in ill toss ladder need it dm need kinda help,0 +experience shared subreddits months agothis story happened valentines day two nights ago commited redflag took pills swallowed went sleep simply cant handle anymore need money cant get pressure sides great went that pills potent one pill almost killed day took accident anyway woke morning like nothing happened time usually wake up didnt explanation happened disappointed im still alive checked pill case indeed took them body felt normal got took sat there waiting start working no nothing happened still im here something keeping here something allow go but small chain events managed borrow money needed took care problem time being still need find ways get somehow since redflag longer option ,1 +ive spent last yrs suffering spend another as lay here try sleep avail thoughts life deserve atrocities forced live life am lost entire family lost nearly friends stuck around more fareweatherbenificialselfish assholes ive tried kill damn times failed miserably back losing grandfather father figure life decided wanted join him took pills not going say ones well yeah im asshole ended er deaths bed unfortunately know ended up tried jump golden gate bridge ended biggest mind fucks time months ago tried hang myself remember blacking going completely limp woke floor redflag hotlines joke im sure help people text crisis line sometimes wait hour time person gets phone feel im talking robot emotion ability speak really feel fear police coming snatch up suffer severe depression bipolar ptsd anxiety stress ive recently diagnosed ptsd learning curve getting harder harder survive day soon absolutely zero died tomorrow anybody come claim body bury me would sit morgue weeks stick pauper grave number friends care enough let alone show funeral one heard anybody tell love almost years horrible feeling knowing completely forgotten life knowing nobody cares enough tell love you much hurts helps fight never ending battle life death pray helicopter airplane cement truck meteor comet comes crashing roof hitting me luck id probably survive head partial torso right shoulder redflag death two things dear me wish knew life love guess thats life right live learn whether love loved optional,1 +still feel slight hope things get better mostly feel empty angry helplessly depressed depending time day fucking years old much trauma person could ever see spending rest life dead cannot even fake okay convincingly enough people dumb enough care worry pain every single day life cannot go one day without flashback redflag attack panic attack body mess trying hold absolutely feel slipping want stop pretending,1 +cant anything nobody wants anything me im completely utterly without single shred hope pointim disabled family members stop it friends scattered wind employers tell cant job trained professionals belittle me even things used enjoy doing cant even anymore im fucking vegetable nothing nobody turn end sight honestly literally way out seems like literally reason keep living cant even call hotline report police ruins life even more im totally completely fucked fuck shit,1 +shoulda stayed wathis city almost fucking disgusting people,1 +dealing public hard makes everything worsefreaking hate people sometimes,1 +return approuchingi happy long time im managed fuck everything up never friends kid nothing changed loneliness crippling even since pushed away one friend manage get how one turn to friends family dad died months ago mothers mental physical health getting worse daily nothing do got response one uks best universitys weeks back conditional offer grades low currently able work mentality every day think redflag whats point anything die soon anyway things going get better me going university last hope deadlines approaching motivation feeling like ive already given would easier end right yet small part wants normal happy work live stopped taking medication two months ago stock piling it grounded ready go glass hour ago emotionless whilst preparations feeling fear believe god sure scaring thinking end know im doing feel ashamed writing this wanted go silently fear much fear,1 +gender simply vibe shit,0 +im yr old trans aspie feel completely lost isolated worldi want die anything deserve life isolation loneliness loved parents two years ago hope though matter reaching people last years years illusion collasped see hope future worst feel like hope lead pain future chances go astronomically low never asked enter world like am owe nothing least continued existence ive seriously trying think ways bolster resolve go it,1 +anyone else hate social awkwardness tv showsmovies pls tell im one cringes kinda shit,0 +mom suffered years shitty life brother died cancer young age dad complete drunk asshole friends anyone even live for know store me continued pain kill restart better life kill myself,1 +requirements girlfriend girl optional,0 +want help social sciences homework teacher social sciences gave us homework supposed find least people fill anonymous poll topic choosing this minehttpsformsgleijiweqnsgeujigb would help lot filling perhaps even sharing already shared apologise promise become spammy idealy want share post also know flair it sorry misflaired it thank you,0 +want die hard im living constant painim pain starting feel physical life sucks getting worse hate thinking everyone living best lives hate deal misery every day day long suffer severe depression body dismorphia eating disorders im good anything personality sucks body sucks well worse im even able decent human relationships im basically fucking loser ive trying get help much can even professionals thing keep telling everything temporary everything get better sooner later even though ive dealing years believe them doubt really understand even though keep explaining explaining anyways everyday fucking torture absolutely end everything soon fucking tired also say hang everything get better it bullshit happen say that life actually beautiful try just positive uu let tell something fuck you soon find something effective end fucking misery im gonna one stop me,1 +whats quickest way kill myselfim cant like get gun shit like that thanks,1 +posting everyday get girlfriend day day nothing today walked steps km posts keep getting removed maybe list list thing today day nothing today walked steps km day nothing make long list thing return soon worries today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km actually impressive walked inside house day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked inly steps km much today day nothing wrong u jcttt sadly list thing backat least partially day guess what still nothing day weeks day day hai make video bricks day nothing day fuck sorry hmin delay day days untill day still nothing day aaaaaaaa day day nothing day day day guy getting hot me day boys it rasputin million views club day celebrate day celebrate a th aniversary independence iceland kingdom denmark b th aniversary occupation estonia ussr c th aniversary battle vienna american civil war wtf vienna american civil war heard this d th aniversary death pope adeudatus day yesterday chose d im gonna celebrate th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day like wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one trillion day one quadrillion day one quintillion day one sextillion haha sex this today first walked km m up bicycled km usually struggle both day one septillion day one octillion day one nonillion day i love apache attack helicopters cute day day twjgwuwviqheiqniberuwkgueheikwgwiq day piece dead fly wall bed years now day screw fell chair worried day want provoke someone badly rn day qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm day fuck magic eye bot day leg hurts say leg still hurts day need electric shock rn day day day day day day day day day day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing day day day day day ,0 +fuckjust fuck everything wish could explain properly cant course cant everything cringy fool still this still going years surely thats enough know working im getting worse better matter do slowly surely always get worse im completely cut rest humanity sometimes try figure exact time passed point return could still recovered years ago id quicker tell people depression years ago anxiety became depression watched colours drained world already late even back then really matter late now fuck it ill dead within month reckon,1 +teenagers logo hey yall im overweight friend also subreddit wondering could make different body types teenagers logo,0 +officially dancing queen seventeen today bitchesssss young sweet,0 +hero time boys official sisters gonna dming mutants masterminds campaign ive already got character made itll starting week two ill keep updated,0 +tired dysphoria wanting born different body tired hating scars would cut world shitty tired feeling responsible mothers death tired flashbacks tired many triggers tired constantly dissociated feel nonliving wish true tired scared damn time scared worrying happy happen next tired attachment amp abandonment issues tired of everything tired this,1 +overcome anxiety depressionim sitting crying type this life hit new low consistently like every week im job moved across country boyfriend im anxious learn drive find job like told would made group friends half longer like mental health distorted personality toxic one found tonight im trying hold together found boyfriends work wont give time anymore cousins wedding back home get plane fly first time next week im terrified dont know do theres much going want scream cry tendencies harm urges never strong dont know else type bad like beyond bad worse long time ive struggled since age really dont know anymore boyfriend asks whats wrong cant even find words say dont want feel responsible fixing making better want stop existing could kill without hurting family boyfriend would really dont want keep living life like this,1 +anybody there need someone talk right nowi need talk anyone please message time talk want feel alone know void fast approaching,1 +help mei dont know whats wrong getting worse last night hotel room crying feel like failure losing good job had mean end wake today feel amazing feel like future good know later ill bad mindset again like light switch im middle aged working guy idea happening me,1 +talking mother last nail thisi called mother ask bucks agreed tried open interrupted said you made choices long time ago revenge redflag mean feel bad commit redflag mom said me least last thing told loved her figure go get frozen pizza something tomorrow wish could get real pizza could committing redflag keep things perspective redflag big deal people care about people care waiting it once disappoint,1 +unsurehi really sure im aiming posting here struggled depressed adultadolescent life get people saying say like think good things could happen future etc time every moment feels like constant emotional pain anxiety head constant strong inhibits ability function correctly alot time people also say think friends families reactions etc idk thought overrides terrible feel time sorry breaks rules thanks reading wondering anyone maybe new ideas basic things could maybe push right direction convince away suicidal thoughts,1 +cant find reason keep goinglife thrown wrench toolbox full wrenches me due event suffer ptsd depression anxiety paranoia night terrors get average hours sleep night years now hear voice see sometimes paranoia distrust caused end marriage divorce left name moved friends another state opened one woman one two roommates something similar loved one another ended pushing away shes since left sleeping roommate night horrific hearing them job easy stressing poorly employees do cant handle all ive since far surpassed threshold want end all motivation life whatsoever im robot autopilot wake or simply get dont sleep go work go home lay down waiting end sometime dont want kill know hurt family friends also want die want hit car choke something die lose control car poor conditions someone rob end shooting me ive keep going all,1 +grandpas hospital pains arm hyperventilating drove er stay night doctors think hell fine theres still little bit anxiety hanging back head,0 +so yesterday car accident definitely fault clonazepam sure could reason ser car comming lost around floor house broken know stop feeling like crap driving since years first time hace accident feel useless irresponsible incapable normali hate depression feeling like crap,1 +surrounded people alone cant relate others desperately wish couldi want someone get me someone know long time still someone knows better likes me fake agenda constantly inevitably mess people tiring stressful cant even pretend relate understand that something learn explicitly learned now years old im literally never going learn it connect others relationships person get wish could im energy anxiety trying pretend im person,1 +gonna long rant feel free skip wanti feel fucking hopeless wrote redflag note months ago parents found it went therapy went talk it said starting seeing therapist so months ago about didnt believe fine took er next day could get doctor get antidepressants parents dont trust alone anymore theyre afraid might myself and feel like getting better im suicidal again like really wanted fucking die last night annoying didnt means it honestly dont even know im like really suicidal makes sense cause feel like really wanted die wouldve tried now right really staring pills thinking it scared im still school im afraid survive attempt ill thrown mental hospital allowed finished middle school maybe get held back another year idk also dont want wait school ends die feel like im overthinking honest cause want go come back alive cause try works dont worry this again dont know ill make it cause parents obviously ask why therapist would mad telling suicidal awhile now friends might hate trying leave them think im attention whore could go on dont know life even worth living know is this aching pain emptiness nothing fill it feeling something missing im hollow idea eats inside out hate everything self image constant sadness pain one else see pretend fine tiring im sick feeling like every day drains me point life temporary reason get bed everyday whats expected me try part society go school learn id rather die im tired much effort takes normal things like get bed take shower things people without second thought takes much mental energy id rather not id rather stare ceiling feel nothing may seem like lot every single fucking day gets one point feel like im loose grip reality dont want life like this feel like deserved happy would happy right im not want die dont want spend life broken shell person dont know long ill state hating every square inch body long pain last long thoughts tell dont deserve happy deserve pain fucking shitty person am dont want live life like person feel like itd better made everyone happy die im planning next week might much fucking pussy haha,1 +confusedi hate think im negative dont want get better someone talk say need love accept things reason cant way think like im trapped mind mind convinced im even going successful life sometimes feel like im making feel way dont know anyone would want that hating mind well cannot even look naked long period time feel disappointed theres lot feel wrong want know anyone else feel way,1 +idk questioning life ignore want sorry gonna bunch questions parallel universe theory true would creator universe would overseeing one humans optimal species earth would beaten animal wasnt endangered universe infinitely expanding would collapse maybe already wouldnt know shored light fastest would take long time go unknown distance speed light also black homies cool ok peace ill continue tomorrow,0 +seen since yet still cant get head stop recommending people find shows impression madebr br just wonderful storybr br i hope see stair least personbr br i know much mr petersen movie seen previous works subtle acting impressed think portrayal grissom csi shows same knows enough let character shine instead actor shining makes much better actorbr br i cant remember enough poor accents comment must say always enjoyed barbara hershey roles well thought also phenomenal job movie,0 +tf teens even thinking theyre cute enough date shit like always like everyones skinnier cuter funnier would anyone want especially young like barely confident enough fucking catch pokemon ds lmao,0 + people laughed redflag attemptyeah,1 +need advice almost year cant anything feeling sad worthless cant even easy task like taking trash energy live pandemic slows im gonna need school yo overwhelm something bad point post tell parents need see doctor this know theres something wrong im scared theyll think im joking move on,0 +im feeling extremely lonely cant find anyone enjoys much them give help,0 +dae feel extra suicidal drivingill driving realize easily could drive road ditch hit tree kill myself,1 +wish wasnt lazy redflagi cant handle life anymore want end requires energy dont have dont care laziness could kill id happy anyways nothing else say,1 +around two weeks since mothers death keep blaming people treated mom badly feeling empty wanted dissapear since years ago feelings come go or pretend feel thing life sucks wish never born world knowing thing impossible hurt even more live life empty thing chest everyday never wanted end life today imagine scenario pain gone drink high dose sleeping pills need help this today browsed high dose sleeping pills,1 +want exist anymore traveling going scenic views used help bit want wake tomorrow all cat reason still alive hes mean,1 +understand comments focus mcconaughey never interesting film actor br br the best part movie writing wit alfred molina patrick mcgaw make unusual comic duo definitely stock types although one cant say characters well developed make less funnybr br the version saw hdnet subtitles spanish dialog certainly problem use spanish gives authenticity br br a underrated movie judging unusually low score imdb members given it thought fun interesting worth least lot slick movies higher scores making big money box office much less interesting,0 +deadass wants kiss kiss u rn lips go date u mall go spencers hot topic plz,0 +you poem lonely girl roams halls creating art empty stalls hear voice amongst herd turn head hear words magnetic feeling stronger fear cusp sides relieve tears stare wonder analytical bliss something miss care kept spot dark place lot ask talk hesitate speak outlook myself remains bleak,0 +suicidal wifemy wife currently suicidal smart plans leaving middle night find place wilderness die far know cant force stay would forceful confinement know do help,1 +highly original decent movie brave move involved care well puttogether movie time fact eddie murphy something nonformulaic know happen next makes favorite mine wish movies imaginative one rather old formula entertainment,0 +sandwich walks pub bar man says sorry stopped serving food ,0 +looking forwardi going kill saturday im going take time selfish write why think problems started age two father walked life never came back never wanted anything me mom single close five got man physically verbally abused year knowing happening decided marry him kid half brother always made feel left like belong feel like ive never really family result im gay hard time coming terms this hated want gay struggled prayed nothing ever changed around age fell love someone thought best friend lead years eventually ended years later told kill upset string broken promises course try kill knew nothing next day die sent text saying done day attempted redflag get cop knocking door leads hospitalized im highschool develop schizophrenia im put several mood stabilzers anti depressants anti psychotics makes life living hell sedate never helped hallucinations spent good three years essentially staring bed room ceiling unable muster energy leave room hallucinating taunted voices stopped taking medication tried really really heard get life track made friend lives seas became attached supportive nice me lost pounds gaining ton wheight tried get job tried make friends got part time job eventually everything ive worked seems like nothing im still alone feel feral hard time articulating thoughts psychiatrist put medication help concentrate agreed eventually tried see furthering education dead end far mean ive getting closer friend seas point think ive fallen love tell feel seem care still fine countinue friendship eventually says want anything friendship im fine long happy meet another guy psych issues hes always nice decide chase years getting dating first date goes okay learn family friends moved situation needed help happy help next day go house trying help get clothes washed hang blows kept asking okay sort nervous tick mine dragged glass point im upset life filled failed relationships friendships relationships family seas friend becoming distant slowly cutting life finally today cant take anymore tell im going disapear want know im going want worry him know validate life people inhuman live life without single meaningful relationship im pain want die would worse live like this constant hell confusion lonliness im looking forward oppurtunity least likely disturbed saved many people told life would improve gotten worse know one care everything go fine without me still tried help guy hurt today dropped food gave company know hes alone worry literal regret death affect single person treated like trash im idiot,1 +dont deserve live anymorefor years felt sorry depressed recently realized fault mine only ruined it family loved me friends cared everything else high honors school college bound bright future popular kid happy wither away alone hopeless wasted youth childhood behind me escape constant drug use hope all ive felt suicidal before ive cliff ive pills hand feels different know follow doubt mind should everyones sake,1 +ngl might look kinda cute dress like girl took amazing selfie look pretty cute,0 +dont really know else domaybe want vent get start killing myself things arent getting better life playing around bad luck life fallen rock bottom really want kill venting doesnt help one respond me cant blame stress suicidal ideations think would better wasnt alive even type feel like whoever reply saying wont leave leave like everyone else genuinely think unless say want kill thing someone willing put time me whenever brush idea ignored always leave get worried someone care ignores ironically pushes away im worried mess feel like id everyone favor gone,1 +taking sibling mental hospital help ive posting multiple subreddits looking help sister f multiple mental illnesses like bipolar idk one depression odd spoke recently feeling suicidal expressed wanting admitted mental hospital feel safe herself cant much supervise her left home alone week due parents town work i f able drive around go this advice appreciated,0 +wish existedhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvebmqxzksswihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvebmqxzksswi,1 +brother hanging pic brother caught disaster hit httpsimgurcomakrljcl tricks filming one point messed fell nuts screenshot it rip future nephews nieces,0 +mom never blames teachers biology teacher whenever posts grades keeps points changes later weeks since posted another grade even older brother teacher explained that listen says well got bad grade like b know teacher could fing lazy little gonna basically like zeros thanks listening,0 +gender competition lately sub ive seeing lot people complain hard boy easy girl people complain hard girl easy boys it know hard grasp genders bad putting wont help that making competition kids rd grade broadens gap able understand instead making smaller complaining things reddit telling unfair is wont change issue take action instead making pointless competition,0 +accidentally wrote suicidal monologueive real bitch panic attack tonight kind went trance wrote this im afraid tell thoughts best friend need someone see them would gun im afraid poison practice see many ibuprofen pills swallow gives much time reconsider indecisive gun quick im good making fast irrational emotionally driven decisions know could kill bullet slitting wrists low success rate considering ive never succeeded anything whole life dont feel confident id succeed that could take pills maybe dont swallow many higher success rate ive looked barbiturates think thats marylin monroe used although illegal ordering online sounds scary difficult could never hang myself wont let someone find like thought scary gives chills im hoping gun face still tact back head feel eager throw away life like trash im romantic still want body found beautiful like fallen angel snow white think found remembered kill wont able see that ill gone dont get leave come back one life people may think back fondly anything mark painful memory everyones mind dont want painful memory lost loved one want love want make people feel loved want good things help people fuck sadness hard feel weak dont feel like guess could continue like dont know long handle doesnt get better dont know make get better,1 +anyone wanna chat im male abit bored im good talking might find awkward,0 +tracing callsfor us users anybody know long would take redflag line trace call get police residence quick process end lengthy,1 +evolution kinda spooky ngl weve really evolved yo thrive climate eg hairy cold big surface area heat cant hold breath long like evolved somehow knowing wed live advanced civilization im religious anything seems kinda weird unless im missing something lol,0 +tell weird sexual video image saw internet ill see weird dunno saw girls cup tubgirl im curious weird sexual stuff find internet,0 +im tired tired unhappy tired feeling useless tired wandering aimlessly life feel like productive member society life feels like waste im miserable hate job i trying find new one luck ive found amazing guy course ive already gone messed up live shitty apartment im nice person know be tell defense mechanism way die one miss me knowwhine whine whine want anymore depression week near crippling feel like world would better without it im tired feeling empty,1 +im fucking worthless even funny nobody even pretends care,0 +yeah idk sex cool bc im cool ever cried listening hamilton bo burnham,0 +left high school kinda sad im gonna straight forward im student well ex student could say signed school today completing year year school journey overall signing papers leave easy dramatic sounds best friend side it left school feeling great work dad bike mechanic build bikes certain companies bigw anaconda for australians youd know hard job actually great fun suddenly noon speak this im type emotional last time emotional dogs passed years ago im pretty strong im always one bring people theyre down today wasnt day that started feeling rush emotions leaking eyes put nicely almost whole afternoon pets understand physical emotional attachment them dang leave high school go work alongside undoubtedly one hard working men ive known father cant stop thinking friends best friend wont mentioned right now maybe sort emotional attachment school didnt even know could emotional something doesnt involve passing something else traumatic live generation click button send message friends instantly type social media snapchat instagram email i mean nobody uses come on discord even reddit hello redditors really much generation cant imagine living s type social media ceased exist really message friends whenever want receive instant messages back yet still emotional this needed vent conversations below ill chatting anyone could people talk roller coaster emotions maybe silly ill regret posting long essay almost longer essay wrote school thank time thank much reading this great day bless,0 +think im going try tomorrowbackground first rodeo ive dealing suicidal thoughts since years later theyre coming again louder ever heard chester bennington history abuse learned victimized ages music life support young cant shake idea happens life hard deal kid degrees psychology still cant get stop really thats want point stuck body mind anymore lost job due depression lost partner similar reasons survived car crash fucked brain thats past years able pick find life worth living instead keep treading water matter many job apps put plans make future pan out feels like end road want end suffering tomorrow im going show see one favorite bands ive using show reason hang past couple months silly working over theres whole lot else keep figure im still unhappy end night hell point holding on comes tomorrow night im going try hanging bedsheet slip knotted doorknob thrown top slip knotted around neck ive gotten setup see would hold does worry cat since want cause pain owner around shes attached end either going goes firstits inevitable know im telling this im alone would good feel heard guess,1 +technically katara bend shit since contains water shitbender,0 +isnt stupid isnt stupid im afraid tell family important stuff fear teased honestly cant believe it smh ridiculous,0 +question girls gf spends minutes night using lotion skin soft girls care much soft skin,0 +pain keeps getting worsea days ago came posting wasnt able take life anymore effecting me things gone worse catastrophic love life left weeks ago day mother died came first people comfort person asked wanted spend time night cause worried cause already depression self harm said busy assumed family grieving let be yesterday spent day talking comforting mothers death spent day work making sure okay knew really struggling asked wanted go over told already cousin someone else coming over asked person boyfriend course was got family walked room broke broke hard harassed people protected her would stay late make sure okay get hrs sleep go work wasnt spending night always phone loud ringtone could wake could issues middle night bought anything wanted never got mad shed go sister get drunk worried life night gave girl everything moved quickly thing kept motivated going life made feel like reason purpose keep living ive lost already new boyfriend cant handle it every night wake upset depressed always mind wake fall asleep thinking her smile giggle way blushed start cry want back badly see again planned moving together making life own fragments am broken heart want kill myself longing back want end all ,1 +think possible crush said liked back im ecstatic rn even funny know rteenagers full crap dont know im supposed excitement love much,0 +need helpi never felt crippling depression hard since lost job february alcohol helped first couple weeks became norm hate myself alienated every loved one live alone last two days even left bed want hurt know long last world feels like heavy concrete slab feel like paved it nowhere turn idea do please help me want kill scared immediate future,1 +definitely feel like optionto copy paste thoughts raw gti feel im absolutely going able go nowhere life right even though im eighteen true rights person order get need change anyway knowing parents definitely treat like garbage physically verbally violent towards past cant expect going alive long enough support financially emotionally also cannot feel obligated take separate governmentfamily people directly responsible life capability look anymore suppose means rot financially physically immediately commit redflag want immediately burden anyone previously supported want anything else initiative contribute means potentially parents people around support get agitated attack like parents did think know options allowed have want read anyway thank i want add more feel like also disrespectful look others support journey one deserves support someone family take time busy lives end tried work study immediately detrimental system working in guessed detrimental system people inside system support far knew going focus far enough thanks support guys,1 +ajudem por favorvou resumir histria pra vocsconheo meu namorado anos gente se conheceu ficou trocamos ideia se afastamos depois voltamos como amigos ai nos afastamos novamente e que chegou incio desse ano voltamos conversar diariamente e consequentemente se apaixonar n e assim eu sempre fui uma pessoa que bebia todo final de semana fumava e etc e ele sempre na dele quietinho com cerveja dele comeamos namorar e eu vacilei menti para ele para esconder uma verso de mim que tinha medo dele rejeitar e uma mentira levou outrativeram influncias de amizade e um certo dia ele descobriu e obviamente abalou confiana dele e ja estvamos passando por uma fase nao muito boa ento complicou mais desconfianas comearam aparecer os cimes comearam consumir um pouco eleat olhou meu cll escondido porm admitiu depois eu entendi os cimes e tentava ao mximo explicar pra ele coisas para cime passare quando ele descobriu mentiras deu uma oportunidade de mudar de confessar outras mentiras e eu como nao sou boba agarrei escrevi todas mentiras que eu lembrava e mandei pra ele resolvemos tudo e seguimos eu comecei agir e mostrar que realmente queria nosso relacionamento mas com tempo ele comeou ter cimes meu passado desconfianas sobre mentiras passadas e perguntar sobre meu sexo com outros etc relevei tambm e ai nosso relacionamento comeou desandar um certo dia ele foi la casa gente ja nao estava muito bem e ficou com meu celular tempo todo afastado de mim mesmo eu implorando ateno e aquilo nao era normal porque sempre foi grudado ento gente comeu jogou buraco e fomos transar como nunca tnhamos transado antes e depois sexo maravilhoso tomamos um banho e ele simplesmente surtou disse que eu estava mentindo pra ele novamente e que tinha provas ai ficamos sem nos ver por dias e eu quebrando cabea pra lembrar da mentira quinto dia fui na casa dele e ele comeou falar algumas mentiras que eu realmente contei porm nao lembrei ento eu sei que estou errada prclh porm ele sabe que eu estava dedicando de mais nosso relacionamento ltimo ms eu estava dando tudo de mim e ele sabe eu realmente estava melhorando mudando ento assim vocs nao acham que ele deveria da uma chance de fazer diferente ou realmente tem que largar porque sou uma cuzona eu devo abandonar ele pra magoar mais ele socorro,1 +day posting something everyday get girlfriend math test today math teacher let finish,0 +know anymore fmy dad left us mom bitch browsing internet years searching guy wants perfect man even working depressed want talk anyone uses phone day day one cooking expensive maid money wasted since anything day years weve living money brother sisters live another country im finishing school soon dream go medical college become doctor says find job bring money home shit fucked up able go much longer,1 +right warn parents child going kill themself know friend going kill tommorow warn parents ahead time,0 +dont even know im still alivei chronic illness called cyclic vomiting syndrome imagine feeling nauseated days throwing them actually cant imagine know couldnt happened me strike time anxiety crazy worrying ill start another episode worst time teeth wearing away vomiting agoraphobic leave house might end uncontrollably puking passing stuck somewhere isnt home cure body given me big dreams life going playwright barely focus write nausea intense ive tried many antiemetic medications nothing worked ive going altredflagholiday file methods im thinking tossing cliff near house it sufficiently high stories thatd finish things pretty quickly still read ive reading thats thing keeps going im lonely anxiety torturous try distract it,1 +dm im bored m ill send insta snap idkthe rest filler post get removed tbh length requirement stupid af bruh ok probably enough cya dms ight bet,0 +got suicidal thoughts tonightmy mind fucked lately idea whats going,1 +rant shit life yeyso really want end life everyday wake upeat play videogames grades shit mother find im going get serious trouble handle hitting taking away phone cant stand screamed at im terrified exams literally text girls class send answers homework barely understand anything sister silently judging keep asking give homework answers barely talk friends anything outside school days ignore friends always ruin relationships people define morals know fault things like feel lonely time try talking someone online sound retarded af stopped hobby enjoy dont get noticed people almost like forgotten eat much shit look like harry harry fucking hendersons im willing anything theres point get fail get anything less im going it actual reason thats keeping dont want end hell im good person morals prostitute either way im going spend eternity satan post useless apparently cant talk feel without sounding like person single digit iq pray god sincerely hope next time im falling asleep last time,1 +dont want hereive depressed thought redflag least passing though almost everyday since somewhere around sixth grade im cant find motivation anything know sounds lazy cant find reason fail something try pick pieces easiest way possible know cant anything hard know sound lazy probably cant seem anything much less people care about sister dad ony reasons dont try know would break harder harder put perspectives head dont want know selfish easy way take every time dont know im like want better feel like cant matter much people try motivate me feel like best part life behind even mostly shitty dont want keep going,1 +mmm mm ya love mmmm love mm yesi love turkey sandwiches aghhh mm great wth,0 +redflag considered bad person unhappyi think least x weekly shunned general society matter anyone else unhappy dont want continue way yes love family friends im liking life looking end today honest question keep seeing told wrong is,1 +sleep stayed night im convinced live simulation maybe might need sleep,0 +talk less hate boring talk regret everything feel like shared asked many questions talking people complicated hate,0 +finally got girlfriend httpsimgurcomaknolhelhttpsimgurcomaknolhel,0 +crisisredflag hotline chats track youthrowaway people irl know main account basically title says im us matters want call well chat know sometimes theyll trace call police serious enough risk way shape form afford institutionalized im already scared enough get help last time tried therapist less told everything fault want try anything drastic sorry wrong place ask thank time,1 +feel nauseous crying,0 +nothing life worth living for parents would get gone friends would sad little would move too nothing feels like worth it love money faith nothing sick crushing loneliness given opportunity cease existing would take heartbeat fat loser spent entire life making people happy late now cee ya later everyone prolly going soon least would like to,1 +facts every day day took fat shit bro okay bye guys stay safe,0 +strongly seriously considering hanging myselftheres much want say doesnt feel like matters screaming void,1 +doctor says tuesday mom think might kill myselfmy mom sick autoimmune disease since im now whole life ive known disease would kill her months ago new hope formed stem cell transplant would cure disease moms last option cant ports disease final stages shell die next year without transplant took chicago week testing passed tests one doctors insisted other options the options offered work may influence main doctor accept mom accepted final treatment forced onto shittier treatment option disease spread die got hopeful would end could know mom would life got rid pessimistic view dying know theres good chance doctor may say no im crushed cant stand pain anymore might actually time,1 +always unhappy lost condo owned mistake selling without realizing owned it relative threw away belongings apartment time going sickness briefly move residence lost everything lost job retire early going disability lost cats sickness moved put mental hospital someone saw crying vets hospital feel like lost everything short period time trouble dealing things seriously depressed need ways make feel better suggestions lost everything trying deal,1 +so suicidal along time actually started get better really depressed so got job taco bell seems back old self self pity party wanting nothing end it working shows fucked worth it worth working trying save money stuff would easier gone point working everyday hate pay bills life worth living actually thought would feel better getting job feel ten times worse wife noticed hope worth itthe strain marriage mental health hope extra money worth itdoes feel like it trading happiness happy marriage extra cash maybe fault sucking up sostuck behind money ruinsmy life getting better going backwards,1 +face makes wish deadwhy unattractive weird my facehttpsimgurcomasoveix older guy take advantage party friends afterward ignored bragged friends calling gross younger brother grade friends bullied happened social media would make posts looked old im fat slut developed early age continuously told overweight slutty would pick apart features every day lips thin eyes close together man jaw prominent chin ugliest girl school moved away new state four years since happened guys grade would ask sex tell tell anyone ugly would say man ever want me said im attractive enough sleep seen me im saying else would people treat horribly like random girl different school party took photo scrunching face egged like cute posted online making fun calling ratchet guy friends saying look like yearold btch would people unless ugly graduated would say im grossest girl school guy sleeps desperate would greet telling wrinkles face peeling skin disgusting burned deleted photos school true people bully you shows shitty character yours else would treated way unless hideous annoying fault bullying show im weird,1 +gotta love gotta love mum decides ambush make make coffee literally left room piss apparently taste good obviously fault definitely sabotaged definitely berates messing up gotta love,0 +tw sexual assault physical abuse spanish first language sorry advance mistake ampxbi cisgender heterosexual womani raped yo boyfriend time tried penetrate anally failed raped vaginally shame told parents months later tried rape get to never confidence sex again mild encounters never ended bed brief online relationship yo now due bad economical situation pandemic etc living parents house note aside parents physically abused since years old till around belting punches etc messed logic beats homeless journey rediscovering sexually past months dealing interiorized shame guilt overcoming step step help online friend benefits decided buy sex toys first time life attempt fully sexual life again still dealing shame guilt toys seemed working felt rewriting sexual life positive notebut middle argument parents in shaming depression age life caused failed attempts achievement life goals poor economic situation decided tell knew sex toys disgusting slut repeatedly called disgusting slut disgrace shame hourmy mind immediately went back years day assault felt disgusting deserved it talked long distance fwb days he helped regain sexual confidence supported felt ashamed sexually due past trauma know even approach him cannot bring eat drink either even hungry left room even want peak outside know see parents talked all locked room desperately trying find apartment move even going money even buy food feel like slowly fading background could disappear moment like flawed matter anymore deserve love ever get it cannot stop crying everyday feels work trying overcome happened crushed instant feel helpless cannot bring ask fwb help reassurance scared back feeling sexually numb like years honest parents words got bad even know make sense felt shame toys felt like garbage telling am one many problems barely mentioned sometimes make think pain worth it needed vent thanks reading made far progress gone,1 +paul lukas played russian intellectual making living waiter inbr br grand slam directed william dieterle surprisingly funny satire building celebrity waiter russian restaurants hatcheck girl played loretta young become americas sweethearts bridge partners squabble aid publicist ghostwriter speed mccann the wonderfully deadpan frank mchugh become walking advertisementsbr br for stanislavsky system system bidding whatever one feels likebr br since bids rational basis recriminations stupiditybr br a duel displaced bridge guru cedric van dorn sounds close goren no suspect choice characters name stanislavsky also slam another kind system puffedup charlatan played well ferdinand gottschalk broadcast radio stations across america like prizefight roscoe karns another great fasttalking deadpan comic actor sbr br the bridge players even ropedoff square though audience isbr br above them unlike boxing ringsbr br the wide variety american types prefigures comedies preston sturges though manufacturing celebrity grand slam calls mind two better movies precode era lee tracy playing fasttalkingbr br publicists the halfnaked truth bombshell grand slam itsbr br moments especially anyone played bridge serious pointbr br countersbr br loretta young already clothes horse to me face seems bit longbr br and horsey too another eras notion beauty guess moviebr br unfortunately drops glenda farrell plays mchughs forgetfulbr br girlfriend,0 +saw mystery men birthday away vacation came back home went see again keep mind twelve time coolest movie ever even collected ultrarare action figures i except bowler hardest find made mr furious shoveler blue raja spleen captain amazing case wondering william h macy action figure existence ive watched many times years still remains favorite mine due mostly fond childhood memories perfect movie definitely deserves another look perhaps cult followingbr br the story bunch lowlevel superheroes save day executed mediocre directtovideo the specials well end spectrum big budget huge budget almost million think studio comedy yes effects overblown huge sets wonderful production design bit much considering plot think stupid special effectsy superhero movieits parody fight villain named cassanova frankenstein people psychofrakulator whatever its doomsday device hell take world yada yada resident superhero captain amazing a zapp branniganesque greg kinnear commercialproductlogos costume nice touch kidnapped time mystery men mr furious ben stiller gets mad shoveller william h macy beats people shovels blue raja hank azaria british throws forks bowler janeane garafolo bowls invisible boy kel mitchell guess does spleen the great paul reubens farts sphinx wes studi cuts guns half mind kidding rest fantastic cast character actors includes geoffrey rush cassanova lena olin heavily edited cassanovas bride one tom waits crazy weapons dealer sowith macy kinnear olin rush four oscarnominees and one winner tom freakin waits perfect though overlong gushes corniness the shovellers full thembr br the dialogue definitely outweighs physical comedy sometimes lacking theres guy farts power case closed dialogue definitely highlight cyclical ramblings sphinx mixed metaphors mr furious etc downright funny movie it almost make forget film let all star smashmouth world br br unfortunately film well critics audiences have sequel originally planned the film fact based comic book characters the flaming carrot comics flaming carrot planned sequel believe well box office could hard sell superhero comedy guy theres something mary also could fact released day the sixth sensewhich ended biggest hit month augustas well the thomas crown affair two misunderstood classics released crowded weekend oddly enoughdick the iron giant critics gave mm passable reviews quickly forgotten sadly enough comedy centrals roast jerry stiller comedian jeffrey ross commented ben stiller that i saw mystery men fired agent ben seen mouth words i to listen him give mystery men chance,0 +posting day get uk gf day day pog still taking applications requirements aliveoptional would pog understand possible female form uk preferred,0 + mg ibuprofen mei took tonight,1 +ever wish someone would kill wouldnt itpurposefully running around late night shady places paying attention nearing roads almost accidentally getting hit car,1 +idk subreddit put in decided put herewhy someone admits may bad characteristic people admire it impressed someone admit weakness sensitive inconsiderate myopic loud shy etc general people impressed others admit weakness themselves people admire admit fault able constructively criticize yourselfnow start talking physical attributes skinny fat good looking enough becomes matter self esteem matter constructive self criticism insecure tell need think better yourself looks define you work self esteem you sound insecure cannot peacefully say admit good looking anyway physically attractive make insecure acknowledging fact myself know reminded everyday see treated differently opposed conventionally attractive people know never liked romantically anyone cannot people accept instead invalidating saying negative insecurei asking pity validation stated fact observed myself makes uncomfortable it would fine admitted outspoken good problem solver right would insecure would someone wants better insecure also blind see mirror everyday pretending attractive going change anything stop insecurities,1 +need somebody vent heartbreakthis throwaway obvious reasons couple months ago hurt somebody dear me person suicidal depression low self esteem time made mistake finally gained trust built stable relationship them ruin all couldve happy together ruined it gaining trust took hard work many ups downs ruined everything became worse anything ive ever experienced them heartache lasted months time believe ive developed anxiety depression though guess cant sure know ive mentle breakdowns hate much point feel like dying sometimes recently theyve decided heartache worth found someone replace me also told theyre fully yet decided deserved replaced owe help move me since fault tried best help replaced like much handle ended abandoning instead never done it theyll harder time without theres fair possibility theyll kill themself decided leave life guilt uncertainty much handle ive found crying many times one day keep track now ive tried reaching want nothing told cant promise theyll ok also want life anymore know anymore move on know talk need help pain much,1 +theres like tropical storm going uk rn climate change really aint hun x,0 +update headphones broken idk worse problem headphone plug laptop im gonna clean hopefully sound goes away ,0 +someone else it want die also want livelike would het killed would fine it would care get killed would mind eighter selfharm without real reason where cut yourself feel like sad sad also happy wanting die also wanting live,1 +would weird talk old friend havent talked two years recently got snap wanted rekindle friendship also really quietclosed friends thats faded ive gained confidence social shit would weird message her followed back spam page past months still like photos time time ig,0 +day so first year reddit id say good one but nothing really happened still fun seeing posts keep good work,0 +need help urgently hate mattering long story short much going right now trying keep family togetehr deal dad help girlfriend friends dealign trans issues today really abd day cut hours went support channel like cussed called cunt didnt get tell parents hey ive slashing leg open hours im really ok cant cope idk do theres oen,1 +im constant suffering doctors say theres nothing wrong really annoying,0 +dead soulbeen feeling empty awhile afraid lll anymore slightly afraid pain l thought sleeping pills me wish l earlier l hoped change seems impossible achieve l want go home parents want love cause want grow up wish hurt like this wish l could die someone would life l want end tired living facing terrible episodes every day wish l could fall clip run car die sleeping l want end pain,1 +ocean soup mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,0 +im tiredfirst all english native language sorry im female late twenties ive never boyfriend never kissed anyone obviously never sex im ugly lonely living parents cant afford rent feel really miserable disgusting feel every person would throw disgust touching maybe even seeing me im diagnosed schizophrenia really hard cant believe myself feel like im alone even head everything unreal on cant stand it tried different meds quit them want fight anymore im tired world better without me everyone would happy im chicken kill myself guess ill let illness kill me maybe one day ill kill spontaneously know im little sad ill never loved ill never live someone love ill never feel safe home my parents really abusive cant anymore thank reading lt,1 +mothers faulti hear crying screaming dad make stop stop what fuck do asked stay party promised drink drive drugs safe yet racist confrontation dealt yesterday feels like need shoved cage never let again wonders keep many things secret her every time ever since treated like doll good moment something line shouting me saying born ever adopted troublesome child remember ever saying words course would she perfect mother according friends according herself know constant verbal abuse constant put downs you worth anything messages sends way much drink gets angry everyone says fault says make angry better child get mad say cant take anything says heart emotions like anger strong forgive people get mad i fucking forgive mother telling year old daughter it wouldve better biological mom aborted you say said anger matter course not ive gone therapy years almost still thinks anxiety depression developed high school due difficult brother seen several years idea times ive cried front therapist memories mother throwing cups dishes dad screaming us leaving returning days later know talk fear anxiety waking up knowing good mood not know abandonment issues would leave often little lock hotel dad go find know first go method would use take life one introduced to locked bathroom year old daughter desperately banged door begged kill herself know cry every time remember th birthday woke house empty brother run away due fight broken dad ended hotel next morning screaming other returned night back cop car called take away due racket know two times tried take life wanted escape damn oppression show control her tell need move out itd best us threatens keep even hurt dog threatens cut family never let talk dad again want move apartments minutes house dad looks tired trying keep anger hitting full on even lets marriage fail order shield want that want feel like needs protect one person world attacking me fucking clue scared her angry her given life feel her want die want kill myself ever do want someone one person know mothers fault,1 +scared driven harming andor othersi get thoughts things going webcam call friends harming myself recent eventhttpswwwredditcomrdepressioncommentswqim_in_the_most_convoluted_relationships_of_my incredibly scared ill eventually driven thing basically cry help want scare like that part thinks nobody grieve conflicts thoughts people truly care because people do really know want anymore unpleasant dreams going back psych ward i went one last year impulse redflag attempt want go back one,1 +ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh skechers agist _ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh make adult light shoes _ disappointing revelation entire life needs get checked refuse wear shoes get light skechers adult sizes _gt,0 +anyone else got scam message sugar mommy person idk told choke dick,0 +got banned dank memes d yesterday created post repost template bot said post matched post got warning getting banned decided post rdankmemes next day opened reddit surprise got banned days post only get post profile deleted panicked ya f chat,0 +yo goodbyes longer apart toxic community fuck shit,0 +please soonim nothing shell loved music loved people loved old movies loved regrets worst untimely deaths man dead since june fathers dead children fathers belongings thrown away without knowledge getting better ive tried also ive people move people longer recognize people need anymore despite knowing heartfelt passionate many friends dead many horrible things wont stop happening wish dead plain simple easy to damned hell bit eternity limbo wish could accidentally die tomorrow id rather way turn next month theres lot life tried bounce back from dont bounce back darker becomes me already dead existing,1 +anyone else wants redflag friendsgirlfriend meim never gf first kiss never friends tried fit high school failed tried fit college failed started new job and guessed think end road me thats pretty much it last shot nothing else try,1 +know anymore im completely losti finished high school monday nothing planned careers go depression anxiety wasis bad dropped two four courses really really bad two kept ive throw world plan go im getting worse every day really think redflag im ready adult know do im much coward take life know happen time soon want work live gain enjoyment things two eating disorders top everything else one one knows bad am help whoever needs never want help return one day ill gain confidence one day ill finally peace,1 + nearly year old trans girl come anybody know irl started transitioning anything love girlfriend much dating almost years april realized trans way keep living boy every cell body wishes would told questioning gender first started like years ago sure trans thought id tell questioning come non binary test waters scared officially come out started crying said scared lot stuff exactly remember feel stuck make worse sister also trans come publicly moved coming parents constantly deadname misgender her including face parents paying go college know would keep paying came out want girlfriend live rest lives bpd fp coming go well probably kill herself would make kill myself might make sister kill herself idea much longer live boy know would come much less ever can feels liket way things go well live please want heard feels like way life go on want kill love life,1 +since movie based true story woman two children welloff scary real really was acting gave movie push greatnessbr br diane keaton portrayed main character patsy mccartle two sons adored performance made real life story come life television screen hard watch scenes since real happens one becomes addicted drugsbr br just watching loving mother go sweet caring hard true known people gone withdrawl much like happened movie rememberbr br i also thought risky director want make movie happened woman yet done well applaud director making moviebr br i highly recommend anyone known someone ever addicted drugs learn happen become addicted them,0 +thing super straight youre lonely ugly smelly guy dont date trans person doesnt matter dont make identity invalidates,0 +avril lavigne billie elish old days girls listened thought super cool lot boys hated real reason songs good tho,0 +abc news youtube channel recorded kids zoom class made comment there ask like comment abc knows never again httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvgprncomzvgamplczfdxaqfpjzhvqtaokgjanhdhtaxzmzrirkhhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvgprncomzvgamplczfdxaqfpjzhvqtaokgjanhdhtaxzmzrirkh comment student worst nightmare cannot imagine zoom call broadcasted entire world even enjoy turning camera all furthermore doubt kids really choice whether aired unfortunately likely parents made decision please again,0 +hell guys even find egirlfriends like im seriously confused find girls,0 +absolutely thoughtful spiritually deep intense hamlet ever done version comes close jacobi best understanding role actors played it patrick stewarts claudius ferocious still sympathetic particularly like two doofuses playing rosencranz guildenstern feckless yet sinister might gripe need strong ophelia strong person thats point lalla ward hits proper nuances amazing simply amazing every one two dozen times ive watched it,0 +decided little test ill count many times bust nut year already data important future humanity,0 +legend andrei konchalovskys towering half hour poem siberia begin once must hold back space takes time roundabout explorations halfremembered childhood memories turnofthecentury backwoods village yet movie goes picking steam building emotional resonance though even sounds images compose become imbued sheer association subject matter quality fierce tireless quiet dignity characterizes soviet working spirit konchalovsky celebrates soviet collectivity almost revisionist way paeans like soy cuba invincible mood turns somber reflective news revolution reach secluded siberian village grapevine fruits labor reach world war calls young men enlist this konchalovksy zeroes individual care affection examine bitter longing regret woman waited years war fianc never came back waited long enough go become barmaid ship velvet couches quit years later come back village care aging uncle killed fiancs father axe irreverent folly fianc came back war hero years late came back sake girl left behind drill oil motherland despair resignation middleaged regional party leader comes back small siberian village sole purpose blotting map build power plant movie segues decade decade s s amazing newsreel footage trailing soviet history revolution war famine titanic technological achievements empire terrific visuals here kinetic violence skewed angles flickering cramped shots crowds faces actual movie focuses individual triumphs follies small big second half sense bittersweet fatalism creeps in broken lives never reached fulfillment choking regret yearning it cant matter seems like world saying konchalovksy answers it must matter protagonists keep trying redemptionbr br yet behind saga man landscape something seems hover shadowy almost substanceless like eternal old man hermit appears every segment guide repudiate protagonists sometimes mere spectactor sometimes enigmatic sage little behind straightforward logical incomprehensible ultimatums challenges affirmations human characters something invisible seems lurk ghosts fathers appearing sepia dreams repeated shots star gleaming nightsky curious bear indeed eternal old man himself konchalovksy calls awe reverence mystical land order treatment small backwoods community struggling nature progress time ways learns deal them often funny bizarre tragic time director never allows cynicism override humanism reminds shohei imamuras profound desires gods when dream scene alexei tears planks door plastered propaganda poster stalin reach dead father vanishes fog movie hints betrayal soviet dream better yet things lost revolution betrayal made explicit films fiery denouement amazing visuals elegiac somber raw naturalist edge help seal deal end it oil derric erupts flames movie erupts wild explosion pure cinema,0 +oi im true nerf war veteran im real og even call pro use poop battle camo cum substitute bullets,0 +hooray got called ugly times last night days got called another girl thanks guys reasons put lead head tho ugly,1 +dont say crosscountry skier never skiied across country instance crosscountry skier,0 +like ugly cause go walks hour worry world like anyone would want anything,0 +ayy whats poppin bbg whats poppin whats poppin,0 +live society mean holy fuck thats deep let sink in,0 +sometimes feel like wanna undercover cops jump street would cool go back school one knowing wont staying forever tho wouldnt it mean would waiting day bust cover everybody goes like omg secret agent,0 +expecting much movie given ticket advanced screening gotten work hot tired wait movie line minutes seemed cool air flowing hallways theater complexbr br once seated theater tired frustrated movie started recognize actors beginning flow movie perfect right beginning became consumed movie getting excited minute passing think movie destined fantasyfairytale classic actors fabulous pace perfect ending magical,0 +oh boy sure love spending time alone vulnerable spot like big window near lots strategic sniping spots oh wow cool really hope get killed cal clean shot skull would shame,0 +im going starve deathim weak actively kill myself maybe passively eating,1 +boys skirts bad boys thigh highs panties good filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +want help want lose friends processtheyre people met internet years ago ive never met real life best friends scared old friends many years ago away talk wanted die self harmed ive started hurt want tell them im afraid theyll say want lose friends keep mouth shut problems really business anyway ive already lost friends this think could handle losing again,1 +watching friend slowly descend inescapable placehi all suicidal self harming thoughts literally breaks heart watch friend tell live reason live themselves rather friends family want to need help reddit do help understand blame redflag loved one,1 +song recommendations crushing someone feel got u kinda like together amin lovedrug,0 +blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc blocked idc irdc,0 +approach girl m always introverted friends girl find cute would like know start conversation get know more please help me thanks,0 +girl broke saying sexy enough so went familys house seduced one family members now mom sister pregnant baby,0 +want someone know im catsnot cant feed themselves love them dont want sad gone used lots reasons stay alive days them,1 +hello everyone recently seeing change concerning sometimes try think future plans goals start crying kind got worried struggling thinking people care love whenever even consider could relationship girl close start feeling dread sadness barely sleep anymore lost interest hobbies starting get difficult getting bed morning seen friends weeks sinking deeper deeper starting think hope mei tired damn tired getting worse,1 +another daybeing worthless piece shit am cant make better ive tried people supposed way,1 +really want go back hospitali difficulty expressing text person ive pretty much shut anything everyone since january meds therapy year even treatment think redflag daily get frustrated see changes today rent due money landlord accepts money orders seems think secure way make payment cant seem motivate go bank get printed up im going common arguments even worth effort know simple thing hate always somehow convince simplest things part knows need cant seem find it maybe posting help see stupid im pay rent try deal stuff that,1 +everyone learn language im saying learn language exclusively agree language teach children addition local language would probably either english latin much hate esperanto kinda perfect youre going teach everyone thats good for imo either latin korean probably latin cuz wouldnt learn new writing system grammar relatively flexible technically flexible rearrange words sentence order mean thing even though couple grammatically correct,0 +strategy get ready morning even anywhere be xpost getmotivated thought might bring bit motivation here days offweekends paradox go work sounds like great time get things done productive right yet many us lie bed half day wake up mull around house shorts tee shirts probably watching tv playing video games internet whatever long day wasted heres strategy day off get time would go workschool get though get ready day cook breakfast shower brush teeth get dressed whatever get ready normal day gets ready take world days workschool get ready take world days too great way set mind right state,1 +gary busey title character frank bulletproof mcbain standardissue reckless maverick cop whos earned nickname matter many bullets takes counting never stops going bad guysbr br when cuttingedge us tank dubbed thunderblast driven across border mexico nabbed revolutionaries terrorists led general brogado rene enriquez libyan colonel kartiff henry silva whos aligned russian villains army personnel involved kept prisoners chief among devon shepard darlanne fluegel happens mcbains exgirlfriend mcbain recruited army rescue missionbr br busey may physical presence say someone like schwarzenegger would another appropriate lead film type hes blast self confident dude whos quick wisecracks fluegel great female lead looks incredibly sexy makes fine buttkicking action babe enriquez silva juan fernandez always welcome william smith as russian major loathsome scum classic action movie tradition supporting cast quite full familiar reliable character actors lq jones rg armstrong thalmus rasulala lincoln kilpatrick mills watson luke askew danny trejo caryhiroyuki tagawabr br tl lankford bj goldman supply script based story lankford veteran b director fred olen ray kind script know writers tongues cheeks know material absurd cheesy fun throwing credibility window veteran action director steve carver keeps moving delivers respectable amount gunfire explosions general allout mayhembr br bulletproof good fun action fan mind switching brain enjoying generous assortment violence humorbr br ,0 +ten times better who wants super model bravo think true business tyra strong sensitive time able get aspiring model photos look depth models personality beauty strength demure attributes ability endure work want enjoy seeing tyras personal experience brought photo shoots runway always agree judges decisions tyras comments least one winners feel deserve win show every girl lucky chance,0 +know hang correctlyany tips advice learnt past mistakes,1 +seems like right idea momenthi reddit ive lurked while things life lately come fever pitch feel trapped everything feel like live world im truly free anymore relationships burning alive even friendships feel porous deceitful could use kind words cause know answers included poetry know why guess seem like individual worth encouraging cant escape overriding feeling everything life rotting thanks time im welltraveled man stride plan wander less near far nothing see ever seen beats back big bang yard see williker tidds lived kids bootlegger hot south prohibition brought inhibition ol williker whistled mouth said jesus h christ boy people people looking load off run back forth stay drunk sly cops retreat law though money goes expenses hose one could handle weight could one make still liquor would fill every submasondixonline state well jehosephat joe know go theres rock fell sky shiny hard inch charred even though ten foot round brush died sound creates hit knock softer think would air smell like theres burning fact scent surroundings quite good steellike feels like distant vibration rail train yet come cold spring even though damn thing cookin right sun brought team got rock sit stark back trailer hammered blacksmithed worked great sheets asteroid thinner paler tireless zeal hurried meals tidds fashioned splendid machine stuffed grains churned batch knew would sweet strong clean day came cash game williker gasped cause sure inside still floating round mash light bright pure glance would set ones imagination fire soul would rapture burn colors contained shimmer glimmer would take gods mind learn swallowed watched glow face helpless look right eyes said mercy whatwhat that went inside turned light night rest stubbornly thoughts head ran around insomniac roar sat edge foot bed light glowed outside door start stood ran right still emitted casual hum light shot top tank lit night like placebo sun shout loud wife old cow woke waddled outside yell second saw dropped willikers jaw etnas jaw promptly fell tank melting quite long time whiskey boiled away brand new universe sat there shining end first day theres lot going on universe spawn things really cant know like sound planets make theyre bumping thumping galaxies theyre inside grow trillion quarks making zillions sparks bristle crystalcollide nebulas blooming supernovas booming young stars doomed die hanging air two wideeyed stares universe gained dimension size growth quite slow quite steady so year tidds moved lest died house burned baby red giant like superball coated lava vase erased tiny black hole meteors got guavas living conditions grew dimmer dimmer town williker lived land devoured men scattered cowered people knew something give insurance adjusters clue write house clearly gone replaced universe golden glowing taking insured houses on government came titles names declared small town lost cause haste whole state evacuate said brand new ex states new state laws year year grand spectacle grew tennessee orb hung twinkling high like jewel sky looking new state absorb slowly retreat back feet hot fires wondrous creation kinda wish need booze set immolation commune live edge world numbers billion strong loses faith land slips away may gone way long theres hope heart world arts future exceedingly bright inside big bang suns live close day different night im really scared im love fate swallowed whole future constructive maybe sometimes back mind wish drinking much less destructive,1 +well think finally end memy roommate old friend living moving out able get place lost job car died transmission verge becoming homeless hes pretty much person have support otherwise nothing ive trying hardest rebuild life constantly getting kicked down im battling severe depression bipolar anxiety ptsd next hope making alive hell gone days empty apartment myself worst feeling world everything crashing around once especially put life got nothing back guess another worthless nobody gone forever one notice,1 +hello name scar not real name mobile please excuse formatting friends girls age we grade year called a known since aged b known since aged c known since years ago pretty much outsider group tough b well c friends ages talking years anyways means often told lot closest friends them today hanging a c b elsewhere starting deep conversation started rating emotions asked like said great never really get sad go said minus meaning self harm everywhere bodies attempted kill themselves severely depressed want even earth anymore know upset know level then started comparing sh pulled razor started sh c extremely uncomfortable almost tears started try slit wrists front thankfully razor blade dull much damage officially uncomfortable started weeping ran there started discussing ways kill themselces laughed ran way home cried much thankfully parents extremely supportive comforted me tell crying know c raped girl maybe sexually assaulted idk difference year eg fingered penetrated b maybe pain know good notredflag parents probably talk b c together deal this love want anything happen them need severe help year old friends want kill themselves,1 +want commit redflag really want liveim years old im going university next year im going best school country choice four better schools state successful parents willing help problems have lot people would give lot position makes really sad lived could been could one best students high school put enough effort schoolwork ended enough bs stop even applying really good schools even trade good memories every day nothing besides attempt drown whatever find internet nothing continue cycle close zero social interactions necessary way even parents fault im unattractive unable communicate make effort make interesting anyone want anything me want commit redflag much would hurt people around already worked hard help me right now given option never exist would take without hesitation know cannot happen though need fix problem find direction goal guys found purpose lives,1 +confused everything world darkso m dont see one commit redflag move forward highschool social life im worried might make choice low point one things kinda scares myers briggs personality type enfp helps understand means really get idea whats happening life im optimistic confident around people combined mother putting stress me outburst depression never cut dont believe way ever will ofter redflag seems like goodish option ive heard think ur family stuff huge deterrent im still skeptical phylosify seems pretty much like ur ignoreing ur need u get mean dont friends ever relationshipjust havent found anyone cwould enjoy with dismay wanna fit in dont want loose individuality another one issues talked person people internet dont plan want so another thing access firearms im comforted fact within reachin glass cabinet im sure could easily get without keymy father keeps majority big safe dont fit understand capability dont ever see future dont tons regret want live van tour lifestyle ill poor loveless likely lonley ild love athlete unlikely all kinda want settle ill regret more satisfied whichever job choose doassuming ill make schoolagain helps understand enfp catch existance doesnt seem like would better didnt bother it ive plenty happy moments years already long time dont think could handle living watching life whisk away front eyes world sucks truth people cant get color people much beauty well know chance seeing it dont unlimited money ugly everywhere beauty found remote places nothing offer world ive moping day acting im perfectly satisfied lazy teenager look people see me really look me look disgust dont want around either them dont even know truly want responsiblity friends desire deep inside size world spend town dont know want,1 +life overive thoughts urges last month so bipolar went meds consultation psychiatrist due covid pretty isolated kept working out more months later ive destroyed body due overtraining future wellfailed attempt start college again ive started medication again seems hopeless do,1 +songs listen die finally od happy songs make smile slow peaceful songs suicide depression songs use last moments listen something new different people say did interesting although admittedly kind stupid question,1 +noone wants talk dirty dms ,0 +heard everytime mention awards sub get tons awards so awards,0 +normal school underated af recently start going regular offline school years worth online school completely honest consider complete victory like yes risk corona may higher but get meet friends goof around breaks pay attention classes cause longer listening teacher ramble on feels much natural participate offline class rather turning mic online classes shit wayyyy better online schoolespecially cause forced us keep cameras on,0 +anyone know kissing feels like know feels like feel free post emotions story first kiss im curious whether really good thing completely overvalued thanks discussing topic here case cant contribute topic stay anyways imaginary cookie tell anything else like to however nice day stay hydrated guys gals nonbinary pals,0 +lonely kinda sucks im human wish close friend could talk not im looking one here suppose life yet become familiar pain things constantly built knocked every years military child normally problem never occurred friends made online would go too nothing left past loneliness ive felt long time suicidal previously weird like that maybe growth almost hurts expense sadness sometimes wish could ignorant fool enjoy time have try think im ever gonna able escape dissapointment realizing ill lose everything again again,0 +temporary solutioni woke morning am brain stress thinking possible solution problems kill myself took bunch valium feel awesome still know do still think die like feel much better drugged bother even hurting myself took later keep feeling going obviously cant every day god damn right effective,1 +many people like sleeping raining understand calming keeps awake loud yeah make fun me,0 +three months ssri medication nervous breakdown friends help memy girlfriend drinking party best friends asleep im crying eyes out fucking pathetic much want somebody give little bit affection never asked help before feel fucking rejected come help me told party soon asked help told shed drinking call different friend fuck everything tonight im honestly embarrassed call redflag hotline call anyone else thought done suicidal thoughts depression never knew would come back like this im overwhelmed negative emotions hate jealousy anger selfloathing fuckeverythinginthisentireplanet know do guys deal emotional breakdown think im losing it,1 +ive got isabout vicodin pills percocets vodka birthday wish coming couple days realistically could end life many mixed findings online ive read mg hydro lethal within hours yet heard people surviving mg you read following something want get out theres eerie darkness inside me sorrow there theres reason there yet festers grows think theres way patch wounds created ive therapy tried medication tried help myself i like many me feel im meant world ive tried end life birthday twice not really take pills drink lot see happens type situation one person knows though kept secret sought help did helped obviously ive read success rate redflag via od anywhere im fuckin terrified,1 +ive decided kill tonightjust thought maybe tell stranger rather anyone close me thanks,1 +play uno official rules playing right collectively agree,0 +like moon moonlight soothing,0 +wiped hard male period lets go,0 +first time trying wellbutrin side effects affect sex drive i female anyone tried wellbutrin,1 +im tired aliveim happy cant see ever happy friends i did now ive completely messed chance graduating energy get bed or do theres usually lot crying involved im good things wish parents would less disappointing kid feel guilty im idea living potentiality another years seems unbearable,1 +ask questions shit life ive abused every way curious something topics ask away,0 +ever since ex broke last year ive cooped home couldnt find courage motivation go out going years decided break off started work home withdrew rarely went out even see friends chores like buy groceries today decided sick way ive living life lately want make serious changes chatted friends organized ukraine ski trip next month,1 +math nerds convert entire radical mixed radical and vice versa test tomorrow idea,0 +quick feel anything secrets die me one needs know am look back others see care anymore want close eyes leap,1 +well every scene perfectly presented never seen movie meaning almost every scenebr br well watching movie remembered watching amilie amilie also similar kind movie fun fantasy touch movies based plot line perfectly perfect way able create world ownbr br red able provoke lots thoughts people destiny dejavu s still thinking itbr br the story great ending bit funny laughing end scene well funny three movie red white blue connectedbr br all great work art work mastermanbr br ,0 +idk title please read itbefore start want say depression mental disorder ok story live pretty poor country im constantly struggling money point feel like im living surviving frankly im getting kind fucking tired nice people would tell painlessly end would really appreciated ps apologise bad grammar english first language also pretty late pps im google pussy giving number redflag hotline,1 +im aware need helpi need help dont want cant help way dont want get help never get better want end,1 +would ever let homework you im weird,0 +pain ive fallen love yr old pain pain pain pain pain pain she also lives hours away pain,0 +reaction memes question ah negotiator reaction meme yay nay also spark little convo yall whats favourite reaction memes cheers,0 +feel like dont place worldtoday rough ive struggled years due narcissistic parents bullied experiencing childhood sexual assault ive carried scars past years ive never able move past it ive started therapy recently feel like im broken even attempt get help ive struggled speaking up assertive setting boundaries trusting people majority life dont see could value world self confidence self esteem self worth feel stupid immature incompetent compared friends coworkers people around me people tell self confidence constantly tell work seriously dont try things im used ignored one take interest thoughts never anyone believe me hard would world better without me compare much everyone work feel lost ,1 +friend continues call old name even came trans told new one sad wish better friends yall,0 +know posting helpi tried kill last friday tried od almost succeeded second attempt year everyones already moved on im okay know family realize this know psychiatrist realize this know therapist realize this cant deal this im try again know plea help what ive always skeptical empathy strangers know help me every time feel anything leads this shut whenever start feeling anxious sad happy scared leads suicidal tendencies worked past earlier today managed contact close friend talked while happy few fucking hours ago happy cant even feel empty do middle night cant call psychiatrist therapist family see redflag hotline could possibly help cant go sleep like this im lost cant allowed feel anything without wanting kill myself whats point living all want this allowed feel happy know whats wrong brain mood stabilizers antipsychotics antidepressants anything me edited add know terrible say this think this but wish sort terminal illness wish cancer could make alone anything would fine would mean would excuse physically sick pathetic anything would fine need something know is something change cant stop thinking would it need hate feeling way too thats blunt honest truth edited add feel like im me im person six years ago im one voices used head started antipsychotics get rid got rid well that try get them me back keep trying move on strange even two years control my body might delusional either way im crazy medications helping,1 +get many girls adding snap weight reasons get many girls adding snap either think theyre overweight actually lbs extremely self conscious way developing eating disorders want lose weight even though theyre fine recovering eating disorder realize repercussions ive also gotten year old guys ask nudes sent one guy pic chest im male said jebaited horny told wants see naked anyway experience im trying bash anyone eating disorder self conscious anything something help so many people gets annoying probably around girls last months im getting little tired ill keep trying talk them make feel better try help them need get something system,0 +want goapologise dramatic title put simply want go tragic backstory anything longest time ive known belong realm im counting days im gone know selfish rest understand wanted it know gonna happen think about,1 +im literally steps killing myselfthats far bedroom bottle pills cabinet takes pills extra strength tylenol cause liver failure id take probably cant keep this cant keep going person matters care person matters even old enough talk please want die cutting helping anymore,1 +even try going diei never understood people would work hard life life waste time willing hold onto going die rather like not dont care anything anymore want die get hell with reincarnation real it ill kill again again hell real it real hell alive growing up life crystal stair dad physically abusive mom wouldnt shit it im teen expects us happy healthy fatherson relationship fuck past right okay school now im complete failure parents never content bs high cs gave completely never felt sense accomplishment them never felt like genuinely made parents proud sure tell make proud everyday world knows doesnt come bottom hearts nothing hire c right lots ds fs times would try improve avail intoxicated procrastination deprivation wanting live longer born government suck money us parents getting pennys worth want us incredible debt beg loans debt want schools encourage college burn hundreds thousands dollars relive high school get degree something never truly interested in successful people smacked face leave real good red mark feel like shit every god damn time reflect yourself cant get better anything damn tired lifes bullshit life isnt worth it really isnt sure go ahead start multibillion dollar company buy mansions studios lamborghinis hell it know going lose die im social introvert embrace it hate talking people hate people talk me hate everyone hate society hate mainstream media news hate everything hate world hate myself hate life everything terrible god sent hell amuse watching suffer expects get knees bend pray mercy fuck that let die already whats hold up im right god look now created image right wanted no fuck you kill right now even writing waste time god nows im depressed sociopath dad tried open several times fucking hate people try getting head fuck off would never understand even halfassedly opened clearly stated felt depressed correlated fact need friends fuck dad fuuck friends never trust people fuck people world filled backstabbing rats hate family brings girlfriend bullshit look straight god damn eyes say chance woman fucking it even ever looks would never date piece shit filth like me everyone says looks maybe do fucked teeth dont anything goimg me god damn dentists orthodontist arent jack shit never called next appointment saying lets wait years teeth grow settle its five fucking years since said that fucking long take teeth fucking grow fuck shit fuck god damn backstabbing sons bitches thieves dentists fucking kill today sure fuck hope make deal devil fucking demon kill entire fucking family cry shitty god mercy life waste time nothing going me ive online friend recently killed himself lived different countries strong anonymity wasnt shit could help since never took advice seriously hope meet soon peter,1 +theres random old lady math class no teacher know,0 +noose knots difficultim sitting feeling like failure able figure short drop noose want end,1 +im bored do im bored do do do do do do do do click linkhttpswwwgooglecouk,0 +nobody remember long die erase never come backthats nice thought wish could completely painlessly disappear care painful me want people pain even anyone cares happen die parents care im sure that maybe friends care little know im suicidal thats ok ive left notes fault parents fault fault absence might noticed reddit communities forgotten soon after im afraid people remember me right parents say oh nice considerate forget was well never even knew real me nobody does want someone nobody soon die forgotten forever thats good,1 +anyone loud scream sound effect need one project cant find good one need sound like female scream cant sound human needs sound dont even know try help find one lol,0 +put shredded cheese mac cheese therefore chef gordan ramsey senpai could never,0 +one favourite westerns cast glenn ford plays role usual mild controlled firm manner ford plays one smaller ranchers shadow mighty anchor ranch wants swallow whole territory edward g robinson plays crippled patriarch anchor ranch barbera stanwyck plays sly scheming wife plenty action western quite impressive scenery delicious letterbox scope photography breath taking soundtrack stereo would say western sizeable budget looks expensive one series great glenn ford westerns,0 +og post lost new update help motivating friend friend started youtube channel hes always wanted didnt understand technical side made channel posted video asked same videos havent really seen discouraging him told patient hes losing hope im posting another video right later tonight playing rec room ask go check think channel potential subscribe wont really like content dont friend agreed make another video lets keep views coming httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucncyfypwtzpyagdgufqq,0 +interesting premise interestingly worked out strongest feature film emotional tension astronaut knows truth unable convey others overlook weaknesses enjoy movie prepared certain level suspense,0 +century long debate finally resolved glass half empty full glass half full empty need thank,0 +angry suicidali get really angry want hurt know people piss off,1 +friend going hard time decided write poem it wanted know people thought thought would come behalf thoughts poemwhen day comesand anymorejust know triedi tried hardbut broken easy fix try fight every dayevery hour every minute every second rest constant battle demonsand tired weakyoure exhausted life life worth living poem depressiongiving,1 +fart right go toilet idk im uncertain whether fart legitimate shit help,0 +what point point anymore longer continue fight try find reasons keep living reasons find waste time days wander around feeling invisible like im speck dust floating air forgottenthe end,1 +answer question doesnt involve personal info honestly possible sfw nsfw anything im bored maybe help automod go fuck automod go fuck automod go fuck,0 +remember seeing trailer movie first released looked pretty cool never got chance see though went blockbuster rent videos figured watch it love silence lambs seen enjoyed movies might get kick the cell whole story concept interesting going physically mind killer cant imagine world live in acting actually pretty decent jennifer lopez one say great believable job would recommend scary thrillerbr br ,0 +gonna interrupt ur new year posts mention cute rn cant look like time smh,0 +goodnight everyone sleeping fun ima that hope good day night,0 +go motions find body walking taking places really presenttravelling going classesit like and try remember got certain place find loss days even feel like,1 +helpi messaged before tried look positive things life let get dragged hurt constantly feel wife cheated me spent savings move out leaving rented home wife dog desperately miss doctor months medication see counsellor weekly also psychiatrist able work since christmas cant handle emotionally pretty much said job anymore living brothers house enough money get divorce done thats it close friends best cant around suicidal year now try hard tell things get better friends find hard understand feel even though emailed explained fell alone lost everything worked for cry constantly really want go anymore know would end life think it makes feel much relaxed point even want try find way out want die thing stopping right now sister would gone know feeling cant keep putting feelings mine want selfish want instead putting people first wrong want go life pain someone else wants one person tells it get better swear scream wrong putting first,1 +guys saying super straight transphobic exact someone bragging dont date black people getting offended someone calls racist bros attracted trans person one said thats transphobic saying more straight showing date trans ppl shitty part care actual preferences calling superstraight part thats genuinely transphobic least incredibly fucking rude inherently invalidating,0 +reviewing intense martial arts movie first time nearly years must say lose mysticism eyepopping martial arts action remembered youth story dying martial arts instructor sending unfinished pupil find past members poison clan seek fortune masters friend keeps hidden afraid last pupil enough training instructs befriend one five venoms defeat fourbr br i cant say enough choreography camera work fine film right quite possible one best martial arts movies ever made classic,0 +wake feeling sickly morning constant feeling emotional breakdown go hide bedroom minutes cry cannot cry feel emotionally constipated children around want see crying know going me honestly never felt like before distract feel heartbeat increase scared panic attack bath night though heart attach drowned children find next morning could relax got out thoughts time sometimes thoughts children murdered assaulted soon fall sleep oh sleep able sleep long time feel soo alone today cannot call family friends even say them explain understand really hurting today hurting,1 +socially awkward irl im socially awkward friends school none social media cant even chat them hate quarantine much fucked even little social life,0 +someone dm pleaseee im really bored im looking friends stuff also im really bad conversation dm might seem bit dry first,0 +m dealing depression since that diagnosed redflag since separation redflag social redflag sincetldr read last large paragraph know condense thatwhen parents broke up always close mum dad object owned son believed deserved fought mum me know care anytime put aside never really interacted want go would pry lamppost crying drag car take house brought first sembalances redflag low self esteem blood really love took something wrong me top cheated mum broke together womenafter mum remarried next partner fine first changed younger brother treated hindrance due troubles going custody court stuff dad causing relationship mums partner saw fathers son took frustrations first gas lighting mental abuse went till also mentally abused mum older sister little brother illness mum felt stay him older leave thus freed abusei also accident fractured hip could walk year could use partial weight year that final straw made deeply depressed one place could get away school months felt alienated alone end retreated room place semblance safety leftall led deep rooted self hatred low self worth redflag depression since managed idly spend time retreating games barely really living top last friends completely distanced difference views one mum siblings even grandparents always dementia cannot even remember see mei feel alone everyone leave one day reason left live even feel would better died saved trouble family support leech kindness want burden feel useless know lazy hate it know way mess head live life worth livingi sorry extremely long much wanted say something somewhere relieve feeling built inside m need get feel chest one talk,1 +gta free download virus here ishttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvmlhzvivflgk enjoy gamers ,0 +sorryhow people keep going people keep going cant figure out abusive relationship age fucked up im still wake screaming ive lost friends nobody believed wanted friends still easier friends pretend like nothing happened admit raped repeatedly controlled years become control eventually give accept thats life situations like that didnt tell anyone years didnt believe me keep trying okay im college take semesters attempted redflag twice im now ive therapy years cant find joy anything used fucking joyful days want hug im isolated everyone used love still love didnt love enough believe me im fucking desperate right now im scattered retraumatized something happened week suicidal every day thing like volume knob thing somedays want others somedays im checking ceiling fan aware could hold weight days im smashing things head bleed pain seen outside cant see ptsd way see broken leg people get im hurting time explain i raped hear every night im tired explaining myself taking time school get worse again feel stupid worthless forgettable idk fuck im posting reddit pay therapist call whenever im tired trying convince go inpatient facility would rather die cheaper thats sure,1 +town depressing fuck like insane levels boring parents lot money get cars fun stuff here ended losing friends depressed sitting around day everyone really really cold mean like everyone says small townsi fun years friends hung every day fun stuff but still never invited anything people hated me parents poor going vacations anything us hanging boring town came back home culture shock hell walked outside today friday night everything pitch black empty everything closed even bar totally dead could even see city could walk outside crowds trains go beach overi tried outgoing possible since got back messaged every single person used know social media everyone really cold either ignoring same always walked around hours went places eat hung there tried going shitty bar shut covid reason cannot even think single way make friends car like one two small shops small parkeven lived big city make friends people friendlier feel defeated living long friends anywhere anything stuff completely alone years got depressed nothing drink smoke weed every day passed barely get bed feels impossible anything without friends social enough able walk strangers became friends want like friendseven friends always better meeting talking people always friends could get vibe tell loser barely friends anything really think take anymore loneliness get suicidal thoughts daily get random thoughts would much easier take one step rooftop grow old alone every day miserable everyone know loser already tried killing twice tons dumb shit hoping diei could go fucking bad feel like lost life town friends want kill,1 +feel violated confused alone dont know dohello f dont know talk to feel like raped personal opinion spoken mother consulted friends situation im receiving mixed reactions opinions everyone happened last month asked man barely knew sleep me eachother social media really know much man dumb ass decision know pursued anyway prior sex multiple previous conversations wearing protection stds birth control im firm condoms always been also stated well claimed tested within last two months tested recently completely clear finally meet up told started wanted use condoms thought understanding using protection guess wrong first two times wears condom gets goes bathroom comes back bed im laying side looking phone even paying attention him next thing know turns back penetrates protection immediately froze scared know do afraid would hurt due fact knew want decided wanted anyway soon finished got there make doctors appointment weeks incident come back positive std incurable feel violated hurt confused know do know feel im normally vengeful person taking everything get pay back feel like give choice made me hate him im hard time coping this friends opinion never first place fault happened you mom thinks otherwise mother says penetrating someone way consent rape know do,1 + second horror film emmahttpsyoutubemtomnfbrps,0 +im suicidal im definitely existential crisishow one deal knowledge universe one day end find solace idea try best were alive let stress suicidal verge pulling chris mccandless,1 +witnessed car chase minutes ago walking shops bunch sirens going off white bakkie came speeding traffic horn thing full blast swerving like mad police cars behind im home still hear sirens ambulances im guessing chase over,0 +caught making plan back mind againim apparently post wall whatever means moment fleeting glimpse meant truly happy heart growing radiance talked kids would like made feel safe finally ok vulnerable didnt maintain fiercely independent facade finally slept peaceful sleeps arms laughed thought loved over put tiny amount weight unwell left went back red pill recognise lied compulsively idealised devalued discarded believe met person cannot actually compassion act conscience act god like complex trying right make right genuine understanding pain actually causing yet im still trying empathise understand could actually like mean cant measure lifes value someone else isnt first time ive success world doesnt matter heart empty figure income work part time ive lost mojo ive lost passion work feels meaningless im tired again still,1 +another reviewer called lack character development call understatement movie bash one head overexplanation unnecessary backstory yes many untold stories got glimpse of primarily oneday snapshot event catalyzed change characters lives henry thomass performance really lovely study power acting focuses reaction rather action good rental,0 +want stop thinkingi want live anymore,1 +good titles think important message httpswwwredditcomrpublicfreakoutcommentsjzhqthis_black_man_has_had_enough_of_the_blm_movementhttpswwwredditcomrpublicfreakoutcommentsjzhqthis_black_man_has_had_enough_of_the_blm_movement,0 +another sidewill punished redflag,1 +cope failurehow people cope failure currently failing college feel worthless waste time money space espically time one teachers best help study pass waste money paying college mom dad are also waste time boyfriend major tried teach everything me another teacher have lets call mrsp privacy sake mrsp horrible teacher teaches students sees potential wants help students likes anything two students caught copying answer sheet online exam checked browser history left also help boyfriend classes boyfriend helping learn teach spends two hours reading material cant answer questions accused cheating front entire class point left class tears talked advisor program talked mrsp said finished lecture early one day said class program advisor spoke her starting ranting said class hard think im hardass etc turned beat red everyone started giving shit outside class tried best every assignment test need parts final pass give feel bad incoming students networking division school heres kicker retiring thats excuse teacher even called nothing getting done hes taking classes lets call mrh privacy sake mrh amazing teacher classes hard sure make wanna learn helping try pass class mrsp felt like let worked hard study take notes stuff also feel like let family graduated id first family complete college struggled depression scince ive managing hit hard fail mrsp class come back spring cannot afford even loans feel pointless continue im litterly classes degree reason cant get it feel anything emptiness sadness want die know thats right choice feel anything care college anymore cant pass mrsp class care anything health boyfriend existence none means anything drop labeled failure even wanna get bed final tomarrow know gonna pass tldr failing college fell worthless cope severe failure,1 +cant take pain anymoreim really tired feeling worthlessness constant feeling dread past year ive dealing constant pain destroying am thought was never really bad childhood lot friends growing up lot im still friends with heck met best friend first grade were roommates college elementary school mom diagnosed thyroid disease bone disease started taking pain medications fourth grade without ever really realizing it became addicted irrational times ninth grade moved back old house let go school three months want leave her personally know do loved mom still do irrational behavior frightened say least near end ninth grade grandparents got custody me ended able complete classes failed ninth grade got graduate friends classmates ive really struggling with however way treated mom high school would call me leave voicemails crying eyes out would ask want visit her missed me ignored calls voicemails junior high school listened all felt like shittiest son world even though caused much pain felt bad long started running cycling deal emotional pain immediately fell love feeling running cycling gave me time could escape thoughts great think anything ran beautiful started running lot started running ten miles day made feel good myself life felt great like shitty person joined cross country teamtrack team senior year high school made lot good friends made sectionals track x finally felt like accomplished something great once however around year ago pulled muscletendon knee biking hill since ive tried several times get back cycling running ive always ended reinjuring myself took three months completely running last semester able run two miles summer knee injury came back forced stop running again ive also struggling consistent groin pain feels like tearing sensation whenever stand up ruining life itll pop place ill readjust make feel right again anyway im tired feeling like this im tired constantly pain reason never good anything life started running cycling people knew guy ran shit ton liked myself hard go door run fifteen miles blue miss much ive several doctors positive results theyve said take aleve itll feel better ive done everything doctors said do im still pain idea why im tired pain constant feeling worthlessness ive felt like ive living purpose long everyone something theyre great at best friend computer science major hes super smart roommate quad leader band feel useless feel like life meaning runnercyclist something productive life finally better someone something im sorry long feel like tell someone this eating longest time feel like im going break point soon one understands,1 +fuck math literally everyone hate math,0 +idk point constantly feeling like failure life amp matter much try change always feel like people looking failure enough recently started cutting point sure even worth alive point feeling everyone looking everyone blaming something going wrong much shitty person cannot even fix still feel like ill never enough starting yo hate matter much try correct things wrong life try fix shitty situations life feel like cannot ever shit right everyone looking currently botlle hlf thinkjng blut end thinkingnof long feel like would make every situation better amp everyone around less bothered amp annoyed wits end,1 +make easiest loved oneswhat put note leave note belongings way hurt least think about it,1 +m need friends hey im pretty lonely rn would love friends mainly play apex legends minecraft java valorant amo f us im pst timezone anybody interested please pm me thanks ,0 +anyone else weird experiences hospitalits year since last attempt go me think ive fully processed experience the hospital think days constant redflag watch first couple days hallucinating vomiting violently drugs put on im still slightly convinced put drugs try deter trying if so worked afterwards like prep school try get out practice say make sure washed clean looked presentable would hopefully let out went saw psychiatrist supposed check see allowed let out started telling needed jesus needed accept lord could happy told stuff relationships time which looking back abusive picked that told stay away men except godly men surprised treat badly nodded nodded told id go church finally let go like hours im still processing shit anything im processing something like could allowed happen nhs,1 +desperate female one interested relationship female wants relationship offers,0 + mom please tell officer im sorry broke promise youll know one tell emts im sorry wont able make light hearted jokes way hospital please dont let aunt make facebook post shes done please dont let tell sisters hate know cold statement could bring dad back life think ok knew would make everything worse let dad know dont blame didnt mean bit sick dont tell little buddy im gone make something please dont ever let know let therapist know great almost made better please let everyone know im trying selfish need peace please dont mad love really need get better im tired cant get better earth im really sorry thank everything best mom ever please remember bottle doesnt help dont try it love please look notes blue swan box bottom right shelf shoe closet,1 +depression fucking everything quit different jobs mechanic lawncare seem redflagful caused suicidal thoughts sky rocket need something low redflag likely low redflag jobs,1 +ive thought lots ironically im scaredive considered taking life several occasions reason im scared would effect children ill married father beautiful children love dearly love same fought depression awhile even knowing st years call it dealdealt basic problems life money amp drugs lead relationship issues lost mombest friend almost yrs ago everything im self proclaimed mommas boy things got worst second family fell apart dad brother sister aunts uncles stop seeing eye eye cause resent ppl reason gone kids know end day wrong thing do phase better days ahead situation mold comparison others get constantly go backwards life matter hard try try stay positive comes point feel like alternatives deep know wanna this feel im running fight even know im making post think ive heard every solution try fix problems zero percent success rate thus far figured cant get worst posting this tldr ive considered redflag lots times never attempted it suffer depression led financial relationship drug family problems,1 + already years of budding addiction job again perpetually selfdestructing family complete inability make new friends girlfriend onoff years moved back baggageboroi spent entire teenage life abstaining drugs wanted enjoy adult fresh brain realized threshold child adult hopeless blur bad genes genes winning far enjoy altered im college dropout skills retailfastfoodlevel experience vehicle day job applications essentially shittiest lottery ever hope placed lucky enough win minimum wage im person real life internet theres real mask anonymity use flatten selfesteem palatable wafer bitterness may come girlfriends proliferous digital social life utterly failed thing lived room years charming best feels like matter luck moved back came months telling know wanted me couple weeks expressly wanting baby family future moved conversation week know need do try harder get job learn marketable skill open people more move worst need dragged it need friends somewhere go id like beach im right there car get it,1 +finally watching walt disneys song south myspace decided watch ralph bakshis response moviecoonskinon afro video linked google video one liveaction sequences preacherman charles gordone takes friend sampson barry white pick pappy scatman crothers randy philip thomas years added michael middle name professionally latter two escape prison attempt pappy tells randy tale brother rabbit voice thomas brother bear white preacher fox gordone adventures harlem expected many bakshi efforts theres mix animation liveaction provides unique pointofview writerdirector sure offend people another fascinating animated character miss america whos bigas gigantic every waywhite blonde woman dressed skintight red white blue stars stripes hold little black man shot one sexually violent ways shockingly funny me plenty scenes sprinkled throughout picture another one concerning brother bears frontal anatomy also provided big laughs me theres also segment woman telling baby cockroach friends left touching part seeming tribute comic strip artist george herriman also fascinated hearing grover washington jrs version aint sunshine heard part score compelling part picture seeing scatman depicted head silhouette opening credit sequence singing scatting song using nword satirical way saw vhs cover movie years ago depicted brother rabbit insolent mode front looked like warner circles slogan this movie offend everybody ample warning anyone thinks cartoons meant children said definitely recommend coonskin fans bakshi every form animation,0 +free cuddles rona anyone preferably girls cuz im better girls guys too wants cuddle rona comment pls d requirements must pedophile must nice person must fully vaccinated must teen preferably girl guys allowed,0 +interpret friend telling likes all telling one friend doind whole thing group chat it letting kne friend see deleting texts friend wont tell anything like weird like please im nice filler filler filler filler fillrt fillr,0 +would rather would rather drink bleach eat dried cum scraped sisters asshole,0 +im going see whats afterlifesorry goodbye,1 +please wake up miss you ive trying reach years now seems like dreams im normal social media user im husband miss you please wake up,0 +nothing doi work hours week money gone days waste juul pods food cant even afford haircut prioritize nicotine addiction look dont car walk minutes work back every day dont sheets bed im lazy piece shit cant get bed except work im parents dead sister inherited house sister lives boyfriend hate ive taken food without asking starving trying make dont get money house sell it sister working lawyer havent able talk friends nobody friends someone car money think killing every day walk past train tracks way work whats point living whenever sell house im sure ill homeless less year,1 +good thing bicurious im immune traps thats post also coming,0 +well treating redflag poor body image counselling supportive friends feel selfish feeling like this feel like disrespecting making mockery people killed know worked could make horrid feeling go away tired mentally completely exhausted mum diagnosed yet another serious disease immune system already weak hell medication could potentially fatal dad blames bad lifestyle constantly screaming want divorce cannot afford one sick trying block arguing know anymore probably going die young anyway disease hereditary every single female mums bloodline gotten form it yeah could take medication rest life worth it nothing even wrong me got good grades mock exams i secondary school nice friends seem annoy now know mean to fault stupid shit never would done month ago like taking painkillers necessary walking lessons hide toilets end day reference time last month severe redflag would even speak lessons leaving without asking snapping get way even fucking told teacher yesterday felt like hurting myself felt suicidal sit office called mum put phone speaker heard say it stopped looking ways cross road stopped caring people think me started shutting everybody cares get home cry it cry sleep absurd read writing sound pathetic many people worse things feel wrong wanting die done know anymore anyhow one last day school left summer holidays weeks long uk weeks nothing sit alone think counsellors calling school think might ignore it think might overdose summer probably temporary feeling gone days needed get yknow way end offing least parents idea feeling look phone tired scared think anyone know much paracetamol considered overdose deter suddenly seems real summer might end,1 +anyone play halo master chief collection pc xbox tryna gain people play halo wanna add steam anyways im down steam name yesimforreal fried code steam xbox yesimforrea,0 +reeeeally want always end backing wish coward tired,1 +made wishlist ramen it anyone could help would much appreciated thank you zip code link amazon wish list url,0 +many astronaut stuff coming tv fall disney the right stuff netflix away apple tv for mankind get pushing stuff us,0 +im lonelyive suicidal thoughts ever single day since broke up stopped couple even real couple begin with really loved other still doesnt fault think mine said bpd still best friends seetexttalk nearly every day cant stop thinking time year ago cant accept never coming back crave physical attention much feel fucking lonely miserable gets worse every single day first person think wake last one fall asleep keep dreaming time spent together waking crying eyes out cant take anymore first person life showed genuine love genuinely liked am nothing fault im trying convince fault either mental illnesses make lifes hell want again physically emotionally please im lonely,1 +welp im deleting reddit account im deleting reddit account reddit users virgins im anymore good bye,0 +history fact day number marie antionette last french queen french revolution executed precisely october th ,0 +every day feel like constant pain mind shut constant discomfort anxieties dissatisfaction understand expected stay alive want end afraid working know else help hear people life want it wish someone could help think feels unbearable keep going want hear people talk,1 +thinking throwing front trainim fucking pathetic loser,1 +im dumb anything lazy undisciplined retard makes guilty worthlessi dont know fucking do im ,1 +normal eyes leaky im crying leaking water guess im gay water fountain give money,0 +someone talk toim musician sort of halfway finished degree jazz studies kitchen work gig living last year gotten many gigs im extremely lonely im good socializing im ugly im pretty weird easy talk to hard look people eye get really anxious anybody talk to person really gets ex girlfriend cant expect me im codependent mother abusive hit lot screamed everyday moved out im afraid feel neurotic week broke screamed direct supervisor work feel extremely condescending toxic blames coworkers mistakes me hes passive aggressive confront anyone directly reason im scapegoat called showing minutes late everyday yet complaining morning prep getting done training new employees expecting it generally applying standards sets himself feel close breaking know people jump death always change mind right jump logically see that im nearly thirty entire life awful something huge blocking emotionally know fix it feel like crying im tired time really need help know ask ask sorry wall,1 +evil thing bring water fight mine would white phosphorus dissolved copper sulfate moment liquid evaporates phosphorus would stick persons clothing catch fire since ignite upon contact oxygen engulfing person flames toxic fumes,0 +depressed since gotten worse regularly suicidal thoughts back acted hung chickend couple seconds life mental health gotten much worse since then daily urge take life since incident hesitant know reasona part wants fight get better part not nothing look forward do constant struggle tiring much consideration decided best go iteven write this part wants get better might either today tomorrow,1 +im starting blog need name blog completely rando shit also revolve around weed stone frnds do id cool yall cud help name something catchy also references pop culture something direct also someone could point subreddit would get serious discussion going would great too,0 +mystery meat school taste somewhat good starving,0 +using shethey getting mad someone uses make sense saw instagram post said someone uses shethey switch use them like literally say oh yeah bought coat today lots money something like that otherwise apparently offensive someone enlighten makes sense all friend mad says hard respect want understand even makes sense,0 +hey uhhh know that uhm hi,0 +monthsits awhile since posted probably months since tried od certain drug courage to looking back stage life might overloaded worry work maybe say no didnt nevertheless still get ideas every then especially hopping er work going bed nights idk seems like easy way eager for maybe find peace mind keep going strong fighting ideas trying make father proud hiding truth illness hoping notice stopped discussing cuz mostly hed tell theres jobs thats country live works hope whoever reads this stay strong easy stay strong,1 +yalls beliefs extraordinary paranormal believe stuff im bored muffucka ghosts cool zodiac signs dum dum thoughts,0 +im already feel dead noti keep telling get better getting hard hold back now death inevitable anyway stretch pain out,1 +office se golden spoilers started watching show swear ending dwight rolling shit funny also leaves questioning future builds good character development show focuses main peeps wacky times switch jims new office really get feel feels amazing episode,0 +advice needed hardly talk crush amp never told anything recently blue removed fb amp insta etc sending request amp deleting fb still see status whatsapp oo question is know how way rejecting people rejected ff kinda new thing ,0 +draw cant said say,0 +guess life now fuck it im donemy life complete shit deserve earth people clearly superior me im inferior mistake parents call miracle know im mistake im failure everyone know moved lived lives love im stuck unending cycle hopelessness dreams ambitions hopes nothing dream one day backpacking travelling world dreamt going holiday meeting wonderful woman would spent rest life with life kicks stop everyone see world superior im inferior scream im inferior parents say im not afraid admit well sometimes dream going another country mainly australia also canada new zealand even us im uk life depressing ive close killing long time ive even sent hospital times attempts im going keep trying im done life now dreams drive passion hope,1 +saw redflag sub mean click saw man blow brains fuck,0 +breakfast eggs get enough responses ill edit saying prepared eggs scrambled hard boiled etc,0 +action adventure want movie best advised look elsewhere hand lazy day want good movie go along mood check the straight storybr br richard farnsworth puts compelling performance gentle gentlemanly alvin straight true story alvins journey riding mower across three states see estranged brother strokebr br farnsworth perfect role travels long winding road making friends strangers doling lots grandfatherly type advice family along way story moves along slowly riding mower somehow manages keep viewer watching waiting next life lesson alvins going offerbr br stretch couch relax enjoy way watch good movie rates book,0 +one time ex walked toilet commented thicc looked cringe thought everyday tbh,0 +ever achieved rock bottom never opportunity meet friends made times probably fucked sentence above im native alright ampxb love all people known people know moment understood you ive loved whole heart ever hoping could feel like belong like also unconditionally loved since elementary school dream kept returning me oldest one know steppenwolf hermann hesse remember part redflag part man ampxb flights poland greenland expensive ampxb plan buy oneway ticket reykjavik rest cash going taxi driver drive far north possible get road go far white can take jacked of hat sweater go freeze death ampxb want change mind beg you,1 +really interesting movie action movie comedy mixed in foxx teams comedian epps movie give comedic spin keep wondering whats going happen foxx next well shot movie director used right colors moviedark blue colors give right kind feel kimberly elise also starred movie always pleasure see big screen plays role well even jamie kennedy movie worth seeing seen it definitely worth jamie foxx fan deserves credit actually given,0 +depression instrument filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +gentle reminder nothing matters part iiwell incalculable reason im still thing course blew interview lack preparation seems things matter things do course discussed lack preparation mentioned specific things prepared felt like fool course done things read thing sent email least partially went dark time original position thinking still open told filling contractor positions thinking never hit job board goal date came went threw hands convinced going happen must really want theyre giving writing assignment redeem myself makes sense im tempted tell that looking massive pool well qualified individuals opportunity cost huge ampxb httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsakweqca_gentle_reminder_that_nothing_i_do_mattershttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsakweqca_gentle_reminder_that_nothing_i_do_matters ampxb ampxb,1 +flair changing day bois finally turn change flair now,0 +thank youi contemplating it seriously enough ive thinking it read subreddit see people problems fuck werent nothing grounds suicidal real reason fucking people gone hell back someone subreddit got raped front girlfriend made realise ive gone something like that im sticking through,1 +ugh sound like simp need help like best friend lot im guy shes girl ive known years used go school dont bcz hs wanna shoot shot theres chance missing every day dont tell eats hurts much wanna tell her idk to heard girls like confidence im confident likes back ik fact also dont wanna break friendship feel tell her would make things awkward wed eventually become strangers girls give tips advice helps sorry long ass paragraph too,0 +know doim recovering metheverything junkie going year two weeks last night went visit sister friend place ive never really before ended rather going home right sister left flight sitting buffalo wild wings drinking turned year never drunk bar suppose wanted feel like everybody else place felt absolutely terrible three beers decided drive home told roomates happened entire three hour drive could think disappointed myself made progress life throw away peer pressure felt like failure still right now know silly seems even think silly feel though let everyone around me want give up solid support system set trying get sober feel disappointed well feel horrible called work today let boss down lied calling place recently got promoted actually rising ranks great job im lost desperately want like people went high school college partying acting normal becoming suicidal fact drank couple beers ive thought today giving up drive home last night took everything slam gas pedal let drift something time past year actually looking forward future im back last years feeling like shit ashamed deeply wanting anything take away worst part drugs now used use drugs take pain away worked time anymore even picked meth heroin whatever chemical gave put much could make feel better thats worst part want end im tired trying hard better go right back demoralizing tunnel leads bitter end either directly killing slowly dying addict death,1 +im scared myselfthe thoughts keep getting worse know tell distracting try school work cant it want die really badly ive feeling way long idea called recently realized want die birthday yesterday turned wish never born body celebrate with body tell anything think parents care really wish did theyre mean me really hurts know im wanted where hurt said accident nobody helped me tried little want try more want done for think go anymore im scared feel like myself even know myself is think go much longer,1 +posting everyday get girlfriend day random joke time man walks bar ouch,0 +anyone wanna talk lt nothing interesting put good reason talk strangers today bored,0 +ill start right beginning saying i like movie sweeping grand gripping fun sinhue physiciansits front small stone hut writing memoirs story is taken river reared elderly couple doted him becomes physician poor befriends horemheb sees glory sinhue sees healing run future pharaoh anknaten forgive spellings endures epileptic fitbr br and pharaoh another flaw believes one god instead pantheon gods back then totally revolutionary sinhue horemheb grow up one night sinhue sees woman makes lose senses gives practice sells parents home even tombs spend night her he tell meanwhile merit tavern maid played sweet simplicity belying strength jean simmons falls love sinhue falls spell spell belief one godbr br victor mature overacts perfectly horemheb edmond purdom sincere sinhue lost physician does find redemption stay tuned even bela darvi woman steals sinhues heart bad everyone said fact daryl f zanucks mistress nothing casting right yeah rightstill bad _ ive seen worse think better the egyptian many todays young actresses done anything said ill say like movie recommend it makes think despite hammy acting fun movie worth it,0 +im probably going kill self tomorrowim tried want end ive ben depressed long recently gotten worse im curtly college semesters ends thursday fell none talk also dread going back home im tired living family even tough paying college kind hate ben emotionally abusive cant drive im probably going stuck house summer ware else go honestly know much take it,1 +shoulders distracting like see pic guy either snap story etc shoulders exposed know hes wearing shirt guys bodies really turn,0 +ok ok im still sick pizza c u thanks,0 +thought starting get better cry yesterday lol jokes bc ended bawling eyes today remember mom passed away last year remember last words be good dad knows much hated dad cheating multiple times yet still forgave him honest done anything productive past weeks three weeks backlog summer class cannot bring study verge giving course cannot last thing mom remember taking engineering expecting engineer someday want disappoint her executive dysfunction,1 +search tati mcquay instagram tell shes hot asf search tati mcquay instagram tell shes hot asf,0 +teachers cold call worst built extension alerts name said google meet httpschromegooglecomwebstoredetailnotifymedgckonnckhjlnjbhhcmomkgidhkjngeo,0 +people want help not say dont itevery time ask mates someone internet suicidal thoughts say dont it ive started think really helping me dont want die selfish,1 +might mess around make profile picture actual picture like minutes idk tho feeling pedos run rampant sub might mothers jaded opinion towards internet forums shed pissed knew reddit dare internet safety unit scaring life,0 +looking old picturesdoes anyone ever go back look old pictures im rn pictures innocent little kid enjoyed life think kid idea hell hes gonna go life,1 +minecraft touch grass tnt spawns join stream soon ill live moment yaboidomenikhttpswwwtwitchtvyaboidomenik,0 +plucky sounds like insult honestly opposite one though descriptor someone brave determined,0 +iconic gaming quotes drop them filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +people get upset talk bottom dysphoriasurgery hi im eighteen year old afab agender person bad bottom dysphoria im trying get surgery completely remove vagina feminine bits leaving smooth crotch hole pee of ive known wanted parts gone body since young i tried glue shut thirteen live new york which queer positive city feel comfortable talking queer subjects bottom surgery dysphoria always something ive causios talking outside house im afraid people say mentioned wanting void genitals recently close freind who trans himself became super weirded worried me thought would supportive said really hurtful stuff it fault dont hate him feel cold alone know people weirded dysphoria enby people nullification surgery thing even cissys get it still havnt even mentioned bottom issues girl like think ill ever able get girlfriend mind like is,0 +friend suicidal dohi friends reddit one closest friends feeling depressed suicidal long time over years last night confided getting much worse recently feeling absolutely hopeless thing holding back much would destroy younger sister went it lie bed day wishing could stop existing one knows feels right now parents suspect therapist probably too already tried commit redflag before tell anyone else fears reactions mother quite forceful father complete opposite feels uncomfortable talking a stranger her therapist older sister aggressive loves younger sister much potentially upset her feels like burden family strongly believes putting they to were right help us around gone university study parents tried force go university past two years friend interest whatsoever trying get job now stays bed day interest either ive depression though nearly long completely different reason tell ridiculously lazy family thinks lack even get morning constantly panicking paranoid everything although always show it im glad feels comfortable enough talk i person knows anything remotely similar know except listen try convince people love her etc i even know right thing do reliant pills always wishing pill cure cure that told every solution comes pillform looking back may cleverest thing say im bit lost person talk to want best friend possibly her so dearest redditors help greatly appreciated thanks lot hugs everyone,1 +need help girl went school except im th grade th grade like know start conversation her need advice start talking her,0 +one unusual plots ive seen horror film based good solid universal studios fare lots monsters pretty heroine torchbearing villagers favorite part larry talbot the wolf man searching cure lycanthropy dying original wolf man resurrected wanders frankenstein meets wolf man house frankenstein searching way end affliction think firsttime viewers find search particular movie interestingbr br ,0 +want stay alive notwhenever tell mother grandmother im depressedhaving suicidal thoughtshaving panic attack either one assume saw something internet made upset theyll tell grow up actually attempt redflag theyll act never saw coming get angry me,1 +tried every imaginable means get long avail still cannot convince live without life partner every fleeting conversation woman gives hope immediately dashed every time hear people setting up want jump front train even try stay home avoid women much possible leads things remind themthere way this cannot even kill always carrot tomorrow maybe tomorrow meet one deep know hope cannot compete dudes accepted fact never marry,1 +hi hi quick question everyone sister plan open cat cafe older like idk would popular so would ever go cat cafe one local you,0 +hate body dont like anything body want different ive looked like could care less weight like things like boobs get body ok theres rant day happy new year,0 +anyone wanna talkm im probably too pm lets bored together,0 +today already sucks woke took shet bad legs hurt,0 +circumcision makes feel suicidalhi community know may sound weird hate circumcision infant without consent especially austrian left intact hate people claim nearly one third circumcised vast majority still happy course are even months ago think something change supressed feelings beacuse considered weak disrespectful parents realised unethical cut part body feel incomplete raped raped knife feel betrayed nad humiliated parents inferior rest society already spoken parents utterly regret could forgive feelings stay unfortunately learn grief feel,1 +want watch world burnim sick tired feeling sick tired im done nightmares every night want weighed depression want made victim anymore want part world anymore choose born fk world never wanted this,1 +boyfriend hour please keep occupied kill myselfi want badly please,1 +s hong kong man woman move day adjacent apartments respective spouses soon suspect ever absent spouses affair oneanother strange bond emerges man woman cope sadness taking turns playing others spouse complex bond emergesbr br no summary justice hong kong auteur wong karwais in mood love nothing short miracle story sadness manages touching times funny romance never feels forced fake doubt directors method lot thatbr br directed inexistent screenplay though concept largely flows japanese short story favor improvisation film immediately set apart freshness performances film revolves around rest pure enhancement core film two characters ease heart stay long end credits roll maggie cheung tony leung simply amazing language barrier undermines single fragment immediacy truth display additional material also topnotch films magnificent behold in part lensed heros christopher doyle music heartbreakingbr br this something everybody must see far heartfelt mature authentic love story there unmissable,0 +whenever ac turns smells like dogshit using emphasis smells like literal dogshit,0 +feels like im losing mindsome time around december started getting depressed super well life suddenly progress paused sort fell this started feeling sad anxious whole works life started back again great things happened life im getting anxious depressed happens thats affecting whats happening life got accepted prestigious exclusive improv comedy group feel like im spiralling control cant perform anymore feel like im burden group regrets accepting me schoolwork getting affected grades dropping mind always elsewhere worst all cant seem talk people anymore feel like peoplefriends have new old see sort freak right im really struggling talk social mind constantly racing miserable know fix it think could ever commit redflag certainly started thinking decent amount scares me want think it im afraid might actually consider life continues current direction needed get chest thanks,1 +dont wanna die dont wanna live eitheri dont see point,1 +anyone agree doom relaxing videogame series mean anybody read play doom shoot everything moves incredibly simple fucking amazing,0 +someone else commented feelgood movie got glorious scenery wonderfilled voice luciano ive seen movie many times saw afternoon id forgotten much miss pavarottis singing nessun dorma need get cd great movie away afternoon engrossed fun reverie eddie albert grand agent bit top agents anyway italian countryside gorgeous nothing tops balloon ride perfect view need acting olivier proportion movie you want flight fancy wonderful music watch film enjoy,0 +feeling butterfly knife tiredhey guys ive posted lot recently basically ago girlfriend depended broke even friends really taxing me went mall friends today scalpel home wanted something bigger hurt really protection shady areas cape town south africa anyway im sitting bed im really good place really want self harm really sharp im posting rselfharm takes hours respond im really lonely cant move miss ex nothing makes happy anymore truly happy anyway life feels forced whats killing moved blocked social media fucked off burdened anymore wish relief too therapist good antidepressants help want die im scared pain could take lot pills make simple cut bleed id that anyway years long enough live guess im rambling im sure get emotions out want someone tell things okay miss much killing me want die want die would friends think im gone family ex anyway thanks listening sw im sorry im bothering im really alone right now,1 +strong enoughi always thought committing redflag think ever hit hard today cant even feel sadness point really angry everything nothing makes happy anymore years cant blame others something chose though angry well cant even honest see look afterwards try hard keep hold wonder much longer take ampxb end blame constant silly choices life ever since child live consequences problem is thats life ever been living consequences baduninformed choices eh must real crap screwing constantly personal professional life ampxb maybe karma mistreating scaring away around me cant love love others would lying everyone still avoid unecessary drama people tell cold cruel person cold yet feel bad themselves ampxb problem admitting messed up even admit point it nothing change whats done done hardly even look people eyes long remember reached point makes sick enraged bitter even wake see people even choice take instead them one healthy im nothing here ampxb used let gaming fulfill even stopped working quickly fading away real aspirations things love became daily sacrifices struggles able coup knows long ampxb anyway want ask anyones forgiveness go back fix decisions hardly ask anything life want gain courage finally kill find peace reason go psychological warfare,1 +want painsometimes hands shake want smash hammer talk much really ever anything nice say myself still feel like im better friend anyone else ever be someone me sometimes really hope not always convince im best alone time spent time wasted want die im sure people would barely notice care seems people say feel bad someone knew maybe school work kills themself selfish theyd ever admit anyone really care life care uniform routine own feel like everyone would sad something different people like change lot people like either maybe death would good change kind everyone wants life sometimes want become rich maybe famous maybe want meet special someone want happy want life change good way feel like everyone around could ever happy died slowly painfully maybe im good change life death,1 +really need help regarding xi know post welcomed really hope huys allways seem know right thing could really use help m xgirlfriend f together year started really well love birds singing everything perfect hit bumps road though write that post lot longer anyways back case good run problems things started changing became mad reason became controllfreak drafted army things started becoming really bad first month went okay missed eachother things finally good came home leave second month after things became nightmare previous girlfriend started attending school x therefore took me started lying stupidest things like raped sex xboyfriend stuff never got fact sex someone met her started threatening redflag threatening wanted cheat me sleep outside streets acting like fucking maniac months drafted started breaking me almost daily whole month still head heals her became frantic begged it ended listening entire time ended it couple months later stoped threats complained everything me would shame dumbest things refuse meet friends wanted meet instead fell time later ended breaking up week went without contact started talking missing eachother decided try again sadly things quickly turned shit again months later broke up again time started contacting week saying spiteful things said already people tired me care all days later broke down started saying missed me wanted try again said started seeing people times broke me used solely scaretactic turned down stating want try again her wanted single nagged days end gave up told okay full intensions giving fuck two weeks passed am recently went trip days wich meant contact got back cellphone connection tried sending goodbye see soon message started complaining bringing cell phone even though connection there left also started bitching saying love left rush spite told loved her got back sent text me hey im back her when meet drive mall me no im tired trip want alone day im exhausted her you allways like this try something fun us act care even bother sending lt im done im this me okay then please leave im tired keep like this exchanged messages said want leave me said cant stand anymore last week hell told leave her kill herself shames ditching time leave fuck alone daily threatens redflag even last night went bed proceeded answering frantic calls fear resulted sleeping all writing post like child want get away her threatens redflag stating tried before kidding me go police ither parents also end herself thing keep untli handle herself leading road depression also seems suffer kind shizophrenia states see dead people hear whispers screams night also signs suffers from hope makes sense im totally clear head desperate way get away her someone please help me cant take anymore tldr chick year starts good ends like goddamn maniac threatens kill leave her cant stand life without me suffers kind shizophrenia need help needs help,1 + lost fucking mind getting worsei dont fit anywhere anymore im losing friends year dad unemployed jaded beyond belief dont know earth life ended like used felt feel pressure angles dont know fucking trust cant open up dont know whats worth fighting for want old back impossible dont think anyone realises depressed mind ive ruined chances love feel like becomming like cowardly cunt used oppositte lost beyond belief,1 +trusting peoplehey i uh want share story well first redflag attempt mine last summer details matter thing went rambling venting friend mine internet friend one considered dearest that mightve mistake supportive first ignored time rambling depression tough understand never told fine it nowhere your redflag attempts make laugh ass off was know apparently joke joke see ill react see serious suicidality not know stab someone sorry wanted see react many things said way gtdo even know much hurt me gtget shit together already gtugh know whats problem go fix it duh gtoh cant fix it well continue onwards slump currently are waiting miracle happen gtlook couldve told irl friends that didnt last one racket going chantage dealing suicidal person wrong them well half year passed still fixed that still want friends person really do talked one time recently either want hear all hostile hurts cant leave it well dear friends great ones turn back supported thanks them im still here unfortunately incident even want tell parents mental state im scared wish one would face someone like that,1 +please help hot wheels inside me long story short bone shaker model hot wheels car lodged ass im afraid stuck originally rectum think entered colon dont want tell mother father obvious reasons feel pointy exhaust pipes poke around lining large intestine im really afraid shred insides push perhaps guys give advice get out,0 +love youi love helping people even tho im insanely depressed myself pm talk,1 +aita calling cops suicidal friend ensure safetybefore get jumpy let clarify post aita tolerate redflag posts friend female lives miles she across country huge emotionally uncomfortable state she lot better now time parents even care thought attention so way could help her typing app called discord one day starts typing weird saying bunch goodbyes reason theyre scaring time redflagprone now admit something this wanted know lived chat another one close friends gives details name address however know county eventually found it found exact house via google maps so called police said name address probably redflag attempt get there texting cops there moments later get call one officers says everything okay thanked call empathy knew scared said thank you continued messages her proceeds rip new one saying never cried much life tell scared messages wanted know intentions apparently took complete wrong way tells fuck off blocked discord fastforward months later write supersorry message to friend yo her saying sorry huge misunderstanding asked meant messages etc accepted apology still wont forget night said questions aita improve relationship her,1 +want finish iti experiencing again anxious depressed lost desires cant find purpose living more ive hospital twice year already make sure works time nothing world cherish anymore need way out thank all,1 +disability torture please kill meim tired alone it,1 + years lowkey dictatorship ruling party country finally lost election finally freedom couldnt happy cant sleep excitement years old whole life single regime president announced man year organise crime corruption occrp stole billions upon billions dollars country closed almost every factory country almost comletelly crushed hopes dreams cried happiness pure joy tonight guys means much wouldnt believe,0 +opening scene movie pretty incredible ive seen number scifi movies great special effects roommate looked opening sequence said plainly sensory overload plot movie pretty simple nice thing scifi movie lets audience figure technology instead wasting time subtly explain it creatures movie also interesting get really good look two thirds way through overall entertaining movie,0 +let againthe people love ones likely decimate heart cruelty malice indifference keep lowering expectations standards keep getting hurt one day ill learn,1 +im taking bullshit life hands fucking right fucking bullshit going end right fucking im done im done im done im done fucking iti fucking molested first grade teacher fucking it years told teachers counslors princeable everbody thing teacher molested threatened told would kill told police thing stop im older take pedophile skateboard lot thing im good want find bitch bring knife kill right spot maybe gouge eyes first slit throought like stab neck run live small townand run commit sucicideit wont matter anyways get treated like shit wereever go school people call names cant talk people without getting stress try communicate people get called pervertrapestpedophile im called im differentand reminds happend im nice guy friends everybody hates ive never known like friends drumming church droped playing shitty drummer age churches music directors daughter wanted play cant talk girls without big chance trying kick balls teachers wont thing all sorry anything make sense all im done pain going soon hope everyminute bull shit painfull extreme stress amounts smallest social things tires active month berly eat,1 +moreim fucking sick living like this betrayed everybody ex fucking somone cheated best friends high school see joke hang one guy hes loser stoner everytime try make friends never text back leave read wrong im tired change others want accepted im alone parents see loser brother friends girls hes years younger im im tired living like bullied friends high school ive always seen joke play nintendo watch spiderman hate life fuck,1 +homophobia likescame closet month ago cue closest friends drifited away me im met hate resentment getting point dont want leave house leave bed part wants end dont endure anymore hatred yet another part scared anything,1 +moldy bread sixth grade make experiment bread brought bread friend offer bread reason took bread offered instead using own end day bring little tupperware thing bread year bread got moldy know throw it got till end year i brought begining year ampxb pd sorry spelling mistakes english first language,0 +bruhento momento bruh moment no bruhento momento,0 +br br i must admit expecting something quite different first viewing cut last night though delighted unexpected australian horror gem true horror fan true come found cut best genre australia ever produced one great parodycomedy films latebr br my concern mainstream audiences may pick lot comedic elements film overly clever application made laugh every turn trying fit every possible cliche horror genre could certain intended humourhoping intended humourbr br and course gorebr br the use customised garden shears brilliance besides expected stabs slashes short huge amount variety creativity many violent deaths enough please even skeptics films worthbr br the appearance kylie minogue short appearance was molly ringwald another reason see film performances fantastic well simon bossell the castle brilliant role jokey technicianbr br all all think movie one best horror products last couple years well beautiful satireparody toungueincheek till endbr br loved it go see it,0 +help please ok discord servers people there talk like minutes stop start talking bit later basically cycle need help moderating people also conversation grows average member every day would really help could moderator also start conversation there dm interested,0 +goodbye peoplemy father died car crash im livig mom makeig prostitue could get bread milk morning today birthday went mcdonalds get cup water im writig mcdonalds happy meal computer years old dont clean clothes all name john im ending life tomorrow morning east pacific time ill jumping mcdonalds im writing at,1 +im bored soooooo ask questions long theyre personal,0 +mystory school leaving ive school since kid since found better one im going different highschool big deal since people hated entirely fault although barely anything ever happened wanted share one story school hosted breakfast kids get home sometimes would walk gf there interesting thing this every time walked cafeteria one cutoff hallway matter what always pair or group high schoolers making andor crying me friends gf bet couple hall would something honestly cant remember im tired hell right bet something around lines making sacred hall relationship went th december th grade never absence weird high schoolers break fuck tldr is say it hallway ton stupid teenagers made funny hell reason know die im going sleep one good memories old school wanted share,0 +thanks gold kind stranger thanks gold kind stranger,0 +tired skirt posts people saying keep super bowl meme thing war declared war skirt posts ideas win appreciated join fight new,0 +sudden change sexuality destroyed mentallyi since incredibly infatuated women every possible way since end february something happened me lost attraction women seems place seem noticing males although male yet cause erection yet women could easily turned sense know happened me never masculine crushes anything youth teens experiment one time like all wanting try anal stimulation also desperate horny time one cl hook ups even finish physical act found gross uncomfortable felt like reverse bowel movement said experience also turned anal girl either first last time ever anything like that considered it seems suddenly sexuality changed know happened ever since did mental state declined tremendously getting women one things enjoyed which sadly say much always happiest women hoped raise family girl within next years confidence issues women general years finally became successful dealing constant selfdoubt also improved areas too general sense selfesteem confidence feels like everything torn me thought though man nothing all despite perceive noticing more since began gotten increasingly depressed point wishing dead waking last nights wishing somebody would shoot head seems like much valued took pride gone end honestly wish dead sit around day nothing go motions also look back old photos women crushed cry feels like heart torn out become emotionally destroyed feeling intense anger small things thoughts wishing over far lowest point ever wish would end cannot go like much longer,1 +mcdonalds secrets former employee food probably touched ground ate it dont use gloves anything hygiene everything frozen icecream machine broken one bothered clean takes long asf one wants say broken people drunk high working youre rude customer food violated gets without ever knowing source former employee maybe add even crazier things later,0 +anyone know time new attack titan episode comes out really wanna watch idea comes out im watching series funimation makes difference,0 +tipping pointso recently boyfriend broke premise know wants work himself dating months seemed come blue really fell months thought based communication style could get anything really know anymore often feel like whats point mean im part much luck relationships really want build something someone whatever reason always seem push people away point all,1 +rock bottomthis may long understand want read im m rental manager toyota drive acura tl amenities could ever want make good money love job one semester away receiving associates computer information systems live nice place lot acquaintances aside main job also club dj side im going mention dj dealership work for sake people coming actually know meall say live north central massachusetts ive suffered depression many years count come realization reason gone relationship relationship looking happiness parents divorced period mentally conscious enough know whats going time impressionable now found many great relationships everything going perfecti find way fuck up go looking trouble start arguments cheated seen people behind backsi hated knew going become second half relationship said done im alone again sit cry regret avoided relationships sole reasonthen one day met her fell love talkingdating awhile knew one planned remember rest life asking birthday march a choice regret birthday july everyone supposed celebrating ill weeping march marked official start relationship things great ended back old ways cheated her never forgave me expect too september year ended me cheated back july which regret every single day life ive gone pain ive lived car dealed drugs pay rent slept floors parking lots ive much want tell anyone fell family thankfully im back lives now lost met changed remember honestly ever really happy her im talking about oh wake stressed bills still put smile happy talking about romantic novel notebook movie unicorns shitting rainbows type happy believe it gone memories happiness replaying over professional life ever decreasing work performance toyota dwindling im late work everyday simply engaged there cut djing nonexistence maybe gigs month loving itnot barely hate it hate booth seeing couples floor good time show good time torn inside ive neglecting car falling behind maintenance even cleaning it grades gone draini passed assignments per class semester deans list gpa last semester nowi academic standing health falling too lot cocaine drinking nonstopi drinking every single night since left september discover amex mcvs cards running fuel selfdestruction ive hit rock bottom reddit first guys hear this best friend know itat least best guy friend became real best friend started datingevery second magic went making fun romantic comedies chick flicks living one believe amazing felti found tonight hoping never find out exclusively talking new guywithin month one good female friends whos always tried looking her broke news tonight lot connections lot underground people asked picking gun really much thought would be acted many times would it would leave short voicemail brief point would park car driveway would blow brains out information come light inclined follow through honestly sick waking hangovers waking exhausted groggy going bed night tears waking tears time let go come close faking smile im drunk want driveway let know driven to im scared it hurt long take bullet cease bodily functions whats afterlife like know do,1 +plan cannot wait execute iti getting car soon money buy counter drug lethal taken high amounts getting car within months cannot wait already written note phone counting days stop suffering,1 +depression decided upgrade pc month old lmao got rtx expensive asf got new w power supply got new cpu cooler cause want one lcd screen also new case fans ones got ugly got cause matched fans aio cooler realize could use different fans it build like half pc parts lmao,0 +im going back real school month country decided would good idea go back school month like real school online happy im america id go honestly know good time yet idk go anyway wish luck hope catch covid,0 +anyone uncertain future extent scares you yes already know uncertainty part human being however sometimes think going good life good job girlfriend person fixed superficial things like looks simply end genetic pool may best smartest strongest know thought what future depares me makes feel conflicted things happend around me ad fact time feel cold way f like feel cold inside idk one experiensed something like this well way hope maybe give advice something like ampxb srry things weird dosent make sense bc eng second language,0 +wrote somethingbeen long time since wrote something really wanted get feelings out going anything soon death mind constantly ways want cease exist thanks reading dh easy whether believe not is just stop cease be hard part baggage comes death includes much involuntary emptying bowels hear tv movies dealing shit pants others deal something take lightly hell first couple years life loved ones actually praised it really trouble dealing ripple effect comes leaving make jump calm water death water quickly heals waiting next permanent guest waves escape jump cause damage tsunami make landfall living friends family brothers parents daughter caught guard see massive wave hurling towards them hard part death hurt heartache others stems decision take game token board pass go matter many people judge collecting sweet hurting people never strong suit mine never hurtful comeback time could never throw punch couldnt pain someone purpose leaving would difficult dont want hurt anyone dont know keep hurting daily even upkeeps loved ones happiness really want enter sea death water droplet myself taking trace presence me leaving wake hurt others around me ,1 +whats simplest way make u happy title im curious,0 +think pulled first allnighter uh basically took nap pm couldnt sleep currently uh oh school starts days wheeeee sleep fucked,0 +yeah parents antivaxx yes need help,0 +im killing soonill kill soon thats promise truly mean it see go anymore even good life good people world full sad unfair things im good thing asset world,1 +another one films remember staying late watch tv scaring crap impressionable age dooming thereafter life horror movie obsession great movie stands living proof indeed realistic effects cgibr br set isolated base antarctica version seems almost pick original version the thing another world left off american scientists discover decimated norwegian base miles distant everyone dead half charred remains unidentifiable thing left smolder outside compound might offer answers may happened thing brought back american base and late scientists realize alive lethal thing thaws off killing anyone anything crosses path also absorbing them making whoever whatever wants film turns brilliant paranoia piece everyone suspect anyone thing one trusts anyone anymore gone strength security found human beings band together spite differences battle monster group splinters fear rules supreme thingbr br the gore effects absolutely amazing messily realistic could done without dogs head splitting open like banana peel thats animal lover picky kill humans want leave kitties puppies alone sanity reason disintegrate rapidly as one one humans taken shapeshifting alien power film lies paranoia although liked original version prefer one real threat lies within scarier fact cannot seen easily detected forced hiding wrath huge results horrificbr br this one carpenters best films right fog halloween actors give strong realistic performances special effects powerful stand main character film something lover horror genre miss it,0 +get comments please itll worth time need comments,0 +bother anymorei really know do know ill ever see happiness ever again cant stop looking self useless awful human being doubts anybody would miss me ive dealt bipolar disorder ever seems get worse worse manic episodes make go insane cant slow im angry everything im depressed struggle even get bit happiness continously try improve make feel better tried lose weight start workout routine soon depression came back went right back habits binge eating drugs know take life granted know could happy everything seems grim im starting lose hope someday ill probably drug addiction everything looks like shit everything used love tried get medicated everybody im either just autistic which im not normal teen although see classmates getting angry nothing scared inanimate objects talking them,1 +let lust take love oh boy even start well gone shit regarding relationshipsso lets call ex abigail around three elder me trust say this fell love even kidding happend and well one day confessed bam dating already best friends hung everyday park talked lifesometimes life sometimes china could become world leader coming years basically could talk days without getting bored well loved every bit hence loved other month datingwe first kiss always bit awkward didnt help first time lmao nonetheless enjoyed it thats began sweet moment ecstasy pure joy kiss someone love incomparable retrospect bit soonfast forwards weeks full making outher apartment mine top parents good friends could visit practically whenever wantedi talking full rd base here realised it got addicted itnow horny teen uk sux i would go way get actionnow would say whats problem right well problem getting addicted person dating rather act getting action love became lesser anything lust overcame love herit felt good used like toobut turns liked act her obviously naive self told oh guys together means love right wrongi horny realize much good person slowly losingafter first months remember nothing relationshipno talkingno hanging constant making outand wellthe day came feared most obviously cuz older go college firstnow love never grew lessit lust grew strongerso said you know even though going bout still keep relationshipwe love whats lil distance eh thats started long distance thought well diffcult be love someone stay away still love em problem love fell short front lust week lefti realized felt emptywe talk muchnot anyway even ever get enoughi always wanted time caring anywaybut realized talk much started looking friends friends anyone could talk freely like actually care know well graduated next gradeand saw one hotter classmatesand straight went like huhshe would pretty nice datebut looking back it realized much scum wasthe reason happen lustbecause well moreover care someone lovedi wanted boneand thats abandoned lovei started talking less frequently started talking friend loti legit became simp girl sexi wanted fill void created stupidity boning someone elsenow remember want current relation end either wanted bone well thankfully lil bitch never really advanced friendi happy didnt relationbut like fuck enough texted abigail outta blue told herheythis aint gona work us left herthe fucking irony situation still leave me first thing replied heyare ok want calland looking back it realize much moron leave her said said think us fight lot really get along anymore leave itbut still somehow managed convince break upbut disagreement little topic used bring topic breaking well started crywell much ever wanted run away heri see cryi couldnt well continued months finally december we decided end iti guess matter much love person tolerate much bullshit eh well might scum least know needed study well getting admission good high schoolso decided drop ideas girl study seriously fortunately exams got time lock imposed country well plenty time think everything happend happen future well quarantine realized knowsex aint everythingi blind lust see love regret everything done hurt saint womani realized much human trash probably deserved sexless quarantineactually funny thing thati even think enjoy sex anymorei guessi disturbed nowdisturbed easily one wrong things wrong reasons finally realized realized years agothat sex product lovewhen truly love someone wish physical things thembut guess young naive ever consider it took joke blatantly left girl nothing short perfect supporting getting action tldri human piece trasha scum may decided improve gonna go back hurt enough infact taking break sort relationships probably wont date someone find someone see settling with,0 +buy gift myself im online black friday shopping european want gift suggestions for deserve it heck yeah selfcare expensive like game consoles phones stuff got ideas,0 +know live without wanting diei made pact try last attempt would 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weeks bff leave seen doesnt respond calls messages etc good friends before ignores me mean,0 +finallly told mom im suicidaland go well thinks im sad overreacting ive suffered depression years ive gotten really good hiding feelings cant anymore putting facade everything going well energy consuming much begin with really need help feel like cant keep going anymore,1 +black rain superb film watch dvds currently sold much apiece dvd terrible tiny nonanamorphic image blown resolutionkilling size acceptable sound primitive dvd absolutely has rereleasedbr br btw also laserdisc vhs black rain vhs huge step upward dvd laserdisc far away best picture allsubtitles black sharp big picture simple good soundtrack buy vhs avoid preposterous prices scam artists demanding,0 +fastest way kill yourself seriously whether want socialism capitalism become taken extremes robs us civil liberties liberty internet thats it see people holding hands anymore want given free travel like promised never got any 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cried cried cried,1 +boys clan today marks start recruitment boys clan go far wide making people mad tik tok instagram twitter message get,0 +ive hit rock bottomm ish ive suffering lot depression lately ive depressed month now time since stopped going office cant get basic things without breaking crippling anxiety ive good dad mom sister feeling good enough matter anyone world close friends anyone talk right fucked state mind cant bear misery living wanted put rest it part wants run away live like nomad without human contact become saint part wants die it took amount rat poison two weeks ago apparently fucking enough swallowed tablets fucking aspirin last week still nothing happened know now access firearms anything would little bit easier thinking stabbing heart sometime soon cannot carry living like this ive nothing live for ive hobbies anything help distract me ive tried various things thought liked found fad someone really not totally hate myself strength would totally rip head apart two know writing either probably place could talk it,1 +film notable shown much is shown incredible poverty sicily th century gave way th life style made people dream new world america mancuso family live place even hamlet stone cottage set amid harsh unyielding stones country cannot offer even single blade green grass opening sequence sees mancuso males scrambling barefoot craggy hillside stones mouth offer shrine top exchange sign set new world remain are shows life aboard liner huddled masses indeed yearning breathe free conditions ellis island where journey still over interrogated examined prove fitness enter america shown ship longshot indeed shot would identify large oceangoing liner also shown anything would identify america clich view new york harbour statue liberty ellis island could anywhere country perhaps remarkable shot one camera crane looking hundreds people jammed together slowly almost imperceptibly two thirds people screen left begin separate third screen right realize left actually aboard ship right dock powerful statement society fragmented theres strong documentary feel throughout though following actual ship full immigrants even though carefully scripted clearly amalgam typical familiesconditions time almost nothing happening dramatic terms popcorn brigade multiplex rest us fine film indeed,0 +bored need things need distractions helpso gf bipolar adhd loses interest lot things bored quarantine help much im assuming mixed episode learning spanish rn might get bored quick said bored considering redflag know internet anything fun interesting could could learn pls write,1 +absolutely point existence cannot find reason purpose whatever fuck is prisoner cursed house fucking family even became prisoner dark thoughts head many issues physically emotionally ever change alone literally friends anymore even one obviously familys absolute worst then stay cannot even simply live pain becoming unbearable everyday genuinely tired even living anymore breathing suffering,1 +teenagers young adults stop astrology bs might unpopular opinion think people stop basing decisions impressions others formation stars born astrology nonsense correlation stars ones personality might fun still keep laughs giggles level rejectingavoiding somebody leo something level ignorant people make blood boil anyway thanks coming tedtalk,0 +im gunna die youngive always know id die young im really thinking taking bunch sertraline overdosing thing holding back family feel like death key truly happy hate myself hate situation hate everything want put misery please,1 +please help feel devastatedi feel burdened mistakes countless traumas always completely alone literally raised tv never saw parents mom working dad didnt took responsibility left grew completely alone confused tried take life drug induced psychotic episode front family caused ptsd ocd lost hair pieces this exhausted always alone completely exhausted stupidity cant stand longer always tried best person possible life went hell completely abandoned work direction dont want continue living also dont balls take life,1 +cant keep ittalk abuse ahead guess cant go four years shithole town cant stay college know many horrible people live close want fresh start cant it i cant afford leave cant live anymore cant live town painful memories have im sick passing restaurants im sick hearing name casual conversation worry running father town somewhere living town everyone either ignores treats like scum im sick fucking idiot cant tell directions talk anything himself hate live town person assaulted fucking school bathroom felt class hate constantly hear its four years leave college even want live long boyfriend talked got kitten whos extremely attached me thought id able start start transitioning would new beginning im seeing dim tunnel ahead god damn cant keep it im sorry formattedwritten well am feel like im going vomit guts up one talk already worry everyone life enough get somewhere im probably dramatic really cant live way four years,1 +hoped get buried wedding tuxi know ill never get married family really wants see damn tux wedding reception thing dont plan even staying alive long enough happen id like get piece happiness inevitable demise voices keep telling ill dead even waste someones time even giving love chance again,1 +teenager id actually go outside drink fun bang chicks guys sit net thread trying clout farm take long hard look please youll thank years,0 +ive come accept idea killing myselfive always bit scared act number excuses go it think ive finally reached breaking point depressing overwhelming thoughts intense cant go day without contemplating much better things would could stop existing gotten point ill sitting best friend talking think would able go shooting myself seems simple easily buy gun whatever do need now cant live way one second longer desperation relief resolved pain put others makes feel guilty care anymore cant go cycle forever matter time feel like waiting,1 +runners highthe last months one hell ride ive never hurt damaged unmotivated move on ive stuck pain wanted end bad moment pain according therapist see way ive days coldness knife skin calms down ive days would run oxygen could stop crying ran third marathon couple days ago best time went slow steady prepared running someone kept pace handle stuck it exert myself let everything be went even slower uphills enjoyed downhills kept going last kms could believe endured all believe stuck life happy happy here happy strength endure pain happy support ive received im going keep slow steady pace life ill go life one day time im letting everything go happiness sadness accepting control whats behind let deter me nothing stop me,1 +sure plot oldboy seems great movies days amazingly shocking highbudgethyped waybr br spin kick dramacomedy group people decide pour hearts tae kwon do regardless expect film guaranteed feel moved work pain expectations characters force experience though comedic times many moments characters rendered beautifully theres old guard character takes things seriously hoodlum turned goodguy wants second chance life meek teamsubstitute would die happy life many wellrounded characters problems importantly hopes dreams plot goals movie simple aspects movie merely highlight development characters overcome personal interpersonal struggles br br in short film leave feeling fresh determined satisfied,0 +going rough patch anyone chat atm anyone talk right now,1 +allim yo f could go details wouldnt worth it life isnt worth anymore everything thought knew lie cant trust anybody anymore heart physically hurts emotional pain im right im scared go anything never go back felt fucked things life happened wish restart button life,1 +band dropped song made bet bassist could get streams end week dollars depends it help here httpsyoutubejinemkwyyk,0 +finally it insert funny,0 +first saw movie little kid fell love once sets breath taking script damn right hilarious you sons thousand fleasbr br it always shown tv late night really early morning woke started tv companys need show little respect put prime time sunday everyone get chance view fine workbr br ,0 +worst part life feeling useless life feeling useless turnfor long ive felt reason live driving purpose would go day day immersing media made forget empty life felt empty felt went years met best friend met her life seemed light like never had years went by went lot asked out said yes couple years years long distance btw come realization need me nothing her whenever needs emotional help try might cant help her never right things say never right things insanely clear longer wanted needed helpful without her im back empty life before feel creeping way back im coming conclusion needs me nothing good intentions love ever thought could love something might made long around guide me want able her despite good intentions hurt needs me im incapable swallow pain feel responsibilities have give attention i simply enough im man nothing good intentions actions carry out like say road hell paved good intentions ampxb college im great school ive always killed academics college hard me though felt useless push hard motivation im sure thats me classes genuinely feel useless either way adds feeling like life pointless plan buying motorcycle think fun love sense freedom seems random theres reason bring up buy necessary gear wear time make sure bike always running well plan buying bike thats fast beginner like me hope die without intentionally killing myself for nothing all thing kept alive girl longer needs me think im simply living borrowed time thats getting feelings actually found subreddit looking im useless want die catharsis appreciate anyone reading hope well,1 +helloas type one already thought ending least weeks im living family point fact want family pick remains ive ended ive lying friends getting help feel inadequate helped them ive always independent ive always one shoving life advices think deserved helped anyone honest want bother them feel right now im bother everyone ive wreckless heart mind body past months im reaching limit hope find something live bit longer surviving maybe im dramatic really know really trying hardest,1 +tomorrow school plan writing scp article paper like it may try hand putting article site,0 +wife took pillshey wife took bunch pills told friend told me emergency department now idea do first time ever done this feel like this everything changed know support her need do,1 +im trappedpost put thread redflag ive semi suicidal last months fuck throwaway venting grew poor abused situation improved began trying get get better place spent dreaming american dream years gone educated impoverished child college educated man wife house career car hate career hate house fond paying ass car keep house career wife met intelligent beautiful person also selfish opened relationship thing still regret time though got caught guys neglected me never wanted hurt tell ok sleeps guys needed love too tried tell way accepted lost love life idiocy time started dating one friends against rules asked friend approached ok fell love almost instantly went almost thing children incredible amounts things common first time life someone understood me process making happy almost entirely destroyed me stark contrast understood first time ever rest life left shambles top told wife fell love woman ive trying work since know id happier new woman would she believe wife would happier man like her wife putting blame situation cheating calls it one wrong wrong people felt isolated alone found other top everything house signed father law also worth less bought it cant sell loss cant abandon would terrible thing father law stuck with house want career keep house car loan get job check engine light come today god fucking damnit wife blaming joint failing marriage gf torn apart role this debt almost every item list debt financial advisers told wise decision debt told take could chase dreams dreams told would finally give happiness one day could fucking feel like im societal mistake contribute take world do hate life see solution cause others pain throw top psychological disorders cant get help waiting list weeks long one disorders incredible empathy loved ones literally feel everyones pain situation know much wifes heart breaking losing husband time know gf heart breaking first time life someone understood rape abuse poverty torture went recoiled disgust thought ugly it person married man contributing ruining marriage want everyone love happy making happy make others unhappy making happy cause others unhappiness turn make unhappy thing day day least painful option wearing down cry silently desk many days wake arrive late work fantasize killing instead living another day perpetual state impossible crunch time work show work ass everyday company may go under cant even take time off become clear either abilities understanding one knows situation incredibly clear people misunderstand me want life love others something great standing way handle need help cant help me everyone tell lawyer up gym hitting etc etc im stuck hate life hate society live in hate way government works hate understand screwed am want die want look wife tears eyes begs fix this cant part problem things deal blaming gf existing neglect hate want kill myself hurt others much others hurting me afraid without help willingness endure seriously compromised already seriously considered instances also attempted redflag failed know im capable time im afraid im much smarter year old fail,1 +emoji mean u title filler forty forty footer filler filler filler filler filler filler forty forty filler filler,0 +posting every letter english alphabet meet shrek get entire alphabet day fourteen n,0 +productive killing gym again got great job none matters cannot take pain every second every day die purpose without killing self serious answers cannot take anymore,1 +thought family wealth dads business actual turns dad gambling addiction mad poker skills made like m mother convinced get help lost it did bought nice house started business money invested too everything panned addiction reason family worth m,0 +endim trapped im gonna get rope hang myself way out ive completely lost hope,1 +planning ask girl however live substantial distance away see twice week event agrees go out would relationship work im btw,0 +many triestoday good day yesterday spent consciousness bed even knowing got there wednesday night th drinks mom drinks afterwards watched show woman jumped death reason made want die too wandered around house looking pills came benzos oxys ritalin plan take hot bath pop pills slit wrist box cutter everything readyi sat bathtub foelr trying talk it took one pill oxys idk took anything else cant remember drank vodka thats it everything went quiet closed eyes next thing knew wearing someones tshirt shorts im bed know got there im embarrassed im there work again im embarrassed sorry explain myself cant do wanted die thats it thats best explanation come with know why did still sometimes im embarrassed seems thing now im fine im happy reason minute overpowering voice head telling need die need too goes away fast came im happy fine again except times agree it go away gets louder demanding screaming it theres option tried fail know going back voice going back keep ignoring it dont happens now obviously stop drinking thats trigger guess else worst part family cant help feeling way guilt feel side awful guess younger brothers ones found me clock morning completely incoherent fuck happened big sister deal that see way im scared im scared happening seem quite control used be what next time keep ignoring it every single day ignore it push voice far cant hear anymore eventually claws way back up screaming time go thats goes again finally cave start come plan course fail stop me voice gets loud keep trying first all want part keep telling need die secondly hard time ignoring it need help controlling it who find that fucking know dont know do everytime theres quiet hear voice telling it ive strong long seems like im slipping recently im losing grip strength keep pushing thru episodes thats fucking terrifying,1 +im even scared anymoreall need find highest building kind disappointed feeling rest life gone waste like ive failed someone prob god me dunno assholes know really wanted still probably would be ,1 +grumpy old baronet happily unmarried decides send three grownup illegitimate children provide home manor surprise finds bonding uninhibited american daughter find satisfaction new role bachelor fatherbr br this film gives robust performance marked arrival mgm elderly sir c aubrey smith soon one hollywoods valuable character actors great hooked nose beetling brows sir aubrey looked every inch part duke general statesman would play often acknowledged leader british community hollywood sir aubrey would also champion game criquet southern california would remain much demand studios town right death br br the films topbilled star marion davies best remembered today mistress media mogul william randolph hearst chatelaine hearst castle fabulous residence west coast actually talented pretty comedienne years hearst attempted make queen mgm with production company huge bungalowdressing room studio already several queens dressler garbo shearer crawford eventually moved warner bros miss davies gets chance joke clown scenes sir aubrey entertainingbr br her love interest played ralph forbes handsome young british actor starting find good films the trail silent days ended qualities major stardom sadly be celebrity would come ray milland making one first screen appearances halliwell hobbes doris lloyd also appear advantage,0 +hello everyone wanted address something might need hear right sometime future wanted talk grooming recently heard stories someone grooming minors wanted tell everyone ever situation tell adult know struggles may going telling adult best bet dont trusted adults contact always police maybe even teacher counselor best get situation matter what thats say good day,0 +zero two pretty good anime character im actually sad dead tbh wish could lived longer ngl,0 +french people im learning french grammar really bad swear wanna practice native speaker anyone wants ,0 +reddit saying new notifications reality theres ,0 +ventfantasizing redflag due pessimistic yet realistic imo views men feel like im delaying inevitableits long want read it thank you least might make feel little better want scream growing up like many girls belief point meet wonderful man marry children childhood never wavered thought saw parents love always true strong values towards love intimacy working team together get hard times life teens still remained true feelings believed knew id kiss frogs found prince knew cheating men lies actions without compassion sympathy empathy thought stuff happened troubling childhoods missing parents severe trauma knew feelings towards men then stronger ever now ive never pessimistic accepting reality ever ive cheated every relationship them ranging months years ive constant receiving end actions made feel like never enough partner however men im also with still comment im perfect blah blah insert compliment here problem finally me firm believer man loves always wander women point theyre better me another shiny pretty object theyre infatuated moment dont care affects long run ever im young attractive female great body end committing redflag positive everyone say idea thought perfect life im educated lawyer beautiful confident etc let explain want sexy someone deserves it feel sexy confident feel confident ever never felt insecure body wasnt beautiful man though constantly compared females every female menu instagram tiktok feel worthless feel less every single time instead someone paying attention beautiful sexy woman front them constantly wondering else there like need new trick something keep someones attention truly sad exhausting even exhausting continue come crawling back begging forgiveness take back still two exs contacting sending things house apologize havent relationship sex two years online dating even depressing get many men asking cum face suck fart ass starts effect you im relationship person core ive never one night stand ever know much family means family everything reason still family reason other cats committed redflag run visions head parents sisters reactions would would find garage floor car on cant bear put pain keeps pain fantasize redflag almost daily now differs sometimes days entirely think about every time walk room think it corner granite countertop nice would hit head hard became unconscious im lucky hit hard enough bled die would nice look christmas lights wonder strength hold body dangle ceiling staircase railing im walking stairs wonder stood top took deep breath let fall forward stairs would enough falling backwards could hit head sufficiently found thing matters family thing keeping earth family need husband children need reason awake live love loving someone everything have love providing someone cleaning someone things someone cant that way world now think better remove world entirely settle havent decided timeline be end see possibility point conclusions men changing fact longer im alive evidence accumulate solidify conclusions hasnt man yet prove otherwise know everyone tell seek therapy do ive going last five years see psychiatrist well hard therapy therapist tell much know much she know morals lie keeps telling find someone dont know much mentality take even one man cheat me simply cannot again settle eaten apart inside ruin rest make regret committing sooner thanks reading,1 +im making soup guys welcome bowl,0 + floorstheres apartment building know thats fifty stories tall sky bridge kinda thing th th floor open public im scared fall either height stories would take full five seconds im afraid failing and also beautiful building want ruin things residents future visitors wonder whatll repercussions wish easier way kill myself,1 +hello lads im bored hell anyone wanna talk make playlists yea spend free time kdsjjdjsjdkshsalfnshghh,0 +saw someone diei waiting train suddenly middleaged woman jumped track engine hit her nothing one could do committed redflag front least hundred people,1 +ill kill tomorrowi friends im unable pay attention anything interest makes impossible perform well school cant anything productive waste time needlessly scrolling internet genuine interests spend time front computer ive struggled severe social anxiety years caused isolate society also detrimental mental health dread waking everyday it im extremely depressed see disgusting pathetic incompetent worthless excuse human ever walked planet think world colorless place spend hours daydreaming would like live fictional world full adventure such day goes without thinking id better dead today useless self finally decided ill commit redflag tomorrow ill head deep forest hang myself ive thought killing before never courage thought devastated family would much tried change im strong enough im exhausted want free endless suffering,1 +ignore video listen song httpsyoutubeslafdhjk,0 +wish could whither away nothjng motivation desire live anymore anyone else live either energy even try anymore angry feel hollow hurt even feel anything now,1 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please want stop,1 +many years sadnessi sexually assaulted two weeks th birthday guy high school year me spring formal event raped limo dance surrounded friends i cringe calling friends time life were proclaimed christians nonetheless passed back seat section limo monster raped glass bottle sleep drinking alcohol probably rd time life came feeling bottle cap ripping insides startled mortified finding strength kick me remember lot happened remainder night remember kicked people limo took notice something happening someone got driver pull guy raped fled friends tried running confront told stereotypical predator line tell anyone ill fucking kill you memories night remember waking blood bedsheets next morning result mutilating me terrified planned pretend like nothing happened ashamed embarrassed violated distraught next monday school felt like everyone knew least heard version happened spread story around school asked rape bottle relentless bullying harassment received peers broke me everyday went school felt unsafe targeted received death threats several male students disgusting assaulted deserved die child robbed innocence ive never recovered doubt ever will recently learned married newborn baby girl gets move live life without repercussions im lucky get day without selfharm years grief pain isolation cant anymore want live tainted life,1 +must see borrow neighbors kid see one easily one best animationcartoons released longtime took movies antz whole new level mistake two movie although principle movies plot similiar go enjoy,0 +heck theyre non binary hence refer theydy friend identified lesbian identifying dyke kinda complicated word know much strange tough dont know feel im almost sixteen btw flair stuck,0 +mean guy this text one day stopped texting next day thanked friend even though work sent that message started talking messages again bruh mean maybe want see texted first know never im scared reach show attention pain caused me im cool friends want one always checking challenged see text first lmao miss putting effort text me,0 +one right minds would give others ternion apparently theres new award called turn something would anyone right minds spend random stranger never met life,0 +cusp dreams coming true band got label support place girlfriend dog thought one thing another would fix it least day whether one intrusive thought flying like easily swatted away mosquito consuming mist do it there know stop it know forever many people absolutely fucked know tying live stake usefulness backfire one day today tomorrow might one day know could live make know anymore needed type out perfect paper thought go away,1 +overthinking worrying kill methis worst thing im facing with stop ,1 +damned tryingive wanted bad long im good im barred every profession ive wanted im bipolar im stuck half degree way afford finishing it minimum wage jobs require psych evals im poor mentally ill alone means every bit related legislature us bent me tried get medicare denied kids apparently makes worth saving im becoming inclined agree obama care still expensive free program area mental health closed case warning reason im left sell body parts afford fucking healthcare hey could donate enough plasma afford least maintenance healthcare need god damn doctors note say im stable enough donate guess cant get god fucking damn doctor im wits end im done bpdnos wins im taking life husband goes work im clearly worth trouble taxpayer money keep alive ill nip gets worse,1 +hopeless worse offeverything worse constant sadness loneliness fuck everything ugly fuck also much coward fucking kill myself,1 +redflag hotlines even want meive got friends family care me ive disowned parents grandparents im gay theyd abuse badly physically mentally emotionally cant handle more brain fucking broken know deal shit im barely s future already limited either minimum wage slave working hours week hours pay redflag university miles away home family were getting funding cut school rent utilities told absolutely warning need find job now that family going come get me ive looking job ive literally applied everywhere shithole little town even follow calls keep getting jerked around long find job start working get evicted apartment ive done everything can ive sold shit a ds games tv computer hard drives toys ive applied and denied government assistance ive begged family nonstop take back none worked top that ive got singular person gives shit me even then were thousand miles apart ive got friends locally family cares more ive got prospects job car bike cant leave heres best part even start job right fucking now im going enough pay rent time late fees keep adding up theres single thing do top that ill stuck rest shitty miserable life able afford pay tuition shit financial support still need repay student loans im taking credits fall cant take credits fall unless im working like hours week cant find job hire all redflag hotlines even want talk me got put hold three just today hung me minutes wait time each im even worth trouble fucking strangers probably paid kinda shit so fucking see ya im done cant shit more im sick wanted im sorry sir whos going left alone giant disappointment people love anything new me fact really one thing ive consistently good whole life im going go attempt hang belt probably fail that too bye reddit,1 +trigger reddit ok pls show mercy,0 +think people like would relate feeling trapped tortured flaws society also like interest nonsense required interact societyconnecting supposed help becoming difficult find reasonsways feel isolated humankind draining enough even express thoughts words consider accurate enough hopefully maneuver empty void internet space grasp strangers attention universe connections first requirements hopes revitalize society world yet continue fall isolation,1 +another episode things went southim sure using acting anxiety depression way would talk since okay doesnt want talk me shes one reason still trying get makes everything better wherein pain doesnt really goes away gets easier carry whenever shes around even didnt know already suicidal before opened first time told someone felt comfortable telling her wanna talk bad dont want bother tell going right now might want talk cant think reason pity dont like thought it dont want draw attention friends really good hiding feel make happy comfort them fix problems whilst cannot myself feel like ending driving somewhere theres people harm hit tree sucks feeling various reasons past cannot explain words cannot see point purpose life tried ending last night sadly still woke ending writing this,1 +ever boil hot dogs eat pot immediately theyre done stove still on thats everyone,0 +man hard dvd come by could find region spanish import expensivebr br was worth it well yes much masterpiece film making though directed curt siodmak the credits imdbcom read robert dvd credits list curt couple familiar figures murder mysteries elisha cook jr thomas gomez decadelong curiosity movie finally satisfiedbr br essentially respected selfcontained engineer alan curtis stood estranged wife finds new york bar two show tickets pocket woman strange hat stool next politely invites join musical review accepts little gloomily mopey bartender gives eye leavebr br at show tempestuous star notices lady audience wearing hat erupts offstage anger drummer band cook leers silent lady gets response curtis takes woman home asks name give it want know his shed longfellow devotee shed said something ships pass nightbr br okay curtis goes home find wife murdered absence head police officer gomez turns da alibi phantom lady one else seems remember bartender latina star cab driver al alp drummer since lady disappeared impossible dig upbr br curtis convicted sentenced die inspector gomez thought things decided hers probably innocent nobody brain would make stupid story joins curtiss loving secretary ella raines reinvestigating case informallybr br they visit supposed witnesses again ominous bartender run car perhaps accidentally hes picture hottempered latina left show closed uncooperative ignorant source hat anyway elisha cook jr strangled real murderer featured scene pounds drums improvised jazz group sweaty face assumes expression suggest intense focus rather monstrous orgasmic insanity eyeballs roll ceiling mouth gapes hammering becomes frenzied laughed loudbr br nobodys performance otherwise outstanding professional enough thomas gomez always reliable best performance though probably franchot tone hes real murderer fakes alibi hes reserved artistic even faints hes decorous know put precisely tone seems thinking well simply acting part alan curtis innocent engineer near zero kelvin scale belongs b picture br br i know considered classic really basic murder mystery cornell woolrich good others siodmaks direction sensitive man gets run hat winds gutter water running around it use shadows quietly effectivebr br glad got it,0 +hate myselftoday im goin g friends house goes back home viist parents im saaing night work whether want start dating dont hes coming back said friends made depressed suicidal dont know todo wish fucing dead im piece shit anyway im sick hurting people hate sorry writing yself mcuh id ont know feel fucking bad,1 +want bad im afraid toive honestly shittiest time life things got complicated me want bore reddit sob story seems every time hope something always pulls again everytime convince make things work me shit happens fall deeper hole know people going tell ive heard enough that want badly pain feel instead everyday ripping apart ruining friendship connection family work cant take this everytime convince im done last possible moment bail feel way cant commit get with want loved live guilt try tell that understand feels like help convince it,1 +fought roblox guy fought got salty basically long story short kid called furry called smutt writer saying weird stuff friend internet got arguement caused us end dueling game called vertigo roblox settle wether furry smutt writer called rematch saying miscounted judge guy watching us said rematch pretty sure sure rematch got annoyed kicked discord group alongside judge guy atleast im furry,0 +it came bisexual parents today ,0 +think might track first girlfriend im sure tuesday hour convo girl agreed longest fun convo weve had im sure like like her yet anyway think decent chance end dating im sure yall think,0 +maybe pain help someonethis going quite long post im really sure expect perhaps moderation perhaps trolls perhaps genuine questions id amazed anyone ends reading start finish goes probably also say details might particularly difficult people read especially youve thought redflag before around six months ago six months ten days precise exgirlfriend broke up decision pretty mutual time wed unhappy within pretty short period changed mind didnt want anymore unfortunately change onesided today together first month break tried keep mind would end speaking optimistic time apart contrition mistakes made ideas fix problems led us point would get us back together couple days first time saw break started asking question would couldnt rectify situation jest answer always probably kill myself time didnt take seriously knew joking hindsight think beginning kind desensitisation idea causing death im sure anyone reading imagine idea killing probably quite uncomfortable didnt really feel anything first time met things went really badly probably soon end conversation found stood side road unable stop crying control breathing thing could think time make feeling stop saw bus coming decided would step front it made decision able get kind control breathing crying bit less stepped edge road bus went around corner id found position optimism would work things point time nothing else seemed important even worth living for ended speaking text night got hope back still chance could actually fix things feeling carried next couple weeks back mind kept thinking things couldnt resolved going follow kill myself week half christmas spoke hopes dashed sure nothing could done again found unable stop crying barely able breath time happened couple hundred metres away river again decided going jump able get control back myself combination design railing people constantly passing lack strength eating three days prevented jumping in tried climb sent goodbye text wasnt able get railing ended developing conversation knew trying trying change mind decided listen give chance anyone could stop would person nothing said changed mind hanging phone decided everything could make cold possible fall asleep hoped wouldnt wake up fact im typing means things didnt go plan spoke christmas agreed would meet see happened told worried shed week convinced moment madness wasnt something could really done would ever do didnt mean mindset completely shifted beginning concerned would make happy wanted get back cost thats say intent kill night insincere things started happening think part hoping shed give things another try reason save life realised week thinking virtually nothing else couldnt claim love someone thats doing realised happiness important part hinged worry me ended seeing almost every weekend first couple months year many moments things good optimistic moving right direction couple weekends row cancelled plans last minute second one called asked really going on said seeing ended feeling crap couple days said would leave alone didnt anymore midway conversation could feel crying breathing problems coming hung phone point certain nothing could started planning how when would kill myself derailed texting half hour later asking could talk weeks point none friends family knew bad things gotten first told friends feeling eventually told gone beyond thinking redflag also speaking counsellor weeks point largely due fear locked hadnt completely honest far suicidal ideation gone also hadnt told anyone work manager knew personal issues counselling sessions true extent issue never something made clear make matters worse started job four days aforementioned bus incident ive found difficult concentrate work im consumed idea killing myself employment seems fairly unimportant youre going die soon preforming badly work reached point decided would tell someone bad things resign since opening work lot support theyve offered make reasonable adjustments possible suppose positive thinking wouldnt helpful relationship mended found unemployed longer suicidal since last spoke ex made two plans kill one reason another neither came fruition things stand ive proposed ex meet speak covid drama passed lockdown rules eased given may time soon told feel rushed deciding either way still feel much same hope moving forward need remove life way think killing myself suppose purpose partly write everything also feel like could good anyone curious know feels like suicidal state mind able ask questions want able answer questions whenever ive watched videos listened advice deal suicidal thoughts ive found doesnt really resonate me way lot people tedtalks seem felt doesnt match me initially made feel even weirder and although dont hold much hope myself want able help someone else may also feel like feelings exist outside typical suicidal narrative ill try explain bit thoughts maybe answer questions comments anyone raises them ive symptoms depression long remember ive always managed stay top things now never considered redflag recently dont know anyone killed themselves im sure people tell need cut life completely start moving on advice everyone know given me problem times past six months havent wanted kill wished dead times feeling optimistic chance completely cutting would mean optimism therefore reason kill myself recognise kind feeling dependency healthy basis relationship counsellor explains as life like bottom boat compartments analogous different interests life like friendships career family hobbies etc one floods whole boat doesnt sink compartments fine continue analogy feel though compartments arent separated well one flooded spilled others build separation need drain flood start work might make sense anyone plain terms feel though need relationship back give motivation start putting safety net sorts place break dont find back here ideally wed get back together break recognise definitely possibility first months kept recently told friends speaking counsellor told people work recently referred psychiatrist also million different cards crisis helplines theres shortage people speak to contrary may seem im really sensitive person dont feel like need sugarcoat questions advice,1 +bored bored bored bored guys im hella bored idea pissing off im sitting bed stuck charger waiting girl like snap back hotter usual late september im sweating thats fun ive already watched youtube netflix hulu played among us listened music masturbated im officially things do cant think anything creative brain feels like squished grape helllllpppppppp,0 +autismaspergers really death sentenceas autist never able happy normal life autistics unemployed never able careers autistic men die without even one relationship start finish autism redflag rate x general populations everyone thinks okay discriminate autistics nothing good disorder nothing ever change way born never find love never able connect others like retarded disorder better luck next life guess,1 +would go asking girl without mother knowing swear god give bro young slap internet wanna know future use,0 +m anybody want chat ps im shy english sorry typing errors,0 +i suffer major depressionredflagfibromyalgia wrote example feel average day people mental illness understand hollowed quite cover feeling inside shell millions raw nerve endings feeling everything brushes by everything raw mental physical pain incredibly hard stay grounded,1 +well maybe helped someone elseid like think care people despite dwindling friend circle read zero today cutting everyone weekend ive thanked frequently recently helping people cared make decisions gain perspective lives old friends best friends ex girlfriends business associates bartenders even helped friend vote last week realize am ive drunk nine days straight feel like something now ill hurt others more ive taken precautions ive deleted contacts ive deleted real social media communicate people whose phone numbers remember thought cancelling cell service protect them wish hyper cognizant surroundings even im completely plastered wish combination drugs could take would leave completely functional totally disassociated able comprehend putting gun back head would bad idea rather feel hesitation pulling trigger hope would instantaneously ive posted afraid am necessarily pain idea lingering want over want done completely believe afterlife im relatively sure chemical impulses brains stop want complete surprise completely instantaneous,1 +woahh eta changed said eta wasnt rd says tmr,0 +put bucket list im moving less year im making list things wanna w friends then suggestions,0 +carl brashear cuba gooding jr born sharecroppers deep south joins navy whereupon tells father back father gives old radio brashear leaves navy bus valuable thing unemotional father taught was never quit recommendation white commander powers boothe admires drive guts gets sent navy diving school bayonne nj endures harassment pals uniform trainer chief navy master diver billy sunday robert de niro commanding officer called pappy hal holbrook has almost many loose screws old car want make drop out prejudice quite fiercethe dangers diving prove setback loses leg due accident board ship despite setback tells wife train achieve objective help billy sunday now joined commiseration sufferings train able become first black navy diver artificial limb despite skepticism highly mocking doubtful captain navy department hearing washington dc determine meets criteria inspirational movie showing determination overcome odds,0 +ok guys want answers someone tell coin glitch reddit ,0 +life confusingi dont know disorder whatever ive lurker depressed long time coming it dont know completely still get urges im depressed completely still get urges mean guess im looking anyone talk get thoughts open im pretty low risk certain urges worse others brains pretty scattered comes yall cant tell,1 +point sympathize one living hell familyi love family havent killed myself living hell right now god awful digestive pain feel thobbing migrating around face day day out sharp pains lasting m random spots body brutal cluster headaches worst part god awful shit hanging soft palate big sharp cant swallow weeks end days like sudden feel massive foul tasting things go throat barely swallow cant throw squirm go down neti rinses result nothing even muccus comes clear bloodwork showing nothing slightly elevated white blood cell count feels like im swallowing massive parasites fucking disgusting terrifying one believes me think im delusional think could delusional ive antipsychotics months fuck all doc refuses send sort specialist going years getting worse gotten drugs simply ease numb pain weird sensations feel cuz really think delusional started happening got drugs point hell living outweigh pain family feel ending life dont know much longer go like this shit seriously fucked up,1 +like girl girl ive known long time weve friends long remember also live close go school wondering friendzone ask out age taking similar things school,0 +see soon boys turning porn taking homework folder way hiding porn want remember link hiding post going history looking hidden dont expect anyone care im gonna deleting reddit couple months cant think girl without thinking something sexual lmao im fucking neek see ya soon boys may god hardy times,0 +australia lost war emus emus ate australian crops costing money didnt like that plan kill k emus killed emus fast couldnt hit them amount money spent cost emus steal crops quit technically lost war fucking emus emus cant even fly,0 +im closer ever beforeim really bad time fiance walked me told everything ever needed know much awful person am want die want live know anymore,1 +idc anyone else says youre true gentleman unless you would gladly decapitate anyone needed it gatekeep true,0 +people care guess thats problemi hate family friends actually care me hate people tell much love me eventually end taking life im going hurt them theyre reason havent offed yet think selfish make feel guilty ending life im constant pain id rather one love me itd easier way im trying push people life stick around dont get why shit hard wish time id die freak accident someone kill please,1 +helpim started higher education school hate it worst thing boring crappy hate people there friends always seem hate me even call friends people like fuck me take piss family sorts dont know life go way way carry school hate try something else im really interested would love something software hardware thing dont know much want learn dont think thats enough never girlfriend except like consider proper girlfriends kissed girl otherwise luck im best looker girls ignore brush im slightly overweight seems make freak eyes got quite close girl backed got scared pussyd out dont know either stopped talking her hate situations people dont know makes feel awkward seems happen lot nowadays especially school keep meet new people hate much one close friend everyone calls freak weirdo fact hes genuinely misunderstood guy get called bum buddy good friends are hell even sister says makes really frustrated money job experience confidence life might seem quite good me fucking hate life redflag used small twinkle mind used think occasionally life seemed meaningless life just get grades get job die thats think life opinion im genuinnly considering it life seems shitty unimportant thought never amount anything really crushes me used happy brief period recently dreamed family raising kids dying peacefully dont see point cry help im sorry errors spelling dont give fuck honest writing making realise shitty life is please help tldr im unhappy life want kill is enough you,1 +good story wellacted unexpected character twists eg vicious murderous gangster bryan brown teaching son macrame although succeeds action drama hope good guy ledger gilrfriend succeed also hilarious ironic black humour eg bank robbers become radio competition winners reaction buskers revenge etc well worth watching,0 +feel confident feel confident hour ago,0 +ideas first date ive talking girl sometime cantthink good date id usually go out pandemic chilly temps dont know do probably going bar theyre still open ideas,0 +one small thing happens im ending lol,0 +stay reddit going kill myself reddit cope going kill myself looks like inevitable keep alive shit cannot take,1 +suicidal heres personal story im even world think am think probably bestory part feel free skip tldr ive accused suicidal since high school friend mine committed redflag boarding school soon after accused suicidal ideation school wanted remove remaining sinners i atheist religious school prior foster care attacked daily abusive foster mother accused foster children conspiring made public grabs attention for foster parent apparent disabled children bullied school held back segregated classroom sat alone room till state shut program down brought back normal schooling segregated due bullying eventually sent religious boarding school foster parents started watching crime programs started reading biased psychology books got pretty weird ideas heads attacks children increased teenage masterbation sign psychopathywitchcraft bullied made loner therefore psychopath thing bullied affluent teachers found foster care rejecting religious doctrine made satanistwitch meditation to cope abuse type satanism anxious around violent attacks proved disorganized thinking and attacked violently humiliated punishment thinking going so catch bullied forcibly dressed geeky goodwill clothes meant trying look ridiculous attention people forcibly dressed them school tormented staff peers two specific bullies in school one eventually got expelled behavior often joked murdering me claims remember fabricate wild stories justify behavior example tried give food from younger aggressive brothers stash gave small portion homeless guy outside bus station going boarding school bully slapped down called fake christian main reason bullied aggressively competitive another reason fact christian often used excuse torment me punched lights out walked away bathroom see damage was came back sitting attractive girl asked crying brother chuckled told spazz myself laughed me eventually expelled younger brother caught dvd containing porn normal porn violation schools rules dean which often harassed abused powers make life living hell demanded come office answer crime biased towards brother the athlete school bully even gave condo room forced live childrens dorms complaints criminal bullying that catch im child fight im psychotic do said possession s law punish whomever found on told could punish whomever spirit told to called preacher two accused suicidal stated abuse power accusing people lead friends redflag which meant unlike going stand it hence sitting correcting them said friend committed redflag changing school policy teens previous mental health problems other sins would admitted school locked bedrest quarantine three days without food water bathroom break told parents caught porn threatened commit redflag really course one stuck me told teens christian allowing people bully till day adults people believe extreme social segregation order got job pizza parlour things looking younger brother showed demanding free pizza refused leave start try coercion get free pizza saying he give brother free pizza hes mentally ill hes bipolar fuck hell spaz you boss told leave soon people worked started bullying made demands else would lie acting mentally ill refused start sticking day clothes toilet shoes ended roof etc relationship coworker went south yelled work police called fired it affluent area ran screaming also attracted attention admit fight stupid nothing insane said said i cant believe slept chick over job hunting landlord owned slimey porn store apartment the apartment religious foster father forced into even shirt pushed car screaming me started demanding extra cash declined started making accusations like smoking apartment i never smoked still dont letting strangers ridiculous eventually called intercom called smartass told gun family refused pick phone later would claim never attempted contact them left town bounced around awhile met back one biological sisters moved condition got job week week later started realizing save enough started yelling needed get another job tried managing two job calendars without transportation hard second week came knife stating told boyfriend wanted stab i said slap her bf obsessed interpreting everything either us said extremely violent manslaughter happened family also minor lisp blamed on constantly misread every word people said violent terms eventually realized mistake tried make amends point angry life ended friends house girlfriend wanted threesome left circled back year later found evicted without notice friendlandlord wanted live father we yelling match that police called turned sour bounced around found homeless chicago police dhs homeless sweeps wealthier gentrifying neighborhoods partly due gentrification partly mayors plan get rid homeless campaign forced shelter us sign i homeless because cards filled out card torn lectured told get funding mental illness drugs alcohol checked redid card themselves knew forced shelterplus care program told feign sorts illnesses sent sistercenter heavily relied shelters referrals keep afloat whole deal called warehousesocial services pillmill specialized bum diplomas meaning get use medicaremedicaidgrant claims get ssdissi public benefits otherwise get threatened institutionalization the cycle police pick back cycle begins again left sisterprogram a mental health center abusive therapist called made fake redflag threat police arrived see fuss since joking around friends came in sro landlord also testified always seemed fine like social service mental health care agencies treated me like piece meat used gain access grants etc eventually one agencies got shut able record director social services admitting illness claims grants scam let leave without incident threatened send social security administration eventually left according social workers given option leave get fired fled california great deal abused people hoping quite foolishly still happy hippy land cool bros many us remembered seeing tv movies stupid know thinking could chill there stroke my second eventually found cool little place beach problems started one roommates lost job three times row drunk work started screaming lyrics songs am back porch police called eventually started dragging homeless tweakers sleep floor back porch money dragging recycling cans hopes making rent one roommates started using heroine again dragging druggies friends eating personal groceries helping cash savings one night stress bad bit shattered one teeth decided going evict them went much smoother though yes yelling occurred police called people actually apologized first time life score point california tried get tooth fixed current public insurance cover it switched one quick internet search went interview phone decided go regular check get referral dentist see whole hmo thing worked asking kind insurance plan got it ended back psychiatric office speaking another unqualified biased social worker interview went bad listen me refused help dentist issues even though theyre hmp dental program ties brought back feelings program chicago get feeling head three months later try calm taking hot shower slip fall i see white soap white tub wear glasses shower smacked head started seeing white flashes stars eventually pain reminded beaten school home started flashbacks called asking help due psychiatric emergency which recorded video knew trust system point oversight biased laughing hanging said im psychiatric emergency happened three days sat pain vomiting myself moments consciosness roommates home periods awake eventually police came told taken unless suicidal wasnt prompted immediately state falsely accused suicidal before asked insurance card weird took station er hours er whisked away mental hospital listened to quotedmined directly lied about told lack adls insight judgement treated inhumanely told sign voluntary status days else would petition court keep there fear confusion broke crying reporting everything family told accused of told confession allowed prove via emails informaiton flaws report mentioned thinking abuse suffered home got roommates stated never realized gone tried reporting abuses state appointed outpatient therapist refused make eye contact me refused listen exploitation claims told foster care thing blame rather aggressive looked online afterwards found degree psyd specialized blaming foster care ptsd tried reporting abuses suffered time police er hmo hospital stuck protecting reputation members told video witnesses contradicting reports matter time period turned reddit sympathy everyone said lying exaggerating called aggressive delusional refused blame exploitation abuse got fed called ssa complain and make requests told lying later confirmed accurate told right something must wrong head told recently gotten hospital stupid head fine called police checkup me police said fine decided take one guts told to chained bench mental health officers started accusing superquick succession trying trip laughing me kept straight face corrected whole time kept laughing accusing totally unreal took break came back told definitely suicidal placed permanent care liar psychotic lying them said going sent away life said suffered illnesses never even accused of claimed record lies awestruck asked passing officer speak admin mental health officer interrupted said leave we leave another minutes er said anything asked suicidal said no checked yes anyway finally mental hospital hours later deny suicidal ideation psychiatrist signed out although rn demanded stay needed sure stats psychiatrist looked confused said free go way rn lectured questioning authorities forced outpatient care via mental health law california included talk therapy told make reports abuse learn cope recent abuse one point told see good abusers exploiters she used adolf hitler example recorded another therapist told complacent abuse happens admit everything anyone acuses appease abusers hope would leave alone left hmo complaints hmo hospitals police etc met doubt aggression took year one one them allow hippa enforced corrections record police dropped internals affairs case oig said went interested came back reddit lambasted called psychotic delusional etc tldr antiredflag part so abused bullied exploited lied about victim blamed threatened etc completely damaged record feel suicidal never felt suicidal easy secret religious egotistical magical even special goals human history let explain goals always have goals always future even worst case scenario goals always important goals part defines you people accuse of look ive little rough patch babynonsense compared humans already gone through jungles deserts crossing deserts mountains wars genocide slavery even things like cannibalism braving certain death freezing cave humans lot durable lead believe combining knowledge humans survivors concept multiple sometimes changing goals define closest thing purposefulsoul combination history forward thinking powered knowledge even biggest pigheaded egotists change mind system would change one day many ways has days changing even faster like think quicker system messes up quicker realize errors till waiting game right spend time telling truth internet hopes people talk problems less abuse exploitation doubted try speaking logic epistemology reason critical thinking evidence hopes one day world better place people survive did im claiming world gold rainbows im absolutely claiming perfect still ptsd episodes i even one today told telling story bs im saying hang there wait things out pick hobbies maybe ill even see california one day plan marching golden gate bridge holding antiredflag prosocialchange signs handing fliers asking people hurt themselves help change world instead theres anyone needs change system effected witnessed dirty underbelly professionals politicians academics deny said forgive accept forgiveness get change possible half life nurture overinternalize the crafty turn faults strengths were dust end never attribute malice attribute ignorance conditioning years renewed we want things improve ironically hate change people taught epistemology must seek give back much give much if one change one grow unwillingness change chosen limitation thank god missed train met wife next one when elders say if could again listen at end day king pawn go back box the mature expect utopia expect learn time makes fools perfectionist watch makers peace homeboy ego_by_proxy,1 +hello new account new me right such think id like let know year old bachelors degree holding female college educated struggling helped dealing delusions hallucinations years lack sleep follows course medicated happenings well versed to handle them least thought was started work right last monday week today asked speak supervisor right leave boss written up fine fine fine fine realized lying it proof proof somewhere proof everywhere everyone id told said ridiculous said fineuntil looked proof spiraled getting binder hold proof notebook write times box paper clips hold proof together box sticky notes annotate work lists proof called yesterday stayed night tv yelling me bugs crawling me husbands itching disturbing me rough happened last night get sleep ish am got dreading life around am people work staring me bosses plotting me coworkers talking me cannot handle this want sleep forever cannot even get sleep first place post title required,1 +feel stupidi know people willing help everything seems pointless people talk everyday days necessarily bad end feeling lonely pathetic every night ive stopped feeling motivated anything reason get work done feeling absolute terror able escape horrible situation im home try always people something home alone difficult everyone things going on know distracting problems healthiest feels better pretend like everything going great feels better people always asking im okay help one person mind talking going want talk anymore feels like everything keep unhealthily bottling going spill inconvenient embarrassing situation,1 +dreamt redflag againits recurring dream different real life im discovered actually die im hospital object worry dreams sometimes die sometimes pull through cant decide brains way getting used idea death reminder actually need far reach literally dream it wonder much go allowed sleep,1 +give up completelyim years old im old washed up lonely dates friends everyone moved far away plus one ever visits me see anyone unless see them never good anything people seem patronize deem incompetent nearly everything do never felt truly accepted social aspect life sports coworkers clubs etc people gravitate towards way others unless text first hear people whenever try make plan things get excuses ive tried several meetup groups good experience them fired job sucked first junior software position blew it worked super hard get lost fast think im extremely unintelligent takes long learn things also huge problem self discipline motivation never stick anything people mock rejected im stereotypical black person bad tests got low sat score graduated college everything tried told variation im not cut this maybe ______ you make matters worse also suffer adhd aspergers depression mocked too would like children think gonna happen cant meet woman save life honestly gun posting shit would load chamber put barrel mouth pull fucking trigger wanna sleep forever never wake up fuck planet give up,1 +finnish seems like would look like french aint finnish dont look way youd think finnish would look bru,0 +fucking troll made actually fucking cut selfit long story want kill first place severe depression social academically future family one biggest hope release songs wanted make eltronic music person stepbystep told illegally download it even bad could put virus pc could easily whipe out somehow deleted fucking hardworking time wasting songs fucking cut self chest knife im actually planning cut deadline redflag thing alot shorter,1 +friends teenage son killed himselfour friend kids pretty young especially todays standards married asshole depression two kids got divorced dad pos left didnt even want see kids afterwards poor boy offed years old sad cant sleep dont want see kids faces tell them dont kill gods sake life amazing participate throw head first redflag harms people around you,1 +several issues redflag urban driving one worst course wife drags along new york city expects driving currently emotionally physically exhausted one worst things one cause lose sleep night is im anxious im unsure paid toll traveling tunnel jfk jersey city rental easy pass dark confused,1 +half time live fantasy world want live reality realised thing keeping going forced confront reality today future looks bleak hopeless work like dog body old tired ill got new job due start soon want traumatised current one system allow even take couple months heal otherwise pay bills barely feel joy excitement anymore like thinking future thought last year spend alive actually brings comfort meant world,1 +wanna die wanna live eithermy life really bad ive lost everything made happy people love love anymore im really scared death wanna die life bad hurt emotionally everyday hate living,1 +thank hellow u first important exam semester friday already decided im gonna day yay need study god hate exams well mean hours ones sit facing computer paper pencil completely fine prove knowledge worth people judge me im basically worthless thank you luckily or luckily mom love mom mom take lot strong pills condition get little drunk mix together okay ive read okay mean dead obviously die lot pain probably deserved too well actually wanted say thank all ive multiple accounts never made post like simply im pusspuss scared regretting ive talked many amazing people similar thoughts mine people ive grateful knowing even tho lot way better place met hope well get party together multiverse happy free something like that people whove really changed thoughts lot stuff yeah subreddit beautiful place harsh time tho really given lot insight talking people really made feel something first time long time thank that even care wonder went wrong life lemme try explain long story short ive always shy unconfident alien caring lot people seeing me school always important part life thing kinda good wanted best quite long time everything perfection got straight as motivated god knows why got see high school year period university everything changed like girls class felt like much older me drinking partying time lives me reading books biggest worry people like me tried become good enough anorexia hit hard brain used ruined me started fainting class museums home etc fine still getting good grades still everything perfection end nd year parents teachers decided healthy i mean looking back now pretty damn destroyed oh well telling take break ruined everything strong enough keep going felt like biggest failure biggest failure still am still feel it lost motivation still day wish could go back just me started taking classes last winter ive never felt worthless find everything pointless everything went planned would ready uni next summer heh guess not study astrophysics exact tho space always thing felt safe darkness stars planets buddies oh lets forget black holes too lemme real great life amazing supporting parents best brothers thats thing ive already peeked life go downhill fuck over keep failing ill start losing people good person take everything granted feel guilty deserve here every person would grateful position im not dream more want multiverses wanna travel space time wanna touch stars okay touch them know mean hope well know else say even know anyone reads this thank do oh one last thing please please send favorite songs would appreciated need blast ears good music till moment die thanks ampxb,1 +questions guys im scared ask irl part well guys reached questions pretty nice ask me unwritten rules every guy knows example thing girl comes event something pretends know always pretend know back could someone following someone thinks wants hurt her pretending someone could lose interest could ask help,0 +im yr old male chose expiration dateim really stupid person unspeakable thing thirteen years feel hopeless depressed three friends dont think even real friends id rather talk got couple things want get chest really hope go viral raped year old sister know knows act like never happened think want regular life feel like things way better wouldve never born when nearly killed mom called ambulance saved stabbed self stomach passed sister found screamed thats mom came call ambulance age hit someone text book got sent alternative schoolwe dont stay night there took knife school one friendsat time told got trouble at started get hallucinations thought gotten girl pregnant head abortion still depressed know fake feel real first turned sleepover house one friends wanted touch sister rapey way went kitchen grabbed knife nearly stabbed mom grabbed slapped me lost control wanyed die badly made mind im killing self cristmas eve got planned know nobody awake night slit wrist cut im guessing wont hurt im sorry mom sister,1 +dont care life want overim safe danger man desires drive me dont care anymore whole world soon anyways meds useless therapy useless wish could die,1 +i cant afford food cant afford therapy cant afford get better cant afford live dont want to,1 +im surviving day life want pain endim living pakistan parents one brother past months mixed emotions ive realized place fool like here used hang friends drink party rarely see them basically make everyone uncomfortable around me social skills disaster im major business administration ive real contacts used act like ive everything figured out bitter reality know shit want die father dies cant take responsibility family im socially isolated uptill ive passed exams using unfair means learned anything parents think ill achieve something im failure suicidal thoughts mind dreadful parents today blast occured city watching tv wishing blast site died them want sleep never wake up sometimes im afraid myself sorry bad vocabulary,1 +im killing hours need company attentionjust ordered last meal chinese fried chicken need less four hours since mom get home anyone talk thought might chit chat least judgmental ppl could get discussing it want alone rn yk ive lonely whole life wish could talk someone antagonize pain least day im trying cry much overdramatic even walking around overwhelming today kinda shuffled around like zombie lol im waiting chicken,1 +perpetuumi committed far happiness excessively beyond ahead me made choice abandon current pleasure future latters appeal distant realize provide motivation wont make years fuck life,1 +using imdbbr br youve given hefty votes favourite filmsbr br its something enjoy doingbr br and this fifty seconds one world ends another beginsbr br how given ten wonder give seven eight exactly could first film ever made better record long still opening shot great showmanship superb innovation perfectly suited situation dog bike lovely touch within fifty secondsbr br the word genius often overusedbr br this genius,0 +need help asapi cant anymore long im done feel empty hurt motivation passions went away redflag pretty much think spare time ive tried much know anymore please help,1 +light end tunnel train thats it thats post ,0 +fuck movie little children seem one bothered it httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvguuvkqvrmhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvguuvkqvrm sure say its cartoon its joke would say cartoons little children male characters humiliate hurt female characters twisting tits ramming something crotch hard gets stuck falls floor feet yes exactly is exactly little girls laugh that slapstick like other girl humiliating violating boy exploiting male weak spot genitals hes dirt feet pathetically clutching manhood male pain male humiliation stands triumphantly why woman created scene think hey know would funny girls kick boys balls really hard behind thats appropriate kids movie,0 +feelings explainedthis world broken honestly im pretty tired rather involved taking dip coming back air seems appropriate response pulled earth demons live beneath gosh mean always cared others always passionate everything throughout entire life even though world would constantly people place drag words know nothing big would said worthless would never amount anything stupid weird honestly things said broke levy head ago never same weird feel like wounded animal top corned dont hate self hate world dont hate people even though feel like right hate life everything went treated entire way want wounded animal becomes dinner im tired haha im done cluster somethings grammar probably terrible dont feel need fix anything felt like maybe someone could resonate even though depression depression dont think makes happiness aaahhh im done place terrible nice night,1 +strength takes fight suicidal urges beyond physical strength fighting everyday proud glad still here despite thoughts attempts plans urges right now safe keep safe big beautiful world mountains oceans animals every kind world wanted one too needed one too reason despite thoughts saysome hope my story tw attempts last year attempted suicide two times hid first attempt months sick enough fucking sick enough tried kill myself still bad enough standard please struggling suicidal thoughtstendencies reach out sick enough deserve help got getting second attempt landed hospital iv days psych ward since rehab another hospital psych ward tell gets better deep throws depression finally healing many mental illnesses healing too heal get dark time please stay safe proud you,1 +wake everyday urge dieevery single day wake heavy feeling inside chest would feel like dont belong here even waking up trying fighting pain still get get going suicidal thoughts dont go away makes feel miserable stupid wouldnt alot easier die,1 +hi fello gamers friend made discord whos talk share memes play video games skribblio minecraft cards humanity online terraria stardew csgo tf valorant overwatch destiny gmod doom smash rainbow six halo war thunder apex together guys girls listen music watch movies theres also separate channel nsfw small enough form sweet community everyone knows otherr pretty active ur lonelyyy also pokebot channels dank memer dm link d,0 +turns friend really socially anxious afraid texting people decided gonna text help practice idea start texting realized feel pretty much exact discomfort starting conversations people text decided would start texting lot help normalize wed comfortable texting people dont get wrong im totally board idea dont know start dont want feel like texting sake texting even thats actually doing want feel like actually talking friends dont know natural way,0 +nothing live fori nothing one job income future think of pointless anything even depressed feel emotions hopelessness lack desire anything,1 +hate new downvote colour thats guys thats post,0 +mom told im useless piece sht back story came room said me,0 +girls simps something happened ago simped trend would take selfies ourselves decided join post i deleted post this seconds later got dm throwaway account saying following word word hey f ur hot af wasnt really creeped this contrary flattered school thanked her next morning like told talk kik didnt kik told insisted got it did even though says afterwards added her said wanted another pic me declined wasnt even supposed awake yet tired sent picture she wearing clothes dont worry noticed didnt look probably looked older was pretty common wasnt gonna take risks deleted kik went back reddit blocked account theres examples people simping me get it im saying girls simps trying defend boys acting like simps incel im saying everyone simp internet regardless gender,0 +glowstick cracks final defence yet day becomes crippled darkness steals seeping protective light wounds like depraved hole black mass scrambling fir get,0 +neckbeards took movie theaters happened normal movie viewers superhero movies earn billion movies like ford v ferrari struggle earn ,0 +person loved world died years ago still feel acute grief looks like redflag might answeri loved much still cry hysterically every single day listen voicemails cannot take fact gone never ever get this want die much pain it cant face life without anymore,1 +im lbs im ,0 +took waaaay much aleve assuming works love all wonderful people ever work ill come helplt all,1 +give reason hopefulhonestly hopeful ill ever feel better person get feeling way me im fargone get own yet one life able help me even though already reached help hopeful thing change me unable fuck hopeful everytime hear someone say just hold onto hope something feel sick feel insulted would ask someone doesnt drop hope left hope hope isnt possible depression ripped everything meaningful existance replaced misery seriously someone come tell hope want someone tell me please id love get secret,1 +thought would left suicidal thoughts behind parents forcing pursue career despise think years emptiness await me stuck job hate suicide really seems like way out hey might well spite parents too maybe finally regret actions realise killed indirectly suicide seems like way parents forcing something hate,1 +weird quick add random people snap got bored went quick add added like random people dont know started think realized may come across really weird dont plan messaging anything wanted add people see stories log on guys think shouldnt done this fine,0 +mom killed th birthdayitll two years christmas ive thinking lately man of man get here talked family since aunts uncles two dozen cousins looking thoughts literally comments appreciated thanks advance give love get love,1 +went contacts theres oneno one say to anyone would turn would never believe capable this husband told raped drunk sitting car alone thinking ways could kill myself knowing feeling thats deserve thought good person wrong,1 +hospitalim thinking walking er ask help im terrified plan want held hours that cant seem get access doctor hope explain er people need see doctor or np whatever depression hopefully walk away prescription antidepressants possible lock up need help im afraid,1 +movie fun boardbr br it essentially follows comedic romp two graverobbers th century england move conventional body snatching trafficking vampires zombies dead roswell aliens i idea roswell alien there neither producers think br br but funny bet even ron perlman often kiss direct dvd death pretty good one priest turns ringleader rival gang bodysnatchersbr br a real joy watch hilarious little film good example larger life egos either side camera,0 +im trouble homeless so dad recently lost house staying aunt cant stay long imagine im lot stress progressively get behind school work dont room feel unwelcome vented twitter situation dont therapist anyone talk to family friend saw it arent vocal loss house family friend thought lying doesnt like political beliefs so teach lesson called cps dad trouble,0 +nobody left fight me even myselfive lost interest im realizing matter do ill never feel like ive satisfied hole chest nobody fight battles me want either im slowly pushing boundary anxiety death longer outweighs pain life matter hard convince others try convince me cannot convince anyone loves cares which turn makes feel like even bigger piece shit seemingly casting friends aside feel though theyd hate feel betrayed ever said feel alone crushing absolutely suffocating used think best way move improve even know point anymore improve what hoping achieve whats waiting me same nothing ever change know story ends might well finish already first chance get,1 +end nearafter years redflag ideation feel like soon hang myself cannot imagine surviving month august world fucking disgusting absolutely reason stay longer existence point value die make difference,1 +notion incels violent neonazis come from cause really seeming like another fear mongering attempt media,0 +wrote redflag note todayim writing letter becuase may hard anyone understand choosing this number one thing want every one know single human cuased this nothing one couldve done differently all except course myself simplistic reason cut dry black white thought redflag daily since fifteen years old seldom days mind worst enemie see world different way most everything constantly consistantly jumbled numbers faces letters words thoughts see things backwards sideways upside down sometimes even blurred hide hide well told people dyslexic hand really mean perpetual state confusion try hard learn can least take jab it becuase afriad seen stupid voice head justified mocking unintelligent really am one reason tired perpetual state confusion sure started im actually really sure anything started memory fleeting best along line mind began tell worthless mean bad day passing thought mean every single day bad day normal day even amazing day point start think anything little voice seeps starts go blow blow always reassure worthless stupid failure eat without telling get fat worthless cant read without laughing calling stupid jumble something up work without telling failure matter time fired give up always promise infact worthless number two tired trying live mind consistently telling failing to fucking crazy aforementioned voice stomach turning anxiety mood swings depression literally fucking insane five yes five voices head excluding aforementioned voices constantly fighting eachother example would want go bowling friends like normal person begin think bring them voices come in voice tell ask blunt voice tell ease conversation voice tell stupid shut sit pretend content voice tell bowling lame look stupid asking voice tell ignore voice fighting begins stuck helpless look fake content face pretending thier arent five voices head argueing fucking bowling maybe noticed time even call space cadet why yes another why tired control brain anxiety oh anxiety sweet toxic lover im really sure got bad afraid time moments feel sliver safety room dog occasion boyfriend otherwise irrationally fearing things fearing ask simple jeans ripped person thinks ugly going spill drink everyone laugh also crazy everyone resteruant thinks crazy random man bus read mind maybe lady witch also extreme as dog dead someone family dead dieing telling me today get arrested mugged today get fired accident die become vegetable combine anxiety five voices inflating thoughts voice always reassure worthwell lack of rationale enough anyone never want leave thier roomi tired afraid fourth reason why could on on inner workings mind upon writing come realize answer fact simple cut dry black white why simple fucking tired kind tired nap fix energy drink good nights rest kind tired awake forceful battle climb bed struggle loosing everyday kind tired solution sleep never wake up,1 +mental health advice parent sad edit joke seek help talk someone trust mental health,0 +rented movie simply rosario dawson it sat watch buddy minutes glued seats intensity minutes real film hollywood bs explosions corny one liners film drew slowly reeling toward tragically human fate people think enjoy film sadly mistaken like movies mindless entertainment entertainments sake alone michael bays transformers like produced audience need think people watch allow ever stereotype muster slowly dissolve brain well even place advertisements throughout movie keep buying products forget explosions love explosions make distinction art entertaining also thought provoking moves hidden ways entertainment rarely artful even arbitrarily movie entertainment descent film film artbr br if still house soul within walking meatsack apparatus rape scene every bit powerful irreversable distinction irreversable violent rape scene involving two people whose paths unfortunately crossed wrong time hell ensued descent date rape less disgusting less depraved different trust violation soul desecration scars run deep character maya consenting would hot sex scene seeing desperate escape scene sickening jared sick manipulative serial rapist wholly unsettling closely resembles passionate love affair could maya ever close anyone even midst raping jareds slick lover boy facade ever hints slipping ruinedbr br the film whole beautiful camera work lighting times removes surroundings focuses everything maya silent inner workings mind accomplished rosario facial expression gesture soundtrack excellent blend everything particularly favorite scene synchronism film aspects working together maya dancing sea writhing bodies something inside awakening becoming aware set beautifully sad jeff buckley tunebr br i think ive really spoiled anything im stopping do bottom line think best film hands down unfortunately seems everyone jaded days hack slash gang rape nuke anything people cant bothered death worst thing happen you last thing happen existence worst things happen never leave you always thoughts shower brush teeth buy christmas present tie shoe haunt you haunt last thing releases youbr br treat yourself challenge yourself watch film,0 +pineapple belongs pizza pineapple belongs pizza bet cant change mind,0 +ate spicy mcchicken without water know one time ladies,0 +holy fuckkk opened reddit computer first time theres much info stats stuff woahhh,0 +anyone remember playedonlinecom sure do played time games like raise dragon super mario crossover guess kizi took one point site longer exists,0 +post nut anger im fucking angry world committing bonk didnt help either,0 +everyone would better without really care anything life feels like matter end killing one day point living even reason live,1 +ive actually lost faith humanity girl class posted instagram story saying homophobic gay friend new trend like occur friends gay person theyre genuinely nice person want friends with need opinions this flaired discussion,0 +what fuck foreskin works like banana peel right,0 +im confused much karma post sub wanna post things,0 +finally get see good doctor ugh finally original doctor awesome retired like new one took adhd meds absolutely fucked over mean cool talk talked anime stuff wasnt great job im fucking happy get back adhd meds yall idea hard quit adhd meds cold turkey like going genius biggest moron earth taken developed depression anxiety paranoia course im failing core classes relief ill finally able just exist normally again,0 +one day im going deadits hard think started self harming im fucking loser dont plan making year probably lack motivation even get shotgun talked girl recently ghosted while went date stopped burning cigarette night crazy bitch cant say dont miss though im loser rarely gets affection shell act like cares im dead get sympathy thats life see light end tunnel goes right fuck out,1 +fuck mods thanks removing post titled reasons commit redflag like wtf wrong you,0 +music suicidal thoughtsany songs redflag wanting die,1 +cant think title ampxb httpspreviewredditkbxllaqoscjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsebdacdcadafbeabdef,0 +almost half summer gone by watched virtually friends disappear vanish contemplated suicide daily become apathetic life adopted nihilistic view future suffered verbal abuse parents anything life exactly experiencing things right now feel mental capacity social interaction overall thinking deteriorated much worried college want free independent enjoyable life college sure mentally ready that cannot consult therapist financial reasons backlash parents best course action me know emotionally ready go college scared,1 +get bed see standing alone horrified stage little dark age,0 +bout call helpline lol first time ig literally need talk councillor else idk ill fucking,0 +last dayhey im going kill right post nothing theyre point alive anymore im sorry dont another post means im dead im sorry posting btw,1 +fellow teens share another valuable piece information today make war love virginity cool,0 +daily thoughts redflageveryday redflag seems like best option end pain years therapy helped understand hurt resolved pain im years old job pays well years almost one month sober suffer ptsd adhd depressive disorder behavioral addictions constantly need approval others order maintain self esteem battle internal fits rage triggered mistakes made work fabricated memories neglectful spiteful mother distant older brother meaningful friendships life ive never meaningful relationship woman almost every sexual encounter rare onestand usually paid escort habit expensive sexual outlet mainly masturbating porn and suffer erectile dysfunction physical nature assume years chronic masturbation damaged me way man age live id soon end life recently major surgery surgeon wrote prescriptions hydrocodonetylenol pain killer muscle relaxer barely used them hydrocodone tablets dozen muscle relaxants daily thoughts taking once think would let sleep wake up,1 +found use reaction channels add anything video theyre reacting use watch agerestricted videos not best method still use channels nonetheless,0 +life nothing tortureback story around father always stubborn man born mother two miscarriages never knew told caused father kicking stomach pregnant proof happened however knowing abusive nature father certainly believe it mother would rebuild house bought less k terrible condition leaks ceiling rats everywhere including slept dad drinking gallon wine per day doubt more started truck driving started rebuild house help horrible lazy construction workers worked small amount money thats could afford would go home depot haul supplies us afraid leave us alone likely babies fall asleep would shake us viciously mother found spied saw performing cruel abuse us babies never called cops never understood see money know hed leave abuse more said would abuse shed spend money road rebuild house unlivable condition back mother always loving person would never hurt anyone amazing power fortunately received lot money someone helped lot father pushed buy truck picked used truck k ended purchasing course selfemployment truck repaired multiple times severely put mom debt lot money i believe number around kk mother declare bankruptcy decided sell truck k one would buy higher months ago abusing us body alcohol tobacco went doctor stomach pains turns esophagus cancer stage refused take doctor recommended treatments went retreat cure cancer instead put k debt treatment helped making feel better close nothing came curing cancer kept reading alternative medicine treatments online curing cancer hes bought natural products work sadly thinks works financially secured dads pension recently took away us pay treatment mother told could declare bankruptcy way debt removed refused asked help pay debt capable spending savings pay treatment declined result hiding pension money recently accident parking lot driving papers fell car tried open door grab papers car moving ended falling car car crashed another parked car course insurance went father locked room ignored mother presumably avoid paying increase insurance mother demanded pay insurance claimed money spent pay treatment driving around barely walk think properly takes seconds think say midsentence still license endangering lives driving around public roads ive told drive course became defensive im father boss around bs events breaks heart never knew anyone could selfish cheap stubborn abusive psychotic father barbarian disgusts every morning wake up entire house smells like body decay still get hes dying asked feels enthusiastically attempts say great feel good me ive always felt suicidal think ever kill myself picked middle school made feel disconnected everyone became abusive like father hit sistermother feel like im living mental illness constant brain fog hard talk people properly im always quite know talk people ill fuck up friends say look normal talk normally thats im around them brain mapping lot shit wrong me said likely traumatic brain injury suspect father baby im going expensive university free im lazy never go computer science class shit already learned online free im always homework last minute motivated work started semester fell bad habits fucking hate life partially fault id appreciate input need get life together im depressed mood writing sleep deprivation,1 +knowledge typical british comedy period someone familiar process becoming london cabby film bound seem average laughs old facesbr br the knowledge however comes knowledge boys like wifes know poor individuals going through find comparing incidents characters,0 +biggest achievement year staying alive biggest regret also staying alivedoes anyone else feels way too,1 +never felt doomed life gf left months ago mother really could call functional person since rent expired living house months friends basically disappeared going therapy really help much feel like going crazy truman show kind place living killing me could kill real what,1 +mom pissing shes fucking nuts love im tired bitching goddamn time calm enjoy day,0 +ok like please someone explain smelling cherry perfume whole night like constantly get whiff like someone walked past streets u got smell like dont used perfume parents dont one house even uses cherry smelling items happening,0 +today right thingi talked mother talked friend have lying years ive depressed decade talking people sites eased talking people care even two left thanks people found therapist online could comfortable help dissected myself know makes get morning function ive sober almost month week starting new job feel good bad know right thing know it control wanted thank guys for,1 +hot tea hot tea nowi sucking tea bag reason need know rasberry tea,0 +jimmy trying kill ever since asked mom fat ass saying truethe best questions go unanswered,0 +wrestlemania took place april skydome toronto ontario canadabr br match rick martel vs koko b ware was solid opening match koko always fairly popular fans point martel still getting heel talent end martel able snag win pretty non memorable matchbr br match colossal connection andre giant haku c with bobby the brain heenan vs demolition ax smash wwf tag team championship point andres health really awful performance really nothing special crowd pro demolition match end haku pinned new tag team champions match andre lays haku heenan turns face would turn last wrestlemaniabr br match earthquack vs hercules short match big dominant heels really popular thing time rip men match john tenta earthquake passed long ago hercules end earthquake pins hercules winbr br match mr perfect vs brutus the barber beefcake first really good match night rip curt henning mr perfect really solid back forth action talented guys end brutus gets win thanks lot major fan support matchbr br match rowdy roddy piper vs bad news brown technical classic pretty decent brawl wrestlemania piper comes half blackhalf white considerably classic moment end guys fight double count clear cut winnerbr br match hart foundation vs bolsheviks complete squash match hart foundation gets easy win surprising wwe used tag team divisionbr br match barbarian vs tito santana bobby heenans heenan family fairs better match barbarian takes win tito santana memorable good go back watch years laterbr br match randy savage sensational sherri vs dusty rhodes sapphire big intergender tag team match dusty rhodes wears uncomfortable polka dot outfit ring end rhodes sapphire get win the macho king sensational queen sherribr br match rockers vs orient express surprisingly another tag team match tag wrestling used much better time period young shawn michaels partner marty jannetty take loss count match orient expressbr br match dino bravo vs jim duggan duggan gets decent reaction despite american patriot gimmick bravo member jimmy harts group comes ring hart earthquake although support duggan takes winbr br match the million dollar man ted dibiase c vs jake the snake roberts million dollar championship first major main event night roberts extremely fans match considerably good was dibiase able pick count win roberts roberts ends possessing dibiases money giving awaybr br match big boss man vs akeem with slick one man gangs sad attempt african dream named akeem really short match needed time develop match boss man wins slambr br match jimmy superfly snuka vs rick rude heenan comes ring rude match snuka never really got good wrestlemania always seemed losing end short minutes rude gets win snukabr br match wwf champion hulk hogan vs intercontinental champion ultimate warrior dubbed the ultimate challenge get interesting promos men earlier night match actually good given people tend think hogan cant wrestle lot near falls really got crowd people watch home it end warrior gets win hogan wins titles stunned crowd looks hulk hogan suffers first loss wrestlemania,0 +advice fellow young teenagers,0 +want would paint nails wear girl clothes youre yearold boy parents wouldnt like wear nail polish dress way,0 +seriously imagine spread talent one film without huge budget daniel daylewis ray mcanally brenda fricker hugh oconor fiona shaw theres doubting fricker daylewis deserved awards would entirely justifiable seen oconor as young christie mcanally awarded clich true here perform roles inhabit them daylewis performance tour de force transformation aweinducing truly mark academys intelligence alongside performance also honoured brenda frickers beautifully restrained still heartwrenching work christies mother way seen magnificent actress swann thats another film well worth checking contribution and sublime miranda richardson,0 +ok know im gonna go commit bunch crimes least im wanted someone,0 +gimme unpopular opinions go go go mens rights activists dumb abortion wrong only pregnant person decide whether abort people confuse cancel culture accountability way often superiority complex religion dumb probably unpopular judging amount people think theyre better christian something idk bragging reading books makes look like complete idiot people bad parents hate alexaok google etc,0 +asking riphone sucks theres gotta people iphones iphone sometimes tries automatically download call duty mobile want know happen iphone users apples thing what im confused,0 +pretty face pretty bad dreams one knows cry sleep httpsopenspotifycomtrackzpcvdspynvkqcjrmxjsitjpxjxvordyclehndikqamputm_sourcecopylink,0 +thats folksi posted maybe weeks ago rdepression basically outlining crappy life led point ill summarize you father left life born found mom pregnant me mother mental breakdown two weeks old tore head bugie owned drown pet dog kitchen sink suffocated almost death pillow lucky baby grand parents came visit exact moment time barge stop killing me put maximum security psychiatric hospital first two years life never met already talking walking passed around aunts uncles grandparents mom came home diagnosed schizophrenia heavily drugged depixol mianserin diazepam also developed spinal problem caused excruciating pain prevented much range movement heavy pain meds too put back care needless say life hard living her mood swings growing would turn randomly violent drop hat childhood suffered broken nose broken ribs dozens instances beatings lock bedroom every night slept safety fun yo grandpa died grandma lost went senile rest family abandoned mother long time ago without support looking myself violent mom crazy gran school always option tend routines grandma fell bungalow broken knee lay days stone cold floor pain confusion found wardens weekly visit died ambulance way hospital mom developed leukaemia battled months turned nonhodgkins lymphoma lost grandpas death moms death funerals buried cremated whole family exactly year day mom died close friend mine hung himself tough harsh time life suffer depression memories wish could erase head constantly got relationship really helped me still depressed found purpose existing again love generally genuinely happy ten years partner sure gone hard times recession lost job years ago move find new work still glad someone life cared about well thats too cheated kicked out homeless friend work got house keep ending streets last months life hardest yet years life devoted person still love heart nothing utterly alone world cant even begin imagine starting someone new even want to live uk voted conservatives again given up faith humanity gone now crushed beyond words filled loss sorrow grief pain heart smashed dust tomorrow th may day mother died day sean died far concerned day uk died thanks election result plan end life am tomorrow morning nothing left world me everyone cared dead friends long gone one love turned back together point purpose existence now die one day anyway likely cancer slowly painfully waste away dust like watched mother go through thanks tomorrow jump bridge far ft valley floor witnessed first hand people jumping death there fast painless mercy wanted tell someone nobody say goodbye too goodbye guess see another life cats,1 +little film brings back lot memories fond foul happen one working musician pleasant accommodations band management venue jumping telling play sheer ecstasy applause far farcical is fact accurate way depicts musicians professional otherwise travelled great distance perform season gigs venue times everything goes perfectly times immediately start miss partner wonder hell far home end make best way out,0 +get blackmail im blackmail issue currently forced things else person info tell parents info do,0 +seven years shit lost hope ever getting better wish could die peacefully today want fight anymore,1 +expect getting helpi know quite begin first reddit post lurker lol subreddit years apologize formatting shitty im year old collage student norway if anyone knowledge specifically norwegianscandinavian health care ive thinking redflag now thought wanted hour ago figured starting write letter family im sure anymore would really like know expect health care system going institutionalized restrict computer use example pretty much enjoy anymore watching series nature documentaries playing computer games would hate lose opportunity that post suited rdepression anything please let know edit guess could give insight felt surprisingly good writing even though noone commented yet im attending collage away home planned writing letter today tomorrow deed sunday told parents would home summer ive anxious queasy day managing write friends family come loving home makes feelings confusing me parents siblings supported two years ago admitted depressed i downplayed though want watching every move case wanted act feelings feel really shitty living expectations me even stupid know would matter what really took bad turn failing couple collage classes got self know better im really lazy particularly depressed started giving shit dropping classes entire semesters im putting front telling family think want hear anyways turned rambling hard think clearly tears ill answer coherently specific questions,1 +whats point livingidk direction anymore know deal im tired,1 +someone near age please talk me fi want die,1 +im waste space im sorry im still aliveusually im strong person give depression much lately hard actually live past years dealt fine even joked suicidal depressed however laughing matter anymore today bad day woke wrong side bed today nothing seemed going well series things go well morning got work shit piled up afternoon boyfriend fight like even big deal him evening making dinner family every fucking thing mess bigger problems deal day helping every good days one bad day change every thing today cry cry room cry working cry texting boyfriend cry cooking cry typing this fuck bullshit im fucking tired living hard especially life live hoping new year starts im already gone,1 +macbook air color get macbook air intel i must know gold silver silver seems boring everyone silver laptop gold that really looks like copper looks cool sister says girly would look weird public im kinda indecisive pls help couldnt post links pics cuz got auto removed,0 +fuck tik tok saw rant like heres another one despise app called someone actual crime posted got criticized blue lives matter patch like know people sorts opinions actual fuck im done toxic ass app hope gets banned country goodnight may god or whoever believe in bless,0 +hey anyone wanna talkchatdo anything idc im bored wanna talk random strangers feel free dm stalk profile make sure find post kinda thing lot,0 +hey rbonkpatrol bonk peepee please uwu,0 +zoomposting real god tier one favorite zoomposts barry remember nora bathing got hard barry jacked supersonic speed got hard,0 +feeling like im somehow faking depression suicidal ideationive numb sort depression years gotten lot worse recently ive serious suicidal thoughts recently though time im actively suicidal wishing death would come one form another anyways better days depression crippling feel numb rather pained common thought is what im actually depressed imagining faking it im seeking attention mean easy not depressed cant seem get it even then still wonder im depressed know symptoms logically im making think feel way honestly confusions making desire end stronger moment think doubt starts surfacing again im making think want die maybe even feeling perceive numbness normal im making mountain molehill know paradoxical really cant seem make sense it,1 +one wanna eat raw carrot sometime tastes good healthy time perfect also like eat peas cooked gone cold ik bit weird good get eat dont go work im extremely greatful towardsmy boss letting so,0 +come posts get comments get none serious people made feel even suicidal thanksi see lot posts getting least comments mine got one suicidal ideation serious thank sub making feel even alone pushing suicidal thoughts,1 +m almost never dated anyone never first kiss avoided main high school social events prom parties thought physically inferior everyone else worth noting attempted date rejected hurt every single time tried still put horrible depressive state emotionally many friends see people work many people talk snapchat stuff makes hate life even more understand get people talk snapchat get confidence even ask someone snapchat unless like best friends family asking someone snapchat instagram may something super simple everything else me requires days sometimes weeks planning going every single scenario could casually ask someone without random weird find myself face especially utterly repulsive ugly instance employment manager work high schoolers girls like take pictures us the managers reason ask say funny work environment really relaxed like fun work acceptable every manager tell want picture taken keep trying it tell why tell feel really ugly hate way look believe too therapy working feel like mind cannot changed want changed feels like cannot feel like forever idea turn here thanks advice advance get self degrading mindset,1 +familys staging intervention tonight know say still feel like tryingtheyre picking couple hours its pm est right now one told it sister said want try giving back control life also put club car cant drive anywhere suffering lot indignities right poor choices example sleep room yearold nowhere put stuff sounds like big deal least place stay still makes feel like child unemployed broke while phone shut off missed call could landed job told sister said could asked help phone bill problem feel like asked help directly could always really hard me told siblings able pay bills jack shit it cars booted think ive never reached whole thing really humiliating really whiny bitch try looking outside wow take intervention seriously suffering more ways petty ones ive listed obviously years little pissed off calming down ive posted before theres little history there httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsfbqi_dont_think_trying_is_worth_it_for_any_reason_at edit thanks everyone wrote im heading meeting check post later little better prepared collected grateful people talk spectacle begins sw really amazing place edit im back man weird might post little description respond couple posts there edit thank everybody communitys kindness support really touching time read bit attempt sleep ill check thread tomorrow throw cents got them,1 +luckier most feel selfish home life fucking sucks worst people know would upset left little sister slid note door close fucking broke heart screamed parents stupid useless sit listen whole thing note says love you sorry something birthday wednesday want leave fucking badly want ruin special day turning want fuck rest life bc selfish stick around going kill last birthday end trying reason know friends would miss well boyfriend want make anyone upset cannot keep this escape know going kill eventually known since sisters age going to much pussy actually something end suffering see point anymore life fucking meaningless cycle pain misery resentful parents bringing treating like this force life never asked wanted so tired know people would miss tired,1 +feel worthless ugly unlovable cant fucking take anymorei friends nobody understands mom blames everything happened feel empty inside absolutely one support outside therapy lonely time stuck thoughts myself pain freaking hard cope everyday im saying want crutch want support it nobody wants around fucking depression matter much reach try converse others feel like losing mind loneliness crippling eating away every day seriously struggling feels like im fighting battles one im verge giving surrendering tons times past months feel sad alone lonely fucking tired living everlasting pain,1 +yall ever listen one song up yall know song im talking about bro shit like idk sad fuck song hits heart peaceful like omg low key feel relaxed calm,0 +solutionustedes necesitan hierro anemicos suicidas ustedes necesitan cobre anemicas suicidas hierro si eres hombre cobre si eres mujer esto les dara paz energia gentlemans need take iron ladys yo need take copper iron men copper woman give peace energy,1 +failed attemptetried drowning ocean got nevk high went idk ohappened im alove,1 +helpi need someone talk please dont want kill way,1 +still think every night sad talked months even really good friends anything really liked her even time able see talk her still think do way contact ill probably never see either yet ive finding thinking every night cant stop know,0 +ever feel like plastic bag strangle ocean creatures,0 +im thinking asking girl im seconds thoughts ok ive known girl fairly certain feelings things ive noticed example goes physical contacts sit next class sometimes randomly punch thigh its like tease hurt change tone voice around me laugh crappy jokes somehow got hold hand one time mind lasted longer shouldve actually clue really nice obviously telling likes me need advices yall atleast encouragements ill enough confidence tell feel thanks reading,0 +friendly reminder go bed want remind great year killer clowns back,0 +tell everyone ever cared goodbyeive making gifts people letters go along it making sure know never fault nothing wrong also thanked everyone life im parents favorite need little help make sure feel better this friends getting custom made things ensure know wants fault,1 +took pills alcohol finally die nowi found roommates pills want die took all want die die now edit still here work roommates found morning lied told fine taken pills go hospital edit again still still here confided friend seeking help job offers free therapy said friend holding that,1 +going kill weekendi all well paying job enjoyed loving mother cared lot me bright future utterly devastating self esteem last internship abroad schizophrenia hit hearing lot negative voices kept ignoring mothers emails held resent reason father raised hate her rude ignore her fair room back house move brother become even isolated damaged brain trying self medicate voices abusing anxiolytics committed internet crime broke morals snapped voices everything im left damaged brain haunting past im currently employed really cant it cant write code anymore im mentally incapable want live dark place anymore temporary problem permanent problem hate did went crazy fucked bad ends weekend,1 +always hurtsi feel like im running ways cope suicidal thoughts dont really know go here ive suffered anxiety since little struggled eating disorders self harm child age two hospitalizations got shit together im therapist now finish grad school ill clinical psychologist id like think im good job thanks feedback ive gotten patients families makes feel stupid pathetic cant help myself okay long time months ago fianc struggled mental health years never sought treatment months ago threatened kill psychotic break call hospitalized awhile hes back months meds hes making life unbearable long remember doctors expect handle treatment medication etc career educational background causing chaos home doesnt accept schizophrenia diagnosis doesnt want help hell say wants get better tell hes playing everyone sake it hes putting us thousands debt demands everything working full time school full time managing care full time feel like im drowning mental health worse years know im thoughts im trying take advice reach help nobody takes seriously ive contacted national redflag prevention hotline four times hours every single time ive waited hour even im connected nobody actually picked sit begging someone answer sobbing started seeing therapist sanity fianc came back rarely get see intense schedule parents juggling depression sisters bipolar disorder glue keeping together cannot go this fianc assumes im angry blows time catches hiding house crying myself try talk starts yelling need calm down tried cups listeners literally never respond im trying cope healthy ways yoga running working cut today first time long time expecting feel relief didnt im trying hard find ways keep going ive posted lot situation caregiver schizophrenia subgroups people like leave thats problem cant threatened life consulted police victims advocacy groups attorneys see could get restraining order protective order said no physically hurts anything kick apparently could get trouble removing place residence hes treatment would willingly leave ive begged go family across country moved here ive told doesnt want treatment whatever may go home wont gets angry verbally aggressive home name pay bills cant abandon home either im really beginning feel like redflag way out,1 +dont know is yall ever awake late night feel sad something similar like dont know kinda sad,0 +memes go brr memes cant post subredditsso im asking financial karma support,0 +gay incels exist ive scrolling deep reddit day im curious lol,0 +ew ew ew ew got email year old sharing nudes probably spam manga sites visit still,0 +im going see favorite band end august think im donemy favorite band slipknot coming hometown august rd im fortunate enough opportunity see friend day passes however ill really nothing left live look forward to going wait till halloween favorite holiday even doesnt seem worth anymore ive struggling major depressive disorder suicidal thoughts almost years never worse recently make money job good friend others dont go school im dumb girl like going away college doesnt want relationship thinks school would get way figured seeing favorite band perform one last time would perfect memory go on anyways im sorry long read thank stopped read it means lot,1 +alienated last person help step back thats left strangersi just cant take anymore ive felt like shit ever since fiancee died coming years holy fuck years think would this fast havnt serious relationship since close friend mine bad scare redflag cops found passed car stopped side building decided toss everything aside help it moved k miles away everyone know now talk anymore thats problem though just friends abandoned me ive got two great friends now one male one female that fell head heels for point became joke everyone drew guy came visited week pretense helping out spent entire week chasing ass far watching craigslist see someone would post bailey female friend since started dating someone tortured high school made fun me absolutely tortured high school hear great guy is telling everything happened hes amazing makes feel like person life gotten bad cant work cant sleep days straight passed phone customer nodden off passed out woke hit floor sent doctor gave script xanax im looking mg xanax bottle grey goose start look good here better idea seems nod off let pain go away done it back fiancee wife got taken me,1 +im scared death way outand ive constant panic days weeks months need die need fucking die cant take god,1 +anyonei alot shit life know answers lot things could save lives im going it,1 +evidence bible scam know historically progressive shit stuff everyone gets thrown hell being gay masturbating swearing etc maybe best examples get point so hell progressive shit is yet bible says hell bat like bruh wtf thank coming ted talk hail satan,0 +wants pancakes made many,0 +ventwhitehot anger sadnessdepression trying forget alcohol sleeping waking instantly wanting die sadness whitehot anger guilt feelings every bad thing ive done life defined now,1 +losing battleanyone feel like losing battle time surrender fought depression anxiety hole life therapy medications alternatives work short term done exhausted cant fight anymore depression won,1 +nothing ever feels fun anymore,0 +single hitting quite hard never listen electric love blues ,0 +fucking stupid ever think im worthy happiness im miserable stupid annoying piece shit dont real friends never im worth it fucking run away rot gutter long ago like planned nobody would fucking miss one would care id get suffering deserve people would finally rid me theyd finally get one annoying kid stop bothering stop pretending nice everyone dont know ever thought people would want friend im loser im nerd im complete dumbass overall fucking pathetic excuse functioning human im supposed social high life havent talked close friends month every time pretend excited see me say hey whats up casual talk people expect every time ask wanna hang out question gets pushed aside oh im busy sorry theyll happily post much great time theyre friends week wish could fucking already already know one would care never spoke again thats holding back fear failure becoming burden already am disgusting live like trudge ever onward false hopes happiness one day,0 +talking girls early today talking guy said whenever talks girls platonic get creeped high sexual drive walk away let tell you unless like actually handsy saying sexual things sexual girl know level sex drive especially asked howd think lecture girl says one word answer walks away mean creeped sexual drive asked talk girls said show personality interest proceeded say im confusing studying law degree easier talking girls remember guys tpo time p place occasion honestly everything though making friendshipsrelationshipstalking people sex opposite x time girl busy lecture seems like wants go back dormsapartmentnext classwhatever shes going stay around talk guy shes never spoken before periodt continuously strike conversation her youll better chances making friends though place never spoken before youll better chance making friends approach shes people like study grouppartyclub person talk person direct conversation you also apply places people dont conservations in class sit next other talk class hallways standing comfortable blocking peoples way talk lunch everyone going eating breaks conversation without awkward occasion specific reason talk girl itll help conversation flow easier theres test coming up go talk going party go talk event talk event youre excited annoyed about birthday ask shes going shes happy about also aware opposite hours test im pretty sure would rather study talk gameshowhobby,0 +need one award one more award dont really care type,0 +mom wont tell whats wrong me idk im tired internally would youre biggest part problems soooo,0 +created prisoni dont want here every time start feel okay end misstepping going thought pattern much happy even things get nicer still prison im never going able get anxiety fears im going stuck day day going room work never able form meaningful connections cant drive cant handle people theyre going hurt places like reddit feel like im talking someone im always going five year old girl ruined could understand happened her dont think brother care much hope takes care cat ill really miss dont want live like anymore,1 +psychiatrist forgot second appointment row redflag attempt accused wife making allegations said appointments phone literally forgot twice blames me proceedwhat say text call logs missed time expectations double booked first time extremely obvious upset waiting room cut appoint minutes would listen new medical information had refused give number psychologist told would in hurry told text him never responded texted important is literally asked email text previous text called none information ready calling minutes late ask allegations wife making saying about wanting work you take walked away phone uncontrollable crying actions went straight professional mode trying ensure responsible anything suggestions fault essentially feeling trying ensure could refuse assistance make sure considering legal recourse closed call wife suggestion that longer work him days call get assistance anytime needed previously actually demanded text certain times completely forgot never replied voicemail full give email address answer phone call oclock morning panic phone calls pm hi doctor want give additional pertinent information ensure forgotten appointment calls texts ive tried ill try someone else hurts much one even people pay listen never even acknowledged said additional medical information him sarcastically asking me what take tests last night mention previous appointment had gone effort get medical professionals digital form make easier him claimed state whenever patient doctor relationships end documentation why stated would unwilling work him readily apparent appointment turned phone call benefit person concern himself even expense feelings health sorry make sense ive gotten hours sleep last hours literally tested got literally zero rem sleep study entire night going months im seeing shadow people shaking uncontrollably vomiting dizzy super dizzy know do ive worked lot doctors successfully past im new game insultingly unabashed desire place blame session anymore stay call dropped phone crying sobbing took continuing telling wife responsible feeling litigation something considering medical leave work new psychiatrist give note clear return started leave want situation feel well enough reach back out get needed note attacked knows without additional note let go job allowed return concerned this ive already started reaching doctors saw genuine lack concern health well being ive got direction medical needs world right now set hopes relief back several months need new cpap priority moment understand this could resolved covid happened im tired very tired,1 +generally like finish stuff consider work related things like video games series anything like dont want end scared finishing since know going back wont same finish everything feels empty like value anymore knowing never experience way makes want end go loving afterwards never wanting anything anymore,1 +ask helpi weekly occasion contemplate killing myself realize probably normal get help issue would ruin career probably making want kill even more profession kind paperwork mental disorders redflag considered one automatic separation get separated guarantee cannot move forward career certain jobs maybe dreamed of want help seek help means dream jobs denied me,1 +hurt head felt like going explode never make past seconds another trial run,1 +sorry right subreddit post direct go somewhere else went psychiatrist today expectation get prescribed stimulants take test get some point got diagnosed major depressive disorder prescribed zoloft lie psychiatrist told past current situation honestly even depressed pretty functional outside everyday random bouts hour depression lot look forward honestly confused diagnosed today major depressive disorder,1 +ok owes pulp fiction opinion voice identity mainly musicvideo direction style sketchlike narrative great performances thomas jane delivers great the drugdealer showdown extraordinary aaron eckhart likewise james legros short effervescent appearancegreat humorthey got wong house porzikova interrogation rape scene memorable mickey rourkes cameo appearancetake peakbr br great hollywood popcorn bproduction strong performances alevel aspirants renegadesrourkebr br well take peak worth,0 +dream killing everydayit wish ive got nothing worth salvaging,1 +played among us im addicted first ever game among us cant stop playing cant stop thinking it,0 +roman polanski considered one important directors time mind behind classics rosemarys baby chinatown probably makes polanskis cinema interesting one fact capable creating commercially attractive films afore mentioned masterpieces also fond making lowkey movies personal nature le locataire the tenant one movies horrorsuspense story paranoia obsession among best works probably among best horror movies ever donebr br polanski plays telkovsky young man looking apartment france finally finds one discovers empty previous tenant simone choule attempted kill jumping window simone dies injuries trelkovsky begins become obsessed her point believing death caused rest tenants buildingbr br while sharing claustrophobic feeling apartmentthemed films repulsion rosemarys baby film focuses bizarre conspiracy may may entirely trelkovskys head catastrophic effects paranoia mind bizarre obsession previous tenantbr br trelkovskys descend darkness portrayed perfectly polanski first performance seems odd wooden slowly one finds polanski acts way trelkovsky meant acted way simpleton almost life traps maddening subworld happens inhabited collection bizarre people supporting actors really gave life people building creating memorable characters important success filmbr br also beautiful cinematography polanski employs film helps increase feeling isolation gives life beautiful building serves cage trelkovsky haunting images polanski uses convey feeling confusion madness supernatural beauty makes frightening attractivebr br if flaw found film definitely bit slow first may sound like turnoff fact slow pace beginning works perfectly mimics trelkovskys boring life gradually enters different realm also convoluted storyline definitely easy one understand due many complex layers has however flaw joy face thoughtprovoking plot like onebr br while the tenant may everyone interested psychological horror surreal story lines pleased experience le locataire really one roman polanksis masterpieces ,0 +dont knowthree kids wife behind bills mortgage things turned off never ending pile shit find anything spending much time thinking things make mistake fuck something up run business first year rough wasnt thought assumed id help dont even know writing thing doesnt matter cry whenever look kids faces sat van three hours last night wanting go home went sleep cant avoid them want better everything overwhelming pleaded help able get wife understand unable fix situation failing many ways,1 +goddamn motherfucking damn im still person years think ill end for legal reasons thats joke prolly idk well see ,0 +riding motorbike indian crowded street worst thing ever it dont today first time holy shit almost crashed times people come anywhere rules almost hit kid riding tricycle busy street part speedbraker broken people pass only matter narrow side is wonder hell dad without crashing anyone lot close calls everytime stress level instantly reaches see everyone bike car cycle tricycle cart coming towards you scared this,0 +seniors came back fully school less week schools online td bc covid cases wow less week huh,0 +movies like lego movie lego movie lego batman movie walle,0 +four years dealing depression finally managed open get appointment psychologist im happy,0 +going back real school gonna weird transition mostly early get up like getting am morning sun never then fucking zombies yo,0 +wanna wake sometimes stop disappointing family major problems school never gf barely good friends got social life whatsoever support family either suicidal thoughts last years ampxb support hurt,1 +getawayi really want run away life right now feel trapped circumstances see one way out theory seems easy difficult practice make easier,1 +cant cry anywhere dont even room thats piling emotions cant take anymore,0 +high school dropout suffering depression anxiety lonely fuckim life look worse me dropped high school last year due mental health issues school ultimately unable address school behaviorallychallenged children lot really fucking scary people it towered threatened albeit subtly almost every single day could go normal high school would reject me believe tried teachers overworked underpaid lot bullying issues went unresolved one day enough broke crying told really really wanted drop out told you least live oddly enough went home told mom shit suggested homeschooling research found requirements really lax easily abused so there homeschooled reality though nothing play video games watch anime day mind understandable reason dropped out inexcusable sit nothing free time now year later filled even less selfesteem left school constantly suicidal thoughts chronically unable improve myself could make argument could get ged good there probably correct thats im worried about see real life friends want make some hospitalized recently due telling therapist wanted kill myself hospital another kid dropped everyone shat it constantly saying hes gonna end prison never gonna wife job etc saw cry moment got hit much builtup anxiety suicidal ideation returned now stronger ever whos gonna want date high school dropout gonna get well paying nonminimum wage job going make good friends fuck all kill now,1 + chance death redflagim years old addicted heroin years past year ive rehab times already know one day im going kill myself purposely take hot shot end painlessly,1 +whats called oh yeah yandere find one those want yandere gf find one those,0 +wish balls iti nothing life im years old wife kids job nothing look forward except same wish goddamned pussy finally went ending,1 +studied exam like week got b instead hate blood tests,0 +come flirty friend found profile fucking kill me said flirtatious messagescomments i,0 +worry much life worry myself always hating cannot keep people want think want matter many times times person tell worry care cannot listen them like parents mentioned price therapy could care pain l cared burden existence putting people around me care,1 +reasons want diei hate myself burning desire destroy hate feel like useless waste space hope meaningful future incapable forming meaning bonds others marfans get worse age even stopped self destructive shit im still royally screwed cant even fully open psychologist without dissociating complete failure human finally im tired putting happy face entire world thinks im fine want end cant life find protective factors hold to,1 +jimmy jimsonweed update seed pod opened seeds look little premature im going see successfully grow anything it datura stramonium toxicityhigh careful,0 +sometimes forget havent publicly told age not happening anytime soon tell pretty much anyone dm,0 +think made mistake much jagerbombs cant sleep think fucked up again,0 +please help mei know do one cant take anymore tried reaching friends know do,1 +im einstein but cant look mirror without looking,0 +hand favorite playlist ill listen rate do promise,0 +gib hair ideas want different hair hair straight blond fine longish side part ear length probably good idea cuts colours styles everythings open,0 +life hardbarely two months year want live everyone would laugh whats threatening push edge might failing module second year collegei know hysterical somebody would prepare kill something silly final straw actual reason feel like im mentally ill unable cope life maybe made life anyway everything held precariously together year bad know keep going fail do uni drop mentally ill get job waiting tables rest life id alone id die anyway feel like get done feel sick overwhelmed anymore sorry want go fail university point,1 +people think dating anyone younger wrong mean im im supposed find someone exact age wrong year difference,0 +rantlike even gf exhausting overshared sometimes reaction pleasant cautious much thoughts displaying keep rambling bad feel feel bad people seem either run bullshit npclike script able deal depression everything fine snap apparently keep whining shitnot words gfi glad joined self help group people suffering depression least rantvent people still hurts tho like would gf like that would feel feeling right would understandable could rude sometimesbefore guys ask yes happy her moments feel like would need somebody talk frustrated depression well hello upset feeling like well people acting like could flip fucking switch happy mode people close exhausting need wear happy mask,1 +years hoping get pain kinda start accept wont make alivetwo years passed since first met psychologist concerning suicidal thought ive lost passions everything visual artist musician enjoyed movie lost see everything mundane hateful aspect life hate fact everything did did distract us inevitable pain death years developed hatred people warmth social relationship even love see pain everything even joyful aspect life stop craving love human interaction even sex itself bright man difficult years slowly turns usually called late s single men whos living moms basement nothing process lost job lost community circle distant family im basically numb failure occasionally read people tried convince suicidal persons abort intention mainly saying life beautiful yet reach joyous point amidst worsening condition life be point getting better better convinced then think two years enough ive tried everything tried wake early sport stay positive time even last three days every time tried that tried involved social works ended abandoning midproject disappointing everyone tried get job always failed interview due unmotivated tendency entertained chance studying again used professors references number failed scholarship applications tried talk parent best say im apostate since money cant get professional mental therapy country even anything like national redflag prevention lifeline ive tried everything could cant hold longer,1 +want bee want alot things,0 +im rough patchi persistent depression anxiety persistent depression continuous severe sometimes flairs though get major depressive episodes im afraid starting another one those episode last almost year got beginning take medication im afraid happening again cant live kind pain past days really rough ive depending weed still taking medicine regularly maybe much supposed taking twice day take religiously morning didnt wake crying morning least thats worst kind day today im dull cant go anywhere really much ive wanted hurt again point want live,1 +intend toover year ago made irreversible mistake expect going cost life found friends i imagine thats karma works reap sow fucked up ran far away live side state could outrun mistake carry immense shame remorse guilt happened reeks im shitstain surround with think worst possible thing person could do multiply im trying grow every day shame gets worse feel like shot moment take shot everyone says im good person just inhuman acted impulse cost everything cant go back change did intend die like fucking character me forever cursed ive given ambitions artist incase chance actually get somewhere though doubt it banana piece sold really art word spreads friend mentor found put spot read eyes liar said i it watched cry disappointed me knew im trying move come halt know itll come bite ass someday could tomorrow later life im going gun license shoot spot ever hear come up point feel blessed life go way sleep streets immense damage feel worthy happiness comes way people nice me feel immense shame like im fucking fraud deceiving nice persona like knew happened theyd throwing stones me would abolished live absolute fear every single day happened coming light im sure will deserve live time dying easy way out intend make life harder guess actually rotting,1 +feel many expectationsi feel much pressure many things fail get made fun instead supported feel like couldnt even kill people would see weak dont want people think want kill saying threat feel like real support expected deal it,1 +knew itbasically thats going take now access something small easy quiet quick pain anger sadness tears thing thats getting now light end tunnel me,1 +fuck want die christmas eve good life apparently friends girlfriend however family hates wants die leave cant stop remembering past idea kill months worth wellbutrin months worth seroquel want take end all past fucking haunting cant get it know anymore,1 +pointthere point life anymore cant get job im live parents boyfriend constantly tries help me telling need get job know need fucking hard im worthless human being past days ive tired alive want get life already im exhausted since last night pressure chest hard breathe get sudden waves bursting tears im much coward myself cant it want live finally confessed bf im tired alive told want like this want gf like this said i problems well see ending life im crying much everything thinking ending life stupid support one takes seriously say im fucking depressed want die never amount nothing end like parents working paycheck paycheck trying make ends meet dreams stupid boyfriend probably hates leave find someone prettier happier point,1 +wishing someone elsei know break cycle im desperate someone tell im awful person cant tell anyone thats exactly would think me even bothering write here utter desperation feel alone core day die thought just well cant put words im sorry ill stop posting now,1 +seriously contemplated redflag never followed it made continue livingi depression im hysterically sad anything like right now ive come realization again simply anything want live for closest thing feel could live right now help parents pay house debt out gratitude much helped me even motivation greatly hinges emotionalmental well eg whenever piss off makes want help them maybe job becomes unbearable biggest reason im still alive im afraid family react im gone besides that absolutely passion life seriously highlight day eat even moment becoming bland every day things used make happy primarily video games excite anymore lost nearly interest life ive lost nearly motivation speaking people going sound like weird contradiction mind feels like theres tornado inside it filled stress confusion associated life responsibilities heart feels low unmotivated want guys think im planning killing soon anything like that seriously want give stuff save sever contact family friends take bus beach figure there,1 +im sick thisive left friend today cant much mean talk week even much work spends rest time boyfriend even said sorry neglecting friendship connections i guess me friend too used talk lot more best friend im best friend at least said that feel freaking lonely without her feel like thinks important once killing me person anymore friend her mom loves course like get things chest anything like that know all trust her perfect mom really good friend someone talk stuff like that first time thinking redflag im weak anything unless painless firearm annoying feeling able anything find another relatively painless method cant either live alone sad,1 +horni back dont even know how wasnt even anything randomly happened make two days without horni guess im strong enough,0 +grandparents best like parents actually respect sick tired parents shouting always treating children lesser respect another normal human being gf cant stand presence parents actually moved grandparents college even ease journey campus escape toxic environment fast could personal experience usually better mood staying gparents kid went mountain house summer homework calmness maybe college late highschool years long time together parents cant stand us much cant stand them know insane grandparents feel like average less insane parents,0 +help pleaseim depressed suicidal cut lot good ways stop cutting hate want stop cant anyone good tips tricks would love help,1 +one thing im goneits wire opened bottles lysol right besides bathroom im ready hours agonizing pain culminate blissful silencing constant ups downs cruel consciousness leave tell one thing world worth conscious time experience edit gonna provide context im th grade grades sucks parents consistently told im ruining family keen interest getting inebriated im anorexic guy fucks sake really hung friends much months since caught ounce hasheesh tabs lsd family moved shanghai china life laundry list shit,1 +ive always fascinated ninjistsu would know go beyond ninja iii fun creepy intriguing ninja gets shot police uses spirit revenge victim lovely young woman named christielucinda dickey falls cop involved shooting love scene pours v body knocked out ninjas death gets attention another japan named yamadasho kosugi comes america save christie put ninja back grave simply put yamadas left eye shurikenthrowing star fight scenes excellent liked part plywood falls yamada splits foot caught tells officer christie involved everything fine rule thumb never estimate ninja took cops without killing them thing without worry course chirstie best trying put ninja place using tool revenge good movie great martial arts buffs stars,0 +women hate mewhy hate me never speak me never acknowledge presence could shoot front crowd one would care listened people started therapy started going gym helping me giving short little bursts happiness last hours crashes driving closest point redflag ive ever at females came together decided make life living hell would least painful method redflag im thinking drugspainkillers alcohol cant take anymore start crying middle class cry wake up nothing working me,1 +dont know anymoreall want kill myself faith god doesnt help makes feel ungrateful god dont know think fine minutes even hours im back wanting die cant stand person like living planet im much pussy actually it cant focus work id tell mom last time told problems made cry dont want make cry anymore im sorry making guys read pointless vent,1 +helpme where going dad i know asking want come want to said so me i never said want come wanted know were going dad exactly say know sorry make sense english tricky translate native language dad always this ges mad reason really messing up considered normal,1 +hanging least painfuli thought overdosing jumping etc think hanging technically least painful unless break neck shit,1 +know write thisi cant feel happy ive depression almost year cant get it ampxb whenever something like ask why need go school get good job need get good job earn money need earn money buy need need buy need go job vicious cycle began feel pointless point feel like living worthless ampxb whenever get good grades school mum goes im proud you whenever get bad grades school mum goes im taking away phone laptop matter much get stupid number worthless test considered bad student cant learn fucking literature even get good grades every subjects ampxb im done everything mostly myself im trapped mind cant escape even cell open took part online course learned art sales learnt wanted get school guess took zero action isolated myself noone could even help me ampxb cant live myself im wothy living agree operate principal help help themself cant even help myself even bit whats point livining cant help myself ampxb post jack trades im feeling bit dizzy day cant concentrate well ampxb also im sure want accomplish post felt like writing down thanks reading,1 +something clear americans racist trigger happy bad people ive seen alot people thinking memeing lately id like say america isnt actually complete hell hole,0 +miss school would break would chit chat deep group conversations hard tell people things ignore messages miss making eye contact class knowing were talking about miss commuting school everyday exausting day full loved much miss turning eachother class discuss math answers leaving school together metro meeting everyone front school loved ths time spent everyone group looking forward everyday sure ignored me still,0 +want drink goes awayi feel stupid good night tonight hate it want want redflag want over im weak hurts even morei cant even bring commit redflag want over im weak make end im lazy spoiled stubborn even fix use ive given actually life waste all want give up want drink goes away,1 +fascinating movie based true story australian woman lindy chamberlain meryl streep accused killing baby daughter insists dingo took baby story highly suspicious film actually media circus took place around case way australians interpreted presented media lynch mob mentality ultimately led womans conviction based barely hard evidence love films question media also films take hard look people railroaded justice system ive always thought juries ought showed angry men go duties not often said liberal movie clinical look human beings interpret events based much prejudices desire revenge cry dark likewise clinical schepisi careful make film melodramatic may find film boring dry found engaging,0 + year old romaniam boy currently suffering redflag depressiom existential crysis sometimes wish die never existed suicidewhen talk people age often redflaged anxious behave differently often cannot understand me happens question something wrong society accept me cannot find anyone behaving similar like me feels like stranger avoid peoplethe time feel confortable around people public someone trust me alone makes feel unsafe anxiousi cannot see alone there know dohighschool redflagfull annyoing me classmates talk only important stuff happening friends basically go highschool feel unconfortable even feel like eating leaving classroom but outside class friend talk rarely similar all understand like time makes valuable person and gayi know want life wish normal like everyone else know how spend day home using pc smartphone dissapointed living lifestyle afraid social life,1 +numb nothing live might goodbyeif button press would instantly end life wouldve pressed years ago ive come realization life never get better never weight want never medication never find someone love me never father didnt molest me never mother dont resentment towards never choice past make choice future one trying come best ways happen shotgun would traumatic around me hanging debating carbon monoxide moms coworker recently ended successfully tips,1 +saw beyond rangoon times good first watched it saw story laura bowman later multiple showings realised also parallel documentary came mind story aung san suu kyi struggles women remain strong face uncertainty danger sadness also would put history politics list viewing since learn lot burmas past present could guess future movie one want see also one definitely want copy of movie could easily seen whole family although children thirteen however educational benefits movie not understated,0 +dad told thinks dog gonna die give reasons shoot happensor tell dog die vomiting pooping blood took vet prescribed medicines diet,1 +im afraidi need help im terrified im tired thoughts fuck thoughts im sick comfortable thought ending it know im equally afraid going hospital itll end car go itll destroy everything ive worked years build fuck do know do need help please someone help,1 +aside titles new sherlock holmes movie think ive watched every movie guy ritchie directed twice needless say im big fan revolver one highlighted reasons why movie different approach ritchie look comparatively lock stock snatch revolver sets us psychological thriller sorts gambling con finds mercy set foes expect guided walk redemption know needed along seeing andr benjamin outkast fame strut acting ability standout acts ray liotta playing maniacal mr dmacha mark strong playing sorter hitmanbr br after sent prison tyrannous casino owner macha jake uses time solitary finesse plot humiliate macha force hand compensating seven years spent wins card game amasses decent sum macha jake finds brink death collapses diagnosed incurable disease thats left three days live team loan sharks however answer ticket life gives money relents working them ploy take macha show jake dangerous made himself along air death loom pair loan sharks field day money jake also deal hit put him introduces sorter hitman machas employ depth story comes jake realizes co convicts spent time solitary may verywell loan shark team take crafting unfortunate events jake seems find way into faced reality though zack vincent pastore avi show jake twisted become solitary company mind ego makes actual existence elusive even jake movie unravels humbling process jake macha come grips inner demonsbr br the style movie topnotch get gritty feel crime world represented characters includes although lot nods ritchies previous films still presence dialogue sets experimental take gangster genre also great trip humility recognizing easily let ego preset notion mask ability accomplish want overcome should characters well crafted movie sides fleshed and true ritchie fashion theyre tied underhandedness throws wrench everyones affairs could would like go film unique nuances want take much away seen yetbr br it may take sittings get intricate layers great movie seen lucky seen watereddown us release see get original uk version make great discussion piece among friends try puzzle take saw crew around early were still talking little things weve picked today garnered cult status well deserved film ritchie stepped box broke norm bitbr br standout line fear revere me please think im special share addiction were approval junkies,0 +timehow much codeine need end it im interested pity etc want sure die become ill combination pills alcohol speed process ta,1 +podcast thats run teenagers hey guys made podcast thats entirely made run teenagers talk school mental health everything between want check episodes yt link herehttpsyoutubebobnqludig spotify link herehttpsopenspotifycomshowrjxwynxgsvmurzjzxysigkohwtorxcrgxnpavbpig please leave feedback comments,0 +caught fiance cheating again were less four months away thought going make it want face future anymore fault stupid really thought going make it caught texting people times went therapy life moved on decided get away maryland away drama found thyroid cancer texting people surgery thyroid removed whole time hes telling theres nothing worry about loves me focused us relationship entire wedding planned paid for every surface apartment covered engagement photos initials everything said loved it said loved me feel disgusting fat filthy alone really thought finally made it really thought future life look forward to nothing nothing want feel alone worthless anymore nothing helping want gone way know would work id right pills synthroid tums im second floor hurt bad,1 +strange thoughts morningafter watching video someone posted dying words the one front pagethe guy leukemia suddenly started feeling selfish condition known depression find using sometimes almost like crutch went hating embarrassed fully embracing talking openly it comparing someone cancer makes feel like utter douche signed back license weeks ago make organ donorjust case something ever happen me made feel good myself morning however watching video washed overwhelming feeling selfish living people need organs dying go ahead die someone else live taking space whining problems someone else lot potential never overwhelming actually scaring lot im kind freaking moment,1 +admitting ive thinking killing soso suicidal thoughts gotten worse dont know bring ik he himself suicidal feel selfish tell figure let someone know case actually it advice appreciated,1 +found ex attempted redflag overdose called me icu called emergency services even though it want upset me recovers prevent againim sosorry long detailed work colleague months moved andi got know properly together almost years left really good terms left knew much work us im christian partpalestinian jewish partisraeli deep relationship also hesitant hesitant familys reaction sexualityreligious ethnic backgrounds went knew chance long term relationship us worked london far away families live outside city cambridge educated one brightest quickest minds one difficult prestigious careers could get into so mind told need check months definitely well moving finding someone else placed missed call yesterdaymorningand icalled back later nightto check whyi anxious pick upbecause callmeant something serious told called hear voice apologise telling work out knew something triedto stay calm possible told lovely hear her asked herwhere was anyone heretc told alonein flat apologised calling earlier dealing small overdose knew get medical attention finished call without telling driving flat got toher flat told wanted see her tospeak her let quiet nobody spoke minutesuntil noticed getting sofa went held really tight didntwant leave didntwant go sight second knew extra careful words get come hospital sat talking everythingfor good hours could tell visible pain tried subtle possible told lets go together check you quick check see whats going itllultimately choice whether want treatment not told go wanted wait home everything end silent said that ifeltlike fucked words shedidntbudge left flat sat cari sit home andlet happen walkedback flat hours later called emergency services begged come check somehow convinced arrived dontknow do icould call knew relationship all one areoutside city soi almost physicalsupport ive slept long called sick work today gets upset mewhat help prevent repeated future please anything think helped someone know,1 +dont know needs read but hope good night love kings,0 +extremely redflaged well all night gave pressure cut redflag relief scared tell therapist want go psych ward self harmed first time years,1 +cant normali cant anymore life miserable anxiety depression cant handle anymore seeing peers time lives sitting home time even tho go panic attacks feel uncomfortable hate it every single year feels worse worse tried talk people cant people dont feel anxiety talking parents couple friends close play games together sometimes go feel like im gonna lose cause dont want go cause anxiety professors making life even harder cause keep humiliating me ive bullied cant keep going anymore im tired plus im living small town poor country dont know going future feel like,1 +life ilussion lost hopepower feeds soul us within reach desolation loneliness powerlessness lacking dissociation dissatisfaction posseses body times might feel bad darkness void us fallen even deeper pit bodies husked horns death rejection abuse lies hate sometimes breakers always why cant make someone care why darkness chose me am worth anything life bring us pain made clear hope distant dream locked behind doors key amount sacrifice amount mourning amount forgiveness predisposition suffering help find it brokens resolve thin foundation reality many us escape it others stand laugh pain destiny favored you ones loved most pangs reality crush heart mind would one one future would luxury would spec hope suffering would be lies hate disappointment tears punishment void noore laughing pain frowning upon me death fresh death pure death greets never abandons death lie feel life steals cheats lies corrupts tortures pain life less life peace,1 +guys talk go urself literally fullon conversations lol may going crazy,0 +scroll on lost cause hereno friends life change mind,1 +cant deal sadness breaking st girlfirendi broke girlfriend months relationship im class good other much things made us different tried sad it five days breakup found best friend kissing party felt like train hit me looking her smelling perfumes talking makes even depressed miss her want kiss again want end life,1 +im back day ban lol dont even think anybody reporting me im pretty sure bot trying cover hateful content,0 +like redflag attemptsnot even death wabt geez,1 +school antiabortion club still hasnt shut even someone made fun girl got raped front principal pretty much high school antiabortion club fucking stupid preach ever life life matter what group students showed protest club the club meetings school theyve said horrid things people club unironically said girl gets raped baby matter predetermined father say students got extremely mad said one girl got emotional talked experience raped disgusting say that guy said crying wont unrape you principal front him principal fucking chuckled cracked smile what the fuck,0 +tv movie definately worth seeing acting well done story touching universal theme readseen original rule cant stand shakespeare enjoyed moviethe civil war setting well done well dont expect see epic however find moving enough enjoy way on side note compare or movie matter original work movies supposed transfer book screen rather take general idea adapt story it people say the book much better theyre usually wrong anyway really trying say book different,0 +completely losing hope if begin withuh hey again im still here posted yesterday well technically two days ago cares shit keeps getting worse it seems though life tries push edge well basically love girl cant possibly with wanted kill yesterday today mom stopped me noticed shook it pulled girls vk russian facebook account and well said something like redflag option left like hours point suicidal and kinda knows want gone like all reached her got talking well girl taken knew long ago learn a got proposed to b may cancer waiting test results i know think shit keeps getting worse wounds keep getting deeper im contemplating ending now mean know would absolutely obliterate her want finally stop communicating kill later like wanted to but happen her im confused went suicidalworry hurryabsolutely broken span day know whats happening anymore im lost killed chance,1 +im gojng tk get high kill mysfi dont knkw im posting dont thinm talking help especially since dont feel like typing wjsh someone would,1 +really true redflag hotlines call cops you bit crisesim also middle desert doubt could find either way scared,1 +set firei feel nothing want feel alive want destroy myself ultimately want loved want stability care praise thatll never happen ive accepted that want put cigarettes thighs kiss lips tear say want die want another life really want escape everythings fucked up im fucked up im slut use people distractions feel trapped claustrophobic hate much ill never good enough ever please kill me it nothing nothing,1 +anyone wanna chat bit nothing lol day weekend nothing lmao please entertain talk me im age important you,0 +hate existing cant take anymore cant get person ever able connect toi able get first relationship ive ever had almost decade person ever able feel anything for cant stop obsessing her recently found might something called limerence want make stop cant dont know do know pathetic cant eat move sleep cant get bed really anything resembling functioning person therapists psychiatrist psychoanalyst and psychologist life advocate spent time residential day mental hospitals ive sent wilderness program months spent year therapeutic bonding school will bounced around high schools held back year could function depression take medications day sleeping pills night rarely get sleep pop ups dreams makes worse almost embarrassed ashamed main problem causing many waves life im feel like years life stolen depression live home cant get job go school choose this cant fucking anymore need stop every day look revolver bought think terrifying unknown nonexistence seems better constant pain live with horrible existential dread fear death struggle think everyone dies eventually even sun eventually die consume earth even whole universe eventually retract self end existence reality know it seems like better option take inevitability hands unfeeling universe creates things consume them story met girl small artsy alternative high school around lets say so course months became really good friends knew completely love her worked courage tell felt started dating girl little weird love either notice didnt care examples are phase wearing wolf tail thinking kind animal spirt something wore lord rings cloak lot time bit another phase transgender new thing one alternate personality named shadow hated me on seemingly switching old one get attention bother time person ever felt kind connection entire life dont know due fact adopted dont feel anything real connections people family ive never real friends either social skills knowledge make them never found anyone wanted connect beyond surface level interaction dont currently friends even anyone talk anyone outside house beyond basic interactions people buying things passively existing world girl something something made feel complete felt better motivation things accomplish could even tried absolute hardest move grade could get school time thought spending year without time horrible thing could imagine current psychoanalyst thinks sensory issues spd part autism spectrum stuff have main issue may may true know person ever wanted touch touched by mainly sexual thing ive never liked hugged touched family anyone else made feel even isolated parents slightly distant sad hated people physically showing affection never wanted it different loved could never get enough point im sure annoyed would push away physically emotionally pull back constantly although never actually sex thats detail help think things would make happy think things want main thing pops constantly hug her nothing more hold long could lounge feeling someone also friend group seemed value relationship times would publicly break stay secretly even put phone contact fake name unattractive kind person people would feel shame around normally something head group seeing differently seeing girl something although want get it high school boys want play finger fencing girl desperately trying touch breast would often break things devastated me come back letting win back want put like that mainly trying talk thinking friends ignoring altogether russia lived mom assume father issues obsessed knives weapons took many different fighting martial arts classes even medical sword fighting course again time seemed cool anything would talk hours hours got know incredibly well although things would never tell things found analyzing things facebook yeah pre facebook remember that details almost like wanted people follow breadcrumbs learn personality constantly gave gifts mostly specialized knives weapons some mildly illegal desperate show felt form kind powerful bond would harder break quite bit talking wasnt person though texting messaging also breakups happened never face face one particularly devastating time came parents made easter basket never gotten one life fun time weekend next thing heard something trying push away often spent night others houses think non americans accepting parents knew important me never full one sex desperate literally sleep her literally cuddle bed sleep wake up thats it never got to although fair amount cuddling again loved handful relationships since despite best efforts could never care way feel anything for truly loved girl sadly still do finally ended good one summer spent entire day together talking apologizing hurting many times promising never break things again guessed it break next morning fucking text caused year old write verry angry violent letter spread around school sparking would become multi year downfall seen maybe times years since always writing long winded letter planning elaborate meeting designed rekindle feelings get foot back door russian restaurant presented sword ring made accepted time mailed back ever get full sized sword rejection letter mail recently saw months ago asked help explained life mental state gave full control time place etc picked city square used meet took basically walking tour landmarks tired memories uncanny mean literally every single one boston relatively small city sure could met anywhere all picked square met infront library walked park finally told felt even ended abandoned hotel ballroom hard explain used go time hang out powerful times spent together claimed remember purpose hard time would forget that took edibles medical card bought cry infront talked this boy backfire took one to one own even offer one claimed did come man quite bullshit weak ones too similar note first time real sexual contact together smoked weed fake weed plus never inhaled correctly bong got full hit high way matters drugs fake plan anything taking advantage could get real weed time really wanted seem cooler was looking back and time thought seemed needed excuse bogus catalyst act feelings me believe feelings stronger ever allowed realize wanted believe again like edibles seemed like need fake reason act buffer people objective reality someone dealing severe alcoholism drug addiction understand craving need put something reality seems weird point want obsession stop didnt want choose this cant get fucking thing head really running life still cant make stop point understand objectively horrible person claimed caused obsessive behavior others met one online long time ago little girl went school kind pheromone thing animal magnetism charisma still even last meeting something makes feel whole feel like physical hole heavy weight center torso never goes away currently using parents money travel job dads shady russian tech company really unhealthy poliamerus sexual relationship guys seems built around commit center attention times really cant see future happy without her know unlikely healthy horrible person thats really want,1 +fuck two wrongs dont make one right bullshit filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +anyone else feel like normal feel like im missing teenager nothing quarantine lately ive realised dont really interesting life maybe two friends occasionally hangout otherwise sports friends live one talk school ive also never hooked anyone ones ever expressed slight interest me feel like life like tv show movie even though know thats unrealistic like ive left behind anyway good night guys thanks listening fellow kids,0 +bruh im never getting help again depressed like months im better ever school still go psychologist cut early autumn bruh well job im getting depressed anymore im afraid now hard explain why mostly get distressed going there,0 +know triggered huge influx people asking crushes out im happy all may days come filled happiness ill join ranks non single eventually brethren,0 +breaks heart talking family members love meim genuinely grateful family know care me ive alone away family another country years got chance talk couple havent seen zoom call got emotional cried call really love people want die know dont want hide keep pretending like care career im invested world dont want wicked enough bring try make convince keep living im done ready die zoom call cousin called tried ask issues tell im suicidal really wish could tell family desire die would oblige im scared hurting living life daily hurting know im ungrateful im genuine say really want die nothing life thanks reading sharing thoughts help,1 +may concernto may concern letter explain choose take life years old easiest times dad left years ago stole life savings meaning forced take loan get university little money im studying like students made worse fact know dad took money pissed wall past months probably hardest ive encountered life want see doctor cannot months verge tears sad upset reason hard next months get worse see light end tunnel girlfriend breaking point im ready go pretty much mum great person cancer depression dad left leaving care look best could mum done amazing job mostly sister well way success enjoying rest life pursuing dream unfortunately think achieve this know feel doesnt know scars ive done relieve pain away home ups downs like said summer comes leave go home things get worse im ready go want think concidered seeing doctor many times im either embarrassed think get rut friends time great friends go people best mourn passing grieve better place even afterlife heaven better planet know go take last breath breath coming soon within next weeks people took piss bullied said anything succeed fuck you thank x,1 +im breaking pointim beginning realise sad reality lifes unfair matter much try better yourself matter much think youre whats right best still likely come empty handed doesnt help people thought cared arent anymore either ive tried past months ignore thoughts need vent know feelings nonsensical im point dont care selfish me,1 +cant even express vent app without someone seeing bitching complainingthis dont open cause people dont care say shut stop whining someone kills exact people say reach someone like wtf,1 +life over theres nothing left worth keepingi objectively failure human ive let reach point brain rot job higher education source income survive leeching mother given trying make something life left house minutes time past years convenience store night get junk food ive even lost taste food junk life nothingness ive allowed reach point ive lost change it day write drivel internet part control family mentally emotionally abused early went extremist religious brainwashing younger feel caused lasting damage makes impossible function society cant get help therapists country know anything particular religion ones understand followers it longer support system world type trauma afflicted this besides cant afford therapy anyway im neet im fucked front know get move somehow cant find me feel broken beyond salvation ive shutin long im afraid outside world cant get job im scared people im unable look anyone eye cant job interviews qualifications get online job hate hate appearance skin color religious name feel hated everyone every place go cant seen people even online support communities help accept people shun turn reason room place feel safe may live rest life like this feel worth live like that,1 +clothes uncomfy wtf wasnt living family think id nudist home,0 +emotionally unavailable like i yeah want relationship could never one im simply afraid open jazz,0 +fucked exams upi messed bad fucked up gpa fucked fucked cant fucking even stupidity promised mess again again am sitting bathroom im hurting myself itll hurt take exams make dumb mistakes anymore enough fine fail accept failure move on better okay cant know hurts way stop thinking failure much want dig brain stop thinking keep laughing making jokes feel sadness anger disappointment itching need hurt myself painful im focusing pain suddenly thats think about nothing else feels liberating almost want die time want die mother grieve things live for im still child things want see go know long keep going feelings throw building,1 +guys big pp reads ur welcome explain posts body longer gt,0 +dead chickens seem like metaphor lifeim religious anything like that feel like im cursed anything touch turns shit woke morning chickens lying dead yard one beheaded seems like metaphor everything really think it nurture something care it try best know giant bloody fucking mess started gradually shit piling im sure much longer im going handle it im sick trying putting effort everything stay get even worse like spent months saving last year nice little pile cash start new life reasons control lost job housemate time fucked money thats small blip too tempted od one thought keep trying harder try shitter things get losing job started snowing lost place boyfriend pets im living back dad presents problems much choice last lived early teens pretty abusive drunk day still host mental health problems know do know change things cant get work im sure cant despite best efforts i get knocked back every interview get know do people namely ex seem think matter attending psychologist appointments which ive done past whole shebang feeling better improve everything else feels like universe even though know sounds stupid mean even start get healthier less suicidal like everything going fall back place much random shit constantly goes wrong ever believe could true last week chickens died randomly laptop broke library internet fucked whole host family drama bore even with list goes on know people vastly different lives make sense me brothers girlfriends welfare long nice place nice things live suitcase extremely mentally unstable fathers house know sounds like jealousy know kid tantrum want things get better once improve without break it,1 +im functionally retardedi give up im entered graduate school feel it socially im retarded fuck enough date without knowing is such failed said social encounter end last year lost one relationship helped view world less callous banal place id began abusing prescription drug ambien addition alcohol hindered cognitive abilities ability cope anxiety depression met drinking talking people stale driftwood amounting great socially acceptable height foot male ive told egotistical conducting inventory whatever qualities feel have theres nothing would support kind delusional selflove realizing sum things im absolutely terrible academics social situations value self often think redflag solve anything certainly burden others either,1 +said single word another human four days last four weeks interactions all brief coworkers work work remotely way interactions fucking lonely starting fuck head moving soon live cannot join clubs anything here really need support anyone help me lonely depressed,1 +want pain means touch againmy negative thoughts keep pulling deeper cant anything stop point constant control know keeps repeating head actually like lying myself easier lie came close hurting again pain get less pain comes thoughts lost youth mental illness cant take loneliness anymore id anything forget id give anything get held lovingdoing things bad gt getting better anyway,1 +every single belief ive ever betrayed mei remember younger sure beliefs respect people help people obey elders teachers study good boy drink smoke drugs forgive others hurt me ignore negative things focus positive ones etc now know whats true false almost beliefs failed me im prime example good grades mean triumph life almost everyone used know moved without me kept losing friends either conflicts letting fade away acquaintances must mean im wrong or least hold blame sometimes im angry family raised old fashioned beliefs overprotected lot younger least malicious intentionsand know tried best also im angry old high school classmates everything wanted me bullied me manipulated me used tool ignored treated like trash im one needs pick pieces one whos wrong say pain much get told act like victim quarantine ive realized im alone ive ever before realized lost good qualities before would said wouldve another person matter what now fear rejection stronger wish talk people people already moved on went apologize reconnect would probably think im making everything me thus would make things even worse im problem easy answer im problem ive always problem stupid stupid,1 +planning kill semesteri feel like living wasted first two years engineering classmates ml cp whatnot wasting time like idiot think get job offers coming developing country average guy sucks tried finding interests move past even basics tried couldnt finding way make easier parents deserve waste space suggestions would welcome gun laws strict country buildings higher floors,1 +parents always saywhen kids understand never question actually take care kid,0 +overgoodnight everyone pray everyone seeking help finds solace late me r k q always love all,1 +tonights nightits good run ive lot ups downs years caught one moment im losing house ive lost partner im thousands debt cant afford eat havent single friend years now mental health absolutely tanked im probably facing hefty prison sentence future stick around nothing tonight im drinking litre special reserve swallowing four packs acetaminophen slicing length arm open praying god die goodbye,1 +make people aware issue please share people know bring attention discord ampxb httpspreviewredditimgbglvulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsccebaacaeeddaddbbfffdbd,0 +feel suffocatedfor little bit background im almost ive dealt reoccurring feelings dread suicidal thoughts perhaps depression since around age dealing disordered eating thoughts since age recently things happened family things completely control stressing parents sibling came unfortunate news therapy question longer health insurance even then see point seeking help overwhelming feelings absolute dread hated thought speaking others especially family friends makes feel panicked want drag people me enough theyre dealing plenty everything going on problems minute hardly seems matter anyone regardless seem help feel like something severely wrong me like im freak cant function properly unfortunately past ive spoken family treated normal clue whenever im stupid overthinking it bother using throwaway none know use reddit,1 +update covid wrecking lifei got phone call boss shes daughter owner nice shes called apologiz almost entire main office furloughed im fired things come back im hired back last paycheck friday insurance paid april theyre going help file mass unemployment im going talk landlord rent im going ask friend couch surf case im assuming worst may pack bag amp live street eventually even unemployment ill likely lose every possession outside ever clothes carry im going look gold card mhmra medication come monday im going go person both theyre screening virus both athsma issues a symptom virus likely ill turned away life ended need figure best way kill now theres hope ideas best way,1 +well im optionswent college immature so flunked courses since nd year first year great girlfriend time hyper organized life wanted impress busted ass thats last time ever saw found bed summer roommate crushed me obviously left that losing source organization created disastrous consequences moved friend classes far away school figured great well go morning together keep focused unfortunately didnt give fucks school started skipping well without car minute bus ride best days bad weather started skip well knew leave couldnt get job better minimum wage dont car considered militaryafnavy time im flunk another course week im finish th year gpa still credits shy finishing degree fucking hate degree busy depressed anything productive it im stuck irredeemable grade field want nothing finance got get wrong used find market exciting accounting makes want blow head accounting used know with supposed able anything iq clearly anymore varsity captain high school sports teams multiple stateprovincial championships finished top national math contests got sats without studying world oyster caveat bad case adhd dad always paid things for necessities ive job support myselfliving arrangements since ive hes great guy love dearly never around saw maybe days per month significant mother chronically depressed bipolar disorder career failure and might even smarter me spent childhood mom bed pm point would grab bunch food sit front tv learn cook meals year old reason werent even poor thanks divorce settlement incredibly emotionally abusive whole life growing up didnt want anything like her way embarrass ever friends would always stacks dirty food containers everywhere shed go days sometimes weeks without showering really emotionally stunted me always felt inferior kids matter good life was super glad picked traits anyway except treat people thats one thing thats different got involved stupid people started drugs way escaping problems instead dealing mostly pot cocaine things too got clean start year little late clear mind enough realize fucked am im way behind peers even though supposed biggest potential them cant imagine bigger letdown dad siblings friends already been gone military gotten head straight learned goddamn functional human being im turning degree worst transcript youve ever seen life no actually like fs ws actually going drop start year exactly that getting good enough shape slipped vertebrae lead darkest depression yet medical history depression inability pass fitness test thats completely ruled out hindsight think would loved pilot move time would great me kind like small group known colleagues better big group office worker anyway ruled too im little old pursuing commercial pilot especially consider cost since said cant even enlist regular forces let alone highly competitor pilot program medical situation dqs me even got job hilariously bad transcript know wouldnt enjoy chosen field ive done internships school clearly isnt answer im able apply anyway wont able get loan anyway im completely fucked destined spend next decade life earning less someone potential earning wouldnt tough pill swallow actually liked doing dont conclusion ive got point id much rather dead alive wasting anymore peoples time effort world doesnt need anymore brilliant losers health massively deteriorated point prime physical attributes gone still coordinated scared heights etc im weak shit slow shit shit cardio always pain back chirophysio didnt shit best friend murdered years ago think set spiral self destruction ill never know sure know im ready end,1 +sequels hardly ever live original definitely proves true case however big fan original definitely give watch although camera work lacking brian krauses character annoying plot clique much funnier first find entertaining it br br dont see movie expecting performance first film quite frankly bit different rather sitting cabin writing screenplays stanley hollywood trying direct dream project cabin lake movie much different feel still great see stanley back actionbr br im giving ,0 +im sick wearing mask im sick pretending someone im not one would actually love really am would they sometimes think would easier cut ties everyone know im terrified seeing disappointed eyes find im theyve always known as,0 +adapted sam shepards play movie retains many playlike elements relatively fixed setting a roadside s motel southwest extensive intriguing dialogues woman may hounded man eddie played sam shepard tries hide outoftheway motel finds her film explores history relationship mainly childhoods led point easy feel sympathy characters understand dysfunctional present relationship result past events control mainly watch fight make up fight make on one image stands mind eddie hauling may shoulder kicking screaming taking somewhere want gobr br the soundtrack also perfect soulful country vocals lesser known artist sandy rogers country doll voice almost yodels points album kind movie stay lodged part brainsoul words go see it,0 +burdenive battling manic depression ever since kindergarten father help make worse adding ptsd onto list feel like im burden live feel like people take seriously everyone either says im clown im joking im fake say get upset mood never stabilized no mood stabilizers im mg prozac mg tenex mg prazasin mg trazedone feel meds help me tried talking doctor it said prozac know manage manic depression think ill ever learn,1 +forget bad suicidal thoughts start happening againnow im back school depression hit even harder pair increasingly bad obsessive thoughts faltering faith god got recipe disaster taking energy get day dinner time im exhausted feels like escape pain im surrounded people love emphatic could never tell obsessive harm thoughts fear forsaken god feels like someone holding shallow water im struggling air keep holding down want give up doubt would around me id lying said want hurt myself sometimes seems like way out out,1 +s afghanistan pushtun boy amir zekeria ebrahimi hazara boy hassan ahmad khan mahmoodzada loyal friend son hazara servant ali nabi tanha raised together amirs father house playing kitting streets peaceful kabul amir feels wise good father baba homayoun ershadi blames death mother delivery also father loves prefers hassam him return amir feels great respect fathers best friend rahim khan shaun toub supports intention become writer amir winning competition kitting hassam runs bring kite amir beaten raped brutal assef elham ehsas empty street protect amirs kite coward amir witness assault help loyal hassam day birthday party amir hides new watch hassams bed frame boy thief force father fire ali releasing conscience recalling cowardice betrayal russians invade afghanistan baba amir escape pakistan simple life fremont california amir graduates public college pride joy baba later amir meets countrywoman soraya atossa leoni get married death baba amir famous novelist receives phone call terminal rahim khan discloses secrets family forcing amir return peshawar pakistan journey redemptionbr br i familiar afghan culture read novel spite recommendation daughter yesterday decided watch movie dvd found good story loyalty cowardice betrayal redemption brief insight recent history afghanistan peaceful period s present days taliban actors actresses great performances giving credibility realistic story arid locations china recall images see television afghanistan end found the kite runner good movie vote sevenbr br title brazil o caador de pipa the kite chaser,0 +ya know never expected live long dont know never expected live long idk always expected die early highschool whether kms whatever kinda getting stressful thought future careers college starting get little late,0 +everything bland im tiredi wish could know sure peaceful rest side gotten better much wanted to ever since teen years hard feel positive emotions trouble keeping job down constantly question relationship hate alone im someone im happy either feel trapped ive convinced someone love me try work becoming psychologist answers procrastinate assignments gf fight im tired im tired trying get right time feel like ive made progress younger even try life came way enjoyed it rest life hopefully get cancer,1 +careful others taking advantage people throughout life may meet already involved life someway could really steer wrong direction thing usually going creepy looking person doesnt stop talking crappy people seek vulnerable targets take advantage them usually someone thought really knew inside change whole perspective youll think take advantage of lot could older cousin lets take car real quick even though dont even permit counselor assistant lets sneak school minutes early cool aunt everyone family refuses talk begging help out finances time labor body emotions ect drain without really realizing youll end vulnerable feel like need them true bull crap achieve goals good own wish someone gave guidance regards people seem trustworthy may quite opposite hope helped someone thanks resource thinks assist further am emotionally exploitedhttpswwwlifehackorgareyoubeingemotionallyexploited psychological depths ways httpswwwgooglecomampswwwpsychologytodaycomusblogyourpersonalrenaissancewayssomepeoplewilltakeadvantageyoufamp,0 +im beyond disappointed myselfim going say it today found ex someone else cant take it happened last year well breaking me gutwrenching excruciating thing ive ever through seeing gush another girl way me time around graduated never need see again oh god stomach knots feel paralyzed many thoughts swirling around mind good enough insist want relationship anyone turn around get someone else fucking upset could possibly happy without me hell feel need kind control him oh god hate it want feel way mind warped toxic cant get head cant stop thinking hes going lose virginity someone me hes going love someone loved me someone going make happier did horrible echo chamber mind chorus it me her me memememememememe bouncing around killing inside fucking narcissistic thought boy even long dating someone else fills jealousy rage pain im afraid ill doomed always jealous obsessive ex want this could move would long time ago even want make post im fucking ashamed still fucking obsessed bitter hate it really do cant move one stupid piece shit dragged hell fucked over living really worth it,1 +got top roof high school ill going year kinda scary,0 +cant get ex cant get himok im point think talk this feel fucking stupid getting worked someone barely know ampnbsp love interest met tinder started talking originally planned hook up dirty maybe hang bit relationships strings attached nothing committing type point life since travels lot much point relationship game this ive already hooked people tinder casual one night stands started messaging back forth meeting up getting know bit other etc really interesting started getting excited see texted me loved sound voice bit scottishbritish accent sounded exotic kind really liked photos profile friend put him thought going go really well set date meet pub arrived really expected hey tinder right got talking drinks together initially attractive thought he grown facial hair since photos bit outgoing tastes getting along hed put hands mine touch face nuzzle me affectionate even though bit awkward first drinks came like it got back place sex etc thought hed get leave ended staying night ampnbsp talked him liked him wed goof around lot made laugh cried hes one funniest charismatic guys id ever met everything say interesting fascinating everything him places hed been things hed done views life treated really well always thinking needs first making laugh gently holding me always touching me stroking me cuddling me said weird girl one adorable cute girls hed ever known gorgeous told like put down needed stop worrying much stop apologizing time made really happy moment handsome guy attracted inside wanted cuddle me always hed come wherever went talk me made feel loved wanted needed held hand stroked face gave kisses refused let go made feelcontent dress put makeup impress him single thing except myself could see truly was everything me inside personality got chance shine happy body well ampnbsp cuddling nearly slipped said i love you habit know boyfriend snuggling absent mindedly cooing one another say i love you contented sigh stopped myself since well met i love you really something say said already knew going say think crazy first time something like happened apologized said i cant love you yet love person like lot great said that made heart skip little hated it started crying told knew going end badly told borderline personality disorder ultimately fear abandonment get attached deeply quickly also mentioned wanted let feelings love developing soon die told feelings bad thing wanted feel them feel them mind long understood commit time life traveling reasons feel way yet know desperate ignorant excited what accepted happy hear say i love you back me even meaning hold weight promised would never hurt me loved human being person even together sense lovers wanted part life wanted friend gentle since wonderful person felt heart hearts meant it sure anyone ability lie buti truly felt meant it did still does days went on spent time together staying one night one another turning two three four happy room him never ran things talk to never left side felt tranquil peace life grew attractive eyes every way even though known long felt like best friend someone known life everything unidentifiable familiar quality went pubs together went eat went walks went many events art festival town good content many years despite fact allergies started acting contracted staph infection parents the community live town rampant mrsa still texted often hosts house days tying loose ends figuring travel east end week like planned ampnbsp decided spend one last night together left ex texted nowhere sent blind panic told together several years broke separate times emotionally unstable blackmailed manipulated staying attempting threatening redflag stopped loving started antidepressants despite this never thought ill her loved anything always unconditionally told every time gotten back touch always ended back together im freaking fuck out chance picture now was sick rage tears completely shattered felt robbed chance even began try told also reason commit still loved ex probably always would closest person whole entire life closer family even though together knew shed never again and shouldnt get back together sake still hopelessly love deserving unconditional love well then told touch anymore touched me tried comfort me harder falling wanted feelings desperately die want feel anything anymore wrong wrong want fall trap again told know could ever commit relationship even future me anyone firmly believed still love ex sure hed ever get her understood family member friend lover falling outs with fights with never really forget them even years later feelings still hes hes younger years may wise mark be likes think rationally emotionally knows cant get back together her still theres lot emotion lot tension feel like im living shadow ex love interest said cared me lot ex hed heart beat cares great deal situation causing pain too wanted friends promise wed ever together know could get it hurt me else could do wanted cut life completely might answer still partially want since every time think heart hurts think lot growing do ampnbsp hes left east train now offered take travels could come time wanted to really wanted to cant said hes probably good me ever make long term plans schedules hitchhikes couch surfs drinks lot loves dangerous situations lots socializing strangers one favorite things go super crowded pub shoulder shoulder locals chat strangers make new contacts sorts things worst nightmare now im looking back rational standpoint probably in love him probably desperate needy human connection someone want me tender me make feel special needed that incredibly handsome cute though good bed even well endowed average best thats generous always took needs consideration first hes heavy drinker heavy partier care consequences lives life recklessly cant this could ever thrives danger unknown never plans never cares takes life one day time survives gets by cant either could ever although parts personalities overlap lot goals views world same different people left feeling alienated abandoned times want admit even short time him less aware craving love human affection gentleness tenderness alone year without things daydreamer hopeless romantic needy clingy wanting passionate intense something like dropped lap gave it even though knew horrible idea would end pain desperate anxious chance matter dismal odds could happiness again towards wasprobably infatuation liked idea represented want need adventure breaking chains bind traveling world seeing sights experiencing life offer saw me looks completely inconsequential saw soul needed even need it treasure looking find turned blind eye many cons blissfully drinking ignorance moment felt high situation way lied intentionally hurt me circumstance once person person im fighting killing feelings him trying keep alive slightest tiniest chance years now might able try again meantime itd hurt constantly knowing hes talking ex thinking ex love distant afterthought since hes still obsessed cant live that even just friends ive distanced time being need time grieve heal still entirely know make feel im angry betrayed heartbroken frustrated im many things once since writing this ive given final phone call summed mentioned post told cannot even stay friends damaging right now hurts much fucking much think best ampnbsp tldr bpd sorts attached guy barely knew scared whats next scared self harming tendencies suicidal thoughts happened,1 +never wet dream one like heck,0 +question would change suicidaljust question curiosity want know better help,1 +crying car abandoned parking lot cant explain goodbad feels right now havent cried years lost emotion least know still some wish someone rn cause im gonna go drive movie bit buy pretzels,0 +ask random ass shit im bored fillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllller,0 +fed life ask part ofi wanna life cuz situation family put plus put future,1 +dont want locked medicated else besides redflagbeen depressed nearly years tried everything give up im going die dont know else do thats psych drug pushers people threatening lock up anything im missing depressed since divorcedrinkingfailing school time hospitalized weeks getting drunk threatening hang myself depressed ever since never friend isolated alone zero self esteem whole life end first time opened family bad felt everything except suicidal encouraged move home unemployed hated home friends got even worse paid thousands see therapist got temp job quit drinking not ever major issue patient program weeks tried two antidepressants exercised ate better self help books fucking everything sertraline days gave horrible reaction begun hear thoughts night hypnagogia wellbutrin gave tinnitus symptoms still stopping drugs doctor doesnt give shit wanted take try new ones spinning wheel picking random drugs toy sensitive nervous system got accepted college program september got summer job started week eight hour shift work hour rest time even boss smokes makes stupid jokes government job see family weekends im alone every night cottage woods friends fucking depressed despise every way always hate breathing air im losing mind cant handle alone theres one therapist hour radius tried week kind sucks already doesnt listen wants take drugs almost hospitalized me everything feels fucking pointless dont give shit anything cant connect anyone totally hopeless future dont understand people live people kids people work honestly feel like barely anyone happy people trapped biology force live stupid im going keep working manual labour crummy jobs whole life alone forever always feel much shame guilt self hatred man feel sicking breaking back cold barely skimp overpriced gouging economy barely hour going bed wake pointless boring stupid fucking job this dont want alive fact literally thing keeping alive past year dont want destroy family fuck do seriously need big change cant talk anyone shotgun taken ill locked up lose job shamed everyone miss college forcefully injected drugs even could talk anyone anyone wants put everyone drugs it youre treated though youre delusional rejecting treatment give up really want destroy family never wanted here fucking fault get hurt never wanted here least know tried least years good times them thing care about thing feels real yet dont even get along anymore think im better dont talk personal stuff going come shock still ive taken care affairs spot picked out know exactly aim shotgun ill drunk it phone home dad amd gf weekend thats time fill disgusting brain lead,1 +im going butif killed right now totally convinced everyone would happy im finally gone hurts know,1 +read read obamas voice fellow americans president united states enormous erection michelle let cuck speech hard fact could break diamond thank god bless america,0 +may cute,0 +where deathmy brother sent text couple months passed away stated cancer pain intense internally secretly would scream where death find thing except pain cancer everything goes that emotional psychological pain attempted anything although close something day week death months later im still here mostly auto pilot however grief worst strongest emotion ive ever felt ive always depressedanxiouspassively suicidal pain intense me always see people dying news one thing another deaths make dying look easy wonder turn death,1 +fines probation courtordered anger management classes debt final notices bills totaling little ,1 +people care im actively suicidalright feeling suicidal pretty much everyday used try tell parents dont even anything feel ignored really cared went mental hospital two times get back lasts weeks dont care much again mean know probably dont want stay night listening cry repeat everything dont know else do keep thinking try attempt again outcomes seem good me first one die freed pain living second parents care weeks feel hopeless dont know do,1 +anyone else wanted minecraft since like never got it idk parents never got minecraft want spending money video games fine wondering anyone else kinda craved minecraft never it,0 +happy christmas everybody president teens used powers come executive decision skip august september october november year pretty bad declared today th december christmas day,0 +lets play game filler fill fill fill fillffill fill so use emojis guess music genre,0 +advice like wtf even im bit bizarre relationship girl im m senior year high school ive known girl years near beginning junior year invited house halloweeni admitted liking liked back dated months broke off due fact classes together well hour long study period ended seeing eachother every weekday ended still friends fast forward summer still talking text messages boyfriend dumped herno big deal continue talking tells still likes shes ready date still recovering previous ex says tell ready date want give second chance add girl likes play girl really bad bfs past genuinely nice person still kind like her wait next r brush off,0 +thing keeping fear causing painive wanted die long time many reasons many wonderful people life cause pain regular basis due substance abuse issues dont want burden more trying so hard get better getting better slowly slowly cant stand fuck ups along way cause much pain ones love thing worse would make one find dead body wish could erase existence without trace memory,1 +soonive lost hopes ive reason keep fighting mental illness let consume me let pain engulf option end it never get better ive waited years years full hope shot happiness like everyone else around me making things worse illness perfect punishment someone ungrateful me either die live failure life,1 +cant anymorei know sounds cliche really cant even know am look like life constant fluctuation positive negative cant stand torture anymore like taunting me so goodbye suicidal bros,1 +feel like belongi writing this know add want disappear escape world living in simply die existence know place here,1 +carpal tunnel cubital tunnel armsmy elbow nerve pain bend wrists hurt try use phone type computer write still type this tough week especially going on worst year life cares amirite honestly want die sure how ill figure,1 +really care much life anymoreim full selfhatred im constantly lonely depressed ocd im constantly bombarded evil thoughts im single shitty job enough energy motivation pursue dreams anymore find solace jesus feel like enough sometimes want anymore thats all,1 +train holding union soldiers transporting gold along banker clayton whos see reaches destination suddenly robbed bandit monetero however bahunda nicks gold hides it monetero tries get him hes killed soldiers clue medallion monetero captured soon would executed stranger dressed priest comes who bounty monetero offers save life half gold exchange monetero gives half medallion clayton notices discovers something up soon three crossing gold also banks insurance company moneteros gang watching on waiting chance pouncebr br just watching opening sequence know spaghetti western tongueincheek style reliance sprinkling many references some nicely realised films largely dollar trilogy subgenre director enzo castellaris sprightly direction sprawling mostly lightweight theres potential many grand showy set pieces smooth rhythmic pace largely theres lot tussles fistfights and plenty acrobatic stunts taking place compared allout vicious shootouts however stunts well done enjoyable guns blazing theres energy burn traditional story sticks close conventional details since theres lot conniving outfoxing going on spontaneous nature makes sure never quite certain eventually going play three leads many effective suspenseful moments clever twists plenty wink wink humour within starch script pretty sly worked favourably amongst light zesty style giovanni bergaminis dynamically taut framing francesco de masis impulsively rousing music score performances extremely well tailored form striking rapport george hiltons wry scuffed turn solid ambiguous stranger gilbert roland brings class intelligence formidable mexican bandit monetero edd byrnes gives poised performance clayton holds well kareen ohara get much do worthy looker gerard herter pedro sanchez ivano staccioli provide able supportbr br a fun worthy spaghetti parodyhomage throws one curveball another many fruitful n dirty antics,0 +take sat tomorrow advice didnt rly study lol expect,0 +film taken seriously great little film nonethelessbr br its definitely piece fluff acting imo excellentbr br one films go way see brings smile every time comes around cable like old friendbr br definitely worth seeing get chancebr br ,0 +want wrong help help helpi keep burning tonight cant stop thinking easy would please someone talk something random please let go edge know im pathetic would easy cant stop last time cut wrists got hospitalised want please chat me anything,1 +realized gay eat popcorn people say gay eat popcorn busted nut wrong popcorn kernels seeeeeeds proof httpswwwgooglecomsearchqisapopcornkernelaseedampieutfampoeutfamphlenusampclientsafari,0 +someone would clean reason number kill,1 +getting helplived depression anxiety life self treated alcohol years ago antidepressants since then doctor says must see counselor continue prescribe meds go counselor starts telling call authorities admit redflag thoughts harming anyone else dont really like guy find another counselor tells thing tactful way point this get help feelings cant talk counselor without fear reported locked up bother drugs counselors completely decided end life busy stating disclaimers see undermined whole purpose choice give healthcare go way suffer useless counseling sessions hiding truth seems pointless everything else,1 +case vanished chicken nugget first would like tell dont know else put story story true back story going make chicken nuggets went stairs grab chicken nugget bag placed air fryer they like big chicken tenders sake ill call chicken nuggets cooked minutes minutes went grabbed placed plate felt flimsy cut one make sure cooked turns put back turned air fryer cook minutes went upstairs texted mom tell minutes up minutes go moon calls went check chicken nuggets left non cut one asked people my mom older sister said eat it lets start people mom mom wanted chicken nugget already started fryer didnt make one i know im ass hole plz keep reading older sister downstairs eating chicken salad sandwich chips thats think likely mom since wanted chicken nugget get one think took it dont really know else put questions please feel free ask away,0 +acetaminophen overdoseif take lethal dosage acetaminophen go liver failure three days chances hide pain time please honest know pain throw stuff unbearable parents see thay im sick dont mind pain long dont get caught hospitals packed covid cases right really cant risk going there,1 +wait good taste httpsopenspotifycomplaylistecohkcphbjxskwoknrsirxmotcrtbwjciwaecw,0 +remember windows xp pinball yeah played long time ago feel nostalgia,0 +made grilled cheese sandwich am fucking charred gona eat anyway hungry,0 +almost year old comic artist last time this fun ask want ask probably answer it,0 +need stop procrastinatingi need now longer wait worse life becomes cant live myself ruined every part life beyond repair want die redflag way redeem everything done kill right wrongs past im god damn scared keep putting off need strength this do,1 + year old gives amazing financial advice httpsyoutubectadvoqtbuahttpsyoutubectadvoqtbua,0 +wish people didnt worry muchi wish people didnt worry itd make killing easier know lot people want feeling people caring dying wish one cared ive planning girl work seems care dont want hurt her family guess wish didnt exist think killing every night wish first attempt success hardest part people sad know dont want live anymore,1 +without doubt one neil simons best plays turned movies full great characters memorable dialog johnathan silverman makes great screen version young eugenehe played matthew broderick stagethis first simons autobiographical trilogy followed wonderful biloxi blues closes tv movie broadway bound say movie flaws would maybe characters sometimes usually speak obvious dialog thats alright great dialog rent little gem sorry,0 +bruh talk ft girl feel like im boring af,0 +point living job girlfriend friends still living home future really bad social anxiety ocd depression three different medications helping came last year people say things get better see things getting worse money get acne scarring treated money get braces even get job look presentable let alone mental illness hope want things go back way things bornnothingness cant take more,1 +full surprises beautiful cruel times like life itself leaves one asking more best parts course action scenes chases really wonder much work guys put making scenes whale chases polar bear hunts etc wonderful experience missed anyone dives surfs goes beach while music enticing narration superb extremely well paced definitively one best documentaries ever made worth less respectable for kind footage cruel might recommended people weak stomachs every killer whale footage cruel,0 +decisions always held high goals myself lately falling short them fail goals depressed come constantly think killing myself simply believe im failure failings cant talk anyone it simply feel high expectations well way down feel long reach point quit now destroyed myself keep trying keep cycle going get back track,1 +need something week know what something needs happenive posted before im typically hit report cps school care family care friends need something happen either need run away or really hoping are options kill myself know do moms narcissist literally waiting kill say i tried everything able fixed cant really successfully runaway told mom that laughed said shed police track within hour option think killing myself im scared so obviously one issue many issues deal with not locked quarantine people im tired act calm reporting cps cps care send home whole world telling kill myself yet able it yet now info saying not possible get help people love you options,1 +first last post usernameits time say goodbye dont recall last time modicum desire live get help live ive seen multiple therapists many said fudged see referred out ive tried feels like every antidepressant there im close family publicly shamed depression suicidal tendencies ive lashed pushed away friends romantic relationship live own breaking news share literally would one call text im k debt student loans ive failed get one career relatively excited get x dont job lined contract current one ends soon dont know live one last confidant told shouldnt talk anymore understandable given toxic am proceeded share everything girlfriend never met told call not understandable imo breach trust him ive dealing crippling depression choose versus binging purging minimum times day thanks eating disorder first likely way ill found due stench corpse thankfully coronavirus lockdown facilitating death sincerely hope dont wake tomorrow unfortunate event do ill decision make ive told get help commit myself issue requires actually give crap want continue living want get better honestly genuinely idea even feels like dont care it im beyond saving didnt want care saved ive guilt tripped living fyi never someone like me continuing live excruciating enough without guilt tripped blackmailed desire live get better havent years ive mindless meat suit little integration contribution society past years ive already sent packages letters people important left know death hurt immediate family literally one else life would odd even know im gone im selfish ive detached everyone frankly dont care im dead definitely wont care good luck best wishes everyone here ive seen lot posts expressing live wonderful desire have truly hope find get help need whatever means are important strongest advocate please take care yourselves you,1 +alarms watch video alarms watch video httpsyoutubeihvozfnkhhttpsyoutubeihvozfnkh,0 +think redditor plans kill themselvesi know right place post ive seen redflag note post redditor different sub hours passed may already gone it sub this someone contact,1 +depressive haze like year smoking much pot every single day great idea family member get cancer around beginning covid kind broke me going therapy taking meds neither happening anymore isolated old friends long even know would want hear me live parents unemployed let bedroom become huge mess sure cockroach nest bed cannot believe let get bad ashamed tremendously bad,1 +countdown end journal survived attemptmy apologies amigos know ive building tension everyone expected grand finale picked xanax script monday took entire bottle took lithium escitalopram handfull advill well entire bottle mucinex dm good measure woke hospital im fucking failure update make new plan,1 +trappedhello anyone kind read listen troubles truly wonder hear suicidal person im end rope severe depression anxiety plagued since grew abusive home developed agoraphobia that tandem mental illnesses rules life give idea bad anxiety is failed classes scared leave seat turn work living childhood cat died year half ago event long figured would mark demise ready kill shortly passing days spent preparation met amazing person still boyfriend get year lot help lose job six months ago move boyfriend horrid upstairs neighbors consistently deprive sleep insomnia iswas already issue so know it days become entirely comprised nothing trying sleep im scared leave house miserable constantly incredibly stressed neighbors feel completely trapped fear dying way out moved back mom briefly daily companionship boyfriend saw mental state unravel even worse neighbors it would love run away live car was homeless once im dependent upon medication and unfortunately opiates opiates counteract horrible thing called akathisia already tried killing due wretched disorder twice opiates brought miraculous relief though theyre obviously doubleedged sword cant get meds either would undoubtedly end redflag experiencing depression unleashed again im stuck job home despise scared ever leave substance dependence allow freedom im afraid of zero future prospects general list listed everything wrong head life post would even lengthy want hurt boyfriend family cant keep life up thought could get today long got spend time boyfriend waiting week agonizing amount time desperate die came home headache go straight bed works long tomorrow really think cant make another day,1 +want say inspired meas weird topic sentence is remains true lately ive slacking classes ended reddit various sites none that see want become psychologist feel meant help people reading posts made realize need work harder reaffirmed everything made click suppose ive acting stupid wasting time working trying become better me could help everyone like you care everyone experiencing emotions personally went them want help weird may sound thank you thanks reaching trying get help thank acknowledging problem worth fixing thank letting see really important time life sincerely believe life worth living ever need talk get something chest always pm me may realize significant world affect anyoneyou affected me best wishes k,1 +want big black car could drive way need rn,0 +mehjust turned bunch assignments school several late lot easy bullshit like sample resumes know self reflection garbage life nothing mistakes hate it hate everything ive done hate myself dream day finally kill myself,1 +hardly moveim supposed supporting wife im supposed job that whatever reason hate worst though im supposed getting better finally got shit together started seeing therapist met psychologist got prescription anti depressants better much better im not cant get bed im afraid stand ill walk closet pick pistol shoot back head literally difficulty picking phone floor instead picking phone wanted grab cord right next strangle myself hurts fact know could developing great life family im depressed broken it fact know known since sophomore year die hand eventually hurts knowing people ill leave behind little sister wife parents family friends left behind put fucking smile get myself want done way think done dying im failure cant believe im again thought okay im not,1 +little update lol im alive got live soe reason now got full mcyt month not going out im feeling better,0 +get dying withwhy people suffer trudge dark cruel place years decades fair anyone wants check early rather miserable physical mental ailments basic fundamental right die person chooses one else say otherwise,1 +wish knewi wish knew gives person enough courage commit redflag wish brave enough get with hate living im afraid dying wish courage end today make many plans end life never follow through feel like failure everything would okay over life complete waste hope improve theres nothing look forward happy for anticipate horrible things inevitably happen me living prolonging suffering anyone tries say it no literally single person would actually miss know fact,1 +excellent thriller turkey make sensegreat job gokbakar brothersbr br first alli want point screen playgenerally screen play films turkey enoughbut gen best shots said perfectand also transition parts really excellentbr br on handgen great topic influence everyoneespeciallya woman who wants psyciatrist sanitarium has mother habitual insanityprincipal causes psychological consequences given genthe thing combine hintsbr br there impressive aggression part doga rutkay sahan gokbakar playedthis performance may realistic irrversiblemonica bellucci br br the last thing want say watch movieyoull get confused,0 +need help virgints theres girl class like im sure do almost always laughs jokes feel like might like back also boyfriend could sees friend want ruin friendship decided tell herask hang feel like could awkward told class know instagram feel like would kinda weird randomly sent message too give advice handle situation,0 +thoughtful film lays bare inequities socalled upper class work them haves havenots robert shaw creditable job role obliging correct chauffeur steven ledbetter helps lady franklin sarah miles overcome mental depression outset however steven many mixed feelings regarding lady upper class inevitably falls love her course overstepping societal boundaries separate thembr br i read anything prior judge movie seen it consider honest story realities daily living conflict might wish expect life get fine drama worth seeing again,0 +worst fking week life hard me dont know start alot dont space energy right mental state put whole story get somehow closest friends know dont trust anyone else especially sick fucked case vacation norway right hedmark plan visit sisters head back home wednesday night live hours away roughly everything great nice see again sister even got baby since last time saw her spendt planned time nice said train home little brother felt weird feeling we often get anxious feelings shit thats happened past home tried remain calm sake finally came place dad gonna pick us up two uncles met us police side since brother birthday next week thought kind suprise first didnt take long understand something bad happened dad brother total nerve wreck brutally honest getting understand almost impossible uncles continued inform us case was dad planned redflag every detail going wasnt home past years started evolve scary relationship alcohol mom didnt bother anymore obvious reasons dont want talk about took pills drank alot caused overdose pass out posted really disturbing picture facebook caught moms attention really quickthankfully noticed barely breathing didnt respond asked state form mind called uncles road fast possible dad went hospital right away mom sat alone corner room panic anxiety attack kept secret brother could nice trip kristiansand sisters live theres alot like whole fuckin lot past days im still trying understand everything even tho do alot prossess quick important note isnt first time dad tries kill himself mom incidense alot secrets debunked clearly dad narcissistic psychopath gambling alcohol problem used moms identity get credit cards loans time weird thing none money used pay house anything like that one else knows money spent on love father much scares me tonight first time week ive seen best feeling ever also worst feeling ive ever life shock could barely see finally could see bit better things saw hallucinations shit worst day whole life short version story get way know reddit dumb place talk stuff atleast im anonymous,0 +failed midsemester exams im going depression birthday coming one family wants talk me reddit place open up hey guys hope yall well so recently failed literally midsemester exams especially subjects love most parents expect lot ive let down birthday coming days family thinks exist reddit ive known quite supportive especially sub open guys freely thank much support hopefully things get better maybe birthday least state mind,0 +day preparing test know anything figured best chance read texts manual way ill know least fragments,0 +used happyi know happened fuck bad feel like nothing matters want kill anything full bottle potassium supplements could take right havent make weak make cowardly cut barely ever go deeper skin layer mean im wimp mean pain real reason ive made far many people would blame themselves fault mine everything fault want parents find body need someone hold tell things better gone care may kill tonight know much longer ill last,1 +want live house anymore im obviously thats option mom threatened kill front little sister lost left contact lens little sisters absolute brat dad activator mom uses pity history abuse get wants going go park dog mom going give ride punishment dropped contact help find it want leave,0 +redflagwhats likehas anyone actually survived redflag attempt like ask becauseim kinda flipflopping right now wanna diebut think were fucked get kind positive ending maybe express lane best way out express lane redflag case,1 +week going helli hellweek work school coming up theres nothing get it triggered depressivesuicidal episode me im trying distract lighthearted tv gaming cant wish rope could hang myself also wish razors could cut myself want die badly cant stop crying,1 +hoes okay and you hoe really like want actually me boom gone till then hmm unless ur garrett taddy moon literally drop rn,0 +saw movie stunned great movie was movie think would ever give star rating sure movie always top br br the acting superb leonardo dicaprio kate winslett best think anyone could better job kate br br if rainy day cant decide rent well one love acting special effects much much morebr br if seen movie go rent buy now regret itbr br ,0 + yearslast time self harmed years ago days today fine day right im worst ive since im really struggling deal it girlfriend important day tomorrow want wake anyone know do help,1 +five show made debut later point regular viewer remember really enjoyed show along leave beaver my three sons ozzie harriet dick van dyke reruns i love lucy the real mccoys etc enjoying first season donna reed dvd watched first two episodes donna stone shown intelligent wellmannered problemsolving serene stayathome mom similar june cleaver contrast lucy ricardo episode especially like ms reed becomes surrogate dad trading dress sweats boxing gloves teaching son defend physically much larger bully none mothers neighborhood grew in including own exactly met idealistic standards portrayed ms reed refreshing see good manners intelligent decisionmaking prevail end day contrast todays accepted standards vulgarity selfishness indifference among ones neighbors cannot imagine jeff mary stone told parents trespassing neighbors yards okay leaving dog outside bark day acceptable telling mother shut up supermarket front everyone,0 +omfg hurt httpsimgurcomaxvmalnssms,0 +uploaded first video wondering could get criticism make better my first videohttpsmyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq mainly hypixel videos guys wondering,0 +like room full sunlight people hear chatter laughter feel sunlight skin sunlight pricks like shards glass chatter feels like sharpnoisesthat makes sense yousuddenly starts fade feels like sweeped big hole darkness light passes you touch you warmth chatters mumbles fading away silence calmness sit there quietly falling pit darkness want scream are comes smile facethe fall like pull like dragged tremendous weight depth ocean weight existence worthless burden unloveable unfullfilling finally hit rock bottom break down tears flow scream but end there even rock bottom breaks feels heavier like never ending fallsometimes touch wrist feel pulse check alive coz thing makes feel like still living feel happiness remorse sadness one feeling left pain never ending depression feels like,1 +know keep livinghello first time posting here ill get point guess im tired living life like prison im tormented feel like never supposed born live family headed emotionally abusive parents cant take anymore cant cope bullying never stops fight hard basic things like respect appreciation people full unhelpful suggestions deal situation things get tough one around help one fights me theres one call cry middle night feel alone stay alive feel like theres nothing live for things never get better longer stay alive longer suffer,1 +want commit redflag feel like loserim single unemployed without car fear strong fear flying driving wonder going mature woman still feel like teenage girl inside feel hopeless,1 +good work everyone scriptwriters director cast lovely fun film becomes believable sentimental reasons only good film television cloudy cold wintry days want sit back enjoy,0 +week shall mainly hiding bedanother sheaf job rejection slips week got one interview lost ill advised mail extreme low hiding bedcovers helping smooth things out warm terrors outside thankful even middle age occasionally simple fire breaks still work also something incredibly naughty laying bed day unwashed unshaven ignoring stuff supposed doing,1 +miss gay life worth shit give redflag methods pleasei need backup plan case dont get college course important could thing changes life better open lot doors hear nothing back tuesday im done ive left school nothing courses offer construction fuck that,1 +want post ugly sub feel would ruin little confidence left lmao wish someone would honestly tell look good smh,0 +udisguised_noob favorite redditor udisguised_noob favorite redditor,0 +working non stop daily hours little sleep hours weekdays hours weekends parents insist sleep gone sleep graphic design student take subjects assignments need done weekly basis cannot catch momentum whenever faster halfassly lecturer told redo redo redo again like like chill forcing work hard parents really help either told try best fail yea anything really tired this really want fail one two tired it never really fail failing high school advance math tried fail college costly wasting time retake entire semester again today sleep pm later take vaccine pm far place back home time assignments vaccine side effect probably kick force sleep deadline one assignments today pm need show progression weekly done yet mind explode thinking really want disappear stop bothering these people find redflag thing never find either really care idk want people know actually sad angry time sometime lecturers adult said yea adult life college life eat it help either tired try fail college,1 +try take opinions grain salt incel really isolated trend cases part way modern malefemale gender system works also understand this questioning stuff mean hate women even imply that everyone right vent frustration want talk give details,1 +funwhat fun spend day bed internetgames im sick bored it anything else life worth doing everything used like longer appeals me takes much effort pick stuff up feel bad progress ive lost starting feels depressing used aikido play piano exercise study uni late every time try start again realise far behind sends back distractions break cycle get fact ive lost years life fucking stupid disease hopefully next semester fresh start im fucking sick lazy stupid ampxb sorry rant really anything offer felt like would place let out fyi exams week ive done nothing prepare them im going go probably fail least illve gone,1 +find place better send reboot start starting reboot connecting server found server deleting viruses uploading new data done done done done done done done done removing extra files installing install done human verification required download apps continue vpn vpn stupid game toddlers play downloads apps reboot failed be free support us donating us remember share social media tell friends,0 +dealing psycho girls playing victim rn everyone else today pretty rainy outside rn filler filler filler filler filllllllllllllllllller,0 +mega bored gay guy reaaaaaally bored kinda horny tryna talk people dm me ask anything number game etc im anything,0 +day posting random fun facts everyday forget get bored henry box brown escaped slavery american south mailing freedom friends pack small box ship cargo richmond philadelphia survived went work magician nice day ,0 +dear reddit gotta step comment game far tik tok winning landslide,0 +honestly considering deleting reddit not sure yet dont expect anyone care idk bro sight way weird circlejerky,0 +going end allits over christmas good day it ive run ways cope,1 +shout parents hating me yall really hurting feelings hear talking room,0 +last dayim living day day seen alot ggb redflag jumpers videos envy people live close enough it getting medication stop throwing soon shop opens get drunk swallow mg lorazepam pills would th birthday next week,1 +awards fucking useless virtual currency funny much people spend money useless items dont anything exist hate people would see post like would like haha award go brrr dont that go use award money something else like video game shit,0 +hated reddit attract people like opinion seem like me,0 +do suicidalhello everyone explain situation id thought would give guys info myself years old turning live sweden real friends ive never girlfriend iq checked mensa love history biology video games high functioning autism something one knows except family members feel depressed early childhood ive hard time making friends ive never able keep any days spent completely alone front computer play games read ive also bullied severely age age capable making friends a trait gained teens however due new friends already groups friends age meet nearly impossible keep them latest group friends slowly disappearing past years done things without traveling etc never call unless need help something ive desperate ive even bought apartment closer they said lived far away before mins however thing now even though high intelligence i want brag im trying tell story extremely big knowledge subjects find interesting ive never cared much school education led insufficient grades highschool ive tried working many different places ive never able stay long due autism preventing things hate repetitively someone else situation live life without friends job wife kids want live want wait find out like this know sound like brat throws away opportunities unless going impossible understand exactly life miserable edit also posted depression subreddit id thought id add things right thing keeping ending parents want make live misery thinking fault because experience even write telling fault parental instincts tell theyre blame somehow sometimes im driving speed kmsh hoping able react something happens crash feel empty inside emotions im stopping care things dear before,1 +hi people mobile thatthis literally happened honest messed it idea right place goesive got back taking friend amp e following taking odthey struggling ages mental health recent events made worsewithout going details place say know badi struggling support past weeks sucide watch whole time called everyone trying get help one listened taken tolli try reply might take awhile still shock guess need somewhere vent guess,1 +parents hate kids making online friends dad confronted day informed needed careful friends play minecraft with accused caring feelings likely ulterior motive said matter id known year ive face timed them trust slightest fucking annoying people keeping sane quarantine without them probably wouldve become depressed again fault hes military literally friends live states countries much weve moved fault were living quarantine cant make friends school,0 +feel monarch cove one best written acted drama series come network long time show great potential wait view week could developed great primetime soap people look forward type acting reality tv overkilled long type writing acting shows like dallas knots landing dynasty melrose place etc provided monarch cove updated concept quite well anticipated getting better theres much expand characters interesting captivating right would loss explore develop characters drawn hooked us world absolutely loved show mysterious interesting sensuous without going overboard offending loved it,0 +quick question filler filler filler converse vans filler filler filler filler filler sksksksksks oop,0 +want skip life either good friend group someone marry hsve kids filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im making religion mostly fun might end taking seriously originally intended made many solid plans yet gonna sorta cultlike polytheistic gods want sacrifices rituals sinners saints run mill stuff im run idea god yall veritate ruler life certainly important god queen gods eat heart anyone wrongs sinners heartless haha heres first sketcheshttpimgurcomavhczqb everything rambling thoughts sketches please comment want hear dumb little project rest post exactly that _________________________________ general anyone happens see pure a god angel type thing given name yet considered holy man blinded beauty purest words holy men transcribed holy men sacrificed gods accepted gods become one angel type creatures sex nudity hallucinogens pure things blessings gods appreciated greatly surpressed afterlife given holy men everyone else reincarnated whichever creature fits level purity people pure get human more people unpure get insects small animals im gonna stop blathering now read this thank you know did thank you,0 +day two bashing head keyboard by number days die inside gfthyujgtfvsxfrtyhujgtfvrsza,0 +light went kinda dark,0 +realized ive holding pencil wrong entire life people hold pencil top middle finger ive holding top ring finger bruh,0 +movie the stupid comedy year quite possibly best thing mike judge since office space mike judge fan enjoy shows like futurama grave disservice skipping little known limited release although dvd touts bonus features film certainly funny enough make perceived lack valuebr br this movie army grunt name joe bowers played luke wilson part top secret army experiment designed preserve army personnel peace time thawed war time fight country however things take interesting turn general charge operation busted prostitution ring experiment forgotten bowers sidekick rita played maya rudolph find awake year course natural selection population america grown increasingly stupid joe rita find way time machine get back year help frito played dax shepardbr br what really enjoyed movie mike judges comedic satire course us history last years mankind progresses subsequent years evidenced advertising movie become staple american culture shows like south park mainstream media easy see conclusions could drawn future profanity become marketing tool portrayed film humorously subtle things fuddruckers changing name buttfers billboard displays advertisement if smoke tarryltons f you also cannot stop laughing carls jrs role future slogan f you im eating automated kiosks selfadvertising extra biga tacos with molecules film contained everything go movies for excellent sharp witty comedy well engrossing plot make dvd one ages warned however fan mike judge care beavis butthead sense humor movie probably good match you otherwise would say probably funniest movie come mean ,0 +cried first time district uses grading app called skyward teachers dont update grades dont update grades says assignments missing therefore lowering grade said class leads missing assignments mom always back grades saw flipped out parents divorced go dads house every week sometimes hard get work done like puts lot pressure this important later on explained mom teachers havent updated grades tells email teachers multiple times hasnt worked told that said something mightve bit disrespectful ive already tried emailing hard back puts lot pressure me get says first im back dont talk like second deal pressure wtf im years old care grades well wouldnt say im depressed dont really feel happy often bad thoughts mom scared depressed year told wasnt shrugged off pressure got started crying dont ask anything return kinda wanted place vent thanks reading whole thing though,0 +really point lifeim going try short possible ndad started fight something trivial denial narc past decade i kept brushing crazy stories heard tired acting like worst woah me bullshit whenever something work hes getting ass pat everything pick fight perceived reaction i flinched talking wanted shake act way im tried this im tired feel like hates me im fully convinced every time go depression episode both diagnosed clinical depression would tell head need get it listen sob story mentioned earlier mean callous him give i worst you speech irritating im going say worst would stooping level live first world country problems yo straight man rotted teeth digestive issues probably made worst bad teeth worst yo gay trans man support anyone clinical depression that fight happen saturday got worst escalated remember said exactly heard say something along lines oh thats fault now aggravated tone hes turn something around someone lost temper called out along way called bunch things a cunt loser ect strangled me one point wanted call cops throw out threw back face hes working could elaborate throwing would bad idea headbutts me ok fine call cops points headbutted me assaulted me oh see shit treating now says mom watched get headbutted reply saw get headbutted hes wrong im cousins house hes china business trip im watching cat hates guts this cat always hisses me even im giving attention done nothing except enter house also staying want deal dad fucking cat hissing yowling go feeding depression everyone hates you including dumb animal know piece shit a months this cut friends except one various reasons fact viewed more successful me crush one one feel way back would normally easier time brushing off month rejected came poly brain shifted rejection they friend your broken good enough them thats real reason ended cutting hours one day week going start transitioning work mom say something boss mom went dad saying afraid lose job me cue dad going saying you keep saying want die kill already went go get gun grabbed strangled me and first time me would verbally emotionally abuse depressed wasnt grateful him im fucking tied this cant friends so gush reblogretweetrepost ships romantic bullshit get repulsed bitter far romance goes feel bullshit want fall love someone happened enough times let someone power throw feelings trash cases take advantage me anyone show interest always sees woman immediately shut life parents say want help me second bring im trans get frustrated immediately subject comes tell i cant help you leaving deal everything struggling drive really bad anxiety closest center hour half away me uber expensive since work little letter get testosterone letter said wanted start august october everything keeps getting way even know good more i feel like point kill im going alone forever that going crazy wants die care someone wants murder now life purpose life punching bag im school system dad tormenting bullies lived purpose support friends friend equally bad situation last message got said suicidal too need shit top shit reason live me eventually move canada really alone matter dont kill end year eventually happen,1 +got something really important tell guys fote gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt,0 +dogsso looking setting will dogs legally name set legal state want go dont want shelter im taking care part,1 +cant stand alone cant stand around peoplei feel like im slowly eating alive hate light hate noise hate physical contact much near people makes feel like drank litre molten plastic know why know conditioned innate personality me people feel noxious inflammatory im especially volatile least days hate resent anyone genuinely bothered human contact inexplicable reason like standing next unbearably hot fire yet im fucking alone every single fucking day past twenty years go business absolutely fucking one ive managed completely isolate world congratulations me right theres one care one talk to one wholl arsed kill myself thats solution reason selfisolate cant stand people ive tried tried tried connecting others many ways capable of never works one handle someone fucked cant handle anyone else yeah probably die already,1 +thousands people real people jobs purpose family friends people actually contribute society dying everyday covid yet worthless ass still wasting oxygenlike seriously people actually mean something others dying essentially nothing meanwhile want die seriously ashame wish could trade places covid patient really unfair them theyre fighting everyday clinging life yet im selfishly trying end mine please end nightmare,1 +anyone find calling hotlinei think every day now mom found shed probably go crazy works place behavioral health tells almost every day shes glad im like kids saw self harm scars knew would likely kill me along im still school dont wish contact school either would able track would redflag hotline number go phone bill,1 +studying suicidal thoughtswhy study anything going kill someday need learn anything need learn kill myself hate life much kill myself live homeless parents jobbless motivation anything life deserve live shit life nothing reason live give fuck someone get sad kill myself think deserve kill myself,1 +fuck children child fuck you go fuck raw chicken breast get salmonella nasty genitals eat shit drink piss,0 +miss childrenthey purest form joy lifei questions actions constantlyam right thingcan ever happyi know think matterslife never purely happy anyonehow protect childrenwhen stop protecting themhow let gois self loathing narcissismdo still fear deathmy pain always hurtfulmy feeling agony releasebut also turns medo parents love children part themis way protect innocence without crushing is making fucking difference right nowwhy want feel connected ignore people much pain enoughhow much pleasure enoughif perfect way this bother still livingi give fuck think journey answeri finally enjoy scream metalshould worriedlol silver linings reached sometimes conceding loss chance winning violence answerwhy everyone use itmy parents wrong came good placeor itdid fuck worse themcan save iti thought god existednow sure hate her themhate strong wordim melodramaticor ipeople kill shit lack pure unadulterated expression let get evil process transmutationturn tar like bile liquid gold maybe already have childrenthats fairto put hopes dreams onto shoulders child acceptance patiencedisciplinethese virtues help melovedo know love isnot really unless childreni would die them live themi wish could talk father commit suicide see mind state selfishbut everyone selfish degreecan reach place giving freely againdo post onlineis narrassciticwho fucking careshmmmm do want people see ramblei questions answersand answers could soooo wrongplease love me human xxxxxxxx,1 +school hat policy cant wear hat inside take away single warning anti bullying system warnings wtf,0 +every reason possible hundreds people faced circumstances succeeded strong hope encourage someone,1 +m smoke weed way cope redflag depression gets worse night also use way fall asleep easier dad found weed last night told dissappointed said good way deal things said cannot force do trusted enough handed back me know feel that right now dad also troubles mom sadly little sister got stuck crossfire dad barely talking anyone like used to often gets angry shuts talk anyone probably mental illness sort complex person mom told go see psychiatrist refused is good relationship father might somethingi also recently got diagnosed mild depression redflag got prescribed lexapro taking week now mother person always talk cannot tell weed thing got caught school knew want explain dad everything knowing person is part also want open him sensitive person something slight trigger point shutting family smoking weed always barrier appreciating life jumping cliff know continue smoking not feel guilty l smoke know dad probably redflaged situation also pretty well known city know alot people help either cannot trust anyone all real friends best friend girlfriend young know feeling way overwhelming want sleep day never wake up want kill way noone would sad about know people care me mom does dad does friends do suicidal nothing really even matter anymore feel like cannot take this overwhelming want someone read help understand better barely know anymore hope someone reads end,1 +every morning see dyingevery morning wake up first thoughts head day gonna go think dont blew brains out thought dying huge comfort now used scared would feel like used worry pets friends id leaving behind used think reasons stay nothing matters more ive fading away almost months now ive done everything could help ive read blogs websites reasons live want live happier manage depression ive gone counseling ive tried pills ive done programs feel like post reddit time one real life cares every day harder even care,1 +drowning people need saving rightme so got tonight something little admit fought feel fucking terrible literally want injurebeat death feel like listen like really really listen feel like tells shit thinks want hear time otherwise get ignored think feelings time ultimately end shoved apologize ammy depression amount clinginess bddbed self consciousnessresult bded get told constantly work self feelings things fuck literally drowning feelings someone drowning needs help theyre drowning purposely holding underwater trying die struggling need lifeguard yet nothing im tired feeling alone this im tired repetitive saying stuff even guys im sorry im sad seems posts getting closer together eh,1 +quite close friendcolleague mine committed redflagshort preface senior year old medical student mentorampfriend young orthotrauma surgeon bit older children wife man like substitute father me sometimes even risking are teaching rather specialized trauma knowledge amp allowing perform interventions patients still student well time listen lifes issues today side side channels told weekend abandoned world volition seriously think end too due terrible family background alcoholic amp mentally abusive mother fk father neurotic bit ocd plagued terrible headache flares nearly whenever begin really stress something nearly friends except one close friend whos living another country moment truthfully terrible making friends somehow people age tend stay away me social contact colleagues academic group most hate me rather uptight shity sense humor ergo social life good studies helping patients sports personal enjoyment swimming there consider husk human being performing day day functions well eat study sht sleep repeat well appeasing grandmother whom raised me truthfully person today keeping earth things feel really inside emptiness sadness loneliness is even allow myselfhave time think them teacher way stronger person am finished gruesome residency friends good sense humor wholesomely terrific human being yet decided leave life behind strong person decided stop earth continue living biological husk human life full misery,1 +think aftermath death people life dont think theyve treated mei abused neglected mistreated entire life every antiredflag thing get told always level think youll leave behind fair parents treated terribly frankly huge part im fucked up think theyve never expected fix way treat me,1 +supposed nowmessed life big time similar situation guy posted years ago messed whole semester school might get expelled lifetime basing selfworth grades want die kill myself relief death am alive supposed now everywhere say oh die die okay im dead now sit wait therapy date months away no cant go earlier life continues crashing around me not life stop crashing time freeze long enough rewire brain become normal fix everything fast enough know ive gone month without wanting die since fourth grade wish would stop wish brain ok tired,1 +wish category place horror simply isnt granted horrific moments however feel makes horror film give movie could better million little things could changed make betterbr br that said love movie im often sad people misunderstand whole point it always clear point movie say things always seem sometimes evil isnt br br barker con went little talk watch movie thing interesting many things wished put movie be chunk cut movie believed long lost chunk helped shed light boone girlfriend well detailsbr br i know people bothered information breed background however always felt gave movie real fleshed feel read novella based well many comics this movie always seemed like staging ground whole story much involved story sadly never chance live br br despite flaws movie might believe lot offer monsters wonderful imaginative acting sometimes bit stiff quotable lines whenever watch find something new keep eye boones chest toward end one point decker stabs shortly boone falls card table ends card stuck chest card stays even lori pulls knife out stays boone casually removes it love that lovely little detail thoughtbr br basically want say that looking horror movie watch this believe times men evil anything ever dreamed up movie you movie men destroy understand fear,0 +good enough worthless wife left me friends hate me even best friend roommate sees something needs take care of pretty sure school money comes im going pay last debt buy gun end it wife used boyfriends pleasure got raped first date breaking up im weak worth damn im good hitting sex parents see disappointment blame them co workers hate me honestly looking encouragement know everyone happier gone im selfish it dont going continue cycle abuse ive tried therapy even say im lost cause help im ugly af too,1 +feel like cutting myselfi dont history cutting im actually great blood hate needles almost fainted nurse withdrew blood me short blood makes queasy though feel really low even angry overwhelmed filled selfhatred look facial razor pick obsessively imagine would feel like cut myself my facial razor sharp ive cut accidentally times ive never cut purposely dont get urge coming from though suppose good mention ive struggling thoughts redflag dont consider serious serious attempt drunken tried fling onto upcoming traffic due fight boyfriend dont think would done wasnt intoxicated though,1 +drowningim trying hard cry start know hours stop biting inside cheeks hard can hoping pain shock thoughts stall tears feeling like utter failure when despite every effort tears come always do messy painful stings cheeks roll down feel spiralling control drowning beneath waves keep crashing me theres relief down logic sense searing raw pain chest gasp air feeling failed again lost last shred hope know okay anymore think even want okay im tired fighting survive want sleep dreams waking,1 +m gonna go robin williams myselfi cant see reason live anymore ame wont let pilot faa pretty much grounded me really dont see reason live easy buy gun country yet want soar among clouds saying fuck gravity im looked upon wanted freedom guess gain ultimate freedom death though freedom existing,1 +kill failim student tired depressed im afraid failing semester will kill myself know do feel like im stupid feel like im worse others everyday think death redflag im afraid family girlfriend going upset passing cant take anymore im sorry,1 +aight lads starter take pokmon insurgence options alternate typings charmander bulbasaur squirtle choose eevee,0 +hey girl book cause wanna deeply understand,0 +suicidal definitely hurting myselfso going long sorry know late s cant kill myself attempted times years cant courage so however last past year worst ive started physically hurt various degrees added heavy drinking smoking want die apparently take long painful way barely slept weeks im losing it tried push reached point feel trapped get worse every time something seems working make feel slightly happy manage fuck up also im living foreign country able get kind friends want also cant leave anymore anyone talk im alone im tired myself cant even look mirror anymore,1 +active well known cool user like please tell,0 +posting get first kiss day ,0 +think days numberedi mean guess everyones are but know numbered know numbered feel good im pushing everyone away everyones leaving everyone hates me hate me cant alone matter messages me matter tells im alone im alone im meant always alone cant live life hate it,1 +didnt want post didnt want seem like looking attention really wanted place talk wasnt known really see redflag answer im feel like solution mum alcoholic reason im still isbecause take care little sister rly thing keeping here,1 +switch though worthless human deserve anything life never given life im god im everyone everything im held nothing control multivurse,0 +dont energy explain dont energy anything anymore want overlife pointless maybe all mine is reason gone losing made realize worthless rest life is been want done im ready call quits now posting least say something somewhere guess thats,1 +consider movie one interesting funny movies time much highly intelligent thoughts it anybody thinks movie awful get able recognize really deep philosophical themes in schneider movies without doubt several universities germany throughout europe made studies schneiders way seeing things way helge schneider intelligent sensitive person jazzmusicions germany maybe europe mostly inspired great mdavis tmonk like him ok please try convince others might stupid cheap boring funny face opinion discussion willing really look art hschneider would surrender,0 +hopelessi teen years suffer parental neglect depression anxiety job gained quite bit age recently laid off due health safety issues within establishment main source income gone parents give shit me ive providing time now lost job hit hard seems like everyone left me know go bad habits started happening again cutting eating less things thought got over sit hoping help right now limited options right now redflag one them im hoping help now thanks trying,1 +really need someone calm down please go rehab hours im scared im gonna away frends everyone else know days im scared going awful experience never wanna remember,0 +see point anymoremy life never good seems im years old guy since yo watch brother drug addiction break mothers heart year year od times started selfharming years old ages years old literally friendmy neighbor mom super controlling never let go kids houses everyone school bullied quite shy bad sports years old met girl became bff also made friends ppl told girl loved her ended destroying friendship transfer different school started cutting way much suicidal lost best friend friends made graduated alone since starting college mom still super controlling struggle sexuality never dated much seem end bad girls except one meet perfect wonderful died stroke months started dating disease called avm still miss see parents regularly happy them live hour away recently started dating girl never felt connect someone cheated boss ended hospital it months still cutting it think redflag constantly never seem able sleep life never seems get better hope immediately taken me like cant control like feeling like ghost robot im told never noticed never anyone share pain true empathy know truly feel feel alone sorry ranting keep thoughts head day,1 +im teasing,0 +whodunnit hitchcock tradition kept dark suspects come go dennis quaid supurb dexter man doomed die meg ryan excellent babe much like little suspense pieces fit neatly together way should sorry watched one like suspense,0 +red roses mean so first things first quite introvert never able grasp many social conventions years ago throwing party th birthday nothing big always invite handful friends go activity this time escape room well return games gifts cake friend good friend knew since happens girl gifted single red rose main present also great gift card comic book store remember correctly internet gave conflicting answers never knew meant sure hell going ask anybody that yesterday asked mom told meaning rose depends color white rose means apology pink rose means friendship red rose means love baffled thats really true missing signs smart funny ngl quite good looking girl hitting me havnt lot relationships surprise oblivious ways love months birthday however switched schools introvert am lost contact point still confused little angry myself feel dumb thought might well ask reddit know whether go try get bottom this whether overthinking this oh yeah ask question point basically question title,0 +want scream top lungs methis feeling crippling suffocating im better dead everyone,1 +gone cannot find live,1 +need little help snapchat snap account currently day deletion period people still see account quick add,0 +gathering bunch fat people zombie apocalypse comes want zombie ass starve,0 +someone dm im bored hell dont weird pushy want normal conversation make friends,0 +crazy believing bad dreamim hate alive deserve die need die brain like mine ever exist everyone hates me everyone sees knows fucked am many falls concussions kid maybe thats mind twisted sick joke nightmare maybe kill ill wake happy ive started cutting helped while much anymore maybe need cut deeper nothing feels real feels floaty blurry like dream fake even asking all im sorry,1 +im worthless imo getting worsehi dudes posted back going get help would magically fix everything wrong waaaaaay wrong im lot shit now saw worthless before much worse now least kept pain myself think quite neutral environment family some friends know im fucking parasite harm environment fucking good everyone better im gone ill wait th birthday friends hope get opportunity say goodbye,1 +ever train thought sudden lose want back gosh dang brain wanna know thought plastic glue like lube models,0 +idk title u know ur pain u start smiling name pops ur phone,0 +sicknot sick shit go life ive making physically sick past days im supposed class right cant bring leave house want now want today day ive sitting actuelly entire weekend contemplating im alive fucking lonely soulmate girlfriend me thats main issue itself suffer every single day best friends even text anymore god knows why know fact theyre replacing though best female friend lets call sue friends past years best friends me her replacing people think sick shit secretly something theres family know bad life im embarrassed show it know mood crap time im sure clue cant bring tell them years fucked situation guy undoubtedly soulmate depression cant him thats key point please call fucking stupid depressed naive immature year old beg you family shit ever together telling that theyd hate already do im pretty sure really dislike know hes done emotionally know still alive here need know something whats point alive constantly alone need emotional stabilization,1 +im done living im dirt fucking broke cant even afford fucking coffee im used like fucking slave parents mom constantly shit her time pay me doesnt money shell pay later next thing know something doesnt pay me dont even fucking dollar name fucking friends dont even talk anymore dont even deserve them complain them try make feel better lies im sick it live parents shit deal im another nuisance take care of couldnt save five dollars save goddamn life see something want buy it moneys gone subscription comes cant afford it parents pay it owe even money already do hell sold soul id still owe money even owe money friends dont even need deal still waste money dead man sit room waste life might well dead people would better without leech them thanks reading rant whatever reason,0 +yea communism funny right people dont actually think works like think socialism good like sweden like memes right,0 +bullshit postmy life dream life like complain it forget that could drawn roadmap every single thing could make life livible would fail taken away besides living situation misery life difficult how fuck also proud recipient misunderstood award every single positive instinct either repressed dismantled strung pilliaging yes physical yes psychological would rather dead many years ago propped rancid chopsticks mom dad would much like anyone else life opportunity better hack own fucked you want death piss off,1 +help friendi made post yesterday responses immensely helpful thank everybody replied reason posting friend told suicidal thoughts ive comforting best abilities found today denied something comforted said im sure theyll another opportunity keep hope replied hope anymore makes fair bit worried see topic losing hope anywhere online im hoping someone emotionally dense help instill hope tell proceed also completely going type psychiatrist psychologist anything similar despite heavy encouragement me,1 +ive trying decide tonight nighti went bed early last night woke end work day today missed entire shift slept alarms friend shitty day available talk want tell need speak him want decide says possibly blame himself theres light life good times days feel terrible failures life much plan driving middle nowhere getting high cutting arm open bleed out cant go fucking hospital again end end im going write note tonight ill see find quiet spot,1 +matters life bringing place total joy bliss blissful nature every drop life enjoyable matter is also overcome obstacles seamlesslyother peoples judgements coming place joy someone truly joyful life feel desire judge needlessly instead focused enjoying lives people concern with worry others think,1 +tragedy tragedy cant handle more think ive limit year ive hospitalized many times ive lost count want quit want quit hell is form torture corner hell claim form hell purgatory maybe release would put better place thats everyone claims someone passes away all want peace im going go much detail would easy identify me suffice say issues since around years old go job job never really able maintain normal human required society function son dies months take it definition fathers job there responsibly take action protect family sole job life whether protection comes form keeping nightmares away story telling getting job provide failed ultimate test life fool i could allow happen son hope care turn imagine dead corpse stuck mind something positive tell dead infant turned positive tell positive,1 +sometimes think lifes going well then asshole called john comes fucks,0 +exam zoom school holiday im starting develop violent behaviour towards person thought good idea,0 +tried give christmas gifts know leaving mei tried give boyfriendfiance christmas gifts outbursts night wanted speak me asked wanted hug said no said last person wants speak point said i need know going on leaving me told sit discomfort uncertainty deal it telling leaving not know is tried give gifts bought christmas want them fucked head nothing makes change weeks bliss go fuck again im tired alive happy lately cant take joy crushed taken away every time bad things inevitably happen again really know im even posting this life worth living without him long time soul mates others best friend anyone says ill move full shit,1 +ive daily suicidal thoughts since february im going act tiring im lost doi want kill myself want and feel like cant tell family worred might hurt them im angry mostly done know wrong help feel scared might do every damn day too rest cant even get bed sundays attend one thing feel like helps want over,1 +n g h n n g h n got school tomorrow this,0 +tiredthere hope life meaningless me feel like everyone dies end amp everything goes black amp also god made money,1 +girlfriend ok worried long time hospital girlfriend good thank fucking god,0 +uh oh phone charging idk charger works moms phone,0 +australian post office ever needed promotional film recruitment itthis one movies whos heart right place watch again mirandas performance touching shows aspect australia unimagined many europeans cold wet bleak like anywhere else like anywhere else important people surrounds you characters movie warm welcoming make prospect career move dead letter office thought considered miranda gone bigger movies hope always keeps thought inside one,0 +hi im supoused treat gay person friend recently go aout closet im suposed treat post noted subreddit lot members lgtb comunity,0 +h e fuck daylight savings time,0 +fuck following why like im legit curious mist know im lasagna tonight fucking delicious doing feeling way,0 +noticed scars hips fake smile lips forced laugh adopted way care things used love dare stand grave cryhow cry someone even know suicide note,1 +girls exist mean ive never seen one dont know theyre real not,0 +want hurt myselfive fighting depression lot lately im point think killing nearly often would normally good old suicidal thoughts replaced thoughts selfharm whenever anything makes anyone else mad hurts someones feelings dig nails arm tell im piece shit am say deserve hurt happy day broke razor trying get blades out work shaved it cuts scrapes legs kept telling deserved it want tell husband thoughts cant gets upset depression understand it always tells glad cut deal many girls that am slowly destroying myself cant stand happy,1 +know much longer hold outthis going long wall text last years painful difficult life far back tried hang myself would privately write redflag get confronted parents went journals what fuck problem why would us this attention seeking real bitch move selfharmed bit well mother confronted front grandparents it you know something insert exgirlfriend here would done bitch months leading attempt finally realized depressed years told parents feeling believed first time years point would vehemently deny mental illnesses all even refusing let doctors put medication one diagnosed major depression attempt hoping could tell closest friends keep secret parents however two weeks later forcibly committed psych ward psychologist time seen beforehand immediately told attempt said im sorry cant let leave unless going facility hour later im loaded ambulance driven hospital stay meantime even though injuries anything attempt cop nonchalantly watching door room call parents tell happening since insurance show up mother hugged immediately tried punch stomach gritting teeth dont ever again drop college spend month mental hospital move back home parents attending outpatient group therapy first morning back mother immediately threatened shower if use hot water ill end myself led minute heated discussion text admitted read texts messages friends mocked talking depression ended conversation with im going show everyone messages get hell away you point father calls starts yelling ive disrespectful need apologize role marriage agree ignore horrible things says me end day go home mother apologizes same never brought again unless remind im horrible son ungrateful piece shit one year later ive regressed horribly ive stopped going therapy seeing mental health professional take medication selfmedicate cannabis march confronted mother buying pot turned argument screamed me youve disrespected house shouted back youve disrespected whole life charged me punching digging nails arm hit back got hands slapped face naturally called police kicked house walked three blocks covered sweat blood tears belongings backpack luckily friends lived nearby city allowed move them planned never talking parents again one phone call father continued blame deny fault own friends drove back week get rest things them gave phone they paid it car keys told never talk again week later mother sent email apologizing quickly deleted email best talk her bigger problems since move quickly also quit previous job authorize transfer also move again since friend allowed live move couple months another group friends would allow live them less month left lease well temporarily moved house worked minimum wage job try raise money apartment needless say work out since new job getting consistent hours call sick first week since got flu asked friend loan obliged alone enough apartment options asked parents loan agreed could meet person job gave money finally able afford place live knew relished fact own honestly wonder wouldve better going homeless dying right there four months later lost job seeing therapist trying best make ends meet constantly late job emotionally volatile using cannabis even cope would breakdown frequently home started getting anxiety attacks even got one work working register knew fucked up began searching job would take me parents pay rent it found another job paying livable wage full time work thought id finally made work able live comfortably friends respected cared me six months later lost job too started feeling horrible get bed stopped caring cleaning apartment got horrible relationship manipulative alcoholic thankfully lasted two months broke things off found work more essentially furniture delivery repos guy started paying decently idea work would intense that management genuinely care happened us one time deliver couch fourth floor apartment am elevator got yelled chewed constantly simply would overbook us blame us able deliver eight furniture sets one day first partner job lasted three months left requested vacation time two months hand repeatedly told would get it reschedule one week vacation time quit sent manager text quit day blocked number refused leave apartment vacation spent next three months wallowing misery anything productive smoked cannabis laid around plans get job parents agreed help rent since knew awful last job was january started pushing get job thats got message old job new manager one previous colleagues wanted back raise agreed took two months things spiral back awful level before problems overbooking us offering support whatsoever things work out worse even one colleagues horrible alcoholic always came work smelling like liquor could barely lift anything matter often told boss get rid him hed say give time man need someone replace him unfortunately found immediate replacement stopped showing up point long unending text weve reached march pandemic starting hit city im expecting work close instead cut hours half keep us open im still working there im planning moving city two months however one day mother literally begs go back work says help pay rent recommends sign unemployment leads now ive received last unemployment check next month need search job im lucky im living house full close friends cheap however im close parents house know exactly live want live again know ill probably to im lucky get financial support them frankly id rather dead know theyre going hold head like everything else know theyre going use try keep talking them know need get away them need cut off multitude legitimate reasons given current financial situation situation pandemic continuingly horrible mental state options im lucky thankful ive gone long without another redflag attempt ive selfharmed ive enough mental fortitude keep going long caring forgiving best friends have im sure id dead im also sure long alone keep together recently threw knife cutting with idea would worsen general mood ive holing room week now leave occasionally talk friends smoke come back sleep inconsistent waking late nightearly mornings everyone else asleep constant suicidal thoughts paranoid thoughts friends turning throwing out horrible intrusive anxiety halt whatever im throw constant thought loop worrying inevitably leading anxiety attack basically disassociate come back find curled ball holding back tears im scared friends much hate ive become hate image one walking room find corpse read way this thank you posted anything personal life before felt like needed get somewhere hope everyone makes alive know you sincerely love nonetheless,1 +get help please helphey guys im sure help feel like might able cheer listen im done life hate ive got many problems like theyre small problems theyre big cant solved easily want run away parents force stuff want do dont get abusive slowly really tearing apart im feel like marionette go school come back home start working mum day swear lasts till night im exhausted cant anything school instead homework go bed day same ive told teacher home nothing happened even sure expected grades school worst parents expect get well paid job know show school certificate applied schools got declined them im waiting get go away anywhere far away parents still wait year im afraid away id get depressed think redflag want it think life beautiful think get beautiful know ill never able forget parents siblings want go child protective services want parents get trouble know father bring mid east kill hed find out know im germany im get help please know im afraid thanks lot,1 +anyone else feeling need relive one memory die wanna walk snow family one last time im outta,0 +mental health deteriorates day theres little stopping ending it poggers anyway need therapist honest gtim gonna kill anytime soon worry still lot things want dolt,0 +dont wanna get political but mordecai regular show get it id let hit given day said said want information goodnight,0 +saw begotten last night im two minds filmbr br on one hand appreciate total invert michael bay film dialogue extremely stylized grainy bw photography genuinely horrific imagery ever set film compelling use sound which nobody else seems really picked yet reflection theme dares go filmmakers terms images production concept movie people understand read comments find lot people whose lack ability figure film results shrieking pretentiousness fervor gibbon rattling bars cage feeding time genuinely shocked disturbed me last time film managed agobr br on other thirtyminute short sprawls hour half understand might artistic merit using repetition monolithic pacing bludgeon case help everything hang together imagine approached ragged man street grabys shoulders says something completely confounds core being then instead leaving shattered gibbering wake keeps talking talking talking end movie found glancing watch again br br this entertainment people disentertainment deprogram people watched glitter watch movies entertained frustrate confound possibly anger you approach begotten like chocolate cake want eat tastes good approach like something menu never heard before something see furtive glances kitchen door something thats dark glistens twitches platter something order taste good know like,0 +get christmas so christmas like corner time see wanna get idk wanted guys help decide ive thinking maybe bycicle like ipad pro maybe even oculus quest dont games play vr feel like bycicle much extremely want ipad would love could give ideas really dont know gaming stuff doesnt go bucks would nice like wifi router like razer sila dont know would really satisfactory open cant mod laptop rtx anything im screaming inside please help sorry wall text im desperate know get please help ,0 +jimmy laughed chit chatted nothing matter normal jimmy even heavy fire hed still nattering scottish accent smile giant twisty raf moustache jimmy landed wee plane first open veld spotted father instantly fell plane tuck rolled ready run cover jimmy bit surprised steady old chap need tinkle,1 +one even wants around anymoreim job education shitter im stupid burden everyone else mum almost told today might well kill stopped half way saying it miss kid one expected job school back colours shapes fall behind abandon leave rot mind pretty much rotted out thats left rid everyone myself,1 +harder imagine humanity future interested anything set space finally played mass effect friend recommended me found shows like babylon farscape firefly battlestar galactica influenced mass effect space sci fi popular s early s dominant pop culture tv things s game thrones zombies superheroes space come back tv the expanse for mankind nowhere near popular pop culture phenomenons even though game thrones mcu infinity saga ended walking dead concluding soon become harder imagine humanity future would take get society dream space again,0 +im dprinter thats said mum told close door bathroom,0 +past weeks seriously thinking existing anymore avoid self harm,1 +feeling like lateim dropped high school done anything since never got job anywhere never intentions going school chose nothing rot away isolation instead spent birthday alone earlier month well ive read disconnected youth feel fits t feel ive fucked future already absolutely nothing hermit instead ill talk people theyll say well young figure out really kind passion ambition though thought seeing therapist feel like ill tell ive said theyll say thing else everyone else saying fruitless intend hanging halloween id hate devastate family everyone life see coming anyway,1 +bruh legit find reddit morning since changed color last night i think able find folder lol anyone else same come on lie,0 + caliber put downi would rather try something little ummph unfortunately resources strained lr do im mainly curious chances survival using method,1 +absolutely nothing wrong me simply choose longer existhello ive created plans methods organized explanations loved ones decided want die exactly days today longer exist thought quite exciting me wait figure lies beyond if anything simply cease experience existence little bit me suicidal depressed actually perfect mental health poor ugly unloved unintelligent aspects consider perfectly blessed life years alive experienced little hardships probably tell now negative outlook life simply want end it reason making post begin day journey finally understanding impulse act ultimately kill myself redflag understood us literature philosophy relevant media discussions experienced far act desperation simply beg differ experiences stand direct contradiction this since age last years ive played around idea redflag early interest described morbid curiosity following questions like what death find first hand questioning morbid curiosity transferred disciplined approach became engrossed philosophy literature everywhere find characterisation redflag completely incompatible feel someone would ask would change life would answer thing perfectly satisfied beautiful girlfriend loves me treats right express true self to good circle friends support me loving parents great academic record far tons accomplishments proud of moment life entirely happy satisfied existing longer may change that simply quit ahead furthermore ideation redflag empowering me clear interested mutilating harming self unhealthy ideations violence act actually sickens chosen quick painless dignified method feel empowered idea making first last choice life thing truly own choose born thrown world heidegger would say difference simply longer want experience being want experience nonbeing correctly cease experience existence thank you hope someone gained understanding relation existence,1 +smoke whole bowl myself yeah yeah,0 +friends tiktoks arent able save cant figure videos account set able saved nothing happening shadowbanned sooooooo maybe something it unsure anyone sudgestions,0 +imagine attractive interesting person lmao,0 +intervals getting shorteri tried counting days last redflag attempts felt like got frequent time first counted days try tonight ordered something online make different attempt arrive monday maybe ill wait then idk yet hope itll end soon,1 +everything makes things better temporary distractionive really nasty prolonged breakdown last week ive definitely acted family perhaps couldve bit less harsh weve argued anyway saturday ive really lovely hike around fields ive felt mentally fresh long time absolutely thriving could say come in excited clean room long shower mum goes move asap cant change behaviour absolutely regard thats behaviours happening even though knows im okay found redflag note went rooting stuff one time massive row im sat room crying drinking might take pills later might not knows reason living go hike could kill still wanted to clearly hiking doesnt anything end still come back problems,1 +got wholesome award time use ironically,0 +wonderif friends relationship could normal would still want kill myself,1 +anyone need someone talk tofeel free send message ,1 +college pay online platforms professor uses assign hw economics class online hw platform making pay ur hw thats pure evil,0 +yall feeling extremely stressed burnt unmotivated highly recommend lil bit exercise im athletic person nature even moving around breaking sweat impacted day positive way started college stressful ive really living couch potato life past months pushing work gave endorphins couldve seeking less healthy ways anyways try it really made day much better idea people slump like rn,0 +everything life favor right now feel like thisim getting paid love constantly keep writing great music enjoy tastes bland feels black white girlfriend love feel down keep pushed different medications zoloft come closest working im constantly crying least get erection medication love life sometimes do sit think while try hard make friends always tell want friend almost makes wonder sometimes im autistic something know it im adult feel like one people treat things know like common sense feel isolated main reason kill trust anyone else take care cats im sorry mini rant idk else put this think every night luckily stop myself advice,1 +fucking bored dad going take shopping stuck workplace got work seriously people that sooo bored,0 +become likable unlikable per se id like hear reddits tips likable romantic relationship tips social life hacks ill take advice,0 +title says really hours inbetween socializing friends slow agonizingmy brain gets scared annoy friends say something hurt intentionally make excuses need take break few probably go bedall lies course lay bed idolize world exist sleep way fall back nightmares living world feel content happy even ripped away eyes openi feel like drink even struggle pick bottle even like really am really even amalgamation ideas would want sewn together poorlyi feel purpose life even though would say otherwise feel truly one world surrounded people care yet never felt alone,1 +loved movie ever since debut lost track many times seen it never fails make laugh cheer feeling down three leads fantastic script priceless plus get nostalgic hearing theme song think quote movie without realizing it basically know entire script someone watching first time hold back saying something funny next line it cant even narrow down although sir johns character probably gets memorable ones famous ill alert media arthur announces intention take bath still priceless list truly endless scenes arthurs soon fiancs fathers house scream particularly interactions moose favour see movie,0 +mum wants houseobviously extra expletives interspersed here crux shouting wouldnt mind thought id done well today looked asd brother hours made stew coming work spent four hours fixing washing machine getting numerous cuts probably need tetanus jab blazing row erupted wanted wash morning announced last night apparently need mind reader sister also unaware nevertheless cut bath ten minutes could wallow hour perhaps im shallow wanted least thank unpaid labour id given instead hear im lazy freeloader disappointment need leave bear mind physical disability makes moving lower body impossible unless want agony every step spoiler alert it according her im actually depressed instead simply make rest household depressed wants out lack trying behalf last attempt thought huffing reality id collapsed kitchen am dragging bed spent next twelve hours vomiting overdose time ive gone different ive taken crazy pills should downed bottle two wine attacked wrist injected units slow acting insulin tomorrow night hopefully problems disappeared,1 +quote used summary occurs halfway good earth captain chinese revolutionary army played philip ahn apologizes mob time shoot looters among them unit called back front lines course next looter found shot main character film former kitchen slave girl olan for whose portrayal luise rainer yearsold second consecutive best actress oscarbr br the next scene finds olan dutifully delivering bag looted jewels underappreciative husband farmer wang lung paul muni setting motion classic dichotomy mans upward financial mobility direct inverse moral declinebr br for movie dealing subject matter including slavery false accusations misogyny starvation home invasion eating family pets mental retardation infanticide exploited refugees riots civil war summary mass street executions bigamy childbeating adultery incest insect plagues biblical proportions good earth surprisingly heartwarming moviebr br my parting thought form another classic quote olan while putting precious soup bone son admitted stealing old woman back cooking pot husband wang lung angrily tossed dirt floor side hut meat meat,0 +see next week even tomorrow morning point im empty want anywaysim sitting room alone dark kitchen knife pressed neck feeling empty scared im honest im fucking scared point tonight ill jam knife hope die alarm goes classes morning want keep going like this smiles fake everything fucking far away pointless feel empty im scared im going want live little end tonight,1 +lost faith hope deserve goti spent pretty much whole life computer parents never let used live dodgy neighborhood moved somewhere nice become really introverted prefer spending gamingstudying spending time pc literally fucked up pretty suicidal never reason too edgy something stupid sincerely regret police comes takes electronics life onward comes crumbling down dignity gone deserve happening me cant carry living it even care life name face comes news anything getting rope asap cant live friends everyone knowing ive done fucking cringe roll ball stabbing thinking it even worse losing religious faith fuck life stress losing faith fucking intense like living lie whole life care hell exists not want there seeing tragedy going world kills even more dream going cambridge longer possible parents optimistic forget everything thats happened tell carry aiming it well know theres point working hard anymore always aced top grades exams without even studying know much potential ill homeless scum streets people thinking im loser failed school cant find job ugly long beak nose get stared quite bit im public reading propaganda nazi racist islamophobic comments internet made selfconscious try hide face public like looking floor covering face car drives past put hood etc people said look ugly face wear glasses look groucho disguise mask uglified without moustache remember kid friend laughing look stopped looking mirror stressful look go thought process ive grown love nature like want travel world course longer possible try optimistic possible cant carry like this dwelling like freak bedroom day want commit redflag courage cant sister thinking falling unimaginable tears completely shreds apart im stilling waiting see sentencing ill get final outcome either humiliated hated homeless shit job relationships end quick go all always go one lifes quote anything happen stage look so admittedly deserve wanted let feelings out,1 +wow cant believe strawberry milk cult predicted portland saw world come portland strawberry milk cult november ,0 +wish good friends life guess huh,0 +realised deep face is like happy look actually sad end like moment youre happy outside actually sadd inside know like friends make fun laugh them haha yess funny,0 +look want attentionoh well careshey all really sure else post really say feel like life spinning control racing ahead me every day blur nothing look forward to difference date thats guys,1 +dont think anymoreabout year ago ruined life went school shitfaced every single day due extreme social anxiety depression little know life would get x worse got caught getting driven hospital get stomach pumped getting picked dad broke families heart let go back school weak later happy see friends return passion violin it performing arts school although got past substance abuse depression continued grow winter break parents found finsta personal information feelings mental health sexuality embarassing due fact wasnt ready come out made switch schools closer one promised could return old school got better april mentality improved therapist said good go back parents didnt even try im still stuck god awful school cannot truly call anyone friend friends old school lost contact me parents emotionally abuse sisters every day escape friends boyfriends school life become one tomultuos torture work hard every day please parents practicing violin working grades losing weight never enough them every day tell year ill college ill life new friends sort partner cant fucking live awful cycle one day havent sober school month smoke wax pen bathroom every single day cant stand existing anymore havent told one person school truly anything everyone else relationship least fucking friend cant fucking hold anymore school hell home hell sleep hell im going end awful existence anniversary day ruined life keep telling self better next year also said last year im suicidal ive ever liife,1 +feeling like living tbhim hopeless atm know do say feel expect future view current situation,1 +says giving longer making effort always fails leads darker deeper hole kill also keep trying keep failing entire life spent told keep trying succeed one big freaking lie far nothing life worked me feel place world option stay holed piece crap falling house wait eventual death cannot kill myself giving yet killing self,1 +go arnt oki individual therapy group therapy since last august depression suicidal ideation worse ever since brought knife school intention kill years ago cant help feel disappear like im somehow burdening everyone proximity them intrusive thoughts redflag ranging drinking household cleaner jumping top school parking garage feels like every day im inching closer taking thought action today stood top parking garage actually leaned edge seen therapist times last two days another meeting tuesday im sure live long feel like check hospital missed even two days work school life would totally fucked since would lose job able afford rent would mis two midterms drop graduate program finally made into dont know do dont want anyone deal mess killing myself idea living even two days feels impossible,1 +right least told cannot depressed least one person loves me cannot feel alone always someone me happy smiling time not makes seem like something wrong relationship maybe right maybe depressed really bad day cannot possibly depressed married,1 +hate lifelately hit wave depression new thing happened before feel like im good enough world never live anyones expectations always set bar high always impossible impress them life would bearable good something im not closest thing math id say im average things going right right sucks im trying lose weight pretty successful however like take step forward ten steps back top everything girlfriend like year texted like months life looking goodive often thought ending never gone it,1 +know need someone talki think need talk someone last months anything productive home went outside rare possible live alone really close get bachelors degree shortly registered topic thesis started realize frightened many trivial things since tried avoid people stopped replying messages started college always thought writing thesis seminars hardest part even testseminar never problems exams mostly one best seminars practical parts where supervisor watching me always really hard managed finish thanks teammates always shy rather introverted type never thought something norm needs treated moment im really afraid social interactions matter real life internet never talked anyone think one knows shut room last months though often redflag actually wanted times never could mostly family wish could simply disappear waking morning die accident im pretty sure non ever happen today wanted drive home tell parents it hour train i need hours go back home ride returned back apartment know tell arrive also thought calling parents via phone feel could explain phone another idea go old friend he lives doors away asking help cant think way could help me moment really know whats wrong escape current situation hope give advices,1 +asleep soup asleep right share im souphttpsyoutubefaunddtzkvideo good reason,0 +im borrreeeeed dm something funny spooky based smecksy,0 +anyone gonna tell anyone gonna tell supposed eat grapes milk together supposed fuck find own im pain,0 +recently sleepover birthday party five girls age eleven us thinking would harmless little movie jaws decided rent along rat race we watched rat race stranger calls ease fear put movie night lay together sleeping bags hiding behind covers it screamed five times unusual get scared movies never scared enough actually screambr br all us terrified even leave bedroom notredflag stalker jenkins called reasonwould get us played mean trick one everyone dozing rat race hid sleeping bag said quietly lowly have checked childen screamed like nuts scared would rate movie thing like many false alarms jill thinks stalker kids never woke whole thing jenkins kidnapped hid cupboard time cry like babies would highly recommend movie anyone likes thriller one thing babysitting past pm ever again,0 +schools reopening th march uk let know average daily covid cases ,0 +get funki want die think lot thing really keeping accidentallyonpurpose death fact roommates would stuck dealing portion rent left tips tricks finding silver lining thnx,1 +im damn years oldjust got enough equipment christmas cant fuckin wait feel nothin nothing keeping alive guess like think gonna waste life god matter fucking waste goddamn life im piece shit im asshole everyone knows it aint got nobody dogs goddamn thing notice want anybody see corpse feels like im faking this like want suicidal depressed rightly fucking do want get rid myself throw goddamn trashcan cant wait times tickin better get sooner later,1 +blythe danner judith ivey deliver wonderful performances jonathan silverman eugene recounts life s brighton beachbr br what makes film good relationships among characters backdrop extremely wonderful family valuesbr br bob dishy marvelous opportunity father clan gives restrained compelling performance patriarch familybr br his sons played jonathan silverman brian dillinger fabulous certain scenes silverman skating hopping im reminded jerry lewisbr br as danner ivey wonderful mannerisms intonation idealism jewish culture beautifully realized thembr br the cinematography wonderful beautiful brighton even inevitability war loomed film rich many typical problems faced families period sense jewish experience family going throughbr br a must see nostalgic buffs us believe strongly family values,0 +m thought redflag officially scary anymoreand worries me lot part saw coming timeanother part denial every relationship toxic level intense codepdence coming family selfimage think go unattractive am college active sports teams social clubs outgoing talked girls never succeeded overheard second time girls talking embarassed disgusting look closed book me done talking girls none projects sidebusinesses every panned out academically sucked get masters program im home odd work dad friends works home treats like owns me parts life oddly exemplary eat diet rfitness would jerk to im bf train times week meditate daily couple hobbies enjoy sleep well fillers cant get anywhere want academic goals business goals financial goals relationship goals sex goals list goes on im tired generalized anxiety makes life hell my psychiatrist want give meds says im better cbt looks like itll enough understand all neither last guy im good all bring meds told get meds asking thought dead used scare lot would think missing little things air sunshine food etc thats changed too ive seen all ill see way im tired tired,1 +relocated graduate scheme fiance friends here best friends live away busy university friends take interest lives now work makes anxious lonely feel trapped endless loop work home sleep repeat life feels pointless accomplishments fiance adore struggles depression hard discuss together worry end breaking mental health sometimes happens new puppy together mortgage getting married years want alone forever love him still worry keeps night one day could wake gonei think weird anxious make friends feel like loser see mutuals posting socials friends time makes wonder cannot thatno point post word vomit situation friendless,1 +shocked good german version films scream was surpassing modern american efforts slasher filmsbr br it films dont likable characters genuine mystery suspense graphic murders brilliant soundtrackbr br this stylish horror film one best kind come years german cinema going strength strength lately shame people wont go see films missing out easily available dvd even hate subtitles think see it one best horror films see year,0 +dont know doim exhausted want give up point even trying anymore,1 +interesting titleim killing tonight rules sub wont load phone feel nothing nowadays often happens odd flashbacks cartwheels bridges handsprings front lawn fathers house loved everything else pointless story everything awful first tome life truly understand nobody love me likely wont die tonight unfortunately definitely dont want anybodys help posting rant im journal space pills oclock forever impelling night everyone there,1 +really would survived always before gone three four days without eating single thing dozens occasions last fifteen years fine guy wonderful helped great deal felt like intentional attempt act like burdensome charity case know,1 +recently enlightened fact mistake parents never really wanted me happy two siblings accidentmistake going depression suicidal thoughts past years always reason stay recently finding feel like reason anymore cry almost everyday thought kids growing without feel like nothing would change left worldi really looking help place finally able say words without criticism thank you recent findings put state unrest,1 +anyone wanna talk bit friend kinda ditched im bored pm,0 +would anyone follow people follow single reason someone would follow,0 +never know want gets frustrating indecisive know affects many aspects life including notredflag question everything get stuck head leads nowhere except stuck place tired that know feel feel sometimes understand that never know want,1 +birthday filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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saying kill thr years m saying watch already done want risk anyone held responsible im writing down cat fed weeks boxes gallons water im sorry bothered people done teen instead now,1 +many keen interest origami liked origami ever since year old boy folded first paper plane still like year old teen folded paper jaguar wanted know teens like me,0 +im looking julian ampxb httpspreviewreddittnirgazmjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsecefdaeedfeccf,0 +ive often wondered much casper meant childrenwith issues revolving around identity in film lead believe spirit dead child home cemetery plot well disturbing message brought particular film maybe casper meant morality play famous studios felt like breaking new ground reality cartoonsbr br theres good boos tonight wellanimated projectno doubt there but plot development involving fox who becomes caspers friend meets tragic end concernbr br give famous studios creditthey tackle death respectbut stark image caspers mourning rather graphic disturbing children though denouement offer happy ending give away ending violence rather steep even s standardsbr br this might good cartoon parents use helping explain death childrenbut pop vcr perky cartoon break,0 +day talking tattoos want forget talk tattoos want does van it van weeds season episode maybe blue turtletop minihome one show,0 +need know anyone else issue ok like um idk puberty things recently noticed getting excited someone good person whenever someone nice friend cares gives complimets starting get excited anyone else issue,0 +bruh gay started feelings friend mine mofo might gay holy shit,0 +m since covid hits barely got go outside first months okay people talk to now everyone seemed go lives cannot prolong fb activity feel depressed seeing people friends also happen graduate last week highschool one top students however feel like going college spend time phone reading books seemed trivial wish killed myself also feel familys frustrations confusion take college suicide mind lately feel waking every day go monotonous schedule loneliness depression redflag,1 +feel good anymore happy feel like im going vomit might sick now fun happy oof stomach aches,0 +know si wrong subreddit want express myselfso know girl like think likes ewery time comes feel like paralysed cant ewen hug her dont know do knows hawe depression probably giving me sometimes think im soo boring dont know girl sees me every time im friends feel normal im alone feel like cant even talk her every time alone barely think talk about want hawe girlfriend think would girlfriend would regret first days im sooo boring past days im feel like shit suicidal thoughts crying almost ewey day dont know do think im going end without friends depression shit know im going kill pas days every day im thinking that sorry,1 +dead yeti really really really really really really really really want die tried kill lot times never end someone kill please tell died think would even care notice anyways always watching people amazing life friends closest thing friend boyfriend cheated one,1 +haha found precious ,0 +go school even though im quarantined brother got covid still quarantined days vice principal called said changed mind go school im risk giving covid class mates her choice stay home probably punished go,0 +remake anime classic s one even better sylia nene linna priss back knight sabers hardsuits battling robotic boomers animation crisp characters welldeveloped action rocks priss singer regular job series features wonderful songs well fair amount violence robots fan service nothing racy dvds also many extras including commentaries really enhance understanding enjoyment show musthave anime fanbr br also recommended burst angel armitage iii,0 +acceptancei believe things never get better and people meant here sadness inside never goes away ive never seen point living im empty lost things look better crumbles im incapable feeling happy think lifes anymore everyday struggle matter hard try get help one can im alone one understands feels far gone one try hard let everyone down ruined six months clean two weeks ago want actually die time take bottle pills throw bridge im done,1 +turn soon thing remember pain angerhigh school hell me ugly hs basically means try avoid bullied redflag im college now nights cant sleep remember lonely hs pain experienced fucking building intense still feel burn years later recall sophomore junior year nobody sit lunch entire years sat alone counselors office sometimes would sit cry nobody ever offered hand nobody ever helped me supposed magical time many teenagers me dont ever want fucking remember bullshit ever again bullied ugly virgin shamed me girls rejected worst ways imaginable hate much could fucking punch wall right now deserve right quick painless death life isnt fair ugly even doable,1 +itive enough life miserable friends parents hate me everyone around living good life im constant pain every day summer ive looking job well week finally landed interview time turns need id required paperwork one need transportation told mom it tell me shes busy cant cant fucking summer shes fucking case constantly constantly telling get job heres fucking opportunity happens jesus christ guys cant anymore ive sober years great school want enough money drivers license car impossible without job fucking rate wont make life cant really cant im good literally nothing fucking loser coward wish life even slightly better unfortunately not overdosing fentanyl later tonight looking mind change ive made decision smoking nice blunt listening help hako yamazaki beautiful song sleepwalk santo johnny could peace happiness final moment never wanted come this think happy child ive turned to one talk vent goodbye guys thanks took time read useless post,1 +im happy got money back still lost close hey heres hoping next seller find doesnt turn con artist,0 +hi male looking meet people hi im kinda lonely would nice meet new people here know probably get attention since internet cares females still try anyways nice mind texting please oh also live arizona enjoy playing games watching youtube im bit boring bye fellas,0 +endi feel like im end rope met somebody online genuinely intrested dating me turn saw look like aunt died watch scatter ashes wonderful human life justdumped water friends getting annoyed constantly telling this tell start conversations anymore start it ive waited see long took days lonely acted like perfectly fine messaged joking around stuff ive lost friends depression before cant lose more now im writing this morning one awake house may live house nother father brother honesty ive never felt damn lonely killing me im wits end theres train track house know could go there lay head never feel way again idk im trying achieve writing this honestly know feel like get out perhaps final letter world last words want happy ive tried therapy ive tried meds ive tried finding job talking people work never does try right want work once idk theres god ive never given much thought hope is least send someone grant strength keep going want die want live feel like thing point die im fucking scared,1 +feel lost im tiredhi everyonei hope okay speak mind bit im years old im england live sweden studywhen around years old obsessive compulsive disorder really came surface diagnosed depression ocd generalised anxiety disorder since cannot remember day havent worrying sad upset something craving medication take away numb anxiety sadness im university somehow god knows managed scrape past school wishes family therapist came swedenive year thought moving would help escape old problems followed here real friends here go lectures spend much time bedroom nothing even feel like ive recovered one anxiety another one comes along im freaking ive sleep walking nights ago im worried ive sent snapchat sleepwalking well browsing internet obviously cant tell nature snapchative upset hurt much anyone else ever has happened me deserve this ive thoughts redflag im scared death even think it life aint much better eitherdoes ever get better im tired,1 +know else left doive experiencing really intense suicidal thoughts now started transferred new school made really good friends ex david girl named riley really close come january david dumped riley transferred different school city away within days eachother needless say crushed entered depressive state ever since then took get over especially ex insisted friends immediately breakup made much harder get him additionally ex suicidal thoughts spent relationship convincing kill himself made new friends coronavirus struck march close enough stay touch right now im position literally friends talk to still talk riley transferred back old high school closer old friends know long makes staying touch kinda hard super bad place while staying home kind cleared head was deal parents full time traded social issues family ones felt like nothing could escape sadness slowly engulfing me however tried use opportunity reach friends old high school old best friend lila fallen touch with while things seemed getting better again truly felt like someone genuinely cared me however anxiety persisted thoughts came back started thinking ways actually it firearms hydrogen sulfide suffocation nitrogen carbon monoxide poisoning fact could think one person would care died didnt help right think im breaking point school start ive isolated months im behind college applications im taking huge workload year friend whats worse got really wasted lila week ago confessed everything depression suicidal thoughts plans it sober im sure really freaked out remember making promise tell anything sober remember course woke remembering everything felt awful scared away friend set awful burden her pretended like blacked said loved me since then acting kind cautious around cant help think ive ruined stable relationship parents toxic hell know past suicidal experiences telling would make things worse sure drive killing myself things never bad now think im really close resources well know else theres left do,1 +im suicidal anymore want kill spitemy life actually going pretty great once well parents decided lazy theyll throw next birthday june lazy aka found job applied several universities studied lazy mother untreated bpd worst fucking bitch know goes lovey dovey monster seconds were eating peacefully suddently starts yelling every time yelling tells kill myself honestly really want it spite her hurt her thinks words consequences always excuses abuse i angry telling give self harm made exactly that course yeleld child know says im joy life one thing stops offing herself want rip joy away her brings joy end make miserable show her abuse words meaning usually like this try understanding hate bothering anybody want peace quiet knows push buttons turn spiteful asshole wants harm,1 +incredibly salty rn found old ds game room called pokemon conquest remember playing little bit leaving halfway story days ago decided pick again today finally got point felt ready fight final boss went in bitch dodged least attacks attacks chance landing times attacked me got _ crits_ rest party members also dodged tons attacks mention weird stage gimmick inflicts status happen land like tiles map also one party members moves inflict knockback meaning knock onto tiles inflict status ill bouta die sodium poisoning swear god,0 +want fade nothing one left care whether im notby rights proud myself least thats parents tell me good degree well paying job worked hard enough school graduate early little debt thanks scholarships id like think family proud that im not think ive ever miserable wreck life fiance left years relationship another guy month going propose ago im pretty sure ive stressed ever since hair fallen out always thought ugly look even worse spend days waiting find excuse go sleep sleeping long think existence ive turned bottle numb throughout day productivity work plummeting feel like even deserve job anymore hope fire me social life plummeted circle friends actually talk started shrinking go days whole week without talking anybody cant talk women tried asking girl coffee gave reluctant yes thought whole situation much broke nervous fit attempted talk since lashed immediate family instead talking im feeling want see feel distancing now sometimes wonder glitch maybe im supposed exist maybe theres something fundamentally wrong existence needs corrected life ever fit even family always felt like never supposed there friends relationships fluke everyone going find eventually want cut ties everyone much existence get corrected one know difference guess im good job person tell anonymous message board,1 +people reddit bash make grammar mistake like wtf dudes literally become english teachers like your suppose put comma there its your cmon guys big deal someones makes grammar mistake meme,0 +think pierce brosnan think suave dapper intelligent james bond movie brosnan plays type lots fun as audience film hired assassin befriends harried businessman worksbr br this fun movie good scenes a riveting ontheedge brosnan good compliant offtheedge kinnear good lines cavil hope davis playing ohsotolerant wife can see gun appear often could marvellous foil menbr br this movie like matador plays audience going kill ending awesome storyline with notredflag moral emerges frenetic frantic fun movie deserve wide audience,0 +im lowest low ive many times really strength anymorethis lot apologize advance strength move on many people angry me unjust fixable anymore sexually abused couple times family cant go parents reason cant even write here now rejected held onto leash two months even like start final straw gave much cared much way deluded really thing kept sane motivated im gay ive trying get boyfriend really long time im currently came started dating ive rejected many times rejection part dating understand heartbreak heal overtime strength anymore ive many times people tell aboveaverage handsome really nice caring never ever received anything good it ampxb home nothing antidepressants seem work want die really really do wake feel clear good seconds back physical pain again hurts alive im screaming home fall asleep floor eaten days even find anything undertake anything anymore tried happy really did started writing book drawpaint lot make music get anything anymore im done need miracle see breathing days ampxb amazing friend love much probably keeping point cant anymore im alone alone nothing want help want talk friends anymore ive much point say im like baby take care of psychiatrist times life cant afford go again cant go back there ampxb ampxb,1 +angry getting headache do fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +cant stop thinking itim really dangerous positionv rn really expect anyone answer help im psychotic days bipolar took really word turn l feel like im seriously stuck stage mania depression extreme redflag thoughts plus energy execute them feel like im trapped lift belly whale bottom ocean thats radiohead feel trapped head im feeling away body already wish it know stupid im point life stable unless head,1 +fucking hard convince go throughtitle ig,1 +want say goodbyeif talk this get fuck out want oh people care you bullshit anything like that saying goodbye hopefully get friendly goodbye return want hear anything else,1 +interested relationship makes weird guy seriously dont want relationship trust issues insecurities know good relationship im really interested those people see weird guy yeah im strict family kind relationship thats relationship thank,0 +bruh googled character adventure time second image sexy fanart ,0 +dont wanna wake hospital dont wanna wake all wanna jump campus week never feel anything ever againplanning jump building university campus kill week ill go night one sees looking forward killing myself,1 +supposed go todayi everything planned out pills plan comfortable going today here reason done particularly difficult appointment camhs monday admit something planned im bad liar im angry saying something easiest way out essentially rd attempt past month ive admitted hospital twice discharged couple days later come back shitty cycle desperate rest want sleep waking painful knowing get continue live shitty hell life nauseates me ive trying tell therapist im getting worse continue stop telling people actually it get told focus moment im frustrated im falling behind subjects horrible health issues ive last months aspirations future really want go rest now ive pills taken mean im considering methods maybe soon ill get guts it properly,1 +nobody cares me everyone treats like nuicense want live world terrible things sure afterlife would rather jsut end see treated like shit idk put world full terrible things ruin it think gone would better everyone world good idk deserve it know post super edgy whatever really feel reality nothing live for want live life since nothing mine want live itthanks reading goodbye want live terribly cruel world,1 +lostits year since mom died since then proper sleep get anxious stressed littlest things feel like waiting something bad happen break way happened already suicidal thoughtsideations never diagnosed though never courage to mother special never would deserve her one knew one confided in guess now know exactly know feel sometimes hits me fear fear feel like thing stopping thought grandmother might make finally get courage listen impulses guess fake well sometimes wish someone would notice care funny it one really cares pretend do guess im sad angry tired past days feeling time stronger,1 +v r warface ps im gonna loose,0 +right remove trump sign said biden burn loot murder would ok possibly people would treat praysite shit,0 +whats favourite episode show ever ive ran ideas mines season episode crowd stole post raskreddit,0 +keep trying find way able keep living doesnt seem like options need kill myselfi dont really know im still trying pretty clear need kill myself im huge burden parents want gone go dont friends family id homeless im disabled basically impossible extremely dangerous try homeless illnesses ive trying look help really none sucks friends family wouldnt situation id somewhere go help get disability medicaid housing stuff like that birthday rd guess thats im going,1 +think messed relationship ive talking girl awhile during school summer quarantine weeks ago started dating well week told realized asexual told didnt mind perfectly fine fast forward today chat minutes send super long message explaining still love still date even though asexual still love ways well sent hasnt responded minutes she usually responds instantly think overstepped aware asexuality doesnt apply sexual orientation dont fully understand it dont know feel ruined great friendship really love say im freaking out,0 +joined pro sport called professional crastination think im one star players team,0 +give upkind looking guidance know answer get dont it anyone situation would know thats laughable response life full ups downs mostly downs years get along family now part do so thats much issue big issue feel total drain waste society every person come more casual contact with leave bad situation my one relationship ended badly ass hurtful him i go friends like water make horrible first second third impressions actually wind making someone friend usually wind pissing within weeks i go jobs quite quickly get hired quickly fired usually six month trial period able get along coworkers constantly fight pretty good job offending them cant professional way i get date life depended it lbs type personality allows people see beyond asshole lies top anything belownot sure i grew total lack friends got picked elementary jr high high even college jr high spent time upside garbage can i pretty short temper like seeing people get away things like cutting traffic dumping work others cheating systems yes meds welbutrin bruspirone pristique pop xanax need sleep cant bc running mind seen shinks answer always get dont say stupid things people stop think thats shittiest form advice ever thats like telling someone hiv stop lower white blood cell count things cant control trust me tried meetings place large red x paper still speak irrelevant stupid things anything topic hand brought edge yesterday informed one last chance current job be best behavior better start looking new job im done im tired cant keep hurting others spend time money fail drain society know short ending things i want hurt people actually care my mom dad few folks actually found care much ass am help,1 +hate myselfi wish pit stomach makes feel much loathe would go away,1 +think anymoremy partner emotionally abusive marriage gone back her second time first time thought stronger helping friday knew happening messages got home told loved called day seemed like genuinely changed loved him said loved hurt one us apart stuff hich arrange get mom house cold dead empty like want end cant go back unhappy person him helped feel happy gone miss much miss children want die,1 +nobody cares menobody sees hard fighting carei know belong herei borni died twin probably would thrived well likedim ready leave herewhy death come easy life even dying failurei cannot anything righti someone anyone wantsfriends partners family nonemy father died youngi want go meet belong,1 +hate existential crisis people telling do corrupted government poor educational system hate get glaucoma hate living find ways get college degree work probably work whole life die even asked anyway want broken family functioning eye depression last thing want depressed begging attention comfort friends show vulnerable feels shit craving attention love incapable loving damn right thought life going well last night spiralled got degrading comment ah yes asian achieved anything s boo hoo visually impaired realizing pointless life is family work notredflag basically existing itself screw supernatural shit life everything else nothing exciting games movies junk foods makes forget shitty life is food tastes crap weather gloom could throw everything away including would happywhen kid life pretty colorful grey boring fuck guess what adult means deal lifes crap oh bread winner too tf earth,1 +try put there try more anxious depressed drained one time anymore applying places months get goddamn house get rejected ignored sought therapy find available find joy things wanted dedicate life to think anything right slashing wrists open letting drain die care anymore point exhausted every option,1 +wassup hope everyones nice day days going pretty smoothly yours finished essay last minute phew,0 +sometimes look couples shows think aw want seems special,0 +think redditor passed away serious reddit account said could die within week comment within month dead heres post httpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentslbtumso_the_doctor_just_said_that_i_could_die_next_weekutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare hope got enjoy life even get way,0 +weird contract myselfsometimes thing gives comfort idea cant get job end year sign time leave stress life worth theres nothing look forward life expensive familyfriendspartnerdependents anyway wouldnt affect anyone,1 +yeah im pretty smooth women dms irl fucking choke like fucking mia malkova mia khalifas love child,0 +stumbled series rather accident half episode hooked american gothic dark strange series gary cole mysterious probably evil sheriff buck trying gain control illegitimate son caleb played lucas black impressed gary coles sinister sheriff even impressed lucas black lucas blacks caleb able stand sheriff buck one frightening characters ever created tv series rarely seen child actor much presence talent lucas black lucky enough see lucas american gothic see slingbladebr br it remarkable show many ambiguities mysteries never explained short run,0 +february took time took clark cabin september second trip decided search job redding late october moved redding clark would call update medical credential process going would share family would always repeat me manuel dont know much longer handle fast pace bay area people rush dont even know rush for one new grievances avenue lives jokingly calls expressway sound constant vehicle traffic definitely contrast area previously filled orchards,1 +lot comments seem treat film baseball movie feel secondary really living japan really succeedsbr br i spent years living japan suppose reason movie well sort experienced japan get it watching welltravelled friend whos never japan noted many events movie ludicrous destroyed suspension disbelief reply events absolute unvarnished truth life japanbr br i think movie definitely worth watching especially lived japan interested it,0 +dark lorax wip lorax speak trees litter again ill break fucking knees lorax knew one thing better all knew thing better dinosaurs roar trees cant harmed lorax armed pulled sniper could kill like viper shot onceler littering wanker fired shots shot one chest head knee onceler one second bed next second dead know warning blunt directed littering cunts lorax speak trees one man dead thats me,0 +ive never felt would call depression life turned upside cos long term relationship failed finding x started sleeping bestfriend less thena weeks belonging halfed life keep thinking everything knew failed one thing fucked im falling head keep thinking killing know wrong know solves nothing know make things worse still care know act anymore,1 +something really wrong meso im really struggling moment lots things staying home really messed schoolwork im back school now found grades beginning fall im getting worried final grades good enough ive heard many people tell end world desired feel like is talents skills interests passions decent personality succeed life so grades thing im sort good provides chance getting somewhere idea want future finish school end year still clue all everyone else idea im confused really many friends either ive cut lot family so life lonely lot time deal devastating social anxiety held back many times even caused stupid things last couple days done nothing besides school mostly stayed room looking phone motivation anything anymore used like making videos playing keyboard try feel it even feel motivated play video games anything bad is little hope myself dealing suicidal thoughts couple years though ive set dates never gone end supposed done beginning year scared always im stuck,1 +hate im back herei tried commit redflag little year ago im bad place wish successful particular needwant posting this wanted express it seriously nothing offer world before time gone im burden family friends little offer beyond paying rent course fair share taxes,1 +damn it god hell looks cool like i rewatched hazbin one sec early s radio talk show hosts power gods ratcheted wasteland fighting laws hell ya beacause stuff watchplay connection hell helltaker mmmmmmm fuck want go hell,0 +people like dont make farmy family good looking like might face homelessness get hell dont know happen torchers rich families gove kids free k ride hope education even roof head either die wait awhile die anyways,1 +still herethis past year fucking roller coaster emotions four different times ive came close acting plans end life thing thats stopping dog things never would thought hed thing keeping alive adopted pound time ive him hes became attached me moved away college last semester parents would report back hed search mope around couldnt find me dont know overwhelming guilt dog would shattered not time though im actually little scared flunked semester lost two scholarships made college possible parents kicking out im afraid might true end wont able take care dog ill end inevitability failing like everyone else life situation hitting like is im hardest time sleeping thoughts ending life slip mind maybe deed make world better place anyways sorry wasting time today,1 +one last chanceim sorry ranting randomly im laying bed looking ceiling killing me basically ive decided give one last chance letting go finally ctb good while people started following content liking im doing ive gotten bit exposure im working one huge project want succeed want live life knowing live thanks work love work hard for honest im scared im terrified fails honest think dying every single day somehow project work keep going however really end failing unable live passion im ending it im tired nothing people know get whatever want snapping fingers im tired all sorry rant,1 +asked friend sunsets sunrises like they look same like bitch tf,0 +feel little less sadi posted couple days ago ended one best things ive done found someone helps feel alone still wanna die pretty regular basis ive got good people now wanna say thank getting day got lot messages helped got talk someone else openly redflag without feeling guilty trapped really nice wanted encourage help please know make difference,1 +mardi gras made china provides wonderful intricate connection popular culture nudity globalization making tossing beads saw film international film festival boston expecting dry introduction globalization got riveting visual display shocking footage china united states eyeopening film humorous indepth serious nonpatronizing leaves wanting credits role worth comparing murderball simply well done young women workers china various points view owner amazingly open discipline revelers carnival highlight excellent film provides indepth context inside factory china without narration bravo filmmaker getting inside finishing film would never thought connection beads china new orleans think human connection almost every object also role globalization inequality fun importantly make connections without feeling sense guilt watching film unlike films globalization ive seen,0 +want drink deathand even drink seems like good way go think primarily loneliness gets me hate it want end,1 +first time seriously considering redflagive sad long last month ive sad cant take longer took steps help years good job absolutely fit gym bjj everything superpower would miserably sad every day want keep suffering cant take longer swear know anymore,1 +close giving upgive up dont much left family know it incredible irreplacable man makes smile sometimes see nothing else lost house two weeks homeless real best friends turned faux uni sucks therefore grades suck hometown people talk shit me oh may hpv symptoms may virus reason live hoping turn fine maybe thinking failed every way possible homeless two weeks isnt much is overwhelming tired today birthday say happy birthday all not whatever may end anyway,1 +movies loved almost everyone come across yet happen boxoffice failures andaz apna apna intelligent hilarious comedy falls catogory once indian director kept mind sensibilities audience churned kader khan type stereotypical hoax movie two guys dream riches try accomplish wooing millionaires daughter humorous drama unfolds lot complexities surface story complexities add sheer comedy entire plot aamir khan plays streetsmart guy salman khan gives unexpectedly good performance dumb guy villian played paresh rawaland henchmen junior ajit kaliaa make laugh sleep although movie borrows lot movies despite shoddy camerawork despite loud times remains one scarce funny movies bombay come movies like padosan golmal amol plaekar movies sad well boxoffice means producers turn back formulas creativity abandoned,0 +number day day a aa a aa,0 +honestly put existenceso many things happened life lately pushes ending all drug addict sister abused parents hospital baby severe health issues due drug use pushed mom finals mediocre grades im years graduating even though graduated year financial debt got mostly racked school letting boyfriend take advantage me im still abusive relationship years ago recent ex take seriously abusive relationship opened old wounds fell madly love someone terrible again broke thinking going life without makes feel alone honestly life gotten better ive gotten used disappointment grief loneliness im think im finally going kill end year,1 +nothing helps thoughts fantasies redflagno kind words supportive messages positive events goddamn thing theyre temporary highs end back pit depression graduate high school cool happy dont care start making hr fresh high school working dream job cool happy stoked back suicidal ideation get project car keep busy cool fun back depression nothing fuckin helps ever always comes back always sticks around always sittin back head waiting tiniest crack shield blast go hey fuckface time killed yourself eh heres million ways it get thinkin matter tells itll get better dont matter whos support me matter good things happen life fucking pisses off feeling like this ive got pretty damn good life thinking id better foot under makes hate even more think big part isolated people much long know feel anything else thats case going get milestones worse im done school forced interact people age ive got like close friends never willingly hang out know to keep busy occupied kind work mind races they really like you road come back sweat buckets heart pounds hard feels like gonna rip chest stumble damn near every word versus like sentence cause know socialize everyone says im hard worker got good work ethic im dedicated boils im fuckin scared anything but work cause mind takes suicidal dreams begin fuckin stop im scared im tired want end,1 +would butso im writing am despite psychiatrist appointment early tomorrow work need talk this im writer least was had feel like ive lost talent writing book genius slowly got worse worse writers block pretty much stopped lost best friends once ive isolated two years straight used lovable carefree fun despite depressed even back then would still full life friends loved make people laugh everyone told comedian id get high friends push shopping cart went funny tangeants got sorts trouble cant even smoke pot anymore anxiety roof body feels sort way get panic attack really bad panic attack anything set influence drugs alcohol feeling nauseous especially public anyways rekindled one old friends same might sound narsicistic im trying honest always pretty friend im simply put it dont get compliments anymore dont feel beautiful anymore fact feel extremely ugly inside out im conflicted nervous wreck let go period isolation gained ton weight already little chubby that developed eating disorder really torn fuck apart lost weight cost something pounds most chubby morbidly obese anything im something lost starving myself ive tried start eating since job would always feel nauseous eating couldnt deal like said intense fear throwing up dont need rhat top already crippling anxiety associated leaving house mental part still much there still feel absolutely disgusting never ever good enough big nose fat thighs flat butt ive lost beautiful thick hair starvation im piece shit writing thing again therapist recently said something talking wanted author said something along lines actually writer think youre writer hurt ive writing years didnt beat stopping enough already anyways point im low low past years want end bad problem is im live mom shes single hell back child recently lost husband parents brother grandma span half decade shes strong strong enough deal finding dead daughter either purple swollen hanging bloody disfigured shooting myself dont want destroy like that thats all friend boyfriend know fact would able carry on mother though dont want die simply dont want hurt her know wont live im selfish fucks sake dont know do waiting around really driving farther farther insanity passing day thoughts became dark violent dont know fuck anymore way medication dont see switching since anti depressant doesnt cause weight gain,1 +dieso came reasons ive depressed three years mostly laying bed nothing ive mental hospital times even finished high school leech parents im pedophille aspergers syndromediagnosed make up psychosis depression everyday take kinds medication none help ive though cannibalismeating people ive hit mother couple times tortured girl history depression every body pretty much hates me im lowest form human being cannot concetrate enough even read book memory completely shot connections lost also necrophille bunch pariphillias im horrible traits combined one human being single redeeming quality have ive stolen money mom people ive leeched governemnt programs country one failed redflag attempt also like adolph hitler think hes really inspiring watch speeches read autobiography im practically neo nazigood luck everyone save me say change,1 +anyone ever gotten spark backwhile highschool constant interaction coupled long distance girlfriend gave loads energy would get xbox yelling attack names narutostorm friends irl made alot people smile acted well graduated highschool keep keeping contact friends girlfriend broke up grandma killed end year around time moms bipolar disorder got control started drugs practically babysit her ended falling asleep wheel car busting headlight whole time ive room playing dragonball fighterz work fedex wake am everyday go work everyone asks im ok people around inside joke depression reflects face honestly idea do ive never face face relationship ive lost depression wake feel horrible almost driven road angry shitty self reflections times want energy back supposed do,1 +aight bois im going sewerslide irs fun bois n gorls filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +venting life cant handle life anymore ive alot happier parents made life hell every day yelled cussed dad unparalleled amount reasons hell call fucking idiot things similar alot hurts force keep straight face fear yelled more admittedly get alot probably enough chores should cant see justified maybe wrong here makes relapse suicidal thoughts makes lose motivation anything including playing online talking friends hate life sometimes them motivation work screamed work caught up debating telling mom everything here know younger brother thing holding parents marriage together even said got chance shed leave behind buy home beach mom alright yell call things sometimes definitely understanding two either sit feeling like nothing get old enough leave home add onto everything dad said ever get jailed ever caught trying commit redflag hed kill me,0 +self sure approach professional helpthis throwaway account feel fantasies jumping third floor university quite often though necessarily feel near future days wish sort trigger makes go it want seek professional help like therapist know could afford someone meaningfully relatable feel depression continues like years come end inevitably instead therapy mostly selfmedicate depression weed options longterm therapeutic help someone could develop close connection understanding with like friend,1 +ever angel death like mimsy farmer barbet schroeders s heroin opus sort jean seberg hypodermic pink floyd score despite ultimately insignificant weaknesses classic shamelessly ripped erich segalnoel black inept jennifer mind although tippy walker playing similar character junkieappealing latter mess more though terrific great s drug movie and simply important document time much cult film join cultbr br no american movie then far remember charts territory mimsys astonishing archetype elevating mythic realms fainthearted great sex scenes too,0 +im problemi want cut open dead,1 +distracteda recent experience made feel comfortable enough know want life going days ago got distracted realised happy distracted it going tonight light spliffs get nice toasty relaxed itll over doesnt scare least even excite me,1 +kinda funny year ago wrapped truck around tree want pictures find account imagine walking around crash site bill wurtz audio i bad thing,0 +little vera story russian teenager family attempts find meaning value life sliding increasingly decay search meaning falls love intellectual rebellious sergei whose hatred deeply flawed parents quickly spirals controlbr br little vera shocking disturbing nearly every way drinking father enabling lack understanding mother casual lies misdirection brother vera forgiving flaws shocking slightly disturbing watch however raw honesty film somehow manages become even shocking plot characters set cramped spaces vast urban decay little vera presented vastly different view soviet life ever seen before fact little vera portrait collapse soviet society painted shades pain desperation rust implosion family set implosion entire social orderbr br although painful desperately unsatisfying film definitely worth seeing understand feelings cultures still reshaping russia today,0 +tf heart hurting pain physical metaphors,0 +el mar tough stark utterly brilliant brave work cinematic art director agust villaronga adaptation antoni aloy biel mesquida blai bonets novel created film traces profound effects war minds children exposure wrecks havoc adult lives though focus wars heinous tattoo children transference like effects soldiers citizens adult age clear film becomes one finest antiwar documents without resorting pamphleteering end result far greater impact inherent story following childrens march toward adulthoodbr br a small group children shown spanish civil war spain threatened blackouts invasive nighttime slaughtering citizens ramala nilo mur tur david lozano julia sergi moreno francisca victoria verger witness terror assassination men revenge drives one murder suicide wideeyed children become adults carrying psychic disease trauma repressed mindsbr br we encounter three survive adulthood confined tuberculosis sanitarium ramala roger casamajor survived male prostitute protected john morell juli mira kept life style private tur bruno bergonzini become frail sexually repressed gay male whose cover commitment catholicism blur delusional selfmutilationcrucifixion francisca antnia torrens become nun serves patients sanitarium three rejoined environment sanitarium slowly reveals scars childhood experiences war tur longs ramalas love ramala longs free morell francisca must face internal needs covered white nuns habitbr br the setting sanitarium provides graphic plane thin thread life death lust love devotion destruction played out detail would destroy impact film individual viewer suffice say graphic sex full nudity involved in stunningly raw footage yet captured film viewer prepared witness every form brutality imaginable viewer scenes utmost importance director villaronga applauded perseverance bravery making story intense actors children adults splendid roger cassamoor bruno bergonzini antnia torrens especially fine inordinately difficult roles cinematography jaime peracaula haunting musical score javier navarrete serve directors vision tough film this one highly recommended unafraid face horrors war aftermath spanish english subtitlesbr br grady harp,0 +burger king nutted fish sandwich bruh looks like someone said shit u c e time replace n u t looks n,0 +dont even know try anymorei dont know im begging help am depressed cant anymore want die please please someone talk it dont want hurt person love most hes care,1 +took write easy task difficult understand want say sorry fucking confused difficult express myself always troubles keeping level confidence high part life happy stuck spiral bad things happened last couple years finished masters covid hit hard unable work couple months ago living abroad realized friends always you basically spent almost two years couch almost gave professional life felt good enough colleagues nasty relationship years crumbling apart strength fight did thing comes mind disappearing know deal it sorry look like real problem needed vent courage talk friends family lost,1 +death welcoming meits kind strange lately every time think redflag every time see something sharp feel someones drawing lines wrist even though cut throat thats noose supposed be im partially worried a honestly give shits anything anymore lost ability feel things long ago b im afraid strange used think sad people would killed myself one cares me actually kind welcoming guys think im setting goal living january although goal seeming less less likely days ill honestly surprised live past september know guys really tempting answer calls something holding back knows maybe post get lost sea posts thanks anyone reads feels nice get,1 +last time talked lifeline ended chat within minutes time told take deep breaths showed concern all care want people think help not help pain deathon different note wish mom take away knife want cut entire body scars every inch show people serious say need help downplay it bet dead think i wish signsi reason live want mom grieve me said die kill herself pretty much support gives mom dies me ill kill myselfthere words describe pain feel building almost entire life suicide lifeline care,1 +friend attempting redflag speak helpa classmate mine texting killing im trying tell call ambulance dont know address cant call her im trying talk telling someone help im luck please help me stopped responding dont know contact anyone get her edit discovered last name school given name number hopefully find time thank much would helpless without advice thank you edit hours silence started receiving strange texts her unintelligible texts like akhgjhaegf kej kajehjaeg called spoke person spoken earlier today informed friend tracked down police sent house wellness check turns already visited emergency responders tells alone house someone found her thank god still thankful you reddit helping could little had really truly appreciate it hopefully friend heal get back track happiness thank reddit,1 +im emotionally messed fix myselfrecently family completely ignored me dont seem care way shape form me ive always extremely sensitive emotional person im really self conscious almost everything myself grandfather probably person listened say person cared im sure im going now im worried im going something ill regret,1 +dont knowi dont even feel like belong here im constant balance slightly numb daydreaming redflag ive done everything fucking feel something past months ive cut many fucking times finally stopped weeks ago bled much thought hit vein although sometimes wish had wouldnt deal fucking noise around me bullshit many ideas many people think know all canmt tune anymore feel like everything coming end im shouldnt fucking go this sounds selfish feel it wish didnt aware everything falling apart around me wish didnt people age shaming putting acting bullshit thats going on im tired nothings getting better im drunk mind right now im trying make things coherent forgive this fuck pointless want drink cant move,1 +idk even trywhy havent given turned alcohol die like dads side family did around see smart people me dumb motherfucker online college accounting first assignment already struggling hard remember everything smart good math ill study like hours day think meanwhile someone else breeze by everything fucking difficult me especially bad depression anxiety yrs wont go away joke ill also die forever alone zombie surviving long,1 +pleasantly surprised find enjoyable film kept attention throughout horror fan see almost everything genre dead line managed freak out pace cleverly set andrs bagg good performance desperate man underneath main plot trip madness end like that martin sanders ask self sees homeless speaking self alone street close end film character aaron mandel asks question sees another homeless thing knowing yet homeless martin sanders answering question beginning film broken eyeglasses two clear symbol rupture division personality ending jaw dropping know sequel would made,0 +need someone talk toas title says explain little detail father recently passed away im stuck crossroad life nowhere go every time take step forward take ten steps back im lost getting closer redflag really care gets lost needed somewhere vent,1 +saw television years ago remember never forgot performance sammy davis jr chance thought look video rendition porgy bess treasure would love see introduce son well cant imagine heralded one greatest performances sammy davis jr every gave whoever responsible bringing audiences ashamed hisher ignorance continue look though maybe execs responsible things come realize forgotten work many african american actors,0 +know mebetter anyone know every little tiny detail cant hide anything you youve known longer known me longer mother has youve seen every part life tell everything ever happened excruciating detail start finish know happened know things made feel know things affected me whether knew not must also know feel ive seen much ive much must know want out must know feel like game isnt worth playing anymore im running around circles waiting die things ive experienced left empty desire see another day ive given up wont get better irreparably scarred battered broken seen much hard work nothing nobody cares dont even care long go sleep last time understand please dont make wake world life ever again,1 +susan sarandon is lack better word incredible opinion and yes understand everyone agree here one greatest actresses ever least oscars credit mean amazing performance lorenzos oil but think every performance amazing gave emma thompsonwhat about time got oscar shed industry years think anyone deserved more especially performance brilliant portrayal sister helen prejean again artificiality hollywood need oscar people know good anywaybr br this film carries deep thoughtprovocing messages needless say taken lightly tim robbins course cant escape credit here would think that person feelings death penalty portrayals made movie accurate however sides deathpenalty debate given even weight one side see interesting side matthew human side makes witnessing death rather heartwrenching time see way savaged victims constant torment understandably griefstricken parents one word tim bravobr br a brilliant movie and like said welldeserved long awaited oscar susan,0 +seems like im one doesnt crush sub every post see talking asked crush got rejected girls know either pieces shit lesbian like one trust wont spread rumors stab back much ask,0 +cant anything righti cant even choose right tea wanted thought would self soothe bought wrong kind even little things cant help mess up drink wrong kind top literally everything else going wrong right,1 +try riddle small thumb light air may hear see me trust there i,0 +like thisi keep thoughts redflag cant seem stop them keep thinking easy would life over leaving everything behind soon exwife kids could much better dad parents family take granted look child im pathetic hate god damned much cant stop it want change different want stop feeling depressed anxious weak want stop feeling like burden want stop feeling like life value cant change that im tired im scarred everything im laying holding doe like heavy weight dont know am thought turns others expected be thought im ready disappear selfish im ready leave behind cant live cant change feel like never ill fat slob version forever whats point people might say kids would good reason know love matter time mess lives disappoint too never thought life would like ,1 +lets make song together words per person let start upon,0 +really adult ft fault theirsmy mom asked looking job because yknow hit im adult capable adult things like told everyone else asked bad wanted kill school idiot doctors think way theyve asked ive socializing school going plan school ends like every minute im awake spent thinking much id love cover room walls blood ive told stupid pills work said i notice changes they _the months said magic pills help me_ said wanted start testosterone said unstable would higher risk killing started _after telling months pills are helping im getting better_ fuck everyone going hear say want kill say _we hear understand anyways almost plans future_ real kicker professional idiots heard say _i hate living_ _i stopped taking pills_ believed next month said _everything ok_ _ive taking pills_ last years change mind transgender think ill change mind now ive told feel always _oh old enough decide_ _youre stable enough_ ask uncertain future functioning member society adult makes old stable enough _now_ warned _very_ long time ago think worth much trouble im sure ill dead decided try anyway im room wishing final push really funny mom pissed told spent whole day cutting myself even going tell her said glad stopped messaging tell feel self destructive got head thought depression gone took sharp things ok though doesnt know about,1 +told closest person suicidal ive feeling want go even morehe said id selfish causing lot pain people care despite this ive lot longer want stick around lot gone right life including relationship him mattered me also chest post anyone read relates descendence depression told truthfully love care him im thankful everything done including wish helped make come true saying loved want anything happen me changed mood sudden even hold hand talk really im spending night im scared leave hell never talk makes even sad hopeless want kill much sooner personal deadline jan th sorry lack format whatever care much right now,1 +im stressed male suffering patchy hair loss really tryed everything since itforst started years ago doctors told stress id grow back naturally case alsotryed multiple shampoos got patches back head around sides first wasnt noticeable started get jet black patches growing was nice light brown panicked booked consultation dermatologist straight away also quickly dismissed case saying stress im stressed great life regularly gym always happy couldnt get much worse top head started majorly thinning shedding also small circle black patches hair forming light thick hair see started really itch al itchy small spots occasionally thought ill see dermatologist surely cant ignore wrong really didnt careat felt like awnsering questions stressed life ruined cantgo without hat hood im devastated it tryed full head shave absolutely hated really dont suit it eyebrows seem shedding spots getting worse mean much put with spend day everyday looking help cant find im fed trying different things ive changed diet tryed many medical shampoos gp tryed coconut oil regaine minoxidil vitamins including zinc tryed eating plenty veg high fibre foods yet carrying cant seem find anyone whos hair turned black nothing sentence happening anyone relate please justwant life back affecting relationship becauseim upset time feel discusting know look stupid couldnt even watch child school play im literally house bound feel like dying whats point anymore one help im going left rott away maybe ishould favor end quick im stressed unreal,1 +easily one best shows ever made gets better agebr br for one chief reasons english adaptation done david weirbr br a japanese friend mine told show original language whimsical less flatout hilarious version knowbr br the fact show resonates strongly nonjapanese fans think largely mr weirs inspired efforts winning voiceover workbr br well done sir,0 +looked ocean blue eyes glistering nightsky sitting there looking nightsky always fascinated secrets fo space like fascinated gorgeus smile im glad see happy brings slight joy me however wondered id ever enough,0 +roast meeeeeeeeee miss dumb roasts people would like th grade plz roast,0 +people cut selfharmwhat use body part treat wound hide it often it feel better regretful afterwards worth it lot questions mind wanna know others feel it,1 +leaving place manager attempting rush us get apartment serviced hour notices intimidation behaving angry way leaving mean voicemails papers pissed door yelled lived with toward last months documenting everything collecting paper copies communication her another narcissistic manager tenant animal abuser wish actual law aspca would partner coulda helped living second apartment,1 +today birthday wanted something friend know virus used think would time birthday came are anyway rewatched lord rings return king th time didnt regret wanted something friends,0 +fucked againi tried jump cart metro could jump considering redflag police interposition might succeed,1 +college essays wanna remind fellow teens theyre probably going reddit escape reality could offer advice write kickass essay im ears thanks guys lt,0 +accept fact literally funny secy struggle cant,0 +ah classic comedy point movie brains get messed together two minute scene bruce campbell beating partially reminds simplistic movies ideas grab wrap whole moviebr br for years years bruce campbell knows kind movies want him want see weird movies like bubba ho tep want see cameo roles sam raimi movies want see man screaming brain title alone one knows going border completely silly type movie like army darkness silly less monstersbr br the idea movie simple bruce sees doctor doctor new idea bruce gets bad things happen way see doctor coincidentally thing doctor wanted show saves him hilarity ensuesbr br with addition ted raimi weird russian guy journeyman stacy keach dr ivan ivanovich ivanov funny movie complete funny never point scarybr br if like silly bruce campbell like this again would watching like bruce campbell,0 +im living ghosti dead died years ago thing shell was im hell think redflag attemp years ago actually worked hell im living in,1 +cool mobile games one handed gameplay im looking left arm fucking broke,0 +medical industry ie psychologist psychiatrist thrive gives men purpose designed control population engage act reproductionpick poison money god eventually sides steal hard work sides great stealing good creating original ideas killed feelings either drugs smoking depression realism thing,1 +bitches really thinking arent cute think arent cute ima say wrong fam ur cute thats final,0 +im invisiblegranted im known many acquaintances zero friends often repeating called friends listen dont hear frankly give shit ive suffering bipolar disorder manic depression upwards years told myseld could make past yrs things would get better ive hospitalized recently september staff basically said treat us monitor us stable meds fit leave family raised foster care system im completely alone see point living anymore im constantly mental agony ignored used every level ive taken care people thought friends much love give misguided usual end used thrown like tissue ignored blatantly cant keep job stability often rocked uncontrollable emotions outbursts cant cope anymore im losing hope honestly would like someone acknowledge alive sensitive real person even know curb feelings thoughts redflag closest friends growing passed either redflag excessive drug use im honestly debating path without im alone ever idk reddit place least im getting one outlet speak real feelings ive sought therapy psych meds seems like never want hear bad try silver lining struggles saying im strongim tired exhausted strong allowed vulnerable get real help rx bandaid work,1 +among us rated read title filler filler filler yo momma jk jk jk jk jkj j k k jk,0 +honest scale horny rn dont lie plus nobody judge,0 +whats favorite kink asking friend find kinks interesting it,0 +always giggle little hear name maria like know giggle,0 +please clear skin bad acne dark acne scars hyperpigmentation im black go away whenever see father scars first thing points out embarrassing especially even notice time people quick remind ive tried many things seem never work whats worse im always optimistic hopeful new skincare routine inevitably work feel like idiot even insecure before also hate pretty girls flawless skin complain one minuscule pimple cheek something smile nod like skin look like bubble wrap,0 + year todaytoday moms birthday would lost battle cancer years ago best friend person really life grew especially close caretaker going treatments one point stopped progressing eventually slipped away since losing ive lost motivation keep going purpose life anymore ive always issues suicidal thoughts losing made much worse reason havent done yet keep thinking things might get better ive trying different things thought would help moved city enrolled school fall nursing im sure takes make through ive also trouble getting job since moved here also mention still closet late s unsupportive family thought moving away would good me decided year today things gotten better would end life hopefully find sort fulfillment this meantime still applying jobs preparing school hopefully work courage try dating app see,1 +or weird habit someone one person two group whatever whenever theres someone around feel like even need pee moment alone realise need pee bad really hoping aint alone,0 +one identifie succubus curious meow meow nyah got fill word limit meow meow nyah,0 +imagine hating someone theyre slightly different post made people accept people,0 +people ur online friend group live city u meet ur irl friend group oh shouldve moved states study mean plan dumb im interconnected web lies really lies would reveal different versions different people plus online group knows nickname idk rmbr real name fbscdiscord alt accs deleted dont know look like showed em pic ages ago dont contact anymore like irl group mutualsfriends online group go mia socials restart different users irl group contact mainly via phone number nickname kinda unique irl essentially groups know schoolreal namenickname if anyone online group rmbrs is heck even go uni online ones em go uni irl friends different uni friends according fb,0 +first saw showed around easter time think much then bought dvd last summer started getting michael jackson i liked music before enjoyed older good film classic film like sound music west side story wizard oz etc michael jackson actor good cast members disturbing scenes like little girl katie getting slapped gangster frankie lideo played joe pesci scene frightened younger michael turns robot favourite song film smooth criminal think better thriller opinion,0 +im going kill myselfmy name donald faurschou im love family even though dont show it pet snake grow marijuana want someone remember get pushed edge please someone remember useless sociopathic drug addict,1 +timeim going lay train tracks today thanks support,1 +im female reddit idek else say,0 +imagine failing invade finland art,0 +feeling really weird strange feelingnothing works me miserable idiot one life talk to get with suicide call,1 +emoji absolutely terrifying ampxb it thing nightmares,0 +lauren himmels debut movie well directed nice polished feel it theres strong storyline going meaningful point even end nothing resolved hence name treading water storyline revolves around lesbian couple battle ones mother acceptance ,0 +ive got go school least better home lol ,0 +anyone else felt pretty useless entire time cuz swore going learn least something useful havent done shit made reflect like hell,0 +saw movie years ago still remember saw recently much movie affected mebr br considering movie s think ahead time surprised maintains integrity subject might considered taboo back then realistic showing tumultuous heartwretching journey addict chooses embark on one imagine audiences affected realism movie back daysbr br i personally think one frank sinatras top five performances big screenbr br when others discussing movies dealing mental illness andor addiction always recommend man golden arm one top five watch,0 +posting everyday get first kiss day awkward moment half chapter novel reccuring spelling mistake,0 +im really edge need talk someone call crisis hotline come get meim bi polar running low meds take mg seraqueal day oh ya wife tryin best take son away psych blantantly told im amsociopathanti social personality disorder mom caught lies stealing even like im dead her her words friendsand cant go inpatient ruin chances father thats want life severly phiscally sexually abused child long time im nothing maby ben son would better life without me im stupid iq play read musical instruments ampi write poetrysongsjournal cant even concentrate eat took min type this someone please help,1 +yeah real love ever matched discord friends ampxb httpspreviewredditpboxxzwspngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffbefeadb,0 +want anything one likes nothing makes happy anymore feel like exist expense others job mum pays pretty much everything pretty sure want life anymore autistic talk people make meaningful friendships know fact nobody ever love me want stop existing get terminal disease worry future anymore want browse internet rest life like already do want stop existing sake everyone knows me see living past ,1 +choicewhat someone theres nothing left world girl loved dumped yet gonna still living place together shes got new man person use talk getting married kids family life completely destroyed father said longer problem terrible things wish could stop mother whose suffered much continues to powerless help her one life trust talk one ended betraying feeling completely pointless anything life fails anyways knowing theres one ever flat one left dark unable anything pain left last years theres one option left thats make pain stop pain come point cant fight anymore cant sleep wanna drink im scared end cant seem find painless way die ways many risks hurt alot during wish way legally end it wont stop hurting im trapped,1 +homeless fucking gain fmli cant fucking fucking bs fuck man im fucking done,1 +cant sleepits am thing keep thinking waste space know keep putting this arrogance people saying oh people care feel first cares me second supposed live agony someone else get sad im gone want put fucking head wall want scream want thrash just idk want be,1 +basil rathbone nigel bruce return sherlock holmes dr watson superior tale holmes battling rd reich mastermind genius professor moriarty film opens switzerland holmes disguise old bookseller must bring dr tobel tobel bomb site england germans kidnap tobel holmes succeeds germans recuit evil professor moriarty manages outwit scotland yard lestrad dennis hoey kidnapping tobel clue left tobel list dancing men break hidden code dancing men holmes moriarty first holmes prevent bomb site falling german hands thereby saving england precision bombing techniques developed tobels bomb site watch enjoy,0 +husband blindsided told wants divorce today tired me include redflag notei dont want anyone else im tired life,1 +rickroled little sister parents bought sis new bluetooth headphones could online school stuff mom asked set see worked think guess song played test them,0 +little success finding one free text therapy apps,1 +fucking hypocrisy ok bully gay people ok bully wanting futa fox mommy gf fuck you fuck haters fuck bigots,0 +need helpbut know get it im done life want die knowing happens die scares me im point starting matter less less im scared im going end killing myself,1 +thought id share know lot like video games recommendation beyond wire ww tactical shooter made cooperation developers squad based base game opinion extremely enjoyable much fun last days playing it really think check maybe youtube something still early access need ironing still incredibly fun slow paced needs action packed want be thought id recommend maybe could give small dev team support allow easily achieve potential also amazing soundtrack anyway thanks reading guys,0 +reason im suicidal sex lifei sexually dead cant honest anyone hurts much core reason cant bear living want know sexuality want kind identity want actually live,1 +cough accidentally break rule another subreddit someone messaging me replying messages reread rules realized completely skipped one we allow people request offer solicit encourage express openness to ask others message them blocked them so report mods leave it,0 +lets forget important things harry broke bro code therefore ron right punch face,0 +ever stalked someones profile open see posted something like right second feel psychic,0 +saw movie expected cheesy american movie done cheap appalling actors really surprised find totally wrong movie centres around bartely b rejected colleges actor play b natural makes character seem real decides create pretend school parents stop harassing him however loads people see fake website join feeling sorrows b cant turn away much chagrin best mate college ideal place learning want nothing school faces opposition proper college ends closing down film ends high recommend watching it flaws feel good cheerful film unpredictable twists,0 +life sucksive meaning commit redflag now everything gone downhill me yesterday found girlfriend left another guy self esteem depleted nothing now im broke person made life worth living left someone else years relationship problems thin air anyways gun thinking killing soon nothing live for im drinks already im ready note written none matter soon crazy worked hard throughout life im broke soontobe wife left ass hope reads redflag note hope haunts her,1 +know doi need let out dunno do current relationship falling apart relationships fallen apart mess everything hate myself makes hate more one love someone like that get it really think im good enough ever get together im weak let things get fall useless burden over ive like forever tell im gonna try harder never happens depressed ever real reason be life come kicked around like everyone else im pretty sure made worse know everything could make things better dont need help know one else me energy anything it moved hometown current bf whole family lives here nice know talk to real friends here acquaintances think people need hear problems bf having hate dragging people down wish could make happy get depressed screw up last time fought told kill get with said mean things too apologized said mean it really think hes right hes home alot lately want come home find dead cause thats awful thing someone time kind do edit see problem soon post this immediately feel guilty making anyone read whining stop feeling guilty existing time,1 +know depression lifestyle cannot complain anymore one remember die fuck it live life way want ever fuck want probably might make feel okay cannot remember happy feels like anymore fuck happiness act like like something depressed person paint like depressed person write like depressed person make art like depressed person always complaining hoping help normal people help survive surviveact like probably happy sadness stop grieving act like ,1 +trumpeters manifestoit belief everything life symbolic life itself certain objects events symbolic ideas past events art imitates life human mind gravitates idea life imitates life why dont like change much subject psychological torture boredom love repetition generational enveloped within homo sapiens since conception species therefore concept seeking change plus desire similarity makes us psychologically inept species still alive endowed ability shape environment landscape kill create change create society society creates us selfdestruct so incredibly vague conceited answers made account majority every manifesto time answer question made end first paragraph still alive ability ignore this emotions course varies person person general ignore it blessing ignore it caught emotions ignore psychological ineptitude second caught social circles people around us forget us never forget cant around people long dont like us awkward afraid around them either smart ignore situation life stupid try focus anything else life made events made people surfacelevel thinker events make lives determine quality life indubitably child home drinks dirty water stream subsaharan africa tougher life child billionaire firstworld country trying dispute all given privileged life living two safe neighborhoods uppermiddle class entire life given two nonabusive parents grandparents uncle aunt stable family structure minimal family drama dead lets start life growing up lived xxxxxxx xxxxx speech delayed tested autism given speech therapist prior this spoke bathtub letters would stick side shower spelling words phrases book goodnight moon memorized autism tests remained inconclusive instead found possess high intelligence based iq test given me speech therapy helped began speak quickly began speak full phrases shortly after whether speech delay based intelligence copious episodes baby einstein watched child parents dispute throughout early years school went xxxxxxx seen incredibly smart suggested change schools get gifted programs course could happen moved xxxxxx xxxxx perfectionist greatest fear average move xxxxxx create averageness exemplifies it moved first hotel still house hunting adjusting dads job position time spent days friend moms henceforth restricted things able do creativity ambition quite possibly intelligence point would ready public school think it wouldve fitting conditioning allowed conditioned kept spark xxxxxxx me course got loads trouble mothers friend break st grade time entered st grade lived average apartment went dull average school xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx means terrible school showing every day broke me couldnt smile got debate dogs things rest class hour and subsequently cried teacher told stop talking scribbled picture book published words want go back xxxxxxx thought horrifies day spite fact lived xxxxx xxxx years at time writing lived xxxxxxx broke broke broke throughout elementary school middle school high school molded average kid creativity ambition average grades average subset friends best friends living parents average jobs live average neighborhood driving two average sized cars average become thing hate therefore thought identifying xxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxx repulses point want cry havent cried years dont look mirrors often absolutely hate pictures taken me keeps sane away identity hate would foolish even think escape identity why impossible cannot wake one day throw every aspect identity window friends family grades possessions interests wrecked perverted sentimentality simply like old one old identity niche earth new shriveled out average one although lie create new one others see yet yet fail lies work may well one plagued great revelation turned into secret consequently tears apart inside dead hope someday dead may time writing even possible publication things turn planned probably thinking highly myself based highly thinking moment may may wondering called trumpeters manifesto mentioned before core belief everything life symbolic life itself would bore continue experience trumpet sum up started talented trumpet got braces handicap made less talented lost ambition play stuck high school band band hours every saturday early late friday times week tell wording dont want talk this dont you started talent ambition im forced play account talentless ambitionless hap empty shell was im going quit trumpet next year serve niche trumpet serve niche human trumpet player old school band empty shell girlfriend cant even keep happy wants kill every time speak gets worse disappointment everyone parents friends teachers significant other even people pass street line order restaurant serve niche earth whole ambition gain entry within higher institution whether college go work miraculously squeeze average rate make everyone around feel bad trying succeed yet despite lack ambition analyze anxiety paranoia every possible word others say every tonal shift every hint diction every element body language try act instincts hurt everyone around me things ive learned make am nothing careless void swallowing everything around sea misery drowns breathes hapless mistake cant solved mental health system usa worthless medication turns us unaware contentment alternative treatment strictly believe works get writing aside proof suicide muddled pretentious explanation it tell truth im dead im writing this write letter im upset like sadistic egomaniac want see grief sorrow peoples faces make people think couldve done reality me thats problem myself one perpetuates sorrow others make angry upset core personality archetype makes others upset me dont blame them shallow grief solved love back day later wouldnt ever want friends person thats point fulfilling egomaniafueled desire death closure thereby stopping perpetuation ego sadism grief wont able feel satisfaction peoples grief die wont able feel guilt and thereby sorrow guilt comes satisfaction ill stopped take villain save day end manifesto all dragon dead hes dead everything better now family friends weep mourn loss dragon cheers hes dead hes dead hes dead hate goddamn trumpet,1 +make official like recently told crush like her guess went well ask make official without looking weird,0 +im making painits funny live utter emotional turmoil probably even real reason anyway,1 +recommend subreddits pwease im bored ,0 +cant insulted dont understand insult,0 +quick reminder even though may seem like were golden age public highschool right school option either online classes person chose person getting bored hanging people everyday may realize school like mine work done electronically even things like notes worksheets basically ask guidance counselor sign online classes still option go school school like mine make argument case pops allowed show days still need get work done get best worlds want go weeknight cool stay home next day make sure log core classes everything need do wake feel like gaming day fuxking man ones stopping now shit easily cheesed feels like school formality point,0 +stuckstuck loveless relationship kept around give them pretty obvious stuck them family seeming mine abandoned randomly go either kids awful want now seeming im dealing roughly hours day take leave job handle stress im tired see light end tunnel redflag starting feel like answer,1 +hold now wait minute come on let catch breath ive heard promises ive seen mistakes ive fair share tough breaks need new voice new law new way take time reevaluate time pick pieces go back square one think time change,0 +tonight seems lasti depression throughout high school college college seeing therapist year recently got referred psychiatrist made redflag attempts really want leave behind gruesome corpse claim care find cant seem girl dated pain caused breaking months hungup ex three half years also binge drinking help found last night hope left getting back ex months honestly cannot write complete sentences right im looking outside playing body would displayed concrete jumped much blood would cut myself crying help friends seems like minor thing one really say anything to one understands would much happier leave world would debbie downer according friends one would worry done done cause pain go away better medication completely forget cannot stop crying everywhere right now gymclass walking outside picture body battered step take hoping random car thats driving slam free me cannot make nights without serious panic attacks help live alone wanted someone care would gone deep know one would dont want waste anyone elses time planet help ending life wish could taken seriously life would imagine much means complete stranger shows act kindness me burst tears means lot read far assure life worthless better forgotten,1 +reading this congratulations literate english read many books language,0 +redflag note im sorryhappiness doesnt seem possible trust me know people much worse do im also strong people think killing everyday gonna happen soon cut today times well hope burning feeling take away numb feel sob hard cant hear anymore genuinly feel numb cant feel sadness anymore cant feel anything want scream scream voice leaves completely scream everyone whos hurt knows badly theyve hurt me consider redflag note side note sorry anything isnt spelled correctly im typing quite fast kylie thank easy let go still love you think everyday please find someone treats better ever could deserve much life youre talented beautiful much potential please dont sad passing im happy now aaron bet didnt exspect this wanted thank many smiles low sadly im am time couldnt make happy since youre asleep love you thank sticking everyything alexis you thank trusting kinda luke oh start you mostly fault broke heart million peices chose it me thats really made decision this ruined me fuck you hope get everything deserve yesterday went work heard voice saw beautiful smile broke down know saw it smile more fuck fuck fuck you carlos breaking point didnt really know though left watch anime friend thats upset me im sorry im dramatic love you mom sissy gave hints gonna this nobody acted fast enough im sorry love you dad fuck max know need me need well dont understand depression well enough help im sorry love you danny know never see this really do reason stuck around long did sorce real smiles joyful laughs and rest grumps mean everything me would anthing you sadly cant anymore told this told stay alive im listining im sorry danny im sorry im trying working love moon back farewell im sorry goodbye,1 +girl instagram might crush girl saw instagram tried dming respond boyfriend followers guys suppose happens almost them know do,0 +first regular filmed columbo movie episode yet aired second steven spielbergs columbo murder book also time among one better onesbr br bernard l kowalski one great creative director wonder later asked direct three columbo movies movie real creative innovative shot sequences movie whole also clearly made style passion eye detail every shot connects reason movie better also better looking average made tv movie definitely one better directed columbo moviesbr br its quit original columbo entry couple reasons murder less accident impulsive act killer time time plan perfect murder advance clean traces afterward dispose body killer movie handled man committed crime man helps lieutenant columbo solve murder makes character interesting layered one well also helps make way columbo solves whole crime seem way interesting well that course columbo starts suspect pretty early always comes solution making vulnerable look stupid course truly gaining killers trust obviously spoiler since way every columbo movie gets setup liked story movie progressedbr br it also helps movie fine cast time movie peter falk really made columbo character character already fully developed robert culp truly great short tempered brimmer funny thing would later star three different columbo movies one mrs columbo episode totally different roles even played murderer couple movies well again way actor later columbo movies also great ray milland makes appearance movie husband victimbr br all all real great early columbo movie among better ones long running series moviesbr br ,0 +yesterday breakdown almost fully decided kill myself im scared happen dont know doim diagnosed depression many factors mix together caused depressed seriously thinking killing past two years best way would be serious problems ive dealt ones happened yesterday reason seemed really get me guess im lonely dont know anymore dont friends family trust love me yesterday got argument girl started talking basically friends girl im talking seems think im manipulating friend telling am sucks actually really like hurt would think that dont talk friends anymore ditched many times havent done anything wrong realized deserve better cut nobody talks dont talk nobody one specific friend mad asked order something online taking long shes asked proof cannot provide email moms asked order it rarely talk mom begin family issues seeing home rare things happened past hours close going everything dont know decided today isnt day im hurting lot im honestly scared myself dont know react next time something happens need advice do maybe situation improve happy whatever means ive gone doctors im comfortable talking things someone person like that seem get anxious become mute like purpose either cant seem talk someone things ive never able talk someone anything serious person help please ,1 +random thought people live boring lives birth learn learn learn learn get job job years years maybe theyll find love always good thing retire much do old probably understand current technology well maybe go back play minecraft something project end living boring life people better though things may easier things harder rich must nice,0 +saw movie jane austen addicted always feeling doubtful cinematographic rendering complexity novels well transposition simply accurate intelligent delicate careful tactful respectful intense word perfectbr br emma one austens delightful funny novels thanks overall irony pervading situations characters movie respected subtle irony disregarding comic element miss bates all engaged novel movie renders clearly deep knowledge human life shown english novelist modern look women men relation handled astounding think woman novelist th century lived almost secluded life could grasp depth truth life did still fascinates me feel modernity throughout movie replace costumes use current language situations feelings ideas would extremely modern think morbid interest peoples lives insinuating envy ever rule womens relations still difficulty revealing giving expression ones feelings especially love every situation gets universal outoftime value br br the cast really talented offer good extremely brilliant performances young gwyneth paltrow particularly suitable role nowadays would probably mature it toni colette simply great envied wonderful dresses could wear then breathtaking english countryside every situation gets magic dreamlike dimension really enjoyable deserving movie,0 +please listen httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvzvtyrdxo,0 +need someone tell gets betteri f dealing depression loneliness feelings unworthiness since think positive light daydream people perceive death feel wasted life want die instead enduring embarrassment failure singleness graduated may im living home parents arent necessarily supportive alright school wasnt best student certainly wasnt bad involved graduated college honors yet unemployed directionless please tell move home please tell move far away texas amp please tell life filled love possible,1 +selfhelp advice desperately wish known taken seriously years ago started feeling depressed please listen minute know everyones different things worked me consistently drink water general pushups situps jumping jacks whatever drink water after whole glass me pacing around room looking window breaks train thought gets depressing shit im thinking bit think piece shit always feel like piece shit are convinced are need compliment forgiving yourself tell not bad not total piece shit slowly gets better go walks outside able hell go bike ride can spend time outside general sincerely hope helps least little bit,0 +rlly random but anyone play cold war xbox youtube collab subs think would fun,0 +death copi dont gun airsoft knife african american however thats one thing going me im seriously considering redflag fear awaits pass dont wanna condemned hell want reincarnate god forsaken planet maybe someone else pulls trigger itll considered homicide redflag feel like cant right count kratom im seriously contemplating taking much short amount time want pain end want go mental health facility cannot afford want cure depression call cops right location provoke cops outright shooting like im kind dog,1 +aw shit go creating scenarios head girl like never happen im trying sleep brain please stop,0 +school handling virus school malaysia temperature checks every morning asked practice social distancing principle actually yelled classmates one fine recess morning social distance since class one first block plus principle loud voice left class inspect classes find anything wrong everyone heard sat tables anyways hope everyone keeps safe pandemic overcome this,0 +im end fucking ropefor past years ive best fun rocky first romantic relationship definitely ups downs lot passion fighting especially towards end almost family set get married lost baby neither us coped properly wore left biggest fucking mistake ive ever made im alone one im neck deep debt im back parents place failure feel nothing regret leaving best thing ever happen chance ever getting back moved on im currently trying pry lock gun maybe go back home maybe meet kid anything wake fucking nightmare,1 +used movie college ethics courses years also woody allens crimes misdemeanorsanother terrific multileveled ethical study br br its fiction focus much unrealistic features strangers fictional films obviously false many levels love film gallows comedy tautly told many ironic twists visual pleasureseven unbelievable story told well even think criticizing plausibility although must confess tennis match seems weakest part metoo much hollywood fluff enough real tennis competitionbr br some problems presented film hold promise realistic moral education ethical discussionbr br ethical passivity weaknesses guy character intended hitchcock primary ethical insight film danger inability articulate ones moral positions guy unable effectively block brunos crazy proposals start interesting question guy behave passively ineffectively possible answer depression intense complicated divorce process br br miscommunication guy commits another failure start train get away quickly agrees brunos ideas good guys literal meaning opposite inflected sarcastic meaning bruno takes literal meaning agreement crisscross murders guy takes sarcastic meaning escape murder agreement extent near beginning bruno may partially pretending agreement struck draw guy web complicity bruno manipulating guy guys linguistic ambiguity train gives bruno chance put ethical stranglehold guy bruno manipulating guy may also take meanings br br secrecy speculated sexual relationship guy bruno seems first ridiculous especially since guy appears obviously heterosexual relationships miriam anne however remember guy also ineffective women guy appears stereotypicallyits remember effeminate especially relationship bruno guy strong athlete weak inside bruno also conflicted playing against himself appearing facially physically strong first displaying effeminate traits brunos fashion footwork gushing emotionally guy different situations receiving manicure doting mother bruno kissing desperately fondling mothers hand subtle gay stereotypes hold cryptic meaning hitchcocks point view wish could hear hitchcock clarify intended meanings herebr br dishonesty distrust guy makes colossal blunders hiding truths bruno family police guy fails fully comprehend admitting fault quickly may better coverup delay confession guy driven passivity insecurity fearand perhaps selfhate closer brunos selfloathing care see admit guy bruno act parables impotencebr br lack evidence guy feels problem mustering evidence acquit himself quickly going police would solve huge problem guy traps doubts insecurities absence desired alibis inability alcoholic professor testify guys behalf obsessive need appear politically pristine personality factors cause guy feel defenseless dysfunctional brunojust dangerous yet one could partially blame guy miriams murderbr br disease mental disorder interesting question legally responsible bruno murders ethically incompetent bruno sick sociopath guilty guy may someone healthy failed stand morally act prevent crimes guys failure like man fails call police sick friend threatens suicide death ensues one could argue one crime committed guy emotionally hobbled accomplicebr br these many features film make strangers train gem morality play diamond philosophical cinematic reflections,0 +lilypichu vibe mildly depressed weeb spends time sleeping,0 +dont know hold longeri thought boyfriend could enough help hold possibly start meds even though love anything theres nothing do im going anywhere life fucking meaningless fuck cant continue anymore,1 +chronic pain gave scary thoughtive suffering since years now discs spine degenerating pain going arm recent mri done found even discs spine degeneratingcervical lumbar ive started career sadly desk job corporate lawyer ive got dreams cant even go one hour sitting comfortably office religious think afterlife often nice would rid pain today asked difficult question want die broke tears could think miserable past years been im expected grow old spine continue deteriorate cried like little bitch,1 +date approachingi trying commit redflag past couple months ive trying hang belt doorknob got without passing out chickened take anymore plan commit redflag next weeks rope im going duct tape hands cant untie noose,1 +female friend told this want kiss doesnt want relationship weird wouldnt mind kissing her doesnt want relationship guess wants keep friendship maybe,0 +dont think anyone caresim already think redflag almost every day school friends seem tolerate talk enough isnt conversation times people really talk one else talk know less important wont ignore them worst part theyre right insignificant even though know fake ill still go along even call shit things fat hide emotions everyone always feel terrible think people think im happy joke try make people happy somehow makes feel less insignificant partly matter even though doesnt people talk make plans go im room invite me think might actually go one day dont want drive family insane deep think im much pussy go anyway sorry long text hardly ever tend write lots time,1 +sad negative thoughtshas one good life yet feel sad wanting die thought since im middle school s yet urge die really eating me like every pasting moment die wanna die,1 +since frame number know good guy suit necktie doomed luck sorte nula believes music car radio dubious talk best friend company associate taking parts unknown desert road alberto wished simply left alone take flight abroad next day well someone were left guessing br br the film goes long way find short closing scene man hearing music cab airport between number lucky people found different ways story dying born others falling harrowing distress time hes really doomed he film sort oneman show director fernando fragata left sound recording special effects other competent people typically reject portuguese films due sound problems unclear speech recording must go searching topics criticize time car crash this spoilers film clever that makes great scene apparently done cheap equipment us studios take notice may spare dollar two hiding competent portuguese directors br br the rest done fragata script dialogue camera work editing part dialogue adlibbed must congratulated acting direction casting mostly inexperienced actors large number nonspeaking parts credited people used music video clip making of used extensively films promotional trailer cast dozen actors actresses ten relevant persons huge number relationships revealed stepbystep thrilling suspenseful way reminiscent best genre authors alfred hitchcock qv claude chabrol qv come mind catandmouse play director public nature charactersbr br i recommend thriller comedy portuguese language speakers and film gets decent translation colloquial dialogue anyone abroad enjoys genres,0 +even knowfeel free remove postdue various reasons halfway life friends family living isolated alone better part life getting away schizophrenia abusive drugaddicted mother whole foster careangsty metalrecreational drug use thing met summer week later witness trial helped save partner violentpotentially lethal burst rage thats point philosopher guy said real question whatever live die honestly think life me could probably turn things around couple years hard work sorta care all appeal me shut down every second every fucking moment absolutely overwhelming know im expecting posting this imagine guys would say something understanding even point that lead say im redflag risk dog way important let plebian mess training absolutely interest life would much rather all wasted feels like donate organs nearest person world whatsoever,1 +theres one thing rely school for get something dad like go clean something ill like im school work leads choosing getting school work done something else,0 +entered would probably characterize darkest period life far job despise recently started therapy overall net positive also forced take long hard look many personal traits need lot work realizing strong sense personal identity much lengthier problematic track record behaving toxic manipulative ways allinall opinion quickly rocketing dirt midst intense identity crisis ever experiencedall slew unpleasant factors left feeling like heading right potentially explosive breakdown like get married love fiance much making lifelong commitment like another human feel like clue am values passions are heading life scares shit me also recently began indulging selfharm impulses which relatively minor lifethreatening scarring first time decade feels like enormous step backwards me feel like rubber band stretched brink snapping unknown combination time andor additional tension inevitably make snap know it think state in feel like spiraling control also feel like cannot think ignoring repressing problems mistakes ended first place worst part that even though feel meltdown coming feel powerless stop it kind would sum current crisis complete loss control life direction going inhas anyone experienced anything like before so tips deal least keep hurting others life unravelling even not appreciate space vent for record presently concerned going kill myself worried risk physically hurting others worried risk burning bridges tanking personal professional notredflag ground causing lot emotional damage others way feel beginning unravel least mitigate damage impending breakdown could others,1 +im frustrated dont know trust one hand dreams could well pointing reality other could simply playing fears had dont know which trust,1 +parents got divorced now kept telling terrible things still do used visit dad week really much memory him remember telling mom monster whole mom times wondering parent trust btw sorry english sure using right grammer three years ago got first child new wife stopped seeing still see like twice month less feel like never good time really feel close feel father really want fix get know better kind feel jealous half siblings get closer parents get closer parents,1 +anybody else homework listen music kinda bounce sway chair lmao ahahaha anyone saw would look stupid kinda vibing bouncin tunes typing computer u know,0 +almost although quite popular high school never gf wondering worth going experience looking reasons stay love worth living for,1 +point go nowin situation redflagim feeling more theres nothing really left me im last year one two strokes left side paralysis right side constant pain central post stroke pain increases sensation movement lost job lost motorcycle lost bank account least figures debt year behind child support still waiting months now decision social security reason im street pity family member whos basically letting squat house hes trying sell feel like loss everything could deal with starting actually seem bad ive done times moving around this pain think can want take anymore va tried several pain killers settling oxycodone worked take pain away made care it drugs baaad mkay cant keep increasing that tried tens hwave both hurt more lyrica pregabalin mgx kinda helps pain still there typing feels like streaks searing electricity shooting arm radiating fingers help like oxyxidone gets high much say break toe work work stop bar couple shots fix toe stop broken get buzz helps broken leg think shots help point simply getting high work im trading one high another getting high legal state means really cheap weed helps moment cant high day want anything really anything anyway struggle walk fall often generally takes xx longer task normally would sink dishes take hours get through ill lucky id break anything know expect this typing seems help ive alone living alone mean almost full year since leaving va hospital staying at job real friends social media outside reddit every day physically mentally hurts hurts lie try sleep hurts sitting shower chair so slip kill myself hurts walk point win situation ive mris cts blood work angiograms heart monitors name it bp great low cholesterol heart great history stroke family non smoker outside weed active lifestyle before stroke neurologist gave up saying tests run happened cant fix it deal it funny got optometrist fitting darkened indoor glasses eyes fine brain fucked up hey heres bandaide ya exist try make next day it hurts get this tell myself never get through may subside compared worse never goes away like blown speaker car matter high low change volume one still crackles piss poor job supposed do something repaired fucking brain brain damage theres nothing anybody it take drugs try get time take drugs order refill time lyrica controlled substance va procedures go through takes time ran wed get refill following tuesday withdraws bad symptoms stroke wishing death brings back bandaide fix takes drugs smoking weed day helped waiting real drugs two days finally slept better still hurts lie there whats worse spasticity spasms waves clenching muscles tightening shaking movement causes pain sensation affects nerves right side causes pain spasms hurt like someone kicking ribs laying down drugs supposedly help win situation do va anti opiates could get oxy again get stronger dose high day drugs drugs drugs wake up take pills make take pills try sleep wake up take pills,1 +want someone talk tolong story short mcanada depressed suicidal since getting worse worse past couple days ever since last exam spent better part tuesday debating whether myself ended fetal position bed afternoon trying sleep hoping wake hate fucking much incredible killed already im lonely unattractive personality fucking shit goddamn fucking want someone talk to could anything fuck even play fucking steam game something fucking anything pick dad airport hours please edit im going bed try get sleep many thanks took time day talk,1 +im done im done trying fighting breathing im tired hate everything everyday facade wanted get better attempt ive gotten significantly worse month,1 +people treat mental illness like fashion statement people arent saying shit it look average middle class girls instagram tiktok bio youll probably find assortment self diagnosed mental illnesses call call disgusting it tolerated people self diagnose conditions look cool,0 +im back unfortunatelyi thought could find way out moved across country try become better self failed miserably im soo fed miserable life want end rather tall building near hear around stories tall rather easy gain roof access may look like fly way beautiful people today hope going better mine bad day remember pet would sad confused come home anyway thanks reading red,1 +give second i need get story straight friends bathroom getting higher empire state lover waiting me across bar seats taken sunglasses askin boutta scar know gave months ago know trying forget drinks subtle things holes apologies aint hard take back time bar closes feel like falling down ill carry home tonight young ill set world fire go higher sun tonight young lets set world fire burn brighter stars,0 +cant help myself think ima kill myselffuck life honestly im know im young think hope feel like ive done everything everything fails ive diagnosed ocd clinical depression social anxiety disorder potentially adhd ive seeing psychiatrist back suck misdiagnksed bipolar give wrong medications made hallucinate zombie weeks im glad stopped might end worse problems father allow going another one believes brain im one control it tried meditating everyday x day exercising exposure nothing helps parents pretty ignorant mental health mom understands really understands im going thru tired shit one help cant even help myself everything overwhelming everything hard me nothing enjoyable cant concentrate easily bored cant retain shit social life failing classes feel like life taken away me even music thats passion enjoyable now losing hope basically suicidal know option think killing myself,1 +pain less methodhello i dont know even ask but anybody idea pain less redflag method guarantees mortality rate i sadly access guns someone interested ask it lets say think life worth struggeling for,1 +made account seconds ago first post welllong story finally turned life around completely everything going well course never lasts long everything took turn worst again usual depression sky rocketed ever since first time life feeling suicidal feel worthless feel like never meant succeed thoughts non stop crossing mind past days today worst felt like getting chest somebody guess apologize im wrong section posting properlywith guidelines such thanks,1 +anyone nothing rn hey guys wants join group chat cuz boredd im bored anyone group chat discord yeeee comment link,0 +ah yes st century black people allowed make racist jokes women sexist jokes,0 +hopelessnothing left life live anymore wanna die never wake up support anyone life man end severely depressed suicidal pass years nothing getting better gets worse here im sick tired people telling life gets better youre young die feel way makes sense pisses hear supposed helpful advice bit context me im pennsylvania currently junior high school dont much friends really support group back im always seen time keep things myself really interacting outside world everything held close sudden letting loose everything friends family school falling apart nothing left loose point one second im happy im sad depressed crazy sure maybe need surround around better people care me hard people accepting me tried making internet friends see worth joining different sub reddits offer here surprise everyones same maybe expectations way high making friends find people either ghost dont respond all say things dip like never knew me saddening want experience friend earth loyal consider outcast reject loner nobody wants talk me walk me sit me really associate me dont know deserve this denying fact ive done said fucked things however cant seem rationalize understand ones life terrible dont get wrong plenty people struggling worse am im sure it doesnt mean mental health isnt important saying care die really speaking existence life right now maybe die people truly understand pain struggle misery through sometimes wanna run away far away never return makes sad friends happy friends care them literally one wake up school work sleep repeat really sad life turned out dont care im age doesnt mean shit lets forget mention get made feeling way am cant help im stuck feeling depressed suicidal time maybe maybe someone see message understand go through,1 +excited anything anymore except drinking smoking kind feel sad numb time weird keep hoping wake go bed unfortunately idk needed put thoughts there necessarily feel better whatever feel like belong anywhere,1 +need serious helpguys think ive suffering depression since young age im talking like onwards always felt like dying know happens death im one friend left feel like friendship based fact help financially time case also friends anymore argue people ive called friends deep thinking problem never luck ladies one time got date met girl stopped talking day spent together father died young guidance mother illiterate know english brothers grew female household im son pet cat fun life died im feeling empty depressed hollow sad lonely tbh cant cope anymore wanna know die quick death life thought would be far worse world sick sick place honestly cant wait leave time petrified thought death left rot coffin would seem like eternity decompose also suffer claustrophobia often panic tight situations however huge yearning death despite fears wanna put misery attention seeking rather cry help im sitting knife throat need someone tell do want know happens die rot ever ever heaven hell soul headed to reincarnated figure purpose case movie insidious ill respawned dark place live house full spirits rooms dark person thing face desperate look fear horror,1 +quarantine brought back depressionhi guys past months social life kinda working country lockdown realised people considered friends dont give shit me locked apartment days now last redflag attempt year ago sense feeling coming back know long take anymore hope day ends soon nothing awake for maybe emptiness apet go sleep forever ok thanks listening know care love b,1 +wish redflag much easiermostly everything life getting extremely fucked up studying relationship everyone know got irritating situation left anything worthy would make cling life redflag extremely scary position unreliable gun poisondrug wish one night wake anymore end without pain everything left life shitposting consuming food daydreaming redflag,1 +getting worsedue recent problem girl date or dated dont even know anymore added pain already feeling leaning towards idea ending life planning goodbye letter feeling slight urge jump rd floor shopping mall subway tracks nownow looking painless ways die sleeping pills currently leading damn damn,1 +need help texted crush wished merry christmas wich replied thanks too havent texted like month dont know say keep conversation alive shy cant text much please need help could say keep conversation alive,0 +cant handle it really cantim broken cant it cant im isolated broke batshit crazy ruin everything people constantly invalidate feelings literally one besides family theyre able help medont care cant make people care me please send good vibes prayers me last year around time promised going commit redflag birthday coming up want hold on emotions maxed cant cope anymore,1 +steve carell comes first starring role year old virgin supporting roles films bewitched bruce almighty anchorman work daily show gotten small taste comedy carell truly makes own tell ferrell influenced comedic air carell takes another level everything innocent lovable hilarious would hesitate say steve carell one next great comedians timebr br the year old virgin two hours nonstop laughs or hours see twice like did perfect supporting cast great leads charm audience entire movie script perfect many great lines want see movie try remember all music fit tone movie great tell director knew doingbr br filled sex jokes nudity lot language movie everyone liked wedding crashers anchorman movie along lines absolutely love year old virgin,0 +pg questions u girls keep clean ill report u questions u girls like like u not exedra exedra girls help answer ,0 +someone wanna friends someone wanna friends itd great talk politics philosophy tho pm please,0 +hate cant bring hurt around meas late day feels like struggle get through able see therapist mental health steadily deteriorating ive throughs past several years never acted them things getting hard now world fucked hate im living this thing stops going knowing would negatively effect around me much whats stopping me,1 +im even sure im posting thisits first time posting here help all guess im venting want kill myself nothing change mind cant it conservational instinct strong let me night got shitfaced tried jump front metro obviously didnti cant even remember stopped me piss drunk im useless incapableofanything waste space want bring painful existence bloody end fail every fucking time hope someone something kill soon enough ideally painless way,1 +im killing may ththe month anniversary th birthday tried everything give in,1 +im seriously fucked person absolutely deserve livethank caring enough click post means lot ill warn you though really really long done absolutely morally reprehensible things people absolutely deserved chronically past even know long ive always outward image helpful easygoing generally pleasant fellow im sure unconsciously shaped exterior personality convey harmlessness moral fiber make disgusting predation easier myself since young absolutely terrifying temper suspect ive got intermittent explosiveness disorder although ive never diagnosed im oldest five children workingclass background often left charge watching little sisters parents away love dearly general got along quite well always tendency fly right fuck handle pathetically trivial annoyances demonstrated horrific lack patience poor girls usually would verbally venomous reduce tears occasionally would become physically abusive fucking reason im grips rage tend grab throats remorse would set id exceptionally nice sisters while never prevented relapse im sure actions longterm effects poor girls opinion reason enough deserve death theyre good people naturally outburts lived absolute disgust myself veered severe bouts depression periods compensating false confidence joviality absolutely motivation school whole way through rarely actually work poor father concerned academic performance stepmom came life later bent backwards try stop completely fucking life up reaction take personal offence build shell indignance judgements christ im asshole began lying them lying began ways excuse responsibility homework similar things quickly escalated fullblown pathology realized feel bad horrific person believe lies that fuck lied everything became incredibly manipulative sometimes would lie sheer hell it made difference lied affected them got drugs alcohol early teens course lied teeth times possibly count stole hell lot booze remember workingclass father course teen years theyd finally found out kicked house im getting ahead myself though met soulmate beloved fiancee online young innocent full love life ready pledge heart anyone asked it love everything much way responded interest love kindness completely misrepresent ways face name made ridiculous persona without really realizing it time noticed fuck doing stack lies included heroin addict i even try drug years incredibly promiscuous genders i never much held someones hand id made several redflag attempts as much hated myself much coward even consider it among many many others month relationship told girl would come visit her sent presents mail id moving soon able actually string along occasionally cut contact pick right back like nothing happened supplying outlandish vicious lies explain poor poor there ranging imaginary stays mental hospitals fictitious death dad stringing along two girls similar bullshit course came crashing around girls all internet friends found other one wanted nothing cut contact permanently let one two girls soulmate graciously took back wanted work relationship obviously ton resentment us that even though initially commit relationship completely even kind idiot realizes theyre lucky way dealt stress resented put christ im asshole talk girl whose heart totally broken little again eventually stringing along again soulmate found again took back the poor sweet woman repaid generosity instead moving across country high school put ton debt attend local university got heavily drugs alcohol frequently ignored soulmate party assholes whose names cant even remember fell back old habit telling outragous lies cover ass swallowed completely one college buddies noticed going conscience inform it broke me then spiraled rock bottom failed college one semester stayed dad time stole much booze asked leave house spent summer drug dealer remember little it engaged ultimate selfishness felt good me eventually psychotic break acid forced actually honest myself begged dad forgiveness accepted back house think fair invite back soulmates life reestablished contact girl yet again shortly thereafter soulmate talked again confronting things put manner never before hopes actually salvaging relationship tried hardest ignore her would denied never ever given me way repaid preserverence continue masturbating webcam girl time though girl playing me intentionally got lower guard could break heart told herself soulmate still loved me could believe lucky person wonderful woman life love much absolutely deserve moved crosscountry this two years ago live her since ive here ive made constant conscious attempts better person her theres one obstacle cant overcome iedlike illness plagued since childhood totally ordinary everyday arguments become horribly abusive fly rage become indignant believe anything justified scream top lungs call horrible names sometimes even beat her got bad last year time got arrested domestic abuse begged police take me paid exorbinant fees talk jail took back without second thought soon got out knows im consumed remorse something like that knows genuinely love pieces continues stay even though outbursts continue generally become physically abusive often although recently clearly piece shit angel wasting life on deserve completely killed it cannot believe disgusting human am expressed numerous times though shed rather dead without me loved much patiently selflessly long endeavor stay alive keep getting better her try make happy despite this need stay alive love way deserves loved know keep living burden conscience anymore importantly knowledge im shitty violent rageaholic snap lose completely never leave me never felt hopeless tldr im abusive piece shit longsuffering wonderful fiancee cant seem defeat mental disease trouble seeing way situation except death,1 +explain wondering could send copy check day yeah,0 +damn insurancebought life insurance itd pay house roommate homeless go two year redflag clause cant till april year could take two fucking yearsi dunno,1 +pointim going end tonight job hate called dream job one talk life friends family long im acting normal im tired want anymore want say im fine ,1 +im alone manage mess whatever happiness manage stumble acrossim done ive alone long cant even decent conversation online anyone without fucking up maybe spur moment now feeling always resurfaces im year old male real friends never hint romance cant go world even wanted to nothing seems make sense world always seems turn back around set me wish realistic way in stop,1 +need replace planks christ almighty hate things much make want die need core exercises replace fuckers with also little shoulder too maybe forearm,0 +whats popping fellow teens know me jsut chilling crib swagging lick cray cray yall totes downloading sick ride got dude yolo ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb help cant sleep m seriously anyone help good sleep years mostly ish hours less,0 +finished late assignments brought overall gpa everyone thought dumb low grade would love could get little appreciation,0 +i could born fly get stuck web get devoured creepy spider could born billionaire unlimited access everything world live grandiose life alive need alive millions organisms earth born everyday living harsh cruel conditions unhappy trying hard survive none want here me alive point alive cant know it point alive happy happy what thinking random stuff die consciousness survive death meet god die good answer questions one day even know anymore no never knew do surviving trying best sake it yes works years need deeper reason work it deep reason role hate role want it give agree universe rules forced anyway reborn retry die wish would know world place it outside science religion philosophy want real answers feel surprised slack contemplate dark idea man leave guidance quite honestly take seriously going die anyway explanation absolutely explanation anything mean real one im gonna keep trying whatever know think anymore guess live simplistic life look deep meaning find girl get kids get house make sure kids well later life thats life right allowed say find boring limiting maybe im dumb lol get it sorry,1 +would easy wayim living life depression living day day would love able finally end shit seems like theres way dealing manner would reliable enough im point im annoyed every single time wake up find alive im already dealing drunk high reduced eating minimum maybe hopefully living like find peace death comes early possible,1 +got question so non virgins whats story story long time friend male introduced porn like months later asked suck dick like eh fuck sure awhile yada yada awhile got caught no mom yee edgy year old im glad broke off whats story,0 +hello teens reddit go middle name family thing named great grandfather middle name dads favorite book character first name names combined means goose army,0 +horribly lonely hitting last straw death seems like way out im transgender girl trapped boys body im sixteen years old that nobody around clue it came one person back october give fuck anymore even talked forever live minutes other parents found out knowing stances gay marriage everything would likely abandon me top this im homeschooled never see friends loneliness adding depression want die badly,1 +would rather look like chad smell like fart every day rest life look extremely ugly smell good every day rest life take first one cant ever stop smelling like fart try wear cologne smell like farts bc chemicals ur skin counteract,0 +lifei think im pretty much done homeless month im abusive relationship lost many friends really place go see point continuing everyday battle biggest fear failing redflag sad that fear death thats im looking forward to,1 +get better whative severe depression entire life ive gotten treatment take handful medications every day get by never gotten better days okay absolute hell whole life ive years felt happy married lot good friends house life wanted ended im divorced years ive lost everything friends live tiny apartment good job make enough travel go vacations much anything fun besides play online games such ive relationship man years severe adhd aspergers financially destroyed broken me im severe amount debt love hell love him absolute hell semidisabled think could live alone stay friends family im years old im fat ugly invisible world spend nights getting drunk staring computer nothing books computer games music cat entire life never leave house thinking checking permanently im much pain seems pointless anyone tell irl im posting here really get better know people say oh get better people like never get better guides one question get better like people say will,1 +rewards resistensehi reddit anon know postting reaaly perhaps chance hear speak perhaps open forum categorise thoughts perhaps because enough ten years ago gave life crossed lne despair depression keep beyond line fatigue member family suisidal knowledge still are speak it unable now supported years dropped school work finnancially keep afloat cooked cleaned managed lives drunk got depressed committed mental institution failed attempt still remember smell building glazed eyes patients medicated there woman began conversation saying kill husband haunting knowledge first heard phrase never say goodbye forever say see later lips three years supported person love them world weak stop drinking could take away vice else would worked depression grew stronger soldiered on eventually got much another failed attempt already taken pills got home always blamed dealing drunk supported ways never well enough argued tired empty nothing left give yelled them told would benefit giving it back down called bluff told them pure perfect opportunity exit moment ready ready given everything atlas struggle would finally fight resist anymore let reality wash consume me to day feeling surrender one best emotions remember ready backed agreed saw attitude done moment selflessness family member backed down sat night pills still system die years pass move on move on night lives memory head times wonder happened all would know not time kept pushing me struggle struggle came conquered them caring family member developed ability weather storms push through get through keep head down survive endure god struggle memory surrender haunts me family now friends people need me weather endure found best way cope life disassociate it take board longer know handle compliments years training suicidal dependant made terrified failure live every expectation make things worse cause episode need everything everyone make life struggle keep heaping challenges taking responsibility breaking myself never feel satisfaction thats worst part even feel relief anymore ive accomplished something press on become life add more feel pressure never release never pride failure im tired know ask help cannot expect anyone understand try hard explain words come right you feel pride take credit speak take rug away you much you know happens push yourself feel worthless happens disassociate stop thinking myself stop applying self anything way one bother me one make feel worse trying rescue me feel sad really feel happy go flow think others feel time live make happy least presence worthwhile fake it fake remember honest people try get kneejerk push away keep trying push past that offer content without emotion cannot apply story pleas sit rotting back brain one dragged void one watch dead inside one offer pity shame locked like was,1 +wow thanks advice cleverboti got lonely started talking cleverbot exchange happened httpimgurcomailrxc,1 +turned away betterhelp it two weeks everything shut last year pretty bad place found open path every time hear ad bh roll eyes wonder still aroundthey forprofit organization make myear open path nonprofit charges one time fee lifelong memberi venmo therapist money goes directly pocket glad stuck continued look help rejected access online therapy platform nearly threw edgei apologize breaks rules way tell guys case one person benefits this love guys hope good day today feel like said,1 +hey ever heard jerkmate fun entertaining addictive tiktok wild sexy twist dont judge,0 +always assumed thoughts normal noti think ending existence fairly often sometimes times dayweek times month gap so thought something everyone deals regularly thoughts,1 +im aloneim worthlessim uselessi dont know startim sorry im place im currently years agei wish died earliermy life gone downhill last yearsive much pain cant take anymore always feel lonelysaddepressedsuicidalit even gone far cutting myselfi feel hopelessi feel like never able achieve dreamsno one ever love everyone forget ive alone since childhoodive never make good friends never talked anyone biggest regret lifewhenever im pain dont get share anyoneno one makes feel betterpeople made fun im awkardim scared express feelings mindive tried make friends left bullied foght meeveryoneliterally everyone makes fun meim going downhill studiesi always get low grades always scolded parentsi even thought killing beforeim sorry try escape sadness life sitting near computer screen mobile phonewhenever taken away instantly get depressed get jealous sick people got enjoy childhood stuck alone hell yearsnot shown hope ive really gaming since childhoodthere barely day havent gamedit kept happy alive long timewhen saw utubers esporters instantly started like wanted big thembut ive taken away things fucking burns me im unhealthy havent went outside weeksim scared talk peoplei dont even know drive cyclei want stay home im writing bed phone crying wanting cut againwhy see hell young agewhy couldnt life better like otherswhy one ever try talk metry understand pain make feel better feel worthless nowim useless worldi mistakei born sufferno one happy meno one ever love looseri forever alone bet might laughing storybut u experienced understand much pain life really is done shitty lifei might try kill monthsi always sufferi never achieve dreami pain everyonea waste humanity wish someone could help memy happiness deadmy hope deadmy innocence deadmy love dead 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darkness jada pinkett smith plays johnsons wife writer director mike binder plays role charlies attorneyguardian also cast saffron burrows donald sutherland adell modell robert klein outstanding soundtrack featuring likes bruce springsteen graham nash pear jam pretendersbr br note never sandler fan found outstanding role scenes thought loudwhy never approached play singersongwriter bob dylan biopic,0 +suicidal christmasso spent christmas bed wishing dead nothing new ive suicidal since childhood lot time wish would done child avoid pain suffering told family sick didnt want affect anyone im sure know didnt want come prepared gifts wrapped decided stay home smoke weed know made choice wtf like normal person would this part happy it wonder people dont like me im miserable around hate everyone everything friends crap job on totally get people like well change well years change today supposed day go find building tall enough would die relief,1 +rewind isnt happening year would put it im thinking making one something free time dont really know put it obviously unus annus also think jacksucksatlife cheating way play button else,0 +dont know feelthis seems like right place every morning wake think redflag im process completing year everything feels hard walk school hardest get like half hour thoughts consistent loop do worthless cunt what point putting die anyway ive written redflag note mentally difficult get lethal dose sleeping pills thing stopping mum ruin life like that got much life left im terrified day dies know im probably immature teenager would love hear anyones opinion,1 +mind readers dont tell anyone,0 +normali issues life course jumping front train crossing mind feel like would solve everything wife would happier one would worry more think could though thoughts normal,1 +im mad context xbox computer use monitor speakers headphone jack controller plugged headset plugged play keyboard mouse minecraft im playing minecraft skywars pretty sweaty kill dude im low 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all disability puts perpetual bad mood snap yell frequently them deserve that prevents providing family fortunately foresight purchase substantial life insurance policy past go least family taken care grossly unfair world changed way trigger disbility one cares one help nevetending pain dissapointment whatever deserve this truly sorry perhaps nothing thus testament lack caring people others change laws ones trigger pain people like me knows idea posting this guess felt like saying goodbye someone goodbye,1 +especially considering count one hand romantic comedy films ever enjoyedbr br minnie driver good heart transplant patient mysterious connection duchovnys recently deceased wife i think several awful films used story line think lmn movie jane seymour film however keeperbr br duchovny sympathetic scenes dog cute sad dog misses deceased wife friends want find replacement amusing scene blind date driver waitress date horrible finds intrigued minnie driverbr br caroll oconnor also good 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experience girlfriend messaged skype saying going kill herself tablet died get message minutes turned phone off panicked proceeded call would like point out live different states aware address town lives in rather big town near her dispatch told call town near lives redirected one two possible towns sent right back big towns police somehow little information had able locate address thankfully okay much better point post show matter little information have enough prevent tragedy give know name general location turns out thats need save life edit odd chance dispatcher reading post want thank do dispatch never gets enough credit deserve it amazing heroes it thank much,1 +blasting music laying bed couldnt go party do entertain reddit,0 +hello fellow users whiteboard shall creating specific whiteboard tuesday thursday week irregularly create whiteboard weekends yeah got meme corner art corner hope hear think it have funhttpsrwhiteboardfoxcom,0 +slow deathjacob drank rest bottle emptied much life could this wished better wasnt tried best alleviate suffering distraction work birthday week hed years old life would meaningless time spent alive wasted literally figuratively wanted meds work didnt pain still there suicidal thoughts overrode him erased little left alcohol made honest least done unforgivable deserved suffer deserved pain least could make right could control suffering suffered years enough could sweet release redflag save him deserve die well afraid death subconscious decided kill instead eating slow painful one day free one day suffering end one day dead,1 +warning long basically describing problems supposed finished first year really good law school told everyone am instead actually graduate student masters legal science less reputed college near me actually applying now lied everyone left hometown go law school moved apartment high schoolcollege bestie works lot engineer moving great idea regret still love her good roommate honestly talks lot life feel like never asks me also good deflecting wish would push little harder ask am tend avoid chill room lot also need time relax also smoke weed almost every day lie it vaping problem hard quit trying lost gramps earlier year difficult favorite man planeti diagnosed adhd generalized redflag disorder bordering depression also prescribed medication never kept with going psychiatrist moved different clinic take insurance like months since still gone another issue think triggered become asshole cousin graduation extravaganza party lot worked lot fucking cleaned vomit managed send teenagers home am ubers closed worked ass never felt appreciated whole moment even worse feel like annoyed everyone so triggered real bad pushed away everyone stuck one talk to really good friends completely stopped talking to time realized id pushed everyone away stopped talking could figure respond still day trying get talk them group friends two stopped talking rest people close with planned trip months ago hotel reservation name discount go would able stay there went felt like everyone hated whole trip last day super bad cried many times secretly day bathrooms lmao then got super wasted cried hours front them one cared really talk hour drive day so right trip ready apologize friends trip happened longer really want talk anyone suicidal want live reason still planet mom could never kill cannot fail her imagine dying getting cancer time want anything lost passion everything know real depressed lie everything want anyone think negatively bc already severe body image issues cannot stand let others thinks wrong besides fact clinically obese push everything off pretty sure rotting tooth could probably get infected kill time gone dentist energy scared also want to need know asshole friends also advice get rut last days smoking vaping go coffee shops work super hard applications also helps left adhd meds finally started feel hope light diet good longer binge eat like used everyday also go gym like 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put feelings words properly time heres last attempt living guess im gonna tell life story anything would much right im gonna save month get gun finally put end horrible pain care impact death could anymore deaths ive seen even death one life actually give shit tell ive seen known well enough know grief momentary im probably ranting last thing want since depression started getting worse alone wife left alone stupid argument know else say im sorry feeling lot easier write guess ill stop now thanks entertaining many years reddit,1 +want break cry take pills house right nowi want stop confusion guilt incoming adult hood fantasies confusion religious beliefs neediness patheticness,1 +twitch follower giveaway hello fellow teens cousin currently giveaway twitch celebrate followers need subscribe twitch subscribing twitch cost money im sure many amazon prime get free sub month would greatly appreciated could give free sub cant follow would help lot prize amazon gift card winner chosen reaches 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document computer called reasons live talks life around us case mom becoming really hard look keep going,1 +ventingso attempted redflag months ago prior wanted fulfill life experiences racked ton credit card debt international travel skydiving fancy restaurants ect intend pay off afterwards hospital weeks even money therapy neurologist stuff ive k job past years rent suuper expensive too got short term disability job months starting hospital short term disability ended still energy motivation whatsoever get work done ended quitting ampxb job ton bills im sure im looking advice anything pretty obvious just stop spending much wanted vent maybe see anyone experienced anything similar before suicidal thoughts quite bit better disability debt coming back vengeance,1 +im almost certain crush depressed posted fitness account confident lately lot family members commenting post ive never seen want sad text her so say,0 +ever send nude yes send dont send yes dont,0 +going consume chinyim yum,1 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sleepless restless like every night past years cannot wait day finding answer lifes burden happiest day life diagnosis also allow treat symptoms look forward cannot wait confident cannot wait understood cannot wait able sleep cannot wait happy cannot wait love againi cannot wait able raise bar moodit late apologies rambling always wanted tell somebody much look forward finally getting official diagnosis cure misery thank read hope resonate way day look forward,1 +really enjoyed minghella epic thought quite much the english patient a modernday classic first minutes feel awkward inman jude law embarks journey back love ava nicole kidman film picks leaps bounds becomes memorable thoughtful romantic drama apparently fashionable hate kidman moment agree all well here actually think romance inman ada weakly developed script they really dont get much screen time together develop relationship law kidman give convince adas journey crux film becomes strong woman bear almost anything zellweger first seems wrong ruby grows sparkles many later scenes film beautiful photography set design never really captures true feel period piece jack white particular long straggly hair pale rockers complexion look completely place setting cillian murphy fans enjoying seeing talented irish actor early bit part natalie portman actually proves act probably films striking sequence pity the boleyn girl inadequate,0 +need venthi dont really know start begin ill say need simple can im suicidal no havent cut hurt myself havent stood edge building wishing could muster courage leap off havent put gun head wishing could pull trigger ive severely depressed years since young dont know why maybe im obese maybe social anxiety maybe im sort joke whatever higher power is loving family friends care me got whatever wanted since young always close mom dad always wanted writer creator tv show cartoon something would able show different kinds characters good despite skin color sexual identity was thought thousands ideas story never skilled enough write like professional find even pitch suxh show even animate often feel like wasted potential wanted great couldnt anything make right friends weight began feel lonely time sure friends spend time me cant help feel disconnected like theyre bothered me waste time dont feel like im one deserves millions others never got chance born recently mom died one closest to dad cancer im fearful come back refuses stop smoking matter much try beg quit stopped long cant deal parents gone brother one seemed everything work right highschool always wants attempt get job learn drive stuff im lazy ill honest put year highschool learning drive roads crippling fear getting wreck hurting someone else getting fined something wrong scary im sure getting job wouldnt bad im afriad couldnt asked since overweight would get fired reprimanded it im afraid means im losing free time ill never able play games stuff love anymore piling once driving stress job stress weight dad potentially sick loneliness dont know do sleep lay bed motivation left want fall asleep dream forever dont deserve life im using it stop existing,1 +scaredi told mom everything go doctors get medication im scared medication work get better,1 +actively lifefuck want get betteri want swim want float want meds numb make stream better want sink want chokes want fucking die family keeps saying need me want here forced keeping swimming want to live everyone swimming stay afloat life want sink,1 +join movement dont buy nestle fucknestle rfucknestle reasoninghttpswwwredditcomrfucknestlecommentshmvnvthe_reasons_why_we_hate_nestle_so_muchutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 +would feeling really good lately meds effective interpersonal group therapy cbt course everything well managed woke yesterday morning could get bed spent yesterday sleepingcuddling dog still feeling like crap today like could burst tears moment trying spiral work cannot make stop feeling like lonely worthless pathetic loser wondering point living kind life constant fighting exhaustingand cannot figured triggered me hit like slap facebeen dealing shit years give take never gets easieri really sure posting this think want feel little less lonely showed nowhere,1 +hey girls dm open boys want talk someone girls preffered,0 +readyi thinking long time got plan bought needed wrote letter son ready gut it cry day im almost cash lost family im time drunk fuck pills im scared it wtf wrong me im scared pain anything me fear miss ill explain hospital family probably get see son biggest fear work would son become fuck me try get help see guy alcohol abuse got psychiatrist follow me another girl try help anxiety problems problem nothing work today made prescription pills starting think might starting state schizophrenia want become insane am keep thinking son keep neglecting im already fuck head say im gonna get worse wtf suppose live for thing live son know im gonna deceive hurt emotionally keep going on wish could disappear without hurting him,1 +want diei years old want die,1 +anyone else use facadereposted due lack responses so read another posts know year old highschool clear things up tired using ghetto facade time always act ghetto everyone school hide weak shy quiet pussy hiding inside hell reason many friends way act around people course facade flaws whenever like teacher adult comes near me parents around back real piece shit version me use act defence mechanism basically tired using it much energy socialize many annoying people short moments genuine happiness enjoyment laughter anyone else feel same,1 +hes claiming beat fight go court treated like abuser whole time sat next me protection order written daughter go home day vacate face eviction landlord lost job this pre trial next month lawyer seems like idea case,1 +long take small cut stop bleeding accidentally cut bleeds isnt bad annoying,0 +things ive learned first relationship and take account uh hi everyone ive really thinking now im feeling like share guys means helping get this people would probably benefit or all information here tldr end post like listening stories which understandable apologize advance long say buckle in anyways lets get this ill start providing context first mentioning names places save harassment last weekend visiting working local event town girl came asked number time pursuing another girl really made moves yet so happily provided which mistake kind flattered excited finally girlfriend course never one before little know first happy talked phone texted hours end next days happiness faded told things think smartest choices example vapes thats huge dealbreaker me eventually ran mental block although nice enjoyed lunch took on learned personality mine really go well together began run things run about conversations went around circles went bed night disappointed kept feeling disappointed depressed taking free time couldve used learning guitar failing math paper which uncommon me wanted get live life nothing happened happy relationship eventually fell talking texting her all within span of days now anything did thought told her i made impulse decision thought telling wanted relationship today mom talked stepdad talked it noticed acting usually act asked another parent her basically told information girlfriend friend group basically found really weird disturbing apparently all vape thc illegal state stayed her couldve possibly exposed got caught it wouldve got serious trouble im innocent told that said think really want girl consider rethinking relationship her evening think im going break tell really want relationship right now unfortunately going hard im nice everyone im going direct honest ill stand ground ill also allow emotional healing time decide get another relationship ultimately learned experience and take away post anything i weighed pros cons thought minute diving right in compiled list dealbreakers requirements must meet a big one loving animals ive lived learned ill know better next time ampxb tldr know want relationship diving in decide really one quick evaluation happy direct remember live little fun afraid happy whether thats getting or of relationship anyways thanks taking time read did hope nice day ,0 +let go depressed get things around house even take care matter currently many medications work mention made gain weight highest poundage ever been never felt disgusted someone people younger already achieved much including family members friends way catch up job will energy carrots give feel good enough receive think live like always grasping straws fumbling scared feel pain die do damage done horrific irreversibly broken time go,1 +story y old loserim dark place right vent serious fight mother last night told maybe end im worthless loser move back home ripe age lost job layoffs half year ago pay bills anymore mostly huge debt have college family related matters dropped college work familys business request father even get education familys business went belly father died got lucky found job it even gone im years old loser job college education debtridden fool gave dreams help family wants exist since teenage last night first time ever raised voice someone family enough guilt trip im pretty sure im getting kicked out knowing mother throw things im somewhere else kinda wish drinker now stress killing me one hire anymore even though im picky im really hardworking im old competent unskilled educated enough educated gave everything help family im even losing that idea wtf im supposed sometimes empty void future feels much thanks reading needed process writing down feel free laugh me words cant hurt anymore situation hurting me,1 +took pills vodka doi take many want call ambulance hours worst passed safe need this,1 +hello teenagers transgender would like hear negative opinions filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ive fucked upif theres anything could tell atone ive done want thank journey failed killing earlier month second time comes around know right know youre better without me,1 +mind made killing going years able want yet trouble destroying life meantime last days watching music video feels safe today spent entire afternoon reading book felt safe finished book get stuck bed lot makes late work wear clothes days even weeks time picking new outfit much spend lot money online trying fill sense emptiness put important things like paying next semester college tired wish could drop dead without anything loss,1 +sometimes wonder go listening nba youngboy nonstop billie eilish odd guess makes sense need collab two though yb would kill track like michael jacksons jayzs tracks,0 +excellent drama suspense whole time could take eyes screen one second every word kept connecting pieces puzzling murder movie really touched showed sad hard life be really cry end which want give away also let realize cruel sickening people comes murder br br the cast also good bad cast member actress played anne marie actress great job director didnt say found someone look single bit like anne marie fahey herself,0 +ok looks like biden lead v nervous u guys think win,0 +_________i dont know start off say but feel helpless feel defeated im started college september im england took year school due reasons ill go bit happy while much anymore ive problems since primary school ive constantly bullied harrassed beaten ignored every inch self esteem confidence annihilated confidence issues college become pretty bad thing me gonna sound dumb im miserable crush girl know ill never confidence talk even know wouldnt like me thats big deal everything always feels like big deal smallest joke expense smallest mistake make hits really hard think lot never really affected strongly get bit sad move on days ago overcome overwhelming feeling stress sadness depression collapsed standing dont even know why like couldnt bring even stay standing im crier feeling left tears running cheeks lay becoming depressed second thinking every wrong decision ive ever made everything gave would made better person today every way someone hurt me everyone ive lost everything done make someone else happier hate myself feel like im taking space someone else could taken up someone could done me done better me dont feel clear headed right now apologise isnt well written down help bit got dumped summer found cheating months relationship top that grandma died beggining year mums boyfriend verbally abusive havent even able see dad months sleeping fucked college feel like problems whiney people worse makes feel even worse feeling depressed this dont even want send feels longwinded doesnt seem like makes much sense theres lot this dont want type anymore wish would die edit feel like need add now done many times best friend stops replying boyfriend comes online like didnt put whining mexico even best friend cant fucked someone else would rather talk online,1 +im trying things feel really dark right nowim going go much detailfirst time posting bit lurker looking back years ago always life family party joking things comedic sarcastic responses everything generally happy person went breakup lockdown happened got new job found new girl lost her suicidial sister feel like everything suddenly hit short period time divorce papers split new girl sister still suicidal feeling worthless new job dont find release anything ive developed alcohol dependency allow feel constantly thought head i keep hurting people cant help want to hurt people one last time cant again know need help fhere lot demons head dont want talk someone cant express im sober want go therapist drunk assume alcohol do im fine line away giving up ps theres backstory ive disclosed want entire life there,1 +uim_very_cool cool epik love,0 +hell dohello taken time gather well read subreddit else post brink want more however deserve depressed happy life want die makes feel worse comes story life one mildly popular guys never belonged elite popular neither ever feel lack friends neither search friend short friends always given me even friends expressed jealousy all smarts always top grades school yet friends among cool kids always girls however half year ago started feel like shit went trip girlfriend went cuba vacation could afford worked travel industry could get cheep tickets way there flight started feel extremely nauseous bordering unbearable nausea minutes landing pulled through arrived feel better nausea kept albeit diminishing rate days felt fine back home sweden felt almost fine would start bouts nausea work would sometimes result go home work this saw option go doctor doctor told expressed seemed like nothing stress accepted diagnosis time stressed out masters thesis work time decided wait things out eventually master thesis finished passed work deal with nausea never ended one time girlfriend went south sweden go party would normally entail two hours train whatever fuckup train cancelled go bus took extremely ill busride time thought common motion sickness never life previously motion sick grew boats cars suffer motion sickness nevertheless ascribed sickness motion sickness fell ill two weeks luckily caught ride car back home town horrible better bus ride back home get better finally started think ailment psychosomatic would frequently bouts describe anxiety doctor prescribed hydroxine me helped momentarily write feel fine relationship girlfriend finally ended went semester abroad felt nothing relief could finally focus self longer think of contend failure relationship due constant depression leaving supposed go couldnt heres bad part single ive extremely successful ive constantly girls ive slept around even offers long term relationships yet never happy extremely unhappy extremely unhappy write throwaway one friends happen upon post easily identify circumstances point is extremely unhappy return home offered sleep girl yet still want to seriously believe related former relationship simply want live more severely depressed suffer random bouts nausea anxiety personally subscribe wholly something psychosomatic still much aware fact deserve unhappy everything going me great education girls throw feet yet whatever happens want die return tonight night town resulted least two offers coitus want die always want die usually suicidal wish end life wish die tonight something different think met old crush mine failure ever get got me never less tonight first time ever wanted end life fully aware text nothing convince people even depressed problem fucking depressed and fact know makes things worse hate depressed think man up thinks everyone ive told troubles work fucking depressed first time ever want end all cried know why want die want die badly painlessly tldr reason want so hate want die please rredflagwatch feel like do cry thought stepping onto plane want end all want kill self now end all want feel better speak rather going bridge realise deserve unhappy am please help me,1 +long history mental illness suicidal thoughts that interests diagnosed bipolar ii disorder first hospitalised diagnosed borderline personality disorder traits top upon second hospitalisation also tried and obviously failed attempt twice today different though today learnt new way make attempt looking one everyday week year since mind racing things need funeral afterdeath arrangements keep hitting block what happens fail again anyone tried failed attempt knows end feeling like loser even little worse before case even hangover uni work submit times easy hide fact would made attempts life way seem like case scared found forced hospital third time row looking advice get away it know rules thought could vent here done good job isolating everyone reaching nuisance sick therapy please ask is share perhaps start swan song,1 +mario pokemon plump plumber breaking necks animal enslavement,0 +im feeling suicidalive hospitalised twice last weeks severe depression suicidal thoughts anxiety fianc broken me absolute mess one someone please tell ok broken,1 +im always second choice no even thatand sucks much like nobody cares ill always one people get stuck with ill never good enough anything anybody im going crazy it world would better gone one,1 +zoloft focalin changed life past four years better week feeling like regressing lot interest activities normally like brain feels like fog around love new job energy perform well fiancee went town tuesday well made things worse feel useless tired like shit general think hitting extra hard well long would talk fiancee much cannot bear put her lost wrong want get back routine idk shit sucks getting worse again,1 +im pathetici turned entered st year highschool days ago depression dysphoria anxiety pretty bearable months holidays come back one crippling anxiety prevents building meaningful relationships friendships either forced faked sake someone talk school ended shortly horribly hate people area cant form relations online due brave enough say something group chat like public discord cycle responding gt guilt gt responding manage talk someone also feel like never say right thing burden everyone includes family my mom got huge fight grandma stay touch even mention third family also strangers such people staying behind queue shop would finished shopping earlier there im also trans guy misgendered really hurts cant really avoid like summer parents overprotective generally feel powerless strengthens get it hopelessness example moms telling serious cleaning reorginising room least month ive done maybe fifth whole thing time keeps telling day shell come herself pressuring fear even invasion privacy make stressed prevent able even think mess room without breakdown passions pursue hobbies except browsing reddit watching youtube sometimes playing nintendo activities enable think real life idea want life tried following do want fun plan worked free time school makes impossible anything think future worry ill doing im lazy posts like rgetmotivated sadden im unable things like people do school subject enjoy english im european second language even felt proud passed cae test june remembered years probably need translators anyways thing im good used around wizz kid fell grace fell hard mentioned thing im kind good languages love failing learn literally anything years german middle school attemting teach italian using online resources month getting lazy giving up feel like failure potential never used someone could great goddamn lazy everyones something im avoiding work schools started new teachers new expectations soon start giving pop quizes asking questions answer live front whole class grade i forgot called english used enjoy going therapist someone talk recently ive started lie omitiom stuff understanding trans thoughts defend opinions ive avoiding certaun subjects wishing time go faster meetings makes feel guilty parents paying even though also get pocket money generally feel like deserve lot things ive got makes feel guilty anxious even know im way calm listen bob ross hells sake think world would better never born,1 +every day wish people became okay dyingim tired fence this want get something done,1 +sister spoiling videogames ok prefer playing video games blindly little sister not always problem want play game course sis except boatload free time since highschool end never getting around playing game whilst sis playing matter much try stay away spoilers cant avoid seeing sis playing game dragging whatever wants show it im like im sorry want spoil game myself says well cares spoil everything you still play game shell pester whatever wants see ruined many games me,0 +fuck fuck fuckthats,1 +want tell story die dealt mental health issues whole life tried harder anyone expect need to earliest memories father coming home drunk high beating mother would hide bed play dolls sister would hear beating her always wanted friends never any weird kid could go anyones house unless invited remember peeing pants outside door invited in remember father living minutes road never there holidays look good front parents remember mothers family hating me telling would like him men worthless stepfather beating me would blame say lying remember kicked house still school defending raised fist her hitting him making cry mom good person get it remember homeless remember meeting wife second job breaking grandparents house gone winter drinking much wanted stop blackouts gave peace remember years happiness wife well close someone like have remember us going school planning future going chef wanted writer remember knock door hearing ok hospital seeing her telling call family calling them knowing say got headache work started crying sitting passed said sent bigger better hospital remember driving there drove fast reckless took helicopter tests remember told aneurysm brain dead asking sign papers unplugged donate organs brother wanting father see again father molested her molested her went prison it remember stalling could see her know right thing do hated him daughter reason important brother remember supposed touch her remember touching anyways remember breaking already broken bipolar whole life remember signing papers take life support able passed much apologize kid could handle much killed stroke pen say brain dead already dead ended it remember getting mail told organs saved lives calling family even father them remember next years well drank lot trying kill myself stayed family mine made unforgivable mistakes got angry came close killing remember pulling knife going commit suicide cop remember multiple times tried get help remember giving up going group home hoping would get help trying many medications counseling left rot spent near decade there tried anything offered failed me failed well never following through promising things never happened group home infested bed bugs cockroaches covered bites always roommates needed help none us got jumped teeth broken mistaken one sexual offender years trying leave another bringing weapons house would drink together would pull one tell kill would kill himself went stay mom trouble typing more need break finish later anyone wants story much could write,1 +hi uh took mg melatonin pills die side effects help melatonin effects,1 + graduated hs hate life rn hate parents much unbelievable extremely well school ranked class played sports joined clubs worked jobs volunteered n end feels fucking worthless school district graduated small majority students white minority hispanic population honors classes took white kids already friends since parents went school even though tried fit certain groups people went events showed happy ready never really seemed stick onto group people time studying school over deal insufferable parents mom pretends white let wear style clothes like makes dress like year old golfer dad control freak calls lazy fat time rlly sucks feel unwanted time came terms fact bisexual tried dating apps tried meet new people made feel worse body am felt used incidents now trying workout go gym dad let go sign waiver saying allowed go wants come me makes feel like cannot around parents feel like want cry time know may seem stupid really try sarong person sometimes feel alone place turn to feel friend since th grade distancing me saying busy time hanging others idk do get feeling sometimes like want live anymore hate life rn,1 + think overdosing asapi really really cant anymore im waste space little potential gone everyone could carry better wasnt here burden thats ever be feel calm rational think it like everything going solved everyone elses problems gonna okay solved go thats feels,1 +maybe tomorrow morning cannot stand it everything loud cannot stay longer body mine anymore done feel like tonights night,1 +im ok im ok im okim really ok im really ok im really ok get triggered hope get triggered faith get triggered redflag hotline pathological liars maybe someone talk wont pry location pick body case fuck get distrust,1 +yall live oklahoma city area im going weekend wondering yall cool things check im,0 +hey folks thats now theres gonna anymorei want die flat i want to die hard say text cant voice anything feel immense judgement wether judgement real head feel real cant anything crippled me im even sure really want help im going woman love dont think want help want waste away get shit faced high watch adult cartoons cock gun shoot cant reach people one wants burden cant handle push away instead dont even know im posting here maybe im bored want someone talk die,1 +anyone else feel like dont deserve happy life due much pain suffering millions people gone throughplenty innocent people gone terrible things throughout course human history get normal peaceful life,1 +legal get old cavalry sabre like really want one think super amazing nice conversation piece scared get save one really want it,0 +fellow teenagers want know everything alright much love you,0 +pepsi coca cola glass,0 +made something hangmyself end sleeping outside humiliated tortured myself,1 +yeah is fact somewhere top time favorite movies number think anyways im usually one plots think plots work better anime rpg video games final fantasy example movies one all vivid drawings planets stars extremely well written screenplay really children still watch it contains graphic blood guts silicone think theyre going understand it,0 +please trash art got rejected art collab thing cuz like portfolio please tell sucks art improve qwq stuff here httpsdrivegooglecomfolderviewidjggirwnmmvvtghcldulicduwkg,0 +stupid shit weird keep giving sad people helpful advice never works personally give fuck sunsets finding soulmate succeeding care therell going back whatever paragraphs used write comments true im fucking hypocrite telling people things believe in fun cool idk much take,0 +guys help cat started attacking reason cat started attacking reason literally computer saw cat slowly walking leg literally bite reason screamed pain started run away guess what cat started chase me currently im room door closed im trying give something calm dont know what,0 +redflag preptried practice cutting hitting build courage stop even feel depressed empty anymore im slowly filling convincing planning this feel sick way out im confused itd easier die way open sending nothing cant help surroundings one time therapist told mourning friends redflag sometimes people really want kill will give hope someday could finally it sits mind almost every day want feel anymore bring one else hurt them,1 +want drive away hang myselfim tired one gives shit feel parents give shit remind disappointment am matter hard try never satisfy anyone matter hard try one ever think im worth talking to medications put anything want get better anymore want feel anything anymore,1 +know doi recently left husband ran away another state living friends right figure im doing know im depressed again sleep time barely eat see point anything husband abusive physically abusive past take mental abuse anymore even ran sticks me recently developed feelings someone else fully believe hes leading on sleep bed weve kissed feel like really want me wants warm bed nights stays unless staying things awkward weird us cant get mentality starting nothing money im pay rent apartment lease cant even stay at feel like burden everyone want anymore,1 +tonighttonight nothing went wrong actually things going better ever sit feeling like something going burst inside want stop anyone wants talk maybe tell shouldnt add snapchat rvassel fyi im gay live sydney im ,1 +reason livehi first sorry english completely reason live cant focus anything enjoy things like books games even youtube video every day looks pretty much same nobody really likes talk me one real friend talk really rarely im stupid pass school point od life theres reason getting bed ive attempt three months ago ive failed becouse know tie loop properly what fucking funny still marks neck so do huh give single fuck anymore like life arleady going right formality thanks time,1 +romaniaaawanted go see girlfriend soon borders opened up dumped suicidalautistic ass lol cant expect anyone want deal you im sick always alone tho yknow like holy fuck whole life decide let guard down let someone become entire worldsupport structure im even fucked mentally go back forget spent time thinking one like happy im not downing bottles whiskey sleeping pills getting catanonic fading life bit bit cuz wanna die im back door idk knock im always welcome thats probably im gonna die gg life,1 +combination meds criticali took like mg opipramol mg mirtazapine mg lorazepam mgs xanax also mg venlafaxin matter h want sleep possible die kind medication taken once,1 +im going kms tonightand im afraid send redflag note im terribly sorry ive hurt hurt again hope find happiness deserve love much im sorry keep fucking cant better youve always deserved could give ive never understood cared,1 +call american committed tax fraud least one helpful tip avoid taxes want buy game ps set location montana dont got taxes games there,0 +seven tries diesim lived long im classic quiet nice guy party sits hurts much talk anyone ive lived epilepsy frequent seizures insomnia depression chronic stomach reflux problems last years hurts much carry on great support want part helping myself ive done nothing fuck things make peoples lives harder since started working them im sorry wasting time know im alone seven failed redflag attempts impending drug addiction cant look beyond that history reddit thought id least say goodbye strangers since thats anyone anymore thank supporters years know things could worse im making decision time go ratchet strap ladder garage ready tonight maybe eight times charm anyone cared read this bless you hope find life did,1 +im confused right normally lot black eyes yesterday did woke morning saw mirror something different realized black eyes gone ive since suddenly disappear fuck,0 +gonna second birthday days able celebrate health want stopmay everything went perfect happier ever life great friends great home fullfilled dream passing test art school got place one weekend working hotel working backoffice like usual hot working hard nothing unusual past weeks already experienced little symptoms blurred vision headaches weight loss high blood sugar low potassium pain side hospital gave potassium tablets point still alright suddenly went downhill dinner felt incredibly nauseaus mouth got sore almost every touch bruises mouth resulting got infected stomach got worse worse despite medication felt incredibly sick hot cold nauseaus time dizzy times felt like dying dragged doctor almost collapsing waitingroom said fever probably kind flu sent back weeks passed condition got worse day went again another blood test everything alright potassium low again prescribed potassium could take due overly sensitive stomach tried eat raisins contain lot potassium one day lie anymore got vitamin b complex pills condition improved parts hope went another doctor mother told would always bit weird head doc laughed claimed would simply stick finger throat simply eat switched doctors more told everything sent hospital gastroscopy colonoscopy severe gastritis despite acid blockers hplyori allergies tested negative apparent reason inflammation got pantoprazole take day done shit got back doc waiting weeks hoping pantoprazole would something ran another blood test vitamin low b potassium aswell again tsh high got b injection since burning mouth disappeared symptoms stayed months passed sent different hospital another gastroscopy gastritis onlymild now still there ran blood tests aswell see them thing able catch blood sugar eaten hours gave find anything either tested diseases like aids parasites aswell negative went back doc final blood test tsh high ultrasound neck thyroid gland know english turned normal sized said nothing would wrong must mental issue months already sat several times meditating listening therapy cds hopeless trying find cause problems life aside current health sent therapist go since months now get along pretty well yeah feels like trying find something yet exist also seems bit clueless now weeks ago friend sent article woman almost exact symltoms story turned magnesium deficiency filtered several internet sites tried find trustworty information sounded plausible magnesium important body tied potassium also connection insulin resistance also year beforeni moved taken magnesium supplements regularly always slight problems magnesium deficiency stopped taking moved here started taking mg magnesium every morning stomach could handle suddenly able sleep night without waking numb arms could sleep hours frequent headaches completely disappeared could finally dream again heartburn got less frequent muscle cramps bad anymore thought finally solved puzzle problem could handle mg stomach searched alternative supplement could take better found one woukd absorbed differently apparently upset stomach much ordered it days passed took mg day condition got worse again day day understand still dont switched back old supplement quickly felt better again take mg upsets stomach mother allow doctor visits thinks focus therapy soon move boyfriend work less frequently improve mental health problem family situation matter say listen act like crazy almost years passed now watch friends go life young lifes successful two important years got wasted optimistic recently just know anymore see way anymore feel like someone stole years life still stop without reason behind it could turn time back know would change know causes this never really believed god prayed end many times now least know bad god sick this pain nausea sickness explaining every day even though nobody take serious anywaywhen started days amgonna want life back want healthy again nothing else cant live like anymore another year month week want find way bad film trapped in,1 +life right havent able play games friends since lost ability use internet connection moving new house month finally internet friends moved would appear used play xbox time built gaming pcs longer hop onto xbox guess parents see kids grow up feel abandoned dont think would ever speak thembut dont know do always heard saying one day might outgrow friends one said way around know fact closest friends yet hand im theirs life right sucks friends vent with going absolutely bonkers sitting house parents constantly telling chores know thats supposed happen teen right tldr entire friend group longer plays xbox bored alone,0 +mind foggydont waste time reading boring rant brought worldseriously why expected fix parents financial condition parents guilt tripping me feel destroy lives kill myself still love them im lowest now cant stand concept luck world creator world exists hate death underdeveloped scared individual day day realizes survive this day come day parents collapse able live own total failure hate using cliche word objectively true many successful people around me pressure high cant expectationsi cant even took expectations away wouldnt even able live want cry day nothing get disease vanish sound vanish born experience much pain die born even strength end suffering cant kill keep living hectic torture machine even know im writing this know deep things bad trying get help noi guess scream internally heart hate every second existence im furiousi hate parents brought piece shit world expect happy time hate much hate anyone else hates me,1 +insulini diabetic loaded bunch insulin bit ago im starting feel low hitting shakes nervousness fuck living hopefully ends soon,1 +fuck shitty worldwhat fuck point im failing school friends money parent wish could kill another hate much nothing makes happy used music maybe video games now nothing find joy nothing pain want hurt anybody want happy cant happy prison figured would tell somebody it time move on,1 +im fifteen already want dieim tired living spend day alone ive lost track time last months flew cant focus anything im constantly exhausted lived toxic family ive gotten beat belt thirteen punched twice constantly insulted father tried telling mom brushed everything told her sister completely invalidated anything said whenever said something little please that got attacked ends family trust anyone that cant talk people whenever someone tries talking freeze up whenever adult tells anything completely spiral teacher would tell stop something would feel shameful got bullied pretty much entirety middle school schools punching bag everyone would always make fun barely spoke all teachers joined too would get called on go silent would wait speak everyone waited around found friends least thought did im anybody else talk too year entered high school terrible get through felt empty time would pass would stay room im scared leave im scared talk anyone now feel like one life trust then first semester went home got called retard dumbass idiot days got pushed around yelled at etc know feel now im completely lost alone isolated im tired haul everyday want sleep things used pull work anymore anything friends anything enjoy anybody turn too cant much longer feel like escape this keep waiting get better suddenly four years passed nothing changed nothing seems change know else do im hopeless,1 +so fairness entirely sure found here want leave life behind no really honestly good life people love me physical sense know alone reality am attempted multiple times past mostly drugs remember sort thoughts went it time happened know anything either woke throwing guts hospitali really know anymore beaten batted mind years break mind gives fills false hope never long everything comes crashing back gotten point life things continue get worse memory nearly nonexistent point sometimes see hear things real mind feels like everywhere time somehow feel nothing want die also want beaten mind longer losing touch maybe even lost touch already maybe end maybe not truly know anymore hello,1 +dad savage every time ask dad go friends says youre lying know friends laughs ass off im mad time proud,0 + years ago decided come korea study electronics engineering came korea tech industry good part of hence enrolled got admitted prestigious university first week classes nice initially attended english taught general courses well daily hour korean intensive lessons met friends people english taught class mainly foreigners koreans lived abroad people korean class really nice people different countries different backgrounds though would friend group wrong semester goes on people hang nationality groups mean hang people country started get left behind i nationality groups undergraduate student country university people country usually go east asian countries undergrad time passes by see japanese friend hang japanese friends vietnamese people hang people chinese people hang chinese people course koreans hang koreans one school event reality mine would rest undergraduate course struck me event freshmen students people went hanging friendnationality groups thought would hang people korean class however expected went groups left alone wandering around food stalls hearing seeing people laugh friends good time walk pass groups people decided head back dorm roommate korean asked with best english why spending time friends told i did feeling sick changing weather ampxbps know exactly post this want heaviness chest wish belong,1 +fucki flight hours alone wrote pages kill self boyfriend says hes ex never be cant this im ready,1 +supposed feel amazing instead killing purposefully anyone ever thought acquiring solid heroin addiction mean would make everything better time might get lucky overdose point,1 +suicidal postconcussioni got terrible concussion months ago really bad still lot symptoms still cant play sports way back happened cuttingsuicidal beginning th gradehalf way th im typea kind person classes aps cumulative gpa unweighted etc etc realized freaking retarded depressed constantly managed move on junior year great happy tons friends starting varsity basketball lacrosse still jv soccer though got concussion end junior year went hill grades dropped weighted quarters straight isolated athletic friend told parents sports med doctor really think long hard ever playing sports again thought long hard decided try start running deciding bad idea collapsed dizziness every time quit lacrosse quit soccer quit basketball started running everyday first street slowly increasing distance still got headaches grades still bad still cant concentrate went neurologist gave steroids stop headaches worked made sick slight anger problems scare old friends away im disrespectful people know bad thing cant help it happens cant concentrate anything know started right concussion right quit sports keep feeling like life honestly pointless now short term memory problems im constant trouble parents grades keep dropping im longer superstar athlete used be know im young know came back cant tell parents dad thinks im still faking headaches mom believe mental illnesses honestly know anymore,1 +people see redflag bad thinglike put dog ill acceptable humans hell let themselves people aggressively want humans live bat eye animal put down depression fucking disease cant put like wed animal disease whats double standard,1 +nothing ever make feel satisfied myselfi keep pushing people away know theyre better without lives im finally alone made peoples lives better leaving still feel selfish empty want fucking leave earth want wake,1 +hhs antinestle memes start im happy got see themhow supposed live mean seriously know everyone stopped buying mcdonalds pepsi etc including myself world would better off even that boycott believe in hypothetically one wants fucking power say buy different brand guess what im minor income consume brand parents purchase know care important defeatism highly contagious im already depressed hell knowing childhood raised processed snacks contributed pounds pounds plastic production supply demand well family never letting chance recycle feel like piece garbage making much garbage cant fully blame corporations as much wish cannibalize leaders of us keeping business thinking theyre welcome stay make shit like burger kings unhappy meals gets nothing meme buy extra diabetic cholesterol supreme cheeto burger would mom asks want dinner refuses hear beg us eat vegetable mom cant boss around like that these kids want feed can world falling apart environmentally partially reluctance longer depend offending business im going sit strangling phone charger pass get freedom mom tells take trash third time week much waste groceries produce want stomach hurts even know right complain im too world better without me probably better without lot people murd,1 +good afternoon everyone didnt wake pm mom fr call campus coz thought kidnapped crazy anyway uncomfortable around current friend group ive acquired simply distancing easy peasy happy slappy,0 +yesterday finally great time lot shitty days cooking listening favourite music feeling good mother came music stopped started feeling like always knife hands thought stabbing would stupid shit live someone like mom empathy people also hypocriteshe always told us kind people judge appareances said sisters taste clothes like going carnaval costume partyshe always told us lie hide truth always lying dad telling need money school something dad send money evaporates something she lot shoes closetshe always told us violence solution clearly remember hearing threatening sister saying would break face listen obbey also remember day came form work hit thrown trashshe always told us trust bothering lot care anymore thinks smoke weed something seriously person since child refused alcohol every time offered himshe also told us care us always ther hear hep us said wanted calm got mad started yelling asking reason like this said care fake when get home work want smiling hug me said almost everyday ask something tell need help blah blah blah always says no want talk would get even worse morning made wake cross whole damn city her arrived place waited minutes told needed could go home wtf knows school wanted disturb me fortunately see next days hospital showed way going visit her forgot write loooot things started feeling worse leave everytime mom near want stab knife,1 +so time life antidepressants stop working matter much increase doseage rd antidepressant working anymore year citalopram cycle since now sick all sick medication,1 +let depression dig deep financial hole trying fix it keep set backs every time get back feet get hole bit something comes along pushes deeper get fault it still hurts paid insurance premiums time would facing uncovered accident car severely upside on got car pre pandemic lost high paying job able recover fridge busted twice leaving food bill collectors call tell irresponsible getting car cannot afford could got car want die energy fight anymore see way,1 +hate myselfive come conclusion hate myself cant stop putting down got chewed missing many days cars broken i deliver stacked on cant accept compliments cant accept gifts bad things criticism myself every single day whole life cant make stop everytime date never lasts long maybe month sweep feet first get know find self esteem one girl let out put table told flat out depression problems know fix them went detail way am actually ill now mom especially siblings put time growing up matter tried stupid ugly good enough remember first grade considered putting birthday party invite friends sister quick note waste money friends frankly right knew it think around age accepted abuse would family lie worthless never went away im still think im shit told girl much that never told physical abuse kid embarrassed used get really frustrated myself used metal box kept canned things in id punish slamming head wall it really hard grade school age st nd grade told cut already eventually stopped id punch arms legs middle school age would get frustrated myself girl ended leaving ex ago since dated on think ill always alone nobody wants around somebody cant accept pleasure others self esteem low ever was need therapy cant afford it really know do think im close redflag thinking would did maybe awful option people make be done right so id cost efficient way possible also want somebody finding body like said im so guess needed vent depression episodes go stages ill feel better tomorrow hopefully come emo douche,1 +wish solution depressioni really really want die wish done years ago people always told would get better hasnt life spiraling downhill since rope closet might use hang soon problem atm im tired get motivation deed every day past years ive thought dying plenty live pain im excruciating dont know relieve it want things different dont know do wish could peace,1 +drugs real theres reason sau dont drugs kid,0 +time feels weird feels like gonna start day,0 +get work hours im donemy shift work ends hours im thinking driving car bridge nothing helping pain im trying hard nothing coming it im failure nobody understands whats happening nobody fix whats happening feels like never going change nothing live anymore guess im reaching help last time anyone really got past this abused family members growing up past years recently gotten worse last months absolute hell im has anyone gotten passed this please help me feel like choice,1 +trauma top trauma muchso read people hurt boyfriendsgirlfriends someone cares them jobs family lives cannot even begin regurgitate failure life story now aside car accident third one none fault landlord lives upstairs yelling things fair making feel unwanted like im hostile atmosphere tried get second joba tutoring company answered questions correctly say desperate tutors online interview hire me get nowhere world unmarried scarred trauma would someone want live love have struggle poverty wearing thin decades ready cave see reason carry on,1 +ok read book maybe book betterwho knows loved movie entertaining bit boring enjoyable heart wrenching friendship two kids pure innocent kids acted well especially son servant oh god thats like form god face earth arghhhh steals heart easily spoilers friend rich guy kid confusion frustration understood get angry abandoned ignored friend time needed consoling anyways kid bit stubborn to wish movie would also shown older version poor kid arghh pains think ending movie sad felt terribly sad ending tears dropped eyes yes background scores fantastic scenes wow kite scenes fascinating well gets bit adventure middle wonderfully acted superbly cast kids acted well great direction know movie failed wooo critics sure woo me mustsee,0 +made terrible fucking mistake yesterday afternoon dad bought jalapeos habaneros make salsa with instantly got work never thinking put gloves on done put salsa refrigerator washed hands ate dinner second dinner over parents got salsa ate chips watching movie really good floral taste habaneros really complimented onions vegetal flavor jalapeos three us watched three movies got dark dad left my parents separated still great friends taking chances washed hands done eating salsa hour later mom took nap thought hey got house pretty much nows good time jerk it went bathroom pulled sweet vid pornhub malena morgan mia malkova went town despite handling peppers hours washing hands twice still felt intense burn halfway through cried toilet minutes crawling couch living room getting fetal position clutching junk reduced burn reason minutes mom woke asked wrong confess told aloe started laughing knew better moral story never masturbate day handled hot peppers tldr handled hot peppers without gloves washed hands jerked hours later still burned myself,0 +hey boy target want stand balls wait mom finish shopping,0 +normal always act weird way,0 +depressed long remember try hardest never self pity know fact many people much worse recently thinking kid used disappointed would me know lot down bad night,1 +really want cat live something so like ive wanting pet long literally since really really young apartment doesnt allow dogs grew older mental health issues started getting worse got psychiatrist decision get therapy dog apartment allows therapy dogs last moment decided wanted cat instead match energy less stress apartment building staff really want kitten im suicidal nowadays need something live problem first kittens expensive parents dont type money kk second all dad saying apparently theres room apartment clearly hes complaining fur left around im literally going clean doesnt clean house mom to concerned dont think im going able get cat im really really upset im crying right now anyone advice could give im really desperate ,1 +anyone way get getting heart broken would really appreciate rn thanks,0 +hopeful im sure im going kill myselfhi im f freshmen high school ive wanting end life since years old continuous bullying lasted till suicidal thoughts never left developed mental health issues like eating disorder social anxiety the bullying also plays part there wanting kys much pretty bad pressure comes highschool keep grades worsens conditions joined new school highschool everyone dick mocked time really helping mental illness never told friends im really lowest point ever im afraid might actually kms anything ex want get back together feel best person open upto anyone im scared leave baggage please help want die,1 +said yes idk tho playing subway surfers,0 +cat like sleeping beside shes yoga poses,0 +living hardi cant anymore feel like shit everyday everytime want die always think it,1 +im slowly killing living sedentary lifestyle possiblehopefully heart attack claim soon enough,1 +tried cutting wrist butcher knifeanother depressed year old here half hour ago mom asked want go restraunt her said want to said alright told bring something back later left already depressed started throwing walls saying hate myself ran downstairs took butcher knife went bathroom sink started cutting away leave anything threw knife anger started crying know whats wrong me im homeschooled im lonely friends let alone gf hate life know anymore theres cents im fucking done living,1 +help please talking friend aimrrrrris available rrrrr dawg rrrri bruh bruh rrrr u know jesus got sign god gonna die rrrr youtubecomwatchvqvfrog yeah rrrrr thats feel right forreal think imma kill rrrrr like god told gonna die happened rrrrr there yo real cant say shit like go get waffles something like shit like respond rrrrr im rrrrrr nice rrrrrr happened rrrrr nothing really wanne dead rrrrr like pretty sure god want kill fucking girl like u talking twitter recently ur prob experiencing psychological withdrawals stopped smoking weed rrrrrr weird like legit want leave earth unless like immense pain go away like physical pain solike say shit like theres radio silence id legit worry rrrrr dont wanna leave bruh feels like rrrr why rrrrr like basically im trying figure killing dying we would something god wants happen happened life made change like seemingly enjoying life feeling bad rrrrr tell little plx wrud rrrrr die everyone know change rrrrr yeah necessarily better prob worse rrrrr prob gonna tongiht eventually think gonna happen matter rrrrr control it rrrrr think abot want dit u wrent online right id prob gone rrrrr would killed yourself rrrrr ton stuff want do like life like fun shit rrrr idc rrrrr assure you almost virtually god want kill wants help better others lives,1 +see pointill try keep short possible wanna bore anyone ive demons do matter do theyll never go away suicidal since think theres point living anymore bad many here feel hopeless anyway plot points interest you bullied nd grade til st year high school catholic boys school bullying bad made resent catholicism like trigger word find anyone catholic immediately trust them sorry catholic offends thats much bullying rewired brain found god became bornagain enough think anything enough demons always here found refuge woman loved never loved back now started reeking desperation sought love wrong places im convinced one accept anyone ill never good enough anyone good enough friend best friend close yet cigar currently graduated college radio dj keep getting shit mother tells real job verbal attacks starting hurt know else keep living ive never lived always felt necessity live them simply exist want need to think best way describe situation the world expects much someone never wanted anyway lacking live lacking courage die wrote case end all theres big fucking clue right post thank you,1 +like everyone else allowed frustrated me use lot upt unpaid time off time get vacation anything sister wedding a whole fucking week kids birthdays insists at things like baptisms know use lot hours them overlook love know want see me hours left shift hours might use today front house flooded theres car stuck officer blocking people entering emailed hr even sent picture company give fuck probably cancel,1 +energy anymore anything anything longer able work care anymore anything slept every day week left early played reddit anythingi longer able eat want food days since cooked starving point dizzy spells eat full red pepper go bed appetite even hungry someone puts food front me might eat it longer brushing teeth longer showering regularly cannot keep room clean barely moving care thisi sleep hours day always tired nap several times dayi artist drawn months lost passion minds eye blank new worlds heart anymore taking antidepressants could go therapy see point cannot keep appointments order get better care enough try care anymore anyone care me idk get this supposed depression hits completely dysfunctional levels,1 +bro legitimately cute like league necessarily heart cant handle levels cuteness radiates fuck gonna impossible get,0 +introduce worst traits hello im coffee addict attachment issues crippling anxiety,0 +please help anyone know anything overdosinghey guysgirls develop tolerance using h heroin week bro overdosed last year im wheelchair accident wife left well please god let suffering end ive tried od finally peace see best friend again snorting mixing heavy doses valium alcohol seem trick wake day later covered vomit think box mg valiums half g china white would trick maybe tolerance ive month trying kill ive experienced non fatal overdoses fuck sake want free hell anyone help me shoot whole g china heroin well mg valium surely would it not looking advice changing life staying positive please comment shit looking advice cannot take anymore thank heaps advice ,1 +woke please help im trying watch movie nerdy guy glasses goes hogwarts idk called feel really stupid,0 +conundrumsim alive someone else die alone knowing full well fate ___ ive suicidal years ive hospitalized times st time pills drugs time tolerance handled long enough someone find pump stomach nd time someone found got gun called cops knowing planning use it rd time voluntary then years ago dad died st conundrum dad always truly kept anything dad best friend person whole life knew gave shit im son son world died sleep nowhere undiagnosed sleep apnea found dead taking nap st conundrum is family members grandparents real old killed moment truly utterly lowest would go losing son grandson would also noone ro take care visit them last yearmy grandpa died grandma epileptic handicapped situation literally none feelings world want alive _ profession lets people work feed kids nd conundrum work lot good people big families kids card pocket says im cant work im journeyman work boss loses money too take food mouths families im around nd conundrum is much ive tried last years relationships start family find significant worth time ive failed everyone help gets that watch work effort give others things honestly deserve feel like ive drowning whole life cant handle anything anymore im tired,1 +feeling ok ion think stay world long cannot keep ugh,1 +waited bit went talked advisor vaguely briefly explained happened could get help understanding procedures understand went lab figured work together standing something samples advisor something else room suddenly looked toward door entirely expected fellow student burst yelling told advisor,1 +first saw film chance visiting uncle arizona years ago vhs print little faded looking haunted watched make sense well honestly didnt however film requires one viewing understand aspects beautifully tragic score haunted bizarre images made quiet impressionbr br well found anchor bay released oddity dvd picked immediately pleased transfer though felt extras rather lacking though film concerns o sir stephen characters really nothing pauline reages original novel film story o however film pay attention artistic detail symbolism almost mystic kind o decides prostitute sir stephen violent s hong kong mission prove unending devotion love master giving body men naturally sir stephen enjoys watching unpleasant sexual escapades even finds mistress however tables turned o actually finds kind love young male admirer suddenly sir stephen feels threatbr br i feel deep meaning behind film including tragic score artistic direction really make film classic viewer introduced lives pasts os fellow brothel mates turmoil s hong kong also explored like political setting prostitutes find need belonging one happy film even believe are however o find sense happiness young admirer one prostitute tearfully remembers father used act like dog drunk naturally leading fetish customers act like dog another older prostitute obsessed past actress cannot let vision go treats clients costars even swears hears piano river br br as o flashback father leaving chalk circle leaves feels sense abandonment course flashback kinski suddenly becomes father very disturbed image truly felt o point film hardly ever smiles scene really explains why fear abandonment great sees sir stephen father caters every obscene demand hopes proving love br br another curious aspect film young child that ages end sells fortune box random character somehow adds sense loss emptiness film one point director even uses painted cardboard figures represent people now symbolism you laugh br br all all really love film feel deep somewhat moving experience erotic scenes scenes really meant arouse like lives characters sex acts empty motions lack feeling tenderness once again tender scene o young man o believes love lowering honor however finds end choices person pursue happiness however also option stay circle father drew director leaves lot unanswered questions however things need answers viewer make judgment works them br br i must say wish special edition dvd would released director commentary think would fascinating hear opinion film message years later shame soundtrack never released film truly haunting heart breaking score something lingering vocals send chill spine truly feel sense loneliness film listening music,0 +made sub ive done basics cant add rules link comments dm would like become mod like said need mods add rules thats possible questions feel free ask rthequantumversehttpswwwredditcomrthequantumverse,0 +lost job today great week feeling horrible lost job,1 +current mood charles boyle says life party im piata,0 +now message sponsor rules changed theres fine line right wrong somewhere shadows send us find it bravo six going dark,0 +round crackers rectangular crackers preferred cronchers,0 +ate whole cheesecake ate whole pizza whole cheescake im prolly gonna die goodbye im fat tho im underweight,0 +know much longer shit tired hurt even care anymore let bad shit pile point fighting it sit watch life waste away watch zero fucking people give shit best expect husband pretending care convince narcissistic sociopath one cares fuck it fuck,1 +good lasted go alright turn five days figured id say words teenage years ill never return never get try again got many things way teen im glad jump hurdle adult came parents trans little three years ago dad started use chosen name big step graduated high school something saw near unnatainable goal kid fell love got hurt fell love learned importance loving relationship learned importance trust loyalty am school done teenage years moving new chapter life strange think mom age born teen years amazing lived lowtomiddleclass family afford lot always best parents always wanted best me even methods made fking sense sometimes advice everyone younger me burn bridge family almost turned im glad didnt ive got year old brother im glad im going around see grow up miss teenage years im glad experienced them im glad two three good friends stuck years im glad learned learned finally im glad shit over farewell teenage years ill remember bittersweet nostalgia fondly,0 +i essentially live purely obligationi want die hard alive lately things keep going family or least members family friend kieran passion music smallest hope still better tomorrow family selfexplanatory love brothers mother well grandparents father different story though necessarily hate zero love him id hate devastate killing myself despite brain always telling theyd get it anyways maybe would dunno friend kieran also reason hes six years hes done many financial moral things me hes kept going downward spiral many many times yet still treat like shit bitter sad feel time deserve him really dont love guy could ever know brother actual brothers sometimes music selfexplanatory keeps going hope also selfexplanatory though question every day still hope said still really wish alive things thankful for though theyre short supply anyways im lonely time time im depressed hardly room happiness any often times ill think im happy moment realize later wasnt merely distracted depression loneliness one biggest blows romantic failure girlfriend attempts ive made getting one year flopped completely first girl tried getting of genuinely liked connection too ghosted upon confession never acknowledging since second attempt lifelong best friend emily hardest part fact wanted date did issue was attracted women guys despite best efforts look past that blame her but still hurt ive always sort crushed bit get close actually meaningful relationship ruined something control soul crushing but digress absolutely emotionally debilitating lonesome way want loved accepted somebody likes me likes things do may lot ask for hurts romantically lonesome really really hurts another factor constant fear future want nothing write music living loyal fanbase share mostly horrible life experiences with well give advice aid via music create wish wealthy though dislike that want earn enough live of well buy things id like buy there however constant fear ill never able live dream out skill limitations time limitations way world works etc many factors working me terrifies know possible ill fail almost makes trying seem worth it try know better chance failing passing obviously plan giving time soon terrifies me keeps night yet another thing depresses loss innocenceloss innocence shit childhood that whenever see pretty girl watch anime see cartoon etc become depressed cartoon anime ones show things like love stories coming age stories even simple shit like kid normal life get jealous that upsets me and especially depresses me sexual stuff see hear anything sexual become so depressed know why weirds too get it probably understand since even understand makes articulating impossible tried maybe understand and lastly final thing ill talk adds anguish since many anisocial life become money friends besides one best friend cant get much since sheltered life social skills goddamn terrible meeting new people huge struggle me so naturally get cooped house long periods time thinking sad lonely and trust me thinking much regularly dangerous im sure know that really eats away you apologize wall text call post lot mind get out even ive repeated shit almost every post ive made thanks whoever reads stupid thing comments especially comment really need human contact even comment reddit heavily appreciated cheers good daynight ps sorry typos really feel like reading whole thing revise it almost am lmao,1 +momat night dreams see alive well ask been happenedi never receive answer need again im sure ill see kill want someone kill me need peace,1 +almost years since last saw mom always missed her terrible job living alone wanted call always busy talked really quiet voice year dating boyfriend decided tell ask opinion honestly really care instead told okay it couple months asked could go live missed honestly missed her arrived cried maybe seconds gave awkward hug boyfriend nice kids thought would fine obvious likes mom lot happy started saying wanted make years started buying whatever wanted lasted maybe months issue two kids nice got along really quick started clash things older one lies lot everybody he tells one thing tells another someone else younger one wants everybodys business wants know everybody doing started thinking maybe tolerated anymore since seem pretty close mom jealousbecause videos showed realized started calling mom moment heard say since called godmother before mom told also saw really believed told loved her parents boyfriend came visit along daughter law mom became preoccupied treat well show like ex wife she literally left kids husband another took everything her mom started saying worried daughter law going say something bad told stay room leave also said could go outside since fit car talked annoyed two kids want stay room day made face told inconsiderate never helped anything always told could tell anything always told fighting nothing could understanding stopped saying anything realized mad tell asks tells always tell everything started thinking would better go back living alone know do tired maybe two us anymore sometimes glad pay much attention anymore would know bad studying responsible mom new family sorry rant anybody talk this,1 +ok holidays approaching lot sad depressed that i need four take lives week goal get least people year got one need four more useless worthless like nigger loved right thing end today feel great please jesus lamb commands you end today love lord,1 +another fucking optionim dreading tomorrow im dreading today im dreading jfucking everything weather nice today partner happy cant enjoy shit cant fucking enjoy feel dumb fucking edgy want die badly dont solid reason fuckkmg exhausted tired hopeless fucking hell dont want anymore im forced dont options ifucking want end please im agoddamn panic attack dont want please let die please kill dont care miss dont care hurts selfish want best dying best option okay okay dont fucking tell selfish im hurting wan best let fucking kill,1 +god want ive got years till ill start drinking bad days away ill still underage dont think parents care want something bored idk mabey want go high school cause friend says way better middle,0 +concert coming th september thats last thing really care do feel like ill right thatso ig could last weeks right now,1 +babies dancin shes dancin another man,0 +dumped transphobic boyfriend two gender ass get fucked bad dont even feel sad,0 +fucked bigtime actually started months ago started dating current girlfriend around then problem meth could stay away long time end least month even though really fucking hate stuff first asked told recovering addict asked problem it said stay away her felt like maybe girl would able help finally quit good course months dating though ended getting high noticed every time last night told somebody sold day got high could tell coming downi kind feel like killing now feel like ruined life know meth ruined mine best friend year old girl too best friend ends getting curious ends know gonna fault told tell best friend young impressionable fucking meth dealers sell almost anybody think happen im gonna shoot myself know damn sure im never gonna touch shit now ive already ruined friend mines life introducing back first started years ago really cares about think could live guilt fucked up,1 +sergio martino impressed recently giallo classics the strange vice mrs wardh unforgettably titled your vice locked room key even so expecting much film case scorpions tail get mentioned much aforementioned titles comes classic giallo discussion know why least good two dario argento may king giallo five films made sergio martino surely far behind ways even surpasses master martinos films released prior jewel argentos crown magnificent profondo rosso back early seventies martino king plot follows idea murder profit follows insurance payout wealthy man wife inherits million long theres people blood turns dead shortly thereafter insurance investigator plucky attractive young journalist follow casebr br the case scorpions tail may benefit beautiful edwige fenech two martinos collaborators board famous george hilton worked marino strange vice mrs wardh colors dark along number giallos hilton great screen presence every time see italian thriller becomes obvious repeatedly cast beautiful anita strindberg remembered vice locked room stars alongside hilton excellently provides classic giallo female lead sergio martino good job directors chair again several beautiful scenes best taking place room bathed green lighting score bruno nicolai wardh excellently sets mood script that again driving force behind martinos success ernesto gastaldi writer martinos four giallo put together script thrilling staying away common giallo pitfall making sense thus liberating film rest illogical genre case scorpions tail quality giallo film yet another success great sergio martino like giallo love this,0 +guys dont go therapist therapist rapist ok get therapy someone says therapist dangerous people avoided costs,0 +rarely write reviews film simply demands attention gets contains hysterical kidnapping gone comically wrong sequence ever filmedbr br i seen found funniest film ever privilege watch laughed beginning end shame dvd videobr br you compare cinematography mad mad mad mad world promise anything storyline nearly complex mad worldbr br i hope near future film released would shame lose comedy gem amongst dregs nowadays,0 +one use email function reddit kinda sad underappreciated edit yall never used email function uncultured,0 +yes bored dm me comment stuff save boredom,0 +cant sleep suicidal thoughts strongfirst things first im male female trans individual recently turned job work walmart asset protection associate contacted bosss bosss boss a regional ap manager putting management position knew desperately wanted store close home me interview prepared for practiced thought id nailed alas meant be ive stuck working stores nothing abusive last two years usually report inappropriate things associates done said me never want person done couple times times ive done it nothing done it id given reporting them interviewer who person asked applied market ap manager going things could done better said one thing able shake really affected me told me six months ago never would expected interview someone like you times changing times changing me exactly theyve ever been like twentieth time ive turned job suitable experience education bachelors degree two jobs last years means feel like ideal candidate ing walmart management see point anymore ive depressed whole freakin life know much take feel like whole life wasted wanted true myself,1 +anyone else flair havent changed while kiwi flair relic point,0 +guys need advice get girl sorry seeming needy really want gamer girl like like back want mess like many times,0 +deal jealousy towards closest friends buying houses kids getting new jobs still dead end job yearsi actively avoiding happiness mess uo friendship consider worse years lifek debtthought dying s times gained stone losing boyfriend deportationbut every time called doctors get help courage continue calli struggling daily bases keep together spend time crying thinking would best bot anyone life would slow downthis may right place stuff felt bit better getting thoughts paperso speakthanks listening safe spacevent,1 +tell things ill tell favorite color yeah pretty much put title ill,0 +cant anything anymore everything getting worseso obligatory blah blah bah sob story makes sound like martyr years ago got diagnosed medical condition makes things pain course extremely severe one doctor went believed bad course parents find new doctor obviously im trying get school spent years life worst pain ive ever felt constantly leave classes degrading embarrassing failing school convince parents let take online schoolonly emphasize much disgrace worthless am get far behind online schooling deep really believe make years absolutely nothing going right now cant even go public anymore without pain even martyr thats really it course theres token grandma dying cancer take care of really person convinced cared me theres more feel like martyr yeah now fucking future think id make far second thoughts fuck up,1 +name yoshikage kira im years old house northeast section morioh villas are married work employee kame yu department stores get home every day pm latest smoke occasionally drink im bed pm make sure get eight hours sleep matter what glass warm milk twenty minutes stretches going bed usually problems sleeping morning like baby wake without fatigue stress morning told issues last checkup im trying explain im person wishes live quiet life take care trouble enemies like winning losing would cause lose sleep night deal society know brings happiness although fight lose anyone,0 +death sounds pretty good right nowive hit really low part life probably lowest ive ever been recently moved utah california huge change left behind friends ive ever lifestyle im used living mother dragged middle school year really bad since curriculum new understand works school system different nerve racking me hardly talk people due anxiety ive always strong disliking mom realize hatred basically life used religion abuse me stop acting like faggot i call faggot im parent since parent obey me she actually said that dad likes slap punch tell mom stop acting like jerk im sorry confusing mind lost right now really thing thats pushed edge is mother arranged go back utah week since spring break see friends hang them well yesterday mom left sister home alone sister complaining mother day wanting go swimming however mother would let her mom left told sister could go swimming twenty minutes chores agreed hopped pool well mom came back pick something saw us pool started screaming yelling knew sister chores getting pool huge health risk now that going take back utah see friends now destroys trying keep sister mom happy ugh know im tired upset everything death seems like easy way pain,1 +ah yes getting laid allgirl sleepover amidst pandemic im sure bunch people sub seen post guy got invited sleepover im disbelief guys believe quarantines depraved seeing people fuck man embarrassing around yall please better this even story true celebrating fact sleepover party pandemic jesus christ comments saying guy inquestion hero living dreams make feel slimy gross guess get girl subreddit im ready downvotes fingers crossed,0 +im depressed kidding people shout im depressed every seconds obviously trying gain attention upset say upset instead depressed its easy mixed up,0 +love show like watching mini movie week first episode gripping terrifyingso part pilot im definitely gonna keep tuning show real survivor ive looked comments see already one two episodes morons already crying wolf sorry another reality show kiddies time werenow brace yourself actual tv shows one actually good unlike crappy sitcoms today umpteenth carbon copy law order nypd blue csi series theyre dishing out watch form opinion take one boneheads here,0 +unironically love pokmon go fun able catch monsters childhood ahhhh love game,0 +parents track phone im okay im girl immediately puts target back creepy people comforting knowing someone knows times case something happens wish way im glad things like exist,0 +schoolworkis anyone else occupied sad like missing assignments idk me feel terrible rn,1 +want die scary myself want die sleep even wished god die know would that think wishing devil seem possible too ,1 + months working dieting result ampxb what thinkhttpspreviewredditdqzjafpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscecfabedceaaaaeaef,0 +blame weight repulsive look at maybe id stand chance saying fat people repulsive hate bodyas woman weights at least stone feel undeserving love happiness eat calories day refuse to fear ill gain weight also fairly active feeling really fat ill starve long day then ill binge eat whatever shit find nightto make things worse suffer pcos along mental health conditionsi sorry enough you anybody sorry pretty enough skinny enough attractive enough sorry existing sorry making people cringe mere sight me sorry okay sorry worthless f,1 +forced go residential anorexia treatment months ago parents threatened conservatorship me week extremely depressed put pounds ed clothes fit get new ones hardly money food still get agonizingly hungry used eating parents sent money since got out literally almost money spent new clothes oversized baggy ones hide body grocery items depressed hardly get bed see friends ashamed look like zero money head space work right now parents giving money feel hopeless helpless even considering selling pet snake much love her could use extra hundred dollars make ends meet much worse went treatment ask this feel like parents ruined life worse going treatment,1 +called bro called bro filler filler filler filler filler,0 +dont feel bad feel bad feel bad dont feel bad yes read right hope didnt die stroke youre still here im kinda convinced social anxiety im social situations dont feel uncomfortable think im lying social anxiety makes feel bad feel uncomfortable im content later exactly want want feel bad want social anxiety dont ask why idea matter happens feel bad way wtf,0 +worth itive told times try find reason live hold it have year now first musicals books studies whats damn point keep forcing care things live reason im alive keep grabbing scraps hoping itll make feel okay moment dont inherently want die shit worse yeah im alive im breathing heart beating past fucking nothing theres personality theres people theres talents hardly life certainly worth living,1 +worldppl cares give themi planet yrs one thing learned ppl care u something give them im tired this wish born way care productive im told wanna connect ppl want cant connect anyone awful feel trapped inside head hell u suppose u wanna connect ppl nobody wants connect u theres point living like,1 +ventjust vent staying edge cliff jumping yet think people see slut something try best seem attractive something idk psychologist told assumed people thought something even werent guy wrote sucked dicks donlt understand why always tried polite kind agreable know think opinions wrong feel guilty thinking like that people feel happy think like happy person feel crazy head hurts cant sleep hope could someone would care lot me day trust cheers everyday me feel desperate know do feel like mediocre worst everyone shit shit nothing want die please something magical make pain disappear want start life magically happy without substances im sorry think may caused negative emotions reader feel like stuck great thing feel better writing thoughts,1 +make buses stop tldr rant question hello fellow people internet past two days ive coming back school following way walking five minutes bus stop waiting bus arrive getting bus walking five minutes home woahuh simple three buses continued driving past waiting every time see bus need approaching stand close road wait continue beep point backwards let person infront get bus close door something wrong last time waited minutes degrees weather entered bus soaking wet sorry,0 +hihello name emelia using new account want history ive contemplating posting weeks finally decided it im terrified breaking rules tell anything wrong take post fix it live old relevant im going say shortened version story little rant share likely nobody read respond so post deserted feel guilty think redflag alot think might happen consequences are feel reason because even though rest family toxic mum cat two things mean world me used live whole family mum dad two older brothers memories except cousin hating me aunts uncles bullying dad even though lived together older brothers sound nice books protecters loving mine tormented every minute saw me life bad compared others competition dad incurable illness others basically means ache time energy stuck bed days week bad young but said remember much them story going tell weirdly peiced together bare me years ago seeing quite young parents got divorced rest main family lived apart carers would go every weekend remember loving going there mum stopping brothers bullying little know bullied scared too oldest brother angry would pound door scream luckily never touched hurt scared wouldve done anything save mum wouldve taken hit her even though never came that loved going dads money would buy snacks cook dinner me mum working two jobs brother slacking rent trying feed us every day yet felt sorry her wanted spend time dad mistake bullied school weight poor pretended care breaking inside pretended friend took advantage joined gang bullies realised laughed them pretended bothered was one pushed rusty nail went foot cry scream hid pain anger inside bottled up laughed said fine accident purposely pushing rusty nail fine fine pushed knife throat night held firmly head slowly backing away wanted want it selfish thought die would selfish monster yet heard redflag stories think theyre selfish would think strong going long unfortunate felt pain throat look led decision felt bad took knife away crying tear silently put knife back asked mum move soon possible next day stood started leave alone back dad would criticise everything do mum treated woman capable mature age homphobic racist sexist let stay home alone going somewhere hated hated museums parks fairs used visit grew tired felt obligated go one night snapped told get phone could watch war documentry interest in snatched away even though mum texting something important screamed threw dinner snatched back couldnt fight took advantage that brother could couldve killed body dad let even look me knowing would get knife protect needed little unhinged back then still guess guess thats one thing right night wanted leave cold raining coat shoes blocking it trapped mum picked up never went around again never saw him spoke arranged neutral discussion family friend lovely second mum moment seemed blame everything ganged on outspoken mum fight me stopped seeing him learned things done mum past left thousands thousands debt paid child support lied millions times spread rumours manipulated brothers false stories saw was longer brothers dad us two moved stay friend back feet bad seeing little money teens lived tormented much brothers did least better scared grateful grateful mum protecting me finding solution vision clouded rock hers made cry looking struggling wouldve still would given support could hated self able work support us hated thinking saying that felt like let down didnt fast forward years moved away got apartment slowly opening again forgive him tried therapists made anxious hard fill silence nobody talking me blank human free guess cant complain confident outgoing fake persona hide behind it even mum want im gloomy im weird feel like sane belong here good think redflag alot it would look smell feel hear like thought way would go many know stopped me aside mum would think way would look disgusted police would fat body way chin would obvious way would lift clothes see fat vomit sight me thought need lose weight anything cant ugly die would hurt others worthless ugly gay disgusting monster fat weird freak loud think it think things true fat weird loud curvy weird expressive agree both though darkness always consumes positivity makeup dress nicely ugh waist big double chin disgusting makeup blended properly im going attract much attention colour goodlooking people writing good enough ever going get career want disappear eat much get more want world see me feel loved deserve it annoying friends hate me im stupid deserve school deserve freedom homeschooling look like should girl skinny like that get surgery im lazy work more fat obvious jump love way look crop top people see back stomach want noticed want bold,1 +feel empty im depressed feel empty plenty good things happening life im healthy im set life soon turn twenty something enjoyable im depressed could make every request would change dont know strange would exchange thing get rid feeling kind healing way dealing,0 +film might next evil dead hell knows maybe will year worth look expect million film cuz disappointed expect entertain laugh enjoy experienceall film much better many low budget horror films there seen films spent times film cost make turned times worse effort put film far weighs set backs faces limited budget movies meant entertain movie sure that fact film might even open new doors movie watching available netflix local video rental store watch it decide,0 +rosenstrasse touching story courage adversity reichdeutch women find jewish husbands locked pending deportation one aristocrat disowned family lena fischer finds among mob general gudarians sister rank privilege merit special consideration br br nor service reich female detainee whose husband ostfront learn one horrifying scenes movie guards take wedding band given soldier husband br br lest think typical german brutishness america today lady bush imperiously ordering arrest gold star mothers mothers us servicemembers killed action presence offencive little regrettably changed years der fuher der fumblerbr br fortunately eight year old daughter ruth escapes capturebr br waiting cold rosenstrasse lena fischer first reluctant take ruth responding way take typically german even lena fishers brother colonel arthur von eschenbach aware opposed holocost cautions lena it lena chooses embrace idea american rebelliousness even renaming ruth aryan sounding name helga lehmannbr br the siege ends favourably rosenstrasse lena mourns happened ruth war years later ruths daughter hannah sets search mothers past meets year old lena guise writing personal history warbr br i deem interesting hannah wanted much look family never checked fate grandfather last known served ostfront,0 +want die decorate first ever christmas tree life cause cousin sister decided instead megrowing up christmas big deal family due poverty could never buy decorate christmas tree life went on grew lost interest buying decorating christmas treecoz life fucked mood disorder severe depression two years loosing father therapy sessions decided try celebrating festival time celebrate living make mom happy according therapist advice probably reminded wishes going left wishes high expectations always end big disappointments turns cousin specifically informed ill decorate tree mistake brought decorated without minemy mom involvement sweet actually meant good sadly one joy looking long fcking time got robbed off felt extremely cheated im left dark thoughts hand looks like butchered meat blood came sufficient sooth anymore favourite chocolate icecream pizza comforting me wish cut little deeper enough end pathetic life all,1 +im upset fathers co worker tested positive whole family quarantine two weeks even test negative school literally reopened last two band shows next two weeks im band hate online school almost failed half classes last quarter suck online learning able talk anyone half year worst thing cant anything even know im posting guys probably downvote mad quarantining,0 + roller coaster ride great start caught someone else party broke then realised let go got back together broke up became abusive went downhill there let go him kept hoping would work out never did,1 +dad wants monitor boy sister security camera room two flights stairs up im getting new room painting today dad starts bringing security cameras core details title defense if sister changes room when im course looking camera another way getting close underage nudity defense change closet got temperature light gun you point walls floors check temperatures one closet degrees celsius also wants least two get angles room creaking door open heat stroke going impossible best part isthe room two flights stairs climb anything regular cameras oh dark out wanna go outside two flights stairs check us no hard him soshould get one and hes even legal,0 +batman returns opinion first batman batman series half movie batman returns is first batman tim burton batman joker played wonderfully michael keaton jack nicholsonbr br in batman returns feel perfectly cast batman movie yes even better dark knight keaton returns batman perfect role never going far top character batman perfect film comes two villains hes against first danny devito delightfully insane penguin michelle pfeiffer catwoman dare say one interesting complex villains batman movies feel way pfeiffer way becomes catwoman starts rather pathetic mousy selena kyle truly dives dark side mind get brilliant performance woman goes trying hero villain suppose back hero end also amazing cast evil businessman max schreck played amazing legendary christopher walken supporting role theres something role love maybe look schreck film makes performance better already isbr br story wise say batman returns much going time around opposed first batman part reason loved story much fact burton dared go much darker twisted direction opposed nicholsons top antics story penguin tries deceive people gotham making new hero mayor city catwoman struggle decide really new persona comes batman feel one hes ring leader holds two stories together course kicking ass timebr br cinematography film dark atmospheric like story thats taking place within it gotham city never looked good bluray hd chance see way means truly adds overall experience batman returnsbr br so truly feel batman movies batman returns believe tops dark knight enjoyed movie heath ledgers amazing performance joker felt movie lacking something batman returns lacks nothing want see amazing film feel perfect cast batman light bat signal for,0 +hope best prepare worstone day ago tried contact one girl social media really liked school fact already done blocked year ago main account talked her courage alt account add friend access profile because set private private messages they set friends only right even checked not since sent friend request late night i really scared push add friend button entire day scary me worrying outcome possibilities almost day long well really know work not right want check added me declined friend request straight blocked also really scared that so check it declined even blocked again guess try commit redflag going enough reason it stack top problems life really bad stuff like p s sorry related anything posted here wanted share side story guess well see goes,1 +hopeless scaredhi reddit im longtime lurker need help family friends connected avenues communication feel comfortable talking people physical world reddit kind last shot want help think first please note im actively suicidal means hand anything resembling concrete plan however spent last two half weeks considering taking life things becoming solid day i figuring want belongings disposed considering best way make sure im found anyone know thinking method etc im starting scare myself seems culmination last three months loneliness stress ive always depressive though clinical depression undiagnosed parents want kid mental illness i convinced depression minimum said last months struggle even standards normally able pull episodes couple weeks good things happen figure fight back one different since came college gotten progressively worse would say akin sinking beginning fine swimming strongly cheerfully going meeting people focusing studying working hard while started get tired swallowed water couple times started get tired one met wanted hang me invitations things inevitably pity invitations point im barely keeping head water cant focus cant study barely socialize like normal human anymore exceptional ive crawled come smiling two weeks ago nervous breakdown screaming crying hurting myselfthe works scared me want hurt anyone drag anyone mess im quickly becoming go down want take anyone me deserve treated way treat them im angry sad time one needs that one needs person like me bring value lives im good writing thats literally have skills talents im kind im smart im good enough around people im waste space one good friend started build social circle one new friends like much furthermore friend disgusted see every time talk thinks im angry loud negative want part this love i love her begun try distance her deserves much better me would anything her im stepping away her tearing apart got friends miss me know sound articulate thats feel constantly state simultaneously nearpanic neartotal apathy everything scares cant make care anymore know logically people would care gone time know would better without me im drain everyones resources time deal ongoing issues go counselor im terrified theyll drop psych ward throw medications me forget me cant talk family would panic cant talk friends know tell this cant even get contact regular internet friends force reveal people want know im fucking disintegrating know much longer hang on want kill every day wonder bother living ive scratched safety pin last two weeks coping mechanism people would miss gone sure theyd hell lot better fucking everything constantly im scared fucking alone please help me,1 +jobs easy die inmy life horrible want live anymore however dont wanna take life im scared dont know painless method love serve people make others feel good might well die serving thinking military police firefighter else,1 +ive decided going kill scared tolife meant me know going here school hard life hard led mind slowly leaving me im going kill myself reason scared to thought week twice know will scared dying get it even death scares lies death heaven hell nothing black mind even comprehend death create faux scenario last forever one second know life shit fuck it im done,1 +want die badlyi wish werent coward could go it ive lost family cat he absolute everything grieve loss everyday health really dont want go on feel hollow scared hurting people around committing redflag wish entirely alone could go without negative effects others,1 +adults always feel need turn every light deliberately turned on complain amount lights house yep thats dad wanted complain,0 +wanna diei want stop living,1 +people realize everyone isnt american right like see posts halloween like realize people come countries really celebrate halloween like yall slow fown bit haloween posts,0 +even attempt show willing go edge otherwise pussy incapable killing seeks help weak logical no really also want show self hatred real joke something casual know guess surrounded mentally ill people attempted feel need join order feel validated besides wanted die years now passive suicidal thoughts intrusive thoughts extremely common day day life realize actual option cannot finish jobits weird cognitive dissonance people seek help attempting strong never be and honestly crave hurting often started affect notredflag want destroy everything around me cannot seek therapy help commit suicide,1 +cant believe killed yeti years old depression months know depressed afraid tell psychologist father might freak one day father came room help clean noticed scratch marks arm freaking thats want tell psychologist thats turned here,1 +anyone played henry stickmin games knows pain finished watching playthrough almost cried showed end text fill childhood shared name legend,0 +guys know free coop games could play friends something require higher gear computers fun play forest minecraft everyone afford,0 +soap opera small town married woman kay francis works local newsstand performs leading lady local playhouse dreams becoming star broadway famous actor ham windbag womanizer boot arrives town visits room dreams giving tips stardom pretends valet manager tricking believing takes experience become big star husband finds punches guy resulting actors unexpected death leads murder trial even unexpected life prison sentence hubby next thing know joined traveling burlesque show hopes one day making broadway making enough money get mans freedom baby sleeping trunkbr br this film pretty interesting plot well bit farfetched perhaps melodramatic with tons melodramatic music make sure get it greatly enhanced strong emotional performance given kay francis makes film also helping welldone acting minna gombell role getting close forty older lady works burlesque befriends kay worth seeing especially kay francis fans,0 +waiting opportunitywhenever parents leave alone home im gonna hang im scared,1 +im gonna need help figuring get tlsae coursepermit exam florida looked floridas official dmv website really want get permit would hate test person honestly social anxiety really want pay take test drug course either anybody help received permit im years old rehabs monthes taken permit exam actively abusing drugs long time done research requirements state need valid reasonably priced provider examcourse get tlsae course online permit exam valid certification standards florida dmv main intentions getting license age years old appreciate help provided,0 +life like movie sounds,0 +guys there many actually practice nut november seriously ive always thought people make memes fit times wanna know many like tradition,0 +something terrible happened ya im guessing somewhere world something bad happened probably im fine tho,0 +attempted redflag monday wish committed instead attemptedmonday aug th sought means end im typing madeunfortunately spent two nights icu happy released im really wishing shit would worked planned top already fed things employment terminated even left hospital unbeknownst time added struggle negativity me honestly longer wish here want someone else somewhere else am family sort friends phone could week nobody would notice needed ride something equally trivial dont feel like choice selfish choice didnt ask born didnt ask longer wish participate,1 +feels like rushing endi feel rushed anxiety killing me going go working trip san francisco make money able work months still sick pain mostly unbearable feels like hours non painkiller related time day get things need done ive sick body aches approaching months doctor multiple times visit nothing thought beginning flu basic blood tests nothing keeps coming back killing feel awful top preexisting medical issues chronic pain feeling like gall bladder attacks sometimes every day im honestly freaked moment think would good idea go work trip need help ive tried schedule doctors appointment another doctor try see get second opinion current doctor nice working out total years sick months flu like body aches stop tracks really second doctor called see prescription painkillers hes doctor town cannot afford leave town medical appointments people unreliable flat cant afford gas spent left savings january vet bills put dog due stomach cancer feels like snowball like situation feels like taken away cant go anything due fear death thought could family members even father take care of hell like cant sleep anymore like semi normal person even thing gives sense accomplishment lately playing world warcraft pain hate existence much driven crazy wish something could clear path person could help get shit taken care people vicinity indifferent think need buck fuck nothing go day reaction medication sign weakness im tired im sorry mess,1 +im bathtub knife hands listening musicthats it im sorry im horrible cant anymore time go,1 +byemy sob story im s born poverty still poverty sexuallyphysicallyemotionally abusive childhood abusers everybody immediate extended family barely scraped graduating high school flunked college lost financial aid first year ive never friends life recently thought talking feel like take much people feel guilty dont deserve help im depressed time bot problem wont bother them ive never relationship even date life im messed trauma severe ptsd think im probably also either autistic im disconnected dissociated myself everybody else isolated entire life never got chance learn humans work im fundamentally different everybody else also chronic illness causes physical pain constantly ranging moderately distracting best debilitating ive jobs since cant hold anything down cant anything right anybodys standards even simplest things tried therapy didnt work tried lot things feel like ive never loved never loved never loved im nothing theres nothing,1 +redflaghello reddit thinking while finally pushed self post this year old male turn days now life best worst want talk about want talk is redflag views redflag this like playing game using cheat skip end completed it soon forget entire thing entire time spent playing would pointless constant suicidal thoughts plan enough emotional physical strength bring self it life driven wrong direction good parts left behind future looks bleak best miserable depressed social anxiety constant anxiety attacks ripping emotional strength left get by depression social anxiety bad parts life make think redflag fact see point life see point living lost even live happy life end pointless one day everyone forgotten everything becomes pointless live fear one day soon get tipping point go ahead plans thought post get peoples views mind constantly taunting thoughts feel pointless life nothing help reddit used scared suicidal thoughts longer fear them really consider them tldr hard time getting life view life pointless thing suicidal thoughts longer scare honestly consider going them edit views life want anyone read agree me personal thing feel way please comment maybe help,1 +best life offeri got diagnosed bipolar depression made sense time pretty shitty life fortunately since im canadian therapy meds free unfortunately thing therapy ever make aware fact redflag thing never stopped thinking since meds didnt much stopped giving while one knew fuck wrong me didnt know anything either knew didnt want live thing kept going doctor would always say dont leave situation making sure seen all kill sure lived life fullest part might sound like hopeful part not life got lot less shitty time im now im sure ive seen best life offer family loves much enough money lots friends almost get guy want try im healthy look life people around livingi realize lucky am really cant get better im still miserable even maybe care money care friends people want deal responsibility family loving me one still knows fuck wrong me still dont know anything still want live maybe lifes never meant people theres always error mutation least one models anything ever exist thought hook could kill without regretsbut couldnt it went bridge last week maybe stood hour went back home cant commit thing i think stopping fear wrong im biased im young know good life is dont actually want die wouldnt put years im herereddit wrong,1 +guys fast httpswwwredditcomuserfrog_boyyycommentsmwzideleting_soonutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 +want death take menothing seems get better long all every day face insurmountable amount unhappiness exhausted pretending alright taking life always difficult me know die family member help hiring stranger invites host potential issues impossible put words severely want life end hurts even knowing gall myself,1 +point idk feeling looking little help guess months draining cycle wanting disappear even disappear guess like never existed feel alone honestly weird tried explain one person months ago cannot exactly stitch together correct sentences make comprehensible feel like everything paper flimsy like fall fly away everything draining even idea sleeping much body handle weird thought depressed people loved sleep somehow sleeping makes things worse feel stuck bubble feel anything worse fog see things around feel like apart them also totally separated everyone socially never one many friends recently deleted removed accounts friends said accounts blocked numbers besides two people honestly feel remorse even though known several years also things bothering good describing them thank whoever listens depression,1 +masterful adaptation one even existed need look it find nearperfect presentation charlotte bronts masterpiecebr br rarely seen film would urge read novel based admit here although read jane eyre convinced missed little way dialogue plot intensity emotion wish explore novel due immense curiosity emotion masterpiece stirred within mebr br i need divulge anything way plot here let say this perhaps unsure whether watch read beautiful story jane eyre implore doubt more every atom might magic reared jane eyre popular classic english literature successfully captured filmbr br what bront bring herself clarke dalton managed translate limelight stupendous intensity movies success is doubt due small part acting prowessbr br love jane eyre hate her appreciate richness vitality truth story love characters love actors would love great cinema,0 +another friendly reminder remember gonna people life come go friends partners family name it time come life always gain something it hug small people make us are try take granted could learn something valuable,0 +remember videos initial impact never forgotten viewing thriller thats needed feel twelve years old again but great video perfect even though seemed like time video first came out nobody ever seen anything like before music video medium grown leaps bounds fresh viewing thriller reveal faults necessary deconstruct song michael jackson walking beside girl leave movie theatre sings verses song skipping choruses becomes zombie comes time sing again zombie makeup inexplicably disappears sings chorus again again again make previous absence may first time song ever deconstruct fit visuals music video certainly last time continued problem age mtv best videos like jacksons billie jean beat it used visuals serve music way around still thriller great fun absolute must halloween,0 +sad think ill never able draw anywhere near good people mean would want draw weave pretty damn good story amirite,0 +ardent vijay fan never seen another movie good thisbr br it regular clichs one expect commercial entertainer hero bad studies star forte iekabbadi friends fill comedy quota heroine lifeanddeath situation villain say best ever portrayed protagonist high octane chase action sequences music make one dance perfect storyline keep factors within enjoyable circle perfectbr br the director give chance audience loosen up goes one nail head next one see lighter side vijay film rarely executesbr br all saidthis movie perfect many years come,0 +ap world history teacher redditor school went back today anyways got th period class ap world randomly starts talking ab reddit shes also got nukacola bottlecap clock apparent shes huge nerd pretty fun school year least class,0 +again want die want feel sadi cant fix choices hate life,1 +im going die soooo im lazy af hate online classes wasnt paying attention class turn sounds didnt expect teacher ask anything for obvious reasons didnt hear it friend text hey man asked something dont want say anything make look like kind problem friend call didnt pick expect bad stuff happen text hey feel like im gonna problem teacher millionth time want hide somewhere hope best,0 +finally figured crush on not anyone cares okay may sound strange longest time sure liked even like someone yesterday made mind step complete step say hi step accept ill always single forget ever liked her oh well nice dream,0 +maybe done nothingim sure smart constantly finding reasons kill reasons live im good anything anymore struggle explain feel im struggling with maybe nothing wrong cant afford get hour someone actually help figure every week dropped high school seemingly reason periods heavy fell asleep every class weird awkward friends one ever tapped asked wrong left started leaving lunch stayed home slept tried going back following year first week back ended admitted every medication made even sleepy seemingly wasnt anything wrong friendly truth time able talk someone telling shut up maybe obligation psych unit worked me feelings invalidated dont even feel like im treated like human hurt easily smallest things easier want end even inconvient others threaten anyways first time real im clueless genuinly clueless know nothing brain damn fog ever think beyond weeks im type person appears make progress falling forwards wanted text someone tell im struggling one dont want right now ive proven need supervised im alone waited let pass im still sleep deprived currently mean is know need to dont knowlege do solve bleeding problem im tired time seek medical help bipolar never manic episode ever would ride shit president america end day borderline align still get information is really help understand well best way describe feel currently hollowed im guess im incredibly uncomfortable mostly im lactose intolerant also self sabotaged myself tried hours ago idk im minimizing everything job interview hour change life even getting self chance lot blind ive been hate obigation im suposed family helped single dollar expect give money ever find nothing need shower wake little brain right im sorry rational,1 +need hope guysim yo first dont speak english good sorry that depression started years ago slowly getting worse every year last gf treated like shit lastly failed years school rn im first semester university feel like im enough im really trying really trying feel like im good enough get good grades even pass semester found good psychologists take thoughts seriously want text close friends close friend first ex gf busy work basically cant speak one want possitive everytime feel worthless cant help think finish thought brave enough kill last time drunk tried od im scared actually kill know die friends probably think hope couldve tell us felt know nobody really cares posted hoping somebody position give advice hope,1 +lmao get fun one groups online friends talk politics im ancap one nazi one commie one muslim theocrat one libertarian socialist one unironic nazbol one classical marxist actually hilarious rare occasions happens,0 +zany film rivals ghost mr chicken one knotts finest film performances knotts accountant podunk city hall good swindling citizens fire three competent bookkeepers keep dumb one knotts course dumb one garbage collecting cohort accidentally empties wrong trash can knotts finds wrapped bizarre trap set city council him funny moments movie include bowling alley restroom scene cemetery scene absolutely hilarious typical knotts nervous ninny act well used usual surrounded lots crazy character actors sixties actors frank welker pitt herbert add mayhem one may expect knottss armed big car pretty girl real clue hes doing fun anyone especially nostalgia buffs anyone love it,0 +people raise put telling everything ok you next day mean show nothing hate disrespect done them done world liars,1 +im horny ive got girlfriend help luckily ive got hands,0 +want die badly dont courage jumpim year old im considering redflag light fucking issues ive stopped able cope with born disadvantaged ive dragging way life ever since born nvld adhd nvldor none verbal learning disorder basically causes issues everything fine motor skills spatial abilities understanding social relationships excelling rightbrained task limited career options made social relationships throughout life awkward superficial best suffice say stunted ability connect people endear myself career destroyer since literally every career requires least fundamental understanding social relationships visualspatialbig picture related cognitive skills iq demonstrates best performance iq level someone borderline retarded verbal iq level someone gifted im basically walking parrot competent expressing verbally incompetent everything else done irreperqble damage selfesteem effects haunted throughout life ive always felt like loser incapable realizing ambitions succeeding anything beyond base goals this adhd another added injury insult placed strain already devastating cognitive deficits come suffering nvld ive never able achieve single thing worth mentioning entire life nvld holds back hindered suceeding endeavours ambitious am existential blight literally one greatest challenges life gradually pulvarized whatever selfperception selfrespect had also developed atopic asthma eczema allergies early young age impaired ability engage athletics later s came influence health severely decisive manner three years ago lapsed depression studying university degree history which never wanted forced pressure family one fields good at nvld giving good analytical ability verbal logical reasoning problems kept piling on months introductionary classes could barely sleep subsequently developed major depression result suicidal thoughts barely functional forced drop university recovered months bout already existing allergies amplified extreme making unable sleep due severe nasal congestion unable sleep weeks straight poor reaction nasal cortecosteroids matter did still got poor sleep period full apprehension depression period blew over simply fucked zombie slowly began recovering that month later develop acid reflux sent another period depression anxiety added effect unable eat months recover slowly acid reflux never went away neither depression anxiety caused lose weight since insomnia anxiety depression barely able cope with ate ton without thinking sleep deprivation caused eat normally do already overweightfrom isolation adhd causing poor satiety suffice say ive past years developed sleep apneawhich hereditary problem multiple chemical sensitivity former causing additional memory motor cognitive deficitssomething learned studied disease meticulouslyones irreversible adding additional issues already addled dysfunctional brain causing cognitively impaired premorbid state latter basically making unable function like normative person rendering completely unemployable long term prognosis life quality health someone issues poor zilch since mcs according current research basically untreatable avoidance exacerbating enviroments form treatment available besides sleep apnea causing become dysfunctional beginning irreversible brain damage ive researched possible solutions months way fix situation fail find nothing possible way treat brain damage osa possibly reverse cognitive dysfunction caused learning disorders via regenerative technologies still infancy seem like distant mirages desert actual available treatments could restorw previous level functioning mcs anotger issue struggle with etiology completely unknown longterm prognosis poor since treatments even recognized many worlds medical institutions people mcs end isolation life long issues short becoming paraplegic suffering severe brain injuries developing terminal cancer als ms probably worst life outcome person experience way around it like falling bottom less pit incarcerated cage bottom ocean almost nothing fix situation except try adapt vain find nothing nothing left there im tired humiliated given shortend stick life people know least successful functional enough get life born way never choose life conditions given ive stopped able cope them fail finding ways rationalize make justifications continuing miserable existence longer keeps finding ways fuck head turn everything me know choose stay whatever happens ill never find place contentness happiness life spend days bed trying numb myself complete apathy lethargy deliberating whether kill try accept things are life ahead looks grim future prospects look bleak barely worth effort continue cant dont really want hack anymore im pretty much dead everyway counts idea im writing this needed write this,1 +depression proudim exhausted dont anymore girlfriend left me last good thing life gone sick habit self sabotaging find sort happiness inability trust also unfair mental stability prison her feeling like cant leave might kill myself understanding spent life feeling way everyday cant understand doesnt get better,1 +family wrong whole life ive told family im smart always ahead peers school logical way thinking recently though finally realized case im smart im autistic well high school particularly smart think logically emotionally everyone know higher level classes me im struggling times im really smart im stupid sure might quite bit smarter average person family thing is theyre kind stupid younger believe it said smart also lived cousin epitome moron barely average people idiots im genius im idiot,0 +know sucks vision become lot worse quarantine think look screens much literally blurry even doctor doesnt know yet last time checked excellent vision sucks might get glasses soon liked beautiful crisp vision,0 +mood shit right everything fucking complicated worst outcome imaginable feel want violently beat someone right now,0 +hate life passioni wanna die dont ever see strong enough get life everything know people cant anymore dont want live dont want get old dont want family kids dont want experience anything life im done hate living ive crying day now think it wish could find easy way out wish virus would take me wish someone would kidnap murder me anything control cant anything im fucking depressed done im alone day everyday one dont care make new friends anything literally dont care damn thing anymore dont give fuck honest let one thing id give anything die obviously need find way life need figure easiest way dont want endure pain dont want to could get enough money get hard enough drugs od on,1 + another thingi want find another place sleep tonight want go back home want walk one step want talk person again want spend money wasted hours time want go process dying sitting bench next river right want fuse together nature tired want close eyes think anymore sad crying want to,1 +bpd controls entire life feel nothing feel empty time angrysadanxious want turn off think happiness realistic goal me therapy took dbt courses take medication still feel way getting worse ever wanted happy wish could die without making loved ones feel bad want stop,1 +told discord server made something minecraft decided toxic ill tell everyone rteenagers built first good villager trading hall minecraft,0 +im scared wont able itim sorry writing isnt good right now im scared posts sub always help kinds things ive plan long time now ive date mind later year so ive got enough time fully prepare ive adequate time change mind sort miracle happened life worth living reason chose date thinking little sister im listlessly trying minimize impact death would shittiest thing world celebrate th birthday year older sister died must birthday year less days date time book motel buy equipment im scared cant alive anymore cant bear even think continuing pull bed morning another day fucking horrible last dont even want try think continuing live past date alive living fucking horrible life fucking pain inside always know redflag selfish act nowadays really fucking makes sick listen people say things like family people love you because honestly me dont deserve peace continue pushing pain crying screaming happiness other know didnt make sense know must understand this ive tried medications therapy things never change thats ive learn things never change nothing left except pain nobody real life understands mean so please someone please talk tell im strong enough,1 +going ignore fact snoo glitched reality came back like bruh reddit cinematic universe crazy,0 +madhur chandni bar started making realistic films people called dry br br he made satta another realistic though filmy film great filmbr br aan men work formula film floppedbr br he returns superlative page br br a film dwelves lives journalists brilliant filmbr br the film well narrated though half baked romantic portions konkana could avoided forgivenbr br the entire upendra limaye track superb toobr br while atul kulkarni track great toobr br the dial manoj joshi friends funny first repetitive timesbr br the subplot bikram tara brilliant entire hospital scene also final child abuse shocks youbr br the film open ended ending nicely handledbr br madhur great job music okaybr br konkana excels madhavi using expressions best tara sharma decent except voice sandhya mridul good usual upendra limaye excels part cop one talented actors sadly used well nowdays atul kulkarni good small part boman irani restrained great job rest okay,0 +want try psychs like idk lol filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im gonna walk favourite place swallow pillsi think today day done understatement cried first time years today ive finally enough currently waiting phone charge im gonna buy whiskey painkillers way favourite place walton gardens dont know whats going happen yet im sure it dont anyone want talk feels fitting tend read sub lot,1 +think usually approach film festival comedies low expectation invariably quirky intended humor derived solely expense characters simplicity face complicated context exceptional big bad swim director able maintain integrity development characters film still finding laughoutloud humor scene scene sophistication maybe due also part sharp work dp ive rarely seen indie film even rarely comedy special note here paget brewsters turn amy math teacher seeing performance cannot understand brewster discovered larger audience brings necessary mix anger likability role really helps picture reach potential terrific work deserving larger audience look forward director cast,0 +suicidal im beta malei hate term represents toxic masculinity however best way phrase it i am a pussy form confrontation back down think evan superbad want able normal person im guy party friends upstairs fucking girls im awkwardly stood kitchen watching people fun women repulsed me natural born alphas betas fact determined genetics knowing existence never get taste like alpha makes life seem meaningless kill myself friends go things im pussy do cant fucking nervous sweaty creepy pedo around girls cant even talk fucking crowd without sweating voice trembling face red tomato cant become alpha kill life worth living pussy,1 +mts attempt minecraft,0 +wanna know whats stupid making money family business except parents dont let spend money allow get actual job either,0 +wanted say dont care day sorry couldnt care less jk,0 +anyone want exchange nudes currant desire ivory power untamed teal got fiery saffron,0 +used want white hair want,0 +holy shit tf u pink guy almost years old song used argument ender trump others actually give reasons explain people dumb,0 +im ft handsome creature yeah thats said handsome im girl fuck,0 +question teens horny af ones sub,0 +bithes like omg treats respecc actually thinks actual human ,0 +short film got gaspar noe movie map introducing us horrific thoroughly interesting character butcher played brilliantly phillipe nahon noes direction hallmarks later films showing carving voice style beginning sudden cutting along harsh loud noise skipping flashbacks many techniques used disconcert viewer certainly works also afraid showing violence viewers irreversible know violence equally powerful sequel seul contre tous almost unbearablebr br the film opens horse killed shot head watch writhe floor pool blood flowing out see human birth bloody glory daughter butcher orphaned wwii grown hating world everyone everything it serves customers interior monologue constantly reminds us thoughts wants dead daughter blandine lenoir would also reprise role six years later thing cares about watch grow older together however mute subject bullying toying butchers relationship almost incestuous bathing old enough etcbut explored next film attacked man butcher explodes rage stabbing innocent man mouth goes prison taken things wants shop daughter short minutes see more time prison release back world daughters state autistic well think bland little except stare full control father film continues exceptionally bleak seul contre tous can watch two films one first truly excellent acting difficult watch relentless tonebr br ,0 +u call bee produces milk boobiees hahaaa,0 +watching waco rules engagement sitting disbelief witness to big cover fbi massacre gunghotrigger happy government agents clearly remember waco standoff years old time watched cnn remembered reflecting children watched mount camel compound burn april remember feeling sorry children clearly felt fault evil leader david koresh davidians gazeckis film shows clearly beyond doubt even though biased fbi lied again think film big contributor reopening new investigation incident outcome new investigation sense predictable judgement relied fact grey facts davidians presented disappointed verdict far know take account lying misinformation evidence coverup fbi officials one prosecuted hampering work texas rangers investigators allowed contaminate crime scene bulldoze compound shortly incident questions given answers government importantly children new investigation informed responsible spraying cs flammable teargas compound many hazards igniting gas found answer whether childrens muscles contracted due effects gas alive did would surely think janet reno ever charge raid indicted masshomicide manslaughter question raised gazecki mentioned is direct plan people charge tanks cut holes burn building intent a plan would accomplished efficacy officials charge incompetent unaware consequence actions equally frightening even davidians set fire compound officials charge surely provided opportunity job officials charge knew claimed davidians would set fire compound f tanks cut holes building making furnace plans deal fire knew would occur dark questions still go away final relevant issue film way davidians demonized government media feeds public clearly remember resentment felt evil davidians saw cnn im older see clear line communication coming government every time gearing massacre civilians along intended targets demonizing people words like they different unlawful values us they enjoy freedom they threat freedoms way life makes much easier kill,0 + literally grow bruh whats stopping you,0 +names bond intermolecular bond,0 +wish cared mommom killed would cry yourself would cry knowing pain in would cry knowing id never paint portrait again mom knew going kill myself would stop me even knowing easy would lock closet straitjacket physically unable harm would actually put time heal mind even knowing long would take even knowing fucked am even knowing feel pain understand help think anyone world would me understand sometimes im depressed im holding knife wish could call mother comforted wish mother wish mother cared child wish live wish cared whether lived died too,1 +brag anything but im straight,0 +show last ten years deserves rare gem allows us escape back time things simpler fun filled heart laughs show keeps laughing three decades difference furniture ugly clothes colorful even drugs tolerable hair feathered music accompanied rollerskates words merle haggard a joint bad place be take trip back greatest time american history fall love characters feel good essence small town people nicer other classic television much full house miss it always remember shake groove thing,0 +goodbyei dont even know anymore blah blah cant talk anyone ive done horrible things deserve worse death honest everyone would probably throw party die thanks reading guess last stitch effort talk someone whats point dying sounds fun anyway ,1 +want put story therehi ive never done im sorry mess past filled abuse childhood sucked every time take shower get lost thoughts past abandoned abused poor every moment must filled music distraction recede mind problems cant sleep it dreams always nightmares killed different fashions ive worked hard ive worked large companies finally made management making good money fired ive worked hard since fired last year spent life saving start buisness failing spent ever last penny start new llc good friend mine said needed consultant got everything done decided didnt ive fighting whole life little little have dont want fight anymore whats point living nothing rest life im intellectual struggles emotions hurts relationship relationship bland anyway arguments sex aggravation dont want fight anymore dont want struggle feel maximum potential slowly slipping away ive achieved im ready take seat final swing set also ya know id call help line power call police would end right there makes angry wish someone would listen judge thank reading thank replying do,1 +anyone give legitimate copes stuff like go take walk nature dcan someone give ways cope this preferably drink drugs cause hard itd get it fucking immerse feelings finally fall asleep takes way god damned long advice coping bs like spend time family take walk nature d give something anything would appreciated,1 +day recommending songs like rteenagers httpsyoutubevsdrudyzg day far,0 +anyone discord servers could join may may tryna finess mod one ones inactive though whack,0 +trust test httpsyoutubebcjwpkhhgws so see top rolli swear life isnt so trust me,0 +want fucking die im oldi miss youngest person job im surrounded bunch year olds frustrating turned feel like missed youth im allowed enjoy anymore im approaching middle age im fucking mortified hate fact born early s dial internet flip phones vcrs thing hell social media didnt even fucking exist born feel prehistoric saying that would love someone put bullet head cant take old much longer,1 +girlfriend told might lesbian good one bois get f chat feel like shit ngl,0 +honest opinion song once song httpsopenspotifycomtracklusdtcgsrhhpiaeiwlsigetfdqfqmbckxgilcggw,0 +family keeps pissing household speak english spanish siblings speak english amongst speak spanish mom everytime get discussion speak english regardless im talking easier prove point since speak english better spanish everyone family constantly makes fun even tell stop say something someone saying word wrong get yelled at constantly happening pisses off know nobody gonna see feels nice rant somewhere,0 +option left think reason continue living wish someone knew way redflagi live central europe im finishing masters psychology useless experience takes years complete it wanted counselorschool psychologist working diagnostics obviously never going happen job experience never job parents care enough teach anything never pushed contributed depression got bachelor program focused studies always depressed energy anything else commuted long hours every day get job week last three summer breaks tried get internships even retail job always denied became seriously depressed want visit psychiatrist degree would useless cart soon graduate hopefully never job useless degree experience friends contacts uni help options like us ways volunteering theres that think option redflag ever hired even hours shift factory job risk work history logical way end ones life pathetic incompetent inexperienced person know irl starting believe need prepare end get myself chance failed fronts must face end accept homeless want be wanted vent honeslty know write again guess possible plan life end up like anyone care,1 +give life nothing uphill climb what drugs keep happy nose bleed middle class cause it nothing gone right everythings massive failure cant look anymore ill work shit job school buy drugs kills me give up,0 +moderate severe depression unveiled sad entire time hope recommended light therapy dragging spiral bit glad better understanding inflicting me ordering light said happy could reduce wonder work anyone besides me psychologist made acronym sad knew doing epic jokester,1 +want still energy to insufferable cannot believe people managed put long embarrassed everything do already know parents care whether live die tried guilt trip manipulate me last attemptdo love me care insert person thinki fucking love you care family members seen years think probably care killing might damage reputation me want die,1 +boundless raw energy uncompromising vision talk radio brilliantly explores publics fondness reducing strangers private problems entertainment via radiobr br eric bogosian sensational barry champlaine rude inyourface talk radio host hes natural kind role fine tunes one impressive interesting radio personalities ive ever seen screen timing delivery insults various callers strokes geniusbr br alec baldwin also shines barrys boss demonstrates explosive cynicism would later display s glengarry glen ross supporting role truly stands stoned seemingly braindead teen played michael wincott see believe itbr br oliver stone robert richardson great job photography almost entirely confined single broadcasting room claustrophobic feel movie perfectly mirrors tone all one major points film exploiting peoples private moments draw audience stone demonstrates moments often private whole world experiencebr br talk radio film strong emotional cerebral impact likes seldom seen today,0 +idk else ask question us guys take better spicy pics know weird u better sub put pls lmk anyway feel like guys get lot slander taking horrible dick pics wondering girls gays tips us guys take better noods spicy pics general,0 +im afraid cousin well im fifth seven cousins fathers side family also work beneficial im transgender mixed race six straight white cisgender cousins five males one female ive sworn never talking again well biggest fear second oldest cousin short description him almost two metres tall blonde hair probably early balding blue eyes beginning dad body age well started birth pretty normal acted like decent human being started going puberty everything changed started bullying really started get crazy him reached age ten started act normal even decent again started get back downwards parents divorced mother really fears calls mean names wakes midnight going out gladly got protect younger brother girlfriend also lot girlfriends current one best them handle disrespectful behaviour eventhough sometimes sexist towards actually like hope teaches lessons one much main reasons never go birthday parties again first time saw came trans started acting straight creepy controlling like always towards got kinda mad fact man life time wanted know everything even read conversations sleeping hiking started talking things go horny jail mentioning here last time saw girlfriend younger brother grandpas house lot stupid things still kinda mad facts shared brothers baby photos girlfriend yall ideas situation move less half year start transitioning further,0 +hiiii hiii,0 +want open upi thinki think want tell friends im suicidal addicted self harm im point friendships think open them im sick hiding long sleeved shirts jumpers want wear cuts pride thats fucking am thats me know myself want everyone else to next time post itll tell ive told them really hope im going able post again,1 +anyone wanna smash mean play smash bros,0 +cannot even decide start low self esteem personality know am never feel like worth enough feel burden everyone encounter feel like people avoid hang pity mei fell friends pushover cannot set proper boundaries let walk point get hurt lose ability deal burn bridges around toxic energy ever againmy job sucks broke underpaid cannot make plans future covered debt cannot see way unless find better job upgradelearn new skills know toi met amazing guy seems really me good job nice flat well put together felt chemistry attraction years terrified knowing age nowhere near life terrified thought starting seriously date know lot give him feel like would burden embarrassment hate it cannot even take care take care partnerif needeveryone life would much easier exist hate me wish dead,1 +deep space floating suffocatingall around me darkness see me emptiness spacewheres everyone else me reaching hand out emptiness coldi cry loudest cry someone hold was isis emptiness heart calling medo leave me alone floating fearhelp me hold me nobodys near maybe loneliness ends shut eyesand everyone crowds fall groundbut land earth belowbut six feet under feel belong hear wish thereto hold me keep strongbut know could awarewhen fought battles life longso please call out save darkand grant wish keep mind stilldont let drown black space bleakand give light strength by fyzan_fyzz space,1 +friend seizure right front react never know react never even seen anything like that,0 +ever since began feeling depressed trouble falling asleep usually takes hours staying bed motionless fall asleepdo experience thing cannot fall asleep normal,1 +last decent british comedy centred around mockney bank robbers spun tv series john ivays film psychoactive tale discovery dressed biker gear three protagonists gentle fools penchant failure turning point lives giving sensitive emotional trio subplots sew riotous comedy together chemistry three amigos palpable makes touching companionship hilarious dialogue classic comedic moments feels part withnail i part american werewolf london part quadraphenia but bike gangs phil daniels fact phil daniels lovable rogue reminds danny dealer withnail i scholarly approach scientific commitment drugs great film particularly whove dabbled psychoactive substances past relate many moments film personal favourite brilliant scene welsh corner shop buying munchies tripping shrooms gentle comedy warm cockles heart laughing loud ride bikes even like enjoy it itll add do brilliant,0 +snorted pencil grafitelead school joke explanation sitting arts craft class talking friends regular teen shit sharpening pencil got brilliant idea try snort powder came pencil tried pretty little amount still feel pretty bad rn i actually feel sick wondering fuck gonna do kind lead poisoning shit pls help,0 +love show watch reruns every day even though seen like time eachbr br its two sisters holly amanda bynes val jennie garth live new york holly goes live val dad transferred japan val perfect life boyfriend perfect apartment upper east sidebr br the show basically shows problems vall holly go through main problem guys also responsible life choicesbr br holly total free spirit val complete opposite organized plan anything kind personbr br the characters henry vince gary lauren tina,0 +crush fucking blocked beginning school year online began chatting cute girl online class lot common took lot courage email first became friends made friends another guy exchanged discords me around day talking anime stuff started asking sex position liked best blocked him later day crush asked online friends mentioned turning predator seemed weird respond days woke see blocked panic attack threw toilet cut arms sharp pencil,0 +back s grim study joy young proletarian wife introduction career ken loach became one distinguished respected british filmmakers time knew little brecht politics reality underprivileged quite impressed aesthetic film free style austere color cinematography joys monologues front camera also much surprised find terence stamp who become celebrity thanks billy budd the collector modesty blaise little screen time although th century fox distributed poor cow panama loach stay mainstream cinema which film hardly is lost contact films heard successes kes family life black jack caught s beautiful title song donovan way available anthology troubadour,0 +nights always badworthless trash checking,1 +so happened yesterday also first post yesterday science class one kid sitting next me classes lowest scorer sitting next see sneeze mask proceeds wipe snotty mask hand so class finishes passes tries sneakily wipe hand me shove away tell keep hands himself walks away ps end school day took bottle window cleaner thinking desinfectant uses it,0 +tell shes flirting jokeplatonically seriously ive talking one girl little bit treats like friend would flirt lot even though lot memes still flirting dont know whether push further id wanted to,0 +call snoop dogg u guess hashashin hahahahahahahahahahhhahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahahahhaahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhah,0 +see pic two guys denmark ill loose first wholesome idgaf,0 +going open burger restaurant name aspergers im gonna make restaurant serves burgers named aspergers,0 +months ago told dad take shelter get cat adopted cats time severe health redflag really paranoid getting sick horrible know would even affect getting cat did got cats petrified kind disease regretted fuckijg much one cats really affectionate towards kept trying show affection cuddling fucking anxious would get sick days later could bear redflag forced dad return them started crying hard cat trying show affection towards months later still cannot get fact still crying every night fuck redflag fucking hate might sound pathetic cat showing affection really means much since hate affection never show anyone irl want cat back sure adopted now hate myself got another cat redflag way less show affection anything hates me ik might something stupid sad hate fucking hate mysself,1 +answer lol lmao is someone says lol lmao thats telling change subject thank coming ted talk,0 +keep getting removed uh interesting title uh pp life going nowhere im stuck dead end fast food job im barely surviving boss would lower wage asked raise cant leave town every time try get drivers license fail test miserably friend mentally retrded worst part i live pineapple sea,0 +movie really well made one great looking passionately directed tell every shot thought executed perfection lovers cinema especially great watch especially able appreciate beauty passion cinema put itbr br its hard place movie one label really drama really thriller really comedy instead movie style things way necessarily follow rules cinema features many different elements many different genres combinedbr br but like movie main character movie gets sort slow boring parts artistic style directing tries conceal story actually quite simple one movie relied solely style overall atmosphere created movie make movie horrible anything prevents true absolute mustsee parts movie also feels trying poetic tries let images speak much itself feels bit overdone parts though part movie still works beautifullybr br it features great camerawork unique storytelling makes original well great film watchbr br ,0 +wanna go mexico man im going visit family june spend whole summer mexico im ready leave,0 +anyone ever watched notebook would say allie identity crisis need english bruh,0 +urgent really want talkim going die im going commit redflag im lower priority everyone else here still time wanlt talk want able say want die without regretting without making tje person feel bad without thinking ruined image person heavy overdramatic annoying want die bad want disappear everyones memories want never existed hate bad bad part knows im bad day today meds rheir job usually ill feel okay morning nd grateful that doesnt feel like roght right want talk someonw know wonlt hate me dont know dont know canlt hate me please give words words grateful able talk someone doesnlt hate me,1 +like methis hard me im writing reddit im anonymous im planning deleting account eventually ive tought killing since years old thing never abused feel severe mental illness difficult dynamic parents personality problems like terribly antisocial get depressed often nothing like people go through fact believe probably blessed life given always thought killing myself ive made plans different stages life tought it want go much detail feelings think need anyone give advice want know anyone like me tought killing apparent reason im sorry post long,1 +movie several things going it feel good story characters actors likable realistic present fine performances important believe dennis quaid knows grip throw baseball robert redford looked good throwing swinging bat the natural kevin costner for love game bull durham major league tom berenger charlie sheen looked like knew doing many others not picture pure silliness funny br br so many earlier baseball movies even stories might interesting presented lack baseball ability part leads ludicrous respect the stratton story strategic air command jimmy stewart looked believable professional baseball player overweight nonathletic elderly uncle softball game family reunion virile physically robust stars eg gary cooper lou gehrig robald reagan grover cleveland alexander dan dailey dizzy dean also exhibited degree baseball ability would put late rounds choosingup game sunday picnic even coed even uncle involved br br the scenes quaids high school team coached ones attends tryout devil rays playing two minor leagues american league ring true participants believable capable addition engaging actor always delivers talented appropriate characterization except degree overthetop scenes forced accent portrayal jerry lee lewis hes definitely ontarget here movie good better others genre except the natural,0 +the worst rteenagers twitter account literally goes top posts weekend screenshots them dont even bad screenshot them em followed standards les gooooooo,0 +zero day film people gotten see shame isbr br when saw end two main characters descend upon room mercilessly kill people commit suicide made grab stomach shaking thats strong movie isbr br the movie amazing incredible get perfect ten sad people understand true beauty film budget makes film good amount feeling makers put makes goodbr br it leaves permanent impression mind simply cannot get out makes realise true horror shootings especially know person movie makes feel like know peoplebr br i recommend zero hour feel mature enough watch it fourteen feel film amazing put words feels like watching something actually happened,0 +wish successfull redflag years agowhere even begin originally made account tell someone thoughts without actually see them see post history help bit found expressing sketchesmemes kind posts help recap previous posts tried attempting redflag ish years ago due abusivehorrible mother father absent due divorce sadly unsuccessful moved away took control life made friends hobbies worked out grades decent guess however past years episodes every day hallucinations voices break downs mood swings self harm frequently verge redflag absolutely reason atleast years ago knew wanted kill myself know nothing honestly getting lately recently wrote redflag letter started researching effective methods im becoming unstable every day one day going happen hope soon tbh mean lose friends obviously hate logically speaking true thats constantly feel nobody close except best friend honest started distancing myself maybe thats way make less painless all isolate let forget it uh know point nightmare hurts living without reason want someone come me give hug say its ok nobody that cause one knows serious situation in nobody knows fact right im roof edge specifically ready jump electric pole meters below want help nobody seems able help even psychiatrist know anymore ,1 +oh god kid kind messed uh family kinda going bonkers rn yelling cryin usual ya know im downstairs hear mom full breakdown upstairs kinda telling year old grow cause incredibly tired brother trying talk sense her think moment does everyone household victim complex fuck wrong me like stop feeling empathy point thats nice thought feel like narrator thats best description give fr like im takin whats happening like has calmed enough go upstairs need homework actual fuck though mean grades due today see big issue oh god feel kinda fucked up literally like narrator empathy uh end rant ig dunno else say lol ranting reddit reddit,0 +film industry forgotten make family entertainment meaning something enjoyable people ages particular wallace gromit enjoyed everyone toddlers like colors cute bunnies grandparents understand adult references br br this film direction good ive ever seen mean literally also packed tiny bits humor scene many humorous details background im going buy it order read signs handbills w gs world br br i plan see movie least twice theaters buy dvd see it,0 +im finally peace idea ending lifehi all know want somewhere vent what theres stuff mind know talk people life theres multiple times life ive wanted here ive antidepressants briefly dad affair since ive history selfharming reckless spending turning alcohol escape getting better selfharmed since mid late met someone turned perspective life around taste everything clicked instantly never fought fit together like puzzle pieces went could easily see us spending rest lives together were talking moving saving money future holidays everythings great reckless spending debts became issue never realised actual cost before paid month never thought it organised iva begin start feb debt bit vaguely sorted atleast theres end site now broke nowhere start feb personal stuff debt issue since cant see point go on im plodding days feel empty feel hollow ive lost half ive never felt heartbreak like before still live parents said debt credit rating fucked years iva complicates plans moving out id rely everything someone elses name know hpw feasible loathe idea stuck home till im nearly thats sob story selfinflicted problems though know want anymore honest im tired life im tired disappointment everyone care about seem drag things me usually id feel form nervousness like cant go actually killing myself time feel completely peace idea first thing get hold bottle oxycodone know enough alcohol sleeping tablets bottle oxynorm probably end it im giving weeks one favourite bands playing uk soon seems like nice final thing do gig plan sticking around long thanks anyone thats read ramblings,1 +im completely unloved worthlessnobody loves would care died matter do people like around me even cat hates me tried hold bit nipple bleeding even care want jump bridge sleep forever,1 +wrote letters im gonethe day wrote five letters people mattered me five write one three children wife final redflag note read something happened world got little brighter ugly situation im involved found partial solution god close teetering edge sanity ive got lot live for didnt change fact wanted die part still wants kill im working hard shoveling positivity onto part me trying bury part deep far away life get better eventually even think cant prove statement right simply living one day time,1 +thanks one year ive couple months months great thank you,0 +anyone oceania here dm discord american european friends discord asleep busy,0 +snowed first time years nothing really special found pretty cool live hot city told roads icing going snow id laugh face thought cool share,0 +hard sadi wish could save all,1 +look horsepower audi rs it regret it right now phone computer samsung smart fridge,0 +make time today take time yourself read book play video games cook music whatever helps calm relax record day end day either meh good bad rating then look back good days see long activity for good thing resulted bad day worry still good things bad days happen ,0 +im absolutely terrified kill myselfi dont want die dont want live depressing lonely life used kind joke killing way cope everything honestly never really considered it iv always said would kill ever hit never girlfriend l things gotten worse right next days time decide go it first time looked methods imagined would like shit terrified me literally started tearing shaking whats options live always horrible life filled people telling oh dont worry itll get better keep trying attempt hang going described horrible experience risk surviving like come on kind crap that,1 +fellow teens year old male weighs pounds ways lose bunch weight lbs months less title fellow bros need help filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +need end soonim tired everything everyone leaves matter hard try good friend girlfriend whatever never enough feels like matter im anymore friend probably sick hearing crying shell probably leaving soon too every day vivid image blowing brains pops mind night get urge pills feel reaching constantly stop myself know stop myself job high school diploma drivers license im fucking im trying fucking hard get things pandemic made nearly impossible things happen feel fucking useless worthless love life left someone else friends abandoned im starting push away family well nobody stand around anymore used happy fun around even want leave bed want die want pain heart end want stop god need stop,1 +keep goingif keep cutting harm deeper deeper every time someday ill actually strength stab death,1 +looked gory shit half hour idk feel rnoriginally gonna look videos people attempting redflag actually succeeding cause ive seen blurred ones watching redflag rescue videos tear up cause mainly dont know person feeling idk many truly believe theres nothing done people like me seeing people talked rescued puts tears cause know personally would never want talked dragged edge kicking screaming putting shoes people videos makes sad granted want cry good solution theres that obviously ofcourse everyones shituation permanent unsolvable cant happy someone jumps edge you personal feelings fucked is watching videos people actually dying brings sense satisfaction way feel like they it you possible sense of they it escaped im proud jealous even watching brutal explicit graphic videos seeing images originally wanted see destructive shotgun be keep mind images enough scar even adults life seeing give sense assurance odd safety yea definition suicidal madness different everyone even meaning changed couple times believe not downslide worse evil heros think first responders comes redflag personally idea someone taking away escape wholesome way makes wanna cry different emotions theres times feel like way possible would try kill banging head wall floor innocent virgin christian eyes numbers scary think would type person would permanently committed idea living thought illegal thought process scary thought like people knew felt feels illegal know do or feel do like living fantasy world try absolute best taken alive,1 +good evening twit mean reddit ya boy uhemlock_deci like minutes ago beat fuck dick god damn hard left leg gone completely numb and dick also went numb point feels weird try take piss yes posted remember nnn starts tomorrow started places already,0 +made new female friend im guy,0 +im lonely lol hit reddit messages ill send u discord im wanna chat looking friend,0 +anyone elses parents ruin halloween plans loving life right sucks anyways literally havent hung anyone months last time remember january may hung someone february march honestly cant remember like literally dont see anyone friends would think would happy wanting go friend finally wont let go halloween wanted something fun year fun shit like fucking whatever guess right,0 +seriously engaging intelligent thought provoking drama best mean gripping moody captivating every home copy take word see yourself one life stand makes consider lifestyle treat family friends beautiful photography impressive acting makes one best cinemagraphic experiences year john kieltys debut delight adds real touch truth realism deep gritty film film cares honesty unequalled recent years car chases film packed hum emotion first saw film screened edinburgh film festival delighted able copy dvd,0 +confessed crush went good little bit good close friends platonic relation thing coz im asexual knows im ace thats mutually decided,0 +today birthdaynow ive passed last good birthdays theres nothing look forward years pass ended drinking tonight friends town im living toxic household hate mind consumed ocd thoughts lack interest anything know day year god want birthday happy day,1 +suicidal thoughtshow get stop ive struggled years years every time life stress come back medication seems stop them depression anxiety please help can,1 +one best movies come hk long time eagerly waiting get hands movie looking title loads fantastic actors show particularly impressed sam lees impossibly believable insane behavior edisons portrayal killer machine totally reversed normal idol image would definitely recommend looking stylish action packed movie however must warn you also equally depressing movie every character movie kind dead end trouble own struggling breathe makes think life really,0 +going jump bridge tomorrow morningi tired join us navy last year failed got sent home basic training family hates torments everyday call disgrace say year old living home parents cant get job anywhere cant even get interview mcdonalds walmart people call lazy job trying get one friends hang stuff with life consists sitting computer day playing games talking people online desperate attempt form human interaction car drivers licence going community college studying computer science but looking least three years get associates longer anyone else want transfer university know fact money that even did stupid horrible math means take extra math courses hence talking longer everyone else get degree girl love loves someone else texts shes hard time wants fix it going tomorrow walk around city try find high enough point like building bridge jump land grass water want land cement rocks posted months ago get lot replys post go buried ended talking everyday like torture wanted leave record even though one knows here,1 +one wants helpas much show signs suicidal thoughts speak clearly one cares feel like one take seriously thoughts try,1 +get random facts day decided make daily series not anyway yesterdays koalas use smell tell friends enemies apart teeth bone clean things first aid competitions church forbid coffee the devils beverage pope tried liked it said it would shame good drink wasnt appreciated everyone biggest crab japanese spider crab smallest crab pea crab smaller adults pinkie nail apparently bananas actually weed turn earth black hole squish size peanut removed empty space every single humans atoms billion us would fit area smaller apple gravity neutron star powerful landing one would atomize spread microscopic pieces whole surface area inspector calls written american cars honk key f first commercial ever air mr potatohead sea turtle german translates shielded sea toad marie curie first woman win nobel prizes bookkeeper english word consecutive double letters nothing english rhymes orange purple word spanish starts w genocides recent history since rwanda told usteponmydeadbabieshttpswwwredditcomusersteponmydeadbabies utheunsupervisedhttpswwwredditcomusertheunsupervised unotable_quasarhttpswwwredditcomusernotable_quasar usteponmydeadbabies ufilthyfrankisntdeadhttpswwwredditcomuserfilthyfrankisntdead udecagionhttpswwwredditcomuserdecagion usneakyhobbitseshttpswwwredditcomusersneakyhobbitses usneakyhobbitseshttpswwwredditcomusersneakyhobbitses usneakyhobbitseshttpswwwredditcomusersneakyhobbitses ujonzkahttpswwwredditcomuserjonzka ubruhmomentssssshttpswwwredditcomuserbruhmomentsssss uog_chicken_littlehttpswwwredditcomuserog_chicken_little,0 +director sidney lumet made masterpieceslike networkdog day afternoon serpicobuthe much luck recent worksgloria pathetic find guilty interestingbut failed experimentnowlumet brings best film decades andby point viewa true masterpiecebefore devil knows deadi think film like rebirth lumetthis movie excellent story whichdeeplyhas many layersalsoi think ending movie perfectthe performances brilliantphilip seymour hoffman bringsas usuala magnificent performance hesno doubtone best actors daysethan hawke also excellent actor hes underrated point viewhis performance greatthe rest cast also excellentspeciallythe great albert finney two actors bring monumental performances sadly ignored pathetic oscarsthe film good level intensityin part thanks performances andin partthanks brilliant screenplaybefore devil knows dead real masterpiece perfect directiona great screenplay excellent performanceswe need movies like this,0 +make good greats homies make good grades fillerfillerfilllerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerrfifo fillerfillerfilllerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerrfifo fillerfillerfilllerfillerfillerfiller love baby,0 +tried killing failed multiple timesa days birthday falling someone care way much mind went dark place tried cutting myself overdosing hanging myself working plz help,1 +seem worth tryeveryone says find someone talk suicidal one like make friends want bother people realize im sadawkward time people want first friend ugh im never going get fucking life like did,1 +tried posting similar post last week technical difficulties goes think im going chronologically high school become close someone become known one best friends lets call jessie want pursue friendship jessie strong independent woman mature beyond years sassy latina attitude sense humor,0 +whats pointis point born purely life bad good die wont remember anyway waste time seems like ending would save pain forgetting already know earlier rather later,1 +cantwhy like want friend want someone care want worthy i hurt bad,1 +hihi name elle really yes ive clinically depressed years im yk im fucking lonely im really fucking close losing shiit laugh lol im laughing today particularly sad one regardless im angry im frustrated im alone wish neurotypical wish brain worked way depressed people wish cared wish cared school health anything really wish cared,1 +contemplate redflag daily basisi contemplate redflag daily basis addicted pot intoxicants everyday lift worse worse cant find fucking real carear enjoy cat find job give kid opportunities asshole abusive father gave me contemplate redflag everyday regret fact lack balls it,1 +thoughtsi would like proud one day want life sort purpose would like longer ashamed am want reach point im dying live instead living die,1 +kill myselfim getting close snapping anyone life im distant entire family feels like everyone would prefer dead family hates everyone else loneliness utterly painful nobody talk anything online anonymously post much reddit makes feel pathetic ive lived many years life full im starting come high horse im coming hard nothing interests seems like things cause thats gotta do really want work rest life thought sucks much im afraid everyone social anxiety debilitating hate room feels like everyone glaring judging me think everything general anxiety gets intense fight away distractions keeps working anything else im maladaptive daydreamer ive spent years laying bed dreaming exaggeration done many things ive daydreamed instead pathetic could never build another connection human being never feel close another human being theyre distant bring everyone down like im outside world looking in im fucking lonely guys so lonely horrible school starting eighth grade sat room never work never even got job volunteer service hung friends its good years now friends nobody earth goddammit alone submitted mediocre college apps im loser pos ill probably end working dead end job hate like everyone else whole family fuck hate thought much want work horrible miserable job rest life want go community college want fucking city want run away start completely over want completely totally different human being want anymore addicted video games many years lost many experiences guns house think might kill weekend cant find guns im going go buy strongest sleeping pills sturdiest rope ill way im done im fucking poison earth im fucking done im gonna stop now cant read screen tears im starting shake problems infantile stupid im whiny needy entitled bitch even bother posting stuff never helps nobody cares nobody ever cares yeah im leaving soon im home alone tomorrow next day goodbye everyone sorry ill write note tonight,1 +reasonssevere social anxiety depression social isolation deep self hatred i hate everything appearance brain zero friends mom love me nostalgia heroin amp benzo addict hoarder bed traumas police raid scared much cant sleep debt appear court could go jail cant even leave house it overdosing soon many things going on im scared,1 +love u make effort text someone one day u dont say anything complete silence u finally say something dont even leave u read like bruh say something wrong offend u boring annoying stupid worth ur time u hate me ignoring me even worse u text class u see snap dont respond u all get ppl asking homework answers hurts whats wrong point im worth giving dumb answers class wont even pass boring u feel need go way reply even tho ik u see texted u many questions,0 +rteenagers banned alt days dear mods think make stop antisemitic,0 +say nice cock never nice balls,0 +goodbyedont bother responding case anyone cares enough find happened killing within hour,1 +sighi need talk im gay teenager america not going divulge age personal reasons want live anymore small group friends were really close cant tell im feeling inside put mask every day pretend like okay not parents love me family loves me cant help feel really really lonely talk anyone know real life want talk me im overweight im attractive cant help think im going alone rest life thats much bear selfish know anymore,1 +feeling suicidali hate go details made reddit account anonymous one contacts family friends ive really considering taking life ive attempted suicidal tendencies since went institution one attempts people often wonder even consider it im year old girl college parents love me boyfriend think loves me years though feel like ive become nuisance ive multiple relationships either mentally physically sexually abused ad even sexually taken advantage year old current relationship lacks communication even though weve together years seems like cares sex despite knowing past parents constantly make feel like im going amount anything considering havent met goals set child use severely overweight spent years losing lbs ive sinking hole im slowly gaining back feel 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everyone inside died but neighbor called fire car license plates full tank gas with back,0 +point living hate lifeim young hate school uni father growing up immigrated another country friends family currently country gf idiot give shit family thinks im good muslim boy im semi alcoholic atheist mother finds would totally destroyed living double life quite while shitty minmum wage job ambitions theyre unattainable now feel bad time workout yoga seen improvment body still absolutely hate it hate everything myself hate easy ways commit redflag hate ugly hate dedicated summer improve still failed miserably hate everything hate want friend hate cant get that hate stopped talking friends througout years miss old self confidnet little high schooler thought life high school going uber cool hate spend time stupid website hate every single thing posting anyway else get attention lol fucking stupid mean holy shit im little faggot hell going im bad commit redflag anyway things might improve fucking 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discuss felt like shit signing online hour help wrote long paragraphs issues everything online whatever fuck person tell yeah sign wellbeing team uni good luck people care family burden tell youre going through dont like seeing people sad made way im also terrible person ive affected relationships within family yeah forgave stuff im still person recognize issues cant even change dont know is im really done life boring feels like nightmare everything bad peaks okay never great good,1 +really tiredi cannot deal anything mental illnesses completely take fucking energy make getting job impossible that every single attempt get job never good enough people charge giving out im forced live bigoted parents deny every single chance get result try force reality perceptions onto me cannot get matter hard try ampxb lost grandma last month im dealing potentially give cat love most gotten single message people close two weeks social media quiet unusual tempting walk pond either drown let gators make meal whatever comes first tempting go find way catch covid isolate myself die that decided im thinking eating drinking anything least one people comes back someone affiliated lets know well kill never come back too tired,1 + resits upcoming week fail one two failed year happens also last time fail life fail resits something end week something fail at last thing ever do possible last week,1 +message ulefish ugly stupid go die painfully,0 +getting better tonightamy confirmed supreme court shes prolife anti lgbtq please dont argue post please dont argue jn post dont care disagree not shes many women lgbtq members rights shes might try overturn roe v wade want die dont argue fucking post im going delete unnecessary fucking comment point post improving feel like aneurysm dying leaving world,1 +much karma need post here alt still let post could check text wanted post gramatical mistakes thanks lt im sorry mum please blame yourself fault loved much tried give best life enough decision decided wanna live anymore heavily bullied no one responsible this maybe proud me maybe ill praised things ive done maybe take granted wanted die wanted end suffering mind hell blame noticing completely fault please im better now sure whether pills alcohol me noose around neck im better please excuse cuts forearms wrists palms elbows please help part rom elbow palm called thanks theyre fault either im sorry probably politician like wanted be im sorry im best school kids always better me find this im probably somewhere better fault im sorry,0 +im trying besti tried asking friends wanted hang out busy families tried offering go somewhere ive weekend spend time family several times no tried keeping mind busy trying create online business dad starts putting words mouth saying idea silly unenroll extra stuff signed school im math two years grade level yet dad still nerve compare people saying went wrong me hate much im sorry im perfect im sorry im sorry grandma lazy selfish person im sorry wish could better im sorry mom try spending time everyone always wants phones ipads watching tv whatever case is miss you miss family miss spending time family whenever try always end getting hurt someone blames attitude talking much want better im sorry,1 +lets yeet adios dudes im going break mentally physically minutes,1 +honestwhen stop finding new things hang onto disappearhell lot times even me destroys me everytime find way cope something gets way physically cant continue using coping methods one day ill run ways cope thats day ill die actually die day run ways cope ill die years day ill grasping onto hope somethingll change even try change theres use years ill living complete agony end wishing killed much younger hope year maybe next knows ill finally learn mistakes build courage kill myself ill build even courage make redflag attempt actually die know thats gonna happen thats thing sorrows saddens me know ill find little things hold to end dissappearing again causing feel immense grief times fuels die know ill hessistant itll attempt truth mentally im still optimistic thingll get better im clinically depressed still find moderate enjoyment stuff too truth ill die much older age probably anything life constent suicidal thought cant happy get born born speech impediment caused develop social skills bad way still speak people yeah really fucked speech impediment like really bad inconsistent far gotten worse im getting older friendships fake girl crash cant anything it destroys me fuck everything ill happiest die much wanted write fuck it,1 +fuck miss new gang bye,0 +im even yet im thinking redflagbefore telling im edgylisten storyi group like friendsi parted ways year bcs bullying somethimes made overthink like crazy losing thembut thats problemthe problem came after classmatemy best friend could sayand stopped talking group friends began talking lot himwe talked rarely pointbut still best friendsand first thought wouldnt crap like thatbut am weeks started talking him im overthinking everything point nothing makes feel satisfied alive anymoreim basically cramped corner everyone knowand im afraid someday wont friends left parents would think im complete failureplease give adviceim feeling hopeless,1 +managed eat motherfuckin broccoli,0 +said caillou gone school apparently caillou show got canceled said caillou gone shit kid class said canon,0 +cant touch ghosts ghosts touch,0 +finished binging hero academia say unhealthy obsessionlove uraraka thank time,0 +whats pointof anything,1 +first therapy appointment tomorrowim really anxious im perfectly normal mean would amazing time depressing due shitty feel way think normal sucks least ill clarification maybe fix myself,1 +took like half bottle melatonin thought would kill mei took half bottle melatonin want end life melatonin kill you gives crappy symptoms ready fuck life brooke,1 +care believe in long enforce others absolutely problem religious people vegans opinionated people etc but problem people look upon people opinionsideology them example home city major vegan protest blocked main entrance city order raise awareness lifestyle look care vegan force one,0 +dear southerners hate california why would california reason guys arent living like rd world country california pays federal taxes take fed southerners opposite support federal budget guys leech away california left usa would better place now would rich nation social programs like europe silicon valley help that but help guys cant that talk shit state pay everything guys use benefit us states make nation worse struggle keep afloat sad really thankful hateful need us dont need you,0 + ,0 +im pissed mom moved brother room totally makes sense brothers room sister me other like privacy life suddenly lose it going college makes absolutely sense two oldest room two youngest another wouldnt make sense put year old room rather year old dont know dont fucking get it annoying always planned moving dont want deal bullshit years used able light room able make sound even play guitar night cant shit use flashlight go bed super quiet mention everyone barges room time its like free all one knocks know unlock door really quickly hate lack privacy really getting me unfortunately smart thing financially stay home deal save money god really affecting mental health no cant dorm college min away worth k semester,0 +interesting exploration tourettes react people lives wellfilmed views bleak northern winter landscape theres nothing pretty film stays viewer,0 +go onim sure gender really anymore really makes much difference started transition years ago feel really unsupported control finances taken away monday eaten hospital sandwiches since believe eat er times week idk feel pretty meh carrying life now tried twice week failed times feel like idiot want hug right now wish close someone,1 +ive working couple months think would enjoy hey all quarantine started get really bored started thinking whats something could useful fun me thinking could while decided making podcast well rather podcasts targeted towards teens young adults think everyone could like one them boys community driven podcast talk mens issues ive always felt like many outlets men talk issues tend result many guys keeping emotions inside letting inappropriate ways hope tackle issues have want talk issues deal life talk hopefully come solution everyone else listening hopefully everyone coming talking day day issues people see alone issues provide safe space work through entertainment bites podcast gives everything pop culture related plate try get big pop culture news week deliver fast paced platform im hoping make easier everyone know whats happening entertainment world weather video games movies tv music anything pop culture try deliver quickly you waste hours week looking facts rumors here either interest would forever grateful took listen click herehttpslinkklecomaidan listen either podcast follow socials advice even listen means much me forget amazing lt,0 +winning fight pornography battled fight pornography it made want it happier addicted,0 +cant cant continueit hurts hurts end relationship straw broke back ive abused raped thrown away im unlovable im tired tired alone tired strong tired myself tired constant struggle im tired always weathering storm tired all world shit people assholes want use throw away im tired piece meat used spat out im sorry cant anymore hopefully long now,1 +hi favio years old boy suffers depression redflagi close friends not interested all know humans social beings sometimes need talk another person study virtually really hate quarantine exercise at home course tried commit suicide tried hang could complete painful always feel empty like existing like idk necessary wasting oxygen lmaoi decided join reddit meet new people passed something similar forgive mistake basic english d introducing,1 +another update received two messages random women yesterday turns boyfriendabuser cheating me surprising point one them went get us food home son paid womans familys meal got number asking drinks every couple days sent screen shots conversations said the ring gave simply gift woman carrying child rocky relationship see us anything coparenting said i work well crazy,1 +hey im irish wanna friends irish people pretty cool,0 +omurice looks good wanna split omelette open rest life literally way unfolds whew dont even like omelettes,0 +july june hi im new here buttoday day ive battling depression literally life past month may honestly worse mothers day hit hard coupled year anniversary moms passing may girlfriend ended breaking icing cake everybody always leaves need most theres attempts past weeks alone last one ended admitted days time called ex told sorry everything response please stop contacting me talk slap face stab back two days got discharged one worse anxiety attacks ive ever had ended breaking telling aunt nightmares ive god brother cousin trying touch little ive never told one family never even got chance tell mom passed away heart broken guys seeing mom pass away front friend getting murdered girl love turning need her everything falling apart around me cant handle anymore know sounds silly hurts id better dead alive everyone would happier without know true cant anymore,1 +free movie websites hello everybody wondering guys know good free movie websites similar movies movies im trying find movie movies wondering guys know any,0 +hate bodyi hate stretchmarks acne scars im flawed hurts problem things people somehow problem feel like deserve exist like cant happy unless skin smooth hairless flat belly hate troubles changing clothes physical education front others hate much makes cry ive gained weight starting eat normaly i ate little before cant stop blaming stretchmarks want born get completely new skin unfortunetaly inherited skin problems makes want die feel like worst unlovable hideous person entire world hate much want crawl skin die corner ive posted rbodyacceptance post removed adviced post body dissatisfaction cant mention wanting die im posting here urgent im sad thoughts feelings kill myself,1 +melvilles pierre ambiguities hit bookstores first publication since moby dick year earlier public response similar found among imdb reviews pola x newspapers even published headlines like melville insane which course wasnt but one compares writing styles found moby dick pierre one finds latter sharp departure simple often declamatory style found former clearly mimicking overly florid style nowforgotten victorian romances easily outselling immortal moby dick content however turn sort product publishers wanted surely would sold version victorian romance twisted cynical one perhaps brilliant synthesis alternate title the ambiguities quite appropriate pierre searches for thinks finds truth become uncertain believe searches happiness becomes miserablebr br pola x fascinating adaptation novel set modern nearly modern france though ways leaves little imagination shows us graphically incestuous relations melville could hint at ambiguities make novel message alluring perfectly tact questions raises ones films thought ask yet answers left viewerbr br i recommend reading novel much shorter moby dick seeing movie hope people discover tantalizing film,0 +tried talking ex still fucking insane,0 +idea giving birth scary pls,0 +good night reddit good morning good afternoon simply good day,0 +fuck doesnt like water bitches like water nasty need flavored water water something supposed like wed die didnt like feel like theyve convinced dont like,0 + people class tested positive covid school even considering moving us video classes love country much people care students,0 +teacher amazing theres kid class obsessed among us right trys get maths teacher play one day hes sick home today second class maths half class missing according school rules stated half class missing teacher could whatever wanted teach happens nine people whips phone downloads among us gets us teach play play oh told us tell kid tommorow played among us thank listening teacher bossgoodnight,0 +sodium cyanide pillscan anyone give info sodium cyanide pills reliable kill quickly,1 +forget someone ive met girl kind started liking her even though never met person before tell liked get awkward anything later started talking getting know other cant sake it get mind keep mind even seen person,0 +lady tramp ii scamps adventure think good movie think first lady tramp movie better original would think original movies compared sequeals better lady tramp ii takes original time juniors turn lady tramps youngster scamp always hates treated things done him following rules house taking baths time taking things nice easy scamp gets angry runs away pack dogs left loose scamp meets another dog called angel get along fine things scamps mother father did italian meal spagetthi meatballs etcafterwards scamp realises loved family especial pal baby scamp comes back angel joined family give movie ,0 +better dead know to everyone know hates,1 +im ready gothanks previous person commented last post pushing edge mum work tomorrow thursday friday thats ill it creating set tomorrow week nothing ever goes way life ive ruined childhood trauma effects life result abandoned everybody ive ever loved even change heart still need go current situation thats it im going die soon,1 +hi ellie diagnosed depression gadfucked every way f helps told family done done days working idk why top mod post hits hard,1 +think ever want date seems like much burden seems hurt helps think im gonna stay single rest life,0 +care much hurtsat point id take way out care much pain ill im dying long end im gone want more theres nothing here im enough pain already whats little means everything stop whats agony minutes means ill never feel again cares pain itll pain gone,1 +golden boy opinion one sleeper lost treasures animes there sexy comedy young man quest find nitch life blunders sort odd jobs somehow rather sexy girl ultimately falls really realizing it truly something easily miss name viewing itwill fall comedysilliness lies inside truly crime produced ova episodes pilot movie made however unique is im surprised survived produce many want good laugh high quality anime cgi free check anime out boy one day may save worldor maybe not,0 +cant take anymoreim tired fighting stay happy life constantly gives something happy about rips away great pain years ago met girl internet grew close fast talked texted lived together got engaged months ago betrayed cheated me shortly getting cheated abandoned met new girl granted one slightly younger me well grew close together fast happened accident too randomly messaged one day things grew thier live seperate states cant see eachother physicall weve constantly talking phone self harm deal really bad depression balance eachother out talk phone eachother happy feel like depression gone two days ago parents said dont want speaking texting messaging anymore its responsibility support partner think taking advantage im not really happy eachother plan spend lives together start family till friday herafter friday cant convince parents let still talk text me well cant handle loosing another person whos made world happier even sit here feel like giving up im tired life throwing someone makes feel happy feel safe taking away me abandoning me canti cant handle anymore im break,1 +guys know strangedarkcreepy youtube channels ive looking know few im kind bored ive looking around internet mysteries,0 +prescribed low dose paroxetine psych supposed mg told start taking half tab mg everydayi like me constantly panicked feel nothing two days now period two hours lie down head empty feelings like fucking object feel alive anymore could least cry heart would race would feel least present instead heart black hole one sucking away life me know keep this know wait meds make feel better want stop like meds,1 +minecraft going scary theyre probably going add new cave noises going scary,0 +never gonna give one s songs teens days exposed saying one class enjoys s music really makes feel place see teens discuss music s song consistently hear bring never gonna give up,0 +made first batch churros ampxb httpspreviewreddittdqsknhmpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscdfbdbdfbeffd,0 +want live bad dont want kill cant livewow im ive become th grade future set want entrepreneur six figure income big house pool my parents never let get water backyard smoke marijuana in frequent grilling parties youtube channel purchase guns shoot love call duty sexy wife kids now dont even look forward anything anymore everyday get depression hole cant cope im going deeper deeper terminate myself havent happy long,1 +tested hang nowi hurt much hurt thought would go fast ofc would little painful thought wouldnt sting much hanging listed non hurtful thing fuck plans may ruined bc scared hurt much dont hang jump,1 +bitches like why weird autism bitch thats,0 +do start want note post karma u didnt know purely looking advice ight pandemic parents work home lets say home like hell ironically looked forward going back school next day today teacher called mario everyone calling mario also thanks democracy fellow classmates environmental prefect taking trash sorts errands etc school hell too so nutshell im hell advice make feel better except playing video games bliss,0 +f anyone chat bit got nothing right looking fun people chat with want to hit up not dont,0 +day posting phrase liquid whales get girlfriend or likely forget post id anything power see see smile want come prosper come proper even means aint side devil shoulder tellin ill die soon dont really want impact dont know maybe im paranoid want whats best you want whats left oh youre telling youre sad inside im sad cant satisfy yeah pray get right time maybe well alright and todays filler brought juice wrld weekend song smile,0 +tonight nightcurrently writing notes friends eating death day pie planning killing tonight last reason stay alive left know time bye guys,1 +need ventive felt like ive depressed quite time get enjoyment anything time now bit meim good student star athlete competitive video game player ive state title track field first team football every year ive played problem getting bed really hard feel like anything get bed for dread school social interaction football practice storm months ago something screwed isp since then cant steady ping competitively play thing enjoy doing think killing least every day know anymore,1 +cant anymoreread story posts much please try tell life worth living,1 +contemplating redflagim sitting thinking wheter kill myself cant seem convince cant decide wheter scared die enough conviction it hate everything ive done im much coward kill myself,1 +dear lord throat hurts like feels uncomfortable swallowing somewhat hurts thats fun,0 +redflaghello everyone whatever name may be important come asking for fuck keep living fell love person person thought wanted rest life now know love them truly do wanted marry one day family them even die old age them feel hurt like knife stabbed heart felt before bit younger took full year subside got better felt happy person time truly happy them sure think addicted em love much know others felt but many betrayals much pain much anger frustration feel anymore truly dont happiness sadness thing felt made go rage anger them became alive truly alive them cant live without them confessed love said also love me now theyve said afraid falling love individual shall name know do saying that hurt really fucking hurt pain thought never feel again tried kill before but couldnt coward pathetic human guess useful getting advise bye bye think im good person never sure good anting get way helping someone naturally good whatever may be good person cold merciless ruthless help helping compared past sins neither country give fuck me middle east country im one worst countries id say whole world here animal kingdom get happy get live maybe survive said get seek somewhere else others said leaving finding new home feel better but life good happy them one love even know writing this probably one see it anyone does thank reading hectic maniacal writing just know and know do,1 +give spotify playlists gimme rap spotify playlists,0 +haha boomer grandmother dont believe everything see internet also grandmother g causes coronavirus,0 +sub deaddd wish could dead sub rn,0 +calmness deathwhy feel wrong calm right now im alone home minutes away ending life without leaving single letter behind fucking fail dont even know anymore screw that wont fail dont know im typing anymore even know loved life loved living love all wishing best you,1 +wait bunch videos learn languages sleep damn im going everythinglingual keep sleeping rates,0 +see point living plan dosent work out plan part time job along investing bunch stuff first year live like college student without partying cause like partys im basically saying spending money essentials get lot money that use money help create separate side hustles like youtube twitch example really want work job whole life im lazy really see point spending life working im enjoying myself see future field im interested ron stuff interested enough make living one them also getting university college diploma lot cases not all receipt couple years wasted time rant thats it,0 +im comic recommendations free price character andor skits want played message me okay putting final product instragram,0 +confession registered sex offender stuck dick blender mom transgender professional nude sender know dominating cock balls rotating ice wrist go skating thick thighs suffocatinf huge fucking cock nut inside sock walk around crocs dick harder rock fuck bitches school cuz know im fucking cool jump inside pool take hit juul dont actually smoke make bitch choke gave someone stroke cock hard like oak know im droppin fire sing 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gained lbs work even wants promote id make decision wanted do motivation want sit cry feel really empty disconnected people dont even know form close relationship even though ive dating someone years now cant bring talk thing important dont even see point to last time best friend also years ago died suddenly heroin overdose didnt know using again want disappear im tired tired,1 +hi hope wonderful hours cause yes totally lizard thing,0 +yall love yall love nowhere starting think stuff done past could lot better hating that lifes sure good,0 +thanks reddit mei know problem im college ive dealing since middle school years started writing thoughts last year frustrated myself think need help think help fix me great life everything going school work activities im social limited never relationship usually ok moments despair worried myself drinking makes worse you tell drunk ones base spellingtime also lot fun nights probably times bad night causes types writings nights good time need share ever consuming thoughts am sometimes feel like rules life everyone knows one tell me times remind someone loser else someone deemed better imagine totally opposite am imagine others view think aware negative im actually pretty certain average everyone else like living messed world id rather forever alone rather occasional inclusion minority time feeling like outcast bury emotions feel well realize bad hide emotions also want acknowledge them want run away everyone everything simply cowardice brave face fears want something dont hide behind happy smile cheerful attitude lonely wont let feel bad fault deserve it realize self centered thus really deserve anything speak anyone issues know cant help change opinion me willing put burdens people also know tell anyone fault feel alone feel hyper aware place world days wish could shut run simply instinct could happy carefree dog would relief feel heavily weighed thoughts emotions scares buried alive feel whiny ungrateful things go right life remember everyone feels pretty messed inside thus reminding even faults way unique pm death easy way out living hardest thing ever do hard want cry still feel like right scared yet confident know fix me easier alone terrified cant hurt anyone want ok care deal myself sometimes seem worth it pm close losing everything give done worth it nothing worth it feel like robin trying swim drowning fish swim by pm happy happy future bright cannot wait see achieve store me career priority dating finding someone want spend life also much something want pm fear death fear loneliness fear sadness fear disappointment fear embarrassment butdeath fear death pm fuck emotions may die rot inviting oblivion collapsing falling scared life is live me live people need exist id kill myself really mean live others life work it blah blah blah want fuck shit up want leave run away start something new unknown want quiet self lonely no quiet lover gentle friend pm ever happy could cry happy feel like could float away bliss encompasses smells spring comfort fall pm life nothing like see tv now im mildly drunk desiring food hard im lonely pm pain fear sorrow judgement never escape you pm want die want alone want force anyone else people say like believe nothing know fun u know let guard down want break bottle head life worth dead fuck shit die motherfuvkinh death am everyone suffers different self pity waste energy days hard really harder day feel spend time wondering things right instead enjoying im doing things dont either busy dont know willing try pm take drunk bar bathroom remember actually would rather dead suck fake it lose nothing pm everyone one seems know live yet sit alive im lonely scared forever alone im scared im worth loving terrified screwed over messed up unloveable worth anyones time shouldnt expect someone love dont love myself dont thinkg im worth loved life tooo hard much deal sadnees anger shame embaressament lonlines fear anger pain loniliness shame need control power yet none ruin everything funsucker nothing nothing even worth effort never forget failure shame worth effort dont justify fuckup person,1 +need become bully maguire give tips otherwise door never fixed,0 +im bored friend text do unrelated ticking away moments make dull day fritter waste hours offhand way kicking around piece ground home town waiting someone something show way tired lying sunshine staying home watch rain young life long time kill today one day find ten years got behind you one told run missed starting gun run run catch sun sinking racing around come behind again sun relative way older shorter breath one day closer death every year getting shorter never seem find time plans either come naught half page scribbled lines hanging quiet desperation english way time gone song over thought id something say home home like come home cold tired good warm bones beside fire far away across field tolling iron bell calls faithful knees hear softly spoken magic spell,0 +life expectancy increased since phones invented checkmate parents,0 +want tell someone want tell anyone know ive ready kill thought way times now ive never felt alone depressedi shitty childhood depressedanxious teen time im feel like ever going get better friends im open relationship girl feel connected anyone really much family years just grandmother started new job seem distract like work used to im tired ive never afraid death pain failure could find instead cant time now ive never wanted alive feel loved connected anyone life baseline rock bottom anything better feels like much effort not,1 +really feels like hace gotten test got depression test higher acore friends babyy,0 +cutting family mt life helpi know would call abusive theyve never really treated well family kind everymanforhimself kind family see point anymore,1 +first time ever saw movie back s wee lad dad actually recorded tv must watched times relatively recent release dvdbr br i course bought watched dvd taken aback much dialogue changed first version still vhs mood film thanks dialogue actually dark however new version featuring van der beek et al comicbr br to put another way like watching original us release akira dub watching remastered version literal translation japanesebr br im way complaining story quality animation detracted from raise question whether miyazaki intended lighter darker narrative theme film,0 +first time contemplating ending thingsive battling depression since teens never really taken idea taking life never reached point close now recent break made spiral state despair could never imagine possible feelings worthlessness ive spent nearly decade fighting came back one moment constant feeling hopelessness pain cant take anymore one person thought would spend rest life with deleted though meant nothing ruined me try put brave face remind eventually get move work nothing helps days ago came mind would better dead ever since think about even dreamt successfully killing myself brings comfort knowing option available,1 +constant thoughtsi friend considering committing redflag gun last weeks told first thoughts off non stop think courage pull off im afraid constantly thinking may it ive recommended crisis lines says work want send hospital think would make things lot worse already are would guys do,1 +know doits gotten point even expect anyone see reply this everything say invisible matter care people want ok always seems go wrong want die feel really unsafe one talk to im going cut deep,1 +gorls im desperate anything,0 +yes call perfect movie one boring second fantastic cast mostly little known actresses actors great array characters well defined understandable motives could sympathize with perfect lighting crisp black white photography fitting soundtrack intelligent harmonious set design story engaging works one prime quality pictures pride hollywood rest mark everyone endeavor reachbr br barbara stanwyck simply stunning nothing actress do always went easy melodramatic side hysterical outbursts lady always thought better actress screen goddesses like bette davis joan crawford movie confirmed opinion always tough nails time conveying true sentiments fair add also got many good parts long career one far least interestingbr br the title fits movie well desires human desires think everyone understand actually one seems scheming movie characters act impulse everybody wants happy without hurting anybody else sad fact often leads complications makes dramatic content go herebr br i liked movie say youth maturing necessity compromise movie associate one alfred hitchcocks shadow doubt creates similar atmosphere idealized time caricatured small town america story certain similarity fritz langs considerably harsher movie clash night made one year earlier stanywck stars similar part also recommend it,0 +people think depression always sad people think depression always crying people think depression dressing black people wrong depression constant feeling numb numb emotions numb life wake morning go bed again tired hurting end,1 +tell something youre cute ,0 +much bad world coward bother trying keep living see point know trying,1 +many fucking alts pedo jesus christ hes like th alt theyre like days old wtf,0 +cant handle iti tried tried tried tried tried accomplish parents have know place much energy finding partner clock ticking everyone else family kid family age started angry im always either angry depressed get partner happy truly happy lot people understand happiness get addicted things feel good think happiness experience take care partner cant even begin describe waterfall comfort sunlight rushing me like im needed like life purpose like im something right try hardest jackass referred rniceguys ive coiled anger ive letting slowly bits sordid degrading commentary pornographic subreddits comes sickness feel rage feel like im nothing like ill never anything lot people read listen problems take one way without even considering feelings nobody considers feelings ever ive depressed years nobody fucking cares im going tell nobody cares maybe help clear mind shoot myself severe abandonment issues severe mommy issues barely toddler woman gave birth ready fit mother still young would neglect favor parties friends dad way well suddenly awakening saw house party took away her married woman raised that except quite count one hand amount times ive hugged shown displays physical affection woman yeah yeah laugh want fucking hugged enough child something me several memories pushing try hug small shed sneer say something negative connotation child hearing words hearing tone voice good tone id often wonder wrong deserve hug oh always affectionate lovey dog shed kiss hug pet hours imagine like jealous dog getting attention felt deserved child you always best behavior effort get notice hug let like shed pet him never did late now im good late shit im afraid physical contact except sex learned young age sex feels good suitable replacement attention getting mother constantly busy work father got good sex briefly got trouble law sex somewhat main focus life now met ex first one actually display interest rather looks cock likely met online video game why wed talk hours end killing aliens together grew close eventually blossoming relationship lasted three beautiful years loved far away rarely got visit made it told eachother things weve never told anyone including problems mothers ive never told anyone something like her held me burst tears never held like before held close close could feel heart beating shook snotted shirt even matter her held told understood held told okay would hold always always said kept saying always way month broke know it really dont took care sexually even together took care made sure orgasmed every day would talk try best make smile everyday part associated mommy sort figure felt good made laugh smile sudden told love anymore lovedmemorelokea friend partner friends did mention fact three years friends told always pretty much times week and god heart broke could feel it like cold ice cold cracks splitting across heart really felt it changed thats rage started happening thats would start blacking anger getting sexual head aches sorts awful things got another partner everything wonderful again took care way took care ex better even even better stay always right good get keep always right wrong girl also said shed forever approximately six months later abandoned also explanation why next girl next next milicent found quality partnerand god damn mili best partner ive ever had one split mutually beneficial could pick back later were less busy could actually time eachother know trust go anyone else leave like but abused worse differently child understood thought actually listened talked anyways agreed would best talk completed college started college really almost year anyways thats wanted shoot brain stem earlier wanted kill earlier current partner ignoring week now honestly really liked lot sad girl made happy god feels good needed bring light someones life felt lovely abused us abused children got along together fabulously gave free reign body mind soul improved health mind set mother started grade bitch ruining everything also said something instead supportive talk me sounds trivial probably is worst feeling world guess really ds relationships well feel like failure make happy enough talking me third person ive talked troubles felt like could understand did hurts doubly ignoring me get hurt feel emotions really translates rage broken first heart break lasted long would shake hours collapse id fine one minute literally ground unable move legs breathe drowning dry land thats felt like cope sadness prevent dying body somehow learned translate emotions anger wrath pure unbridled whole body went cold vision went black also sort affect think combination heart breaking many times over lied mistreated relying anger much just even feel human feel except now feel like getting hard breathe feel like failure feel like nothing ever work out matter hard try matter much time attention devotion give partners also surrogate mommys matter always fail never enough im ever good enough really considered ending earlier started writing this going go garage get old russian officer pistol dad bought online know sure works put brain stem pull trigger im sick females lying me lie them treat every single partner ive ever like theyre going last partner thats want date marriage date marriage date heart break try hard please soothe issues try hard keep makes happy making happy always end failing get vengefuland sink wallowing wretchedness want die first time actually considered though suicide hotline pulled google know kill myself thats closest ever ending things dead worry living own worry money supplies maintaining image life style dead mymommy issues hurt so dead women bother me deadpeopleeoildmt make fun anymore say mean things me im done everything right now killed myself know theres probably least three people typing comments pathetic am maybe pathetic right almost died another human lied me sltof always lie use,1 +people always tell kill yourselfwhenever talk people suicidal thoughts always tell real explanation shouldnt ask say everyone sad yet temporary sadness cant even compare daily struggle go every day leads wanting kill myself thoughts,1 +please talk someone verbally need join discord support group serverhi thought making support group discord please feel free join come talk others may may join swear cosmos never judge beliefs actions never say annoying bullshit stuff like there there chin up everything fine idea im talking about try best ability others same httpsdiscordggudatwevhttpsdiscordggudatwev,1 +parents dont care privacy taught never text friends always use social media talk tell someone based stuff like footsteps breathing super hearing ability switch apps phone blink eye hide social media accounts hide evidence something lie straight face fake asleep really well get account changes password hide stuff really well use apps like myeyesonly mildly inappropriate things use apps like temp mail create secret accounts use little time home alone efficiently bypass parental controls play music loudly let close door day im going walk away phone always turn screen face using appdata hide things computer notice nothing said good respectful kid,0 +sorry thisheya guys hope well idk anymore anything throwaway account hard communicate whats going head while first year uni going hot honest high class family people organized naturally smart someone odd duck right well guess thats place feel like everything complete joke failure fuck point could even say life hour ago put pipe top door wedged couldnt move put belt tried pushing head through couldent succeed lot harder looks movies even one would assume self hanging would go went sat chair held samurai sword stomach thought could pull one samurai moves no much work guess im strong minded fuck ok sorry guys butchered post disorganized hard follow kinda like mind thought process reminds song paranoid black sabbath fit rage paranoia im scared talk family friends canada redflag service help anymore help happy thanksgiving fellow canadians way,1 +people hate furries like antrhoanimals bro whats ur problem,0 +since lightsabers recently proven possible could said plasmabased blasters may sound impossible said same thing lightsabers,0 +boyfriend years left metwo days year anniversary boyfriend told want anymore days since cant think anything else sleeps someone else gets relationship someone else devastated beyond words spent lives other cant hold anymore ive always thought going kill myself happy think often anymore live together cat together rest family lives far away one friend stay with bad relationship so fucking broken,1 +keep trying use fit girl never worked me even try,0 +got dirt bike theres track literally road house big poggers friends give shit,0 +extreme cases deja vu happens hours deja vu deja vu ridiculous,0 +everything wrong fault fault trying harder fault wanting death better lifei one blame caring getting better anymore fault wanting death better life fault im lazy one im stupid one im childish one even though im child fault lazy stupid chilidhs caring getting better caring dying im terrible person deserve every bit suffering fault dessserve release death im sorry please im asking death please let die im alsking cant make mysel diei cant control that cant stop goduniverse making live beg death give up whatever hope die tonight not maybe godujnverse let succeed plan im sorry im stupid lazy person fault im sorry,1 +life game would procrastination stat be ill edit post later tell guys mine,0 +im lonely crap corona shutdown like april may ex broke me hoping cure would school started im lonely also pls dont dis ex got good terms,0 +journey discovery film follows lives one family living sleepy island town british columbia languorous dreamy inhabitants satisfied allow life go around young freshfaced teacher new ideas arrives brings life mainland slowly indolent state awakened father and principal local school looks excitement mother stability oldest daughter love youngest power incredible groundbreaking piece cinema movie quietly enjoyable good tired night wind blowing unfortunately doubt anyone outside canada find easily accessible,0 +cant even get school anymoremy depression getting best im letting kinda want to im hoping easy way hell anymore suicidal since th grade th dont see point people say find peace im lost cant even find way dark dont see potential future ive given god given terrible conditon crmo look up happens one million kids struggle cant keep anymore help,1 +hey lads im back final beating masturbation addiction update sorry late got day suspension reddit making damn pedo joke rmemes people really cant handle dark humor anyway curious celebrate going month possibly im able without masturbating would guys like post picture myself do ill wearing face mask since im comfortable posting full face ill let post marinate day general consensus yes ill go tomorrow oh thanks support even though posts never really get much attention good know people supportive,0 +whats point alleverybody lives dies go life turn dirt whats point everything become nothing end,1 +im worried friend mine recently expressed suicidal thoughts experienced past help himmy friend week seemed upbeat happy recently told become extremely distraught divorced mother declared bankruptcy grades dumps attempts provide family worried happy college always concerned mom believe may alcoholic maybe probably abusive sent incoherent emails friends many occasions always napping call friend recent call telling i told everything need keep things dark verbatim makes worried road ending thought cannot one help him expert point cannot trust family help me advice help friend immensely appreciated offered number redflag hotline begged get counseling know anything else do edit also add secretive talking me always needs randomly hang randomly log facebook xbox live,1 +bought gunits two weeks since purchasing firearm lot long nights wondering whether ill ever muster strength fire gun one time ill need fire man life really funny isnt it,1 +cautionary talei think im going kill leave behind note explaining everything wrong led it way others might learn shit life maybe good come horrible mistakes,1 +wished euthanasia legalid first line apply though ive heard easy so fuck alive,1 +get political anything fucked dog,0 +im even really livingim sure im posting am cant sleep usual like every second life im pain im going bore details degenerative diseases eating away spine tried make peace pain really did last years trying learn live this good damnit found medication regimen keeps head clear ive worked depression learned get by im fucked intense migraines muscle spasms neck back sudden bouts vertigo bad vomit cant even walk bedroom myself ended getting sudden onset one day brought er found brain degeneration ct scan still working cause oh great another health issue deal with could deal pain least could still take daughter park clean house now barely get moving anymore making stir fry tonight hard nearly threw up cannot live rest life bed throwing dizzy pain sort life that feel like burden family basically cant left alone run errands fear passing alone somewhere sometimes wish gotten married could real wife something take care of daughter could real mother could walk school again love much worry could out im tired fucking tired,1 +whole life suffered never girlfriend grew far poor money job barely friends hate lot get sad night eat lot day know problem is feel unwelcome world hate school god hate school one school year left graduate know going do never job before scared get one drivers license permit scared drive doctor mental health before usually depression hits older people me upset myself maybe born sad made fun of bullied physically mentally various reasons obesity special ed friends never girlfriend hate myself family care anyone else ready die yet alot things life die wtf still here,1 +someones flirting gf getting weird one friend group right always get together friday nights game nights dinner consisted couple guys girls girlfriend doesnt really like go shes social fine me however one girl friend group recently started flirting obvious like im one toot horn say people me like everyone says shes flirting me havent mentioned ive talked girlfriend says sees actually hanging us idk doesnt seem like big deal written weird dont wanna break friend group also want girl stop anything say do thanks guys ,0 +nurses hospital tell parents scarsso really know put this please tell belong put so anyway basically whats going is came back doctor breathing problems said ill needing surgery nose im fine with thats great ill able breathe problem comes self harm scars thighs visible wondering knew nurses going tell parents it nurse know parents know them theyre messed people definitely kick house take electronics forever treat like stranger take everything kick out im going wear hospital gown open nurses access help want know theyre obligated least ask parents know it ive freaking minutes now thanks anyone help,1 +ready endi intrusive thought runs head throughout day at least ill dead soon ill dead weekend recently ex dogs came visit sine theyve ive called manipulator piece shit vareity different things obvious person isnt good im tired really considering taking benzos tn along bottle rum taking uber park something let find morning,1 +hey girl u loose end cos youre always back mind,0 +im pro call crush like yo wanna like go walk sometime said shed love going walk like next week lets go,0 +yeah friends yeah see friends everyday supportive always positive always talk them ampxb ampxb never talk back though mean sometimes make noise yeah friends definitely cats mean hahahaha im social cool teenager,0 +depressed life everytime seem get somewhere happy mind forces become depressed again back comfort zone reading depression swells brain years something possible depressed beyond return wants life anymore long waiting die contemplating suicide trail destruction would leave behind partner parents siblings ect something cannot do want disperse depression among tried best help me depressed beyond point return,1 +wellgoodbye everyoneim planning jump building tomorrow goodbyenobody could stop meim joking either ,1 +accepting brain transplant applications tw playing minecraft watching twitch brain went dont want alive offed myself takers,0 +continue living one love life broke trust,1 +down maybe relateive down dark imagine waking paralyzing fear sure im may dreaming didnt know afraid felt like everything afraid turn head raise arm paralyzed id sit bed scared negative thoughts racing head would go days weeks months id look outside window trees appeared fake almost plastic nothing beautiful one single happy thought could penetrate concrete wall encased brain fight every second trying keep head water driving work daydreaming crashing listening family voices unrecognizable ghosts taunt me keep going one morning wake feel it crack concrete restriction mind lessened ever slightly thought one simple thought maybe chance hope hold onto thought dear life one thought keeping going weeks go day new ray light somehow someway managing pierce thick fog clouds mind one happy thought fog breaks im driving happening feels though shock waves ripping body breathed first time dont know else scream cannot contain emotions coming trapped ride wave long lasts long hit another slope cycle repeats itself im stuck idk many fights left me,1 +bruh want looked want someone around,0 +make neck stop bleeding cut shaving enough blood coming dangerous enough blood mom think tried killing myself do,0 +groovy song httpsopenspotifycomtrackgbktqzdknlmrscqhfctsijzzcuyeftkohxondajucw,0 +theres ways ends continue going school everyday rate much hatred life expands pretty much certain lead to redflag cant happy life incredibly painful tiring run away home ive swapped pressure school worse pressure homeless even certain lead redflag again life waiting game till hate life enough end it,1 +miss little kid loved little kid im teen,0 +announce current situation nnn nnn approached us taken upon formally cancel nut november ease load due year cruel unforgiving year thought relieved requirement nut entire month november please try get post hot hear formal announcement,0 +maybe ill jump front car christmasim stepmothers house come back dorm im going take walk jump incoming traffic cant live thoughts anymore,1 +know needs hear this aint easy definitely aintwe biologically wired avoid death goddamn cost slightest hint death bodies shoot fight flight mode admit it another buzz phrase accept choice okay make perspective correct know whats easy sitting room day thinking committing redflag know whats easy saying fuck it roving life miserable without actually applying anything know whats easy going therapy taking medications helping people told to know whats easy saving funds order purchase exit plan stare bitch day night never damn thing biology coupled uncertainty death kills drive even particularly afraid death process terrifies you takes certain amount pressure soul get point tell you definitely aint easy videos people access firearms see bracing themselves fuck exhausted fucking phrase already,1 +im hornyyy jk get bonked clicking,0 +ever take nap car listening playlist shuffle wake favorite song comes one best feelings opinion,0 +need help hope goneim last night party hit once feel worthless im moderately liked sure people want around enough meaningful relationship friends great people convince get me hang obligation found last night drove house bunch pills still resent them wrong me,1 +ghostingi know deserve abandoned like that im confused frustrated cant stop asking what do why leave me weeks still feel unwanted alone hurt bad,1 +whats favorite fruit id probably go watermelon lychee tbh favourite fruit,0 +someone said im adorable im angry bro wtf rage gt,0 +recently came realization two different people me one guy genuinely make people smile laugh make people feel comfortable heard important guy kind awkward little nerdy goofy hes earnest loves smile see others smile that told makes vulnerable realthen guy hes dead serious speak others want spoken to waits closest hurt him happened past immensely lonely feels like burden others sometimes indulges alcohol food numb pain inside headthat second guy winning lately could describe depression would it feels like someone else inside me know truly am feel like burden so love her hurt life loved ones expect always meit sucks know treating depression involves recognizing sorts things still feel like living unbearable cross bear sometimes feel like losing smile,1 +wish could kill myselfi balls kill really wish could ive done life years really wish could finally end it,1 +knute rockne american biopic famous notre dame beloved coach knute rockne excellent sports film watch ever seen it surprised technique used movie director lloyd bacon shows ahead times photographing football games result vibrant picture man responsible legacy collegian sport knute rocknebr br the film presents rockne humble origins chicago studies famed notre dame university south bend indiana ambitious man vision game played luckily went give beloved notre dame glory afterbr br pat obrien looks bit older starts freshman fact change much throughout film fine mr rockne pat obrien shows could inspire players father figure gale page plays bonnie rockne wise woman understood husbands call life ronald reagan plays george the gipper gipp legend died much young left legacy behind donald crisp makes good contribution father john callahan rocknes mentor universitybr br this film delight sports lloyd bacons direction fast pace gives movie,0 +shootin shit better act like u heard drivin xannies might hit curb tee hee,0 +last post hereit honor knowing you kill weeks nothing change everytime see hangmans knot noose feel warmth like something loves me hope leave hard feelings here,1 +droopy eyelid ruins face tired cosmetic surgery getting delayed dont see reason live unattractiveeyelids droopy wait patiently everything keeps getting delayed im tired it dont want live unattractive ill never get girl friend successful job interview put effort wore nice clothing got haircut still ignored want minimise pain me thought pills remembered cramps embarrassment sitting ward iv drip dont know good way it,1 +horn knee horn knee horn knee,0 +death cabanyone else die words band,1 +feeling everydayim years old seems like peers went school graduated going college cant afford it girlfriend lasted years recently broke me ive always struggled thought redflag last christmas day went hospital took gabapentin started overdosing got stomach pumped anyone father never there mother passed away im trying make ends meet own struggle get good job pay enough actually survive girlfriend left im insecure kept thinking talking guys even though way thinking guess never know anyways sum up feels like theres way out life hard life short anyone anything barely feed myself really wanna anymore everyday front mind thought redflag think everyday soon wake throughout day ive always thoughts im bad theres way out wanna anymore name anthony appreciate read this thank think time up im worthless,1 +dad accidentally saved lifei sitting room knife desk thought shit going brother diagnosed cancer grades dropping daily insults thought bad could be life better blood across desk dad shouted love you put knife stopped without wouldnt writing this want help scared people would say im fine stop lying brother going something unimaginable tbh times feels like one cares feel like trash dont want bother anyone do,1 +ill wait one year decide kill myselfunless im already dead,1 +didi swallowed three bottles pills hours writing this im going lie feel every organ racing right now death imminent,1 +july ston date im gonna go lake pockets full rocks drowned myself feel change numbness anger go away ill make go away ive tried much happy nothing seems work never meant happy death different also least body cleaned decay water doubt anyone would find me last thing ill post ever write bye hope find happiness failed,1 +fury wolfman good film good cast includes paul naschyjacinto molina perla cristal vernica lujn mark stevens francisco amors fabin conde miguel de la riva ramn lillo jos marco javier de rivera pilar zorrilla acting actors good wolfman really cool looks great sound like looney tunes character tazmainian devil really hilarious scenes film thrills really good surprising movie filmed good music good film quite interesting movie really keeps going end good thrilling film like paul naschyjacinto molina perla cristal vernica lujn mark stevens francisco amors fabin conde miguel de la riva ramn lillo jos marco javier de rivera pilar zorrilla rest cast film werewold films horror scifi thrillers dramas interesting classic films strongly recommend see film today br br movie nuttballs note br br i got film special dvd doctor bloods coffin brainiac fury wolfman vintage home entertainment see find winner three bizarre classic films one dvd amazoncom today br br if like werewolf films strongly recommend these werewolf london wolf man frankenstein meets wolf man house frankenstein abbott costell meets frankenstein curse werewolf american werewolf london silver bullet werewolf monster squad moms werewolf project metalbeast bad moon werewolf dog soldiers underworld van helsing ,0 +upset im still hereim upset im still here really thought last ramadan would last fact really drive home fact year passed still live please want wake ever again,1 +fun fact breathing reading post fun fact,0 +end linehey there im starting go crazy ive miserable downwards spiral years think finally reached end ive become unmotivated mny like cant bring things used like go gym sleep even simple hygienic things seems like cant hold true friendship friends annoy never find something actually do nothing interests anymore simple things like skating gaming even reading gone disire focus simple gone life summer months go back school stay til am wake am work day sit computer mindless things get frustrated everything boring bland ive begin wander dangerous existentialist mindset nothing really matters dont even know here point desperate obtain significant other know probably wont make happy want someone care care back people always say im virgin loser never find anyone makes even insecure sex always mind frustrating knowing everyone going im not viginity thing bothers know does well honestly really really dont see point living yeah might sad see go care choice last pathetic attempt getting help something potentially stupid dont know dont see point anymore im ugly loser beta male lives parents basement goes community college gets terrible grades im unmotivated pathetic existence anything people like even born world dont contribute anything fail everything do hate hometown really need leave dont resources travel maybe find myself anyways maybe someone read maybe wont sorry thoughts writing style grammar spelling format head racing kill yourself kill yourself im little drunk even care j,1 +hey cute give hug gt,0 +self harmim curious recently self harmed first time month ago done found hard understand anyone else would it though distract mental pain though psychical pain dont get wrong thats partly dont anyone else way pretend theyre ending all thats do gives rush makes feel good especially thinking thats over im curious anyone else this,1 +brother attempted redflag last night sobering moment mei sleeping mom woke around am brother lying sideways room blueish green vomit carpet mom asked do first thought weird drug mixed juul sniffed vomit smelled like cleaning product said mom need call lady line kind empathetic gave details situation shaking inside felt heart pound fast brother good terms often incites domestic violence me knew depressed extent yesterday night saw kitchen knife hallway floor peeked room expression world looked far away despite like physically feet me thoughts redflag daily too never courage attempt honest feel really empty inside feels like wake call me get life together im also worried brother course possible permanent damage itll cause covid one person allowed per patient mom hospital visiting im waiting car now dont know feel keep thinking bad things keep happening amidst quarantine doesnt help weather cold dreary,1 +comfortable naked scale wear clothes showering get naked whenever can also feel like girls much less comfortable naked no,0 +patronus curious mine black stallion,0 +rad ramen today 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last dm good old idk sound like stalker asking old r u replied age polite everything im pretty sure thought psycho fangirl i fact dude feel rlly awkward whole thing im v sry wasting ur time u read whole thing lmao,0 +really need advice hi school starting would like hear people think girl school would speak me good reason start last year really broke money name started selling weed surprisingly one first made lot money never got caught sold school property good till word spread much surprisingly guy friends gave shits everyone else became scared buying me started selling lot more became much stopped school year over regret selling motorcycle pay insurance it really want go back really good job sales make enough really would like fix reputation people scared me advice thanks,0 +neurotici mental breakdown sent text wrong person im neurotic annoying annoy people people say arent annoyed actually annoyed annoying even acknowledge annoying,1 +selfdisgust day every daytw depression redflag possible dysmorphia ive new weird ritual thing past months anonymously go whisper app post photos ask rating look therapist determined im uncomfortable around anyone doesnt consider and thats true cant stand knowing people interact dont think im beautiful makes feel depressed worthless also sides family raised particular standards beauty standard dont match cant even around dad stepmom without feeling extremely selfconscious refuse let anyone ever take picture me im terrified considered ugly fat even mediocrelooking dont know im going get past one honestly feel like people dont think im even here,1 +want refund ate happy meal im still sad,0 +im seeing black eyed children hear screaming helpi really severe depressionlast night almost hanged myself feel miserable suicidal want diebut also want to tried play relaxing fun games forget depression help get bullied lot accent voice sound like year old helium pleasehelp,1 +halloween going work year context im eighteen years old highly anticipate halloween year get weird looks height even reluctant give candy do people think im creep granted knock neighbors doors weekly still okay it,0 +minecraft drug let explain family known tiger family since like st grade entire family needed get straight would punished probably one put pressure im oldest get stern talking to ive never know im afraid go near that siblings taught way difference sister allowed get bs since loved dance i dont know man brother year got mac started want streamer like dream tommy guy kinda helped thinking wasnt gonna last long oh boy it school started brother failing like ss failing sister also failing different reason mom limited minecraft kept going banned computer which used time time away still failing not bad today didnt work said video games tv starts passing thing share room grounded brothers grades still tutor siblings time time get punished isnt fair minecraft caused technically,0 +im completely ruinedi drink much fucked cheated ex miserable person world anymore finally started thinking im even using throwaway know do ruined best thing ever happened me never getting this im completely self destructive point im useless know fucking anymore im never going stop thinking her bet may reading this knows reddit account is im beyond sorry know else say fucking fault every single goddamn fucking day live it sucks fault ever im leaving keys apartment front porch note animals ok know else do want fucking stab sometimes apartment never feels like home never everything feel awful long im there im bad place wanna way want thoughts cant fucking normal cant normal shit wrong me fucking hate myself dont know much longer endure this every single day waking feeling miserable regretting every choice make fuck fucking fuck fuck fuck,1 +going college biggest mistake lifelong story short delusional year old self real world experience idea world worked support system behind besides momdad raging abusive alcoholic torn family apart decided would great idea go state school mom cosigned loans bless heart wants whats best me set first two years straddled debt already quite well managed finish first two years gpa part idea wanted life still dont taking mostly intro classes electives fill schedule two years made single biggest mistake life decided transfer even nicer state school even expensive mom cosigned loans got got cushy one person apartment paying rent loans dumbest thing could ever done even though still am thats depression sickness whatever hit me super lonely literally never made one friend contemplated redflag daily even though probably never balls mom dead one left life matters needless say never attended class slept almost day basically prison cell me even though would seen outstanding opportunity normal person failed outmainly dropped out first semester never got refund first second semester took second semester off fast forward im second semester third school im state surrounded quite high school friends also attend im still stuck rut im watching friends high school graduate year branch live lives meanwhile im stuck limbo land im already k debt literally nothing show it im boat second school basically received academic warning last semester far looking like im going suspended im skipping class feeling depressed daily although school offers third chance want take ill thrown real world paying student loans skills experience kind meaningful work id homeless mom fail out ill move back mom alcoholic dad brother never went college also lives really wish brothers situation yeah sure never went college also straddled crippling debt rest life whole life literally boiled idea needed go college make something life im insurmountable amounts debt see completely fucked wish never went first place want kill go away everything saddest part mom left loans greatest thing ever happened supported way signing life away well im lose lose situation possibly do see doctor stuck feeling like forever way death,1 +apolitical musicians eva liv ullmann jan rosenberg max von sydow married seven years live small farm remote island escape civil war continent provide lingenberry couple costumers raise money buy supplies love eva twenty years old wants baby reluctant jan weak sensitive man want children rebels arrive island peaceful calm lives turn hell get middle accusations sides colonel jacobi gunnar bjrnstrand stalks eva jan changes behavior becomes brutal man love affection feel change hatred indifferencebr br shame antiwar movie master ingmar bergman focused eyes couple artists apolitical listen news war arrives lands love friendship affection destroyed senseless soldiers liv ullmann max von sydow topnotch performances usual recall seeing breast liv ullmann movie process brutalization pacific sensitive jan rosenberg war impressive bleak open conclusion pessimist adequate dramatic story vote ninebr br title brazil vergonha shame,0 +lot year olds wouldve intimidated age honestly guys still kinda even years old cause pretty damn cool typing like damn moron thought quirky random funniest shit ever props,0 +exhausted turn worn out life good wife cool step kids good job first memory room wanting tomorrow ever come thought never gone away medication fast pace job makes things bearable thought never goes away repeating myself constantly trying live life normal people let down cannot tell family love want wake anymore worn out,1 +delivery humorous rude lines pierce brosnan alone worth price admission plays kind james bonds psycho twin brother separated birth doubt intense hitman character sexual even better funny add kindhearted uberlikable american guy next door greg kinnear set contrast myriad locations vivid colors quickwitted humor provide great entertainment hope davis well cast gem wife focus film two fellows new odd couple thats part works well great probably rrated laugh look places story goes little deeper,0 +im going kill need advicesave dont comments want know lethal method bought glock occasion shoot head least pain foolproof method,1 +m im first relationship f want great boyfriend okay long distance yes real friends first became kinda where long hall fit together like puzzle pieces want advice good boyfriend make work bettertldr good boyfriend,0 +every feeling overwhelmingposting throwaway never felt terrible before ive gone motions suicidal feeling fixed went free happy now different never felt insignificant worthless miserable before im years old every last bit life nothing used much creativity used creative genius one smartest kids one artistic one best writers now nothing nothing makes unique nothing defines me ive lost identity im nobody everything want far live different life want to every thought different do body acts independently mind self control hate it feel alone everything do feel like failure like nobody im afraid call hotline physically speak mom hears gets concerned then shell port someone get help want bring pain suffering parents lives need be hate myself cant control myself crying way comfort myself want feel lonely want feel useless whats point living ever mediocre,1 +cute nah basically idea girlfriend im going dedicate notebook write every time hang out im going say day was did felt thinking know whole shabang well year im going give along favorite flowers favorite candy dont lot money cant get big fancy gift thought cute want feedback it ideas revisions,0 +im bored also thinking friday night mean brag got date crush b,0 +big shoutout uwhy helped bunch math last night,0 +still slash wrists punching lot recently mostly head suicidal anxious feel crazy it normal self harm via punching myself,1 +right thingso friend mine saying pretty peculiar things hed received pretty awful news saying things like it matter anymore the reason stayed guys holding together despite persistence demanded left alone saying reason stayed tiny dorm room helped hold together demanded leave alone so many attempts change mind left alone followed went walk us currently serving military trained constantly situations like lot bells going key words listen leave alone so really conflicted ramifications letting chain command know situation made call right hes first sergeant well flight supervision talking know feel really guilty whole thing really going anything could tarnished friendship permanently bringing people confide in trust personal things like without worried ill panic make call again,1 +suicidal thoughts jobi called meeting today told close fired meeting sales goals really confidence meet meet sales goals know going fail fired cannot stand thought failure thinking redflag think redflag would better option labeled failure,1 +favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa fries favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food clinkers scutter sauce side hoo haa hee haa friesmy favourite food 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anxiety dad care want deal me fuck life ill end soon possible anyways im sicl human,1 +im tiredlast night pressed knife wrist wondered deep id cut bleed out im pussy barely cut myself spent night crying next time stop,1 +love sucks swear god people fake missed give shit least try act like fucking not help go worst storm lives still let down hesitate leave partner fucking waste time fuck love,1 +redflag unemployed person often completely reasonable people insisting making even angrieri cant get job any job constant rejection sends clear message me worthy income allowing eat pay rent deal health issues worthy basic necessities life redflag completely reasonable choice less convenient clean up im always told give keep pushing gets better people give advice freely never chance make income support myself society egging on keep telling im good enough cruel im worthy food shelter healthcare fine death natural consequence things considered extreme take life considered useless deserve live,1 +notei wrote redflag note today know want kill myself yet im last semester nursing school im failing im really hard time keeping everything frustrating ive worked hard life difficult best friendroommate still psych ward feel alone lost like takes anymore go hospital wait school year ive trying make through really hard feel like one really miss care im gone know redflag really selfish know keep on,1 +destroying math teacher th grade school changed math teachers since used sit last seat class thought prick good subject mostly pay much attention since taught basic trigonometric functions first semester used call time distribution papers called roll number believe got speechless could face like anime moment protagonist holds right moment show power lol never crossed th grade,0 +word sad horny would come handy gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt,0 +karma whore ep comment something idk anything something,0 +mentalbreakdown free periods wanted clean little also included changing bed sheets cat laying it that first sat around getting depressed put really sad music started picking clothes floor throwing laundry basket which actually huge thing cause really laundry since online class kinda wearing outfit days throwing floor picked random stuff laying around started whipping dust shelves got vacuum cleaner threw everything peace furniture bed desk closet hall vacuumed everything kinda got aggressive cause well idk stuff happening done tried putting everything back knocked trash it much it still screamed like yelling high pitched screams threw stuff around father next room heard it kind jokingly asked going cried hugged me cause even know whats going on time read book class eaten lunch cause im starving want eat cause idk pls help im better now happening lot lately,0 +everyone saw post cat yesterday today thank much positive comments guys literally made day much better felt good knowing people cared truly made day thoughts passing ease relaxing,0 +heres hoping someone relate well tonight night plan go birthday wednesday im waiting long im laying bed im writing feel fine almost peaceful wish better way way explain im feeling know right wrong know im ill dont see feel ending life wrong choice bad see feel opposite taking whats left away benifit people life may sound like heartless person bother family may upset all dont hate infact dont hate anyone parts really wish could hate others id probably better person did im trying play superhero either ive enough all cry alot feel things alot hurt everyday dont see point good reason get better ive accepted me im going talk im like know better anyone im ill fair dont think matter reasons wanting end life good enough reason familys point view fine understand that put words try explain someone understand pain real need death one things dont like alone time become self centred worry even others may think say you im going head town ive posted im already worrying strangers think look somehow convienve everyone hate me probably didnt even notice me lol silly isnt it im heavily religious woman always taught treat someone would want treated got absolutely nowhere im saying go treat others poorly encouraging bad behaviour take care number one one else will im terrible looking thats something im good at im good looking im even better depression dont know ive gone topic sure say started typing guess selfishly wanted acknowledge existance leave anyone wants talk anything id happy company today send message take care everglow,1 +felt motivated today decided write this therapist told ago one seemingly small useless step still full step thought actually really comforting advice let explainwe often compare others people might active intense social life big dreams perfect job might live healthy energy exercise seems like everything control every single day someone depression seems impossible compete with someone depression something simple getting bed washing yourself may seem exhausting social interactions bad day thank you energy so try look situations way one small step still full step making bed instead chores day still one made bed eating one meal instead starving yourself still full mealbrushing teeth feel like taking care yourself still important part personal hygiene one productivegood day bad week still full productive day bad day make list accomplishments think i one thing think yes whole thing you know what atleast xxx kind yourself depression bitch already makes life hard enough compare others compare taken step today hope might give tiny bit power make step hope break subreddit rules please let know did motivation one small step,1 +biggest fear biggest fear seen incompetent expressing myself example write poem song write book people see stupid sentimental idiot realised saw criticism surrounding cough cough gabbie hanna like anything realised way writes songs poems really similar mine mainly get really emotional other care others think ack know deal this,0 +feeling lowi feel like matter one ever going truly want me im tired feelings belittled finding shit own want die,1 +toast paradox toast literal garbage right wake morning immaculate pm cup leaf juice milk,0 +gave time limit time feel better nowi started issues depression suicidal thoughts around read lot online stuff time told temporary problem life changes get better logical little middle schooler told redflag make sense unless feeling way life im feel better time up came first time clicked if feeling suicidal now please read this link side page saw exact page makes feel like getting better never going happen stop trying,1 +think ityou know loved much carried entire year owe much tried commit redflag last month took lot pills ive called paranoid blamed bipolar suggesting friends knew something didnt know right seeing guy lied encouraged anyway friend told last month said ever something like hed personally beat death care false hope kept going gone i still love her always given me since worth think time love would never ever blame her kept alive long,1 +feeling passively suicidal aloti think alot google depression tests time like need someone give permission reassure feel like definitely mental health problems even though ive diagnosed dr meds helping stopped taking froze also feel ridiculous self indulgent what fuck depressed about selfish even entertain killing myself wtf wrong me attention seekingevery self test tells im high risk go straight emergency room im crisis cant take seriously normal feel like this dont know move on dont want cause pain kids husband dont want live like either,1 +notive depressed years family trip realised people like depressed put mask people already seem like hope since ive managed accumulate friends parents kicked finally shared depression them one cares ive rejected every person ive ever asked out im things get worse even im financially well still feels though happiness myth distraction constantly thinking painting walls working everyone talks reasons people kill people leave behind happens person anyone find body till someone smelled it friends manage make always disappear try tell depression like weird magic trick see hope turning shit hole life around im going die alone unhappy speed shit up feel selfish wanting someone talk to pussy maybe could finally pull trigger,1 +well one films caught offchance good enough record showed next time if like myself enjoy many s horror flicks branched little norm ie another glut generic sequels think may enjoy this bad guy eventually turns person definitely expected see all go way one like genre watch comes hour half kill guess id give ,0 +would somebody like care mei mean im nice guy dont hurt anybody dont screw anybody over im nasty person life seems take me honestly want somebody care me im difficult person want live point really want end life,1 +fellow redditors need help soo year half ago met girl crush her guts tell her fast forward year find social media get talking turns also used like me anymore sees friend day start talking everyday like months redevelop crush her finds says feel way still talk almost everyday before still like know do would ask kinda things friends terms friends friends wanna give everyone life one understands better her one else talk asking reddit do still reading thank heart precious time feel free pm dm message me,0 +sleep paralysis last night im afraid close eyes yep read that cool anyway sticking usual sleep schedule am trouble sleeping eventually drifted started dreaming normal stuff wake theres something front bed like multiple arms shit long hair bodys natural instinct lean scream didnt body wouldnt fucking move matter hard tried wouldnt move tried screaming silent tried hard nothing worked couldnt physically move all could really somehow close eyes stopped felt like whole fucking hour demon ass hoe standing there woke up moved fingers literally cried slept like baby im tucking terrified sleeping help,0 +make another edited meme study test thats tomorrow read title nothing say,0 +anyone hard time accepting introvert like want cool fun life seems like extroverts also mentally cannot handle life hell cant even go store long without getting seriously exhausted stupid hate hate generally dislike people weird generally positive outlook life people myself wish could accept part,0 +im fat know sounds kind dumb feel like im addicted eating think thats best word eat junk food breakfast lunch multiple small snacks throughout day im currently years old pounds try eat snack best hold minutes really need help believe not want die someone please help,0 +could find dads gun morning chain hanging punching bag looking real enticing would like talk killing,1 +help cant thisi dont know do one talk to cant anymore stress everything plus depression anxiety getting worse dont know do ive tried going drs psychiatrists tell head fine nearly killed two nights ago didnt means though dont really know whats stopping me,1 +struggling wth alonei guess seem okay outside people tell pretty smart funny interesting hobbies functional go work study family friends want bother issues feel close enough with ex best friend cant rely anymore pets anything live alone tiny dorm room foreign country feel like desperately looking another relationship someone important would sad died it right okay alone objectively see fucked seems care anymore feel like nobody live,1 +really need talk someone pleasei go back fathers house brother was first time lives actually brother said father never really liked seeing him depressed never really felt love took like bomb took bad asked us leave crying cant describe terribly bad feel right now think one terrible emotion human feel unbelievable hiding everyone fact homosexual desires ive hiding long time life ive exclusively hetero things changed im quite sure am fear myself desires extremely hard so could talk someone think reddit great community even though millions people place feels good someone could listen well read me id really grateful sorry english intention killing myself know post this,1 +whistle fingers try make fingers put tongue back blow never make noise anyone tips would definitely appreciate,0 +im tiredim tired everything absolutely everything im tired fuck up im tired narcissistic mother verbally emotionally abuses daily done ever since little im tired trauma fucks everyday mom used physically abuse younger used get beat daily old school im tired good enough son mom anybody else im tired mental illnesses im tired burden im tired living maybe really fucking kill myself past days mom yelling usual shes telling much better life would never around fucked life much mental illnesses im cause every single bad thing life maybe bad mom tells am maybe deserve abuse mom maybe reason dad left doesnt care knew would turn disaster maybe one day ill finally kill myself,1 +always think cant get worse im almost good godhow people carry heavy burdens shoulder show thing far away roots dont know am always feel one best friend abandons feel like world much never ever prepared timeline events years promising im jaded gut wrentching misery ive ever felt im bipolar life literally good get bad again im waiting constantly im almost good god,1 +directed michael curtiz four daughters four musically gifted sisters suitors father minor conductorplaying sardonic quick talking mickey borden john garfield role made instant starthe movie also stars claude rains adam lemp lane sisters lola rosemary priscilla gale page spirited daughtersits definitive scene takes place lemps living room cigarette hanging lips borden playing one compositions priscilla lanes ann lemp tells piece beautiful says it stinks continues it got beginning end middle ann urges create beginning end borden replies what for fates me tossed coinheads im poor tails im rich tossed twoheaded coin audiences loved way garfield tough city voice said stinks scene created garfields screen persona eternal outsider four daughters slice americana garfield compelling performance supplying hint darknessbr br ,0 +malware clicking image ads youtube iphone youtube clicked one annoying ass ads beneath video shows image redirects site dont remember site seemed sketchy news article something way iphone could gotten virus malware clicking ad getting site,0 +must horny girl fuck super horny girl huge thighs amazing hair beautiful eyes get lost in look like would great spooning horny,0 +stop getting worsei much longer,1 +dolls days suck im sorry kid monster highs shit like barbies fine especially since started including poc plus size ones rest eww excuse tf enchantimal worst ones lol dolls eww theyre ugly theres story behind like least old ones cartoons weirdest thing posted far randomly came mind since sister looking toy magazines also dolls shes cliche,0 +dont know anymore xpost depressionive posted before sorry rant im helpless lost depressed increasing amount thoughts dead feel dull clumsy dumber minute affects whatever do grades starting drop outcast wherever go cant make friends lack hobbies social skills cannot say complete sentence without miswording stuttering sounding like complete idiot completely ignored whenever try contribute anything whether roommates class group mates general ive going counseling counselors university end telling try medication which strictly against go another counselor cant go private counselor evidentially lead parents knowing happy fact still depressed avoid talking because really help all ive tried going gym months progress despite diet make feel better self conscious ive tried going clubs still outcast cant make friends anywhere else im peak else go one else speak to want die,1 +healthy coping mechanismsi bunch unhealthy coping mechanisms want hear healthy things people do personally art therapeutic either painting writing poetry,1 +taking life breakup happened yeti friends guy two years started dating october good me understanding related many levels problems emotionally always affectionate seemed genuinely want around gave reason want live happy excited wake day could talk planned vacation together months talked hes whisk away northern maine would adopt cats togsther made remember eat healthy lost weight fixed teeth make better him past months hes down talk anymore often hes curt me never before plays game day literally twelve hours messages maybe paused worry death ive patient supportive nothing seems help last night tried tell id loved him snapped me hes never snapped before took surprise sorry mood gushing told hurt wanted help flips gets selfdeprecating stop swearing telling stressed is returned love disappeared rest night morning acts like nothing happened telling fucking game again ive casually asking call skype anything want hear voice hear tell okay know clicked thought im making life worse might leave ive spent months saving money could scrape together visit telling make happy heard since fucking february read old messages still acted like happy me felt way almost year got happy little while think knows inner turmoil im dealing with ive never hinted it ive tried seem positive supportive whole time lost loved one redflag years ago want feel again hell think im ghosting him one left left hard easier deal knowing made feel much dump someone love ive always loved want go chance tell feel anymore,1 +must remind unique ampxb mean useful,0 +guys doing wanted ask everyone bc tf,0 +im fighting losing battle pointyeah post wanting die im honestly really serious say hope literally hope whole plan officially ruined pandemic choice conform college dont life miserable parents wont let get job wont able move out im living house theyll torture finally give parents always win matter what time fucking cheap shot covid close finally going plan still jobless back room day havent even started movie supposed make made promise thought could keep probably face fans tell cant make movie im way depressed even school assignments havent submitted single assignment month keep telling tomorrow need catch work never do sit bed contemplating redflag listening music last day school thursday ive done throughout quarantine procrastinate contemplate redflag theres many obstacles now cant handle anymore im finally accepting im fighting losing battle im going win hopefully week parents go louisiana ill finally end life ill post update delete account die like pointless keep living now said id die couldnt make year looks like couldnt unless kk dollars magically appears bank account expect miracle anytime soon miracle happen like clearly purpose life now nope nope nope,1 +things feel like getting better today things feel little less heavy almost scary cant help think calm storm,0 +good mobile games try want play something new got clash royale clash clans archero minecraft yeah good ones,0 +im sure imdb weighted average came low rating film opinion accounts overlooked gem movie rip torn fantastic stubborn noel lord tantoo cardinal superlative housemate torn cardinal underrated actors finally given stage work craft onbr br their relationship always pleasant real humerous touching love story billed dvd jacket end tragedy lord simply aims high ignores advice take money offered power company movebr br the music fantastic period sets,0 +ayo leave aight used crush dude bio classes quite talkative sweet funny lot things common asked out excited get go first date someone really like buuuut actually got know himjesus hes expected all brags anything literally anything mind bragging brags cheating someonehe makes lot lewd jokes im dark humor jesus christ things said took ice cream shop thingy im introverted digress skating rink fun kinda made feel safe kinda knew skatebut honestly feel like right person me,0 +sure im pregnant kill myselfno one probably care thought might help reach out year old female missed period honestly dont understand itspossibke didnt get semen says pregnant cant go parents idk ill even abortion already stressed enough school im academic magnet program hate honestly hate life im looking way out maybe pregnancy that ive depressed since ive suicidal long time planning killing feel like maybe shouldve life hasnt gotten better im going feel rest life id rather die ,1 +think im gonna anything need get something chestive struggling severe depression last couple years anything particular im about struggle me im last years lost grandma parents divorced brother got cancer made redundant twice feels like im getting kicked dick life daily basis really ground pretty dull point thing is ive thought redflag quite lot again due struggle getting day im sad anything particular way think id totally end life family know much would upset them especially seen everybody dealt brothers diagnosis im selfish enough put that sometimes though get angry them know it feel like im going hell everyday even realise it feel like im trying convince deserve punishment something really dont sorry ramble wanted tell someone really anyone talk to,1 +know pisses ending lifethat almost guarantee people made sure got level depression going milk make them like doubt mind first ones looking sympathy attention losing such close friend colleague despite absolutely hellbent bullying nothing past year,1 +never post feeling desperate ending emotionally abusive relationship exacerbated depression redflag point feelings feelings lol words negative thoughts negative feels keep beating them feeling particularly sensitive makes response negativity stronger usual like all finding returning baseline takes longer triggers keep coming advice exhausted depressed stuck neurotic loop,1 +always thought ended succesful one attempts ending life every person cares would sad moment move on thought people died family boyfriends family worked end living ones cannot kill cannot mom time feel like cannot keep living either know much take try either outcome terrifies me mom said would able move kill,1 +hate myselfi bottle pills desk know taking kill me theyre hormones antidepressants want change everything myselfi hate ita ll wanted born cis woman nothing ever change know go without true nobody ever love me im freak want todie,1 +cant mom accept want kill myselfshe son done much better went college right age graduated right age got traditional college experience flunked kindergarten graduated high school graduate college still live parents transferred usc get college experience dumbass overlooking money plus longer years usc commute hour school thanks stupidityhaving college experience desire distant dream impossible point matter do weird moms favorite perfect son yet blind dying bad thing going son much responsible especially financially competent intelligent hes going switzerland job all hes confident enough get married give grandchildren told day suicidal thoughts cried confused obvious really favorite die hope discover much better off,1 +fucked kahoot really well getting questions right asserting dominance geography class get questions wrong end nd place,0 +saying opinions random movie get girlfriend day stupid amazing movie like guardians galaxy remind breakfast club superhero actually good,0 +hours left existenceive made decision im overdosing tons different meds hours now end finally come pain suffering face daily basis finally come end ive truly loved support ive gotten subreddit cant continue longer goodbye everyone,1 +wanna talk bojack horseman finally decided watch bojack horseman youtube videos praising depiction mental health issues really good finished idk life anyone else watched it also would u recommend others,0 +type cute think im cute wish return monke,0 +typing quirks fucking stupid like hell anyone supposed read saying o need s need z a need stuttering messages cute cringe annoying yall like its coping mechanism fuck coping with alphabet tell people use typing quirks motherfuckers throw around word ableist going type annoying ass way put fucking translation so damn annoying,0 +ive never good enoughim years old male battled depression year never telling anyone today sort identity crisis felt worthless person felt like waste life seemed crawl hurdle found less thoughts less often last year unhappy before got point crying every day started looking forward would help feel better last month gotten point cant even cry anymore matter hard want to entire life ive laughed ignored high school zero friends two occasions grew close people knew within months started distancing me moved university wanting second chance went years growing close situationally close in first year dorm neighbors second house mates really felt like genuine connection people university year contact single one them im graduate school another chance year thing happening grew close distancing me ive tried best many times feel exhausted drained nothing left me today one friends brought dinner group buddies trying hard talk them one point clicked people barely responding talked one laughing attempts jokes gave up happens every time try communicate people last straw ended sitting there silent hour cant anymore im done ive tried years years make interesting person someone people like someone talk people actually form lasting relationships them cant it know im saying thats weird way say things personality cant figure out drives people away makes people get know start resent treat like crap ive it energy keep trying know people think important form opinions yourself etc etc entire life ive unable communicate people see better looking better versed people talk everyone wish could talk to ive always tried become person wanted i like less wellknown music like sports really associate bros results people spreading rumours me calling gay etc feel like talk people theyre turned right away and im hygienic dress nicely ugly know im wrong years cant anymore cant keep trying keep shot rejected person thank whoever reads taking time hear out think im suicidal lately ive thinking ways get away found thoughts drifting death times scares brought post want end life something like this something know seems trivial yet distressing edit im sorry seems like trivial issue especially compared others going through hoping could hear someones thoughts find direction life thank,1 +urge diehello st post channel english good always urge redflag even feel happy like done well test thought always mind randomly appears im hanging friend eating homework happens mood drops quickly minutes recovers im really tired this im scare one day pushs end,1 +anyone else wish could hire hit man themselvesthrowaway account fyi dont want live anymore im m std havent gotten diagnosed cause im scared sucks know would never kill myself would destroy family wish could pay professional assassin kill within months something dont want see coming want shot back head without knowing it poof dead fml,1 +richard brooks last hunt film star stewart granger even stand hear mentioned even tore vintage poster film presented signing later years director run wife understandable anyone else one best adult westerns s years ahead time attitude environmentbr br in many ways plays almost like sequel one anthony manns westerns see heroes dragged redemption kicking screaming every step way grangers legendary buffalo hunter already seen light but buffalo stampede costs herd cattle fit poetic justice hes dragged back darkness robert taylors callous proudly racist gunslinger justifying grounds ive already got guilty conscience might well money well raised indians hes fully aware damage hes disappearing buffalo heads extinction gradually becomes almost consumed selfloathing taylor hate two men fall debra pagets squaw sole survivor band indians taylor kills white buffalo hide thats priceless hunters indians different reasons showdown becomes inevitable though outcome certainly isntbr br taylors certainly ironic casting granger turning many epic roles mgm developed films like quo vadis ivanhoe gave taylor s comeback years steady decline hair color may convince performance does shallow violent man consumed hate wear gun gun wears him grangers accent always convincing makes good quiet hero jimmy stewart mold trying keep hold newfound decency reconcile actions beliefs finally getting chance make amends russ tamblyns halfbreed skinner lloyd nolans onelegged oldtimer also give good get real star script tightly plotted excellent eye ear character mention ending stanley kubrick borrowed shining balances historical revisionism entertaining drama without ever selling either short new french dvd extrasfree boast transfer english soundtrack,0 +terrible time yearwife lot trouble lately lots fighting arguing screaming shes recently resorted calling names belittling me condescending attitudes often not overall distant detached basis shes claimed cared appreciate everything shes done past years marriage terrible time nd year marriage unfaithful admittingly retaliation smacked around bit cleaned act cheated too years ago weve individual counseling put marriage counseling recently ive swallowed pride suggested marriage counseling definitely need it doesnt want go claims ill play victim tell sob stories dont think understands counseling would listen sides completely objective fast forward today mid fight told needed break arguing would leave give space come back yells wanting leave later tells leave kicks house tells wants divorce locks bathroom comes out gets video game goes straight talking guy shes weeks now sitting room contemplating ending it dont gun hanging way id like found pills well want painless quick seriously jumbled mess dont even think post made much sense want drive far fast see happens idk help anyone,1 +let us face it little good world things keep us going false hope things get better get better world cold place one nobody gives fuck you nobody truly understands you alone inside heads trapped prison torment merrygoround hell reprieve drugs price future torment like sick joke believe otherwise burying head sand comforting believe positivity also comforting believe fairy tales cannot live cannot die barely carrying on every time start picking peices life knocks back again years years come realize destiny fear death brings respite deeper versions hell see positive things delusional,1 +donei cant this cant keep going like one fucking cares hate everything passion anymore want die care it many ideas want courage it husband leaves work tomorrow seems like best time it,1 +define dark humour also guys opinions black people go church father could guys take dark humour offensive af,0 +im patheticive tried hard end it pills blades works never works master escaperedflag plan laid out wait everyone asleep open window jump out grab ladder backyard run highway jump fence fall traffic pathetic even pull off im dont know anymore ive lost many people cant continue on,1 +day posting random fun facts forget get bored figs pollinated wasps eggs hatch female except one girls mate brother leave die go lay eggs nice day ,0 +im sad im really sad laying bed well actually empty numb point stands sad,0 +fiancee guessexfiancee broke heart today let take child homemy fiancee relationship issues lately looking back toxic relationship gave last years for child probably going keep me fast forward couple hours ago moms house broken things gathering things decided calm enough take daughter came rushing take her course flight fight kicks bolt door rain daughter without proper clothing her calls cops me tells took child mother comes chasing neighbors yard neighbor dude got right monster law physically grabbing take away dude neighbor pats back tells understands situation way go trouble done anything warranted called first place gives coat daughter invited in talked things told cook two three meals day wake watch daughter sleeps till noon response you know wanted marry real bitch you her mother never made anything fed daughter muffin today thats all stuck without help feel heartbroken also fiancee gave years life supporting professional dreams feel lonely,1 +time goes wayyy fucking fast enjoy lasts guess im gonna miss teen tbh even tho shit,0 +operation piss midnight gotta take pee wake someone game over ill operation below operation piss pissing super silence,0 +dont know control element element surprise boo,0 +bought k coins first person make laugh gets original cat award title filler filler filler filler ampxb edit over comments vanity awards honorable mentions,0 +last night prayed god would get killed today whether car accident building courage kill know know,1 +recurring suicidal ideationi pissed best friendroommate today moved new apartment lost dogs muzzle use keep calmer outside little upset started tell responsibility pack etc etc shes right course fit childish rage overturned box though contained doggy clothing soft things breakable objects held dear bottom box broke two them upset started cry feel horrible did normally stuff like happens start almost fantasize downing bottle xanax washing alcohol hate childish be hate mentally damaged get caught loop make others feel awful killed selfgtim stupid even thinking waygtmaybe deserve die foolishgti make others feel awful killed myselfgtetc etc part feels like maybe trying make suicidal thoughts focusing best friend feels im one lost something cherished im one wants kill myself,1 +anyone find cycling phenylalanine htp daily great way remove depression depression recently bad libido too find phenylalanine really deliver motivation good feeling however easily become unbalanced mixed htp since this today feel reallly motivated dlphenylalanine go least mg later tonight htp feel need phenylalanine htp great depression,1 +people make freinds iv never one scared ask someone friend im afraid ill mess make life worse,0 +ayo wants snapchat male whos interested kpop anime jpop science,0 +guys gals something important say anyways hate inform this lost game ,0 +done fakesim already suicidal treating like shit better fucking pitiful attempts showing pity want never fucking asked,1 +failure useless leech resources cannot contribute even bare minimum anyone even able kill anytime soon believe day easier honestly want kill ok,1 +ive grown tired repeated failures want kill though thought corrupting mindi goals compass leads failures setbacks taking two college courses tutoring third feel like freetime creates anxiety felt long time feel aimless lost one thing done regards goals losing three pounds january trying lose total forty want reading ignorance complex learning something new get anxious much reveals ignorance ultimately know get depressive mode frustrated going circles want daily pain end,1 +consider casual fan dario argento every really good flick such deep red tenebre seems one thats equally uninspired his output since opera tended disappoint still theres denying hes best horror directors top him consider opera argentos finest workbr br this definitely film trademarks present theres welldeveloped characters plot makes little sense begin scrutinize it still think argento european equivalent brian depalma style matters here much becomes substance typical argento theres beautifully filmed murder sequences unfamiliar mans work may perceive sadistic remark and may be considering often time misogyny them really true argento stages murder intricacy eyepopping visual detail truly makes graphic violence art form plus direction look films impeccablebr br fortunately opera one frightening products argento director feel booming rock music works well horror sequences when others attempt pull off comes across cheesy acting varies cristina marsillach playing beautiful reasonably sympathetic never particularly animate young opera performer rest actors workmanlike get job done again argento acting never point beautiful colors terrifying violence overall fever dream nightmare atmosphere ,0 +thanks brexitmy boss informed today theyll moving operations netherlands next month people lost job including mine bunch old beetroot looking cunts hate brown people used love country even feel like home anymore absolute worst government weve long time insists selfharming country going get worse im going walk outside parliament top myself fuck bigots fuck theresa may fuck tories,1 +continue write redflag note im sober reali this get drunk cry go ways without family finding me stumble around house late night kids dads pick knives start note cry more read every love note ex examine every photo us together clean kids rooms pass mess next day see kids hug tighter tell love them dont want let go kiss little faces theyre struggling get free go play yell theyre entering school doors love them get car cry open notes last nights redflag note dont right words enough words continue note walk work greet everyone smile declare great day im having throw work throw headphones listen lyrics poor everyone else found ever lasting love songs reminders ex hes dating too found valentines day showed drop son girl there shes course prettier probably smarter much offer im two kids two different dads wanted family wanted love know im selfish kids babies parents family im selfish im sick dont want die sad whats worse loving day overwhelming sadness final moments despair ill cry ill panic might regret it then sleep im fake im fake good parent friend daughter sister aunt inside body dead physically feel it cant stop shitting amount anxiety have ran red light today day dreaming past dont sleep thoughts revolve around man broke me dream last night hugging kissing asked doing loved me said no said wanted this all im broken person answers explanations man abused me mentally emotionally tore family away me sexually assaulted me told kill myself treated son like shit dr jekyll mr hyde man called cps me lied me stole me victim abuse god damn stupid maybe me im real asshole wish could feel nothing ever feel cancer,1 +ears ring ring ring wonder voices back chat filler filler filler willer biller ziller,0 +iti want least painful option fucking redflag last time ill ever feel pain im wondering exactly ensure ill die country guns pills home paracetamol ibuprofen knife theres bridge overlooking relatively busy main rood near me take ensure death cant bear existing anymore,1 +dark placeim real dark place right now want pain stop feeling hopelessness go away feel like world falling apart cant stop it yesterday got huge fight husband partially fault escalated suffers borderline personality disorder took kids left talked im home still tension today oldest acting bullying brothers punished spanking sent room looked venom told hated me later came gave hug said sorry heart still hurts feel like im failing marriage children best good enough depression anxiety im trying cope stopped taking pills made brain feel foggy im sorry im rambling im sitting bed bottle pills want go sleep,1 +generally wake extremely anxious hopeless day goes on tends get better still extreme wavesbouts hopelessness sadness hit like truck makes feel sick occurs random always cannot help feel something physically wrong despite negative blood work mri severity depression fluctuate throughout day,1 +hate pmddnormal brain disabilities going behind classes thats okay need make plan professors work pmdd brain take bunch pills smash head wall good amount times go hospital use excuse behind,1 +im sorry guygirlabout year agosome one made post heshe need friend uhi said help never really talk much talk little likeonce since think live diferent time zones didnt talk lot amd previous experience reason uhdeleted account dont even know person post subreddit wanted knowthat regret it ive felt guilt time right ive feeling like sht im sorry hope heshe fine hurt stupid action want know read this one reason stopped suicidal still actually probably worse now ive feeling heavy guilt quite time nowi dont knowi dont know anything live for im justsorry sorry stupid sht ive done,1 +someone defined definition intellectual being a person listen the william tell overture without thinking lone ranger this heartily concur surely would tall order accomplish this one leopold stokowski arturo toscanini leonard bernstein would find nigh well impossible dobr br and disgrace radio series television series along movie serials feature films syndicated newspaper comic strip comic books part make the masked man plains faithful indian companion tonto deeply seeded element collective psyche literary folklorebr br as legends started gradually first series radio plays written local use detroit radio station wxyz creator one george w trendle principal writer series mr trendles brotherinlaw mr fran striker year ranger first rode the plains early western united states lone ranger tonto radio series successfully guided depression era americans mid late s world war ii postwar era found country midst supernova explosion invention technology new communications medium standing ready wings unable go forth day vj day achieved accomplished world america ready settle peace prosperity new technology was course television would surely need something else roller derby wrestling marigold arena fill broadcast hours first time tv station anything on except portrait mohican chief test pattern schultz soon post haste networks began tapping existing natural resources existing programming virtually would ripe adaptation tv screenbr br so folks lone ranger incorporated interested producers jack chertok harry poppe sherman harris jack wrather approached deal put masked man tonto television waves well radiobr br immediately went work gave us first season made use considerable back log radio dramas potentially adaptable tv dramas cast clayton moore fine supporting actor many feature film dozen years experience also done work serials republic pictures thrill factory would invaluable experience the lone ranger cast faithful indian companion partner bringing justice various parts frontier sheer perfection charactersupporting actor jay silverheels must mention rift clayton moore walked replaced john hart season so mr moore back inhaving missed much now back story first years filming gave episodes look sound own made good use screen narrator gave shows feel authenticity individual standout one kind series actors employed veterans movies late silent era thru s s lot exclusively cowboy movie players good example casting glenn strange bartender sam gunsmoke vicious murderous gang leader butch cavandish cavendish gangs massacre texas rangers led origin john reid thought slain texas rangers lone rangerbr br in addition old timers cast find lot new coming talent then cast see people like phyllis coates dwayne hickman denver pyle others cast week week this along always calling fairplay justice peace western worldbr br the last couple seasons brought big changes first use colour filming made difference colour tv set still long way household second new set musical themes queues other rossinis finale u wutt new music never big deal us preferred old radio stock stuffbr br with series two feature films done period lone ranger warner brothers lone ranger lost city gold united artists character permanently indelibly impressed identity people americans,0 +quick diary someone might depressioni dont really expect people even ready this quick diary happened today pm rn im cafeteria college im first semi panick attack think im fuck up hate life even though lot better lot people im fuck up singlehandedly fucked life think point actually see future nobody job college drop out one around me friends family wrongdoings dont ever cry dont think im physically capable so ive felt like absolute shit tears cant come out im sitting table eyes starting water dont want let out reason im panic attack missed final exam important class semester taking two classes im fucking idiot thats classes take since ive failed prerequisites get major courses pass bullshit class semester important class math im failing hard im depressed piece shit missed class month literally two classes im failing this fuck wrong me hate much havent even studied final exam which ive missed thought going wednesday morning going cram tf go take exam even im failing anyways no im typing stupid note reason called professor three times obviously hes office didnt pick up going email right now fucked obviously though oh im adderall thought today going study ass exam also high xanax backpack later tonight go bed say im fuck up mean im fuck up friends family dont know anything im pretty sure im kicked college semester find obviously probably rather die wait happen know told since beginning fuck that never put situation parents always given support world everything literally best parents world love family love close friends one knows im going through ive many opportunities change better always seem throw away hate much dont know depression is dont know im fuck up blow face soon im afraid that though best thing thing tell parents myself cant imagine heartbroken be would worst letdown history cant them would never ever even consider killing myself never died reason wouldnt mind thats hard say or type even though dont actually wish ever happen me wouldnt suck reason spontaneously dying would suck wouldnt want family suffer like that love much them much would never hurt myself think im much pussy anyways would hate randomly die pain id inflict others wouldnt suck me think way id happy really happy way finally feel anything tried xanax first time last night smoke little pen love smoking weed makes forget everything sometimes watch comedy movie laugh block world laugh movie whatever well xanax something else laid bed floated earth typed realize stupid ridiculous sounds read thing ill probably realize doesnt even make sense now thats im going describe it floated earth bedroom lights laid bed blanket literally floated earth one thing mind meditating mind body blank like eyeballs floating darkness see dark room with tv playing jump street yeah movie playing getting sleepy next thing knew from remember right now turning alarm set am wasnt sitting watching movie laying bed normally sleep xbox tv off cant remember happened really guess thing people usually black forget happened took small dosage though wasnt expecting happen anyway dont know got sidetracked whats going on yeah entire life fucked even crazier think fact worse gunna be still find im kicked school still tell parents everything maybe drug stuff son failure yeah guess im really panicky anymore feel bit calm now typed heart rate started going feel like might pass again anyway life today actually pm now lmao im embarrassing emailed professor yet friend college library im cafeteria told earlier today study together im head pretend like im happy okay nothing happening dont actually hate every aspect literally failing every aspect life thats fucking crazy really me fault im fucking loser anyways ive now im going go pee friend study math final already missed maybe next diary note streets make far thats joke yeah bye real quick want point fact knew going happen last year even knew kept way being would position yet continued almost like asked this like wanted this didnt stop myself dont know whatever late start giving shit life anymore obviously do bye sorry long didnt realize long stopped typing dont know posted here did yeah ask questions remind stupid want list much hate could go forever,1 +one favourite films everything rocking soundtrack courtesy eddie clark ex motorhead loads action loads laughs totally ridiculous plot wonderful s stereotypes characters eddie putupon nice guy wants left alone different leslie about wet come nuke the rock burnout eddies mom pathetic roger the geek ozzy preacher surely exists america boys rich vicious stupid girls vacant vain stupid could ask forbr br well first all theres sammi curr rock star amalgam every s badass rocker think of rocket firing guitar theres scene sammi pulls old lady tv screen smashes up roger do why hoover up like good geek would favourite scene tim hainey gets long overdue reward sammi via wet finger plug magicbr br if rock s love ridiculous films like do check one out available dvd cheap trick ortreat yourself,0 +think im suicidal cause rage im suicidal cause angerim angry humanity im angry are do sickened weve become hurt care destroy planet nature thats never happy sadness hate myself hate existence own hate existence nature fuck gonna happy brother called immature cause want humanity wiped out say blind one seeing see lost empathy species lack remorse things do neither happy sad im full anger hate empathy stupid feeling eradicated hate caring people people kill themselves wish guts like do cause could finally happy peace ,1 + day planes crashed world trade center nycthe pentagon also attacked different plane missed us capital washington dc crashed field pennsylvania people died result attacks never forget,0 +im constantly fighting urge delete entire internet presence think would neat dramatically dissapear everything,0 +innocent friend right innocent friend ill call emma stories sake walking lunch school talking right well comedic friend friends hanging emma didnt anyone laugh told give prompt ill make pickup line joke said taco immediately came mind was get ready this taco shell wanna put meat inside sorry said hates jokingly girls btw sorry already done laughing apologizing waaaaaaaaay much friends want hear type joke hates one good day hope got laugh this,0 +someone please inform fuck happening america friend pennsylvania im worried shit going nuclear treaty america russia expires february im confused means,0 +feeling suicidal m shy loner outcast virginim s alot people age married children busy work already clique friends hard make new friends age went lot verbal emotional bullying school continued college office jobs adulthood seems like geeksnerds least geeksnerds friends growing up even friends people said condescending ways talk look lonely study time ive never girlfriend im short etc ive deal much bitterness ptsd flashbacks pretty much whole life since middle school past bullying affected life right now is social anxiety people absolutely no empathy shy people victimblame weak cant get it even consistently try make friends confident outgoing attending meetups many people cliquish unwelcoming towards shy lowstatus males many times people ignore say talk interrupt me treat like rd wheel talk others instead me left alone make excuse leave me etc ones friendly actually listen alot show following meetups whats frustrating feel im way proactive people yet nothing show it regards always go meetups go alone whereas people already friends need go meetups also strike conversations people whereas people already friends cliques get away making effort socializing new people lesser status them example one common advice ask people questions people love talking themselves ive asked many people many questions shown interest them either show disinterest give blunt replies talk length themselves asking any questions showing no interest another example proactiveness ive spent nearly year weightlifting bjj yet really feel confident less shy less ptsd flashbacks before also tried meditation many times hardly noticed improvement ive also attended plenty toastmasters meetings given numerous speeches yet noticed improvement life traveled nearly countries spent months living them friendly rude towards me possibly judging loser back home came escape problems back home another common piece advice society introverts play sports fun without talking much often taken seriously get picked deadlast many times deal rude immature pricks trying shove such rude teammates cliquish showing obvious favoritism towards friends guys taller me etc im ok shape im around lbs another common piece advice society regarding getting dates its numbers game you got nothing lose asking out ive literally coldapproached women nightclubsshopping mallscoffee shopsetc get even one girlfriendlay it got around girls willing go dates none wanted nd date maybe one wouldve interested hookup nightclub another guy took see again angers many guys easily get girlfriends despite never coldapproached woman always get introduced statussocial circle use dating apps photos demonstrating statussocial circle choice coldapproach ive rejectoutcastloner whole life ive also seen numerous therapists none really helped sure listened showed empathy really offer solutions since im socially screwed least well career financially right much high net worth income age chump change compared software engineers age angry underpaid im finding nearly impossible get new higherpaying job competition often feel unmotivated depressed lack energy study coding interviews etc make x make friends refer jobs employment gaps like workplace bullying concentrate preparing interviews depressionptsd like me etc people crueljudgementalcondescending towards lowstatus males cant join cliques empathy go never experience excluded ignored bullied etc hurt people hurt people theyre hurt instead helping social rejects want project hurt onto them shitted much even though nothing wrong hell else supposed do kill myself,1 +know guys get compliments much so beautiful handsome celery stick,0 +kind road movie oldfashioned trains slowenian late summer province beginning see someone underwear sewing trousers black cloth young man black trousers leaves house two suitcases see trouserspart missing flag mourning appearently father died train meets young lady almost without words many small gestures wonderful love story begins somehow surreal poetic little bizarre movie lot strange characters strange incidents beautiful pictures love beautiful details,0 +feel like shit itonight might time slit arms long time god fucking tired this want dissapear everything hard oh fucking god hate fucking place want end much ask tired,0 +read many commits theaters badi think certain type person enjoy movies person enjoyed waltons little houseu understand enjoy moviesbr br now loves abiding joyi knew bad news start moviei wish would shown end instead letting think it movie lot jeffit years later know interested girlsbr br i want say enjoyed movies farwas crazy bookscant wait next movie way clark talks get every time would love see january jones appearancemaybe family reunion something,0 +wish could cease existhere depth article personal experience depression anxiety came herehttpskayderellacoukdread tldr started panic attacks due phobia vomiting escalated general anxiety ocd son caused postnatal depression top mental health issues feel like recently one bad thing another cant seem pick up made decision hand primary care son mum come january could attend nursery little normal friends expressed great distaste think best remains care three mental break downs many weeks considered redflag always stopped cant imagine someone explain three year old would never see again breaks heart write want happy cant help feel mess up feel like im enough him barely get anxiety depression great prospects work id like work home talents stand afford work on every time speak friends mum comes across though ill somehow cured things go back normal cant see ever normal again cant imagine living fear germs ready mum love little boy deserves good life cant see able provide,1 +wrote noteits phone it extremely hateful dont want people think also know theyll talk shit funeral anyway sometimes wish way take everyone hurt me im kind person couldnt hurt fly thats probably im victim abuser tho huh family gonna fall apart half second cats moved around around till im sure theyll dropped shelter work annoyed theyll hire someone else old boss cheer nothing got better me exes get wanted tidy little end big mess,1 +bruh im filled much pain rn dont get hang friends school sucks life plain boring im sexually frustrated theres nothing things pain,0 +bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 +like wind lion much good movie thought since im young made long ago like good saw it amazed good was family liked it friends liked it everyone showed liked it liked showed arabs people morroco treated early s germans french even americans high school history teacher would definitely show students high schoolers point view give movie good grandparents liked much bought themselves little year old cousins even sit watched itbr br systemoffell,0 +pleaseim eightteen drug addict feel like want sun rises morning want deal anymore know puerile desperate feel overwhelmingly conflicted confused do please want someone talk to anyone understands hard drug addiction need know do,1 +would live country abuse rape victims fault time secretive happened know people knew blamed hated would cannot leave poor sowhat would do suffering cannot get help country live in,1 +purposeits cruel joke perhaps functional member society could never be work weeks body hurts depression takes whole im left compare seem anything work would hold jobs never give second thought reason being joke must thought questions eye beauty world compassion living things love people places money loved ones shared with im excel field even exercise profession im good writer good photographer im good putting thoughts words describing people places wish id religious not really could say i cursed would easy thing serve purpose me world loved ones thought taking life would tragedy selfish act theres always family andor friends would miss you experience deaths much mean sure people remember family would mourn would all see me think much would change know ive side reading this know people really care want anything foolish rest assure promise wish travel however im afraid would die accomplish hope still write share pictures insignificant see feel wherever go nothing one remember care everything would vain forgotten isolated segregated marginalized,1 +one really gives fuck thinking honestly one seems care much iim second option,0 +horses mars engaging animated short takes sometimes comical look process evolution eyes yet evolve story personal times sentimental supported strong digital animation narration involves viewer science fiction story fortunate enough view short widescreen format sundance film festival must suppose transferred small screen lose ability draw reader less thoughtful story stunning graphics,0 +wants free award deserve award,0 +hate life feel good emotions painpain pain life endless suffering every single day fair reason stay alive,1 +passed drivers test today posting reddit keep basically like forever trophy passed license test really actually it super excited feels like f r e e youre taking soon need advice dm me first try passed too,0 +d whats random thing made smile today kinda yum milkshake today made make face hope yall mfs day full smiles tomorrow else u gonna bald,0 +whats pointyr old male here recently decided take semester college im starting realize aimless life is hated first semester thankfully community college didnt care ok school couldve gone yr didnt want trouble hating career parents dont really support decision im going therapy mildly helps im going going medication soon idea going medication makes feel weak need help normal feel subservient everyone else also yes kind obvious would single decided stay friends one girl ive infatuated year rejected me im starting feel like shes talking pity ive tried before lately harder harder justify living anymore reason im still alive month old niece,1 +ah good actors take bland material thinking movie tight police thriller may disappointed situations true life plot proceeds predictable clip pretty well see lays ahead way actors take there many criminals secondary figures really stereotypes motion much dialog plain sillybr br but love see good actors rise kind material make something it love movie sam elliott nothing short brilliant taking onenote character detective falon come alive depth pathos never seen elliott emote much beyond usual scowling stoic stances delighted range emotion depicts film also early fifties film looks fantastic bare chest scene gives hope middle aged men everywhere esai morales wonderful job elevating role det falons eager beaver new police partner could easily played robin elliotts batman instead breathed genuineness passion role makes work despite lame lines given saybr br paul sorvino fun watch plays eccentric police captain seems know slumming movie ball it makes fun us toobr br this movie bythenumbers plot makes great performances sam elliott fans definitely get one suck kick see spread wings much usually allowed do,0 +guess im listening guys guess guess guess,0 +bored tired tired boredi wake everyday wanting sleep again sleep peaceful get whatever want lucid dreams im nobody reality wake everyday empty home friends family internet social circle eat meals workout fap work sleep barely remember names colleagues sometimes im addicted porn go gym admire pornstars bodies im years old virgin average looking short thing makes feel happy fapping playing games tire go bed want die really want feel tired time needing masturbation games make feel pleasure hope die soon,1 +made selfportrait idk else post httpstwittercomraulstermasterstatuss posting like since cant post images friday,0 +im posting hand pic already made mistake,0 +looking application idk sign somewhere psych wards included reminded end like perhaps someone check every maybe remind much damage times manage suicide ideation times literally impossible think anything anyone else suicide want it really want it sure lot relate need help think good idea reach friend family member worried either panic think trying pathetically seek attention scenarios equally bad kind suicide watch applicationsservices,1 +david duchovny michelle forbes play young journalist couple want go california cant really afford to ride share another young couple brad pitt juliette lewis save expenses idea stop various murder sites along way sites serial killers thing since brian duchovny writer carrie forbes photographer know pitt earley lewis serial killer girlfriend goes along whatever says care pitt rule justice psycho roles scary thing well ive actually known people like before no killers pretty much mindset anyway road trip goes along carrie guesses others money earley seems always come cash somehownever mind leaves someone dead though lewis role well one excels at nottoobright waif good heart understand put beaten earley something like things begin get unacceptable carrie insists couple put gas station unfortunately point inside sees news bulletin tells exactly theyve ridesharing with things go downhill rapid clip greatest flick world badi watched supposed unrated version wonder much cut rated version seemed fairly tame me reallynot makes family fare anything unless maybe manson family ,0 +love life earth beautiful people too want die sometimes braini cant seem hold job bipolar severe case adhd feel hopeless gets better feel like shouldnt exist love family beautiful fianc dont think make world nature beautiful find beauty little things feel like demons back head get close much handle dont want exist anymore want commit redflag existing painful lot time filled positive happy energy lows intense dont want anymore exist,1 +perhaps many viewers got frustrated film live lives without ever thinking deeply life itself want point distant arthouse film one best arthouse films arthouse films seen distant one really stands glittering piece gold even fair say films cinematography depiction human emotion surpass tarkovskys nostalgia one commentator got right sex jaded common feature among foreign films surprisingly lacking distant good way remarkable distant captures details life usually ignore rich essence existence often gets buried din visual extravaganza commercialized world fortunately distant much spare audiences see screen bare portrait human beings,0 +supposed computer programmeri finished college got ba computer information systems social anxiety disorder ptsd never passed interviews programming position job hated years started going back college second degree japanese goal teaching english abroad failed interviews need happy friendly plus guy ive relying spelling grammar check decade now cut it finished second degree yet family asking coding bootcamps seem make people successful trying code reminds matter like first interview time wasted it gotten programming job would probably enough experience go japan now seems hopeless life competition likable always lose guess ill live potential working restaurant forever,1 +go someone really down kick depths oblivioni slept days slept days throat feels like fire im panicking im panicking like madman lay bed boundless periods time cant sleep feel like theres something crawling throat feel absolutely miserable every sense word feel like legs feel like cant think talk correctly feel like broken year old tell parents suddenely everything gets emotionally worse different angles youre ungrateful everyone go going through ive already taken enough doctors know exactly feeling way make better vitamins vitamins mustve heard word euphemism like million times last hours vitamins ive taken million months accuses taking doing youre im obviously much better life experience know feeling you need antidepressants theyre pointless days look stay day sleep tonight hard it saying things different days im sorry know love me im sorry try listen once storm room taking xanax have trying fall aseleep wakes minutes later show video healing power vitamins cant think bigger argument erupts feel terrible guilty atrocious im failure son im fucking failure human being im sorry read shit annoying life better first place cant let hit me cant let voice go unheard feel like swiveling fucking mess person cant function everyday basis something missing im forever broken,1 +spent hour shower cos didnt wanna go online lesson people anyway even awkward hopped,0 +help please messedup rn lost everything need couple dollars parishrmack sleep outside best find work also smell bad starving n want money food last resort start stealing food give proof please someone anyone crying help,1 +cheated on go oni want go depth gave senior year high school freshman year college life pride joy promised shed never leave always love me spent last month relationship cheating me ended hearing people official guy cheating now feel bad gave back dead dads bible held hand funeral even thank back even though said deserve back cheated me one sees wrong everyone says nothing wrong destroys gave two years life crash like entire emotional investment place put feelings gone one understood depressed could important me much lifted hell before invited broke easter ive never depressed ive tried picking even better diet diligent exercise working sorting mind out give up ive tried two weeks still feel shitty myself getting better really want try anymore previous pleasures life enjoyable anymore usually go days time without eating people ive reached even listen anymore one does im really done pain im finding way one way another one person made feel okay life left worst possible way want out,1 +genetics shitdont wanna get much detail im basically yo male acne balding head look feel like disaster seriously consider jumping infront subway train whenever im there hope might get decent paying job kill graduation years afford get rid acne ill still balding male im awkward slow boring looks problem ill certainly die alone standards nothing special me get pitty im crippled lost close one ridiculous financial problems im kid never grew therefore flew radar im close hopeless,1 +join mc server anyone play however want ton people youre welcome join rn nobody want get btw running rasp pi upset little bugs ip ,0 +im running ways convince life worth fighting fori know say anymore anyone come conclusion cant fix mind life clear option go terms watch one closest people die painfully cancer two years ago diagnosed early stages young cant seem get insurance matter hard try last year including fact diagnosed bipolar last year stay psych ward longer afford medication finally helping longer insurance able hold job months time eventually lose mind start panic attacks work even manage drag in noticeable usually get reprimanded point emotional sad threatened losing hours causing hate even quickly get much worse point stop showing thinking better without me currently second month staying mother found cameras set house recording my roommate apparently thought decided make sure cheat else go hoping would short stay knowing abysmal credit going need substantially increase savings cover moves plus things left behind forced recent job tried proactive talk manager things trouble tension staff involving me starting make able preform job solution public discussion course bringing situation found new shit job fuck got get place live right day start work get text saying grandfather died needless say fucked job up mom want badly relationship head thought made much progress believe hate needing ask help i mean hate lot but pretty disgusted me mean disgusted myself think fix it get car accident insurance company total car decide damages greater car worth same,1 +day ago made post planned kill year im going tonighti write title confirm it im going use rope attach wooden plank going across top garage im going use chair finish job havent decided chair yet way fail wont able breathe one check good hour so changed dont really know kind realised im well truly finished th november wish cooler date maybe one god mind me id rather die go back day day life now ive listening lone tyler creator last song ever hear probably ill listen music hour beforehand anyone wants know bit me im male college never girlfriend couldve didnt due anxiety part wonders couldve different born quite good looking girlfriend know emotional affectionate kinda relationship best friend care about im going die virgin dont think care ever since got acne self esteem plummeted cant shake off dont want say acne killed me think finishing off im passionate football well was ive gotten depressed even look football dont even care watch anymore nothing interests me go gym one thinks anything wrong me ive seeing doctor therapy long wait haha hope dont show school photo memorial me fuckin hate picture shit not im going put redflag note personal message college explicitly put picture big screen im evidently insecure afterlife family dont want talk them love much hate fact im put pain temporary temporary popular kid school thats saying im great cool guy top hierarchy theres single person college hate couldnt friend think theyll react dont know react cry maybe day two theyll fine right funnily enough spent last day ill nothing chilling watched funny videos think im going go xbox later try fortnight battle royale people tell really good plus free making post final message reddit years so importantly want know you lost anyone redflag want know people reacted afterwards want know whether everyone okay without me attention seeking im sorry that dont want leave said nothing all know used read posts make comments time year ago never life think id side think thats everything thats concerns schoolwork stress future pessimism one judging me judging myself im going go dinner play xbox grab headphones phone turn playlist hang myself hours story over crazy,1 +moms cat died fine many toxins blood died pm vet dug grave him,0 +want older id like writer film andor television im interested guys want,0 +scheduling redflag the reality going break leave boyfriend next days tried times times hes talked staying disappearing him mean him breaking up years love him refuse go life pretending love him right leave right break up right date people married talks it again thats it im done going bridge jumping known people jumped deception pass seems like every week car found lot dark one around claim it car one cars august st leave commit cannot live life want choose live choose live life all please comment telling give boyfriend another chance want to want single want free want live life way want to please please tell stay tell need save date ill thing need ill leave leave earth,1 +im donei need someone tell fact marry someone next eighteen months even smidgen hope ill something live dream finally come pass ill reason actually live reason live right now none all turns person lied marrying eighteen months ill then,1 +want diei really see point living anymore im going spend rest life alone friendless ill go work day put good face keep moving career along career im really suited go home empty house waste time fall asleep friends see regularly long distance friends live parents im looking houses right thats do financially responsible thing think could live another year parents im waste space resources theres point alive anymore im disappointment parents even admit themselves im burden world even want risk passing fucked brain chemistry children probably have ive tried exerciise that helped bit ended back here something everything choices actions pretty much determined genetics past im pretty much doomed fail time might try get healthy eeod im lost cause ive watching reading lot horror stuff lately guess because kind wish could get killed monster ghost whatever itd make things easier probably easier family too im probably going kill weeks maybe sleeping pills itd kind nice go sleep never wake up im sorry friends family deal awkward annoying depressing alloftheabove bullshit me im sorry mom amp dad im sorry ali good friends good family ok without me probably better even never even nice except big sister college sorry incoherent ramblings im halfasleep moment im going try get rest another week work,1 +know feel livingim thought living next years makes anxious potential terrible things could happen horrible things could could done me financial worries country like years im uk family dying things regretting later justim struggling cope emotionally moment get overwhelmed want kill stop experiencing bad things happen forget things time im tired im useless recently quit job alone time work cope it want go sleep ever,1 +started self harming again use self harm kinds food punishment gym started physically cutting cannot even feel anymore really feel done get pissed many times post overthink post delete post something else another day struggle pathetic,1 +george cukor always one favorites unsung hero generation nobody mentions cukor breath john ford howard hawks william wyler billy wilder yet look filmography sparkling comedies the philadelphia story adams rib holiday psycho melodramas gaslight a double life great semi western heller pink tights mention my fair lady travels aunt service actors never put front camera feel certain tenderness watching rich famous flashes old master still much evidence candice bergen gives us first time career glimpses wonderful comedian become jacqueline bisset throwback days greer garson loretta young hart bochner steps in teasing us promising something spectacular eventually materialize apartment zero meg ryan bergens daughter already meg ryan tired formula is remains cukor film gather one almodovars favorite movies,0 +fuck raised told men cannot show true emotions mental breakdown last night first time cried years cannot tell anyone it cannot seek help without looking weak born pretty fucked family know anymore afraid given everything keep getting confusing much changing life know handle this want dad see state done much make see man mum fucked years ago even mother figure trust talk to know fuck anymore usually stop feeling used coming back scared going break soon cannot talk it,1 +remembered one time tied rubber band finger tightly immediately regretting afterward got violet less secs bite thing would get th grade moron,0 +knew dowdy queen victoria plump monarch virtual recluse years death husband prince albert actually led life fraught drama intrigue younger days the young victoria chronicles young queens romance husbandtobe also pretty good job detailing political machinations surrounding ascent thronebr br the act setup draws right away following death victorias father duke kent less year victorias birth duchess kent eventually hooked former army officer john conroy offered services comptroller widow infant queentobe conroy insisted victoria raised atrocious kensington system rules designed prevent future queen contact children growing up whats more victoria forced sleep mothers bedroom everyday became queenbr br the film explains parliament passed regency act established victorias mother would become regent and hence guardian event victoria acceded throne still minor time duchess conroy tried intimidate hapless princess insisted sign papers making conroy private secretary treasurer strongwilled victoria would none it refused go along conroys mothers nefarious plans duchess disliked king william regarded philanderer brought disrespect monarchy king felt duchess disrespected wife result duchess attempted limit victorias contact king overthetop scene seemed actually occurred history king berated duchess birthday banquet stating goal survive victoria reached th birthday mother would become regentbr br king william kept word died short time victoria became eligible accede throne victoria took revenge mother support conroy blamed making childhood miserable banished secluded apartment buckingham palace number years victoria little contact motherbr br the young victoria conveys excitement pomp circumstance surrounding victorias coronation queen good part film deals victorias relationship lord melbourne whig party prime minister unfortunately depicted film much younger actually was beginning melbourne gains young queens trust become good friends early years reign sees melbourne progressive later loses respect somewhat hes revealed typical politician hiding contempt masses hes supposed championing reality melbourne father figure victoria film hints sexual tension prime minister prince albert though romantic rivalsbr br the plot thickens melbourne forced queen must commission sir robert peel conservative tory party new prime minister film chronicles events the bedchamber crisis peel resigned victoria refused replace bedchamber ladies wives tory politicians film leaves another scandal involved lady hastings one duchesss ladiesinwaiting accused affair john conroy becoming pregnant him hatred conroy victoria contributed nasty rumors spread hastings alleged pregnancy turned out hastings appeared pregnantwhat actually abdominal tumor victorias inexperience shows bedchamber crisis films scenarists ignore unsavory aspects character evidenced hastings affairbr br the rest the young victoria deals course romance queen prince albert victoria kept albert waiting film makes clear since wanted acclimate duties new sovereign spent good deal time corresponding one another albert returned england gave victoria support trying times bedchamber crisisbr br i find good number parallels prince albert prince philip current queens husband philip mainly danish went school germany inlaws german background albert philip made business reform etiquette court theres great scene albert discovers servants still setting table king george iii even though dead years alberts struggle philipas husbands monarchs find something do albert philip became involved various civic projects proved live continually shadow everpopular wivesbr br fortunately theres excellent scene toward end film albert infuriates victoria perceives interference affairs albert want second bedchamber crisis goes wifes head arranges compromise involving victorias bedchamber ladies victoria barely talking albert assassins bullets almost cuts in film albert shot arm never happenedbr br the performances film uniformly excellent especially principals emily blunt rupert friend young victoria ends rather abruptly closing credits lean much toward hagiography no mention victorias depression alberts death victoria still engaging drama fascinating history lesson,0 +feeling worthlessill always weird tranny woman know am im loveless relationship boyfriend financial security finish school im old af high lows much handle days im afraid starting ive burned many people including family trauma runs deep body forever fucked stretch marks used fat lost lbs also im fucking tall kill now even finish school become hair stylist self doubt forever prevent succeeding xanny alcohol things make anything tolerable fuck literally everything desperately hope spirit lives im ready move on,1 +hey you yes you girls allowed guy dont use lube should x better 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remaining two trilogy script per se warhols superstars given simply premise words actions viewer sees quite natural even times ridiculous nonsensical works rolling stone noted review film better midnight cowboy film year polished hollywood an academy award winner best film big name talent i equally admire film flesh improvised somehow gut wrenching realistic without need complex subplots cause de celebre matter cause allbr br the film grossed million dollars absolute sensation particularly german market which ironically thought given censored version film posteditingsee note belowbr br curiously film much cut paste pops clicks flashes dialogue literally cut midsentence almost warholmorissey stating simple truth day life superstar snippets voyeuristic tendencies far better earlier warhol works hours sleeping statue liberty hour moviebr br flesh opinion first warhol films actually digestible given wide pallette warholsthe factorys first legitimate response hollywood phenomenon stardombr br as first trilogy portrays young desirable male icon naive sought after responding invitations please family subsequent films would show same character differing set values see trash heat,0 +valentines day call girls joy hours crying really need cuddle someone ,0 +writing something positive day day physics test today think pretty good,0 +teacher youtube channel really proud please send love sub would mean world httpswwwyoutubecomcnewbedenhttpswwwyoutubecomcnewbeden channel plays eve stuff would love could show support,0 +seeing keifer sutherland plays favorite character history tv foregone conclusion gonna go movies spend this also think applies eva longoria fansbr br the movie revolves around leak secret service agent planning assassinate president investigation unfolds seems likely candidate highly decorated pete michael douglas pleading innocence pete goes fun fugitive style search truthbr br its solid certainly spectacular decent cast decent story left feeling bit empty could certainly far worse,0 +know nobody likes me one comes talk me one asks doing try talk people words come fucked pattern look like fucking moron am cannot stand anymore hate loser depressed fuck up everything try ends failing want someone least like let alone love am friends gotten tired me respond texts leave read block me even say yeah like anymore hard around point wish would want someone talk me not point even alive one want kill save pain future guess makes coward means dead soon fucking it really sad one cares want die everyday never going stop god help me want someone like,1 +im actually considering itive medication two weeks due financial issues really starting fuck me cant get bed ive overeating considerably cant force shower anymore ive thinking killing myself im also incredibly unattractive im embarrassing shoot brains out also miss father much every time talk problems even little bit people visibly get annoyed me think im going it,1 +story toxic relationships decided share story reddit remind people toxic relationships much exist even young age look support middle one back little younger met someone quite quickly fell her despite mates said her lived road walk dogs park thought id talk her i bring it matter cos talked first anyway get on days later im asked out seems pretty legit atm started okay first met up went park etc etc things changed started becoming little obsessive shed constantly want see me did also started becoming violent first case chocolate bar thrown face as joke btw hurt made mistake decided ignore red flags continued getting worse kept slowly becoming violent point slapped least everyday almost got knocked rock thrown head her again as joke also became sexual things looking good made mistake decided shrug off basically abuse now shed steal phone deleting every contact force meet her full punch me stop seeing friends shed also always make look like bad one scared always hated telling people problems always seen unnecessary decided to told mum adviced break her near house things got violent could retreat inside did broke up end tho day after found also cheating whole time too one guy week later rumors spreading sexually assaulted her apparently shed told everyone school make seem like bad guy would also continue stalk me call threats police informed today zero contact her please notice red flags something it toxic relationship rn tell parent police things get worse otherwise deserve it,0 +second attempt time im going iti tried thousand things make happy exciting life active end day lay head thinking what point yet find answer wearing life away goes edit thank everyone wonderful people making sure put much thought make mistake going continue posting make decision let know edit going go longboarding hour so usually calms may help sort thoughts out ill back long hopefully edit decided easy way out thank guys much great deal said gave positive outlook talked close friend well helped great deal couple posts giving advice correctly reported everyone positive advice given real life karma saving life thank much live long prosper,1 +anyone good art would make something me need new pfp discord draw wondering anyone would mind making it pay sorry dm interested,0 +grandparents cannot afford presents party cake nothing tired thought every teen girl supposed excited sweet th,1 +want live competitive countryim study grade singapore sorry english good enough understand lot pressure im school people care much gpa academic result come back home read lot books got bad score teachers parents would get upset angry failed math exam friends looked asked whats wrong everyone class need perfect finish school go extra class pm feel like want anymore cant escape either sometimes feel tired cant rest parents high expectation think mad tell want study hard like friends envy people countries study hard perfect everything like us tell people want write novel singing drawing immedietly think im stupid crazy im tired feel like choice believe reincarnation want escape here,1 +suicidal thoughts day please help mehi ive suidical thoughts day words i want die repeating mind feel like right now feel numb want die want stop thoughts horrible thoughts someone please help me,1 +ive attempted redflag three times im state im contemplating again lost hope heres story fthis redflag note like rantasking advice everything started two years ago life pretty much started spiraling went straight downhill warning friends emotional support family anybody else lost hope felt like everything meaningless attempted redflag twice mother found second attempt get help call ambulance let suffer throwing everything eventually blood three days straight told nobody family kept herself reaction anger understood first almost lost daughter became way much show empathy sadness worry angry kept yelling me calling stupid ungrateful something reaction made afraid want live afraid die point nightmares dying mental breakdowns daily thought dead two years absolute living nightmare nothing worse depressed suicidal yet terrified afraid dying like forcing live wanted to want mother angry knew disappointment everyone around me last school year became depressed get bed also developed extreme anxiety mom dad pick school daily basis kept anxiety attacks mental breakdowns terrible missed much school grades started dropping everything felt meaningless me kept hearing insults every side either parents younger sister lack energy live losing appetite caused underweight horrendous amount stress parents school mind became eventually much me even self harm helped anymore sleep even though insanely tired eat even though starving felt like anymore worst thing anyone talk it friends supportive family destroyed maybe even mental state itself one day body gave up fainted room parents took hospital seven days went diagnosed mental illness sort of tetany basically means big amount stress start attacks shaky body unable breathe pass out another shit plate finally winter break came by able get away school toxic people could finally fix sleep schedule least little bit know hospital made realize one cared all visitors parents brought food everyday one really gave shit me lonely make imaginary friend head could talk least sounds crazy became attached one me was skip way january mom finally decided take action after two years went psychiatrist surprise got diagnosed severe suicidal depression extreme anxiety got shit ton meds went home thought good way become old happy self happy meds supposed make happy right no realize make bunch melatonin come brain could go youtube post motivational videos still depressed sometimes looking back even think got worse time spent internet specifically youtube reddit got tired friends feeling lonely even though socially awkward overall antisocial person tried reach worked holy freaking shit worked felt happy happy first time two years felt like fireworks exploding smiling found amazing friends reddit definitely best ones ive ever had thing mental state id doubt myself mind would screaming deserve someone much better secretly hate friends pity decided first time damn life focus little selfish ignored thoughts felt like top world honestly ill never feel like ever again magical life backstabbed again made thoughts stronger selfishness believed every single thing mind told fell little tricks mental state got even worse self harm got worse again skipped school tried slit wrists kitchen eating sleeping medication mother found me bandaged wrists put bed angry looked tired like fought whole country ukraine herself blood whole kitchen wiped razors thrown away redflag note looked like nothing happened laying bed even though moving could still feel dizziness heart felt like going explode head took good ten minutes get rid blurry vision finally focus mother sitting next me looking many emotions eyes mascara around eyes smudged asked why thing told already wrote note fell asleep never took longer nap that felt like slept whole day honestly thought mother finally understood me finally getting grip mental state like shed supportive oh boy wrong i forced lie everyone told make story anyone including sisters psychiatrist asked happened last piece hope ever crushed like that next therapy session psychiatrist told burnt arm making schnitzels mom well believed it definitely mom fake alibi understand it mental breakdowns became pretty much daily thing kind actually idea eyes could come doze tears friend time internet friend told everything felt like absolute shit totally hopeless lost worthless suicidal something made feel type way gave hope everything would okay again silly believed it felt good dream hope id fall asleep holding pillow pretending him id talk sister time point got annoyed listen anymore drew comics them love found light darkness mind become best thing happened time hope would fade one day come back other it finally got guts talk mom told ill go psychiatrist tell everything unknown reason agreed go me think way tired done even procrastinate told feelings redflag attempts that something kinda funny happened day look away mental breakdown disappointment moms eyes told hed lock mental hospital redflag watch crying saw face still accomplished something day actually invited lesson gave norwegian students studied psychology talked english not native language mental state felt good really nice mom even told proud me got locked mental hospital risk commiting redflag week horrendous treated us like animals cooked disgusting meals threatened feed us tubes nose finish whole thing the nurse told first hour there yelled us constantly extremely strict point even go toilet get water also mean every visitor let us shower everyday like supposed to wednesday saturday disgusting craziest week life first time life happy back home excited see comfortable bed teddy bears mostly could talk friend course fuck things up was friendless again hopeless again therapy working meds working nothing working mom kept constantly telling head anf stop depressed easy said already found friends here nice get speak up like barrier let myself felt like at point exfriend took hope happiness him take long mind start hitting huge waves depressing thoughts even bigger waves usual also take long believe fall it already broken heart broke even found one wanted kill themselves think ive ever felt hatred disgust disappointment like moment took sank almost killed person someone almost died me felt worse murder ever could now im pretty much here feeling worse ever shit happening everywhere around hopeless depressed suicidal agonized self genuinely know do meds work therapy work nothing fucking works week left school starts feel like last drop know im expecting think advice would nice read way here thank you,1 +raped couple months ago life fallen apartim sick feeling worthless raped for second time life amazing luck past july mention depression anxiety also diagnosed asd homeless time im not barely leave house already homebody gotten point im actually scared go anywhere like around people feel safe ive depressed life want anymore feel like freak never really fit anyway think thing keeping guilt really amazing whole thing cant live life someone else im ready stop hurting,1 +cant take anymoreim even sure im writing here im going say ampxb cant take more dont get people go around smiling laughing time life living hell life time isnt fight left me dont want live more want everything over want quiet want feelings go away want end all dont anything fight more ampxb life ive living undiagnosed adhd making life difficult least teens one family member made life better grandfather got cancer died fighting years alive wanted take life once disappoint way make fight even worse died years ago went away cant find anything life worth fighting for cant really disappoint since isnt more ampxb huge money problems cant tell much dont know lost control years ago ampxb dont friends left ive never good social settings lost friends adhd lost head scared people away rest bad behaviour general life ive used internet games people really care you either way game supposed fun ampxb ive poor relationships ended badly usually ive found new rebound relationship short mess ampxb year ive knee surgery didnt go well either went deep depression failed keep touch job lost that lost rights welfare also that cant work dont income ampxb tried start school last autumn work out could focus dropped out ampxb found method want end everything with go trough it moment really anything stopping me dont anything fight more dont want live dont go trough it know work self rest life fight started cant see it cant take more ampxb like said dont know im writhing want it needed tell someone ampxb iwantout,1 +meteor showertheres going meteor shower soon midnight january rd dream im going one meteors want remembered someone sees meteor fly shower,1 +really wanna diei wanna commit redflag sometimes feel lonely really wanna die im frickin afraid death know im coward theres still bit life empty shell,1 +coming homei want go home parents house also violent rude sister lives home anymore share kind opinion starts hit scratching me feel safe there bfs home also home feels like whole household job always fight says live without paying rent bc still go school money job feel wanted here feel lost parents understand see sick violent sister is think bf care feelings jas interest ask says loves anything else rather staying fight get beaten younger sister want anymore one year one damn year start working get home home place welcome feel well know long keep going want place feel loved welcome place want go home cut wrists bleed out bleeding pain out coming home,1 +hard value one else does wish could disappeari want here,1 +may last rickroll decided rickroll dads friends went phone pasted link friends chat dads friends posted video naked women dad thought saw video dishearted mom said know think anymore btw im asian muslim,0 +hey music question anyone knows anything abt latin american musicrhythms really like beat rhythm body language intro kali uchis know bossa nova know style music is really like though id love find like it anyone recommendations anything please tell me,0 +really me really feel nothing all hated way bothered say that,0 +long time resident western pa intimate knowledge topic found regfreshing authentically captured film kudos producers epic great legacy school children years comebr br the attention detail realistic depiction complicated web events make one kind productionbr br viewers find mesmerized storyline captivated storytellingbr br grahame greene magnificent presenterbr br bravo,0 +want outi want quick easy escape permanent one want end pain avoid future pain suffering want die quickly painlessly way wont affect love dont want anymore never asked born,1 +right could suffering even body gives succeed leave behind grieving loved ones forever traumatized taking lifei wish easy painless way loved ones forget ever existed hurt them fair suicide hard,1 +know tell anyone thismy heart feels cold feel lonely beautiful family many loved ones care me good job wonderful life still feel miserable want end girls wife daughter fuck hurts live thank listening really mean that thank you,1 +im doneim see anybody would still care me friends dont anyone pour emotional shit out even mom last year ill frank mom found taken weed form brownie one classmates curiosity says dissapointed wouldnt be teachers dont know year im almost graduating highschool ended classmates guy gave shit didnt even tell mom truth happened told spat bathroom year end classmates mom wants change class section would inform faculty drugs batch sure enough name would turn kicked out know fault right id rather die face problem every night wish would go away already far younger brother moms favorite ive disgrace whole family go,1 +lonelyim fat ugly gay ive never friends social anxiety pretty much certain alone rest life,1 +see hanging felt likei tied towel tightly around neck little bit wow oh wow wasnt even painful almost blacked out cant wait real thing,1 +fucking hate schooli cant anything right pass tests everything right fucking fail final exams cause fucked brain cant comprehend everything mom starts yell swear im gonna go plan hate life,1 +dead set downing mg xanax fifth makers marki know irrational thoughts want love life hit biggest walls one fucking wants life someone please talk,1 +titlei dont know anymore made dumb decisions fucked around senior year high school instead planning future years passed since ive still never worked would consider real job let alone going school quickly losing live keep thinking hanging myself taking aspirin cutting wrists thing thats kept numb glimmer hope still left fear fucking live failed attempt loveliness entails met girl failed shooting stuck wheelchair scares fuck could happen me ive applying really simple retail jobs need around people im going lose it ive socially isolated since left highschool every time try reach meet somebody either too busy anything me meet thats ive sitting ass almost years honestly dont know ive made fucking far horrible diagnosed social anxiety disorder probably borderline avoidant personality disorder unable leave house anything social years post high school ive therapy helped anxiety still horrible self esteem every job interview ends call back reinfornces horrible feel mself top that therapist moved away left second therapist seemed completely disinterested helping didnt get problems told leaving job couple months agreeing new regular therapist lady go fuck herself timing told leaving impeccable told scared getting suicidal nothing life seemed working out threw oh yeah im leaving good luck top im also transgender hate it cant find anybody love am everyone fucking stick ass completely repulsed even im apparently one beautiful women theyve ever seen get comments model pretty time yet one shows sort romantic interest me would they im damaged goods hate body time hate voice anything hate wish could disappear right im taking larger normal doses klonopin keep complete meltdown want release want go sleep forever im tired trying im tired every day goes leaves feeling like literally nothing live for family treats like shit lack motivation finally get motivated nothing ever seems work go back hating wishing someone would come house put misery please give reason keep going on dont know keep trying feels like vain truly feel like cant go like much longer new years resolution apply one job day far ive gotten two interviews anxiety already fucked second one lady apparently couldnt hear phone probably ive taken enough klonopin calm horse feel like ive already fucked chances even though interview hasnt gone through one hopeful yet got callback like told would interested even though interviewer made sound like going get it always happens me get hopes invest much energy something happening doesnt follow completely crushed,1 +guess got breakup well understatement month days but whos counting dumped text talking online fried asked still liked me said direct quote used to im bi different group people like five seconds later screenshot conversation sent him played dumb first thinking meant see im bi part rather used like her portion guess thought good tell cruelly end gave saw meant see then natural reflexes hide emotions kicked in pretended give damn did still do honest cant quite work feel this emotions range were mature yearold get become stronger together i know weird around him still civilised go die fucking bastard whos far chicken worth time around him put fake front smile laugh act like care inside hurts see happier without me guess fact life miss him miss quirky geeky personality obsession things medical miss tried fit crowd yet managed entirely unique special miss way would anything cheer up miss ability make laugh split second miss would make feel like person world mattered miss long talks way first person approached faced problem viceversa all miss trust other best friend barely proper sentence passes us day month since got dumped know im him yet still feel hollow inside like part missing friends tell hes worth it hes trash move on still defend were friends right know feeling way normal know terms hiding emotions right know want best friend back want happy need like love me please treat friend im sorry whoever reads new felt like typing out seeking advice listening ear read this thanks hearing ,0 +know doi mean know do obviously im posting says something currently years ago life going great getting ready graduate high school id accepted one best colleges program exactly wanted loving whole family supporting parents saved enough scholarships id received could completely pay college now nothing changed im exactly be im years academic record noteworthy laudable financially im great place getting industry internships im track great success except im probably going kill day now somehow past years entire life became lifeless nothing changed surface everything tainted tinted grey like opening scenes wizard oz find joy anything anymore get sad either sometimes feel like crying screaming cant sometimes seems like everything sort goes back normal little while like im super busy something always comes back ive trying keep busy possible im wearing out end sleeping much wallowing it scare sometimes too know everyone invasive thoughts random things would never do mine really freak out sometimes ill find planing elaborate redflag schemes methods notes such nothing written down sometimes random self harm like stabbing again know im much pussy actually anything thats worst sometimes find looking around people around me thinking many people could kill police showed up would happen stabbed person best place put bomb would be makes sick stomach want kill it especially know could it nothing file would disqualify buying gun enough technical knowledge build bomb knifes pretty much everywhere wish id get run cement truck want tell anyone id probably put psych ward chance kill really goes window want put family that sister got trying kill herself actual reason severe physical pain months doped knows barely distinguishable heroin pain meds on think parents could take that within last months ive feeling way years trigger trauma went through rhyme reason im like this guess im fucked up im going anything tonight guess want help since im here,1 +slip awayyou scream one hears you sit mock disdain blood seeps arm crying loud pain broken glass beside bath water turning red laying bloody puddle trying rest head hear family laugh say last words feeling high sky flying away birds pain going away cant help hear youre mum crying next you hurt fear try speak nothing comes out know going away youre never going live doubt feel death coming near hear say love slip permanent sleep reply love,1 +cant stop thinking people evil ive gone abuse people cant imagine im dead im safe peoplei never want see another person ever again cant risk getting tortured again ive met many evil people flatmate threatened kidnap rape torture kill year thats one example someone pos sadly ive gone much worse bs im depressed talk it lets say family trying kill opened eyes evil humanity,1 +nearly killed day im glad didntthis painful still pain better was know im going okay ampxb came yearslong emotionally avoidant selfsabotage campaign come close greatest fear realized hands id successfully ruined best thing ever happened me pushed woman dreams away much shed enough coming back manifested greatest fear rejected left alone nobody blame myself fullblown panic attack total meltdown wanted end life straight up either going jump bridge take couple valium cut open arm drift away pain knowing caused demise pain knowing id deliberately let wonderful person go misery put last years super condensed returnedtosender straight heart was word unbearable truly ampxb humbling know powerful be willed would ruin life relationship that im done that im choosing goodness love happiness muster once truly believe deserve it ive forgiven pain ive inflicted onto onto me ready person already am best version myself im sure end sharing with hope is im opening whatever might come next ampxb im glad hurt myself im sad got point,1 +trust issues ok know going long story please read it talked girl weeks i know lot started like her continued talk called gave instagram i met snapchat one day asked single said yes two day later said needed unfriend parent didnt want boyfriend found weird used talk time didnt said anything parent anyway unfollowed her yesterday followed followed back talked like four hours says something tell dont mad texted ok wont told unfriend boyfriend trust issues,0 +drug arrived takes couple sniffs even know dying ideal way go day goes getting tempted use it feet away makes feel comfortable it months cycle anhedonia looking forward nothing suicidal purpose life like that none want feel need to stopping,1 +ready so booked hotel room intended end life new years eve is today live intended right actually even felt bad last week leading day kept telling going get worse anyway stick plan end pain all theres certain pattern depressive cycles know every time manage come side it keeps coming back always does feeling way years really think going get better okay days bad days very bad days bad days always regret going prior plan end life feeling bad entire december still feel great bad enough want end right now funny spent week writing final note another letter best friend things would need help wrap loose ends passwords bank details etc cleared things work thought ready go last days suddenly felt like damn still things would like stick around for shows coming want watch albums coming still want listen to even managed clean room yet maybe time go now alone hotel room am feeling okay part think im going live again time even though also know im going regret next time feel super bad really know this ever stop hurting stop want know going worth it want bad win this even win tired,1 +star wars question sequels making older movies popular,0 +lack supporti know like live support redflag depression pretty weak from resources help single males yet group risk made appointment see local mp hope general election coming take complaint seriously told week wait get support group meantime medication help meits ridiculous two sources help access samaritans wondering take frustration out serious question rude remarks,1 +struggling find purposemy life completely without purpose bring nothing table im single never married children dont home limited social life thing interest run marathons half marathons trail races etc im pretty much useless irrelevant everyone around me,1 +know kill tonight buti methodically planned life literally got point spreadsheet date live much more think every last person place thing numbers turns thats bad way try understand being,1 +last tonight im donemy girlfriend broke second time two days ago actually happy last week once school fun well football changed gf meant world incredibly depressed since think im killing somewhere next week cant hold anymore ive going classes ive fighting mom dad last night actually cut wrists still red bleeding dont care anymore im soon again care try convince im wrong dont think can,1 +sick tiredim sick tired sub dont really get point going reddit saying im going kill myself someone offers advice people say naw im going kill myself think sub shouldnt anonymous bitch ass niggas think bad situation stand behind words face repercussions false alarms wolf calling know say hey none but isnt point caring people helping see countless posts people saying going kill tried everything havent tried everything cause tried everything effort wouldnt suicidal reddit look mirror take control soul,1 +past days going onto week weird sometimes scary dreams never same one trapped old school bullies could move another semilucid within dream point could kind walk idea was weird dreams coming nowhere really messing depression anyone could give helpful advice really need it weirdscary dreams,1 +im yr old female ive never person could call friend life half year period barely left apartment first job warehouse job year since started working couple weeks even though ive long havent formed relationship anyone always avoid getting familiar anyone thats default way hate it,1 +fuggin reddit many good memes videos saved tf deleted happened wh h e f u ck,0 +it commit redflag thats hitler wanna like hitler,0 +cant sleep guys deal insomnia tried everything tea lofi know else do,0 +wants free award comment first second place gets follow tenth anniversary free award contest,0 +skhool really bad ton free lessons dont share many friends also end alone lot bekause im bad sosial,0 +wish people considerate feelings always get fuck house break in never hows fuck house break in,0 +wore normal cloths first months maybe geeting better,0 +im careive told week ive getting worse told every day lonely ive been apparently makes dependant walk together morning classes one class day sometimes sits next bus school fuck it dont care ones cared worse ive feeling ones gonna miss me matter directly bluntly say im feeling brushed ignored,1 +someone help mei feel rlly alone rn am rn need help,1 +im good man brain makes feel like nobody wants like dont stuff people wont like,0 +way im eating healthy im overweight want loose weight healthy able athletic things stuff im overweight think whatever im eating still skinny people eat though might unknowingly eating little heres generally eat day breakfast small lunch maybe half cups leftovers previous supper black tea honey let eat something unhealthy like piece chocolate supper eat little less regular serving whatever mom makes ive weeks working times week havent expecting bad health effects dont think stomach grumbles lot thats probably normal someone calorie deficit maybe isnt idk need outsider opinions,0 +hi d hope ur great day just long enough,0 +know crush me wanna know why cuz tried give crush soda wanted lemonade ,0 +alone alone confused,0 +question if even how question wheni get lazy ass it ive loitered around shit life long,1 +must continue must live according societyi born life must graduate get degree get job get drivers license start family say created here must normal labeled insane mentally defective must listen masters mean nothing extremely masculine rich successful smart tough must love material world it im going hang going free endless cycle dread try best spread joy love end efforts meaningless mocked time time again sorry childish rant truly life nothing suffering illusion happiness,1 +goodbye sorryi took mg xanax hope forgiven act hope family friends forgive failing failure next life me,1 +badly could take gun shoot head past never change haunt rest life want die sometimes,1 +know someone cut really deepacross planet know is way send help please emergency,1 +yo people say got barz like could get famous stuff like know sounds stuiped like go tho yolo haha like eeeeeeeeeee dm wanna hear xd like maybe people familiar raping,0 +im going dead within monthi hate life anything cant continue anymore want pain over within month likely see committing redflag,1 +bf poggers idea wanna say might get harassed bf amazingim gay hes sweetyi love cuddlesim still thinking abt fact found screenshotted first compliment gave himhes simp giggles,0 +gematria intro lyrics tere teh teh tuh teh tew tew tew tuh tuh toh tuh terew terew ter row teh te tero tere te ro rew x,0 +lars von triers europa extremely good film hows that von trier stylized way tell story least europa whole film like experience even see small television screen even tricks opinion film complete real moving piece cinema films top list also think perhaps scariest gothic complete film around right good ones too one favorite final scene one harrowing scenes ever,0 +rantcunt fuck cunt fucked life cunt fuck cunt fucked existence hate goddamn life,1 +disabling pet camera parents took stuff put pet camera room motion detection disable get stuff back cant really get cam without seeing,0 +mom dad sister get trouble reason constantly gang iq test long back mine came back around might think besides point not reason expect swing pitch voice constantly talk like would talk baby reason think im talking like baby they talk like babys everyone everyone them aka vice versa prefer talk normally smoothly unless emergency something requires different pitch reason think im mean them saying good response smooth normal voice ground reason theyve even gone far swearing me threatening kick house im even questions ask ape like example might watching tv ask im watching playing tv ill prefer answer theyre staring tv me proceed gang ground didnt reply even explained didnt fuck wrong people,0 +idk years endless pain suffering suffer skin infection spreading rapidly ive trying go doctor trying traditional herbs etc nothing really cure it im depressed stopped going school months scar everything making lose confidence maybe matter time enough family keep telling pray pray pray driving crazy thing keeping killing promise someone even care love anymore want free this im tired,1 +saw movie first time ever liked it dancing entertaining read somewhere got part movie knew dance scenery great too yvonne talented woman beautiful laughed silly kissing scenes great old movies grew munsters enjoying watching earlier movies may best still worth watching see act sing slowly purchasing movies watching receive them large collection memorabilia,0 +first saw ice age subiaco cinemas came out back time even liked it sort warmthbr br weve video number years matter many times watch it never gets boring one element makes different d animations made time characters particular home leave nomads thats really refreshing uplifting watchbr br also individual character surface appear putting other theyre really good friends well characters charms even bad guys sid sloth charming annoying overaffectionate naive sort way manny adorable depressed reclusive character forthbr br another great point movie beauty animation environments characters modeled originally clay giving film artistic edgebr br another aspect adds feel movie gender means little hardly female characters really realize watch times even little effect way view film due this theres also mention nuclear family would really pathetic setting like ice agebr br all all ice age great movie proof much effort put d animations shrek incredibles came out,0 +go bed watch jojo want fuck slept little find another subreddit shitposting upd thanks ill sleep,0 +guys blackmail girls trying get pics vids omggggg ask nsfw worse dared send pictures ribbons hair cause promised could dare something now blackmailing picture things like vids meowing help could anything next humiliating smh ,0 +live asian male im unemployed employable skills k bank aspergers think family friends respect me ive spent life socially isolated extreme social anxiety panic attack weed last year ive felt numb depersonalized emotions starting come back think theres chance might kill myself please tell hope situation,1 +anyone say get better theyre lying want stay around longer whati really fucking hate myself im fat useless worthless sorry excuse human being wish hadnt backed redflag attempt long ago held knife stomach today didnt guts it presence unneeded one even wants still opt keep fighting dont think anymore im fighting war never win keep spiraling deeper depression swallowing whole nothing exist bring others pain im tired hurting everyone driving everyone away yelling everyone hated everyone im giving st wasnt meant stick around long begin with lost faith existence higher power long ago cried hands knees prayed forgiveness someone rescue me one heard cries point know im screaming void set free cant feel anything end inevitable want sooner,1 +recently read north korea defects human rights violations made feel hopeless know evil world nothing changed think ever will vent,1 +cant resisti friendsmy parents think im idiotthey dont love menobody wants talk diseasecant play many sports disease life shiti want redflag,1 +want die kill paini want die kill pain silence words inside head sometimes feel life gain feels like already dead dont feel beautiful husband left daughters packed moved georgia leaving us stranded broke every man ive ever loved brutally hurt emotionally physically want see sun feel happy another day want strong children im busy side eyeing people around me im twighlight zone non trusting even best friend looks harbors resentment towards me day two husbands friends there proceeded hit looked happy shes married matter likes anyway meanwhile dead inside give shit didnt respond coworkers ive turned dates movies dinner hell wrong me im stuck up give everything anyone around me im wife learns muscles order rub better learns favorite foods cook them im friend speed dial wheneverwherever photographer video editor every gathering decorator main chef shoulder cry on battery energy needed im idiot holding neon sign graduation one goes little nuts ones love wellnone shit matters husband left debt bills may soon homeless need something im drowning depression turn music writing passions arent helping sick crazy flu one cares everyone im sitting completely alone bother breathe another day,1 +black lives matter know people subreddit going start screaming alm comments come say lives matter black people trying fight equality none yall saying shit george floyd every black brother sisters death hate crime start demanding justice equality systemic racism bullshit people wanna say lives matter question come high majority people say lives matter white americaneuropean black people hispanics minor ethnic groups understand true meaning black lives matter smh yall saying lives matter ignorance thats really case do paedophiles lives matter ku klux clan lives matter hitlers life matter even bin ladens life matter ok point high majority people say almwhite lives matter,0 +whyi feel like everybody world something live for life gets hard depressing people admit it everyone probably suicidal thoughts one point another gotta strong wanna someone answer peoples problems wanna kill tell why ill see help solution problems,1 +ass bigger act fact flair,0 +rented son recently found interest kindergartener time idea unfolding liked way told documentary one movie would recommend see concerning would one normally see movie actors well known movie nobody known also see movie concerning hear firefighter two losing lives saving people feel that rented movie would definitely consider adding collection well done indeed heart goes survivors families victims ,0 +god way things saw ex guy holding hands hes wearing iron maidenmy fav band shirt jeez poser got shat universe multiple ways,0 +dreading college start first day senior year tomorrow its dumbass zoom shit real school im really dreading college get really homesick im going need come home ton theres schools within biking distance im applying to one super competitive based subreddit full asshole boring kids also like idea college culture im accepting person im type kid make pretty offensive jokes college kids super sensitive that also like vibe expected mature like love kid feel like college kids serious mature compared high schoolers like that im worried making friends also like im barely halfway puberty im gonna look mad young also need play sport occupy myself sense im good enough play varsity college id form sort club sport team ton work,0 +feel bad husband want set freeim together years wonderful man best friend deserve right got together accident caused nerve damage severe chronic pain body takes care alot constant health issues made relationship miserable cant equal partner much end causing many issues deal with im currently locked bathroom crying horrible fight basically knees apologizing hes giving silent treatment looking straight ahead refusing answer literally acting like exist begged answer even say no want talk right nowand turned tv even look me hates me like everyone else grown hate deal with truly believe woke one morning found dead sleep would relieved sad would finally free someone useless miserable broken marriage feel hes pity want set free finally die already life mean anything anymore,1 +redflag helplines best worstless weeks ago ready die wrote note makeup nicely chose outfit last ready willing able im going put method anyway way came it full adrenaline hesitated knew hesitation could leave injured instead dead called helpline desperate originally give bravery see redflag through let help me told location police turned quickly taken ambulance locked days released week ago funnily enough problems disappeared today started considering attempting again called helpline all saved life last time time told woman phone want overdose says fake till make it need find something really love found purpose yet could help someone else instead thinking yourself thought want kill self tell thought leave considered barista course could go work waitress at point wtf silent talking would something look forward to right lady come fucking career advice idea one day becoming waitress going make kill right now want waitress think type job would make want live fact ready die talking future career going make even determined asks so going rest day today i told you kill myself but anything ive said helpful all i know sounding upset offended havent said anything thats made feel better this you audible gasp but makes feel like im good job shaky voice like going cry seriously want comfort right now starts breathing weird like going hyperventilate want deal shit hung up rude person woman really right person working redflag helpline going get butthurt random life advice going talk suicidal person ledge fair made angry enough distracted redflag now,1 +im scared die damn want diemy greatest fear death since child even really understood meant die knew scared never exist again disappear death terrifies me brain wants die wants stop everything done like life fucking videogame brain wants press pause stop time stop life stop everything thats works cant stop thinking it want die want die fucking ironic feel numb constantly theres film senses everythings dull cold grey justbland nothing feels real feeling real time much input time feel nothing self harm like goddamn teenage girl fucking feel something thank god nobody knows or least nobody knows person knows would mortified definitely able live thats due pure humiliation knowing someone saw pathetic even know anymore ive become sort sick hypocrite friends school always talk theyre depressed sad want tell shut fuck nobody cares problems because really nobody cares anyone im bitter disgusting helps case jump fucking bridge something but cant im scared die im stuck fucking loop like goddamn joke know do so thats life hows day going,1 +dm bored ass im bored damn mind willing talk anything hit up,0 +im sure anythingi know even belong here even sure depressed while point think must be suicidal thoughts best times last years therapist says theres good chance ever go away bipolar disorder episodes even im medication sloppy taking last month so im sure thats contributing factor lately the past week half maybe ive nothing sleep cant get bed one two days made outside one made work im essentially using sick days right now go sleep wake take benadryl nyquil sleep again rinse repeat day feel purposeless lonely thats true while feel like im slipping acute sharp painful kind depression numbing sort drives nuts anyway feel like want end it scare anymore ive essentially suicidal six years im sure good used it many good things happened recently cant seem hold them feel like im stuck way down,1 +finally gonna itfound autistic horrible hole life meaning people turns disability thats impaires ability communicate them oh since im girl gonna get worse realtionships going downhill finally realized fcuking autism paired fact high functioning lack sense self always though would regain point geuss becuse life long condition gonna tell therapist im gonna kill give heads bounce also post may soukd bit casual subject matter idk since deciding gonna kill ive felt happy found rather funny humorous,1 +love things anymore two dogs one died last night kennelwhen post normally mention angry am angry wake up go sleep think past look future look present like job know id doing hate much feel anger time today wake hysterical crying precious fucking dog dead died alone kennel supposed pick tomorrow separation stressed bad hit existing conditions died dog one things love died alone scared agony thinking itd abandoned kennel know say what what,1 +suck rantso idk im dont anyone comfortably tell whole internet ive prolly suicidal since watch mom cousin murdered cousin still mentally physically handicapped day due event escaped fully fractured head backstory above ever since ive felt guilty experience much less compared everyone elses event various family members would tell dies instead shouldnt alive wish instead reason pity family members go much things along lines understand said though agree dies instead sisters could mom could stop crying sleep anxiety problems breakdowns dies dad could one true love could stop sad hiding wants strong us sometimes think couldnt save could still alive reason im terrible weak selfish conceited good person saved them funeral everything began abused verbally physically mentally ran together could see much pain life caused people around me knew going help anyone would kill could least reminder event cause thats am reminder day dad lost wife siblings lost mom grandparents lost daughter aunts uncles lost sibling goes on scars run skull reminder lived torture couldnt bad im arent month deaths tried slit wrists stupid me four year old thinking even power cut deep enough die couldnt cut far enough cried pain treated say trying cut fruit knife slip family believed dont know life went one knows wasnt accident ii breakdown breakdown years that one could see cause didnt want cause pain anyone around me act fine unaffected called robot family friends emotions didnt want express them since never wanted happy cause fell like would insult mom cousin people around me happy made people around hurt much dont think ive ever happy take pride that never happy im taking away happiness mom cousin could experienced didnt fully try comment redflag last year didnt want experience pain though made worse family members dies pain endure couldnt even slit wrists could bleed out couldnt experience pain feeling bleach going throat endure seconds felling breath taken away strangling chose unpainful way knew oded combination many pills got saved doctors said reason lived cause didnt chose right combination pills theres another thing failed at couldnt even chose right pills could die school month didnt contact anyone gone ones knew anything happened dean teachers knew medical reason didnt know details hospital alone time began seeing could kill even monitored saw girl killed starvation finally found something knew could accomplish would least little pain could give family members gave slowly stopped eating aloud wear clothes got baggy colthes wouldne revealed acted happy recieved food everyone would suspicous end mystay got weighed again went already underweight got doc therapists shocked legally let go home stayed week home parents went back school walked everyone stopped best friend came said ghost thought dead made hurt much dead realized small like happened couldnt tell her whole day heard whispers bad looked skinny gotten looked like collaspe felt like too got admitted eating hospital got better im better know people telling bad look know im healthy weight im going start starvation again hope finally accomplish something successfully it see ampxb yeah idk said even right place post oh well,1 +boys vs girls chad meme idk keep seeing threads people hate it pretty funny im big relate normie girls usually seems like showing girls normal boys top stupid kinda funny think kinda stupid people see boys cool quirky girls boring lame seems like silly overrreaction kinda see like women live longer men meme realized used word kinda lot kinda means might phrasing badly idk bye,0 +prithee careful want see mwork squandered,0 +fever pitch many clichs come identify hollywood romantic comedies relationship two people little common secret hes hiding discovers inevitable breakup public well go get picture spite predictability works especially love baseball do though im quite obsessive ben wrightman boston schoolteacher played saturday night live comedian jimmy fallonbr br adapted novel nick hornby veteran screenplay writers lowell ganz babaloo mandel ben lifelong boston red sox fan whose uncle gave season tickets seven years old hes kind stuck emotionally point life detriment relationships women ben fan fanatic travels fort meyers florida winter red sox spring training games never misses home game regular season family consist parents siblings fellow groupies attend game bedroom place sleep red sox museum visitbr br when falls business consultant lindsay meeks drew barrymore threatened possibility grow ben quite ready that would rather attend yankee series go baltimore meet parents go paris miss anaheim series takes relationship verge dissolving stop think priorities especially pintsize dr phil wannabe asks him you love red sox ever loved back premise fever pitch things important baseball perish thought would never know way things turn out course one familiar history boston red sox team break hearts die hard fans year curse bambino came end red sox move new level ben might same lead performances excellent farrelly brothers even manage pretty gross gag fever pitch never mistaken art film joyous romp go one guilty pleasures go blue jays,0 +becoming intrusiveso past weeks thinking ending all even methods anything thought dead thought dying always becoming intrusive life failure now job friends cant stand family im waste space want stop reset even reset stop,1 +one really like movie reasons ill go late want touch think people like it first off people like hate tom cruise understand really second cameron crowe think successfully pes two groups moviegoers film casual relaxed not looking think hard group moviegoers left confused plot takes complete end movie deep philosophical mysteryfans devastated crowe one characters completely explain mysterybr br this good movie tom cruise good job it think probably best performance ive seen though seen movies even majority probably supporting cast good well penelope cruz gives solid performance jason lee enjoyablebr br i like story think thats vanilla sky anything mystery adventure romantic comedy mostly good story lot philosophical undertones it many similar ideas stories like occur historical philosophy david aames cruise man everything wanted less lost it given second chance catch regain back end facing demons full scope happening chooses reality simplicity normality see finally find one thing could never get grip on happinessbr br many people disappointed crowe laid complete mystery end think necessary audience knows beyond shadow doubt david aware circumstances makes choice end powerfulbr br and music movie great probably makes movie enjoyable is particularly njosnavelin sigur ros amazing songbr br all all id give stars movie substance like think things through great story looking relax moderate approach probably people dislike much full blown mystery full blown love story mixes matches different elements genres,0 +feeling sad hopeless flso im generally pretty happy super extroverted person locked without anything look forwards hard enough school hell online go two days week cant find motivation im behind feel lost know future cant see past life always hard worth it im trying sleep think pills thing stopping idea might happy future dont want hurt family im depressed dont think take care myself showering eating interacting family idk dont know do,1 +want failed attempti dont necessarily want dead dont want keep pretending everything fine want blatantly clear family im anything okay finally start listen me tell mom problems time dont think understands bad are even though told im suicidal nothing changed cant another school year people thinking im perfectly functional cant nearly killed me id rather stuck psych ward keep pretending fine,1 +one food right now would have id probably mcdonalds fries,0 +one person keeping alive hit head desk till bled,1 +think happen masks covid think theyll become fashion items used colds stuff like japan,0 +anyone ever want make bonfire dance around said bonfire like caveman speed,0 +long commentary herejust know everything longer worth it toil all exercise anger walk feel escape walk circles like hamster wheeli think life would like outside herefucking fuck entire system fucking scam shit military service shit pursue educationall ever lackey moron training one day somebody fucking employeewe damned damned never live fulfilling livespsychology highest eptiome pyramid self actualization according maslowi self aware know needall could solve entire problems life chump change somebody somewheregrant escape true messiah unlike phony idols people worship hope it wish it uselessall profit capital knew back suffering would go would nothing would even tried longer motivation anything worth looking forward besides future suffering,1 +one last postive posted times lost track got better mother still narcissist dads still barley ever around even anger issues friends would still much better without me still nobody loves me im still horrible personim still lonely im still sad still anxiety im still ugly waste space still fault molested im still tired this sunday am im going take gun put bullet skull week goodbyes storing wisdom might friends making wills redflag notes unless someone talk week im done,1 + yo history severe depression including suicide attempts got around seeked medical support thought getting better found live tried live good life father passed away suddenly kept existential crises see point living anymore years back used cut arms thighs whenever wanted distract pain somewhere physical even feel like anymore lot scarier every person life know super happy person issue hate burst bubble sharing story them point want anyone family know leading double life therefore cannot get professional help me point nothing even hurts anymore even thought loved ones missing gone want kill myself would great could exist anymore please help me cry help,1 +ads life insurance crack fuck upwouldnt fantastic family receive half million dollars pay mortgage gone funeral dreams luxury coffin bitch give half million dollars right,1 +hows going guys name markiplier,0 +tired seeing best friends returning people hurt multiple times getting hurt again cannot even talk issues getting baker acted getting left without anyone know week people always say faking know anyone would fake shit long story short cannot anymore want go please help justi know anymore,1 +cant fresh start hey guys thanks already listening think able help much people tried guess worth shot im year old male past year ive quite depressed reached point thinking self harm redflag daily basis lovley girlfriend many years truly loved her going ask marry me cheated guy close friends close friends aswell never told circumstances behind breakup gotten moving her think im silly im finding moving difficult miss every day sadly much around remind hate making trek university te train passes many places used go depressing wish could fresh start cant change uni need help parents around farm cant move bought motorbike year ago never thought id kinda guy liked go fast think ever pick way go using bike wish u chance fresh start everything reminds see escape,1 +shot shot remake drivers license video singer doesnt understand cars httpsyoutubezplxjmixwf,0 +tired living every day wish die instantly car crash painlessly dread think surviving s s still clueless meaningless life,1 +names joey ever since th grade redflag teacher total prick would yell class mentally abusive fuck us sure part trauma ik strong people def added part trauma anyways developed social redflag generalized redflag disorder hindered ability make friends like friends max talked sometimes too even close friends redflag lack motivation would spend day playing laptop bit younger escape me could avoid life play video games day parents lenient started developing depressive disorder probably also started smoking weed gram day strong dispensary weed year brain fucked could think all could concentrate anything like minute hell could even concentrate remember like anything like past day two contemplating starving death know fuck realized ways time now got nurse practitioner gave citalopramantidepressant ssri recommended counselling accepted counselling time declined later got phone call receptonist make counselling appointment whatever thought feel better was side effects sucked sex drive really insomnia started smoking gram day days went psychosis got extremely anxious agitated panicky even yelled parents told mom fuck thought redflag knew not anyways broken inside redflag disorder could handle it psychosis looking antidepressants something help sleep think weed combo sorry wasting time r reading ik lot writing story m,1 +officially teenager today th birthday excited part rteenagers,0 +cant this im watching dragon ball z movies cause im bored far ive thought pretty decent them little repetitive stuff thats generally dragon ball z got dbz broly second coming hate it like firstly focuses goten trunks little kids makes annoying af secondly feels rushed thirdly everloving fuck need put edgy metal music it makes feel like amv which cringe fuck dbz movie ive heard next one biobroly even worse im excited,0 +hello people sorting new dm right now looking post legally obligated friend,0 +almost years since mother killed herself im becoming suicidal evernext month marks years since mother hung herself whole messed family up dad drank death years later months later older brother ran side world better ive here stuck feeling hopeless ive really tried really have granted ive got decent parttime job want do gave dreams photographer long time ago im getting age feels like late really something life cant afford better myself im living paycheck paycheck wasting time dead end job job im made feel useless terrible too every shift go home cry want leave city ive whole life theres real opportunities me plus cant afford get go like that im giving up hate life even more want die,1 +communicate teenager sister more im f sister f moved years ago weve always pretty good relationship confidently say feels safe loved whenever shes around me fun whenever visit used lot fun stuff together still living family feel way im around too shes person show true goofy self to problem is ever since ive moved dont really communicate anymore im really texting type person make sure remind much love every making playlists getting gifts telling love verbally thats it thats talking im home her miss old days wanna friend family moves lot change school almost every year doesnt enough friends make feel less lonely also context might mention shes anime japanese culture shes huge kpop fan dont share interests totally respect want feel validated,0 +lego cool lego cool nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said nuff said,0 +kindly insert title ampxb httpspreviewredditondtchrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdacfcdcecbbcd,0 +even botheryo back september almost ended life didnt though keep thinking mistake to got bullied years never really friend besides mom family even acknowledge existence let alone family tried months make friends always find looking like fool female crush whenever talk gives one word answers acts uninterested me try make freinds week two never talk again glad never drank used drug did would probability lose control end life everyday drink looks tempting make forget pain live day hiding feelings get home feel like worst thing planet time go sleep near tears wake morning feel like physical embodiment pain cycle continues want stop want give up,1 +rambling guessive debating think reasons to try convince theres solutions go circles hours end result always same heavy feeling isolation realization worthless always wins out think people ill leave behind ill devastate family every day feels wrong like dead long ago wasting space tried calling hotline once talk listen all said want talk redflag reassured waste time tying phone lines people truly need needed get phone hung burned myself exactly deserve im sick cleaning mess wiping blood cleaning wounds cleaning wounds cleaning fucking wounds scars form disfigure arms even already were times truly forget im stoned ass get drunk go parties live high laugh night next morning leave im alone again im nobody im nothing know kills silence live in stuck head cutting nights not pretend okay make deans list future im going find career make life myself scars hundreds scars go class lie teeth jobs ive applied to reality applied anywhere all everything coming close nowhere move to classes falling apart done final projects im supposed graduate fucking know happens next even bothered getting cap gown parents reminded months ago feel bad relatives coming state watch graduate think might coming funeral instead,1 +im ok i goodperfect almost real anyone thinking anger,1 +need get hereeverything collapsing fucking hate every disgusting inch want nothing die deserving pain give,1 +get sub httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucmvazuvqlpjwqhvhivurwhttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucmvazuvqlpjwqhvhivurw plz,0 +day posting music one know heard up nightviagra boyshttpsopenspotifycomtrackpdmuthjkmahpysoiofgsiukdqygioqvsnotkeunna,0 +alex winter keanu reeves return two dopes san dimas get sent another trip lifetime someone future feels exactly opposite way presented first moviebr br the difference trip somewhere heaven hell ends both meet grim reaper get chance afterlifetime play chance return stop two evil robots ruining future supposed have besides playing roles haveerperfected also play and revive couple extra sales process classic games i even original copy battleship closetbr br the reason liked movie better original deals what might like instead what was without spoiling movie cant give anymore information i guess watch decide yourself stars,0 +come think part today christmas eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve context bio part httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsibscome_and_think_of_itutm_sourceshareampamputm_mediumios_appampamputm_nameiossmf,0 +im looking artists song romance stuff probably best subreddit post got tired topic music again listen rock music too used artist say kind interesting things lover so could recommend artist even playlist spotify id grateful sorry use word incorrectly im native english speaker,0 +anyone ever feel need die cleanive jail since friday morning amp havent showered since then though got saturday food sweatshirt stink dont give fuck cos im fucking depressed feel like want take antipsychotic medication sleepers im three gins amp counting whats holding back gross am want die clean nice clothes needing take shower holding back right now guess thats good thing dont know long ill feel way long til take shower,1 +thing scares myselfdont know anyone else feels biggest danger myself id describe chill asf generally happy one personalities resonates lot people personalities gone gonna really long road get back guess could say im improving slowly theres two sides me side let people see thats happy chill dark side moods change lot bc periodic form depression dark side scares comes goes scary movies dont even scare anymore ive seen worse shit head satan could front would give flying fuck ive imagined itd like hang myself dangling pass out body starts convulsing finally silence im slowly spinning family finds morning mom screaming agony bc sees sons lifeless expression rope tightly squeezed around neck fucked shit think about huh see shit like time honestly dont think ill ever stop seeing depression mental like cant control it could start feel shitty im typing this people think hell place cant reach die thats true everyday wake another day hell im search help already know got fucked shit going ive already started taking steps try improve quality life like getting therapist stuff know moment mind could flip switch could end hanging rafter room thats scares me didnt know anyone else thinks enemy like moment could like fuck shit im out,1 +kates father angel day long planning finally start sleeping house again evening comes go home puts crime drama marathon little loud kate asks minds turning down sofor five minutes room again turns louder previously,1 +rather annoying reviewers keep comparing planet earth course planet earth better much much same earth like extended trailer planet earth series such inevitably inferior simplified comparing like likebr br as featurelength documentary or actually featurelength anything surpasses pretty much anything see entire life unless choose traverse earth helicopters longrange cameras years end wait months extreme environments catch glimpse extraordinary beings earth lets face unlikelybr br on narration yes everyone uk much including adores david attenborough theres little excuse narrating here hardly deserves knocking star three presenter planet earth narrator im sure hes modest gracious enough realise anything gets viewers good thingbr br anyone sees overwhelmed awe majesty glory reviewers agree that love ie everyone willshould go see buy planet earth three cheers cinematic release big boooo anyone cheap enough buy dvd rather planet earth boxset works art theyre competition peoplebr br the earth big enough both,0 +marriage upscale new york city couple child falls apart wife wants it took lot courage walk door neighbor tells us busy distracted husband takes motherly responsibilities grows closer son soon wife returns highly manipulative picture give us realistic familial unit with young justin henry certainly resembling product marriage dustin hoffman meryl streep dynamics intriguing involving director robert benton keeps pace popping lots cleverness marvelous classical music canny editing surefire bits humor streeps character designed cold selfcentered witch ready feel lot benton probably wanted painted terms black white good bad hoffman learning hard wife getting second chance good parent film never falters preconceived path fine acting nearly saves it im sure benton steering film final act closing scene awfully abrupt ,0 +know whats wrong meheres happens im super drunk always feel im hopeless worthless like one likes everyone hates get emotional think killing think ways kill myself like cut knife previously done several times think would happen overdose antidepressant pills want buy peoples drinks spend lot money but thing is still much fun throughout night also struggled selfconfidence people always call social butterfly friends anyone instantly im pretty outgoing happens come home im alone room anyone experience similar before,1 +ask following gender birthday age relationship status interested in turnons turnoffs,0 +ive enough alivehi im using throwaway account since people know account also forgive spellinggrammar errors since english first language let introduce first im year old guy life ive struggling depression recently started lot panic attacks school going really shit right now really friends anymore except school since parents allow go outside anymore reason cant go outside used drugs nothing hard weed sometimes drink even liked it wanted friends ever since lost privilege talk life going shit sorry language true get enjoyment anything thing ill either studying sleeping eating tried new things cant find reason something im studying lot go university get finally get freedom back due recent events ill probably redo year cant handle that ill lose friends ill probably able make new ones social anxiety autism im tired ive really thinking killing myself want go school anymore want home cant go anywhere else lock room every day come home ill wait till end school year ill see passed not last straw cant deal hell also feel like piece shit lot people sub lot worse ive got struggles minor problems,1 +full circlei thought stronger thought necessary somehow someway someone looking out isnt greatest gift leave world daughters ones heal world world like final hours realized that legacy suffering gone through smile maintained may next life best life,1 +man anyone expecting great zombie movie reading title retard deserve disappointed myself expecting lowbudgeted cheeseball zombie flick thats exactly got disappointed all thought cool little movie zombies exactly be zombies turned freshlyundead zombies obviously wouldve pretty costly done fullon rotted zombie fx understood whole thing idea anyone could seriously nitpick movie called hood living dead love god would watch redneck zombies uwe boll movie actually expect great course not morons imdb whining like school girls movie ill never understand oh yes worse movies there stop saying worst ever seen cause know full it ever watch zombiez feardotcom house dead worst ive ever seen cant see low budgeted zombie movie obviously made zombie movie fans somethings wrong you fun it thumbs id also like see sequel,0 +seeking advicehow possible live emotional pain normal people unimaginable happened you possible keep living commit redflag something money time would heal thank you hope great day,1 +mental illness treated physical thatpeople cancer choose fight illness chemo n stuff would rather let illness take course prolongworsen suffering make family members witness struggle treatment acceptable wouldnt choosing fight depressionredflag dont want keep suffering it keep subjecting loved ones watching suffer acceptable,1 +im tryin mess friend joined private server discord inv phone wanna flood uhhh dm wanna help,0 +world burning really isnt anything live fori feel like theres nothing anymore world filled hate never see humans anymore feel instantly hated feels like world given decided everything shit lets make worse idk affecting you,1 +im worth resources takes sustain meso want kill sacrifice planet get heartbroken thinking disgusting toxic waste existence necessitates mean sure reduce reuse recycle limit use plastic whateverthefuck cant shake feeling meager existence could never ever even begin justify destruction bodys rampant consumption planet im what marry help make destructive abominations make mom happy good enough reason keep fucking shit rate am cant bear thought elephants shameful want go back void suffer languish godknows many years sake people cant noble opt leave think free make choice honesty everyone life know never ever happen ill never able talk anyone real life without completely freaking out here guys think life amazing weird beautiful profound love truly deeply want now cant okay,1 +remembered one time girl reddit called ugly even tho shes never seen look like idk wanted share u dont care u ignore post,0 +giving last weeki lonely searched love church online apps school speed dating friends lounges found luck seriously considering redflag please help me honestly even know could help me ive given one week live really want die want alone anymore thank taking time read this,1 +knows anymorei gone depression since around end highschool tried kill failed never knew body could tolerate much advil point life regretted almost everything ever done fucked relationships fucked previous work find hating university degree ever first year university one first times ever even stand face saw mirror find completing university right still realizing really motivation anything life keep telling things get better find job successful get debt find girl love often find exact opposite above feel love love anything world especially myself every time try open person find hurt ever know seems like typical cry attention absolutely zero clue do matter many different jobs apply never seem get call back semester left university able cover rent even basic living expenses ineligible line credit way world parents help try get mess seems like people meant live life reddit almost convinced one people sure else point maybe get lump maybe wont absolutely tempted try take system time ever normal life drunk ass high kite since least problems matter me guess exactly really call attention could form advice lead right direction sorry bother guys absolutely clue else turn to,1 +two video shot movies troama decided horrible desperate move turned one movie perhaps bitterness troamas side helped spark comedy whatever reason funny stuff inspired bit oliver stone commentary movie lots cameos lots use lesbian cannibal hoedown song add fun trey parker ted raimi julie strain etc etcbr br one best recent troama releases yes place know going in production quality lack of becomes one many running jokes go good timebr br the behind scenes frequently best things troama releases also average time around really think anger felt two lousy films helped drive to well greatness drove fix film way thats better either films would originally planned,0 +romanticize redflag biti dunno compare like bird spreading wings first time flying finally free feels good think about way release pain time means leaving friends family world behind seems beautiful me cant wait march th finally end all monday means ill get one last chance go school say goodbye friends family ampxb redflag beautiful thing eyes im tearing bit right now kill shackles stress sadness everything else free think redflag makes happy cant help smile barely ever smile anymore prospect way end pain easily leaving everything behind kind intense ampxb know im going go time comes might well spend last months fun friends family time come say goodbye perfect,1 +stop depressed valentines day depressed tomorrow school starts,0 +selfdiagnosed ocd eventual downfall series events late led intense insidious cycle anxious rumination fear dpdr arose maelstrom angst something whos existence completely unaware of particularly related redflag perceptual world changed reality became crisp shiny radiant yet also incredibly surreal was thrust middle world overwhelmingly vivid yet felt overwhelmingly absent from,1 +dont know anymoreon surface life perfect recently transferred pretty good university prestigious one extremely excited thought life would improve would thrive im hate people girlfriend longer getting along brink breaking up motivation anything person once ive grown hate reasons wonder would better alive all worst part supportive family real reason upset hold myself,1 +feel like reason killed roommate afford rent owni nothing going every time try push new things improve myself things get worse dropped high school years ago medication made unable focus care anything ended getting diploma told would go college dad kicked out got job got another job ended move back dad constantly reminded im failure im working full time job part time job one night took fun the night going take placement tests college wallet glasses stolen ive slowly replace everything lost money left boyfriend months ago mood swings ruining him hes really well im living paycheck paycheck friend also barely afford rent family talk me real friends aside guy im sleeping with know hangs around sex recently fucked getting std obvious care all nothing nothing taking everything stay alive,1 +so bad place since idk much time much money even work anymore really needed help wanted get help payed private psychologist sessions now sended email psychiatrist that got public system trying die saying transfert case her took sessions that time thought getting help wasted money precious money give lot redflag wasted needed help assap payed private psychologist sessions decide abandon give back public system take long reason payed first place ,1 +hmmm perhaps last post wasnt clear enough message me would like converse people,0 +suffer incurable poorly treated condition people underestimate abandon realize bad gets me something wrong tell depressing see someone get sick often way easing it know that bad currently someone thing beginning relationship underestimate previous experiences made sure extremely clear led believe would protect me ask something said known stupid made clear beginning fault believing him interested boner severely depressed it makes cold complains get laid enough vicious cycle currently middle bad flare condition barely walk cannot go anywhere stay even make out would end homeless shelter lay dark everyday terrified next attack run pto need go disability and gamble tbh person life committed helping terrified condition yet still try present boner move really much better life anyways fuck man fuck cannot even believe life cannot believe many shitty people exist world everyone mix stupid crazy rely survive fucked headed towards mental breakdown,1 +plain simple year old bipolar alcoholic cannot hold job save life tried medication medication medication none works longer yeari literally cannot stop drinking slowly killing mei thousands dollars debt probably lose everything next coming months get shit togetheri want get drunk take every pill fucking done iti tired fighting fight losing every timei tired hating actions incapable making changei know expecting receive posting thismaybe hoping small chance worth iti knowbut point want finally end ruined life,1 +fuck grey sweatpant season yall different colored sweats jejjehhbbbbfukhddtvvydrjdtjhtghhvdrhsrcyyhy fh hsr,0 +happy life thats im sadi dont know want life parents always wonderful trying support me even though dont lot friends especially close ones ones still nice around im middle class white guy real personality kinda drifting life real aspirations goals find self destructive practices stress thing make feel alive anymore thats probably hate myself wonderful girlfriend made wrong decisions relationship recently lost her one blame myself frankly hardest part life right living regret hold heart im college graduating degree mathematics soon degree dont even remotely care about thought crippling debt strengthens shame earning degree im even proud of truly ive thought redflag every day last years days wake angry couldnt died sleep want kill myself dont want put effort actually go it want leave knowing leave behind take guilt shame comes losing loved one maybe dont want die wish never born all im torn whats point living things actually get better im seeing therapist end month figure hell tell get hobby focus things make happy nothing really makes happy even try reason sad sad guys,1 +im gonna man whore school starts actually works happy,0 +want hug im talking thousand active people either class sleeping,0 +one wish would turn back timeto start whole life told society man talk feelings make seem weak ive bottled hard talk about want go much detail reason would turn back time loved care free smart child tons good friends amazing life around period time life began go hill involved serious accident hit car almost died like say like needle injecting virus would slowly eat away life grades dropped school although friends stuck high school drove away thought good decision reason pride dose allow talk anyone either want hurt want know truth caring not virus spread past would try fight seems like fight left me top tell dad disappointed lived potential knew said nothing make tell him might make much sense read way brain allow get chest sure delete later someone could tell would much appreciated thanks,1 +phenomena keep goingthis second time posting apologies advance grammar spelling off ill probably delete feel like it pressure peers superiors relatives build again im still struggling online classes know im person yesterday seem gotten worse days pass by clearly see myself would rather sit table study get take proper shower back for im still contemplations im gonna go exact plan mind like before know death last resort itll escape place live experiences experience aside bad experiences actuallu feel calm with hence title post freshman year highschool dark time me simply moved hometown place know little of friends back home childhood elementary years second family look simple mistakes people city studied high school spoke different dialect could communicate english time even alone aware people saw outsider small acts kept going acts lending eraser correction pen gave ray hope eventually get along well way similar friends back home even sinking deeper deeper state nothing mattered classmate greeted good morning would lighten bit nod greet back knew situation helping small way thats though rest day would spend time friend group would sitting chair reading book trying catch lessons know small acts make person like happy mean nothing person directed impact me heck even baby smiling enough make smile bit even upperclassman asking would like go ahead line made felt acknowledged even classmate asking simple favor made feek important someone acts like reason im still searching even answer emotions thank here,1 +whats point anymorehello taking mg celexa per day days ago paid debts owe nothing anyone become happy like thought would still feel like shit days time im numb emotions really care anything anymore used take zoloft mg day months eventually came point actively trying half assed attempts kill light cord bathroom got pissed work took anger bedroom cupboard one ikea ones glass mirror blood hands everywhere smashed pieces realise wife came running pinned stop me anyway im still emotion less days ago became stressed work driving got urges drive death trying see would best brick wall lamp post something really looking forward playing animal crossing later day guess feel like theres escape one days im gonna die unless someone help me,1 +first generation parents stayed together religious reasons lot emotional physical abuse typical think lot first gen suffer like this adult trouble emotionally stable feel helpless feelings depression takes over know cannot change past difficulties making adult friends limited allowed friends over parents fought family even family connection limited dad always angry came room yelling useless was realize idk people people think weird tiered hard time human crave emotional connection it used think everything religiously embedded me always doubting god exist life pointless hard stay positive idk life anything doctorly failure parents foreign parents wanting kids doctors started therapy sessions right away wanted put antidepressants tried it worst idk call it started taking anti depressants like life die sleepy time stopped want anti depressants need something idk what desperate late night vent thanks reading needed venting source,1 +zapped balls riding high power ziplines never wanted kids anyway filler filler filller filler filler filler filller filler,0 +cant anymore dont know whats gonna stop timeshit never get better never get better im enough anyone im enough myself hot enough smart enough diligent enough athletic enough smooth enough lets face im fucking failure honestly people around better without around im done hope left gone college ur gonna fail relationships ur gonna fail life rollercoaster never fucking end unless myself everything bleak damp dark prison mind fucking fault ill leaving soon enough ruin people cannot stand never good them ruin everybody everything cant think cant care soon wont breathe im something drastic one ever understand help eternal extra plot others throwaway line two dont matter im thought all im joke im meme im mocked ridiculed rightfully so cant shit college hope thats fucking erased gonna drive away get fuck good start new life got damn way never happy bc look back things negatively subconsciously every remotely positive memory always dashed people tell problems im one venting like dont time me dont matter anyone thats ever wanted asked help millions times like one cares make much fucking worse ive lonely long like cant bring talk anyone anymore imma go kill now nice knowing u,1 +feel like redflag waaaaayyyyy overduelike guy charge redflags getting fucking slammed rn finna get fired soon cause shoulda bitch like year ago idk im still even,1 +canti dont know much longer go feels like shouldnt im sad leave guys comments whether end it theres nothing within month anyways thank,1 +ive given upi need someone talk to im close it im new reddit idk dm thing works btw,1 +reasoning im cut life im prepared end itmy sensitivity keeps wrapping black hole making want end it fear living much stronger fear existing think fear nothingness anymore people born equipped handle existence truly believe cant even handle myself struggle purely emotional everything seems take huge emotional toll me get attached people always end getting hurt im talking romantic relationships im talking relationships general cant trust anyone anymore people move things im convinced never will led prefer loneliness ironically loneliness leading want end life seem like logical path me cant handle life led loneliness led want end it makes complete sense me,1 +something wrong arm bleedingi something unacceptable school today teacher noticed im likely going get reported could extreme consequences would destroy almost everything look forward life naturally told mother did thinking even bad basically called idiot criminal even told think act try happened many times every time get scared sad first time actually drew blood vertically yet felt need punish myself im scared death never stop fucking shit up fuck school friendships everything even way hide cuts ill explain myself person could talk facetoface one teachers im terrified approaching her know handle anymore keeps getting worse every time cant help thinking whiny unappreciative bitch ive never closer now happy months ago,1 +title close says depressed helping tried commit suicide last night depressed friend know also depressed,1 +anyone know good laptops usd area im looking laptop run minecraft terraria im luck,0 +alrighty trouble sleeping chirpy mood feel free dm m,0 +oi dm me else dunno id didnt something f,0 +give upi know normal people it just smile keep living get throguh tough situations barely trauma it im ashamed way feel mental problems wish never born least one severeal redflag attemps would worked couldve prevented hurting people making life worse ive tried getting help life ive hospitalized like times since ive seen therapiste psychatrists either call names completely ignore everything say know me many people manage overcome mental illnesses get good professional help cant find one decent fucking doctor keep getting shit everyone openly suicidal everyone knows want kill ive tried reaching people get shut ignored people say care act like it swear god finally kill theyre gonna come running obituary saying wish couldve helped cared much missed fucking hurtful thing need stay alive people tell things now know need help know im going kill yet one says word me soon die everyone magically start care bullshit cant care now cant anyone help now dont know soon im exhausted tired all fight every day day fucking keep breathing miserable stupid fucking life one wants in,1 +when how know im committedim done things world im done going people even want see brother generally think people suck ass never work again think people shuffle shit around anyway fuck stupid work ethic jock thats all care nobody reads this checking back all fuck yall real,1 +why still herei understand it start off successfully took life years ago midfebruary large student party student college know anyone person invited me student housing hour half away home night took local highspeed train dorms party was planned going home party started slow eventually picking night gone on making drinks took roughly hour sloshing back screwdrivers wanting vomit alcohol acid sugar coming up stumbled bathroom inside small two bedroom dorm there vaguely remember lifting toilet seat puke next thing woke hospital bed really needing piss jolted fear knowing hell got there see father sitting next hospital bed told details happened memory went blank fallen bathroom hit head proceeded choke vomit stopped moving guy invited party noticed missing found dead bathroom picked began trying resuscitate me even vomit covered facetorso yelled one party goers call paramedics arrived within minutes thanks guys attempt reviving me kept oxygen blood flow going long enough paramedics bring back ill never able live down question is why keep going wanted die knew night want return home nightmares still wish dead want redo it painful begin with retry soon cant keep continuing think life value,1 +guys started texting crush basically helped stuff im exchange student context thanked texted bit bow me peasants,0 +talk outbout problems really need advice rn,0 +im really hungry someone make cereal pls,0 + malemy mum alcoholic mum means mom england drinks quite heavily like alcoholics know must schizophrenic something every time drinks acts odd like normal drunk person nasty things say nasty thingsfor example last year family hosted small family drank lot dad showing guests way home could drive said brother things like i want fucking die you later night got arrested started yelling dad beer bottle hard missing dad hit wall leaving dent serial number it another time drank lot brothers rum confronted kicked house seen times since parents decided move us another part country family lives lost friends south school attend shit couple weeks ago kicked hockey ball ended hitting kid called lucas head fault happening people decided hour detention good enough punishment bully tbh got least hours teacher understood accident friends started eating rarely speak people school moved months ago struggling lot today prick friends went bag kind joke took stuff trying get back prick came threw ground said this get lucas got rage punched cheek back end even bullying that know seems silly mums alcoholic outbursts life seems really difficult carry with saying attention would like someone thinking clearlys advice go getting bullied mum thanks,1 +super mario d allstars game asked th bday parents ordered arrived mail house somewhere cant play bday im trouble waiting,0 +so theres really stupid portuguese news channel called cmtv so theres portuguese news channel really stupid called cmtv posted website article called have swag nword communicate qith teenagers everuthing wrong example said bitch stands beutiful inteligent talented cute hot heres link article httpswwwcmjornalptmaiscmdomingodetalheterswagparanaoserumnigga portuguese unless know read need translate,0 +seriously actually tired depressed energy get function like person applying jobs trying make friends trying work outstart gym membership cannot get start wake hopeful today day finally help myself no somehow waste day watching tv reading shit though reddit looking different things online purchase years old hate going social media makes feel like shit hate looking things childhood friends somehow disconnected years lost college friends feel alone lost need help even start fish oil pills therapy psychiatrist like know know make thoughts stop make pain stop need help,1 +feel lost took mg metropozol let us see happens hmm help,1 +im stuck helpi trying enjoy went see movie watching trailers saw june may mind kept saying youre going live long wont live see far depression suicidality hitting hardcore idea why spells whirlwinds wont stop want fucking stop im scared dont know mind dragging place brain wants kill me,1 +tonight might itim getting drunk think might tonight feel guilty father never really growing hate daughter well though even remember me idk gutted post tomorrow it maybe beers,1 +tell native speaker ur learning language japanese korean speakers ur great learning japanesekorean english speakers understandable english useful spanish speakers tells something completely false cuz think funny french speakers fucking time everyone general vicinity points laughs cuz said un instead une,0 +point think ending life best optionlet start something mom told me you millennials something wrong way thinking also first time ive thought ending life would actually benefit people around me first post sub though ive lurker months reached end rope though try positive parents seem growing restless me may seem calm words currently crying typing out apologize advanced long post filled possibly unnecessary details turn to one would truly understand position idea start disclose namesgenders want remain anonymous possible refer oldest sibling one second oldest two youngest often treated better siblings matter bad felt matter much tried hard side siblings demand equal treatment parents nothing ever changed times parents even took demanding equal treatment denouncingrejecting parents clearly point making im going pretend rough childhood explains today didnt average middle class nuclear family id say taught good values ended good character one two extroverted know socialize make friends easily startkeep conversations going independent confident decisions two though extroverted prefers lowkey lifestyle i hand introverted shy im observant talkative always been friends close family able converse interact quite normally id say much hate center attention makes feel uncomfortable soon parents start talking suddenly lose voice try disappear used quite confident decisions event event turned around flash back middle late teenage years would think formative years permanent consequences early twenties seem changed except think ive gotten much quieter think given teenagers meant rebel make mistakes stupid shit means trying justify actions trying victimize know large fault consequences mistakes translated personality now became close one years spent lot time together love them really do years grew close one manipulative realized finally left household bit example one charismatic extroverted easily get anyone side issue one occasion someone would wrong them would explain situation way perspective correct perspective would believe it would ones side would antagonize whoever wronged them might think well familysibling bias were prone siding person were close to people wronged one took side either friends family members one life realized always wrong side parasitic relationship bad done wrong toward one feel bad immediately become frightened scolding me never afraid scolded experienced scolded one parents scolded before respectful like mutual respect end would feel bad enough bad would terrified make another mistake one scoldings authority fury became self conscious actions learned stay silent accept fate scolded even littlest things would warrant scolding i saw flirting guy dating know lot our peers think flirt started distance friends became cold started hate going familyfriend events still always went obligation years things like that normal interpersonal skills replaced anxious shy traits became overpowered anxiety graduated university one moved then learned function like almost normal adult became independent things own myself became little bit confident actions one gone two kind gone two moved university years went school little far home whereas one still quite close home grew lot closer pressure parents became focused me kid left living house though become independent confident graduating suddenly put weight me say two kind left mean two still comes home visit know hate coming home told me real job parents support lifestyle one left kind basically ran away good enough job parents support lifestyle either left everyone sleeping time really understand totally parents side one left wrong way could handled better one never comes home visit even know now anyway back present unemployed unless count freelance real job parents not trying find real job since graduated trying possibly make freelance main thing case never find real job almost years since still job feel absolutely horrible live parents refuse let leave like controlling kind way like want know good job stand own nearing age retire still work siblings left kind bad terms parents like lifestyles im trying one kid leave bad terms able live lifestyle would support feel like deserve much feel bad almost every second every day good news tell job search started feel bad cant even talk parents anymore feel like useless kid worthless kid im point wish parents would get fed kick house free will im lazy ambition like parents like tell me reached point anxiety cant things people watching expecting something me know anyone else problem seems like hated center attention much cant even confidently things independently unless parents know badly want go nearest establishment apply cashier job secretary assistant anything said jobs good enough parents cant seem find confidence around know whats wrong me earlier mom confronted me started crying saying dad getting old worried me theyre frustrated me want retire want live lives without worrying me understand im not trying think listen advice getting job even though ive already taken advice still job said you millennials something wrong way thinking point realized made political put box box labeled millennials want associated word associating negative definition conservative idealism concocted top everything else deal living parents completely different political mindset me hard try think really started remain silent often im here realizing burden them told countless times much want retire pray id get hired almost got hired told turn job good enough earlier mom talking said go back job made turn down really know do want leave money leave want leave bad terms like siblings feel like cant need long living parents want burden want burden anymore much want life feel like dying right would thing would help parents now maybe last farewell telling life story end it maybe hoping someone able convince burden even though know thats lie know im burden thats basically mom said want move lives retire cant im still here,1 +reward cute af never said anyone wich makes oyu special ,0 +bit curates egg one started hating it predictable old dark house setup constant references recent us horrors regular trips dimly lit corridorsbr br but get going moments originalitybr br i began wonder killing started going last cast six get flashbacks previous visit building see whole slew gory killings pretty effectivebr br naschy fine end enjoyable enough movie jump grab one hard enough,0 +want goeveryone either hates care enough try understand pain im alone room vacation feel sad hurts,1 +normal im complaining im wondering anyone else notices stuff like this people parentsgrandparentsguardians tend emphasize strange way middle lectures concerning way act such,0 +im losti direction life everyday im loof absolutely nothing,1 +assy mcgee outofcontrol hardnosed detective based countless examples late th century police dramas twist assy literally walking buttocksbr br the cheap lowbrow facade show belies cleverness hidden satire say assy devoid fart jokes toilet humor used sparingly enough elicit consistent laughs groans eyerolls title sequence program demonstrates clever subtle humor used throughout sequence consists panning photos city set jazzy s cop theme one photo police cruiser shown camera zooms front license plate holder vacant meaningless zoomin satirizes production typical ss cop drama and incidentally makes laugh every timebr br all typical characters included frustrated police chief cant control assy loyal minority partner acts foil assys recklessness regular cops detest assys means accounted hilarious satires typical police dramabr br the voice acting primarily performed larry murphy nothing less spectacular assys voicebreathy gruff bit drunken sluris clever unique ranks alongside alltime greats like stewie griffin family guy homer simpson simpsons though voice slurred diction somehow clear easy understand nice change adult swim program voices often require closed captioning understandbr br besides fantastic production voice acting script also hilarious assys no nonsense directness fuels humor particularly interactions citizens outside police forcebr br if access adult swim comedies assy mcgee certainly worth watching episode clocks mere minutes really little lose,0 +content content ive reloaded times past seconds k teens online rteenagers better step game else entertained anymore,0 +green day fans sub guys think new song liked it reminds cb thought gonna bad cuz last album wasnt good,0 +first person tell good bee joke makes smile laugh gets award ,0 +else would say dont feel confident used to im look back cringe stuff said like whatever shower thought made realise back then id saying whatever want say whoever want really think it basically confidence make jokes front class matter shit cringey one would laugh them really talk friends really anyone else im saying confidence since starting secondary school basically high school call different uk confidence definitely gone down,0 +update stupid worthless life grandpa died what week maybe days more way begin specially since spend holidays watching agonize know what ive never felt like monster talked before long story short many good things enough everyone forgot bad questionable things borderline abuse typing hurts cause im asshole talking ill de dead cry cry even tried back refular life less day feel guilty bad guy cry hate it really emotionless mourned grandmother like normal person would mourn worry day sleep waking mother whailing day im tired adult act like mature two worries me getting bad obsessed him treat mother like man gave much trauma acting like better saint even death still control acting like im bad guy ive heard talking im senseless im brat hurt me does told im monster help he father was despite messed stuff raised deadbeat mess got pregnant im constantly reminded much bad person im finally showing emotion im sudden brat im tired acting like adult im cant remember day teenage years acted like regular teen without adults tell im spoiled one literally mature one trying logical possible less burde everyone ive pushed health behind nobody got annoyed needing help anything hoped two people could chance ask help yet instead im one avoiding mom something stupid,0 +late s french study disaffected youth in early s actuallygrown up yet settled adult world probably missed mark mile terms accurate depiction french youth dont virtually youth films made adults this ones dontrivers edge comes mind rare indeed directorwriter marcel carne les enfants du paradis fame accurate observer humanity provide insightful view essence characters sense details importantyou could change details set film today would work wellbut loneliness insecurity superficial passion selfrighteous anger characters captured well young pierre brice jeanpaul belmondo supporting roles leads jacques charrier laurent terzieff pascale petit andrea parisy play roles subtlety depth also fine jazz score get cd jazz parisjazz cinema vol unlike commented film really see directorwriter carne sitting judgment charactershe seems though objective observer me course middleclass characters may seem like people spoiled nothing whine workingclass viewers film think carne certainly aware this american viewer i watched dubbed fairly literally id say version titled cheaters film provides interesting window france s also selfconsciously poetic the scene ledge saving cat one example this intellectual aspirations charming way french films get away withi imagine heavyhanded melodramatic shallow way kind material would handled american studio production sensationalistic moralistic suggestive way kind material would handled american driveinexploitation filmmakers feel marcel carne captured essence period between say high school graduation when ones early s people largely settled routine whatever routine may be willing watch film open mind fire away many easy targets offers find serious valuable study people early twenties even want that go room film playing simply enjoy fine soundtrack great s jazz instrumental pop including wonderful original score american jazz philharmonic group including coleman hawkins dizzy gillespie stan getz spelled goetz credits roy eldridge ray brown,0 +im thinking taking lifeim tired me see reason live anymore im gonna bullied pushover,1 +need advice im afraid boyfriend might hurt himself due serious fight currently speakingto make long story short boyfriend year long series incredibly bad luck relationship also suffered serious blows due serious mistakes others due anger got huge fight throughout course day culminated explosion anger left house mentioned feeling suicidal first time today stayed long could make sure okay forced leave half hour ago called couple mutual friends asked talk make sure hes okay without letting know behalf hes furious me things could ensure safety im sure serious talk redflag was today would considered real risk intrusion outside forces authority figurse kind would likely anger upset further would go back house willing sacrifice well being selfish might sound thinking clearly know do,1 +people support equality people put snapchat stories if support trump unadd me fucking stupid judge person fucking character beliefs great dont like trump gives right harass person supports him whoever support im friends plenty people support trump great people dont judge believe let believe want same,0 +definitely nolans intimiteand thoughtprovoking piece say memento insomnia badbut definitely hollywood standardswhile following indie flick story brilliantand well developed overallwatch fan nolans workim sure able appreciate more,0 +living forim living bf wish could go see one last time,1 +wonderful film powell pressburger whose work want explore more film perceive real real two difficult distinguish one another beautifully shot acted although david niven seem years old character claims be fun see young richard attenborough film made think watching it afterwards,0 +somebody come shoot head actually hug would nice messing around guy tonight sending photos jazz sister barges room tells put pants weirdo left im laying mortified face fire pretty embarrassing know everyone gets walked sometime least mom ex found ive stuff guy well im sure thinking hes ex fuck care hes hurt not truth shouldnt feel bad feel like juice bottom trash cans disgusting never wanted hurt him reason even get mind maybe move on whole time felt sick dont know man dont know do last minutes rollercoaster,0 +teacher effing evil man submit assignment due sunday okay today saturday midnight last tuesday felt incredible pain abdomen lead skip school wednesday went doctor ultrasound cuz thought problem appendix sure happened something definitely ruptured abdomen called teacher zoom told happened shit u really scared worried something wrong surgery gonna miss school long time explained whole effing story details first thing asks are u gonna submit ur assignment sunday fucking guys im done life rn im pain asks assignment rather reduce stress give extension something asked two day extension like whats days gonna do literally small part left two days enough yeah thats im submitting half assignment worth grade tldr medical painful reason need rest get extension assignment teacher insists getting submitted even tho hospital im pain fml,0 +parents okd iti told parents despite antidepressants im feeling suicidal im law school town hate another year ears debt support school anyone comes preparing competitive applicant job want really overwhelming parents said today clearly im dedicated lawyer im strong enough handle this redflag might best option im strong enough handle life really know im writing this,1 +feel hopelessi cant happy im relationship relationships end almost right away resulting much pain worth it feel like im good enough anyone nobody stays time im daydreaming blowing brains out want out feel like im trapped life feel hopeless,1 +fuck all hope everyone sub dies painful death fucking suck deserve death ill see hell,0 +im giving away free wholesome award say something it mins,0 +got bed prepare redflagi took shower shaved legs drinking coffee ill miss coffee cigarettes damn im trying clean apartment someone finds fucking mess im thinking goodbye video instead letter im scared mom blame someone want try stop that im scared scared die also scared survive started thinking afterlife know dumb im scared exists thought reincarnation too scares hell im crying reason dont feel relieved yet im aware im loser giving up im scared pipe im planing tie noose break fuck im terrified cant this im lost im already dead ending body functions now,1 +guys it finally turned thats it thank coming ted talk,0 +want post facebook even sure whyi want make post facebook want slit wrists bathtub good would come that know this like mom call everyone freak out haha would totally disrupt life maybe worst send hospital sure graduate year think ill much better graduate get job sucks bad money car independent right now want graduate yet get depressed cant single thing schoolwork might graduate anyway,1 +sunny cocktail waitress dc area bit dim put mildly drives old clunker rents tiny room gay male couple however saves life prominent arab taking bullet behind meant official charms national press zany remarks sweet looks sniffing opportunity presidential aides get installed protocol department us government even then messes things times tries hard learns lot even grabs romantic attention state department official but another sinister plot making involving arab man wishes take another wife blonde one lol lol lol movie features goldie pretty picture dumb as fox say sunny learns way around jungle us government very well even important things say honesty lack protocol surroundings perhaps arab community would less thrilled work like laugh rent today,0 +dont asshole games played ranked games today certain game idk went really toxic people team got carried hard im shit player told kill made bad play rounds opponent got single win fucking ass decides write full paragraph im shit person dont deserve live etc im really lucky im happy person dont take things like heart judgement lot people could telling someone kill never okay dont know theyre going might actually it especially games lot people play escape ruthless world once end life isnt worth game victory dont dick guys dont anything nice say teammates keep yourself,0 +eating disorder ruining lifeim eating disorder ruining life already mental illnesses ed making everything worse im insecure point cry everytime leave house im embarrassed people seeing me see doctors medicated dont see point anymore ive abusing laxatives years whenever eat cut go depressive state making anxiety panic attacks get awful everyday recovering last doctors know theyre trying help what ive way years hasnt gotten better im tired,1 +brother sisters lets summon amobadoor demon king love must return may reign last million years need come together sacrifice something love give you body soul,0 +im suicidalitd easier daughter cant seeher mother thinks im bad her context,1 +flat earthers mental illness something like antivaxxers autism know that do,0 +biesexualmy parents religious deep depression quite time feel knew biesexual whould disown me,1 +like title says type diabetic insulin tonight go bed going give remaining vials shortacting stuff one sitting putting diabetic coma killing myself little u humalog use absolutely way going survive this live alone one expecting come find me place family done way prior this least money worth going them one depend children partners pets miserable pathetic self give week two people probably notice gone regards work work nurse took pto prior days expected come back one wiser think skipped work news finally sets in honestly might reason people discover smell maybe go outside idk everything planned regardless finally peace myself goodbye everyone fuck everything cannot wait end miserable existence hell hope burn eternity deserve it really fucking matter hell everyday way anyone convince change mind posting want kind send sorts seen similar people write almost like online suicide notes speaking which probably draft one know messed not going ruin everyone day sorry maybe guys live better life could knows one knows am anonymous loser anyways got back working nights tired going go bed take nice walk wake afternoon ill probably read guys say wake up please try convince this mind already made up hopefully nice least enjoy sunshine final time that out bye everyone going kill overdosing insulin tonight,1 +wonderinghow feel popular kid school want popular ones like stay unknown school,0 +want dohold whatever feeling keeping committing redflag never let go maybe fear maybe know really want die maybe cant leave someone like that whatever reason make reason follow every time feel horrible feeling sending positive vibes love guys truly understand like suicidal thoughts tonight im really rough night im going remember hold feeling keeps anything able take back,1 +small group fiends years shrunk due moving away growing stuff finally last remaining friend stole cut ties him literally zero friends getting sad lonely guy needs guy friends women always jerks me make good conversation everyone work even work friends never seem indicate would want hang anywhere occasional conversations work go friends make work friends real friends tips making new friends,1 +keep living herive suicidal long time ive made several attempts before im used people caring attempt ive made new friend think would take hard wrong got really sad scared visited afterwards hugged crying tried make promise keep alive her want make feel like hard keep fighting still want end feeling guilt thinking taking life know much would hurt her really know anymore since feelings constantly gnawing me harder psychiatrist taking break holidays cant speak either this,1 +someone please tell pain go awayive lost person ive ever cared about said would love forever threw away like trash im alone nothing one please tell pain go away,1 +im thinking redflag impulsive way now seems like logical option nowthe last two months uni living hell ive grown despise place every fucking day theres single moment dont think home somewhere else although place given great start field think wont use im alive anymore havent slept well past months whenever uni moment got home would sleep like baby ive tried make parents understand problem want drop out dont understand tell weather storm think thats possible sleep night im desperate dont know drop option left would study abroad dad would sell real estate really dont know do jumping fourt floor seems like option convenient everyone,1 +girls play minecraft gtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgtgt basically title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im dying hour please help life storyhello people im reaching anybody help way can please bare naivety usually reach people all let alone online ampxb try summarise hellishness life short simple possible hopefully relate extent help me im year old guy depression anxiety stress diagnosed extremely severe mental illness started father committed redflag years ago continuously gotten worse past years left school full time graphic designer great stayed job year months ago attempted redflag abandoned job incredibly lucky age boss treated better anyone else life past months ive absolutely nothing life waking find listening sad music annoyed nothing do simultaneously lacking motivation get new job meet new people im currently medication anxiety depression enough always find trance lost suicidal thoughts always wonder would like side better worse nothing everything extremely luring im naturally curious person kinds ideas take drugs like lsd mdma pretty often now take hopes one time may find see dad went years maybe find reason live ive heard people profound experiences finding need life theyre drugs right currently mdma pills plan take finally guts take life plunge death shopping centre carpark mainly hoping drugs give guts jump is somebody please help me currently live state fearing living dying feel like time running out ampxb,1 +really glad bipolari must say simply amazing mental illness cant cured gets worse time extremely treatment resistant even better feel better lie surprise depression good thing every thing youve done improve goes window nice testing ya oh cant forget meds say theyll help really give crap ton side effects really take hope dont go destructive mania hurts finances makes lose job ruin relationships hurts around general fucks everything up least hope doesnt happen again maybe though keeps life exciting glad im completely mercy disease im dead hope thats soon,1 +im starting lose hope feeling scared futurei really happy today wife emailed saying daughter loved me brought spirits up difficult pay them need well paying job soon possible ba economics masters business living k got stabbed live halfway house life stressful two dismissed charges always pop background checks feel never get enough money pay family understand life needs difficult keep hoping keep trying going sad feel start making money soon game come springsummer know do life difficult make easy live usa understand much difficulty understand one ever wants hire me one ever wants take care me one ever wants friends me worthless person eyes everyone interview with difficult,1 +think handle feeling much longeri experienced happiest moments life someone think one right belongs words soul mate oir relation started adultery bc iswas married kids one year gave me support made stupid mistakes lived la la land way get much someway treated like shit putting away hold couple months ago exploded go ahead divorce bad trauma parents daughters attempted harm several times etc call off went therapy reconnect myself gained self esteem months later talked terms livs were conclusions made went wrong really gone therapy changed man th man deserved willing gave nd chance really saw impossible improvement mental health and alone time period went trough heavy shit moment waiting him literally last stand opportunity love dead mess without him life tasteless e even good friends nice evenings end thoughts always go te person completely understands share intimacy trust like one else planet months contact guys try new things work me came conclusion one make happy like despite shittorm around us usually say happy e want be always assumes equal parter woman life said waiting return tomorrowhe returning psicological therapeutic clinic important things discussed abandonement issues sixth feeling tells rertun mad love me touch me see me kiss instead still trapped web past traumas simply cant see destroy future much cost take first step everyone cheering us hopping best fell hollow like go guillotine confirmation love enough really love like do despite confessions happy other cant stop crying days overdose colapse love friends good therapist one understands feeling loss knowing thats person make happy other man mr right give time fuck tired word time want happy now tomorrow things go hell cant want keep fighting want go path get motivated reality one connection family good friends cant give really want need professionally best what still miserable hell years ago would first person say you need man happy true need half half cant even though darkest time well idk simple nothing left everything experience like minutes fame misery again tomorrow faith life decided hands person end alone cant see point continue life anything else ai think go stop car bridge jump less dramatic soon arrive home swallow hole bottle pills night next morning nothing done literally want live world keep struggling fighting going therapy glimpse sunshine ray random part day thank much read excuse length hope great day,1 +mum anoying mum mom made sisters download life one sisters living house thats end went got premium dont get cannot bothered,0 +posting im longer lonely day forgot post yesterday make up,0 +beautiful woman backwoods inbred monster man super sweet monster truck road kill zombie brother friendsone anal retentive overly sensitive nerd foul mouthed adolescent slob throw together dash jeepers creepers texas chainsaw massacre road trip got monster man hilarious horrorcomedy outing never sets say something simple straight forward laugh fest unpretentious well made horrorcomedy heart buddy flick film offered hilarious sickening set pieces highly recommend fright fans looking entertained,0 +please let know versions precious bane gone earth video people may aware of love books mary webb wholeheartedly would grateful information either vhs dvdbr br ive read precious 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ive learned piano practiced drawing visited every concert every band wanted which big deal me even sex interested lucky enough travel vast majority places wanted see everything up me say achieved one big wishes since early s healthy relationship become mother huge struggles sustain sort relationship ended alarming behaviour and course responsible nastiness wellbut never disrespected partners always tried hard perserve it therefore relationship life lasting least year ended either unwillingness move together extreme jealousy cheatingyou name it eventually made peace fact simply cut it done everything within power including long periods only looking anything actively getting younger plus according gynecologist would difficult get pregnant anyway want disappointment therefore rather volunteered local shelter helped people making lives better free time am left real responsibility bound absolutely nothing one fulfilling could would ideally take months finalize certain things ie make cookbook recipes others use describe life lessons wanted go someplace nice peacefully pass away started planning details actually mind you feel depressed sad hopeless per se feel like somehow done imaginethe feeling long day work managing everything know going shopping taking care animals family planning holidays etc tired go sleep think yourself sureit would nice bubble bath sauna bed would awesome go outside bedroom balcony cigarette expensive champaigne relax water bed kinda wanted try hey everything done took time needs nothing one left behind feel good myself feel now goes future know everyone says meet partner later life on simply think late me also pandemics simply even chance meet someone tomorrow would take time getting know other investing common real estate getting pregnant pregnant best case scenario first kid let alone second kid potentially more assuming able get pregnant first place addition could go wrong children marriage etc therefore even stars would perfectly aligned regard rather made painful decision give idea it get wrong never put entire happiness idea family despite fact elderly grandma living h away family ever have apart that prefectly fine grateful everything everyone have seems ticket checkpoints ready wrap up question would be ideas seem little unconventional me quite months increasing normal train thoughts phase seek help sadly offer english speaking therapists live limited nonexistent thank advance hope make sense,1 +trying talk first time girl likehello idk really post this thing im timid depressive rejected last girl ive tried said shy im trying move forward hard get stuck much every relationship anyways want new crush feel like im shy ive never talked see college spaces common im planning approach say hello see often university seem interesting me would glad get know better name is always overthink first approach let way much time something get depressed uhmm guys think good enough sorry formats english too,1 +f single honestly mad stressful reason guy girl friends make fun euehrhf im honestly confused tf matters im like actually years old leave alone mean sure itd great hate feeling pressed get someone,0 +post gurls wanna girlfriend plz get girlfriend ,0 +whywhy go on without knowing anything mine tell why,1 +tonights nightcba type anything done all finally got motivation it cheers anyone ever reached out,1 +im weak im tireddont even know write here writing feel kind human connection im miserable want turn,1 +hey need help d creating lgbt themed magazine need tips ideas include community reddit magazine rthegayscene ill publishing wednesday want story news meme included chance win rewards good enough submissions message upload story post rthegayscene much love good luckkyobi,0 +friend might kill tonight please helpive known best friend ever since freshman year high school weve always close ever since opened depression suicidal thoughts everythings gotten steadily worse tonight bf broke said best relationship ever had sent humungous paragraph well could redflag note successful im break right fix this,1 +so got school mascot homecoming told friend said signed school furry havent quite since,0 +feeling keeps coming backmore im getting idea end it struggling depression years now started hit many moments determined kill never courage eventually wanted make better distracted things soon suicidal thoughts went away things ok while im new school ive faced disappointments im realizing depression destroyed work id done previously become sociable motivated person cant quite relate people around dont think like anymore ive never felt unattractive dumb sometimes feel like apologizing others present doubt things really better wake every morning old thoughts wanting die help please,1 +im donei kick everyday letting let leave much idiot let go little summer expecting come back me deserved shit happened summer fuck got one chance prove could love would could person promised could be answer no hitting harder thought could ever have little hopefully peace everything,1 +i dont even know man one teachers school added snapchat dont know react im fking stunned this block,0 +want live anymorethey said faultthis best solution want this want another tomorrow filled pain regreti sleep wake up fault,1 +guys never gonna believe this didnt get boyfriend anything wanted show guys picture grandparents dog chancehttpswwwredditcomrlookatmydogcommentsjiitmy_grandparents_dog_chanceutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf mr pants wish good day ,0 +first night dont want cuti feel great right now idk is wish felt often,1 +im planning redflagi wanna die want pain end ive planning killing killing things get better soon maybe things get worse cant handle anymore im still planning it ive googling redflag methods writing redflag notes family members important people still think could get better im gonna,1 +gem film four production anticipated quality indeed delivered shot great style reminded errol morris films well arranged simply gripping long yet horrifying point excruciating know something bad happened one guess lack participation person interviews compelled see it bit like car accident slow motion story spans conceivable aspects unlike documentaries try refrain showing grimmer sides stories also dealing guilt people left behind him wondering stop time took hours get melancholy gripped seeing verywell made documentary,0 +dear mom hear whisper something negative breath cant hear yell what loud upstairs,0 +peanut butter pizza thoughts,0 +favorite cookie sorry havent posted while whats favorite cookie im oatmeal raisin fan,0 +nobody talk topeople want die it fuck failure fucked up fucked life,1 + political conversion killing ever since developed mental illness brought existence substance abuse harassed derided intimidated countless strangers friends seems like end world examining myself sinner deity special person closeted trump supporter fact make racist traveled japan experience millennium sixteenth birthday became obsessed internet everything gamer culture games played made feel powerful ever would drugs combining drugs alcohol video games practically ruined life proper redflag note man enough kill goading everyone know trying attack kill maim me trying become depressed enough end all closest got going blind five seconds briefly paralyzed taking many antipsychotic drugs jesus christ lord worthless wretch audacity think understood faiths mythologies prophet scum human kind asexual plan single life want life mean something today tenth day sober feel strengthened breathe again without cpap machine thanks given first responder came rescue even nothing wrong me racked astronomical medical bill caused countless headaches doctors peers family friends desperately trying find way get depressed enough end life cannot overcome happiness feel taking medication getting invegasustenna shot monthly want say thank store let buy alcohol thousand times if more know family acquaintances friends worried me cant go longer continue living want earn every dollar myself blood sweat tears president trumps america may snowballs chance hell finally get job stop parasite wish cant make miracles happen true im forsaken antifa keep guillotine ready me stand nothing deserve live beautiful city going start cannabis grow operation own cant even identify seed stem please delete browser history succeed leaving earth comet neowise drank way much koolaid im coming back ever,1 +know doi posted yesterday everything set thing holding back fear act itself opened best friend littlebit told understands better now day find lied me again always says friendship important know anymore feel need lie already talked it im shattered idea anymore im close committing sucide ending something holding back maybe want family healthy relationship with,1 +yall ever meet someone start messaging theyre ok first turn absolutely insane yes pls tell abt delete k karma account cuz guy psychopath scared gonna look city cuz couple hours away change appearance case never gave personal info phone number family members names high school anything like first name age name city live damn tryna make friends always gotta backfire even changed way type account case hes still looking notices similarities crazy man paranoid longest time retrospect overreacting yeah never trying make reddit friends lol tried look username see saying anything think account got deleted something good thing anyways tell stories,0 +bruhh mom like ordered thing got mom took it opened it thought sisters lost it told nobody even though arrived days told look fucking,0 +hehe friends realied allmy friends casually homophobic pretend like thy make fun me use me physically mentally hurt me hooray friends irl gay great,0 +im scaredim scared hurting people lovebut every time think improve things always seems lead here mother thinks im useless think regrets me long remember ive wanted die things get bad im tired loop pain someone give easy way go,1 +im tiredthe past three weeks ive many days actually think would make alive help im undiagnosed mental illnesses professional help cant afford it today first ever session free sponsored therapist asked talk things liked think anything spent mins trying come things kept saying things dislike well thats point girl college committed redflag months ago situation isnt nearly bad terms financial stability social standing etc keep thinking get it see way out would much easier around truly would miss on positives life theyre far worth pain ive lying bed crying two hours head hurts nothing worth this,1 +im afraid feel know need iti feel worse ever feel hopeless insides hurt am one nothing afraid,1 +fact ive never stacked donuts dick astonishing like one reason god given mf coochie collapser done smh ask top donut glazed,0 +anyone else fantasize dyingi lot im years old,1 +subreddit special placeive misdiagnosed entire life finally went amazing transplant psychiatrist needed kidney first time stayed working someone almost years worked together finally told bi polar disorder learned whole life suffering borderline personality well im heartbroken lashed family couldnt help it scared sad cant believe made far think poor little kid let people ruin him deserved better care treatment intense therapy ive living im burning fire see feel much long im checking hospital first time willingly others th th honestly pray last thank sharing stories helped ways ever explain you dont know ill get back honestly im rushing time thanks listening,1 +friends benefits exist like wtf,0 +adios amigos hallelujah world great journey over first bangladesh english good seeing means im deadi longer tangent universe know time read also celebritybut years ive gathered huge amount knowledgeand last day dimension something confessfirst like personsi lot differenti think different tooor able heretheyre trying terminate mebut know ill always herei cant write book life appreciated appreciationtoday humans much foolishthey whatever theyre told talk whatever theyre taughti philosophisti nobodyi wish collective mindthis last day cant type everythingjust theyve implanted you best note ever readsomethings going like big conspiracykeep mind open eyes earsi hope could exist little bit long cantwhether exist doesnt matter anybodythey want perishweve made solve itlove mom one loved mostmy little sister know shell harvard someday certainly willi want recall bad thing life last want say adios amigos,1 +film would particularly fun anyone film industry especially indie capacity whose inheritance includes film introduction may appreciate quite much hard please documentary category doc different though pleasure comes earthy realism indie filmmaker punks hoot around watch whether ever wondered like films front behind camera whether worked way sometimes painful hard rewarding indie world certainly get kick film,0 +wanted die since around thing really stopped access gun youngest brother oldest sister sad care siblings anymore gun thing still problem really wish easier way go want get critical even gun saw someone else post become hollow used be think exactly happened me gifted turned burnouts constant disappointment really cannot continue cannot wait day purchase gun day fucking shoot myself anyone gun come shoot brains shoot second like buddy system great would be,1 +whats anybody bored something share send pm,0 +daughters birthday month got unicorn back pack necklaceim looking attention notto seem cold ive heard dad recently gf it get better years now take responsibility actions blame nothing noone me ill try short can single air force one nightstand preganancy girl planned didnt know til years her marry september th daughter lillian born september th life begins air force marraige falling apart get cuz family theonly thing childsupport illinois child every weeks marriage ends living inlaws md family left dad tx march st watch daughter last time person shes crying march st life splintered limp tx live dad lower support illinois every weeks ex support every two weeks average paycheck without ot dollars try see daughter ex vindictive infidelity lose hope get video every often dad completely supports company father worked goes buisness gets job walmart greeter possible support now vehicle get rides junky work junky gets junked vehicle junky ride ways go work lost job months ago splurged got daughter unicorn backpack unicorn necklace ex blocks number months ago money video chat daughters birthday month mail full notices door covered apt words like vacate failure pay warrant looked mirror saw every rib bone im horrified it daughters birthday month ive caused dad n lose home cannot lower obligation warrants child support dad says hes tired one saves us saves us finds cheap trashed trailer dad says doesnt hate enough us daughters birthday month bought necklace backpack cant even mail worst all im going return get food destroy anything left today think eat couple days weigh pounds never able afford fly see never find job support long enough gain weight interview think im fucking meth wanted see daughter wanted give daughter shitty fucking dollar goddamn worthless back pack necklace cant fucking daughters birthday think may make want make til october st dont want ever think fault cant cant fucking it miss goddamn badly rips woth amount taken away dont see way dont want stared anymore dont want see dad slowly resent dont want separated daughter shitty husband shitty person shitty son brother good dad thing good at watched daughter grow sceeen listened cry ask come home kept going ling could im eithergoing die jail didnt mean soill like everytime think fucking fall apart haunting years dont see way dont want fucking sympathy pep talks im done sick hearing it really want help ever meet girl named lillian tells worthless father abandoned her tell rhat daddy loved her couldnt hold anymore nevverr forgot bought unicor bakcipack necklace,1 +show wonderful best writing ever seen brilliant directing dvid trainer also directed another smart television series called boy meets worldbr br this show dought one greatest like threes company roseanne famous cosby show television long time comebr br from perfectly crafted jokes great performances would dream wonderful show people lived seventies people didnt show appeals young young heart perfect show,0 +movie comedies nowadays generally minutes toilet humor foul language groinkicking modern comedies appeal lowest common denominator undemanding slow brain sure occasional good comedy come along theyre becoming rarer timebr br mr blandings buildings dream house shows s hollywood capable of screamingly funny jim muriel blandings cary grant myrna loy decide build house connecticut suburbs film follows story beginning house hunting trips houses riotous construction way finished homewith zuzzzuzz water softenerbr br grant loy perfect roles course grant particularly funny watches houses costs zoom control however film stolen blandings wise attorney played perfection melvyn douglas managing steal every scene hes in douglas understatedly hilarious watches blandings lurch crisis crisis reginald denny blandings harried architect harry shannon crusty old water well driller also wonderfulbr br ive watched movie numerous times always makes laugh think good film watch need lift whether building house not,0 +miss toddler honestly cant really remember like baby toddler,0 +worst song ever heard reason makes feel nostalgic httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkemljb_ihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdkemljb_i,0 +wanted post too last night boyfriend saved woman redflag dear people already posted cptsd group would like post well last night boyfriend saved woman jumping bridge cycled back home last night dinner drinks city cycled back cities bridge suddenly saw young woman hanging bridges fence first thought woman tried make daring selfie saw crossing social media another young woman standing ten meters bicycle hand looking her asked belong together replied no boyfriend walked immediately woman thinking really really bad first talked gentle woman asking could help would really liked help started crying panic saying useless afraid didnt know get back side fence scared touch hold thought would panic let go asked times times would please come back safe side fence could comfort help her still said useless got beat husband police didnt help before thank god universe good powers world boyfriend too stays always calm rational still talking thinking hell hold precious lady while panicking inside boyfriend stepped calmly closer her looked saying come hold womans hand arm gently immediately hugged woman holding closely me hold hugged firmly tried comfort saying ok you alone precious gonna let go thank god bypasser came later helped us hold her luckily police came quickly dragged back bridge told take safe place help her pray god get right help know there hopeless everything seems boyfriend devastated ofcourse also grateful could help lady could sleep last night nightmares it boyfriend snoozing calmly next moment the difference personalities haha lightly try talk it triggering ive too im grateful life itself dear people triggered too worth it people around care worth it precious precious aftermath im still doubting done more boyfriend wanted keep holding her taking home let rest could help further tortured ourself bit guilt police right resources help woman boyfriend helped calming words help people moment let people help too everyday theres way people hopeless everything seems people care,1 + genders genders male female attack helicopter honda civic panzer many more people think two people do yall crazy something,0 +going tonighti tired find motivation try anymore dont know going try im sorry friends family love guys didnt anything make this isnt fault,1 +ah hitchcock hard find bad hitchcock movie lost birds saboteur proves point admired directors work many years managed skip one perhaps lack interest priscilla lane robert cummings lead actors course familiar statue liberty climax seen repeatedly film retrospectives wrongly assumed story leading might hold interest wrong suspenseful plot gets cooking right bat chance encounter bad guy saboteur good guy wrongly accused protagonist continues zooming along series chance encounters narrow escapes familiar hitchcockian elements there innocent person wrongly accused crime people seem be dramatic unlikely locations intensify suspenseful scene played within an airplane hangar ranch bridge handcuffed hero hurls escape police sumptuous charity ball palatial mansion upper floor skyscraper finally torch statue libertybr br throughout humor provided supporting players generous dollops early ww vintage social comment moments human warmth suffering people find within lend hand help fellow human getting nothing return short always basic humanity core hitchcock however grisly trappings sensational cast supporting players chiefly otto kruger slickest villain side george sanders his broadway credits include male lead noel cowards private lives says all weaselly norman lloyd titular saboteur mention alma kruger relation otto prominent society dowager involved fifth column intrigue her character foreshadows claude rainss mother notorious priscilla lane fine job difficult role early scenes cant tell whether believes hero innocent guilty seems constantly shift opinion coming side fully late proceedings one cannot ascertain whether acting fault whether meant kept state uncertainty plot developments swift fun clever really care thinksbr br then peculiar hitchcock touches nothing plot twice lane character pauses get change quarter reimburse kidnappers ice cream soda make call phone booth scenes inserted anybodys guess perhaps make film seem realistic thus heighten believability suspense perhaps give audience moment catch breath characters top garrulous truck driver impossibly kind trusting blind man living alone spotlessly maintained forest cabin politicalphilosophyspouting human skeleton members circus caravan hide protagonists pursuers,0 +anyone really good editor need someones help photoshoping one freinds face looks like princess,0 +im seeing therapist today doesnt know feel way im scared tell heri made couple posts asking help try resolve feel way diagnosed severe anxiety stress issues also autism diagnosis younger suicidal badly depressed couple years now made plans kill recently bought gun so tried hinting parents feel way dads sole response people feel way get it sympathy advice ever night went room put gun head passed could finally decide whether it night made post asking lot guys girls told tell therapist came conclusion would still know best interests so half hours first face face session since corona im starting get really nervous telling her dont see often know chance anxiety stress kicking really badly thinking say im worried anxiety making shake right now really want tell seems like theres mental block please give advice overcome please,1 +help please hello could one please translate red writinghttpscdndiscordappcomattachmentsunknownpng clue teacher saying,0 +anyone need help homework ill try assist you,0 +boyfriend requirements male optional strongly recommended alien required,0 +nothing seems real feel empty today broke tears decided go home citalopram point point life literally empty go feeling numb overwhelmed snotty crying mess i pathetic ridiculous want end burst tears work today feel like going absolutely insane,1 +need helpi used able live depression yes effected life always found way keep going it cant stop dreaming redflag im truly scared need anyone tell would upset anyone life thats reason im holding anyway feels like work longer need get motivated anything maybe little motivation hope get busy,1 +know how literally figured post stuff like this important,0 +carbon monoxide long takei gas heater closed medium room sleep on kill me long till does,1 +forget posts saying forget skirts butterfly knifes plz,0 +finally itgot psychiatrist day maybe meds ease thoughts anxiety idk wish luck guess,1 +must losing another wayin spite many recent paranoid delusions eg government colluding large corporations introduce lead municipal drinking water shuttling chosen secret communes theyre raised lead world secret thought sort psychotic break hallucinating im hearing fucking music there fucked head deserve live ill disappoint myself,1 +yogurt yoghurt yogourt yoghourt obviously use last one,0 +love herand sincerely hope wake tomorrow im weak act impulses could drift away never wake honestly believe heart would best anguish would stop aching would stop uncomfortable anymore everyone could move fuck on want anymore,1 +hate even finally selfharming years still embarrassing scares ashamed even show even suffer it currently heatwave uk stupidity cannot wear sort short sleeves arms covered old selfharm scars,1 +damn bros commercialization kinda fucked funny capitalize ironic criticism holds place exact thing mocking capitalization media perpetuates cycle whereas thing eventually replace reach pop culture either hold stance reach people man im saying words nvm,0 +age flair change day goodbye age flair hello age flair ,0 +kill myselfokay well let explain little bit life know asking this normal life live mom dad sister thing need know socially awkward person ever since elementary school picked shy different people glad left school currently senior year high school bit step longer harassed still lonely ive never real friend before ive people actually gotten along conversations either never get really see moved somewhere else think kids school really even care much sometimes people walk past without ever telling hello even look upset fellow classmates even care whenever people ask whats wrong tell nice things make feel better people ask carry lives even get invited social outings really feel important comes peers around think would fit many people school think friend pretty much right older sister like talk time know best conversations maybe people gave chance got know better maybe people would see quiet shy girl many people know really act obnoxious loud seem different interests me getting really depressed time fact cant make real friends beginning think killing myself planning tonight time want family members get sad depressed this think life kill chance getting things better future,1 +ok out ban dumb people ,0 +tired lifei dont know im suicidal im tired pain unhappy would rather stop existing everything black happiest im asleep,1 +helpmy boyfriend almost five years blue broke completely unexpected things much good cant function overdosing appealing shd feel like hell wanted scream void stupid internet,1 +cant stop imagining ithow would long would take get caught anyone give shit trying best utilize coping skills support systems getting harder hour say still fighting for family hasnt even offered drive see me im burden keep saying go walk think positive yeah dont think key would better now want go hospital im also afraid right now thanks letting vent bit,1 +really know do nearly first time lied also things like unemployed months looking job parents pay foe everything lives me get life hard sometimes get down feel like trust broken again know do,0 +sub rules popular one,0 +think point get tension headaches cannot think anymore headache hate lot without logic although still hate even think things cannot even control loser blessed born iran rd world garbage county also blessed lgbt fucking place spice family also broke accept me sometimes think dad even want kid again keep thinking anything ever wanted issues disappear would happy know happiness feels like really non existent concept naive happiness kid like now feels like nothing absolutely matters know matters anymore except friends feel like damn burden amount issues much hate much loser am constantly thinking going tired soon enough kind sweet feels like long run maybe even would happier mething is think want die know why seems like way it thoughts offing keep popping head make feel like solution annoys much want live lost confused feel like idk done just idk really know keep crying like baby times broken sense mine self hatred death want live,1 +hello guys first all sorry advance english native language struggling suicidal thoughts months need advice problem advice cope situation would appreciated come middleclass family third world country years ago borrowed savings money family around interested stock markets wanted earn side money higher education parents especially dad checking updates every month money doing techsavvy believes tell him long story short noob lost money could tell lost since huge amount us lied told invested money bucket stocks according current prices stocks told value both bad good luck ig lied have money lose invested index funds thinks worth stocks reality far different although financially well would ask withdraw fictional money thinks have scared shit would find out cannot tell truth lost money years ago would break lied him cannot hold lies anymore too since every month ask updates hurts mentally suicidal thoughts now cannot take anymore cannot talk situtation anyone guilt shame posting using throwaway account advice deal would appriciated thankyou struggling suicidal thoughts advice needed,1 +treatment resistant depression broken fixim fourth antidepressant three years along four years therapy life progressively gotten worse worse every antidepressant working failing absolutely fault anything therapist psych says do think medicine ever work problem problem never go away think redflag constantly cant time soon would hurt family much even years prep like want theyll still hurt wish could understand done living absolutely hopelessly done,1 +do little back story august year lost job due covid graduated secondary school time decided take year gather money get shape going college working while week lost job got lucky found full time job working since fine first sure stress came getting new job fine meet boss first noticed impulsive extremely impatient anything first time little mistake forgot patch one bag soil lashed treating less dirt obviously started take toll first took personally employees tell dislike everyone fear sadness turned anger ive told itonly gets worse confront ive let sitfor while cant spend living moment without angry s o b honestly im starting breakdown everyday im really thinking quitting mean im starting lose motivation drive cant even relieve stress masturbating anymore im constantly pissed off think quitting would good place closes november use money idk advice appreciated thank read far,0 +rip mf doom died october death made public yesterday underrated rapper deserved love loved music rip hip hops super villan rest easy mf doom,0 +aita clean upaita clean stuff family see im gone pictures love letters such know heart privacy energy get rid it going hate seeing all im gone,1 +cant anymoremy life riddled tragedy tragedy got fired job gross incompetence know what deserve it given piece shit bad marks actually studying insulted class bitch let hatred get best me know anymore even want look around different school districts im fed up id rather starve death go trouble again shit want continue going life too gotten close leaving mortal coil convinced might actually fucking time,1 +cried first time todayi suicidal thoughts while realized easily could could make easier mom like calling cops gets work doesnt see like that realized quickly could go broke front mirror wasnt much sadness realization overwhelmed me even notes ready send loved ones barriers put place stop thinking thoughts disappearing quickly dont even feel much pain anymore empty,1 +watching always watching run evilness upon dreadful stuff eery silence random stuff ghouls owl whatever noises make nightfall upon us nighttime scary afraid goblins out igloos safety creepy eagles whatever reason surrounding you yelps help distance obey voice hear ukeleles playing distance umbrella protecting rain people burning forest around no hidden message folks life,0 +people participate group projects why im throw hands please like participate hard ask people know im social per hush type then know type ill type hey part project would like do they tell reponse either okay im it exclamation point optional i really understand part could assign something else explain do please part everyones gonna happy awkward,0 +remember different like years ago life now remember enjoying things used like meeting new people used love going movies reading books ate cried slept normal amount feel like working hard get back therapy meds exercise etc starting lose hope worse part,1 +grandpa died covid tell friends one things keep,0 +guys school like how get ttv viewers apparently said loud dudes like selfpromo tiktok since nothing better said sure also tik tok likehungry bitches karma whores reddit swear,0 +yet another postive posted several times guess good thing bad thing one im still alive thoughts keep coming back theyre coming back day gotten point every breath breathe comes sigh many ways explain why core all im lazy stupid simpler way explain it feel like waste shouldntve born first place wouldntve made difference oh im ive already told im young end early words last long encompasses thoughts eventually encompasses see future looks fucking bleak want someone me like literally here me feel like make feel little better know practically guaranteed ill go back feeling like regardless form help itd easier go hate thinking like this makes everything worse aaaahhhhhhh fuck me tldr im completely obliterated comes hope pride optimism idea anymore depressed even check spelling grammar last chunk o text forgive errors,1 +takenmy life great loss since day born lost tranquility taken me years go on life takes years experiences took innocence childhood years taken inability run leave homecountry due bad people family cared taken me friends taken me school took curiosity reading habits enjoyments relationship parents parents took happiness entretainment love taken me one thing left take one take it take myself,1 +going try hanging soon,1 +come cannot post picture thai subreddit know certain amount karma something wanted post picture someones mother dying people making jokes it reason cant post pics,0 +shit logged instagram deactivating cant deactivate thats shit wait like weeks deactivate fuck sake hands keep fucking shaking know,0 +ive legitimately considering latelyim still live home super depressed car job schooling motivation get things hate everything myself dad emotionally abusive mom ignores care brother old enough need anymore cant picture going further could snap fingers able drive anxiety keeps so cant go therapy things might better cause could get job go college obviously cant happen rope closet keeps getting closer closer way shitty life,1 +garbage truck guys important planet along fireengine guys doctors without politicians really notice much difference without garbage cleaners collectors world would shit place,0 +clair denis revisits theme estranged fathers men follow bliss determined fashion heedless emotion toll family nnette boni earlier film live narrow world marseilles examination louis trebor intruder takes us remote location along frenchswiss border half way around world korea tahiti film begins mid stream louis sixties coping ailing heart attempting maintain high level fitness learn louis stranger violence cabin location smuggling gunfire regular occurrence louis sleeps large knife pillow rifles nearby denis hurry move action along must patiently build understanding louis daily activities people deals along frontier including son sidney grgoire colin almost unrecognizable long hair wisp mustache rejects lunatic shown dedicated father two many brief scenes which seemingly unrelated build impression louis milieu ms godards camera work exhilarating here controlling metaphor louiss heart transplant goes korea tahiti search another son found louiss new heart rejects sidney rejected old accustomed brief scenes deniss film inexplicable nnette astride boni feeding spoon drive shooting bonis father briefest images boni gunshot wound head scene louis morgue cadaver scar transplant body sidney implication last two rejection real imagined father kills something indefinable son,0 +add emoji end sentence becomes funny in sexual sort way today bored sent message wrong emoji end realised this did eat breakfast yet try it ordinary sentence becomes funnier add emoji end lets good laugh,0 +losing girlfriend faultwe argument instagram photo liked know fucked big ive hurt badly little trust ive made think dont want even tho amazing ive complimented everyday amazing body like talks everything silent cant seem trust anymore killing never intended hurt like im known boyfriend made insecure body even tho love it feel like whats point im job shit different day bullshit routine life seems pointless feel ever touch break cant seem please dont think get trusting,1 +isnt social anxiety worsti cant shit been room like years now done nothing life feel guilty fuck im burden family sometimes dont even eat days food last brother hard worker maybe good job life would easier get good job cant go college social anxiety wish wouldnt born,1 +good life think redflag hours every single dayi go much detail snippet many great things life appreciate take granted however think often redflag used come spurts bad things happened anxiety built up then one solid day per week thought logically would it now matter many great things occur life spend quarter day thinking sweet release death sometimes feels like comfort manage least strongest one couple things noticed anxiety huge catalyst constantly feel uncomfortable inside head also hunger tiredness cause bad thoughts anxiety overwhelm me annoying bad mood makes eating undesireable eating makes mood worse work long hours eating forbidden many times even possible im thinking whatever causing shit storm longer matters even want fix point want over bright side trend continues soon spending every waking moment thinking redflag desire surely overcome reservations currently have anyway thanks listening good day,1 +love jones one best movies ive experienced br br the main element sticks fact welldirected studied film entirety watching movies once certain things dawn subconsciously direction movie well writing chic hip artful love direction scene larenz tate nia long riding motorcycle north chicago night astonishing director movie deserved awards great jobbr br love jones classy sexy film highlights fact people love flaws love living learning us without hype natural selvesbr br the poetry wonderful story line dialog scenes really make moviebr br this movie deserves seen great movie lovers friends sit back watch or hopeless romantic like myself sit back enjoy alone friday saturday night day week peace solitude little entertainment needed love jones recommend,0 +hell hotlines putting hold desperately trying find live ill reach instead cannot anymore tried every single time feel like try life keeps getting worse worse every time want freaking end all cannot continue longeri hope anymore anything life getting better losing valueim useless worthless cannot strong anymoreim edge cannot hold back longer want end,1 +supposed suicide attemptit whole day physically fine now friend since got discharged alonei know get next day so,1 +monke eat banana im asking real questions,0 +sick wanting dieive tried everything point drugs legal notsolegal exercise videogames overeating undereating empathy apathy etc im shell person opinions solely based objectivity longer act volition react logically ive competitions ive lost lbs write music ive talked people redflag demon allows sympathise others made home right inside me ive heard many people complain life makes depressed ive done everything power change things better guess what depression nothing material possessions personal achievement depression makes feel worthless persevere want cant fill hole inside paycheck fuck supposed rock anyways want contentment sedation bliss,1 +justify livingi cant seem justify continue living th attempt university yet again going shitter wasted tens thousands dollars parents money cant it eating disorders ruled life years long mentalphysical health shambles live state almost friends family person think staying so also state thing kept alive past year becoming chore even stay alive him family hometown friends fine dealt redflags past cant validate living almost everyday feels like torture theres light tunnel tend good days average per week meanwhile rest existence obligation comfort others help please edit good days fighting unidentifiable depression sadness real depression like pulled dark abyss without knowing chosen sink nothing reason,1 +putting ufo thing aside best documentary ive seen factual reporting neil buzz must see interviews reporting revelation since information stamped confidential released documentary date detail accuracy brief minutes facts blow away left awe risks taken first moon neil buzz probably biggest heros time ever see man save life bet not neil saves life miliseconds separated death amazing watch travesty people known details assosiated landing moon courage men facing certain death failing computer stars,0 +like men like like hamburgers stomach filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +one best friends attempted redflagbut succeed boyfriend got time stopped it came told yesterday family intense redflag watch broke me saw coming saw depressed gotten know do luckily shes okay made depression much worse brother dying hate job feel lost broken wish could run away go somewhere beautiful try enjoy life health problems require steady well paying job im stuck here miserable hell,1 +made horrible least ,1 +tell ive fan star trek tng since kidbr br well sometime ago gave friend mine ds episodes asked himbr br hey man watching lately im done watching tng episodes said well got episodes farscape said ok let try it pretty sure time wont like finised watching tng found greatbr br i episodes viewed show impressed much found childish initially thought another tv show nice adventures regular music little bit different neat special effects though vague impression actors fully get characters skinbr br i watched another episodes thinking eps enough decide like since show started get me got good grasp action wanted see happened next poor crichtonthe rest history br br i think mostly like freedom characters context action unlike star trek everybody slept supposed way much high tech bullshit br br the show got better episode interesting story linewhat say movie like poetry br br i highly recommend it,0 +came across movie australian hotel room am brother channel surfing see young russel crowe telephone throwing russel crowe come know quasilove back states movie much surprise amazingly creative hilarious stars cast awkward teens hilarious stories odd sexual experiences including slick salesmanprostitutes unusual sexy mother lucky enough come across film would strongly suggest picking up say movie amazingly entertaining thank fine people australia making it,0 +listening entirity ram ranch ive decided make update log journey discord call listening ram ranch audio clips second one lot male moaning im beginning question sexuality,0 +want deadfirst time posting last shot trying anything help ive struggling depression since im cant take anymore sit room day thinking end life one cares last year admitted hospital attempt redflag therapy since nothing working girlfriend dosent even seem care tell probelms says ill get thing live parents dont care dad hasnt spoken along time mom hasnt years want someone speak fucking understands,1 +baked cookies first time im guy finally made cookies lazy ass didnt wanna go store,0 +decided write future redflag note people care about first one brother islast night spent little hour writing redflag note brother intend making one everyone care people sure im really going go certainly serious ever it sure want expect community posting maybe someone see realize lot worse reconsider redflag is jason crazy really grow together later life got close years apart went life differently kids earliest memories living garage ltredactedgt vividly remember time mom made dinner kept calling come snapped feel like eating back somewhere going mental health issues child thought jerk now totally understand feels crippled mental health another memory necessarily involve much involves jeff ltredactedgt back first started hanging together driving relatively new ford mustang girlfriend moving said girlfriend sweet job working ltredactedgt outside looking appeared living dream remember thinking i really wish jason would get shit together like jeff could totally life time really anything going on think working bloomingdales something today proud big brother im proud become passion career something cant even fathom life truly found niche life confident one time greats do big brother want know appreciate you may argue fight disagree thats brothers supposed do hope resentment toward did spent better part last years life complete agony everyday struggle days others imagine every single day life thinking going die multiple times day cant enjoy things people like enjoy crippled make yourself cant go drinks amount disoriented feel causes think incoming stroke heart attack aneurysm cant even think going vacation anywhere fear far away hospital die catastrophic medical emergency take place simply driving anywhere outside normal mile radius causes distress nearest hospital eating smoking drinking water basic lifes necessities caused anguish would get lightheaded dizzy fatigued various physical symptoms anytime menial tasks time could escape felt sleep latest therapist asked how know done treatment little taken back question take long answer told knew was almost decade spent living way living know enjoyed doing know enjoy doing knew panic anxiety knew things would trigger feelings would avoid them unbeknownst me ended happening world became smaller smaller smaller know liked camping not knew last decade camping put far away society hospitals help act camping necessarily bother me panic brought made like camping day never camped fear logic could applied many parts life know like hawaii snowboarding fishing really anything remotely took small comfort zone like things would fuel anxiety panic simply put know ocmike was know ocmike liked like know mikes passions life im saying lifes questions answered saying however one able identify enjoyed doing made happy made continue life me know know anyone could tell enjoyed liked good reason feel commonalities anyone except people anxiety decided recently go find new friends figured would start meetupcom basic premise type things enjoy things would like common users would match like minded group people drew blank groups activities going day surely would group searching hours even figure liked doing appear liked anything lived battle demon inside me every single day imagine living like years life jail cell inside myself spent arguably greatest time ones life shell myself felt like since august permanent solution temporary problem temporary problem likely problem face way rest life think losing battle lost thousands won stress anyone nothing contribute decision nothing could prevent making decision decision make myself spent many months debating this long would allow live like prisoner long would lived like this get upset think took easy way out seriously ask yourself long would live like this ive tried best could paint picture life last years think things enjoy life imagine tomorrow every day believe going rest life cant enjoy them cant travel cant eat drink smoke without kind panic friends thing think need go home might pass die heart attack cant go sporting events cant mall long would allow live like this different medications therapists psychiatrists nothing seemed work things almost felt like getting worse better long would for decided long ago today would final day think sad time rather happy time finally live like anymore longer trapped suffocating panic anxiety love much bro keep you except nicer mom got damn good job given circumstances actually great job raising us kids lot impressive considering circumstances ps mom going beyond upset need take care little bit dont get frustrated her love her hold her let know truly loved would understand did me,1 +parents talking shit me know hear themi feel useless already im pretty sure im ready it know say goodbye friends cant without saying proper goodbye want get suspicious hate parents point sounds like want die want friends im probably never going see again please help,1 +pm pm reddit crush promise tell lol,0 +mods guys gotta get god damn game would ban someone getting stalked yet stalker need either get game get new mods team know im gonna likely gonna get banned banned victim instead stalker rjusticeforthewronged for need game care community stalkers,0 +someone please put end misery breathed febreze cant breathe without much pain,0 +gonna get worsei feeling one bother read comment im another one poor souls spilling depressive thoughts here apologize ruin day get sour mood im empty cold feel nothingness plan execution go remote forest walk deeply lost can die either exhaustion hypothermia starvation thirst natural deaths sort want rot decay moss tree roots want one chance finding body decaying corpse banquet smorgasbord creatures critters kinds want forgotten society want search parties give me want parents realize mistake me im planning taking trip tomorrow across country wilderness family camping trip may it may chance ive dreampt every night years,1 +anthony works grocery store savin pennies someday mama leone left note door said sonny move monkey,0 +cant control anger hello guysgirls im born english speaker english grammatical mistakes try explain good manner note real wanted tell since little kinda antisocial afraid go crowded places tell shy too parents normal parents one could have although dad kinda strict bad thingsany dad like this hes nice huge temper anyone anything wrongplz dont think dad abusing anything love muchits temper crazy school kinda alone friends never hard easy make friends never progressed life like going parties study nights sort things students do liked hurt little animals like kittens chicksif rememebr right kinda sudden impule feeling felt child dont feel like this love animals plants muchi dont know changed things progressed stopped talking people even best friends dont anything talk unless topic like even family inner circle always kept silence speak something good studies liked science musiceven nowi felt anger days huge rate like im feeling now grew im years old school enrolled universitycurrently last year im internship software eng somehow managed talk people now good like before always felt emptiness heart im alone think stuff able worse always thought dont have example im short af im kg weight weight years slim always never able increase height weight muscle mass friends well developed nice body figures dont have depressed fact im like peoplefrom age noticed anger normal impulsive even things believe im angry dont blame others fighting anyone keep myself release temper break stuff stopped broken laptops mobile phones etc temper cant always afford new one instead try hurt ever im angry bigg anger outburst last week almost bite flesh inner forearm painful think bite force something vein inside hand day hand still feeling numb area huge anger outbursts im impulse drive knife serious damage myself hit head hit wall over destructive im doubting live anyone like this im afraid hurt someone badly anger reason anger anything cant anything get mad worst part is progresses fail game i played league legends recently quited anger burst like raging fire ares body hurt hit fist always feel gloomy sad im anyone think abut alot get depressedwhen happens smoke get worst mental illness need opinion plz ps smoke weed like everyday alchol abuser never dangerous stuff like heroin meth tried acid times times good trips,1 +ruminationsyes contemplate redflag often plenty people life seems getting worse many peoples blah blah could tell myriad selfinflicted tragedies brought me depressed place place dull gray apathybut end mindless optimism encouragement it get better cause totally know life like sympathy really fuck me didnt rape babies wasted time money patience many good people certainly pity poor blind fools care me brings point real bar redflag besides cowardice anyone says person commits redflag coward could healthy dose websters pain would cause family poor little siblings wouldnt understand mother would wreck etc posit hurtful continue surely cant be ask them would prefer alive well yes labor opinion hope last decade taught anything this waste resources clear dont feel like need something especially fantastic deserve life life reason enough keep living satisfied it not burned bridges count soiling academic professional record point see grim shapes nebulous fog coming future mediocrity toil selfloathing existence knowing potential oh crushing pressure expectation squandered it must cause pain discomfort already loved ones so owe keep living owe every distant relative get bummed death go motions life fuck it many millions better come gone wanted opinions hope brigade would kind share them meantime going go calculate many days nourishment wasted tuition could given impoverished child,1 +long distance relationship tips basically met girl months ago started talking lot told feels weeks ago weve long distance relationship maybe month half now parents know me told parents anything her scared guys tips also wants fly germany meet soon things problems like gonna stay because parents know long gonna stay stuff liket hat really scared never really actual relationship guys tips something long distance relationships please help really love wanna lose her,0 +teacher spent whole online class letting us chat great wanted us start saying missed normal life vent turned whole thing music rap good bad reason bts there great day think teacher spend time students great way act like normal classroom,0 +hot millions great movie every way fun offbeat story wonderful performances four best professionals ever work business peter ustinov brilliant usual maggie smithdefinitely one greatest actresses time total delight karl malden bob newhart round cast also perfect want movie perfect casting it impressive way people work natural effortless way creating lots laughs fun moments throughout peter ustinov genius wonderful sense humor one memorable performances direction photography editing also firstrate great time capsule london s definitely alltime favorites list,0 +historic moment happen next hour yall nasas perseverance mars rover set land jezero crater mars site ancient lake mission search signs ancient life mars take surface samples possible future return earth theyre also bringing along helicopter which successful first powered flight another planet wright brothers moment go watch gonna sick,0 +mad netflix right cuties vibing youtube looking things watch found ad netflix stranger things thumbnail scene didnt look like anything watching got real excited starting going like yes stranger things stuff yessss clicked all mean netflix frik would that dont innocent people vested interest stranger things ahskkgnwgxodbwicbrktntkjfvwicktnusjgjksnfkoxheywhisjqhbd,0 +welpi bout last night dmed people good bye got pill bottle incoged lethal dose ibuprofin turns out alot everything else u dont take enough ittl shread ur guts send u hospital emergency room worth risk percent sucess rate dmed folks back said hey ill tommorow ive tried hanging twice od once dont know go bc im n position get therapy im also unsure jjust teen thats fucking head bad long going years dont know ampxb,1 +u think corona end im thinking feels like im jinxing it anyone else,0 +really like idea going high noteor high note possible anyway someone usually talk suicidal thoughts ideas hate coming reddit this want talk this reasons obvious others cant bothered explain matters much ive wanted kill several times last months acted it every time mess id angry stressed whatever else ive failed second year uni feel like nothing contribute future also doubt ability simply keep top things go fend myself based depression prevented quite lot past years last night different idea redflag calmed me instead making worse ive felt way before think intensely suicidal then less likely anything towards offing myself long break til uni starts repeat year trip japan lined visit old friend lives now feels good time subtly say goodbye friends like idea enjoying right get back uni struggle reality might sound ridiculous m capable enjoying now end it thing idea killing whats preventing feeling completely useless suppose im cutting losses ive failed hnc equivalent first year university similar reasons im ton debt ive scraping everything since school im also studying music hard work actually want make money also feel like ive picked useless subject im really awkward space absolutely hating people go full stemlord sometimes kind agreeing them ive struggling keep things lately see getting worse time goes on im meds going second round cbt stick first time really feel im making much progress now minute musing ive method lined ages now things need make work need plan actual event ive felt useless long calmed wanting kill welcome feels right way ive done nothing deserve good things life ive unable anything myself whether ill actually at least im feeling thinking right now know obviously previous experience suggests wont feel like surviving rough patch waiting out time feels like real solution stress selfloathing hard explain know im asking advice such suppose want input coming here also wanted think loud guess,1 +cant find words this human end took hours writewrote first words accidentally clicked away showed idiot am need get chest anything further go again brings close redflag around months ago girlfriend together like half year broke me cool way caught cheating broke me told sorry wont still together really love would forgive her time attached her dont understand anymore today thats things used be refused left nothing suffer ptsd paranoia baddest times dumb even staying her never serious total fraud dont know even stayed one second took time im done processing yet gets better back also reddit account gained lot support help im thankful for smoking weed also helps lot helps calm down im full high tense energy time hard get clear thoughts im shaky usually get weed friend town weeks ptsd got worse know weed would savior without searching found profile twitter yes twitter guy ive known long time actually real life seen profile couple times personal page real life stuff etc makes lets plays post said selling weed needed dm him dumb addict would give try would never buy way usually dark hole didnt anything dealer wasnt available so thought okay guy seems cool whatever cant bad mean weed heroin meth virtual friend showed profile time ago must cool wrote dm answered pretty fast bought weed worth him let convince pay amazon gift card im idiot know post traumatic stress bad said fuck it lot real life stuff page would scam someone paid send code gave adress real life twitter account wasnt even active anymore time still lot old posts couple days later friend mine offered go watch movie refused stayed home receive package never came wasted much time waiting it didnt receive week asked couple times happened still fully trust believing legit asking asking finally blocked realized got scammed research found scamming people regular sometimes even doxing them threatening stuff like that wanted go police dont know even call person monster opinion also cyber bullying followersfriends terrorizing people online seems like fun lifes bad thing need make others bad well shocked couldnt believe got into person adress knows look knows lot probably since contacted main twitter dont want cant go police get fucked buying weed could seriously lose job here wish bad could go back time dont know guy going infos know im real trouble know reason wanted could fuck life up stupid didnt pay enough attention one single moment felt bad needed weed what fucking paranoia still trusted him feel worthless didnt wanted problems always nice everybody helped others went shop buying worth amazon without even questioning it dont wanted get ptsd didnt ask it didnt want get whore girlfriend leaves back dirt tbh atm dont even want life anymore thats enough im also wasting peoples time reddit long ass textwhen think bastard good time money work hard im full hate would read hed probably laugh pussy crying reddit help wants see suffer whatsoever reaction seems bit harsh know really boiling right now im bad person always tried get everything right good person get finger butthole every single fucking time finna need stand myself something bout it cant life peace anyway people dont want to state making weed illegal dont want to ex gf dont want to boss paying minimum wage dont want to scum like even exist ankles bleeding punched fucking wall want become total asshole like are okay get it cant go life like this ive point thousand times wont happen againbut happened again people shitting me real life since recently even online world fucked like ptsd paranoia simply cant survive person right now dont know haterevenge answer dont want go jail mean life gets fucked everyday die cancer yes cancer joke im psychologically physically ill something needs change want happy im miles away wish human experience feelings life bad realized always people like before right many humans crying edge redflag every half minute someone kills himself feeling helpless treated fair really makes sad dont see know fact ,1 +maybe weird im looking forward birthday days like idrc it maybe im getting older n stuff like ive also put half money birthday present laptop cuz needed school last one broke like im trying greedy yeah anyways think ill much fun idek dad remember bday th idk guess im feeling kinda it,0 +need helpbut cant ask paralyzed,1 +rough weeki never really thought id here right im lying bed unable sleep heroin withdrawal really really really cant find motivation get tomorrow go class suffer through it cant help think much easier would anything ive been hit hard week im crippling awful debt decades leave school whether cliche loved girl loved to then didnt that ive gotten girls before could again feels like straw broke camels back would much fucking easier give up get drunk shoot get high every single night help escape boredom shit thing over really responsibility listen this anybody else gives damn feel right now im kind of venting guys know want die tell want give up feelings work money drugs life guess dying way that know,1 +one contribute universe committing redflagwhat positives redflag good ways affects people close one committed redflag family changed positive way earth contribute ones decomposition universe contribute terms energy donating ones organs need one still live proxy make difference world one go this many organs salvaged donated,1 +reddit premium ended days ago still mean im complaining thank reddit gods,0 +really want kill myselfi recently get rid closest best friend least mutual feel empty void now want die nobody understands me nobody wants help im insufferable bastard im antidepressants ive counseling im still it none ever helped people telling try psychedelics fuck that want to want die now life ever gets worse people tell it gets better fucking hasnt never will thats shit argument irl friends im losing online ones bf thats online too want help want someone save me nobody will nobody can im alone,1 +im donea lot peoples last memory fight bad day cancelling plans me lot people feel bad also wont miss me wont really care gone dont really now theyll upset reflects them proof gone,1 +cut toxic people update httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsmdxcut_her_off_or_confront_herutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare blocked her toxic cronies too lfg guess,0 +ugh ik imma sound like one weirdos pm please ampxb filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +damn idk nighter slept last days really need sleep think ill stay midnight,0 +yesterday watched movie third time recommended fried several weeks ago never watched even noticed before falls so typically category swedish movie rose like me hollywood productions tend sceptical foreign movies hell paradigm shift film touches me keeps hope mankind change better way swedish village pattern areas earth people live together controlled religion misunderstandings lack courage predictions disguised brutality also ability fun meet sing takes trigger outside rip masks everyone who keeps one let feel human beings desire live lives never stop see stories like this because keeps hope described above five minutes containing story gabriellas song including performance one moviehighlights ever thank kay pollak minutes made happy,0 +bro bro bro bro goodnight say backkkkkkkk,0 +pretend father say im proud leave comment happen,0 +williams got investment know investments go williams go,0 +lost hopei yearsold guy injured himself right there sheer curiosity ive probably forfeited chance successful lovesex life probably rest life jeezus yes ive ruined penis jelqing peripheral nerve damage axonotmesis feel little sensation although only day seven sensitivity supposed return day fifteen due kind trauma ive sustained fella also slightly bent everybodys telling worry everything fine urologist agrees parents become sick concerns listen me friends turned fairly useless everybody minimises condition cant see progress hope nothing sensitivity low almost piss sometimes carefully time loo breaks result theres joy living anymore fateful evening plans future joined gym hung friends even planned enroll university getting gbf more ive always depressed straw broke back cried way work morning thinking end all thing keeping thought parents family friends honestly cant bring break hearts one hand still want live ive got much love give body let to cant bear living among happy people enjoyable sex lives id kill get time machine stop that,1 +im coming end much copeeveryday struggle im seriously thinking about planning end know do guess im venting right now know wont change much hope get rid pain even care anymore drugs alcohol selfharm ive run options cant keep safe much longer,1 +risk wish could beive long history mental health problems along lines depression ptsd gad part ive lot improvement now say improvement something know exists feel it im done emptied reserves nothing left hate february coming years ago later month came home found bodies husband year old son whole month relive happened starvation financial stress fights boss demanded take break lunch food attempt feb course essay due day commitments day im probably going supportive role someone too many times wish worked told would happy attempt failed think ever been catastrophic failure reason im risk right now nearly crippled life im scared try again cant stand idea something partially working aware whats going around unable act theres nothing sure work except probably would work fuck know it want know boys are want know friends left time doing want shit never have feels like everything systematically stripped me every time act towards interest feel like fall shit makes everything worse everything complicated want peace simplicity position support lot people around feel like imposter im depleted resources need someone take care me anyone tried it would false real would assuage guilt nothing me one cares me ive faced neglect parents abandonment friends best friend murdered child tore away killed himself relationships think theyre mostly people unconsciously acting messed patterns me like im tool theyre using reenact shit theyre trying process matter im thing consequence feelings inherent value days attempted killed son himself imagine burned brain cannot begin explain guilt deal with even tell people every single detail always tell fault happened fucking lying face stronger could stopped it police parents facing work dust settled months later alone totally utterly alone year know must come long way wait im waiting open door again couple weeks ill open door ill find dead again ill hear sirens flying me theres point chest moving no pretty extra fucking sure theyre dead sirens necessary fucking futile yes im pretty sure dead wish like hell them suffer here stage alone wanna stage alone fuck want me,1 +overthinking activated biotechnology notes tho big brain,0 +wanna cat girl thats thats post might tho,0 +repost think book ideas want know one interesting rule strong superhumans rule entire cities oppressive caste system built protagonist try live normal life changes run superhuman police changes forever twoman aliens evolved created system earth ecosystems merged created hellscape thousands years passed protagonists meet explore two different worlds mean true meaning humanity antarctic kingdom evolved penguins secret kingdom inside antarctica operated separate humanity millions years however antarctic expedition goes wrong human protagonists see actions race impacted others see scars cant heal ferryman eternal river runs parallel universe links locations universe parallel one used method transportation never ends story follow ferryman travels river exploration fear man vs nature overlay quantum strain man trying fix greatest mistake via time travel accidentally creates bunch time duplicates many causing tear form fabric space time story follows one echoes learning seeking save world himself exploring themes loss hubris identity story science experiment essence life goes completely wrong actual personifications periodic elements created begins chain reaction personifications substances created story follows personifications hydrogen hellium explore brotherly bond life really means,0 +keep livingi wondering anybody knows find live sounds really dumb know think live much longer want die cannot keep this know find motivation live maybe goal something live long run something soon might commit redflag truly want help would appreciated,1 +wants sing wellerman me still learn text love song well go ship sing song days straight,0 +recently getting suicidal thoughts lately getting depressed matter much try think brightly situation jus cannot shake thought wanting die really want share past abused dad got bullied school looks middle school moms relationship started degrade point really care affect commit suicide due playing games try get rid thought ig suppresed feeling think want future cannot think want matter hard try people closest friends parents siblings tell it worth it whenever hear feel guilt whenever think idea suicide feel calmpls help really know,1 +bowling ball cause wanna throw someones window,0 +uninitiated gundam world good place start burned star wars star trek compelling realistic scifi series become immersed in simplistic boysavesworldingiant robot story might expected rather complex emotionally compelling space war drama line good bad guys decidedly less distinctbr br gundam focuses story al izuruha young naive boy living neutral space colony spends days daydreaming mobile suits playing war friends course series al befriends enemy soldier bernie wiseman end little al learns hard lessons reality war requisite suffering sacrificebr br i loved oav series cool mecha designs involving story likeable characters recommend series anyone likes realistic sf anime think anime silly sexy entertainment,0 +im going kill myself thanks covid could much ruined worldfucking covid could met many new people much fun im shut fucking house day online uni fucking virus say going like forever fuck this id rather die point carrying on think id better ending now,1 +wish someone hug protect needed most people life take pain seriously always laughed laughed at cannot fucking take anymore keep strong one tell good job someone supposed,1 +dont want live anymorehello im struggling suicidal thoughts feel alone lot mean friends guess kinda consider acquaintances manly people close im band with ex true friend feel like people dont relate too im years old smoke drink lot manly numb world around me dont get wrong love enjoy beer find drinking much work good job im unhappy working midnights midnights years cant get better shift im it hardly ever sleep maybe hours day really gets years it girlfriend argument something fucking stupid usual ended relationship stress time fight freaked out regret dearly said really mean things hate it would constantly argue everything seems would make feel like cant anything right love much miss im trying hold together stress life routine gets me hate myself hate job hate sleeping hate world sometimes evil ways ive held head several times cant get pull trigger dont know anymore feel empty inside work hours ive sense pm yesterday slept hours yesterday life sucks dont know even talking this guess feels somewhat good get chest makes hate wanting fucked sounds first time ive thought though sat gun hand desire hurt anyone myself sucks ive smoked entirely many cigarettes typing dont even post probably try lay keep thinking ending it im broken dont know fix myself,1 +desperately need someone talk toim suicidal feelweird definitely almost outofbody dont know else describe it think holiday new year stress really getting me,1 +advice bettering relationship ive dating girlfriend since september shes years younger me dating since im worried ill run legal problems age consent pennsylvania where lives im turning december love lot dont know still love much do for reference born september born december ,0 +film scaring since first day saw itbr br my mum watched telly back remember woken middle night tearful ramblings dad helped stairsbr br she saying something like dont let get me something like that asked made upset told shed watching woman blackbr br so obviously watch even though eleven let me scared s me ive immune horror films since watching this,0 +sure anybody would interested comedy series ive working since freshman year high school coming end want see live one day freshman year high school friend bored grabbed camera went hall film lunch period next week eventually started posting videos regularly lets say got bitstupid first episodes pretty timid awkward watch share young looked really hope make people laugh series means lot dozens people cameos co star helped produce every episode characters friends high school maybe guys favorite anyways final episode premieres saturday pm est trailer now things actually happen show last line almost every episode since joe biden presidentit total satire turns may future seeing involved knows parodied several tv genres varying degrees success created convoluted story full conspiracies battles maybe small bit dimensional hopping hair goes short spiked shoulder length despacito released piqued interest find searching lost files john youtube playlists seasons complete season finales please nice ive never shared anyone outside school really hope people like it tldr lost files john offers unique blend comedy awkwardness enough head scratching plot twists plot holes leave thinking days check youtube catch premiere final episode saturday,0 +every day brings closer deathi yo working student want kill myself life unbearable skills talents im absolutely boring person spend free time alone really want find girlfriend see way could find one im useless like this used go away sadness listening music days bored music want go sleep never wake up,1 +im tempted buy one rings attached chain think itll look sick ik wear public pointless,0 +need help talking girls boys nonbinarys try playing question game question game pretty simple understand begin taking turns asking questions person cant dosent want answer question person answer question loses may seem like simple concept helped get know opposite gender pretty well hope help fellow redditors well also cautionary advice ok lose game question gets personal uncomfortable know boundaries fun,0 +im gonna im gonna kill cant put nuts mouth,0 +struggling years scared admit feel end nearwhere start mother murdered someone close family since ive issues life emotions general growing up got fights school lots them listen anyone get along father would beat something care next day id again care hated everything hated life dealt hated town lived in hated father sister hated myself never pleased physique looks sports anything often contemplated jumping garage head first falling tree fashion always thought death better alternative never able actually jump garage head first moved fathers place roughly thirteen went lived family little while changed still angry still defaulting suicidal thoughts shit got bad getting along family took in got kicked out lived streets sixteen seventeen gotten girl pregnant actually helped fresh perspective thoughts less frequent first daughter born im living mother were collecting social assistance pressures child whilst child dropped schooldidnt get along teachers students coupled default rage end abuser daughters mother first time happened angry myself believe let things get point believe struck partner kind piece shit i one day daughter angers point fucking kill myself deserve better happened multiple times always defaulted kill xyz finally ended leaving thing another relationship im years old literally exact repeat previous relationship time im thinking killing abusive events thoughts frequent day day lifeat work driving watching tv relationship inevitably ends take time really get anger control eventually learn okay angry okay react mention throughout relationships never really let guard down never mentioned anything thoughts default reactions run head neither partners ever known even thought redflag although love them let know me real inside whos never really felt like hes belonged here think im smarter anyone think think way ive never type person openly discuss emotions longest time emotion could truly feel anger get wrong stints happiness never lasted always overshadowed rage depression thoughts redflag yet another relationship one much better others kids together abuse either party would still get arguments ends usually bike ride talking healthy suicidal thoughts became less frequent thats say were point children love world cant stand thought know father never got know mother fast forward almost decade thoughts little aggressive seemingly matching decline relationship relationship ends im hurt it feel like saw coming easier handle angry it still frequent suicidal thoughts current day ive relationship someone almost year half still aggressive thoughts even though relationship golden standards relationship recently ended well broke me wanted things im old now kids older think im supposed here ive felt whole life like omnipotent fucked up took wrong person know things get better heartbreak ive before heartbreak thats pushed here im done give cant keep fighting thoughts every day im strong enough think possible happy life im always thinking really fucked ways die look fall escalator basement every day think it thoughts getting bad almost like someone else screaming me im mentally exhausted thinking affect family im physically exhausted im sick angry time half life over kids got know was speak much father siblings best friend last relationship cant even talk now never able open either even though wanted share everything her ive tried anti depressants ive doctors cant cope anymore ive basically said goodbye everyone matters without letting know goodbye feel bad kids know understand theyll say everyone else says he took cowards way out person strong cant continue every moment every day im looking anything seeing die bus hit killed guy city long ago hanging seems like good option read done right ill snap neck instantly im scared swallow pills want fail want family see like that drive electric scooter people almost kill every day avoid them ive never seen light end tunnel definitely see one now ive grown ive matured ive given time pass instead gotten stronger stronger now somehow loved ones ever see post im gone know love nothing wrong difficult path walk me brain cant anymore sorry,1 +saw description movie tcm let run like peter ustinov maggie smith delightfully surprised find really liked movie found quite exceptional course seriously dated period piece well worth watching subtle humour insight life lifestyle almost forty years ago problem trying find dvd watch often also quite taken performances smith ustinov leads karl malden bob newhart cameo appearances robert morley cesar romero,0 +going put since got one else tell past months mental health completely crumbled friends reach me always reach them really obvious past months care never reach even ask okay nothing fact lonely loser amplified past monthsi always thought reaching friend think bad day normal friends knew depression yet one message comfort sent me friends always important whole life experiencing life school everything feels hopeless stuck depression feels like matter do cannot get rid it friends always said improve whatnot simple would depressed suicidali felt lonely past months reached one last time one friends said reason reach check we adults now said toughen up words stuck head past week know right wrong anymore know want move on simply want live anymorejust removed social medias friends lists amount pain went life outweighs good happened never girlfriend fear lonely forever eating away me seeing friends care enough made depressed day told toughen bullshit bullshit excuses words tell me enough ofi hate everything cared much friends care returned anyways guys probably going post honestly feel extremely suicidal right might last post reddit sick,1 +need members okay thanks joining imaginary club,0 +whoever comments first gets silver comment first give silver,0 +rare get opportunity review film imdb relates life close way however someone living cerebral palsy albeit less severe michael one main characters film wish give film free pass tackles subject thats rarely approached is normally treated pofaced seriousness minor problems film id like address first people clear situation clouded judgement overall excellent film br br parts felt unashamedly crowdpleasing expense realism pound every time wellmeaning member public mentioned electricwheelchair racing me id much richer man speaking personally fits public perception deal disadvantages rather reality actually goes on thing spending time watching disabled people go pub big deal us actually it much might admirable outsiders looking in appreciate previously sheltered perspective michael still think hed concentrating enjoying experience rather reflecting big deal actually there first place such amount time spend seeing fun felt like bit muchbr br felt terminal nature rorys illness brought attention far late meaning used cheap sentimental device come pair rather something everybody knew along going dealt withbr br to balance criticisms dish heap praise well although thought scenes showing getting grips normal life touch overdone script also ventured tricky places expected comes lot credit so instance raising issue love relationships showing daily apparatus often used aid assist lives non ablebodied people also despite blunt emotional shock tactic death sprung upon us movie whole far less sappy anyone right expect type films bebr br brenda fricker performing variations role capably autopilot seems like years robertson mcavoy share special interaction must noted inside im cartwheels group people somewhere finally made film justice lust life many disabled persons,0 +european movie nice throwback time student s experiences living abroad interacting nationalities although circumstances slightly different klapisch the director went new york film school one would think drawing experiencebr br it interesting film balances message one generalize notion for every stereotype underlying truth example italian character based pothead aspect wellknown italian stereotype german character features tried tested stereotypes stereotypical aspect movie character central theme infidelity critic observed infidelity crucial french film class british filmbr br both main character girlfriend played entirely likable think deliberate greatbr br it may unintentional nationals elements could taken metaphor countries perceived role eu british woman fling american who entertainer like s us president frenchman shows natural leader when landlord shows upbr br although europe diverse new york striking see two nonwhite characters one chilean woman indigenous features despite appearing age main character portrayed potential object interest another gambianspanish rather gambiancatalan male appears bit inventedbr br one might ask klapisch chose protagonists longestablished eu member countries western europe nationalities reflect would meet students s believe exchange programs contemporary europe much diverse erasmus program encompasses countries iceland eastern europe many eu members understand however choice nationalities familiar majority viewership may deemed necessary distract contrast klapisch wants create peoples europe bureaucratic europebr br despite minor gripes great movie made consider going back europe live french friend mine also expatriate us captured shared feelings piece contradiction if europe like us would leave heartbeat,0 +hope liehey all ive suffering depression almost years now past weeks taken turn worst though almost friends drifted away life become complete shit even low standards yesterday got back exam results terrible id banking results least give life semblance hope reason live told would definitely kill day talk redflag hotline decided hang another day today appointment psychiatrist one talk besides her past times visited fine felt better least suicidal visits times today however aggressive irritated stance towards me kept forcing say things clearly uncomfortable with plus claimed lying time told couldnt perfectly recall specific details due addled state mind time didnt seem listen realised every time slight bit hope always turns wrong friends used confide ignore tell problems try hang them thought results could make it didnt work out thought maybe psychiatrist could help me didnt work well fuck it kill end week edit talked mother im fine now think,1 +whats wanted wish whoever seeing good daynight,0 +rank best zorro chapterplaysthe exciting musical score adds punch exciting screen playthere excellent supporting cast mystery villain keep guessing final chapterreed hadley fine job diego alter ego zorrolastbut certainly leastis great directing team whitney english,0 +said yes asked could borrow pencil said yes,0 +hey you see post me write ugh political,0 +hey stop scrolling reminding great day,0 +feel like gotten girlfriend got identity crisis,0 +skateboard think gay game really great smooth fast easy play fun even well really fun make skaters crash burn easily one best video games ever,0 +hey mods stop banning people answer modmail pls also pls someone tell send yall message mod,0 +want live another week maybe two longer absolutely necessarythere one thing life meaningless terrible girlfriend serious long distance relationship since little one year never seen person literally fuck everything life contact started casual made terrible mistakes mistakes probably able fix able forgive for know them tell want chance us actually together hate practically everything life myself seriously considered killing last months since keep becoming depressed possible life thing look forward to think able survive get professional help forgive me probably wont obviously cant tell that cant risk causing think committed redflag know anyone lives close me stick around little clear way forgive avoid risk sure completely ,1 +kolchak tv series really fit category part horror part comedy social awareness thrown in something think people ready for shame really ive started watch shows chiller network i never saw originals realized different interesting really was br br starring darren mcgavin kolchak reporter international news service simon oakland always angry boss tony vincenzo show followed exploits chicago news reporter often not became part story himself searched windy city modern day creepies go bump night underlying charm macgavin really sets show apart somewhat goofy guy always wears suit cannot help love him jokes great back forth skeptical editor oakland downright hilarious br br the stories part pretty good acting good s great period special effects show suffers it suspend disbelief fun series ahead time,0 +weird compelling film topic atom bombs created los alamos nm usa used japan latter part world war ii huge course deeply disturbing films plot takes lot heavy issues actors carry much creative tension never seen film much interested admit read book smoking bed conversations bruce robinson robinson wrote story screenplay think film better expected reading robinsons point view conversations it see thought got derailed think paul newman pretty good somehow bottom miscast hes hollywood one point big meanlooking guy storms newmans office striking presence immediately thought playing character newman playing lead plays head scientist also fairly good somehow brilliant enough portray huge angst goes part immense responsibility creation ultimate machine death destruction one effective characters seems composite personality played john cusack oddly affecting throughout end character whose fate really hits home made think vividly fate japanese people hiroshima nagasaki,0 +feel even worse used bear mind english isnt native languageso hanging friends today good came back home noticed dont take joy anything dont think im able live like that please help idea do sorry lack context im good writing,1 +men pigs men pigs men pigs men habe potential rapists take advantage women stay cautious,0 +bro people dumb bunch kids twitter tiktok saying law going pass teachers look girls private know trans tell bathroom use research law want pass law make sure schools check girls birth certificate not privates trying join girl 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understand feel gain courage come emotions old activities used longer interest me gaming photography going watch football team called manchester city play going walks sometimes drink cut relive pain everything seems black white everyone elses life seems much better mine everyone seems hobbies success wealth loving understanding parents family rare occasions bad moodmy girlfriend farrah helped depressive episodesjust little her years old lives us tennessee huge house large loving supportive family family full success hobbies like basketball softball sociable understanding going best high school state lucky live life think takes granted precious beautiful perfect me reason still alive today sometimes possibly due depression instant just turn off even little triggers random sometimes feel emotions sometimes hurt due living perfect ideal lifestyle already car time guess puts perspective amazing life is live completely different areas opposites personality sometimes think understand like me cut myself hurts her drink hurts her talk emotions says hurt deep feel does want one ruining mood life absolutely perfect me want spoil her really need help cannot stop worrying possibly affecting her need find ways stop making shit boring need help see living longer kinds emotions affecting me need way find colour lifethank reading made far sorry make sense sounded rushed wanted get someone listen to thank you everything boring dull meaningless,1 +life work want live like anymore work hrs day go home time work again friends gf nothing live parents live canada costs half million buy small house matter much work matter never afford house dreams dead advice people give go walk going hang soon life worth living another day existing work,1 +tired fighting tired feeling worthless tired struggling give up done waiting end feels like come ready die feels like forced stay here want set free want anymore,1 +im probably gonna get sent hell this fuck it so moved scale bathroom scale parents bathroom reason every fucking time go sleep always hear following note footsteps annoyingly loud whenever put footsteps annoyingly loud version even says so annoyingly loud footsteps door opening followed footsteps scale beep more footsteps followed door closing footsteps door closing so plan get sent hell record happens every damn night parents denied ever happening either theyre lying im hearing something im pretty sure theres pattern im hearing anything later ill bring again show recording and no cant say edited file reason clue software sound editing aids pc cant handle anything without fucking due shit is so result im either gonna told im wrong get fucking yelled wanna hear annoying ass foot steps beep sleep wish luck,0 +movie intelligent is movies transcends least common denominator stupid people probably appreciate it story also relies heavily dialogue parallels lost translation although sunrise much brighter somehow less abstract simply lot betterbr br the script characters even slightly surreal atmosphere feel totally realistic actors play absolutely brilliantly rarely seen movie script acting melted perfectly togetherbr br the dialogue moves personal issues risk becoming little top does however stay right side almost time although found moments little awkward embarrassing balancing fine line demands outrageously talented actors sometimes yields great results overall movie simply stupendous very rarely love films depicted way find trustworthy realistic every time achieved result fantastic think stunning apparently timeless beauty female lead actress helped quite bit respect still looks stunning film years afterbr br this simply gem movie cant miss one best movies seen s,0 +need someone carefeel like one knows needs want reason keep going im tired getting worse,1 +want fall existence nobody sad it thats really see birth nobody asked wanted life obvious practical implications point life said first able consider existence properly already late already become tangled net people care purest wishes cannot fault them coerce life want stop caring could put nobody would distress discovering body would even hesitate anger want life want put effort would take process therapy become functional human being saying impossible happy feel co operate entities us work together fix myself would likely become happy productive actually saying want it want improve myself want cause distress given willing compromise wishes movement this angry like trapped beast am angry myself pitiful weak ridiculous self maybe cruellest trick fate dealt me weakness neither improve end myself simply a complete ass handful people spoken seem think medical profession answer seem think that went doctor would change mind no id co operate id want change not want something impossible want fall existence nobody sad it,1 +feel like every time get suicidal like get closer closer really itsomething awful inside gaining resolve certain last month let alone year tried meds still suicidal hung lived took whole bottle pills lived packed stuff take get way next person live here outlet even beautiful anons enough anymore,1 +mfs got choices world smart fella fart smella preach,0 +im waiting parents die kill myselfmy parents good people adopted raised best efforts want upset them especially mother attached would go insane kill myself im almost lover life loneliness unbearable right want live like this time want parents sad im waiting,1 +wow miss uthepsylocke anyone active last year know,0 +day comingi cant think anymore im failing school im hopless future cant anything fir myself im crying everyfay im going write last words,1 +update old habits die hardprevious post herehttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentscabhupdate_im_still_alive utm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_app last days think day posted original post millionaire debt k managed start company selling services made around k first two weeks guess did used leveraged longed bitcoin got liquidated again keep going back exact act brought knees maybe hope might able recover funds trade again cant seem get system feel disgusted still services going generating cash flow save slowly cant seem fight urge inside keeps telling trade dont feel sad depressed right now feel really empty confused,1 +youtube ad bypass get ad click random youtube story click away story ad bypassed,0 +enjoyable film excellent actors actresses evoking range emotions contains really excellent humour whole family enjoy get know characters quickly experience ups downs and ends upbeat,0 +literally confidence comes gender keep missing opportunitys talk thinking worst possible sernario thinking happen example goes way home could stopped today gone thought would go wrong even talk snap dont wanna start proper conversation case goes wrong wrong me,0 +world fuckin bullshitunemployment still come thru way get money probably gonna fuckin tonight got go anymore,1 + yo boy sub still virgin idk seems like every time browse sub,0 +im usually kids age usually watch old classic movies one favorites totally addicted watching first time really good u think technology movies back time music great storyline okchoreography great must see it know theres prequel movie many people like movie love classic love movies theyre much better movies now movie make smile cry make start dancing music absolutely ear catching beautiful seen dirty dancing harvana nightsprequel prequel star original actors thats hate prequels ruin original one wants prequel want sequel many people agree movie original sequel rd one enough beyond that people wont bothered watch it remembers movie st benard beethoven think theres movies altogether,0 +living optionali dont want live wasnt meant be able euthanize myself perfectly logical,1 +disappointed think deserve live anymore need kill myself much cowered so make stupid mistakes every day even get proper job find proper friends happy point life cannot stand today tall mountain lowest part need stop need kill now,1 +feel useless society really know going doi fired every job pick depression gets best end miserable matter do start showing late lack enthusiasm super slow overall give fuck attitude last time tried go college ended suicide attempt taking financial emotional redflag debt lasted way long handle mention credit card also paid credit score gone shit try get professional help end answering calls showing appointments process takes forever always stuck waiting start medication end trying use end lifethe one thing supposed passionate art love art since child got opportunity make money art a family friend requested portrait daughter took months finish hated it although loved paid me still put existential crisis hell going cannot even handle something love job tv definition bum live mom freeload playing video games nothing time two friends talk every months boyfriend seems love lot thinks help get life together one day needs realize really disappointment sure fix this know honestly stopped caring life long time ago live shame guilt acting like plan family friends ask itthe worst part cannot even talk without becoming extremely depressed overwhelmed f jobless school ambitions,1 +frog guy thank much frogs,0 +want watch bleedive selfharmer past years im trying cut anymore scars dont fade like used to want right cut watch bleed,1 +hate tiktok personally like tiktok hate it,0 +redflagis pussy shit want die significant other,1 +assisted redflag vs redflag vs outward harmneed get chest context much fucking shit going on reaction would really love leave fucking world want hurt piss off want people try help suffer invulnerability towards solving issues want immediate family friends bear burden intentional redflag would really love leave fucking world peacefully,1 +horni disease cure u ahaha hmu bb lmao jkjkjkunless ahaha dms open,0 +m imposters amoung us dffmfffmffefffsffmffaffrfftffaffsffs,0 +summon utheholysheep next hrs reply comment whatever tell say dms dm message ill reply 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well jokes almost always target although sometimes resort bit much carreys facial expressions liked fact movie actually portrayed god also black man thought quite well especially brilliant freeman hilarious scenes opening cookie scene instance others miss target slightly still good film ,0 +hey there would aussies or aussies wanna join sub recently got working get active anyone welcome active members appreciated im looking new mod australianteenagershttpswwwredditcomraustralianteenagers yeah come along itd nice ,0 +suicidal spoiled bratthe title real question know im both suffering depression mental illness years since early remember ive planned living past im currently things taken turn worse past years blah blah lately ive move back home mom year since rate mental health decline steadily accelerating led internship kept telling would getting real position soon every month im jobless seems like real prospects hope whatsoever able move support independently bfa program place emphasis giving vocational qualifications ive overall horrible experience seeking work entire life mostly im weirdo im awkward funny looking i think major baby face also makes hard people trust adult responsibilities get hired ever feel like deserve position instances especially considering competitive city field fact worked nearly hard enough past years secure edge millions people want jobs do ampxb anyway sorry long exposition main issue this nice place live with mom one desired neighborhoods really wanted grind could probably get job duane reade starbucks even though ive gotten none countless baristachain store jobs ive applied past years even get entry level corporate position somewhere something really work hard get feet living own im going end life moms reaction pretty much occupy thoughts every day extremely long time ampxb goals life desire family children mental issues allow enjoy following food sex socializing romance existing feels like full time job ive never wanted adult cant handle watching get uglier every day whenever think working miserable job get support top this mind goes much id rather dead fair lifes fair iknow work hard even want alive first place feel im prolonging existence moms sake ampxb theres really much think would make mind staying alive living work job makes miserable would definitely keep going least little longer think fact parents could afford pay rent mom would probably much rather find dead course immediately feel like manipulative spoiled brat am wish could suck get whatever job get everything feel entitled to never works parents pay rent would make feel like burden already feel like am sometimes feel like need honest mom im thinking redflag and thikn already feeling feels emotionally manipulative i depressed spoiled manipulative suppose know im sorry post direction like me ampxb closing anyone feel like hit rock bottom alone world life cutting it know feel higher standard life anyone else really feel worth otherwise really know snap started seeing fourth therapist recently im mostly humor mom really see much read post back hate sounds really genuinely like things say make post im loss right want depress friends suicidal rambling im posting get chest maybe someone relate would love give really sad virtual high five hope thats okay much love everyone here,1 +two people crushes me girl th grade gay kid th anyone else crush,0 +offensive joke scroll youre truth like people virgina vigins people hungary ravenous people turkey turkeys disguised humans avoid thanksgiving likewise spanish snakes pain canadians tin cans aids japanese real spanish people whove fled sad snakes tried laugh panty jokes china wanted included chimed big continent theyre famous portugal full pilot seagulls guatemalans love eat guacamole watching mulan guate movie is russians tight schedule must rush rush fast thailand land kinks india jojo fan decided live fantasy land female version dio australia decided better us left without trail hence theyre upside down argentina really worshipping site pirate gen z named tina founders belgium love spongebob favorite character plankton hide fact ring bell time chum brazil kink country sick people person named italy bad accents tried say leach people mistook name country afganistan stans afros want bring back again dennis marked territory directly denmark bangladesh food kink tell need more im way tired awake rn,0 +know top post already wanted write hopefully get chest life seems completely meaningless like nothing live for surrounded people people fucking everywhere lots friends possibilities something endless seem meaningless know live for cannot make progress entertainment seems pointless know live for feeling meaningless know intrinsic meaning found there know triggered boredom loneliness two days ago family whole day speak anyone yesterday today feel like long all able entertain how life seems meaningless,1 +coach hillfuck you racist piece shit got ive become depressed contemplating death wish would suffer hope get heart attack fat fuck seriously want die fat ass makes feel like minority sucks fuck hate different hate god giving dumb fucking body fuck quit,1 +whats annoying spam messages calls need pick friend im giving minutes ish spam interrup listening music,0 +mean keep telling itll good year ill fine week im going beand dissapoint something happen want something good come life everything good leaving everything bad coming fast life nothing downward spiral,1 +ufroggo appreciation post pog guy,0 +birthday guess im now mean nothing really changed kinds cool years ago life starded even remember lol,0 +bruh big brain yall know oxford university older aztec empire by years,0 +need fucking meds pleaseive meds week abruptly sertralinezoloft doctor fucking sucks didnt let refill pharmacys responding genuinely want kill ive never felt fucking horrible idk actually get medication father offered go driving considered crashing fucking car im back mothers house fucking hates dont know fuck anymore havent able stop crying minutes time cant fucking fucking cant need access meds im going fucking die,1 +responds texts late night texted girl like around pm yesterday responded two hours later respond replies hour that ask question around pm responds happening now text late afternoon responds could possibly mean anything,0 +guess preface saying talking work damned stubborn baseless negative thoughts want burden mom telling anything get therapist way guess ill list mistakes led here well school well enough go good college good college good job shame rest life older sister flourishes fear going end like deadbeat dad id rather die leech others like does good person downer anything useful offer anyone entirely replaceable grandma died days ago grandpa probably far behind probably thing slightly control though spend much time thembut suppose cannot complain many people suffered much worse still loved life useless coward giving up hydrocodone overdose looking really tempting right now ill tell stupid little story try properly plan death time,1 +homemade gununderage bm expensive risky sick bs might well make something worthwhile last thing idk even im posting im gonna make it already started might well say bye,1 +stop meplease someone stop me want die autoimmune sjogrens syndrome active long im years old dlco pulmonary function test normal feel breathless everyday talking people reading outloud walking leaves breathless probably scarring interstitial lung disease sjogrens recentlt found pulmonary function test took years ago revealed moderately decreased dlco asshole doctor said nothing wrong asthmaif ask pulmonologist asthma doesnt cause decrease dlco may even increase dlco know scarring reversible want die never life working for classes left graduate uni degree biology degree job energy either anymore im breathless fatigued yearning swift death remedy knew way improve state least percent at would willing fight life everywhere look western medicine says im doomed decline im burden society becoming even burden alive insurance one year stuck nothing pay meds nothing pay procedures need do dont money dont energy dont hope end painless possible i hate feeling pain dont expect people actually answer one thats im thinking right now,1 +one best movies could find child lived chipmunk adventure years old years old story film was daves going business trip europe sticks boys miss miller playing around world days video game two villains klaus claudia brother sister round chipmunks chipettes adventure kids must hotairballoon way across globe theyre unaware game really diamondsmuggling ring found airport villains chase ensues ends klaus claudia jail alvin simon theodore brittany jeanette eleanor safe dave miss miller warning now musical quite damn good one that people hate musicals one people frigging love musicals like rocky horror grease sound music cats dance anything except fair lady see this share kids if got any,0 +disappointment many people life shit shit always be eventually depression win forever tired pain time living hate filled world every second every day want cry one safe turn matter,1 +want die feel like right suicidal theres nothing wrong lifei want die feel guilty it theres nothing wrong life feel like im ungrateful im suffering much mental illness im anxious depressed nothing life wrong feel like right upset maybe im little btch cant deal slightest inconvenience cant control feel everything feels wrong im overwhelmed cant this much want everything stop want here theres point life im horrible human wish could give years life someone deserves it many wonderful people die young get years sit around pool self inflicted suffering many people much worse mange stay optimistic cant handle life privileged little middle class white girl living area identity lesbian problem want cant even im much coward use knife wish gun thatd make easy,1 +dont want anymore dont even want type shit anymore want forget it want forget time first crush want forgets forget her normally would say ever problem dont want anymore no better stayed random strangers even tho wouldnt possible,0 +hello tried every avenue even know writing right expecting come truly ran advice people talk too wish talk people close matter want worry want think dramatic attention case know clear answer one seek want know painless easiest way committing act suicide could day giving reasons want could read reasons day long appreciate would trying help want hear it last years life gotten harder day day week week month month want end lot demons trying deal years now winning time ever feel true peace asleep fit society all want know advice theoretically quickest easiest way suicide would be without involving anybody else like want someone find body want disappear forever without causing trauma anybody might find state way think possible drowning hoping ocean takes good appreciate touchy subject probably even get advice put writing sake truly accept thoughts mind idkk,1 +research promise femboys even exist whole life lie selfaware shitpost created lack actual creativity come idea _actual_ post may provide social interaction make brain release dopaminserotonin bloodstream hotel,0 +depressed long time now starting feel like everything real motivation stuff completly gone nowit starting feel like everything done life worthless knownif happy going lifehow guys handle feeling utterly useless depressed life reaching breaking point me slowly feeling done life handling life falling apart,1 +theyre better placea common saying people say comfort people lost someone idk think interesting society antiredflag try hardest view someones passing something positive like shit theyre better place let join,1 +school transim trans mtf currently present femaleyet everyone comments boyish look masculine am voice sucks face sucks body fucking useless piling much,1 +anyone needs reasons live would miss you worth alive get better believe eventually get better theres much would miss doing worth dont let anyone even tell otherwise god made reason purpose always reason like may know right now theres always reason live many people care you amazing dont even know love you dont even know care you plenty people love you plenty people care you god loves you god cares you sometimes really tough make stronger person things youve always wanted do things youve planned never got around doing cant dead want alive people care you even know it wont able listen music die youll never able listen favorite song die youll never able listen favorite singer die youll never able listen favorite rapper die listening really loud music killing never worth it youll hit people care you many people would miss including me youre preventing future generation kids even born gorgeous someone loves you think family would feel would improve life die proving people wrong success watching jerks doubted fail life youll never feeling 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nights candy popcorn daydreaming happy moments halloween sleepovers parties good personality making people happy bonfires sitting rooftops going vacation hearing crazy stories telling crazy stories treehouses starbucks if like it youve changed someones live end life youre stopping achieving great things everyone talent including you eating crazy food hanging friends nobody ever replace you much live for dreams need fulfilling do living life fullest heck bet would miss like crazy family friends would devastated died someone constantly praying meet someone like you future kids never come existence die right now could save someones life beautiful disappear bigger problems never alone struggle tomorrow another day please see it worth think but final important one is just able experience life even life seem great right now anything could happen resources argentina australia austria children young people belgium bosnia amp herzegovina botswana brazil cvv national association canada montreal 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family arrived after id saved probably made life shittier,1 +apartment fire not also bad apartments fire alarm went im locked room degrees wait minutes firemen show to wrong building realize door bedroom somehow locked key inside leasing office opens hours im stuck couch also fire,0 +feet two exact,0 +idea waking every day sickeningi end staying crack dawn almost every night cant stand idea waking up im work cant bring almost anything rot bed prefer sleeping day away want feelings go away,1 +gonna make lemon bars today happy,0 +totally rickroll ,0 +thankful small college town abingdon va near bristol tn home famous barter theatre gregory peck acted managed get art film festival togather show film there abingdon two hour hours live trip worth every sense word uzakdistant amazing brilliant jarring emotional captivating film turkishamerican film testimony life turkey like larger scale tells world like turkish whether one lives istanbul berlin montreal new york omaha may two hours length opposed five minutes effectively bob marley song many wonderful scenes film difficult choose random few but me one telling scene takes place beyoglu downtown istanbul cinema title character played mehmet emin toprak sadly died car accident shortly films completion follows attractive young woman staircase cinemas main auditorium goes see vanilla sky image tom cruise reflected glass sense turkish men competing tom cruise womens affections even though tom cruise nowhere found beyoglu scenes shot across bosphorous shores also quite revealing symbolize beauty yet desperate empty gulfs painful fact life turkey film gulf separates lovers families simple empty packet samsun turkish brand cigarettes dying mouse jump screen way seagulls serif gorenyilmaz guney film yol many guneys films including yol suru herd completed zeki okten babathe father considered many best turkish films ever made without guneys sometimes overblown socialpolitical anger especially last film prison drama duvarthe wall distance captures essence turkish life quite remarkably crowning achievement director view already proclaimed turkish equivalent directors like tarkovsky bresson ozu cant wait see films,0 +wants u nudes sex leaves u read u say cus thats u,0 +fuck sake someone else doesnt like happen different race different religion different sexuality different gender etc etc doesnt mean racist sexist homophobic etc dont like you pretty rare might add takes lot genuinely dislike,0 +gays cant math bisexual math least favorite subject failing going fail semester yayyyy colleg fun,0 +im super bored seeing reddit dm feature sucks literally dm discordany social media account name ill add chat fir not thats fine aswell good day,0 +reddit femboy hey you tee hee uwu held hands public owo femboy work femboy hooters come home work kiss xd watch grace text guys grindr rawr,0 +know one going read anywhere else writenovember month end finally moms birthday celebrate spend final time her want tell much love try best say without explicitly saying it fault always good mom would wanted way best mom son could ever ask fori always liked november transition fall winter air cool nice favorite time year right everyone goes christmas frenzy everything decorated red green frank sinatra blasted radiosome people meant take lives wish taboo wish seen selfish hurts keep living maybe drive florida see ocean one time then forever seen seen ocean miss lot would go every summer kids crammed old blue minivan best timeshopefully hurt maybe deserve it nice yeah november,1 +cant fucking another second thisive wanted kill fucking long tried several times thought getting better lmao wasnt im bad ever hate everything life fucking going anywhere seem make mistake mistake fucking rant everyone else lmao fuck dude guess shitty lives huh feel terrible im going friends care honestly im point really barrier anymore last straw finally happened too thats awesome im trans ftm two years still dysphoric mind nothing changed much thats even worst though lol weeks ago drinking friends house got blackout drunk really bad night im pretty sure someone fucked lmao definitely condom anything even though took plan b think fucking worst thing couldve happened happened theres symptoms it everything sore gross morning after bruises over theres scattered memories someone sex me know consent even did even sober enough stand definitely state to got sexually assaulted sex traumatic reminder super dysphoria inducing avoid costs done right mind ive nonstop anxiety attacks last week even period year plus ahahahah apparently im unluckiest fucker alive thats fucking kill myself everything goes wrong im sick im sick forcing get motions top it cant even think put name literally retch dysphoria another panic attack skipped school go cry car today cant fucking man even thinking whats happening right makes want go grab knife get one dads guns hell theres plenty lakes around too hard lol ive wanted excuse long ive known redflag cant take care im state requires parent consent it tell one theyll fucking mad might let get rid theyll literally ruin life afterwards tell them know fuck happened remember consenting it plus physically able this ive got bmi get periods literally testosterone fucking years way apparently was im fucking miserable sex even decision im one stuck consequences thats all cant it life nonstop traumatic events ive got hella mental illnesses want fucking deal anymore care enough future give damn recovery im sorry friends sister know fucking break hearts cant fucking go anything else end here,1 +byetoday slit throat cut arms open grab dads shotgun blow fucking brains out goodbye fuckrags,1 +may messed chance crush know girl three years now good person always good friend liked year now best friend dating time long lasting relationship broke october met pandemic met last days august wanted meet somewhere tell feel told relationship someone else half year talk made big mistake it regret choice 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hide depression plz hide pretend everythings okay,1 +continuelast paragraph questions boiling mind parts little background am read it ill warn now kind place start off want say even living years hard life pretty comfortable life far family friends always supported me never tried put down nothing support life yet felt lost empty almost hopeless near years now male diagnosed aspergers back then really understand meant mean knew slightly different fellow peers especially would able make small talk keep eye contact general social awareness made progress social aspects longer try avoid looking someones face talk able least make small talk introversion still level would almost make hermit necessarily feel introversion curse anymore years explore understand thoughts emotions led painfully introspective state go weeks without talk another person feel least bit lonely used beat up thought weird could go without human interaction prolonged periods mainly due caring others thought it necessarily problem anymore problem arises look life see nothing world worth going struggle living family primarily dad friends see studying obscure subjects that ever reason catches interest assume passion them thats problem necessarily passion subjects would call unhealthy obsession became anorexic years became obsessed body looked pounds lost pounds span year researched read bodybuilding dieting affected body feet tall little low especially since bodyfat measurement body pod read fine still aware look know perfectly body reacts certain foods caloric intakes workouts family friends also see extremely intelligent pisses saying intense discipline again obsession feel smart feel rather stupid time seem found meaning passion life allows deal constant stress struggle living see it everything feels seems illusion me work survive find outlets tv games drugs etc take us away life seems everyone trying escape life one way another least people would love view world eyes would love find something could distract blaring fact everything ultimately pointless struggling live hit grave want find something would give reason continue on year goes by find resolve crumbling dad tried guilt taking easy way high school saying would destroy him even said knows playing guilt card many says people commit redflag selfish believe try keep people constant inner turmoil selfish could go left lot want write novel want know light end tunnel journey even worth taking find reason living convince view something meaningful convince pushing life everything ultimately meaningless almost feels like purposefully become insane believe fact work do emotions struggle go through worth end want state know one chosen finding meaning life mean special anyway want find reason method ignore looming despair,1 +severe redflagpossible depression years now cannot anything feel like lost ability human ill try anything see helps point so cbd guys tried it go store buy need go doctor prescription thanks cbd products info,1 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towards death death dream wanted police officer wanted drummer clear dream since die never held girls hand scored act started college graduated gpa three facts sources pride confidence nothing numbers life nothing numbers people memories stories experiences not cook sing draw dance feel best drunk feel good high sometimes reading makes happy rare remember brother showing porn kid molested several times never told anyone this remember time redflag alien me thought theres reason kill yourself theres chance things improve die over now redflag me leave everything else alien now one reason killed already previous moments weakness knowledge would parents would destroy them greatest love life alone reason live unfortunate nothing unfortunate redflag painless,1 +get know hello name sergio years old adhd also born months early survived months hospital that worry that anyways im gamer plays much smash brothers friends,0 +say therapist found outso therapist survey thought know answers honest one 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anymore want end im scared die efforts successful go absolute waste destined fail matter good grades matter hard ive tried reason is end life hand one day,1 +almost expelled school today inch switchblade class math class today minding business pencil tip broke sharpener arent allowed use ones school used house key break away wood around graphite class got went la nbd right then nowhere three police officers dean surrounding telling follow them extreme social anxiety scary fuck anyway marched deans office told take sweatshirt empty pockets one officers bag search dean starts yelling asking knife standing confused hell try clear everything eventually explaining used key inch switchblade makes angry tells keep lying expelled stick story get friend come relay story witness turns girl melanie thought would funny lie massive switchblade fucktarded reason suspended days it im glad didnt find underfolding akm hidden compartment bag,0 +wrote notei might leave phone somewhere dont get tracked 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nineteen go college truly wonderful girlfriend world outside her though one full darkness dread loneliness fabric life slowly splitting seams started fourteen group friends entire life extremely close to started high school however started drift this absolutely atrocious excuse making new friends caused somewhat lonely early high school years started cut home things much worse mother recently married man dated years little know however extremely abusive though never hitting me witnessed beating mother younger brother several times becoming estranged mother rationalized behavior moved father fifteen things started get little better made good friends friends heavily drug movement followed happily along it also met girl became first girlfriend lost virginity to new friends caused start horribly school constantly skipping school go smoke weed nothing things ended turning sour girlfriend group essentially disowned me life started get dramatically better old friends began become close two years lived normally high school student girlfriends group friends really well school then rumor killed it rumor spread best friends girlfriend i saying cheating me true know originated not however stop best friend dissociating me slowly lost friends until days ago one friend thought would always there decided longer associate me loved friends myself would taken bullet one them see differently coupled father slowly making home life unlivable well college anymore know go here redflag seems like better option every day though currently considering it attempted twice one time resulting week long stay hospital feel like attempt inevitable though girlfriend nobody else help quell feelings tldr lost roughly half dozen extremely close years friendship friends well disowned mother horribly neglected father causing badly college do,1 +election chinese mob movie triads case every two years election held decide new leader first seems toss big tony leung ka fai know him the tony leung lok simon 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prevention thing online kind lame think particularly appropriate situation need somebody tell kill myself im entirely sure need ever feel stressed like crisis people barely even notice want something attract attention know people look type behaviour lot kind want harm nonfatal significant way communicate people okay am words adequate feel bad wanting know else,1 +brokefor past years felt like completely lonely nobody else thought like liked things liked felt like everyone around people tried fit tried completely changing personality still felt lonely isolation got yesterday reached point couldnt take anymore soul poured body hard put way im feeling words felt hopeless felt like voice head wanted live completely gone,1 +tried suffocate pillow hours agowell heard could die suffocation pillow decided try pillow kills parents think died sleep failed decided today wasnt day kill myself ,1 +ballsack sweat _________________________________________________________________________________________________,0 +know anymore really not like things gotten worse anything suffering like always close breaking point cannot take anymore everyday wish could die tried slitting wrists it failed jumping also failed much coward it parents know slit wrists angry it suppose know react asked bring mental hospitalpsych ward shouted told serious nothing wrong me get wrong parents trying help really know much longer wait dad told leave things focus studiesnormal everyday stuff firstly busy work secondly know much longer take sit wait need die parents understand cannot function like normal human cannot everytime someone talks asks question takes long process end stuttering know say call suicide hotline know do would like bring mental hospitalpsych ward know know explain parents someone pls help thanksps parents really nice saying way helping making worsenot anything say suicide hotline,1 +acti cant remember last time talked person myself feel anything anyone anymore cant remember like happy feel utterly sad time like years now feel like cant anymore hate myself hate every person know hate school hate city hate everything pain escape long help much anymore want end fear might go finally muster strenght end life cant good nights sleep more spent night aimlessly walking around hoping somehow could think way keep going everything think hate everything pretty much pray help ive never told anyone really feel before ive hid scars dont know anymore,1 +enjoy thisi wish everybody understood much hate alive since remember maybe yrs old ive fantasized death prayed it begged god take out overdosed tried co poison times attempt years wish people knew im me im alive enjoy it dont fair lifes fair know fuck life man forreal torture wish knew,1 +tonightno shitty life bad circumstances no im lazy incompetent unsuccessful nothings happened beyond normal im done living want anymore ive downward spiral since im now shit together im well way ish gpa semester im smart know im going get there im happy ever really been even care make difference peoples lives care people love me know do give shit im sure ive ever really loved anyone ive cutting since dont remember started except this feeling inside exact feeling now milder dont know came idea cut cant remember ever heard before ive thinking redflag since began considering months later planning past months plan im writing note right now tonight though im ready go care abilities dont care family see death background every part life waiting welcome home encourage me also fuck say words please kill yourself says understand anything read please save me wanted show people reasons redflag always solvable nothing life fixed thats broken belong here so farewell,1 +theres cranefly room someone come get me im scared ,0 +posting song everyday not day everything need quinn xcii months thats cool daily songs playlist 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jobless since working temp job ended trying find something new now hate unemployed along pretty rocky relationship mum its house getting shitty takes stress im unemployed treats like im even fucking human first ever boyfriend ended relationship month ago together two years one when good perfect bad horrific relationships controlling asshole return honestly think fucked up first week happy rid every day gets harder harder apparently great got new girl already nearly hurt badly first heard that every day gets harder gets worse night emotional support friends actually close close friends used go ex support support network feel like nothing try talking friends really help even though try feel better chatting im feeling ive stopped bothering tried talking ex beginning december dismissed attempts cries help nongenuine im sorry hear that sounds bad going brag amazing doing im loser im attractive smart intelligent want end dead end job dead end job constantly praying true happiness thats see ive ever seen myself rest shit atm pieces pushing edge fantasize jumping bridge unhealthy amount thats way id able it methods would pussy of know jumping would kill injure me cant believe even think something like that hard because im sure alot people relate this everyone life look happy im bubbly loud girl always jokes everything i always joke dying death killing habit point dark humour sue me one takes seriously know unless ive tried talk one would suspect thoughts know im looking posting this guess want meaningful conversation someone relates also wants someone talk to,1 +permit right got pulled first time today months driving driving dads suv weird ass steering wheel looked like swerving lanes officer flashes lights behind im signaled pull right so nervousness gets hit god damn curb add this sister back legally cannot drive officer cool hell looks permit says youre fine lets go think ill stick driving camry,0 +ralph bakshis forgotten masterpiece fire ice old oop rental videotapebr 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burt may still like this love burt may become one favorite movies time atlanta hit home also nice see copactiondrama takes place somewhere ny city chicago miami la film funny points good plot good performances great supporting cast every character real bad guys one sided really well thought outa nice offbeat romance nd half good old fashion shootouts fistfights no cgi thank god real actionbr br if clint eastwood best impression burt reynolds movie every way loose any way can burt responded best clint type flick this comes great,0 +miss warm summer evenings child would sit listen crickets lifetime endless possibilities stretched me miss comfort family knew deeply toxicity substance abuse plagued them miss days loved angry id grown be miss hope quickly snuffed young teen miss feeling whole burnout find joy peace simply drift want kill myself wonder ever would find peace side become reincarnated live another pointless existence guess none matters anyways lifes bitch die miss not least know broken,1 +ya know probably would really good woman personality feminine basically problem acne,0 +well im sure definitely want anymore ive work months trying change career hate used do thought go back money terrifying every single person ive made plans even grab coffee ditched me last straw buddy said hed go fishing me got early dug worms got shit together ditch min before cat needs surgery called fho cant afford it tried fundraising nothing kid asshole understand why makes fun me ever wants money make food seem clean cook thanks appreciation anything do fuck everything laugh make fun me like ask empty fucking trash bathroom cause obviously overflowing one ever does so threw trashcan get bitched it nothing good enough make fun say certain words like adhesive fucking let it friends cant drive cause never taught money nothing im fucking useless lump everytime ask help im let down told im grumpy stop grumpy like wtf man im fucking tired it even get mad stand ground everyone ends pissy nothin g gets solved always turned around me stopped cleaning nothing plus hate living pig pen taken away dishes ffs enough dishware ppl live still get bitched at im absolutely done ive it know whether scream scream die fucking run time dying seems pretty awesome figure everything themselves im done spend day staring fucking wall now sometimes theres tears,1 +hey im looking meet new people hey im bored wanna chat new people dm read bio info im watching movie ill get back u p,0 +want feel happy lifei know say life feels like crap rarely ever felt happiness life lasts seconds today got worse got crash feeling know anymore really want feel something sadness,1 +hello everyone first time posting love movie child mine could watch over well taped long time ago like years ago dropped broke seen years could one please tell come again would really appreciate alotyou email want cause favorite movie including empty cradle anyone knows comes please let knowi would really appreciate alotbr br 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dream meet special someone makes true even fantastic believe could would happen confident enough strike conversation person noticed somewhere random puts icing film magnificent backdrop vienna film takes place adds feeling romantic nirvana film suggests matter many times watch film think ever tire that,0 +record suicidal never been going tell something true story might make think another wayfor background moms friend call susan speaks russian english works translation hospitals youssusan client call sandra living russia sandras son living america told come live there first declined saying russia friends job were while agreed sandra lived here fell deep depression fit in like job would spend lot time watching tv sandra starts feeling suicidal caring life always saying wants die becomes isolated smoking occupying time herself smoking lot while visits friends russia tell sandra worried cough sandra brushes little sideeffect smoking returning yous sandras son expresses concern says thing decide take doctor inoperable incurable stage lung cancerinstantly whole attitude changesthe amount time spent hating life caring regrets it realizes important is has months left live appreciates much moremy point this know going through know feel know push past pain try maybe try hard try hard appreciate life enjoy life regret hating life feeling like matter like sandra did like her come regret iti hope reaches you guides better place advice,1 +im dumb ugly sick normal lifei deserve eternal suffering without end,1 +thoughts starting come backhey reddit sorry wall text recently past weeks so thought redflag become far stronger ive ever felt before im scared end it dramatic sounds ive come close before written notes driven bridge follow through time though thoughts strong im scared tell anyone want worry me ive emotionally physically abusive relationships since trapped them everyone went shrugged told stop wimp best friend believed guys lies truths lost loads friends lies ex told feel lovely currently wonderful guy totally understanding told far lives one exs though makes hard forget did told boyfriend full extent though blame still friends guy dad left since run house mother done much meand want sound ungrateful that puts much pressure me billsupkeeplegal stuff works two jobs keep us afloat though dad pretty much interest life brothers two brothers aspergers im pretty much responsible lives turn out find jobs find college whatever them suffered paranoia past believing people going kill me finally told mum it shrugged off theres many situations like that especially relationships past ignored told want hear it feel like give family much see people time myself provide them work two jobs college lot cope with even see tired think ask more theres things see way out ive told makes feel cant cope care thought ending becoming great really cant see way anymore since ive telling cant keep dad house care know fix this please help something stupid need find way this thank reading this,1 +think tried hang myselfi know happen ive depressed anxious stressed months now today particular ive extremely down way worse today anyway know it like acting impulse think all happening stopping it nowhere grabbed phone charger one super long ft phone cables tied shitty noose went closet looped end around weights top shelf tied it put noose end lowered relaxed choking decided want anymore tried stand couldnt heart beating fast legs shaky finally got grip stood took noose off walked closet like nothing happened,1 +it title says all suicide note anything coz matter one cares cared would day anyway wish best ur life painless easiest way out,1 +bad nightim really hard really bad night dont know do reached several people one got back me dont know sub works mobile someone talk awhile,1 +you honest im fixing go work again im getting ready leave tell doing uwu,0 +helping brotherim total loss moment brother lives side country called night say good bye said plan said would call tomorrow said answer panicked called police ended breaking door taking hospital hes recently abusing many substances high time phone callthe police intervention called say id abused trust would never speak again also threatened soon gets hospital go plan wrong call police hospital keen feel unsafe family next flight im worried something silly that,1 +thinking getting withnothing ever seems truly improve cant even indulge hobbies id like im fucking failure want die hurt anymore im lonely im empty motivation gone even tried call national redflag hotline woman answered condescending right away whats fucking point im alive want be im alive others make feel guilty wanting die,1 +today th birthday longer confines flair,0 +like women like like coffee thick hot scratch hate put oreo crumbs coffee thick weird think burnt mom please come help ill deal consequences failures day,0 +tonight gonna end hopeim honestly done wanna wake tried hanging last night failed ill try tonight maybe ill finally get good nights sleep,1 +know lied want worry youit matter soon love,1 +frick get brain give motivation im middle making cool thing lost motivation halfway thru want back,0 + moment friend sent message group chat saying kinda annoying twitter theyre unfollowing me wouldve fine since never wouldve seen message except d me theyre one best friends felt place,0 +care people im deadis whole life ive endured would feel pointless living doesnt give life value either,1 +pretty decent example film noir setting early s communists trying steal weapon secrets us governmentbr br richard widmark suave pickpocket without scruples gives pretty decent performance nothing alist him interesting thing antihero film unlikeable antihero normal jean peters gave soso performance hooker heart gold great character actress thelma ritter shines stoolpigeonbr br the plot fair share twists turns wisecracks tough talk fight scene near end movie in subway station pretty gritty excitingbr br i think noir fans like myself enjoy film nonnoir viewers may seem little dated whole commie thing tad overdone,0 +going happen soonmarried employed homeowner still want kill msyelf think much takke seriously im drinking heavily wifes work home alone feels fake me,1 +dont want become adultim currently struggling suicidal thoughts almost two years now know wont able deal responsibilities adult world scares me im scared everyone everything feeling happy im awake sleeping thats try either work exhaustion drawing entire day piece piece sleeping hours even im tired dont worry anything exist thats planned way turning faking sleep problems get sleeping pills take enough wake back up know ramble need somewhere get chest therapist holiday dont want tell mom worry her,1 +subreddit yalls maymay know existive seeing lot teens lately absolutely fine teen too quite frequently however ive noticed years even though everyone super great supportive helpful sometimes need people age relate everyday issues adolescents exception so want link rteenageredflagwatch thats okay yalls sorry already done ,1 +want die meant liveit make sense im alive want alive anymore seems like everyone okay it ive never close family all seen since january multiple members family passed away recently find facebook posts mother asked money whole life parents yelling asking money forcing inhale second hand smoke drink money food away college constantly struggle feed myself pay insane bills work go school deal faculty university constantly rude friends anymore either moved away decided depression makes useless them called best friend told goodbye good mad negative ive professionals year summer none helped made things worse one even try told everything going through said nothing almost minutes asked pick issue weighing most couldnt decided end session even know im posting this experience well meaning people internet pretty much saying sorry saying generic line telling one specific thing yelling tell possible mei already tried get yelled at even told kill multiple times morning hate hearing it gets better people treat phrase like magic spell thats supposed instantly make feel better said maybe im posting goodbye cant even bring talk everything seethe point ive heard gets better time heals much long believe that tried every long day sleepless night make things better second ever talk issues often get told im weak im trying im negative want happy childhood mistakes parents made depression cutting scars everything make others happy high school life got worse kept it whenever people want entertain energy im issue im better dead want anything life anymore want keep surviving think time,1 +think tried kill nighti really bad night went drive clear mind like usually kept speeding really fast closing eyes couple seconds would come back senses idk happened like times felt right ya know wanted tell someone ig,1 +posting picture guy dipping pizza milk day never day httpspbstwimgcommediaciwxcuaeimqjpghttpspbstwimgcommediaciwxcuaeimqjpg,0 +redflag live streamyeah announced social media might try live stream next redflag attempt big fight people think suicidal thoughts real much coward really commit redflag so many reasons reasons paranoid schizophrenia childhood trauma loneliness sexual abuse assault child abuse hopelessness stupidityampimpatience,1 +posting reasons english language broken stop feeling depressed day cough tough though dont rhyme pony bologna,0 +ok hear out lets invent time travel go back time ancient greece convince greeks gods nekos famous depictions statues greek gods cat ears sound,0 +cali ufo am called ufo am shocked called it voice said im scared maybe ill die soon,0 +happening againthis something posted years ago i know start perhaps years ago feel someone tried deny convince feelings girl past ran away rejection heavily impacted me know go part life dealt disconnecting people connected best method allowed go years ago cannot run away time sister married older brother even wedding day groomsman bridesmaids theyre even first child soon everything felt like pain felt past lead defining turning point reassured truly felt years ago lingering feelings trying find companionship settling beyond that changed me felt motivated life change become better man her unsuccessful finding job career path thought studied become real estate agent work hard hopefully build courage confess her one day started going gym frustrated inability best could times wanted change wanted better person her found out started seeing someone someone work serious seems like gentle wonderful person calm easy that someone loves ever since found out smallest things tells makes break heavily family hints sure exactly refuse talk ive started insomnia ive even started hallucinating peoples voices become white noise see her ive become traumatised even stopped looking job know soon causing hope someone runs red light causes car accident death looks accidental die alcohol poisoning even asked god kill me first going move overseas him thought happens would drug die sleep overdose excited wanting move him even said soul mate ive even consoled felt betrayed matters even told stay him honestly loves him love her want happy recently heard analogy redflag like burning building ive wanted jump long time thought id run burning building hoping ill make through thought could try go rest life knowing capable feelings another ever again thought could it but cant could id make everyone forget ever existed cause pain die even prayed god im religious anything hope exist listened would take pain suffered sadness may suffer life im soon become uncle think see little niece nephew grow up want happy want grow more loved fulfill dreams married kids shes grand children always beautiful smile infectious laugh deep eyes cheeks red shes embarrassed soon ever see ever again even write this ive broken three times know cannot go on im ready im scared death itll quick scared of life life without her years gone yet broke person still going go really love her ive trying make peace myself part me says truly love her let go america ok know know leaves shell never return write this incase really last words always love you forever always r love ecks,1 +know feelcan someone please message rant life,1 +draw today pt draw school scetchbook uh,0 +regular people day got grounded not wearing helmet went bike im allowed use tv im supposed use phone im gonna ride bike without music wtf people expect do,0 +literally anything else gtgtgt anal masturbation people act like good doesnt work smh hurts,0 +wanna skinny year old white boy rn ones wear nike elite sets shorts socks tshirts backpacks theyre hot,0 +question guys fit dick toilet paper roll while hard,0 +im gonna film cumming sound highest award gets video legal reasons joke,0 +person feel bad foris father lives alone sisters talk him cant keep going im mentally emotionally physically destroyed loneliness guilt regret sometimes selfish happy happy least pain cease,1 +really must beyond hope somethingim sorry second post ill made three days im sure taking hint last time aroundhttpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsdioweit_doesnt_seem_like_anything_is_going_to_work im worth advice im truly beyond repair maybe end feeling depressed enough post wrong times day feel somewhat desperate though ive posted again ive spinning control even normal since car got stolen friday afternoon even ive hopeless helpless father others every often get frustrated conclude i understand must want enough get better even knowing need earn money particularly im ever going replace important possessions needed start pulling financial weight regardless enough shake constant depressive paralysis cant it ran problems wrong times life even right ill never able recover enough rate life worth living find existence sadly impractical,1 +least painful instant way goi access guns hanging bridges,1 +fuck dude took two aps year psych world want go college either forensic psych emergency medicine ap psych huge desire me got them tried hard too went back person state allowed it twice week starting may studied made sit get shit done still failed lot going guess preoccupied mind really expected myself straight student varsity co captain club president part time vet assistant really fucking disappointed myself depression low recently fathers illnesses relatives trying literally sell house without permission anything going make much worse prozac too cannot go back doctors ask increase switch antidepressants copay would add cannot really afford visits right now prozac literal jack shit never felt low myself going act anything really horrible thoughts genuinely know ill ever get headanyways thanks listening rant good night failed ap exams,1 +f stuck situation decade want happy mind allow feel anything sadness hopelessness countless therapists psychiatrists nothing done helped tired feeling like this constant pain chronic illness pushed everyone love away going go ahead end it tried many times past secured enough pills make sure correctly time could jump front train hang myself inconvenient shocking others way ill bed somebody finds me reading this thank listening tried,1 +so gave meim extremely extremely down lot things turn wanted it im feeling new sense loneliness nothing run find escape lost sense self people used care stopped caring same like im liability friend family help one mostly absent always trying give hope ideal future one always finds way bring annoy ignorance negativity im feeling suicidal huge faith commit redflag really frustrating im campus anymore transferred schools saw cousin really felt me etc theres lot shutting history weak weak tired ive miserable long boyfriend makes little better hes super patient emotions want way all,1 +need friend fucking bad sometimes ppl come ask alright say yeah im alrightbut really say im fine mean live fear to scared go girls class introduce most boys awful friends live honestly people dont like and understand mean wouldnt wanna friends weird kid back wich speaks every always wears dark hoodies people think need space dont makes burn inside even leave alone hurts people ones want friends people find perfect bullying make fun whenever annoying bc cares make jokes couldnt care less people dont know exist live world dont see dont give fuck people neither bc happy like unserious classic people would tell happy know yall gonna say in comments ask friends way scared mean know get rid socially awkward anxious cant maybe ill link post send doubt theyll read anyway mean probably people sub wont even would doubt change,0 +wise philosopher stated life like party parties meant last,0 +holy shit honkeymommymilkers must rich awards goddamn,0 +ive trying get help years nothing changesnhs waiting lists endless assessments triggering unsupportive family ex told stop weak snd making excuses know much longer keep limping hoping want end think irrational unreasonable ive tried tried yet feel like pull inevitability like control happen if,1 +google quavo nd picture right blows mind smh picture better fake altered im speechless right now,0 +im commit redflagim tired bullied everybody thinks deserve it nobody cares me left house years life ruined wish could wake nightmare,1 +im complete failurethis probably wrong place hate cant find much like im mid s never even much kissed girl im ugly redeemable qualities license bum rides everything im even shy used even tho ive trying get better party go stuff time live parent im jobless ive lost ever job ive due factors outside control able find new job almost year im stuck taking advantage dad lately ive thoughts redflag probably reason lack opportunity cant call help line option insurance money know point know need help also cant really justify probably subconscious attention seeking behavior,1 +get overwhelming feeling always unhappyim college dropping end semester hate major much sick wasting money right look forward working minimum wage retail working spend time outside class still unsure ill able pay rent month never fun college experiences one might expect have ive lost friends except shitty boyfriend abandoned isolated them spending day going class working people emotional strength spend time them im introvert sense find lot social interaction emotionally draining help engineering students bright futures ahead them hardly tolerate listening conversations reminds waste time coming ill probably never amount anything nearly great will cant think single time life truly happy even child usually able function normally long think life every often cant help think life future overcome overwhelming feeling despair want bawl eyes out example right im sitting work trying hold back tears,1 +lovely love story brenda blethyn alfred molina whole story bizarre funny undertaker a molina loves married woman bblethyn try fake death escape husband village scenario strange situations starts good saving grace long live ned devine,0 +going end little boymy boy weeks old going surgery needs general anesthesia dont know survive it know fighter not does god hope does need years therapy training support may never childhood have hes perfect little angel reason needs going this would suffer torture eternity normal life deserves decided going end coward cannot handle this anything family need money cover future expenses taken large life insurance policy couple weeks ago upon learning sons diagnosis reason surgery doesnt go well prepared bag need end life wont spend anymore time alive something go wrong go well kiss mother one last time kill car accident involving car dont know killed intentionally deal thought love wife love boy cant live knowing hardship follow moral support ton around us need money give them life never fully appreciated held son arms since first moment saw wanted nothing world healthy happy taken us family thing help end pain pain death fade time son wont remember face pictures us exist never work day life neither mom ever again focused health happiness,1 +know want die whenive chosen specific bridge want end life ive visiting every days past months standing looking spot body lay peace usually smoke listen music standing hours sometimes dont know ill finally it maybe next week next month maybe even tomorrow idk keep letter bag case decide impulsively one day dont know im waiting tbh wish could grow pair get with,1 +black puts getting laid easy mode white girls rush you black cursed one affect aint mad at,0 +gays just mean offensive gays fucking gay mean stop stop putting dick guys ass stop rubbing clit girls fucking hot gross,0 +ughi cant stop thinking killing myself fucking hate want disappear,1 +unpopular opinion halo good games fun campaigns really engaging gameplay mechanics halo fun guns use really nice maps local multiplayer halo local multiplayer still super fun play great guns interesting enemies,0 +im alone homeless living tent woods eaten days conversation someone weeks sleep hours day due paranoia schizophrenia sleeping woods actually terrifying non stop anxiety feels like im going heart attack im edge time get moment relax breathe without worrying loneliness definitely worst part someone call literal fantasy fighting impossible im ready give up see point continuing see future this,1 +beat upi want get beat up bruised bloody,1 +lion king fun addictive sequel expect production values theatrical release expect highest quality direct video releasebr br it set timon pumba begin watching original lion king darkened theater abruptly switch tracks begin narrating story done frequent comedic interruptions example one particular tense moment home shopping commercial pops chagrined pumba realizes sat remote little moments pepper movie whether find entertaining greatly depend sense humor particularly bothered movies deliberately remind viewer watching movie may cup teabr br animation best theyve invested disney dtv line integrated almost seamlessly original material newer independent material uses lot artistic style original voice talents well performed though help thinking marge simpson every time heard julie kavnerbr br many jokes movie well recognized viewers recycled generations presented familiarity comfortable quirks old friends annoyingly repetitivebr br the music made realize much enjoyed miss good musical integrated disney feature toetapping opening feature dig tunnel well choreographed hilarious timon pumbas take lion kings opening sequence introduction paradise also amusing problem reprise dig tunnel end movie switching lyrics tune defeatist upliftingbr br story line pretty well done integration new plot elements done almost perfectly though final bit hyena chased stretched storyline credibility little new story seem handle saccharine emotionally charged moments well better resorting full comedy br br overall worth purchasing like bonus features come typical disc set go it penny pincher still willing invest good flick wait drops four dollars go rent right away br br damion crowley,0 +wish bot programmed simple stuff life fucking sucks ,0 +happens get caughtokay headline suggests im kind hitting point desperation dont care want stop mind you im dont health insurance question hypothetically go somewhere try finally end it get caught sent hospital happens refuse cooperate peacefully dont talk all ik theyll still hold whatever like im admitted hospital take meds eat talk stay room etc happen ive pretty much hit point depression social anxiety want theres going back fixing me ill cooperate try kill every time get finally succeed,1 +posting every day end day weekend bois idk else say great friday night everyone,0 +im disasterim sorry whining advance im like small two bedroom run trailer two racist parents hate me im fat get mad cannot stop eating get punched bullied school get sent dick pics every signle fucking social network called gay got job pay home school dsl internet lines break fixed years got enough money pay sattelite internet rush login restart school parents call dumbass tell everything belongs selling stuff right now parents hate me im restart school college ever take me nothing get bullied everyday know else go back beaten black blue everyday let win career options ahead nothing lose feel like im thinking clearly first time life,1 +friend gone didnt even see cominga friend mine took life strong successful beautiful never knew struggling werent best friends but made impact life helped shape am idea struggling ive talked people closer family hid pain everyone begging pleading everyone here everyone reads thisplease talk someone would done anything save her but didnt even know struggling love crystal believe knew that,1 +love drivein cheeze early s love onehow could go wrong low budget film bloodshed lunatic asylum cant crazy folks sharp objects always entertaining combinationbr br the film looks like shot inside someones house ads fun watching type stuffthe gore bit mild compared others ilkbut enough keep us bloodthirsty sickos like myselfhappysome horror films drag parts leave waiting something happenthats case herethe characters entertaining enough make every frame quite enjoyablethere never dull moment start finishthe mind melting climax end unbelievable liked much right end credits watched second timeits absolute must see self respecting drivein horror nutbr br driveinfreakometerrequired viewingbr br yea love youi love younow take thorazine put clothes back onplease,0 +comment ur browsing new rn yes even ur lurking pls comment see,0 +set dateone year today checked calendar itll saturday summer nice beautiful sunset want last thing see im going start writing letters getting affairs order give plenty time things little time without anyone noticing giving away major tells wife well taken care shell free upset sad first relief set shortly thereafter im even sad anymore numb setting date helps know endpoint is wonder sad upset know nothing get better matter making things better everyone else making easier them put normal happy face go business knowing soon none means anything im relieved finally,1 +ive lost interest beingi survived long couple reasons one great network family friends love want see get this know great mind could actually asset someone somewhere im almost done awful stem degree open many doors me excite me see change able walk around feet see things ive never seen able give back owe everything instead thing feel ennui care software used passion gone nothing look forward to cant even bring fake little enthusiasm parents call check me still plan sometimes think miserable average cant keep crying released would nice feel like ill ever happy again want send final message thanking everyone go sleep last time supposed get better isnt im still waiting something happen seems like lead happiness thus far nothing frigid disappointment protect hurt find assuming be need something someone know find it im running energy search it,1 +get credit card teen build credit legit amazing hey ive using step send receive money get use link httpsstepcomrfgffc,0 +moral social view redflaghi guys girls posted something included topic redflag another thread lead someone reaching pm reply turned petty long imagine its partially whats constantly going head ive never actually managed verbalise write ever life slightly edited message make sense get gist it warn though long one thats wbat said way see redflag way see ever ongoing argument abortion dont know views subject im completely abortion individuals right body feel redflag individuals right choose body but ultimately choose life also liken put pets much pain life worth living immobile use legs example pros redflag weight cons we humans make decision put pets sleep lives worth living better choice feel anything kind thing do certainly believe individual right thing make decision humans unfortunately frowned upon society like alot things due population following rest crowd spread right wrong fact development society hell couple hundred years ago society thought right string women thought witches thats whole discussion another time also theres good amount population natural instinct stop someone dying taking life unfortunately deed happening actually done people take notice think actions couldve done something acted better way prevent it least show theres sort good side life ya,1 +pc solid valve fan games run valve games lmao,0 +probably goodbye guessto honest thinking killing self would better everybody around since pretty much think im waste space since im go school get feeling like im person whole school died would less weight parents shoulders could want do anybody even responds respond im dead yet thank reading guess,1 +know this live every day perhaps send good words other team depression sucks,1 +letter uworstestgrammar uworstestgrammar valentine pretty please,0 +miss you miss much dont know read sub anymore like together want know miss much come home soon,0 +year half awayeveryday im tell worth it one day closer ill finally able move out still cant help thoughts feel guilty publishing here feel ashamed complaining life know theres people struggle much me recently getting difficult need advice suicidal thoughts since even knew redflag was remember fourth grade told teacher wanted die end it parents going rough time constantly fighting drinking screaming suffer horrible anxiety cant order food restaurant hate using blowdryer cant even stand listening music loud im horrified loud noises talked to screaming really took tole me long time since fourth grade incident divorce took many years settle gotten worse mom bipolar disorder refuses take medication one second happy instant im worst child ever im selfish im sensitive im lazy pig work try hardest im full time student backtalk drugs fight know else do currently live want desperately move father willing get treatment help hes gotten much better person hes gotten help issues started becoming independent sober says loves cares me yell scream talks need it many things could say accomplishments theyre polar opposites mom cant leave mom nice amazing fits come one second tells much mean her destroys it talks me wants perfect isolates friends approve talk people neo nazi cant mixed friends black friends forget hispanics asians ethnicity bleached hate it love everyone im even biracial relationship ive hide year cultures new things ive learned breathtaking beautiful love races wish could myself controlling might sound stupid much serious anyone believes writing messy unorganized feel useless asked recently help step dad gotten fights it said let scream me thats happened no magic pill going fix you youre selfish know pain is go africa see real pain is i care cry room night youre sensitive just stop anxiety stupid shit talk me talk fix problems all automatically starts screaming hours later swollen eyes face flushed acts like nothing happens makes jokes acts happy okay again cycle want end badly want hurt hurting know im ready leave world know cannot hurt ones truly love hurt bad this tip iceberg theres much one knows about know emotional abuse is want label it summary tell im ugly im fat im useless no one loves fat girl every time eat things ive told multiple times stick cant socialize hard talk people hard love ive treated horribly nightmares wet bed hyperventilate go gatherings im wrecked know do even know right place talk it want stress anyone out apologize ahead time occur hurt,1 +friend attempted redflag last nighthe failed gave up talked said promises try again heard since am seen active online anywhere since know do know say please help,1 +set stoneat pm everyone ignored pm cried help feeling upset one cared am threw im still throwing am im love someone love someone little background girl played fucked emotionally three years dated days cheated couple times left tried better im obsessed every shell come back like wants keep fucking leash im rambling probably making sense im upset love ex fuck ex girl driving insane im love want slit fucking wrists tools fuck alyssa,1 +breakdown gymi working usual started jump rope mile sprint treadmill started working leg day stuff lately theres girl goes gym looks exactly like ex exact body type faces almost indistinguishable tried notice let bother me turned music finishing workout started flashbacks deployment vivid images things flashed brain like one old time movie reals slide different picture pictures buddies killed ied explosions legsarms torn off kids screaming villagers crying marines dying started thinking late nights ex would hold breakdowns shared deepest pains secrets begged information it promised would never leave me gone leave legs collapsed held onto squat rack legs stopped shaking enough grab things headed straight door breathing heavy felt like going vomit threw stuff car got drivers seat gripped steering wheel hard could screamed top lungs felt like minute broke crying im here telling guys miss tell everything going okay tell im good person go home room sleep sleeps someone else hate this,1 +easy way outhome alone tiny apartment easiest way out dont guns sharp knives want done tonight within next hours,1 +part thankful able successfully it first time numb happened fell onto floor hurt knees wrists second time earlier week really upset afterwards called hotline tell isolating due covid want go hospital not sure would even allowedi sleeping part past days maybe telling try survive going do still dealing lot ideation going keep practicing guitar see goes self harm still big issue need sort well survived two hanging attempts month maybe sign,1 +really need someone talk toi dont know anymore dont feel like take,1 +think killing lot think may actually itthe thing keeps it imagine most family especially young son parents think taking seat belt driving ditch taking enough pills kill horse old standby hose tailpipe car problem want place may cause painful memories family pass it honest really surprised useless redflag hotlines are seem give flying fuck conclusion tired around people tired sucking everything do give shit anymore thanks reading,1 +knowim exhausted every sense word im burden everyone life friends talk im feeling except boyfriend bless heart trying much even feel like im bothering people shit want end everything know would hurt boyfriend grandparents brother mom feel guilty punish one way another whether conscious not feel guilty everything feel guilty existing feel guilty wanting exist im stuck,1 +anyone experience type therapy so process like helped struggle regression therapyanyone tried it,1 +among us made among us discord people find others play with link,0 +gary buseys best performance nicelyflowing biography since musical background able songs really works always good see fine actor stroud one crickets charlie martin smith wellbr br an best performance gary busey thankfully mr busey oscarnominated this losing jon voight coming home fairly lowbudget flick disappoint great songs mr holly hope made plenty dough busey never popular varying reasons thankfully one great one resume,0 +welcome bruhland united forever bruhship labour mighty bruhs ever endure great soviet bruh live ages dream people bruhtress secure long live soviet bruherland built peoples bruhty hand long live people united bruh strong bruhship tried bruh long may crimson bruh inspire shining bruh men see days dark stormy great bruh lead us eyes saw bruh sun freedom bruhlin leader bruh people inspired us build land bruh long live soviet bruhland built peoples bruhty hand long live people united bruh strong bruhship tried fire long may bruhson flag inspire shining glory bruh see fought bruh destroyed anti bruhs brought bruhland laurels bruh glory live memory bruhtions generations honour bruh long live soviet bruhland built peoples bruhty hand long live bruh united free bruh friendship tried fire long may bruh crimson flag inspire bruhing bruhry bruh bruh,0 +true story okay know people absolutley terrible human beings times females name feminism orwomen empowerment anyway friend cheated boyfriend multiple times dude dating found actually audacity say apologize walking long story short guy dumped girl came ranting misogonystic pig infringing women rights allowing sleep men sometimes iam actually ashamed female gender anyway thanks coming ted talk,0 +ik literally everyone done this ima anyway nice cock got there bro good day,0 +wifi left meeee feeling blueee im tableeeee making life decisions youuuu,0 +looks like depression wins one yall peace outbyeeeeeee,1 +alone lost confused feeling sad feel purpose life burden wake everyday here want go need help,1 +honestly one asked rn would epic nah ive talked alot people luck lol,0 +im readyi noose roomi spend last weekend mum goes back work monday im going hang myself sick fa one sick told internet cliches try reach help never fucking work im normal person crippled social anxiety depression life isnt worth living me longer live longer lonely hate good enough anybody im excited finally peace,1 +school still closed long time teacher told class whole situation probably school stay closed couple months still said school open provide safe environment students thats case moment options school discussing are split classeswould help lot not whole school break timelogical sence mask mandated classsome people bla bla bla people dont use common sence sadly provide stuff protection corona etci dont think costs according teacher take weeks someone makes decision everything take like months happy online school way better home cheat tests,0 +one give answerfor get better keep repeating like eventually hold meaning even though words completely hollow ive finally stopped asking ive stopped asking lot things regurgitate pain continuously getting harder swallow back down i am done im done reaching people stifle words done trying show people care constantly slip minds done struggles diminished theres always someone worse you how statement help put anything perspective needing grateful worse lot people would okay comfortable thinking people worse me empathize them well done struggling day day even basic human interactions even family ive known whole life done keeping strong facade navigating bullshit done told im cared ultimately always end alone hurt done trying done never progressing fucking done going therapy trying get medications pushed me done mental physical pain constantly done watching people love life patience worn me done so tired done think im going bother write redflag notes words seem hold meaning think want twist want see it finally know method use know it pretty good idea when people claim see coming even though feels like ive waving around giant lit sign screaming anyone fucking notice me im already invisible might well make concrete wish inner peace hope end better me cant live life anymore,1 +deserve die knew would agreehi thanks clicking this never used verbalize frustrations life first clicked assume know depression suicidal ideation depression number psychologic physical factors range severity without possible symptoms suicidal ideation thoughts redflag may may intend act upon thats technical explanations go me believe deserve die irrational belief something done hate myself failure never good enough anything burden family cause pain suffering needlessly fail help around need most turned back unlike social pressures permanently ruined someone extremely close way fix it asshole around whether mean not mother thinks failure family would think failure knew sexual orientation failure father tell depression unable join military feel happy feel like want cry try cant plan kill soon make aduot hood plan attain low risk life insurance plan either drive cliff shoot one fathers shotguns failure everything else life family friends myself never plan life seems pointless look hope someones words sites like make feel something dont feel like coward already killed myself seems someone failure around told crimes would despise me despicable waste human space feels generous saying that hope understand premature death fairly inevitable feel need reply verbal manure supportive way rather way reminding atricities thank goodnight,1 +call lone cactus im sad horny,0 +advice needed tell dad cant finish optional project im working late hw yet expects optional project im sorry dad tried cant,0 +living actively drain care aboutme alive draining care about disappoint let down drag me generally cause difficulties anytime ive wanted change improve myself always past point could solved things always realize error ways far late keeps hurting people care about many small mental issues yet single fucking one excuses plethora issues must fundamental level bad person yet cant even obviously bad person im ensnaring disappointment grinds away good will brings worst people unfair them nothing going beside typical things people say someone nothing tangible give career future ever seem motivation suppose must coddled much child work ethic im already cant seem functional adult leech others slowly cause resentment alive first place dead single ounce real care around me brains would painting wall could motivated even god damn second could turn arm fleshly red ribbons save everyone time im much coward try again,1 +hey whats up im awake am wanna chat im down think im going back bed east coast ftm,0 +ever stop wanting die every time something small happens meive feeling way way many years want end,1 +hate menobody really seems want around one closest friends forgets text best friend basically said better without life boyfriend now ex broke day myself sexually assaults drinks never respects hes still me tempting reach know doesnt treat well instead reached ex see could get anything found could care less want trying start drug empire hoped posting subreddits getting validation well dms would give something look forward didnt adding one rats passed away fault mom dad think im sleeping couch difficult sleep room since quincy passed really fully made noose intend using it cutting doesnt work anymore usually coping strategies either hurt kms since sh doesnt appeal anymore want need kms dont want hospitalized again doesnt help tried order stuff online give something wake couldnt decide wanted tried reward w donuts months clean second longest ive years ive hurting myself somebody ate all mom didnt want change medicine doesnt think handle it dont even know meant that cant handle switching medicine cant handle meds sounds petty hate myself made promise three years ago still heavily suicidal crying sleep would kill myself matter life turn cant worth this ill likely go redflag closest ive dying since age started tldr everybody better without cant find something live for,1 +dm surprise also whoever makes best dad joke gets free award edit hour,0 +post posts one made someone deserves love please go tell that thank you,0 +feel calm finally way outive ended place cant go back tied loose end little guilt ill ever have would cry thought finding out ive done everything make lot hate resent me one people people describe full life end no coming head while know im right thing long run drain positive energy people long situation forced change itself life living,1 +urgent please help made friend today among us amp name michelle user among us mishmash plays cyan became friends got kicked game devastated please reddit help find user plays marshmallo,0 +crashed car embarrassing way one least next month got license midaugust sucks go without crashing car two months anyways stop sign neighborhood turned right looking behind mirror dark outside see much reached dome light i think called quote it next thing knew heard loud noise airbags deployed subaru service automatically getting called shellshocked idea happened fast got see mailbox made rock completely leveled bottom front car broken too minutes later dude whos mailbox broke came garage driving car immediately stopped saw mailbox got car explained happened called parents i adhd tend panic often came instantly since house literally one block explained happened police came well since subaru service alerted guess officer asked obvious showed him asked guy wanted put ticket license said no man going pick pizza dominos mom dad helped shovel remains mailbox he able leave completely blocked driveway told family name towing service left mom came back pizza called towing company told us wait minutes mom left dad waited came towed subaru im left car rural illinois the university like miles away tho small village dq mcdonalds subway jj arbys know do parents like leaving house much stranded home im also picky eater know family brings food like also supposed poll worker cant without car tldr illinois teen crashes car mailbox cant drive next month rural area ps fine airbag gave bad scratch back left hand im good physically mentally whole nother story,0 +really want diei really understand whats even wrong redflag matter want kill myself going hurt jobless miserable person leave earth care anyone hurt theyll get anyways really want out things looked forward even spark joy anymore hate everything living wish easier ways kill myself ive making pro con lists different ways redflag want find easiest one want risk coming back really wish could die want wake tomorrow,1 +honestly know much longer go onmy mother emotionally abusive neglectful entire life go much detail ive made two posts it curious see those tldr mother took literally everything away entire life spoil bratty little sister point pulling school letting anything socialize growing up going entire life since age literally trapped basement unable leave claims literally lock away count way leave im years old means start life ive torn entire life family without chance develop social skills cant anything cant even talk anyone beyond saying hi that ive way getting job live ive tried applying everywhere within walking distance and some nothing past years ride public transport really exist town mother gave car supposed mine younger sister totaled drunk license yet mother one actually yelled promised not get license yet ive barely even scratched surface post previous posts ive made literally ignored since child every time tried talk anything cant handle anymore cant handle fact never got kid teenager mother care tries excuse everything done going i thinking straight everybody makes mistakes shell flop back flat denying it wanted fair chance life gone forever ill never get chance teenager actually develop have everything gone forever bothered tell bratty sister no ive tried therapy ive tried medication nothing helps tried explain mother fair would thing helps years since started explaining done worse since then cant anymore reason killed since last posts convinced would finally listen fair ive come realization happen cant get without yes tried completely unwilling keeps making excuses doctors medication helped wanted mother treat fairly shot life everyone ive talked keeps saying oh young theres still time get it im literally starting though except expected get job move ready adult even get chance teenager like everyone else cant it want end it ive slowly getting point past weeks made even rapid post really cry help anything im honest mind made up know im posting honestly guess want someone tell actually victim instead mothers gaslighting ampxb im sorry,1 +anyone keen chat im bored usual dm want chat comments,0 +could go this keep brief me jump one thing another little child exposed studies consumed wholly it came tv came day dreaming came sadness binge watching eating alcohol now would old skin constantly go back forth taking plunge binge watching drowning melancholy need fill something consuming time not crumble pieces easy use mobile easy accessible normal cure fix go back child addicted studying idea currently much better used be really need perspective deal tendencies mine in feed keep check it time channel addictive tendencies productive,1 +death hardim tired life drunk bunch poison im still dead researched lethal amount im still here killed me feel awful im dead far thing thats happened caused boyfriend leave me said deal hurting anymore really matter already wanted die gives one reason want leave horrible world,1 +wish could end years suffering alreadyi stopped showing class again looks like thats another k student debt nothing show yay rd attempt college years last night go night got drunk stabbed thighs stayed bed day cuz walk apparently called mom asked pick take home wanna go home thats nowhere apparently voice small child memory it suicidal im weird blackout drunk well im tired dealing this know need help cant stand another day month year feeling like way cant talk anyone depressed suicidal gets redundant awhile know,1 +lost kg pounds weeks earlier weighting kg around pounds today checked weight kg around pounds like almost nothing lose weight went dormitory poor af reduced amount junk food eating weeks lost kg maybe much still something little accomplishment wanted share you,0 +bad nighti took two gravol yesterday knock severe panic attack calmed put sleep feel like missed medication much psychological pain now cannot put words im suicidal thoughts tired hurt people think ssris disrupted gravol took last night even though took meds today think maybe two go together gravol overrode something period also due days pms pretty hellish depression anxiety think call premenstrual exacerbation mental illness aggravated premenstrual symptoms im chilling kitchen floor cabinets right feeling like pure death inside help,1 +im donei think im done life real im sick everything im sick dumb fuck emotionless family negative timehateful attention seeking piece shit feel sick comparing people feel like huge outsider on believe theres truly nothing going good life head limited cant enjoy certain things cant understand certain things im never happy cant live concious everything cant accept even want to changing impossible cant magically increase fucking iq fuck writing this,1 +confessionventocd hope likely hebepedoconfessionvent theres reason im still alive family people care despite absolute worthless dumbass ive done stupid shit past always mind feel guilty angry myself cant fucking forgive did watching catching predator videos youtube october last year ended obsession p stronger ever thoughts since along thoughts yet fucking ignored them confident ocd read pages could relate peoples stories except remembered fucking masturbated images kids twice individuals they individuals attracted younger photos still looked like individuals liked either still barely random year old didnt know fucking ages kids sure still fucking it knew better also masturbated aunt beastiality shit guys looked like girls around age too fucking able masturbate things questioned attracted to part tells testing anxious didnt fucking like or else would still im sure regardless long time ago dont remember events except questioned attracted particular things would test see got aroused maybe fucking able curiosity taboo anxiety horny piece shit would masturbate anything addicted never masturbated fantasiesnever get fantasies unless force think order test reaction compare things feels sickpainful dont enjoy it kid would feel sick liking individuals years younger questioned attracted kid years younger reminded person liked yet fucking dismissed that fucking touched kid like holding hands curious fucking regretted it felt bad lost attraction any focused person actually crush on also remember playing kids starting question too fucking trauma kid took advantage innocence experimented humping merubbing genitals me fucking stuck days would constantly think it question im attracted kids see public especially whove entered puberty test attraction think kids constantly head see im attractedtest reaction get anxious panic see them get groinal responses fucking anxiety caught guard pictures feel attraction along obsessions like lady tramp dog feels different think individuals like fucking avoid kids see person im attracted university question age liked resemble kid brain always tells im p keep trying tell im not total loss im done brain fucking tried telling psychopath lacked empathyremembered shit past except feel empathy got dismissed theres something completely wrong sexually mentally accept that born premature like weeks barely lived immigrated another country amazing family worked hard piece shit person like me died baby younger almost getting hit car everyone high hopes meexcept probably became worst person society tldr brain tries convince im attracted inappropriate things like kids animals like dog family members like aunt grandmother mother brother religious figures past normal things like gender im trans for curious feels different gender wanting try clothes different gender psycho except ive done shit actually show behaviours past theres two things do leave miserable world ill remembered good individual worked hard school dreams becoming doctor get help im get help see hell wrong me im scared happen family dog something happen me id rather live internally suffer stupid curses given family people care dont suffer isnt life me im crying inside everyday want let emotions scream im moody brother keeps pushing limits asking reassurance appearance making obsession worse talking things make feel even upset,1 +losing fucking marbles im going ranti want start saying bait im fishing attention posting really need rant calm down thanks ahead read this know going lot dad always thinks talk shit bathing self pity like way get attention fucking not im slowly surely going fucking insane know dad thinks excuse half ass alive cant help it really im trying even went therapy took meds gave really cannot see point keep trying nothing working kind getting better little trying avoid triggers like certain people situations ive found sheltered real world intense urge kill keeps coming back matter hard try switched bottle desperate attempt smother intense impulses counter productive would end miserable drunk made redflag seem justifiable get angry least im angry im sad least years would sad im sister time got molested front baby sitters son could feel ashamed anything mom would cry drunk mind father left her little game would play called bird says dont cry would lean say dont cry thats think now shit happened young keeps coming back boiling anger aimed particular direction talking helps much thing keeping going family mom bipolar drug addict brother angry nothing plus hes slowly surely developing extremely intense alcohol problem try cope everything brother recovering drug addict sister best friend kept going dark ass times shes strong tarnish selfish reasoning know shes got lot shes repressing whole family brink besides dad happy live blissful ignorance situation cant throw board myself wouldnt fair god damn getting hard keep going thank read this side note dont mean ripping family love rant,1 +wants vc need someone talk school work talk abt whatever want one thing gotta atleast ,0 +keep wishing redflag button desk could kill soon pressed ityou may wonder would want thing school kinds people good bad one good ones however due thoughts suffering greatly laughed time made worst mistake feelings another boy year group painful know never cute boy like me hurts want stop sure may say dont friends talk to do one boat even tried slitting wrists failed friend acting strangely towards recent thats possibly fault too,1 +pisses people complain parents like get youre treated bad asking chores it people really ungrateful seen dad work hard one point take pills sleep least help chores making work isnt asking pay bills rent dont dick parent unless treating bad,0 +crazy di hit hard clinical depression couple months ago extremly intense thankfully last long months utter agony needless say experiance new me knew nothing disorder obvious reasons depressed know depression package good stuff it one suicidal thoughts death depressed person like jumping warm bed long day work raining outside knowing tomorow day got picutre simply sweet heres thing even recovering it feeling sun face air lungs blood vains enjoying good laugh lm still obsessed redflag thinking every day every moment whith negative mindset all hypnotized idea simplicity possibility serinity all like days put one bullet chamber gun holding head closing eyes simply feeling it cold barrel skin frodos like temptation ring complete clearence mind ultimate sensation peace sometimes lose point limbs body go numb well relaxed became crazy anyone guilty act exactly go gentle good night resist temptation love hear thoughts about,1 +aloneso much happened caused entire world collapse know begin loved ones picked one other im alone run mill i feel alone mean alone one line in case emergency contact __________ i one moment one,1 +think im almost edgeso week started pretty good thursday shit happened fucked times work let anxiety get best first girl ive really decent convo months friday shitty stuck home alone today started pretty good buying dream gun went birthday party son girl ive huge crush last decade half girl ive crush lets call bev recently gotten huge fight yo bf shes came comforted she knows feel her bf chris real name cuz fuck prick showed bevs mom get ring back he gave days thing still went place made him today whole fight thing week ago thought bevs parents chris best friends chris want around still pretty much begged come birthday head bevs parents car sisters car car drive birthday yo walk bev son sisters kids sisters husband sister parents grandma there bev youngest adult least years kids go swim adults talking chris even acknowledge existence except grabbing bevs ass shit eating grin face looking dead minutes uncomfortable awkward hour get text parents they invited fight know still were going make cuz flat tire used excuse leave want use new gun blow brains thru top head im pretty confident would pretty quick end pathetic excuse life keep torturing living ps fuck ,1 +done website censuring write want spread pure hate women let it serious college bs made lies bs anyways living like hermit room way live let post whatever fck want,1 +ive left turni cant escape christianity cant escape sexuality fuck supposed do cant escape loneliness cant escape anxiety supposed do shit like doesnt happen good people gotta fault cruel joke theres god hope hes laughing ass off clever make suicidal dont give courage go it make bi surrounded people whod hate that make cant get out make one else likes person make want throw pity party simultaneously aware deserve this make even try help fuck too give birth pile trash see lives long take take out hopefully much longer,1 +want die badlyi yo male hate much want die want parents find dead body,1 +anyone pe exercises correctly involve lying back shorts wear fall down im home alone thing feel like actually one going see shorts fall legs air,0 +one takes depression seriously think joking coming excuses failures getting harder harder day know do next year bacaloria feel like illness going make studying x times harder cannot mess bacaloria up pretty much rest life depends itsince one around seems care depression choice left treat alone see achieved treat illness alone,1 +binary meaning ,0 +think today actually kill worki cant stand pain anymore nothing makes happy sit boring job fucking day misery people pile work dont care anymore dont care anything besides getting goddamn ride fuck everything fuck mental illness making fucked person am,1 +tell secrets yes love hear xxxxxxxxx x x x x x x x x x x xx,0 +want human interactionits months since ive even touched another human days since ive spoken face face one outside work interaction get texting people occasion same want interact person want fucking hug im lonely hard stay alive im already struggling wish someone real life loved cared would talk could see real talk wanted to feel like ill die lonliness point sounds dramatic guess true im lonely maybe ill kill spare pain mixed everything else,1 +control body anymoreevery monthevery month right period due feel really really suicidal feel taking body thoughts mind actions cant take anymore meds help tried crash car couple times today im fucking sick life,1 +read synopsis messiah television guide prepared store story follows dci metcalfe trying solve case grisly murders taken across london soon realises pattern serial killer loose killing people similar names jobs apostles killings identical matching apostle two part series kept right edge seat metcalfe closely pursuing killer always missing within couple seconds discovering gruesome mess left behind illfated victim messiah sure cause great deal controversy nonetheless greatest piece drama bbc shown long time,0 +fuck manny heffley hate little fucker filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +there must hell lot people world like me want die got gutsim k years old feel lucky im going ivy league school fall full ride yet ive never felt alone life feel unwanted burden unneeded times imagine downing bottle sleeping pills hiding closet slitting wrists cant work courage it im wishing maybe hopefully bus car comes hits kill myself groups ive never felt alone feel like im always odd one out outcast rang true past couple weeks participated precollege summer program month ago feel one notices me everyone group best friends felt like always outlier couple days ago student meetup area bunch us going college live area meet up hung group guys trying flirt one girl ignored even try carry conversation even notice there huge blow self esteem ive never felt ugly kept asking myself what wrong me feel matter much effort put try socialize put there guy ever going interested me nobody likes me im jealous pretty girls especially people surrounded lot friends everything going them dont people lucky whereas luck keeps fucking life thought college going differen feel like high school again high school hell terms loneliness ive never boyfriend never kissed college even starts many students already know hooking up feel pessimistic prospects making friends starting relationship even family feel like im outcast kindhearted family sometimes feel like im odd one out im one struggling depression rebellious parents understand depressed tell go help myself long time ive struggled feelings worthlessness loneliness low selfesteem issues seem mundane struggling loneliness life maybe killing seem bad all one would cry anyway try things love reason cant even work motivation that used love writing stories cant anymore feel im good enough everyday heavy feeling feel like crying reason im pretty sure one days cause death going redflag feel like im caught sort perpetual sadness comes goes never leaves entirely,1 +poem first time felt elation oh no premature ejaculation,0 +im trying make summer best way earn money im want build pc,0 +anyone bad headaches recently reason ive getting bad headaches mum saying technology use dark mode everything low brightness devices p,0 +everytime think future want moreive set failure know going go,1 +took sleep eze extra strength pills right nowi know harmful is take anymore peace im asleep feel like body feels weird hands shaking im sure placebo type effect im scared time welcome peace anything happen took minutes ago ive always much coward anything past week hard cant handle life anymore nobody,1 +mother really likes play victim spends entire day screaming school reason decides victim wish talk her cant wait move outcan day come sooner somehow course entire family treat victim great lying littearly days become hoping arrive home went somewhere moment peace school hated slowly becoming high point day peace today first time ever actually glad school home,0 +talk tonighti cant sleep lot bad thoughts please comfort me,1 +feeling kinda insecure writing thing theres writing contest love writing basically thing im good at i hobbies im good them story long people ready storiespoem shorter really good im sitting wondering im good enough even win joined fun im feeling bad basically,0 +girls like guys like taht work nice look good etc,0 +get another lockdown swear god take lifeit like strength built emotionally cope first lockdown nothing feel like freak scared virus seems one else know scared corona virus am ive told people getting sick asking telling people fears virus feel like people understand blimmin hard lockdown us mental illnesses,1 +look ugly suck everything always fuck everything up talent i cannot sing cannot dance cannot draw etc keep getting yelled annoying voice hell friends nobody loves me single and likely going die alone still here redeeming qualities,1 +im happy excited plantheres else really post reddit think really need tell someone this weird im actually excited killing myself plan saturday parcel arrives going help me im broken person point ive attempted whim recieved help worked point unwilling help anymore self harm stopped working suppressing thoughts know im still point think keep focused end goal now stop things breaking event ive done research time bought appropriate stuff wait carefully avoid anything give second thoughts plunge stuff send further im dead alive give shit anymore,1 +im done want die know howi depressed past years life im still high school im kind popular go christian school yet im atheist get terrible grades family hates it im little fat terribly ugly big problem stress cant handle it every summer forced work dad construction hate passion dad verbally abusive tried commit redflag months ago took bayer aspirin work damage told family next morning it sad got week went couple counseling sessions work put fake face parents hated paying it honestly dont know do dont know could fast painless gutless,1 +disposablepeople need me people want me people try reach sometimes quickly lose interest realize im worth it replaceable basically person planet would adequate replacement better am kill worth anymore want one person care me pretend matter even best friend abandoned im much bother happens even bother people dont thing keeping sound death lack means swiftly thoughtlessly end myself want over want done this everything sucks one cares therapist friend family teacher boss coworkers anyone theyve let think ever trust anyone ever again feel like time stop pussy end it,1 +bye needed tell someone actually it hope death bring happiness life unable so,1 +reason parents seem mean get older par reason parents seem like get meaner get older see loosing you thing parents feel like loosing get older want baby use be example asked something right away argue it want mean want baby again next time get angry yelling talking back thing take feeling perspective dont get mad thats gonna make worse trust,0 +even know anymorei want die im worthless human cant get job talents and even mean hastalentbutdoesntrealize way literally nothing cant even handle basic day day interactions people social anxiety bad im good nothing even feel right calling human anymore would diminish value term by like hate much even know anymore death seems like option sorry needed get chest,1 +anxiety thru roofi cant deal it dont fucking cry lot cant deal,1 +wondering anyone answer thisive already decided ive already written will itll combination benzodiazepines alcohol abundance klonopin xanax valium im weigh lbs would amounts would absolutely kill me ill alone long time time isnt issue dont want wake again guess want know anyone idea would fatal would great im sure enough get job done,1 +dead die,0 +friends saw san diego black film festival great stormy strong black woman nana reminds grandmother br br rene fine seeing take clothes definitely worth price admission someone forward contact infobr br my friend thinks flex finer two flex fan years though might little biased cousins funny trifling nana described them lolbr br i looking forward seeing movie comes theaters,0 +dis ever cry listening song so song it cried listening marjorie evermore taylor swift damn song hits hard think granma,0 +favourite songs moments made them part dampad spotify design brief created feature called spotify moments spotify moments new way connect friends family sharing songs mean moments made them essentially heart idea connection certain songs others certain songs emotional links places people different times lives spotify moments scan spotify codes stickers wall prints whatever format displayed in would located around hotspotslocations scan local areas interests city access feed user shared images songs experiences linked place song youd able read peoples stories similar experiences yourself discover new music way also contribute share experiences certain songs places tell world song means you im currently building final prototype need personal stories populate prototype with id love hear story certain song special place heart whether reminds loved one takes back better time past jus feels right listen certain place,0 +dintt chicken cross road hit kfc truck,0 +alone feeling wayhi all joined reddit come reach out feel pretty lonely really want know people similar experience actively suicidal danger myself ive struggling lot im teenager six weeks since got discharged residential treatment program ive really hard time ive never real redflag attempt ive depressed anxious long time ive lived suicidal ideation since family abusive past realize case late treatment residential difficult came home lot unresolved issues ive every level care steadily declining put residential treatment facility also needed hour care due nonfunctional was got realized peers facility attempted redflag suicidal actions writing lettersnotes collecting pills figuring ways end life starting attempt etc ever since got treatment resolve actually attempt gotten stronger stronger im afraid pain valid unless ive tried kill myself narrative cycling mind years wake middle night thinking it many many times ive actively suicidal least gotten truly suicidal meaning really really wanted die in thats wanted life residential really wanted kill tried times none worked actually wanted use really frustrating time odd thing ive realized attempting outside treatment lived staying bed day sleeping day watching youtube day meant actually think pain stayed limbo numbing pain constantly getting caught it guess way keeping suffering bay actually think pain pain suicidal thoughts became rampant also help im suicidal im good day im sick enough narrative there im actually actively suicidal want die narrative adds even resolve need kill myself im afraid seen wanting attention thats exact opposite want really hard attempt home want family know want people find worry want get hospitalized want talk anyone talk emotions behind it weird im actually suicidal im thinking time wanting attempt redflag prove im pain pain valid im actually suicidal want die end pain you need prove it feels like added reinforcer even thats primary reason want die again kind fucked baseline i need prove im pain risking life andor dying know maybe im looking reassurance maybe im looking someone relate odd feel like cant talk anyone this havent im still trying im still reaching out hard think im sad alone exhausted,1 +cant handle itif seen last post ive made subreddit heres link it httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentszgdnim_not_gonna_lie_sooner_or_later_i_might_have_to living irrationally angered father beyond ability cope imposes many restrictions despite fact im verbally abuses little brother i get priorities straight year ago moved stepmothers house due relationship issues decided rent apartment moved there furniture bought kitchen table came chairs set couches months later told brother needed beds twin sized ones never asked california king anything bigger twin sized ones want anyone whos reading guess bought instead air mattresses even months later already holes them fucking smart way spend money kept telling need beds beds real mattresses fucking year living apartment were still sleeping deflated air mattresses busy buying everything else including k tv costed enough money buy two beds no control money all told bought bed first yep guessed it got triggered day ive sleeping floor uncomfortably cant sleep straight night someone would ask would rather sleep floor every night wake every hours put sleep permanently id say time get long goodnight sleep point simply reasoning father like futile told many times couldve bought beds first everything else wait no threatened kick instead way out like said putting deathbed depression anything like sending message remind much damaged past years message stay forever choose end it right now looking reason to perhaps another way end peacefully would better,1 +william powell philo vance the kennel murder case film also starring mary astor paul cavanagh eugene palette helen vinson ralph morgan dog show philo entered scottish terrier captain serves background locked room mystery many suspects mystery clever denouement complicated interesting since talkies still quite young camera work little static michael curtiz good job directing actionbr br the supporting cast excellent entire cast brings film notch lots actors played philo vance including paul lukas basil rathbone wilford hydewhite edmund lowe james stephenson alan curtis warren william others powell played five times best fit role relaxed serious time made the thin man catapulted big stardom spent years film then beginning career stage age remarkable man remarkable screen presence remarkable actor lived nearly were lucky films available dvd tcm today the kennel murder case great story fun film miss it,0 +losti dont desire live world existing world becoming much im accepting fact im meant here yeah doctors tell depression anxiety tell take medication real money scheme always hear get help call hotline go er what ill hear shit millionth time im fucking sick it issue whole world simple illness treated truly dont belong dont even know anything way anymore dont know whats real anymore know dont want cant live way much longer im fucking lost,1 +decided stop taking full dose effexor taking half many meds sad upsides like losing appetite feel needi bit afraid naturally going hit me think human needs feel full range emotions instead relegated artificial chemical existenceany support welcome went antidepressant,1 +amount creepy dms get equivalent people crush may accurate somethin anyways never got one,0 +ive fucking enoughnone depression subs helped once im ugly useless piece shit im going fail school thought waiting years graduated kill think ill cut time short speaking cutting ive started self harming again punching face till im black blue cutting biceps ive enough end soon,1 +sure health teacher expects class went health started sexual education cause school years middle school first years high school teaches us shit again anyway im sexual education school hybrid you could either home school right kids home sometimes teacher asks question every directs kids home silence tbh im sure expected cause right talking stds shit like dont think anyone would want talk parents probably next room also clear im annoyed teacher hes dick making us talk pretty chill guy think hes realizing dont want talk cause hes asking home kids less less,0 +childhood wont leave mei like start saying im vulnerable trying explain please dont berate me im right obviously grew lot since traumatic childhood sexually used grade school physically abused till skin shattered mess bruisings yellow red spots also faced emotional neglect breakdowns face emotional abuse internal pain clung like wild fire tearing skin everyday im sure im take anymore feel like useless usable toy broken thrown away deserve this people view damaged goods,1 +sex first time today kept saying are sure want this will mom dad mad hot,0 +it afi know feel man im dying inside man make create care music too nobody else understands know post cover cover people frown look on easy man nothing worth ever is know feels criticised looked on know feels put happy face everybody crushed inside know man makes cry too im crying bro know fake tears hide feel too im right you hands bro know words mean much know im nobody know call names know think know love man know feels im right you im crushed inside man im completely lost without it music much it bridge nobody loves man nobody loves like theyre supposed im dying man im thrown out nothing say matters nothing ever bridges gap im crushed man love bro keep chin up good job cant think anything else im crying bro know nothing im sorry you im sorry act around know know side eye know hear whispers know are theyre children man theyre children understand fight love like ampxb love bro keep chin up going make it going get this going keep making art going love bro like always have love much bro going great things cant stop crying like kpop bro kpop helps thru sad times love kpop different words descriptive ears music wish theyd make softer wish could help make softer ampxb ampxb,1 + male highschool lost everything friends know even great friends begin with hope becoming great musician lost contact girl could girlfriend wandering lonely alone past years seems like everyone enemy mean people bet since school assholes bullies never easy life way going want keep going living judge father passed away last month keep thinking much beat kid id go school get bullied beat well like never ending pain go away know else say want die always alone,1 +friend sexually assaulted me wanna drop deadhe coerced things mocked me day disclosed vulnerabilities,1 +pakeezah interesting history which well documented trivia section came be seems destiny conspired test kamal amrohi the director time secretly desiring see complete masterpiecebr br pakeezah rides metaphors poetry visual elocution result intensity emotions come achieve dimension may real effective leave impact viewerbr br meena kumari lives tragedy nargis sahib jaan like own stars film besides her ghulam mohammed the music director lata mangeshkar naushad background score joseph wirsching the dop music cinematography leaves spell boundbr br pakeezah classic world cinema reveals new layers every time watch again kamal amrohi one rare poets cinema left us gift,0 +asking help original post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskvupanyone_been_able_to_date_their_crush_can_youutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf shitty update started walk min her came outside got scared talk small step time starting asking talk her,0 +im lost roadbeen struggling lot heavy depression recently lost family members grandma raised grew since little boy uncles tia always supportive encouraging ive battling lot health issues well people tell go ahead get life together not havent able properly jump start vehicle get place uncle close kid admire appreciate lot hes always one cool uncles got diagnosed cancer right broke girlfriend said shit shouldnt oh well parents never really there one considered mom dad grandma shes one whod take doctors mexico not im left alone ive dealing horrible suicidal thoughts day actually thinking bout taking xanax not bumping one lil peeps songs another song driving expressway seeing attempt would successful theres nights break crying break pain everything hard really cant control thoughts dont want go psych ward dont help want drug up idk guess overwhelming im constantly throwing up im constantly faking smile faking im ok one loves fucks more year ago people wanted now ones ok though im used it oh well cant wait another life disaster pandemic doesnt help honestly haha,1 +bruh wtf heard megan thee stallion compared getting shot foot breonna taylor situation bruh definitely lying tory lanez shooting ik people still walk shot aint even cast even know take long recover,0 +giving months live things get better throw towelits long time coming everything life hit rock bottom son narcissistic now ex boyfriend years left explanation blocked number cant get asshole head love family even though want alive anymore know them im working daily im making rain resumes everywhere hopes get chance going therapy keep trying new years nothing gets better im throwing towel want put family this cant keep suffering myself,1 +sexuality hocd ruining lifei cant stop obsessing lesbian im not im bisexual want im petrified lesbian brain keeps lying tricking thinking might im not want disgusting lesbian thoughts go away hate attracted women im never ever going come closet ill date men marry one die never act feelings women makes fucking depressed extent depressed lean towards women want fuck one bad cant stop thinking one loving cuddling kids her fuck brain me thinking thing men give feeling know what one proving wrong one hear lesbians shit is theyre lonely going die alone no im wrong no cannot happy sex attractions even know fucking care lesbians im one obsess it im bi like men too want fucking deal shit want fucking kill thinking anymore,1 +controversial opinion thread whats ur controversial opinions feel free argue personally attack people u disagree,0 +gotta love friends cries inside,0 +post selfie think differently look like greg heffley live action movie,0 +im really confused know feel believe think kill me know wanted see simply never told him fault dead now little brother father anymore im confused overcome emotions right now,1 +wish light mode didnt ruin eyes always switch light mode see like actually looks good vaporizes eyes dust smh,0 +sneases sound like shotgun entire neighborhood goes panic half think shooting half afraid covid really terrible seasonal allergies,0 +redflag illusionthe person woke morning person writing now continuity identity sense continuity consciousness false belief self generator pain circle center entry exit stream love utma,1 +farewell boysonce upon midnight dreary killed myself left one teary,1 +yoooooo rice krispies multi grain regular rice krispies best ,0 +love allyou guys practically second family even though share pain guys idea much help many others goes thoughts sub prevented ending many times knowing whenever feel sad come relate many people people whiling help you really overwhelming thank awesome hopefully one day find peace even seams cloudy rainy outside,1 +im really trying hold onim convinced im going go nowhere life im tired im mentally physically drained im trying hold onto reasons wanna stay alive like friends cat sister know care me hard bad thoughts getting louder louder point drowns positive ones really want anymore want keep living keep used hurt im tired feeling like failure want anymore,1 +enterprise entertainment also forefront science fiction notredflag outlook tomorrow gratitude respect mr berman mr braga wish well thank service trekbr br enterprise trek about,0 +feel hopeless stupidim really struggling tab laptop open nearest hospital get get back medication anxiety high im afraid it feel like made mistake moving boyfriend feel like everything mistake annoys him know feel relationship anymore got owi pay ticket plus pay drug alcohol assessment addition pay rent water internet upside im taking semester work try save money im severe anxiety making rentwaterinternet also paying ticket assessment feel lonely ugly feel like would easier went away forever im unhappy myself morning ripped apart painting started knife excited start it feel like deserve happy hate myself worst part feel frozen seek help im afraid move apartment even month yet means relationship feel like human garbage,1 +tell documentaries watch read title read title anything,0 +thing makes happy anymore rain scene step up especially mooses part im gonna watch step movies,0 +man dont like sub time idk different americans wake,0 +ways kill myselfive anyone says anything ive trying better long time theres literally point someone please help tell please,1 +look stupid rn hahaha hair like two buns itll curl look stupid lmao,0 +right longer rememberanything say confidence anymore anything believe purpose anyone tell disagree instantly cannot explain reason to time alone still nobody talk to everyone hostile anything believe in,1 +im already failure human beingwhats point im relationship close friends people talk university keep touch summer even still often eat dining hall university every single day every single meal miserable especially since tables people right next table get look people happy loathe meal job tried getting summer job help pay expenses school mcdonalds want me manager promised call interview never did tried another job help wanted sign ive store times now keep telling come back cause never applications going month now go fuck off keep going chance ill get job remaining week head school happen family despises im religious also think im failure nothing day watch anime computer play videogames never go outside unless inquire job ive gone outside times summer ive school since may cat hates too longer wants play me dream job work google cant get summer job whats say ill get job major company yeah right im gaining gaining shitton debt school go to constantly dream getting horrific car crash permanently disabled society expect work watch anime miserable rest life stress ever job skills job real family love friends nothing ill k student debt graduate probably job offer whats point dealing years could end everything right now,1 +people say minecraft bad know people say nobody plays minecraft boring bad game childhood game ive played minecraft since like maby years old,0 +another ruined holidaywhen growing up dad ruined every holiday ever fighting mom well is another ruined holiday time boyfriend ex boyfriend even fucking knows told pessimistic negative everything life honestly cant remember negative supposed say hes bitching parents borrowing money oh sucks im really sorry apparently wrong also telling im sorry sucks sessions show also wrong told unsupportive also said heard rumor said sleeping around behind back envr said understand heard that keep second guessing everything ive done past months keep flash backs good memories spent day laying around crying tried contact redflag hotline waited hold asked leave message social anxiety cant call back cant bring try want disappear want cease exist dont know ill kill myself took ap woke deep scratches arm scratched sleep ive cut well hope wake morning really never want wake again,1 +im sick happy suicidal muchwhat say happiness isnt even anything feel nothing,1 +kill painyou cant help me nobody can wanna get peacefully,1 +ok dont laugh need help deciding two christmas lights minecraft ive honestly fucking hours please help decide cant take anymore lol decide me httpsimgurcomateseln,0 +im angry myselfid never kill myself think keep getting mad telling get with get angry want end all ive self harming years really kicked notch last months ive gotten point cut everyday tonight sat knife wrist ten minutes trying psych opting cut elsewhere ive done everyday last week im starting worry might actually get courage it want die sometimes just know appeals me ive got great life family loves dog id never leave still keep seeing want it started cutting teenager years even thinking months time last year august decided lose weight i lbs really great christmas family came visit completely fell wagon since ive trying get back wagon lose weight i got lbs christmas cant get mindset before started cutting frustrated frustration makes want kill myself hate myself hate body im angry want kill myself im weak lazy cant lose fucking weight hate it hate feeling way im fucking sick want keep waking up,1 +want bracesinvisalign parents say cant afford it try candid wanted invisalign fix smile forever parents couldnt afford insurance wouldnt cover it found candid clear aligner company works entirely remotely home including teeth imprints scanning teeth using phone automatically send progress pics doctor meet videocamera doctor super easily also easily k cheaper invisalign super easy crazy schedule like cant go dentistsorthodontists office every weeks home follow link free starter kit teeth imprints also amazing payment plans wish high school first year college cool lol also companies similar like smile direct club byte explore options picking one httpcndcovsabrina_,0 +thank hugs thank hugs,0 +important question say years twenty twentyone two thousand twentyone,0 +internet weird love internet quite weird everything happens forgot minutes later much stuff happening internet remembering would hard barely remember anything posted post yesterday got k updots sure one knows tho thats pretty normal yet sad yet funny everything h p p e n n g everything everything existing ending one ever watch youtube one ever read articles one ever experience internet big brain sad cool,0 +dogs name sammy full name sammy samuel samson,0 +abbreviate already abbreviated word like substitute yall wanna yall turn yallve acceptable maybe yallre yall are idk ok would yall accept that,0 +find kinda annoying people try sell religion street minding business guy walked dad tried make small talk started saying religious stuff pulled religious book answers kept trynna make us ask questions religion like dude no im happy satanist believe god im gay trans think god would hate anyway,0 +great movie i loved it great editing use soundtrack captures real feeling indian life yet relate well chose cast great characters movie develops characters real care feel like know them use indian music drums soccer scenes great direction really works everyone comes real natural cant help root jess film acting really good even tomboyish walk body posture leading ladies convincing someone played lots soccer,0 +please help get internetthe internet driving fucking crazy want exist want get sleep one day world ends masturbate much might get heart attack day spend much time reddit youtube feel like dont know doing going fucking autopilot falling everyday,1 +one great ones works beautifully hardly notice miscasting year old dana andrews drugstore soda jerk goes war comes back four years later would been most then else played him,0 +im shitim fucking dumb unbelievable cant anything right disappoint family let friends down im shit dog owner need kill someday way,1 +always happen even know expect happen even bother talk fck hate people open start diagnosing,1 +im ready end life today get home schoolive goal oriented now ive always aimed perfection cant reach it cant reach goals never even get close ive always striven perfect grades overwhelming point work ass stress get college work ass stress get god job work ass stress die way going be id rather reach end later ive lost interest nearly everything ive pushed away friends ive got nothing left besides finish school day exhausted options think last thing left do ive done everything bucketlist secretly hoping would make see fun things ill miss feel worst bothers many people death effect im popular person know friends blame family split going let many people sorry,1 +got argument flat earther uncle middle heated debate asked legitimate associations actually support claim world indeed flat said enthusiastically response yes flat earth society lot members organizations around globe,0 +bernie sanders old since born anyways idk put hope u suffer much fine day,0 +family comedy best senses term uncomplicatedly faith family ann blyth help everybodys favorite grandpa edmund gwenn gets divine help lifting omoynes wouldbe vengeance schemes goldtooth mccarthy john mcintire pure fun,0 +genteel softly spoken drama steven spielberg first real venture genre departure normal adventurefantasy fare paved way success schindlers listbr br based upon alice walders pulitzer prize winning novel story concerns young girls arranged marriage hardship brutal angry farmer painful separation beloved younger sister nettie plot compassion abuse power love heal wounds often powerful moving loses way fault continuity menno meyjes scrambling screenplay the color purple times hard follow one occasions tends little erratic regard time frame lapse scripting cost viewer depth detail obviously present miss walkers novel real shame maestro spielberg unable pick rectify problems show wonderful example prowess directorbr br performances strong throughout whoopi goldberg making debut never matched since regard acting accomplishment heart broken celie yearns loved danny glover lends solid support though moses superior turn places heart standout showing comes unheralded oprah winfrey miss sophia single minded fighting black woman whose spirit crushed terrible incident involving patronising upper class white woman good support also margaret avery adolph caesar rae dawn chongbr br quincy jones coproducer spielberg kathleen kennedy frank marshall penned beautifully melodic score also provided original blues occasion editing michael kahn sound always director photography allen daviau shows consummate skill capturing glorious southern scenerybr br this true affair heart surely bring tear eye unfortunate left many unanswered questionsbr br wednesday january video,0 +need stop getting attached girls meet online text hours wont,0 +seems becoming fashionable rip basic instinct point significant part audience including critics found terrible even released seems even fashionable trash sharon stone wholike usis fourteen years older andunlike usstill looks wonderful first comments movie vicious see myself opinion sequel nearly good original film bad comments pretend michael catonjones paul verhoeven neither henry bean leora barish joe eszterhas basic instinct entertaining average thriller besides addition jerry goldsmith original score keeps little resemblance predecessor even stone gives character different dimension creating lustful devilish catherine trimell perfectly well rank among monsters like hannibal lecter intelligent actress afraid taking risks play camp leisure unfortunately seems main target enjoy trashing flick became successful much main icon like actors reached level time arrived bound destroyed hollywood audiencesbr br the rest cast outstanding giving performances far better material deserves david morrissey much better actor far interesting michael douglas acting flawless giving dense complex dimension otherwise one dimensional character since screen time axis movie keep attention beginning endbr br i recommending basic instinct great movie expressing disagreement comments site conviction agendas movie shaping opinion spectators,0 +often think friends ate drugs cool shit sometimes stay past bedtime feel like cool one,0 +stalk profile probably find anything,0 +psychologist decided put medication need fix sleep scheduleyeah,1 +series lot going beautiful footage impressive underwater environments planet staggering five years making one would hardpressed expect less get impression scenes first episode repeated latter ones naturally minor gripebr br david attenborough great narrator comments informative leaving enough room ones imagination well spaced out viewers get plenty time reflect upon breathtaking imagery get opportunity try watch translated version seriesbr br a definite mustsee anyone interested intricacies blue continents easily best documentary subject ive ever seen,0 +smoking video games things keeping ending alli know would without them,1 +anyone else view odd names relationship deal breakers were gonna date name easily said name weird unique im tbh gonna romantic cant even say name seriously cant think top head im hispanic lot spanish names eh me anyway anyone else like this,0 +attention users reddit heard dihydrogen monoxide tell risks dihydrogen monoxide its also know hydric acid it found nuclear plants its found tap water with certain dosages sodium contents blood become diluted lead death kidding everyone water please go drink glass water right now,0 +im even sure im postingi recently diagnosed bipolar disorder dragging girlfriend year behavior fathom myself im currently going treatment though witnessed first manic episode entire life im embarrassed mental health getting better good friends life anymore consistently moved bullied high school one two good guy friends high school came thanksgiving break last year im lesbian met girlfriend freshmen year university fell madly madly love months dating month manic breakdown im currently home treatment going really well get back prove balance school relationship mental health ive feeling really really suicidal suicidal thoughts flared years past month every night kind thing want burden talking it know tell everything okay believe it,1 +im gonna tonightim gonna kill gonna steal pills grandma im gonna swallow whole bottle kill im next month im complete fuck asshole failure one likes ruin every friendship probably shouldve killed sooner fat ass broke rope ive stuck anymore im gonna end one ever deal itll great wont missed makes better people probably happy good bye everyone,1 +family believe mei used joke killing way cope friends family im straight telling dont believe anymore try ask help cant anything im minor money god sometimes feel would understand,1 +old science teacher made youtube channel old science teacher left years ago recently discovered yt channel hes trying sooo hard would mean world could go support him doesnt know people old class wanted surprise him channel felix sarsah httpsyoutubeiulpsspxyhi,0 +ago phone got stuck boot loop got mad punched realised right testicle little circle pulsating ,0 +vegetables im eating right salty im going finish still edible guess,0 + still feel like weakling nothing dead weight everyone around would better dead person kills world great favor honestly want person fucking dead weight,1 +wonder even need existim im gay man born broken family father put last name left us week years old accident trying climb kitchen busted head causing mild brain injury would root undiagnosed adhd severe anxiety issues raised hostile environment mom retaliated anger frustrations beating crap time grandma light childhood seizure years old ended crippled wheelchair died years later turned biggest annoying burden small family endure mom obsessed idea matter cost privileged private school even bullied different many ways made fun everything height im also sudden queer manners clumsinessetci even developed severe dermatillomania hands due severe anxiety hell attempts redflag totally ignored everyone like didnt really matter friend close friend lasted year half mom passed away middle first year school poorest classroom worst house mom drove cheapest car even dogs ugly fuck neighbors would always made fun pets house disgusting always dirtymy mom semi hoarder would always accumulate clothes books would never invite anybody deep shame grades school ok good horrible others spend extra hours memorizing stuff would understand simple shit sometimes every time speak public would panic stutter people would laugh scape video games would play much it started affecting visual impairment started developing strabismus years old graduated got hometown got private university paid mom struggled lot college felt stupid place always awkward lacked social skills would annoy fuck people would ignore me time focused try hard physically attractive would go gym tons protein supplements would also go play magic thegathering whenever could eventually got good due undiagnosed adhd would mess time would get angry losing lost hair balding bad since hated look always angry wear hat look like age would look almost years older college started forcing internships would difficult work due behavior forgetfulness last semesters would try work side got fired twice gave th semester quit college year deep shame myself felt humiliated constantly fix visual impairment managed get surgery public hospital months wait fixed itwhen back college struggles areas didnt give time suffered lot get thesis done thesis barely passedit basic shitty didnt make friends even invited default college graduation party barely knew anybody awkward fuck college started internships neither didnt last long tbh would sugarcoat resume death appeal employers ended hired couple places surprise got fired first second horrible abusive position nobody else would take therefore ended year got depressed ended taking medication depression quit job got hired ad agency fired month gave everything sold mtg cards buy ticket us tattooed head micropigmentation style gave younger appearance somehow made feel less shitty genetic makeup ended server multiple places worked busser server even cleaning labors would throw bathrooms panic anger shame got hospitalized severe depression ended working total places got fired them got diagnosed adhd fired like th time messy scattered minded forgetful meds saw light started getting creative like miracle bad lost s teens miserable way even years new life ive improved lot still cant get job lack experience creating business takes lot investment havent able acquire social media makes sick gives ptsd every time get see accomplishments people studied successful relationships amount mental disorders ive gathered much abuse way much handle paying friend therapy hasnt solved issue cptsd rejection sensitivity dysphoria probably mild form autism point suffering ive gone oddsfought many battles endit doesnt even matter people like exist like someone going give life medal overcoming gigantic struggles life nobody wants date im emotionally damaged im total fear meeting new people isolation made everything worse im couple months away possibly homeless get point definitely over life even worth shit feel like hanging thin string break anytime soon shouldve broken neck ,1 +guys really important like seen memes kid fought back bully gets blamed point kid must loss seem like bully one getting kicked gonna pussy fight back,0 +lol discovered phone cast videos nintendo switch im allowed tv room use switch that make good connection could also connect jbl flip speaker it better audio cant wait test that,0 +day walking away toxic friendship scares yesterday first time ive felt sense self walking away seven year toxic friendship shed conditioned rely happiness walk away thinking it scares me scares bully bitch incredibly smart scary knows exactly manipulate others use whim without ever saying word it takes incredibly strong person walk away her three know ever broken hold best friend one guy friend myself theres others whove seen drawn though takes perceptive person do,0 +ladies gentlemen may it show overfriends family strangers internet may me entire life day ten years old depressed probably genetics abuse suffered child today reach new depths ocean despair college career longer able afford it soon homeless father intends kick out close friends turn leave world this lasting message mark puny existence forums reddit ask yes attempted before yes tried medicine yes tried facilities avail today may last day is bid adieu,1 +add girl snapchat theres girl ive school entire life ive ever talked little bit group project once year one classes since zoom able talk her shy assume share least somewhat similar interests class together elective took two years electives get into like two months ago appeared quick add snapchat courage add her mainly midsemester something went weird snapchat itd awkward sit zoom class her now two days left class id like add her keep contact her one problem though snapchat username saw quick add feel like itd weirdcreepy add username especially instagram bio checking quick add every day like two weeks now hoping shell appear quick add add way come across once perhaps since ive already searched username show quick add anymore assumes consciously add her either way im debating add via username all feel like could genuinely friends thanks advice,0 +reasons would great boyfriend i love daft punk kanye i wouldnt,0 +needi everything need cant bring use think confused everyone kinda caused need advice help talk,1 +wanna delete edgenuity httpswwwchangeorgpgetschoolstostopusingedgenuitybanedgenuity,0 +got diagnosed clinical depression know know everything hes going downhill,0 +update updateso scrolling rmeirlmeirl left suicidal jokes always do one op responded real fast asked wanted talk ended talking abt hours wouldve definetly killed myself ending chat pm asking tomorrow today was trying send message im there found wasnt deleted account since suffering depression im certain killed himself want die now person listening making comfortable even social anxiety knew himher hours i think she saved life already cant take this,1 +im actual paini wake every morning wishing wasnt alive another day thing anxieties friends nothing enjoy im depressed im weak actually end it keep going circles want go forest night hang im scared actually going forest night might people around ill scared im sure else do pills take im scared wont fatal make sick im loser wish someone would murder already,1 +made mistakeover year ago made promise help girl find comfort reliable friend great friends okay level relationship stressful sometimes made great team great memories easy popular got picked lot even friends pitched bullying made through everyday waking saying this pass her messed up really stressful day another argument string arguments we going lot left instant mistakes bad decisions fell me lost everything stood for lost thing kept going trying fix made worse fault ive constant thoughts redflag self demoralizing phrases im afraid follow redflag make things worse even im gone know anymore,1 +man upon time lovely princess httpwwwscriptoramacommovie_scriptssshrekscripttranscriptmikemyershtml,0 +hey guys im hosting rave watch movies fun community dm discord rave ill add invite alsoif question rave called rave app app store dont discord rave ill send link dm,0 +wish owned guneverything hurts cant even get bed unless someone yells me want breathe anymore please god real come kill me give energy kill myself im alone,1 +take interest profiler test like wtf since computer tell like like test proceeds inaccurately describe individual yet score school going use profile me hello person brain ability communicate like ask students what fuck like bro annoying,0 +antidepressantsto people taken taking them help,1 +final year student enter workforce come privileged background work part time pay school fees live comfortably parents lot grateful feel like nothing worth living for find satisfaction friendships whatever hobbies like swept aside smart study time able pass exams even school ends ill working job maybe ill able pursue hobbies love family hate hounded constant questioning life sometimes gets much rather alone motivationgoal desire rich ok long roof head know time comes begin work go work know dread every day it job liked do even so would make enough money pay rent feel stuck cannot figure else live for mostly positive live day day someone gave way end life think might take it wrong me change selfish mindset find purpose life make life worth living,1 +redflag humane miserable lifei dont want sad forever ive tried many different medications try fix bipolar none seem affect me ive couple really great therapists always listened made feel comfortable nothing tried worked ive put much effort mental health sink lower ive watched mom whos s struggle depression anxiety long ive alive see toxic behavior showing life dont know stop it automatic im s refuse drag life years feel like redflag much humane that plans made time go,1 +think finally timeive dealt way much past months hopes anything getting better means balls sick surviving everyday waiting next following sort pattern feel stuck life cant move forward all ex boyfriend almost two years wants nothing me im acting recklessly doesnt even make feel thing feel numb alone dont feel like anyone truly understands thing stopping whether abuser go court im dead dont care hes taken everything enjoy life anyways difference make im suffering either way cant this want someone know tried hardest could ultimately failed im sorry given up,1 +think africa toto watching sunset like watching tonight couldnt stop playing head reason usually sunset,0 +movies believed chinese ghosts much prettier mischievous western counterparts storylines three chinese ghost films largely identical direction excellent detail colour huge problem always humour integral part film accompanied course great deal mugging encountered chinese ghoststory trilogy yet film offers interesting departure western horrorghost genre have another enjoyable romp chinese ghost world,0 +feel really bad guilty dont like food mom makes rant maybe shouldnt upset im pussy whatever mom cooks lot shes pretty decent it whenever makes something shes super excited try it try something makes dislike it get sad telling upset taste food love much hate reject something worked really hard on sorry long ass rant needed get out im wondering anyone else feels do,0 +afraid paini know killing ill cause pain others care anymore,1 +failing bar examafter third attempt taking bar find failed im going end life im dollars debt cannot find job law field save life im doctor laws im working retail making like bucks hour cant afford live own im burden everyone around me think im mentally emotionally handicapped leading problems people im total asshole even though try fun friendly anxiety high think people hate me end prick ive never romantic relationship longer months sex anyone since july people try get dating apps im all ive women approve profile told things make available others see best light im old someone damaged me im unattractive feel wanted swiped right tens thousands times im apparently offputting cant get match all ive depression whole life went one hardest law schools country ive done great things standards lived good life accounts cannot happy depression eating alive failing bar twice urged try again heartbreak failing twice see way me something wonderful happen first week november resigned fate probably place post publicly it want die dont reason live more love meaningful relationships light end tunnel get better gets worse ill get older sadder ill get fatter balder ill get lonelier angry better wait boils hit someone else want something one ever find body like ever im obviously coward without getting eaten alive wolves drowning painfully dont want traumatize family anyone find gross body want disappear forever body burial ive already thought ocean need something render body completely gone trace eg cant use gun someone could hear it go somewhere could found thoughts miracles appreciated,1 +typical st world country problems friends family would say good stable life would agree makes feel extra guilty struggle wanting exist everything would every want done everything wanted do know possessions experiences give life meaning lasting joy feel investing time notredflag family altruism gives joy maybe lazy selfish bword care enough that feel like emotionally messed up want care want want heart feel nothing want wanting nothing life,1 +ill never love myselfi want live anymore many issues cant seem solve problems suicidal thoughts coming back droves amp really want kill lately become smarter better version cant believe myself ever find right partner love myself want suffer anymore work amp suffer william love amp gave me every time think ive cried tears return think you know anymore hate free time mysel introspect much cant sleep night anxiety man ever love respect really am always pretty face mediocre brain work hard exactly need something numb madness,1 +like watch game thrones free hbo membership expires tomorrow im finished,0 +cant stop thinking mortalitythoughts mortality keeps looping head non stop point trying live happy life die anyway know stupid thought death comes everyone eventually everytime try something care people anything thought spring mind baby born matter one day die best friend getting married cares die one day fun enjoying hobby whats point im going die hear horrible murder news well person going die anyway im agnostic know happen us die thought atheist could potentially right though terrifies me makes everything unimportant worth it die one day exist cursed knowledge death thoughts lead nihilistic thinking know see life meaningful anymore im afraid caring humanity due thought die everyone thought like me humanity would die out often wonder seeing truth life everyone else pretending immortal know get past this losing hope,1 +kinds community service activities done recently im trying come ideas small community service activities college club corona making difficult find things do guys suggestions done anything fun helpful,0 +every time go cycle happiness depression keeps getting worse cannot keep going like rest life want better mind says no know help anymore first time considered suicide life scared going emotions die head hurts much crying want stop cycle ever stop,1 +jorge dont come school tomorrow tomorrow friday many fricking times say jorge act lockdown wasnt real vacation either thanks,0 +looks like see peoples profile pictures avatars next comments everyone gonna see cringeass profile picture uugghhh gonna hard getting kind respect,0 +death chariotdeath chariot whose horse reign asunder life fleeting lightning thunder death temptation give abyss tears shed missed death jester laughs cry reaching trivial lust die death summary fear cry me sweetheart shed tear,1 +post gets like breathe know difficult feat bruh need breathe help please,0 +cant anymorei always felt place everyone friend groups always feel like im spectator rather player guess im bad person deserve feel way even people try say nice things me deep know bullshit think last much longer,1 +when die someone bury me dont whats difference gives damn huh thus philosophy life or lack of summed less classic nevertheless fun spin sergio leones dollars trilogy opening scene three obviously evil gunmen ride western town and menacing glares intimidate pathetic normal people hiding homes observant watcher notice three bears striking resemblance characters leones dollars more one guy eastwoods poncho one lee van cleefs black suit one seeming act like gian marie volontes indio movie guys sooner ride town gunned someone even cooler they mysterious bounty hunter known simply strangerbr br no altogether different storybr br in obvious copying leones good bad ugly three gunmen vying hidden treasure bounty hunter mexican bandit stranger george hilton supercool bounty hunter penchant shooting people dressed like priest reward bandit monetero gilbert roland moneteros gang steals three hundred thousand gold coins stranger gets sidetracked normal line workbr br to round trio edd byrnes corrupt bank executive clayton wants money himself money hidden away man knows gets shot clue hiding place medallion shows family crest game find treasure anyone else does gun playbr br with plenty gunfights fist fights double crosses action takes three ultimate showdown ripoff three way draw hidden treasure ala good bad ugly twistbr br this movie good leones films course end gives damn huh movie fun s nihilism spaghetti western style rules enduring loyalties right wrong treasure whatever takes get it and though movie classic ending surely is hey maybe get along all hundred thousand piecebr br if like spaghetti westerns check one out fast furious worth look name evren buyruk crestline california,0 +carbon monoxideis best painless option plan burn coal wqrm io place makes dizzy sleep all,1 +seen yet really should dvd cant believe much enjoyed it amazingly realistic believable true much speculated would liked known speculative proven facts there many them handles everything quite well cruel mother nature theme remind nature programs seen animal planet discovery channel animals dinosaurs act natural eat kill mate play fight survival actually find rooting othersbr br for part effects excellent times look little much like cgis see different angle makes look realistic cases actually convinced seen dinosaur favorites coelophysis raptors diplodocus iguanadons allosaurus arctic bipeds disappointed trex however looked little computer generated timesbr br in case definitely see production educational well made entertaining is a,0 +people legs pee get there,0 +ive lost everything know else turn days ago everything fine girlfriend years talking getting ready go pick month old son left house come back soon laid took bit nap woke suddenly panic felt soetching wrong tried call her answer tried text answer called parents house told there started franking point know going ok not sitting home still waiting something anything hear knocks door ran upstairs see anyone there asked replied policeand coming them opened door went told charged assualt uttering death threatsand fears babys safety know think say anything understood rights put cell tell place cleaning stuff really believe would thoughtthe night ends finally posting bail walking back home get well stuff babies stuff gonethis blue fine happened allowed contact go near families place tried call multiple times understand could even me little boy lawyer appointment set wednsday want se baby sad still want girlthis girl put hell come im scared scared child know do feel like choice redflag point really want se baby bad know,1 +know anymoreim married ive married long time pretty bad lot it met best friend thick thin meanwhile husband bad husband great father fall love best friend meet best friend best time entire life yes know cheated know even though husband ok know bad person know made bad choices tell husband prior love anymore want divorce even know take skills money job best friend says ready move miles me cant sell house etc takes time know says things make second guess everything meanwhile husband trying wanting go counseling wanting fix everything fantastic really different person toward me says like slapped sense want live without me every time touches kisses cannot stop thinking best friend know deep cant alone right now know long going take best friend anything said things like said make second guess everything tell cant kid kid needs normalcy stability friend says okay cant talk good long while im losing someone love damn much best friend honestly ive always wanted die life since day shitty amplified,1 +one call attractive cute nice pretty call amusing besides samantha,0 +new years eve im alone again feels inevitableive depressed months meds work little bit stop feeling hopeless theres nights lay bed sob sleep tried asking friends doing one wants spend time obviously ive tried talking one friends it says head perceptions filtered depression change fact want around either fact couple months ago others said theyd come birthday one showed up devastating almost went night acted apologetic think want responsible me cut thanksgiving christmas spent alone im slightly estranged entire family except mother point im hanging solely her made mistake opening depression sounded truly concerned might one person miss me want hurt her im tired hurting myself im tired time everything takes effort know go on im scared im starting scared living more know much endure theres lot going on shitty job debt bad making friends nothing interests more etc already longer thought mentioned im tired think ill go work tomorrow then everyone great time without me ill jump front train od sleeping pills walk lake anything cold take even water doesnt might best mom know sure intentional,1 +important truth people agree reading book called zero one peter theil might already read it wrote ask questions everyone hiring people answer two things true rare example truth x everyone believes y gave example wrong answers following god no one give theoretical proves gods existence inexistence education system many flaws needs changes true many people agree this ampxb correct answer follows madness rare individuals but larger amount people gather together rule example parties nations everyone thinks socialism help humanity truth privatisation help us more,0 +obscure de sica delivers goods said the meek shall inherit earth tale classes surface really allegory homeless people populated europe great war homeless cheerful societies impoverished selfish care acknowledge them footmats italian carpetbaggers de sica chooses tell fairy tale cinderella story read book based cannot foresay deus ex machina construct writer vittorio begins words once upon time exemplify timelessness tale story could set anywhere everywhere caricature sketches aristocracy cut bone whimsical nature homeless especially begin grant wishes ending right spielberg picture makes boulange delight all de sicas accessible picture also one best abandoning neorealism always dallied pure good old filmmaking creates movie breaks heart time fills yearning hope one needs continue leaving world gracias vittorio gracias gracias gracias,0 +hey redflag watch family im checking the homeless shelter going nicely new city im staying many kind donators keep us fed clothed shelter assigned case manager help stay track focused toward getting feet helping get apartment ive met interesting people friendly towards far like hangout chit chat garden also watch court cases together p love love love guys,1 +guys isnt cool coincidental born planet thats far away enough sun us burn also far away dont freeze living environment generally speaking perfect reason places humans made way access exact resources need survive like food water fresh air coincidence exist another planet,0 +hate health teachers self important im sorry class isnt life changing really isnt monumental me youre touch dont grounds teaching us honestly normally wouldnt rag teacher bc theyre probably hard time anyways health teacher trump supporter doesnt believe social distancing actively encouraged people go see movies theaters go beach dont feel bad today spent minutes calling ppl class cameras annoying shit ive ever listen,0 +know knife game like take knife split fingers go around fast can yeah im always scared using knifes uncle stabbed hand times never failed,0 +want kill myselfwill propranolol mg x tabs x mg zolpidem enough someone weighing lbs,1 +hey there anything im lonely everyday im lonely cant go outside corona im introvert friends school friend plush pig got always serious face sad face smiled while anything im lonely,0 +really lonely anyone talk to acid made super paranoid feel like every person playing trick almost like unconsciously bullying know probably acid feel really low low many times life never girlfriend kills everyday solid friend point life people suffer feels like kind hell trapped feeling really rn took acid last night still recouping,1 +feel losti decided im going start writing things noteson phone similar journal started tonight ive feeling pretty bad lately tonight made everything worse id looking little bit never commenting posting seeing others finding hope am finally posting something first entry journal really know im looking this even know respond really know anything anymore im new this probably good too dont seem good anything really ill give shotlol kinda big fight fianceewanted take names out whole thing almost ended feeling bad awhile now least months money sucks big surprise friends busy want play videogames find boring now spent much money nice computer cool stuff playing games awhile back really enjoyed sitting room alone playing friends give time day outside playing another game anyway back tonight think died mother would get big stack cash shotun loaded hands hours ago didnt want couldnt it obviously im writting this despite wanting to feel like should like everyone would win did idk texted come stairs sat there reason even got heard coming didnt want see gun even though heard thats came down course probably thinks im monster going shoot her feel like im monster one likes cant control should theres key moment life something head forces fuck up act like asshole ive bed hrs now last hour ive dark staring table dark cant really see anything trittium sights glowing dark definitely staring back me dont want cant feel like should even think could wanted to couldnt that here theres way could traumatize like that im getting mad self right even thinking possibility forcing see blood stuff place worst part thisfor least is im huge gun guy love going range even cleaning guns that feel like ask help im risking losing one things brings pure joy im going bed im sure ill check later point hate you im sorry know kind place im great writing expressing feelings im sure lot seems dumb yall idk really know stop typing feel like justify everything said could keep typing hoursthis post taking minutes journal copy paste part problem really wish feel like this feel like need someone talk time think woukd commit redflag even though feel like solution time probably better spent talking someone else another post,1 +rice purity score live shell life,0 +might kill myselfbeen contemplating killing now mental health deteriorating rapidly past couple years dont know cope every day tiring seems like im wasting breath point im sick feeling lonely miserable hopeless knowing end life makes feel less victim mental health makes think finally end pain whatever might weeks go actually it ive got couple things need get done im still debating write note leave sort explanation,1 +wanted update water heres one yeah drinking two like sip im drinking gallon like four water bottles hear water stomach jiggling stomach hurts like lot tell want,0 +need help hw bio need answers ecology webquest biology due minutes front page trophic level pyramid rly feel like it,0 +fuck audio work like im somewhat ok video editing tf audio work,0 +happines disqussion myself introduce myself im year old guy currently enlisted army almost major successes life growing pretty normal kid friends fun hang parks everything normal kid would do started growing get glasses due vision best didnt really care forst become small inconvenience really big deal though anyway dont really know happenned year old puberty hit like train got totally messed up looking like old man young kid time time started getting fat didnt notice first enough make want work out teenage life tried multiple sports gyms avail leaving pretty much empty handed quit started lose interest myself everyone kept telling keep working everything fine alas wasnt didnt care myself dirty didnt clean myself got fatter uglier didnt friends anyone really talk to really wasnt myself didnt thing someone worthy happines since couldnt find happines anything tried dissosicated life turned finished school got university got first car money worked for thought freedom blessing find something everyone experiences though really happines achieve mediocre goal didnt feel happy still dont multiple redflag attemps afraid even that continued living without energy anything arrive today still cant find happines im ugly never find love think waste oxygen cant put anything working out cleaning anything cant find happines im antisocial coward cant focus something actually it happines doesnt seem reachable im unable happy,0 +bad enlightened mindset help friends advice good sparking live others helped others darkest shit know ups downs ins outs still keep slipping mode self destructive behaviour keep saying going end killing myself know people love hit everyone like train probably think great say happiness gone mind numb suffered physical pain spine dental problems trouble eating swallowing things work waiting operation totally aware case much good around me grateful effort spent trying give boost living society holiday booked still hope turned reddit cannot turn anyone cannot bring worry them lost soul,1 + diagnosed depression generalised redflag got older symptoms grew worse suffered numerous traumas bereavement parent via murder emotional abuse parent neglect rape seeing someone die right front me abandoned aged i highly traumatised events diagnosed mental disorders including complex redflag went small school children mental behavioural difficulties started college education beyond primary school age yrs old stopped educatedi still put maths english gcses despite lack education got c english f maths still know fuck thought mixed construction engineering course college months failing maths sad truth was picked course women boys department nobody else class maths acsi maths first year alongside level course failed second year my level course help kind teacher managed get c mathsduring actual course struggled hard non practical exams practical ones weak would never even held drill life tried hard learn would cry practical day tuesday teachers know full background obviously severely scarred body obvious self harm uncle next kin obvious easy would come hrs early spent summers working workshop learn more barely passed first year second year well rd year top classin second third year volunteered local charity shop every saturday helping general stocking shelves talking customers contributing helping private charity taking care abused dogs felt confident enough study particular niche type engineering university coursei dropped within months could cope different teachers much harder work different classemates development painful chronic pain conditionmy life spiralled running money ashamed go onto benefits attempted suicidei went onto benefits eventually finally diagnosed months going drs pain told take ibuprofen eventually moving different gp surgery referred specialist given painkillers years pip universal credit took years psychiatrist given kinds antidepressants antipsychotic actually told need therapy took years begging referred psychology service starting emdr next week waiting treatment waiting years pain clinic suggest course actionyet hate it judge around judge me burden society never worked actual job redflag spent years working bad sometimes cannot even leave house self harm started stopped years many medications many drs expressed concern diabetic think related untreated pcos spent years particular antipsychotic it still know type am even care anymore pay pre payment card mountain prescriptions feel guilty ashamed tick universal credit optioni hate life turned out sick anxious depressed traumatised change anything burden society,1 +cant anymorei downed half bottle tylenol,1 +got situation pushing redflag still suicidali still take great comfort owning item know end life whenever desire hear somewhat painlessly suicidal perceived ambition pursue mathematics going crushed still ive given time sit exams many reasons main one cant get feeling like terrible person ive made mistakes people forgiven ive spent sleepless nights crying mistakes made efforts never make constant guilt shame makes extremely depressive person im seeing therapist bipolar know isnt disorder talking cant find peace anything let alone feeling satisfaction content best people would consider rumination moping perpetually self hating depressed know make people love show love low theyre around somewhat contagious know world would better place without breaks heart say initial period suffering killing would cause parents girlfriend would break forever rippling effect would last rest lives better live like zombie trying numb possible outwardly minimise risk infecting people melancholy much hate seems pathetic existence going terms ive realised much,1 +always make strides others life life spite voice behind redflag take care myself hope others struggling thread know going life temporaryit pass know ive lower points life making risky decisions drinking drown sadness wanting take care me need take responsibility making shift life make better,1 +oi mates discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +helpanyone preferably age free open frank conversation via dm please,1 +teacher forced changed seats fucking hate it sit far right corner cant see shit whiteboard im legally blind specs aint much help things perfect sat middle center table fucking stupid reason forced change seats sat next friend bitch what quiet whole time classes talk friends recesses fucking teacher sees problem thats why even change others seats theyre ones loud fuck fuck,0 +opinions anarchy someone tells theyre anarchist would say return,0 +damn one girls class said feminine features feels good tbh im one tells stuff like tothis made day tho,0 +fucking donemy dad night irrational hypocrite doesnt fucking idea talking hurts deeply nicest guy day fucking done bullshit give problems family get shit get one argumentwhen right mom cant say anything fight mention brother sister rewarded fucking shit stirrers friends dont give fuck punching bag doesnt deserve wouldnt care disappeared grandparents thing keeping afloat ship sinking rapidly want end done unforgiving world hate bullshit want,1 +cant stand iti cant go on,1 +want go badbut cant leave boyfriend cats experienced lot trauma childhood still affects day dad also killed toddler mom everyone raised shunning decided want jehovahs witness anymore lost people once chronic mental physical illnesses im pain physically mentally every day able get keep job since cleaning job several years lost moved away different city im relying people live im extremely underweight hard get eat unless im medicated even enjoy meals trying choke past anxious knot throat hate body look like skeleton teeth poor condition problems neglect im joke peers feels like people around see loser look me im accomplishments feel proud of want source love light people around weight heavy im selfish place feel guilty that think ending lot afraid survive face people disappointed me survive partner know much kind loss hurts feel trapped,1 +want kill even know whymy life good mother loves love her friends love me wonderfull boyfriend love too go law school hard stresfull home really serious problem little problems while mostly economical problems nothing impossible overcome yet find crying everyday im sad time im alone okay im around friends laugh tell jokes boyfriend im happy everytime im alone start crying started even public sometimes public transport example cant stop even know im crying sad cant find single reason want like this want live life happy every time like want disapear times tried kill backed off mostly mother cat mother would left alone think would kill want happen want happy sometimes feel like cant live anymore know do try stay possitive tell lot reasons live seem work try new things find new hobbies distract think bad things nothing works feel like im getting worse everyday want tell friends boyfriend know would worried cant help me know do even money go therapist ive like years now bad cried times week thought killing often like said gettin worse pregressively since couple months every day same crying times day even know describe feel like sadness frustration depends mostly that exhausting feel like this mannage stop crying relax feel tired like single drop energy left still go school every day eat normal things do think im really bad im afraid someday get tired kill myself want happen know do english first language actually third one im sorry wrote things bad expressed bad know may problems grammar im aware lot people may situation me would really grateful could give kind advice like manage feel better stop sad whatever could try see helps too thank reading,1 +first appointment monday know expect expect first meeting psychiatrist,1 +theory _ _ cousins,0 +spacetoon homies here theme song lit,0 +start school tomorrow big sad ngl school stinky poo poo head,0 +yall show parents apparently really helps lower electric bill check seems really helpful edit fuck actually httpswwwquoracomwhatareyourpowervoltenergysaverreviewsisitascamoralegitelectricitypowersaver 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different mine nagging using lot passiveaggressive language talking felt like talking me found getting angry im grownass adult know take bins etc friction sofa made things tense wanted sofa already special armchair didnt understand need sofa close tv spoiler boyfriend partially sighted vision great either told this lockdown hit talked seeing boyfriends everyone lives shared houses youngest m said wanted still see told same said left really spoken since know seeing also wales ive trying make peace baking social ideas get know other suggested movie night said want hang us took things shared space ive struggling since sofagate plus id already falling behind work taking sick days knew keep up paranoia awful point convinced someones tampering food scared someone watchingfollowing me didnt tell didnt knowtrust them saturday accidentally opened package ms thinking mine text say so sunday landlord came visit clean things living room beforehand overslept woke panic went downstairs massive apology g landlord home this fell asleep woke texts g nagging mail lost me apologised offered replacement said crossing line complete lack respect also berated cleaning belongings landlord texted g asking angry cleaning was many texts decided final straw thoughts impossible silence called fast forward staying boyfriends got text g missing tupperware later sent photo bin saying i hope picture helps everybody remember led telling happened receiving massive angry texts trigger me something say call house meeting g said told moved ive mental health issues family similar issues didnt sign this chimed agreed said stop texting could call needed me kept texting me next day asked plans told owe that contacted landlord really fucking angry,1 +please reply see this many thanks anyone see post think mods disabled posts viewed others,1 +want die failed good koreani want die got math im korean really bad school today tried hang guy pulled rope me hate life cut upper left arm mess failure im stupid korean want die,1 +im sorryim sorry must go im sorry waste space im sorry cannot anyone im sorry one trust me im sorry everyone hates me must go carry leave life behind make everyone happy going away im sorry wont graduate college im sorry person people look too im jackass im sorry life short people like me im sorry wasting world resources im sorry living wasting away m today day go one stop today well leaving morning might change mind highly doubt cause everyone hates me goodbye everyone must go live somewhere else good night,1 +every time happiness skyrockets feel fucking awesome comes halt self hatred anger disgusting intrusive thoughts comes back plummets im back started like cycle right now feel happiness slowly coming halt yeah excited whats come,0 +wasted years lifesoon months started learn skill id way behind learned nothing people say possible wasted fucking did live fast short life useless body mind join gang die fast hard goddamn years lost want art digital first drawingbut even try making progress good artist started fucking one ill always pathetic want die die living high paced life fuck it pathetic could good gang military cares die never late never late yes fucking ill never get goddamn years back useless fucking leech good people something trained young yet fucking anything fuck this point,1 +live mobile homeenuf said,1 +checked post history holy crap anyways anyone wanna chat drift wonderland anyways looked post history alllll sub always night always loneliness odd innit,0 +woke sweat remembering rapei havent sleeping well lately lately almost years days since ive self harmed im tired tried reaching people life love support feels like im bugging them like things do everyone life dont want mine,1 +last week made passive choice stop fighting first time but think really going me reasons why nobody would miss memy family moved country parentssiblings permanent residents another country access plane ticket prices covid restrictions foreigner cannot ever live them funny even tell moving got passports renewed two months before college left myself yes think good reason believe death would impact daytoday life immediate family old friends barely talk job coworkers live ex soon move out going contact there nobody would legitimately miss way actually meaningful fact could bet could go month dead somewhere nobody would notice important like said job friends partner anything going life even pets depend me anything cannot find work assume skills education useless current market nothing offer anybody want here id say least important one still matters true reason want be prospects future looks bleak id rather control death cannot even control life there justifications leave apartment ex longer expects hear me find peaceful place away everybody say goodbye world cannot say good really best tried hard long time think nothing offer anybody anything world different without me posting think fair tell anybody irl want quiet exit also want explain myself reasons,1 +really appreciate jungwon done death everything want say choice love unselfish chose darim good him darim need time recover death obviously want let happen film chose giving up temporary agony darimbr br as comparison life without different behavior shows big difference eastern culture western culture cannot say better every one right choose totally you life equal everybody live once choice acceptable think fit youbr br in truth slow pace film cannot excuse rejecting movie calm down get moviebr br one best korean movies ever watched ,0 +pe straight people subject like bruh would always put much effort,0 +anyone want play minecraft server minecraftingaternosme version cracked,0 +heres night im sitting airport waiting flight leave everything behind disappeari deal anger fear episodes panic disorder anxiety disorder etc family everything today bad episode mom yelled makes pull hair scratch bleed unknown rash thats spread arms starting way back chest fear hurting mother today attack after took everything packed decided leave decided im safe meds havent helped whole year breaking point theres nothing world thats heartbreaking telling little brother loves anything last time youll see other im still crying noises airport making shake uncontrollably making itch bleed spots later today go say goodbye everyone love home grew up dont feel safe wouldnt live hurt someone loved control,1 +would still redflag choose die voluntary dehydrationi need list reasons im considering thats relevant question need someone tell reasons keep fighting keep going want that want keep going,1 +anybody considering it please dont gets better story inside longi normal childhood much little boy could whose father walked age mother worked double time odd jobs make ends meet keep roof heads food table little brothers myself graduated hs went onto college meet thought love life wasnt virgin also hadnt w lot women either anyway met began year romance relationship w her included graduating college getting first apartment together getting married little girl together one night middle dad cant say happened theories sleep deprivation moodiness problems within marriage itself got physical w other nothing horrible like always hear enough pressed charges tried take daughter me bruise bicep grabbed her left nail marks neck etc blood busted bones damaged furniture scared lost wife newborn daughter months time job because local news printing allegations apartment lease up moved took everything either bought together gifted wedding baby shower moved back w mother age days trying strong endure never ending relentless pain made horrifying decision one night write redflag notes leave pin debit card wedding band wallet passenger side vehicle walked nearest overpass about ft sent goodbye text wife called brother let know loved him closed eyes fell hit cement w impact knew injured pretty bad tried get standing position hip buckled laid bridge w oncoming traffic passing next hours degree weather passing consciousness mother knew something wrong issued missing persons report emts found loaded gurney never screamed loud life knew back severely messed slid board underneath me cold didnt even register pulse machines passed ambulance way icu first time waking up remember seemed time like giant heated pool cover kept days finally stabilized well back brace keep shattered pelvis hip together administered every two hours w dilaudid pic line says half life medicine hours believe tell seemed like wore much quicker that days finally went emergency surgery routine surgery lasted hours go complications pelvis shattered right side w incomplete break tailbone broken ribs two lower lumbar vertebrae shattered back surgery right lung collapsed put onto rebreather overnight week recovery mind still dosed every hours w dilaudid which equivalence street heroin barry eating lost lbs took weeks every level hospital get back health went icu emergency surgery recovery rehab also behaviors heath unit voluntarily signed hour hold happy say incident months ago got back gym gained frame muscle back living better life well first ever due june just fathers day guess came say thought couldnt get worse wrong right help support things get much better please value life get live once,1 +wild way takashi miikes later films good crime drama br br the basic story story cop japanese cop chinese parents trying take coming chinese mobster complicating things younger brother acting lawyer villain gang film actually much complicated several complications keep things interesting distract things central narrative thrust complication loss way hour film makes less great filmit good one definitely worth seeing especially mind frantic pacebr br a word warning violence happens explosive nasty also semigraphic depictions gay sex thats cup tea proceed cautionbr br ,0 +goodbyeim m tired things going hill me every attempt something gone horribly wrong im scared even happy realize nothing help everything seems go better nothing family seems happy friends much better without me looks world better without trying get it dont remember much high school every mistake ive made everything horrible ive seen sister pull knife mom elementary school twice apparently ive seen attempt redflag boyfriends breaking her parents want work hard athletic work school well cant it every attempt get help hasnt gone anywhere past hour asking okay have dont reason couple keep living out friend really good me hes like brother know hell fine hes stronger mentally physically crush im into know doesnt like way like thats kind way now video games dont give much happiness anymore fast lose game anything all ive planning four years now thing thats stopped note people care about believe better leave any know words misleading ive lost appetite think ill enjoy ice cream final snack thank you everyone trying,1 +pov told mum joke lecture im even fucking joking im finna stop making jokes,0 +closeted transgirl conservative grandfather well parents opening social transition comming weeks buying new clothes comming school today parents surprised random visit grandfather girlfriend like usual started asking things like life going keeps referring male sometimes even asks my girlfriend he gets meet her well parents know actually open this conservative man begin trouble mixed race why like chocolate grows from one statements that back subject interact older relatives time parents cousins avoid grandfather aunts uncles go never birthday parties dare real self there problem grandfather fragile old man know girlfriend going visit us surprise since dead ignored like five years cant hold back situation,0 +hey uhh im bored feel like are click here would guys like read story wrote years back tell ill post profile linking post ,0 +another face seaso amagain try get point life sucks constant struggle things choice do many responsibilities things need done want that none it want zero responsibilities want anything want support myself want work fifty years afford food shelter want constantly alone conflict alive means address problems nothing option thats want want nothing choice im alive im going things want do thats life is want that connect ideas want life amount pain experiencing immeasurable cant take it think fair say getting truly want alive impossible urgesthe urge slash wrists open intenseits painful fuck problemsi want want fuckin solve want stop ask this choose this want this care care make it stop,1 +descent madnessas look back life see failure failure one another kid fought time when tiniest kid around getting picked on regardless still get picked on hell sometimes someone literally rub cow shit overalls shop class regardless thats reason view life failure failure society consider first failure came got rejection letter rejection letter different schools dumbass procrastinated submissions lead joining military father said going fail way kind right joined military picked drinking like fish water got legal issues got honorably years since get shape drinking habit go combat see time much accomplishment tell is maybe believe then besides one biggest mistakes would come right military three months got working shit job retail store brother convinced start school fucking itt tech really need tell thats failure right anyways deep realized probably quit itt ended getting associates degree transferring actual state university continue studying found associates degree useful blank piece paper start square one called failure number three number two came year form dui drinking habit picked up failure number four would come year starting university via totaled car wrecking car left messed up regardless though quit drinking months started back continued onto several incidents one went road almost totaled car no drinking involved drunk let friend drive car didnt drink resulted blown engine useless car failure number buy dollar truck get get money fix car realize im good major chose leads failure number eventually graduate years two cars later one ive replaced blown engine roll year later months surgery call failure number also time im sure drinking caused wreck tried kill myself point im feeling like worse breathalyzer beat truck im seriously thinking hanging myself right wreck tell brother go ahead take gun range keep house longer trust cannot trust alcohol since wreck stop drinking touched drop since months ago failure number came via failure submit forms resulting raise rent thus move point depression officially diagnosed im starting antidepressants yet im still distracted mind somewhere else thats wrecked truck find insurance lapsed license suspended point im thinking one thing end it go freeway over call brother help completely break car thoughts jumping stealing gun kept running head jumping traffic hanging somewhere seemed theme way february start new job basically placed little hope left tried best seemed like going succeed become permanent employee three weeks ago go meeting im told numbers average theyre going extend temp time days later get email friday night telling go work temp contract ended theyve chosen hire full time all depression going full swing getting news via email help all keep thinking thoughts im unemployed seems taking bigger toll expected meds somewhat work thoughts still there follow through im tied need someone know,1 +developing crush guy met reddit lmao kinda embarrassing hella cute,0 +opportunity watch filming slavic villagebroadway area wait see final copybr br viewing film cleveland premier last fridayi laughed loud comedy long time great slapstick russo brothers fine job directing entire cast performs best comedic acting slow dry segments george clooney one favorite actors hes great crippled safe breaker flick imprest william h macy crook riley michael jeters toto keep stitches believe funniest roles entire movie,0 +what triggered metoday found father ex best friends died shocked sad even tho friends anymore still feel bad them last months thought would something happened parentswell probably die right after reality hit like truck death father showed reality basically living parents would terrifying besides one cares me anyone else care about years old horrified life main thing cannot live myself hate much cannot participate hobbies stuff need live good life feel empty also guilty everyone privileges do want myself never wanted be mdder live real world escape fantasies instead shit anything anyone sacrifice others go work helpful maybe like ghandi mother teresa similar kind helpful going live myself want familyhusbandwife kids partners friendsi live othersthe general society someone why hate myselfmy monolog structured jumped one thought anotherit long probably worth time goes hate empty am always say wrong things always care wrong people managed make people hate actually liked beginning thing would call the self even persona social mask person vessel filled contradicting emotions empty without identity even tho searched whole teenage life never ambitions future plans besides killing in dreams ideas future saw unreachable gaved up leaving head instead making reality well technically dead inside now cannot cry shout someone else always one shouted at right piece shit going lie pretend otherwise still hurts trying good always something wrongi fucking stupid pathetic bad person naturally suck even decent person felt guilty behaviour went school months made lot trouble etc could punish provoke finally attempt suicide obviously one knows also care know also fucking gross meits going embarrassing teenage years unhealthy obsessed love person lot crushes few three specific hate obsessive behaviour disgusting embarrassing basically always long crush someone longest three years instead do going crush idk one month asking befriending them stalked social media etc seems fine most also tried meet person town purposefully went thought might be next delsuion person rescue me see shit like skins example infamous effy two guys trying help rescue her inspired movies shows like unhealthy attachment stamps everyone hating ignoring me assumed person could save normal life particular person one cared even tho friends them heck friends cared less person seemed genuinely concerned me like person first even bother friendly seeing cared could resist developed feelings started crave persons attention love and partly still am extend obsessed emotions made makes behave like narcissist maybe one emotions ruled life nothing mattered person eyes loved them love filled void self hatred created wanted badly rescue life obsession came from hate personality also happened ugly dumb lol waste air yes plain jane hope look better even tho empty inside vessel ever becomes pretty people annoy menegative harrassment like bullying anymore dumb part self explanatory lot way lazy write now edit post something new comes mindbtw sorry english native speakeredit typos vent hate myself take kind,1 +im backhey guys im back ive home weeks sinus surgery im going back boarding school sunday im really depressed get urge whenever opportunity comes kill myself might run away one thing stopping life ahead whole future set me im going inheriting large sum money im older figure life great then another thing stopping happens death anyone available chat im interested people believe happens death please comment pm me,1 +typical happy hour cocktailall physicians might see course several months treating different things wind perfect makings amitriptylene cocktail youd think someone would pick rx combination even time someone risk,1 + yo recent college grad struggling w severe treatment resistant depression yrs tried dozen meds dbt cbt residential amp iop programs alike amp done tms w little success moved back w parents amp c way ill b depressed amp useless amp live w forever feel like fate telling time die weak even that psychiatrist wants ect want risk memory loss get comfortable w dying still hope me sending love also struggling lt think time die hv strength,1 +im going hang hours goodbye redditits great knowing you,1 +dad accidentally sent text talking bruh know react bc fucking hilarious humiliating time ngl,0 +try anything anything think anything end want kill myselftoday way home visited good friend caught spiral thinking able treat girlfriend decently depressed bad days dream family think need to reason try would better would dead another dream mine become engineer although passed tests semester able go lecture class went took exam cant around people thats pretty much never electrical engineer thus want die cant fight battle alone even though tried years now hard scream help get marked someone needs attention sometimes seems people think therapy fun always smiling kind defense mechanism makes want end life end alone sick tired get rejected withyoure nice guy looking someone right now like afraid tell good enough them need wait painful years something obviously happen know friends understand mental illness definitely support system way talk someone reddit makes want die nobody know cares shit honestly blame them nobody likes looser society definitely losing life,1 +maybe timeim sure im looking wanted maybe constructive criticism here last months ive struggled get bed single parent mother died last year really shook me cannot fathom empty made feel think kind first step long year me months moms death met girl intelligent interesting interested me attractive instantly chemistry keep hands sex first night ever saw other fast forward month so girl im seeing death family mom think caused weird sort energy relationship really think things gone differently constantly support her met family shoulder cry months thought time would maybe help get problems didnt think made resent her sad know death unimaginably brutal every person way think really changed her became completely reliant around her needed attention constantly give time grieving own get wrong rude girl anything definitely considerate listen whenever want talk never remembers often changes subject sadness seems like open shut case right one me thats okay serious time now somewhat recuperating death mother still love really way care human want hurt worse needed to however say this yet dont even consider feelings want kill myself remember first night met great passionate night gave herpes feel like cant girl feel stuck im necessarily looker thats sure feel like putting hsv positive dating website probably work me im constantly torn girl completely alone or taking easy way out know thats never answer im rational guy feels like anymore truly feel like every single aspect life screaming it everything seems hopeless im sure turn to mom gone ever had just give silver lining cant find one tldr mom died put depression met girl whose mom died immediately began rough relationship felt obligated care her wishing to gave herpes feel like get pick anymore,1 +dumb storyjust typing form therapy guess tried kill lighting house fire dont remember anything told fifteen days induced coma months burn unit half body burned arrested arson taken psych ward local jail denied medical attention dragged court seeping pus theres lot story gives fuck charged worst possible level crime equivalent capital murder bargained state jail felony whatever means released jail approximately months spent almost years homeless probation court breathing neck expecting pay money dont means get it im disability living apartment provided housing charity still probation officer wants put back jail every day nightmare life keep living it dont know guess point try kill better get done right one cares youll live rot fuck up,1 +deal selfconscious hey fellow teens probably worth time need vent mind skip anyway ampxb ever since went secondary school feeling like shit almost years ago hear insults back forth me get easier mainly due friends insult me berate me make fun feel powerless team feel excluded came gay recently proud make fun still exclude birthday parties meetups going town group chats group chats hating always think joke back mind really know say shit me always small weak look gross poor straggot whatever tf means terrorist im brown muslim faith voice high pitched facial hair never find love make fun last name butt even fair handed them pronounced spelt literally butt hear shit creative ugly skinny eat something bones remember time utubiey insert embarrassing cringy thing past stinky teeth gross feel like shit hate person see mirror much actively try look mirris cause hate am hate teeth hate braces hate glasses hate skin colour hate faith hate height hate voice hate face hate eyes hate last name used idgafy extrovert like starting conversation new people try make new friends meet new people fear see flaws see reason feel much shittier somewhat bearable one thinks shit know closest friends think breaks me granted best friend either first years would deny say insult back theses last almost im giving up agree insults ive made sure stop insulting made worse fucked second main friend group first one excluded berated jazz would go fun shit would spam picture fun feel fucking power feel like im horrible even outside school hang online friends new guy recently joined every one likes insults skill shit much racist shit hear every day hate taking photos see self see list flaws ampxb anyway thanks coming ted talk,0 +happened user goodbyeannonymousi reading little girl wanted take life years ago anyone know managed bridge family together leave behind safetysake,1 +therapy forced disclosure diewould therapist disclose information talked kill myself whats deal forced disclosure redflag would family sort inquiry able find talking about id rather stuff die moment people would surprised commited redflag would feel like invasion privacy found private thoughts live australia btw,1 +many cans get drunk lbs im lbs want know much need drink,0 +im bored lonely need friends so groupchats shit posting memes talking anime dope nerd shit,0 + commit redflag mondaymy situation pity asked raise job listed position higher salary have like increase send email person resposible forward manager set meeting monday angry email think fire mei working months working one half year contractor nothing left life sucks job dedicated sure none appreciate it highly debt fired kill myself want now,1 +angeri feel extreme anger resentment towards every aspect life especially today wish could die thoughts could go away,1 +feeling please text facebook details texthey guys letting strong tuff motherfuckers nothing one bring u down im physically addicted alcohol opiates u get cramps feel sick till u take drug anyway live alone shed see one go nowhere get depressed shit everyday guess life goes on like said im lost mates overdoses older brother redflag pain depression u give people kill another level homeless months last year months year ive locked juvenile detention times ive bashed times count ive robbed ive held nights taken away druggo parents yrs old ive pretty muched lived streets around brisbane since ran away foster parents last thing want take life want show hope people n out letting definitely alonei personally would rather live beside creek eating drugs till die killing myself anyone blue yellow white black fat skinny tall short whatever thats feeling well wants talk im remember im lonely u scared text feel free add facebook name jake elchapo picture holding rifle please im begging u text me,1 +fuck schooleveryone tells important future whatever wanna fucking die dont want future im bored give shit anything,1 +oh sorry dropped iphone pro max gb memory ahhskwkaodk kakifudhe jajajdididue jahchydgebsh,0 +beautiful reflection lifes desperation misdirection finding love tragic time absurdly entertaining people give film chance ignorance mere reflection itself next time,0 +call duty cold war playthrough come watch want watch thickchipmunkgamer twitch httpwwwtwitchtvthickchipmunkgamersra,0 +first two films johnny to film many awards none prestigious cannes golden palm nominationbr br the triad elects leader far democratic behind scenes machinationsbr br tony leung ka fai zhou yus train ashes time redux big d plans take baton matter takes even means war well war going happen bad business big change tune orbr br good performances simon yam louis koo ka tung lam infernal affairs iii along tony leung ka faibr br whether masons made men mafia members wo sing society ceremonies same fascinating watchbr br to continued,0 +want thank wonderful years wanted thank memes funny rants found sub want remember love ur fan,0 +cheers lost onesraising glass all bunch misfits fighting painful feelings together anxiety depression putting fake smiles friends family wanting stay bed day wake all lost some lose plenty more still fighting together salute all fellow hurting brothers sisters lose wish peace ones battling get pain know im hope youre me,1 +bus driver appreciation post day thank bus driver dave getting school,0 +pulling nighter eastern time right staying till hopefully ,0 +im fuckedso redflag always bit problem me really looking like legitimate possibility im type get emotional things honestly see killing logical alternative tomorrow go way think might court date tomorrow quite possibly ruin life background getting rid old truck uninsured unregistered died me left side road going get towed police found first gave three tickets insurance rego abandoning private property without consent im almost make less year fines could depending big dick judge is cannot afford that top insurance gonna skyrocket criminal record going keep school thus taking away whatever future might had everything falling apart really see killing wrong parents able afford funeral,1 +finding meaning life accepting none udabutteryboy ,0 +bro realized girlfriend man man girlfriend holy shit dont know landed like damn fuckin cute beautiful man wanna cuddle like shit man finally somehow landed,0 +went movie perhaps bit jaded hackandslash films rampant screen days boy surprised little treasure pleasantly paced somber dark atmosphere surprising yet limited amount blood actually shown good movies one leaves something imagination bill paxton superb job directing scenes shot inside car well done and watching anatomy scene episode end video tape good see subtle yet wonderful things noticed intentional oh looks good keep it type direction moody movie filled grimness still dark subject considerable portion filmed daylight even disturbing scenes acting exceptional okay ive always fan powers booth never goes top au contraire subdued works extremely well type film one area film lacks ending seems bit contrived still works simpler level without destroying mood message movie message something individual decides themself overall scale movie scores like southern gothic genre ie body heat midnight garden good evil dont,0 +parents understand concept online games example playing valorant mid match unrated still mom came rooms door said go take trash dust room like no mom mid game cant right now wait minute said pause it knew online game understand cant pause bro,0 +lie lotwhenever doctors people ask you want hurt yourself right always say no wish wake up lie ive spent hours hours researching ways kill effective know ill it know when nothing left feel like end year give everyone clean slate new year,1 +fucking it fuck you depression fuckign it fucking told stepdad depression shit went well im flurry fuckin emotion rn holy fuck fucking it almost years years hell fucking told somebody actually help me fuck yeah im losing shit,0 +want outim done trying happy tried consoling many medications ive lost track ive tried losing weight exercising ive tried talking it hahahha funniest advice could talk it im blue face end day change anything still think killing every day seems like need come terms fact never happy family really tired trying help blame them last couple years told fine medication working cured ive pretty much lost control life friends thats exaggeration cant remember last time talked someone sleep day today slept hours doctors appointment refill medication overslept arrived minutes late see even though usually sit waiting room mins anyway maybe im cynical actually seemed pretty happy telling missed appointment like somehow getting medication reward deserve it told it really important arrive time refill controlled substances next opening appointment week doctor told there withdraw effects medication fine days went drop application apply major college hour late closed today deadline hahah probably thinking emotional really bad day thats going kill myself wrong feel anything maybe slightly happy might finally get courage motivation finally end life since cant take medication normal right dreams basically crushed get major probably drop next year wake pm feel something right like angry myself sad cant even bring cry pretty scary knowing literally cant bring care anything anymore guess sign need go guess stop bye,1 +need someone talk tothinking killing sometime now need someone talk since noone,1 +ran across movie local video store yearly sidewalk sale scanning thousands videos hoping find cartoon movies sale came across movie read back movie knew gods hand work purchase movie see sibling group three foster and soon adopted children living family immediately foster children made connection three children starring movie movie helped better understand circumstances first time also oldest sibling group year oldfemale decided open little bit past trauma experienced fighting entire trust issue also first time seen cry watching film asked meant child adopted replied it means happy must see families fostering children considering adoption certainly opened lines communication us,0 +think ill die daysi think die days beacse suffering breathlessness world beautiful gonna miss it love all,1 +anyone or know anything about dependent personality disorderi formally diagnosed this particular disorderhttpenwikipediaorgwikidependent_personality_disorder although ive diagnosed related problems like anxiety depression strong feeling it tick almost every single box however ive never met anyone else problem cant find anything reddit either except passing references someone ive cornered listening suggested post it many different issues hard know one ends another begins seems like one biggest feel utterly helpless make decisions life without someone else guide care me usually accomplish lowrisk lowpressure things like posting internet own anything that even seemingly simple tremendously difficult me mind constantly occupied thoughts alone year ive lost remaining serious reallife friend almost entirely result overdependence understand tiring others almost relationship family fear recently become reality every day gets harder harder accomplish even basic things lately feel forced circumstance habit like going work anything optional less regular even things like going grocery store become impossible me ambition kind no serious financial educational occupational family desires real goals life except surround people care rely on since desire ability carry myself thoughts frequently turn redflag as many years inability act make decisions makes fearful actually following through motivation might suppressed one issues depression ocd anxiety bodyimage problems maybe worst part words make anyone else understand it tried explain people left life get depression anxiety aspects cant grasp overwhelming feeling powerlessness comes things own think see sort helplessness people often feel depression ive experienced know difference enough peptalking usually motivated things depression something else all short new best friend falling sky cant think way solve becomes completely unbearable theres nobody near fill role need filled nobody ive met even relate it anybody experience this supposed do,1 +lookin gaming buddies hi im looking someone play games cause gaming fun someone else right games im currently playing rn are league legends valorant apex legends overwatch im open suggestions tho ,0 +guys post killing yet find excuses to genuinely ask ways kill someone provide fake theory hard yet group literally called suicide watch basically posts i kill unless someone comments gives solid reason to someone comments feel proud saving someone life personally get it exactly point group ,1 +brotheri know one see this reason makes feel better posting unknown internet keeping inside im brother know it single thing keeping alive something dont future hes bright hes funny everything going him deserve grow burden dead older sister deserves everything good life grow without me grow pain heart much want end all wont ever comes that hope understands,1 +trey parker matt stone creators show south park return something 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like every interaction forced even try hardest still painfully obvious insecure wretch unemployed uneducated longer anyone talk besides councillor week sure really much either longer enjoy anything used interest me even given music point want companionship feel like ill never able attain become fucking numbed boring one ever wants befriend me know want life feel like real guidance destined work soul destroying jobs hate make miserablei feel alone unable anything feelings good enough constantly push people away fear might see way see myself even want try more every time something good still manage fuck beyond repair end back square one life feel like worth pain loneliness understand ever get better feeling like end rope,1 +think ive relapsing sure need help definitely need ventthis rant trigger warning anyone extremely vulnerable right now read this ampxb little else turn time longer time see psychologist medications never worked first place ive five years now theres friend around handle well family already enough checking hospital option projects cannot miss would send debt regardlesswhich course would make things worse cant tell relapse depression depression pause couple months couple days really cant remember memory always returning fading lately ebbing receding slog cant seem keep track anymore years seemed like mood swings changed seasons deteriorated months weeks days every morningevery moment random roll dice recognize feelings anymore think navigatedthe anxiety depression paranoia fear sorrow rage loneliness etc wake next morning im back square one whats hilarious im couchlocked bedridden cut everybody yeah perhaps slightly difficult get bed mornings still ride bike still go gym four times week still practice yoga daily attend parties socialize eat healthy obsessively maintain creative hobbies get work time yet miss class semester grades still as bs debt major legal problems children addictions drink weekends touched cannabis year and even rare occurrence due panic attacks touched drugs several yearsprescribed otherwise complaining every day want fucking end already walk mountains forest maybe onto coast somewhereill lie earth let nature take back everything dissolve back dust came continue sustenance things deserve it every evening look mirror see disheveled man staring back grey beginning spring facial hair receding hairline blue eyes slowly losing spark life laugh fucking ass off lift shirt hey abs still there muscles cant stop checking still visible im fat thank god im fat hands still dexterous enough draw paint write crooked spine hips shoulders scream chronic agony mind rages like hurricane despite best efforts eternally fixated wrong world everything wrong myself every reason idespite best painstaking effortshave utterly incapable fixing both fucking life cant ridiculous hype about doesnt feel great alive hahahahahaha like im trapped movie foreseeable happy ending keep barely scraping past psychosis everyone else around drudges mindnumbing shit dayin dayout try distract get pissed point obvious finally get crack admit sit back horror realize reality may closer real deal hoped laugh well stable friend year plan explains hopes deal overwhelming fact we fucked decades drink edge alcohol poisoning game pool laugh sit floor hacking bile cant think romantic way end missionary wanderluster college wannabe artist lying next bed blood vomit gasping breath yet laughing brings back vitality suddenly im good go again fucking perfect cant tell im still sometimes quite honest im beginning wonder downhill here delirium insane lately end intelligence slowly dissipates return random times basic math gone writing skills bye bye science learned failed major history organization next chopping block incoherent babble nonsense spewing onto keyboard recall watching friend diagnosed bipolar disorder gradually slipping cognizance senile old manbut also bright begin with yet mom experienced similar deterioration took year onset devolved shooting caliber slug skull idiot ran business loving marriage took care three children perfect house perfect neighborhood socialized everyone doctors psychologists also figure hell happened her whatever malignant shit is obviously blood ive come terms that one else has also hoping works out maybe get degree meet awesome girl fall love move pnw start anew overly strange guarded tendencies suddenly subside ill find way career love finally get pieces gallery achieved within next couple decades course ive seen northernmost parts world yes fucking eyes anyone billionaire likely screwed maybe ill drive ruby beach spring string watching sunset know do honestly seem way current situation death aside end finding kind internal misery end daunting struggle okay maybe chance scenario previously mentioned basically everything im aiming right now fails know unfortunately im past middle s according psychologists likely stuck with terrifies beyond words perhaps insanity mental degradation escape regard though terrifying acid trips years ago taught anythingi shit show ifwhen mind slips completely frank im tired want storm inside end no im talking jungian order vs chaos bullshit ive nature enough see chaos disrupted order stated before simply wish rest head grass bark old tree let last breath let earth devour me least month meditation mountains still keep breathing nervous system craves dissolution consciousness sex lights ecstasy whenever lucid enough think it entertains unparalleled dreams beautiful places exist moments actually fall asleep tell me this escape to thats obviously bullshit escape disintegration nothingness enticements nonetheless apparently nothing makes serotonin flow like suicidal euphoria keeps alive hope new experiences artistic endeavors getting fucking degree finally familyespecially family seeing struggles one suicide already infuriating know hell would willingly putting decide end own last thing give throw abyss im scared want believe keep alive,1 +worth living ugly masculine fake womannobody gives fuck people like me even people would fuck trans woman fetish im literally worthless,1 +know doim sure word one first reddit posts oh well im feel like future everything seems make sadder know want commit redflag not live life purpose existing ended yet want hurt anyone around make anyone feel mom feel sad do life feels worthless edit also closet gay,1 +reminded actually talk mental health issues sort traumatic history no whoops talk so support mental health awareness ladeeda people going leave hanging thread best reach actually say struggling bad posted reexperiencing trauma social media,1 +giving monthsif change gets worse im gone,1 +depression feels like something lives me corner room sometimes there quiet silent watching me wondering sometimes attacks without warning without advance destroys tears apart every possible way fighiting years yet seems like always find place room this monster facing me hated myself pitted myself felt numb paralyzed hopeless screaming empty place possible things yet always place room monster watching me till put mind that i okay oh fine gone i already smiling fine finding next moment day time second breathe monster crawling looking again ampxbsometimes feel like becoming monster myself thoughts,1 +wasting money brother ordering japanese light novels cant read japanese,0 +kill make familyfriendsso sadi sorry spent whole life trying make others happy making happy restful may finally dying live others basically,1 +fun bmovie shepis absolutely beautiful scarecrow distinct original really brought back monsters s budget obviously low everybody pacino behind lens matter never takes seriously trailer trash redneck high flying martial arts moves scarecrow truly bmovie gem grab refreshments snacks couple friends kick back relax enjoyed film much went purchased scarecrow films sure theyre everybody own sometimes set thinking cap smile,0 +fianc remembers lot together couple cant remember shit barely remember logins cant believe forgot everythingso yeah title expresses pretty much way home eating told play song played asked remember played th birthday got mad sheepishly said dont remember sorry kept saying remembers everything did sat car felt horrible felt terrible forgot need feel real happiness havent felt since kid ignorant world bubble protection then now much drove eat saying take stuff granted maybe took life granted happy nothing us feel bad remembering since becamethisthis badi havent really felt true happiness made want crawl cave kill myself forgot th birthday forgotten birthdays soon ill even forget th ive already forgotten th th bit blurry honest dont want forget anymore birthdays physically dont feel happiness feel pain forget good know im writing novel feel like remember havent got slightest clue happiness is forgotten friggin life im deep well thats rain way out parents yell forgetting things remember like fault actually is brain isnt working like should depression doesnt cause deep sadness creates problems like forgetfulness like me try try try get out damn near impossible feel like maybe people forget exist like forget past birthdays fianc proud remembering birthday even feel like world doesnt need me one wants here anyways relation world anyway im another human being another air taker resource guzzler im waste time im forgetful fuck feel needed maybe time leave earthz,1 +im love w floofy haired boys ok hate this im lovely period watched tiktok super cute guy floofy hair dimples fyp started crying bc hes prob old lives miles away me ended watching couples cute cuddle pillow basicly pretended pillow one floofy haired tiktok boy kissed pillow entire night anyways today took bath watched youtube hoe watched started kissing boyfriend got mad threw phone toilet hows ur day been,0 +reasons stay alive personal collectionsince feeling better moment use momentum collect things enjoy could deter commiting redflag listening rachmaninovs nd piano concerto watching dancing stars mum watching house md mum play niece nephew play zelda breath wild kiss woman sex use log happily accept suggestions,1 +posting jokes im depressed day theres nothing depressing failed redflag attempt,0 +took way many pillsive trying die longest time now today took ibuprofen tablets claritin got bored feel anything ordinary ill probably go day usual unless something changes family know thing day die,1 +hate parents talked told suicidali got fight parents reveled considered redflag know went hour long lecture selfish cowardly continued insulting forced say degrading shit myself sick it know cowardly know people leave behind get hurt cant help think like this time opinion like theyll shove throat wished theyd fuck die,1 +please check subs rjohncena rpotatosalad trust,0 +ive considered redflag realized would make things worseim older teenager things going pretty damn rough lately quite while ive never wanted endure pain dying considered jumping oncoming traffic overdosing pills week ago realized would make things worse still chance get want life fun plus want look lifeless body able interact world anymore wanted get,1 +coronavirus good anything least good topic small talk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler this good enough,0 +dont know anything make happy anymoreim last year high school nothing motivating keep going except college know life turn around college right hard keep living amazing friends great dad great things life hate myself hate look hate im hung boy hate cope hooking people hate want kill myself hate think redflag least times day hate different march need get shit together dont know how want work again want find whats wrong mentally want feel motivated again dont know start,1 +tf girls confusing like told crush like her said ready relationship wanted stay friends keeps gazing im class super confusing,0 +im thinking jumping bridgeall friends either relationships hookups im ive nothing seriously need solid reason end it,1 +actually point livingim struggled redflag past three four years usually school also everything else news always awful people murdering dumb reasons theres whole fucking pandemic country usa done hardly anything about first time long time feel genuinely scared whats going happen future meanwhile pretend optimistic prepare adulthood spending three hours online schoolwork day parents tell im trying hardest ive clean self harm around six months jesus whats point it want talk parents would even do last time attempted got sent hospital week nurses glared patients way worse take back there like would give break school im keen therapy pandemic last time went therapy could never work courage actually trust therapists i went three antidepressants before made feel even worse ive abandoned friends im awful person everytime talk someone shake usually ghost people online im confident enough take art commissions im dedicated enough write book talents cant even use anything feels like keep living ill watch everything spirals downward actually reason die sorry ranty im emotional right now im probably edgy teenager ill also probably regret wake,1 +im genius im ask crush big brain way first im gonna tell im gonna need advice ask someone out im gonna play along advice stuff actually use advice ask way says it profit hopefully likely not one likes me,0 +punishment story time biology teacher entered several assignments grade book marked missing administration parents decided enters night cant celebrate thanksgiving family ill grounded next month sorry waisting time wanted rant situation,0 +belive happened made post reddit karma way post rdankmemes,0 +cant cryi cant cry time want remember really social really healthy incredibly ambitious smiling type even felt shit seems exaggerated completely idealistic remember teachers kept saying oh ability needs push himself notion keep pushing pathetic want love everyone everyone love other love people make people happy cant even happy myself dreamer still am least realise theyre dreams nothing else still get point life fully articulate im feeling words never wanted express im feeling wanted prove everyone it thats fantasy matter nice make look love love others,1 +im kidwhy me wanted happy someone hate me,1 +new type suicidal thoughtsfirst off might well give basic information im ive plagued thoughts since early teens ive years therapy tonnes different antidepressants antipsychotics none really seemed help much all ive learned live it even going different professionals ive still never properly diagnosed anything slight anxiety disorder like therapy though nice that since im work next month so im therapy get insurance back pills year now past used idealize redflag escape pain monotony living lately become much intriguing idea nothing necessarily wrong life fact things going pretty well hang friends much can im well college courses two possible internships lined summer go back work month previously stated lately ive hooking girl every weekend free despite still constantly live suicidal thoughts seem there theyve always had think them interesting seems actually go it honestly want thoughts stop everything perfect hate end day still wish wake next day exercise frequently eat healthily smoke cigarettes drink know thats contributing factor honestly something ive picked last year half help pass time help cope stresses juggling relationships friends family work college courses short want commit redflag escape suicidal thoughts rather escape living never experienced before know do maybe much free time now maybe itll go away little go back work highly doubt itll go away fully hours lot time try use best ability reading exercise writing netflix video games school work classes hanging people matter im still left alone thoughts im getting sick it though know happy,1 +anybody play csgo so rank you,0 +anyone wanna add snapchat incase need someone at time chat chillas said add chill maybe empty out remove dust vacuum cleaner yknow sc byrnez,1 +drinking kombucha avoiding eye contact yeast demon bottom clean room play videogames daily chores summer reading,0 +hope allall want right jump window way end misery feel like one talk me dorm hall knocked friends doors there texted one friend asking wanted go dinner never responded college open parties never get invited any one texts asking want talk hang out cry time one wants me whenever cry make sure nobody hears me fear ill get attention fear one care cut shower days ago gets even people never talk ones reach once disappear like one friend texted year half ive diagnosed depression tried everything hospitalized three times went counseling week took three different kinds antidepressant meds plus two mood stabilizers nothing ever worked way ever feel better accepted like everybody else die im sure former never happen told death campus would affect entire community yeah fucking right get ignored life would get ignored death,1 +everyone celebrating bidens victory like president yet trump put fight feels like horror movie defeated monster theres still hour movie left lol,0 +rteenagers discord nice know theres one maybe know ,0 +found ass eating isnt joke thank you ill pass gooch grease im bottom feeder,0 +took gummy vitamins im still high working hfxu x yxurxt cutcucyvubpucurxextctocugubibuvrzrxtcubinp,0 +finally timeive conciously suicidal around years now though chances suicidal words great ive song dance while ive gotten help changed life grew up fell love got job whole nine yards everything anyone ever given solution feeling tried helped time others end still feel way help everything wilted either friendships faded love moved california pursue job studies longer excite me job miserable day one therapist stopped talking months ago ive lost losing everything given hope future cant find go looking again wise man told sort person people keep like particularly smooth rock brightly colored leaf im sort people lose interest pretty much soon lose balked then proven true time time again hold anyones interest im even holding mine ive fallen back old signs worsening depression appetite energy want talk anyone anything everything ive said past months feels like mistake want text long distance boyfriend want exist want fade obscurity soft smoke want presence cease be so ive decided start prepping clean apartment distance friends family save pay last month rent front roommate struggle maybe ill take train ontario see canada first time go quietly hotel room something soft something final give everyone wants chance good bye chance without letting catch on want make scene want fade away want hurt them me im waiting finally time go,1 +neighbor yelling dog pooping lawn like yeah definitely dog,0 +suicidal thoughts fucking examhello everyone im starting suicidal thoughts miserably failed submit assignement resulted low mark therefore ive failed exam still chance pass exam september despite that im suicidal failing exam means money means cannot go switzerland continue esports etc would lifeworthless,1 +im ready give upi felt like shit months now everything getting worse know get going think time give up hurt tonight im done thinking it felt like writing here get chest,1 +whats something youve always wanted tshirt im trying create designs sell would love hear ideas things would actually buy,0 +really dont want think futurelife doesnt really meaning anymore barely get days see people im close worried me cant help feeling would less burden died right now dont get joy anything anymore whole concept happiness foreign years im considering ending life done wouldnt think things anymore then im fucking tired everything sick failing thing succeed at it dont think would hard people know get death ive never really meant much anybody know theyd forget me im content that dont want remembered am all,1 +turns press button post really fast actually see bit see feed see look woooo secret text anyways good health feeling great take time take deep breath thru nose thru mouth feels good clogged nose huh take moment think whats going well today go ahead talk it day going well that it explain username is,0 +need iti thought well enough want myself mostly ive depressive episode hadnt showered week barley ate anything didnt energy really think killing myself kept wondering anxious today realized overwhelming emotions caught me desperately wish dead theres nothing want dead dont want wake feel fucking selfish even think like people fighting lives killing would make feel guilty pain ive caused people want gone good,1 +thinking last letters everybody clear reasons mental state abusive mother therapist care less clear contributors relatives friends care course innocents children nice people issuesi wish tell people made decision care still afraid end mother therapist blame others innocents left wonder wrong sort want dick anyone also want people use ignorance mean might someone could save at least therapist future realize power would write it blaming others,1 +may academy awards admittedly pretty cheesy much fun nothing makes smile like bill ted lovable optimistic hilarious bill ted great way unwindbr br although love excellent adventure bogus journey funnier me death flippin hilarious bill ted even endearing people give grief loving movie really pretentious moviewatchers say even bit entertaining like this probably also fan waynes world dude wheres car dumb dumber admit it though foolish make grin turn tickle box over watch kicks giggles,0 +anyone feel like life force throati feel like everything life force upon im forced act way way im forced go school im forced work job passion im forced smile im forced cry im forced get married kids im forced mostly everything ask honest dont want allmaybe eating forced upon maybe hobbies forced upon menothing good nothing enjoyable life enjoyable wake morning i feel like im damn forced wake go workampschool place hate i want sleep forever thats something desire yet still need feel depressed years wow,1 +done itso longterm broke again fault pressuring again thought wed gotten back point could work things without breaking it pushed depression continued hatred me terrible feeling realizing lied several months feelings towards you know messed up everything power make you im sorry became needy thing refused talk happened im sorry kept coming give space home happy find alone friends really understand depth im feeling decided im going end life graduation next week were want die broke up lied forgiving me terrible horrible thing do really sucks love hate much want internal fire stop wanted help you let help you,1 +think ill leaving soon nobody cares me lonely desolate world never thought option feel way people care ones desolate also im sad feel like im worthless look mirror see shadow want alone absolutely nothing im wasting time,1 +thanksi want say thanks people help rredflagwatch thats great even sometime work keep watch others nice ,1 +bf care commit redflagi dating years love deeply im using redflag way control really bad mental issues ive gotten help im antidepressants years difference im ready want know affect want hurt him,1 +watch movie truly good ride difficulties making indie movie happens blows film makers face theres lot stuff punk rock philosophy behind movement relationship project old punk american punk dig it but beware theres ton bad acting bits failed project incorporated yet come funny times and actually best parts listening people never involved movie making pontificate went three year period took put together anyone thats make film especially film school worked field watch learn film makers mistakes,0 +ahaha tears fall like glitter sparkle facd sobs violently pls give hug,0 +endim going end pitiful existence tomorrow care may say mean anything goodbye good life,1 +live woman started cheating mei nowhere go place go way get there place go amp way get there way make money credit completely wrecked banking friends family job car membership anything way out need hear damn good reason live,1 +ive bed days straifhti get shit eat eat dayi work april extend end july go back work july th im scared im judt gonna wnd disappointing wceeyone im meant world parents hated would kill without hesistation bc love stay alive im tired,1 +think meant longhad post throwaway account think handle life longer really envision future let alone tomorrow normally main priority get day without something stupid feel like always trying reach friends mental state make apparent care know pretend sad actually it thats shit ampxb ones know sad family members especially mom reason end even know thats enough anymore,1 +halloween dog halloween dog lovers hey folks 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rage drinking muchbr br brenda fricker brilliant job mother taking care him father brood siblings struggling keep roof heads daylewis begins success work complements daylewis performance warmhearted mother shares many poignant moments himbr br richly detailed story family stayed together unusual circumstances attention period detail every frame film fricker daylewis oscars hugh oconor ray mcanally also excellent oconor christy boy mcanally father spends much time local pub loves boybr br summing up elmer bernsteins music added plus factor well worthwhile definitely film everyone,0 +nothing metric life worth staying except stupid catanything compartmentalize area life terrible partner interests friends hate job im terrible even know ill job go back im broke cant find new job field car needs work money apartment feels like prison might lose soon anyway one care one cares me spend every minute crushing loneliness failure see way out even anyone give hug text message im worst spoken another person face face two weeks literally nothing getting worse day day ampxb keep thinking could find heroin fentanyl lot it ive never done either guess means would take less ampxb love fucking cat anyone could trust take wake every fucking day life hate know hes happy,1 +biographical film the lady red hair the story director producerplaywright david belasco transformed notorious society divorcee mrs leslie carter international stage star certainly league warners biopic similar vintage yankee doodle dandy what is lady enjoyable film rightand shares quite traits common cagney classic br br like yankee doodle dandy the lady red hair brims old time showbusiness flavor among things films feature delicious theatrical boardinghouse sequences well inevitable scenes set backstage theatrical managers offices also lady cohan biopic supporting cast made familiar beloved character actors period sort topnotch work remember for br br need add that like yankee doodle dandy the lady red hair let truth get way telling good story but also like dandy lady managegloriouslyto convey esssence showbusinessgiant heros largerthanlife personality everyone knows cagney limned cohan time brilliant affectionate portrayal yankee doodle dandybut moviegoers realize claude rains similar service david belasco the lady red hair and panache almost equals cagneysbr br rainsasbelasco perfectly captures legendary showmans galvanic personality outsized glory rains gives tremendously enjoyable superbly observed remarkably truetolife performance man broadway called the wizard watch claude rains action looking every shot hes helluva good time the lady red hair see david belasco leap life film cant wait shake things main stem againbr br ,0 +depressed younger brother feel depressed getting help give little story years old still lives home mother step father toxic situation way involved life history making bad decisions acts like sullen teenager always lying asking stay life make lot money currently paying medical bills credit card debt debt still showed abilityreal desire move out co workers close invites house i pool asked mention lives mother honestly idea tells people since small group seem spend time bouncing others homes bbqs hanging out physically lot pain morbidly obese lower back knee ankle pain going surgery ankles increase medical debt past matter hard life was always smile joke humor dark says things hoping mother would die she going nowhere least another years betting anyway poor health money living home think needs win something help get momentum trying ignores help suggested talk professional says insurance pays visits billed cannot afford it offer pay him refuses help brothers struggle things great job lbs overweight brothers struggle weight loss health issues affect them like great feels cannot connect us gotten work lives sorted point jobs help us thrive one helps get by thinking intervention defensive private sure go well good thoughts intervention work depression,1 +feel like im kind annoying like posts complaining pissed lot people even real life done,0 +cant continue lifeim hopeless last days really understand depression mental illness im sane anymore im awful mood swings ruining me one hour feel suicidal hour feel kinda ok start questioning whether im making up even though know im not always convince moments also makes feel guilty every time vent people feel better feel like using them barely function cant clean room cant get bed everyone tells push through cant cant explain feel like im lazy incompetent useless bad person general already gave many aspects life feel like ill never find love dont deserve it avoid lectures im either tired anxious lately cant even thing love making music sometimes get excited it start cant im completely empty feel drained cant go like this crash inevitable point im going therapy social anxiety prevents telling therapist many things makes feel awkward pathetic overdramatic depression makes impossible work social anxiety dont want giving like this cant force anything help myself im afraid ill fail college would last straw want go medication week going help time im already behind idk do want stop cant help myself,1 +im live first time hey finally got obs work properly im live twitch pls simp yes give sub httpswwwtwitchtvsquwuid,0 +waiting sunsetim waiting sun down want hiking family find body something sitting rock closed everything left phone know subscriptions forgot left home planned everything really nothing waiting golden hour idea always wondered call redflag hotlines like know think could help would think phone call would hell right know curiosity kicks still hours left waiting typing redflag to google search already brings regional hotline info first title lets see whelp thats one number city side country exactly promising guess whatever lets check out dead line,1 +ive lost hopemy give fuck broken fixed anytime soon hope anything anymore want death take away hug death open arms like old 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want think like friend anything,0 +story contemplationm ive recently developed alcohol addiction rarely drank prior months ago suffer anxiety insomnia ive lost job due depression anxiety alcohol basically hung calling sick feel like crap daughters amp im divorced fianc love dearly feel like im burden her ive told this basically tells get it ive planned everything far buying rope cousin hung months ago spine surgery got behind support spent days jail it dont know do dont want die feel like problems would go away dont want children fianc going life thinking could done something ive opened fianc think shes taken seriously dont want die feel like workdays solve lot problems cant bring right thing spent days alcohol detox cost job went week control im using again ive basically self medicating advice,1 +first person guess number gets random bear award idk ehehehehdhhsshhdhd shdhshdhshhdhshshshshsgsgshhshdhdhdhdbdbbdbsbsbsbsbshssghshshshshshshsbshshhshshshhsshhs,0 +someone told dad drown 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reason too,0 +guess im back againi cant tell anymore bad person matter fucking do someone hurt me even simple small incident every single friend lover crossed line me awful deserve things friend cross line me stupid fucking thing ever do fucking game stupid fucking game decided take anger me screamed insulted me knowing full well past cannot handle things like that fuck think anyone even theyve normal past would deserve things screamed me cant talk right now mental safety cannot hurt her lover told happened told cannot talk time hurt assumed wrong did point relationship back want justify myself automatically assume issues screamed like that want hear full story understand me people things did excuse excuse behaviour even going tough time like suggested still excuse behaviour things people care about done fucking done done life people relationships cant anymore want anymore done crying done cutting done abuse every fucking thing ever deserve treatment,1 +corona ruined bct httpsmyoutubecomwatchveewompyrsw probably whole career,0 +ill probably kill point parents diemany times past every winter last years actually point thing keeping alive thought much would hurt parents killed myself theyre dead reach point first time ill probably it theres nobody else life think couldnt cope redflag nobody whos close enough really really badly affected longterm basis,1 +edge backi fell love wonderful girl drove away years later due alcoholism bottle flushed away aspirations attorney then dated around started new path found something else good found wonderful woman got married drank occasion never overindulged done that life good new job higher pay american dream one evening comes living room proceeds i want divorce im attracted you hate here shattering moment drove back bottle knew it hammer cocked sobbing uncontrollably front her wanted die ill never forget feeling cocked gun pointed towards head everything felt control regained it liberating feeling feel much control ill never forget cold steel felt pressed side head something inside decided let go tell you gets better im quite lonely grew middle class yearning life went college enjoyed immensely went grad school lost myself embarked new career path found myself years later lost myself whatever going easy im newly single going wicked divorce reflect happened two weeks ago think great feels knowing glock fail went lowest bidder spring,1 +want diei much debt fuck every good thing have ive wrecked cars years,1 +aaaaah god almost pm excited yay,0 +personality test highly recommend got infp mediator personality type cool read always feel stupidly unique unable relate peoples actions test found theres whole personality type people like me amazing see like person analyzed personality years wrote everything pretty accurate answer questions honestly,0 +one year ago todaytl dr almost killed year ago became homeless things turned around sorry long postjust lot stuff felt moved share give readwhats five minutes one year ago tonight almost killed myself thinking lot day felt moved share story went lot years wife left another man years this caught really guard really crushed spirit top it guy left real jerk two young children separation left crippled financially went living bedroom house owned renting tiny one bedroom apartment even small apartment make ends meet ended going bankruptcy made much money type food stamps welfare money much went exwife court appointed child support daycare expenses medical insurance kids cheated still forced pay crippling amount new scum boyfriend unemployment worked ass scum boyfriend used money gave kindle hdtv xbox etc constantly would go bank account could overdraft account point pretty depressed hopeless started drinking started kind gradually getting drunk weekend kids weeknights never drank kidsbut became every night which lot nights would get pass drunk still got every morning went work drinking bottle vodka night around march last year basically drank rent money pay rent one year ago night evicted plan options were kill yourself commit crime thrown jail wake homeless morning went far write notes parents exwife kids could go redflag kids stayed night rough got ready next morning took rubbermaid containers packed threw back pickup went work incredibly rough hid everyone except exwife she know affected time kids hardest thing nowhere go would go work like normal work would usually go parking lot sit listen radio sometimes mcdonalds sometimes walmart sometimes little park river cant sleep places though original plan sleep walmarts parking lot cannot this found police started driving every minutes starting pm gas money would drive minutes rest stop thruway sleep parking lot there money that would sleep apartment parking lot near work could sleep rest stop could sleep hours apartment parking lot lucky never caught that basically would get next morning go gym membership for per month take showerthen go work sucked thought killing every night weekends would take kids day beach park whole thing terrible think hid whole thing pretty well almost friends locally relocated exwife parents live hours away bosses never really said anything always clean completely stop drinking situationso anything work performance probably improved hung every morning weeks family friend found situation comment one kids kids know situation exactlybut comment made friend know something up gave place stay couple months began start things turning around exwife left douche living since split month given place stay daycare costs decreased significantly giving money which longer spending booze friend found place rent small cheap even got month raise beginning year started taking care lost almost pounds see kids ton now mentally best place possibly ever wanted share story one year ago felt completely hopeless like absolutely way out felt like problem solution probably going something terrible are wait see plays out life many ups downs never know future holds much experience life kill yourself wait see happens things may turn around may not fucksee happens,1 +ive lost allif cared people thought me would commit redflag understood meant realized time three knew joy living put words describe feelings reason go school learn talk shy people always pointed things get want school help much except unnaturally loud voice gets peoples faces speak known put thoughts action mostly understand capability so every person born another competitor world elementary school young age different matter make friends one liked am people im boring person worth time talking smarter class put gifted class first grade nothing came it understand ahead others finished exams faster got top scores without trying boredom set in without friends tend lurk corner trying go library learn more second grade already hated school much wanted kill chancellor board education started plotting ways kill him course come fruition supreme willpower execute plan learning columbine helped see fact kill enough people revise plan inflict damage id estimate killing people would sufficient plans then plus sparkle hope thinking things better future third grade painful sense work another person science project science projects awful sense create experiment given had made easy experiment fixed results never got good grades future individual projects mostly never proper tools begin with if choose life id alone forever everything want versus life people nothing would commit redflag instant life headed towards latter psychological evaluation every student time fourth grade knew redflag back then wanted it still glimmer hope things better weekend evaluation went library read world war world war ii mostly interested war history much carnage world created nuclear bombs dropped hiroshima nagasaki enthralled me weapons could instantly wipe entire city course feelings time alone solitude blurted statement psychologist baffled statement parents angry called school punished making statements school enacted plan play dates people class knew instant could never truly express ever fear punishment later night contemplated running highway jumping front train commit redflag decided lie things going better new challenges experiences await except one told involved burning bridges one would think going junior high school new people would change mind people would act suffice say made life even worse tried myself projects needed done group work carry rest group less interest hobbies used enjoy every morning would wake mental exercise saying myself why committed redflag today eventually knew answer nothing weak could go human instinct live need overcome order stronger like committed redflag me high school different sense get contact people mostly trying myself sure disgusted acting way principle mind use abuse relationships get want also id see rampant cheating exams order get toptier universities one would get caught punished realizing senior year needed come plan promote justice equality way show this one cant start immediately grand goal one must meticulously plan ahead see come fruition day vt shooting came air reported number dead moving target pushed higher make name myself needed kill people joked would become next shooter fit perfectly shooters mentality looks well luckily things died act upon urges shooter mentality bullying racism drives people commit acts atrocities things matter depressed think society effectively rejected world one find people mostly invisible rest us exhibit signs hostility towards themselves unless someone looks life closely one choose ignore signs shooters act acting anger attempting fit place want belong world much easier accepting heshe going alone rest lives living life way torture someone wants belong the keystone alone top course people continuously cheated throughout high school tended get better schools got ivy leagues felt slight resentment towards them realized needed game system benefit unfortunately learned lesson late college either chose go state university instead private ones would less debt pay future plan worked hoped go path internshipjob juniorsenior year however employer wanted speak even though comparable credentials everybody else know looked peoples resumes compare myself feeling dejected prospect job coming college applying applications jobs internships compounded global recession realize bargained long why think almost literature dystopian future coincidence needed new reason continue living college costbenefit analysis comes in selfishness comes play long got benefit people pay cost would survive spite towards family graduating started looking work companies going job fairs meeting new people networking gone year now applying positions inperson applications online soundly rejected various points hiring process even worse hearing response every day look news disillusioned ive become abject failure ive always considered failure new low myself currently work parttime selfemployed investments odd jobs babysitting tutoring also heard dad going lose job couple weeks would great time commit redflag costbenefit analysis showing benefits going much anymore biggest question whether go bang whimper well thats it get fulltime position two weeks know choice made fear weakness weaknesses must exploited,1 +loss hope constant rejection passionim exactly sure writing reddit feel hopeless unseen sometimes think im completely invisible im thinking redflag time lately try focus tasks things always end back killing myself know exist even world me im embarrassed myself hate myself think time things gotten better me im regret killing peak life good feel like people love me really know understand me always say accept comes always problem criticism me im sick it im nowhere feel safe anymore ive tried everything medication st johns wort therapy group therapy mindfulness taking one day fucking time it moments good happiness come always end back here really point mediocre existence place here friend help me even go talking it maybe someone read tell it one live life know suffer hope anymore society damaged mei remembered missed life made impact difference little thought special thought special wrong nothing unless someone power money says so im invisible seen im really afraid it know else do life better im better,1 +ahhaha feel great past four hours ive felt sick hearts beating fast body wants stay horizontal feel like im going vomit stand again music usually helps sleep giving headache dont know whats wrong am,0 +everyone gets love want diei failed attempts loved general really need anymore,1 +cant stand life anymore need someone talk tothis throw away account issue recently see this posthttpwwwredditcomrihaveissuescommentsmif_cheated_on_boyfriend_now_threaten_by_ex_lover that tried get ideas guy herehttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentslxwjyou_are_alone_in_an_unknown_city_no_money_no lastly told thishttpwwwredditcomrconfessioncommentsjkmpvwhen_i_was_yo_i_had_sex_with_my_best_friend_and story im years old female started think things happen life half sister abused emotionally abused sister half sister childhood im kind ugly overweight lost lbs now im socially akward much im depressive rosacea hate im kind retarded aspergers way nose surgery hated nose in general body issues lot course low self esteem emotionally abused current boyfriend years ago child barely saw parents kind parents talk teach stuff low self esteem cheated current boyfriend ex lover threatens follows me even classroom trying improve life got rgetmotivated lost weight tried keep hobbies see im really fucked up almost everybody around bad people end relationship years something awfully stupid did im studying software engineer im top class generation feel incompetent want get fuck life prefer committing redflag instead hurting boyfriend,1 +holy shit typing password computer realized messed pressing enter erased characters ended correct password without clicking see character ive stopped in,0 +helpi think im going go thru ever scared,1 +struggled ptsd depression physical pain hate fear ect ect ect since left military right deployment mental hospitals rating va issues day goes life think redflag stooping much hurt keep feeling bay time today day afraidish feel confident try attempt life tonight sure mood getting worse every minute passes trying figure call help things consider this last time made call help mental ward topeka ks many months muuuuch longer average stay want go again many reasons one want bring bc nasty catch understand spend days month ward it loose disability month homeless again option swore last time matter what even day ever homeless again deserve this so said reluctant ask help bc feel almost signing life away make little money va anything would fall financial hiccup would crush life know do want stop pain want old life back miss me,1 +people dont understand fuck dark humor said im gonna kill jew thats dark humor also mean im gonna actually kill fucking jew say im gonna kill jew clever way thats dark humor dark humor everything table murder abortion national tragedy assault racism etc dark humor supposed terrible mean anything idgaf people disagree thats people do jessica type shit like wait people think i shut hell up,0 +anyone wanna talk quick facts male love watching anime ive getting kpop recently like beats love cute things happy listen anyone vent and ive run things say hmu interested,0 +want live my birthday week always thought would feeling better then ive really trying past years especially past months know point im going achieve want to im unhappy it im proud things accomplished life bit disappointed time lost trying get better ive already admitted hospital want go back know im know people think waste life believe ill good it ive lost lot friends ive hurting best friend feel like ive emotionally manipulative needs stop im content knowing could want hurt anymore ive trying delay smoking weed heavily getting bit unbearable relief knowing end soon,1 +back again sure doive unemployed since february continue fail attempts get job ive missed chance live good friend mine im unable get income so reality setting more more family turn to friends ex girlfriend california one guy currently live atlanta ga months might job ill finally move exgfs place another souless job job get pay well enough afford live horrible filthy expensive hell city ill come home every night completely alone apartment highschool friends life anymore college friends life anymore one successful friend whos way busy handling himself matter move im going live alone count days finally enough choose die,1 +day posting get girlfriend ill add interest day cooking minecraft elder scrolls napping big bagg theorythe show scientific theory learning computers fallout games random conversations,0 +think found biggest fear goes every think going get high school always think gonna go college get job etc reason mind instantly goes cant get job cant pay college even college going literally start scratch knowledge money college thats it im always afraid im going financially stable college guess probably odd fear really fear im kinda worried anyway hopefully makes sense anyone else wants say something since story time go ahead,0 +life never present answer itit veterans day yesterday me god wished seen combat instead wounded job always state side instead wounded bullshit ts rate instead wounded man enough pick gun go infantry every movie loves show fun parts navy loved always made interesting cant see movies ship ship brings back couple good buddies say soldier dies save lives two first save brother second save themselves mean closest ones commit redflag mean even fucked tried worthless shell body still fucking wakes three days later even accomplished goal woke back here fucking,1 +sorry belong herei think dont want die idk im staying alone friends house she let stay gone im going break long term relationship dont place own im th floor cant help wonder would feel jump current thought thinking different ways die never attempt life scares im feeling lonley failure many aspects life maybe easiest thing end good idk common think that kind thought going increase sorry possible mistakes im native english speaker,1 +mrdeek i messaging guy back forth seems vanishedi first found hereanyone got clues,1 +tired lifehi ill try keep shortish im angel im ive contemplating redflag know going tonight itll soon ive grown tired life think handle anymore course reason lifes kind mess since came closet announced family friends gay parents disgusted friends already figured out mostly fine always feeling people like me came out dad would constantly verbally abuse me calling faggot making gay jokes anything make clear abomination him mom that drifted me clear like it even though never said it could tell wished son person family truly accept gay identical twin brother kaiden close stereotypical twins identity crisis everything together actually lot things separately played baseball played soccer student council drama club etc always ate lunch together school play pranks teachers would tell eachother basically everything family moved went whole new school issues making friends father continued verbally abuse me finally got tired it take it so attempted redflag drank bleach kaiden found me rushed hospital pumped stomach kaiden insisted get help refused decided best thing would move house rented apartment next almost two years went smooth kaiden sharing apartment boyfriendgirlfriend never spoke parents sharing apartment great never really problems then months ago kaiden got car wreck days later died ive completely lost without him like part gone practically whole reason living boyfriend tried hard help out honestly working mope sleep eat little bit play video games sleep more life meaningless feel pain now kaidens funeral mom said son died dad shot many nasty looks made even gay remarks usual stay whole service terrible im lonely know end it editsince redflag watch id like say im planning anything tonight ill probably fall asleep soon nobody freak im replying,1 +feels like matter try backfiresno matter try always backfires like try socialise get laughed try something nice fail even wake bullshit everyday,1 +happened uh walked parents sex im broken man good thing lights oh god cleanse soul,0 +please help im band theres girl really like also band ive conversations band want normal conversation without obvious like her social anxiety everything know start conversation everytime want start panic never ending starting conversation find way talk without basically screaming i like you,0 +waste oxygento anyone reads this im sorry bother ive crying last half hour maybe share able finally fall asleep feel like depression getting worse dont really understand why world becomes grey mass care less less anything everything loses meaning me hard see even subconsciousness preparing die idk reverse dont want like know continues redflag eventually thats left nothing worth living for meds dont seem desired effect occasionally help care much much everything sucks despise people find needing dont want need anyone even stopped caring people actually love stopped fighting whats important me stopped wishes expectations existing living thats waste oxygen earth might desperately need,1 +this life shittier ever decided end life birthday hope though hope parents cry fuck im tired accept fact im selfish,1 +movie touching story adventure taken yearold darius weems darius duchenne muscular dystrophy still uncurable disease took life brother age nineteen number one killer babies united states close friends travel across country los angeles goal getting wheelchair customized mtvs pimp ride one favorite shows journey begins georgia darius grew never left gang head west trip participants never forget darius gets ride boat first time ride hot air balloon swim ocean visit sights hes always wanted see like grand canyon new orleans filmmakers clearly emotional connection material make money sales dvds goes toward researching disease goes toward making copies film awards festivals agree quote given film variety certain stir hearts,0 +sister first seizure years im younger sister younger sis diagnosed epilepsy age really bad surgery see seizures while yesterday came room saying felt wierd slumped over called looked like stopped breathing bit ok now really scary know im strong enough go went last time sis bad seizures ,0 +got girlfriend snoo back posts sub rn,0 +feel like aliveits always one thing next im turning twenty two months ever since kid torn everyone everything theres nothing left great boyfriend guess thats something hes everything though today dear jesus forgot turn oven came back home work smoke filled house hes pissed hug tell loves anything cold shoulder hurts favourite person hurts more want alive want keep going know walks stairs hes going say working already rocky definitely going push edge cant deal anymore heartbreak ive hurt far many times stop always one thing another cant this something stupid comes downstairs says loves me im anymore what want feeling guilty possibly leaving reason want live im sick fuckup everyone around gets hurt annoyed angry im sick making others miserable me cant it always one thing next,1 +help meim close finding rope,1 +need disappear leave tracei mean anything world anyway close family want dig possessions especially computer looking answers simple im worthless garbage hyperaware real chance recovery cant stop for example funeral really why mourning exactly anyone thought come ideas ive alive far long sad pathetic ive even tried save worthless life meantime proved im use world human being thanks advance,1 +anyone else experience sudden bursts agitation restlessness confusion low mood almost day also get small bouts emotions place get extremely restless feel like cannot think clearly seconds diagnosed mdd also experience strange little periods scared something else going on idk mood also changes many times throughout day external reason random bouts confusionbrain fog,1 +watched series seen naked gun films found much better films thought films great series literally glues television set anticipation next pun sight gag funny situation the night wicker place club flamingo think ive ever laughed hard tv series life even seeing movies first thus knowing jokes think shame six episodes produced agree writers would hard pressed maintain level comedy episodes overall series must see like puns bad jokes slapstick sightgags,0 +would rate film high list ingrid bergman films ingrids beauty aside talent evident scene scene sad mean wittybr br snobbish flirtatious delightfully funny loving tender sorrowful distressed happy etc name it things more and sobr br convincing ingrid plays notorious woman clio comes back newbr br orleans falls texas gambler gary cooper clint especially loved scene sitting dining table saying nothing staring other she elegant white gown handsome white cowboybr br outfit sitting looking adoringly chemistry love,0 +day seeing post pogchamp,0 +people need helpi failed family stupid brain stupid big mouth lost job nobody hiring almost nw see one option insurance policy jump maybe family wont hungry love daughter wife cant take living fifth able buy self proper food fucked cant take wife says better shithole country crate new jobs paycheck really low im sad angry im bad bad person know im stupid nice guy im hellping everybody fuck im tiered jsut cant cat wife pretty lady wll find someone better daughter wont grow knowing real dad stupid man,1 +think might finally go it live state waiting period buy gun got money time could go tomorrow spend ill finally means end things nervous scared want over working,1 +redflag seems like optioni wake every day exhausted knowing ill again im exhausted things control im tired spiritual bullshit ask here ask this want nothing seems convince otherwise im desperately trying hang on anyone advice redflag seem like option,1 +im fucking idiot thought character yugioh named joey spelt yoey,0 +closei went would today first time ive something felt different time real called crisis hotline hung know one really wants help,1 +needed write know flair put figured would work ive reached point cant make decisions anymore mom decides every fuckin aspect life im sorry grades mid s want waste applying university get rejected simply unable accept fact im going university september as note poli sci teacher sisters big poli scilaw program im trying live sisters level know makes worse me parents divorced year ago despises dad always bringing bad my father did university take him im turning august legally age able make mind live want legally im allowed leave go live dad no im allowed to ive got two turtles fish live there need feed dads helping grandmother lives far north who also found pancreatic cancer two months ago still meds mom let leave house drive there im allowed drive either leaves biking hour half hour half back massively stops weekends im forced mom go private university cant stand fact ive applied already im going private university wants go christian university say im incredibly religious im atheist im deeply invested religious things plan already go college first term second term start likely work year make money actually basis work with mom still hates fact im prize student ive got sisters brothers two top line students taking mom everything one whos young care yea im guy grandfather died born grandpa died older male cousin years older me cousin thats year younger lives across country canada role models limited moved small town moved grew in wont say bad worse previously conditions lost contact friends old town moved everyone cell phones struggled lot make new ones moved brought request move back old town friends got nowhere it yes anyone asks contemplated redflag before thought stuff myself always thinking stuff first years high school reoccurring thought getting beat bullied almost every day class bring tell anyone it dealt best could hindsight told someone gone shit anyways ive always quiet kid school never brought gun school though im american wished death classmates before ive never figured im odd one class might im one white kids whole school teachers wont shit anyways dads appreciative looking however making sure im actually paying attention work helping get this want go live him way moms acting might anyones got advice appreciated needed get out ask question want ill best answer,0 +want die tragic accidenti want die tragic accident half selfish want people know someone took life want people think this tragic much potential want know truth me fear people perceive me even death terrifies me half selfless want people feel guilty leave want beat thinking something could done dying accident would still cause suffering much less blame themselves,1 +issue long time now try improve situation stuff distracting myself trying find new peers really seem help work out feeling people especially toxic mom says try find friends happy never offers support help says depressed super lazy put effort almost nobody sees,1 +lucky enough catch movie volunteering maryland film festival ive always fan classic horror films especially gimmicks william castle definitely mustsee mebr br this life work william castle opinion underrated director true made cheap budget schlocky horror films added something films real live theater gimmicks see anymore example nurses case someone heart attack movies put vibrators bottoms chairs tinglerbr br this truly wellmade documentary brings rather shadowed director light celebrated contributions horror cinema also paints castle larger life character wellliked smile facebr br unlike film documentaries mostly show testaments film historians spine tingler shows interviews mostly family members directors influenced work john waters john landis joe dante must see classic horror scifi fans,0 +odds mermaid helium balloon traveling yuba city caon nov th landing days lateron nov mermaid prince edward island canadaapprox miles great movie based true story movie helps children cope losses older people well hope everyone enjoy it rhonda,0 +really tired think anyone would notice,1 +sibling said would save friend dangling cliff front unprompted apparently havent learned bit rude fml,0 +next couple days commit redflag one understands melike says title im going kill next days scam ruined life heres happening believe girl ive met mingle committing edd fraud story looking girlfriend mingle hoping mind multiple disabilities one affects thinking ability never told started get along later told cant since job time looking job one would hire fired times disability ive gotten help department rehab ive finally gotten job month two later asked bitcoin replied back saying ive heard know is showed video bitcoin asked wanted invest claimed many investors said would think first kept asking gave first wanted put money prepaid card add investors money course said kept asking ive asked legal know anything stuff said yeah months went finally put money bitcoin atm never received money back claimed scammed uphold kept bothering lend keeps ringing phone try give her later on showed pic hospital bed pic seems strange like doll bed bandages wrapped around texted reply socalled friend said fault friend hospital bed got mad ive asked starts cursing me later gf tried showing pics asked see pics well regret ever since even know tricking me anyway june finally got edd card tell want pay back keeps saying meet meet said well meet august asked said watching tv asked tv died week ago stupidly told apply unemployment later asked said give going gave in later july asked put unemployment application investor wanted know told put answers right wrong answers way mother helped edd application struggle reading understanding somethings anyway later begged give mailing address say first since touched money stimulus check past trusted tricked giving social security number believe pic id well reason started get different mail cant even pronounce asked mailed checks prepaid cards later on investors edd cards mailed place asked whats okay said yeah investors permission open letter give pic card august finally came feeling really depressed told therapist told scam taking advantage heart dropped felt scared wanted commit redflag ive texted roberta claims danii banks instagram model finally told disability said still loved tried deny scammer ive contacted therapist told stop texting going report said shell post pics social media family friends tired apologize ever since ive stopped talking keeps calling back im scared know finally told mother disappointed hopefully solve problem therapist trying help too wondering report trouble knowing scammed penalties therapist discussed told wanted kill want hospitalized mental health want get trouble please help guys really know thats want kill ever tried arrest something therapist said tricked into think police unemployment people would understand situation think might put prison way im using grammarly help type cant time,1 +call stupid going use wrong form youryoure,0 +reason google meet today cant sign school account im personal account im afraid english teacher see cringey pfp its one use reddit countryhumans america sunglasses saying gay man guess whoever set incompetent im still waiting let,0 +friend need help reddit hes dating girl parents hate blame lot stuff like depressed atheist bs hes wants break thinks hes bad influence alot stuff best teens hes afraid kill herself guys help,0 +push boyfried awayi greatest boyfriend weve together half years taught better help myself recent years ive become mentally unstable anxiety eats like disease depression anger insurmountable times weve fought bit cant understand im unreasonable time ive gotten antidepressants since october occasionally ill get massive bouts anger stupidest things example going take laundry get done got upset able spend saturday together escalated fight lots insults slung primarily me cooled still frustrated sick it argued left close door fucking lost it want to did anger boiled took anything near threw door things broke heard opened door screamed fuck problem called psycho said know hell even come back person take much im fearing ive lost him fear causes shit pushes farther away awful person know that want over cant deal unpredictability anymore want end know way want suffer attached anymore want end give peace,1 +teacher forgot mute mic class heard things supposed hear first time forgot mute mic time heard interesting things class got phone call answered it next thing know hes chatting fluent spanish interchanging english every then listening conversation basic knowledge spanish high school talking someones medical issues poor guy seemed like hospitalized std sir acting translator give information conversation went minutes blew class chat reacting conversation finished continued lecture paused noticed silence wait guys heard that course did gave explanation situation need know details about minutes pass continues lecture paused again wait recorded muted mic way edit it cut piece recording nope want lose job useful information lecture vowed keep mouths shut recording would deleted stopped recording started fresh middle presentation stop laughing say least,0 +cant win so party yesterday kissed random girl first kiss since ex broke heart think much miss ex trying happy move feel dragged back darkness ever fall love give one girl much power me still love ex know do look post history see big problem me hate love right badly want love someone else mush emotions want alive anymore ive much turmoil need end im anxious know ill ever able move first love everything really bad right now this want strong again,1 +biden supporters genuinely think hes going magically change whole country like takes changes implementing take effect also cant really change people think people people putting way high pedestal hes even started got feeling supporters gonna annoyed feel silly doesnt magically end racism,0 +wanna live balls kill myselfi think finnaly lost mind fucking over shit going years different literally lost mind fucking sick hate everything everyone keep pretending every day good normal life guess fit normal life literally future find joy anything joy wish could reason wake morning really want die cant manage kill everyday feel like im stronger it,1 +want dress like cartoon pimp one would disrespect ever again especially one bitches,0 +father real macho guy thinks mentally ill people lazy giving poor excuses definitely cannot understand going through today went away meet mothermy grandmother talk alone mother problem is told mental health before probably year ago sheampfather said it stay indoors day go exercise usual shit since than stayed silent home know today best day talk it cannot it least years since depressed could gather courage younger supposed that know do know strength it,1 +know doi essays due tomorrow cant get touch teachers absent yesterday hands shaking cant get work done cant calm know do need help relieving stress anything help,1 +anniversary th want done then nothing left want breakups suck cannot deal,1 +finally managed give diabetes years trying done decided smoke many cigarettes use much dip possibly everday hopefully give cancer could already worthless disgusting fucking monster sooner get cancer better joking slightest wish balls blow brains since everything everyday get closer death,1 + hrs laterit hrs since tried commit redflag im sure share original post im still hospital ill probably weeks call mentality resort im guessing nice padded white room want thank support everyone given me honestly im sure wouldve succeeded totally forget invited sister talk saved ass hands down really hope get better mentally least,1 +friends today officially founding borse party completely legitimate political party nuanced intricate views massive line sign,0 +people hoping catch coronavirus diebecause ive reading often last days incredibly shitty plan redflag statistically chances huge itll nothing make sick week two might inadvertently pass people actually want live though loved ones might pass to road might kill somebody actually want die missed lot please selfish consider this,1 +cardi b dies gonna say rest peace rest ass pussy shit okay havent slept days weeeeeeeeee,0 +cant imagine bigger piece shit myselfmy family loves done literally every single fucking thing could possibly help me people fucking angels put bullshit despite ive managed convert fucking biomedical engineering degree renowned school fucking cashier job grocery store im wondering point minimize pain feel end killing next weeks ampxb ampxb,1 +black clover chapter action packed link httpsyoutubeabtxgdnbqa,0 +ive waited waited waited getting better getting worsei beyond miserable months ive felt life meaningless empty ive complete lack desire motivation everything pointless everything keeps getting worse worse absolutely nothing point living anything all think im going around tomorrow,1 +way legally make sure one deal giving funeral burial want burden family that advice needed,1 +think ive ruined chance love cant keep going anymorei know else post this f met amazing guy m january us wanted friends benefits first kept telling much missed perfect other point want fwb anymore said ready commit another relationship yet needs time kept chatting friends every time would end always come back telling much like miss other kept pushing relationship would always back point say would best stayed friends long talk one time seemed like okay trying commit long take things slow got depressed talk much anymore we would usually talk every day hours asked needed space agreed bad feeling checked dating app met back there asked space meant going look people said didnt went back dating app hours later confronted answer insulted wanted answer blocked me tried call phone got automated message saying phone number registered thought maybe gave throwaway phone number reasons next thing complicated really matter excuse it created fake account dating app part could find lied me think noticed im sure contacted ex paranoid theyre maybe still together thats ghosted me also phone number thing weird day later contacted telling contacting ex talked little really give explanations asked lied dating app first tried say never happened evaded question asked could still friends least really answer months later asked reply asked never wanted talk said still needs time message hes ready asked could promise hell message eventually got angry said pressuring want talk anymore blocked again year ago sent letter january asking could talk person reply think im ever going love anyone again fault want talk anymore think deserve die messed up living feels pointless anyway person im ever going love even want talk me really wish could something make things right im thinking sending another letter apologise tell everything wanted tell person going get talk hes probably going read anyway think going help suicidal thoughts year im still okay wish could talk happened really know anymore im sorry post mess im mostly crying writing,1 +anyone wanna talk disocrd back shit lol one talk dm user tag,0 +hate meds make horny makes sex hard ,0 +girls never cheat always alone lonely sad,0 +call adolescent really think great series chance experience episodes latest star trek series definitely watch one perhaps compelling voyagers caretaker launched series cpt janeway archers adventures completely different yet strangely familiarthe music catchy too true scifi fan go without seeing least one star trek episodeand installments make wait worthwhile,0 +dogs go heaven plays canine criminal underworld film delight children comical darkbutsatisfying happyending storyline plenty song dance features outcast charlie fellow canine criminal murdered returns dead meets homeless human girl looks him relationship realizes meaning life selfsacrifice cute animation loved much eyes child would highly recommend film children im unsure adults would react it i tried watch years ago vhs recordings last long they,0 +waiting get psych wardi checked failed attempt im extremely proud im also incredibly bored now first time psych ward phone die soon anyone ways stay completely zombie posttriage limbo,1 +cant anymoreplease need somebody talk to,1 +see another way outevery day im digging bigger hole im trying every treatment get hands gets worse medication counseling cbt mindfulness honest faking it exercise journalling courses yoga worry time alcohol selfharm much years feels like im fated theres way improve towards anything theres foundation build on instance theres nothing even possibly aspire to understand improve im disconnected friends support energy fundamentally horrible person too feels like im waiting good opportunity die now annoyingly none really seem plausible im completely sure im writing this semblance company maybe another thing tick ive tried everything list,1 +redflag hotline sick voicechecked position waitlist months noncourtmandated appointments tried chat service instead waited queue minutes told services area,1 + excedrin pills isnt enough iti counted pills left im pretty sure enough maybe mikes hards left fridge even then live minutes away railroad tracks pretty sure im terribly classes whats point living im gonna college drop out theres point idk even withdraw classes point serious compelling reason required stressed death suicidal serious compelling enough think so teachers probably ashamed me hell cant get college im pathetic even decide live everyone hate trying end anyways love boyfriend though hes one thing getting this never want anything hurt him im tiredive depressed suicidal literally majority life ever get better hows anything gonna ever et better dunno im sad alone cant tell talk anyone this do need someone tell cause dont know anymore please,1 +fun facts ruin day nothing ive got nothing googles failing recently,0 +comment ill put u list maybe ill text years something idk,0 +lets try anyone want chat pls im bored age ,0 +need advice help friend rough time mention redflagi need advice help one good friends really rough time now gotten hit really hard couple things last months really made life lot harder her asked call little ago crying spiraling control said feeling really paranoid lately like burden everyone around her struggling suspect psychological issues now really gotten help needs today first time mentioned depressed says cries time it struggle everyday kill myself if dogs would already done it cant leave them advised quite go get mental health counseling offered talk anytime needs issues happened last months think really contributed are got kicked school poor grades verge filing bankruptcy due unpaid medical bills student loans credit card debt one dogs ill recently still know cause brother moved away another state relationship boyfriend ended really complicates that a barely make ends meet support debtcost living b longer gets free mental health services school student c still working school kicked out means generate income figures wants next reminds reinforces failure d comes unsupportive family parents divorced narcissistic show vested interest helping supporting children know right feeling really hopeless major debt making barely enough get by idea go terms career direct family members selfish dealing matters timeenergy help lot friends believes ones pity herwant get rid her things tried help encouraged seek counselingpsychiatric help reassured im friend understand feels encouraged seek career counseling offered talk anytime needs vent talk someone right im feeling really scared know help time suggest going psychiatrist says cant afford it added cost vet bills sick dog monthly income stretched even thinner before keeps putting looking another job filing bankruptcy despite admittedly needing things anyone else would contact family try get help get support needs since family selfish disinterested see viable option im asking advice go here freediscounted mental health counseling services refer to local support groups look into anything else friend support her feel like get help soon chance might actually kill cant bare thought that im unsure help her please advice public private greatly appreciated,1 +losing time ever feel like youre losing time like one minute next thing know pm youre back bed ive feeling days now feel like im losing im losing meaning day thing again anyone know called,0 +ive seen movie twice transilvania international film festivaltiff movie competition really hope esteban sapir get one awards at least best image award br br as silent cinema fan im interested contemporary movies quote recreate language yesteryear cinema previous reviewer emphasized quotes fritz lang fr w murnau see it movie references directly langs metropolis allegoricalparabolic character plots see murnau it theres obvious melieshomage though moon here cigarsmoking human face papermade painted mountains citylandscapes enjoyed film mostly visuals meantime found interesting story muteness creative means communication used inhabitants voiceless city perspective movie unique reflexion muteness silent cinema films silent period one hardly find stories mute characters case questioned whether story stolen voices motivation silent film form theres intention play upon muteness silent films another example kind reflexion found guy maddins carefulwhere inhabitants mountainvillage restrictions using voices intend write paper it know movies related topic please let know br br i highly recommend esteban sapirs film every moviegoer one critics called it jewel festivalbr br ps winners announced film award best cinematography,0 +know fact depressed teenager friends slept time could think suicideso always parameter used measure emotional state life always thought i feeling bad felt years must depressed even suicide popped mind therei going therapy last years came mind ask therapist ever depressed since going there told am depression comes many forms case sometimes positive events make snap it brief periods time back iti sad feel sickness years put many obstacles life never happy guess depression talkingi took appointment go see psychiatrist want official diagnosis and free country scared taking meds feel hopelesstldl sad time depressed look signs found depressed time,1 +day reccomending songs like httpsopenspotifycomtrackubifbgxuqntgwwolmssidmraisarvcfcvqow demons monsters aidan,0 +something humans could never understand animal could perceive gravity pulls animals objects around it would able tell study could never perceive this,0 +latest philosophy dont hate people whether hate racist sexist misandrist misogynist rapist murderer anybody else hate ignorance racist may genuinely isnt bad person believes hes good one may genuinely believe black people inherently bad isnt true believe it environment environment shaped today hes learned media parents encounters black people ect isnt control environment fault hes racist wouldve grown different family probably racist nothing brain everything environment racism inherent ignorance thats taught something control taught lack perspective real perspective yet still grew environment would choose racist people dont understand shaped environments thoughts descions life choices stemmed environment environment didnt choose fault thoughts noone hate us them least feel sorry is most try best educate us realize this people products environments isnt fault hate leave heart now isnt say handle every situation bad person like im better you still feeling good end day thats ego problem another issue another time doesnt mean responsible making strides change life become better change environment isnt free pass uncrafted person yes hit perfect exact pillars bits knowledge order want change life actually it whether get entirely based environment truthfully probably pieces pillars already people do post isnt meant disregard pillars stay are anything meant encourage opposite push change become better go it stop hating people theres valid reason to,0 +want disappeari health anxiety every week think something new something would kill me would good anxiety knows it somehing consequences im tired wanna sleep wanna go bed ill alone already overwhelming thoughts ill stay living room tv sleep,1 +iv fan rik mayall ade edmednson ever since remember weather young ones bottom say never laughed much life guest house paradiso bloody brilliant know going everyones cup tea with vomitingslapstick comedy violence foul language watch aint yours like one knows sick twisted things rik ade come theyre working one another think unfair film received slatting critics becauseand think im one think this film ,0 +worst life every sad tired physically always tired matter what sleep erratic also tired unemployed tired able find job minimum wage tired trying happy make things seem normal tired getting real attention dishes vacuuming getting hard reason get bed partner dogs want disappear never wake want stop sad tired,1 +give upi dont know whats happening every time get relationship leave me fault everyone around us want tell someone much pain im cant im scared tell someone theyll judge me like one wants around stay locked room want leave cant im sorry blake,1 +im failurei really want end all im unattractive fat bad job unmotivated regretting degree feel like ive messed everything die escape feel like lie ppl say gets better hasnt dont know do,1 +got better mean became okay ive never known like okayso exactly suggesting moredifferent pills im already drugged different medications day took nearly four prescribed batches get here cant afford grasping medical solutions entire fucking life real solution right there calling everyday im much goddamn good person family suffer every fucking day selfish bastards to really fair never asked born want end it never wanted start first place thought everyone felt way sort put lives forced into no me im fuck up cant keep making best it bullshit throw birthday party someone hates birthdays worst all party never ends theres way out,1 +friends replacedleft mei sophomore high school moment last year lost friends lets start th grade th grade became popular sort happened people started like me became better socially around accepted point life going great suddenly part sort cool kid clique never thought would part of summer came going freshman year everything still amazing life time high however think life peaked transition freshman year still group friends things still pretty good good th grade suddenly second semester started everything changed basketball season ended which sport many friends play sort unaccepted certain members group non newest member friend forever clique mentioned earlier now happened kind alone started notice weekends anything strange good friends people fun stuff weekends time confused really act it happened check snapchat once surprise without me irked me months go thing keeps happening longer invited anywhere besides people complete assholes me want anything me hangout times summer connection friendship seem same sophomore year even associate me remember one person mentioned earlier newest member obvious one seems pulling former friends away me sad part person like brothers always super strong bond nothing cannot find place life anymore im struggling live myself anyone offer advice,1 +wildest shit happened school today whole coronavirus learnt year caught covid apparantly year s needed sent home learnt lunch people kind nervous teachers started calling names people year contact got asked go home everybodys running around lunch hall screaming aah theres fucking covid hall even teacher told everybody calm sit down kids screaming were gonna die what it array swear words get banned subreddit tldr year caught covid lunch hall panic jesus day,0 +feel bad one girl class boyfriend cheated got covid like week,0 +bruh patriotic guys nono girls lmao yes tread flag room cares lol,0 +whats longest time youve ever chewed gum gum,0 +starting religion rteenagers discord server ampxb were starting religion join movement sixl moonhttpspreviewredditraqkvzepngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbeffdbbeecdbbae,0 +im trading stories secrets anything ur willing trade embarrassing stories nsfw stories sad stories happy got secrets share well good trade ask tell,0 +help meim afraid,1 +fat eat much food kill soon killing,1 +brokenstill ventured past front garden since september recently th birthday mother insisted celebrate it although feel nothing celebrate inside nothing years gets upset understand emotions im fucking stuck man planned kill july it finish school cant live,1 +ok maybe deserve oscar golden globe award matter acting outstanding theres reason give credits directing really another semigory st century slasher flick people consider decent maybe even dreadful opinion matter bit thats great time watching moviebr br sure first minutes pretty slow movie progresses something like like was anybody else watching movie is looking hours fun mindless violence and kickass ending spoil yes many flaws movie let cast list front cover fool you hilton delivers decent performance nobody saw coming even greatest haters like friends agree surprised us greatly barely believable acting skills striptease nasty anything online popup would promise her still unbearable fastforward turn dvdbr br the violence surprised me nobody school horror board talking like these new movies called saw hostel could safely say wax graphic saw death scenes actually quite disturbingbr br in conclusion im surprised house wax make place imdb top definitely worth look,0 +people say relationship isnt key full shitthese past years happiest ive ever life found girlfriend finally felt void inside filled finally wasnt alone world anymore someone get morning someone could hold whenever felt depressed suicidal therapy medication helped too nothing like girlfriend did probably over says doesnt feel love anymore different previous times want right get finally kill myself im alone afraid hurt one conversation turned past self again im done guys dont want anymore want collect courage finally end it please talk it,1 +bruh wanna try sushi fucking bad looks absolutely delicious im pretty hungry rn oh wanna try bad know nothing good places around,0 +valantine another day me anyone relate ,0 +want join military selfish reasons male alwas wanted join military really dont care helping people feel like real reason want adrenaline stress thing people dont want like feel experience dont wont really dont care benefits status reason want structure also anarchy selfish reason wanting join also feel like redflag thing dont fear death doesnt faze anymore could care less died wouldnt want nothing selfish this,0 +anyone else wanted helpfor history sorta depressed years recently cheated dumped person considered family still person cares ok which obviously shitty situation meantime found friends really support things get hard also pretty good qualifications cant find job anywhere graduating may guess curious people felt like want help know obviously need help hate therapy feel worse afterwards want future anything actually want really want kill myself want exist anymore either least exist reality,1 +uhm yeah happened uhm today friend like years told likes uhm dont know do someone help,0 +goodbyei one else send say since people care longer care probably read anyway im sorry everyone im sorry sick im sorry illnesses ive unkind im sorry made feel neglected im sorry ive burden long been sorry dog love much one keeping going please cry me wait door love know well see again hope forgive me purchased ticket leaving morning never hear me see again sorry anything gone heaven safe forever,1 +someone check grammar message need send english teacher advice guess obvious reasons need write good grammar use right words send anyone message,0 +know girls talk memes apparently true sat room girls guys girls complimenting saying pretty us guys sitting heads playing thumb war,0 +running sticksi dark place right strongly considering taking life finding really hard find meaningful reason keep goingthrow lifeline tell please,1 +unpopular opinion cops good acab unbelievably stupid yeah said it give proof cops bad,0 +nothing new tired seriocomedy wastes talents danny glover whoopi goldberg considering produced stars spike lee pretty tame tired stuff come whoop never changes hair glasses many years film covers blah,0 +posting song everyday not day feel good mowglis daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusiphehgubtjercctzxzuzmw,0 +im free valentines haha jk two assignments due pm pls dont hmu,0 +anyone else feel like mean nothingive depressed while sometime anger sadness combined recently taken toll im angry furious life im terribly sad feel nothing started think honestly feel like well parents suffered death theyll fine die siblings friends ok wanna spend years working shit job like survive ill probably working fine job middle class wife kids want theres billion people earth im unique all continue,1 +pls take survey for class project thank youuu survey based schooling systems america mostly still feel free guess dont know answer arent necessarily things people know anyways httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsdcvewheqzs_pdxpqykgpsilgqkybcrhwlbnzxuqpgxpyaviewformuspsf_link let know link works,0 +name im scared go therapist owo uwu,0 +scared realize fucked terrible want continue things want go keeps assuring not so scared sometimes overwhelming feel like disgrace part because logically know much likes really wants stick around theres part genuinely believes good enough enough realizes that fucked,1 +messed friendships therapy family life full nothing helli really hate life freaking bitch way much going right now girlfriend broke year ago actually trying move without try get back way hard eventually became friends obviously family want hard repair relationships family think theyre willing listen even give another chance theres like nothing fucking do im hard time home hate it get hassled time full bullshit cant even bear it already advocated get hassled again know stupid thought mutual agreement know family cares dont feel like deserve theyve annoying fuck outta listening even worse went residential straight years sent hospital psychiatrist like fucking times gg fucking years there thats damn life teenage life ive seen hell ive hell actually places fucking negative impact almost like perm affecting me fuck really wanna see place like staff member kind stupid shit places actually killed heart ultimately got point well im feeling like indebted friends family every time try talk friend facebook something another friend friend mine badmouths friend calls stupid well fucking hate like school outcast never got fad teenagers people called stupid friends really assholes friends hang with add today got betrayed kicked group really like fuck life fuck myself sorry long connected pretty sure probably normal here cant see things getting better feel like mistakes ive made going end making things fucking worse actually know hell except kill myself,1 +finnish teens there im looking make friends finland im christian years ago started feeling like god leading there im us mom suggested try make finnish friends id love learn like actually live finland ofc talk stuff too love music writing also im really us state trivia pm leave comment also recently turned anyones interested id prefer like ,0 +recall ever choosing exist first place genuinely understand forced stick around suicide wrong again,1 +posting daily get gf day never faith would amount anything weird thing correct,0 +fucking point anymoresaw got post twitter day thought id give go know live anymore see point purpose life little things get happy anymore nothing seems make day give reason go on injured back couple months back seems like everything gone downhill there cant help anymore cant exercise cope stress injury weight ballooned kg kg hurts lot worked hard get kg kg seems like alll effort gone drain started losing hair well bugs much cant deal going bald now im going bald would disastrous started care personal image started losing weight hair became important aspect first time life age started grooming daily became much larger part ever thought would losing hair soul crushing family life mess mums religious personally believe im atheist not one psycho poor language removed tells everyone god real every time meet them hard constantly barraged negative comments beliefs still come rest family friends point gonna happen find joy life anymore little things like able listen music go short walk made happy past cant even enjoy things without pain hair loss makes scared go im selfconscious hair deal everyone staring me cant go gym lift weights hours like used to cant hit bench tbar rows exercise made say you purpose today life mundane sense cant explain happy quote oasis the little things make happy right im reduced physio exercises make feel like incompetent paraplegic fuckwit exercises simple boggles mind cant pain free months back exercising minimum times week fasted cardio weight training later day cant even walk painfree let alone anything else cant little things anymore also see friends enjoying life studying working conscripted side note theres conscription country cant things well conscripted back injury according md there might need surgery surgery scare me actually look forward means get back right even poor language removed letter appointment simply told wait poor language removed letter appointment date right life absolute limbo cant anything right now pain help well call stubborn hate rely painkillers wanna create dependency drugs doc also prescribed tranxene months back poor language removed mood also use much either effects minuscule best right now typing kinda cathartic even little thanks anyone bothered read thanks anyone bothers reply,1 + year old gang rise all part year old gang rise,0 +imagine this imagine middle sucluded woods high up cabin overlooking beautiful scenery lake distance also either raining snowing staring window form cabin adorable furnished traditionally modern lovely smell cabin sitting extremely comfortable couch staring window scenery listening old records player theres lovely fireplace bit side keeping warm finally snuggled couch softest blankets significant peaceful happy content,0 +girlfriend tried commit redflaga little background girlfriendaby varying degrees depression kinda understand going throughbut worse little kid abused parents wasnt sexually abused hit father drunk mother left him went similar path drunkher mother nice lady whenever could come drunk mind mom happy drunk completely unable take care is mom got boyfriend sobered up aby wanted move me ive standard job months nowmy girlfriend etsy account pretty successful it usually come home beat admit havent showed much affection dont snap her get mad thative really tired whenever tries get bed tell im tired day came home crying asked wrong said afraid didnt love felt worthless told loved explained im simply tired kept repeating love promise show affection stopped crying hung rest night next daytoday come times usual open door see crying eyes sitting bed drop bag asked whats wrong guess didnt hear come got really startled jumped up got up noticed revolver kept nightstandi asked said gt abystay back please stay back gtme whats going on aby please whats wrong gtaby im done cant keep going like this want end gtme aby listen me talk this put gun down everything going alright gtaby im sorry hope one day find heart forgive me saw slowly raising gun sprinted across room swatted hand held collapsed floor dug head chest started cry keeping repeat im sorry tried calm caressing hair saying dont worry everything going ok things like that laid hour decided go bed laughed pasted memories telling jokes fell asleep im asking advicei love herbut heart broken know almost lost herwhat do im really shaken idea do,1 +famous person meet please share met met ,0 +hihi wanted relieve stress want someone pity shitty am really want die mum sets always gets angry me im tired shit every single fucking day time wants leave house suggested kill time pass homework send obstacle resulted breakdown im verge killing myself know do someone pity feel better shitty now vote ban call troll really want die,1 +best friend wrote redflag note worriedive known best friend isnt greatest time life confessed wrote redflag note week idea plans killing going it shes tried cutting freaked never touched razor again im really worried ive never seen low anything help her,1 +watching movie thoughts like another israeli typical movie suprised watch great israeli drama plot really good actors act great one best isreali movies saw bottomline really recommend movie ,0 +something bad happened wholesome bunny minecraft named star killed fuck stray cat reason house aa,0 +need guys advice please so theres girl know absolutely beautiful love death doesnt think way idk though idk wont give up even pandemic ask would like come house there parents here funny business happens dont think way says yes set time comes over watch movie play video games last couple times gone like small ice cream place played mini golf went restaurant once dont remember though but dont know do though love lot care her recently lost great friend i sadly didnt know well give condolences also something else happen earlier week asked wanted come cause wanted let know im sorry also wanted make happy again dont want sound selfish anything though just want happy too guys advice better thanks,0 +love her think best everybody let go ive girl months weve together lot really thought one starting feel like end seems good like months now course im happy her theres another thing this dont think needs romantically anymore ive thought months doesnt treat good all feel like im something meaningless life broken twice times wasnt sure feelings said didnt feel right times told wrong week after came together again doesnt like im affectionate her maybe overtheaverage amount problems ive tried solve months im one trying love unbelievably much also feel romantic feelings fading im sure though maybe period idk think best end it call friends dont want kill happiness shes doing ill always love though,0 +messiah geometry class answering questions one graphing lines trying remember vertical horizontal line two fingers pointed know vertical was dog literally laying floor not even facing way stood soon lifted fingers felt like god,0 +first one comment get free award write something automoderator get,0 +im ready give upi anything look forward whats point nothing,1 +committed multiple warcrimes,0 +first relationship ended cant copemy whole life shit one reason another always gone fits starts breakdowns inbetween short periods activityworkfriends trying best work everybody elses best friend needed shat used ive worked ten years depression anxiety awful experiences work never relationship anyone never believed even possible met amazing guy years ago weve never able make work disintegrating mess cant see anymore shot anyone life waited almost half fucking century first person say i love you im fucked handle it intimacy sex trust cant go rebuilding life time time every years cant anymore im exhausted want die cant stop crying every time start talk gets intense held everything back realise ive lost want kill tonight totally enough edit thanks strangers talked last night im really touched that took bunch valium last night top booze fell sleep straightaway must slept like log good whole nights sleep still feeling shit today thanks,1 +want get short hair convince want people make assumptions convenience,0 +im suicidalbut black come back wrong lane taking corners wake nightmares cold sweat cant figure im relieved disappointed still better reality scream top lungs head one sees make constant jokes sad go week speak word loud im ok im suicidal,1 +well done well done guys guys keep posting boys skirts pictures banned,0 +happy thanksgivingjust wanted hop say hope found something remind someones thinking holiday could if youd like could another stranger could someone unexpected could someone youd expect could family could friend could coworker could neighbor etc regardless hope youre well faceless internet being wonderful holiday,1 +last day teen well everyone it kind spontaneous post time surely flies realized last day teenager lots great memories great childhood lots time wasted browsing subreddit too ive great things look forward applying med school months ugh still feel like kid suppose really ambivalent feeling step next stage life manufacturers warranty manufacturers expected life span yay probably worse cuz allnighters anyway enjoy time cliche really live once remember wherever go are keep fighting ill see yall side haha,0 +found toxic guy name upiece_delicious toxic wonders find nontoxic subreddit got banned check profile time,0 +winters day th december two bored year olds hire movie hmmmm police story looks interesting who jackie chan never heard him two hours later watching film daze wanted know more years later and severely pocket collecting jc movies film still grabs like other ok maybe soft spot first cannonball run count jc movie excellent movie classic jc elements action humour action heart action comments say dated made course dated must jaws casablanca singin rain godfather without movies like police story would hollywood action today ps set standards many scene stolen use movies really fully appreciate must see widescreen miss much movie otherwise yes really fall bus going round corner already see movie nowbr br ,0 +kill myselfi deserve die,1 +almost year anniversary im thinking sooner please help melast year march th abuser left me werent abuser time well yes were favorite person loved lot woke morning message skype saying good bye need leave me removed contact im gonna go much detail almost day cried nonstop couldnt it person liked fucking left me then became abuser would want talk them would call names partner would literally describe wanted maim me wanted murder cold blood happened spam id say months nightmares happened turned still going on attempted kill using childrens liquid ibuprofen remember taste it burning throat nothing happened though much shit happened want repress bad know fresh mind im panic attack cried sleep would cut oh god cutting remember total cuts got home school one day incredibly unstable then earlier year got called everything post one exfriends made tumblr said everything did every disgusting creepy thing did screenshots provided abuser friends boyfriend contributed post saying stuff ex stuff didnt want revealed stuff happy do people reblogged it saying oh god disgusting wrote redflag letter public saying would steal bottle robittusin drink night didnt it oh god memories oh god im fucking scared someone love leave march th year one week away want memories repressed bad im abuser im fucking abuser shit did fucking creepyass shit unstable shit deserved it didnt i wrote fic drew art didnt care didnt care ruined ruined ruined oh god im crying im crying im scared im fuckign scared please god exist let march th average day please dont let leave like dont desreve thus anymroe im trying hard survive im home alone could literally take one dads belts hang right second everything would finally over would finally everything ever would lead moment know wont affected theyll shrug theyll go oh well deserved it go life im crying im fucking scared didnt desreve time dont want dont want this please god help edit went throguh tumblr archives march see could find anything th found face wnant throw also found posts exact time got ruined httpsgyazocombbdeedade,1 +even speaki fucking hate myself cant anything right argue others treat like idiots im real idiot im aware yet cant stop myself try talk prevent littlest thing sets off try fill say jokes counter act jokes find funny people think corny stupid im life still lives home im piece shit treats others like piece shit im tired it im tired existing one ever going love never loveable even bother wish could stop talking wish could stop existing,1 +get helpi graduated college ive struggling depression now took turn worse summer first scary night went hated life fully completely first time know going do texted someone talked calm state suicidal ideation became common experience senior year culminating nearbreakdown graduation since then ive unable find job effort call walkin talk manager uses energy im running money depression seems getting worse rarely go week without thinking much want dead moms health insurance cover therapy really know do im isolating girlfriend scared might something stupid impulse bad day go do know need get job try jobs basically source anxiety future theyre enormous emotiondump me since hate idea getting soulless job thats going crush years time im end rope need help clue find it,1 +anyone wanna uhh roleplay lmao im really fucking boredddd wanna try pretty fun dont topics mind knows get lot could group woah yeah anyways filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +need advice stop masturbating masturbate every night times ive recently noticed strong smell semen showered gone started thinking showering tought wow isnt good smell dont wanna smell like that masturbating feels great want stop dont know how kind like habit kind like autopilot mode thought would affect social life would like near someone stinks like semen know want stop dont know how sorry grammar mistakes dont speak english main language,0 +might going hawaii tomorrow idk wanted flex everyone,0 +much painso much pain much hate house everyone hates other everyone yells one listens one wants anymore one leave hate resent much soulcrushing poverty wherever look cant believe person asked live way pumped full medications keep living way told shush pay live way live way goodbye,1 +want dieim gonna bother throwaway want die want feel happy again take pleasure things used enjoy want die think reason im posting tell someone thanks goodnight,1 +keep surpassing lucas dinner time lucas you sis hungry me yeah pretty much lucas i made delicious food me what make then lucas lasagna me thats nothing man lucas why not me i made lobster yesterday cream sauce delicious,0 +aight im boutta horny post warned guys unironically really could use hug guys havent felt close touch somebody damn long,0 +hey guys bday today wish could invite instead got virtual hugs digitalized cake,0 +love life left mehi cant say much right now im freaking out boyfriend left me completely random blocked everything closure fucking confused kind thought losing love idea would come leaving without warning frozen words never loved somebody much honestly asked anyone better want die im afraid consequences want back needed him im heartbroken never going forget him honestly point know life anymore hence death feels like option absolutely words miss fucking much,1 +otherwise excellent book lincoln american memory historian merrill peterson calls young mrlincoln boring dreadful film amazingly wrongheaded analysis simply proves great historians rarely fine film critics working doctoral dissertation abraham lincoln frederick douglass part preparation writing dissertation made careful analysis film tag gallaghers brilliant interpretation seminal book ford young mr lincoln comes culminating year first phase fords cinematic authorship in greatest hollywood years ford directed three superb still fully appreciated films drums along mohawk stagecoachand young mrlincoln might seem odd say stagecoach fully appreciated purblind critics must perceive one greatest westerns perhaps even one hundred greatest films time however fully appreciated three films work together kind trilogya triptych fact ford creating sort mythic history america screen drums along mohawk revolutionary war young mrlincoln precivil war americafinally stagecoach post civil war america three films common extended meditation american adam errand wilderness psychic social costs american manifest destiny america strives build new human city wildernesslincoln symbolizes americas journey seeks reconcile civilizational inmpulse law freedom wildernessyoung mrlincoln history full historical howlersas ford trotti well aware myth lincoln symbol justice mercy lincoln man wilderness striving found civilization within himself become remarkable lawgiver young america young mr lincoln historylike james agees long forgotten teleplay lincoln like sandburgs biography epic poema beautiful epic poem,0 +erasing thoughts nearly twentyseven times feeling conquer review complex french drama read lips written five hundred reviews never found loss words director jacques audiards subtle yet inspirational love story thought poured loved hated film loves overpowered elements hated sparked debate within mind read lips drama precise character driven drama fuses social uncertainty crime lords doldrums everyday office work review begins crumble items moremuch much more viewer pulled instantly emmanuelle devos portrayal fragile woman named carla whose strength lost males office well hearing difficulty audiard introduces us harshly world removing sound screen whenever wearing aid causing immediate unrest characters within film watching without sound world left open possibility frighteningbr br as watch difficult unsettling woman setting life uprooted given opportunity meet paul played exquisitely vincent cassel slickedback hair mustachewearing lanky man released prison homeless jobless forced parole officer get job carla paul meet moment instant unsettling attraction one think loves him dark and gets even fun think loves her dark constant role reversal creates tone unknown who viewers feel sympathy for paul sleeps office carla helps him carla looses contract rival coworker paul helps her carlas ability read peoples lips comes handy makeshift idea paul continual jumps back forth keep chair waiting possibility light shine dark cave never does audiard cannot allow story take place continually introduces us characters one seedy next even rock solid foundation parole officer question wife goes missing subplot film first angered me upon debate staple finale film yet none could happened characters devos solemn homely look breathtaking changes image paul truth beauty discovered paul wildcard film continues seemingly use abuse friendship final endgame then assume one carla takes one last shapebr br audiard knows amazing actors capturing characters cassel devos could play cards entire time would still sitting end chair story probably weakest part film first random interwoven stories seem unconnected first audiard lets connect bit bit again entire parole officer segment tangent final scene solidified ends means attempting sound vague complex yet utterly simple story difficult explain plenty happening connect pieces favorite scene carla attempting discover money held use sound scene brilliant tense dramatic like watching whodunit mystery unfold eyesbr br overall initially though mediocre french film could easily forget proved wrong read lips opens floor discussion characters situations one find rooting carla one scene paul next discovery made pauls apartment carla found deeply angry audiard brought true emotion screen characters development lacking plot actors able carry easily suggest film anyone prepared one time viewing film repeat repeat repeatbr br grade ,0 +id probably dead music didnt exist idk lil thought,0 +petition change other flair subreddit otter sign show support,0 +whats making life worth living todayfeel free vent need place complain every then,1 +addictive seriesi seen exact combination among drama action suspense scifi never before impressed every chapter screenplay intelligent know creators invent amazing stories every character strange past troubles stormy relationships gives show human sense needed creating intimate charactersbr br the incredible fact characters related among them numbers met without knowing it on others enigmatic security system darma initiative elements let us lose chapterbr br mr jj abrams think create amazing story,0 +chronic depression foolproof plan scaredbe brave tell myself brave know means more brave live brave die two weeks ill answer lifes problems method fail does hopefully ill impaired enough livingdying matter family history parkinsonsalzheimers social anxiety bipolar disorder im quite close enough see rest life slow decline grave never made life job money way out know do continue live world ill nothing burden love me keep on cant even qualify social security death easier struggle find help found real help years,1 +got job got job fast food usually keep pretty late tips still spend time friends,0 +want die peacefullylife senseless nothing life worth living for weird confusing dream point it life good guess get good grades roof house loving family thing sucks life im it put torturing world energy anything fixing life itd much easier die see therapist months parents made stop seeing get evaluation hospital perhaps stay week so truly even help even point strength cope feelings itd easier let eat up death would ideal everyone knows me cant die certain people would get hurt lot im cutting compensate desire kill myself death would ideal solution really,1 +think fucked upa days ago told significant love her would leave alone wanted take distance her could kill feel guilty death emotional support urges kill keep growing life crumbling down really miss her nothing repair damage caused feels like ever death way,1 +november beginning day pain misery hrs already im struggling pain real whole time im going make sure make one express pain reason even tho one asked,0 +im shellim going post long post past something make u feel badthat dosnt matterim looking resurance friends want someone tell wont always feel like anymore want someone tell theres depression letdowns need someone tell gets bedder,1 +hope everyone good day um want see response post thats it wanted say good day ok bye yall,0 +motheri job currently living father room reach touch walls time account thats roughly usd one cares even girlfriend obviously sleep hours day dad sees huge disappointment think redflag least twice day cry every time mother would sad ever took life cant follow it im useless pice garbage contribute society way,1 +hospitalization feels goodi like hospitalized anyone else effed feel same,1 +boy fan conservatives rn th grade watched one ben shapiro video immediately considered republican watched conservative content plenty liberals owned videos since seen error ways pretty central generally leftleaning funny see grown adults acting way year old acted back then fact actually think trump pence either debates pathetic,0 +guys got diagnosed lethal illness doctor told ive got cold think im going die,0 +ive suicidal years differentmany people told time baby would daze go blank eyes crying happy okay first time wanted run away three years old step dad locked outside we lived one worst parts projects time said im going run away want mom camped bed truck went inside next morning awoke mom panic find me spun nice web her made feel bad scaring her punished usual holding encyclopedias straight front undetermined length timedrop one get two more night went sleep came conclusion simply want exist first suicidal thought came six years old seemed birthday forgotten wasntmy mom gave one balloon angrily rushed get groceries inside alone extremely sad threw weight tied ribbon balloon ground causing balloon become unattached cried jumped token proved someone cared flew sky thought occurred me mom angry worried birthday six obviously see upset afford anything me moment best thing thought could fall large tree hopefully injured would cease exist next decade would learn control thoughts would learn find things live for would learn detect episode unfortunately learning picked habit cutting never heard anyone it pain make stop hand hurts hurt hand notice initial pain right habit me took life hospitals a took years anyone notice b poor c dad always told work myself helpful cant seem see light anymore thats now stopped cutting routinely years ago last years finally taken toll ive abused entire existenceconvinced im manipulative unstable although professionals keep telling im everything right led believe im far yet much less am litany things last years though done in ive seen caused much pain feel much pain time want scream cry laugh dance punch things used able talk thinking wayconvince bad making although reality much worse realized time cant feel end coming ive started writing letters even one life idea cant understand feels like know theres train screaming toward bound tracks silently accepting soon dead reaching out attempt die,1 +anybody remember super minecraft maker small burst nostalgia today remembered server called minecade game called super minecraft maker game basically bunch small mini games stories sprinkled in decided go back play checked game super minecraft maker know one hell fact existed anybody remember game,0 +goodbyelife fucking retarded cannot fucking relax everyone everything keeps fucking annoying me keep losing everything complete fucking bullshit every single fucking day school starting need move different city dont feel like living im extremely stressed parents opposite helping feels like wasnt supposed fucking born keep losing keep getting beaten down cant get anymore ill finish,1 +kill myselfi f clean selfharming almost two months tonight cant help it deserve relapse im ugly contribute anything world im dumb one cares feelings ill never make anywhere life one ever truly loved admired me says much appearance born nice genes happen me cant live life anymore seeing people age happy naturally pretty successful born life perfect im stuck ugly body fat stomach gross face acne scars body im dealing fact never amount anything deserve hurt deserve die part hopes one day something could get better doubt happen harsh reality makes want end life even more anything left live for aside amazing pet rabbits since mom told ever commit redflag shed kill herself know anymore one talk to,1 +yay sports team lost well get em next year bois afl care,0 +really think want kill myself im huge failure see way could end reasonable matter without gonei dont job live mom lack income large burden household im suck everything im really depressed dont think im like yearold trapped older mans body happen see writing walli think im wasting everybodys time here discernible skills make valuable world im wasting everybodys time mentioned earlier spend majority time playing super nintendo games live strange bubble ive fulfilled everything ive ever wanted im realizing bad life sucks yearold time divided street fighter masturbation im waste space reason here live middle woods call hang belong world live afterlife better shit wantg jerk peace without acknowledging presence cant anymore,1 +first ever debut film riveting chilling moments best horror film fashion pit stomach tightens every moment film ending superb makers blaire witch obviously watched film ending end beginning end great movie piece japans great far scare factor perfect score makes think scared mind,0 +got serious question right now anyone remember ozzy osborne ate live bat one performances nowadays people cause global pandemic ozzy able eat bat ok like cmon prince darkness ate bat didnt cause pandemic someone try thing doomed us economic recession like great depression,0 +one year since attempted redflagon october th itll one year since attempted redflag im still deciding wanna celebrate day go another normal day come today tell people life gets better almost whole year intensive counseling appointments week every week ive become happier person im nearly person year ago broken depressed teen wanted end all want people know gets better matter youre going figured id share success story need little motivation dont afraid seek help best option life gives you counselor recently sent letter saying congratulations counseling free proud person ive become really made cry tears joy seeing someone proud progress ill leave lifes precious enjoy every second,1 +think want quitive already major redflag attempts year one landed hospital another put crisis center awhile know went wrong right time im wanting try accomplish stepdads birthday this upcoming tuesday since believe treatment growing one main biggest reasons im screwed up im dysfunctional achieve anything own least this course im scared die causing family pain leaving sweet dog behind seriously cant function dragging everyone around me draining mom love dearly cant needs live functional life im unemployed cant hold job cant even drive mind hellish hurt cry every day ive tried reaching scare everyone get overwhelmed ive tried years counseling mental health facilities yet am really see things life id like experience want give up feel cant take anymore breaks heart venting,1 +messed big time want diei something stupid year ago im freaking warning might nsfwim sure is proceed caution used involved really weird fetish longer im honestly sure would consider fetish dont think sexual thing me anyways chatting discord instagram people also it shared really personal taboo stuff often frowned upon society stupid naive teenager shared private information probably shouldnt told told state lived never told city address was part really messed sending picture face dont know it chatting probably less week cant even remember many people sent picture really stressing out month later deleted accounts something enjoyednot sexual way least recently remembered im freaking out conversations people got along picture face would publicly humiliated taboo something ill never tell anyone know personally chances messages get out,1 +big brain time gtif beat chess game smart stupid,0 +extrovert adopt me ima shy good natured introvert anyone adopt please,0 +want anyone find bodyi cant it someone see confirm death ,1 +thing way fact thing donecan someone please shoot me cut throat strangle death doesnt matter how make happen ill anything,1 +mind racing whole could break get sudden thought could end suddenly care anymore waiting court,1 +swallowed around half bottle gram coated ibuprofen tablets whole pill bottle pills enough long take farewell possibly,1 +scene shows wallaces experiment using brain manipulation invention goes terribly wrong creating were rabbit desire social entrepreneur improve society better therefore created brain manipulator machine risked life help solve tottingtons pests rabbit problem importantly overcome overcrowding rabbits collected stored basement though thought experiment worked however resulted placing pressure gromit find solution annual vegetable competition risking life gromit silent faithful dog loyal helper finds continuously thinking innovative ways save master radical crazy inventions going terribly wrong interesting movie trying identify entrepreneurial wallace gromit,0 +ive thought redflag daily almost months nowits getting unbearable thing keeping thought mother finding hanging closet,1 +night fun one time spent entire night watching minecraft stuff watched like minecraft animations bored sleep wanted to cant believe months since this,0 +seriously pissed homeroom teacher school thing morning announcements every week give anonymous fun facts teachers today fun fact one valedictorian said loud much screw life valedictorian end teacher living k dollar salary teacher staring rest class im scared tomorrow,0 +anybody else remember orange kidz bop disk back like came happy meals funky town chicken noodle soup dont know remember,0 +kill myselfi want talk why want know how im like r spent excuses buy medicines want something without pain something listening music smoking,1 +hi feeling one worst felt life older get become hopeless always dream better days time riddled fears redflag life could beautiful seem attract negativity even describe pain soul feeling even know start need write comfort moment severe pain lung beeing chainsmoker years daily paranoid death cancer even writing everything exhausting sometimes even power get get something drink lazy tired life disapointent give little power still without parents friends help would drown sure man sad know women attracted depressed skinny guy girlfriend years hugged kissed cuddled girl years dying inside need get chest thinking sharing reddit whatever reason longer time always spoon pillow imagine girlfriend everyday afraid die without ever knowing feels loved pain lung moment scaring death id happy someone would chat little thank read whole post appreciate friend hopeless,1 +thoughtsi amazing friends great family good enough grades along things im still way ive tried near everything everything fails,1 +need somewhere rant guessi hate talking things never make posts like this tried long time ago got really good advice figured id try again fucked up ive made many mistakes life know ill able redeem myself see future even anywhere close meaningful got discharged military im weak fuck mental breakdown looked like complete fucking idiot since life living hell therapists pills psychiatrists one listening said things dont think anymore plan outpatient behavioral study whatever fuck called basically partial hospitalization hopefully calm weeks dont much hope upcoming weeks fucked relationship dont think things ever same ive miserable love much made hard leave did know given chance ill become complacent spot want make things right im disgusting terrible excuse human dont kn mow how even point fixing things due ive lost best friend whos started talking again wish never reached fixed things would much easier right now know problems trivial im good explaining things im sorry sounds stupid guess wanted someone real listen one last time wasnt therapist paid care im probably much wimp even kill myself every attempt past ended way dont know do im tired paranoid anxious miserable life im sorry,1 +midnight ramblings volume iii quick side note series call that simply mental vomit whenever feel fatigued usually fallen asleep midnight name simply reflection state mind time drafting new entry high school relationships doomed fail everyone get separated opportunities availability funds pull everyone universities trade schools careers point failure relationships parties involved become seriously depressed while whats point risking happening multiple times high school ends become distant memory shared camaraderie with risk dating even possibility two eventually spending life together thing love first sight everyone including me seems confuse romantic love platonic love damn time personal believe one prerequisites romantic love two people complete belief maximum growth love people beyond fact brains high school aged people rewriting decision making parts said brains everyone high school relationship probably knows subconsciously bound go toilet point causing work hard need keep relationships afloat even long fuck mind destroying garbage otherwise known dating,0 +people actually telling mums crushessos like why mom keeps asking who like do girlfriend im gonna make think im single forever probably tbh ll also idk embarassing like im religious parents condone stuff feels weird talk even friends romantic stuff people talk parents it,0 +someone talk toi know keep reaching help people seem stop talking conversation even halfway through either get lives im burden dont respond panic right want someone talk wait get therapy dont nobody talk real life didnt know else post,1 +liketalk someone im upset ok respond fucking suck,0 +m couple unusually touchyclose nights vacation close friend f im ohio friend washington know parents met high school needless say see whole lot since were far away go vacation twice year families ive known whole life became friends couple years ago text talk every day mutual friend zone strongly although good friends never anything even close going beyond that also bi tell leans towards liking girls guys vacation montana pretty typical outdoorsy day vacation us ill call friend e first three days typical fun much talk about last two nights stayed hotel gave us extra rooms reservation something messed due covid anyways got room e sister l got room since room two beds well sort of queen bed pullout couch basically single bed wanted sleepover type thing unusual own were comfortable whatnot first night played various games watched tv probably hour l fell asleep e tired went sit couch bed read old text conversations between ourselves phone one point put elbow shoulder like would put elbow window car rest definitely pretty unusual touchy people physical contact wed ever fake hitting wrestling something like phone anyways one point got photos sent messages tried take phone look them pulled away basically ended lying bed trying keep away usually point would give maybe reach around grab it laid top one hand eventually gave up move rested head shoulderchest probably half hour super late decided try get sleep slept maybe hour in separate beds someone made loud noise hallway woke up although sister somehow slept it e came back sat pillows played hair while also unusual said tired crawled bed laid next better part hour keep mind extremely small bed nothing comfortable needing sleep perspective sister started shuffle around e jumped quickly point went day mention anything all except one point morning e made awkward compliments hair eyes ampxb next night situation except l fell asleep much faster e came bed again time put head shoulder pretty much right away tired since barely slept night before laid next said tired asked put phone away did laid said going go sleep also patted top head said interesting gesture still exactly understand that anyways sat gave standing laid back down minutes later exact thing eventually got went sleep notably every time sister kind shuffled door creaked something e sat stood up clearly want people seeing going on ampxb weeks since trip weve texted every day usual since essentially mention nights except saying misses pullout couch bed it comfortable really cannot stress enough nothing like ever happened us before even year ago accidentally brushing leg made say ew also note really initiate contact anything went along mind all initiate basically everything really know now last thing want jeopardize good friendship also curious two nights tldr spent couple nights close friend unusually touchy close theres mention since idk now,0 +nobody cares me way contribute anything society cannot quit business alive wtf,1 +im hopeless livebefore vent ass off legitimately cant wait year over days know nothing special switch january december nothing day change seriously though gives opportunity make new year better happened year year far worst year senior year high school ended abruptly super long break later august started university wish didnt absolutely horrible im currently enduring christmas break took long time get used things exams quite confusing anyways ive decided drop university completely ive already paid first semester dont plan next absolutely idea wanted do wish learned earlier could go community college instead least join workforce feel like college isnt something frontal cortex fully developed make good decisions dont know career would fit me ive never job before enjoy reading writing learning healthcare related sciences im fan math mainly hard time understanding it weird thing used enjoy reading problem solving lot feel like ive gotten lazier like get distracted easily something play hands order something else ill get fidgety think big problem im afraid touched dont like anyone touching anywhere even simple high five handshake would problem future job seeking im sure past trauma dont like feeling another persons skin me dont like people looking think theyre perverts do also makes quite shy except im online anonymous forum like place sometimes get jealous envious others also defensive im hopeless arent i,1 +me fucking know im trans also always play female video game characters filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +pretty sure best friend girl ive liked years date told felt told likes doesnt see ever liking me,0 +please help joking need save friendplease need immidieate help friend spain going kill soon said many times know nit joking need someone tell do live poland call polish police tell it anything else do i everything could make kill himself listen need take action,1 +every fucking time every time draw something make meme come post realize saturday ffffucck aaaahhhhhhh,0 +cke day love guys filler filler filler filler filler,0 +help ive ended bondage youtube not theres anything wrong it left youtube playing ended the goat pentagram harnesshttpsyoutubeoynh_ubk_g im either lazy change interested help,0 +pretend room bedsheets changed weeks cluttered cannot see floor spot bed sit dented stained get back room pretend happy pretend friends interact anyone sit bothered one see room let go step room pretend,1 +friend going kill right now please helpi know do answer phone anything,1 +get helpno one wants help tried helping nothing works redflag methods recommend care painful obviously handle pain well want know one guarantees success inbox too thanks,1 +thought ending many times time come really start consider option day always could convince least something go for one goal achieve work anymoreafter years finaly met love life really could happier day even hoped forthat last end day though confessed following things purely exhausting single minute relaxation nothing ever meaning her also said meet someone real life connection them build one though chances falling love ever slightly even worse before desired boyfriend neglected her cuddling never felt good way wanted make happy least one moment achieved mind youshe also told know yet even wants see hit hardest all lose hope ever relationship woman love also know much burden even aroundyou might find problems laughable really nothing else life ever go ruined myself know yet pretty sure completed last chapter life bittersweet ending lost last meaning life,1 +monster sweeping garage accidentally destroyed two spiderwebs one little baby spider one dad it think mom died saw dead spider web walli partially destroyed spiders homeam monster,0 +would consider cutting someone specials name toxic ex cut time clean wasnt cut initial thigh broke kinda caused relapse got new bf really wanna carve name arm im scared hell think im gonna toxic boyfriend advice pls lt,0 +know whats wild one day fucker like i balls got integration shit shits crazy,0 +multiple half assed redflag attempts since elementary schoolnot sure much actually intend say ive suicidal long remember think first attempt around age suicidal thoughts constant life since then age ive tried kill times success struggled self harm that got close trying lost motivation even resorted staring floor realizing would fuck like past times planning going field near house jamming knife stomach probably badly worded whatever im incredibly frustrated especially years denied help medical malpractice bullshit pushing closer closer killing myself kept alive peoples sake,1 +coffee legit oat milk im even complaining tbh im like didnt put coffee icced cofee oatmilk like almost completely white tiniest brown tint pretty good still tastes like sweetened oat milk,0 +average rteenagers user date like hey girl wanna play number game oh never mind ill ask you u mean whats height also prefer guys circumcised ,0 +mostly story growing relationship jeff websterjimmy stewart ronda castleruth roman takes instant liking jeff brief encounter deck steamer skagway longer look hides cabin authorities seek charge murder find things common besides animal attraction neither trusts member opposite sex apparently married spouses cheated them gradually learn trust other journey skagway dawson ronda clearly close dealings corrupt sheriff gannon engages shady practices castle saloon skagway eventually decide gannon jeff meanwhile rene young naive french woman also takes immediate liking jeff gets insulting brush offs return yet sticks travels skagway dawson activities around dawson along ronda nurses back health jeff left dead gannons gunslingers gold claim walter brennan ben serves jeffs long time sidekick meaty role serves soften jeffs hard edges demise symbolically opens door woman companion replacement jeffbr br john mcintireas sheriff gannon makes probably charismatic evil town boss ever see film oozing charm humor go along bullying evidently sees something jeff repeatedly declaring hes going like him makes believable incarnation infamous soapy smith spent last years skagway one premier con men timesbr br jeff quintessential antihero lonerexcept companion ben want stick neck others even knows one right man job respect closely resembles burt lancasters character vera cruz example thus jeff turns job marshall dawson convinced leave dawson gannons gang move clear intentions taking everyones insufficiently legal gold claims disposing miners suggesting rest make hurried exit dawson even ronda suggests jeff make hurried exit dawson still alive then jeff sudden change heart apparently still nursing desire revenge shooting ben himself changes antihero hero leading expulsion gannons gang dawson respect differs lancasters character never reformsbut jeff truly changed handing revenge wrongs committed interestsbr br the main problem see plot principle women clearly ronda groomed right woman tame jeff although clearly characterized bad girl jeff checkered recent past himself shot least men us yukon stolen cattle back gannon ironically soon jeff changes antihero hero rhonda makes similar change running street warn jeff gannons impending ambush dies result jeff asks look herselfhis supposedly abandoned creedbr br its clear corine calvert renee make credible substitute dead ronda jeffs mind yet apparent implication parting scene get together even though jeff never visibly gives kiss hug image good naive young woman somewhat compromised job rhondas saloon bumping miners weighting gold dust pushing spilled dust floor recovering later im also unclear relationship rube morris middle aged miner followers around works claim herhes fatherbr br another problem amateurish handling gun fight jeff gannons gang gannon skill pistol killed seriously wounded jeff boardwalk jeff him jeffs badly shot right hand suddenly become well enough shoot pistol apparent ease also wonder jeff friends help save avalanche victims much far away pull alive snow rondas pack horses mules also buried avalanchebr br you see host probably nameless familiar faces among miners gannons gang sequences shot canadian rockies provide breathtaking backdrop action allinall entertaining western major flaws concentrated end doubt film takes great liberties history geography especially part taking place canadian yukon fact much tamer us skagway,0 +wanting kill helping othersi trying positive things community live one counties state extreme poverty rate saying everyone poor here wealthy neighborhoods sure police definitely give shit homeless people troubled youth white poc cis trans straight queer ethnic minority even though definite majority county cismale lightskinned guess straight idk definitely mostly attracted women romantically sexually queer thoughts tendencies whatever nothing would consider queer over feel like id coopting stretching guess im beta whatever def frat bro college lives parents nice part time job campus try help youth community lot raising funds dreamer scholarships hosting know rights workshops families may affected current administration hosting allday higher education career conference every year junior senior high school students feeds breakfast lunch free gets familiescaretakers hair saturday work campaigns would expand certain things help people campaigns people buy way office im fourth generation activist want help inspire next generation help people prevents blowing brains out ive diagnosed major depression d my lame social worker sent behavioral health hospital know getting into thought going scan brain whatever im dumb lot times people make want end all a im marginalized bad person nothing even though im ignorant do helps tell help shitposter commonly found found helping others community let alone fighting chains also unaware current evil representatives smaller local laws elections want help tell fucking help tell campaigns critical you im going waste time listening shitty panel campus three hours results progress plan fight system b thats liberal me ill stick shitposting commie never helped person life audacity tell activists do constantly found confusing radical philosophy know nothing banter tactics affective breaking chains know keywords memes call radical c i think shitty ambiguous art project profit activism choir preacher hyper derivative works art think activism merely existing commonly found disinterested politics expects laws know change based outrage knows keywords radical leftist stalinist whateverists locks echo chamber build audience passive art meaning make artist look like socially conscious edgelord instagram hate people annoying inactive too want people help others know might something bring playbook experience knowledge simply fine echo chambers unchallenged oppression privilege know privileges social constructs wealth guarantee want kill reason besides hate height tremendously good day general body my face okay guess work overlooked abcs millennials listed want help people lack support get upsetting help less shit talking me could help many lives want die ill regret posting this,1 +worried myselfever scared cause know happens basically ive felt suicidal everyday around years know feel still here ive self harmed tried antidepressants counselling twice ive confidence anxiety bad cant leave house ive friends im numb aspects life feel trapped myself want things like drive get job friends family feel like world would better without me im lost universe im scared myself,1 +didnt cut minkaticoodneveaindamawywattanothinnn,0 +started picking skin days ago cant stop skin looks bad think mom wants go therapy self harm dont think understands cuz im bored depressed d,0 +idea many different aspects lifelet preface saying although worked hard get am know im lucky person whole life ive complaints friends played sports girlfriends sex love experienced life average american grade schooler high schooler college student young professional would experience it im bit introverted most plenty things feel like ive wasted time worked hard high school get full ride college worry loans lucky enough career pays year half graduating city cost living low im kind rambling im trying make point many people would kill have yet reason really want live im really sad anything feel like ive experienced enough id fine living anymore way last decade id totally okay vanished thin air everyone simply forgot ever existed hate career im passionate it knew wanted do id throw current job heartbeat idea want do enjoy really change fact desire live hobbies love like snowboarding ive good girlfriends ive love with even that often want fade existence im pretty nihilistic think life intrinsic meaning ones responsibility assign meaning life ive never able matter hard ive tried purposelessness makes feel okay wanting alive times get tougher like now often lean towards wanting dead rather simply apathetic it used think fun activities dating distractions apathy time ive sort assigned importance them them im living life like point time maybe distraction apathy life supposed like even then cant help feel bit shallow know reality cant always like that even were id likely get sick time im sorry know really cohesive way thinking things typing out tldr im sure life ive tried hard prescribe meaningfulness life cant really it results apathetic living normal circumstances makes lean towards wanting live situations get difficult thanks reading ill check back tomorrow anyone thoughts,1 + year old male suicide thought attempts feel like everyone watching again got redflag autism adhd paronia suicide thought depression hear voice antidepressants past couple years depression bad like everything push one side back cannot keep fighting like anymore morning even want take meds feel like commiting suicide stop feeling voice pain,1 +brain posture brain growth questions couple questions brain first wanted know bad posture could somehow damage brain affect brain activity anything sort say neck bent wall looking down often im worried this secondly often said growth happens asleep mean missing crucial time brain development anything like sleep quite late get around hrs sleep only,0 +finally opened feeling suicidal one trusted mostand reply people die someday life easy dont pain reason stop you think adult right make decision say this sorry reached ex years still good terms im stunned hurt cold hearted reply was head messed right now,1 +constant feeling hopelessi sick feeling super depressed mixed anxiety hopelessness im dropped first year college november spent money college super excited for friends friends hometown lost college lost friends made college moved back home one talk to think ever felt like best friend talk to never felt like really included anything feel excluded game call life ever since dropped out ive feeling like crap everyday feel like failure dropping college am fucking hate myself every decision made everything leading present regret fucking hate life feeling like everyday right part time job thats thing going life im working want sleep cant sleep want get fucked getting super high getting drunk both money would make job would buy weed weed thing would make feel happy enjoy things feel like nothing live for second time ive felt hopeless life first time years later again stuck stupid brain stupid thoughts stuck stupid worthless person everytime something good happens life gets destroyed give trying right now care sleep never wake again care airplane crash landed top right now feel like never ever find happiness would rather feel nothing right now today ive literally spent like hours bed today motivation anything cant see happy cant remember last time truly happy cant remember genuinely enjoyed life cant remember feels like wake hate life myself cant remember feeling like actual human earth remember pain remember darkness cant see light literally talent good nothing cant ammount anything useless person never career life want right curl bed fall asleep hope never wake again,1 +im living keep dad alivei hospitalized weeks ago suicidal ideation dad told killed myself hed kill too never liked dad much since pretty toxic im living moral obligation keep alive told methods hed use everything hospital life sitting shoulders dont wanna live keep someone else alive wanna live im finally happy theres hole chest hurts everyday im never getting bed suicidal ideation back mind everyday dont think im ever gonna happy im stuck here im tired,1 +finally got gf even talk insists still together help,0 +go whole story basic details year old guy homeowner years current career career job homeowner creative person new firsttime father since experienced depressive episodes severe depressive symptoms gotten worse gotten older taken responsibility burned people repress heartdesires live fulfilling life travel take risks etc done less conventional things like therapy tried multiple drugs even yearlong clinical trial experimental drug treatmentresistant depression etc while able travel weeks winters three winters row probably happiest years despite good things happening life lately tend always dwell really negative things trauma experienced devalue discard manipulation cruelty others sense worthlessness morose sense nothing really matters forgotten one day last years really really struggling finally find something works suicidal ideation less always there different intensities volumes depending happening feeling lot live right want part daughters life much success mood drugs talking primary care doctor seeing psychologist etc feel like almost something dramatic like check somewhere order get proper diagnosis treatment plan finally taken seriously always afraid costs possible intervention policeauthorities point lived like long cannot imagine living another years like this hate major depression viewed weakness chronic condition kill people anyone else done this peoples experiences like hospitalization inpatient treatment,1 +well time now probably since early spring clue set off enjoying new job much new feeling took job january woke tired today day went on ability focus work maintain motivation get work day quickly deteriorated dinner plans eating managed protein bar lunch usual normally hungry and depressed binge eat often boyfriend decided cook meal meant make us eat healthy dinner laid made bed get again things around house cannot bothered matter moment but time do redflag wasting time laying here cannot find good reason actually get up hour ago started crying feel heavy like lowgrade electricity skin uncomfortable idea feel sadbut know boyfriend otherwise ignoring night dinner help sure made food though also eat never checked me got mad asked for probably millionth time last years touch stomach came say goodnight went bed like stomach touched explicitly clear relentlessly care boundaries called via asking thing doing curtly said goodnight left without giving kiss usually would done punishment guess often withholds various forms affection usual behavior him so surprised surprised never checked also selfish selfcentered likely narcissist talk many problems impact me behavior way treats done absolutely nothing improve overall mental health depressed long sure long after expecting help today anything really brought wanted mention still nevertheless feeling disappointed person care give care past would given positions reversed today knew would not still sucks not either way already sad know why help situationbackground depression problem life last years off min mids now better not go long stretches almost months completely fine feeling curedand something set downward spiral usually quite slowly see coming getting better identifying symptoms starting onset start employ various countermeasures sometimes often really tough identify triggers come back depression bad insatiably hungry tired unfocused unmotivated sad crying off experience loss interest friendshobbiesfun loss sex drive cannot sleep sometimes accompanied redflag attacks onetime panic attack redflag new party last years nearly much issue times sometimes depression sometimes own fortunately able force work never really impacted career cannot much else depressive episode last days months though awhile since weeks live boyfriend love despite narcissism he bad swear lot problems problem putting first andor selfish hes almost lived together almost years manageable cannot afford option anyway might helping depression purposely making worse lot better last several guys us employersupplied health insurance cover therapy cannot afford therapy outofpocket i researched extensively lethargic lowgrade redflag sad reason,1 +simps failed pimps pimps successful simps sub onlyfans httpswwwonlyfanscomtitoslavia,0 +im stressed confused everythingive constantly stressed entire summer break sats also school my schedule next year excessive although technically want led constantly hyper reactive surroundings getting mad things excessively trivial feel mad helpless every time get blow mom addition genuinely confused sexuality gender identity like family anything morally maybe subconscious social thing idk know im sure am sexuality is helping ive got social academic issues life either made consider redflag know disappoint many different people family school teachers friends well cant even come close actually constantly go possible scenarios could commit redflag despite knowing cant possibly healthy me hope ill pull time many times knows whoever spent time reading strangers annoyingly long post seriously thank you,1 +read make decisionsto anyone considering redflag ive personally affected redflag last months twice want provide support considering it never able tell passed loved meant lot em could understand want know even though seems nobody cares sometimes do care least redflag devastating even seen long time first friend mine died last november seen two years yet almost everyone ever known showed wake funeral ive never seen many people crying one place second hopefully last friend died killed night halloween knew really well able stop thinking since morning couldt stop thinking first friend died months time around personal even able attend funeral go college state fact destroying inside going take long time understand accept friend dying ever do really want make decisions did even feel everything wrong please please please choose death affect people ever thought would possible want know people you find them said decision alone remember love all even though never met you care please choose enjoy rest life safe night,1 +seriously normal cry everyday times day remember like years ago lot things happened unfixable cannot much it still feels weird remember last time felt happy feeling guilty time everything remember last time felt good take medication used judge people thought suicide damn looks like would fix things normal,1 +im soooo fucking happy fuck yes got english language im going fucking annihalite every single one english books finish never want see again months go orally rape ass fuck english hope die im fucking happy got didnt would fucking died parents,0 +people care die someone recently committed redflag comments photos like amazing hate see go literally people ones bullied redflag yet seem care damage done,0 +late expect spelling mistakes this story references written spoilers guess trench whistle called night sergeant shouted men lined walls would soon go top would soon go running field barbed wires dead bodie infront machineguns jim filled andrenaline waiting for finally get fight rot dirty trench weeks months lets go get germans jim shouted men stood ready charge responded shouting hussah loudest could bravery mostly false save like jim afraid be knew likely shot even get trench few almost relieved years bleeding starving freezing place called the western front place never changed likely finally free place suffering place like frozen time even though different thoughts went different peoples mind would matter wanted happen reached german trench got slaughtered way thing one could know soon enough call came whistles rang out men shouted like feared hope fell first seconds others rushed straight towards enemy trench among ran jim know running wanted save world wanted hero simply everyone else did answer question now time think now another whistling sound spread across muddy broken fields sound knew well sound artillery look everyones face same look horror even though got used hit relative safety trench field machineguns rifles artillery aiming directly different tried running even fell feeling pride left jim what fuck here thought i need get away now amount men behind made impossible run back could continue thing frightened jim guns firing prepared this always thought would brave go top now nobody was nobody would ever be everyone tried hide it nobody wanted seen weak mentality showing weakness got forward bullet struck jim matter brave trenches love life bravery accept fact shot tried get back up couldnt please help me cried please love god leave here nobody heard him continued cry help words never left tongue continued try fight death couldnt is everyone feels die thought jim given trying get help answer no everyone dealt last time differently people like mikhail died accepting point trying fight it others like sam died without ever getting chance think it died like jim trying fight it end everyone dies dies home beds others muddy field france everyone matter believe in matter done through finds eternal sleep eternal peace,0 +hello name ang years old within last couple days gotten really depressed due build family issues yesterday lost friend told guy liked them i sensitive rejection even like guy week idk hurts much crying hours straight idk do hope someone understands going sure happening,1 +besties wrote song yall think yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit my yeah im next level legit click click click yeah im next level legit click click yeah yeah im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit im next level legit click click click click click click click click click click click click 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night new glow clique running mind like rainbow love let go took lungs choked long drives divine sun showed clique running mind like rainbow yeah miss im next level legit my miss them miss them miss click click click yeah miss im next level legit my miss every night click click click yeah yeah yeah miss im next level legit my miss them miss them miss click click click yeah miss them miss them miss im next level legit my miss every night click click click yeah yeah yeah im next level legit click click click yeah yeah im next level legit my yeah yeah im next level legit i miss them click click click yeah yeah im next level legit,0 +cured princess crush guy ignore pls,0 +see foodsea level remade love julius couldve done more oooo remake movie pixar style put focus plot julius love movie feel great attachment towards it better voice acting love sharks fish julius ever pmtj,0 +feliz ao nuevo desde argentina happy new year argentina recuerden viva pero viva la patria,0 +open parents mental health ive struggling self harm depression since years old im currently high school ive gone therapist two times visits year apart reason parents even took first place becaue found completely drinking self harming always struggled opening long remember two reasons dont feel safe opening im either met frustration disbelief misunderstood second reason ive always closed person makes extremely anxious even thinking opening dont want upset bad im doing mental health fucking horrible past weeks im failing classes house grades basically equal worth person theyre threatening take things away allowing see friends things keeping going moment dont start passing tell mental health reason im failing classes ive self harming again,0 +edward twilight never adult say twilight cringy trash keep seeing twilight memes find funny nobody mentioned edward died like like never legally allowed drink bella hadnt become vampire relationship would considered pedophelia frozen teen forever find really funny suffer,0 +let us begin saying films english title the power kangwon province absolute misnomerit hong sang soos filmthere actual shots warstroubles conflictsso idea establishing power province neither suitable valid context filmif judge film korean language titlekangwondo ui him going appear cryptic statement emotional turmoils young protagonists whose minds resthong sang soo also directed highly prolific visual document erratic choices made people livesthe people question couple young girls constantly process displaying moodswhims fancies making film nothingness claimed film makers meritorious virtue hong sang soo saluted courageous film maker whose films speak volumes ubiquitous nothingness human relationshipssentiments liveswhether one likes notthis fair conclusion deduced particular film,0 +name duncan years old fucked bad want kill myselfso goes two weeks ago super christian parents caught lover a male german shepherdhusky mix consensual sexual intercourse course freak fuck started hitting dog knot still stuck me heard parents talking uncle suggesting exorcism performed me decided send psychological assessment instead went doctor tell always animals fair society puts unnecessary constraints show love affection to okay interracial homosexual couple legally pee okay dog shove dick ass anyways doctor diagnosed asd something like that happening parents put killed lover said tainted found went bed crying woke crying put cherry fucking top little bitch sister told everyone school this im depressed alone skip school go bridge cry contemplate death throw rocks stray cats think im going go hypothermia heard last moments absolutely euphoric,1 +cut deep enough actually see fat freaked second life going like forever trying get deeper deeper done being fighting fight left me exhausted tired,1 +hi fello gamers gamerettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +contemplating redflag lately struggling reasons iti trans woman likely never able afford gcs relationship someone keeps demonstrating want caregiver instead partner doubt ever happy love despite this explicitly stated would hurt self left even could bring leave could love aging ugly trans woman cant afford complete lost feel like choices life miserable glorified caregiver helpless manchild spinster freak ill miserable alone hard see reason keep going feel hopeless,1 +saw movie flight philly denver screen three rows front x really going watch it like malcolm middle thought id watch minutes next thing know im sucked in great time pleased good fast seemed make time go by agree acting good level entertainment one older baby boomers also pleased see lee majors role movie couple actors famous jamiel yesterday spotlight today poking fun themselvesbr br its basic kid wronged kid gets even and some everyone enjoys process heavy thinking great analysis needed good fun way pass timebr br ,0 +give upi dont actually guts kill still give up im done trying im going lay day day exist die naturally decide stop eating starve death may physically killing im still killing myself maybe one day ill guts finish ill sit die old alone dont feel like rewriting backstory go find post,1 +ranting relationship cringe alert ive always weird standpoint relationships like always weird tastes made nit fit mostly fine friend mine really sweet helpful rarely talked remember made difference used hug treated like people school would eventually people like paired groups left alone dont feel like connect dont feel like connect anyone like weird things try fit norm but start feeling bored really dont bond makes feel like belong anywhere really bond someone start slipping away stop talking know fault really weird but hard see everyone used love doesnt even bother talk thats everyone school feel like like really anything important people wont talk unless forced dont care made friend gf id like say shes friend gf also girl girlfriend rate tend imagine world talk live happily know dont worry appearance know would love either way problem feel like lying super high expectations go back life way anything like ever happing try talk old friends nothing try happy nothing one plan left but dont know like because fails fails catastrophically moving another place schoolcountry one school gives fuck maybe would school maybe find another girl like girlfriend setting super high standards especially look shitty standards judge be least quite cute sense humor fits mine better bond have something common things better be little mature like dont one tiktok girls feel like robots anything fit norm furthest thing norm wouldnt like but also little silly fun sweet really lie quite high standards beauty like example not trying racist way dont feel attracted black people even like tanned sorry offended anyone dont uh actually think damm sound really racist actually found girl the girl talked begging changed school although try talk rant sry bad english btw,0 +would tell little girl everything feeling okay options parents know help you mean feeling wayi wish could tell gets easier not would sad could see year old me would feel let down betrayedand would make better decisions would something mental health end like hashow tell child spend every day wanting die could go back talk child,1 +im actually annoyed parents caring much metheyre literally thing thats keeping killing myself them hope one day everything gonna better literally nothing worth living right now nothing think ill miss end all thought would parents enough keep im child know love much would destroy knew ive thinking doing cant say kill ever lose life shitty awful parents least way id another excuse kill without guilt,1 +im derpessed bc cant go endure moms yelling insultsim helping bring back food car shes gott abe screaming whyd u bring cereal firs wheres cheese calls whores child jst bc didnt bring certain item right away ampxb im pretty sure wont allowed move even money so mom gets phsyically violent doesnt get way shes thrown things dad even tho dads mistakes cleaning space im scared try take away debit card knows enough move out idk rarely ever parents leave house get police escort idk im confused ik first need focus job saving seems like huge fiasco,1 +im tired waking upim tired waking faking ok,1 +suicidal thoughts increasing feel trappedmy job making feel completely miserable superior abusing power creating hostile environment result people work directly dislike well im scared go work monday cant quit bills pay cant seem find another job either ive year find suicidal thoughts growing frequent im taking cocktail medication going therapy doesnt seem help dont see way death want pain stop dont feel like last find another job found suicidal method yet terrifies me,1 +long distance boyfriend attempting kill right now boyfriend lives wales tumultuous argument today threatened kill himself paranoia feels depressed times hes tried kill himself cut teenager nearly hung himselfonce hated first took walk slept went back word said loved cared me something stacked top argument flipped tried slitting wrist called laughed like joke said going stab heart hour ive contacted friend could contact parents emergency lines hes busy said worry asked friend times the boy cried wolf way call police numbers abroad ive got address several social media accounts phone number etc hes online lives parents wake around please assurnace me buy time stabbed heart begged stop truly cares im scared know affect us,1 +want supporti want end life want somebody support me somebody judge call weak wanting to weak continuing life past year completely miserable every single day want say bye loved ones without trying stop,1 +lonely without son feel awfulfor year ive without son one me ive severely depressed since crying time never wanting talk others along threatened people nobody defend me parents strict thing keeping happy fantastic grades childhood finally escaping horrible people get life felt missed much young much missed horrible things done others ignored depression instead moved happy life getting job lawyer stories would get knew job help keep going amazing meet many new people keep great financial position adopted son never good childhood focused amazing one kept happy young boy actually looking me good life throughout time interested politics always told leader one day everyone happy joined military knew reminding great person hell become butdisappointinglywith gone feel lonely get reminders past nobody else either cant sleep sometimes ball eyes thinking things missed now ask help know is surely someone would know problem is firearms afraid able stop use end life,1 +someone talk tonot feeling great dont want go back point anyones browsing right wants talk anything please pm dont know long ill account tis whatever,1 +the description mood movie may considered spoiler much action factbr br great onebr br is peculiar interest dystopias utopias atmosphere movie magic yes sure utmost human onebr br this film is doubt extremely artisticartificial depends taste imagine people hate watch slow movies and tsai ming liang who enjoy times one slowest know suffering movie yes people unable slow let time pass watch without feeling waste it one take piece torture therapybr br the topic surface lack communication even live rabbit cages one next really together people tired sick something unable describe want meet touch talk confront others like disappeared big block flats looks void rain falling constantly evokes strange melancholy inside sometimes must something abnormal unexpected unwanted decay hole floor concrete allows us reach otherbr br one possible ways look this survey inner world characters consider whole moviespace inside yourself ask there could depressive states moods come form place them right here search answers if need them among walls halls block instead inside hardly transparent mind manbr br the key understand nottounderstand let movie borrow us subject study inside end safely return us colorful normal looking realitybr br then maybe reach like feeling real possible nonpathetic hope core still humans state mind help one much live world,0 +get better still sucks sucks least passing year fuck heavy weak pathetic nothing merry christmas,1 +hate need something do live instead wanting something do livei hate consume food energyi hate spend energy workingi hate work livei hate live workampxbi hate humans slapped price tag everythingi hate life cannot experienced free triali hate way place diei hate dying physically painful experiencei hate death emotionally painful loved onesampxbi tired inputoutput machine slave parasitic bodyi tired going sleep wishing wake upi tired waking hoping life bad dreami tired inspired needs resent idea needingampxbi wish work optional experiencing luxuries desired themi wish labor money pain frustration redflag fear worry redflag disease depression optionalampxbi want dead want exist somewhere freei want stone want experience life freei want bored want learn life freei want lifeless want drink water breathe air eat sunlight freeampxbmaybe next life could big peaceful treeonly cut murdered will remains turned whatever material conveniences themso much dream freedom peaceampxbi hate greatest concepts value imaginary illusionsfreedom illusionpeace illusionprivacy illusionlove illusionsuccess illusiongod illusionillusions ingredients make happinessanother illusion tired,1 +thank youhi first time posting throwaway think friends really know reddit account anyways going lot posts ive realized always people reaching willing help need want say thank you pretty touching know people care enough browse subreddit reach someone struggling ive recently diagnosed things gone downhill pretty fast never saw kind person act terrible thoughts head weekend stood train tracks cried felt accepting that im scared found staring knife minutes flew plane traveled dangerously close city skyline problem parents brother flight want die me hate thoughts im thoughts cant control stopping acting im control myself depression causing want stop gets worse im already medication going two fricken therapists want act feel like im heading darker darker place,1 +feel useless spent whole morning trying look good fucking class get cancelled fucking hate luck,0 +daily tip previous tiphttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjaqtudaily_tip__ft_my_grandpautm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf dont assume everything youre told authoritarian figures parents teachers etc true research much build opinion said topics,0 +im fucking tiredeverything feels like wrong decision everyone ive known probably sees disappointment future bright feels like never ending dark tunnel pointlessness thought never would thoughts again thought id never urge again fucking routine point getting every single day blank face hiding im actually feeling cuz dont ill banned vocational school dont know im holding onto point exhausting,1 +fear ruined life fail every job panic get afraid failure bail fail every task try cannot deal embarrassment quit stupid fucking girl liked much good liked alot ever let on fucking stupid tell felt gone one realistic chance alone gone going stuck purgatory failure ineptitude loneliness die going end life summers end one thing longer going bitch that starved anyrhing worthwhile life deserve allowed die coward,1 +finei guess kind rand if thats right word im english suicidal depressed years age still feel depressed getting much better im older still one main problem and problem simply ignore im struggling somehow breaking me parents know was depressed mom really believe still pressured talk people year talk many different people parents apparently gave choice get serious help go christian camp weekend someone know phycology degree year old obviously chose latter hated talking people not remember getting choices remember anything year better met amazing people lately feel like dead would better guess thats wanted say,1 +getting sleeping pills sleeping deathhas anyone wanted pass away sleep want stop eating drinking sleep eventually wake up,1 +kill constant dreamsmy ptsd dreams constantly never leave vivid dreams every time shut eyes draining kinda bit break tonight suicidal ideation active usual want swallow pills fall asleep forever thing stopping really planning dog loved ones even boyfriend cant stop me dog can need good vibes sent way try fall asleep tonight dont know want wake dont want dog suffering god help brain,1 +girls really say kill men mainly referring straight white men saw straight white man kill video dont understand ones problems invalid pain man went fact wasnt even scared broke heart pieces men different women kam girls men commit redflag x women do dont ever invalidate pain ever again yall quick see got raw evidence actually goes real life guys horrid,0 +trust know lot feeling wanting end longest time especially since sorry much pain hope gets better us world sucks peoplesuck friends gfbf fwb family let us try make best see another day do sorry,1 +unpopular opinion chase good song fight,0 +im awarded lot posts rn warned,0 +unstable getting worstrecently graduated high school starting college monday already feel like program summer slow mostly work went times enough liking even know like going people parties day activities chillings etc everything distractforce stay normal friends im attached them two closest friends piss one always jokes pansexual stopped talking part close family parents brother piss off feel connected all feel respect part thats it understand understand me ive mostly talking people online last year so started hating almost everyone them ones get close usually ends getting shitty phase blocking everyone out probably loved people friends intimately anyone else offline life connection easy break though end caring particular reason moving on feel like love people around time dont right im shit phase relatively calm right now feeling much go bathroom kitchen matter seconds become intensively sad feel like shit im home alone become someone totally different sing dance go swimming unless altered state alcohol weed mind usually keep everything hate show really feeling emotion slips anger guess cant keep one gets big feel exhausted sad get angry really feel shitty feeling angry feel like im good person things think people see around me way think general makes feel like giant asshole emotions unstable guess im diagnosed everything psychiatrist december like january got redflag attempt one emotion break way unstable now pissed thought adhd gave help doctors her lied pretended everything fine gave sleeping pills witch never took ive pretending ever since now know im trying get this felt like sharing people thoughts think post bit edgy liking felt like sharing biggest fear get bad state something stupid take bus metro every day go school theres nothing stopping jump rails oh well quick last thought anyone else emotion bursts im positive bipolar disorder might passing took screening tests know accurate we thanks taking time read,1 +magical ability piss mom like brother give mom shit argue sister run away city manage temper two time say one thing way like slow chore anything loses shit me maybe actually deserve it maybe attacks knows fight back either way im wishing day would end sooner travel another state leave alone,0 +dream one day theres gonna equivalent rickrolling intro cutsceen skyrim mean already frequently used might well eachother joke,0 +listen people ill give better review movie friend love jill johnson played camilla belle babysits mendrakis house someone breaks in wondering got house went garage likely anyway listen to the worst acting amazing acting great story think benefits jill has shes fast runner track team she got alive lolbr br it cool movie quite scary check out happy masterpiece listen people site good trust me good reviewing movies im future movie critic totally want buy movie see it amazingly awesome,0 +im commit redflaghello ive never made post first last post last months truly completely lost everything life meaning february went mental break tried hook another girl relationship dumbest mistake ive ever made cant believe it nothing happened fact still counts willing cheat girlfriend girl dreams made every single day worth living made last months august person post facebook status effectively ruined life every single way shape form accused sexual assault merit police even take case community live apsolutely murdered me cant leave house without feeling scared cant eat cant sleep im upto day literally sleep ive started micronap last weeks ex partner parted ways good terms stop calling got sad every time called manipulative thats afraid me really final straw me ive never hurt anyone life crying emotional angry sad time take single call ive phone many redflag hotlines still even slightly deterring me truly believe nothing left life live now got fired every person ive cried help simply said theyll see tomorrow answered phone cant anymore life going where lost live tried fucking hard smallest bit left dont wish stronger im not,1 +started planning recently limit days talking boyfriend bursting tears easily seeing face state amp hearing cried voice breaks heart guilt trip stuff understands painit feeling want him realized reason need reconsider suicide care afterlife family sadness painful stuff ending ed psych ward boyfriendbut still fucking hard keep living hellish torture want make crythink many relate thanks reading want kill cry,1 +want someone listen feel scared depressedthis going wall text im sorry im anxious right now sad hate feeling like this even real reasons sad fucking hate that feel like cant get this suicidal thoughts leave keep happening frequently intensely feel like everyone would better without me boyfriend years annoyed lately much patience anxietydepression bullshit anymore feel like deserves much better would happier someone else im selfish live without him cant love much think dependent him texted telling im anxiety attack reply think ignoring scaring shit me dad killed years ago miss fucking much want anything self esteem fucking hate body ashamed body think could ever let anyone else see naked body ever again thinking makes want throw up think boyfriend like body either nice think found deformity nsfw httpwwwdrhayleybrowncombreastliftwithaugmentationlasvegastubulardeformity started anxiety attack ive always hated breasts knew ugly confirmed everything ive believed in boyfriend says likes know cant true think stupid college im assignments cant stop crying know going this sad anxious want die,1 +parents standoff allowed house till give phone im tired bullshit food inside garden hose stay weeks die one us caves,0 +problems bad peoples still feel like absolute shit deserve anythingi barely talk anyone always house really good year old never gf probably never shy talk anyone like normal person know never kill scared family meant go collage month another failure life people never take seriously time get ignored get noticed need something me almost am writing this want talk someone anyone time waste here,1 +im fed brain help getting medsto preface first reddit post idea im doing anyway going give away much info im live uk college probably years depressed since start high school finally got courage go doctors told situation miserable enjoying anything history self harm shitty family life gave form fill send away counselling come back couple weeks later see another doctor since first one got transferred basically tells im introverted get exercise ill fine even though tell ive tried exercising regularly made difference really listen tells could give antidepressants send on way good would need counselling though id already sent away application nothing that finally start counselling two month wait guy nice enough makes feel uncomfortable tell situation agrees yes fact need counselling aspergers even though told frustrating and one honest me much help im really wits end enjoy nothing college waste time cant deal constant headaches lack motivation anything anymore im deteriorating like normally multiple times year one taking seriously im done going cycle time nothing pull it know need medication one listens im terrible explaining people im tired fighting getting nowhere let anger there anyway im thinking something weekend sure whether going full attempt half assed one getting blackout drunk enough someone take seriously im fed up years ive thinking attempting waiting things either get better get better neither happened honestly whats loose point ive bought shit ton envelopes im going start writing letters loved ones today try power weekend loss could write lot would waste time guess do sorry messy post just fuck know anyone knows theres way taken seriously get medication id appreciate let know otherwise fuck cant deal awake anymore,1 +transition inner anger outer anger case mass shootingsi want preface saying sensitive topic speak internet way making threat suggesting action taken merely hypothetical discussion hopes community better understand us take extreme actions want hurt others also speaking cases murderredflag cases outright mass murder thats another long discussion use word victim describe people commit mass shootings speaking hypothetical point time before react way suggest us risk result born it extreme byproduct extreme environment true address victims give title many others speak perspective hold insight share please so redflag self loathing need exterminate world even mods refer empirical model one few base understanding redflag on agree fully basically claims redflag option occur person a perceives burden others society b experienced painsuffering repeatedly going this redflag outburst desperation end suffering called life trudge dayin dayout factors come play suffer choose harm others well one could argue innate trait happens add issue redflag one could also argue vein behavior byproduct environment grew in debate eugenics constructionist points view point something occurs add element think switch flips i want hurt myself i want hurt world think second switch two exist simultaneously wed look people want kill dont want kill people too maybe sense empathy humility instilled abuse world put upon them maybe stepped much affirmed identity doormat meant underneath everybody sole purpose that case world becomes much feels like telling end it agree it yeah burden yeah waste time yeah hopeless fight flight system responding freeze accept fate regardless dislike it want matter need matter much ask get better perhaps selfloathing aspect belief genuinely bad world makes feel want extinguish billion fingers pointed chastisement state self value reduced beyond zero negative state owe world apology merely here we owe world apology merely here social norm kill people pretty simple okay causes somebody transcend social moral boundary lets consider may happen somebody going experiences lose self value would happen sense injustice could arise anger could probably come form self defense however original sense self loathing merely reduced erased element self hatred feeling burden somehow coexist victim may become lost depressed are yet simultaneously sense evil world them the victim may become lost depression yet simultaneously sense injustice clashes inner conflict fueled here victim hates locked perspective endured abuse incredibly disorienting everything learned true wrong world taught this yet world also punishes trying world wants seem suffer point anger self hatred builds bleeds realities cases victim dissociate completely different personalities inability comprehend two opposing ideas time part therapy accept things fault easily swing outwards blame upon world the anger self hatred bleeds realities mind okay cool weve established victims susceptible becoming murderredflags may emotional purgatory juggling dichotomy two realities trying control life pretty disorienting huh many experience without wanting hurt others what happens make want hurt others transactional sense success tie effort self value separate value effort victims mental health get help relatively quickly never all think want hurt others initially see value seek help know try hard want ultimately understand forces work world going result fruitlessness point victim feels awful knows fault solution every corner turn world punishes efforts try get better this surrounded others chastise different cross line feeling urge medical care immediately becomes unavailable instantly dehumanized feared nobody help you much mention want hurt others go straight hospital rehabilitation removal society alienation point process cause myriad problems world punishes efforts try get better the world punishes efforts try get better think turning point hopeless actionless snap one day think huge buildup trying normal function properly world tells to effort well intended ultimately misplaced lens depression distorts world hence we never saw coming dialogue family members try world turns around punishes it matter want simp world nothing desire matters existence required suffering sadistically used world instructions make stop think anger comes from even though end result redflag us nonviolent added element efforts encouraged and punished world hypocrisy would break anybody fragmented shell human being feeling like shit often lean towards acceptancedepression angerdepression energy caused suffering allocated differently based brains chemistry actions taken people effort silence deafening noise installed heads core idea something actually respect stand right people likely think that theyre going die might well make sure world knows tolerable treat people way believe thats mindset agree it think right thing do even writing post probably puts ip watchlist seems stigma surrounding discussion this much sympathize single person whos committed atrocities bad them apparently cannot withstand attitude avoidance country towards tough topics think world keep seeing mass murders unless understand fuck happening heads thats comes from heads interpreting environment nobody born wanting shoot school given circumstances believe wed see many people fall mindset take actions circumstances specific could go evidence support white males would primary demographic but another post maybe know ill live point see become public understanding knowledge die rights deserve community human beings change this many innocent people keep dying thank reading encourage share experience whether current past wish love peace throughout day,1 +sure doi used go ivy league school last winter really tough time wanted kill myself decided ask help much faith psychiatric process hoping someone would able give reason get day reason something rather nothing much surprise put mental hospital thrown school sent home week prescription antidepressant told could reapply future reapplied current term rejected apparently think need time recover even though bother talk doctor home give warning might reaccepted week beginning fall semester sorry tedious background story wanted provide context question keep trying try hard eke existence pretty much every day fucking miserable ive spent long time therapy ive probably taken half dozen different antidepressants times life ive felt even slightest hope future result massive delusions possibleplausible ive ever felt slightly happy influence terribly unrealistic dreams idea do keep trying go admissions process former college find new university might accept transfer next couple months probably go find job why go effort exactly end goal im working towards sorry tedious selfindulgent rant seriously idea do,1 +asshole like hiding room family member friend quietly play highest note harmonica think ears ringing drives insane,0 +might kill tonight pills ready overdose hang myselfi much stress life got done cutting wrist top bottom sides else cut arms moving legs one talk tonight going insane every day life lay bed waiting die enjoyment tired living life sucks cant anymore pills right next me ready die death longer seems scary me find thought death relaxing feel selfish hurt anymore thing think peace feel die longer belong universe never have like cancer cell human race time die cant stand living anymore,1 +guys finally it ive got girlfriend really nice plays genshin me watches anime wait im starting suspect one bros disguise trying comfort lonely ass,0 +one better feelgood films kate capshaw leading allstar cast small town love letter first off scenery beautiful anyone sees film want move location crazy cast capshaw stunning lead actress captivates emotional rollercoaster role tom everett scott charming author note throughout film always delightful ellen degeneres hilarious blythe danner actress plays bookstore saleswoman terrific too although unsuccessful film great short sweet well romantic ,0 +soon sleepi honestly think going hang soon wish big deal kill youself want say goodbye people properly want big surprise say i wish could stopped them i wish could told wanted say want hug mum last time us know last time happy going better place,1 +dont ever feel like crap day school feel like everybody experienced least life like cant play video games go outside even antisocial feels like forced world bunch dicks theres nothing it eventually feeling goes away within week two feels like meaningless wash rinse repeat routine,0 +new here havent dark place yearsthe world gone mad question thing stopping thought pain id cause others leave behind selfish truly believe pain far greater would temporarily suffer,1 +feel sick days end eat enough lay bed listen stomach smell dirty dishes sink think washed hair days feel sick go back sleep shut out feel sad feel sick exhausted disinterested used much like art guitar hikes teenager interests sit across room collecting dust days work manage get done unless end going bed around pm get home usually random bursts motivation allow cleaning hygienic things embarrassing boyfriend gets home sees laying bed still pm go things spent day thinking maybe able drag bed go something course usually busy even go things always come back feel like want sleep helps chores cannot expect pick me sitting thinking need get shit together attracted someone like this show parents house looking great convincing life going well go home lay bed again think body going deteriorate longer lay here know get shit together though weird people call admirable capable half decent job degree inside feel like really anything half memorable interesting read people saying like learn lot really mean different anyone else end life interests actually mean anything make difference kind live die it health conditions also make functioning hard me pots structural issues makes hard walk around sometimes get up stay active feel full energy think emotions related that combines larger hurdle overcomei dunno feel lot fact feel lot sob like child heart feels like explode go back numb hungry sleep next time alive enough feel pain again rambly borders nonsensical saying thinking certainly talk people life feelings done made realize sound like broken record point need ask crying bailed plans heard million times breaking cycle feels impossible,1 +whats better gonna delete post later need help first care anyones feelings think me led enjoy hurting people physically mentally guilt ill want matter immoral ill execute everything way cause significant damage life hate everything self acknowledge stuff ive done doing depressed isolate myself hurt myself regret waking feel tired time wait day end every day options have theres thing alternative me im already terrible person never change hurt people closest me never kids partner anyway please help,0 +eternal atake dropped already bruh,0 +thought finally freewell kinda thought would it made plans grabbed would need trudged forest set walking around hour found single tree hang from none trunks branches im sitting alone forest noose bag im tired feeling way cant see reason continue life wish could say episode im irrational perfectly calm spend every night awake hating myself wishing could anyone else someone worthy respect success personal life die ill always pitiful loser,1 +im feeling little energetic usual im still tired ok context morning posted tired almost falling asleep classes sleeping bus school,0 +cant imagine ever happyand thats id rather die even chance living decent normal life theres much shit id work first amount things control life crushing honestly social anxiety depression stuff cant really help experience know even begin working it issues make hard work through theres more things id rather talk here id rather give up easy solution this id use it see way would love progress get better see happening time soon situation im fucked come back from ill never get better wish could,1 +ow owie oh fuck thought blade dull strated cutting thighs sliced absolute shit panic dull cut wayyyy wanted stings rlly bad bleeding fair bit toooo fuck,0 +someonewhat wrong me fault lost sense morals point im always issue im gender dysphoric hell matter someone always worse though seen friends months someone always worse parents refuse call son kick out still hold head like threat thats transferring schools hey stop acting like that like transferred school even week later did whats next keep getting worse ever let see friends again ever let see old school respected being trans trend pushed throat ill never hear name again reminder cant leave behind cant fucking talk feel every time say im selfish theyre trying hard help convert im thinking feelings matter im selfish thats am im punishment,1 +announcement everybody get cheese bread got pizza amp saved like million dollars willpower strong ,0 +time it mom told would stop killing life get better wish killed long time ago,1 + years virgin ya it two blue pieces cheese theyre moldy father came beat belt anyway tell love yourself likely pretty radical dude feel depressed remember theres like years lifespan average lot things happen one month let alone year genuinely matter genuinely made impact many people make rash decisions please visit therapist talk someone phone get this struggling sexual orientation identify as theres plenty communities thrive in first step towards happiness acceptance if discord teamagers hella good server even cis straight friends accept you theyre friends theyre missing out family accept you theyre smart theyll come around theyre ignorant wont family isnt bound blood want make happier enjoy school find hobby when covid dies down afterschool activity join club finding things love others also love amazing feeling make days faster fun struggling find relationship lt dont rush things cuz friend got wholesome relationship beneficial one tell ya beneficial relationship isnt good might sound especially never even kissed someone itll better wait find better community crappy one wanna build gaming pc amd cheaper better intel least budget pcs wanna get guitar fender makes squeir butchered it guitars cheap prices change pickups strats theyll sound pretty close american strat also guitar sounds better amp guitar wont sound good one playing amp thats electric ive got clue comes acoustic bass theres also modern theory guitat vol like good teaching guitar that matter finding inspiration practicing every day alrighty else spit mouth mods ban boomer uhhhhh ranking system men coming bi boy gt hot lt playboy lt handsome lt cute lt twink lt femboy lt catboy lt witches anything cute attract wrong crowd time tho straight also pedos yes fucking curly haired boomer liking minors hella sus basically everyone hates you thinks burn yadda yadda yadda anyway go seek psychological help wont arrest you seeking help better person better person dont resort children get off could actual wholesome relationship dreamt young couldnt drafted war long live jim pickens,0 +im going bed cya tomorrow seeing good morningnightafternoonetc,0 +scared call redflag hotlineive mentally debating whether call hotlinei know tell call ever begin kinds thoughtsbut ive read well couple people know experiences seems harm good them,1 +wait minute remember guys raped hey stop pissing im talking,0 +im toonophile wanna dieim im attracted cartoon girl real girl ever like best hope animated gf thats best ill get know super creepy honestly closest thing ill happiness,1 +every second film gorgeous thats earns plot especially devious thinking back last minutes never really felt excitement investment characters anything luxurious graphics framing made certain scenes the car chase instance pedestrian ought look lovely original design occasionally novel camera angles missing kinetic movement closeup shots part language normal actionthriller first hour plods along dialogue feels edited bit stagey people wait finish always react natural cadence would problem recording individuals dialogue separately rare occasions emotions voices quite match screen something really avoided futuristic architecture attractive lots glass wallsceilingsscreens lovely smokemiragespecial effects nicelooking cars exercise graphic design real impact story id argue whole point using drawn animation instead actorscgi really push limits imagination design difficultimpractical mediums although animation renaissance certainly stunning incredibly wellaccomplished never felt like seeing something done beforebr br immortel another french cgi film also suffers imbalance beauty story pace fair marvellous engaging french movies also languid pace lingering shots look someones eyes rain paris cobbles evoke great emotion animators need understand animation brings unique strengths also weaknesses compared reallife technique perhaps would break noir rules film wants stick to think filmmakers also missed glaring opportunity explore future society bit social strata fascistic grip corporations etcbr br i problem recommending renaissance anybody enjoys stylistic design andor animation manga fans particular make filmloving friends sit it take away sumptuous visuals barely average film,0 +dude idc im friends singing song n word as long hard r im gonna sing im vibin idc posting saying shit song social media low iq one care around close friends youre vibing song able embrace vibe without thinking offensive,0 +life went shit monthsin short months life went best days life living hell developed chronic pain anxiety depersonalization depression ocd i swear im making up diagnosed now fucking tinnitus cant handle anymore every second life torture cant think one good reason kill myself life fucking ruined every way possible,1 +understand fuck guys look penis think sucking pleasing another penis like penis great u want touch own text automod remove post,0 +consider breathtaking deceptive film seems simple straightforward vietnam survivor tells harrowing tale story reenacted location reviewers sometimes even claim herzogs presence film minimal wrong are know documentaries mediated extent one herzogs subtle hand it notably stunning music unbelievably expert selection archival footage management cascading images evocative power film astounding starting title opening title card book revelation initial voiceover movie one watch repeatedly increasing wonder simple commodity gulped ones favorite beverage way evening news one movies resonate lifetime,0 +need guys opinion something theres girl like i know original classes rarely time talk class walk class twice dont courage yet talk i little lost courage think dming instagram good way talk avoid it,0 +listening want christmas christmas wanted try challenge years ago rules are listen least hours day want christmas cant listen song starts first november lasts christmas variations want christmas allowed give try idk got mixed feelings challenge guys wanna join ,0 +uncle died want end like him im literally everything wrongmy uncle dads brother died heart attack poor control diabetes numerous heart problems weighed pounds died dad worked different jobs uncle would always great first weeksmonths work slowly start making excuses come started almost never going work always inevitably got fired could never hold job months childhood adult life play video games always struggled weight type diabetes never good control of im going exact path want fate know continue living going die turn weigh lbs im years old poor control blood sugars i type diabetes uncle type theyre different diseases similar havehad poor control blood sugar though ive tried lose weight never find motivation so always end giving up never bring care blood sugar enough control well normally prolonged exposure high blood sugar long period years basically fucks nervous system toes start falling off lose feeling fingers eyes stop working correctly etc homeschooled life started high school last september well first months then started missing days sick eventually got point going couple times month where im now really stay home feel sad play video games even enjoy it feel uncomfortable im computer way grew know anything else most homeschooled life spent pc always start stuff when homeschooled would work months slowly give stop easy stuff homework hard all cant bring it literally exactly uncle growing up dad told me fucking terrified me literally exact things im doing died really want go path want end like uncle cant bring change need help anyone suggestions id much rather end life end path tldr uncle died poor control diabetes lack motivation weight issues im issues too scaring me want die im definitely continue path need help,1 +read thiswell reading better tell whats going on ha like care life isolated im friends left everything parents super overprotective let use internet im secret xbox want end everything parents constantly scream beat perfect know anymore want die ive like years nothing changed want kill,1 +cant anymorei annoy girlfriend depression suicidal thoughts daily basis tell mother im sorry me job working nights therefore lot quiet alone time think things im afraid anything anymore going grocery store highlight life im borderline compulsive saver friends hate me father hates me im fucking tranny hobbies anymore enjoyment life anymore im going anywhere anywhere life ive always thought people meant happy see im one people thing makes want destroy marijuana thats destroying another way reason keep going nothing live for nothing,1 +half class isnt active group discussions like class,0 +mean could everything world still feel like would fking depressed cannot sometimes world shitty dark place traumatic shit feel suicidal lowkey passively every day every day wonder still here want fail trying keep head go motions life exhausting feel like cannot normal people do job social life happyhappiness difficult me point life,1 +feel disappointed whenever wake morning like oh taken sleep yetits brutal cycle every single day id cry sleep wishing gods would end suffering take sleep want painless quick death every morning wake up immediately feel disappointed going another day trying get shit thinking life together clearly dont want end everything pointless theres sense waking anymore fuck shit,1 +ill start relating first encounter princes music bar th birthday girl dancing bare breasted playing speakers asked people singer told prince good distracted beautiful topless dancer later started hearing prince songs really digging them purple rain came still knew little fellow minnesotan movie blew away instantly became princes no fan war baby generation later found one cousins secretary got me nephew vip prince concert sat next motherhow cool that getting back topic hand agree siskel ebert called purple rain instant classic seen times absolutely love it thought princes acting fine apollonia struggled bit acting fine john gielgud available play the kid prince took role film visually stunning brilliantly paced it never gets slow terrifically directed rank among best movie musicals time last time watched year gap still delivered proud fellow minnesotan prince rogers nelson would love tell personally walked right front mentioned concert said hi nephew me chatting mom bit crushed hes still no me,0 +work making want tosomething somethinggot new boss beginning april cunt micromanaging yuongest manager bunch hes singling lot riding hard get stupid tasks done hes business couple weeks pulled office first week told need step role im listening getting resultsall forgot complete couple tasks trying regular job he asks stuff outside job description lot_ hes got working days straiight stocktake fine woulkd fine year old month old baby husband works full time clinical depression boss unaware last part however since give fuck rest pretty sure care prettttyy suure ive suffering pnd again well anyway im fluoxetine taking get stocktake varification day hurt right t want kill myself buuuut want stop feeling way feeling all would super work hr day yesterday hr today days hr shifts next days off yay yay days row lets see make it start getting zopiclone stash god im fucking retard babies need mebut cant even take care them job good i im cut this,1 +well got perm banned rmemes now,0 +pointto whoever reading teen made lot really bad mistakes life even young age relationship family mostly dad patchy this struggled confidence since years ago thats things started go hill im still really self conscious lot stuff do im starting wonder theres point sometimes thing stopping jumping flat window disappointed dad brother would my mom left years old picture im even sure theres point feel like im starting go bit numb inside im unsure life really made im bit lost guess,1 +nobody tell gifs like wth love,0 +like musicians reference work like one band refers last songs sometimes subtle way like i think saved life i saved life song named stupid theres one thats like i stupid you stupid me sometimes lazy af songwriting tho,0 +everywhere turn depression always therei find depressing living world people depressed ever ive depressed since last years world changed people becoming depressed suicidal friends high school life party now two committed redflag one overdosed another mental asylum ive attempted kill many times failed also want help people make world seem better,1 +judging u based on christmas gifts tell u wished forreceived also u gave others,0 +lol part life great guess lost contact lens thats right me im desperate im even using wiki how im literally going around entire house somehow bathroom dropped it hate life swear one bad thing happens week im going scream,0 +want diemy dog saved redflag years tried could give best life could day took vet messed fucked trachea collapsed couldnt breathe emergency surgery soon possible wouldnt last end july theyd able surgery instead couldnt afford either one euthanize dont want live anymore always promised died would im pregnant now weeks know stay alive life keep going cant believe lose him almost years old healthy otherwise followed everywhere protected moms abuse younger almost years live without him wanted live long me wanted meet baby never will want die much want him fuck life me dog since puppy killed another dog december couldnt cope miscarriage weeks right died fianc trying chose try thats im pregnant now dogs literally lifeline theyre gone now fuck survive without them to,1 +youve heard of im deep get ready for im really high,0 +awesome idea bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgzeneed bjvgze inspbjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bbejvgze bjvgze bjvgzfue bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze bjvgze done,0 +birthdaysi think id alive year last birthday am flu ears ringing painful throat hurts breathe im missing class im old far behind missing set birthday public fb see would happen nothing thats happened wanted one happy birthday mom brother apparently thats lot ask for large im better year last year longer go straight redflag considering options problems guess thats progress im still unsure last birthday,1 +wonder still around struggling life going much right wish never existed vent even know begin feeling lost,1 +youre poor spend two hours finding coupon code pair flip flops ampxb iamincollegeandimpoorsopoor,0 +looking adviceso im college fun enjoy year ive taken lot responsibility ive past job im officer club sports team quite big time commitment addition student ive felt really overwhelmed lately almost crushingly so ive called parents talked them seem saying part growing life is im suicidal something ive consistently thoughts since probably middle school think would ever sometimes wonder people dont seems pretty hopeless go school get job make enough money send kids college get jobs make enough money send kids collegesometimes think maybe family something would rewarding time would feel bad bringing someone world would suffer bullshit anyone advice life huge suckfest,1 +definitely worth watchingbr br ten different directors present segment based favorite opera aria need opera lover watch film although course hate opera really going bad time thisbr br not surprisingly segments range brilliant fair fuss seems godards contribution whether think hes brilliant pretentious segment change mindbr br some pieces clear narrative others montage connected imagesbr br none pieces minutes so happy whats screen wait next segment think much culture soaking upbr br keep eyes open performances buck henry beverly dangelo elizabeth hurley briget fonda tilda swinton john hurt the buck henry segment alone worth price admissionbr br ,0 +im cringe even day passed since started talking asked out fuck,0 +yo serious question slep sleep,0 +hello rredflagwatchim going cut chase ask tell me point serving society doomed fail point fighting life going end day poi thing vain point fight anything tell instead telling much live for,1 +generally difficult rate cutpaste films segments quite good others bring rating overall product one instance allgirl scene doctors office quite excitingone best viewers limited viewing history theres asias segment lady always entertaining story binds whole together interesting concept swap scene closes offering aint bad either technically production values fairly high recommended,0 +thinking adults dating kinda trippy like adult guy asking adult guy you wanna boyfriend shit idk kinda feels like childish thing teens somewhat,0 +need help deal suicidal thoughtsso im always hyper sensitive guy always deal sensibility closing everyone ultil meet girl see opportunity trust years later history became history intense abuse cheating violence pretty much like mother sometimes love heart sometimes hate intensity one never see hate come one word one behavior tolerate this timeline lost gramma mother like family person sometimes understand me moments beautiful moments se purpose life im easy person adhd depression abuses became alcohool adict fact never hate dont even know hate someone hurt someone purpose tenth time dumped crisis pass like days taking care sexuals issues talking showing hurting herself days birthday lot alcohool cant face hate start scream her got away block phone ims stuff find sttrugling lot classical suicidal thoughts dont even know do im days without sleep right eat finding motive end all,1 +glad people enjoyed movie cause know greatest reputation made money box office thought terrific several reasons bogdanovich directs lightest touches cast especially coleen camp perfect big bad apple never looked better film seen worse movies,0 +wanna sit face im straight dark cares,0 +getting headi used alot suicidal thoughts surrounding self people love appreciate trying ease mind away dark stuff helped lot admit coming back faster ever think stop time shit going life even tho try hide turn sarcasm cant help feel like im better dead,1 +old best friend relationship old crush weird huh dont really care havent talked years find awkward,0 +cant handle anymoremy dad mom pretty sucessuful lawyers brother gonna graduate law year already job area sister brilliant student professional athlete pass uni selection year still im miles away them studying uni wanna woulsnt nothing amy friends here hate appearence general romantic live noexiwtent fell never pass uni trying years far enter feel like money burning failure sincerelly eanna live anymore wanna courage finally end it,1 +planso im financially boned right now worst fear come pass cant afford apartment month im leaving everything behind hittin highway straight pembina nd border town south canada want look place never got go long term goal go there become citizen couldve better life there least could afford treatment even didnt insurance which first years while id slit throat last memory staring could been,1 +someone someone school replaced bathroom qr code qr code leading never gonna give rick astley,0 +brother keeps fucking annoying never fucking talk cut mainly thinks matter real life says rude things xbox party care says hes sometimes like that im trying play earrapes mic like dick might sensitive still fucking pisses off,0 +lockdownwho pushed edge lockdown exactly lockdown made mental health worse makes idea staying world unappealing given likely future prospects,1 +pros cons pros convicted pedophile,0 +need help dealing stepmom anyone know tell parent fuck off literal sense course like going dads house stepbrothers parentbecause stepmom dad drunk useless parenting offering drinksim want go anymore get point post need tell stepmother come pick go house weekend know tell without saying im slavei everything fetching drinks watching brother advice reddit,0 +everyone trusted left methe one person considered brother left me,1 +always vergeim scared even admit feeling incredibly depressed again keep journal im scared even write feel like killing myself feel like getting day telling least redflag always option like every day say well gets worse ill kill anxiety something ive never diagnosed im anxious call doctors arrange appointment im scared take time work entire life even school months years worse others find dumb settle boring routine relatively ok feelings messed taking promotion work responsibilities spend time home absolutely terrified ive done something wrong replay things head convince wrong lot responsibilities work involve outside clients something wrong could potentially big problems caused company really kicked anxiety depression overdrive exhausted constantly worrying cant sleep eat im terrified time genuinely feel like way end all like im worried something specific moment may sent something wrong client time wasnt worried all didnt think it came home brain started playing day realised didnt remember double checking it weekend ive state worry complete emptiness ive convinced wrong isnt unusual every day come home worry something didnt do cant carry like this cant tell employer dont official diagnosis told previously managing director extremely angry didnt believe me said wasnt trying given wanted fire gave another chance feel like dont leg stand dont sort diagnosis scared go doctor every day think worst things could happen decide happen ill kill sort gets through im worried worst thing going happen one day snap ill kill everyone sad cant see another way this horrible tiring cycle people tell stop worrying wont make mistakes im smart etc makes feel worse inevitably make mistake theyll disappointed literally cannot stop worrying feel thoughts going round round head like stuck loop know boyfriend gets frustrated angry cry shut away doesnt understand worry things wish brain could normal could stop overthinking thinking worst happen normal people dont think killing every day im sorry sending email know long dont expect anyone read all know im ridiculous im grand scheme things none matters wish could normal brain im scared tomorrow go work ill possibly find things ive done wrong dont know happen could lose job destroyed id anxious new job could even find one wouldnt money meant buying house next year go window too feel like cant talk anyone dont want worry them cant tell employer happened last time cant tell dad hell worried boyfriend means well cant understand never worries anything hasnt ever depressed before know long anyone bother with needed type out please dont nasty impatient cry usual ignore dont want ill delete it,1 +brilliant film great john waters characters unforgettable acting script camerawork enhance overall greatness film perversion artform must see all easily perfect ,0 +looking iti came reddit looking sub would help figure best way die without damaging organs donated i two routes wanted discuss witch one better see community exists seeing sub posts made think really want it thinking time almost last year whats really stopping thinking family bf feeling guilty would feel time wanna keep sake others life going anywhere cant accomplish anything know person life lived differently pattern follow wanna life nothing thinking death could bring goodness by donating organs feel like would finally accomplish something even know wrote this know gonna read comments guess wanted vent ok bye,1 +new national anthem idea whoo whats pair packs punch unique taste creamy crunch pbampc im thinking found reeses puffs peanut butter chocolate great separate combine make morning time epic morning time epic morning time epic r double e s e s yes p u double f s yes r double e s e s yes p u double f s yes,0 +fmli cant keep waking crying spending every holiday alone life want die im scared want better life end shitty one,1 +dad strong hes cancer heart attacks cardiac arrests septic shock one summer hes still alive went date today brave strong,0 +whats favorite method finish allwhats method bee thinking whats natural share story facing consequence,1 +im randomzone crush girl friend years lost touch year ago time time write messeges check whatsoever nearly every time answers something like good id like type blah blah texts shorter pp sir sir really mister and colleague call randomzone since way talk random strangers random friends friends really know want polite want back friendzone whenwhere talked anything everything no even talked tldr crush messenges sir someone random life,0 +yall ever see old lady walking think damn wanna sucker punch lmao,0 +nevermind previous post im horny,0 +any personalidentifying details removed reading this sorry please forgive me although know might take time purely decision fault anyone elses anything could done feel broken lost maybe finally finally find peace owe explanation longer life goes on worse gets regards many different problems life hear is get better getting better it participating life tedious draining unfulfilling incredibly sad though probably experiencing bewilderment anger grief done please know this want die almost everyone everything life supportive me wanted try life attempt grow old world truly beautiful place times especially true wonderful family all it removed friends particular removed names friends even though time lives would see long since passed happiest rays pure sunshine otherwise bleak world you extraordinary friends known along way thank me seriously lucky know you thing feel emotionally unfit keep wading currents life so sad almost all time cannot anything it believe me tried tried name it sobriety exercise mindfulness meditation selfhelp material multiple medications multiple doctors multiple therapists even psychiatrist me suicide insidious everpresent mental intellectual emotional spiritual cancer ever since first time heard childhood almost feel like inevitable always felt like outsider looking life never participant observer thought suicide least per hour excluding sleep decade trying simply hold on years guess final straw broke camels back brief periods thought might able overcome feeling able potentially envision future liberating periods always due help people tried hard source light strength instead looking others am always needed help blunt never thought would make age removed now that age slightly older time passes relative stability occasional optimism past completely eroded existence fulfillment despair pain years years desperately trying find meaning motivation future cannot envision it nothing feel totally lost this combination increasingly crushing burdens alive human being leaves one option quit feels like thing ever actually control stop struggling currents life let overtake sounds like appealing thing imaginable sorry pass pain onto you reading this stronger ever was could take more perpetual observer so lonely you lonely truly sorry you moments something would like share one know pain well felt fundamentally alone lonely since started retaining memories one thing always really wanted travel never got much farthest ever got location removed future ever particularly beautiful place wondrous moment maybe think briefly lucky ill get right beside you even luckier ill soon get surf waves spacetimei sorry love yes you much fuck it draft suicide note see relate hint can,1 +im contemplating redflagthrowaway account contemplating redflag dont see point life point living life painful ive suffered depression life looking back suffered young age nephew turning soon makes stomach turn look him innocent child thoughts hopelessness anxiety age didnt bad childhood definitely lonely one ass beat times brother think sometimes honestly nothing major ive reached help im currently waiting list counselling referred for months waiting list put medication mh nurse socially im relatively normal wouldnt guess looking im often life party quite chatty lot banter work come home broken person ive lot people life thrown away ive always quite disposable person ive things happen shouldnt have ive knowingly let people take advantage use me probably selfesteem many people let done shitty things apparent problem cant go life blaming people must reason always happens me nobody wants probably fault ive enough ive thinking lot think people would really care mum dad id leave savings letter explaining theyd much better off lot heart break lately stress work grievance put member management bullying me rejection im mess im looking advice pleas it needed place rant,1 +miss leave man feel empty inside friendships falling apart motivation anything anymore,0 +always one thingbeyond issues things im going including mildly want life myself im even stressed take hours maybe part time gig help mom needs like k else loses everything like everything loses house everything it debts already remains even past losing everything said im mildly worried shes worth dead alive great life insurance policy half million dollars redflag clause life dont know do whether help ways money way back hometown without spending round trip greyhound gas car fuck im student idk much really help im already fucking fasting meal prepping lose weight save ton money areas cut back pay internet cheapest phone plan already cheapest room could find idk do dont want lose way life childhood home dont want lose way trying rock provider helper someone give perspective maybe guidance do although want life also hope everyone would fine without clearly isnt case lost everything im afraid would give too,1 +update phone ios phone still stopped updating worry apple slowing peoples phones,0 +please help overdosed wellbutrinhi guys took like g wellbutrin happen scared ,1 +even get readmy family finally showed true colors feel suspecting long time resent me mother sees biggest failure life bc never anything right live summer live house verbally abused life physically beaten every day kid scarred every day greeted hostile looks hatred screamed things wrong things dont even do hands pockets despite facts never laid hand with exception hug occasional kiss incidental contact yet feels unsafe living bc tall kinda strong feels wasted life away father left tenth birthday somehow one feel doesnt hate me barely even knows me brother criminalizes leaving go college another state studied commuting home thinks reason life difficult difficult stays home chores thinks reason family use them thinks think im better him many times said trusts friends me thinks always right fucking delusional every thought have theres me im fucked cant even hold normal relationship ignore friends know nothing me romantically dont open either someone interested person cant help think must something extremely wrong point fixate smallest things makes imperfect me often times find thinking much better me leave relationships even chance bloom skin disease itchy honestly makes hate every second dont require help treatment anything tho suffer get panic attacks often home family matter dont sighyawnbreathe like front me think im nuisance everyone close thinks youre monster honestly start believe too fucked up bad person never loved capacity honestly wonder time whats even point things always end way longest time ive felt dont want anymore id always tell itll get better see really doesnt maybe point oddly enough first time long time feel peace never shared someone read far thank you need someone world know this even one person maybe someone find perspective eternal fuckup somewhat enlightening sorry essay,1 + movies hyped for godzilla vs kong without doubt im curious see films fellow teenagers excited for unsure whats coming year heres list list american films wikipediahttpsenwikipediaorgwikilist_of_american_films_of_,0 +keep goingim sure keep going know sometime future im going kill myself feel like day im alive im delaying inevitable wish now,1 +kung fu epic worth watching best training ever main character spending hundred days knees outside shaolin temple show desperate learn kung fu fight manchu dogs taken china,0 +kill myselfi want discussion really comes it not,1 +hard justice excellent action movie whole movie really nothing shooting fighting good vampire plot people say make shoot em ups fighting films like use to well one really hardcore the dragon wilson excellent character really cool movie nicholas guest good well arguably steals show really performs fantastic villain melanie smith also good think fine looking actress underrated michael cavanaugh good really cool see vince murdocco film action truly awesome gun fights super cool fighting scenes fighting picture really greatest seen much happens minute run time action fans blown away fire power superb fighting film offer night hunter movie easy locate video store see sale buy movie big keeper plus box cool ton action seen believed look see find good deals ebay halfcom amazoncoms zshops market place sellers opinion night hunter one greatest fighting films ever watched characters neat like the dragon wilson want see nicholas guest great performance strongly recommend action movie fan loves shoot em ups fighting movies vampire films disappointed movies look true non stop action flick fails deliver get buy night hunter today,0 +gonna acting,0 +want kill myselfi money power abuse got feel everyday like im nothing everyone else me judging me mocking me looking me hate everyone too hate working others making rich getting paid crap hate disgusting rich people act like model universe figured out yet built taking advantage people every area society scam take advantage younot financially emotionally slaves chains dont even realize it getting taken advantage every way think went business good years got injury put business im pulling fair share relationship anymore things new thought would bring success failures debt companies constantly lying charging late fees overcharging me put payment plan decided abandon last month wanted me charge late fees ever month even though automatic deduction dad emails time telling angry disappointed me mom insults constantly calling fat ugly failure also developed health problems escape drugs im gonna kill myself really will believe god think evil sadist self righteously disguised teacher die hope go straight hell stops people see friends,1 +readyi idea it ready anxiety depression ptsd eating disorder need someone give advice ending it feel bad helping me really need thoughts stop favour,1 +get sink holei m think got pretty good life ive got bunch friends family im either far close them got average grade school got average jobs got life project many got passion im crazy either thing think lack relationship thats driving crazy know deep deep inside question time become alone friend antisocial type slowly start ton enter even before covid social activity dampd game week said bad but meet someone new also try online meeting enough sexappel make play scene ask bar even im big fan craft beer friend social type always end going alone bar big problem know lot people thanks taxi driver little town months go bar lots people come talk like minutes pass another call end always end alone counter beer result ive got lot time think myself never good thing depress introspection moment ive came one conclusion thing do kill time forgot im alone preventing think ive recently observe lissent music loud prevent think thing make tome go faster die im even capable enjoying long terme lose them bother much sadly reason kill hour date im mom would cry phase phase days pass probably last one crazy lot people way worst position way happier fate fate future maybe day get better know good way thinking fking logical ass keep saying chance high loto ticket people know believing lotto chance one moment trip way living time good way thinking way stay alive understand too im always tear two exhausting wanna go sleep never wake up,1 +rant maybe ventthis prolly gonna long one stay please also sorry spelling mistakes grammar ive crying writing this ive feeling really depressed suicidal way month sure long one friends asked out dated week broke saying cant trusted broke tried best treat right happened halloween finally got home hanging friends went room cried sleep ive feeling like killing severely hurting since dea keep thinking find positive reasons live friends surprisingly ex none want die think theyre lying trying keep humiliate make suffer even already busy stressful life school problems home want stay am want to go missing another country still feel like killing id friends know went know sound selfish hell wanting leave cant think better reason want see dead body deal knowing im dead theyd prolly traumatized seeing happy last time talked them ive self harming really bad since got dumped point cuts leave awful scars stopped weeks since broke blade accident cuts healed showed guess tried showing happens leaving alone like already alarming amount suicidal thoughts like say anything relationship but say accident mean harm im reflecting ive feeling way suicidal happened problems home started cutting broke blade aswell anything week ago pe got hit leg right cuts continue playing went bathroom check cuts hurt bad almost started crying resulted slightly bright colored pants get bit red blood teacher asked everything alright tell did class asked alright told school counselor agreed friends blackmailed telling ive slowly getting bit better writing feel depressed im writing here words meaning ive falling back really bad ordered boxcutter online im waiting arrive feel like cut throat open die knowing burden everybody anyways thanks reading this appreciate precious individual took time read something useless this im posting hopes feeling bit better great day though,1 +weather insanely hot country amp forecast predicts going stay th august id rather ropei cant bear hot gives insane fatigue tiredness depression shitty headaches cant sleep night today ive slept horrible hours cant turn air conditioner ive caught cold barely go work due amount sleep im getting also cold home really cant take im forced lay cold bath afterwards feel good however long body warms sadly,1 +latest entry long series films french agent oss the french answer james bond series launched early s spawned least eight films none ever released us osscaironest spies breezy little comedy notrepeat not taken seriously protagonist finds middle spy chase egypt with morroco stand egypt find long lost friend follows standard james bondinspector cloussou kind antics although man something overt xenophobesexisthomophobe treated pure farce as said take seriously although bit rough language cartoon violence basically okay older kids ages up previously stated subject line sit backpass popcorn enjoy,0 +unbrpony fucked horse like nibba what joking either username means no bucket required meaning fuck without standing something,0 +so im depressed ive accepted itso im pretty big lurker reddit never really post late really become depressed serious kind please dont hit hard first time ive ever said anything honestly im afraid even post internet great thing anonymity ive always afraid tracked either put crazy house black listed ha g rights taken away cant take anymore talk someone reason trust reddit anyone life searched redflag sub came up im posting need dump life somewhere let someone know unfortunately want write novel write never able get back work keep posting updates get back breaks lunch otherwise depression make say fuck it post anything allowed please let know delete post know im glad found place feel comfortable comments notwithstanding letting out ill back hours im lunch,1 +imma play rlcraft smt later dm u wanna join thats,0 +im glad friends get good friend thjunior school tuesdays thursdays fridays optional called in came today club activity canceled know live minutes school took bus show till pm currently am mom obviously pissed gonna come pick minutes away things do text friend mvp story girl comes clutch way right pick take home get good ass friend like,0 +fuck started argument parents idk dont even know wtf shit shit shit fuck made joke big iron turned something protests shit fuck,0 +canada clickbait like hear many good things canada really like that somebody said canadians passive aggressive theyre liars right,0 +today going wellthen acted impulse looked something social media shouldnt have ended cutting made feel started left thigh bc dont want go far itd visible outside shorts im sick myself im sick mind dont think im ever gonna ok im never gonna wanted way want people im fucking pathetic im old shit disgust myself wish kill myself wish didnt care family would feel dont want anymore,1 +mom called asshole struggling mental health getting bad grades words exactly theres difference making mistake asshole whatever going irresponsible cant trust anymore response bad grades due mental breakdown severe adhd im using mental illness excuse parents zero understanding mental issues fact parents west african mental issues devil literally gpa like entire life obviously used hence bitchy regret scholar past setting high expectation parents started fucking none would ever happened feel dumb failing classes one quarter like im gonna fucking repeat th grade,0 +american views britain youse think bout,0 +yoo kinda hype rn ngl mom finally said would allowed build pc ive enough money never let spend it finally gon able play games friends,0 +anyone relateholding tears much head pounding ,1 +ur mom valid comeback mom person u say to sister said something said ur mom im thinking valid cuz mom mom h e l p,0 +feeling like going time again sit think let go long turn soon never got education never employed living someone sexually harasses daily drinking alcohol every night feel empty apathy unmedicated constant mental anguish makes want punch black blue least bruises leave scars like ones wrists remind guts go whole way let get bad something years ago still bothering wake everyday much coward get with wish would get something terminal rot away nothing left hopeless,1 +need advice male teens meant creepy sounds hear out myf son tried changing account info around main xbox account hes sort taken dads so supposedly fubard thing locked everyone out naturally dads my husband head exploded total life ending moment us all blah blah blah so fixed which surprisingly easy considering initial reaction well funny story get straight answer virus system messed accident thought first logical step got sign info said id handle it looked at browsing history im usually naive kid mostly plays roblox minecraft mean come on im thinking great kid clicking stupid ads games ads games theres search search search of just oh god theres much prn so much poor kid according time stamps yeah guess im mom now watching stuff constantly going back forth roblox im assuming hes either switching thinks hears parents pulling driveway knock come in okay point point how handle this do handle this bring up say anything exist awkwardly house till moves one day honestly want secretly block sites n l itd freak suddenly cant watch anymore hed know know thats dck another fact might make difference ive mom since entered eachothers lives almost years ago hes never known birth mother im mom technically stepmom im oh god poor baby soiling delicateinnocent brain demonic pleasures im sure probably or not idk im around mostly guys work ive always tomboy joke shit problem bother me keep going topic talk let go guess im really asking is mom definition cool or whatever date slang term now cant keep up would act tldr would want hypothetical reality cool mom handle finding watch prn also please help im new stage life n e v e r thought id here unprepared really need advice im trying creepy genuinely want right freak boy out okthanksbye,0 +need comfort fell like mother doesnt care time never pays attention never time me siblings dont feel loved wanted time wish could live dad permanently,0 +one stayshalf experience trying find relationships stick natural life progression things change dont want needy judged am understand rules im tired alone weather lot late nights brutal much good doesnt feeling end,1 +hate awards supposed give awards spite,0 +guys need help asking g wait dont go school everything online goddammit dont like it cause cant go school fantasize different girls frick wanna see someone want them dm want want you see pulled sneaky ya,0 +argument mom feeling super good me m today lunch mom said french fries argued mins sick let fries the frozen ones get walmart fries argument mom,0 +one actually careshere again seems pitty waste breath scream shout none one really gives fuck matter times last nice people dont try ask cant helped cant stopped youve tried youve never stuck care im here point return well one last time end good time goodbye fun thats god damn lie goodbye one,1 +lies burn like sugar wounds sweet bruises time ill forget done time wound scar,0 +rick roll binary code ,0 +poggers wanna crossdressing im ugly also one would willing buu skirt shit lit,0 +cant go back depression againits back ive seen coming month two ive denial feelings hopelessness nothingness selfhate three years ago suicidal thoughts thought free cant go back depression im terrified refuse go back cant control it need help im healthy idea do im scared even leave house think do might actually act impulses throw front train something help me pray me,1 +im donehi little bit me im year old male married going years currently going second round college time associates field veterinary medicine ive problems entire life depression anxiety social phobia anger management issues ive medication adult life helps degree frequent thoughts redflag throughout life even point ive made plans sell music collection electronic goods asked mother copy life insurance policy me absolutely confidence abilities what little have frequently wonder people anything me difficulty making friends building proper connections field im embarrassed fact work two insignificant low tier jobs younger making times annual income self doubt resulting anxiety cost many things including jobs friendships getting every day challenge me really bad problems selfdoubt paranoia point hate pretty much anything involves people constantly feel like people talking behind back anyone nice pity underhanded way insulting me im terrified anything around classmates feel like ones experienced field groan lab assignments me despite fact get good feedback colleagues frequently get told im good job always feel like wife leave someone else mental problems makes money despite fact tells loves every day take criticism well anyone feel like ive worked hard throughout life nothing prove itworking menial jobs lots debt despite fact im married supportive family many years trying push back mind think im ready go ending life thing held together family most notably wife mother friends have point however think thats enough stop this whats even worse lost year old brother result freak accident want mother bury another one sons cant handle living anymore pressures adult provider despite best efforts think place world sorry tldr cant really think coherently now im typing phone,1 +anyone remember time fortnite actually popular among teenagers like around mostly high school kids played fortnite little kids,0 +failed theres going backi university student scholarship way scholarship works is fail class lose financial benefits pay back every benefit given last semester got really ill operated class three weeks came back felt completely lost class thought id pass finals came completely failed shortly grades posted called office told case would go academic committee would decide kept scholarship not saved handing medical papers strike one semester almost got results one classes needed final pass class scored surely scholarship get annuled yet talked anyone it parents friends think everything ok im well cant face them today first time life im considering killing myself save shame bankrupting parents,1 +things th improveim sick everything getting worse soon think cant get worse something even thought happens entire life become nothing im afraid things getting worse ive tired options help life worth living ive set deadline things get better th already bad start,1 +want careever since little felt anxious never really problem now sixteen boyfriend felt happy really cared him showed like adventurous things started going hill one day quarterback football team something bad me one believed said did prove anything ended spiraling depression boyfriends seemed getting abusive break him started sending pictures cutting saying going kill himself made everything worse tried killing myself ended surviving put hospital months thought could leave parents moved towns word spread around town nothing ever same feel like passion like care anything started talking quarterback felt like needed forgive order move on wanted use again feel like point living want die reason kill want parents deal dead daughter im eighteen now tried tinder wanted allow happy again meet lot people ive really promiscuous like all met nice boy says cares tries help afraid cant give wants deserves better someone care him knows issues tries help me met yesterday cuddled told felt happy still feel anything manic episodes cut everyone off ive tried therapy medication seem work parents always annoying me want normal want alive anymore,1 +wish never existed first placeits times like im afraid void end consciousness know im still here theres immediate way end life quickly im exhausted pain stop stopped little came back know why want feel loved much ask want sex someone loves too hard difficult thing everybody else have want worry money keeps piling up cant keep health getting better healing im always worried money seems two things people need livelove money want free needing wanting things please im much pain,1 +want alone conscious alone away society away everything wish place time stood still lasting dark void could rest mind long needed figure shit out always considered suicide means give peace death would provide peace would feel peaceful id feel nothing id nothingi want die also want live life living life constant purgatory maybe something happen push one side other whichever may be death would even give want,1 +mother says drag everybody meand best hide isolate people mentioned treats like angry time even seek help her hears crying time im im still living home catastrophe life unable work unable stop crying,1 +wonderingi wonder many people survive attempts regret it actually end it always talk survivors glad alive im survivor fucking hate im alive failed wonder im alone,1 +im still alive im deleting reddit tomorrowthanks kind messages all place fucking toxic continue here u wanna talk me discord aquamarine,1 +ship put sea name ship billy tea,0 +could say peaches complex narrative dealing multitude issues a small tv idea beyond me besides think many films a small tv idea plots obvious dislike tv industry sue smith failed rise television background confusing particularly a great time working tv could talented ms smith no friend relative afi award winning brides christ road coorainetc made tv come think it small tv ideas like against wind bodyline the dismissal scales justice blue murder water bridge etc think peaches good entertaining film interested friends well start finish far flawless yet think among best australian films seen last couple years knows viewings theres much think about might classics like the year voice broke the devils playground really enjoy film much somersault three dollars films think momentssurreal atmospheric realistic dealing important contemporary issues sheer entertainment mrand mrs average movie goer me ordinary boring go movie always conscious audiences reaction film through in cinemas reactions overheard conversations foyer loo came peaches shaking heads negative criticisms many seemed enjoyed experience,0 +glad ill die soon ,1 +know life none cares ask decided talk place still talk year ago started felling empty angry time lost interests everything became boring fake tried tell everyone know want feel way ignored acted like see me became another person insecuredepressedsad none ever tried ask day bullied that instead helping started self harming myself tried end life many times lately became aggressive mad everything even simple thingsand yesterday severe mental breakdown mom saw teary eyes even aski really cannot fight anymore tired lost really know life except ending itbut religion cannot let itin end sorry talking much nowhere else cannot keep anymore,1 +want die want feelredflag option head years gotten point means necessary want it people love people love me ive therapy since university last session yesterday school counselor seeing hard close ive feeling unable cope past weeks motivation im unhappy existence professor knows whats feel like ive bothering ask available tell suicidal shell report it cant work finals im graduating too left want know anyone else sort teetered close edge cause feel really alone one else know struggles suicidal thoughts thinking pain would cause mom brother used enough make snap it even starting take backseat bad thoughts,1 +cant see option redflag makes sense father regrets becoming dadive terrible headspace mentally since daughter born months ago negative headspace results knowing child mistake me life pregnancy actually unintentional partners religious beliefs made room abortion decided go ahead it married weve together years love daughter many unresolved issues life becoming dad people become father position optimal mean already probably lived care free stage life wanted lead theyve wild fun s theyve made connections last life time entered fatherhood considered life mostly failure suffered anxiety depression s never fun others have theres huge part feels unlived never live without abandoning child bring do furthermore ive always incredibly introverted point feel genuinely upset cant alone far back years old used go bedroom hide people came visit house value alone time despite mental health difficulties best ways ive taken advantage ability alone going solo travel trips different cities cannot feasibly next years minimum internal conflict regretting becoming father did wanting live different life much handle people might say theres middle way could separate partner least provide child support rest life play healthy role childs upbringing see viability middle way would lead guilt partner left hard work so arrive redflag best solution splitting partner would lead daughter feel unloved unwanted grows issues come that killing leaving note says due mental health difficulties cope would least provide reason furthermore id age daughter understand im gone know probably need help therapy honestly cant ever overcome feeling living life wrong gone way everyone else happy fathers subreddit s probably wild youth full happy memories thats me,1 +im trap a boulder rolls corridor poison darts set every step young adventurer pressure plates strewn dungeon floor,0 +everyone hate meplease ic ant im crying bad everyone hate me,1 +call us selfishi want die want kill myself no cant why because want to become everyone elses decision called selfish,1 +know much longer hold on need help think redflagive depression life gotten worse lately read dad letter wrote got mad letter saying im making stress worse feel like thinks differently now know want die need help copy paste letter j read him understand god choose depression maybe thinks strong handle maybe test see overcome it believe born it nothing caused it nothing mom caused it depression feels drowning swimming pool people around swimming even though drowning see nobody going save me depression got worse papa got sick died matter much try cannot overcome death longer cry dead depression makes difficult forget move on made feel could longer strong family redflag planned december th stocked well advance sleeping pills morning took pills realizing done forced throw up going sound stupid childish papa died skittles one helped stay calm could sense emotions depressed crying would come stay side calmed down even though antidepressants still good bad days good days happy charlotte bad days even recognize myself bad days think death done papa skittles again several suicidal thoughts since attempts bad days thing saves completing redflag marijuana makes happy makes forget depression exist marijuana know view drug dont cannot view something drug keeping normal saving time redflag medication much respect house however feel like time come home brandts lying you hate go happy normal again know used use using way agree need okay using backyard none neighbors outside want go behind back rules truly something need,1 +night time anybody else like look sky night,0 +greek yogurt taste like creamy goat discharge certain brand try takes hour eat stuff people put it want protein,0 +lost love life depression months agoi keep asking enough get bed anymore done life,1 +doesnt like things asked straight point shes distant last couple days said thinks annoying say shit friends mean shes wrong friends cant really fit eachother following me u see good friend she me im wondering u still think im friendly she yeah u still me u sometimes im worried u dont like anymore overthink lot she understand sure doenst like like never get relationship day switched classes school grades really ruined everything split us new friends new guys around her feel like shes trying push away new life want already know years everything screwed went different class,0 +want diegeneric ass title im stuck toxic friends toxic parents house soul sucking job theres time pursue dreams simple dream life hands suffering time im done man im sick hearing might change someday cuz really believe waiting know kill cuz really im good enough thats truth im trying dramatic look people inspire me theres hope ever great living india like curse get toxic parents tell be get toxic friends treat like satan even suggest like tradition shit expected do space want time kill myself im sure cut wrist try carbon monoxide poisoning whats surer way go,1 +im sucidal mind dying sign later suicidal thoughts live close family ties many close friends like isolate myself would rather spend time alone home interneting go world meet people work go school full time life outside two except occasional get together friends friends long distance im really bad keeping touch im alone lot believe mild case depression yet professionally diagnosed however edit update steps ive taken officially signed okcupid hope gets somewhere,1 +trouble disturbing thoughts redflagnot alarm anyone impulsive thing emotional least moment thinking greatly time suffering world hardship takes survive let alone nice life everything destructive manipulative nature everything wants eat physically metaphorically feels though universe almost evil way thought universe planet hell best thing go elsewhere place less suffering redflag know good people yes really good good gives good feelings gaining dopamine brain speaking simply nonpeople evil things like animals virus bacteria disease like cancer much pain suffering organisms want impulsively eat collect resources propagate suffering simply corrupt way die come back reincarnate if thats happens least soul if exists tricked something coming suffering prison soggy meaty human body,1 +make laugh please make laugh tell funnis plz whats best joke,0 +numbi pathetic person im wasted last years life sitting room alone playing video games gained extraordinary amount weight lost friends completely isolated everything father life since think hes prison something currently relationship mother always tried give whatever wanted life never cared nothing myself everyone ive met thinks im smart fuck school required me even though ive always despised people hated majority do countless years wasting away finally forced try make something life sent shitty tv college sit computer day hey figured technical genius could make career it schooling learned absolutely nothing already know made new friends entire time graduated extremely good grades everyone thought bright future ahead me lost lbs course months trying hard could better myself cant it cannot normal person cannot speak people without feeling like complete utter fool social reject everything attempt real world crumbles ive job interviews completely ruined them including one hour ago used extremely depressed everything whiny little cunt stopped know why stopped feeling everything cant cry anymore cant feel anything im sick disappointment everyone around me mother remarried another childwe years apart little sister thing makes happy anymore want try bad fix whats wrong me her nothing works want house blame them go sorry lack punctuation insane wall text needed vent think killing every single day wake want go back sleep know anymore,1 +im failing classes got motivation anything im still stressing parents gonna kill find out,0 +regret rape everyone knows fucked not popular guywith full prior consent class reputation tainted whore regret decision mean get away saying oh sexually assaulted me fucks guys mental health cost ego satisfaction think fuck,0 +life standstill bullied home tenantsi seriously considering committing murder ending myselfi let honour life joked around withthey already succeded making feel like piece shit sharing secretsi take mei teenagerfuckin scum realise do,1 +im gonna todayi cant take anymore im sorry life hard im depressed heartbroken lonely love someone longer cares me cant go another day without her today ill finally get peace,1 +anyone think school giving us much work everyone middle school saying much work teachers nothing it got votes got saying much work tell happening everyone also im showing data teachers believe us,0 +cant thislast week tried commit redflag inhaling carbon monoxide garage turned car song came reminded ex love life ended relationship wasnt ready one fine completely cut contact handle that helped everything people saying getbetter find somebody better her nobody better her perfect meant world nothing want back depression getting worse fail four classes college going rough road ahead me want best friend love life world back want tell literally saved know would respond know turn go lost wilderness mind want out want happy again want again,1 +redflag still looking like optionsocial distancing mask wearing end lasting years usa falling apart work home going become permanent thing in area want pass law make wfh mandatory even post vaccine job wise im pretty much screwed foreseeable future never enough money leave parents leave usa theyre going put judge supreme court strike obamacare leaving health insurance options happens killing solution,1 +say comes book movie adaptations bbc rarely lets down regarding miniseries love starling novel far best murdermystery ive ever read miniseries defiantly made day saw it primary story kept near perfectly intact characters match ones novel well personalities mannerisms spot red jez thought duncan done well kate eric came much simplistic character little depth book also altered substory may deal it course changes cosmetic found disappointment in substory eric murder charge changed changed whole dynamic red eric movie cut triathalon training jez doing events book changed viewer friendly liked book like this like miniseries love book must say accurate book movie adaptation ive seen,0 +want go away dont know this feel like world want talk it uncomfortable people hate feelings tip iceburg redflag felt like needed say something somwhere though,1 +love movie great film combines english indian cultures feministtype issues girls wanting play sports previously reserved men shows struggles indian person wanting break outside cultural barriers women wanting break outside gender restrictions found sports especially england time feel cultural struggles emphasized issuesbr br in contrast comment think movie anything like dirty dancing chick flick move loved many types people men women young old alike,0 +im eating fries rn feel pretty good good fries yeah,0 +movie might put catholic church best light telling story based true events unfortunately everything life including religion nice rosy sometimes people groups things time seem like right thing retrospective look great did a love divided tells story family yes incorporate religion really story family familys ability stay together matter thrown them film also based true events say story scene scene true look news articles time period would able see neither churches handled incident way helpful towards family churches fault here catholic church forcing regulation family first place responding violence came protestant church telling mother obey husband priest put fight case let family down believe film good job showing struggle church family way shape form putting catholic church opposite shows one incident change course religions ideas one person effect far reaching themselves,0 +know enemy know need fear result hundred battles finished art war sun tzu everything war war winned deception ask anything,0 +jumped pool phone completely submerged ten seconds still works,0 +tw sexual abuse eating disorder carry oni survivor childhood sexual abuse perpetrator somebody close family still see regular basis started probably years old went years never told anybody fear would tell fault making up first time happened pushed empty room made pull pants same grinded made touch him stuck tongue mouth put fingers inside me time things got worse happened pretty regular basis stopped touching developed eating disorder anorexic bulimic tendencies dropped pounds way looked like death everybody told fabulous looked id never beautiful life even mom egged on saying proud weight loss years really able get close anybody push away relationship ive ever violent boyfriend would cheat me know men use sex let them value all attempted redflag two times first time took bunch pills friend made throw second time tried drowning myself boyfriend time saved me today months pregnant course pregnant boy love son guess thats im submitting this im triggered every day know continue on try kill myself sake son continue life im afraid turn like father verbally physically abuse women matter feel like matter voice continue plagued memories know need love son born feels impossible nobody else love i obviously life means nothing anybody wish succeeded killing chance,1 +im horny rn ngl look dude clicking nsfw tag perverted fuck,0 +night demons another long line teen horror films released video paytv mecca film making eighties unlike crap peddled around one actually decent watch group bored teenagers decide party halloween night away pair bizarre sisters mimi kinkade linnea quigley infamous hull house usual cast stereotypical teenagers invited party average teenage bash turns night terror try survive halloween night undead residents hull house decide crash party wholl survive night bloodshed horrorbr br a nice horror film best seen unrated version watch rrated cut miss splatter effects nudity stay tune amusing epilogue gory film followed equally entertaining sequel horror fans onlybr br highly recommended,0 +version correct one want wait suffering anymore suffering permanent gool bullshit know future brings yet experince misery loneliness fucked brain one day find person wants live world stinks going drowning shitbye permanent solution everyone eventually experience permanent problem,1 +think im doneim ive meds therapy ect years ive come conclusion solution cant live normal life cant feel love successful going societies definition im tired im broken last love took hope her know anymore,1 +want someone help mebut help mean find rope nice sturdy spot hang,1 +mom saw take thing pic im trouble wtf showing boyfriend new thigh highs delete took away phone rest day like bruh,0 +imagine dogs human hands breakdown help god,0 +whos wrongmy dad personally resent years deteriorating nothing ignorant abusive while made think im one wrong im taking things little seriously anyways ill try give story little bias possible lets start work im talking small chores around house like taking laundry out dishes im talking things like digging feet trenches cementing fence gets sit back relax claim hes sick work hes bout months now hes ever sick theres work done gives pretty good backup believe faking it theres various jobs like makes do say im busy school work something gets pissed me ive talked say well getting mad better getting schoolwork in like hell even think says does nextup online school come evry minutes look screen yell take break watching video two yelled morning tabs open yesterday youtube since learning new song guitar ive never done anything remotely fun without thinking shit dads going mad includes going bike going fishing friends even getting something mcdonalds cause told oh theres meat left rice small scraps rice im sure trying say meant way think meant it pissed beyond belief completely destroy father time grow tired it im done life feel help less life now enjoyments slowly getting detroyed day life looses value sometimes think im overdramatic im oversensitive bitch thanks reading hope wonderful rest day,1 +ashamed write notemy life well myself pathetic cant write note maybe theres need write note people care enough want know feel ive never popular part reason fucking mental disability came broken home little name even wanted to enjoy life terms im mentally defective able to im afraid option cant bear another minute living shitpile theres reason keep living cant enjoy life properly shit tiresome twentythree years desire live see remaining decades,1 +find out literally want friends im weird nerdy guy idk else me find out also hate titles hard time making good one,0 +happened across bait cable one night started thought eh not im glad gave chance br br bait aint perfect suffers unnecessarily flashy direction occasional dumbness overall movie worked elements aligned right pulled otherwise could pretty ugly film br br most that think due jamie foxx know tagged foxx lead whoever movie big favor believable amazingly likeable foxx glides movie smooth butter funnier hell tell hes working instinct instinct fail himbr br the plot unimportant actually ties together pretty well theres even character arc foxxs character grows person again couldve slipped without this makes things much betterbr br im surprised low rating this maybe caught move right night vice versa id give bravo mssr foxx,0 +saw short film hbo day absolutely loved it eight different characters eight different perspectives first confused way story moving along realized one scene shown again show us different perspectives charactersbr br at first think clerks yelling teenager stealing speak language and chris teenager played convincingly eleonore hendricks cannot understand perspective clerks dispels view realize wonderful short really last two scenesbr br excellent short film hopefully director james cox turn short feature length film cast win us whole new filmbr br ,0 +best friend tried kill last night stopped her idea doill get first way fucking love girl fucking love death one best friends help problems talk lot anime fetishes stuff but best times depression before seemed okay addicted cutting afterwards depressed boyfriend dumped last week like piece trash suicidal too bonded that broke up took days school loved guy loved death guy said really loved quite boyfriends gets help therapist even met guy had decide diagnose clinical depression gets depression tablets friday so feel good all make upset ill insist take kick in days tuesday talk lot fun tuesday talked til pm am great conversation then ex gets head texts demand broke her says like anymore find bullshit beautiful mensatier intelligence goes worthless telling let go partially confess feelings her sure serious said loved lot kept telling let go tells godfuckingdammit tall alert best friend this panics tells go going hang herself luckily father downstairs am computer tell drive place let parents know speed down bang hell door parents wake little groggy theyre calm tell exactly happened go upstairs them best friend coming door never seen like this like zombie harrowing immediately hug her say promise me never anything like ever again keeps saying sorry daze kind looks floor shame go downstairs dad there make small talk ex life shell move weve etc go back home shaking text kik half hour later are feeling better read watching lord rings next morning texted back movie phone off likely away sent message am pm know bit silly worrying hours normal situation tried commit redflag yknow im fucking worried idea talk about help her really first time ask help regarding her normally know do please reddit need ideas,1 +help wantedsorry crappy title really sure posted linked askreddit post found herehttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsddwhats_bothering_you_right_now_what_do_you_need_to guess ill give backstory around years ago moved home country new zealand another country really want give specifics sorry thats rules got there different country different culture language etc novelty wow cool wore fairly quickly went school started school fairly cheerfully first week school broke crying recess friends really know do got friend changed cheerful started become depressed started fake sick go school fast forward two years believed bullied called nerd snotpicker among things almost daily though memory may warped quite ago happened fourth grade fast forward two years come year old emotionally unstable trust anyone anyone friend basically clung onto unstable day moved never really no friends always someone never thought friends despite them realize fast forward two years arrive year old thought redflag written suicidal notes before taken tests seen therapists wants end all tasked huge amount school work mother micromanges life suffering headaches things like that allowed stay home school requires go school unless want spend multiple days catching up now honestly ive enough know commit redflag ive thought before ive seen two therapists before ive leave due leaving schools school go currently small around people max much variety people result im starting doubt whether continue life ive feeling like crap lately especially school ive deal headaches stomach aches im fed it took test iq doctor suggested take antidepressants refused heard could make flat way regret decision im avid gamer usually play games get mind things thats happening less less mother takes control life lot more going university generally stressfilled life help all also help changes diet whenever sees something thinks help family leads angry due fact spending money food could save bit buying half brands does family eg father etc away another country generally things do im sure do ive tried make feel better ive basically lost motivation things days spent reading reddit nothing else get pretty good grades school generally neartop class marks yet im still told make study notes study every day mother believes getting a marks every assignment ive basically lost motivation live thing keeping going fact want disappoint people feel like im pulling people time ive skipping meals mother spend much people plus help classmates social rejects feel like fit anywhere leads internet strangely feel like fit in welp im going stop there thats one gigantic ramblerant know do seen therapist lately helped before im scared ask one mother may say you need one need help advice anything help get hellhole life hope sound selfentitled anything mother tells that quote dont bad im sure that seen people worse would love somebody gave help sorry incredibly rambleyranty,1 +hate everyone im depressedi recently diagnosed bipolar ii years years undiagnosed depression anxiety many redflag attempts go waves anger numbness long periods depression ive worst pandemic living alone home time little progress made build back completely undone barely get bed now im near constant state depersonalization periods intense anger start suddenly hate everyone seemingly reason want cut anyone life good like uncontrollable urge every redflag attempt failed misery increases like trying force things get worse cant even stop anymore dont old saying hurt people hurt people misery loves company im trying make things unbearable choice find inner strength finally get done successfully im helpless stop dont even care time im here drinking morning whiskey coffee missing another holiday fucked broken mind nothing even feels real dont even know really exist kind jacobs ladder situation needs end one way another cant anymore hate everything,1 +im religious song goes hard like wasnt religious id probably listen kb k httpsyoutubecomwatchvfqs_azkhttpsyoutubecomwatchvfqs_azk,0 +hero academia chapter action packed link httpsyoutubejgoqbvxllfo,0 +movie one wow movies greatest movie time surprised me tv movie elvis safely say many impersonators one elvis also safely say kurt russel came extremely close real thing one greatest impersonations ever seen believing really him learned lot elvis life watching movie led television part let strayits actually really fantastic film kurt russel couldve elvis twin ,0 +attack titanfskdkskaks im gonna dont know act mikasa levi oh god really like wow levi really jean connie sasha ahhhhhhhhh fucking yessssss wooh yeah wooooh yesssss yeah wooh fuccckkkki g yeahhhh,0 +questionim hearing lot nobody really cares you stuff directed me general like saying nobody really cares going problems stuff thats case really alone world id truly nobody cares all still here actually illusion someone would care real question is have to then mean nobody really cares right nobody cares problems live die hell even live sure shit care live die rhis point practically emotionally logic shit live technically something think about,1 +thought might like friends cute hand drawn music video its called lofi songs young home knowing httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpoftilhbdm,0 +nothing feels good morei went awful breakup two months ago complete mental breakdown cannot function study work suffering feel worthless useless never felt disgusted myself dont want more,1 +fucking hate myselfi hate im mei want normal want know im ignored straight hated worse alli hate im transi hate im like ex,1 +bend like beckham film got little exposure united states probably due fact movie strongly british dialogue terminology dealt lot football soccer here may trouble relating us unfortunate movie absolutely fantastic deserved much coverage here think basis storyline following dream something many people relate end bend like beckham proves goodfeeling film source inspiration really good acting overly excited seeing film initially regret seeing sooner highly recommend movie,0 +books movies videos things want do really wish things already experienced would strain much find energy them waking hard already know supposed get things done top basics would overwhelming makes sad motivation levels id like have interested things enough motivate me like huge disconnect life feel like passing quick slow experience anything battling and known persistent depressive disorder since made lot progress life still colour it anyone else feel way think want know alone wish already experienced things want experience,1 +so see humans behind posts families pets friendshow dare fuck people like thiswell gone another faceless nameless victim uncaring bullshitciao fuckers going post picture,1 +kill myself everything go awaythe voices stop screaming if shakes stop constant irrational worries go away ill able finally sleep properly wish strong enough jump,1 +feel empty blank numb very long rant last years life sounds pretty generic thats feel spent years chasing girl never got together dated moved right confessed felt same never even got hold herwhat still wouldnt give hold once confidently love her wanted make work tried lasted half year decided leave me wasnt end going experience breakup gone broke left broken months felt empty like now met another girl liked first like also saw chance help get first girl fizzled pretty quick though received letter girl explaining reason blocked number sc someone went phone blocked made think blocked her believe story im sure dont see reason lie im sure anymore friends again wanted back life badly wouldve happy even letter said fuck hope die long her taking stuff got back together course loved exactly way tried before like think felt im sure happier sorta put back together since broken first time ended dumping remained close friends day second dumping way played broke second time kept trying almost another year gave weeks ago im even sure right decision still late december november maybe last year talking blamed reason broke times not good enough etc revealed reason dumped first time wanted hate could kill wouldnt care knowing that broke third time couldnt comprehend answer couldnt accept answer knew previous attempts life knew mental health problems anyone else fact wouldnt tell knowing maybe couldve done something never wouldve broken first placejust shattered left first two times broken nowadays im trying get still chasing anymore makes feel like nothing guess didnt realize had im lonely sap whos ranting reddit still talk unfortunately much ruined life completely put worst places ive ever been still love heart maybe things change well get back together again maybe fizzle again maybe ill meet someone else ill forget girl spent long chasing after knows,0 +day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always,0 +feeling suicidalhello everyone know reach to thought maybe awesome people reddit would help out ive batteled depression know make pain go away feel like theres nothing live im empty inside might end tonight good bye b,1 +reason herei want die want hurt feel anything want go sleep one night dont want wake emotions hard confusing painful dont want hold anymore want happily ever see tv find love nothing goes wrong wont hate alive theres much like idk well know dont dont anything sit cry hurt want go bed already last time whos gonna miss every friend would rather hang anyone im last choice friend never check ask one person loved everything never enough want high right want drug find wake next morning want shoot head never hurt,1 +marie smooth dan no im smooth im danbr br if anything like me smooth single go together see someone like rare enough be want say something dont maybe say something ends perhaps least intelligent thing ever said life often though stare afar admire without deal taking agree way get anywhere life risk cant blame guy little frightened though maybe hes burned hard maybe hes trying focus energy career reasons valid not interpreted excuses rather reason tell need right time still wish happening way break down easy sound familiar thought yes even little dan real life new comedy director peter hedges mustsee reach inside somehow manage break warm heart oncebr br the dan title dan burns steve carell advice columnist admired insight living balanced fulfilling morally uplifting life four years film opens dan waking day lost wife love life tragedy dan left raise three daughters alone focusing career finding love one dans priorities became functional feeling removed power intimacy dan longer knows means close someone resigned never knowing again is meets marie juliette binoche book tackle shop connecticut quiet morning theyre interaction casual comfortable catches guard one problem really already seeing someone unfortunately involved someone dans brother mitch dane cook entire family come parents country home yearly visit dan must spend weekend pining yearning fleeting feeling marie morning lasted hour took long awaken dans heart comabr br with many family members deal jack mahoney dianne wiest helm dan real life drift away grander purpose time time cyclone kids parents aunts uncles makes trying times dan hedges also uses unnecessarily means distract presumption would ultimately make complete film luckily hedges got carell carry heavy burden pleasure watch steve carell come every picture makes despite occasional evan almightysized misstep charismatic charming obviously sharp humorist dan also selfdeprecating awkward scared carell rare comedian pushes find character roles rather rely solely comedic instincts established persona perhaps importantly entirely relatable dan whether hes flopping cot laundry room subjected sleep single adult reunion fidgeting around kitchen unable stan still anxiety dan every guy even unsure felt alone crowd carell gives dan much heart becomes heart film timebr br i wondered seeing film enjoyed much did despite slight shortcomings juliette binoche know might like lighten every recommend unless chocolate involved life would someone found someone else derive much meaning comfort film cant say say someone knows means lonely dan real life knows means surprised life love moments people need appreciated cherished also knows anyone might feeling lonely given day months time needs reminded surprises still happen,0 + originally wrote comments shortly first seeing film took critical view feeling lemmon matthau basically phonedin performances paired manner theyd done several times previouslybr br but upon seeing again seemed different especially view neither two main megastars lived great deal longer releasebr br with exception spiner eight principals performers considerable experience likewise unavoidably lot longer tooth weve seen many film tv work almost everyonebr br seeing again certainly regarded classis careers fun film lot interesting scenery wellbr br from viewpoint reminds many films plays etc often looked either critical viewpoint looking instead lighter side without expecting film another citizen kane casablance in terms two leads another original odd couple also provide continuing piece nostalgia lemmon matthau well others cast,0 +update post week ago dog bit puppy blamed deaththank people much support meds week ran mother overseas work looking puppies born early morning checked every hours whole day something next morning left mom dog babies went wash hands came back bitten really badly holding left head completely freaked instantly blamed myself know best already decided dog getting anymore puppies also aggressive towards last litter sad thing is bit one well puppy defecating blood throughout day died hands crying begging better life one concerned look puppies mom breeds yorkies mom close due go important work trip across world time ran medication get came back entrusted look puppies im medication wondering thank support also sorry anything weird english main language,1 +motivation anything like anything hobbies interest before used like playing video games try play like mins gets boring used play hours years ago used play basketball interest anymore play probably mins also gets boring used play hours like years ago online businesses want start impossible literally motivation start it started online ventures past motivationi literally wake up go pc guess browse internet hours time goes fast fuck even though anything time goes fast even pc like guess days go fast feels like time anything even though anything forget much even remember happened weeks remember stuff want stuff feels like wasting time nothing like past years months go nothing accomplished feels like year started months ago yet already half way year scary know do motivation,1 +ordinary post boat hope gamerdude doesnt eat haha trapped boat bait gamerdude haha,0 +im criminal kill myselfunfortunately criminal eyes hurt someone else kill myself read reddit hurt someone kill yourself cant logically explain im still alive many times bc everytime something happens destroys last remnants selfesteem inside im back point misery,1 +tf redacted mean redacted,0 +would consider dating virtual woman best virtual woman could date league cant edit title meant best real girl could date league also hope understand im saying girl league know confusing phrase dont want hurt anyones feelings tonight especially theyre girl httpsenmwikipediaorgwikivirtual_youtuber thought could chance datemarry favorite vtuber ditch fiance would probably still pick fianc close call crush vtuber willing say is just curious,0 +doctor appointment set next week dont know ill make iti know ridiculous week im going see gp depression anxiety suicidal thoughts increased intensity week planning making redflag notes amassing materials need order commit redflag want much going today things came up stay school,1 +whats even fucking point posting hereits like anyones going read say whatever try post posts get overlooked im last legs cant go anymore know else know reach anyone else im done im done like life big cosmic joke god huge bully enjoys torturing making life worse worse worse difficult cant take anymore want die want die want die anything else death would welcome completely open arms none fair tried reaching out able say didnt tried reaching out work reason supposed reach to much,1 +roughly hours gohey all didnt make post start im still set ending tomorrow ive people reach information services advice really appreciate it cant homeless again even that ive stagnation cycle years get attempt momentum goes south start dont mean sound like victim back day bugged place eventually theyd see want current employees hire me bugging everywhere least weeks going face face roughly less told stop coming in nice vague words course hate seemingly anytime try the right way sets worse life rather being homeless person living day day days streets day hotel weeks job hunt thing ssi came nov thrinse repeat month w ssi living live prospects numbingly depressing dont drugs drink homeless extremely boring means thoughts anxiety ruminations snowball go days without sleep week realized temp agencies jobs wo stboots back streets thursday ive numb acceptance thought killing tomorrow isnt terrifying saddening even instilling apprehension now think alive amp homeless again heart races sweat fidget want cry theres moisture left going end here hotel staff nice worked regarding even let pay later times dont want place make news the arrogance me impeachment think aspies redflag make mention,1 +pre redflag logisticsi suicidal long time almost ready kill wanted know anything hand help family friends deal death far got note written visited relatives process giving away things advice things hand would greatly appreciated thanks,1 +im afraid ill spend rest collegewishing graduate graduate ill miss college im miserable college ive heard job even worse friends go separate ways free time gets eaten up etc,1 +movie the falcon snowman showing christopher boyce around complex satellite background actual ryholite satellite space trw allowed interior shots trw also allowed interior exterior shots one original star trek tv series the episode one spock goes blind string satellite lights activated kill aliens christopher escaped jail lompock featured americas wanted drinking bar show aired said hey thats me needless say captured transfered maximum security jail,0 +finally figured tiktok algorithm finally got it become famous i studied tiktok algorithm dont tohttpsyoutubepnwvzjzayt,0 +hardest classes im finishing degree applied mathematics requires take lot credits hours wide range stem fields ranking list difficulty field computer science quite difficult competitive high attrition requires creativity ability visualize abstract data structures engineering similar computer science less abstract pure mathematics very abstract many paths right conclusion physics grounded problems hard favorite field computational practicality economics you need apt arithmetic manipulating graphs chemistry there lot concepts equations much creativity least lower level biology mostly concepts tricky nothing practice cant overcome considering including humanities philosophy would near top abstract similar pure maths is,0 +super smash bros us presidents sounds like fun imo,0 +anyone wanna talk fnaf lore im nuerodivergent bored ive peaked cringe culture honestly care public opinion anymore wants talk william afton stabbed children haunted fursuit cause ive got slide powerpoint aching infodump about,0 +tomorrow last dayi think done me ive left everyone behind im done boyfriend cheated forgave him hurt really badly broke him mom used abuse kid dont think ever healed friends nonexistent ones ive held close let down dad dead grandma one life shown unconditional love support despite everything hope god realizes better way scared cry sleep nearly every night self harm grown point helping matter much often deep getting high nothing anymore feels like im falling hole someone get sad someone lose much hope im crying write this taking breaks clean foggy glasses choke sobs god couldnt died already dont know do dont know do dont know want help want get somewhere dont think stopped time ive planning days im sorry im sorry,1 +really want go road trip miss traveling man want look good views listen music stay nice hotel only,0 +want anime girl suffocate death thighs like right fckin one,0 +please helpi thoughts long im medication helped all soon think find someone understands wants help leave think get much people leave cause wont give sex thought getting better could see hope gone know anymore friends gone want hurt family telling this want deal more becoming much,1 +one cares ask found funny thanks coming ted talk,0 +nothing loseim starting think it really lose killing myself parents yeah right dont care parents didnt really care either fact im way them instead understanding problems think im crazy die dont care siblings ignored too friends dont any none classmates would remember either theres point nothing lose killing myself problem cant find painless way it im young buy gun im scared wont able hang properly leaves overdosing jumping high height im scared do theres point living anymore im going kill chance,1 +father fucking idiot insults me saying youre lazy never anything right audacity say its insult true utterly despise him literal narcissist says im extension him mean actual fuck nothing like him,0 +life ending insult you grotesque wildebeest know ass hole ground ive seen pandas ferocious you like rapunzel instead letting hair down let people down mom slow took months make joke you glass water calories brain cells skin oily amazing hasnt invaded america yet ass ever get jealous shit comes mouth id shove foot ass wasnt already occupied head would punch face wouldnt want make look betterif got penny every one thoughts would get change im offended said im glad stringing words sentences now idiots could fly would fighter jet look like something would draw left hand wildebeest parents ever ask run away home reason gene pool needs lifeguard never witness true smile someones face happens leave carry plant around replace oxygen waste called gay honor reconigniton expert field laughter best medicine face must curing world must born highway thats accidents happen still love nature you like plunger always bringing old shit mark zuckerber looks human you roughly words english language none describe much want hit chair,0 +someone pm me life mess oneim complete mess im reaching end line dont know do wish could speak someone gives shit need help,1 +theres demon theremy demons taking know go on know man like theres something wanting dead know stop til die im already good dead theyve called pegged everything im not might well end it,1 +anime got hooked animebr br set year hey thats far away now earth poison gas wasteland pollution violence seeing crimes happening ever seconds committed thieves fire power third world terrorists government fictional new port city form tank police deal problem cops tanks oh insanitybr br the heroes series include new recruit leona ozaki red haired japanese woman yeah know never match distinctly japanese names japanese appearance drafted tank police quickly partnered blond blue eyed nice guy al leona new using tanks unfortunately destroys favorite tank tank police commander charles britain also known brenten big guy looks like tom selleck steroids sporting pair nifty sunglasses big revolver bad temper britain like leona join tank police first place wrecking tiger special a giant green monster tank exactly endear him fond taking remains giant tank using build minitank nicknames bonaparte soon pushing transferred child welfare where boys size puts it theres also specs bifocal genius bible quotinggod fearing chaplain purple mohawked mohican pot bellied chief whos right edge thanks mayor always yelling tank police antics seeing tank cops often destroy half city chasing bad guys use extreme violence capture them theyre well liked peoplebr br the villains cyborg named buaku whos got mysterious past thats connected project known green peace gang two sexy cat cyborg sidekicks anna uni puma first installment guys paid steal urine samples hospital treating people infected poison gas clouds nd theyre hired steal painting naked buaku story however uncompleted anime finished cult comic manga book thats hard findbr br all sorts chaos mayhem ensue black comic venture examines far people want police go order catch criminals happens fine line good guys bad guys starts get blurred kind thing going make movie it better go get quentin tarantino uneven places still lot funbr br followed new dominion tank police,0 +u know true how feel insidehttpsyoutubetdijtpzlyhow acthttpsyoutubeazkadwmi,0 +im already want end shitim turning next month another fucking day get great feeling knowing im closer death im another ungrateful asshole lot friends school means nothing wrists legs nothing fucking scars aint deppresants fuckin joke life aint worth living im tired much life live want bullshit want cold hard painful truth maybe somewhere deep want help want love friendship maybe hell supposed mean something maybe make better made worse hate everything including life nobody cares neither fuck,1 +helphello im years old feel nothing live for suffer severe anxiety depression basically keeps room little brother moms girlfriend used abuse lead mental faculties times due suicidal thoughts bad behavior im scared feel whats best me dont want feel pain im tired shell former self miss people cared feel im alone cant tell people feel fear going back mental ward try open mom argues me anxiety makes almost impossible make new friends im scared go new people fear would think me im scared rejection whats point alive know im going alone whole life ive tried therapy years nothing works nothing worst person comes week tells feel need help feel alone cant tell anyone ill seen as coward im year behind school already hard enough feel comfortable moving friday away friends ill start new school cant deal pressure that want friends people care me people wont judge problems read this thank listening,1 +know whats next weekend everyone lets pppppppaaaarrrttttyyyy got apple juice got tacos got music never gonna give up lets celebrate survived another week,0 +serious people tried overdose pills happened body reactwhen felt really sick got major stomach ache felt dizzy eventually threw passed out heard way worse things happening like people getting seizures similar stuff you pills take body react sideafter effects receive,1 +hotline sucks cant find help going call called hot line got put hold basically tech support try find help cant im crazy person start alking people usually reaction sop istening find next person pass too called holine try give nuber aned get phone go though im takign deserving people withme,1 +thinkingi got home hospital days ago want go back hate life im tired living here hospital wasnt even fun either felt safe dont know boring thinking life even worse dont even want try anymore cope life dont understand anybody contempt living ive wondered theyre faking like me maybe im good faking them either way really dont enjoy single thing life know least something sometimes dont even feel human im pretty sure feeling complete emptiness whats gotten far im bad kid try school get good grades cant take anymore also left home awhile back help little bit im still feeling like shit hate it im homeschooled ive tried hard keep afloat ive done lot try recover depression maybe bad personality im negative hard feel happy im always let down hate family hate myself wish wouldve helped sooner think late now diagnosed dysthymia double depressive episode hospital dont expect get better ive tried tried tried nothing ever changes family might well strangers hobbies drawing which pass time and like hobby skill art hate art anyways dont see getting better cannot see enjoying life matter happens didnt attempt redflag get hospital awhile ive planning running away jump high area probably wont happen thought makes feel better hated childhood hate teenager ill probably hate adult too nothing seems good ive already lost hope im going either drop high school soon kill years kill sometime soon truly hate life nothing cruel thus far im sorry writing this im feeling god awful,1 +posting every day get girlfriend day thishttpsmyoutubecomwatchvqksllylywi,0 +people get punished wanting kill themselvesit makes angry parents said say ill kill ill sent mental hospital consequences saying that maybe even mention go kill anyways maybe people use punishment suicidal people,1 +freaking aced math test lets goooooo im really known getting prefect scores assignments tests ive struggling keep grade math i freaking suck math since grades closing next week kind test decided grade would b honestly stressful minutes ive while want fail anything b considered failure house today got results got questions correct lets goooo pog ya boi actually pulled off,0 +minimize pain caused hangingive heard painful way going padding rope rope digging front throat true lot less painful put padding rope rope dig side neck im asking friend,1 +want give up nothings going change want change afraid everything surrounded people feel alone tired fighting,1 +cutest thing happened petting kitten watching dreams newest yt vid hitman premiere decided boop kitty kitten booped back,0 +came out pretty much state art musical film entertainment day entertaining most great part james cagney lead role musical prologue producer succession deadlines sheltered storms trusty girl friday played joan blondell also musical numbers towards end put together busby berkeley pretty much knockout far type thing goesbr br but pretty strange movie mean one numbers got billy barty running around pretending lovable toddler kinds weird stuff ruby keeler seems sickening smile plastered face times least required act like later unfortunate films never guess dick powell kind tough guy seeing movie apparently tough guy energy allocated star cagney cagney high speed rants musical shows forth endearing annoying time gets bit much expect walk say hey ive got great idea prologue women cigarettes come pack smokes oh no one last month funny gets bit repetitive moments get tough bad girl ruth donnelly established cagney gangster character comes out fact frequent b gangster director william keighley credited dialogue coaching seems times cagney blondell invoking something street even though characters criminalbr br the musical numbers say stand alone entertainment way berkeley uses human body geometry really startling none really mean anything means honeymoon hotel nothing really less whole pretense integration falls apart immediately since characters show things possibly appreciated theater audience like movie portrays example one point show fine print newspaper things like that whole thing could exist film idea prologues actually live shows ridiculous suppose audiences time somewhat less critical things like would ten years later so polished productionbr br its great see cagney show superb dancing skills actually share stage dancer like keeler cagney blondell excellent chemistry scenes go really well music would say mediocre mostly pleasing repetitive bacons direction general suitable never interesting films entertainment value unquestionable also picked nostalgic value along way cut lets put show films s,0 +roses red violets found end portal lets kill thot,0 +get feeling super bad aka redflag feeling super good one single thought theyre times exaggerated then another thought get feeling super good feeling super bad matter seconds switchs last hours stop come back again get bad feelings awful way cope thinking way killing myself then get good ones completely forget sensation bad ones gave see bright side,1 +first cousin and one live near close to killed todayhe left redflag note wife two kids went woods behind house killed himself close relative never said much financial trouble in devastated know deal this also godfather always seemed successful rich learned lost job year ago sat home drinking time lied me proud ask help something like this cant believe it posted wrong subreddit earlier got told get computer interact people im definitely that started looking reddit recently amazed community here guess im looking another source advice,1 +tom berenger put soul sgt barnes done thomas beckett thought world folding first scenes nothing compared much felt last scenes great movie even girl,0 +wrong girls get sick joy kicking guys ballsseeing get hurt there sexual violence humiliation better guy groped girl put much agony crashed floor gagging choking crying everyone laughed funny got humiliated violated hurt girl guy,0 +asked crush said yes now friends always treated like friend dating dont really know act need tips great bf cross boundaries asking date hug kiss etc post may stupid really need tips,0 +cut first time yearsgoing lot life changes right country last months girlfriend didnt pick like said would gave money took maybe personally got upset broke crying airport composed self uber home yelling text shes really stressed work hugged broke crying walked kitchen went sleep made small cuts leg think ive got control now cuts werent anywhere big ones made before wait line redflag hotline text chat dont think need take call time really scared going create episodes thinking vividly killing past weeks do,1 +want doneim meds thought working therapist stopped seeing got expensive know helplines avenues hospitalized dont enough want go humiliation again dont want anymore feel this im tired feeling insignificant alone im depressed shy actually go anywhere make friends reach out feel like nothing left fight for,1 +movie like little hidden gem come s shocking lot people know itbr br this movie definitely worth look things need horror movie especially good old chillsbr br i remember watching movie first time years ago remember name it came imdb years ago ask help finding title eventually got name title bought movie still love much years agobr br buy movie,0 +phasmophobia fun ampxb httpspreviewredditrffwappngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfcaaddbdb,0 +see one dude skirt ima make geneva conventions fucking todo list,0 +woke upsame shit different day still wanna die,1 +best times one great sleepers time setup tax patience development steady many intertwined relationships lovingly established gags bits work funny lots sentimentality kurt russell playing reno hightower puts one best performances robin williams playing jack dundee surefooted ever cast also includes many great supporters jacks wife played jack palances daughter lovely renos wife great comedian cant tell many times ive watched movie many times enjoyed often wish people could see it,0 +no emotion feel it filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +cant take anymorehello im suicidal year old egyptian male diagnosed ocd since years old ocd first manifested actions soon gone years old soon began manifest another way called pure ocd back realise it fear im pedophile realise harm someone im incest etc biggest thing im afraid im pedophile dont realise it got point cant look kids even hild little brother reason mind keeps triggering situations father met friend work meet friends family including daughter time thought pretty knowing ger age ask taught rude ask females name crush fetishised jerk asked age thought gonna years worst thing grandparents told fine egyptian culture one worst considering pedophilia egyptian ppl disgusting ok year old man marry year old girl said agenda almost believed it thought crush fine kept fetishising even full knowingly im stopped crush cuz mind stupid eventho looked like realized pedophilia manipulation introduced hentai jerked kinky stuff name lolislavebdsmrapeetc every time remember two incidents get anxiety run vains im one disgusting creatures called pedophiles im denying cant take ocd puperty freek denying say like is,1 +lemme tell yall traditional czech recipe called chlebov pochoutka bread delicacy take piece bread put piece bread put another piece bread bon appetit,0 +friends im big dumb failureive lurked lot never posted pretty bad tonight though im going talk while ive always sad cant remember time fighting deepseated sadness even happy surface tried kill myself mom found took therapist gearing try express feeling drove desperate measures prepared let out started telling id tried kill myself laughed face asked world would want that really fucked up going open id ever anyone saying really fucking difficult things acted like big joke really fucking difficult time talking people trusting now trigger that certainly help im college im pretty shy many friends im weirdly jealous have hate myself thats somebody want be shynesswithdrawal people become worse lately grandpa died one best friends fucked cant handle idea seeing anyone anything wonder im lonely friends throughout theres thoughts head like could always kill yourself cant get rid thoughts know im trying say here want friend want feel like dying seconds think anyones online thanks letting talk anyway,1 +cheese sandwich fo tea hell ye,0 +watched film shire joybr br this possibly one best films time timeless value get much amazing parts moving funny greatbr br all aspect spot on portrayal story perfect every detail genuine even small irish subtleties coveredbr br the use low high shots gives two great views cristy look thatbr br daniel daylewiss performance incredible ive never seen actor that ever really amazingbr br and great watch flows well probably closest thing yo get real life experience love itbr br if seen it see it doubts it something all,0 +making excuses every dayit seems reddit everything huh im recent college graduate got sit home watch generic congrats class posts roll thinking nothing but if graduated time wouldve actual ceremony even home matter fact moment im sitting motel mom brother unemployed miserable younger sister kicked mom yet whole job drivers license im shit aside problems seizures nothing stopping getting job im applying every day every job shut down one opportunity postgraduation immediately something bachelors theatre thrown window immediately every time open mouth someone good news this possible opportunity that shit gets shut matter days due one thing another friends guys occasionally sleep me everyone time wander phones cant respond texts maybe im cool hip enough get it im always alone one talk to complaining one platform ive negative thoughts incel stuff along occasional ignorant completely left field rude comments subreddits part of best friend left even graduated literally dropping freshmen married span year half something obviously wrong me people come contact know im pleasant yet one wants invite anywhere stopped using snapchat every friend group a part of kept getting together without me want shit me encourages antisocialism before yet im looked person reaching out want die simple that cry often often want take easy way out gun head knowing shitty luck id manage survive one thing keeps going getting shot running traffic family thats excuse even though everyones mess still need depend other want grieve that wouldve gone long even graduated intended date otherwise one outside family would bat fucking eyelid maybe oh chick tits yeah funny im sick life,1 +lost much have time people personalities fucking livesi want more redflag depression robbed another relationship,1 +want disappointment anymorei keep falling back suicidal thoughts used month twice week reason im still dissapoint people care im grateful care sometimes wish disappoint killed myself im afraid depression drive people away like usually do type feelings,1 +mandatory song suggestions anyone give song ill reply one like im anything metal country,0 +app needs taken needs addressed game app store carbon copy fleeing complex henry stickmin please download leave bad review needs taken heres link leave review httpsappsapplecomusapptheprisonescapeofstickmanid,0 +feeling like crap tonighthi sw im feeling personal low since period year usually hit low depression around time year usually manageable time deep winter think lack sunlight gets me anyway argument parents thats something always brings out typically never fight maybe year every eighteen months stay trouble good college well got fight went room cool off say anything stupid room reverted one worst states using energy keep redflag mind even im typing this realize many issues have im afraid ive never able admit ive never able talk anonymously guess need counselling least use marijuana irregularly one helpful things ive ever used helping fight depression reason know get better way drugs help ive got able reach place without them know how advice feel like im wits end here want end trying kill like used to much know want live im right now feel like littlest thing could put edge thoughts comments would helpful thank advance taking time post,1 +married two young children feel completely aloneim overwhelmed suicidal ideation tonight son threatened get knife stab today im kid im joking way got car drove hours tonight got home went ou bedroom husband came an barely one word laid went sleep really really want go garage get car start it sleep forever,1 +want kill tonight dont know definitely want toi feel terrible extremely anxious right now things take hour take whole day im running time important deadlines yet barely make things know important apply colleges whats point know ill rejected anyway im exhausted used miss younger didnt feel like whenever think back point life get bad feeling feel disgusted dont like fact struggle get along others proves people feel too reaching long term goal unlikely finally got confirmation today wont happen pretty much one friend feel like im huge burden hold back go college might upset week two long run itll better,1 +think im readyi guess ill start drinking deal pain aspect much shorter would thought less poetic too,1 +hey girl u gift wrapping cos wanna tie ribbon around u,0 +want balls kill myself hate came out fucking scared live lifei tried many times fucking cant take it im sick tired remembering fucking bullshit life done pussy everything im tired all much potential relationships many people wasted never got balls ask girl bullshit anxiety suffer through fucking hate all hate treated child one gave hope struggling suicidal thoughts since age thats fucking normal hate stupid fucking life everything tried kill age l still pussy out im fucking waste human space hate it hate living nothing gets fucking better remembering emotional loneliness since child cant even feel anymore emotions sucked away cant handle shit negative thoughts positive stupid fucking people profiling shit stupid closed minded teachers profiling rebellious gangbanger since age fucking bullshit hate shit cant fucking it want die hate even thought alive wish aborted wish never thought of live greatest gift fucking call bullshit happens strip kids confidence u get miserable fucks like wishing dead one days im going fucking it overdose blast brains something hate fucking living someone please fucking kill something,1 +anyone finds film boring hopeless bonehead stick car chase movies romantic comedies film riveting boring moment why comprised largely intelligent dialogue real people moment crisis details efforts survive crisis repeatintelligent dialogue characterizes nearly rohmers films lot people like them prefer action fine let spend rest lives watching action films us taste discrimination continue seek films like thisbr br rohmer always accused talky well is thats compliment criticism shakespeare talky too talkier play hamlet whenever subject theme work art consists ideas conflicts values must necessity discussion ideas values largely film about aristocracy noble birth vs egalitarianism loyalty old friends put ultimate test friend takes believe wrong path value human life responsibility help save life even person possessing life nice even despicable anyone ever hear dostoyevsky crime punishment film aboutbr br the two leads film impeccable born play roles lucy russell english speaks french second language especially brilliant favor see riveting film may last film screen master,0 +know ur hopeless even pedos dm like honestly sexting pedo probably closest get sex come fuck on even unattainable me ones dm always ghost couple hours,0 +please help remember actress okay girlfriend talking mentions singer lorde lorde crossed mind look picture her sudden get flashback remember someone looks like lorde mental picture woman head clue either tv movie has black hair potentially dyed bangs big eyes dark lipstick black lipstick in image head pale skin dressed black young woman,0 +statistically supposed dead sometime last years chf day nothing changed lifei look patient admittance band httpimgurcomszrnqid think self that happy im still alive infact not since ive known despair sadness ive learned people leave instead want stay people never love way love them fighting light end tunnel fighting littlest glimpse hope exhausting last night smiling thinking bottle jamo golddot hollowpoints ive kept pillow first genuine smile ive years effortless move muscles face create smile throw people off theres nothing behind it notice smiling involuntarily truly comes heart im tired tired ive wanted sleep like while might today might tomorrow hell might months now honestly felt like getting out maybe get deleted really care,1 +contains spoilersbr br i saw advert videothen sister discovered book read iti rented video day finished booki thought memorable book cast brillianttara fitzgerald excellent helen rupert graves hateful arthurthe costumesmusic settings stunningly beautifulbr br warningdont read havent watched thisbr br on downside sex scenes added violencethis video rated things thrown inafter first parti felt accuracy went downhill book better thisi glad seen would reccomend people read bookare fans bronte like costume dramasi as long fastforward sex scenes book rather underatedanne brontes books dont seem widely read well known jane erye wuthering heights made television film several times another thingwhen read book i surprised much religion ther itbut axed outbr br ,0 +problems homehi yo kid moved germany years agoive living mombrother dad sometimeshe still visa anyways moved liked since beginning summer started feel depressioni miss friendsmy familyand everything leave behindbut hard depression theni feeling sad etcbut since beginning yearmy mom started call failurea losermany animal namesand hits alot timesi used cry alot would let memy dad us currently hell come soonbut started suicidal thought became violent aggressivewhen hits sometimes hit backshe tells kill threatens shell call police even tho hits metoday said something made really angry broke picture houseshe saw started beat shit mei said thst broke asked leave alone want toso grabbed tried calmly take sithout hurting anyoneanyways left room started talk shit thats irrelevantshe changed subject suddeni sat right next door dad called answerhe said mom hell call police thst want kid like housei said leave alone already want tomy dad phone talking momanyways let room sat next started call alot namesshe said thst girl wants failure thst want learned cry didnti told leave room want kept goingtalking shiti accidentally broke mirror next door thought killing didntits couple hours since incident think im starting get mentally illi get angry easily get violenti break things also care live die think eidadhdanxiety depressionanyways thats story,1 +delightful disney film angela lansbury fine form middle age spinster whose interest turns witchcraft world war englandbr br lansbury age time film ideal part jessica fletcher time benefit children mother england time great perilbr br the film follows adventures miss price lansbury david tomlinson professor witchcraft trying obtain certain information sorcery little darlings sent live price escape london bombings wonderful enchanting film us regardless agebr br too bad tessie oshea roddy mcdowall sam jaffe given little endearing filmbr br i really thought ben stiller filmnight museum end film relics come life battle nazi invasion small british coastal town,0 +im struggling suicidal thoughts awhile now cant anymore im sick people telling gonna alright timeim still teenager im already done fuck this im sick waking everyday go shitty minimum wage job dont confidence determination make something myself ive ghosted friends theyre better without me dad died years ago mum hates me one unfair dad lost life deserved live it s wish instead loved good person deserved live cant stand myself im burden mum shes disappointed turned doesnt understand bad mental health tells hang on for whats fucking point anything do,1 +im confused girl talking became valentines weve taking hugging cuddling see next hang today due parents fighting talking kissing asked shed girlfriend said ready im wondering something maybe ready,0 +well todays dayive today picked awhile mixture emotions plan tonight still go buy gun im freaking lazy im worried motivated enough go get it gun place opens early closes early able get sleep want go get it would easier thursday work want ask borrow elses gun everyone knows id want it im sleepy wanted tell guys today last day im going play destiny go bed pretty bad actually small amount power live longer want play destiny,1 +cant think titlemale job go school social life making one day time know see therapist dont know need something change cant also want know easiest way out know tell me know probably it long keep going posting going change anything still anyway tell care me dont care idea stopping someone thats here know think help there,1 +finally bought ropeevery time finally grew pair id finally hang myself extra step going walmart getting rope first usually extra step generated enough time someone would stop me someone would show care enough stop me last night happen reach sack again skip step hopefully ill die anyone tries stop me,1 +unadd her like snap streak girl met tinder gonna meet college im moving next week talked sex played mc together etc broke streak left delivered week unadd her,0 +tv viewers lost interest space interested anything set space finally played mass effect friend recommended me found shows like babylon farscape firefly battlestar galactica influenced mass effect space sci fi popular s early s dominant pop culture tv things s game thrones zombies superheroes become harder imagine humanity future,0 +reveal biggest spot forehead looks like ruh,0 +interested see movie first came theaters however able get around it so finally hit shelves picked up knowing exactly expect plopped dvd player settled evening murder pressed play followed one engaging flicks ive seen last couple yearsbr br some spoilersbr br this story wonderland murders led seediest parts la straight biggest porn start s john holmes val kilmerbr br i hooked beginning feel movie held way bloody end surprised find movie focused less actual murders events investigation after aside blood splattered walls beginning actual showing murders towards end movie less engaging show great dialoge great acting val kilmer sells junkie porn star even beautiful thats it bosworth joy watch and looks mind youbr br i personally felt best aspect movie was mentioned lack outright showing murders shown dark atmosphere completely see brutal bludgeoning bestowed apon sleeping foursome furthermore sound effects said murders enough whet appetite beating lead pipes theres much needs saidbr br my real problem carrie fishers brief appearence portrayal overlyreligious figure was think bit cliche appearence maybe person actually part story maybe not sold reason fisher seemed bit akward portrayalbr br overall excellent movie worth watch even oncebr br ,0 +sorry posting topspin wii tennis ball post often reddit glitched up forced wait post tell posting repeatedly im swarmed many people like angry something understand side story know,0 +id like someone talk toim verge taking life im planning tomorrow hoping talk see somebody help figure better solution life currently,1 +mom brother make want kill myselfso brother younger me yells mom something like mom yells im least favorite feel like care me ive tried kill multiple times something always stopped it need help im shy afraid talk anyone it btw dad grandmas people make want kill myself,1 +frustrated inability anythingselfimprovements key word self you dear reader provide advise read x y try z success stories told say xyz why exercised changed diet cbt whatever never able it right now would like become vegan read radical acceptance brach take walk every day would like start super small too walk maybe put shoes on nothing else needs done cannot even consistently theres mental block something whats worse stuck level planning nowadays cannot even sit make basic plan y try change internal monologue refuse change think aspects goes reality example i anything want no cannot anything somewhat privileged still worker capitalist economy able to though none works cannot just do it cannot magically develop drive willpower whatever people have even pressure nothing happens part feels like free must different everyone accept compatibilism thing total free will think different levels free per individual maybe really lazy weak thing worked years recent development wanted try intermediate fasting nothing worked decided feel like it days able wait dinner eat others eat day surprisingly worked lost pounds plans regime smart goals feel like which exact opposite advice given years able expand anywhere else know do sure coming unhealthy obsessive crap cannot not feed it always think dying killing never want doing fact that life catch screw over,1 +want disappeari want disappear one remember me dont want death interfere anyones lives dont know would first place im giving friend responds respond im still feeling like absolute shit im taking pills hoping one cares,1 +people ruining fitness methey say stuff like eating healthy working expand lifespan years geez wanted,1 +gttfw caring loving gf really get idea someone loving unconditionally except parents someones first priority never loved girl never loved girl,0 +dog thing thats keeping alive wont know ive gone lefttired living im year old female living asian country im honestly sure im depressed ive never diagnosed especially asian country depression basically taboo family doesnt want anything get diagnosed basically feel like parents dont love all love elder brother hes smarter me theyve always compared always feel inadequate help around house laundry cook clean im lazy slob cry sleep almost every night im tired living sometimes feel like want commit redflag feel life isnt going anywhere im mother always says age shes already graduated university job ive started university keeps saying im slow stupid mention got tattoos parents found back dad slapped kicked punched strangled me tattoos says prostitutes get tattoos wanted kill day mother saw everything happening never stopped him dad beat brother would put physically me stood watched wanted call police said would breaking family right im tired also issues boyfriend ive posted another thread see youd like im tired living dont feel like anything ever going get better feel ill forever unloved ill die alone dont think anyone ever miss me thing thats keeping alive right dog wondering went tears inside dog passes away wouldnt anything live for anymore,1 +painhello high school senior here know phase depression feel way worse now longer suicidal thoughts every single day feel even useless like failure point hurts physically know fail forever alone im fucking pansy deserve live may young know ill still lurk years want end,1 +dont get it tf americans hating asians theyre fucking awesome culture food women especially smh ppl,0 +story told cranes flying not admittedly original young lovers separated war bad things happen both weve seen many times beforebr br nonetheless seen filmed well bold shots take liberties emphasize separation destruction hopelessness remarkable coming soviet union reason conclude tarkovsky last word modernera soviet cinemabr br i reading chekhovs three sisters day chanced upon may meaning title film act masha objects notion must live lives without meaning understandingbr br masha surely mankind must believe something least seek truth otherwise life emptiness emptiness live know cranes flying children born stars sky either must know live everything trivial mere pointless nonsensebr br likewise veronika hard time believing war others sufferings pointless better assign meaning live ones life significant give despair perhaps thinking prompts final act filmbr br btw minor correction one comment herethere may pattern vs film though noticed myself first letter veronikas name instance this cyrillic alphabet name begins letter looks like english b,0 +twitter annoying im talking people mean platform im batim fanartist bendy ink machine batim art community actually super nice earlier made mistake drew digital drawing tweeted it decided set profile picture noticed birthday option warning said change birthday times did locked account saying users older use platform im already almost id figured would still let use account no apparently twitters calculator broke wait mom get home unlock again,0 +trying breathe keep eyes swelling shutit time preparing magnificent son born july gave birth perfectly healthy boy completely love name liam james taylor everyone loved him planned wanted perfect was things tell mom reduce statistical likelihood sids even them even good kind soul loves god still wake middle night find son unresponsive days old hell giving newborn baby cpr getting anywhere course called help took away hospital sent waiting room prayed gave him let die thought god woke could help him let hold little body the police investigate shock agreed investigated course rhese things happen fault found every night awoke check baby evolutionary trait hard wired brain women give birth people complain post partum depression clothes fit life stressful responding many demands growing family postpartum depression baby strange awful try sad time try supress intense negative feelings try control grief sad often contemplate redflag husband often tells contemplates redflag people say im depreseed get bed think sounds luxurious im trying cry desk,1 +gf ruined entire life sent nudes muslim motheri feel horrible life shit grades extremely bad family fight time other friends girlfriend talked hours everyday got extremely jealous crazy sudden shamed everything did ruined life sending sexual chat history fetishisms nudes muslim mother placed lock down phone got taken away me wifi got taken away me im forced pray times day yells hour refuse life horrible using razors blades cut open foregead forearms im depressed suicidal yet lack power end myself please help me,1 +much respect ppl speak second even third languages like how fuck u it hard learn like wtf bad this u good wow,0 +im hassle really love care for shouldnt even say though im desperate someone say need around one though assault words daily im filled hate actual hatred think im going end killing myself thats is cant get help now im far gone matter time really im emotional wish like guys manly hate emotions feel weak cry easily get emotional sometimes think sort disease things dream never become reality ive wanted one simple thing long time now ill never able get it,1 +im tiredevery day wake go exact bullshit every fucking day two years ive felt like two years gotten better doubt ever will everyone says gets better im still waiting please cant wait anymore every day wake wait something faintest shimmer water endless desert yet cant trust myself maybe mirage heat exhaustion im tired chasing endless mirages hope understand believe eyes point latest body water dying thirst too see eyes im tired im tired say theres helicopter coming it ive waited long ive struggled long think coming im ready bury sand suffocate thirst raw agony wait wait die best glimmer water mirage please let sleep,1 +west virginia coal opioids worst fallout game oh joe msnchin cant forget correct im wrong think thats state,0 +map movement scary ive seeing increasing number map minor attracted person posts frankly scary recounting story shared anyone guess random people reddit way go m holiday swimming around beach pretty good swimmer i loved swimming went quite deep in way could touch ground feet swimming around large man foot comes near his feet touching ground puts arms around me innocent thinking hes help get shore would safer said said something like im fine thank you swim back myself need carried day still remember said youre cute let feel blue shorts know like it it something similar froze know why anything scared self let get literally millimeter groin im guessing adrenaline kicked pushed swam deeper end looking back swam around seconds realised im extremely deep waters look back man gone thank heavens body functioning make way back while lifeguard swimming toward way back go beach pool next months always slightly reluctant get back pool lost fun sport really enjoyed point is seeing map movement grow scary im avid supporter love sharing love regardless race gender even age but minors whose minds fully developed emotionally physically put situation forces innocence them depriving chance learn mistakes grow tldr map tried feel me vacation beach ruined enjoyment swimming rude awakening freeze victim harassment age ,0 +think might omitted psych wardim going talk new psychologist end february dont want tell truth think put psych ward want die that think february nd deadline,1 +depression incurable depression incurable,1 +many friends have post title asks many friends have much think good amount,0 +online schooling best video conferences place teachers drop exercises today one task return next month usually percent school day things school also ridiculously easy barely tests homework all shut up,0 +thim upset dont know calm want puke dont feel good want sort way try make things stop second guess dont really know understand dont know dont know whats wrong think tomorrow hard dont really think thats im upset dont know know cant die tonight want really bad tomorrow hard holidays always hard one person life besides celebrates thats mom reason fourth one ive typically remember spending throughout life guess maybe rest family religious holidays taught bad growing fascinated light show loved way blast made chest echo like trance got share special moment mom ever since remarried th grade stopped almost everythinganything together like going parks hiking singing car tradition discover best coolest last minute spot find showever since holidays us especially fourth special not politics america us think really really hard kinda devastating mom unhappy marriage stays pretty much pain ive put growing dad demonizing divorce afraid go hasent doesnt job ever since born cant support sister own feel hear see strain tension every year hard brings lot emotional things lived thats worst almost got divorce guilt everything ive put mom honestly dont think thats reason im struggling right something put words also bothers something get guess im sorry vent long post dont think anything serious tonight dont want make things even worse mom im barely able survive time know things would lot better everyone never alive first place,1 +anyone else feel wayi want escape negative emotions want pursue positive emotions happiest life imagine life all really goal however subconsciously know could reach goal stage life attached things loveenjoy much connection real world sabotage myself destroy potential remove personality dream becoming heroin addict overdosing deep down know things free attachment feel alive choice passively let things happen die brave take responsibility life,1 +i too loved series kid family always watched show favorite character one played marion lorne rather stuttering bumbling lovable aunt type person still recall ubba bubba um um type comments would try say something important came back played aunt clara bewitched great casting br br it first time remember seeing walter matthau whose career followed fan many many yearsbr br i question anyone verify title end credits music swedish rhapsody hugo alfven every time hear played classical radio station southern california brings back memories image mr peepers walking away back camera im even certain image minds eye correct,0 +im pregnant going do freakin idea panicccc,0 +this hopeless,1 +hey guy movies everything choices times life must pick something pass away movie prove that course life fact like beautiful picture movie shows shows indeed may figure that im trying say full pain love deep lessons live aaron mormon missionary real shepherd digging thing beautiful deep inside chisthian skin feeling guybr br its great end always believe fate surprise turn live like latter daysbr br big deal watch it,0 +last nightupdate thanks guys ill reply comments soon told boyfriend woke cuddled long story short better morning planning jumping bridge today really appreciate subreddit mods here helps know somebody listening im planning ending tomorrow sure fully im going go yet thinking jumping bridge water cold time year would fast id tonight im boyfriends house hes asleep cant lock house behind me id take key hes taking shift work tomorrow know hell need key lock behind him fair me also refuse leave body find house im going suck end now mean hed think im asleep right hes already upset sleeping much fault energy levels fucked hell part nature depression start new meds maybe something it maybe im lazy bastard knows really maybe id stay awake id see something keep alive honestly know feel empty hollow want go now cant bring wake him cant tell need him need bad need feel wish wanted wish depression hard wish fucked up wish brain would stop tried one crisis chat centres work gave hotline call problem is bad social anxiety cant talk phone without stuttering making incomprehensible cant exactly phone know say anymore even know im posting this guess say final goodbyes something boyfriend get this resources least work time get family around love you cant deal brain longer im sorry ill breaking promise call weak liar whatever helps get mad me go right ahead need do know will brother sisterinlaw im sorry im sorry sorry reach guys want burden guys anymore already have psychs able help get it least jl young remember understand im sorry nieces nephews ending it get by great lives im proud all love guys im sorry rest family love guys cant go on,1 +im gonna get gn sleep great noose sleep really,0 +need encouragement help please,1 +moment fake threatening redflag rteenagers get sweet reddit karma also get tons awards epic awesome rteenagers moment,0 +hey girl u cup coffee cos u make feel better every morning,0 +puppy dying ii know say ive raised special needs puppy day born weekend took turn worse vet today sent emergency veterinary college state took three hours lot false promises said accepting would thousands dollars told morning ive sold camper took loan car put downpayment surgery want even tomorrow treat her release balance even could get gas drive three hours back college cant even end depression social anxiety made shit life social media nobody small circle help gofundme tried desperation gone nowhere cant get word out im money food hope world two years ago lost person dearest redflag teetering line deciding follow now hope tether world brief time beside worthless powerless save her im broke ridiculous piece shit dead end shit job alone lonely ive dealt enough failing someone dear dependent greatly probably losing great beyond last straw theres hope kindness charity warmess world cold unfeeling money grubbing kill her ive lost everyone time ill join love sweet eternal silence leave dirty greedy world behind sometimes okay sometimes decision have good luck fellow travelers,1 +definitely kill myselfi lied brothers face today said finally goal lose weight truth going kill fall year already made mind decided redflag best option right now losing weight nothing make feel better ive already dieted lost pounds past still suicidal depressed loser pounds lighter ended gaining weight back plus pounds today first time worked years hopefully years ive finally stopped keeping shitty facade ill long dead then theres reason want stay alive hope nothing life except successful redflag,1 +whathow much take banned rteenagers im aware someone got banned continuously sending gt better cum sink sink cum im wonderingwhat tactics get banned,0 +one step thisi currently sitting forest away town live rope inside bag ive found quiet place birds singing peaceful here ive written redflag notes family friends one thing bothers me text mother tell feel depression suicidal thoughts hard do im afraid reaction maybe go ultra mad break even more hand left lose ive told people depression didnt cared enough ill make right promise mom discuss home guarantees care maybe think im whiny idiot life hard yada yada thing is im sure want die dont continue meaningless existence complicated conflict happening right head sorry grammar,1 +yeah im pretty boredso fresh highschool cant help feel like ill probably never good time here really feel like ever job certainly interests seems like ill grow old die internal struggle vain like seem reward anything im certainly counting afterlife see anyone actually cares anything indifference led family resent me im pretty tired letting everyone down really feel like going college either point think kill myself born sure kind trap guys sometimes cry lot for reason think may aspergers kind robotic disorder,1 +feel hopelesshonestly want talk people open irl keep hidden im completely falling apart enjoy many things used to always look forward sleep get away everything hate alone especially thoughts honestly feels like world crashing even though actively want die im kind point wish did think every day think would like feel everything feel daily basis would feel like forced memories life better constantly reminding never going same never going get better feels like im even anymore know fix this,1 +attending army getting suicidalalright mandatory enlisting attendance army turn duration attendance months problem is cant handle anymore month get treated like shit even follow orders get dissed by different people asked medical care doctor check feet walking hurts lot days nothingi back home days tendons ankles gotten swollen barely walk getting suicidal desperate dont know long keep together parents wont allow quitting social stigma however leave here mandatory army way applied unconstitutional regulations un eu right un eu well country object due personal beliefs also battalioncompanywhatever way tougher rest country come second special forces only matter hard try get shitted people us object attending want kill person wish hold gun can kill person live without humility let go become part machine keep killing people lose touch friends family girlfriend person deserve get treated such become a man man want be matter much hatred people towards races such nothing pay country made feel like unwanted person cant keep sanity anymore none understands it complications attending these allowed work public sector allowed get drivers license country allowed vote social stigma want get degree university leave country dont plan coming again ever tldr parents unwilling sign stop attending mandatory army getting suicidal desperate,1 +monkees surprisingly big favorite mine yes might original manufactured rock band gimmick certainly reached overkill st century however music holds best s offer last train clarksville daydream believer im believer im not stepping stone valleri pleasant valley sunday great songs written good songwriters boycehart neil diamond goffenking john stewart great musicians songwriters likable screen presence plenty appeal stuff actually decent tv show dated stuff still watch show occasion time capsule life magical dangerous time us historybr br however know portent things come likes kelly clarkson monkees want considered manufactured puppets recording company despite average talents wanted write songs produce albums call shots came tours sadly turned disaster especially peter torks choice jimi hendrix opening act nixed due stealing show heavy sexual suggestions music compared monkees grated contentbr br however final nail coffin monkees until infamous motion picture head head written bob rafelson jack nicholson allegedly high maryjane film received poor reviews made box office today film cult classic ahead time delivers message minds youth summer angerbr br head really plot basically one four monkees lurch scene scene without rhyme reason go eating diner seeing davy jones getting bashed sonny liston western sucked vacuum performing concert forth film basically offers oblique opinions wrong american society monkees bash commercialism war vietnam american policy censorship establishment greed read lines see targets derision werebr br the monkees spend lot time boxed certain junctions film symbolizing felt record company saw them nothing toys play time record another hit album scene outnumbered western scene could symbol session musicians songwriters record producers whatnot controlled careers cannon fire way saying begonebr br the film truly psychedelic trip behold flashy tiedye colors hypnotic concert belly dancing scenes druggy imagery everywhere acting actually good thats biased like monkees tv show small soundtrack features the porpoise song three songs written monkees themselvesbr br the film actually hilarious scenes occasion although maybe supposed be mickey dolenz beating coke machine give soda violent punchups boxing scene i mean wiry guy probably weighed laughing upbr br all all movie absolute mustsee monkees fan think lot people feel movie indeed over head obsessed s society time find great time capsule,0 +meryl streep may greatest actor working today chameleonic portrayals never fail astonish seems actually characters brings screen one true thing gives life deceptively straightforward profoundly complex woman best play hand life dealt her surviving cancer easy task surviving actually continuing live ones life even harderand precisely kate gulden streep means do renee zellweger jerry maguire holds exalted company shines streeps daughter learns see new light parents lives well own streep powerhouse deservedly received oscar nomination work here im going say once dialogue zellweger leave devastated zellweger though real revelationher face conveys every emotion every conflict begins learn many truths parents strengths weaknesses director carl franklin devil blue dress handles extremely difficult story material sureness delicacy,0 +like yeah know sad kms making feel guilty giving live tired everyone telling think family friends i almost lol makes feel worse actually makes feel like bad person day sibling told selfish commit suicide family loves me honestly made feel terrible want sad want disappear wish born first place tired think family,1 +yesterday taught tie noosethats all sobbed couldnt work it know feel calmer control future,1 +brief fling girl hallwe met day later ran dining center next day mostly naked bed gonna first date evening interestedshe hit i cant im devastated since sorta prepared it im still little sad it,0 +would perfect time itim graduating college couple weeks finally saw big finale marvel movies ive watching past years ill seeing mom next couple weeks which could last time everything ive look forward life coming end feel like would perfect time finally end life high note ill succeeded done everything wanted to instead venturing terrifying unknown could call quits peace out probably anything wanted get there feel like everything ive wanted accomplish life basically done ill probably never good chance end life terms time really feel content,1 +super knuckle kaknuckle belt buckle banana truffle head ass roasted head toe left tight basically dead,0 +im trying get help workfor past however long remember depressed ignored think might something end soon,1 +ayo im bored slide let know slide in im super bored ideas dip dick lmaoo,0 +so mlive alone foreign country past yearsfamily girlfriend back home seen since christmas thanks rona life pretty much broken record stuck repeat wake up go work get home eatplay gamesread go sleep every time try something new get bored couple hoursday shitton unfinished stuff properly taken care apartment weeks cleaning gets indecent started smoking occasionally quitting couple years backliterally thing keeping going couple weeks every months get se family gf past year destructive mental health know see therapist cannot bring it lack interest stuff extends welli probably sleep its am get hours so comment ill try ti reply morning nice dayeveningnight rant bit,1 +commentors redflagwatch carei speak anyone else myself care us hell honestly care makes want try help us im pathetic stranger internet like lives anyones matter affected buried bullet brain right now,1 +yet yet find someone whos come within hours listening time spotify dont faith,0 +pee stored balls shit stored ass checks fact cant deny sit fuck,0 +husband suicidal im barely finishing treatment wont bei knew needed help bad went first keatmine threapy always acted like worse better keeping in im even feet yet feels like im getting bombarded everything trying knock working feel isolated alone scared many new emotions flooding back already struggling everything getting worse new type worse im alone fucked mind stuck repeat,1 +cheesy movie line really needed ok got around watching fantastic beasts amd find them yesterday used potterhead want watch thought bookwhich script boring lot better expected actually week rough mentally nice point it anyways one line stuck me my philosophy worrying means suffer twice someone worries heck ton ive heard likes maybe hundred times idea time hit different god cheesy really needed that thanks jk rowling,0 +teachers said you cant escape maths even though use pythagoras theorem daily lives right cant escape maths laughs engineering expect landing ,0 +know right place need helpokay probably told break ill feel better wont girlfriend normally sweet loving caring sometimes gets terrible ever happens night were texting gets mad and tells im worthless tells im stupid tells lies truths get mte down day afterwords always realizes terrible being like different state mind says desperately needs attention always pay attention happens recently like this worse time finally told needed talk someone here comes relevance makes suicidly depressed everytime it said no said act like nothing happened asked sad lied said no knew lying said yes would gone me feel like rape victim know do theres better subreddit question please direct there needs come stop started tying noose time told break effect,1 +found combo steve minecraft forgot save vault smash bros im sad cause pro player prob gonna find replicate lmao,0 +confident instead saying swear god say swear me compare god shows respect towards religion good makes subconsciously think better,0 +idk must do living dying easyso ive suffering toxic household effects sudden fall grades social anxiety feeling bad myself extremely low selfesteem considering redflag option year now sometimes get depressed start hurting myself now think death could solve problems honestly parents care dead somehow survive suffer entire life now lot research first attempt hanging retreated later read lot articles paralysis due suicidal hanging right confusedwhether must live die one even cry vent out hug pillow tightly move corner bed cry shit out feel ashamed myself want die nothing else ready accept tolerate pain want survive attempt,1 +new subreddit hey there really expecting hey got new subreddit rrandomcaptions interested subreddit well pictures random captions ive looking subreddit pictures captions fit find any created one come check brand new might like,0 +main character internet checkpoint tell us story,0 +help mei depressed point selfharm suicidal thoughts friends family job life dont want live anymore hurts much see everyone else happy get angry world happy studying biology uow staying weerona campus told people depressed didnt care dont want monster,1 +s man usaf veteran concinsidering ultimate flightsup guys shoes know swallow pills theres chance feel awesome first minutes drugged tired next half hour so lose consciousness hours never regain consciousness ability no noose mess nothing family discovery boondocks phone send auto text someone dead come get remains take care according whatever rites family wants,1 +even words braindead zombie it tired demoralized explain further like years day mental hell depression destroyed mind personally,1 +i age struggling redflag depressionsymptoms year now finally decided get help doctor referred psychiatrist at request seeing tomorrow getting nervous anxious already crying feel really weird getting help felt worse since made decision seek help anyway whenever talk redflag symptoms depression cry one understand me know second mentioned tomorrow ill start crying tips cry whenever talking mental health going psychiatrist tomorrow tips,1 +girl asked depresseda girl class know well im sure all randomly asked depressed taken back question said no anyone could tell hesitation was gonna shock hears death huh,1 +reddit sub recommendations like hey ive seen active teenagers must mean active mylittlepony oh accidentally tapped sub bad active were going recommend totally relevant subreddit beans like it means hate memes heres memes you since seen one post politics front page were going give good sub politics amongus enjoy,0 +say like something wrong you plus jessica kinds hot reason may like set future seattle gone hell like cause future show could well happen,0 +walls vibrating please help me please,0 +tie noosethat moment watching youtube video tie noose,1 +gravity falls g forgot good gravity falls watched kid thought good finished rewatching omg soooo much better remember top characters dipper stanly stanford soos mabel,0 +need restartim years old ive alot since little kid abuse rejection depression used hate always thought redflag reached wanted restart stopped negative always said going better it never tho always positive thought someday leave country go live somewhere refresh day fight family time get bullied school say fade away im certain wont cant leave able to cost alot money fastest way get money keep studying cost least years life finishing college getting job collecting money ill need leave knowing that im longer positive fact depressed desperate making worse ive sexually confused knowing really am since never went date self reason redflag since im arabic country lgbt taboo im solutions im fully aware get better im longer thinking way leave since reach instead im thinking way end,1 +br br having read unemployed critics review went screening radio knowing expect thankfully unemployed critic appears anyway frustrated film directormovie critic review callous totally uncalled forbr br this movie make laugh make cry end give moment pausebr br to paraphrase line delivered actor ed harris final barbershop scene and time thought teaching radio truth ishe teaching us treats us time like wish treated other timebr br yes movie tugs heartstrings yes emotionally manipulative yes cuba gooding jr in oscar worthy performance little top times see christmas day dance scene know what what every awhile community america needs reminded tolerance great country need reminded great bebr br this solid cast particularly pleased see s epatha merkerson portraying radios mother something outside law order always wondered ms merkerson great actor quality writing delivered buy strong cast law order watching movie easy see indeed fine actorbr br also joining cast small important powerful roles alfre woodard principal debra winger careerresurrecting role coach joness wife chris mulkey protagonist frank claybr br we cannot look ed harriss performance coach harold jones reflecting movie grown deep south self hard truly appreciate mr harris contribution film coach jones ed delivers quiet rock solid performance man mission coach harris let town circumstances divert knows heart right thing dobr br if see movie make sure hang around end credits treat real james robert radio kennedy mid s shown still leading tl hanna football team field every friday nightbr br one final note teen mid late s movie worth price admission sound track alone,0 +tryed something end iti mixed feelings right now guess next time ill try something else someone end reading this make sure go it cause ive got cuts armslegs got deal that,1 +titling seems stupidhullo sw understand people post suicidal psychological reasons anyone ever posted philosophical merits redflag though cant think single compelling reason continue living maybe spare know additional suffering although honest really matter much more hand cant really say ive found single compelling reason to commit redflag either reason keep living cant seem quell apathy long enough actually act guess im 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oblivion say it reddit stop big hero one favourite movies growing up one wholesome movies ever watched loved plot characters used rewatch every single month would take back pure clean childhood guys must aware trending meme template aunt casss rack stupid idiot need make it heshe need spoil movie me reddit turn wholesome movie porno there posts youtube videos making porn vids movies characters videos horrendous stuff them u need reddit pornstars thousands them go show horny them go jack pornstars u need ruin one best childhood memories no horny no aunt cass sexually attractive no cant take joke no care karma coz wanted rant yeah guy made edit big fuck side,0 +people weird like friend like oh yeah cool everyone else likeoh shes trash like wtf,0 +im happy stable life right now things go south elaborate plan place deathive lucky life far went abused years child attending top research university full scholarship published research interned top companies started college young name it unfortunately ive always dealt anxiety diagnosed ocd comorbid anxiety mom caught act eating disorder rituals got help last summer despite things going pretty well developed pretty bad depression hospitalized started going weekly therapy taking medication okay awhile back heres thing need maintain certain gpa full ride scholarship im trouble ive always okay student mind working anymore cant function want blame depression many losers use copout want loser am pretty wide margin achieve grades keep scholarship dont well like afford finish degree want work fast food janitor rest life even car im going kill myself believe me really want come this does right combination pills things help go easy im pretty well educated things due field study good terms pain speed clean feel bad family know matter what would let down really matter live die anyway wanted talk this know fucked up im fucked up know am despite that ive achieved lot far comes academics cant im good student im good scientist stupid fucking brain let scientist go sleep,1 +cant even righti feel physically sick now turn person going rent from need place alone commit redflag in redflag dates coming soon find place live place die ending fast slow time fast ill never see anyone love againif theres afterlife hope slow cant deal paini want dead now,1 +death starvationmade earlier thread probably monday lived long sleep due hunger pangs knocking out ill probably get banned heres paypal case anyones able donate bread milk paypalmediafuckinbetes,1 +life bitch mei cant happy ever im tired living life thats bad me,1 +anyone around talk would appreciate iti cant get ahold friends ive got ex wont say word even though knows im suicidal point continuing on cant anything right ill never meet another girl like think shoot feels like best option right now cant think college work cant eat cant sleep cant meet people online hope someone calls reaches one feel like bullet seriously best option ive thought jumping drowning poisoning death train hanging blowing brains seems like best option,1 +feel extremely unwanted lonelyi many friends around genuinely feel absolutely impact lives isnt fault guess mine person cant fully understand people genuinely care im person get bored of feel unwanted life dont feel anyone open without feeling like burden,1 +im tired dependent dadim f live dad work job merchandising company got me hate job offers challenge reward cant accepted people got situation first place worthless degree gets laugh whenever tell people it stupid im feeling consequences spend several hours library looking solutions every night cry sleep wanting die sexistcontrol thing everything wrong life entirely fault im burden dad every night hold bottle pills wanting end it hed relieved deal anymore,1 +almost therenear end school thinking gonna kill mind became calm strangely enough horrible thoughts started think today im gonna im gonna take pills lay couch never get everyone think taking nap closest ive gotten felt guilty speak friend since feel like ive bothered enough dont want make feel guilty theres enough pills,1 +end alreadyhonestly see light future see happiness see hope feel im living they time living all im physically alive mentally im already dead im pretty useless far skills go im disappointment im lonely dont see bright side dont see anything going me ones going love me ones going care me dont know whats holding back dying already everyday makes want die even more anything worth it worth keep living world nothing offer nothing offer it worth living hope left you stupid thinking maybe one day things get better day isnt coming all didnt choose alive live world dont think least able leave world choosing didnt choose feel way maybe choose end suffering,1 +feel like problems made myselffor last two years hard feel even slightest bit happiness know many different ways get help ive already gotten therapist feel weird believe problems fake people think sad attention idk anymore cant help think much easier everything would just it stress worrys shit bothered continues bother dead finally wont feel emotion ill able completely empty afterlife even though think pros dying cant help know parents would devastated gone fuck way go problems wtf even anymore,1 +hate phone dies instead dont know much time passed feels like forever nothing ever feels like home standing alone head,0 +totally different loads understatement black comedy film get see remember it movie creates universe fascinating every way about estrangement believe probably viewer found movie tries say something coldness emptiness behind designer furniture perfect facades know im right movie really got me see it really hope team behind movie makes movies continue own kinda weird style forgot casting superb trond fausa aurvg perfect role bothersome man understand is why acknowledgment understanding purpose life in city makes bothersome others told pretend happy movie good humorous comment life ,0 +alone sbdy well ever look crushs photo smiling genuinely happy imagine photo taken exact moment person smiling pleasant warm feeling comes stomach always followed hardtoswallow truth knowing really care makes happy imagination,0 +feel constant suicidal urges way look try try appearance im still ugly im tired itdont even know im making account posting literally one gives shit,1 +im going tell gp suicidal thoughts therapist yetsuicidal thoughts plans getting intense know medication could kill me ive trying plot without painful gross death most pill overdoses let go painlessly sleep no horrifying lonely terrible way go ive decided want peaceful dignified death loved ones maybe hospital medication give take away pain panic ive hell lot life part get suicidal sometimes honestly thats also deserve peaceful death ive suffered enough mean cant guarantee die heart attack something get drift chances ideal death increase redflag im going tell gp see wednesday ill tell ive thoughts drifting severity planning certain like off psych ward you since psych ward mainly exists point im going kill right now im there know could thats good step right suicidal thoughts medically relevant someone needs know ive them probably refer therapist andor psychiatrist take note it get carted occasional thoughts important medical professional know ill tell her,1 +took mg mg pills fluoxetinemight enough trick ill figure something out,1 +dont hate things mess upi wanted new new year last year everything shit surprised didnt kill last year plans new forgot get pass move on want be good job awesome boss i work home helps playing crossfit n mma planing ask girl my fiance left mnths ago course life bitch work much get little hours we r small company got make much behind many bills i laid months be got job everything adding n cant take anymore cant afford gyms cuz bill stuff ontario expensive im afraid asking girl cuz much trust issues home get bossed around told everything even pay major bills really wished ended life last year really didnt want feel like year days feel cane back kicked nuts,1 +tell post go back reddit idiot thanks guys love you,0 +eaten hours point common me feel like piece shit cannot leave life would end without money short matter months think emotionally capable providing myself yet day wake hate miserable do going therapy hate makes feel like option stay life currently havethe reasonable way think suicide supposed,1 +weird cope rather precope stuff canceled pandemic expecting canceled happened since last march variety things life canceled rona every time something exiting big going happen like summer camp bar mitzvah always expect canceled virtual in cases canceledvirtual family plans going somewhere spring break yet expect canceled way could get optimistic look future events rather pessimistic realism,0 +question femalesonly post baggy boy shorts boxers show skinny jeans like panty lines black dark jeans help pls online shopping underwear dont know choose,0 +school goes back person tomorrow honestly im looking forward it ive going school online now honestly cried heard werent going back person school board specifically said going back person decided change decision last minute,0 +would nice share perspective see people help support loved ones things get tough said loved ones bad episodes also understand hearing said perspective experience living depressed persons might come triggering anyone depressed depressed would hate see depression affected others around me inevitable thing happens complicated issue something think talked much experienceit hard pill swallow part depressed persons support group really traumatizing things get bad live them like talk suicide bring intrusive suicidal ideation induced substance abuse cleaned blood self harming occured see psych ward afraid triggering episode afraid walking dead body home accounting another relative hospital attempt best friend also medically depressed around metw vent aheadand matter what despite that always supposed push whatever feelings anger frustration sadness might favor taking caresupporting person needs help moment feelings resentment happen personally want feel way feel letting negative emotions take helps one much less person want help hard sometimes hard talk without sounding emotionally selfish capacity whole medically depressed person right there automatically feel guilty even taking feelings consideration like how dare negatively affected someone elses depression fuck you well mental health important moment suck up know sounds like exaggeration reality things like whatever feeling needs take back seat need reserve emotional energy another depressive episode one relatives rolls around yes person psyche therapist meds things would definitely gone now still seems like going able manage depression really hard feel alone types feelings having feelings feel like cannot afford have realistic feelings eating away me makes want run away all always written statement like well whatever feeling guarantee depressed person worse time right now andthey would rightand go back feeling like shit cycle continues feel written constantly constant close proximity depression feel like allowed cared acknowledge whatever going feeling know anyone feels way vent overthat said think therapist would best answer plight access one healthcare process sorted out know much support supposed shoulder much depressed persons burden different live them see depression experience episodes outside except exactly bystander either got get hands dirty wanted know collective people experienced situation similar know else ask this support group relatives living depressed persons support group support group depressed individual unique experience would like speak others experience living medically depressed persons,1 +stumbled onto movie ebaying caesars palace stuff im enamoured rich vegas history last original luxury resorts still standing good condition unless count ballys original mgm grand respect movie delivers fullforce given grand tour caesars propertywhich spite renovations additions theyve done years open looks alarmingly similar film overall plot somewhat difficult follow thanks large part horrendous editing say horrendous im using word lightly theres lot splicedin secondlong snippets vegas traffic casino crowds even scene robert drivas character conversation father much hes grown up without explanation drivas goes in infamous snippets himself baby little boy back talking back forth father that give away plot details anything one prepared maybe flabbergasted editing film aged well otherwise good message inherent differences father son guys could relate form fashion,0 +cat precious like omg love like human version her like human personality would marry,0 +want situation come calls police lying saying hit anytime domestic incident happens automatically guys fault called police falsely dad twice put passed her im writing parking lot college afraid go home awesome,1 +jonghyunin december singer closely following years committed redflag name kim jonghyun years old left behind band members performing almost ten years since then able listen music without crying removed songs library hid away merchandise try think anything related him yesterday band part resumed tour schedule without him used recorded track voice put empty microphone stand onstage would been placing roses end concert weeks this record company posthumously released solo album working on along music video seeing face hearing voice surreal almost forgot told true remembered seeing videos funeral watching one band member stop break tears procession another pulled hug dead look eyes remembered learning reactions heard news one passed crying one laid sobbing floor several hours one locked room days last member one could bear going see body remembered seeing fans hold memorial events around world hearing crying sang one songs remembered sister telling instance got drunk asked happy broke saying i want happy too feel like im overdramatic never even knew personally yet death affecting life many ways feel pathetic strongly impacted life time suicidal urges already fairly strong hearing news seemed amplify all initially first feeling experiencing envy attempt successful i hand suicidal around years even able attempt feel like coward made out im scared even try im sorry long even directly myself miss him im sad committed redflag respect individual decision take control life however chooses wish it understand it knowing pain blame wanting end all breaks heart hearing suffering wish could found happiness ive struggling issue many years now feel things getting worse worse time goes on feel like im getting close giving up although ill likely even try anything im scared might happen fail im tired sad want happy too,1 +loneliness eating awaywhile im feel like ive living forever summer apparent reason group friends started exclude little little today day got point im even friends them cant even tell started dont know going going weekend whole day staying home thinking im missing happened cant keep going on first day too found today separate group chat without hanging without giving excuses couldnt would never straight say stop talking us know there reason im going keep talking school dont look like loner loser feel even excluded dont know deal loneliness know people want talk online chat play online games friends none substitute physical friends laugh with also came realize never entire life friend us group one person always deep conversations with one month beginning summer nope turns one ones hates most dont even know never talked said besides eachother think myself many would show up think would keep image friends tbh would letter specifically call let people know arent im junior small highschool cliques cant find new group friends think future used passion drive biology yet today find even wanting anything it dead want join army force grow up died combat least would done something dont know expect want chest figured appropriate roffmychest,1 +fuck school fuck school teachers especially mr lee go hell anyone school sees please dont snitch ill haunt rest life doubt anybody school anyway,0 +mom wants go hiking big bbq lunch guys might saw god going fun,0 +goodbye internetthis last time anyone hears me kept trying trying trying keep head nothing improved last event got rejected th time tipping point maybe person rejected know im gone might know im feeling right now might even rejected first place denying follow request instagram chances true slim none girl question feel bad would reject too,1 +one song ill go sleep tell never ending cycle,0 +im worried friend really pretty carefree intelligent ive known since highschool band back then played guitar sang played bass another friend played drums grunge scene honest kinda good bunch year olds trying make name themselves,0 +self hatred hurting around methis recurring issue life past year ive grown depressed sad myself ive lost capacity give others treatment deserve course leads people agitated leads becoming even depressed makes cycle worse become grossed cant even jerk anymore ive tried multiple times past week leads feeling sick disgusted myself dont honestly think ill commit redflag thought become rather prevalent back mind kind always there waiting something wrong point becomes louder louder drowns everything else typically goes away pretty quickly incident like this fuck cannot handle hurting close dont like myself fuck even done that order stop hurting others stop hating myself hard hate hurt others,1 +want out want anymore curse day born thousand times over life hell want die,1 +cant stop imagining itits hard believe alone really am everyone really person know gets slice personality theres never real catharsis talk someone one really knows anybody everybody knows stuff level cliches theyve earned status cliches theyre fucking true gun reliable pills ive got sharp knife though bought lie tell old chinese lady seemed like cool thing time want hurt slit wrists seems like itll fucking hurt think maybe slit throat would quicker wondered whether would hurt slit adams apple open maybe could slice low could hide tie funeralwhy cause parents anymore grief eh like try deal stuff imagined shooting head jolted lethargy one quick terrible second head exploded imagined failed somehow would saying things psychologist no think im bipolar docnever manic shit even think clinical depression image doctor turned professor fucking hate imagined telling redheaded cunt off i hope granddaughter dies fucking car fire kind person would quick witty response though even fazed me one is good way bad best accomplish creep people out try hard compensate awkward niceness niceness comes contrived bullshit scares people makes wonder im nice fucking hell im trying make things easier you folks know cant believe things head disappear intowhat blackness thats color even black cant describe amount nothingness thoughts dissolve into know keep going on die thats pretty shitty scenario live ill end posting venting place like this place like vent ill go world inside hide imaginary conversations psychologists try imagine halves conversation ill talk people past made kind impression even know im around anymore cant remember name think ever know im rambling im afraid stop either kill go living fucking want either right now im cold cant get enough sleep semester browse porn read late night think it like submerging freezing water go one agonizing inch time jump single awful jolt wish born wish existance shit show music ill show fights show modern medicine ill show hiroshima show puppies ill show dogs skinned alive blinking chinayou get idea getting embarrasing now fucking reason feel way want stop,1 +someone bonk late,0 +push offwatch drown slave moon waiting drown,1 +coworker relationship bf years asked whether ever saw happening first started said lmao funny,0 +think like normal human more everything seems extremely hopeless redflag feels like ultimate answeri use redflag escape procastinating study years everytime faili say lets die want take responsibility anything thinking suicidal get arrested commit redflag get scolded parents redflag every situation life redflag seems answer think like normal person anymore fail do improve right me blame parents low iq still breeding crying cursed cutting myself something goes wrong first instinct kill yourself rather lets face fix it,1 +state years ago back years ago march th purchased mm handgun box bullets sat hotel room seattle washington ready die time processing military knew went home would regress work done growth would longer amount anything significant memories father beating screaming top lungs frivolous things outside always outcast family traditional methods discipline didnt work needed room grow support didnt receive apparently made shit kid didnt see anything joined military hotel room staring weapon recieved messages battle buddies believed needed get head that spent night carrying like bunch idiots night drinking saved life instead going back went college got back work setting plans accomplishing goals graduated back may nightmare realized familys home thing knew waiting me resentful father past prime bemoaning personal failures claiming superior knower things sister doctor married sister engaged settling successful career still single jobless honestly dont care anymore want die,1 +sraight boys question u ever life see girls practically bare ass shoulders spaghetti strap think wow r hotttt shoulders might able pay attention class u ever think that,0 +punishment failing nnn guys failed real god figured nnn thing made fail punishment th,0 +passiveaggressive email teacher hi friends so aunt decided best way motivate homework claim ive lied school claim ive missed almost online classes i havent claim dad love schoolwork haste aggression sent following email teacher gthi ms gt gtcan please confirm class pm aunt believes doesnt think im lying skip online class gt gtalso missed classes far cant remember aunt seems think knows schedule better gt gtthanks gt gt rebeltrueflame fortunately teacher took well confirmed indeed change time class aunt still believe thats alright hope teacher got good laugh passiveaggressive email bye rebel,0 +anyone else cringe calls karen karen public dont know why makes cringe hard see public freakout videos dude recording call lady karen amount energy calling someone normie public,0 +reasons end itmale turned still living parents due medical issues cant even shit own use enemas sometimes take well hour go bathroom ive daily enemas years foley catheter put as today since stopped able pee reason im extremely depressed horribly anxious cant even hold conversation people since fibromyalgia pain daily makes seek painkillers feel like normal person ive struggled drug addiction falling back again particularly benzos crippling ptsd cant get past move life personality lately sucks due frustrations medical issues really think world would miss much certainly current me live family really live them stay room half time also struggle ton anhedonia even things life seem better brain still convinced thats case ugh want stop existing ask this nobody did yet happened world cruel,1 +porn addiction want die cant kill myselfim limit like im bad dream im awake hours pass wake it im barely making work ruining relationship fiance cant seem control nowhere turn feel like addiction symptom depression cant sure went therapist freeze cant say anything get guilty dont want actually get better,1 +hey wanna know something forgot,0 +certain elements film dated course white male crew instance like prestar wars science fiction tends take long admiring itselfbr br but still movie ever capture flavor golden age science fiction one did even use electronic tonalities provide musical score robbie robot epitomized asimov robots inspiration followed cpo databr br the plot line course shakespeares the tempest morbius prospero exiled wizard finds kingdom invaded interlopers movie treated science fiction adult genre perhaps first,0 +recently bought movie three bucks garage sale im glad pay usual dvd pleasantly surprised good film wasbr br its set like horror anthology broken tales including connector story involves four teenagers whos car breaks dark lonely road middle night apparently kiddos like horror stories thats decide morning tell spooky stories around campfire character takes turn telling story story wrapped nice little twistbr br the first story the hook kinda waste time bit bland dull luckily one main stories lasts maybe minutes intended merely introduce film easy overlook unoriginality piecebr br the second story the honeymooners is eh okay guessed two people honeymoon theyre traveling around rv headed las vegas decide stop somewhere night theyre quickly warned mysterious stranger leave location risk attacked dangerous unknown creatures story pretty good setup merely ok delivery basically fairly entertaining mysterious till monsters show up kinda iffybr br the third story people lick too personal favorite involves young girl whos parents going night whos older sis ditching party so going alone fact makes known internet buddy hers trouble is internet buddy exactly thirteenyearold girl storys conclusion slightly less climatic might liked seen still pretty dang goodbr br the final story the locket definitely one packed atmosphere set creepy mansion dark rainy night tale young man played glenn quinn traveling around motorcycle stumbles across house time conveniently problem bike meets mute girl lives house falls love first sight unfortunately everything fine dandy might something locket hanging around pretty neckbr br after stories wrapped up were presented twist involving four teens car twist which retrospect obvious really see coming quite pleasing conclusion filmbr br so all good movie rent can unfortunately really think lot rewatching value next time mood vaguely scary litte flick vein tales darkside something grab movie popcorn turn lights treat surprisingly nifty little flick,0 +let say first huge fan original series lonesome dove book based from put watching sequel better part years due bad reviews id heard it tommy lee jones playing capt call see point larry mcmurtry involved care wrong wasbr br this many ways worthy sequel lonesome dove maybe even dark mood streets laredo story acting production cinematography topnotch course script colorful lonesome dove moments and much surprise bits lonesome done series relationship july clara completely dismissed prequel brought almost identical book welcome surprise story roses surprises too far biggest surprise jon voights interpretation capt call direct copy tommy lee jones faithful unique voights credit cast fantastic across board think rick schroeder done better job acting series oliver reed practically steals show here superb role makes care character equally hate himbr br it worth watch due bad criticisms especially dvd affordable i got disc set probably find cheaper way disappointment dead mans walk turned well me mcmurtry involved one,0 +worki know passing happen peacefully pills never seem work hoping one peaceful moment life woke instead appeal bleeding kicking struggling hanging ceiling peaceful all always pills never works maybe death like life peace either want moment calmness muchsoughtafter exit desire go stronger expectation peacefulness unfair everything ugly cant calm easy go,1 +think ill mail good bye letters tomorrowgot letter folks latest ex one best friend hand written sitting table need drop post office go take one final hike tommorrow sun comes up god beautiful top,1 +redflag letterthis going easy frankly idea start life bad really compared peoples misery life fucking cake walk make worth living cant anymore really fucking cant heart hurts much vision getting blurry confusion brain fuzzy drug use cant think properly anymore used love myself you everyone else planet stopped quite time ago even feel alive anymore im walking back forth energy left energy left even write proper goodbye letter see point tired thank reading goodbye,1 +stop wanting dieits this magnetic pull towards death constantly sometimes feel okay always back waiting me dont know make stop feel like blob social anxiety awkwardness and sad hopelessness even feel worth anymore want feel better even think possible point friends feel alone except fucking god awful pull bag old meds gotten rid way long ago meds general keep playing head over fuck fuck need sleep man thats want,1 +strange feeling inner peacewho else gets weird feeling inner peace end feels like near hard explain looking around people work like last time ill see even hearing birds sing feels like ive made peace world almost feels like hapieness euphoric even like nothing matters anymore next week mater im here reality sets change mind again,1 +looking sympathy bother wondering anyone else feels way wish could get someone else technically killing cannot get courage go killing,1 +im scared ill never happy againi know theres always chance ill happy future living pain unbearable ive never reached depth hopelessness before ive suicidal around years closest ive ever felt it,1 +im alive familyevery night try make fall asleep hits strongest see vision head various ways could kill myself sometimes jumping sometimes carbon monoxide poisoning slashing almost fantasy fantasy ive never harmed way know mom husband would find would drive insane theyd blame even though know problem love family sometimes darkest moments cant help think unfair stay alive them,1 +might go antifa rally throw molotov air antifa dumb im even republican id fire unto assholes,0 +someone experiencing depressionhello someone experiencing depression need help someone tell things change mind,1 +day random questions much u wanna go back school,0 +teachers assign work christmas break called break reason break work project due th last day break want enjoy damn break,0 +love god tell doim tired misunderstood ignored im end rope im completely alone everyone always thinks im weird something cant come across right people want pain stop one,1 +valentines day good gf long distance relationship miles exact nervous valentines day turns went brilliant stayed really late night morning valentines day really sweet woke early adorable talked bit gave valentines gift video going places would love take valentines day would their loved said perfect got happy watched movie together texting amazing one episodes went silent rest night started saying ruined valentines though got sad thought that absolutely amazing though ask better valentines day amazing hope everyone else great valentines day,0 +pecker another mainstream film john waters done smaller serial mom title character pecker hobby taking pictures anything sees matter dirty shocking takes pictures soon uses pictures taken puts display work pecker live seminormal middleclass family dad works drinking bar claw machine make enough money lesbian stripper bar across street mom runs thrift shop loves dressup poor people older sister tina works gay bar specialty trade younger little chrissy habit eating sugar sugar nothing sugary food grandmother memama small statue virgin mary plays ventriloquist it also friends friends matt chronic shoplifter girlfriend shelley runs laundry mat dictator soon tourist new york buys pictures displays art gallery picture comes fame pictures expose unusual life style friends familys simple life rrated film pecker sure tamer waters previous rrated films even pink flamingos another ,0 +talking husband makes want diei middle getting divorced state requires year separate addresses so husband road trucker moved bought huge house needs help getting mail receiving packages etc trying separate amicably coordinate moving property house third house elderly father lives in since paid off weve agreed move move father house im living in old house parking movers would challengeda truck would block traffic husband prefers spending money new toys house adhd collapse trying organizemy stuff gets piled husband dumped stuff old dayshe ignored stuff piles hes home new house stuff really wanted immaculateno dumping floor there father near hoarderthe old house floor looks awful needs deep cleaning husband informed new family moving big new house christmas new years his girlfriend husband kids want polyamorous panicking cleaningpacking do everyone since hearing girlfriend move in extreme trouble sleepingi end sleeping day husband wanted hour drive pick car truck depot could bring back house generously offered pay gas car wagon trailer would useful moving wanted sleep drivingi never able sleep car hes drivingso could get appointment drive could sleep heading back job except appointment immediately long drive asked rescheduling extra time accused wanting dead hed tired roadhe refused reschedule take extra time away work avoided confrontation he enjoys it said get someone else he said might use son father rent car hes accused wanting dead before never never never takes caution ask hes vet paratrooper loves driving motorcycle rain logically knows id worse died job enough income purchases houses vehicles expensive hobbies insurance cover it like how get better argument deny feelings trick want die every interaction makes feel like life worth living im seeing therapist days good grief management helping get stuff done asks im suicidal time want say yes want lie i take wellbutrin,1 +anyone else feel like parents even though do mine essentially npcs im glad im ngl would kinda cool sort guidance smthing,0 +im turning two weeks advice anything idk want know anything keep mind advice idk idk idk idk idk idk idk,0 +else care girlfriend cries girlfriend life im alone,0 +whats name monster remove head still walk around take head set somewhere still talk headless body walk around,0 +hey god take back nowmy mom said every one childhood friends doesnt want hang siblings embarrassment society dad siblings make abusive nightmare genuinely waste life doesnt good enough grades doesnt know want living doesnt hobbies friends im done years old years wasted ambition cant myself would hurt much someone run car,1 +im failing subjects school mom furious reason bad cause one gives good enough reason want succeed school even passing live boring life mom still yells me,0 +im needy im much better tonight happy day im alone end bed need held right now theres chance be want make someone feel warm safe resting head shoulder arm chest want someone spoon make feel safe too honestly want boyfriend ever have,0 +best independent film went see wind recommendation friends caught dances films festival la last summer great scary well made film score amazing cant wait see next movie,0 +contemplating shooting myselfim incredibly sad sooo deeply sad angry hate myself love family much would destroy them im engaged awesome girl shes pregnant ready this sad cant even cry dont know feel anything looking support dont know makes happy seem fake sense word dont know do scared eat shotgun ill probably take down,1 +medicationmarijuana,1 +lot people online suggested many treatment methods depression last years tried basically everything nothing worked however beginning think effective treatment options available depressed individuals effective treatments depression all,1 +want end nowbetrayed cheated someone gave heart thought love completely well much pain great handle years wasnt long short side either guess fool trust someone like begin heard past relationships probably still thinks dont know cheated blamed everything me happy right now im suffering selfblame lost myself feeling betrayal dont know go another day like this shouldve ended ago,1 +recommend families possibleto show older children onlysome stuff film maybe disturbing little ones handlenow thats waylet explain moviethis reality documentary male foxwho beginning protecting territory seeking matethe beginning gorgeous sunrise music scoreis breath takingyou better soak much scenery possibleitll get ugly laterthey gave fox vixen namesbut cant remember likes mehe fights invading maleto win lovethey later create denand vixen gives birth four adorable cubsone blindthere many happy playful moments featuring fox familybut tragedy bad luck strike soonthe first victim blind pupwho gets close high tide washed awaythe second victim motherwho stealing chickens deceived dead chicken hanging poleshe unknowingly walks foot trapwhile trying escape rips part footcausing bleed deaththe rest fox family forced watch die treethe male single dadforced take roll mom dadhe alone teach skills need lifeit later proves enoughwhen two grown pups meet ugly fate own thanks carelessness cruelity mani spoil surprising ending youbut show farmer dogs close tailand well deserved ending audience fox family put throughi wanted say saw first came early s thing called showbiz cablei saw itbut could never understand let see itnow know whyafter secretly watched came disneywhen i felt emotionally gutted seeing evil going oni moved tearsbut dark ugly wasit serves purposeto let people going kinds animalsand endangeredthis documentary wanted get message across endangered speciesand hoped workedits fake like true life nature films disneythey teach animals going extinctthe encroachment landthe killing foxes main preyand senseless killing beautiful animalshas resulted becoming endangeredi wish would make sequel movieglacier fox to see theyre treated bettermaybe vixen pup named teresa siblings growing upthis movie also kind reflects happens human families sometimesespecially one parents suddenly diesthe surviving parent takes roll bothand tries teach important lessons lifeit always enough protect theyre adultsespecially lives becomes ruinedor fall victims tragedy themselvesbest around soundtrack musical score ive ever heard,0 +reddit need favor so saw reddit post ago yt video thumbnail yellow lamborgini rain treadmill cant find video help fellow redditors great search,0 +unable sleep literally go bed around amp sometimes wake annoying bruh,0 +let teach new word flamboyance group flamingoes well thats new word nice day ,0 +twenty years watching this still find quoting things movie like look two giant melons ill start sing pabst blue ribbon theme hand years later make sense meat machine theres still lot stereotypes like used movie signs good movie me could say movie stands test time cant really say lot s movies continue movie still list lot peoples favorite movie kid growing s like games dreams becoming game master find dorking s movies relive childhood need watch this also sometimes sarcastic funny one things certain movie someone ever invites great allnighter mean x acid trip party mean get ready midnight madness oh see everyone dying play hehehehheh,0 +wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning it tired scared pull years now ive already decided method drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought would sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered would fairly easy clean up prepared tried times already agony always gets me times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning would expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger long im fixating thought loved one would devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed me fast forward now im good place life im suicidal thoughts again time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying like everyone else family thought relationship better that recently discovered shallow water black out thought would take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull through know anymore ive wanting die long ive tired angry pain long im much wuss it part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next,1 +thinking back time mum got pissed kid said stuff literally owing life something like ok maam ask born couldve literally made wed happier way,0 +hospital convince friend stay get helpive got friend always heavy drugs worst ive seen today called hang crying heard buddy showed work completely fucked up drove work mg xanax mg percocet drove hospital cause damn eyes going different directions barely coherent falling asleep talking earlier determined completely get help hes afraid able see girlfriend also user able sleep bed ive hospital system told everything could hes point hes refusing budge telling give one week starts using daily xanax cant stop obviously hell call hell get admitted obviously going work convince him people hospital try convince well thank you,1 +continueever since middle school wanted commit redflag gotten better final stretch school college want end it logic shifted hate awful person deserve live whats point living figured like everyone else problems things good bad at thats fine theres reason hate myself do every action take causes sadness happiness happiness attain never lasts days ive tried medication makes everything worse much worse whats point continuing moments happiness life drowned sadness feel every day life come world alone go alone loving family amp caring friends ive bright future almost hundred grand name without much raising finger attain it cant enjoy that instead focus fact cant enjoy it focus everything thats wrong regrettable past actions must hurtful towards anything care about even jest one nicest people thats fine fact like making people happy since cant enjoy happy least window shop watch happiness whats point carrying though everything eat turns ash reason ive killed yet selfish hurtful towards people care about fairly disturbing thought process recently you always go way others something yourself something wanted since middle school kill yourself realize preferred method selfinflicted death gunshot head anything else would give much hesitation plenty live for want too spend much effort trying accomplish goals things could make happy im tired trying happy failing constantly cant make moment happiness last ocean painful things remember harp on even ocean look perspectives life disappointed myself ignoring introspective causes depression life another source complete meaningless life work semihard attain certain goals values completed joy rather limited still existent however tired tired work age rest life filled nothing work till retire wake up work sleep repeat why thats mind numbing task endure rest see able future definitely something look forward too want alive going forced work rest life fun fact ive commited hospital self harm fifth grade attempted redflag four times last attempt senior highschool used cut myself ive put antidepressants three times real effect offered moderate place back said gonna hard tell people alive want to course reason gave mwm decline place far depressing tldr emotions caused negatives life outweigh emotions positive carry on want stop putting effort alive far much work appears little pay off,1 +diei sent messages okcupid today one responds time,1 +whats pointim literally drifting life right now im years old im college month ive ignored homework everytime try bring mom never really allows temper usually stressed make seem approachable hate this everyday wake lay room thinking game plan thought running away avoid embarrassment parents thought much fun possible killing end year looking like best option me think fun ending feel less stressed actually get bed days time sit dark thinking smartest way kill attempted yet want make attempt redflag better fucking die know kill im going explanation everyone life girlfriend love much shes wonderful going go extreme depression kill know im going write essay apologizing her im fucked school point im going make little money keep going life therapist unlike others find rather useless ask questions need im scared talk want die time im scared change things much even know im posting maybe really want help maybe dont know see guys copy paste comments like even individualize people feeling alone know get know lot really trying help maybe help way let every person life,1 +todays th birthday finaly stop browsing sub illegally have amazing day amazing people,0 +gonna slit wrists soonwas gonna rent room brother sister wouldnt accidentally walk body forgot debit card home family thinks im work im currently beach ive drinking smoking building resolve go it gonna within next hours feel alone might call hotline though,1 +time blow whistle ive enough mods rteenagers pedophiles ive tracking various cat fishing accounts majority harassing accounts sending inappropriate pictures im going banned post dont want know truth please careful around mods sub,0 +get snap lot friends it feel like used meaningless conversations would really missing ton didnt get it dont fomo wonderin thx,0 +need someonei know start girlfriend bored flirts another guy druggy friends busy want bother them parents run businesses know cant bother them know why im constantly fighting urge kill myself make sense me friends job money nice house constantly feel empty un motivated need help place turn,1 +finished geometry summer work get algebra sophomore year finished fucking geometry lfg id like thank couple people far ive come first all uiia whos consideration kind heart gave strength motivation one else could be could even said outside this reading this cannot thank enough everything done me second umikyni ive said iia could said you amazing friend source motivation well mention cheered shit got stressful getting algebra year sophomore newfound motivation mostly thanks gentle souls gratitude immeasurable cant imagine id gone without them reasons call best friends times like really shine amazing friends grace earth thank much,0 +question oldies im question year olds people constantly expect suddenly act like youre year old whenever something isnt smartest parents say say youre adult want this never said im adult im therefore want also prefrontal cortex doesnt stop developing mid late s scientifically people still stupid s feel like really weird unrealistic expectations us older teens,0 +unsure doi necessarily suicidal however dark thoughts late past indication thoughts permanent solution may start pop head again know talk to two closest friends listen unsure tell me cannot go family job causes quite bit stress grief many tasks complete single day numerous people count lot pressure succeed despite decent do sometimes would like simply disappear however job pays better places around many choices live rural town real opportunities hours away finances leave second source stress school work fulltime take classes fulltime they online try best balance two graduate year half bachelors ideally would like get job field home life greatest husband separating still live together financially support other situation changing complicate matters mom also lives us gave place escape leaving awful situation ive let live without asking pay bills worries three bills it sometimes feels like mistake gets terribly upset small issues today threw massive fit cable anymore cannot watch football get tired blamed stupid shit come home work tiny bit free time want sit spend getting screamed at lease stupid know cant simply kick mom maybe im simply wuss im cut this ive lot hurt life ive told im still quite young only theres look forward to working like used to sense dread every morning wake up im happy things used make happy longer make happy know im depressed cannot think way get situation thats even possible know make best this way young feel hopeless life,1 +friends replace relationships im done ittitle says all ive diagnosed ptsd last thing want hear stories reply explain would really like shorten explain want hear it best friend left boyfriend rejecting telling i boyfriend now need anymore never talking again tried everything nothing worked cousin we real cousins marital thing went together well relied problems relied often left boyfriend help start relationship him told sex him did told did said treated like shit would never talk again called motor vehicle incident arrived first one scene wrong way collision head on truck car car drifted wrong lane occupants truck okay woman driving car unresponsive instantly recognized saw face girl left time pulled vehicle buddy paramedics already arrived performed cpr success taken local hospital followed shortly told died likely even scene mother recognized also many years ago told i reason daughter died let die nothing could done never got chance talk make things right her never will httpwwwnjcomcumberlandindexssfyearold_woman_dead_in_crash_cops_sayhtml,1 +turtle necks fucking amazing hide long ass neck bad posture,0 +weekend homework kicking ass schools thinking saying hey idea give kids two days free time also give work free time well cant get enough us anybody works school system stop giving us weekend homework,0 +kinda traumatic story context sit special class every tuesday friday plan build stuff building tools also english second language dutch first curious also phone happened last year class build wooden train two boys lets call nick mike mike kinda annoyed draw papers plan nick sawing wood nick asked mike move mike kinda weird kid even though lot open places including me refeused saying first even though table already used kids get block wood got really heated nick wanted hit saw wait think psychopath talked said wanted hit side saw yes stupid think went wrong hit saw misjudge hit went teeth neck course mike jumped sawed neck saws sharp af sitting table next not used sawing screwing wheels train silence shock you could probably hear nail drop thing could hear mike screaming terror wound much blood neck like centimeters they stitch it screaming ran class allowed leave class last class almost went class ambulance already there people confused happened informed last saw mike getting ambulance glance like corpse yes hes alive i hope saw nick like months class popular even news article comments here dutch tho ps asked one teachers said te first time happened also mike moved romania reason also also time covld group project nick another person its person project everything one thing day it im happy grade person got good grade nick got low grade,0 +one dark night highly overlooked little known film early s deserves audience fear never get thats damn shame seen film compared others gotten bigger name years notably phantasm hell night mausoleum much different film see comparisons mausoleum bit similar one phantasm enough make real comparisons im sure one slipped without broader acceptance maybe marketing know perhaps remake would breathe new life it unless raymar drained life is im big remakes abundant days think work well lesser known films except awful ghost ship remake opening scene mudvaynes falling blaring utter crap remake one dark night would happen fall right hands think would make lot people go watch original know thats theres remake film seen before anything short remake fear would bring film back life unless course raymar got eyes itbr br anyways one dark night must see horror fans especially s horror fans cause know thats best horror movies made creepy setting fairly good acting good story campy could want early s horror film whats that nudity gore well sorry nudity gore film still great nonetheless solid enjoy,0 +little twoperson movie actually much bigger looks many layers ive watched over always pick something new amazed depth acting feel movie gotten wider release would 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getting worse worse troubles likely pretty lgihtt compared majority ones here grades shitty groupmates grades important mean get uni country singapore highly competitivewe submitted shit project worth least onethird grade uncomplete wringle wringler people antoher three projects getting tired point trying hard slept hours day last two weeks starting show ran ragged last two years obtain good gpa provide family going go flush drain shitty groupmates want work last minute nothing all fucks sake working documents saw two come sit nothing good solid hours checked timestamp google slides edits made either them like fuck going oni cannot take anymore nervous breakdown school expects us go ff lessons again want kill myself process writing notes people think guided life negatively positively matter gathering resolve iti chickenfeet die want pain stop dare end two hands wish something would kill done family said would sad died think less burdened knowing deadweight like me wasted years life nothing home gone leeching them let end let end let end,1 +livei reason live reasons die want parents struck grief want pay funeral know else do ive tried getting help help im thinking tomorrow get paid transfer money parents leave,1 +immediate threati suffer almost constant suicidal ideation generally happy with flaws could work on nothing hopeless life yet constantly battling internal monologue seems want die i going kill myself unbidden thought goes mind countless times per day sometimes thought accompanied poorly laid plans feel suicidal imagine ever following thoughts normal,1 +s s vibe with looking people talk topic preferably girl cos too,0 +friends microsoft account got locked anything get locked friend got mcpe installed phone logged account play server next day account gets locked even anything all went enter phone number get unlocked never got code go back send code page entered phone number correctly like said invalid number one reasons hate microsoft,0 +im never suicidal,1 +hate life nobody wants talk apparently friends irl try message someone often wanna chat looking friend post ignore me reply time ignore chat dies less week know anymore,0 +something one teachers actually pretty racist talking history ww i think morning tired wasnt paying much attention said something along lines germans claimed changed since really whim staring german kid,0 +midnight room thinking deathi hate life lay awake night till pass wake again guess ill going sleep now im sure inevitable come moons now,1 +friendless hugkissless yo virgin day so ive decided im going carry apparent nightmare another days im done all ill posting often guess next hundred days like subreddit feel like im among friends ive never reading posts comments feel way relate many you days enables things ive always wanted do never truly able do complete fully modded skyrim playthrough beat content mods get escortor prostitute country legaland provide details finally im going commit redflag calmly peacefully using nembutal alcohol wash down country choice saving enough money would appear thailand ive always thought asian girls pretty let known think girls beautiful matter color ethnicity body size would love spend time them contrary though im loser nerd outside paying it actually going girl really reasonable expectation all also apparently money go long way there may able fun several months theres chance however unlikely may drag bit longer days saving money buying mega millions lotto ticketspointless know dead soon maybe ill win stick around fun die im also going want save much money possible leave since desktop bulky selling laptop extra cash well desktop computer monitors real things owndont even car probably worth around monitors each could likely pull solid craigslist also job constant savings could probably save thailand anecdote im currently skinnyfatgoogle it excising eating healthy bring weight leave time leave vary december perhaps even januarythis would take farther days outlined obviously thinner healthier looking might even able get laid much cheaper however big might hair thinning still could get hair system go probably cost effective meaning would cheaper pay full price get one facially im actually ugly all still looks like hair buzzed really short either way im sure get laid thailand posting this want remembered shit life fun thailand lonely internet nerd literally taking life hands daily journals serve me this post really long intended keep short sweet so tldr itt friendless hugkissless yo virgin going hero days possibility bit more going thailand get laid fun life committing redflag using nembutal alcohol going post everyday updates subreddit using account death going full playthrough modded skyrim mean time provide cellphone pictures screen captures throughout one fuck shall given death ive spent whole life caring much im spending rest giving fuck not one fuckhttpikymcdncomphotosimagesnewsfeedbe edit also thinking hungary well budapest maybe wait little longer save little money go both also feeling happy first time years ive finally decided end it im going out blast writing well,1 +love boys boys boys boys boys adore god im sure im horni boys rlly cutest things earth,0 +every day think itim f know thats young severely depressed anxious whole life therapy multiple times feel like im much fragile unable cope around me ive serious issues money lately every day think ending life every time ive asked help parents theyve disappointed me know people miss know selfish ive seen dont videos im tired im tired feel like struggling longer isnt worth it feel like life im going struggling earn money end,1 +feel like cause arguments fights familylike would better wasnt here know parents would sad honestly think life might actually improve them feel like right regret meidk,1 +ive realized matter situation people im able socialize anyoneonly two people able make talk interact regularly life happened life anymore last one lost broken way past point return six months still get panic attacks goodbye worst part maybe still someone would able make open up im scared trying cant deal another goodbye im lonely nobody matter good intentioned help me want scream help cry someone else know feel like outcast among outcasts even live for nothing im good human contact im able socialise hurts much cant deal anymore cant tried meds professional help nothing works im tired,1 +want planim risk today immediately future decided make plan ready tie loose ends happen dog afterwards years ago thought college would ticket out end ended parents place debt bad hs want im years goes quickly,1 +im still sure ive months wondering age rule eventhough im still friends girls long arnt relationship turned friends year old girls still friends them thank answering good day,0 +note good enough need opinion sympathy attempts stop mei know never enough anyone though really try seemed like matter continually fucked up could never make anyone proud love me always disappointment everyone met terrible father tried know how wanted different felt like child swore would never kids end perpetuated feelings inadequacy pain felt xxxxxxxxxxx amazing special person ever wasted every second it knowing hell always hate hurts know luckily turned amazing influence own hope carry torch speak much offer world xxxxxxxx came life another truly unique incredible person felt like second chance possibly child hate look resentment sadly disappointment squandered chance again like xxxxxxxxx was young realize poor parent person am grew understand one day too like act like mistakes led this really end day im failure person empty shell someone be ill never anyone ill never really loved anyone kind tolerated hate myself know one meet could possibly love me im black hole nothingness lead nowhere good best thing anyone world cease exist cause nothing pain suffering wake least im gone pain eventually fade everyone around like deserve ill forgotten entirely im sorry you really tried wanted good person know how failed every attempt change maybe old adage true cant teach old dog new tricks however could simply ever learn tricks failure child failure adult ever wanted better better enough worth anything speck insignificance creator would put someone path boggles mind though maybe piece garbage could graduated past piece garbage ill never anything hurt disappoint you best thing life forget me im sure easier possibly imagine im sorry more im sorry failed over really wanted make proud me im worthless disappear quickly came feel bad cant save worth saving worth time energy always lost cause better burn fade away ill never lit first place hope carry forward feel fulfilled happy loved thats wanted always want world better place without someone flawed me wish could am love xxxxxxxx,1 +gophers like men dont come punch line jokes,0 +hi question would bad thing pretend went crush deterr guy crush her hes creep and made best friend leave school bullying him 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bear j could snuggle bed talk could buy clothes dinners presents though j would say loved said loved her still doubted her today one year afterwards j k convention weekend every night three nights j would call vacate room could sex partied friends morning hours hours ago returned room attempted sex j became confused said no j also bdsm yelled confusing me became mad would reply back owe answer asleep next right now realize used left j year ago soon confessed cheating me fool foolish hopeless romantic wanted cling remains something called love feel low want kill honestly see pulling this feel ever want relationship ever want risk love heart broken again cant see j way resembled were want love again said cant stupid sounds love mattered me know do thought sending letter friends throwing train die sort fuck you revenge death know do,1 +redflag something yearn possiblefirst im going kill myself wish could cant single mother two kids killing option place could say outloud here wish id never kids could end life point telling things gone wrong life many know big things fair say life kicked ground time small child day now everytime think life gets easier maybe turn happy something happends something bad illness fire loss ive dealt shit quite well job apartment pay bills old car major issues im shitty mom used better last six months ive depressed mess led kids causious around me daughter sensitive know suffers seeing suffer strenght pretend im happy last straw ex left me single life taking care kids job looking anyone age fell love first time really worked hard last course fell apart like things have ive tried get help use tried find medication help depression made feel worse see light end tunnel know none wish could believe god something id hope no thing yearn end this im dramatic tired noone knows friends lives avoid see pain done everything books say got new hobbies volunteering local animal shelter go yoga nothing takes away exhaustion idea still xx years live exhausting know ill get strenght go kids choise joy endless amount dark hours ahead me sounds stupid whining is,1 +feeling depressed dunno ,0 +unhealthy obsession hank green hes smart knows much stuff literally intelligence ask for listen man talk world like whenever id never get tired,0 +nothing motivates me see point living anymoreever since things gotten worse worse im months absolutely nothing motivates me energy anything everything life seems hard pointless bother uk people age level exams pretty much determine future everyone seems care studying them im give shit pass fail find passing worse give excuse continue living cant call redflag line without overhead really option my dad unemployed hear me initially thoughts redflag think it im determined end it thing makes happy slightest imagining dead whenever im class imagine died longer there thought dead genuinely makes happy,1 +friend several people told attempts even though theyre pressing issue now im wondering deal situationstwice within 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going get better old old writing getting supportive comments children younger hurting more fucking deal shit going live live like fucking adult going die die like fucking adult stop acting lika fucking cry baby stop fishing comments going help me cannot stand myself cannot live myself die myself incapable anything it really to maybe writing shit fishing pity too pathetic fucking disgusting done comment please talking myself enough,1 +childrens playground like swings especially butll swing playgrounds empty ampxb happened once empty playground myself happiness serenity ampxb like swings ampxb uwu,0 +helpi need way kill fast please someone help cant game anymore,1 +come join minecraft stream kareoke twitchtvbarfequieshttpstwitchtvbarfequies,0 +today got caught watching anime online classes but it regular anime kiss x sis ova version it last episodes staring so dad came room watching hurriedly switched class noticed asked what checked laptop opened tab saw it got scolded would say got 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application week trial team upon completion trial well ask whether want accept permanent position team course end trial position time feel like you thank you look forward reading responses,0 +job interview tonight thats all wish luck bois,0 +enjoyed film offers variety interesting subplots complex lovehate relations along interspersed action scenes lighthearted moments mountain men counter harsh army discipline main characters well cast true john wayne robert mitchum could probably done starring role well victor mature certainly comes across headstrong brawling tarzan sorts reminds film role samson another difficult impossible man tamebr br the mountain men opening scene certainly anachronism era pure trapper mountain men pretty much ended years before collapse western beaver populations well fashion market beaver pelts story supposedly takes place oregon end civil war judging volcano background opening sceneprobably mt lassen fictional fort located somewhere remote section cascades never see civilians however plenty conflicting evidence actually takes place mountains wyoming montana red cloud war chief threatens trappers soldiers fort namesake famous sioux war chief led successful campaign exterminate newly built army forts wyoming montana fort laramieeastern wyomingis mentioned far removed fictional fort plains tribe assiniboines mentioning joining red cloud aspect story then bears general resemblance historical factbr br it may interest note certain resemblances plot story john fords fort apache cases fort commander recently assigned first frontier post native american problems underestimates military prowess adversaries regarding little cannon fodder promote career films pays dearly inexperience dealing enemy also common greenhorn commander resents subordinate long experience local native americans wants tell wise do films budding romantic relaionship woman close commanders heart subordinate commander everything squelch clearly commander must eliminated allow romances proceed completionbr br i also see certain resemblances the misfits soldiers whole including commander misfits sortas one admits mostly problems raw recruits experience fighting native americans commanders wife apparently woman anywhere near fort thus inherently misfit husband uncertain future army trappers turn also misfits really wanting accept army civilian discipline yet cut previous free spirit lives recent armygenerated antagonism red cloud br br finally also compare story anthony manns later film the far country starring jimmy stewart stewarts case choose return loner cowboy end matures character come appetizing new way boss red cloud made life outside army region dangerous contemplate besides obsession commanders wife,0 +every app dating app try hard enough single app think get partner excluding gaming apps chat function single player games,0 +please read this need help post m crush f past months texting videocalling everyday weeks ago guys trying find eachothers 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cooking cant deal stress professionally since money coming cant often coupled rat move recently keeps getting pantry starting get much want everything stop want go sleep never wake up dont want live day day life anymore ive enough it want normal person want able get job work move girlfriend shut awake hours pm am im done,1 +ask stuff plz im bored feel like coming fancy post ill let guys content,0 +welp teacher emailed parents grades theyre probably gonna get pissed take things make wanna kill away think something right,0 +dont understand purpose lifeit seems never anything right almost everyone hates me family wont believe im depressed tell them theyll probably say sad doesnt mean depressed im around act like im happy everythings fine luckily talent acting said going kill nobody would give shit except people comment post telling dont know pain im going through would notice give shit disappeared useless world everyone forgotten unless change everyones life goodbye hope final post,1 +crying bookspoiler dasher year old adopted father turned away forces evil fire ice master didnt want it got it dasher along bullet fight him dasher always feel guilty cause father always get memories playing father much loved him eventually kill him killing dasher it dasher sent heaven seeing father normal form open arms dasher repeatedly told sorry was father proud him seeing one last time dasher hugged tears eyes sent earth people calling name crying book,0 +get betternearly years old job family friends like im drowning sea people care themselves ive never even felt like loved acknowledged relationship ive ended cheating me social anxiety makes hard find friends let alone ones trustworthy cant see getting better change comes me world know,1 +homework time goodbye reddit enter hell,0 +typing therapeutic thing help thinkyknow writing envision words screamed flow mouth like fingers across keyboard like end shane koyczan poem know word it sound decent though put simply want die child need emotions motivation nothing nobody one person love fell friend straight window that loving parents entirely aware care cant cant love them wish could recent lost friend recently admitted hospital hes sick least month now insomnia keeps awake trust issues paranoia keep away classmates become numb joking cries help use front one friend hell probably leave enjoy company throw padded room like everyone else know hell react personified demons point see them ive seen one whos since childhood numerous times now supposed tell anybody see real life im insane none makes sense hate feeling most confusion weakness etc spend almost time computer today spent hours front bluescreen abyss place reaches beyond hell finds mundane like live this patrolling lurking subreddit playing crappy kongregate games none worth it parents berate overuse computer never aware always oblivious pain heart know people care caring front make many people cry dead th grade know laugh insult th grade th grade want die im man past teen years abusive home terrible situation im maybe id feel empathy sympathy whichever ever did never relate cry loss unloved never felt emotions havent innately love past years functioned machine calculative logical mission remember was therapy never cup tea first two th grade still operated motive felt frustration towards ignorance classmates lack connection them next one never beneficial remember name probably more ted absolute trash thats was always smiling always enthusiastic happy see me fit therapist never understood related me never made attempt to smiled asked questions prodded signed family issues my dad outbreak think traumatized brother never cried idea trying do pissed off hell expect reply with know really dont want hear people care life gets better ill overcome things matter happy would make forget want normal without magic pill edit noticed errors fixed because again nothing better do,1 +cant anymore ending allits hard live day day nothing ever goes way much,1 +hi all im visitor sub ive read sub rules please let know im overstepping sub im registered nurse rn im interested becoming sane sexual assault nurse examiner,1 +like idea sniffing hair people say creepy get why least imagine cuddling girl sniff hair jus huummm also really like idea hugging girl sniffing hair,0 +want die im scared paini failed test gpa dropping cant focus anymore see point want around family feel like nothing them started cutting even worse before want feel like worthy least good something point feel like im wasting others time im stressing out want die thing im probably going hit date daysim sorry know ill make past new years,1 +fuck man want watch cyberchase anyone watch little pbs kids cable gang wanna go back watch fucking cyberchase,0 +lets gooooo im virgin anymore becouse fucked grades,0 +need scared dyingi feel like even know normal anymore even happy years ago feel like body even remember again recently turned drinking help cope freak boyfriend break heart withdrawals two days top destruction one point drank bunch cleaner ended throwing basically right away certainly enough kill me missed work call go back tomorrow telling hospital wasnt maybe been im getting much anxiety sadness it degree work retail im even good capable that social anxiety constantly killing making hard carry conversation around anyone boyfriend whole life one constant fuck up im honestly bother im going ever fuck more deserve world deserve patient loving boyfriend wish could die everytime overdose end getting scared telling someone landed ward twice considering crashing car next since would something come back from even im still scared im waiting kinda wanted vent see anyone feels point lives,1 +longer year old virgin joking sex losers,0 +everybody loves hypno toad hypno noises hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +honestly cant believe film highly rated claude chabrol could described something like french alfred hitchcock film second one ive seen the first le boucher already see guy something special strength two films film french canadian coproduction takes place canada cast made british canadian stars high quality performances bode well rest film high quality also film murder mystery begins young girl covered blood brought police station questioned inspector carella emerges young girl patricia sister muriel attacked man killed sister allowed patricia flee however investigation goes on patricia goes back station give new evidence reveals far shocking identity murdererbr br the performances film excellent donald sutherland subdued usual suits role hes given well hesitate name performance blood relatives one best film also features supporting turns british stars donald pleasance david hemmings give good turns pleasance particular shows great actor highlights shame went waste halloween films unknown aude landry also gives great performance role patricia movie mysterious first hour really keeps audience hooked inspector carella discovers muriels diary film turns drama girls last actions shown section film good went it still interesting leads great twist end overall blood relatives great film really deserves better seen le boucher better known effort chabrol money least good highly recommended viewing,0 +deal pastfiguring fuck got point girl cheated lot didnt realise end blew fuse called got charged harassment subsequently dropped charges mainly trumped charges together four years lived countries memories relationship included hiding existence online indication relationships existence introduced subset friends pretend boyfriend holiday philippines putting using facebook obviously keep contact men especially first love towards end anxiety crippling me told stand back another guy making advances face going visit two weeks eastern europe little her arrested two weeks mental ward suicidal ideation three weeks recovery centre depression second masters almost ruined several months on elegant intelligent woman walks life flaky begin speeds dating process basically moves apartment two weeks later introduces world havent known before obsessed sex also beautiful dont know whats happening sex takes new meaning me problems arise talks ex husband still gunning her apparently seems family okay speaks phone chinese chinese one point say would like marry someday suggest marry three months try say soon know much you takes insult move forward takes offense rejecting mothers concern regarding integrity goes week lebanon gets good im apologetic several months speaks intention move back hong kong trouble ex there follow say move her approves things take nasty turn remarries ex husband she told millionaire visiting her spends hardly time me apologises still continues see me agree move shenzhen teach english move me j turn up book hotel shenzhen second night am wakes suddenly starts reminiscing insult mother challenging integrity goes hong kong shortly tells rented place hong kong still sees shenzhen still sex im working apartment there says move well point im insecure depressed sleep escort also develop nasty habit asking random people marry me im much love chinese girl move forward husband moves apartment think hers see hotels hong kong works husbands company well line things get even unstable finds misdeads run flowers sort thing make up goes on summer ideas forming im planning move hong kong accompanies interviews get one also gets pregnant tells mine thing is im stressed beyond belief point make another mistake gone another date shenzhen vengeful night sex chinese banker beginning relationship told sex great towards end disposition changed hold erection getting ill china made snide remark performance time around time im put back burner eventually contacts says wants raise child husband say seems contrived planned takes offense knowing arrested ex says arrested leave country week later says cruel sorry didnt mean it thing is left country shortly blocked contact im korea dont know true isnt dont know anything child dont know true know im suicidal know im probably even beta male know im best man planet story taken five years life lot could written would long also still feel incredibly attached woman intelligence far outstripped own degrees age two law also claimed least several hundred partners ive spent last three weeks absolutely nothing hiding feel like trauma probably exaggeration sorry spelling grammar mistakes dont particularly like reading written,1 +isolated seniors copeno family all health isnt great getting worse job going shit money carry months what life serious bitch dance with bother,1 +f sick living it call others names constantly bickering other telling fuck off calling asshole lazy etc sick around it confront acting like front either deny rude promise again anyone else deal this parents verbally abusive,1 +think call nervous breakdown got triggered slight disagreement wife absolutely exploded ran bedroom cried intensely least three hours probably worst ever felt emotionally dealing feeling guilt plus knowing let wife kids going birthday party them wife confused doesent understand happened really sure myself best guess stuffing emotions finally hit limit breakdown,1 +cant anymore want toi want strong brave fighting good fight anymore want hurt stop want world stop want stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop please,1 +fun night friends alot fun drunk hung hours home sad lonely feel like burden everyone always struggled silence i hate fill it definitely talk much insist sharing opinionshere thoughts jotted making posti talk muchi share muchi push opinionsi accept social ques to shut up always need air realizationsobservations confident opinions confident social skills get home alone analyze behaviour want die kill myself feel like everyone tolerates would happier deadi imagine upset died either feel validated sadness or pained relieved would gone anyone else feel way know do desperately need socialize miss friends see them everytime socialize friends go home feelings almost feels worst sitting home doi g nothing alone one know keep going like this want alone feelings scare fuck literally want die make stop loss know keep going like thisi love friends never indicated annoy but feel know do adhd absolutely cannot stop talking soon let guard down know continue living like this depressed spending time friends,1 +redbull monke bbc nature doc hentai best world,0 +life fucking jokelike said life fucking joke nothing really worth preserving despite average optimist would tell anything offer im going cultivate might laziness might something else breakthrough tonight perfect time frame im finally going bite dust could built stress summer id prefer really ideal time would first year move house distance family friends eventually forget theyd probably never know at least death cover well even find would long grief would minimal comment like damn shame personally think perfect perhaps posted sanctioned redflag something idk maybe subconscious holding maybe im comfortable ,1 +meme speaks truth ampxb httpspreviewredditbboerywnbipngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbafdedeaedeeceda,0 +last strawalrightive posted another acc forgot password comes throwaway many numbers alright soi suffer severe paranoiai feel im constantly watchedlistened even people know thoughtsi think might bipolari stress ass schoolmy step mum gets drunk makes day even worsei also huge fear abandonment like things lifemy dogsmom gf thing ismy gf lives england dontshes also suicidal raped stufg wont get unless think wanna know ig ifwhen doesnt respond dayseither mum took phone shes thinking even almost attempting kill herself thing isshe hasnt responded days nowwhich worries like alotsince thats longest hasnt responded since met diesi think ill kill bc im also sick told im young depressed like treated joke real shit really hope replies soon bc fuck dont wanna diei want done lifebut im afraid comes after help pleasei need ideas tell kill want that,1 +working sexfactory takes sexy animal machine makes sex x times quicker warm result make fade away go bedsheets stuff little skunk legs badger legs use fur like black opaque tights trapped together mold shape private organs however fell comfortable put skinny badger body bite body play day please come waiting years penis big right want animals consent play hours hours penis molded like burnt candle done playing become infertile thousands baby skunk badgers eat rape choke necks sit faces sex years end food little children tiny carrot sticks penises post facebook show people shape spinal cords look like months playtime,0 +wish luck guys imma tell crush like monday thats it ulterior motives whatsoever,0 +hi everyone im really bored u want dm talk im m looking someone talk to filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +really want go kill right now think im going toim gonna go sit parking lot shirt clog exhaust thing want die idk long itll take im sorry havent able say things wanted family im sorry didnt get take pictures phone see everything ive taken years cause dont social media dont upload anywhere wanted something remember theyll nothing crying hard,1 +st ab bed yse l f i stabb ed yself tim es n che st wit h butc hers knife ther es blo od e ryw here im layi ng n th e bat hroom flo n mu ch p ain ca n ba ly pe th is,1 +lesbian f desperately longing girlfriend ever since puberty shy chubby teenager many unrequited crushes straight girls late teensearly s try meet queer women near me mainly online dating led dates notredflag and made uncomfortable anyway social redflag queer dating pool small anyway also screw general depressed college dropout living relatives working dead end job probably never amount anything like women would breaking door date anyway still find longing love sex breaks heart see almost everyone know datingmarried move obsession accept probably never happen make peace it and please responses like just go try do give up trying realistic specifically asking help accept probably inevitable accept probably never lovesex,1 +girls actually like chubby doods pretty fucking insecure working take,0 +alcohol poisoningi curious much would take die drinking weigh lbs dads liquor cabinet looks pretty stocked,1 +hang yourselfso ive wanting ive checked sites google cant find one actually works tie knot tie pull bar tighten falls down help would really appreciated,1 +years since ive seen movie forget details however loved time found plot intensely gripping climax heart stopping remember literally edge seat theatre back br br jane fonda plays los angeles reporter kimberley stumbles upon accident local nuclear power facility wants go public story aided hippie cameraman michael douglas photographed event sinister conspiracy attempts cover up jack lemmon absolutely wonderful role nuclear plants conflicted middle manager torn loyalty company doing right thing reporting perilous situation facial expressions speak volumes herebr br apart engrossing plot riveting tension film jack lemmon character superb acting performance jane fonda i huge fan time suspect moved antiwar protests taking nuclear industrybr br this movie seems intended nuclear scare tactic chernobyl three mile island notwithstanding theyre different types reactors canadian candu reactor safe well respected around world hesitate reside near nuclear power plant hours drive away friend works competent engineer apparently shut every teeny problem irregardless financial loss sincerely doubt conspiracies afoot there one hardly imagine managers highly trained operators willing risk sort meltdown whateverits absolute tomfoolery course moral spare expense effort either building facility ensuring ongoing safety br br if want western lifestyle get energy somewhere claim nuclear power never made completely safe true course perhaps volunteer coal miner else return pre electricity horse buggy days br br by means enjoy entertaining highly suspenseful movie apparently based loosely embellished true story real chiller thriller maybe even killer please get attitudes operation safety nuclear power plants it,0 +im done im cutting drugs im depression since never stoped cutting helpim gonna end,1 +interesting titlenew app lol ironically ex recommended use get him anyways today tried calling told reason kept calling thought id now told child cant handle alone hes fucking right brought me got super duper sad im invasive thoughts urge super bad things dont know fight,1 +ask people snaps like give snap gimme snappp hand ,0 +thinking life holds much painhello there next month see future moment im emotional unstable hard pay attention important parts life right im sitting train station fight girlfriend got mad left apartment went train next city assume sure current life could good think throw small web developer business debt cant find bank finance it next month at almost birthday pay know how last year family members died sister opened got raped kid business went downhill feel completely lost know deal everything once know go life girlfriend answering im worried know long want keep this,1 +im leaning toward responding able let go im sure even wanted talk make big decision kids got message pleading conversation explanation what apologized stated trying cause problems said prison something happened long time ago looks like felony probation something get revoked sent pictures children one year older children share told mother passed,1 +think anymorei think made way functional everything done life ended poorly incapable things normal people every day extremely lonely subtle context human interaction missing people like while always say something seems fine me whoever im talking suddenly gets weird look leave like im flying life blinders something keep shooting dark missing everything know keep trying anymore,1 + minutes later got message saying downstairs annie friends predrinking came down asked long said whole time annie already downstairs asked let know everyone downstairs already instead leaving room replied dont worry it big deal said seemed weird dint think tell nearly half hour rolled eyes said oh start decided worth getting annoyed bring again,0 +favourite cereal lucky charms atm filler filler filler filler filler,0 +one underrated movies s allow identify patricia arquette character find moving story woman regaining sense purpose life finding new livebr br arquettes performance brave purposefully wooden way defining characters spiritual death complete lack desire alive moves life like zombie family murdered cant see point living moving course story reawakened burmese landscape beautiful quality people landscapes primal choices forced confrontbr br boorman supports visually and hans zimmer supports one gorgeous haunting scores often static camera propensity shoot glass windows windshields etc outside looking in like arquette finds deep jungle forced choose whether fight lifebr br i recommend movie purple plain well similar story similar setting makes fascinating comparison,0 +friend jokes wants kill dont know hes serious need know get away precipicemy friend quarantined together two months now close like brother me history antidepressants regularly meetings therapist two weeks anxiety whenever can try get calm doen anxiety attack met anyone else anxiety sometimes feel dont know handle situation make better him weeks ago made redflag joke laughed let slip ever needs talk here told therapist hes getting suicidal thoughts gave pills could give day prescribed him lately hes making suicidal jokes get serious answer straight dealt ever want everything help him willing put things hold means getting better dont want close talk this need advice broach topic brings up even really joking want know redflag out open advice helpful tips help someone going this tldr friend suicidal thoughts makes jokes redflag need advice handle healthy way without making feel victimised,1 +today one days one days u yet another massive argument ur parents endure two hour car journey rain huge box ur lap obscuring ur vision whilst listening ur mums favourite song goes take im tired now leave lie shoot shoot shoot never mind fact ur ur period anyway nice day,0 +it endi know everybody going say gets easier im alone pain really am ive living shitty life years accomplished apart surprisingly graduating highschool really point grades bad chance get university ive worked shitty jobs year hated it last job im could almost see future waiting it ive apparently done something wrong likely lose job tomorrow though universe torturing me giving glimpses hope shoving face laughing me thats people though im laughing stock wherever go im fat ugly completely useless gullible believe pretty much whatever anybody tells im idiot mention shit put people always bringing bullying me first day school now years ive bullied stepped on reason let people it im nice thats hear people im nice generous people take granted ive contemplated redflag since last years ive always thought might better next year deep knew be know keep trying really dont probably going last thing ever write say anyone today day im going end all thing need decide how lot meds cabinet probably sounds like best way it,1 +weight loss egirl day ive working unofficially week im going start losing weight end goal egirl anyways kicking official count lbs thats today kind hard avoid sweets shit im posting case actually go say,0 +hey guys need advice help idk something manpersonal responsibility believe personal responsibility believe hole im dug possible climb duty find way parents wont get help though live household parents hoarders step trash become hoarder too although im high school keep giving adhd medicine father doctor mother nurse tried antidepressants made feel flat didnt like them think running away ending time ive hit wall ive always looked subreddit im sorry thought yes men support show weak need help hurts idk do wont get counselor mother calls crazy think suffer bipolar disorder reddit,1 +ive overcome thoughts longi figured got life back track would end got pills new job new bank may seem small means alot me new girl cares alot that im afraid ask want get hurt again started hanging friends ultimately fresh start time felt like control again doctor even said getting better would slowly weaned off even though im x better like still feel like world would better without me feelings depression either ive started put the mask making people believe better im still struggling feel quite weird still thinking world would better without me enough saved could even pay funeral wanted to even turned religion looking answer depression know everyones true intentions went christian school life graduated years ago know god good such seems highly fabricated i apologize offends anyone intent tldr know im still feeling way ive tried hard get better broke walls rarely depressed yet still feel like life worth living even tho getting better guess could say feel bored living like theres reason continue know id miss family stuff bother me reason im still people care want see sad,1 +feeling crush cause thing crush enimies muhuahauaha,0 +interesting got new job today asked could come am training got schedule every single day starting tomorrow go pm leave am htye still asked could come hwiuafhhhasiodd guys cmon thats fair circadium rythm,0 +financial crisis evicted house lost lighti feel like everythings gone shit fam financial problems years roll on one day evicted cant shake feeling restlessness since need take care mum time back then lost girl bcs that got college that like reason think shot this spent less time her going back almost always weekends whenever free time serious since family knew abt visited others place holidays everything went shit now miss lot year still feel yesterday tried go feel burnt out seems happy friends lost world friends mine too mind keep telling long happy cant foolmyself longer peace home studies always feel like somethings going down cant sleep want things like before go home see smile,1 +know feel shitif youre ceebs reading plz help solve acronym relating love pcmbls life pretty good look outside im still highschool im top class maths science average english also relationship well however relationship really fucks up love girlfriend alot claims seem kind bipolar personality whenever dont get love message one day mind becomes extremely negative like mini angel mini devil see movies devil know really selfish think like know cant send love message every night thats im trying break of bit context b get next part btoh us usually send acronyms b say goodnight other example iwtmy would want marry you weve suddenly last night sent another one saying pcmbls find asked said really selfish usually us kept nagging things curiosity usually spill beans time tho matter many times said plz refused would massive help someone would help solve it theres probably subreddit since ive literally felt suicidal now figured would ask here also sorry ranted much gf really love her,1 +cowches arent funny im tired people thinking cowch trend funny funny beautiful piece history needs respected actually laugh sight cowch disgusted cowches feelings too,0 +got biggest clutch got chemistry test draw diagrams thought failed it instead got percent im relieved rn lol,0 +creepyscam pms introducing showing face usually try spam post concern intro post weekend received lot scam pms fake jobssus websites reminded another issue reason censor bar face protect identity which turned joke selfie augustish got creepy pms forgot usernames wondering anyone else similar issues,0 +long wait supposed redflag prevention lifelineive chats website hour still says youre line normal tell many people ahead line need talk someone issues im having,1 +turned week ago currently summer break till next month go back college found depression gets really bad come home especially summer break longer breaks feel much better dorm like finally breathe while come home week reminded cannot stand there mother switches saying missed calling laziest person knows saying wish never me hitting me throwing things away without asking insulting get upset much more siblings dad really care complain older sister gaslights says going lot works hard takes you mom dad said want go back dorm mandatory sophomores anyway going end going going save move permanently cannot wait go back school neither crying numb hate feel powerless trigger,1 +well im legally adult im hopefully see much more,0 +think timewell bois im place life happy af instead im worst state ive ever in think tonight night goes down ill drink gin red bull get going tons isopropyl ethyl alcohol hand cleaners fuck insides ive trying figure get hell hole people call earth long time finally think way wish luck everyone im wondering im going get glimpse god empty void im ready find out good bye everyone love know miss wounds heal,1 +dm want m probably one yeah,0 +meta plea rredflagwatch subscribers post moreim coming across lot hoursold posts replies understand were hotline subscribers feel like could manage quicker response time that such id like encourage everyone reading try make effort check new show support need it posting know say thats alright check rswresourceshttpwwwredditcomrswresources leave short message let know read post heart goes them lack responses gives impression nobody cares someone lowest spilling guts strangers getting replies demoralizing especially put lot effort post seems like longer posts much less likely get response remember take nearly long read took write it thanks taking time read this get karma self posts please upvote visibility,1 +anyone want talk maybe even become friends hey there m here looking new person talk become friends with im little bit introverted might flowy convo hmu ,0 +cry helphi want die friends isolated years ago feel like waste space much anxiety everyday cant make house im idea want life feel meaning hanging dead tall place help reach peace thanks nd cool nite,1 +household itemsthat use kill pain,1 +got one question unv website common offer cookies,0 +maked new post entitle kids posted girl ho pushed tried steal phone plz goo see goid long story,0 +realized somethingi realized things happening fault afraid dad almost died stuck homeless roommates crazy drunken person im always afraid anything taken advantage classmates abused aunt uncle moms side family today afraid talk best friend suicidal thoughts feel like idiot know everyone would better without me parents spend money me none friends would care high school im going try teach failure am wish dead rope towels blankets dog leash one would care everyone would better without me,1 +ive learned something tv shows like savour every second make finale better also realise never miss something gone sincerely guy finished watching time favourite animes,0 +many times guys jumped cliff would say around ,0 +feel endsuicidal feelings since childhood checked true friends checked mental disorder checked burn checked able help parents need checked dumped wife years checked enough enough bad around know ill alone rest life children fault im strong enough swear tried,1 +envious redflagive always loner weird quirks made hard make sustain friends ive never weak minded ive always prided much body endure matter heavy weight is usually lift feelings recently ive hearing deaths accidental redflag dont really know im envious ones go it ive dark thoughts feelings couldnt act faith longing effect gets stronger days roll by,1 +cant anymorei feel trapped children reason im still living here id rather homeless living roachrat infested house bm job car nothing leave truly streets cant bare away kids buti cant keep living like this argue much get agitated super easily know do need help need guidance nights cry sleep hoping die kids wouldve long gone would anything cant wake next every morning im lost please help,1 +good ol karma lol good ol karma httpsyoutubexfoezpwqhttpsyoutubexfoezpwq,0 +im complete failure dont deserve chancesi fucking pathetic failing college third fucking time unable get bed consistent basis bc cant fucking get shit done need to fall asleep reasonable hours fuck fuck growing fuck normal ive depression years havent learned much dont deserve opportunities never deserved ones anyways wish could stay alive burden family oldest child family ruin lives siblings guess id anyways disappoints cause yearly dont feel sorry me im piece shit spoiled loser cant anything lie around feel sorry myself dont insurmountable problems esp compared others posting here never asked easy life never promised work hard deserve it ps im fat ugly im high priority rescuing also told smarthad average iq ive realized ei emotional intelligence way important dont much theres one thing know sure life something hemingway said happiness intelligent people rarest thing know,1 +redflag hotline fucking joke better talking walli waited minutes people ahead chat got in waited another hour chat automatically disconnected timed out network error part chat survey left negative review called hotline told already helped emailed resources they not im good place tonight one talk honestly think tonights night wrap car around fucking tree drive river hate fucking life hate everyone claims friends everything for cant even fucking help once hate everything myself ill never find love im short ill never life worth living goodbye everyone,1 +im doneim done ive it cant handle shit anymore want to,1 +feelmy life downhill spiral since born fuckiung piece shit ruiend many lives want fucking die scared death scared gieves panic attacks still want die maybe exist relapsed cutting today like years thoughjt done guess ill never done dont live home live someone think friend family dont want olive anymore becuase everyone hates much think im disgusting becuase disgusting fat disgusting fucking pig fucker faggot deserves rot hell deserve everything get becasyse everything fault cause problems fucked over made friend live upset cut like years too able call friend made that never forgive done ruin eveeryones lives mentally unhealthy turn make mad upset purpose dont know maybe attention know fuckingggggggg fool human race family wont talk anymore mom doesnt ebeliebe actually killm becayse ive said much tonight finally prove telling truth fuck fuck fuck fuck you mean myself fucking worst fat faggot evil destroy lives deserve sadness deserve death,1 +gonna itmy parents going town tomorrow brother school im gonna it,1 +turned last saturday first off birthday great got smash switch eshop gift card brunch favorite italian resturaunt got aswell thats important second need someone tell change number forgot got first place,0 +almost instant die born again mom taking away fact were gone want talk time eat drink yourself tricking that younnenver existed know did cant change did please remind stop looking like hate me,0 +please help want know happeningthis literally happened fuck found sister ground crying apparently hour half muscle stiffness left arm small cuts perpendicular arm itself minor blood could feel toes muscle weakness pulse guess could find well even though ive training take pulse cut arm cold extremities less so still colder normal rough times friend cut often yesterday friend cut showed sister sister think also anxiety depression hid decreased appetite socializing weeks this ive rough time almost cutkilled never actually it holy shit know please someone tell happened said drink anything even though statistics say od favorite among females find cutting device anyone know did think know why know how help bad brother fuck edit thank all know much means,1 +hold forman im done honestly keep telling its okay going okay fucking lie honestly really is tell its okay get abused ansd get screamed useless man know lame post much really anywhere else none friends really get im going blame them everytime tell im okay remember person fell love gave years life cheated multiple people tossed aside like rag obnoxious cunt who literally takes relationship advice b shit fucking not cunt went b friend exs said dubs says whether break up fucking class act dude cheated ditched for literalyl im begging patient me god damn it loved much knew anxiety ripping us apart knew patient things could get better wanted sex needed most cant even look people fucking eye speak them cant even speak people barely even online know say anymore ive lost myself past years hell gotten worse worse worse keep getting worse worse get it done deserve brutal emotional abuse cheating im really bad person think am always way god dammit it past posts comments know everyones patience wearing ridiculously thin im sorry really know else say beyond that ive forced stop posting much want annoy burden people since last post tried strangling death cord bathroom almost passed thought what embarrassing way die thought alone made throw wire neck told family rednessrashwhateveryoudcall weather getting shit excuse know dunno man really fucking want death im pussy it really want build fucking it cant get sight ex lanky moronic fuck head cant get faces everyone yelled fucking head words feel genuinely empty used tossed aside god dammit would parent fucking manipulate much have even brought world man toy abuse fun got older told need grow up figure way never got guidance got fucking screaming im anxious hell shaking even type shit feel like im panic attack know even matter anxiety attacks feel alone like seriously fucking what gives shit pertains alone problem come fucking woe me abuse seriously even know expect know im one help myself want end life theres lot good im lmao fantasize dying lay shower yes lay fucking shower like hour hour half think ways could easily one moment gone forever next know relief happiness brings me god idea blankness nothing holy fuck thinking time sense relief wish someone hated enough shoot head stab death problem make enemies want harm physically make enemies want harm mentally im already fucked god dammit please someone tell understand feels like false understanding like actually getting like past years since began feeling suicidal started attempting never felt right never felt genuinely happy kind carefree happy hear people talk about never felt that ive felt extremely strong love another person many people ex friends family lay much them ive never felt happy keep searching cant figure out feel lost beaten down parent abused growing im much done yeah got giant fight day trying tell bedtime took lock door made feel less human im child always be power life all many people power me flipped fucking lid screamed them called cunt told get fuck away me screamed go fuck off many times cant even remember many fought minutes afterward felt better even confronted first time life abuse even make feel better moving forward point unleashed sadness anger avail all thought confronting everything would first step betterment able put fucking garbage behind me wasnt step whats already inmotion early march sent love letter box gifts ex birthday broke obviously thatd fucking creepy wasnt got box broke things and far told cheated someone else already read love letter told this sweet thanks know love letters quite outdated know guess im hopeless romantic put heart wrote laid everything got equivalent cool know weird thing bring up just moment realized used years nudes gifts compliments fun little toy reinforced months fighting afterward ended cutting ties wanted keep letter reminder everything went sour realize nothing used like naive twat used cry threatened throwing away note felt like given part person never told made cry threats hope does god damn im rambling on know none matters ill likely get responses like last posts the former one comment said see guess post got removed allowed something know none really care things ive through god places throw open place therapist thats fucking sad me know death set stone die us will feel like another aspect death set stone truly fully believe die redflag even die within next months way next years decades almost like know inside heart feel like guarantee future way fucking relief lifts spirit even think it way finally even cowards way out would even want brave theres nothing end this push pretense everyone trying hurt pride calling pussy loss pride mean shit im ground really really look forward death god do want die soon,1 +im getting discouragedgtthis poem wrote gtthis one worst days life gtbut one best im still alive gti always thought things would change gti always kept hopes high eight years gtand still want die gtnow come question really change gtor ive told keep slightly alive gtmy heart still beating lungs still breathing gtbut numbness body seem cease gtmy bodys decaying somewhat already deceased gtthe rest go gtthe rest know give life gtwithout help gravity surface tension tall bridge gt gtthe worst getting worse feel worthy disease physical external illness coincide feels much reason sad somehow am feel nearly everyday better dead,1 +life sucks years old m gpa about get lower depression started put special math class school years ago absolutely hate school ok friends rarely go out mom died family stress out dad expects much me stepmom gold digger mental problems moved away city liked years ago go school bunch stuck rich kids good everything really hate school district huge crush popular girl grade way league like way out im naturally quiet introverted im lazy ambition recently diagnosed adhd get anxiety everything hate voice find hard talk also hate name sounds weird dont want college one things society forces successful dont want go cc get job hs im kind considering military dont like yelled at life really worth point idea fucking dont see getting past ,1 +need someone talk last hoursi cant stand it everything suck at suck debate matters cause one asshole made every debater country looks like monster world shit need go,1 +feel like im break crying sometimesfor reason,1 +realise lot trouble thought were know energy get back itso ive drifting along couple years now tried back then get gp refer assessment therapy counselling anything messed around dragged heels confident i lost heart see trying lose weight get surgery done surgery going change life going thing finally let get living lose weight kept sabotaging myself let it know know it understand why stop get surgery give theatre stage manager one thing really made feel like me made feel alive lived for cant anymore top day job cant make enough professionally quit day job give up day day gave everything else too just lost myself almost years cant go gym anymore cant even go large supermarket bought new clothes replace stuff need work room full craft materials tools musical instruments get dustier work now work laundry cooked proper meal since maybe october washed dishes since november laundry office job know just one thing day take pride it thing know recognise good things pleased them stuff ive gone mindfulness exercises ive thought people love reasons want stick around realised id slowly given clawing back things used life remember when point stopped even pretending plans anymore going get surgery give six months get back together going look going back school get qualified something bore craziness going move apartment somewhere want live going take running again point accepted none things ever going happen want way thats way is realise crashed call emergency line weeks back actually really bad way assessment phone basics and know actually answer questions back back black white yeah realised im ok ive telling long keep going long im still working ironing shirts getting office every day cant that bad right right think might bad world grown smaller smaller greyer greyer is me ironing board office job feel bored days really really know keep screaming me support network me safety net me think really want anymore thats problem ive realised ive lost knack wanting things remember go wanting things want anymore absence things want less tired want less stressed out want spend less time sitting nights want stop noise head finally possibility getting psychiatric assessment ill know whether happening within week happening energy start running around track again power left start see time really want over im control freak want someone come take away make better want someone come fix me allow kind thing want able fix myself want able pick up dust start mending myself just think it think ive got enough me left with even finally get assessment done prescribe something finally get therapy ive pursuing long stuff takes much energy ive done therapy know well incredibly hard work want work hard it do im exhausted even thinking it taken long enough fuel left get ground time im person ive got rescue me friends wonderful friends cannot ask things them cant bring ask anything except strangers just cant it cant bear it im person ive got rescue longer think it ive depressive episodes before experienced kind protracted longing death since teens im years old magically get well next months itll still take years lose enough weight get surgery done another year waiting list ill done dusted decade alone decade lost wasted stuck shitty little apartment stacks dishes ignore ringing silence late long great plan dying planning pack shit going move house going tell everyone id got job canada thats id met someone online going go id pack shit put stuff wanted leave people labelled storage carefully crossreferenced will letters going move new place city ive never before mail key secondclass police letter telling theyd find set bathtub caring neighbours brokenhearted friends left appointments still hanging calendars cant bring pack cant bring anything im terrified im going get therapy run battery completely flat end floating here alone unable even work unable put key envelope stuck unable die dreadful dreadful twilight photocopy life hope anymore even know want hope back just want over bad want stop know know matters anyway needed put somewhere thank you,1 +things scared shit little garfield halloween special smoky bear goosebumps vampire breath warm bodies absolutely anything zombies micheal jacksons thriller still scares me,0 +want improve lifeim sick it never got drivers license never got job never money whats point living cant get job fuck kill right now oh things get better say wont life literally gone downhill im tell nothing life improve want spend time looking jobs instantly reject me drivers license costs thousands even get im going begging streets im going fucking kill soon possibly can im done fuck world fuck poor am nobody seems understand matter much think things get better me even did worth whats going right now ill come back half hour check replies this want convincing really do cant find single reason live bring family friends family reason poor shitty spending habits spend literally hundreds per fortnight cigarettes friends jobs want hear brought up change anything,1 +normal feel like thisrecently ive feeling like im letting life pass really anything know found purpose life constantly feel worthless wonder fuck here however whenever feel little calm think current situation realize that outside things really bad love support family least this turn leaves disgust even thinking killing makes feel even worse feels like value life minimal nonexistent that even food table roof head family loves all life opportunities life still somehow manage feel like inside feel useless like never meant alive even deserve love shown others want feel like cant help blame way feel think poor choices made feels like chain thats time feel scared talking anyone feel alone needed ask someone tldr feel like depressed am makes feel even worse,1 +dear umapmanmap saw post tiktok girls know comments said post name ufuse_helium said people say they dont speak mexican fuse must give vietnam flashbacks time teacher told spanish kid class speak mexican rd fucking grade tell eight yearolds dont speak language exist literally spanish think spanish comes mexico call mexican im gonna bad dreams bye,0 +girl animal crossing island lets say im trading diy recipes pretty often her,0 +great ideas life couldnt submit anywhere one cared notebook write ideas in idea analog keyboard example even drew schematic linear switch around months company wooting one made fiirst analog keyboard linear switches idea ive ideas make internal combustion engine efficient done around years ago ive idea ai dlss ai framerate generator ive ideas even nvidia made them way work exact made wrote notebook sometimes wonder someone reading mind sometimes ,0 +anyone talk hey guys im bored asf anyone talk hit dms,0 +shame transgenderi never son im supposed be want kids want god damn dick girlfriend deserves better this dysphoria bad tonight cant even look long else ill want disappear disgust embarrassment hate body mine amount surgery hormones money change biological birth im never going accept fact wasnt born male supposed put smile say body everyday literally feel like screaming tearing guts throat could cis day would make year mind constantly filled only if gets tiring pain becomes physical people really feel pride facade make okay cant fake anymore life fucked im trans im never going real man im also girl im nothing dont deserve alive anyway im disgusting mutation feel guilty ashamed im exhausted cry nothing help want die want fucking normal life instead outsider like always am,1 +since robot arm emoji knew arm actually heck,0 +sex actual girl gravedigger like manage dig grave wtf,0 +whats thing cchie man mean story behind it built different phrase come from cchie man born,0 +hopehttpsyoutubecyhejlya,1 +feel abandoneddue mental illnesses dropped school felt people cared actual care existence since about months ive realized one cared people texted time thought general interest wrong needed homework dropped one texted me yesterday cake day single person texted me would understand know social media snapchat facebook ect realized one texting figured busy decided text closest friends none seemed interest talking me one said youre alive figured dead feel like maybe good option,1 +girl wotermelon soooo sweet inside,0 +film cult movie metal is premise kid gets hold final recording favorite artist sammy curr recently dies hotel fire plays backwards summons back dead get revenge name heavy metal btardly jocks torment him fan true metal enjoy movie metal head tormented jocks play sammy curr album backwardsno wait fictitious well get hold movie watch fist air head banging volume ,0 +im sociopath kill continue hurt people destroy themlets face facts admit one truth people seriously deserve planet killed off people likes hitler instance admit that right people sociopathspsychopaths suffer serious mental disorders causes harm others person behind etc people simply killed off thats true categorized one people and kill save others sorry long wall text but need get something chest and just idk cant handle anymore im going start recently go back just idk end anybody actually reads way guess idk kill everything ive done past know theres rules mean people here need persons honest opinion like legitimately feel like im horrible person tell me know people keep telling im horrible feel horrible im even going defend actions list them honestly actions unforgiveable matter excuse was recently something extremely badly and well grandma cancer longer does extremely bad newsuh still cant admit happened far believe still hospital refuse visit cant see her yeah uh yeh hopsital yeah anyways ever since then fiance drifted apart drastically talked every day talked day every day like week like weeks without talking top that would throw huge tamper tantrum whenever talked anybody all past half years anybody talk to except recently posted rr lot worked nonstop delivery services picking food delivering customers saying enjoy open door extent human interaction so mean logically im pretty messed up humans need human interaction right begged fiance talk me begged her yelled her demanded attention once kept getting worse ignoring me became demanding got bad i i spent days without talking other grandmas funeral coming next week i needed attention badly refused told her id post nudes online continues treating way continues ignoring me spent days threatening her finally posted nudes online eventually deleted nudes deleted everything but still teacher couldve lost job told just say hi press send post nudes online even that much apparently posted nudes and went police everything wanted restraining order stop posting nudes honestly thought care anymore mean even say hi me so order push away order us break up order somebody grandmas funeral date coming up desperately either needed us break seek somebody else just platonic friendship found needs start me even me so break us posting way could get hate enough break me manipulative sociopathic say told somebody jail this and called sociopath like woooah woooah dude holy fuck remind mess fucking sociopath know kidding but think serious thinking im sociopath well im facing extortion revenge porn lot misdeameners think da pressing charges know wanted go far know didnt wanted say hi me give human interaction know talk talk out send letter da drop charges but restraining order place theres nothing do im fucked happened feel extremely horrible because spent time jail thinking past came be friend committed redflag around time grandma grieving and needed other begged talk drifted away now heres im suicidalim gonna list things one abused really badly abuse imagine id probably suffered it similar two abused people often become abusers three im pretty attractive guy never got relationship feared becoming abuser ready relatioship even think getting one otherwise id abuse them hurt them four dated first girlfriend thought ready relationship counseling enoughnope broke im abusive words mine five spent next years single going abuse another person going risk it fiance entered life abusers name brought up extremely pissed fiance hugged calmed down thought ready relationship could that im ready wasnt rely somebody else calm down need calm down six spent years counseling years trying get better yet years old still abusing love life betrayed way never going recover from realized vulnerable was theres nothign become better ive tried years counseling since and im still piece shit person sevenand this dont think care much hurt her much hurt me abandoning me forcing solitude years hearing desperately needed her really care hurting care is hurt her promised would never abuse another person abusing her and hate it matter person care theyre getting hurt care im one abuse hate turning step father eight make sociopath care hurt put situation begged just say hi me ill stop demanding say hi difficult that talk me nine serious anger issues suppose posted nudes betrayed trust talk me reals ten im scared im angry legitimately scared black out remember single thing im pushed limit do things eleveni gotten pushed limit years im still scared do last time sophomore high school senior football player threw football face hurt way step dad would slap face ptsd kicked in rampage ensured got ball threw hard could aimed balls remember this pushed limit yet ran off went fifth period completely shaking entire period went sixth period guy there pushed corner escape way out pissing offso lost it pushed limit remember happened next thing knew hiding corner school crying much teacher found me calmed down brought back next thing know im facing serious charges stick wanted sue me again care dude care fact that lost control anger hurt another person care hurt him care something wrong twelve used play runescape lot twas addicted grandpa works computer lets use work computer play usually get hours school and play long possible hes losing moneyanyways wants go bed pm stay till am keep bitching him cant anything hes told go bed lost it blacked out grandpa laying stairs completely unconscious head bleeding i almost killed him couldve killed himjust alone dead right fell stairs couldve exxtremely bad luckily die guess what still care died cared that lost control anger became like step dad abused another person sociopathic thought right thirdteen uh backtrack last year grandma cancer hospitall on on her on bed uh bed bed never came by bear see stateever since foudn cancer ive distancing her even attend funeral work care enough go wanted work fourteen baby sister two one im attached would anything protect saw grow up there love her around all years because idk family never asked over never came over mean theyd ask sister over ask too anyways baby sister im attached almost died er icc everything and never came by wanted work instead need money deliveries pay much im barely surviving homeless living van work father came er couple weeks ago cared enough visit so im sociopath right fifteen unless somebody benefits me like gives something free rent food money expect something them ill talk them otherwise dont even talk me thats super selfish it grandpa bought motorcycle talked every day got it got it stopped talking him lot going recently maybe thats talked him but part thinks stopped talking longer expect give anything sixteen went jail talked mom dad first time years needed bail something seventeen literally going right now finally got job career three months working longer homeless finally get life together finally make something life grandpa stroke needs come visit stay couple weeks simply want to want stay show worth company keep years come love here want lose job lose career lose life go support grandpa like thats truly socipathic it eighteen honestly feel way turned killing people because ive never crossed lines grandpa gave set moral compass upon time and blurred lines crossed lines anything recently even jaywalked id scared outcome anyways one day sitting home alone everybody supposed gone entire night cat came my badly wanted choke cat hands around neck etc somebody came home let cat go crossed line idk feel like couldve easily moved humans just everybody keeps telling life get better etc move past this move on nobody understands something just move on move past yes breaking fiance heart broken her this making extremely suicidal but im suicidal because treat people way behave act think emotions empathy care anything know enough sociopaths shit like that ever since child mean dog hated me thats red flag it dog scared sociopathic child thats idk dog never liked me probably kept things it cat died wanted see body and play it anybody seen dexter feel exactly like dexter hell even love blood like does id love cut live human see react id love see scream much pain inflict id love see much make react mere thought brings excitement lots excitement and ive never done anything to try and anything like it get pet id scared id treat pet maybe opportunity kill dog cat child swear wouldve became like dexter im serious scared continue dark path know know become serial killer ive scared pass lines always sticking moral guideline grandpa instilled mefollow law letter even jaywalk otherwise putting situation lines get blurred seriously hurt somebody ei release nudes internetwhich exactly did lines blurred thats got far im sociopath,1 +im ready lets get dooveri done point havent felt good years due sexual abuse constant bullying dreams goals going drain religious hope god reincarnation real want get doover born better life done struggle go every day thanks illnesses diagnoses contemplating redflag years feel like whatever lets already point life death doesnt scare me truly terrifies feel fucking good thinking redflag really gone far but might try holding little bit longer surgery want hopefully help me doesnt im done im setting time place method cant stand life anymore point feel like life way rigged people like me actually rigged even people born fortune life hard even them fucking impossible us thank world may fuck hard,1 +moms birthday paternal aunties really mean dont even wish her wish ill show wishes her shell love those shes absolutely gorgeous,0 +seems pathetici know itll seem pathetic say this ill get dont worry girl dumped likely long distance thing get fuck it dont know man hurts im sure ill kill dont know really find right page make kinda post never really used reddit lurked fuck though hurts ive tried messaging abit nothing looks snapchats stuff nothing more maybe pathetic im room midnight crying feel lost dont lot confidence dating cause never dated high school never knew whole flirt thing hurts hurts want talk hear voice hear say love infinity beyond like always did im sorry long post,1 +im even sorry eyes flirt food guysss,0 +warning post dad joke realized quaranteens ill see,0 +hey usocksareverycool okay hes inactive even though really active couple days ago,0 +movie directed renny harlin finnish miracle stallone gabe walker cat mouse mountains ruthless terrorists renny harlin knows direct actionmovie stallone needed role get back track snowy mountain good place action movie better direct movie snow ice cold bad weather finnish man action good music film spectacular bad guy john litghow stars micheal rooker portrait serialkiller janine turner strong medicine placed beautiful place exciting movie overall good movie br br remember extreme lit special collectors edition good extras comig soon finland straight video,0 +confession sortsfirst id like emphasise redflag note dying time soon despite wish would ive lost hope recently redemption hitting kind hard something horrible fucking repulsive irredeemable around fourteen made many mistakes surrounding titular coming age type experience repressed hid away recesses mind come night me thoughts ringing ears reason im writing years ago crime id wish nothing death torture upon perpetrator someone else god wish someone else that kills inside know reality freak nightmare im monster horrific so words try try earn penance give peace using life protect people give peace need take life take life id wish sick individual position wish hell violence nothing afterlife hope hot horrible really do maybe small confession really sins give amount temporary peace im sure wont much manipulated manipulated embarrassed hope remember do god knows pain live really hope caused damage due actions retard child yr old me fuck im taking chance get it,1 +im tired want now years planet filled every kind abuse think of abandonment loss icing cake ptsd diagnosis thanks years hell hands ex never escape son perfect little boy permanent link horror ex never stop ive tried everything life now im tired want over want peace ive tried talking people family understand see toll takes partner see stress worry eyes sleep constant nightmares burden useless broken shell cannot add anything positive anyones life would happier without me would finally get rest thats want want rest,1 +could rchilledteens rteenagers without trauma sometimes bit saddening scrolling seeing sad people areithttpsareit would flairs exevpt serious,0 +first kiss like cloud sky like star night glow her flirting years now today day movies leaned romantic part locked lips,0 +daddy issues exactly mean many use term idrk exactly means like father left abused something,0 +saymy best friend suicidal goes months hes fine crashes want end all know well trusts much past relapses completely honest pretty sure know better anyone else however draining managed keep anything past times worst done small cut however really afraid going say wrong thing going something going react bad way say make snap make feel better personal things know get really deep stage last time barely worked read how act forums need specifics please help out,1 +bother hi reddit im lurker great digg migration im days every day comes closer seems remind life pointless high school attempting college even pointless money go school become pharmacist which hell even want do actually think getting ahead myself think start family father christian forceful nonbeliever abusive anything alcoholic mom brother taunting shit father encourages it all hate family think originally caused depression use forced take mothers bottles street found drunk loved vodka school smart high school slacked continue slack time graduated sure got accepted oregon state money friends nerds gamers throughout highschool friends think thing keeping together high school never knew issues home because well want know embarrassing really helped hold together dungeons dragons sure bring hate love game think thing really care anymore eight hours away friends i moved three days graduating longer able play looked locally people play meet groups made friends work experience one wants hire family continues remind this makes feel even lower relations gender basically one fling past farthest ever got first base once pretty sure lesbian least bisexual now so really wish could kill myself lack ability go it yeah coward know kill myself would know would come next emptiness nonexistence think scares even depression tldr hate life lack courage kill myself life hates back,1 +shit im even joking bothered go bathroom im sitting poop,0 +feel like girlfriend avoiding me dont know why weve together three days feel like get less attention compared back friends similar thing told like too avoiding talking whenever to making things awkward need be bad still isnt spending much time would imagined maybe mind is spending enough time me certainly doesnt feel like it know pretty small problem dont know do pls help,0 +signals snapchat theres girl started talking snap work together added snap day weve talking lot im good dating thing interpreting signals unless obvious pretty much every snap sends me eyes closed making kissy face silly face always adds something like hahaha responding snaps mean anything,0 +keep ruining every friendship havefor many years ive known something wrong me go depressive phases push people away think killing myself kind ruin every friendship have little week ago tried kill baker acted days talked doctor diagnosed borderline personality disorder still think killing constantly throughout day constantly think go far again know complete right place post this figured feelings would every friend pushed away one support group had lost ive resorted drinking taking pain killers im drinking numb pain have im supposed getting meds help depression going wait insurance kick in know much longer be think weeks least know every day things get harder harder friends talk acted im victim this could controlled actions said things did tried push away still make pain less feel alone want friends back,1 +nice description situation us explains different kinds islam show terrorist extremist islam thing killing show people become terrorist muslim without extremist great series muslims nomuslims see hope series films done change idea muslims terrorist americans want destroy islam gave interest discover islam exactly us also european government help cohabitation people different religion,0 +post nut clarification hitting hard came onto closet wall fell like committed war crime,0 +pedophile problem solve multiple posts subreddit pedophiles people harassing users subreddit heres problem subreddit kinds users intended users ie teenagers referred prey here group ill call predators predators browse subreddit order find target important understand find targets difficult task however especially itll change behavior prey changes also different predators different targeting strategies everyone target others choose random others might take look age tag one save way targeted seems posting picture face trying avoid targeted specific case someone asked help learning language harassed year old creep straight texting send nudes started showing intentions while opinion best tactic avoid targeted rather find targeted act right way safe way targeted post comment better tactic identify predator act accordingly important thing careful information give internet long know know live look like literally cant anything except messaging you annoying harmful stop time ignoring said sometimes sneaky obvious intentions advice people following someone message directly check profiles anything else look suspicious details post history example low karma posts comments weirdcreepy postscomments think theyre safe message back cautiousness give information gave posts already less links you easier cut contact reveal predator example way contacting reddit account block thing worry secondary accounts work creates new account leave old one behind however someone email address discord account phone number etc becomes increasingly hard cut life summarize careful information give people post pictures face ignore obvious creeps careful write make sure cut contact things get weird need help advice want tell someone troubles message me im happy help,0 +yever fart loud zoom reminds mute gonna hell week,0 +bruh actually needa make alt alt need stop creating controversy jdjdjdjdjd,0 +coming someone super introverted usually find comfort extra time myself lot literally friends declined scholarship overseas planned year long it supposed sweet escapeif may call like that apparently many applicants grew strict parents extremely narcissistic literally told basically people suck really need anyone else yes happened now andi literally nobody work job pay well kills called family pretends get me sad work out self aware unproductivity watch movies considered taking life want die much give however feeling extremely lonely work home pretty much anywhere know want post something instagram absolutely nothing going life overwhelmed even look terrible me feel atrociously lonely,1 +attracted chris hansen httpsimgurcomakxhqywd every time says take seat want get show presence want whisper hes chris hansen dateline nbc theyre investigation men try sleep underage girls,0 +debate capitalism doesnt cause innovation black people disproportionately targeted police blm good fascism cringe trump lowkey fascististics legalise drugs dollar minimum wage kinda based anarcho monarcho bidenism cool,0 +cant tell alive im listening shine crazy diamond strong taste mint weed mouth im home alone im seeing things around house arent supposed see want end,0 +hey im bored ask stuff m nothings limits u number game u want penis penis penis penis penis,0 +know why feel like blocking girl met online need help got know girl f feel like except much me first want relationshi she either nice talk to talked called discord later got snap etc couple months lately feel like shit know one time things end text anymore would leave her never met het irl know looks like get wrong shr probably one nicest ne nicest girl ever talked to sometimes wanna talk think deserve her go talk people closer her stranger met online cant block her broken would dick another mistake asking picture snap something never share random matter long talk him maybe overreacting little bitch,0 +sorry mistakes romanian depression ,1 +wtf wrong people playing among us yesterday girl started talking eventually gave snap stayed late talking eventually asked out around go said goodbye morning opened app send streaks saw message said snap pending adds friend first time girl unadded nowhere dont know girls like this doesnt feel good talking someone unadded you know always thier control knows coulda overprotective parent could least say something it want know this girls say men trash shouldnt exist the go shit happened another guy id like hear see many people happened with,0 +failurealmost month later im finally hospital funny try kill yourself get sent psych ward afterwards sit room color only dull crayons see therapist every day listens minutes ushering door still dont meds still dont help liver damage insanely expensive hospital bills sense failure god real must really wanna watch suffer,1 +threw life away abusive mentally ill man nothing see reason continuetwo years ago making year rented lovely apartment life great except depressed lonely bored decided treat extravagant three week holiday hawaii met man spent whole weekend together pretty fantastic though quite red flags went him chose ignore thinking vacation fling fast forward two years thought met someone loved me met disturbed mentally ill alcoholic controlling emotionally abusive addicted codependant quit excellent secure well paying job moment dilusion thinking going move hawaii get married finally broke february take anymore unemployed soon homeless june th able pay rent anymore best friends longer want friends completely hopeless life worth living think redflag often im years old single skills education im currently going counselling last money helping every job ive ever done ive hated every single minute even good one want work want anything want lie hole wait die,1 +seasoned fan italian thrillers directors dario argento mario bava sergio martino aldo lado thought lucio fulci overrated hack seen beyond think totally overrated found new york ripper simply appalling particularly like house cemetery three movies left conclude fulci least interesting italian filmmakers stubbornness prevailed check films city living dead film found interesting torture duckling nearly masterpiecebr br set small town italian countryside repressive religious community young boys murdered authorities clueless whos behind crimes especially prime suspect cleared eager young reporter along rather slutty girl who seduces young boys investigate eventually get bottom itbr br brilliant atmosphere combined good story good cast not always case s italian thrillers make torture duckling crackling good thriller plot well constructed easily figured end conclusion satisfying fulci creates dynamic atmosphere repression guilt unforgiving ignorant community creates strong visuals particularly scene woman gets beaten death local townsfolk fulcis social commentary concerning religion innocence quite edgy every aspect well handled thinking zombie flicks ultra violent giallo new york ripper amazing well balances critique explicit violence makes even stronger point far seen fulci film made professionally onebr br while traditional giallo film duckling many genres trademarks fulci displays complete control format going overboard unconvincing goremoment overall seems even better making mysteries full blown gore epics extreme scenes much powerful really pack punchbr br so far torture duckling fulcis best film far opinion edgy social commentary combined explicit scenes violence crackling good mystery boot,0 +hey one days miss you wish right now wanted share emotions understand me sadly situation allow it probably think betrayed you bothering first place feed energy okay know do need words peace manage read this tho doubt never will want peace soulmate,1 +need help plz laptop died discord call im looking charger cannot find people call still hear didnt leave call close tab come back call still open like idk do,0 +want someone talk toim terrible day today morning called ugly racist attention whore rude different people today im sitting crying class cant stop thinking redflag need someone talk right now friends family could talk,1 +ive got nothingso fucked real bad got stupid shit fault know it older brother tried kill himself times broke me like seriously broke me dont know else say it ive tried everything get better honestly im now ive done therapy ive tried talk hes fine honestly hes well ive done well too ive worked hard somehow ive fucked it got drugs bad lot good job im trying recover make work keep falling back in im debt lot debt nobody knows im scared life insurance death service policy family would supported best friend girlfriend would get twice salary each plus more keep thinking hanging recently predominant thought head hurt it dont know do im pretending manage cant keep pretending k debt repay dont know it im gone nobody mind debt go theyll get money help themselves right,1 +know else turnyesterday person talked problems told geniuely hang already basically friend weve friends years cried almost three hours ivr bad mood swings either nothingness anger deep sadness want bother one else know theyll probably thing another person already lied caring friend im scared message call redflag hotline feel much anxiety im scared go anywhere else im even scared say reddit actually want die feel safe reaching help dont know else turn help right im really hoping made post right losing right think killing myself,1 + im still horndog reddit listening musicals baseball game tomorrow wtf wrong rn,0 +temporary problemi want die want get stabbed shot die way want die now fail fucking class somehow weasel way failing want die want struggle even worse classes next quarter get that want die ill even worse classes get that still want die im alone temporary problem never ending supply temporary problems whats prize end nothing choice end freed suffering keep taking years overcoming obstacles pain time obvious choice like going change world like theres anyone love worth fighting for want die want find someone love fight life happy them im fucking delusional know unrealistic is death lesser two evils,1 +want diei hate this covid everything bad hate al wish dead cant buy gun dont think anything worth anymore ive trying feel better encouraging people live subreddit cant dont feel same,1 +best french movie year saw twice found great times think boring even though long hours im seventeen obviously get live events may marked extremely important turn french history really matter since still really enjoyed film actually quite universal people parents age identify characters people age garrel seems perfectly understand young people way think complications love well loss illusions concerning possibility changing world maybe thats character played louis garrel his sonis actually meant represent philippe garrel himself well anyway great movie action have honest point strong feelings cant possibly stay indifferent it looking relaxing sundayevening movie waste time this disappointed like cinema like les amants rguliers bewitching movie close made s s nouvelle vague artists,0 +im obsessed wanting dieive got note written already ive read ton peoples last words redflag notes wish could fakedie see people say im gone know get better know stress exhaustion pass ill get better point life know depression cycle matter long live many stupid positive affirmations tape bathroom mirror want die again im morbidly curious,1 +cannot go studies would like people say work physically rest life life probably worse death believe life death fact go hell restrains me me life earth hell painless way kill yourself buy poison sometimes death best happen us,1 +responsible way depart single parentthe story long complex tl dr version single father x years now son handicapped work significance meaning unable feed us since unable get government benefits despite best efforts working reunite estranged mother clinically depressed labeled sex offender future speak of plan to next three months transition back mother left child end things myself please judge past responsible way wrap things up,1 +fuck yallill delete hours reading fuck you scared think theres better life anywhere think cant anything know what want deserve live yet here go around ill kill myself ill kill depression something chose care doctor psychiatrist told anxiety adhd whatever bullshit want hear excuse seek attention ability read this thats it posses enough find yourself know care im sick im making fun even though looks like am im sure im breaking tons rules right now want say fuck comment things like wrong real medical condition yeah mothers friends diagnosed heavy stages cancer none died cus knew wont believed believed doctors know english sentences grammatically wrong fuck fuck fuck,1 +chest different feeling would feel fire chaotic feels wrong like medical danger year old woman,1 +job makes want die well weightplease help understand get terrible anxiety going work first would like explain fat year old female works grocery chain bakery department everyday work hate more customers really mean small things like donuts things packaged hurt feelings constantly want cry work im stuck taking counter cleaning open close options time either work am pm coworkers get angry quickly atmosphere gets tense want crawl hole get passive aggressive mad cant take every customer weight try lose weight impossible living dad buys pizza junk food time shop hard ignore temptations gained fifty pounds six months so sad hate working tight uniform matter gets tighter even newer uniform replaced old one tight im sure never please think redflag work lot want end im home tend feel better hate public places scared want work anymore hard even get dressed morning all quit job pay car insurance thats basically im working im going college thats already prepaid thanks parents worry books could maybe take loans idea job made hate much want die everyday work,1 +holup havent done hey libtard shitpost hours hmmmmmmmm bruh brain think filler filler filler,0 +constantly feel like shit see ever happyno matter many steps forward try take life feel like im running place doomed keep falling flat face job sucks raise barely anything still make enough ever afford live own plus stress running entire company sole employee crushing causing fuck school even school people genuinely mentally retarded bar set pretty low fucked midterms which sucks major basically entire identity admitting fucking suck thing im supposed good at risk needing essentially take semester ever getting parents house even overcome bullshit somehow manage live own think would make anywhere near happy think ill ever allow happy id really love blow money booze bullshit kill rather cleaning neverending mess life top off since im crazy depressed people get along crazy hell well every time date someone slits wrists fingernails argue reminder im crazy loved anyone psycho ill never worth someone elses time lives impossible standards anyone nearly normal ghosts long ones stick around insane desperate like me want go back therapy ive tried therapy onoff since th grade first attempted redflag none done much anything me last one never said anything likeever insight offer argued minutes get speak repeating insight already said uncertain terms one likely molested one patients lost license one misdiagnosed bpd turned irrelevant conversation one drinking far problematic truly awful enough told friend raped asking it ontop that even find someone competent solution problems problem fucking suck fail attempting change im reminded pushing forward fucking sunk cost fallacy grandest level,1 +right start see anchors aweigh great comedy gene kelly frank sinatra make funny team songs sing together pure entertainment kathryn grayson gorgeous really sweet dean stockwell cutiest child actor ive never seen fond piano amazed jos iturbi movie first one combine animation real actors wonderfully unforgettable dance number undoubtedly one kellys funniest movies,0 +ngl think im bisexual dont know im gonna tell people close like mom big homophobe,0 +money saving hope get want be cannot wait longer saving year struggling heavily alcoholism depression redflag isolation last seven years turn caused fail drop college two years ago six years never able gethold job long past year starting feel somewhat better passed opportunity make stock market january guess what missing golden opportunity caused chase getting money again caused lose k nearly months paychecks opportunities best life ever since got high school messed up year old virgin friendless college dropout loser lives parents social skills trade skills talents useless nothing special me make mom depressed already due failures want think anymore drowning shame regret know myself cannot undo it thing jump cliff smoke cigarettes lungs collapse hope life nightmare know one really help want nothing okay loving positive force world mind fucked up lost half life savings stock market taken profits could got greedy lost money instead truly crushed me nothing else,1 +important announcment pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo check pee pee poo poo 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unemployed summer i mean ive always jobless lol like happened last year fighting boss hard really far exams concerned im fine guess worries stuck rest summer basically nothing money anything all stupid fuck focus studies continues creep me feeling left situation were in really worry im penniless now ive spent everything have groceries essential shit survival shit there know im going post honest but upsets me exams lean onto now comes after remains mystery me still hope stay alive then ive tried freelancing jobs online im still trying translations proofreading stuff like since thats line work response them looking good either page upwork fiverr empty despite lowering prices lol looks likes slavery tbh one reaching via mail even old clients serious letdown honestly know im ever going survive upcoming summer know im going want stay alive exams feel useless im sorry rant needed vent take weight shoulders im sorry know do needed someone listen thanks reading,1 +letter myself know asked many times choose hurt thought would helpful get chest though feeling pleasurable sensation trail blood follows is blood escapes stress anxiety worries go it im left feeling calm finally breathe again especially rewarding im feeling depressed cant cry usually always unfortunately calmness washes away starting cycle over depression pretty common feel disconnected numb reality physical pain brings back reminder still alive often disappoints know healthy harm sign trouble cannot stop addiction vice cannot stop want need to,1 +think ill make weekendi think life anything offer me im simply incapable interact correctly people im diagnosed depression since treatment since then im tired reasons keep this reason thought posting here think change anything though ill dead monday probably may good,1 +guys need help figuring girl work crush not posted last night died new plz help backstory work grocery store showing i vaulted top cart train mostly reason said something strong must be told hard mostly abs arms jokingly said probably eighteenpack something laughed her said wouldnt trouble getting girlfriend eighteenpack went silent seconds changed subject dont know thats normal not cant tell if complimenting strength shes flirting nice dont understand girls all also answer questions provide details comments needed please help,0 +didnt get good morning text today already am,0 +anyone contact uhereismyusername please let knowits incredibly important me,1 +got followers idk yeah im happy filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +great disappear ha would life would fun everyone complains anyway not painless way would simply exist thats impossible everyone two faced talk imperfections smile laugh ten minutes later leave whole world like then disappear not one gonna care much voice inside head tells everyday whenever im left thoughts grades selfesteem mentality days stinger days today day like that feel alone feel like sinner feel like today would better gone turns im horrible person guess ive always heard term gaslighting never though really happened often maybe im oblivious feel like piece crap feel like im worthless around me im another pon sacrificed sake others im invaluable piece know right felt suspicions rise never fully believed others would things noticed avoided like plague im naive known others find bother feel terrible feel toxic feel weak hurts feel used others talk behind back ask trust feel alone one defend inform me feel gullible feel act months want disappear,0 +need advice ex broke month ago really like it want over feels like part heart still love her even want be idk trust gut get back together go head stay away even stay away still know get rid feeling partly still love,0 +im feeling completely alone family shit job seemingly old make new connections peopleim mid s parents passed away several years ago real family speak left two daughters rarely allow see ex wife makes feel like shit whatever can cant seem find good job fucking dot drug test several years ago child support im barely scraping by friends mostly busy familys now women age looking somebody afford support family me ive dealt depression life know drives people away eventually start getting really bad feel totally alone makes worse leads people want around even more reoccurring issue relationships nothing seems improve station life seems get worse debts bills pile cant afford think reason killed yet nobody would feed dog,1 +hello world tried everything counselling gave time spent time frnds yet cant stop lovin her movin outta city stop fuckin thin king bout also coz itll move away family help fuck upmy life much wanna subreddit know felt like postin siomethin love hurts love dies siurprise drunk aint gonna kill myeslf tonight trust one else hopen anonymous ppl net gonna kill muyself fuck life n make everyone hate rchd yet soon yet drnk n wanna say ui still liove wtf become hate bye ,1 +liked lot fact see againand plan to may love it ill echo reviewers saying movie really grow watch starts kind slowly way enfolds natural mood it get itbr br i really liked summery atmosphere movie thought movie touching whole characters strong element realism movie slowly gently weaves spell get involved various interactions want know ultimately turn paths characters choose take br br i surprised less dozen comments thisthere obscure tv movies comments rich lovebr br one thing say missed ending driving crazy watch see that movie may everybody feel strongly underratedeven film buff purist friends seen almost every movie seen this even seem much message board liked lot like family dramas warm scenery atmosphere unhurried languid pace probably take look this especially note worthy takes place south carolina like me love south movies take place there gem ill add vote woefully comments recommend little known flick,0 +yo east coast gang demon time hours naw filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +hey guys im year old guy serving emotional rock family two suicidal parents dont know anymorehi everyone happened hour ago would take days explain issues lives lead tonights occurrence ill try keep brief essentially received text mom work saying needed help messages exchanged realized clearly needed home left work came home scene traumatize die mom kitchen floor wrists slit knife beside her instantly checked injuries pulled phone call realized werent serious heres backstory family well financially many years came end dad quit job order pursue another opportunity seven years road still unemployed spent almost savings keep us afloat well ran dry almost year ago amassed almost debt mom still works full time making enough money us short around month needless say adds up tonight think broke stress everything constantly maintain positive outlook kids work full time support dad emotionally severely depressed top that mom receives lengthy texts emails dad daily basis horrendous emotional state according her hes said openly intends commit redflag near future going elaborate event happened tonight ran door sat next held arms didnt anything say didnt know words would make feel better honestly everything said true situation fucked knew it im year old kid dont know fuck say two suicidal parents id really appreciate advice several years ive emotional rock family stay strong even though dont fucking clue im doing sorry post poorly wordedexplained wrote everything thinking im hoping best,1 +many movies think see movie like this cant count sure seemed like movie makers trying give hint reminded often movies became big distraction one borrowed memorable lines came movie day tomorrow one line itself bad movie borrows much many movies becomes bad riskbr br butbr br see movie despite downfalls enough make interesting maybe make appear clever borrowing much movies never goes overboard fact probably find battening hatches riding storm out why costner kutcher played characters well never fan kutchers nearly gave guardian surfaced good fashion costner carries movie swimmingly best costners ability think mrs robinson anything successbr br the supporting cast around played parts well problem end characters used muchbr br from nitpick save wear tear enjoy movie parts work work well enough keep head water expect smooth ridebr br almost ,0 +yall miss nerf guns left nerf guns dads mine anymore,0 +top funny songs right now found nigerian pussy deepthroat show genitals enormous penis men hot want inch dick looking back im weird mf,0 +wish could give life awayi always think how could would give life someone die dead really wanted live really enjoys life sort purpose theres point alive im enjoying hate here im completing tasks expected parents society im tired this want make stop,1 +dying pen ink runs dry marks black escape eye dying pen invisible bold cryi never know im sane end life immersed loss daily grind without family better dying blotty pen end cross hatch contour write letter empty maybe beautiful newly used know ill pour ink empty gone,1 +things news taken given shocking documentary fear investigation proceeds producers film vindicated spadesbr br the producers show us davidians government agents investigators faults humanity nothing reviewer say could approach impact watching listening yourself pieces evidence congressional testimony tapes news footage expert commentary interviews photos home videos seamlessly woven together tell disturbing tale br br do wait see film tell friends,0 +think im control freak im also tiredi think anyone would shocked died ive long history mental illness neglectfulemotionally abusive childhood high school dropout etc met h current boyfriend broken me without getting it jumped relationship h patient kind nightmarish volatile hateful semblance healthy relationship was and still dont know recognize someone actually loved me together years broke seemed like final time thing is h sick entire time id known him cancer still always unrelenting bitch bit ego him guess blame much genius iq dealt crazy family members whole life ever catch fucking break reason feel like dying h deserve life dealt good boy sweet boy started relationship someone else months later h wants get back together panic tell im single im relationships years pass h gets sicker feel guilty even kissing him boyfriend shitty girlfriend shitty person love him loves even though bad person smart perfect grows sicker still get bored talks much youtube videos hes able leave house socialize agoraphobia depression make hard visit often bad person it foolishly believe get better handle polyamorous thing absolutely handled h dies sleep unexpected month pass month pass tired people continue come short comparison waiting waiting waiting baby,1 +im waitingwaiting best friend come dogsit dad supposed to panicked freaked out ive lost trust ive pissed people off ive disrupted schedules get back house im going it im finally going one thing ive fantasized years something ive attempted succeeded at im choosing death overdose spare sertraline mg im going wash bottle wine thats living house longer have it reddit redflag note anyone recognises username places please try help me want helped want slip away mortal coil goodbye reddit learn mistakes,1 +hello frjends discord server trying get new peopleeeee fun chat share memes play games together going on encourage join commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +girl really loved blocked started develop feelings three years ago projects together schedule struggled talk crushing high school went started opened her ive never opened anyone before started friends good never wanted hang social anxiety never hangs guys outside family parents strict think knows much value her really helped get school started get depressed im army gone months little communication started ignore me brought blocked me couple days said need see self worth ive nothing supportive caring towards her ive depressed also friends best friend they like family told situation didnt much say hiked couple days later though didnt mention anything it hes kinda ignoring me ive sending sweet supportive understanding messages alt accounts from heart like crazy man hasnt blocked account also hasnt responded them never cared much someone really want talk friends again id anything,0 +well actually concerned myselfi feel like sw next step depression subreddit want make clear yes feeling certain way right im making light mocking anyone uses either subreddit im well right now fact im pretty scared myself always come im slope point helps feel better momentarily take away rest pain went talk someone hotline chat cute literally deep area broke heart think people sitting waiting heard feel like do often feel like echo chamber sometimes too saw post made really mad guy took picture bullet father took life said please talk someone anyone done that ive reached out ive tried talk think people get though unless empathize deeply people make worse talk always feel afraid talk going locked up guess ive locked several times this psych unit put emergency hold days pretty much bullshit way wanted to either way meant temporary stay unless exhibit signs harm towards others point decide insurance pay longterm treatment say ive pretty crappy experiences psych unit myself people work working mental health ever want discourage anyone seeking although im snarky right probably would alive put cuffs throw psych unit wish people knew talking always going fix problem sometimes talking feels dangerous saying anything im trying discourage anyone speaking think good idea seen go badly seems like people want say go get help thats say thats give advice people said regurgitate without really thinking feel way want someone tell care want hug feel acknowledged way want go walk get house go something sitting around want friend listen judge understand happen anyone really different needs mine word scares many people almost shut immediately speak brick wall anyway im really good ate today took lot even that yes feeling suicidal yes pretty vivid thoughts it mood swings chaotic mind less slow research buddhism selfhelp stuff thought redflag state perception change temporary right fleeting could let one thought dominate us point ending all right im convinced always simple im tired feeling weak though thinking weak able push thoughts like apparently people can feel empty dead right inside feel complete hopelessness sense future anything like that reason articulate therapy past moved state currently living lost health care unable afford another therapist ive without therapy months know making worse need support,1 +ever cha cha cut yeah saw post ago using self harm means get attention love attention please notice unrelated cha cha time,0 +pain made horrible endi writing last night realized words someone tell someone going kill yourself one ever loved you selfish horrible was answered im glad die words love head im sure hell right end become memory im glad know least ill good one im lucky hes wonderful deserve im glad understood cant go pain made promise blame himself ever ive waiting find perfect moment hang get interrupted im scared want hear voice forever echoing head want call wont already unfair horrible him imagine hes best thing ever happened me scary want pain go away wish could take away cant cant love cant cure cancer cant cure mental illness either im scared want pain anymore please want anymore,1 +otter facts guys love little beans much group otters called romp otters voracious eaters ok same otters hold hands dont drift away otters kidnap pups ransom cute arseholes sea otters thickest fur animal zoologist stranded shipwreck first describe sea otters georg wilhelm steller otters hold breath minutes smell underwater otters loose patch skin underneath armpits act pockets storage baby otters float cant swim cat poop deadly otter hope guys fun reading ,0 +questionhow painful cutting wrist,1 +strokes chin aggressively ahaha whats poppin fuck more chin strokes,0 +pls need help cannot take counseling,1 +im upset sound silence become meme genuinely dark yet good song,0 +needed get chest referring girl throughout keep info private best friend kindergarten way th grade moved never left eachothers side played eachother everyday recess many stupid jokes acted like dumbasses time great thing ive always crush her every year liked her wouldnt i absolutely perfect me beautiful funny smart caring willing act like dumbass me even sense humor rare made moving away lot harder me positive moving away would lose feelings stop chasing her unfortunately compared every girl new school impossible even stand chance better her great long hard thats said eventually lost feelings her didnt feel way freshman year came saw homecoming football game first time seeing talking made feelings come rushing back me back started heard mention didnt date homecoming thought would one take her asked would homecoming date said yes shocked also happiest ive life couldnt believe girl ive liked forever going homecoming me pumped bragged friends perfect homecoming date ready go unfortunately timing could worse weekend homecoming flew seattle go seahawks game planned hand forgot it means couldnt go homecoming her devastated cried cried like little baby like week this easily worst thing happen me whole mess went life constantly head couldnt shake mind thats things would way today sophomore year moved back old school figured catch old friends see again course first person wanted talk thats exactly did havent talked since homecoming thing pretty scared anyways course talked homecoming said felt bad really excited go her said also hyped go told people going her made happy hear asked could doover go homecoming year together said yes again couldnt believe it way gonna mess one up again talked lot god knows memories made along way agreed missed acting like dumbasses together wanted close like used to told crush every year shocked me disbelief liked every year liked her everything going perfectly suddenly stopped talking me confused scared didnt know something said what either way worried asked wrong told boyfriend didnt want talking me boyfriend huh idea boyfriend understanding still confused boyfriend say could go homecoming together year would tell always liked me sad also tiny bit proud made seem like threat boyfriend boyfriend doesnt know me want talking must mean talking scared either one makes feel better didnt want fault said goodbyes said well talk eachother time right two three weeks finally another opportunity talk birthday everybody gonna talking birthday wrote sweet little message said happy birthday goal wasnt make leave boyfriend go me make think sweet remind great times shared luckily trick said sweet misses times used have also said wants become close used missed people like life talked little stuff wanted make sure boyfriend wouldnt get mad texting said probably not shouldnt continue checks phone doesnt even want us friends asked would become close didnt want us friends said friends school starts matter says good sign means willing listen closer me told excited school start couldnt wait see again said said goodbye again kinda sad stop talking time know breaks him pretty good shot could actually get girl years chasing her play waiting game thats exactly im now im hoping thing happen happened see eachother school again hope feelings come back like me know wrong want this blame me shes perfect person world im gonna let get away gonna take shot time comes finally get her nothing gonna ruin us unstoppable thank coming ted talk,0 +gurls wenna tok m joke pls dont ban uwu,0 +feel death appropriate option melongtime lurker never reason post long worth time truly needed speak existence way examine objectively wanted express someone think feel state state different others before see maybe anyone relate year old male recovering meth heroin addict and consumer dozens drugs whatever available weak pathetic spiritlife forcesoul even given advantages privileges afforded birth middle class west good health stable family could manage world truly honestly hate myself intensity fervor ever felt another person institution hate myself know deep too even though socially obligated love tell deserve hated like this deserve suffer know do considered social context only universe entirely indifferent course outcome life often comfort me know little significance feel like child essentially am pathetic weakwilled addled psychological malfunctions different types make stupid fucking motor tics expressed often face eyebrows jaw muscles god fucking hate myself express signs symptoms someone not well psychiatric vernacular habits hygiene take back seat microdistractions little bits media like reddit continue try forget really exist first place barely eat even though blessed ability leisure struggling hold good part could something life slipping fast literally feel mind shifting changing preparing death statistical balance debits credits nature things keeps account existence lifeform inhabit shifted favor early death staggering measure paperto doctor scientistnot good education sciences specifically chemistry form function mind brain nervous system imbue mind knows well enough reason out hardly form coherent fucking argument here know sense deep inside essence deeper humanhuman emotional state emotional self body need eliminated toxic emotionally unsafe person involved with weak spiritsoulessence poison others nothing wrong deserve except become emotionally involved me feel duty way leave world honour selfrespect fundamental imperative basic command software personality parses issues terminate myself means parts experience casemaker death emotional self emotional self positive inverse former memories point feel like awakened accepted death accident universe although less benign going pathetic existence less innocuous conscious beings around me still really worth conserving menace certainly asset disappointment mild embarrassment parents something cover rest family accident accident accident accident im sorry everyone may hurt parents resources expended trying save life deserve die deserve die fuck im sorry goodbye hope find love peace everything good beautiful,1 +still prayi dont god pray anymore gone never there still pray pray believed in pray death pray pray soul would ripped body could nothing ghost pray pray god nothing gone left me still pray,1 +fuck lesbians gays bis trans make sure swallow make sure say homo after unless really lgbt,0 +big brain time karens called karens cause carent one _,0 +guys know good illegal websites use watch shows hey guys website use stream shows got taken need good secure website lmao thanks,0 +want move outim blaming anyone cant keep brother verbally abused reason deserve im currnetly unemployed therefore unable move im economically deprived area good employers willing branch people might say move out cant im employed ive applying jobs brother tells do,1 +wanna sleep reddit addiction wont let ig ill reddit then also thatd kinda early sleep,0 +anyone else listen music literally right nutting like fr even seconds need listen music idk,0 +first serious relationship even though know anhedonia nothing giving joy right now boyfriend calls love life wants plan rest life mei relationship him see working long termi want run away move away feel horrible absolute star amazing feel like obliged him miss him feel trappedis depression luring ugly head super normal everything fizzle year depression love boyfriend year,1 +update still alivemade post taking pills got fair amount heat feel obliged make update inform people im still alive feel terrible dont really want talk people much idk appropriate allowed admins feel free delete yeah,1 +man fuck hoe want back tho,0 +philo vance many affinities bulldog drummond gentleman kind polish elegance usually associated british upper classes also independently wealthybr br but vital differences drummond adventurer charming gallant lively vance could pompous slighty dull selfrighteous hint fundamental cruelty mannerbr br the kennel murder case impressive vance films made story murdered collector chinoiserie ingredients classic private eye mystery exotic setting blue nose long island kennel club three killings vance solve including baffling locked room murder key whole affair plenty suspects br br usually detective story setting proved static talkative make convincing movies even though work well enough printed page michael curtizs direction fine editing give film pace urgency make altogether different similar films type br br william powells elegance suavity made perfect vance although year later switched studios stayed genre enormously successful popular the thin man mgm,0 +fat girl made suicidalhello yall ive fat entire life make matters worse fat tall well huge beast vertically horizontally late s gone entire life like this get treated like invisible time friends i two them lovely girls inside out usually want go usually end watching stuff dancefloor dancing guys time presence acknowledged anywhere people making fun dated guy would call fatass time would tell lucky chose could date girl ended broke w though really bothered dating know caliber girl man would want with said recognize important lose weight i pounds bad healthy amp trying recently became vegan more ethical reasons started gym membership even though terrified people make fun something weeks reason feel hopeless think figured bullshit person around make contributions world world better without me job dislike mainly spend freetime playing video games fucking around python stupid cinematography projects waste time probably it rarely go w friends anymore were close were basically everything would better around anymore maybe im lucky reincarnation thing come back beautiful wish anyone suffering tranquility life able attain,1 +excellent anime movie well animated good intricate plot good music understand may think little long think good length animation good traditional animebr br three charactersbr br the way use tenkai masterly example body double showing locations adds ominous tone movie design tenkai good too way looks monk end scene armour wearingbr br the old man andou earth likable character jiro meets turning point moviebr br sanpei satsuma shinobi infiltrated tenkais clan saves jiros life twice stays background movie though really one heroes moviebr br the plot plot good traditional without unoriginal historical time acted interesting meiji restoration treasure sought tenkai restore shogunate jiro finds uses help antishogunate forces overthrow shogunatebr br the way tenkai tricks jiro interesting sort hamlet feel it also sweet irony fact tenkai gotten jiro become shinobi think able kill endmaybe firearm hand hand combat weaponsbr br the plot death makes mostly dark theres light moments see jiros childhood memories good dark intricate plotbr br the music opening theme example good electric guitar drums occasionally piece use believe taiko drums im surebr br there lot good music like one played traveling iga shinobi believe piece called numatou incredible flute it flute might pan flute probably shakuhachibr br the end theme kamui komoriuta calm delicate vocals beautiful song generalbr br the animationbr br the animation good perfect blood runs characters sometimes appear orange transitions interesting think transitions nice one example nice transition jiro iga shinobi running sunset background music playing transition simple effective nice feeling itbr br my final words think plot animation music characters make one best anime movies ever seen,0 +want kill decided kill next week so past two years depressed wanted kill havent it life shit low self esteem scared go outside someone know might recognise me hardly talk half words mumbles even understand voice quiet still hardly understand me grades gone shit feeling even try assignment fail anyways parents also care things brought lot things mum acted cared night went back nothing wrong dad couldnt care less never want anything busy work something else ignore me big brother drug addict parents pour attention into blatantly treat higher knew everything decided take ski trip try discipline witch obviously didnt work wanted suit year ten formal say got him decided wanted bed got day feel dont care trying sugar coat anymore meanwhile asked pc christmas would pay give gifts year mum said yes expressed concern whether would get promised would meanwhile two days new years still word it make feel unwanted money problem dad got porsche last year getting another car soon parents always latest things meanwhile outdated budget things two people actually care little brother family cat ones somewhat care shows dont want kill dont want cat come favourite follows everywhere sad writing making realise pathetic life actually dont want fell to name james phillips live sydney australia need help please,0 +feel content nowive struggling depression years now finally came conclusion theres point continuing on talked therapist ultimately nothing me thought seeing another one awhile decided know everything theyll tell already you this that however cant find single reason comes point feel nothing salvageable feel ive reached that everyday essentially same time see family friends whoever always conversations may well groundhog day ive enough it every time reached someone whether friend family member went nowhere know want do im honest care less theyd think dead im important anyone know people may saythink that cant be true say absolute confidence theres single person keep here feel going woods finish business later best thing possible im care see people working hard live thats incredibly unappealing want feel like slave take comfort that im sparing years whatever pain could lie ahead also kind comforting tell someone it theres need worry anything now,1 +real hornee hours rn wanna talk someone rn like fr,0 +pleasantly surprised depth story character development fulci master creating horrific atmosphere using inventive camera work vivid cinematography yes wonderfully explicit gorebr br this film exception however compared later films the beyond zombie city living dead house cemetery etc characters extremely well developed emphasis shies away supernatural suspense created classic whodunnit amongst lush hills italy scenery moments reminiscent cherished folklore immediately contrasted mud bloodsoaked terror shrouded crumbling ruins gore film quite prevalent seems restrained compared fulcis later films however splatter giallo fans likely satiated closeups oozing wounds last minutes filmbr br overall fantastic mature film one great italian horror directors,0 +dream human euthanization legalit best dream ever even gonna lie tho extremely nervous put sleep dream went anyways lmfao,1 +want diei want die want die want die wantto die im itred tire dit reidt rjdskfjdsak want fucking die,1 +whywhats point ive nothing left ive one easier stop,1 +kill hate workingi want work since family rich work avoid starvation really seem worth it,1 +friend dying friend swears shes going kill mental state terrible constantly complains body even going way harm look prettier lives toxic household parents hate dad covid doesnt exist type dude mom tough love type self confidence issues yet lot pride wont see therapist thing though shes probably one best people know helps everyone nice everyone goes extra mile everyone doesnt think shell missed believes replaceable im scared tbh texting nights ago says may start cutting soon shes done drugs alcohol quickly put stop that im wondering send screenshots conversations mother maybe shell forced get help dont wanna force get help dont know point,0 +hows everyone holding up bruh ate whole thing black licorice gummy things half hour lol probably good oh well,0 +looking redflag literature readany one ever read books helped deal redflag obsession fiction non fiction,1 +slide dms chill talk whatever im hella bored also little im sorry,0 +things dont get betteri friend kept going high every aspect life tells things get better started sound grating condescending child thats reason it get better hear live child see every weekend dont find reproduction reason living dont actually care selfish sound never happy memories childhood happy stretches time entire life went trauma abuse child huge slut early s could places go ways escape thoughts didnt work got pregnant got married didnt work out im divorced homeless months living car winter last year im back grandmothers cant get crippling debt make shitty hour going thing ive lived long enough know never happy feel way desire sort career everything takes amount effort money study turns stomach makes want more desire mother dont even know im going post this,1 +im currently looking little electro shockers amazon ease ocd im finding sex toys literally know xd mean theyre cheap use for know please help,0 +never felt emptymy best friend hospital me said dont put knife jump window did recovers hospital feel nothing nothing all close eyes see sleeping grave never wakeing again lost every hope cant imagine anything giving back feelings im tired empty dont know anymore feels like im standing like statue time flies by years depression suicidal thoughts etc never felt like since week dont feel like im alive anymore like im human cut make sure im actually cutting barely felt it hell earth im never crazy ideas feel like im already dead feels like right im dreaming,1 +searching answers discovering questionsim tired tired questioning every aspect life thinking answer lead kind breakthrough answers open questions confusing more ive selfdestructive lately ive taken risks know take ive driving without usual caution drinking become common started smoking cigarettes get fucking head think im freaking people out ive open suicidal thoughts take well everyone always tells stop talking like that want that want someone understand stop telling tell understand want to listen make feel accepted like freak cycling constant ups downs stability feeling control like think entertain redflag way take control honestly like it think lot meaning here believe fate destinyi believe ultimate plan caring overseer fault believe thingsbut cannot it ive tried ive dipped toes many different streams think im ready drown want hear acting like coward reminded hurt everyone around me think know that think feel extremely selfish help me ive tried discuss doctor therapist get dangerously close getting sent hospital need coddled like child told defective taken care of people understand mental illness makes feel lonely want someone understandswell understands actually willing walk beside me holding hand need it pushing feel stuck guess kind sounds like coddling know difference feel like wasting time trying explain it death tonight thinkbut constantly feel lingering waiting hug let with im starting feel stupid want sound melodramaticill stop typing ill try chill out think ill sit porch watch sun go down,1 +even though friendship person messy still keep coming back life,0 +slightest thing sets offthe slightest annoyance bit bad news terrible still bad sets off fucking weak mentally smallest things make wanna hide away,1 +looking new friendly faces hey im henry im looking folk would willing try hand relatively small server mod team best keep everyone happy plenty kind caring residents would gladly welcome you may true server may active moment wed love good folks like liven soft cozy atmosphere dm details invitations,0 +know whats happening anymorei means suffer life friends im somewhat attractive family loves me everyone tells potential whatever want life minutes ago sat chair middle room knife throat sat minutes applying taking pressure thought want anymore want life even deserve it im one sees terrible person am ability spend months getting close girl totally love me crush like never mattered never anyway ive done least times why could started get nerves anyway ive made mom cry times count sit straight face parents try tell feel care feel theyll get soon enough enough though still knife rests bed know next time happens ill want stop applying pressure maybe make art blood die maybe someone help,1 +long time coming depression since years old now turning november decided end th anniversary be sure look back life see fleeting moments happiness followed long periods misery family might find so going mention them time come attempts get help get medication try coping strategies cannot anymored today millionth time called work cannot take pressure today millionth time turned guy online bc men see good time overall depression leads lack motivation keep losing jobs pathetic worthless lonely alone decided call right roommate away hoping last days good ones ready,1 +post something thats slightly controversial anyway join sub rformyfellowteenagers,0 +sometimes tie hair pretend im cute artsy boy fuck incredible im trans makes feel smth,0 +e next week think time leavei going say im near end rope ive since lost rope years ago still going actually keeps here well one method readily available quick method that much kept tethered besides people dog ive lost almost enjoyment things loved im tired bone all the time andi see benefit here ever frustrate piss people off even closest friends deserve someone like me deserve someone better im pathetic cant anything right live fantasies time order cope oppressive thoughts many reasons want die needed get here,1 +come philosophical problems thoughts dm comment either way fine,0 +finally got courage meet crush got crushed several months talking flirting liked things wed often say things like when come ends stargaze rooftop listen peep night ect really crush especially grandmother passed well hit caffe work wanna come suprise you hour away hits i boyfriend best pull up taken shot back guess needed vent,0 +ventis largest cup size starbucks thought grande cuz know grand size,0 +know sayfirst time reddit poster little background me tried commit redflag twice beforehanging alcohol currently fluoxetine wanted run ideas guysgirls keep fighting every good day always alittle part brains wonders redflag start make sense again one thing always stuck me failed attempt biologically unable feel happiness fight hard feel something never met feel give in secondly hard mean finally committing act brain basically cannot feel happiness anymore still clings life strange reason always found interesting,1 +guys girl reddit repeats unfunny joke talks shit aint know depressed steals intellectual property virgin cant decide super edgy super sensitive puts effort anything and owned thats girl thats rteenagers,0 +feel rejected playing minecraft friendcrush bunch people got angry people playing with friend acted bit strange said lot stress wanted check maybe cheer little send dm worried shutting overybody think still angry though basically told also wanted shut me this sounds selfish me sorry feel rejected sad,0 +someone said yall give votes someone said dumfucks sub reddit gives votes fucked post said support comrades make feel worthy achieving something right,0 +used rasknyc looking gun sure respond ok xpost here unsure else dohttpwwwredditcomrasknyccommentsyfcthrow_away_here_obviously_i_need_a_gun,1 +people thing keeping alivei want die much parents would bury child siblings look rely would lose me roommates wouldnt able afford house job would replace would devastated im really fucking struggling wrote note dayi dont think ill ever use thought alive next years unbearable idk much take venting one respond need tell someone dont want scare loved ones one call something,1 +one reddit understand post ironic high iq satirical humor adding s end ruins joke,0 +family know even sometimes pick prescriptions me think taking them giant stash lexapro welbutrin nowit really helping too much better hate myself deserve happy worthless stupid ugly social skills always trouble making friends least high school would maintain least group friends got college abandoned me literally ghosting me got graduated bs felt joy whatsoever everyone around happy graduating felt nothing actually hated even felt even stupid mean always expected anyway accomplishment something expected do much pussy kill myself get closer every day tried pastfuck idk do tired everything wish never born taken medication months,1 +fuck fuck fuck friend tried kill self last night im scared took bunch pills throw thankfully shes ok fuckkk didnt want tell would get ideas said wasnt suicidal lied fuck say her,0 +idk anymorei honestly cant life anymore love horses failing school friends best friends im scared getting shot still want kill myself one really understands feel always private person gonna talk it help,1 +id like think pretty optimistic series unfortunate events transpired life late however lately feeling like suffocating always tell could always worse cannot even say words loud myself first time ever want continue want anymore could always worse,1 +cold heavy temple minutes nowive pump faked trigger coldness feels good sweaty head mother would flip huh feel mocking me want tears roll cheek jaw tenses up leaving state blankness fucking room quiet im done,1 +im done now goodbye hope find peace someday aswell my train arrives soon thoughts racing mind crazy make go is mins cease exist ill gone irrelevant mins im feeling okay this bye x,1 +chances surviving hang yourselfi might thinking could day dont want suddenly survive get brain damage something like that got kind worn rope tough enough pull car place ill hang made steel guess going break rope ceiling skinny ft tall guy chances fail this,1 +protect shopping trolley improvised explosives lets paint picture grocery shopping local tesco yearold loon lobs grenade shopping trolley explodes groceries runs store escapes via tube station across street takes victoria line london st pancras railway station boards eurostar service parisnord france belongs hundreds dollars goods burning front you image familiar you course is many people often suffer experience made fatal mistake shopping routine see it answer obvious shopping trolley unarmoured target method defending itself invitation disaster today show modify shopping trolley successfully shop tesco express dangerous area south london am lets begin upgrading armament begin mounting mm mhb browning heavy machine gun plus another antiaircraft purposes aerial attacks live birmingham also install trophy active protection system countermeasure antitank guided missiles rocketpropelled grenades antitank rockets high explosive antitank rounds system uses selfforging warhead destroy oncoming threats preemptively detonating projectile shopping trolley thus longer vulnerable multitude threats may encounter thing shopping trolley cannot effectively defend kinetic energy penetrators mount atgm launchers shopping trolley penetrate enemy enemy penetrates trolley may noticed additional weight modifications installed shopping trolley made impractical manual propulsion solve problem mounting litre cylinder twinturbocharged gasoline engine producing brake horsepower revolutions per minute five speed manual transmission thanks lightweight construction shopping trolleys achieve optimal powertoweight ratio gives shopping trolley extremely high acceleration top speed properties enables us make flanking manoeuvres around enemy also sick outside overtakes turns test modifications placing improved shopping trolley situation again fined unlicensed operation firearm possession automatic weapon,0 +simply without cohesionparticularly feeling severe anhedonia alogia wanting involve people anymore find pleasure existence decided end anything yet care happens me find people talking draining hate sound voice head want wake morning anything cannot motivate myself follow thoughts consistently demonstrable antipathy towards friends wish would go away,1 +substitutiary locomotion treguna mekoides tracorum satis dee,0 +trip lsd parody la devotee another another oh oh another another oh oh another another owo another trip lsd,0 +hey guys watching seth meyers made joke longest pizza event research june th fontana speedway california mile pizza needs eaten count towards record free event thinking somewhat related random acts pizza lifestyle,1 +hospitalizedi lost job im fucking depressed cant even function cant anything husband asks literally nothing cant even mail something go grocery shopping vacuum want sleep justfucking die cleaned catbox week cant bring get it want die want go it know family would devastated husband sad relationship right kills me blame me taking care really bringing down feel like terrible 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might expect dude liked shock caligula untold story emanuelle america show us hardcore rape snuff beastiality in both suprised far goes caligula ii one track uncut print although scenes may disconforting documentary persons career hey it also would liked see interviews people joe worked with maybe thats wanting see laura gemser looks like days still think goddess one sexiest women ever grace genre,0 +fun fact octopus squeeze hole long beaks fit beak measures uhl upper hood length range mm lhl lower hood length mm ucl upper crest length mm lcl lower crest length mm fun fact butthole stretch mm connect dots,0 +anyone wanna join discord nice welcoming people here small community theres always someone online rules really enforce spam hate towards people racism homophobia etc good bots channels open suggestions teenagers allowed,0 +seriousi afraid friend may try kill herself need advice xpost rmentalhealthhi reddit concerned life friend mine need know get help needs despite her order possibly prevent taking life going try stick facts know them intertwine opinion s started showing signs illness early s diagnosed anxiety disorder bipolar disorder knows mental health issues state mind appears to dictates willing accept mental health issues meaning one day may agree fully diagnoses another day say nothing wrong doctors wrong days cross two think issue one part symptoms sometimes events cross matter minutes instead days conversation say one help mental issues moments later claim mental health issues contradicting herself extreme paranoia causes hate distrust doctors jump doctors much possible especially tell things like refuses believe paranoia also slowly ruining relationships everyone loves loves ill discuss bit outright refuses take responsibility action deems negative distort reality to justify beliefsviews due jumping around different doctors shes lots different kinds medications know ones when know kept single cocktail medications months paranoia surrounding husband became extreme would become abusive would go old pictures ask women background relationships them would show work try meetings superiors regarding behavior female coworkers became physically abusive started hitting him go rage local psychiatric hospital years now year visits increase year already times always hold hours release her husband understood sick desperately tried seek help her turning blind eye abuse himself one day work attacked one small children cps became involved told could protect children would taken away them criminal case brought da protection order put place kids emergency custody provided husband moved parents husband choice start divorce proceedings afraid cps take children away requirement getting restraining order since living parents raged them twice year call police forcefully committed psychiatric ward however mom trying seek help beyond specific incidents sabotaged every relationship had cheated husband friends become paranoid accuse things illogical extreme blame everyone else everything going wrong life done extent one left including myself care her forced distance due behavior cannot hold job sleeps day parents house one talk her forcing state isolation husband friend still wants help her however due divorce put kids her increasingly found situation wanting help odds protecting children told started increase discussions ending life started bring increasing rate even going far say believes death would benefit people however end time brings up say really plan it like said mother issues enabling daughters situation seeking help her recently another family member tried commit redflag know concept brought forefront mind husband literally know help her feel like true way assist would require cooperation mother refuses accept severity issue however would really rather wait friend tries commit redflag get help her know do sorry jumbled mess tried explain everything clearly possible however timelines jump around somewhat thanks help edit formatting,1 +itd easy call guys dolls great got frank sinatra marlon brando and contrary sinatras original wishes casting works got really cool s feel even basically transposed stage screen little interruption songs often lot fun catchy performed wink nod wonderful escapism inherent form itself entirely great others ilk fault filmmaker joseph l mankiewicz songs entirely click little dialog feels like performed stage opposed film its hard tell times brando sinatra straddle line often one watch carefully tell one plays camera stage actress playing adele better stage screenbr br the plot one winners works well period even one wonders influence stretched likes s well quite close gambler and year betrothed played sinatra wants host bigtime game told heat on meaning cops watch so one choice host game thousand dollar tab way get bigtime bet fellow gambler brando whos put make wild wooing job mission worker allows predictable twists story sudden turnonturnoff charms character idiosyncrasies people streets gangsters dancers saitn played jean simmons falls brando is basic concept whole world guys dolls balance one other obviously without getting married compromisedbr br mankiewicz brings lot energy piece even keeping still camera subject stars properly reeled in hell even brando works excellently musical goes beyond simply method actor shows chops singing bigstar quality story characters eventually wind hope happen thats fine ask for get entertainment good spurts witty involving dialog songs dances bring house my favorites number ladycats club luck lady two numbers havana cuba a,0 +radiofreccia movie us dreams friends obsessions addictions fears brilliant movie group friends like us lives hardships growing small town one significant decades last century movie take happy sad approach things tells us story one us could experienced one happiness excitement sadness grief power story grow love characters one movies watch again feeling closer little town emilia romagna takes place hoping one day able finally walk streets next freccia friends listening music changed world crackling sound old radio playing radio raptus international playing dreams dreams radiofreccia make laugh make cry times shock comfort you give take you personally believe played important part life friends suggest watch let become part yours,0 +stop saying ketchup smoothie yes tomato fruit definition smoothie says thick smooth drink fresh fruit pured milk yogurt ice cream ketchup those alright whats really important fact wrote second definition smoothie first one man smooth suave manner,0 +today badit fathers day big trigger im feeling really suicidal dad mentally abusive wish capable happiness anything besides unbearable suffering dont know everyone would better without bothering,1 +want end itmy life nothing disaster arrested falsely accused no cant guess it try still ptsd although over depression panic attacks currently obese failing religion god hates if irreligious thats alright debt unrecoverable id live like monk years spend dime pay probably ampxb think time call quits know im here,1 +black lives stop mattering idk according reddit orange lives matter im sure support,0 +likely dead new yearssooo im sick trying get existence depressed almost years struggling anxiety social phobia least years last year great healthy person finally got boyfriend lot activities people consider fun nothing sad life mood kind ok mostly apathy went really downhill autumn tried jump building block least times enough fucking balls it got locked mental hospital weeks suicidal thoughts much handle got prescribed new antidepressants work last weeks started find interacting people cringe hard tired it instead partying year im going get lot alcohol hopefully drugs go bench far away fuckers fun living happy life blast music hopefully get fucked courage jump fucking ugly ass building want keep fighting waiting get better people telling it gets better trust me not living like fighting like lying ground beating raping bottle ing survive make follow up hope dont,1 +turn today thats hope everyone good day ,0 +promise im okayhey fellas first bit ive around little bit know nice supportive guys are makes really feel like give shit us second bit today bad im hurt confused scared angry exhausted everyone knows thats like im truly sorry that cant stop drinking cant stop crying cant stop hurtful everyone meet cause im exposed nerve makes bad people hurt me pains know many wonderful understanding people sub know im one them matter try cannot expected deserve lot might even ok it third taught every day life education solution everything believed it college thing even graduated horror everyone ive ever met didnt matter got worse suspect always will now ive got lot cute anecdotes rattle begrudging friends decide im annoying batshit keep around love facade friendship dont know kill myself wont get better live ill get worse thanks even giving moment undoubtably busy day thats folks like us get huh,1 +anyone ever wanna sleep like hours like maybe sleep hours tired sleep hours im still gonna tired day also sleeping hours sounds peaceful fun,0 +loved show remember ever loving anything did starting americanization emily town sheriff keeps trying steal town blind ride mexico gotta love it like everything tongue cheek flavor brands garner product james plays character lots shows movies somehow never gets stalebr br ps re killing main characterbr br if remember right good brother killed replaced evil twin effort increase ratings ie make like every western tv time think show far ahead time still miss it tv without jimmy g show missing something,0 +im going iti enough money right would go heroin shoot whole bag im gonna wait til come cash im going going prison court morning one case atleast seperate charges im going get hit soon probably adding years wife filed divorce weeks ago living moms trying lose hope kids age trying stay sober positive for cant anymore im done,1 +tried hang myselfi need somebody tell felt like dream since id decided it came close climbed stool unstable beneath me started pulling scarf id tied neck though something changed like woke up took off uncomfortableness throat feeling crushed something cant even describe realized dont want die want exist still feel ghost around neck hours later im going okay hope am,1 + years baby finnaly two years reddit first sub ive ever joined thank guys love,0 +quick question delete minutes summarize dip dance move im writing story main character partners dip dance move idk write nicole turned torso towards ground nicole bent waist towards ground idk idea pls help,0 +survey tinder usage advertising class survey year olds sorry minors thoughts tinder even youve never used tinder still take survey advertising class help appreciated here linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfvwztwrgwozctbengdzglssbtpbuvebssmmibqviewformuspsf_link,0 +hehe chuckles today eat brown part banan dies,0 +sad broken toe sad multiple things wont get honestly dont know productive anymore also closed door toe painkillers bandage toe hate life point,0 +felt good day gone nowfeel trapped cant go dont want anyone feel dad lyle sister even mom grandma maybe even brother think hed pretty sad hed live hed experience life dont know trust dad go on hes one im especially worried about sometimes feel like im pillar rests upon relies upon even mom would live life eventually would never forget pain struggles mental health im sure wouldnt help go putting thing im trying escape go see way born fucked life made also always like since told since young since old enough learn afraid could changed path late alone everybody else love dating going parties gatherings get togethers people age making inside jokes witty banter travelling squad people care people reliable towards likes least people reach alone think people experiences life source im anorexic im scared people like carbs also crave every inch alone killing literally breaking rashes mentally tatters tears burnt skin eyes stings cant feel alone anymore cant keep people converse trust converse homeless men schizophernia criminals got jail days ago meet wandering streets am mean still always love care people want need people love need busy every single hour day laughing sharing feeling safe feeling like im one group one outside feel like im valued society part society im hiding fringes outskirts shadows dont know always told wasnt good enough became true,1 +tiredi tired tired feeling miserable time tired failing everything do tired feeling lonely tired procrastinating tired crying i tired living thought redflag last year know do enjoy many parts life hate lot others im want die responsibilites live normal life pathetic spent summer playing games online think school instantly become depressed need s struggle even get s tell family i change next year end procrastinating studying want end good job working me parents want go university think can skipped studying drivers license years know do really want talk someone embarrassed ask parents think adhd embarrassed ask parents speaking psychiatrist dont know do please help,1 +weird thing capitalize every word sentence eat ice fighting imaginary villain holding breath certain momenttime going room reason turning thing btw here,0 +tell someone want end lifeconstant suicidal thoughts getting me someone close knows ive made plan before long time ago one knows brain assaults suicidal thoughts every hour upon every day put burden another person tell someone without changing way look me bottle times honest dont talk much all,1 +lost best ill ever getso im ugly af somehow ended guy super freaking hot anyway eyes one else him attractive though manliness him time sensitive all super good people proud tell people mine would goofy strangers lot fun love him three months im still broken him no perfect yes flawed saw flaws him loved spite flaws made happier anyone ever before god want back hes arms girl loves wants marry her used tell things want die yeah im shallow af im scrolling bumble match guys find attractive guys match meh thats get know sound superficial shallow right now sound like horrible person care looks much want feel like im downgrading guys attractive ex obviously looks thing hed personality meshes mine want feel click again guy end better ex im always going compare them im always going think lost god want back badly miss him loved him would done anything keep him want die apparent im ugly had lost had fuck yeah maybe theres life happier ive ever him,1 +relapsed shhi guys usually reading subbut feel like sharing today soi cut lifei and cut since i clean like monthsbuti relapsed todayjust came bathroomand cut dullestrustiestrazor everit hurt hellbut felt greatthe worst part isi dont really reasonthings getting better latelybut empty feeling really go awayit gets worsethe better things look me maybe know normal anymore,1 +rare find film provides plot cant figured every turn surprises throughout delighting throughoutbr br a couple things could quite understand though lead female character plays the good girl hard worker yet end ends antisocial risk taker enough make like though give pausebr br the thing could get old man hauled away police end film never get issues were anyone ideas id like hear might bebr br the film exciting fun throughout always left guessing much worth seeing,0 +shell alivei struggling stay alive even writing exhausting feel numb emotional agony time emptiness inside nothing seems fill look people feel apart them going motions life im really dead thing goes around head thought terminating life shell really plan worked warned people closest me tried times know need do sought medical attention doctor referring psychiatrist waiting list another service ive years intensive therapy since breakdown diagnosed borderline personality disorder well treatment made significant difference mental health realised traumatic childhood significantly damaged me life ok husband loves much year old daughter strong network support people really care me matter say feel unworthy anyones love respect long time viewed disgusting blob human flesh burden society cant work days getting washing done major achievement sleep least hours day find difficult function sometimes apparently sleep way disassociating world cant face life anymore cut social circle people avoid friends completely shut out thing forcing stay alive daughter suffered separation anxiety ever since saw police paramedics escort away breakdown adhd goes counselling it told counsellor often checks pulse asleep main concern might die god child know do tried many things want destroy her know supposed get better control brain think one day soon may take life deliberately means get away agonising emotional pain in,1 +cant leave specific three people leave me gives several decades good enoughwhen kid older sister died suddenly unexpected really messed parents years still hurt always will began feeling suicidal years prior social trauma familial disconnect caused perceived or actual cant trust see clearly favouritism caused develop formative years understanding less value useful good backup plan one better available last resort friend child didnt measure expectation first favourite child set ive always felt despite fact dont believe powers universe gods etc universe messed up took wrong sister me smart beautiful many people loved her passion life desire make future bright happy im definitely smart grades proved kid exceedingly average bit told people ive known werent blood related obligated say nice things me one friend who lives side country chat maybe every three months most dont enjoy alive part despite efforts tried making friends university travelled world years nothing makes feel anything handful days honesty dont care trying change anymore tried changing many years constant failure made miserable put much failure things end feeling much worse im actually happier calm likely stay im trying change this instead better prepared continue living long know redflag available backup plan didnt try kill prior sister death first began experiencing desire to really bad three years scared family would punished way due chosen methods didnt want dad charged negligence something held responsible death decided steal one rifles didnt want feel like fault stole medication didnt want mom blame stole razors decided wait could find better way would minimize impact others sister died dont blame her yet part furious stole freedom die me responsible surviving parents least one kid everything would fine lived would successful gotten married given grandkids id held loving memory would rest no im trapped cant allow parents suffer again alone survive sense duty alone grow old lived best lives possible pass away finally free pretend happy them pretend feel fulfilled pretend care pretend plan bright future dont actually want it want believe lives good good job they did happy time earth time go hate time investment thats going take two three anchors things keeping drifting away all go go long never let know happen happy done good job third anchor boyfriend hes everything me love much makes feel loved worthy wont let know plans either though cant staying fear way responsible death leaves me relationship wants in one feels obligated stay guilt fear dont want manipulator says leave kill wont be dont think together forever even though want be hes one thing makes actually curious life like future makes want stick around find out thats much responsibility one person cant ever let know though thats heavy burden bear refuse put that probably wont together forever career prospects job money hate never want children future offer him someday realize leave me im peace too want world aside freedom escape it happy means someone else want him im kind waiting happen im going enjoy lasts allow feel joy life first time like vacation reality whenever however ever lose him put brave face support him im done trying wont open meeting anyone else happily ever after dont need want anyone else mom dad then briefly me im going kill today tomorrow either next day next week next year barring significant tragedy wont decades yet wish knew want instead feeling like prison sentence cant therapy nothing antidepressants nothing positive life experiences nothing hope good enough depending parents health means might even make which depresses honestly thats duty bear wish could want live im tired want sleep,1 +cant live done thisok trying make brief possible mental breakdown around january last year went extremely heavy skinny smoker ate garbage gym rat eating eating eating calories healthiest food per day becoming strong healthy always hitting gym however get filled regrets contrast huge feel like im die also get fucking angry feel like biggest failure ever mean smokes neglects health losers that selfesteem zero suicidal thoughts extremely depressed contact ex talk it look years older im start wrong foot extremely negative texts like calling life pointless bullshit fucking toxic behavior me gets angry feel like explain myself constantly says something want reply blocks keep making new accounts one time says you change bit went backwards make new account one last time reply but change explodes writes message hurt much possible says never reply again says shit like youll never learn live life saying situation pure poison brain black white becomes engrained brain everything went wrong here started negative texts tried save continuing make new accounts ex wanted leave alone ex also unempethatic fuck makes want explain even more ending horribly cruel last message keeps repeating head every single minute day im frustrated sad said completely ruins mental health makes feel hopeless know full story thing made feel proud ive turned life around feels completely vain last message cant cope constantly write messages delete write everyday explaining apologizing telling know bad did never replies like months shit gets rid instagram wrote last extremely personal email work left company got forwarded coworkers holy shit conclusion ive turned stalker kill myself cant live embarrassment shame also something heat moment kept contacting day day pattern im fucked person,1 +f dm min convo challenge be gt basically min convo challenge like normal conversations start teenagers dms except time speedrun timespan minutes,0 +live miserable lifeive wanted kill years always talked it though maybe things would get better decade things gotten worse nothing good life purpose direction live theres nothing look forward to misery pain whats point ive got nothing live attempt ive made make life better bearable failed im broken failure go decades like pain end tonight arguments dont worktheres one miss me things wont get better dont value im alive think truly happy day ill life day die ill know wont hurt anymore,1 +youare alright drinking enough water,1 +lizard facts get gf day the chameleon facts gone away gonna lizard facts tokay gecko live around ten years,0 +report accounts title says seen pics ad bottom type stream recording service accounts posted type pics bots see name way report profile bot agaist rules ad marked ads subliminal advertising say ad wrong well wrong know,0 +im cowardbecause cant take leap im standing edge here cant it im scared anything around me im grateful everyone im shitty human im leech drain everything want something else someone competent someone better whoever am try might success seems reach though ive accomplished nothing well truth plus side right anywhere else help expensive every day gets harder harder even trust anymore feel useless wish something anything could feel useless hardest part friends know like come advice people even look me know im worried look me want say know itll make sad know put that yet am ready jump cant keep asking pick speeches help getting shit together many cant even admit im sad broken shell human being want this want die want live guess want say someone shit really really hard life really really hard im shitty human think really shitty possibly even make good martyr anything maybe go kind hunger strike something cause notbut theres nothing either care anything enough please understand love everyone thats fucking hard many ways know struggling know problems know mine worst know means im weak know means im worthless anyway thats piece im gonna stand bit longer ill either take long way short way im leaning toward short way honestly either way ill see see you,1 +sherlock holmes basil rathbone begins story disguise helping smuggle famous physicist dr franz tobel william post switzeralnad watchful eye nazis want bomb sight plans allies obviously want it too sherlock help dr tobel invented instrument greatly aids accuracy aerial bombardment br br holmes dr tobel arrive safely back baker street scientist would rather alone mysterious reason although promised english help them germans stays true promise desperate moments holmes english along waybr br its entertaining film one famous detective uses one three different disguises needs help get goes archrival professor moriarity one complaint moriarity evil would dispensed holmes without batting eyelash instead giving openings escape pretty sad too usual dimwitted dr watson nigel bruce rescue boss certain death couple timesbr br yes credibility issues story put brain hold times fun film watchand looks beautiful thanks great restoration job done dvd makes old print come alive wonderful visuals particularly nighttime shotsbr br one note whoever english subtitles misspelled misinterpreted least half dozen words sloppy work first time ive encountered watching entire series restored dvd set,0 +accepted semester summer school enough self discipline online shit especially dumbass school decided theyre going keep online january bruh moment considering school failing,0 +exactly title says supposed strong one cannot talk family thoughts cannot talk friends cannot talk women life supposed strong one like me too cannot talk someone ultimatum thoughts imply cannot bring pay therapist listen sister tried kill called help mother needs protection psychotic brother call needs saving calls friends need serious advice turn to last turned best friend ghosted fell back role vut still lmao women life think mysterious macho tough guy second reveal vulnerability pull back see disgust pity faces hurts like nothing else suicide would hurt lessi strong one others ruining image honour seeking help never again seppuku lived society viewed terms instead weakness would done long time ago supposed strong one,1 +asian girls cute idk like them maybe thier eyes,0 + yet hands n feet small sucks bruh hate small hands feet,0 +need help recently mental brakedown cant look think schoolwork without crying need help fall mor behind schoolwork already am pealse help,0 +know copemy car broken way psychiatrist needed appointment needed am rang shaking before explained happened receptionist nice asked anyway could reschedule seen later today somehow next appointment next week said unfortunately availability know im going genuinely survive till ,1 +loneliness worstim alone lonely recently lost person life left immediately forgotten we meant be deserved insults got understand must feel like someone like me blame them im really sorry ruin someones life issues instability strangely enough want kill myself want get coma forget everyone everything want restart everything forget happened give amnesia get coma forget everything restart thank reading,1 +exhausted helplessim living dads old house empty earthquake damaged zone shouldnt moved mother kicked toxic verbally abused told kill worthless million times week ago tried kill ex boyfriend lives overseas managed call interpol told parents was knows live dismissed hospital took parents place kicked basically told couldnt stay im trouble day abused verbally happy leave since came three times one say much disgusting useless human whole family ashamed second one evictions order leave house two weeks risk zone third now literally destroy words said worse things die useless able anything life ex right leave behind im worth peoples time make everyone around sick suffocate people make leave feel like im bad person listening mum say know depression suicidal thoughts awful toxic around me me one thing attached me cant control cured living environment lonely medications arent working never work alone without support im sobbing tears hands shaking im joke failure wish one good reason kill myself want happy loved late everyone loves leaving slowly killing anyway better kill self first im tired suffering,1 +ive reached end long line mistakes nowhere goi moved new city go college kicking ass think choice school mistake far away anyone know hard im naturally shy really tend make friends easily conjunction covid situation kept talking single sole since ive here sit dorm day working shit matter classes care im paying way much in one cares im completely alone hard find way keep going self harming worse ever feel like confidence finally end life looking hope reason guess,1 +warning something ive encountered got followed person im thinking bot thing posted naughty website thats it nothing hand never met them never seen them brand new account made october pm oct raised flag me want get tell click link brand new account block leave words encounter person httpsimgurcomgalleryonmiix,0 +mom basically called fggot shaved armpits day because likes armpit hair like real primarily aesthetics also cleaner mom noticed went really fucking long lecturerant me male shave pits said something along lines of only girls fggots shave armpits smh wanted cleaner got lecture instead,0 +umunky_bunky obsessed say something somebody help please,0 +im dead project due tomorrow nothing done far redflag note coming up,0 +recomending song get bored forget day httpslinktospotifycomrpwfqpscibb almost forgot today lol thought ive listened band repeat today recomend it whats opinion,0 +feel socially romantically validated end year im going either jump thfloor apartment window stab death hang myself overdose sleeping pillsenough enough ive tried fitting year old aspergers since years ive anxious good enough fitting in friends popular finding girlfriend destroyed sense selfworth identity became persona hate never wish grow back into ive recently started discover am even that sucess attending normal elementary school somewhat functioning kids made people validate fitting in normal kids based still base value person that want confident want sucessful anxious time wanna go parties nonsocial outcasts get drunk girl find hot attractive sweet caring girlfiriend loves me finds funny one nice to make laugh take places fall asleep couch watching movies together im unatheletic short country im average height guys highpitched voice plain somewhat ugly face girl ever said looked hot ive never gf wanna normal tell wait until someone comes along that years way im sticking around long fuck that ive suffered enough im gonna go ardeous selfimprovement shit like that id rather die goal life take suicidal friends me position me hope people like us ive lived long enough parents peoples hopes expectations me,1 +thinking committing redflag live brazil years ago broke teeth since life money dentist neither leave house leave house makes lonely reach help already suicidal thoughts deep sadness agonizing nights lately fought best friend longer wants pay attention respond instagram thinking committing redflag still idea good method want send message friend saying commit redflag talk me blackmail probably cut wrists send message saying already did thought cutting wrists maybe bleed get better while know thought choking clothes probably distressing want face god death sent hell really want die wanted love affection people online really know me count friendship want commit redflag directly her already suicidal desire me talking anymore taken away comfort intensified suicidal desire know go try read study bible lately even able read,1 +amazing dayof literaly nothing still exhausted simply existance kill finally,1 +im stupid stupid stupidim incompetent stupid lazy brothers biggie used close fucked higher ed third chance play sports sociable lil bro epileptic currently private school hes best hope idiot somewhen childhood stopped sociable still shy different id mumble myself soon schools id lock indoor nothing stopped studying too theres guest id run room hide habits die highschool decided want live town still started studying though think ive completely stopped studying outside classroom stayed enroll school dad teaches woulda saved lot money waste lot less time regret everything enroll night class program second grade college useless degree matter ive learnt nothing anyway ive burden whole life theres way could survive this stop burden end soon can,1 +beginning excited see movie poster possibly funniest ive ever seen movie immediately bought one dorm septemberbr br every element came together movie beautifully often see movie many penis gay racial jokes praised critics carell rest cast deliver raunchy joke sensationally carell remains sweet throughout entire movie end movie rooting succeed relationship get laid supporting cast brutal problems ladies themselvesbr br one things movie abundance memorable scenes were given makes movie easy remember fondly movie often brought words chest waxing condoms mentioned conversationbr br watching theater surprised many older people watch it saw group four mids women come in despite older audience movie still filled entire theater laughterbr br i think type people like fans office steve carell lot jokes remind type jokes see family guy too movie shallow enough adolescent boys still sweet clever enough middle aged womenbr br i recommend going movie fan profanity easily offended however movie remember movie good humor jokes gay jokes theyre jokes theyre funny,0 +anyone tory anyone support british conservative party,0 +coping coworkershow politely tell coworkers leave fuck alone youre slight push away slashing wrists without causing scene getting pushed edge certain things cant cope thinking about today coworkers dont know thing personally persistently pushing mind road needs avoid got home im trying avoid trashing apartment hurting myself,1 +im sure doi cant talk friends family anymore nothing say tell truly want die exist anymore true reasoning it life isnt complete mess anything ok job good relationship good friends feel like every time go rails everything fucked dont want anymore guess way yelling void telling people dont know really feel like im end rope cant anymore dont know fuck else do wish wouldve fully gone though one past times tried im scared im lost nothing working medication nothing feels like finally time end,1 +anybody get feeling accomplishment finishing projects homework anymore everything went damn im pretty proud myself wow im exhausted ill sleep now,0 +addiction since years old years later still relapse addiction makes life unbearable tried therapy help all people talk to want die know longer live shit go people always say gets better ive waiting almost years gotten worse cant even kill yet live alone hell know,1 +im scarred life accidentally found very christian parents stash condoms right next bible might move,0 +im tiredi battling anxiety and according one former therapists ptsd life abused physically emotionally folks summer finally decided cut life father denied physically abusing told made up told threatened kill young girl became hysterical told head okay believe guess parents think overly active imagination outted closet many years ago living indiana pennsylvania without letting know drove home mine burst apartment screaming crying took room entire day continued scream me asking god life lost professor pancreatic cancer several years ago like real father figure life passed away ive traveling undertaking job job bad experience overworking overseas minority lost job due racist situation okay believe many people life who present time see situation eyes also told making up worth new professor time believed told saw many similar things happen also worked overseas occupation sexually assaulted another job okay believe handful people mostly women oddly enough either insinuated fault knowing guy sleazy totally invalidate experience altogether ton people saying guy reported good guy happens going hard time currently working toxic environment consistently intimidated tenure evaluation advocates higher places empathize situation nobody seems power really anything maybe really want help one guy particular intimidating ever since started job last year nobody seems want see outbursts point someone angry instead praise guy earned top position young age okay believe me among coworkers one seemed like wanted get closer me hoping could help look another job worked many different places landing current position honest also looking another job right now feeling stressed field extremely competitive feel using me encourage her receive none return brought issue racism working overseas completely invalidated experience insinuated making up brought issue assault workplace the assaulter mutual colleague ours also invalidated said known better expect someone strongly believes meritocracy brought bubble entire life went undergrad together guess lonely overlooked fact sheltered person fault still hurts even time energy spend helping her contemptuous attitude around work several days later comes help again going job interview several days yesterday wished good luck encouraged her received words return even though job interview coming up done care political affiliations trying make political statement watching dr ford kavanaugh hearings brought many feelings memories assault one colleagues work told rape catalyst selfgrowth think meant purely bad way choice words sent negative spiral president company talked length men industry ousted positions proof not allegations sexual assault said terrible pr terrible men involved made feel bad working current company knowing well might cover situations save pr blocked father phone leaves messages time get anxiety seeing messages tried therapist several work people recommended he sees people workplace free laughed several times told family especially story outting me told call father seem care told scared felt left session feeling extremely devastated partner says feels frustrated relationship says want burden problems life therefore holds in feels upset talk problems lot feel like blamed this despite telling many times share experiences getting point feel inner rage words i want burden you also lives way australia live canada massive time difference distance help anything feel like wants take break would never express me spent eight years previous relationship feel happy happening again much stress upcoming job interview one sincere little you going great would meant world me partner says feels like know encourage me parents never encouraged her wish coworker encouraged much could say words me too wish parents could said words me instead always saying god going take care me chest pains past week heaviness makes pulse rush also makes hard breathe crying every day thinking redflag lot used think would never thing would never want put partner pain im sure would really care thing keeping alive younger brother talked long time know parents would give hell anything myself little things too might sound silly might agree many points thats fine feel heaviness unfairness world us step climb top power corrodes empathy migrant workers pick produce low pay abused employers sweat shops make clothes animals suffer food took land indigenous peoples dishonored every treaty made them systemic violence still happens marginalized people homelessness still problem modern society on sometimes get tired human get tired seeing mistakes cycle out even get tired activism sometimes even activism feel tone deaf me sometimes need time process feeling sadness powerlessness activism constantly screams pick use energy keep fighting makes feel even tired cant share feelings partner says makes feel bad going see new therapist next week ill read everything ive written her sometimes things feel excruciatingly painful wonder last long im wondering whats point would make difference never existed sleep night theres much suffering world lisa simpson ampxb,1 +poll buy replacement waterbed heater buy foam bed title suggests heater waterbed broke im laying top covers last nights need communities opinion ive waterbed years either replace heater get twin size mattress future foam fill space bag used go so think,0 +last post gun handi cant anymore believe nothing ever change shit like cancer gets hold you done ill admit fault like im gonna point fingers someone else decided gonna end life december love christmas time god damn cant wait anymore im drinking got left smoking got left listening whatever liked check time seriously wish everyone luck god awful torment face everyday maybe something change you life us yeah goodbye everyone,1 +friend uinfntymagics sisters birthday today everyone wish sister happy birthday comments tag well,0 +never stressedd im literally shaking im fucking stressed dealing bad math physics grades because math fucking sucks dealing college appliucaton deadlines fafsa nonsenses so many applications senior high school stressful,0 +love wrong personim love best friend friend doesnt feel same know cares lot know gone life would progressed much more im fucking low life failing school helped many hard times motivated me piece shit cant anything myself know guy slightly better came picture would shoved aside think back time super drunk scared life let guy take advantage almost went room feel physical pain thinking dont know why idk care fucking much someone could forget quick im literally dragging doesnt see everyone else does,1 +tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real tits fake dick real,0 +whenever see yall think southern like idk ingrained yall south,0 +wish id itfor every day passes wish die gets intense magic insta kill pill now im sure id say no guts it im afraid regret anything drastic thats constantly wish ill die suddenly unexpected control id contempt that every time go sleep hope wake up passing away dreaming dream life would great could make problems go away but everyone knows life simple want die want face problems life going nowhere im bad person every waking moment im distracting reddit video games wishing dead hate much wish never existed want live life anymore fucking terrible im sorry family know much longer ill keep putting off eventually hope ill it absolutely enough cant distract longer want bad,1 +therapy help im extremely suicidal years now plan set wouldve went family came home early felt like real piece shit almost it since ive come realization abusive parents probably care mean negative really dont ive dating girl already year honestly say im love promised ever became threat would finally tell parents deep seeded issues pursue therapy texted dad little bit ago short text basically seeing need help wanna go it already regret her wanted know helped anyone else im really hoping cause would love happy ,1 +im soo horny title tells enough kinda want horny,0 +seems quick fixes depression struggle good side struggle now realized long road worth it even though go read peoples stories read books deal struggle seems person write book get hole read much material listened many podcasts youtube videos taken meds gone counseling still write booki experiments see worked me wrote worked down then went difficult times got unfinished book read it tried solutions book came ones worked particular day start writing book today find recovery slow road back,1 +wow forgot great movie stumbled upon looking garage kind strange combination bio michael jackson collection musical vignettes story super hero fighting save little kids vignettes good especially speed demon best part movie super hero segment michael jackson turns car robot finally spaceship and weird sounds joe pesci hilarious enough cool imagery great music entertain throughoutbr br the real gem however incredible smooth criminal video makes movie worth owning part alone,0 +im going leave yet another bagel go sleep oh boy sure hope nothing wacky uncharacteristic happens bagel sleep,0 +atone sinsi hate every every every single fucking human earth made way fucking fault fuck assholes,1 +im dating crush now kidding im lonely are,0 +cute crime id jail committed vehicular manslaughter,0 +film greatest ninja film ever made opinion seen worth watching would rate film want see check httpukgeocitiescomninjathedomination opening sequence evil ninja killing everyone way excellent character best possesses ayoung woman finds dying take revenge cops killed means theres killing action ninja destroy ninja boyfriend also one targets enlist help yamadsho kosugi release evil ninjas spirit destroy him,0 +scarred life please save yourselfdont make mistake made go reyeblech,0 +kind rough little animation meme made final project uhhhhh yeah throw together within two days hell worth it link httpsyoutubefip_jsebbjc sample text,0 +im brokenthe love life committed redflag days ago cant bear hurt longer pain stop even recognize anymore think ending life often want darkness go away left note bedroom ive got rope im going see soon,1 +comment random fun facts genes code six fingers dominant genes code five fingers,0 +human hearts look like kidney beans reality hearts drawn way weird dislike,0 +year im gonna get abs im gonna workout least every day drink least gallon water per day know this already working regularly drinking water lot before really planningscheduling it gonna awesome,0 +helpive failed redflag attempts past two months mostly slitting wrist two overdoses didnt work im still cutting constantly parents love used well school im failing classes bunch friends yet still always feel alone hate almost everybody know everyone trust betrayed me people lie much hurts constant pain heartbreak used somebody able make friends happy someone seemed little crazy smart ive somebody ruins mood im always sad depressed make everybody feel worse even though many people want help me still fucking hate myself hate much life every second feels painful want kill much unbearable cant fixed cant helped nothing makes consistently happy anymore besides best friend cant school work anymore cant focus class appetite fucked up matter want die im still seeing therapist ive psychiatric unit depression cant take anymore feel hollow inside personality always switches seemingly nowhere dont even know anymore dont know do,1 +muchwell know start im certainly done keeping head seal job involves making people miserable young started back felt fun felt adrenaline rush now opposite way every day life feels stolen good man luck feeling especially strong new years people kind im stillme fiancee asleep next room im writing this ive mean people tonightyesterday europe ive mean her left party felt like much tried hurt myself like usual cut dangerous couple years militaryrecon training know make people die tried hurt stopped late felt fiancee still needs cant leave way took neccesary preacutions friends coming minutes watch me still longer feel manly man mc man always pretend im certainly okay sothere probably people need urgent help still feel better posting this know took minute read try understand me good person need someone hear cant say close ones thanks reddit happy new year,1 +technoblade quotes until get compliment you steal many presents orphans possible,0 +please help find old nostalgic comic website story begins back th grade played henry stickmin games pegi first time also watched lot alan becker animations youtube got really inspired started drawing stick figure comics notebook paper entire school year obsessively got big ten people comic club made website google sites at time old google sites called club tophat clan that copyrighted somewhere lol made huge map different factions hqs like whitehat clan enemies afro clan etc cheesy cringey looking back nostalgic me going binder old comics remembered end year gave comics away various people class souvenirs whatever kinda regret remembered would take pictures post google site official tophat clan website searching back day brought website first result year old thought epic pegi still relatively small theyd made airship in game series tried searching various phrases try find google luck may even deleted website point hope stupid enough to you people reddit help find website know see it old google sites template charcoal think please comment dm sort lead url info thus far tldr made using old google sites so used sitesgooglecomsite format called official tophat clan website may taken copyright sure would small thank help,0 +first tell art film documentary day unique movie taste experience perhaps revelation film human quest destroy everything exists including life earth lead clueless cold like us wants get rich laugh travel eat entertained moves one place another giant rv without direction motive pass time entertain himself end late since first viewing usa grown like custom fit dream life earth nothing weird experience artist buddhist film communicated senses ideal embodiment impermanence may sound strange somehow film able touch profound way like other recommend it,0 +want die badly im scared ill survive family see mei want leave die ill go somewhere better wont remember thing wont know family go through im fucked head deserve die fucked shit never tell family want commit redflag badly urges time jump balcony im sick liar im attention whore want die even life much mor fortunate everyone elses im bored staying here im fed everything want leave badly want sure die cant be fucking hate myself deserve die shit ive done control want stop sick things tried hard canti give up like this im fucked fucking kill me please kill,1 +suicidal ideations bring great comfortthe perfect night getting bed imagining ways could kill myself great detail start end thought feel connected outside ocd tendencies consider treat fantasize death hours,1 +im family gathering feel overwhelmed small amount people house lol feeling like this less people usual lmao,0 +someone wanna chat past days friends weirdly pushed aside just need social contact dm leave comment would massively appreciated guess cry help dont know maybe chat hobbys love horses warhammer lotr jurassic drawing reading twilight gordon ramsay food working,0 +suicidalim sure belongs here know go advice needs rules ill delete post suffer anxiety ive going therapist help much lately want live anymore want kill want exist anymore feel much better im asleep conscious almost everyday thought what would happen killed myself crosses mind probably it family bf would sad hand find looking dose pills deadly human know something pass talk someone want look like im trying get attention get people pity also want bother anyone things like this better things worry about,1 +least could put effort selfies jk whatever want ngl selfies justidk least courage post face could never,0 +end roadive never posted reddit frank girlfriend suggested do am end road clue im supposed do ive robles depression years now recent times think ending everyday least visualize slicing open arm depth it blood gushing out always there live developing country social security really kind support system place pretty much anything heavily debt even strength find much recently gave interviews even managed get job cant take hoping job would help debts help get back feet im broke right checking account negative walk back k interview sleep hungry money top all im meant support brother barely give enough feed himself let alone give enough attend college im fucking life fucked mine mom stays another country apartment shed like sell currently resided mother sisterinlaw sil absolutely horrible leave mentioned lot support systems courts backlogged whole family financial rut mum cant come fight legal battle get possession house shed like sell financial support im made poa supposed fight case im supposed pay lawyers know im scared mums sil known crooked friends something disrupt court proceedings top get calls creditors every single day laws governing do hella abusive threatening soon theyll making visits house even manage get job fighting case court im far behind payments creditors making visits workplace get job they really boundaries laws governing them leads termination kiss getting another job goodbye thought filing bankruptcy get breathing room even thatd require hiring lawyer cannot afford trips court girlfriend helped financially much can still helps meals every again even used car go interviews move another city legal case there im scared leaving behind one person support all sometimes feel like deserves much better me brain convinces pulling away pushing away trying help really know right get this cant take creditors listening poorly mum treated mother grandmum told bitch deserves lie dirt broke broke me even think im frame mind id able work even got job even know im looking here maybe need vent girlfriend suggested good medium so,1 +guys caught light turning closed fridge,0 +reviewer already commented made tv comedy amongst best football parodies ever buthaving failed video first aired find around format ok polled votes date average seem suggest something special basically suppose case tough luck missed cos longer available view aaaaaaaargh,0 +horribly abused child never got help yesterday blew mom said true things know hurt her wish hereim struggling cptsd chronic illness alcoholism feel like nothing ever get better,1 +im massive disney fan year old son starting get them weve built quite collection one favourites first saw couple weeks ago must see half dozen times since ok others pointed out complex inventive plots theres film thatbr br great characters phil harris stealing show thomas omalley edgar butler far behind music superb disabled son always insists lift dance everybody wants cat says all thomas omalley enjoyablebr br im sure people downer film dislike cats yes take cues dalmations maybe the lady tramp its long time since ive seen that im going compare them dalmations better ways the aristocats far enjoyable films about br br apart peter pan now film favourite disney film yearold son loves it grumpy year old dad loves it cant ask much family filmbr br superb,0 +painless methods richas turns,1 +id iti think period time reason killed fear pain involved im australian gun ownership easy time id process getting license gun use myself feelings would passed day thought bearably painful way die would easy organise two bits hardwood timber around neck held together cclamp turn head tighten clamp compress carotid arteries jawline even fucking windpipe would painful part hanging without neckbreak basically seconds discomfort probably maximum seconds relative pain gone forever now im saying im going it even want right now problem is im cerebral type know much suffer die alot scarier rough idea feels like commitment would need emotionally got lot lower and time low would need got lot higher,1 +need someone talk to right nowi cant afford miserable yet front people know me want talk little bit chat sadness addicting nature misery stop disregarding stop suicidal hate much,1 +its birthday today turned im tired month ago tried kill myself didnt want let live another year am happy birthday lol ive thinking everyday couldnt bring it really wish did come point really dont know want anymore feel like ill let go soon everything seems fucking pointless ive made peace that,1 +im watching die hard first time lets hope good ppl say,0 +anybody good discord server join got recently wondering she sucks chens dnc diced djd ja envidan dndjdjd sjdjkdkse cine djfjnd djd sola j jens j jen zjjcnd kind xjdnsnskxkle cd nebskald,0 +cannot describe color without saying name cant imagine new one without using names colors im writing am anyways happy new year,0 +slash arm first time year im sad took knife kitchen dad sleeping slashed arm red everywhere hurts feel bad,0 +would like know favourite songs listen music daily im running low songs im bored of would like hear recommendations also doesnt matter genre,0 +asshole making fun oftalking crap pervert tw sxual harrassment basically i f person m probably going keep short met guy mutual friend school function probably last year started texting friends however started getting really creepy making unsolicited comments like sometimes look ass told friend told good idea date interested since hes pervert even made sexual comments sister many others later texted stop comments made uncomfortable replied okay continue making sexual crude jokescomments future even asking much mstubate week we playing td ft even slid story saying hey qt whats up even came broke ex stopped talking that told best friend this make lot jokes lowk talk shit text lmfao also posts freaky shit idk would call freaky always something wanting gf something friend make fun agree jokes aitawe assholes this tldr friends sometimesfrequently make fun pervert know sxually harrasses people aita also sorry extremely bad grammar rushed writing post,0 +aha ha might fuck around sacrifice mental health finish one doodle aha ha aha ha might fuck around sacrifice mental health finish one doodle aha ha,0 +anyone remember fuzzy feeling static old tvs anyone remember old tvs touched could feel static felt really fuzzy recently realized one know feeling generation gone sad cause good nostalgic memory me brings back lot great memories little,0 +reinstall sims barely space left computer miss creating random sims,0 +never really functional person kid would take everything game joke lazy got older got depressed guess also feel guilty shitty things done th th grade kid annoying af would always getting everyone nerves kids started sort keeping distance telling fuck off th grade new kid came school bully kind guy pretty good friends everyone started bullying kid annoying telling fuck physically too would punch arm stomach lot make homework seemed like bullying annoying kid kept hanging see manipulative kid never punched also nothing stop guy wanted fit guess also remember girl pretty heavy age school girls problems her mostly really problematic always wanted get fight also never actively bullied maybe passively telling girls stop idk feel pretty bad lot things remembered today although details maybe wrong mind plays games sometimes memory gets fuzzy times created memories nowhere guess deserve,1 +gamers need help get celeste stardew vally spoilers please,0 +cant muster strength go class anymore anything reallyim tired college im tired life gotten bed three days already missed classes doctor appointment which im going get back june health insurance country sucks want continue living already tried kill twice past guess enough cant even use sleep escape anymore either oversleep wake feeling like id rather dead cant sleep days swear im going kill fail or any semester finishing college basically thing keeping back redflag but ironically hate lectures attending makes feel worse even point going like this,1 +thoughts loli hentai lmao loli hentai kinda claps doe ampxb idk need filler uh yeah lolis pretty reddit elon musk ,0 +confession im asian indian im bad maths,0 +anyone chat numbers game truth dare anything really im bored lonely lmao,0 +get itjune th year tried kill myself took mg pills prozac hours later took mg pills it sum mg iirc id read online kill low mg get it work like all pulse completely normal hospital monitored stayed normal get went wrong built tolerance prozac since id since january gradually increasing dosages carbonated waters took somehow screw things up sleep taking did sleep order work tired hours taking first set read online something said dose kill would cause severe liver damage became scared dose might work might get bad liver damage want thats told people phoned ambulance me but hours later thought kill me get it work wrong conditions made fail get help wanted keep living got help eventually think id die would prefer living without kidney damage living kidney damage but could im convinced research could died theoretically so i get it im curious,1 +along fernando fragata joo mrio grilo abi feij leonel vieira tcother commercial directors diamantino costa one best portuguese directors o lampio da estrela diamantino costa first movie made several successful commercials title starred one best portuguese comedians times herman jos jos pedro gomes great funny movie br br boa sorte diamantino,0 +anyone want talk idk thought bored imma talk till sleep first second third fourth fourth sixth seventh eighth ninth tenth,0 +whore yall peril hormones hate much actual fuck feelings three different people happen girls waaaaay league literally supposed,0 +black orchidthis song exactly feel day day basis word true fucking beautiful ampxb ever lonely one hold pull disown climb inside arms open wide look inside scared learn im empty inside hold hand show concern live die eyes open wide help look inside singing ha de de ha ha de de ah hear water drip faucet sweetly falling tune im gently closing closet fall floor crawl room thought ending soon let sleep room hear cry cry cry hear knock front door come in try look cant stop shaking leave alone go away mother im scared im scared empty bed sheets gone theyre wrapped around quiet drop gun cause i want belong someone maybe lifes everyone ha de de ha ha de de ah,1 +head full suicidal thoughtsive thinking happy people would die mean parents would happiest hahahah idk others maybe same hurts head heart like feel suffocating tired parents said im burden said im ugly useless theyre right tho accept that maybe killing make happy right,1 +wanna cry happy aaaaaa thought makes warm,0 + mg benzo ml vodka kill meplease answer yes no tell stay alive,1 +friend for real diagnosed severe deppresioni always try offer emotional support guidance try make forget suicidal thoughts also say transsometimes enters crisis might fourth one since know heri really worried going end alli know else say hershe also going psychologist hormonating psychiatrist sometimesthe problem related trans past traumasplease help really afraid know dothanks indirect help,1 +college admissions far ive accepted schools ive applied wont know rd next month,0 +tried kill back and see im pretty much alive right now like everyone else life got better awhile showed everything slowly started getting more worse wish died didnt now really wish could longer convince distract bad thoughts finally bad level mental health time promise fail,1 +whats point youre always paini alot medical problems recently tooth infection throughout already weak body wanna know point staying life im gonna hurting whole time live it im obviously medical problems arent reason really make ask fuck still here,1 +licks lips the guy whos lips im licking what hell,0 +cant selfharmi really wish selfharmed im much pain feels like pulsing adrenaline hate much burden others want hurt myself want punish myself want something focus onbut cant quite bring it not im really depressed im wimp whos afriad pain feel like scam wanting self harm nothing proof without scars cant quite make it guess settles it must really depressed im justwho knows fucked up,1 +since relationships end ive decided start ending peoples think like marriage counsellor suggestion divorce,0 +im tiredim difficult time need get things written want vent friends anymore preface this tried kill june got hospitalized week got diagnosed schizoaffective disorder depressed type im going community college living home incident going university living dorms also please make fun me im trans nonbinary ie boy girl neither parents pretty transphobic refuse use chosen namepronouns even ive tried explain again want listen get upset trying talk two years since first tried come them living situation im really upset lot time spent years high school praying able get house express identityindependence person im stuck another years unless come across large amount cash move im working part time college classes enough time earn money would need anytime soon know foolish grateful roof head food eat even medicinetherapy im tired feeling trapped place want everything over even know whats stopping point im tired living every day wishing killed june ill fine tonight im exhausted thanks reading,1 +please helpi doubt anyone see this do please help im military kid family moves every year means anything relatively popular beyond lonely one trust talk confidence support please youre seeing this need friend,1 +want hug hug,0 +courage call hotlinei power search number call them afraid say want talk anybody want anybody hear useless voice want friendsnot taking last option much me jump here,1 +youtube unsubscribing channels see post check people think youre subscribed to unsubscribed wilbur soot,0 +alguien que hable espaolsolo quiero alguien con quien hablar ,1 +miss her met girl almost year ago old job hit pretty well got along great would talk would even hang school even got chance go place pussy didnt go fast forward couple months leaving school covid quit job new one havent talk since idk start talking without making awkward really wanna talk take out im lost,0 +didnt realize brother kids high pitch get dont kids want them im expected around theyre losing shit want crawl hole hide away im constantly edge im constantly startled scared theres lot yelling screaming crying end day two week vacation sorry long post dont anyone talk january see therapist next,1 +ill probably okay read want toseems kinda weird posting place like this but fuck it wish somebody knew me anyone really cant believe small family is dad degenerative bone disease mom pancreatic cancer luckiest least one last couple years longer theres doubt it theyre dying never really knew anyway definitely know never really knew me still think im christian thats it family friends consist coworkers try hang much can know im dealing with cant it just dunno right make others feel bad situation friendly thing do theyre basically best friends cant tell anything whats going me told one once cried it cried too shit happened me suicidal two years ago downed bottle vicodin got warm bath razor me made okay ended crying sleep swore id never try again but fact theres but scares me know ill come back it matter stupid is much know never wanna go back there still goddamn stupid possibility nobody knows that nobody whomever happens read this get drunk almost every night somehow hoping ill escape problems really gets worse still nobody knows im actually pretty happy around others happy enough theyd never truly suspect thing im strong enough make work but yknow tick tock,1 +julius caesar said kwwsvprelohwzlwwhufrpbvcxjfmuvsrff,0 +girls heartless im sexist hate title please im gonna straight up feel like girls logic comes dating ive around many breakups put much heartbreak exhausting always girl decides love guy anymore time pissed bad cant handle it homie planning getting married girl dating years theyre turned down work time spent together would someone fucking that mean mean nothing feel like committing hate crime sooo bad girls please let give advice please let know love prior dating least little bit after theres excuse put anyone bullshit,0 +film one historically accurate war films ever made displays reality soldiers battle situation well particular circumstances battle stalingrad obvious one compares film works anthony beevors book stalingradbr br unlike better known enemy gates plot diverts sniperhunting story film shows war individuals although filmed germans stalingrad anything nationalistic apologetic film shows war films something beyond flagwaving jingoistic distortions grim truth war like many hollywood war products seem bebr br the scripting acting direction film techniques stlingrad highest caliberbr br its mustsee film anyone contemplating join army obey orders type fuehrer,0 +pink red paint brushes getting married always love painting red well call red pink well call pink pink red really great paint brushes years ago red told dating pink happy pink red always really close last month pink got pregnant im happy theyre getting married inviting paintbrushes need paint place wedding itll beach awesome d,0 +movie started confusing grew one best movies seen acting utterly superb drying tears enjoyed meryl streep whos performance extraordinary movie deals hardships distant family coping mother develops terminal cancer movie difficult watch heartbreaking soundtrack fits movie tee brava bette midler stars give one ,0 +afraid jumpim seventh floor window trying find courage jump end everything bullshit pain depression im scared fact wrong might end seriously impaired rest life know cant make another day,1 +feel selfishis selfish want painless death know deep down worthless body deserves suffer get deserves living pathetic wasteful life accomplishing nothing years existence burden upon fellow human brinding good things down waste resources space selfish want die painlessly quickly inspite this deserve slow torturous end yet audacity feel deserve end life better,1 +get crush know one girl really like know never billion years ever even proper conversation her get her,0 +ive bad thoughtsneed advice dohello all year old female graduating month ive diagnosed bipolar psychotic features well know anyone relate this ive feeling strange lately im depressed feel like inner force drives want kill myself think killing myself ways things need get done die ive different plans already got materials needed one them weird thing times get temporary relief depression times really desire death much think it mind thought it feel strong drive im depressed im depressed manic get mixed states get completely obsessed killing myself really know do im seeing psychiatrist therapist last time disclosed information like got sent hospital think hospital would benefit me im sorry rambling thanks reading advice would much appreciated,1 +aight give love girls like me wants femboy friend instead,0 +deal everything subthis serious question random complaint rant suffer extreme mental health issues keep walls inherently came accident good god even though mean come here much support place ive never seen concentrated window atrocities humans create one issues misanthropy spend time reading internet means naive humans done floored me people deal it,1 +potato flew around room came aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 +playing deathfor ive suicidal thoughts become increasingly overwhelming one point went hospital overdose attempt recently ive noticed walk roads thoughts like im going cross road without stopping looking ahead get run hopefully ends dont im somewhat lucky therapist told mindset little like playing russian roulette selfish playing death redflag end pain something long for way itd method control one thing life since im selfless every respect try things other others mind im sure im going end things soon not time part knows things live cant help wanting cut life short im exhausted whole therapist thing ive seen pretty much lost count prescribed lexapro prozac seroquel point medication seems pointless professional professional tries still cannot help me whos say anyone else will dont see change happening life anytime soon sit watch everything go by suffer try fix peoples problems instead own,1 +tried everything nothing works guess ill kms want peace,1 +ive found new life objectivedeath longest time since years old wished sweet release death never knew wanted end life figured two weeks ago ive never life new friends stopped coming turned different schools different personalities never synching again started grow up suddenly parties gatherings trending topics none permission enjoy either parents myself time pass suddenly find end high school life graduation coming closer time pick major i ive lived world know fantasies created alone room voices recognize ones made talking within head people ive met ideas made saw someone elses face protective bubble never experienced anything myself never met anyone make up like ive born years ago turned parents decided need protection anymore go on live life whatever want said know want know want go see future past concept dreams goals ive born i somehow manbaby writing found girlfriend fantastical worlds ive made brought attention me like her love her likes nothing pretender know live starting show ive made mind find job save much money possibly can enough live dreams although heartbreaking her want wish goal finally cross line finally decision regret making life goal die saving enough money person love live life im gone,1 +im pregnant still want kill myselfi feel selfish ill least wait kid guess,1 +fellas gotta ask would transphobic want sex trans female,0 +save eyes browsing memes night settings gt accessibilitygt display gt reduce white point lowers white less bright iphone prob android something like it,0 +guys sort new reddit want see latest newest memes old moldy ones sort new,0 +todayi feel compelled write this want take time something myself really know post turn out feel like stream consciousness urgency write down im sat here cup tea listening cd im planning go city favourite book chill coffee shop know seems incredibly boring really want it call grandmother long conversation her favourite thing hear past childhood met granddad etc know likes too gets ever lonely maybe ill call parents tell love bullshit cliche id also like write friends note something ever special hand written note think know itll say guess something happen bonfire night uk tonight favourite time year plan wearing favourite cosy hat watching fireworks go home myself know finish post guess get picture thanks reading boring post think make sure enjoy today,1 +im fucking tired everyone else wantsevery fucking day every fucking second people treat like shut im fucking tired body respecting me need something me start acting nice dont give shit theyre god damned obnoxious admit wrong selfish little bastards dont give shit me hope fucking die hope get kill them want suffer way make suffer swear god im close saying fuck shooting someplace swear god wont respect me ill make respect me,1 +shazam okay hero high favorite kid mean sky high zoom hero high school super heros training teenagers super powers would help police capture bad guys times would get embarrassing situations like greatest american hero fun cartoon watch also fun live action stage show called kid superpower hour shazam actors voiced characters also dressed characters show rex ruthlessjohn berwick misty magicjere fields weathermanjim greenleaf captain californiachris hensel also sang theme song dirty trixiemaylo mccaslin glorious galbecky perle looks like love child superman wonder woman punk rockjohnny venocour whole cast went anything came jokes cartoon fun superhero comedy shore come back live action like fat albert,0 +find something next two weeks im gonna fucking blow brains outi add hate passion current part time job thing majored in im s live parents fucking hate here also many mg dextroamphetamine fatal,1 +finally happened finally got girlfriend never dated anyone before last night crush wanted hang out went walk drive which done times said likes too first girlfriend happy,0 +first period canceled first period ap biology like people kind hate class must felt dismay woke morning saw time start alas receive text group chat saying first period canceled kids school substitute teacher teacher know use zoom hook overjoyed returned back bed catch much needed sleep took note much time left nd period good slept second period,0 +one silver first person award gets havent gotten award ngl also im able give one award dont mad pls thank u,0 +saw theater instantly thought good enough video big nut scifi action flicks though anywaybr br without giving story away worth seeing like scifi without requiring much thought story basic plot good worth time seebr br maybe make sequel br br ,0 +yoo im done w morning classes time go back sleep,0 +alienated scaredi emotional person invested time energy feelings friends ones abandoned recently dont live anymore im scared myself im also losing trust myself im becoming interested slitting wrists even though thought stupid before im sorry seems stupid want help anyone,1 +feeling suicidal collegehey im incoming college freshman exactly know wanna do chose random major cause wanted figure later thinking ill never find right major might end graduating useless major causing feel suicidal wanting give since feel like future hopeless negative thoughts irrational taking over advice,1 +flair change time boys youngest sub anymore im fourteen opinion important,0 +blow brains everyone forget within yearhonestly im fucking tired life nothing going im mess im socially inept fucking retard too took four years pass remedial math class everyone age something going them im going fourth year community college im still even considered sophmore haha twenty one years life talents god one days ill ill show everyone im fucking pussy blow fucking head,1 +back itthings seemed look up followed light illusion,1 +fuck everythingi cannot function stare fucking television fuck life hell death bad thing exact never existing first place death exists alive infinitely unaware die death possibly bad thing death bad thing therefore good thing absence bad good redflag seen society bad thing wont able make money anymore attempt control make work them,1 +say somethingim running short time lifes miserable full endless problems solution weep cry ive already endured enough point crying become every day occurrence im emotionally exhausted write essay long reason im like this,1 +people trying help limiting everythingmy mom called police mental health people house im basically threatened take hospital dont stop depressed suicidalgreat strategy really want hurt know mom find tell take hospital limiting option redflag idiots came house started calling every second day three options everytime felt mad option one acting violently towards object punching holes wall option two cutting another form self harm depending mad am option three killing myself unit mom called eliminated first two options threat made never attempted redflag feel like matter time option let anger really wish painless pill could take killed me,1 +im angry timeim afraid dad gonna say wrong thing im gonna snap get really angry kill myself im afraid anyone gonna say wrong thing im gonna lose it,1 +everything exhaustingive feeling exhausted long know do things like getting morning chat friend use easy find hard even force laugh carry conversation mentally im drained years feel emotions well friend told grandparents pass away sat saying feeling anything bad thing,1 +christmas theres literally earthquake thank thank much sufferings,0 +still wanna dietodays valentines day girlfriend still wanna die wanna die badly honestly im getting really close it really think cares anyone cares me feel alone im getting tired it really wanna die,1 +would pay spend time talking actual human hell id pay hug point,0 +anxietyi much anxiety wanted forward msg girl class talking abt graduation dad instead forwarding spent mins procrastinating completely frozen dont know im like felt like dad already tired putting would burden even more eventually able forward msg even msged girl dad bit busy ill telling im available attend keeps pressuring tone message seemed cold frustrated dont know anxiety came gonna go physical school well even wasnt able forward msg suddenlt felt urge kill instead sending message dad much pending stuff do hve find therapist contemplating im gonna kill anyway gotta get started much work whats point im gonna fail kill myself need many things motivation im gonna kill myself,1 +great movie worst ending think ever seen actors great displayed wonderful talent entire story twisted unexpecting which made entertaining good movie was entire film judged ending terrible maybe sequel could eliminate bad ending,0 +loneliness killsi asked advice lot tried follow it things love tried happy myself works enter relationship feel companionship time time cant that come back every time love enough im now get see people grow persons partners like positivity around virgins people never relationship iml still someone learned single thing lags decade behind matter people grow learn get know give want know none it im basically cowardly teenager every person asked turned down blame them interesting learned things free time cook build library home read lot means nothing dull always alone makes hobbies feel empty im traveling anymore nobody share souvenirs with come home room like books around hopes forget worthless existence look back fondly upon books ive read thats it good memories fantasy none actual life build connections fictional characters none humans dropped clubs going to seeing people reminds takes worthy friendship companionship cant basic part human existence companionship im fine stopping altogether quit life reach age finish things want finish im off lonely life never worth it,1 +someone help im homework need two items portable help survival chances zombie apocalypse also easy break simple materials like latex iron woodetc heres ive got far baseball bat hotdogs oil steak bricks axe machete please help,0 +youtube algorithm working us believe youtube algorithm trying make fail nnn benn days morning ive seen videos recoil sniper girls ass mia malkova exercising tricks super seducer geralt fucking yennefer fun fact these recommended,0 +want later afternoon im still entirely suremy friend attempted redflag im constantly afraid someone else will know going sound extremely selfish hypocritical say want later grades going drain used straight student im probably going fail several classes late anything it project havent done already late fault irresponsibility text argument mother morning led saying wish going custody dad instead her havent gotten back response yet know gets home im dead unless actually dead then everything else gone shit already cant even anything except sleep later afternoon im planning it several hours either parent gets home im gonna snatch bottle ibuprofen several water bottles go outside hide bushes somewhere take all im waiting im going say goodbye everyone contact for dont know though dont know anything im freshman ive already ruined whole life theres really going back now problem plan little brother whos th grade gets home shortly do hell notice im home probably let parents know come looking me dont know anymore,1 +wish nerve youngeri tried kill twice highscool now im scared even try fear failing ending right back then im scared die im scared fail want life anymore time feel like im making minute bit progress wind slipping back old habits know anymore hope one day finally work nerve,1 +im peice trashhonestly id world favor got blew friend would hate him i hate me,1 +religion sucks reallyi used kind buddhist believed reincarnation kinds supernatural things now know buddhism branches believe reincarnation im atheist pretty sure ill cease exist die think cease exist anyway endure painful life im this feel much sucks im religious person christianity thing gives meaning life allows find comfort it cant go back religious much sucks think,1 +day sit pc like it energy anything else want stop need stop therapy medication make stop will cannot anymore,1 +heartbrokeni posted earlier week ago subreddit again ranting feel like anyone talk would get personal either way did feel comfortable ranting way gets less personal me since one obligated respond either way want write im very tired ive suffering depression anxiety bpd insecurity complex years im tired all want live life like mentally healthy year old girl once feel like im missing much mind practically always convincing scared nervous wary something whenever try reach goal terrible thoughts ways go wrong much im going fuck up ill never succeed im tired mind trying keep past making rewind terrible moments growing abusive household times made use of bullying people thought good friends spreading lies making people dislike me could person knew love them would anything them mainly used attention sex behind back flirting god knows what im tired know good heart want best anyone around me know im soft try see good people long realised people are matter sweet friendly helpful am always stabbed back constant fear friends drop decide turn me many goals hopes thoughts make seem unreachable cannot see lot good myself im tired this heart aching badly made several plans distance anyone one miss im gone method use places one find longer time since still bit hope myself execute this one angry myself angry fact im good enough everything fault whatnot im also angry dare give up constantly tell im loser go way think anyone innocent taken lives losers anything negative myself anger fear also keeps it im still scared wouldve gotten better gets worse know do hopes getting less less,1 +guys ever bottle shot glass thing yknow take cap soda bottle use shot glass haha please talk,0 +please teacher going make us read huge chapter book first day please come bomb need help disrupting class please help google meet code ohqefamfaj,0 +different jerry lewis film like famous films everybody knows lewis deals difficult task ww ii national socialism germany rather unconventional way even interesting important unamerican way many things world especially film industry unamerican means sophisticated subtle intelligent simply better reason film success us great success europebr br all all jerry lewis proven movie able much simple slapstick comedy,0 +deserve dieso ive already posted cant stop obsessing it days ago talking online friend sounded like planning commit redflag called redflag hotline told anything know persons location asked alternatives police told best option call ems called told area code city florida call citys police department said police dept forwarded call florida able trace location i still know why one ended going friends house luckily friend fine now still feel incredibly guilty calling police though should friend queer trans bipoc one vulnerable groups police brutality top going mental health crisis cant stop thinking would happened police actually gone house point im starting obsess it worst part day happened realized couple days ago saved website phone called dontcallthepolicecomhttpsdontcallthepolicecom gives alternatives calling police even one specifically mental health crises saved website especially friend case needed it im asking anyone feel bad give sympathy know horrible im cant see living much longer knowing could reason someone got hurt died feel like ive ruined entire life cant go life knowing something like this sounds dramatic really im feeling needed get ig reason tried kill yet parents would feel,1 +know help friend anymorefor weeks trying help friend constant urges self harm bit got slightly better something happened became far worse suicidal thoughts isolating emotionally know feels anymore therapist helping father knows cuts told hed put mental institution im struggling get ask help talk people here,1 +israel fact even though military mandatory still choose contribute differentlyskip good reason reason lot people try avoid whenever look job itll great disadvantage,0 +step dad crazy says america best country tell norway better statically happer is says redflag rate higher look lower every chart look lower americans crazy america get american,0 +got even closer todayit seems im going steps nerves always get me last time almost went garage grab rope today went garage rope none went store sold rope stood shelf looking ropes maybe five minutes today left store without rope im guessing sometime near future ill actually buy rope know get one get know tie noose ill look up ill go woods find sturdy branch hang rope from im likely going walk away day ill bring rope one take it ill go back tree try again ill try many times takes swing rope ive made decision wish continue longer feel bad anyone except cats probably shouldnt theyll forget quickly parents relatives gonna harder time admit that cant much that friends none problems there turned ramble sorry get out,1 +long battlethe battle began many years ago started small began grow distractions like work could slow sadness inside wanting go added responsibility even added family itll get better told himself put concerns upon shelf one day shelf came crashing down longer could stop frown felt could drown stay begged pleaded begged set rebuild silly shelf pieces scattered floor items piled larger before,1 +thinking leavinggetting things heading alone far walk elements inevitably kill me always thought im seriously contemplating spent majority money month gambling suffer porn addiction gambling addiction im debt paid certain debts months bad arthritis everywhere body got treatment really hurt itll come back day rapid mood changes dark thoughts sudden urges harm harm people hate body hate personality hate everything really maybe ill head woods hang days cold kills,1 + woke up slept hours get another hour sleep get up clue do yeah sleep schedule fucked went bed like pm,0 +diagnosed clinical depression redflag disorder panic disorder mood swing rem sleep disorder adhd age knew something wrong know hit rock bottom unfortunate events happened worst possible place worst possible timing tried kill months one day ended er cutting wrist cocktail alcohol energy drink painkiller gotten hospitalisation years talk therapy art therapy medications sometimes good hyper usually medications barely hold moods swing born wealthy family parents provided comfortable things private schools travels studying abroad credit cards material things grateful considering many people less supportive familyfriends financially also emotionally simply unlucky access basic needs despite fully knowing lucky live gratitude really difficult especially getting old cannot find reason live hope dream dark place times officially list suicide watch still seeing therapy every weeks going dark place again maybe people know cannot help want go darker darker place instead trying fight it feel like addiction feel depressed af want get depressed end life constantly thinking suicide methods write will disappear die without affecting family die donate organs want live fair people want live struggle anyone else feels like situation years addicted depression,1 +pointlessreceived hateful message today ex telling kill since im worthless kinda makes believe him im pretty im moody im insecure im selfish im outgoing im best mom im hard myself took sleeping pill maybe itll help probably not ill wake alone again thought crashing car tree today chose think good idea unless country want break gun cabinet shoot boyfriends pistol watching right sleeping away unaware thoughts really worthless,1 +shit shit shit acc finally days post post post post testing testing better able fucking post bitch gonna bring big guns aaananakajskasiw shitposts starting ,0 +hide body joke burry himher imma stay him forest put dirt him put dead dog too someone finds it think dead dog burried cut little pieces give pigs throw river lucky enough noone find if ownwork meat processeing factory borrow process meat lucky enough noone notice ate human flesh tipdont process brain liver super toxic kill you pretend commited uicide in graveyard force two bodies fit coffin chance noone find bro keep reading,0 +lots new changes life hard time adjusting pandemic helprecently moved new city attend grad school live long term girlfriend due pandemic program went online grateful safety measures taken feel like able engage classes nearly well undergrad connections peers professors harder sit hours lecture watch screen rather listen person lecture attention shot barely leave room anymore always working school work worst well classes exam studied hours daily week completely lost got exam itself continuing reach people seeing therapist tomorrow losing hope everyday want end life more ive thinking would would it completely exhausted feel like paying off im miserable supposed culmination hard undergrad work want done,1 +dm im hornyyy thats thats post bonk go horny jail blah blah blah whatever dude want dick sucked,0 +suffer deserve itim lonely always lonely treat people mechanisms cope loneliness is course turns away me also often want talk people all intentionally pushing away so deserve lonely see people disgusted people like me deserve too relationships friendships political ideologies achieving better world really want this no dont want someone something magically help me magic exist noone solve material mental health issues expect myself want it want make personal effort fix myself im pathetic cant even kill end suffering so deserve suffer nothing change noone help failed life completely try excuse myself laughable i lot symptoms adhd explains everything yeah what im officially diagnosed even officially diagnosed change anything label put myself still nobody would care fact reason work brain problems change fact cant work fact im rude people mental disorder change fact im rude even mom hardly handles it people hate brain mean you yeah genius thats case still lonely people show traits similar mine are hated know fact im rejection sensitive mean people reject me sounds like im trying find excuse fact want change life or least end it im suffering deserve suffer im adult child wants mommy fix everything him even real mothers this donkey worthless know it want fix this maybe actually enjoying it thats means definitely deserving this,1 +crashed car tldr bottom drive somewhat modified z days ago crashed it driving around street fun friends pulling drifts stuff took hard degree turn floored get slides ended losing control wheel tried best trying grab back late took foot pedal tried brake point already scraped rear end trying get back control crashed front bumper onto curb end ripping bumper crushing intercooler car stalled slightly dazed jerk hit regret replacing steering wheel grippier one z fine get new front rear bumper bew intercooler tldr crashed z got dazed replace parts,0 +birthday yeet dont comment shit,0 +extreme cringe warning pick lines might work borats might girls want make sexy time me,0 +nothing watch im watching hxh want something new watch give something watch fillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +among us broke rule among us broke standard rule fps gaming history first take run natively fps similar animation style early s dont believe me search among us rule google images,0 +get live flike hole literally thing gives brain slightest bit dopamine serotonin porn life sucks way even surviving rich roommate putting roof head feeding you used want things life goals sort realize goals never end happening idk get motivation want go try something life like going come back point like always does mental hospitals years happy long time honest partner left half year ago really helped much ether jobless since last december ran away friends family halfway across country literally motivation anything outside sexual stuff least makes feel slightly good awhile hell body would sell hah though blessed great looks sure posting tbh sitting redflag hotlines website hours que talk someone saying fuck worth waiting on yeah idk end this peace,1 +video store hundreds documentaries seen loads love great info there small handful though even come close offering info important one reading peoples reviews film cant help notice main things people criticizing irrelevant it one sided pathetic criticism every society look see side still need help go globalpublicmediacom it people over uh one might led believe people experts maybe best people interview filming style same head shots exceptions want flash dazzle watch micheal moore want info watch real docs one plainly see none complaints relevance information contained guess people missing point wanna give suvsbr br my recommendation watch it learn it continue education subjects important stuff everyone,0 +give silver know one give it,0 +im going kill weekend fgoodbye everyone im sick existence live thought id tell someone,1 +professors accent heavy thoufht said low cost exchange principle locards exchange principle im laughinf like wtf forensics accounting brain smooth,0 +fuck people keep posting super obsessed femboys theyre fetishes like keep shit about one wants hear feeder porndont look dont know is fucked its guys get making girls fat like femboys really dont give shit,0 +help friend whos feeling suicidali know whether right sub it friend whos extremely depressed deepseated family issues offer help him thinks im toying feelings would leave like everyone else thats much doubts everyone day tried kill chestersinger favorite band think linkin park redflag luckily go it whats best thing situation seem trust anyone else,1 +todayso stayed home work two days yesterday smoked weed slept today slept couldnt stop thinking redflag plan finally go outside sheet tie tree pole jump would easy final ive suicidal almost years attempts nothing needing hospitalization stop ever stop side sucks wonder would done years ago would peace kinda hard tell believe life,1 +hate kill confirmed somehow always frickin lose im whore collecting bitches,0 +lost hours worth work trying make well edited video meme spent around hours it working it davinci resolve crashed never chance save start scratch really want make hour setback im actually really upset this turned autosave done before ill work morning fuck life,0 +absolute outrage year people still freeze chocolate bars beg you take nearest chocolate bar freeze it makes much better psa,0 +something look forward totruly find comfort pain gone end nothing matter simply exist dont worry others think gone wont problem anymore plus fuck anyways didnt care enough would care im gone regardless thing makes feel okay sad wont feel anything end,1 +want live stays miles away me idea helphe lives abroad seattle india talked wanting live anymore stressed grad school reject know reach since texts phone calls going unanswered probably gone sleep know im really worried,1 +enoughenough said fatal blow heart good enough said years trying mind fills doubt sufficiency attainable enough said cant this enough said enough kill me,1 +homophobic scared homo sapiens,0 +petition call s mourning s given idea mourning s waitress restaurant,0 +life kinda sucks right nowscared posting due friends following me im terrified reaching anyone specific since going shit right dont want burden dont even know put words life treating well dont know do im swamped school work time live hobbies watching movies shows socializing etc nothing dont time that go sleep wake give one hour want spend rest day staring screen cramping hand writing much family gets worse worse everyday live twin sister mom grandparents every time talk sister insults calls joke shes mocked bullied throughout time quarantine cant take anymore grandparents sister mom always yelling other especially grandma sister every night dinner ends screaming match grandma guilt tripped lot ive started scared grandpa gets angry easily lashes out mom person really talk to even feel like burden im trying get autism diagnosis well seems one believes me told therapist shes screened social anxiety autism mom said ive convinced myself im autistic sister often use r slur autism insults well despite telling shouldnt still does mention current politic state america pandemic still happening sometimes wish could contract could die people wont wear masks quarantine themselves theyre making pandemic worse ive lost ten pounds since ive started antidepressants im never hungry im never thirsty dont energy take care myself almost fainted shower days ago want end it wish th grade went plan escape besides internet time consume content like ive never wanted kill bad theory would easy im much coward actually it im turning next february wont able move another years im terrified driving dont want hurt friends mom hurts live promised friend mine mom wouldnt leave possibly amazing supportive partner ever would never want hurt him dont see graduating high school dont see going college growing old didnt even plan make far life im suffering it would tell therapist last thing want placed mental hospitalpsych wardwhatever put in dont want entire school knowing im suicidal dont want family hang head dont want old exfriends old religious private school calling selfish sinful dont want sister use ever interaction have would rather kill go that im tired want leave life bad dont know do im scared it people say gets better cant live yourself life someone else and dont think does dont know can need break,1 +tromeo juliet another jewel troma studios film archives like toxic avenger tromas war class nuke em high terror firmer sgt kabukiman nypd film instant troma classic james gunn updates romeo juliet taking medieval tragedy reinvisions modern day street punk drama seen read play nothing much change except tromatizedbr br lloyd kaufman adds twisted vision screenplay makes highly enjoyable film actors handle script well surprised well performed dialog lot better hollywood big budgeted actors utilizing monstrous budget expensive sets enjoyed movie much lloyd kaufman disappoint know expect films troma productions would rather watch one films entertained watch boring expensive movie pampered paid actors lame scripts lazy directors awful cgi special effectsbr br i highly recommend movie like fun films cheesy special effects top acting inspired directing movies you,0 +messhave knife throat right now dont want leave mess someone else clean up thats flat rude,1 +found worst news life ill start saying im year old female friend years almost going years theyve one bestest friends ever kind caring really great today got text earlier saying gonna kill themselves ive always one help them made want become psychologist tried usual tried even harder harder ive tried everything convince way out didnt listen blocked me im assuming died overdose saying doesnt feel real none feels real feel like im horrible dream matter cant wake up cant inspired much meant much me truly did theyre dead died hating guts died thinking wasnt way out died thinking one would care care care much ive decided quit things inspired do im gonna quit art god knows long im never gonna become psychologist ive helped many people first person ended it ended all dont even know im gonna life thought last weekend life gonna go uphill here plummeted want die honestly cant stand death dont know im gonna here wont kill dont want put girlfriend things friend put through honestly shes probably worried sick havent messaged since balled eyes out cried cried im crying writing this youre wondering cant anything help online friends never found address tried search school luck hope okay dead probably dead needed place type feelings in also wake call anyone please dont kill yourselves people care damage lives ever mean lot someone please dont forget,0 +feeling like disappointmentbeen hit hard lately always financial struggle made hard complete higher education im supposed breadwinner family miracle happened finally completed it happy moment recent memory achieved degree started dating beautiful woman dreams were currently ldr type complicated situation atm due visa issues country aim work the country in would mean issues relationship might last long come back home family eagerly waiting start something help bettering lifestyle future uncertain feels like might lose sides success relationship wise career wise something happened shook things us misunderstanding involved jealousy cheating kind however get vilified hated woman im holding easier career path life for managed patch things barely things changed relationship thing keeping something awful first place bright light life missing im stuck shit storm comfort disrupted family dislikes lack progression life feel like keep letting people down know head something childish time kind lately neither world head roof well say goodbyes via voicemail,1 +think im gonna get suspended oh,0 +girl ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb nothttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 +sorry alive think bother problem everyone although know boyfriend loves supports me still could stop selfharmingslitting wrist broke promise boyfriend close friend suffering mddi could stop thinking suicide always think useless worth loved cannot trust anyone either want change situation know starti never sought medical advices never psychiatrist financial support afraid tell parents suicidal thoughts self harming,1 +someone please explain what fuck free awards,0 +literally saw many times oh fucking god cishet writer pov everyone assigned certain color birth assigned red wanted blue trans people nonbinary people people literally anything cis,0 +found highly intellectual artistic every way felt script conveying things feel physically emotionally got home work watched it tribute cinema highest form formatbr br holy guacamole wish days would come again tried putting bubble window side car honda civic vacuum formed muffin trays quite cut it also civic sexual positions limited supported water bed brilliantly depicted the vanbr br the van utmost side splitting hilarity even substitute porn watch scenes privatelybr br i highly anticipate sam grossman the director achieved opusbr br ratings john sam ,0 +school giving option stay home stay days week get nothing going school somehow get less sitting around grandparents eating snacks scrolling twitter pick,0 +coming parents aka awkward moment life so ago made mistake telling parents im bisexual huge mistake part first context gave little test years prior started realize also attracted sex asked separate occasions would still love gay credit mother seemed kinda surprised smiled told course would still love me dad hand answered i would still love cancer i worth think meant say would love even something control actually told ago bisexual seeing guy kinda lost it knew getting asked questions like how many guys sex with you mean gay have never slept girl what think turned bisexual but know for sure right one point dad even laughed cause assumed joking mother also insinuated going phase took step told seeing someone point onward ever referred my friend continuously said trust them would grow it day make point avoiding discussion involves sexuality like plague,0 +little dieter needs fly first film edition gteborg filmfestival extremely tired evening hesitant see it raving overall score imdb made go therebr br it minutes pure lifeforce experiencing dieter denglers life telling enchantingbr br see it possible see cinema,0 +whats worst question friend ask husband filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +want tell someonei think may complete redflag tomorrow thursday im tired see reason keep going,1 +killed myself okanyone get im asking,1 +cant stop wanting thisi like person am dont think change think feel pure happiness anymore laugh funny joke smile things day feels empty things used make happy things desperately wanted looked forward even much raise heart rate cant stop thinking redflag self harm keep wanting it like deep primal urge know loved know good life love family anything know would evil thing kill myself family loves me niece nephew mean much great dog keeps going every morning kill would destroy family still cant stop wanting end it,1 +reflections fool one grievous fears come fruition sit stunned passing easily see devised fate however also see truly mattered me least times past ive foolishly stricken eyes sadly mind whose name would spill blood for ive lost care coming days times dull sadness mindless rage place longing would hope home place engulfing closure seemed false simple instead built reliance easily brotherhood debacle fools shifting days it king world physical wealth passionate conquest times spent sitting blabbering menial matter soon forgotten days despite misfortune collective could tredge on countless hours idling merely within presence another thinking back im brought euphoric mementos good day wither by truly longer be notion blame one suspect constant blunder id never known deeply rooted being ever since beginning worried foolish devotion blind trust might bring am back wandering alone again longer displaced no finally absolutely alone another hoping release dream once id long winters over settling act seemed forever away think miss understood whole time said time comes boundless winter would engulf world gods would would longer gaze guide realm man halted end new would begin laminated memory belief winter came built would end greater new would waiting after blind greater insight ive come see follys never winter hell even gods is longer belong making naught ive come discovery happened thats come one misfortune carry through one hope lessen know impact solid im good standing another made despondent another time soon lose question sever anchors find chains strong handful would simply drift away lesser memories mind making lot effortless case closer presumably family recent established friends classmates ect ponder morality plans built bonds bonds may even hold heavy hold heart ones driven here ive come bear enough faults already grow tired thus ive devised ill bite bullet one one disconnect word carry dishearten anyone else worry would try stop me ive found able understand ive done probably ever know thats probably best best way less know less remember select handful know quite inconvenience due much wasted me recent times relation estranged understanding seemed drift time perceive loss feel though would prolonged deficit already sundered investment im soon lose knowledge yet hear recent blunders even heard already matters course remains same admittance ive caused none harm rather failed disappointed all importantly ive disgraced myself ive honestly thinking apologize hopes fixing things trying move find far case deed face could tear tear till whittled fingers bony nubs could never change instead must apologize different fashion sorry brother wasted faith violated honor moment broken contributed great brotherhood downfall managed cause collateral could ever worth although bear right merit request may hope remains may prosper let leave quick may waste efforts longer bid adieu friend infinitely disappointed one want explain most find cant come words theres age old adage could go back would differently ive thought times now try think one small mistake long ago could easily never happened prevented this hindsight stricken come likely severed fellowship crude friendship one defining pieces guise life fear taken well silence grows louder feel case would make whole things pointless first assumed nonetheless friendship worth owe respects hold dear sorry brother lost way fear led astray well meet fork road let us briskly go separate ways know world holds know greater without i dear friend let road carry well other till better days cant write tears pages would weep manner could expel cruelties mind pages would wither i deepening trench harbors tremors core stirs lost hopeless yes bring still could mend wounds today mind could try fix sundered end volleys chatter amount little rambles stuck stream molten lead on on sickening silence dawns else loud seep in ticking know ebbing ponders do thats left look back itself one theres one left alone another complexity man cant overcome know anymore want quiet again care would wires me end another waiting winter end ampxb point put expecting naught honesty another waste time alas ill probably might even give them alas cast rambles might butchered yall,1 +guys serious coming cage ive fine gotta gotta want started kiss end like this kiss kiss im falling asleep calling cab hes smoke taking drag theyre going bed stomach sick head touching chest takes dress let go cant look killing taking control jealousy turning saints sea swimming sick lullabies choking alibis price pay destiny calling open eager eyes cause im mr brightside,0 +go hospitalim going go lot detail it im mentally ill part involves voice screaming inside head end pain ive failed attempts lost control tried it want die want pain end normal past days worse ever think hold on go hospital,1 +sure least might experienced past currently feel emotionally numb point feel like family would better without me many already expressed want kill would mind dead yes thought maybe currently phase started meds little week ago hopefully gets better rough awesome family feel nothing all like know love cannot show try show feel like looks forced go away meds get better anything helped you thank advance hope day wonderful one emotionally numb,1 +im terrified getting helpfirst thank taking time read this please excuse bitching complaining ive struggled suicidal thoughts years past several months become intolerable ive made several attempts pills husband stopped time threw away medication house times desperate commit redflag method far ive told husband every time thoughts impulses come up reason stay alive attempt make life work least three times think needed go hospital however im terrified going cant stand thought going hospital idea happen im there patients would be happen get out much cost insurance husband work hours week im terrified doctors care think im fake deserve there think deserve go all im getting better need help know get it cant afford anything think deserve help deep feel like phony do edit thank help suggestions,1 +never thought getting drunk would save lifeim alcoholic never wanted admit that true tonight unthinkable happened past months ive really feeling bit bit much ask lately really getting me ive feeling ashamed kind person ive feeling worthless well genuinely want live anymore decided id kill week came extreme plan that honestly wouldve worked promised tonight would night long got drunk getting drunk motivated anymore i first time long time decided live decided live am moment decided live scared scared would happen pets really one reasons im alive know ill feel im sober tonight hit quite hard harder expected to fingers crossed ill decide ditch plans redflag sober doubt it worth shot hope least oh boy im going regret getting drunk later least im alive regret though enough self pity tonight good night everyone stay strong never know may happen change mind,1 +cant rewind lifethis previous spring diagnosed severe depression anxiety seems people age currently nd semester college ended going sessions credit hour classes never hit low semester done started lack motivation later snowballed anxiety fuck semester time nobody knew anything doing professors assumed dropped courses parents assumed still going classes friendsbrothers assumed missing classes im new college fact miss class major repercussions compared high school earlier anyways finally told friend mine still senior high school dealt attempted redflag sophomore high school told needed tell mom got hand took weeks summoned courage tell via email even though still living due able pay overpriced dorms called next morning wanted come talk one schools she works teacher therapists things gave number clinic well therapists went there anyways months seeing therapist well pills feeling better told im going try work without talk therapy still taking antidepressants somewhat worried trusted could handle it im utter bullshit months nothing improved lied teeth true mood therapist simply cant deal myself ive felt like since wore mask worried appearance teenager since late bloomer large issue still wore mask it come age friends started smokingdrinking everyone else it made decision based things seeing way changes them much pussy take hit none would happened wasnt would stayed group friends secluded everyone since anyone would do nobody spent full year without single real friend mask school friends hid everyone pretty well parents knew ditched old group assumption fine since ive worn mask long basically become face small group rarely goes out ive become addicted video games way bond people point am halfway ive become someone never would thought become im normal looking overweight given compliments appearance well personality scared ever girlfriend im always complimented skills working teaching younger kids im working daycare nearly years now cant handle anymore driving home tonight friends house realized its done mean this cant wear mask anymore im socially awkward call old therapist go tell truth way remove mask force am morning im feeling nothing ive become completely numbed life things stopping pathetically video games fact one way road still know going back know anymore major tldr chronic depression going overboard know call help anymore,1 +writing never thing idk even postingive never person whose able write thoughts even know thinking feeling think ive ever written paper whole career schooling thats gone half page required minimum somehow found self wanted make th reddit post ever sub thought id never part of probably first thing ive vollenterily written ever typed minutes ago got deleted writing even give fuck enough try spell words correctly even close enough autocorrect know mean perfect life anyone could ever ask for perfect parents girlfriend im love withand friends would kill ifi asked toi feel miserable do almost always canteven begin describe bad feel girlfriend afraid suggest things almost shut say fun do enjoy anything anyone like used to play video games almost time left world pass quickly possible really know tell everyone im okay know start conversation hey mom hey dad know give perfect life im fucking miserable hate everything reason keeps telling reason ive able yo hang far even want imagine hurt eyes ive dreamt many times reaction finding body lifeless room wake tears every time cant go watching sadness disappointment eyes knowing one children suffering enough even consider redflag option know im here know im going know anything all even know care about kind person cant even know feeling right all get upset afraid frustrated without ever knowing why like this search brain hard answer questions like whats dream house know want life never have cant remember anything ive wanted kid never answer what want grow up would tell people wanna firefighter get back kid that know want life least slightest idea know im heading im finding hard picture life months now fuck year know much longer hang on know many times sit think faces friends family consider redflag cant suffer forever please everyone else cant work know end know im going im go im fucking scarred life perfect happy fucking happy,1 +exam update weeks passed know nobody cares im happy days enduring stressful shit exams see yall next week,0 +dream thisim going climb walkin bottle whiskey im ready,1 +hope pillows warm today archenemy uintelligent_idiot one fall wont rise king,0 +put senior quote thought shawty said like way homework momdad either bible verse albert einstein quote,0 +talk problems every time try talk depression theres always someone saying sad theres people worse me yeah like already know fucko thanks making feel invalid,0 +think tried killing first time todayive very rough year chronic illnesses ive suffering from recently got worse lets say depressing lonely life anyones standards past months ive thinking redflag almost daily basis never courage actually anything it today ive terrible mood since woke up decided tie belt around neck tight enough feel substantial pain hard breathe afraid id pass out removed belt felt slight rush minutes afterwards really want again fully understand why strangely also feel little towards particular incident time feel empty anyways may extension that also kind want tell dad somewhat close knows depression know bad particularly care gets upset it please talk someone over pm happened,1 +monke gaming operation effort go,0 +im donefucked world work going alright fucked everything world girlfirend barely got family shes family past tears ger family mine literally fucked up drunk responsed girls facebook messenger extremely innapropriate way hates me right reasons want work things out barely does dont know over lost close friends friends friends family barely exists cant find live more third time past year theese thoughts attack me allthough attack stronger ever ruined life dont want exist anymore without fuck do literally want die right now,1 +scaredim unhappy time matter fix end anxious depressed thats life is hate like know isnt going get better less anxiety inducing older get stomach covered bruises punching gut distract self hatred keep fantasizing distancing family friends forget kill without anyone caring sad want future cant see ever one know see therapist get medicated dont want let family wasting money im stupid pick stop pathetic im really scared dont know actually want die really dont want alive anymore dont know do,1 +generally love mysterypolice charlie chan type movies exception however something seems bad movie late attempt switch cerebral moto movies centered around plot contrivances salad bar spoilt comedy relief relieving sore feet typecast buffoon appears nowhere impersonating clumsy englishman plays detective even characters seem entangled providing comedy relief plot may seem odd bare excuse us today back possibility epochal archaeological discoveries real commonplace occurrence,0 +everything life ruined lost job friends close lose relationship almost lost mindfeel like cannot hold anymore everyday think end idea place go literally staying alone months course using fake account cuz main real information feel like want live anymore,1 +didnt mention least deleted bunch porn phone recently dad looked thru trashcan,0 +many months till among us craze dies out hate among us feel like boom pretty artificial die pretty soon like fatal flaws two people room easily join public room tell impostor is fact people leave game die tasks cant even get completed way fact people hop rooms get impostor ampxb long think gonna take,0 +asked girl day said no would like friends little sad but thats life expected it since didnt know well sudden unexpected me least gracious it little sad guys deal kinda stuff,0 +im ready goim done cant anymore im tired fighting cant,1 +count incest repost since one got deleted x x q ,0 +still holds back life still finds ways get me yet still talk him always feel worse do ive tried blocking social media still finds ways get me,1 +today last day teenager therefore last day sub turn hours thought id leave message five people see this so without ado go egg,0 +found something helped loti know going help anyone know helped me weeks now ive spiraling destructive nearly suicidal path day sitting cafe wrote down ever since wrote it woke found reason live again guess wakeup call figured sharing guys might help someone also feel little better myself gt november life gotten hard lately hard wake morning little things made happy slowly turning diminishing memories falling apart seams quickly one constant rock ive past year getting harder harder reach to think future together starting get bleaker bleaker depressing think woman love want marry slowly turning unknown person someone used know everything know nothing about time honest im coming terms it decided want die hand know im going it thoughts much handle family love much used to fiancee looks remorse fear one morning ill turn dead honestly right live far away used call home friends here im far debt want pay anything it good thing were married save enough costs ill put money somewhere write note details know ill yet afraid guns probably euthanasia maybe ill crawl top mountain wno supplies maybe bridge knows best im tired names omitted that edits post also moved miles away home feel like big part felt like that writing really big wake call realized still life live deadline anymore im going it really hope guys thinking ending lives little shimmer hope too im thinking you ive there get better,1 +talking people ive finally started think im attractive life ive shitted told wasnt good enough rejected responses like ew gross eat shit classic fuck off didnt think would ever found good looking ever good friends sub ive finally turned around led finally seeing worth helped me know are also struggle andor struggling like me afraid talking people due fear shit again know this worth find it like you might find tomorrow week find it please keep heads held high kings queens rule kingdoms throughout turmoil ,0 +sometimes really want kill myselfi bad life caring friends caring parents brother nice things room somewhat good grades school feel like it im usa understand last year high school wanting go anything live pretty much diagnosed depression deep heart take pity everything do every mistake every action thinking good enough thats killing me done bed like two weeks although may sound ridiculous thats sign something right ive tried kill myself think times last one almost felt brave enough like year half ago im almost last year pretty good damn demons head came back came back tell wrong im worthy all know something love lot things love drawing playing wow playing music i play bass guitar drums think would miss things remember much fun things sorry post little messy needed spit somehow lot people know this think knows redflag attemps close friend mine even best friends know it im skipping school tomorrow clear thoughts or least ill try skip it th charm,1 +ya know what think dumb hell guys cant cry girl cries nothing get oh ok guy deal moving halfway across us ton school work stuff cries man dude,0 +people say adhd make sociable quite literally opposite maybe could mental problems talking fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +thoughts come often ever beforethey honestly comforting im depressed go think redflag feel happier feel end suffering sadness dont know ever got way posting anonymously wanting end life never thought id feeling way am know is longer fear death longer positive outlook see improving mentally waking up daily day day tasks working etc feels pointless longer want feel way dont want feel like way finding relief death,1 +waningi know im here cant figure am know theres millions like me im nice person im manipulative enough make people think am im apathetic selfish lack drive purpose longer genuinely connect people ive isolated becoming incurable cynic misanthrope im sycophant work talk family anymore theres goal passion hope feel capable love gone im tired repeating cycle healing waning crashing rebuilding foundations poured sloppily time someone told cant find reason live mean die find many releases death solution escape pain realizing awake every morning unbearable cant anymore one goal life im going make attempt dissociated state cant risk waking anymore,1 +realized im finally old enough take goat know test take fallout decides job bad already one ima go take test see be fallout official one course,0 +thankyou making wonderful escape thats love movies im impressed aireals way shot timing dynamically perfect music being dancer part many dance films choreography usually chopped diced sometimes even beatshowgirls movie relationship ladies ever present movement br br my favorite scene last one pulled ive seen movie before different version disliked husband last time felt little sorry time changes feel female love birds magical ,0 + days ago redflag failedthe past days desperately trying figure alive im floating here feel like corpse heartbeat calm genuinely thought slipping away im neck bruising numbness feel like surviving mistake,1 +ayo broskis ask ever want rules anything imma answer,0 + days left think quite nice,0 +getting much worsefor dug hole felt great recently ive found slipping even deeper hole really cant go like cant tell anyone irl nobody know take seriously nobody know really gives fuck thing stopping possibility failing fear live fucked even miserable dont know rn guess wanted rant since helps least bit,1 +im ready goi year old ugly short fat black guy adhd possibly ocd well hates much silently crying bed im typing this biggest secret ive vaguely told one person either dont remember telling biggest regretwhen years old sexual abused someone years older me would things like sucks toes tell suck would misty think even licked asshole briefly another time pulled pants put dick mouth hate much wish could go back time wish could much hanging head never move past it ive ever kissed sex one person ive never serious girlfriend im broken person high school tried compensate people saying thought gay behind back lying saying fucked different girls never done anything hate much that would also tell people mental illnesses like bipolar borderline ive told many lies attention hate that every friend ive grown moved forward lives way great things lives im broken hate much dont think ever find someone would love me told friend abused im sure took seriously regretted telling told joking soon feel vulnerable regret told anything feel like abuse would livable never told another person wish could turn back clock became person fat ugly social inadequate lonely feel like live head day imagining better life myself days ago bought gun im ready end all,1 +yall laugh anything watch literally one filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +yo guys need write poem need yall help think subject write poem topic choice help im uncreative,0 +deep self hatred mixed depression loneliness regret mix everything might call it suicide going writing see feel after scared actually though probably seeing again longer desire life,1 +heyis anybody could spare time chat im gone,1 +sorryits one im sad fuck eating disorder ive lost friends least friends mattered im stressed point feel like im panic attacks every second everyday leg readable wrists still shaking drowning ive never good enough family brother fucking perfect im family screw up little talents sort hes motherfucking concert pianist fuck that got trouble first time past summer think ive ever miserable im senior high school school nightmare im taking ap classes humanly possible im running sleep little food consequently poor grades teachers think im dumb im starting buy that too im applying eleven colleges lack mental sanity go them plan eat im college thats dumbest idea ive ever heard cant explain it know why im going eat college scares living shit me ptsd almost crippling often wake find shaking closet know touch touched even friendly hug make cringe anyone left ive got burnt bridges dangling every meaningful friendship ive ever im socially inept even hope form new ones think im suicidal im going go jumping front cars anytime soon say car coming would move wouldnt sometimes close eyes im changing lanes shitty know do really know feel either mean know im sad least think so think sad feels like fuck knows id also say pretty safe assume im sorry im sorry fucked up im sorry fucked people process im sorry better,1 +opinions pickles personally find pickles weird someone ferment cucumber eat it opinions pickles,0 +guys wanna canceled guys act offended comments cancel become mad act like killed dog something,0 +motivation live anymorei depression since taken medication since currently generally ive okay since then occasion relapses however major relapse started back january shown little signs improvements months depressed motivation get bed go outside stopped enjoying use find fun goals future seem pointless starting see psychiatrist therapist adjustments medications since january seen improvements symptoms realized finally buy gun access one really thing stopped sometimes past killing myself gun store street live considering go get one kill awhile might go tomorrow morning motivation live part want die wants help,1 +people girlfriend one either,0 +whats favorite emoji swear see,0 +cant decide wanna shoot odi dont think bring actually shoot head ordered shit ton dxm definitely use overdose dont really know im posting im trying get someone change mind doubt guy gonna give suggestions one better way go,1 +existential question opposite ptsd memory,0 +im want live anymoreive never posted online want die exactly know phrase im sorry screw anything necessarily want die like want live anymore im tired everything time ive lost interest everything around feels pointless keep remembering life pointless meaningless know grow ill miserable since nothing live for want end early now know make parents family sad want anymore think depression since ive always felt like this want kill sadness anything wanted end drivers test thats tomorrow little late even enjoy driving even though people age do im basically worthless life goals suck everything im nervous wreck feel main reason im posting view redflag best option im looking advice try commit since cant come back dead im sorry rambling like said first post like this thanks reading,1 +despite need help help girl wont leave alone made rumors im dating even tho im not also asked like times time tell firm no rejected different languages do,0 +miss harambe got recommended second video youtube harambes last moments comment section filled people agreeing zoo damn im tears,0 +im burdeni keep trying better ive wanted die long remember always seems getting worse recently got girlfriend came felt happy accepted broke reasonable causes tried staying friends said much tired even friend whole time thought would get better week so fucking hurts huge fear mine people pretending friend seems thats doing everyone else leave cant leave myself want die one im largely christian family background believe im going hell anyways might well soon,1 +friend mine trying commit redflagmy friend technically ex told tonight almost days straight attempting od nyquil reason friend stop days tonight take home work were talking laughing good time kisses where kisses twice x hugging lot saying loves me ive remained optimistic us getting back together leaving unnerving feeling final goodbye get home text mom asked check her says asleep okay explain we know emotional times like know lets emotions get better her goes check finds nyquil bottle room wasnt was says half empty tell check make sure still breathing says is said would keep close eye her tldr ex thoughts redflag wondering help alleviate pain break up,1 +really good mashup song httpsyoutubepfahg_fjg,0 +nothing else live hello starting off really dont like complaining people usually keep thoughts written notes apologize im annoying two times tried reach online ignored didnt really make ever want reach again im desperate so im autism ever since young mother never really seemed care overstimulated yelled stop got older even getting diagnosed shes still telling overreacting hurts thats got weighted blanket first got it super happy look back it think bought thinking wouldnt deal overstimulating shield thing makes feel like doesnt actually care onto school throughout life friends left way am im repetitive loud understanding social cues something people really like thankfully met current friends dont care stuff seem drifting away band pe lunch leaves sitting alone time introvert aspie im fine alone problem occurs come back pe never talk theyre always talking other like im even sometimes hurts then boyfriend broke me really liked seemed good match me but due fact would sometimes go emotional support left me know drowning emotions wish didnt never see he goes another school cant drive reason want commit redflag nothing else live for cant live mother doesnt even really care cant live friends theyre living lives cant depend ex because well hes ex sure hell cant live myself hard explain because autism cant anymore left one would care theyd forget me everyone ive ever trusted seemed emotionally leave makes feel invisible want die,1 +think horny jail full whos rate,0 +reddit update anyone else update driving crazy whenever sort new exit app goes back hot bothering much annoying literally might use reddit fix,0 +accidentally deleted stoneblock world playing stoneblock months now ive com quite far today accidentally opened fullscreen triggers error know fix way reinstalling pack happened times before every time ive remembered backup world delete pack today today deleted pack world everything done know a months long said come quite far im dissapointed also know makes backups files delete tell plz mean asks want delete backups delete pack cant find any,0 +keep coming back idea inevitable endtheres part suffers much like cancer spreading killing everything good me im scared dying want believe im better this want believe make it day im getting comfortable idea here,1 +feel like energy left able sleep properly feel burned tired timeevery day dread like nobody peoples life years could make proper friends tbh relate anyone work academic content writer job like robot feelings emotions nothing boss scolds say nothing feel guilty myself work almost drains mesometimes crave human contact one mei go outside see people good time whereas fucking loner would notice even someone tries talk know sayi self medicate loneliness using rn touching touch starved feel like piece shit even antidepressants work fix somone depressednot fucked individual like mei shame calling degenerate sometimes feel maybe god favor bring others down thank tired,1 +keep talking avoid causing family painbut im miserable person around im sure wouldnt mind,1 +couple days left knew itdefinitely cry help im depressed ive got shit situation poor decisions im stuck literally option go detail sufficed say involves police nobody else really knows anything it know something know details ive kept vague also means literally cant talk another human situation even professional help nothing horrific bad enough ive ended surreal life ive axe swinging head job every human interaction feels fruitless know itll end got call last week confirmed fears axe going drop are else do ive looked many years different methods read up got online guide even failed helium bag attempt sometime ago woke see cat staring like idiot weird planned advance spend money go bang it when start eyeing opportunity everywhere walk i could jump there looks high enough etc life become horror version requiem dream nobody knows situation read know human other others might read pretty amazing power internet right want know saddest part knowledge upcoming demise think id amazing things time left no im literally wasting time dumbshit normally would eating crappy food etc etc oh well im still hoping miracle could happen happened before,1 +liked timothy dalton much even though bit young handsome mr r thought zelah clarke plump short version however true novel well filmed seen versions orson welles still favorite mr r though george c scott well toss joan fontaine sussanah york although bit old role recently saw brilliant tv version rebecca charles dance emilia fox would love see two jane eyreby time got watching ciarin hinds version think jane eyred out never tire first minutes hearing joan fontaines voice narrate opening first version ever saw always want go back read book again,0 +best nut fuck cashew nuts macadamia us im,0 +cant anymorei dont know anymore besides cry dont care anything anymore matter do friends family somehow suck life me cant alive anymore im strong enough world,1 +im tired living im alone tried talking friends todayand keep friendships want die badlyim tired im alone hope dreams loves wish never bornor leats balls kill now even fail that friendsitll while im sorry hear better without me would understand that least,1 +want diei ruin everything dont care anymore,1 +im beating meat call cranking soulja boy,0 +well years years two entire years wonderful remember coming here getting meet new people getting look around really exploring platform entirely amazing everything two years everyone managed commit to weve accepted new members say goodbye some joining given warm welcome everyone leaving wished good luck future know two years platform safe space me somewhere got know things place made now admit saying things like arent regular me feel like everyone deserves told would love thank everyone point thank everyone whos made mine thousands others journeys now community really overcome lot everyone deserves big pat back that dearest appreciations everyone remember stay safe,0 +sometimes wish never born dont want end itnot yet anyway,1 +sucks feel like want live small reasons know things unbearable continue onthis going one boring rant even one reads this need somewhere vent sorry think ive always taken things seriously see logical side situation tells im things get better hold on believe me im sure hell could figure determined enough also see side tells hell lot agony waiting dont something it even get past first barrier the horrors upcoming grades collapse pressure homework theres still waiting me ive never normal physically mentally severe anxiety know limit lot life cause unnecessary pain also picky eat point body isnt getting nearly enough nutrients dont even know theres treatments fix that im exaggerating eat like damn year old insane humiliating im also overweight lazy change it one parent atm cant stand around her shes making live annoying boyfriend friends except one sort friend see every two months dont really much common theres day goes dont fantasize death constantly wish im school teacher notice im going through course never do job anyways im tired all want take easy way out dont know happens death nothing worse mess,1 +killmyself think klinefelter syndrome even symptomsim male turning know whats wrong me wide hips man boobs feminine hands adams apple kill myself even klinefelter syndrome whats point even change body age would get testosterone exercise body correct itself dont fucking know anymore everyone else manly feel like enlarged kindergarden child,1 +ill leaving within next six monthsoriginally going next year as since im graduating far earlier expecting pathetic degree point staying around long already method location said method know get it im considering june july least time get far enough away people missing days im tempted simulate murder people think someone else not anyone particular want anyone get hurt behalf think would cool unsolved murder especially bullshit one optimal way go saving someone else taking bullet getting run car something heroic think would cool im writing write it since cant tell anyone irl without getting put away want responses really positive qualities whatsoever future never loved desired human being thats good enough reason go none know pain way know pain,1 +got pumpkin spice latte four pumps pumpkin extra whip coconut milk put fridge drink tmrw class also whats yalls starbs order,0 +desperate helpthis third time pleading help here received reply first two times edge know why interest anything keep thinking everyone hates me feel owe everyone favor dying thus making lives better know perhaps true sane part outshadowed insane part attempts last couple months freaked out tiny rational part brain striving live want live mother but find support anywhere friends deserted found acting wierd depressed social anxiety right childhood situation become worse past couple months even courage go office now cant summon courage talk anyone social contact visit supermarket avoid talking anyone dont courage go psychologist help too live country far far away mother cant disclose condition family consider mental illness taboo suicidal feelings selfish desperately want live mother waiting successful man career wise etc something else pulling makes die everyday daily routine wake elaborate plans redflag around noon time comes forcefully make think mom somehow survive afternoon optimistic start getting normal again evening get thoughts spend night thinking next days plan redflag tired want way out rational part states things going fine need wait human mind accept much torture friends ones deserted seeing suicidal behavior seen reddit filled kind souls would one spare couple minutes help out begging you survive this grateful life ,1 +ever since little parents always fought blamed everything me turned yesterday still nothing changed parents put expectation initially becoming tennis player trained years life childhood would immediately pm eating would play tennis hours years end high school difficult unable multitask tasks i good tennis know limitations told give up blamed months end ruing dreams money told younger scared would happen parents hateddespised existence use them aimed become doctor year age breaking first girlfriend emotional scapegoat since parents hated me relationship toxic first love chose another individual much coward ask out girlfriend year parents would antagonise fall love ruined tennis career education relationship girlfriend realised way parents treating me lack social awareness enclosed life did know youtube anime insta etc till slowly began shut life parents would antagonise me act like support immediately backstabbed chance blame everything common enemy this norm life still is parents still antagonise falling love point depressed friends slowly forgot form happiness still left anime lego gamesmy parents antagonise successful much disgrace iam compared them freeloading leech takes everything granted whilst offering nothing return way parents brought speech impediment stutter cannot formulate sentences quickly struggle talk get bullied still laugh get emotional scarred people still expect smile laugh smile school friends since graduated friends one talks me except parents ostracise existence mistake everyday also biology class receiving crappy marks chemistry getting scolded parents slit wrist scalpel friends time took nurse medicinebandaid applied wrist scared parents say hid it woke up bandaid gone sure saw since live small apartment sleep room come morning seemed care wanted care injury wanted kill since age prayed would die everyday relive parents burden f me afraid end myself would hope got freak accident killed unfortunately nothing happened yeti go uni study software engineering received atar far cry studying medicine want make friends uni speech impediment look i exactly call good looking guy know ugly still continue hope on skipped alot past better left unknown turned yesterday hoping would die turning adult kind disappointed honest woke immediately scolded looking sad friends remember birthday family friends parents obligated wishes time flew people forgot me bad always wanted forgotten guess cutting cake asked smile would since sad still alive started curse like always thankful have always like monitor check phones stuff younger sibling blessed receive everything parents wish had also stopped talking parents routinely check email discovered friends joke round calling names stuff one friends called gay joke sister called infront friends highschool too person close relations made feel betrayed putting trust them parents made reconcile them acted did never felt sincere happened years ago trying get first job retail leave house contribute money family leech one hiring since covid work experience need wait covid bans lifted still alive lolnow today parents spoke much disappointment iam make numb pain holding back tears looking pan face time cried first time first time years despite calling out different things even wishing dead known going born would aborted calling mistake parents said probably made mistake received baby nursery broke heart act stone face hide tears sadness say anything back them whenever would make things worse expressing feelings imagine ur friend consoling despite reluctant finally get consoled pissed taking forever things get worse like quiet nod head giving word answers feel remorse continued talk me later one comes asks cried saying surprised choose say anything lecture hr mins asking why telling hardships much failure am verge decided whether jump apartment not written signed couple draft notes done body die donated medical research organ transplants removes burdens parents idk sorry wasting time rant anything thank time sorry bad english despite first language do,1 +one gives shit mei told friends father sister cut one gives single shit darkest thing ive one helping know mental illness maybe im sad self abuse much ive probably done self harm list want say depression people always say theyre depressed theyre sad know anything im lost,1 +stop yelling parents everytime yell parents feel guilty think much ill regret die ,0 +nearly everyone sub looking gfbf im looking clout primes amazon prime account link twitch get sub free literally printing money info go httpsmtwitchtvmikiprofile,0 +cannot breathe cannot sleep eating everything sight job demands fianc sick cannot work moody needy adorable puppy energy right now clothes dirty kitchen mess know need do paralyzed cannot anything want lay bed dark drowning,1 +understand homophobes mean gay people fucking couch bro fuck care sex life,0 +need help two math questions ampxb httpspreviewredditsnrvsxregpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsacfbedefaedeaeebc,0 +suicidal message meif feeling suicidal message talk try help please message,1 +anyone else also feel like this im straight man like sucking cock find relaxing soothing stress relieving cum mouth satisfying way baby relaxed breast feeding uses pacifier emulates sucking nipple keep sucking hopes milk come out enjoying sucking cock gay holdover baby enjoyment comes act sucking something like nipple satisfaction milk comes out like men,0 +rteenagers today like lets shit post woooooooooooooo yeeeeessss freeeee karmaaaa,0 +amount posts r disgusting genuinely going insane due posts sub,0 +need someone take mind stuffnot immediate danger actually noticed lately thinking lot redflag probably summer abundance sunshine anyway matter angle approach from facts life make sigh life unfair people poor miserable im privileged naive asshole whos envious others happiness world plain flawed sad thing doesnt be talk friends parents boils a lot people way worse thankful like okay would feel ant better knowing lot people living worse life mine something really something along lines god wise knows hes doing whats point creating whole universe going force people cant even comprehend whats outside immediate understanding know im getting really actually believe god hate even ponder questions never answer tried pray search faith point always bites ass end regretting cringing overburdened minds filled guilt nothing heads universe big incomprehensible yet stuck wealth inequality college debt uncertain futures broken hearts,1 +got scared haunted house apologised ive ever haunted house friends mum anyways got scared shouted over chainsaw noises sorry nice day,0 +destroyed entire life let know whats lefti see reason continue cheated her girl ever mean anything world me wanted one last thing settled young married her over told her even know why couldve perfectly content never mentioning her wants us carry like nothing happened forgave me cant live pain shame horrible thing worth ending for,1 +gosh man whyim yr old male fit active good job house well guys royally screwed up hypochondriac self dug big rut never way least bad beginning march im mad angry disappointed myself started loosing bunch weight feeling like crap doctors dont really explanation blood ran saw neurologist ra lupus ms cause symptoms past months really worried me obviously made everything lot worse probably ended er times past months chest xrays ct scans kinds blood work done what nothing sooooo worried wrapped sort disease manifested symptoms severe stress anxiety obviously mental illness wasnt aware now suffer extreme ocd goes hand hand anxiety dont wish upon worst enemy needed vent add wasnt aware radiation exposed either freaks big time im ready give sometimes really suck big time thanks yall,1 +im kind retardedim kind contemplating redflag like know sounds retarded straight bat genuinely feel fucking shit like cant anything help myself cant even get try im gonna sounds even retarded say friends family think friends care family seems distant me know sound stupid selfish hell cant fucking help it things built one another dont know help do really want drop school im failing everything cant bring type work generally cant bring anything mope around complain myself never actually talk anyone shit like ill sound unbelievably retarded dumb person ive hinted ex whos one closest friends lives way finland im uk sometimes really feel family doesnt care know im probably wrong know probably care dont show yet way talk act sisters theyre pride happiness joy obvious feel like im fucking left know shouldnt compare sisters hard parents brought saying shit like you act like elder sisters look elder sisters wouldnt something like this cant help feel fucking inferior them theyre smart pretty im retarded im smart knowledgable anything im even good anything either sister also attempted redflag one point parents realised hard putting much pressure theyre treating like princess isnt bad thing return treat lot worse comparison theyve learned grown parents experience almost losing one daughters theyre applying growth sister though sister doesnt even live city anymore university im stuck taking parents shit sister still lives me gets treated exceptionally hell even tried talking parents neither give two fucking shits mean might give shit dont see plus theres still much fucking gap sister know redflag probably bit far fetched im even bad situation thought redflag fucking tempting cant help think every fucking day friends im somewhat convinced care cant help feel like im bringing know people go rough spots friends time group internet friends one point ended dating one week broke deactivated account day told wouldnt communicate him left group chat group friends bc obviously wanting leave did asked someone chat could come back ex kept making scared tense fucking existence pops up didnt anything except talk fucking day hes already making fucking victim didnt jack shit also ex different one one lives finland know fact sound fucking retarded nothing particularly bad occurred know im abused pretty okay life best redflag keeps clouding mind nothing helping it family wont try help either side wants talk it dont want talk friends either ill feel bad burdening like dont want feel im guilt tripping well fucking know killing wont solve anything could easily solve talking problematics reason another im stopping everything peaceful right dont want fuck up situation redflag dumbest thing least helpful thing could possibly do know everytime chance arises always want fucking take but now heart isnt completely set redflag thing ive contemplating long hate it hate alive right now dont anything things carry maybe things get better idk ill probably ditch internet group friends bc lovely irl friends well closest friend whos online really hope things dont escalate point actually acting thoughts because now redflag recurring thought really hope things get better also everyone else subreddit hope things get better well although think things may get better theres always chance especially havent lived entire life yet could meet someone find something really love whatevers going on really hope things get better lt,1 +feel unfathomable emptiness inside meim eidolon netherworld already nothing fulfills me im shadow former self wandering surface earth cant enjoy aspect life,1 +new setup ampxb ive working past months picked old desk thrift store painted it built computer got monitor along things pc shelf work garbage internet keep outhttpspreviewredditetqhvkhjjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsaecaffddefcfcf,0 +doubt much film based true story beginning says based true story sort of bet truth exmodel turned bounty hunter possibly named dominobr br anyways begins domino talking lucy liu works fbi domino interrogated knows theft million dollars flashbacks see domino child model became interested bounty hunter basically tells bounty hunters off ed choco let join group tough use kind weapon use good looks neededbr br they get involved scam clarmont bailsman going along way group starts reality tv show thats ian zering brian austin green become involved sort like hosts must really desperate appear thisbr br i thought story entertaining laughs editing bother me theres also lot violence mainly using guns blood could little shorterbr br final verdict good enough watch,0 +lol fucking everyone whos like i partner im suicidaldo us favor fucking stop posting shit people actually fucking issues someone talk makes rest us actual issues feel worse go fuck fucking fake depressed losers cant wait muh ptsd fucking losers absolutely nothing wrong brain oh sad memories,1 +alonemy best friend friend tried kill last week survived cause send goodbye letter friends managed send someone house pills knows use one day bought own im awful place one talk to since recovering attempt pm live im already drunk enough pills knock die im hoping sleep take anymore even anyone say goodbye to,1 +know constantly feeling alone kinder always bullied really make much friends neighbors playmates always felt reason play brother brother throughout grade school one really want friend high school came thought finally making progress friends made drifted away usually fun cousins even feel like fit like would better without there feel like inconvenience people around me right close friend teacher knife wrist x life time could cut kind feel like coward going it constantly imagine family seeing dead pool blood cannot talk mom views people kill weak siblings often told suicide never answer feel like need it sorry long read lonely,1 +im pretty bored anyone wanna chat im bored got nothing,0 +dream had dont memorable dreams even dream often likely dont remember anyways dream last night repeating head want tell someone thought tell random strangers reddit began walking neighborhood everything trashed broken like would expect apocalypse look like like dayz neighborhood gamers waking saw something move roof joggedwalked check out climbed onto roof foot slipped old rotten part roof caught slipping looked back saw girl age yellow shirt pants backpack on first didnt think much first thought oh kind cute quickly got roof went hole roof get inside followed curiosity dream gets kind hazy certain parts house dont know asked name anything one main parts dream got really attached thought prettiest woman ive ever seen sorry gets kind weird now remember walking dimly lit room her bedroom twin bed curtains pulled closed way enough light comes room see everything looked drawer top bow tie put told like bow tie gets hazy remember next got really close caressing cheek said want to said no said ok bow tie back left pretty much dont remember anything else dream ive trying remember face soon woke up couldnt remember looked like faint worn image cant make features face left head know dreams deeper meaning like poetry dont idea this,0 +im tired livingfianc broke several months ago depressed depressed never wanted see never actually felt like loved me visited every week hardly wanted anything me ive getting worse since reason anything last days ive especially feeling awful whole thing ive come close breaking im working frequently broken breaks messaged today blue buddy buddy opened wounds already hurting refused talk things tried tell lot pain roommates upset started smoking breakup stopped tidying up see purpose anything anymore want die thing keeping alive mom would die died got medical issues passes away time soon reason left stick around want someone love actually feel loved back time think im ever going find another person though especially even someone like love back,1 +think someone done httpsyoutubekafopywzbmm,0 +ive lost livei think reason wanting die piss people off need write down rent room house older lady dog world never expected grow attached anything am dog recently killed hit car wandering road night night left car mechanics car way get work ready night calling out got text friend asking wanted go dinner paying said sure love eat friends car arrived pick up rushed door dog started barking usually does out landlady got home took out dog got loose collar walked away land lady called her dog would listen started walking road got message land lady saying dog got loose wandered front car dog dead went numb felt numb ever since numb sadness even say goodbye rushed out reason wandered road looking me wanted daddy dog everything me world mattered me stayed home would alive lost without her really reason continue on doctor told tomorrow would last day would accept joy want dog supernatural forces real id sell soul see one last time tell much miss her sorry least telling id right back got home lady wrapped towel placed bed broke right there every time close eyes get moment alone see her little feet little body judging injury head tell least suffer struck death immediate want exist world without her raised puppy baby gone want die want exist anymore know would go choose end life overdose either sleeping pills liquid sleep aid alcohol want end bad every moment im alive never ending wave misery cant it mother family would never understand see strong one friends look advice see someone confidence life know death especially redflag would destroy mother im tired core being im tired wish could rest close eyes drift away forever know whats beyond maybe nothing something could see baby again want want see baby again life empty without her want live anymore previous activities used bring joy meaningless collection things now things im surrounded things would gladly give see dog alive one last time could least hold arms tell much love her say goodbye comfort her im sorry im sorry there ive let many others down want go anymore cant rest,1 +need help pleaseive really rough go lately struggling harder usual remain positivenot suicidal a problem past years know cant talk methods ready keep thinking g im scared guilty nervous sorry ughhh sorry rant ,1 +hii bit bored want debate write opinion think accepted people often considered conterversialnohttpsconterversialno need toxic,0 +someone feel responsibleif kill myself someone going feel like fault sister confided ideations her shell think couldve stopped it dad sister told him reason hell think couldve stopped it mom even know hide anything bad her want worry use knife dad feel responsible would one made bought me jump top residence school feel like enough security top floor hang myself parents regret seeing transaction purchasing rope theres way get without someone feeling guilty death,1 +help me girl like text lot im around person choke mind goes black idea say really want ask out im tooscared advice,0 +ever watched popularmmos younger please read pats girlfriend eleni literally using views popularity links here httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvsppvsyckqyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvsppvsyckqy please go give love really looks hes going lot,0 +hey bruh know today is one year anniversary httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistpluurkioyqqsjwxjouhcycsfhiyzb,0 +got k karma weeks much,0 +birthday yesterday wish deadim love someone never chance again attempted redflag years ago life since worth it wish died suffer life live everyday bitter disappointment hate living,1 +k reddit coins first person comment gets gold filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +redflag thoughts everytime alone still want live anyone feeling sameive depressed suicidal thoughts three years bullied still virgin i years old male health problems low selfestiem girl love someone else one secret sexual intercourse stranger man drunk even though gay etc loving family friends strong belief success future alone always thoughts killing myself reached point thoughts several times day afraid commit it cant stand virgin guy anymore always health issues please help,1 +im afraid keep livingmy year relationship ended weeks ago forced believe fine clearly not manipulative attempts tried get back stating would move find feeling me broke said needed time figure emotions lost emotions honestly hope lost hope said know long would take a month week year feel alone much pain cutting help anymore yearn peace feeling nothing want continue living happened year relationship could happen next person find know else find peace death,1 +efficient xanax x alcohol killing yourselfi finally managed get hold xanax country next impossible im determined end life wondering efficient would combining meds alcohol be ive heard fatal takes lot time actually kill you,1 +came bisexual one best friends like title says came bisexual one best friends and essentially person talk right now yesterday started talking maybe months ago talking one things startedmakingme questionmy sexuality anyway thats besides point realized bi maybe days new years eve yesterday talking decided come him told realized bisexual explained felt emotionally attracted girls boys mostly sexually attracted girls seemed bit surprised accepting said really mind sexuality people have im pretty sure good thing probably person ill tell plan telling people actually feel deserve know people left figure themselves bit scary coming felt good bisexual people start chanting one us one us comments dont joke lads laugh track apologies long read got longer thought going be thats puberty nutshell it,0 +reddit friends stopped using while sub seems nice anyone want friends post safe place horny people using subreddit make real nice friends,0 +someone please tell doive five years almost two year old son together course relationship lied cheated physically emotionally abused me know this know im stupid stayed were fighting again caught secretly texting receptionist work swears friends happened never friend again says im psyco says know hes me im burden im crazy insecure get it im overreacting says dont see parent son wants put baby daycare said im comfortable yet ive thought years he everyonewould happier better dead think son would too subject myself deserves grow without dealing crazy mother im really trying love much think it come conclusion killing really selfish act boyfriend would unrestrained tied down generally one problems anymore son young enough miss me long forget hell better long run idea anyone see this maybe another crazy thing do friends close family im alone itd okay all,1 +suicidali need help life spiraling control,1 +know am wide awake starting get bright outside,0 +feel end line every fucking day dread stuff interesting irritable annoyed cannot care anyone hurts want care feel damn empty inside want disappear dog suffers depression relationship too work nothing untouched emptiness disease depression ever stop way tried tried feel stuck help please please solace break progress something help hold keep going empty irritating days every day,1 +sleep put random crap comments wake to night ish pretending write something get deleted pretending write something get deleted,0 +im tired called useless leechi recently began first year college double majoring engineering software engineering total credit hours semester drive minutes back every schoolday immediately go home take online courses homework done look jobs online applied last days clean house dishes coean bathrooms week flip fold clothes whatever random task father assigns watched cameras make sure this got learners taught drive made drive hours straight freeway round trip week period first taken drive got liscense month ago chores homework try figure dinner sometimes made cook it sometimes ny dad makes gets mad ate without even gets sometimes treats like retarded ask dinner pay around month gas insurance spare truck allowed drive hence getting job everyday told useless leech faggot mistake fucking hurts friend family offered let live them could never that would burden anytime stay close somebody extended period time leave me sorry rant needed get somewhere,1 +whats point one wants hereim waste space family reminds day every day mentallyverbally abused sometimes physically failing school depression mom locks pills older sister tried oding three times guess noose do lethal find time,1 +find reason keep existingtheres obvious answer you know future could hold or think pain cause loved ones im incredibly numb answers point thats enough keep going considering unfathomable amount dread feel every time wake up feel isolated disconnected every interaction people life even feel real point time real reason im still here real upside death seems even terrifying,1 +im edge starring abyssi cant guys cant fucking this im trying hard cant im lost hollow empty worthless disgusting less average life holds value fucking accident anyway wont anything great life im going change world im even going change someones life im lonely fucking lonely im particularly smart im even close attractive im stoic im cold hear voices see monsters health already declining reason live many to many already may knew would break may hit hoped something might change then knew nothing would fuck guys fuck cant keep going cant keep facade up lived her ive kept living feel like fault suffering starting weigh empathy im ready die keep up fight it ill probably four years road fucking reason worth enduring later im meant world im drag already rapidly depleting resources im fucking psycho hideous fucking psycho evolutionarily deserve live im fit survive please let take self equation please im nothing special nothing worth saving,1 +without distractions feel crippling anxiety complete blanknessi seek forms escapism anything else distracts life things like movies social events eating out course sleep im something im sitting there begin think happens remind nothing matters worse someone love could die moment crippling write stories rnosleep sometimes writing process comments messages get biggest thing life believe not helps lot distract me help escape actual life have people leave thankful comments supportive messages enjoyed story keeps sane even lasts days reminds people care stop posting stories wake up whenever im distracted state called life dreadful anxiety feelings meaningless return know else do im probably making post distract again get comments remind people care exist,1 +thank goodness coen brothers success brought bigger budgetsbut rid creativity planned seeing another movie sold went one instead time began forgotten movie see surprised ways one movie hilarious make cheap jokes get laughs writing brilliant delivered great skill george clooney after this nobody say hes pretty face rest cast appreciated many levels whether remember odyssey not cant remember last time saw movie clever ive seen others would describe beautiful intriguing funny charming also describe oh brother movie reminded older seinfeld episodes subplots came together end feel journey building something cant tell what coen brothers fail us end certainly disappointing surprising ties loose ends neatly without wearing story out,0 +uhhh feel bad need help girl like asked liked hella panicked said no fuck,0 +anyone else get caught noteive mentally unwell yearsim medicated still frequently suicidal ive made three serious lifethreatening attempts handful halfhearted attempts years feel like frequently get caught note ive written dozen never feels adequate never feels worth happen anyone else feel like could get adequate excessive felt melodramatic explanation people whod upset could go it,1 +like this why lazy spend days nothing productive extremely selfish stupid hate much beat causing pain whenever mistake even videogames escape realityi hate family bunch knowitall jerks sisters like try make friendships irl easy first place plus many friendships plain terrible may less friends them least none harmed much friends harmed them recent months realized became eight years old parents older sister abusive towards acting like nothing happened often fear whenever something bad would get beaten one parents sometimes whish would get back deserve lastly hate humanity among species planet born dumbest deer leaves eat grass eaten wolf living better life humans put rat race one really wants take part in superselfish group men living better expense humans expense planet humans celebrate smart really smart would find way live life without hurting humans planet truth born rich selfish would anything money also everyone would everything money yesterday came across dude faked deaf ask money charity falling it hate myself everyone around humanity,1 +working job recap post abought going interview owner shui place friends dad shes nice dident even give questions im starting tomarow im bus boy cant wait wish luck guys,0 +thank redflag hotline found tonight due mistakes doing cant get financial aid next year school panicked ive never felt like before and still am scared face family especially financial problems parents going through felt control nauseous kept wild thoughts scared know call googled redflag hotline called them want kill myself felt like could hurt myself guy talked calming reassuring still feel shaky got past twisting dark blind panic felt bad calling know issue terrible peoples issues exactly suicidal hotline helped much cesar wherever are thank you got bathroom floor thought going feel insane terrified forever,1 +hate mylife parents treats like shit girlfriend really talk fuck want life let us,1 +failing class first time online school sucks does always high b student yet seeing grades slip recent math now dual credit college class scared graduate wont able go want school hell probably wont even walk due covid mentally destroyed lately grades arent helping alot study too yet know fact fucked test took genuinely terrified work year nothing end sorry rant least needed type it,0 +looking gf requirements human optional alive preferably age within years older ladies dm info,0 +anyone read oyasumi punpun pretty pog manga long good art im bored wanted know many people read it,0 +stolen utorpedodickboy whats first impression based username heh filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +aggressively refer women females female deserves properly addressed females females indeed females making futhermore females,0 +thought smd meant something different like used think shaking dick like smh,0 +nowtwo months ago starts ive depression years feel cant hold longer probably fault too mean fired drinking job liquor store wrecked car hammered top off love life leaves me job car fuck those her glue last three years everything real girlfriend confidence little is shattered since cant push actually try fix myself years life true accomplishments goals thing ive managed nab beautiful unlucky women deserve let slip away maybe fat idiotic self deserves this whats next theres honesty much else see working life job ill hate really better death,1 +pm wednesday december th i gonna wait th month it cant deal anymore ive tried everything could get help yet working attempt work guess ill wait next time,1 +_les acteurs_ absurd story jeanpierre marielle desperately waiting cup hot water story conspiracy actors story aging actors whose careers slowly less active used be stunning tribute french actors cinemabr br supported solid reflection cinema acting the fourth wall hidden cameras play play story film famous actors play role not mixed living life front camera film voyeur quite vague follows actors series episodes make film quite amusing andr dussolier quits film leaves josiane balasko play part great actress hilariously serious especially when dussoliers role bitches herself actors run street asking autographs fights gossip happen recognize pastiche scenes or others playedbr br actually whoever know actors most least s know french cinema movie less interest since references missed still offer good track reflection aging acting public life,0 +might sound dumb idea difference pickles cucumbers,0 +feel like end miserymy mind fuzzy today think ending struggle draining mentally physically exhausting feel unloved unwanted unappreciated hear son fathers day dad lectured finally got frustrated left cant people life see hard lifes struggles me always tried good guy person always right thing good job decent home car stress coming angles time even day meant relaxation turns criticized things years even decades ago laid bed last night discreetly sulking way sleep wake go back old daily grind nothing look forward get home probably expected cook dinner clean afterwards despite fact mind elsewhere thinking might need find secluded spot get nice new blade cut wrists bleed out sure leave cell phone behind walk whereever decide deed cant track cars gps find me maybe schedule note family friends get missingbut dead already faults dark place life never seems go away time think feel lower life find feeling even worse before wish sickness anyone want pain stop never stops cant talk anyone close get tossed damn psych ward days week tell good go again sorry,1 +tell crush like her ive procrastinating months point im still unsure it get help pls,0 +gone time september overthats plan supposed gone january look back post history see took fuck ton overdoses various attempts spent two months psych ward discharged back community wish people would respect choice life hands know selfish wish die able make choice im fed life anything genuinely feel like me belong here simple really ive written note plan starting fall place ill gone september thats start new academic year ive come far ive many attempts im certain want dreams ambitions ive tried years think future try believe enough make loved ones feel reassured genuinely cant keep wasting resources people desperate future wish rest im hoping ill leave world tiny bit better came im supposed here thank anyone cared read that,1 +got argument someone sub said i bet also want unisex section stores said whats problem respond,0 +donei think time promise aloud ill nearly every day im feel like already used up behind youth lifetime indentured servitude health means probably even live retirement age anyway job asks much me fired soon cant keep up energy will ambition im shitty father cant provide kids shitty husband cant even get anymore hate everything want longer failed im done,1 +old vaudeville team willy clark walter matthau al lewis george burns one best known broke hating other years later agree get together tv specialbut find still hate other willys nephewagent richard benjamin tries get work togetherbr br a big hit day george burns oscar best supporting actor somewhat liked it written neil simon nonstop oneliners funny making jokes willy als senility not also never liked matthau never thought good actor something rubbed wrong way also character caustic get sick quickly aside fun burns great tossing oneliners ease even matthau good matching him verbal battles best sequences movie also benjamin good willys nephew trying get two work other worth seeing burns alone jump started career big way two years later another hit oh god so good goodnot great matthaus character really makes hard love give ,0 +dont want anymoreim angry tired recently ive getting dizzy spells im almost always tired irritated cant sleep well want get either im constantly floating drifting limbo like state hurt myself brought light teachers got careless accidentally exposed scars spoke school counsellor feels like listening finally teacher told stop lying myself stop hiding asking attention stop pretending life sad get people listen know im really pretending sad gain attention even now im still trying figure out maybe am considering feel lonely despite friends never life feel could truly talk anyone want seek professional help do even assuming parents mock me able afford it maybe id distrusting doctor friends people genuinely feel happy around time cant help lose patience stupidly small things get angry them theyre nice enough brush off maybe theyre tolerating it know mind bloody hellhole cant look someone something without constant fear theyll hate me even small things like saying hi pure torture mess up hours keep harping bloody thing feel like overall piece scum want anything want die probably seeking medical help thats option anymore talking people work now im ready go decided push everyone around away want anyone wasting tears go wanted get chest,1 +antarctica giant ice cube well greenland count nobody really likes greenland,0 +yo fuck school im hella pissed right now given almost practice papers week ago solve even year considered submission shit pulled allnighters finish papers got approx hrs sleep week fast forward today say reconsidered submissions want artwork creative things next week like wtf kidding me fuck supposed papers huh shove ass serve dinner next days write every last ounce insult know directed towards you fuck ruining week,0 +dont knowi mess everything up one cares me ive deeply depressed past days like scale probably depressed ive ever been tried talking boyfriend im states currently im vacation sucks replying says doesnt know say know hes therapist still want someone tell everything going okay need someone tell that dont know anymore cry every night night since cant day im presence family havent eaten days dont feel need to im alone friends turn to one ive become shell human ive come terms pain dying annoy people nobody suffer presence me watched family today hotel room fun beach swam drank ate lunch constantly smiling laughing seemed happy without involved dont need lives one does got brothers two children wanted theres me im nothing wouldnt missed,1 +someone kill me thanks advance filler depression filler filer filler filler hate everything filler filler one ever love filler,0 +cant cant thisi hope ok post again posted days ago today horrible saw ex emotionally destroyed event saw lot ex friends hes friends with im forced see people lot certain circumstances anyway broke crying stop even xanax ended leaving event early parents offered move back town used live thats hours away longer forced around them want though also want here want happy cant im zoloft take xanax needed rarely take though im still happy eaten today want underweight again hospital underweight months ago breakup blood pressure dropped dangerous levels hospitalized cant eat though im upset feel nauseous full cant eat wanna move wanna either nothing take pain away either need die get amnesia move ill friends ill hope making more stay current friends least deal seeing people made miserable lose lose situation hope wake morning,1 +woman know raped know heavy title staying friends house past weekend eating dinner mom clearly bothered something sure was friend finally decided ask friend mom whats wrong mom reply friend mom whats wrong you mom sighed stayed quiet minute looking us explained woman well call works got raped going divorce decided go bar one night met men there talked invited party one men drove place party supposed rest drove another vehicle party men brought place raped her five them course heard this friend floored woman going divorce two young children last thing needs top getting fucking raped friends mom explained another woman people knew would never known see break break room said want tell us figured since were young girls need careful realize know woman pretty common name saw store works today seemed little off pondered moment connected dots fit description perfectly asked friend confirmed it know extremely well ive gone kids birthday party little brother plays kids little boys already hard time divorce knowing would break them know do want go police embarrassment fear feels like should thinks knows want falsely accuse someone situation weighing told mom someone friends mom works raped forgotten name told mom know im hoping connect dots like did know much though think will mom knows woman want news spreading able stop thinking friend nightmares able sleep well night im anxious person im sure ill able get soon im worried friend since never worried much everyone stay safe careful trust,0 +wish people speak nigh incomprehensible verses speech towards speaking clear mostly understood way close impossible me however would seem required social events play well enough yet mention force upon known school ever need moment reflect find old near forgotten local stroll where back forth place stumble slowly like first discovering old aztec ruin never seen creature help,0 +suggestions good hotlinesi called many get damn thing every time want discern immediate danger not are shunt authorities not want line soon possible lines actually talk ya know help avoid getting bad,1 +ive feeling extremely lonely need guidanceit started went friends place last weekend long story lot details could point makes whole thing understandable wish delve would take ages write try summarize whats going on weve friends almost years we went school kept touch graduated visited place weekend things going sorta fine recently installed tinder kind obsessed whole thing texting random people matched phone lot general really bother were relationship whatever wants right guess kinda felt neglected unappreciated like matter hanging out things together went eat sat pub drinks normal fun stuff like that shake feeling like mean anything her kept trying get friends join stuff like that know hurt should really affected mood felt like shit lot small stuff happened like that like said previously would take long type out skip sunday everything off feel like nobody cares wants talk me ive talked times since weekend feeling distant even made plans talk got home friends house even call next day asked to told busy talking tinder guy whole night get sleep bother much sudden almost feel like ive developed feelings scares me ive never felt way before whenever talk friends feel really hollow sad fuck going me feel like im missing something life know is sorry post big mess need get chest feel undesirable moment making extremely depressed guys advice me situation like this thanks reading,1 +spoilersbr br i saw original tv sometime ago remembered production less gripping beeb costume drama rewatched dvd week still impression it good story first weakens heroine becomes oh terribly brave noble returns utterly vile husband hes ill got totally irritated saintliness suppose right thing do story written well contributing plenty angst difficult woman independent husband marriage made possession let alone carry scandalously lover expect lot modern audience would liked see hard take santimoniousness nowadays especially heroine strong brave admirer ready defend anyone everyone story film im equivocal well done per novel somewhat irritating per todays kind lifebr br steadfast hero gilbert certainly saint put ladyloves variable often cryptic behaviour persistent selfdenial consistently supportive felt great shame helen long last free him script allow bit one minute fall quick hug titles came up completely ridiculous wed waiting time dripping sentiment undeserving husband decent bit dialogue good embrace hero heroine instead ending though film makers run time finance bothered here one minute that cut director wants go home now left feeling totally dissasatisfiedbr br however high commendations acting toby stephens perfect handsome hero rupert graves superbly nasty selfpitying villain tara fitzgerald satisfactory within confines script forced depressing rather sanctimonious victim much timebr br that said love classic dramas virtually sight better much modern drama tv days stars spite irritations still good watch,0 +reading biography last russian tzar nicholas ii failure secure armys support decided give film trybr br i watched completely open mind knowing anything except reputationbr br these things impressed mostbr br shots battleships soldiers used extras stopped think if done time place would computergeneratedbr br realism it maggotinfested meat shot sailor candle legend killed bowl soup movie makes concessions pc cause which thankfully invented yetbr br slow descent madness odessa steps sequence first shot limbless man appears get idea something might wrong since overall shots composed though end feeling comfortable surroundings amputee appears people start falling dramatic poses still shots composed cossacks appear scene incredible shot juxtapositions appear scene easily worth price admissionbr br fact movie unadulterated propaganda again rambo fought afghanistan also something propaganda different kindbr br overall film marred bit slow narrative nevertheless metropolis cabinet dr caligari movie perfect examples inventive edgy movies still remembered merits today really make modern movies look boring repetitive,0 +didnt helpi finally got job year trying thought something occupy sitting home done complete opposite went suicidal thoughts times week every single day every night point want turn brain dont think im really cut alive theres future,1 +whats least painful way dieat point life meaning lost years life due abusive family life wouldve chosen myself want end little pain possible options heard hanging relatively painless im open considering options,1 +relapsed day sucks idk im good time rn like lifes kinda coming ass probably plan funeral soon,0 +im scared best friend know itim totally loss know do short back story little trio friends two call allie basically weve real good friends past years last year got thing allie dating months allie broke things feel anything want waste time decided would take month figure allie wanted try not role around last week allie said no want don bit back revealed notebook write thoughts get bit therapy im dealing with learned today made notebook gave allie try communicate going through allie came today told written whole bunch stuff loves pissed would said another guy told part wrote wanting commit redflag just wanting put gun temple feel bullet go skull fade white ive noticed also past days normal self texted today telling wanted talk face face tomorrow without allie around im scared im scared him im scared might do know do hes best friend allie already one close friend commit redflag earlier year dose know would do basically need help tomorrow tell make want go care grammar proper structure post need help,1 +help please ive recently went stuff completely ruined appetite get hungry finally go eat instantly feel really full sick without consuming food help,0 +feel really lonely sub feel im girl brave enough browse post here,0 +suicidal bc impulses controli hate right now hate myself feel suicidal cant deal impulses anymore whether hurt reckless say something ill regret contact someone past control anymore love people despite time thoughts deal every day causing havoc dont know want emotions results actions im hurting everyone around parents friends everyones letting go one help feel alone therapy isnt option one help bur gave long time ago dont usually think redflag strongly usually push it feel like ill always way always confuse people emotions lately cant even trust ill next minutes dont know im even supposed earth point someone please try give reason stay besides basic people love true dont see light ive cycle years im still,1 +one last chanceim giving one last chance weekend im asking girl get im finally ending it ive given life while need last push end it getting need,1 +film wonderful captures gaming life laughed hard watching this movie gaming group hard time campaign dungeon master came with movie switches real world gaming world play campaign shows gaming world character switches back real world playing campaign basis module dungeon master lodge writing problem lodge cant finish module characters cant finish campaign killing looting instead role playing lodge wants role play campaign something never done before decide bring extra help bring await it girl play lodge also makes npc non player character paladinwho witness wrong play film want spoil film say more movie may big budget film acting may oscar worthy gaming dungeons dragons definitely watch it lot fun making film shows going bash movie problems continuity thing low budget film fun slap stick comedy enjoy damn good writing opinion want fun film try ,0 +im sad dad dad telling go give sister almonds eating almonds different room got up also said even eat almonds gave laanatmeans saying goddamn you told dog mean why dad give shit mental health says im boy gotta strong cry someone dies like really man,0 +friend sjw gonna rant post sorry friend watching film happened monday online criticism _insane_ like would say ewww misogyny look soldiers _men_ seriously come on trivial enjoy goddamn film time either near end ruin ending saying ugh patriarchy theyre women gives fuck said nobody cares one fucking does theres worse things going right men soldiers women nurses saying watching much tiktok instagram activist really boosts saviour complex honestly aware things unethical consumption capitalism thats fine thats good cause advocate climate change gender roles yes women soldiers men nurses film reality mirror reality slightest goodness sake kill kids movie worrying progressiveness background acting casting fuck off please,0 +best friend telling theyre going kill tomorrowwhat fuck do let talk lives far away,1 +sure know tooi following throught plans leave burning pile garbage call earth past years now way much baggage drag form keep short sweet divorcee age finalized past march th exact upon receiving divorce papers recently discovered lesbian exwife got everything wanted divorce buried debt court fees cost lawyer fees lawyer fees amongst many things top longer rights children unless go her mean say go courts allowed write parenting plan time call kids via cell phone times school bed night know used kids hide behind afraid come closet ten years together on again again nothing fool trying figure get love align right way seen kids months now left well paying job which required travel loved constantly bashed for never home always throwing kids face unemployed looking work since nov st since lost license back child support im pretty sure child support debt costing job opportunities ive applying jobs know im qualified never hear anything back found girl time frame know love cant support financially much going life nothing burden life career financials oh get one cars divorce still married but separated going divorce took title loan never paid balance cannot pay expired tags cannot renew please someone show going see supposed better part life seeing us government allowing dyke fuck anyway wants taking paycheck one option,1 +weekends dismaleverything seems good week days great friends doin well school met great girl weekend comes always hope ill happen again always does every time same stepfather dickhead mother unstable alcoholic thing hear shouting door slamming weeks ago however heard something noone hear mother say i want die almost did took kind pills concerned obviously moved on pretending nothing happened today situation almost again terrifying part that while wished would die maybe would better easier without her cant function normally family tried help everyone family tried nothing works long go like this monday come ill hopeful again itll change anything would easy give up would say would love me feel like disappointment yet try hard,1 +want end last months life cannot stop thinking failure every sense yet think this cannot stop hearing something say head dont understand this please want feel normal,0 +move breakup im really rough time could use advice move really tearing up still love guess love anymore,0 +made st semester college barely scraping gpa needi completely isolated reached new levels social anxiety depression didnt attend class lectures nothing me instead watched khan academy devoted timeenergy could schoolwork still barely made through means ill upcoming semester probably end it cant take anymore stress,1 +another one unable cope lifeso thing having depression is never knew it always felt way remember anything else includes completely forgotten everything happened life prior puberty one earliest memories is something around remember time children school hanging other except me shy ever anything usually hung alone here thats years past now except consecutive days felt good alone anymore ive always contemplated redflag every day made plans eventually threw away involved wimp actually determined finally end myself sadly day task anyway something rather impactful happened beginning year put another crisis finally got open one friends have turned mistake unfortunately since straight went parents told it convinced get counseling medical therapy started end january now month weekly appointments therapists taking antidepressants convinced ever things helpful all making things even worse huge waste time also feel terrible everytime talk reasons basically regular reminder pf hate alive last week ditched therpist stopped taking antidepressants know feel like best thing do finally feel like could accomplish fatal task made new friend university also deals depression copes cutting places one sees alas mean give tips accidentally anyway started to even think control happening cant deal life moment another thing kinda lost control marijuana abuse know serious drug past smoked one two weekend relax months now consume least gram day soon effect fades away immediately start feeling bad everything take next hit whole text pretty badly structured probably incomprehensive doubt anyone actually cares get there get core problem hate living live without anyone existence caring enough show genuine love me im gomma stay alone forever way around it medication world change fact nothing desirable one would ever want me antidepressants help this neither therapy said trying seriosly trying make work noticed correct along tell me supposed now except killing myself often get lost thoughts driving maybe finally next days over grateful advice give _this whole text typed using smartphone keyboard probably missed lot letters buy hope recognizable also im native english speaker sorry mistakes made_,1 +crush agreed go omg im happy sike thought another one annoying posts,0 + yorkshire boy chimneysweep falsely accused theft crooked master runs away falls treacherous local river transported underwater realm makes many friends rescues mythical water babies evil sharkbr br based book charles kingsley lovely childrens film half liveaction half animation grim evocative depiction victorian times terrifically enjoyable undersea adventure really two films one somehow complement combine much richer whole animation tony cuthbert jack stokes miroslaw kijowicz wonderful photography ted scaife music phil coulter bill martin pender great roughdiamond quality literal fish water love moment hes top mansion sees chimneys shouts blimey top voice mason cribbins filthiest nastiest bullies could hope see costume drama if want see real victorian values watch sense sensibility watch this whitelaw pertwee who umpteen voices percival excellent good childrens movie good old singalong fun also little bit thoughtful sad frightening high cockallorum ,0 +zoom likeyour connection unstable bruh see life filter filter filters idufhekebcisgsofnsjfhskcjsvdovisgfoe fidvf ekf sid ekf sid,0 +telling shit jokes everyday get gf someone stole mood ring last week im honestly still sure feel it,0 +life boring hope diei life boring childhood always lonely never friends family always fighting kinda sad childhood abusive teachers amp parents day getting boring even feel depressed now want redflag either hope die soon without redflag,1 +forbidden planet represents kind science fiction precious cinema especially s day earth stood still war worlds lest forget gem took story shakespeares tempest tell tale astronauts planet doctor made remarkable breakthrough kind breakthrough much incredible look though look quite amazing look sets gigantic machine doctor creates emphasis characters themes technology taken far primitive side human nature even know were channeling itbr br on surface first ten minutes looks standard little professionally acted directed better skill bmovies period ship astronauts mission planet altair bring back expedition went missing decades before one left dr morbis walter pidgeon daughter somehow immune attack left everyone else dead morbius appears cordial highly intelligent man technology looks impressive thing astronauts led skipper leslie nielsen think report back superiors earthbr br but theres catch something killing members crew ship one one every night even others keep eye put invisible electric fence invisible something goes easily meanwhile theres romance possibly skipper alraira theres pushy vibe doctor come planet start need go happens even fascinating purely intellectual level forbidden planet never forgets audience also entertained story getting useful ideas everyone may remember robbie robot good reason perhaps unforgettable image monster realized screen crew firing avail animated red electricity looking beastly looks fantasiabr br the acting pidgeon subtle expect villain though something character performance speaks this end makes character far complex one would expect performances workmanlike also excellent nielsen born leader holliman providing great comic relief cook who add helps one funniest scenes film gallons bourbon robbie provides effects time extraordinary sophisticated nostalgic pulp way today too music done electronics beautiful tones ultimately screenplay careful direction hilcox puts notch rest bmovie lot meant funny intentionally works dramatic connects quite well even stiff moments actors made think horrible situation comes gradually nuance shoved faces injected megaactionbr br an inspiration many scifi films fine marker thoughtful science fiction stories books timeold classy entertaining classic,0 +went saw movie last night coaxed friends mine ill admit reluctant see knew ashton kutcher able comedy wrong kutcher played character jake fischer well kevin costner played ben randall professionalism sign good movie toy emotions one exactly that entire theater which sold out overcome laughter first half movie moved tears second half exiting theater saw many women tears many full grown men well trying desperately let anyone see crying movie great suggest go see judge,0 +im attempting redflagim middle redflag attempt dont understand much mental health liver failure ive swallowed three handfulls tylenol many drinks worth booze distract liver dont know enough know whether actually work im planning case god hope will clue long itll take really dont want wait anymore over ive written note already friends family hope enough cant post something like social medias im worried someone would try stop ruin it im sorry downer post needed say something somewhere im sorry,1 +want die cant handle life anymore pushed aways everyone caredim read ive ready go mind chaotic cant handle life anymore,1 +kind excitedthat ill jumping cliff tomorrow sunday ive neet not employed education training yrs intentionally making poor decisions entrap redflag would option lol really expect live almost hoping id die ill probably leave phone stuff home bring bus fare one way im thinking stuffing drivers license mouth ducttaping shut id later ezpzs anyone wants see niagara falls canadian side ill probably aim old concrete building cliff someone come let know plur d kandicuff go,1 +ever feel like edgelike spend much time thinking big part life reason done yet yet always feels like edge waiting last straw reading last mean thing last horrible thing happens know done,1 +cannot ever seem get caught work constantly interrupted people seem think manager not the real manager moron one thinks it feel like drowning everyday expected take more generally ignored friends family one gives shit say do try talk constantly talked made feel like shut up necessary work house double originally quotedwasher dryer broke worth fixing another couple grand replace themgarage door broke ill pay repair guy look it goodness knows much cost fix ran shredded wheeler tire traffic could avoid smashed grill car maybe undercarriage insurance deductible tooall span weeks money oncejfc world leave alone minute stop one damn thing another,1 +tired fucking life want end allcant take anymore used fool thinking tomorrow better cried sleep every night everyday old fucking thing nothing changed fuck life fuck everyone let fuckimg die already fuck fuck fuck,1 +grow adult adulthood overrated depressingwhen grow adult often pressured realistic cost often especially luckyfortunate enough whole adulthood grow up things turned us jaded weary bitter cynical apathy limited empty cold sad amp depressed personindividual young youthful carefree freespirit creative lively happy amp dreamydreamer child childhood us often times slowly died grow adult many people also usually means let go honest amp real would say pressured kill dreams reality cruel cold disappointing limiting mundaneboring stupid pointlessmeaningless often times amp depressing especially us fully realized amp wake harsh truth,1 +cannot try kill cannot stand awake anymore everyday gets worse feel body wearing cared enough want close would feel way everyday agony,1 +like inch long little things next goal showering trying get great depression finally cut nails,1 +feeling like ghost everyonethe past months hardest ever come home cry sleep disappointing worst feeling ever friends thats im mad myself im sad time amazing people life feel like disappear would completely fine without want happen bad dont want feel anything dont want hurt anyone actions wanna give everything im failing classes disappointing parents teachers cant get therapy cant talk problems like theres use cant even happy im around friends theres always something comes keeps happy ill never happy,1 +im like people age actually use lotion side computer desk meant for arms legit get soo dry winter feels like damn scab lotion solves swear,0 +pain pain painthats is good life anymore cant remember last smile cant fucking handle this im going break know when im pushed fucking limits hate lazy unproductive shitbag,1 +soonsoon finished feel inside me grow weary minute know when know how know soon done post here well simply searching reason hold on searching reason stay may know death horizon make less scared guilty guess cry help guess need know bit me firstly throwaway account real account uthe_emery_affliction call richie year old male suffer clinical depression anxiety suffered years redflag fleeting thought months hit rock bottom began self harming daily shower morning night bed become ritual me tried stopping thrown away blades etc always freak without it get shakes start lashing end pulling hair punching wall till bleed figured may well it infact cut posted fall asleep said hit rock bottom mean it tablets even working anymore feel empty devoid feeling shell things keeping girlfriend best friend family music this would gone long time ago thank listening richard would also prefer noone messages normal account forgot one thing challenge you feel like good enough live prove good enough deserve live cause believe dont also may well stop lying myself suicidal intentions may scared them almost constant drowning almost every thought feel times like drowning well maybe drown take pills cut deep make sure jobs done right,1 +know go getting diagnosed getting help parents think anything wrong me say attitude need drop it feeling empty unprovoked sadness maybe years now recently realized past years normal feel way time move forward here think may depression,1 +something going outside nice nature warm weather bicc shitty unmaintained roads da smell fresh asphalt nice smell better drugs smell local tributary u ride ur bicc hill smell warm air u ride downtown sounds nature pm summer cars road quiet road jeans shitty shirt idk walking random sewer listening juice wrld artists forgot ampxb feels better sitting chair playing videogame,0 +quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy 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quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy quick brown jumps lazy,0 +livei wanted live long time know ever consciously chose life im alive bei take care mom lot health problems dreams desires know experience ill never achieve obtain anything good want live to want feel way anymore feeling never goes away know make fight life want it know improve things desire anything ive even let go wanting feel better never do,1 +got youtooz bought youtooz today form one favorite streamers im happy d,0 +whenever im sad look dick get sadder cause even wanna use,0 +talk someonethank you,1 +sitting car lunch thinking situation right now point life lot people hate living expectations someone thought friend cut life likes even though dropped lot things normally happy trying find place live wish say happy not feel empty eating properly id one small meal day redflag gets higher higher passing thoughts would happen died right would friend ex friend carei cried sleep horrible nightmares felt like burden nuisance past month able want work ill disturb everyone sleeping feel like everyone elses life would better disappeared feel right now want feel like do know okay think like that trying talk counselor work called back yetin honesty want curl bed cry real friend crawl bed cuddle cry hurts even thinking that know going happen time sooni know everyone around going lot too would ask feel like burden distancing everyone cannot tell getting better getting worse too want loved point held wish happier,1 +a fare remember totally derivative almost ridiculous movie warmth makes effective upbeat holiday movie stars pretty newcomer challen kates highpowered ad executive who right wedding rush la seattle keep client rejected every presentation transportation difficulties beginning seemingly money first dumb thing atms anywhere must make fortune rate meets cab driver warner looks like homeless man drives presentation emerges huge box beef jerky the clients product hes take airport flights canceled order get la wedding hires take therebr br along way bond learn other sweet movie though absolutely nothing new combines six days seven nights films chemistry stars good theyre likable acting good look jerry springer head beef jerky company cameo karl maldenbr br this nice film take holiday season lifetime,0 +dont think herei dont think subreddit exist there said it sub named redflagwatch name blatant miscommunication redflag watch organisation dedicated making sure people wont kill themselves subreddit however almost seems encourage it problem sub consists mainly suicidal people hopeless thoughts someone posts suicidal responses usually people also suicidal leads suicidal feelings poster replier reinforced however fucking awful life may be least try keep living get it life sucks im suicidal myself sucks too point keep believing get better matter bad right now even beliefs lies terrible family members friends always outgrow family never know get thrust social situations youre tired job life everything monotonous try something new find way forward go psychiatrist things usually something underlying mental illnesses kind hopeless medical condition cant cured medical science advancing time knows future bring maybe things wont get better maybe never happy so it least try believe be next year best year life everything fixes everything works best eventually youll missing so much life never had dont think sub encourages thinking think subreddit eventually discovered uncovered really is mainstream media call atrocity reddit pressured shutting down think thats good thing want alternative get feelings internet much better one id recommend forum redflagforumcom genuinely wonderful people seem know theyre doing all keep hoping maybe get better never know,1 +youtube rewind planning agree dislike youtube rewind comes out feel free give suggestions,0 +wanna buy gorillaz song machine thing bad mean like much money realllyyy need spend vinyl prints n shit,0 +care people anymore takes much work love hate part people either care lied caring use firing squad test tell love me odds would chose take place bullet end firing squad odds happening laughably low love me sort care me learned last years almost every person said loved actually meantso chose indifference humans humans animals animals energy care anymore let play stupid games get way indifferently need enact will law get away with forever alone small price pay beats alternative trust me divorced longer speaking man called father know talking about age indifference,1 +seems like many people enjoy personality looks style hate much want harm diei stupid freak,1 +see hope considering ending itim sure nothing unique subreddit might even check responses figure nothing lose talking here goes girlfriend three years broke days ago person ive ever felt true connection built trust anyone time full impact really taking toll kind forced take look life really point time short answer complete shit social anxiety worst ever getting worse ive unable socialize healthy amount like people age get job normal everyday stuff like conversation someone without feeling like im going full fucking meltdown im afraid rate im even going able function normally ill completely left behind real world in every aspect imaginable mention school stressing worst time year theres added pressure also figuring im going uni next year and fear uni completely new environment extends even overall fear future something thats way broad concisely sum let alone get head around worse considering originally started whole post long story short imagine one thing leads another selfesteem basically nonexistent try view things objectively logically possible cant help feel as cliche frankly cringeworthy sounds im either burden mean nothing people around kind relationship with past years ive tried counselors medication ever done make hopeful short time actually improve anything long run person actually make feel genuine happiness girlfriend series complications us go ended breaking clingy im mentioning slander demonstration character holding high regard must resulted behavior troubled enough break me im feeling right feeling lost someone never able replace matter hard try feel like ever trying hopeless long run even together still serious doubts occasional breakdowns anxiety fear over well everything least someone would listen id willing open would actually understand personally relate degree feel like talking anyone state things lost cause im even typing anyone particular subreddit popped googled something efficient redflag methods something im still seriously considering option criticize usual attempts comfort it gets better redflag never option even though theyll likely make difference whatsoever ill try overly cynical pessimistic personal anecdotes probably much impact unless theyre something super relatable connect kind emotional level professional advice better might coming wrong way one obligated try sway direction thats choice figure setting least people take step id dumb attack feel concern remorse anything happens after time feel little conflicting last cry help it maybe temporary benefit attempt clearly cohesively map everything im still struggling make sense inside me one last written confirmation everything turned shit happened come across subreddit time felt necessary ill let words sit now thank reading really,1 +cant genuinely cant remember happiness like death pleas filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +hello whats up ask anything im bored ,0 +keep waking upits demoralizing keep waking dead joy brief feeling nothingness wake emotions come rushing back me im really tired im sure much longer this,1 +give hell upi cant keep ending swear god wanna shoot ir slit throat od dont fucking care anymore wanna die tired fucking life,1 +holy shit fuck yes past two hours ive texting crush since th grade th grade now amazing learned bunch stuff didnt know her,0 +holy shit im terrible humanafter first real relationship ended took pretty hard result said nasty things ex mistake number one mistake number two continuing message told wanted nothing me this guess wanted try amend wrongdoings made even worse leaving fuck alone third mistake continually stalked social media awhile like sort addiction good things say me one thing stuck really respect bisexuality as fetishizing sex women this feel like complete utter pile shit ive realized im horrible person want better call fuck die rings head loud clear also girlfriend thinks im great realize im lousy piece shit also completely bat shit insane never loved myself struggled suicidal thoughts many years idea recover actually better person,1 +actual fuck giving auto moderator awards seen much awardee karma bot has useless literally throwing money away reason peak stupidity like wtf,0 +knowi never thought would typing redflag note reddit ive thinking ending life since long remember finally courage so within exactly hours ingest poison take life cant take anymore hate life hate living hard everytime want something good end hurting people im disappointment im tired blamed everytime something goes wrong parents curse everyday hate them made way fault im tired hit everytime something wrong young girl wanted lot things become astrophysicist go harvard kind person successful now write this emptiness inside me longer desire live final goodbye hopefully one finds saves me hopefully though havent good world everyone deserves second chances ive given everybody including myself many chances time today im giving second chance ill take last walk read good book last dinner finally sharp everyone house fast asleep ill take poison whoever gonna reply this thank kind cruel words thank concern time cue goodbye,1 +reddit awesome use social media app except reddit guys think,0 +tips sending everything hell girl tell you talking girl long time social networks calls think seen times girl sister one best friends this problem since talk problem thing like other thing tomorrow im going go friends house im going see her moment nerves selfesteem began kill began wonder like like that interested me truth types questions eat little little advice would give screw up,0 +make stoparghh wish could jump front bus probably cut knowing cant yay woop woop life joy,1 +tfw youve happy week start feel big sad creeping back like man,0 +tell something dont know filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im happy want diei got sober ago im happy im healthy love people life love life love everything future might become disgusted disappointed exhausted at whatwhom why sure hell know pit lower part chest hard concrete feels like crushing unity desolation loneliness hopelessness physically feel it despair involves matter well doing well think doing self harming often usually life getting better get happier spent whole week people love love me spent whole week things love good me spent whole week thinking moment would right moment cut neck spent every moment outside house wishing back bathroom razor hand ran fingernail across site im going cut good friends wanted either get locked psych ward tear fucking neck open wanted cry want die want live everything feels tasteless tiring even though everything beautiful exactly be feel powerless urge know going kill me kill im control myself always control myself tiring fighting myself hate happening actually love im might go wrote redflag notes want die feel like cant fight anymore,1 +made likehalf song anyone rap wanna help out,0 +the man knew much alfred hitchcocks remake thriller married couple james stewart doris day vacation morocco got caught nightmare include murder espionage assassinations worst all kidnapping yearsold son movie hitchcock considered superior original great fun stewart day good chemistry together film filled wonderful comical scenes dialogues well scenes chilling suspense br br the inclusion que sera sera proved stroke genius rarely song fits content plays important role movie like que sera sera the man knew much br br hitchcock also treats us live music playing arthur benjamin storm cloud cantata almost ten minutes scene londons royal albert hall assassination important politician attempted takes place both scene cantata simply marvelous,0 +ned kelly wonderfully made australian film honouring true australian hero taken world ned best friend joe byrne members kelly gang film explains perhaps justifies neds actionsbr br there exceptional cast present give stellar performances brings film life great job heath orlando bloom fantastic joe playing role quiet loyal ladiesman well swept moment moment almost believed gang would win battle glenrowan alas bebr br some aspects film fictional avid ned kelly fan and supporter slightly disappointed this perhaps also film couldve gone longer cover kelly gangsneds life felt enough coveredbr br regardless flaws moving film stirs sorts emotions and hey id assume film would better watch rather mick jagger trying portray ned,0 +society longer need white women idk tell ya dont see need anymore,0 +depression overcoming meim lost feel worthless feel like place world anxiety makes impossible grow person positive outlooks anymore know im going anywhere life dont see light end tunnel see therapist parents taking sort medication help me dont know im honestly scared myself need advice get thoughts people love long possible,1 +good looking bad personality sucks repost forumi notice people say stuff like attractive people try life looks main thing matters guess understand people think media whatnot ive learned throughout life completely like that ive rejected broken men based im boring uninteresting fun depressing etc men never feel connection me ive also fucked years sex men right away basically basing relationships sex ive shitty personality years feels difficult change seem authentic fun since long every time guy rejects breaks me girl get always good looking me makes feel like shit know must better personality me even though look good still get guy want know sounds mean feel happening even ex boyfriend im still love hurts much im still friend saying likes girl have fun interactions makes smile even want to know never fun interactions go dinner sex fault wish could change get like again want hope keep friend maybe hell like seems like small chance want start him no think im perfect way insecurities like majority people do whenever think wanting get work done fix subtle things come back remember getting even better looking going help get man likely make feel better myself basically want ctb im man im love with hate wish someone else think im going go anywhere life trying get career thats different story yes know definitely people worse everyone different though much take life whatever problems someone has still problems even people consider slight problems know anymore chance could start guy,1 +must happen ok something happend today time ago finally courage dm crush wanted something actually said yes happy talked dm bit also school hit pretty well thought holy shit maybe gonna get girlfriend one classes got cancelled today period asked could go mall friends said yes happy again yes really fun liked that plays minecraft asked were home play minecraft together also really fun remeber seeing tiktok talking class gay something asked her are actually gay responded yes,0 +time im sleep leave something read wake morning,0 +planned kill st even thati finished senior school last year since ive preparing college without everpresent stress school keep distracted mind gone shit sleep odd hours im writing random amounts time spend night thoughts keep company best year guess th november decided id end st december counted day even feeling weird jolt excitement realised november days instead wanted check soon possible wake nd december realise still alive never real plan even note drafted guess hoped could wish dying sleep every night hope actually wish death ill die sleep guess im lazy even that cant believe thought actually guts it im joke,1 +getting admitted hospitali live uk sure whether elsewhere theres something quite get system far understand it way getting immediate help ie hospital failing actual redflag attempt show doctor say i going kill todaytomorrow method otherwise experience pretty much hmm heres slight med adjustment see feel come back month whilst appreciate simply enough space hospitals also really understand scenario could ever occur surely made decision make doctors appointment day tell them anyone experience situation,1 +want leave tonightnot bothering throwaway dont know anyone would care found this im years old friends family ive felt like dying long remember point pushing cowardice bc hotlines say gets better eventually never me good job year attempt took me jobless couple months havent drive really try find anything sleep much body let me wish anything left keep really dont im constantly physical emotional pain ive many therapists psychiatrists nothing make better want go whatever next maybe finally go maybe reincarnation real ill happier tomorrow,1 +flat funniest spoof pretentious art house films ever madebr br this flick exposes clichs some excruciatingly bad downssyndrome actors terribly heavy self important dialog scenes supposed shock fall flat jarring editing pointless plot points wrapped kind smirky miasma disrespect audience vague psychdrivelbr br it achieves exactly designed to hilarious satire tedious movies made spoiled teenage trustfunders show parents ask theyve last two years what it received cannes award presenter werner herzog rumored told film fact spoof part films supposedly blew info day refuses discuss incidentbr br anyway see laugh classic humor many years come,0 +long time reddit lurker first time posteranyone take sertraline i mg per day andor propranolol mg times per day need it drink alcohol experience wary of cannot sleep could really sink beers haha also newbie antidepressants took mg fluoxetine years prior switchover last month found effect depression anymore thanks advance propranololsertraline amp alcohol,1 +kinda wish able say reason head saying anything disrespect punished want yo fuvking,0 +give ship scenarios write fanfic wanna write enemies lovers slow burn long fanfic need pairings lgbt welcome straight couples also work hopefully ship harry potter avatar last airbender adventure time undertale anything works though give tropes scenarios youd like see ill let know use ideas itll posted archive ao ill make follow post,0 +first off im dedicated fan modestys reading comics since child found earlier movies heroine unsatisfying fail one rocks br br well then go ms blaise working casino gang robbers comes along starts gambling friends lives robber wins one round shell tell herself wins two times row one staff members goes free sounds stupid yeah well im good explaining either br br she tells growing war zone without parents friends helping old man refugee camp escape living natures rules hunt food teaches read fight approach civilization get caught war taken rebellions shot old man dies leaves meet city herselfbr br then meets man whos casino working for story ends br br what follow theres awesome fight lines totally cool alexandra staden terrific modesty blaise modest strong graceful intellectual comiconebr br feels awkward though hear modesty speak slightly broken accent thats relevant since comic book blaise cant speak loud certainly must somewhat existing accent not mention weird everybodys speaking english balkanbr br the acting really good even child personifies young blaise must applaud br br my favorite part must rips dress kick stupid robbers ass totally awesome d cant wait real adventure begins next moviesbr br watch it disappointed,0 +think cracked type code may late party accept fact im ugly subpar intelligence major clue im doing simply regret every decision youve made every meaningful relationship life nobody hurt,0 +partner time drinking heavily leading breakdown later night selfharming feel riddled guilt partner witnessed it stop feeling way recently relapsed selfharm feel deeply ashamed,1 +lived five attempts far debating sixthim total waste space saps life everyone around me hallucinate experience delusions horrific anxiety focus issues almost never leave house live pathetic existence ssidisability drain family theyd never tell that certainly exhausting deal with friends cant help me ever want say oh positive great guy im ive one relationship odds schizophrenic male getting married onset something like last looked oh theres someone everyone keep chin up real world know thats true nobody wants year old schizophrenic crazy baggage cant work useful skills world unimaginably cruel im getting sick again like thought alive right would much prefer cold grip oblivion maybe im failure redflag too maybe thats cant get one stick id rather die get tossed onto street mother dies brother job funds keep afloat id bankrupt him disability pay shit reason im grateful medicaid life medication literal torture id rather return again im running reasons live again,1 +saw toronto international film festival beautiful elgin theatre blown away beautiful cinematography brilliant adaptation tricky play last least bravura performance al pacino born play role perfectly balanced equally strong performance jeremy ironsbr br the film deftly explores themes love vs loyalty law vs justice passion vs reason might protest content inherently antisemitic however consider historical context story delicate nuanced way told adaptationbr br ,0 +sister recovering addict recovery almost two years feeling redflaged anxious overwhelmed life told worried relapse suicide gets overwhelmed try talk help alleviate redflag life done things like clean house make sure peaceful space worry that got doctors contact information need insurance card call make appointment asked couple times time overwhelmed already asked right then cannot ask much push hard gets overwhelmed freaks out house two children worry children much stimulation one year old want help care her also afraid leave alone afraid anything actually afraid talk try keep kids away give quiet think upset afraid try talk going overwhelmed afraid talk things provide distraction show upset think care overwhelmed help idea do know,1 +guys finally omg learned tag posts nsfw im happy ,0 +im runnin low serotonin chemical imbalance got twisting things,0 +reasons rnoescapehentai banned is,0 +night might really final nightim going honest ive wanted die long time sometimes felt really bad sometimes bad right now feel like really alternative thing drink family expense like years now perspective drive friends got nothing im thinking either driving car train station decapitation train going forest short drop suspension prefer train next one comes hours,1 +hotline really worth iti get much detail hotline probably last resort ive read quite lot posts sub hotline mostly depicted unhelpful bad know therere probably good people working hotline wanted know worth it really want get trouble like cops called me please reply would greatly appreciated,1 +leaving here need place ranti want fucking kill myself ive ever typed words written words even said aloud unless knew alone loving family friends boyfriend idea one friend best friend ubderstands depression job five pounds name feel like shit waste space going one day next fuck all times get drink makes things worse drunk horrid embarrassing hungover darkest cant push seek help cant see point so would easier swallow pills run knife across throat live mind anymore thing stopped cant family ive started stop caring im scared future holds one,1 +like annoying friends jojo references really make almost everything jojo reference world sure wonderful place,0 +mother needed went bedmy brain feels like scrambled eggs thoughts strong since teenager really fucked time mom needed slept really fucked time really suicidal im scared it overwhelming crippling feeling angst days since particular situation still feel like shit nearly bad last night ive avoiding mom said something lovingly me im crying again know im disappointment still loves me deserve her,1 +go outwhat best way die something heroic die saving someone get fight drug gang let shoot me pretend shoot police with fake gun something shoot me try break world record high chance fatal get pet crocodile trigger feminist myself decide,1 +darius goes west film depicting american belief everything possible try hard enough wonderful fun filled sometimes heartbreaking film shows young man never expected longed see outside confines lovely city athens ga darius wished see ocean longtime friends logan ben several good friends decided make darius wish come true started small ben logans mom started email campaign bring awareness darius condition duchenne muscular dystrophy raise funds fellas take darius see ocean see great united states say young college buddies succeeded bringing hope awareness dreaded disease would understatement realized darius dream some put lives hold showing love care tons fun darius helping darius see turn show traits others suffering dmd darius went volunteer red cross sitting chair collecting money along buddies outside local grocery store wonderful smile tells world dreams come true need hope group college friends support care you give darius guys oscar one else deserves more martha sweeney,0 +guys wtf happened them kurdish people believe ghosts called eshma chetr you find google including parents parents siblings ancestors siblings say mom son daughter died starvation no theyre african american someone trapped basement would feed nan flat circle bread day one day went basement give nan single body found next days people somehow found reported still bodies found guy sentenced life prison tho windows exit escape somehow did could found anywhere incident everyone put whole meal nan left alone hours nan would slowly get eaten everyone started stopped working year so anyways enough bread getting eaten also found showered week specifically wednesdays showered wednesdays hit one got injured get injured died die one showered wednesdays never stopped still going kurdish happened me parents still let us shower wednesdays even tho siblings think bs day sister woke am i awake see pulling nighter shower parents know got injured anything yet proved us bs today went bathroom phone flushed once waited like minutes no joke flushed own thought accidentally flushed think much another minutes later flushed again time positive flush said flushes time gotta get tf outta there another minutes later flushed got tf outta there remembered sister showered am day freaked out believe theyre real siblings believe parents will,0 + back school nursing feel like never going able stand working mental physical illnesses diarrhea year signs physical causes likely due redflag unhappy makes mad cannot experience positive emotions like normal person enjoy anything husband sick me hes staying someone else past weeks tried plenty meds psychotherapy none ever worked well weigh ever have never get period worst acne life hormonal issues stopping oral contraceptives november in attempt help gi issues going years intense depressive episode ever experienced feel like much longer enjoy anything try hard happy people enjoy life without kind struggle hate alive feels like cut it mind body pushing past limits hated past years feel like ill ever content sick clawing scrap positive emotions,1 +suicidal caring whether live diesomeone redirected subreddit last post nostupidquestions said post im depressed mind dying time actively pursue guess makes suicidal reddits guidelines guys think need help like something wrong,1 +guess go bed pm every day online classes going start everyday guess need go bed pm every day now thats teenagers go sleep right school system,0 +im good personim good person lie time ones love most want others getting hurt im scared losing people this reality makes things worse want better cant honestly life everyone would better without it family basically outcasted me boyfriend best person ive ever met still fuck things up cant keep going like this cant change either want die everyone forget me id rather rot hole alive right now probably belong anyway end matter situation ill end fucking everything over deserve happiness love anything good im horrible deserve death deserve people forget me,1 +need input guys design tech project hey everyone id like ask quick moment time answer questions design tech coursework dt aqa coursework gcse anyones asking relating various aspects teenage life id really appreciate submissions thank advance form herehttpsformsglemhqjspzpspvz,0 +play doom today say comments,0 +paul grace hartman husbands grandparents deceased met watching old movies good way see work always enjoyed old movies happy discover also good one,0 +going serious existential crisis please help meim nihilist best describes me motivation im compelled anything life completely pointless tried killing past someone please tell redflag irrational good decision,1 +need helpi while came ask advices friend bad state mind right worried her friends long time went lot always helping depressed suicidal meant still means lot got better last months really want die looking forward whats next happen life problem still make suicidal jokes depression statements funny even sick try help someone often joke start following jokes get scared dont know stop one started it like friend talking depressed state understand know help even ive went situation sometimes try start conversation bad joke mine trash meme dies fast seems want talk understand that ive experienced still want help know how u advices please type everything appreciated,1 +laughed rap yo yo yo laughin this laughin laughin tits laughin sat know laughin bitch yeah laughin up laughin laughin laughin lau fucking dies,0 +heroes one day,0 +snapchat tell everyone everything do want take screenshot message shitpost snapchat goes my name taken screenshot chat everyone like take screenshot bro,0 +school started today switched online classes regular classes today first day back feel dumb fuck again,0 +convinced george floyd died drugs arrest video leaked dailymail see hear already said i cant breathe kneeled due resisting arrest died heart failure also mean overdosed drugs died stress high time arrest also convict angel known police also stupid believe cops acted racism black cop present scene youve lied cnn also millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon heres amazon video httpsyoutubezqnnjwraak heres gf arrest video thats leaked dailymail httpsyoutubeypswqpfdiw,0 +start war sabaton overrated cahrlie damelio talent fortnite good chocky milk tastes bad,0 +dont know fix thismy friend died im state im going miss funeral boyfriend processing wont talk im scared dont know im ever going recover this relationship will ive suicidal really making worse plan killing get home days im supposed kept away medications because ive expressed suicidal intent past psych enough stockpiled seriously hurt myself die im fucking tired this,1 +ever stressed nose started bleeding like waterfall yeah couldnt also nearly passed today pretty pog,0 +struggling teenageri young feel lost please tell lot live know the real world like want hear now read story going quite long since small kid always different reason insecurities enjoyed alone always drawn idea death principle someone vanishing world intrigued losing people close age previously surreal concept hit hard death grandfather death friend due brain tumor young too impacted think them legacy left behind day friend died brain tumor died shortly birthday vividly remember last interaction birthday gift picked me obviously could bought barely able talk siblings gave gift idea book honestly never read left behind way cannot get read it sometimes stare book cover drown thoughts angry while great person great soul last person derserved die think reason could religious would never understand god would kill kindhearted child destroy family grew up despised death never feared however fast forward years to exact fell love really bad perfect caring loving beautiful best friend ever had dated onoff year broke multiple times me know fault broke heart times count insecurities bruised ego stupid things loved anyways put she never have started hate damage caused like drug soon high us suffering perfect description relationship broke well never get back together wanted turn new leaf denied sad every single day neglected emotions honestly stupid however beyond broken needed help want discuss respect privacy ugly say least long time ago short conversation joking around smile filled joy soon alone realised doing denying pain bursted tears worst time life followed lost lot good friends breakup everybody judged rightfully much me since then crying time reason hurts much destroyed someones life barely consequenses little love left myself additionally anyone trust enough go to friends afraid telling others pain nobody knows much struggling now hate waking everyday hope die proboably thinking calm it relationship anything feel unworthy live young handle emotions hard continue usual life care anything happens whether school personal life anything becomes worse could end spot ex school seems happy now last time smiled without faking ago often fantasize people would react death anything thing holding back pain would cause family sick pain crying alone want die ampxb,1 +nikocado avocado like uh jeepers creepers ffffffiddlesticks uh spaghettios,0 +talk anything stupidfeeling little crazy wife said filing papers tiday im bad thoughts hurting people myself wish could fall back asleep think need stay put hurt anyone,1 +wish someone could cry dont even wanna talk want someone understand without explaining everything thats gonna go well cant fucking explain,0 +people america mostly texas guys ready snowvid school canceled months according mother nature god trying apologize peaceful snow,0 +sister talking emotionally physically abuse dad even funny anymore like realized fucked hes parenting is cant believe thought okay long,0 +im lonely pls watch httpswwwtwitchtvgoosethecat,0 +online hobbycommunity join wanted something part of covid cuz im bored want something actually partake instead learning it suggestions hobbies arent expensive would much appreciated thanks,0 +yo heavily suicidalstarted around started really considering redflag gotten worse since currently situation considering every day like months never told anybody irl least ampxb things really get better current age said best time peoples lives yet miserable doubt going get better time absolutely desire continue living basically wasting precious time waiting die do,1 +losing battleeverything turned shit got pretty sick last year work losing house declaring bankruptcy marriage rocksim constantly thinking redflag pawned guns help bills ways thing stopping fear ill fuck end vent quasivegetable care affect anybody left behind ill gone matter slowly day day im losing continue im tired day day shit tired failing tired pissed pissed on could take single pill right percent sure would end life would it,1 +want stop experiencing lifeim really sure im posting need somewhere vent im fucking empty tired know science says effort put easier something gets feel true eating much work im depressed try hard fail continuously school tomorrow almost midnight sunday choose getting enough sleep getting work done trick cant either slept well week everytime think work feel anxious literally cannot make it top im empty numb bored time summer thought structure school would help really didnt feel bad considering entire education waste days im depressed remember anything past depressed years made gpa low year matter all ive disassociated states past months nothing meaning anymore seems even non depressed perspective humanity stupid shallow boring friends people ive dated bore me maybe im depressed also feel theyre painfully inexperience im interested one anything im anxious leave house depressed override anxiety time parents completely negligent child sports hobbies communities im in see ever super depressed hated medication tried im tired try another med month experience terrifying side effects know fix life stays like know long be im planning commit redflag seriously need help,1 +im better im rly scared ill rebecome person againi suicidal thoughts long time seen piece shit thats worth living made chart would put pros cons killing reason didnt would scar little sister life mom would say fault kept going years im actually getting better started working showering etc years careing something fix week running reason im better girl know seems care lot im rly scared ill go back feels good able go friends without feeling like dont belong acting goofy dont seem quiet im petrified night think ill become person created dopamine rush love ill pass passes,1 +guys gals sub seem nice wholesome im really karma felt sudden rush emotions wanted express that sub feels safe gives homely warm vibe yall seem fuckboy fuckgirl type bullying type give advice good can make us laugh help us cope nice wholesome pretty cringey stupid teenagers sub lt sub love yall take care yourselves awesome let anyone else tell otherwise xx,0 +thats rude ngl,0 +teen doesnt watch porn like wtf everyone want watch dudes dick cumming watching gay midget porn watch interracial lesbians sexual intercourse ,0 +ok beyond joke nowive looked mother many years died november ive diagnosed cancer undergoing presurgery chemo enough dog who ive years lesions brain likely cancerous theres nothing save chemo put cant afford anyway much one person go call quits allowed go now,1 +depressed kinda heartbroken like girl shes really smart im attracted reason today playing ctf field team made defender team came asked always defender well idk make game wrapping came group moved side away me dont think likes maybe even hates might give up,0 +mom said good girl frick im dirty minded,0 +ive made mindim pretty sure soon ill gone wanted say hope every lost soul looking comfort finds happiness even small fleeting moments worthy life matter much youve abused unloved abandoned matter horrible things tell matter evil world seems possible climb pit find makes happy even depressed cant shower weeks get bed hope least one day smile favorite pet snuggling you hope smile beat favorite video game find small hobby gives joy hope find joy small fleeting moments enough keep going even minute more,1 +comes wavessome days feel great really look forward whats next me days feel like get hit wave something pure depression suicidal thoughts started around years ago havent gone day didnt think killing myself usually deal days think fuck it lose since suicidal thoughts come also something prevents it death anxiety dont know happens die freaks out limited time here whats next would say im spiritual really happens im sorry im getting topic tried drowning twice couldnt it drive along cliff consider yanking wheel taking down thoughts come whats gonna happen die andy curl ball let thoughts take brain hate thoughts prevent kill myself days call blessing days curse maybe primal thing thats keeping alive maybe brain sends thoughts make sure dont kill myself dont know do cant take anyone want know someone thoughts deal it usually work play video games read watch movie keep mind time googled anything people dealing death anxiety werent helpful thank taking time read this really appreciate it,1 +aloneive dealt suicidal thoughts depression whole life depressed state ive fucked life up im failing school im thirties wife sure wants stay me confided ive dealt depression years thought making way excusing actions wanted support im taking steps think take ive started therapy ive working hard atwell working hard im trying everything man see future with im afraid matter enough cant sleep night cant eat stomach attacks me thing look forward life moment hope wife one day trust again like ive said ive dealt suicidal thoughts whole life theyve never strong theyve last days sometimes guts swallow handful pills done life short term people may sad may better long run,1 +youre super straight bro theres way arent ugly lmaoo aint nobody wanna date anyway,0 +know sayive diagnosed borderline depression years ago worked hard change mind worked found love life felt happy lately feel like im downwards spiral depression again life hard last weeks last years always felt like still power way feel feeling gone feel lost hit like punch gut want end it moment partner thing brings joy life feeling years ago coming back feeling emptiness beeing understood feel like empty shell human chaotic thoughts feels like thousand negative thoughts cant finish single one real way stop cant take anymore want hit head wall make stop cant anything feel like complete nutcase want feel like anymore want feel distraction it past used cut really strong urge afraid partner find think fault which obviously isnt anything make mess mind go away want wake another day feel like again worst part last years like know miss feeling peace within cant seem find peace days cry sob time im alone want die living took big toll last weeks,1 +usa kinda gay tho days rain rain go away mums dildo head,0 +anyone else hate bio usually post like this would wise hive mind rteenagers improve bio grade,0 +really wish people took verbal abuse seriouslyi sick tired people calling sensitive bring alll verbal emotional abuse went through like stfu please stfu adult still feel comfortable body cant trust myself please live traumatise people untill show signs trauma days ask functioning adult even worth it whether giving alcohol drugs better option younger brother would booked car drove secluded place gases carbon monoxide,1 +im worried friendi know much irl were internet friends im worried may going something know do im kind freaking out currently answering texts reddit messages know redflag something mind know im ghosted something going got pretty upset advice,1 +losing head feel traumaticthis story got depression little kid years age two classmates also neighbours come house often used play games talk one guy rude aggressive me mean ignored hate cus classmates guy comes house often soft sweet kid made believe nice guy believed could nice friend general later things gone worse realise worst enemy often visits home sits home day long even spends entirety summer holidays home welcomed home thought nice guy compared classmate rude nature continued long time came tenth grade visits home th grade became ultimate bully would often bully house would say disturbing shit me actually put two phones believe intentional guy poor background luxury house comforts house would make nasty comment everything own comes house gave negative vibes dominated things own later somehow avoided him days later rethinking makes depressed traumatic puts place like allowed early age needed friendship him feel like taking action form made solely mentally depressed coming house long years came house friend end became bully house feel depressed every redflag trauma gave me situation sits head day long day night almost months want get depression lead happy normal life please help can heavily depressed conartist pretended best friend,1 +forgot could rant friends here day good thing remembered,0 +real socialism state mandated gf incels oppressed group world,0 +weird talk comments sure talk guy point suicidal commentshttpswwwredditcomrddlccommentsldskouch_ow_oofie_my_feels op saying bad things hes point experience with help here,1 +fuck mom helpinga couple days ago asked friend livestreamed redflag would watch it made clear intend asking fun question ask pretty chill nice talk forgot it earlier yesterday mom comes room starts lecturing even think killing got calls friends mom regarding considering redflag mom lectured like hour instead pray more left feeling worse later evening brought topic up time front dad began lecturing like good half hour talk friends either i would usually talk anyone feeling really day really needed vent somewhere consider pretty good friend mine someone trust im never talking anyone redflag feel ever again now mom randomly bringing since today morning telling pray think redflag fuck mom helping ps real point post needed vent somewhere im sorry belong sub,1 +dont know else turnyears ago diagnosed depression anxiety cut regular attempted redflag once went meds worked really hard improving situation eventually found coping mechanisms things going really well while finally finished college years depression caused fail many classes found highpaying job didnt necessarily love gave funds go things love ive good relationship years place genuinely happy hadnt even thought hurting couple years went shit since virus biggest thing used cope making fun plans always something look forward to nothing look forward anymore boyfriends mom stage cancer supposed bucket list year shes housebound cant that anxiety high unbearable ive panic attacks every night barely sleep want hurt time learned tie noose yesterday things dont get better know going end around neck im scared idea deal this dont know can,1 +heyy heres another quiz guys seem like enjoy reading answers heres another one more personal info asked none questions mandatory answer ones feel like anyways fun httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsebbgupfxqel_pvmmigficcprrcnuniljhjmacwavuwviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsebbgupfxqel_pvmmigficcprrcnuniljhjmacwavuwviewformuspsf_link for keep saying i think ever see but do even though theres way reply sometimes wish could yall sound really interesting edit ty pointing hindi hindu,0 +mom found femboy pics mostly accepting said okay experiment keeps bringing up oh boy embarrassing af,0 +made lofi song today check u want herehttpsyoutubejqldjkdjyk pretty good i think,0 +want kill stress im scared dieim still school school personal life stressing much life stressed depresed mess im still considering redflag feel like nobody cares me feel like one house expect grandma friends say oh youre smart talented dont think anything special me im far behind school grammar punctuation teachers give b mom thinks need d normally cry reason normal always distract things like dont really friends outside school anyway need help much possible ampxb ampxb im sorry jumbled mess,1 +reach out tohey everyone posted seeking clear honest guidance feel like view ask friends help distorted weekend yesterday ive edge ive self harmed im extremely suicidal know deep im scared it wish dead know reach friends this need support im anxious telling anyone due worrying ill see attention seeking exaggerating ive called friend usually reach low moods times busy chat made feel even alone feel stuck basically words say ask help,1 +bio teacher clinically insane said mitochondria powerhouse cell said wrong,0 +broooo fucking excited girl im really called adorable like oh man like back jesus christ im excited aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa going later today aaaa goodness im sorry im 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started treatment ever since ive made progress much feel like total loser depression bad im ssi idk ssi makes feel like ill never normal friends family connections birthday coming making everything worse thinking back past year ive done absolutely nothing ive burning bridges anyways going ever get lucky enough commit without much interference life would little live fori keep deluding think im young enough turn situation around thats wishful delusional thinking years life meant build foundation rest life right im depressed barely leave apartment disability much foundation build of idk ive never really reached strangers internet late im ive already called crisis line help much yelling void,1 +nd week new medication already fucking forgot along whole backpack need school seriously feel beyond stupid cannot stop crying hy fuck like this somehow always manage find way fuck everything up sick everything sick even trying get better everything feel like fucking shit even everybody around much fucking fun happy hell still feel fucking indifferent done bullshiteven writing feels pointless making feel worse venting even help anymore happening me could life fucking better stupid fucking people ruin fucking brain kid cannot even fucking talk anybody it sick everything want feel good stop feeling goddamn empty tired burden would kill terrible girlfriend would feel forgot medication venting,1 +say lonely huge contradictory cannot get along people terrible notredflag trust issues jealousy mostly social redflag kills every situation sober years good thing addiction problems spiral control effect work life like get fired stop showing up friends know talk people casually friends ever people drank drugs anymore one ex cheated friend mine even see coming huge shock in love time like years ago anyone since still think miss even tho talk take anti depressants work going feel suicidal time see bright future like loneliness working weekend everything nothing myself hypothetically get girlfriend would work worth constant worry cheating leaving right back was year old male nothing live for looking sort advice heard sure help possible,1 +maybe movie one best jackie chans movies think everybody agree mall fight one best fighting scenes ever made also memorable stunts impressive made movie action classic movie influenced many action movies think nowadays action movie makers learn film like could remake chase scene thing modern technologies could make even better also funny scenes made movie enjoyable even jackie fighting althou think could put fighting scenes film,0 +im th grade biology right righting definitions annoying formal make sound like weirdo jacks daily like meiosis bit ago instead saying sperm goes egg create offspring shit like the male reproductive cell enters female reproductive cell create offspring organism dumbass shit,0 +quickly think check seperate windows confirm profiles made recently within past month even day adding me becoming really annoying profiles add me weird theyre obviousy fake specifically pose certain kind person add another stuff me im lesbian date older men ive never really hung anyone older know cant actually know people weird joke daddy issues dad still around really funny joke weird also note one profiles since disappeared really really creepy,1 +im failuregeneric title yeah depression fuck off life shit im facing kicked university bad attendance nonexistent im child want leave parents alone cant anymore im confused empty want sleep,1 +im miserable pathetic cowardi struggled suicidal thoughts long put semicolon tattoo wrist thinking would keep following through im realizing selfish stay alive everyone know would happier without me mom resents views came bisexual told hated me im going hell considers biggest failing mother turn wanted best friend abandoned activity used love together made rash promise favor would rather give favorite past time favor friends avoid me make excuses talk me blame them im needy pathetic partner really love me think make happy want much attention need much help everyday tasks hes loner stuck socially impaired anxious depressed ugly fat disgusting excuse human wakes middle night sobbing someones hurt know handle it know im posting here know need fix everything ive fucked up im scared im weak,1 +reason havent killed yet would really hurt familyi feel like im walking thin ice dont know much longer keep going plan im missing when feel day getting closer though feel like im letting cause love know level blame themselves guess easier thinking affect friends since managed cut life except roommates for obvious reasons even though tried im lost point dont think im coming back wish wasnt good pretending im okay im much coward ask help,1 +yknow whenever feel insecure look many camels im worth fiftyone baby fifty one im better now,0 +plani battled depression since started thinking redflag im now loving bf sweet newborn son love much center world theyre keep going tear time got pregnant quickly bf wonders baby even sometimes is know it anyone long bf father baby cant breastfeed baby anymore took pride honestly pumping rewarding supplemented formula needed often okay that worked well bf decided put baby formula only thought better still agree bf joked starving baby able pump enough day stopped pumping together like kick gut might well said shit mother im trying best can im hes neither us ready committed anyways im trying ive struggling school pass classes semester im going kicked college parents financial support end kicked ill give car back since technically letting use im school money help ill taken insurance see anymore general even act grandparents baby theyll dissappointed failing school think might pass classes best everyone burden bf much better anyways baby hurt financially know hell cry first hell get used it remember gets older cant feed anymore use i bf space back feel like worry anymore health issues expensive one deal anymore tell anyone failed classes parents help support bf son something like sudden death happened know grades know failed bf know failed classes mother hurts part want to part wants watch baby grow up want marry bf want happy long though im antidepressants helping anything im comfortable seeing therapist im trying pass classes finals week im studying ass much take care son iust think keep living fail another huge thing life would better financially mentally better everyone here,1 +friendsi tried really hard school year dont understand get involved hang people get want hang me friends realized tonight one friend stopped inviting things feel mad jealously ability friends people realize theyre going go farther life ever will,1 +reach climax jerk it cant cum ok im yo guy want know,0 +empty ready end allheres one thing saved lifemany us there made feeling unique story today time start yours mine life m ive depressed unhappy felt alone even presence wife family friends live pretty normal life outside inside im appear be dont know feel like this but two years police officer pushed edge wanted way felt stuck wanted end wanted pain stop hopeless couldnt family never would hurt like that able find one thing give hopea purpose life nature todays society people focused working able live takes away life really about forget world around us stressed whatever experienced experiencing life time amazing beautiful world full tremendous places landscapes animals goes on take solace beauty nature comes it clear mind pain worries take walk trail go overnight camping trip take day photograph somewhere never been pick trash think things nature assure focus right then pain go away even moment thought nature thing gave hope could find better place may may help you urge try even cry alone woods could one thing saves life always anyone ever wants needs talk one another,1 +girl asked marry said later day real deleted pictures social media shortly afterim completely done looking help point,1 +put opinion comments reply agree disagree opinions arguing dunno gonna go oh well,0 +lets say hypothetically you liked me crush me words although flattering woman specifically lets say waifu,0 +gamers needed serious inquires only hello friend desperate need help were trying build minecraft house theres much girl gay do were looking nontoxic players help us cannot offer much companionship lots love singular crossbow share friend willing gamer gf depending pretty house is non toxic are please help sever cold were minecraft homless keep getting killed m f,0 +change mind hottest thing someone chow theyre attracted,0 +idk im attrached guys whith curly dark hair r mentally ill mentally ill want guy curly dark hair gender asf like girl wanna hot id like born man idk idk idk,0 +bermuda triangle irresponsible smh head constantly losing things bet mom would take away money grandma gave would lose ampxb bad untrustworthy piece shit triangle gt,0 +spam every dms have ,0 +ok basically trolling friend irl fake snitching teacher thing going ask time got tackled ground started choking death something sus got face accident im going detail deleting minutes,0 +guys talk life good bad even extremes want know youre okay feel loved,0 +itim using throwaway account way im going get straight point basically everything stressful feel empty anyways im going kill myself no im going call stupid hotline im attention im way stop feeling like this ive already decided im going it reason worried be nothing anywhere else put this already wrote note everything last things wanted things make happy thank listening to,1 +im bored lets basics age gender height weight zodiac sign first name birthday favorite things favorite color favorite food favorite music genre favorite song favorite movie favorite tv show favorite animal favorite thing lifeexperience hobbies sports future job ambitions drank smoked done drugs pets best memory embarrasing moment dream vacation looks hair style hair color eye color body type build ethnicity current outfit favorite outfit type underwear wear relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush ever cheated someone ideal girlfriend boyfriend idea perfect date asked anyone sex sexuality virgin anyone seen naked tattoos piercings sex experience ever sent nude ever sexted ever kissed anyone attractive sexual nsfw bra dick size pubic hairnatural trimmed shaved none body hair guys only circumsiced often masturbate last time masturbate ever watched porn ideal sexual physical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turns turns misc send dm chat message ask whatever like cant say no ask one,0 +story dirty fat filthlike middleage woman lives society knowing filthiest woman ever lived someone take crown one couple nice film people like ordinary pieces comedies mind disturbing sense humori surprised seeing scenes love pungent kindbr br ,0 +r nails pink theyre pink af always makes look like like painted something idk like painted certain pink would probably look,0 +girlfriend toes me wearing skirt too do please help im afraid,0 +pursue help want nothing foreveri care family cares me mother father assholes bringing here owe shit fuck them deserve seeing dead body care cry like idiots may pay funeral want want waste money like waste fine tired getting school care senior high school fuck humanity fuck school pure indoctrination fuck college demanding wasteful money teaching wasteful shit free exist truly free born fuck everyone equally think govment allowed die euthanasia legalized gone slavery oppression true free will ye,1 +game freak lazy dont care games sell pokemon franchise doesnt even competition,0 +im set plan one thingso im set plan im going it im scared im actually looking forward it months ago car accident totaled car got extremely bad concussion moved back home mom little sister im since longer car ive working mom take care property spend lot time barn around horses problem im allergic horses get excruciating migraine everyday im around barn which almost everyday top insanely bad insomnia nothing psychiatrists tried worked ive every antidepressant antipsychotic hypnotic think of nothing worked cant sleep cant eat thing ever helped marijuana thats option anymore even little live contemplated ending all ive got plan set issue worried happen cat go hope mom would take care him little sister slightly allergic want miss sad literally cannot go anymore im exhausted wanted alive since ,1 +yeah could go sleep wake up thatd greatposting main account really care point really sure im posting anyway ive exhausted everyone ive talked need kind outlet turmoil head recently th birthday took month really hit me different goals vision want lives be life stagnated shy awkward self consciousness makes difficult make keep friends inevitably bring secretly feel scares people away assume im looking attention many times bother know people notice something wrong say ask anything wish someone could pour heart cup coffee would give friend would actually listen ive tried dating past point almost part time job theres person floats life ive mentioned feel brushes off maybe gotten point ive cried wolf much one cares every single day unremarkable cant make enough money pay bills debt keeps accumulating cant breathe ive given hope ill ever travel healthy relationship kids happy life whatsoever,1 +basically discussion repeatedly insulted people disagreed get angry insulted people back banned sub suspended old account feels really shitty essentially ganged kicked community nothing polite whole discussion transgendered actually grammatically correct say guess mods like said technically insult banned one fending insults makes feel alone think nobody wants anywhere nobody wants all think taking meds every pill find house once feel suicidal internet bullying like child,1 +expressing opinion house allowed adult thats cant opinion not live china anything problem already set friends dont want make new ones friends good studies whenever ask random classmate send notes respond sees friends good person thinks im good too mom told make new friends ur friends good studies one talks u said dont want new friends thats opinion mom said mocking way wow ur starting opinion ur parents thats disrespectful what means opinion house disrespectful adult one one means im disrespecting parents family way is also lgbtq community also meat eaters forcing opinion said everyone opinion opinions available u adult why,0 +everything gets taken away mei rose high loved hard dared much tried grasp star overreached fell,1 +returned viewing academy awardnominated doc thoroughly touched interested exploring works fellow id never heard before course im someone whos captivated beautiful architecture realize others carebr br we imagine couple visionaries philadelphia back late s kahns plans possibility wonderful city center would be wonder whether see bangladesh building beginning movie patient provide climax film end br br his sons personal discoveries process making film quite interesting sometimes touching even funny times one comical antivisionary rants ever captured camerabr br rounding good points doc touching musical score excellent expressive string music expressiveness major point found kahns architecture points made architects spiritual nature matter kahns buildings brought tie together overall experience movie,0 +want kill self feel like deserve live sufferi want death easy hurt someone love much cant cope fact did manipulative emotionally abusive need punished it im much pain want die idea help hope die go hell,1 +im tiredim tired life last years used time happy time distant memory suffer anxiety ocd god damn every day battle brings past year actually getting better started making friends started working out even fell love tore apart life hit much past period am rock bottom again cant anymore im tired,1 +big dealim considering redflag absolute failure life failed academically failed socially failed everything theres nothing life worth salvaging think family lot would put through blocks it committing it harm really depressed little get it mother one im worried most weak mentally able get it time religion think thatd give strength hope least ive considered writing redflag note asked forgiveness im do im religious person asking forgiveness helps mother deal it id definitely it brother sister would depressed little see getting it strong dad would angry rightfully so think hed hard time getting it ive thought lot losing happy experiences that way see it better someone happy fulfilled life gets experience things instead know people experiencing things bad someone gets it me noose made place want go it think long enough im afraid ill botch it theres also shotgun house use itll really hard get access it since dad hidden key ever since first attempt im terrified family blame everything anything end getting frustrated angry whole thing entirely fault im entirely blame want blame hate me guess thats do,1 +tums u much acid gut something many ad vibes brain mean theres drugs alcohol that sadly im clean boi music gonna best ,0 +telling crush like tomorrow ahh nervous one friends ive liked weeks advice would appreciated,0 +know doi wheelchair rare condition nobody knows is feel like big waste time want quit university feel cannot it got motivation concentration anything trust anyone family lie suicidal thoughts every day week seen therapist seem work told mother care less constantly rude horrible me nice brother sister talk family even though still live them need help know what,1 +whats highest amount vtes ever gotten like k,0 +im devoting life hedonismim sick waking crying think day turn im gonna go canada fucking drive mexico drink smoke fuck get killed dont like alive dont things make feel physically good eventually ill dead,1 +got ad therapy oof sub,0 +dumped boyfriend generally neglecting hang boys play video games ive asking call past week couldnt even fuckinf serious me best friend made mistake cant even speak without getting angry im sad angry feeling dumb time,0 +made diss track towards donald trump like trump begin with made diss track towards amp lauren witzke hope enjoy tbh trump terrible person beep boop video linkhttpsyoutubengwpczhxfm,0 +need help butim afraid tell therapist whats wrong me need tell driving redflag able bring tell problems mixture things real things imagined things im sure real thoughts torment daily lies guilty lied one person ever taken seriously helped want end life feel part problem munchausen syndrome sorry cant spell also real mental problems too cant admit therapist making guilty plan kill want confess therapist feel therapist hurt angry even though thoughts plan kill act them im afraid therapist believe true things told find out tearing apart feel guilty everyday im nearly constant mental torment hate myself know deserve help need it need guilt killing me,1 +in world oldschool kung fu movies revenge pictures came dime dozen took lot film stand even make fan favorite years arguably chang chehs finest movie continues hold influence hong kong movie industry themes loyalty brotherhood revenge explored john woo who got start hk movie industry working chang heyday heroic bloodshed late s modern movies like man called hero sports character costume inspired film influence also carried areas well music wutang clan tv commercials sprite video games mortal kombat makes movie special plot surface pretty simple deals members rogue group known poison clan searching treasure hidden sifu members clan extraordinary kung fu abilities denoted animal styles venoms the lizard climb walls scorpion deadly strike etc twist since clan always wears masks known others are thus simple plot becomes almost suspense thriller were talking usual suspects here far many kung fu movies time supposedly golden harvest happy changs script like movies felt dark violent actually wanted add broad comic relief it thankfully chang stuck guns stayed original script since become revered one best films time ever completing almost perfect dramatic arc providing perfect backbone extraordinary action sequencesbr br but really solidifies movie venoms themselves chang cheh hit upon magical formula cast gain talented martial artists whose moves competed without aid wires special effects put modern martial artists shame great actors well formula proved popular chang usually one venoms later movies getting back matters hand oldschool movies actors seem playing cardboard cutouts actors actually create characters seems everyone favorite venom mine philip kwok best known many mad dog hardboiled lizard personal connection characters five deadly venoms generates makes true classic genre even normally fan oldschool movies need check five deadly venoms out nothing else see modern movies got inspiration from,0 +omg theres year old white girl youtube making animated videos white people use n word names ashleyxd entire channel racist videos like im dead,0 +thinking giving im really uselesstbh dont saddest story makes feel even worse im actually really blessed im hopeless useless same so story is parents especially mother really abusive me mom would constantly tell ugly fat developed anorexia shed manipulate thinking garbage daughter loving enough that dad kinda absent worked lot dont resent much dont feel close either parents really hard deal with didnt suck purpose flawed left place go college living w pretty manageable deal functional depression since left parents place ok kind relationship however gave degree personal reasons since extremely disappointed parents always sort habit lie hide stuff manipulate wanted sabotaging wanted didnt quit college didnt tell them lost job september last year ask financial support im full control again let stay place beginning year hoping id get back feet didnt ill moving back weeks sinked deep depression since losing job sleep day tired time drink smoke never leave house thats basic routine thing makes keep living neglect world pets two lovely angels form beautiful tiny cats darling baby dog saved times count clean house give dignified space live werent here id living filth let sun exclusively know like sunbathing get bed feed play walk them werent wouldnt leave bed all anyways straight reason im alive functioning pets feeling like garbage lot since losing job contemplated redflag greatly decided love pets life worth living around me recently tho something really great happened me university europe got contact study there wanted go bad itd dream come true parents wont help unless give pets wont help financially take me wont take go cant this cant get rid beings literal reason im living now things love life decided cant go know matter time depression hits im alone finally kill myself cant stand idea getting parents hopes finally failure waste money die abroad also would never give pets circumstance see way move back parents take pets house killing myself cant stand perspective disappointing parents refusing amazing education opportunity refusing im sentencing burden entire life im already jobless know dont future id never able get myself plan make parents already adopt pets leave note asking get rid angels im dead give instead dealing continuous disappointment failure idk else could,1 +thursday im skipping school im really happy this hate school,0 +fault really deserve punishmentsooo never thought sucide deep shit went cant un donefucking hell cant even type right without feeling guiltyi think ill resort sucide really seems like way shit hole im insooin house people including memy fathermotherolder brother meim one therei fit wellthe person talk mom works much cant talk private muchi feel like one understands even one today went like it fault believe hermy dad wants everything wayi try says end failingif sees playing video games something computer productive commands get fuck offmy brother older brother somehow right hit hes olderthats thing familygood thing dad hit mom yet hes olderid rip guys head offim weaki get physical fights brother scare dad wanna get hit got little fightsmy mom told bite tounge bullshit call turn cheek get fights theyre olderthe way always starts disagreement little things dick brother ego problem hes always right arguetalk shit get hitand acceptable dadspeaking dadhe comes family siblings brothers sistershe never got along reallyi say stuff like you could done better know hes gone would commit sucideor something close thatthis family broken mei said earlier brother ego problem believe say ego problemi gotta always throw cents inor whatever say im east asian family moving option make family proud right even give shit themonly one care mom one would actually support send money get jobjesus christwhat fuck writingmust cringe worthyok background family get happended todaywe got chromecast tvi phone hand watch whatever fuck want tvphone connected charger near corner couchmy brother asks give phone times kicks mehe laying imagine would look like respondi zone secondsso since respond saying name asking remote first timei fault according familyeven mom admit wrong therei ignored saying name times responded didntwe go inside roomsdont talkdad comes homeeverythings peacefuluntil calls brother room comehe come hes pissed incidence faultmy dad fucking starts yelling tells talk talk mebecause according works solves fightsi argue preserve integrity says i fucking want younot directly english thats translation said i wanna get rid youi told million times work hit real hardi feeling quit think ever go awaynor talking honestthere side wants exclude start fights houseand side cares mom would think looking dead corpsemy dad told talk lefti still talked im really scared hes gone said loves willing leave anydayof course split divorce way telling much loves mesummaryi live family hitting someone younger allowed makes older person angrywhich possible since elders say crazystupid shitmy mom one love familyim odd one outi start shiti really belong themwhat logical thing do dad say i want tried everything you like really deserve that said im weak earlier really ami cant even think wanna quit somehowjust anyway,1 +actually plan wanna today im gonna make jewellery someone ordered something im gonna play video games maybe draw time lets hope fall asleep since like hours sleep,0 +billed story steve biko played excellently denzel washington expect actually story donald woods played kevin klinebr br this undoubtedly making kline serious actor surprisingly good rolebr br attenborough gave sort direction expect often spectacular scenes masses sort get acrossbr br the remainder cast competent enough good job ends ultimately sad tale south africa still nowhere near distant past,0 +dont want kill want someone love meim lost please help,1 +gonna make offer cannot refuse ampxb httpspreviewredditmdhklakyrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsddbeefccdfffcfabfb,0 +someone send travis scott burger receipt think would funny hang wall anyone send me filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 + daysthis summer i yo uni student came conclusion want end life also set date myself new years eve last new years eve whole thing fleshed kinda rushed it year want to im coming terms dying takes couple moments brave one last time least time life get things done right mess up im trouble kinda scares me sadly share anyone life except great friends made internet family strong distaste me friends quite alone considering think internet friends substitute friends actually hang with one might wondering posting this valid question last days surreal amazon packets ingredients demise arrived today made feel strange deep down like punch guts opened box im debating really want this promised new years eve nothing changed fact things got considerably worse even always told miracle happens life makes total wont it nothing sort happened family cut contacts former friends ill alone christmas birthday th im welcomed home anymore im stuck apartment town know nobody h away home hate rest life cant new years eve,1 +hey um im new im yr old bi boi people,0 +take pinch goodfellas mix godfather add roman mythology plenty lowbrow comedy sopranos mob clan operating northern new jersey almost entertaining pro wrestling biggest fan show admire james gandolfinis complicated tony soprano psychopath occasional glimmer conscience also come admire te contributions folks like gravelvoiced dom chianese bewildered murderous uncle junior silverhaired tony sirico perpetually perplexed paulie beautiful edie falco duplicitous toughasnails carmela soprano violence sudden graphic body count steadily climbs season often small moments matter here watch paulie tonys nephew christopher michael imperioli late law order get lost pine barrens sit bitter cold night abandoned trruck convinced theyve it,0 +desperately need talk someoneim just fucking done every means self harming either front me downstairs really couldnt care less anymore dont care anyone wants bother idk dont know anymore,1 +feel anything anymorei make connections people anymore im quick temper sometimes otherwise solemn never feel happy sometimes laugh things emotions anymore feel nothing ive like literally years now thought would change back point used outgoing person unlimited energy wide social circle loved spending time people nothing care anything hedonism distraction feel stuff anymore either,1 +beat it cant end minemy husband committed redflag two years ago hell since years married tried save finally succeeded hell marriage honestly cheated constantly emotionally abusive severe ptsd mental rapidly decline point would talk fbi getting him two children gave trying save save kids mental health process madness forgot own im widowed single mother ptsd severe depression want myself ive tried keep going going back school new job place feel like never let process it im exhausted think unfair got go first think different ways could it everyday cant love kids much put again also feel like arent getting best part meits gone love me tell im greatest mom ever dont know okay coolbut damnwhen suffering end mei feel like prisoner mind,1 +someone message im im bored please message me thank reading,0 +since followers rteenagers pls feel free give awards post good day,0 +talk someone suicidal thoughtsi would really appreciate advice feeling looming ruining everything try accomplish so think redflag everyday know need help however ive read stories people opening suicidal thoughts therapist locked facility somewhere pretend theyre better get out really happen im wondering whats point talking specialist theyre going send away anyway therapist too expensive thinking telling family doctor i do say want know im suicidal much anxiety this really need help,1 +knowi know note cry help ive stuck downward spiral since teenager keep thinking well time ive hit rock bottom floor crumbles continue years ive struggled alone reasons want get family upbringing sad story heard thousand times cant seem connect anyone enter girlfriend lets call lala absolute angel whatever reason seems love me love too may reason ive systematically onesidedly everything destroy relationship ive cheated times count told heartbroken forgave begged never again look face broke heart stop me longer heart tell her know it even want it far knows were happy couple im dying inside keep telling shell leave eventually itll get forgive second time says shell forgive many times takes thats bullshit everyone limit im coward disgust myself deserve her deserve anything even death deserve sit hell ive created even shred identity left deserve stay alive suffer gotten whatever justice needs whatever justice deserves wont though im working nerve quit job easy part enjoys purpose even slinging food whatever fat load wobbles door cant make decisions ive heard everyone least one positive thing them im probably exception rule im worst person ive ever met,1 +please help mei motivation keep going want sleep time dreams better real life time really feel happy im smoking green temporary escape boyfriend understand im feeling always asks im pouting tells get bed ill feel better feel alone scared right now already failed attempt many years ago feel like im place now really want help friend right get night im scared,1 +dad girlfriend think stupid trying transfer colleges think bad idea think handle reason think want go school anymore worked hard past year get deep depression years sudden back it cannot drop everything go hospital manager work place love still enough money move yet another like three years really sucks want give bad clean since january trying day,1 +whyim sure describe it ive recently feeling like nothing im sad anything dread future im mostly state dissociation as always im treading along narrow bridge anything could push over ive accepted redflag think could day feel scared before option become serene place mind potential solution problems experience think strange although difficult get bed due fear worry day experience im still organizing studying planning future yet time im sending people thanks goodbye good luck emails writing motivations death searching painless methods no good options yet peace good thing id consider state constant dissociation confusion better chronic torment,1 +goodbye know made posts thank everyone ive known thank youim horrible person ive hurt people far beyond comprehension im sorry piece shit life im sorry everyone thank community everyone here cant helped,1 +advicei want end life going downhill,1 +guys sad day cat longer me part whole life miss forever may see among stars,0 +guysjust pretend get along friends idk thatthey talk things cant relate dk like smile throughout whole conversation lookwherethe groundtheir faces find staring little way intense kinda get freaked little stop itwhen laughi force laughi also cant seem talk certain topics want talk like really feelto bcs relationship carefree joking aroundso cant talk serious things themour senses humour dont match kinda miss old friends cuz got along way better current friends maybe im tiredthey arent bad people sometimes feel like theyre really real friends,0 +posted social media going redflagnobody cares single person people even liked status messages regret see news tomorrow still living nobody miss me family abusive friends im failure life unemployed college dropout unwanted all maybe could survive good job nothing place world done,1 +anything worth want waste entire lifehelp care something,1 +someone knock insomnia moment really serious need punch head maybe caffeine addiction doesnt help cant even think im fucking tired help,0 +despite negative criticism really enjoyed movie saying lightly love movies fairly picky my home dvd collection movies great others ok like all and criticisms comedy simply love movie light funny restful aware or most deficiencies love it comedic talents eddie murphy robert deniro tapped fully type movie compare movies star actors simply enjoy it cast great and believe purpose movie fully accomplished want really easygoing restful night watch movie deniro murphy simply fun making movie watching it and please negative expect godfather performance meet parents deniro expect comedy blockbusters performance murphy completely different genre made relax hard day work sides may split laughter still funny,0 +summer started new job bartender met girl equally odd lot similar interests looking thing was quickly became enamored other take long us move together started finding projects around house fix up would surprise home cooked meals note gushing relationship,1 +shelli feel empty ive struggled suicidal depression yearssometimes easier get im sinking really deep time scary want throw front every car see launch apartment balcony head first onto concrete feel guilty makes worsebecause beautiful son world try tell husband itll topic conversation minutes moves talks something like really bad im making be feel like theres hole chestand caves emptier am money try get help im sinking hard breathe,1 +ask random shit also prefer mnms skittles know someone ask,0 +oh shit new demon slayer movie coming im fucking excited see man akaza come thru fuck shit,0 +neglecting talk family despite living themmy selfconfidence clobbered far ground cant much serviceable conversation family afraid driven reputation ground stigma le epic edgy character going linger eons doubt anyone see need take lead jacket,1 +d printing ideas d printer well year im starting run ideas send ideas comments whatever comment gets likes print post here,0 +iam want diealready age thought redflag i dont know why life started fall apart parents strict me sister still annoys me im depressed almost every night lot bad grades school everyone laughing really know life pls help,1 +need love clap thicc cheeks butnever mind,0 +judgemental friendsi met tom high school part good friend group partied lot senior year graduated moved across country school went military six years senior year finally decided go home tom home summer serving five years military discharged along girlfriend moved together go college summer taking working staying toms parents rentfree usually go drinking couple nights week always like get blackout drunk loud toms girlfriend usually puts glasses bar thinks cool purse tom thinks funny encourages say bars get glasses free matter were liberal state im lgbt girlfriend pride month tweeted care youre gay straight plenty friends both pls stop forcing us wanna left it find hurtful tweet stuff girlfriend also tweet slutshaming things like women theyve slept everyone still find love post men aint shit think funny like stuff tom single hell sleep anything walks hes known dog past hes talked hed slept lot women shout women selfrespect hes also caught sexting girls hes relationship understand puts promiscuous woman post social media always trying look like perfect couple want distance him tom longtime friend feel like asshole judging much asshole wanting ghost people feel emotionally drained stop friendship would make asshole,1 +gf ruins lifeits long distance relationship toxic always sending nudes others agologyzing days starts again fear future fear ruins future life adult want jump window end suffering cant bear want leave love much despite bullshit know well im sre need help please im crying im ,1 +asked crush sike crush fucking adulterers,0 +covid worst nightmare since covid february covid spread like wildfire we locked and masked part covid spreads water particles getting body talking eating breathing kissing etc etc etc im yo time first lockdown prime right im sure relate lot teens say year supposed year enjoy reality much whats got worst planned serious relationship maybe even sx year worked hard year could slack year thats countrys school works made super depressed caused self harm hope could good next year havent kissed someone nearly year havent met friends months havent wanted fun ever get better still fun teenage years think safe meet friends girls despite covid ,0 +stop telling gets betterive tried hard believe going ups downs reality life consistently getting worse like past years doesnt matter im young im turn im going kid responsibilities im still going treated like kid age teen it know people want life be want go college get degree get job next years im old meaningless marriage bringing kids world live meaningless life im abandoned nursing home im dead isnt life want live know hardy har har im kid dont know real problems,1 +returning christmas eve shopping trip abused suburban housewife basinger finds fight survival disagreement group delinquent youths takes violent turnbr br suffering indignity straight dvd release uk susan montfords directorial debut perhaps given recognition deserves shame standard writing directing acting good indeed certainly surpasses quality average straight dvd flickbr br kim basinger gives best performance time downtrodden wife abusive husband craig sheffer sheffer really given anything threatening presence brief scenes together basinger connects showing painful vulnerability yet hinting rage eventually boil confrontations youths truly great understated performance transformation victim aggressor seamlessly playedbr br lukas haas initially thought miscast along three youths seem much threat however four youths physically imposing later scenes basinger turns tables would worked all fact four average men albeit slightly unhinged key film works well doesbr br apart pacing issues latter half movie couple cheesy lines there great thriller actually leaves viewer something think film over may put slow burn nature opening scenes abrupt ending others times brutal violence say give chance certainly deserving time saw v,0 +so completely love movie gaga it even plot twistsbut one thing found really disturbing connection two best friends tim kyle writer film gave us poignant moment two sexual experimentationconfusion gives us plot twist makes half brothers although subject brought filmand left unexplained unaccounted for thought bad taste fact even discussed even worse oops weve created taboonow lets address situation really pc otherwise spectacular film,0 +im sure anymorei apologize mistakes im mobile im thought id either outgrow least able handle everything better everythjng gotten worse overwhelming im really tred want feel like taking space anymore stopped drinking trying lexapro xanax ativan want feel anything even almost every emotion agonizing cant shut down top im atmosphere cant quite escape yet volatile every waking moment edge panic attack know do really dont want end everything tonight things get better know done past think worth anymore,1 +therapy treatment selfharm depression violent tendencies suicidal urges tried affirmations new routines pursuit interests making friendstherapy put debt years longer attended months positive affirmation practice made hate positive phrases platitudes perceived difference various routines still live every day either verge panic attack drowning distractions like movies books spent twelve years pursuing various interests revealed much fucking talentless idiot am friends good people invite events treat like one them interacting feels like waste time every time think realize much asshole really ami used love job prided work ethic else really loved jocko willink line navy seals cleaning toilets years greeted coworkers smile compliment worked longer hours anyone else high speed high redflag environment dealt toxic people sunshine rainbows free time would write everything pursued writing brought meaningi tired cannot remember cared much before thought would already darkest time life gotten away petty family panic attacks stop cannot sleep unless stay active point total exhaustion spend minute eyes closed see every way failed everything do ruined every relationship ever had everything ever gone wrong life clearly obviously faulti see way gets better here old someone take pity on gotten even far life attractive intelligent wealthy even financially stable writing one practice delayed committing suicide years ago often leaves feeling worse ever desperately seek state flow freeze start chewing fingersi amused feel state flow writing this sifting memories time would leave cringing nervous wreck months since last felt it cannot wait long againi cannot let anyone again wish someone would angry screwing up would fucking matter anyway mature enough accept criticismi want put bullshit anymore want stop,1 +im losthello name adam ive struggling years im afraid past years thoughts redflag fear anxiety im close limit ive quiet long im scared come family feelings years ago losing aunt triggered all everyday feeling hopeless lost guilty remorseful things ive done lifebut thoughts like little ive experienced life time ive revealed feelings family broke saw cuts watching get worried something portrayed average day made feel absolutely dreadful later found attempt survivor attempt odoverdose pills attempt hanging happened blackout pills never went noose im still afraid first therapy diagnosed severe depression social anxiety eating disorder later transferred fucken group therapy reason made feel anxious eventually last session therapy showed results daily check feelingswhich step survey momdad come find ive putting feeling horrible afraidanxious everyday mom ive absolutely amazing described happiest shes ever seen me therapy helped eventually put sertaline anti anxiety anti depression im sorry forgot never finished first prescription ever found right type anti depressant mom thought wanted drugs took recommended pill schedule week stopped taking them time ive feeling worse afraid damage worry ive caused even more everything going on im afraid ive ever ive relapsed cutting developed severe insomnia day day feeling hopeless worthless questioning still here whats motivation move bed keep going ask nearly every night almost break everytime please please please someone anyone help me im scared might something drastic ive shaped fear anxiety idk anymore,1 +th birthday tommorow honor serving boys and girls thank you,0 +lessened blow yougames over everyone time one thing ask lost loved one helpful thing aftermaththat person died did going happen matter want make least bad situation left behind note better note content helpfulunhelpful comforting meaningful gestures im argue living dying ill ignore posts trying talk whatever genuinely want know best things make trauma perhaps little less so,1 +doomer girl waifu love doomer giro much shes cute,0 +please readas obvious sub full people sorts debating redflag looking somebody relate to id like say open anyone wanting talk shy admit anything fit judge either way consider chatting reddit take different social media app love,1 +m dont know improve ive already done ugly date frustrating demoralizing experience ive done everything power fix it ive lost pounds bought new clothes bought car ive held job year go college none even matters im still ugly doesnt make sense woman settle find anyone traits arent repulsive ive tinder paying gold since march bumble okcupid hinge since october apps around matches combined dates ive friends take pictures me help write bio friends girls pretty experienced dating apps look profiles none matters youre ugly me ive asked girls person well last three people would consider good friends mine three said yes single one showed single one told beforehand werent coming im worth effort guess im good people two different friend groups invite funny guy lots girls great friends ask want nothing me example ive asked three girls good friends last months theyve said yes time theyve seemed excited go times none even told werent coming im even worth knowing dont want see me im worthless dont even anyone turn to even mom sister told despite losing pounds im still else supposed point id get plastic surgery ill never able afford it feel like purpose inconvenience women looking men arent subhuman vermin dont even career look forward decided would good idea take lifelong debt fucking history degree feels like nothing look forward to poverty alone forever do ive therapy since march,1 +miss friend much miss best friend much nice to always made happy rarely see middle school makes happy know cant even happen remote learning wish could contact her miss lot like friend really want tell that fine virus though seen since shut everything down,0 +favorite horror film close nd poltergeist saw one dark night first came theaters theater workedbr br i born certain love s horror films despite little dated dialog well written thought original phenomenon psychic vampirism addressed at least knowledge time real phenomenonbr br i care adam west nothing him supporting role memorable thought meg tilly good casting littleknown donald hutton from brainstorm invaders mars ambiguous scientist oversaw studies ramars abilities sadly overlooked gay guy paying attention david mason daniels meg tillys unfortunate gorgeous boyfriend hes selling real estate texas now br br i felt film realistic two ways raymar discovered murdered girls surreal apartment funeral sparse attendance reflecting fact mysterious hermit killer know types buried without fanfare second corpses going telekinetically mobile would hover dragging feet filmmakers could gone schlock walking groaning arms outstretched zombies opted would believable kudos buzzing electrical discharge ramars eyes throne coffin like hes overseeing kingdom dead cast eerie magenta light mausoleum stay years ever gone mausoleum even sunny day notice rosetta lighting caused stained glass windows get started cavernous silence even ramar looked like someone could pass eccentric perverted old man score oneofakind memorable keep kicking getting cassette first came out track shooting done supposed be especially liked carefullyplanned characteristics corpse bride badly decomposed child still holding teddy bear grandmother tall thin black guy halffaced world war ii vet greenslimed eyed elderly gent first greet sisters clique initiators even corpses good actors suppose thing groan arm came one vaults choke julies boyfriend possibly done unless corpse put laying stomach feet first why looked little fresh toobr br the film begins eerie us never seeing ramars face until last quarter film like unwrapping birthday present picking teen girl runaways daughters psychic flash see coroners hauling body away one bedroom apartment see hes experimented telekinetic craft phasing dishes wall rest drag heatherslike sisters group baits julie final initiation spending night inside mausoleum wellplaced build unleashing horror later movie bloody sense word goriest part ramars daughter uses compact mirror feed power back him bubbles melts ive always felt power like ramars could never die sequel could worth looking into see now one dark night ii turning grave lets face itthe film stands alone heard film titles original fitsbr br a remake would pointless one would write better dialog lengthen scenes show studies ramars abilities done lab instead hearing tape recorder information age something like would well documented dvd corpses raise ones mausoleum ramars power could spread graveyard too lets say id hate one persons clean mess end climax something shown think one initiating sisters recognize one corpses relative would added good disturbing character cg effects awesome scenes ramar animating cremated remains would wall br br say aboutone dark night all see least lifeor death,0 +hi folksbeen going stuff recently safe place mentally leave home often loner girlfriend quit would consider great job living savings telling going leave making miserable figure would make happy feel like wastedit months almost kind hanging putting shit off realise fortunate position able truly brought nothing laziness point starting regret itin past asked things like favorite insert food color etc here honest never answers like never developed inward personality kind feeling bland know makes happyi could write book shit makes sad though kind asking hell life talk whatever guess here tired quiet really everyone feels,1 +want disappeari know say appart fact wanna anymore wanna die feel like able kill myself im afraid whats gonna happen im honest im know thats miserable know entire life front me but great continues livinghell girlfriend bestfriend back days said loved me infortunatly say backmore recently asked wanted girlfriend again happy feelings same thought now anymore time goes realise love way love me thats awful feel horrible wanna hurt like first time would never want hurt care much feel guilty theres reasons explained suicidal thoughts appear on months since restarted cutting myself cuts arms inner tights thought stop but it think ill never really stop know help thoughts wanna disappear know im afraid dying put end life,1 +redflag letter would sound something like thisplease take moment understand depression real isnt saying want kill rather something pushed move really accepting time really didnt want live people anymore sometimes dark time gets dark redflag may feel like thing person get hurt constantly battle selfhate low self esteem following reasons dear people world first thing would say become good person stop assuming people going understand you even tell do means parents family friends heres say used live life lot pain carry onto now past wanted live one else live everyone else rather myself causes good amount hurt carry along hurt thoughts well suffering causing person feels like one understands everyone sick hearing shit hard understand lot people assume able certain things age mom came today told handle pain young dad cant old excuse mom cant handle pain body went throught chemo reformed this time ill let pass mom really love love try get scared whats come see life robbed you young age taken away country told marry guy did much it that exploded cried broke got lost remember telling stories end day forgot rest started see good ugliness remember one time mom saved life right watched mrs doubtfire learned heimlech maneuver scene movie remember day vividly fainted right mint ball flew out white red stripes already wore off today told forget give person couldnt handle stress fucking tired hearing shit beat cancer carrying around pain long finally starting see straight people always assume im problem okay thats fair say im fucking problem doing need figure way isolate peoples worries pain makes sense need always involved hurt came accept became crazy yo kid sense purpose father er failed choose accept one another supposed give cant handle stress day knife slit wrist first time see thats problem society people tend assume dont know someone elses pain brings carries fact do feel way us act stronger others would redflag letter would isnt giving up caring anymore living world people dont seem understand failing understand itthem feel like prison thoughts really understanding life taught stop always giving kinda sad im writng complete opposite redflag letter now given everything life want die makes sense yo im given anything explode try figure shit tend always failure people even tell someone please hurts ask it do start see inner good order get shit hole youre in people remain humble safe place times god forgotten people suffering add pain world bleeding everyones sorrow born alone die alone world comes existence soon never exist one day live anything love,1 +unworthy lifethis isnt first time ive posted here think im far fucked go on dont think go much longer fighting never good attribute mine always passive loving person fear conflict kind whether another person feel weak person dealt depression many times ive never wanted give like before got hospital weeks back made friends tried get help really wanted get help tried hardest discharged day early days didnt feel different going mental health unit week later another downward spiral havent even gone back work yet dont even think go back work anxiety depression way is im sure causing this life bad family loves dearly supportive great friends always me many things good life idea happy often wonder ungrateful dont know next turn take me life go feel im losing hope im afraid tell many people ive feeling someone told me ever talk about one friend listen everything say clueless am feel bad im everyone dont know else besides give up dont want hurt mom feel choice cant cope anymore ive tried distracting myself medication therapy talking friends socialiable nothing helped dont know anymore hate burden family friends hate person pitied felt sorry for things would easier never born deserve worthy life dont know would this perhaps hanging would good way rope left work could take bunch pills hopefully fear death guilt feel quelled peace void long redflag note write,1 +one outpizzas hut except pizza hut,0 +lookin friends sup im lookin friends rn talkhang with yall dm disclaimer im tryna attract pedos n groomers please hate,0 +want kill work todayi decided last night would it know exactly im going it where when ive casually suicidal week thinking dying feel better actual plan idk part wants everything change kill know nothing change really choice want stop suffering hand could take meds go see doctor want try anymore guess fault idk even point posting maybe want change mind maybe want someone say life turn around even know life turn around thats wishful thinking guess pointless im stupid,1 +hi everyone year old male currently dealing depression majority life dealing ocdredflag mostly focused serious illness constant worrying put think serious deep depression emotion anymore nothing excites feel like existing got engaged months nervous excitement emotion feel like emotion much anymore honestly scares me psychologists cbt never really helpedthinking might need go see psychiatrist feel like drowning cannot get awful feeling start going back work july means hour commute city one way question done help get depression anyone deals health redflag do feel like health redflag put state worried months thinking skin cancer get biopsy mole feel like lump neck worse part one else feels went urgent care doc said nothing there keep making doc appointments thinking miss something trying save wedding spending money docs please help need help idk begin,1 +music everyone listening me hollywood undead day dead,0 +wishing could dieit sounds nice waking early making cup tea sitting write goodbye notes simple sweet let know care give closure clean room spotless wipe windows rearrange books launder sheets remake bed put flowers vase spray perfume leave take bus cliffs whirling winds climb simple wooden fence stand mossy sandstone slabs looking ocean then id jump let body go limp end life hit waves sink im wiped clean world sounds nice,1 +livedi tried earlier today hook using ripped ceiling fell ass ashamed guilty emotionally numb initial crying even next ready accept death im still alive feel lost,1 +really want someone talk mi always anxiety depression recently getting suicidal gf left im honest dontdidnt think anyone doeswill love me dated around year half blue sent text saying over tried talk told gonna end dead asked help shes mad person love much say things said feel crushed looking redflag methods year now always thought comforting could stop pain but think im thinking almost time guess im looking reason get edge im scared death cant stand another day trying trying nothing want problem anymore clear talked mom person imagine caring little told minutes much hate want stop talked getting help forgot it think again draining tell nothing know im another kid maybe going resolve time cannot stress much want way out searching moms gun find night want someone talk much trouble thanks time,1 +took shower walk parents think sex told bring condom brush teeth wouldnt listen told,0 +bed creaks slightest movement cant even jerk,0 +choose redflag death neglect dementiai rapidly deteriorated past year accumulated many serious health issues including polycythemia shortness breath chest pain light headedness fatigue digestive issues complete inability gain weight neurological memory loss years now insomnia months incapable sleeping normal night learning difficulties always smart despite memory loss dementia still college made friends chemistry class apple watch took heart rate said how even alive cant believe heart rate high resting friend talk class every day said handwriting matter long brain still good unusually friendly reminds character gerasim tolstoy novel terminal illness knows sick compels kind me ampxb ampxb anyways family unwilling recognize illness real claim physical pain health conditions mental illness need involuntarily committed mental hospital continue delusion sick call police tell delusional health problems handcuffed put mental health wards physical pain claim delusion,1 +anyone fear death im little scared aftermath unknowing heaven hell get reincarnated spirit continue living earth consciousness float space eternity spirit doesnt even leave body wasnt good enough heaven get tortured eternity also sort exciting know mean im excited die find out maybe dont particularly fear death though almost welcome it time strangely fear absence being friends family ones love suddenly gone universe im scared friends family laughing fun without me sort like fomo put simply im afraid dying im afraid havent lived enough hope die lot people miss me choose way id die probably murdered ghost killer getting netflix documentary maybe crazy freak accident results new law like illegal drive forklifts highway florida one guy stupid died something id want leave sort impact matter small want hear thoughts,0 +national redflag prevention chati trying use chat either offline get sends way back know anything national redflag prevention lifeline chat please tell know,1 +fuck fuck memonths ive tried find real help ive called hotline put hold ive posted asked help response ive tried see reason put pistol temple ive tried tried tried find fucking inch life line there im pos exit clear exit clear,1 +ive honestly got idea anymoreit feels everyone fake feel like im backtalked annoying sometimes like hear brain speaking hey heyy people fake dont talk them far thing helps music thats kinda stopping work really fucking good friends deserve them nobody needs suicidal fucktard cant help you pushes away use anyone barely anything useful life people say what loved ones well ive fucking abused really think makes difference except father whos actually fine family one id feel suffer see point hanging anymore ill never get better dont want feel guilty committing redflag hard get help really see im gonna get this feel like im gonna im even want anyone feel bad me deserve regardless,1 +convince parents let get one half meter carbdoard tube need bonking rod say suspicious want one,0 +get someone friends basically title background someone know friends leave i know sounds like asking friend situation me im town away want help find new group people hang since old friends abandoned insulted,0 +quick question would rather always go bathroom lights off always door open fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +guys im listening community reddit course,0 +everywhere go rejection rejection gay community damn obsessed age like want date even hookup always be x years fuck off number guys tried approach person online turned damn high like honestly think redflag ews ageism legit know much takenot sure going kill myself feel like selfimplode couple unhealthy coping mechanisms close saying fuck all gay hopeless,1 +knew this asks want stop im violently sobbing yes course want stop holds couple minutes starts talking again even though wed broken sexual arrangement months ago,1 +hi all tried posting redflagwatch alt need someone know im here guys pretty active copypasted it trigger warning everything guess want know someone sees me help comfort anything acknowledge exist main account feel like im edge crumbling cliff im going slip soon goes lose childhood never one first place stuff goes much deeper this heres summary background mentally abusive mom small child parents disciplined me stopped around became preteen wanted run away elaborate thoughts murdering family tried kill started self harming anorexia relapsed badly year hundred times ive cried maybe family much worse summary want spend minutes typing pitiful childhood used friends get feeling like much none talked quarantine started real conversation anybody know months thought id fine own was recent events home pushed edge it even anything big something made realize something else hate fucking world hate myself hate people ruined life even more want sister go hell tortured rest eternity want mom see much suffering caused me know actually love me fucked never gotten help multiple mental illnesses has im narcissist perfectionist im self absorbed im selfish im immoral also th percentile school tests ive taken im going freshman taking onlevel senior courses im amazing artist work featured state galleries play instruments im straight student enough tried hard good person guess still standard way would help clean mess someone made pick trash im nice friendly strangers truth theres thing karma bad people get punished heavenly force im long tangent reality reality ill never live normal life normal memories loving family id rather feel nothing im planning overdose soon even want think happen fail thanks world beautiful cruel,0 +guys account years old karma ahhh im close days,0 +friend committed redflagim junior high school exactly week ago friend committed redflag extremely close her saw everyday talked her ive known years used brothers girlfriend last summer want get thoughts dont want talk anyone best friend went house getting alarming message boyfriend ambulance already saw take hospital next day heard coma went go see her seeing broke heart couldnt stop crying held hand im religious prayed miracle happen passed away next day cant sleep want interact anyone friend closer was cant stop thinking her every time close eyes see hospital bedas person whos diagnosed depression suicidal thoughts hurtsme even know felt parents wanted small private funeral today still go school cant pay attention schoolwork anyone give advice moving on least able daily tasks,1 +yall milkshake order tomorrow place got hella flavors cant decide one get flavors narrowed either cherry oreo chocolate blackberry raspberry pumpkin,0 +think im probably going die soon due something anyway hypochondriaforeveralone ready go hell give fuck life anyway ill let know hot hell,1 +unbeing dead alivethis quote edward estlin ee cummings basically idea even youre breathing doesnt mean youre alive simply means unbeing dead fascinating isnt it go life day day surviving best can keeping biological functions intact subconsciously know itll never enough everyones sober reality life dull grey mechanical bullshit believe bigger part population currently alive real reality whove felt magic alive found spaces inbetween places dead people cant seem look do though youre finally free culture counterculture alan watts says meaning life simply to alive could contradicting opinions exist evidently alive harder anything ive known ive dead long time met eliza made consumed others like this living eliza there felt truly alive now unbeing dead again whats point many tell even really alive,1 +relatively young know bad antisemitism brooklyn family originally from movie absolutely horrified me ive seen many movies prejudice racism antisemitism seemed hit harder mostbr br this definitely one best indie films ive ever seeni travel minutes see it well worth it nearly everything movie great sometimes little slow really bother movie atmospheric took place s really look like s acting greatwilliam h macy always wonderful laura dern pleasantly surprised meatloafs performance playing vicious antisemite neighbor br br ,0 +new medsive wellbutrin year well exception slight downswing marchapril put paxil weekend recent anxiety cant stop thinking near redflag attempt years ago going jump bridge even though cant access bridge right im wondering find another im going call doc tomorrow dont want kill right now suggestions meantime im frustrated feel like im never going beat stable find good balance,1 +dear mommy milks good man thank,0 +thank kind strangers internetive made couple throwaway reddit accounts last year change searching help clarity ive trying trying get better place people always nice it though im holding together family member im staying associate christmas death clean everything pack things away easier sort out think ill take road trip listen music run gas longer believe everyone matters many people dying every day nobody cares ive always figured lip service people say make feeling better like getting moral karma point nice leper you matter dont people dont half billion people planet way even us matter especially me wanted want like things wanted life cant deal homeless two months cant recover again want abused shelter anymore thank keeping company many times really mean it theres one else bye bye,1 +choose fighter choose fighter train water boat track,0 +adult life ripped shreds front mei see future me im taking care family since graduated high school chance go college work pay billsall it mother dying father disabled seriously despise him mother going go away leave piece shit take care of think theres future me horrible past look future see situation getting worse feel like ive missed everything life offer im bitter year old man year olds body need advice run away end let someone luckier take space im tired looking others see life ripped shreds right front me,1 +please talk it ive never close itive neared redflag one time life someone called police worst hours hospital life since moment decided ever needed it wouldnt tell anyone jar super strong painkillers take right ill die nearly instantly ive jar waiting closet year so everyone says look good things live for seem happy successful outside i admit reception ivy league college example life horrible fucked stomach flu mom accused lying shes heartless little would cut stuffed animals front force copy bible remaining isolated friends im emotionally scarred fact constantly tries ruin life never proud me hurt many times child wanted love yet called evil even blamed grandmas death me parents throw knives other divorce lengthy pay price boyfriend loved left intimidated me found new one love raped beat many times friends seems vacuous dont want end think im going to im sorry grim somebody please tell something convince,1 +im going tonightcan someone tell many dolipranes kill me dolipranes home,1 +outside skrrt skrrt inside hurt hurt,0 +figure putting guys off advice appreciated tldr first dates last months thought went well beyond well wanted go second date me wrong figure im wrong,0 +life turning thought would sometimes dont see point going oni went decent school expectations life would things turns out took everything get school ever since ive easily tired im cant even keep job feel weak slightest thing id consider smart insightful thought capable changing world turns im weakling cant get keep job,1 +although born year movie came never heard junior year high school saw became totally engrossed laughing crying feeling along characters friends thembr br their hair clothes speech outdated emotions desperation situation familiar remember thinking real wished would make movies like stillbr br in fact saw movie night crazy party not unlike one jays house crashed considered loser derelicts hung fringes crowd world class bser responsible mother figure type identified immediately jeanie i also one car although little bit madges insecurities floating around too best friend deidre good friend childhood anniebr br watching scene jeanie school one boyfriend break telling madge much loved felt like conversations situations personally hadbr br now age recently saw movie felt surge emotions like watching back piece youth though none friends died think must see girls up,0 +im tiredi took handful benadryl hydrocodone im sure much exactly threw little still feel woozy cut arm twice done like years wounds bad cuz hair scissors use need help mentally need outside people talk to life hard ever get easy ive depressed long remember since like least seems always get harder hate everything everyone lately im tired walked everyone emotions controlled people think ill try another attempt tonight im getting cat tomorrow hopefully shell cheer im scared im gonna get back habit cutting every day id rather stop together whether dying getting better,1 +got crushs number two months talking ig finally got number also debating whether take chance person like pussy never know far simple hey get you,0 +teenage boys f currently write novel male maincharacter know rmenwritingwoman exists wanna make mistakes way around so i girl consider writing male character,0 +kid thought poggers racist day kid school claimed poggers racial slur slang slave like kid went out told friends parents etc someone actually say face poggers racist term know got from started saying one day,0 +exceptional film part comedy part drama part suspense dialog exquisite actors actresses famous time good reason probably recognize someone even usually watch older movies also role particularly suits talents br br one correction make another users comment two people one announced die accident maybe unlucky two reflection writer considers important life movie engaging worry happensbr br the story ahead time lose quality older movie time effort spent perfecting cameras view soundtrack something modern movie makers tend forget,0 +existing exhaustinghi there first time post something reddit im neither happy sad feeling im tired hopeless im dealing major depression since im warrior years stuck home several months internet place talk another people friends friends kicked chat groups think im annoying left behind cuz im toxic know always cheerful guy gang when cheerful guy cant laugh anymore becomes useless yeah throw away cuz cant laugh make laugh like before btw play video games im hardcore gamer fighting with depression valuable lesson video games thought me sometimes play game hours done quests unlock achievements feel like thats enough feel like play anymore game high rated metacritic like continue like play another game even game library prefer play know still quests maybe watch best cg ending like continue tired think enough this feel life already battlefield fight depression protect myself government covid family make thing even worse fun perfect good enough problem want play anymore its enough,1 + version dickens classic a christmas carol directed clive donner stars george c scott ebenezer scrooge time around challenge filmmaker take familiar material make seem fresh new again and happily say film donner met challenge surpassed expectations anyone might it tells story precision eye detail extracts performances actors nothing less superlative especially scott one could argue definitive portrayal scrooge one best known characters literary fiction ever created alastair sim film think performance here scott achieved distinction purity honesty scrooge becomes difficult even consider anyone else role seen scott it simply put scrooge tribute gifted actor able take well known figure make uniquely quite miraculous truly joy see actor ply trade well able make character real every word utters finest expression face make ring true study perfectionbr br the members cast splendid well order maintain integrity scotts performance do frank finlay ghost jacob marley notable turn though memorable perhaps one alec guinness as marley film scrooge angela pleasence welcome visage spirit christmas past edward woodward grand boisterous altogether convincing spirit christmas present michael carter grim menacing spirit christmas yet comebr br david warner hits right mark bob cratchit bringing sincerity role measures well standard quality set scotts scrooge susannah york fares well mrs cratchit real gem found here though performance young anthony walters tiny tim heartfelt without ever becoming maudlin simply one best interpretations real ever presented filmbr br the excellent supporting cast includes roger rees fred holywell also narrator film caroline langrishe janet holywell lucy gutteridge belle michael gough mr poole joanne whalley fan flawless presentation version a christmas carol sets standard others must gauged matter many versions may seen watching one like seeing first time ever forever after whenever think scrooge image mind conjure george c scott thoroughly entertaining satisfying experience film demands place annual schedule holiday festivities every home rate one ,0 +going end soonwhats point alive fuck up ive already started selfharming recently tell im spiraling anyone lives near pittsburgh sees redflag next days me,1 +dog went heart failure holiday weekend vet could take her find emergency clinic told dollars fill minutes paperwork dog even seen estimated k possibly save life most likely ending putting anyway congestive heart failure died minutes getting phonecould taken emergency vet night thought cough occasional cough dryness desert thought bad since acting like herself even eating drinking otherwise next morning woke gagging choking clinging life rest endfeel immensely guilty may saved her poor broke cannot even afford get remaining dog another companion dogs size cost two three months rent have cannot get shelter dog due apartments rules pass vet check extensive behavioral opinion vet cannot bring home dog questionable backgroundseparation redflag due strict are review approve everythingmatter fact cannot even get dog breeder complex needs full vet exam follower business day decision allow dog breeders bring puppy litter basic check enough responsible full vet check possessioni feel depressed remaining dog clings leave side leave house minutes sits ball front door returni cannot even get bed pet died broke take emergency vet,1 +im really frustratedi feel like life uphill battle years now back younger brother killed himself ive always anxiety constantly dip depression realization struggling much always bothered me dropped school struggled years manipulative figures life lot bad decisions recently found way go back school ive picking up always feel lonely feel like talk anyone life point none make feel better talking always makes feel pathetic many people life give terrible advice way support makes feel worse despite good intentions month im really behind rent terrified evicted feel like im going ruin anything ive tried build past year know keep holding on family cares guess want hurt them im aware reason really working anymore worse feel less reasons hurt matter constantly think hurting regular basis think things ever line work out,1 +disturbing lack time travellers arriving stop happening suggests never actually invent maybe time trqvel never thing ,0 +hey thing keeping alive possibility study abroadi fucking feel guilty raped fingering count rape saying count rape sitting crying making finish could leave count rape still feel like thats fault fault fault went dorm stayed even though didnt want to thought id help get francisco made everything much worse hate making decision hate saying nothing nothing hate look hate feel hate body soul heart im ugly twisted little thing thats limping around hurt cant get fact theres nobody else blame cant blame him stupid didnt know doing cant blame world fuck world even define that cant blame francisco even wasnt that bad least told truth sometimes terrible gross disgusting rest world im waste space contribute nothing take everything dont give anything return parents barely call mom never say love her ask ask ask dad things never give anything back literally definition excess waste nothing important act like deserve important voice head thats disillusioned positive fuck think is,1 +please help methis stupid know want live years old live family subjected physical violence father im bad want support want tell please leave message,1 +got iti browse subreddit lot im imgur lot ive bought plenty people food able afford themselves give advice people people imgur advice need give myself take it im almost im last semester university dropping bit see point ask here want be dumb redflag looked shameful thing shameful ask created since was option end it im good person generally huge heart want help everyone love everyone do actually try that inside im dying im slowly dying want expedite process,1 +im tonightim already tired nothing makes happy anymore one help me,1 +dont know anymorei feel completely down family going troubles right take me physically abusing mentally abusing me apparently thats abuse scars mentally always get anxiety people get mad annoyed wreck honestly ive gotten point im ready end life never good enough anymore friends hate me im always ignored hate it,1 +cant keep shitposting anymore im literally going shit cant keep shitposting anymore im literally going shit,0 +im curious many lgbtq wondering ratio im bi,0 +one new records im super proud of let know sucks haha httpslinksharingsamsungcloudcomjqsjiejfkn,0 +one favorite songs feeling hopelesshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvecybxiqmhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvecybxiqm,1 + watched educational contenti know posting this watching educational video borderline personality disorder really got me finally name feeling thinking feel think way relief finally name horrible pain live every lousy day life known wrong little now see put words like video emotionally cathartic me cried really didespecially talked selfharming people bpd express pain inside cant express way sit big ugly scratches arms fading scars past cutting behaviors cry cry still misunderstood mistreated though always purposei still hurt much care muchand emotions always place love hard fall hard life constant cycle loving world hating world hating broken often ok one moment little thing happensomething normal person might even noticeand sends tailspininto darkness selfhating behavior end trying commit redflag rid torment feel constantly trying hurt familyi love them want pain stop want feel anything anymore cant get hurt anymore me fml borderline personality disorderthere grace god go i want die please let die cant stand pain numb yet crying,1 +good reason commit redflag years old life never really great ive suicidal thoughts made attempts feel like choice end life face hellish consequences await people know early teen years something regretted immediately it every single day since pain guilt also whats going happen social life becomes known theres way undo solve this whats ahead dead end nothing more must end life,1 +sister messaged call asap received message am woke home use restroom called sister time answered phone heard yelling screaming happened was sister gave father ride back wherever came get home father would leave moms home unless also came along,1 +get much love want kill myselfi feel like shit say want talk someone dont want people love feel upset im lile dont even know please talk somebody fucking absurd dramatic,1 +thinking killing next weeks f lately ive contemplating redflag plans found looking online ways kill least amount pain think hospitalization even option financial state family in feel unfixable unimportant im end rope even know im posting here,1 +finally finished moving months family planning move away small town nc florida intense packing weve managed get one family friends houses live minutes away tampa also everyone mentions it yes understand covid issue left rest stops made wore masks gonna wait week anything quarantine which gives us time settle in currently complaint going feet sea level average f feet sea level average f anyway hope yall read this,0 +know im feeling lonely m please chat need something ungodly hour news time invented clock companies sell clocks,0 +anyone interested joining discord server members open anyone pm link filler filler filler filler,0 +im old dont know version ps get help main concern getting digital version account hacked something lose games maybe im wrong concern,0 +reaching end road hereim life provided protected point skills idea fend myself got yet another underpaid shitty fast food job far fast paced keep up every minute every day like constant anxiety attack work worse want curl ball die every second it coworkers constantly ridicule help either last long job ill go exact thing another minimum wage meaningless job family basically keeping alive hoping kill point feel like theyve begun accept potential reality whereas saw impossibility im self involved felt like would destroy worlds away parents couple years think theyd able move on yeah unpleasant weve people family commit redflag like never even happened even ruin lives like theyve got much longer suffer anyway know selfish father serious heart problems last decade half mother frankly oblivious naive seems checking mentally anyways live sibling good bit older life together making great money great could help death theyre hoping move together next several months means need move out name not mention k debt credit score low s literally friends prospects places get room anything everything seems lining up like theres thousand signs pointing death never wanted kids give shit significant other frankly live long life ill likely die alone addict andor alcoholic theres issue alone prefer solace sad picture know ill it might pawn phonecomputer shotgun kind disconnecting family anyways maybe weeks months relative silence reduce sting them say constant guilt feel suicidal them would done long ago without hesitation wanna work ass hours week still live paycheck paycheck wanna contribute considerable percentage life time making massive soulless corporation even massive swallow peoples lives too care improve whats point create chemical reactions brain convince continue contributing society interest part of zero interest learning anything anything meeting anyone im alive sake familys emotional health im gonna reach breaking point think itll long now,1 +yo trying refresh avail came help welcome,0 +plan a run alone city wait nighttime get kidnapped whatever happens happens optionally wear revealing clothes possibleplan b attempt run away again get physical cops hopefully physical enough shoot me optionally weapon sortplan c brutally reject incel may kill himselfmotive constant thoughts financial andor emotional burden parents due autism specifically extreme meltdowns become part plan a addition believe unconditional love exists understand still love everything done even started openly looking groomers again even work well fuck plan b c,1 +famous saying lessss gooo a brody yo mama youtube channel b dad seeing fat cock c mom seeing fat cock d dababy,0 +much point cointinuing on gets worsei never escape loneliness feel inferior everyone social anxiety roof i extremely avoidant everything soical want accepted loved never real friends gf everyone seem dislike first day met probably cause im boring dull im fat like shit moobs even though exercise dick small laugh im receding hairline thinning hair im done,1 +lunch school dont bother commenting idc dm hour convo idk talk u wanna entertained dumb ass hour go right ahead fun hugs,0 +damnit need simp magnet oo lesbian ass needs pussy life xd,0 +headbangs starts swaying shoulders awww yeaaahhh comes drop never gonna give up never gonna let down never gonna run around and desert,0 +dodged bullet like im figured id share story th grade cyber school good half year missed fuck ton school im chilling procrastinating get call girl really know pick different girl knew even less about asks know anyone could love her response immediately look asking wrong guy school months sounds noticeably disappointed instead awkward silence say alright well im gonna get back whatever daily basis responds alright go back masturbating like fuck never heard someone passive aggressive im sure dodged bullet found mutual friend later toxic hell know planning asking friend mentioned single girl immediately wanted number tldr title,0 +unpopular opinion spotify hot garbage premium version one worst music apps ever made youtube music par spotify premium,0 +im really dark place verge pretty bad stuffi know gun everyone thinks know even hold it well versed gun basics bought set kitchen knives could sick damage bought big bottle sleeping pills im freaking out terrible shitty day sent dark little hole crawled months ago im scared right know know want die cant wake anyone tell think im dramatic brat idk cant help reddit,1 +gf broke up felling kinda eh thats it feel good hey cares oof,0 +im numbim lost nothing complete im far behind classes nothing ever get done teachers quit trying help relationships friends stopped hated one responds im lonely even though siblings feel anything anymore told guidance counselor im depressed told watch shitty calming meditation video instead helping open appointment online spots open time tried email answer back im poor therapist started cutting last week first time six months,1 +im way clinic right nowhey first post here tonight ive suicidal thoughts finally decided call clinic im pretty scared nervous right now experiences,1 +first plani know escalating want done it first thought plan terrifying still comforting overdose hydrocodone suck theres always one dream thats kept going seems less relevant,1 +lets talk female simps am visiting mexico laying couch bed morning thinking talking female simps get main discussion id like point word female simps already exsist thot word made reason simp made classify something meme better use person know exactly talking about goobers dont know rniceguys simps r nicegirls thots probably gonna say using thot offensive really worse calling slut anything us guys would find offensive well well ript streets it u u anyways back original thought yall know see nice cute innocent girl post picture cars such pretty predictable see swarm comments guys simps right well matter what posts ivr seen boys postin pictures dog fish caught theres single thot comment anywhere really weird baffling dont call make memes them now may thots online sure hell exsist school lives seems see lot thots roaming around hallways instead seeing roam around topless pictures dudes here this honestly think one main causes possibly school life thots people back cause sissy drama spread rumors internet dont think anywhere anyone go to like make rumor either second mean post posted here everyone would look it call person fat dumb liar downvote thing hell unless poster like alt accounts twitter dot com hope yall enjoyed weird random thought woke with hope dont get swarmed simpsthots telling much scum earth already know am hope good day everyone,0 +thank really hope sound narcissistic say this past days feeling really self started considering redflag saw bunch post telling worth gets better know decided start posting stuff like mightve saved life thank you,0 +fun spain greece etc even bother ask wanted come lonely home trying stuff face every minutes miss friends wish cut friendships feel like shit watching friends snapchat stories,1 +hoping would lasti went like year without feeling depressed alone recently today come back feel like year ago ,1 +truly fucked girl morei graduated high school year far terrible me gotten diploma certificate cause parents havent yet paid school fees cant attend college family lot debt taken two huge loans amounting well two houses already defaulted might lose bank end year fathers business failed owe lot money people too aside developed feelings bestfriend whos girl told so rejected saying wasnt looking relationship immediately stopped talking me used talk everyday night month later found tinder fucking older dudes much stuff happening cant deal see way out alone want end it please help,1 +turns cant copy paste braille gonna make post titled a blind man walks bar bar braille let paste,0 +opinions abortion im bored fuck im curious please respect peoples opinions asshole,0 +naruto ep nothing wanted say sum ye ye ye ye ye,0 +hey misses mom shut please son trying explain something class shout husband rest us class hear jdhfkssakjfhawuie,0 +know user m threatening redflag uk basedhi everyone id like advice user ive talking account think risk redflag weve talking weeks responded post mental health board feeling uselessa bad person wanting end life talked long time trying unearth reason feels way basically bad physical illness feels responsible able recover like hes let whole family down waste good brother etc says friend everyone else school hates talk shit everyone gets tired end incredibly pessimistic outlook life general despite saying cares others seem particularly friendly respectful others ive trying best supportive helpful hes shot every one attempts optimisms trying find feels way says hes cnt want anything change way people better situation puts words mouth like im making pissed now see proof im shit person die ive trying really hard even want talk anymore but even say anything like difficult lashing hell use reasons hes bad personshould kill himself really know handle anymore said couple days ago hes planning kill thursday nothing try say makes difference anymore does feel it suffer severe mental health issues helping me wondering theres way contact reddit get help him could call ukbased number like samaritans know full name phone number anything username anyone wants try offering personal support take load me pm anyone suggestions support would much appreciated,1 +forcing people click links listen dont care post ur link time dont care youre trying force click link idc upmost ur links thousand times still wont click sure post links dont try force click them choice youre gonna anything it feel targeted this fault trying force people click links know feel targeted heres little context reason rant every time one friends posts link youtube video post like times midway status post theyll say oh thought gonna escape go click annoying hate people that trying force u click,0 +lost grandpa grandpa would year passed away tuesday stroke years back getting better underweight nursing home blue things took turn worst miss,0 +hell xbox live moment get on bruh wanna play halo titanfall ,0 +im posting third time ignored everytime so feedback poem mother nature merrier quite erroneous us presenting nothing making demon scarier time go back square one things done since one quit parsimoniousness consider mother martriach expelling class half halfwits seems near ,0 +wish lived america could easily access guni guarantee would here case matter time,1 +ive raped cant take anymorei violently raped turned boy thought loved im coming th birthday cant fucking think right now im depressed barely understand happened do couch jeans tshirt still remember television fact parents stairs fact raining drive home it said would kill left fucking stayed like months treated like fucking object could whatever wanted to grab boobs whenever wanted shove hands pants nothing object force oral sex shoving head down yeah stronger me didnt want sex wanted fucking wait everything felt used man tired memories im tired everything man him use sex told loved would complain didnt feel like sex threatened fuck ex like times together didnt rape felt constantly anxious wondering anything worth anymore im here im numb except nightmares cry time okay rn dont know im here dead end job want end im sorry needed tell someone,1 +although made cable film hbo enjoyable movie fascinating look backstabbing doubledealing world television allowing viewer peek behind scenes socalled late night talk show wars early s jay leno david letterman competed coveted position host tonight show kathy bates gives bravo performance lenos mercurial manager helen kushnick one feel empathy lenoletterman endured hands tv executives timely now considering recent events involving failed attempt abc replace nightline letterman matter many times seen film still find much pleasure watch first aired ever released dvd would certainly add collection,0 +hate complicated fucked lifeim years old going college next month if make it dad working years cant keep job two weeks bc hes lazy bitches bc sit around nothing ive done whole fucking pathetic life graduated high school diploma went prison born got armed robbery drug running two felonies mom works disabled children loves job minus shitty pay wage grandma somehow still going grandpa died brother same dad different mom shows parents house every tonight night im thinking ending all either hanging father lbs fat ass somewhere via gunshot bc quick painless know else ive single year two cant hold relationship bc personal demons porn addict try stop cant bc get bored hate more drugs hate constant verbal abuse dad talk back im afraid hell kill fight mom takes verbal abuse calls fat cunt dares call police hell kill us do im son could give shit less neighbor gun cabinet gave birthday shells never use either im going end life take family care someone world cares me one know matter hopefully meet weird afterlife pussy out put update try get help,1 +help meeee alt account ran away cage sub need guys help find it maybe hell come senses name ukarmeeee,0 +im really confused right kinda need rant get chest get grades exams determine wether go college thursday many people stressed shit literally emotion towards them dont want get results means parents going send college hours away thing im really shy reserved dont think ill able cope living dorm minute leave ill bombarded teenagers nobody know going tbf dont even know im interested course anymore worse thing havent applied anything else considering online course parents that much get irritated mentioned worry decide im wasting away slight chance social life right thought moving away stressful worst part im feeling mentally able cope right feel completely lost nothing makes truly happy ive aiming toward course many years right dont think lot interest it im confused fucking hate education system country has dont even know nobody talk dont understand try explain end argument,0 +know im depressed suicidali think redflag daily know do could economic reasons personal reasons im gay hiv hate live im feel like ive wasted life oh god days wish dead think redflag try say things im thankful always end sad still hate shit,1 +im pretty sure made whole class laugh bathroom phone i always take me idk normal english teacher called answer unmuted convo went like me teacher im bathroom tr what me im bathroom my friends start laughing probably alongside everyone else class muted z my friend hahahaha respect other friend haha good one my brother straight laughter one friends says discord hes crying laughter know shared this did now,0 +finally decided datetomorrow big day im tired feeling way even long literally one cares me good guess cause really hurting anyone ex want hates me hed rather live single life give another chance someone claimed love much feel like whole years lie feel worthless alone ive never felt way whole life im happy tomorrow soon goodbye,1 +feel terrible never anything fun never go zoo go movies usually late im drained time pick up needless say lifestyle absolutely killing me miserable zero friends see wife hours week opposite schedules im drained,1 +tomorrow going home visited dad first time year probably last time ever plan equipment date even time know stop me friends more like acquaintances know mental health optimal family life family abusive anything dysfunctional one knows thought daily last months one last therapy session goes down unrelated issues seriously doubt going tell anything all get tiny little moments doubt like right now sure choice pass way soon mindset completely decided it everything cold meaningless here supposed stuff plan stuff good person really want disappear one fucking day wake wish not drift middle conversations fantasizing ending it snappy total nightmare around starting lose grip reality fucking hard deal bullshit stuff bad going get worse want happens ask this want this want this fuck know want know whatever is would never able achieve it know trying here sorry hope grandma sad think anymore,1 +update supposed nowabout month ago posted wanting commit redflag and well did drank bottle peroxide threw bunch went er im college student missed half semester came back proceeded skip two weeks worth classes depressed face world now ill probably fail out im still beyond depressed medicated least hide home every day cant homework cant focus anything except silent hill which beaten three times point cannot connect people family anyone really think redflag almost daily days better others horrible experience hospital want go back im terrified dying know would mess offing myself see work depression enough get place okay,1 +user followed u aprilv_loughin followed me weird since account made like hour ago post profile nsfw,0 +think ill make monthshits gotten point im starting go insane last night hallucinated badly sure real wasnt im constantly paranoid im still sure im dissociatinghallucinating not almost nothing entertains anymore something entertain me cant hold attention cant read books play video games dissociate story completely forget everything it example ive played hours fallout ive dissociated point remember hours it feel like im fucking going insane cant fucking take anymore,1 +need helpi lost last thing live for never coming back maybe sw help find something else live for edge ending it,1 +tried overdose xanax alcoholi want live anymore im nearly millionaire im still happy whole entire family died still haunts every day years gun matter painful might would end instant really need help someone talk to shitty hotlines anything need get stuff chest thanks reading,1 +m close committing redflag againim tired ignored constantly one understanding problem answer help anyone give im doomed ive wanted someone love isnt going happen try best confident nice people usually ignore dont reply dont want live life without experiencing feel love maybe overdose pretend dreams,1 +ugly girl friends giftsas title says nothing offer plan stay alive mom dies stage cancer every day uphill battle cannot remember last time birthday ever celebrated well actually spent years birthday psych hospital think someone told happy birthday someone offer friend wouldnt follow theres nothing offer ive cried every day long dont know guess im weak minded cannot stop pity party keep throwing myself one sees person would similar mean things say dont think im different people idk im writing this im pain,1 +people move texas ok basically texas havent lived whole life dad retired navy texan despite think dont dress like cowboys shit not half people see move come school dressed cowboy boots jeans cowboy hat dress shirt act confused one else dressed like right annoyed kevin male karen,0 +live missouri direct effects terrorism largely unknown me brought home two men would put line way members fdny nypd did document horror unfolded day film testament lost lives true evil terror brings,0 +people listen joy division like depressed like wtf expect,0 +im ready diei nothing anymore everyone says gets better doesnt know feels love loved anymore heart completely shadowed mind ive planning day time fast approaching unless someone something prove life worth living im gone edit everyone responded thank kind words honestly think person alive would care enough even read mundane little post sincerely thank you people like give hope something while,1 +guessing game slugsoul going say next purposefully offensive shit get attenshun random word sentence want die much endless selfpraising hate stairs quirky,0 +found perfect formula friends redditor weeb metalhead social axienty formula friends totally description somesomething haha,0 +cannot even that scared pain afraid weak regret ever letting get age always hoped would dead here loneliness carving away parts hoped already gone alone disgusting worthless trans depressed special hell whole world sees circus clown best likely dangerous perverted freakish disgusting abberant abomination agree assertion everyone hates me hate me find strength anything improve circumstances make irrelevant rotting corpse dead alive disgusting worthless dead pay food want fight anymore every day gets harder harder matter hard try want dead,1 +looking friend andor friendette talk get know other today long term contract everyone invited,0 +today birthday dad said bring mask tho ps saved slice,0 +im tempted tell father buy gun kill mei cant really say much beside think living stressful right now aged insurence bull pay pocket dumb ass didnt set obgyn appointment still insurence im causing dad trouble it pay every month ass doesnt cant find job cant get insurance im retarded lazy depressed living annoying doesnt pay insurence month im dead right,1 + miles nowhereloneliness overwhelming anyone help me,1 +rented film netflix two reasons mood thought would silly s scifiasco first featurelength superman film needless say minutes found thoroughly engaged pleasantly surprisedbr br an experimental oil well penetrated six miles earth shut sponsor lois clark show get scoop disappointed deepest well ever drilled longer operation day later strange events well make story appropriate superman clark kent seems radioactive mole men invaded sixmile deep home near earths corebr br supermen mole men simplistic wellmade piece social realism released starring lead actor served world war ii moral story seems americans capable becoming fascists anybody else drive point home typically straightforward superman manner reeves even accuses lynch mob hunting mole men nazis one pointbr br even s science underlying film nonexistent six miles drilling continental crust would even penetrated upper mantle let alone hollow center earth which case exist forgivable keep mind film based golden age comic bookbr br the film little unevenly paced although molemen interesting bit creepy nicely portrayed several cormanesquire scenes spend much time redundantly showing us odd behavior script intelligent economical todays standards costuming poor fair time films special effects costuming quite good cinematography also generally good acting much better one might expect particularly impressed reeves jeff corey walter reed,0 +ive bought different questionnairewriting prompts books past daystheres lot fill out im done think im going finally relieve myself want want know things me answers want leave filled whoever reads know life good bad terrible life well compared some know want spend much time here im ready lead next life one not im ready rest peacefully,1 +inner part hand dry flaking im confused,0 +cant continue mental suffering foreverit come time give up im afraid unknown want redflag damn im like trapped tried everything nothing helped next,1 +ive never felt like would easyive battling depression suicidal thoughts awhile posted long agoim mobile know link another thread going detail set feelings ive thinking redflag daily basis things started get slightly better met girl school started talking set date friday canceled due strep said wanted reschedule friday bit today said things started get serious someone else one classes want friends me feel incredibly shitty feel like im constantly used placeholder girls better options come way took sleeping pills earlier day get sleep pass time ive taken put back sleep numb mind feel bad feel worse ever have anytime theres even little bit glimmer hope flickers plunges back darkness cant think anything killing myself ive never felt like would easy actually able follow through always much fear actually it fear nearly non existed right now im temlted grab gun quickly pull trigger get with even things somehow get better shit hole life cant possibly worth pain plus im dead like im going regret could been want pain stop hurts fucking bad cant take anymore,1 +think ill make im moment turned june still got months left honestly think make then every fucking night think plan redflag tonights one nights could time want to would prefer way could man know common fuck man feel goddamn alone girlfriend highly doubt even likes decent amount friends fuck man would rather quite literally kill tell them goi back girlfriend asked homecoming days great started acting different even know anymore were thing anymore swear man every night every single night think it im scared feel like actually get materials commit ill end causing shit go down friends family,1 +holding mouth screaming pain bleeding lips knowing go fuck do bf love anymore tells feels good knows hes hit hard feeling gets hands want die everydaytheres one day goes doesnt tell im worthless ugly piece shit fuck do cannot go home abusive uncle lives there wtf,1 + years old young feel like massive failure done jack squat life everytime try always get knocked down cannot keep stable job girlfriend one years cannot even keep stable conversation one due poor social skills depression barely friends feel like exist world living enjoying life present hate feeling way seems way ill stuck forever feeling like massive failure life,1 +hi all think might verge suicide feel like run options live country free medical care i cancelled private insurance public hospitals frightening thing ever here i live rd world country go public facility get abusedmistreated etci started taking antidepressants years ago redflag partner wanted doctor bad redflag since kid broke up found hard stop taking meds got terrible withdrawals eventually side effects got bad i went psychiatrist tried various antidepressants got worse worse decided quit taking last september withdrawals crazy felt super depressed stopping even though tapered months ago still struggling booked rehabsuper expensive dealt coming psychiatric medication worst idea ever middle nowhere put hardcore drug addicts cldnt leave plus semicultish scariest experience ever since leaving still problems withdrawal plus traumatized terrible sensations body result totally screwed knw anyway cannot anymore tried reaching family really helping type pretty much since kid ie parent surprised even made fari written goodbye note bought gear decided going hike middle nowhere die unfortunately country social security feel shitty cannot possibly hold job plus country get basic job like working mcdonalds pretty much living shack dire poverty pays way little survive savings decided little me lost carry fighting case realised actually make difference peoples lives instead wasting mine enough build house friend nepal enough send girl rural india school look needs graduates enough donate religious organization something substantial feel spend taking away cld give someone else also tired feel like get better feel completely alone isolated used social lately withdrawn really think it biggest fear becoming ghost praying alot feel hopeless think got another day two left me tried withdrawal money today cld donate told got hr lock savings wait that pray next life things better tried live good life really always tried live morallyso open suggestions feels like though would previously thought suicide never come far plan everything decide moneys going die etc also left apartment staying hotel close mountains cut worldthanks advance pretty sure end advice,1 +tired life tired disappointment hard fit world good anything absolute waste space like get job good anything tired everyone concerned future future cannot anything right fail everything attempt trapped want anymore want die deal bs shithole offer cannot take shit anymore cannot it want fight want work hard want anything want drop dead right moment,1 +fucking tiredat point dont even know im still alive im fucking tired crying every night waking feeling nothing cant even finish this im mad vanish,1 +long anxiety anti depressant meds take workhi im getting emergency appointment gp tomorrow need urgent solution really cant cope day day reasons explained another thread able seek therapy long term solution mean time need anti depressants anti anxiety medication help straight away take long time work really getting hopes ease short term finish exams get working job which love know mood improve thanks taking time day read incoherent ramblings,1 +hello therelost father covid last year void left behind cannot filledthe love life since told hates foreverexams next week desire study although know going failaddicted porn maximum nofapstreak daysdont know seeing friends amp colleagues happy successful leading good life feeling like getting harder,1 +posting get first kiss day almost forgot post today almost ended posting streak _,0 +im tired dealing lifei cant stop thinking everyone would better gone family would life insurance money make look like accident think would miss even notice im gone year rough see getting better theres pain ahead im tired feeling like this,1 +probably favourite tv show ever love characters especially alex perfect woman always makes laugh feel good watch show something amazing hard describebr br it seems episodes synchronise music albums well examples the episodes start end play end credits end always play opening credits episodes album plays episodes play twice go furtherbr br radiohead pink floyd bob dylanbr br double bogey kid ok computer episode plays least timesbr br saturn kid meddle shot lovebr br world without alex kid wish pablo honeyepisode plays least timesbr br there clues episodes tell albums synchronise kid may synchronise every episode,0 +compulsive urges hurt selfi feel pretty inadequate less people think self esteem may lead part thoughts im also average height constantly want to want vision hitting head feels good easy ignore first thoughts escalating eating dinner compulsion stick fork eye even though know would excruciating never self harmed life never physically never urge cut really frightening anyone dealt something similar,1 +tonight nighti going wait parents pass away first ill first go sorry mom dad strong enough hold out love guys great parents came fucked up,1 +im fond film vexes many reviewers rank peter jackson trilogy filmed novel always interpretive particular animated film relies artists vision judged terms speaking purist finer homage tolkien updated version film flaws stays truer source especially far characters concernedbr br in jackson version tolkiens frodo barely recognizable first scenes portrayed weakling constantly wavering manipulated forces around never standing two feet this physically metaphorically true wonder fate chose limp biscuit carry one ring cracks doom jackson unforgivably rewrites tolkien robs frodo finest moment allows arwen rescue ringwraithsbakshis version respects original presenting frodo demands wraiths go back trouble more bakshi sustains frodos character tolkien conceived it see decline weight burden increases frodo pivotal lord rings wonder jackson took liberties he numerous characterssince character development propels plot inevitable conclusion bakshis film better explores companionship legolas gimli judicious scenes completely lacking jacksons version similarly see boromir horsing pippin merry furthering idea fellowship liking camaraderie developed animated version live actionbr br tolkiens poetry important ingredient novels bakshi makes tribute one favorite scenes frodo sings merry old inn song minutes stumbling strider cheery tune chillingly juxtaposed darker theme music seconds later invisible friends visible wraiths frodo dangerously exposed one atmospheric portions film chills whenever see itbr br the well documented budgettime restrictions limit films final impact completed may resonated viewers is worth look even detractors admit peter jackson derived much inspiration prototype,0 +random fact know im bored tell random facts ,0 +get rid youtube advertisements step go end video step two replay video part profit sometimes watch ad put end,0 +haha fuck parentes geting divorce thought great happy life anymore haha,0 +anybody recognize username want know level reddit fame sub,0 +please talk someoneforget,1 +alright sw really need helpill keep short put details gets replies damn even depresses talk about theres girl perfect eyes talking internet month were hours away decided meet well last minute cancelled plans knows why month later start talking again are want saw easy lose her want relationship know would work wants friends distance issues ive major heart ache bad anxiety extremely depressed it know im going kill yet cant take much longer anything try get mind never works want lay day recluse ive lost pretty much joy everything do cant concentrate anything do lot people say im dumb kid im thinking way serious problem me getting much handle anymore,1 +im anyone feeling down needs advice bad day dm me would love chat help way can need somebody rant to ill gladly listen also rather talk discord dm ill send discord info,0 +know never able help myself apathetic whole life never going change constant ruminations zero self esteem redflag loneliness fucking wonderful lucky me obese since now know ill never lose it tried tried nothing never spoken girl always aloneknowing still cannot bothered help escape it got support family nothing change unless change know never going happengetting thoughts suicide constant wish could hurt mom like that would break her unable help myself,1 +died need tell storythis life long sad story one must tell someone born middle kid middle class family parents were first abusers dad alcoholic beat brother nights good listen music mom much better abuse dad abuse emotionally financially bad other around third grade diagnosed autism testing traumatic first experience gender dysphoria waiting room vhs worked alice wonderland wanted alice could handle new world handle mine parent filled pills till high school pill made slow fat easier dope parent lead getting lbs develop boob im guy ive spent whole adult life trying get fit this one biggest failures raped friends got drunk payed girl sex me happen party ive told therapist still cant talk about theres proof left too one one would believe me collage failure to know bpd depression still talk rape let build inside me met ex great first became emotionallyverbally sexually abusive hide friends family spend next three years deep denial come phone sex cam girl addiction itd year cant stop ive spend theres coming back this im stuck dead end job life forfeit theres coming back this,1 +day school going walk miles sun city lakes menifee today to get free phone ebt phone broke recently eaten breakfast food while know asked received grateful think mentally handle eating something today help help thank reading message hope good day,1 +alright review ask listed individually may merely tv item italy international lamberto bava fans film america film distributed vhs dvd either the ogre demons yes know nothing demons apart one cast member crew yes personally upset hard find site otherwise usefulbr br finally lets review the ogre ive seen trailer many times youtube honestly found rather scary movie it feature length therefore making movie many many strong parts manage scare displeased last act whole regret bought dvd seeing available shriek show guess films tv origins explain last act give spoilersbr br the plot somewhat familiar american horror writer vacationing ancient spooky castle husband son find exactly resembles setting childhood nightmares faint echoes the shining different brand supernatural horror woman virginia bryant finds proof real life place nightmares husband believe her great atmosphere terror followbr br the multiple nightmare sequences pretty freaky ogre cocoon effect good reminded bit uncle franks resurrection first hellraiser theres also good shocks well done underwater scene give props film never stooped imitating american films similar concepts namely a nightmare elm street the ogre original monster scary one presented correctlybr br on shriek show dvd lamberto bava interview careful mention part classic demons series also gives lot credit real castle movie filmed indeed setting contributes lot film simon boswell music helps toobr br theres lots good stuff here the ogre perfect much worth seeing take lesser lamberto bava achievement,0 +ok ran ideas original posts ngl shitposts make sense,0 +interested going onso last couple year suicidal thought growing growing spending lots time therapy spent two stays hospital still come empty every medication book yet really complete success im surrounded extremely supportive family friends truly care much really good day enjoy thing constantly try new things hopes helping try best exercising regularly eating well enough yet change feel problem often not feel depressed unhappy dont feel much anything dont feel weight failure anything dont desire keep going would prefer stop working long diving back far can honestly say felt way since years old im really feel like im staying around dont want hurt family friends sibling take life around age years back watch completely destroy parents siblings cant bring put that feel trapped situation dont really know next spent every bit money traveling trying new places hoping best feeling stayed dont know really go here,1 +one really talk anymore mean yeah friends online even much anymore girl talking stopped where keep trying distance know ill get hurt talk her always find giving answer calls awkward meet new people even online really pathetic want meet new people always fear like talk hurt feelings wish knew whether people actually like think worthless piece shit starting feel alone,1 +words bite assi depressed last years diagnosed pediatric doctor last year started see therapistpsychaitrist always thought would live depression functional maybe low energy constant melancholy know functional part am work days week apartment share boyfriend two beautiful wonderful cats whole life car pay bills without help anyone else last two three years pretty rough terrible breakup father passed away unexpectedly almost homeless different times finally got stable job last august many life issues before except fucking hate job really worst aspect life driven constant manic depressive state im miserable anything sleep go work fucking hate life nothing tried worked medicine exercise even self medicating booze weed work least long always said would never hurt kill permanent im fundamentally indecisive person ive never close before cant afford quit look something else hardly motivation energy apply something else job market hard here know else go talk to im never taken seriously sorry long post really need someone talk way vent,1 +hello hii whats day fun,0 +understand words come pouring cunt mouth im gonna eat every fucking chicken room,0 +something dont like thinking shit dont think shit act like it know shit act like it dammit hate going school seeing assholes popular annoying see straight them know im shit stay quite im confident myself dont need validation nobody like person acts like shit know shit dont think shit,0 +know call fcking upso fair warning probably terrible human struggling sexual relationship couple years ago trying come terms some definitely overthinking want sense talked me basically dated girl six months never sex got pretty close it one fight lead another ended breaking up well broke up talking some told yeah going sleep weekend broke up almost hanging head try get get back her ended starting hook started try take things little since expressed interest sex wed hook up beginning would always ask okay shed respond yes my name something okay id tell you well trips up wed hook up sometimes shed underwear still id thrust some occasionally id move side little tease sticking some never extent itd past foreplay one time asked are still underwear immediately stopped teasing went back underwear return that night times incident id try like said wouldve told something okay never ended sex definitely teased like wed shower together times one time asked questions underwear would off reason feel dirty sly taking advantage pushy thinking realize moved underwear know cant shake guilt keep overthinking things ive almost painted sexual assault perpetrator feel like jail did past years never said anything anyone feeling like something wrong damn reason keep thinking did ended things years ago really bad terms recently tried reach apologize treating way using hookup cheating her etc stonewalled me brain overthinking saying thinks sexually assaulted her ive hard lately want clarity think would willing come terms something could put label it able that find spiral perpetual guilt,1 +bill wurtz music underrated listened older songs like play like dance the rabbit snakes anybody else even know music,0 +yall motherfuckers get call witches dance around tarot cards offerings spirit readings crap reserve right collect swords quest take holy land yall pretend cast spells hexes shit get babble reclaiming jerusalem deal,0 +need help friend best friend suicidal dont know help family abusive narcissistic would punish found it help him,0 +saw film august th annual national association black journalists convention milwaukee wi first public screening film great derek luke wonderful antwone fisher young actor bright future real antwone fisher great job writing film denzels direction right money see opening weekend disappointed,0 +attention hand cum,0 +really want thisi want end mental hospital,1 +help friends whos ex committed redflagwhat say friend depressed ex committed redflag today told im hear needs anything reminded isnt fault want make sure knows someone care,1 +cant take migrainesim already severely depressed get migraines almost every day nothing doctor gives works cant take it im hours current pain one worst ones yet nothing works otc painkillers work ice heat packs work matter lay sit up want over cant think straight living worth it fuck constant head pain god would design us way know im saying im middle it im crying pain,1 +came back edge wanted share learned anyone still thereover last months got caught bad situation probably worst ive part of entirely caused screw ups left gutwrenching pain regret shame guilt humiliation ruined life time ruined repuatation took toll around me long long time im able recover point pain bad truly thought would better leave everything behind imagined relief would feel feel all imagined void all thats side theres pain also joy theres nothing void came close it got scared jumping in good things though time bad things overwhelming stand thought never another good time again thats kept jumping in theres never another life point void come me able stop it want sure gotten every last drop joy life does weight lifted shoulders lately feel better long while wanted share things ive come away with anyone needs hear ive are came back think possible come back did possible come back too admit yourself whatever thats buried inside want hear admit yourself admit someone trust almost everyone wants help you please ask them please ask them even people scared of please ask help ask im anonymous face demons theyll outrun dont seriously big one must turn face them make mistake wait face them do sense relief greater sense dread consequences face right weight lifted realized much wanted savor good times started write note wanted something remind things loved thinking last piece interruption occured never finished note like way turned out end void make sure spend life,1 +fucking monster evil,1 +second movie based life times ultra hung porn star john curtis estes better known john holmes boogie nights also roughly based life maybe someday someone going movie life tommy byron insteadbr br the problem is story well told many law order episodes twists turns wonderland director never gets criminal case going kind gusto val kilmer two problems nearly hung holmes and prosthesis time around unlike boogie nights much better looking mope holmes br br the director introduce one single likable individual among cast racist immature lowlifes hangs with wife police get much way characterization br br the best part movie eric bogosian telling paris hilton get lost br br having said that anyone interested sleaziest side porn business s true crime miss it,0 +posting random stuff reason day sometimes feel like whole life joke,0 +first fight okay th grade ima try make short long story short ex best friend point constantly trying punch guthe homeroom school hallways trying get art class snapped grabbed hoodie lunged wall started punching face went full hulk him put headlock gotten rage mode eventually couple th graders grapped us away other ex best friend grapped stuff walked offi grabbed stuff walked art class best part got early dismissal day that sorry long tried make short hoped enjoy reading thisim currently th grade,0 +tonight right now going try talk last people believe going prepare everything set speed dial last things make happy cut deeper ever have mark body right arm face legs torso arm everything prepared almost like sacrifice and hours less diemy name adam years old faced things torture has whole life lie tried opening last week immediately betrayed think one closest friends killed earlier tonight envy them would like disappear nobody reason get pity points fuck them years ago brother raped twice brother also assaulted sister months ago knife want continue know others live goodnight goodbye last night plannote twrape suicide self harm abuse everything,1 +hurtswaiting taking long,1 +remember dreams and nightmares fear,0 +idk brolike kms yet man like one day itll happen went psych earlier year help generalized anxiety disorder fucken useless idk im depressed anxious time guess solid bursts happiness worse sounds im really good playing yea loooooot crying worrying one things worry many female friends confident around women essentially making think alone forever im rn actually looks mindset change know im young whenever people tell worry it work also issues made question current girl im texting actually someone like still talking option anyways certainly people worse problems apologies clogging feed hope everyone okay stay strong,1 +need break whilei dont think im ready die awful wish something take would put hospital like week without killing dont go work anything while im defeated exhausted tired trying house mess desire clean it gets worse every day,1 +there people help youthe quote said frequently friends exgirlfriend told people willing help suicidal thoughts searching online declined twice councillors visit local gp doctor offered number call disappointment told too young service suited me think metal illnesses treated equal everything else ear infection know get appointment doctor next day able help metal illness clear guidance go talk treated as serious wrong opinion damage person lot more,1 +hello guys even sure right subreddit and sorry english advance wanted tell unusual felt since days ago basically since woke tuesday feeling numb like fog brain lost interest activities normally really enjoy like watching moviesthe weirdest thing irrational thoughts it like literally days ago watching old obscure essay films literally next day found thinking what point movies fake actors cannot wrap head around thisadded fact constantly felt tired sleepy naturally thought depression redflag never things before fact usually cheerup guy family usually find silver lining even dark situations happened sudden unexplainable nothing happened personal life lately either justify thisi also thought might side effect nasonex corticosteroid nasal spray taken since th july read side effects instructions say anything psychological effects kind wrote off looking online read corticosteroids actually produce redflag depression sometimes rare basically know believehas anything like happened beforethanks advance weird symptoms past days,1 +im lost lost feel empty like im something girlfriend girlfriend going something body making hate usually dont really know help feel completely powerless drifting apart almost idk im never able think right things say anymore feel like im npc im watching different angle feel confused hazy dont know anything anymore,0 +fought succeeded im back years agoive become shut dont socialize anyone anymore im get associates degree taking online classes feel like im going path took sophomore year peak depression ive thinking self harm decided use rubber band flick feel way im unsure future make something im destined live life shut work home im wondering sort relapse ,1 +need helpso like girl asshole friend likes hes trying get do think might commit redflag gets hand,1 +ok udeleted transphobehomophoberacist,0 +feel like idiot used drive great dad kept saying ride slow everybody rides little faster allowed autistic af took litteraly driving redflag take indoors route instead high way whenever someone behind wants faster drove faster got around tickets sure coming sad part know much knew late like total span two weeks coming talking speeding like km hour km hour feel stupid understand could stupid also work government feel like stupid person know shit also dad said buy good car light broke also fix that like fact going rain tickets me want die life hard autistic loser like me got speeding tickets autistic stupid bitch,1 +weirdwas jump bridge today one fear ill kind consciousness afterlife regret dying strange that,1 +im sadgimme advice sit crush mathour teacher gave us assignment today said yall gonna working partners partner sit with crush said noooi cant remember exactly said upset,0 +im done im done im donei miss wife miss life im falling apart im done im sorry tell mom fault,1 +promise rings supposed closer engagements heard somewhere promise rings supposed given girl sort preengagement ring dont know thats true got gf one one year anniversary didnt think like mini engagement still dont think mini engagement anything right thinking that think ring show committed real relationship im curious know people think promise rings are,0 +fucked big time made huge ass cut arm im terrified parents gonna kill see it help,0 +father makes deals people kuwait russia sells cows people there,0 +spend life computeri many reallife friends family ones always busy online friends feel detached cant see touch them im trying make new friends hard okcupid craigslist kind hit miss seems like whenever get tired get suicidal fucking sucks disability know heal mental physical illnesses permanent solution permanent problems even work bc x offed got sent back entities side whats point really time yet well get time im tired human form want nonphysical realms let reincarnate better avatar memory wipe time fuck gotta love kids start chanting head saying stuff like cut bleed pool blood need shoot head pull trigger im dead whatnot mouth babes right non physical friends physical friends plus dad died weeks ago would nice join him guess sleep ill wake feeling better tomorrow til tomorrow night ill probably get feeling way again every day exactly same fucking mood swings guess stuff live enough reasons too,1 +think redflag every morning wake upanybody else here im sick life want live anymore despite fact everything fine im going study soon university cant handle past happened many things cant years first thought redflag even tried kill self hanging work fucking rope ruptured stupid rope anyways every morning stand wish dead need worry guys probably continue life family friends otherwise would huge disaster shame want express share feelings hope someone understands me,1 +mooooooom youu wash back onceeeeee caaaan forgeeeeeeet ill leaveeee im chasing girls persuueeee,0 +lost love life literally never cared less momentmy boyfriend years mutually called quits never felt numb empty right now right thing im sure wasting away lose body fat muscles atrophy ultimately die also best thing do never felt like less human being never felt less importance worthiness life im never letting feel like again,1 +wanna useful make cash but troubling times nearly parttime jobs area closed covid and live restrictions super strict people age earning money would lot better me help parents pay fees school house bills along personal stuff need get parents working even harder make roof collapse year old boy feel guilty anything even though really want to im starting become depressed im feeling useless day passes want make life easier everyone want useful want help sigh,0 +id like quote alexander great take life alexander conquering many kingdoms returning home way fell ill took death bed death staring face alexander realized conquests great army sharp sword wealth consequence longed reach home see mothers face bid last adieu but accept fact sinking health would permit reach distant homeland so mighty conqueror lay prostrate pale helplessly waiting breathe last called generals said i depart world soon three wishes please carry without fail tears flowing cheeks generals agreed abide kings last wishes my first desire that said alexander my physicians alone must carry coffin pause continued secondly desire coffin carried grave path leading graveyard strewn gold silver precious stones collected treasury king felt exhausted saying this took minutes rest continued my third last wish hands kept dangling coffin ampxb people gathered wondered kings strange wishes one dared bring question lips alexanders favorite general kissed hand pressed heart o king assure wishes fulfilled tell us make strange wishes alexander took deep breath said would like world know three lessons learnt lessons learnt last wishes king alexander want physicians carry coffin people realize doctor earth really cure body powerless cannot save person clutches death let people take life granted second wish strewing gold silver riches path graveyard tell people even fraction gold come me spent life greed power earning riches cannot take anything me let people realize sheer waste time chase wealth third wish hands dangling coffin wish people know came empty handed world empty handed go world ampxb words king closed eyes soon let death conquer breathed last ,1 +cfsmeim going kill really soon think abity manage far outstripped maybe today im brave,1 +dont want biological males using washroom using washroom school today biological male came in cant stand fact right use washroom biden erased women dont forget it,0 +well almost choked outsince house crumbling doubt even shower rod could hold weight lbs went head tried essentially strangle using rope bathroom door managed chill minutes guess feeling like face swelling much bitch ass handle real reason stick around anywayi cant stand burden,1 +friends fake honestly im sick tired constantly make plans reply okay dont know whether drop not honestly every time go them im one making plans whenever make plans among themselves never include me always feel fucking left out dont know do like feel lost ive known year invited them,0 +word homophobia makes sense implies people scared homosexuals absurd im scared gay people gay people scared,0 +chemically physically possible things get better me tldr endi got diagnosed severe adhd dream job work recording studio out work around this moping spent past years life learning audio technology sound engineering stage work everything inbetween dad forhire bass player years still works av assorted events meeting people networked years deep look music tech work scene like extremely networking heavy entry bar set high significantly luck based maybe years get established make steady career first several years require hour weeks full dedication help live oklahoma music scene since s neared end highschool worked hard develop least social skills would need college hit hard nearly killed myself tutoring help they literally told get checked mental disability getting less socially awkward sure becoming lot angrier everything well took advice got tested expecting negative this silly thought nope brain chemically deficient problem medication might enough get college plus give accommodations make easier just even less ready real life workaround adhd music space enough sure maybe could happy life eventually would find something else would give recording studio dream forever wish could it nah im done stupid want part anymore nothing left me tldr adhd means cannot get dream job know learning career years know cant done im making assumptions one things world actually know stuff about workarounds chances hopes thing happen,1 +another recruiting session cult comment dm link apple cult worship apple must feed newborns collect,0 +cant afford real therapy free therapy infrequent unhelpful helpwhat do feel trapped terms options free alternatives right inconsistent cancel reschedule im way fucked see someone month,1 +dont want continue anymorei lost girl dreams think along distance relationship would work thought v back plan going living lot closer months found someone else finalstraw life one good thing going lost time continue wanted die since now met changed time wanted die felt made want live gone talking fuck boy likes claim raps wears facepaint like icp last reason live gone love much reason want die reason left want live,1 +real life hair reveal coming soon subreddit near,0 +know sexuality guaranteed im definitely gay im straight uuuh put something ass know think felt weird enjoy also hate it ask like ill try best explain,0 +well im making final plans im going get haircut wear best clothing step away lifei actually decided end life two years ago months death beloved wife living relatives lifelong struggle bipolar disorder substance abuse issues left pretty much alone earth wife yin yang enjoyed six short years bliss stability love mine finally allowed normal im happy years alone unstable addicted alone well interesting story decided summer first serious snowfall required get shovel would triggering moment im old enough unhealthy enough im really capable clearing driveway without assistance figured moment accept best days behind take final step crazy thing though winter first winter recorded history tiny swath northern indiana live got appreciable snowfall snow redflag pray courage this ive studied thought lot take life think made right choice one real question remains think wait snow,1 +guys asked crush said no even think twice atleast kill herself get f chat pls,0 +thinking mans silly movie expect star wars enjoy british humor might turn cult classic wife casting voice cary grant jack nicholson martians overly simplistic populace big bean movie either sleep watch carefully enjoy either waybr br its everyone enjoy relaxing easy humor takes quick mind see joke slips enjoy movie,0 +good enough dieits selfish post this im taking attention away people really need it people crisis need help im sorry thats kind attention seeking asshole am im going die yet deserve it need become better person die want death mean something want somebody someone couldve loved im sorry worthless ill try better wow reason post this fuck would post this im attention seeking whore really ignore me im desperately hoping random person thinks is interesting dramatic enough something care deserve attention care really want to im fucking pig like that edit ill ok jesus reddit amazing place turns theres cat pictures here needed someone care did need live now going painful messy cant much unless im alive thank caring,1 +melb ausis anyone melb aus right now dont know fuxk do,1 +plan commit suicide somewhere midaugust witnessed parents fought one time resort mother tried bash fathers head table lamp first years school bullied heavily first day got mass beating cried celebration lineup followed big fight me vs everybody else class lot hate towards teachers years school worst remember partially unstable mother point parents got divorced father living us long time could visit me one time went park reason stopped place renting got back mother sensed something odd asked was told would consequences told truth did followed horrific memory date put simply involved lot slurs directed father screaming beating expensive highend plasma tv hammer things calmed since parents share apartment completed basic education on something never left me feeling uselessness desire exist anymore became apparent around years ago got somewhat deadline months ago basically situation bad exams studied good professional teachers from another school came bad like got place university contest pan out chose translation profession english german languages summer take firstyear exam german complete failure retake september much past year it basically nowhere go retake exams come even worse current scores get university college allfor whole life felt like belong here like mistake well seems true sad get witness nineteenth birthday cats going grow up sad leave parents hope future would even sad live rest life end homeless scared ultimately change anything end ants big rock going boil us alive absence insignificant know go anymore,1 +need make next hours soim garbage person im staying family home cause im jobs yesterday family said xmas early thought would better wasnt there gotta disappear approximately hours starting hours think setting fire alot dont want anyone see face ever again think whole ordeal family think want around set fire think im dramatic think pull frodo disappear think wrap heavy chains jump big river maybe dont find body atleast pretend im wandering somewhere something happened brain cause two years ago thinking gonna bake pie family make extra special thinking anyone sees whats fastest way kill myself im literally reassured got bit cash pocket worst case scenario go gas station buy gas set alight comforting thought now might run away seems fine,1 +post got deleted shouldnt saw post someone talking harming got taken front eyes dont know user wish well hope youre good,0 +us built survivethats lately ive thinking life endless myriad suffering consistently used tossed away miss pills least pills feel like throwing moving car fantasize almost every day want die somewhere beautiful cold somewhere snow survived cult endured childhood full rejection rape abuse beatings death continue teenage years family disowned religion denied education medical treatment place call home fell love thought could cured married foolishly cant seem overcome disorders ive fully diagnosed plethora them broken relationship treat well have im proficient music hold job im good things put hand cant happy nightmares anxiety depression lack friends lack family lack support eats away every day everything overwhelming hurts im afraid want check hospital theyll forcefeed pills ill away wife thing keeps grounded tried start family failed want stop sick used afraid feel apathetic feel resigned ive thinking gentlest best way end come solid decision thinking something quietly put sleep im tired trying ive tried years better situation ive therapists doctors pills tried almost everything think improve nothing working darkness winning,1 +hate im transgender muchi didnt much childhood teen years sucked im probably gonna spend next ten years life hating feeling incredibly lonely jealous cant even date yet wouldnt feel comfortable least hrt top surgery itll years could afford ill move first ill thirties would never experienced best parts youth time wasted cant deal pain much longer either something needs get done im killing myself cant imagine scenario,1 +lethal prescription drugs combinationi want dont access illegal drugs even alcohol lethal prescription drugs combination effectively gets job done need help please,1 +cry sleep every night drink self harm abuse drugsall hope trying escape piece shit life never worksi close killing myself close end,1 +anyone else get feeling brain literally rotting days go byi honestly never ever felt worse entire life feels like nothing live thing keeping alive fear death itself keep feeling depressed day ive also getting headaches unusual me sick recently could explain it could fact spend time front screen still doesnt help fact feels like brain literally rotting head every day feels like im passing chance make things better point dont know helped guess posts make better momentarily since theres usually someone could talk without feeling guilty feel like im bother everyone know dont really even anymore feel like redflag going end inevitable really scary knows really,1 +people hack among us people hack roblox im saying annoying trying fun theres cheater lobby get wrong annoying game different game like this also lets honest cant older ,0 +keep thinking ex girlfriendshe killed months ago got q new girlfriend soon a week later lot stuff fully miss lot miss want back wanna talk still love left,1 +anyone wanna lonely together dm lonely noises filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +aaaaa think im kidney stone jacked much dick home fire whatevers happening hurts like crazy,0 +anyone wanna practice flirting know u actually wanna flirt practice actually tell ok pms open,0 +crazy story fish large freshwater reservoir noticed something cruising lake head dogbut saw body kinda cruised away making huge splash resurfacing im pretty sure otter still pretty cool,0 +drug abusing acoholic forgot normal body feels likei know start know sober least years drink minimum pack beer per day normally maintain sense social clarity last two weeks completely strange strange mean look people especially love see nothing nothing new face something odd happening body feel like skin similar aluminum foil heated lighter recently saw doctor liver advice wasted breath wanted time news liver year old alcoholics change quickly faded reverted back drinking heavily snorting smoking opiates like live family see anything drug abusing alcoholic im sad concerned new,1 +good morning im crying crabs found hermit crab finds bigger shell itll explore see itll fit shell big wait shell hours crabs come along try out realize big well queue next shell form line biggest crab smallest wait crab perfect fit exchange shells sequence everyone gets new home omg,0 +literally everyone needs see video no rick roll httpsyoutubeulsvie_q,0 +ive seen posts bitching gender war whatever tf happening like bruh yall need stop lmao,0 +im sitting contemplatingif want not past weeks ive found thinking ending it feel like im hopeless decisions make turn come around go wrong leaving confused saddened mess cant seem catch break im religious think power keeping like this know im wrong handful friends days family distant me ive meds given doctor months cant afford anymore feel worse every day constantly keep imagining scenarios real gun enough access to want think like anymore want help,1 +hate feeling emptiness cannot even say sadness feeling pure emptiness hate felling emptiness,1 +today maths lesson without teacher student school got youknowwhat closed school days therefore maths lesson via skype today well teacher bit late started lesson however line echoed horribly figured someone phone lesson speakers however didnt know was even though wanted lesson continue as like teacher couldnt anything it didnt think way apparently eventually got fed left got bit scared everyday occasion say least decided fix problem minutes muting people name order trying speak found person mute avoid echo afterwards texted teacher managed find cause echo continue lesson however available anymore however wanted give chance come back stuck around whole class teacherless talking crackong jokes minutes lesson supposed end didnt come back end told happened ok apologised getting mad moral story wanted share cuz not,0 +feeling guiltymy parents middle divorce theyve separated long time live mom ptsd living dad whole personality changed it stressed feel like telling want die for millionth time would make feel worse would much easier leave silently dad good health insurance golly sure wish last fee hed ever pay cremation burial ive financial emotional drain since baby sit night fighting myself should go get pills rope eventually pass thinking it get yelled everything sit there screaming silently cant see much im hurting whenever say much pain im alive get brushed told you could worse wish worse could justify feeling way live constantly disassociating yelled at misunderstood cant deal anymore everything ready thats left willpower sorry long post,1 +even life gets better could never forgive world ive seen truth evil place beive crossed point return cant possibly believe world good place even life becomes good,1 +poem wrote yesterday sleeping lol everyone attracted brightest star yes one know admire afar cant live without star life ill never know him im hopeless,0 +im gonna end im going commit redflag end misery boys girls u get infinite wholesome awards reddit guide book ,0 +brain crazy teen windows solitaire windows strip poker win windowschan showed tits,0 +force go nothing live forhey everyone frequent lurker first time poster wanted reach guys feel like im wits end here ive gone pretty much everywhere else think of years therapy medication countless conversations family members multiple calls redflag prevention hotlines nothings really made better one able convince life worth living thats despite fact good deal stuff going me family destitute means go good school good friends get decent grades mom says id feel better ungrateful things life maybe right always seemed good things far outweighed hopelessness sadness im dealing time want good things have hate myself see indolent useless waste person goals ambitions life feel like placeholders theyre really want them theyre feel like im supposed something really want die think killing every day im tired feeling selfhatred despondence people life would probably feel sad die even though im convinced affection sorely misplaced lives would much better never entered them make people grieve do thing world want thing cant do everything feels empty hollow feel like losing drive survive know anyone say anything help feel like redflag solution life makes sense know keep going anymore,1 +idkhello alone alone since day born remain alone till day begin decomposing feet under friends love nobody general live parents spend days sitting home alone nothing loneliness began serious toll confidence point absolutely confidence myself beyond depressed nobody talk to nobody help day dont see point continuing onward knowing never find love knowing remain failure forever cheers,1 +disgusting personality everyonei sober teetotal brit drunk brits sensible fun pubs pints preachy teetotal subhumans spitting peoples faces yelling managers food healthy enough going healthy smoke disgusting piece shit drinking smoking eating food tastes good preachy fucking degenerate people like cough peoples faces telling actual humans throwing getting others hold hair back like sensible british people deserve british clean eater time makes gross asshole impossible change personality get rid vile habits make obnoxious dangerous asshole people cant change personality enjoy throwing drunk public smoking eating junk food time tomorrow going end life need good sensible safe person disgusting freak people drink smoke eat junk food degenerates main cause second wave coronavirus country,1 +totally competent programmer cant even fricking scratch tried making game forgot code part actually play it wanted show friends yea broken cant fix im mobile sucks oh btw link anyone knows use scratch probably fix if flag clicked set touched bullet httpsscratchmiteduprojects,0 +im feeling like redflag easierso throwaway obviously want shoot head instead dealing life sum im premed thats failing college im crippled fear funny enough failing recently married wonderful wife adore beyond else cant support us cause job skills college turning bust dad supporting us part know im failing would likely cut support long tell him hes also doctor hate religion long drawn reasons giving identity problems it whats really putting edge right now ive dealing wifes sister extremely overbearing always knows whats best never wrong belittled wife last night super bowl game nearly years married biting tongue decided speak said youre rude wife please dont started get upset correction said youre pill asked wife leave everything seemed fine minutes stayed shit not exactly happened seem like big deal right little argument nope half hour sister law leaves room starts bawling bathroom course parents laws go aid turns huge thing morning brother lawher husband asked could come help tile things course wants discuss argument witness turns sister law thinks poisoned wife her whole littany awful things always bit tongue starts exaggerating lying speaking empirically things knows nothing about one time defend wife get made terrible villain brother law begins tell stress theyve may acting waysince ive known her asks considerate speak rudely like last night yell like did get passive aggressive like did asked nice crime calling bullshit one ever reacts way lived together house year sister law pregnant learned thing two always kept mouth shut every fiber wanted tell constant belittling younger sister wife well nice person said okay come home tell wife cant tell im feeling inside poisoning her hate am hate job hate im weight hate cant ask help premed program cause get laughed advisors office need help hate sister law manipulating everyone always get way hate wifes family thinks im terrible person hate friends getting accepted medical school cant even get gen chem class cause panic every semester point cant even register classes means look gpa hate myself thing keeping blowing brains right that would made inconsiderate person taking cowards way out cant anyone considerate feelings stress cant anyone come aid try god damned hard simply good person ive thought killing time actually want it im scared im alone know do fuuuuuuckkk,1 +im going kill quite sooni really hate alive im horrible person terribly insecure completely useless likely bother friends see much value alive bought rope ago think ill kill next week im never sure see you,1 +sick everyone sick life sick nobody giving two damns mei one none friends care me thought could depend on guess not none spoken two months soon start feeling down ignore me hell ever deserve crap get dished ive ever done supportive friend want friend cares me screw life worth go every day alone expect responses ive never gotten two months people thought cared me would complete strangers give crap loser like me cant breathe anymore anxiety crushing me,1 +wanna troll friend need help friend streaming moment rather small streamer usually viewers wanna troll flooding stream viewers write random crap chat whould appreciate help me twitch lolsose,0 +birthday happy birthday share birthday,0 +remain calm get adienty attack im talking front class filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +failed first time everything crumbling againabout years ago tried first attempt obviously failed looked like accident one suspected went ups downs overall fresh take life fast forward couple year met love life jump forward get married im working job love suicidal may ask constantly fear future kids never making enough never good enough hide depression problem drinking created problems nothing big recently got drunk hit mailbox possibly looking jail time wife threatened leave big disappointment everyone dont know whats wrong seems like every good thing get screw drag loved ones me im almost edge dont think ill fail time gunshot head ive researched extensively past days several guns think wife suspects something cant bring tell scared depressed helpless feel take gun carry truck more holding hope im gonna go jail im charged im going im terrified trying hold in darkness crushing im crumbling write this,1 +really hard time so might sound exagerated first life just overkilling or us matter ampxb basically im venezuela heard stories thisplace know rather nice havent resume you every single thing sucks theres literally single good thing think damned place situation drained even last drop sanity left things mean are ampxb the energy supply umbearable is everysingleday theres blackout usually last hours random but course year become hours random thats without taking count one happens randomly every month last entire day aditionally sometimes power comes back like half regular voltage would something like v things like fridges ac televitions computersect working undesirable v and guessing mine could lower that ampxb the internet sound like big priority times really necesity need internet order make bank transfers pay credit cards service bad last one example fact venezuelas internet one slowest world mbps last time checked meaning that say g download takes like hours complete thats all like wih electricity tends dissapear randomly daily basisand many cities pieces shit started stealing internet cables streets sell copper leaving anyone unlucky enough cables net internet the company distribudes internet decide fix which never last one happened grandmas house internet ever since ampxb not alot food alot water well dont think explain one basically that theres enough food expensive compare people wages thats local food anything grown last automaticaly unreachable example aples everybody knows fruit right well here luxury get crosing borders either colombia brazil fucked normal parents telling story kid asked aples real never seen any theres water limited water tank house bad time example maracaibo city grandma lives gets water like days every two weeks water since friday sundays night gone wait friday fucking weeks ahead refill water tank imagine living place take shower every weeks oh know constantly wash hands thing yeah ampxb fucking corruption seems thing bad countries adapted bullshit country have example fact could go prison food car sounds unreal believe me ampxb top that exclusive family personal problems form last drop cup ampxb one im going cut short basicaly notsolittle dispute family terrain father left died last year scaled sort agressions instance fucker threatening knife fucker telling mom hes gonna get us my mom me cut pieces bitch even part problem calling mom something along son whore kind insult and last wednesday main troublemaker fucker attacking one friend rocks last one counterattacked moment hit nail stuffed club carrying around protection problem much now weve reached autorities and well corruption again weve gone times local police station say cant anything due covid thing were basicaly luck oh get agresive bad guy cause supossed let autorities handle sort conflict again ampxb yesterday mother went bigger instances try solve constant threats thing told anything unless becomes physical thing way back something car broke left place one hour away ampxb bullshit really gotten best right cant stop thinking about lets say ilegality fucking end all least way others familiars whould able conflict solved were really runing low options ampxb im really verge insanity cant stop thinking one honestly im kind looking advice issue thats even posibility anyone even bothered read,1 +phantom noosesive felt phantom noose around neck last two week cant walk past height railing without imagining world feel jump neck snap rope pulls taut hit ground wet splat scenario gets appealing day got fired year ago fulltime job since then parttime work field terrible boring stressful work ive ever done boring work barely uses degreeyou could train anyone read joband stressful theres guarantee assignment last even half time staffing agencies promise hustle send resumes every day keep parttime work ill quit job thats about end work one thats start broke two months this contribute relationship working plenty people jobs make happy always agreed equal partnership cant sos equal im working also depend financial support wed experiences exes leeching us would rather alone leech ive cut expenses bare bones hobbies eating out sold clothes books furniture netflix tv videogames sold too enough internet look jobs cheapest data plan phone company sells even turn lights anymore ive stopped using ac hot water history depression history redflag attempts want talk doctor told truth theyd probably commit and id get fired temp work stuck hospital bill afford dont tell truth theres point talking doctor want told things get better im irrational crazy stupid find platitudes helpful know lurking week common enough pieces advice here let get way right now also want need keep trying doctors find one trust because a cant afford that b do trust doctors serious tmifridays trauma last doctor saw put family through c ive looked states laws involuntary commitment think thoughts urges specific enough qualify and want committed know do want though job life back thats happen,1 +hey guys im bored talk also sleepy,0 +homicide junkies there movie great every single character ever show made appearance movie helped resolve but all issues series unfortunately unless actually watch series enjoyment would lost movie made heavy references every season shows existence probably would appropriate series finale opposed separate movie gotta take get hope make movies continue feature homicide characters law order,0 +think already diedlife real way,1 +im broken man looking forward deathnothing interests anymore really tried best nothing everyday cus im unmotivated anything all bring everyones mood im burden fucking disappointment,1 +still fightingi tired want die yet still fighting live why difficult give give in never asked life yet forced upon me want go back existed want this,1 +overnight flight los angeles miami lisa reisert rachel mcadams meets charming man turns hired killer demands help killing businessman else father diebr br red eye terrific thriller keeps audience edge seats premise similar cellular phone booth red eye better films almost everything red eye average including suspense acting direction film take place plane slow movie film fast pace exciting slow boring spots wes craven really good job behind camera instead focusing thrills focuses story characters movie share suspenseful moments thats film really about also like way wes craven focuses passengers small details become important later on red eye really shows skills storytellingbr br red eye also works well young talented cast rachel mcadams gives engaging performance character hard hate may even end cheering loud cillian murphy gives creepy effective performance villain way acts charming first turns psycho especially impressive supporting actors also pretty good include brain cox jayma maysbr br the movie also stylish overall creepy vibe it setting works well since obvious fear isolation escape overall tone film consistently creepy screenplay strong everything else though unrealistic moments may distract viewer bother left shaking head also ending disappointing bad ending simple one different approach would better since movie focuses characters really scream moments maybe jumps expect horror movie end disappointed end red eye engaging thriller one best movies summer rating ,0 +get new account idk many guys suggestions _____ _____ _____,0 +life varying levels pain sufferingive typed redflag notes respective people family unlocked phone background screens instructions call certain people first let know news dont want live anymore fuck place didnt ask shit,1 +dark thoughts cant iteveryday wake up go university parttime job wake up feel im achieving anything going train station know grim look face feel people judge me reason stay friends family mainly one friend smile grabs face see im alone never feel happy seems like eternity go bed wake next day ampxb takes hours fall asleep im incredibly sleep deprived lay hours upon hours nothing happens take medication fall asleep never works im diabetic low high blood sugars keep up im always exhausted fatigued blood sugar levels anything drawings hobby draw one thing im so it want anything even lying feel like im achieving something thats actually accomplished ampxb wondering words wisdom get through,1 +like disorganized crime much chuckle laugh loud time think dozen scenes movie kind hard explain ill give try first all funny indeed contrast lots official reviews want believe again depends entirely sense humour sense arguing that often humour dialogue often situational comedy instance hilarious scene gang members given lift back truck farmer drops them stand road covered cow s whatever totally unnerved then realizing humour scene one one start laughing themselves ruben blades as carlos looking and certainly smelling terrible nonchalantly takes mouth spray least something breath simply describing scene makes chuckle again leads second point acting fred gwynne lou diamond phillips william russ ruben blades corbin bernsen okay latter overdoes bit times fit play parts beautifully fact get feeling must enjoying shooting film thirdly plot jim kouf director screenwriter laidback takes time let plot unfold individual characters establish themselves often not real action yet enjoy different people attempt rob bank although boss bernsen seem turn grumble eventually grudgingly like other movie fantastic parody typical bank robbery plot totally impossible twists coincidences yet utterly convincing love ironic details incidentally title film one best ever come across perfectly summarizes plot ironic way therefore take advice watch film chuckle grin smile first minutes forget type film ps negative thing movie seems way get hold screenplay happen know how tell me,0 +tired sufferingive honestly grown tired ofeverything going past seven eight years lifeits filled much crapthese past months especially crappyim already failing two classes fall semesterthere still lot problems going back hometo top offmy girlfriend broke six month anniversary told relationship while earlier today see picture another guy dancei cant take anymorei try good person manage annoy people say annoy problems going meive come realize really purpose livei feel like wrongi great people lifebut feel like im always bringing around themand want burden anymoreand sorry seem like im jumping around,1 +im alive myself dont want keep holding onsorry grammar here use voice dictation software perfect ive wanted die years now im chronic pain fibromyalgia always tired ive tried everything feel less lethargic best everything should feel rundown edge job feel anxious every day ive meds years im trying new meds now first time want die things therapists say do journal meditate several times week give hours sleep every night see therapist psychiatrist force make plans friends im even lucky enough people genuinely good people like im hanging around bunch jerks dont know help me try bring much feel super lonely too sweetheart love dearly closest life good is huge struggle make day point time together wake morning day starts again think long workday ahead me wonder again keep sticking around life mostly pain moments relief like pressing pause pain like huge counterbalances downs like sleeping her im peace recharging even best times life enough help make next work shift unhealthy become relationship one escape true escape work four days week negotiated pay reduction take friday feeling pain wanting die im home alone things fun feel empty inside dealing pain is well painful dealing failure make positive impact world painful well dealing insecurity would happen lose job pain gets great able work insecurity comes feels like slow steady decline qualityoflife hurts exist in answer always would hurt people love go fair much privilege white man ability earn decent income use try fix shit all especially white men fucked time despite intentions get lazy end exactly hate look back slavery im horrified look nazi germany im horrified yet eat inhumane meat animals raised amounts slavery maybe focusing taking time for making budget for humane meat would help state mind feel net impact world neutral best passion projects ive started try make difference flopped ive joined project started others similar experience nothing actually made difference survived volunteer organization believe volunteer time really impact success im like ghost im here cant seem move objects around impact world sort flow it desperately grasping things remain exactly bad came end im staying around try make difference measurable thing thats happening im pain suffering cant point anything makes worthwhile im trying share unfiltered hopes someone reads this sees something broken thinking points ways rethink this someone shares empathy hard able share info anyone regularly try soften close im consuming emotionally too dont know many years do,1 +first achieved fame drunken master jackie chan thrust spotlight s project a hugely enjoyable pirate flick reestablished major star time police story released two years later extraordinary hype surrounding jackie reaching zenith crowds flocked see frenetic blend awesome stunts brutal fight scenes questionable comedy broke numerous boxoffice records inspired rise police recruits but viewed years goodbr br as action movie police story unquestionably stands up several terrific fight scenes stuntwork recalls best chans hero buster keaton compelling overviolent climactic tussle jackies performance also strong whilst frequent forays laboured comedy dull films impact little charisma carries through furthermore presenting hero borderline psychopath whose recklessness puts others danger jackie took momentous gamble though event nobody seems noticed praising police story simple good vs evil battle critics belittled films ambiguity tone whilst hardly brothers karamazov depicting uncertainty film nevertheless represented notable praiseworthy shift conventional ideasbr br in short remains quality popcorn movie though may empty stomach numerous villains thrust deposited glass showcases films final scene potent boisterously entertaining action movie ranks best period,0 +guys listening to hey guys give good song recommendations song catchy beat tune,0 +second time getting bus turned walk street noticed driving beside commencing pattern black tinted windows license plate obscurer looked outofstate made police report first time went straight precinct second time speaking victim advocate two officers took interest case began explaining intimidation stalking me asked abusive notredflag,1 +awkward talking girl inb neither us interested relationship told if people like emotions think breakups would happen awkward got super confused said oh thanks end pls,0 +totally alone completely contenttheres one cares im not friends talk one im glad cant stand anyone im gone itll anyone knows looked help different professionals give less hope cant say try,1 +want kill everyone around mei know sounds terrible feel right now im going details really want carry toxic thoughts felt needed vent,1 +another post person family skills,0 +years ago ray light madonna broke truly amazing level musical 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skateboarding bruh small scrape actually broke arm lol man dropped ramp skateboard hit rock fall using helmet protection accident family wants make give skateboarding need physicals activities may diseases sking physical activity did thx reading sorry trash english im foreign country took minutes write cause wrote broken arm lol,0 +tell someone friend i suffer depression idea redflag ongoing since im feels almost normal im used used patterns last year suffer mostly anxiety drift feel somewhat control im happy with ive never really told friends seem never get bar one shes best friend witn years lately ive noticed mood low asked broke completely broke said dosnent know always anxious etc one thing seemed make clear topic way redflag horrible left behind imagine etc thats worry low points would say similar things yet thinking would kill later night feel lost help shes private person feel something important let slide tell another friends im breaking trust even tho didnf tell tell anyone given ive sent pages use anxiety help still feel like know advice would much appreciated,1 +something wrong feel like always try best seems like youre tired wish things could used,0 +bored cant sleep ill answer anything reply ill probably delete morning cares,0 +one dayi personally think redflag set happen like know im gonna bc dont see another way misery matter hard try know ill always abusive mothers control everyday gives reasons end it recently point wanna commit redflag hurt her bc hate bc want feel pain puts daily basis dont think anything would hurt much losing me losing precious obedient kid know leave painful scar also know shell never blame bc doesnt see depressed shes made every day life doesnt believe mental health know shell feel pain,1 +helpis anyone talk to pain handle one talk to alone,1 +cant shit help biggest dry shit stuck asshole do,0 +videos pictures death videos photos always death youll eventually die youll already taken videos solved clickbait videos video taken death thank later,0 +redflag one things think pointi really wish years ago came close got hospitalized gotten worse since tell family want go college covid me even point everything went perfect think could happy idea going college getting degree make happy accomplished anything makes dread every aspect process going class every fucking day exhausted hell wishing could die already whats point feel like whole life amount another redflag statistic im okay that long itll soon,1 +zombie chronicles something shout about obvious award winning movie entertaining bmovie directed brad sykes directed camp blood another entertaining low budget flick acting bad like cheaply made movies thats makes entertaining zombie makeup cool effective especially budget gore also great gross film sort like zombie version tales crypt since get two tales zombie encounters woods stories fun leave guessing especially first tale zombie chronicles lot better low budget zombie movies there love low budget bmovies cheaply made zombie flicks check zombie chronicles,0 +im grandparents hate im stuck grandparents house make work lawn build stuff rake leaves paint theyre fence last time hear build fence metal piping around acre area friends make work whenever try listen music play video game get say way harder kids annoying around boring whenever say im bored somthing make chores wish could go home,0 +sub much weirder im drunk im gonna regret livivng tomorrow lol typical drunk girl today know irl dont talk dont wanna deal ughhhh,0 +school starts monday advice yea school starts monday wondering guys advice warnings pandemic note glasses tips mask would greatly appreciated,0 +movie excellent save scenes esposito enjoyed brought together every detective series wrapped plotlines never resolved series thanks nbc great see pembleton bayliss together human basic persons braugher secor great job usual get overlooked hurt see end homicide memories tapes reruns courttv watching come every friday movie job well 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memorable even fucking worthwhile everything existence nothing one giant mistake never made first place know truth myself see strangers people know look me everything see look mirror see worthless useless creature looking back mirror absolutely worth value whatsoever every time look mirror see creature absolute waste ill made spiteful indolent insolent talentless waste space tried long pretend otherwise truth am someone devoid anything least bit unique worthwhile semigood aspects already present every person earth barely merit mentioning lazy greedy spiteful toxic waste space complete lack actual humanity worst part know never change matter tiny minuscule changes could possibly make same sad void emptiness always been fixed abomination change all actually got live for friends cant make friends never capable making friends used think could once used people hung around thought got along high school that obligation pay attention one else obligation around either found easily disposable trash am shouldnt discovered eventually aside thoroughly uncharismatic unlikeable bore im naturally vile toxic person person spent extended period time able tell worth time trouble means dont blame people used hang around deserting me good people one right mind would ever want around me never good enough them exception one online friend talk me sporadic occasions pity never get better that family extended branches family could care less live die know uncle thought something wrong time two though turned correct aunt would put false smiles around cover fact annoying person ever seen theres grandfather actively despises me though tries cover too hardest someone always respected loved hear things thought broke me course also helped see truth much clearer borne fact never ever voluntarily talk me would they would want even acknowledge lazy dull emotionless disappointment human nothing worthless empty meaningless life must wonder exactly cursed relation mongrel parents though abortion had mum least capacity pretend im autistic worst mistake ever happened her dad well im almost certain hes biological father making bastard every sense word hes never felt shy expressing disgusted me criticising every act every tiny mistake lectures last hour long regaling every problem loser son is though even stopped recently gave even trying get improve dont blame him everyone around testament standup guy naturally likeable many people disappointment return know wishes nephew place hell always proud me see every time look me every time fuck way cause ive ever make proud good grades overhype like greatest achievement ever achievement fuck up real feelings come see eyes know see fat degenerate waste space would never time hadnt made monumental mistake unleashing world crowing embarrassment lives wonder every day karma universe punishing whatever deeds heinous decided offspring youve probably guessed ive never abused neglected anything serious like that perfectly good upbringing still turned like pathetic useless loser youd blind ashamed obvious black sheep family am love thats funniest thing ive heard year funny woman would actually deranged enough look actually want spend unpleasant bumbling conversation me let alone majority life im funny talented charming charismatic cool clever attribute least bit attractive anyone circumstances thats biggest fucking disgrace all never loved ill never know like hold persons hand while let alone close someone feel like person world worth around ill never get married father life amount anything whatsoever dont even look possibility look people relationships like people look millionaire lifestyles oh itd nice understand never will trudge along empty useless life alone even fucking miracle someone actually want relationship me wouldnt last long wouldnt able handle cheated course would be maybe would make enough depressed wreck actually give confidence finally pull fucking trigger know thats likely one would ever want stay me nothing inspires least bit loyalty someone ive never fantasied flirted with one ever wanted share moment me one ever cause so even idea actually kind relationship laughable insulting never ever happen could it one single aspect miserable creature like anyone could ever find endearing especially funny consider socially inept retard high school looking way guys behaved dismissing loud obnoxious childish ones relationships always loser realise retrospect actually lively energetic fun around people drawn good times drank partied played sports thought even years werent that would find real relationship years later patience paid off course never going happen dull bore ones fantasy still take small comfort fact make lives countless women happy every single day them someone actually cursed enough stuck me lives would much worse contrast honestly reasons like make ok living dying virgin used something really bothered me now now abundantly clear impossible ever get close that ugly unpleasant face doesnt turn someone off repulsive grotesque body will sight anyone would ever want lives even im shower im disgusted have thats even taking account microdick final nail coffin ensuring never ever circumstances able enjoy experience someone special ever doesnt bother much anymore finally realised never possible never possible fat ugly loser scale ever even get close that embrace ugly sin inside well outside perhaps ill able let go relationships one thing work it kind employment ive volunteering discovered antisocial unlikeable am perhaps might fine actually worthwhile talents attributes strengths make stand out dont guess im pretty eloquent mediocre writer well possessing measure intelligence what plan future drive passion fucking anything used play idea journalist writer could be im nowhere near articulate talented clever enough actually make field like have im stem student im athletic discernible hobbies beyond crappy fanfic writing im even studying fucking history degree worth thats going have least high school felt happy work like essays amounting building something never were way waste life away end shitty dead end job want kill even already thats even possible dont end unemployed years little sister already recognises im loser surpasses every field every attribute parents dedicated ensuring dont get another me one fuckup would enough couldnt cope two still least look forward tombstone significant thing ever accomplish lifeif im tossed ditch forgotten like diseased wretch actually am it summary twenty years miserable worthless useless spineless lazy indolent pathetic insignificant waste space alive planet know worst thing is fucking nerve complain it another fucking thing wrong cant anything fix it comfortable moderately wealthy lifestyle comes actual serious issues dont want anything feel completely worthless overall incompetent fucking reason to able fix miniscule problems completely incapable even would point would point ever holding hope anything ever changing me wont wont ever pathetic nothing wrong life grotesque failure completely incapable even basic requirements functioning human being used believe nice good person held back shy anxious lie lie told myself never that ugly inside outside used hope one day someone might take pity see hidden beauty inside one else could life would begin get better course would actually require hidden beauty isnt theres never been still remember like day life changed asked people thought friends wanted hang summer one ever responded one one ignored shunted ghosted first thought really driven home me finally realised completely utterly alone actually world realised made one single friend wanted spend time whatsoever started cry like pathetic little weasel was ive cried least every day since did looked mirror still weeping must hour saw die saw person used die sure wasnt best company sarcastic sly quirky generally happy person enjoyed life mostly looked eyes watched peel away emptiness inside replaced hes dead occupy corpse empty void nothing person one wants around wishes gone find courage maybe world favour kill corpse way killed personality doubt that addition everything else im coward theres really point discussion there theres nothing it would fruitless waste even try think cure none exists hope way living disease kill one day lived two decades one term that know nothing show point disputing fact wont survive see third reach conclusion would look forward to know when finally push edge one day ill look mirror final time able take anymore cant liked wont loved could never mourned could ever believe differently bother charade cant cut pretence life done it rid world stain upon finally done it cowardice alone fucking stupid actually think might miss something die still nave wish could find resolve done it yeah happy th birthday me guess many have wonder,1 +viewi wanted get opinions this obviously dont feel comfortable talking people know ive depression probably influenced view redflag alot used think redflag terrible thing ooo im gonna go hell die blah blah blah im mature enough realize life meaning whatsoever like humans natural survival instinct manage realize real purpose life point keep living mean even end suffering depression real purpose life go it im sure guys get alot views,1 +thought redflagi posted week saying gonna kill myself major problems going life seem resolved now even though dont desperately need die still think redflag im worthless hate person constant voice head repeating insecurities mistakes im constantly stressed pain but every think redflag feelings go away dont care im smartest handsome messed life doesnt matter anymore dead im posting im wall feel like matter months go though it please help,1 +december ththe last day life decided im happy decision live right hope die even pain love world world love me may music give courage,1 +robert stack never really got losing best supporting actor oscar role kyle written wind anthony quinns minute performance lust life stack plays deeply disturbed alcoholic son oil tycoon lived life shadow friend raised mitch played rock hudson love woman lucy lauren bacall becomes kyles wife kyles sister marylee dorothy malone drunken slut whos love mitch story plays glorious color able direction douglas sirk really dominated melodrama field incredible films including imitation life all heaven allows magnificent obsession many othersbr br make mistake potboiler stack dorothy malone make roles malone winning best supporting actress oscar theres one amazing scene mentioned comments wildly dances loud music father collapses dies staircase were led believe marylee sleeps everyone including guy pumps gas love mitch mitch wants nothing her hes love lucy that loyalty kyle wants go work iran avoid temptation doubt hed anxious get today matter much love wasbr br hudson bacall less exciting roles hudsons mitch good guy whos cleaning kyles messes entire life bacall mitchs wife finds nightmare husband starts drinking year sobriety sirk focuses volatile supporting playersbr br in sirks hands written wind effective film big scene toward end mansion particularly exciting director gift type movie though many imitators never equal,0 +day random questions think humans already made contact extraterrestrial beings,0 +sure saynot sure right place post im really sure do suicidal lately feel way stop feeling way feel like hurt used need talk someone one talk to dont know say really wish someone talk cares im sure do im sorry rambling needed say something guess go sleep,1 +people know talk people speak russian happens mostly russians,0 +ok know gay socks im wearing thigh socks make gay even less gay,0 +going die one day mods dont take down going die could tommorow years nobody going live forever cant stop thinking im going crazy ,0 +need dudes talk friends never want chat want talk stuff send message,0 +im losing mindive isolated talked others couple times last couple weeks slept days still wide awake feeling paranoid stressed irritated road im on im going snap,1 +world would actually better without itim drain society know im here go motions sort of barely im able provide im enjoying it cant find reasons live,1 +know how success rate chance still there want see light see shitty lonely times struggle psychotic symptomssomeone want chat comments got plans tonight,1 +think deal lifei need talk life im year old college student ive always scared fucking everything literally everything look letting anyone down treat people education finding job planning move out say point ive also distanced friends family feel much better alone love place myself away everyones fucking bullshit want hear shit already much shit own late night everyones asleep really feel peace fuck sake point tired bottle inside supposed man up everyone says look confident im crumbling shit inside im scared future finishing college getting fucking professional career able live those procrastination always biting ass im afraid measure ideals end putting things last minute normal anyone deal this good way beating this want say want kill myself idea starting seem attractive way deal lifes disappointments sometimes burst crying feel like smashing head wall even depression want seek professional help stigma behind depression need anyones pity want peace,1 +wish born si dont belong era feel small hate social values today people artificial,1 +honestly dont know anymoreim feel like life already over want fall asleep forever gpa went average completely nonexistent constantly push everyone away struggle taking care myself im exhausted try tell parent gets upset says phone ive wanted kill years now cant get therapy parent doesnt believe frankly dont blame him point life much medication doctor ended hospital getting abusive household dont know function think trying kill myself end forcing emotions much im end people try stay away im fake dont want anymore dont want alive want kill badly ive tried get help past one actually cared,1 +want die reallyi compelling reason get tired feeling this know family friends love me imagining would im gone makes sad deserve love maybe want give deserve maybe years would stop wanting die maybe years enduring suicidal thoughts worth it compared lifetime pain loved ones would disappear,1 +cousin recently went search therapist find help depression admitted person spoke phone sometimes hits angry said need inpatient screening terrified forced go inpatient program lose job take care kids etc kids never witnessed thought would need unless immediate danger right last time happened weeks ago automatic inpatient,1 +circleremember time used suicidal well hello darkness old friend whenever try find grey area settle there situations drags away life swings extremes survive finding spot thats right us takes strength stay there consistent effort honest tried learnt need much strength keep track,1 +cant handle anxiety depression moremy anxiety bad nearly crippling actually felt good last night long thought making progress new meds lost little weight cut back drinking went bed last night said going good day off woke six anxiety back full force felt like going vomit im tired living like this wish single kids times could kill feel way anymore cant though im afraid would family,1 +crisisi want kill myself anyone talk to none friends like care respond texts ask hang out know unlikeable one likes me im ugly too also im crazy keep moments crisis like im right every negative thought comes head reality situation one likes me one becomes much bare want kill myself called ex boyfriend times last hour suicidal know else do called texted dad answer texted friends respond normal texts anyways im ugly year old crazy female career living basement friends direction like reason kill myself,1 +took really long time insecure anything ego need knocked peg two like love much think im better people physically personality wise feel like first step admitting yeah rant,0 +cant believe ask whats homophobia lately ive noticed people making homophobic posts saying dont shove sexuality face dont care sexuality shut shit like that kinda thought past this yeah hell going on,0 +ever told anyone everything exactly sure even for whether want know someone cares maybe want someone know remember meit dark couple days keep thinking tired alive pain think ever really want die definitely want keep living life thisi guess start saying privileged access free healthcare limitations mental health therapist click wonderful job care mother loves me still cannot find desire carry oni medic army still really ready deal reality it made mistakes cannot shake ifs haves could haves always remember made mistakes called things good enough speak casualty could have led picture mind always come back to telling air force jtac officer sorry nothing left could do worst all congruence many small things added together create situation situation crept aware everything heading late really guilt fear gets mei afraid myself actions mistakes especially potential causing unforeseeable unpreventable catastrophic harm trust right thing good thing try put place never anything scared harm allow harm come people around me withdrawn slowly tried fade everyone lives way cannot hurt hurt much finally go it also scares me idea one outside family maybe friends would really care killed terrifyingi cognizant enough know killing selfish thing something harm instead good people around me know unfair family friends therapist coworkers voice says fundamentally bad unlovable broken burden feel definitive told since organ donor would better something positive offset partially negative know fully buy yetit years felt like this run rest s maybe gotten worse least definitely gotten better fucking lonely time tried kill myself gone month redflag recovery program loving relationship destroyed idiocy baggage tried kill again got inpatient wing va hospital couple weeks ago checked fear would now weeks later edge again want die find still scared deed gets close harm pain would people want live anymore without prospect getting better so tired alive pain unable connect people see future things get better see future keep going indefinitely fucked know good compared many people unlimited medical benefits veterans administration good me believe work great job va medical center helping veterans idea something meaningful bring positive things peoples lives keeps going darkest ruminations come in see harm people pain burden shitty destructive way belief gone resentment comes anger frustration suicide would hurt loved ones holding back frustration idea trapped feeling forced live instead really wantif made far thank sorry even posting this creating something invariably spread pain people know share pain misery loves company also scared lonely afraid die without anyone ever knowing understanding guess want chest,1 +guys worldending thing prophet definitely dyslexic definitely meant ,0 +going get iti approaching ive started suicidal thoughts since last year ive decided want die feel though nothing live for refuse get problems anyone everyday feels same slightly worse one before living constant pressure frustration emptiness slowly killing inside feel though anticipating change never happen want end im sure go finally ending it ive thoroughly went options hanging realistic would like overdose finding medication difficult scared kill myself stopping me help,1 +idc care one selfie much love boys selfie get girls get ton first ive seen maybe one selfie girl hot barely orange houses second seen one hot sub full straight guys likely give orange house girls post third stop wording posts guilt people giving orange house wrong alr thats good day,0 +sorry fit sub feel like need tell people would understand happening always suspicious depressed anxious never felt symptoms physical sensations would read about first panic attack feel like always head worrying next one come cannot even get bed work lot time feel like shit feel like everything feels like limbo watching life go by feels like dreamor get hyper aware bodys functions happen naturally like manually processing everything going brain sometimes think accidentally hit switch brain scares shit me episodes make get existential feel hopeless resulti want die feeling nothing feeling real hyper awareness scares thinking going happen soon hope someone relate know alone first panic attack edibles feel like going die almost everyday,1 + times mg fatal overdosefatal overdoses reported generally doses mg currently mg disposal really really want take alcohol meds really tempting feel like ive tried everything happy,1 +merry christmas happy new year,0 +hey you shitass merry christmas motherfucker love,0 +read novel the kite runner based wife daughter did thought movie fell long way short book im prepared take word it but own movie good great good accurately portray havoc created soviet invasion afghanistan convincingly show intolerant taliban regime followed id rate c first b second human story afghanamerican returned country rescue son childhood playmate well done count particularly im told book far convincing movie exciting part film however kite contests kabul and later minicontest california cannot equaled book id wager money that,0 +blm protests kinda much bad like get racism bad all make government matter something debates courts alli mean bad thing black people get discriminated society cops cops fault cant help wary crimes committed nation black peopleblm protesters vandalizing streets attacking restaurants ruining innocent peoples business equal mean fucked,0 +im misogynist girls cooties ewww,0 +happen often occasionally one man make difference big differencebr br george criles best seller charlie wilsons war fascinating eyeopening account unlikely difference maker imaginable relatively obscure congressman second district texas good time charlie known libertine lifestyle libertarian legislation likable licentious even politician charlie wilson served constituency well since good folks lufkin really wanted two things guns left alone easy street replete bevy beltway beauties known appropriately enough charlies angelsbr br when asked entire office staff composed attractive young aides response classic you teach em type cant teach em grow tits argument therebr br but even rakish rapscallion conscience lurking somewhere underneath charlie wilson unimaginable atrocities committed afghanistan moved muster entire political savvy toward funding utter humiliating defeat russian military and possibly even help hasten end cold war result fat chance huhbr br under skillful direction mike nichols smart snappy screenplay adam sorkin charlie wilsons war sparkling sophisticated satire chronicles behindthe scene machinations three colorful characters comprising charlies teambr br the onscreen team composed three marvelous actors four academy awards nine nominations them charlie beautifully portrayed tom hanks solid slightly understated fashion among best work years hes aided abetted abedded joanne herring wealthy houston socialite played stillslinky julia roberts hey else bikini scene let world know this accounts ms roberts looks good holds own screenplay never gives us even hint kabul country important character maybe two afghan hounds usually side know audience never do third member team philip seymour hoffman steals every scene appears gust aurakotos smart street wise ie non ivy league graduate cia malcontent knows score agencys boardroom wilsons bedroombr br for mujahideen succeed important assistance us provide ability shoot dreaded mi helicopter gunships rule skies takes money lots money eventually charlies team covertly coerces congress fund effort tune billion dollars advanced weaponry arm afghan rebels includes topoftheline stateoftheart antiaircraft antitank rockets well highly sophisticated killing devices nasty nasty stuffbr br that kind multibillion dollar illicit activity take place behind congressional doors truly alarming every american see movie read book reveals truly frightening aspect businessasusual political scene rarely seen outside walls government oh momma wish sobr br even though initial outcome team charlie unqualified success unimaginable unanticipated final result sophisticated weapons used troops taliban others since funding entirely covert young generation part world idea fall soviet oppression end russian barbarity direct result american intervention yes russkies left aid zip schools zip infrastructure zip maintaining meaningful relationships afghan people result overall consequence unmitigated disaster like forerunner mission accomplishedbr br as nichols film pointedly points out the ball set motion keep bouncing even lost interest it mike krzyzewski knows this eva longoria parker knows this little lateesha lafayette knows this typical american politician doesnt go good guys bad guys let world know good guys talk catch another mike nichols filmbr br perhaps charlie wilson said best we fked end gamebr br again,0 +female need help depressionchronic fatigueim difficult place right now ive struggled depression life currently pretty high suicidal ideation im worried could kill end summer things improve main point post recommendations support get good life graduate degree job starting end summer supportive boyfriend good family great physical health negatives life really dont many friends less strong depression work weightlift cardio almost every day effort combat depression also eat relatively healthy diet im also three medications depression adhd trintellix mg vyvanse mg abilify mg work education last school year id go office take short naps exhausted continue working primary worry right exhaustion tend sleep hours day without really wanting get things im good do im worried depression make cant effectively complete work feel anxious want start feeling better end july time new job starts advice,1 +parents driving crazy college stuff wanna apply state go state reasons involving state wanna go best career want kind start over parents goddamn annoying like stay room time ready need us around support good idea go another state guess one biggest reasons wanna leave get fuck away you driving crazy anyone else facing shit thanks,0 +cuddling weird lol one gets violently grossed cuddling anything romantic like idek thought bf like someone caring disgusting me need male attention affection grosses out idk rant whatever,0 +im lost doall want hurt myself motivation anything motivation eat get up get dressed motivation live im existing awful everything going wrong life one go making feel shitty im sick trying fight dont know anymore,1 +always get high sad ughis america boring fuck ugh fuckin zombies ughhh wanna sleep witch might money help drugs dont help sex wont well know ugh humans useless evolving stupid devices im sick know ughhhhh fuck im losing one reply please,1 +minecraft hardcore made beehive angry die mostly im scared buzzing noise make both irl game ran like bitch second heard it close call,0 +meryl streep genius well least actress know made fun lot roles accents nails accent every time performance lindy chamberlain inspiring mrs chamberlain portrayed here particularly likable smart makes streeps work remarkable think worth oscar nominations film well couple interesting things know much australia theme religious bigotry among general public played big part story largely missed first saw film years ago came loud clear yesterday seems australian press accomplished miseryinducing pursuit overkill american colleagues pretty good film bit different grade b,0 +pretty much tbh want die go bed every night hoping wake,1 +cover marks trying hang myselfi tried hang myselfpassive hanging method chickened vision started going black petechiae neck super noticeable rn im afraid theyll develop color cover up,1 +even doi thought making throwaway this figured even matter people knew found out depressed close years comes goes kind hard think long years wanting kill myself years self hate feeling worthless years wondering im alive im happy anymore goals life nothing makes enjoy life anymore wake everything feels fake ive graduated high school gone post secondary ive experienced like work hobbies relationships none feels like matters hobbies past used make feel happy longer do think it like trying distract myself hate alone cant stand alone make hate more ive talked people before regular friends even people know psychiatrists end really make feel like nobody really cares seems like people reciting comforting lines before inflict self harm scared hated pain lately though ive noticed become easier easier still scared still it little time ive always done things others life laid front followed it know wanted younger know want now matter since ive gone school told become feel fulfilling though ive always done best school simply told to hate alone cant stand people end feels like everyone fake me of course care soon need talk someone dodge like plague want talk someone nobody ever really cares even know im typing this maybe feel like write want say end it feel empty sort like little spark life slowly gone away throughout years dying seems really good right now,1 +people quarantine still crushes like hypothetically lets say quarantines going maybe months seen crush seen heard internet ie online classes socials people like respect cause loyal af cant even remember classsmates faces now,0 +existing annoyingim native english speaker sorry mistakes know feeling waiting something u anything do like dentists appointment wait hours annoying sickening headache thats life me every day wait death hoping come soon planning kill year started birthday brave enough and stopped recently friend tried strangle death tired living even helped him cant thing anything else write thank support,1 +need advice girlfriend killed ive depressed years counting now need someone talk to,0 +feel awkward posting need somewhere go dont like talking people knowlet give little background story around half year ago lost lot family lot tears lost entire friend group year difficult thankfully two people still say hold dear im thankful that mental state doesnt want listen that nothing wrong loose friend group talked behind back extremely harshly yet able manipulate rest friend group thinking bad guy however word that get really emotional occasionally sometimes ball eyes sometimes im pissed point want beat something feel like somehow something wrong deserve feel way treated way hate feeling like this dont want wake half time l dread falling asleep know im going wake feeling way morning anyways around months ago made pact best friend never know apologies sort difficult say even type im sure get mean honestly im extremely surprised long ive kept pact really really dont want anymore dont want let down love shes extremely fault person know apologies knowing word things correctly im sure deal this dont want open it shell worry handful worry stress is dont want add that end able fight urge heck supposed tell her wouldnt able guilt would build inside me eats every day feeling way wanting things want myself things everything keep inside needs let much say weight mindset keeps getting worse worse makes feel ugly gives urges you know dont need top everything else dont want eat dont everyone gets suspicious eat much warn genes hate just ughhhhh wake up look mirror compare myself hate see eat compare myself difference feel knowledge keeps reminding progress doesnt happen night insecurities keeps reminding im ugly ive set therapy appointments cant tell therapist anywhere near actually feel without sent mental hospital point is want really bad things feel like pile crap comes consequences im sure face feel really terrible posting dont want give anyone ideas anything sort feel like bubble wont let pop hopefully makes sense dont want anyone else feel way opening entirely bad thing whenever someone opens makes feel good someone know come to dont like come people hypocritical practically everything post is im good knowing word things hope makes sense sorry rant may offtopic really sure first post here,1 +hate myself cannot take anymore everything supposed fine cannot head killing sounds right cannot see living tempted end know pint view life wrong killing solution work out anything change point judt know anymore sick,1 +toilet amazing place to pee poop hide problems existential crisis cry wank realise ugly are one place,0 +help care againthis throw away account always toughened dealt things own first time ever reached anyone please bear become incoherent train thought strays meant ago put self pride self stubbornness feelings utter futility efforts undertake help better improve lot life without even knowing it reddit community already helped me stumbled across site earlier summer already decided end life pretty much trying wrap certain bucket list items watch tv shows always wanted denied austerity reasons always promised one day would splurge get cable tv fast forward year things look like unsustainable effort live desire live it came conclusionrealization playing win game point longer wish energy play longer always fan mythbusters daily show colbert report hit internet spent time catching shows link steven colbert guided reddit say love site like information debate diversity intelligence opinions humor articles opinions even trolls sometimes funny entertaining made laugh made cry educated me challenged formally held beliefs showed things infuriated showed hard horrible cynical world still people care youll laugh cry better cats im going read again see reddit yeah probably guess age now tend use humor lot block pain if laughing cant afraid stephen colbert like think jokes funny usually get positive response even snicker am life went according plans would already dead people would picking stuff trying figure kept junk unemployed window behind one resume working month so look page think back work history sends deep depression last night working tailoring specific job saw advertised site feelings overcome me feelings mom died made sick go lie cry completely honest resume would state yes hire me find dedicated hard worker deeply interested company improving flow methods serve clients faster easier soon find pivotal go employee rely get job done matter department is delighted lack drama desire accomplish things delight ability go around employees fix problems everyone else forms circular firing squad think tool machine manipulate get extra little bit production without add compensation carelessly throw obstacles needlessly challenge obviously original job drama must fully utilized disrespect me denigrate me devalue me put tough stronger you want job need job dont quit suddenly become nice ask return refuse happened time two big deal happened again,1 +instead writing paragraph ill give four good reasons greatest cinema experience time visual odyssey could told big screen special effects kubrick oscar stunning effects age jurassic park t allow kubrick give accurate or least accurate depiction space travel date silence fills space scenes serves purpose accurate science also adds mood film to discussed later point hal fact kubrick shot moon scenes apollo landing gutsy yet fulfilling move many said upon original release favorite trip movie think movie amazing visuals time even time sorry phantom menace fans kubricks directing style terrific films kubrick likes use camera means delve psychology characters plots camera mobile greats scorsese instead sits watches narrative unfold faces key element kubrick film like classic movies touch evil kubrick focuses characters faces give audience psychological viewpoint even uses extreme closeups hals glowing red eye show coldness determination computerizd villain could go on summation kubrick hieght style hal one villainous characters film history wholeheartedly agree late gene siskles opinion hal film takes place space use silence darkness space itself mood isolation created dave crewmen isolated earth jupiter nowhere escape combine mood cold calculated actions hal fearful villain imaginable still although see film several times feel chest tighten particular scene controversial ending always turns people away film instead trying give opinion means idea s meaning general is id like discuss fact ending serves leave movie openended kubrick stated inteded make open discussion left meaning hands viewer respecting audiences intelligence kubrick allowed movie beginning end meaningful discussion mans past present future beauty ending need mean anything deep purely plot driven explanation entire movie viewed entertaining journey space movie save great citizen kane leaves open discussion like truly meant surreal journey involves eye mind instead waiting long lines phantom menace rent widescreen edition enjoy greatest cinematic experience,0 +saved bingus made dollar fortnite card,0 +parents think im confident edit thanks silver edit thanks gold edit thanks platinum edit wow know would blow up edit thanks number girl,0 +really considering redflagi thoguht life turning would get away bullying followed like years ago ive became bullied think time go ive feeling weeks now ive felt kind since week ive felt usually weeks cant stop thinking redflag im turning weeks ive accepted im gonna experience th birthday know im gonna die alone nobody ever love me even know im writing this maybe im drunk knows,1 +genuinely want gone world lack resources disturbing unethicalall self help books inspirational shame memeposts help lines etc still complete lack help wanting end life effectively understand why jesus even post simply asking writing note pulled mods couple days ago elderly physically ill one would question death remaining option im s relatively physically healthy im supposed suffer because theres nothing here im terrified messing attempt life even worse im researching methods definitely going timing element everythingand think struggling much make happen theres million therapists medications already proven work chance getting better alternatives option actually ashamed despite cutesy memes society delusional obligation make sure living better matter quality life is even want hear but people miss me bullshit miss grandmother time go miss people die immortality answer time fair alone fearful someone finding execute it sorry rant over get back scrolling,1 +gonna fine damn damn damn damn dan dam damnm,0 +want endrecently another friend mine tried get suspended again hurts fact mom told go slit throat gotten lot worse this continuation posthttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentskhjbhi_honestly_dont_know_anymore,1 +tried talking impending redflag nobody seemed interestedwell ive told wife terribly depressed am seem reaction told one good friends wanted kill myself turned conversation around him thing stopping point fear screwing up maiming myself im looking surefire way know im posting this attention thats that best luck rest you edit thank trying help,1 +director brian yuzna uneven career horror genre creating masterpieces return living dead bride reanimator time done awful movies faust love damned mediocre progeny obviously better seat producer work producing stuart gordons films superbbr br the dentist one lesser works director low profile benefits film lack pretensions makes enjoyable experience tells story dr alan feinstone played superbly corbin bernsen successful dentist one day discovers perfect life really perfect thought discovers beautiful wife linda hoffmanhas affair pool boy event disturbs mind puts killing spree takes revenge world filthybr br the premise well handled yuzna takes us ride following feinstones day revenge makes movie different slashers victims perspective follow feinstone main character witness goes respected professional psycho murder day yuzna manages give movie exact amount suspense adds good dose dark humor really helps moviebr br most success premise bernsens performance feinstone make feel sympathy hate towards time subtle humor character another aspect aids film rest cast good think sub par acting hurts film should notable exception ken foree detective trying catch feinstone part quite small makes great job itbr br with dentist killer gory scenes expected brian yuzna delivers great sfx correct amount good see go overthetop usually do dare say highlight film exact amount gore expected nothing less nothing more yuzna restrained common excesses result greatbr br while among yuznas wellknown films would say one best sure classic material masterpieces movie entertains never gets tiresome boring lowbudget simple film is think rocked ,0 +please give npc ideas dnd campaign got harambe keanu dildo man,0 +one best western movies ever made unfortunately never got recognition deserved storyline action music mind one best give double a randolph scott gave terrific performance along members cast ending one best western made,0 +lifeto corrupted selfishness greed encouraged others taking moment sometimes think end it ill happy wont stuck harmful world end all creatures put randomly work part unjust system feel nothing all feel like drugs way truly feel take reality lay bed seeing nothing empty image everything bullshit help others dont take advice need help parent wont consider it im good kid school get good grades feel im worth something end feels like wasted time effort now try work dont anymore energy time getting closer closer feel it cant sleep all fuck schooling cant focus cry theres emotions attached suspect bpd point need help,1 +certainly one finest movies seen quite time exquisite direction flawless acting make entertaining often moving film denzel washington plays one engaging emotional roles date rest cast perform beautifully christopher walken course superb part although appear often would liked story ultimate greed backfires offset childs innocence love also film action movie lovers fair share bullets rockets revenge location mexico city adds feel seediness corruption eye opener all truly gripping film beginning end highly recommended,0 +let reviews critics imdb users mine influence seeing movie read plot premise became intrigued watching movie opinion definitely worth seeing gives perspective life many probably contemplated however leland says movie can wrapped neat package bow everything user reviews website claim psychological background imply story feasible quite obviously missed entire point movie disappointing say leastbr br in short well acted well directed movie story feel good one feel come away movie feeling good may missed something characterize art house unfair opinion society likes labels probably one fits find know everything know world id suggest skipping one feel movies form escape from world find here watch it might find something yourself,0 +played first piano concert last night hear name called instructed walk onto stage im sing quivering walk out trip wires embarrassing get piano bow people clap sit down first note play wrong correct myself now im shaking hard black out luckily camera head honestly remember nothing rest piece but according video apart form start nailed thanks,0 +tonightits over im done im going go outside buy something overdose on shoot die finally want peace world sent enough signs need die shouldnt im sorry baby ill love forever youll find someone else finally finally finally finallyim sorry waited long ill leave dark like dad always knew would end way,1 +see like right now put cosplay contact lenses kind weird ngl barely make letters actually wanted know contact lenses felt like dont really hurt loss sight kinda bugs ngl ampxb im actually looking people chat with hit want to,0 +girlfriend diagnosed stage lymphatic cancer hey guys write this please know thats serious im karma whoring anyways really place vent please bare second girlfriend months diagnosed stage lymphatic cancer weve known weeks now told live really hard lately cope fact soon able hold close like always did were getting acceptance stage really last weeks lockdown jordan a country middle east weve facetiming lot lately obviously cant see other weve talking lot got mentality lets enjoy time can makes sense all knows behavior changed since told it even told noticed me knows favorite artist weeknd today makes cover twenty eight uploads youtube channel surprise cheer up total subscribers first video months would love guys showed type support covers signed the voice got accepted unfortunately cant go perform pandemic cancer always dreamt talked making someday surprised today making cover song would mean world guys shown amount support katies channelhttpswwwyoutubecomchanneluckzpcvvdozibmmvqepvyw,0 +omg guys serious dropped buttered crackers ,0 +started dating best friend lesbian also lesbian friends since rd grade told liked me liked since came me hgnjdksojrhshjdshdh,0 +need someone care,1 +movie utterly hilarious cast clicks immediately frame one takes us wonderful ride spoofing gangster films conflict brother vs brother appears johnnys brother becomes dogooder da however best character johnnys crimelord rival overly accented moroni johnny says that man arrested butchering english languagebr br check video worth look,0 +got fired new job time give upi got fired yesterday bad attendance sick days used months even make months im cant hold job feel like ive tried enough times fail much anxiety won cant this cant live world like this tried many times failed many times old position see light end tunnel im seriously considering using last paycheck ticket life whatever ends being massive failure giant humiliation bad person know im posting this maybe im hoping someone kind words make believe might okay even though us know better,1 +want friends family sadearlier today decided wanted take life planned take full bottle xanax lying around old norcos drink handle whiskey slowly see could keep eyes open wrote letter telling certain people loved fault im sorry ive become unhappy person ive become selfish lack sense selfcontrol huge burden ones ive loved want keep them want worry put aside time comfort give someone talk to know ive disappointed hurt times cant bare person anymore hard knowing family close friends might blame want okay this want badly let know fault best want remember friend brother son always happygolucky used humor coping mechanism tried best good person right thing wanted make people happy help around me want remember part me want sad dwell could done something wrong fault im sorry reddit know post lost thousands posts people deserving help figured someone might read one day hope would understand mean sorry again,1 +think great classic monster film family mole machine tall creature beak flying green lizards ranthorincusmayas whatever ape men things speak telepathically them battle men rubber suits fighting doll breakfast umm yummy class else say would make remake one,0 +goodbyeim going go buy smokes now go come talk mom walk back out buy rope hang tree park im going bother listing reasons im not believe me wanted live god universe intend to also dont bother commenting messaging me im going read anyways doubt anyone would even comment considering calls help ignored do dont goodbye,1 +kudos cesar montano reviving cebuano movie panaghoy sa suba good drama action romance scene make laughbr br while story original a love triangle make fourcorneredlove japanese occupation rebellion american lord presentation something cool especially uses original language bisaya filipino nipongo japanese english americanbr br this movie go one years best pinoy moviesbr br go watch this,0 +realize bad problem nowi stared pile pills like fifteen minutes okay legitimately think im going soon could probably use advice,1 +say something interesting ill rate interesting im bored try best,0 +abject failure barreling catastrophe bull china shop familyi hemorrhage money incapable functioning cant responsible father cant even motivate wake up going financially ruin family student loans shame guilt unbearable,1 +cut lifei would like start providing little information myself yo male january broke boyfriend years ive different relationship months everything going well him talking moving together too graduated bachelors degree major psychology minors child development family studies which went different university attend master social work program fall two months dropped right lot anxiety coursework actual duties social worker namely counseling side things original goal attending program following semester took semester online courses accounting community college went well decided go back university started msw pursue bachelors accounting seemed like good plan living brother apartment time because thought living random roommate terrifies me however started classes summer felt overwhelmed anxious unsure whether wanted accounting dropped end first week work got job pharmacy technician quit weeks due feeling overwhelmed anxious ended getting another job tech different pharmacy able work months decided go grad school quit job moved getting accepted computer science program i gpa course started getting overwhelmed anxious ended switching administration program dropping entirely before even starting taking courses local community college accounting again seem going alright finished week classes also took objectively amazing job secretary state office student assistant getting paid ever have guess went quit day guess really want kill myself secretly hope get hit meteor mac truck simply wake tomorrow suppose always felt like this bearable without pressures society struggle fit anywhere cant handle pressure perform also get bored cant stand work job find boring hours week know do ive got another job prospect coming bank interview went really well optimistic could handle know title says feel like im cut life aside gay maybe id better born years ago anyone advice thoughts situation,1 +yall play fallout new vegas cool game understand youre takes bit still cant figure always go youtube find out get side three factions different ways siding instance sided legion still helped mr house benefits me go guns blazing play like spy pretty fun guys play it,0 +redflag bring anyone odd sense peaceknowing couple months brings happiness thing calms breakdown fact im going kill myself dont know why brings really odd sense assurance soon im happy,1 +funny would former power ranger using theyre stunt man training rob ppl h,0 +dumbi forget everything accidentally hurt people lose stuff cant anything righteverything create mediocre best sounds probably like im exageratingbut come point question im worth oxygen breathe im wasting stupidity wish would smarter wish could someone else want continue making people embarrassed embarrassed parent something like that making tired tired life please ways become better smarter person not know survive this,1 +fair girlfriend gone goddamn time ,0 +im pharmacy technician would easyi access tons drugs work inpatient hospital pharmacy would easy steal iv tubing take large bottle propofol let drain me could fall asleep forever think every single day work wonder quit maybe im putting danger close hazardous medications mind isnt really right thoughts less trust myself hold narcotics every day easy would pop opioids call day guess im scared reason fail id fired job dont really want wake hospital work in embarrassing,1 +know anymorei want live anymore friends assholes basically told like never really have mom recently sat talk told need nicer her started crying halfway through come ruse sometimes think anything serious feel like shit cut first time today would kill im much pussy go it please someone help get this,1 +oh fuck oh shit forgot 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know im never going best anything smart talented want keep going know could go college good career everything but whats point though gonna like mediocre everything trying fit world thats skeptical hateful towards trans nonbinary person caught put dangerous situation yesterday felt like ready go it know im posting theres nothing say ill probably give anything though hurts anything soon im sorry worry know else do better worrying friends family sounds bad im good person guess thats fitting haha thanks reading this appreciate,1 +dang bro really want snack rn wall keeps looking like want something like want bruh already gave tattoo years ago,0 +parents overreacting so context im yo male today got results months in school get results every months so fairly good marks one dutch forgot tell parents fact test dutch timespan m hour long listening test get good marks that total percentage dutch bad thing tho simply forgot tell them parents furious cuz tell them claim lie partially agree getting mental something forgot cant game w im pretty pissed it reaction,0 +longer holly jolly,0 +everything see fucking kills matter even want fun know one loves probably family feel like maybe kill myself everything tortures whatever see,1 +watched series first came si years old watched best friends house dad want watch itit became weekly ritual every sunday anyone tell two fourteen year olds watch documentary almost reverential silence must mean something specialbr br the broad sweep events world war makes difficult subject documentso makers broke considered significant key happenings devoted one episode eachsome episodes covered long periods wolf pack covered nearly six years battle atlanticwhile battle stalingrad one episode itselfbr br this documentary could made today quite simply interviewed deadthe list significant players appearing gives amazing insight thinking timeanthony eden foreign secretarycarl donnitzhead uboatsalbert speerpet architect confident later armament minister hitlerin one later episodes see traudl junge hitlers secretarywho bunker dictated last testamentshe left bunker hitlers suicide escaped russian linesthese many others play major role realism events portrayedbr br if criticism series codebreakers bletchly park included revelations part war emerged series made cannot blame programme makersbr br the opening titles music magnificentand lawrence oliviers narration lends natural gravity scriptbr br the best documentary series ever made without doubtunmissable,0 +constant thought killing everydayim sorry guys feel like life completely fucked up guys see post history think ill able live normal life again completely failed family im weirdo one day ill eventually it love family want hurt,1 +lol people carewhy fuck people care kill self next year take life why alternative insane legitimately finally manic break awesome cant wait thats stupid end go crazy bipolar disorder cunt dirty cunt wish best it fun actually painful thing ive ever experienced sometimes wish never born know dont want childrenif make knock devil fuck,1 +else shares birthday today today september birthday else shares birthday day turn today going great,0 +wish could enjoy free time never do cannot wait get home work bored,1 +constantly think running away starting overbut means so moment im unemployed car im petite woman odds running trouble likely raised overbearing christian family father alcoholic mother abusive narcissist never close brothers one clearly annoyed years older ran away years naturally became introvert ive struggling depression anxiety long even remember like feel happy ok turns thyroid issue medication make feel better anyways point depression got bad started ignoring friends months felt ok enough talk them made everyone mad barely friends im lose more past month half ive drinking every night everything possible avoid everyone know messages piled eventually people gave up feel last time ill let happen im going respond again person left boyfriend things rocky lately im ready disappear motivation work anything im living parents hashimotos makes tired nobody understands that want escape thats option right now know ever be feel like im reaching end rope hospital months last year bloodbone infection honestly wish killed me sorry rambling everythings hopeless btw,1 +id hard pressed say makes film important me good movie definitely outstanding fassbinders film still along american soldier keeps making personal list favorites whenever get thinking it,0 +want dieim tired want rest forever,1 +goodbyemy boyfriend checked hospital friday night last thing told gets out hes killing himself begged take told hung up havent spoken since called hospital today told discharged phone off cant get ahold brother im mess world worth living without him ive never loved someone like before cant take it didnt even say goodbye,1 +hi friends honor challenged athletes foundation dad undertaking great bike ride charity would love support completing tour du rouge american red cross years ago teaming challenged athletes foundation caf million dollar challenge loving father would love support endeavor mile ride days california caf raises money help people physical challenges pursue active lifestyle physical fitness athletics one biggest events,1 +guys guys help according sister parents redacted upstairs,0 +life really great loser faggot one solid friend pissed now still going trip weekend ngl struggled suicidal thoughts years alone gay hate many aspects life myself dog would parents watched would need worry know point going kill instead hope live short life optimism life need way get friend passes minimal contact finally peace life conclude easiest way give festival tickets friend suicide,1 +even forced livei want dont means im tired put effort it cant get house soi never it im scared pain dumb live dumb die,1 +reasons date arent move next post go fuck off someone tells fine make hentai,0 +boyfriend makes feel loved im still used itbut nice,0 +birthdayi feel like im worthless spend christmas day alone friends forgot birthday family toxic cant keep nice people treat like this destroying me ive tried alone changing treat people dont want options available havent felt low months ive started making plans working ill give dog life isnt around im crying constantly cant see light happiness im done trying im low feel like im enough anyone matter cant handle people letting down,1 +im disappointed myselfapril really dark time gonna hang th know how miracle urge die like never before optimistic thought maybe theres chance feeling worse make short possible im terrible person hurt everyone way whole years earth meet vert interesting people life lost everyone also hate fact im achiever way food chain depression always gets way lightbulb blinking go way ideas im trying become nocturnal night day im starting talk less im hungry cant eat im tired talking god today days passed elementary school today kids graduated i grad back help think heard cheering way home quiet room bottle whiskey thought id suicidal lonely years later day mom happy me literally feel like break bottle violently carve veins already told gonna kill dec nothing lose im hurting till becauss feel ike im entering next level depression feel soulless feel like life anymore like talk much mind today keep myself much deserved every bit it,1 +ever see tiktok start bawling context lost father four years ago ive never really relationship him tonight saw video man taking camera store talking like child im crying right wish treated like that im crying hard wish relationship dad was feel like im break wish could held rn,0 +last night dealt crazy shit getting downvoted here wtfop httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsyqbrthe_redflag_hotline_just_hung_up_on_me last night quickly asked leave er even though trying selfcommit found catholic hospital mentioned certain priest asked another group legal advice searched history getting grief here wtf redflag prevention not,1 +send homework ill try email discord profile,0 +reason complain yet feel like shit time long remember never felt quite right feel empty never really see point living hate alive deal world tried killing before life fun every day seems worse last years remember time truly happy thing keeps going something another suicidal friend told me might well stick around see anything cool happens im always waiting looking nothing ever though tried crazy things make life meaningful traveling multiple sex partners great relationships readingeducation social butterfly internshipsjobs etc nothing works though usually get bored tiredi would rather spend whole day laying eating anything,1 +broken ever beforethe boy love lying beside me sleeping soundly break down melt down every memory tormented last two years life flashing eyes like sort twisted film depressed since twelve reached climax im sitting floor listening boyfriend sleep knife lap wondering could bring end pain hate it im even wondering whether ought put pain hell never hurt person way hurt me love ive pushed far beyond handle cant live like this cant person one day im much pain months one sees im suffering one understands weight lies try haul bed morning one thinks im trying am tell im lucky makes worse keep reminding life could chose happy choosing happy walking around eyes shut ignoring every instinct know anymore im end take,1 +friend f want friends people talk to idrk make reddit drop ur socials dm whatever u ,0 +im bored heck anywan want chat chat mean anywan want uncomfortable back forth dms seriously rly nothing would appreciate fellow teen brosis warning get back problems carrying conversation,0 +choose life mom filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fillers filler filler choose life filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +yall ever spend way much time making something dumb cuz did dunno feel tbh,0 +also possible since young mind distorted hid memories make less painful know brought back im therapy actively seeking type breakthrough sexually assaulted close friends boyfriend memories come back then feel right now mirroring felt honestly might worse,1 +deserve it life like this,1 +tonight faced decision could either cut something life know would make happier could continue remain am lead realize scared happy again first majorly depressed last december got became would say happy again obviously suddenly perfect recovering well around end may got super depressed even worse before even started self harming weeks somewhat normalized recovering scared recovering scared try recover happen time might permanently scar worse advice topic scared happy,1 +consideringtoo lonely always depressed years pain dont even want live past need end,1 +yes barney nonsense kid made perfect sensebr br i gotten smarter enjoyed it child mocked one could say name changed it ever since ive gone name tina barney could relate different culture im barney huge part life my name came it cant dis show grew matter stupid seems nowbr br i care get blocked nothing say make minimum lines people much say ok done,0 +game one main reasons actually got ps remember playing soul edge sometimes called soul blade back day hooked itbr br i play original soul calibur never got chance play huge amount time however buy gamecube version soul calibur ii truly got hooked series ecstatic heard soul calibur iii game still gives us classic characters mitsurugi cervantes nightmare taki however also adds several new characters zasalamel tira unplayable night terror the true boss tales souls strategy based chronicles thes sword mode new feature really like quite challenging later chronicles good addition seriesbr br the soul arena mode several missions must fight certain enemy certain circumstances the exception final battle simply must defeat night terror another fine touch makes game funbr br in scenes tales made press certain buttons order get different result order dodgeblock attack get better ending every character two endings all excellent game id recommend fan fighting games,0 +thought getting betterbut course everything get fucked im still depressed yay think hospital makes feel bad honestly want around sick people making worse like anyone actually helps you tell suicidal thoughts let go walks wow helpful ive two months im fucking tired this im gonna get better here want go home normal life cat guinea pig eat normal food go school etc idk dont feel like right complain hospital bad mean got better really bad last months sometimes thought dont exist im neutral sadbut still get days feel like shit feel lonely dont know kinda person could become friend seems impossible many people tried talk cant keep conversation going literally anyone normal people talk about even normal dont even diagnosis yet two months idont know taking long sometimes want live think im gonna big things world needs me like plan me wish could feel like right now words dont feel natural im amazing person change world im bad way save world destroy it never perfect people always greedy evil like got genes dont feel like human anymore dont identify them dont want to thanks reading hope good day dont expect anything needed talk sorry bad english,1 +wtf wrong society im pissed im angry abuser well known coach lost job court cases,1 +movie brilliant srks acting amazing end incredibly sad cry every time see film kind never get sick of see again absolutely amazingly brilliant movie,0 +waiting grade back required course major fail ill kicked major probably give lifeif fail im gonna drop think like poker think ill buy highest stake game find see do go bender kill myself done here wish could put clearer words existence enrages me im christian im mad god parents part bringing relationship three basically nonexistent funnily enough fact makes crazy scared going hell im actually sure believe in im questioning faith god good part thinks hell peoplechristians traditionally think of think might complete ending consciousness basically atheist would view death honestly thought comforting fucked hate much im sure would even want go heaven idea forever fucking scares me hate fucking much,1 +weird existential fears sometimes cant sleep keep worrying death feels good bad still grandparents good got know them bad theyll gone next couple decades,0 +februrary first mental health struggle june everything fine december suicidal made till leasthey stuck like insane reality atm way seems redflag redflag never ever mind before even experienced severe anxiety panic attacks earlier year basically recovered depersonalization yearbut symptoms slowly vanished still battled irrational thoughts day day suddenly mind switched to ur life over overwhelmed suddenly paranoid time feeling like shouldnt anymore feelingit feels like shouldnt alive anymore like shouldnt lived past august dead august feels like wrong alive go hairdresser example mind goes like this dead inside died dont need this trapped hell shouldve killed told you look mirror why u still alive insane fate fuck like this havent done anything wrong deserve this u derealization u alienated surroundings mind still conditioned it first thoughts like really hometown knew it much worse know dead didnt die dp hit me answer this freaks out maybe destined redflag so time thing anxious date like mind cant cope time passing fast really cant explain it august switch mind first august laying bed suddenly thought redflag could destiny popped made unable sleep much painful anxiety knew back dpand scares me think thoughts arent anxiety related depression feel like never recover this feels like trapped thinking theres soon calendar triggers like hopelessness painful suicidal feeling feel alone dont really want end redflag srsly mind sees way out,1 +asthmatic person agree this winter worst season makes feel asthmawise,0 +im burden everyonei plan killing myself ill august i want see friends school last time feel like family get mad it glorified helper all theyll probably feel inconvenienced death saying shit like ah another problem like whos gonna chores assigned now well thats problem now lol friends busy tonight job open time course wanted rant want shithead ruin fun time im already burden am want make worse them,1 +ratatouille gt frozen change mind filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +i made this taylor swift blank space pop cover ultron httpsyoutubezmnkrqbxpaahttpsyoutubezmnkrqbxpaa,0 +welp goodbye earth last night aliveidk im posting this im depressed suicidal finally mustered courage it fun ill wait bit see responses p,1 +im losing iti love girl much get led left comes back happens driving insane cant stop letting love much im ive gone much girl cant her lifes fuxked schooling gone shit try make music never good enough nobody cares enough help friends stab back constantly use friends since day one quit job girl spend time cant get part time job sell weed got money doesnt feel right drink drink trying numb doesnt work smoke weed gives horrible anxiety cant feel im turning emotionless dont know im going life cant end family cant im struggling hard fuck everything up feel like options everything fails nothing left cant talk people problems feel bad dont wsnt that one understand girl think multiple personalities admits fucks bad help,1 +know im havin good night im listening jams angry chair specific go sleep after probably close eyes hour half fall asleep wake up wanna productive exact thing tomorrow night,0 +tips dealing lonelinessgetting rough dealing day in day out years alone seeing everybody else someone seeing alone dunno rough want hurt parents especially dad anything ever ever get better despite efforts sitting group dinner coworkers right now seeing sos feel terrible want feel alone anymore ill probably delete later like ive deleted posts here wonder find solace reassurance here,1 +lately going almost daily battling depression sure fix it would say major depression not medically diagnosed months now slowly growing course months could still function moved east west coast us thought would fine moved however past months living alone extremely tough mei days semblance normalcy cookprepare meals clean etc do stuff need to days lately sulking life situation barely enough energy even get bed stand up odd days still keep going overall incredible feelings dread hopelessness aimlessnessdread idea head want live life nothing way want it college wanted move abroad live rural foresty area but currently still live us live urban desert arizona strongly feel like do belong here accepted job anyways since need experience college hate cities hate heat hate driving things deal withhopelessness many things want improve on cannot get them creating endless cycle berating myself distract youtube video games talking friends makes temporarily happy stop realize am break downaimlessness know myself even though working company nice helpful coworkersmanagers care work planning stay years get experience however months longer days feel thought would make friends work putting effort making them put lonely situationi tried looking therapy got insurance company waiting lists since completely booked still apply anyways hopeful help coming soon depression worsening feel lost fix,1 +sometimes forget swag put makeup swag rn u ever feel put makeup pick cute outfit youll feel like baddie,0 +got kissed first time omg unbelievable still cant believe ampxb mother kissed me oh fucking god,0 +livehey im year old girl th grade cant find reason wake tomorrow morning one friend anxiety terrible school never anything mom told if want know happens area send ass there crying since then want dose know anymore im tired it,1 +im done first university semester got questions didnt even fail class way go me yeah ya questions,0 +film contains action opening credits entire hollywood films sort film produced tsui hark stars jet li team brought many worthy hong kong cinema productions including upon time china series action fast furious amazing wire work saw wires two shots aside action story strong used filler find action films rival must look hong kong cinema outlet area really worth checking usually never disappoint,0 +hair messy hate hair keeps flying place sometimes get eyes make eyes itchy,0 +talking people school hard especially new school state conclusion im shy talk people,0 +cant stop cryingwhenever im alone cry know im risk redflag ive planned would ive prepared it feel like im going to almost precautionary moments im ready set things motion know assessed hospital would placed psychiatric hold insane,1 +dc cinematic universe phase dark knight origin batman alone batman riddler two face carmine villains man steel origin superman zod main villain wonder woman movie flash origin flash reverse flash main villain green lantern cameo birds prey harley quinn huntress black canary cat woman introduction black mask villain aquaman throne atlantis movie justice league league battle steppenwolf darkseid cameo phase green lantern corps origin green lanterns sinestro villain batman penguin main villain deadshot batman catwoman ras al ghul cameo works jim gordon superman doomsday doomsday villain bat vs superman aqua man ww supergirl introduction superman batman fought doomsday shazam origin shazam dr sivana main villain ww movie redflag squad joker backstory redflag squad join battle enchantress batman cameo batman detective action tactical batman movie scarecrow mr freeze man bat ventriloquist villains main villainbased movie flash savitar main villain cicada secondary villain green arrow cameo robin boy wonder batman recruits robin riddler main villain aquaman black manta villain movie justice league doom league battle legion doom phase titans dick creates titans group trigon main villain green arrow emerald archer origin green arrow merlyn villain onomatopoeia china white secondary villains batman joker main villain jason todd dick becomes nightwing batwoman batwing introduction man tomorrow braniac villain metallo secondary villain superboy introduction new gods darkseid origin shazam return black adam black adam main villain clark billy fight black adam batman red hood death jason todd red hood returns flashpoint paradox barry mess timeline animated movie son batman damian wayne deathstroke court owls tim drake robin superman batman world finest duo join take lex joker brainiac justice league dark constantine zatanna dr destiny main villain batman killing joke joker crippled barbara riddler penguin joker made team green arrow returns richard dragon main villain prometheus clock king secondary villains green arrow batman oliver joins batman take riddler titans deathstroke main villain new titans recruiting death superman doomsday return death superman batman knight fall batman fights bane bane broke batsy back dick batman while oracle justice league war return darkseid resurrection superman league fights darkseid crisis arc legends tomorrow white canary firestorm vixen zaari introduction new team called legends vandal savage main villain batman badblood animated movie return hush crisis infinite earths anti monitor main villain many heroes join battle anti monitor sacrifice supergirl flash redflag squad assault arkham animated movie green arrow komodo main villain count vertigo cupid secondary villains wedding oliver laurel fastest man alive wally flash while cobalt blue abra kadabra villains team looking get barry back speed force final night oliver clark join fight save metropolis russian gangsters oliver fights brick death green arrow saving people metropolis infinite crisis specture lex brother return league join battle them titans join them death lex joker death green lanterns except hal final crisis final countdown comics return barry allen darkseid return league unite one last time kill darkseid death batman antimonitor kills darkseid battle cowl bruce death dick tim battle batman cowl tim left gotham forever past villains return gotham became crueller dick became batman for wonder woman curce main villain angel mn secondary villain diana donna work together flash thinker main villain return cobalt blue flash vs gorilla grodd return bruce wayne return bruce dead damin th robin hush main villain nightwing redhood joins batman robin batman death family death damian heretic selina bruce wedding return bane damian death bruce dick left gotham forever batwoman back work protect gotham cyborg origin movie gizmo main villain works titans superman blood flood parasite main villain death lois lane joker return dark knight returns last one dceu movie takes place years batman retirement villains batman caged arkham asylum beside joker old version joker back criminals gotham jim alfred dead justice league disbanded dick went live normal life return old bruce suited batman again death joker infront batman,0 +anyone taking intro humanities human aampp lab super helpful quizlets humanities quizlethttpsquizletcomjoinhbgqunihiampxrqt helpful ways remember definitions aampp lab quizlethttpsquizletcomjoinpgqpprjpkihiampxrqt definitions images diagrams,0 +hang method self harm rather pleasureive struggled feelings depression anxiety since child even would withhold eating sick would dry heave despite parents always providing meals trying force eat years old would intentionally start fights order beat kids up quickly put stop parents one else take anger graduated cutting breaking things couldnt handle frustration thoughts self hate would cause destroy items loved whenever didnt work wanted moment im incredibly sensitive keep feelings inside friends acquaintances idea violent side me mid s ive learned destroy things instead take frustration hanging everything goes white disconnected action didnt even realize reason neck would burn bathed bruises irritation ropes viewed hangings attempting redflag chickening recently realized form self harm get sexual gratification it past years ive done approximately times know better ways relieve stress none provide instant numbness job well done feeling bad habits do,1 +shoutout shoutout amazing teacher let us play among us class period instead schoolwork even scheduled zoom meeting us tomorrow,0 +plain ole depressioni point thinking everything everyone bullshit get reddit share opinion get told eat dick bitch annoying patrons work get dogged coworkers complaining shoving people aint bad man come stop way throat fuck me express transparent observation world around me get told brothers im negative fuckhead im miserable relationship someone coddles me im like literally fuckkng pure selfishness deeply sensitive failure boyfriend important relationship shes months pregnant still wish early abortion easiest life ever hate it body dysmorphia dwell body hours day even tho im lbs weight would take months gym correct physical issues im stuck fuckin floor dis satisfied everything like look around see system see games play im aware lights clockwork theres nothing special shit like emotionally im dead please dont mistake tone crying words out bland dull im shrugging around flip guess anyways hey,1 +im year old girl please tell itll okayedit thank response helps much even though know reply everything irrational fear feeling annoying maybe anyhow thank offering ear encouraging words really want read this please read bottom paragraph kind summary teenagers need place vent reassured problems struggles temporary id usually talk best friend one anymore im english speaking country sorry grammar mistakes deep know things stay bad forever im end really need hear everythings going turn fine sometime get perspective things maybe know ive never actually diagnosed kinda figured myself ive talked councelors school nurses teachers psychologist nobodys doubted first said thought might depression anxiety point know sit think wonder went suspicion fact way calming know whats wrong really know go here know im paranoid actually downwards spiral mentally speaking know exactly im depressed anxiety first noticeable felt little empty sad time home mom boyfriend hated sister lived so feel like lost much time happy friends this wanted move moved several times him promised mom gotten work another town believed him never hated someone much hated man made insecure took everything known friends hobbies life sounds dramatic head everything blown much cant stop analyzing things live without him mom sister two brothers im oldest mom lot friends tells problems struggles lot mentally living past boyfriend way treated her us siblings fine seems im lonely never much trouble getting friends here nobodys real seems ive lived two half years started high school i think thats american equivalent yet nothings changed getting worse worse best friend recently fight really want back person becomes sometimes sit alone time people school call whore laugh me laugh things ive done said nobody wants me understand why honestly read this problems start mind end affecting everything everyone around me even though know people seem like friends nobody wants know sick me one cries nothing feels heavy time need someone feel like reading seems like typical teenager problems ive really reached point want anymore see point im intelligent reflected girl ive never like before hope anymore deserve this make mistakes teenager makes want mental illness loneliness known people schools year old rumors still laughed about hate it hate everythings become really want anymore option move change schools next year moms pregnant new boyfriend this sounds really stupid theres lot it moms irresponsible selfish may seem im scared nothing change im scared make through ill sick hopeless feel anyone anything mean think way people realize feel like anyone wants me know does try positive really hard think appear happy friendly apparently people describe angry mad scary know understand really ____ im sorry mess post ive never low before think nothing really makes sense long story short anxiety depression feel lonely real friends hobbies feel home worry think feel sad lot move towns schools know it mentally see end anything know want anything anymore lot thoughts seem really dramatic mind everything is know anything feel blank think stupid really trust thoughts either know thank reading though,1 +day posting something everyday get girlfriend im bored ask question want answer,0 +feminazis getting dumber louder,0 +gf asleep someone entertain bc im lonely dm im bored lonely,0 +female moment women why sexualized also women legalize women going topless oppressed patriarchy ampxb ampxb thanks coming ted talk,0 +hope get cancerdont courage end myself,1 +tomorrow birthday money going redflag fundi really believe anyone anymore believe myself im gonna really think ill see ,1 +amazing year much say incredible comunity sadly idk reddit taught me life sucks anyway give arrows,0 +safest waywhat guaranteed painless way commit without gun living outside us,1 +im going bathroom back soon though,0 +looking anything pointhi all know guys dont feel like reading book ill try keep short sweet ive awful anxiety depression since teen ive tried hard last decade dig hole ive learned socialize made lots friends working graduating college year despite best endeavors none ever brought fulfillment life despite great friends who know love me still always feel like outcast years ago one brief glimmer hope fell love spent truly happy year life selfdestructive behavior pushed away fast forward now havent seen her yet alone spoke months although try wake every day move life feel grip loosening questioning even want live anymore nothing makes happy pain ive felt since child amplified x shown glimmer hope live fact ruined it anyone advice im open hear it doubt help much though always cycle misery end leaving world least ill die knowing really try get better im running strength,1 +cant wait till move want cuss thin air reason whatsoever im bad day feel like ever raise voice even little bit parents hear unnerving,0 +getting tired cycle failureim so exhausted trying make things better first off immediate risk help grudgingly given though may be multiple attempts reinventing always end way realizing cant fit matter contort myself familial responsibility keeps tethered painful life know get better also know get worse that know many times this,1 +think problem feel need say goodbyeto people care aboutthat care me want stop attempting redflag end sectioned taken hospital will time maybe time wont say goodbye,1 +ive lost hope futureive lost hope future life seems like miserable day experience whats point trying hard succeed everyone ends dead anyway,1 +today cheesecake tomorrow knows,0 +passed pain threshold time diethere much take enough say wait three days take action ive waited months feel surer ever woman told life joy right series problems defeats severas years ago mother died main emotional support left alone close family friends recently really withdrawn them girl whose affections declined previous work id previous bad experience getting involved colleague made life hell leave fought back got back good paying enjoyable government job manager really likes he interviewed me managers colleagues canteen staff even cleaners seem like me went wrong sums life started much younger girl call m made clear interested acted around me glancing smiling exaggerated behaviour works much liked previous experience work made keep distance and tbh prettiness perkyness intimidated little avoided interaction months probably guess going ended working beside awkward days got talking got well similar tastes art amp literature recommended things other seeing someone else work month arrived developed crush shortly going though another dark period took month depression told leaving help ended back medication returned turns moved office mix up moving boyfriend things somehow lost momentum went back slightly awkward other bad way somehow felt odd little forced came one day looked and startled justodd said hello said hello walked on genuinely strange hard explain never spoke shortlyn went train others medication stop feelings pointlessness life managed import n via internet spent lot time researching exit life cut long story short office reshuffle means moving now happened friday really affected self image end day im usually last leave came back up probably check desk items moved saying flamboyant goodbyes last two managers left coming kitchen asked enjoyed training simply said great make eye contact even stop walking whilst focusing two left five minutes later standing another door yards away phone waiting probably boyfriend looked up saw me turned back continued texting thats realised ive become sad middle aged creeper odd guy unnerves younger women really pathetic sad said nothing walked want upset way shed said enough without word made realise state life in disastrous relationships best female friend offered friends benefits situation fun attractive sexy know feels cant get better repulse younger women incite pity older ones weekend joyless see one way out thank god got n need peach cant cope terrible hopeless position,1 +watching play want die happiness sadnessidk im one grieving im one piece human garbage dont excuse shes better without deserves someone give everything dont even know im posting this would anyone even care way am look smile fill joy eyes crying face gets disfigured try hold tears back dont know future holds future without her really dont want all dont know cared much bad good undoubtedly way better im shitty person dont deserve heal cant cut life cant cut off cycle endless pain ends get back together idk im fighting hard made clear cant get back me people tell young get sad know am thats hurts much supposed enjoy youth together live long happy life together go ups downs together thats true love is idk couldnt way now back then feel much pain now hasnt years friends emotions hurt badly this lost someone worth everything universe more wont kill love her dont even self harm love her coping mechanisms sit room one notices me one looks me feel like everyday heal depression hits twice hard last time things enjoyed cant even anymore remind her music cant listen shared her thoughts hurt remind her worst part is fault whatsoever really me drowning sorrow wanting life longer have poem longer read her song wrote her future longer picture painful memory beautiful woman perfect wife lost ill never get back hurts fucking badly feels like chest going explode cant even see keyboard feelings pouring know im typing need to need her cant stop fighting cant stop thinking good times had life misanthrope becoming normal falling love someone never thought would get hurt always one causing pain cant even feel hate others feel hate myself melted ice block heart made hers gave make own gll know initials reason ever read this future want know love you forever till death us part,1 +even care throwaway right nowi feel like year old looking attention feel stupid want make wall text everyone seems hate even though prone them never shut myself i weird issue get depressed late night okay day sudden im feel like trying get out cut once ive thoughts years years maybe years actually year ago glad scar fear scars know im one like but love way looks fear scars sometimes scratch see little white lines feel bit pain used put lipstick wrist looked like cuts for years actually cut would this sometimes use red sharpie time find razor knife look it telling myself just fucking it fear scars dont even want im happy like way looks want look see it scars fresh want scars case feeling one day passes someone sees think killing myself think im sucking world resources giving nothing back job little friends almost live days cant come money homeless living mom crazy too leave even though knew afford it lost jobs depression everyone see it lost boyfriends friends too boyfriend now broke depression still love someone else tried prove getting better hide depression better fake smiles becoming easier believes again love wish bit different would okay demands sex lacks sympathy empathy reason im homeless today helped out nice it gave roommate talk me wish couldve friends least see crappy depressing pop song lost love katy perry getting long it couple points back feel stupid pride smart feel belittled people almost daily know cook cant keep job im picky eater im shy oh shy social anxiety sit corner alone parties unless im drunkhigh know theyre thinking whats wrong her makes even antisocial fear people why help cook why initiate sex why clean something without someone asking to why know _____ why try food why cant make decision feel like curl shell hear things gets worse why quiet depressed now want mean boyfriend earlier clicked reddit link turned screamer gif screamed resting bed like usual yells what fuck fuck you for laughed said sorry laugh tried make light situation angry screaming thus started late night depression fine that like people mad me want make people happy thats want life okay so tldr like cutting fear scars im crazy shy makes people like me think redflag fear death constantly feel stupid inadequate instead something it usually hide shell become worse ama haha kidding go ahead care edit going bed cuz cant find anyone talk to feel free say anything feel necessary goodnight sw,1 +help political leaders alright guys need help assignment anyone give example political leader made wrong choice cost lives career far ive come nixon chairman mao hitler,0 +hope know im sorryim hoping see this cant face tell truth im sorry came want damage keep causing over really care you im really sorry making choice dont want think options point im sorry hope someday forgive,1 +yall see advertising discord server called arenhale dont join it arenhale rpg based server bot trying advertise better is admin straight abusive abilities moderators douches helped make arenhale took away role new admin came picture long story shot dont join toxic abusive discord server,0 +realized narcissistic family main reason feel like cant kill myselfi born grew abusive environment abused home family phisically emotionally bullied school harassed street hospital years ago went contact everyone family thats full narcissists except father toxic codependent relationship im one whos aware this heres problem id kill myself father would inevitably tell whole family would give indirectly great great satisfaction feel like war created them like years still manage control letting taking life would make happy want make happy deserve that time simply cant move forward neither life right worth living never worth living ive lot feel like im damaged ever function properly dreams desperately need instant gratification know get that like abusive family let live life wanted that now finally want give up let kill neither want live life allowed that want kill yourself allowed that,1 +nigga im sniffing fart sniffy sniffy fart im sniffing fart sniffity fart sniff sniffity fart sniff sniffity fart niggaaa sniff sniffity fart,0 +id say one best animated films ive ever seen liked first time really appreciated second viewing weeks ago see sequel great business box office apparently lot people liked moviebr br a gorgeous color palette man looks good lot good adult but clean humor make big winner opening minute scene scat excellent subsequent interludes him sid sloth voiced john leguizano however provides main humor movie usually something funny say throughout moviebr br ray romano voice mammoth big character film literally denis leary ferocious badguyturnedgood sabertooth tigerbr br this humor pretty colors nice sentimental story little baby softens couple tough characters interrupted lot songs either one brief one nothing offensive languagewisebr br if animated movies good id more,0 +tired dumbass americans fantasizing communism guys ignorant communism long humanity exists never work yes itd nice equal assets happy it wont be communist government often quickly go corrupt greed ruler turns dictatorship rules fear pretty much every single communist govt ends up born ukraine parents moved america guys dont know communism does really brings worst stop idolizing it many came america escape ruins corruption communism left europe especially eastern europe kindly fuck youre communist,0 +omg im makin mozzarella sticks dont oven mit anything boutta go grab shirt wsfjsjdka man bein adult hard,0 +noteto everyone leaving behind im sorry mama papa love please blame yourselves redacted know promised die kill myself please try understand pain feel apologize hurt know stronger me know make this every day past year painful cant remember single day failed somehow entire life series failures mistakes everyday mistakes failures ive tried make friends ive tried open up end hurting more life live ive tried hard put it look forward see nothing end pain see death get wrong easy love mama papa redacted redacted redacted stronger was,1 +take years english high schooler worthless im gonna examine every sentence conversation identify subject verb article adjective things need know need know figurative language means hearread know means im gonna take minute break every paragraph understand means wow romeo juliet whats that write essay symbolism good would me yes im procrastinating still years shit every year gonna me know speak english enough vocabulary get day day life almost every job unless someones showing reason make take tests story even dont like reading it make project showcasing tiny item story yes thats im procrastinating im advanced reader class ive read george orwell people class not read new book project cant use would think thats chock full figurative language cant read time overheard teacher talking another class future even ive learned th time,0 +need get shithole government billion dollars deal pandemic buy beds medicine important buy vaccines hospitals collapsing buy enecsary beds medicine fucking bought k vaccines population million people could bring vaccines protest pushing vaccines yesterday leaked government made wrong deposit twice drained billion dollars managed absolutely nothing fml,0 +almost didso last years felt really shitty feel like started parents upbringing mom blackwhite really seem understand much situation grew strict house el salvador s contradicting always says if get bs class stuff fine somedays exact opposite says need push live good house good car dad hand essentially man child emotionally jokes expensethings actually enjoy life constant pest occasionally hitting good reason distinct memories playing ps living room hit good reason another standing sister clocked stomach dad mother also kind couple really never gotten married grandma dads side always made mother feel like shit made fun el salvador etc mom resents dadhis family heavily dad never really stuck mom always brushed aside joke came point dads sister threatened kill mother kitchen knife pregnant sister late s reason mom decided stay dad empty promises naive mom wanted divorce sister born economic issues dads job we still cant bottom middle class top smack dab middle rolled around brought family really never happened mom dad always fight stupid shitalways bring families childhood petty shit eventually started playing guitar kind escape always hated drew doodles notebookswould regularly check make sure plenty overbearing things like they still almost started playing guitar looked really coolwanted play like guys classic rock radiowanted hobby could free first couple years playing dad would always make fun ability jokes like why cant play like van halen stupid shit like that still day even though feel like guitar thing actually good maybe so crippling self esteem issues idk still have burning desire play band likeminded individuals never really got freshman year high school name cooper basically soul mate nonromantic way started hanging making music together shit felt right everything felt ok once actually sounded really good together one day told gonna move utah i live oregon first thought joking serious left end school year brother man trusted like family member family thing hurt leaving felt like lost brother part myself felt like lost bit musicianshiphumanity thing makes feel like actual human being eventually depression got even worse solid week cried sleep still feel like year later gotten worse parents gotten difficult live with feel alone playing made feel like actual human being gone played people tbh love receive parents genuine feels fake love feel genuine close friends gf people make feel like actual human without cooper feel like missing key component humanity read entire thing guess trying say wish self esteem issues anger issues parents depression mood swings crippling depression would disappear wish parents never got married wish live hell days really hard pretty fucking close taking entire bottle advils went bed waking up thing stopped thought seeing cooper again thank reading,1 +went hot need pet otter,0 +viewso got married expected woman rest life yrs decided finally lose weight started lbs ugly husband abuse infidelity boredom lost everything house family job years got life pulled back together point im late s meet another woman get married buy house etc little backstory pretty much life ive health problems first heart attack weighed non smoker social drinker family history active sports etc way deserved it think depression started then know afraid every day past years record three heart attacks several cardiac incidents stroke take pills diabetes depression heart issues may lung issues involved left job october step ahead fired missing much time im good place physically emotionally so thanksgiving weekend left house angry depressed unhappy etc ended buying pistol sunday loving understanding wife police take hospital filed temporary restraining order became permanent police house christmas eve family party court restraining order lawyer mentioned filed divorce im job finances wreck bad health marriage over social life leaching daughters family cant see way pretend theres reason going on,1 +emotions embarrassing yall relationships n shit ive maybe four serious chances guys taking interest going dates thought vunerable someone omg shit embarrassing asf cant it im senior hs never relationship void emotion anyways anyone relate,0 +seeing enough karma post e,0 +want end iti cant asked life skills hobbies none love none open to noone hug me none comfort me happiness life useless,1 +anyone else dealing autoimmune issues feeling close edgei vasculitis cause determined autoimmune optometrist thinks may multiple sclerosis referred neuro ophthalmologist cancel appointment due expense know really multiple sclerosis theres something else happening like vasculitis affecting brain feels like endless list symptoms whats worse health issues visible like eczema petechiae vasculitis least internal hide pretend outside everythings okay im struggling winter settled in ive felt increasingly hopeless future day gone on currently im dark without even starlight im wishing wake tomorrow pondering hurting potentially killing do hard handling things remembering disappointment everyone,1 +or ride it song drunk man begging women sex ,0 +need someone talk toim getting desperate now im worried sometimes need someone talk to,1 +yes alone know still feel fucking alone whore anything ends hurting people myself cannot normal like everyone else tired considered methods commit suicide keep torturing living on carrying on tell love you cannot fucking love yourself one knows suicidal really am parents friends significant other random people internet fuck with every new day feels emptier previous one everyday think killing myself everyday die bit bit want advice wish someone would listen empathetically understand going end all,1 +want end todaywe school break week school left us tons works finish break much normally week handle another pile undone homework it might fail classes cant fail classes want disappoint parents know seems like small problem kill over might say school problems that ive urge years ive acted upon twice year failed found perfect way kill guranteeing dead life clear want end it everything today,1 +heres poem wrote sugar birds broken record spageddie sea made grape soda theres dolphin named miss june jumped ocean flew moon flying found seagull sugar coated wings chirping help miss june please cant fix strange thing held june record broken june stood thinking didnt know do well come sea me thats thinking sugary bird followed her kept sinking could maybe use squid ink act makeshift glue seaweed tie broken pieces always option too sugar bird thought it said back miss june like squid ink option could find squid near soon miss june simply laughed well course can dear bird pet squid way get ink say word bird looked squid said squid word ink squid looked right back him little wink squid little shake knew time exploded puff black cloud ink divine thank dearest june thank lil squid too ink fix record like new celebrate moment played record then beautiful arrangement happy storys end wrote girlfriend doesnt like fancy symboly poems like such think fun,0 +know im gona dieis bad know im gona die mom dog dies one live thats im gona kill myself people say find someone need stop depressed want spread sadness anyway literally see reason would live want kill myself logical worries sadness end endless cycle getting better going deep,1 +dont want keep pretendingi wish someone would break house shoot dead wouldnt seem selfish,1 +guys gals made sub uss southern state youll probably like it sharing southern thing do whack drive diesel tear fields dirtbike hunt enjoy country music southern rock racism allowed confederate glorification rhillbillyhangout,0 +im donetonight might night think im finally ready dont know want die know dont want live reason stay one cares me one listens need anymore theyve given suppose time give self might now dont tonight likely soon thx reading guess,1 +going insane one wants helpplease broken laptop phone able call help insecurities killing me panic attacks need get house ill happy im underage already drug addiction im unable repress longer im going insane please help,1 +life honestly purgatory not suicidal yetim curious ur guys answers feel like maybe fucked life maybe im supposed help lost souls along lost soul feel like people intentionally nasty im unable make defintely uphold relationships cuz past traumas ratio bad things minimal bad things happening around fucked shit next life finally going void going void getting woken occasionally get drunk yell bartenders,1 +bad person ruined relationship best friend zoey literally best friends hung pretty much every day talked deep stuff things wouldnt tell anyone ended telling shit going life deserves better said cant sleep night feels like life isnt going anywhere doesnt care happy not feels numb constantly told mentally exhausted was wish could catch breath parents alcoholics dont make much money emotionally abusive high expectations grades motivation work even though felt like trying really hard still made bs cs really close let really personal stuff like weed overdosing melatonin birth control reason btw hate people weed shes literally family history addiction like dont understand whats going head lmao convinced teenagers felt empty her burden normal couple times cried talking things like breakups stuff got down lasted long time cried boy longer relationship lasted couldnt take anymore loved much let convince deserves feel constant pain tried talking solutions said think could think talking school guidance counselor know theres stigma guidance counselors end day professionally trained deal exact situation course would never talk behind back force talk them offered write email them myself mention name see first steps could make did let read email take parts didnt want share like weed thing lol felt really good it told me understood cant hurt reach someone next day guidance counselors literally pulled class sat talk her without her fine first wanted didnt want talk scary ask help understood that guidance counselors talked lot stuff went well opinion said right thing good friend her shouldnt let get caught personal life said job speak her kinda agreed one point brought something talking parents said didnt think would good idea said get it ended asking name made mistake giving them know told zoey wouldnt sounded like gonna help her ended it mind probably know better me want name probably good reason apparently used name look student contact files immediately called parents told zoey personal shit even said grounds take away parents at least zoey told said that course dont condone anyone taken away family got really angry blamed commotion said parents really mad saying personal stuff home life told shes attention needs stop told thought parents assholes because are intention never call agree shouldve checked zoey giving name counselors moment seemed like right thing over seemed like things calmed again said shes sorry overreacting still loves me good again apologized genuinely told never meant happen wanted happy week later came again said something got heated argument angry selfdiagnosed even though literally showed every symptom ruined life told obvious never meant happen never said anything without permission except name moment thought right thing do im sorry kept yelling me reason couldve gotten taken parents replied and gets nasty dont believe said that doesnt make sense sure literally suck parents doesnt mean get taken away say that probably said fucking reason thats said dont ever talk blocked me havent spoken since angry moment said things definitely didnt mean wished guidance counselors never called stupid parents couldve worked own told talk parents told didnt want share name asked anyways called anyways everythings mess wanted fucking happy guess shouldve left alone dont think anyone deserves feel like burden life pointless fair her deserves better im ok never wants talk again get it wish could see fog realize intention never happen wanted happy terrible person done instead help someone situation,0 +im afraid ive finally fallen fari plan anything thinking becoming common things impossibly difficult nothing seems change situation ive never attempted redflag even really threatened feel like nothing stop now grew impoverished abusive addicted home beaten pretty regularly emotionally manipulated constantly left broken mess adult ive failed succeeded still kept pushing along thought maybe could make life bad took twice long peers eventually finished college even grad school relationships made friends scored jobs nothing lasted know get close people craved family so mids decided move guy thought could love would love me gave everything including job car house friends family eventually savings moved across country work within first week knew something wrong turns dude pretty abusive behind closed doors immediately collapsed froze last years access medical care healthy environment finally fought hard go doctor found kidney disease bunch problems two molars broken half painful able walk feet time since shoved ground years ago body weak mind following path used think could survive regardless tossed way thought resourceful resilient tough know now im feel detaching need stay planet kids coworkers friends much family anyone would miss cats dad support financially correction supported financially money ran out last year many family members died im two blood relatives beyond distant cousins make home funerals cant break free here completely unattached negative self talk swarms every perception attempt understanding im innocent im victim made choice stay could left physically emotionally paralyzed cant now though thats thinking redflag think peace come im gone let leave really place go even cut loose need him shitty is shitty makes me one else right now so im here im thankful theres place write down slept today want bad sad brain want die still want family love still want career volunteer pretty sure theres much damage now even got out would take years fix me one last thing night wonderful dreams normally nightmares dreams filled vacations old friends new beginning romance someone actually treated well conversation mom always sight dreams since died last year woke feeling wonderful able sleep since im afraid nightmares take happy feelings im fiercely protective first time felt loved long thank listening im sorry many hurting too could take away would you figure im going anyway might well good way out actually reminds first time considered redflag even word it remember praying god st grade would take heaven bring another little girl back family died cancer made everyone sad seemed like loved loved family sick problems abuse severe begged god barter thought better outcome everyone guess road ive along fighting years make much difference it so im safe now plans means really exhausted life im feeling burden every bad choice ive ever made drowning even though feet firmly planted land know dig out dark theres legitimately one could ask rope again thanks take care,1 +ive away day two theres sort revolution going on wtf,0 +okay first need talk tonight cry worry okay thinking lot need tell bc feel like really important talk around please really sorry c,1 +losing mindidk anymore idc anymore feel like im living grandma younger sibling days im year old man feel done life mom wants get gf days idc anything living dont want hurt grandma younger sisters talk repeatedly abused pretty bad younger feel like cant even live anymore affected mentally many ways dont dance sing socialize hate thought redflag know others worse idk anymore tbh dont even know anymore,1 +read plot summary worst one ever read justice incredible movie example good summary read listing turner classic movies anyway one favorite movies young child sister wait every april could see tv one best horse movies time one great classics whole family watch romance clean endearing story line interesting songs great make movies like anymore good acting top pat boone shirley jones best along many great character actors,0 +mirrors week decided challenge looking mirror or looking anything shows reflection purposely week starting today anyone done before anyone want try,0 +im homeschooled question im cambridge curriculum means learn stuff throughout year go school write exams last week first ones ive done years actually waiting outside classroom teacher call us in kids who go school btw started discussing exam might asked cool actually discussing concepts reminding right before id never able normal tests mom set up one girls started asking questions another student started saying know stuff never pays attention class spends half time jerking guys closet wanted know kinda talk normal school downright stunning uncomfortable me never heard someone say anything explicit internet assumed anonymity people online brings language out seem fazed it either joke actually care people know social skills tell xd,0 +guys need help girlfriend twin sex dad,0 +looking someone share art critique others art bored art friends live america time difference big art best id happy get geniune critique even hurts ego please give advice actually know draw though,0 +life stressful hard time living itwishing dead without courage go recurring theme life peaks now high school young stupid think plan tried hold breath sleep lot blankets hopes id manage asphyxiate myself learned gf pregnant yeah say im shitty human being happen way wanted happen surprise managed live it night actually rolled good minutes incoming traffic lane highway plain didnt care minutes many plans right now gf feeling hot kids wants quit job become stay home parent above potential losing job coming month able find new job trying manage raise kids financial stress working wish could stand up take measures manage emotions cant get angry try let take kids yes sometimes smallest thing make overreact feel like shit cant make anyone happy know people care thing know push people away im even trying push kids away even good days make insanely happy many plans falling asleep garage cars working haning balcony hammer head u til pass out even roof workplace always unlocked never told anyone never courage go through im scared kids im scared gf parents holy fuck want die,1 +teachers get annoyed kids easily get confused im zoom classes keep joining wrong class due whole confusion thinking fourth period since usually classes go a b a b onward though fourth period im class confused teacher mentioned many times try class though teachers like students like this apologize much since get confused easily,0 +think found gmt greenwich mean time widely used th century known find latitude sea using stars longitude always problem british government offered pound prize technology could accurately determine ones longitudinal position sea john harrison designed chronometer a portable timekeeping device set time greenwich england submitted government eventually prize carrying chronometer reading greenwich time them sailors could use local time compared greenwich time accurately determine longitude thanks coming ted talk yall,0 +day posting get girlfriend dunno write im boreddddddd,0 +guys make saying wat linking skeletor video rant thing keep seeing posts people desperately want meme im wondering guys could make something thing meme like thing people do heres thing want make possible person introduces topic person b responds topic rant makes sense nothing topic person cone guys replies,0 +dont want one kill myselfi dont want one kill thinking hiring hitman kill me weird know think work,1 +life garbage justifies redflagim tired retards telling gets better theres much live for motherfucker couldnt wrong lonely socially awkward outcast cant even say single sentence another human isnt life worth living working earning money pointless life still empty shitty always going garbage fucking hate existence cant even imagine realistic life would worth it wont get better life always garbage ending destiny,1 + mg hydroxyzine mg tizanidine mg cetirizine dont think enough overdose would affect meim lbs m think enough get sick thats im aiming for correct,1 +warning may contain spoilers let rosalina help mario lead way smile game brighten day br br stars require luck skill bring much thrillbr br blasting stars show mario luigi travelers are br br walking upside never fun especially final battle koopa near sun br br this truly super awesome game absolutely deserves place nintendos hall fame,0 +jim henson kermit drteeth rowlf waldorfbr br frank oz fozzie piggy animalbr br jerry nelson floyd pepper robin frog lew zealand crazy harrybr br richard hunt janice statlerbeaker scooterbr br dave goelz gonzo drhunnydew zootbr br charles durning mel brooksbr br cameos steve martin carol kane orson welles bob hope richard pryor othersbr br this first muppet movie billion others came out also best far deals kermit frog going trip hollywood meeting characters along way movie along already good excellent songs performed muppets including rainbow connection picture that moving right along others movie unlike muppet flicks carries strong sentimental value me nice movie also noted many cameos featuring steve martin mel brooks dozen othersbr br my ratinga plus mins rated g,0 +im idiot deserve deathim worthless understand anyone loves me im want end life make friends family unhappy keep coming back me why cant make new friends girls interested me im failing school here whats point one less fuck gone matter dad left me would anyone else want around im ugly ive tried fix cant hate myself,1 +anyone cheer to itll nice ,0 +impossible get decent jobi think impossible nowadays get decent job even good education bother kill end homeless cant get decent job welfare cut kill future redflag wrong future especially disabeld likely never decent job maybe dead end job dont even pay enough live on perspectives redflag wrong,1 +cute girl cute girl classes school really like havent talked lot think likes though shy dont know approach her would love advice,0 +one flatout drollest movies alltime sim rutherford best matching wits predicament allboys allgirls school sharing quarters slapstick never sophisticated,0 +someone feels bad me aggressively compliments,0 +literally point around nothing even seems worthwhile anymore wish constant abyss would stop moment take breath feel like drowning one around throw line point around,1 +giving upive bed day missed school im aspergers dont see point trying anymore never explain emotions feelings nobody understands try explain something know slitting wrists easy mess feel much pain inside want over doesnt work ill hang slowly suffocate myself feel hopeless nothing for even family pets music nothing one friend ive dealing years wont stop im never happy dont see point school cant recognize mirror never anything good say myself friends coming today feel bad cause forgot ive probably ruined it want gone want end life im tired overworked stress going make go insane ive tried therapy counselling im always back feeling like absolute shit guess say im fucking done,1 +henlo anyone wanna talk m damn got back universal super hot outside,0 +debating leaving worldi never darker place life years old really debating taking life suicidal thoughts challenge faced young age huge attachment issues due adopted always avoided getting attached girls fall love cant take happens well happened took girl nyc new years got rejected never felt empty alone sad dont know take it avoided falling love years didnt want happen did took risk got heart ripped crushed cant take pain time one turn this really dont know time maybe goodbye,1 +go hospital suicidal ideationsorry typos im mobile feeling well class worst mental health life nearly every day want die see hopeful future myself little problem happens immediately want kill myself thing is dont specific plan ive thought ways would go would nothing set stone also scared go it often want to know wont know one day im tired feeling like this im tired normal social anxiety ocd dont diagnosis mood disorders symptoms lot im going self diagnose hate that ny fault feel like anyway make efforts make feel better started depressed purpose thought cool thing like fucking idiot even feel like valid know real put situation feel better time try ive tried thinking positive pointless me know thats subconsciously trying depressed cool still isnt cool though im psych student gonna sound stupid dont even reason sad know thats works case feel would anyone even take seriously im scared cant anytime soon anyway exams both redflag voluntary commitment also almost christmas want ruin everyone mom would hate me im adult dont live anywhere near would hate me dont want make live either go protection live brother sil know wouldnt force im scared go even go it im embarrassed tell brother feel thinking id go work one day message them feel like thats asshole move none friends would care ones would wouldnt able visit know would feel wprse like life didnt matter im live toronto im going therapy even though school offers thats fault cant give enough shit make appointment go dont want family talk it theyll never treat same embarrassing dont want know feel,1 +cursed want die prevent inevitablei born abusive family autism spectrum disorder makes weird terrible interacting people im terrible sciences life general yet decided go psychology im interested subject thing im good at level want help people barely interact people relate many them straighta student ill probably crap job psychologist therapist meaning life help people which believe is nothing left live for barely help myself cant confidentally say could talk anyone redflag think dying every day,1 +really getting point need unloadyes created this many people know usual handle made throwaway really want people know heads up sentence structure order damned im unloading comes expect much way formatting anyway sit popping another painkiller wonder hell life got point im married veteran going college literal dream job cant make ends meet ive looked work nobody wants hire college student ive put applications career type work looks like going go through heart fear getting stuck job ill never chance dream job again wife works ass off cant even find part time job got nice love note apartment complex saying theyre going court tomorrow cant pay rent va shorted us last month housing allowance going much better feel like stayed service soul crushing least paychecks bad veterans affairs concerned numbers actually giving care vets sterotypes true there defeating feeling im trying come woe me begging pity thats style ask younger sister money tomorrow continue struggle even get ahead anything like wife live large american style going eat every meal charging everything credit cards drive beatup pickup truck pos honda civic thats beyond last leg needs five major things cant afford feel like bum loser failure summer best friend killed similar reasons see it told id never follow footsteps im imagining belt around neck sensible action well ive unloaded enough everyone ridiculous financial troubles sympathy hope overcome them goodnight sw shitstorm awaits tomorrow,1 +another ice cube post ice cubes flavours one would pick,0 +depends next weeknext week ill get exam results fail them im gonna get kicked college trigger chain events leading hope decent future ruined so yeah pass exams gotta it finishing uni hope good life without it virtually reasons live know yet im gonna iti still hope case heaven knows pretty much hate life far got opportunity make things better might might manage might think extreme measure exams not fail ill go back shithole country place fucking hate place ive waiting years leave cant conceive living again really want die it wish luck guys maybe case,1 +hahim breakdown feel like gettinginto car going full speed tree might selfish dont care itll affect,1 +ask do play basketball does neck hurt taking shower someone thought average human tall ,0 +nothing meabsolutely nothing,1 +one day surei kill today tomorrow one day im university second year years left ill live that friends friends love heart know loose one day like lost everyone else talk lover one since years know never know love story friends say will know sure wont day friends gone ill live alone ill far family ill kill myself still know how still know better family disappear know happened better know ive killed myself guess ill see,1 +want make life productive every second people obsessed making everything productive every second relax bit play nintendo ds,0 +hello everyone new group uk dealing depression alot first diagnosed ocd redflag depression years ago recently come month relationship use lean lot support mental health gone kind stuck really anyone talk day mum best friend id like someone make friends make general conversation with lifes constant spiral anyone advice please let know go easy lol advice get break would appreciated thanks much need someone talk,1 +end diagnosed eye condition usually ends losing sight treatedsince everyone helpful would like personal opiniom regarding disturbing matters doctor diagnosed really bad case eye floaters given special eyedrops getting worst days passed currently job att uverse pre install tech support incase condition gets worst grounds resignation due medical reasons parents thinking straight medical matter hand wants continue medicine hand good money there doctor found job att pre install tech support told leave find another lighter job risk blind long run experience parents ideas usually end ths hospital worst think going work matter hours need opinions badly since guys helpful,1 +help understand purpose thingsno im suicidal downvote whatever keep attention important posts want insight without getting flamed it get something like subreddit hotline going help anyone actually wants kill themselves seems like posts people seeking attention making genuine cries help lack power actually kill anyway like people come hear someone tell everything going alright rather actually talking redflag sense less like rredflagwatch like rdepressionhelp passive suicidal thoughts lack actually it thoughts btw like cant relate all fact im currently passing time couple hours appointment doctor tell cocktail antidepressants still goddamn thing ive diagnosed major clinical depression years already im suicidal even though seems like offed awhile ago,1 +girl makes guys testicles burst removed cuts destroys penis horrible wrong rape disgusting worthless rapist rapist deserves slow violent brutal death women like too,0 +seasonal depressiondoes spring summer ever make anyone depressed like winter validates depression makes feel normalsunlight make feel better im fucking low reminds hell need climb of im curious anyone else feels like thisregardless this im gonna try fucking hardest embrace warm weather positive vibesi cant afford feel like longer,1 +meant ever existhey rsw ive posted one earliest submissions reddit im mistaken really feel like need help unfamiliar me ive suffering depressive symptoms several years started fairly traumatic episode youth about years ago caused become extremely distrusting people especially officials kind past year ive tried multitude different selfhelp methods ranging meditation excercise even psychedelic drugs helped while really fix issues issues im extremely emotionless i even remember last time cried seldom display emotion exception hatred rage frustration seems emotions replaced everything else respond emotions whatever situations encounter theyve gone mind replaced every emotion there ive also noticed im becoming increasingly isolated increasingly harder approach its real effort get even respond phone call one remaining friends ive started think humans world extremely negative light yes thats right see street first impression would probably what fucking pretentious dickhead wished fell hurt himself even innocent interactions such greeted grocery store clerk provoke extremely hateful violent reactions im kidding anyone talks makes furious wish could left alone forever want see people want partake society want left alone never approached course possible thoughts sometimes led believe rest world incompatible me im one fit in perhaps would best started final journey unknown unexplainable rage hate turn paranoia delusional violence,1 +im considering redflag years old turn ive simply enough best days behind theres really nothing left hope for friends girlfriend family left mother sister career job prospects stuck job like alcohol abuse passion anything guy like cant hope happy whats point existing perpetual state unhappiness,1 +heavys important message get girl get tf ending theme,0 +looking anyone oceania join discord looking fresh perspective id love learn life new zealand australia oceaniac countries members would probably interested wants join come,0 +im okayi dont really good enough reason okay thats is ive thinking different methods redflag last couple hours cant stop crying reached service always amazing dont offer crisis support she suggested ed local crisis line big no grounding techniques went arent cutting it want feel okay instead wanting take world time,1 +im done everythingthis throwaway incase actually quite old one ive lost years worth data life recently went really downhill me every small wrong thing causes feel like it everything goes wrong good thing happend well yeah bullied practically half life ive enough get random calls like everyday someone laugh go like oiii go kys school get followed get told thing theres nobody trust everyday ive felt like ending it soon slowly start actually ending feel like heyheheyehey like every suicidal thought goes away second want commit redflag im tired living want peace god exists please look friends family especially mentally ill people,1 +like dogs people always says dog loyal brave mans best friend one day family got dogs stupid kept hassle one dog kept jumping fence escaping kept pooping every always finds way get room poop society wrong always idiotic never contributing cats severed much purpose me want much life actually stuck hunting tactics sometimes gifting mere humans free meal like rodent short dogs bad cats good,0 +high school long so started hs today however big problem school system works borders means area one hs go hs since borders it though exactly border went school signed inhttpsinhow began let explain june singed school area closer i sent email receive answer hence father went ensure signed there said yes went said belong belonged school conclusion weird situation almost friends went feel sad mad given false hope yesterday,0 +lolbiggest mistake life actually sharing im sick head people friends family shouldnt have keep eventually die suffer another pain pain ignored pain feeling unimportant pain insulted understood became laughing stock uselesss dumb person them,1 +nobody fucking wants point alone,1 +know ok want anymore ok want romantic love ok fine want anymoreit ok want possessions ok fine want anymore ok want friends ok fine want anymore ok want get things right ok fine want anymore ok want recover ok fine want anymore ok want kill myself ok fine want anymore ok want family ok fine want anymore ok want good paying job ok fine want anymore ok want move forward ok fine want anymore ok want alive anymore ok fine want anymore every time every turn always something supposed want supposed doing know want anymore exactly allowed desire dreams ok have never get answer keep pounding head hammerpeople tell need get head even know means anymore know anywhere inside head know want me sorry cannot want be wish could fix this seems keep getting worse know whyoh well like anyone would even care shout nonsense void one cares supposed anything long kill others feel morally better themselves like death would really impact anyone reallyit hard miss someone even know exists know want,1 +wanted vent dieidk say anymore venting half week reddit change anything mental hospital got canceled parents take urgent hospital said fucking needed it revenge yep im indeed kms razorblades here lying ground idk im reddit ive given life sooo many chances something happens again cant take anymore life worth anymore living keep friends happy ive whole year making happy listening them guess time something egocentric fucking dying guess sort still want saved cuz im still typing time much late painfull im sorry triggering people parents say urgent intake hospital safe still run away hurt mysef guess what run away too razorblades iseasly kill here wrist much scar tissue even hurt slit wrist urgent hospital couldve least little safer maybe would help learn survive fucking virus stops ruining everything mean apointment good mental hospital moved november months waiting help suicidal feelings hav wait another months nope last negative thing happened me,1 +redflag wpdthe forum rwatchpeopledie similar havens filth encourage death moderators racist xenophobic literally admit getting deaths im freak forum shouldnt exist im already bleeding out night bb last post filth exist cd,1 +college apps know want major living yet gpa anyways thats get even lower since one a three cs right now might go community college,0 +illegal lskskajaj httpsvmtiktokcomzsxawdg,0 +took cocktail drugsi cant stand continuing life im failure friends people work hate means im going get fired due time off cant count anyone always come across dick im good anything im screwed financially academically work dead end job lead anywhere cant find anything else get angry time theres puddle blood bed cut arm open got angry myself normal im normal thinking through want hear want deal people people want deal me win win situation,1 +content help fuel machine rteenagers,0 +im going get stalker tattooed arm im old enough favorite game series would able call marked one lol family already said dumb gotta wait till im ugh,0 +ever walk around night think easy would step street let car hit you damn beautiful night see stars smell scent fresh rainso easy kill moments beautiful wish life would always like that nights too nights try sleep nights like even good music help nights want someone hold lap tell everything fine time time cant run away work busy living life inescapable hide yourself,1 +need helphow keep going time time time tell things get better try hardest still end one bad thing putting gun mouth want something help change mind im becoming tired living like this,1 +teacher literally cant teach made get really mad fact f class im usually ab student try need really specific moments teacher oh god made get frustrated everything teacher ap physics cannot teach cant get this f life consistently would get f even tried tried first quarter ended getting f nd quarter mental health slipping much could got ive stopped honestly cant anymore literally sits acting like gone things never gone single thing barely anyone class understands anything ap class ive ap class multiple times life least gotten b every quarter though typically consistently a literally expects us answer question then surprised nobody answers even though never teaches one person understands it person suspect tutor something going nobody else class understands anything never taught us equation yet expects us solve equation perfectly mistakes legitimately cannot anymore making frustrated everything due fact school system prevents part time school job order make money want make money start saving college things relating hobbies get work experience course need pass physics can whatever reason due fact teacher cannot teach sacrifice potential get job decent amount hours without feeling extremely tired end day school job going retake physics senior year top that let switch classes even though specifically requested twice told them theyve even lot complaints teacher themselves cant switch due rule put in blame counselor job cant fathom cant switch me even though ive proven relatively good student outside ap physics showing odd get anything lower b im going specifically request teacher hope listen request want ever deal teacher again,0 +dont watch anime please watch attack titan vinland saga god teir anime trust,0 +im alonei feel nobody talk to maybe embarrassed discuss things close me often think redflag greater alternative failing life tonight thoughts extra heavy,1 +many replies post get many ,0 +breathes fucking cutely sleep ahhhhhhimnotgonnagetoverthisboyinalongasstime,0 +home instead school im sick im bored covid brain cancer plain old sick probably something like cold im bored mind anyone want talk me,0 +always easy explain movie like time think ive found it reminded two movies trainspotting small time criminals scoring drugs stupid things schotland blair witch project because style filmingbr br its loyalty two friends one coming jail one caught yet stolen vehicle drive scottish countryside run petrol try find fuel find farm middle nowhere farmer thinks want rob points gun one them goes wrong one friends accidentally shoots farmers daughter run follows man hunt fields woods schotland two friends literally run livesbr br apparently movie shot days time ok thats exactly unbelievable biggest part always place scottish countryside still find quite amazing especially actually bad movie perhaps greatest movie ever still proud achieved nice time watching overall enjoyed movie give ,0 +manual breathing blinking lmao gottem manually breathe blink next minutes brain forgets read,0 +feeling down worry im you even people around you family support ik it goals might hard achieve realise worth value overcome constable stay determined give fuck anyone give negativity think it things get better even seems never will stay determined okay feeling low look saddens you go reach there may reached destination believe matter many fails were good traveller get deserve,0 +anyone chat im im bored nothing else do little me either think im scum earth existence rivals god himself between discuss wide variety topics play number choice company would deeply appreciated m,0 +ive thought long hard life going see point carrying oni got one talk this either care much drop since ive fairly good hiding feel infront others feel tolerated never part someones crowd last time told itll get better ive become self aware self hating lonely feel cant blame anyone myself matter try im never taken seriously look like stupid careless weirdo fucking time got much live another years work reasons live theyre going run soon honest want live happens,1 +trauma lore filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +deal itright im staring clock anxious work im relative average job make lot mistakes hate do always thinking negative things cant happy deal it every time know work day feel like throwing up im mentally unstable nothing really wrong feel like everything wrong bad things going happen going shitty day cant stop negative thoughts want die want world end fuck man cant control emotions either something really wrong me im probably going commit redflag real reason point im useless family probably thinking im selfish id killed myself cant stop it hurts wish world would end please end,1 +nothingim sorry im sure people worthy people would actually go it think im going to matter much want end even plan anymore thought always plan going happen worthwhile people spend responses on guess needed scream space yknow feel like failure part am went incredible college im working artist even though artmaking fellowship closed show day job parttime though honestly love it make less spend rent month theory making art getting jobs using money survive ive depressed anything stay bed days off im supposed using art cant even that im fat seems like nonsequitor im dancer first round suicidal ideation came disordered eating behaviors stopped managing depression least thats campus therapist told me made enough sense believed her ran away therapy stupid reasons wanted anorexic bulimic time worked nerve go therapy transitioned mostlybulimic behaviors ashamed wrong eating disorder fucking stupid that accept help disorder thought less glamorous one started with fucks sake started dating girl also anorexic behaviors depression wonderful tried make healthy fueled behaviors didnt dumped nowhere seven months ago im sure best seems happy now ive barelyfunctional since then rock best friend person knew extent going head totality support system though tried rely much left someone else now seems happy lot healthier talk much anymore im fat working working partially im afraid go auditions weight do also afraidashameddepressed go classes gym take care myself im stuck stupid cycle even convince one day hey yeah lets take steps make better takes much energy lasts maybe day maybe two im back curled covers staring netflix distract thoughts anybody died coworkers would first notice think im supposed go work tomorrow show think would call text probably think check show tuesday timed right died work thursday would four days anyone would even notice im sorry im mostly crying ex still silly happier without me feel like failure cant make take steps become anything else know make things better just it know im scared convinced ill fail depressed really fucking lazy it nothing nothing mean nothing provide nothing im sorry im going go it im sorry wasting time,1 +stop saying america shit country stop saying america shit country mind think racist country ive never seen immigrant talk shit america reason that came shit hole country running water deemed success sound bomb going became normal live america privileged reason cant become successful systemic racism stoping becoming successful work hrs week poor right talk shit billionaires like elon musk jeff bezos started company work hrs week living ramen even billionaires work hrs week,0 +jim carrey good usual even though quite jim carrey moments definitely jim carrey moviebr br its targeted mostly children managed enjoy movie promoted israel another jim carrey movie expected weird top comedy disappointedbr br the movie nice moments works well movie kids cant say loved movie im target audience,0 +many early british sound films ive seen video suffer either poor print transfer quality poor sound both fortunately able obtain copy movie video excellent quality enabling focus story itselfbr br and excellent story was first sight passengers illfated bus looked like pretty boring lot except always lovely jessie matthews but film went back show passengers story day accident discovered cast contrary initial appearance talented group performers skillfully directed bring real individuality distinctive characterizationsbr br viewers may different preferences two passengers going meet tragic end ones survive but movie holds interest keeps guessing film deserves much wider audience real gem early british cinema,0 +people heartlessa long ago posted question reddit asking question people but mainly women case seem dislike got hateful replies downvotes response wondering seemingly disliked and also girls ive talked say im great guy suddenly remove contact rude or least never intention come across way all everyone trying assume worst like im kind creep baited arguing one twits responding decided stand ground ended crushing even further seriously ive even suicidal and know sound problematic things also contributing big part way feel now continuing bother me people hateful last time suicidal people ignored drove past exist might well fucking exist anyway right people cold fucking hurts want die much embarrasses even sharing species people understand ever treat people kindly friendly always get treated like trash,1 +im commit redflagi cant take abuse anymore,1 +finally it outpizzad hut greatest mistake life years perfecting recipe made way local hut freshbaked pizza pie hand try this told kid working counter did agree better anything pizza hut offer soon entire store customers included feasting delicious pie manager walked over grabbed slice took bite look him anticipation rising boss local fief lord hut approval meant rest combined took bite nodded ill damned said you really it outpizzad hut shame shame mean tha manager pulled gun behind apron shot nearest customer head we code jalapeo said wrist executed remaining customers i repeat code jalapeo ground slick blood kid working counter choked dying breath manager turned me you motherfucker outpizza hut shoved gun face scared fight scared run manager pulled trigger click gun empty threw chair manager scrambled pizza hut even bothering see missile hit mark closely pursued manager gotten hands deadly sharp pizza cutter suspected hands would cut pizza somehow able get car speed off manager cursing existence left behind took deep breath manager clearly psychotic yes it crazy man gun be phone rang sister picked it theyre dead sobbed theyre dead mmom dad chris bill dead killed all could barely understand her great sobs what mean you asked urgently how possi single gunshot sounded phones speakers silence then heard mans voice no one outpizzas hut hung up drove empty county road mind blank nothing killed family alone moment knew do took everything me well then would take everything them pizza hut terrified outpizzad forgot theres one thing worse man recipe man nothing lose ill give limited time offer able refuse two bullets price one free side order pain,0 +ive ever wanted friend properly talk cares me would anyone want type friend friends old friends started hanging mean person shoves ground thrashes everyday never gets trouble taken care teachers laugh nice ones stick mean ones im lonely gorilla like used be always be want friend actually talk to wants friend,0 +wait heck reason accounts different symbols bottom area also play button top account im using rn stuff,0 +deserve woman loves me even deserve love yes depressed yes maybe crazy maybe mental problems yes maybe completely gonebut deserve love right reason kill self always one last drip hope day meet woman going save mebut know maybe never going happen thing need love,1 +brother gets n w paying hell yea already finished like good,0 +care people think me gotten point cant even buy game really like think brothers wont like it one thing many others help me,0 +seen messed stuffive cop years ive seen stuff one ever see kids murdered parents people crushed cars things could done something never cant go trauma know could helped people im going end life say sorry people could helped,1 +letting guess maybe looking see guys think ithi everyone title says im letting kind telling story short beware could kind long appreciate help comments thank you im years old turning month girlfriend halfway across country sucks ive bedn dating little year love her atleast thats feel may say im young whatnot thats feel right now ive pretty normal childhood guess never heard medical records problems body brain psychological problems although ive many temper tantrums still do parents well even know understanding always scream what hell wrong crazy tantrums times cry hit punch things break things throw things this patents really dont like them tell anything keep tell minimum spend days alone basement playing guitar surfing youtube alone riding bike like bmx many friends talk people sometimes even know say them id say two friends including girlfriend friend cant really talk jimmabout anything except funny movies video games girlfriend knows everything me school hate it depresses me im okay student last year got c two rest bs classes although never really study never enough parents tell compared people way better grades tell compare people although always compare exbest friend use studies alot ap classes always say cant like stuff say why couldnt alex jason those sons family friends really good ik school dad made go caddying summer went two times second almost got heat exaustion take mentally either lately cant take life know why im done it started cutting december although strong cutter stopped cutting stop girlfriend worrying two months ago way guess ive self harmed years hitting hair pulling last year towards end school year hit guess could call depression pretty miserable mentally miserable compared ive whole life school summer still like even though stress finals homework even study end start junior year two week im already hitting depression again im antisocial feel better alone without deal people plus fit here girlfriend fear pain keeping earth guess cant leave her think loves want her everyone else know f them care them im tired world hate it see human beings destroyers way self loath alot hate earth come enjoy life except time im bike talking girl want deal school anymore want grow never even wanted get old want work im good enough ride bike living want deal anything life girl riding bike im full it im tired living ive contemplating redflag year maybe think me well like thought cutting me yeah think covered it got far thank reading story im sorry wasted time,1 +improve score sat sophomore high school want prepare sat didnt get good score psat took fall freshman year score i actually dont know average good score psat aiming take sat first time fall junior year college want go average sat want know improve,0 +many licks take get center tootsie pop got bet going friends say around so thinks like sum,0 +summary lifei currently years old ive suicidal since third grade mainly parents forcing unthinkable expectations made feel like worthless nobody th grade live died quite literally great grandmother died since sister years young years younger mom issues dad left apartment cheated got drunk multiple times fucking lost attacked her able quickly subdue since afterwards told replaceable nobody wished abortion among many things night went grabbed handgun upholstered it pointed head pulled trigger didnt one chamber gunshot knew chamber properly so put back cried sleep went see counselor told parents everything never felt betrayed fast forward towards summer had forced watch two sisters mom started dating another guy favoured me clear favoritism faggot pounds bigger always wrestled knocked out one day enough fucking kicked hard head concussion didnt stop however axe kicked ribs face bloodying over mom showed care him even knocked times even day year old sister called mommy thats one thing her year old sister hates me dad abusive mentally im cutter cut self once took box cutter made sure break piece off cut wrists only however still want high gives you never got drunk gotten high anything besides sex feel empty inside every climax fills even little bit people think im throwing life away mainly used honors high school credits whilst im th grade cant go much longer im thinking ending tomorrow easy access weapons shotgun mom painter payback thinking shotgunning back head favorite paintings brings question would situation,1 +vent thanks anyone reads this wish luck new lady also yoga instructor maybe good,1 +start company years ago ambition goal job stayed stayed stayed wasting away s s s role changed significantly currently making ever asked take different roles however absolutely miserable low point job argument person worked years someone would consider friend upset management style also made ridiculous mistake little ago could problems comes long time feeling knowing would without job would feel adrift job looking at know details would like environment like schedule would probably make half currently making let us say get job sucks would do job way long,1 +get allno one cares me one wants life friends families time see me ex want speak all absolutely hates me keep losing family family involve anything ive depressed least decade now im third life ive depressed everyone keep telling gets better meds helped stabilize horrible meltdowns anymore anyone life im ghost people tell kill myself none care invite anywhere hate me cruel knew much suffering inbmy head would understand need this ill better months thoughts come backbit go away cant family like would want raise family me would anyone ever love me im garbage piece shit wish pulled trigger chance would never worry again im here alone one know one really cares want fucking world,1 +anyone likes read plays like plays differ ordinary books im total theatre nerd school offers occasion read tons play and covid see lot them reccomandation read english french got anything tell me share favorite,0 +contemplating it idea should dont read want lengthy yeahi years old turn march thinking redflag since fifth grade ive course always thought hormones going puberty early never went it ill give brief overview life pushed feel way starters thoughts began fifth grade mainly nobody really friend less alone mention teased throughout life looking back experiences easy overcome compared things people contemplate redflag over bad really around three friend two really want around sort leeched onto stuck get rid me great times always joking around shit third friend jonathan known since first grade great friends even went house large number times also came mine every single day towards end fifth grade johnathan always superior almost every way younger looking whereas early bloomer looked older kids better looking social friends me jealous means knew much liked overall noticed was feelings feeling inferior grew went house sleepovers years lived nice little house happy family problem family life seemed breeze him hard explain life seemed innocent carefree compared shit head ive grown called typical shit like ugly truth told ive always insecure looked comments never rested well me made worse could sort see it right now feel alone anybody friends none all makes feel cannot talk anybody ive talked mom countless times always tries get look bright side life tells im mistaken im close father mom feel comfortable talking him feel like itd awkward ive tried imagine many times little sister feel actually go killing myself would traumatize well entire family know problem id dead still know could ever die knowing outcome think might still salvageable suspect things getting bad ive began crying sleep well las day throughout week felt diffrent ways ive never felt before ive cried lot before feeling always feels like overlooming constantly know anymore maybe confused suspect hormones since ,1 +truthwhen making way school bus suffer extreme sun light heat characteristic country near equator constantly gaze clear sky ponder whether life means meaningful byproduct stupidity explanation after many thoughts occur back head one seem fade away put end semieternally painful plain existence today really try keep trying improve grades physics math chemistry admit fact simply good matters ill never be quite hard endure routine knowing procrastinative are friends clearly success even though im hardworking far neither get impeccable results exams struggle resolve even simplest problematics feel numb completely lost driven away focused path following last year accepted participating olympiad class persuaded sign sort proof commited would used case development mathematics physics chemistry bright living nightmare past years many discussions even abdicated completely faith used deity order embrace cold reality little somehow figured life seemed realistic ideals classmates daydreaming today complete fifteen years existence yet discover solution problem everything,1 +feel like im kinda losing best friend best friend attend different colleges theyre minutes away due civil seeing other still speak phone least twice month program classes person hes always someone else partying such im stuck student apartment one talk to know irrational hes told cant wait see know means it cant stop feeling like hes moving way faster life leaving dust guess asking teens advice best idea rant so help welcome,0 +prank parents so basically made fake gmail account online school teacher sent email mom dad gist basically paying attention class distracted sent could hear dad reading mom whatever reason got email first prank gonna extra spicy were asian family course theyre gonna go ballistic dad called room stop laughing spilled tea seemed pretty worried still said opened fake email teachers name something crime now im sure crime make sure delete email account luckily enough parents admitted defeat actually cool prank idk needed tell someone itd weird tell friends story lol wait guys also friends though ah cares,0 +stop thinking cutting myselfi cry work almost every day starve even tho job time even two jobs go hungry one person world trust wants me love like want grow resentment towards feel like contributes unhappiness hate life reason kill dog used thing keeping cutting modeling stopped cus make happy anymore want hurt myself reason feel like would help,1 +deserve liveive good enough life everything handed me done im worth half time anyone puts toward me everyones worse done more right sad alive,1 +first world problems im happy lifefirstly compared lot people subreddit bad all im broke friends goalshobbies im extremely ugly either really much life wanted it stuff ive done make mom happy im child parent tell happy me im taking sweet time trudging grad school putzing around jobs unrelated field money hobbies want stressed iron firsted asian parent never really coddled me really something talk her last time hugged her probably tell also quite jealous sisters daughters gotten married even first boyfriend yet ive made attempts dating sake boring me thing last night got really drunk especially depressed kind started making plans assets would go really good goals kind want end it feel like great things going me feels empty meaningless ,1 +happy national pizza day true story,0 +doctor second song jack stauber even sad makes want cry also young folks one part buzz love song im becoming sensitive every day,0 +happy birthday lmao turn midnight yet still want kill myself,1 +called redflag hotline way home work last nighti made throwaway account many family members know main last night work particularly difficult one ideation would leave head night know do night kept thinking go another one days could drive car bridge drive exact one every single night way home would easy got work car broke down called hotline stay phone got home know anymore gets better gets worse ever thought possible see future get closer closer every single time im lost thanks letting vent,1 +whats guys im writing new song want know think chorus nigga nigga bitch nigga nigga nigga fried chicken nigga watermelon nigga bitch nigga nigga white women titties ass,0 +happened posting images grayed filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im pretty sure im going kill myselfits mind years now ebbs flows always come back it always seems stronger im reaching want help im sure im even willing get it im closing severe emotional pain nearly constantly sometimes reason sometimes brain makes one hate everything am im joke failure living lie let people down people abandoned push away close friends anymore cant anything well idea keep life let alone desire so attempts art suck real talents skills im intelligent graduated college shit degree im debt working dead end job comfortable motivation better myself yet get enraged daily it way get treated way people treat other people make nervous give anxiety make ill trouble feigning interest anyone hate easy appears them hate knowing really easy anyone yet still decent bodies decent jobs people love them ability create things stupid realize it hate actually things pretty good people lived though holocaust famine war suffering yet hurt fucking bad suffering ive bottling everything long yell people lash physically feel anger pain fear ugliness boiling there thick tar im stranger body hate it im fat im ugly even body would want touch ive dealing eating entire life thing always me transitioned living female couple years back helped put suicidal thoughts awhile back better ever never body want ill never loved way need be even cut genitals get surgeries im still guy fooling himself wound need keep sealing up praying someone still interest me transgendered person usefulness fetization gone take step ive yet meet man doesnt want use this ive really tried transwomen meet im convinced vast majority us misunderstood misdiagnosed seeking attention perhaps thats it thats parents think ive felt like alien body since toddler still feel like belong here anywhere speaking family embarrassed me im allowed see niece nephew sister brother desire talk me brother best friends long time mother father allow whenever family around friends neighbors tolerate me barely cant hug dont want feel breasts touch them refuse use chosen name tell suffering depression me reason ive stuck around long adopted family partner year half husband two kids extended family embraced me get see true nature getting tired me love way need be share conversations intimacy way used to trouble even touching cuddling anymore disappoint her cause drama upsets hurts regularly tells tired us is feel like reason still puts knows want kill myself want burden spend nights together get fewer fewer gives me well choice husband right across hall get along great tares apart chooses him plays video games day engages none whatsoever yet relationship magically rocks ever since came along make things worse attracted him messed around past never happens anymore im one wants sex ever one else wants make love me even fool around blame them thought awhile loved kids im even beginning resent now theyre mine cant kids anymore cant get pregnant ever anything guest family attempt parent undermined real parents right front them one tells loves times day believe it incessant sometimes seconds another annoying think even understands it cry baby screams try help him gets whatever wants said hope burden death could think went away deserve that one deserves really im selfish being one hold anymore one talk confide in everyones tired crying see therapist im getting better ive read posts people regretting attempts halfway fall whatever makes sad hear this know point is im tired im alone miss drugs gave live family life made feel alive numb play video games cry pretty much want too motivation desire better myself ive trying entire life gotten where let clear desire hurt anyone else decision renunciation freedom shotgun blast face would effective least painful least chance failing way ive come research get money pretty quickly eat last meal write note apologizing everyone life mess im leave left hearts theyll get it find nice rock mountains one last sunset boom gone think anymore loneliness fear pain used romanticize even so get passport drive south road ends pain back end it sell everything travel world im ready take elephant sized dose smack goodnight lost appeal though want trouble desire live way want quick definite,1 +beautiful waves make day happy httpsyoutubev_onlii good day ,0 +paul schrader brother leonard wrote mishima doing clearly drew parallels life yukio mishima work film divided four sections beauty art action fateful day mishima held army general hostage spoke garrison ridicule bushido ideals samurai code mishima committed ritual seppuku november planned meshing beauty art action schrader edits scenes recreating day three different scenarios mishimas novels temple golden pavilion kyokos house runaway horses moment seppuku perfectly realized relation shocking climax via pulling back camera simultaneously zooming in br br black white sequences intermingled colorful moments depicted mishimas novels black white scenes represent memories mishimas childhood youth schrader correlates autobiographical moments scenes novels often parallel mishimas real life stammer development bodybuilding obsession fostering samurai code three themes beauty art action exemplified chosen depictions respective novels color sequences reminiscent early stagy technicolor films giving film perhaps intended surreal quality considering subject matterbr br ken ogata plays real mishima unfailing determination headed generals office fateful day resembles real mishima schrader took tremendous risks film focusing novels tying thematically mishimas personal life literary ambitions editing film three main sections november black white growing segments colorful novel scenes clearly point deliberate intersection elements beauty art action mishimas life times difficult follow may little recommend uninitiated viewer stars,0 +great show total freshness innovation usual chair couch woman host mandatory band playing monotonous tunes old jokes pattern copied days nebuchadnezzer probably pattern johnny carson copied one all latterman leno conan daly show seem thesebr br i fell love show within first minutes going stick it though early say that show seems devoid intellectual pretension talk shows try hard project hope would make show different rest hope show last longbr br returning back months still love show love selfdeprecating humor for example affirmation pothead loners would home watch show saturday midnight thus jokes funny stoned guys which however involve usual monkeying conan obrien example i know cardinal sin repelled obriens antics really dislike style repetitiveness br br i watched night tom arnold it ferensens spoof trading spouses and nanny earlier episode hilarious idiot paparazzi fun especially security guard cautions taking peoples pictures if mistaken start taking pictures shouting gary colemanbr br added th april coming back again left confused neighbor dog cannot decide joke real thing either way funny hellbr br i expect spike feresten read pages maybe does crazier bunch monkeys so would better write suggestion him would like full minute show crazy gideon star late night tv commercial would like crazy gideon interview spikes talk show sing song and play guitar skit line snl also answer questions audience regarding potential mayorship los angeles i know crazy gideon may aware this websites detailing would perfect candidate post mayor labr br god willingbr br returning back th july someone wrote people praised spikes talkshow must bribed spike confess spike really bribed me must also confess rockefeller named last night sex cindy crowford,0 +online class obs fully configured green screen photoshopillustrator audition do my teacher chill long im racist ect care,0 +dont want herei dont want live anymore havent since im everyone made seem like things would get better sober anti depressants nothing helped alcohol ssri benzo marijuana dont want live great boyfriend mom couldnt live without me couple friends however still want purchase pistol end it feel guilty still cause got dui even though didnt crash hurt someone feel like cant redeem myself quit drinking successfully completed probation chance removed record next year dont want deserves there watched step dad die house help mom clean shit blood up honestly since things awful loved much dad real dad colon cancer wont get help even though hes bleeding everyday reminds everything month ill probably end to also drinks everyday doesnt gives fuck get better isnt really anyone read needed place rant somewhere safe say want end it dont want live want gone good,1 +so whole bunch things happening days trying talk issue couple friends though one friends understands coming from not told bunch stuff friends think need work on acknowledged wrong said feelings valid apologized even said going change put everything there asked one friends would change said needed think it fine whatever told friend could handle conversation needed think even went far talking feelings mattered learned someone really cared decided drop blue knew talking while trying think way talk person without making upset want anything me makes want around anymore heartbroken,1 +moneywhen die money bank go daughters want know go them,1 +im sad want diei lonely think im depressed know do,1 +lockdown so im uk were heading lockdown im incredibly terrified last lockdown last time tried kill cant support bubble live mum mum support cant even see boyfriend idea even try phone someone mum stops yet im shouts soon start mental breakdown last time got touch helpline made even suicidal saying completely wrong things told thought upset everyone one likes,1 +im trainsphobic trains scary af theyre big loud easily kill you,0 +someone play withi lost friends request play r xbox smurf iidocpeepeeii ampxb,1 +best job us year olds ive literally job interviews year rejected im im dire need job due one parents able get job anymore anyone knows look job hires years olds please let know,0 +help me im afraid girls decided make change tried yubo sheesh fine girl waved me respnd,0 +dont know expect want alone law enforcement officer small town ive road before injuries never severe though,1 +constantly know feel like missing core something joy felt happiness there feel emptyim sure anything spiritual level depression brain chemistry wack whatever elseim relationship someone feel like constantly disinterested me feel constantly alone drug problems recently pushed get want grt back overdose something kicked house keep spending money oneof things feels nice hard bot try cry everydayi feel alone like bo one despite knowing people want die run away woodsi write suicide letter day instead tried distract myselfi want die feel empty know make itive trying get contact therapist waiting months waiting list feel closer suicide everydayive ben thinking calling suicide hotline idki know do want help love care want die know stop wanting die missing core,1 +guess not really redeeming qualities woman ever love,1 +im fucking sociopath nowi want kill rape people longer feel suicidal fucking hate human race cant connect anyone feel nothing rage fear apathy capacity love compassion felt fucking hate entire city calgary complete failure mental health system longer friends family allies go anymore hahaahahahahah fucking hate everything care go jail life prison least im still alive right,1 +sexual fantasies mind slept lot woman complained everything loved dearly kept saying have sex me said yes sleep you beautiful woman thank you said nice hot love sex positions finally said hey im going sex anymore said yes better hold cloth tightly said yes fell hard fabric hot,0 +think im donei really tried rather small incident today made realise im nothing low key con artist convincing people times im better am smarter nicer worthy anything all im though angsty teen stuff think ive known least years always cowardly face it even deserve get better deserve familys time money deserve anything thats given fundamentally wrong bad im arrogant talk people im selfish im brat even realise know theyre better without burden like me im scared hell though see way back here thanks reddit blast made smile made feel less alone,1 +moan name now like right now time explain moan name ill explain later,0 +horny strong someone please kill or least help kill horny,0 +xreally thinking it im probably moody went diet dont food me want end though ive way long im still fat sad broke feel like point im unlovable im losing money tomorrow phone companies dont see point trying anymore everythings reach ill delete tomorrow,1 +thats iti reached point return means it please follow path took remember life absolutely worth living anyone,1 +walking home work since car died drop interesting shit comments dm whatever im bored fuck,0 +chance get help take iti remember physical taking doctors asked fill mental evaluation survey asked felt sort depression thoughts redflag rating kind thing could fill out mom kept saying no hes happy hes fine filled paper positive scores surprised little say given suppose expected since never showed it flash forward realize much bad decision was ive contemplating redflag lot often now cant open anyone heart sinks given moment im alone got one hold talk to im exhausted unmotivated hollow feel wasting away gotten bed day get food go back bed,1 +failing thing makes happythe thing keep mind killing playing competetive game ive bad streak wanted play one online play queued random people met trolls lost games purpose reminding solo queue losing rank makes quite frustrated season ends soon reach certain rank get limited items ive tried gain back lost ranks still solo queue one play keep losing making depressed im wanting play make happy lose ill get away goal play ill get better game wise situation wise im mess,1 +please dm im bored rn ggujnbguujjyjvdeijblpiyggdtuvfdeiuyt ytttttihfdrhgdsrt,0 +know feel basically theres girl never feeling thought beautiful good friend days ago best friends house party kissed naughty boy girl things night thought end short nice fling next morning went home stop thinking her still feel almost empty sad feeling like want rewind time go back night never felt way im like deeply attracted her normal,0 +think im alive love sona bunch shit happened recently past year half actually one thing another something big happened october weeks ago something big happened again last week worst all first time life im depressed anxious bad things happening feel nothing nothing all ive felt happier guess upbeat most part think thats know wont make much longer know cant keep going energy to want stop everything think didnt young child id already done it hes thats getting through im hard time believing hes benefitting anyway thats time get sad think im failing whether im not ive always struggled mental health part cared much future success family wouldnt gone killing self dont care anything really except love son hope even go eventually knows hard tried him,1 +let tell story relationship till day im love life pretty disastrous long story short long ass chain rejections mostly due revolting time cut late im ict assistant school things looking brighter me started focusing life girls less started joking friend mine who teaching cannibal corpse girl right next recognized band might seem like lot eyes practically heart shaped point started talking told shed fell long time ago bit later dated revealed pansexual all dated honestly ive never happier compatible intimate kids kids even started sharing hobbies all anyway turned exclusively lesbian months later knowing wasnt either hands accept it absolutely wrecked dated makes difference things stiff us month half talking like best buds again shes great hard feelings still emotionally scarred breakup like goddamn one time date shattered sense selfesteem turns lesbian and despite wanting move feelings someone else acknowledge im ready new thing wait moral story im really fucking revolting,0 +someone family not saying personal reasons thinks mr bean always silly whatever comedy series imagine felt time shocked instantlybr br there reasons one love watching mr bean one earliest shows local television country first grew watching one things stuck head even friends talked selected episodes laughed togetherbr br its always silly funny hilarious whatever antics rowan atkinson mr bean episode though lately times may show repeats here never failed bring back childhood memories mine fact dare say first show introduces kind shows come uk growing upbr br the comedy seriesdefinitely really wicked brits may saying,0 +feel goodi kind figured future id end killing myself oddest foreign feeling instead really feeling sad depressed exclusively feel also sense philosophical rationality comes wanting kill yourself all suffer entire life instead suffering lot little never suffering again entire life revolved around failure many times life ever genuinely good coping mechanism emanating sense fake happiness joy morbid jokes im sure someone shoes probably see bright future ahead either im depressed suffering mental illness final year high school likely getting colleges universities want again entire experience school fucking horrible matter hard try always fucking fail school worst fucking thing ever happened me want go near another institution again literally even know want life even want anything it life fucking garbage want anymore this hope sound like anything menial fear life fear want end midlate s jobless or fucking horrible broke worthless actually helpless literally one even parents around help figured killed sooner bad compounded depression turning even deeper utter sense failure guilt regret comes living ive relatively high achiever life feeling low really fucking hurts makes question value existence literally cannot connect anyone cannot talk anyone want talk anyone pseudo bullshit hotlines web services fucking horrible making lose faith humanity makes hate existence even more ive depressed several years gone it acid summer kind changed life better reality life hitting me shitty forseeable future showing again ever since born life actually shit abused young kid til now immense levels neglect throughout entire areas life want contribute something great things past weeks realized thinking could ever thing delusion everyone around telling im delusional thinking make anywhere realized right im sure believe either shoes really potential im stupid fucking dreamer wanna help impact guess deserve much im always known things really extreme insane fashion want go bang make chances living really low want quick never temporary looming long time since young ive tried several support groups counsellors lot stuff im done here unfortunately im really good lying nooses proper rope long drop system place potassium cyanide pills gauge shotgun im looking help guidance cant really neglect longer really thought would fade away im also curious would humans ever feel like killing themselves dogs animals that mean humans much better quality life compared dogs humans resources get yet still decide cost alive exceeds benefit value extracted enhanced quality life,1 +wanna grow come want im confused wanna im older thats im posting appreciate reply,0 +im friends point eat alone every day school do want cliche answersps used sort depressed sometimes still get bouts depression time comes reason,1 +originally watched simple rules disney channel uk first series got completely hooked show annoyed abc satred showing nd series think another series would start read john ritter died however nd series amazing latest series back old excellent standard hope go produce shows soon even though could watch show thousand times kaley couco favourite character airhead bridget also performs amazing charmed rory also good shares name grampa wellill keep watching ends hope carries funny ever,0 +im indifferent towards livingi think im ever going kill somebody got really sick something like really even care thatd pretty great actually second nature shut room away everybody lose escapism everything else much work much work study much work work much work go outside talk people etc see point it either ive lived fantasy world head whole life im starting realize know live real world friends seems like everyone would prefer around really feel connection anyone else theres wall everyone else world goals aspirations theyre stupid infantile shit probably crash burn pursue anyway really want live anymore know problems selfinflicted constructed whatever theyre fucking minute compared basically every depressed person planet want anymore cant this much energy it ive always taken easy way everything death whole lot easier alive wish bravery kill dont need someone else something else me want alive anymore hate hate alive despise myself,1 +using guni got abused many people socially isolated years already wrote lot subreddit met nice people nice people also abusing guess yesterday asked friend could borrow hunting rifle ill receive rifle hours whats best way use it pulling trigger rifle throat put bullet straigt brain,1 +feel like antidepressants working im lazyi take medication prescribed feel anything doctor tells something along lines stuff depressed medication alone make feel better improved life without medication probably need it improve life without medication im lazy never anything get medication put work feel better im lazy end day fault im depressed none medication ive tried worked fault marketable skills get real job fault go seek skills worst part also fault killed yet means know it certainly get left alone long enough pull off still reason im damn lazy cant even take easy way,1 +helpwhen born put nicu i think thats called couple weeks released sent house around three months father supposedly shook me thats mother told me growing hard anything one kids didnt friends wasnt junior high mother told happened younger father rushed emergency room shunt placed inside me many surgeries graduated college stay house feelings come back ive always thoughts head saying things like drove truck bridge something similar sister kid father tries gentle him know im supposed hate him always start thinking couldnt treated way get feelings im wanted would person look something like that made promise ever buy right gun try make pain go away,1 +need help boys stop boner hide it usually wear joggers almost always noticeable think im sure get rid reasonable amount time least hide long enough calm,0 +going kill tonightno one cares problems im alone theres nothing anyone it,1 +im donei really am need cant tell anyone try stop me many mistakes much shut cant anymore trying hard hang girls reached fail them fail everything nothing hope im tired tired waiting trying failing gonna change meant happiness good meant anything im tired sucking got dealt ive done ive done cant,1 +woke failed attempt someone gone something similar want maybe talk itim ever since started high school grades tanked really hard due mental illness ive found gpa isnt great ive failed classes im going junior year everyone around amazing school wasnt always bad school cant get honor kid mindset grown since k grade couldnt see making graduation even finding makes feel even worse im wondering failed bunch classes bad gpa ended alright end like im expecting get ivy league school anything im trying make seem like im deservingcan achieve average life happy im doing turned alright story share think itd really help out youve made far thanks reading kind hefty haha,1 +posting til people stop feeling suicidal new day new chances life think bad day change smile hug motherfatherbrothersister internet see tomorrow teenagers gt,0 +want embrace nothingnessjust let go already cant let go cant let go stay tortured every second existence cant let go me let embrace it nothingness lust it feel like im going insane expense im fucking splitting twain cant even think without second thoughts thinking myself want stop dissappear let die peace help me,1 +little bit annoyed sometimes theses kids couple years older call btec casey pass reason know meant always shouted fuck since casey even name pissing off anyway got curious typed btec urban dictionary kind pissed realised meant next time hear say me think might slap since know casey is hell thought would funny say that least years older since year almost everyone year older calls btec casey annoys since want people call real name since many people secondary school knew even existed would nice least people know existence call name tldr couple bitches call btec casey found meant got pissed everyone calls btec casey btw name actually kiera sound anything like casey sorry writing this wanted write somebody,0 +working past month so always hard continuously exercise im it ive kept month im proud myself think kept going time finally got point tired staring stomach sticking constantly sticking in im largest person ish pounds pre quarantine annoying anyways started working even though stomach still basically size little smaller im happy it somehow gained pounds im starting even though ive dieting eating less exercising idk whats happening thanks listening wanted share ,0 +warmly sentimental tale author waltons someone pitch material me would probably reject maudlin dramatization manages tear without expected embarrassment one s better lovable hayseeds arthur hunnicutt appeal put consummate use mountain man doggedly faithful loyal hunting hound fates tied together inseparably human bond good see subtle environmental message here critters go heaven condemn poor devil merely follows instinct order stay alive deceit kingdom animals yet cruelly often treat them oddly satisfying episode confirms important message,0 +question weebs futas gay,0 +alts dont enough karma using main mean alts tons karma even main got suspended need change password like used fake email cant recover those anyways know one bindhide ones chest prevent growth maybe tran males know,0 +feel strong enoughafter years medication trying focus making better person thought finally it course bad days depression would slip make want horrible things finally thought control it today friends attempted get graphic design field university today day found results graphic design years father designer runs department ive learned everything him ive drawing whole life passion father best friend best critic and usually harshest critic years sometimes feel like one truly honest me something look right afraid tell me friends looking stuff great get wrong sometimes feel bad say anything negative pieces teacher great job reviewing too seemed afraid hurting feelings took portfolio father spending weeks compiling works organizing way thought perfect dad went found many mistakes entire spring break spent fixing them believed proud hard work this loved drawings graphic works put even paid printed completely unexpected today went friends go pick portfolios week since turned ive felt extremely sick week nervous was competitive program one takes lots work stay in friend gather outside teachers office behind everyone else want rude watch facial expression hands student portfolio grin face states name usually something notice expression changed got me even say name handed goddamn folder think knew afraid look friends pulling congratulation letters mine horrible thank applying but letter work meet professional standards portfolio show attention detail hate words actually proud something done once something thought best work ever produced yet good enough friends wanted look portfolio course wanted look theres keep tears back forever told go im ashamed say let emotions get better threw away portfolio way door got back apartment locked office life still since cant control anything anymore life seems pulsating keep going anger happiness sadness nothing sometimes single minute even tell father phone text course called right away tried make feel better could hear disappointment voice failed him failed everyone boss recently gave logo wanted design now im even right person it feel like lost someone close me partners face filled tears since got news know do im everyones disappointment morning cant sleep feel sick life put halt graphic design life like taken away me purpose idea go ill change major drop college know do taking everything power slit wrists burn myself remember physical pain distracts horrible mental abuse want gone hate myselfsleep bring nightmares life bring dissapointments death bring could bring happiness true happiness bullshit happy pill happiness kind joy read about know sorry friends post know else right now situation proven difficult bare im sorry im sunrises well thank love goodbye,1 +aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh saw really cute guy train im prob never gonna see ill surely never ever get talk aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 +piece rope becoming seductivei fucking hate household live always felt alienated life dad biggest narcissist douche ever displeasure meeting hes norwegian mom korean gave job move norway raise sister thing life keeps killing cannot bear think would react found corpse dad fucking ungrateful prick calls korean animal done anything life hobbies lot needs provided mother even though uses little money savings dad hand always complained money would never financially assist interests hes also estranged two children exwife uncle aunt his siblings cant stand thats never see families anymore hell family consisting mother sister father fucking toxic want get away cant cant get away grades poor made worst decision life two years ago picking ib programme two years mental torture forced university level schoolwork naive enough think would suit me several mental breakdowns lead handing assignment plagiarized suspended days even that contact teacher student meeting got comments teachers performance one teacher anything positive say me told lazy would essentially never amount anything still many deadlines point even think graduate highschool days ago bought thick piece rope hold hands feel glowing almost trying talk me cant stand anymore feel trapped hopeless reached breaking point wake everyday stressed whats next beginning lifes journey intentions experiencing rest thing look forward exit world finally peace,1 +someone said use wc said fun im embarrassed fun lmao,0 +fr want alter ego cool name feel like created alter ego cool name would feel invincible people would like omg wow im sttarstruck dont wanna sit think names bc greatness comes naturally forced u dig,0 +need yalls advice apology hey rteenagers need advice apology already sent girl hurt past would guys mind take look it thoughts would appreciated apology listen dont really know got point across march apologized last done really hard thinking past several months believe me summer one hardest portions this constantly thinking past wrong except times friends side then like that nothing mattered days got back home thought everything more venting ashton tonight actually scared thinking gonna myself entirely intention swear wouldnt him gone through stemmed back one problem havent able get past multiple years now frankly starting affect much dont know feel same quarantine changed everything im politically motivated somewhat fit kinda ironic ngl considering state affairs last spoke starting delve theology starting better myself thought maybe maybe repair seventh grade pride spiteful attitude time respectively trying hurt spite anger lack pride since regained guess point telling life specifics happened ashton past hours feel like screwed everyones including my lives process whatever happened seventh grade wish part group again made peace ryan admittedly big step considering pure hatred past unsubstantiated all wish us least speaking terms more miss had friendship mean cried first time long time tonight long night recalling terrible things selfish arrogant ass past truly brings name shame names siblings came me majority honour actions years ago again truly sorry truly horrid things put seventh grade hope youll forgive maybe could friends least speaking terms im sorry super lengthy get everything chest yknow ive carrying burden years decided time release all youre really good person heart seems like much changed since last spoke friendly terms still good artist again sorry things you arrogance pride got better me hope maybe speaking terms friends group kinda misses you know miss friendship that formally apologize several years ago,0 +realized need study fuck ima stay bed filler filler filler filler,0 +im extremely conservative man means waste much energy,0 +please entertain pretend pay attention chemistry class understand shit also im compeletely ignored buddy discord call,0 +want kill myselfwhats quickest way kill yourself,1 +find less attractive girls actually attractive like flat chest dont care ass dont care glasses dont care braces dont care chubby dont care why way mean guess good im genuinely curious,0 +heard something spanish class watching video reflexive verbs spanish class guy said the man one action car one receiving action made think guy sex car would that though also guy trying hypnotise dog weird video,0 +fucked upidk start im going start writing hope make sense im depressed anxious guess cause im anxious im beyond fucking shy job really fucking great awesome especially first job super high pay super cool managers place beautiful jw marriott las vegas resort spa im foodrunner pool last week fucked up fuck talk weeks ago weeks ago crying begging parents take hospital cause afraid safety im really suicidal parents really awesome btw think bad them really supportive really know help think really believe mental problems week crying home jist causing stress fkng everything general week ago the fuck up pool full people super busy im okay high workloads overwhelming tho asked help servers told organize myself like get started one server makes job hell tried taking deep breaths calm panic attack told taking break said ran away let pisses off hallway crying breathing really hard security saw sent hr sent home gave another chance also giving choice quit understand super awesome im greatful awesome management told parents said ur keeping job discussion showing face work really embarrassing hard servers hate even bartenders joke like before feel really hated get jobs make friends feel lonely ill try fight it dick move feel like dick deserve feel like dick making jobs alot harder day really cant handle job tho come home crying feeling like shit everyday almost get jobs easy think job right dont think take much longer last night really close redflag,1 +british people pronounce water properly wo uh wo uh im gewing two drink eh gloss wo uh,0 +patheticcame one life understands cares cant even get reply either guess really nothing either way going pain need get quickly can thanks anyway im done now,1 +remembering pe sub said liked fallout shirt literally talked fallout entire period rainy day sat gym talking it cool memory cool dude,0 +remember felt like anxious one medicine none ones ive put take edge off cant even play xbox live without holding breath get anxious people hear breathe mute mic give lungs reprieve go back holding it thanks reading little rant,1 +actually feel alright thats enoughwell past year going quite well outside me ive started leaving house pretty much daily social interaction struggling ofc seeing therapist organising general stabilization people telling you good way etc etc butam i im years old problems coming week reflection thing like people like suure im going functioning member society like what years old know even find something hour time without literally thinking dying worst part is im hoping get bad hole actually get try know again fuck dude back dark times around years ago felt like shit im going honest here awful still bad today even dont want run infront train time fucking scarred too stubidly time like uuh duuh ill neever forget shitty life this got something feel bad everytime look arm im kind getting mad too right im weak collected paranoid say alert anyone want do dont know need rant ill write comes head alright dont goal hear people say memaybe rehab good beacuse that im like yeah hell yeah doctor knows hes talking about lets that ofc wanted dont want anything sit home nothing oh woops thats enjoyable too would guessed maybe want expect do find fulfilling break down seek help repeat looking spend money find something do feeling bad spending low amount have atleast im living home still soon isnt case anymore too want travel guess stupid reasons yeee guessed its cant let anyone think im trying hurt eh might permanent repercussions wouldnt say im risk right now first and only attempt showed could done it without feeling attatched it lying grass night waiting like so whats next stupid thought like now want hahaha felt like king world called friend told did taking meds back theni trying hurt person feel sick right still like fuck would call someone basically telling im going pass hour so try waste already low battery life couldnt call help suprise called police followed worst cant remeber days life spazzing chained bed hospital crying screaming able control movement even moment couldnt tell docs didnt regret one bit would try time comes feel like dont fit feels like im wrong universe whew could write much thats now peace stay strong ill maybe another mins bed,1 +feel safe anymoreive depression almost ten years however lately ever before ive wanted die ive thinking day thinking really heavily considering it ive locked room day overdose thought relief dying overcome every thought have never consuming seemed close me,1 +dream weirdestcoolest fucking dream serial killer tokyo yokohama s called nagatsuke dream meant the beast irl mean anything lmfao,0 +struggling sure cope anymore cannot make wife happy job hate cannot quit cannot afford to mum dying side planet able see years know more think might need little help,1 +ive given life yet im still alivei constantly think killing myself ive done endless amounts research trying figure methods least likely fail ive planned redflag again setting dates writing notes yet ive never gone it maybe im lazy maybe im unmotivated mostly think afraid failure really know im going this anyway feel like im constantly waiting waiting magically get better waiting perfect opportunity kill myself like im stuck inbetween place im able get better time im able end suffering mentally completely given living even attempt live life anymore physically im still here know im here certainly want here am,1 +idea whats going on think deadthe night last posted here weird guy grape cocktail drugs night drank half it got tired feared throwing up went sleep thought maybe enough woke up liver felt uncomfortable live another day promised ex girlfriend last night watched lebron get defeated ex said would talk later message yesterday forgetting new gmail password signed out cutting contact her woke approximately pm even sure alive dead one home someone always home parents not got never happens biggest fear know tried kill myself blacked threw someone cleaned up seen another human today know real maybe kicked yet edit one knows think watched tv brother kinda nice mention anything thought last real words would everyone loses response happened championship game last night obviously woke up watched couple episodes unbreakable kimmy schmidt even wrote computer here giving everything brother except xbox asked gifted good friend st birthday next month told cousin great dad baby boy love dearly wish could give important things to think well taken care already,1 +fucking hate fucking hate like im born end golden days everything beginning bad years dont anything gives nostalgia happy good memories bad sad memories,0 +lowest point ever mewell im ive fucked life much cant get out since high school ive always joked around grades okay best one semester college community college like high school yet got gpa semester im thinking enlisting im fat ive trying lose weight im nonathletic even dad calls year old year olds body hurts much want end life whats point fuck wish dog pass away one could let feelings feel judge about,1 +feel like tomorrow going dayi think im finally going jump tomorrow ive thinking long thoroughly it may seem strange im sad im dead insidei hate people ive tried think rationally whole situation possible probably best talk people different perspective make important irreversible decision edit wrote thoughts early day feel need talk anymore feel peace edit talked somebody wants help would really rude kill now maybe done isolated maybe really want die know im jackass,1 +one cute kitten video one rickroll probably gonna get removed idk subreddit post httpswwwredditcomrawwcommentslrtggclingy_kitterhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcqhttpswwwredditcomrawwcommentslrtggclingy_kitter maybe herehttpsblogstartwithwhycomaadfffebbfadwi ampxb first time trying rickroll someone,0 +today years since mom died month since dad died covid redflag ideation euphoriai feel alone know people love me friends family parents really hurts know wont act thoughts dog would really hurt family kill myself thought dying feels liberating euphoric dealt depression life learned tolerate sadness loneliness tiredness comes that right feel fucked emotionally fees like void endless pain loneliness sadness like end sight even ends awaits stay alive baseline depressed self feels like whats point living suffering numbness,1 +short venti cant high functioning tired cant cant trying things going well life like see getting better one thing makes feel better moment thinking ending trying fight get better could hurt many people try know long left told anyone gotten worse want go back ward want out,1 +really wanted finally end itim closeted boy living isolated country hell earth society pretends like exist father beats repeatedly bullied school pretty much every environment feeling like never get here finally got rope yesterday felt like would much better silence noise around come find tied good enough felt really bad afterwards cried sleep cannot continue,1 +broken memoriesive always broken often wonder mother aborted me always stated almost learned her sometimes makes wonder let neighbors rape purpose horrible things happened child years ago real memories dark thoughts invade head lights see open closet door remember later school pe teacher watched change asked shower others run laps time out office remember happened twice told touched would friend carlos kill sleep thank god never found never knew carlos anyone willing commit murder matter remember best friend asking out getting mad told no remember doctor said miscarried remember able accept creating persona unborn child keep losing more remember many times ive told family want die remember telling suck up remember mom telling stop threatening it remember wanted say ok remember moment realized different remember learning word changed way parents looked me remember day realized man womans body remember feeling love anyone including myself remember feels like happy remember feels like someone cares want remember anything anymore want memories want finally put knife wrist watch life fade away nothing always been,1 +please help mei want die cant live like anymore roommate best friend want deal rent cant afford go but cannot go back work two days cant work means money insurance antidepressants adhd meds without beyond fucked high maintenance world anyone know do parents picture family stay with friends aside roommate knows cant help me cannot afford counseling afraid death way escape now,1 +never endinglast night bugs crawling body werent husband assured werent there could hear rats wall could not sirens gave headache know none real time was havent hallucinated bad while times year become deeply suicidal life forever know be theres guarantee kids would better mother leave chances good risk it could worse occasionally psychotic self ive never hurt them ive afraid going to havent quarantine two small children helping illness love them husband amazing know could find amazing woman making sense then dealing dead body takes paperwork lot time first respondersmedical personnel hands full is cant add that moot point anyway cant kill myself cant risk hurting kids know husband loves me resilience incredible hate brought children worldnot shit going on predisposition mental illness well take care them trying hard love them tired,1 +please tell keep goingim partial hospitalization program eating disorders right insurance havent able receive treatment last three days ive disassociative episodes flashbacks destructive urges lately argue family go psych ward go residential care come here may fight go different residential recommended therapist im tired fighting im fighting hard stay alive family wants magically better without actually getting treatment anyones reading would really appreciate words encouragement hope everyones staying safe sane,1 +sub chaotically boring middle night dude keeps posting porn,0 +true chad decipher brgr k ft lets lst jud wnt n jr brgr k brgr smwnz ft fgs bt z trnz at mat bi wt ju gt frtnr pladd ft nnmsli sat ks z fit n plstk bn v lets wt nstetmnt s lets ju brgr k dmtdli hi hd us n bt ivn wrs,0 +im gonna fucking kmsi one lifes worthless fuck reaching stupid talkings complete waste time never fucking helped see bunch stupid fucking strangers internet gonna help im better dead doubt anyone even affected care know what fuck life fucking bullshit give flying fuck anymore soon write im gone,1 +bet someone gives shittoday friend bad day know struggle us heard bit started getting worried texted them time passed got worried messages staying delivered finally called heard voice almost cried im crier meant much hear them know you know story bet theres someone worries you would cry relief hear voice cant promise ill reply comments kind message bottle hope makes least one person needs it,1 +hope bad day no really hope honestly have me final minutes worst experiences life you yeah you know are anybody else they continue scrolling new,0 +anyone ever insults pay attention constantly person either get person stop coming creative comeback not likely succeeding ask kindly stop compliment them either weirded change views you either way theyre gonna keep distance time,0 +anyone needs talk englishgermanif anyone needs talk im here private message skypeoovoo name speak english german fluently speak one languages im you ,1 +death gotten year realized bad school first kept telling us year last time chill barely let us much work would get year secondly someone else got grades pretty much got put core easier maths got put extended harder maths cant switch core even though got bad score first test parents teacher cant switch finally around assignments first week back things cant done since im running hours sleep,0 +cat hat official fan club cupcake inator im excited audience chuckling cupcakeawhat cat audience kupkakeinator oh amazing device instantly make cupcakes anything kitchen wait minute sayanything anything anything yes anything anything anything anything ill get you itll look like bloody accident,0 +wife disabled yet get approved disability past months oldest son helping us pay bills get by talking moving out redflag roof house renovation limbo since last year friend helping us stop due family issues got bathroom still bare drywall year son kept promising help it chipped away couple times way behind property taxes fully expect house get seized sometime next yeari think son comprehends much rely right now fair put shit him blame wanting get own bought dream car corvette really getting taste freedom gone more tell thisbut moves out know fact me wife three brothers homeless year especially cannot get disability approvedeven work home jobs proven impossible keep longi know do already hate providing family now going prove downfall goodi life insurance policy got two years pay case suicide hoping would stick around long family set that blame him feeling abandoned,1 +wish people didnt care could kill myselfmy whole life bunch dead ends way out sucks living everyday knowing life cant go anywhere make happy itd nice die genuinely good friends parents care could never bring to thats become really frustrating,1 +want carry onfeel like spoiled child title is ill attempt brief can failing uni im sure care degree music anyway close friend usually helps things response them mean world me late respond start freaking much trust etc valid reasons story way long telling here point weve patched things since drama past since ive lost turned nothing im posting instead id really rather make mistake again basically im dead weight hope future ive dragged hurt others im really questioning point continuing ever get say right tried give now no obviously dont live keep everyone else happy hear see now redflag never answer,1 +goodbye im going better placei dont understand bad people are shared unpopular opinion fat shaming illegal people said run fatty run nothing live for abusive dad bullies filled real life internet ampxb im going better place called heaven stop can,1 +hiya leave message reply wake day took break days personal reasons im back happy was good night,0 +im tired failingafter surviving last attempt felt anger im usually passive quiet person incredibly frustrated im failure even kill myself ive lost count attempt last one probably th th draining fail fail life even fail death fail never get back up life always worse im tired know cant give up cannot ever stop trying kill myself belong world dead free constant pain hopefully next attempt fatal keep trying anymore,1 +tess storm country mary pickford vehicle intended get time finally found vhs copy reasonable price got enjoy itbr br mary gives typical spunky innocently sexy portrayal wrongsideoftracks girl wins heart rich heir time stakes higher false murder charge illegitimate child and ensuing case mistaken motherhood contemplated suicidebr br one see pickford wanted redo one story real morality tale kind loved star in controversial topics always spelled plainly viewer pay attention pick hints catch everything implied first viewing although everything less explained endbr br about negative remark make would concerning jean hersholt dog hersholt whose character ben letts looks pounds bigger next mary course sent fleeing panic pound chocolate lab charges toward him then top or maybe justify perplexing fear dog manages pin ground somehow injures badly still struggling get much later bad storm hits lovable lab sleeps frederick lloyd hughes cuddles mary yet mary later throws boiling water bens face barely slows him ok ive vented ben chocolate lab that movie quite touching certainly held attention pickfords supporting cast strong believable certainly among better films,0 +tf problem opposite gender afraid opposite sex sexual orientation im lesbian speak normally girls bitch arent monsters uknownsubject thing hard opposite gender friends yall question swear,0 +friendlyeggs lyric collection tally hall edition hear flibbity jibbity jibber jabber oh god ive gotta get ill another word sell another story tell another timepiece ringing bell hear clock stop reach end no know must neverending comprehend try pretend understand resemble fool although man give smile tally hall ruler everything life short things happen make best it smile,0 +dumped commit redflag help preventmy girlfriend year broke last night attempted redflag life years ago shes always dealt anxiety depression went therapist small bit wouldnt detail extreme feelings saw hospitalization money time burden parents told morning shes going hang tonight ive trying talk positive options influences has feel powerless know isnt place whether kills herself help better life anyway ultimately preferred help please share advice anxiety skyrocketing,1 +disappeari post awhile i reached help today told thingsession doing cant continue like thisnothing say,1 +knowim male recently broke girl years dunno feel that think want it right im coming drug called cb friends spent night early morning ireland it felt like horse shit thats am cant recall one good meaningful thing ive done society world take take take want think improve image people thats number one priority life thats fucked am person feel totally normal comfortable relationship mother everything else akward cant forge decent pure relationship anyone co workers cashier milkman people like call best friends feel theres something demeanour style everybody mutually understands prevents making relationship progress anyone maybe im socially retarded hate it feel alone know shouldnt even right complain hey look perfect first world life perfect sometimes hate feel utter darkness next day find simple things life beautiful ive cried many times simply became overcome beauty intricacies life theres new girl met club walked home drunk together club cab money friends dissapeared since met majority thinking time goes her shes unbelievably cute fell love still am definetely difference loving someone love someone met times afterwards toys think ive heard people say gets around makes stomach turn slowly texting relationship deteriorated like everything else does still hasnt replied last message probably wont dunno might seem attractive non drunk person sun shines eyes view wish didnt wish wasnt helplessly pathetically love truth ill never her ill always watch distance time life flippantly happy makes wanna cry cry cry dont think anyone ever really considers anything important kinda like year old whos tagging along grown ups talk soul destroying want know fuck wrong different like think someone put challenges front hand shoulder urging on think maybe im worthless odd ball chemical biological reactions im biological freak able fit whatever biological difference body brain that fills scariest fear maybe alone biological evolutionary world meant fit in lust image approval gone far think kill least il talking point small bit time il interesting bit im tired seeing people glance awkwardly me im sorry trainwreck text much subreddit gotten far really really thank even making part life last minutes im looking sympathy gonna make empty threats know wont kill now dont balls im coward feel going slide seems much realistic possibility six months ago wanna talk thats all people dont put fake style fake illusion life perfect were normal theres problems,1 +drained keep taking lnf,1 +like episode quite bit ruth gordon good little hammy always was stated music good moodiness exist episodesbr br but one major plot hole exists wide drive fleet trucks it established light work vault think intelligent columbo rest police would thought check light bulb worked think pretty short order would unscrewed bulb found note granted tv whodunit fiction various holes always found seems much glaringbr br it really make columbo hidden genius light work death bed testimony goes unfound apparently days,0 +alone mutei even know come here feel like talking feel like shouting feel like letting go wrecking everything path feel tense frustrated cant anything good bad feel stuck head replaying old regrets inadequate memories again want kill maniacal fervor yet know it control myself sense im slowly losing grip reality quiet myself boil crumble beneath blank dead stare want everything everyone shut up world meant me im idealistic naive arrogant demanding others able function it im slowly turning mass seething hate targeted humanity let spat ridiculed sake being good now kept unto others emotional insight starting wane i feel nothing die alone die without ever feeling love die without someone else ever knowing true thoughts feelings die knowing meant good guy fate took away me kill pity disdain dissapointment echo void die selfironyzing selfhatred last thought i please go i see shivering thought spending yet another useless day dare tell live know much selfhatred have cannot know nobody can me me,1 +feel like im ultimately going die handsmy whole life story necessary im going post make feel better used live michigan many hobbies much computer day ive always smart like saying that feel like everyone whos dumb says thing seems like true taking consideration results tests ive taken past end high school never really felt depressed never happy smile never depressed graduated hated life boring dull legitimate purpose friends real life really desire better i better need live happy internet food electricity shelter see point living decided since going kill reason move wherever damn well felt like it did left free housing food left free college education would say dumb would one people saw differently then understand point view truly going kill myself better leave live stay dieeven staying dying would substantially better idea moved really far away state unnamed confidentiality moved there could meet best friends internet real life had lived with girlfriend actually enjoyed life ffw year tried hard could find job money ran out valentines day know myself cant kill would destroy girlfriend cant leave same cant find job cant work job finding system advantage hell cant even get weed smoke ee make matters worse ive lived year parents house barely contributed ive paid like mo rent feel like useless person girlfriends brother pretty much told much today trying make girlfriend feel better argument mom fucking valentines day basically im trying find job still im also going try move back michigan march attempt finish college girlfriend may lost scholarships probably wont find job ill probably well possibly lose housing soon think life good one ultimately turns ill homeless guess ill kill myself legitimate reason come suffering ultimately worse death regardless temporary suffering think worst part initially going kill large amount privilege reason live im going kill reasons live my girlfriendi love much privilege or least possibility good life really reason post guess since people saying dont kill yourself help kill years now think wanted get chest feel terrible today honestly almost decided take gram mxe gamble life away decided to still probably closer redflag today ever been,1 +tetetethrsrhthtfhtfht,1 +shall rick roll mom put rick roll link christmas box im gonna act like made video youtube typed link phone,0 +birthday huge im covid im pretty happy year had,0 +decisioni made decision awhile ago feel like fight me kill myself thats way im dying made mind got fight mom earlier amp almost told cant bc know shell hurt amp want get help decision final im still trying live normal happy life know one day ill give amp comforting know way out,1 +moment,0 +suicidal long distance partnermy boyfriend lives north england live south hes brilliant person genuinely love him great sense humour outward confidence hes great studies landed part time jobs too im really proud him ampxb unfortunately raped systematically abused child hes killed someone know accept love attempted redflag before nowadays uses alcohol cigs cocaine mdma weed whatever else get hands cope still lapses dark weeks says feels ready kill himself hes written letter recently hes started cutting though know badly every time goes dark time feel get closer closer losing him also suicidal reasons goes im going give too knows this ampxb ive got direct emergency number towns services hes promised call say goodbye anything im worried eating know talk it talk things me know do anyone help would really grateful ampxb,1 +guys im scared precious cat getting weak fear may dying dont want die shes long ass time hell back jesus christ long typhical house cat live,0 +got thigh highs bunny ears halloween tho,0 +maybe death fastest way outthrowaway obvious reasons ive raised abusive parents make feel like shit berating small thing ive done wrong bringing past mistakes like fucking scrapbook feels like horrible unhealthy lifestyle would willingly leave small chance standing ominously around like vultures ive subject verbal abuse years physical abuse first yo feel anymore compassion parents great academically ive picking pace starting work towards better future however nothing seems change perception me view waste space money money could spending better stuff son want last ive contemplating redflag years now understand live anymore always thought good child small things one took note grateful for cant live household parents might end point youll never amount anything fucking life cant even keep shit together i understand hes aiming be you lazy fuck playing games never studying slacking off even waste money going school i want help people ive always wanted doctor you want become fucking doctor yeah right quit school go work would useful slightest huh funny im studying become doctor occupation saves lives yet cant save myself funny irony works world tonight night ive cracked decided act upon wishes ever since middle school written long facebook post going end myself people truly came support middle school classmates ive better family school hoe life set ultimatum end year nothing changes im going take fathers firearm shoot head it better live drowned alive course ive thinking long hard whether go it seems dead husk might well saving grace eye parents seems ill either become stronger this leave world forever friends would maybe go way help someone im afraid damage could cause leaving suddenly brother person love envy most never gone ive gone through get berated abused baby family take blunt blows like punching bag even punching bags break really know im post maybe bit solace empathy people going experiences also edge much closer blissful kiss death guess im also looking reason live defy odds win war attrition them want pity want reason smile laugh ruins wall parents ravaged im sorry wordiness seems much empathetic real writing image words hey thanks reading reddit pretty cool place ive come many times back find solace real pain leaps every step goodbye may last chapter ever come across ampxb,1 +honestly tell movie awesome movie ever mood comedy totally recommend movie so heres summary girlnikki fourteen half goes vacation fatherandre seen two years expects vacation totally boring meets boyben much older is so try impress says vacation father lover hysterical movie beginning end highly suggest it rent enjoy,0 +remember covid first started went outside felt like supposed nuclear fallout shit lmao like everything completely normal nobody cares anymore,0 +im killing sooni want rant know nobody cares entirety sub pity party im damn tired guess want someone else know take seriosly since friends take say joke family maybe want leave note someone knows existed maybe damn autumn afternoons nice wish could enjoy them wonder books end up pet treated well now think it regret recently buying clothes money would handy funeral least hope ill one improbable always loved quiet places redflag alley hometown cemetery never visited human steps maybe someone else decides end all someone dig new hole ground peace again wonder stories ghosts real haunting professor would fun id learn things even afterlife could travel could never life least hope so tired age wish someone watch sunset with someone tell goodbye,1 +today good dayim two half weeks second try antidepressants diagnosed depression one year ago given unexpected day wasting today depression winning much prefer busy pretending feel like this cant find motivation something,1 +spending inordinate amount time thinking others would say end itevery day drown silence stick shitty youtube documentaries unsolved mysteries coldcase murders like spend lot time talking families friends dead everywhere go everything do lined undercurrent thinking last time one sees me would look internet usage would try justify death would talk troubled young woman struggled lot mental health im feeling tired pervasive gnawing suicidal ideation kind eats slowly youre never sure breaking point be,1 +someone dedicate entire life saving you someone take sadness empathy cannot suicidal us happy people continuing live lives normal check every day enough many pep talks someone give say suicidal start lying say fine one fixing one can guess feels like one cares care anymore scary unpopular opinion suicidal mind even want says one cares,1 +oh thicc thighs use pillow ,0 +im totally alone wanted die monthsmy partner years left month ago stupidly agreed move new place after got evicted old place today moving day want die want go like this left psychotic episodes got worse worse emotionally abusive ex ptsd got physical forced way room police got involved cant stop thinking violence want fix things know thats impossible blames throwing away relationship dealing mental illness ive diagnosed bpdschizophrenia anxiety depression bipolar ex thinks im narcissistim sick ill im tired mental health ruining everything brain fucked ive already tried kill like times since wish guts actually it would much better dead want live like anymore want move him keep going back thinking maybe theyll love never hate still loving someone vocal disgusting find me see point anymore,1 +feeling girl like playing hard get do know do,0 +see point anymorei laugh smile enjoy things one really notices cares do anything anyone whats point,1 +college drain cannot see way outsecond college class failed stay school another semester gpa plummeted dreams going graduate school diminished used love studying started going downhill years college started feeling not good enough seeking help trying get depression graduating crawling toward finish line feel like accomplished nothing value win shitty academic record know thing keeps grounded boyfriend everything me tries hold up cant see decent future future would enjoy giving applying jobs live fact fucked entire life think move this think gets better,1 +help rightwhen kill right otherwise im waste already stretched thin medical resources help,1 +girls like meow yeah like,0 +odd yesterdayyea nearly enough kill go hospital im back home awkward family took away all sharps missed stashed ones took away pens like cant even write feelings cope phone first responders told parents sh arm mention thighs thats kinda awkward think bearly cut theyd ashamed saw thighs lol think im ment cope without drawing writing walking privacy cant left alone although almost try came back did guess rant one angry upset know im ungrateful something stupif parents wedding anniversary yet complained ruined day deserve love support im failure want torture constant pain go know everyones gonna sad go hard cant take much more left hospital stood edge bridge really wanted jump step mum trying get appointment help phone idk deserve this im weak cant cope yea ungrateful pathetic human wishes alittle stronger follow through,1 +th gradeback asked read novel based part english class studies remember touched excited tv version came year laterbr br kristy mcnichol popular tv actress film produced already playing daughter dysfunctional family hit tv series family clear range ability pull part recall bit stiff times good job carries movie wellbr br esther rolle fantastic domestic appears one household seems truly care her barbara barrie somewhat frightened slightly neurotic mother also good young robin lively who would eventually appear black widow lana milford twin peaksas sweet younger sister seems focus parents affection bruce davidson also appropriately appealing german soldier titlebr br the best performance however belongs michael constantine truly powerful merited recognition got time bitterness coldness expresses makes scenes appears difficult watch makes much easier understand quiet desperation rejected daughter constantine gives everything right intensity seems good understanding underlying psychological motivationsbr br the film differs book small ways wonderful inspiring watch hope gets released video dvdbr br ,0 +feel like ill never amount anything reason alreadyi withdraw cosmetology school cant afford gas get there dropped college year ago bc depression cant find job support with im debt cant find anyone worth sharing time with friends graduated bachelors degrees still school despite mental illness stable jobs loving families moved away toxic abusive parents ive done nothing fail ever since hate life everything it nothing good ever come me im miserable want end already,1 +failed attempt afterwards words helped mei failed days ago thats okay parts didnt fail reached theses words help stabilize bit hope read helps well absence leave void similar mine always remain youre there absence throw entire life course duty bury parents way around bury child devastated would words actions could mend wound done can least live on others hopefully one day live dont want us find mom telling us youre longer us ill punching air theres one blame myself itll make wonder could done last time together two days ago end longer willing move towards future reached out im strong enough alone took step attempt get better im quitter im damn well going cut attempt life short im sure everyone facing let face you,1 +homeless third timethey kidding said life s would hard ive homeless different times separate occasions currently age struggle major drugs smoke lot weedwax find drinking often slip depression also lot often figured id comment advice improve try get situation recently lost job sick months ago took days one week sick cold want risk getting anyone else sick especially peak covid emailed company different times letting know situation months later guess matter fired it explain further need explain companies policies used work unimportant whats happening now fact is lost job due poor communication skills relaying im sick never get job back im paying it months later completely unexpected nowhere waking morning phone call hr representative terminated almost months employment part wishes going fire me took days off rather months later reason happened worst time left room renting month lease at try find something better long story short find place time packed everything car headed homeless grateful least still job gone homeless job way behind way many bills third time happened exact way situation homeless times pretty irresponsible think think fuck it often ive low before again fuck it die fuck it really family deceased divorced split apart family never talked never close ive mom relationship deteriorating ever since s introverted keep myself im never one start conversations someone mind keeping one going someone engages one always aim kind others treat people id like treated cant bring talk anyone anymore find hard things like talk people time want to feel like looking another shitty job know ill hate sometime line feel like making friends could possibly lose future feel like going school get debt feel like talking mom hear one sided views judgemental opinions feel like catching month late car payment longer pay ive blowing rest savings food weed alcohol obviously need get priorities straight care anymore think im well aware im failure life right need get shit straight im trying find reasons care really see much point anything anymore could explain personal things add context help support feel way personal post already way long is thoughts hurting always throughout whole adult life feel prevalent ever im problem right now poor planning bad choices led this things life led care im making excuses this know buckle buttercup start looking another job fix car find repossess it care anymore whats wrong me used care lot dont anyone took time read this really thank going way know long honestly really pathetic me im scared im really scared bad thoughts time feel insecure ever feel like talk someone theres one there mother never understand never father im asking pity advice please help find reason care again not call coward guess thank all,1 +started redflag note todayits pages long far feels like academic paper decided make primary goal still courage end life yet do ill prepared,1 +committing redflag well it seen coming sooner made case parents want investigate redflag mom dad im sorry,1 +im going honest fat girls kinda cute fetish thing im talking range im guy likes drinking nyquil anyone else agree,0 +redflag ideasi used think impossible pull successfully wanted stop existing didnt know commit redflag nowhere realized possible try could stab longer longer day estimate close death even though dont know exactly carry out scares one day could figure carry plan across several days im gonna kill however course promise guarantee cant know future self think feel please dont kill yourself,1 +people say want hear give uphas anyone else experienced this youll talking someone wants hear anything soon start talking already look tired it like oh saying wanna hear helps lot thank you,1 +betrayed fcked everyone trying love solely think one stays alive society narcissist form empathy others get used them weak good one suffers emotionless strong thrives also feel like want part sick disgusting society,1 +suicidal yr oldim best friend years yr old recently tried kill later admitted redflag watch detailing plan second attempt best friend incredible person wants help well read great communicator friend asked help knows hes great things want everything help theyve already persevered much hes family far im concerned best things support them best resources parents suicidal kids best support son advice means know thank you,1 +feel stuck like imposter feel worthless unmotivated time nothing future me like everyone else way better never good anything little energy days still days okay ways normal former take again often feel like run away stuff faking faking depression,1 +spanish required subject us least california nearly population speaks spanish new mexico nearly population speaks spanish ridiculous taught spanish english beginning school also taught latin american spanish theres much difference would kinda like teaching us british english yeah would fine american english would useful even mostly,0 +ill give award comment made laugh fillerfillerfillermckdndmnamp,0 +eighth thus secondtolast short animatrix ones one quite like this takes two main types filmed entertainment inspirations matrix combines unbelievably well immensely faithful trilogy aspect tone animation gorgeous breathtaking anim style omnipresent this noir plot fitting storytelling well music spoton sound general fantastic really helps solidify mood atmosphere along drawings designs voice acting impeccable one two people also movies reprise roles annemoss appearing this one best nine also one personal favorites ten minutes long pacing perfect never slows terribly much overwhelming either ending could appropriate this shares nine halfminutes long making kids story welldone informative recommend warmly fan universe two genres made of ,0 +girlfriend broke cant see long term relationship manim heartbroken now ex girlfriend two years broke couldnt see man long term broke got back together times past month two wanted make work time last home life terrible genuinely thing made happy trouble connecting people instantly made connection two years ago dont know do havent really eaten slept much since happened monday chest hurts pulse super fast hard im heart palpitations likely benign still rough ive never felt awful want drop college courses failed test messed important assignments upset couldnt focus all feel fucking awful im already struggling suicidal ideation think pushed edge cant stop thinking her,1 +im worthless wasted great chance lifei m good life parents care want know me pay therapy college siblings perfect care want best me plenty friends care want hear say gf years cared broke good reason didnt love feel like ill never find someone love again grew wealthy family never worry anything im generally considered good looking athletic charismatic responsible smart kind yet hate constantly feel like disappointment many chances making something life feel like anyone else could better me everyone family successful everything im not constantly think nice would never wake again wouldnt able disappoint people life anymore know people care would destroyed killed feel like dont realize worthless lives would better without me would get right look future see shit im always going failure cant truly open anyone dont know how ive gotten good hiding actually everyone think know me knows fake projection made feel like im strong people care getting harder here dont know made post feel like bitch dont know talk to ive scrolled countless posts sub feel every one you love hope figure together,1 +interesting title pheui day text post optional well really optional tho,0 +scared amp ashamed gonna end iti going bad time amp even worse things happened me im tired feel gut ill one day end all dont want live dont want die want exist im ashamed either decide live die im scared im useless many people even subreddit going much worse am fucking end all im hoping typing post give courage kill end pathetic mess me want peace thats it cant keep going cycle again im scared amp know im ever brave life today dont want burden family anymore wish wasnt me wish could stop me useless worthless make peoples life miserable yes ending way thank reading this really appreciate it read posts wonderful job needed say that hope good peaceful lives,1 +depressionanxiety college studentim college freshman first diagnosed anxiety depression freshman year high school lot anxiety stemmed academics feared experiencing everything full intensity again third quarter stem majorhopeful premed im falling apart ive frequent breakdowns past quarters im experiencing double intensity want od multiple times week thoughts consume day im falling behind classes despite exams least week not mention midterms next week instead watching lectures cry sleep day wanting wake up know life look forward anymore university students advice,1 +wanna dieim tired getting bad grades watch parents disappointed even tho best pass tests im sick useless human im sick im sick putting fake smile everywhere go finally im sick alone time,1 +friend keeps thinking redflag told were gonna die whats difference now doshe told stop spamming her came back tell fine spamming call anyone help do,1 +want post talk someone thoughts afraid encouraging othersi suicidal long remember like this seeking help online knew ok trying limit self harm behaviors redflag thoughts etc read people self harm destructive thoughts brain thought normal look many people also it thats self harm suicidal thoughts got worse years ago longer able stop myself desperately need talk people words might make sense others might develop kind thinking people already vulnerable would easier also cant talk people irl person everyone rely stay strong im gonna say life hard feel suicidal like life good too problem inside me every single aspect life failing cant even cry im sorry,1 +hold barney drilling head every day well guess must reasons first im convinced kids stupids kids know my half years old son selects see whats nice disgusting see news think kids know reality is maybeor maybe not the adults responsibility want kids teach them film drug dealers news massacres middle east course kids must know real life but kids lets give mercy want them wanna kids trained weapons best way kill neighbor go ahead impose lethal weapon kill bill mangas anime tell santas depraved enters chimney directly violate them want illusions son dont get wrong im saying barney friends best fact show lot defects read comments agree most maybe happiness made dreams illusions least want teach grow without fear cautious learns think believe everything serial killers hijackers theyre reasons worth grow that least little happy dreams so parents underestimate kids know want,0 +constantly threaten take son ill never see again last night started journal less abuse feelings day day basis morning hide meds me hour woke asked were cussed told talk pm last night forced sons room trying escape slapped wrist door,1 +deal friend lost someonemy friend lost best friend redflag want think needs professional help resources could give without making feel put off im really worried cant right covid thanks,1 +im dying anyway diagnosed stage nsclc sexually assaulted days ago im coping badly want die want speed process already need write letters tell ones love goodbye things stopping know tell them fault nothing could done loved them seems hollow kill yourself,1 +playing amp streaming minecraft server httpsmtwitchtvilychaya im playing minecraft server quests come chat,0 +wrote redflag note todayim tired life kicking butt last two years really hard last week hard friends couple family members and care gone feel die would make boyfriends life easier id one less burden life ampxb problem im ive calling too stupid redflag meaning idea it im tired crying sleep night when im able sleep is crying wake up im barely eating been hours point im barely drinking water im giving up ampxb know anything wrote even make sense know rambled,1 +ideationwhere people deal suicidal ideation go depression theres emergency hotlines havent helped know risks redflag intentions anything thoughts constantly head cant tell anyone worried dont want burden unnerving simply saying depressed sources either go youre trapped head,1 +fan author john le carre ive slowly working way books adaptations them found adaptation le carres masterwork local library sat watch thinking would know expect surprised discover expectations exceeded miniseries fine cross spy thriller human dramabr br peter egan gives great performance magnus pym perfect spy title carrying long tradition le carres strong main characters pym also quite possibly best egan plays pym who fact contains many shades author le carre man forced spend entire life lying betraying sometimes circumstance times survive consequence becoming a perfect spy egan plays pym perfection man always run others himself egan alone makes six hours miniseries worth seeing performance alonebr br surronding egan fantastic supporting cast ray mcanally gives one finest performances pyms con man father rick as le carre said based strongly authors father mcanally plays man comes pyms life one responsible pym becoming a perfect spy fact mcanallys performance year british coup would finest performance sadly short careerbr br the rest supporting excellent well caroline john pyms mother alan howard spy mentor rdiger weigang young pyms friend turned controller jane booker pyms wife supporting cast fantastic special mention made three young actors played younger pym jonathan haley nicholas haley benedict taylor establish young man would become man played well peter eganbr br the production values miniseries strong well miniseries adaptations tinker tailor soldier spy smileys people proved stories told miniseries format locations excellent english locations scattered across eastern europe usa sets chris edwards cinematography elmer cossey adds extra layer realism world miniseries yet highlight miniseries really scriptbr br screenwrtier arthur hopcraft tackled job adapting six hundred page novel excellently novel largely at least early parts autobiographical pyms early life echoed much john le carres life script miniseries exception traces development magnus pym young boy a perfect spy never miniseries deviate purpose telling fine human drama context world espionage one ever wants proof spy thriller tense fascinating without ever one gun fight fist fight james bond style car chase would proof miniseries six plus hours long never wastes moment better itbr br though might overlong short attention spans must see performances peter egan ray mcanally fine production values fine literary script perfect spy one finest miniseries expect see fascinating trip history cold war yet that also trip john le carre called the secret path path spy man must lie betray survive much human drama spy thriller perfect spy missed,0 +honestly worst feeling world one person care love tell hate you yeah know fucked everything change her night told got bed went backyard found good strong long rope set darkness preparing departure comes finds me taking escape her goes back inside went look another escape route ended finding old ratchet straps set again time horse trailer tied half assed noose pit around neck sat downas feel drifting darkness hear call worried tone thought myself maybe still care me maybe keep living almost final goodbye times wish was no instead stood removed strap around neck sat crying myself ended finding saying could come back inside nights ago still sleep bed me say i love you call babe hug me kiss me nothing feel like stranger home know keep going like this promised one thing happens me hate say serious want life it wish could know late wife even want anymore,1 +dogs bark differently spanish wow wow,0 +go helpthis isnt first time posting here and probably wont last im really need good advice ive feeling particularly bad lately know need ask help posting best do title suggests help myself society messed everyone access mental health care cant see actual therapist three reasons dont money health care wasnt problem couldnt completely honest would certainly involuntarily forced least hour watch happened would even worse lack money one many things contributing feeling want help myself dont want die,1 +pillsive counted pills grams fluoxetine grams topimirate plus small smattering paracetamol diazepam cant afford rent bills im self employed work coming in im fucking failure really would much easier dead idea would achieve that cause pain hassle even know want die im half absolutely desperate exist anymore im half scared knowing whats side etc know myself,1 +people dont read descriptions idiots imo listing promotes im looking part time jobs really really want buy anna mask description clearly state im free thursdays fridays thursday free time friday im driving school even stated dont take jobs day friday someone messaged me asking go down dont know brain dead something,0 +quit job live little brothers room stuff storage income pay itsee title job friends car way paying storage bill phone bill credit cards racked up honestly feel like brainwashed young age serve rich like new version slaves field backs lot rich business owners actually descended slave owners society convinced they get rich like them yet never happens people hear making good living rich parents,1 +guess thought really good five finger filet thought so turns im good enough close eyes hand covered blood day going,0 +stumbling upon hbo special late one night absolutely taken attractive british executive transvestite never laughed hard european history completely worthwhile point eddie izzard made laughed much woke mother sleeping end house,0 +people always say everyone matters everyone special yet hear people also saying awful terrible people aremake mind,1 +redflag hotline answering nobodys answering gunalone suicidal even know im anymore im massive fuckup gun etc,1 +everything memy year bad im live alone getting covid struggling death friend much i food left lost alot weight stomach burning got money welllife fair i nobody help feel like exhausted optionsi really feel like cant go im fucking crying completely alone goodbye,1 +anyone else feel like like biden elected like video game companies triple price something immediately reduce only double receiving massive backlash doubling real goal along yall know im talking about video game company triple xp required get free rewards triple cost something course get immediate massive backlash generously reduce double people somehow ok with even though doubling goal along still shitty af knew doubled straight up backlash would ensue would able increase like feels like country tired nothing changing politics helping people politics like alright want radical change here gave us worst possible thing trump like no no no thats want politics gave us biden everyone fucking ecstatic won even though hes still fucking awful literally got sucked voting bullshit status quo got us trump first place people happy it,0 +yall see theres new bird flu russia fuck man never gonna end end world ig,0 +people like eminem favorite lyrics songs im genuinely curious mine are put hands bitch im gonna shoot ima pull thus bullet put you kill said im back mathers lp tried say ill take seven kids columbine put em line add ak revolver rap god no games ima change call rage tear motherfuckin roof like two dogs caged playin beginnin mood changed lose,0 +whats closest youve ever gottento actually it,1 +honestly hate brother hate him think parents put shit hes like never shown love towards ever shown furious am start list past years quarantine situation really aggravating first off hes reason bust ass working new ps controller broke analog sticks circle triangle buttons dont work l r doesnt work anymore secondly constantly remind whenever chores take showers brush teeth eat held responsible whenever misses one always singled whenever family arguements concerning get blamed for think cool someone throughout younger stages everything power ruin life cruel doesnt care whenever breaks something pits blame almost everyone family blames breaking computer brother plays shady flash games clicks links hate it banned using computer never angrier sick him,0 +hello redflag prevention pls help going harm myselfredflag prevention very healthy reach help must fine go home now also redflag prevention o die immediately discharge,1 +sister lying calling fat posting social media saw sister first time like week yesterday would stop saying thought fat point times hour said if really think fat try lose weight meant someone could maybe help lose weight fit gave sincere apology said think fat complaining night though would good try help her went tik tok told she needs lose weight supposed here,0 +thats said hey gimme back lettuce kind list it naughty nice list santa mofo,0 +finally gut courage write hereim anorexic ive anorexic almost decade got better lost many friends destructive souleating disease one day managed somehow get start taking care myself started dating awesome girl really fell love head heels relapsed want vent even writing met lied hurts much confused eating disorder coming back hard fast handle it asked reddit back the reason even started accounthttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsxweeim_a_male_anorexic_and_have_been_keeping_it_a end chose cowards way tell her left her told feelings anymore want see again tried overdose night failed woke next day covered vomit took soo long much courage attempt one time disappointed woke again afraid try again ive come close im still trying work courage final redflag attempt kill me eating disorder sooner later weight lower whole life ive admitted involuntary hospitals higher weights weight now told seen anybody weeks now im waiting over miss every day ive broken possible contact anyone related her hope never find happened know finds blame want that suffered much already cant cant let happen never dated first place fear might find redflag eating disorder thing actually motivated eat something time time im sick now want over energy almost non existant already make breaks writing get dizzy sit long bones hurt time now two days ive really sharp pains chest eaten days straight want fucking over im much coward shoot myself eating disorder kill anytime soon want take pills actually fits decade ive told only girls get eating disorders men get eating disorders cant even get together shoot like should wish would done long time ago even still hope heart stops beating get courage take pills really hope sharp pain chest heart be ive problems heart before pray god finally giving up know im coward hoping that really cant take anymore im gonna die coward gonna come surprise anyone anyway edit sorry felt really dizzy take nap im going answer now promised,1 +experienced worrisome changes thoughts feelings participate online researchwhat purpose study want better understand development psychiatric symptoms adolescents young adults who participate males females georgia usa ages experienced one following unusual thoughts suspiciousness sense special powers unrealistic plans future changes sensory experiences unusual experiences seeing hearing things what participants asked do participants asked attend remote sessions zoom following complete interviews questionnaires life experiences lasting hours complete tasks measure attention memory lasting hours take surveys emotion week using android iphone repeat procedures months later where study taking place online using zoom video conferencing how much cost cost participation will receive payment kind receive baseline month follow ampxb information call lab email canlabugaedumailtocanlabugaedu confidential screening,1 +wish shitty life ends tonighti want wake tomorrow something now wish luck,1 +would rather numbi feel like born every advantage possible loving mum comfortable home life disabilities prosperous safe country intelligence etc surface everyone else im fulfilling it degree stable job pays money know with good friends family etc sometimes like right now mind collapses sense impending doom closes around me wake am complete panic voices head cant silenced saying ive completely messed life deserve anything anymore selfinflicted due past mistakes fault spew gall builds inside me option go cry punch pillow scream shut up ive done nothing wrong drink im numb curl sleep or theyre particularly severe talk someone get outside mind soon stop come back one coupled bolt anxiety perfect destroyed life never peace again doom around corner destroyed everything first started years ago got onto meds lexapro wow new man everything fine january year went bathroom blood holycrapwhatsgoingonimgonnadie taxi er hemerrhoids saw gp told mental state pristiq colonoscopy emptied myself little blood night night went under wakey wakey nothing wrong except crack one be went way weeks later blood went private hospital infected pilonidal sinus thank you saw specialist wowee said see plastic surgeon cant may stand know set off five years peace this normal normal every negative voice swimming inside skull saw counselor week amazing explained everything perfectly nervous system issue brain scan anything unpredictable voices meant helpful theyre wellintended fantastic left feeling really good voice little whisper back mind shes wrong yesterday searched voluntary euthanasia thoughts said good idea die hand way thats it went home cried stayed friends place cat lied me small comfort slept like log today im getting extended med cert im scared tell im rails id said getting better im bus hours im staying mum easter im sure ill last may would rather numb feel anything im not im full gunk pain voices oh god im scared way out peace ever again want stop want win positive thought instantly rebutted torn down feels hard fight wish to much easier give up selfdestruct end all ok voices fine right im screwed mum her already lost husband father im sticking around her want bury child,1 +spoiler alertbr br i watched extended version bedknobs broomsticks though like extended version wish would left original version dvdbr br the portabello road could cut orginal length long dragged movie along though dancing great would much better left dvd deleted scenebr br all great movie year old liked it wonderful movies enjoyed child passed new generation mary poppins added collectionbr br just rememberedbr br br br ,0 +know kids arent alright want die text post weekend dont drugs dont self harm suck bf one give grand children give death give head stay school,0 +incoherent rambling predicamentcant sleepin pretty much mental storm honestly feels like stuck underwater aching air cant think anything except offing hurricane negative emotions thoughts leading that decided stream thought problems semicoherent post brief alternative fuck me got great college decentmediocre job years i look back absolute disgusti straight mature enough handle it got suspended year cheating yeah im bastard honestly idea it memories cheating way back first grade learning multiplication tableshow pathetic that fucked extreme disappointment pretty much everyone went huge depression itletting family fucking path etc mind always level chronic depression insane year entire fucking year youth nothing dropped face earth faced challenges opportunity nontraditional path curled ball couldnt mentally handle it filled days literally anything stop tide horrible depression suicidal thoughts rolling in sanctions complete allowed reenroll year couldnt even extract asshole like last september even things like thinking shitshow life enough bring panic attacks nowhere bad shit fucked now look thing then one biggest regrets actually getting offered counseling way back taking it stands im trying hardest get registered amass unfathomable amount moneypromises money im late starting make arrangements again head ass difficulty getting shit verified look realize screwed am fucking way come money seriousness fucked tide feelings mere possibility shit together semester really frightens might things dont pan out might little late goddamn different person last year college active friends helli even got married right good friend since pretty much day one college international student year half agreed marry could stay country afterward actually stand chance acceptance grad schools holy shit relationship go tits up years great friendship living together to trick govt friends havent seen spoken months hate almost much hate myself cant believe much treated like dirt yeahsome unresolved issues sea bad blood someday soon ill file divorce screw good thats shitcovered cherry atop towering cupcake cunts social life living spare room family friends place sheer force extreme kindness pity i moved time ago whole living wife thing went nuclear needed out honestly guys kind generous owe much would literally kill man said would like better did job since seasonal shit ended though savings act chunk tuition youll proud know actually started seeing psychologist month ago family tries supportive even though one even inkling messed amshe practically shat fill phq disappointment cant hidden makes feel worse like dont deserve encouragement kind words love family difficult put words im long list fuckups closing doors existing like awful escape sounds pretty nice like refreshing deep breath air anyway guys doing many stories fucked shit ive done people ive let down times ive ambulances both emt passenger lying government like anyone curious ill probably another hours stewing hell might even respond questionsinsultsreplies get ive pissed patterns snow concise informative paragraphs ive vomited out,1 +upload comic tapas webtoon want know want make comics,0 +find posting yet againive tried hard tried hard get seemingly never ending hole moved family threw job applications got interviews one day first time long time started see little light pulled car towed due unpaid registration missed interviews way get them feel like one little step forward become steps back what literally name option get car out im trying figure theres way sign incur storage fees just never ending im really hard time ending myself,1 +sharing othersive always felt like sharing suicidal thoughts people life invalidates thoughts makes whiny bitch hungry attention acceptance using threat redflag leverage nobody life knows,1 +got drunk told crush liked yeah basically title yesterday got drunk started talking him dont really know told gotten know better liked me told liked asked meant said did sent audios friends explaining happened ny phone died i today woke idk act idk say good morning send picture idk say say anything all help,0 +im tiredspent last years life watching father wither away im mediocre mediocre job im mediocre college degree actually care about girlfriend years im madly love slipping away me days off time anything ive depressed since age never gets better think ive ever felt worthless,1 +fun fact default profile pictures cute,0 +metro boomin make boom aye metro boomin make boom make boom,0 +imagine using incognito mode deleting browser history thats,0 +want become kword how,0 +hate short im im im taller parents like boys school taller bruh makes feel like fuckin baby fuck short hispanic genes mannn,0 +anyone relate male sexually abused younger cant find girl never couldive contemplating thinking redflag since around th grade knew happened along say victims dont sexual abuse whole story though im almost now friends least lost it think fuck would want damaged person like me cant even force act happy times im around best friends im saying everyone sexually abused fucked life personally thats feel is ive hospital before want go back joke help all bills poor parents know pay brings yet killed myself want hurt anyone im even sure really want die know dont want go like this anyone relate u ever find someone breakdowns becoming frequent theres least times locked friends bathroom without knowledge dont want anyone know im curled ball like mental patient am friends know childhood parents thats it want talk someone dont think anyone know relate molested let alone wanting die people react that im trapped bad place one really knows please fucking help me edit tell honestly sounds like im bitching know seen posts redflag watch worthy redflag friends im thankful that knew edit thank much everyone ive found worse im myself think theres possibility could bipolar better know things know feel chaotic lot time im slowly trying get help cant go back hospital though especially adult wards fuck that theres way worse shit me anyway getting point thank typing long paragraphs me know lot may abused too know many us boat remember care us talk feel never see redflag could effect them know think us want cause anyone type pain said anyone else wants use thread get stuff chest ask questions like did go ahead take ,1 +say somethingi wanna go much detail due fact made post last night this first ever redflag attempt failed im supposed graduate june dad excited that thats makes things even worse im scared going try again deep inside want die point longer control myself im wondering tell guidance today know ill go psych ward three times life feel would kind relief worrying whether going die today day that want take break madness finally telling someone instead keeping bottled long would set ease little bit god relief would get like ow,1 +dad calling anxiety fake cant take anymoremy dad conversation anxiety brought up says fault even though helped little im starting question even want live like this,1 +ok remember july th tik tok supposed banned august th tik tok supposed banned apparently tik tok banned sunday mean spying facebook banned well,0 +gn tell productive things tomorrow morning wish school done want try productive,0 +enjoyed watching well acted movie muchit well actedparticularly actress helen hunt actors steven weber jeff faheyit interesting moviefilled drama suspensefrom beginning endi reccomend everyone take time watch made television movieit excellent great acting,0 +though maths teacher different e give context im high school programming area essential thing know think logically today maths class friend thought simpler way get answer teacher started complaining need explain logic test instead checking answer real world client wants fucking program work care coded really understand,0 +life sucksi dont relationship mom dad barely even feels like father figure life gone month week hes sitting ass watching tv sleeping understand provide family sucks grades currently shit parents getting ass dont understand im purely stupid im fucking idiot know nothing say change think ive abusing drugs past year now almost anything get hands do turned ive already done heroincoke meth fuck doing im months time ive already dropped pounds people congratulate it tell work shit feel better even know drugs dont drugs everyday im constantly thinking got raped age even remember sucking dudes dick like fuck remembers sees visually head feel worthless uncared ive already actual redflag attempts parents think times wanted get drunk high hold me first time downed whole big ass bottle percent liquor hoping id get alcohol poisoning nope woke next day feeling like shit didnt throw anything second time took expired pills grandma used take epilepsy got rushed hospital rd day due throat closing able breath cant even kill right im fucking failure thinking paycheck im getting next wednesday ive thinking minute ill enough money finally go way want to hate life im sick want fucking die,1 +movie expecting martialarts extravaganza historical accuracy leave issue better informed subject thought performances wonderful gong li never disappoints resourceful initially loyal consort king qin fengyi zhang showed lot flexibility portraying ruler descending madness chose hannibal lector route rather resorting ranting me best performance zhiwen wang supersmooth marquis character came across oily subtle sir humphrey appleby yes minister kind waybr br the cinematography standout feature film scene marquis men stormed palace breathtaking also number wonderful battle scenes therefore film highly recommended big screen,0 +think crush likes new best friend saw post youll know crush doesnt like said dare awkward got class discussion groups covid cant move around sitting near could talk noticed laugh nothing strange tbh noticed body language second almost like date idea means,0 +girl would lesbian,0 +hey think crush best friend im girl shes girl ive friends three years really nice really kind sweet type compliment blue sweet nice dont talk often social anxiety schoolwork taking long time plus online school person sometimes play games together though time ive dealing depression light always supporting saying loved mein platonic sense really thing makes truly happy havent felt attracted anything anyone id never thoughts gross things her thinking makes feel sick weve cuddled also platonically maybe shes really good friend judging posts here sounds like like her way could confess,0 +found kerzners new account u nheek please report fucking creep make leave sub permenantly,0 +difficult get bed wake morning first sip coffee lose sense meaning nobody ever wants anything me thoroughly convinced exist point attentionstarved show it well others worse even excuse kill myself guess keep going till heart gives out bother,1 +wanna kill girl ever likes back im uglyi wanna die girl ever going like back im ugly idk wanna cry,1 +microphonies classic stooge short guys inept repairmen working radio station horsing around broadcast booth curlys perfect mimic recording voices spring mistaken real thing leading radio contract zany musical party trios mock rendition quintet lucia de lamamore especially entertaining doubt essential viewing stooge fansbr br although evidence curlys failing health visible face voice performance amazing probably last glimpse old curly fans think a bird hand last great curly short coarse voice slow movement difficult watch,0 +wish moneyi wish could make toxic family jealous miserable anyone hates me exes everything wish fucking wish,1 +want sufferthis sentiment ive run multiple times throughout experiences depression especially recently whenever im feeling depressed want get better want feel much pain anguish physical mental want feel despair deep nothing live anymore cant really explain it even though people want get better want wallow pain want get better want suffer nobody around gets try explain them imagine physical pain knife leg something doctor comes help take refuse help lay floor absorbing every second pain can thats like,1 +nobody knows cook without recipes one flex,0 +think wanted kill yesterdaysomebody told post am yesterday class party day first part finals write pages specific theme day turn paper in celebrate decided said throw party excited day long even went bought new clothes stuff look good really hoped maybe todays day maybe flirt someone make someone really prepared party usual talked lot people drink drive party came point everyone danced fun sober sitting sober dance browsing reddit even blame friends would i every someone came grabbed hand dance afraid it even declined offer girl like thats uncomfortable dancing me went bathroom resist hitting face hated bad probably already tell flirting also making lonely ass drove home late night driving really thought today bought stuff spent hour two bathroom simply hopeful today day usual nothing found funny apparently found really funny hopeful cause laughed laughed really really hard laughing slowly transformed crying laughing back crying cycle stopped breathe anymore breathed really fast unusual like panic attack stopped suddenly crying laughing plain emotionlessnes feel anything moment everything suddenly gone away held steering wheel straight saw turn coming held straight ready smash tree there drove got opposite lane woke again moment realized turned steering wheel back again seriously shocked really kill myself thats coming know might sound like suicidal attempt stopped right time really heavy experience wanted write down,1 +whymy mom looked stuff phone everyone family knows im gay dad thinks im faking know thinks im sort crazy person im gonna go hell tell brother looks differently saying anything mom hates found messages sent friends private rant written shes kinda abusive block contact friends look rest messages them ive always kinda thought killing idk seems like everyone hates things horrible place right now parents fighting mom gonna try leave take knows where know everybody always kinda annoyed kinda feel like ending done shit good im probably making big deal like always though wanted post vent stuff,1 +knife throati posted earlier going alcohol withdrawal cannot repeat this doctors appointment tomorrow planning tell combination vomiting blood able forgive made decide really time tried kill many times body resilient guess really want slit throat need surefire way die,1 +fucking tired aliveim going fucking it everything torture last week alive welcome you death,1 +please answer thisso m thinking while feel worthless parents think im attention phase dont fucking know anymore ruin literally every little thing nobody talk feel like everyone everything would better gone never sleep anymore dont really much interests things used love feel like fucking awful person im worthless theres one person wants help me wants talk cant much dont wanna add anything please reddit phase begging attention dumb personally dont think fuck know,1 +tried overdose last night brother standing front methis exactly title says no partial attempt counter painkillers situation didnt walked me forgot lock door laid bed little rows mg prozac mg zoloft mg prazosin singular extra strength ibuprofin know came downstairs say anything happening fight that weve lot lately ever since got girlfriend hes different now episode panicking body looked trying make eat ive diagnosed anorexic years started yelling triggered ptsd went walk outside hour came home went straight room laid pills came started ibuprofin prazosin theyre hard swallow get gritty stick tongue taste bad wanted get way upset crying telling understand ive getting better told people tend fall pushed theres much know ive diagnosed bundle things cptsd did depression generalized anxiety also experience psychosis time time body covered scars forearms legs chest sides throat everywhere ive multiple attempts past always stopped something found time taken hospital ive tried drowning suffocation slitting radial artery slitting throat even stabbing myself ive close attempts trains nooses why feel like reading backstory means click away skip it tldr abused trans kid used smart dropout living away home ampxb used get absolutely perfect grades never failed anything several years ahead school work fathers old mechanical engineering textbooks seventh grade graduated eighth grade honors grades slowly started slip parents manipulative emotionally abused us kids two biological siblings sister called e younger brother named z currently respectively raised z parents always working going places together takes much fed clothed got trouble it e hated ever since came trans constantly told kill myself would hit scream retaliated got trouble parents accepting either told phase know came years ago hated looked began starve myself cooked refused eat table them always excuse ready time sexually abused one person relied trusted help sexually abused me want go court november think ill able to want go detail this hurts ive experiencing psychosis since kid saw therapists young age grandma always took me would hear voices see mutilated bodies horrid creatures still experience this suspicion may schizophrenic cant diagnose currently psychiatrist last one saw listen told diagnoses brushed ptsd tried double already high dosage zoloft stopped going taking meds high risk back march year hospital got back school principal told valid excuse falling far behind courses dropped out three days birthday last year turned packed clothes school bag sent parents email school saying going home withdrew parental consent live ontario form emancipation law that would homeless friend called a told last minute allowed stay place thats still turn october call brother thats essentially is family feels like family mine things started get better like said less ptsd episodes live with really talked it alters know of theyre like another family head blanks day bother me even though things getting better also getting worse relapsed anorexia recently skin bone ive selfharmed twice past month close friends girlfriend brother people understand this everyone age hates ex spread rumors school brother girlfriend months now lots friends hes im jealous wish could him wish born male wish friends wish could relationship like has tell this hurts upsets me pretty much ignores me sit room alone work sleep cant sleep im trying make career working online blogging made anything yet ive lost hope even though ive week motivation cant keep day job many episodes ive tried nobody accommodates many mental issues have working difficult brother tried get friends friends think call friends close cant go anything play magic gathering sometimes im tired im tired hurting im tired sleepless nights im tired hated alone im tired knowing nobody really cares live die except one person ampxb came last night still trying swallow two prazosin tried scoop pills grab all picked rest sat there staring him told eff leave alone yelled saying it started mockingly repeating earlier words back him yelling much jerk hes lately took zoloft right front him hit water bottle hand dry swallowed told leave again remember feeling nothing rage fear even tired felt nothing wanted pills done trying push way life everything going on still am took last night lethal sickening knocked hours hate forgot lock door want get better ive really trying im tired im sick fighting want sleep never wake up,1 +get girlfriend meet single girl befriend meet friends befriend hang friends talk would want date flirt ask take date movies take get ice cream see first kiss tell love everyday keep going dates cheat her insult her mean friends family get boyfriend coming tomorrow,0 +bf wants kill himself help himtldr know form believe worth could great life could great bad cant see excited able work something enjoys see life could filled experiences would worth it think love life going lose him think already crying death still here boyfriend depressed months now medication since beggining year first said want continue life like himself want try change would like killing personality grow one new would like another person also struggled finding occupation field able live incomes now says hope days vanished is objectively really intelligent person knows take advantage it would like work creative work field game developer mainly other hobbies music magic manualities studying physics great although this late course like anymore really good teacher also want spend rest life programming enterprise enjoy working would represent half life awake h awake free sleeping see another outcome like study another career struggle life end like that tells sees life distance judge life goes objectively which agree know pills depression emotions anything right not even me first time able judge life want continue see life could turn right happy according him could also turn boring sad know tell him really hard time accepting decision right seems terminal although wants wait rebuild life lost make suffer cant avoid thinking times told go party outside see opportunity go friends my friends kind weird going bfs meant us cant keep thinking memories good times would had misunderstandings plus situations could help value more blind apathetic make bigger change him cant stop thinking could help more maybe views life now extreme cant keep thinking made value himself work capabilities more maybe see future dark thinks life like sudoku book nothing else offer him exciting experiences great job boring common life understand said hope says least had understand capable valuing himself would capable many things probably would worth it video game industry place options understand see effort would make unnecesary already judges life turn valuable great denies making effort least try it know him guess cant anything bit cant imagine life cant see face ir talk anymore know form believe worth could great life could great bad cant see excited able work something enjoys see life could filled experiences would worth it think love life going lose him memories could been think go crazy unable function person much rage sadness think it guess writing see anyone help someone gone something similar sometimes think kill first live pain want die want go pain either want born know think already crying death still here think going anything now would still suffer lot exams weeks now sees never get it think would point even included suffering,1 +wish deadi grit teeth everything do hate job abusive ex boyfriend stop harassing found stole bunch money bank account im broke im tired deal stress well im tired brunt everyones frustrations job treating like less human ever wanted life someone love unconditionally never got that never get that friends tired hearing whine every day miserable am im tired hearing say it anti depressants stop attempting redflag feel dead inside wish dead,1 +make stop,0 +feeling suicidal yet againi want live anymore want die leave behind people still love me want hurt like that ive got much pain inside know do feel like id better around anymore know hurt people still love me feel trapped world never accept want shit world anymore horrible want live anymore cant anything it good job gun would seriously consider shooting head,1 +think im going kill sooni cant take anymore need figure difficult since live dorm im terrified im tired all,1 +opinions schitts creek wanna know watch based demographics opinions im looking funny show,0 +warning post going make mad woman want pissed leave post now film dark fate john connor dies beginning t killed feminism edward furlong know man played john connor second film going terminator dark fate feminists got hold plot guess made main character girl made terminator thats going save girl literally bought back linda hamilton fine cuz great first film second film upsets hollywood becoming notice end game killed tony stark captain america tony starks going played female going daughter im mad,0 +book review thing turn days many questions cant even really get started yet like thats bad hate reading well,0 +parents cant treat equally dont know else post dont want get friends involved have im sick tired able treated equally parents throw fits slam doors yell click tongues attitudes time moment im bad mood irritated get yelled punished apparently attitude disrespectful worst part depressed get easily irritated know depressed refuse acknowledge apparently doesnt affect person feels behaves say im adult years old cant irritated ever want house needed write thanks,0 +well royally fucked today interview scheduled potential graphic design job first one months scheduled pm today dumb ass do fucking mistake time realized already like getting ready email interviewer technical difficulties video chat software was degree let on apologized asked reschedule heard them would surprised went throw dumbasses file trash need shitstain company cannot believe fucking again previous interview fucking slept through one got god damn timing incorrect like never fucking going get shit right never wanted harm fucking badly life not thought cold metal blade skin makes squeamish heard much harder stop started god fucking damn want to life waste fuck everything up cannot seem get right,1 +math problem triangle drawn within circle find height use hd hd please help,0 +mental health bad lately cannot find energy anything it doctor exhausting know talk anymore listen tired feeling like shit time tired trying feel like shit tired being cannot find enough motivation get help mental health,1 +opinion social media suck dick thank coming ted talk,0 +try sing song,0 +guys need opinion currently almost rn skincare go sleep orrrrr finish cleaning room go sleep could really dont want,0 +got skeleton floorboard got secret need keep,0 +hey lol heres hoping uhh like presume world im spring break way much time hands anyone wants want buddies long winded weird convos get nsfw jm think im fun,0 + weeks ago wanted write big post honestly know say anymore craving physical pain avoid emotional pain losing hope last years,1 +literally whyfam life gotta put us much fucking fair man lose feels reason end day im change situation ahhahahahha fucking hell yall life struggle,1 +remember life gets hard stanky leg ur way ,0 +finished page history essay yea fun yea one gonna read holy shit im proud,0 +jack ryan ajr kinda cute thanks bicuriosity throwing another curveball,0 +im researching world really run cats political club school im research presentation cats true world leaders going deep research,0 +letter someonei depressed lately really feel like shit head ahas inside bucket every second life short spontaneous breaks solitude im girl really understand it used happy every single day think fuck really going last forever really im here canrt handle pressure really feel alone even im people love become quickly rabid paranoid unsure feels like every turn thousand turns cant seem find single thing makes idea get mind kid abused fucking cousin people say hold anger well guess anger hatched gel persona im restless tired afraid cant even make couple tears roll face stop feeling shit knot chest know im going reassuring ive tried almost everything guess wanted someone could listen while thanks redditrs ,1 +heyhi,1 +envisioning success do envisioning success do,0 +fucking stupid statement is wanting forgotten feel want feel wanted gives redflag try want me try talk relate touch me hurts feel warmth long caged pain tormented said pain know gets better eventually finagled internal prison gained control whatever animal thing locked their happy them me watch suffered watch mother hold knife throat still remember looked finished sat staring nothingness eyes bleak yellow walls looked empty pull it would bleed floor husband son watched happen taken away next day someone got rid knife using still feel graininess wood handle still feel serrated edges neck try understand fuck happened wish would pulled trigger wish wish could go back day pull trigger wish could go want always loved idea dying violently something crashing freeway divider going mph fastest car goes well fastest went going way committed plan monday never set exact date know soon thursday totaled car driving street lamp oops cannot even fucking die want wish wish could take pain anger away die it forgotten one remember go through read stories fantasize get happiness serenity deserve know right speak others truly feel calm mind us want mean sub exist would die happy knowing could take grave id release pain ones want now could wanted earlier sorry seems ungrateful people actually alone everyday feeling dread fills stomach gets darker darker lately hill battle becoming hill stroll void fucking stupid i want forgotten anyone wants video chat call text like go long walks id love hear you want forgotten,1 +scaredi think closest ive ever killing im genuinely scared cant function right now feel like cant reach help cuz people see dont want see side me even post probably deleted profile,1 +shit im stomach aches poops bad wtf must ate something bad,0 +take child admit hospitalbasically title says really want admit local hospital im terrified theyll try take child plan leave father time really want kill cant handle thought seeing grow see smile anymore support system extremely weak need professional help none doctors ive contacted called back im feeling important issue needs dealt with im us cps fine long dont take baby,1 +mid terms so second last unit test monday last one get know mid terms cause th pissed af now like sitting hours writing stuff marks sit well me received lecture makin well scheduled timetable exams covid bad,0 +im fucking exhausted fucked became year old loser stoner wasting away fucked every relationship opportunityim numb right now hate person ive become hate person ive become literally picture different types redflag methods daily take subway even im laying bed fucking done havent accomplished anything never school worked deadend jobs never relationship girl becomes interested quickly loses interest gets know me dont know fucking fake long close eyes picture rope around neck comforting,1 +people born mourning souls song sung singularly encounter another soul tortured andor bitterly sweetly beautiful unusual magic happens alone brutally honest look two tortured souls intertwine moment understanding oneness torn apart differences oneness theyre pain death explored figuratively literally happens ones soul dead similarly alive awake reality life imagined behind eyes passerbys film explores aching pain us all frown beneath cheery facade ache below ugly instinctual animalistic thoughts acts become honest matter fact bechard sprinkles dash unexpected innocence beauty mix knowing linger us all bechard writer expert observer human condition non judgmental attitude presents life light often shield eyes yearn see understand he director focuses nuances actors spirit shines character theyre playing actors personal familiarity emotions brought situation accurately written directed character portrayal man womans experience together encountered yet even though two characters encounter probably normal encounterbr br the soundtrack encapsulates songs lyrics characters would let hearts spill able strong enough characters real voice sung beauty pain talent emotional intelligence emerging indie artists ready explode onto alternative music market perfect soundtrack us issues us admit issues us hide itbr br i always enjoy exploring darker sides life mr bechards fascinatingly creative realistic view life characters revolve within it,0 +everything shitim going lot right now parents abusive depression getting worse fucked able get college memory bad cant remember anything past days trans fucking rest nobody talk to cut contact one friend abusive cant even remember actually abusive convinced was know see therapist every therapist ive seen ended treating like shit tried commit extremely abusive mental institution cant even talk anybody know im scared theyll tell parents parents committed hour holding period bullshit turns week stay nobody talk to feels like life hit brick wall everything ive planning everything ive done try get better none worked out really seems like redflag way stop this,1 +shaking spiralingon vacation thought days left im tired cant sleep cant let stress books knives im seeing men trench coats want kill me could go get soda relax fridge far im thinking much days ill her one let emotion to theres other want hurt feelings sorry raining want roof cave spine cant talk anyone stupid friend im stupid want right cant sleep im fantasizing people helping get help need help please help im tired,1 +ilivedliving trying kill weird feeling tried kill yesterday failed completely time attempted certain going live past day yet am feels wrong alive like even though die still feel strangely dead even planned everything plan end dead im weird state now what really know anymore,1 +truly documentary love fascinating character outlook life extended family filmmakers spent three years taping sister helen halfway house managed capture much wonderful material help feel know sister helen boys house holds recovering addicts story almost involving sister helens ending scenes particularly involving emotionalbr br sister helens story marriage addiction loss reveals complex character whos tough love times funny touching endearingbr br the film amazing way tells story wonderful slice life sequences develop story almost clear scene scripted acted best honesty and obvious dishonesty clients involving learn fears watch attempts growbr br you never forget sister helen robert moe poor ashishspelling,0 +haha morning got two hours sleep went sleep got well coff time now fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +dickenballs cockandnutz maybe penis ballse thanks coming ted talk ampxb ampxb gtif know know title comes fromlt,0 +advices suggestions proceedmy partner going hell withdrawal used mg lexapro one week stopped cold turkeydue poor amount information available symptoms lasted one month relapsed time using mg zolof days stopping cold turkey months suffering terrible symptoms brain zaps weight loss redflag depression blurry vision bad hearing hard concentrate muscle pain cognitive impairment suicidal thoughts insomnia sweating impulsivity head ache agitation lack selfesteem symptoms visible different times withdrawal doctor appointment led doctor assuming symptoms caused psychological reasons said nothing domy partners whole personality pretty much changed months one flash usual self feeling good confident relaxed minutes gave little bit hope while gone again single day feeling goodgaba helping redflag little bit ordered lthyroxin does anyone experiencewe would like know long lastis supplements anything could help please shareit sad withdrawal hell advices,1 +thoughtsfeeling pretty low late cold friday night alone brought dark thinking depressionredflag searched internet found many sites saying worth talk theres always someone cares blah blah blah old old found many threads dark times seeing many people going going truly remarkable im sure whether feel happy alone sad everyone else suffer way do i many others post imagine feel alone honestly tired told thing over theres always highs lows life recent highs lows mere years ago everyone story i whether share keep holder deep thinking sorry wall text,1 +girls please talk hello girls essay girls brave confident know use toilet more please write application talk comments directly dm me many thanks golden bull golden king golden one,0 +want fucking die alreadyi hate height fucking hate retarted tall people fucking lucky stupid dumb asses hate tall fuck short didnt ask pathetic little man going comment talk therapist go fuck shit scam hope fucking die saying dumb advice like that want hurt someone bad hope get shot murdered dont want live life pathetic short man want tall perfect,1 +onesided distanced love best friend im okay that friend f lets call tanner best friend since kindergarten colle ting rocks byrying head book found rocks shed think like got bookmark could keep page go play her also always peoplepleaser always flitting around different friend groups ignoring concerns get involved drama anything everything get social attention stay here watching knowing always come back me particularly dec th talking sleepover seen eachother two months said thaf shed see weekend probably busy open snapchat find hanging friend group cheated denied talked shit again im still glad fun people would feel hurt betrayed dont really why organt transplant list atm lyme battling acne year long relationship guy keep secret specific cognitives disabilities make difficult student deal terrible school poor parents occasionally fight always treated middle child is obviously trying chase good stimuli also adhd bipolar disorder sex drugs onenight friends etc needs stability stability her know using shoulder lean abandoned gave one first sure point whole thing was honest guess see someone elses shoes supportive soul okay ill see out,0 +matter am right bridge hour awayive picked good ones zero risk surviving impactover land feet even lower risk generating anything article podunk newspaper even name terms world dying zero meaningful impact possibly nobody covid still raging hopefully get wish funeral remembered way shitty part amazing family inexplicably loves deeply tries support im getting point fucking unethical keep accepting help throw side bridge supposed die decade ago jumped balcony yet somehow miraculously survive permanent injury would perfect idiot dying drunken accident today id barely even cross mind accomplished literally nothing life except leech hardworking family last remaining friend sisters professors even hooked as since fly across country totally helped out therapy cant make accomplishing nothing pay crippling debt medication makes easier pretend want alive accomplishing nothing meaningful except make people feel better already know impact redflag need explain me ive read almost every redflag bereavement post could get hands way staving inevitable hopes something might change thing changes get deeper hole zero motivation climb of im done maintaining facade falls apart ive hurting people closest ill continue long im alive im going cause pain anyways might well least damage possibly getting sooner rather later,1 +turned heres piece advice anyone still kid please live can go friends vandalize shit make memories bc gonna end sooner think,0 +sweet nothingnessoverview posts comments view sort new rdepressionposted byutonyhugh minutes ago sweet nothingness dont try save me redflag father suicidal thoughts became persistent almost irresistible started brood death usual graveyard father found final rest became favorite place visit something apparently enticing idea death contemplate lofty beauty graveyard longer want participate idiocy called life suicidal thoughts became even intence found current financial plight im buried foreign city wich get out never im done tell you death avoid life would take lives caring hands death delever back cruel hands butcher called life dont try save us made right decision comment share tonyhugh commented worst feeling worldrdepressionposted byujohnthebabayagawick tonyhugh point hours ago ambivert reply share johnthebabayagawick point hours ago somewhere introvert extrovert tonyhugh point hours ago problem reply share tonyhugh commented parents took away computerrdepressionposted byucomatill tonyhugh point hours ago parents right preventing shit posting reply share tonyhugh commented liferdepressionposted byuriddle tonyhugh point hours ago right reply share tonyhugh commented im going end life tonight m ukrdepressionposted byuazeroa shanerunninshirtless points hours ago fuck wrong you never post again see tonyhugh points hours ago idiot reply share shanerunninshirtless points hours ago piece shit tonyhugh points hours ago smart reply share tonyhugh commented existing painfulrdepressionposted byufancyscarf tonyhugh point hours ago hey everyone bad reply share rdysmorphicdisorderposted byutonyhugh day ago dont need want good look what want romantic love affairs fact relationships total sucks based mutual manipulation truth people realy realy sucks finaly discover much shit romantic partner like all maybe lucky atttactice apperiance saves annoying exhausting romances disappointments annoying thing cals love fact life general greatest dissapointment things look nice distance best thing one get live live lofty solitude without engagement dirt life chase beauty meaning happiness it life shit everething seems great distance comments share lordsblade points hours ago man id problem deal lots exhausting love affairs meant looked like person see tonyhugh points hours ago im person rest assure sucks maybe cup tea reply share comment deleted day ago tonyhugh points day ago family care look friends friends dont need attachment reply share tonyhugh commented fearing stigma vanityrdysmorphicdisorderposted byusddghjklzxcv tonyhugh points day ago open secret one realy cares look especially streets problem try attract someone people random strangers dont give shit say peope realy dont care every aspect reply share tonyhugh commented plastic surgery cured bddrdysmorphicdisorderposted byudaintyporcelain tonyhugh points days ago yeas evidence true reason situation phisical flaws reply share rdepressionposted byutonyhugh minutes ago sweet nothingness dont try save me redflag father suicidal thoughts became persistent almost irresistible started brood death usual graveyard father found final rest became favorite place visit something apparently enticing idea death contemplate lofty beauty graveyard longer want participate idiocy called life suicidal thoughts became even intence found current financial plight im buried foreign city wich get out never im done tell you death avoid life would take lives caring hands death delever back cruel hands butcher called life dont try save us made right decision,1 +really easy lot love give none myself love another wasted spend others maybe love back turn feel loved cannot it tried self love business self love easy never loved ones suppose love me sparked fire self hate young child hurtful words become own voices hear anymore mine god bitch right fucking cow loud mean always got something smart say tried saying something nice sounds strange really fake rollercoaster always healing never healing good days scarce bad days feel like long winter night locked house feel alone this close eyes think bear hold little longer maybe saved maybe knows among lucky ones plucked crowd saviour oh god even writing make believe it truly love someone else cannot even love yourself,1 +making casual discord server anyone interested im really tired joining servers built people misuse power entire thing full toxic people anyone casual server relax yes please let know comments gets positive response ill make one,0 +hate learn much bout catholic rant hate fact learn much bout bein catholic like im even chatholic christian dont believe god fuck need that dont want get married hate believe cannot sin go hell hate fact bibal stupid ugh everythin bout makin angry like dont even remember none prayers like christmas family praying sitting there knowin fuck say tryin get by day dead visiting graves expected say prayers like bitch dont fuckin remember em ya know tried swim trough dumbass classes cant use knowlege bout diferent sins fuckin bibal anywhere unless creating characters ,0 +know supposed drink depressed amp alone always makes feel better everyone tells says make feel worse always numbs makes feel better drank alone while tonight quite bit bit concerned go binge againi drink work week constantly drank work started one night like this sure do replacements alcohol drinking cope,1 +conversation mom market today mom like green peppers me mom to seller ill kg green peppers thank coming ted talk,0 +today th birthday someone please say happy birthday comments,0 +makes sense see danger around every corner wish could find place dark read story day someone work anymore needed home ,1 +think mom found self harm context decided share quote freud found internet unexpressed emotions never die buried alive come forth later uglier ways left that really random quote liked one heck coincidence really notice marks arm must say props her thats nice way saying im talk need me without getting personal ps know tell talk her please spare that due gender dysphoria believe quite lgbtphobic,0 +anyone else hate people try force ships everyone else yes get character character would good couple opinion mean everyone else thinks thing even majority people do respect everyone thinks thing you would ya opinion character looks better another character respect opinion respect however expect everyone ship character character im tired typing thisthat character ill use w x y z respect think w x would cute together personally see w single x z together crush w people could agree that others might agree you doesnt mean like i think put w x together since theyre otp even dont ship whatsoever like respect shippers force ship everyone else,0 +deserve hurt im weak im liar cunt bitch pathetic ashamed ruined childhood early childhood neighbor repeatedly raped friend stuck horrible custody battle later preteens stepmom starved dad let happen mum got custody dad killed himself thats ex stepdad began touching me even let sons it mum believe did ex stepbrother would verbally abuse mum let happen years developed bpd get fights mum bf run away times homeless twice cant keep jobs keep cycling cannot maintain outside relationships let ex boyfriends beat name bdsm cruel first one withheld affections cheated constantly crawled like dog even made shave head second one misogynist racist made pretend child sex thing common older men im pathetic daddy issue bitch live nothing else besides attention older men used live fo r art spiritualitybut know everything secondary want older man lov me odnt care anything else want know like cherished loved older man ts like held if dont get soon ill end all time real bc worthless bpd cunt deserve brutal punishment wan fucking die,1 +know dofirst off im sweden well story is month ago wife left me wanted divorce signed papers since sweden think six months divorce get least children together late february next year divorce real love wife technically still wife im love well since ive done really stupid stuff put debts things things really regret would differentely thousand times cant trust cant live anymore thing is told could try later get life together job apartment things told engaged different dating sites internet also dating groups facebook trying find guy trust love im cant get anyone talk this weekend wrote lot interesting women single one replied me cant start conversation strangers out well may think irony want wife dating sites am im mostly try get wife see takes me stated im unemployed hate live im living filthy room friends apartment close every single day im crying eyes out hoping someone shoot endure misery want get wife or ive said friends want wife back die see much reason living all sorry rant kinda,1 +nyquil sleeping pillsive broken many times again today last time guess,1 +cops racist sexist,0 +dont get stuck washing machine step bro near itll be pain ass experience s im funny,0 +really feel life scared chop veins wristi purpose yeti feel pressure wanted end this needed true connection needed someone talk to college graduating,1 +things come indeed classic work speculative fiction essay destructive nature war terrors progress makes surprising accurate depictions war follow years later woefully naive utopian idealsbr br raymond massey cedric hardwicke ralph richardson make fine cast although drama played stage piece work cinema grandiose somewhat stilted speeches often delivered actor trying reach back theater however profound words there technology savior mankind instrument destruction film visual feast one detach oneself age effects sure hollywood sophisticated today rarely inventive imaginative third act treat world underground cities massive deco bombers space cannons gyro copters secret organizations scientist saviors makings scifi pulp adventure instead uses trappings philosophical exercisebr br things come metropolis hallmarks neolithic hollywood science fiction cinema operatic scope visually inspiring technology long left behind ideas still burst forth artistry there one heart emotion computer generated massproduced cinema today films products artisans industrialists,0 +cannot see light right now things think change mood feeling really negative thoughts ,1 +cant care anymoreive lost ability care everything anymore weeks left college cant imagine anything except waiting die beginning semester ok passion once excited finish up ive lost im lowest point cannot relate people well terrible time talking anyone hindrance existence pull humor nice cant anything else trouble expressing feelings deeper thoughts small talk everything cant explain properly feel like shit around me ive offon girl bit ive accepted im type really hard understand layers complications deal far better talking dont know stand right except friends feel like giant bother her made friends college connections feel loose now half openly expressed wanting kill themselves plans stop it guess think im losing mine ive started unhealthy things one cutting never really understood get now fasting past weeks ive keeping track calories lose weight taken drastically im lbs options dramatic long periods time decided dramatic now meeting school counseling thursday going explain everything probably use post guide help talk really thing im sort looking forward now way tell someone whats happening without feeling like burden im taking lexapro depression half dose things get real shitty know taking extra help since takes time work system might im expecting end institution counselor needs one also family midwest im massachusetts own talk mom every week thats contact back home im kind done tried faking til made cant anymore want out,1 +want dad miss dad fucked say nothing could ever make happy dad use make me physically feel it know happy moments life also know feel like nothing could ever top dad best friend killed himself still live house happened cant move house given died dont money ive flashbacks finding it want dad years felt like go back therapy dont wanna bother people problems make anyone scared honest wanna dad dont care anything here makes sound ungrateful im not im thankful have ache much,1 +im sick stop saying neither asked support election sure joe biden isnt exactly first choice neither clearly isnt fucking choice anymore legitimately life death im goddamn sick people playing card dont time indecision right now able to please vote sake future,0 +enjoyable movie without doubt evocative era particular stage boys rites passage say read notredflag comments here bit disappointed period captured plot desperately thin whole thing revolves around egregious bit miscasting history school plays idea quack quack would ever chosen play one three star turns philanderer risible without that nada subplots bore relation could see main plot could removed entirety without way affecting main story surely suggests fundamental flaw subplots look like padding know central idea stretched beyond limits nevertheless benign movie heart right place fine performances get feeling everyone involved felt deflated final cut good feeling permeates film count something flawed really quite good movie ,0 +final ending tonighti never posted even reddit im bus right town jump bridge long time coming right iv never felt better knowing final made decision ending life im sorry isnt right place post one else tell too soon get bus wont internet connection want say thank everyone subreddit iv read lot stories truly hope find peace yourself thank,1 +today realized im probably going actually commit redflag sometime lifeit may today tomorrow even years now honestly think theres chance way end dying killing myself ive struggled depression since ive making significant progress therapy happiest ive ever been somehow keep ensing depressed coming back thoughts fear elderly alone divorced kids many friends im afraid living old folks home forgotten about today realized pretty much already forgotten about moved across country couple years ago none family friends ever call me mom never calls sister call time best friwnd messages complain life never asks im whats going me im always one calling them simply talk like fear alone come true difference im younger able take care still amazing boyfriend lately keep screwing shit doubt left soon too ya may today tomorrow might even years now unless accident sort probably die,1 +please see henry stickman spoiler one fucking recommend refresh fuck im turning reply notifications want spoilers,0 +redditors recognize ive seen several people,0 +youtube recommendations like miracle gel heals dick appreciated yt,0 +theres optionever since severely depressed one might say werent sad truly feel depressed things getting far worse could ever imagine last year fell love girl fell love me asked surprise said yes wanted wait week so thought nothing much it three weeks passed nothing said going out days later suspended school day worst thing day wasnt actually getting suspended upset disappointed was never want hurt anyone intend hurt her could see pain man loved considered bad person three months day couldnt get lowest lows stopped talking blocked snapchat stopped hanging out one asked said anything moment worst moment life time towards end september last year english teacher decided punching bag class calling spineless selfdirected irresponsible even though top student class time week happened told asking question week decided ask question got trouble it question related class time refused help throwing rude remarks towards me skip forward start school year year hoped year could stay was didnt nothing much happened first two months school fell love girl also happened fall love me holidays hung out watched movies together cuddled sort thing lovers do brings us two weeks ago friday school decided ask out said yes time wasnt surprise shed told ready date wasnt next day went house kissed wasnt blue also wasnt expecting it safely say kissing still greatest moment life ever since then ive developed reliance seeing her whenever dont see get really upset happens middle exam period study exams past days ive saying things upset her feel really bad it always apologise whenever go tangent like last night last night different started talking im embarrassment friend group immature am said babe stop knew immediately gone far said wanted talk morning saying good night normally whenever goes bed say love sleep well couldnt say either two without saying first ive noticed since longer best friend snapchat also taken location snap map me doesnt bother much currently am write this texted am hasnt responded doesnt wake later am assume ignoring me thing is need talk her anything plans go lunch today last night parents said no whenever kiss get attached her means whenever dont see get down morning woke hoping text anything her nothing came hoping talk situation know cant morning started thinking redflag believe community certain amount pain believe community taken pain know go detriment everyone else dont think should feel like taking one team best option past years decide die think break soften blow bit dont want break heart suddenly disappear truly care want whats best her shes happy whilst im suffering isnt problem me human take much morning started mirror cried one single tear believe tear signifies lonely even friends family around me cant help think im person world every emotion ive felt everyone ive met everything ive done planned me sad thing theory theres way disprove it longer want feel pain dont want people feel pain im feel it someone read this begging please help me dont know stop this tldr im severely depressed need help someone please help late,1 +whats first impression someone wears boots thesehttpsdiponvvotwcloudfrontnetpostsbcbffcaffem_bcbfaacedjpeg boots im thinking buying pair versatility durability would first impression be cool,0 +it fucing fucking passed got accepted online school again odds stacked yet it im happy csnt contain fucking lets go,0 +thought betterif counts anything tried changing still think ill make though matters never much drinker anyways much celebrate plus another day loneliness,1 +thought okay lately night feel like ending allnah im really it could die really mind like kill myself plane wanted crash right here would happy thought beaten social anxiety man women fucking women im still extremely awkward around women swear women socially apt guys would never understand women drive man crazy wanna kill deal approach women time life fuck everything fuck fuck ughhh know im drunk really feel right wanna girl love her loving me cuddle together really hard ask girls love with ended beign completely horrible human beigns me hate that even though logically know bad people really hate damaged heart never girl feel really liked me feel like im privileged even sex probably horrible it since even women hated man hate myself thats probably women like fuck hate hate world hate teverthyng fuck even care anything hope feel happy im sober sorry ive disturbed really feel like right now take literally stream conscsiouness thoughts fuck fuck friend,1 +winning awards nominated for doubt film stand one best fact made non professionals trained act dance makes much specialbr br it bollywood production art lower caste girl wants sing dance wants move society limit everyone cannot president india caste system narrow minds allow breachedbr br vanaja mamatha bhukya quits school goes work landlady urmila dammannagari accomplished dancer time working animals taught sing dance film strikingly beautiful rich color amazing done film masters project writer directorbr br the landladys son karan singh returns america run office struck girl but lower caste vessel lust things better home father drinks eats steals money ends pregnant sell baby landladybr br in end never rises caste story fascinating acting really good,0 +want hurt someone please dot post cringe subreddit hear out feel helpless sad angry everything right now hell could even hurt dont courage level desperation yet,0 +helpmy fiance inadvertently killed baby cat yelled said tired shit packed stuff left dont know myself dead baby sitting box door im alone bi polar depression constantly think redflag need support please,1 +easiest least painful way easiest way,1 +movie great everything true action fan could want plenty people getting shot andor maimed minimal romance involving sex hero identified with violence many intervals instead pointless plot storing one scene end villains asking it bronson appears lowest level tolerancy film shows ed lauter makes great cop seamlessly worked bronsons plot without stealing spotlight movie involve plot boring overconsuming watch film never again rather want see kersey action storyline juices up great stuff,0 +ancient rome wasnt civilized like tf mfs slaves wtf,0 +take train work everyday usually always contemplate jumping front it ill probably never it calms knowing candepression crushing soul today holding back tears extra hard morning truly god ill never understand god created millions millions mental illness pretty fucked ask me man wanna ball eyes out,1 +feel never livedall life thrown around people consider friend one else find someone else would talk anymore even block social media whatsapp reply messages thought life got better found friend mine got close talked everything sun eventually got together months friendships classmate spend lot time together broke months days relationship rd march depressing blamed insecurities previous weeks constantly talking another boy junior orientation kidmeans orientation group leader school got close started talking much gradually talk less said never like last weeks relationship started sending pictures whenever say want see also started talking lot conversations asked join dates accepted without thinking feelings also got parents send school something always wanted never accepted within one month knowing him already let catch ride school parents car talk parents despite knowing year months never let see parents go great lengths ensure parents dont see me time also go library study invited me would also rather go home go home me make feel insecure actions yet maintain never together past week since broke insecurities couldnt handle it started talking ignored me front face laugh talk happy around him started sending hearts messages happen see text class something never used do also broke promise would skype one else today skyped know asked since online skype today rarely days except skype me feel never live lot problems like family never peace friends loner feelings start snowball feel depressed wish antidepression medicine feel bad without want jump building stab knife know im crazy getting betrayed scammed feelings whole life isnt something take it someone talk to people side feel like belong world,1 +wish courage kill myselfgod im pathetic means kill still afraid,1 +second semester college starts tomorrow girl ive talking mia lately fact ill never successful streaming dreamsmp making sad wanna say something nice imma sleep rn ill wake whatever im awake say anything want song recommendations life tips whats going life anything ill see em tomorrow gnight ladies gents,0 +hi partner dv survivor years eroded everything mentally abused mostly throughout sexual elements towards last years shes lovely caring girl world beautiful also easy likes drinks weekends drink brings different girl maybe true girl im sure girl vivid flashbacks pretty harsh shes therapy thats tough going well popping cork anger bottled years,1 +goodnight rteenagers fun seeing sub long time return sorting rising sincerely umerp,0 +know get betterthere literally advice left give me heard all havent gotten better havent worked improving life lazy shit dont become happy dont tell truth feel lie doctor like this given much advice dont act it really hope me,1 +dificult hey ever feel becouse demanding schoolwork realise dream unacheavable want cry sleep talk friends discord course becouse cant see irl start thinking pathetic becouse fucking years old bave never kissed girl even though weird sorry bad grammar read this wanted complain,0 +it stay safe lock heart awayi thought happiest one realize threw out one day december decided create hell one knew felt could anyone really tell heart melt never wished upon yet created virtual reality made fathers pockets empty lied people vaguely made vow broke unfaithfully standing chair alone disgracefully loved girl loved friends loved family fake pearl ocean ground revealed early young strong yet old look years feel scold me it one ever know take thoughts hell demonstrate one ever go wont tell single soul promise you pondered wondered found answer facade life sorry tell this afraid going die farewell dearest friends journey wont forget live peacefully never regret,1 +gender reveal parties bs gender reveals parties dumb excuses parties stuff say things like baby may vagina hes boy shit like that cant decide babys sexuality cant anything cry sleep shit itself plus lets honest fancy things modern parents follow social standards,0 +neighbors panties getting stolen feel bad her mischief ,0 +always put phone correct pocket almodt died thought forgot phone train,0 +tell friends suicidalmy best friends everything despite coming school friends school survived redflag attempts resulted bullying sexual assault went untouched im glad friends month since lost job im dealing depression ever since gone point hopeless matter do always end loser great moments tell jokes other friend laughed something causing suicidal thoughts crossed line loser sums life fuck alive friends you world mean fuck nobody cares live regret staying alive died years ago way seems ashes put sewage nobody cares me even family family done could get today im glad that barely helped social life ever since started school maybe talk more make rd time lucky it,1 +say goodbyei plans want say goodbye old friend dont really talk anymore it without raising much suspicion something,1 +attempting flirt currently met cute girl got snap texting update something ever comes it,0 +tiredeverything life gone shit past years want end theres way,1 +need help someone call dumbass say dont,0 +one earlier reviews movie ends only big fans lead actors fans exotic romanceadventure holywood movies reason enough love it anyone who seeing movie complains connerys accent lack historical verisimilitude realism political motivations extramovie concerns simply love movies see awed starpower two leads exotic romantic photography music bold adventure truly escapist film proof hollywood make em like used to really wants to solid ,0 +killing todayits over redflag note done tonight ill free free emotion free self hatred free everything im almost done will brain trying one last time survive look help one time please thats says august th felt first stroke pain born coddled school issue went there stemm academy september th first thought death kept hidden told parents feelings told old thing redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem go away then got really irritated teacher might well spit face told whole class teen redflag caused thinking little things big now makes sense give up ive fighting war long ive left stemm echos pain still ruin me please help me truth want die ever want pain end im weak know it im coward ive given survive longer old strength support,1 +exposed covid yall covid before im little scared get exposed school quarintine weeks im scared might happen,0 +people staring problem hey guys alt account apologize isnt right sub question ive trying get lately long story involves losing first car ive always fear driving ive getting better getting fear though really nice paying job say that mean afford many many various types clothing really expensive lately whenever go out ive noticing people staring me nice clothes think im cute something dont understand keep looking me dont mind all wanna know why help,0 +im scaredi really anyone talk to comfort would nice,1 +need helpim honestly quite new depressed ive depressed since february came really bad wave im sure became depressed did late february made first attempt bu drowning told newly made best friend hour later said would always support me was one point july become much though said couldnt deal anymore causing much stress life respected stopped relying her mid august made next attempt od went bed woke sick didnt tell one while finally mid september said wished told sooner couldve prevented it on began get better ive really well today ive known trendy political views im total conservative california last saturday fucked made post thats downright horrible today got call hss vice principal somebody apparently reported me said go saying things like did ill expelled really bad anxiety ill expelled really bad gpa cant lose that ive put life school cant expelled cant ive talking bestie says im fault wont even acknowledge anxiety says fault shes person talk problems about doesnt even care said really offensive general ive always never knew think im terrible asshole feel alone nobody support im lost hours plan take knife arteries want send bestie text saying much ill miss her fear shell call help im gone,1 +anyone like fountain pens hobby collecting fountain pens wondering anyone sub shares hobby,0 +continue relationship someone zero understanding mental health issues refuses research husband tells something choose often makes feel alone partner understand,1 +noti reasons to mom brother would destroyed brother sick mind way mom brother nobody me im little sister know hes stayed before im meant anymore maybe im built afterlife here fair still fair need ok guys ill let know hanging im huge fast wish luck,1 +mindim fucking sad god hate people affect you hate horrible people get horrible things get punished them want things ok want snot stop coming nose thats annoying,1 +lost friend lost liveever since best friend always struggled dark thoughts overall sadness i know depression could always count him could always count considered family four guys group throughout teenage years friends im alone bestie joined college started work started drift apart would still hang could could feel growing cold days ago asked hed like hang said hes got project college able come left it hours later scrolling instagram post one friends popped hanging pub course without me clear day wanted nothing me years meant nothing anymore know ive ever felt like life felt like whole world crushed me heart started race trouble breathing understanding happened sent message asking hed lie said friends wanna hang me even though hurts like fucking hell told okay wished best blocked even though want lose best friend know beg thats wants it am years old literally friends hobbies social life achievements life parents probably disappointed fuck me dead end job im aware people way worse get low point even start even right feel like ending all one would probably even notice im gone it know strangers online probably care maybe someone tell,1 +need speak anyone already tired listeningand eliminates everyone know hope seem far deep end start ramble complain suppose beauty long typed diatribes stop reading no im college junior good school im smart girl like things school like get there work occupy succeed well im pacified ive always way regardless doing always grappling extent debilitating panic problems ive nervous kid life parents swear saw still toddler cant think less corny way say im fragile years work stint therapy could change that growing up parents divorced early father moved away came back visit every months kept us one bedroom home friend brothers sisters around lot drugs violence ten one men lived started molest me went several years ran away never thankfully return house since real contact father last heard diagnosed kind disease mother abrasive woman put lot pressure since young lot problems own home summer relationship become strained feel terrible pressing anxiety time interact partial threats punishment surrounding school shell pull this pay tuition keep x z school everything me cliched may sound love learning love work cant taken away demands impossible panic incited served make difficult disagreeable recently put things garbage bag sent way ive hopping house house around comes senses every often ill sneak back nowhere else go applications later seemingly impossible get job sort relate well people many friends hometown interacting new people terrifies me usually become manic halfway sort social situation watch crash burn go back home fret next hour wallow that im very lonely very top panic problem ive got serious undiagnosed heart problems testing next weeks find scope this mother refuses pay critical expensive tests deadend situation used girl loved valued herself remember feeling beautiful talented happy remember tremendous capacity joy many things remember wanting do feel terribly helpless sad time every aspect life point worry panic everything around makes sad lately ive wondering would really bad choice end it im religious cant conceive state consciousness would experience could regret done it ill never even know everything love jeopardy people love far away may never get back them feel violent compulsion kill myself feel motivation desire keep living cannot fight thick pervasive sadness fact even really know makes happy anymore know begin rebuild quite frankly want to therapy question parents pay it medication fantasize way out feel unplugged want spoken badly,1 +done everythingas title suggest im done everything im ready end begun process so yall advice really like it,1 +dont feel like get betterthe last half years really struggling mental health health anxiety gad depression every year seems get worse getting point dont see light end tunnel nan died lock down saw die think may traumatised bit live grandad me bf moved got ill around more like second mother great comfort would feel like this without dont really know turn to ive strong mother grandad think im finally starting crack little good days seem matter im bad days ive thinking alot seriously ever redflag actually starting scare me dont wanna feel helpless guess im looking hope better day,1 +fucking lonelyi wish wasnt awkward waste sperm,1 +fuck bot dont wanna write novel every time write post especially text says your text post optional notice anything says optional,0 +sick lonelinessi time low past months always dealt depression anxiety since really shitty people life including moms abusive boyfriend showed awful things put knives neck mother barely functioning alcoholic abuse refuses seek help father wants little more later functioning alcoholic step mother able deal thanks help girlfriend time broke months ago came crashing down felt lost person could trust issues person judge it together years moved within week new guy likes tell terrible yet super good looking that makes feel awful weeks broke up step mother gave choice move fathers live grandparents friends playing board games they knew gave permission came storming house drunk screaming forgetting turn porch light every light door on sick constant mental abuse received treated younger sibling packed things moved night ever since life downward spiral looking forward college thanks know do feel alone helpless whenever try talk someone psych who barely get see work feel judged them want deal anymore sorry jumbled mess needed say this,1 +want feel safe again possible here wish wake,1 +feel like im good enough achieve goalsi graduated college years ago im still working minimum wage job got pay bills college feel like life ever amount be sincerely believe im good enough obtain greater success currently have current job still living home parents give up know believe life get better im going end tonight everyone house goes bed im going go car garage turn let fumes kill me ill long dead anyone wakes tries stop me,1 +looking forward next yeari dont think make christmas even shame,1 +demand validation like childmy problems insignificant im weak fucking piss baby im posting know ill never really kill im big bitch ive always pussy pain always given taken easy route going gets tough half assed attempts past theyre right say attention least case cry help fuck need saved from ive got easy even know every fucking teenager what now ive actually forgotten like since elementary cant fucking happy feel like every day like pulling teeth ive tried hard pickup bootstraps fake till make it feel like point grin bear it turned bear like fucking jesus dragging cross im wasting everyones time ive always hated reading peoples long text walls woes always seems like what fuck contribute person worse place am advice could give platitudes bullshit ive never posted anything like before always come back sub read posts debate commenting think why always figured fucking kid nothing value contribute reason even stating ego inflating opinions contribute say would care im horrible miserable confused fucking person cant force happy trying attain happiness like fucking commodity fantasy pipe dream see stories know anymore trying live day day working out bother fucking anything anymore,1 +sometimes follow heart leads wrong direction ,1 +famous yet mom,0 +toxic masculinityi voice sounds gay im actively straight male kinda hurts know people know voice life thought deep,1 +hated wanna die test answer questions correct wrong answer gave wrong answer math happened answered questions correctly except got idk anymore studied months get good grade doesnt work,0 +memes start rolling around lets give people lost lives moment silence although years since aftermath casualties funny families may visited graves left them many able that still approximately thousand missing people since dna might burnt fire enough pieces proper burial one immediate family lost like give condolences,0 +this shown dubbed italian rome cinema not bad sounds presented rome film festival much art film festival film guaranteed charm delight audiences distinctive style droll humor ability draw comedy suffering others appealing cheery music spoton performances overriding sweetness humanitybut doomed oddity lack compelling story line leave average audiences wondering theyre watching anyone admires it even got madebr br andersson gives us almost series dry skits running various themes money guy next table waldemar nowak nicks wallet rich bore talking cell phone restaurant glass brandy goes orders set posh suits made order deadbeat son calls celebrated father away elaborate gathering beg one loan shrink worries aloud depleted investments wife humps bed wearing shiny viking helmetbr br depression elementary teacher jessica nilsson breaks class husband called harpy rug salesman spouse pr fredriksson collapses clients hes called that several men depressing dreams heythis sweden everybody depressed love problems fat bohemian couple perpetually breaking up girl groupie fantasies lead guitarist micke eric bckman wives slam doors husbands start practice instruments music obviously unifying theme besides dashing guitarist theres tuba drum player whore dixierland band also play marches funerals every scene added lilt music niftily links one sequence another raging storm outside window many scenes violent rain people it thunder loud sounds like battle raging across land also unifies tone gives impression various scenes happening dauntingly tempestuous daybr br andersson master visual composition static middledistance shot film foggy graygreen look engineered dp gustav danielsson thats perfect evokes gloom swedish winter also twinkles subtle colors directors wit ends every scene smile one almost never knew drabness could beautiful or perhaps one did alexcanr sokurov creates effects sometimes different contexts within scenes film whole theres kind stillness comes visual style pacing scenes detached humanism overall outlook theres something fully mastered style thats calming reassuringbr br not everything works equally well one may feel impatient succession barely related scenes read much sometimes like work saturday night live writer need prozac since scenes plainly move draw laugh obvious others fall little flatbr br but scenes real zingers one obviously triumphant climax pure magic dreamdescribed visualized dreams another important thread girl groupie imagines wedding dress newly married fey guitarist ideal plays delicate series riffs crowd admirers gathers outside big window viewpoint switches outside window slides slowly away building dream newlyweds look train moving station take honeymoon fresh subtle rather sublime effectbr br eventually one may feel everything living du levande dream including recurring scene barman always striking bronze bell announcing last order time whereupon torpid customers rise tables go get one drinkbr br an italian reviewer called a small great film thats right limits dozen ways greatness it roy andersson little master like medieval miniaturist inner comedies scandanavian gloom film unlike other shown year cannes un certain regard selection also swedish entry best foreign oscar hard say bergman would think andersson worked him famous elaborately produced tv commercials one see youtube bergman called the best commercials world interesting see director whose craft subtle viewpoint start working longer segments time meanwhile good film buff really needs get look thisbr br schadenfreude quite right word means delight misery others andersson teaching us delight misery us,0 +want die alonemy aunt diedmy grandpa diedmy cousin diednothing anythingi need end hellhole call lifesomeone shoot fucking head alreadyi nothing live forim fatim uglyim nothingi want die edge oblivioni want known useless piece shit hate life,1 +joe biden cringe vote dog instead thats right folks dog running us presidency year vote biden vote dog,0 +confessed crush today rejected eh happens also lost teaching license really care,0 +still alivei made post time ago ready go got bunch comments trying convince wrong myself deserved live apologize confrontational then turns major depressive disorder turned asshole couldnt see anything good world im antidepressants ive better times i mean look world right come on grateful people kept alive wanted let everyone know im okay now,1 +lack jealousya weeks ago decided starve death lasted week turns starving much much painful slitting wrists gunshot head anyways said robbed whatever drove people due father died mother two clicks short psycho maybe one click short anyways years intensive zazen know missing ive never jealous anyone im lived entire life without jealousy suppressed every day practice zazen becomes slightly clearer exactly wrong me im sure sounds people imagine living whole life without jealousy people everyone know likes me sure puts absolutely horrendous position without jealousy hard want like someone like someone hard like kind music kind music jealousy people large extent base entire identities on ive never that remember exactly supposed start mid twenties life seems like lost cause,1 +im tired fault lol particular exam ive studying homework stuff almost hrs tired wanna rest eyes studying advanced next lessons im done yayyy,0 +fuck pcmr got banned rpcmasterrace posted meme apparently shitty mods assholes turned blame me told go hell also refused respond me asked awnser unban me said every message send respond days wouldnt respond either way kinda softlocked told gth feels good,0 +honestly going start deleting social media go back isolating like fucking constantly do even try proud hard work others even get fucking point done trying love even live anyones standards fucking sick envy hate sick always angry sick ever finally start talking problems asshole says someone always worse you look bright side almost like problems fucking matteri done fucking give up honesty start drinking fucking done on,1 +heres angrybitter poem wrote valentines day lol plz read perhaps cold you warmth within soul perhaps dangerous far beyond mold perhaps blasphemous breed born far bold perhaps empty loves sold ampxb wipe smile face lose stupid acted gaze erase name like phase turn rotten bitter page curse ring silver sting hope fall lose wings ampxb perhaps hardened sickened tastes perhaps blackened scarred take perhaps rabid canines bite unchained perhaps rancid blood name engraved ampxb eyes betray nature like sculpture crater youre sturm without drang sweet sour tang youre game without show without money blow ampxb perhaps frail spine beneath talk perhaps stale fat even walk perhaps ugly yet thought top perhaps dead lifeless afterthought,0 +well wanted honesty thats say never want let go better way,0 +ughi took ten norcos lot vodka im fuxkup cant even kill fml,1 +drop comment ill stalk profile tell u think u read title sums,0 +gone soonill soon probably couple months now taking amtrak dallas finding tall enough building jump from im sick shit,1 +cant thisi control alive sense obligation family ive going job agencies know justify existence somehow need useful im selfish time know im fundamentally useless im incapable people dont even think about life happening sense agency im shit want make parents proud thats need feel like im use otherwise im taking space cant anymore im fucking close ending stupid insignificant self im terrified ill end breaking promise made family wouldnt cant live like hate hate much,1 +anyone want chat im looking nice conversations hopefully make friends ,0 +almost years clinical depression ive finally started genuine attempt pull out one people never see best myself ive never able bee good enough standards set myself kinda like anorexia aspects life guess always problem me example swimmer actually pretty good swimmer first year high school swimming almost made state championships fact times good enough place pretty well state team really good youre able send certain amount people state back then saw good enough couldnt see past fact didnt make it never even considered fact first year never even considered fact multiple gold medals jv meets races saw enough last pretty muchyear gained pounds pounds insanely depressed ashamed past like months massive problem me way could pretty much anything sports need get back shape finally got motivation start turning life around right now im going try start getting regular exercise start eating healthier im going get consistent sleep schedule finally start homework sorry sucks im pretty trash writer tldr finally got motivation start trying pull depression,0 +endsive tried many times held one person loved cared me found never nothing lose nobody ever needs much need them one person needed need me cant fucking live anymore everyone would better without me ive lost many fucking people last one turns give shit cant wait fucking leave world ive wanting since years old fucking time im sorry better way,1 +nut november day weekend finally fucking weekend nothing much happened today sports went school thats realy it hornyness slowing theory still stands strong think oh yeah ate pizza today pretty bangin anyways time go bed good luck brave soldiers there good night morning dont know,0 +set datei set date september next year im want romantically emotionally im going it im age friends starting families dont time romantic prospects end negatively blowing face im tired lonely im going way rest life might well end life early,1 +uhh got damn uhh,0 +ive thinking redflag loti think daily set desk work think awesome would constant torment recently got divorced woman put depression irritability anymore im year old man going home apartment alone one share life with odd feeling know months ago things fine great job nice house school working masters rocky semi stable relationship amazing dogsto coming home silence reason done parents brother thought pain dealing committing act stops tracks could never them hope stay committed them text ex still things pretty cordial part however already started looking someone get that could already looking relationship act high mighty already slept someone else im even close ready relationship even reality people suck tell everything ok pass hard see im currently standingfuuuuuucccckkkkk,1 +fun fact day three five american bear dog which extinct neither bear dog yellow crab multiple white hairs body catch bacteria feed thermal vents bacteria deep dark areas ocean dont go process photosynthesis chemosynthesis process turning minerals thermal vents energy,0 +getting close hanging myselfim sick nothing working doubt waiting help,1 +falling apartfuck trough away care wife gone week well all sure cheating fuck it im two kids love dearly family grandmother grandfather sisters younger i im poor drowning debt i starting see way out people morn months everyone go lives question ive struggling last months will actually people favour looks like yes removing picture stop holding every one back suggestions guys words help im end handle right now,1 +crazy person hereim sure belongs here think years ive becomestrong guess enough make real attempts taking life thoughts lately thoughts become loud again know society stigma redflag depression get tired fighting tired fighting pass pain ones love know know thats redflag pass pain others get so tired thoughts get loud years ago friend found getting ready hang myself years therapy years trying antidepressant new antidepressant nothing makes thoughts go away makes less vocal them makes shy away people one ever know know never normal think would nice if life could talk someone frankly honestly without fear locked up medicated treated like nut case almost wonder would even help,1 +dont really know dof new account btw reasons cut arms thighs pretty bad really fkn hurts im bleeding quite bit im gonna overdose min thicklarge hoodie hide cuts buuut blood getting through idek do mum walked saw bed leg luckily saw cuts got away saying period meds next me im gonna overdose now idek anymore im really sorry,1 +good bye video ever thought good bye video case die,0 +bye time said goodbye world rest peace letting spirit free again,1 +m british ask random stuff long train journey rn bored af ask random stuff please yeh,0 +eighties savage steve holland put three movies two classics seems small genre absurdist teen comedies third how got college measure better dead one mainly lack john cusack curtis armstrong except tiny cameobr br one crazy summer underrated movie lots great characterizations gags recall savage steves movies vilified brain dead time three movies drifted childrens tv could use movies likes him,0 +suicidal falling apart need shoulder cry onive really bad night know tonight specifically lot stress ive kept bottled come pouring out feel passing now im still emotional edge itd nice talk someone close friends asleep honestly want vent anyone know well anyway long story short im really depressed frustrated frightened sad think im calm enough make tomorrow tomorrow like today cant see way anymore itd nice talk anyone it throwaway aim disposablerobot,1 +three months talking one friend could call free pm am due atts gophone policies whenever could get away it texting nokia tracphone the ancient indestructible brick phone sister lashing ungrateful allowed come use internet triggered snapping back due to something cant remember just stopped asking ended losing contact everyone one friend could talk maybe twice week couple hours shed try keep apprised stuff going folks phonecalls ended bring spark bloomed us couple but enough negativity feelings selfhatred selfdisgust believing everything father dumped slowly took over,1 +the italian among great neargreat films available today year turning point featurelength film especially america lois webers hypocrites cecil b demilles the cheat and course dw griffiths the birth nation set new benchmarks art additionally year russian filmmaker yevgeni bauer made two best pictures after death daydreams french serial les vampires also admirers today although disagree them emergence featurelength film led europe mainly denmark france italy dominance market and degree art shifted across atlantic br br the overriding artistic achievement the italian stunning often innovative cinematography picturesque sunsets mobile framing including brief overhead angled shot italian racing buy wedding ring another shot holding onto moving car and general wise use varied camera angles expert lighting throughout especially amazing shot closeup italian enraged slowly approaches camera extreme closeup reference dw griffiths musketeers pig alley hes enraged environment even begins shake around angerbr br unfortunately cinematographer appears unknown director although originally without credit film known reginald barker five films made ince also available today rather unremarkable civilization worked on large production deeply flawed movie way id guess one various cinematographers worked civilization also photographed the italianbr br moreover entire production advanced then venice new york well rendered despite film shot los angeles for romanticized venice san francisco for ethnic slums new york extensive flashbacks although perhaps one two many especially like clever framing narrative read book character played actor george beban also lead inner main narrative reading story briefly framed opening beginning closing end curtain drapes la theatre reflected within inner story revenge climax childs room opening closing window curtains parallel editing incamera dissolves irises handled expertly additionally beban clara williams wife play parts wellbr br on hand the italian drawbacks films early moments comedy clash rather disharmoniously latter parts harsh heavy melodrama although environmental changes romanticized italy naturalistic new york works wellmostly supported lighting photography harsh dissolution american dream film enhanced stark photography must poignant immigrant classes comprised disproportionately large population moviegoing public back then corrigan character foreshadowed more brief introduction campaigning another politician seems inadequate later centrality italians revenge addition filmmakers either medically naf careless explain lack breastfeeding infant unwarranted faith healing powers quietness child aside deficiencies plot the italian exceptionally well made,0 +sister made lip bleed got scot free making fun show watching decided good response kick me made phone fly face lip met tooth bled grabbed said again would hurt back go talk parents makes sound like super aggressive made case fair mouthed tad bit that mom said im kid anymore keep mind im say sister either mom says thirfuckingteen says word teen point parents considered backtalk dad even said would punch mouth mouthed off again fucking hate sister makes life slog go ive honestly considered killing myself wont worry that ive got people need me live them sister awful made forget that thanks letting rant good one,0 +march year rejections finally got dream job happier ever everything going well lost members family took week result job acted supportive time think would affect anything less two weeks ago moved city job based cementing new stage lifeand today went office discover passing probation terminating employment immediatelythis came shock mention performance past outside struggling bereavement seems like front supportive people mental health issues reality want deal people themi broken know do worked hard get job pandemic ruined life cannot even get right mental health always finds way fuck every good thing life alone new city joball healing done last couple months bc bereavement disappeared back square one feel like life never good id rather dead cannot take anymore bc disgusting failure lost dream job working hard want live anymore,1 +financial guilt wearing downmy family poor celebrate christmas year fault student loans moving expenses medical bills im basically one big walking debt machine even know bother living make everything worse even mom finally fed me claims im reason depression spent today sitting home dad rest family splintered side continent agreed pretend everything fine fine cant stop thinking life would better everyone around dead feel haunted thought im starting genuinely think truth,1 +chan new york gets involved attempt sabotage new aircraft designbr br the war year away reaching america second world war already raging everywhere else world colored everything since people probably realized war coming war mentioned fact film deals production planes least alludes it mystery pretty good notion plane sabotage lends nicely couple rather tense moments certain talking charlie chan certain would live fight another day guarantee condition would in whether anyone around would survivebr br i really like film great deal one nest far worst one truly rare things truly enjoyable one definitely worth look six,0 +ihappy i broke ex today relationship really bad started good hanging onto unrealistic expectations anymore dont love havent long time didnt realise it broke got back together times knew could yeah well anymore im free pain wont hurt again then potential new boyfriend messaged me talked called seems really nice d long distance thing like last moving quickly bad apparently feel kinda free rn happy tomorrow come ill find feeling hollow sad anyway wanted share good feeling feel every months,0 +hey ladies gents ever scared dark well oh boy trick you might sound silly trust me lets say room coat corner room looks little scary what do might ask well worry friend look ur getting scared say fuck you middle fingers up orrr lets say ur scared cuz think ur followed either say look bro ik following come already only use know anyone else looking you make sure say bored tone possibly turn around walk away calmly jokes aside actually works me,0 +deserve die im meant diekinda long story one vent to ever since high school gang stole lied ended peoples lives sold drugs kidnapped people would sell friends dope watch die wanted money would steal money parents sisters classmates would slowly start see friends disappear one one would lead girls isolated areas knock throw trunk never see hear again met girl fell love made everything worse gave kokain hooked right away anything get more reckless actions getting fights constantly yelling abusing family abusing friends soon girl gonna get married kids get clean leave awful town forever week gonna leave rival gang jumped us girl dreams girl loved anything world future wife gang raped front me still hear screams begging help make stop pinned ground made watch done shot head screamed cried uncontrollably beat half death passed woke hospital hand cuffed bed cops murder possession drugs attempted murder mother made plea insanity im ive back society months job live one moms ex boyfriends family wont talk im alone deserve this regret everything ive ever done wish could go back meant life done meant cause pain suffering weather wanted not one read im alright it needed chest deserve die plan making sure happens hell sure spot reserved it,1 +im gonna try todaydown river hope courage close eyes walk in im sorry cant go more ill miss you,1 +idki dont know want live think lot lot cant cant leave brother want,1 +caddyshack dreadful reputation due fact sequel highlyheld classic people criticised film lot grounds ultimately hark back fact caddyshackbr br i would begin saying take caddyshack equation consider film merits think would unfair movie lot common predecessor classrelated themes snobs versus slobs desire fit class prevalent first movie two things truly lacking bill murray rodney dangerfield replaced dan ackroyd jackie mason respectivelybr br now try argue ackroyd comes close murray movie jackie mason admirable successor dangerfield comes cross dangerfield arnold stang without biting heavily either say anywhere close funny dangerfield caddyshack whole lot point character dilemma filmbr br chevy chase pops handful times movie another common complaint maybe particular naysayers notice popped times first movie money scenes lot funnier somewhat overdirectedbr br while im subject really overdirection movie brings down comes across far selfconscious attempts get laugh many jokes laboured theres far much gopher seems taken far anthropomorphic personality voice case grasp idea meant funnybr br characters similarly hammered home particularly smarmy yuppy kids jackie mason rarely misses beat consistently likable funny need tango sequence all director clearly school thought harold ramis suggest caddyshack subtle jokes little overcooked unnecessarily embellished quirky music cuebr br all things considered fun goofy movie something say class identity movies time saying put appallingly low rating imdb check yourself,0 +wish couragei wish could bring offing myself know whats stopping want nothing overcome barrier it,1 +gaming gaming rn,0 +fools wake sheeple done big pharmas otter propagandas implant otter microchips mind devolve human otters mind wake sheeple,0 +cant take more agony killing long story short so name alfred florin suffering ocd pure since now young age shook hands ocd anxiety problems big deal present days would go away without huge effort sickness struck hard felt presence hard like possession get let continue story first ocd encounter stepped guys foot guess may wondering whats wrong means well romania urban myth goes like this step someones foot person step back mother dies well many people around cause mayor elecrion day stepped guys foot figure went cause happened fast disappeared crowd instant well got home thought fact mom could dead cause stepped guy foot really scared anything little worried know stupid even year old yeah well guess hours passed started thinking obsessive way mom die etc bad thoughts chest started burning everything would say fight back get believe real started crying pain made feel like life ruined well passed really soon guess next day kind ok tell anyone it experience till age various exeperiences like one bother long run let give examples thinking biomechanics repetitive body movements stop felt like hit right spot movement right one sae really fcked thing website soup made fetus well saw mind started telling would enjoy would like eat stop imagining eating even though hated images pure hell cause religious person made feel like let god whenever would go church would imagine jesus mary sex stop thinking would get images mind movies would leave church feeling like crap made feel like bad person actually crippled thoughts went really fast affect life long run repeat periods would feel bad depressed felt ache chest like soul hurt chest really emotional sudden would get scared easily cry really fast let talk abot age friend believe jesus would argue day long religous stuff explaining thing every single day hours day every damn day caused lot stress really wanted help felt like duty stop tears help god well one day sitting computer one questions god popped head tried answer get answer right seesrched google saw different responses guess what single answer made feel ok felt thirst truth next minutes chest lighted little little pain getting stronger searching searching answer guess question transformed questions per secondin mind felt tornado questions making soul brain hurt like thing world day spent wandering streets cause sit still chest soul fire mind full questions walking like mad man looking straight nothingness walking trying give answer questions slowly strating realize going hell cause started doubting god works made chest explode bursted tears biggest badeest panick attack ever experienced first mom came home work keep telling soul aches know distressed situation thinking teenage thing pass nightime came pain question king gone omnipresent bed disaster got knees prayed like tomorrow end days next day thing happened got point sleep mom listen radio night long day long hear brain telling going hell images burning hell glued mind soul well went like months father came home abroad went psychiatrist thing went ok psychiatrist care took years understand wrong seeing gave pills years never therapy fear leaving treatment behind leaving psychiatrist cause thought one would understand continued years fifth year pils seeing psychiatrist etc seeing psychiatrist everything bad bearable life shit could cope years branches ocd hocd fobias religious ocd blah blah guess tasted it hocd wrecked life went like champ last year fifth met laura new ocd chapter began retroacrive jealousy primary enemy now like dont scars ocd episodes still depreseed angry full pain met one thing t hopeless hope would get better met march different sexual really colorful sexual experiences seamed slutty talking sexual past black men life cheated ex cause horny stuff kissed one night saw something something special even talked like like person funny nice personality toghether one day stop thinking men talked ocd started kicking months reltionship ocd came ruined us way unabe please sexualy unable kiss got point wanted break it inch got kind ok good ok well toghether getting ready exam august found put cheated june ex alin several times month talking time guess started talking april found august forgave strict month would understand wrong wrecked relationship period anger lighted ai started talking ex nothing romantic random talk touch anything stopped talking middle september cause feel like anger good need forgive well everthing went really good found club one night date september went best friend recently got relationship guess dude cheated ex alin with called paul went club paul best friend andreea teodor dude wich seeing relationship ex night got drunk drugs asked teodor stop seeing eachother left asked leaving crazies paul andreea end night spitted dude cause intervened shouting paul wants fight laura said fight spitted teodor said laura asked come back take back home chill said true lied many things know believe forgave night ocd started wrecking life after found contacted ex slept put anger twice regret feel anything laura found got problem ok new start though trust like time ago stop asking questions details past cheating how minor details anything get answer feel better hour kicks stop getting mental movies images hearing things man ablut teodor alin paul etc really need get back track seems really hard told order work need stop talking men going club stol stop etc right go specialist really cares please help every word matters please tell relationship worth anything would forgive would cant stop getting images brain tells betrayed twice alin twice night club good enough self esteem wrecked cant even go walk cause everytime do see someone muscular attractive way ocd teels girlfriend like cause better look admires him ai get really jealous lock shell sometimes feel like like little wounded boy wants understood loved hard live really plastic harsh world nobody cares feeling chase money like hell sorry grammar mistakes spot well thanks reading,1 +help study physics pretty pls cant concentrate know anything chapters tommorow exam im grade help,0 +people posting wooden legos theres wiling away time anyone agree,0 +tried asking advice help reddit got nothing hatei nothing regrets whoever sees hope encourages nicer strangers never know someone going through thank goodbye reddit strength left goodbye,1 +update balls hello all today good day balls feel back normal aching last days im pleased means go doctors feel balls unless pain comes back,0 +reason miss school want fall asleep bus way home wake eyes feeling cold sleepy hoodie keeping comfy getting bus barely able walk way home tired much bones hurt day school get home let fall onto bed fall asleep grandma wakes lunch,0 +told teacher use protection last accident didnt listen phone crack front back kept saying use case screen protector preferred phone unprotected look beautiful iphone pro max doesnt even single crack use protection,0 +sorry everyone last post weird im weird karma real car running like hour turn,0 +skirt bread quote world history teacher aztecs needed chad blood,0 +feel urge grow up dont im like panic mode tonight it dont know whether save fun thing get motorcycle license motorcycle im kind panicking cause make wrong choice never get around thing dont know im doing idea im life,0 +suicidal day againi felt ok days today collapsed started panicking classes didnt show up feel like failure im sure love partner feel sick say love doesnt feel right said wasnt sure felt load shit happened us told cruel am would bow im terrified hell lose shit tell feel dont even know feel im starting make friends class matter time hate me jake everyone hate eventually im scared going happen want isolate myself stay dorm room slash wrists,1 +clever entertaining film backroom battling went choose successor johnny carson tonight show however movies ultimate thesis david lettermans superior comedic talents overlooked controversial nature show diminished enthronement inferior jay leno leading comedy program television simply untrue anyone watched leno letterman perform see themselves hard simple truth exactly one nbc exec stated film jay leno funniest man america david letterman not realize this much machinations film become irrelevant ultimately whole film amounts little sour grapes letterman fans cannot accept better comic chosen people whose business know kind things final proof despite lettermans early lead possibly hype emerged battle tonight show succession lenos show consistently proved popular thus mind least refuting lettermans claims unfairly robbed rightful inheritance,0 +need advice suicidal friendme ben friends forever hes struggled anxiety depression long remember first time mentioned redflag years ago seemed like thought concept back then past year so hes problems finding meaning life understanding wants problems making friends ive one confidants everything hes bro love him really taking toll me ive told issues depression well always seem take backseat suicidal fact suicidal makes feel like need matter what selfish turn down never make false promises never tell going get better normally listen try tell im him love him normally go anywhere drinks lot lot drugs drinks hell call times night hell text hes work feels like always on tells hes sorry uses me tells hes shit friend nothing live for tell im him ill always him know lot say tell get therapy immediately hes going need back well how im friend seems awful impossible cant keep up im really hurting cant help him know do im sorry poorly structured help advice give would nice thank you,1 +know writing feel post here since long remember making fake personality acting like everything okay making sure one worried mental health getting worse worse everyday know much long keep going wish could talk someone around depression feel deserve help think ending everyday make accident wish could make go away,1 +note everyonedear everyone depression ive never suicidal something society everyone drowns people suffering ones going hell like one possibly imagine people society drowns fucking reason reading know love you im year old kid behind screen truly love you ive got empathy sympathy combined make understand pain suffering cry read note simple someones depressed cry someone tells cried last night empathy works sub chose important subject matter me im redflag prevention club school care matter tell reason planet lose you lose planet every single person worth everything depressed suicidal please call text swear im you hesitate call redflag prevention line loved entire community community people like people choose here remember people come comment love you optional sub yet sub almost k supporters remember loved please call text dm need someone love you sincerely colin zimmer,1 +welp started use twitter deleting previous account able handle negativity coming blm hope goddamn god dragged clusterfuck fire drama controversy twitter honestly previous time grown point felt bad wanting take part blm action preserve mental health honestly im gonna stop giving fuck anything negative campaing justice twitter even people call devil silence violence fucking propagandaleave fuck alone choose avoid negative topics,0 +film blew away thought knew little attica prison riot watching this see knew nothing story told relationship attorney black inmate personal story two men unfolding courtroom drama riveting flashback sequences prison awesome hard believe documentary footage real great piece drama incredible lesson important chapter american history im ebert roeper give two thumbs up,0 +think oopsie posted saying reply personal way every comment comments later ow,0 +realized friend better every aspect life ive friends years noticed actually better everything naturally talented know build selfesteem want always compare him want hobbies talent feel unmotivated know practice makes perfect know better look realize much better person me,0 +glad grew simping pokimane watching stupid pokmon shit waste money dumb pokmon cards donate money pokimane even reads name want one day might bf knows,0 +got tested covid recently good stick nose unpleasant feeling world,0 +megathicc fuck see everywhere want father paid debt leave kids be,0 +want someone kill quickly whether intentional not maybe shoot back head someone run truck someone decides push front high speed trainmental health issues make extremely difficult enjoy life especially paranoid intrusive thoughts tried therapy helps temporarily comes back shortly becomes even worse drink take drugs eat healthily exercise yet nothing helps reason still around want hurt friends family hope someone kills,1 + yeari still accomplished anything single thing report due tomorrow fucked around jackshit tonight end me,1 +know think normalas long remember iv hadthoughts thoughts killing others thoughts like id get away it would kill also know normal all something talk parents mean really wants kid say momdad im suicidal person thinks killing others honest know would ever actually act thoughts still mere fading ideas think it sometimes quite stop thinking it,1 +idiot karma whores fake parent deaths deadly diseases mom recently died getting free coins memberships im depressed getting nothing really hate stupid humans stupid fake number account really idiotic like wrong would fake hard things deal week membership ever one things happen really close people died well hope see feel people terrible things happen get nothing people great day,0 +anyone making jokes dementia grandma stage dementia spent hour today within hour said people wanted kill her gonna kill me sick cried laughed cried again destroyed family life please dont make jokes it sake everyone affected disease,0 +im sooni cant take anymore im abused home sucks also dental issues bring pain daily got braces foreign place cause parents insisted mess job developed tmj tooth ache due clenching got root canal failed hurts feel burning sensation daily tooth im scared get removed cause im i got done front tooth life hell,1 +anyone else get nervous around hot girls even though interested happens lot wish could eradicate feeling,0 +whenever going upload meme something happened rteenagers image option went away,0 +ill likely dead soon now next weekits easiest way take pill never wake again ill finally feel sense tranquility again cant remember feeling all cant remember last time genuinely felt peace mind torturing me skinning alive laughing face voices finally gone demons gone ampxb todays date th december near christmas new years close family celebrations love family much know love me deserve feel pain losing son brother kindest souls cant carry living nightmare someone elses happiness im pain unimaginable scary were quick judge think what whiny fucking teenager please remember never know whats happened end heartache constant hammering already shattered bleeding screaming heart whenever think cant get worse always somehow gets worse how brother leave him fair him cant anymore hurts hurts much ive tried best ive reached limits ive let everyone around destroyed image think turn back anymore ive taken several ritalin pills heart rate keeps jumping beats per minute im hallucinating seeing glimmers light zoom past eyes hospital last week thing took several ritalin pills causing seizure dislocating shoulder im sitting bed writing arm mental pain hope another seizure leading stuck hospital family crying doctors giving meds writing reports sending municipality social services family done nothing wrong me whats happened last six months recognize myself ampxb im sorry love mom love dad love bro,1 +almost iti almost last month really close didnt regret it feel like couldve missed chance end pain im really trying stay alive feels like one everyone life either cruel abusive flat uncaring try reach people love talk say shit like im sorry could worse im trying hard find fit live go work come home cook take care myself pay bills sleep without wishing dead crying day thats want dont even want rich successful dont even want love dont need amazing career dont need excitement popularity admiration want peace maybe tiny bit understanding want love myself dont feel like ask much im tired living,1 +get stressed want diei feel like everything much im frustrated want cry time cant find summer job know im going want cry im sick people trying form relationships get close bc im going fuck up i one guy really really like im ready relationship im really going ruin life bc get upset angry time cant get help first relationship ended months ago it went years abusive asshole suicidal issues over met i worst part personal struggle but got thankfully thanks im happy that got worse blamed said rude things yelled would come home college he older dropped bc hes scumbag cant anything would use sex rape yell essentially tell vagina disgusting like okay help family brings time like need fucking reminder mom fucking defends like say hes scum earth goes hes hard life like oh im sorry give excuse rude me even tried talk said thats lost cause i never even bothered mention would force sex use condom always worried pregnant never brought bc bother little ever cared left gone mother moron smokes severe asthma hospital time cant ask help bc always center attention probably money pulled help fucked relationship years ago pretend like even care her would rather move never speak family cant money stupid i need talk mom im want turn nasty bitch like her finances one thing really stress help already worried mother go hospital weekend time this im done want move leave bc im much happier college never see or sister rude really love dad going stay home dog baby died months ago reason anymore im beyond frustrated want stop ceyinfn stop hurting people get help cant bc mother center attention want extended family think im looney bc need help want die done since last time felt really bad about years ago im now im frustrated want leave im sorry rant im really frustrated even got even made sense thank much random guy like bc really sweetheart nice want break hes sweet nice tell cares never takes advantage anything always support part wants leave bc im tired people seeing vulnerable get upset like tiny part still worried might try hurt me worry much anymore im worried im going break make suicidal,1 +starring annmargret frederic forrest cathryn damon donald moffat lonny chapman patricia smith directed by john erman months live little time plan future would share sake children must succeedbr br lucile fray annmargret caring mother young children loving wife ivan frederic forrest man almost crippled arthritis also dying stricken terminal illness months left live husband tormented painful truth turns bottle and broken heart lucile forced accept never able cope father alone br br and so sake children loves much young mother must make agonising decision br br inspired reallife events who love children tribute one womans courage strength story sacrifice dying mothers undying lovebr br one best films ever seen cried start finish,0 +review movie date really trashes stars movie itself usually like read user comments give idea expect movie know much about unfortunate many comments certain tile one review unreasonably trashes movie cast get idea expect read review watching title know venom movie stars came from douglas blondell talented attractive people usually delivered even material greatest found movie performances fun enjoyable one great alltime classics pleasant funny diversionmuch hope newer movies fan stars disappointed,0 +im looking someone art webcomic ive come here preferably find someone help within age range basically short story id like turn webcomic cant art myself need find artist right now story planned art last thing list,0 +eye reveals sound cool utod_ want eye reveal ,0 +ucurb__ appreciation post u pog ,0 +think last post giving up apologize anyone ive disappointedi tried everything even learning new profession turns im terrible learner shitty coder like im shitty person thank god still job pharmacy assistant makes easier takes bit right shit go sleep never wake up goodbye folks,1 +leave pleaseplease let go,1 +cant even kill righthi im using throwaway nobody knows reddit really matter need get chest nobody asked im sorry two nights ago attempted kill overdosing antidepressants took them failed friends found out called said i care i love much one spoke school today even best friends saw barely said two words made plans tonight posting pictures left completely im well guess part glad im still here bigger part wishes failed feel bad one cares im here im alone completely really anything holding here know kind wish wouldve died know im sorry im great,1 +please help me feel like strong long cant take anymorei hope someone advice right feel like world caving me even know begin feel like even here complaining see many people subreddit worse mebut really need someone listen one listens anymore talkalways talking lovely fiancee moved australia for currently waiting finalize immigration time unable work study even volunteer work banned right waste space speak income own spend days computer dicking around waiting time passes ive signed gym go every moment available fiance drop its far walk spend day around house friends friends australia longer speak to due huge timezones going separate ways life fiances friends know well enough tried hard get know them one antisocial angry time one gone breakup feels like world ending others live far away one town get know live retirement community nothing here theres gas station tim hortons stores voila feel like life right now shit lot people told stupid travelling young age regretted moving canada fiance one bit love death know sounds cliche given age really happy him except every day comes home feel like life waste space bored frustrated australia honour roll student high achiever live learning bettering myself ive tried hard put spare time use tried learn programming another language art etc right feel unmotivated thought might wasting away another year bothers end family aside fiance mother schizophrenic paranoid abusive mentally physically left lot scars again mental physical haunts dreams every night even though im another country still jump every often acidentally spill something swear stub toe scared behind ready beat againor worse combined fanciful events childhood keeps sleeping well night period know need see counsellor thisi know need someone talk to right healthcare money pay this never let things bother me ever always always try look bright side everything hitting hard lately get wisdom teeth theyre infected badly fiance going use savings pay it know bothers not know communicate listen fault good man rough time friendships relationships hes trying change desperately me hes also extremely stressed moment works every day also goes college eight hours day time comes home wants relax cant even due school work want bother problems need help reddit ive tried stay positive entire life theres lot backstory summarizes stuff bothers moment feel lonely bored upset everything sort hitting onceand feel stupid even complaining this tldr cant work study anything living another country till government says so feel like waste space first time life everything bad happened getting me,1 +dont get happeningim usually dead inside dont usually cry laugh past days crying much something like litteraly crying couldnt even sleep made little happy know still emotion im sad depressed,1 +dont even know im suicidali cant even talk ton even know im suicidal im frustrated want stab myself,1 +say number give song playlist music heavy recommend listen speaker headphones best experience dm want link it,0 +altman scorsese twisted sex together one greatest american films past years boogie nights make huge initial splash still think received credit deserves immediate clamor surrounding film some porn movie marky mark wholly without merit paul thomas anderson created less stunning representation pursuit subsequent loss american dream if thing still existsbr br for living box or confessional past years boogie nights tells literal riseandfall tale young eddie adams wahlberg eddie dopey kid torrance california wants something life room soaked musclebound naive americana dreams far bigger potential quite large hisspecial gift baldheaded southern gent quickly raises attention eyebrows booming omnipresent adult film industry jack horner burt reynolds films twinkleeyed papa bear gets wind eddies hidden talent decides put moviebr br before say deepthroat eddie changed name dirk diggler exposed massive member wideeyed public fame fortune make dirks acquaintance bevy local porn celebs friends coworkers become makeshift family soon proves sunday picnic like other feelgood s give way cokeaddled videofriendly s dirk co begin dangerous backslide br br anderson put everything glorious moving epic sizzles never fizzles nary frame monumental picture wasted characters dialogue live us long elo fades soundtrack see one immediately watch againbr br and again,0 +thoughts cocacola brand name cocacola originally contained cocaine cola sodasoft drink coca wasis short cocaine therefore contracted coca cola named two main factors st released cocaine cola rest case most likely majority knew plz dont hate,0 +committed mentally therapy knew could pay it therapist click would keep trying someone did redflag got better weeks leading therapy started unusually good mentioned really unusually good cemented it depression less gone six weeks two months four days sober pretty confident depression really going working hard making real practical progress,1 +much pussy myself want external force fate mei mistake failed experiment simply born wrong timeline got point bedridden sick conscience thinking others stop shit god fucking already willing fucking tell fucking exist fucking fag ready die,1 +life tiring want go sleepi want make people depressedsuicidal feel better reality feel envious go deal shit anymore,1 +think way dress nicer got rid bummy clothes option would wear nice clothes plan buy nice clothes look put together,0 +even dream thought killing myselfit felt like one heavy days weight ignored couldnt distract way it chest felt heavy limbs help looked down looking way hide end day people finally end it fairly crowded place could see edge felt like jumping saw her swear ignored me though carefully observed place best part it somebody offered sleep medicine spit first cup drank more suddenly went near held me fake doesnt want caught place anything dont want settle lies im awake limbs hurt carried grom dream feel heaviness enveloping me holds people id rather holding me accidentally gave wound recently knife cooking ive wanting purpose help hope dream better tomorrow,1 +cant wait move mother never stand corrected word always final said wiping countertops part dishes simply true point out got mad me clean kitchen do dishes dishes like fucking asked comes kitchen sees countertops still dirty wouldve cleaned said clean kitchen said dishes fact kitchen clean fault petty rant shit annoying whenever whats asked always why this this this too two sisters also helping clean dont always complain ignore problem get yelled still end myself,0 +holy shit if evil would great karma posts want karma posts learn pattern works different subs look hot importantly,0 +thursday thive planning redflag thursday th month now day mock exams take place even feel ounce stress anything stops ever putting work anything ive got future im scared take single step comfort zone anxious ask help past week ive spent nights bed wanting cry badly nothing comes im void nothingness even want talk close friends ill come across attention seeking im going see school day probably end finally,1 +iam done lifei wanna live anymore suiciding today,1 +years training finally it made basic post one liner joke hopefully get awards,0 +want wear cute blouse shit tie ribbon know tie cant wear,0 +need helpi know anymore years since ive talked anyone think guts actually kill time feel like need to ive never real friends entire life friends used longer close me grown distant everyone way connecting people family spoken really long time one person talk life see way it want one real life friend go watch movie talk with live half way across world family ive away since i know young attend university culture america different long company think thats reason cannot connect people always introvert try talk make friends people class nobody wants really hang me theyre classmate friends say college students much older average one age talk connect to chemical engineering classes filled bunch people years older me finals days think im going end life feel like people looked past im smart mean anything long someone get along with im sorry,1 +im killing tonight cant find gutsall thats missing letting hang need avoid pain doesnt let me get rid it please ive enough suffering help finish help freed,1 +would vote public execution gender switchers already chance us also men like men women like women bad disgusting,0 +among us discord vc anyone wants play among us gc vc let know friend rn need least people ,0 +stupid tonight wanna dielike really stupid set date tomorrow appear court now fucked really bad im stupid sixteen year old really loving life good amount time decent school holding full time well paying job age area good relationship family friends feel like dying again mightve screwed enough get fucked legally ways beyond comfort level im legal expert legal advice subreddit ill spare details sucks wanna lose everything ive finally gotten happy independent life id honestly rather die,1 +therapists never understand am see walking diagnosis person everything say symptom believed im never person could possibly normal reactions im ill brain damaged low iq ffsfuck all fuck all bipolar bpd ptsd turned believe ptsd claim gave me months long withdrawals drug put took horrendous flashbacks till day ends breakdowns oh no cannot that must anxiety opinion im manifesting symptoms illness way withdrawals bad f fuck them im thankful support benzobuddiesorg im also done life tried yrs im dead inside waiting pets go could never live without them,1 +overthinking whole thing ive close friends girl like years anything bad happens im always her stuck thick thin listened vents tried help her today posted friend appreciation post friend group mentioned every girl close mentioned tells time closest friend group since talk rest forgot add name felt kind left out name slip mind everything barely get appreciation anyone name listed felt sad got thinking really important her convenience lately feeling best either kind sent edge too overthinking nothing worry ,0 +some spoilers read james m cain novel the postman always rings twice movie based cannot compare film version it seen love us version also entitled postmanbr br even better gem italy which read mutilated editing many blatant references fascist regime well matter left fine piece cinema apparently forerunner neorealist movement filmmaking one certainly see despite whatever harsh editing go on pervading sense societal cultural well personal oppression remains hanging heavy protagonists therefore face many limits lifebr br consider gino young drifter well educated unemployed resorting stowing away stealing conning people order get by one pair shoes threadbare virtually uselessbr br in giovanna sees way out yet kept going giovanna oppressed loveless marriage older man money job working trattoria husband slaving away behind bar kitchen sex past limited options decided marry restaurantgas station owner giuseppe bregana played juan de landa anyway knowing would make happy tells gino feels sick every time bregana touches herbr br on pretext helping bregana fix car sending village buy needed part which fact pocketed gino wins breganas favor promising also fix broken water pump water symbolizing life lack thereof left alone giovanna immediately start heated passionate yet volatile love affairbr br gino soon feels stifled relationship feels need move giovanna proposes dispose husband wanting part it gino leaves town train ride cannot afford kindly paid another gypsytype man named spagnolo fellow train passenger gino spagnolo represents sort freedom become friends spagnolo also symbolizes ginos morality conscience traveling finding work carnival together finally gino steady employment dismay he yet love giovanna month passed bregana wife go carnival bregana persuades gino go back home live work again handy aroundbr br too weakwilled resist knowing reunite giovanna gino agrees goes back stay couple gives ginas demands get rid husband evil deed done giovanna becomes coldblooded ever seeming little conscience guilt shame eat away gino hurting man never harm much wants leave briefly inextricably linked must face consequencesbr br i liked way spagnolo character came back ginos life act judge misdeeds good interesting adding another dimension storybr br while us version lana turner john garfield gets bit lost quagmire peripheral characters especially cops lawyers ossessione well concentrate much psychological effects crime lovers alone gives final outcome even potency makes powerful statement reinforcing helplessness inherent society characters must livebr br a minor quibble amount time hardly any elapses undying love pronounced lovers quickly kill husband there botched first attempt us version ginos quicktoescalate relationship dancerhooker quickly profess love well willing risk great deal man met rather unrealistic it found timeframe problem quite distracting made think must missed something somewhere otherwise well worth viewers time acting direction uniformly good throughout recommended,0 +im nobodys first choicetheres single person world would choose first anything im always backup friends family sports nobody would ever come ask hang without asking somebody else first saying no,1 +honestly would love partner problem is cannot push away problems get depression redflag bad life experiences even though trying work myself point could start relationship without ruining least redflaging partner sucksthe problem is even know healthy relationship looks like chances pretty high let get abused learned spot stuff like even worse unknowingly become abuserit sad admit cannot someone else right now sometimes life sucks still try work hearing stuff like thatespecially ask comment like that might find someone long stay also depends me at point find partner worry it yeah no gets sadder often hear it,1 +tf make work know work dont want,0 +feel reassured friends didnt use phone last night cause watching netflix next morning discover asking good since disappeared couple hours makes feel wanted noticed like lol,0 +crush like me crush epic game gril lik say yes halway date mcdonalds buy epic game kids us kid kid hav strok ned medisin halpydydisdbegs,0 +get film possible find really good performance barbara bach beautiful cinematography stately and incredibly clean creepy old house unexpected virtuoso performance the unseen picked used copy film interested seeing bach id viewed the spy loved me love really classically beautiful actresses appreciate even act little so start nice fresh premise tv reporter bach walks boyfriend goes cover festival california town solvang celebrates swedish ancestry putting big folk festival brings along camerawoman happens sister another associate the late karen lamm plays bachs sister know celebrities ladies married to funny watching bach mrs ringo starr lamm mrs dennis wilson going street sisterly quarrel anyway bachs disgruntled beau follows solvang hes done arguing her theres lot feeling still wanna watch tear anymore downthedrain football career ladies arrive solvang assignment station find reservations given away someone else maybe bachs boyfriend think wheres gonna stay gals ask around nowhere go mistakenly trying get old hotel serves museum catch interest proprietor mr keller the late sidney lassick decides gentleman lodge home insisting wife happy receive them oh no next thing know keller making whispered phone call wife warning companys coming threatening shed better play along trouble paradise ladies eager settle get back solvang shoot footage interview swedes one girls feel good bach lamm leave behind wondering mrs keller played heartbreakingly pretty lelia goldoni looks like lost best pal speaking undertheweather vicki slips clothes gets nice hot tub realizing keller crept room inspect keyhole hears him thinks hes come deliver linen calls thanks lassick great job scene expressing anguish fat old peeping tom get long enough look hes left poor vicki tumbles bed nap gets yanked real fast in really decent frightening round action something big apparently crept grille floor unseen lamm comes home next bach finishing argument beau cant find anyone house knocks plate fruit kitchen and hands knees collect it hair fashionable scarf sway temptingly black floor grille attracting unseen again well time poor lamm getting quietus kitchen flashback mr kellers past get full story sick sadistic background really wife smile much bach finally gets home wants know friends are meanwhile lassick apprised afternoons carnage weeping wife decides cant let bach premises reveal secret home tempts basement last act keller family tragedy finally opens usbr br i cannot say enough stephen furst id never seen before obvious homework role studying methods communication expression brain damaged bach goldoni diverse way give movie luster that movie winds satisfying resolution stupid cheap tricks eyeballrolling dialog pathetically cut corners real treat collection,0 +im fucking scaredi wrote fucking note im actually going this tonight soon next days even make st birthday even know want make it homeless death fucking homeless im god damn scared pain comes dying anyone asks job cant get job crippling depression dropped highschool tried holding labor job body cant handle it im cut life needed tell someone one know im gone since live alone ill print note leave table something cant stop fucking cryingjesus pathetic,1 +people rage games dont know girls rage games im girl whenever something upsetting happens im playing game like sigh sometimes ill playing game dude hell get insanely mad game honestly concerns tbh also bit funny mean try laugh loud thats mean chances im laughing bit quietly,0 +ok brain wtf this emotional burst cried literally never cry get emotional wtf,0 +im tired worldi find meaning lose it find something enjoy goes away say ok im comfortable find something destroys it try communicate gets muddy again world ive experiencing since im still feel it find love fucking years lose heartbeat every since understood circle decided im tired live like afraid hurt family mum dont anymore im afraid coming talking strangers kinda helps circles break point keep going im really tired,1 +u guys answer google forms post school project completely anonymous thank u httpsformsgleyyzoqppweimwpfhttpsformsgleyyzoqppweimwpf,0 +high school electives choose electives high school tomorrow know may sound pathetic im really nervous know idea want pursue anything feel choose wrong ill screw things future,0 +anyone wanna chat im bored lounging around anyone wanna chat numbers game play smash bros ultimate somthing,0 +ladies ladies one time please also godzilla crocs stay sex yeah sex cool yall ever bought grim reaper pipe flappy crush expensive item game yeah didnt think so nerds,0 +dont wanna get political anything heck babaganoosh,0 +good getsbr br this six episodes tracing briefly life may like dinosaurs ruled earth done style nature documentary show away talking heads instead gives us good stuff dinosaurs attempting survivebr br certainly true documentary since none see screen attested certainty best guess entertaining one that show brings dinosaurs life realistic way involve eating people show shown kid loves dinosaurs since instill oh wow factor go find more also entertain hell them youbr br see this love animal shows nature science disney true life adventures except one really gets killed really good trip somewhere else run get copy brain thank you,0 +hey girl legs cant go anywhere without,0 +im gonna ask exactly paris,0 +convinced myself putting much pressure current partner incredibly selfish so way unintentionally emotionally manipulating boyfriend stay even though feelings genuine sentiment if breaks up die cannot see move pain way much handle already not make better work stuff i feel need commit suicide unless fight sometimes underlying feeling messed way much redflag depression pain going driven point think nothing fixable cannot deal present live without partneri need suggestions answers anything hope life cannot even think suicide cannot equate relationship even stuff gets worse absolutely cannot it cannot put kind pressure partner wants leave able to already told this wish not might take decisions based thishow stop feeling equate relationship made mind committing suicide event breakup,1 +help one friends tried kill im trying keep simple opened happened couple days ago nothing crazy cut said i knew going hurt thats wanted to also claimed massive flood emotions say everything control worried never something ive deal need help,0 +brokeup gf yesterday unexpectedly saw todaythe love life woman helped several periods depression years dumped yesterday already quite bad unexpectedly saw real life holy shit want die words bad fucking hurt thought killing think stay strong fight now fuck pain honestly devastated nothing fucking matters anymore shes gone life want fucking die stop feeling anything hurts damn bad honestly energy live anymore,1 +know call abuse fianc suffers redflag alcoholism punched threw shit international airport almost got kicked flight last night nd time far worse beat bag thought packed thought going leave it bag forgot unpack closet head bleeding profusely thank goodness ran outside called help,1 +wish could cat something keep goingmy dads allergic dogs cats parents dont want get hypoallergenic dog cat bc think risky ive j heard stories abt dogs cats saving ppl killing selves thats want cant any j feel alone tired,1 +confidence issues hello guys hope everyones great day far so know im alone say im entirely good conversations simply would say im confident begin with get wrong love listening conversations learning things people sometimes would also love add input state stance matter discussed but limelight shifted onto me somehow crumble pressure cant talk normally anymore mainly happens really fancy idea someone or multiple people looking directly face makes bit selfconscious like way makes feel something else also heavily impedes daytoday discussions stammering ive never stammered stuttered prepubescent days used engage conversations randomly talk but happens reason and honestly quite embarrassing makes whole interaction hundred percent awkward sides really want something this know know me issue working liking myself issue need advice websites google ted talks ive watching merely adding screen time anything keep reiterating need comfortable skin put many social interactions to get hang it guess solutions may helped many lost souls like there seem tremendously vague need concrete solutions anyone going this done help combat social inepcy thank taking time effort read and hopefully kindly respond this also please kind comments section really looking constructive suggestions lt,0 +well meit good run lasted guess cant anymore everyone either hates afraid life going nowhere girlfriend probably going leave next days im done idk im posting cause time anybody even sees ill probably gone guess maybe like last words something really know anymore guess im saying goodbye,1 +girls hit hahaahahahha idk anymore yeyeyeyeyeyeyeeye,0 +would posting straighti cant accept am know ever will im denial parents would look differently want way watch gay shows movies gay know mean ive never woman maybe end im not im asexual im ill soon know one gay minute turns shed rather party spend time me blame though want either purpose im scared past eds pop up ive done anything stupid yet know actually miss itthem almost want self harm cant even that live south mom devout christian believe god honest believe im going hell think might be might be would like this feeling like this thinking like this straight bit actually thinks so ever feel overstayed welcome earth do like borrowed time went somehow still here kill myself hopefully never sucks thoughts,1 +front page memes memes text optional,0 +want die im terrified deathi tried years ago stopped midway got scared like terrorized things got much better since then theres day goes without thinking again whatever might say cant shake feeling always there appreciate nice things want say help want know live without beating everyday,1 +gonna end life tonightim f already diagnosed chronic sleep problems i barely sleep chronic depression chronic suicidal tendencies thoughts ive admitted mental hospital multiple times total months ive tried ten different sorts therapy never single moment life happy previous attempts failed im done hope left,1 +ive decided stay using reddit years first last post ill make still really sure even typing up considering ive already made decision posting could considered kind call help im stubborn fuck never someone turn decisions turned me life wasnt bad great friends loving family and even saying age sounds naive think experienced true love know im young know much im honestly tired last years accompanied severe depression social anxiety ever lasting suicidal tendency cant remember last time went bed wasnt thinking killing waste space existence is ive researching dying asphyxiation weeks even though worst year since father died eleven year decided im gonna stay got month late prepare things maybe cross things little bucket list weird tho comparing last year stopped year long journey working out lost girlfriend years lot friends stuck knowing life year found great job gained much confidence picked lost new hobbies found again really cannot go longer life lost appeal ill forever sorry family friends really miss dad want join even though believe heaven hope ill find someday since dont wanna talk anyone wanted post get system guess sorry long fuck probably boring text wall haha guess it sorry english wish everyone strength go on even though lost it,1 +girlfriend sweetest fucking person planet went way buy coffee delivered class swear deserve saint,0 +today good day dark cloudy windy day thats fav type weather,0 +know last post made yeah lied find get karma,0 +little kid wondered wrong literally everything bad get older hard realize anything wrong parents abusing me still cry sometimes feel like somehow wrong alive,0 +ive solidified suspicions parents would feel committed redflagmy mom colder lately anytime talk always criticizing making fun me mentioned dying passing brushed saying everyone dies day dad might little concerned doubt it im tired living people gave birth hate much,1 +lower eyelids die sun im slowly drifting stars planets calling billion years away im way taught courage stars left light carries endlessly even death rare beautiful even exist im way,0 +big pussy end allive thinking offing time ive gotten relationship lasted years already found someone moved although spend time together occasionally nothing course ive realized mistakes regret dearly every single day also financial struggle moment well almost next social life horrible academic career things used different life used able anything want good circle friends nights lay awake thinking ways kill unfortunately pussy even thought know balls wouldnt writing right now long story short thing keeping killing cowardice,1 +url confidential support charity young survivors abuse kind want chat anything visit support forum hang around find member support staff such myself best support whatever going through based dundee scotland uk supported survivors world local willing make trip centre dundee talk volunteers support staff person,1 +one question im suicidal feel insulted everytime someone dropping line like hey lets talk it get better promise comes people get people like done talking things got worse years curious reading lines bringing thoughts like ending it ever,1 +broken arm day no ight put random shit comments top comment gets cast,0 +lemme tell thing two someone went juvie yea one time cellie asked items commisary looked him clenched fist ready fight heart beating see wasnt gonna bitch give food looked deadpan uttered words no get ratiod died right,0 +gave life waiting death happen goals hopes desires any will existing waitingis normal part life bad completely resignated gave,1 +payingim gonna kill myself rn,1 +yall dont forget life aint rainbow sunshine told crush liked her response you like drugs ignoring me like even smoke much might need to,0 +m love best friend f do best friend ticks boxes basically perfect girl me said takes long time develop feelings truly trust someone best friend though trust lot she rough past understand take long time so trusts told said rough past stuff told anyone else outside fam im person needs affection ive patient really starting get me need advice do thank btw yes im born december born january were far apart age wise were similar maturity tldr best friend perfect girl me best friend cant develop feelings quickly im person needs affection do thank,0 +im slowly pushing everyone away im giving upthis like second post reddit believe anyone actually see even give crap mum left siblings brothers sisters im second youngest left father cheated many women knew abusive drug addicted alcholic left regardless saw time time earliest memory think mum dad arguing im longer live dad mum back full time damage already done ive self harming months think depression anxiety cant control anger possibly ptsd anger gotten lot trouble past still does believe reason friends hang theyre scared me little sister who recently came gay told wanted tell that gay lot sooner kept thinking back stupid gay joke made anyone got far thanks guess anyone one wants hear dm whatever written mobile sorry mistakes whatever bye,1 +brother needs helpmy brother needs help last year come terms fact serious drinking problem said really rash things past one point committed briefly couple nights threats taken positive steps since then quitting drinking one relapse aware of getting medication seeing therapist seem help see this brief exchangehttpsimgurcomauqlcff today difficult soooo misanthropic hopeless feeling feel like advice try give laughable eg i understand stalin scorch earth fuck everyone well sounds like need good ol fresh air think exercise important helped struggles depression response angry genocidal statements seem comical however taken initiative things ive mentioned above wits end next course action be,1 +got text cousin australia minutes ago apparently hes emergency room rolled sleep onto huntsman spider got bit pain bite woke up mom took emergency room apparently allergic thank fuck sister epipen bees sent picture arm like size cantaloupe thats reduced swelling medications doctors gave,0 +transphobia homophobia misogyny misandry racism isnt opinion hate lives dont matter still respect opinion isnt youre hateful bye,0 +wanna tatoo cuts handhello fellow depressed redditors issues self harm whenever look cuts feel useless depressed suicidal wanna tatoo hand least partialy covers make feel bad cut destroy also make smile give something idk u guys sugestions it needs something covers hand palm elbow least space,1 +maybe awful cannot help hating it want someone actually love make feel empty hurt insecure anymore want job constantly fantasy ending life tying roof want go school learn shit instead waste cannot look everyone around hate it maybe burn alive tomorrow would probably get point across would dead quickly anyway though maybe easy method would best cannot stopped long everyone gets fucking message live anyone life worth go fuck saying endure push onto others amount carried already everyone else much think worst seeing wished life seeing others it,1 +must thank you rteenagers epic poggers part daily vocabulary,0 +situations redflag correct answerif think isnt please dont leave comment thank,1 +dae find suicidal thoughts comforting ever go itthese thoughts become sort coping mechanism me although ever actually harm myself others,1 +im seeing anyone familiar new people like live forever feel like watched generation die city new faces,0 +alcohol sleeping pillsthinking,1 +getting betterim probably closest redflag ive ever right now nothing helping sleep get outside helps little numbness crying panic cycles ive talked crisis chats couple times always feel like robots went first counseling appointment im afraid talk anything especially redflag might legally obligated tell parents also mixed feelings go feeling like nobody really cares keep alive given moment unless money fault opening fixing myself ill probably never try redflag seems messy painful guess feel like ill get worse worse,1 +much advil take pass out much dieasking friend,1 +m cannot keep fighting fighting long time remember long problems simply cannot hold anymoretoday first day years alcoholic father threatened hit told kim nobody could stand around drunk adult first time life change thati cannot describe awful feel hearing call idiot several times threatening mei always felt disappointment everyone specially himhe always called useless idiot lazy many things always felt like son never wanted happened today simply makes want run away end alli also feel like disappoint mother specially talking school ever since depression started struggled concentrate work even subjects like every time talk highschool feel like burden disappointment gifted child used tomy sister another problem sometimes feels like everything alright others treats like annoy her like care meanother problem feel like belong anywhere even friends consider brothers mothers even though gone several groups friends never manage feel like belong like truly care even like mei feel alone lost want pain end want stop feeling like burden everyone elseevery time knife hands cannot bring end everything cut arms swallow pain today different even cuts helped deal pain matter many times it deep were feeling go awayi really want push blade chest simply slash veins afraid afraid next afraid hurting mom sister afraid leaving alone stupid father cannot get enough courage itsorry bad english native language feeling way help writingi needed get chest so thanks listening kind strangers cannot go anymore,1 +saw movie first came loved it since ive searched video never found now years later ordered moviehunter sorry say hold up glamourized version cant rise production level love burt bacharachs musical score listend itself even bought cd it taste lend well mysterious compelling story fit michael york lost here sally kellerman tosses fine performance olivia hussy ridiculous worth lugging himalayas best performance charles boyer head lama,0 +u gay still terrible fashion sense time closet,0 + followers really many followers,0 +rteenagers bored literally post anything theyll love example ampxb ampxb discuss ampxb see look em,0 +gamerdude better first comment else,0 +im tired feeling painive depressed since now ive always thought would kill eventually never thought would wanna live past recently gf years broke dont think deal pain longer felt reason smile feel good dont know future people whatever process getting pain discomfort top everything else dont wanna pain unbearable cant sleep cant eat ive headaches last days want end thing thats stoping me family dont wanna cause pain cause know would probably destroy mother push edge feels like im fighting wanna makes feel much harder anything dont know do,1 +famous yet rate fame sub ,0 +nudes leakedmy nudes leaked march st ex girlfriend people added snapchat since time exposed me im minor shes age me cant go police mom find relationship girl ive communicating someone strictly internet dont know sacrifice losing little bit kindness family gives find out idea shed found this especially attraction girls want ex fucking pay did even stupid sending pictures first place dont fucking deserve this dont give speech expected ive learned lesson doesnt deserve go life without consequences held accountable even report nothing happens her least could live knowing tried didnt take it cant let win starting make suicidal beginning didnt feel suicidal knew thats wanted wants make feel guilty breaking she verbally abusive shes told shouldve went killing myself referring time trusted tell suicidal thoughts couldnt trust anyone else every single personal thing told confidence used me feel like control cant stand feeling want justice even cant legal means least illegal means either feel disgusted sick fucking stomach sorry wrong community post in actively suicidal rn reason chose here,1 +ever suicid e charge put list survivors confuse everyone tell wife wife cause im single find one,0 +sleepwalkers creatures drain life force completely humans survivebut use virgins its explained why charles brady brian krause one needs feed mother mary alice krige goes likable tanya madchen amick escapebr br on one hand great horror film fastpaced plenty blood gore nice twisted sense humor plenty joke references horror buffs castle rock mentioned once also krause excellent who would thought could act return blue lagoon kirge amick find film annoyingbr br it written screen stephen king maddeningly vague sleepwalkers never fully explained from called that son feed mother cats hate kill them powers at one point krause makes car disappear change color style need feed peoples life force virgins son sex mom none explained leaving story confusing really bad because questions aside excellent horror film excellent makeup special effects toobr br fast gory lots fun script better also fairly explicit sex scene krause krige edited you tell get r rating give ,0 +absolutely despise people say do worry things change goodbecause lie keep mentality things change need wait big change nothing ever change life shithole insane want something wish something wait it fight let anything defeat end old man fucking years regret everything say learn that want something achievable fight give up life fucked want social monster fight it might horrible first end achieve goals life give something easy something go wrong even life looks like worst shit things change need fight it wrote youguillegoky well friend mine wrote someone similar situation ones using subreddit think share,1 +friends amp familyi often read think redflag thought seems cross mind hard times fantasizing ease pain bit therefore read lot committing redflag articles topics forums stories methods get help etc bugs mind is literally everything ever written redflag mentions friends family mostly either context ask help them think would feel kill yourself well first guiltripping somebody living others kindof fucked redflag more importantly main question is suicidal person friends family fucking kidding me imagine cases person lets say terminally ill general would okay life loved ones something control concerns said person happening cases obviously somebody desperate enough consider taking life probably friends fucking family would say loneliness possibly main reason redflag begin with mean surrounded loving people would even wanna die annoys whole imagine friends family would feel seems like hypocritical statement coming someone know anything ever deal suicidal thoughts feelings condescending patronizing ignorant assume someone whos take life luxury love,1 +im lot better nowwell made two different posts year ago wanted die end happy im right im working nhs help dementia alzheimers love it thanks people helped though nights felt lowest,1 +want live anymorei moved school due bullying beginning year im really struggling im mental health issues long time felt like tell anyone it moved mother made doctors appointment case actually ended confessing self harm frequent suicidal thoughts although say reason im dead fear death ended sent crisis mental health unit night multiple appointments since able open since quarantine happened suicidal thoughts happen constantly im actually working kill myself ive stated before really difficult time sharing feelings think either parents im scared know do plan kill really need help know get from talking anyone home phone question ive googling redflag methods picked out,1 +gd grant strengthfirst all title shit dont even believe god god dont believe ability rule fucking suck digressim say dont deserve here hurt people wish brave enough hurt badly one else would suffer me dont ever harm anyone physicallybut im jaded bitter fucked head anyone gets close singed heat rage dont even know fuck im angry at guess everything abused child every way imagine literally hate myself hate feeling dirty useless pathetic even defend myself hurt ppl im worth anyones love ppl always leave me deserve it it im trash wish brave wish god grant strength end myself sadlyits me im god,1 +need help know do insurancei looked sliding scale mental health cant even afford that im hanging thread husband would devastated killed myself cant him cant one year old daughter please help me know anything please,1 +decided it plan backup plan put motionim tired cycle whenever thought killing months ago scared know method going use want suffer thought websites would reason tons them great suggestions cite actual redflag research im going go pretty straightforward method shotgun mouth honestly cant take cycle hating myself isolated getting sort help except you handle yourself friends family today minutes late therapy appointment looking forward seeing horrible week last week see presidents day got mixed times called minutes appointment mentioned told would right there close by told policy reschedule cant take appointments minutes time mine supposed be well cant make next week class field trip reschedule friday weeks thats last fucking straw bit late apologized cant get little bit time even nobody gives fuck therapist give fuck job know convenient called right supposed able come in kill fuck hurt someone else started think killing ex girlfriend burning house family pets it hate much know true sometimes say anything vagina feelings requested male therapist bet shit happen anyway nobody worry im killing reasons alone thoughts agonizing im going hurt anybody except myself able get hands shotgun go take class shooting range everyone focused targets put gun mouth shoot myself thing im worried good samaritan trying stop notice this im quite happy end life stop burden anyone else peace love all hope overcome going make finish line,1 +im terrible everythingim literally value life ive actual passions things completely thrown away feel like complete void ive creating music years every time try improving get damned upset dissapointed ive always wanted artist every time try draw looks horrendous everyone else know seems get difficult thing felt even somewhat skilled playing mordhau every single day somehow still completely garbage point improving failed school due depression feeling starts back two weeks im going,1 +wwf became cartoon hulk hoagan leading way events wwf tv broadcasts early s resembled wild wild west kinds grudges vicious acts violence performed wrestlers known today wwfs beloved stars seemingly real moments stand out maniacal sgt slaughter whipped champion bob backlund riding crop backlund showed fitness test welts backlund sarge made iron shiek look like daycare provider slaughter also issued challenge anyone could break dreaded cobra clutch hold led legendary bloody alley match commentator pat patterson hall fame member blackjack mulligan freddie blassie came wwf claw hold censored television claimed true giant challenged andre long big john studd adrian adonis used ominously named good night irene sleeper take competition new yorker clad black leather ominous figure george the animal steele far crowd pleaser well even jimmy snuka fearsome sight set maim opponents ray the crippler stevens delivered piledriver onto cement floor leaving snuka bloody mess encounters took place decade hardcore wrestling ever spoken of,0 +pls wish luck english exam tomorrow need get however suck english yes studied,0 +ate curry hot damn toe curling spicy,0 +ever since first played goldeneye one favourite video games fact recently bought n purely could play often game pretty much nearperfect singleplayer mode fantastic job immersing bonds shoes varied mission objectives convincing weapons great level design even though enemies artificial intelligence pretty basic todays standards adds goldeneyes appeal method obtaining cheats completing levels within strict time limit also innovative title released even still cracked thembr br the game comes wonderful multiplayer mode four players advanced combat simulator games sequel perfect dark still incredibly satisfying blast opponents smithereens barrage rcp fire ,0 +im literally th grade rteenagers im literally supposed,0 +best friends anyone friend group lonely everyone go person talk hang one them want another friend group get along well enough one get along well enough everyone least favorite friend obvious school hang whichever friends lunch classes almost never invited anything last person anyone friend group would pick sucks since winter invited hang friends twice stuff time without me feels like hang even less lost energy hide depression know bad cannot act happy one wants hang always depressed summer lonely hate rarely ever talked always hear hanging without makes sad wish better would like more friend people talk everyone else busy sucks,1 +ok genuinely never participating class ever im cry keep getting talked embarrassing forgot like feel like since quarantine holy shit feel bad,0 +failed everything im done ittldr kicked school late twenties crappy part time job cashier associates degree show friends disappointment parents gonna end life week signed reddit specifically write post doubt anyones gonna read it im year old female single kids child still living parents found tonight kicked college attending last year half feel completely worthless hopeless adhd social anxiety disorder messed adolescent adult life feel like barely function feel like im point im incapable anything even right now feel like im fucking im writing like even make sense wanted bad transfer year college get bachelors even hoped get masters help adhd medication counseling finally able spring focused english major proud accepted insurance lost access medication counseling tried getting help college inattentiveness led slack meetings eventually fell old habits fell depression too since began feel matter got help life would always ups downs successful moment disappointment failure next adhd along bouts depressions constant social anxiety left feeling worthless contact friends person besides parents close cousin soon moving hours away new husband see day day parents see burden think they everyone else would better without me parents know kicked college know able handle disappointment would probably kill anyway gave everything help successful nothing show it friends so real college degree associates degree shitty part time job dollar store know well emotions coming across post feel drained nothing ever right never amount anything feel like everything leads failure matter many opportunities others give me despise feel like longer apart world contributed nothing people care soon become awful burden people do plan ending life next week since theres family functions coming up plan overshadow events redflagi might follow come final date im sure,1 +edging closer closer killing myself never ever thought would actually it lately starting doubt conviction almost things getting better live parents umpteenth time life breaking umpteenth time woman umpteen years losing umpteenth job call mental health issues people call laziness thousand dollars debt student loans schooling never helped get single job never made much minimum wage never even put dent paying loans waste time money school wasi violent thoughts towards time often find thinking violence faceless entities like the government the rich sought mental health help many many years many many forms nothing seems help cope lack success pills make feel less angry less sad really thinking may able hold resolve growing instinct would better ending thingswhat do going hospital never yields results done number times quite frankly need put hour watch crazy end rope fucks give going tell parents ex feeling keep stopping feel like putting burden them searched suicide reddit am hope get typical internet responses suppose putting like invites matter what tldr never thought would it life seems like gets worse probably it probably going it,1 +urgent help needed crosspost lgbteenshttpwwwredditcomrlgbteenscommentsyjurgent please person something unfortunate were really trying talk it apologize posted came across first thing came mind subreddit,1 +millennials babies called generation alpha gen zs babies generation beta guess gotta stay virgin cause im gonna raise beta duck,0 +im unfixableim fucked up medication cant increased ive therapy seven years ive barely gotten better im unfixable want die cut deep without going er dont know thats another thing im failure at,1 +sound like fantasy film film dark dark overtones soundtrack way uplifting point intruded visuals im sure aiming something militant work scene astin attempting escape perfect example sound like goonies comedy brightness this br br the idea movie great acting good well enjoyed everyones performances available netflixs online viewing br br definitely worth viewing write soundtrack,0 +someone help skin peel rub im shower,0 +real talk proud country live in certainly not wbu im curious yall,0 +parents willing break qurantine rules could eat holidaydinner brother brother volenteers algriculture live farmers suffer lot theft police cant really anything charities volenteer gaurd livestock crops help fires brother volenteering im year outside charity enlisted parents want drive lives eat holiday dinner even though were qurantine,0 +normal bf never buys clothes or presents all sometimes doesnt text say gn gm forgot birthday once dump him,0 +hello friendsi struggled depression years lexapro years ithelped sort of still felt worthless tired sad irritable suicidal etc maybe took edge off however sexual side effects hard finish hard stay upfast forward year got better doctor decided add wellbutrin month like switch flipped still problems seem insurmountable especially felt past nice changenow question start weening lexapro sure ton side effects werenot ideal sure two meds working together wanted get thoughts backslidethanks medication opinions lexapro wellbutrin,1 +time make another post boyfriend cause obsession lol yesterday spent day together cute stupid fun stuff day amazing love much im excited valentines day,0 +like title says past predicts future say drunk totally honest past problems going future problems family dysfunctional ability keep friends make friends always leave did dissociative identity disorder due childhood trauma think leave left alone another boyfriend children i want live anymore cannot get married children friends point alone like now think right end life early feel like it feel like thinking logically past predicts future right,1 +cant stop thinking mistakeslast year school bullied constantly kid group friends would call fag tell kill myself threaten life kids would even get physical hit me every day shoved locker five starred enough bullying went teachers school teachers absolutely nothing kids made lie saying used nword completely false racist never racist teachers bought suspended school caused emotional strain parents never really got trouble school known smart kid upon day suspension over called meeting teachers school told could admit lied risk expulsion kids bullied happened influential school one last name athletic center held ground refused cave teachers questions said dishonest needed revaluate situation got news expelled days later devastated loved school learning felt like harming myself depressed weeks wanted kill myself mother impacted stress put her health problems feel fault even though happened year ago cannot stop thinking it,1 +thinking overdosing escape tremendous stress get school relationshipbecause covid classes conducted online somehow assignment load also increased months literally spend hours every day work projects really stressing im stuck home couldnt much make matter worse boyfriend currently working overseas hours difference knows able return due prevailing situation recently feel like emotionally distanced take days reply wait another day attempted call twice miss company didnt pick call back feel shitty could overbearing communication maybe thats avoiding me loss him dont know take another hit especially one made believe love again exes trashes im feel like messed life really seek want end life overdosing sedatives painless swift however cowardice also makes worry death would affect loved ones really need help,1 +okay got cyberbullied jabberwockjessi joined reddit anyone talk to im desperately lonely thought finding empathy would help user jabberwockjess made life hell triggered me way leave note here jabberwockjess cyberbully admin reddit override blocks want know going shoot head her taking life because her words consequences expect ever face consequences bullies never wanted everyone reads know triggered me maybe wouldve lived another day shed left alone,1 +none yall read posts smh responses matching questions,0 +whats gamers free award say something funny,0 +biting bulletim year old drop working software developer since ive spend time learning trying improve everything around seems falling apart ive always bullied downer seems life cycle unhappiness me time checkout know hurt family shock people around feel like ive wasted everyones timeenergy enough already yes therapy made feel like shit guess rant ive mindset many times feel much getting better point seems impossible,1 +hey cutie pies made survey yesterday really want people it im pretty bored really want know people like hope enjoy survey pretty quick yeah httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscpflvntkzezxbwuahlfpyrusquyjwdbaubdqofaviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscpflvntkzezxbwuahlfpyrusquyjwdbaubdqofaviewformuspsf_link,0 +dont think im going survive im staring void ive tried everything medication therapy exercise whatever bullshit apparently makes feel better hate christmas moms favorite everytime think spending another holiday alone sink want take drugs escape hospitals dont help tell redflag bad fucking joke life fucking joke ive read note im leaving behind ober again want send get with,1 +want die particular reasoni pretty bad anxiety depression ive suicidal thoughts never point making plans last couple months ago is anytime im alone sometimes first wake get overwhelming sense dread want die start thinking ways it badly dont want live life isnt bad theres lot stress could worse dont want feel like anymore even im writing feel urge hate im scared tell anyone parents cant afford pay treatment sure hell cant,1 +feeling extremely hopeless everythingmy mental health deteriorating everyday regular schooling live fucking sucks ass makes way worse everyday spend hours trying come reason live cant think any everything feels blurry mom tries best give best life can never works out spend hours night riding bike empty streets morning hate live sooo cluttered filled hopeless people cant help notice strking contrasts others cant dont know anymore cant fucjing gain weight shit tried everything look like fucking stick figure hate body fucking bmi sick body short feel extremely touch body feel soo insecure things wish adult wish grew normal fucking household crappy memories childhood still haunt day head fucking hurts rn hate fucked world maybe kms idk,1 +upon time hollywood produced liveaction grated movies without foul language immorality goresplattered violence movies neither insulted intelligence manipulated emotions heroes differed little crowd shared feelings bore burdens since s film industry pretty much written grated movies adults basically modern mature audiences demand large doses embellished realism cinematic diet laced heavily vile profanity mattressthumping sex knucklebruising fisticuffs ingredients constitute difference grated movies rated either pg pgbr br miraculously director john lee hancock penned scripts clint eastwoods a perfect world midnight garden good evil hits home run grated feelgood fourbagger baseball epic celebrates americas favorite summer time sport also extols competitive spirit game essentially the rookie resembles robert redford saga the natural oldtime slugger makes comeback unlike the natural the rookie shuns swearing sex violencebr br moreover rugged dennis quaid plays reallife individual jim morris autobiography the oldest rookie bigleague dreams smalltown guy served basis mike finding forrester richs unpretentious norman rockwellstyle screenplay white middleclass aspirations morris attained dream debuted mound relief pitcher although belong league inspirational james stewart classic the stratton story the rookie qualifies kind movie hollywood rarely makes anymore audiences find antiquatedbr br hancock rich encapsulate entertaining oddball biography halo mysticism wildcat oil prospector convinces two catholic nuns back s bankroll west texas well fearing blown bucks illadvised fantasy sisters blanket arid terrain rose petals entreat st ritas patron saint hopeless causes intervene well gushes town big lake emerges roughnecks swat baseballs drilling holes terrain spirit baseball oozes earth like petroleum meanwhile years later us navy keep jim morris sr brian cos manhunter family one place long uprooting them constant moving takes toll jim junior jims dad shows little sympathy berates baseballbr br nevertheless jim baseball blood enough accepts high school chemistry teachers job texas hometown organizes baseball team like foulmouthed bad news bears the rookie chronicles jims triumph turning losers winners morris promises team reach divisional playoffs try professional baseball team predictably morris students maintain end bargain age jim stuns big league scouts hurls fastballs milesperhour the rookie never fouls out,0 +song head dunno called sounds like nanan nananna nananannananna nanan nana help please,0 +perfect far imagine go church wife children church goes restaurant right returning home putting children sleep husband wife things lovely wife thanking god great day perfect far,0 +keep wanting comment everyones post saying im boat them so ill hereim awful person undeserving love want die i however kid think would crushed died regardless circumstance so im stuck endless spiral depression anxiety failed promises lies deeeeeep sorrow dont deserve love keep telling im grand reason but everyday feel like thats becoming bigger bigger lie,1 +im finally ready diefor weeks ive feeling like stuff shouldnt happened nothing feels real died years ago life meaningless world would better without one would care anyway dont feel anything sadness numbness anymore whats point,1 +anyone else this spend one day really happy next opposite necessarily days always period im happy follows period straight im dumps,0 +trying win white mans game heart intact dollar dream really kind hard sleep thoughts streets,0 +getting closeer time years later one wife three kids disabled plus years loveless marriage kids really much tried give could riddled health issues lost house almost died blood clots sure wished would of much explain enough energy care bother afraid end trying tell wife going kill seem think serious afraid use gun want mess vegetable building courage hoping either get sign life get better kidding year goes gets worse doctors taking away pain meds chronic pain slowly surely way young going much sister killed mom handle gone killed dad gave loss pile shit within years died one one younger brother disowned me guess family give end would much easier kids older get less shown really much gotten little easier get final push done all tried reach family seems like take seriously cry help sound projected hear one day end,1 +ii wish way want get better myself think want to well know regret telling anyone ive felt assume know ive gotten help means ill magically recover help ive gotten seems useless know without depression though scares me remember time without hard imagine one future seem go day without suicidal thoughts thoughts harming myself feel like im empty shell person itd easier anymore,1 +everythings fine im tryingjust rant got drunk way way much panic attack front friend whos never seen before vomited floor got new job reason making suicidal state world jacked makes want end it im getting fat food thing makes better point im wondering ill ever ever content every day hope do hope everyone finds peace one day,1 +im bad personi hurt someone meant world me hes left blame encouraged it heart broken feel lost know else say know feel know do,1 +happening boys im now got really sweet cupcake presents im happy dudes,0 +first joined reddit found place thought kinda dumb still im stupid enough apart it thats all,0 +cat switched rolls second cat swiped got close walked away hunched looking sad sat fetal position corner ran nudged meowed opposite step cat dogs pawtail,0 +broke recently together almost half life always withdrawn introverted person lost entire social network years also leaving me one left still feelings person feels distant cold moment know handle emotional mess strong enough let go time want bother way happiness really want see happy seeing happy without breaks heart one left talk this feel like part amputated never unhappy life social person could prevent this really wish never born would never met would suffer endure me least happy never forgive awkward idiot sitting alone home prefer nothing fear trust new people sleept eaten properly since then hate myselfi wish could disappear without explanationi know ever move oni forever alone sitting front desk scrolling internet want die wish never born,1 +cant anymorei wish could stop crying friend leaving even thought promised shed always friend never leave me feeling shell comeback since told loves cant anymore everyday cry matter happens try taking friends kik distract im afraid tell feel wish friend want alone anymore,1 +point anymore cannot anything sitting helpless nothing besides scared crying sleep rn,1 +friend streaming us play csgo come join big funny moment httpswwwtwitchtvfirebird_films,0 +enough destiny bs hurt enough peoplei regularly failing get university two years now absolutely hate everytime give party interference control entire work gets splashed away till got university rejections visa denial got girlfriend looked mdd also cheated back life not girlfriend lover supports lot cant stop feeling paranoid jealous end hurting her spent lot parents money look disappointed now already sitting clonazepam tablets ready pocket pop get knocked all big failure loser even guts end life,1 +another story generator meme two sick uncles stabbing beat two sick uncles stabbing beat short story anonymous johnathan wick always hated nicely built bank alive amused atm machines place felt sad tall thin tea drinker strong leg fast arm friends saw helpful helpless hitman once even helped deadly toddler cross road thats sort man was johnathan walked window reflected nice looking surroundings sun shone like running dog saw something distance rather someone figure frank mctennisballs frank muscular coward big leg ginger arm johnathan gulped prepared frank johnathan stepped outside frank came closer could see scattered glint eye look johnathan growled frank short glare reminded johnathan muscular cat i hate want revenge owe dollar johnathan looked back even violent still fingering sharp knife frank killed credit card replied looked mad feelings like two repulsive roasted racoon rampaging smelly funeral party rap music playing background two sick uncles stabbing beat suddenly frank lunged forward tried punch johnathan face quickly johnathan grabbed sharp knife brought franks skull franks big leg trembled ginger arm wobbled looked angry wallet raw like gigantic gorgeous gun let agonising groan collapsed onto ground moments later frank mctennisballs dead johnathan wick went back inside made nice cup tea end,0 +extremely entertaining mids western packs whole lot minute running time viewers quickly get drawn story find experience quite enjoyable bwestern really epic budget modest cast affordable despite several big names glenn ford box office draw time edward g robinson barbara stanwyck past primes looking work stanwyck years away new popularity the big valley brian keith dianne foster starting outbr br ford plays john parrish small rancher decides sell sympathetic sheriff murdered big ranchers robinson hired gunman parrish former confederate officer moved west health reasons br br robinson plays lee wilkison already owns valley intends acquire rest making good promise wife martha stanwyck lee crippled land war fought years earlier brother cole keith come texas help run huge spread lee turning blind eye obvious hookups stanwyck keith sensitive daughter judith foster understandably upset going home br br john parrish promised fiance caroline may winn move back east caroline modeled grace kellys high noon character breaks engagement first sign trouble simply disappears film leaves way open john judith romance develop br br the violence starts early continues throughout film parrish able apply military tactics enemy underestimates ability determination original confrontation main gunfighter midway film ford plays one standard characters modest guy disarms everyone self deprecating manner slow take offense brutal finally provoked very much like role the sheepman br br robinson likewise excellent man maintains personal integrity even though physically shadow former self gets enough lines screen time adequately develop character br br stanwyck difficult role simply convincing classic twofaced woman seemingly loyal wife scheming replace husband brother part allocated enough time anything superficially convey either side character said talented actress could done much better job even limitationsbr br dianne foster pleasant surprise remind viewers lot carroll baker physically acting style although required play judith according s convention she allowed tough required break hysterics major confrontation foster shows nice range conveys growing attraction parrish subtly retrospect various clues click place br br the real problem the violent men tries action western character study morality play much happen screen much action rushed many characters get cursory treatment neither fatal flaw reason avoid film could significantly better another minutes running time absence unnecessary characters like carolinebr br then again know im child,0 +go hell im gonna kill ronald reagan second time,0 +feel different last time attemptedhello so wednesday overdosed went hospital tell anyone hospital days afterwards people worried stuff obviously want tell want careworry uncle called day after said get sympathy said ever need help call theres anything need hell give me next day order somehttpwwwamazoncouklifeafterdeathelisabethkublerrossdprefsr__sbooksampieutfampqidampsrampkeywordsonlifeafterdeath bookshttpwwwamazoncoukdepressionworkbookguidelivingseconddpxrefsr__ieutfampqidampsrampkeywordsthedepressionworkbook amazon told uncle bought books would like reading more said you get computer get life experience find job instead so gonna lie im bit disheartened amount belittlement obviously sometimes life struggle me feel like ive enough thinking overdosing still pills used day know anymore feel like crying,1 +start dick peoplethat way die people happy im gone want die want people happy im gone sure would suck mean people guess could suck tell part grand scheme things mean im already asshole guess may well ante make stakes higher,1 +pretty much got fired todaywell title says it training server today since cant carry trays well fell front entire restaurant yet another thing cant do really know im here wanted die awhile cant find balls actually it gave yet another chance ended failing embarrassing always really know get past yet another failure done nothing let everyone down im burden husband pay constant therapy appointments medication money living credit cards cant even fend myself go back school next month idea im going get it cant even wait fucking tables pay rent done myself keep wondering guts fucking end already coping mechanism sleep taking sleeping pills sleep next full days tried taking knife wrist cant cut deep enough plus method usually work wish parents house right fathers shotgun know im here maybe want exclaim everyone im done know else do,1 +good short anime watched promised neverland like week ago finished erased yesterday loved them guys recommendations good heartfelt short anime,0 +dont want go bed dm me filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +tell long school crush liked past so read ive crush girl school dayswhen top grade student cute looking helpful and well things know remember her live india class plagued syndrome called lack interaction opposite gender peers guy dared break wall yo but remained lone this that guy whos good terms friendship almost everybody almost girls talked saying conveying formal informal messages notifications every guy remained same contributing either shyness ego comparatively antisocial introvert ive talked twice thrice person since highschool graduation age touch all last time months ago got know friend longterm relationship but theres immense drive convey heart due personal regrets failures able live image bold confident studentthat now nostalgia urging open heart let repressed energy flow soul expectations acceptance love acknowledge appreciate admiration her ive also composed good poem feel theres point this this know response would bei earnestly want least blush surprised instead ignoring getting annoyedenraged,0 +im going kill next monthi diagnosed schizophrenia depression dyslexia nobody tried help me ive tried fix life get right path see point continuing ever going accomplish im worthless wreak cant even form proper sentence thats worthless am im going smoke cigs ill shoot head ill spend day melbourne ill kill hotel might consider selfish family never cared anyway im posting sympathy want get story there sorry spellinggrammer,1 +anyone helpthis first time asking something like please try understanding m divorced move back parents trying survive years own everything gone hill idk do constantly get belittled made fun parents here bad health issues put hospital afterwards reached help first time years spoke year later moved hell ever since live rural area made finding full time job difficult cannot save enough leave since pay rent bills here sure asking really looking advice help please live arizona helps,1 +god lives st louis convert first digits pi phone number get area code st louis thus center universe st louis god lives ownes studio apartment covent gardens pershing ave saint louis mo two cats plant sink full unwashed dishes works local subway miles away hes onandoff relationship girl insomnia cookies,0 +applied mcdonalds first job feels great really didnt expect apply lastresort are still unemployed time depression sink already has knew getting classes would still result unemployed useless,0 +take moments look yourselfi posted recently essentially vent struggled long time depression anxiety ptsd would say bad times good times years life today realized little actually focus myself figured probably applies lot people here easier focus things around us distract ourselves end day know done much anything change life ive tried distract feeling like shit life going change change it ive realized need change please take moments look yourself help,1 +goodnight everyone heres something made happy today first time year able visit parents graves cemetery placed waitlist due pandemic scheduled visit today drove there feel relieved feeling guilty long able visit them miss lot trip gave lot solace even sometimes want live myself im going try live them goodnight everyone lt,0 +record talking wanna make youtube video record feel really awkward talking fuckin weird clue get this,0 +gonna kill im fucking stupidm addicted failing school noone read anyway ahahah,1 +feel like deserve diei rough spot relationship living another couple also relationship issues girl would talk out trying new things partners much decided try molly gone one day would like blame molly wont sex admitted love other caught positions decided continue pursue anything months later im still girl weve moved out every day want die guilt try let know guilt shows im different person dont know feelings girl gone within month suffering ive done feels endless nobody fucking know know look anyone willing give reason forgive please help me,1 +summon you uhave_an_epic_day_bot,0 +movie entertaining never ever boring even running nearly hours al pacino michelle phieffer rest cast great film believable violence little extreme film showed vicious drug trade time film ending amazing probalby one coolest scenes ever great movie probably really enjoy it,0 +cheeselovermax add talk,0 +movie shows many feelings emotions strong personal atmosphere movie tense sad really get clear picture main character going through responding world around him think great movie everybody see itbr br ,0 +life meaningmy life meaning cant imagine five years now dont want to someone told best thing could happen life death is dont want upset friends family seriously upset short move on might even talk bad me die peace everything pain world dont anyone remotely interested dating me dont anyone texts aside one friend nothing here absolutely nothing,1 +want continue anymore everything ever tried failed give brief story used passionate person got inspired magic since got really good tried start yt work got audition opportunity perform penn teller fool us never responded crushed even though know magicians get on still stung though turned got really inspired learn count cards got really good it got winning days eventually variance caught lost one day everything ever passion crushing making less motivated less inspiredall talent wasted wrong person brag count cards hypnotised people pickpocketed cops solved rubiks cube blindfolded play saxophone talent definitely wasted wrong person never get one thing work me universe deliberately trying ensure never happy always fail thought counting cards could help save apartment even told girlfriend financially stable now going tell life falling apartmy point being want keep trying want live anymore want die scared anything it done getting motivated something work end putting worse spot want live anymore done life,1 +fired egg thats it nothing special however first thing exciting hamburger helper like cooked initiative felt like eating feel mature even though fry egg im dunno something feels nice guess,0 +im pathetic cant even end pathetic lifeim years old ive suicidal thoughts years now remember started th grade would poke kitchen knife sternum try work courage fall it im college hate ever worst part reason it parents pretty wealthy decent group friends ive done pretty well school still think redflag fucking time today stood bridge like usually gets really bad legs let it im much pussy it wish could fall asleep never wake up,1 +wish live howl right literally heart,0 +want lovedevery girl talk ends ghosting me school theres rumor im gay cant take more im pussy cant talk girls want kill im pussy too family understand thinks im old enough date want someone love tell everythings going fine ocd consuming life literally cant take step without getting intrusive thoughts make things make feellook like complete idiot know anymore cry every night sister thinks im stupid try talk one else talk to read all want thank,1 +one friends tested positive covid school tomorrow smart principal thought would good idea get class school call doctors school make tests god damn annoying angry fuck divide us first place also school shitty idea dividing class groups group go school one week group learn online learning online mean reading lessions books teacher doesnt explain learn know takes like clicks make zoom meting open camera group arent class learn aswellall wanted say school god damn fucked,0 +im killing soonfuck life im even sad anymore im actually happy it kill myself wont deal school family anymore gone think much hate myself cant wait end soon,1 +either everything nothing all fthis going quite long im sorry know going make sense need let can ill try coherent possible apologise nothing makes sense all title suggests either feel everything nothing all know describe mean everything basically everything feels intense like experiencing every emotion once suddenly everything shifts colourful nothing feel numb everything seems static drop one pole another frustrating tiring ive always sad growing up know dad pictures passed away car accident young fault though car ill child am simply born hed still world always think never got chance tell dad loved go him everyday think life around death affected family intensely relationship mum used quite good remarried really happy going partner fact still somehow get experience like father husband really nice use treated us like own child is completely understand naturally would love child us obviously arent related him starting feel like family isnt blood unfortunately husband attention starting shift step brother dont get wrong love step brother still close right now id understand think im selfish bitch here mother forgot us treated us like servants wasnt hard brother used scream lazy selfish retard ill suffer cystic fibrosis stuff related ill given already lol literally thought going kill one point furious started hitting head wall still remember evert bit event still dreams mum coming kill me despite anger towards though shed still pay medical bills im thankful that worst brother showing serious symptoms brain tumour didnt anything about found stroke uncles place happened mums probably didnt even get chance fight turns cancer metastasised lung found out passed away eight months diagnosis really shattered died talented year old much expect future death uncle wife offered take ever since ive living them looking back time feel like coping quite well emotions boyfriend died years ago met brothers death hospital cancer really didnt want lose anyone anymore started seeing even werent hospital whenever needed him hed make sure ive taken medication always reminded eat drink know kind sounds like tfios relationship basically like film really afraid enter relationship borderline personality disorder im bipolar well imagine hard person like that didnt leave told stayed despite awful things ive said him beyond amazing although ive thoughts redflag brother passed away become intense especially boyfriend passed away tried times got really close left coma days made everything worse especially second attempt psychiatrist gives medication week aunt checks every fucking hour check havent cut im still alive everything controlled around me feel trapped mind surroundings want live dont want live want feel better thoughts comfort zone dilemmas hard weigh neither choose live die life meant shorter everyone else cant deal physical torment mental torment go everyday body never peace mind cant even get lung transplant even wanted since mental illnesses ive attempted redflag couple times part wants another chance live im reliable enough sometimes feel like mind peaceful even feel like want live another bipolar cycle become depressed hell right makes want kill myself depressed even something it really hard lately aunt makes big deal everything like staring knife dinner tons people lectured wrong commit redflag learn find worth life dont get it im running towards death everyday twenty ive lived average life expectancy cf patients everyday passes part body deteriorating someone whos capable ending life expected carry extremely suffering capacity slowing getting worse hoping life taken away live ive seen others battle cf pass away pure torture earth redflag crime modern society know long word vomit dont care one reads it thank much though did wanted write feel like someones listening,1 +looking old photo albums today oh dear fuck jesus name aleluia amen glory god help wanna hideeeee never come outside embarrassing like,0 +award first person follows ui_exist_by_the_way,0 +see much suffering like do offer support,1 +feel like ive never purposeno matter bad things get miserable am cant seem force get find job see job leads anything quitting cant handle it im qualified good enough anything im actually interested able sustain i make art enough it car money one degree im already much debt first time tried im afraid go back fail again im scatted brained im weak live disability even energy apply it feel like answers job prospects im incompetent everything feels like doors closed ever even got live life supposed make money everything make money from cant do go living theres hope anything get better,1 +still suicidal friend shed light meim still depressed still feel incredibly suicidal one important friends life texted miss already came visit state weekend knowing cares enough let know may help make rest today instead thinking tools order myself everyone situation here matter confident one thinks cares proven afternoon never case hopefully also help survive another day hopefully longer,1 +dae use reddit social media general distract reality drown enormous amount guilt afterwards feel like social media helps reduce stress certain extent distracting whats going helps zone but soon leave overcome insane amount guilt end day distraction,0 +first person comment gets award pt free award purpose comment claim free dopamine,0 +one loves mei everything right good student never drink drugs good sense humor public decently dressed good hygiene none gets anywhere none gotten anywhere years girls worth keep shit up want hang soon,1 +abomination cursei literally abomination curse family always ugly fat whole life even starved weight didnt drop enough born cursed feel like put misery genes low quality iq low talent look ugly fat could would torture worst way possible fuck everything one loves wants alive cant wait hang parents throw huge party throw trash deserving even funereal grave hate much bad wish never born biggest wish get cancer dangerous illness,1 +getting hit realityok kinda stupid life made like every bad choice imaginable stuck reality reputation damaged forever done bunch dumb shit like randomly stalk people even assaulted someone nowhere guess bad idea address shit comes up living little fantasy land getting hit reality literally might go prison entire career like ruined idea cant repair reputation stalemate guess,1 +want one night when ive eaten favourite food drank favourite drink reflect life ive done everything go sleep die sleep,1 +ha im old af tf lmao bruh please ew,0 +third times charmsorry formatting im mobile im suicidal thoughts years now started side comments oh ill kill things go well evolved comments actual possibility could take currently senior year high school doubt even graduate back freshman year urges lowest recent years ive struggling coping whatever fuck have therapist told showed symptoms bipolar ii anyways ive attempted twice recent one second week senior year discharged therapy beginning new year due wanting participate group therapy prior planning commiting back november go bang decided present poem writing club school received decent reception decided stick bit met current girlfriend due pretty great im waiting school poetry slam which thursday finish decide kill myself grades time low im missing classes cant bring get morning get get scared going school surrounded people stay home hide ive disappointed parents siblings going school family amazing cant even blame turned out feel sorry put years really deserve family theyve done especially dad dad incredible person ive ever pleasure knowing just want disappointment think ill able redeem mentality think contemplating seeing psychiatrist last month considering fact got discharged within last months think consider letting get appointment like ive got skills going me ive got writing video games neither going helping life anyways week maybe see infinity war go im going head buy rope go nearby forestwoods want family ones find body cant bear idea that feel bit guilty next week dads birthday oh well cant feel anything im gone right wish luck,1 +annoyed mins time lost matches row times row bad start times row teammates questionable things times row guns ammo times lobby without single kill name game crashed,0 +im gonna kill myselfim gonna end done one wants around one wants alive hate prefect time end,1 +want golf gte america vw makes hybrid gti hp torque little bit heavier gets way better gas mileage import america disappointijg want much,0 +achieved lot years life extremely fortunate friends fun parents me fantastic job starting couple weeks everything fine rightlast year around time drinking numb nights would drink would write letters myself would draw sometimes would harm myself hole chest big gave friends even myself realized needed disappear point living held go cannot believe someone elsenow year later deep down hole still there tried focusing positives still there know much longer take alone want find someone believe in need someone believe in hate pangs loneliness cannot get rid even others sometimes even miss wreck last year least dealing emotions rather ignoring themeverything feels hollow anyone life understands awful really feel point living understood,1 +lost lost game remembered,0 +well done sub ampxb httpspreviewredditkzfjagtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafcfaedbcdcabd,0 +require assistance fellow gamers ive started playing minecraft always see youtubers dream techno 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you talking me fuck meant do seems know anyone early absolutely screwed alone,1 +destroying mind cannot sleep even though super tired also get work couple hours destroying,1 +dont depressed commit redflagi think really interesting everyone concept sad depressed want kill yourself mean sometimes get tired waking dealing bullshit every single day every time get car contemplate crashing it im young adult felt way since teenager feel way forever maybe thats way im meant go out im sure advice reddit friends dont feel like place purpose ya know like maybe id everyone favor following though ive thought many times before,1 +wish could trust people lmao im insecure kinda insane u say u love everythings lie sometimes feel like love u much u dont feel same think think much,0 +thank god concept sleepi sure would killed already taking naps sleeping wasnt thing way hell could survive hearing thinking things going world ,1 +bastardswhen want talk realistic things get ignored want talk mk ultra real recent jfk docs released get called paranoid im curious people use power im curious history states people power control situation im told sit back thats life no thats called power im tired putting mask even though information faces something powerful submit it people even want speak happens behind scenes negative history filled negative facts document reality still real still happens lion eating deer brutal make negative thats life apperently life fit certain status quo one posotive bullshit,1 +people want live i know question answered everyone differently cant see want alive theres purpose alive ya gonna human live life hate life die whats point would easier skip bullshit kill yourself right life ive battling depression anxiety im lots meds turn weeks goal turn kill want skip shit world nobody tell death bad dont know whats beyond it goal life die anyway im really suicidal right ive hospitals multiple attempts life times police getting involved tackling extra human wants die right doesnt matter mental illness physical want kill place country leagally aged walk building write name date birth given pill sort end all fucking hate life fuck everything ,1 +anyone else weird eye thing literally person silhouette passes corner eye theres nothing there probably get checked,0 +leaving told now go back again sobbing didnt know say could help everyone ive talked told gotten phone number looking phone number receipts membership files invasion privacy miss opportunity help asking phone number sorry sad story know painful think happening right now,1 +crush think likes back try ask out,0 +mad know take never felt angry mad never get girlfriend shit makes want kill someone swear god fact never loved enough money tall enough want take girls cold stuck working shit jobs forced end fucking bitches never loved want loved want know love feels like way never loved come home nothing someone going feel anger going make someone pay go going suffer say suffer going put bitch much pain wish never born angry one talk to,1 +news depressing ever watch news sit silence thinking wow limit news exposure anxious current events,0 +got chem test literally im joking couldnt focus cuz horny dont let concentrate emailed teacher see could take cuz dont wanna keep ,0 +fuck life man covid go ass ngl crush invited friend group nice kids school lockdowns over long going be month months year understand people loving lockdown first amazing this no horrible experience turned teenager want waste tge best years life stuck inside fucking house shit online school failing classes left right im sick it goes much longer people going dropping like fucking flies happy covid finally getting social life gone one measly disease trust vaccine early want getting lockdown fuck shit,0 +get bed ill hurt myselfi deserve pain deserve every bit suffering im fucking coward fucking go die tonight done deserve,1 +introvert person suffering depression really thought whole pandemic help rest better mental health since decided go home province really expecting good environment finally rest busy noisy city life wrong first months great fine gets longer starting get bad feelings again actually starting panic attacks childhood trauma like reopened i know better term like flashback bad things happened childand feel pressured job since resigned went back home though started small business seem work out parents starting complain bills really really wanted help financially cannot cannot even find part time job online pandemic friend suggests apply work abroad said might hired pandemic ends going happen oh remembered cannot job abroad illness weak lungs wants hire person weak lungs sucks right supposed doi cannot even bother family telling this really feel want worry me used telling anything anyways dismiss feel anyway yea chose share here appbut know what really tired asked born like this want this signed this tired tired tired weak tired depressed tired crying every night tired me know anymore,1 +people like women better men men better women im man quality believe genders suck equally,0 +wish way make look like accidenti dont want anyone feel guilty feel like hard kill without happen fuck,1 +feeling suicidal overall fcking terrible deep down small twisted part feels good deserve every second miserytldr planning redflag fantasies bordering schadenfreude relationship intimacy issues selfhate paranoid others jealousy plague mind selfdoubt preface im writing phone autocorrect spelling formating good english good either feel free correct me dont plans it probably lack courage ive thinking daily or least couple times week long time feels like part me strange bodys instinct selfpreservation yet brain finds comfort relish pursuing mental anguish like hummingbird looking nectar suicidal fantasies feel soft sweet comforting like warm blanket wrapping around me safe dont know feels good reassurance fact always option enjoy selfinflucted schadenfreude if could call that moment start thinking realitically hit wall ill start thinking statistics showing redflags fail ill fail im plain jane whose exception surviving redflag actually worse dying in eyes unwanted repercussions would make regret seek redflag even more life objectively bad fact id say average hope im arrogant im saying might potential better now even solar system or even orbit people look admire one always improve dont know far reach theres even limit now one thing keeps better way myself norwegian word redflag selvmord translates selfmurder now degree way think redflag graetly varies almost always want inflict damage part me fantasies redflag may stem desire killing part myself part bad part ive managed coexist majority life feel slowly dominating controls body noticable manner thoughts bit paranoid im throughoutly convinced friends even loved ones genuinely despise me every little action make interpretted scheeming making fun me dont know anyone would take advantage theres nothing good take me despite new fears fact frequent cant shake scaring me days convinced even dear sister detests prescence people honestly want and wouldve wasnt that warning long unecessary rant ahead ltrantgt younger didnt large variety potential friends anchored one girl could actually bear existance honestly relief one friend kindergarten she darkskinned girl there sadly left over rest bullied made feel terrible things couldnt change things defined me dark place socially shone like star distance closer got her clearer things got you thought would say brighter right mightve notsosmart kid still am knew using me told one day got bullied bit herself combined way treated like me immediately forgot offered opportunity girls felt used longlost friend kindergarten returned fifth grade immediatley loved everyone including me friend lets call eva differentiate furious mean bitter me built small empire schoolyard crumbling quickly eva desperate power tried turn everyone friend failed fortunately burnt bridges we dont go school now friend were still close friends currently bffs eva still terrible person stand experience least taught spot bad apples witv someone desperation ltrantgt reason mentioned event yikes rambly bitter fcking primary drama lmao trusting people fear intimacy ties back everyone hating me actually fucking crazy mind stretch bend like bloody playing twister find ways people hate me picture this youre sitting bus minding business see two people whispering eachother catch one briefly looking you sinking feeling hits you theyre taliking you youre useless even family thinks youre whiny dumb selfobssesed ugly look strangers finished talking looking eachother laughing see fucking see dumbass youre nothing prime entertainment them walking trainwreck people poke fun instant dopamine would almost shame killed yourself would people talk about youre good pleasing people best could do another voice head joins conversation said ever think you god youre selfobsessed course people dont always think even youre trash they like you lives live dont care shut up someone actual worth would able catch attention like that someone likewise hideousness youre unremarkable ways didnt even notice you think it mightve laughed that point youre immersed thoughts dont notice strangers leaving destination almost passed thats type thought processes everyday situations triggered simple gestures hate it hate it hate it im insecure person ive ever seen looking mirror makes nauseous sheer hideousness inside out even believe i know albeit denial fear confrontation one cares theyre faking dont want cause harm talking feelings redflag cause harm too matter mental battle mind well might dramatic thing ive ever written makes rather embarassed despite that im trying push beyond ill explode or implode already told friend suicidal thoughts worried made guilty make feel way deserve it internet place vent into feel selfish want people read desperately need second opinion writing made realise things know affecting me worst thing is scratch surface like fact im always sad unmotivated fact opposite point think im cured somewhat good person id rather plague person reading if someones reading this thank you really makes day im feeling sorry too,1 +doim year old boy feeling years now started moved mexico lost friends know speak spanish teachers treated like shit one wanted hang lunch spent year school alone every day made fun mostly failed subjects since sister left living usa mom really mean everyday every day calls use less person know nothing try talk sometimes need ask stuff always brings up im ok school could better since im smart honestly gotten point longer give shit every day im sad im starting think ending stop suffering know kill self mom would probs die holding back ending myself get home school play video games try escape reality go world counter strike dota great games parents hate gaming always call lazy piece shit like said dont care met really nice people online talk everyday im gaming feel happy feel like im actually worth something get ace csgo win round say good job dude always makes feel good smart dont get good grades school idk ill see u guys later guess thank u reply btw,1 +uk sexual assault crisis uk among women aged astounding say sexually harassed women admit sexual harrassment report authorities took legal action source survey un women uk,0 +ive messed found simialir path please help appreciatedplease scroll away bad fight type walk away without resolving type one party wants talk listen want go bed im shit him blamed drinking night friends talk me cycle thoughts bugging me id attempted redflag before know courage tell him fights like this fights im shut left comes back thoughts hurt im sorry bother anyone late night help would kind im sorry,1 +short im f f think stopped growing short,0 +im scared neck nowwriting dog leashe around neck im scared want live anymore really want end,1 +almost committed facility tonight willi got home terrifying strange day intense panic attacks triggered confrontations others problem morning spiked worry obsession spiral im unfortunately growing know well went facility behavioral medicine looking web site thinking looked like promising place get direction counseling medication needed brought wife me went room asked lot pretty generic questions tried honest possible could get help would best me answered questions ways apparently red flags asked wished dead made comment feel way sometimes desire kill myself opinion life worst indifferent next asked front wife knew would kill myself started crying said care question kept asking ask wife leave asked clarification said if going kill today know would it cried bizarre hypothetical told thought car garage would easiest way asked so thats planned do said no asked would if would it apparently enough red flags start threatening hold me even go help suicidal thoughts made cry scared ive scared long time whole thing incredibly bizarre took recommendation doctor said panic attacks threat myself incredibly relieved somehow saw intent answers clearly despite interpretations anyways left abnormal amount questions people supposed get help genuinely scared hurting knowing honesty get locked up normal legal placed facility will importantly anxiety issues escalated abnormal level chest tight im afraid feel safe feel like chance keep ever return go help im risk myself really thought subreddit would knowledgeable,1 +arguably best outdoor adventure film time four city guys confront natures wrath story survival setting backwoods georgia forests mountains wild riversbr br the director john boorman chose use local people actors portray secondary characters locals imbue film depth characterization unequaled film history central casting actors could ever come close peoples remarkable faces voices actions recall film wherein secondary characters realistic colorful much anything else gritty realism makes film amazingbr br another strength 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all never anyone get except bipolar disorder even family try reach hoping get good advice reddit well mainly dad causing suicidal tendencies cannot even things love anymore cannot even enjoy one games properly thoughts feeling utterly useless hope reaches people help me truly suffering years old suicidal,1 +robert siodmak fabulous job b noir starring ella raines franchot tone alan curtis it might add without lot help male actors ie curtis tone raines way pretty leggy actress one reason another never reached status noir counterpartsbr br siodmaks use sex light shadows music truly remarkable tackles genre shadows lighting effects camera angles effective highlight film takes place nightclub sexual drum riff elisha cook egged excited raines scene brings phantom lady new territorybr br siodmaks commitment material matched raines gives sincere performance woman love trying save man franchot tone phoned one in alan curtis seem upset might die seem happy lived never except brief moment prison seemed love rainesbr br the amusing thing many films that world war ii progressed interest psychiatry deepened often terms used incorrectly films possessed spellbound the greatest show earth tone called paranoid thomas gomez tone probably paranoia attached disorder appears closer psychopath actuality evidenced headaches may brain tumor pushing brainbr br phantom lady greatest plot well worth watching,0 +telling counsellor suicidal thoughtsso feel like need tell counsellor suicidal thoughts every day im scared might snap something soon im worried happen tell her said previously conversation redflag would lead making emergency plan everything would control actually go want mum knowing shell suffocate she cares much love it help would able stop happening anyone elses experiences would great know also im uk advice would especially welcome know us system different,1 +point living unhappyits serious question put day day barely living im anxious mess panic attack need leave house im home kids day really think im screwing up cry time cant get basic things done drive locally two young kids still here know would messed grow knowing mommy committed redflag want mess up want baby walking around asking mommy is really think healthy around day way am im sorry place know im even posting im midst anxiety attack im tired this im really sure ever get better want out feel stuck weighed down ive never felt trapped,1 +great tv movie told murder martha moxley greenwich connecticut nephew ethel kennedy use ghost martha provide details effective added lot heart story christopher meloni seemed capture personality mark fuhrman well furhman got much underserved bad publicity oj simpson trial certainly vindicated contribution bringing killer justice years,0 +fun fact nobody cares failed nnn nobody cares sticky liquid came genitals not im totally saying cus ive seen posts last minutes,0 +hi phase depression makes really desperate years neglecting depression thinking cool cured starting realize 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discussion mother daughter daughters choice groom let alone strangers unrelated people let alone bargoing spirit same details fresh completely delighted thisbr br i saw once preview showing attended director fine speaker questionanswerer salman got brotherlike good friends making it loves india plans make wizard oz movie india cant get detailed songs ive seen once except say liked all range happy parody bollywood number moviewithinthemovie ladies costumes leghorn hats seashellcased bodices its beach scene flowy dresses worth cost ticket alone lovely reflective manyscened romantic song sadder serious part moviebr br mix hindi english music worksbr br salman khan gets lot credit openness unusual projects jaanemann good judgment ones in carroll said full suggestions ideas along way totally fine ie narcissistic all whether carroll accepted rejected clearly pro loves involved collaborating,0 +dont want die sometimes alive muchim years old dads side abused brainwashed me made blame mom divorce rift family happened eight granny on dads side threatened kill last year screamed betrayed her dad didnt believe me blamed told apologise couldnt dont want relationship anymore hates im moms daughter thats something cant change blame everything dad recently asked talk couldnt understand told didnt want contact her stresses out things theyve said hurts head ive lot mental breakdowns recently hate myself live mom relationship bit awkward im working it sinking feeling chest crawls spine behind throat,1 +im years old onlyabout hours do,0 +god hate people treat me people treat better,0 +finding therapisthello friend struggling lot poor self image issues depression needs therapist every day become toss talk ledge not therapists say wont take her know guidelines say cant request contact information ask it advice give help find therapist,1 +tired failure collegei got c important college class might affect future grad school ive gotten another c already important college class know try take again going hard even know going worth career even know worth it like im done feel like im walking life im even sure why even know want want give up life people telling smart going great college came intellect fallen window care care future care grade shows im wow suck im tired im tired want over cant im pretty sure someone sad die wish tried harder feel way wish knew future hold im scared it im scared whats ahead know thing easy well easy simpler trying hate myself im tired im really fucking tired cant believe failure couldve stopped this hate want someone tell everything going okay believe it want change know want wait want end things least itll final,1 +cant force care anymoresorry make sense memories last months little broken cant really piece together well little months ago broke long term highschool girlfriend search fulfilling life got together want smoking weed anymore stopped pothead sort made little sad decided worth it naturally broke up started smoking again else highschool senior doing smoked every single day months trying sorts new drugs along way cigarettes alcohol opiates shrooms lsd mdma cocaine sorts fun stuff thought would give new perspective life left shell person used be graduated high school months broke her thats drug use really took off chose attend college miles away hometown effort start anew different person now alone live huge city money im verge failing important classes nothing left want anymore want anyone want nothing wonder else could been hurts cries help lonely nights account overdrawal emails antidepressants never worked contributed person today ive tried blame people creating monster am person blame me im dr frankenstein tried kill myself thought best seek therapist maybe antidepressant medication therapy jack shit thing thank medication nonexistent sex drive life fucking bland christ fucking killing me,1 +whats karma mean im new site wtf karma like building something what see people calling karma whores like people want bad brag it for pls supposed karma,0 +im done lifeim done guys really nothing live for im useless piece shit value world keep living know fact successful im depressed anything life full tragedies suffering life constant cycle waking go school miserable falling asleep wish could escape world fuck everything im big fuck up wish could better everything fault want sleep forever escape world im disappointment everyone also sucks nobody life single clue im fucking dying inside,1 +one best friends killed himself know handle iti seen year college together always happy kind everyone even people dickheads everyone else single bad bone body ive struggled suicidal thoughts ideation number occasions attempted take life times well suicidal back year when last made post here ages ago know friend got helped feet found today wednesday monday done it one told me sisters friends brother who told sister told sister me found out now thankfully felt suicidal couple months instead anxiety explosive repressed anger im right state im angry killing himself still college at ends college fault dealing helping him think im going something bad always thought itd whod commit redflag anyone knew found friend died part wish died instead im speechless numb ive idea funeral taking place im also going ireland holiday friday hopefully give peace mind allow process this someone suicidal numerous times before lose someone redflag last expect it need guidance do,1 +much cost stay hospitali live ny idea familys insurance would cover feeling increasingly suicidal thinking telling therapist this might choose stay hospital days least ideas much might cost,1 +anyone want chatt gf work im bored af,0 +baaaaaa ba ba baaaaaa waaaaaa waaaaa waaaaa anyone identify song,0 +get good people lots love get unlucky die car crash something cannot get unlucky die accident gone one remember matter cannot die,1 +oof wanna slice wrists wanna scream void kinda v n sh earth also feel like wouldnt care someone chokes death nowhere im worthless piece shit gf deserves way fucking better cuz serve purpose society dont know deal emotions never got teached deal could possibly mentally break apart gf leaves im mentally fucking unstable actually need imprisoned mental ward feel like im loosing mind sanity slowly rotting away i mean howdy lads lasses doing,0 +every time fail wife want diethere thing stopping thought yearold son finding me thought putting binbag head sealing it,1 +makes angry today mom dad went bed told me night turn phone apparently all want do find stupid point hobby go school every second day even school still it keep saying just talk us idea talk about interests differ much different sense humor find stories boring time im phone watching youtube browsing reddit intereacting friends seem against still try keep healthy go jogging eat fast food make proper meals know theyre this course would tell this would labeled disrespect make situation worse im really angry would like know wrong,0 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want connect people emotionally yet comes social situation seems social norm hate passion want kill badly know would destroy family hand keep living possible may destroy lives process sometimes cannot sleep unless think way could take someones life get away it like heroin dealer destroys lives either way maybe ill point good reason stuff like ongoing bit insiomiac years figured change thoughts resenting something simple taking lives scumbags selfaware lunacy still hard though lunatic ice pick aroused still want hurt anyone want know thing help people like me sick depraved person yet aware disgusted fact know room people like world want hurt anyone may feel bit better cannot become next jeffrey daumier hope please tell me update thank kind words really means lot would take time help random kid internet sorry took long update help dad take crap dump today subreddit really amazing you needed someone therapist confide in im going work using relationship sort serious issues im still embarrassed about felt great get things chest cant thank enough ,1 +feel hopeless accept life like thisthrow away account i apsergers syndrome ocd backstorycontext live dysfunctional house hold subjected mental emotional verbal abuse mother sits living room tells im bad person abuses people cares himself try leave room screams me past would physically abusive slapping spanking accessions beat ground lead issues younger would lash anyone likely due anger built abuse made become friendless one wants friends me cant go anyone think abusive person go police flipped script framed abuser result go police charged warned would happen visit house again cant tell therapist would talk police duty so situation like this also cant move enough money get assisted housing behalf government resulted losing hope im world shit created it,1 +give video ideas ill make em reply link im done couple hours days got nothing better do stuff already made inspiration 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detentions guantanamo bay gavin hoods rendition uptotheminute timely movie ever likely come entertainment mills mainstream hollywood not stretch imagination perfect film neither merit caterwauling opprobrium received hands critics across ideological political spectrumbr br the term rendition refers ability cia arrest individuals suspects terrorist dealings whisk away secret foreign country interrogate torture indefinite period time without due process law anwar elibrahimi egyptian man living twenty years united states american wife young son new baby way seems unlikely candidate terrorist yet one day without warning explanation anwar seized taken undisclosed location subjected brutal torture admits involvement terrorist organization anwar claims know nothing aboutbr br on negative side rendition falters occasionally storytelling abilities often biting little chew terms plot character ostensible focal point douglas freeman rookie cia agent brought observe anwars interrogation hands egyptian officials problem that conceived writer kelley sane enacted jake gyllenhaal freeman seems much nave boy scout make plausible agent given screen time needs develop fully character know little beginning even less seems end goes motions learn precious little man within thus without strong center gravity hold together film occasionally feels coming apart seams story elements flying directions similar problem occurs anwars distraught wife played reese witherspoon woman never get know much apart see surface gyllenhaal witherspoon proved fine actors circumstances hemmed restrictive screenplay rarely lets go beyond single recurring note performancesbr br what makes rendition ultimately powerful film however extreme seriousness subject matter way two concurrently running plot lines elegantly dovetail one another movies closing stretches may make slightly contrived story perhaps might liked subject but hey hollywood all film pay deference mass audience expectations get green lighted let alone see light day completed projectbr br two supporting performances particularly compelling film omar metwally makes palpable terror man caught real life kafkaesque nightmare cannot awaken yigal naor makes surprisingly complex character chief interrogatortorturer meryl streep alan arkin peter sarsgaard also make marks smaller roles special mention also made warm richly hued cinematography dion beebebr br does movie oversimplify issues probably stack deck favor torture victim evil government forces definitely one wonders movie would played anwar really terrorist yet movie guts tread controversial ground afraid raise dicey questions risk disapproval political stances takes openly ponders issue nation hold fast hardwon principle civil liberties all face terrorism fear much courage take people good finally stand say enough enough even risk branded terroristappeasing unpatriotic power the movie also not way deny reality extreme islamic terrorismbr br thus reject rendition hand would allow perfect enemy good rendition may perfect good something importance say world live alone makes much worth seeing,0 +nobody ever love meall relationships ive ever internet relationships none ended well one person crush on best friend already found someone else love with feel like never anyone im transgender social anxiety too help either want someone love obviously thats never going happen,1 +wanna dietoo hard fucking deal shit ive lost everyone friends anymore everyday getting harder deal issues boyfriend losing interest me fucking tell im close ending tonight relapsed like minutes ago need courage end all please stop pain im tired living,1 +get asian hate became relevant america feels like media wanted talk racism america blm died think coverage created problems solving stuff like blm major cause concern racism towards black americans deeply rooted history country asian hate though never learned much history issue sort popped nothing else controversial going on start sounding like racist too someone point major patterns asian hate before news started blowing up,0 +feel like im losing fightits gotten point feel hopeful anymore try look towards happy future see could ever get better see continuing pain depression loneliness always wondered people could say theyre happy life how bad honestly think ill make end year maybe even months now so really hope someone life remember me vann,1 +wish everyone else hated much dothen id feel less bad killing myself ive come close finally ending many times theres always tiny bit doubt mind says things might get better know thats wrong though need find way squash thought im fucking sick alive cant look mirror seeing disgusting face makes want vomit thatd probably good though im stupid control eating lose weight normal way somehow managed land decent job fully expect lose lazy ass never time desperately need job help pay husbands medication even goodrx month need get away toxic shit family fuck anything everything ever touch school grades abysmal getting fucking taking classes could gotten higher id turned assignments time or all nope stupid lazy that cant even kill right last time tried need stiches blood transfusion tried slit wrists know better cut though maybe ill able something right life once practicing cutting deeper too hit fat yet im working pain tolerance fucking existing painful me every minute breath reminds dead pulled god damn trigger chance hate much im complete utter failure understand friends have anyone else life put me nothing useful give them im funny advice give cant help problems absolutely worth human whatsoever feel like really matter time say fuck try slit wrists again really close today lost nerve better yet wait till first paycheck two comes leave husband something hell point id enough money go buy cheap gun know store nearby sells pistols around least wasting much money death fuck it im going give tuesday morning week try something right cant know cant ill kill then id monday morning cast one arm blocks access wrist could keep rambling much shitty person am ill cut short here sorry taking space feed,1 +fucked upi fucked fucked fucked holy shit nothing health related fucking dug grave,1 +im going try kill hourdone life,1 +feeling trappedhello everyone know im writing here guess catch contemplating thing more pain great feel broke something me main reason feel that due climate change theres going future child live happily children own makes break every time see coming back work helping feed her every smile cuddle like stab heart know needs me needs ok fight her know continue like this,1 +anybody else watch raskreddit youtube videos robot voice robot voice,0 +got wanted say hope great day,0 +got first real gf ive never really dated kinda stumbled relationship gf nice amazing need talk somewhere lives side school little older like months ive spent bunch time house parents siblings cool let chill last week ive started dinner become pretty regular thing thanks listening rant also sorry mobile bad format,0 +hate world nothing good ever happens me miserable fuckit really hard see reasons stay alive think ever escape misery death would free pain have fuck world,1 +feeling hopelessthey say it gets better really feel way largely unhappy while fact anyone life speak feelings makes feel extremely hopeless ive best keep head up seems harder try harder fall back depression cant help feel resentful hardly anything working favor life feels like universe get make feel miserable can want believe happening thats feels like feel extremely lost know go help ive seeing therapist im receiving enough emotional support loved ones feel trapped really know do sorry came across whiny andor annoying unfortunately cant help feel like this,1 +trump like little devil sitting bidens shoulder seriously tho keeps interrupting him,0 +big bro teenager tomorrow soon gonna move start university im really gonna miss him still remember time moves fast lol,0 +ive working entire 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first breakup genuinely thought id marry girl came nowhere course heartbroken positive outlook things would get better pushed go gym diet lost lbs started reading pushed reconnect old friends meet new ones got job began well university stopped drinking became generally better person months went on healing seem going anywhere taken advice became better person damn down anxiety began severely worsening eventually face fact depressed saw gp i like selfdiagnosing label depressed like months im losing motivation keep pushing feel burnt out pain intensifying honestly feel like im beginning lose internal battle honestly feels like ill forever alone despite best efforts one irl friend couple internet friends make worse irl friend moving back home country couple months im going literally one hang with meaning ill alone thoughts went months stronger hell despite busy positive like want kill myself ive pushed past limits achieved amazing things fuck exhausted waking every day consumed thoughts inadequacy fact im alone every morning internal battle try convince itll get better know believe anymore im driving work college gym ill see lamppost ill random impulse drive it ill random thoughts slitting wrists bathtub know much longer deal everything feel like may months left power reach year mark since breakup lose hope thing keeping going knowing redflag would hurt family theres possibility things may get better amazing dog,1 +spent almost every single day drunkim ashamed it want stop,1 +escape tarkov expectations vs reality d httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkdhdriptuhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkdhdriptu,0 +im starting feel suicidal year really need therapythis pandemic school semester really pushed unstable mental state im constantly scared im close falling apart collapsing entirely im architecture major constant studio presentation deadlines working hours every day really minimal time take breaks take care properly extends weekends holidays become hard stop breaking become even harder find time spend family friends boyfriend going lot issues pandemic school well slowly feel become unable support properly since im struggling much myself breaking heart see personal love life and family life too strain tension struggles used pretty suicidal high school im feeling thoughts creep back hard year goes on im scared cant anything immediately help either boyfriend myself im terrified somethings going snap im going lose myself want happy badly becoming grim day dont know many hour work days handle body shuts down desperately need therapy need professional guidance cope stress properly support boyfriend way hurt emotional state ive always scared therapy parents raised strict mentality thinking taboo immigrant parenting like that really want consistent getting professional help recover properly i tried times always stopped going month always thought wasnt stressed enough later on final architecture studio presentation next thursday im going call university counseling center ask help need to post reminder really need this body cant handle anymore stress without proper professional help if read far wanted apologize embarrassing af name joke username chose made account long back lol thanks taking time listen stranger vent emotional turmoil,1 +wasnt serious joke earlier week made comment comment post pedos im naming anyone reason commented pedo affended clearly joke saw comment pedo joke pedo,0 +every song somebodys favorite song think shittiest song youve ever heard give thought take moment thing that someone may absolutely fucking adore song fucking blew mind think it especially songs like living legend scarlxrd thing screamo rap mumble rap basically rap overwhelmed bass boosting shitty lyrics barely understand fans ultimately complaint music choice criticized family literally sit bullshit brother plays including limited tooooooooo rap drugs murder rape crimes god awful country songs oldies whatever fuck chill step parents eat shit up moment play anime shit say listen real music turn music car like bud driving radio mine didnt automatically connect phone it thats thought okay enough guys been also might covid lets goooo big dubskis ,0 +gods tiredi want pain stop years happiness always lie something gets way lie say love hurt soon convenient get bored eventually nobody gets say smart find someone level is matter let end please,1 +important thing heres important thing two sexualities aromantic asexual see theres difference two quite obvious people might get it feel romantic attraction brain goes like want cuddle kiss them feel sexual attraction like want fuck them see thats difference two asexual person doesnt feel sexual attraction feels platonic romantic one aromantic person doesnt feel romantic attraction feels sexual platonic one aromantic asexual person feels platonic kind attraction thank listening questions likely answer them,0 +type food imposter eat susage,0 +anyone listen me im sick deserve thisive sick years one listens doctors rush door im often sick barely make appointment let alone fight proper treatment respect patient bankrupted currently homeless cant fixed minutes pill sort one seems care family everyone else life abandoned time need normally would okay im sick help myself feel drugged eating im sick barely move days enrolled school attempt save life cannot work cannot learn material debt wasted time disappointment hopelessness nice genuine caring person thrown curb deserve this millions people make bad life choices get proper treatment yet someone always done right thing cant get help needed sick alone several years help anyone listen anyone anything help me beg plead help one cares never begged anything life one time need help im left rot sick years now im years old prime life spend every waking minute looking answers cant get help,1 +hello thesis project adult attempted redflag affects quality life would like interview attempted redflag please read requirements below hope outcome study help well redflag 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+want die get old absolutely idea happens death seen rational perspective nothing cant picture nothingness wanted kinda get chest expect actual answers course,0 +need talk someone please feel life trainwreckim years old boy feel worthless time like body tried exercise eating healthy results friends talked almost three weeks go feel empty want go home sleep time even know im going face life adult need talk someone whos experience tell face problems please,1 +itll eventually get bettereveryone says yeah might take forever itll get better eventually yeah might take years itll good grateful sit think amount suffering worth might come after thats question think person experiencing answer people cant none can say life ok years explain agree me say somehow worth suffer long isnt scale put years absolute suicidal misery one side average existence tips side misery suffering really worth might come after even best case scenario maybe id depressed long even matter again cant decide,1 +wanna badly shes fucking beautiful j fucking ugly piece shit,0 +alright boys look got defo high effort title ampxb processing img lrxmni,0 +saw detroit must original run literally rolled aisle theater funny seen since would love to get copy anybody saying anything dated overdone are money bunch poseurs skit either wickedly erotically perversely hilarious one weak one included opening sequence instance parodies features gorilla gogodancers pendulous breasts felinni would filmed wicked wit come film open mind blithely sneering heart pencil right best list,0 +long bowserbye bye,1 +wake move brain another body world nothing offer,0 +battle clock rolls november over brave souls may put rest fight over survived nut november passed lay burdens enjoy fruits labor failed stay strong try next year time celebrate rejoice worst behind us go leave place enjoy yourselves earned it wish joy december,0 +keep living small portion life happinessyeah know cliche overthought understand keep going sure theres things life fun majority life working exhausting myself stressed or least im told want live fun life forever die everytime mention idea get shot saying cant live like cant fun life time keep going cant enjoy life every day stressed exhausted every day live sprinkle happiness pool full stress sorrow im stuck school every day wake get back home exhausted procrastinate hours left day away go sleep cycle starts again im also expected work weekends wheres life going im told need future get good job struggle financially ill stuck another routine potentially working overtime exhausted shit get told thats life deal it maybe want deal want die cons outweigh pros,1 +curse survival instinctexplain stupid thing im ready die pills pocket almost killed friend found me kill again time double dose family gone vacation too taking vacation overcome survival instinct,1 +know life hopeless continuing suffering end yourselfwhoever control life wont even let post reddit ill try anyway ampxb cmon think logically answer yes,1 +nothing changestheres many things want change life matter hard try nothing changes every time try get job end quitting within week anxious thoughts energy due depression im tired one loser lives parents house s im broke friends hobbies ever seem sit room browse reddit youtube day stick around life like this hopes successful one day apparently destined loser literally nothing worth sticking around for try best kind person help others yet hand cards dealt ive posted past time cant win thoughts even parents really care dad told today kill care like worlds even gonna know gone im gonna it least say tried,1 +recently posting rteenagers lot trying get one girl friend knew her asked bring like casually instead said wanted teach draw havent talked her didnt know drew dont want learn draw yet planning talking first myself no im kinda freaking think good thing dont know im mentally dying think im alright though likes wont seem like im trying get dont know human ive even talking class raise tolerance even though hate every comment even make whole class laugh feel like end world isnt im still freaking out so day,0 +long overdose startsive taken full bottle mg capsules cymbalta plus ten mg tablets lexapro once feel like seeking help anymore useless long symptoms headache diziness begin kick in,1 +source suicidal thoughts depression forever alonei met girl hit well lot common interest anime musici asked date agreedi didnt ask right away messaged months firstwe went restaurant eat saw movie date magical like dream happy thought finally found someone would love really thought always smiling making eye contact even let hold handbut day went shitshe became distant tried asking another date made lame excuse went ignoring me said fine give upwhy shit happen every female try get withim freaking year old kisslessvirgin fucks sakei dont think im bad looking take care go gymeat healthy shower every day on top work shitty construction job pay dentist bills also help family bills fuck economyif lovely girlfriend come home hard day work would lot motivated get am every day workis anyone else like mefallen deep depression cant find love whats point living doomed alone forever,1 +school rickrolled everybody im even kidding,0 +life curse get better tranny freaks like me im killing tonightlife fucking curse nothing gets better gets worse worse worse worse everything ive ever worked stolen me im homeless unemployed tranny frankenstein monster freak one hire jack shit ill always poor homeless im time left build future everything over need kill myself tonight im laying train tracks im sick pathetic waste life im fucking tranny monster need die like one one ever hire me future life life live need die life suffering life fucking curse,1 +peoplei swear id dont want put people around pain others deserve though,1 +im unable feel good emotionsthis coming time im feeling downits im seeing ive joyive tried feel excited stuff universally exciting realized bad looking back experiences rollercoastersbut thats besides pointfor reason get half emotionhalf dull aching migraine start feel happyimagine bottle soap someone pours water itthats feel likeits like feelings half feeling half anguishmy happiness excitement immediately dissipate start feel them,1 +well got checked officially turns year old redflag yeah told friends laughed face saying cannot depression people worse problems and agree true made seem like worthless like mental health important whenever reach somehow make fun saying stfu today months left commit suicide well cut friends life stay curled room myself fine day since mostly write watch shows night really bad take pills sleep addicted them started smoking avoid reality always tired way avoid emotions listening songs time used best time numb even feel excited got one live worthless yeah thank listening bullshit friends would call numb nothing interests anymore apart dying,1 +girl butts unattractive boy butts freaking amazing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im suffering much unimaginable cant even get ur bed take shower anymore need die need diemale need die live anymore exist everyday pain me become homeless soon keep failing exams college due mental issues family even support rather insulting words gun wouldve now need escape everything want insulting voices want pain need die please let die,1 +im sick im kind worried cough throat bit sore im tired nose blocked,0 +need friendsmy boyfriend recently broke me friend cant staybe friends him cuz hurts im looking friends im just turned november th everyone welcome friend would love friends honesty memories makeare gonna make yeah,1 +girlfriend epic heres shes really cute beautiful really pale skin like idk like face body proportioned good looks great shes nice sometimes shes bit annoying everyone usually shes nice makes feel better im sad upset shes generally fun talk shes great shes funny uses dankmemes like thats one flaw besides sends funny memes like talking like idk makes smile chuckle exhale nose sometimes laugh audibly nice name first name charly wont say last privacy fun write cursive pretty named hurricane pretty cool one goes smaller tiny reasons cant think specifically make great like idk say parts individually doesnt sound great put together shes perfect like nothing really perfect perfect like everything flaws like shes perfect like listening love songs remind sometimes ok shes back online gotta go bye reddit people nice day,0 +ready throw towelno one willing help care love made many stupid decisions past situation past really traumatized year old my grandpa commited crime went jail gave emotional trauma barely could get loving he good grandpa passed away cancer years ago still miss now got one girlfriend friends no one cares iam alone said life beyond repair want throw end sick exsistence relatives getting jops getting marry graudate college failing everything year old unloveable garbage really want punch universe face iam sick dissapointed everything,1 +sister pregnanti trying get pregnant five years sister finally pregnant without trying beautiful shes fucking gorgeous shes even better me,1 +online school making perpetually stressed unhappy two days week person remote keep handing tons work dont time dad doesnt let homework weekends always stressed school guessing way homework dont time sit watch videos every class teach every topic thats right dont even learn person self taught least classes,0 +rough couple years grandmother died mother kind mental break abuse escalated terrible years constant yelled violence grandfather started drinking fell deep alcoholism lot violence drinking going long time money lost friends eventually got kicked move year ago almost got evicted worse time life today everything is okay lost sense self graduated month ago got job going college month mothers meds calmed down something within wrong everyday think killing myself even choice point thoughts come me think lonely could sleep awhile thoughts creeped in new job nannying week time sleep entire week come back mothers house weekend back one day already going mad work felt way twice first day so know feel way everything cried self sleep come first time long time okay still want lay go away think would write would write anything find body whether not grandfather remember me questions kids work ask imagine memory thoughts hurting flood in used someone strong knew wanted hope hope gone know anymore recognize person mirror best life years cannot help want end all,1 +slaughter high totally ridiculous slasher flick high school nerd martywho gets pick time prankstersthe prank goes wrong ends getting savagely burnedfive years later tormentors attend reunionjust ten courseand low behold marty murders one anotherbritish actress caroline munromaniacleads cast heroinewho dies anywaythe acting completely awfultheres also suspense allplenty grotesque death scenes satisfy gorefreaksa guys stomach explodesanother female victim literally gets acid batha couple sex bed get electrocuteda guy crushed tractorone girl drownedand doctor gets hyperdermic needle eyethe killer wears decent rather creepy jesters mask settinga beautiful old english castleis really nicehowever dream finale utterly patheticall true slaughter high piece garbagebut enjoyed itonly fans truly bad slasher flicks,0 +bruh found good artist songs depressing hell like voice music good lyrics depressing man like dont wanna listen time edit guys name ethan jewell,0 +although without faults drama fitting one shown around easter time reminded us spiritual selves showed behind facades often hide deepest sufferings experiences much enjoy drama least rapping teenagers provided better musical accompaniment drama rather poor sound score background acting excellent timothy spall superb climax satisfying rather simplistic timothy spalls letting go longdead wifes suicide credible mirrored well feelings despair present teenage girl selfharmed resolution graffiti boy muslim gratifying less believable wonderful drama left husband felling evening well spent congratulations,0 +well course not women overly sensitive needy average interestingly portrayed mother whore though pseudoartistically extravagantly blatantly dwelt on unlike many seen la maman et la putain twice many good films noticed opinion improved second viewing know seen yet delve exploits acquired dvd yet figure precisely enjoy movie much really care why though im sure could form wonderful explanation right may disagree perhaps bit boring times im expert blonde reminds lovely grushenka,0 +miss days nights cold scary man ,0 +overdosing win wineither im going die yay might damage brain enough point stop overthinking everything even better end bedridden life,1 +love drink water drink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water drink water 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water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water nowdrink water,0 +ive mean family years wont care kill myselftoday probably ugliest ever been got let go right xmas lost huge job opp forced go home xmas see mother grandma even tho mom still married man abused me flipped fuck phone now threw after cant take anymore said horrendous things also honest hate much stayed married man abused refuses hear side story going home xmas see grandma one last time go back break ill kill,1 +oding now sorry nicolei saw fear eyes told past used zinger silly argument beneath contempt go great things need go please consider source sewage much better this sorry,1 +going go hospitaltomorrow therapist wanted wait could reassess emotions could get things order girl hang getting admitted shes currently er knows right things say get room makes everything definitely worse do plus dont want knowing details shit theres psych hospital wouldnt hour flight away idk doeverything feels hopeless lately sign maybe im supposed here,1 +wanted talk someone suicidal thoughts one speak tomy depression suicidal thoughts essentially made completely isolated people used consider friend would go weeks cutting people due wanting talk depression so essentially cut ties lot great people today felt suicidal wanted call talk someone realized point absolutely one talk to enhanced idea kill right now know many people would notice realize gone,1 +ah reddit reddit phone app changed onlinehiding function online status onoff like need go back bottom button,0 +guys forgot something help today day cake guys do help ppl,0 +thinkingive wrote many times want kill myself really want pain stop know happen would die oh scared whats come next do know would hurt mother die cowardly sees broken pays mind knew gay probably now wouldnt matter died going hell anyway direction feel unloved whole life never felt anyone wanted cared existence outside blood relatives feel like monster physically mentally homosexuality disgusts makes feel x worse myself hate degenerate feel less person joke mental health taking toll feel anxious state anxiety getting worse depression becoming crippling jealous happy people especially straight envy normalcy lust life know pain people attraction deserve cant keep living like cant see marrying woman hide hard seeing worth used it feel bad redflag knowing people really suffering redflag brings peace remember back mind might suffer eternally wish knew certain,1 +cut finger chefs knife ow filler filler filler,0 +ending right nowwhen knew would switching careers wanted different field graduated university even said ill kill nothing works best field want switch to im already nothings working best make work every day feel inadequate myself think place anymore got months turn leave then,1 +understand whyall ive ever wanted loved thought awhile marriage two beautiful children would again years could longer pretend everything jolly husband worked away home lot used time act still single kids inconvenience anything relationship year thought ready another lonely doubts anyone would want change that man came along online told everything wanted hung fear may never find anyone else want me short lived relationship long enough drive wedge children myself never forgive that since realised quite capable need man order survive children come back cant help thinking scar never heal us interaction far relationships go however never lasted one fellow visiting monthsyear told amazing beautiful woman wished hed met twenty years earlier faded away thats seem do fade away never seen again demanding woman im easy going like argue strong beliefs opinions defend expect man think everything attracting wrong type change right never pretended someone im hold attention me honest good communicator sense humour see positive things people yet sit alone tell wonderful person like first others also happen right feel like im old overweight ugly wanted anyone thats damn lonely place live ive suffered depression many years getting help that able keep smoother path occasional pothole turn bottomless pit anymore never seem able climb see horizon either tend self sabotage go doctor never wanted one complain give poor vibe play feel time hope getting rut tell crisis thing better always another crisis struggle get bed days cant see things getting better even bother whats point kids could fine without me fact take care way around makes feel like burden no felt suicidal many years understand everything take much effort fight everything nothing ever comes easy simple why me,1 +please helphttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentscxdim_giving_uputm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_app rteenagers member end life please anything help may late,1 +want dieas title states it want die ive antidepressants three years now thought could handle since cant afford eventually make enough money get meds wrong cant get job one wants hire person spotty resume im unmotivated anything lost motivation determination work art get things like find lost cat clean crappy apartment makes worse memory slowly fading im barely remember last week roommates say chose different soup day even though sure chose certain one wanted im useless society want end life end coma want stop existing itd better wasnt around roommates would happier gone id cause less trouble id less burden already am,1 +would like surprise friend kindness strangers crowd funding vet bill please take look gofundme url set up donations greatly appreciated even unable donate shares facebook twitter helpful thank taking time read request,1 +sometimes wish got weird dms like im chick ofc get ur basic wanna see dickmessages licks shyly hhi kitten blushes faints would funny dude,0 +never ending trainlife sometimes feels like youre train without destination youre trapped inside cant get out see many wonderful things behind window wonderful creations places moves fast cant focus sun shines upon face little light hope hear people laughing see happy faces new lovers new parents children wonderful life ahead destination youre sitting alone drowning tears everyone living youre surviving feels like im experiencing life way everyday im proud cant change thing late book destination guess sorry ranting,1 +system science told effortless videos guess systemofadown easier metallca ironmaiden httpsyoutubejoxrpjq_humhttpsyoutubejoxrpjq_hum,0 +livehey im fairly new subreddit reddit general came sole purpose venting ill get right it im basically alive obligation parents siblings delve that probably describe myself im short overweight relationships outside family im utterly hopeless cowardly depraved piece human garbage im afraid practically everything thats much exaggeration talk friends sometimes makes feel like people talk to im college want go to studying career really care for again matter much clue want anyway talents hobbies interests complain never time rest get time overwork instead work deadend shitty retail job guess perfect job someone motivation anything used play video games even anymore whine friends im afraid try make friends complain everything never try change anything im already feel like theres basically nothing look forward to constantly constantly think killing myself remind parents siblings would upset died still expectations me expectations cant hope fulfill im planning waiting parents siblings die finally end miserable useless life without anyone remember me luckily im youngest child wait decades fact feel shred anything typing probably concerning conclusion feel desire live capacity sorry length spelling errors,1 +watched movie say impressed creepy numerous moments make jump seat smoke several emergency cigarettes along way calm nerves criticise id say perhaps anything many jump moments got point every single new scene climaxed jump gradually wore away startling effect kind new comingbr br although contains virtually every clich ghost genre done well maintained creepy fearfactor elements shining th sense changeling in particular soundtrack reminded changelingbr br i would highly recommend anyone looking good oldfashioned scare,0 +first post using pc reddit hi typing mechanical keyboard,0 +successful life yet still want end alli excellent stable job making figures beautiful supportive girlfriend house two vehicles yet still think redflag daily basis im american depressing government filled bunch twits care people complain problems seem easy fix yet listen care fix them im atheist religious seems ridiculous me honestly see place world fuck need still here thing keeping parents would devastated go thats enough reason make day,1 +know im like years late im finally watching another defense like half came barely learned ways anime i still cant believe years ago finished episode recover horror great take much time fact episodes at least far end cliffhanger know makes want keep watching end somewhere thats probably best place end every episode make decision either watch next episode deal horror handle think watch next episode cuz suspense,0 +im haunting friends among us rn dont know ban someone im renaming chase call dont speak english,0 +redditor attempted redflagi wanted share experience trigger warning history ive major depression years ive almost every medication still hard still get lonely still get sad ampxb diagnosed make misdiagnosed treating bipolar disorder twenty years later find anxiety mdd things looked minute take medications sometimes felt good felt bad felt bad ampxb one night sad again week showered called work week terrified going lose yet another job due depression drank drank lot got super emotional cause got fight friend felt hopeless death felt right redflag notes written past felt like everyone else selfish selfish wanting die selfish wanting stay like this ampxb tried knife first it hurt bad found razor able cut wrists successfully im blood thinners took whole bottle would bleed out woozy wanted end faster kept going kitchen get medicine ended taking lot lamictal lamictal extremely dangerous large doses know time pee one point tried get literally legs legs fell me walk poisoned severely tried pull arms couldnt kept flipping furniture attempt get back bed vomit pillow slept face it hallucinations started morning alarm started go off screaming mom who cause im adult live alone turn alarm screaming obscenities torturing alarm shortly able crawl bedroom door open realized mom there computer alarm realized blind see anything like one backgrounds see mac thats bunch fuzzy colors crawled computer unplugged would stop collapsed see walk alive ampxb later day mom come find me thought attacked due disarray bedroom told happened begged take back pysch ward stay help heal could go work monday ampxb slowly weekend lot oatmeal bread water electrolytes could walk again eventually could see too monday came go back work took leave absence work knew would happen again ampxb called psych doc left message happened well see two months fuck him found closer doctor better doctor rxed something called tms httpswwwmayoclinicorgtestsprocedurestranscranialmagneticstimulationaboutpachttpswwwmayoclinicorgtestsprocedurestranscranialmagneticstimulationaboutpac ampxb saved life work insurance covered it treatment three psych meds as opposed thought redflag since ampxb read stories see going through hope you find way late wanted share story two reasons terrifying blind unable walk much much better thoughts clear depression minimal anxiety gone ampxb hope ever feel like committing redflag feel free reach me im listen story mine,1 +never problems alone never complained single virgin anything like unless joke virgin dweebtill opened rteenagers saw everyone sad complaining alone started going flow know never cared loving anyone loved would like remind everyone matter realistically think ever love anyone loved anyone said matter sad alone jealous alone society raised want actually 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+im going keep review short sweetbr br i saw trailer thought id give whirl minutes initial thoughts what hell this minutes hooked picking jaw floor film great example different movie be furthermore french film high art eye candy wrapped tidy futuristic film noir package motion capture clever black white animation style grey although first totally captivated end film found wishing every film made like this think opinion helped great dubbing would easy ruin landed many respected actors many voice actors give feeling characters just watch hong kong legends film english see perfect examplei gave although gave extra fresh new whole thing feels,0 +going tonighti cant deal longer hate much im lonely talked another person loud twice past week times called samaritans one know wants around anymore everything place plan work thank everyone sub tried help im sorry let down edit thanks comments people beautiful remember sort new people also need help,1 +ill stop sorry existing lmao,0 +boyfriends friend female recently started texting say recently mean like yesterday girl call aiyaaiya wanting kill self guy dating months dumped feeling depressed horrible right sounds awful saw problem ex kept texting aiya realized problem mostly her annoying dealt type stuff since middle school high school may think oh simple fix reassure convince make changes easy would think genuinely want live said everything needed say says literally everything says wants back thing aiya aware doing knows worth feel shit guy knows giving ex wants see suffer doesent want help doesent want get better know first time come reddit ask advice this pretty good convincing people stay alive whole different caseit may simple talk anymore let deal problems brain let leave even problem needs actual helpits nearly probably impossible convince move on extreme attachment issues seen anyone starting think life lost hers anyone advice wants input would great know report her lives way virginia live utah cannot anything friend trying kill hurry answer anyone please,1 +get pm links sites redflag methods known troll please use message moderators link right copypast pm message us take there please take personally pathetic person apparently nothing send dozens poisonous messages,1 +evolved instead lonely im horny stop horny,0 +want kill myself tired want go sleep never awake reason attempted yet day nothing weeks friendships falling apart affecting relationship negative way evident happy answer every question fine part thinks am feel comfortable place spent long know expect happy scares want end always does tired,1 +yeah im sad hell rn anyone wanna chat f n crying btw yeah message would like thanks,0 +lonely cant take anymorehey moved city couple years ago ive never really felt home fleeting friendships go gang friends reliably hang regularly going long now im drunk gun id end all im sick lonely spend nearly every weekend alcohol prescription drugs wish id wake morning im feel like ive completely wasted last years life oh young could try something different feel like late,1 +drivers license help ive trying reach dmv days one pick phone respond messages either website reddit thought id see question could answered here question apply license road test suspended nc im currently years old wasnt able finish drivers ed school never permit ive hours driving mom believe pre covid year old could apply license nc without drivers ed permit road test suspension im sure true questions are still apply either license permit age road test suspended received drivers education certificate apply road test waiver need one,0 +want stopi want die want exist redflag really means end im sad depressed happy im nothing unfulfilled desires expectations desires expectations already done everything want life nothing left offer me want nothingness im constant pain physically completely hollow emotionally really nothing me fall somewhere unsatisfactory mediocre everything cant care meaningless me life wonderful thing want it dont never asked here ive never wanted here im empty alone nothing offer world im wasting resources could better used someone wants here continuation seems selfish greedy cant see continuing already fighting years would normal life span really want kill myself know another way cease myself wisp background serve purpose want allowed stop here tried killing years ago age thought another decade half everything seems horrid im prisoner existence want out fought urge every day years tired constant weight life becoming much willpower handle want deserved rest,1 +adam thanks telling cant problems dont know honest anymore treat life like equation constants variables ive proven wrong anything attempt quantify accomplish try live life momenttomoment end nothing lack success opposite direction ive disciplined nice mean chaotic ive changed everything many times dont remember used be still outcome always same im alone worse that im desperate shows everything do everyone read like book open mouth shitty feeling know one wants you good enough them anyone whats worse though knowing ill probably settle someone tolerates me id rather own oh boo hoo fucking ric boy sad thats reaction always seem get focus college youre find girl well dont even know fuck you like im allowed problems resent come from like im less are youve rough fucking hypocrite think enjoyed telling folks depressed counselor explained feared safety think like fucking attention like want problem like attention whore remember hyperbolic sometimes im bothered lot questions one im usually centered on think maybe meant alone forever would explain read many things strength takes walk alone see glimpses life id live good company someone loved throw everything learned window desperate telegraphed scramble keep little bit memory time impose reality world forget look is never relationship never intimate level anyone didnt pay for writing know going come around someday looking answers heres one needed find want care anymore want keep failing getting hurt broken nothing rebuild flawed person always was failures shortsighted dreams entomb in care enough pull eject lever enough actually change see wrong myself thought could wait died bury me didnt im sorry that intention problems seem petty everyone know everyone thinks im well means im happy wont today wont tomorrow never shake feeling unless fix this wont get images head put friends pistol head played russian roulette could feel something know keeps it matter timing then initial shock wears off ill use like drug kills me might monday saturday fuck it start today dont want feel alone anymore even means feeling nothing ive alone entire life nobody wants me one ever wanted me feel stuck me tolerate me sickening terms now,1 +fantasize killing myselfi want redflag conscious everyone hate want live everyday knowing killed them want miserable am,1 +wish could give days life could left someone elseid rather someone worthwhile enjoyed living could remaining days life given them waste me almost feel selfish alive people die cancer diseases stuff like that theres many better people could live extra years real good lives others world,1 +redflag depression set back enormously life since started bleeding away since academically socially romantically tried therapy work me believe going genetic history sides family worst part peers slowly pulling away frustrating illness stopping me illness strong cure slowly chips away mejust wanted vent setting back,1 +keep aliveim done crying long story short im friendless exfriends legitimately better without me second group friends drop turned toxic stopped caring me feel like im cursed never legitimate lasting friendship im barely passing classes top dog dying cancer feel though deserve reason every friend ends hating abandoning me means problem last year good year me everything turn shit year may end deleting later,1 +know not work psych field worst day pales comparison others everything get better cant stop crying ended today years know best cant deal pain hurts cant breath entire existence crumbling im dying inside seems like way out it brain screaming jut already,1 +ask crush out ive crush long time wondering make move,0 +school help im really strapped time anyone help two five paragraph essays need turned next hour,0 +sorry need vent ive lot trouble keeping school really bad short term memory quickly forget himework simple assignments even remember assignments troubke finding motivation even turn in think bad cant even find motivation take phone take picture grades starting fall ive hella stressed cant bring dad hell ground fix them know help really want get top things cant get everything together,0 +perceived terrifies years suicidal ideation plans cannot tell anyone know overreact refuse give privacy weeks again makes things much worse know typing this actually intend post it impermanent draft way allow express it want rest want die sick dismissed invalidated bring symptoms parents doctor sick parasite living parents basement tired existing like this soon chance going looking lorazepam hidden me full bottle enough want reassurance platitudes guess mostly wanted say it want die years much coward go it past attempts got found careful enough goddamn tired really know posting,1 +im verge killing race whitepretty much reason im suicidal right race spent another night news website vice reading horrible things say white people try white thing would make want live people hate harder harder read vice article saying ariana grande needs painful reminder shes white madame tusauds figure amount tanning change test exactly imagining youre causing someone pain i doubt ariana gives shit advancing cause social justice all people literally think race biologically genetically cogent real someones race defined genetic test read comment saying transracialism nasty white women like disgusting repugnant human like rotten food vomit existing audacity confused body dysmorphic abused mom mentally ill idea someone wanting change race apparently abhorrent cannot win feel like way find relief would take dna test come even percent nonwhite thats thing could make want go living point,1 +really miss production good old fashion spooky films ismail merchant james ivory given task producing film may one save lack internationally known top drawer cast one films watch alone dark evening pizza popcorn even bother dishes morning want hide covers bravo director herbert wise writers susan hill nigel kneale top production design jon bunker art direction john ralph excellent cast making shudder feel isolated even though im living one populated cities world beginning st century gave production budget constraints television really pulled great show,0 +watched friend said could try it father asked wed watch it want old film could good finally watch friend father friend loved film songs great actors cool crazy it guess shows even though dads time mean cant good film bought film long seeing tv put lot sang along songs even watched classmates birthday party nice good sometimes funny filmbr br if try cant say bad even think no im going watch film dads time try first part film always stop watching like it really recommend it great,0 +others commented somewhat strange video arrangements think trying capture looking attending live performance feet faces overall view unfortunately falls bit short but said that watching colin dunne nevertheless gratifying interesting contrast michael flatley original video progression show evident changes original dublin production evidentbr br trading taps highlight video opinion tarik winston unbelievable partner piecebr br i think audio better version original video production dolby dvd excellentbr br despite flawed videography mustown riverdance fans,0 +enough suicidal note yes youve read righttoday extremely suicidal thinking today tried everything fix issues loneliness self steam college problems etc gave last hope called suicidal hotline talked hour half person called adam thank adam crying writing one within years listened me years old never someone listened problems every single one remeebr last time talked someone long hour half thank adam wish best reading this know stopped one person today killing yourself thank you feel like killing shitty life,1 +heres difference horny horny see cute girl horny man wanna cum face arent horny man id cuddle death,0 +using hard drugs kill myselfi way capable redflag methods read about instead much meth cocaine possible im trying od die im still stuck here confided good friend threatened call police cant tell therapist either hell call authorities me live mental illnesses chronic pain multiple unsuccessful back surgeries feel ive done im ready go side cant believe im still here,1 +looking female wingman must female speciesoptional sexuality important need someone tell thought dating puts girls sudden state disgust work it,0 +triedi cant anymore tried soooo hard please judge me tried soooo hard tried sooo hard wanted someone talk me got nothing cool die every time tried failed ill still try kick im down,1 +whats american heard replace orange guy white guy,0 +whether important important feel strongly woman suicide watch entire world coming right way reacted long video posted online shows strongly unwell right everyone calling racist crazy karenthat fine great beside pointwhether wrong video point concerned mental health wellbeing idk go share concern everyone fuck abigail elphrick bring hey guys get mad angry right now also stop think longterm existence realize may very close suicidal mentality even hate right now please someone something place try help extremely diredflaging time heragain clear cast judgement whether right wrong definitely think fucked up think people imperfect mistakes happen fucking suck make them especially current volatile culture simply saying even though many others believe wrong also aware person care fellow human afraid mental state may attempt suicidei want try remind people struggling publicly shame guilt embarrassment many emotions topped hate receiving right may enough push edgeplease someone anyone can reach remind give up seen video woman abigial elphrick woman dubbed victorias secret karen,1 +sometimes wonder killing way find peaceim years old im working job hate anxiety pandemic gotten spiraling control think im poisoning im keep getting sick cant drink cans bottles cant even eat sweets chips without spraying lysol using disinfecting wipes them im scared getting sick unreal think im subsequently making sick process dads trying get go medication dont think itll help know im lucky others boyfriend loves family tries help everytime start spiral feels like cant help me hell tried vent mom phone started cry saying cant help give im gonna accept help im last year school online cant anything im lower classes bc act score shit everyone around makes feel like failure comparison know im posting this maybe want attention idk im tired waking everyday pm getting ready go job makes feel miserable thing thats given joy engaging kind sexual acts bf feel like piece shit feel sick want over thought moving dads house would make everything better didnt everything feels way makes think maybe way ill ever truly find peace go heaven im even able go sinful things ive done make feel kind emotion feel bad even posting bc know im well others im truly sick living way do feels like theres way out,1 +guys lets get downvoted post reddit believe power stupidity ampxb httpspreviewredditxgqhivppngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafebdfafccaecdbe,0 +call nonbinary so girlfriend boyfriend wife husband,0 +hurts live hurts remind good things lost never come back mei abandoned person held closest heart cannot see reason keep fighting disgusting life left with things never get better worse way much going downhill existence strength make change kickstart life miserable broken condition now trying fucking trying never spent much time talking people trying hard keep mind occupied speaking therapist nothings helping get this even sure want get thisand alone darkness bedroom memories keep hammering many contrasting feelings nostalgia remorse hatred want frustration lovelovei know serious constantly keep thinking much would hurt slice wrists open constantly feel like writing one last message every person lovedi sure endure this woke crying thought ending myself,1 +word thx pronounced like thixx answer amp never asked ,0 +abusive relationship destroyed everythingmy boyfriend six months told needed choose family knew insane thing ask walked door days ago nc since im realizing relationship destroyed much id realized small culture small community culture region everybody knows him telling people crazy family blame leaving me incidentally family might seemed crazy openly consistently rude them ties community stronger authoritative mine longer show face around community house worship or ones affiliated region connected them addition career tightly linked community dependent good relations many communitys institutions destroyed me even going far estrange important professional contacts happens close to making lies me contacts really instrumental helping build career met him developing good relationships people felt happy getting opportunity earn respect him top that pressure man put family caused pull away me say done me become different person even though longer him changed me say want part new person become six months trying separate family i stupidly thought could get point would ok them snapping me saying mean things guise caring me screaming randomly reason finally bad relationship everything life shattered it bright future used be destroyed relationship family career standing community nothing ever good again never thought redflag before cannot stop thinking swallowing bottle tylenol pm bottle vodka ending it last night even took first baby step practicing ive taken unisom help sleep even though know sometimes makes heart feel funny stop breathing night normally ill take mg last night took knew nearly enough kill me wanted see would happen know sounds sick hour went jump bed vomited not purpose unpleasant thing really stopping trying thought might actually survive fucked life work field even little bit brain damage would end career cant afford fail sometimes think what life gets better see could possibly get better relationshipwith man really thought onehas failed also left life shambles thanks reading,1 +update tried hang myself much changed asking help againi posted day failed attempt hanging myself guard rail broke woke several hours later many problems complex ptsdhttpenwikipediaorgwikicomplex_posttraumatic_stress_disorder borderline personality disorder bipolar anorexia improving still difficult therapist ive never told anything never told child prostitute witnessing murder gang raped drug addict hard talk things person hard trust anybody irl information im alcoholic addict hurt everything else year best year life terms target behaviors im still miserable wanted vent thanks,1 +fantastic arabian adventure former king ahmad best friend thief abu played sabu black narcissus search ahmads love interest stolen new king jaffar conrad veidt theres hardly moment here always inventing new adventures heroes personally found ahmad princess little boring theres need ask john justin plays ahmad listed fourth credits conrad veidt always fun actor makes great villain sabu lot fun prince thieves one point finds genie bottle also really loved miles malleson sultan basra father princess collects amazing toys around world jaffar bribes daughters hand mechanical flying horse probably would count one great childrens films time special effects horribly dated nowadays kids certainly deride superimposed images abu genie screen together scene giant spider looks especially awful although younger generation probably thinks king kong looks bad point time willis obriens stopmotion animation thousand times better puppet string even look remotely like spider ,0 +slide dms coward f coward judge,0 +got day planned out really looking forward itfor first time im thinking theyll sad im gone help help got great day planned out favourite food last meal visit escort couple hours overdose heroin simple feels amazing excited death rather something crave scared of,1 +tried od xanax alcohol wednesday lost minimum wage jobi got fired pizza place counting drawer slowly going slowly counted drawer two years working well paying stressful call center job eventually quit mental health reasons previously one said anything pace work pizza place fact complemented customers speed even given tip taking pizza dining area customary business attempt guess say impulsive part really needed pizza job source income right search engine evaluator working home organization work doles hours sparsely standards difficult understand even harder meet everything pay employees arrived home angry fired room mate works home representative call center quit back march snaps going stairs loudly so shout back him person ive known almost years never argument with and best described acting without thinking took xanax room probably pills ran liquor store there got sort fruit flavored vodka cooler downed fast can friend come pick drive house show supposed play memorys bit hazy point got eveyone got clued happening let lay couch people checked breathing next thing remember waking couch next day people seemed glad ok guess obviously play going first show new project mine let lot people down saw therapist friday morning really wanted hospitalize me refused thought worst passed hospitalization would waste time make financial issues worse immediately therapy went pick check job incident manager fired me something im proud never happened before im supposed see therapist monday im trying get psychiatrists appointment moved up therapist recommended increasing lexapro dose guess ive survived redflag attempt now little physical harm consider lucky feel scared guilty intense depression ive experienced since ive meds,1 +people app annoying comes originality like theyll call stolen meme account filled stolen memes like literally shut,0 +overdosed went hospital put redflag watch three days laters im feeling like shit puking guts still want diehello im sure put couple days ago took naproxen sent hospital felt completely fine took blood everything promised lol dont believe myself started feeling horrible yesterday really horrible gastric region hurt bad cant eat anything food disgusting me slept whole two days feeling awful wake morning feeling awful puke did horrific taste disgusting naproxen nasty color reminder dont wanna here nana hold hair pat back told tried killing myself im nothing felt like penny thats left ground nobody wants useless dont know meds didnt start automatically working took all took day half kick in mom bringing hospital still feel suicidal dont know let bring mental hospital dont know do regret taking pills still wanna here,1 +struggling even struggle pointim sure anyone care thought id share whats going me past days ive feeling really weird especially today months since planned redflag thought slowly recovering online friends came goals point feel slipping back was thinking ex used much happier feel like nothing ever again want feel normal again want revert depression bad lately though everything really hitting me hate myself hate living abusive family hate fact girlfriend left slandered name resulting reputation ruined hate broken beyond repair normal anymore good go god complex thinking im seperate special powerful rest humanity waiting rise up honestly though really feel lately maybe try committing redflag solution problems death istrue peace livingis suffering think it almost everything life enjoyable removing pain remove hunger food remove thirst water remove loneliness people remove horniness sex cant seem remove negative feelings though lately feel motivation anymore anything people say gets better people made believe someday life big grand turn around story think so,1 +brother made joke makes clear hes heard sex boyfriend sex house usually brother bad habit coming home earlier expected giving heads up playing vs destiny killed jokinglymockingly called naughty girl said hed call boyfriend come spank its creepy make jokes ton means hes heard call say need spanked want die,0 +note ive keeping plus update todayive losing friends steadily since high school today im two kevin jacob jacob like talking depression calls pansy try get things chest know much hurts im afraid let know risk losing yet another friend kevin listened little better advice outside price range cant afford meds therapy want alone every time try get close someone repel them im downer want find love settle since cant even hold job im attractive one wants me id burden felt loved long family practically disowned since told im gay even ones closest to elementary school good math actually proud it wanted work nasa sort scientist grew ive always dream working nasa reached th grade everything started going downhill would get correct answer idea explain got marked wrong years far behind keep understand anything taught failed many math classes almost graduate high school barely passed minimum amount math credits allowed even though as almost every subject never made trigonometry calculus take algebra every year high school still retain information dispite trying x harder rest class fast forward today im still trying learn material algebra khan academy still cant handle simple problems start understand moment change problems completely forgotten do frustrating cant help cry feel ashamed knowing never reach dreams want learn normally able make decent enough score act get college least begin career conservation feel like absolute idiot failure many people absolutely hate talking around im sure why people kick lives block me ignore time cant even talk mom sister things love talk about listen theyre ones talk anymore cant even make friends xbox one wants play games me friends either ive wanted kill long time since reason never always high marijuana kept smiling cant afford buy anymore im addicted it go withdrawal get run out came home st louis wasted it mostly marijuana threw away one opportunity kevin gave save car college im ashamed deserve friend spend day watching youtube netflix crying wishing dead kevin even offered help find job st louis im afraid letting failing anxiety makes hard hold job anything left live potential turn life around know cant live anymore guess thats take life update depression went away long time almost half year ive sort relapsed though im friends now kevin distanced since wrote top part note jacob moving away too think hes mad too sick dealing moodiness im sure either way im completely alone know long ill spend like this know long spend like this date tomorrow excited kept feeling optimistic cancelled good reason thats that another cancelled date anything going now anything,1 +find need escape something hold attention two hours allow lost another world domino satisfy need entertainment all plot keeps brain motion one movies like usual suspects want see second time figure out wondered domino harvey herself life became interest hollywood acting lots celebrity appearances shown trailers actor makes forget done job well think kiera soccer uniform pirate costume granted mickey rourke plays mickey rourke well often here despite violence shows signs capable caring people,0 +cut self first time todayevery problem happens me makes want cut myself bought pack razors ago cut never really deep cut before touched while today stuff happened made try razors first deep cut today deep enough bleed while weirdly happy closer able cut really hard end life wish things happened made want cut myself new stuff happen small remind shit stuff happening me normally try think hard sometimes feel like family friends trust almost everyone done damaging stuff back stabbed me literally real friend completely trust even know im going terrible path sorry know one cares help get stuff out without actually it,1 +donei tired waking up wake pain want leave world fucked everything life lost friends family hates me drove fiance off everything get worse dealt suicidal before friends helped gone even want fix things anymore point always get worse tired climbing hole fall right back new one must climb of missed plans set everything ready waiting room mate goes work hope finally end time want finally done pathetic life mine,1 +doim seriously done sane part brain wants hold on do call ambulance what,1 +nobodylisten httpsopenspotifycomtracktolatcoedhnghobtczsinvyyzfjtuuzkkpnxmxbw,1 +anyone like fat lumpy dumpy plump double decker patty wacking boy booty cause favorite thing gonna,0 +going die anywayi feel numb ive always depressed casually suicidal im numb nothing feels right ive thinking killing again got thinking even happy killing speed whats coming would want things get better going make much painful hurt people pass naturally truly understand people try convince strangers live reason anymore understand wanting lose loved one extent even seems pointless bit selfish know whats going me feel like im basically waiting day stop fearing death point way end things terms,1 +feeling always come backfucking again im back ready die brain shit really want ect see finally make horrible dark tornado disappear life permanently cant keep living temporary fixes problem life feel way everyone really shit luck ,1 +im going thrift shopping today im hoping find maybe hoodie maybe sweater shirts nice flannel thrift stores near house ill ride bike ill probably pick chicken tenders sonic grab empanadas empanada shop afterwards idk,0 +high speed bullet train redflagsthey might happen rarely hear them seems like perfect method die too stand front train going like mph,1 +artificial immortalityartificial immortality probably invented within life times dont die miss it imagine committing redflag artificial immortality invented next year,1 +feel like push stay awake dont want feel like youve wasted day freedom dont want next day come reason stay til am watching stuff even momentarily fall asleep rewind scene ten times,0 +im tired everythingim anything im tired want end life,1 +literally dont even carecan die benadryl im alcoholic relapsed around week ago got phone wallet stolen whatever try next day right like try sober going well today found whoever took phone put photos messed naked online cool go get beer family member went car took beer beer knowledge shit literally care fuck everything fuck everyone everything,1 +raya new disney movie rather cute im shes plus southeast asian would date,0 +going sound strange but happens social media accounts cousin takes life i wanted see strange reason social media accounts close relative takes life weeks ago something mind reason,1 +exhausted life cannot eat sleep enjoy things used adore everyone keeps saying focus work something myself think exhausted trying to want everything fucking stop moment feel something want happy everything much,1 +saw premier movie phoenix film festival impressed skill director jeff hare exhibited bringing timely topic screen cast characters meshed perfectly allowed us examine issue senior wishing die his terms warm humorous way peter falk brilliant morris supporting group family members friends perfectly cast roles interaction family friends outsiders morris created realistic view families address issue parents aging wishes die dignitybr br although movie ostensibly movie jewish actor family truly movie families jokes family morris crack romp life force nature fresh realistic childhood rivalries adult successes failures hope children integral screenplay many question make topic suicide humorous thought treatment logical timely afraid shed tears laugh quips family struggling issue must see moviebr br the movie awarded best picture phoenix film festival,0 +ive come verdict lonely place werent meant brought worldrelationships forming true friendship love thats weve got lonely people simply dont that deprived natural instinct fuck dont stay awake long dont go bed ill make cup coffee head ill get going outta bed,1 +boy wanna see get creepy dms like girls do hand,0 +say someone feel least say one person one person knows ive depressed long time ive medication years celexa sucked zoloft always told people knew sometimes felt suicidal would try would give go cried thought wanted try good time experience life long story short got abused raped horrific stuff cousin tell anyone family dynamic kinda weird one talks anything important worthless surface chat tell told friend well told self harm first had going years kinda led childhood amazing helped talked hurting shitty twilight letting things id never let feel before told mum year later ask wanted liked never mentioned conversation friend convinced get therapy but leave best therapist world moved found another one trust eventually gave up ive therapy year went psychiatrist thought bipolar apparently im not things gone downhill fucking fast zoloft changed life things good felt like need purpose loved here ive fallen fucking disgusting hole cut needed stiches didnt get feel worthless feel like one ive got one talk thought did everyone asked open up tell tell tell people make easier me keep telling people would get easier somehow fucking huge worms opened promise alright still open nearly years alright friends anymore anyone head filling thoughts before know ill it know ill question ill it know redflag last option everything everything hurts me makes feel guilty causes shit load pain cant feel without wanting end way feel different try work childhood hurts need people help otherwise get overwhelmed it fucking horrible imagine happened let alone acknowledge actually did feel like time coming think cut try make feelings less strong pretty much smoke green every day try dull depression strong black cloud im tired im sorry long thanks read it needed say it,1 + days whoop de fucking doo httpsimgurcomasynkkc still hate life,0 +sick sick foreveri even wish healthy anymore wish pain wish sleep rest im full drugs im person im incubator disease every waking moment far many spent disease theres help one gives shit cant even imagine suffering even could would still problem theirs want pain stop wish every night never wake again theres hope cant go on im forced go on really want die want suffering end theres one way end it life feels like unpaid time,1 +sex cool sike virginity superior stay pure bois,0 +dont like sleep want stay night fuckers got tips,0 +quick questioni atm mg hydromorphone left hand would enough kill take time im year old female weight lbs history tolerance opiate thank time,1 +hit missed guessed always missed huh hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doesnt kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wint missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doese kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wint missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah guessed always missed huh mwah hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa played taking balls appreciation fifa win level youre leader ooh use worked upon whataburger currently pop pussy warner brothers hit missed guessed always missed huh keep boyfriend bet doesnt kiss ya mwah gon found another girl wont missed ya gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah guessed always missed huh hit missed mwah bbbet doest kiss ya mwah gon skrrt hit dab appreciation wiz khalifa,0 +know women want good bedwars partner look elsewhere ,0 +im ugly fuck never find lovefucking kill me point living cant find love one could possibly find attractive even tell personality needs physical attraction matters,1 +somebody please listen tell lit cant one httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvakfwhlgnrhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvakfwhlgnr,0 +genuinely feel like cant get thismy girlfriend together years started dating senior year undergrad recently broke idea im going get this ive verge tears day rush bathroom building people wouldnt see cry already deal abandonment issues support system cause hard open friends family genuinely dont think get this think relationshipmemories ways take life without suffering much im grad school hardest part year cant focus class office nights near impossible dont know do overwhelming thing keeping taking life imagining effect itd immediate family close friends dont want feel anymore know cliche seems dramatic needed say somewhere,1 +drunk texted crush yesterdayy l said hello said hello back hours im extremely hung dont know reply wish luck people,0 +hate peoples lifes suck wanna hear embarrassing story maybe cheer up right listening little pony songs yt reccomendations nostalgia trip remembered really embarrassing thing me like school talent show nobody class volunteered teacher made friend got another friend it chose sing spell mlp rainbow rocks movie btw girls watching back weird tension them originally backup singer main girl handle role took sung little heart got finals lost someone singing bruno mars song something idk sad lost really sung front hella people loose matter prize tennis racket ball poundland oh well ive remembered massive flex people went that power move year old mythic person would again tldr sung mlp song school talent show gigachad move win,0 +hate methat sums up hate me everything me hate want disappear permanently want hear cant stand it sitting driving crazy feel building inside know anymore thoughts place way get stop die cant take me,1 +lost v card know took fortnite card give back fortnite card give card,0 + years since emancipation ive watched cognitive state decline ive agoraphobic years now years ago moved shelter system domestic dispute triggered agoraphobia again felt like constant threat safe anymore moved,1 +school hated here im wondering personally love school see dislike it school good challenging makes learn means go future whatever want understand hatred it school opens opportunities enrolled best way learn maybe school different us im uk surely bad id like know reasons comments edit friends another great benefit school,0 +hello guysi my parents split for lifei trying balance relationship thembut today realised literally one loves me months ago dad spat facecalled everything imagine kicked placetodaymy mum told love want live heri also speech problem blocking i block certain words traumatised mei blocked name numerous times toxicity redflag conflict caused mei feel lonelyi know do whole life mistake,1 +im tiredwhy isnt ok end suffering wish balls now,1 +cant go moreits four months since wife left for apparent reason marriage lasted three years good years life ive trying hard past months ive sure stayed positive eventually id start feel better getting worse need life nothing look forward more weekends long stretch loneliness ive working hard bettering myself working hour weeks pursuing masters degree whats point none makes least bit happy im goddamn tired long week work school get try socialize would even know that instead im stuck shitty town hate moved thought tried harder could make work almost figure salary debt im reasonably attractive im still youngish well paper seems like life better completely lack largegroup social skills thats thing holding back ive tried dating despite reasonable success tinder felt better whats point anyways even start another relationship itll probably end like last one did know need find something like myself reason keep living dependent someone else matter hard look one tried talking therapist couple years back told help maybe talk doctor getting antidepressants ive tried antidepressants before several different brands made tired didnt none made happy made numb id rather die live empty shell every time wind rattles door think second maybe finally come back know wont sad thing last year marriage pretty bad grew increasingly distant id give anything go back that know keep living day bleak last itd easy end it,1 +cant stand quarantineevery day getting tougher even mini routine people around feels like im pest everyone nothing helps anyone driving insane fuck isolation want fucking life back want chance get job start moving forward again dont want slip back darkest pit mind barely scrapped getting alive before ill die go back theres way keep till june later,1 +yo im going bed ill try respond guys wake goodnight,0 +starting felt like loosing breath reason someone took doctor first time found panic attack preferred fighter life never ready accept may mentally sick terrifying feeling panic attack settles down usually day shaking muscles thighs feels control legs foggy loaded brain red burning eyes feeling killed me share explain happening me life kept demanding usually did used cry nights always felt death less painful option end misery face years old daughter drives hellwhy god thought creating life biggest question terrified worried shivering shaking legs fast heart beats foggy mood,1 +factsthe truth depression happens family friends think faggot lame duck hide behind back it wake look mirror everyday laugh humans hilarious way try control mind fuck death actually cant get job im retarded everyone hates fuck em,1 +sexual tension literally seciest person alive would clone date could im afraid id get lost eyes never get anything done,0 +feel worse boyfriend broke mei know whole thing may sound stupid suicidal thoughts boyfriend broke blah blah blah start off ive depression almost years suicidal thoughts time ive tried commit redflag times went hospital twice months ago found guy nice caring always thought would together long time ive never strong feeling someoneever know loved sure love right back found thinking breaking did said lied much got upset lot around himi blame much things arguments caused me also said could find someone better really best person found never meant hurt him guess even realize lying got upset around him really dealing things mentally seem believe thats case swear is care much drew portrait him made bracelet wrote letters basically could keep him feel like worst girl friend him tried hard work keep one love dearly ,1 +want make game like visual novel not cant draw save life tho,0 +love sister sure loves metoday cousin came over me sister cousin hanging outafter awhile went living room watch tvan hour passed decided go back room chat themmy cousin bed sister bed sit down sister rolled eyes continued talk boyfriend facetimei asked about said go die one wants you shockedshe told kill plenty times random like punch facei went tell mom said tell stopwhen went back room sister saysugh annoyingwe even herego kill yourself everyone favorthen walked roomshe always tells this hurtsi usually cry want self harmall mom tell stopshe never anything stop saying harsh thingsi think suicidal thoughts every day lifei want die feel wanted enough stay sister wants die,1 +fuck awards no like seriously every post exploded awards get gotten free awards explain people bombareded even gold platinum someone please tell going on purge final ,0 +want gun someone please send mei promise ill kill anyone except myself already lived hellhole life really wanna end shit honestly please someone send me address panchavati phase lane right side near karond square bhopal mp india,1 +concerned brother drive home tonightmy younger brother senior high school think may suicidal hes depressed my mom died years ago hes antidepressants year two recently broke girlfriend seems kind withdrawn hard know im away college last week facebook status some people strong enough call help texted amp said quote fireman show tv today texting easter awful im hours away college things upset about talking little said made appt psychologist cant get three weeks venting said so call help admitted lied tried give suggestions help depression appt like spend time friends things enjoys surround positive people etc said look laundry list problems feel solvable asked really believes that yes asked are thinking redflag response dont lie response are thinking hurting yourself finally said well called cousin whos social worker said dad take hospital crisis consultation theyll give someone talk assess situation agreed go tomorrow school then said lock pillsguns etc watch make sure hes safe im sure seriously dad taking this cousin called dad bro said btw say suicidal drive home make sure hes ok told dad really concerned threatened come home said would go around take care pills such idk do ,1 +think scary shit think scary shit aight friends sleepover saturday whats scariest thing scare fuc outta dem,0 +struggle hiding low mood act happy not children pay attention energetic loud interesting put happy face work children smiley energetic,1 +email her lives hometown inperson meeting possible think would wise anonymously provide screen shots conversations right bat wait see requests it feel like may one shot want make sure right,0 +oh im bleeding finethe blade bit sharper expected painful get shit brother im fucking useless cant even sh properly mabye go one veins,1 +never get better cycle fucking memories never fucking stop even medication stuck like forever oh god cut wrist really bad need end cannot think going kill,1 +guys need help really great french teacher really fun talk anything judge great quality adult opinion looking ways show means classmates thought good idea would grow youtube channel subscribers mainly students class would mean lot could get lot subs im anonymously thinks luck im karma whoring begging subs guys want sub leave wholesome comment link unlearn amp relearnhttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucul_xramfardnkata,0 +think killing every dayi think say kill yourself every day know why mean im depressed think killing without depressed told anyone confused happening,1 +im afraid would effect never came home againone reasons,1 +lowkey regret dropping even though reason whatever tho another entry long list fuck ups lmao __,0 +dont know im doingi year old almost completed bachelors degree fine art art dont know im doing every thought every action brings conclusion kill myself basement ceilings whic could hang im dont know do drinking feel way every day every second dont know want dont know anything ongoing problem masturbation drive creating anything girlfriend tells one idea doing parents ask make something dont know passions are passionate anything dont drive anymore dont know im lookin for accrued incredible amount debt thesis show may smoked weeed fucjed around think im fucked dont want anymore wrong want die dont want anymore dont want anymore,1 +broooo im kinda embarrassed right ive going around telling everyone im ask measured im literally dot thats kinda embarrassing man ig im shorter thought,0 +gotta keep numbers up hows work coming along eh l why even this for were others noone see it were ourselves bring us down whats point all fulfillment it pay ask questions,0 +found friends years one real life friends know why tried find friends since years literally count many friends had friends feel lonely one ever wrote sms call invite hang needed something me also speak new school completely new country need find least friends lose mind there new school moved year ago new school everyone giving compliments funny im everyone wanted hangout wanted sport team never wanted friends group completely ignored lunch always alone class girls new school girls gave lots attention know least girls crash lots weird things attract attention two even told refused im interested them online friends online friends always want play them im really good game nice funny words redflag option no redflag never option even never someone would support lonely life ive never tried redflag ive learn self motivate escape stress decided find friends lost friend meaned much me like real life friend lost her never find someone showed someone care me actually ive never friend cared much cant find feel like brake tears literally cant live without now im idiot want friend first time fucking life thats weird usally want one life one mattered me one person stick heart her,1 +do girl use crush th grade almost years ago friends friends would talk group chat everyday would talk school good friends like said crush cute funny moved right gonna tell still talked group chats thats stopped talking sent text telling crush her said sweet looking relationship moved anyways moved far maybe like miles away stopped talking recently added discord server talking playing games together feelings back know do wanna ruin friendship anything really say feel way said looking relationship time mean something know man girls confusing need advice stay friendzone cause really wanna ruin friend ship like would awkward us help,0 +mother abusive whole lifesuch hitting me threatening me making fun behind back morei even want live anymorehelp please help,1 +would say film gives insight trauma young mind face family split divorce disaster would highly recommend film especially parents individuals planning familybr br i found characters appealing highly sympathetic multitude dimensionsbr br the scary monster although probably scary adults real hint overactive imagination child facing unknown terrors might createbr br i found film delightful,0 +anyone else get stuck heads like im anyrhing needs full focus get bit anxious start zoning cant focus anything happens much work cant focus anything make bunch mistakes also makes quiet awkward idk hate,0 +told story armin meiwes die kannibal der rotenburg well fuck tell ill banned,0 +tried save collard cat neighbors car want killselfinstead asking called mom come bring inside guess didnt realize acceptable want kill also psychosis reported neighbors car acctendtly hes pissed well think im sure j ,1 +second not animated movie people still refusing surrender roman empire even hilarious first film asterix obelix contre ceasarbr br where first movie got laughs cartooncharacters perfectly brought life without losing cartoonesque identity sequel which separate story comicbooks even better sure ingredients find first movie comicbooks present again obelix still dying taste magic potion gives tribe members enormous powers caesar rest roman empire still enemy number new refreshing elements brought stage wellbr br not setting idyllic biggest part plays course egypt rather repeating movie number one extras added making kinds references movies bruce lee etc new unexpected combination known story comicbook with almost title movie references stuff got absolutely nothing asterix obelix really worksbr br in way movie builds tradition comicwriters goscinny uderzo hesitate bring laurel hardy stage even dedicate entire story kirk douglasbr br if convince watch movie im sure monica bellucci playing cleopatra will,0 +so something amazing happened yesterday job opportunity basically sprang face completed two back back phone interviews owner manager boy next thing know talking start dates pay andi terrified thrilled lucky happened jumping joy desperately need job worked year due covid could great fit me keep coming back much want die anxious failing am depressed am incapable am walked road before gotten cool job dealt redflag days broke weight constant suicidal ideation pattern i others life recognize point everyone tell getting news mentions oh well sure handle time timebut afraid depressed want close eyes never open again know need job please help self sabotage please help,1 +cant seem connect peoplei want badly desperately really whole life put flaws issues people try kind empathetic person brings around me feels like something broken everyone else see except me shitty childhood gave lot character flaws including body dysmorphia social anxiety took years thought worked rest life line thought ready dating intimacy ive tried going bars tinder bumble plentyoffish name it match lot people social ineptitude eventually catches thats that ive suicidal thoughts life especially younger used particular tree would think every drive home work real big one curb never foot traffic long straightaway plenty time build speed anyway past year left feeling lost alone ive ever been afraid people like look like never imagined like am want someone see value me know much offer world around me cant seem convince anyone it last weeks especially hard try tricks taught stay happy helped path healing first place seem work anymore cant stop thinking much want feeling stop honestly even know im posting here need something know what feel like im constantly drowning everyone around much fun life want bother bring down always thought tough person matter hard life kept hitting would keep going smile honestly know much longer can feel alone edit anyone there could really use someone talk to little thats okay thanks time edit please anyone all even listen problems guy girl mongoose care view everyone equal desperately need someone talk,1 +version the lost horizon actually bad film all think problem people like pick musicals especially made s saw film upon original release i ten really enjoyed it music especially burt bacharach always favorite story fun acting good technically excellent sure one two rather silly dance numbers hey cant win em all film video watch every oftenand enjoy every time,0 +celebrate chance alive breathingi linked specific part song always helped felt depressed made want get change something immediately sometimes little things get through parabolahttpwwwyoutubecomwatchvriv_uepbltms,1 +struggling end thisso original plan od narcotic pain meds hypertension meds worry work ill end puking worse surviving thought maybe could od heroin im sure could find somehow way understand oding junk pretty easy oding illegal drug count died commission felony life insurance pay die commission felony right got gun shot gangbangers even antagonized threatened point shot killed me know theres easy way here fact die want make easy everyone need make sure wife collect life insurance want fuck up cant fuck up fucked everything else entire life want one last thing right way,1 +coincidence think not crossover ig credits umov ufreaky_crossing_fan ampxb httpspreviewredditgyojorpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfafefcbfdbebc,0 +go get dsdswii older console start playing games right now seriously go play something it youll blast time probably best era nintendo games especially super mario galaxy series soundtrack gold dont these feel bad you,0 +reach irls im suicidali work everything horrible lately feel like cant anymore need human contact like hug literally anything another human person even like listening make jokes something dont know ask without seeming like fucking freak could post sos snapchat ask someone come dont want seem attention seeking feel fucking bad,1 +want fucking stress inside stop think one way outits constant day day pressure cant fucking take shit anymore ive popped pills thrown up want fucking stress stop feels like im hit ground freefalling every fucking second cant fucking go doctor tell shit fault fault hands know care maybe realized good thing ever get rid nobody ever deal again nothing ever turn right afraid going im impatient it im getting violent myself imagine good itll feel finally over ive got gun im teething end god damn barrel hate fucking much never getting abtter fucking worth it cant fucking take it,1 +advicewith sleeping pills effective take empty stomach meal im also going take wine would assume empty keep alcohol absorbed fast ask want people telling it im going regardless one way other,1 +tiredi dont know crawl hole again worst part end sight time everything ahead get things back track far away im tired exhausted feeling way dont want fight anymore,1 +feel love someone online fuck dont qant shit really dont stresses please help,0 +none less probably going ramble little expecting anyone actually read this using someone talk to somewhere unload thoughts instead getting lost head wish someone talk to actually luxury girlfriend quite literally adored still unfortunately cheated despite best efforts forgive forget wants nothing me says begged stay honestly regret doing lesson learnt lol really deserve abandoned person told would never leave would always love me matter what home life best either recently put hand glass guess explainable accepted version self harm doen proud sometimes feel like cannot help sudden release adrenaline pain kind soothing urge cut gotten worse past weeks mental health definitely decline felt love since girlfriend left me coupled continuious mental emotional abuse home making life unbearable tired getting threatened tired called every name sun tired compared put belittled so fucking tired recently started care less family think me guess good thing yes still make sad get longer feel bad leaving past think attempt rebuilding bridges stage picture going try post feel need vent however brief post may be hopefully help clear head know post best conversation starter honestly lonely right would love friends conversation well never thought would posting here,1 +yall know youre road trip youre like like road trip fun im kinda horny could stop minutes ive car four days let ten minutes privacy please,0 +im edge please helpim deep pain lost last chance getting love life me im trying panic attack feel pain throughout body everything hurts feel like im dying please help way,1 +im going ask crush thursday yeah saw title im fucking scared guys know this wish luck friends,0 +lexapro months fine sudden zero energy started feel like auto pilot talked provider switched prozac really helped little sex drive top issues could still lots sex lexapro beginning think cannot win here something me try come meds low energy brain fog,1 +rapid intercutting scenes insane people asylum montagesuperimposition images vague interwoven narratives hard movie follow apparently man masue inoue takes job porter janitor asylum near imprisoned wife maybe rescue her clearly mad huddled floor vacant expression much time fear misery confusion written face rest time filmmaker switches point view sometimes see vague images side pond drowning baby clutching drowned child tormented something point view shifts mad folks filmmaker uses distorting lenses things showing us mad people see react place swarming mad folks laughing hiding one case dancing frenetically night day one point man tries take wife outside night outside door terrifies runs back cell gradually man slips nightmare hes interrupted another attempt steal away kills doctor many attendants mad folk laugh applaud wakes relieved mops floor fascinating shots japanes life streets buildings s,0 +parents tik tok delcaring newborns sexuality tf babies even sexuality,0 +kicked house two months ago maybe left it know got argument mother trying leave stepfather grabbed started hit me fought back older sister side helped him barely bruised left knew would deadly next time pretty sure choice mother yelling crazy left first tried move father talked years except one weekend weekend went well told loved thought still child thought could go him told escape ended staying best friend next year graduate still full year taking space cannot even get job identification going hungry days want ask food know money responsibility mothers boyfriend alcoholic gets drunk yells gets violent afraid one day going remember exist going remember trans going remember homophobic know college good school get good college know fill applications information parents school told worry fafsa said anything actual college feel alone want someone talk someone cares nobody tell to best friend knows wonderful kind person comfort others want it would much simpler die matter anyone feel like lost hope becoming successful person know anymore would easier die,1 +mandatory evacuation order miles right evacuate too feel like might need to getting nervous,0 +whatever like kill yourselfi think like age nine lose innocence someone hand kids cards says welcome life sucks people stupid make mistakes worry fucking too lucky might able reach age oh know drugs sex fun try later on theyll complicated enough satisfy desires fuck knows life age heck one really ever gets know theyll future expectations lose em much fun can love friends family many strangers can best person feel be treat people want treated learn many mistakes make believe sort god maybe even atheist matter theyre atheists believe one less gods everyone else make sure god good works or least good works avoid fucked people much possible avoid drama distractions possible can forgive many people possible avoid selfish wasting time feeling like victim one life dead nothing go heaven hell anything you today today might even last it heaven bullshit aint good enough awesome might see see people hate go hell wasting time hating wasting time wishing hell karmas bitch worry catch them live life happy afraid starting again redflag also stupid everyone thinks it everyone gets point get pissed alone like everyone you happy you let circumstances people define happiness happiness might futile pursuit times better wallowing sadness like everyone posting fml facebook status updates afraid ask help sometimes hug conversation helps world feels heavy shoulders stop breathe take break worry sleep early wake early start day again want live live accept suckiness all enjoy little things sometimes thats got short response friend edited fit forgotten things,1 +im tiredi feelings day days kind listless drift events day sun goes start think get angry myself dont like anything myself dont appreciate life wont let happy im tired want rest,1 +hate furrys stand explain comments clear yes furry,0 +bought rope tied noose angry everythingi posted couple times mind changed one bit returning trip got sick spent whole week bed able muster energy kill myself now however bought rope learned tie noose prepared towels wrap around neck make whole ordeal least little less uncomfortable today ill go woods scout good secluded tree tomorrow night go it closer get angrier become become worlds biggest loser poeces shit get happy successful broken alone others get fulfilled ive depressed long wasted whole god damn life cant live shame loneliness pain anymore fuck everything everyone,1 +test tomorrowwowwowo wanna dieieieeieeeieiei,0 +alive kinda sucksim seriously done alive everyday think killing myself end suffering cowardly am nothing wait night time sleep forget everything ive tried therapy meds everything nothing helped seriously considering redflag good reason live,1 +writing something positive day day currently way airport actually physically boarding school im going im really excited tbh ive ever attended school online students physically campus im missing stuff time zone difference meant start school yeah im excited finally going,0 +honest would wanna see massive star wars harry potter lotr avengers movie together,0 +literally used look deep down hoping turn around looking bleak think talk enough much depression ruins looks,1 +might well kill sooner cannot fucking take living another stupid worthless fucking day hate alive every second passes meant claw away damn skin reach bone every single day waste time enjoy second it cannot take point,1 +notive never used reddit idk im right yesterday community im ganged one kid screen shots made seem racist idk theyre real wanted say wait theres blurry screenshots next hour horn notifications reasonable many calling aid racism defending condoning racism one would listen me people ive friends years ostracized decided since think im defending racism im garbage person cant friends combined plethora things pushing towards edge dont want die apparent nobody wants live didnt want leave family debt wouldnt hesitate hang better lives,1 +wish way know people would care diedi feel like matter enough would impact anyone family friends coworkers idk im alone time keep seeing redflag prevention articles like imagine brothermomdadfriend found you really relevant itd take days anyone even notice something happened really relationship people live one ever initiates conversation me biggest thing stopping something thought traumatizing person ended finding body succeed want end sort permanent injuryillness tldr could die tomorrow itd take days anyone notice let alone care gone,1 +day recommending songs like rteenagers httpsyoutubefthaaxxmm text post get removed,0 +thoughts killing methoughts couldve been couldve happened instead things end relationship over like that maybe put much emotional 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beginning th school year started talk lot since classes together eventually got bit crush her friend subtly told likes well screaming th hallways says made happier since im th one person genuinely loves her couple days ago mother found us dating told break me eventually told wont th stress broke even left two days k imma go kms now came back said mom stopped went therapist never got update went friends running ideas ive decided turn reddit please help me,1 +changed banner hot right ________________________________,0 +man close fixing sleep schedule sip sisters green tea still wide awake hours later,0 +cant fight anymorei overwhelming feelingdesire hurt kill myself want end want anymore,1 +cant stop thoughtsi want dead im scared know right way to wish could go sit somewhere get painless lethal injection go sleep im sure else say ive written note hate guns want painful im ready go,1 + dollar sucky sucky double fun ,0 +never ran away really want to want get away family thrill playing extreme game hide seek may sound psychopathic want everyone looking weeks later cops find hanging corpse want go gas station load snacks think getting courage end all sure posting this really want get place think of want run away hang,1 +give one good reason livenot reason die because familyfriends stupid stuff like reason live reason die one good reason live thats ask,1 +im fucking stupid futile beginningthere hope us know everything knows everything me except jealousy feel her best friend one feel would kill for im stupid jealous knew nothing friendship would come still kept holding reason every time messages someone want die cant that family her friends ill resort getting inebriated cant feel pain cutting pain heart goes away let die already,1 +redditors realize videos hot tiktok seriously like tik tok isnt bad u literally make ur tik tok page whatever content u want,0 +tried failedmanaged get two dates decent girls got ghosted one night stood girl honestly start getting full feeling like im ok something snap back reality dont know bother anything thinking something drastic cant stand life anymore,1 +mood rn drinking water wine glass bcs glasses dishwasher bcs lazy self lazy wash dishwasher bit late,0 +know anymore going therapy years feel like nothing working taken meds past couple days wish could happy without taking pills feel happy so going town two weeks tell love way love me young already fucked up brother fucking died last year due choking game even fucking suicidal perfectly healthy brother kill cannot fucking pathetic care anything anymore giving everything up staying bed day get guys kms get summer job school starts productive shit want fucking exist anymore tired crying numb want end happiness short lived wish could walk room immediately see possible ways could kms want normal like kid worry bring show telli feel bad younger self sorry grew monstrosity innocentam even real anymore cannot decide completely give try hardest,1 +gt_gt __________ 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+thinking it logically entire world falling apart anyway point staying humanity mess climate change happening right now everything terrible holding husband family kitty friend enough holding for holding for,1 +sorry post orderdetailed tired keep revising write post think harder get mainly putting comes mind momentive felt way around years never really motivation make post unsure doso experience anhedonia daily mostly feel numb without sad unless start thinking appearance things life hard time remembering thingslearning motivated get certain stuff done also anxious tic makes jerk neck around people minute feel somewhat apathetic comes dealing people emotional connections really still feel lonely sometimes hard talk people tried catting people reddit apps end always getting ghosted pretty much given since going go dead end roadi find hard return calls cousins want talk check mei sit room playing video games daywatch videos etc pass time go sleep leave house drop packages people buy cards ebay tried going walks picking new hobbies playing family puppyetc nothing really made feel happy make day end fastermy mom keeps asking going get girlfriend wants grandkids says occasionally feels kind insulting me tells handsomeetc fat dude average face mental issuesi want get multiple cosmetic surgerys saving cards selling job possibly get interview goes well getting done would definitly boost mental health espeically comes meeting people irli talked mom sure would ok idea someone cutting face open moving things forwardplacing thingsi trying lose weight past year gained back due recent event makes want shut even morelate night march th tried rifle shooting heart ended jerking rifle left accidentally hitting sister hand wall plan anything compuslion thoughtssince event gained around lbs pretty much weight lost year became suicidal read report court trying charge attempted murder accused hallway whatever reason blind enough see hole wall sending investigator come take look making feel little better still like shit never trouble lawetc life possibly thrown straight toilet saw therapist zoom around month talked problems longer see cancelled talk deep issues last week assuming never told thoughi think going get better without taking something keep going longeris possible get medications without seeing doctor person brought mom one time cried never talked think wants medicatedagain apologize wrote order detailed make sense want get motivation tired thanks reading depressed possible get meds without doctor wall text,1 +made cult guess know happened made joke one thing lead another cult would like join rcult_of_fuji name suggested another user thank whoever,0 +remember college professor commenting disturbing film was reflecting apathy adolescents this generation xbr br in way us products consumer culture high school kids spend time drinking getting high wondering body left riverbankbr br what would today would things different important questions excellent scenes keanu reeves dysfunctional family lives with year old brother going get wasted mother idea do spends time drinking boyfriendbr br this film bit time addresses problems lower class american society kids outlet available dirtwater town interesting social commentaries presented solutions ,0 +redflag pact time commit redflag year know life improvei made pact life doenst get better time hit commit redflag realize good gets way going get worse out one storm worth whethering quality girlfriend two closish friends within one year im going end it cant tolerate loneliness anymore world cheapskate city feel like owe loyalties hang there tried already feel like ive experienced last vestiges life offer beyond endless sea torment waves longer enjoy life people beneath me feel like ive placed wrong age redflag seems reasonable years time nothing improves,1 +bored unhappy alone quality earth declining rapidly want out want alive anymore,1 +dont knowits much cant handle anymore but dont know want die want everyone everything stop hurts much,1 +know solution sometimes hearing kind words help short term especially crises more need quick pickmeup rfreecompliments really amazing place sometimes participating complimenting others help feel better tooplease come join us rfreecompliments,1 +went va help even called veteran crisis hotline one available talk two months va hospitali told bother scheduling appointment called veterans crisis hotline,1 +posting cheesy pickup linesday picture show santa want christmas,0 +life questions life moving hella fast anyone else quarantine recent high school graduate like feel like im missing life experiences,0 +guess chicken butt filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +want better person ive done past let meive kept secret several years know admit anybody without getting kind comment telling deserve die feel told family members would make feel disown me im turning less month year ago ive done things think people would discard something put jail life clarity killed anybody feels close deserves sentence ive said terrible nasty things people fuel twisted fantasies never wanted hurt anybody never felt like talked somebody something purpose none irl online chatting ive gotten point regret much tried killing month kicked friend group word spread around feel like immorally wrong im past point redemption want end psych ward either already know knew things awful anyways think would get caught did luckily exfriends agreed long seeked help fixed could leave that last year ive sat ass jobless scared might able make better place die theres hell feel like theres strong possibility might burn since last attempt plan anytime soon every day think might getting better demons remind used be feel like impossible kill side me awful demented deranged side still haunts day want out feel like find sort resolve might slip back suicidal tendencies another year so even know ill find answer reddit want hope theres somebody like might able help find new life life worth living right see hope cant forgive cant get forgiveness people ive hurt used,1 + money career aspects friends loved ones said live see another winter last year covid came around really mean iti left last job year half ago decided id live savings long could end life useless degree skills cant even get job gas station socially awkward good lying cover fact ive long employment gap used want write books one finished three years ago painful failure cringe thinking it anyones sad passing theyll drink beer get soon enough way always been,1 +want way bodyi cant stick weight loss goals eat much im repulsive people weight especially men either ignore want get away me need get body redflag way need fucking commit cant fucking commit anything could fucking commit diet wouldnt even need kill wouldnt ugly lonely way im going get,1 +need advisei pray god every night take life instead someone really wants live guess good enough still here guess answer prayer almost lost battle last days committed redflag rd time tired really know get rid suicidal thoughts me,1 +god really gave juicest bounciest boobies wet phat plump scrumptious pair lips cheeks clap walk teeney tiny waist said make work perfect didnt ask made way,0 +code geass watch it filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +anyone care mei disabilityim burden society familythey dont want cant workif run awayi wouldnt survive one dayi friends disabilitytheyre going kick cant take iti feel fucking unloved detested,1 +im big disappointment disguised human beingi know exactly wrong me know one thing sure cant function properly like people hear mom time cant disagree saying right disappoint even try best head hurts lot want end all feel like shit dont want disappoint anyone anymore dont want go anymore whatever hell is want sleep never wake up,1 +fucking hate teacher swear fucking give activities grades higher use excuse ohh special class everything people replaced research subject research instead makes us bullshit essays random shit fucking teacher incompetent fucking quarters still grade oh yeah forget school uses facebook fucking messenger give zoomgoogle meet links,0 +everyone leftsince two friends left college days ago downward spiral ive angry depressed angry depressed constant cycle currently anxiety attack type this th days ago another friend left college albeit much closer none said goodbye one left saturday even said shed stressed want another thing deal with know said much worse meant still felt worthless like another thing deal with know see way ill get that thats feel have since th numerous thoughts redflag more usual thoughts much vivid prolonged usual ive talked two left th several times since talked mean everything talking yelling getting really quite sorry today reconnected someone talked long time told im feeling specifically friend left saturday made feel well friend went told friend left thisshe messaged talking since friday i devastated talk her message shocked hurt would think care told consider point view ive tried really have seem bad told first time thought selfish really hit hard try selfish hate might be anyways message brought current anxiety attack im waiting reply message sent back trying explain andor apologize know kill myself strength it wanted type and selfishly get words encouragement anything really feel like im toxic friends left college every time say theyre something get depressed angry feels like nothing nobody nothing do everyone else everything please help meplease,1 +feel like one way enddo ever feel sanity slip im aware depression feel stupid thinking wouldnt come back,1 +psa part alcohol get party see alcohol try consume little amount possible underage drinking cool think is driving definitely stay away drinking driving dangerous think,0 +disappoint loser person venting structure wall texthave never used reddit before honestly dont know anymore highly unlikely anyone see give fuck wanna get shit chest currently student seems like everything going wrong online classes completely screwed clue recover grades used thing even remotely good me problems minuscule compared everyone else im even suicidal wish never existed im lazy fuck zero drive whatsoever get life back together friends nothing genuinely makes happy im even adulthood yet cant even survive full confidence real world im going struggle even more loving family fucking hate myself im disappointment failure sister parents hard working im exact opposite shame eating inside motivation dont care enough fix it hate shit feel like im attention seeker im making mockery people real struggles dont depression want commit redflag wish never born wouldnt disappoint family parents got therapist didnt help slightest cant open people felt bad wasting money theyve done everything im lazy hopeless nothing works point dont believe anything help me going cut here im repeating getting nowhere anyone read whatever fuck wrote hope dont relate way sincerely hope things 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first time tonight almost feels like right passagei much time type ill cut chase im feeling depressed tonight sketched drawing strangling someone no one particular labeled victim everyone thought strangling took towel strangled it felt great pulled tighter felt lightheaded immediately needed lie down fell bed that body started shaking uncontrollably little bit attempted strangle hated vibration feeling stopped feel stupid also kinda laugh attempting it never attempted redflag before guess feel kindaproud myself know sounds really messed strangling somehow made calm down plan telling anyone irl messaged friends groupme hour ago telling im feeling depressed almost send christmas theres way want ruin everyones christmas telling strangled myself might tell january maybe not,1 +seriously thinking taking life everything needed too stilla days ago pretty dark me still cant find decent enough job enough hours start saving cash think lost last friend one call text broke down stop crying hours while started packing bag warm clothes water got paper wrote notes even one friend stopped talking me left house outside waiting sun go would try end life made sure letters secured book bag made sure phone already called hit send made sure id cards bag knife hand staring mid mind started go own imagined long would take die lying woods bleeding out wondered long would take police ambulance show pushed send thought mom would react found out wondered friend would even get news took life thought whether vision would go white fade black brain really mind fucked put thought forefront everything well going this hit me stopped tracks paralyzed completely still minutes what fuck mean this believe god heaven devil hell believe ill turn ghost haunt body family friend would dead wanted fear pain would put through knew would giving peace cant accomplish stayed alive would over came home everyone else came home not like would noticed gone days put everything away still letters sealed envelopes knife 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slog get joy it fake cling escapism fantasies real world rough unforgiving desire something unrealistic wish could child abused wish could happy child forever nothing child makes experience satisfaction joy im willing put hard work adult easier escape im going stop eating maybe body ive dragging long either start making food desirable keep alive ill start starving either go hospital die maybe im selfish dont care anymore im tired existing things people im tired it cant escape better stop existing,1 +someone explain people like anime cant see people like much really cant understand people like much,0 +cannot stop thinking muscle man tiddies live rent free mind also teeth hurt idk,0 +got gaming pc basically ive wanting one saving up last night parents said going costco get brisket got bought gaming pc took best buy get monitor setting tonight love much,0 +movie pretty good is unreleased producers cut favorite movie series original jamies story handled differently death scenes done times 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found full time job shithole apartment rent around year living wake force bed take bus work keep head listen podcaststhe reason writing bullshit depression social redflag amped since moved here every day convince hour two everything okay working mans lifeso reason say stuck position cannot seem make friends good conversation even try hardest matter much cocaine booze nothing changes fact fucking cringefest talk to really know asking guys say want hear stories opinions hope well wish best stuck,1 +exam preparations stressed due exams year havent able study well parents working home work usually studied also online exams easy usually memorised chapters didnt retain anything now starting revision barely recall anything done year please share tips,0 +believe germany ,0 +cat got house hours fucking sad really pushed edge love much worried her come back know do want die bad worst day life,1 +hey you yeah mean bud look beautiful today love you please enjoy day need help anything dont afraid 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account spill life story entirety internet make previous betrayal though hide ss somewhere post onto point whole show ive pretty suicidal lately ive multiple redflag attempts multiple mean thirty ive came close four times dead winter one morning walked middle woods drank bottle liquor took coat off changed mind almost make next impossible get back move next one drowning myself overdosing vsed point im early thirties ive lived life people live theyre fifties due incompetence mother ive lost siblings sorts nastiness sister managed kill alcoholism age four years ago jaundiced hell back organs shut down went coma never woke up mother let get away drinking since ten well letting sorts people house used hard drugs her sibling got wrong side law got less deserved second born lot problems growing up lot mentally challenged made life really hard always told everyone family ill end ditch someday ill living bridge constantly berated belittled always told reason hard time lazy trying hard enough told actually sick even more get distinct impression ever viewed possession mother refer collector anymore acquires things pretty look surrounds things boast make personal shortcomings done entire life knickknacks animals pictures children house except childrens pictures would always lament fact cute grew raised servants forced massage mothers feet back neck well scratch back didnt wed grounded guilted would change cloths middle house bathe use bathroom door wide open siblings allowed walk around house naked midteens almost never food reason always money budweiser wild turkey pall malls sheer amount abuse went on itd one morning sudden bedroom door would fly open mother drunk hell screaming get living room there would yell sisters half hour everything could demean us got point id wake middle night slightest noise ready hop bed defend myself live alone still wake slightest noise bedroom door always locked im sleeping night one point took stand told asked beer money no going give her assaulted me last time unable work completely utterly always told mood disorder get crutch one deal bullshit got disability paid debts suddenly mother demanded money getting saying owed it point life im longer contact family made attempts keep contact them reciprocate ive come realize strong chance never cared much begin with one even called see im alive number live alone im ton government programs keep going since im able work feel like ive failed society whole better am even though know people would dead worse everything ive through cant even handle minute levels stress without full blown break down people raise voice normally end breaking tears shortly after im constantly depressed im hardly able take care struggle remain functioning jump noise constantly reassure people gas lightning plotting me cant room without back wall able see points entrance sleeping speaking sleeping fear going bed anymore night go sleep experience dreadful dreams feel actual pain im either reliving experiences past brand new fresh kind hell like last night dissected alive awake excruciating every night additionally im often alienated lot social groups due political beliefs sexual preferences current climate ive told im traitor monster someone go hang themselves someone never loved constant lot people im moderate conservative also suffer gid identify woman asexual im kind shafted three different directions there clarify mood disorder rapid cycling manic depressive so short im socially isolated multitude reasons ive started question would better dead longer drain societies resources someone fixed get help need amount pain go intense im constantly paddling keep head water feel like cant get well enough go back work here friends helping get mentality around surges back want assistance rest life get worse get older reached point im considering getting certain things done ensure outcome want know is ive wards dozen times life sure hell going back again see case worker therapist week along nurse im attending groups im wind here want live way rest life place kind money cant get past this additionally im well educated im pretty cool fucking woman im also good looking even though like body cant deny good looks im lacking self confidence im blast hang with many people going even consider potential partner im horribly crippled mental illness ptsd gid ontop fact job substantial income speak of id also like clarify conditions stated diagnosed professionals entire rant im sitting wanting go bed ill go im asleep torn starting vsed not also lied again put ss here forgive me,1 +wish girl squish guys butts without rapist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +life shitbasically title humanity shit oh go this redflag logical solution issues time ever feel anything like happiness masturbate pleasure soon im done hatred life comes back wish aborted want stop im pussy fucking end it need end it,1 +tiredi seriously know much time care have 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unhappy life fucking hate family future look good either think im ready go know how want sisters grow like me want protect them way,1 +im scaredits two years since attempted redflag help received leaving hospital nothing stopped going psychiatrist therapy sessions months later went psychiatrist felt didnt believe word told him treated waste time problems werent severe therapy felt wrong me could never open up havent okay whole time ive self harming bathroom recently starving myself waking morning hell got call boss asking come back work monday agreed back monday wont even live see sunrise tomorrow leaving world today third time charm right,1 +broke bug rule minei m cried someone yesterday close fuck supportive im embarrassed told dont want anymore im sick saying im okay people worry pay attention it told sit town hoping bloke come beat up starved days laying bed staring ceiling wanted die right there dont know im better worse it,1 +whats favorite food cook something dinner know cook,0 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last week meticulous plan sorted finances picked outfit wrote notes bought presents spoke good friend without telling felt suicidal saying mental goodbyes friends felt renewed purpose stay alive lasted two days keep planning things live for follow disappoint people involved dont want ruin holidays upcoming birthdays making sad absence would cool finish uni project prove can theres good window april realistically plan may work it winter get drift,1 +physically cannot commit redflagi tried commit redflag couldnt grabbed biggest knife house took upstairs entire way there kitten affectionate ever tried stab heart couldnt maybe im weak maybe knives harder use thought were left little scar tried dig scar knife matter hard tried couldnt get deep enough tried throat couldnt cut throat either tried hard would leave red mark parents would see it eventually gave played kitten instead pretty stupid try commit redflag halloween anyways costume wouldve gone waste dont access guns rope dont think really commit redflag now unless could jump high place place think house kinda hard describe im sure high enough kill me dont wanna risk getting hurt without dying wanna die end pain dont know now,1 +imagine crying alone bdayi knew gonna happen cant one day off,1 +hey whats yalls favorite pokmon jolteon gang life,0 +ever wanted every single meme ever inside total war ive found called planet war mod bloody incredible thats say oh also heres link youtube video linkhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvcy_dltg,0 +warning going long asf idek seems like always getting left behind going senior year thinking computer science uni two problems admission grade required grade idek want do school game collect many good grades can rlly good it pretending passionate science since said make money something like art since pandemic happened grades slipped little get wrong still good going s s good enough apparently get university like competition increased mean back day need much get in stuck place cannot imagine 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grandmother particularly harrowing form cancer left shell person less three months girl thought would spend rest life left life feels like going nowhere graduated university getting degree course used enamoured cant find single shred happiness within it daily living seems tedious ive changed routine moved countries careers yet feel like im going motions every day struggle meaning life struggling comprehend point living every sun set reminds eventuality death moonrise illustrates futility life tedium waiting eventual inescapable end thought getting better indeed am yet mood improves pain broken heart recedes left wake ashen remains past hopes dreams know wont it equally know well may put situations eventually come ill allow way unfold ever come find me,1 +knew nothing film watched it brother fact suggested take look normally suggestions much cop however stuck something watch watched itbr br well cut long story short give br br the film centers around two people meet whilst lodging place 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become reckless behaviors lost satisfaction joy helping others uplifting them volunteered crisis text line still find wondering pointless help them start wondering allowed selfish even plan redflag would consider ways make look like accident save others truth die way organs could salvaged others live from become okay selfish want someone cherish love me kind selfish clingy desperately claw onto someone love feel like im desperate ok someone want selfishly myself feel like im chained im thinking others first ok greedily selfish hate every thought wanting reach feels like attention grab cry night missing people life lived far always others feel alone people say arent are touch hug kiss skin deep feel know alone cannot share feeling mine ours thought understand point me wait struck taken death step step closer death accelerated recklessness know need life know want get nothing,1 +feel civilization going collapse within lifetime starting affect sanitybasically spend lot time rcollapse ive come realize world reach brutal horrifying end im still alive already starting affect mind im starting spend time paranoid im always afraid especially family feel like end turning nutjobs destroying life im already starting think offing escape it but also know may overreacting do motherfuckers sub worthless wax poetic amazing unique amongst last humans give fuck that just please help me cant take this,1 +lets combine art style anime girl appearance furry i mean catgirls fuck shit would ideal girlfriendwifemother children,0 +dragonflies why r big long normal idiot insect spiders gotta b attention seeking ,0 +walkeight years ago walked two miles old abandoned church cemetery cold rain put two grain hollowpoints smith wesson spun cylinder put barrel mouth pulled trigger click remember walking back guess did suffered abuse depression chronic pain life given up hospitalization lots therapy better meds better still struggle best support system wife son daughterinlaw dog world would right back graveyard again hope guys find right formula keeps graveyard too,1 +miss dog so dog together long time great memories him mom step dad getting divorce step dad cheated mom got hiv so got divorced step dad took dog started losing money got fired job so step dad put dog shelter even try give dog back me called dog shelters area none husko ive sad know deal losing husko supposed deal this,0 +attracted celebrities crige attracted anime girls scientifically attracted celebrities peson attracted simps bothers them never reach somehow possible one trillion chance crush na celebrity seeing canvas art flawed person might completely fake anime girls exist simps bother her never reach everyone knows thats truth crush character literally see whole character show literally get know her literally flawless,0 +dont deserve good thingsand never happen im trash,1 +im hitting hard restart life long ive aspiring content creator ive always tried making online presence known recently ive given actions 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common often unspoken family dynamic without resorting hyperbole sensationalism fact film deceptively low key outset br br in addition providing probing look one family and extension every family block also chronicled specific period recent history know intentional unavoidable due archival contentbr br highly recommended,0 +want future im tiredi want live long brain adapted redflag plan cant envision future past certain point cant imagine hope god im dead then really fuck good living anyway work sleep die thats all everything inbetween complete variable even worth it life nothing would keep want keep ever finding bullshit reason stick around let fall stupid reason im better fools dead set killing chickened clinged onto phony reason live want still drive to im tired want rest good,1 +dog died today reason still worth livinghe already really old years already got sick two months ago bastard poisoned food ate it result also half blind half deaf hes since puppy memories coming mind im getting really depressed suicidal thoughts coming back stayed away months thought overcome no think ive hit rock bottom now want die now dog kept alive cheered bad days know im going im also pussy know balls kill myself,1 +reddit brotherinlaw threatening commit redflag following break up help himhis ex called worried him wondering short term make sure harm good interacting him appreciate responses,1 +earlier learned sriracha sauce spelt sriracha siracha whole life complete lie,0 +parents supposed understanding caring dont know hell happened mine fucking despise children much fuck use condom first place fucking idiots,0 +anyway see therapist without parents knowing older friends might drive washington state helps,0 +something lost itfreshman year college group friends would always hang talk to either another part country life intersect anymore try join new groups im always outside looking in getting ignored part one group could fit wont see people know getting relationships sex obviously probably never either matter much want to know everyone looks back college fondness feel life peaked freshman year hate life now see getting worse im now know it ill year old friends virgin never held girls hand nothing fun look back college whenever finally die like school im starting like work help seems like everyone else lives friends stories experiences im sitting wasting away every time try make new friends amounts nothing see point going know theres shit loneliness failure compared others rest life also older get feel humiliated never sex relationship ive using ok cupid lead anything reminds one would ever want me know rambling hope someone understands seems like would best get run train avoid shit,1 +friend killing rt now please helpmy friend bars xanax g coke super high tolerance wants die clean year breakup this do think kill gets eventually im canada anyone know please let know asap idk long has get put drunk tank something,1 +failed even kill myselffailure,1 +lot people talk say theyre prolgbtq didnt know could go professional,0 +advice needed visiting suicidal person hospitalive asked go boyfriend see niece today hour hospital attempted redflag week two ago taking antidepressants second time hospitalized suicidal thoughtsattempts since december last year feel may largely due parents issues getting divorced time period two us especially close im really sure say expect ive never type situation before told cant bring food cards anything really maybe wrong sub anyone words advice,1 +goodbye swim unsubbing now feel like new man think stay wallow depressing thoughts bring back down thank everything done me every little comment helped got am so goodbye sw ,1 +sneaking advice lmao mom always said want go cuz im mad need space need tell first let go friends ive found walking really helped clear head stress basically everything recently ive enjoyed going long walks catch sometimes ill think night need go walk wouldnt allowed passed certain time basically long story short advice sneaking incase or someone else may need it,0 +feeling despondent right,0 +join skribblio u want heres link httpsskribbliohdnweuukcahttpsskribbliohdnweuukca,0 +one talk toim probably going post lot vent feel like read last night sat dark shower blade wrist min first wanted touch wrist blade redflag attempt sat like that started shaking pressing blade harder skin bc really wanted it im supposed enacting safety plan feel like but cant bring seriously talk anyone this im afraid tell husband therapist ill sent back hospital really really dont want that,1 +thing is matter anyonedisclaimer may lot rambling need someone hear me im actively suicidal think frequently ive always someone ton friends even high school girl friends two boyfriends time them best friends ive acquaintances seem get along almost everyone one ever wants close me never problem comes finding significant other one ever wants friend one ever seems want spend time me awhile reached people seemed connection with anymore text them blow off happened many times cant even handle rejection anymore everyone family cares them might think mother cut ties heard somehow started smoking cigarettes told if im going kill going watch it years ago always close dad stepmother months ago decided happy away exboyfriend left guy get back together him please father say least got nasty text message said needed return car borrowing said mind borrowing it want anything getting back together said ex lets call george im stubborn individual fault cant stand anyone tell do worst ever been supposed move father girlfriend moved george instead due events occurred spoken since stepmother tried reach me tell family events missing reasons father mad me course angered anything ive already felt abandoned feel like love spite anything matter what weve close long time know plenty people betrayed parents trust parents still love them ive never done anything stolen lied etc cast aside hurt me im free spirited person believe necessarily try maintain relationship unnatural forced never thought dad would treat way george loves me since hes have seem put stress thats unhealthy relationship thats going drain too single friend family member actual closeness to so im going kill tonight im starting wonder dont even here seem negatively impact people close with people even get close ton flaws ton love cant stand see anyone hurting human animal thats became vegan saw many documentaries hurt much even watch them know im like people need someone tell im completely worthless cant understand one really wants around im drowning thoughts im alone help,1 +layed roadand got put mental ward hospital ok first really dont pay attention you scream hours listen you let outside anything minute leave ran im probably going sleep street probably jump building,1 +women find interest me unattractive bit socially awkward weird yet outgoing friendly kind funny getting older see chances family fading fast recently increasingly depressed dark thoughts loss forever alone,1 +veri funi post laugh get nae naed,0 +caught shiny pokemon never probably filler hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +gf whit friend better her know sounds super insecure thats okay like one friend super nice interests stuff hes much closer long distance relationship friend close hes super closer keeps talking feel really uncomfortable know loves feel like would much happier whit me make sad time time doesnt wrong feel like this wrong feel like better choice her,0 +never ending guilt cycleim end crisis situation got drunk made get really sad wanted kill them begging me telling losing mind tried let get got bed used crisis line stay level headed removed firearms house suicidal pastso bit difficult going this redflag attempts kinda reason this feel guilty stuck thinking caused redflag attempts theyre stuck one moment time unable let go tried therapy several family sessions talking happened place right cant get kinda help got wed kinda lose everything went away serious form treatment sadness honestly happens every time drink which like month try best keep going overboard always fail get left positions like im currently in theyre partially right actions trigger mental break brought childhood trauma anxiety depression surface dealt treatment moved on feels guilty past cant let go of ive forgiven moved on every time break drinking feel guilty making go suicidal causing pain suggest getting help talking people cant talk it theyre stuck wanting help holding onto pain pushed cant anymore point everyone safe now idea whatll happen light day,1 +need help home boy got dumped gf hes rly sad fucking suck helping sad people need advice oh wise rteenagers say,0 +teacher asked class whos favorite president everyone went obama,0 +tell mumim trouble trying tell mum much cant take anymore want die anything like living dealing problems like family issues friend school issues much cant take anymore want sleep never wake hope wake nicer worldi never guts tell tried attempt pills couldnt pull want come clean get help im scared might react negatively,1 +ingrid bergman playing dentist walter matthaus faithful receptionist harbors little crush boss absolutely wonderful film handles witty repartee script aplomb steals terrific scene goldie hawn talk record booth ingrids monologue front face tells believes heart matthau odd choice leading man hes old goldie hawn unrefined bergman mention unfocused dentist liked way tries hard please goldie stumbles around trying free lie hawn who supporting oscar fresh bubbly today bedroom farce terribly sophisticated and faintly reminds one any wednesday besides welcome relief noisy teenoriented comedies turn today cactus flower lovely sigh ,0 +help pls best friend depression currently isolating herself ive done lots research say good thing want talk soooooo bad shes also said doesnt wanna talk anyone im super worried love much admittedly messaged quite bit hate hard talk something happen im going feel like asshole saying anything trying help anyone goes depression please help me situation,0 +dream job sorry seems bit personal,0 +money scholastic book fair best feeling world im able buy like books dollars something parents would never let younger,0 +first all let comment audience loved first moment perhaps current events middleeast led people take attitude i came comedy george im going enjoy it whatever reason everybody seemed really comedy it last times woody tried straight comedy small time crooks curse jade scorpion hollywood ending ive felt like oneliners felt strained bit antiquated remember thinking one point that would funny early sixties going movie afraid woody becoming tone deaf however one comic sensibilities perfect tune admittedly plenty fellow aarp card carrying folks screening also plenty somethings somethings well seemed get give occasional belly laugh addition numerous guffaws chuckles like many instances throwaways people laughing loud missed next linebr br thematically woody traipsing familiar ground suspected trailer film lot manhattan murder mystery it again smidgen oedipus wrecks new york stories alice even little tribute broadway danny rose beginningbr br even woody movie scarlett sondra was times woodyproxy character far nebbish that say ferrell gave us melinda melinda kenneth branaugh attempted celebrity instead archetypal ticks quirks sondras nerdishness comes directly family history shares early on numerous occasions family business leads malapropisms get audience characters screen perceive strange nonsequiturs since joke cant help laugh laughs come recognizing woody nebbish truly character great extent unlike farrell branaugh cusack even mia farrow her scarlett required use woody voice evoke woody role thus find ripped narrative woodys voice suddenly emerges someone else facebr br as friend commented way out sid character played woody supporting role centerstage hoping going in however time woody seems written character truly fits current persona unlike ed dobel sage character anything else blind director hollywood ending time character comfortable fit perhaps importantly time character works story within elevated circles find in even fishoutofwater scarlett used great comedic effect throughout sid declining itinerant magician playing small audiences fact another era placed front center enjoymentbr br but jackman ian swearengen mcshane liked extent used piece particularly liked mcshanes short effective turns jackman charming ease old money often portrayed films years ago class echoes purple rose cairobr br so think short answer maybe best straight comedy since s bullets broadway less stylized mighty aphrodite less caustic deconstructing harry less forced small time crooks hollywood ending woody finally found comic voice works st century,0 +alfred hitchcocks assured telling film made twentyone years earlier infinitely superior original hitchcock said first version work amateur although certainly bad film appear right said remake although definitely better still among hitchcocks best work thats certainly say good little overindulgent drags down hitchcock seems keen drag certain elements out parts film entirely relevant plot become annoying dragged sequences one sees james stewart doris day eating moroccan restaurant good helps establish different culture american protagonists found in every restaurant scene theres opera sequence latter make film worsebr br the plot follows middleaged doctor wife go morocco holiday young son there meet french man bus another middleaged couple restaurant however things go awry french man dies knife back shortly whispering something doctor holiday turns full blown nightmare couples son kidnapped causes cut short go london order try find him film potent degree paranoia it manages hold way through fact would even go far say paranoid film hitchcock ever made like hitchcocks films one thrilling keeps edge seat almost entire duration aforementioned opera sequence standing moment tension diffused also little humour movie gives lighthearted relief morbid goings on actually works quite wellbr br the original version story lent excellent support fantastic peter lorre film benefit presence unfortunately made performances amazing james stewart doris day james stewart man always going contender greatest actor time crown collaborations hitchcock feature mesmerising performances him one different although best performance remains one mr smith goes washington stewart conveys courage conviction heartbreak man lost child would anything get back brilliantly fact thats one best things film really able feel couples loss throughout serves making thrilling doris day hand rather strange casting choice movie definitely good actress associated musicals seeing thriller rather odd even get flex vocal chords littlebr br as ive mentioned hitchcocks best film theres much enjoy although id recommend many hitchcock films recommending one ill definitely give two thumbs well,0 +got rejected gotta vent something im cool respect lying said least little bummed thought good chance least tried least things awkward nothings changed still good friends cant help hold onto false hope know do idk honestly probably best case scenario besides saying yes respectful it cool beans got chest,0 +good place pirate south park simple question looking whole series please crappy mirrored distorted sites please give full address site phone refuses show pirate sites movies gomovies etc search,0 + feeling desperate want die todayim struggling whether shoot face taurus revolver wonder anyone similar position like me go college started working directly family business basicly parents hand business million dollar debt never wanted manage business become manager fast sucks everything crumbling down feel trapped today getting sued former employees found trusted employee stealing god shit,1 +boogie nights one best films come s id go far say imdb top actually understand many would dislike it due subject matter personally feel however many do judging aclaim films received viewers critics topnotch film makingbr br the direction acting film surpass good reach level brilliancethere one scene movie amazing individual characters reach touch you given movie porn industry one imagine sex scenes could handled sensitivity are direction among best ive ever seenand ive seen lot filmsbr br the film one particular personal individuals story manyits character study people many layers maybe industry would find alien still dream dreams bad good them boogie nights draws story beginning though film longi believe almost hours honestly even notice ends kind want tobr br im easy impress meaning many movies id give rating one beyond multiple character study use music film never years seeing movies seen music tell story well moviethere flawlessness it know something gonna see everydaybr br burt reynolds performance perhaps best ive ever seen do mark wahlberg incredibleim astounded still people saying act well know anyone viewing could possibly think thatbut person really surprised heather grahemrollergirl absolutely fantastic role particular one memorable scene burt reynolds limo towards endbr br again ill echo imdb reviewers saying movie everybody still think topnotch ,0 +theres year old man asking random teens wear jockstrap fuck,0 +normalize slut shouldnt frowned slut hoe whore thot thats cave men polly af probably really bad stds way peaceful bring back humanity roots want fuck lot shouldnt shamed dont want fuck lot also shouldnt shamed,0 +sad sad backwards das das good ampxb cannot remember learnt joke bad good,0 +brainstorm grammar thing im elsewhere m well knew life going horrible since seven years old father alcoholic constant fear home constant emotional bashing definitely help man up made worse made be tho im blaming father im blaming myself able express feelings anyway apart anger jealousyyou wanna know funniest thing is dropped highschool never finished it cope peoplei bullied know feeling someone pushes explode smashed guys face brick wall strangled scared shit him ran away got point across never told word anyone made ease finally get life try harder it shit even bullied teachers subtle way do motivate normal people well help pushed hole everyday struggle still istried end four times now im fucked dreams too sit front screen slowly rot look back life heh laugh laugh hard big joke im one whos stage choke,1 +saw someone say youre favourite fanfic tropes friends lovers then youre closeted gay fell love childhood best friend well umm im f girlfriend best friend since im close friends so,0 +self destructionis losing mind ive whenever feel depress want destroy could finally strength end it know longer live spiral down ive already thought way sure id really end all feels like wanna go even ends aware thing called self fulfilling prophecy feels like want use myself im sorry maybe needed get mind here,1 +im days self harm hello everyone lots wondering hell past weeks got phone taken away let spend time family ive addiction self harm want self harming thing past honest ill get back reddit wanted clear gone weeks want end addiction,0 +ive spent hours something could done minutes am spent hours homework assignment say quotes really watching youtube hours staring paper minute every minutes youtube actually working like minutes im going bed reddit,0 +needed talk thisim second semester college right things exactly going way barely made pretty depressing first semester im stem major enrolled rotc last semester dream longest time go space one day id settle pilot too anyway first semester depressed shift difficulty academics incredibly jarring me trouble making friends made think something wrong me failing math class rotc inherently stressful felt alone ashamed shitty lot time barely passed math class made lot friends second semester rolls around things starting look up finally feel comfortable rotc get first chem exam still things im sad about ill talk later anyway im feeling generally happy semester far get first math exam dug hole again thats okay though ill better next one final academic performance starts slipping across board im trouble math class fast forward month so im told medically qualify rotc adhd medication years ago devastating me finally feeling comfortable finally made friends thought adhd going obstacle anymore never identified certain group felt like part something worth part before dangled front face ripped away felt horrible okay though end world im still eligible apply officer training school graduate two days later meet cadre review case tell certain skin condition medically qualify military service means cant pilot went back dorm first time life seriously considered redflag felt like nightmare like presented puzzle solve wanted hurt someone myself anything though really know do week later take second math exam semester week that find failed ill drop class studied really hard thought got least incredibly frustrating go high school never studied anything almost never got test quiz good math science academics general college actually study quizzes exams almost never get even frustrating friends people floor talk got bs exams took im running ways convince im fucking moron feel like fraud ways one ive also never girlfriend thats always reason feel like waste skin ive never experienced mutual romantic love friends yeah need me ive always problem comparing people thats ive recently start feel awful im alone thoughts long feel like nothing proud anymore sorry making really long ive never talked stuff anyone friends family good comforting im pretty sure nobody knows im unhappy im afraid change that need talk someone,1 +broccoli piece shit hate you,0 +bet trump smokes mid biden bernies probably got top shelf tho,0 +fuck fuck tiktok posts get it guys hate tiktok ive seen many sprouting hard tell theyre true anymore want next satirical fake cancer posts thank cumming ted talk,0 +guys ive made mistake lot yall made mistake dont post karma sub literally day ban yah someone posted one rn theyre gone dont,0 +please help clue help hermy girlfriend considering redflag option clue help get parents divorce,1 +found car keys clicker lock unlock doors idk actually called onve near car start,0 +im horny like dm meeeeeeeee hehe te like ya,0 +im bored somebody talk app shit yeah like drop yo snap whatever,0 +little pony friendship magic,0 +disclose redflag ideations psychiatriststoday second time ive tried tell psychiatrist redflag feelings like last one dismissed it dont know expected one psychiatrist two professionals ever disclosed this guess expected least interest exactly thoughts kind inquiry get details feel like wanted get subject with fuck ask help professionals literally supposed deal mental health feel like dont care therapists better either guess dont people close feel comfortable enough disclose stuff theres really one else kind internet forums good enough vent guess far solution want guidance,1 +im thinking transferring schools mom forced go private school never wanted attend ripping away friends except one shes kind toxic old friends go another school want transfer there cant parents would never allow me im sure feel moving schools sophomore year feel sad miss friends hate here please give advice,0 +id happy die sleep anytime soonampxb thing im years old life basically always pointless strugglethe worst part hear supposed the best years life know real struggle i agree thatso said think worth living pain sadness happiness joy get detail hate life much fact enjoy living id love dodge rest life,1 +im lonely feel lonelyhey everyone thanks reading in comparison stories subreddit pathetic story im year old male im depressed never seriously thought redflag couple days ago think im ugly wear glasses minor acne im confident way look basically imagine girl thinking hey guy looks pretty good problem silly people may think obsessed girls probably wrong ive become pretty desperate girlfriend past months want somebody love me want me never kissed someone thought kissing someone drives mad want someone share everything with cuddle im feeling down thing girl years ago seemed like well work out that ive never feeling girl actually liked friend i hand imagined spending rest life pretty much girl met lot girls already boyfriends though lot girls way league couple months ago met girl lot common with kind humor were interested things like think were equally intelligent already boyfriend though breaks heart joke around lot her last week made joke us like married couple stupidest argument took hand kneeled like propose her responded gentle slap face saying really need find girlfriend do really do think hopeless case way home day waiting train pass strangest though entered mind jump meters forward right now itll ok worries unreachable girls feeling how articulate this unfulfilled lust caught moment really wanted jump thought family friends everybody id leave behind decided it since day though lot moments wished coward done it want commit redflag im scared that bad day enough pressure will need help,1 +im doneso keep trying everything make feel better none works im turning today still living parents still finished college fucking hate life tried address issues family half ass try help day revert back previous behavior ex mom drinks often ends talking shit people yelling going therapist bit gave nothing changed months also mom straight told therapy going help drugs useless well try activities supposed make happy nothing works thought lot stress coming school thats done semester passed everything ive tried numerous antidepressants made feel worse ive heard let go another day ive better part two years now fucking work nothing works im miserable time one friend trust stuff getting tired me im tired dealing shit know life actually really fucking good emotional brain gives zero fucks feel even shittier think this,1 +apologize english writing unclear bit rant miserable long time least relation long alive earliest memories wanting die ish improved since find hard find keep close friends close relationship family parents extremely socially conservative take mental health seriously brother tried commit suicide back even treated mindset issue cannot go siblings type relationship them pitted young age resentment still there feels like getting professional mental health treatment question living family even like take doctor feel like future past months lay bed felt miserable afraid get job apply things need apply to practice get better one real extracurricular fencing nothing tell matter going reach future anyways going commit suicide but know courage so courage fix life either school starts weeks know going completely fucked school required current resume expect constantly changing evolving nothing done nothing past year nothing show addition enrolled internship program intern local legal firms police lawyer even trying contact places afraid call cannot email none places emailed responded from month agothe one extracurricular fencing even good at started late october last year comparison peers high level ranked joke started late skills good at parents generally ignored siblings who succeed sports arts choose do encouraged little me nothing passion anythingi cannot even leave house one thing love anymore used love go walks nature cannot anymore hate going outside feeling inferior everyone even know point cannot even admit bad feel every time cannot help minimize problems cannot help feel like reason feel bad middle class parents picture cannot help think everything listing stupid melodramatic teenage bull worth hurting which prolly not still hurts heart much hate feeling like waste potential hate feeling like over still young compare peers family see nothing cowardice waste want parents family proud much know unlikely addition lack accomplishments bisexual conservative parents as mentioned above would never accept knew hate hide know ever found would tell confused faker liar or would get rid completelyi afraid future afraid going reach alone friends family person ever proud fencing coach know sees me hate showing face around academy afraid disappointing him always going to never going good athlete know anymore thank reading hurting future coward,1 +want die dont want kill myselfidk begin im chick early s intj sexually abused child bullied lot growing up consider pretty smart rather shy intense social anxiety causes talk ramble between ive never really close friends dont fit in everyone thinks pretty fucking weird ive dealing depression since multiple redflag attempts years started cutting turned turned tattoo addiction weird obsession gore watching live leak videos anyway people fucking suck one really honest always feel people try keep lives want something me really dont get along females pretty blunt tomboyish women seem turned intimidated idk gone five therapists years help temporarily husband veteran ptsd gotten multiple fights feel like loves constantly remember shit said me sometimes think im worst piece shit world hardcore existential crisis since last year realizing going die really fucked me fuck point this remember like yesterday pretty soon going middle age lose parents the people really love me beloved cat everyday wake think oh great one day less alive stuck loop dont know get it feel like going think like rest life got sterilized years ago wont kids would never want put someone pain existing constantly try better work ass off thankful good job tech going back school become programmer try help people selfless gotten trampled used try take care body eat healthy delaying inevitable dont like human condition subjected terms conditions preset life great problem solver fucking destroying way life except death dont want play sick disgusting game whatever cruel diety put us shit spinning rock planet fuck hate shit god fucking damn it,1 +im probably cause someones demonsand fucking fault deserve die,1 +reason live tired life feel like living anymorehi reading article made feel depressed like killing tired life believing god afterlife im black cant level people want get gun shoot brains out theres god afterlife want hell rather called loving god made life hell cant math disabled wanted engineering ill post get response httpswwwbloombergcomfeaturesrichestfamiliesintheworldutm_sourcepocketnewtabhttpswwwbloombergcomfeaturesrichestfamiliesintheworldutm_sourcepocketnewtab,1 +dont give single flying fuck dead meme fox say still fucking slaps thats fact,0 +ask girl question ask question thats personal,0 +want here going change mind fucking hard reflect note gotten worse see evidence life better going bei want anymore want over,1 +nobody talk feel deadi know im posting this anybody life talk maybe want someone acknowledge existence maybe sounds weird maybe not feel like talking someone anonymously online genuine person face face person pretend care acknowledge you ive drug problem years ive clean number months now everyone says slowly gets better ive slowly getting worse seem worst luck past years even im clean ironically enough cant speak parents friends fault left college year getting degree failing classes wake feeling terrible hopeless tired gets worse throughout day therapist likes talk minutes hour session cant change right now money im interviewing job looks promising im worried im afraid ill mess up ive felt like years years starting using drugs even cant foresee getting better every day feel like ive zombie autopilot majority last decade even nobody responds wanted type ive never said feel really terrible right now,1 +first word comes mind watching movie beauty beauty around actors play andie superb always well designed shots authors red line idea lovebr br i think kennys character white spot three womens otherwise boring predictable life interaction makes andies character living entertaining could possibly be hes gone became obvious cannot really appreciate hold inner believes sacred desiresbr br the fact andie successfully recovers loss nothing bad instead shows life prevails forms even small british village shown perfectlybr br another reason love movie british ways houses fags accents andie superb job shame movie got low marks ten,0 +hate people tell im innocent pureaside people know truly mean it like people say im like that plus things like kind caring understanding on say that reach unless first like im collective action figure people see certain distance never try interact im truly say try reach out think make others uncomfortable like someone told once people nice tell make feel like that understand cues leave im wanted always mess things up even theres chance would make new friends least friendly acquaintances always ruin everything like ive always done life living like this threated like porcelain doll many people except family remainng friends knowing im probably hateddislikedtolerated really hurts,1 +pretty clear either wipe slate move out kill myself helpi cant stand anymore,1 +anyone else procrastinate like this anyone else homework latest time possible like got much free time choose homework almost midnight feel like normal anyone else thing,0 +teenagers world help meme making meme history assignment simply need guys help come best slogan shirt kid supposed super cool actually biggest cringe example catch fists sesame street send final product done like,0 +saw lon chaney jr boris karloff cast expecting find typically schlocky s style horror movie opening scene a graveyard wolf howling background seemed confirm this began watching it though discovered nifty little mystery englishman richard green seeking discover happened two friends disappeared black forest and necessary take revenge evil count stephen mcnally ruled territory chaney voiceless gargon rather limited role one reminded hunchback notre dame actually karloff somewhat substantial role dr meissen fact meissen one interesting characters movie difficult know end whether would established good guy bad guy castle set magnificent even limited depiction black forest real enough certainly come across lowbudget compared movies ive seen anyway disappointment thought rita cordays performance countess seemed somewhat dry seem put much passion rolebr br that aside found movie held attention throughout enough suspense going turn make well worth watching definitely recommended rating,0 +dudes like men able hit girls self defense also bring everytime men stronger women im trying start argument see irony means iq dont read get triggered also actual fight sure persons dick doesnt mean destroy them like ive seen videos women slight taps dude doesnt even flinch continues use power rko tiny women,0 +lost knowing doim male france english mother language sorry bad english lack caps im fucking tired feel like attention whore post tehre people much issues lifes deserve attention even know im really depressive im making things life normal cant speak anyone want relatives firends thraet like im sick im know feel lost suicidal thoughts since maybe months happen im alone worse thing i got close friends famiuly loves me im traumatised rapemurderinsert terrible thing here also good grades premire s term anyone familiar french system feel like deserve them im always quiet class never really participate work lot home firends work really hard maybe fear future high school want send prpa think ill fail im hardworking like physics chemistry people think im fucking genius cant think brain learn really fast somehow im good want work scientist ill probably find anything im idiot hiding behind good grades tpe basically school project starting october groups hand paper end march oral exam friday worked guys class close friends really friend they nice guys tho whatever work close friends another class work them choosed subject months realized one us like sibject whatever changed bit time goes less less motivated firends and everyone class became motivated oral exam fucking week shit past december feel like abandonned feel way too parents really close education care lot eason lazy autistic videogame player didnnt told them really upset find happenned exam also counts end school grade baccalaurat know this moment need work presentation simply im shitposting reddit procastinating avoid duty girlfirend dick watch disgusting porn every evening awful one things give pleasure im disgusted myself defend womens rights time watch bondage shit tumblr awful feel even supposely close friends close me one birthday month ago invited party maybe guys group friends me know could go explain im hypocritical shit hiding good grades avoid stuff ill stop im really disgusted posting this im wasting time awfully formatted rant needed,1 +facts eat lettuce alone herbivore,0 +richard schickels documentary gary cooper gary cooper american life american legend gives us look tremendous allamerican star films life narrated clint eastwood theme definitely gary coooper american taken fast clips many appearances westerns scenes meet john doe mr deeds goes town sgt york best part documentary home movies cooper family well childhood photos showing beautiful blonde kid sunny smile would entire life also hilarious clip cooper the jack benny show comeback number bird dog benny loses it documentary also takes us briefly tumultuous affair patricia neal nearly ruined livesbr br theres certain cohesiveness missing bioretrospective jumps around lot footage cooper interviewed would added lot also clint eastwoods narration described unobtrusive was boring monotone given cooper tended strong silent type screen could used little animationbr br on personal note gary cooper one handsomest men ever lived looks early films nearly enough fan smile lips bone structure handsome throughout life films like morocco desire devastating instead sitting scene one worst performances howard roark the fountainhead giving speech admitted author understand young suave cooper tux would nice touch documentary alas definitely produced man,0 +jump front train th shoulder dislocates fucking time year,1 +bored probably need talk someone dont really know anymore new rule dumb fuller filler filler,0 +behold latest creation octopussy its full formhttpimgurcomaezcueh,0 +im scared itive close could never succeed it omg dont wanna live rest life ugh,1 +batman returns really dark movie shows caped crusader fighting penguin sexy catwoman ill get later michael keaton acts well bruce wayne showing good actor tim burton directs picture well locations movie impressive villains danny devito menacing penguin cruel yet disturbed man really hard childhood but michelle pfeiffer steals picture best catwoman ever threatening extremely sexy theres scene kisses batman cat way heats movie up action scenes good too ending dramatic tragic probably best ending batman movie tim burton shows manage batman movie really well he already demonstrated first batman also gives batman darker nature much like him,0 +two friends attempted suicide past two days planning earlier week stoped reason anyway need support need talk,1 +feeling unwelcome posts gay people shouldnt flaunt gay people shouldnt make whole personality want wear rainbow without associated gay people everything else complaining gay people existing makes feel really unwelcome sub honest wear whatever want care much associated gay shit dont like someone openproud sexuality flamboyant leave alone write post every seconds idk people hang people dont even like them bad vent huge bummer used really like sub kinda ruins me,0 +future holds nothing meim gonna shit ill probably end disappointed fuck never achieved dreams kind abusive relationship never making serious changes life fuck that idgaf future wanna go,1 +exists doors automatically jam lock alarm gets triggered preventing robbers entering exiting,0 +far parody films go worth time energy recent resurgence horrid parodies date movie comebacks breath fresh air come back rediscover truly funny farce like johnny dangerouslybr br after mother end medical problems little johnny goes work mob fallows series gags work are however occasional flops foreign gangster cant master american language profanity wise least rival gangster penchant shooting mouth once younger brother da get johhny dangerously hot young starlet hot affections johnny busybr br and viewer busy laughing part every gangstermovie clich skewered talented cast decent writingbr br not perfect long shot definitely good smile bad day,0 +feel like im going relapsethings took turn im coping want kill myself time longer want live wish could terminal disease leave without myself without mum feeling guilty able help me without one love feeling guilty able fulfill promise feel empty feel broken know anymore,1 +posting daily longer single day playing moment mine moment mount blade warband,0 +awful friendi friend school always one reasons im still alive ive done awful things know about want tell im afraid going crush me friends past betrayed im one friends feel awful want die one incidence go detail basically made mistake still feels guilty mentioned someone upset needed talk someone know do person ended cutting friendship friend mess couple months know going react way emotionally upset think rationally another incidence friend applying jobs happened apply store felt like worked together would get nothing done recommended hiring her ended getting job couple months liked better still feel guilty knew trying really hard get job kept getting rejections finally happened yesterday seeing counselor campus actually one referred really bad time really supportive even suicidal quarantine started always tells come live need to counselor seeing intern leaving end school year said would connect counselor whos great person helped lot wanted make sure fine said fine first entirely feel comfortable anything negative say feel like need keep things separate live together campus even work campus jobs need space even physical one feel horrible hes great counselor want get help needs always gives unconditional love feel like im betraying again love her like family ive never childhood abuse gut feeling keeps telling need this ive emailed feel really awful want die get away mess care anything,1 +happen mei think im bad person enemies hurt anybody somebody high school ready go college top started club officer another member many etc ready movein dorm found go dad promised many things considered options since saw feasible awhile ago promised ended going orientation met lot great people met roommate person fell love school plan work ass cover years taken away fucking number honestly know im going life wanna nobody sit home want something life thing is parents making even worse ive deal fucking fighting ever since little honestly think make years cried eyes calling national hotline cried years helped alleviate anxiety raging headache feeling nothing gonna get better wanna anything drastic honestly know do everything could everything upsets ive worked hard live summer anxiety depression but guess life fair right,1 +house become ant nest ants everywhere seriously actually ants everywhere,0 +currently am work hours know do much pain cannot cry express want cut actually feel something trying tell family friends need help falling deaf ears cannot fucking stop acting like okay just tired think gotten better not scared one day going give thoughts terrified going lose job go work tomorrow mess do work medical environment think safe anyone mental state lack sleep need help able sleep past three days feel numb like going cave,1 + ampxb httpspreviewredditqubuzhqpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseeeaafbccaafdbbcb,0 +passing thoughts active plan picked day several times go full plan go er say suicidal thoughts plan picked day happeni curious length time voluntary vs involuntaryhow really help er aside keeping safe hours weird thought went inpatient voluntarily monday work wednesday would back time know sunday would start hold monday goes far also best time go question like go er suicidal thoughts,1 +really feel like failurea lot going on really much type mobile feel like complete failure utter waste space ask someone hide guns fear might act upon feelings hatred towards myself feel like ive failed daughter wife parents myself really need someone help me,1 +first person comment post gets free award got free award hours heres chance come snatch,0 +keep constantly thinking would peoples reaction redflagsometimes days im somewhat aware parents brother rest family would devastated friends maybe too days convince nobody would care parents would still kid would one less burden carry friends would glad get rid ever annoy presence cant decide one way another one things keeps actually killing myself,1 +welp whole life going shit feel outcast two best friends ive known years now got single aspiration no crush dreams goals slightly average every measurable field ever person me everyone knows existence thinks im joke feel two things pain nothing past two days ive felt like soul rotting inside out worst part is escape anyway life going,0 +see point anymorei see point living anymore clinical depression grief consumed me get enjoyment anymore trolling fuck people here even enjoy weed anymore one thing helped see good people made love life stopped working want end mom recently passed im probably gonna readmitted within week two cant anymore want either die bed day,1 +community theater actor works hard take acting seriously im always amused treat great art movie skewers actors craft mercilessly dishing lot good laughsbr br a ham actor location movie bears resemblance dictator dictator dies heart attack much drink food actor kidnapped forced play the part lifetime neonazi head secret service plays hilt gets dictators girlfriend fall love vice versa turns tables captors beautifullybr br lots great shtick leads lots good work unknown supporting actors particularly household staff two members palace guard fun little cameos abound sammy davis jr makes light himself jonathan winters plays semiretired american businessman something else going on raul julia sonia braga richard dreyfuss exceptionalbr br this dumb movie lots beautiful locations in brazil humorous script good actors thing looking like theyre actually fun going usual existential angst playacting,0 +wtf guys weve lied baby carrots arent actually babies theyre normal carrots cut up,0 + f stressed depressedlast night shitty me told crush liked said adores im best friend looking relationship feel like wanna cry get enjoyment playing video games im behind d art one project due week concept another project almost end fucking semester term classes worst especially teacher bullshits way quarters class rush projects onto us essays due english class next semester gym im usually one whos borderline fat really want dead hope really awful year year think going get better might well try od depression anxiety meds,1 +thoughts month now know much keeps getting worsei transgender start just really strong gender dysphoria started remembering bad things did hurted lot people life phisically mentally deserve suffering really blame people mock that really every single thing either futile leads hurting someone said before hurted lot people life want anymore want happy want live beautiful life life somehow limitedit fault really one deserves suffer one exept me know it thing want say i sorry everything didi hope live need to all took away things them fair suffer enjoy living right every thing justified know bullying absolutely not deserve it righti know anymore ready this happened quickly i die stop making everyonemyself included suffering right sorry,1 +get suspicious people willing come australia ive spending entire life planning get fuck,0 +yunno chinas pretty awful place least government runs corporations instead corporations running government,0 +probably gonna end im when supposed something life know god damn fact know life probably drivers license go college still live parents im losing hope ill find something sustainable sit room day look memes fuck up thats fuck up im fuck im try kill ill probably fuck too like numerous times im right maybe theres hope severely doubt it,1 +one would come funeral anywayyou ever get idea head legitimately missed anyone currently know ive actively suicidal week feeling gets stronger stronger every fight misunderstanding squabble time feel like get way around me makes so incredibly tempting fucking it nothing live for especially without friends i family,1 +fucked even though im younger sister finally pissed enough push say wanted beat crap her shes blames panic disorder jerk despite never taking initiative better matter much help gets always yelling parents timequarantine made worse bad shes even nuttier half year locked in today stood told shes made life miserable thinks makes rest family stick neck make perfect even though stuff go through continued scream call asshole saying im older brother dont get say anything goes around me say god want beat crap push her even though would love said id much happier since least id get rage since shes going shape anyway wasnt actually going that wanted scared enough quit bitch course changed mind things matter second happened tried pull youre adultact age even though shes acting like toddler able go anywhere claims hit rib thoughts,0 +hitting viewers three different episodes right bat serling continued go introducing viewers the twilight zone strange way scheduling one series biggest growers fourth episode the sixteenmillimeter shrine one understated episodes focusing aging movie stars inability cope changing times introducing supernatural element closing minutes approach episode whelming first subsequent viewings reveal thoroughly classy beautifully written short storybr br both leads ida lupino barbara jean trent martin balsam frustrated caring agent shine performances main problem episode supposedly year old footage actress unconvincing lupino looks identical playing young trent playing middle aged trent diminishes tragedy situation significantly fortunately lupino acts socks convincing us desperation return past situation sympathise with yet trent far sympathetic character primadonna gives little thought feelings around her disastrously withered costar tactlessly belittles reminds long ago glory days were somewhat surprising then rewarded happy ending clear going happen moment see huge projection screen cleverly preempted opening moments trent scares maid stepping behind screen clear beginning however whether sucked projector prove reward harsh lesson appreciating living moment turns out trent allowed return past longed for testament strong wishful thinking humans bebr br the sixteenmillimeter shrine gets better viewing top notch writing acting combine create short play enormous power reflects nature humans long past even though never return except twilight zone,0 +give gaem reccomendations now,0 +milk fridge am country hungry wanted make cereal usually milk fridge would go sleep hungry time milk fridge im happy now,0 +someone jumped building todayi wonder were like,1 +feel like everyone around left leaving me friends left moving far away person want cannot get contact with much go lately cannot keep longer know go everyone leaving,1 +im tryingas type little girl inside saying mommy alone dad her ive told multiple times im suicidal listen thinks im dramatic never dealt depression cant stop thoughts one second sitting couch children next im thinking effective way end life planned out attic beam takes chair tie robe want option back out im mentally exhausted need help one listen me cant afford babysitter therapy thing give free them want relief,1 +im fucking mess human beingat end fucking rope rn years fucking shit made depression worse earlier year grandad killed via overdose scattering ashes next week fucking horrible think about tell girlfriend person thought could trust whod support matter what ill postpone coming see ldr tells sick sick getting hopes let tells fuck off top ive struggling year solvent abuse result stress levels im probably gonna fail end future get relentlessly bullied college get called shit like school shooter psycho im fucking quiet im fucking sick it nothing ever good enough anyone access stuff id right right cant im stuck fucking loop things getting bit better going shit again want shit end im fucking waste oxygen im writing sit alone bathroom half bottle jager deep got numb pain even aint fucking working,1 +want reassuredi feel like everything pointless right now people probably care treat good im there wish friends one thought could trust left better popular people wish could say graduating top grades id happy high school college college job would put endless cycle want grow want free want run away know people would try find treat better pity want liked better without running away ive contemplated im scared die leave ones like even like back secretly burden them know right now im lost,1 +really need help im much emotional paini wish wasnt anymore thoughts ending life multiple times day last days ive planned cant fix im gonna choice it basically friend went class finished long ago course years long started develop feelings finishing finally got courage last tuesday told ask asked date went bad really bad opinion since havent stopped crying since also lost really good friend person feelings would anything keep happy havent eating fully either feel down every time sleep dreams every single night wish would never wake time dont want sleep makes think irreplaceable unique many ways shes constantly mind making eyes water speak stopping anything everything tried dating apps like match signed answered questions first person pop best matched cant take it tried tinder boom pops really want superlike press wink button time bad idea rejected past dont know anymore everything me,1 +haha trans deathwhats point trying know never pass stupid petite girl even thinking wanting transition man pathetic considering even register even shortest cisgender men ampxb waste hours days weeks months life silence laying bed could studying practicing art improving portfolio im slightly confident may able landing job actively improving considering im highschool but whats point ill still me ill always me always painful body much less literally chronic pain see scoliosis apparently existing ampxb sucks though really im really jealous everyone gets even normal average body much less healthy body im entitled despite deserving bodies thats life is like literally peoples common complaints superficial requires self improvement intelligence sure sucks could least hopes goes functional families friends lover black long honestly care anymore ampxb anyways sucks wait years get gun feel like would mess rope accidentally face slow painful choking session degrees mouth go,1 +least stepdad says ugly mentally unwell fat awkward pussy stand chance real world,1 +swear sub lives two worlds post new vs hot completely different like new filled shitpost depressed teenagers hot filled like memes youve seen someone sharing something tragic happened them,0 +thanksim happy sub exists something mind always say here,1 +see another way really found wanted wants this every day feel hated everyone know fading away weekend remarkable pain others stop looking back life regret everything done wrong matters matter all even trying do give love people hurt me next achievement love ever given overdose cut hardest thing done want show feel it swear insane want depart peace like finally writing this good bye doubt anyone read this thank mean it good bye godspeed going kill weekend,1 +cobb vanth gtvanth refrigerationlt dank farrik need filler filler filler,0 + whole life bsim turning days cant believe held long arms hurt lot due last bout self harm recall year ago said get therapy weeks id dead well didnt tried know ill try again bpd hard live keep giving medication sometimes helps deny im childish enough to bad dreams sleeping withdrawal pain ive telling nearly years want therapy want talk ive through went gifted talented college university drop out mistakes ive made cant handle no say theyre scared ill kill bring someone im also going kill dont go every day head alone want professional listen helo never do fucking want reach want to,1 + yr old male depression redflag seizures scoliosis schizophrenia graduated still living parents since made progressi realized school easiest thing lifei jobs could keep mental physical illnesses got way tried signing college afraid messing things myselfmy first dream become mma fighter due brain surgery remove seizures think ever achieve thatthroughout life always called ugly even friends girlfriend familyi live godforsaken area nothing people age never serious relationship still virginsometimes want end life cannot find guts soalso think able survive real world survive own relationship find new dream career live peace every since graduating high school life ridiculously hard,1 +people always say life gets worse seriously ask anyone age say gets worse moment mention word redflag everything changes itll get better,0 +intelligent mentally illmy entire life driven near insanity around me everyone says one thing hard go rather using logic reason state argument theyll attack you position sense self worth beliefs must idiot knowing defend constant onslaught peoples delusional beliefs could stop trying ram stupid fucking opinions throat wanting kill daily basis peace quiet ever balls tell im mentally ill take pills maybe me them maybe im intelligent are could mental illness awareness truth everyone want convince im mentally ill try pills themselves everyone uneducated opinion confidently put display arrogant confident makes feel like idiot im confident anything im always questioning myself line thinking actions etc trying come reasonable answer people arrive answers never question anything idiot,1 +want die see way outlong story short convinced parents going community college two years actually faked it theyre case transferring idea do cant stall more job probably summer think live wages living home could move out would tell im much pussy,1 +wanting give upim sure talk this cant talk anyone im close struggle talking therapist thought strangers ill never meet last year november exhusband forced bed raped fist one week later kidnapped drove mountain beat me charged kidnapping da talking letting probation feel like failing everything im afraid go anywhere fear ill run someone family comes money bond lost career struggling support two children blame happened abusive marriage seen coming always confident life im pounds good shape made lot accomplishments none stuff feels good enough feel ugly worthless smart enough afraid everything everyone meet nights im trying go sleep think hanging myself want life back way cant ever get want live all,1 +im trying tonighti let live once extra time living showed living worth it care anymore still gotten better school fact ive gotten worse cant focus think hurt people classes halls ive previously wronged im failure well classes instead one now come home homework fall asleep stress wake go back school saturday waste life sunday im dragged church im unintentionally berated am waste rest day physically able concentrate homework im overloaded im burnt out cant tutoring im scared talk teachers either like get mad know content ill never able meet goal pet fox one fucking thing could possibly give life meaning even id suck it pass college cant get easily fail high school im stupid college point want to cant get job lazy ive gotten want stay parents burden down cant take five years school everything seems broken sexuality work ethic speech way look way think memory hearing eyesight everything nobody ever expressed interest me one case someone has turned away stupid impulsive assholish side myself cant talk professional cant fix situation medicate lie situation care leave theyll get it letting suffer people might get sad most people school probably get disappointed best finally end seems selfish part me im getting put meds want blind drugs hellish situation im living in parents get real care apparently real therapists christian enough many reasons im stupid remember right now im tired im trying new version last time likely real time even know im posting im set this end miserable cycle soon im lost cause id rather pass away radar everyone forgets ever existed im sorry make sense forgot something im god awful writer cst im it hours left goodbye,1 +paste whatever copied replies w context see title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +legitimate reason tonobody actually knows gives shit me family dont want speak friends almost completely abandoned dont want deal fair enough ampxb legit reason stuff couple packets paracetamol throat maybe probably wont work guess ampxb dont know even then night two hospital temporary escape life guess,1 +considered white im egypt im basically arab skin color beige cookie kinda color im considered light skin tho question is white ps im asking cuz always see meme saying white people white people even relate yes im existential crisis,0 +feel like ive met almost people browse new keep running other fuckin losers,0 +possible get euthanizeddepression started high school made tons bad grades trouble focusing bullying teasing folks dropped college much time worked terrible retail warehouse jobs years hopped job job looking decent fulltime work preferably office went army one dream careers failed ait due injury refuse reenlist due stuff somebody became man adult friends personality guess freedom had considered holdoverholdunder least im back home family never understands neglect feelingsemotions seems like cant happy continue fail everything help social anxiety want end all thing keeping committing redflag pain ill feel want die sleep something thoughts driving deep river fear drowning places euthanization legal want live anymore care family feels never consider feel anything theyre old traditionalist christians never deal depression stress social anxiety want fade obscurity cease exist tldr failed lot life matured away home came back home failure,1 +okay ill admit casting film really strangepart due plot still bit trouble believing pierce brosnan playing lead though really pretty good jobbr br its based true story englishman went live canadian indians early th century claimed mixed blood indian was fact successful well thought people came hear lectures taken wilderness trekseven though mixed blood indian knowledge books faked movie centers occurred hoax uncoveredbr br the acting settings great really liked film once suspended disbelief brosnan get widespread distributionprobably pretty cerebralnot bond film romancejust really odd film remarkable man,0 +wanna get earings grandparents who live us house outside old school ans grandparents who visit regularly also old school do parents friends rest family ok it need convince lie try let see something do long hair hiding much hassle im also wearing headphones home times eat togethor dinner table week,0 +whats painless way kill myselfive contemplating killing since im really want end all dont want parents find bad state way less disturbing,1 +frick physicals mine look buttnaked questions drugs sex life etc tests cancer screenings nothing get close personal like okay yep youre definitely going puberty tell parents it necessary even sports since got cancelled fall,0 +theres one way story endi survived escaped abusive relationship years ago id since withdrew social situations worse day relationship take gfs mom hospital tried take life medication overdose months later pin gf ground snatch bloody knife hands trying cut wrists threatened frame physical abuse knew get out move countries drop college spent whole year crippling depression gained lot weight following year finally thought getting back decent life herniated disc able walk properly months now friends keep behaving poorly parents broke relations sister way fulfill professional goals cannot walk properly again craving human connection hug someone confide in keep getting pain back leg cannot exercise trying quit smoking keep failing im basically worthless individual right way end death im may come naturally im scared ill end taking lire one day,1 +mother took see film child long see every year christmas favorites remember silly devil santa looking telescope waited looked tv guide year see would shown would usually find playing saturday afternoon found movie english took something special away film longed find copy spanish hold film dear heart never suffered nightmares others might suggest yes different film santa claus makes special unique cant wait get copy film watch children explain favorite parts memories,0 +support mancan everyone sees please go give support guy seemed like hes lot based past posts comments indeed seem like could seriohttpsredditcomrteenagerscommentsavhmlast_week_on_earth,1 +everyone hurting todayi know might mean much random person reddit hope bearable christmas believe things change ive often never believed someone told things would change know true impossible seems life gets better life gains meaning beautiful merry christmas ,1 +need help worried friendi need help im worried friend im going traveling town chat had httpsscontentiadxxfbcdnnethphotosxapvtsx___ojpgohfeccdfdbeddcbdampoe information,1 +back again maybe long time aroundlt,1 +posting everyday get girlfriend day nothing day nothing today walked steps km posts keep getting removed maybe list list thing today day nothing today walked steps km day nothing make long list thing return soon worries today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km actually impressive walked inside house day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked inly steps km much today day nothing wrong u jcttt sadly list thing backat least partially day guess what still nothing day weeks day day hai make video bricks day nothing day fuck sorry hmin delay day days untill day still nothing day aaaaaaaa day day nothing day day day guy getting hot me day boys it rasputin million views club day celebrate day celebrate a th aniversary independence iceland kingdom denmark b th aniversary occupation estonia ussr c th aniversary battle vienna american civil war wtf vienna american civil war heard this d th aniversary death pope adeudatus day yesterday chose d im gonna celebrate th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day like wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one trillion day one quadrillion day one quintillion day one sextillion haha sex this today first walked km m up bicycled km usually struggle both day one septillion day one octillion day one nonillion day i love apache attack helicopters cute day day twjgwuwviqheiqniberuwkgueheikwgwiq day piece dead fly wall bed years now day screw fell chair worried day want provoke someone badly rn day qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm day fuck magic eye bot day leg hurts say leg still hurts day need electric shock rn day day day day day day day day day day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing,0 +im gonna thing im going predicting text whatever called make something totally makes sense im sorry dont know questions meeting ones chance good day today comments now,0 +yooo realized something cool heard dick reach bellybutton youve got decent size mine,0 +used view redflag kind punishment moment significanceit people around me finally show really inside make feel pain wanted know theyd react see anybody even cared killed myself think wanted validation maybe wanted know people actually care me know anyhow thats gone now really care knows killed myself why really care anybody react see milestone anything ive finally reached point stopped fighting expectation decision eventually leave choice,1 + years old now feel good yall,0 +movie strikes one successful attempts ever coming plausible answers nagging questions cropped recent scholarship concerning passion suffering death christ accounts new testament what motivated judas money issue could bring sanhedrin meet high holy day pilate waffle movie serious thinking christian fans the passion christ doubt disappointed lack gory spectacle arch characterization myself find portrait painted hereof willingness ordinary people blithely sacrifice common decency selfinterest stakefar realistic deeply unsettling the disinterested just job look face man drives first nail christs wrist chilling moment film film makes claim authenticity settings costuming invariably feel right many highly acclaimed efforts slow film but accept selfimposed limits it is all the deathnot lifeof christ ultimately rewarding one,0 +someone tell love please fucking care actually love me need hear it fucking done right now want kill myself live one person hold onto think close letting go please someone tell love,1 +girls genuinely confuse asked girl year ago sadly rejected every time give attention starts kind flirting me clearly told romance level shes sliding dms confused hell,0 +terrible lie hahahaha fuckine love paralelagrams awesome e cool theynfacve world word grams ithem gramcraockers gramcraockers tasty bitch stick hungs unger gramchracters fucktupled size taste smell reminded time everything alive papapa parallel grammms,0 +goodbye reddit goodbye teenagers no redflag post ive found reddit distracts work ive taken break before deleting it hope fantastic lives stay positive motivated goodbye everyone,0 +discharged hospital definitely want kill myselfi understand perspective ive weeks longer im harder itll go back real world little improved stay things gotten worse meds given anxiety came think redflag every day tried twice here life outside safe bubble overwhelming every angle thats want kill myself real safe place go leave back shit got here keep saying cant cope attend emergency room come back know even go home flat im going go straight bridge jump cant make far ill walk traffic feel like matter say theyre going believe im serious telling us suicidal gotten comfy hospital true want hospital equally cant face life again thought hope getting better despite engaging activities mind gotten worse ill leaving day tomorrow energy ask give least till friday doctor set wednesday stone putting immense pressure agree day want leave go things all tried,1 +nothing interesting sayim dead inside years best friend said wants nothing me ive got one life nothing live for reality things going get much much worse im obsessing leave planet quickly painlessly possible want comfortable escape,1 +back going hate tomorrow gotta sit driving class four hours breaks turn cameras get trouble usually hours free sundays churchgoers sitting chair hate shit need remove spine,0 +talk everything want talk everything want ask questions ill reply every comment,0 +going make fake post aita thats half related something actually happened make part make fit sub,0 +im sorry im asking would rather stable ram overclock pass memtest tests would rather stable ram overclock gain huge performance loses ram hammer test every single time ram would vulnerable high frequency row hammer bit flips im bit pickle right now seem lose hammer test every time actual eb expected ceb would ,0 +psychiatrist told hed call psych ward me told reddit threw idea psych ward away thankslong story short ive impulses im really really close taking life told psychiatrist one them said ok that called one day later said realize serious wants safe wants someone call first mom told thats go dad another go psych told hed call psych matter wanted sorry it told got reddit safe guardian backed off telling great reddit therefore need psych wanted increase talks week twice week so thank reddit saved psych ward theyre abusive af tldr told psychiatrist suicidal impulses wanted call psych told reddit safe guardian said ok call psych,1 +saw le conseguenze dellamore rotterdam filmfestival first ten films saw therebr br le conseguenze left powerful impression ten films first shot know movie going something special beautiful cinematography left awe done camera music also par visuals complementing colorful stylish architecturelike imagesbr br toni servillo plays main character film titta hes tax expert gone wrong lives hotel every week brings suitcase money bank story plays around thisbr br he always controlled shows almost emotion anyone looks calculated welldressed habit ignoring people significance him example sofia played nicely olivia magnani works barmaid hotel lives although working hotel two years never greets her even greet him one day confronts next day sits bar instead usual spot window story really begins unfold strong tale love sacrifice mafiabr br i spoil rest film see film love stylish movies like ones david lynch godfather etc see actionbuff,0 +among us discord servers want play people randoms none friends play,0 +approaching end line longish texthello let preface saying english first language due length text proofread it sorry fragmented text also im really planing commit redflag immediate future although designated end line me im entirely sure feel need write years beeing miserable suppose theres number reasons stopping procrastinating sharing people might driving force behind desire one hand want present relevant aspects story hand want identity known ill vague regards summary current circumstances im western european male late s late graduated university masters degree computer science since hold average paying software engineering live small appartment siblings pets car situation face mother could love go details since would probably enough identify would take k fix worst problems nose ears would probably make roughly plain facewise actually look attractive would need least k more since im also pretty short man inches average country plain probably cut it since social sexual experience even might enough point known im ugly since become ugly earlier took years realize lost friends got zero interest girls childhood actually quite ok lot friends even girlfriends since struggled accept reality way procrastinator sense people procrastinate postponing task piece work postponing final conclusion decade years running red numbers cant recall day worth living true better others never close good enough measure days happy good managed suppress fact unhappy given day justified living days borrowing future happiness would tell could endure suffering long payout somewhere line never really specified payout would happen long somewhat reasonable excuse keep waiting willing keep hanging there initially waiting turn finish school start university finish bachelors degree finish masters degree get job cant make milestones yeah could get phd sure could save countless years start financing house cant bring believe anymore im getting younger already spent half life alone lonely cant go chasing next elusive milestone anymore many people desire nothing fact born better genetics invested much effort help all know attractive people study studying consisted actual studying depressed stupor took much effort still achieve results got im empty cant keep it recently noticed get less less work done ad work boss notice far tell drags even more work ethic one things really proud working summerjobs years ago also become increasingly frustrated fact pay huge percentage income taxes mandatory health care etc hardly save couple hundreds month even living extremly frugal hardly benefit either bet people get government hand outs health care andor average way happier lives me therapy antidepressants years neither really helped besides gained weight became lethargic ssri see point trying either again dating tried asking female acquittances fellow students out rejection rate tried online dating joke made account dating websites like plentyoffish okcupid hardly ever got message return never got date matters doubt woman would want stay getting look face real life made tinder account swiped right everyone till matches run out hundreds women several days got one single match bot outlook next summer ill saved enough money first big surgery the complicated rhinoplasty hopefully ear surgery latter depend whether get loan raise additional money ill likely pay high interest winwin situation me works mind slightest paying loan worry anyway plan clear somehow make till next summer hard confident wait one year get surgery give dating one try turns physical change severe enough andor personality already damaged beyond repair end life promise follow that thats colateral one year borrowed time given detailed thought it recently atheroma maybe quarter inch diameter leg cut away sharp knife without anesthesia unpleasant and bled lot till taped it im confident withstand pain handsonapproach comfortable methods available me ill go sleep soon might reread tomorrow add important information slipped mind today,1 +life sucks work hard days week lot anxieties since child never many friends growing maybe people thought weird shy timid due anxieties home hard growing up dad hardly home either working bar coming home late drunk mom used dependent still exhausting keep mind f years old family bullied physically emotionally growing up calling kinds names could ever anything little friends hurt friends even family road almost impossible trust people feel unloved insignificant small every time always tried right thing good something always come way destroy it cannot even look forward anything anymore trust anything good happen gotten used things crumbling front me wake days angry fact woke want end life much coward so guess need finally bite bullet it folks wake tomorrow one would care,1 +want drink beer want get caught want smell like alcohol ,0 +also never relationshiplike me feel awkward people talk relationships constantly dont know feel around people keep talking past relationships makes feel like alien,0 +im accepting itive ok idea taking life many years im f bi polar ive always struggled drugs alcohol never feel anything expecially emotions got sober last year since dealing bi polar which fucking sucks emotions horrible ive happy times mostly im getting closer day finally end im accepting full heartedly feel terrible people im going hurt betray want anymore im done exactly know im ready go darkness came thanks letting vent,1 +counts redflag attempti know normally counts redflag attempt like actually ac failing scenario count well suicidal ideation something like that count redflag attempt person weapon gun knife etc hand cant bring themself it,1 +upset memy mom got upset said i hope die sleep said something like dont say something like that used far vocal still always want die said got shocked,1 +write friend diei really want sound like emotional attention whore though tendency that someone please tell say anything all really want say goodbye without feeling like obligation anything say anything nobody else,1 +feel though thing stopping thought someone finding body im starting care less less thati feel like clear mind im depressed drunken state feel like im done alive feel lonely time cant connect people met girl online talked months became super close nowhere started ghosting explanation want try anymore,1 +happy da de los muertossamhain ive seen lot memes saying guys sad spooktober spooktover wanted remind spookiness isnt done yet november st da de los muertos day dead guys still spooky moods making ofrendas dressing katrinas that samhain started last night ends tonight still feast leftover candy dullahan next bonfire or stove remember safe welcome spirits worlds one staying safe doesnt mean spookiness end neither end october fun recipe tamales httpswwwallrecipescomreciperealhomemadetamales,0 +anyone else planning drinking death soon reach ,1 +need help deciding resolution record in resolution primary monitor use watching youtube please leave comment resolution often watch youtube in,0 +ok girls listen girl red listen girl red sweater weather like hit something haha jk jk unless no real though desperate need someone talk indie rockpop please,0 +hear out gorillaz still fucking good especially new album love pink phantom momentary bliss,0 +jackie chan considered many film martial arts movie fans one greatest action stars ever grace silver screen police story cemented reputation likely successor late great bruce lee enter dragon bared socalled bench mark lees greatness s said police story jackie chan sbr br forget rush hour trilogy us efforts one film really typifies chans excellence mention kick starting status high kicking bonecrushing kung fu talisman well movie career this police story first series successful cop films set mainland present day hong kongbr br ive seen many efforts likewise usbased rush hour rumble bronx medalian tuxedo name frankly many pale insignificance compared police story movies saw less dumbed down version jackie get opportunity utilise fighting abilities maximum mention fight sequences good efforts drunken master police story name br br the stunts movie extraordinary best featured action movie shopping mall scene literally one kind seen believed flying shards glass chan left dangling outside bus walking stick madman frantically drives streets town chan successfully making usage sorts inanimate objects prop devices weapons fight bad guys with br br considering known injuring breaking every bone body putting harms way jackies persistence showing versatility stuntman relying one somewhat testament reputation kung fu expert especially bruises show it thus proved onetrick pony comes devising coming various clever looking movesbr br storywise much discuss lacks narrative makes endto end action fight sequences dialogue well really huge aspect film fans jackies martial arts films interested action opposed storybr br unlike say matrix wires cgi form computer trickery involved see get get police story great jackie chan epic full action pulsating stuntsit miles better rumble bronx rush hour american effortsbr br police story excellent film one id definitely recommend anyone novice jackie chan fan unsure one watch first,0 +enemies,0 +months still cannot get together even want get bed anymore even tired want sleep think much longer point living trying trust people one person said theyed never hurt go around exact thing,1 +understand redflag frowned uponim year old female ive suicidal adult life majority adolescence life terrible ive lost someone care about truly want here want part society feel unfair ive thrown life expected live born find joy things people life make real connections people really care anything fear everyday rest life going like this empty quite frankly pointless continue on people shoved life selfish one wanting leave god forsaken planet selfish wanting keep even though im miserable really want any oh everything get better one day see keep trucking really like me think mindset mood personality hate life hate society bullshit rules pretty much every person ive ever encountered stay anyone else feel way completely apathetic life happens every time tell someone this act like im crazy loving life burning passion proceed hide knives cant theyre looking,1 +sort tore arm boiling over trigger self harmi am say least angry so fucking angry harmed least four years made redflag attempts seven might mighty mind diagnosed depression bipolar disorder pretty young say entered mind though fuck id love bite right now life huge fucking struggle like tearing muddy hill im getting god damn place it put abusive situation told graduated could move on put stop abusive situation at least physically decided fucking hang there little bit longer job im fighting like hell get money move east coast working shitton hours week buck fifty minimum wage without overtime fuck entertainment fuck everything entertainment primary person position so people flake get called in come in shitton work next day d hours everyones schedule money assorted bullshit leaves little time hobbies dicking around fine ive gotten point little makes happy used draw anymore little interest everything ive managed doodle produce comes shit cant put lines save life not could before especially cant right now games get pointless repetitive play amount time even sand boxes talking so fun im lousy fucking better half interest sewing cant afford sewing machine timepatience needle thread shit once result utter crap kept falling apart ive fighting fighting fighting little headway towards moving leech parent love dearly spite bullshit put through kicker though least another half year if longer move that friends called boil point trapped tore arm teeth nails minimal damage remembered used sort shit hate momentary loss self control another rather logical approach biting bullet thats lot easier ignore nailtooth marks however maybe im used now idea point is really anyone talk get upsetdismissive leads getting angry withattacking more loss control im shitty person accept this im sorry peer group lol im going rant go bed buck morning good sleep as much doubt happening tldr trappedtrappedtrappedtraptrappedtraptraptraptrappppedfuckmetrapped situation person id murder painful way possible oh mention like leg fucking snare chew bitch off thats exactly want right now,1 +crush said height starts foot dont talk jokes im literally ,0 +ive worked hard im tiredi struggled mental illness since child remember one point time happy full laughter light energy years gone however ive felt hollow sometimes recognize person mirror eyes light world dim dark smiling act used second nature difficult effort takes makes facial expression ugly grotesque chest feels heavy tight constricted deepest breath take gasp feel empty starved relief vast majority wrong choices bad decisions actions unintentionally hurt people done desperate misguided attempts feel something anything besides pain emptiness despair ive never wanted hurt anyone people told keep trying keep fighting say need me say would devastated there want hurt anyone know people love would miss me want keep fighting sake own fellow redditors im terribly tired ive got nothing left either feel numb hollow im much pain constantly makes tremble feel like im tortured people ask want want say please tell goodbye please tell love me understand hope find rest badly need could somebody please tell goodbye could somebody please wish well hope find peace find rest im tired,1 +looking back jim hensons works years death like taking look back another time unlike socalled creative types attempting sell to worse yet cynically exploit children nowadays jim never seemed really forget like child ever moment demonstrated this labyrinth aside s muppet movie filmed allegorical story henson came work childrens television puppeteer ended halfhour show primetime television muppet movie ends affirmation everything progressive understanding sorts would say children quite meet expected norm s enjoy fruits era gagged bound speaking anything lest someone might get offended open celebration difference diversity formed large part muppet show offer here said comments must say here great light world went day jim henson diedbr br the muppet movie begins cast sitting see premiere see next eighty minutes short precise strokes introduced major players well minors story proper begins boy given great song bring us moment rainbow connection painted beautiful sad image muppets especially kermit were bunch felt puppets singular personalities combined put show living things based upon part us writ much boldly used to muppet introduced us turn saw another reflection part ourselves course children audience would respond differently character hence everyone favourite animal appeared behind drum kit attempted eat cymbal knew found one mine nowadays swedish chef fan heybr br complementing characters string musical numbers developed motivations personalities picture that shared insight dr teeth band well creative soul henson relevant song gonzos number asking came from many us would spend lifetime gazing stars and like gonzo saying knew would going back someday songs deadly serious course fozzy kermit share number decide combine talent or lack thereof hit road evidence required presentday musicians lost ability use pop structure create something listenable number would it never before never again would group dynamic cast music perfectly complement one another puppeteers voice actors perfectly top game human cast lot live tobr br which makes amazing human element also lived end deal cameos literally pepper film everyone steve martin telly savalas popping offer support even richard pryor last man one would expect see film muppets appears set hilarious moment mel brooks cameo disturbing adult small boy suspect henson knew would find disturbing now big acting strength though comes charles durning doc hopper embodies everything henson audience determined resist every junction hopper comes either offer kermit chance sell betray kind perhaps offer stops right word hoppers attempts ensure kermits compliance become progressively forceful violent whole thing one big metaphor every artist heart broken worldbr br of course animal also shows remind us friends sweet cuddly make less friend point fact animal turns best friend kermit moment core message every good show film henson involved ever since shunning dismissing others simply linguistic cosmetic differences could literally worst mistake one ever makes little doubt todays world moron purple suit tell sons good good feelings fifteen seasons still come serious investigation child welfare authorities hensons creature workshop could never got ground misquote album title daring stupid one thing enforcing choice upon others another matter muppet movie demonstrates henson dared ask us think inside outside proverbial box never another entirely like him never would want us stop tryingbr br therefore muppet movie epitome ten ten film send film cosmos prove intelligent life worth obliterated would it,0 +anyone chatting adding body need to please ignore,0 +bro better cry today dumb shit cant control yes im talking you stress okay,0 +feel going crazyeveryday feel dreamy state cant escape feel trapped inside box ive cried much cant feel anything anymore reason depression suicidal thoughts stupid drugs gf years broke me feel damn crazy losing mind laugh loud sometimes dumb things scared sometimes real reality not lose mind point id hurt family members instantly ending life,1 +ever prefer online friends irl friends points annoying thing parents set many fucking restrictions cant even fucking call discord anything,0 +ugly hoes post pic like ima leave here like nah bih take,0 +whatever do post kind stuff rteenagersso today posted advice post titled do deserve die get bad grades one guy told attention seeker cunt give reason kill guess,1 +feel like nothing helpsi feeling depression whole life entire childhood tried find place society cant even remember many people left hurting even hurting slowly fade away reality every day completely lose mind many doctors psychologists tried fix broken pieces life gave sort hope slowly turned dust worsen ny conditions every single day think details leave life hardest part question when maybe life meant everyone anyone else experiencing sort struggle,1 +suicidal lonelyive struggling anxiety depression several years kept myself im lowest ive ever know wont make dont get help dont find happiness anything anymore hate myself im lonely best friend whos one really feel comfortable around moved away dont anyone could talk without feeling guilty im struggling college money relationships im overwhelmed im limit people always say hang things get better theyve gotten far worse im drunk hate even ive attempted redflag twice wasted used worried id get blackout drunk kill im worried even started plan it think redflag constantly feel lost alone want over,1 +cant deal itim breaking point im failing school ill never get girlfriend im never going successful matter end though humanity fucked were going hit peak oil soon theres growing threat nuclear war terrorism rise sunspots getting worse everything going pellmell want kill myself love friends seems like way want stress worry go away thought ought add diagnosed clinical depression possibly severe clinical depression oh thishttpwwwyoutubecomwatchvbblvaqsds philosophy life im starting think possible cant swing away worth living edit ok kill myself still head plan anything thanks guys might post update while,1 +glad valentines day really like holiday couples love ive never able relate kind sad day me im happy got spend someone specially case made sad im glad thats overwith,0 +sacred hell playing game accidentally pressed rest mode disconnected id lose progress thankfully game disconnect,0 +im uselesshaving panic attack,1 +aging ruined mei completely unblossomed im average child became stunning yr thought everyone naturally nice naive really feel loss identity anybody knew tell shocked badly look now im typical hot girl thats going grow ugly s everyone looks better im really lost know living others opinions thats ive unconsciously idk nothing else worth besides looks gone overheard mum saying older sister prettier aging better im going kill myself ive talked school counsellor absolutely refuse go talk stranger problems again everyone look eye stare blotchy acne covered skin people thought cared using me cant even trust family im going kill probably kitchen knife ive learnt sharpen it found pulse neck probably artery flowing blood might stab backyard sound make less likely heard ill exercise cold weather bit effective going bathroom want stench there ive never felt form love never received truly family treated like trophy feeds look bad hate everyone much including myself online long text messages idc met anyone real life id revolted,1 +pain testicles now months last doc visit examined thats it nothing else testicle torsion etc etc scared going visit new one today night afraid ill loose young age,0 +ok dad kissed hand left school make matters worse im m ugh hate life,0 +jesus christ even straight dude uncomfortable read posts thighs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +think messed first impression crush today okay riding bike go see crush first time wind blowing hair around like crazy ruined hair im scared crush think im ugly wont consider dating first impression bad also didnt make laugh today,0 +slut shaming real issue need stop girls shouldnt called sluts ever sex entire football team soccer team swimming team wrestling team chess team league club theodore club science club anime club half building services people make slut means shes free spirited values experience body ever wants sexual history determine worth men need know this,0 +im worried fellow redditorhello everybody inane discussion askreddit got answer someone worries me talking suicidal thoughts tried give advices using situation im worried him heres link httpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsmzetwhat_is_something_you_were_once_embarrassed_bydusl idea did thanks,1 +im hypocriteim drunk fuck apologize advance errors know ill regret tomorrow threw husband surprise birthday party today spent lot money lot time lot effort putting together real desire get drunk initially getting drunk better idea going another ptsd episode went one one worst around weeks ago know ill regret posting tomorrow know irrational side control point however rational enough harm myself im hypocrite want help others give or try to words wisdom am dont actually shit together cant even help let alone someone else,1 +minor inconvenience work im bridge im tired always treated like last option like im good filling gapsive realized life always suck ill never happy stick around get better doesnt mean will gets worse dont want live find out im bridge seconds one step sleep peace forever tried calling mom usually helps calm didnt answer feel alone feel like failure death way fix that im waiting people leave go peace ive many close calls think time foreal,1 +holei feel like one hear me feel disgusting im trying find ways hurting right wrongs hate skin am apart inferior race earthblack ugly acne made want kill myself even more body disgusting avoid mirrors gay worthless added stress ruining life hate natural feelings sick wrong born cursed feel alone untouchable jealous normal good looking people see couples walk get sad dont deserve shitty card god hates everything am wouldnt give switch make normal instant still here im scared kill fear messing up dont want make mom sad depressed wish older brother athlete married christian kid moms favorite hes everything family wanted follow by killing would give family gratification knowing faggot like got deserved eternity hell heard hateful shit life know kind deserves end im tired waiting im sorry long post anybody reading this crying out nothing im changing sexuality im going fucking conversion camp done world worthless makes sick want somebody sometimes somebody cares awake im tired feeling like sack meat dragging across floor day deserve fate murderers rapists fucking hate this,1 +anything requires math numbers mean,0 +cant anymorenobody cares nobody really cares youre dead world favor,1 +need help crush someone im scared text do no answer text count ,0 +aight listen please dont assume personality andor make fun people based music taste,0 +im lonely miss her wanna talk someone dunno howa year ago took job could easily gotten wanted february wanted get city since knew gonna get laid nothing there recently broken girlfriend swore would stay single got settled new job physically training big getting shape buddies girlfriend called told throwing surprise birthday party him wanna go wanted go swim friend years even though wanna go went anyway saw girl magnificent way outta league high school always called fat ugly think chance girl beautiful scheduled leave september march figured try it told pal set us triple date hit off wanted make sure wasnt gonna play her made little challenges idk them seemed worth it feeling made set christmas tree one challenges told much tree looked like crap laughed whole time still thought beautiful finished tree sat next her talked about hours night started dating one day told job leave it however family still city id back wasnt leaving september wanted stay would told perfectly fine it week later broke me cried phone broke me next time saw acted like still together called job asked could leave soon possible wanna home anymore moved june getting ready leave told cried more left going back relationship september rolled around ignored asked still alive proceded tell met someone else broke heart girl wanted with girl offered give job for cheated me picked smoking time sitting smoking december friends got text message her really long message loved me ever wanna hurt me stuff bought called her never slept together whole time want things get complicated never pushed it girl meant with id it work one time outside smoking where work overlooks ocean one cooks came realized thinking looked said are gonna it thinkin it many people would sad though hurt anyone like that cant it you know anyone felt gone well dont wanna see mom id going couldnt handle goin away forever cant bring jumping recently started talking find last week one night stand guy took virginity never knew virgin forgot tell part started dating year months months together guy important ever was hes fucked shes coming back me cant listen songs reminds see pictures anything brings seeing face wants friend cant it much planned future im tell everyday your kid things get better cant even drink yet meet people get older family really wanna do im good hours til start missing family friends her wanna go home cant im neck debt caused stupidity im young hang friends work im lonely im gonna hurt myself like said couldnt bring it dont wanna keep waking depressed every morning wish life simple wanna wake years later took test says im pretty damn depressed know need go see shrink realize im depressed dont need someone tell me hide good enough front everyone else think im always happy always say idk always damn hyper always great mood reason really inside im torn up although people know low self confidence level dont trust anyone hard believe anyone believe kids high school said ugly know im fat anymore though alot people say im not im cute cant build courage meet new people dont even know going that guys tips advice please help me,1 +manga life supporti think would dead without weekly releases thank manga,1 +time favorite thing good thing love argue friends family even though im wrong im trying stop,0 +guys realize youre getting older like almost extra conscious age think started turned got older older kind felt old like im child anymore longer feel years old,0 +feeling suicidal scared againhere go again feeling extremely compelled continue kill again whats point living horrible moods horrible self,1 +im struggling hold life dont think worth anymoreim severely depressed unhappy aspects life worth anymore im alone dont want alive im miserable,1 +friendly discord made discord server want see people join made starter hoping could get suggestions improve put invite link pinned comment below hope join fun,0 +want it one go to young really anyone look to dreams already crushed years ago parents family constantly makes fun me people really care important nobody nobody really supports me wish parents told loved me seriously wish one person told loved meaning it dreams goal never come true childish mind like mine bullied since young done everything wish painless way die really hope die sleep tonight like here,1 +fucking hate people say shit like art meaning people try analyze everything scribbled pice paper deep like shut pretension ass artist everything deep sometimes want draw alvin alvin chipmunks alcoholic funny,0 +wife emotional physical affair i may never know trying rebuild keep screwing upi much pain right now spent much time er could check got dark place tonight want want alone scares shit me,1 +commit tax fraud im going tell commit tax fraud filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fille,0 +ngl im kinda upset im upset name kira associated jojo instead death note,0 +wow finally jim carrey returned died movie laughing crying also sends message know learn from jeniffer aniston great finally hit movie belt liked liar liar love movie give ,0 +grandpa die covid title yo grandpa die covid within next hours cant even bid farewell man filled void left parents divorce split asshole father im totally heartbroken j know,0 +hey everyone fuck you luv lt,0 +else one supposed situationwhen enjoy anything literally everything becomes tedious miserable given small amount time supposed do feel capacity happiness way capacity agony feel basic complex pleasures feel enraptured feel complete long simple direct stimulation causing feelings lasts feel alleviation boredom certain things short time everything makes feel miserable world hurts me else supposed escape die,1 +mental break hearing chadwick boseman relizing going get worse words encouragement please,0 +math fucking awesome im sayin might fucking suck grade may low damn dont love,0 +ever popes zit felt really good end thinking week maybe im psychotic,0 +fatherinlaw committed redflag best way help wifei know best subreddit ask found fatherinlaw committed redflag shockedsadangry mostly worried wife best way support her best terms know feeling guilty recommendations,1 +ive done it ive achieved maximum djent wanted play specific song guitar tune string ebeadgb leaving high e need it neither snark phone tuner pick sound lowest string anymore hell amps built tuner hardly does like play peak performance,0 +examine issueso years old born live malaysia government approved citizen law required complete documents parents granted citizenship living stateless person since now basically cant get legal job passport bank account driver license tried everything beg government that theres nothing else do treated illegal immigrant country guys still telling redflag option smh,1 +wake fall asleep fall asleep wake uphelp answer,1 +need help help finding love pleaseanyone,0 +survey videogame genres like watch play pls take graduation depends it yeah title says id appreciate could fill since really need data really easy short unless play watch videogames id say fill im mom link httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscjpxzbmxmwjwqcwsoonsnrwonzvrueafddrgaviewformuspsf_linkhttpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlscjpxzbmxmwjwqcwsoonsnrwonzvrueafddrgaviewformuspsf_link,0 +id make gay joke want keep straight face,0 +please helpeta tldr tried everything probably going suggest help situation improveand still things every dayand none helps im writing feel like im supposed thats it actually even expect anyone respond offer kind realistically helpful advice apologies title dramatic guess first started typing thinking would sound sure even get this though minute start typing trying verbally tell someone going on emotions inside shut hell stop momentarily turns off cant talk anymore but really much pain unbearable sort sobbing right feel ache inside indescribable done everything name it tried it countless therapists tried varieties psychotherapy me tried therapy per week twice per week every week month took hiatuses cbt personbased therapy spiritual therapy even whole dbtfocused program specific sixmonth group program survivors sexual assault male therapists female therapists network near far away young old psychiatrist twoyear period tried total sixteen different psych meds absolutely nothing helped me got four five classes drugs apparently superincredibly medicallyphysically sensitive could take half minimum dose anything prescribed me even then still kept falling people get rare freaky side effects everything two years experimenting pysch meds basically consistently sick hell always battling side effects never able keep healthy meds work me period hospitalized evaluated depression suicidal threatsideation planned kill gotten point telling thentherapist going id hiding plans decided really help anymore agreed seek treatment someone else ended hospital met people felt like clicked inhospital but fucking hospital live alone so fit family point mother acknowledges cries phone saying wishes different everyone else things hard me labeled everything borderline highly sensitive think deeply extremely conscientious sensitive towards others well sensitive myself made hard interpersonal relationships find constantly disappointed inafraid people exacerbated fact three abusive relationships one psychopath sexually abused daily basis three years choked suffocated closet floor four months relationship despite actually put pretty huge effort trying unsuccessfully make friends such joined five meetupcom groups years ago went ton events work formed meetupcom group organized events also work volunteered social work program requiring training group volunteers county result friendships either work tough soul speak forced active facebook despite hating it said yes social invitations got including every work gathering party acquaintances etc done online dating via three different sites forced send emails go dates possible even get house also regularly walk dog engage community activities participate family functions even though particularly hard deal with none helped alone friendless isolated anyway feel like single human life really knows understands wants close friend me even tired making huge monumental efforts strengthen existing relationships acquaintances andor start new friendships social ventures fails eventually tired stable steady career fortunate enough know last quite even shitty economy though make ton money means okay myself especially without spouse kids however job highly highly demanding stressful often feel like drowning workload have enjoy do lately feel like level commitment required something im sure keep doing used every single sick vacation day available fight keep hospitalization wraps for also needed use sick days feel example though honestly go work tomorrow perform par cannot really stay home anymore either know going make much longer feel like hospital psychiatrist gently pushed go shortterm disability budget little tight lately feel would career redflag that job kind take break without serious consequences attached absence would domino effect lot things people feel like agree hospitalized went shortterm disability get treatment work anyway because years stuff either would risked career result could conceivably come back disability job insurance s mom told today tears supposed best years life feels terrible much pain really believe get better spent significant portion time researching redflag last two years methods picked out honing emotions gut deal it keep trying get resolve go already cant handle idea dog could given away total strangers moment thing keeping here period sometimes think how dog dies absolutely immediately kill myself feel like goal anymore every time get nerve talk someone stuffwhich rare anymorethe person ends acknowledging really really done things supposed cases says something like i wish could help i wish something tried could work often exasperated sigh end conversations now person realizes nothing really worked really nothing suggest help anymore feelings hopelessness pretty much charts much want die figure somehow understand first placeit seems like complete glitch mistake someone sensitivity inability belong would even born first place like believed god would cruelest possible thing could imagine someonethrowing world like this possibly handle it know do feel like choking breath half time sick saying things over,1 +hi all short years earth many trials triumphs life seems getting progressively worse best life ever already feel like lived lifetime worth experiences due trauma experienced life like sexual emotional physical abuse stabbed someone attacked mallet due bullying involved police chase surviving car accident addict addicted alcohol age last year age being deaf left ear birth survived surgery survived many illness infection young child revived birth due oxygen loss severe bullying around suicidal episodes last year many prior managed obtain ncea lvl even though kicked school due sevely bullied everyone hate me many fun sexual experiences done pretty crazy one kind stuff seen done things alot people could ever etc always made sure live every day last live fearless lived life edge fullest although lonely sad alot due redflag past trauma things starting look around last year acquired good job wonderful partner sc ironically car accident mins dropped friends place stayed mine met person night before relationship prospered crash made become clean alcohol drugs thought prospect career family always wanted raise children live farm countryside etc but life changed worst nowinitially illness started am jan th awoke vivid nightmare drenched sweat auditory hallucination diahorrea vertigo derealizationconfusion brainfog shivering chills went back sleep went away within day time went holiday suffered vertigo ear pain car ride initial sickness appear feb th got bad flu wsore throat vertigo ear pain coughing running nose chills diahorrea etc feb th suffered derealization severe brainfog crying sadness redflag rem sleep issues like falling sensation jolts awake flashing behind eyelids hypnogogic hallucination constant vivid nightmares every night head pressure diahorrea excessive urination shortterm memory loss bunch stuff around early march came psychotic ocd presentation delusion developing shitzophrenia intense fear constantly googled sort stopped derealization died bit left andeonia complete loss emotions severe depression mood swings came ministrokeseizures severe brainfog happened around start last month every time getting memoryloss long term shortterm almost dementia like memory loss developed internal vibration currently symptoms are slight brainfog internal vibration dementia memoryloss vivid nightmares still hypnogogic hallucination upon waking minor head pressure crying sadnesssevere depression complete loss emotional enjoyment life loss track time going around me inability retain information loss imagination hair thinning easily bruising loss libido abdomen pain months illness shts getting worse many blood tests tried different diets meds help mood none symptoms tried therapy ct scans head wo contrast tried heaps nothing works personally think maybe autoimmune encephalitis due virus covid maybe sure yeah pre much fed atm girlfriend long distance stuck this flys live today family lives comes every school holidays love much says loves supports till death keeping alive struggles issues feel useless dead example nana dementia home look eyes life gone soul lost mind trapped within body imprisons feel atm want go forever cannot feel life emotions feel severaly disconnected everything impaired cognitive function well experiencing symptoms daily always different insight life feel always thought felt different others idk feel special world sometimes wonder alive everyone else figure imagination idek haha plan spend last weeks feel better see reason continue end it sorry words wall text prolly need life story want make sure story read atleast someone goas many know dog eat dog world weakness tolerated strongest survive unfortunately longer strong man really yeah crying afraid death asking happened ages every night alone realise maybe good go first experience much suffering bad live generally die alone world strange place atm full pain narcassism suffering corruption also tried talking parents provide guidance tell accept fate yeah idek p thanks reading far btw god bless year old male life over,1 + dying seems like reliefi constantly feel trapped pointless life thoughts killing push way head im man asking help difficult,1 +suicidal thoughts cant tell anyone herehey history depressive episodes suicidal thoughts fortunately managed ok last years ago right im husband month old visiting sister family parents theres bit culture clash im managing also trying deal small comments us first time parents people respecting need sleep things seems trained one nap full nights sleep either dragging around everywhere im losing mind trying deal her seems petty small straw tonight sat backyard holding screaming daughter wanted set drown pool cant tell husband birthday tomorrow cant tell friends hardly any fucking sucks,1 +say life sucks think mehey im years old ive done lot stupid things otherwise think would right now loving family parents try support life choices brother happen like hobby lot fun hobbies together but everytime look future see reason stay alive job really want education want follow everything boring me know ive said like hobby near realistic job option think worth living eather cant income atleast something cannot figger what tried lot things afthere time keep dropping it next school year ive got nothing nothing all job school money plan parents cant understand quiet mad finishing education im left nothing day normaly would called crazy complaining anything othere reason kms mentioned beginning ive done quiet stupid stuff basically lost friends mistakes ive made example went japan best friends acting childish annoying got back friend never wanted talk again ive got noone im mostly left lonely today ive desided finally put end this good bye live happy life,1 +fellow dudes normal neck match chest get checked im male im underweight im nowhere near overweight crossed past underweight range im kinda proud except neck wide body literally bones showing chest neck face seem way chubby match them normal could posture ive studying head tilted low since august around hours day also eat junk food like twice week much quantity jaw also widening up know puberty something else bad point friends point notice exclusively like making look mention though drink coffee every days around tablespoons sugar look suit physique also seem healthy something deserves visit doctor making look real bad photos face neck look almost joined reversible give time push puberty,0 +hey you yes you lets dm want make friends always dont dry lt sexual relations woman unless woman turned mother sexual relations with,0 +im sure sayits constant pressure bullying family im youngest years old older sisters older brother everyone says siblings siblings point im constantly put them every day constant physical verbal emotional put downs dont know always target me love parents sit nothing stop it im fed dont want anymore school escape even though see sometimes school mum knows struggle mental health feels like one cares nothing ever changes im emotionally drained wont get better since parents wont stop despite talking problems,1 +a tale two sisters janghwa hongryeon true masterpiece brilliant psychological thriller heartwrenching drama gripping horror wrapped one beautifully orchestrated package intricate plot beautiful cinematography absolutely perfect casting every aspect film extraordinarybr br for fear revealing much concerning plot say satisfying may appear little difficult understand first good job explaining things end whether prefer psychological thriller drama horror promise disappointedbr br from technical standpoint nearly flawless set cinematography lighting especially soundtrack captivating waltz seemed odd choice first proved ingenious choicebr br as casting were talking absolute perfection im sujeong totally convincing defiant yet troubled sumi mun keun yeong equally convincing emotionally traumatized sister suyeon two girls magical screen certainly looking films yeom jeongah deceitfully cheerful hauntingly evil stepmother finally kapsu kim gives excellent performance weary broken fatherbr br i truly love film yet see a tale two sisters strongly recommend locating copy real gem worthy anyones collectionbr br ,0 +hallo ich bin marcel davis leiter kundenzufriedenheit bei amp seit jahren arbeite ich bei amp,0 +hi wanna drop say something one friend love ever could gender not love mean love point bf gf equivalent best friend bestest best friend ever kind friend texts hours felt like minutes flown by type friend laughs even find funny visi versa type friend tell even tiniest things gecko floor bird tree type friend helps get never tries flex it friend like this heshe could city heshe could country heshe could abroad anywhere moment realize got friend like that realize got almost everything,0 +get piercing im whim morning get nipple piercings ill regret get trouble,0 +lemon tea amp weezer filler filler filler filler,0 +someone read leave goodthe plan ready ready action week tldr im going end week im good enough normal human anymore going read story love change thing contextstory late selfesteem issues excited finally prove helicopter mom get best grade possible despite always as eyes enough looks overall percentage fast forward graduation day low behold graduated stunning a subjects overall percentage gift ministry education top s city congrats got mad brother top s there hell broke loose us beyond mad hell almost fainted rage thought applied university get away home bit everything would fine boy wrong two years tried every trick book manipulation straightup domestic violence make go med school getting rejected every university country nationality said country alltime low first attempt work obviously fast forward late brother managed find education opportunity neighboring country moon set plan dad go get paperwork ready mom manipulated dad take us home country seek unattainable educational opportunity already accepted neighboring country stuck sick early mom using connections got physical therapy major unverified university refused attend told brother get ready were leaving neighboring country somehow dad discovered plan insisted coming us agreed notify mom it got university already started month paperwork requested start next year get fair start two weeks finals dad let us live alone thought around finally heal fair chance boy wrong again discovered years abuse mental torture mostly due genetics memory problem forgotten almost everything learned high school short memory basically goldfish level started university majoring geology already got really popular professors nice forgetful dude luck crashing hard mom decided live six months stress anxiety that got fs c one b basically failing got diagnosed prime immune deficiency due covid mom left alone got back home destroying pretty hard life constant messages i told gotten med school look failing miserably decided life worth living anymore got covid would die fast anyway plan ready week evil destroyed dreams ability achieve dream whats point anymore barely get every day constantly forgetting stuff crying sleep anyway thank reading kind person im do,1 +come back brink stress put body caused lasting painthis kind weird question night almost hung myself im trying feel better feel like intense stress put night caused adverse effects body chest feels like going burst heart constantly pounding psychological trauma cause things happen anyone else felt this go hospital this im already least planning see psychiatrist,1 +dont know anymoreits awhile since ive felt shit im year old college student cant take living anymore entered college health science major hopes one day becoming doctor maybe try help people anyway can ive terrible depression years freshman year college life felt pretty good everything new could reinvent fucked up within half year freshman year cut almost everything social life personal life personal health pretty much everything could focus studying hard trying get good grades didnt work matter much try terrible classes nothing show it last weeks even stressful normal cant take anymore gave friends relationship family personal health ive gained almost pounds longer exercise eat anything aside shit food feel like im slowly dying stress class work along worsening physical mental health feel trapped life see way ill ever get dying matter hard try never shack depression suicidial thoughts ive tried medication therapy little avail ive wasted life want stop now,1 +parents fighting today another day parents fighting mum asked dad buy snacks going buy groceries said fight started went yelling mum threatening do something by means kill herself throwing stuff around im kinda used never fails ruin day make feel depressed fuck parents raised healthy way mum always told inside home go made really anti social naive dad always demoralised hit lot dad today bipolar disorder heart disease diabetes mum disease ig say shes bit unstable love parents know fighting battles fighting makes feel trapped cant kill take care family cant solve problem also two twin brothers im really concerned witness also seem anger issues mum threatened redflag once took knife hand screaming also went outside follow convince come back home whenever confront says doesnt mean things says anger understand holy fuck significant impact me mother fucking knife hand ready hurt scariest thing ever im im india last year school corona fucked im already stressed future idk situation im trapped feel really suffocated,0 +cant take anymorei cant eat cant drink cant sleep head hurts time feel lonely cant take anymore im sick crying sick always left out wanna die please wanna die want sleep never wake again im smashing breaking everything angry control time lonely cold cant hold really cant want die life doesnt worth living live every single breath hurts oh god feel like something really heavy chest keeps breathing lonely fucking lonely one absolutely one im cold ,1 +low key tho making anon amateur p r n gf bf kinda relationship g l s im saying relationship comfortable sharing love low key relationship goals would even want that seems like thing youd pretty loving relationship,0 +today wake moms phone call crying vacation tells something attacked dove saved left blood feathers chest feels like someone sitting it feel sad empty also full pain sure sounds stupid hurts bad feel dead inside hurts much bird killed,1 +redflag others comforts methat sounds terrible retrospect let explain seeing posts people going saying disappearing makes idea easier me dunno weird guess makes feel like pool bigger ill seem even smaller comparison people care slightly less im tired im confused im lonely wish nothing,1 +thanks grandma cool grandma reminded stupid childhood trauma severely messed cant stop suicidal thoughts ill fine need help someone talk to know im coward commit anything,0 + year lastit interests see year die new years eve perhaps,1 +feel bad wanting die see many people worse melike sometimes wish could escape time real reason too theyre intrusive thoughts get brains running feel severe im thankful time feel stupid feeling like first place ppl clearly worse,1 +im afternoonive showered shaved get dressed go walk park maybe get something lunch eaten anything meds two days now drink stupidly little amount alcohol water ive gone bed im going sit tree write rest need write directly address people care most say im accord hope find happiness somewhere love you even though know are valuable find lonely theres somebody lonely you im sorry j mostly miss me,1 +nowi know correct place post not not remove it failing redflag confusing overwhelming feeling left even drained began even know possible tried kill days ago spotty vision pounding head ignited carnal stupid impulse tear belt away neck so now tell someone call someone pretend like never happened days since ive stowed away everyone let music tide over night im alone guilt how pathetic that raw feel confused feel conflicted know fuck say think now im fucking alone know us trapped shitty little worlds fuck man hate feeling fucking way so now,1 +hanson brothers andy apparently act together hank clearly act together need money andy comes scheme get dough consequences whole hanson familybr br this film delivers layered fullblooded roller coaster ride knows exactly doing crime drama thriller would happily compare no country old men films ample supply character drama thrills devil thriller side fast pace no country colder bleaker film really admire devil bit enjoyable definitely less violence devil no country acting delivers well ethan hawke sometimes wooden past brings jitters sweating deerintheheadlightslook besieged hank philip seymour hoffman andy films hardest scenes fast becoming actor believe anythingbr br theres really much wrong film jumps back forth without confusing events spiral control film never writing from first timer kelly masterson directing veteran sidney lumet editing stay tight drum many categories award caliber stuff though maybe films like the departed no country squeezed one limelight liked those like this,0 +film first acquaintance talents chris cooper deeply impressed character played knew saw film great things come gifted actor plays union captain who along couple enlisted men foraging eastern kentucky happen upon farm sesech woman whose husband chosen go confederacy br br the portrayal eastern kentucky seriously divided sentiments war accurate looking war film lot blood guts would it looking drama explores psychology peoples war actually philosophically best study divided loyalties affected interaction peoples border states americas civil war,0 +im suffering inside badim almost mild cognitive disability iq around ocd major depressive disorder severe anxiety officially diagnosed potentially bipolar disorder psychiatrist said severe anxiety cant drive lose control bladder operate motor vehicle difficult cognitive issues ive sex havent sex almost years dont job live rural area dont drive keep getting rejected remote jobs positive side best supportive family entire world love much basically sleep day havent wanted survive anymore really need game plan do ive tried going office vocational rehabilitation help worth jack shit,1 +personal feeling cannot divorce movie politicalhistorical underpinnings like many american reviewers tend do growing main street usa growing yugoslavia time torn east west like guys torn esther everybody else esther torn tovarish joe guys shame certain situations lost audience never lived tito feel movie underrated bad lost director movies like make freedom feel important another eastern european coming age filmit sensitive portrayal teenagers walking fine line might eventually lead real freedom,0 +self promotion college scholarships money work organization looking find kids get scholarships theres also raffles could big also job opportunity interested please dm me post goes cant post let know ill take right away yes im teen lol,0 +sleeping woke up feel sleepy idk do mean slept like six hours probably okay guess,0 +mom shopaholic im it know else call besides shopaholic go shopping random things buys specific things latest kick starbucks cups absolutely despise shell complain enough money important things like braces food go onto facebook buy bunch cups around may even thats ive seen ive alive phase like would buy leggings lula roe stopped turned pyramid scheme also done thing times like buy beanie babies alive time think deal stress even reason find something else release stress berating sisters either whole thing reminds much dislike mother horrible is would get post mostly annoyed stressed thats shes wasting money cups shell never use family thought intervention never act know shell never listen pretend victim hope phase ends soon dont hear complain money spend cups long story short mom going phases buying specific things release stress also complaining money,0 +disgrace familyim years old live town opposite side state family theyre providing funds complete education university near here ive almost year ive done nothing waste life away get piss poor grades dropped two three classes failed class fail class two others which officially put knife federal aid education pissed away tons money textbook answers cant bring anything help myself im failure im watching life fall around flames cant muster power anything it whats wrong me failure cant whats best me instead sit around nothing day get stoned avoid problems cause pain love me even good for whats point existence act like im kind human wants help others really care anyone myself im manipulative lying good nothing going nowhere fast im disgusting ugly loser cant even help self im waste existence im disgrace family myself life itself whats point anymore whats point living theres nothing live for deserve ive given ive wasted life could had deserve second chance deserve die like waste air am,1 +watching old trisha paytas videos miss abd golden age,0 +teens think school shootersserial killers cool please go commit die,0 +want hair like rico nasty people curly hair know lot curly hair help shaved sides head hair long enough one problem lion hair ltc hair gt keep googling thin hair keep coming dead ends good idea do help want kms hair frustrating,0 +help mom leans emotionally comes father relationship financial issues etci dealing lot personally outside family stuff top too feel trapped honestly went see counselor college thought got routine going would fine also extremely judgemental scolded coming college regularly believe things told him left go counselor times abusive relationship ended still felt vulnerable scared leaving place told feel ready stop this said nothing could do point feel like nothing nobody me feel emotionally trapped know do go anymore,1 +nobody else depressed like sounds like death fucking close,0 +friends may long postrant want emphasize angry sad right now started like last week friend said going take break social media like ok night multimillionaires ig live saying cut friends successful since im grinding basically friend blocked her less day blocked like jokingly way fooling around unblock minutes days asked done break nigga left fucking read cant explain simple words angry got me shit like alot like knows text her waits ages respond always making excuses cant stay late takes long respond think lying now like anymore long ago stuck together glue made story guy talking made feel upset insecure asked talk it responded minutes saying yeah ok sorry active ig lately told story responded hours said ok sorry i got root canal thing always support her especially emotionally wanted see would react need emotional help even try dumbass says sorry like wtf past days talked like minutes always pm reason waits day almost over like yesterday texted am saying k wanna ask summ want answer honest possible k waits fucking hours say mhm tell are interested talking anymore know saw said responded yet she probably pm like always know hurts even more fact texting dumbass crush making tiktoks watching fucking netflix instead talking me knowing hurts even more never told her showed angryupset gets me think annoying get wrong shit told love not like that friend became close months know alot shit her know means alot vise versa tell shit like i miss you stuff pissing fuck off again really want friendship end think clear give flying fuck me even always helped her feel like used like water bottle shit kept drinking using me need emotionally anymore done threw away sorry thats bad analogy know mean one time need well actually need emotional help wanted see would react did best goofy ass sorry even try yes know already said already really good friend had know feel alone past days crying much and cry alot getting fucking angry i think yesterday worst feel alone im even going tell going rub annoyingshes fucking annoying one sorry end little rant reading appreciate much reading getting end please tell fix friendship love miss person much im trying make friendship end,0 +f admitted psychiatric ward scarred me tell story im prolific writer regardless anyone willing listen remains found please comment ill get started,0 +im like girls im useless,0 +broke boyfriend want die so broke boyfriend year half small crush another guy felt unfaithful liking guy ended it regret much want back boyfriend know hurt ever before want back really feel like soul mate regret breaking him this im depressed hurting last night accidentally burned burning paper scratched chest scissors thought killing myself hoping would send message really regret prove truly love him puppy watching whole time reason im still here im really scared want end life want make pain stop get back feel like want anymore please anyone anything say please say it im really positive hurt get help,1 +reasons date me least six beyblades,0 +im still waiting im still waiting hot elf appear front gf,0 +continue lyrics great edgy teenage years got time got time live got time live cant say goodbye,0 +got english exam tomorrow joined single english class since online class started like intentionally join classes lets say bit stupid im wondering myself do join exam dont idea taught class,0 +shoot house shipment back ahhhh back lets goooooooooooooooo time grind damascus,0 +cant anymoremy anxiety gets worse day day feel like black cloud circles around never get out cry cry cant anything it talked doctors therapists im anti anxiety anti depressants dont help im scared eat sleep fear get sick matter many times say irrational stupid cant get thoughts head know cant kill self id never able fuck cant say want live much longer like this recent thing too irrational fears dumbest stuff taken life feel like cant anymore dont know ok post im planning taking life someone talk would nice,1 +today daydamn realize fast time going funny last month actually fun knowing itd end end going end life last post hope bitch out,1 +whole seek help reach out thing work outi literally understand it much family family far away cant much talk me ive talked lot always talk it make better brain bad fiance good helps me hes tired cant save yknow holds panic attacks makes sure know im getting psychosis anything lol cant make panic attacks alleviate anxiety cant take away im wits end ive breakdown last hours brink days im kinda calming down enough type stop thinking im gonna myself everyone says reach out seek help ok do gonna take long time see professional cuz go regular doctor even getting appointment see takes least weeks go hospital last time tried checked bc waiting room made super anxious yes go therapy every day getting worse every second felt like shift work today fuckin years long standard hours nothing bad even happened chill day felt trapped idk feel like cant wait weeks reach to do please tell me last cry help absolutely go deep end know mental health know feel like short matter time fall apart entirely months please help stop it please want get help,1 +story almost got gf months ago around july classmate f chatted know hows going back ff never really close kinda strict also boyfriend time months chat around late early boyfriend see chatted kinda abandoned unknown reasons she never gave enough details chatting told likes crush me happy told kinda liked well never called bf gf she want to dunno kinda like friends like other months chatting told longer crush me also told crush serious im happy crush know earth means think crush fun something yeah thats it felt kinda numbed happened im happy sad dunno that simply care stuff crushes gfs etc anymore care im longer even interested crush somethin thanks reading post hope nice day night,0 +sister teaching dad tiktok dances guys help do edit step mom help getting hand,0 +die ways redflag war naturallyand contempt idea end one needs know one should even though may care place young man express stuff act inner peace haunting yet calming live thoughts forever end life end life whatever happens happens thats ok,1 +every time argument boyfriend want die fair himtitle feel frustrated wanting die every little minor inconvenience big argument fair cant tell feel isnt right worry ever bringing something want kill myself want pain stop dont know want die always happens dont see ever getting better fair,1 +watched video yt high school hung bullied obsessed watching videos people dying would wish person diedtoday also wrote following notebook is death peaceful tired shitty life pretty sure death peaceful like asleep wo dreams idea kill wish go path one day want say sorry fucking done pain pain depression pretty sure ok normal,1 +crying hours minutes nowill able end long days,1 +teen programmers there please friend need guysguynts life,0 +life meaninglessthe woman ever mattered decided wants another man planning kill self met her made feel like began love her gone another cold painful day wake up lay bed hours unable get up cry sleep want deal pain anymore easiest painlessly way itplease save heart ache worth mind made,1 +im losing family created actions familys actions shared information something relationship truly understand shouldnt shared asked treat differently started treating like shit disrespected make matters worse lied telling months bestfriend fianc looking feeling stupid since past told truth fight want son life point would go back time lot shit over take bac eveyythjgv ive done maybe never involved family all miss son time cry sleep cry waking up want pain stop,1 +wish killed decade startedi chance decided reason would proceed plan successful year part path success finding job fund success want dont think im getting job even though im considered interview ups store im regretting decision stay alive year disaster disappointment suck period im ugly im stupid way live decent life throwing dreams trash going college live lame lonely adult life think im going kill right,1 +even knowive made set conditions mind going kill myself believe fine it may snap break conditions comfort me worries all one knows want anybody know exist society like this possible,1 +boy girl both neither need know,0 +sexually identify floofy furry ,0 +looking willing members contexthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslrciim_trying_to_make_music_and_sprites_for_a_randomutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumwebxampcontexthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslrciim_trying_to_make_music_and_sprites_for_a_randomutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumwebxampcontext ampxb trying make metroidvania game due lack experience aspects sheer size planned game cannot alone currently members team ubattleblockbss people needed programmer help battleblock someone deal animations someone help sprites someone help music someone help environments atmosphere ampxb know pay people work this since passion project,0 +think might hang latermy dad got fight candlehe like smell its cinnamon told light anymore would fall asleep burn house down despite never laying bed light it watch tv browse internet candle always site light makes room smell better smells humid musty since hardwood floors told fall asleep lite got arguing said useless mooch him called lazy sleep in told lost job blamed anyways sleeping in complained found job yet suck money away also told get feeling sad guess ill get sad hanging myself planning hang closet belt may leave note saying im going wasting money anymore ill later night comes later until goes bed find process it hopefully ill dead soon way im wasting money,1 +stay home plays sobs uncontrollably,0 +blood thinners booze razora culmination teen angst melodrama depression lead bed crying first time years listening brand new gosh im deep different run mill i got broken im sad post called buddy today tell still love long past ex theyve still fucking around used lied hurts specifically cheating hurts fifth th relationship ive cheated in first one stung first person ever with one pushed dope road ive since gotten unfortunately second one hurt much third one started get comical raising questions haha fuck whats wrong me fourth happened entirely numb fifth really instilled new sense absolute hopelessness course thats issue childhood filled mental abuse crippling mental illness obviously made contributions wanting commit redflag since twelve three failed attempts that complete lack close friends could speak problems would help id never able vocalize them find right words explain going head motivation seek professional either way im spill whole life story i like most wanted soapbox stand on groan vain last words leave mark small may be regrets left large enough mark nothing value created book written painting finished drawings built things ive wanted life theres nothing show them but accomplishments exactly mean much dead,1 +become bird smol cute learn fly freedom,0 +lets try againposted before left personal details out willing try again little transparency even sure post much going post bear me ill give condensed version yo female two years ago open marriage dissolved amicably possible im gay left husband best friend woman family disowned me moved different city got decent job year it psychotic episode hospitalized awhile diagnosed bipolar obsessivecompulsive features upon eventual return work bad reaction medication began seizures go disability able take antipsychotics reason stuck mood stabilizer less effective long after car totalled long that found girlfriend cheating quite time nowhere go resolved stay relationship history ibs managed symptoms point unmanageable last year underweight many many diets suggested doctors specialists again medication effective also sensory processing disorder diagnosed young lucky resources cope now biggest sensitivity sound sometimes clothes altogether unbearable heavy lifting always coping mechanism also severe skin problems psoriasis eczema keep breaking dermatologist calls stress rash body incredibly painful times impossible move today swelling severe arms cant put shirt struggling finding appropriate medication also heart murmur many new generation antihistamines negatively effect that lost disability coverage november since living savings amazed impossible get job apply jobs indeed bottom posting things like people applied job bachelors graduate work cant even get interviews minimum wage positions overqualified ive also tried applying without listing background dice currently substitute teacher jobs far between countys system since december managed get one work entire time one day work three monthsthinking filing bankruptcy stopped seeing therapist name debt month going able make even minimum payments note ive unemployment office joke grateful place live gf familys house hours day party house spd overload fever pitch due chaos nights cannot get sleep like said heavy lifting always helped cope weak able eat hardly lift anything homeless before think again ten years ago much better health gets unbearably hot here mean people die every summer regularly gets cool night current state health know could survive that future look good me meditate every day used work yoga times possible level physical pain weakness also keep gratitude journal know lot grateful for try write every day things seem really bleak feel like might me advice find online somebody somewhere cares me that even was would change this please comment care me hardly qualifies odd perceptions therapist calls them returning worse stress feel scared also helpless stop it read lot learned helplessness nothing actually helpless also want note brother committed redflag years ago know happens aftermath know hard is know hellish also know many hells might one them anyone clue survive this,1 +ayo females around age hi ,0 +cannot believe low scores movie probable reason low number votes meaning people seen it simply fantastic movie many stories interwined within complicated character grows movie experience undergoing life changes scenery simply amazing end credits best ever movie seen just like shakespeare play yes little dated filmed issues characters face current could filmed without modifications story line raul julia amazing best role ever movie signature piece young molly ringwald excellent matures girl young woman susan sarandon perfect young carefree woman john cassavetes force puts together favor find movie view enjoy it come back imdb score movie top time really belongs,0 +young woman comes home town husband passed away accident barely settles small town shortly after loses little son kidnapping hopes could lead kinds following plots normal movie find new partner happy finally depressed enough struggle finally kill herself try kill herself series severe fights god trusts god find god seems forgive everyone even killer well careful god movie mean thing god way movie deals issue quite interesting womans point view gods perspective in way would lots grass growing clouds flying views suppose rather third partys eye movie let us perceive explain thingbr br the movie interesting woman theres man whos everywhere around woman obviously love her way hes funny guy like clown say shamelessly hangs around heroine combination two woman full tension crying throwing always man smiling talking stupidly ends good balance emotions nothing absurdly wrong tediousbr br highly recommend,0 +ngl eating noobs jkjk,0 +outer limits brilliant show part leaves strong emotions are undoubtedly stinkerepisodes essentially old pulpcomic turned tvshow expected part excellently done well produced directed often featuring bigname talent seem enjoy working solid translation short fiction hour long television formatbr br the outer limits tends focus rather large ethicalphilosophicalmoral questions rarely ends without voiceover intciting serious thoughtbr br from timetotime themes hammered little bit heavily thickheaded viewers additionally certain level distrust government conducive effective democracy unluckily catch several episodes backtoback border absurd regards distrust armycia etc one note large group power the roman catholic church evangelicals peoples republic china on cast bad light frequency ranging oftenbr br while show beat dead horse watched enough overall quality astounding im grateful scifi decided continue airing produce seasonbyseason dvd set and afford it,0 +today kinda great so im us trump president good friend fixed pc talking hours discord wrote random girl know irl played among us class once total bitch actually nice good time shit happened im happy today,0 +greystoke legend tarzan lord apes based classic book tarzan apes edgar rice burroughs faithful adaptation classic book film great scenery like jungles south africa greystoke mansion acting also great chirstopher lambert great performance tarzan also first english speaking role film funny moments sad moments touching moments makes real classicbr br the film sees boat crashing jungles south africa time later son named john apes go hut one kills father apes take live adopt one own years go john grows learns like apes teens foster mom gets attacked native hunters soon killed them years later group people going africa expedition setting camp theyre soon attacked natives escape capitaine phillippe darnot left behind injured arrows hiding meets john adult takes home takes care wounds phillippe starts teach john speak english teach hes one apes person phillippe goes leave john goes him sometime arrive greystoke manor sixth earl greystoke shown long lost grandson john shown bedroom picture true mom dad john also meets jane porter slowly get know begins feelings her christmas sixth earl greystoke slides stairs killing himself john starts miss jungle wants return phillipe tells stay since everything done would nothing john torn life greystoke lord apesbr br greystoke legend tarzan lord apes great classic seen ,0 +im straight thats told someone class thought gay idea got idea gay,0 +really need someone talk toif aim pm ill give sni would really appreciate advice comfortanything really jokes,1 +im close ending all boyfriend kitten holding backeveryday lately slowly become agony me entire time want cry scream punch again dont know much longer live deal this im worthless ive disappointment everyone cant keep going,1 +yknow see art post want say something besides wow great artwork cant think anything leave it feel like one experiences this,0 +hard know make weird little aussie crime flick one hand enjoyable little film great sense humour other lacks certain something ensures film never reaches boundary keeps trapped within merely interesting territory said two hands well plotted film excellently juggles several stories time allows several small climaxes throughout movie turn helps stop film becoming boring absurdity goingson thick australian accents bizarre set characters help ensure film entertains also plot follows story young doorman thinks hell go bigger things accepting job local kingpin doesnt job lands trouble fancies swim stupidly leaves ten grand beach promptly stolen couple kids time lives shopping spree however rosy hero must find money face consequencesbr br the film made cast unknowns least back nowadays heath ledger something name impress much here however performance mostly onenote variety make compelling lead fits movie hes australian looks naive beyond that hes best lead ive ever seen movie ask me bryan brown gave best performance here might great deal screen time steals every scene hes provides movie lot humour hes got nothing best sequence however takes place form probably hilarious bank robbery ever caught film whole recommend film people enjoy quirky crime films weirdness plentiful way events take turn bizarre enjoyable fan sort film cant really say two hands float boat must see thing get chance see ityou probably wont completely regret it,0 +im trying become rich successful precise rich successful rapper ive slacking bit grind past months im trying pick again may grinding much want school still grind more practice music everyday mix things freestyle i need more go discord give people reviews music use positive affirmations etc im hopes im living dream life time im perfect age life way want it ill keep grinding even make yeah wanted make post wanna check music ask comments,0 +going try killing right nowfuck life,1 +overdosing painless want go sleep never wake overdosing,1 +mind though seems rather peaceful point alone causes us die first place seems least going die alone,1 +walking reddit im online classes online classes sucks blaw blaw blaw,0 +sorting new kind lame always people trying random weird story,0 +want kill myselfhello there long time dark place cant see light constantly hear thoughts want talk anyone hate living hate myself existence meaning wish could die partner love together long time years but craziness driving away know loves me cant bare anymore know became horrible person redflag attempt years ago today thinking it took sleeping pills want pain go away currently taking antidepressants therapy seem help came place friends wanted someone know want die,1 +unfortunately happened adobe flash player gone think back memories weve made playing give robot chess tik fak toe castle crashes many f,0 +discord server like join discord server dm ill provide link come chill us ,0 +saw psychiatrist went cat therapy june previously counselor recommended try sg enable find job printed piece paper containing information sg enable went sg enable found needed medical report psychiatrist sg enable could accept me today talk psychiatrist issue adult neurodevelopmental service ands department institute mental health imh singapore went imh mother independent yet job yet felt inferior it want people know needed financial help mother pay consultation psychiatrist one day hoped would longer need mothers financial aid pay consultation psychiatrist hope could work use savings help pay consultation psychiatrist future expenses successfully tried shut earphones temporarily imh need continuous loud noise generated earphones feel safe good sign longer afraid strangers still needed dark glasses though hide eyes strangers needed dark glasses peeped strangers see scrutinizing me would notice it time strangers even look me felt safe wearing dark glasses outside whereby would strangers around waiting consultation psychiatrist time went doctors consultation room psychiatrist politely asked mother go instead staying together consultation able see psychiatrist alone better communicating people now longer needed mother around remind important things must tell psychiatrist could myself good sign asked whether could wrote medical report stating fit go sg enable find job psychiatrist one charge case another psychiatrist charge case seeing psychiatrist instead usual psychiatrist case manager imh knew needed earlier appointment psychiatrist psychiatristincharge could see month now currently psychiatrist able see earlier date which today psychiatristincharge able that consultation drove mother home going cat therapy later would going peers house cat therapy peer someone mental illnesses like joining support group organized mentor took dark glasses earphones previously another psychiatrist told appropriate wear dark glasses earphones going talk person remembered advice taking dark glasses earphones fear people came again luckily people come cat therapy everything going well could control thoughts emotions behavior good sign defensiveaggressive cat therapy drove orchard road singapore cat therapy favorite thing whenever free drove home afterwards took bath needed eat late night supper could sleep routine this would able sleep would developed psychological problems eat late night supper still needed mother help take supper delivery man want people know needed mothers financial help one day hoped would able work could money pay supper consultation psychiatrist imh future expenses would like say thank everyone read blog post hoped sincerely would nice day ahead good bye ,1 +everyone love given meeveryone dad side family friends anyone even consider dating mom begged move another state her saying wants nothing made honest mistake im tired caring putting effort getting shit return really want end all even bother,1 +day wanking never started never long looking porn isnt sin im cool go heaven,0 +healthcare professional training im tiredits finals week something happened got pushed breaking point two panic attacks two days looked oxycontin left surgery year ago couldnt find it wanted see enough wanted one day end all cant find making worse feels way taken one talk wont me dont think id ever actually go nice choice,1 +really hard test minutes anyways decided try cambridges cpe certificate proficiency english written test going happen soon im scared although prepared pls wish luck even tho ive studying since march xd english isnt first language would huge improvement least certification since basic person handle english kind certification lol,0 +fcking done cant anymorei rent room aunt month mean time yr old son income work lives us making payments brand new volts wagon jetta diesel car give per month got stimulus check bought dollar gaming laptop year old xbox one gaming desktop one two inch flat screen tvs switch laptop almost shirts pairs pants sweat pants pairs blue jeans dollar laptop barely play gta fps disability got stimulus check save entire thing trying buy vehicle live get place absolutely nothing value spend bedroom sleeping watching stuff shitty laptop live town miles town town nothing fast food places walmart nothing more live ghetto town even uber taxi bus system legit cant take anymore every time turn around hes got new video game im dying play new new that vehicle destroyed crashed already even broke windshield cost fix got upset threw cellphone windshield one tvs new windshield paid mom aunt blackmailed saying leave arthritis knees feet back theres days cant get bed way survive homeless streets theres days cant even walk course forked money over fcking sick crap im end tired struggling never gettign anywhere meanwhile pieces crap like get everything world nothing even treats mom like crap still gets stuff im done cant anymore topped me,1 +murder new york one better chan mysteries ive seen first timebr br in one charlie chan visiting new york attend police convention time people involved aircraft plants murdered decides help investigation along number son murders turn results sabotage aircraft plants chan helps identify murdererbr br charlie chan played well sidney toler rest cast includes sen yung number son marjorie weaverbr br i rather liked mystery worth like sort thingbr br rating half stars ,0 +quarantined thanksgiving isolated quarantine last days college dorm different city one live in wish could turkey right family,0 +sun everything under im actually thinking committing redflag today reason continue hate life everything iti longer control impulses continue make things worse off person much pain zero hope think death would better life one life seems silly throw away relationship strained max dont care anyone cant see past benefit them dont want here want die get rid feelings bad,1 +want want diebut do mom passed away earlier year accidental i believe overdose oxycodone prescribed take daily person one felt could rely on anyone world matter happens gone want go her boyfriend broke night struggling feel strongly me initiated breakup painful see indecisive knew felt tearing apart im heartbroken cant hang circle friends without making feel awkward they friends first all instead playing dnd like every friday night im writing this would wish feelings worst enemy struggling too sorry life dealt hand wish anything something could it,1 +personally watched see footage s s fascinating learn drug movement essentially started became pop culture eventual uncompromising force life interviews classic rock stars titillating humorous feel like secret nodding head timebecause feels good familiar loved it segments spresent day highly recommend aspects including rock music hipper movement politics good ol history check marked box saying contains spoiler idea might consider spoiler regards since discussed whats segments wanted safe,0 +dream cant wake upi know start but thr past years life and maybe more dissociating time felt weird moviedream disconnecting world myself details life nightmare yo and recently thought thats life was like yeah late everything time speeds keep zoning out life breakdowns three times day hate much obsessing junkfood throw shower later on i dedicating life distract pain avoid it medication anything tried therapy cant seem fully comprehend different diagnosis believe complex ptsd im tired im tired im fucking tired im tired spend almost every single days last years wanting die im tired hatred towards myself im tired able connect others im tired excluded im tired people telling problem pretty tired object used im tired caring im tired disappointment family im tired letting people hurting ones try love me tired watching life far away stuck parallel universe feel lonely exhausted im done shows over go home edit cant english,1 +college happenedhi year old male started college awful fardepression started soon began thinking future happen fail college feeling wont go away keeping functioning well i cant sleepeator study thison top social anxietyi met decent people college nothing helping get better want drop staying make feel worsei wish constant feeling depression would go away always therewalls closing around im afraid cant break themand top im gay homophobic country lovely,1 +dating confident overthinker tldr im confident enough talk strangers cant ask anyone out wallow misery ask girl like prom wallow misery turns down ill probably first matter say im really bad this ugh dont really know start this guess issue im unable ask anyone out feel like ive got bottomless inkwell confidence talking people like friends strangersyou hear talking customers checkout job walmart comes asking people overthink lot countyim us currently big downward trend corona cases school planning prom hate dances theyve made extremely anxious since middle school started letting go them often id either sit around cafeteria friends alone fun one time valentines day dance middle school called mom soon dance started come get mefortunately got able catch friends excellent sing along rendition barbie girl one good experiences ive dances girl friends separated corona first hit schools alphabetical split return school system school ended system extended whole school quarantine going school days dont classes together dont talk much used to dont follow instagram dont know shes single not post mess know havent posted reddit long time good reason depression used mess brain make post awful shit ive developed coping mechanisms im much happier now guess ill sum question tdlr whoever read im sorry incoherent,0 +girlfriend crush sex nowtime wait sweet karma,0 +sorry ,1 +dont want die think aboutim torn reddit always seem situations end draining energy feelings bad tendency putting wrong people pedestals forgetting human too often portraying important myself biggest insecurity romance like need liked loved someone think beyond reach person shows interest ego spikes up long story short put situation taken advantage of worst part is knew beginning goal felt feel feel like biggest piece shit like ecstacy high much fun moment effects wear youre left exhausted depressed lately repressing feelings ignoring signs ive wanted cry i later night alcohol came realization ive making unwise decisions please instant gratification desires takes horrible messy brain tells nasty horrible things wish could execute way thing dying dont want anything death makes sense dont want go back medicine want go therapy given fact medical industry works ive meds months years think emotions place im even craving hard drugs shut voice whats weird voices go follows she killed me did yeah how imagine wicked death basically talk rd person literally driving nuts could something productive like studying sudden find literally talking nd point view medical term this every day battle course ia accentuated night drinking consuming becoming sharper day day want feel ease body mind much ask,1 +one point fun things true robotics competition taught useful skills like code build obsessed actually winning learning unfortunately younger me school teams coaches focused ensuring every student learned something never teammates super passionate winning competition hindsight like winning really mattered anyway video games think playing bad start playing avoid problems real life dream go pro esport title wish realized spent thousands hours alone front screen honing skills never actually stuck game either played whatever trending school time suppose best competitive pretty meaningless title compared rest country nothingi used animetv youtube means escape reality well make new friends high school would watch stuff hours day while maintaining grades parents would kill mei tried youtuberstreamer like every internet kid takes talent effort timei also spent lot time trying game dev lacked skill little success trading steam still consider time wasted useful skilli manage lose weight get better shape got good computer science program lost passion programming math become thing point started binge eating episodes currently medication seems numbed feelings occasionally feel intense despair hunger it usually feel nothingi counseling care enough go anymore say everyone makes mistakes still young make ton friends college compare others even friend anyway also really great relationship parents guessed alreadyi skills get paid programming hope start enjoying soon interested entrepreneurship safe thing pursuetldr wish productive social kid instead loner grinded pointless tasks also lost passion current major afraid switch feels like headed boring life mi feel like wasted unhealthy amount childhood things stopped fun provide value video games competitive robotics watching youtubetvanime,1 +needed someone talk toi found resources page here went wwwcrisischatorg read faq terms conditions sat waited almost hour asked right now panicked told know im currently act anything told chat people committing redflag right place talk someone,1 +give upi keep getting lost self,1 +narcissism thing keep alive super high eq fact know things others dont fact feel things others dont advanced knowledge sexual logistics ability think man woman many powers acquired years im normal man im gifted supernatural way,0 +nothing live foras title says simply nothing left live for family zero friends social life all also talents worthwhile skills fact im pretty sure people would care gone would workplace theyd hire someone new easy peasy forget me want continue life sucks nowadays wake up watch youtube videos go reddit go work eat shower rinse repeat like everyday exact same girl likes guy whos socially isolated anxious depressed anyone makes life worth sticking around for literally feel like prisoner isolation cell apartment thats lonely am wish could meet people social anxiety fucks course cannot name one reason stick around for life sadness live sadness decades could end pain early ive tried many times better physically mentally fall flat face every time told give up options slim ambition energy goals actually felt happy before know went wrong tried get help people said need toughen up im just lazy lol wish simple case lazy also wish real friends see people want friends me im monster would drag too needed get march gates eternal darkness reading tough spot sincerely hope find happiness ive tried many times still nothing changes think god whoever created telling time go really wanna die want pain existence end anyways peace,1 +redflag lettermy family bunch dumbasses strangers hypocrites assholes junkies love useless pathetic fucking family would happy hope enjoy mediocrity lack introspection happy go that hopefully next life ill better family actually gives tools succeed fucking best ive wanted upgrade family living conditions long progress ive made life go next one finish job hopefully alone without people like holding able dedicate improvement,1 +faced myself completed probation drugs need leave environment everything know get fresh start im ,1 +know anymoreive dreams lately im crying like heart breaking ever heard death wail thats feels like cry like cant bear live without whatever is dreams varying themes usually something dear destroyed feel like time like time fall start sobbing crying harder breathe in feel like im dying inside out like heart fail time things love surrounding me nothing anymore barely get bed barely breathe motivation anything anymore cook clean work im newly married husband want go therapy says ruins marriages still need someone anyone talk to ever cried help loud one wants listen ive told people ive called redflag hotlines told husband might kill myself called mom help one seems care mom feel like cant breathe know anymore im trying hard know ive tried call therapists none gotten back really know im typing but are,1 +community icon change well it,0 +wanna die get betteroriginally posted radvice idea subreddit wanna die dont know get better honestly opinion put this subreddit seems somewhat appropriate guess im point life want die honesty dont know do im pretty youngonly teenager redflag mind many years ive made plans multiple times always get scared last second dont feel like open anyone it mainly due fact open person told youre white cant problems im scared ask parents therapy someone really want open im scared theyre going like last person told theyre going tell someone would like ask therapy honesty dont know parents would believe wanting die dont want cause even stress honestly dont think ill able ask without breaking ill able ask all absolutely terrified telling parents onto im asking advice do want die again getting worse keep thoughts killing daily now want end thing is im thinking straight dont want die would make people sad would anything world making people sad want live long fulfilled life dont know ill able handle life longer dont think ill able decide do know make decision wont follow without someone expecting actually follw decision im asking tell person thoughts andor ask therapy alternatives,1 +hi everyone gad gets much strongerprevalent enough sleep coincidentally also makes unable sleep sometimes kinda like vicious circle normally really many problems started new fulltime job lot responsibility triggered insomnia subsequently underlying fears doctor prescribed xanax whenneeded last resort since really scared withdrawaladdiction reading drug its called xanax alprazolam started taking mg night really breaking down,1 +need therapy form music listen search nfnf actually saved life please try listening music hard time cant promise make feel better feel little less alone rough days recommend trauma mansion paralysed hold therapy session breathe could leave us dreams want love feet stress hate only like miss days enjoy today ok might long time need keep living hope one day be,1 + already feeling tired life take moreright need talk reddit one talk real life whole life shit im german grew america years left friends there make new friends germany left years go papua new guinea parents till last year friends still america im germany right nobody talk to im problems im fat overly uglybut feeling worthlessness cannot get rid of really getting job social phobias go gym least amount people there dont get much cuz havent found new friends germany feel like cant anything theres constant fear failing people think really really starting tire emotionally need advice deal this ive tried redflag pussied outhow gain confidence deal life hopeless,1 +day single honestly bad still miss wish couldve done better im crying actually productive yayy,0 +idk explain anything artreligion teacheri feel really depressed sure hold together sanity feelings basically ill ask teacher use bathroom ill go cry there really seem like ive crying like im depressed whole week really want tell adult problems cant dodge question anyone advice help explain urge die also ive going bathroom almost every lesson teaches general every lesson teachers getting suspicious,1 +m kill vid camm kms vid cam,1 +reddit large savanna popular subreddits water holes hows water guys gals non binary pals,0 +turned today im ready share wisdom ill answer questions serious random philosophical plain silly ill best helpful,0 +theres difference micro dick feeling actual pain boner pushes underwear,0 +need hug filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +gonna hang soon hopehi im female tried committing redflag weeks ago by stabbing seeing nothing changed nobody cared all brother could say i never understand pain cant help you hope somehow continue on nobody helped me even though mental hospital they jackshit told therapist psychiatrist amount anything either think ive come point really want it im even taking meds anything depression though help sleep yay already know advance life complete failure future ill fail every way possible ill never find job ill never find friends never ever ever find love im thinking buying nylon rope amazon sucks wait cant try immediately wanted tell someone im gone soon least ill try hate suicidal taboo is cant talk anyone openly whether doctor psychologist psychiatrist god forbid normal person nobody even tries understand really might much maybe way out always automatically side without even like really discussing all makes worse opinion,1 +tehehehehe hate me ill anything senpai almost seven time leave wooork hate dumb boss think name b edward room stinky smell cheesenweed kiss dakimakura time yank peen crunchyy rolllllll takkeeee hommmeeee waifus imotoussssss shes got pies thighs tibds eyes cost ohhhhhhhhh im homeeee cronchy roll see dreams shes real d b warm embrace reminds mothers love coming wipe drool shake morning wooood cranchy roooollllll takkkkeee hommmme waif fawk waifus imotous shes got pies thighs aint shes got heart big anyone could fallllll forrrrrrrr crunchyyyyy rollllllllllllllllllll,0 +getting tired httpsiimgflipcomitdnjjpghttpsiimgflipcomitdnjjpg,0 +yooooooo found sumthin ume takes profile idk takes ops profile though,0 +got reason live nowit weekend rotting away room thinking whats point this call quits done even caring would hurt family point asked universe give reason go days months even and mom got kittens sister watching two tiny creatures put smile face feel like watch grow named one morgana because persona waiting sister name one,1 +get relaxing weekend probably gonna twisted teas might able get hit good shit friend,0 +chinese government rn mf uworstestgrammar bought whole fucking platoon tanks probably spent enough buy least new concentration camps,0 +hes really going leave meim verge tears im borderline hyperventilating sent song remember me coco almost burst tears cant anymore cant deal loss fault know it tried hard,1 +hard see friends ignoring covid guildlines people stupidi want everyone safe ocd one things germs know one safe act like im stuck crazy telling stay safe feel helpless even though take precautions still feel dirty infected,0 +sure anymorewell dont know start ig start around th grade think mostly started get sad keep mind im highschool anyways got backstory way go honestly feel nothing anymore lost interest absolutely everything especially things made happy days still things used make happy hoping happiness come back everyday loop day hard time making friends since im weird ig im really much talker family doesnt seem make happy anymore either ive seem sleeping due lack energy interest really dont feel like im worthless feel like rather better planet since whats difference dead feeling nothing right yes ive thought taking life cut little bit past months ive talked friends good cause never really thought id reach reddit telling thousands people feel get opinion feel,1 +guess sex school toilets go guess,0 +even seem worth talking anymoreit really matter yes ive made detailed plans past yes still think every minute every day even seem like matters anymore im become totally indifferent even extreme dangerous thoughts even flag problematic anymore normal thought thats head like anything else ive times day place method decided everything squared away ive hospital twice one like weeks ago idk whatever yeah wanna die cant say sure it really matter me talk anyone anymore is therapist see point getting one need medicine refill cant bothered pick up care less it,1 +bestie crush me hey yall really friendzoning cuz mean im friendzoning someone feel like bad person now lemme explain whats happening bestie pansexual really dont know identify as years ago known half year said love me loved way told her thought fine that weve still close that now days ago said still crush me feel like fucking bad person now cuz like fault sth still want friends her like need her lot technically friendzoning kinda selfish me,0 +sitcom revolved around girl must learn responsible actions power magic often used try help loved ones herself frequently resulting literal puns often disastrous always humorousbr br the program began sabrinas adventures high school fictional town westbridge located near boston massachusetts as opposed greendale comics series later seasons sabrina graduated high school enrolled college moved attempts live keep job local newspaper breaking comic roots show ended sabrinas wedding although end abandoned wedding ran harveybr br many episodes involve sabrina getting meet natural supernatural means popular reallife musical artists time including coolio violent femmes backstreet boys phantom planet davy jones monkees britney spears avril lavigne daniel bedingfield hanson edens crush savage garden n sync ashanti course nature band melissa joan harts thenboyfriend now husband mark wilkerson appeared episode ,0 +yuore penis crcumgjmccionnm filler filler filler filler filler,0 +anyone central ohio area willing assist redflag would greatly appreciate iti cant continue living anymore,1 +enjoy anything anymore friend talk tohello would rather company internet strangers company all cant enjoy life longer loved playing video games writing ive lost love me im year old male profession janitor although love people job job title feel demeaning job tends lonely one much social life im introvert hard keep friendships me people around care understand me im absolutely desperate form socialization lost lot hs friends disappeared them another story hope trying get career janitor im trying learn programming depression sort helping im really sure not please dear redditors im sure much really left anymore im point id okay dying due emptiness inside me theres anyone advice thoughts suffering similarly wants say hello welcome you anyways thank you words mean know,1 +im scared myselfim close edge one home really want hang myself one cares me sure hell dont,1 +please help mom wants know girl like dont know why dont want tell do,0 +need stop spending money stupid stuff legit spent game sole fact raccoon game cover proceed complain money,0 +self harmthis first post please forgive follow correct protocolformat etc year old female lives boyfriend always bouts depression ever since around recently unexpected major bad episode attempted redflag overdose hanging myself attempts failed setraline which helped before im starting feel even keel signed work hr department really nice supportive bought kitten love pieces already even lifted mood loti think may something making feel needed however still struggle self harm know lot people use self harm seek attention gain help people around them use way mainly go areas people cant see for example inner thigh inner top arm groin etc try make cuts seem accidental try go deep try leave scar but often fail reason cut get sense relief releases pressure brain makes sense know helps feel suicidal anymore feel thoughts feelings hiding shadows ready pounce againim scared care family amazing supportive boyfriend logic care dead terrible know stop hurting still find way get rid dark weight mind comes,1 +guys hit k know thaaaat much ive like year super impressive thats validation get real life feels pretty dope ,0 +going chiropractor sounds nice cracks n stuff yknow,0 +hey girl could hand feather falling iv boots falling love,0 +dad got rid cat year ago mom rescued abandoned kitten recently cat started poop basement becuase brother wasnt cleaning litter box yesterday cat threw carpet dad decided give adoption today dad said going go human society asked see grandma would take cat agreed dad came back home said gave cat random guy wanted it didnt even get number check whether suitable owner also didnt call grandma first see would adopt it dad doesnt even feel remorse cat laughing crying im sure whether ever see cat again one experienced pets rehomed advice coping getting pet back also ill link picture cat find to,0 +someone know compulsively chattering teeth told started could feel teeth wobble little clenched teeth together feeling finger we know one weird tricks teeth play you become compulsive now told feel ill it redflag issues chattering result see would become one done make go away,1 +hate things people always tell suicidal peopleits always thing sometimes might something else list short list itll get better just give time youre still young feel like im video game scripted messages every time same completely disregards emotional pain im in understand say it reality want help know help give false hope somehow blindly ill make it hope do still feels like feelings pushed aside,1 +sleeping deathi spend time sleeping hours day makes feel sick home sleep car park,1 +think killing lot middle grocery store society everyone blames everything fault job anyone says going walk hiring person threaten kill give part time job deal people quit blaming everything saying fault kill,1 +ive stagnating life yearsi meaningful progress turn everythint touch shit mental issues betrayed close friends dont know function anymore im getting closer every day finally pulling plug,1 +want disappeari appointment psychiatrist wednesday told parents family knows last week good everything seems dark know do want disappear become nothing like never existed first place,1 +got abuse hurting friends family family literally tears scared psychosis going come back fucking traumatising also me top kind get treated like hormones get lied horrible going kill voices,1 +feminine man death sentence societytitle believe third time posting sub thing keeping alive right music fact september ill buy gaming pc know ill live long tbh completely unwanted women get basic respect anyone men women every day painful honestly know even posting here guys obviously cant help me,1 +dont know doive mg prozac right hands seriously considering taking it everyone home asleep girlfriwnd qorried havent replying her life absolute bullshit honestly xant continue tjis anymore need one final push,1 +venting nobody talk toi lost love life month ago took car dog stuff disappeared family hates im homeless nowhere go im tired life im sick feel like im everyones way ive got lot going making day day pennies dollar literally feel like piece shit lost everything crazy little money get got robbed ill completely ive got warrant cant anything cant go homeless shelter anything feel like hell leave lifes shambles nobody nothing fault ill probably edit add later needed get little chest,1 +much added much taken away great western written mcmurtry texas rangers vs indian screenplay takes away fill mini series lot warm fuzzy relationships truth secondary main storyline ends totally unbelievable detached ending written book makes question transported lonesome dovebr br the series main characters truth cast well filming locations excellent mini series stayed true great book,0 +im glad exist whoevers reading this thats wanted say cuz know mean im glad exist alive planet me hope least bearable day,0 +please help redditor immediatelythis woman said going end life tonight im therapist idea say afraid ill say wrong thing please help her httpwwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsackoli_just_need_to_rant_about_being_poor_and_infertile,1 +want kill today mehplanning killing around today middle class white male never anything go wrong ive never happy know why live never happy etc etc also know cry help im okay that im almost positive need someone say stop dickhead dickhead ill okay today looked pictures people actually struggle life told look shit life fucking easy compared that know never life hard get anything it need someone say youre white middle class privileged dickhole kill yourself anyone understands weird feeling my life good im not comment thanks,1 +okay hear phrase probably never used sign language,0 +scariest shit happened choked food couldnt really breathe able cough eventually guess thats good shit scary fuck,0 +dont feel happiness anymorei dont remember last time actually felt happy excited dont dont know living worth anymore dont try convince kill myself want honest opinions kill myself genuinely dont see point living anymore dont even friends one likes except mom please need help,1 +wanna dm got bit till laundry done whatever for hmu,0 +person pissed floor red robin last night fuck know kid teenager grown ass man sir ever come see post know you male peed floor times pm pm last night ended stepping on go hell wearing flip flops shit splashed like puddle hope step piss thousand times burning hell everyone pee floor red robin last night hope fantastic day,0 +get easieri sick tired life trust wrong people fall love get married dump like nothing them strand foreign country nothing go home to think favor give money hotel come back this havent worked year could him nightmare,1 +hanging threadhi im really sure right place ask go long post ahead advanced sorry shitty formatting im currently girl we havent together long happiest time life far im dead set making work beginning thought fails ill never go relationship turned something worse id literally choose everything every outcome aim literally relationship time togetheror id like think bit depressed bit suicidal got together bit actual acts involved though thinking hard go therapist felt going sad inevitable path realized became fully dependent her times came close breakup thoughts zeroing redflag like never another option that nice sometimes shed like mess not serious sometimes anxiety trust issues id take seriously still stop for instance asked whos guy shed answer manner thatd make anyone think theres something lines sometimes leads endless cycle fight would end apologizing like im begging life probably am hint cheatingalthough unlikely would also give attacks those thoughts it enough keep wide awake gets resolved somehow havent fought time now im desperately fighting keep way fortunately hasnt anything weird hsppening lately inevitable want make sure ill make next time fortunately current state probably wont last weeks without talking her id dead end nd week im wish joking enough anger sadness push high place im really bad place almost seriously once stood top footbridge almost two half hours thing kept feet ground fact broken yet close so everything life depends relationship right now lot hobbies nothing makes anything work were fighting even things love turns nothing were fighting im paralyzed basically want less dependent sake us someone commit redflag kind traumaticat least me ever breaks me want last bit longer two weeks may get convinced reason something dont know im mess dont even reason writing right now think should live without something never point cringiest thing ive ever written way asking help,1 +hope money worth it really do reputation wellat stage id disappointed learn considering much clearly ruin childs life over took years parents actually shit fucking years knew bastards knew issues had id say denying dishonest principles first place legit future understand jack shit school least greedy bastards money whether going homeless somehow ending rich im returning bastards giving cent im scared commit redflag hell best believe someone disproved religion id killed longtime,1 +hey girl u blanket cos wanna wrap around u,0 +deeply convinced nothing life committing redflagabsolutely nothing every path take leads close committing redflag low iq ugly looks messed lifes ends redflag nothing change,1 +aight time face ive spending much time reddit fucking fitness attention span got go fun years see yall around,0 +voice making suicidali bullied high school every single day problem cant fix voice sounds like blocked nose talk pretty much stopped talking made depressed fat sevre anxiety depression made fail many exams school made gain weight try calling phone voice sounds shit always mumbling talk thousands things mind want say cant physically say it finished high school last thursday im pretty much alone wellive alone single whole life last weeks seem like alone trying kill me tried call gp yesterday last second anxiety attack quickly ended call dads hospital weeks so mum go every single day everything feels overwhelming know hell im supposed do guys hear next week guess ill gone,1 +want end dont know howi dont want pain want out ive never seen point this put earth without consulted hard enough see value life things going fine lately things going shitter honestly cannot take one minute this dont job job get couldnt start wasnt granted work permit country live i wasnt born here months waiting around limbo im money options havent felt real connection anyone years barely friends ones dont really give shit theyll say polite thing move on thats fine dont want nuisance theyre entitled life want out im tired keep fighting things get better get slap face people unlucky guess yet im one lucky ones many worse off doesnt make want die less anything confirms world place be anyone im gonna die decades maybe earlier that anyway grand scheme things makes difference keep suffering cant find way thats foolproof dont want pain agony want press button gets here hate parents bringing shitty place,1 +keep knife backpack commit public redflagreasons why theres many people suffering cant bear it cant help way loneliness shyness barely received messages past years autism schizophrenia guilt making hundreds people believe something passion really something liked years parent problems wanting move out feeling like future without schizophrenia suffer wanting love sex wanting say reasons redflag nigerians,1 +fear courage kill myselfmy life sucks idea dying makes feel mesmerized blissful knowing able get rid weight life all ampxb however sometimes feel like guts it see future me dropped high school life hell cope it cant last job couple months cant stick routine like that future seems obscure depressingempty lonely miserable ampxb hope one day able let go gather guts it maybe jumping tall building liberation death everything make sense end death true freedom bliss breaking free perpetual meaningless suffering,1 +give good timeive social anxiety forever makes hard awkward talk people pair low selfesteem im basically spectator conversation everyone realizes torments knowing parents hate say theyre gonna send away rehab cant stay fucking clean head plagued suicidal thoughts every time like goto solution me instead actually solving situation lay bed think somewhere tie stab im much unmotivated shit fix problems nothing fun never find reason get bed morning go pop fucking pills fuck xanax feels good confident person ive always wanted be everyone school knows pop pills im known crackhead guy deep know redflag answer straight born life constantly battling brain want live maybe im edgy year old one thing assure life going nowhere anyway besides drugs gonna kill anyway sure im gonna today one days know mean mom screamed called fucking disappointment might go get tonight im sure shed happy one less bourdon hands,1 +crush friend hes perfect me like woodworking history space gaming problem idea hes gay,0 +fall asleep time get sleep cant fall asleep whats fastest working method fall asleep,0 +finally post here swear gets removed imma pretty mad ,0 +deathi want go,1 +many guys remember gravity falls theme httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvmk_tcsjchttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvmk_tcsjc,0 +want start saying might kill least considering too kill tonight tomorrow something lingers within mei think mostly know fail school royally teachers believe me friends probably believe either mom lying herself know able genuinely lazy promise exaggeration really lazy sometimes cannot bring learn even wanted toi dread going back school summer dread living life even though many things look forward lifebig things like moving out relationship meeting internet friends first time also little things like third season favourite show announced video games preordered going friends everything between however things will end outweighed failing everythingi feel like reached end whether end life something insignificant cannot tell endi hate much think depressed either tired so tired scared failing done iti prepared life come considered running away home make sensenothing makes sense situation tried swear god fucking tried would organise papers books school reflect every evening learned school two weeks would slowly stop tried method fucking often workmy grades bad means truly good know redflaging like this rambling shit none writing form structure sorry thatcan anyone please give advice better person sorry saying appropriate subreddit know talk to sorry english bad english speaking country feel like failing,1 +cant take anymore want outim tired living want anymore ive depression anxiety since young struggle matter great life is theres always sadness looming me anxiety makes much worse sad im lonely too depression anxiety internal im sad im anxious might fuck things up enter suddenly top depression anxiety ptsd like depression anxiety except external hundred times worse addition anxious might fuck things up im anxious someone else might fuck me up im sad like myself im sad people awful may four years since started going downhill still feels like one help me one fucking takes problems seriously even therapist everyone treats like im normal like nothing happened im expected keep functioning like normal human being except im not raped fucking ptsd top depression anxiety like one gets that one understands especially family especially rest society even get started stigma comes along mental illness regardless whether caused someone fucking raping you ive taken staying cooped inside apartment avoiding everyone either dick around internet play sims sleep day thats even working anymore despite trying stay subs im likely see things triggering still end seeing shit like thishttpswwwredditcomrindiemakeupandmorecommentsvzsa_major_rant_about_insomnia_cosmetics almost every single comment urging people understanding sympathetic invisible illnesses downvoted oblivion reminded everywhere go people understand like suffer people make worse telling ought able even tell cant cant cant live like this,1 +fuck people make noise theyre eating like thats fucking nasty nothing except make people around want vomit disgusting manners like eat alone dont hear people fucking gross,0 +ok made language they gender non specific pronoun new word they already meaning,0 +th attempt slit right arm wrist elbow left arm slit throat barely missed carotid im yo lb junkie highschool dropout im reason theres saying someone wasting oxygen think im gonna get shower norman bates oh mention dick like turle pubic fat family took box xutters ill use jagged knife people come send feel good msg im someone know person feeling cant take anymore,1 +option therehorrible horrible relationship woman even understand hates me live her get hired company works part time itll forever save enough money move out even would never able afford live city starting school septemberor least id like to attend community college around cant live area unless im willing stay relationship makes want drink bleach money family friends could take really help way thats significant real future real drive depressed like actually depressed sad whats point this want go sleep wake problems gone thats going happen stay asleep,1 +ifi wish courage end everything right right,1 +life joke think people would better without mehi everyone name max im sixteen first post reddit may last one ive depressed really long time think time get rid ending life friends lack social skills spend every day playing video games watching social media avoid emptiness people know think im stupid lazy weird im afraid idea speak people think relate every time try say something usually connect other see loss time especially got enough money cant hang regularly always wanted express self way dress dad never gave opportunity choose want feel comfortable clothe wear hate people get wrong idea really like dress that people often reject way look make fun me parents care much feel theyre busy theyve never asked feel would like do know much education even talk ive never girlfriend im shy strange people interesting hobbies could get attention girls ignore time all anything special also cant anything without ruining it math music english hella nightmare cant anything right without committing stupid errors used good school seems like get dumber year sleep well anxiety depression harassing every night watch youtube videos get exhausted finally fall asleep nobody takes seriously im joke classmates teachers think im funny speak strange accent every time teacher orders us make groups activity class often leave alone cant like everyone expects be im different are feels like born another culture im colombia believe say cant relate them act like kind american european people do mean take things seriously prefer bother anything let things happen also music listen to movies watch language prefer speak way different do would like move us family cant afford it special talent something else actually nothing could make feel meaningful every day feels same take drugs think phone thing makes forget life empty used someone ton reasons live child seems like every dream ever forgotten tried hang twice regretted jumping chair think im afraid idea something could go wrong process stuff bothers every day apart ive said thats personal share internet want stop suffering,1 +tired ready everything now life pointless painful suffering exhausting know afterlife hopefully spirit somehow finds peace finally rest honest would rather know ever existed all want everyone forget me terrible lifebye maybe fail sure inform intact failure status probably going tonight,1 +let us miserable together one wants stupid advice stop want therapists need stop,1 +cant begin summarise feel her want spend rest life person want help work stuff together goes redflag spiral im completely loss apart hold stroke hair strategies help break spiral starts one approach topic seeing counsellor developing mindfulness strategies without going panic attack help rredflag hope,1 +im bored yall got good tv showmovieanime recommendations favorites are got attack titan deadpoolthe expanse thanks,0 +want die errand importanti cannot help laugh comedy errors life mine is supposed dying today planned time window several hours going alone therefore popping crushed pills would ensured demise no parents rang morning errand needs taken care of take better part day death cancelled smh,1 +intent redflag mattersif genuinely believe redflag best method afterlife take pity circumstances im sure said commit redflag selfish reasons though,1 +chance guys interested hearing alternative rock album band put first album out im keen hopefully find people like it,0 +really hate adobe one computer phased last two updates installed really hate adobe,0 +ive wanted kill self relationship year think im finally going iti know first thing people want comment shouldnt kill guy youll find someone else relationships arent worth life thats reason want it im wants break up im inevitably will please anyone reading wants help please dont advise guy lot complicated that reason want keep fucking up hes amazing gets upset rightfully so im messed girl keeps making mistakes want end even though gets upset make mistakes everywhere else even try good girl cant see good tried sees made mistake dont blame him would wasted time someone kept making mistakes cant make happy cant make anyone else happy either live shadow successful people ive done never amounted expectations made me id everyone service ending letting everyone relax enjoy lives without me want kill theres solution mistakes make try hard him still happens cant change live misery upset projecting me live self loathing guilt someone amazing giving chance either way cant look mirror without thinking girl reflection deserves good life had hard part next year life see every single day theres getting around even tried even harder part choose remove life way thats possible committing career redflag exaggeration would giving worthwhile thing life right now theres alternatives cant get another job really really doesnt work like all point im looking sign it ive rationally tried wrap head around months seems solution stopping problems love life need reason im starting see exist,1 +friends years could remember idk starts th bullied lol bunch friends elementary moved didnt feel like doing probably forgot anyway ill never see,0 +perusing friendship introvert female im major extrovert im twitch streamer involved many clubs im loud never stop talking due pandemic ive turned primarily discord making new friends met one guy hes possibly one coolest people ive ever met works ass buy parts computer loves playing retro games much me would really like get know more play games him potentially long term friendship thing is hes total loner seem talkative find nervous stare conversations privately talk fine big open public chats hardly ever talk pms often make artwork using excuse start private conversation take next level bribe artwork characters catch attention get introvert talking bit awkward times often busy college coursework want come pushy want give space still actively persuing friendship him best way approach this tips,0 +reaching talk feel guilt way feelidk whats going lately scarytheres days im completely optimistic nothing bring eventually fall back old bad habits doesnt help im quarantined parents house im relationship parents completely strained boyfriend fight almost every day point friends left except coworkers dont want know much me im distant depression speak boyfriend feel normally gets mad doesnt say anything sits phone obviously texting im crying eyes anxiety attack dont respond something says im full blown anxiety attack barely breathe correctly gets mad hangs me full indicator im wasting timeand reminder anytime try come someone help nothing waste everyones time even im left feeling guilty tried reaching cousin felt guilty stopped getting detail feel feel worthless emotionally weak cant handle anything anymore feel though theres hope me point self worth esteem lowest reach boyfriend tells im person suffering shouldnt sad hard feeling comfortable emotions moving forward person talk tells feel way feel want attention feels personally attacked way feel want comfort im point hard alone without really dont anyone speak feel judged want stop talking moment open up honestly feel like posting something im going regret know need self harmed today speaking boyfriend comfort made want even more,1 +time kids im outi cant live without wife kids fucked lost all shes moved on year old talks new dad time told kisses mommy lips sleeps room time week kids meet give back ill apologize tell ill always love her want happy try hug hold one last time ill cross median without seatbelt let collect insurance,1 +works youim interested guys ever medication really worked period time it im currently prozac lexapro,1 +wheelof chemicals ampxb morals ampxb maybe perspective ampxb selfreflection ampxb coping ampxb hands melting water ampxb putting hands water ampxb sharp pain then less body ampxb wrong ampxb feels like nothing ampxb copies smarter ampxb copies exist ampxb better ampxb things ampxb putting nail scissors next pillow ampxb like hands water ampxb fluids melt ampxb though ampxb yet feels ampxb it ampxb empty brain tatsy death ampxb good morning ampxb,1 +guess finally time longer comment one posts instead make onenot completely ready take life anything need vent get advice so requires backstory im high school student back november girl im guy approached began talking one day whatever big deal anyways couple weeks later talks again couple days talks again ends becoming pretty regular thing one final days gives plate cookies me thought sure sign liked me im shy never really anything it ended able get number one day continuously chatted winter break however post winter break nothing happened still didnt anything nothing either well back february needed ride home days week luckily able give ride home one them would think good get talk more well me bad weekend weekend intended asking out rejected way going comfortable getting ride also walking car her overheard sister behind us talking sisters dating someone assumed mustve heard crushs sister wrong ive never seen crush dude acting somewhat romantically anyways second day week asked could give ride said couldnt going surgery next day needed prep it that didnt want ask next weekend march time recovering surgery all lost confidence ask out well today rolls around tell one best friends all hour ago told fact dating someone im upset kinda got rejected sense mostly read entire situation wrong wasted months worth emotion im probably closest something since chester bennington passed away couple years back,1 +memers rteenagers dont forget google never gonna give up d,0 +midst adversityi continue display curiosityin way red flows wristsdown drainforever stuckbetween sensation willing dyingfor battle rages onbetween body mindbetween heart truly wants mind prohibits accomplishfor selfish desires would kill around mewhen truththe spirit want deadis own poem,1 +asked crush hours getting response decided drink it,0 +good bye guys may last post accidentally used body wash hair thing save reddit premium know bros enough,0 +endi deserve die im terrible person wish pain world myself comforting thought beaten left ground alone die,1 +anyone wanna talk dm ask anything comments ,0 + maybe dysfunctional family upbringing environment always shy introverted never really talk people good friends child high school anyone people fake users deceiving understand notredflag happened people date love teachers give students kids going parties could fit in kids friend groups stupid funny things could have thought friend group college girl messed caught feelings exes best friend giving her slept friend thus whole group split understand feelings want experience relationship whole society seems messed up cannot even deal long distance notredflag need something moment wish could forget motivation person want be good learning languages producing music web design graphic design film editing photography hitting gym stocks finance like many things could motivation all even current job get bored quickly reading white papers want get proactive always felt like life never way want be,1 +want able eat fruit without counting calories shit cause bitch know many servings im putting oatmeal im tryna lose weight hard,0 +suicidal feel life worthlesshey reddit thought id clarify things bat im suicidal though contemplated concept action several times ive never cut myself severely depressed or least think so exactly plea help advice mostly place vent thoughts honest people might willing contemplate life compexities me im years old male well average life friends successful loving family musical hobby guitar production regardless factors would normally make anybody feel content lives still find feeling sense worthlessness apathy myself humanity life general almost every moment every day dwell fact everything know ever known history life occured one small planet one small galexy endless vastness universe become extremely apathetic unambitious it life begins feel small start think deeply types things often do lately really starting hit hard species promoted self importance point feel though whole world forgotten fact planet smaller spec dust comparison even milky way let alone entire universe thoughts constantly feel though life planet completely utterly useless human race survival life completely futile illusion created around give us sort self importance purpose life question attempting answer since first abstract thoughts ever concieved personally believe real point purpose life ive already said pursuit continuation species completely futile live anybody live anybody alive nobody knows makes depressed days go thoughts constantly polluting mind maybe one days itll much ill pull trigger then thoughts subjects sorry parts or whole thing seem bit incohearent first time ive ever organized written thoughts theyre confusing jumbled head may came post also sorry spelling grammar errors typed phone,1 +wish could goi year old daughter reason killed yet worried strength much longer stay one room apartment weekend pretend everything fine doesnt worry know doesnt much fun around try best make happy dont friends anyone talk usually her poor kid psych wards since wife left me tell wait another day maybe get better dont want ruin little girls life tired every day feels like torture would easy let go dont know posted this maybe feel guilty weak want confess maybe feel alone idk,1 +leave groupi cant help you want thing want want die every single human people admit theyre afraid stigma us want good life never have attractive wealthy smart whatever get better make better make better show fucked up hard probably give fuck probably talking trash right now getting dicked one close friends happened me ive heart broke ive struggling suicidal thoughts years now im multiple redflag attempts point im convinced im immortal diagnosed schizophrenia buy it hate think whole world cruel simulation im playing alien spaceship fate time set stone moment reading this want know whats side maybe hell right eternity hell living rest miserable existence want mom know killed myself great mom everything me younger siblings see would survive tears shed dead hamster pain love go away gets transfered someone else wish good passing ive dead man long time suffering seems financial situation tried easy stuff makes worse cutting getting tattoospiercingsleaves scars stupid people ask questions trying drugsmelts short term long term memory drinking oblivionraped drinking driving tickets fines mph mph crashes damage shoulders neck back tons meaningless sex girls highschoolluckily stds children im walking life like dead man easy pointless mundane need hard stuff study succeed financially heal trust try heal humans shitty find one tolerate forever sometimes theyre able tolerate you oh well work hard succeed thats advice maybe ask god im hanging around waiting see apocalypse grow balls burn everything down world cruel unfulfilling acquire money im working years im fun sometimes thinking apocalypse manifesting horrible things like riots police california wild fires im living life point trying get end cause cant mom deserves better son im going try better son killing would ruin siblings forever unfair torture stick around them life even horrible live moms basement work lousy job leave group im going tell either kill yourself start setting everything fire everything starting police stations government buildings need wreck financial institutions go back living naked woods it ill setting fire one day eventually middle favorite highway protest horrible justice system ridiculous laws human life earth general honor highway thanks reading,1 +whats whitepeople thing ever done itd thinking regular chicken mcnuggets mcdonalds spicy,0 +care anythingi care family husband loves want anymore really care sex years quit college hours left care ill never finish care appearance care ive stolen almost every job ive ever worked at conscience it care get caught care anymore mom alcoholic never loved enough stay sober stay close care im deep debt ill never get out makes difference care anything anymore goodbye,1 +find im faking itim terrified im feeling bit background gotten pretty dark place almost year ago wife im early s pleaded get help did went meds which first intensified suicidal thoughts dosage upped felt getting better also started therapist ive cognitive behavioral therapy seems helped fact could say total upswing now feel like im spiraling control feelings work tolerable not my manager got laid month ago get along replacement supervisor team feel like theres future work im frightened going back rest world get new job suffer rejection work best least safe much anymore feel days getting shorter daylight saving time ends sunday clocks fall back meaning gets darker hour earlier causes anxiety look day see little ive accomplished sun sets know ill cope worst thing volunteer youth group while kids great theyve looked me ive adult talk parent judgmental gone tough times confided ive constant help them feel fake try help see big picture everything okay hope lives ahead make good choices thrive believe me yet im feeling hope future me find im faking it know theres answer this needed let guess thanks reading,1 +take seconds cause big problem hours fix big problem take seconds cause big problem hours fix big problem,0 +existence painfuljust act alive brings pain everyday,1 +friend spiral help reach herhi ive quite bit past accounts this one obviously throwaway too never follow advice myself people talk helped me so thanks that im today something bit different friend breaking girlfriend hard time letting go grew abusive household if read book a child called it almost bad really know deal strong emotions nearly killed breakup know way get situation need help get her ive held arms cried confessed darkest secrets me ive told love im going abandon like everyone else has think good im there soon leave give privacy get worried hell going end almost bleeding like last time advice getting would appreciated worth moderately successful stunningly beautiful yes falling love her want getting way friendship im leaving alone,1 +bother anywayill never worth anything autism disables me cant go out cant work cant contribute society cant study executive function issues every time look work cry im abusive relationship partner know deal anymore still care im buried valentines chocolate feel guilty eating know strangles abd calls piece shit left id die hes carer cant make phone calls go alone payments woulkd cut ablw buy food matter anyone anyway say im never one think first cant help anyone cant get close anyone cant make difference literally sit everyday living existing wonder hurts live dont want anymore never anything anyone fucking piece shit nobody cares get close tell fuck im for live feel pain,1 +almost sex but ive going steady chick long time finally guts ask question wanted deed appeared enthusiastic excited first however took member started laughing pointing ever since ive browsing rsmalldickproblems,0 +fuck sad please much happiness almost painful waiting facade fake icing fall crash burn hope inspiration supposed figured supposed even matter cannot get damn head doing,1 +want photos spiderman run local newspaper need photos spiderman expose really is menace society,0 +hows therapy actually helpi offered therapy college declined im worried amount time itll take interfere ability finish assignments time im also worried parents find im living home feel ashamed sharing problems dont think good reason feeling way do im sure therapist think pathetic dont wanna take away time someone else probably dealing lot am,1 +say worst part movie first half hour really confused who example bill paxsons character long hair wearing jacket then males arrived camp turned character looked like bill paxson wasnt said wheres bill paxson then guy girlfriend said supposed year reunion camp directors alan arkin memorable later on girl interacting talking camp experiences made sense would one years old said movie turned pretty good kevin pollak nice guy always teased one guy complete narcissist ended losing beautiful girlfriend alan arkin interesting oldstyle camp director admits grown touch modern youth best part none grownup campers successes life none great careers seemed real life movie compared big chill ways exciting big chill lot realistic so even though beginning promising movie ended turning pretty good one,0 +many subreddit actually virgins im wondering virgin fillee filler filler filler filler fillr fiooe lflaoao,0 +life decaygraduated cs degree three years ago hoping get job independent get help condition go hospital redflag plans got condition force fed everyday hospital staff awful cant disclose know treat people like learned quickly im qualified anything getting retail job became clear would start fail keep expectations left good terms work full time without freaking cutting myself cant start therapy insurance issues need order look work required job seeking help theres escaping parents theres getting access treatment im trapped way death hour shifts life friends family endless exploitation severe suffering shortly followed death streets existing comfortable cage everyone force feeding deformity hard interacting people theyre super toxic why must me im terrible person perhaps deserve though id argue deserve far worse thanks listening aria sheher,1 +almost years since saw jennifer first time know name movie looked web site told many people especially grandchildren movies include graphic details order frighten leave powerful impact story skillfully introduces concepts true put ida lupino dangerous situation time miss lupino discovers new fact draws viewer confusion fearbr br this movie impact almost years later still list one frightening movies ever seen yet movie contain blood gore became popular shortly movie made amazing impact good story great actors make,0 +heres debate violent video games reduce violence irl im debate competition motion house believes violent video games lead violent acts young audiences figured would help banvideogames subreddit its good rn time commit violent acts were angry frustrated commiting violent acts game vent emotions game instead real world say example doomyou know drill like bfg division might say video games culture really toxic people speaking mic speaking face two different things friends literally gang ban minecraft server bad mood next day words say stood let run mouth i feel like letting way thing thats think cyberbullying problem know treat properlymy opinion guys might know something dont someone please improve post elsewhere im good writer started debate,0 +reflections trip home longon trip back home realized something people want see mask real me one wants see real me parents ask doing mask says fine real thinks redflag weekly sometimes daily basis parents ask going children looking forward grandchildren mask laughs says day maybe real goes wtf hate children even meet someone wont raising child hate them people force talk future joy mask real asks future joy cant see future past next month joy watching friend graduate joy joy sadness seen behind mask nearly enough understand it also saw behind it basically told put mask back on blows plans made later evening supposed last hooray moves across country deserts it story life people ask enjoying new location mask says great loving it real hates wants nothing return previous location friends people ask memorable call new job emergency services dont want memorable call want funniest call memorable call one try forget daily basis mask tells funny antidote guy lamp real tries force sound childs voice head people ask it first time mask real agree something dont know dont know able get bed morning dont know able go work every day dont know able take constant abuse supervisors dont know able go classes masters dont know things possibly biggest mystery still alive thought many times night killing since last september iterations plan adapted changed situation changed well preferences thinking plan weirdly comforting feels like safety hatch pulled point feels comforting know end misery point choosing feels like nice warm blanket parachute wrapped one maybe keeps going thought stuck way out weirdly makes want keep going things get worse always pull trigger allows go sleep night gives courage life gets fucked decision made bail allowed stand boss get fired what drive risky kill car accident sparred grief spurs on also makes miserable still want die still think death much better world would without me life sucks want everything end quickly possible want shit show call life want something different want things get better never seems do hope to expect worse every situation everyone never disappointed tldr reflections recent trip back home still alive yet dont want caring spurs on,1 +always prettiest people always denial always prettiest people always denial,0 +guys ever talked someone everyday something happens yall stop talking feel sad idk makes sense need place rant lil bit im sad lonely rn probably gonna sleep yeah ,0 +cluei turn couple days cant even bring happy ive struggled bullshit life many attempts teenage years idk anymore keep pushing things life thatll eventually make happy going uni stressing half death may one day job actually half enjoy go back christmas break im struggling financially applied many christmas break jobs denied every one cant keep living ends meat happy time want end thing called life fucking hard give up,1 +question americans fuck going see memes protests shit whats actually happening wanna know memes,0 +anyone wanna talk bit im bored high class im bored,0 +okay idk ever since mam died never feel kind emotion whatsoever okay,0 +almost here anyone english likes football manchester derby weekend stopped thinking week come reds,0 +im finsexual literally fuck everything looks feminine yes thing search want to im going downhill even traps relation list cosplayers girls hook,0 +literally looking attentioni message want someone tell everything alright edit going now thank support,1 +today make one hardest choices life long ampxb hate cory dont mean wow guys jerk kind way mean despise him everything pisses off hes always hanging around street cant bear step house im sure ill see pathetic godless face makes heart pound whenever walks near me im obsessed think every day hair face way walks smile angled toward right cheek eyes widen hears someone call name it close eyes right imagine him smallest detail hate him loathe him backstory cory neighbour family always debt far remember father manipulated mine signing legal document basically gives rights land corys dad uses leverage dad always dads reach never completely grasp wont go much details situation far remember family struggling this anyway happened today made rethink whole life park once trying get mind cory like said guy lives rent free head late sky getting dark corner eye noticed someone walking albeit great difficulty swaying kept pausing regularly peering bushes instantly recognized him cory id know anywhere would never forget spineless spoilt cowardly figure felt pain arms palms stinging looked see blood flowing clenched fists nails dug deep looked back up cory staring right me every inch screaming rip head off hate him got closer mumbling incoherent words got closer him smell better imagine skin would feel like knuckles hate him hate much die thing could make out whole demeanour changed looked confused didnt know was then taking guard reached pockets faster ive ever seen move pulled knife out clenched jaw thought end going died shanked gut someone never work day life whose whole family enjoyed fruits fathers labour eyes looked coldly soft blue eyes determined pulled close stood there like mannequin accepting fate wrenched hands open placed knife fingers eyes locked mine whispered three words kill me please shocked doesnt describe it wasnt happy either felt nothing everything time giving power end life me man minutes earlier would given anything end sorry life couldnt bring it moment saw cory was normal feeling pain miserable human couldnt it given opportunity golden platter knew would never recover taking another mans life even life one person despised entire life know ive made right decision,0 +tried kill before got divorced breakup relatively calmi affair affair woman manipulative talked cutting jumping bridge drove hrs really tall gorge going jump called wife kids prior chicken out thought kids sick came it now divorce finalized woman started fucking someone else feel calm fear might break might something terrible profession knowing life death means resources end get help low im depressed fuck lie bed time worried woman obsessed almost year cant get rut,1 +need hope stuck mindset whileive feeling suicidal several weeks brief success dbt therapy backing scared feeling control life feel worse success dbt despite intensive therapy havent felt change anyones mindset shifted toward recovery life before im school got new job im functioning degree feel awful suicidal thoughts daily im also trying meds acupuncture haha see makes impact again mostly feel like im playing waiting game spontaneous shift mindset realistic happened anyone else,1 +yall ever seriously wanna die remember test tomorrow like ah shit looks like cant die,0 +messed headi crushed finally confirm fucked head one police visit see alright time seriously considering hospitalization good news enough experience feel confident writing worth it got person liked hate me need wait die place hear news get hurt now intelligence personality may good future bet care never added up always useless always tried emulate something own something keep derive source materials fuel need emulate much worth it first earning emotions worth it earning content heart worth it messed need people talk to,1 +bpdeupdim almost f developed mental heath issues age hardly went school barley attended college tried hold jobs couldnt im back college trying really making depressed others age driving holding full time jobs going living life im mentally behind everybody else im embarrassed feel bummy idea do ive done therapy meds hospital trips etc idk guess want hear anybody else boat overcome it im struggling give pep talks everything going okay carry brain fucked,1 +less introspectivei often find thoughts tend dwell myself im almost constantly lost thoughts really hurts social scene tend keep keep quiet also affects activities could reading playing video game watching movie thoughts drift towards myself changes however ive drinking absolutely zero selfexamination drinking id like state sober ideas,1 + yearsi realized summer birthday say ive struggling thought dying years now ive never taken action know would hurt brother much gone that cant say ever anything else live for hand really love making music constant i want die head cant even care like do cant change thought mind feel close giving days know im fucked cant even afford freaking therapy anything it somehow managed living now im even sure im posting here life going im old enough die natural causes id rather give up even know feel like this like life shitty im year old future bright ahead me food table friends exercise everything normal person would do still thought remains back head even happiest moments life want die already battle cant win anymore im sure do,1 +tiredi sick sick everything want end everything really hate people around including family feel one true friend even boyfriend one understands me constantly keep getting panic attacks due fighting family cant even escape im uni asian everything hard leave house get house unless prob start working years prostitute smth am done world contemplating want everything over want make suffer know bad im done cant even speak opinion cant even focus studies cant even peace mind anywhere,1 +sorry thought stronger this thought one day would find purpose this cannot eat showered slept days dad died front daughters mother left proposed girlfriend left last night alone state moved order her cried begged talk hung phone me thought loved idk anyone treat anyone like that always second option everyone life believe imcapable loved even deserving it planning killing crying type feel like dead weeks want stop want stop feeling once sorry strong enough tried hardest beat finally give up please hate meim bad person e want anymore,1 +jabated friends house introduces girl kinda like try make small tr alk ask age said like great im gonna work go park play bit make moves stuff go like actually im like say tall looks like im never talking girls seeing birth certificate first heart broke,0 +pretty girl online class hate online school allow students interact even worse moved new school advice,0 +august im going it trip coming week prior say goodbye dear friend know plans one will get back thats it fighting trying im tired trying fighting people meant world thats it pain feel deep inside deep makes sob shake thats pain cannot take anymore oh god god one id taken pain long ago world feel like always make suffer make make suffer fuck know im tired no try every pill market core destroyed cracked flawed deeply never fused back together meds therapy you joy world terrible mother insufferable wife avoid much possible shield poison suffer silently possible next two weeks go trip done even care anyone reads this there done moment ever since starting therapy medication back february everything gotten worse mention expensive poor husband trying figure pay er bills inpatient stay bill therapy fees insurance cover dick im barely able work part time place hour shift makes pop many valium stop bawling whole time really cant anymore k previous job help im gone pay bills get started new life without me trust me ive thought way cant cant make live way anymore hold till end month holding thread here,1 +believe given war movie make really feel war need see letyat zhuravli called the cranes flying english tells story veronika tatiana samoylova boris aleksey batalov love verge wwii walking along waterfront watching cranes fly by war starts boris promptly sent war veronika hides family ends marrying son love boris meanwhile continues trotting countryside fighting nazis experiencing horrors war runs energy veronika working military hospital receives news refuses accept it boris body arrives home one trains simultaneously radio announces germany surrendered allied powers war soviet union lost million citizens start new erabr br this movie good job showing human impact war battlefield also affected civilian population definitely movie everyone see,0 +hey im sad please get free hug ill pay back promise im bit down stay bald stay fresh,0 +suicidal dreamsi vivid suicidal dreams last night jumping front train today im travelling train im scared ive planned im going it theres stopping train passes around station never busy,1 +saw true crime first released back midnineties watched many times since great mystery mary played alicia silverstone high school senior california town whos classmates younger sister tortured killed unknown murderer mary meets tony played kevin dillon police cadet sees bright decide work together try find killerbr br many suspects one true crime feels true real me read newsgroup review someone wrote total suspension disbelief present true alicia silverstone perfect role kevin dillon bill nunn great job actors locations right writerdirector pat verducci really captures realities teenage life marys loneliness see scene mary awakens dream sequence viewed photos took tony wish verducci would make moviesbr br i seen movie quite like true crime ,0 +know im going anyone help mei timedout uni student trying finish last days feeling negative anyone talk to even know id say even someone talk to feel like life cornered way out want drop mostly financial conditions maybe work music know viable career option know lifestyle really pay started working freelance even get many jobs currently im broke point food since yesterday surviving wish someone would kill one cant even pay that surprisingly however ive grown hide much people near clue im going inside last days getting feeling might fact last days know set achieve post figured maybe id it since nothing lose point,1 +anyone else good day end day still feel sad shitty,0 + pillsso made mind im going take paracetamols mg each happen me,1 +spare karma friend friend,0 +taking away electronics appropriate punishment sometimes ok hear get mad ive seen like million posts people saying hate parents take away electronics fair punishment honest kind disagree reasons student might well school lack understanding lack effort student work struggling understand concepts taking away electronics unfair punishment simply getting tutor would better however student homework studying tests putting effort school taking away screens absolutely appropriate punishment choosing skip work play ok thing do guys easy forget important education is take high school seriously might regret rest life lot common dream jobs require college requires high grades highschool might think matter get cs ds could jeopardizing entire future ive seen many adults talk wish tried harder school got better jobs want generation take school seriously,0 +two dogs litter died sunday dog litter five puppies weeks ago abd healthy happy suddenly one got ill threw diorreah collapsed lying floor hours died hours two others became ill symptoms although one collapse recovered he fine first puppy get ill died three hours getting ill one died lasted hours sad heartbreaking see struggling life floor unblinking expressionless eyes buried made graves minecraft world rip peanut puzzle,0 +managed something once took waveboard started practicing steep road obviously fell rolled meter soim disappointed little blood came least felt something know many years feels good feel something,1 +need get havent day hour minutes st idk ill survive month tbh,0 +need advice here im sure insecurities run wild im justified thinking boyfriend line met girl friends set first date went jogging weird know hobby wanted get it theyd never met this,0 +one word word bring strongest warriors knees word break strongest men word break hearts word put fear bravest men woman word word school,0 +saw movie last night phila film festival interesting funny movie endearing moving scenes peter falk excellent rest cast believable played roles well movie may gone bit long conclusion okay audience laughed right places family dynamics terrific though jewish family could italian irish including greek recommend film interested laughing subject often handled way iot makes think consequences actions affect others life clearly life,0 +biden aint prisesdent cuz live romania look dope better prisesdent tbh,0 +keep talking kid sexualizing shows like one talking about people keep talking cuties one talking pen like come people way worse,0 +want endi cant recall long like think giving bullshit reasons it know family loves real reason sad much want fade away cant think last time really appreciated life keep telling family sad ended life dont want hurt think thats whats keeping dying moment really nothing live for im useless one shirt never wear really worth fighting for,1 +tf kind strangers following me why support answer example text optional still posts get removed texts dis kola veri kola veri kola veri di many questions still reading this,0 +young seen movies parents wisdom rented one wary movie about fact even allowed watch it brother sister got course made angry do late night trashed vcr kicked screen tv called police reported vandals arrested course unable get foot tv set police arrived given stern talking sent home parents grounded course made work repay debt tv vcr tore apart slave labour really sucks believe me it chores around house happened end got big screen tv dvd player surround sound system work get money easy made movies sold disney remember finding neno well wrote movie filmed goldfish fish tanks rewrote plot course cgi afford make real life action picture like done end never saw film head die rating gave life rating pretty good,0 +life falling apart know anymorei keep trying find appealing method end always end going back im still pretty scared going like waking every day burden support friends parents absolute garbage care themselves therapist im meds severe anxiety depression never help even raising dosage multiple times got accepted dream college go anxiety deal living own everything fails im good anything cant find way out idea next,1 +find extremely less productive days cannot meet deadline projects enough time put mind it zero motivation it heard past people could sign depression feel sad know feel know seek medical help know depressed,1 +yall cute af dont ever believe anyone says otherwise are dont ever think arent ever,0 +im scared cant sleep rn promised would start going bed earlier cause im but cant sleep really really big storm outside im afraid storms literally shaking house sounded like garbage men outside like am looked outside saw lightning lots rain keep hearing big thunder claps lighting far away even hear wind inside room really scary idek why im still kid ive never issue before ive bunch anxiety lately prob reason idk today logged old discord account best friend lucy room realized friend ruby still used discord server still active background knowledge ruby friend since kindergarten met lucy th grade lucy didnt get along first outgoing girly ruby introverts ruby paid mind her th grade started middle school ruby classes together lucy classes together say opposites attract even today lucy nothing common still friends outgoing talkative good personality i dont ruby lucy best friends middle th grade beginning th grade that ruby still ate lunch together didnt hang much always lucy ruby used play video games together dont play games anymore ruby still text sometimes see sometimes moms friends arent close were back topic rubys discord server snooping reading chats lucy came up ruby saying doesnt understand move quickly lucy happy even liz new best friends even though used known zoe known since nd grade stopped talking middle school though liz met th grade ruby crush dont want relationship yet thought ruby still thought friends idk anymore dont feel bad though honestly like lucy ruby still like ruby lucy feels really bad it though lucy issues also depression im afraid cut again maybe big thunder clap omg lol sorry rant kinda got hand,0 +im wrote redflag note im going stab death tonight im scared please help memy parents mormon im tired told im going hell gay everything wrong im tired never happy actually happy jsut faking it im tired hiding feelings scared mental hospitals ive already twice attempt hated anything im tired parents arguing fighting dad absolute asshole me im tired sister making fun making feel like human garbage dont want die want pain end death way jsut told crush liked him bi actually chance him declined it im tired feeling like trash uselesss piece garbage crying self sleep every night im weak cant even push up single pushup im embarrassment family especially dad ive breathing heavily last hours knife stomach jsut want push bad im scared please help me know ones going read want spill feelings die,1 +f struggling scaredhi im entirely sure put everything words just anyone partner years left me days ago didnt want anymore entire future planned half wedding chosen kids names etc told loved went work day stepped foot house night said anymore live together another months separate rooms least im really struggling see point anything anymore pain feel strongly physically makes sick cant eat properly cant sleep properly promotion work meaningless now time soon well time now tried talk feeling struggling hes really well hes happy now gets mad me write pro cons lists every single day end pros always win today would perfect day hes out hes drunk friends housemate him one get me one would home days pain scares me scares keep going,1 +yes little low budget movie shows love bad things tell budget film would compare waterworld though plot good film never really tapped full potential strong performances everyone suspense makes worthwhile watch rainy night,0 +time half drunk nightly ramblings prepared free speech rants wondering classes like tomorrow,0 +happy world horriblei hate humanity treat other greedy are selfish are violent plain evil are media controlling us technology controlling us feel like im spied on everything fucking sucks wanna live world like this always fucking sucked dont see point feel connection towards anyone see help possibility anymore world humanity horrible place fit right in im horrible person people surrounding me im fucking sick living one cares neither,1 +good looks could kill ugly bastard hentai would law abiding citizen ever,0 +even try anymore ever wear out use me disappoint leave mewhy sick pleasure get it enjoy watching suffer enjoy making sufferthese past days miserable years worth depression happiest month at leastat point fault everything always is always easy scapegoat anything nobody cares carpet everyone walk need clean shoesi hurting years one even remotely bat eye everyone fake fake care fake attention fake friendships fake family bonds fake work dynamics fake love fake kindness fake fun take never care me toolonce stop useful overshadows benefits bring leave deadi one life one soul see burning abysses overseei know going end it hell thought ending past months todayjust know previous yo eta probably away current etayou go die even try,1 +going kill myself theni took sertraline months still want kill myself lt lt lt see drive motivation like used to feel thrill planning redflag anymore took pills plan written set ready leave shit behind april lowest ever point enough live near coast england cold water shock makes drowning sure thing around here much fun researching reading euphoria drowning salt water limited resources no guns cyanide basically access painless methods redflag decided drowning salt water beautiful fatal method oh ophelia never read hamlet time went it friends family intervened fantasies thoughts spoke doc upped meds started feel better put mg sertraline point really felt working think killing anymore happy best version myself dare say felt confident almost invincible even months road serotonin super powers worn off leaving quite hollow shell past self really feel anything days aside irritability care anything little empathy almost diluted feeling wanting die yet quite concentrated enough bothered act it understand feels like im limbo somewhere inbetween wanting feel good things again wanting feel bad desperate enough kill myself like numbness feeling neither there im bored dumb desire self destructive things like drug up ive taking codeine relax occasion think wow heroin something subscribes ropiates thats even joke actually subscribe lmao yeah feel though might well take something feel something cant get excited anything hard enough find purpose within stupid unescapable system without burden weighed whatever weight crushing skull obviously logical rational thing go tell doctor ya know appointments take weeks well weekend closed so drreddit anybody else similar experiences feeling numb medication medication feeling wanting die motivation it,1 +would anyone like join abr btw abr stands army black rose,0 +care deadim fucking tired fake people say shit like ill always you i care lot leave cant handle bullshit anymore know fault lot people suck cant help blame burdening point care anymore guarantee least half people tell kill really give shit died always text day two hear weeks months sometimes never again im always one initiating conversation proves point even more wish people would honest me,1 +tell relatei feel like one understands suicidal thoughts go away like im gonna kill like never think it psychiatrist knows says common people survived traumas suffer multitude mental physical problems im always afraid tell anyone though therapist bc every time talk people get concerned know maybe alone best way describe is like fly contained room always hear buzz sometimes constant droning ear times barely hear like soft quick buzz mean never gone away never time think killing myself im okay now fly rather quiet like normal,1 +best friends dad committed redflag year ago seems im still caught upback story last november rd roommate time and best friends dad committed redflag friend dad odds years especially dropped engineering pursue another degree never spoke often except father mad him spoke father once conversation cold brief needless say majority stress friends life came father mother sweetest woman think ever met became close phone calls together often great times together went visit retired french teacher teaches piano goes marathon length runsbikesand cross country skiing daily happy healthy amazing woman father also retired job keep people breathing came ambulances sorry remember actual title saw lots people die arms grew cold recluse this always kind strong silent type would spend weeks time woods thats backstory commited redflag rd birthday th mom finally able build strength call th way work received call first person called devastated got home soon could life became blur there went home about hours away saw mother first time told story finding note calling police helped roommate clean excess supplies dad fixing way go roommate stayed mother never returned house together necessary responsible him gone bad break two month previous loosing best friend well dealing emotional weight put dark place while flash forward year later call ask come birthday weekend express understanding cant come down asks why say well least want home rd why that year anniversary dads death oh ever mom new bf seeing fine know many different ways people cope grief people hide shrug avoid it know best friend inside out hold back other legitimately feel though situation myself think almost daily basis still dream coming home house everything involved there roommate unintelligent guy opposite true honest mathematical logical tend tune emotion maybe why sure sorry long post want know people similar experiences before strange still bugs much maybe talking one spewing inner thoughts onto reddit post,1 +am cant sleepim trapped mind cant even cry anymore get out,1 +titlebroke girlfriend month ago today told never anything using validation apparently also cheated different guys person felt sort closeness really loved her even supposed cope this hurts like hell absolutely nobody talk it im literally unable function im trying best get day,1 +f ask stuff please im bored like answering questions idk yeah,0 +lockdown pissing so lockdown used would struggle get back old life people really pissing rarely go friends house literally talk play ping pong thats it yet look social media see people right next one another completely ignoring social distancing struggle seeing family rarely friend even see distance yet apparently rights see eachover without masks distancing anything pisses audacity so,0 +falsely accused sexual abuse entire life seems ruined even situation died downaround months ago falsely accused sexual abuse exfriend mine thrown jail days legal fees get sorted cost well reason im free man exfriend press charges lawyer excellent job proving allegations false even going far friend admitting false allegations reason im even charges dropped name legally restored completely clean record reputation destroyed news report made day went jail story depicting rapist refuse correct story proven falsely accused charges dropped live relatively small state terms population feel like target back feel like music career opportunities get job attend college even live relatively nice place move ruined know best chance starting new life moving away state starting somewhere new feel like opportunities completely crushed unable find job people seem believe news story legal matters proved innocent honestly id lying say redflag crossed mind numerous times throughout entire thing id also lying sit say want die see way see able live normal life let alone life ive trying work towards long remember ive spending days attempting write anxiety stress blocking creative vision sleeping hours day little motivation get up chain smoking stress away latest hours night isolation friends trying best help this pathway follow one seem relate situation obvious reasons people sit stare shock hear story nothing sympathy agreeing probably start somewhere new sentiments nice still feel alone like people understand im shitty situation in everyone wants feel sorry me everyone looks victim society accepts im done for know anymore want live normal life leave place,1 +know stopi know typing this fine accounts struggle little fine life people around love me like time bull shit am opportunities got go best school country mostly supportive family good boyfriend still cant help it fucking enraged im itching over twitching picking hands yet cant stop myself fucking lucky born opportunity waste it allowed roam streets free cant even stop hysterically crying picking hands late night even boyfriend lying right next me exasperated yet soon times tell dwindling becoming far between happen revert fall traps feel right hate it hate much feels less forced anything else know negative rumination cycle cant quit feeling right im sorry read this theres nothing here please nice day,1 +im big fan movie musicals annie stage show loved movie flop phantom opera movies and believe three failed match weber staging loved this dvd take place honour among keepers even though movie adaptation somehow captures flavour atmosphere live theatre bette midler always treat exceptional role theres great music lots laughs even tear two ive seen big musicals eighties nineties somehow missed one theres comparison make gets revived shall first line tickets movie good ill odd position wondering stage production measure movie,0 +know joker cards batman card perfect duo joker get batman mystery pissing off,0 +im cop want end itevery day go work feeling like might last dangers people present insecurities think depression though certainly factor days think itd better ended offduty personal firearm think far often funny it years helped people solve lifeordeath problems im powerless own,1 +someone gives awardee karma get notification right anyone else get surprised think ban notification bad heart,0 +forget star signs whats blanket tog rating ,0 +guy know pussy feels like want know idk maybe could search something recreate similar thing,0 +help pls ive never horny dont like feeling get rid,0 +dont know get better hello age location uk gender male diagnosed with psychotic depression anxiety im much medication dont seem getting better getting worse medications are mirtazapine mg daily night duloxitine mg daily morning quetiapine mg daily night diazepam mg prn panic attacks im suicidal im self harming cutting myself im hearing phone whispering again im paranoid police coming arrest me im anxious go outside im depressed want lay bed day drug big sleep im stuck rock hard place tell psychiatrist know put adult mental health hospital im terrified happening dont tell anyone probably end killing mixed feelings redflag moment anyone give advice do thanks replies,1 +tiredi tired feeling lonelyi tired darkness tired burden tired bother tired productive tired staying home tired staying alive tired wanting die,1 +dad got figured guyslmao think this apparently want play victim doesnt know half shit im dealing myself fuck right off oh daughter hinting depressed lol get hobby again oh kid literally crying next family member talking shit god sensitive imma laugh it fuck hate goddamm much,1 +pizza roll done ah yes pizza rolls done chomp,0 +want outhi im year old female want life ive thinking lot lately feel empty nothing brings joy anymore friends spending time seems like chore wherever go find difficult fit in feel like im entertaining enough people take interest me im cool im successful studies ive achieved anything life want hard people like takes im confident smart funny time use sarcasm cover anxiety cant handle social situations people tell im pretty thats them pretty girl guys like am like look like feel like never able open anybody see worthy more study architecture like course longer passion it energy motivation create anything every day wake im behind coursework even try catch see succeeding well enough cant handle getting average low grade end one thing chose based things used love im even good it breaking heart think never good enough anyone anything attempted redflag guy used like school bullied physically verbally ever day year powerless make stop even friends watched happen bother anything want get bad side ive never able stand myself feel ashamed weak unable anything let people walk rather compromise feel upset someone else recently ive feeling like simply fit part want die ill never get second life believe god believe us humans simply made backbone lives need kind security need feel like matter happens someone help us matter bad things get theres purpose purpose given god kind security believe die theres place soul go simply stop existing were part natural selection world stop die simply sifts better worse want get this want part anything want stop existing without consequences fall asleep never worry anything ever again,1 +cant live anymorethere point living dropped school job little chance finding one friends anymore tired family nothing live anymore turn two weeks over,1 +fcuk school thats math exam last week wednesday like students took exam got canceled apparently teacher gave homework students apparently kind questions thats whole th grade students going exam tomorrow forgot things knew sooo thats all nice right,0 +book recommendationsanybody got good recommendations books covering effects redflag children whose parents decide take life looking material draw friend struggling suicidal thoughts kids nothing technical please thanks advance help,1 +drunken sailor drunken sailor early morning,0 + months school every year chose alone yet sad wasnt fault,0 +guys think vaccine idk might wait like months first wave people take comes kinda seems little rushed tbh,0 +dog died recently died recently got new adopted brother dad promised father man helped carriage accident still baby father died month ago dad returned favor adopting son worst human planet kissed girlfriend without consent bullies constantly made friends hate me yesterday returned home school heard crunch sounds oven looked inside saw beloved dog danny there burning heard brother laughing burried dog outside brother walked inside punched face broke jaw started crying dad decided punish me me brother got away without anything fuck dio brando hope one day drown burning ship,0 +minecraft ps players hear attempting create role play series map much construction dont many ideas need group people help help series ps film right ps since way please help,0 +baked please hmu fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +want go back orange black meant halloween know im probably gonna get hate super straight community care thing straight people wanted parade get parade flag straight struggle get looked straight get bullied straight disgusting invent whole sexuality wanna date trans person im saying to find someone trans decide comfortable dating fine hurting whole trans community,0 +keep bottling emotionsi fucking hate fact men cant actually express feelings except anger happiness want friends feel know try change subject feel extremely uncomfortable god forbid man says insecurities admit crying weak manly shit like ups male redflag rate seems like know one seems care want tell friend im suicidal want scare push away me keep bottling emotions cant fucking take keep over kill l least want know cant bring even say word redflag around know accept part brain still telling bad things happen tell him know say without coming across weak know fucking all,1 +fucking alone life it cannot live like anymore told friend reasonably annoyed hung phone spoken mei one friend used treat bad literally scared talk triggers me know sounds like nothing reasons want die plus cannot handle little things nowadays eitheri want fall asleep never wake honest god might finally go,1 +advice attemptinghello im currently recovering failed redflag attempt immediate intense support time go back normal life something im really struggling time months ago thought id paid rent gone work commuted done weekly shopping etc last time yet am back life living before feel like know expect get back things like nothing happened went hospital real intense therapy waiting list cbt eyes ive treated better now really hard get told time support networks feeling suicidal even dealing grief caused redflag experience theres much weird recovery phase feel like im living dream world moment sometimes things even seem real help would much appreciated,1 +dont know doim pregnant severe antenatal depression single today formally abusive boyfriend started becoming increasingly aggressive leave wouldnt let flat bit minor violence realised let go stomach agony way hope collapsed incredibly sick pure stomach acid im petrified case baby hurt reason im alive somethings happened refuse continue baby okay im awful position live vulnerable womens hostel surviving month extra week part time fast food job cant dont family support me im getting back boyfriend cant risk hurting child,1 +dose anyone know im doin wrong school work problem one whats sort things write equation problem gives came equation dn n problem put four puts makes continues trend get correct equation wrong,0 +m diagnosed depression anxiety suicidal thoughts years planso know thought posting reading id give attention severe posts lame ass one ive suicidal thoughts since ish never anything it however times ive made plans gave circumstances id kill myself never meet criteria times ill knife ready pussy whimp out gave overall plan within coming years years old if killed anyways solid band following music reliable wifepossible family steady career ill then need one work out really fucking dumb im lonely desperate need something work me,1 +like penis balls choose ass weakling,0 +everything readyim alone room drunk ready jump if fail fall window height would enough get rid me night progress reasons jump increase,1 +gib notifications comment nowwwww,0 +yknow interesting watching this half people involved deadbr br anyways long time since ive watched anything muppet related stuff pure gold im great fan puns movie quite well placed one amazing aspects pacing really highspeed childrens pacing filmmakers randomly decide move story along without giving characters depth kind moves along characters wherever want gobr br kermit frog awesome character voice expressions puppetface fantastic all points hes popularhe sing make jokes toobut appropriately hes endearinghe without effort inspires everyone search dreams meantime also deal himself uncommon theme family moviesbr br it also contains quite ensemble comedians making appearances there great effect others little less i think mel brooks part bit overplayed you parts film kind odd highly imaginative takes destination different directionbr br moving right alongbr br polarisdib,0 +happy diwali teenagers around globe diwali indian festival also festival light never failed lifting spirits would like send warmest greetings people reading post across world hope something good anything really happens you,0 +help thereive read many posts heres last days many people think theres hope is run group fb called pay forward global ones theyre linked it know right one bc admin there amanda roo fb pp kangaroo find it find me talk out im anyone needs it,1 +stuckive attempted redflag many times already last one weeks ago serious far excuses cerebral palsy alone rejection family living arrangement dissolved know go im stuck definitely know feel near future try soon,1 +idk do loud music help nothing cutting bit kind helps christ furious fucking angry want something severe fucking angry want severely hurt,1 +think going kill point wrote note phone whenever deed guess someone might end finding it really matter get found might help someone realize pain constantly life caused actions rest put onto me could never see future capacity guess wrote suicide note,1 +assisted redflag people mental illness needs legal nobody deserves feel like thisif gone process countless times countless medications work whats point making someone go way living want die let go terms hospital bed surrounded friends family love instead sneaking middle night blow brains out,1 +hard comfortable looks idk get told im good looking im super insecure,0 +making fun year old still making among us references im hypocrite okay want squirted,0 +feel fakei feel like actually suicidal wouldnt much fucking pussy wouldve already done it,1 +pass time idk im really bored right,0 +anyone recommend good acoustic songs favorite pretender ajr havent heard it great song,0 +disable ring im classic high school scenario parents going town weekend want friends over issue ring system covers sides house even living room anyone know disable things,0 +bru kinda funny someone fr tries insult u u joking think im fr aight question u guys put s end ur jokes,0 +feel worthlessi dropped highschool job parents kepp giving grief idea get one continuously made fun od things mum dad siblings feel apreciated want die thanks reading,1 +everything hurtsi know fix feel besides getting away transphobic parents since im nonbinary enough money hate go community college kind tried kill last year hate feeling like every day exactly hate im eating healthy working taking antidepressants everything still hurts every day want live like anymore please make stop hurting know deserve want things get better im trying really really hard gotten better think maybe im bad evil deserve it want happy im tired waking every day exactly like last know keep repeating know anymore im tired sad time,1 +planet worthlessthis bunch people ripping apart beating senselessly giant fucking competition unrelenting shitshow people always win always lose rigged purpose pretend not put quarters pull slot times surely least throw coins time get it everywhere look people tearing down ripping apart spitting other laughing other mocking other treating horrible everyone thinks theyre much better everyone else ones get relentlessly abused kill die exhaustion symmetrical body comes along shower validation pleasure happiness specific body shape that ultimately merit human nothing more nothing less reward cherish get it understand reading history horrible species engages awful acts often not pretend pretend cant even talk this pretend everything wonderful people pumped full psychiatric drugs simply imbalanced joke society everyone hormonally imbalanced longer touch themselves following everyone told follow bunch willing lemmings falling cliff fear labeled outsider cant blame them least theres degree companionship that lot here family less abandoning me always embarrassed me concerned came friends person blame them im realizing many opportunities had around have never will sort things show life like every three lives family need take can one thrown boat correct cant blame them like peers see differently theyre either intimidated find chump nothing between get bonding respect friendship love physical mental intimacy put gun head fact could that way everything would fixed id dead longer using resources longer whining longer bitching slot cant find role beyond lowest low sounds nice wish strong enough kill myself wish could power something even that second power empowerment,1 +interesting usual porn movie fantasy adventurethe production values high acting isbelieve not pretty goodespecially jenna jamesonits also widescreen helpsit gives feeling real motion picture porn moviebutof course porn really good one nice costumesfine atmosphere sceneryand waythe sex hotbr br watch one,0 +stupid house helpingi living two familys thanks dumb ass event going everyone high tension even one says so blow one son finally stood got bitched putting foot them got quite place calm tightness around neck starts time almost found something put there drank little calm nerves since im still shaking argument though trying still there even quetions would affect son everyone life hope fine reason to,1 +using sub diary day so today really normal could keep mind letting behind ill start school tomorrow im stressed angry thats strange sure welcometomorrow ill search way hide money keep rating day mayor sad happy event resaltate lets see tomorrow,0 +wied like girl years older im said reason started dating age difference,0 +anyone seen hat lost hat ,0 +fucking sick everything know even still alive none means fucking thing anyway fucking bored bored fucking deepest depths soul hate alive hate fucking depressed time nothing helps fucking pills therapy it hit three months sober clean selfharm change fucking thingi want numb want go huge drug filled bender go somewhere loud angry music get fucking high forget even exist care dangerous give shit kills me anyone miss anyway cannot even fucking stuck fucking lockdown right now still feel like need something break fucking monotony point getting drunk home cannot listen loud music here cannot even alone here drugs either getting drunk really cut anymorei stuck bullshit time cannot break it stuck thinking ways mix shit up go bender cover cuts get institutionalized break arm fucking set fire something dunnojust fucking sick living want say fuck impulsive shit,1 +guess forgot read countrys native language yep guessed correctly kingqueen meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,0 +ive lost liverecently moved ga florida work witch hate job girlfriend dumped valentines day severe anxiety social problems basically lost person truly cared friends im close family terms family go love miles anyone new feel like people dont like im flee mother earth needs die already attempted past lived mom caught prevented completed im alone another know anywhere close sounds tempting revisit,1 +parents get upset phones day like yeah know bad concerned us disturbing anything minding businesses,0 +friends give fuck meit seems lately ive dropping hints want know one person care die exactly change mind mind set want know im completely alone death ive come realization dad give fuck two glad him really depressing spend every day two people honestly mind pretending everything fine anyone actually cares ive come across painless way commit redflag im ready get im caught causing dad much pain hes really reason yet im scared tell anyone fear someone try tell care nobody understands done deal already im waiting right time could ask anyone understand mean like care go not want deal it whether friend not say friend lightly because really friends two people spend time depressed someones company try help want see smile theyre sick dealing me get it lot handle negative energy around time know know tell me obvious truth im theyre alone think theyre gonna get used it around much longer know im gonna it ive told im going wait dad dies try cope redflag point im loss know make long know deal life top losing best friend father idk even know im posting here feel like maybe problem guys maybe one actually care time maybe im hassle you maybe im worth talking instead ignoring idk anyways hope everyone good night,1 +still thinking dying alone world appearanceif curious story see previous post used driven determined make better life myself barely get bed objectively bad looking anyone guaranteed alone miserable day drop finish off whats point even trying like polishing turd wanted world never be day sit computer ranting online disgusting looking am people try console me make feel better fact arguably least attractive guy planet death friend,1 +ive gotten ad glossier lip balm thing many times plzzz stop want bad im literally cant afford anyone wanna buy jk unless,0 +xi already accepted living cool it suicidal ready death accepted it talked every day looked every day thought every day see anything wrong death happens ugly tragic see death waste live every day last yes now know it scared nothing bothers me okay nothing hurts,1 +started happen quite bit past year due job demands increasing feeling like things fault controli start crying work redflagfrustration sudden begin laughing like madman uncontrollable extreme urge drive head wall happen anyone else crying redflag uncontrollable laughter,1 +afraid dying hope doi always afraid death im sure im point yet would take life mind much if say oncoming semi swerved lane want alive anymore fact many good people die could easily take place injustice,1 +dad heated discussion shark tank seems think everyone show greedy also thinks offer one shark equal offer two sharks,0 +hey think anyone cares one talk it young life already reached point would rather dead continue life want talk personally want keep either night lying know do maybe anybody help,1 +hard times covid quarantine lots people probably struggling depression im tell go outside hang people go hobbies play sports make sure safe virus tho depression killed many people covid ever will find something rather feeling sad,0 +kept aliveim kept alive will crohns disease endometriosis chronic acute tmj severe social anxiety im flat dumb hate life nothing contribute please let fucking go,1 +teachers apologise accents americans know teachers uk apologise video american accent also opposite true guys,0 +spoon dick hard butt titty hand kiss ya neck hell yeah,0 +new im new reddit general cant post weekends is particular reason,0 +stupid lowered volume switch lower volume music laptop,0 +friends made new voice channel invite me decided vc them excludes one person friend group person them started kicking channel tried hide checked audit logs yeah made new one them guess right exclude want to least im online,0 +tf bad say dont like gay people bring sexuality time dont get it ive friend constantly bringing gay found annoying tf bad find annoying makes sense,0 +swim think laps usually selfloathing pondering sexuality pondering gender wondering boy next lane likes wondering like song stuck head,0 +even support sub one cares loli knew life joke test see ill break,1 +help mei want kill everyone myself hate world everything it nothing good life,1 +since guys said cant go guys bathroom since definitely look male irl go womens train bladder hold pee hours straight never use dumb bathrooms,0 +im never actually horny anybody masturbate orgasm feel good,0 +boy nothing funny boy,0 +anyone else friend ltlt ill put warning cuz touchy subject wanna cause ptsd anyone gtgt anyone friend everyone loves hate time one everyone vents even tho cant handle anymore one kid allowed step line start venting cuz start calling self centered well im friend if even call friend try best appeal everyone somehow turns me best keep everyone together everyone comes like im miracle worker ive carried burden many peoples redflag thoughts even parents struggling hard carry that tell people cant take care anymore get mad me ask whats wrong keep know comes next finally pry me start venting thats everything crumbles why allowed vent anymore huh tell time try vent push away saying cant anymore you allowed vent im not self centered hear words echo over made self centered one call selfish instead id understand bit better become self centered honestly haunts me idk anymore friends ruining mental health seem understand actions tell need take break them look like one stirring trouble hurt know one problems,0 +insults better proper english shall insult proper fine victorian english thine cunt rancid smell rotten egg,0 +late twenties depressed many years maybe since childhood cannot reckon notredflag since school whenever single hooking sex life great untill partner three years split it break since last months sex used masterbate well less resort therapist telling making depressed think masturbating helps makes worse depression,1 +m im feeling sad lonely hey ive feeling pretty lonely feeling kinda lately would love friends talk toplay games with games mainly play valorant among us minecraft interested pls private message me oh also pst est time zones only im feeling incredibly sad atm thanks ,0 +know doive never connected people ive friends still people life consider friends think different people really connections people talk people drive completely insane around people consider extrovert im alone definitely see introvert know never see people people friends basically people know better others like concept loving someone loved return know feels like friends know like friend whatever times love alone get explore mind try figure im here really would love friends actually want something me even hanging out people call best friends know really cant take anymore sometimes simple thinking things times sitting floor cut leg bloody razor blade know do,1 +us british people guns but haveummmpotato guns potatoes yeah take that please hurt,0 +got appt psyc new job starting august wanted get ahead redflag depressive symptoms returning unpleasantly upped sertraline mg added wellbutrin mg cover bases say stable work coming things nice hear anybody experience two together symptoms returning med increase,1 +so today gotta get tested covid th september played basketball guy tested positive wish luck,0 +feel losti want tell friend mine love her im scared feel way ill think something really stupid impulse now want leave people care things want do want go rest life without telling feel feel screws friendship feel like might end something really stupid one close friends have two steps away getting run car accident last week really scared me know do tell her,1 +modern era one likes theres room left hermiti annoy everyone maybe first maybe while old friends friends new cannot keep friends fact driven away eventually statistically continue so young biggest fear shots big dogs heights similar things terrified core becoming lowest common denominator fear absolute uncontrollable spasms emotion desperations throughout middleschool skills math science would capability bringing mire merely passed one ear other years later find anything beyond absolute basic concepts fail comprehend make use of wasted formative years frozen fear failure failed ever act would freeze anything constantly fail complete work whereupon told lazy oafish work fucking grocery store looking like going career ever heard anthonys song bullet seems rather preferable life bottom pyramid,1 +solid unremarkable film matthau einstein wonderful favorite part thing would make go way see again wonderful scene physicists playing badmitton loved sweaters conversation waited robbins retrieve birdie,0 +certainly best movie ive ever seen certainly worth which cant said many movies daysbr br this pleasant account true story although many details real story twisted movie ie billy sundays character three four people real story combined together robert deniro course good cuba gooding jr also impressive,0 +really mean romantic way mean human miss humans miss conversations learning things people want go adventures one come me want laugh someone else things human around lot humans kind sucks life really sucks alone,1 +know movie people watched must seen different joseph smith prophet restoration one sawbr br i think movie welldone inspiring think definitely worth watching apparent outset lot care went making film background scenery beautifulbr br i think film good job portraying joseph smith man prophet josephs spiritual experiences portrayed taste reverencebr br i would definitely recommend watching movie,0 +love took life want join himmy recent ex wed broken month still contact took life th april wanted nothing see me selfish want him join make sure knows love him,1 +single fun relationship wasnt particularly awful random panic attacks right breaking him honestly feel pretty rad like talk two people now honestly great feel like focus aspects life arent social know also relationship lasted year changing passwords exs name bitch,0 +cast surfer dude beach scenes almost got cast muscle guy since real muscle guy really really late day pauly brother the skateboarder front tattoo place vj stuff takes live venice since still mtv thing movie really good well would made top it,0 +do something crazyrun awaystart new life advice guys always give still want dieim suicidal since want die multitude reasons ill give quick summary since really point post basically family drug addict dad sexually assaulted dead siblings prison life friends poorly educatedpoor job prospects dropped college due constantly suicidal student loancredit cardmedical debt cant even drive nobody ever showed always poor afford pay classes gay first probably boyfriend cheatedabused me much more anyway think case redflag pretty clear cut simply nothing good going tons bad also realistic pathway getting shit im deep hole already theres absolutely nobody willing help it depression at least anymore logic rational thinking sometimes best cut losses fold hand im total waste space little potential squandered im even position modest dreams likely never be anyway nearly killed end decided right blew brains guess might well try cliche advice everyone always says title always scoffed it literally nothing lose whatever figured would better go bang travelled miles bus spent time homeless months homelessness managed find place stay unfortunately really point this still want die actually regret since experience kind fun interesting fixed absolutely none problems sure seeing new sights experiencing different culture meeting new people interesting experience fix irredeemable life shitty circumstances horrible luck toxic past bleak future absolutely not yeah thats that nobody say try ill leaving within next couple days tried best sometimes best good enough life never gave fair chance unavoidable death inevitable anyway see anything wrong expediting process nothing look forward life ps giving chemical lobotomy antidepressants telling someone problems paid pretend care a therapist going work know ive already tried multiple times neither change objective facts life always shit redflag logical response conclusion,1 +ill probably kill time parents diemany times past every winter last years actually point thing keeping alive thought much would hurt parents killed myself theyre dead reach point first time ill probably it theres nobody else life think couldnt cope redflag nobody whos close enough really really badly affected longterm basis,1 +wrote felt laptop never againi never life talked depression anxiety keep bottled inside write somewhere whether laptop paper ive writing diary years parents havent found one time decided write laptop parents found it said ive feeling depressed whole life wanted die wasnt death note anything expressing feeling time mum found screamed yelled blamed me told never dumb shit like depression head im faking attention feel im always damn phone ever since would bring ask still think dumb shit like say better would tell truth,1 +im thinking ending allthis second post here come reddit time need simply feel last hope want end life now seems easy give let relief death overtake me would longer suffer moments sorrow would free stress responsibility would longer worry people think things would much easier despair dread feel every waking moments torture me im years age yet already sufferer extreme anxiety normal comingofage anxiety anxiety plagued mind since could first grasp human interaction emotion traumas ive experienced certainly contributed well also suffer minor form depression although told life would get better easier things seem going steadily downhill things dont seem getting better ive decided post last sliver hope something someone convince life isnt bad seems wanted voice heard anyone ends reading message thank getting point,1 +school alright ahem know ive seen lot fuck school posts im gonna tell think school alright teachers cool nice get fun stuff like going trips cooking contest stuff actually learn stuff not really useful stuff meh video calls classes get assignments instructions tasks im th grade know highschool norway lot hate schools thought might share think school,0 +best film seen last years surely row masterpieces platoon apocalypse now doors dogs heart russian film really play boy parents good cant even say play no live happening them notice smile faces main hero agrees go walk them hate love one piece final scenebr br really im still impression film hard even impossible combine humor tragedy succeed and frederikson did impact would twice strongbr br i compared one flew cuckoos nest like film either and novel good too frederiksons movie seems simple the difference noticed watched film american history x romper stomper latter deeper mean milos forman showed material point view problem watch it say yes good film like him like her thats it angels leave wide base think bad good boys film cause right behave way do like girlfriend one patient course young pregnant problem husband clinic feelings emotional experience exfriend even stronger the result suicide ask done insane ask support him help him understand him finally even funny people talk other say genius things lot things would like say film im good english im sure you watched movie understand mebr br good luckbr br ,0 +shit sucks last days lost wife child house car job next financial stabilitythis first time able charge phone last month liver probably going fail kill myself first time remember drunk excluding thisall started rape accusation enough shit stacked almost found guilty something god knows do wife divorced found unfit parent lost job could afford car anymore nothing clothes phone which plan donating shortly this backpack suppliesim known pedophile area nobody go to money even leave nothing leftall life end see happens next god know iti feel need privacy anymore since got morphine willing answer questions poverty crime suicide,1 +tell girl likes female friend really close give take years want ask dont want ruin friend ship says mean says awkward would guys tricks help figure out also wasnt sure flair with,0 +im considering kill give reason toi considering overdosing meds cant figure complete assignment,1 +im going sooni know anymore cant hold even call centre job causes extreme panic attacks future career prospects family see failure disappointment lie constantly burden problems way anymore know theyre going think im selfish killing really way anymore go away end week im going nobodys stop me,1 +people come go constantly might close best friend several weeks months suddenly reach say anything anymore get ghosted people use move feel done got want you get told must constantly about things time every single day meet new people make new friends cycle continues over people want friends you flake beginning others stick around little bit couple years best point naturally social creatures even solitary people crave interaction really give us end sure fun memory two most it movies songs anime etc preach value friendship friends stick matter what congrats people either exist rare find especially dawn smartphones streaming etc nobody wants commit anymore nobody wants friends anymore want followers clout rate going die alone bitter angry world people continue insist much value friendships,1 +cant think titlei really know start im unemployed live mother recent state affairs recently hospitalized father visited told move shit out hes pissed cant say blame him hes paying education fucked up struck out last chance pursue dream left ill never able afford go back own mother urging move back while said would better here would people talk to full shit talks convenient her time try talk acts put it like conversation chore mean demonize parents father least all hes good me ive consistently fucking since became ill senior year high school got tired it wasted lot money me mother martyr drama queen cant talk either them father intimidating thinks hes smarter really is get wrong hes one smartest men know severely overestimates himself hes stubborn presumptuous seems think knows exactly im going through seems think able healthy handle told hes wrong well all fact tells leave room time try correct matter matter anyway relationship essentially over know deal mother every time try talk shit gives generic advice makes herself whatever guess girlfriend exhausted tired bullshit ive put lot past seven years unhappy relationship contributes relationship lot able thats shitty relationship in little offer deserves lot more handle diagnosis well said lot shit have things im really comfortable repeating ive given every chance leave says want to cant talk either plenty shit worry grown tired listening say im bitter angry depressed irritable person guess sort gets exhausting listen while friends band mates really cant talk reason were pretty tight weve playing together five six years thats enough put frustrated ramblings schizophrenic loser mother girlfriend band mates thats left cant talk single one them that really respond im talking something particularly interesting them guitarist probably best friend lot alike really problem him drummer good dude general talk anything long im dumping bullshit him everyone else pretty much ignores try talk something girlfriend lot kills me like ill bring something id like talk shell respond shell flat ignore say start talking something wants talk about im interesting anymore really anyone whos interested say reach internet frequently someone talk to join forums websites according interests meet people talk think im interesting while never lasts long get bored eventually stop talking me every single time ive quite while know maintain friendship ive lost social skills im alone thoughts theyre dangerous thoughts have medications effectively gotten rid hallucinations still episodes bimonthly basis terrifying experience one im sure explain disorienting confusing suffocating me im nightmares dream people love care me people think im interesting enjoy company wake inside dream eventually fade back feeling loved happens eventually figure im dreaming wake try remember dream fade back feeling loved never can worst part never wake up keeps happening over crushing every time apparently none medications fatal consequences overdose suppose thats good thing maybe ill try heroin lol,1 +help me listen school understand memes really introduced internet earlier sent cursed meme school group chat saw it please help me,0 +think hit ghost deer im driving dads house am morning im older road goes county dad lives in ive driven road mom im drivers permit many times would say im decent driving age drove illegally since im driving road parallel deer infested forest deer jumped front knew going hit braked anyway felt hit car im surprised airbags didnt go off mom sister car also felt hit it pulled assess damage nothing scratches dents nothing deers mess car right driving ton volvo still would damage right looked deer also find it blood guts anything either looked ditches mom got gun incase need put misery nothing there explanation this know people smarter would like hear sort explanation personally dont want think ghost deer something,0 +tell good enough hereim going run facts otherwise would entirely long ive chronically ill since age four almost twenty ive almost died twice due medical issues ive never attempted redflag institutionalized sick incurable conditions every waking moment rest life im child single mom busting ass care and great job dad care me feel like biggest burden earth beyond miserable broken sickly body body body failed return feel like failing mom people care me honestly need told im worthy living someone mom help girl out,1 +epic story epicness online friend felt bad friends tried introduce best friends random ass reason got mad one told ip stuff delete server friends felt uncomfortable fucking genius innit fucked possibility new friends,0 +know doive never posted before know do im yearold girl even know begin ive eating disorder since really begin get bad th grademy mother responded getting angry threatening me forced recover still struggle presently switch periods starving cutting myself going senior year high school pressured pick college apply to know make big decision know do want fall miserably boring career teacher encourages go art school saying im good enough go art center risd stand failing parents treating i told so mentality see future holds anything me scared going alone license drive yet attributes extremely low feelings self worth parents seemed eager help twin brother get license even bought carbut never seem willing help me wish would help me know ask it lack mobility alienate friends fear judge me push people away like myself boys express interest dating discourage want responsible happiness another cant imagine anyone liking even find repulsive basic issues right now even begin address everything else goes head everything overwhelming me understand people deal lives hard me want go another year misery think redflag often easy access mg prescription sleeping pills bottles prescription antidepressants could overdose easily also okay slitting wrists femoral artery sorry long thanks read all needed say something ive never talked anyone before friends even know hadhave eating disorder even though ive never eaten lunch beforeand parents oblivious guess,1 +hi everyone im broke many people sub are im actually asking money money keep anyway already entered promo code need get bonus cash app dont bank account understand it someone send send right back ,1 +first all know bruce willis good actor take majority movies see characters moments same character movie far beyond every single one far counting story begins not far future man sent past find source virus swept humanity face earth story seems go towards sf think closer drama slow rhythm story that movies tend faster slower points develop towards end beginning see movie aware constant rhythm story revealing facts speed slow down one speed flows gently pretty good mean ending wont pull nerves cause pretty good far direction goes prefect movies easily destroyed bad directing one become far better so getting ready see scifi movie action miss it b movies like this,0 +spirit september one failed redflag attempt got life track every feelings come like day feeling weakness failure today feeling again much bigger pushier feel like cant make it serious debt cant burden parents anymore problems financial cant escape that always come back biggest pressure ever dont like feeling cant every months failed parents rough semester due covid really bad college fell scholarship list much money feelings pushy want happy,0 +tonighti give im done bs depression ive years gonna detail came decision nobody really cares im killing tonight thats final decision bye,1 +want lose fat anyone tips advice subreddits go to basically im yo dude big belly makes feel bad causes pains ribs spine wanna look healthy next summer,0 +soldier on ill end becoming one cases my dad killed two years agoim life objectively bad ok career marry etc always dream mine little girl own nice dog perfect family life problem what dog dies children grow leave point ill finally decide call quits begs question why bother creating family know ill never happy throw away bother carrying im going bother pursuing always wanted,1 +wayne wangs direction may ingredient made film much impressive slums beverly hills covers remarkably similar ground interplay susan sarandon natalie portman riveting real chemistry there film succeeded bringing inside dysfunctional life two women without dragging depressed frustration susan sarandons character hammers nerves narcissistic parent capable touching insecure adolescent amazingly manages without coming across floridly insane intentionally sadistic and natalie portman deflects attack characters ego resigned grace intelligent codependent child untainted smug cynicism natasha lyonne character slums beverly hills portmans character adolescent dignity stress unusual creature modern films film reaches satisfying resolution without trying hard highly recommend film viewer wants challenged entertained,0 +sure im right placeabout month ago partner years experienced profound loss mom since ive trying rock needs made mistakes taking full consideration time well points showed emotion lives better since met want end problems im scared might break up could help maintaining distance needs grieve well knows alone anything everything deal grief supportive,1 +im anti simp fuck yeah ive never received compliment girl im total antisimp get level fuckin simps,0 +people get things cant even things enjoy anymore lmao sleep much know whyi cant help,0 +matterall make mistakes bad events life fault friends really care this family talk as im nazi secret abortion little secret girlfriend boyfriend im ugly manage convince every day look ok feel ok amp ok always amazed event something works me hate myself everything illusion minutes ill feel fine go back fuck it im even really depressed im happy day im cheerful night play video games friends im depressed im overreacting still going post fucking care anymore never really did power anything like think ill stand amp take it will sincerely hope everyone alive today feels pain must try bully harass me wont theyll killed themselves want like anymore means being,1 +real friend real friend one see long time finally meet again says wow look shitty always,0 +need reasons kill myselfi planned killing yesterday didnt go it im going try today wont lie say dont want get help family simply cant afford it already owe ten grand last time hospitalized dont want make twenty im much pain cutting thighs dont energy keep living tried talking therapist basically told go walk maybe help me dont know itll stop altogether maybe itll help last another day sorry posting two days row one turn to,1 +personally think movie pretty good almost rates liked ethnography aspect well gorgeous photography colin firths character likable better decent job role heroine played beautiful nia long familiar film heroine trying thinks best child marrying respected member expatriate community fighting attraction bad man one whos member community the outsider film mothers struggle whats expected her thinks best son follow heart want give away ending let say feelgood movie gorgeous location shots exquisite african dress its worth seeing film womens brilliantly colored african clothing headdresses likable characters overall actor plays nia longs son bright adorable plot bit formulaic liked movie nonetheless colin firth fan must see film like chic flicks see it think ill watch tonight,0 +getting worseeveryday think ending life though posting ill go thread comment happy comment something doubt im even depressed think im trying get attention fucking pathetic,1 +want die fucking badlyim giving end month make something happen theres point living like this,1 +stupid things kids people want know kind things think stupid people kids mainly kids,0 +much homeworkim getting hours homework every day cant spend time family friends barely time talk girlfriend parents yell manage time better really difficult cause usually get like hours sleep every night cant wake early cause feel emotionally deprived anything wanted drop college classes parents let me get yelled spending time anyone everyone thinks im lazy really im drained fucking thing every day want kill ends im tired shit,1 +unpopular opinion uhhh weebsgtgtgtgtgtgt want someone watch anime heh,0 +yesterday bought games doom bit strage play games came befor born still pretty fun i bought first ones evan sale steam sorecommended,0 +think im going kill next weeksive always disappointment many mom dad brother friends especially myself ive always tried become best im sorry im good enough ive wasted best opportunity long time everyone there things,1 +life hello im live singapore like many others used extroverted incident became wish would never happen me used talk lot well little much guess primary school sabotaged many times take innocence advantage accusations beating juniors stealing teachers wallet many more tried best say one discipline master resisted so got canned real bad strokes then secondary school little know would disliked many sabotaged again hyped day orientation hyped still extroverted mind u lot friends secondary school thought way earlier year discipline master secondary school claimed sexually harrass classmate mine sensetive person am resisted much much point discipline master knew lying got canned again ever since then friends left alone social anxiety started increase bunch then comes today barely friends introverted education system putting much pressure knew life would like this could picked another secondary school friends always spread rumors me smoking sexual harrassment tried best ignore avail even try love something kept pulling down barely talk friends ever since social anxiety got bad led depression dont really know do cut myself watch gore listen death metal im sure im going insane normal teenagers do,0 +tonight overmy parents got letter saying ive placed conditional leave im almost still undergrad cant finish drive to to parents crazy rely support everything cant face another lecture parents cant face disappointment yet again wish knew easy way go everything seems painful wish could wake morning wish knew someone would able come place take cat away want make sure someone care love much do know long would otherwise anyone would find me im worried know point writing doubt ill change mind catharsis guess thank reading,1 +candy man karaoke httpsyoutubegxoomdmylihttpsyoutubegxoomdmyli,0 +anybody remember judy b jones takes back kindergarten,0 +melancholy haruhi suzumiya anime left quite impression me partially characters many fall anime fantasyscifi stereotypes placing stereotypes rather mundane setting high school twist appreciated theres somewhat insane titular character something else headstrong almost amoral girl ridiculous amounts talent secret aware ofbr br the setup series bit mindtrip essentially suzumiya unbeknown herself sort superpowerful being capable godlike feats creation destruction destroy rebuild reality whim narrator primary character kyon high schooler whose sympathycuriosity haruhi appears cause drag him will club starting spice life bored normal life searching adventure claims three unusual members secrets end dragged crazy schemesbr br there bit crazy enjoyable philosophic consideration early debate whether world merely haruhis creation gets bored old one whether characters exist serve serve continue exist whether could exist without her bit conundrum enjoyable one same scififantasy scenarios occasionally occur series think joy series lies normal things are remains tension knowing things boring haruhi might destroy world hopes making interestingbr br the art clean line ive come expect anime typically gets imported us like character designs whole lot action series think sits better way series narrated mind kyon play omniscient narrator comments knows feels hes lot going head actually speak whole lot good get hear itbr br the voice acting english dub acceptable enough prefer japanese acting it stranger aspects series parodies traffics fanboyism found amusing first season admit theres lack closure series really larger story arc seems take things one time easy series pick put down although think rather entertaining qualities still quite hard put down also based series light novels author directly involved writing seriesbr br even though based novels still wish series stronger story arcs love naturally get watch characters develop well series play quiet moments well crazier ones seeing haruhi grow quite treat well watching relationships develop sos brigade haruhis clubbr br its everyone due mindtwisting premise extraordinary beings mundane world setting probably sate fanboys actionscififantasy might little offkilter relationshiporiented drama lovers willing try something little different like strangely quirky series like this think melancholy haruhi suzumiya rather refreshingly unique enjoyable series please ,0 +cowardly myselfif magic button would erase existence including minds close me hesitate press it mother never found happened would rest pleased part watches shows serial killers envy victims disappear never heard again would ideal im pathetic maybe get lucky one night meteor fall directly pillow obliterating body heres hoping quiet way out,1 +dogo made hot top time rteenamiugly im proud little jacky fell bad got krama him got treats lot belly rubs,0 +anybody chat looking company,0 +matter saying peacei wish say not tried failed want somewhere record tried best gave enough life eh person past near years lost child her new born daughter congenital diaphragmatic hernia fought lost made almost month doctors said would hours son her wonderful kid bit insane smart clever hell kept hanging while fault all hes good kid almost six now almost ten years meeting recovering surgery mother going cancer took her mother said would here love me forever month ago sticking woman thick thin find shes seeing ex flame ran face book screwing behind back wants move out monday none less reward stay home dad devoted child this hotel room thats even name weeks tops try sort start new life fuck face takes old one house child things ex part could say hell it this always but due mix ever mother died past years havent birth certificate meaning real id crux matter people identity stolen me mine got one night wandered off sit one day till next morning wake up kiss son good bye go cheap motel mini fridge microwave told to make own even name dollar pocket tried damn try much though want more fair right really hope new guy treats son well mother tells ok guy want this name will tried remember ok thank sorry wall text,1 +plan nowive suicidal years life screwed im lost stepbrother sisterinlaw house property lot guns think im going borrow sisters mm go somewhere property kill myself might take car somewhere beautiful blow brains drivers seat let someone heart abuse me fuck this,1 +hate lifehttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsoevbprobably_gonna_off_myself_soon want read see hate life much tried post different subreddit work im annoyed impatient message mod make post nobody read anyway nothings even enjoyable anymore barely motivation school work grades going well right now already know im going kill ive already made notes im killing like right anything online stuff work im done,1 +cant post pics anymore thought able,0 +girlfriend pretty similar situations right even know help her feel useless reason still cannot even anything help her thinks one cares her literally one care love much bad hurts much says stuff like that fault thinks that know that difficult hear sometimes cannot stay clean self harm starting hate even it scars look ugly legs never going go back normal want die scared might happen girlfriend letters somewhere everyone think needs one much pussy ever it think much longer cannot anymote,1 +alivei nothing dragging others time feel bad me reason purpose live sort way find purpose anything idek try itd much better go im still young rather im older many responsibilities even try anymore gonna get this happiness even feel great anyway,1 +guy ask girls society guys one typically ask girl,0 +watched rw years ago like idk would never want anyone deal suicide conscious would blame anyone now literally depressed obviously okay ever like mmmm dunno startin think lot people could shit done moreeelike never wanted feel blame suicide strong motivator like still alive type this now bitter shit world kind done kind it literally everything go fuck care literally kind point maladaptive survival core beliefs strongest notredflag fight ever happens getting ass continuously handed whatever forces routine basisbut like jesus man would hug hard give knew one could save life get,1 +im lowest things keep getting worse worseim finding new ways make things worse myself im done everything cant anymore,1 +really trying best stay alive hurt think possible trying,1 +whatit years since wife developed drinking problem strangest thing doesnt even drink lot little small grass wine becomes mr hyde abusive three children episodes hospitalized drinking mental health issues two occasions together years love her damn love her starting early february tried leave couple occasions recent occasion slept woman wife first time relationship fairly good sex shortly parting ways night occurred dont want sleep anyone wife sex without love doesnt seem worth it love wife went home things good week so dealing stressful housing situation several months finally ended day together kids school spent day together bed sex together great next day went work glass wine lunch mr hyde came home argued tried damndest keep together left took cab moms called couple days later begging another chance told loved would always give another chance said mom would bring home next day next day came wouldnt answer phone text night say wasnt coming home said tired disappointing knew deep would never stop drinking drove moms house find went house person described little brother part friends group ran kidteenager spent last years prison forgery car theft burglary aggravated assault theft round activities days isnt hard inmates get cell phones years ago noticed posted facebook miss you thinking hope okay dreamed last night hope well xoxo thought inappropriate married woman send another man asked stop talking him agreed complied couple years released started talking work left house found reiterated like little brother found went him lost it drove california got stupid stoned walked hole thighs pacing miles beach called right got back truck called coward leaving kids mom ran guilted returning northern arizona got home am sleeping next phone picked up read text knew romantic woke her told over begged steadfast told couldnt live without her steadfast ran house walked away got truck called redflag prevention hotline what joke is sent police house tried coax home police listening speaker phone knew better drove phoenix plan didnt want die love myself love husband father told going focus herself learn independent met almost life skills pretty much raised her ward state parents never prepared life neither state spent teenage years juvenile prison moved shelter northern az lived truck phoenix shelter kicked testing positive drugs pawned kids mom moved him business result happened got physically demanding job slept truck showered gym busted ass talked tried friend her need life one night working called walked away line hid talking her pissed ran me told would whatever get back ended conversation love yous back forth next day said memory conversation blacked out okay that crushed again text later night tell year old daughter stole grandmas pot given wife called daughter lunch break told wife put it going far boost daughter unlocked window go get pot person totally character turned went got babies easy pretend hate that felt better lost wasnt person anymore ignored texts made arraignments daughters stay respective best friends son stayed friend last weekend called ask could locate phone got him left house drank half gallon vodka somehow fell broke rib come find pushing file divorce wasnt ready motherinlaw told asshole used beat mom become obvious trying isolate her pretty much going check list shit abuses trap victims love wife dont know do job hiatus corona wife wrapped psycho kids begging fight full custody im basically homeless im suicidal need run keep im afraid kill him leave kids run hate probably end state custody want run im useless kids like this,1 +best night ever last night walking neighbourhood listening book music full moon lots stars out also threw lot social distancing signs fuck that met brother together hate seeing ugly signs scattered around parks,0 +one else tell im finally killing myselfi need get void years years im finally ready time mess up succeed dont care anymore medication therapy hospitalization ive realized ptsd commit redflag mind it nothing feels real ive attempted know do reached one last time earlier today counsellor college ok made really realize go this feel free feel peace ready,1 +quit telling never give upjust let die quit relying me anything else give you understand thing gave life meaning gave life purpose coming back shell never come back right leave to fools sticking around blind cant see man knew dead long time im him im corpse im rotted remains friend stupid staying longer stay painful itll you im weak tired anything this im gonna like finally bite bullet tie rope end pitiful joke life look around were exact situation year ago gonna end way except time fail kill myself leave now im already dead anyways like ill them problems need also checking every minutes make sure thrown bridge again happens literally everytime start anything new last time got new job months ago soon really real everything starts happening get hit overhwhelming feeling give now kill yourself gonna end last time get now theres seriously point keep fighting swear all ill kill th birthday idiot kill new year haha idiot like could actually change,1 +officially wrote suicide note wanted kill today kept thinking friend family rely strength would shoulder cry things got hard thinking would also kill selves could bare thought hate needed keeping everyone together know loved could easily kill myself know suicidal thoughts get real low point people never realize strongest people ones hurting most show sadness take lightly strong woman offers advice encouragement truly hurting mentioned mom depressed still chose laugh face today broke cried honestly triggered want die knew pick back act two full pill bottles front write suicide note fake smile everyone needs me cannot ever talk feelings traumatized growing learning keep everything inside parents emotionally unavailable tended siblings realize toxic was wrote suicide note,1 +help online friend whos another countryive got friend chat regularly lately saying going kill fails exams within next couple months telling parents slowly taking away destressors has like phone art supplies refusing let life outside school work saying time anything school studying homework wakes up goes school comes home study homework goes bed next day getting much school work piled often four morning trying finish it routinely getting three four hours sleep day keeps messaging saying tired wants end this messaging less less lately personality completely changed last year used talk lot things nowadays talks school slowly wearing down humor become fatalistic point constantly making jokes shell dead soon im really worried know help live us theres almost nothing her try encourage much end mostly feel like im useless im going lose soon,1 +goodnight everyone love u,0 +nightits like desire end things know millions methods sleep wake try show effort live im truly want freedom human suffering think ill permanently suicidal,1 +broke heart cannot live pain anymorei something horrendous push loving boyfriend away hit him context matter monster longer want live earth done lost person thought was horrible cannot stop hating myself,1 +ay bois yall heard zenith mmo vr mmo poggers preorders start tomorrow want dm link discord,0 +already know im going it put fight redflag know im going lose like universe yelling get with one wants around anyways overstaying welcomei weird one wants anything me know go now close dont know interact guess im surrounded assholes dont know interact bc im surrounded assholes cares one cares eventually cant deal w this look atm post history see man screaming room full deaf people many say talk theyll listen guess never do tried therapy tried tried find good therapist yrs tried recently discouraging know talk to trust hotlines anymore either becuase asshole therapists want anymore want live thi life want die,1 +feel like worst luck everything maybe thats bias feel like life dealt short hand feel guilty saying people lives far worse mine walking painful talking painful know do want everything end want rest struggle,0 +resent people keeping hereim angry loved ones reason able kill myself cant justify hurting them im waiting get bad enough point care anymore,1 +johnny depp questions going johnny depp dont know happening,0 +want sterility test idk called cannot without mom finding masturbate shall do,0 +dont know much longer keep upive attempted redflag times time think im getting better everything turns shit again dont know function without influence try talk friend feel terrible dad alcoholic recently diagnosed bpd completely thrown loop dont know feels like cards ive dealt keep getting shittier shittier fucking sucks im tired trying im tired trying get better nothing working everything feels heavy feel like im slipping feels like end dont want keep going,1 +want someone talk to feeling stronger evermy liver problems getting worse really care bottle vodka right near want drink die many things gone wrong summer cant get job area stuck home manic depressed mother always get fight verbal physicalmainly physical her try protect myself family extremely close financial ruin college got accepted transfer aka dream college denied financial aid basically gave hope something life said nope able fulfill dream matter hard try liver acting yet again bf college left starting love years able feel ex cheated me thing set though recent ex toying heart hurts fucking much taken xanaxs already calm put sleep hurt disappointment runs deep,1 +girls rteenagers f think might ace never looked anybody thought dang wanna bang em ive seen sex education shameless felt absolutely nothing and pretty sexual shows ive heard lot people specifically mom say girls general less sexually appealed visual cues tend prefer emotional connections person rather focusing appearance like would term asexual even exist case am asking fellow females validity that sexual feelings towards people based appearance feel anything watching sex scenes tv or porn ig may young really know im ace really feel like spectrum somewhere im probably greysexual think sex could nice somebody im really really close with really feeling it intimacy it ya know let know tag nsfw,0 +friend threatening kill right now need help dohe sent message telling contemplating redflag say,1 +scheduled first therapy session doubt ill even make itive thinking redflag every day probably months now theres point living like anymore weekend may finally it people may sad first eventually theyll forget life go normal landlord rent apartment again ill replaced work earth keep spinning even sticking around hopefully goodbye,1 +like horror movies lots blood gore tons jumpscare moments unrelenting escalating scenes excruciating death look elsewhere like quiet moody thoughtful horror casts blood aside favor genuine feeling dread wendigo youbr br thoughtful stressed george psychoanalyst wife kim young son miles heading snowy countryside long weekend vacation away city way up george hits stag car hunters pursuing deer thrilled find george ended chase particular deranged hunter otis takes personally follows family vacation home making sure see him spies george kim sex fires windows rifle home letting discover ominous holes windows walls return kim takes miles drugstore town miles attracted small sculpture display case carved resemble man head stag native american man tells miles wendigo spirit woods taste flesh always hungry miles takes figure home him already haunted death deer day before afternoon father go sledding george shot miles pursued woods creature barely glimpsedor shock imagining whole thing hours later george rushed hospital miles still clutching statue either faints dreams goes vision quest wendigo returns time angry flesh eating god part tree part stag part man hunting otis finally gone edgebr br wendigo beautifully made film almost totally silent wind howling snow covered trees okay monster kind fakeylooking small flaw made genuine feeling tension dread creeps every frame film eerie backdrop silent snowy countryside performances great particularly jake weber moody thoughtful george patricia clarkson sweet nononsense wife happy couple share common problems strength relationship love makes film powerful watching film often like watching someones home videos realistic performances br br this movie everyone lot people may find totally bored waiting hideous lovecraftian beast bloody revenge never come never really sure wendigo even exists seen eyes sensitive child also later eyes madman psychological drama horror film enough creepy elements satisfy fans subtle horror,0 +hey guys get feedback could really use feedback streetwear brand could guys check comments link brand let know think feedback seriously helps much thanks lot,0 +help meeee cat fell asleep need get help do,0 +someone going noticeive cutting months scars wrists matter time someone notices dont know im going do,1 +option move try live stay commit redflagive stuck essentially us state entire life ill april every memory place full trauma abuse struggle able take proper steps recovering even medication feel stuck place want move different state start new place know anyone one knows me truly feel begin move on feel hopelessly stuck am want assume know best me feel like know anything myself doubt myself scared moving scared attempting redflag life joke feeling attempt ill end making living existence worse ive written note im giving weeks figure want do cant figure out plan end suffering confusion fear one speak to one listen without bringing problems family two three people hang who also turn talkworry redflag sickeningly upbeat conversation problems guess post heard something know sorry,1 +first comments get award u comment,0 +ever sent ever sent random people would again also gender you,0 +feeling super lonely suicidal right now anybody help allcant get rid fucking loneliness,1 +haggis time accept fact bow frog overlord,0 + years working finally made schools top choir m selected schools top choir stoked context live small town choir isnt weirdconsidered gay no offense intended dynamic rural smalltowns choirs school mixed choir full freshman audition required womens choir audition required girls only honor choir audition required competitive girls last definitely least choir called madrigals or mads audition callback required make it mads positions available section soprano alto tenor bass usually spots taken returning upperclassmen they guaranteed spot next year making choir competitive section anyway working way mixed honor choirs made going next my junior year worked hard nervewracking auditions callbacks made it wanted celebrate little bit heres great start school year,0 +see pointi currently teenager high school childhood bad certainly worst one thing ive learned life far work really hard life die like nothing cant see future anyway failing classes atm motivation even try ive starting think possibilities life cant see way like playing video games get every morning another crappy day motivation play favorite games hanging friends seem like option im antisocial mom thinks worse leave house know it want end im stuck top hill nothing push continue life nothing push back side kill myself stuck top seeing shitty future then look behind see shitty childhood nobody knows thoughts sharing would turn another problem would think about put anti depressants events childhood made cry sleep every night currently trying find hope listening music seems like chore find music make stop thinking first time posting subreddit like thought blind interaction help calling hotline even tho im antisocial cant even bare think speaking random stranger phone call situation even discuss friends family thank time suggestions personal stories could help think top hill,1 +made decisioni going kill myself maybe today maybe tomorrow tired sad toxic house mostly father everyday need walk eggshells everyday fear going hit manipulate used hit younger tried year gonna take antidepressants high blood pressure pills done dont know going work done lonely feeling fear sadness done fuck family fuck abusive ex fuck called friends irl doesnt even try call me done fuck everything lost years life studying stuck home depressed toxic man dont wanna live anymore wait gonna send saving money charity kill myself,1 +idk did deleted social medias long distance completely cuts us off even say why idk breaking me would told me right anyways lost him imma lose life feel dumb trying kill this going it killing cuz boyfriends mad,1 +superpowers whatever is would told parents person trust it filler filler filler filler filler,0 +sitting car contemplatingon whether not drive erratically interstate crash median take life raining end ill turn traction control see happens,1 +require music searched litterally every genre music like cant find suggestions would greatly appreciated,0 +tbh havent found right person doesnt mean will,0 +im going kill myselfi need someone see this ive always wanted leave world left sort positive mark would like say feel much emotional painscarring justify live another second ampxb get it one chooses life rare make to knowledge get one chance life really get it cant choose birth feel least choose time date death ampxb im completely hopeless lonely tired maybe tried everything feel even ounce happiness im tired immense emotional pain feel constantly seriously wish way could convey someone feels except wish pain even worst enemy ampxb emotional support life grow dad practically grew without mom rest relatives lived across ocean got worse advice ive ever heard be parent desperate sort feeling family followed anyway screwed drove bigger rift mom dad shaped today like am thinking right disgusts flying fuck me understand ampxb tried changing it saw reddit comment people try sense genuine kind integrity wanted follow that type person really respected wanted follow ive trying every single day almost months now try want see world ampxb yet still substantial friends family one fall back on two people actually gave shit got pushed away depression much ampxb ive tried things point therapy sleeping better eating better general taking better care myself ive listened podcasts ted talks mental health ive read books emotional bandaging ampxb like put real solid effort ampxb ive felt like exist would much better would help mom pay college anymore which lords every single day btw like get could take away money anytime fyi doesnt help feel good like even offer pay first place planning do told today could pay mortgage give someone else knows theyll use better use travel gee thanks already feel like disgusting piece shit thanks reaffirming am ampxb somehow became disrespectful high school tried explaining years emotional abuse made lose respect parent causing communicate all like roommates talk time like yeah get ityou son im sorry mom gave material affection like food clothes roof yeah situation could much worse would trade worse circumstance loving mother time emotionally hurt would give advice cut patience hear say ampxb tried explaining me know her think understands even wants understand like me ampxb one send to wish did wish someone could send would come pick talk me wish could drive mountains road windy listen chill lofi trap millennial shit want friend cares think would give least ounce hope live ampxb want feel comfort anyone like that long now sucks feeling alone feeling feelings one share with get it lot emotional baggage lot would really help ampxb im sad lol im crying type this im hopeless ampxb fighting mom triggered me wish wasnt im done ive enough sorry long post thanks reading it did knowing someone read piece story enough move on ampxb tldr im going kill myself somehow someway,1 +dont convince toi need end it depression false hope even depressedthe cycle goes on everytime get up next time fall hurts even greater cant anymore,1 +love death resist living guys awful earth death thing make happy,1 +show project today history rap im really scared plz give advice feel like imma mess,0 +ever thought anal jarjar binks neither go hornyhell bastard,0 +got fucking demon slayer spoiled fucking hentai sub like bitch kinda mothaasshole spoils shot hentai sub piece shit go hell tell im quite pissed turn events,0 +first post rantive reddit account years breaking lurking streak mine make first ever official post cant keep anymore last year month november something happened me dont wish talk much feel like overlydiscussed life makes emotionally tiring mention specifics incident again ever since then past months never wanted leave world badly used talk closest friends ranted whenever ive felt lowest think eventually theyll get tired so hence ive since stopped all lives live too frankly feel busy care dont blame though anyway result that never felt alone past months everything feeling kept inside theres one really talk to yet despite feeling lonely reason choose push away care opting isolation instead occasionally deactivate social medias delete apps turn whatever notifications messaging apps dont talk family much anymore find really tiring even answer back simple yes no many times ive thought ending life never seem able find courage so often would sit balcony home finding courage push edge ive tried constantly researching ways kill myself tried mixing alcohol medication thinking ways leave world find redflag constantly mind im currently serving national service military now past ive handled live rounds thought everything ending simple squeeze trigger often drifted mind thoughts hanging bunk camp common too ive recently started selfharming something havent done years feel like reason havent ended yet though people care dont wish cause inconveniences pain them feel sentiment slowly going away isnt worth anymore doesnt help slowly drifting away me honestly past always thought redflag would way would go incident last november idea seems way believable now sleeping hard me often cant seem fall asleep night whereas day think sleeping camp tend drink much alcohol takes fall asleep else would lay awake hours every night go bed wishing wont wake next morning do feeling horrible simple things irritate me sometimes tired emotionally care too live days life right huge lack motivation feeling zombie kind sleepwalking days im always either side spectrum either dont feel anything feel everything really tiring either way concludes first ever reddit post,1 +life anyone arsed dont blame not long anything one talk toend last year shit me lost everything meant purpose living girlfriend job dog house shared lost space three days never regretted anything then live life respect always lay cards table first im sufferer anxiety get scared anything mean speaking people throwing every morning work anxiety shit man thoughts get stop living life ive tried take life three times since all guess im weak strong enough hate attention last thing want thing thats mind stops mom dad love alot man ive got scars arm hope fade first night happend tried jumping train fence really dont know wtf im ive told one happy never thought end never bullied plenty mates school sessions football xbox didnt discover anxiety never understanding knowing something determine it im years old waiting see psychologist tomorrow actually im scared torture girlfriend since went prom abortion nothing proud yh alot seen places told time time together every uno sassy shit fucking years life never cheated trust loyal head denied fucking reason paranoid anxious nervous whatever fuck burnt confused agitation took going stupid moods talking nd shit pathetic wat weasel im hating wat ive become heads one place one day sinking water dont want anymore im embarrassed losing her friends lost contact school time still love shes want torture though one minute im planning death next hate feel like heads long gone man cant concentrate anything nans wen kid hotspot family every saturday everyones odd cousins cant remember faces without picture years lifes shit wen ur bottom probaly could bounce back dont know want shes head dreams everything normal wake mom dads house alone one talk accept found love years though achieved goal life good wages house car dog bad fuck nothing lifes evil ive ever tried appreciate everything never judge book cover never hated anything myself guess cope head anymore left house walking round streets actually felt homeless bare going back moms lived years memories really cannot bare please help one minute waking going work saying bye dog kissing misses cheek saying love waking moms room swapped old bedroom changed thing really cannot bare going future life someone else would rather die head plans set tomorrow hypothermia im pussy thats way depends psychologist tomorrow im dickhead deny problems im going give go sorry biography thats tin beans spilt really one talk dont want upsetburden mom nd dad anymore shit yh thanks time relate help would nice,1 +feel lonely whenever someone talks either one sided conversation stop responding nobody ever goes way talk makes feel like im annoying im always room feeling sorry myself sometimes stop see give fuck dont go months without talking dont start first im rambling point im tired others,0 +im sure missed one first came out glad finally seen itbr br this movie takes place around th century red light district okabasho japan tells tale prostitution caste systems women strong society based upon strength samurai code japanbr br it uniquely akira kurosawa even though died could direct movie adaptation screenplay shows view japanese world caste system renowned sheds light upon systems interact other characters may revolve around other caste system stays intact character goes back world belong in samurai warrior drifts good hearted loving prostitutes world goes back life embarks another road man part caste systemlowest low many prize world samurai others yet lower caste inhabitants support love without restraint samurai movie turns weak one classless lovers prove honorable ones br br the movie deserves higher rating tale survival women feudal japan time frame men thought survivorsthe strong ones women thought mindless weak property movie highlights strength japanese women survival strength enabled japanese culture continue hasbr br i recommend the sea watching anyone fan akira kurosawa even theyre fan lovely quiet soul sustaining movie one treasured movie collection,0 +feel like manipulative abusive person pressured ex come back selfish desires want ruin reputation future cant find way outmy first relationship ever girl dating also early know everyone school beginning date age happy couple kissed cuddled told much loved gave gifts thought everything going great good things come end wanted break me reason felt good her disagreed much possible true ive low selfesteem long could remember ended breaking me still give up thought kept asking come back me would could happy again things before missed seeing her thats did kept asking come deeply missed her want get back together eventually agreed unfortunately relationship beyond repair eyes broke up again talk several years now realise done kept begging come back selfish desires want to end made give coming back me blind fact want relationship anymore yet made come back me feel absolutely terrible thing guilt feel every day last couple months overwhelming fast forward finally talked first time years apologised everything told changed desperate selfish kid was bit confused apologising accepted anyway im sure forgiven me mad first place maybe forgotten happened shell remember one day realise dumb mistakes made im pretty terrified past affect future especially pressuring come back me could kiss cuddle again would affect rest life mental health know get rid guilt feel every day long time ago remember like yesterday overthinking things reasonable thing worry about tldr pressured ex come back did work out think still good terms other feel guilt feel like manipulative person pressured ex things want do know better something worry future common mistake someone age make,1 +brother trying make sick so brother trying make sick ive contracted pneumonia days ago i still it anyways bigger brother trying make sick hes coughing room often even overheard coughing directly room trying sleep parents anything even grounding such do type revenge take him im ,0 +nut use lever method method like this put ur hand tip ur dick push side side might hurt start pain dissapear friend try it approves,0 +give answer guyshey guys young man cis region little bit lost studying abroad made decision change country subject studies done everythingsuccessfully enrolled another university unfortunately got half scholarship wanted mother supporting application processalso friends supported me came home got information decided tell father elder brother brother completely disappointed decision told wont let ruin life mother changed mind dayso told studying business useless cant finish current studieshow sure finish future business degreethat weaka failure made everyone suffer selfishthat wasted lots money me people things dont wanna dobut supposed to family members lot problems think even worse problems dobut wanted make everything better family said many horrible thingsthat would never say thembut understand that diagnosed clinical depression brother laughed it dont know anymore maybe righti got sick mindset stupid unrealistic thoughts closest people lost faith me realize fault didnt fulfill parents expectations dont understand point view anymore sent back place dont wanna studybe couldnt anything agree fault super selfish decided enroll university completely different country kinda dream would say planned lot things except one feel super badi cant sleepgot constant headache getting little crazy even though trying stay strong want disappear leave worst mark familys lifeit break completely till end days think better,1 +want get dotz dotz time say trump shit trump right people see get dotz wrong people see get dotz,0 +gun head right nowi everything bought gun got hotel room got hotel room called ex last person know im kill myself hung up wouldnt respond texts messages phone calls expected leave darkest moment again sent email location contact numbers people know hours ago thought maybe cared enough call cops alert me even that even that guns safety im holding trigger typing this im mad dont want last thought her doesnt deserve it already worse ive ever felt towards her finger wont pull trigger im trying thought pops head stops me wants die maybe reverse psychology idk idk do checkout soon dont want live still dont want last thought her fuck man,1 +potseeking preteen joshua miller as tim throws sisters doll river daniel roebuck as samson howls smokes cigarette killing danyi deats as jamie doll washes away naked young woman stays rivers edge passerby see viewing dead body group twentysomething teenagers mostly classmates naked corpse stoners keanu reeves as matt crispin glover as layne found cameraworthy friends wonder guilty beerguzzling killer friendbr br veteraninthecast dennis hopper as feck keeps youngsters heads fed mr hopper killed woman lives one lifesized sex dolls mouth apparently ready action ione skye leitch as clarissa living doll waiting reeves kiss her copulation notably crosscut flashback opening strangulation actual teenager first feature role ms leitch daughter sixtiessinger donovan make quirky connections ownbr br you read lot movie not depending mood characters backgrounds may little subtle obviously killer teen teased note weight attitude toiletconnected nickname characters relationships motivations vaguely defined cast certainly keeps material interesting and director tim hunter photographer frederick elmes writer neal jimenez obviously skilledbr br rivers edge tim hunter keanu reeves crispin glover dennis hopper joshua miller,0 +know song i removed verses make bit difficult dont search lyrics up ruins game ampxb fuck princess im king bow kiss ring bitch kink fuck else think fuck princess im king bow kiss ring gonna hurt itll sting spitting blood sink im crazy like bite back daisies nightstand never forget blossom moonlight screw eyes glacial blue ice im terrifying im cinderella like shoes big glass platforms bitch im choosey long blue hair blue bruise trust fella light amusement im prey pursued pray me churches pews new dickstraction cant confuse whiskey hip flask nothing fruity,0 +people dont want die irrational ones mei dont get idea good thing remain alive living painful especially whats happening right world keep feeling opt out like compassionate euthanasia dont feel life worth living choice want able choose freely go,1 +quite mitchell leisen fan great anticipation rented movie print got extremely bad worn use scorched seemingly beyond repair movie dark dark certain scenes cinematographed dark cant see single thing said believe share opinion first review movie starts unusually tote lines rhythms typical hollywood s movie heck even typical hollywod movie era seems director influenced europeans certain caustic realism proceedings opening shot crafted camera movement placement maggie carole lombard skid fred macmurray meet half expect start singing make believe show boatit starts laughs poor anthony one scene role speaks word english gets slapped around freddie skids bum care hes bum thats signs army hide world hes released though set screenplay shenanigans misses boat new york movie kicks high gear begin get french movie sixties vibes whole proceedings scenes well acted lombard cecil cunningham movie gains pulse macmurray good lombard fall nurtures talent trumpet temptress arrives form dorothy lamour enough plot movie fantastic montage sequences dazzled me good lombard scores home run movie second half bit called freddie fails deliver goods heavily melodramatic ending actor believe movie falls short since typical movie structure set design direction worth look one hits season know exact rank though,0 +need redflag watchi want someone listen me want alive inconvenient itll wife time next week ill dead,1 +because never get good anything pick hobby weeks hit obstacle get bored give up happening years example started drawing multiple times still good toddler matter try cannot stick anything ever think executive function brain banged up cannot organise myself frustrating nonetheless really fault know could good pushed more get depressive episodes hardly anything eat sleep days could spent something actually worthwhile feel like loser,1 +im sick bullshithello yearold marine veteran koreanamerican ones going read shit wanted place vent anger frustration diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type antisocial to extent spoken two words six months barely post write online try improve empirical evidences mood enhancement exercising trying new hobbies taking cold showers taking social classes improve awkwardness people yet even initiations looked hate dread students penn state york campus professors psychology professionals look behave retarded deficient human being often would skip cut short input seminars students would groan silence i still hear it everytime talk feel belong need classes fucking graduate committed numerous acts redflag various occasions used methods overdosing someone elses prescribed sleeping pills hanging noose attempting jump bridge push relationships away fear getting emotionally damaged used proceed ignore me blame believe deserve good people life yet want social connection family rejects conversations feel depressed feel suicidal proceed get furious tell shut fuck up friends literally fucking tired emotional rollercoaster rides monthly tried fit americans berate skin color pennsylvania state brotherly love ass tried make friends koreans cast away individualistic rather collectivistic mindset like them feel like ignorant unintelligent bigot future live home father paying house utilities im tired progress stupid fucking lie life gets better tired hope also penn state york reading thiswhich highly doubt fuck you ill see hell,1 +made promise commit redflag birthday i think it im strong enough it knowing probably cant follow through worst part actually pretty ok crushing despair knowing ill alive past date unbearable posted dating profile okcupid recently distant friends work it posted reddit overwhelming critique really figure it know anymore im person gave long time ago things writing im going anymore interests goals desires im even sure even mine followed pursued achieved everyone else wanted living goal everyone else me living goals people but goals ones worth talking about killing myself feeling bad things people bond on im pretty much alone theres noone close enough lean ask friendship from,1 +sad truth life isnt worth itwhat life makes worth it relationships children money figured anything reason killed really belief kind failure so really found reason wanting beyond vague sense trying something completing life cycle terms lifes accoutrements seems really pointless much im starting think point life might actually kill yourself fruits life mean nothing life possibly mean redflag goal lived seems stupendously irrelevant wonder path easy difficult easier kill oneself difficult so cant tell anymore ambivalence towards redflag seems taken morbid fascination folly continue bang head wall test head strength cant perceive cant derive cant make conclusion exist ambiguity really upset bored annoyed sick stupid game reason it something could delude valuing maybe could make end,1 +another lonely night starring ceiling guess lonely together,0 +actually dbt bad therapy depressionmy therapists response i wish could die without affecting anyone else well thats impossible course people love would miss you would miss you would devastating seems little short guilt tripping say totally ineffective kind expected dbt intensive therapist dbt assume greatest motivation positive attention totally leverages therapuetic relationship like means anything else world like sorry ok all therapist even know you self harm officially unamed unacceptable punnishable hours contactno phone coaching phone coaching thing theyre supposed try get use instead trying again kill yourself somebodys desperate theyre selfharming possibly intent kill totally fix leveraging need continued attention need feel better cost love god assumption someone really wants attention anything get good presenting asymptomatic bad symptomatic theyll stop self harming attempting redflag being symptomatic cannot manipulate suicidal thats works came dbt robust empirically proven form therapy supposedly heavyduty industrial strength whatever supposedly perfect severely depressed chronically suicidal people thats came for im sure im getting assumes people illogical attentionmotivated children else im mastermind genius find pretty insulting what get gold star day without selfharm too know lets go full behaviorism token economy s im studying psychology neuroscience shit jive ive taught expect dbt im disappointed really flat salty full jargon hardly begin parse out therapist says need work committment living like proper noun something oh mindfulness cure everything including misery existence like mindfulness actually kind hate it deep breathing bullshit too work like toolkit like therapy hate life treatment resistant depressive nothing works even little,1 +damn realized something politics gets complex issues standpoints arise normal political compasses cut it going start dimensional political compasses,0 +asshole wont let upload this ill ask here replies welcome aita fighting bullies heavily bullied th th grade first time fought kid dude talking shit sister class punched face tackled ground next time joke told got taken context i didnt know peasant meant pissed group kids one dude always bullied started talking shit friends me basically chased around table punching back ok next one kinda feel bad about cause girl thats frowned upon girl took another level really dont care gender cause youre talking shit able back words basically started making fun told friend room lunch table tell friends said group sitting table usually doesnt eventually started talking mom calling stripper calling fat entire lunch period said something mom i raised pretty much single parent household im protective her punched across face asshole understand think am,0 +been struggling depression since grade wish would die haha like everyone else here everyday feel stronger urge think around time soon feel right talk anyone know right im posting here,1 +solid liquid gas come gentials states matter also come mouth,0 +nail screw drill hammer words used convey sex idk thought im waiting next class start,0 +creating political party called antiuwu league,0 +jesus jumping christ lukewarm eggo waffle jesus jumping christ lukewarm eggo waffle,0 +someone help mego plans kill myself need encouragement advices,1 +quite timehi reddit find headspace thought left behind im side meltdown panic attack whatever feel exhausted im drained cant sit still feel frozen inaction feel unstoppable need change something thoughts focus wanting anymore im tired struggle struggle pay bills stay groomed keep place clean car insurance social life work dad time sleep everything struggle nothing feels smooth easy going hopeless ive lonely since wife left first rejection post divorce hurt way expected foolish think id stronger went through ativan kicking hard ill try get sleep hope mind leave darkest thoughts behind time wake up sorry rambling,1 +august th prediction arg tiktok live people saying today government going announce fake alien invasion new world order thoughts,0 +previously seen zu warriors magic mountain film setting takes place chinas mountains legend zu looks like another dimension thank tsui harks extensive use cgi effects hes able portray vision mountains floating clouds land beings fly freely powers ranging razor sharp wing blades split swords ultra cool moon orbbr br while many characters one focus mainly king sky enigma romance aspect there although movie seems much darker predecessor cecilia cheung beautiful presence screen makes movie worth watching beginning like resembles countess from zu warriors well playing enigma deals facing past life oh way mention cecilias appealing eyebr br in truth zu warriors comedy elements special effects limited due time tsui hark takes whole new level sets new standard cinema,0 +honestly f livingthis morning sucked nitrous two cans cream cough syrup ritalin couple drugs preparation ending it put favorite alice chains songs writhed cried floor minutes tying noose daddys elastic bands was survival instinct kicked cartoids crushed got undone barely hate it bulimia acting back up feel physically weak it bipolar killing me depression endless turned month ago job cannot drive nobody loves me one ever has ex boyfriend raped me dated please mom girlfriend killed blamed addictions nobody loves me want loved ive never known that since nana died five years ago know endless insults hate recieve get put daily im freak nobody loves me really must useless one friend little time me doubt cares therapist paid care mommy yell daddy screams back feel lost hate myself whats point whats point feel like complete failure life nothing offer last thing world needs another tortured artist,1 +yo anyone wanna chat dm like games pixel art yoyos animals herbal tea filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler fillerfiller filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im done healthy peoplr trying saying shit never actually helpsdont get im you im loved seen fucking great talents social skills fucking disposable friend nice childhood people valued existence dont people love leave you struggles lead people getting tired you knowing good leave theyre right option boring toy used thrown away again future job kids goddamn spouse adores you im what kid even live long enough see nieces nephews reach age even fucking graduate me fuck chipper attitude bullshit word vomit gonna open eyes heart fuckers even caring want weight death hands ive never able express anger im finally able goddamnit whats like able yourself without worry friends leaving easy huh ignorant bastards want blow brains til theres nothing left fucking smoothie guess what cant parents care hurts even more yall worry day alone people love die leave rot alone im destined dumped side one give two fucks one look see person one fucking look take time get really know me assholes assume know fuck dont want protect precious conscience see shit like think human think making feel good fuck you know im entitled bitchy im fucking done one even sees beauty me single person even thinks anything ever survive long enough im either going fertilizer arm candy neighborhood creep know im gonna get guts swear everything im gonna live see another week fuck everything,1 +life definitely going shitter lolive studying hard lately school every single day pm study hour increments minute break collect myself think working dont know much going improve gpa really want go good school dont im going feel like failure music thing doesnt work dont end going good college think know im going do reason ive staying alive want see successful career im older fantasize redflag everyday without failure,1 +next yearthings wrong since beginning but couple months getting worse worse get feeling im gonna make next year shit someone gotten reading how fuck important enough keep going reasons had,1 +mom said would happy see fail ill study summer lightest part it made feel like im son anymoreim probably gonna fail yearss maths exam took todayi english final exam even next years sam it native language literature succeded theory practise first time get driving license weve got national championship schools basketball team weve trying years failed hates now even broke girlfriend week ago wanna die literally noone gave credit good did know whether find job move mothers go far away can never seen anymore yo male highschool student mother disappointed me feel like gave like forever please help wanna live earth anymore,1 +need strength explanatory everytime express myselfin wayi get rejectedcriticized random people dont even know calling hurtful names people dont know calling liar amp derogatory insults reddit think ill stay away social media awhile think whatever want me im robotim human amp im perfect believe calling liar make feel better dont know anything me youre random person commenting online set deadline end year ive lot latelyevery year say year im coward hopefully stay bed monthmaybe pain ive suffered today go away class tonight ive demonized amp lost emotional strength go anywhere class counting me people need rehearsal tonight shakespeare workshop class performance tomorrow see done fuck making mw depressed again friends noone notice staying bed month performance sad am last weeki felt like dying thought getting better little week today verbally attacked strangers reddit amp im dumps again long supposed tolerate sick world ill honest therapist friday amp whatever decides thati wont object hate everything amp everyone earth planet descended hell todayi would stand amp thing help dying thirsti would give water amp keep walking world filled monsters disguised human beingsespecially internet means personincluding meto decide theyve enough getting harder every day it,1 +crappy cyclops taco thing drew httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg httpsiredditeocddlvtljpghttpsiredditeocddlvtljpg originally supposed death glider sg cyclops taco,0 +know anymoreive never sure want die before ive reached avail amazing boyfriend deserves much better this think hes starting see deserves better this friends already gone theres one feel close anymore more know happened life suppose get better never has life swing making extra money ghost writing paying debt looking new place live suppose exciting not move back home failed cant stand anymore really failed miss boyfriend bad want physical affection cuddle ugh really sure much take,1 +want goth gf spits mouth crushes thighs much ask,0 +suicidal online friend went darkabout week ago went dark one could contact tried asking closest friends one knows anything dont know,1 +dont think make itten years ago wasnt good year compared whats happened earth shattering handle everyone live either moved away friendships severed died overdose know one person left alive arent good terms all care addict always feels like trap sunday went hospital panic attack god damn time hate conflict lot started three years ago boyfriend four years found dead overdose didnt know addict less year died im stupid didnt know hid well tried hard enough carry guilt die literally feel gutted friend whos good terms cutting actions hurts like hell hes one left knows through losing friends even turn trapped watching even something bad happens hearts hurting much nothing helps hell father died cant take it miss death dont know live life changes mom threw away years work things went ahead changed whole house thats fine taken darkest places almost died three times last year tried hardest save her theres guy im catching feelings im already scared hell feel like shouldnt feel like im cheating boyfriend whos dead three years moment feel like im going heart attack non stop shake feel like crap tried take life many times cant take world hate it cant eat sleep nightmares get wish lived state assisted redflag allowed afraid live leave house cant function im sick stomach theres help there,1 +whats rabid atheists fighting religion real reason manga comment section saw guy shitting religion someone made joke religious guy manga wasnt complete asshat like went reason made fuckin think dont get it,0 +respecting women sexy know am fact actually definition sexy,0 +cant stop thinking iti manic depression every single day think ways kill cant stop ill bus stop urge throw under almost like devil angel shoulders type thing one telling painless take seconds misery good free im failing college parents high expectations put pressure every single day hate want out hate much want normal please need help,1 + assignments core class alone feelin good,0 +waiting dayum hi people reddit first time posting feel like use anybody anything world school life complete shit anxiety adhd combined depression ofc always constant fact wanting end know would almost every time something bad happens fail would think dieing honestly thing holding back girl life everything dating months guess parents allow date figured ah ha im fucked feel leaves stupid overprotective parents im legit going end know else im going living honestly hate body life want die cant change mind wish could tried talking people cant im done cant take shit world anymore cant think killing feel would take long set everything would think know,1 +received weirdest package school social worker mailed package for school group im in aa batteries battery pack plastic tube metal wire card event details candy apparently materials neon lights,0 +casomai last movie ive seen getting married last year br br it also first movie ive searched for married promised offer copy priestbr br sometimes reality apart fiction wrote priests like don camillo exist real life would recommend visit priest pe nuno westwood estoril portugal br br to others would recommend see movie i do day br br rodrigo ribeiro portugal,0 +guys know whos cute read first word boys boys please turn,0 +tumblr shitposts better shitposts sub need tumblrlike shitposts sub people like pukicho gaud favourites need better shitposts,0 +point continuingive never job likely never find one pandemic feel like shell pretending human know wanna be never funds mental strength get there brain many stupid self imposed rules keep myself if even exists waste resources im allowed depressed have good according mind exist,1 +crush called come house know sees friend house yesterday really sure obvious hints signals like you,0 +think finally want livestruggled redflag whole life attempted redflag exactly year ago think im finally starting get better never thought would find happiness life im glad found im glad didnt last year hope things get better hope find happiness one day dont know wish could love appreciate youre still breathing,1 +give signim honestly considering ending tonight never felt alone entire life lost nan month half ago amp grief unbearable nan best friend love much ive always said ever passed would kill wasnt expecting soon im trying stay strong grandad really dont think this im trying positive abt future think nan isnt it feel trapped inside head amp feel way escape end it ive suicidal amp way got better support nan gave n shes cant deal it want die badly amp doubt ill even see nan thought nothingness eternity calming think it even dont see again ashes could put near nans ashes would world im sick tired now reasons wanting end thats main one idk dont even know im looking amp dont want like nan wouldnt want bc shes shell never know god sound selfish want die none friends family seem care ive dropping hints since may amp ive said outright multiple times whats point continuing existing dont want anymore one seems care whether live die,1 +friends met pedo whatsapp catfished part started messaging pedo im horny age consent countrythen started send shit like omg wanna fuck show pussy googled year old nudes sent random one trapped part made think horny girl started sending videos wank started getting creepier like live fuck dollars got stuff needed blocked himi give phone number address irl name phone name bizamana yannick address chetwynd british columbia please harras make life bad tried get nudes little girls ampxb want spread repost pedo get deserves,0 +want free bodytg warning sexual abuse rape crashed dont want live keep moving single mom four children family nearby raped abused years want free body trapped body hate body ugly dont want see anyone want die dont want get bed cant this,1 +somethinga good days ive already fucked im always trying say choose thing thatll make happy always guess wrong take fuck continue worthless piece shit exists disappoint talk make feel like shit sorry cant multitask mind im trying work fuck still fucking accept quit trying react be tears mean nothing anyway dont cry hurry fucking kill youself already dont think dont hesitate let go pull trigger opened big fucking mouth havent fucking figured shut fuck one wants one cares fuck try keep fucking trying make happy cant apparently whole literal life revolves around making happy wish knew stay quiet keep peace dont talk anymore,1 +dont know anymoreive come breaking point see solution besides killing myself ill never able solve problems problem me im sick me cant get together im getting stuck time wont able fix it cant keep this everything feel intense time feel like nothing float life autopilot cant function normally anymore let everyone time never say right thing im always emotional clingy much everyone see hope point,1 +came backi m live christian neighborhoodi attempted redflag obviously failed started seeking help keeping secret everyone including parents recovered midend spring accidentally told people attempted redflag luckily think joke reason depression i never actually diagnosed symptoms abuse yelled beaten since kindergarten about years old humiliated bullied looks overweight since start primary school increasing pressure fulfill high expectations straight as told abuse normal ever since recovery making efforts get slimmer mostly stopped parents saying cant go diet young instead diet started eating healthier dad stopped beating knew getting stronger working out would fight back emotional manipulation verbal abuse stop start august staying aunts uncles house week week great expectations kept working out kept stable weight cat made way less lonely inside time came back home second day back dad came nowhere tried kiss me arm got way immediately started yelling saying respect him know love love him ungrateful done me also yelled take away rights including free speech whenever tried say anything would cut yell do answer me said hated relaxed started yelling me another similar case happened weeks ago went walk started yelling food want him said similar case described above except one mental breakdown punched me gave promise never get angry ever i knew bullshit except screw up day yelled me made cry enough fill male tears mugs broke promise next day acted nothing happened one thing got right night love him realized love years ago laws country would murdered him could even defend emotionally overwhelmed was could say anything imagined killing him ever since day suicidal thoughts came back slowly did emotional support know tell this except you,1 +im panicking sent picture bf discord texting horny didnt get notifications phone dad yelled name asked turn notifications discord computer using using last night dad saw everything bf saying told bf hes saying hes never gonna text gets embarrassed really easily feel bad help aaaaaa,0 +im normally dramafeel good movie kind guy saw trailer radio resist great film also grreat acting cuba gooding jr excellent job portraying james robert kennedy aka radio ed harris also fantastic job coach jones pleasantly surprised see comedy well great story great acting little comedy give radio ,0 +hey girl train cause wanna rail,0 +messed bad today final term maths exam stupid ass thought hours well didnt end marks worth questions it guys always read instructions,0 +last week lifei feel noose tightening around neck business fail soon house foreclosed someone irs notice owe money ever have cant face mounting problems im paralyzed depression know ever enjoy anything life again better end stop burden ill also leave mom business partner k life insurance least cant wait mom booked mini vacation coming weekend want ruin her one last trip im done,1 +movie accurately portrays struggle life typical east german watched secret police friends coworkers easterners simply existedbr br the strelzyks wetzels two families decided going take anymore br br despite extreme danger involved escaping west feel rewards far outweighed risks john hurt beau bridges portraying respective family heads hit upon idea flying east germanys heavily fortified border br br there tense moments gather jimmyrig necessary materials flight work day jobs construct balloon night right noses authorities one strelzyks neighbor klaus loewitsch br br the first attempt involving strelzyks ends failure balloon crashes yards border crashed balloon discovered border guards relentless search begins conspirators determined try again sales materials closely monitored peter guenter still manage procure bits pieces cloth construct second balloon nail biting escape freedom film also features heartwarming effective soundtrack late jerry goldsmith,0 + fulfilled life want outhi all wanted come share slice wonderful hellscape call life im subreddit ive fantasised pondered killing multiple times throughout life last days probably intense yet tried kill times issues pretty complex guess im really good cloaking mental health word use describe exactly im feeling life exhausted im recent graduate degree music production so useful struggled lot mental health university uni developed epilepsy brought anxiety sleep deprivation diagnosis fucked me began live life completely opposite doctors telling me wreckless drugs alcohol dangerous situations wanted closer closer death sort like game me spending lockdown own spending thousands pounds not even money drugs give escape depression anxiety even worse live home dad makes suicidal thoughts increase tenfold feel absolutely worthless like old paper note bit worth couple years ago useless currently still want die set various dates ways go ill never know im moment gives chance step back think lil bit thanks reading got far,1 +girlfriend suicidal jobs know dowere th years university weve dating years past two months now applying searching jobs entrylevel jobs puts ton weight getting job fact insert major friends getting interviews job offers want fall back parents toxic her result multiple undiagnosed episodes depression anxietyshe said multiple times get job within end winter break going just give up leave place just go phrases strongly implying wants commit redflag also history depression order get job end break would need interview end week early next week throughout time needed affirmation support boyfriend ive reassured would get interview week despite stressful week finals week then earlier week thought luck changed received interview another interview today genuinely happy excited wasnt found first one contract job as opposed fulltime one consulting company not wants go into so yelling excitement discussion take interview received lack confidence would get interview real jobcompany soon honest frustrated even willing interview im best show it tells doesnt want shitty jobs want either also want homeless commit redflag honest know do tldr honestly frustrated trying understanding gf doesnt want interview two lower tier jobs despite us stressing job apps past two months need help next,1 +british people really exist ew,0 +im bored ask things cloudy fcu txt zooohile rx turd urdu rx sorry x oz xuofxufpxpufxpufx ex ex,0 +ok done perfect vampire movie gothic beautiful ingredients realistic vampire wonderful story take note transylvania assure you movie respects vampire lore exactly like tales heard childhood transylvanian quite believable must see it interested real vampires depicted medieval chronicles done recent hollywood movies as far guess hollywood problem mix vampires incubus pretty hilarious me vampires never goodlooking attractive inspire horror repulsion incubus called country night flier one beautiful demon kills victims loving them strongly recommend gothic person there see also sequels good course miss dark shadows something similar nosferatu venice klaus kinski recommend one to,0 +friend wasis going hard time decided write poem help get thoughts out really wanted know people thought want ask thought would come behalf poem day comesand anymorejust know triedi tried hardbut broken easy fix try fightbut every dayevery hour every minute every second rest constant battle demonsand tired weakyoure exhausted life life worth living friends poem,1 +reddit glitch scrolling reddit spotify on audio videos reddit start without post stopping music scroll bit come post audio from anyone else got this also know subbreddit post on better one suggestions appreciated,0 +accepted fact endsevery solution come results dying everything else getting better onward im failing everything life cant see kind solution everything requires even burden everyone around me feel comfortable ending soon cant anything depression anxiety get help would getting help even burden everyone chance actually life,1 +feel empty aloneby accounts happy grateful life think dying multiple times day either accident redflag feel like control aspects life feel like get chose it feel trapped bullshit going motions theyre considered something everyone doing feel hallowed inside years like whatever inside good decayed feel ive also become extremely bitter towards world wishing bad things strangers ridiculous things like bad glance feel like life constantly hindered inability perform anyones standards im constantly letting wife down feel like good role model daughter either feel like would better took huge life insurance policy slit throat least could provide them mention im ,1 +adorable hate cute things,0 +last time posted got yeeted bot mistakenly think clairvoyant annoying set record clear actually clairvoyant joke making fun clairvoyant clairvoyance comes many forms perceived user differently way lets begin understanding means clairvoyant good place start clairvoyant crystal balls meditating spoopy persona tarrot cards clairvoyant seeing presently infront you opening eyes see infront today infront tomorrow right mindset simply put seeing future rather inferring without personal desires interveining warp see day dreams clairvoyance capable done without gimmicks bullshit would normally see anyone clairvoyant well debatable experience depends person long right mindset good logic inferring skills observant world around without bias yes anyone clairvoyant makes different regular thought materializes vision happens start infer happen accurate details world build problem people desire takes over desire warps truth vision results day dreams nonobtainable nature warping vision think clairvoyant annoying well simplified list personal complaints clairvoyance control get visions idea day vision take place for somewhere weeks next day vision give take outliers year never know event im supposed seeing always see aftermath event know train get better accurate visions happens night im asleep nothing annoying knowing something happen knowing knowing activate clairvoyance train get information get wrong cool knowing power sucks knowing use want to much free time stuff could used gaining knowledge future events prepare them makes feel like im wasting power getting full potential it clairvoyant like like lucid dream spectator part event imagine movie inside out headquarters without control panel thats accurate way imagine clairvoyant like,0 +create child use gametes opposite gender preferably someone know trust ready baby wait months,0 +youre scrolling must seem like karat run bad luck truth is game rigged start,0 +completely hopeless life never gets bettermoney extremely tight left thats overdrafted student loans stepdad took pity me amazing boyfriend worries constantly money me burden everybody know love desperately wish even month im applying disability due extreme disability takes fucking long need help bad none sight redflag seems attractive every single fucking day fuck do car broke down got scammed tow place cant even drive cant get job anyway due depression even could could fuck disability application fucking hopeless,1 +sister talks killing every dayi suffer suicidal thoughts too folks know word suffer hyperbolic physical hurt brings mental emotional deep pit cant figure escape like forgotten limbs are helpless feeling feel alone feel like pit metaphor perfect dark lonely pit im starting notice people suffer suicidal thoughts tend visual learners visual types always anyway really hard sister threatens redflag daily im feeling suicidal feel like place tell anyone family want kill even feel even insignificant therapist tells first try think stuff visualize think beautiful difficult first especially im deliriously sad think dogs eyes something like biking summer try hold onto that try miss things enough want die im little ok also says people want die want live like this agree want live sister talking like lot shit life like one thing visualize dark pit visualize stop afraid it maybe overcome imagine taking small step brighter area this im still working worked one time one start im always going deal thoughts ive coping life since used escape trauma therapy helps though trying offer little hope im decent day tomorrow might terrible might need read someone elses post much love all,1 +know im suicidalive experiencing growing urge kill myself difficult deal with multiple times tied noose looped around neck sat down dropping weight rope first time kind hard breathe putting much load rope time id tie little higher push little harder almost point completely lose consciousness thing is clue this pretty good life anything complain about im pretty spoiled sixteen year old ive tried trace steps coming ideas could making depressed one really good explanation mind while made happy days suicidal thoughts however recently started feeling like might answer went trouble fixing thing found nothing right now thing lean on im tearing pieces mind im feeling suicidal again instead thinking ways help myself im thinking ways kill myself theres quite go without even leaving house post meant draw attention myself personal benefit feel like telling someone this thought horrifying much easier reach complete strangers trust most,1 +feel suicidal pessimismi yrs old tight group friends consisting them love history anime quite ironic sarcastic know offputting people dont know me terrible reading signs ever since nd grade used bullied th grade managed get hold forcing mind care great sucess bullying stopped felt great first time quite while result started struggling lot care stopped caring opinions others unless close me stopped caring looks lot things like think pretty good history humanities general really enjoy managed pass ap play instruments fairly well really really like things like also despise dont result th grade ended failing year felt horrible alright came back vacation established system get better focus more simply put didnt study home knew got distracted easily instead went nearby cafe study worked great mean problem completely ignoring dificulty studying focusing tasks home thats problem right always leave chances something happening could force stay home matter study worst circumstances yeah recently graduated th grade fucking desperate always quite pessimistic friends graduating one going study abroad two people felt like could gone ever since quarantine started terribly recently watched kon anime cute anime girls playing music second season show caught completely guard heavily focused younger character azusa inevitably beeing left behind group friends one year behind them ever since forced stop caring lots lots trouble caring connecting fiction kon first time life felt true connection combined fact idea fix problem struggles focus corona virus seemingly beeing time soon friends leaving fact pessimist believe way surviving future college work work load lot heavier know biased pessimism influencing thoughts doesnt matter still feel way point life best ever doubt ever reach heights again since halfway vacations terrified starting grade barely passed th mom ways fighting nothing serious fact almost always right takes minutes us forget it every time happens feel pointless kill myself even incredibly trivial things like dishes something problem doing gets confusing quite political mom staunch environmentalists i see world burning feel pointless feel like china take everything trumps presidency feels like joke way stop us beeing taken over corporations destroy environment brazilian lived brazil whole life bolsonaros antienvironmental policies drive feeling desperation isolation want kill emotions logic feel like logically speaking persons death contributes something mean much trash produce better die combined sense utter dread feel torwards future really see reason keep going emotionally dont want to terrified dying terrified living dont know do feels like major fight broke would kill myself likely thing tensions building home please help dont really money phychiatrist hate online classes sessions one would likley help me know hiw ling sorry unsure do,1 +help im hearing weird sounds parents room wanna come room case,0 +admit ive seen three shakespeares plays romeo juliet macbeth course hamlet one liked found soso macbeth hamlet found masterpiece im pleased tell adaptation every bit good intense dramatic play acting extremely strong with cast features kenneth branagh robin williams billy crystal lose change time period looks like somewhere s plays beautifully characters move say infamous lines straight script fan shakespearean play get chills from popular drama highly urge watch powerful adaptation shakespearean admirer kenneth branagh,0 +guess probably going attempt tonight,1 +do grew strict christian household dad mom spurred religious stuff siblings recently told believe god still make terrible efforts try convince bible true beliefs interfered education going without high school diploma unwillingness put school instead give christianbased curriculum ponder rely internet tried best get license money take it job lost birth certificate cant take first driving test fucking problems make life living hell wake up try convince im okay over try quelm good time friends like drink too legal drinking like course care admit sometimes like get drunk came home one night parents could smell alcohol today mom asked drink all parents burden life much try say needs get shit together cant help think ill probably happier college own without license right none that except depression religious parents without saying go hand hand young adult problem need leave asap,0 +dont want live anymorewell im year old friends kinda bullied school dont social group im skinny popular smart dude even tho dont express get grade need go on dont study home dont give fuck anymore school too home google random stuff biology physics technical one learn programming time year last one ultrahappy it realized teachers dont like im good programming know it give lower grade didnt exactly said more makes sense theyre humans think prefer school home dad old retard hate general going deeper later theres mom non educated woman doesnt shit life even work cleans shitty apartment plays random facebook games really high volume tv make deaf reason hate her goes im anything says waste time time used play dota day getting good it realized really waste time would able go pro team wasnt bunch retards think looking cool winning team game mostly play instruments keyboard electric guitar nylon guitar steel guitar two harmonicas thats keep going even tho cant live music shitty nation known brazil look brazilian funk popular shit like anitta theres really high quality modern brazilian music sad anyway playing instruments liking synthwave classical metal jazz another reason bullied here right ignoring fact people clap hands way random percussion instrument modern popular funks use using two notes actually one fuck cares music theory percussion instruments right anyway lets talk dad doesnt understand shit music thinks does puts random trash like paramore monsters men worse trash like modern popular chords pop music also sound car trash comes one side doesnt realize it get school school ears hurt idk tahts reason behind it im going deaf somehow music still allows happy use phone shitty headphones hear music like am theres noizes cant day mom alive yeah told that respectful hateful manners ignore lately things worse started playing keyboard months ago and octave keyboard weighted keys yamaha psr e trash opinion told dad hey dad buy digital piano bought fucking keyboard clearly right even explained ignored anyway lately ive getting really complex stuff rondo alla turca sonata c major k fugue minor getting beethoven now saddest part cant play stuff like chopin even fugue minor keyboard organ piece change octaves keyboard function playing makes way harder also instruments also trash cares son playing stuff people playing years piano months playing shitty keyboard also self teaching instruments anyway going back mom doesnt allow fucking close rooms door keeps making random noises tv anything looks like purpose tell thinks fault retarded something music way out every time go play get depressed shit also dad couldnt buy fucking alfred books well tempered clavier bach play need use random scores ears going shit play also tried composing im trash fuck cares also tried make game last year retro rpg also trash thing is want die painless easy way dont realy go home bunch ignorant people walking around streets want die even theres really way redflag think so would like either help redflag help redflag also feel like saying computer randomly crashes blue screen every day random moment also important factor also dont enjoy simple stuff like jerking eating even tho use region brain hearing music uses need help think thats also english trash didnt formal english education jsut learned watching videos reading random shit etc sorry sucks,1 + am january rn time across globe,0 +early weekly post as promised would post weekly annoyance sake going therapy appointment tommarow personally dont trust need tell someone want kill anyone even me slept horribly again choking sleep like normally do woke wrote fury filled speech fatherwhole story call him dont post due trust therapist broken another bakeract much runs head now dont want help thoughts want solution dont want we help right government assisted redflag legal id apply courts not blame shooters killing people demonize actions dont realize ill know many us page thought bieng like them digress like always do,1 +open literally reason very funny text hopefully funny enough get hot,0 +dont know get strength keep goinghey kind hard explain ive never considered killing myself lately though life pushing think more become really hard continue little background me im yo gay guy married living us came international student im tourist visa graduated college stem degree ever since graduated life going downhill accelerated pace first many terrible occurrences happened college failed communicate proper way remain us legally opt those international students us know im talking about paying expensive government fees waiting months july october receive employment authorization got letter denied thing apparently never happens every student applies gets it completely bummed didnt give journey stay us i wont safe back home country decided apply asylum husband then bf offered stay together weather storm months jumping lawyer lawyer getting necessary paperwork putting together asylum story by feb law firm settled paid pockets at least consultations appointments told case didnt good chance approved risked put deportation procedures dropped asylum went back home quick week to prevent overstaying student visa returned back bfs apartment florida went school decided together arrangement would benefit us would stay home live simple life worked job id clean cook make sure everything around apartment tidy this continues till day btw months later august and counseling amazing supporting parents sat boyfriend explained cant continue living like this living life wasted potential becoming increasingly difficult doing then weve together half years living together full year half didnt issues living other fact enjoyed it telling couldnt keep this managed gather courage ask hand marriage to properly life together accepted admitted wanted ask well since saw trouble topic i didnt want reason got married moon next couple months november small wedding closest friends afterwards ran courthouse legally wedded state florida coming days quickly began get papers together file marriage greencard got paperwork tax documents needed past years managed get translations documents like birth certificate documents government requires finally months later had ask money friends family able file marriage greencard feb coronavirus happened entire world shut down including uscis office meant application along many couples shelved till god knows when savings gone credit card debt im finding difficult pay top that cant work legally get papers thought going year but far one disaster another sadly end year quarantine still nowhere found everything same back housemaid life cook clean put smile pretend everything fine try strong till may husbands phone would start ringing weird times night one day got curious looked phone stomach dropped saw hes texting ex month now that theyve unprotected sex his ex hiv tried think carefully could continue here confront without ruining chances remaining us finally reached conclusion cant risk it pushed back mind till get documents best course action getting hiv last concerns compared permanently going back home job prospects freedom loving whoever want love recap ive dealing depression dont know long continue maid stem degree collecting dust shelves dont know long keep sex husband pretend everything great dont know long keep waiting everything reopen middle pandemic cant see friends cant work life zero direction purpose cant take anymore im strong minded person time shitstorm weighting me day day little little strength fading away thought ending crosses mind daily pray me get times cant really see light end tunnel,1 +really sad touching movie deals subject child abuse really sad mostly true story happens everyday elijah wood joseph mazzello play two children lorraine bracco single mother tries make home them living parents man likes called the king comes life hits youngest boy bobby two brothers vow tell mother finally finds out bobby hurt badly end kind ruined me totally unbelievable but except that love movie,0 +feel empty regret cancelling therapist matter tell know mistake idek even undo mistake,0 +go way back page ten review section work way back up go ahead ill waitbr br done well probably noticed trend have could nitpick day long lame jokes dated timing obviously derivative plot points shtick bogus movie seems one hate now love later flicksbr br bill teds biggest problem original appealed s kids followed tends considered cutting edge fashion worked fine original obviously bombed selfunrespecting slacker would caught dead wearing anything flannel admitting liked anything s ted would put it dude totally deep hole wanna play questions br br they say nostalgia goes year cycles certainly seems case here use grew cindi lauper megadeth beginning look back appreciate pivotal films like not made us are one look bogus outdated fa gs ripoff missing point probably spent six years growing facial hair wearing flannel looking like crawled bedbr br in selfreferencing origins the star trek episode time traveling phone booth bt makes attempt hide creators love homage quentin tarantino anyone im saying bogus true love think needs appreciated is fun snapshot society time child psychology ritalin antismoking ads terrorist paranoia proliferation media fearmongering br br so bt haters thereturn screaming trees cd get hair face go beach lighten up narcissistic depression intellectual ennui corporate,0 +house mate acting manic lately like clockwork locked bathroom knifej got drunk instigated fight partner b things bitchy funny sudden j goes room starts violently making b bending presenting slapping refuses sex leave separately phone sister complaint middle j returns apologize lucidly mentions hes going take long bath loooong bath locks patio smoking course know means last time took knife made threats harm time threat took away block knifes still one missing ran car met first kept running returned things calmed down cancelling credit cards ripping bills figured whatever takes get go bed j went bed called redflag hotline advice eventually referred local university history knowledge never gone therapist doctor this claims family pediatrician said change diet make work journal anyways worried would make appointments actually keep psychiatrist kind worked panic decided call ambulance could asses vital signs instead police came ambulance j gone sleep situation calmed down wanted paramedics see police eventually actually convinced see ambulance took hospital voluntarily hes drunk cant kind hold theyre told me couldnt bear waking find hurt dead dont care hes mad still want reassurance right thing do,1 +st daythe last two years shit me ive depressed years everyone hates live friends years one talk problems understands everyday disappointment life become dull pleasure anything anymore last year hoped would better hoped would better ive tried everything nothing worked st month day funny really teen years often thought id never guts life bad everything completely shit ill finally gone world hopefully comes next better maybe ill happier next run,1 +im might block everything cant anymore filler filler filler,0 +keeping ideai get dad hes passive aggressive mainly issues him argue ten times day think ive enough never getting him ignores say good morning him stored glass case feel like dying know much worse get keep items cant trust alive im always watching programmes laugh death skulls im dealing grief ton year im losing ton hope,1 +weeks later found long term girlfriend entire time felt like idiot found out reached last month told knew girlfriend whole time ever saw would literally break nose im still furious it im angry thinks pulled one got away it,0 +day posting quotes know devil get fucking garlic bread sorry lied known better kids trying hard good guess want to feel unfair already good try hard good makes mad want prove good already good that that think notice that obviously me obviously you makes so mad hate place much either here here please stop please please stop lets just dont doesnt god stoppppp please hate this trying fuck venus rest entire life let want stop guess problem kill me kid look happy you well guess different opinions stop making trying hard be jupiter want badly so badly please no want good ever neither want good either,0 +hate gay people so recently sudden urge hate gay bi lezbo trans people kinda problem couple close friends recently told lezbein pissed it,0 +honestly want quit reddit makes depressed times ive lost faith humanity idk do want stay also dont,0 +dont know anymoreive struggling eating disorder nearly two decades always bulimia anorexia keep telling weigh much die cant get thoughts stop weeks ago drunk exfriend we dated couple months friends since pick apparently took bunch pills nearly called rescue carried inside house instead blacked completely begged call figured theyd transfer er used work im engaged cant get excited wedding cant get excited anything love fianc know do cant feel it cant feel anything work mental health myself substance abuse specifically feel like theres nothing without running clients anywhere may even want go im sure want go anywhere ive meds bipolar ii since immensely helpful would hospital even anyway there done that didnt quite help physically hard impossible cry ive started restarted note several times im terrified death causes panic attacks somehow im incredibly dark hopeless place dont know do needed get out guess,1 +worked hard getting back contact him things going wonderfully fixed much problems caused issues relationship meeting every week slowly getting closer again last nightof course could control drinking bar course start fight him even remember told him enough say care anymore never wants talk again one thing remember begging please tell happening leave took back apartment key gave back mine good one person ever loved gone faulti feel like failure lost control drinking idiot ruining second chance got love much failed boyfriend once twice now want end all end all cannot continue knowing set path knowing broke hearti know going it know going soon always struggled suicidal thoughts biggest regret always going suicide back teen pain could avoided gone iti care anything death tired lifei know everyone better without me finally reconnecting ex ruined last night,1 +feeling kinda cute might start dampd discord server so basically quarantine going make lose mind dont something productive make discord server im pretty good bots programming think might able handle it dont want dampd server want grow community interested fill application httpsformsglepzguwocsxsdbf,0 +hey girl transformer optimus fine,0 +way many christian films become centered around fear judgment result come across condescending indeliberately cheesy second glance gets right near perfect evangelical tool deals real reason many young people want nothing christianity assures viewers one must give sinnot funto succeed christian lifestyle second glance even works piece filmmaking filmmakers obviously working low budget managed write script dynamic enough divert viewers attention obvious fact film brought lord savior jesus christ thanks christian stations everywhere show it surely impacted people me,0 +tired treated like garbage everyone around meso lost another job one barely lasted week employees pawn shop one old woman s would constantly belittle asking question deemed stupid making kind mistake things shes said course week if woman would raped now i understand graduated high school your parents raise right how stupid daily basis heard statements asking tool know name of misplacing mop broom able find toilet paper yeah last two days worked woman screamed trying help customer showing item violently smacked counter acknowledge yelling absolutely reason last day managed make mistake advertising sign front building instead telling mistake could correct felt need rip letters sign throw ground would pick up yelled idea graduated high school even scheduled work today came specifically asshole me went home after got home dads response was yet again youre going hard life keep this hes never supported anything talk im going leads tangent himself makes everything never tried defend wanting treated like every job seem get thing happened grade school everyone hated treated like garbage would go home emotionless asshole cared himself im going hard life life ended began quit bitch that im ready drive oncoming traffic,1 +although certainly politically incorrect entertained drunk theres charm dudley moores portrayal lovable lush arthur bach one cant help feel unique wonderful character entertained infectious laugh giggle utter silliness although im really liza minnelli fan really excellent linda marolla picture anyone else role sir john gielgud heart film deserved oscar rest cast also excellent great tune arthurs theme wow truly one best comedies s great films get better viewing case arthur,0 +everyones gone nowthat really final nail coffin speak could go back time tell id years think believe me,1 +want anymorei year old man married thirty years half way marriage wife started medical problems multiple surgeries would lose little part surgery ten years ago lost part colon colon cancer intimate since five years ago heart attack heart surgery mental capacity year old ever since year old son mildly autistic wife mild dementia cognitive disabilities well physical disabilities cant leave would likely wind destitute deserve that almost every night im driving home work think life start cry,1 +im worthless deserve liveim stupid fuck cant anything right never escape prison depression,1 +youtube video dislikes hell im crying rn people mean,0 + film judy garland deemed ready bigtime yet man loves hervan heflin film certainly big change mr heflin especially supporting oscar win year johnny eagerbr br wasnt spring byington old widowed mother children four appearing look like grandchildrenbr br the singing dancing marvelously staged way blossoming romance heflin garland depicted left lot desired gigilike one young girl eventually swept feet charmer,0 +waa late times month late minutes times month parents taking away stuff really fucking nice wake min earlier leave school min earlier usually wake leave ,0 +please please helpsomeone username uwhyamistillhere posted scary shit radvice dont know do please help,1 +got pushed told opinion matter like bitch also part family like kill me ever enjoyed company tried opening people got people hate got pushed more ask kid open years one day finally tries opening up push further congratulations giving reasons remain will depressed hate myself live life like till point break never going changein past week already lost best friend useless could even save supposed save myself hate today finally tried talking family tried open guess,1 +parents seem understand support niece so im suicidal years family never talk emotional problems ever ever try to mum especially guilt trip make seem victim want listen side actually thought normal recently im problem family moment niece self harming go hospital eating disorder refusing eat time suicidal something really knew mum knew something me blamed told im making worse etc knows psychologist asked behaviours sleeping constantly sad ended calling redflag line saw doctor mental health crisis team came house make sure im planning killing myself parents know im suicidal approve all finding every excuse try put blame me say fault making like this constantly ask im suicidal assumed im suicidal im worried niece obviously worried im suicidal tell thats reason im suicidal say im making excuses up mum late s dad hearing good speak loudly knowing im room hear every word say heard talk bout say strange im suicidal also annoys me situations went my niece self harming im worried her im always ill anything want im suicidal hes probably making up everyone worried my niece getting much attention wants asked noticed eating lot said its happened my niece gets diagnosed eating disorder eating enough year gets diagnosed it im attention get help secret want anyone family know wanted attention id go around telling everyone posting facebook day which niece does ive depressed long time around ive seen point living long time parents deny been told nurse recent thing niece gets hospitalised back february bullshit regret getting help done made worse made look bad keep getting evil looks brother i think parents made stuff told them entire family think im attention seeker thought would happened did made even harder kill im watched time see gp regret day much could go back id never see her fuck,1 +worth waitsometimes wonder people allow live life keeps smacking face always seems unknowing tomorrow holds quickly everything change wanted long time peace feel find life however precious waiste great relief longer fear death go everyday seeking opportunity remember going unknown alive dead,1 +brief background bullet points go weird go detail drug taking parents mum disabled wheelchair times hospital years growing up dad commited suicide mum relied heavily drugs booze,1 +im tired thistired living tired every single fucking day therapist says need wait itll get better ways cant imagine says im young understand im turn end december previously plans kill then think im gonna revive plans supporting grandma somewhat supporting grandpa ive lived majority teen years parents abuse still cant get past trauma im also trans think go much bullshit able person really am oh well plan make family hate move another country im kill there,1 +first game hello everyone started coding javascript ago wanted share first project you basic rock paper scissors game game support mobile currently hope enjoy httpsswayamgithubiomy_websitedagamehtml,0 +theres hopeno hope all keep saying next year gonna better isnt come another year same except worse slashing fingernails praying death comes soon hate myself born broken think ever change simply shitty person better cut losses shrivel die thing prevents causing grief family maybe move far away could someone could mutter fiction,1 +depression made become good liar frighteningwhen tell everyone youre okay youre actually not promise wont something mind tells otherwise hurts intense emotional pain hard seeming like youre happiest person fully functioning know deep inside youre alone youre fucking unhappy fucking unhappy,1 +cant even get get bed fucking kill myselfbreathing become draining dont even think could considered person anymore ill starve death get bed,1 +read post mods job link post must read httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskttgaare_the_mods_doing_their_jobhttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskttgaare_the_mods_doing_their_job,0 +im little mad im trying change username instagram press done matter change something red comes bottom screen cant read says cause keyboard wont go,0 +question two so first question many guys sleep shirtless last time cuddling someone left sleep shirt since second question need honest opinion shitty look pics profile might want post another reference tbh thank love community,0 +people say im dangerous kill conversations pretty often,0 +justwhy thisso heres thing hurtful ever sitting there next two trustworthy friends anyone start talking other reverse micheal jackson lean back so know im talking about tip dont fucking this hurts bad do ive personally experienced this almost cried saying friends anybody doesnt want friend die dont fucking this,1 +want kill myselfsup folks title accurate ive sad felt worthless years want someone talk rn really want finally tonight thank god liquor making brave enough actually,1 +im trans friends calling everything guys probably dont care means whole lot,0 +thought interplay crystal devito great movie rather wall unforgettable lines ramsey momma vulgar top also funny effective character pretty awful else would someone entertain thoughts killing mother crystals wife slut everyone would like receive comeuppance thus role though minor also effective justify crystals ridiculous case writers block certainly dark moments movie depressing and despite murderous urges protagonists feel redeeming qualities toobr br overall one funniest movies remember one mind watching several times,0 +yo boisss girls goodnight yee yee great dream something dont idc free country,0 +damn bjork got wanting staring lovingly someones eyes listen dreamy songs pillow fort another note heres paragraph love life ig wanna date people wanna give someone affection yk took mbt told view romance wanting find soul mate instead dating think thats spot on every time almost date someone kinda back gets real cause shit feel right me person almost actually dated backed someone really close worst time life also im love bjork,0 +first three seasons sabrina gem hidden away tgif and later early schoolday afternoon reruns episode maniac zany energy rapidfire pacing overcame occasional awkward joke melissa joan hart exuded keen talent physical comedy particularly facial expressions two aunts playing straight men straight two witches could be great comic timing general chemistry hart salem talking cat free dabble whatever mad scheme interested in one could laugh take stride was all talking cat sabrinas friends rounded social experience school also housed typical evil cheerleader totalitarian principal perhaps interesting unique aspect show ability merge pop culture eg bands era jerry springer archetypal human conditionmorality eg importance friendship spirit christmas literal representation related metaphors magical realm unfortunately like many shows throughout age television show hit peak first three years coincided sabrina attending high school starting season four move college marked would become precipitous decline general quality show particularly writers chose introduce josh harveys rival concocting thin excuses aunts hilda zelda remain onscreen key players final season sabrina works pop culture magazine unequivocally disappointing still end sabrina particularly high school years remains unique entry hybrid situational comedy magical elements elevates tiresome fare produced genre every year,0 +every rational part believes im retroactively terrified fact almost get live life im living now wish think it keep it like get sick thrill fear redflag like horror movie rollercoaster know feeling way know stop it,1 +ah shit reddit icon also turned orange looks bright,0 +redflag attemptthis long time ago cant remember caused breakdown probably something stupid tired feeling mom surgery years prior bunch old pain meds never took pills even think knew take pillsfireball whiskey soda go deep woods want anyone find me drink alcohol take pills minutes later feel total peace painworriesanxieties go way last thing remember passing out woke next day hours later vomit dog laying next me remember chose weekend mom dad away suicidal mental illness always there close get point return,1 +got french test hell yeah hard last part conversations organized odd way confused still,0 +dont even know m ya see one gonna read u would like say behalf wall it thou faulteth bumped me would appreciate u dideth noteth punch swear me truly sorry one bumped youre head me fault ok thank much listening goodbye u see dear reader wall upset swear assault bumpeth youre head it thank reading made far goodbye,0 +mom teammate life died suddenly unexpectedly father alone redflaged life loss handing things without will one person close me spends time present mess me unable communicated currently almost months somehow feel worse week death lot regrets relationship know human deserved life got given more hate knowing life went back nothingness born want die think ill reunited her want die without anymorei days shy shd days struggling tonight alternatively want drive away city turn phone day stop mourning daughter invisible girlfriend tired pet parent ill animals lawyers client executor etc truly believe ill take one day maybe ill give amount time had sometimes see make long though know love things loved passed even love foolishly gave lot heart others it energy want advice solutions thank reading mom died finding difficult keep living,1 +something mom made believe lol years old normally going school mom someone building something using chainsaw know shits chainsaws drop like glows idk name mom saw said look hurts eyes freaked immediately looked side like thought going blind looked that so everyday trying see chainsaws action afraid blind today still kinda afraid much sorry grammar errors english first language ,0 +disagree unadd quite possibly dumbest fucking sentence ever exist hoes snap always post opinions like everyone cares bottom disagree unadd like people allowed disagree bitch,0 +love horror films think work way better hide dramatic impact behind the devils backbone exorcist example kind film eerie terrifying be also really beautiful tale two sisters starts really slow hurry see ghosts first minutes disappointed actually ghost story though some something complex done way beats ringu grudge ring sweat tale way clever film huge cultural hits really cares characters direction flawless every detail film leave breathless kind person loves pay attention details watching movie acting superb specially stepmother main girl two worth price ticket alone favor watch awesome film,0 +whos favourite redditor tell mine utinkerbell,0 +want get macbook sorted need update travel card rest term save much time mornings evenings also help work home without needing use local library travel campus im university student able repay via nd student finance instalment th january would help repay interest think highest id comfortable paying also part time job however repayment would essentially made january student finance instalment would enough,1 +dont want live dont want diei spent past years thinking killing myself ive gone paths shouldnt especially im scared anytime bad habit think get rid comes back worse grade parents divorced thought would fine however grade hit started self harming didnt think serious mom found stopped grade started also started eating thats really started debating killing myself grade alone lot self harming got really bad also almost never ate got back track little thought past everything thought didnt want killy anymore grade january year dad killed himself wanted angry amd able yell him couldnt mad him mad noticing especially always me one understood me since self harmed also started drinking deal it times drinking thing made hate myself times almost kill myself almost walked ice melting would freeze drown even though feel somewhat ok still dont want alive dont want deal feeling pain longer cant feel guilty longer im sorry anyone took time read this know im waste time im sorry wasting,1 +wish wasnt transi never biologically male feel like give trying,1 +want explain ex left l,0 +opinions type relationship friendf mine recently became interested guy m said super sweet funny think little weird told liked told liked back feel like kind weird time guess okay long stuff know guess wanted know homies thought this,0 +yo neurodiverse people part lgbt like autistic people stuff like me think would good,0 +think blame porn addiction parents no hormones yes exploited society yes becoming sexually acceptive blame most told you jews pornhub xtube brazzers blacked redtube youporn chattube jewish excecutives feeling antisemitic yet,0 +friend love anymore broken mei made post monthish ago saying friend thing keeping redflag drifting apart one guys said talk falling apart probably cares much plutonically talked her anymore called many times mental health help health stop friend totally understand forgive for one life care enough stay for think redflag her cant cope know do im scared,1 +lungs fuckin fried dude dont vape got asthma dust shit laugh motherfuckers offer vape smoke im like wanna end like me,0 +mg oxy alcoholis enough q,1 +pulled trigger days ago found love life cheating me weve together nearly years blames it lost it kicked out publicly posted facebook goodbye stole one guns stood bathtub shower curtain drawn to cut mess put barrel mouth pulled trigger nothing double checked loaded know fucked up brain thinking straight loaded gun dog car started drive parents place reason felt leave dog taking figure fix issue gun arrived let leave known better held police arrived arrested mental health act taken hospital still know talked way hospital guess im good liar makes sense since many years experience pretending okay im home boyfriend were pretending okay get counseling think make long im upset guns house anymore means going lot painful planned practiced strangling bathrobe belt attached bathroom doorknob last night almost passed got loose which would fine honestly im planning completing act todaytonight last daynight bf together hes road again would like try good day leave good writing helps solidify it think cry think it feel peaceful almost im fucked up long time people get fairly quickly im sorry immediate pain may cause family but theyll okay end,1 +want see therapistthe person ive opened life suicidal thoughts keeps bombarding see therapist know do honestly reason im alive care made promise kill myself know anymore wish would believe me someone believe cant physically bring see therapist know help keeps insisting knows will anything forced go talk strangers worsen depression anxiety feel alone like one person care cant even believe say want someone listen im really considering breaking promise ending things,1 +actually drugs get london kill withis deepweb,1 +like one series need see sure would see beginning cool sucks series fun second part season stale come go want happens many series end something special second part series always goes drain one also somewhat did third part one spoil ruin whole series usually doesnt ending perfect series fits perfect actually pretty angry guys vals life actually wanted end jeff end later changed chose take vic series almost seasons without him biggest surprise also made series go topbr br see many times series actually cool expect second part good third part needed made series one worth whole thing happy say glad happy series go see two guys girl pizza place seen whole series back,0 +im death away hitting top life stressor one year im figuring may well mine complete setadd severe depression lifetime struggle failure led here left job hated last september getting fire could get unemployment wanted work since depression wasis bad enough marriage ending im bought half home sent way behavior bad hurtful woman loved cant forgive cant deal anymore got medication time late fix this exwife already boyfriend dumping come back never come back notated do relationship wise never walks path twice path over let go long time ago hiding suffering trying protect her let go too nothing do go one love one love way either acquaintances friends family useless tell devil somehow fairy tale bullshit cant help therapy feels worthless feel better talking pro right now option worse ending feeling better abhor idea cant meet ok continuing live ive done without her even worse somehow actually happy without her person exist think allow it tminus days approximately everything final officially im sure want make hours longer love im longer responsibility ive already come several plans signed dead man switch started working letter auto send do hell hit stressors one year,1 +rant mighty falleni feel happy school feel like fit in redflag thing think least many friends homework make parents proud would say moved opposite used prodigy gt likes friends friends would miss gone people would miss miss them miss friends shambles social circle theyre imperfect one understands me one relate me unique sucks hate special sometimes wonder would like successful happy fulfilled like kids got first f someone used get amazing grades weighs much algebra abstract concept that even i someone advocates fact use math lot life say bullshit im much better geometry thats kids advanced take algebra ii blame mom subconsciously tell inherited math deficiency failed math times high school ive considered all bleach pills noise even freezing death one thing holding back dog thought sad looking makes want sob uncontrollably kind like right now think stress sadness id bring remember experience it life set complete failure im im barely making middle school im set fail high school work dead end job live parents die alone knowing touch another human shtick following dreams achieving anything crumbled me dreamt running away while ruled realizing could traced easily give phone laptop because hurts admit im addicted them things driving pitiful life wake up reddit go school reddit lunch finish school reddit home sit ass reddit sleeping sleep repeat im tired it gets better high school doesnt people bullshit routine difficulty get retake algebra i patronizing supposedly no shame take basic classes it shame theyd let move like normal people deformed experiments style teaching use absurdly stupid twiddle thumbs minutes bland teacher ever met rambles something x something y hit pages homework curious old school teacher gave packet followed along wit teacher knew shit homework able done class shut it fair enough new system throws hands air big fuck it attitude sometime week parents find f mom pissed c im basically fucked laziness catching me ive gimped whole life see way death,1 +reddit mean yesterday look post history tell think says me ,0 +cant anymore hurts much hate muchi want die badly im pathetic im fat ugly covered scars around awful example human being friends real life anymore since left school theyve barely talked me frustrate anger parents lately used yell occasionally pretty much every day brother used look me im disappointment done schoolwork long entire th grade year rotting room used smart too straight top school barely anything fuck ive done many horrible things people around me im disgusting excuse human being theres point all want live anymore hate everything life wish could start someone completely different hurts alive physically mentally emotionally im meds year therapist quit june new one til october even know im posting here actually knew me agree much waste space am just cant anymore hate much always have remember hating age fat one earliest memories called piggy cousin god just do years life full mental illness burden people around me parents crushed would killed long time ago theyre angry time now know would better never existed wish dead everything hurts,1 +tried hard get better feels like every year life downward spiral towards suicidei cannot keep friends cannot work cannot go school cannot anything spent last three years therapy programs despite everything gotten worselast month kicked dbt program in left alone support attempt stuck waiting residential treatment really cannot see point anymore none therapy through dbt cbt otherwise able help cope nothing able help move past abuse through anything given reason lovei really know anymore tried everything can seems one option left want give up want give up,1 +context year old know none going believable make sense currently attend full time college finishing december also work full time cyber sec professional obviously may think damn bet kid living great life well truth dying inside amazing girlfriend upbringing hell growing starved neglected abused emotionally left lied to parents drug addicts alcoholics never anyone mom passed due abuse think mental illness bad appear living amazing life everyday mood changes like crazy want leave everything hate waking hate sleeping hate everything everything tiks overwhelmed emotions sad fuck reason feel extreme past thramu younger days done still living home going move day turn already place meant time two years hell go through friends anymore busy time used to bad alone friends hard relate cannot go hang feels weird different stage life time not idek makes sense massive brain dump take wish advice would love top world little everyone know dying inside,1 +seems like everything ive done vain stop talking shed probably never think another time fun,0 +made first beat yeah thats,0 +posting till get girlfriend day reasons would good bout friend love talk im asshole new peeps im gaming movies tv shows internet,0 +f turned sex disappointing dateencounter know want sex like person wanted company made mistake going back place tea things drew line intercourse get message or care kept trying get give in did tired feeling pretty unworthyunlovable want alone missed feeling wanted felt generally if now later beat long worked shame allmy sex drive pretty high time kind added depression think good took time out now genuinely headspace want worry selfish desireshow bad mental health would look someone strictly sex whole am match thing always done basically ever exhausted mei know worth yaddayadaya horny sad going detrimental overall undo healing healthy way me sexless year,1 +bad lot people understand next episodebr br but worry ill explain br br this episode split partsbr br first part tonys dream coma second part happens real lifebr br now people understand tonys dream dream episode preparation death loses identity eventually even forgets himself thus disconnects bindings world notice im saying doctor scene tony says lost briefcase contains his life makers really superb job interpreting theyre thoughts happens die br br if understand whole plot find next episode unique thing great spiritual meaningsbr br like every sopranos episode acting filming superb br br only thing understand role monks gonna watch till get thisbr br anyways episode really touched me think anyone else make better view happens almost death experiencebr br doubt,0 +called youre asking called fact nobody gives shit lol alright good night yall,0 +hello guys hands cold im literally freezig u hencjs okay heloo anyone wanna talk im bored,0 +picked music im considering possibility rest life rather science ive led environment believe destiny even coming plenty realizations constantly ponder relationship horribly ended whether may done something wrong fix bad quality made things end way want forget horribly written think so,0 +words hardly describe blue planet brought life hours runtime matching walking dinosaurs documentary stands one best pray bbc discovery channel come even outstanding ideas could possibly even level one,0 +yoooo ethika shit damn boxers comfortable look hella good too would recommend,0 +yk joke i could never get fight might get turned pain joke genuine fear mine nothing fear bc prolly never get fight hope,0 +none real todayeverything empty al fading away,1 +come sweet deathkomm ser tod returns nothing heights depths despair fuck cant shit anymore,1 +likes back basically confessed said liked confessed nicest way experienceddrama related ask,0 +anyone else come fake scenarios never happen end getting pissed anyway im sitting im thinking no didnt happen dont want punch person insulting family member,0 +feel like failed lifeevery aspect life feels like failure social life go dead end customer service job days week year old loser virgin never even held females hand accepted always alone almost cope fact one feel sort attraction towards degree accounting supposed good degree never single job joke every job dead end zero opportunity growth perform tasks meaningless busywork current job good company work position customer service rep dead end worthless position company try try apply job even closely related accounting company move up every time get rejected think dying every day failed socially career wise always thought degree specially accounting would net least middle class paying job guess not everyone team dropped college never even went it feel like clown even attend university for want worthless existence end,1 +kinda suck texting wamen im bad chatteer suck texting need help advice,0 +anyone know way chance failure decently quick gun would much appreciated painless way except gun,1 +found obama isnt president anymore sad hit followers twitter,0 +young seemingly promising college graduate played blair underwood sent jail murder innocent young girl put death row sean connery plays happy go lucky attorney young mans grandmother tracks retirement pleads take case hopes freeing grandson laurence fishburne plays police officer well involved case hell bent debunking theory connery might dig try free boy entire police department swear guilty crime ed harris kate capshaw ruby dee late lynne thigpen costar intense dramatic thriller,0 +make euthanasia legal everyone cut live capitalistic society reason legal rich would lose like half labour slaves unpopular opinion,1 +cant live socksi saw someone trying reassure suicidal person says reason wake morning saying and im paraphrasing one day glad something even nice pair socks hang find it like hell im person talking to also reason wake morning confused hell me could pair socks give anyone reason live im suicidal cold feet im suicidal struggle mental illness understand finding meaning little things important get excited socks many times realizing little stuff cant replace live im tired trying find meaning everything around me want little reasons get bed want drive wake shit life everyone around has im tired told hang there life meaning im sure id found now,1 +someone please talk memy girlfriend broke im much best friend told shes done cant keep supporting someone whos sad time mother told doesnt want talk anymore want support amp peace im struggling find way get without ending it,1 +one reason done iti want last action feel like another regret,1 +wish positive interaction lifehow make friendsi wish friends mental health friendly wish deep talks depression mental wellness wish could compassion lifethe way life wentsometimes think need love need loved deserve it right id like think worthybut time feel like cannot socialize correctly consider sort weird guy outside box kind person sure think part reason successful meaningful notredflag weird personality people look weird people feel repulsed makes person purely unattractive support chat,1 +current mood sfw httpswwwredditcomryaoicommentshaoiosauce_in_commentsutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 +want die thinking lot nothing life going bad moment constant thought head id playing videos games something enjoy thought would come idk,1 +realized followers instagram tf,0 +im ending tonightim leaving many friends pets girlfriend behind dont care told parents called selfish im it,1 +fuck fuck fuck searched loli vs regular hentai find difference went straight images fuck fuck fuck fuckseriouly shit burned retinas fuck bleach,0 +got broken year relationship feeling greatest first time posting,1 +trynna get deep here need answers therapy help,1 +great thing thirst chanwook parks latest film antitwilight may take minus reality big plus park takes method vampirism seriously well torrid love story sanghyeon taejoo see conflicts characters sanghyeon priest undergoes medical experiment that unbeknownst him turns sickly trueblue vampire taejoo mother idiot brother latter killed sang strong melodrama theres nothing terribly weepy insipid story characters point implications put forth religion early sang example seen healer sorts since rose dead thanks vampirism even cant knows it top good vs evil push another plane cinematicallybr br that thirst also rises awesome standard artistry park displayed oldboy lady vengeance underrated im cyborg thats ok taken given thirst film juicy narrative bizarre suburban characters shot edited eye mood part satiric part romanticerotic part dramatic lastly fantastical always treat vampirsim something simple horror movie setup though horror movie park share scary scenes akin movie near dark never mentioned word vampire let know was treated sincerity kind lucid track attention disease effect persons existence perhaps scarier killings bloodshed see one vampire jump really high heal wounds seen em allbr br thirst also wicked sense humor much like oldboy bite pun intended meant emphasize bizarre physical states being example found priests predilection sucking blood people comas taking blood tube suckling floor manner taejoo holds one scrap humanity keeping mother alive even something like stroke blink eyes tap one finger means reacting bloodsuckers whove brought pain horror home moments like icing cake make complete experience makes thirst last mind elements come together drama existential pains bunueliansurreal sense catholicism i especially loved dynamic sanghyeon priest gives arm bloodsucking really wants vampire too erotic scenes priest finally gives taejoo incredible pace length shots real gets pornographic manner sense characters release escape last long scope storybr br if great oldboy something carp about films chanwook park directs reach stature masterpiece and least hell always known man directed movie thrist excellent addition oeuvre serious streak vampire movies general filmmaking crisp exciting even dangerous and white room daylight characters live in humor dark hilarious acting intense moody especially subtle strokes song kangho quirky evil surprising vulnerability kim okvin ending finally get there one truly superb vampiremovie endings talking years good way battle thirst twilight thirst takes knockout first round let right one near dark tougher call ,0 +help guy get medal sergeant waverly b woodson jr administered first aid least men omaha beach dday injured shrapnel denied medal honour black lets change heres changeorg link httpchngitqfblfcykbq,0 +father told didnt balls kill myselflast year diagnosed bipolar got committed mental institutions various times suicidal ideation attempt october flew tijuana bought phenobarbital flew mexico city always one favorite cities wanted see one last time died miserable raining didnt get spark first visited finally wrote letter aunt father turned phone scared drinking phenobarbital put aside went sleep woken mexican police around am im quite sure found me know dad called police san francisco maybe coordinated embassy airbnb dont really know family buy ticket escorted way onto plane able go meds good since yesterday dad confronted gone missing he hides money place think forgot things get pretty heated tells didnt even balls kill myself one hurt time ill prove wrong,1 +final update shat pants school im threatened expulsion last post httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjacldupdate_i_shat_my_pants_in_school_and_now_im_beingutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare again thank everyone commented last posts read first two posts read content today final meeting like promised id tell happened starters put fight school board actually considered side argument mind lets get results went final meeting school board alongside parents gave days think whether expelled incident final verdict giving results allowed speak say side story without interruptions teacher gave side story exactly explained you school lunch gave bad stomach ache teacher never called hand raised ended defecating resulted getting sent principals office something accident principal asked questions asked aware severity situation people scared time obviously said do asked parents history accidents told truth til th grade die weak bladder never purpose never defecation school board explained sounded leaving details teacher has good record district highly doubt shed exaggerate things tell much reason good record tenure brother uncle remember bad experiences along stories heard tenure basically going take killing student get fired gave another chance explain said theres nothing else add story told everything said understood rules brought law law states one legally allowed let use bathroom said highschool sophomore know law even though want get highschool studied quite bit final thing stated got results asked students make sure stories lined up well bad news lined up teachers story guess asked bullies put pure coincidence said seem chronic liar taking situation seriously intentionally caused panic attempted biological act terrorism like teacher stated last time point crying knew lied future relationships family friends fucked bullies thought would hilarious teachers overly inflated ego told expelled monday then attend classes online fuck that im attending them fucked fuck them nothing worked overly inflated egos turn forced traumatic experience accident caused shitty food kicked school longer see friends girlfriend anyone else thanks lot mrs dickinson hope burn hell thank everyone supported painful experience updates future post right now nothing else say questions anything say general ill best answer,0 +parents make feel like worthless human beinghi all ive looked many posts teensadults issues parents wanted share story since none tell to feel like treat shitty cant handle anymore whenever something proud reaction underwhelming even feel like anymore never great school especially elementary school joined highschool woke got good grades even upgraded higher level never noticed that small minor thing causes uprough need talk stupid never reach anything july graduated second time college dads reaction nothing absolutely nothing like expect anything mother simple reaction like goodjob son well done would sufficient day passed since graduated morning mom dad nerve talk cousin university graduated lawyer man made feel like shit like even want child always story whenever something im proud need bring someone else even better beginning thought sense encouragment know like keep going way say sense love caring makes want kill myself know mental health issues like depression stress cause poor childhood mom brought everthing ive done right feel like best thing could accomplish yet nerve still lecture me im sad right now whenever im home tell go work go away never want here yet mom always home never works father work still get money government like work yet like ish year old im right ive working since years old years restaurant years fabric produce glass ive working since beginning teenage days yet nerve say something like uggh know im saying things cant take anymore remember mom used k euros money kept pay debts house cause father got stupid shit like even worth going uni anymore sorry long story,1 + happened girl invited house already sex several times before think said feel like sex mind saw opportunity sex asshole came house layed bed began cuddling asked hey want sex times span hour persistent using force threats anything rd time rejected said i go slow responded alright sure sure bothered sure layed went inside felt good started go faster faster sounded like enjoying it starting go faster sure honestly intent definitely bad want harm her guess started go faster good felt really horny well anyways seconds sex started told stop right away soon heard say stopped it said sorry ending early said worried getting pregnant told fine hung like minutes left feel like always bad person matter what really wish never met girl would done did year told sex guys guys dicks bigger mine rapist,1 +saw film last night precode film festival tell gary cooper turned head introductory closeup entire audience gasped beautifulbr br coopers looks aside film displays rouben mamoulians directorial artistry perfection wonderful scenefades creative camera angles symbolic allusionsmamoulian keeps exploring directorial medium coming innovationbr br this sylvia sidneys first role hollywood success new york stage lovely gary cooper leading lady ought be nice see role harder edge many givenso often looks like afraid hit someonebr br there lots familiar faces film including wonderful wynne gibson striking guy kibbee best known playing fatuous rich men grinning mendacious hitmanbr br there nearly enough precode films available vhs dvd cant find precode festival near you try campaigning turner classic movies broadcast reviewer believes gary cooper stupid dialogue complex yep nope perhaps consider coops performance films mr deeds goes town meet john doe although heaven knows anyone looked good smart well,0 +thought movie cleverly written well acted movie greatly surpasses films terms originality enjoymentrupert grint played part marvelously general knack acting business almost obsessive mother added quite lot plot character one could almost instantly loathe reminded me way divine secrets yaya sisterhood means actual content film premises overall tone film itself driving lessons coming age story many might find easy relate due overpowering mother lack freedom discovery oneself,0 +looking reasonhonestly looking non bs reasons shouldnt kill myself cant think,1 +yesterday something happened friend went crisis blocked without warning really worried called police checked told ok unblocked later night gave vague comments happened clearly something big happened time known new ground friend crisis like comforted people close with months ago crisis sent hospital weeks wanted talk feel safe trying them intentions well forgot told likes alone kept blaming going hospital wanted give space theywould likealways remember treat people way like treated person likes scared made worse lost now want safe treat people would like treated,1 +friends able talk themim sure many people relate this people id say im close around including online friends matter close get always hate talking redflag struggles ampxb everyone problems deal feel start projecting mine onto others ill seen burdenonly people know tendencies thats theyve found accident even occasions ive always felt bad ampxb many us plans mine months now nobody knows though intend keeping wayi put way much effort prepping shut down ampxb would nice able talk cry arms another thats fantasy reality im going die alone middle discovered corpse started decay,1 +home years basically isolated outside world last couple years cry eyes every night wondering pain sadness feel ever go away feltfeel alonei friendsnot even onlineno one talk tountil met guy online sweet timevery religious godly timei wanted feel lovedand less lonelyless sadi wanted make feel better instead gave stithat stuck lifehe told knowand stupidly believed time later friend told sti way mei feel usedlike trash hated long thisbut times worsei cannot even stand look mirror i felt lonely before guaranteed likely going die alone going want diseasei feel dirty stupid trusting him knowing purposefully gave disease makes feel worthless isolated world nothing thoughts company mind rn darkest place bei hate myselfi hate ami keep shit over end place time on bathroom floor crying praying pain loneliness go away feel stupid want pain stopit hurts never goes awayeverytime try make pain stop make loneliness go away replace paini feel like escape deathi cannot take anymore cannot m purposefully gave mef hpv things could get anyworse,1 +delightful minor film juggling comedy detective romance drama genres nimbly lt kenny williams melvyn douglas balances devotion girl maxine carroll joan blondell duty force ace detectivebr br this hodgepodge may appeal viewers today day something offer every member moviegoing family resolution rather tired feelingversusduty plot original refreshing well worth wait br br the amazing mr williams contains must among outrageous blind dates film history bright comic repartee sparkles ludicrously frocked melvyn douglas delivers best lines id walk main street turkish towel id let woman control life effervescent joan blondell lets barbs fly typical aplomb good grief look like aunt nellie br br the crimesolving standard fare although fine cast character actors helps bring material life br br from todays vantage point the amazing mr williams perhaps interesting insightful commentary gender socially defined construct malleable seemingly rigid boundaries much gender commentary takes place superficial battle sexes times subtle penetrating playing finer details film battle genres reaches culmination final scene,0 +whenever feel sick get slightly disappointed terminal cancerand makes feel disgusting real people suffer die everyday horrible disease couldnt even begin imagine theyre going feels selfish ignorant feel way cant help it actively wish know one worst things person go part feels like would tiny relief would passive way dying parents would know fault friends would know fault would seen tragic teen death selfish act weakness,1 +keep searching boys cant find single incel post everyone else complaining like tomorrow,0 +kmsdoes anyone know best way kill urself efficient painful maybe od,1 +hey baby like subway cuz got footlong footlong subway sandwich eat please enjoy,0 +thought beautiful film favourite films chungking express holds spot one quite different anything else seen his slow but annoyingly so takes time ponders characters minimal movement frame camerawork wonderful acting great film feels like long warm comforting drink,0 +teacher rickrolled class today english teacher posted assignment google classroom film analysis open doc watch youtube link amp answer questions whos main character relate whats tone film clicked link thinking short film analyze got rickrolled instead spot th question would said answered questions trippin please go back assignment work plays tldr english teacher rickrolled class joke assignment,0 +anyone participate nnn lose im bit unsure rules haha,0 +reddit mobile broken cant use anymore forget,0 +advice boys boy breathe air otherwise die,0 +drank monster first time drinkreview okay decided join kyle cult drank monster energy engaging act capitalism local gas station brought goods home took first sip basically tasted like someone melted bunch sour candies made drink it caffiene level enough make bit alert enough unleash beast inside me like said might tolerance built years caffeine consumption probably is could shortcoming drink regardless nitpick drink woke bit anyway really making enter avatar state open third eye hyperactivity like experienced to said think overall pretty decent drink ill give part thinks monster might bit acquired taste thats review see ya,0 +friend died today read description today april fools day gottem,0 +dont know deal suicidal thoughtsi ptsd go fight flight mode whenever im outside im constant stress feel underdeveloped age im supposed job travel independently cant drive struggle leave place im ruining sex life scatter brained planet dying im contributing destruction future looks pretty bleak love people around good time burden people depending much ive suicidal past couple weeks feel like im wasting peoples time money,1 +trying distract horrible thoughtsim angry right now pretty sure lost best friend stupid argument im tired treated like shit everyone fucked up know it everyone remind me walked anxiety please try living bedroom years talk anyone go events go movies fucking sit room contemplate many things fucked up nah lazy right want work right guess thats went job interview panic attack knew best friend get side me shes allowed angry it six years trying make realize okay huge problem initiate contact get it must suck one always talk guess what try talk blow saying busy recently telling fuck off hard enough guy kind issues top get fucking crucified well yeah advice man up really fucking helpful thanks sharing fucking useless shit im glad spent night night listening cry family fucking abandon soon everything returns normal thats works right problems over sorted oh thanks letting happen right go uni might housebound last years might last real chance make something work shit important right thats important everyone else keeps shit together helping slightly would ever troublesome sorry long wall text need get there im trying distract myself music blasting game going letting sit think fucking know ill end something stupid keep train thought cant issues well people problems make mine disappear sympathize everyone problems lend fucking hand least could lend ear need you,1 +tried failed againbeen suicidal years now firends went music festival hoping would feel better ended feeling worse alone ever im sure do guess,1 +extremely funny gags one episodes ten years friends good ie funny nordberg fabonlycasted oj simpson movies episodes emerge dvd,0 +kill ever get pregnant unable get abortion force miscarriagejust another reason die thanks shitty usa,1 +madlad school played coffin dance giornos theme unravel everyone year group assembly schools assemblies student plays piano another musical instrument everyone else entersexits hall usually would appropriate piece music play scenario student today decided take next level playing normal music first switched coffin dance everyone started cheering then got even better started playing even better even playing anime music everyone enjoyed it included big jojo fan nothing short spectacular,0 +say want hug mean wanna hug anyone,0 +redditors whose parents committed redflag younghow affect you note give closure wish written it well now,1 +please live life meaningwhat makes life valuable death fact people grow old die makes life precious valuable growing dying gives meaning beauty life end early waste life potential talents ability grow superpower us humans have ability improve use power reach limit keep pushing break limits cause truly limits cannot do alike redflag isnt way much life ending early live youll end reaching end anyway good time bad memories good memories live learn life rollercoaster thats makes fun always something next chapter cant fear good bad builds you lose people even lose selves sometimes life living winning losing sometimes may feel like youre losing change environment get shit together work towards brighter future come good things come people wait amazing come people work it live chest high smile face danger become greater yesterday fall feel hopeless continue fight worth put work life worth something simply exist simply power change life life worth living many experiences youll miss on finally getting job graduating college even high school holding newborn child feeling warmth childs body meeting boy girl dreams falling love holding money youve ever seen hand becoming father mother uncle auntie pushforward end never death comes not death not fear rush something exist ,1 +want die want stop livingi know im feeling im tired alive wish could fall asleep never wake up think ill anything wish could done all hate waking every morning realizing everything good dream think ill ever reach it,1 +paul reiser steps away standup comedy spotlight write warmly humorous gently tender story family see see expect surprises us thing folks set new standards film fine little story well told reminds us significant bonds family representsbr br sam kleinman peter falk workaholic times pushing wife muriel olympia dukakis daughters mackenzie connolly lydia jordan son ben paul reiser background one day muriel leaves note years marriage leaving daughters along bens wife rachel elizabeth perkins immediately begin search whereabouts leaving confused hurt disgruntle sam sort things road trip son ben road trip becomes time two men learn mean status father son family members sam relaxes first time life introduces workaholic ben pleasures fun living trip comes end phone call whereabouts muriel left regrouping wiser family draws storys warm ending seemed better and well differentbr br falk reiser play like pros are many ways film belongs brief moments olympia dukakis screen reminding us one strongest matriarchs film well worth viewing grady harp,0 +plop join fast among us ehejidjdjdjdjdjdidjdjddjd dbbd,0 +killing tonighthi ive depressed many years im thinking trying tonight long story short ive always lonely kid bullied kindergarten end highschool low self esteem now last week first time awesome time wonderful girl ran grass night layed side side hugged passed hand hair multiple times talked hours everything basic life suicidal tendencies showed lot support saw fell love lot common leave thoughts tonight told become anything friend sorry giving wrong thoughts broken english know im drunk try point consider killing blow first time get close girl like mind you always ends like think ive enough studies going anywhere anyway people care seem vanish point girl much common rarely talk lot im shy managed hours without breaking sweat day after extremely unlikely me cant take know story basic gets guess cant choose happy,1 +think tonight night theres one thing holding backas title states think tonight night already plan done research ensure follow waking up nights ago started talking old friend surprised find really missed me missed too stopped talking going go date misunderstanding thought stood up felt deserved done some less kind things past idea always forgives me like forgive people like me pretty long history ive seen treats people things hurt her never acted like me well im almost still learning drive family including town dad asked drive dinner fighting night usually do said something car driving one day going regret saying me im going forgive do infuriated yelled whenever got chance night going fast around corner bald tires crashed car needless say exploded get car towed went dinner stayed hotel slit wrists first time always though people cry help know took knife wallet slit would covered watch looked cut wrists somewhat shocked little cared fact slit wrists researching kill come perfect plan tonight hours minutes im going load gauge buckshot point head know whether actually pull trigger decide gun head took shower though miss thing really think girl feel owe stay alive knows bad anxiety talked before would talking right dad took phone way reaching her another reason important friend im far socially awkward switched schools everyone school outcast cant stand anyone there im kind lost posted hear opinions lot detail missing tried sum best could edit add suicidal thoughts nothing new feel reached tipping point,1 +im pathetic im seriously considering redflag concertthis probably catalyst feel ive spent months figuring fucking everything trying get together money see concert might lifetime thing me cant go ive massive fan member group want see years half life first time hes coming state career hes different country could never happen again im seeing it job ocd body dysmorphia sort traumatic experience donating plasma even that accidentally sold valuable pokemon cards clerk even give quarter cleaned best friends house saturday money turns money friday concert literally today late night everything gone wrong said one thing going miss im going fucking miss it crying tears joy happiest felt long time thought getting money go best friend thing staying alive for everything snowballing one thing another tired limbo able live able die fucking pathetic right im home alone feeling unstable dangerous cant stop crying woke up start terrible spiral even care,1 +always alone always lonelyto grave thats empty existence follow me damnable slog working live combined inappropriate coping mechanisms lead this shell vacuous vapid wanting death nothing mourn whoever inside died long ago years unsaid happy birthdays decades even much touch another lifetime alone comprehending one understands surely whoever inhabitated shell died body continue meaningless march oblivion nothing left mind nurture soul save hollow husk pay mind pass by do second might hope cruelest punishment inflict instincts shell knows never loved die allow allow hope otherwise well must inhumanely wicked,1 +parents expectations high let preface saying post reddit frequently anymore im sorry somewhat place needed vent frustrations group hopefully support me thats way parents driving wall lately constantly talk getting sat scores apush grades up driving insane reference ive already gotten sat far away enough get moderately decent college enough go school want attend want get music engineering degree theyre insistent get degree whatever engineering make sure im successful want college happy live life see fit need making figures long enough live ill perfectly fine cant seem understand that theyve turned criticizing whenever im anything schoolwork spare time like jesus christ let hobbies live life peace point im starting want live expectations show content life without following perfect step step plan fulfillment cant fucking deal anymore im sure guys delt too im wondering fuck managed deal it thanks coming ted talk,0 +saw sea dust part nyc screening audience several years ago enjoyed film time little confused amendments made since perhaps memory seemed chunks exposition missing version shown rhode island film festival im really sure version prefer honestly say found something appreciate bothbr br let begin warning everyone popcorn movie although promoted hammer films tribute people expecting showdown van helsing dracula going sorely disappointed theres cleavage nudity a staple british production houses later movies sea dust filled gorgeous eye candy it really shot like sixties film features hammer starlet ingrid pitt like companys pictures tone execution film dark confusing at times funny remember earlier version quite nutty one thats bad thing especially showdown black forest plays like three stooges short ms pitts rantings quite entertaining like somebody wound turned loosebr br the uniqueness film lie borrowed details though ideas occasional sci fi channel viewer ive regularly taken network task onenote variations theme cgi monster kills gets destroyed sea dust full ideas start trip whilebr br but get wrong im complaining anything applaud guys making enterprising lowbudget picture courage pack many concepts going picnic people hate think movies you know are rest us us tired formula modern horror films predictability lack respect audience may ticket,0 +may accidentally insulted someone so im pretty terrible making friends constantly putting foot mouth lot sorta made friend eat lunch together im pretty sure eat lunch together doesnt know tell leave anyways called weird completely disagree almost impossible truly weird weird something commonly done planet billions people thats next impossible say weird singling out though done something billions couldnt weirdness would make special fact matter actually weird comforts me told called weird got really upset reason left dont really know said dont really know either advice,0 +things one knows want look like accidenti feel like meant die young always meant kill myself thoughts death hurting frequent first remember terrible feelings even child unloved hiding blankets crying felt place worthless time every would horrible diagnosed hypothyroidism put hormones thought maybe would fix everything things got bad junior year college good grades classes easy me gotten wonderful scholarship gotten internship summer friends become roommates would fun together towards end year started wanting much them except maybe drink figured got drunk could escape little while fine short time went state internship things got really bad met lot nice people friend major me felt alone felt like needed harm myself exactly sure how everyone else working went fun stayed cried drank alone started taking handfuls whatever otc medications hand much anything good washing alcohol know would do figured probably die mind harming myself remember lying bed facing mirror closet door heart racing skin strangely splotchy pupils completely messed up something dumb told friend feeling doing flushed whatever otc meds toilet kept close watch me time guess felt grateful time went on wish told him want stop anything dumb importantly felt like burden hated even stressing out really talk much anymore hes married seems good life told doctor feeling put mg citalopram really help got back college summer happy senior year living girls known since freshman year excited first tried act normal would go bars parties spend lots time together got tiring wanted stay room live alcohol hopes could forget everything hurt myself started burning curling iron im sure why thighs covered blistered burns initially left faint scars eventually disappeared really remember stopped enough remember first time cut myself know use desperation wrapped beer bottle towel hit hammer tested pieces find sharp enough one kept shard nightstand soon graduated exacto knife want bleed out want anyone know this shallowly cut upper thighs somehow watching thin cuts bleed calming made feel better still scars years later one knows doctor increased dose citalopram guess kind helped somehow made senior year somehow got as even though missed many classes telling everyone sick guess lie think anyone knew truly wrong times year told nuts threw exacto knife would go buy another repeat cycle cutting convince im insane throw out buy another weeks later worst got codeine cough syrup clinic coughing night sleep got super drunk alone bedroom drank whole bottle upset wake next morning never applied grad school like initially planned lied everyone asked going grad school right away time home strange got crappy job particularly enjoy something afraid cut home afraid parents would go room find blade eventually cutting cycle continued id take razor blade box cutters work cut needed to throw out grab another weeks later eventually got fired ridiculous reason parents town week cut lot always made sure hide razor blade thought things would better went grad school doctor finally ended changing hormone dose think helped little felt alone friendless new city was first year grad school last time cut myself though still feel like want sometimes time grad school relatively uneventful meet boyfriend second year weve together year half love much even enough finished classes think ill ever graduate lost motivation finish everything got shitty job finished classes one pay whole lot somehow im still it guess im moron feel like half people work hate half put me certainly think would miss me even know boyfriend would miss me think hold back know something wrong me did think would gone town hes gone weeks took guns him assault rifle bed part upset took them part want shoot leave terrible mess anyway want plan right bought ton poppy seeds online right boyfriend left shook lemon juice water see could get high drank liquid felt warm eventually keep eyes open peace woke got dizzy vomited times good find seeds worked still six pounds seeds left know many use make strong tea guess could use all get really drunk tea hopefully fall asleep wake ever again cant yet though weird want die day im supposed go work plan right ill fall asleep forever day off hopefully find enough time schedule someone cover shift thankfully boyfriend coming home around day days off want walk call ambulance anything want mental hospital want lot decay anything time gets home im sure coming home bad enough experience also want drop everything come home early hear me little week left think im going leave note would nice assholes work felt bad guilty knew killed myself want people like feel guilty part want leave something reassuring people assholes give away planned want kind people blame themselves all fault me feel need clean house next week ill work next days bought huge bottle rum wash poppy seed tea hope everything goes way intend wake next wednesday morning know ill do,1 +independent bw dv feature consistently shocks amazes amuses ability create insane situations find humor interest them hilarious ridiculous stuff yet absurd much film be heart reality keeps film grounded keeps entire piece drifting complete craziness therein lies real message here film survive world gone mad seems heart film insane wall things get leon yr old paperboyprotagonist always tries keep together hes like child forever trying catch balloon floating away everything work best everyone wantbr br the acting film could went far top exceptional cast really keeps piece cohesive van meter perhaps best bunch performance shines absurd diseased tics characters film do overlook sudden outbursts see real person underneath br br majkowski true genius here takes utmost ridiculous plot twists keeps real script cast help keep whole thing afloat true testament skill majkowski involved film grating plot characters never works nerves majkowski taken film could abrasive repugnant somehow given heart humor unique film missed br br ,0 +dealing pssd yearsim thinking end all im looking ideas it surely painless im felt horny years ssri miss much life feels empty since then im troubles learning new stuff commiting it parents pressure study feel clueless lack hobbies passion first happy relationship difficult enjoy insecurities i feel like im pretty smart good enough him feels like im weak bitch right overwhelmed this,1 +breakdown college returned home feeling zero motivation start overjust heads up really really long im worried theres much exposition actually belong rredflagwatch im deeply sorry please point direction better suited ive never told anyone full story dealings redflag depression least entire whole truth hoping subreddit could listen bit backstory me graduated high school gpa whole life advanced classes always best took piano lessons played soccer took chinese lessons outside school held parttime job local farm secretary schools computer club still managed go friends time time loved draw write considered artsy girl quirky sense humor school popular friends friends werent perfect me things seemed outwardly okay reality id struggling depression anxiety since honest idea managed it think ever confronted feelings problems life simply stuffed down ignoring going on brushing suicidal feelings normal okay therapy meds and part played role perfect daughter note filling role really important me ingrained young age choice perfect for multiple reasons brother matthew autistic parents spent days taking care him allistic educated independent talkative polar opposite matt please understand hold resentment towards him love little bro much ended friendships treated brother badly autism change world truth matter is got much nuturing attention child did became mantra head needs important others needs make matters worse also family members kinda er delinquents guess thats word im going with got legal trouble take traditional route going college getting job caused lot conflict stress saw grandma cry them afraid would become like them someone mooched family shit face everyone cared decided young age id perfect id cause trouble id get straightas id play sport instrument become polyglot artist parttime novelist degree international relations kyr private school allow room compromise things started becoming less manageable think cut first time then quickly stopped got caught thankfully either way serious selfesteem problems like every normal teen developed dermatillomania then nervous condition brought ocd picked incessantly skin like mostly hands nails scabs acne id peel skin bled also ripped back would sit front mirror every night secret hours staring skin searching imperfections making bleed actually cry pain sad eyes watered hurt bad know looking back think coping mechanism destressed gave control body in view ugly awkward ridden acne druggedup meds seemed even help dermatillomania got better acne went away thanks accutane condition worsened suicidal feelings constant oppressive sucked joy life quit soccer started difficultly attenting school piano went club activity died stopped seeing friends draw much anymore barely wrote except depressing poetry made feel little relief moment started bingewatching tons anime became shutin brothers needs got complex grew people less understanding harsh parents argued lot threw stuff said awful things awful things forgot intentionally cant really blame hate them long term love me love them tried parent best could two mentally ill kids one also developmentally disabled well put lot strain them mom struggled anxiety depression dad angry frustrated days get bed theyd scream drag feet grab hair shake head fell bed would externally shut go limp theyd call fucked stuff ask happened me answer like broke wanted die ever around th birthday so march worst attentance rate school dropped would miss weeks time parents would vaccillate loving parents abusers screamed obscenities shook like rag doll anyways exhausted med choices id seen therapists psychiatrists hospitalized wasnt functioning miserable hospital oddly peace diagnosed bipolar gave new meds got started attending group therapy slowly surely returned schoolwork mostly outside classes occasionally id go class two sortof functioning enjoy anything life anymore got through ya know forgot like enjoy writing drawing life general was managing graduated barely walked across stage receive degree handful supportive friends helped become social again free high school felt like huge burden lifted chest free family kinder me felt less like failure went therapy twice week visited psychiatrist med evaluations monthly huge fan meds still felt pretty blah life ignored that um know sugarcoat next bit this cat died cat best friend one really felt fully supported me laugh want biggest comfort dad made cry id sob fur tears dried lovely kitty would lick salt face purr one time going attempt redflag cat knocked pill bottles lined front me rubbed hand made pet him forcing also put pill bottle held hand took sign kill day thankfully losing big loss entire past year felt like one devastation another handled okay cried out shortly opportunity study abroad spain i studied spanish school pretty good it took it flying way jfk madrid amazing experience proud flown individually depressed stay especially cat worried host family bit best enjoy it returned home know realized moments stopped ruminating overthinking life felt really really alive like friends went dennys ran around nature preserve crashing basement watch bad movies fell love first time lit world think id ever happy life least since ive next stage lives approaching forgot mention above get accepted expensive private school get state school state proud excited scared meltdown senior year high school ready face it even though want summer end left boyfriend home decided friends year younger going hours away huge deal also ideal start longdistance relationship romantically involved days got college nervous like everyone first attacked like old self joined corec football made lots friends laundry fed myself made bed little victories things months ago damn proud missed cat lesser extent boyfriend whatever managing came home weekend surprisingly nice see family something felt while brother sortof hugged me huuuge deal returned college confident went classes fell apart anxious coursework everything overwhelmed suddenly regressed shut down like last march left medical leave returned home dropping friends putting future hold start over lost old therapists psychologists psychiatrists parents back weird abusivelovingflipflopping selves sleep ive never miserable life ambition even know want get better got job daycare keep mind love kids just never finished filling forms im limbo debating im even stable enough hold job nothing cat dead im lonely isolated tired starting realize family going help recover gotta come within im broken im going therapist psychiatrist im trying pick reading writing drawing again ive even playing little piano learning ukulele trying spark interest ive got nothing know getting job would help also think getting new cat would really therapeutic pushed issue enough im certain parentsll eventually cave but want going back college ever gonna life dreamed of become problem child want kill myself im so tired im even scared dying anymore just alone good thing life boyfriend im back im home again month anniversary us since got home and consider official start relationship october rd love him thats naive say probably do makes forget sadness i know anymore im sick constant depression want end want die leave world want stop burden fuck failure im lonely everyone life left behind disappointed family mom says around makes depression worse want finally end life im sorry long feel relieved ive never told anyone whole story before,1 +hate socially awkward people ive come find one want fucking diei get nervous cant fucking keep conversation going id like think im confident convo begins im monotone im called quiet fucking hate it want girlfriend badly cant talk women seems like convo ends quickly lose interest hell even guys lose interest whenever fucking talk speech impediment people always ask repeat look way know know wtf im saying theyre trying appear nice im fucking sick this force social situations hell im part club like people literally parties stand someone talks cnat talk group cant act interested anyone cant ask multiple questions hard care try think anyones judging doi find someones judging me wish could stay alive want die feel like something would benefit society socially awkward people weird im weird im shy quiet women hate fucking shit hard confident knowing women like confident guys know im life used able give people handshakes normally somehow fuck up im fucking college making friends im not miss community college social group left left cant fucking go therapy money need therapy money insurance therapy hope right constantly state anxiety im always anxious ive tried drugs alcohol make confident nope im still quiet give fuck talk people still give weird look really hard continue pretending watch faces confused talk someone else say anything bad say boring shit like whats major what like do groom dress decent workouti see results well that still confident hate socially awkward knowing im socially awkward makes worse knowing people hate insecurity hate shyness men hard despise myself hard love nobody giving reasons love myself like someone hated everyone treating others bad person starts loving narcissism know know wtf im life idk fuck going on idk im doing fuck spent everyday past days escorts ive lonely keep looking bottle codeine wanting drink thats drug made social ive pulled driving like shit honestly cant figure whats going on im panic mode cant distract either studying try meditate working negative thoughts destroy mind need help want die do want therapist money dont even know fuck im writing shit,1 +dammit bed feel good morning want get masturbate body says no,0 +wish luck gamers im going list firsts tomorrow first time karaoke and guys going train alone going friends meal adults breakfastlunch help,0 + year old woman fucking sick tired treated like person enough sometimes want fucking throw phone wall read shit see sent me talking guy seemed nice nice able talk normal things flirting all really amazing actually flirted with felt like person talked weather countries pets real mundane shit nice even got share bit traumas saw picture conversation change told me no warned seen look like going hard ask nudes get thirsty said it told talk always days normal stuff obviously hard person too actually said quote yeah knew attractive fucking audacity offended saying conversations ruined could control himself basically cannot get basic human respect normal conversation someone sees fucking look makes feel like nothing feel fucking stupid thinking person nice sat genuinely upset two days now explained upset one leave conversation never apologised sick feeling like object sick nervous guy talks me sick scared incase see face sick scared full stop deserve fucking respect deserve treated treat you deserve heard fucking say no feelings fucking sick tired thirsty fucking assholes cannot accept wrong acting creepy give fuck offended tell flirtyi offended would listen first place honestly hide face get normal conversation hate shit sometimes feel like want hide away want talk anyone already hard make friends put crap top it tired tired treated like human being dealt alot years past sexual abuse physical abuse rape survivor fucking several times shit makes feel even worthless thoughts go back used think abused i pleasure matter feel want sex good for puts really bad place know deal stuff anymore know everyone deal it online world feel like ignore everyone incase want that fair shit scary know trust deserve respect too,1 +much molly suicidal againdivorce addiction self hate brewing something end well put dirt belong,1 +keep goingdoes anyone tips keep going strong wave suicidal ideation drowning you decent days stagnant days days feel like im going backwards like spiral closer bottom thinking much better itd take life closer top excited take certain challenges life feel like im rollercoastering spiral like climb ladder theres something top throws things cant climb top want get fuck feel like ive trying long seems like efforts useless realize im older stupid make certain decisions making decisions ill state mind taken fun path suffer consequences actions trusting im told mother instead fault wish help solely responsible situation im in try everyday like im getting kicked face spat on wish could escape mental prison keep together hide behind smiling mask although behind it im broken like humpty dumpty fall stay strong face adversity find support keep going hopes getting better place someday do times know do times really dark dogs keep going gotten point want find loving home kill myself know want live thats thing want live survive like whole life future brighter depression hits like ancient power taken much time,1 +tbh idki want die body literally hurts sad want hang short drop idk right way im sad im always sad,1 +cant deal fact mental illnesses anymorei cant deal anymore diagnosed bipolar generalized anxiety disorder adhd teens diagnosed major depression psychotic features latest diagnosis saw anymore im different medications abuse adhd meds like crazy thing find makes feel good cant deal fact im going taking medication forever almost nothing help feel better like exercise diet like previously thought cant deal fact ill always way nothing ever change that way live since last wednesday think killing myself always mind cant stop thinking it family know deal this bother them ive hospitalized times cant put again feel like theres nothing anymore theres nothing left here want anymore hobbies interests friends dropped school job though ive applying everywhere since beginning month cant sleep well feel world me thanks reading,1 +im sadi feel sad every day feel like im losing memory mind ive struggled depression severe anxiety entire life never bad good life good friends successful career deep feel misery dont like anything decided long time ago experiencing true moment happiness peace would never kill strength conviction gotten lot hard times many years lately feel like im surrounded shadow dont know do dont want die im sick enduring pain sadness constant worrying know im selfsabotaging cant stop it feels like im runaway train dont even know im writing im looking for guess writing thoughts cathartic way anyone else feel like feel feel like past get it,1 +peepoopfrickhecc im kinda fricked ngl im online test french idk much aaaaaaaajfkqhckfaocekkacjskaaajd french hard broo,0 +today might daymy world collapsed today fair shambles long remember today last,1 +ive waiting like years become fr feel like long since ive turned ,0 +real suppleroot hours up day far,0 +need advice high school hi im go first day highschool asking advice incoming freshman advice good advice,0 +omg guys cool trick look m correct way looks like m monke look upside down looks like w why leave come backi loved you,0 +kinda late howd ya sleeepp,0 +get longdistance relationships depressed suicidalbecause going weeks spending every single hour loved one suddenly go back instant messages video chats fucks real good im suicidal fuck guilt hurting stopping anything stupid do eat fat enough already someone put sleep weeks get it,1 +anyone know get rid negative thoughts cannot get rid them becoming unbearable want know enjoy things like used to like sort loud banging back head stop like someone banging pots pans together constant ringing hear silent always back head seeping every single fucking positive rush have even feel happy know happiness go away really quickly want fucking get rid them amm fighting hard getting harder day constant lingering negative thoughts killing,1 +wife lost jobs home pets depression latter feels worst im sure turn hereim sure im help achieve feel need put open depression taken almost everything us see end cycle loss guilt pain ampnspb start nearer beginning wife relocated across country years ago work stayed fairly happy never friends miss family hugely wife especially always support network outside me suffer horrendous depression seeking referrals see bipolar fits im unsure ampnspb anyway years back wifes depression gets bad enough work goes sick leave try best act carer im work manage months breakdown retail managementchristmascarerbad end work time family help us rent bills parents retired mine good financial shape lots guilt feeling like permanent burden ampnspb skipping years end flitting work symptoms never really address survive monthly help wifes parents several large loans overdrafts taken get by develop fast food addiction spend fortune takeouts feel ill cook clean wife spends time bed ampnspb last year things turn corner were working money coming were medication seems working contract temporary im making invaluable extend monthly wife gets sick get sick trying hold job whilst caring cycle repeats contract cancelled wifes statutory sick pay ish week parents money run out point chip us bit money food thats it weve fucked lives too cant pay rent bills loan repayments anything sort literally thing keeping us alive cats becom surrogate children me cleaning them feeding caring given reason get bed ampnspb sensible option us move parents try get jobs start fresh ourselves cant afford it house big enough us bedroom storage furniture things downside extra strain well putting them hugely allergic cats also two large dogs make home welcoming speak ampnspb saving grace brother law said would take one boys us pippin special us whilst favourite cat totally is got ill kitten nursed back health heart murmur lung condition weird obsession burning hismelf butt cannot explain understand despite this happiest loving cat ive ever met greets like dog always happy see people special us others two easily rehomable a gorgeous maine coon cross year old kitten one old boy suspect may cancer make easier idea one cats least us visit makes workable ampnspb today ring tell us cant take more option give away reasons live weve drained family everything systematically inserting lives job sickness record allow get another one money pay bills facing bailiffs collection managed sell possessions wife talk worried hearing cat would push edge hear mother im sure last straw,1 +old life everything almost everyone loved gone taken away know hope better die things holding back hurting mom thought dying like this things cannot worsen dead also cannot improve even try,1 +day ive made mistake didnt nut yesterday due sleepover im pain cant see fog thick cant see it im cold im scared must push through,0 +rd grade sister th grade whenever would look sister would always thing nerdy teachers pet days ago realized popular girl class everyone crush on know realize sooner every guy class used ask number one guys neighborhood switched schools could school sister like wtf,0 +wanna gonna scare creepy fucks dms now id say im minor sometimes fuck gonna now,0 +need end itive traveled seen world offer dont want apart it isnt life isnt going anywhere isnt friends isnt nobody loves me cant stay here place fucking disgusting dont strength deal it it,1 +expect permit test i live california im california resident taking permit test next monday ive practicing throughout lockdown attentive road signs parents drive id like say mildly good understanding everything yet finish little aaa booklet dad gave look over expect suggestions study prepare,0 +suicidal dont know why weeks ago friend commit redflag really fucked up ive bipolar life ever since happened feel like im disturbing thoughts dont feel depressed hopeless know people care time im overcome apathy want kill myself keep imagining good felt jumped left earth feel like someone trying convince cross side im confused dont know normal,1 +want get helpi want quick fixes want distract inevitable death want someone talk to sort problems situational existential nature want done ive reached hotlines ive gone therapybut useless cant even hold job let alone get one now debilitating depression low selfesteem want feel cold embrace death want experience last dying gasp cross emptiness nature become one firmament waste spacea machine longer function lost ability lost survive all machines anyway soulless world method conducting redflag finger buy button amazon speak least say used money something positive oh yeah student loans shove it ,1 +comfort friend basically hes feeling sadand thinks negatively himselfi dont rlly know right words comfort make feel betterhe thinks someone compliments himthat nothing special everyone could thinks hes dumb hates fact hes introverted said hes rlly bad communicating girlsbcs hes afraid whatever says would come weird unfunny also hates himselfhe said wanted cry reasonhe didnt mood anything help say,0 +redflag drowninghas anyone ever tried it,1 +really living one friend girlfriend chooses me never girlfriend ignored even try talk them tried make new friends guess something wrong nice talk never want hang ask point anymore living life alone it alone,1 +amazing people lowest low console othersall sit say same,1 +worth iti know is ive never thought anyone miss think would better go people told vent them waste dont particular problems know ill randomly get upset know people get worried sometimes like done anything bad yet annoying ill ever hear but sooooooooo lucky cant complain sometimes ill want take jump spite people ignoring me fucking know whats wrong me im scared go problem getting hurt self harm feel like different people one whiny spiteful brat sensitive piece shit know one hate more never ever eevevrr ever leave lone scream shout ear day long want everything shut go sleep,1 +wanna talk redflagsimple enough,1 +film left breathless wanting learn afghan history traditions todays evil doer mantra clouding reality inspirational experience beauty people beliefsbr br casting impeccable scenery simply marvelous acting first rate fact academy overlooked except music unforgivablebr br the script wonderful emotional journey provoking ugly cry watcherbr br a film worth watching second third time,0 +felt empathy like ill see something thatd make someone cry horrified im like,0 +mery chris hapy day holy,0 +useless loserdont know start this hate much wish could restart life wasted much time nothing little thing gives anxiety want kill dont want hurt anybody know much family cares me im biggest failure hate stupid gap teeth feel like everythings waste everyone works boring job die talents wish everyday never born dont know else say want take bunch pills end dont know whens right time every since could remember always felt would end eventually never thought would even make far always depressed lately ive lowest point wish made like everybody else dont enjoy anything life seems like waste matter look it never really posted anything shared anyone needed say this,1 +heyim really sure ive joined group im posting here reading posts really dont think anything complain about but life feels pointless good job friends dont particularly dislike alive im lonely bored never goes away matter do engage hobbies distract myself theyre always there lurking waiting moment distractions end ive suicidal thoughts since mid thirties now theyre pronounced ever already understand theyll go away point theyll also come back ive never actually happy moments im bored every dont feel lonely again even sure im posting this im rambling guess im craving attention dont want bother friends much kind talk anyway sorry writing much guess wanted vent thanks reading,1 +tried kill myselfi tried hanging boxing day went steps cant deal family anyway strung hung minutes felt lights going relieved never went unconscious kept hanging ended untying still confused know,1 +afraid dyingeven though pain want end dont really want die want pain endthats feel think subconsciously scared death otherwise wouldve already killed,1 +self harmi self harmed first time today know seemed appropriate time wish something live dont right seems like prolonging life problems seem much smaller everyone else,1 +looking fellow gamers hey im us play games primarily xbox pc ps games xbox got pc mw ps im currently really mw war zone open play game xbox tag noobilator steam noobilator psn nubber_scrubber im happy play anything platform unless dont game really expensive first time reaching find people play im sorry seem bit awkward first time favorite thing pc currently playing black ops mods games open play anything itd awesome anyone would add platform could start playing games,0 +kill myselfits fair cant kill would seriously hurt people care about fair want hurt anymore die finally find peace,1 +seriously need helpim sorry bad english point going kill myself know when ive trained karate seven years helped trough hard times recently started dating girl trained seven years family members train well girl got along pretty well im popular guy town first girl showed interest me first time life feeling better everything great dating months shit started fuck up told crush best friend do started blame it first girl ever showed interest me forgave said problem things always awkward best friend knew felt talk would advise break her want happy year anniversary breaks nowhere felt horrible absolutely traumatised best friend told crush guy couple weeks her get dumped soon better alternative comes along fast forward year still girls sends message thought maybe changed hooked again dated one month really thought could great relationship cheated me know care get really pissed tells family im huge asshole dickhead quit training karate one things liked life family hates me thats all dad raging alcoholic mum works day school sisters really care me thing drives life little brother love heart reason killed yet last hope guys ive taking depression medicine couple months tried talk psychologist told going phase end that cant talk family giving up,1 +bottle handsi going it none friends cared listen tried tell them theyre worried posted done am im called pathetic person petty apparently throw pity party life hard selfish bitch wants more give nothing return great glad know family sees me reason it family nope friends nope so yes no one best friend listened rant hour shit built past months tried tell people about listen tried therapy work tried let work one friend everything alive her,1 +ayudame por favor necesito ayuda en classe de espaol,0 +sooni think killing every single day always sinking feeling back mind deep chest every time something happens think automatically wont matter month everythings numb like im movie know people wouldnt care dont many friends ive moved home nothing feels worth anymore even feel somewhat normal always comes back dont think ill make christmas,1 +kill meyeah thats,1 +sorry millionth post night writing mepeople would say given good life would they chose destroy it every day live exact opposite want could change not depression excuse one ruined life over me one keep ruining life forever people never get better one them looks thinking streets might bad least wlnt pay bills might comradery people sick me cannot exist among normals used goals dreams shit realized give two fucks happens life guess better person would carpe diem bad person exist anymore depression,1 +im wellim thinking killing time im severely mentally ill ive lost therapist friends job leave apartment medications working appointment see psychiatrist next wednesday spontaneously wrapped vacuum cleaner cord around throat pulled tight get sensation asphyxiation lot sleeping pills keep thinking downing lot alcohol duct taping mouth shut hoping id pass vomit choke unconscious access gun id shoot head right without hesitation,1 +uk mental health care fucking incompetentnhs treated badly resorted private therapy stopping seeing im depressed turn back nhs nhs psychiatrist show emotion takes phone calls appointments tried see community psychiatric nurse left waiting doctor office hours forgot tried telephone appointment see psychologist guess forgot given hope fucking useless good thing im killing next week,1 +full length feature film world bridge found first minutes bit slow that movie absolutely perfect describing professional bridge players go earning living br br some scenes funny think nonbridge player would get charm movie br br some dresses really beautiful pity movie black white imagine would look like color way media portrayed absolutely hilarious way earth bridge ever like that br br watch soon can tell friends it,0 +hate myselfi hate fucking much human garbage vermin must exterminated complete failure every level without talent intelligence personality humor success purpose without anything really without value actually thats wrong negative value waste resources others actual need could use bitch moan expense around me id wasting time anyone reads anyway pathetic sense also thusfar failed myself thusfar failed kill myself understand people could enjoy existence understand one could love themselves atleast could wanna die badly know deserve im destined cant stop fucking stalling time like bitch,1 +generation alphas nickname generations nicknames like gen y millienials baby boomers silent generation know generation alpha generation comes us gen z heres thing shorten generation z gen z means shorten generation alpha gen alpha alpha also shortened letter a gen a say gen a loud tell call gump generation,0 +difference makewe gonna die someday anyways,1 +last dayim thinking ending everything tomorrow th march completes circle i find satisfying reasonon birthday ill dont know feel like thats end,1 +fuckgod hate fucking life,1 +suck life suck dyingits frustrating dont want alive everything difficult dont find happiness life medication doesnt work nothing works im bad killing shitty im still here like world establishing im bad everything cant even let one thing want right ah fuck,1 +theres light end tunnel dont think reach itive lost esteem lately dreams medical field crushed feels like ive fallen deeper hole students grade destroyed self esteem parents arguing lot father gets mad random points calls useless dog going put down reason im ending guitar keeping ive partially given that end it,1 +much even cost admitted hospital mention redflag therapyso yeah im thoughts again sisters boyfriend real irl friend died month ago sister still little upset it cant really talk anyone suicidal thoughts feel like would bad taste therapist appointment coming november honestly doubt ill last long though dunno much hospitalization would cost admitted dunno im huge sad rn,1 +feel freei feel like killing,1 +oh no another suicidal formerly gifted kidwho needs another one right also formerly gifted formerly kid want get pedantic so hope ready hear white privileged kid whine buckle boys gonna long one heres short story academic life early remember odd smarter peers oddly serious early on mothers day year told mom probably best mom world would impossible measure lol socially distant indoorsy tagged gifted program since st grade honors classes middle school ap classes high school ultimately graduated cum laude along like half class lol received special certificate averaging ap classes hell got act national merit semifinalist guess what even try seldom homework never studied tests closest thing preparation act jerk school bathroom ten minutes started someone much promise much obvious talent much intelligence today why year old college drop out depressed even employed collecting disability us government barely able remember basic words likely dead months else so get there well that were gonna take another trip back time looking academia bit microscope interested hearing internet strangers uninteresting college years feel free skip ahead bolded words first thing know ive therapy various points life starting like said odd kid wound talking lot death dying age got first trip mental health care worker never really helped so major parts story senior year suicidal thoughts really kicked notch basically stopped smiling point angry irritable realized sent application get anywhere id probably wind killing myself gf pretty cool though know relationship make better holy shit helps grades slipping bit slipping as bs noticeable people including parents eventually slew rejections wait listing set sights high suppose got accepted relatively high end university university several friends girlfriend yay hooray considered getting married ultimately decided break college let chance grow end wanted get married would time would friends benefits turned pretty good course action she deep down were roommates good friends romantic inclination towards other hes easily smartest guy know truly respect him moving college first thing make appointment psychiatrist got meds figured depressing thoughts would go away nope went meds freshman year college alone none shit also saw therapist simultaneously gave honest try also nope suggested walk my year old self pretend i was really taking care imaginary year old me sounded dumb tried sure enough dumb oh happening failing every class easy as art criticism class media studies gen eds get high school getting bs in turns out breezing everything previously left absolutely incapable even minor effort put grades oops second semester rolls around actually fail every class wind involuntary committed admitting friend seriously considering redflag one dollar hospital bill and another useless pill added cocktail later announce intent take leave absence take care mental health move back dad year starting summer obamacare full swing still considered dependent covered right wrong turns dear old dad idea fill form written lowest common denominator neglected inform insurance company me involuntary hospitalization round comes around september unsuccessfully attempt kill myself a brief aside know quote guy jumped golden gate bridge as soon jumped realized problems fixable except jumped yeah feel anything like that get method sufficed say moments think thing entered mind alright go woke up moment regret either feel anything laid floor half hour feeling thinking nothing eventually got up cleaned mess went back watching tv fact terms redflag regrets regret attempt failed ive felt regret every single day since another useless drug another dollar hospital bill meeting sliding scale therapist psychiatrist got sessions in made progress soon forced return school way early choice wanted medical care gave school another solid semester finally throwing towel failing classes yet again hospitalization number time voluntary going reason now see year took off discovered something important myself turns absolutely cannot degree unskilled labor mean temperament refuse pretend happy patience rude customers question authority especially arbitrary corporate authority constantly finally cant stand work pointless menial im convinced camus claimed see sisyphus smiling man ever worked retail oh im also lazy know inclined say no depressed executive dysfunction lazy assure you lazy depression laziness not experience mutually exclusive but theres always plan b arm full medical paperwork residual student loans keeping afloat set get disability anybody whos process knows difficult is likely rejected face even incredible evidence got first attempt months yet another stroke luck wasted lazy idiot and thats pretty much now if thought long edited around additional paragraphs going grade school middle school days along aspects pointless life story ive made real changes progress since ive stagnated last years sex years job in well pretty much ever least nothing lasted two weeks ive made token attempts get help avail life experience taught things hard work success correlated odd know think take away opposite ide considering laziness pretty much got flunked college really seen pan elsewhere mother father worked asses build good lives end significantly worse off hard work trying get better way helped thing ive learned psychology really science therapists clue actually help psychiatrists mostly guessing lessons hard learned medications different families antidepressants plus atypical antipsychotic now may looking thinking thats great all actually suicidal honestly im entirely sure im basically miserable nothing brings pleasure joy nothing feels meaningful hell things barely even feel real everything annoys me people seem slow dull get frustrated sometimes downright mad look around world shit everything monitored monotized marketed parasocial relationships weird bizarrely intermingled capitalism branding companies try obfuscate friendly individuals behind sassy twitter messages paying workers peanuts know ceo wendys major trump supporter bullshit bootstrap mentality omnipresent attempting point institutionalized flaws system means looking excuses days ago phones keyboard started displaying microsofts name reason even type im advertised at world morphed comical exaggeration they live feels like anytime try show someone like minute long fight scene they live want guy put god damn glasses oh said before sex years face that knowledge that realistically theres much anything change face apathetic majority see redflag bad idea yes family friends sad honestly job keep happy anymore job keep happy thats imposition impose them id hope me ive set date best friend roommate former so finishes last semester school know death absolutely destroy him im sorry will but going happen want degree fall back recovers leave think probably best microcosm life back friend dating would go every dance together stand socially awkward generally bored them neither could he since dresses uncomfortable made feel wrong though time understand never told me senior year prom coming up seriously considering going something else even nothing asked dad advice said you go never know might like it even like ones proms different special besides your so wants go her even enjoy time look back glad went sucked went hated it bad every dance big hotel ballroom hated well would later tell me went because well thing do day im glad went ultimately feels like people tangentially related got anything it people directly involved knew pointless life lot like that lots people really idea want telling keep living future benefit one except negligibly related close know want feel obligated participate keeping alive vague idea theyre supposed do finally really want it,1 +going th grade sick tired fucking girls hating nothing walking near one accidentally touch hand say sorry scream ew blake touched hand wtf wrong people kill get someone send hand scream again school,1 +ok im going sleep fml hope tomorrow feel better good night yall good day,0 +actual questions straight people like frogs no get immediately,0 +trust anyonei lost trust everyone close me stupid enough tell do im stupid,1 +im gonna choose someone comments force crush go,0 +ghost say feminist,0 +die jump story buildingi need relief get text back boyfriend today im killing tomorrow bushes window im scared might die jump im sure though need answers help,1 +emergency protocol germanyis anyone tell standard procedure germany call emergency services im close redflag something helpful would rather dead call emergency services,1 +gonna actin,0 +hey never thought would somehow ended here really need let someone guess summarymy dad got covid recently yes shit going wrong mom tried best gave medicine listen always gave reason mom gave medically approved altho many people use medicine mom gave himit days fights quarrel name it there family economy also great since need buy vitamins order make feel better altho listen act whatever wanti want help family tried invest share always make loss nearly impossible start business since feel bad ask money start small business want burden family economy morei knows guys feel like suicide da wae sigh knowi literally plan suicide woud cutting warm water listening rem end worldanyways guys feel free comment anything whatever is sorry grammar mistakes since main language stay safe guys ltps agnostic really believe religion people says god provide way know seems way provide suicide least nowi mentally finesorry whining guys dad got covid shit going wrng ever since,1 +deserve painive gotten back burning myself deserve pain im disgusting human being,1 +film entertaining excellent comedic acting also interesting politically made end soviet union makes fun soviet mentality through story set early days soviet union questions rationale behind revolution cultural practical terms course late s early s bizarre strictures soviet society already relaxed ideology mentality still alive well ready welldeserved deconstruction happily deep philosophical commentary wrapped funny entertaining packagebr br jur,0 +nobody gives crap meive lost friends past year got dumped gf last year nobody checks me girls dont even wanna talk me im lonely dont think take much longer im tired praying dont believe god anymore every time pray brings 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assassination way hit hard found choked every time heard voice ive heard speak before course way used speeches made feel like understood message way id never thought aboutbr br what say movie heavy statistics war oppression plea compassion end credits crawl would usually be fact theres credits film access selecting features somehow made think lot cant say enough dvd brilliant,0 +putting date really made feel betternye decied would end life jan life depression gotten better dont know closer get date less feel knowing depression really helps get thru days,1 +saying lyrics song day one everything said went right head head went right head keep trynna text leave messages read read leave em read fuck em end best freind instead instead best freind instead spent million dollars fell bed bed fell bed dont understand dont understand thay aint hot switch blink eye cant copy see talk topic got babys man life good odyssey wings uptop mother fuckin pull big big chanaleys double c channel feet dnt know whats really seat oversized play boy made tea bad bitch pull ridin jeep got freind passengers seat fuck g treating rari like srt one one tell want cause babe intention seek real baby like could leave also need time breath know wasent honest cause im big dog chasing fleas everything said went right head head went right head keep trynna text leave messages read read leave em read fuck em end best freind instead instead best freind instead spent million dollars fell bed bed fell bed couldnt match flight top speed im far outta league came creek came streets spent ten mil one piece got eights nines dimes tens quarters patek philippe california miami downsouth peice im turbo ride phocahantas meltin ice cream im like tickin time bomb blowing reality yeah gotta juice prove yeah buy boxes buy boobs buy boots like christian loubs switched white girl barely new im sending fire every block aint safe nomore im hot blow like nitro till see fireworks sky cant say belong streets fuck cause im guy dont comprehend cant see eye eye everything said went right head head went right head keep trynna text leave messages read read leave em read fuck em end best freind instead instead best freind instead spent million dollars fell bed bed fell bed,0 +baby tarantulas cute wowies,0 +see everyone despising quarantine couple weeks imagine living lifenobody wants friends eventually ghost dont know done deserve that maybe im good enough world want die one cares way really wouldnt matter go,1 +best gun ever videogames awp power flicks,0 +required reallymy eyes burn weeping clawing hand weeps too walls around closing in suffocating im going die here prison mind prison mirrors merciless,1 +ive watching stick poke tutorials think im going it know body already pretty fucked up going effect badly im pretty good making sure wounds get infected think pretty safe it im going start getting allowance soon think ill buy right type ink small first aid kit think want couple small flowers stars upper thighs,0 +feel stupidi feel stupid coming online forum help im pretty desperate cant stop crying shaking want stop dozens paragraphs back story bore with ive suffered depression long remember past weeks and especially last days pure torture im kind person refuses go friends help want feel bad put awkward positionbut mostly think help me hopeless life nothing one im alone cant remember ever bad know do,1 +add heart message im sending friend name day today which big day country wrote like message wish good luck shit like add end,0 +i really wish could dispersal attempted redflag times yesterday eaten day barely hours sleep last night self harming crying day,1 +alr questionnaire timee school whats favorite color always favorite color least favorite color many colors u think of answer u lt,0 +lot thought past year matter hard try cant find reason want keep livingim yo guy put still diagnosed think pretty clear depression social anxiety years now started cutting around everything started couple days ago even something happens barely get sad get angry hate everything around even more almost every day think killing want live world anymore think fucked getting books movies games feel completely empty excitement life feel like itd help immensely could manage get girlfriend something ive started talking not really girl seems like likes physically cant believe matter hard try somebody actually likes me think friends friends pity even disgust looking mirror could friends say im attractive possibly telling truth ive already tried experimenting ibuprofen mg knew anything wanted see could feel anything kinda want help ive mostly lost faith somewhere inside feel like normal break free depression fuck me point im almost crying nothing happening cant cry able cry months now god kidding want fucking die even though hate every bit want fix everything want good school again make friends again leave house every awhile all girlfriend want nearly kill forced accept help find myself ive thought trying hang cut rope ive thought cutting deep nearly die anything else close downing whole bottle pills want help none matters even get help ill fall back depression nobody love point im sorry wasting anybodys time wont fucking save myself im going slowly go deeper deeper im point return really sorry wasting time edit thinking girl briefly mentioned somewhere middle makes want cry really really like like said think actually feels anything me cant make move im fucking awkward stupid know friday and winter break starts passes done anything ill lost chance completely even less reasons live know wrote either stupid,1 +finally change flair feels surreal definitely best birthday ever even everything going far hope yall stay safe celebrate birthdays years come,0 +preparing kill jan transferring cash bitcoin use darknet hate pain plan bunch oxy probably fent press itll job friends family care theyre city doesnt change fact ill always alone single shadow former self good career means nothing end barely bring office anymore waiting get fired remove stress,1 +im road trip give good karaoke music like dont cringe,0 +high efforted title much word wants wholesome award ive wish dispose,0 +public redflag im going kill myself soon eventually thing really want parents siblings one find know image never leave head painless quick way die public ,1 +kolchak night stalker hugely entertaining tv series pushy sarcastic fortysomething reporter repeatedly drawn mortal combat supernatural and occasionally extraterrestrial forces based popular pair tv movies featuring kolchak character series died quick death mids due low ratings nevertheless maintains strong cult following today average modernday viewer able dig kolchak weekly clashes undead br br thats actually tough question answer fairly detractors series tend argue formulaic hopelessly dated hand fans argue cleverly written wellacted sometimes genuinely spooky me ive got foot camps thoroughly enjoyed watching episodes kolchak dvd recently though plainly see series major flawsbr br ill address question kolchak formula fiction first now think agree tv shows formulas every episode columbo unfolds according pattern example repetition necessarily bad thing itself fact critics long recognized audiences often enjoy actively seek out repetitive entertainment however problem kolchak formula simply rigid repetitive even generous standardsbr br in almost every episode kolchak investigates murder figures committed form monster tries publish story said monster editor vincenzo blocks him always grounds kolchak sufficient evidence support claims supernatural forces work and alas kolchak also obstructed police so end kolchak independent research monster figures kill it kills it without ceremony reward writing big story itbr br you see eversostrict formula might get tiresome right im particularly mystified vincenzo kolchaks always raving monsters vincenzo never believes it well then vincenzo fire kolchak committed thats normal boss would do series eschews realism prefers keep vincenzo kolchak comical antagonists result many scenes together profoundly unbelievable though also quite funnybr br the best episodes kolchak manage vault limitations formula however usually contain kind unexpected twist select episodes good enough think theyre largely immune typical criticisms series favorites include br br horror heights episode thats noteworthy grimy inventive socially aware kolchaks dialog unusually sharp cynical edge though adheres closely kolchak formula script written hammer studios veteran jimmy sangster remarkably literate delves deeply monsters backstorybr br the devils platform possible inspiration omen films episode stands villain young tom skerritt tempts kolchak satanic contract full goodies and doing reveals lot reporters character br br firefall episode appears bad reputation among fans enjoyed got great red herring really creepy almost unstoppableseeming monsterbr br though ive singled three episodes praise id say stories entertaining least money two complete turkeys episode run primal scream monkeymen running rampant chicago sentry features dumbestlooking creature makeup history filmed entertainment and assessment coming lifelong doctor godzilla fan br br on balance then good series little repetitive little cheesy perhaps elements greatness even weaker episodes darren mcgavins wonderful performance caustic worldweary endlessly funny kolchak truly shines carries series effortlessly way that example sarah michelle gellar never managed buffy mcgavin one great character actor series worth watching alone,0 +anyone advice pussying last minutei know sub promoting redflag need know,1 +written stone disney animations simply must musicals right where show me found attempt much enjoyable not containing hokey madeforfiveyearold standard disney musical fare br br while story enthralling could been still quite good enjoyable adventurous hoped bit more yes considering subject matter movie not bitter disappointment utter failure billed be br br the animation quality average dialog quite compelling story line plot subplot amazing creativity found within production refrain outlining plot done done movie well worth view fan fantasybr br this is opinion best disney animated feature length filmbr br it rates frombr br the fiend ,0 +so really feel like writing big long post moment think saw someone else this imma points rather proper sentences such feel like atrocious friend never around people much used be also never know talk friends anymore like share interests anymore way cannot talk anymore work plus also think trying really hard improve myself never really seems make much difference second start actually trying always late rules put place make effort useless anyways plus feel safe room makes feel kind pathetic feel safe even anything bad really great parents genuinely hurt way shape form time bit edge like morning know fact everyone asleep cannot really anymore stayed late messed up cannot stay later besides sleep schedule getting pretty bad probably best even want things used make happy anymore tired drawing tired writing tired minecraft tired sing going therapist literally everything supposed to honest be something new always pops halfway week always looming redflag helped like all sometimes tired even try talking people shut down read crappy fanfiction bed hours get eat make happy even honestly tired everything close giving caring,1 +question eastern european millennials lot babies unlike western millennials,0 +normal avoid cousins connect other see point really like this usually ones started first ie inviting outings together cousins probably im youngest one excluding family gatherings remember time desperately wanted go begged join used desperately wanted join them seems like tables turned theyre ones trying include me im one wanting to really like join much though theyve started open try hang out hell try sit beside avoid eye contact them talk minimally them although family gatherings routinely,0 +essay essay im worried one page come statistics would great fill quiz real quick questions one required thanks httpsformsgleznyevvbyckcoqmkhttpsformsgleznyevvbyckcoqmk,0 +reason im herei know it though feels scary,1 +water fountain cause want put lips make sick,0 +not birthday whatever wantits birthday im level survived fucking years ive depressed long remember cant recall happy memories never gf never many real friends years since last saw old friends moved on lives moved cities study old high school crush wished happy birthday told go friends friends irl online friends never met irl social anxiety let make new friends or least thats excuse im high school see working hours week again much hope future die now leave much behind parents brother upset probably never forget redflag cant live satisfy them know today would nice birthday wish someone would kill without pain maybe give gift,1 +feel like life pointlessi always issues suicidal ideation last time went hospital almost swallowed handful klonopin got scared didnt turns cant even overdose klonopin wouldnt worked regardless anyways bipolar disorder mood goes quite often however zoloft helped stay neutral weeks ive dropped back ive huge urges cut really bad suicidal thoughts dont want die also dont want live makes sense dont interest much even fun things much less work try build career want lay bed try forget life real years old need get shit together dont drive dont interest life doesnt appeal me,1 +questionable advice teacher yesterday last day real life school bulgaria back lockdown sucks english teacher started ranting low score class last test end rock serious face said something concerned me words students lost motivation study online school cant find way gain back lay die teaching years got thinking say thing y olds like aspecially us depression mental problems,0 +make poll add polls rteenagers oh wait,0 +feel like drawing something ill draw whatever top comment nothing nsfw,0 +gorgeous movie visually images mexican desert old mansion characters picturesque costumesall amount real work artbr br the story seems bit loose thats meant realistic taken book called one hundred years solitude supposed evocation isolated otherworldly atmosphere latin america so far god close united states tremendous debt erendira owes grandmother symbolic latin americas international debt burden although many layers meaningbr br if appreciate slowmoving richlytextured movie one you,0 +hardim stayed home school today swallowed one pill far cant bring finish bottle cant anymore dont know im still,1 +thanks subreddit rdepression decided kill myselfbut still need help one last time hi dear rredflagwatchhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatch thanks many redditors commented rdepressionhttpswwwredditcomrdepression decided stay around bit fight kill myselfnow confront parents repeat first year college just second semester dont know tell huge new mean brothers passed first years easilyand father got back hospital like last monthim afriad tell get worse time im afriad hear uni think lying themwhich even worse maybe bring back bad memories,1 +yall talking nut november many people shave november,0 +future isnt brighti feel empty like shell used be feel like everything matter like people care matter feel like everything falling apart like events happening things cannot control yet suffer consequences control ive tried go therapy ive tried medication nothing works cant fix it im afraid point may get best me,1 +really need someone vent person wouldve talked dumped,0 +first teenager ok say movie pretty good think kid ten like it people age might little um a well wed describe movie lame liked it may still act like kid visit cattle farm every weekend movie cute like actors like kids little blonde cutesy pies wearing three layers clothes trendy hat thousand assecories like shows today name few drake josh lizzie mc guire well kid show setting perfect flaw family debt right world internal house look like something western versace store one flawbr br the cameos great theres five hundred them explainable one julia roberts main little girls aunt world get everyone else movie seemed tight type budgetbr br i liked movie fun one watch thought parts far fetched like cow selling ha butt cow sells much otherwise good liked it could watch again id never buy it theres even special features dvd whats that rent it especially little kids running around house,0 +best forums get help suicidal thoughts anonymouslyim posting bit much wanted know anyone suggestions forums maybe small substitute therapy since im wait list,1 +feel defeatedum hey reddit guess failed class held back me im struggling depression past years ive hospital severe depression self harm top mother making move florida away friends girlfriend people really live for care ive talked numerous times feel like killing would easier way out try tell otherwise,1 +single tear fell cheek slowly walked aisle bidding starts hundred thousand said man microphone,0 +job k student debt got word one collection agency taking court im done lifei depressed though college thing kept going i get degree obvious easy see end goal kept going classes got degree thought killing myself years time ive made almost progress briefly job starbucks quit that im home eating obesity making payments loans generally feeling like shit gotten point got served court papers one loans im afraid that literally money bank account nothing take me care credit which must years delinquency loans guess court papers made remember fuck ive since ive sitting computer pretty much exclusively last years trying entertain youtube music stuff keep away dark thoughts maybe sign long enough putting off,1 +help boy friends something talk whether k followers tiktok k subs youtube wanna ask boys girls help blow up wanna able say clout,0 +want get done with courage pull off makes even hopeless see paradox fucking sucks courage go it,1 +sympathy advice million people shouting darkness internet thought one lasts acts would add voice cacophony think web one day become sentient yell us voice hear noise worst something like whalesong best forever unable decipher message about reason another reason perhaps person might able learn mistakes begin brief history born christian parents first memories ozarks father program become minister one day left gone quite time mother i living small trailer began starve father returned two children boy eleven girl ten disneyworld several months wealthy mother starved became homeless children previous marriage mother idea even existed memory goes almost completely blank five years next memory raped older stepbrother seveneight sixteen ish always physically strong managed sort of fight off showing resistance step siblings sat together methodically broke couple fingers memory vague pretty sure incident type lived major city time projects parents spent time evangelising unemployed waiting assignment church long another child way younger brother spent next years trying best raise brother bouncing place place father unusually terrible job fired often would end new church really sure exactly parents never around age fourteen almost employed fulltime several jobs parents divorced paid bills provided food tried make decent go high school strong pretty athletic well football while classroom another matter spent and still do time reading anything everything midwestern classrooms taught lowest student became bored quit school attend dualcredit college classes battery tests loved academia met girl fell love three half years went wrong girl dumped mother thought would great marry truckdriver run leaving brother fend himself quit school return home became drugdealer survive also became quite addicted heroine one step ahead law one day vanish took now almost adult brother me got clean poison fully entrenched younger brother failings take credit for struggles day addiction time work menial grid kind stuff could get work all sure legal status long ago sure mountain debt student loans trying get without support long ago younger brother called said i ms need help children moved discover watch slow painful death imagine reality less pain associate reality myself tried professional help tell nearly sociopath capacity kind feeling exception younger brother gone collection pills put sleep forever take soon think best become monstrous know post interesting even slightest importantly helpful anyone around questions question would benefit please askyou literally cant bother me,1 +yo im possibly worst birthday life cant even take permit test till february yay,0 +feel naked unprotected different therapist even know want go therapy session im confused unbelievable anyone guys ever experienced selfconfusion help finding again appointment even yet made im already freakin it feel kinda like idiot right now,1 +happy christmas people happy christmas hope yall good one fillllllllllllllllllllllllller,0 +ppl ever leave second know u suicidali wonder whats scary ppl suicidal thoughts ppl leave always arent attached u anyways zero intentions real bond u first ure best ure psycho,1 +killing compressed airokay cleaned computer compressed air label say whole bunch stuff like dont breath in dont eat dont shake stuff would make dangerous feel like wouldnt hurt much im sure like held upside spray liquid mouth would hurt obviously itd cold possible gaseous form would due good way go,1 +whiny teenager know startuuuuuuh okay probably begin stating im know experienced significant hardship live comfortably lost anyone close where lost euphemism death experienced abuse anything like that loving family really legitimate reason feel way cant explain it welcome tell feelings result normal teenage mood changes would like believe are im sorry pain read ive decided best way put everything bullet points guess ask things want know about way im hopefully ranting on diagnosed anxiety bullied finding difficult talk anyone lonely unhappy selfharming cutting last two years frequent thoughts redflag real reason this really know im hoping achieve typing go would like talk someone reddit feel alone,1 +dear reddit im gay soooo recently ive questioning sexuality ive come conclusion im homosexual friend group knows parents dont tell eventually dont think need know yet maybe theyll even find own thank reading,0 +im broken nothing ever enough keep smilingi feel alone even surrounded people put much weight seemingly unattainable romantic relationship im miserable people love me family friends good career nothing ever enough im broken last week ive heart broken ive stood up ive humiliated bar random girl feigning interest know whats inherently wrong im depressed anxious awkward guess thats enough it im never relationship outside that ive never even sex shitty part even know get experience every girl talk runs away realize idea im doing want feel love comes romantic relationship friends suggested get escort help personally know one apparently sweet affectionate gorgeous cant it real actually want someone want sex me paid them im far behind ill never catch up wake everyday think killing myself get pain anger inside know alleviate harming destroying things around me though every time latter work feel empty before recently gotten bad cant think anyway feel better killing myself hurts much keep going im afraid death would people like said happy have grateful ive tried hard focused good happy matter cant am try smile bring others down killing me ill never get better im broken,1 +im taking easy way outi see way dont see point going anymore never anybody never be second plummet bridge cure depression,1 +number game nothing hide worst numbers game text version weekend numbers game thingy yo guys made the numbers game text format could weekends too the basics age gender height weight zodiac sign first name last name middle name birthday main languages hobbiesfavorite things favorite color favorite food favorite activity favorite music genre favorite artist favorite song favorite movie favorite video game if any favorite tv show play sports last thing lifeexperience currently job future jobcareerambitions dranksmoked anything done drugs pets favorable memory embarrassing moment dream vacation many family members many friends plan going collegeuniversity social media use social media reddit follow ever internet argument used social media app whats username app met friends online follow nsfw accountspages last person dmdfollowed last message sent many followersfriends social media amount time use social media personal belongings expensive thing anything prized possession anything embarrassing weirdest thing anything popular anything considered rich anything futuristic coolest thing oldest thing buyget recently appearancelooks hair style halr length hair color nice body style ethnicity wearing eye color wearing makeup type underwear wear favorite outfit facialbody hair relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush ever cheated someone ideal girlfriendboyfriend idea perfect date asked someone hope relationship interested anyone real lifeonline date sex amp sexuality virgin ever seen anyone naked piercingtattoos ever samesex expirence ever sent nude ever sexted ever kissed anyone aftractive ever slept together want sex straight bi gaylesbian pan etc sexual welcome spicy town bradick size pubic hair natural trimmed shaved none body hair guys only circumcised often masturbate ever watched porn ideal sexualphysical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turn onsturn offs kinks ideal sexual position masturbate toy ever caught masturbating ever walked someone sex biggest fears sex stds often horny embarrassing sexual story currently horny expect sexual relationship academicsschool go school classes take grade favorite teacher least favorite teachers highest gradelowest grade classes long school day homework tests quizzes exams coming last bad grade last good grade economic statuswealth richpoor stand wealth class working class wealth owner class big house take picture house much parents make parents struggle debt pool above groundbelow ground live gated neighborhood expensive stuff big room kind school go misc send selfie whatever say no saying no dm,0 +yolonelysevere anxietygonna bullet suck writing severe anxiety got school never full year mom forcing go back school th least get ged severe anxiety ruins life barely leave house agoraphobia multiple panic attacks day poor scared therapy option working out bother poor burden mom living abusive controlling father mom struggling afford divorce leave lots family stress low self esteem hard time enjoying anything trying anything literally money name ask food tp father make much money government support want bullied want physically hurt harassed high enough gay percentage make likely lmao ex gf may manipulative violent shit remember thing poor shoes apparently got kicked stalked around hallway guy thought funny make fun poor girl less dollar shoes one friend online cant really deal suicidal asleep suicidal crushs kik working says phone disconnected three days panicking okay electric bath bed im freezing heater try make social media get upset seeing shows whatnot literally care aboutbeause hate everything literally nothing interests me everything boring trying cbt fear exposure ladders helping much want remember meditate exercise studydo online eduational things prepare moms kind hoarder makes life harder constantly argue hate litthe brother fucking much wish qasnt born hes brainwashed father minion step dad ok makes much pervy jokes speaking pervy nofap com goals butits hard especially trauma self harm honestly stopping harder injuring sharp things tbh actually many things wanna care ride horses garden write novels open vegan resturant study stemrobotics learn roller skate personal im pretry sprititual atheist family im always scared talk abt reincarnation stuff like that feel alone that constantly making space fairy jokes etc future goals thats far want happy im scared blood trauma thats killed yet severe hypochondria fear body medical trauma past similar like conspiracy theories mandela effects etc horror writing stories water color painting harry potter flying witch cute anime cheers prlly lots issues want feel good enough least lay calm enough sleep past midnight phone ill leave blanket nest took long time make get charger game show music shut fuck,1 +reason rule good find superman x batman gay porn animated videos,0 +former gifted child case again dissapoint parents show think anymore maybe stop high expectations me show terrible be man terrible kid thinking way deserve horrible gifted got lucky disappointment deserve trash kid like deserve better part wants make parents proud time want disappoint finally see really,1 +someone kill mecaution come anything advice topic dont bother posting wanna hire thug someone like kill me look much would costetc,1 +feel trapped pathetici cant go single day without feeling stupid disgusting deserve anything anyone im horrible person feel like burden everyone around me theres nothing im good depression made indifferent everything younger used like reading cant even concentrate reading single chapter whenever someone asks hobby never know answer reality either sit dark feeling horrible watch youtube videos distract myself kind hobby that im particularly good school either hard study depression cant fucking focus motivation non existent ive tried make feel better venting ways drawing writing self harming nothing makes feel better,1 +terrible place typical relationship issueim bad place redditers think need help ive drinking non stop wrote redflag notes followed with went gpa average college student failing classes quarter relationship thought best her played wasnt planning proposing june things took turn worst ended things breakup wrecking me recently met trip los angeles im broken know let slip hands feel terrible going much heartbreak wanting kill want cause harm people told never date ever get married usually id think im crazy feel like want disappear world worst part still trying talk her get mine love feel like making harder move on year old male ready leave world one needs here do,1 +im sorryi cant anymore really really want it im tired eating disordered eating habits lack self love super low self esteem matter damn much hate much want kms dont dont want hurt others cant suffering head everyday im exhausted,1 +recently finished missing assignments filler text filler text filler text filler text filler text,0 +male depressed couple months following split gfwe split up fault texting girls found out im dealing piece crap hurt much drinking every night since makes numb wanna stay numb ever think would better wassnt around,1 +anyone christian actually still believes god day age please tell either a leave fuck aloneb transport back simply belong like years ago basically truly believe made mistake placing day age orc fucking send hell already depressed ass probably rightfully belongsanyone still christian here trying insult anybody is are truly believe god proud you glad gave good life truly am unfortunately everybody human creation simply give shit about lease ask either kill outright fucking help not really care amore point either way probably killing soon anyways gods will message god loves,1 +doim going try summarize much can apologize wording things clearly know potential create great things never time keep discovering barriers people build prevent kind overall progression sake personal gain spend slow periods work programming ways completely automate certain tasks see jobs done programmatically people know possible how could computer person does start every project question how person it how achieved life see fairly clearly advances accessible technology make peoples lives much fulfilling including drastically improving quality life disabilities still flipping burgers cant people see in us building walls keep actually getting anything done whoever builds wall makes little bit money everyone must climb it cant people stop trying make money nothing spending downtime work learning working projects own spending time home working still give little hope pointless tasks carry day day job exist for obvious advantagous learning every day is become disgusting material people be feel also background design spent quite long time also learning build whatever needed several different forms something broke make new one learn works piece element mean much you make new one x y z making gain valuable skills bring even value thing already cherish much see explosive potentialthat know everyone absolutely incredible things future humanity cant people see money equal time spent working time spent working directly equal money spend things distract much dislike work never felt work meaningless seems options either take advantage others money taken advantage of im tired rat race tired it longer bothered people cause disruption society cutting line swerving traffic screaming children clearly taught screaming childs ears matter anymore think got point life point try best make right decision based past experiences victims circumstance happens longer feel obligated feel negativity towards people never amount anything unless find solution open eyes this fucking beautiful world fingertips every moment day cant make see this use quarrel know reveal world people know get cycle workwork greater goodbe interrupted workworkmaintain sanityworkwork greater good loop nothing would make happier dedicating entire life writing programs help nerve damage amputees even paralysis able explore wonders using brain computer interfacing take back control lives nothing would make happier kissing cutting edge ai machine learning even spending time writing code assist tedious jobs know easy would someone write code making role much easier fulfilling focused nothing would make happier designing delivering little science projects kits required colaborative problem solving door door help communities realize need hide inside day nothing would make happier able help us realize solve problems life need keep prisoner playing bullshit guessing games toying others minds order move forward nothing would make happier waking every morning problem idea solve determination discipline ideal view future would give fuel keep pushing forward im years ive told things get better years ive making predictions myriad little evils churn society greedy engine cant help see now every prediction made true know convince someone find greater happiness outside whole world told operate really clue starting believe never able find solution problem nothing ever made afraid need help know anymore im losing meaning ive come learn,1 +goodbyeits late ever want talk cant help set free,1 +exam today cant even get bed mild ventingive struggling selfconfidence matter much put never achieve it want anymore hate hate myself im good enough this yesterday okay day fine stressed fine ive relationship almost year im still shit gf cant believe says make happy cheer ever remember pissing off sometimes even believe says i love you,1 +im tired scaredi need leave husband reasons might immediately think theres nothing wrong him need work courage leave him kill myself cant keep going like this,1 +die fall second story window as one ground floorwhat land head,1 +goodbye amp thank youmy ex girlfriend years left hours ago watched leave knowing never come back knowing never see feel again always knew day would come however would deny deep inside prepared happen next life therefore decided time finish adventure here would like thank ex girlfriend girlfriend best friend amazing person supporting me accepting following around world truly deserve amazing person life travelled played video games suffered achieved many things together planned whole future together excited unfortunately something changed something flipped switch head decided longer going part future love felt gone chance try fix it made decision left quickly time react always knew ever lost would longer able live life carry on knew would completely dead inside energy motivation continue move on one person really helped life gave reason get every morning work love much person wanted spend rest life with gone thank sharing years life me travelling creating amazing memories together could asked better person nobody ever able replace you would also like thank father allowing amazing childhood allowing amazing relationship ex helped us go explore world encouraged us follow dreams matter what thankful father cared much invested much time making sure life great was last person would like thank sister giving somewhere stay looking tough moments life never got tell much amazing sister really are know really hurt please understand need do know cause lot pain longer live like this ex true love person could really talk to something funny show going tough times fought hard get were love different everyday special waking next seeing face gave much happiness could write much feel want get finish need say quickly life unfair one moment flying clouds next struggling get bed make breakfast even shower feeling way killing me ive never felt sad life know get better matter much try longer love life giving energy decided time right pull plug accept people handle better others years planet last spent best years life really fun longer accept fact us things building causing much pain cant face family tell happened cant open phone without seeing pictures videos together every seconds memory pops head makes cry instantly time come leave awful place job place own money perfect time leave thank reddit always giving something times tough im sure understand this hours longer honestly excited seeing this good luck anyone strong enough still go lives thank time see side,1 +real reason people really hate tik tok first all id like say im one instagram bad reddit good people first reason pretty obvious theyre dancestrends really unoriginal said ones pretty obvious see dance song done multiple people videos get millions views what next point tiktok super toxic youve app least week youd probably find alt side tiktok people think sort advantage straight people sexual orientation might think might cause lot problems does last point possibly important tiktok basically fuels child porn yes want people rights bodys want people express theres point cross line theres one trend thats probably worst doggystyle trend yeah heard right anyways thanks tuning rant hate everything everyone bye lol,0 +book heavy metal,0 +depressed stay silent unless good reason talk keep thoughts even speak words possible give nothing away angry focus drive take shit anyone fact actively punish people fuck me anything want give shit people think need anythingi like states keep never end regretting things say do happy like different person hate person get self conscious make concessions people result overshare tell people things id never want know immediately regret every time lose things learned right years things actually like myself like brain hijackedand people see like get fooled thinking actually expect time even though time even understand person times guess make people think actually want friends get confused blame want hang secretly want fuck which guess is faulti hate happy hate become wish could somehow guarantee id never turn person ever again hate happy,1 +weird think first months normal rona came america normal life,0 +bad favorite band system feel stupid like im poser even genuinely favorite band,0 +say i doomedor likely doomed,1 +trying find lightive realized simply looking place die quite got courage yet pull shotgunhowever think im getting close ive contemplated slitting wrists ive attempted even cant cut deep enough ive gone days without food water eventually cave mostly due alcohol place die courage determination so wantneed life over thingreason kept going past daughter morenot me know is looks like even remembers me pain past ex excruciating struggle find hope struggle find anything really puppet still puppet form true lovethat never truly loved way loved him,1 +girlfriend disappearedi know breaks rules really need advice girlfriend currently contact online disappeared four days ago sending texts much pain much longer wanted alive woke hour sent messages response replied phone number none friends able contact her researched online obituaries home town redflags area found anything relevant still concerned mightve hurt badly one reasons longer want commit redflag something terrible happened probably take life too know continue wait message someone please help me,1 + cant sleep horny gone least like yesterday dey need get rid horny tho stubborn today,0 +anyone know me curious anyone really knows sub so asshole,0 +hey girl u athlete cos u always go extra mile,0 +hugged girl today later virgins no seriously like years since last time girl hugged me,0 +people say swag swag im talking u emily,0 +please someone help meim sad fall asleep cant stop thinking much hate ive ruined last thing made happy want kill myself cant live pain least want fall asleep cant,1 +everyone smart enough become astronaut would world like would anti maskers conspiracy theorists would covid over,0 +hey ppppie_ know is,0 +fmlits hard people seem care you like fucking live yet pay attention unless want fuck me confirms im nothing fucking piece meat u shove ur dick in thats anyone fucking toy,1 +made survivei started life easy mode come well family ive made college every little thing gives huge anxiety fall apart face set backs think made live life im incapable it people much harder fine im failure im cut life,1 +listening pd ost feeling like heist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +feel like girl best friend years slowly becoming better friends best friend talking months me wrongi feel sad wrong,1 +chance run car instinctively pussied out id green light crosswalk idiot care absent minded wouldve perfect way get rid life ive never wanted funeral expenses covered insurance,1 +thinking going now sure im coward know shouldits right downstairs oblivions comforting terrifying once im probably cowardlyweak now guess ill soon though knows maybe drinking lower inhibitions enough knows edit little bit intoxicated right now sivenish drinks less two hours gotta work spine soon,1 +yeah sex cool ever teacher respond email minutes,0 +please someone kill right now autism asperger depression today mom told homework said idea given homework started talking small notebook write whats homework asked tf could remember write homework started yelling started crying called selfpity walked room left floor crying thinking crappy life everything used diffferent still happy kid im refusing eat anything till mother treat like human being,0 +ig threatened delete account today shared spicy mememehmed lol son blew better yours mohhamad pic angry arabian guy story got deleted got black screen instagram told might delete profile also friends shared post nothing happend story even shared mine close friend shared standard story original post deleted could someone reported story do,0 +depressed want attentionhas anyone struggled fact want kill feel pain currently wish id rather dead way didnt live life feel like miserable reason cant feel like deep want people notice dead feel like thats wanting attention dont know makes sense anyone relate prideful person nature wish fucks sake dead one notices me even though im need down one deep need them feel like dead everyone would finally realize pain real,1 +feeling really downthis year seems crumbling feel like im going dark place again ive suicidal years ago looking someone talk,1 +viewed original outer limits real time first broadcast since viewed entire original series reruns complete dvd find new outer limits well remake old retread episodes adolescent commentators suggestedbr br with seven years programs versus two years original series producers writers certainly added considerable new original stories philosophical lines much longer running well produced cable tv series plots intelligent scientifically accurate projections unknown possibilities sometimes frightening imminent futurebr br while producers directors hollywood ignorantly view scifi indistinguishable horror fantasy series returns origins science fiction logical moral philosophical projections current new technologies possibly fearful near term realizations series well remains unique avoidance shootemup video game monster mentally much current generation brains history message good entertainment adult series without unbearable teenage knowitall fantasies hurraybr br now get mgm release entire new outer limits series dvd instead six poor teaser discs st season available,0 +hotline help related phonesi know silly question is really cant make calls severe social phobia cant use phone even good day im well im runing coping mechanisms fast feel like theres anyone help me cant afford therapist right now ones ive seen past able help me nobody else close family bunch anxious people love simply make matters worse panic comfort pretending im better calm down cant make calls ive gone metanoia site many times effect anymore yes ive waited time ive permanent crisislike state hours hours since least last night right everyone family left work afraid edit thank everyone expect people caring helpful moment im imminent danger keep mind links places posted,1 +commies choose abolish communist china communist vietnam dang commies gt,0 +anyone talk pleasei need distracted please sleep cant stop thinking anything help get mind,1 +dont know changei always reactions stimuli cant fix it get loop want give end it doesnt matter do itll loop again,1 +im sick thisim sick crying every fucking day want end today even worse day me nothing one help day help try cry fucking hard fine im used alone still heartbreaking always be hate day wish could die never wake another miserable day hope much better day me,1 +way put phone pocket pocket upside down screen facing thigh horizontal yknow type stuff yes im typing damn bot idk enough ill post see guess,0 +sudden bursts suicidal thoughtsfor days getting intense suicidal thoughts day mostly alone home enjoy solitude anime tv series playing overwatch seem enjoy night hard fall asleep cos mistakes made get filled head sometimes sleep days straight amd sleep rd day exhaustion asked father want visit psychiatrist said bad habits sleep fine third day sick cant let go doc sleep problems open thoughts want kill self people medications coa side effects would gladly side effects mental condition head keep hearing voice die cant keep going like failed subjects college able get job depend father money going give things friends next birthday august leaving world,1 +living stalin regime bad come never heard citizens complain facts,0 +always feel like family friends hate me know get this bad place mentally take little sign meaning going leave me finally making new friends feel like going fuck bc mental health fact cannot believe deserve good things therapy days bad place cannot function feel like everyone hates me,1 +gets little difficult day keep goingif assisted redflag option us burden society point im ready pack go take chances somewhere,1 +stop scrolling help fellow teen out theres girl ive liked nearly years wanted tell feel one problem best friend im worried actually dating her unlikely shed want to least want know feel trust her want able trust me tell her,0 +involuntary suicidal ideationfor long time response thought produces negative reaction mind involuntarily blurts you need kill yourself commit redflag probably hundred times per day plan this caused lot distress worried depression ocd something else,1 +many people online like k online time k,0 +get embarassed receiving compliments basically im making whole post bcs guy friend keeps calling cute even tho told say countless timesand keeps insisting ithe doesnt seem like hes jokingi feeloverwhelmed also embarassed bcs dont confidence enough self love reply back oh thanks haha yeah ik bcs would literally put say ugly assno wayi not keep denying tell say bcs get embarassed continues says getting embarassed also cuteimi would seriously punch istg ofc im get embarassed feel like dying idk srsly cant stop anymore told would keep admit ,0 +im moving silent hill cya west coast time face punishment sins ghost town,0 +dont see reason live anymorei dropped grade four years ago ptsd anxiety cant get dream job never gratuated really regret dropped out cant get dream job now feel embarrased tell others didnt finish high school must think im weird cant get back trail im trying really cant,1 +fucking done life going buy liquor morning normal people alike tittle,1 +saw spider scared initial reaction saying fuck asshole dont know thats better worse last reaction spider fuck shit penis cock,0 +ive said before want kill ive never able admit now always used say want disappear turn invisible ive come terms suicidal thoughts want go detail situation hate life love friends family besides that hate everything it ever since diagnosed high functioning autism fourteen felt like deserve live since im worthless unintelligent retarded much more additionally ive heard people say autistic people deserve live lives started cant anything etc even diagnosed autism dealt isolation middlehigh school isolated long began feeling crazy strangest things like playing insects even though used always sit small corner lunch recess sometimes used cry people never cared since teacher told cant make friends anything tried joining three groups school ghosted rd day hanging them felt boring uninteresting like fault one wants friend used three friends current school unfortunately left one went another school went tafe still friend school really great come school often sadly think thats enough reason live really know else say want ask something go ahead guess,1 +remembered thing copied yea sorrey bothering w basics age gender height weight zodiac sign birthday favourite things favorite color favorite food favorite music genre favorite song favorite movie favorite tv show favorite animal favorite thing life experience hobbies sports future jobs ambitions drank smoked done drugs pets best memory embarrassing moment dream vacation reddit many followers favorite subreddit favorite redditor amount time spent reddit many people chatted last person dmdchatted many subreddits follow follow nsfw subreddits looks hairstyle hair color eye color body type build ethnicity favorite outfit wearing rn type underwear wear relationships sexuality relationship status crush celebrity crush ever cheated someone ideal girlfriend boyfriend idea perfect date asked anyone sex amp sexuality virgin anyone seen naked tattoos piercings ever sex experience ever sent nude ever sexted ever kissed anyone attractive sexualnsfw bra dick size pubic hair natural trimmed shaved none body hair guys only circumcised often masturbate last time masturbated ever watched porn ideal sexual physical attributes favorite sexual fantasy turn ons turn offs kinks misc dm chat message ask whatever want ask question,0 +poem wrotehey guys wrote poem last night stumbled upon sub thought poem might help considering redflag is they say ink permanent blind father never glimpse light daughters smile say diamonds forever hands widow lover spend eternity cold apart say one lives forever cant avoid tolling bell say get one life pray god live mine weli death permanent one things truly forever even earth stars around us crumble fall yes death inevitable given gift beyond compare life chance live long live well may people care now people care future waste life given things seem bleak right now gone cant take back feel free reach need anything loved valued,1 +want live anymorei cant connect human beings,1 +herebut ami right herei money loving familyi selfishpridefula liar oni bad personi lonelyonly got friend i use fake persona keep him however reason im herei used lonelysince childhood reallyi like itbut adapted it real reason life seems meaningless mei lost motivationsi life deciding exams monthsdidnt study allwhat exactly supposed fighting forto make family proudi already disappointed many times frankly care anymorefor nice little futurejust die one day old person cold hospital roomthats idea life like peoplei think even loved girl onceof course like back one point decided turn life aroundi going gym years nowi studied hardi really triedbut lost acquaintances since started change herea long long time ago like peoplei wanted save others depths depressioni talk people telling life worth itit work somebut looking backi realize much hypocrite end never understand seems easy others liveto happyto friendswhy natural them tired try anymorethe best part day sleepwhen consciousnesses shuts downsothats that,1 +attempted redflag once didnt pan out now wish access fentanylmy attempt redflag took eight instead four trazedone got sixth pill figured fuck it every day realize much loser last day hopeless future is im almost im white hetero male high school diploma nothing else ive applied hundred jobs year ive two interviews never called back ive unemployed year now thats saying much last job mascot needless say doesnt come close even paying food live disability im ugly acne scars rosacea im little overweight cant afford clean clothes pay four days food without using food bank relying family starving girls look like im cockroach never get smiled public dont see point studying get technical school because thats afford student loan get computer engineering technology government take earn spend time working hard get job fry cook money taken away you enough some fun myself doubt id get promoted ive never promoted ive lost jobs since employment record credit score filth cant afford cant qualify move better apartment end dont mind leaving family behind theyll think well hes better place now would truth every day inch closer closer towards homelessness apartment building cock roaches mice god knows else makes living much desirable actually existing wish fentanyl days want go it day know ill day again,1 +opinion gays burnt cross sin,0 +incapable really feeling anythingi feel disconnected mind body world around me live behind brain fog dense im even sure cant grasp gravity situations really care all feel emotions shallow fleeting thing ever feel mind really registers disgust anger think cheating ex felt positive feeling since left her think brain tumor shit like brain fog lingered years feel like im always little drunk like everything dull lifeless memory sense consequences ability think feel diminished greatly idk even know im writing about depression health relationships dying hope so post make sense goodnight,1 +day trying slow video games made start tv overheated screen went weird im taking sign slow down ill trying making posts help pass time maybe nothing much happening yet ill slowing hour day usually played day wish luck,0 +im scared keep living scared take lifei dont know im doing made alt account post this practically friends im antisocial trouble talking people moved year ago i adult added specifics age grade got bullied year got pulled second year homeschooled last im getting end everything one close friend cousin care about close friend attempted redflag month two ago cousin says family makes want kill themself im terrified loosing two people actually trust probably reason im alive point im ashamed didnt offer enough support point friend tried taking life infinitely thankful didnt work still scared again cousin attempts it im scared much shit getting c class standards high myself scared parents finding think theyre toxic abusive scared go back school possibility dealing bullying again end day im antisocial overwhelmed loser whos waiting till crack mean friends point im making reddit post want kms feel completely defenseless way like outlet way knowing whats happening next every time im little happy something bad happens extent feel like dont deserve happiness im staying avoid tomorrow im scared whats coming next like breath fresh air years,1 +please dream foreverand keep switching another dream one over doesnt way fully control dreams amount control average dream fine id much rather live like this,1 +am live good morning anyone timezone lmao since woke early,0 +hi fello guys guyettes sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us theres ppl console channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link ,0 +im hot like literally feel sick high temp,0 +right redflag noteim never good talking feelings dont want mess up give tips writing pls thankslt,1 +utterly suicidal im terrified wont succeed time cant take another failed attempt feel like ive living half life ever sincelast time coma days overdose pills doc didnt think gonna make pulled through everyone keeps telling reason every since dont feel right feel off like never fully came back idk feel like im living half life borrowed time,1 +yo playing miiiinecraaaaaft like cut g fat slap occurs,0 +send help study anything history wish luck,0 +situationhey all ill try say much can need help need compassion want express im boiling feelings want people know exactly might lead potential death lets start general im yo french male ive always shy ive never really self confidence ive bullied th grade overweight nerd class became pseudo depressive kept saying id kill really wanted bit attention love get anyway now today im different person ive become heartless careless bastard imagine chose to started movie watched bother tell ill tell made think become today movie occupies dear space heart showed side life deeply want discover dumb know made realize im missing life ill try make little sum learnt first friendship think might one biggest parts movie hit right guts movie made question definition friendship friends any even feel yeah turns feel shit anyone called friends dicks like them yeah im alone friends point view second love on side things mean saw like love somebody wether family friends girl mad think cant love cant ive never met girl loved theyre so superficial dunno all heartless bastard third dream context place movie took place in man hate france hate people here hate myself want live people like ill like people place even biggest city appealing sunny full life think need trigger something make feel think miss plain happiness thats made become today think ill change mind im going bad stuff know it question importantly not ill leave that fellow friends hope great life fulfill feelings like id like to edit forgot say eat sleep anymore im critical exhaustion point too whenever night cry hours also exhausts physical aspect,1 +deserve help savedi beat disabled exfiancee several times mild cerebral palsy may ill excuse behaviour im despicable bastard already knew long ago cant wrap head around could someone love feel like failure protected her hurt her truly believe deserve help support anyone much want back much love miss her made right choice dumping pathetic arse deserve without her theres part wants hate her good side cant fault hope happy guy hell never hurt her wish with,1 +gave discord tag gave discord tag would crazy gtlrop not order unscramble yourselflt,0 +could remake country would change social issues economy education laws ect project im school create political party beliefs would class vote think best want see everyones ideas would change edit mean country country preferably usa,0 +rlly think im someone gives flirty compliment amp get scared like ok miss ego stfu amp stop scared,0 +im going disappear disastrous semester comes end bye bye good luck maybe ill back week really need focus school particular exam season have school rule fail single class once kick out one particular class its physicsrelated fluid dynamics difficult failed last year im worried failing it still confuses heck im scared failing again im going offline tn finals end whole life school fail class again would nothing else could would ashamed keep living want become sicidal vent ill end here anyways good luck exams study well take care drink lots hot lemon tea red bull p,0 + year leftso set goal get girlfriend to get good way good work mean learn new things try get education required job complete one redflag year left iam getting bullied everyone say normal life one hidden secret iam lonely fuck want feel real love want feel someone cared even week like friends none real friends miss old days didint cared feel sad see someone holding hands kissing hugging depressing me theres little make someone day better hug short conversation smile would made day better never felt love parents pretended know dont care iam trying hard make someone really like me iam trying talk trying go walk anything always get response something like time no iam sad think every girl asked go there wasnt much like less walk something nothing serious date meet talk refused male friends always response time dont know do really want hug righ feel alone today seen guy class hugging girls goodbye tried reading get girl like thing started reading first saw was remember last time fell love didint closed started crying work fucking hard iam training trying improve inside iam learning new things talk still effort put didint give anything wanted even one day really feel like someone loving caring me wish could someone understand someone hug like that feel lost alone year complete goal even second feel someone loves me wont complete iam going kill myself overwhelmed loneliness someone similar situation please message me sorry needed let english main lang sorry mistakes make better worse post edit something iam crying right wish someone hugged thanks reading this,1 +relapsed suicidali think anymore hhhh,1 +guess got learners permit today me motherfuckers stay roads state behind wheel accidentally rear end,0 +everyday reminder failure end iti wake up want end done pain realization matter day never get better wont ply reason life improve meaning take pill pill continue emotionless zombie spending day day g nothing one pretending life makes happy wanna know excites me brings smile face thought today day die slip away die never feel ungodly amount depression deal demons head pretend everyone im ok end day lay bed replay everything asking todaywhy today day im fucked up im bipolar im reasons need want die yet c nt it matter much want die like brain says nope today suffering do need today reminded fuckup wife left deserve nothing pain sorrow agony getting tonight like every night sit wishing courage right thing kill myself even something simple that im agony fucked,1 +rest power ruth bader ginsburg was forever hero,0 +seems liking life cuz thing see like endless loop problems keeps repeting like times know freaking heck wrong luckexistence true hellhole better getting stuck rpg game least one die cooler crap life like this,1 +study hall teacher sexual assaulted kid find happen year ago randomly came mind chilling found word mouth former study hall teacher kids thats heard day one could stop making jokes talking save life study class like th year math grades taking nose dive dumbass wanted stay in hes bail set still pin time im gunna adult,0 +first comments get gtnothinglt ,0 +hate recognised restaurants frequent cashier local sushi joint asked me you come quite lot you so you replied,0 +weird coincidencewhat odd coincidence planning ending things depending legal issues pans tonight dad gave book read woman attempts redflag one knows legal problem redflag plans thought odd hardly ever traded books read ill read looks decent guess ill add note go route think catalyzer end,1 +cant kill self night bc trafficker use money townmy gut tells good idea go night bc wont asked come around area night red flag therei dont need survive wake basement id hv travel rly dnt wanna waste money periods gonna start another month wasted,1 +hey all title suggests recently last months taking citalopram first time antidepressants anyway long story short avid gamer first started noticing aim reaction time concentration starting perish followed troubles articulating words usual noticing little things perishing little could anything picking something lose moment later troubles using tools efficiently kind fumbling keyboard rather instinctively hitting keys citalopram effecting fine motor skills,1 +what life,1 +cactus flower delightful comedy based neil simon play dentist walter matthau affair young free spirited woman goldie hawn totally unaware devoted nurseassistantingrid bergmanis love him matthau play kind role sleep disappoint philandering dentist dr julian winston dating one woman really clue hes love another goldie hawn oscar sparkling performance toni simmons aging flower child slowly comes realize trapped dead end affair dim appears surface real pleasure film performance legendary ingrid bergman stephanie dickinson dr winstons completely devoted assistant willing bury sacrifice happiness long dr winston happy tony bergman luminous film looking absolutely beautiful though camera always loved her showing unforeseen knack light comedy yes dialogue settings slightly dated story timeless performances stars make imminently watchable,0 +fact day seagulls gossipy birds,0 +need nonlonelyness looking relationship type friends something else perfect dm wanna something tell wanna be im asking im lonely need someone talk wont abandon bad typing need someone work say stuff ok dont want to im calling technically am dont need get mad jack you thanks reading asshat reddit username papoeo,0 +selfishi admit im selfish even comes redflag dont care advices havent experienced true loneliness family friends etc miles away them changes person senior developed bipolar disorder away im happy know fell love good chinese lad graduated love life from past sadly became worse human being dissociated refused talk further used think maybe fall love good chinese guy know deep know thats nonsense long carry burden living back love question alas dont ask grandiose things person money drugs alcohol ride die seek adrenaline rush together partners crime would rob bank together steal drugs pharmacy must digress end facing music head dont anything look forward death set free mental illness excruciating dont expect people understand care could slowly feel shutting down,1 +im exhausted tired think donei want anymore feel better fucking tired want give up,1 +im depressed im worthless ending life would smart thing ive ever doneim awful person ive burden many people years jumping job job looking something didnt hate find doesnt exist gave opportunities jumped ship new exciting place exactly same am job worthless hours week going dr bills dad supporting me sure lifted debt lose everything ive taken much ive given contributed nothing world ive consumed dont want try get back life hated there want die deserve die beyond hopeless anymore feels like tomorrow think finally time shouldve done years ago dont want run away start anew dont like way world works fucking cant accept happiness needs fought for something inside us people tell worldviews cant comprehend it hate world love family dont want around lose them guess makes selfish lazy doesnt surprise me piece shit all like bill burr said people simply dont deserve here im one them,1 +okay im kinda upset this playing among us wanted cyan asked cyan person could cyan the host game fricking banned could cyan left game felt host game went far banning someone innocent benefit,0 +even suicidalmy life general pretty unsatisfying ive got point still want die want live either seek death seek avoid either literally care one way live die see should long live dying always continue option die matter long lived get remember anyways i reason believe sort afterlife exists even really know im asking im really confused probably even bother posting this feel like need put kind cry help somewhere,1 +shoot em up blood horror movies come way last little saw hostal saw hills eyes yes place get wrong went see when stranger calls buddy night why remake classic time excellent scared know everyone know expect however pleasantly surprised film made mood atmosphere suspense remember people cant see think see cant hear think hear far scarier do love films mood creepiness suspense atmosphere love it brought back roots original halloween thumbs up solid remember folks well done perfect spooky bloody creepy gory nice see film come long like this minds conditioned warped glitz shock value modern day horror movies forget whats really scary,0 +pointless title im going downvote comment post here private space,0 +sighi understand prettiest boy school kid intelligent best math perfect grades national karate champion multitalent everything puberty hit ditched girl said liked me thought manipulating me never got back look years later im sexually emotionally frustrated kissless virgin psychologically intellectually spiritually physically devolved underdeveloped miserable pathetic loser going lower lower tons psychological pain depression homophobia incestphobia ocd generalized social anxiety hatred towards human race opposite sex etc trying pass exams need studying unprosperous phylology college shitty town masochistic people bad financial situation family bonds zero social life cant look girls girls cant look me ever touch girl thats virgin killing monday turn like this why thats question edit top fell buttom elementary school teacher never believe im person,1 +impossible defeat itjust wanna die psycho anti depressant meds years wife new baby makes worse thought kid would find live nope change anything got mortgage car wife baby barely afford money cant anything nice trips holidays even bought courses learn make games barely touched them motivation energy wanna tie belt round neck hang doorknob garage really hate mind illness find hard walk live everyday like everyone else,1 +anyone else find difficult comprehend everyone else functionseveryone else goes life get up go work go school hang friends meanwhile even simplest tasks seem insurmountable right now everyone it people goals plans far future hard comprehend right feels like im working surviving waking every morning,1 +film partly thriller partly publicservice announcement seeing events perspectives politicians terrorists course victims smart drama lessons given contamination surviving chaos meantime backstage look way crisis managed prompts viewers distrust guardians scared assailants film originally aired bbc gets arouse effectively doubts official prepareparedness performances proper understated though never terrific flick beginning provocative start leading larger discussion gets work opinion giving right thrills causing audience reason ask questions,0 +f school picture taken look like female version sloth goonies dude made pics made weird pose fucking stupid dude ,0 +winter makes everything worseim depressed year round bloody hell hate season im really struggling know cope misery misery getting worse,1 +weird really like hands look f play lot games phone looking hands realized really like way look ive putting lot care making hands look nice because record playing games phone sometimes hands probably wouldnt super pretty people really like way look like super weird lol,0 +teenager bad teenager bad say guess remember,0 +stress muchi feel like everything control need life line tonight second time ive seriously considered it fleeting thought impulse pills ive researched effects dosage needed cant bring it sure theres real purpose posting this didnt want feel alone anymore,1 +every attempt getting soundboard failing tips websites applications something use soundboard im legit annoyed point username checks hard,0 +one moms brothers wedding never wanted go treated like shit entire time left wayside bleach cabinet below sink get it run make sure nobody sees me kill feel like shit day tomorrow,1 +almost well done john carpenters vampires entertaining solid piece popcornentertainment budget small enough overrun special effects obviously aiming from dusk till dawnaudience vampires los muertos tries starting rockstar jon bon jovi playing one main characters almost well seen jon bon jovi movie able compare acting vampires los muertos roles really suprised good performance movie started convinced expecting grab guitar playing it life something kill vampires showing mercy job done means lot part audience also me probably thinking just hes rockstar course bon jovi james woods honest could much worse opinion bon jovi good performance vampiress played arly jover leather dressed killermachine vampireleader met part or similar way ghosts mars jover plays vampire seductive sexy moving lithe cat attacking fast snake dressed thin light almost transparent erotic cloth even optical effects supporting kind movement well made really takes beating director parts film avoiding turning movie actionhorrorfilm sensitive horrormovie like murnaus nosferatu almost see directors temptation create movie personal note different original real strength movie time weakest point audience celebrating funbloodbath first movie probably expecting pure funbloodbath second time might little disappointed make mistake vampireslos muertos funbloodbath time kind movie think massacre bar compared scene vampiress tries seduce zoey ruins barmassacre expect american popcornentertainment seducingzoeyintheruinsscene almost europeanlike cinema the movie eager tell us relationship zoey vampiress refuses answers time would slow action showed audience vampiress human past suffering creature beast slaughtering anybody thats point decides whether movie accepted audience original movie not also from dusk till dawnaudience really going like this im sure that nevertheless tommy lee wallace really great job vampireslos muertos surprisingly good also think direct sequel popcorn movie wallace sometimes almost creative expressive like hes keeping developing talent order satisfy expectations audience opinion wallace talent fills movie life maybe sometimes sucking time vampires los muertos almost well done i give ,0 +happens make every bad decisioni year old male diagnosed social phobia depression high iq undiagnosed ptsd derealizationdepersonalisation live completely socially isolated apartment interacted another human months also criminal found ways pay rent essentials plus everything want basically also found way fake prescriptions i morals make money big companies even realise im stealing them also got raided months ago face prison time soon wanted give guys story life thats way much writing do also poly addict take mg diazepam mg pregabalin daily stay far enough away edge redflag happy get heroin meth mail also sad lonely see way out live witness court date anxiety strong last days consist laying bed dreaming away looking photo albums times dad still alive mum still talked loved me live germany getting late here hope able sleep dream reality everything better thanks reading fuck lonely,1 +sexist scared women okay like phobia anything im little scared people general scared women ive bullied genders heres experiences boys bullied hit me rare make bleed made bleed since kindergarten manipulated betrayed used ect women course understand women like that im scared getting bullied women fight back hit women likely passive aggressive course know women men like this general woman bad shed likely insult man would likely hit you id rather hit honest see pain learning experience i see others pain learning experience think okay theyre bullied hurts lot self esteem gets ruined non binary assigned female birth think women bad men bad im afraid people general im scared getting bullied scared getting bullied women im saying women likely bullies think women bad men bad would rather bullied average man average woman make sexist,0 +debt deb debt debtlost job last year weeks later lost second job pretty much gave rest year ive always bad money gotten worse worse years stupid decisions catching me abolutely money income anything used able freelance used able get work done used able communicate people like normal person know went know whats wrong me much debt ill never make enough make monthly payments much less form rent anything im going struggling whole life painful memories watching mom tears car gets repoed house bought bank know thats im headed whats point want that want work life away barely even survive miss feeling emotions,1 +used technique torture people past life would lot bearable awake night everyday sleep deprivation alone enough make kill,1 +way fight siblings someone ate taco ask im okayyy ososdhowowjslsobewkaoah,0 +got rejected first time like zuess sparky little fingers capacitor wand considered weapon going cool magic tricks no apparently poses risk medical equipment serious consequences said equipment fails fine then im going make tissues float around room then magic patients,0 +small spoilers alert br br good movievery good movie im surprised say myself im big fan vampires sound directors name deran serafian usually means bad news films average action movies like death warrant gunmen one first films maybe continued making horror movies instead action movie really fascinated me good accomplishment seeing famous actors big budget involved really story keeps focused especially fans original dracula myth satisfied sarafian lights another aspect famous bram stoker story remains rather loyal true truth explains life roemenian count dracula scared turkish army away spearing dead corpses front castle course thats reality based true story stops blood drinking stuff invented bram stokerbr br in movie count vlad teppish emigrates usa seduces tons woman theyre pretty girls ill give that overall good acting unknown faces enough blood gore satisfy morbid horror fans interesting storyline film really unknown hidden darkest shelf local videostore certainly worth cleaning dust cover put vcr heck lot better famous nicole kidman movie title two films nothing else common blame movie stealing attention away nice little picture check outmy humble opinion die ,0 +much like big epic pictures ill spare namedropping great kick back beers simple action flick sometimes films plot takes backseat setpieces films dialogue cleverly written ties endless knots purple prose hundreds films fit bill opinion gone sixty seconds one better onesbr br its update movie shares name also shares pictures ethos quite execution whatever great original streamlined whatever streamlined also amped thanks bigger budget often kinds endeavours recipes complete disaster see pugugly remake italian job one blew here thanks cast mostly excellent actors sixty succeedsbr br the plot much dialogue much write imdb about often scenes line dialogue goes back forth actors voice different inflections lot people found annoying find raises smile actor gets chance show definition style here cage jolie duvall leading pack course and noted also amusing see mrs pitt given first billing here chemistry good ol saint nick stalwart see date review angelina leads couple nice momentsbr br the villain even little scary ive seen chris eccleston play toughguy roles know handle them think deliberately directed make role inconsequential distract action know heroes going succeed somehow were sitting car them enjoying ride think lot scenes played tongue far incheek went heads lot people giving poor rating fact minded fourthwall breaking winks camera kind moviebr br all style much substance something often exhausts patience executed just would worthless action there part is wonderfully so ive noticed seems common trend using fastcut extreme closeup shots direct action days personally find kind thing exhausting prefer movies like stunts impressive enough need artificial tension ramping raping tight shots time ive told cage actually many car stunts could get away without losing insurance in real life mean character clearly care shows man really move vehicle put good use slowburning climatic finale drives mustang ground outlandish fun way possiblebr br so yes movie epic lifeaffirming post picture obligatory social commentary effort pacing uneven scenes could cut actors tow line car movies rarely come better this hate cars even reading commentsbr br id take numerous iterations the flaccid tedious guess franchise day ,0 +got broken withso traveled miles pandemic meet guy thought loved me get trapped extra week wildfires break phone day got home sleeping airport floor spent much money get broken with said loved told said want make trip awkward also best friend going rough time also hate myself lol am ready over genuinely tried tell three friends told im well friend once told redflag scale listened think understood serious ending it ready want anymore someone suggests ill feel better days im feeling way big break ive depressed occasionally suicidal almost decade im tired fighting think time,1 +hello people would like tell get morning go dentist get fillings wrist part drills sound like mechanical demonic children crawling tv tensed entire time hows day going,0 +awful day thought could talk mother told need get itseriously cant even fcking express im feeling without getting response like that exactly issues opening people irl hate complain time people emotionally distant cold allowed raise kids im sick try expecting different im also sick people telling shouldnt call bitch shes mother fcking bitch really shouldve done us favour abortion,1 +anybody want pic dms open m filler going,0 +dollar would soles would mexican pesos would uruguayan pesos would argentinian pesos,0 +sure seems like minutes actual content episode certainly fun watch might find cringing chair buddy sticks foot mouth gets shot down chuckling shaking head ridiculous line actually works panel hosts goodnatured friendly dare say canadian style commentary compared cutthroat us reality programming think people complain show get joke taking show seriously show takes itself keys vip great caricature reality shows sports tv culture club scene hope another season id interested see us version appears certainly fun original premise,0 +classic series least repeated released dvdbilly tothafter realising adopted death parentsembarks journey find real parentsafter various rites passagehis search culminates discovery fathers identity stolen used human trafficker europeif remember correctlythe series ends austrian ski slopes cliff top chase resulting death billys fathers betrayer series filmed location various destinations round europe appeared polished incredibly well made episodes crossing realms film noir crime thrillerthe main arc often eclipsed slices life billy went years toiling find mother fathers secretsa class act underrated forgotten,0 +may meme proves good point read video description opinion httpsyoutubeushdcqhtehttpsyoutubeushdcqhte,0 +really old fashion charming movie locations great situation one old time preston sturgess movies fi want watch movie demand much sit back relax it acting good really liked michael rispoli rounders too sleeping rest cast fun happens two people get married meet one really love weekend planning weddings know sounds kooky is thats makes fun watch make girl friend either hug leave you least know,0 +bored car way back snowboarding bored hell yaaay anyone wanna talk,0 +tomorrowtomorrow day sure im still trying figure tomorrow sleep tonight wake tomorrow soon sleep forever ill finally peace think clue happens die better life ive had hope find peace incredible lives,1 +gologistically go ive tried find straight forward answers cant anything need student loans bank account make living will say goodbyes without letting people know im planning do make easier them plz dont tell it im,1 +please know desperate please visit webstore maybe buy something parents say teen cant really make cash lets prove wrong,0 +khave headache drink water yes,0 +know keep fightingim scared suicidal honestly id go hospital anyone watch dog guess thats part problem know anyone friends moved state girl dumped months later months many horrible things happened since broke me im scared im broken anyone broke away abusive family talked years couple friends old state shot breeze want anything deep know make friends im broken right now worst is lost job insurance cant find anything im tired broke want homeless dog needs shots barely afford food him hes good boy deserve him crappy parttime job gone im depressed barely work safety net help im broke live buginfested hole still cant afford it im tired im tired fighting im alone know need help ive fighting months get therapy county offer anything barebones medical clinic thats it cant keep fighting one cares one cares im barely holding on,1 +write u love letter one dollar im good writer promise,0 +ever poop feel x better like bru poop like dying feel like brand new person like feels like everything bad came feel much better could anything world,0 +role play love role playing none freinds while childish,0 +bravestarr released defunct american animation company filmation back heman masters universe shera princess power respectively plot cartoon native american cowboy named marshall bravestarr possesses strength bear ears wolf speed puma eyes hawk trusty sidekick talking horse named thirty thirty carried gun aptly titled sarah jane help deputy fuzz judge jb serve protect new texas evil tex hex band outlawsbr br set futuristic texas still day one cartoons set particular city us hence south thousands light years ahead future considering made s creators impressive job trying recreate wild west look scifi based outlook bravestarr evoke morality good verses bad well teaching children lessons life also highlighted themes culture community take things life granted despite fact action adventure cartoon many story lines themes issues addressed resonate children adults way makes sense them addition marshall bravestarr one first major cartoon characters ethnicminority background make impact tvbr br the sound effects amazing music great theme song equally memorable animation wonderful characters well designed stories diverse taught kids morals importance right wrong something cannot said todays cartoons sadlybr br whilst bravestarr overshadowed success heman still personal favourite many s cartoon fanatics suffice say preferred bravestarr heman diversity story lines characters depth situations problems characters faced themselves would say realistic identifiable contrast reason resonated people like instancein the pledge kid dies drug overdose fact happy ending important sense kids watch episode well fact anyone watches episode realise devastating consequences drug usage one underestimate dangers drugsbr br bold brave times thoughtprovoking bravestarr definitely that bold brave thought provoking cult cartoon classic many years come dared take risks well truly paid end remembered many cartoon fans one interesting well best s cartoons ever rightly sobr br half ten,0 +visual film mean dialog sparse almost point silent movie long takes beginning opening shotbr br the silences however broken stunning sound track ranges discordant staccato beats haunting mix violins interspersed vocals sound like dreams feast ears much eyes one early visuals man walking along street preoccupied interest shapely woman walks lamppost one consequences love metaphor lies storebr br a long time ago another movie love story said love never say sorry narrative turns idea head number ways beginning main character titta toni sevillo seemingly innocuous longterm resident plush hotel somewhere switzerland everyday week in week out sits coffee table enjoying passing world cigarettes coffee solitude hes ten years sits observes week engages three surprising activities find see little masterpiecebr br love explored another way direct counterpoint tittas solitude reserved nature two older residents hotel still much love man wants die spectacular manner time comes long suffering wife berates cheating cards guests one titta now titta knows squabbles love mans cheating apologies wife whining how surprising blackcomedic mannerone surprise activities mentionedbr br but comedy reality although touch upon idea human comedy balzacian sense irony life it decision made titta ten years earlier left wife began live hotel keeps touch occasionally clear still loves children now grown up sorrow voice speaks volumes but theres something sorrowbr br such life tittas would obviously seem utterly boring actually many perspectives learn lies beneath almost deathlike countenance however horror situation hits viewer eyes know female bartender sofia olivia magnani interested titta goes way pique tittas interest herbr br and thats things start unravel titta eventually succumbs femininity discovers again consequences love ironically so finally realizes must finally life spectacular fashionbr br i know somewhat cryptic but say would spoil film story you like italian cinema love it urge see one acting superb sound track chills spine camera work truly innovative direction shows maturity true artistbr br i know ill see movie again again,0 +ive fallen far im give trying get outwall text coming gotta get out ampxb growing feels like bad dream multiple divorces birth parents seeing sets constantly fight new spouses ive bad memories engrained since childhood guess first one ive personally experienced dad nd spouse one weekend moms house visitation my dad custody me everything normal brought back dads house only instead dad stepmom door greet me dad asked went dad said left store asked completely ignorant fighting would happen two around dad said no coming back took baby halfbrother left like time rd grade legit cried hours straight broke around time state mandated testing i classmate teacher mom called mom broke class time went continued strong school as time advanced honors classes occasional slip ups would lose motivation remembering past ampxb point high school mom spouse whom cheated dad still year old together since spouse like dad place got loud argument me half brother half sister side rush bedroom saw started arguing sister previously told arguing lot lately overheard talking getting divorce sorta ignored claims disbelief seeing two fighting brought memory day stepmom left immediately broke crying rage middle room two immediately stopped arguing seeing me calm best behaved child family suddenly burst out threw off really remember much that eventually got divorce mom moved apartment brother sister ill get back later ampxb half year year dad stepmom broke up dad met current spouse complex job time located kids own son autism week half younger me daughter months younger sister son month younger half brother dads side growing hell cause overprotected kids highly showed favortism towards them often getting trouble things did eventually mellowed saw things got line behaving with dads help anyways mom spouse got divorce dad current spouse started getting heated arguments resulted dad moving back twice span year two pretty much point complete wreck somehow still managing keep grades school two eventually came terms everything fine stable now ampxb back mom siblings apartment time relationship mom sister got pretty bad sister hit teenage years getting pretty rebellious and mom exactly mentally stable help found reason spouse broken basically cheating another lady mind you time sides family closed minded sort thing mom constantly going out leaving sister when visitation basically running apartment gone point either valentines day sisters birthday cant remember visitation mom sister locked room grandparents place bad mood divorce things mom sorta really naggy sister day tried stand her snap threaten me way back apartment old bad memories came broke car mom pulled took us park set apartment complex try talk us sat us seperately started talking us turn talking brother sister crying turned focused anger towards mom coming realization lot sadness happened life her got started walking complex back apartment mom saw came grabbed shoulder now ive never one fight cause problems always quiet one never really anything besides reading playing video games ive never fight moment grabbed me instinctively twisted arm got small fight nothing crazy grapple fest pissed growing up ive pretty much always bottled emotions mostly cause dad kind person thought showing emotion weak manly thing do point bottle anyting else up blew top point sister stepped seperated us brother mom went back car drove around complex back apartment sister i hand walked back attempt calm down shaking hard even unlock phone time call dad stepdad let know happened saturday dad grandparents place from side domino night dad pretty shaken hearing sister said call cause fact family even noticed dad right rush moms apartment pick up told no point thinking watching siblings ampxb years probably since high school would get highs lows lows would always lower last higher highs harder crash lows graduated high school abhonor roll placed like gradutatesincluding ap dual enrollment students got accepted ucf bright futures scholarship covering pell grand covering rest excess new bank account throughout time though especially lows always thought ending it tying rope slitting veinartery jumping headfirst roof house never guts it adds self loathing bitterness finished first semester college pretty well second semester issues started laptop which was time years old pretty much dying everyting keep working replacing parts installing linux cause windows got corrupted etc eventually dad forced get job mostly spouse kept bitching adult working relaxing home weekends eventually got job waffle house fridaysunday try get money replace laptop one caveat give month help bills groceries with keeping maybe like end month food stuff eventually replaced laptop working school grades slipped enough to gpa requirement financial aid got cut pell bright futures point know do couldnt tell dad spouse basically religious grades placed pedestal family life smart first one actually go college graduate my dad dropped out sibilngs never went college anyways tell lost financial aid time one point nd stepmom basically guilted keeping working talking car something saying basically helping bunch work getting much thats fine dad would work even harder even overtime keep bills such me people pleaser kind person cant help resisting ones need basically kept working ended keep working waffle house eventually went door choir waiter try earn money ended taking student loan try keep going class try get degree grades kept slipping especially math used one best subjects go detail lower level math courses university basically slave could prison nothing math hours straight week requirement cant that math basically flip back forth things keep overwhelmed keep calm pretty much focus time eventually gave going all even though requirement kept working grades kept slipping semester semester lack sleep time try study homework main culprits keep working support household eventually went probation grades got low flunked following semester one knows this best friends closests friends family first time ive talked it ive going year half amost now pretending still going college im afraid tell anyone im afraid trust anyone ended defaulting loans collectors ass one knows ive gotten good lying parents face cant even tell im lying believe im currently taking online classes albeit little little part time continuing studies im not today yesterday got ad letters mail different attourney offices mentioning apparently collectors filed lawsuit me im wits end know now doubt letters ive given paying loans good chunk money about rds make currently working home depot goes house incuding paying whole electricity bill groceries last third goes paying phone bill personal needs like food such ampxb earlier year got hit car crossing crosswalk walking work ended torn ligament shoulder lump head light damage occipital lobe brain even tosssed feet collision dad town time picking nd stepmom airport dropped dad back home country called him called work called went hospital given painkillers stuff told would fine rest ended making claim guy hit mes insurance help attourney got treatment needed sometimes though especially now wish collision killed me wish hang on strong willed live hospital moms side caught wind sister told manager hospital showed up dad hand told let anyone side know anyways im sitting er road rash lump head from could see time surrounded family started crying pain felt none shock felt bad making worry me deserve worry deserve love ive lying every one faces years none know sometimes want disappear vanish suddenly wake gone bad dream now writing this ive though go kitchen grab knife end prick grab bedsheets tie tight know wont im coward ideas drive drive left long ago go flow try cause least amount trouble time comes one miss notice time comes,1 +one talk me even current partner talk me get mad that even reached family switch minimal contact course way are cannot make friends everyone leaves even need talk mental illnesses talk anything literally anything feel ostracized life used little beam hope would get like extinguished never okay made apparent incredibly isolated maddening,1 +well shes broken asked feelings all feelings saw friend countless hours thought her tears cried her countless compliments worthless heart shattered two fucking words even said gn,0 +need someone talk to sure want continueim sure want go life im extremely selfconscious self esteem confidence speak of ive one relationship know entered take advantage me see damage done absolutely terrible luck finding someone love fear never will bad relationship in ive never even woman look want reason cheating homework need buy something etc every girl talk real interest me hurts rejection hurts ive rejected much stopped counting im good looking like think im decently intelligent ive got lots friends think im lots fun coworkers think im pretty cool talk girls interest lock inevitably fumble ruin it social anxiety crippling know do ive decided im still single time hit im going end it least try ive low enough try before universe thought suffer enough primer bullet dud lucky _ please talk me help me love world give cant even give away,1 +douglas sirk directs overacted drama unhappy affluent kyle hadleyrobert stackand mitch waynerock hudson boyhood friends different looks life kyle womanizing son oil tycoon mitch works hadley oil company fall love woman lucy moore kyle means wow feet marry her sister maryleedorothy maloneseems towns nymphomaniac carrying torch mitch always seems one clean hadleys messes ambitious pretension little top stars make movie see impressed malone rounding cast robert keith edward platt john lurch robert j wilke,0 +spoilers four men ed jon voight lewis burt reynolds drew ronny cox bobby ned beatty decide go rafting trip cahulawassee river floodedbr br they wanted fun nice weekend naturebr br but two mountain men cross path rape one bobby everything begins go hell handbasket nice weekend even cost one fours lifebr br deliverance italian stupidly titled un tranquillo weekend di paura a calm weekend fear grandad movies like texas chainsaw massacre the hills eyes wrong turn last house left evil naturerevenge subgenre films one scariest right next the hills eyesbr br based book james dickey who appears movie sheriff bullard chilling story someone go situation thinking knows everything doesntbr br and image dead mans hand raising water hands holding rifle onesheet haunting images never leave mindbr br deliverance ,0 +yeah sex relationship cool ever scratched part ear q tip,0 +middle nowhereim stumped fact think everyone stumped comes life things bad im well top school friends care great relationship family nontheless im lost ive social anxiety since years old finally realized live way halfway high school saw therapist psychiatrist ive several medications every one works well months later side effects emerge reason sweat constantly live northeast right still come home covered sweat every evening ever since first medicine id taken im still way even without medications face gets flushed hours like clockwork every night every evening ive dermatologists tried rosacea meds tried laser treatments kept food logs tried extra exercise exercise assumed psychological yet even tonight saturday evening nothing im sitting typing icepack face life now every evening involves sitting trying help avail ive gone days without eating thinking sweating flushing could caused something im putting inside me im medical student even realize stupid im still desperate two dermatologists said theyre stumped cannot help either issue all returned psychiatrist admitted current medicine could cause told lower dosage problem lower dosage makes incredibly depressed something never emerged before reluctantly agreed lowered it difference minimal best call says go back higher dosage still know higher dosage causes problems me im stuck lower dosage makes depressed anxious doctor telling take higher dosage may well causing physical symptoms making even anxious addition crippling stomach problems gastroenterologist unable find cause for problems come around ill spending hours curled ball bed thing seems help cramps additionally sleep hair quickly falling out joints hurt ive blood tests thyroid problems vitamin deficiencies lyme disease celiac disease everything according every doctor see happy healthy twentysomething parents constantly tell head bring up ive tried highvitamin diets supplements thinking may cause ive tried like right now nothing bread water days ive lost thirty pounds since september am list medical problems doctors say exist parents insist purely due mind feel like im eaten away inside physically psychologically im anxiety depression medication causes problems higher lower dosages psychiatrist im paying dollars per visit saying options higher lower dosage take lesser two evils want know cannot function without something feel like im eaten alive physiologically mentally ive yet find someone believe say dreading college class subconsciously hating family crap ill beat someone say literally billions people worse me every day see children cancerous tumors slowly spreading throughout bodies spend days smiling laughing nonetheless im point see hope patient terminal cancer least told truth prognosis patient curableyettoughtobeat illness responding treatments least someone says i know nothing working were going keep trying stop start making feel better heterogeneous group people different relationships professions telling go home push head is feel like boy cried wolf comes health mental issues know something wrong nobody else take word it am im hope helping problems ive had ive done share ive seen multiple experts ive tried putting smile pretending world fine thing think perhaps death better this deal physical mental health problems think deal nobody believes say might something wrong beyond he feel well know typed shared this honest maybe want get chest regardless anyone brave wall text want thank wish happy weekend,1 +girls ghosted first why second jokes im im automatically chick magnet least would wasnt ugly lmao,0 +think killing self everydayi dont want use gun bc idea get one plus know wouldnt able go it mostly fear wouldnt shoot correctly end vegetable state cant take pills bc none strong enough dont want end getting stomach pumped ive considered slitting wrists letting bleed many things online say takes hours itt effective bc many people cut right area people wake feel nauseas lightheaded lot pain wish someone would kill would get diagnosed something will dont want live anymore im afraid it im coward hate myself want die,1 +im going kill myself needed relese iner pain somwhereim going kill tonight thought present like cancer spinning around mind end present im tired everything call life would walk hell knowing things get worse nothing gets better know big piece shit deserves world made suffering im tired bad emotions come hard handle them everything want turns nightmare keep asking wrong life say think death much used drugs stopped already two years made open later prelude accepting mistakes yah say get work earn money that understand much takes care person barely move pour salt meal worked for years trying fix problems spend money saving someones life spend myself dam even started live buddhist monk whos sleeps floor empty room without material possessions life moving anywhere cant anything really help heal dad feel like shit hard take care think gonna ower hate im week mind hurt nobady helps fuck nothing others could help feel like prison opportunities thought run save life people meet walk door worries responsibilities cant person behave still hate thoughts think so want leave end it day gets harder life spiritual awakenings things cant share nobody ill gonna end mental hospital fuck im sick care someone really sick get word somebody would better place hows everyone better gratitude others slowly dying jealousy anger taking ower first one would like kill me become monster like be hard think im worth think im egoist think piece shit say try best harm others trying withstand another day people see struggle wish things different wish world would love me,1 +please read momenti dont want reveal age know im minor ive made awful mistake over never meant send photos myself every moment thought wouldnt regret it haunt every single day didnt know wasnt ready it im afraid telling people mistakes ive made fear persecuted criminally charged photos words wish could take back every day hate this hate myself im awful person things ive done adults kid matters,1 +guys guys found im human bcause im water,0 +parking lot golden gate bridgeidk start even want give sob story internet came back visit san francisco try find purpose meaning insecurities anxieties validated belong die alone let society slowly choke happiness joy life lifespan check terms wish never existed ever impacted anyones life first place ive everything least one point life mess everything every time get it world me need go,1 +high blood pressure makes want kill myselfi outlined im feeling bad here httpswwwredditcomrselfcommentsibi_hate_summer_days_its_hot_im_in_pain_and_i_want since made post im feeling worse allergies high blood pressure making awake suffering like every day summer keep coughing time feels like something might pop head want sleep body let me every time go doctors theyre fucking clueless too cant figure spiking meds work right type this body feels stiff hands shaking sucks makes want kill myself worst part cant talk anyone nobody cares enough respond back try telling them,1 +sometimes worry friend thinking today biology teacher gave worksheet us do end lesson walked friends table look work uh question asking us draw part penis vasectomy take place vasectomy cutting tying sperm duct cant ejaculate sperm sex baby read drew diagram see drew urethra penis fucking madlad,0 +welli dancer automatically liked film thing like much dancing thought would be say good dance film think songs too good film said before rating ,0 +teen needing relationship advice hey fellow teens ive liked girl almost years time im finally stage completely ignored blocked really sucky dont wanna move know best guys tips move way im still gonna feelings later track thanks,0 +think going kill tonightive living mental issues since middle school mainly depressed lot issues amhow look time started accepting relationship someone remind least thought attractive mattered however insecurities eventually got best became toxic jealous led end relationship several months agoi deserved that deserved better know hurt lot trouble living that also reduces self image further trouble living general think incredibly lucky relationship someone like that think happen again want happen again know would end way therapy help groups since break trying deal better person noticed improvementi think point burden holding people around back always bringing issues wanting deal them point one wants see anymore that also scared seeing toxic part trouble changing leaving mei feel bad people hurt this hope able move quickly someone always loses fight,1 +reddit awful twitter way better fight me time,0 +husband dragged film interest seeing anime cartoon absolutely delighted simple story amazing animation digital world effects computer generated refreshing see gorgeous imaginative hand drawn animation world sosuke ponyo vivid fantasyland intermixed minimal reality seen animation like since child wonderful see endure succeedbr br the actors supplying voices english version fabulous length movie perfect especially children tend get squirrelly films overall delightful experience worth expensive ticket prices nowadays,0 +feel lonely like nobody cares everyone lying telling do people done before friends past thought friends called asked hang out basically laughed me things said things do made fun girl time one told later called wanted make fun you tell told you played like matter truly knew cannot trust anybody meant anybody truly close too decided end life failed course cannot even that sometimes ignore feelings hide go out pretend there figure gone soon start go n fun comes back everything know do lost cannot even put words feel right reason cannot trust people,1 +want die cant iti nothing live for friends many enemies im disappointment family im social outcast without future still cant bring coward am fantasise people loving famous standing face danger super confident myself however could never this freeze thought pain im coward cant even bring give pain deserve ive done stupid things coward would do ive betrayed many people without knowing physically cant look anyone eye anymore im disappointment coward and all horrible person want make everyone taking life cant hate everyone everything yet cant leave all,1 +karma whores people survive internet points smol pp change mind,0 +helpiam strong suicidal urges years now family doesnt know depressed mindset preventing anything productive life iam currently looking fulltime job work im also webdevolopment sidemaking website small businesses etc every night strong negative emotions give feeling shame disgust selfhatred day mind wandering im daydreaming heavily one week im feeling great week want end life dont see meaning progress it know fulltime job urges disappear life normal friends lost contact them ive recently met girl making situation worse im reading much trying learn new things doesnt help neither problem focusing tasks important im straight mess alot more keeps going im going end life wanted put out thanks reading,1 +im tiredtired alive cant handle anymore,1 +helpim nothing special im failing college courses get beaten get abused got bullied high school dads kind asshole thats fine relationship spectacular person falling apart cant fix it cant find job despite turning aplications course months cant anymore goal focus life nothing one cares me one stop me told girlfriend worried might even respond me helped before please need guys,1 +mlp fandom fucked up even pony jar whole ass popular mlp fanfic universe plot rainbowdash commits brutal acts eugenics year old like ok checks,0 +were going die eventually end nowim tired pain suffering life constant mood switches missing deceased loved ones general unhappiness cant anymore lonely without purpose cant wait till paycheck buy gun,1 +dont want family friends knowyou ever think leaving note says something along lines love thank everything turning next page life say im abonding technology electronics living hippie while deed hidden everywhere truly boonies way family avoid heartbreak redflag,1 +oh god god damn itthis awful excruciating havent gotten work done months everyone knows it handful people take pity pity wont get work next year officially starts couple months im right fucking mess wailing desk trying work missed am appointment today slept pm even though work am even though slept entire weekend days straight could die one would notice weeks left stupid job one would notice months maybe years ones called cops screaming wailing yet one called pest control dead animal wall stunk duplex im physically sick shaking im mentally sick dont think ever truly recover this true breakdown one cares me fact people claimed abandoned abused insulted me over over girl loved ghosted me well claimed busy guess busy post instagram try find enough energy make fake profile maybe hopefully get add see shes posted maybe give closure wouldnt thought might dead said cared didnt call like promised accident outside house mph head collision mph past midnight screech boom lady screaming screaming wailing baby wailing crying quiet go outside crowd already there missing limbs apparent fatalities drivers messed up girl saw always visited me didnt like wear seatbelt would dead waited weeks months weeks response texts called her answered minutes alive happy good her ive cut myself ive picked follicles arms legs tweezers want gone one,1 +think mentioned previously that married married wonderful woman nearly years and love life amazing key word was never interested physical part anymore says vaginal issues and absolutely reason disbelieve her tease but act never happens take mens romance supplements help certain extent but able masturbate internet porn usually handles one need but act wonderful thing lay naked and arms someone love especially mind blowing orgasm made love long time and miss that even awhile would nice but never happens want want make love says still finds attractive but never happens always reason doubt that reasons legitimate god knows cheating miss intimacy need intimacy intimacy cheat cannot me but fantasies chart and mostly her but know matter because going happen hence depression new reason per say but reason nevertheless tired jerking off but would sooner swallow drain cleaner go looking elsewhere physical part so sit sucking and moving onto next depression sigh hope well all love and hugs another day another new reason depressed,1 +worthlessits quarentine thing belt bucket do want end,1 +got girlfriend taken long while many rejections couple bouts mental illness ive finally found special someone enjoy spending time feels way shes understanding comforting general bop around still growth make feel completely comfortable myself trying hard make work would lying said arent making good progress struggling find someone dont give hope theres somebody waiting you,0 +need someone listen meback story im ive suffering depression years want go back doctor im scared take seriously think im another teenager never talked problems anyone else try freeze unable say anything past couple years tried kill times including pills alcohol trying drown myself current problems came gay finished gcses friends said care within months friends would still talk me went back school pick gcse certificates people old friends classmates included started shouting insults like faggot queer right minutes road hear more best friend time stopped talking months incident friend time still talked right october stopped talking started drugs sorts went new school year start levels made new friends would come smoke weed such month ago exact thing good friends stopped talking me unless need something usually ask cigarette time month last friends baby understand baby stopped talking well even theyve time due child going nearly every day time themselves nothing now friends talk person ive talked today mom words im love straight guy school would talk say feel im scared happen due year group school consisting whole people good friends other plus way get consists finding something make fun f someone taking piss long time say anything whole year group school would hear within day able stay another year people go every day cant go another school one able go since previously electrician training course somewhere else im also poor fuck mom lot health problems unable work dad works job earns enough cover bills ive trying find job somehow people qualifications get picked jobs instead me clothes borderline small least year old im sorry rant thank reading it took hours cigarettes finally get written out,1 +first time saw woman black think time knowledge appeared tv back christmas eve father watching living room shortly went midnight service village church quite young time im sure terrified walking church yard entrance church night fatherbr br there many factors film make creepy think ne fact theres much way sound track plays background nearly every hollywood movie every creak thump bang amplified head theres distraction another factor makes different ghost stories theres jump factor involved like things bouncing closet makes necessarily see hear think going on clever medium nothing scares mind running riot thinking whats around corner behind doorbr br a superb ghost story ive never seen anything match dross thats repeated tv cant believe bbc deleted to knowledge one showing,0 +recommend synthwave wanna hear synthwave music share like most,0 +writing feels wrong necessaryim male compare others constantly cant stop truly need friends close ones my gf counts stupid ass self still wants even though reality dont want friends tire out im disgusted culture live north east minneapolis disgusted vain people including myself nothing feels real here dont feel real hard living knowing im mediocre human almost every aspect dont understand people cant stand social media want out theres really easy format layout order person people interested and ive used life doesnt feel authentic lie want out feel alone way think need advice literally depressed past years,1 +meds one side overdose otheron left cup different meds ive overdosed times past two weeks one kill me right normal medication make numb put sleep wake tomorrow im tired hurting,1 +deserve diei cheated deserve die eaten up family self sabatoge,1 +brain think breathing times day panic attack going insane breathing full night month half ago tbh im scared ill think rest life like aint happy anymore times try believe am anyways thats im feeling sad today ignore lol,0 +cant much longerevery day hard get know long ill able keep it want die,1 +cannot cope deserve iv shitty son her wish could change past things iv put through mum got cancer,1 +cant crysince like think ive cried total times emotions keep building inaccessible spot causing feel numb wondering anyone else knows to google comes how fake cry bullshit havent found single site tells real let real emotion sorry right place dont know else ask,1 +know think kind stupid because fact good math makes feel kind depressed like average middle school thing even high school problem that comes difficult equations problems brain cannot handle shitthe thing country almost universities least math exam even humanistic ones let alone technical scientific onesso bad math like almost chance ever getting degree garantee decent job even getting degree generali see everyone age studying things could never understand kind feel inferiormuch stupid compared themi know unusual feeling feel lot education world good math really penalises university world,1 +guys it lost virginity friends keep telling cant lose virginity apple pie disagree,0 +saying film depressing necessarily bad thing im willing watch depressing film point made one certainly one often heartbreaking story chinese man family experience many years hardship plenty but must warn might depressing film come hollywood sbecause peasant life china tough say least prepared watch segments famine death diseasebr br about negative persistent tone misery lead played paul muni exceptionally talented man real shame hollywood always cast people european descent play asian leads era paying attention all pretty obvious muni wrong part,0 +embarrassed post crush someone not theres way would ever get again know follows going deleted soon do crush ex,0 +want die see way get betterpeople always say supposed ask help suicidal itll get better ive asking help years one knows help still better ive mental health services inpatient outpatient therapy tried bunch meds thing helped meds im taking since im struggling doctors saying change meds another antipsychotic horrible side effects ssri never helped before im honestly scared survive med change think current meds thing keeping alive want go back way them suicidal delusional depressed self harming police cells inpatient time it know else im meant though mental health deteriorating im feeling stuck current life single family best friend shitty fast food job probably money qualification could get job it car much money saved able hold job past years,1 +love letter goodbyedear harper love you know do know ive made whole lot mistakes learning im forever isnt going happen thats okay look yourself understand soul mate trust me isnt doubt mind know okay without me strongest person ive ever met beautiful too know gonna cry lot never wanted hurt you going make amazing mother make lucky soul happiest man world promise one thing you never settle never let someone isnt deserving amazing girl world never let beautiful smile run face im gone gonna lot people talking saying loved know truth person loved me please look little brother me dont want leave alone know never meant world know dont believe afterlife hope one ill get see again soul belongs you time forgotten thats okay hope wont let memory die me tell world love truly special like nothing earth last breath earth ill one thing mind thats you you harper gray one me cant even imagine living without thankfully wont to love already know that,1 +ok cancels culture bad but certain point realize shit people call mistakes choices people protect shane jeffery star even tho theyre deplorable people made mistakes shane wasnt making mistake created constantly pedophilic racist content knew went anyways mistake high school kid accidentally saying nword once filmed shouldnt canceled years later that but someone consistently racist highschool sure cancel theres proof havent changed dramatically sense then make sense,0 +test pls ignore pls ignore this trying test reddit ban posting,0 +mother night one favorite novels going see expecting huge disappointment instead got film perfectly portrays irony humor elequence else crushing sadness vonneguts novelbr br this certainly noltes best preformance date captures defeat selfloathing howard cambell jr consistently subtle intonations speech held back tears behind eyesbr br alan arkin absolutly hilarious george kraft sherryl lee haunting detachment reality cambells young lover john goodman understated effective cambells blue fairy godmotherbr br this pinnocioesque story cambell trying ideal hero unwittingly becoming ideal tragic villian mature vivid look people aside that one deeply romantic films ever come across cambell incarnation foolish wise love films sastifyingly painful conclusion finally learns means real boy blue fairy godmother grants wish realizes thatwell watch movie seebr br mother night without doubt mind one best films ever made beautiful poetic story digs deep within emotions completely faithful original author,0 +family got mad asking sister shes eating mozzarella cheese straight bag wasnt even am gotta least past midnight start eating shredded cheese,0 +lets talk serious shit tall you im shaming people im curious tall you commenters thread,0 +apparently stop speaking girl treats better anyone else bc age girl really like going date soon getting like super close shes im apparently according people stop get her even tho completely legal england even regards age im next april shes june im shes meaning bad even tho people think weird af like youre speaking someone treats well dont stop unless illegal private life aint ones business,0 +say pleasantly surprised movie mother complete moron occasions youngest daughter idiotic enough go night woods scared daytime movie pretty good director sense treat us brains maybe hed given us movie people behave idiotically still manage get danger worked plumber fellow trailer apparently teenagers mother needed idiots director get closure ending filmbr br atmosphere great scenery awesome undead kids scared crap me live wooded area taking trash creep quite while movie works accept already mentioned raise moms iq bit id give ten,0 +running optionsi feel stupid ive always kept redflag plan b case things go wrong recently found im graduating college time feel like im letting everyone down mainly family thats invested much me ive gotten good lying im cant lie anymore stupid end world feels like it want difficult conversations know do want out feel guilty posting know put feelings feel like cant honest anyone,1 +im trappedim always waiting know what think death nights fall asleep crying student got exams corona shit cant study cant focus got one talk to family add depression im lonely want kill cuz means eternal burning hell sometimes think ill better like that ive cried prayed got answers stuff anytime make abandon religion too chance get coronavirus die without killing myself,1 +people fragile think fragile scared things cry anything cry also move on scared things try overcome fears mean fragile people take everything personally accept opinions etc example twitter creatures,0 +anyone ever tried oding zopiclone imovanedone life access gun sadly cant end way looking overdosing cant procure exit bag either,1 +definitely best game n ever say farely disappointed tomorrow never dies world enough promises better goldeneye according websitei love goldeneye much find something every time play it even made missions levels multi player best game there graphics astounding even now first day got remember wishing would go back make bond movies games imagine driving speed boat live let die making incredible jumps fighting ninjas fighting jaws spy loved moonraker i think fighting games would fun aztec chasing sanchez gas trucks scalling st cerils eyes only oh well let get back game hand levels unique make fun killing environments many places hide sneek people especially statue park well game worthy renting really need buy today,0 +fuck mei even know im still here get judge teased everyday getting punished army im going blow fuse want punch someone so get charge get sued fucking lots problems others including living regrets end life funeral cost stuff free friend avoided months maybe cause im getting judged want nothing it dont know wads worse death teased judge everyday fuck life idea killing scary compared last time idea hardly feel anything heart feel sore,1 +im tryingmy depression reason redflag much self hatred black seriously wish white beautiful black,1 +voidthe void feel keeps getting bigger every single day thoughts get worse worse felt okay yesterday wanna end rn,1 +long wait get drivers licence read description please ok im year old mississippi havent taken drivers permit test yet wondering take permit test and pass wait time next year october time writing take drivers license test could take test end year cause ive always heard drivers permit year youre allowed take drivers license test also dont know affects anything mother disabled father getting both s im sorry crap formatting im mobile,0 +saw last post mkay im starting dampd thing theres room people ill say might accept later dm discord youre interested itll e teach ya need id prefer yall side world fine ya also discord dove,0 +im ready goim mistake constantly makes mistakes cant keep track simplest things doubt ill ever become functioning member society wish parents better son wish didnt exist,1 +stay gotoday day second thoughts tools backpack deed work want go though it hate much feel like life irreparable place want ball paranoia stomach go away scared damage im going leave behind empathy left family could care less parents siblings going feel girlfriend going happy this twin daughters months old people actually care for understand know daddy around anymore playtime funny faces snuggles want push them cant cant handle emotions constant whirlwind mind anymore piece shit even thinking this office right want it may go hospital instead decided yet either way getting settled tonight,1 +say despite reviews angels outfield pretty good movie like fact teaches kids always faith never give yes miracles happen unlike baseball movies one particular movie stood hits amazing special effects well orchestrated soundtrack interesting though liked movie flaws irrelevancy ie towards end ray mitchell hits homer step plate therefore score thats nitpicking say really impressed movies presence moral faith give up,0 +live anymorehonestly fuck love feelings try care people push away try come back end ignoring me done everything trying pointless,1 +instead act never existed like mentally ill already damn got feel worthless invisible maybe acknowledgment would nice,1 +life fucked right now fact canada going one ohsotypical freezing cold winters corona still full swing despite fact many countries including canada rolling vaccines title post apt atm really loudass neighbour living unit next door right probably contributes sleep schedule is result sleep can ends day it youll excuse me im going take muchneeded nap,0 +birthday birthday brag whatever karma whore,0 +made remake dua lipas levitating think httpssoundcloudcomjojo_musicdualipalevitatingfeatmadonnaandmissyelliottjojoremakehttpssoundcloudcomjojo_musicdualipalevitatingfeatmadonnaandmissyelliottjojoremake,0 +know swear much yr old cousin repeats it like mine did said eat shit wan da fuck,0 +five days ago decided going today planned wrote note alli promised best friend go roadtrip him wanted time cuddle girlfriend go work it work night receptionist thought would give enough time space clear mind get itand keep climbing roof cannot it keep trying saying going back reception order cry uncontrollably mins continue working another found new meaning life would happy everything seems fucking desperate was feel like better was deserve want days ago planned outso point venting know happening want jump cannot make it feel stuck limbo whatever is thought going today,1 +know what fuck decrapifies life hope helps anyway,0 +ones ogs uonly_says_uwu remember shit probably not,0 +absolute lowest hate job cannot think straight job want always there want forget play games friends lost love self worth non existent therapist wants go anti depressants drained thinks put fuel fire seem any haunted things want cannot get like decent relationship someone loved hurt me cannot get shit straight scared anti depressants scared depression live family put pain cannot make headway cannot feel good think yes can no cannot worthless scared everythingi feel like treading water delaying inevitable one day time work work work bloody work,1 +hi all really know do would appreciate helping hand working dohi everyone im full time trader spent around weeks working really hard managed make x initial investment well usually really good managing losses today lost account money pretty much dropped college really dedicated making work friends partner i aspergers hard time socialising such genuinely feel like ending everything almost money trade experience mentally scarred away ever considering trading again qualifications would enable get job would enjoy really struggling mentally anyway never happy even lot money lack social happiness overrode highs got making lots money short space time genuinely see way forward anymore would like open one talk to thank you ,1 +happy little bit time im reminded realityim loa work absolutely could get bed anymore selfinjure constantly now drink lot everything crashed last month know why alone one knows im going theres one tell anyway close friends acquaintances desperately need help form someone real life im dissociating constantly internet mind know do ive alone years anyone promise anything soon respond write back takes done anything want anyone worry,1 +heyi think suicidal often think would like so sometimes imagine easy would shoot gun handy always follow nah something would ever do sometimes im glad gun around im afraid might hurt myself thought one thing ever kept purchasing gun asking parents guns feel way edit recently started moving mind gun ways could quickly end it want die always ti back mind hate making posti want fint reason im making it,1 +dont enough money buy coins im sick this wanna post awards least post pseudoaward say that,0 +dream got credits nice dream funny plot twists action shot best friend fucking credits came out shit directed steven spielberg need know theres sequel,0 +doubt ill go longerheres starving death thats redflag method im pussy try honesty lifes painful go on hope people come funeral,1 +trans person want date straight person preference yet straight person want date trans person transphobic double standards smh,0 +graduation beyondim graduate university months applied positions graduate get im sure deal emotional reaction might have self worth hanging getting job dont know ill do,1 +hi guys wanted say hi day wasnt great hope was amazing you human thats beautiful love you ,0 +dorime interimo adapare dori ameno ameno latire latiremo dori ameno omenare imperavi ameno dimere dimere matiro matiremo ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno ameno dore ameno dori ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno dori ameno dori dori ameno ameno ameno omenare imperavi ameno dimere dimere matiro matiremo ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno omenare imperavi emulari ameno ameno dore ameno dori ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno dori ameno dori dori ameno ameno ameno dori ameno dori dori me ameno ameno dore ameno dori ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno dori ameno dori ameno ameno ameno ameno dori ameno ameno dori ameno dom dori reo ameno ameno dori ameno ameno dori,0 +flowing rivers bloodworthless useless ugly hopeless pointless abandoned miserable pain crying nogood insignificant meaningless wretched valueless nothing poor empty depleted futile unimportant lost desperate helpless despondent broken beyond repair irreparable ruined destroyed obliterated lost ready die,1 +want girl oh god want girl bad kiss cute boys pussy accepted girl pleaseeeeee,0 +stupidi dont enjoy myself im depressed im lonely im full regret im hopeless romantic hate am know talk tp people know funciton like normal human being im scared try new things im afraid put there stay invisible cycle drunk ease whats point anymore itll forever might well put bullet skull paint wall beautiful red mural,1 +even ur ugly someone find u hot amen,0 +poem day pt so todays edition isnt really poem wrote earlier creating art think people might appreciate it thx hating me music youre writing already exists job listen wants go next coax space imagination reality sound waves surround you blank canvas already full mind reverse whiteout,1 +bro want bird would cool long im abusive house hold would cool,0 +advice wantedi ingested like mg oxybutynin am right pm immediately prior ingesting tablets drank bottle beer evening two bottles beer wine questions really count redflag attempt chance dying tried overdose milk would count im fairly certain cant die oxybutynin said dont mix alcohol ended hallucinating stumbling around like idiot also do dont really want call poison control hallucinations memory problems gone still hard focus vision coordination problems though im happy alive,1 +helplhey idk ehy asking help longer run responsibilities need help please hellp cannot anymkre need hep much feel like im drowning nooone see me im done fighting want die hep wantt die idk waht anymore responsibilities theyre much help,1 +want pain stop goodive suicidal years straight severely depressed long remember things life improved large others gotten worse ive gotten older biggest one mental health ive psych ward three times tried kill twice recent attempt unfortunately botched left agonizing pain every single day nearly months later im surrounded people love care none ever really get matter hard try im tired trying everything sun seems work everyone else doesnt jack shit frustrated disappointed im getting worse meantime im tired miserable pain im nothing helps shitty life turned be all im tired pretending like things improve know deep probably wont life fucking joke im tired goddamn punchline,1 +interesting fact heard today heard people live within block registered sex offender me live next two smoking hot twelve year olds,0 +quick psa males shower uncut men pull wash nasty stuff out takes second better ya wonderful rest day,0 +life fucking jokei years old high functioning autism longer read study sound vibration movement environment interrupt line thought have left constantly fight get concentration back incredibly hard concentrate worth living deteriorated point go long walks pace back forth room locked hospital twice redflag doctors psychiatrist therapists cannot help me think cutting open neck,1 + years years since ive created reddit account years sex think checks,0 +suicidal thoughts everydayi hate life im apathetic right cant even bother writing lines think maybe killed pain im scared something goes wrong clue without much suffering cant sleep cant awake cant focus anything,1 +elder scrolls assume old world like entire life taken place northwest los angeles anyone new world oceania thats old world accurate anyone old world going bias,0 +year in cold blooda riveting thriller has two new interesting contexts previous have first chillingly fact star robert blake recently trial murdering wife second recent oscar winning biopic capote showed muddled back story haunting true crime tales author truman capote two new twists make film timely modern audiencebr br as stand alone film era in cold blood top notch every way notable stunning black white cinematography conrad hall later american beauty road perdition fame many stills film kansas farm house night treelined back country roads could sold fine art photography combined crackerjack direction brooks superb editing early scenes where see mundane daily life innocent family senselessly slaughtered beautifully intertwined plotting two hapless killers rich brooding atmosphere created sets stage riveting suspense even everyone knows going end due fact based real life events also great see day age brilliantly staged harrowing murder scene depicted graphic nature act transmitted viewer subliminally nary drop blood shown screenbr br the film also anchored nicely robert blakes eerie performance sympathetic yet senselessly brutal side killing duo flashback scenes horrible childhood extremely well done scene towards end film speaking reverend sent gallows makes last confession speak one classic movie moments perfect marriage gritty acting superb writing flawless direction haunting photography dare erase mind stark image rains reflection window flowing robert blakes pallid face lieu actual tearsbr br the thing hampering in cold blood slow moving middle act killers lam forced nature social commentary end tackedon political message death penalty secondary compelling depiction mad killers prey,0 +minecraft dog died today im sad rn died beacause fucking creeper idk flair counts cares anyway,0 +bad breath im genuinely baffled older brothers bad breath someone tell eat walnuts myf brotherm always throws tantrums hes angry gets angry were joking around often yesterday took nap hours pm pm sister dad joking him got way frustrated angered moment anyway i direct youngest child am commented storming out he turn gets super close face point noses touching starts tearing me really care breath really really bad probably joke woken up still like breath always stink know breath always stinks idk thought backing away assert dominance instead thought headbutting tanjiro style didnt waited finished said another thing twat brought every issue hed ever me walked away got proper fight realize really stupid story small interaction brother seriously know breath always smells bad whenever smell which often lol usually like hes showing video phone were close together smt always rancid also brush every meal teeth stuff smell bad asked said dried spit invisiliners like wash them please sake kiss girlfriend mouth bro im really asking advice anything wanted somewhere talk probably backfire face tldr brother angrily got face fathom stinky breath,0 +oliver stone always ready make politicallythemed movies makes another one here talk radio loosely based career alan berg radio talk show host denver murdered white supremacists case character barry champlain eric bogosian outspoken talk show host dallas loves nothing irk people call in is people call bunch pigheaded racists things may heating anyone realizesbr br bogosians performance brings light comical tone otherwise serious movie really liked scene jabs redneck calls in granted call oliver stones greatest movie ever good reference era media gets concentrated good performances ellen greene alec baldwin also help,0 +wanna sleep rest life awayfor sleep next best thing finally enter permanent state unawareness eternal abyss nonexistence,1 +mean get ratioed someone dmd ratioedp mean,0 +person moderates subs abusing powerspread message days ago contacted umassaccountnukes post powermodsi asked name powermodi didnt believe firstbut bit research found guy moderates subsyes heard right many people completely banned reddit criticizing himplease spread messageby altcause theres high chance person moderates sub active on name uawkwardtheturtle checked moderation tabit didnt actually show subsbut checked manually searching many subreddits found indeedtrue,0 +boyfriend dramaagainhe hasnt talked day yet hes posting social media dont understand knows bad anxiety comes this,1 +quarantined coming awhile gives another level social anxiety like bro ok seen one old classmates brain flipped freak telling go outside while cold shi came back awkward like bro awkward asf,0 +going doctor tomorrowive wanting go doctors awhile get professional help depression gotten worse throughout months im honestly scared tomorrow know whats going happen doctors office anyone gone doctors depression normally visit,1 +nothing look forward to one talk to years old unemployed living foreign country looking job plus fighting depression year now getting help easy therapy fucking expensive job means medical insurance know whats left now one knows im depressed self stigmatized depressive see way go quietly one would notice anyway help,1 +blanking age legit cannot remember completely ambivalent figuring out care wanting figure fix reason care anyone else multiple mini breakdowns week like mini mini cuz often driving tear soon single tear falls done feeling gone numb next hours still left realization feel like shit memory feeling idk disassociating toxic masculinity thing fuck sucks forgot ranted,1 +surprisingly great low budget horrorcomedy funny pretty well made good performances really cool twist ending characters pretty cool story unoriginal good plus eric jungmannadam justin urichharley fantastic chemistry together one funniest moments film adam trapped bathroom harley wakes find monster truck sitting there decides take pss truck aimee brooks plain sexy plus one best low budget horror films seen long time gory comical way thought well written well plus michael bailey smith fantastic monster man wicked makeup similar films like joy ride duel jeepers creepers etc etc suspenseful moments there plus gore effects really well done part surprisingly great low budget horrorcomedy funny pretty well made good performances really cool twist ending highly recommend one direction good michael davis good job here great camera work good anglesgood use colors using great setting plus kept film funny fast pacebr br there lot gore get extremely bloody nose bleedsgory impalings bloody stabbingsguy cut half monster truck human remains cooked stew guts placeguys guts fall outpencil eyesbloody slit throatbunch people walking around without limbsgory dead squirrelheads squishedsevered limbsbloody mangled corpsesdecent amount bloodshedone gory scene end morebr br the acting good low budget film eric jungmann fantastic adam nerd likable one fantastic chemistry justin urich cool linesand loved character also seemed enjoying himselfand especially good end justin urich excellent ass best friend however help love funny often stole lot scenes really dug him aimee brooks gorgeous great do good chemistry jungmann like jungmann especially good end loved mysterious character michael bailey smith wonderful monster man creepy looking awesome makeup one favorite slashers rest cast finebr br overall highly recommend one ,0 +transgender redflag hotlineif anyone transgender needs someone listen please use this trans need it please share someone may need it theyll see httpsiimgurcomtytjpg,1 +think need therapist last night worse anxiety attack ive ever had couldnt stand without legs shaking hands obviously shaking sweating extremely cold first evert time felt like going puke decided take break snapchat instagram making worse everything bad happen life happens social media ive realised shit thing although im taking break stuff help me cant live like this cant live days fucking paranoid worried cant stand practically self harm dont try fix guess im gonna try convince mum let speak therapist im uk im camhs already theyre slow feel like next time ill see ill shell former self wanted rant ig,0 +think son sorcerer hello rteenagers serious problem son turn may sorcerer im debating whether seek help not last week daughter unfortunately went missing boy babysitting ran mcdonalds got geometry test im proud him got favorite big mac cheese onion got home heard screaming coming kitchen rushed unfortunately forgot micky ds car kitchen smelled like sulfur tiles floor daughter playing phone looked burnt look see son floating air how quaint blurted out descended floor saw forgot mcdonalds fit rage hurled stake knife telekinetic powers im currently hospital typing wife considering divorcing left year old daughter adolescent son home heck do,0 +avatar bad truth hurt,0 +tired fighting wretched disease tired crying everydayfeeling like void existence barely present world sake existing empty used unsavable beyond redemption thread sanity hope snapped long agoim free falling abyss despair point return alone complete darkness memories goes die vast emptiness consumes digested belly metabolised energy parasites living within everything part me personality hopes dreams identity world used food selfish nothing world could fill taken keep giving thing retain could give living meaning clich life without living human anymore a walking empty void existencethe thing stopping death death essence life meaning living dying want end infinity loop suffering pain keeping body alive sake exscruciating pain never stoptill drop ,1 +paid child support fulfilling courts orders would get chance petition supervised visitation feels like hes completely disappeared father still feel like hes going come back even writing makes hard breathe silly,1 +learned helplessnessaccording wikipedia learned helplessness is gtlearned helplessness behaviour organism forced endure aversive painful otherwise unpleasant stimuli becomes unable unwilling avoid subsequent encounters stimuli even escapable presumably organism learned cannot control situation therefore take action avoid negative stimulus learned helplessness theory view clinical depression related mental illnesses may result perceived absence control outcome situation organisms ineffective less sensitive determining consequences behaviour defined acquired learned helplessness last years wife leave me diagnosed bipolar disorder got addicted drugs family essentially disown me life hard rarely happy ive gotten by month ago lost career said emotionally consistent enough lead team fired me great ill survive right got job delivering chinese food signed take classes go better field old ass motherfucker wrecked car parking lot hes saying fault even though car even moving im certain insurance company fuck me drop me cant leave house beyond bicycle go no public transportation town cant earn income job relied car bank account bills coming due end month mention deductible cover it ive trying hard happy everyone else makes look easy wish so even friends talk with dont im fucking failure deserves alone miserable im starting think whatever do never get better want pain stop feel like option,1 +know anymore advice would appreciatedi psychotic depression feel like im spiraling special type insanity redflag seems like logical option me though know best option everyone else around me im daily pot smoker know probably making everything worse long run thing makes feel truly alive content ive tried taking break months found still feel depressed bored bit stable im several types medication feel like working anymore ive rope sitting closet case felt like really needed kill myself feel like stupid want hurt people around me relationships falling apart feel hopeless world future know good life thoughts head torment me ive hospitalized confessed therapist suicidal feeling really want go back think help really know myself one talk to would really appreciate advice feel lost alone,1 +welcome school yo person make decision wether cannot go bathroom certain time,0 +often yall beat meat normally november is bored wondering whats normal yall,0 +yuh girl submitted college apps tonight feel good rn eeeeee,0 +anyone else younger clearly remember small used stare ceiling imagine would like walk it would think floor ceiling spots ceiling would different furniture great way pass time,0 +film one finest american bmovies s looking serious film look elsewhere however looking action lot laughs tongue cheek variation cops fighting gangsters well worth watching everyone chews scenery bit thats really film about everyone quite funny donald sutherland john lithgow great chemistry need another film together,0 +want commit suicide really badly guts imagine often thougheverything hurts me feel lonely might undiagnosed depressionmaybe one day kill myself live anymore feeling really suicidal,1 +gimmenow gimme negative karma want ,0 +story lost virginity story want able tell someday,0 +help sore throat hurt kinda hard describe sickness sore throat like scratchy sharp lump feeling throat cough drops dont much assume tick lately kinda rub tongue fucking sucks,0 +feel like anything worth living anymorei dropped high school last weeks school since ive gotten extremely motivated make college enrolled community college lived home years absolute hell hate city lived in felt trapped parents house hated life solid incredibly lonely years last august finally it accomplished goal made real university finally space ive made friends first time even got tiny bit attention girls completely foreign concept me first semester realize hard would adjust new life failed class got put academic probation im certain meet minimum gpa requirement dismissed end semester saving grace retake classes summer ive lost financial aid able pay them also losing apartment become home love apartment world falling apart im going lose everything worked hard for thought packing moving back home making feel suicidal ive awake several days ive eaten couple times week feel sick time appetite im trying desperately pass finals im angry ive done myself suffered much get pissed away like nothing finally made actual real human contact people little bit social life first time going lose all everything world going taken away fault im fucking stupid social retard habitual failure im fuck like everyone told childhood want live anymore want die cant anymore hate myself cant go back personal hell again cant face truly want wake anymore life lonely terrible short time school best life know bad killing hurts people around you feel defeated want anymore worth now,1 +normalize femdom people gotta normalize bc gotta get dom gf mean um mean judging people opinions bad yes,0 +treat others want treated bullshitive tried ever since kid ive person comes others need it ive person talks loners stand awkwardly bar ive tried care others make life better treating peoe well supposed make happy always fucking alone luck never sided me perhaps im playing deck s reload deck maybe hand better take high road better person bullshit,1 +dogs street fucking like fuck bitch ,0 +breaki close breaking love enough passions respected dreams exhausted get bed missing college missing be want go doctor want drugs want shitty councillor give shit come head years want dependent something hurting myself pain even relieving anymore hate want alive cry help even want anybody read it want anybody know anybody care need reason leave place behind,1 +snoopy pog boopy snoopy,0 +peoplejesus hope every day get ran death isnt person nobody hate everything me dont want fam find bodythat would horrible friend also suicidal doesnt even know hes reason im alive drops life ima head style,1 +practical approachhi im grim thoughts lately im yo guy gratuate hates major law dont connections looks shrewdness even get hired worked call centers im secretary ended college five years ago live dad tonight said hed relieved without house rent high jobs hard low paid people say im smart ive never clicked office thought would easier cleaner end drama earning living im corporate jobs field job poor motor skills like technology im also gay children think of social stigma pay im is keep living dying looks like practical option jobs rent stigma rejection else grave sorry whine need ideas,1 +ignore this small rant im kinda angry right since joined server among us since game starting decided write start chat person named death note decided say something like shut lime i lime game bit rude literally reason trying rude writing start talking buddies chat wrote oh sorry game starts someone reports body death note friends start saying fucking proof got voted lost fucking temper im shorttempered im working fixing got angry started cussing person friend jumped defend them round ended rejoined server banned me mean fair enough nice go like im sorry person loosing temper gonna ignore fact rude reason towards me,0 +transphobes like kindly go fuck yourself im going suggest jump bridge strongly insist stick genitals blender feeding dog thats all good bye,0 +comment ill roast based post history im bored got nothing better yeh,0 +anyone there could use supporti graduated degree neuroscience psychology loving providing family girlfriend loves would anything me part fraternity guys consider brothers everyone seems think things going well me ive medication since started anxiety depression diagnosed bipolar current issue insomnia began taking ambien help actually get bed sun came up discovered affects sleep became problem looked forward going sleep every day knew going get ambien high span years regular prescription it along samples weaker sleeping pills father also doctor plenty medication around house month ago procedure done given vicoden took one bottle effect given additional bottle percocet took percocet pain next week so began abuse them mixing anything could get hands on valium xanax codeine ambien lunesta muscle relaxers bad several nights ended stumbling parents room morning screaming something yet put bed keep quiet become apparent problem girlfriend would tell verbal abuse give take them finally came clean family seeing therapist week doctor giving enougb dont go withdrawal feelings guilt embarrassment still there feel like ever get better ive tried stop own several times past months cant alone family already seen one member go rehab would never want deal again current moment reasons keep living keep love happy every passing day think would easier live lives without burden,1 +tiredi dont really know say im tired living im tired feeling alone like know people me cant help feel alone empty ive tried killing multiple times including tonight wanna die want live best friend myself dont know whats next though,1 +relationship over breaking umrmcmeme loser dummy pos,0 +death mean parents toxic relationship come endi m shouldve never born family honestly enough fights time relationship grew toxic fight cannot focus anything come third world country nothing this therapy police support academic rigor simply dropped past weeks cannot sleep fights cannot study fights grades arent enough escape country im study here ive stay house face fights fights influenced life beyond measure friends dont know movies friends like eating friends like know constantly publicly ignored feels like,1 +hullo could comment wholesomecutefunny stories would greatly appreciated need something make smile im feeling hot rn would like something brighten day bit much thanky great rest day,0 +f cant take anymore happenedchild sexual assault tw last night dad things thought asleep hes done several times throughout last years like this nails hurt really bad already bleeding inside even fucking repel him acts like everything normal right wanna slice wrists open ive listening music since hes let day school lil peep uicideboy friends followers thing keeping alive even feel much emotionally except anger shock even cried yet know gonna get worse know im gonna kill myself would take drugs bit experience them know probably thing thats gonna keep numb,1 +keep sense hope feels like theres future just ventingalmost every experience another example messed hopeless future is friends years partner proper long term job ever struggle basic things everyone else breezes through im messed up theres point living im always going alone like always back mind im lost cause,1 +one likes hungarian models shit bro found dream girl instagram hungarian like shiiiiiit,0 +love preterm surveys question like after making mistakes expect get back try again obviously never make mistakes even answer that bother asking excited labs like course im gonna happy show lab every thursday morning,0 +magnitude stalingrad tragedy concisely presented end note movie in battle stalingrad one million people killed action froze death died starvation russians romanians italians hungarians germans austrians surrounded men sixth army o taken prisoners returned homeland years laterbr br what story tell fieldmarshall paulus surrendered share hardship captivity men special treatment highest ranking prisonner taken soviet army when presence nuremberg trials asked fate prisoners declared fine freed war died east germanybr br the film presents first part tragedy actual battle stalingrad however entire picture fate prisonners also forgotten,0 +realized something years kids gonna like grandpa gavin grandma amelia,0 +u h h h h okay today tech ed teacher said ya know funky kid class exact words said compliment like okay cool right ahokay sign like talking teacher takes pointer finger sticks little hole inbetween fingers im like hold buckaroo im mid shock cant stop laughing want cry,0 +normal last night dream fucked girl hard somehow grew dick ima girl btw,0 +try stay positivei try establish routine things make happy go walks eat well exercise im baking general things bring joy happiness try find joy small things like cat plants nice weather end day still enough end day still want die want long nap never wake up cant handle much feel pathetic life isnt even bad im weak going happen soon breaking point near,1 + year olds levelheaded adults care from political standings are color skin is sexual orientation is anything could identify pansexual monkey care its joke chill long jerk cool pleasant conversation allow to moral moron gen z dominate,0 +recall seeing film tv years ago paying full attention maybe even missing first half came conclusion dull rated decided revisit last night see missed anything first time certainly did one disturbing amazing films time clearly much influence films today probably forever cant believe thought film boring br br a young jon voight burt reynolds give performances careers supported ned beatty ronny cox story leave sense disgust dread long watch it truly horrifying oh mention theme song great well well is movie seen movie fans everywherebr br everyone see movie experience expect picnic,0 +yayheart palpitationsmy heart going crazy right now hurts like hell fuck it maybe end goodness hope so maybe finally give pass away peacefully sleep gonna take diet pills seal fatei hope lg,1 +tf slugsoul k people subreddit see mf,0 +yall believe astrology like know sign shit fun read personality yall actually believe it jus curious,0 +would get someone loved committed redflagmy girlfriend depression anxiety think might commit redflag since told trying commit redflag worst week bullied ignored cutting herself dreams weeks ago came true last week week dreaming thing girlfriend committing redflag really bad makes sad making wanna cut myself also told commit redflag im gonna commit redflag,1 +helpplease spent three hours today sitting roof four stories flat concrete please give reason stop hate am hate options future hate society live in inherently flawed theres reason anything else,1 +woah worked ampxb httpspreviewredditauizonkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbcbcededfe,0 +wish humans could euthanisedthe reason arent continue paying shitty treatment,1 +uluciferr spamming hentai sub mods fuck learn fucking lesson ubritish_empire_,0 +want black guy suck dick lips mouth look like would sloppy feel amazing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +feel nothing help suicidal friend withso semi good friends guy since th grade th grade seen problems unfold throughout years things becoming serious now suffers migraines adhd though think thats root problems talked found without knowing followed every step guide subreddit puts bit ease open comes things point theres nothing provide conversation him tried know hes suicidal constantly jokes killing mean time late cutting himself accidentally went pretty deep recently ended bleeding bed i seen marks pretty sight gotten addicted snus energy drinks parents contacted community youth center made sad depressed feels burden problem parents late started acting different jokes differently hes straight forward comes redflag talks loudly around others school it body language different etc know do wanted join military like brother grew work adhd thing thinks might fix move summer hell get new start even make far theres still half year left then told wants friends understand bullied younger something hard know though might root thoughts know anymore cant much help anymore say variations dont anything stupid continuing talk could enough hes getting worse taking toll point making sad,1 +happened found sexual kink find reaction sexual kinks mean stuff like foot fetish boot fetish gentle femdom,0 +fuck macbeth essay macbeth write fucking clue play dont speak fluent ye olde englishe anyone explain macbeth,0 +feel sad bye im tired sad rn ffs hate,0 +want talkim year old trans women cant take anymore,1 +im still hung boyfriend _pain_,0 +suicidal half life thinking finally giving inthis going poorly formatted rant apologize advance im turning may mo friends lucky get house week depression gets bad often cant get bed im three years behind school currently hospital program includes delegated time school work im brink getting kicked im struggling attend program really last chance help im comes school cant handle school help fucking hospital setting own im fucked also idea fuck get relationship even able people cheating creeps couldnt handle screwed like that words im miserable lonely asshole nothing look back to friends never sort meaningful relationship fallen behind school really want give up ive miserable long really doesnt seem possible ever happy even managed get life together pass high school unlike kids dont know want future ive known long remember wanted enlist military thanks mental illnesses isnt possible hell point living prospects fucked even succeed never asked shit genuinely wish didnt exist life sick fucking joke,1 +dont really know say hereon saturday mom house im going one two things im going either find gun may may hidden somewhere house shoot head bedroom im going run away nothing change clothes find way kill another way cant find gun course dont want sympathy ive gotten enough that dont want help people tried im beyond help im done living life alongside people lie cheat treat like shit used afraid people would gonem dont care want die wont face whatever happens put bullet brain selfish maybe dont care anymore threatened living story life thus far especially mother never consolation love asked wrong feeling always threats anger frustrations never telling wrong mom love me maybe probably going change decision kill two days all cant keep friend without teased bullied brunt jokes cant hold conversation girl age matter time theyre drawn away constant sadness boring personality youre likeable youre good looking funny things dont think would situation burden ive set friends teachers family many others finally lifted wont holding back anymore long find gun hopefully go quickly quietly nobody hear news spread among school especially hope special ceremony goes me let die fade obscurity extra unneeded pity sadness thanks coming ted talk,1 +dogs cutest shes vomiting taking shit filler ahsjdjdjdjkdkskskajahajjskdkfjfjfkfkfkdksjdjdjjddk,0 +one talk toi know im writing this im pretty sure im going kill today ive tried kill before time think go chicken out im years old im parttime cashier live mom shell horrified course think probably better rip bandaid get disappointed sad me know suck know ive thought many years point im waiting die want wait anymore life hard nothing makes worth it friends put work maintain it anything look forward to matter happens future ill still me problem hate person hate whiny is lazy is much coward is ive tried little me cant matter progress ill always me toxic person know im writing this nothing matters nothing say write change reality reality is im nothing one mom care shell devastated ive tried alive life cant anymore shell forgive me shell forgive me really really hope last day im alive know im writing this theres nothing talk about theres nothing say ive messed life want go back it,1 +youyou anxiety imagine yourself dead happy free anxiety makes suffer anything worst suffering is suffer you exist want dead dont love yourself alive know death is whatever ok you anything better day this like many days worst day your life every morning imagine body hanging tree your life is without light youve thinking years day waste time never die youre terrified hurting family friends everyone loves you emotional crisis come back sub read write something youre alone feel better youll back soon,1 +guys dye hair white purple im thinking dying hair half black half whitepurple idk yall think,0 +one give tom jerry format tom smirks times collage,0 +us really realwhats real real real problems seem giant feel incredibly lonely problems stem me therefore thinking logically terminating also ends problems might selfish guilt also end me want loved someone im never happened know how end do cant feel alone cant feel anything believe afterlife problems simply cease exist perception dictates reality removing ability perceive removes hurt logical step,1 +feel unlovedhatedso im extroverted kid im rey depressed lonely put facade family friends acting happy know theyll never understand today feel like im gonna end all mother person literally half said hate you dont talk me supposed handle that dad sisters also dont like me youd think id friends online games right wrong im often called fag girl im preadolescent boy sound like yr old girl often take lengths rope lying around tie around neck know would feel like gives clarity closure everyone expects much yet preform miles,1 +changed mind ending todayive posted like anyone remembers saying suicidal going kill yet things changed im later today ive enough worthless burdening others im done really want kill myself really alternative point bother telling talk someone emergency numbers helplines people worth saving,1 +miss school yes really get wrong online school sucks im vacation im like matter states instead liquid solid vapor states horny hungry bored send help sos,0 +cant post pics thursday thought text based posts fridays weekends,0 +feel like im losing everyone lovei feel like girlfriend getting apart friends stuff together without me ive home sick havent able see anyone anyway im getting worse worse everyday dont know stop it life become something ive begun loath wish could kill without impact anyone wish could feel sensation hanging ceiling,1 +hello people question bimgus,0 +please rapunzel want hug youre really cute want wrap hair sleep,0 +life complete standstill wont matter im alive deadseriously last two years rough me worked ass last months make everything nice people stopped smokingdrinking got rejected interview today result caused big red mark profile cant anything anymore im drunk decided worth anymore,1 +clubi turn days wanna leave wife wanna go somewhere cant find end shit,1 +omg got bf battle frog im gay thought that,0 +would better overhave ever thought killing yourself sweet relief pain comes living world worrying girls school paying bills thoughts past trauma worries future trauma ever wonder life would better without youre burden people would better without you ever wish terrible things youve done would go away pain would subside nothingness ever wish couldnt feel anymore life much part life though suppose yes theres bad comes good too friends family overall enjoy life im thinking hard would take care cat would parents friends feel leave world matter never feel never know pain caused losing me thats though want everyone happiness others brings happiness me suppose bring joy one sole earth stick around never know maybe life turn alright,1 +gonna move ive crushing girl weve actually close thought felt way found sex person hurt even said love you ive decided let part go saw kissing another guy snap feel like give find someone doesnt leave delivered doesnt relationships people,0 +im scared bullied bicurious side note please bi knife case happens,0 +need answers quick take shit wait hour minutes now much time want wait,0 +opened things go welli thought telling friends would help get pain away thing people told problems made told friends family problems like even family problems kind acted like trigger told one friend smtg personal superise r victim stopped texting friends mine tell problem life listen give support comes make feel like bad guy hard explain finally told sucical thought friend said said normal chill know explain hope u understand tried say,1 +plz helpi tried commit redflag attempt unsecesfull years since regret fact survived every single day past years want again worst part never told parents would say telling attention hate that,1 +floor made floor know ur shocked yes u read right,0 +change mind people say but loved ones miss you bad people say if repent going burn helljust something needed get chest experiences irl whenever subject redflag gets brought up single response get reason it something along lines but family miss you thats selfish think family go through lesser extent bunch bullshit implying im coward first all actually make point let say dare anybody call selfish coward wanting out would literally like calling somebody piece shit quitting job working dislike ask born shit show world no agree this no this one going sound cheesy but consent born no importantly owe anybody anything brought life specifically owe anybody stay alive fuck no disagree selfish also hypocrite dare condemn me dare look me dare insult wanting make choice regarding life dare feel entitled putting ton effort continuing existence want what feel bad yourself selfish petty selfish please note theres big difference people essentially blaming victim essentially threatening victim trying guilt staying alive theres big difference type person people actually try talk things listen im like attacking everybody replies suicidal person person grew religious family ive heard fair share people telling if believe god burn hell get tortured forever people always say theyre to protect me theyre trying help me hmm sounds familiar lot people tell dont kill people feel sad pretty much say theyre just trying help like religious nuts answers anything why stay alive why believe god literally met threats condescension people tell theyre just trying help theyre jerk off want feel like moral high ground want feel like oh boy im good person stopped somebody killing today reminding people miss die or ofc oh boy converted another sucker cult mean sure religious people threatening torture least actually think bad person think need think like them people basically calling piece shit decide go redflag tell type person worse,1 +constantly fucking up cannot anything right try make changes social lasts long drained back isolating feeling depressive feeling wanting leave it everything enjoyable feels like distraction actually thoroughly enjoyed something since kid kind drugalcohol i often true sure get little fleeting moments enjoyment short lived exhausted even here hate,1 +knew scary would pray front me yet entire thing angry attack god not trying get beliefs here happened knew knew wrong told one day tell anyone actually threatened suicide front ex wife knife yet still painted evil doer story knew lying made sure tell crazy one exes went end accusing rape why would even bring up took another ex home injury together might try lie say something happened nothing did gave chills man would tell ex childs mother would murdered long ago friends offer help,1 +really want butterfly knife im allowed one meanwhile friends fucking swords,0 +feel trapped lack inherent self worth troubling extent pointim quite sure posting etiquette around here anyones willing hear dithering could use talk would inthread ideally id like anyone whod like chime in,1 +mental health issues destroying academic career need second opinionever since started university seed doubt put mind fact cannot achieve decent grades anymore unfortunately always incredibly hard myself last year pull three exams i study mech eng due mental breakdown ive taken year three exams trying overcome issues took solace fact im time year ive received results got highest grades ever two exams failed third the third also worth least terms contribution final degree grade sent spiral think im lazy failure im supposed submit coursework pass module ive abandon sent thinking suicidal thoughts sent back nasty self harming habit want go final year absolutely smash enjoy feel incredibly lost bewildered cant seem hold sane thought anymore im convinced worst thing earth know thats preposterous really want harm really really dont feeling right now need outside opinion perception predicament think thank much taking time read,1 +im usefuli use infact since im deaf parents buy cochlear implants upgrades them seems selfish costing parents thousands dollars dad unemployed mom losing job april nothing going well so im depressed none friends take seriously since im always one trying happy even though cover please help cant handle life much,1 +average male teenager loses virginity around age means technically im average,0 +guys listen up httpswwwwattpadcomthetriopartthedangerearthholdshttpswwwwattpadcomthetriopartthedangerearthholds story wrote pls read it number charts pls get top cmon pls,0 +please talk how good felt masturbate last night sub fact say genuinely concerns like fuck people,0 +could use advice avoid thoughtsi suicidal thoughts often lately if walk front truck things go away act becoming harder harder listen voice mind tells things suggests way advice stop thoughts really dont want sure stop them please help,1 +hurtingis someone talk,1 +today made choice go sign gym membership working part isnt hard fact new place fairly wide open struggle open spaces walked signed up,1 +dont think anymoreive tried kill times pastbut baby attempts middle school really werent going go anywhere last time tried almost died overdosebut friend called police deal borderline personality disorder point dont know feel anymore tend ruin relationships but dont know feelings warranted somehow everything gets really skewed bpd really sad mix really would need write pages pages describe feel regular basis but sum hate thinking killing bday th feb notice whenever plan never actually money buy sleeping pills sometimes im really set ways sometimes want get knocked wake solid year idk im miserable dont know ,1 +show face internet im thinking starting youtube channel fun im questioning whether want that style videos want requires showing face dont want kind im talking picture thought process this pros fun youtube channel cons may potentially hard time getting employed somewhere future channel isnt going real name probably gonna really unpopular channel barely subs basically unknown even channel blow up thats great im famous whatever good way im unlikable person something bad i connected real face become controversial internet fame actually mean anything real world everyone recognize pewdiepie famous youtuber goes grocery store even hated controversial people like onision applies job somewhere likeliness anyone actually recognize him jenna marbles said delete original channel ruining moms job applications employers searched name jenna got new channel replaced irl last name dogs name marbles everything solved easy is tldr want show face but name youtube channel im worried might ruin reputation concern having,0 +tell sleep dont want lowkey,0 +homeless atm lost family speak anymore lost friends sitting here unemployed alone couch even know never felt alone,1 +am need get chestits currently slept yet get half hour school again almost four hour long exam morning ive had no fucking sleep thoughts racing head again go school choice ive three panic attacks tonight last one lasting minutes felt shit long swear gonna get shitter mums gonna fucking kill me im gonna fail exams even fall asleep brain shut fuck once fuck,1 +sis moment sis moment,0 +think shirt girls diisaugxyxufidoaofiduwisiofifidofpfpeidi,0 +joline heather graham sets husband carl luke wilson disappeared clear head marriage joline committed marriage starts journey find carl yet way discovers lot herself trip encounters bountiful interesting characters unknowingly help find waybr br in eyes classical road movie moves right pace some viewers may find slow throughout movie keeps humorous note joline responds craziness world around warm knowing sometimes sad smile actresses actors give wonderful performances musical score immaculate ,0 +starting seem redflag rational solution problemsim scared going hell viritually every major religion save hinduism buddhism believes nonbelievers spend eternity hell since theyre mutually exclusive guess everyone equal chance frying end time die mental health issues school trouble financial problems exist anymore dead men feel attend class bills pay whatever comes death different life better worse different risk im willing take now miss shots take everyone says life taking risks ive depressed suicidal since fucking years old elementary middle high school adhd aspergers too so aside unable focus anything im socially awkward used known good weird kid funny nice could never convince step family loved them show affection way society understands always kept myself manage succeed survive school somehow ill debt rest entire life anyway survive school ill living paycheck paycheck get shoved nursing home probably live long anyway familys genes include cancer diabetes deadly addiction lovely stuff oldest grandparent died like meanwhile tons innocent babies stillborn brave firemen get crushed s soldiers get blown shreds oil wars surgeons engineers get cancer nothing happens overweight neckbearded aspie life direction purpose reddit understand man,1 +ive started thinking everything makes stop thinking killing going gone soon ill never get quality againi used miserable thought redflag least times week recently got way better actually happy ive realized things make happy rare specific also gone gone forever difficult find quality happiness every time think talking someone stop know theyll call cops care dont guts tell anybody know person want die tldr need find way add cushion everyday life something really makes happy goes away wont miserable get back normal,1 +whenever lift depression something comes along pushes back down whats pointits dumb start feeling happy something life forces depressed again whats point trying stay happy last moment im suicidal ive felt past instead im stuck stage feeling ok feeling horrible therapy helping antidepressants helping family trash theyre mean seem care anyone else family were emotionally distant friends talk either feel like im losing mind im seriously considering redflag police make suffering end,1 +teacher graded ap calculus test got got mc part thursday grinded shit ton problems weekend it first ap calculus test lets go,0 +loved movie much im big fan amanda byness recently ended show admire herbesides body acting capability good actressbr br the movie great girl named viola wants play soccer school cuts girls soccer team gets upset brother set go prestigious school decides leave england viola wants make impression playing soccer team boarding school goes school tries soccer team gets in meanwhile meets duke sensitive guy plays soccer team really likes olivia laura ramsey likes sebastianwho really viola sebastian dating monique suspects sebastian himselfbr br this certainly chick flick enjoyed lot funny lovable think seen amanda act better,0 +really need help im trying drive insanity kill easieri want eat days now meanwhile taking mg caffeine equivalent cans coke caffeine bunch risky things drugs im totally insane need help think go insane ultimately die,1 +holy cow failed tests finally passed got drivers license swear test bane existence since got permit finally passed drive wherever want probably nowhere since quarantine still thing lmao two days th birthday awesome,0 +jugular veinif got stabbed jugular vein long would take die,1 +kill aspirini got whole bottle bayer extra strength aspirin take all kill me doesnt me permanent damage im weight around lbs,1 +suicidal thoughts againthese thoughts strong feel unable speak move body know want kill found love life want spend rest life him hate everything life every little thing attempted university times depressed stupid finish stuck shitty warehouse jobs rest life remember every single minor inconvenience life cant stop thinking them starting remembering boys molesting sexually abused feeling constantly lonely isolated since could go hate english never open here feel extra suicidal today fuck corona fuck job fuck people fuck life fuck everything,1 +went mothers house again memories came rushing back know thisi went back mothers house year half lying bed razor surgical blade next ready cut deeper ever before memories came back even know had cant fucking this ive tried killing multiple times called fucking liar courthouse every therapist concellor besides two called liar psychologists said lovely woman im dramatic fuck sakes would beat me constantly scream me punish brother did watched molested nothing left alone fucking convicted pedophile multiple times allowed eat would call fat cunt even though underweight every individual rib visible literally anorexic body besides arms legs reason could fit fingers collar bone fingers shoulder blade ribcage fucking perfect top fucking abandoned year old me pm happened metres back suburbs away closet place could go locked noone home got sitting waiting metres away convicted pedophiles,1 +lots people mylife love care still feel empty alone every day wake up feel hopeless lost feel afraid trapped mind dread waking everyday wish something control would kill already hate alive miserable everyday live want live see world much offer like this feel guilty wanting die people want live cannot hope family one day understand hopefully forgive acknowledge pain going through feeling alone right,1 +mouth fire dxevuvgefbvnfrvirnv whole packet mint bubblegum hell it mouth literally burning,0 +thinking ugly im fat went kg earlier year mom unsupportive soon back kg u hate fat am eating less damn hard smh idk im complaining lol fault anyway,0 +whats new hope were going strong must fight weirdoes hot,0 +talk someone suicidali thinking friend suicidal would talk them try relate experiences try convince know feel feel like negative side would watering down situation emotions approach think telling i cant even imagine pain in let let comfort them feel negative side would get even emotional dramatic situation gets worse anyone explain role trying assist someone predicament,1 +need vent receive advice encouragement went major jaw surgery i replaced tmj joint disk fat graft mouth wired shut next months fill time would spent talking eating generally good time instead studying standardized tests need go good college studied least hours day put strain recovery this upper body muscles strained affects jaw subsequently new disk luckily hard work payed off,1 +fluffy hair appreciation post boys fluffy hair incredible girls fluffy hair incredible enbys fluffy hair incredible fluffy hair soft u fluffy hair come across u compliment u sorry,0 +decided hang myselfhaving tested method confirm likely work hanging belt padding between people realise hang door im sad hopeless tired thank everyone one helped sub good people,1 +want attempt redflag least feel somethingi want attempt redflag im miserable live thats fine thats also fine maybe someone care then want show people im pain im danger feel like one takes seriously like one knows much pain im in nobody understands want make know need show them people care theyll see maybe ill feel something ive miserable years want kill everyday every hour ive never able attempt im weak pathetic feel like im lying myself end week im going try wether live die im it,1 +im sorry im sorry making bunch posts pppie im sorry deleted posts,0 +cant save anyone understand im trapped herei cant save anyone started feel better tried help someone close back feet im scared cause theres chance might attend funeral im supposed to ive said everything ive tried can ive tried good person ive tried help them ive tried help find meaning point purpose put needs theirs put wellbeing helping them im trying work ive lost purpose cause purpose dream blink gather ideas time theyre always wrong ideas im gonna change fit person power local dreamer tyler lt,1 +idea repost totally something people subreddit ive seen people literally comment posts im lol feel like mods work filter system get notified investigate someone says im insert age could uncool say thought it,0 +finally cleaned phones photos took hour so finally deleted photos camera roll left,0 +im going kill tonightive decided tonight night it ive given everything want stop feeling surrender whatever death hold me im liar cheater thief bad person deserve this hurt people due selfishness see reason give future even hell real feel like deserve it hope enough pills get job done hope get see mom im dead goodbye,1 +well like half year ago met girl classroom lonely person obviously feel love really hard because know one nice many time finally someone nice think person really care anyway became friends got boyfriend i never told felt her well still friends also closer friends and months ago got busy focused stuff get little distant two months ee talked like times which considering used talk every daythen weeks ago met another girl started talking good friendship growing us thought better even nice all feel kind romantic feeling something felt friend let us name old friend v new friend k thought jave already overcame v love anymore shureand well days ago made videocall weeks without interaction us saw v felt weird again think fell love again maybe never stopped love her idk saw cute face beautiful green eyes could anything fell something againthe problem that v boyfriend like way thought good friend thought already finished feelings her confused still like her want tied always promised interfere life waythe growing friendship k made thought good again could let v go wanted but dot know still like her confusing afraid start acting like dumb them want peace many problems worry about helping depression also means really really like v situation would shitty me boyfriend chance her know would never achieve something her kind mind tricking again making fake scenarios v involved even notice happens this shitty thought would never problems,1 +one friends deadone friends committed redflag lost parents stuff probably happened much her older sis found hanging family barn one friends also considering it,1 +completely demoralize anyone else one media careseveryones quick jump red herrings like gun control push political agenda care real problems think incredible increase interconnectivity world allowing people speak mind one willing listen time people listen bodies drop people glamorize make competition way see shoot people know really messed up think ways change someone shoots news agency people start care lot about listen to youth america around world hurting personally see latter thoughts im glad subreddit here let know thoughts,1 +like used watch enjoy high budget hollywood films huge screens surround audio film seems distant however surprised close human watch it natural feel like nobody wrote scenario nobody directed it director writing scenario watch it me time spend watching film time go another world film first sample shows always must watch millions dollars budgeted films surround audio capabilities go another world films sends another world or maybe makes return back yourself without millions dollars budget technical capabilities felt like im reading letranger camus,0 +im kind slow seriously thought like february fuck almost half way past month im losing track time,0 +cant anymoresince june feeling awful everything explote november relationship end really love tried fight us treated like shit last week came back really lonely couldnt break literally die tried kill self started go psychiatrist psychologist im taking antidepressants sleeping pills make day last week nice felt little bit better week awful dont know whats happening cant anymore last night spend like hours thinking im going this dont want mother find body dont want destroy life right cant think dont want anymore ex gf told wanted told needed time alright told wouldnt feel better even waited feel better destroyed me broken heart even really loved still do feel like garbage like cant anything right im deadlift family cant get bed cant stop crying everyday wake anxiety attack cant keep confronting here needed told somebody sorry really bad spelling country speak spanish,1 +upthingy everyones comments except one screw whoever end unworthy will go here hate please ,0 +care anymore death would mean otherstoday went funeral uncle saw whole family sad death beloved men many tears shed however whole funeral one though mind funeral could really kill self family would much pain it realized matter anymore me always one reason ive waiting long it realisation sparks sort happiness me longer fear consequences,1 +imagine gave one hella expensive award im getting cause im stinky loser butt im girl big boobs,0 +people sub sexist like bro actually annoying someone tell try make stop something,0 +hope redflag hurts peoplei hope people know fault people arent hope know hope hurt,1 +took long time could find title special videothek berlin lucky find english version hollandish undertitles think one best horrormovies ever seems strange people call movie black comedy must admit wasnt able laugh about saw first time and second time one hand trelkovski seems nice even cute shy behaviour hand beats boy playground explanation that weired thing course transformation simone choule fact doesnt know really is halluzinations terrifying movie course mind flat brings female side also moved think thats interesting question shizophrenic behaviour hard understand horrible see two sides identities fighting other result cuts hand first later jumps hisher window terrible cry mean repeat again soul cage something egyptian hieroglyphs egyptian stuff fact heshe looks like mummy hospital thats incident clue point view,0 +read nancy drew preteen collect books grownup loved effect used end and little bit beginning movie line drawings style books morphed scenes movie neat way pointing connections situations movie books example scenes oriental antiques dealer reminiscent many scenarios remember books thought ned perfectly cast emma roberts wonderful st century interpretation nancy drew just like picture betty crocker keeps times,0 +hey first postlast saturday tried commit redflag again failed obv im alright went hospital everything good ive bit dizzy thats it nobody knows except bf hes help even guilt tripped buying drugs knows hard time saying no told redflag attempt really feels like give shit ampxb ive lonely really friends people would call friends never want meet barely reply fb ive never posted before life seems much depressing think back ampxb,1 +lonely hopelessim thinking ending life next couple days everything feels hopeless ive suicidal years decades im tired cycling feeling okay desperately depressed fucked missed important deadline basically set life back full year put relationship jeopardy cant deal sadness disappointment top normal depression want kill want die help me,1 +hate lifeive struggled depression long time nights ago first time ive ever seriously considered killing im scared since think about life meaningless basically hate end suffering animals me ive thinking receiving help much anxiety go forward it im scared mom tell dont need help im depressed like sister went help anxiety depression everyday battle im slowly losing used smoke weed escape lately ive bad get massive anxiety attacks im high looks like escape death,1 +birthday today keeping track number wishes receivefor fking reason midnight birthday wishes am birthday wishes am birthday wishes mom cousin noon birthday wishes pm birthday wishes total pm still birthday wished people onlynone friends remember op sad ill keep updating save later,0 +looking typical war movie it note testosteronepumped carnagecraving war buffs there bother although film russian characters wwii expect see nazis cannons blood gore etc film people cause war fight war film ordinary people war happens choices make dealing itbr br acting cinematography writing perfect s here certainly appreciate russian like me even not probably love it speak russian look ruscico russian cinema council dvd version got subtitles different languages english dubbing one id say good course good original russian track some stuff lost translation good english subtitles go check out especially studying film aspect,0 +loneliness might kill mewhen first starting writing post included way much details bullshit ive year life stopped becausei want bore sob story long story short years life lived fullest battling major depressive disorder ptsd anxiety ive abused forms people claimed love me including family however also traveled created cool art danced lot fast forward today cute lil apartment cats within walking distance job im sitting thinking much longer take feeling loneliness handful people consider friends far away difficult imagine getting romantically close anyone every recent relationship left traumatized broken coping skills working anymore know going head cant reverse broken heart ive able overcome every single relationship one rough chest literally hurts idk even writing anymore heard sounds nice,1 +walking talking breathing meme school tldr im meme school interesting really dont know exactly got there think something seen coming last year decided run class sga president thought would cool pass stickers name cool slogan it also thought would cool different designs maybe one day week continue keep mind whole thanos infinity stone meme thing name already similar thanos first four letters same people saw stickers collectables like infinity stones people asking five point on kinda memed corner every often see sticker either someones binder thermos actually pretty funny someone stuck sticker lunch line cafeteria still year half later think probably still graduate senior year anyways back original point meme weird makes virtually impossible normal conversation someone without bringing something funny happened next day basically everyone class knows happened example yesterday th period algebra supposed quiz review quiz today actually happened follows go bag find packet review attached find periodic table accidentally stole th period bright yellow sheet paper someone immediately notices says me isnt like th time youve accidentally stole insert teacher name heres periodic table yes possible accidentally steal bright yellow sheet paper honestly dont know point everyone classroom laughing fact th time happened me actually think use book bag filing cabinet without dividers bell rings grab papers desk without thinking shove in someone else even binder well yes havent used since like first week school proceeds pull giant ass inch binder filled brim blank notebook paper ah is point someone asked give organized mess papers why give them proceeds pull empty folder page protectors you realize sort right yes would make feel better sorted right now meanwhile basically everyone cracking jokes stolen periodic table full binder blank notebook paper laughing couldnt breathe funny teacher chill situation trying mind business looks says many years paper there place school supplies home yes realize dont need much notebook paper right no ok insert name here hold paper feel it bring joy start laughing so freaking hard no doesnt bring joy teacher also laughing ok then tomorrow want come school paper book bag dont care put keep backpack meanwhile person hands back folder stuff it here organized everything according subject dont care girly folder keep it thank you give folder back tomorrow stuff it promise felt bad organize crap least give back folder meanwhile someone says randomly reddit karma cryptocurrency long running joke past two weeks want info ask me pushed edge crying laughter whole scene damn funny and yep sums entire minute period cant tell funny day text would there anyways fast forward today basically everyone class knows happened funny anything anything came yesterday dont feel like im carrying world back anyways youve read far congrats took hour write probably took five minutes read hope laughed anyone similar stories feel free share them would love hear them ps chance gets hot someone sees school come ask me likely probably me also ask yes actually happened know seems like isnt true entire reason funny xd,0 +context post struggled depression life position anything before recently never problems going on always serious issue slammed eight things work way around every day order actually function lot happened past two years stabler notredflag friends like i cannot really talk issues never experienced long lasting significant mental health issues personally told me understand frame reference understand going through things deal past six seven years extreme mood swings crushing apathy towards anything loss interest activities eating etc mostly died would call normal levels almost everyone experiences life manageable guess lack better words downside meant week long sometimes even months long depressive episodes sudden onsets debilitating depression its depression severe bland dictionary meaning severe feelings despondency despair way explaining it gone pushed side lines order deal stuff front centre life now cry commute back forth classes two weeks ago feelings depression would crushing week suddenly peaked skipped last two classes genuinely feel mentally able concentrate focus bad felt depressed was wish exaggerating order make coherent simple case yeah proof debilitation depression affects life not say every day fight majority goes avoid friends hide bathrooms intervals breaks normal capable human interaction again even know head around friends make feel better seeing remind matter stupid things mentally right there sometimes win sometimes not feels like uphill battle none lessons learn being friends good isolate yourself get retained remembered idk brain muscle memory anything best years managed keep one step forward two steps back herculean effort take another one step forward balance things again cycle know going get harder intense school next year increase workload general insanity redflag uni applications important exams determine future decisions making year supposed plans next five years life right feels like opportunity take kind action medication lmao get used side effects academic stakes still relatively manageable even makes cry sometimes guess always money made feel getting diagnosed leftover remains seriously mentally ill being alive waste money complex hahaha counsellor seeing past three something years tried broach topic possible diagnosis depression just opinion mgiht wrong let say opinion disagree based know seeing semi regularly last years two weeks ago same day missed last two classes lmao shot really pathway getting diagnosed least me end medication friends people diagnosed major depressive disorder among depression disorders took medication fallen contact due past year lockdown pandemic etc still remember talking side effects medication whether really worth still pain still struggling even medication talking made realize right could get worse treatment taken potentially severe side effects worth feeling like hell obstructed mind every day life the issue parents despite knowing almost zero absolutely nothing depression mental health issues genuine quote one i know nothing understand need explain me medication terrible side effects ruin life yet still manage hardline antimedication lack better words views percieved horrific life ruining side effects medication worth despite side effects,1 +reasons live valid reasonslooking end soon sick living everyday miserable nobody talk gives valid reason stay,1 +start school tomorrowand want die school makes want end miserable life even know supposed me cause want musician wanna singer im likely die anyway yet im put bullshit classes make miserable,1 +want hurt people cant continue livingi feel like die right crash field die impact cant control situation though feel like shit potentially endangering others want euthanasia,1 +catching busdoes anyone know catching bus subreddit moved banned reddit,1 +im getting pretty quicklyi came friends dad wanting become woman instead man felt way whole life still accept support me released prison probably failed drug test alcohol i drinking deal pain probably go back prison yet another years hard deal im getting thoughts killing myself feel like abomination transgender people commit redflag thats promising statistic emotionally drained cant think even listen another person talk seconds know do ,1 +certain die water overdosei want die now want injured attempt searched find answer,1 +much coward textcrisis help lines amso yeah idk good time try help lines go idk im anymore want quitkms ive suicidal thoughts since family thinks everything fine everyday thing dont see shouldve lived long yo now voices tell im worthless cant take anymore keep thinking things might get better miss baby black cat named bibi much reason live hes gone honestly think ineed emotional support cat something dont space cat anymore miss much cant take loss another pet keep losing sight life whats point family didnt want least dont show much need you barely talk people dont many friends cant it,1 +asked help get it want kill spite themive depressed long genuinely cant tell even adults supposed happy wanted help point asked it made beg give it go whole sob story sometimes want part statistic think even want happy want die know still years ahead want none them liked life far hell deal with fuck years more stupid game want play want stop life happening left fuck alone deal anyone anything ever hear anything heard ever again want stop existing want everything stop,1 +im disappointment im donef im currently freshman im failing two classes mainly cant fucking concentrate work damn mental health bet parents would fucking disappointed me got straight last quarter second quarter started im starting really want give up cried twice earlier school grades feeling like shit ten times worse dont even want anymore all killing would better teachers everyone thinks im bitch hurtful person cant even relationship without fucking up considering huge fuck up genuinely dont know anymore dont want keep going many things mind fucking hate living much,1 +confront mom trigger warning depression self harm originally posted radvice need answers asap okay ill try make short possible basically life going downhill friends left me cant keep single relationship anyone im beginning feel burned school first time grades quality assignments slowly dropping context ive self harming since im now ive clean months barely resist urge anymore cant even think whats stopping me lied psychiatrists therapists telling ive never suicidal thoughts hurt anyway also havent therapy months person close best friend knew self harming beginning parents dont even know know struggle anxiety depression dont know self harm ive expressing interest going inpatient recently only friend said thinks would good me ill tell relationship mom context shes emotional im closed off gets upset lot time dont like touching hugging kissing me used fight lot going school think little better im homeschooled today good day lot fun hanging sister mom im room feel horrible feel crashing down really want go downstairs hug mom cry tell everything convince put outpatient im scared ive never felt like wanting tell probably wont ever feel like do,0 +today best day life today around pm girlfriend went get dinner ate sat back car went christmas lights made ish seconds put arm around moved hand slowly dick started rubbing put arm around rested hand breast safe say im new man,0 +ive fighting itive fighting thoughts redflag still creep in im f ive problem since age subsided past like last years horrible comes goes first child born months ago depression worsened despite mediccine ppd fear heart telling anyone im afraid could take away baby im going hurt tendencies as know like plan anything hate thoughts,1 +finland fact every day finns love social distancing honestly corona affect us much since social distancing entirety lives bit shorter today still th fact yay,0 +seriously pointi just keep getting stumped like im better suddenly think youre worthless kill get with ive fantasizing much lately really know theres purpose continuing anybody thoughts,1 +saw movie first time years ago still new satisfied great hollywood makebelief story teenagers however lifelike much would want believe it stories never happen thats irritating watch movies like that play teenagers minds imagine many girls still high schools believed magic got disappointed recommend movie little sister cousin director spent time thinking plot instead thinking actors yes actors good idea worth lot films teenagers make better one,0 +one attracted girls cold make subtle cough red nose still would wear,0 +going binge eating practicing starvationmy stomach hurts feel like nauseous cant sleep even though past midight last days tried stop binge eating going alright far im getting better controlling myself still trouble moving around due suspected disability im improving think con is food mind often now annoying eventually ill full control caloric intake capable starving myself add dehydration maybe sleeping pills trick cant stand housebound anymore thought could use time write paint im stuck again head feels empty lack life pointless able live much outside apartment years now days less same im scared time flying by nothing changes wonder long go for mother live with close every day im worried might die fall hands people care me day remember situation another instance hopelessness thing brings amount joy fiction tried create myself cant write actual characters lack emotional capacity skill experience unless magically wake ability walk again see chance actual independence im useful im alright me want die try to,1 +ill never experience lovei realized never loved life hate unable find love affection throughout life way cope high sexdrive masturbation porn addiction close decades hate even every time fap pathetic grown man watching people sex fantasizing girl side fully know never able that used go callgirls times felt even like pathetic loser afterwards though every time found girl liked managed mess far either cant really open got awkward around her didnt make move whatever probably seem cold interest maybe even plain boring really know point never working relationship girls usually tell either even rare occasions really liked me somehow fucked up started ignoring lose interest whatever always same happened mostly younger actually around girls decent amount time nowadays chance meet girls online seem success either means success back then fuck success now im already years old never relationship depressed fuck hardly going anymore job anymore failed university student even try things going get better on friends married partners even see hardly anymore im slowly losing friends s many friends social contacts acquaintances even many girls interest me theres nothing left feel like alien nowadays tbh really hate lonely always used social person nowadays every day lonely stuff home laptop going gym alone occasionally dreams anymore goals complete failure life point pretty much feel pathetic life over time courage yet take life want hurt mother friends tldr feel like loser hate lonely never gotten experience true relationship best years wasted end life eventually,1 +want boyfriend looks like would walk forest wearing leaf crown surrounded woodland animals asking answer riddles three really much ask,0 +theres pointi understand happening me ive always generally quiet person never stuck head belong intrude anyones business feel im punished like devil past life theres light life glimpse enjoyment whatsoever really begin with thought joining military would different would help become confident outgoing same wake up go work get back home nothing sulk go bed start cycle over went depressed high school student depressed military member little year found months ago mom sick things physically mentally needs take care her light life suffering cant take care her im trying things get stationed closer her realistically much chance air force care me well being family care work do feel route destined take while im finally preparing it cant see living end next year let alone end enlistment theres point im gonna state misery entire time cant talk mental health theyll put redflag ward cant talk chaplains always ends talking religion something gave ago nobody truly talk it nobody probably cares anyways want stop feeling way even means stop feeling everything things used stop thinking family much would hurt them potential become something getting lot easier disregard things feel sooner later theres gonna nothing dissuade going it looks like notable thing happen life ill add air force redflag statistic maybe theyll start caring people more,1 +overdose mg tramadol tabletswhat would happen took much would kill me,1 +gave long time ago choiceabout year half ago quit job job months started getting depressed suicidal quit full intention using savings killing myself planned going big spending spree never happened instead nothing spent year half waking browse web was is spend lot time im almost completely broke able pay rent anything january ive made real attempt get job ive applied places year half ive unemployed options me much hope getting job short amount time even supposing get something id miserable right now jobs available would low end jobs horrible employment history having taken year work job months another year half off lack references see much else know friends family me many friends barely hang have mean much consider miserable ill work nothing else enjoy free time id go work miserable days off id browse web thatd it see point really matter killed died way friends family would still miss same seems like made choice long time ago see way money rent shelter food cant live like that cant live unless way supporting myself,1 +would make snoo would mean pfp would change id never change it foreverstan,0 +yeahi really much left except alcohol absolutly one life turn times like this always anyone else world remember things tell them im rational want call hotline again one life im sure much longer deal it im sorry edit im sorry want someone tell day was want deal again,1 +faulteverything fault screw everything cant live mistakes ive made make everything worse always do im worst enemy things would worked wasnt fuck up fault everything fault wasnt supposed born anyways shouldnt alive cant end it right now suffer longer hate much,1 +im convinced coronavirus test came back negative think right though really bad cough point getting difficult breathe whenever get cough gone next day lasted days also really hot conversation whatsoever smell little bit different think taste fine anyone know reliable test is said also said id get results next day reality took ,0 +alright bitches whose gonna friend get carried away title im trying get know cool people whats you wanna friends unlessjk unlessjk i,0 +bucket list diefor me im gonna get gun drive around best sceneries state eat best five meal restaurants stuff ive never done like indoor skydiving rock climbing ill go place isolated really nice view blow brains out wbu,1 +sean bean returns napoleonic hero richard sharpe sharpes honour fifth movie series always patrick harper rest sharpes chosen men along ride time major sharpe serious troublebr br under influence sharpes sworn enemy major ducos mysterious lady name la marquesa accused sharpe rape husband arrives sharpes camp challenge wifes attacker dualbr br the dual discovered stopped authorities result sharpe becomes prime suspect opponent murdered middle nightbr br as noone british army wellington major nairn consider sharpe anything rough commoner little honour given shambolic trial sentenced death hanging harper chosen men choice look beloved commander walks slowly gallowsbr br however convinced innocence wellington nairn hang another convicted prisoner sharpes stead release chosen men find real killer la marquesa herself prove innocence find reasons framing first placebr br daragh omalley micheal byrne hugh fraser costar brilliant performances alice krige la marquesa fodor atkine villainous major ducos another exciting swashbuckling instalment sharpes eventful journey napoleonic wars,0 +someone ik committed redflagi know well still upsetting thats thing upsetting io like want kms even question anybody would want stop redflag nothing relief think might died due redflag though something else im suicidal ik gonna happen me and hopefully soon top kinda makes want commit redflag due pain hand extremely triggering time triggering would almost nothing trigger me,1 +depressed angry conflictedim years old living west texas untalented beginning guitarist pessimistic asshole awkward mess uncomfortable skin depressed every day basically friendless suicidal sob story chance piss moan attention story starts age parents marriage falling apart eyes two younger brothers know whats going point thenalcoholic father hit mom pissed end sneaking around smoke supposedly quit born held in fearing parents would say business held everything in never told parents atheist started lets go age im th grade hard time making friends im socially awkward middle school kids start dealing assholes sixth grade longtime friend ended physical altercation hung scary crowd bathroom open time around hangout this first two weeks seventh grade pissed myself point im short fat kid smells like piss stopped still sucked age im th grade maybe two real friends im still fat short around awkward living california half years learning parents divorce weeks told seeing dad cheated mom via facebookon th birthday way brothers move dallas late february mom aunt uncle cousins make friends there many some around april grow lose pounds due body proportioning itself go california summer intention visiting dad decided keep brothers girlfriend fall mom comes visit days leave mom starts crying made pissed dad sad mom knowing see us long time get home start zoning xbox computer dad tells go bed still pissed him tell fuck off sends room im thinking either im better dead start suicidal thoughts stay there years pent frustration flying violent verbal suicidal waves september attempted slit wrists pair scissors horizontally im retard bunch long cuts left arm brothers noticed told dad girlfriend it prescribe antidepressants send therapy october sent mental hospital get three days later get home suicidal thoughts boiling me go kitchen noticing dad anyone kitchen blinded sadness anger hospital ordeal life grab knife attempt slit wrists again im sent room minutes later attempt again resulted screaming match two assholes dads girlfriend calls police sending kids rooms begged to sure enough see outside take mental center awaiting decision whether would sent back hospital begged to decided it moved november now may im still awkward lost lot weightstill overweight around maybe still battling depression job hate grandfather basically hates enjoy things summer vacation school almost over pretty sure ill flunk algebra i again third year row im leaving friends behind go another school stopped talking dad cares girlfriend kid kids brothers coming soon good grandfather uncle give unnecessary bullshit hide feelings everyone especially grandparents grandparents believe im shrug stress brain thinks older am brain year old pessimistic asshole difference im now im depressed reddit posting life story people give two fucks me hopes feeling better no really want end all means gumption so potential im worth missing breathing earths air tldr depressed suicidal cant go it nobody cares,1 +movie one masterpieces mr antonioni youth distraction happiness alienation materialism honor corruption like everything else great italian director true artbr br ,0 +ladies gentlemans lose virginity thanks school system,0 +comments mine mostly agree edyarbs story script apparently potential funny though managing points places failed could see wanting make joke one audience laughed also agree edyarbs view end credits leave normal make cool theyve done now br br ok gives negative feeling actually watching movie enjoyed it pleasant entertainment night definitely feel like waste money get ticket best jokes ones go little bit outside expected fairly mature like luke wilsons character matt asking super chick pnis bed told shed get new one wild night bed ending breaking bed leaving matt sorebr br i cannot however agree bgswho says film could earn r rating absolutely nothing film justify that sexual acts yes nothing explicit humorous nudity whatsoever maybe prescreening showed more id like compare two recent films went see expectations whatsoever superman returns click really expect anything either one big fan original superman films trailer click showed potentially chauvinistic which oppose film superman surprised actually feel goodgoosebumps seeing first heroic deed like seeing long lost friend feeling happy it rest story id rather watch super exgirlfriend least offers surprises click total surprise much better deeper trailer five minutes away really excellent movie jokes also work much better exgirlfriend naughty ones advanced onesbr br anyway reason compared three films three last ones ive seen within short period also went basically expectations all id rank click girlfriend superman,0 +tips stepping comfort zone gtthis first non meme thing ive done comes rteenagers sorry awkwardlt ive always bit shy comes meeting new people real life internet anyone tips could confident,0 +know physics please dm physics test today please dm know physics,0 +feel depressed first time months ever since moved austin ive pretty much perfectly content extrmely happy tbh however today took total nosedive feel like absolute garbage start ran blades razor week ago body hair started growing back really like that along didnt realize much money spending stupid shit turns ive spent dollars random subscriptions shit dot job cant get one right get ss card wait dad fucking give me run two weeks honestly know im going able get back groove going super well two months running every day week left week plan rained every day needed run snowed week ive able keep diet fact ive actually restricted got calorie tracker app however today stressed started eating made stressed forth feel gross tired hopeless im ready start adult yet feel like choice need get therapy cant fucking without ss even fucking backed would take months schedule fucking appointment along fucking acne killing me especially back making feel disgusting cant see dermatologist reasons therapist ive adult days fucking hate it,0 +well done spooky horror movie povertyrow film company prc usually put really cheesy films like devil bat flying serpent german expatriate director wisbar wonders small budget studiobound swamp set gaunt ghoulish charles middleton effective strangler,0 +fantastic episode saw clip youtube vowed ever show tv would glue set order watch wound watching friend mine happens gay two us cried end truly wellwritten heartfelt episode forbidden love two cops who felt really in coops words the lucky ones episodes like one really make cold case one captivating muchloved works television magic cbs anxiously await episodes rerun forever blue always watch again,0 +music apocalypse deleted getting downvotes not sure why still feel terrible im reposting hopes anyone help music has sincerely life dedicate free time making listening it ill put way america crumbling protesters disappeared unmarked vans okay least art turn to right well really artists rapists guess make art ourselves right well really every venue america going shut down ruining livelihood virtually every musician isnt stadiumfiller uhh well things always get better right well no live rapidly declining nation best case scenario subject worse famine plague ever seen climate change worsens destroying food supply unleashing diseases trapped arctic ice worse case scenario go extinct guess question is dont hang get way quickly,1 +im tiredfight keep fightingcontent displaying derivations idea always common part internet yet one talks hard that easy say build ruin one talks process path reconstruction every new day become new battle try hard fight stand useless every day try build every day theres new shock new pain ruin me becoming hard build up ive already lost every shred identity im nothing skeleton wearing previous self costume ive started feel like cant anymore broken getting tired tired ive lost ability smilei cry cry im tired want rest once,1 +anyone wanna talk im f creeps please feeling bored yeah also dont reply quick dont take personal ,0 +get girl like like seriously long since ive felt true happiness really like im pretty sure likes friend need serious help,0 +wish wasnt born muslim countryi exmuslim lives middle east,1 +wanna end dont want mom sadmy mom thing left brings joy life works hard provide put sister thru college nothing day works ik shed better without me got new boyfriend live ik doesnt want around friends one likes motivation life anymore wont it cant wnd life cause dont want sad wanna dissappear never existed,1 +since ive herefinals coming up wrecked dads car today nothing major needs get new front light cuz smashed it really embarassing people watch watching dad try fix front car took omen im gonna great week took practice exam math class bombed idk maintain gpa im eating ass philosophy class need maybe c high essays pass im really worried future keep thinking back months ago tried take life dont ideations anymore man mind really tormenting right now,1 +mt rushmore like carving natural beauty unpresidented,0 +award system got awful possibly could silver gold platinum awards perfect awards would add many way much please listen users one time remove useless things im really glad listened us removed profile pics comments great please one time shut useless rewards down need another facebook like post jn different ways reddit loved way used be please save glorious remove useless stuff well understand need money instead making different awards improve gold platinum ones example would suggest making gold platinum holders able personalize reddit appearance change colours page font links ones see it know everyone loves customisation sorry engrish beg award post thank you,0 +yalls thoughts trick treating yall think ok skipped,0 +found courageive finally spoken truly feel mum via breakdown course know supposed step right direction completely honest here think itll help all im posting want heard want burden friends reddit usually nice place thank you listening also fuck frick throwaway account cares anyway,1 +im lividthis proves cant trust anyone even friggin therapist exploited mepushing program help try get raise promotion something do wrote email administrator feel like need morei want participants program notified immediately sessions talk difficultpainful things things like talking about used training purposes god knows else update asshole therapist fact promoted pushing people dumb unethical programpeople play dirty use people get ahead,1 +im failureall ever think ways ive failed things cant undo theres point worthless piece shit like living im absolutely disgusting im ever going hurt people even hurts people itll last action take hurts people right im ready done living theres still much planned ive fucked anyway im desperate pathetic,1 +recommend good albums almost forgot post this tomorrow im getting new headphones wanted try new music pretty open anything really please thank much mmua kisses gn,0 +want die dont villai know stupid hate living city apartement garden swiming pool pet nothing day sleep couch day city live doesnt public park anything fun,1 +yall ever look someone like wonder fuck someone perfect got someone like you cuz dude wtf gf deserves wayyyyy,0 +understand everything break cycle wanting kill myself yet always returnive always felt off like part incorrect wrong missing feeling ive since started able memories explored feeling farthest reaches imagine tried find various religions scientific theories make feel purpose tried sports gaming social events helping community finding passion career tried therapy antidepressants experimenting consciousness looking family members help yet still convinced commit redflag logically makes sense me know possibilities await if any side better stick devil know one dont still though feel like want kill frequently suicidal ideation never stops head always reoccurring event matter do merely coping existence want feel alive want feel isnt trap gift logical reasoning addition actions could take could provide feeling want know wrong correct problem im open anything want feel right,1 +feel life worthless need helpadvisethis first time asking help cant really talk parents say stupid depression real problem worry about etc might make mistakes since native language english year old girl living parents studying last year university degree last years life real friends friends parents love heart might ask years old pretty outgoing child hard make friends parents moved country russia spain economical reasons know spanish communicate anyone loneliness felt cured watching tv surfing internet playing games time learnt spanish anything common talk classmates no one interested liked time became unsociable introverted thing cheered parents pretty well studying lived today friends eat play gamess read study fat kg weight ugly people would advise lose weight stuff that years went gym putting makeup trying talk people wearing beautiful clothes still ignored people find real topic talk about feel like exercising putting makeup anymore left gained weight one time try hard still lonely either way also lately likely fail subjects university huge since family poor also hit hard selfesteem went downhill parents angry thati cant find job since spain unemployment high theyd rather employ spanish person mei feel stressed last years every day thinking suiciding useless life and likely future thinking future get well payed job finishing studies buy anything want maybe lot happy moments no change anything work life boyfriend first kiss friends acquitances starting lose interest even trying things trying go trying make friends every time see people know happy travelling friends always sociable feel worthless inferior want continue miserable want think redflag every day want stop crying almost every day one sees me stop depressed kniw antmore do think life worth living way is sorry hard read bad expressing,1 +sick stupidity people take advantage them ruined life since born always made choices ended marrying abuser becoming depressed good catering assholes even respect them wish never born people sick parents people use them,1 +dang broi finally got boy liked years clueless years,0 +but time part thinking am ready see br br in end happy saw it was least jackass number two twice laughs twice action stunts leave breathless besides little miss sunshine think best movie saw summer maybe even year br br the entire cast returns besides chris raab rake yohn think cast members dull moment every stunt either funny dangerous combination both stupid beginning funny first one ending interestingly hilarious cast performing musical number br br jackass number two perfect movie see friends stay credits pretty funny moments one involves luke wilson,0 +girls reddit think actually kicking guy balls fine reasons physical abuse girl know told would kick guy balls stares boobs ass even telling stop guy dont know correct so,0 +simply floating life lithe inconsequential object people mostly ignore whim moan tremble shake bit much them become invisible suffering deeply nearly decade now admit many problems stem self instead muster feels like herculean willpower personal strength both have suicide genuinely seems like better option sickening utilitarian conclusion thoughtlessly turned personal mantra dissect shortcomings already do people life grown tired bored disgusted frightened finally seal residual ties might still me stop drowning selfpity remove wretched existence like done years ago faulty logic know much pain right feels like thing do scum hate myself wish anymore much coward it pray sort cthonic entity one day muster yetunpossessed resolve find way end life tired all yet never seems end need stop feel like spectre,1 + hoursi swear it cant stop thinking diseases think im gonna die cant take anymore im convinced rabies want die get,1 +copied video dvd enjoy whenever like makes successful and rare wedding present well absolutely wonderful adaptation much loved novel everything perfect aged amazingly well always chance something old might appear bit creaky next modern dramas precious bane holds ownbr br the quality acting amazing janet mcteer making superlative prudence young clive owen stomping around taciturn gideon sarn br br i challenge anyone watch final sequence without least sniffling little sheer romance all perfect film watch cold outside snuggled sofabr br i really cant recommend highly enough,0 +feel worthless want kill myselfwell like way feel myself feel like worth anyone life im smart know things way due decisions ive made past ive failed university went community college redeem myself drive education like family cousins way better me feel like amount nothing see hear achievements nothing productive home parents want better life knowing ive let put faith me take give family want end life pressure weighs heavily heart feel bones end life rest family much satisfied rest lives bringing lives down,1 +think jump one story roof break ankle dont ask important question actually,0 +pushing buttonthats it loved reddit afterlife involved amazing media platform spot heart topping lonely depressed virgin family doubts nobody turn to mother abandoned father side family dont faith due quirkiness personality get experience love joys life im alone thoughts always dreamed aspired scientist studying field biomedical engineering like father even study artificial intelligence practical usagepossible detriment modern society nowi quit adhddepressionsocial anxiety inflicted son bitch unwanted buti digress working final release without thatim useless unneeded sure right community saw says redflag soto blunt fuckin math advice death methods would helpful end shitstorm called life live preferably painless quick high success rate chance get out,1 +im bored tell filelrfillleriflllerfilllefiflllerdilllerfilllrrfillerfillleffilllerfilllrffillletfiollerfilllefifllerfilllller,0 +nothing raini feel like anymore room feel like mine body feel like me feel like life passing by im watching crying sad watching passively days want get bed time deserve lay around nothing want something whats point tho nothing feels real anymore theres point post feeling particularly suicidal numb bummed vacant want believe things get better try nothing bad day bad life always feels like one tho birthday soon least excited ive ever been accomplished another year earth nothing best bare minimum fuck wish exist,1 + ,1 +cant even say haha jk unless without anyone saying usnam chcks like brah continue conversation pls,0 +two weeks feel like therapy opening huge wormsi thought would feel better opening up man hard therapy making harder,1 +saw movie day rented it thought going another movie girl trying prove point diane joined boxing wanted to thought movie good gave thats good is plus movie michelle rodriguez always good even six,0 +honor spooktober lets write halloween story ill write comment word anyone reply another word another person replys reply new word cycle goes on words something halloween make sense good luck fellow spookers,0 +would firstly say somehow remember seeing movie early childhood read subtitles thought sonny chiba sean connery really like concept able least partially suspend adult scepticism embrace inner seven old may want avoid movie said watched restored minute version dvd say enjoyed it though much seven remembered ending br br there aspects movie worthy criticism first minutes final minutes really comic moments favourite contrast scenes acted final minutes curious choice backing music listen lyrics br br for action film great deal focus personal stories certain soldiers social dynamics squad strain time travel takes toll ending movie decided good thing seven though relationship guff bad thingbr br for action film also plenty gratifying gory action especially couple epic battle scenes platoon hordes shogun era warriors makers movie ensured many deaths possible bloody and lets face it humorous thought splendid aspect movie kid ashamed say still dobr br i also like fact modern day soldiers general spend movie walking egg shells trying avoid altering space time continuum theyve got heavy calibre machine guns mortars rocket launchers tank helicopter theyre hell bent making feudal japan theirs id like think vigorous imdb user would bootsbr br in short movies worth watching makes viewer regret movies made similar premise time offers hefty hints movie like gi samurai unique,0 +friend keeps texting friend keeps texting dont know why tried distancing mix mental health shit messing brain trying move little bit real problem friend fact shes one reached past like year now texted hours ago asking question question isnt important kind like icebreaker tier question well im trying contact anyone didnt respond half hour ago sent another random question dont get it feel like straight asking either wants anything anything else guess really dont understand,0 +theres nothing left moves anymore emotions long gone it im sure qualify post honestly care want persons opinion matter first all im year old man living sweden reason feel qualify im sad depressed angry negativedestructive state mind i feel simply nothing emotion say regularly feel bored mean bored this movie boring lets watch something else mean deeper sense boredom bored life offer hope im making sense anyone yes ive tried lot activities hobbies etc theres constant financial chain able exactly want want say im forever alone type guy im average joe ive several girlfriends past friends parties traveled world yadda yadda everyday life like endless cycle mechanical activities seeing people talking pointless topics discussion thing everyday recently saw meme bored dude grocery store text was buys car get work works pay car see life is pointless meaningless emotionless songs movies hobbies people summon kind emotion anymore the thing id think could change bit suddenly gigantic amount money weekly lottery would open possibilities least exactly want want couple months ago reached limit robotic lifestyle took huge bank loan quit job living money last months so my plan whatever might call spend enjoy money long lasts money runs out end life moment im completley spontaneous everyday wake since anything must anymore people might read think for fuck sake grow up call problems know agree you people lot worse people lost family members raped etc completely honest care them comparing invoke kind appreciation life said sad lonely depressed feel totally empty like robot see point continuing life like this ive tried talking people view life nobody understands me say go something english basic hope somehow succeeded translating thoughts words anyone opinion all welcome them even wanna bash say boohoo whining about tldr year old bored death life took huge loan quit job waiting money run out end life,1 +i going new school im really anxious im going change school first time life ive going school almost years change school since school habe th grade i know brittishamarican name th th grade germany schleswigholstein call ahr change school im really affraid finding friends disliked maybe even bullyed new classmates like friends right think point clear hope advice apologize gramma errors,0 +something really enhances someones attractiveness mean something thats physical trait like article clothing piercing something like this me probably jeans hoodies also recently discovered girl oversized baseball jersey something attractive,0 +self diagnosed mild depression also mild redflagi feel empty times unmotivated many things muscle memory drag work live life normally wouldthere times feeling alright times cycle repeatsthere days want sleep days go out like sharing things people care about voices keeps repeating horrible things know far realitythe think worry moments keeps coming back frequently afraid become one methoughts depression,1 +word excellent movie go see it director ron howard mean director ron howard fantastic job usually does incredible attention detail vivid colors decorations breathtaking whoville atmosphere astonishing variety costumes wait theres story good too theres clearly message extracted thoughtful viewers jim carrey topnotch probably best grinch possible girl taylor momsen real good im sure great future dog cool all high quality christmas fairytale like fairytales you like christmas youbr br reading reviews here get life hurts every time see people who well got hearts two sizes small,0 +wanna chat filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +help anxiety attacksdepressiongiving mentallyhating world problemshaving irl friends kind answer nice please beg look dont wanna make long caption imagine alone yrs getting point talking yourself nothing studying and sometimes u study much u burn crypanic major trust issues betrayal humanity literally cant stand living anymore havent eaten like entire day either getting worse one helps feels like mentally im slowly dying also hate seeing ppl help others making realize fucked humanity is need answer this cant i cant im trolling anything proof page need desperate help self harm weed help honest like break cry feel like go extra length cut idk want someone lean tbh cant get therapist either since dont enough money maybe good meds secretly order oh dont enjoy anything either jojo theres that gets day tbh laughing memes ill stop u wanna message whatever feel free like jojo bizarre adventure mean u hit ur depressed boy up also repost bc ppl thought lying abt last post hurt lot mentally whatever thats me hope doesnt get skimmed over,0 +trapped circular cycle feels hopelessi scare friends away mental illness makes feel worse distances more hate wish could normal instead go fine considering death daily basis friends lie caring never change feel like im getting anyone running time college im alone please help want die everyday,1 +racist anything racist fuck marathons like bruh cmon aint one got need god damn marathon,0 +really struggling tonightive struggled depression entire life im two beautiful daughters loving husband cant stop self destructing need talk someone understands suicidal urge feel lowest ive years,1 +please helpim turning months past ive struggled heavily depression anxiety im college school anxiety much different bc college youre own dont want go school paid also feel like im failure parents dont finish getting point everyday wake feel like im going motions stay alive never look forward anything feeling like lost hope falling back cycle depression isolate become even depressed moment dont feel depressed want live see value life back heavily depressed ive thought committing feelings coming back ive seeked help professionals see change myself way get without thinking joking around smoking weed dont feel past longer wish live struggle courage bc think people affect decision dont want family friends end feeling also wouldnt want feeling like this came write get suggestions people experiencing similar things question build courage alternative see value keeping on want happy,1 +alrighty thenim gonna it im get kicked house boyfriend doesnt love me whole world crumbling im gonna itll maybe rest feel good resolved,1 +anyone sleep deprived same hour stream fun twitchtvdozer_gaminghttpsmtwitchtvdozer_gaming,0 +want anymorei feel like failure posting feel like need tell someone know love wife feel like im addicted want live without want live life wants to loves shitload animals farm either take care neglect whichever time for theres compromise theres solution divorce get fucked debt likely alimony stay remain miserable unable improve situation all hate friends never get see due spending days together friend business i think cheating throws placating statements occasional sex way knows im happy frankly believe cares beyond that housework no dishes vacuuming laundry necessary cleaning etc im one anything im depressed even keep everything place going shit farm work unless feels like absolutely necessary doesnt feed animals expects yard maintenance building clearing etc keeps fuckton worthless junk plans fixing sell point never going to business thinks going make bunch money friendbusiness partner stupid spend money business policies bad make almost money much work theyre putting in two businesses complete money pits wants hobby none money job go towards us gets spend godknowswhere end paying bills im goddamn depressed woke afternoon laid bed fantasized several easy ways slip away cant leave without causing even pain myself way gets life insurance payout find someone wants shit forever ambition deal shit anymore even heard today since walked house morning,1 +tired feeling way years want pain endim tired friends never relationship living good life im living parents home years now trying chasing dreams know dreams never manifest anything everything everyone ever said true grew complicated ive treated like shit life never meant anything made procons list decision end life want second opinions since nobody talk to pros fitting end decade pain mental anguish dont belong society ease discomfort people feel towards people used associate doesnt ashamed anymore in fact joy relief bad mouth even more could reincarnate memory pain live better life one im im genetic mistake need face future life consists loneliness regret mediocrity nobody gets disappointed cons family depressed time people act shocked even though could seen miles away none dumb ideas even chance selfish ass reason god im going hell sure,1 +learned something today change redditor forever today learned technically never touch anything becausr atoms lose virginity technically losing since parts never touches other redditors lose virginity without quitting reddit,0 +math question x x cancel xs right x x subtract cancel xs x x therefore exist fucking stupid question help,0 +saw film rotterdam international film festival seemed one less popular films festival however turned out interestingbr br the story actor trying come grips environment withdrawing drug addiction based actual facts moreover characters playing film real people living experience again time film partly set stage play happen good actors jia hongshengs parents actors real life well methods used highlighting relationship towards jia effectivebr br jia hongsheng actor chinese action films late eighties start nineties later see great films frozen suzhou river two career paths jia becomes drug addict looses drive act even anything productive except making somewhat futile attempts becoming guitar virtuosobr br i like way writer scenario choose emphasize behavior withdrawal horror drugs really feel pain struggle jia in time hate way treats around himbr br the film draws viewer tiring pattern jia seems caught in dragging parents sister try take care him personal interviews characters feel like getting know jia others wellbr br the film heavy feel scenes jia cycling bejing partying friends lighten tone bitter humor lot events throughout film music beautiful stayed after film might easily appeal many people interested serious modern chinese film strong recommendation,0 +online classes really pissing off advice alright m last year finished th grade exams ended getting really good motivation read well score th grade lose interest due pathetic online classes students arent capable understanding whatever teachers saying teachers also really bad taking classes first months managed listen little still wasnt good later started getting distracted barely listen classes play dota watch anime watch youtube never listen classes grades going low finals approaching nearer do wanted get everything chest tips study even condition,0 +fact would gone long time ago brave someone quick actit laziness cowardice keeping alive state sufferingthere health problems dysfunctional family issues economic hardship fun here want leave mindset survived unchanged years alive motivated go on courage diligence two traits lacking would here,1 +boys locker room heaven,0 +i proud head mike nesmith said be film either derided many us studied scrutinized film professors works many levelsbr br yes unconventional many frustrating almost producers hand film tempt you figure outbr br you probably already know monkees tv show runaway marketing success depended upon business acumen small serving public deception tv shows selling soap toothpaste first entertain monkees broke box short time make head testament groups popularity importance pop culture despite heads at get one thing straight head monkees tv showbr br so psychedelic documentary western pop culture source authority subject head movie could come inside box monkees cast crew seasoned weary professionals seen share promise disappointment movie deliberate attempt market repositioning so three things make film way monkees envisioned importantly reinvent group one subservient old bosses yas hipper before make film exposed american attitudes information disseminationbr br head therefore really media manipulation net result deception mass media supposed inform educate us happenings world large ultimately asks us form opinions events shape thought notredflag action thus assume information absorb complete unbiased otherwise one establish valued conclusion one idea presented book newspaper tv show one street interviews head guy admits i looked newspaper tv years lesser better man even drug parallels soft veiling things seem remember old joke everything know wrong screenplay starts monkees public admission manufactured image runs football literally football scene movie visual manifestation whole idea behind head film streamofconsciousness exercise film culmination pot smoking marathons many coincidences occur film suggest otherwise guess head culmination motivations somewhere intended unintendedbr br largely insiders responsible head seem enjoy revelries take place film anger anger chaos characterized late s anger way media television especially changed culture negative ways drugs violence strong negative forces late s still are producers head want know poor information far greater dangerbr br wars attributed hoaxes lies perfect way spread disinformation tv repeatedly mysterious black box seen obstacle monkees seemingly us well one scene peter sullenly sitting saloon holding melting ice cream cone asked fellow monkey whats wrong i bought ice cream cone want it movie suggests first purpose media inform sell en mass blindly head goes further put idea someones head merrily goes hebr br the filmmakers know this danger real head either movie creates as go along deliberate statement perhaps perhaps not maybe pot meets advertising critics scathed jokes monkees us careful ask for may get itbr br cheers true guilty pleasure funny intelligent please fans find substance there unabashedly weird bizarre collection characters good tunage length appropriate lots great one liners including time prophetic favorite the tragedy times young friends may get exactly wantbr br caveats dated drugs plot linear delivery thought particular least twentyfive stories interweave stopand go fashion so may easily frustrate may seem pretentious some people cant stand monkees need watch though reason avoid it psychedelic special effects may kill ailing picture tube acid burnt eyeballsbr br match cut,0 +tired one putting effort friendshipsfuck that im done time watch friends drift away really friends theyd ar least attempt contact me,1 +ruined first time sx guys take seriously dont squeeze ur dick hard wank sex first time last night couldnt cum said nervous truth couldnt climax loose compared thight usually she virgin well v wasnt loose makes less sensitive overtime roughly take advice gently,0 +trying make sure people hear see crying worst crying silently,1 +dudes omegle assholes like everyone conversation chick,0 +me i feel exhausted depressed time cant even tidy room maintain hygiene properly mother well maybe stopped slob feel depressedthats it rant somewhere figured friends getting tired crap acknowledge way get better start looking yourself depression makes hard people suffering simply understand problem mother often impression raised slob family members often blame lack parenting messiness false choose way enjoy way all,1 +hangin alone rock bottom years sure still existjust pulled trigger skull first time safety figured id survive really hoped miracle would happen safety failed died real friends thought finally abandoned me reason ive also fantasizing playing russian roulette every day die even see insane ive also several lucid dreams public redflag voices head trying convince kill myslef daily years now fucking lonely exhausted going nowhere someone talk me incredibly sick myself people desert me world general wanna talk someone else shitty postion guess gonna lie feel supremely lonely hopeless right now thanks,1 +cat feline leukemia know could get how are two days ago everything ok it know found theres vaccine idk afford it were pretty poor hes also cat keep away others think mom knows btw knows theres risk hell die know virus exactly idk think this,0 +go show uthroughthestar love amazing drawing httpswwwredditcomuserthroughthestarcommentsjuawxutheholy_sheep_its_not_amazing_but_i_tried,0 +want jump goddamn roofthe fall probably enough kill care want hurt myself im broke disabled direction life everything fucking sucks genuinely feels like end line want jump hurt beyond repair give fuck,1 +weight loss day ive started eating fruit now didnt much water today im working towards it everything conscious effort im okay,0 +here school crowded hallway girls front refuse move thousands future changers humanity slowed them,0 +got driving license friend driving car girl twerking road making tik tok video hit girl bounced bubble butt car flew like aeroplane crashed parents room miniature self thats worst thing saw naked waist making tik tok videos seriously tiktok bad,0 +want harem instead sex vibe tf persona soundtrack play smash would call friend group hentai tells otherwise,0 +think developing bi polar disorder normal whole life now dont think want live shiti worked hard shit entire life working almost full time since day turned cant even go work recently dont want burden society problems taking care myself dont anyone count on im tired bipolar runs family family member commited redflag want go way it dont want suffer anymore reason havent done yet cause dog pathetic itself really good dog best friend,1 +hate death despise life moredepression ptsd bpd drag people love im leech hurts like shit rip slowly killing long run wish death every second terrified people world mental capacity suffering exists hate hate hate god cant take care cat anymore cant anything lying bed takes much energy stopped things love reading drawing gaming socialising drinking eating less sad empty cant wash brush teeth get dressed eat healthy self harm still bleeding days wasting time wasting money wasting love wasting life wasting frustrated held life loved ones cant study medical condition want go coma spend infinite amount time head nightmares painful bearable compared real life shutting talking body makes sound farting voices want fade away anger bitterness sadness disgust towards ptsd hyperventilation slight amount always gasping air time feels like im hungover even though drink look others look me see much failure never productive work tons ideas perfect redflag blanket choking shut fuck clocks tic tic bullshit im never going get better prefer die please,1 +hate dadi hate dad im kid anything wrong starts calling names insulting someting positive never supports,1 +want die stop burdenim tired burden everyone around me im trans matter life able pass appearances put strain every single relationship ive ever had lost friends family detests me family letting stay graduated college ended dropping almost year ago point able find job anything pretend go college every day dont soon figure may latest supposed graduate theyll throw ill homeless unable keep transitioning unemployed feel like get instead go put family trouble throwing im issue,1 +ive lost everything ever matteredmy fiance fell love someone else hurts much write did happiness anymore ive depressed months since told me everything going well moved country her got masters program struggling managing starting make friends cant get bed failed one classes winter nearly failed two more feel like huge disappointment supervisor dropped class supposed take summer cant focus anything lifeline world know pathetic makes me dependent probably drove away know else do cant function without her im worthless mess went got things used make happy got home wanted crawl bed cry wrote note apologizing know else do anything anymore stupid let fall away happy im alone says explicit methods know im going do,1 +hey creeps msg yeah said creeps please msg hear creep please msg creeps,0 +world fucked upi created new account remain anonymous began th birthday got presents played friends remember report card come home letter school stating misbehavior hitting kicking kids suspended three days the maximum amount school give not district let explain called bully autistic adhd since grown adhd bit anyway school made fun autism every time went bus let hit me day birthday kid we call jim hit friend we call bob jim come back snap jaw kicked hard could nuts went crying bus driver pointed literally said oh shit bus driver stopped bus came back sitting took flip phone my parents gave case something went wrong house couldnt home was hit stomach hit back tried defend myself parents asked phone got home said i lost it knew would happy didnt want tell situation bus almost birthday all get letter tell story didnt listen me deal situation bus years until went high school everything fine august dad got angry something idk wouldnt tell me said was jennymy stepmom apparently took offense pushed stairs every day trying trying make life hell saying lost homework we system could keep stuff made th grade failing finding coach done need answers crying sleep night wanna end cause family mom dad wont let mom take apartment miss her im pissed im depressed every emotion happy god end me edit mustered courage call redflag suggested keep journal go college plan press charges really want family family dads side family moms side exist bad influence drugs never kind person also heres info me sophomohre held back homework dad hid autism spectrum aspergers syndrome info aspergers herehttpwwwwikipediaorgwikiaspergers_syndrome,1 +today th birthday instead wishing happy birthday want best pickup line funny one actually one,0 +greek mythology buffs need help kind challenge would athena give halfbloods see worthy godhood im roleplay given temporary role athena idea doing,0 +one even seeing post talking supportingim alone friends support ive unspeakable traumatic events life fucking horrible ever since born never escape pain keeps coming me love life got left blocked erased life needs work didnt anything wrong dont know deserve deserve pain universe forcing want kill one wants nothing,1 +know anymorei friends family treats like shit especially mom calls names hits me threatens kill me school stresses much ive always good school ive getting bad grades im sleep deprived cant concentrate feel horrible everything much reason cant appreciate it ive self harming since contemplating redflag since im now ive attempted redflag twice saved strangers walking hate im still alive since im teenager financially well family feel like im whiny another angsty emo kid thats going sort phase im even technically diagnosed depression mental illness would better died right now hardly anyone would notice people care maybe even happy im gone know already tried kill again maybe ive hoping things get better know stupid nothing gotten better probably never will,1 +optionstldr feel like ive made enough attemptseffort justify redflag course adulthoodm reasonably underway point ive many issues stem bad back struggled depression since pretty young back injuries got worsemore severe constant pain redflag attempts record medically one involved opiates years ago pain killer options super limited every day filled physical pain getting bed hurts wiping ass becoming increasingly difficult continue lose range motion struggling walking more employment prospects super well either might imagine pretty substantial physical restrictions last several years ive fighting depression back pain constant doctor visits specialists diets exercise plans antidepressants sleeping pills antipsychotics physical therapy etc ive getting worse employment prospects never intimate relationshipgirlfriend point drain moms fixed income resources see cause hope situation depression much inability anything ive tried talk family friends way depth kind thing exhausted therapy options live either full dont take insurance multiple waiting listssome year nothing yet dont see day future isnt filled physical pain discomfort mention mental crap try discount mostly overemphasized constant pain last dr visit suggested start antidepressantsas lets try ones didnt work maybe will im fan redflag im less fan even physically worthless way people cant even see made sort deal wont kill long mom alive dont want hurt like that im finding deal gets weaker day day im tired pain want end ive effectively isolated past several years point regular contact people lately ive cutting down intentionally rude family try make less hurtful execute whichever plan appropriate time dont expect anything come post reading thinking killing themselves challenge best not try everything people tell try go hell antidepressant roulette doctors try talk friends family therapists redflag hotline forums avenue might help get well least well enough feel like ive done do two things keep going wanting hurt mom old adage always kill tomorrow,1 +dad shady shit partialy heard phone call heres things heard dont act dumb youll get fingers scaned argentinian slang espending time locked up stupid never get out talk dumbass listen name uncle woudnt mom find woud you ill cut fucking hand so yeah,0 +seems like option lefti guess main reason offed yet yet found painless easily accessible way it point neither enjoy interest life feel like working studying socializing playing games nothing come family history depression mental illness parents exception ive distance remain sane ive always considered different everyone even kid would spend lot time fantasy world rather reality longer see point studying getting degree want sit day passive useless possible medicines make functional allow enjoy life even remotely connect anyone place world,1 +thinking tommorowi see point living life depression continues get worse consume life time goes on way four years im done it want end soon possible ill never slave awful world,1 +story lucifer kind interesting baptized catholic definitely struggle religion well grandma devout catholic dying cancer final days kinda stopped believing really made faith shaky literally used avoid number like plague ask questions story lucifer interesting though theres tik tok trend people recreate image lots people simp it look comments learn guys wanna tell ill happy read comments,0 +cant winwhenever im sad thinking i wanna die cause whats fucking point want feel like anymore whenever im actually happy thinking this going last im always going super fucking sad again might well kill tonight least die knowing last day happy know take much this,1 +hate reaction memes fire pit fine lighter fluid case reaction memes im sick seeing lion witch audacity bitch,0 +ngl wish wwii bomb exploded city right house preferably im home,0 +took mg tylenol pills last night still alivefor past days ive trying trying myself sunday took xanax pills passed somehow managed call ex boyfriend said saved life making heart beat faster next day yesterday tried mixing half bottle wine extra strength mg tylenol pills woke hours later sweating incredibly nauseous going slowly die would rather quick way ive trying someone let know thanks,1 +today im celebrating first birthday years years loneliness years friends finally fear still stays what come what make fun you exciting yet terrifying actually birthdays mostly mom friends,0 +beautifully constructed traffik tells story narcotics usage commerce multiple points view policeman view politician view addict view smugglers view farmers view carefully contructed storyline one gets impression everything interrelated beautiful onlocation shots poppy fields pakistan downtown karachi entry points airports frankfurt london delapidated buildings smuggling takes place one sees massive dimension narcotics consumption,0 +feel like would boyfriend next room think loves anymore says im complicated really feeling way guy i dumbass teenager fuck ive got wrong though exhausting trying understand outside even trying live head day out gets tiring edge time feel like ill never satisfied cant believe im dreading future im fixated holding onto moment case gets worse,1 +anyone else bored fucking mind cause sure am boy bored bored am gee sure bored yup im bored booooooorrrreeeedddd,0 +quarantine really long quarantine started even met anthro husky gf im going marry her wow started time around march th met march th almost quarantine,0 +friend beard genes really help cuz tried cant grow full beard would probably shave face,0 +im fuckup again without fail ruin everything lovei cant get cycle nothing one love ever lasts always fault even im pushing away former fiancee friends friends family feel trust anybody anymore least myself im miserable failure hell go on,1 +feels weird people years younger gonna allowed months oh freaking goodness know people felt kids back im starting see really feels know people felt bad back tbh lol,0 +waco rules engagement good job drawing conclusions viewers simply presents interviews footage standoff footage congressional hearings phone conversations expert testimony etc allows draw conclusionbr br i hardly intend imply data presented done objectivity convincing like koresh see before tend think come believe do much told happened standoff,0 +im turning im turning tomorrow wont post tomorrow ill away cheers,0 +half pills gone half goalready consumed paracetamol ibuprofen still paracetamol ibuprofen go im full water taking mins break resuming,1 +confused went hill years ago often feel depressed nervous trapped feel like everywhere go spread depression made plans fun stuff future literally nothing coming feel useless cant anything physical anymore intense back pain thought blowing brains river problem gun think make past age honestly say entire life ahead dont talked many friends say im good person whatever fuck else never sufficient answer reason hand gun bullet stated above nothing meeting friend go around country little bit would end living street wish loneliness upon anyone really feel like nothing left me one people know irl genuinely cares die that aside gun option could get rope hang balcony pretty easily worth living anymore die end anyways,1 +birthday none friends wished happy birthday someone plz wish happy birthday,0 +say answer heroin answer,1 +werewolf porn count furry porn need answers shit settle comments,0 +think primary school realize hated it like every single memory something either horrible embarrassing makes regret action ever did swear reason cant make friends talk people teachers trying embarrass everyone every moment stupid shit said reason,0 +ready give upwell make qualms wanted die nay dying solution problem minda started look fastest less painful ways wanted shot hang myself fantasized many ways dying throwing tall building hanging electricalpole thought done nothing else offer suffering overwhelming ever present comfortable sleeping woke suffered either anedhonia profound sadness deepest depression life ready meet maker fear death hungered it lusted wanted much met wonderful person person brought life life person made feel special wanted needed person told i love you person told awesome meant world person everything common make fell good happy together feel anything confidence fortitude lacked fell happy life food thought guys killed wound felt happiness warmth feel found soul mate sometimes dont deny future happiness deserve it,1 +im incredibly bored feel like something dont feel like things rn,0 +start bruh chain bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 +people say metal music makes kids depressed wrong actually cheers since usually something relate to,0 +ive experimenting hanging head feels oddso ive experimenting hanging now since morning ive feeling woozy id get noose head level put weight it since ive felt rather dizzy quite sleepy expected,1 +im it im committing preppy emo vibe school cant dye hair cant eyeliner not even considering that wear button shirts slacks tie guess wardrobe get really black buy shoes roses think im going right direction think ive got music down got attitude emo kid entire boys high school,0 +remember remember it recognize name know even speak of incredibox,0 + im,0 +twin sister suicidal feeling awful right nowive depressed since anyone says get help please know cant much explain mom knows found feeling way ignored it want kill myself feel do sister will destroy family sister also suicidal found week ago honestly dont get far know family history depression makes question genetic is never going get better unless take meds dont want take meds mom doesnt believe meds depression thinks turn zombie feel like cant go anymore havent felt happy entire day years dont know feel happy small things dont even make happy fear future feel going extremely unsuccessful poor hide behind smile every single day getting really tiring especially im nice everyone never want anyone feel way do everyone sees nice cute girl kind everyone wish way press button disappear cant take anymore,1 +dm obamas last name clickbait,0 +know life tough sometimes im offering hand friendship sympathetic ear think everyone problem bigger others also lot luckier others sense acceptance open minded person biases i think want talk someone problems thoughts im you alone okay,0 +guys need quick advice long story short girl sc posted story asking someone face time her didnt expect want face time since didnt know anything slid like wanna text like face time gave number called like minutes later surprising cuz fine fuck one dont mean sound negative im sexiest looking guy lol got phone immediately started teasingplaying talking theres spider wall found funny seemed genuinely laughing it even like boy irratatingg talked random shit whatever good maybe minutes friend called tell shit happened party whatever doubt call back cuz late asf rn im confused next seems cool asf yk want start talking more im scared might one time thing shes actually interested idk mean know shes single thats certain text tomorrow doesnt text first ill honest shes kinda dry texts expressive asf phone text try call tomorrow night feel like could text like heyy spider girl idk yall think know im overreacting shes cute bro actually wanna try see get her,0 +idea im started discord server idea im server about chill stuff guess also hentai server need help gotten dm interested,0 +im failing every one online classes expected year fun got concurrent classes means im taking college psychology english composition trigonometry calculus schedule looked great school started school started work pileup immediately started classes assignments day each physically cant this understand anyone expected this im wrong though principal told parents people adjusted theres excuse me also understand despite constant work go lessons insanely fast teach acceleration physics test understand calculus trig assignments slowly infact even know lesson were either math classes now feels like losing battle matter what history assignment waste time since im physics assignment due couple hours math huge waste time since knewton take hours single lesson whats even worse sheer amount assignments many s recover even everything perfectly ive recovered awful grades hole deep school councilor messages every days telling im fucked im close telling im gonna kill amount work,0 +push people away hurt anyonefor almost whole time ive actively suicidal thing keeping friends ones id never want hurt every time try kill myself get overwhelmed guilt sorrow id leave wake time depression pushed everyone loved away times happens own like girlfriend becoming ever distant however times tell im intentionally pissing people off cold ignoring loved most ive literally made new friends since started ive reached nobody want hurt people im already going to good days fear ill push last friend away next attempt make nothing holding back deep down im glad going nobody finally lay rest,1 +got show late believe rd final episode first watched blown away social commentary seen american tv since all familybr br was surprised cbs would even run first placebr br which merely say last time cbs had set know mean back day all family controversial decision theyre willing tackle today much eye makeup put katie couricbr br if want make bunch folks really really mad let discover truth themselves want willing pull strings make calls get work art removed let discover truth hearing words spoken mouthsbr br the aardman folks always way ahead curve show different somehow snuck cbs corporatesocialpoliticalcensor radar get onto schedule perhaps big brass never really watched till finally aired good ol middle merika heard saw well bet farm message messenger last longbr br now missing episodes find way onto usenet bittorrent br br thank bc kelly tallahassee fla,0 +yet ive already worst come smarter stronger im afraid im running fighting anymore exactly afraid of reason fear mean whats worst happen worse hes already put through,1 +guys found get likes subreddit tell sad dark story bunch people give wholesome award think funny great,0 +title says rrying fit in cantit much mei want give uptheres ppl care me want suffering endeven means mire pain others tired living lying trying lie okay,1 +dont deserve livei feel like friends family would better without me bother everyone im failure im completely alone one cares me im negative mean dont deserve here wasnt everyone would happier,1 +forgot tell u guys teacher school got put leave watching porn class n typed high school search bar ahaha,0 +listening weezer whats move anyone else like weezer really like weezer cool,0 +feeling suicidal what feel little silly posting since whole lot reason behind im feeling suicidal every get terribly depressed feeling hits nowhere seems like happening often know why first time feel strong desire end life know shouldnt ive never one consider redflag redflag appears logical solution way im feeling know im feeling suicidal need deal know how,1 +delighted audiences number film festivals hard see why director yang zhang help nice work three principle actors xu zhu father master liu quanxin pu elder son da ming especially wu jiang irrepressible lovable younger son er ming spins tale warm coldest heartbr br the film starts man taking shower automated booth middle beijing puts money slot opens door takes clothes puts conveyor belt cleaned steps shower gets cleaned brushes squirts water soap though hes car car wash future symbolically speaking old bathhouse see next scene past agrarian china giving way industrial chinabr br pollution cultural revolution hangover industrialization blues way celebration people kindness love one another celebration goodness hearts men yet wonder chinese government views film one hand clearly presents pleasant view china people stringently nonpolitical without criticism present regime expressed implied yet slightest sense good old ways going replaced something may good think yang zhang wisdom let may tell story old men bathhouse get back rubs massages tell tall tales reminisce good old days relax play chinese chess stage cricket fights master spry wise old guy assistant son may retarded autistic job glee infectious spirit fun good willbr br enter back scene older son da ming polished well groomed taciturn uncomfortable sees unsophisticated behavior father brother represents modern china tie briefcase cell phone education returned thought father dying sees true packs bags set return wife career crisis ensues crisis da ming sees value natural peoplecentered life father brother livingbr br and yang zhang reconciles old new charming manner object especially since style neat carefully expressed one nice things miss movies way dovetails subplots within larger story resolved picture ends bathhouse regular sings o sole mio bathhouse water showers upon him much delight er ming finds cant sing public stage fright near end film loses stage fright sings thanks inspired help er ming bathhouse regular losing wife becausewell tells tale master liu confesses real reason liu understands movie over husband wife reconciledbr br this kind happy ending moviemaking unusual today artistic international films almost film directed adults happy endings contrived embarrass contrivers audiences blatantly condescending audience offended however audience delightedbr br see especially comedic performance wu jiang whose warm effervescence overcomes handicap character may have,0 +im thinking killing right now someone talk pleaseok even know talk still need badly,1 +friend gone dont know continueim old friend seattle committed redflag recently star soccer player incredibly funny moved away dc th grade extremely regret getting touch longer connect best childhood friend remember ever single day like movie im cursed photographic memory see face im extremely tough time coping death along side past trauma driving thoughts life would gone ive never thoughts im afraid im developing sort depression cant tell subconsciously want pity peers mind truest driven redflag someone help understand happening please,1 +plan killing st monththat day fast approaches small part resents way feel seems embrace it cant help myself want die,1 +anyone die hard codingprogramming interested entrepreneurshipstock investment love coding computer science engineering learning stock exchange hmu conversation gonna cool,0 +going buy sleeping pills od favor aunti waste skin death oding hanging seems like way shit in tried choking myself gave headache no anything live for would world favor goodbye world wish died sooner,1 +yes actually camed mouth yes liked,0 +begun bother since try please go way little foreplay never really returns favor become one sided physical relationship ive even multiple times trouble getting up largely due fact receive physical stimulation prior intercourse weve known year officially dating months finally decided say something month ago really beginning bother id hoped shed slowly overcome fears time seems content things going change,1 +parodies star wars ive seen probably funniest premise star wars simple electronics instead spaceships poorly acted is purposely overacted makes hilarious since everyone knows purposely overacted one complains special effects also purposely awful be include toaster visible string shoots toast egg beater string short funny fan star wars which im not anyone minutes kill great short br br my rating mins rated,0 +wanted people talk feel even worse even triedive gotten point want rant try get something this feel lowest ive years lost job retail year ago couldnt face going store anymore year half ago lost home landlord sold up new owners wanted us soon possible willing help cost etc already quite low sate point job becoming stressful worked stock controller busy small store well know company am moved store year manager want take her tbh wasnt ever overly happy moving agreed struggle say people new store wasnt alot busier old one morale low old manger store wasnt seen best terms people management didnt know time signed sick overall first year ok paying rent getting needed know housemates best friend wouldnt say happy havent felt truly happy long time getting life around march new year old manager brought back store lost manager working try improve stock loss things like store morale whole felt done good job mean wasnt involed store morale store felt together soon old manager came back could feel drop people became less willing work hard felt like trying hard myself time losing place move back dads till found something else lose sort freedom sucked life became stressful me move around weeks manger back got call manager ask charge shifts shift runner found stress much gave up told him kept me felt like ages constantly saying no really didnt want it went long eventually agreed said struggle say no next morning went work feeling like shit running store felt like leaving then got on moody admit whilst bringing delivery snapped asking moody snapped said excally said took realise much hate charge angry left work didnt go back days didnt call store anything know wrong tried go day after knew trouble crying whilst driving in sat car tried build go in got sat wall outside smoke whilst lady store past ask ready busy day completely broken down told thought getting fired today lucky kind person went get person charge time also took doc visited younger depression try make stupidly long post least bit shorter keep doc stuff short know goes around julyaugust im seeing doc taking meds im cbt sessions im sign work lasted around months done cbt sessions still taking meds see doc still felt low ask could get proper therapy session doc refered local place would deal things go talk there went talked told offered service younger didnt even remember offered anything like this assume around attempt take life im writing this say get back me received letter day christmas saying wouldnt helping me low christmas stopped taking meds didnt visit doctor go back work really try couldnt it time thinking would easy jump infront train nearby bridge gave up didnt go anymore feb lost contact ex housemates best friend time half year nothing sat room dads going dad said dinner would say night sleep day i still now sneeking snacks binging dad loves drink think feels bad buy junk food stuff me sadly hes bit enabler obeseness always way since maybe know self control take responsibility myself around months ago made reddit account not one made one post type places days ago never did honestly wanted talk someone took maybe month actually reply someone acually maybe friends ive trying past week really put there giving much care people think unfortunately tell form post talk alot also get attached easily especially people actually dont mind me see people dont enjoy friend days talk people normally get tired me get told talk much ask many questions ive really lonely long dont really talk people well even friends putting left soon could know compared others issues stupid im feeling low right wana try get something maybe posting could help im gona lie say im atb point taking life feel could right now hours distraction me someone actually reads thank you really dont know say sorry wasting time shit life story perfect time want leave place everyone asleep would easy get car jump somewhere think weight help make easier long land head first honestly dont know people worse lives dont it guess im weakess weak sorry stupid post im sure people much worthy space here,1 +diamond certified singer weeknd save tears unofficial music video httpsyoutubefxctzcevahttpsyoutubefxctzceva,0 +anyone else going invest amc ive thinking wanted know wether,0 +littel life stuff someone wanne talk,1 +ok guys unpopular opinion time vegetable pizza far superior regular cheese pizza,0 +going finally itim finally going im finally going go this little info me im recently divorced working trying good citizen however im convicted count criminal mischief worth damaging exs car separation im also charged count criminal mischief worth count stalking worth one year jail count nd degree trespassing worth year jail urinating exs car early morning work charges misdemeanor offenses dont want go jail im starting finally turn life around put me wont go jail know karmas way getting back ive done wrong long terrible past cant this wont im going accept defeat finally let everyone else win know might terrible friends family may care im screwed im going admit end save court attorney family friends ex wife trouble thinking worrying me time finally go save everyone huge burden,1 +hate life muchim sorry doesntt belong promised ever cut need place vent hate nearly everyone life mom makes feel like shit always talking hates men general context im year old senior high school reason hates men asshole dad left eats away daily mom knows uses hurt me example shell start yelling sees im hurt shell say something like if like here go find father stay him reason im goddamn madsad today though girlfriend met drank occassion would also smoke weed while however family always full alcoholics drug addicts never drink twice week goes smoking ive also told id never drugs far havent however gets drunk time point throwing leave work go take care her today homecoming celebration decided get drunk friend school also going tell knew id mad wasnt enough friend drank gave ride back house after knows feel drunk driving pushed edge love along work school great family much im breakdown along best friends world reason alive today girlfriends dont see much id like makes happy theyve good friends long like said im sorry right place needed vent hurt year plan keeping way,1 +thinking killing myselfim going really rough phase right now im bipolar i started treatment working know do appointment psychiatrist tomorrow even want bother anymore im done feel like jumping balcony,1 +would yall rate attractiveness dont think im ugly kinda square face big tip nose im little short little pudgy tbh id say im maximum effort good day normally like probably,0 +know life failureim highly considering going music education music performance both admit skilled musician comes academics anymore solid gpa high school freshman sophomore earned two ds chemistry cs algebra currently im junior ive earned potentially f bring months participate music group bands outside school time take private lessons two different people feel like comes academics colleges even look me defense taking ap classes year junior year rough guess work hours week feel like shit honestly kill cant get college bad grades in classes unrelated music please someone try reassure chance ahead me tell stop trying late please would college take good musocian even shit school hope chance,1 +sammo hungs film pedicab driver considered many masterpiece agree extent film greatest parts really gets incredible fantastic hong kong film ever has combination pretty good well written drama interesting sympathetic and also nonsympathetic characters genuinely funny humor truly overthetop hyper kung fu guaranteed make many jaws drop someone familiar hong kong cinema watches film well experienced enthusiasts unique industrybr br sammo max mok siu chung play two pedicab drivers live hong kong middle part last century think drive cabs also desperate love sammo interested local baker girl ping nina li chi max one day meets mysterious beautiful fennie yuen kitying falls madly love with many characters get introduced too remain pretty clear time viewer really concentrates film plot cannot say film confusing could much worse especially hong kong soon get know instance ruthless gangster family terrorizing neighborhood course violent acts affect protagonists too premise incredibly choreographed kung fu fight sequences created well nice dramabr br the film great cast leads good restrained not painfully awful overacting humor sammos otherwise great eastern condors example also thanks carefully written screenplay pretty likable easy identify with cast includes many familiar hk cinema faces directors small roles like corey yuen kwai the legendary action director director films like saviour soul ninja dragons den fong sai yuk masterful composer lowell lo koonting john woos killer ringo lams school fire prison fire among many others pedicab driver included shaw veteran liu chia liang whom sammo furious fight sticks alfred cheung kinting the director dark hk noir classic run late great lam ching ying best known friendly face various hk vampire horrorkung fucomedies name few fact cast pedicab driver one interesting ive seen hk productionbr br the film interesting peaceful moments notably love affair max mok fennie yuen one crisis confront thanks lowell los character really could done completely serious piece wanted discussions human values meaning love matter whats past done living get serious genuinely effective middle part film immediately gets much noteworthy average kung fu spectacle actioner also characters efforts cure things touching tells delightfully much right human relations friendship course love still think fennie says max about future bad cooking unnecessary tones potential whole segment themes pretty effectively unfortunatelybr br but get thing film makers interested in action outrageous overthetop action fight scenes include traditional kung fu sticks meat cleavers like theyre used hysterically mind blowing kung fu scene ive seen film ever jackie chans drunken master ii really great wires theyre used cleverly people literally fly opposite corner room get kicked punched simply amazing something hong kong cinema deliver also dangerous stunts make viewer hold hisher breath film one fast car vs pedicab chase sequence various dangerous looking jumps twisting bodies flying air crushing force hard destination still film makers seem accept violence film sammo is like late bruce lee willing give final murderous mayhem gangster villa think kind morale matter obvious shallow may be good thing even harmless film like this cinema meant much brainless entertainmentbr br the film also witty bits humor im sure everyone hollywood america for example would understand like all hilarious star wars gag beginning definitely among literally forced laugh realized seeing also funny scenes created sammos passion ping still greatest amazementfilled laugh came scenes depicted former pharagraph imagery big tall men flying great force screen walls furniture simply insane breathtaking cannot hide feelings thoughts eastern film makers witness something like this nothing notredflag appreciating reaction coursebr br pedicab driver among incredible hong kong action films ever seen easily among sammos greatest achievements minor flaws there could rate even brighter higher ,0 +oiii you yes whats up im really bored well wanna talk please entertaining,0 +want shoot facei always say make post either stop feeling suicidal feel unnecessary hate everything right now just hate hate live hate im doing hate much today work absolutely nothing hate nothing want kill myself get terrified prospect tried right around time last year actually failed however feeling euphoria got trying indescribable kept going weeks weeks afterwards happy tried live somewhere decent gun control laws id shot now know this high level concern actual methodology keeps considering methods fantasize stepping top parking garage think high enough kill me not want live horrible way would cost family lot money actually money right now got little manic overspent first week april month car insurance payment wiped money get paycheck friday many friends really wish people go things with miss friends high school would drop house say hey come us people seem that never sex ive never even really dated anyone stupid want someone time get married kids someday ive never even dated chances point something horrible wrong me know people seem think im really strange sometimes therell someone likes me never someone like people like understand me seem interest romantically feel like paranoid freak want somebody anybody somebody love loves enough want keep around want discarded im bad friendships stuff people nearby me overthink things cant turn brain off want included seem like people interested including me think im badlooking fashion hairstyling things come naturally me know probably look good girls city im smart im usually pretty funny cant make stupid hair cant figure anything with ive gotten good fashion thing guess thats it reddit like site lot know everything else point im tired broke miserable,1 +waked upfirst thing want cry blow brains out want gun think brain matter floor make feel better,1 +tell kill myselfi cant find reason live maybe yall can,1 +suicidal thoughts back feel like getting worse tried hope tried therapy three help fourth tried made feel worse ed gets worse ocd too probably bpd too gotten point believe living everyone happiness exist atleast me boyfriend shitty job it parents struggling financially worrying making waste money therapy time going things differently going jump backing out telling anyone cannot stop even try written two three letters already know tell boyfriend really want end me know make sure try get better atleast strong stay planned outfit know going spend last days people happy memories going bake cake them last cake ik one thing would remember by strong enough everything happened life broken point unfixable sorry this happening thoughts back,1 +fuck it im going styleim going get sad depressed this fuck that tried fucking hardest god damn best im sexiest bloke block neither ugliest longshot knows maybe fucking am gives shit anyway im reserved im holed guy go everyday million things skydive scuba dive iceskate rollerblade etc everything anything know what matter fucking truth circumstances raised view world literally put almost impossible state find someone love someone loves back ive lived fucking europe south america north america single fucking real friend hear that fucking one im nice guy im guy pulls freeways help you im guy gives hitchhiker rides im guy whos always everyone ready listen help im guy im invisible amazing guy guy everyone loved guy everyone helped by guy nobody remembers fuck it cares sad thing matter fucking reality idontfitin mind tried tried good time earth fun parts unluckily life whopping cushion negative even bad life harsh negative know what im done negative im going go always wanted without fucking experience want it im going go live wild yeah im probably going freeze death im probably going starve im probably die disease gives fucking crap im fucking tired living people connection to nobody understand like nineteen never single fucking friend entire life fucking dont im outgoing guy public guy everyone asks take pictures of guy helps dude loading truck guy hears people asking question gives answer im guy nobody wants accept me agnostic extreme sport computer gaming nerd scifi fantasy chick flick lover musical metal rap loving anime cooking reading quadlingual multicultured mixed bad dating saying right sexy things coming friend hah fuck me thats snippet try using say im sure thousands people like you fuck you lived europe two years lived brazil year lived alaska year joined military year fucking think so anyways got chest selling truck quitting job giving sister shit heading mountains want find nice canyon make leap wrote guys i bend right leg lean forward breeze weak sunny yet chilly april day third month free today think almost moment think free longer concerned food longer concerned bills impressions dates finally true myself want nothing return came finally peace death nicholas diary page p edit peace fuck out im shutting last time time roll ball shit,1 +dohnut cause wanna put hole good use,0 +cant take thisi keep asking people every single day things going go back normal never answer hear pollyanna bullshit stay positive gets better bullshit rebound start year look everythings gone shit im explode cant take anymore go site twitter everyones denial maybe itll get better maybe wont new normal bullshit aint covid conspiracy cant fucking take anymore fucking idiots jesus fucking christ im gonna fucking explode,1 +hate hate maybe everything maybe nothing hate fuck happened me years downhill got dumber fatter selfish angry irresponsible careless piece shit gets jealous fucking self years ago that fucking who,0 +life crumblesi need supportwith friends speak figured maybe reaching strangers help me toughest point life ever reached ive actually thought redflag girlfriend years left me month old son together kills knowing ill see weekendsmy days work never perfect relationship flaws struggled get together becoming father admit wrong that originally break told needed change didi changed everything turns didnt love anymore years memories rest mind tormenting me taken toll im even work look old facebook messages look used beand everything reminds her told wouldnt okay ive thoughts redflag before never actually wanted nowand one talk to,1 +cant keep going like thisevery day like fever im much pain feel sick ive depressed life nothing like this ive started cutting never understood before get now ive done much less visable methods self harm think people noticed making worse everyone around gives shit depressed others caused detached yet feels like ammo make fun me seems matter makes everything worse even people say care feel waiting either get fucking already blame them fit world everything makes want die ive tried following dreams succeeded im empty cant feel joy long since have think ill ever ok every single day thoughts speaking directly someone redflag every day say today day cant push myself im afraid pain really all guess default plan hanging nearby tree maybe best think jumping something time thought wonder brain trying put it brain dragging pit know do want over anyone understands state im in,1 +want screami hate depressive episodes wish could scream throw things cant im silently losing sanity,1 +hehe life much better unlike thought imagine getting rejected someone love told ex fucks new boyfriend weekly seen manwhore taken advantage of therapist holds many secrets others hears depressing stories time allowed eat dairy meat poison allowed outside all lied friends giving affection getting none return next nothing look forward to thats life past days almost killed yesterday didnt unfortunately know tequila tastes like though reason never say emotions others one understands feel cuts whenever talk one person lets theyre always busy want happy cant oh congrats spicel congrats world practically stealing tried still try to,0 +hit k karma days let ego filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +suicidality came back years peacehelloive struggled suicidal thoughts since years old im now self harm since young so comes back different forms sometimes spontaneous attempts sometimes planned sometimes unbearable need die wanted ask particular question were supposed survival instinct humans earth want die time therapist tells say want disappear instead die want something cease need break etc always quite precisely wanting die good years barely self harm suicidal urges cbt moved countries recently diagnosed ptsd huge breakdown resurfacing suicidality crossing street every bridge rooftop calling me bus coming way sidewalk lost touch reality control body genuinely idea moved body front bus runs still standing sidewalk opened eyes realized alive,1 +anyone ever overdosed painkillersif so painkillers effects,1 +im gonna leave httpsmyoutubecomwatchvkhlesagabi,0 +fucking way last week completed online programming course columbia university classmate long uncommon name i say ofc next week im starting girls code online course saw classmates name girls code google classroomlike odds omfg,0 +questioni try explain best possible couple really good friends basically know mental status could mess times tell multiple times need lives still feel like annoying burden them still dont really open much dont even really text check anything feel better things dont want talk dont want anything me dont care also feel like im bothering try talk them constantly remind true still think believe head guess want know people feel way people friends people basically suicidal guys annoyed existence like actually burden would rather deal it dont know makes sense something thats mind feel like right share thoughts feelings anyone,1 +read manny soldiers killed like life living generals leaders like used religion weapon keep people killing complete crap looked hate used instead trying make things better people heard suicide sinful religion christianity started,1 +im going sleep want post reach doots post making reaches doots wake up create new youtube channel try make good content current channel videos myself one day decided private all taking suggestions content may start streaming twitch platforms successful make first video try consistent future uploads again taking suggestions content see yall around half hours,0 +two weeks ago made massive commitment move miles new country gf new job new start ended blue day got therei first met gf work got summer job due connection boss theyre germany work uk office wed dating since last summer months clear boss winding operations uk refocusing everything germany located two us left working uk year guy apparently lost job put garden leave confirmation anything else otherwise talked gf possibility moving there returned home last august flown see every months since lives mins away german office works now seemed incredibly excited idea joining office uk one shut down last month march started happening everything seemed fine still super excited it finally ready go middle month booked channel tunnel ticket drove miles germany literally got though suddenly totally blue made clear welcome stay her one else reach help speaking partial german way contact boss anyone worked with facing homeless almost immediately arriving even know get office address listed website expecting travelling gf anyway ultimately made decision go home could still afford travel miles again around hours driving total back home again emailed boss explain situation eventually replied sorry hear it looking solution heard anything two weeks apparently fired even officially notified ive sitting around waiting boss contact back still idea went wrong gf either seemed move right actually got there last visited midfebruary fine ever together even trying ask wrong happened got angry defensive blocked me cant even talk person literally weeks ago best friend love life mean risk everything like someone sure about hurts even knowing happened asking makes angry cold feet maybe dunno would make angry even now feels like entire future destroyed one day gfbest friend job place living ive learning german literally putting move also video called every night nothing ever seemed unusual im back home even know ive officially fired either way longer office back job quickly going cause lot problems ive work years ive jobhunting since far even response yet person could ever confide even speak me highlighted lack friends even more anyone turn anyone help me im approaching years old im stuck mum again ive got prospects nothing good look forward to apart financial ruin bills commitments catch end month best friend since school even give enough time see left still make time even see now lives minutes road makes excuses everytime suggest something hell never attempt rearrange suggest better time ive never felt low worthless alone life ive tried reaching tiny circle friends have theyre busy even meet me even telling happened literally cant see anything worth looking forward to already thought lucky job had im exactly fast learner despite efforts ive constantly worried falling behind ive got one even spend time with financial fallout job unexpectedly looming head really even means meet new people im quite shy awkward new people actually meeting someone new think im idiot pretty hard since ive come back home ive sitting alone jobhunting wracking brains could possibly even happened everyone ive tried reaching give time all either im much hassle deal with give shit me cant see way get better me already pretty depressed met girl gave new lease life new start somewhere totally new could try really find again much hope first time years first time life ive ever actually felt like someone wanted around me feels cruel thought finally found life could happy with pulled underneath me still even know why hate feeling like this thoughts ending make feel goddamn selfish see anything look forward to even really would miss me immediate family perhaps even get idea im already seen disappointment,1 +carei great life w girlfriend im alcoholic stop drinking want ruin relationship years im tired myself,1 +complete contrast opinions review film actually surprisingly good reluctantly went see expected bored clichs obvious jokes overacting trailer promisedbr br however minutes found genuinely laughing enjoying refreshing acting one toilet humour gag dead body manages actually come realistically funny scenarios and without spoiling anything much moments involving animals hilariousbr br the staple ingredients good film there script director actors compared recent attempts romantic comedy film stands tallbr br sure going learn anything spiritual awakening go open mind likely good time,0 +hey guess got bf well yes actually got bf,0 + im fucking done everythingwell throwaway brother doesnt see try intervene ive decided im done life ive come point thought death even scary comforting reality tears shed prayers give dropped highschool working ged im cramped house day much arguing cant stand longer im overweight cant convince mother buy healthier things ive looked work everywhere one hire me girlfriend im always put back burner comes needs im always lowest priority ive sitting dark room day trying decide way go want painless god sends hell sacrifice make know could done lot lot love give constantly made feel like dirt older brother like anything outside house me claims time know hes ashamed see public me im done even funny im ready go fear death longer expect get much attention know tried help things cant fixed rredflag watch caring family thank this believe god may watch you believe god wish happiness well world thank you truly love all,1 +fake scenario one die mom strangers choose im curious,0 +done dealing paranoia hallucinationsah man week rough me ive kind antipsychotics awhile symptoms control week everything really bubbled surface life work falling apart personal life pieces broke up family me im totally weekend yesterday took like mgs xanax mgs diphenhydramine course still woke hoping wouldnt did im precipice looking edge trying decide do makes frustrated cant find people understand pretty much typed maybe somewhere someone could understand mind works tell going okay know going okay everyone thinks im giant asshole douche liar talk behind back even try present side story matter people cant understand mind works say bullshit like well understand but but things mind telling shit perceive reality different everyone else people still think make everything up sigh im tired thoughts head constantly bombarded second guessing theres bugs around hear buzzing noise see faceless people like hiding shadows room theres nothing ever change im one sit deal it im one keep waking tormented things mind never stops want ability stop thinking care dying care thoughts stop head stop seeing shit get better know never cured never regular person sigh hope someone reads kind understands mean im sure long winded rant place thats mind constantly running fucking place body seems understand things go cant figure way get people understand types problems have maybe die people would finally look back life say wow guy really fucked up around like yes thank you exactly bullshit cant handle anymore know man really know do,1 +christmas halloween holiday like more,0 +bro fuck orange juice want juice breakfast suck dick juice,0 +feel like stupidest person ever honestly im tired this keep thinking everyone around judging me cant stop,0 +made poem dogs hope guys like it gthello friendlt gtyou smell goodlt gtthe family havelt gtprotect shouldlt gtpat backlt gtmy golden featureslt gti love solt gti creaturelt gti pallt gtmy coat grayinglt gtbut doesnt matterlt gtmy tail swayinglt gtyou love toolt gtbut wear sorrowlt gtdont worry pallt gtill always followlt gtim getting olderlt gtmy friend forever lt gtbut bond never severlt gtmy life filled joylt gtfrom otherslt gtin time together brotherslt gti may herelt gtin flesh bloodlt gtbut never forget budlt gtnow let restlt gtmy time overlt gti love solt gteternal brotherlt,0 +okayi actually said anyone certainly said think id kill every single night need move move fix everything else one accept me competition area awful im categorised desirable cant help bitterly feeling people need move want change something nicer something different neighbours spend waking hours stomping below still feel it around apartment screaming other dogs desperately wish would get taken away fucking ceiling cannot cope anymore need move feels like im asking world some,1 +sister listing bunch female problems get that im female said quote unquote there recorded redflags males thats dont bother get help dont want reveal cut manliness proceeded say people dont reach girls thats commit redflag dude im mad acted like male problems dont exist confronted told shut up,0 +bayern champions league exact timing football fans bayern it im happy,0 +know do im shitty person one talks anymorei know allowed post since underage im posting anyway get banned get banned know anymore parents give one shit me adoptive dad outright said so im literal mistakeadopted even fucking exist first place habit getting really rude im mad somebodysomebodies often go pretty personal pretty much friends call month ago got frustrated thing fault called horrible names told go die even though depressed insulted many ways friends talk me blame them one talks need support most fault talked anyone close month now cant deal depression alone knowing mean anything anyone ive tried apologize friends ignore get it past someone sad talked ive called attention whores thats culture finland im still shitty person part culture hate much really alive im supposed alive first place im literally mistake want exist anymore hate one cares me matter anyone theres reason exist me ive already tried commit redflag once pretty weak attempt know much longer take this knowing im worth anything know im going try day soon itll serious attempt know im another white teenage girl begging attention know that theres need point out cant go much longer getting support anyone dont know even post here cant live without getting attention care anyone need fucking much guess make attention whore even school today despite corona one interacted me well true guys class told show wrists guess thats better nothing not dont know anymore sorry post long rambly dont know else do,1 +used heavy drinker lost weight anyways go drinking,0 +wanna kill anymore feel like deadi feel like lucky dieing why im price shit good people die accident selfish people like carry on iv said posts maybe worlds stage play part it get choose script ends,1 +cant forgive something heinous teenager cant stop thinking bad awful ami dont know start even start really struggling past weeks moment feels life difficult times anything dont know do brain keeps fixating event late teen years think im worried means life whether im worthy alive moment stupidity encouraged family dog lick there didnt last long couple seconds maybe dont know fact capable thinking split second thats ok even option mortifies me terrified makes monster akin people abuse molest take advantage weak innocent makes feel though dont deserve live redflag constantly rattled around head release hate ruined life story never look back fondly past self capable thing mortifies me wish could take back really do worry ill never find love feel dont deserve worry never able enjoy sex time anything enjoyable related sex partner reminded worst action plays constantly head ruins everything feel guilty ashamed want stop thinking end all need know horrible compared rest humanity want know horrible awful disgusting was feel trapped horror story making every second feels like skin fire want die know go living knowing im monster cant believe this dont want beleive,1 +getting used gecko getting used cant tell girl texting see gecko using gecko reason text me,0 + years since relationship hook ups between im tired feeling aloneive wanted cry cuddle someone care about thats want fantasize sex,1 +wanna buy broom go brrrr fly,0 +poems tell future wrote poem sound rain raining live mean something predict future,0 +wanna live anymore life senseless please change mindhello created reddit account sake post january diagnosed borderline personality disorder taking toll me go therapy coronavirus outbreak whenever mother arguments im always wrong one always keeps top take things anymore want die prolonging time die senseless well die future anyway whats point living really get raised parents what compete others using learned skills knowledge compete best resources available try gain much experiences relationships achievements knowledge satisfaction end die anyway humans worthless selfish pieces crap ever really compete resources even see global warming result selfish deeds competing resources species animal kingdom that humans well known compete humans too iq skills climb hierarchy acquire financial relationship status gain self esteem iq skills stay ladder live worst life possible none low financial relationship status gain least esteem fucking brain hormonal differences world mad stress senseless selfish deeds end well die anyway letting emotional physical pains insecurities anxieties fears death stay sides end well die anyway say prolonging time left final line death senseless please change mind using nonreligious views believe god,1 +even point im roboti work hours week minimum wage live studio apartment afford pay bills keep car since girlfriend left birthday month ago im addicted diazepam battle years slowly getting hard cant cope work without pay bills live year ago used put chandeliers lighting company comfortable salary sunbathing park council truck emptying bins see laying ground drove stomache almost died horrible scars ptsd live weed alchol mentally refuse go sleep feel like robot working hours coming home nothing im fucking sick life know do got friends family me work rinse repeat poor depressed fuck point please,1 +funny yes freleng classic watch sylvester turn green always treat brings us back days cartoon slapstick brave geared adult mindbr br loved it,0 +april staround am april st years ago cousin killed himself sixteen time am many years later wondering would like fate day im realizing it pointless existential life is it never understood why relate fully want join him friends online course always say would want live life get have seem fair get live full life gets away nightmare dont want die know fucking do even know im bothering vent subreddit maybe cry help know i just want out,1 +haha next line yare yare guy kakyoin avdol one guy died came back life reddit tbag wendys,0 +contemplating redflag break upmy boyfriend recently broke me feel lost went talking marriage baby send messing breaking iti feel sad alone messed want forever feels responsible it great guy think ever find someone like him im pretty sure tonight scared final,1 +ive enough lifei honestly see point life anymore got military last year four years deployment afghanistan kept thinking life would much better out truth far worse friends hang anymore im fucking school im tired frustrated time think friendship woman truly care love death night drunken sex honestly think straw broke camels back person would hang love fucking much know see way got drunk friday evening asleep started fondling initiated sex know basically sexual assault love much know intents malicious guilttripping even speak anymore want know okay im afraid whatll happen friendship really over leaves thats it ive got one im close family im even sure actually love anymore crippling depression keeps night tired throughout day depression let sleep ptsd attempted redflag three times military first time afghanistan nightmare last night crushing top everything else woke covered sweat kept feeling back head exit wound stand laid bed crying alarm went class seriously cant take much this loneliness killing faster anything it im resorting alcohol escape fear becoming alcoholic again want pain despair go away badly im sure long last time since severe feel like buying gun finishing started afghanistan,1 +know sometimes stepping comfort zone bad initiate conversation get know lovely friends,0 +im suicidal something ive always wanted say anyone felt way mean sincerityi love you ive likelyhood never met you okay still love you could love you ever done wrong even somehow had would still love you whatever feel guilty about must truly burden soul drive extreme measures whatever is forgive you ive reason to forgiveness part spiritual conviction part moral code part personality whole none forgive you forgive right forgive because truth believe forgiveness one beautiful parts existence new start reset trouble forgiveness one holds judgement life that forgiveness fault may life one living it forgiveness free bondage love prevailing force behind it please ask forgive you can love yourself go further forgiven love you,1 +loved series kids wb believe batman spin seeing original show ended show came first loved idea robin leaving batman solve crime own interesting perspective relationship also liked addition tim drake series like predecessor show great story lines great animation better original fantastic voice work course brilliant writing thing like us would often run episodes minute storyline wish episodes could longer favorite episode batman cartoons comes series called over edge opinion good better heart ice robins reckoning overall nice follow up along superman show made childhood happy,0 +killing option anymore hurtsback college realized involved many things colleagues internships etc everyone around thought depression redflag option stung really bad came close redflag times teenager obviously still around thought option anymore hurt ampxb nowadays thoughts coming back cant kill myself feel like happy family friends know would miss me people told love me feels like weight holding alive want anymore hurts want live cant disappoint people,1 +work really shitty job days days off hour shifts look forward days dread days off joy feel life minute feeling turning work responsible get something done rest time spend alone depressed real meaningful contact anyone else totally incapable good time anything working bored tired man joy life work,1 +wake every morning wanting die first thought have recently fixated gunshot temple sometimes noose times imagine jumping thousandth floor trump tower thoughts urges obsessive intrusive uncontrollable mornings worst contend thoughts throughout day everyday actively fight near constant basis sometimes physically stopped inch short plunging kitchen knife abdomen almost thrown onto trans canada highway came pretty close jumping bridges attempted suicide several times hospitalized ten times think future much do catastrophize worry homelessness car accidents cancer living survival mode makes difficult dreams goals living day day hour hour trying hang on grumpy bitter short tempered scroll facebook hours upon hours dulls pain sometimes watch cnn day cope absolutely mind numbing isolate hard leave house barely sleep difficulty feeding myself depressed usually depressed half year suicidality limited depressive episodes suicide hijacks brain regardless mood emotional state depressed thoughts suicide response deep hopelessness suicide seems like way end endless suffering clinically depressed still suicidal thoughts urges intrusive impulsive come nowhere replace shades negative emotion instead feeling irritated become suicidal annoyed suicide disappointed death middle ground nothing black white live die life better part decade much help people like me antidepressants work types medication hospital makes feel worse lack empirical data suggest hospitalization reduces suicide risk may actually increase risk long term besides best advice emergency room doctors give distract activities enjoy problem enjoyed activity years suggest calling friend ran years ago real treatment person like dialectical behavioural therapy expensive involved complex treatment take years complete master dropped three programs another matter altogether dbt teaches manage inevitable suicidal thinking borderline personality disorder suicidal ideation something may learn live with important note everyone bpd experiences chronic suicidality however bpd sufferers die suicide people complete dbt learn manage thoughts eventually get better starting dbt week things different time ok read end ok,1 +sum pls tell go study need make good grade rn pass dont want parents dropkick cliff making ,0 +dads bit pissed new car stopped working today got two weeks ago insurance company closed weekends hope get fixed paid car,0 +ever see account totally seems like uuwulittlegayboiuwu need talk about things,0 +told crushfriend still like ive friends year liked told said didnt like back well bunch shit happened couple months ago told get completely cutting life started hanging hell basically went date last week told thinking going end friendships didnt get mad actually kind caring told doesnt like like told know said still friends keep working getting,0 +promise mother never attempt redflag incidentsa weeks ago attempted redflag mother father manage stop jumping high floor die told mother could die ways overdose medications slash wrist others mother called police really worried would commit redflag emotionally unstable crouched corner room minutes later police came seeked enter room without permission rooms door left open worried condition came take look treated entering room without permission became violent assaulted one police officers pinned handcuffed me still unreasonable made things really hard police officers handle me brought police station put temporary cell waited hours broke mentally eventually violent outburst cell asked investigation officer io interview quickly interview sent institute mental health imh singapore police officers around doctor seeing me feel comfortable tell doctor problems warded hospital first days imh quiet one day sat corner observing boy peeping boy thought limited social skills like me nobody like him surprisingly patients still talk him saw peeping boy thought bad person said words hurt me another day one person talking boy thought person trying hurt playing friendly boy front me punched person behind times front face hammered time upper back muscles tied nurses ask people ward try agitate acting friendly front me doctor knew punched person ward hospitalized even longer period threatened harm myself would still hospitalized longer period despite threat people start know actually upset friends talking me one patients ward approached me friendly several times really happy sent another ward requested it longer scared people bully me new place new beginning one knows me unlike previous ward whereby everyone knows weakness finally released however every month go back police station report police officer one day police said come police station anymore promised mother never attempt redflag this commit redflag mood already low complete redflag would sent place like imh singapore living conditions far worse every month also report police attempted redflag afraid die courage die me transfer courage die courage live instead try kill yourself every persons life precious,1 +wish days could go emotional void turn numb little bit fucking rest redflag makes hyper aware depression makes intense streak lows week today work redflag going fucking nuts least winning fight depression occupy mind brain feels like neurons firing fucking fast cannot function going break cannot breathe today need breathe cannot yet suppose function like normal adult public clients coworkers yet brain feels like circuits fry try go forward stuck perpetual rerun stuttering get thoughts order words formed come mouth need fucking breathe one else need emotional void days,1 +motivation live first sorry bad english idiot cant learn english must write post dont anything life wake redflag thought every fucking single day years old suicidal thought years two times attempted dont courage die loser clever enough living ugly fat small penis chance girls unsuccesful everything diabetes keratosis pilaris fucking hate myself wish courage redflag everytime sleep want died morning,1 +force stay night end sleeping whole day cant stand living anymoreliving consuming rn like dead sleeping day long possible,1 +fucking afraid going principals office rn shouldnt tbh want get documents stamped principal werent came office times feels awkward,0 +lost hat favorite hat lost it idk im gonna,0 +want dieright fucking now ive given years get better,1 +talked exi messaged meeting somewhere give stuff back honestly messaged miss her almost year since broke day thought her would give anything go back time things differently selfish unwilling change wish could tell this good like well ever together again already found someone else im sure happier ever me life felt like life going somewhere someone loved much got me ive tried hard move on ive spent time close friends family nothing working job anymore dealing trying work overwhelming im mooching parents year old dad busts ass support me feel useless keep telling im going schedule appointment therapist never do get anxious nervous never happens im starting doubt would even worth it everyday consists trying ignore constant thoughts redflag making empty promises myself even know im going anymore needed let guess,1 +want overdosewe bottles bottles old meds want take die one would care best friend even reply want end fucking nightmare,1 +topic applying apply something dont want write want,0 +goddamnit bro im sick bein lonely need set thighs sleep argh,0 +heres songs id recommend price wrong periphery hearteater grave bolt blue chinese football natural selection rings saturn ghost planet purrple cat,0 +deadlineso yea ive posted dont need go details crazy fucked whatever right im thinking need give deadline improve headselflife dont meet im gone guys think,1 +wrong mesorry bad english yo full happy life supportive family couple friends beautiful girlfriend happy still feeling empty fighting wdepression since never told anybody except friends girl lot suicidal urges past even tried once hate aggressive guy think hurts people around meespecially girlwhich makes hate even more sometimes look mirror say self worthless piece shit appetite life do,1 +feel like life pointless ive contemplating redflag several years hello ive contemplating redflag several years now think life worth living bunch work little tv video games reddit something else mildly enjoyable end day work next day maybe couple weeks vacation year still fifty weeks work feel like slave desire continue living like this feel pointless meaningless miserable think find meaning even insignificant cog machine,1 +heres thingive suicidal life first id get really depressed teen early adult would grab whatever bottle pills swallow them someone would find id end waking hospital day later then years ago really depressed things dark deeply hurt wife left parents taking divorce attorney making things nothing daggers heart stood everything wasnt made breathe wake morning get bed etc devastated still trying nobody wanted listen so made decision end life read online ordered meds went state booked hotel couple nights took pills found hours later helicopter ride couple ambulances days later miraculously woke coma so last years down get really down recovered month two time felt up last months very bad feel totally hopeless ordered sodium nitrite online thinking taking end life however last time serious attempt felt peace it actually happy peace day it time feels different cant reach sort peace felt feel like may making mistake it ive thought much would rather let family get with know,1 +know anymorei always loved little brother family always important me lately really hard get along him hes selfish thinks himself help much landed trouble week ago asked help nothing big take parents cats rest month travel morning evening feed i cant take reasons got upset refused help me even though could big hassle him continued tell im stupid worthless wants dead blocked everywhere manipulated get expensive parts computer credit gone cant get himself told pay bill month took name credit clean course it im stupid know im stuck bill cant pay it now im suicidal already need this im edge killing speak cant handle anymore everyone uses im kind im lonely want end all know dont ps im s teenage angst ive severely depressed whole life tried every treatment medicine is yes includes therapy stop suggesting it nothing helps im lost cause,1 +seriously considering redflagits middle night im drunk mean this everything gone wrong really want die family friends keep thinking walking killing cant even think way im scared ill traumatise someone find dead definitely cant house family feel like fucking hypocrite ive commented peoples posts like reasons keep living ready give up girl love ex pregnant someone elses baby dead end bartending job always problems depression getting worse cant see way out,1 +crush selfisolating get see face light life morning ,0 +got laugh reallyeven face death asking someone talk world give f story life really,1 +id need dieits best solution really thoughts inadequacies gone instant cant die people die time many die suddenly without much pain all cant one lucky people,1 +note planim going put thoughts here sections be work escorting sexuality drug alcohol addiction family attention want plan work work software engineer well would able hold job months without company getting tired me im good do bosses love output open source projects contributions even first programming job startup cto shocked first day repeat shock every job companies get tired reputation coming work straight nightclubs drunk drugged up tired needing snort coke work stay awake productive escorting sexuality said above cant hold permanent work one nice thing going im young pretty good looking girl look age look men love that get little girl daddy want fuck little hot teenage daughter sex boring me like girls went long period knowing im straight lesbian bisexual think like men sense daddy real birth dad course want daddy older guy looks me loves me helps get early twenties gives advice suppose people call having daddy issues escorting go really wrong sometimes clients beat shit hookers happened once thankfully got tied dark room beaten whipped positive side getting beat escorting builds character makes really really strong take ton abuse people but head drug alcohol addiction debatable whether im coke addict desperately need it want use it thanks hooker get lots easy free access cocaine use times week alcohol destory me used teetotal innocent quiet shy teen im alcoholic confident loud partygirl arrest record drunk disorderly drunk disorderly drunk disorderly love vodka need vodka two bottles fridge right im going start pouring finish letter im quiet night been nights row now drink sleep family hate reasons go into shit hardest bit write ive typing nonstop minutes im unsure say hesitating mum want anymore know doesnt even says loves me never shows appreciation anybody anything dad worked hard provide sister because mum worked decades lazy bitch first memory dad took party workplace threw children shy one scared talk anyone eventually dragged car shouted me fucking disappointment obviously yet outgoing loud confident child everyone would prefer wish got divorce instead constant arguing theyve since born desperate move away home take arguing anymore people argue public still upsets me attention makes happy used to awkward kid teenager fucking love center dance floor one stage naked girl one guys talk clubs pubs gangbang last night escorting contact first person get naked fuck put clothes back on walking around nude men look wank wanted attention wanted fuck girl though what want secure job better flat my current place tiny studio suck dick afford things alcohol withdrawal symptoms hours sober family the plan obviously redflag note plan redflag question when is anything want first redflag plan long remember first genuine redflag plan two years ago going travel south east asia spend savings fun fucking hookers haha ive become one twist die get executed instead ran away another place nothing like said attention section enjoy makes happy maybe seek out reading story earlier httplongformorgstorieslittlegirllost go read it good story girl ran away los angeles seek fame got fame became one biggest porn stars era shot head am another thing read earlier httpwwwnytimescommagazinehereiswhathappenswhenyoucastlindsaylohaninyourmoviehtml lindsay lohan still gets acting gigs despite crazy bitch it cant i could run away la hollywood whatever id go trying would homeless enough savings last year work out end all finally end all would relief stress problems suicidal voice head thats taunted whole life ironic get feel relief id dead,1 + in america kill themselves natvies old ppl sad know im defect per human,1 +quick summary film willy wonka chocolate factory boy hate poor grandpa were going fun factory mr chocolate hello naughty children time die,0 +president united states fell fucking satire new article youve got to be fucking kidding this goddamn president man sworn office protect run country falling articles fucking babylonbee jesus christ man im man religion praying god takes guy office ill grab bible right get knees,0 +feeling suicidal im starting feel danger may doi suicidal thoughts like whole life im becoming obsessive im feeling like next months really want die yet least call hospital situation,1 +going harm minutes helpin minutes one year anniversary love ones death im religious plan meet side please help,1 +im giving horny life aight nerds aint chief horny lifestyle isnt me realized im using mask cover lack interesting qualities valid hobbies actually making uncomfortable conversations people suffer inevitably end swerve nsfw category so it local hoe quiting hope actually meaningful talks people on ive ghosted you im sorry say ima bad person,0 +tfw youve seen footage ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________,0 +think enough want prove point redflaga couple months ago made post explained therapy working years trying well think im officially done week ago went drinking drank much could attempt black out thats time im apparently suddenly extroverted awesome well work instead threw panic attack middle street friend call ambulance course hour painful experience ambulance came bawling want end life try something different change doctors confirmed nothing change itll wasted money came home simply talked friend nothing matters suddenly time people care famous person commits redflag even then educated mental illnesses suddenly people blame victim selfish reason become better musician right literally commit redflag ever get following send message also thought days redflag blogvlog type thing see everyone takes time censors gets defensive aggressive post daily updates yeah kind thing one lose life would me think thats last way fun end life confirmation lacking mental health department could make things come or maybe not others confirmation id really like see amount inactive profiles posted subreddit comparison subreddits,1 +ever wonder priveleged complete quiz smart fridge yes privileged,0 +friend redflag descion friend mine mademy best friends girlfriends planning sucide second chose instead need advice fast get though head friends stuck mind,1 +everything want leave behind nothing life difficult nice job got college wanted family loves me feel like one truly knows me im alone feels like think laborious living feels nothing difficult really boring everything feels like waste time could something important anything feel way even im writing instead assignments classes life ive coasted minimal effort getting ds cs hearing teachers say hes intelligent try hard enough else supposed say sons stupid know much longer stand constant sense inadequacy boredom am ,1 +believe might help lot people heremy name wil wheaton live chronic depression generalized anxiety ashamed wil wheaton httpslinkmediumcomkxsmlvks,1 +husband live apartment gets super cold easily part theres protective trees winter problem buildings run down theres lots cracks around door husband able fix gaping crack door frame still need work done management best heaters old baseboard heaters heat home run electricity bill like crazy onset early winter midwest coupled loss husbands job im going go apply liheap im wondering anyone knows ways keep apartment warm,1 +love admire farrelly brothers come got see great movie years release made laugh made cry reeeaally warmed heart big time hard describe rotten english try anywaybr br the cast excellent throughout lead supporting roles acting great dialogs great film perfectly directed editedbr br i think farrelly brothers movies often underestimated light comedies theyre deeeeeep talk life i tell youbr br in case movie affirmed relationships aboutbr br if love somebody set free let try share passion pain always true otherbr br im sportshater definitely sports ignorant movie vibes get you could smell atmosphere baseball finally movie explained sportsfan mean cool fanfamilies must therebr br thanks much pete bobbr br ps seen please check kingpin,0 +every time someone says see professional much closer killing myselfi see professionals take medicine nothing helps one find solution stop every time someone says reinforces one answer pain forever die please someone help,1 +anyone actually knows policy va report redflag attemptso prescribed antidepressant va quit smoking thought good first redflag attempt new years eve totally character me suicidal thoughts actions side effect drug recently got it returning normal plotting redflag self hurt neck want report going committed somewhere it know please answerif know please answer,1 +dreams distanti friends never have im charismatic im funny barely hold conversation ive alone long im emotionally exhausted constant mental breakdowns im already numb point anxiety medication numb even more might well dead itd different want friends bright future travel world loving partner yet cant that person try best nice towards others im good enough anyone im almost now education job friends life even started hate incredibly much,1 +birthday days agohonestly really want birthday die feel worry anything anymore ended going shit job instead dealt shitty family cant escape instead got birthday cards relatives bother opening them several months since stopped hit train still regret going thru it,1 +surprisingly hasnt happened yet im surprised hacker hasnt unblurred mrbeasts credit card spent money saw pull credit card latest video sells houses im guessing done multiple times im encouraging it im surprised hasnt happened yet,0 +important question girls even find guys attractive ,0 +well im fucked watching traps anime mom walked watching boy taking clothes off see funeral,0 +get ripped using reddit browse reddit plank position help posting easy,0 +someone online class mic camera bed totally unaware biggest fear since always school bed could see close hear breathing,0 +guys wanna say tomorrow turning but tomorrow bandwagon different circlejerk get karma nice meeting you even though idea tf aremy best moments teenage years minutes scrolling subreddit every couple daysanyway good time goodbye,0 +dudes small dicks stay playing xbox like bro worried wrong microsoft,0 +whats pointmy life pretty okay guess im stressed time im never happy like anything do want study want work want anything would easier die instead dealing crap whats point ive tried talking people before act like want live act like life somehow important means anything im sure died people would sad thats true anyone weeksmonthsyears nobody would care more sure woulds still sad nobody torn anymore think theres point life im religious guess thats part it see humans living thing special were different pile rocks see life another feature universe like stars oceans mountains rocks things universe people were things made atoms like everything else make single bit difference died whats point feeling like shit time,1 +hurts friends someone basically everything wish basically everything wish had like life decides cruel dangle dream front knowing matter never able obtain easily born sheer luck eats inside makes feel like somehow worst enemy friend adore stillit hard dependent ways emotionally feels like something ever happen like anymore part dies sometimes feels like without life worth living like dependency understandable also know move lives find someone value me even want love wish someone put othersi tired mentally ill makes wish feel anything even know normal is raised normal raised broken depressed anxious mess envy complicated emotions,1 +hey shitass wanna see speedbridge fiiiller fiiiillerrrrr fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllleerrrrrrrr,0 +george sanders playing saint penultimate time good job good script usual good rko cast around noncharteris story too bristling murders good clean funbr br thread new york police inspector fernack templars friend framed corruption scandal disgraced st comes london try put things right nice simple far really world thread another tale woman taking revenge people murdered brother wendy barrie well bumping nasty men saint fall love boot including baddie direct protection fernacks cellar theres creepy shot dead staring car theyre taking back theyd got him paul guilfoyle pearly gates must supposed homosexual witness dressing gown beginning later beguiling comment st thinking keeping pet palm springs fernack played jonathan hale usual time beaten deflated attitude really needed good slapping templar liven upbr br the hays office also made sure got picture right threads tied straggly bits well worth watching us like kind thing val kilmers version yardstick bother,0 +notice senpai w ___________________________________________,0 +this film works true trying say ignore dynamics plot focus message see little bit main character michael whether male female us come point lives want look back reexamine situation relationship really occur like remembered went wrong michaels desire find grace completely selfish anything wants make feel better things turned out even so sympathetic character everyone selfish comes relationships would otherwise film ends sure michael learned anything new not best gauge relationship friend nadia soul movie reminds us always two sides every story found michael pompous arrogant plain clueless exactly liked him real character ever wanted go back analyze previous relationship film you closing film everyone,0 +posting award myself nriebejuebe jejeiejebeuue hebsoowbejrn r anne xhdkeleoneidowk true story,0 +john leguizamos one man shows hit miss mambo mouth showed intense characterizations great timing material average spicorama accomplished former well time material funny freak classic followed disappointing sexoholic stuff freak showcases genius hes spotlight hes without peerbr br freaks semiautobiographical look journey young man power resonance think even creator knew about allowing us chance see soul mr leguizamo gives us opportunity project life onto greater gift performer give willingness drop the wall expose share terrifying actorsthey use characters hide behindbut jl goes fullthrottle gleefully smashes pretenses lenny bruce richard pryor best cultural observerscomediansactors spoke heart whatever noticed society truth provided slashing humor combine great actors gift mimicry inthemoment not mention sense humanity see john leguizamo power same least freak doesbr br from birth first big break every life altering moment between viewer sees host characters private moments experiencing pain hope humor comes with looking drained lean muscledtight jl ringing sweat evenings end offered crazy life audience spike lees fluid camera work captures actors nuances last lip curl slow blink scenarios range drinking machismofueled father when seeing chorus line gay deaf uncle first girlfriends vicious humiliation strips naked eager sex nightmarish first sexual encounter large german woman back kentucky fried chicken follows unsuccessful attempt pick drunk lapsed catholic bar stpattys day climaxing serious showdown mother father shows true genius plays scene two characters brother strong dramatichumourous intensity forget watching one person theres costume changes bad wigs lighting tricks makeup actor giving all simply amazingbr br other actorscomedians stand right eddie izzard chris rock dive deeply john leguizamo does thats criticism long shot love work freak different moving nob way best one man show one able touch long time,0 +im stressedi year old constantly think future but one willing help me parents care mentally think im emotional teenager overdosed vomitting whole day without noticing do want future friends could understand would nice,1 +chances cuddling remains cuddling know really wants cuddle im okay that dont want turn,0 +im tired life everything wanna end allim tired everything everyday wake worrying imma deal wit another arguement another beating every night go sleep worry bout deal next day im always stressing im tired mentally physically cant keep puttin know never anything deserve bullshit guess one person love heart cant believe truth dont understand,1 +or saved reddit posts get wiped wondering,0 +bruh everyone starting highschool next year later get books free country already started gotta pay bruh,0 +agree strenghts mentioned reviews beats missing keep firmly inside genre crime drama film noir limit great drama beyond limits elements make film noirnot say great film noirs arentcantshouldnt also great dramas one isntbr br one note music film used sparingly would say used accentuate action frequently wife elementsbr br great set film way abrupt sort non ending ending either right let dependsbr br spoilers follow specificsbr br the big turn story involves children seeing mother die big moment children never shown react one way other neither cries neither asks father happened kids good actors reactions father suppose matters big misstep heart story kids kept mostly blank reaction really none next scene look nothing happenedbr br in like fashion bond forms belmondo venturas characters belmondo says knew partner killedbut never explained impact dramatically belmondo anyone else belmondo romantic subplot also strains credibility though convincingly acted venturas character lets belmondo involve total stranger escape plan reason even comment seem notice another gapbr br the ending movie spoil it ending happens screen perfunctory voice tell happened guess tries make feel true life like missteps leaves drama screenbr br whats point dealing issues know maybe goals film limited giving audience wants crime melodramasuggest deeper elements move ignore thembr br too bad much recommend film ventura good bad could great drama well crime storyas imdb favorite movie time godfather film potential would make good remake though done us problems would probably sink film hands right director would good remakethough doubtful venturas performance could toppedbr br so worth seeing frustrating whole,0 +dont know much longer thisim close ending all cant stand go day day pretend dont feel way dont feel hurt alone sad try tell people feel way react dont think think im serious want show im serious,1 +feel like everythings pointlesshalf time get point living im turning week friends speak of probably gonna day nursing jack daniels myself honestly real friend almost two years allies people follow facebook living myself one would know gone suddenly dropped dead feels like theres point anything know want life fuck even know drive im creative talented even half interesting hell relationships falling apart feels like matter time partner enough me used self harm lot suicidal two years ago im supposed look like im better im supposed still craving harming tools months honestly still do im transgender ftm im supposed success story pathetic people tell im funny cool deserve chance feels kind empty me try improve situation join groups try get meet people feels like cant connect anyone work home really wanted work boxers want around people going judge me feel like thats people ever done life either fat freak queer stupid sexually assaulted year ago date want able go one day without thinking happened anymore im seeing therapist feel like good feel like much wrong me fact last friend basically stopped talking found happened step front traffic,1 +f dm question want ill answer school personal nsfw questions allowed please try restrain,0 +make changei wake every morning dreaming death hate myself bully miserable become alcoholic cope negative feelings stay drinking want alone want sleep means wake alone again pushed away everyone good life surrounded alcoholics hide family feel much shame run credit card debt longer stop spending hundreds dollars every week buying others drinks also work bartender got shitfaced working last night lucky still job cope work sat knife wrists sobbed loudly sure whole block heard insane part debt saved life moment thought fathers disappointment upon finding debt stopped me saved enough money send college degree use realized killing would expose poorly ive managed life alive keep pretending anyway eventually pulled together left work felt horrible started taking shots soon got there fucking stupid stealing bar ended drunk job fired may end losing job anyway money off cant even remember counting register writing woke hating again woke alone couch thought redflag woke thinking sabotaged last night afraid die want different want wake feeling like anymore want make change feels impossible keep trying stop drinking inevitably break end shitfaced things regret make change ounce willpower left cannot see future outside killing myself selfish self pitying hateful person guess im writing realized morning going kill change believe enough trust enough think progress realistic know do sorry bit rant going post change mind need help one turn to,1 +everything cry helpi always seem scream like one hears ever dont even know anymore stuck moments random happiness brought fucked form nostalgia feeling unhappy reason never fully explain understand even know bother anymore try social never works end worse before sick clinging possible interaction people thats left driving people away making hate,1 +feeling little disappointed tarantino ever since death proof insist little appreciate amount work producing homage stunts people inglorious basterds definitely propelled tarantino top ranks universe movie summed albeit inadequately one word raw br br there intense emotion every scene revenge justice seem main themes start movie one feels compassion towards victims nazis placed tarantinos fictional dimension ww historical context br br characters unpredictiable fun scary brutal sexy adjectives sure escaping mind fitting notredflag go appreciation character comments fellow users sum appreciation various performances br br dialogue evolved classic tarantino bad ass provocative style seen pulp fiction death proof one feel dialogues tarantino making open references movies indeed many dialogues near lessons cinema audience setting partly takes place movie premiere reference movie close around every corner br br it nice see language presented german french english employed rather equally naturally speak french english fluently frequently disappointed english speaking characters french movies act poorly french speaking characters englishamerican movies act poorly amazingly enough tarantino managed make actors pull natural graceful performance actors helps put audience context historical context indeed soldiers spies civilans rarely understood soldiersspiescivilians countriesbr br the visualsphotography beautiful sceneries convincingly conveying s wwii europe outfits perfect violence orgasmicallyrealistically conveyed punches held back nazis often shown tortured makes movie open audiences graphic violence shock sensitive demographic br br volumes written movie movie good north american inglorious basterds premiere fantasia festival montreal pee refused go miss one single scene hope image conveys strongly feel movie im hard audience please,0 +seeing break leg vancouver release party thought enjoyable filmbr br i outright belly laughs cameos eric roberts particular scream heard word actual release date although ive heard closebr br the story simple mainly vehicle characters situations script smooth seamless plot develops effortlessly acting comfortable yet fresh film least one award film festivals in around sobr br i highly recommend break leg,0 +every single time gets better drops much worse before fim tired hearing gets better does gets so much worse im sick feeling okay feeling human once feeling like maybe actually this maybe ive overcome this give week maybe months im shrouded darkness more hurts fucking much before im tired suffering im tired getting better im tired suffering again time much painful last im tired feeling comfortable im tired feeling fucking human wake stripped away again almost four years since first redflag attempt sometimes look back think wow ive come far agonizing sadness comes back realized ive sunk in im exhausted im tired fighting this ive therapy four years nothing helped im begging help id anything make go away know help exist people like me sadness utterly consuming throw pills it try cbt dbt interpersonal residentials psych wards inpatient outpatient resilient wonder stop trying mend cracks wounds maybe born broken unfixable truly truly wretched want anymore want live want fight ive given up,1 +advice boys girls hey im year old girl yes know last year teens club thats relationship year old boy also lurker sub last days saw quite advice girls girl advice boys boy posts noticed things mentioned actually go vice versa genders discussion boyfriend make sure dont make assumptions ultimate guide girls boys relationships really hope help someone well clear miss understandings gender specific behavior hints confusing anything specific gender boys girls give hints cases confuses person feel like crush giving hints best way find take additional step hint signal express feelings obvious way likely encourage same give clarity overall feelings it scary take first step yes boys girls equaly afraid take first serious step matter expressing feelings inviting date holding hands kissing boys girls equaly want one take step see causes problem sides waiting first step one scared so actually brainstorming bf deciding advice give this talking fellow girl friends fellow boy friends concluded cases girls wont take step girls usually feel like chosen boy often think quite desperate ones take first step course case help boys understand girls rare take first steps best advice matter gender really want person significant other lose them take step scary might be rarely end badly even get rejected least know waisting time everyone shy afraid first date dates scary meeting person probably dont know well awkward wont know say best advice give ready carry conversation know hard trust me commit this give date better experience person also willing carry conversation even better fully committed good convo worst thing assume person talk time even case probably wont give either good impression other ask something try give long answers share little stories life relevant convo nobody knows kiss first kiss like me terrified first kiss watching kissing tutorials yt well practicing hand however little secret share kissing like swinging swing first time might bit confusing body carry action you already know kiss least somewhat even practice first kiss go fine long dont try overdo it whole idea full blown kiss bit much grasp little peck lips first kiss also definitely romantic enough take slow there rush late less whole advice thing trying reassure nothing wrong well teens even ies without gfbf kiss sleeping someone first relationship first kiss firsts magical special feel fully comfortable going trough them dont rush see others around so first kiss first boyfriend regret those cuz felt like rush something never get back im okay now dont dwell past mistakes thought mention that okay already much longer wanted be stop here questionsopinions welcome comments also mostly used hetero relationships example post thats basing experiences hope still find useful matter gaybi etc also apologize grammar not native speaker formatting im mobile,0 +im going slit wrists tonightim never happy anymore,1 +literally staying alive one thing onlythe reason im still dog cant leave her much want every single day feel like owe stick around take care her god guarantee someone would love take care way do id gone instant,1 +anyone want join club penguin mafia pls join guys main goal harass children snowball attacks u like join thank,0 +person hates meim m everyone says im fine everyone thinks im ok friends seem person hates cant stop hating think creepy monster know im really cant help think true like im fighting want stop,1 +genuinely hate pretentious mofos underground music taste bc whenever search artist like monthly listeners music sounds like groaning liarssss know every single one listens one direction one looking,0 +reddit logo back orange white pog like logo lot more im tired businesses changing logos seem socially accepted know believe that want popularity,0 +ask trans girl questions idk saw uonionconsumer version remembered post today lol ask away ig filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +indefinitely grounded according father proceed situation tldr parents basically fucking hate called sorts terrible things arrested small weed possession threatening demolish social life improve situation,0 +would rather know friend died redflag would rather think tragic accidenti cant decide let friendsfamily know let think accident,1 +im going make day need someone see thismy thread rdepression httpredditllwe someone please read third edit comments anything help me rang samaritans help all cant live more,1 +nothing wrong that heartily endorse comments boblipton snow leopardbr br im thrilled find movie available us dvd ive ever seen persuaded goethe institute london show conrad veidt season years ago long see againbr br barrymore resplendent engaged movie possibly prick renowned german actor foil veidt wonderful scene stealer doesnt pick nose one point one seminal films connect dr jekyll th century grand hotel midnight the cabinet dr caligari the student prague the spy bladk contraband casablancabr br see it,0 +wish born americai saw comment someone living us saying british people mentally challenged babies born america low functioning autism might grasp basic english instead fluent language cannot wait kill birthplace would actually human born outside uk able speak basic english low functioning autism bad teeth deformed make want kill myself,1 +normalize calling guys sis queen girls bro dude day got flamed friends calling girl friend dude fucking matter call bro bro dude used guys,0 +drawing difficult recently got drawing never expected hardi thought could draw easily followed tutorials drew abraham lincoln draw sight looks completely stupidit right hard is,0 +people really like this character gay adds nothing plot dude character straight adds plot lmao,0 +think mom boyfriend okay right parents divorced years now mom least one bf since know about i found saw good night text phone heart emoji asked said dating him mom open kind really bother me right anyways today went big lake north cali day trip another city best friend came back saw car still here wasnt wondering got there got back asked went went with said good went friend normally would tell friend specify suspicion also dressed up press it also couple nights ago heard talking guy phone got shower hung shortly got out asked said friend know do like cant bring good mom likes help things guess know want to really care marriages end divorce im obviously special case feel sad it,0 +know need help trust anyonemy experiences made trust myself post asking help want hope solve problems mine,1 +lost frienddrinking poisonshe said would easier us didnt bother pursuing friendship anymore never close begin with something made really want keep friend shes life forever im drinking closest thing find toxicity label soon post this,1 +it tell confess crush comments whichever choice popular ill agree with im go bed ill morning lets see fate store me,0 + years years,1 +hardboiled warner brothers film starring young barbara stanwyck consummate master portraying machiavellian cool technique perfected eleven years later billy wilders double indemnity stanwyck plays lily powers wellworn daughter violent speakeasy owner suffocating steeltown rendered cynical numb years offered sexual favor fathers customers father dies distillery explosion hops freight train new york literally sleeps way corporate ladder bankbr br this would come across preposterous stanwycks blazing work here deadeyed stare amoral seduction methods easy see men become addicted aggressive carnality one young men seduces along way freshfaced john wayne things accountant named jimmy mccoy melodrama gets heavyhanded toward last third film murdersuicide hushhush job paris keep lily quiet new bank president addicted lily embezzles company funds keep luxury tackedon ending somewhat disappointing stanwyck sears screen film curious touches like lilys bonding friendship africanamerican woman named chico german immigrant teaches lily nietzsche philosophy regarding importance avoiding sentimentality,0 +everyone loose strands hair baliding like occasionally piece hair come stressing cuz dont wanna bald soo like happen everyone,0 +cant continue on overi posted think recently depression gotten much serious recently diagnosed bipolar disorder ive started getting treatment it ive really started decline mental health alarming rate mood swings much severe one hour im excited go home take walk outside hang friend play video game next im thinking ways kill myself reached peak today realized plan well several ways kill myself i could drink chemicals kitchen sink i could ask dad wanted target practice use shotgun blow brains i could overdose sleeping pills ive sleeping lot lately weekends could fun friends spent sleeping parents know problems think im lazy teenager comes grades best work studies cant focus anything ive lost interest many aspects life dont see continue im terrified hospitalization hospitalized everything end life im sick good fuckup cant get good grades cant even stay class anxiety falling far behind work cant take anymore want advice tried get help isnt helping me ive many different medications many make gain weight self esteem whatsoever im fatass bitch whos fat things enjoy like cosplay get bullied lot school try listen make fun potbelly want exercise im busy trying keep work grades hate wish could start end all ive also thought running away living woods want happy again intermittently want life back hate depression much going every day feeling like going motions life want live id rather live all,1 +life fucked right cant even kill trouble would cause months think willwith girl last years happiest time life literally everything could want life except kids possibility future gets amazing job offer state decide move job even though means months working get licensed practice law new state okay though savings salary support us supported residency sell house okay though combined income well able afford much bigger house together things going keep going up months move new state find thats online affair going year talk agrees cut contact go couples therapy repair relationship couple months go find stop talking all continuing affair lying therapy it confront shuts down done wants leave im back old state alone ability ever trust anyone shattered house job decimated savings love prospects family future sleeping air mattress friends guest room want kill would much burden friend clean things plan find job get money together apartment go back collect things fit car our house kill myself way stuff one easy place one deal someone living dying already executed new leaving everything sister thats plan,1 +would anyone care killed myselfif killed today family wouldnt even sad theyd probably angry anything since redflag frowned upon n id prolly fuck family honor cuz thats care about theyd prolly try sweep rug n make look like accident save face ive anything need worry bout ive pets immediate care rely me folks would take care least bunnies would safe n thats care outstanding loans debts government individual couldnt come family money bonus least folks cant get mad leaving tax man waiting always quiet one friend group dont rlly notice whenever im gone theyd prolly assume disappeared whatever accord dont blame em fault short dont think anyone would rlly care even notice would prolly mild annoyance worst thank coming ted talk,1 +friend caught jacking porn screen sharing oops,0 +future druggiewhy see reason live get high fun ive every got double crossed friends sucks bc im freshman feel like ill become druggie doesnt bother me id glad give life high time,1 +charlie chaplins little tramp little man character wins world war i called great war time single handedly even capturing kaiser something entire allied armed forces unable do bad turns dream somewhat cop weakest part mesmerizing silent short almost feature film minutesbr br there inventive gags galore including charlie put gas mask eat limburger cheese sent home using cheese weapon germans charlie sleeping underwater flooded trench next soldier continues annoy charlie disguising treeone best sketches everand charlie pretending beat friend become pow hugging enemy sightbr br one amazing feature much charlie behind enemy lines dressed german resembles hitler ten years hitler nazi thugs rose dominate german politics obviously hitler patterned appearance charlies film,0 +doubt would fail attempted idea terrifies me feeling mom would already gone time came to least close best friend would lose sober streak probably start drinking again would left paralyzed unharmed left regret would probably wish death nowof course thing stopping me would feel selfish leaving everyone care about hate idea suicide selfish feel way myself care two people world know would fucked gone know sure one would follow footsteps would probably kill themself selfdestructive habitsi wish could free life wish could retreat kind void empty anyone else little while terrified fail,1 +im gonna commit lonely luck women run dry im years old pls help,0 +ever watched deals gently subtly aids which alluded gay life also old age dying death deep beautiful movie also visually special director highly recommanded,0 +question boys tf balls itchy,0 +seems okbut not every fibre going torture daily immediate surrounding makes sad depressed day in day out many friends know make enough money change situation trapped tiny room still one listens one cares people around super selfish family friends taken granted left hanging need fresh start personal life way behind curve im sure ill make alive career end see positive changes personal life family friend relationships recent years depression cant remember last time content life wish friends would remember reach genuine caring friend never type family support try reaching still get blown off feel alone battle suicidal depressed life supposedly best years yet chained mother life seems life own go motions thing going job really hope long term finally get move start living healthy normal life,1 +hate existing today woke thinking make work again cannot family hates me hate myself never better thought better universe keep pushing dark,1 +ill dead octoberi literally cant this im fucking party im lonely touched long hurts need held kissed im lonely know know dad keeps guns overdose easily maybe get home know,1 +one one god damn person earth gives shit live die,1 +advice friend friend asked girl right moved away long distance freshman said perfect distance could difficult wants continue pursuing together ignoring elephant room tips him answer questions,0 +confession make like tiktok,0 +say without doubt hate every individual reading this want die hate idea people much hope god get shot fuck fuck fo you frankly truly wish continue suffer pathetic piece shit degenerate deserve nothing one angry,1 +else epileptic seizure guys relate right right jddbtfnfbvv ggbvchh,0 +people go school covid th birthday next friday permit test planned someone school covid week quarantine meaning miss test earliest reschedule months,0 + ending tonighti walk wilderness drinks freeze quit job year long vacation im sure ever been belong here im despicable racist believe ww downfall western civilization ww nail coffin im disgusted almost every aspect modern society subversive globalist won going back downhill since moonlanding bother investing children future every day spend earth grow angrier nothing left fight for im happy excited passing on happy world less hateful place without ,1 +first saw kid the little rascals first went tv year born fairly recently bought dvd between watched occasions took careful notes pie fight racist parts were farina nubian slave voodoo example think roach mcgowan would beaten death theyd tried nowbr br notice pie fights three stooges halfwits holiday sweet pie pie resemble oneand film came years initial contract harry cohn columbia pictures obviously inspiration ss laurel hardys battle century filmsremember time stole best other br br one note laurel hardy buffs bake sale lady none dorothy coburn also appeared tbotcthe flapper getting car getting rear end always escapes never credited,0 +describe colors,0 +king masks beautifully told story pits familial gender preference towards males human preference love companionship set s china time floods meet wang elderly street performer whose talents magical capture awe witness him famous operatic performer sees befriends wang invites wang join troupe however learn wangs family tradition allows pass secrets son learning wang childless wang encouraged find heir magic lost forever taking advice heart wang purchases year old fulfill legacy would teach new son doggie ancient art silk masks soon wang discovers fact doggie threatens rare dying artbr br together wang doggie create bond experience range emotions invariably accompany it story absorbing setting serene costuming simple summarily international award winning art film cant help move inspire,0 +someone message im bored wanna talk someone dont mind talk numbers game send dm,0 +hey redit help im trying scarr self suggestions one gost bords,0 +fall asleep fall lipbite,0 +merry christmas australia im oregon friend australia said merry christmas,0 +life trust connection fucked upi live alone spent time alone since beginning covid ive ruined first relationship ive ever ive felt safe genuine ways keep fucking every time less safety less trust time dont know repair more moods point im completely apathetic catatonic like get up sit one place day lose time also aware horrifically dragged single minute is get stoned minds racing go bed again dont speak anybody dont hear anyone know point im thought people im almost waiting sign permission ok make decision thing keeping going making very gory emotionally uncomfortable art stuff intense enough cause loved one cry it close dont really see aspect true feelings more intense people love you dont want burden more relapsed opiate addiction midst bullshit kept hidden long could kept keeping dirty junkie secrets like always fucking used to even dont understand obviously wanted sabotage life badly recent months ive fucking clean days much even looking heroin whole time ive even tried sneakily source case one off ive taken form opiate ive sober exception weed feel better it everybody life treats something not using heroin partner told dont trust me nature relationship vague think dont like even thought person more feel completely utterly unheard unseen point due constantly spiralling ways existing expressing others dont find appropriate makes uncomfortable im aware reality so like now feel like truly end want hear reasonable way think feel fucking nuts cant tell anybody im close to im going jump local viaduct m high fucked,1 +goodbyeposted days ago figured owed people read little closure guess took rest sleeping pills waiting kick wanted say thanks trying reached out goodbye clearhitgage update attempt failed reply people thread replied pms eventually went called old friend thank everyone repliedpmd,1 +mother constantly forces situations awful anxiety also taken therapy depression weekend shes making go pool party think making depression worse get understand genuinely severe social anxietyobviously thats causing desire redflag many factors play it severe social anxiety mother wont bother listen really sucks,1 +finish working overtime get bonus end year im killing myselfi finally say accomplished something worked hard towards something end high note,1 +dont care youre gay straight bi pan ace otherwise sexuality focal point existence personality talking sexuality please get hobby something,0 +sorting new time mission posts one comment dracula loves himself also call new army formed,0 +death salvationi friends anyone talk to aspergers adhd fear medication way treat this suicidal thoughts never normal im always bullied positive social interaction social skills easy way out ability kill myself,1 +circling draini year old male lately things feeling worse every day feel lonely desperate even single friend enjoys company friends known since school days consistently forgotten organising events little sub groups dont fit any also relised one ever initiate conversations even always ina rush end it left feeling increasingly worthless unwanted ans forgotten boyfriend year good guy talked every day however problems didnt feel unloved didnt necessarily feel loved argued always felt pressure keep happy me stress got better broke him honestly thought would relieved free me wasnt left absolutely heartbroken dont regret breakup think things would gotten worse hurt made really affected me wanted keep life hoped could end friends doesnt want see anymorem understandably course feel like fool letting go real friend had person wanted spend time me work fairly dead end job dont enjoy doesnt pay particularly well often feel taken advantage of feel like cant anything else reddit would call starbucks degree real skills experience limited line work progression even leave would know dobecause dream jobs nothing really interests anymore hobbies everything makes bored feel like im end rope loneliness crippling every time meet someone new get left disappointed took month work go vacatiom miserable whole time could think noone share with got married wouldnt able best man noone would ever ask me first would wish plane would fall sky kill car would hit crossing street lately ive fantasising hanging myself jumping height overdosing still feel like would never actually it thoughts come every day die people would get quickly id forgotten im tired let down im tired crap human maybe articulate interesting fun people would want around me trouble talking people nothing say im shy new people mostly im boring couldnt name anythjng interesting me life far meant nothing im drive cant left disappointed again want gone,1 +feeling sad af rnfr feeling sad af rn wanna kill myself one likes everyone thinks im retarded people would mourn died thats obligatory someone passes piece shit whose absence contribute better society always doubt myself accomplishments theres one world anything good say fault fucking stupid reason live im taking space literally anyone else street much better even fuckin homeless guy family would mourn theyd honestly probably better without me workin boosting morale bullshit sitting th month working feel like total shit people told countless times retarded never acknowledge think theyre messing around actually am ive ever made world nuisance gonna hang months ago decided much pussy done harming others anymore like every day now im fucking stupid im even aware it im pussy id probably need gun method painful me first want would literally destroy head theres purpose since one even cares me life thought everyone else me theres nothing stop happens underneath nose cant even notice,1 +wrongi dont understand im wrong life im trying hard really still slip sometimes people always remember times mess up never times succeed nobody hire date like me everybody stays away except small number friends even wont hang things me friends important need make time for jobs even grades worse mine wrong want happy successful dont even want try anymore hard worth it every time something good happens potentially happens always gets ruined im tired want stop cant make stop,1 +friend relationship before so killed themselves pretty depressed found girl really liked thought liked back went stayed night exes house know help comfort friend need help idk many subs kind thing,1 +thought antidepressants would helpi started taking month half ago seemed working really well really really bad im dark place want see way out want pain end know need make go away want feel anything anymore,1 +hey guys subreddit called rpatriciasbitches would cool youd join im patricia roleplay kinda sub im running president kinda small think would cool people joined,0 +want live anymoreim past years life hell monumental situation happened years ago ever since nothing bipolar maybe cant handle feeling like rest life certainly will child alcoholics severely depressed mother never showed ounce self love that lovely trait given me like im bred hate myself want live know sure never different forever depressed unhappy want go day day this people sense something wrong always stay away like toxic is im right mind everyday know worthless meaningless huge world know cant make difference know im psychological mess thats good nothing one likes around me hate around myself live thought going rest life makes want die even more theres nothing do go gym everyday social since life constant state nothing depression hiding everyone lose friends make manage get past depression lose talk much hate life myself everyone moving lives falling love getting married starting families starting careers buying first homes meeting new people jobs moving new places theyre happy everything seems right everyone monumental fuck up,1 +family problems anyone else feel like theyre unwanted unloved spend time theyre family,0 +tyla yaweh new chris brown except x better rteenagers like who im quirky teenager im like teens listen insert s band like good songs maybe modern music sucks except oliver tree,0 +today learned friend mine apparently trans boy im okay that fact im proud brave enough able accept tell others it but came pretty big shock me kind came nowhere really seemed like girl beforehand im honestly hard time getting past shock wrong approach this,0 +cant anyone appreciate anything dolike im fucking trying fucking happy like fucking cant never im trying one fucking thing last months everyone keeps asking help ask anything answer ever support people none supports,1 +think im finally going end lifei never thought id make im feel like ive tried long enough gave good run went therapy took meds even went hospital time felt better crash worse worse every time happiness ever lasts weeks back square one tell people getting sick shit constantly tell things again feel guilty every day im here everyone tries hard still nothing give them say thank you im sorry i love you ill try harder meaningless keep picturing downing whole bottle pills alone favorite park hanging bridge near house ive already written notes people care about walk traffic think might believe accident hide notes find weeks write email write blog post set publish days now want ask help hospital expensive treatment expensive try stop means someone work cover shift parents call make excuse cant go work ill miss semester grandparents upset sad easier die point least around see happens next told friend id see today im scared cancel itll better find dead ive run excuses siblings home school ill catch bus something want find body gotta finish notes first kind want eat one last big meal maybe take nice hot bath one last time maybe ill go catch movie go pet store look cute animals one time take one last walk park go museum one last time want make last day nice feel lot calmer knowing end feel serene knowing pain anymore im gonna make peaceful last day thanks reading,1 +update last post sub redditi sent mental hospital good days honestly best decision made life got better meds help mental health issues made friends going hang with got good eating habit realized im loved around better way living working out yoga going outside hobbies enjoy hospital experience good picnic lot time reflect got point helpful really know many care im better sometimes ok get help yall matter even think dont do,1 +writing suicide notes family friends months every time meant it written last one said need to actually ok dying time part still wants live done trying given up done hurting done alone good bye,1 +feel like despite deciding kill piece diedi planned nice last day lake killing new years eve ended deciding to feels like part still went barely get motivated leave bed feel numb,1 +even know sleep much always tired anywayampxbgthelp melt wanted something productive today slept h,1 +hey guys crazy idea got saves much time make sure check dont enough time day get sleep need okay also dont enough time day get classes combined two im sleeping class now fucking wonders,0 +best thing myselfis end suffering all waiting perfect time,1 +roses red grow grass give chance ill cum ass,0 +bro skeleton missed little ampxb httpspreviewredditftkjxtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdebdfeecdcafafddf,0 +scared commit redflagim planning lifes gone shit havent slept last days keep taking random pills want destroy life convince od,1 +friends films like la bte aka the beast o monstroonly done old continent in film see all horses dirty sex nymphomaniac kind gorilla non sense dialogs etc etc etc serious terms nowits allegory men sometimes could bestial visceral brutalwalerian borowczyk the director shows us loss innocence sexual violence rape brutality astonishing cinematic experience bizarre full grotesque scenes fans european shocking exploitation recommend filmif like one recommend orloff invisible man alterated states,0 +update went miles check previous posts context,0 +hey good day,0 +anyone else feel like subreddit besides teenagers really mean ive noticed reddit maybe two years every time post another subreddit people really cruel tried posting ask reddit post got trolled hell direct messages filled really hateful stuff tried posting life pro tips literally entire comments filled people calling bad person understand perspective wish willing bit nicer it every time try posting casual conversations post gets removed facilitating conversation even though make effort include phrases like anyone relate this anyone else different perspective honestly feel like impossible interact reddit community without delete half posts avoid opening direct messages maybe thats collateral damage teenage girl internet dont understand way everyone always talks social media terrible fake literally every social media ive nicer accepting reddit made arbitrary rules cant talk instagram account use emojis frankly anything without receiving public hate find teenagers subreddit people react posts without immediately trying think hate comment hit hardest know reaction post going stop using reddit thats entirely valid reddit provides unique community interact people share specific passions opinions dont want loose that may true im sensitive need learn take joke fault first place posts suck even fact im making post know cant person feels alienated community thought would find acceptance in want people know theyre alone thank teenagers subreddit downvoting posts hell half time hope future reddit little accepting,0 +miss guy treated like shitwe friends doesnt matter thought close lied stole shit tried break room months since ive got place now still think miss good moments know didnt really care cause wouldnt done shit dont go much cause im afraid running places used go to brain dumb dumb,1 +help m came xvideos turned phone watched aot came downstairs phone completely forgetting previously watching mum sat living room along dad sister turned phone show watching boring greeted loudest moan accompanied quote fuck daddy uh uh uh uh entire family looked utter disgust immediately tried turning sound phones volume buttons lagged closed browser got left room sat bedroom make situation better,0 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absolutely wonderful also appears many youth wasted religious nonsense acts,0 +best way shoot yourselfwouldnt shooting top skull would cause destructive woundcompared mouth side head chin ive also heard aiming back head chin mouthful water even effective either normal methods bullet fails bullet travelling water produces large shockwave failsafesaid like shotgun blast using large bullets ampxb brainstem slightly away shooting downward it see reason itd much harder aim at top head simply thick bullet travel straight even large caliber guns longer bullet travel brainstem large hollow point bullet expand more causing larger wounds right reason ive never heard anyone shooting downward skulls water mouth,1 +boredom apathyim suicidal thoughts again idk side affects medication somethings really wrong,1 +like mech war games pretty good cheap robot fights worth seeing ive enjoyed mech war field time pretty much movie ive ever seen come close feeling would like pilot one huge mechs like genera games like mech warrior three four xbox spare steel battalion movie worth seeing least once really needs movies theme there less remakes original works br br enjoy,0 +lost hopehaving spent many years trying figure right medications right doses psychiatrist give up do want keep trying even get right meds know eventually screw fuck able recover,1 +bother anymoreif life nutshell basicly disappointment failure seeing people dont give shit anyone anything success bother dont know countries country end school year coming im trying hardest fix grades everything try massive failure redflag no maybe finally snap didnt know seek help im posting get best advice keep going way calm failures problems keep piling up,1 +actual fuck supposed get white arabian horse cant fucking find rdr btw,0 +done reallylifes getting much thinking writing help thoughts lingering starting feel comforted idea existing cant tell anyone embarrassment cant go nowhere seek help people responsible downright refuse issues anyone knew felt would able face world,1 +love rush disappointing everyone around feels nice even therapist fucking mad lmao gotta live name ig,0 +guys think fat shaming curious see people actually think fat shaming good thing filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +want say woman pussy im cool that woman dick im cool that guy dick im cool that guy pussy im cool that enby dick im cool that enby pussy im cool that person people parts im cool that please love,0 +europe received quite shock luis bunuels lage dor released causing riot paris screened thereresulting banned something like forty years three years laterin when europe gotten shockit turned ear ekstasea symphony of sortsto love film starred youngunknown german actress named hedwig kieslerwho would later change name hedy lamarrwhen moved america escape madness adolf hitleras evaa young bride married colddistant loveless husband played emil jermanonly discover made major mistake one divorce latereva footloose fancy free one day skinny dipping lakewhen discovers adama handsomeyoung engineer played aribert mogwho takes real fancy and shehim wild night passionevas exhusband turns againhoping win eva backonly find rival spoil transpires czech director gustav machaty who directed original screen version madam xanother parable romantic obsession directs screenplay jacques koerpelfrantisek horky machatyfrom novel robert horky films velvety cinematography which reminded avant garde photographerman rays photos erawhich goes impressionistic use light shadowa lotis hans androschin jan stallich films brisk editing antonin zelenka films art direction goes lushnearly art deco lookis bohumil hes quirk film music scoreby giuseppe beccewhich goes topmelodramatic feel gets old fast certain themes repeated againwearing welcomefastkind like david leans use certain musical themesespecially lawrence arabiaand drzhivago years backa brand new restored print made best source materialcobbled together various european existing prints availablerestoring quite possibly closest version originally looked like vatican condemned decadent yeahrightlike church never anything wrongand hayes office cut ribbonswhen finally released usa in hayes office approved cut likewise minimal dialog german english subtitles it meant mainly visual experience ratedbut contains infamous nude skinny dipping scene hedy lamarr done tastefullymind you suggestions sexual content likewisethat would scarcely earn pg ratingnowadays worth look interest early european cinemaor avant gardeexperimental cinema,0 +optionsi want call hotline talk somebody phone service,1 +great fun went friends sneak preview viewing film came see different one minutes wondering heck got time jokes became funny stayed funny throughout movie first part keep asking malinski bellini stuff there many examples lingo keep repeating jokes with different twists get funnier funnier search malinski main characters introduced first one even wackier next half film even know name movie opening credits went sneak viewing sure good time house loaded appr people think half like half loved film like weird comical movies great dialogue love it apart clooney movie deserves lot better imdb rating time write this ppl seen sure go up reasonable guess would give beersbr br ,0 +im going tonighti enough girlfriend broke me happy long time im just im it im way target buy helium im going asphyxiation myself,1 +guilty pleasure watching duckus catfish predators discord think really enjoys roleplaying tho tbh wwow ii like it idk u guys prolly dunno im talking,0 +hi lti brain damage makes want die used really good writer went school it got close published couple times horrible combination alcoholism anorexia concussions really fucked up mri year ago told brain much away skull supposed age meaning shrinkingwhich p typical ppl eating disorders substance abuse problems happened quickly casei fact auditory even visual hallucinations occasionally chalked the fear call lolanyway quit drinking alone coldturkey lmaoi recommend xd eating pretty normally year last concussion still cannot focus well enough read write much anything every time try now ends crying cannot thinki trying fill hole passion writing used go volunteer work stuff even quit job went back school pursuit whole new career change fact feel completely useless comes one thing care just myself care peoplei know sounds stupid feel like burnt already even thirty afraid going get worse get older already totally incapable remembering parked car without writing lmfao cannot get anywhere without gps even though lived city years next going start forgetting peoplei know scared make doctors appointment think would rather die go senile time forty lmfao all know want fucking brain back basically one thing body regenerate lol never same think ever really able write again pretty sure even post probably makes sensei going kill right now anything found really hard lately motivate back swing things feel like know feel like former reason living gonei guess live life physical way now extra set hands organization cook exercise cannot person anymore deeply deeply upsets meif courage would kill right feel like anymore anyway all ,1 +god im fcking thirsty dont mean sexual way feel like could drink one liter water help me,0 +much sleep paralysis ive three times row every time gets worse physical always feel even over im actually scared go sleep right feel like im gonna murdered next one much,0 +plan killing july stive lot fucked shit happen whole life year worst year life literally tried right everyone somehow someway always get fucked cant even remember happy feels like anymore dont think want anymore ive second thoughts family friends have thing forgotten never really important told things didnt get better july st gonna it almost feel one convince otherwise might even one last posts made me dont think missed feel bad couldnt live trauma anymore wish life couldve different,1 +im goodive real bad week ive struggled depression long remember think im lose fight ive declining years im basically even real person anymore empty robot nothing happened push over overtaken completely making plans week cant anymore guess get world think im going leave monday know probably seems like nonsense makes sense me thanks reading,1 +aita manipulating boyfriend promise title sounds worse is pretty much started months ago first started dating ill call cfake name would go hiking trail hang out walking around talking awkward stage wanting kiss other initiating least thats wha thought lot staring lips waiting moment like came while got really tired this every single time c wouldnt kiss me naive ignorant seemed annoy me started even think mouth getting freakishly small everything annoyed me way ate chocolate way broke apart food put right track thats good person does right all first real relationship c girlfriends before dont matter anymore im matters now started small things like would make sit left scroll list truth dares said kiss person left kissed could stop me awkwardly turned away after kind giggled heres think im ah c laughed me vulnerable open looked away like thought ugly couldnt believe it upset was heres might make ah whenever walked sidebyside casually said something like hey holding hands meant demeaning possible like even dating dont affectionate me whats wrong you first time c took hint started holding hand kept laughing me starting make angry im trying hard break down backbone hes three steps ahead dont know crush spirit yet tldr reason guy interested me talking while caught feelings kissed one day dating im really happy want shout roof tops jump around,0 +questioning driving insane much ready go minute nowyoull figure youll know time right cant stand answers anymore intrusive thoughts ocd cureable means never figure out people get sick tired pain leave feel like quick venting stop soon try talk issues reciprocate loose interest dont blame feel like burden let alone others wake everyday set date die cant go like this cant eat cant sleep even hard breathe,1 +reading suggestions possibly life changinghello im assuming us still receptive hope im sharing potentially life altering books neuroplasticity changing brain waves hope helps httpsuppdfcomepubdownloadbecomingsupernaturalbyjoedispenzaf httpswwwpdfdrivecomdrjoedispenzadhtml httpswwwpdfdrivecomjoedispenzaevolveyourbraindhtml,1 +trump trump retirement trump seems like nice guy needs rest vote get retire,0 +im alone timei want escape start fresh die trying know cant change unless something drastic go shock life need wake call shitty feelings,1 +im eating oranges thats wanted share yall,0 +writing theseive really fucked up im k debt stealing mother survive mother always right me ive done hurt lie cheat manipulate get want get next hit anything make days bearable ive failed human every possible metric age ive always blamed heritage stutter learning difficulties short comings see short coming always me cant keep living shame guilt longer ive done hurt lie dont want anymore mum always right said kill shame ive bring shame hard work know child me constant fuck up used believe could realise lie like always do im sorry ended with always deserved much better me friends loved one thank ever me made days little bit brighter ever deserved it mum im sorry im sorry years saying that dont think much meaning anymore dont blame never will know dont burden anymore take comfort thought right now,1 +need supportwell right knife next talking brother depression social anxiety yet another family member blown saying normal ive already tried kill twice told family it feel alone much social anxiety go see doctor honestly idea point could really use words encouragement please help,1 +maybe guys careim fucking dyin here man cant tell anyone know theyll worry much falling apart im sorry,1 +prison cellfour prisonerscarrerea young company director accused fraud year old transsexual process transformation daisya yearold mentally challenged idiot savant lassallea yearold intellectual murdered wifebehind stone slab cellmysteriously pulled loosethey discovered bookthe diary former prisonerdanverswho occupied cell beginning centurythe diary contains magic formulas supposedly enable prisoners escapemalefique one creepiest intelligent horror films seen yearthe film grimyshadowy feel influenced works hp lovecraftwhich makes creepy unsettling atmospherethere fair amount gore involved imaginative brutal death scenes characters four prisoners surprisingly welldevelopedits shame eric valette made truly horrible remake one missed call stunning debut ,0 +br br mild spoilers aheadbr br we dive dawn english made movie john mills lead role second time watched dvd version big screen tv must say movie better thought first time saw samll screen may big screen viewing helpedbr br i still say first segments movie muddled submarine leaves dock begins mission movie takes too search german battleship named brandenburg adventures went along absorbing detail shown movie interestingbr br im increasing rating enjoy ww ii films think find one interesting submarine gets underway men sub quite sense humor too,0 +die i wish someone would shoot,1 +im sick apologizing sht ive never done never would do im angry sides argument right now whether white racism black citizens mistreatment natives misogyny fcking tired apologize things involvement in misogynists racists etc stop garbage human grow tf up treat people respect human piece filth victims racism sexism etc stop blaming people today things happened hundreds years ago done people connection to understand upset things happened fault fault blacks beaten murdered discriminated fault indians near wiped out women fault unrealistic societal standards treated horribly things never have never will apologized people it want help all makes feel like garbage get treated like sht things involvement in stop getting pissed horrible people deserve it sorry treated horribly im done apologizing things slave owners dead everyone mistreated natives dead done with shut hell already,0 +need someone join gta lobby hang vehicle cargo missions im year old american guy matters gladly chit chat topics like politics cars really anything tbh im xbox gamer tag misumat,0 +love air oh shit oh fuck,0 +anyone else loves russ here underrated rapper really love songs wondering anyone,0 +hate awards im correct get awards,0 +feel like ive hit rock bottomabout week ago felt great things really started look me asked girl really like prom said yes spring break close plans friends past couple days though ive feel like shit ive never felt bad before ive seriously started thinking ways end it,1 +good lord ended dvd player ill never knowmy wife thought new release shed missed somehownevermind couple years old danish think kept looking english soundtrackbr br all allthe film bad good production valuesbetter performances clever story get far away make tidy darkhumored fare across sea ending make chucklein fact whole film will incredibly strange characters grow genuinely interested make film might worth whilewithout spoiling plot films title dvd jacket give good idea thing going,0 +think cope health problems keep getting thought absolutely useless meaningless everyone anymore keep trying make happy,1 +want endi really trying get past shit thats happening life break girlfriend exams fainting public place one bothering help adds overwhelming urge end sit day trying get friday girlfriend probably dump me sit looking forums say breaksbreakups know heart slight hope taking back haunting much cannot cope cant pain huge cannot possibly get it know made another post yesterday know accept love like love her part would rather die accept lifes realities fucks badly dunno long take this,1 +blanketive let many people around ive let go mentallythe think think anymore go blanket shes shiny pretty sharp seems thing gives relief time thing want support family seems care less giving any im failing schooli call feel go numb everydayi feel like burden ive called useless im starting believe iti want let gobut time hope time comes ill someone help stop myselfsomeone understands,1 +tiktok destroying brain cells hate tiktok hate us make peace em th best friends little sister kind nerd before serious working good grades all since downloaded tiktok started cringy hand dance posting pics videos thot like things luckily friend keeps totally dumb another exemple nearly crush shy girl class always drawing pretty introverted talked necessary downloaded tiktok bruh personality change cringy tiktok fortnite dances getting dumb friends became loud totally changed clothes style like ok late cant saved lost interest her also simp class tiktok stuff lets talk it tiktok like brain cell destroying virus spreading girl girl sometimes unvaccinated guys guys real pandemic isnt coronavirus fucking shit named tiktok every women earth tiktokers swear turn chinese monk staying alone rest life,0 +excellent film great performances zack lochley much displeasure mine garibaldi arrived station all due respect jerry doyle seasons lost sympathy character take long start criticizing zack who love best showand taking charge im sure zack could coped soulhunter plot fascinating especially believe heaven zack does humour supplements nicely ,0 +doing youre good hope gets better soon promise get better youre amazing hope everything works you,0 +really really reallly reallly realllllly want fucking die badyet im still afraid end pathetic burden filled existence fuck survival instincts,1 +time take fuckin step back tik tokshoot ik came across video girl telling people slash tires knife slash last different knife get done fraud even joke psycho deadass gunna this says give nicotine gum without knowing hes away feels like shit like bro nicotine isnt something fuck with fuckin end shit shouldnt said im thinking guys worry false rape allegations set fraud secretly addicted highly addictive substance bro idc joke psycho deadass gunna get idea from you psycho banshee bitch id rather dick poked rusty needles date toxic ass andddd fuckin cherry top tells people get rid hickeys finna cheat get dude addicted nicotine frame fraud cheat tldr people telling others frame people fraud get addicted nicotine partner wont leave get rid hickeys,0 +anyone else regret horny posts theyre horny anymore do filler fillher fillher fill cum decide hole okay ill probably delete post horny,0 +one mean care hurt family one day commit redflag tbh one reasons want it,0 +lack purposethere certain emptiness cannot pinpoint cause know possible consequences something tempted twice eternal oblivion,1 +want fucking diei hate away school hate home ive always wanted die option gets appealing every day weak staying strong realizing amount lifes bullshit want withstand dont want live anymore think thats totally valid,1 +du rififi chez les hommes brilliant film studies criminal minds allows viewers better understanding criminals fundamentally different ordinary folks like uswhat director jules dassin shows criminal families care lot themthat adhere strict code honor family made wivesmistresses children also include casual acquaintances close friendscontrary many might find hard believejules dassin tried glorify crime film rififi makes clear crime never paysit shows kinds bad activities result kind human lossapart philosophical stance rifif worth watching technical finessewhile watching one films brilliant sequences breaking safeone would find hard believe meticulous precision criminal minds execute plansthis scene nobody dared copy hollywood,0 +dont know keep posting herei know realistically doesnt anything good all cant stop guess im fantasizing world anyone actually cares isnt one ill tell that wake morning first thought mind drugs alcohol hundreds people hate would genuinely happy kill myself stalkers hate havent decent sleep years dont know im still here didnt know better id say im stupid hedonistic part loves drunk opioids end nothing wrote matters nothing ive ever done matters dont matter dont know im posting this,1 +one intriguing aspects historical drama way tories british american loyalists portrayed sort gloss given ardent support king george iii many ways american revolution definitely family affair wealthier colonial families split asunder it strong criticism made film perhaps people story made little bit nicer real lifebr br in regards actions character major boulton played cornel wilde make least likable member cast flaw storyline seems vary prickly kind patriot kind anything cause fellow film concentrate heavily notions personal honor personal prestige major social norm day agebr br in subtext fact twentyfive percent colonial population decidedly probritish glossed over too strength tory element obviously maligned although good doctor character eightyfive percent upper class twit steal fine phrase monty pythons flying circus anne francis whole lot rather thin section script stands out good choice woman divided loyalties gal rather modern social conventions day might allowed life death struggle going onbr br one good aspect film way rivalries american revolutionary leaders degenerated outright jealousies personal conflicts nearly sabotaged entire revolutionary effort all leading characters well drawn minor characters human props fight scenes believable enough carry dramatic actionbr br this great spy movie quite great historical drama satisfy well enough rates seven largely cornel wilde deeply immersed role well anne francis makes supporting effortbr br the color print used turner classic movies clear well enjoyable presentation important regardbr br hope runs soon,0 +buy converses new board filler filler filler filler filler,0 +whywhy thoughts depressed got great job beautiful wife beautiful kids feel like im stereotype people dream of inside im dying dont want anymore want actually want end life no died accidental overdose died crash id ok wishing death myself cant shake feelings,1 +coming friends follow right here anyone knows irl sees this hi bi like dress feminine please let know see this thats it might delete post later idk,0 +mg xanax l wine want wake kill me,1 +cant anymorei even energy explain situation wanted say never felt alone worthless life now family shitty toxix stuck shitty house them feel like prisoner body hurts cuz even move properly anymore bed hurts body head permanent state dizziness wish would over one gives shit feel like clown times spend explaining problems people thought would care blabbering joke needs important worse parasite,1 +feel ill im depressed anything iti feel like im dying like serious illness thats sucking life me im pretty sure kidney disease kidney stone years ago resulted infection rounds antibiotics avail eaten meals past days meal generous bowl oatmeal im weigh pounds right now feel weak tired like im wasting away willpower anything it go hospital get blood workurinalysis done im sitting computer like years nothing think im scared might actually something seriously wrong know face do feel like giving up honestly gave years ago im barely surviving now,1 +cyberbullying workshop start ive marked rant think fits post best however advice would also appreciated way mother recently went cyberbullying workshop feel like mum making much fuss sort stuff now came home sat gave half hour lecture bullying social media different person bullying one kid tell parents bullied receiving text messages committing redflag fourth day happening cyberbullying different cant get away it way stop cyberbullying happening you feel like massive overreaction part partially caused misinformation tells guy workshop mid s ended allowed phone room overnight apparently i let social media influence me teenager wont tell parents see account real name actually social media accounts real name ones made school ive told know yet reason people school like me still know send death threats sht feel like mum massively overreacting here guys experiences like this,0 +sleep offmg dexamphetamine mg escitalopram mg quetiapine mg diphenhydramine,1 +anyone else keep note ur fav copypastas valuable tbh filler started watching kdramas quarantine theyre cute agsgsijx way girls say ann yeong haseyo hxhsj,0 +donelife pretty much backed corner ive run options lost job years ago ex long ago decided make good threat ruining life contacted employer made story meeting women raping them police involved went nothing happened able recover this entire personality changed terrified many situations five years still hard even leave house cannot continue living like this matter cannot catch break seem find job however life insurance die family least get that planned look like redflag worries there ive really learned friends ive also learned one wants anything youre,1 +ways end lifehi theredont know startbut heres short life story happy lifegot married daughtera real princess years old now somehow someday year ago fucked everything cause started usong cocaine wife took daughter left mei debt lost marriagelost daughter moment taking last cocaine line thining end life really exitbut simply want look exists tnis meaningless world suffered lotdont want anymore suffering live th floor jump ill scare pot people there im thinking taking around valium pills ambien pills mix,1 +cannot one feels numb moment like absolutely motivation anything want socialize anythingmy depression comes waves constantly suicidal states long since felt shit isolation covid think lack human contact sent spiraling feeling worthlessness walk around feeling like exist couple people would actually care numb,1 +im really stressed rn idk things going great life rn im happy ever problems yet feel really stressed idea,0 +wish could get baby sister forget memy siblings would fine newly incredibly stressed god know dealt wanna age think reason gone woods revolver dad siblings would deal it mom would chalk bullshit im sure ive finished glass full rum hopefully sleep now goddamn wish could wake up almost closed tab instead posting fuck,1 +kj presents wave compilation shower thoughts almost daily part know kinda like her music really cant hard make many people got boned past minutes bet someone government seen search history quit happens die like seriously please tell me im scared dying black lives matter way life others likes instagram tall england overrated celebrities wave up look mirror like woah im insert celebrity name here god pornstars reshoot scenes sometimes bet sex gets really tedious sometimes like literally thing over simpsons got cancelled really scared death timetravel fact exist would never notice timeline change entire lives could rewritten wed never notice clouds fckin cool sixseasonsadamovie means six seasons movie americans look music look theirs drill music needs clout minecraft ever die im damn horny females underrated big em up prison hard edit might more got bare ammo lol,0 +cling cling cling cling cling clang clang cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling cling still dre day nigga ak nigga though ive grown lot cant keep home lot cause frequent spots im known rock hear bass truck im block ladies pay homage haters say dre fell nigga last album chronic nigga want know still got say raps changed wanna know feel if aint thangs dr dre name im ahead game still puffing leafs still fuck beats still loving police still rock khakis cuff crease still got love streets reppin for life still beats bang still thang since left aint much changed still,0 +im damn unlucky wtf like literally nothing goes well nothing going long hell do,0 +sister messed sister legit looked said two eyebrows started lmaoing mom shemy sister said mean one eye haha xd,0 +want kill dont know whyive depressed wanting kill years idea why parents love everything could hope for everyday contemplate stealing key dads gun case ending all cry sleep every night dont care anything life anymore dont care school weight issue life think might school even summer time im happy smoke overall want end it,1 +im pregnant boyfriend left really want diei idea do boyfriend dating almost year pretty good found pregnant suddenly became different person left me says wanted abortion im alone scared know do mistake want tell anyone this feel like im worthless ill go buy rope tomorrow school im planning redflag want make sure im going die real want saved life hard birth control important stupid like me,1 +allaround superb film moving experience filled real life emotion theres lessons learned love sex work religion american culture regardless ones sexual preferencebr br while film also scathing indictment mormons church latter day saints belief system conservative faith could easily take place bit ironic homosexuality currently condemned mormons uncertain terms heres faith mandated generations believers practice polygamy true believers gave practice forced federal government order utah join union talk unique form hypocrisy br br the sex scenes portrayed unrated version tasteful surprisingly brief theres nothing would offend anyone open mindbr br what film makes obvious homosexuality perfectly natural people gay heterosexuality people straight love sex obviously quite different needs absolutely beautiful beyond words occur time two adults profound erotic love one lifes precious gifts congratulations filmmakers job well done,0 +hey everyone again keep checking tell doing whatcha doing anything interesting happened comment thats ok love,0 +anyone else got random scars alot faded now sometimes wake random cuts one nose long slim cut shoulder since faded anyone else experience,0 +manipulation tacticsim entirely sure im expecting get thisits probably pointless waste time maybe writing things like helpful maybe selfdefeating even know theres practical advice give me seeing im even willing share incredibly shallow perspective is hope take word it id rather go further people usually start sort thing ever ask why everyone hate me meaning sound calloused kind cliche wondering true anyways reason ask feel little place feeling opposite know people love me thats im always trying escape im insincere twofaced hypocritical socialdevelopment involved putting walls hardly tell whether im honest not think helps make manipulative realize manipulative best friend became drug addict killed himself knows maybe im trying manipulate relieving conscience enough kill myself id probably end stopping short redflag get sympathy attention others could feel better myself work take painkillers use cannabis back injury got working really drink much though friend died im also religious feel distant things value most doubts fear frustration pain im friendless ive lost sense community future hope thoughts eaten away conscience ive left feeling empty anxious afraid wanted feel better want happy again sucks things get much worse thought already bad realize bad times best times life memories cherish forever well forever long want remember anymore,1 +changei also posted rdepression sorry shows twice you year old man depressed since suicidal since come bullied lot pushed people away small due growing community removed people age completely ruined development social skills years trouble people talking like functioning human being picking social queues making eye contact people friends long stretch time probably none all physically online really two right infrequent anything overweight lbs balding quite noticeably poor skin never wanted anyone hugged kissed nothing all never felt validation terrified never will dad thinks useless failure freak mom loves really pities me halves family share views loss right now know hope want to want normal friends feel loved someone cant feel happy unless someone cares one would care despise myself hate find hard consistent weight loss eating well amp exercise always falter went im back feel like im stuck cant unstick die need help need way break cycle want know do feel loved care enough fix way look much can please help me,1 +play music monkey comes monkey always comes play music,0 +life isnt even bearable anymoreive much pain since years old years later im still pain know people worse know people experience things worse ive ever experienced im sick hearing that im sick hearing feelings arent fucking valid im young moment wake up moment go bed im much emotional pain hard cope theres always heavy weight chest suicidal thoughts race head im sick living im fucking tired life long pain gonna last like doesnt end im tiny insignificant dot universe wouldnt matter gone anyway ive gone inpatient hospitalizations countless medication changes two therapists almost crisis evaluations multiple redflag attempts etc im sick hearing life worth living thats fucking joke im sick hearing life matters doesnt im one billion people planet gonna make difference everything getting worse theres way out everyone says gonna last forever fuck off please literally feels like effort move body point things used effortless require enormous amounts energy do even build energy them normally dont normally cant nobody understands serious getting either try hard scream help nobody realizes bad cant much longer im years worth tired tldr im kinda wanna die ive lost energy live gonna get better life doesnt matter etc,1 +relapse overdosei cant take anymore future me im tired anyone ive put many years trying get better bunch bullshit im alone another two hours im ready take pills get with hate miserable fucking earth,1 +number day day guys rn,0 +long story tldr want die im failureso interested reading grab popcorn soda or tea that sit down story became failure ampxb moment im years old im third world country want die ampxb so starts typical suicidal story me shy skinny kid kind low physical capabilities high intelligence i humble time judge little me country everyone soccer father same got little brother practicing lot little like even though supposedly kind good it quite like sports general enjoyed peaceful environment quite know kind things would like free time since knew soccer school focused school everyone else elementary school also lot soccer reunited play join think consider worth bond something like forward high school changed schools since mom got arguments teachers principal befriend heavily anyone really care brother hand social went visit school couple times ampxb situation high school elementary school people liked soccer like soccer played every afternoon didnt still like soccer btw grew really shy talking new people also help kind weird since people classroom friends little brother we years apart me ampxb country prep school or thing countries highschool rule is universities entrance exams already finished highschool take it top enter people take years prepare exams passed finishing highschool again think much myself hadhave kind low selfesteem care anymore since matter i enter university turned next month tho ampxb private school family kind low income support program that around dollars month still kind expensive tho ampxb now know said know would enjoy free time kid thing know actually wanted every way hobby goal anything wanted life kind feeling empty since career choice wondering around wikipedia ampxb also side note uncle professional my parents arent mom helped lot college years supported lot paid half english lessons half university monthly fee i forgot appropriate word ampxb so started think life actually liked study good anything else do started go classes wondered around campus thinking also go evaluations kind feeling like everybody else wanted do mean bad want children study know kind confusing me also friends neither again everyone soccer hated game point ampxb end semester failed classes want study also want embarrassment parents uncle put lot money failed still reluctant asked give another chance started second semester ampxb second semester still like study new pressure ampxb university rules expelled fail class times expelled finish general studies is semesters curriculum maximum semesters expelled general studies fail times ampxb want study like career chose like pressure want failure always felt like everyone high expectations me also money invested ampxb head mess ampxb failed classes semester ampxb want continue wasting everybodys money hopes left university ampxb turned year started working call center i hated job ampxb getting end year get hospitalized tumor behind nose not cancer ampxb money earned lot parents relatives went surgery ampxb near death experience give strength hopes try again also wanted pay back money spend convinced could go college parents believed me gave new chance my uncle part time cant blame him went back continue journey ampxb first new semester passed everything second new semester failed class third new semester passed everything ampxb fourth new semester story continues ampxb thing university merit system best qualifed students priority choosing classes went into remember failed lot there ampxb series courses passed particular order intro physics physics ampxb one last students one semester get physics class ampxb th official semester physics calculus elective digital design ampxb needed complete physics one class finish general studies get record clean semester left really stressed out kind okey ampxb thing even failed class even class physics out yet take classes summer vacations here one december february maximum again priority order but exception people finish like me got priority that failed more could take physics summer physics regular semester ampxb digital design group class one student group clueless people campus anything shy say something even teacher hate this know could reverse time still able say anything ill see hell ampxb failed physics digital design ampxb out ampxb brother entered college years preparation goes parties every then titular still official general course soccer team uncle paying half monthly fee average student ampxb months every parents indirectly mention disappointed are reason cant find job clean house help parents every way can nothing going enough one talk since could never make friend could talk problems got anime videogames scape reality started college mom always hated always room laptop gift uncle entered college never hobby could enjoy fake reality felt bad encouraged brothers soccer hobby told hobby bad mean understand sports healthy like soccer like home relaxed allowed one thing enjoyed supposed do ampxb feel bad im using laptop avoid nothing do one talk to professional future even crappy job im allowed enjoy hobby also morally speaking since im unemployed cant home playing day ampxb wanted see could get videogame development career available institutes in country shit regular one even expensive college parents focus paying brothers education even willing give another chancethat ask able afford it cant afford since even got crappy job minimum wage half regular institute costs would work years pay year career rd world country regular institute high hopes jobs even it ampxb ampxb im problem since parents still spend money maintain alive food im giving anything return nothing current life nothing everything owe them ampxb would better brother better version me been everyone hoped would be ampxb hate life hate fact lost everything had ampxb hate money repay everyone gave support disappoint ampxb hate able make friends maybe tried soccer mean hate it least could made friends know maybe got parties drinking i like taste alcohol cigarettes although really care people surrounding it feel really comfortable big parties ampxb always wanted die tired pressure always verge expelled feeling expelled everything else tried kill before multiple times part im also coward want feel physical pain felt go without paying back ampxb pay back cant tired ive stupid journey even asked for im paying first semester mistake know know now nowhere go nothing do ampxb even know told first half life think relevant even want go erase im phone ampxb post gets deleted care wanted write somewhere think omitted things know put them counts summary guess ampxb well im go probably kill right now ill wait morning,1 +maybe first car im riding around subaru outback right now sitting backyard year dirty dog hairs drivers seat tear it that looking good theyre asking telling you idk care probaly not excited,0 +keeping political views aside feroz khan anil kapoors gandhi father good movie cleverly explores confusedtowardsfamily side mohandas karamchand gandhi fight eldest son harilal gandhi society largerthanlife father importantly demons head one draws parallels gandhi father nation struggles son could fatherbr br the acting good shefali shetty darshan zariwala akshaye khannastrictly order add color pathos heart wrenching tale harilal weeps hugged also runs away faintest touch fingerbr br feroz khans direction production canvas lavish attractive however screenplay couldve tighter seen play years ago pirated video type dvd it called mahatama vs gandhi think certainly gripping though movies background score fatherson motherson moments brilliant treatbr br this movie could great borderline that potential huge story differences father son gandhi even both somewhere plot lost expect absolute epitome emotions nothing comes youbr br it compares decently gandhis certainly overview film like kingsleys gandhior abstract kamal hassans hey ram film manages find footing however one left wondering what if worth watch ,0 +retired medicalhealth field toiler vinyard never get tired seeing film paddy chayefsky friend college comp teacher visited us several clases back writing ability stood test time hospital fresh watch every week still find something new many supporting cast members went unto bigger better roles tv film george scott made comedies timing patter good jackie gleason steve msrtin mental humour rather physcialslapstick wins book every time still family film four letter word entire film,0 +hopefully post allowed anyone wants talk otp direct message ur literally wanna talk someone idk make friend,0 +couple years back purchased and enjoyed mgm doublefeature dvd two kolchak tv movies night stalker night strangler universal set subsequent tv series came out intended buy immediately rumors playback issues dreaded dvds kept adding collection recently placed online order consisted spate discounted universal box sets decided pick kolchak discer wellbr br having watched now safely say didnt regret acquiring beloved if shortlived crimehorror series one bit may follow standardized formula dogged resourceful newspaperman carl kolchak marvelously played darren mcgavin gets everybodys hair attitude flustered editor simon oakland longsuffering colleagues assorted authoritarian figures plethora monsters villains faces inevitable and usually supernatural threat alone but finally pressured keeping story wraps winning one further boosted impressive lineup guest stars notable behindthescenes credits making show great deal funbr br that said quality varies one episode another modest budgets afforded results special makeup effects sometimes leave lot desired for instance werewolf eponymous entry goofy alligator creature last installment mention fact restricted minute programmes intended family consumption boot rather precludes simplified wholesome rendering often intriguing psychological metaphysical themes in case werewolf again hes never seen biting anyone but somewhat foolishly made merely throw people around br br while heros cynical narration lot pull one fanciful plots theres healthy dose comedy relief involved episode often exclusively revolving around mcgavins relationship either oakland geeky reporter jack grinnage say nothing reasonable atmosphere the setting part chicago suspense make ride even pleasant theres bouncy score gil melle jerry fieldingbr br for record monsters encountered but always defeated kolchak throughout series are revived jack ripper variety cults voodoo native american aztec aliens vampire werewolf going round overfamiliar concept particular episode entirely set cruiseliner doppelganger satanist swamp creature mass electricity robot apeman witch headless motorcyclist succubus knights armor taking murderous life the episode perhaps best supporting cast featuring john dehner morose police captain hans conried robert emhardt helen troy crocodile actors other playing kolchaks coworkers return roles keenan wynn ramon bieri both officers law john fiedler as shrewd morgue attendant richard kiel two distinct nemeses hero pressed choose finest or entertaining episodes id lean towards horror heights costarring phil silvers abraham sofaer aforementioned knightly murders while weakest id go werewolf due reasons ive already explained chopper based story concocted robert zemeckis bob galebr br unfortunately set contains extras would nice see featurette discussing numerous concepts dealt kolchak night stalker well putting series context tv time original airing even denoting lasting influence apparently endless run scifi series popular today fact kolchak much younger ostensibly darker guise returned revival version available local dvd rental outletbut various reasons im sure id want check soon classic,0 +keep happening almost everytime want share photo keeps saying unable send photo would like know why,0 +lets play small game idk im bored is parent comment asks question child answers it grandchild finally asks question could answered like that repeat in case wanna play imaginary cookie nice day stay hydrated guy gal nonbinary pal,0 +want end death would better liferight go im year old girl go topnotch private school aus im like terrible kid slam doors scream try run away things parents punish me right to punisment methods hurt most twice past year dads hit head hard ive gone dizzy thrown up yesterday mum beat shoe back right arm sore begging stop wouldnt also theres verbal punisment parents threaten killhurt continuously mum constantly tells would kill sister loves dearly would never me also tells would like set fire break neck kill etc recently ive wanted end life times seems like nothing get better ever everythings fault everything hurts ive seriously contemplated redflag times though know ill never it yesterday car mum yelled me crying backseat truckie saw me looked me anything he didnt do anything ive thought over time do hurts even worse ive spent nights bathroom know go out leave house back ambulance mostly though parents really nice buy lot things pay heighty school fees stuff happens rarely happens terrible like it im begging life yknow think like seeing beg sometimes force onto knees know im probably another spoilt little kid eyes im old considered child anymore me really serious im actually scared life here one day im sure parents something well regret yesterday called dhs parents found out told theyve done me said stupid ungrateful slut who legal would killed now felt ashamed wanted die again sorry long seriously do im barely teenager yet am hurt please tell do want go cops dhs option,1 +good filmbr br i managed pick dvd local store sale seems like good deal is thing film named to kill for took little detective work find original namebr br in uk rated rightly although standard films depends ability sell seen final destination last night it view br br maybe fact delightful traci lords tends make classification board step shamebr br traci great actress given chance appear bigger large budget productions ability turn branded bmovies fine performance nothing short amazingbr br long live traci lords incredible talent actress,0 +ive got todaymy family care think big fat joke ive suicidal long pain much need get guts it im going go either front train motorway fuck driver even care anymore makes bad person great itll one less person world,1 +fashion sense pain want emo like black maybe tints white there ceo hot topic kind vibe without much stuff tho also want pirate mean frilly top thingy corset high heels tight pants ya know,0 +im gonna lose nnn keep edging balls hurt like lot kinda wanna lose virginity along it politely ask girl sex friend risk ruining friendships,0 +ventexplanation guessso may first last post im sure say guess get right point im thinking downing three bottles antidepressants mickey rye tonight intent obvious ive come realisation useless am cant anything talents cant even get collage fucks sake im fucking lazy ive disappointed everyone one many times im damn lost life course im afraid kill myself im sure else do father hates me mother abandoned dont friends guess want make sort note make sure people know sorry know fault im sorry wasted years everyones life couldnt make proud hell know im going scared anyways going work,1 +tell end iti give up im weak want stop suffering see pet frogs again end,1 +could right something wanted get trouble rest life idk ways would it maybe take back kneeling shoot ya back head need comingmaybe easy perfectly healthy docs would help unless cancer terminal ever got old cannot walk cannot see need nurse wipe ass id rather taken back barn speak ever made assisted deaths thing doctors letting friendfamily murder you,1 +ask crush out ive thinking telling crush feel im scared look way ill ruin friendship even though im pretty sure like back feel itd wasted opportunity say anything knows maybe well become better friends might even say yes anyways thx people read this sorry boring,0 +whyi fucked up tried kill im sick stomach cant eat ive lost friends making wish didnt survive person still best friend weird bc like likes doesnt wanna date till high school either way im glad shes bc know cant lose her person stick,1 +ill admit im bi femboys get going know im also drunk high af,0 +i moved get away kind thing small town sheriff lamentsbr br this happens lot chicago deputy asksbr br well no really plot group martians mistake halloween rebroadcast orson welles war worlds account real martian invasion conclude need get action follows bunch mishaps involving martians haphazard attempts conquer town big bean il everyone concludes kids really good costumes except sheriffs daughter friend kid duck suitbr br the martians comical get impression threat anyone pretty early on fun family movie,0 +hate everyone world generaleveryone know trusted let way world worth everyone says liar world giant piece shit hate anything know im good person tried best hate everyone else even get good things life make happy thought living even years world like incomprehensible me every time try right thing liars morally bakrupt people try turn around get even trouble every time tried turn garbage life around get dragged right back down could order hitman kill would it one needs reply fact im expecting anyone to would typical life,1 +one perks job things slow watch movie downstairs theater i work little screen theater cry room still keep eye concession stand seen italian job probably times im still tired it atmosphere reminds oceans eleven although acting good mark wahlberg ok charlize theron appeals guys seth green awesome movie thought edward norton good job playing dirtbag although lot people disagree also enjoyed mos def explosives expert thats afraid dogs highly recommend movie continue watch whenever can,0 +hate body hate,0 +probably gonna jump bridgenot really sure im here experience tells ignore advice kind excited extinguishing life,1 +good enough girlfriend went friends place today ex there knew shes loyal wouldnt get anything w him went resturant w family time got found abt hugging looked happy got upset told didnt like like says but hes friend like that really hurt see hugging another guy told abt started arguing plans go back tm plans see eachother tm wrong good enough fucking hurts cant tell bc im controlling letting friends genuinely love hurts,0 +first day school bus cam minutes early causing brother miss it,0 +branch military dedicated stopping china exploring space many idiots military httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvalqga_tym httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvqsjhvxrc military branch dedicated stopping china invading countries exploring space people believe climate change evolution it httpsstaticthegamerimagescomwordpresswpcontentuploadsmasseffectcerberusfactspersonneljpg worldview evolution climate change space exploration superior hail elon musk mike pence creationism hail science,0 +lovehate relationship horny one hand love sex masturbating hand hate im horny like time girl frineds lucky sex drive stronger guys normal ones,0 +come attention according reddit statistics people view posts dont actullally follow me youre seeing post trust could check would amazing sometimes reddit glitches removed following could check still would poggers,0 +struggling lifeim yr suffering severe social anxiety top set subjects year or grade whatever fuck call america school almost year tempted start sh used protractor scratch letter acronym arm last night terrified im going start dropping soon unable face near people therapist really helping im scared admit parents spent alot money sessions idea fuck im supposed now considering sui feel mornings not exactly sure still stuff live like getting level hypixel please help ill ever check back,1 +day the thoughts staple life sense urgency safety blanket always ticket things got rough life sob story anyone elses sub different fell ill tweens struggeling mentally somewhat physically aftermath ever since breakupcheating scenario first love sent spiral never recovered thats really crux boil down without going much detail left everything behind year ago moved half planet away took steps improve life which others seemed successful one try happy worked better could ever expected ive best year life women seem like me im definitly far removed fitish good sense humor appear confident tho ive never able get anything run away made decision try put there recently lead getting gf second girl ive ever kissed first time years loved thought could possible happy genuinly happy guy really bad thoughts needless say pan out loves needs time figure out its you me lets friends first anxiety attacks life ensued next day fall ill aforementioned illness again anxiety meds made high kite fun chemo followed chrused whatever left me months breakup im still crippling mental pain tried rebound thing made worse feel ive cheated girl want me pathetic life now people think successful alpha ive told ive people looking guidance leadership adult life im guessing stems the apparently well constructed fasade ive built years high iq think helps fake well enough people respect like me people would say live pretty kickass life im sitting pot money penthouse apartment place could described paradise saying blind leading blind comes mind comical think it know ha hafunny given up far much hurt far long feels incredibly unfair tired fear unable take much more ive started list computer desktop things make life worth living fucking scares short is am thoughts gotten specific ive never close theres cliff name it hope able muster courage definitly cant go more thank taking time read jibberish better person am th day suicidal thoughts,1 +doctor prescribed low dose mg cymbalta help corneal neuropathic pain seemed help days took read issues people coming versus antidepressants discontinued due that nerve pain back fence taking since really help i also mild redflag depression plus help also general consensus online seems absolutely terrible drug taper people seem develop chronic issues even while doctor simply tells worry inquired withdrawals medical professionals give input really bad people would like pain anymore also want meow problems long run tapering cymbalta scary people make seem helps scared keep taking,1 +anyone wanna cosplay punching bag need practice boxing,0 +im going itim going check psychiatric hospital today wait one hour leave work texted boss morning telling im okay needed get help two hours later get back hold wtf close veering car side road last night close downing bottle pills morning need help now wait one painstakingly slow hour head constant pain body wants give up one hour,1 +hey everyone spend alot time feeling pretty low properly suicidal reasons read alot alot people friends anyone cares them sorry hear it noone left like that wanted know anyone would feel comfortable share bit got stageit always fear mine people get dealt shitty hand mental health push people away sometimes too hoping someone could share,1 +someone please offer chat service suicidal people im coping allim australia lifeline chat worki cant get button show upim suicidalive thinking everyday non stopi need help came psyche med two weeksi taper properly ended brain damage suddenly reaction food like looking rock cant sense taste anythingor get reaction things think called anhedoniabut cant feel things evokethis devestated completely really passionate person interested booksballetevery beautiful thing many interests affect me became suicidal itbut decided go onto continue livingbut saturday caffeine something never ever doi three years stopped able deep sleep i serious sleeping issues soon knew done something terriblebecause three years ago deep sleep rare me coffee suddenly deep sleep stopped come back yearswell thing happened saturday wake like half awake nighti cant get deep sleep desperately need real restthis destroyed feel without restoring deep sleep brain heal feel hope nowi cant see way out mental state decline kind real sleep anyone offer hopeadvice anything,1 +random question nonvirgins sub thinking realized know exact date lose virginity day shit even month im wondering anyone knows exact date lost virginity basically normal remember memory awful,0 +cant believe it short time liked girl pretty much chatted quite much sure might think let know one thing wouldnt tell time could find guessing gave tips time found out found liked her scared didnt know might think lucky feels same im happy right now btw english bad cant express exactly feel etc,0 + suicidalim nineteen living major depressive disorder ive interviews last month got denied them ive worked every day past six months also drink gallon water day also ive going nofap years now dont even drink smoke drugs really trying hardest leave hell nothing seems work supposed kill myself,1 +looking notsoserious mob movie female lead right place pfieffer acted much better this see matured beyond picturebr br when first picked movie up expected pfeiffer poorly miscast however plays mob wife role hilt bad performance baldwin eitherbr br if pay attention hair might enjoy movie take seriously,0 +sinner whos probably gonna lord forgive lord forgive things understand sometimes need alone,0 +might delete later wanted say somethingsome weeks ago it months time going fucking fast lately scary said reason keep living sex immediate satisfaction get nothing else real really worth it sex fill more time go nothing left think time would come fast thought might years years trying get normal life im totally drained sexual desire time would kids want kill kids no took weeks whatever still trying get back better times always something missing obvious whats old work anymore cant think anything new might reached epitome creativity awesome im lost lost scary see everyone finding place world passion belong nothing that im walking alone people support make feel bad it know much ill able stand it look two people still take three buses pretend hate life for want hug tell everything want more something live for theyre good smiles sincere heart warming belong somewhere cry writing suicidal things reddit i hope really mean do decide really it feel like nothing else live for pressure high hardly breathe death would relief want know much theyre appreciated thought last times couple artists listen everyday love thanks coming life care fight make days better give reason one things enjoy singing,1 +xbox live yearwhat apart ps past ive pretty much always played xbox ive always supported microsoft value series which have game pass actually outdid ps well thats made big fucking uturn xbox live double price pay double price service free remove free games per month cares theyve piss poor past years nobody miss fucking awful decision microsoft hope hugely backfires,0 +anyone advice dealing this keep repeating stuff like always double check stuff like times yesterday went kitchen times make sure closed sink sink closed dont know that happening months getting worse keep checking checking longer enjoy reading cuz keep reading whole page make sure didnt miss anything keep reading page satisfies me thing happens thoughts keep thinking something wont stop thinking it annoying dont know happening u guys advice dealing it,0 +hello day hello day fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +symathy postim single live country town men supposed work physical jobs due back injuries im stranded unable pay bills eat im leaving redflag till new year dont hurt mum christmas mind made up im one losers constant shit luck every year im sinking even further enough sob story really want ask mg lyrica tabs mg baclofen tabs want know much need take dont want end coma need complete brain death organ failure anyone tell much need take end properly also little left field attractive wild women would willing spend crazy dirty weekend finish life ask loneliness also curse would love enjoy company woman feel like real man again go smile know sounds fucked up anyone willing help this would incredibaly grateful last horah would willing trade photos show fat old ugly,1 +one needs anymorei dont friends im terrible job could easily replaced parents hate me died right would take least week someone notice suffer end pain now wouldnt hurting anyone anything id helping one would deal stupid problems anymore,1 +ever think net effect world go man killed now might even something positiveive thinking lately cumulative usefulness person like aggregate shit or mostly havent done now whether meaningful positive impact people around me know guys dig it realize people like me inherent drain others society resources even themselves produce anything help anyone sort suck resources better allocated someone deserving produced better people me finished masters degree last year got one year unemployment ive living parents grown hate probably much hate today mom told unfair sit around day spending money totally right fair them pay medicine im suboxone opiate addiction developed grad school therapy plus car shit absurd parasitical relationship know sustainable even taking account broader parasitic relationship rest society provide value contribute nothing anyone im subidised betters part would like much physically validate crippled way already feel internally shooting kneecap trying damage brain enough shit bother more would merely logical extrapolation current uselessness im getting that like ive sort reached point obvious calculus ive tried things supposed able earn basic living meet friends find wife house etc im things worked probably fault ive got enough worthless statistics historical knowledge know system merciless general sense well options continue imposing parents accede mindbendingly depressing reality best possible option six years school earning hr rest life thus maintaining current standard living miserable addition retail years honestly feels like fate worse death finally killing like ive always wanted strikes me finally working chutzpah throw front bus eat bushel pills blow brains out whatever would positive impact world individual action im capable could would dramatically improve lives family financially emotionally imagine relief would provide them dissipating tension uncertainty surrounding failson importantly would remove cyclical web anhedonic consumption labor characterizes life united states today sucking food oxygen resources selling labor gold encrusted ghoul tiny contribution perpetuation injustice bullshit world fat complacent shithead american would eliminated moral victory even quantitatively meaningless ive posted arrogant bourgeois someone like terminally obsessed redflag also possessed profound fear death especially people world subreddit really suffer suffer lot firstworld troglodyte upset useless education get job like daddy age kind cant stop thinking that actually awful life people getting worse real possibility relief role personally play perpetuating misery others consumer first world millions people world mucking dirt mining rare earths bare hands tortured death turkmen dungeon would read spit gall complaining theyd right that still feel gaping fucking overwhelming misery desire finally get with palatable options rant went longer wanted address people here feel like made contribution world yall follow logic here,1 +tw transphobia guess anyone affected i trans makes want die fucking bad sure know already trans one disgusting revolting things could ever be huge burden everyone medically emotionally by forcing everyone say pronouns get wrong course feel bad it tried detransition nothing ever sticks fucking stuck like forever guess feel like monster fucked body going hormones getting chest sliced look worse ever have used beautiful girl disgusting freak nature wish could go back never even realize first place ruined every single thing life ways could never imagined cannot detransition normal human next year think ill kill myself world better without another disgusting person like anywaysif thoughts feel free share them transphobic tell comments want might help get shit together detransition hear terrible others people around accepting trans people get enough shit deciding wish could normal,1 +fame think best movie ever seen ways funny dramatic makes movie true loose ends actually lot still think terrific movie funny things happen audition beginning movie think hilarious girl tries act oj simpson the towering inferno raulralph goes around every art department saying father great every one says dad danced rockets left ralph tap shoes rockets far know made women tap shoes regular shoes bottle caps bottom also guy read lines juliet romeo juliet play funny one thing movie turns music never heard anything like it favorite song i sing body electric second theme song fame irene cara great voice great actress like way movie focused many ethnic groups showed kinds people actually called la guardia school performing arts movie showed triumphs trials many young performers including angelo doris bruno coco montgomery ralph leroy hilary liza hard time made way movie could added another minutes before graduation still favorite movie matter what,0 +stressing upcoming exam ampxb httpspreviewredditihqgnwifospngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfefaacdeb,0 +know why im always really sad really know ive feeling sad happy supportive friends finally openly gay im improving myself reason feel really sad want happy cant im losing motivation want things cant anyone advice would amazing,0 +left drawing redflaghey guys want start saying know personally heard went traumatic events father also involved older sister mom called friends mom told son years old killed monday night cutting wrist mom told friends mom left drawing table did shes trying figure means didnt send picture told looked like drew friends mom said like mom described her chance would guys know means,1 +interpreted movie first things first single scene movie u see bad guy taylor torturing nailing bens hands wall however cannot told gals end too u see taylor disappear walks looks like message there taylor whole movie figment imagination ben also scene torturing moments wherein gals confront frame ben taylor time real taylor ben two different people scene showing one frame horrific times course that u see together cud bens imagination work also ben jail text screen clearly says bens story unrealistic place explained read mine cars etceven liz hunter leaves kristy comes back find ben find him why ben taylor looking gals instead kristy time world check taylors ben web cam photos etcbr br somehow everything sums one fact kristy liz knew taylor ben so conclusion ben schizophrenic movie see taylor one frame nothing figments imagination otherwise really taylor found given detailed explanation coming ben,0 +tired man actually tired many fking activities english teacher given total activities drawn coloured yea english subject one fking landscape shit drawing write script play submitted tomorrow test well studied bit given project make different subject atleast pages long practice exams coming well thinking making tired stressed need break man,0 +worstest grammar worstest gamer worstest grammer worstest grandma worstest grammar,0 +maple syrup thanks guys,0 +please send horny jail please bonk way horny jail need stop,0 +whats biggest thing ever commited school copied everything important every single subject science textbook even though teacher ask and pretty much everyone to worth notes science next couple months,0 +someone help memy girlfriend heavy depression anxiety feel like cant much dont know get seek professional help,1 +one favorite hartley movies as could bad one although may bit religious side things would normally expect nonetheless still maintains hartley slant weve become accustomedbr br first picture jesus satan discussing ideas opinions hopes regrets impending end civilization imagine entire conversation taking place drinks neighborhood bar added conversational not mention visual distraction lets toss pj harvey sultry companion aka magdelena mr chist then grins background ever present salvation army band played yo la tengo serve added diversion road moral justification never pleasurebr br quite possibly questions answers therein lies fun mr donovan subdued brilliance always,0 +ive made subreddit wall e like nobody dont know mod theres called runofficial_wall_e im hopping lot people join wall e good movie seen go look tralier see like,0 +heath ledgers joker reading lyrics welcome black parade brain think right like telling stories got scars ex was young boy father took city see marching band,0 +horny hour soon beginning hornyness starts minutes need say something get done quickly horny takes,0 +wants hold hands yes know im naughty girl,0 +im tired living im alone im sick it one listeningim years old im tired living im tired seeing people around happy successful im sitting around waiting die im sad shy awkward man deserves ones respect im talented person people made me wreck deserves die one remember me ive suffered depression long now ive shy awkward asshole since friendships nothing special ive never girlfriend nobody loves me family shown love me told too im tired trying ive always wanted live longer live dreams hopeless never going happen get dreams know fuck im going life laze home nothing cry im useless waste space wish could die right now hanging getting shot getting run car truck care want die want talk guest know much going convince im worth it,1 +gf suicidal need advicethrowaway gf dating weeks already love eachother much far good right yes found suicidal messaging right im writing this saying things like it would better everyone died he made makeout even though want to im thinking killing constantly i want dad know freak daughter has they know me freak etc please help gf,1 +gotten worsei feel like cornering myself gets worse worse every day cannot control thoughts actions stuff regret immediately keeps happening crying day long trying distract myself feels like burning inside cant talk anyone want lie listen silence id happy go therapist money moment feel like rotting like tomorrow me nothing,1 +intrusive thoughtstheres sick shit going mind lately vividly imagine friend would looked like hanging belt keep getting nightmares girlfriend going leave wake terror body cant kill self already survivors guilt keep making stupid plan depressed girlfriend slitting others throats end incessant suffering life wed die together least cut arm little felt pretty good couple hours depression back feel guilty it hope melatonin tablets took let sleep little once,1 +social experiment people like nothing reason ever,0 +sheep baabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaabaa,0 +always thought father second life eagerly awaiting development birch street sat viewed first time amazingly movies journey took places expected made rethink assumptions judgmentstruly remarkable personal story told clever straightforward manner especially enjoyed film makers use pulling type mothers daily diary effective read previous comment wish note sound fine watched suspect either film changed somewhat theater could contributed poorer quality sound writer,0 +cat basically whore bought cat two months ago like weeks found pregnant gave birth days that fast forward two months later squished four top nobody probably going care damn producing,0 +stabbed myselfi stabbed times lower abdomen theres lot blood cant feel anything die,1 +high school years decades later look back fondness others embarrassment find easy forget one critical phases lives changes come fast furious whether were ready not longer children yet adults irresistible forces buffet us pushing pulling us every directionbr br fame best capture turbulent chaotic period cast young characters part succeeded meandered feel like slice life movie holds special place hearts class bid farewell decade soon end three four stimulating sometimes difficult school years headed cold cruel world leaving home college parts unknown approached watershed event newly released movie like twohour yearbook us escape titular song radio us screen friends rivals classmates faced dreams frustrations successes failuresbr br its especially poignant attended new york citys elite toptier high schools especially stuyvesant bronx hs science brooklyn tech like kids here considered best best auditions instead rigorous entrance exams perhaps even performing arts kids expected change world although necessarily become famous like them us made it pressure cooker environment fostered extraordinary camaraderie esprit de corps unlike toetapping hot lunch jam cafeteria graduation day spirits soared almost like jubilant crescendo rousing finale film leaves us fittingly single triumphant note end i sing body electric pointing blindingly bright boundless future promise heldbr br fame set anywhere else story never would worked small suburban school los angeles stronger identification movies television nyc mecca arts home called pa also worldrenowned juilliard nyc cultural center unmatched city world also time capsule rest city time showing seediness grit dirt endemic new york still struggling back fiscal crisis nearly bankrupted it all showed vitality since muted inroads giuliani disney tourismbr br what give young again fame least remember like,0 +remember keep swimming,0 +stress really starting build up school understand online class mean free time time huge asignment really balls say you home anyway time enough expect us organize group activity primary school kids get local government agree still testweek coming unfinished assignments im back panick attacks thought left behind depression,0 +whats pointim years old im guy bipolar disorder middle worst depressed state life miss exgirlfriend much heart hurts keep beating feel like im playing videogame objective feel like saddest man world talked almost years become recluse lost friends go outside gained weight miss every day,1 +painless poisonsdrugs redflagi need know quickly please let know,1 +try befriend artists thinkers doers often either shun work sub par nearly non existant see equal show sexualromantic interest reciprocate makes nervous avoidant sometimes shunmed think mistake interest making friends romantic interest quite annoyed assumptionsgame playingprojecting goes world,1 +money need smoke let us see goes going rob weedman,1 +ironywhen kid never really understood concept depression wanting commit redflag thought pretty stupid pointless thing do well guess fate decided make joke ive dealt past years neverending thoughts redflag aspirations life talents motivation anything deadend job nightshift friends whatsoever social life live tiny town without career options even attempt improving situation ive attempted redflag times failed time thought mightve failed things could get better seem light end tunnel think im going kill time soon feel like eventually happen venting,1 +pulling annoying nighter right online schooling pain ass wanted spend sunday family work schedule got messed im writing vague dumb hell essay while ducking eagleeyed parents like jesus christ fuck,0 +paranoia bloom someone recognise already ive already done,0 +cant make dreams reality continue onthere zero benefits late bloomer graduating late especially chose wrong field marriage statistics show best time get married httpsifstudiesorgblogwanttoavoiddivorcewaittogetmarriedbutnottoolong problem woman wants marry man make money yes money important thing world almost still solid career direction engineering degree useless since worked engineer almost years internship couldnt find engineering position graduation makes think find one years later fresh graduates even went debt graduate degree time graduate since takes lot time find right woman far late thats good field get saturated semblance hope miracle happen someone give chance time realize could easily fail achieve dream beautiful wife suburban neighborhood full caring loving people,1 +really need someone help mei past point ever feeling happy again years old cosmetology school live own feel ive anyone age shouldve lost dad gunshot wound latin kings milwaukee never got dad life mom never really step dad doesnt really talk ever never really friends growing up one close friend slowly growing apart even best friends years raped guy really trusted relationship now really took beating self worth esteem stuck abusive relationship forced isolate myself starve myself beat me raped convinced im worth nothing get trouble killing friends family would make suffer selfharmed since feel show people little think cry help mom denies problems refuses let get help expensive step dad owns company makes figures everything parents literally issue money put hospital taken lorazapam put insurance hospital bills folder put room remind much problems cost them cannot control anger temper im upset nothing stop me dont know make stop literally cannot trust another human being struggle money problems live dont like asking parents money make big deal know continue living seeing find enjoyment anything life anymore know life good im denying im fortunate im thankful cant cope problems inside head cannot keep good relationship anyone problems scare everyone away people want deal me ive told feel misunderstood life feel trapped inside head feel alone well feel like im never good enough anyone around constantly remind much burden am constantly alone roommate never here cant go lot get early everyday school struggling depression anxiety since ive recently struggling anorexia bulimia dont drive eat someone please talk me friend help find way get help anything contemplate redflag daily feel close making end seeing way cope ,1 +finally reign supreme family thats right ladies gentlemen half long years finally happened achieved father brothers feeble bodies could not passed six foot mark clocking glorious possibly still rising brother may still bulk yeet across room ease mere hes nothing joke point achieved level dominance next goal,0 +depression failurewhen forced see psychologist cutting pretty badly even razors serrated knives deliberately saw with despite something fucked up diagnosis nothing apparently wanted attention kind fucking loser cuts attention im fucking years old im still loser ive never relationship went five years college got degree working days week two part time jobs making barely enough pay loan debt friends hate im piece shit im constantly thinking redflag even fail that post sob story reddit like little bitch still looking attention let familyi let friends let everyone ive ever met ive never followed anything ive ever promised life someone please fucking kill know note im aware fact cant really diagnose me im ranting,1 +best friends dad died know talk got hit truck really close like closer dad i talk her want nice hurt feelings say wrong thing im going delete like days thanks help,0 +obviously ponyo seen another stupid animated movie studio might put simply survive far it easily described captivating beautiful movie experiencebr br miyazaki indeed another masterpiece now many said least achievements filmmaking due part certain weirdness factor there truethe morals insights quite evident previous films front picture ponyo difficult understand comprehend idea believe make childrens movie suitable adults kids complicated accomplished perfectly also lose substance along way reason gets br br besides that film engrossing start way presented beautiful left awe times remembered handdrawn miyazaki himself enlightened happy seeing film since saw back another film missed everything ponyo absolutely stunning breathtaking even music pure perfection bad thing say english dubbing get wrong good too seen ponyo weeks came nationally believed that parts wish kept japanese dialogue not it though enjoy english way too all everyone see ponyo absolutely flawless another league filmmaking altogether finally hold this surprised ponyo got best picture nomination films nominated it good,0 +ending fridayive never told true story goes im currently junior college ive never really figured want life im ancious find order find good job ive really interested forensic science wanted something like that ive criminal justice major past two years super easy gave plenty time goof off year learned never get job forensics unless get chemistry degree made change year nothing super hard calculus classes chemistry classes biology remember nothing time high school im also learning im awful student never retaining info spitting tests feel like im everything every morning wake painful anxiety attacks mention friends experiences past two years school thing keeping parents doesnt feel like thats enough thought could change adapt cant everything hurts want die peace cant imagine moms reaction im failure student go life feel like disappointment waste space dont want hurt anymore nothing helps therapy doctors medication worthless goodbye,1 +friend acting weird lately call twins lots stuff common comes interests behavior recently chat reply coldly unlike im sure somethings bothering her do ask help leave space,0 +think bad sit home day warm home online school well guess what crush moved different school starting think liked ugly ass,0 +survival instincthow get rid least minimaze it,1 +tired trying people care getting better want alive all making hate people around every time say need around something sorts fucking care selfish choose forced alive bullshitwhy fucking hard able kill myself deserve right body life people try stop me hope god figure today last day here tired,1 +please let diei want die everything fucking stupid dont want anytjing,1 +im worth it im truly notim worth air breathe hate am hate ive become hate person see mirror ive become empty lifeless shell leech happiness everything ive ruined life apathy laziness walked depressing worthless life filled woe me cant stand anymore used think wanted get better think anymore think wanted finally give up ive ruined every relationship friendship ever had even mother despises me regrets me im jobless transportation besides bike degree weather stuck home filled conflict negativity thats fault im reason conflict ive become nothing piece shit im selfish cant even right deserve help want victim im one myself ive known day coming long long time now want hurt anyone else simply existing hurt more least make end birthday coming maybe thats significant maybe time finally close door even know im here im sorry world truly better without me,1 +nephew boarding school help suggest ideas things could use gifts nephew boarding school first time want send things help enjoy time potentially draw others together help build friendships ideas far bluetooth music player glowinthedark frisbee food posters room huge budget would like get meaningful gifts helpful suggestions much appreciated,0 +people think never heard things existed born fkn annoying like think never heard phone cord feel like happens time teacher actually thought know phone ticks reason even realy matter seems like theyre talking you though much better were young know fkn telephone cord is sorry wasting yr time kinda sounds whiney probably is,0 +theres car comingthem get road me keeps walking tge middle road them theres car coming get road car comes veiw me still walking middle road feeling depressed them get road me finally gets road long car passes also me i wish got hit,1 +aightill stick around little longer give world things offer see else on doesnt work sleep later on im happy that dont care much ,1 +brits reddit plz help brotha yeh dont wanna gcses sorry httpspetitionparliamentuksignaturesverifytokenrqyhwaqqnwypsp_i,0 +admit enjoying bad movies love watch them horror especially friends gather hard week school work rent crazy tapes order pizza blast one great box expecting less usualbr br the story housing project built nuclear facility aboveground layers bulldozed underground layers simply covered up inhabitants neighborrhood find covered facility kids fall hole inside cave wakes zombiesbr br from point on chunkcity gore effects action never stop end credits rollbr br ok great art one injoke dialogue overthetop gruesome stuff favorite evening actually one best party tapes ever pleasure watching could tell done money bunch crazy people hundreds zombies director looks like brendan frazer he cameo wild trip,0 +video boyfriend friends made mtv cribs tour pedrohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuzwomig,0 +identify incel really wanna put like animal society see asno person planet empathy someone identify incel literally entire subreddit k follows dedcated mocking genepool bottomlickers like me already tried redflag failed try soon need tape tighter plastic bag,1 +alone better left behind thats true friends even dm see im ok one cares one gives fuck every one dms need help,0 +lost boyfriend grades car overi crash today earlier ghosted friends blocked everything deleting social media art presence online perfect driving record never drive again crash fault ruined everything lost grades im going fail class literally last semester as year ive afraid germs tonight learn gets much worse getting sick good world want escape sick tired hearing life gets better everyone told past days read posts problem back mind believed people part believed gets better doesnt never will never drive again never go school again never love again never go outside again left cant even breathe anymore im done goodbye,1 +happens text redflag hotline im shy dont knowwhat call police me end making feel worse,0 +really dont know this im wondering im even able get fear traumatic experience compounded kid ive experiencing long feels like second nature lkkely ingrained therapy wont much good need help anyone offer some feel free,1 +remember first time got drunk warning eventfulinteresting expect alcohol fueled escapade all little tipsy else remember this mom asleep upstairs alone night already started drinking back sips taste barbeque previous day lot booze left could take top without noticing whiskey little bit more cognac thought always see niggas mixing vodka orange juice let try that already starting feel drinks went pour vodka orange juice poured way intended said going drink much booze drank all thats really started feel it wanted drinks stopped feeling little tipsy nothing much happen stumbled around little bit giggled fact fucked around got drunk watching tv focus anymore went sleep sleep pretty good night ampxb thanks reading despite pretty boring,0 +relate quarantined due panick attacks depression past years point actual quarantine normal me fact honest almost happy see rest world panic fear eyes fighting invisible enemy feeling trapped unable live normal life im evil hate people once last years life feel lonely,0 +club scenes film extremely believable tim curry venal mode enough drugs violence two movies maybe even three require evenings entertainment pump volume,0 +prepare diewhat things take care leaving obviously wiping computers stuff like that throwing away giving away bunch things plan sign car title friend well think im going bother writing note people know ive really depressed long time think joke would care anyways really im looking reasons it life get better lies like that ways make end life less annoyance already around me,1 +give reason go try live lifesee always dreamed getting school starting family nice job seems pointless see people things love actually making living like touring playing music playing professional football basketball soccer theres even huge gaming competitions like millions dollars prize pools love friends getting paid way enough cant see successful hobby hate idea ending normal job ill go everyday waste life away need talked mindset please,1 +byeyou could king street sweeper end day dance grim reaper life worst gift ever received good night,1 +would people listen conspiracy theorist hippy scientist scientist wins httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvlniscigigbc damned hippy lot people httpswwwyoutubecomwatchappdesktopampvqhxtwcslfcy hippies stupid,0 +im confusedso ive reading posts lot seem quite short im sorry making quite long authors way guess anyway let start saying this im new this mistakes sorry understand questions please ask comments answer possible yearold male live rural town european country never see anyone family best relationship with siblings exception basically im alone lot friends one entire country top off person hours journey away so course im constantly lonely times truly feel like kind purpose parents pressuring lot ive tried find purpose spending hour day write book help lot also feel enough simply wasting time psychiatrist recommends try relax political system tells get my sorry flattering words ass im constantly bombarded thoughts starting project something im suddenly demotivated cant find why reason even able start writing nowgirlfriend supported months honestly helped lot able something instead lay bed day enough need job cant go back school constant fear anxiety it bullied pressure upcoming exams forced overly social someone autism spectrum way way way much handle two thirds important school year country collapsed unable work anymore past year publishing art almost daily basis also focusing exams working allday basically body simply take it felt still feel work everything insufficient would spend days weeks even months project scrap it summarize now stuck forsaken house every day im constantly arguing parents need get job im diagnosed stress depression anxiety motivation it everyone telling either find job try relax im threatened may removed parents outside viewers may see incompetent argue lot fantastic job doubt it would definitely make worse remove here feel incredibly lucky able sit home nothing also feel incredibly useless want here want work something impossible move forward im stuck loop honestly dreams anyone has doubt ever become reality would love book sell could visit girlfriend move out cant keep ripping relationship parents pieces again confused feel simply complaining would love chance explain detail know sound like someone useless thats clearly everyone life thinks please ask comments related stories feel free share them would love read them oh advice would also much appreciated fact ive position months making increasingly desperate like family please help can thank you lt,1 +took acetaminophen pills dietwo days ago took pills otc extra strength pain relievers acetaminophen it walgreens brand tylenol yesterday took another thing im fine better fine last time tried brand tylenol feel nauseousnot great ended going hospital early enough everything fine time feel nothing puke times theres way came out right mean took pills let know expect things get worse get sweet eternal rest im looking for,1 +hey gamerdude hi,0 +ive fucked life cant anymorethe thing keeping much would destroy everyone loves lives hate fucking core thought beat odds teen pregnancy early s two kids different fathers lost love life fucking sabotage everything im crazy brain working every fucking second every fucking day thing know hurt myself cant keep living like this parents act like everythings okay know must disappointed life ive ended with want go sleep never wake up,1 +know athletes right im struggling weight need low calorie filling meals eat ideas,0 +say someone suicidalhi hope im right place get advice difficult situation long time online friend struggling lot problems depression recently texted long message tell much mean things said alarming me said know much longer live probably months left theyre lost life passions motivation live anymore really seem considering committing redflag next months im concerned know say want help support much can theres much since were living far apart fear listening might enough time however know kind advice give them want sound like im trying save fix know cant im sure saying itll get better life worth living etc helpful all know do were underage think mentioned parents take depression seriously know even get access therapy contact family know address im beginning pessimistic well refuse give them,1 +posting something nice get girlfriend day playing friends discord thats probably good thing happened today least so hope good day far really like online diary thing especially nice responses far thank guess cya tomorrow teens,0 +finding difficult keep goingmother disowned me father disappeared decade ago long divorce sister disowned family always working low end jobs never able keep romantic relationships going friends slowly becoming busy problems current gf town week break responding much cries help expectations happiness attempts create ultimately fail leave feeling worse nothing really matters end die memory dies time attempted redflag years ago ended declared clinically dead revived er tried since thoughts creeping past months,1 +believe found perfect friend group girls fucking fun went two days row ive never friends painted nails importantly actually fucking care mental health fucking good feel friends never guys again,0 +something really didnt expect could im sharing yall im state one highest honors eligible euphonium an instrument looks like tuba got second chair district im really excited chance maybe get in hope yall good day keep working hard,0 +know anymoreso ive thinking long time redflag mean started high school ive heard often does always shook never felt depressed long lately everyday find thinking new scenarios new ways without even realizing it always chicken getting help way ive always embarrassed im sure sounds silly true thats im here big deal seeing professional worrying people care something know compares usually comes run around think almost every day sometimes times others times periods feel down feel angry depressed hopeless seemingly reason gone far preparing worst times doctors given different medications none actually made feel better im looking advise idea do,1 +hate life but im scared diefirst off im coming web search others like and honestly im jealous people feeling thoughts support received went support websites glorified i mental illnesseshave fucked life you competition another people made fun another completely empty im running options im tired im also sick nobody answerwanting talk it im always referred call helpline ignored wanna call helpline ive tried all meds therapy psychoanalysis tried go force around people tried join clubs take hobbies tried ive met nothing rejection hate complete ignorance feel insignificant worthless want friend person go get coffee beer with person callwill call talkcomplain days such one ive spent life helpful am wanting die chickenshit it could easily grab one multitude carving knives behind open veincut throat im terrified pain could easily go medicine cabinet take pills there cant im terrified death put grief family im stuck here state complete isolation sadness wanna cry cry time wanna beat shit outta hopefully give brain damage dontcant remember this im angry world im sad im attention seeking pity party want someone care everyone problems selfish be maybe even post this like anyone care either way fuck,1 +the kennel murder case starts run stop end everybody reason kill victim several people tried william powell terrific philo vance gentleman detective mary astor refreshing putupon niece wants marry scottish gentleman enjoy inheritance movie comes paired nancy drew reporter dvd also fun rent disc or check local library it pure entertainment,0 +finally really great year reddit joined communities already love found new ones thanks making place really cool,0 +movie halve bad people want make believe isbr br what reason many people hate movie laurel hardys last one together best lack laurel hardy regulars made hal roach studios th century fox br br definitely true movie successful attempt revive laurel hardy bring s also definitely true movie far best honestly movie still entertains well making movie also far worst worthy goodbye movie imaginable entertaining suiting goodbye nevertheless retired movies completing onebr br the movie still features great slapstick moments chemistry laurel hardy obviously still much present also makes movie better movies together s quite surprise slapstick humor still works great does considering days slapstick comedy over ever since sbr br the story perhaps entertaining could features many sidekicks characters result movie looses focus boys times shame still ones really carry make moviebr br sad see poor form stan laurel time making movie really looked ill old also course was well years old already surgery fully recovered still lived another years dying years good friend oliver hardybr br an entertaining though perfect goodbye boys laurel hardy end decades fun humorous quality slapstick entertainment movies still watched loved people worldbr br ,0 +ex told wouldnt care dropped dead isnt wonderful,0 +lightheadednessflushed feeling burning head extremities dull headaches sometimes back head radiates front disassociation vision issues,1 +life going anywhere think thatim fresh college feel like life over im stuck rural small town parents essentially trapped letting get driving license would love go get job mother gives cold shoulder yells getting license sooner ask give ride anywhere dad really around much im stuck hostile environment mother almost honestly mother makes feel like everyone life would better without around obviously giant burden would love move get place simply possible without driving license job knows trapped makes feel like fault like everything goes wrong fault used good relationship awful towards ever since graduated feel like little brother boyfriend precious let see suffer like this really want put ease taking out im gone constantly worry me im huge giant failure getting useless degree achieving nothing life deserve people worry me depression fair sweet wonderful boyfriend always cheer comfort want problem anymore want anyones problem anymore im girlfriend anymore im psych patient put with thanks reading this necessarily want kill im terrified failing becoming disabled life cant stand feeling like mother hates failure probably sound like whiny kid know people worse me ive battling suicidal thoughts since march ive thinking family would happier without ruining everything,1 +september told us getting divorce september parents told brother i getting divorce months later nothing happened talking us plans divorce nothing im sure ask it idk really scared to scared im even sure im pretty sure decided get divorce more idk one mentioned anything since ever since covid started last year things mom dad gotten really bad especially summer luckily past month so things better yay d ack ive like confused abou do like help makes sense idkkk im sorry am randomly emotional whydo iexistthoughts yay pog hello ive kept self havent told anyone even closest friend hi pie ur amazing whats poppin u might see u scroll thro profile lollll literally tell everything her im sure havent told yet supportive amazing person know im sure why im afraid guess well knows cuz sometimes stalks profile lmao hi pie u know thro reddit post lol ive mentioned things kinda bad home nothing really that im confused do say like everythingha probably said idk like times sorry idk im telling random people friends stalk profile see needed get chest thanks listening well guess reading means lot nice day lt ddd,0 +please tell liveim stupid ugly depressing person even bother people talk cant stand cant hold relationship due insecurities,1 +miss friend much even though draws dicks notebooks still miss friend,0 +thoughts jumpingeven though feeling suicidal couple years ago cant help feel compelled make plans sometimes zone like know bridge thinking city would easy jump like barrier kinda short could climb it thing stopping actually going travel time brain committing it like instantly transported location id want wouldnt hesitate jump brain wouldnt time reason wish could that feel lucky dont easy access things like guns country otherwise would long gone things life feel like going fine despite everlasting depression like mostly alright familyfriends new boyfriend however cant help feel intrusive thoughts cant shake,1 +sometimes wish closest familyi wish could end without feeling bad anyone ive tried fucking hard fucking long rationalize existence every time arrive conclusion so hurt closest ones never asked this never chose born world wish never was cant bring inflict kind pain upon mother father brother guess purpose live pain joy wish nobody holding back sorry fit felt like telling someone,1 +lpt wake fast set alarm clock chosen hour set bardi b song alarm theme three days ive waking am turn alarm starts am,0 +called redflag hotline night immensely helpful wanted sharehi often put feelings open grateful organizations redflag hotline well subreddit called night heavy drinking grandfather died struggled depression alcoholism self harm worried may hurt myself so called never envisioned myself year old man someone call crisis hotline thankful did woman line one compassionate understanding overall nicest human beings ive pleasure talk to would give anything thank annoyed me thanks listening hope rant feel free remove post mods,1 +sister told last week know dohi im new seeking help little sister going really rough time im starting think may want end it long time sister who still high school diagnosed depression anxiety month ago clear lot longer time something wrong name put it depression bad couple months ago quickly escalating particular source believe depression really close something would tell me tells lot life home bit rough ive seen conditions terrible father sometimes rude recently talking redflag told found easy methods killing herself might last week always tell things like we need you love you the world would different without you without id nothing never convince her never scared worried safety would anything get better know talk delicate people depression something individual help her extra info using prozac little month says helps clearly still active thoughts redflag im sure appointment therapist march believe know much time left help do want sister ok,1 +friend needs get help canti friend know online severely depressed serious suicidal thoughts well host problems point think knows needs immediate help told friends think able call crisis hotline social anxiety help now,1 +hope makes think way everyday rest lifeive posted many times problem gotten better ive tried therapy actually got really close always told gonna last work together boss today tried talking ignored me see phone text ignores too live apartment brother happens best friend turned big mess cant control today gotten worse ever title says shes probably gonna get within days im gonna though life shit anyways made worse time low im sitting across speak carpooled too might take keys walk drive home it somehow thinking calming down like freeing spirit,1 +going naturallydoes anyone else feel like this know gonna go naturally going hand know when,1 +ive feeling weird recentlyi dont even know say feel empty feel like theres lots stuff want life future feels like even worth doing feel like go things wanna never good thought gonna be feel like thats entire life going be nothing good everything good ends soon begins ive seen lot people die life like whats point ive never even considered redflag im starting fear could impulse guy group chat sent video guy blowing head shotgun thoughts like shotgun downstairs could gone instant scares me feel scared guns house know instant could kill myself want thoughts gone want feel normal life isnt even bad everything bland scare myself,1 +beating nnn it know im late say it use nen chakra quirk ive awaken sharingan beat november,0 +im really scared killing myselfbut also feel like thing need,1 +bill wurtz posted httpsyoutubezntavtmontk first vid like year,0 +people need stop coming others posts telling get better ok get this etc idea situation telling matter matter cannot change peoples values priorities people need stop,1 +anyone else find people age cute cute romantic way cute ,0 +test see tictoc spying ok read test ok downloaded tictoc made account scrolled made fyp tf ever memes took day went chrome searched lot p hub ok history full like tabs opened ok get email minutes later said sure love big bouncing bootys checked tictoc boom ladys ladys males memes people explaining anything boobies ass al place,0 +wandering local library browsing vhs tapes saw movie made mouth dropwaterbabies hoping see movie againits years since saw cablemovie channel around recalled good many detailsgrimes particular son watched itbr br he agreed grimes not nice best way describe love tom accepted that amazing still recalled songs too stuck head yearswhich means memorableness ehbr br its good childs movie parental guidance case questions children go nobilitysociety timeframe children faced daily except lucky ones try disneycoat movies making pc children days mean cruelty existor even still doesnt enjoyed animation disney no think bluth touched paintbrush moviebr br theres lot going it though david plays two roles i really like him james too waterbabies cute feel sorry tom root him billie extraordinary multirole part playingits eyes magickal im huge fan woo tlwtw company and looking forward hp filed along kind movies yes jumps water suicide jumped trusted lady blackshed appearing alongbr br i think good movie kids pick rental copy happen locate buyable copy let know where ian liked it br br dee,0 +wtf wrong country today way back school heard making paedophilia thing countryi dont want live anymore,0 +fit inno one loves me ever loved me ever love me guys ive connected abusive piece shits friends nothing live for past year ive known nothing abuse want nothing die,1 +stuck head recently think think think end talking hours days even one thoughts tonight theory feel need certain thingsi struggled certain addictions past put quotes know wereare actual addictions conditioned think in days something first step admitting blah blah blah get it probably actual addict would claim self harming would say probably addiction tell alcoholism hand know addiction real friend ever one encouraged stop drinking found suicide attempt drank full bottle bourbon cut arm took box sleeping pills never meant tell heard next day crazy circumstances long story talked little bit told wanted stop drinking good reason obviously sure id say addicted alcohol drink fair bit first night id polished whole bottle think main reason view possible addiction asked stop time pretty easy drinkbut anyway aside starting notice addictions whatever want call hard hardest resist thinking kind movie moments kind hard explain like think emotional state event triggered sometimes picture sort movie scene something id imagine would see main character went scene shows processing whatever example would show lucifer lucifer sitting beach smoking wings ground behind him time bojack goes bender bojack horseman scenes like that like way know process emotions creating one moments real life put music sit beach night glass whiskey hand go club get lost drugfuelled montage stand roof high rise middle city smoke know isbut urge create moments main thing pushes want drink smoke drugs selfharm settings feeling feel wrong without accompanying vice even things like type alcohol changes sometimes straight glass whiskey neat sometimes beer sometimes vodka straight bottle times cocktails preference own fits moment feel like need havei know this thought maybe want people see certain way maybe extent almost every time alone although guess movies always start alone sometimes somebody walk them know information know better ignore urges create hollywood moments even though sometimes actually make feel little better nothing else helps that give happen take sign need process allow break sober streak hell even know still got sober streak people cared getting clean gone now guess force habit point anyways know decided post something noticed thought weird theory get impulses get,1 +glad see s kicking bang mean pretty insane season thought way could topped season premiere pretty good far,0 +im feeling really dumb like ill never get anywhere lifeive got lot cleverness hood barely ever shows anything people say im smart apply barely anything dont concentrate mostly feel like trick people thinking im clever clever person without anything substantive get chatting someone else dont feel dumb anymore comparison fantasise ramming skull metal pipe painting walls chunky brain spray picture details clearly minds eye hundreds vectors individually showing would look like paste sometimes cross road dont bother tracking trajectories cars dont care make side road want hurt know would really shitty live acquired brain injury spinal injury fuck wish could exist bother bullshit feeding myself grind pollute planet keep kicking constant effort stay alive seems easy end life id less burden planet too electricity plastic petrol use meat animals consume poor people slave wages making pointless shit nobody needs mum siblings know im suicidal concerned dont want hurt them time dont think anyone able dictate another persons life choices arent harming anyone else feel like human accomplishments meaningless anyway da vinci means nothing compared entropy heat death universe feel like screaming gibberish void trying failing find meaning ultimately meaningless universe never really able connect others see others relation ourselves im going go see psychologist days ive suicidal ideation good long time though since childhood im sure depression something go away maybe learn coping strategies though dont even know depression feels like im sure emotions right now,1 +stop saying shawty unfortunately end,0 +mind wont shut up want stop hate am was ive done want erase existence want delete actions make things ive done go away want scrub every evidence existence want gone want gone want get away this thoughts hate all hate everything wish could go back undo everything start over fucking hate self deserve die body like deserves friends family anything deserve rot deserve shunned deserve punished want erased existence deleted,1 +pssssst need favour please go wish upetergrlffln happy birthday last time promise got right link,0 +offensiveabsurd statement punchline making previous statement joke thus offensiveabsurd thats make post rteenagers thank coming ted talk,0 +life falling apart think diemy life fucking joke haha kind joke dark sad kind joke outward appearances top world advanced degree great job ive high school sweetheart years friends money etc truth is degree helped find happiness life job awful hate it im getting divorced im living x room blow mattress soontobeex flies back forth atlanta spend time new boyfriend who family loves cant find new job nothing ive tried works everyone around tells keep trying lt worst thing ever btw cant even focus shitty job anymore means im probably going get fire next round layoffs what im slowly starting accept one shot love im going alone rest life oh thats impossible say need take time havent even really started looking dated anyone years dated girls high school know date im terrified even try addition think about seems like really bad proposition im short balding deep voice contrary popular opinion degree seems turn people hilarious ways thats one things really surprised me thought getting phd physics would earn respect maybe even admiration instead get either i combination feartrepidation ii complete apathy ive crunched numbers region single women age group assume a im attracted b attracted seems harsh again short balding low selfesteem physicist lets say conservative estimate leads grand total women might shot longterm relationship odds certainly favor im years old future discern afterlife redflag longterm impact me fact id speeding inevitable eliminating pain life not,1 +want homework period pains make unable anything expect lie bed agony,0 +st birthdayi think better time finally kill myself excited peace going tonight,1 +dont know im love background info cousin lives several states away mine see summer really close several years basically summer dog died cousin left back home really sad started texting left texting nonstop told felt super alone back home wanted stay here also told misses time whenever tell im sad always cheers makes feel happy shes person makes happy highlight day texting her make happy also told person opened to always tell problems shes going through feel like shes person cares actually listens me dont know love please help me,0 +know death comingim year old male suffering depression since know cant really say began hospitalized year therapy seem want get better seems like takes something have persistence sacrifice energy on yet hand want commit redflag atleast seems like it nothing live for want life pissed people worst part everything want sinfulimmoral know one day deadline over grades really low cant study hate everything it fighting suicidal thoughts really hard every single day there waiting moment finish it living cause society thinks good actually living cant go like anymore feel like want close eyes jump car tempting really cant explain it cant feel good things anymore everything black sorrow situations go wrong everything hopeless one day wake woth chains realise forever noone really cares except parents guy talk thats all even hate option except hang him know happy get want life things take whole new level hard work get desires unfulfilled dreames lost still crying glimpse back them think redflag easy well easy all cant go it cant finish all im going hell anyway bother greatest wish random guy pulls gun street shoots head cant change desires cant lie want something yet die beliefes atleast one fight go grave,1 +life society jokelife poorly designed mess society joke like idiots decided unless ideal person life miserable you agree bad im pissed like many im stuck i make better imma end all fuck this,1 +brought reasons want die deserve iti want hate myself hurt everyone ever got close me emotionally unstable manipulative disgusting abusive deserve get think go actually matter im dead inside already im done trying im good sex thats offer thats ive ever offer,1 +need help schools wifi everything blocked installed bunch vpns mine stopped working work pay premium get work,0 +anyone wanna talk im probably gonna awake another hour ish anyone wanna talk need feel alone im f matters,0 +im play d chess get h girls cry ik thisll controversial opinion,0 +come school learn babysit sick tired teachers blaming us quiet students shit class fault fucking classmates cant keep mouths shut responsibility either stop saying accomplice stop them expect get entire class quiet teachers authority figures trying years still clearly failing know teachers know anything teenagers work stupid think control class do theyre wrong getting sick blamed im fucking thanos something get grip lol,0 +like disappointment everybodysuicidal scary word meaning behind represents feel ive always wanted appreciated someone feel proud me im taking duel enrollment college in future one me parents bat single eye feels like second mess something want drop im immediately go work home improvement im lazy selfish disappointment day day listen parents complain other he realize much work shes lazy wants everything wears away way get screamed yelled thing control over maybe im suicidal enough fact im standing noose moment means issues worth here months now thought ending seems present mind cant tell anyone cant explain cant tell anyone life this need say this somewhere someway maybe keep thoughts bay while,1 +dad wants put restrictions microsoft account antone help little big problem get bypass curious kind restrictions microsoft has u parental restrictions ur microsoft account u tell restrictions are,0 +im gonna kill selfi friends friends get fucking leave fault im gonna end im gonna fucking hang done bye everyone,1 +give everything get nothing return done trying give,1 +third time life post herefour failed attempts redflag behind me im getting better fact getting worse im waiting last push finally jump window,1 +heart growing voidi feel empty know turn to decided come here severe depression years grown abused beyond belief tried many antidepressants currently dose prozac feel void feel like purpose never self harmed before want fill feeling tried telling friends ok told fuck off call depressed burden nightmares every night abuse barely crawl day friends hate me know do feel developing eating disorder feel like im worth much anymore checked facilities going therapy ive wanted talk someone treat like monster want feel himan,1 +cry helpi attempted anything yet mind flooding kinds thoughts put shortly madly love girlfriends friends years lovers almost would constantly fight loved great time together one day two months ago decided break where day gave cold shoulder told fault everytime messaged tried see treated like stranger ever since cant get head talked friends family tried workout tried occupy time way get head cant live without her everything secure future getting good job going college get promoted work even bought ring going propose birthday know ill never find anyone like think driving cliff jumping bridge kinds things im spoiled loving parents great friends even thier words get lost head tried everything get stop even wrote one favorite song artist time see response would make happy im desperate find way out eating alive dont end getting help mind get best me,1 +please tell gets betterim fired best job ever months ago reasons fault even unemployment judge agreed decided case favor took huge cut pay find work barely pay bills cant afford real food eat regards cant afford go socialize means cant meet new people date almost years cant even get people im interested talk me im roundly ignored everywhere go never finished college cant afford go back owe crippling amount debt university unpaid fees cant attend anywhere else almost friends old job none ever speak unless initiate conversation even leave soon can two real friends roommates spend time playing wow together ignore part one got interview job told also applied get interview one seems interested say one shares interests talk like im uneducated idiot people even know half things love talk like im ignorant cant seem catch break anymore since beginning last year life fallen apart things going faded away feel like peaked long time ago prospects ever getting better matter hard try get hole im afraid sitting welfare hospital somewhere dying alone unloved im friends family funeral none now please someone tell gets better please,1 +lost good friend today name ailee met roblox years ago soon became discord friends meme sharers almost month hasnt replied memes texts im sad think dead ,0 +need help lot survey need answer check comments link,0 +schoolboy watched film first time next day knew pupils form watched fascinated film was think situation forms school whole soviet union later watched every time shown tv want watch more think comparison back future scifi films appropriate gostya iz budushchego unique many ways watched it never forget itbr br this film full belief peaceful science achievements full belief beautiful future world film also forecast many scientific inventions achievements time shown film year the year creation year where schoolboy kolya gerasimov traveled time friend alisa seleznyova from year many inventions achievements predicted film realized yet mielophone a device read thoughts animal human expeditions venus mars as easy going picnic weekend creating launching satellites homework pupils easy drive flying machines which completely replaced automobiles biorobots historical identification kind material creature performed couple minutes many others meanwhile nowadays became much realistic seemed wait br br the film also depicts typical russian schoolboys schoolgirls and naturally inventiveness curiosity humour dreaminess look example fima korolyov could find character nearly forms every school soviet union similar character form too alisa seleznyova myself well many classmates fell love first sight her way later actress played alisa became scientist think much influenced film people watched tvbr br beautiful idea beautiful realization beautiful actors beautiful music beautiful song prekrasnoye daleko the wonderful faraway beautiful beautiful beautifulbr br the last thing want say different remakes new versions song film even film made later spread tv internet even comparable original even comment them comment original so request original enjoy it,0 +even point telling friends mental health issues like even gonna say cant help reason,0 +need question answeredi asked another subreddit focused self harm got response cutting bad help get night bottle pills next me,1 +girlfriend loves smelling feet dated girl always asked smell bare feet thought weird first asked would take shoes socks front door would get upset washed feet saw her stopped showering beforehand asked friend one time observe go ended taking shoes socks too fell love bare feet ended dumping next day didnt mind since thought weird kept feet groomed pedicured always didnt smell best even foot powder friend told later went beyond smelling bare feet toes began lick bare soles suck toes weirded that ended dumping quickly afterwards,0 +deep breathing reminding im irrationally panicking promising take step step analyzing emotional baggage ive placed paper weeks now sitting computer mocking me late im slowly loosing motivation even try anyone help really want try edit paper something worth reading without feeling like cant breathe,1 +panic attacks overthinking im gonna able sleep tonight ive thrown twice already pure anxiety idk do,0 +im take mg g paracetamolim currently treatment previous overdose im feeling done saw family tonight made peace decision im feeling complete,1 +damn gon stop talkin ppl least say goodbye friend even talk anymore glad get close,0 +posting everyday get first kiss day hold man need hug here k,0 +extremely gentle retelling shakespeare play and much overt forbidden planet cassavetes always joy watch even gena rowlands sharing spotlight take prospero role well suited sort craggy allknowing expression brings story especially comes forefront scene when upon spotting estranged wife lover speedboat conjures storm accompanied soundtrack appropriate selection stomu yamashtas go one moments throughout film line reality fantasy becomes nicely blurred viewer left feeling magic possible one might believe add excellent performance raul julia plus good work susan sarandon vittorio gassman molly ringwald film becomes nice little treat occupy space behind eyes,0 +favorite cheese yours know im lactose intolerant still eat dairy becuz im rebel consequences worth sometimes eating dairy,0 +multigaming network would like share everyone hello name matt multigaming network called tls community servers want share community world small community were trying expand horizons different sections server mainly consists csgo players csgo surf servers small community small portion minecraft survival smp players also rust server dying might get rid soon unless turns around something bigger everyone community worked hard today know writing going get you ask please join good time movie nights make new friends make memories came together one community based gaming discord would like join heres link httpsdiscordcominvitecdxashttpssteamcommunitycomlinkfilterurlhttpsdiscordcominvitecdxas well hope see there,0 +hey question years future gay queer normal like pride parades stuff like that going stop suppose celebrate self acceptance legal rights pride sexuality right going time future celebrating gay going treated celebrating straight theres straight pride targeted oppressed right future would pride parades weird since would probably accepted future im sorry make sense im trying write im thinking know put ot right way,0 +relax suit couch smile little bit youre live bestgore,0 +dumbass glucose parent takes forever respond old men always take forever respond bro like know full ass family job hurry pay hoe,0 +dumb femboy bitch boy returned awoken great slumber,0 +lackawanna blues moving story boy raised house pretty unusual people br br its editing soundtrack really pulls story lets experience film way writer really meant seenbr br the music really tied story made characters come life editing made story progressive captivating br br i also surprised performances cast notably s epatha merkersonsbr br i cant wait see one man show featuring films writer ruben santiagohudson,0 +anybody wanna join discord server chill occasionally play games comment,0 +life fine want diei desire die cant get rid of life objectively bad issues anxiety bipolar disorder depressive state right now panic attacks response stress cry everywhere home walking reading gym bus honestly even feel shame nothing matters reason kill think would waste organs corneas since would brought hospital soon enough viable would kill violently outside hospital pretty sure kill least suitable method order cant anywhere find least one person going feel knowing alone makes unsure survive feeling much longer mystical experience something beautiful side life flat pale comparison utterly pointless cannot feel pleasure strong desire end waste life love everything everyone want hurt anyone dissociated body want free used feel ok feeling think ashamed feeling like this start feel horrible guilt want die someone help tell alone crazy cant take feeling anymore one talk cant keep alone edit know talk anyone scared me whenever someone says redflag people call cops come get me feeling better getting mental ward worse life less organized effed up makes even worse cant even tell anyone feelings,1 +director oldboy comes slick vampire flick kangho song stars priest accidentally changed vampire cured deadly mysterious virus vampirism priesthood quite conflict able survive robbing hospitals blood bank unconscious patients might mind siphoned blood supposedly miraculous survival comes lives hakyun shins family shin cancer mother believes song cure it unfortunately songs vampirism raises levels lust height cant help fall shins young wife okvin kim kim intensely interested world vampirism two become lovers film goes weird directions think one experience themselves really mentioned chanwook parks mastery medium cinema god ive rarely seen masterful visual artist peak powers major flaw film little incoherent especially near beginning park interested telling stories mostly visuals difficult follow times works man fly film also perversely hilarious final sequence easily one best decade simultaneously heartbreaking delightfully ridiculous okvin kim become worldwide star film gives one best performances year,0 +cant bear pain anymore fun friendsyet yeet,1 +deal competition school im interested subject specific part subject find someone class likes even better really demotivates,0 +ayo guess found nier country yes read correct,0 +feel awful inside out depressed since child absolutely fucking exhausting single mom stuck every time think way end it think fucking guilt overwhelming nothing outside looking in appear okay business daughter mostly happy ill post positive things social media actually fucking dying inside business essentially bankrupted me fucking money always trying figure going take care daughter put gas borrowed car drive mine work anymore going eat tired living like this thing keeping falling apart person getting along huge argument yesterday know things never same absolutely heart broken feel like failure slept today thankfully daughter too took park used gift card get food toy made sure great day drew pictures colored together great day bed crying grandmother want end fucking badly so so sad cannot stop crying everything hurts face swollen fucking internet crying stupid fucking life feel fucking pathetic cannot okay brain like this like this try fucking hard get nowhere wish something would happen accidentally want disappoint daughter live consequences actions end it absolutely cannot live like longer fuck even do fucking sad possible live like this body stopped,1 +spongebob god spongebobs combat capabilities raw power seemingly immeasurable unbelievably powerful spongebob ability absorb reflect deflect physical damage also ability sever limbs instantaneously regenerate cells possesses ability change configuration body could expand body significantly become microscopictheres scene spongebob shown sleeping inside sun unfazed core temperature sun million celsius means spongebob least x stronger tungsten melting point celsius spongebob also shown unravel string universe itself current evidence spongebob made foreign material compatible able edit structure conceivable element whole universe seemingly invincible able withstand sun take damage shows instantaneous regeneration shape shifting ability spongebob tested however instantaneous regeneration could prove create enough mass cover universe also referenced spongebob connections dimensions spongebob even brought two dimensional three dimensional realm godly powers put simply spongebob immeasurable power reconfigure suffocate universe wanted seemingly invincible essentially deity regeneration tested theory could regenerate cell mass faster expansion universe true power yet tested however potential power seemingly unlimited believe spongebob actually god bikini bottom seems created bikini bottom recreational uses reincarnated previous life patiently waiting attain full power crush world spongebob genuinely monster absorbing life energy universe preparing crush universe taken form sponge concealing true identity prevent fighting full power surprised spongebob destroys entire multiverse recovers enough energy reset reality expanding sponginess creating hypernova large enough collapse reality itself,0 +posting lyrics like part cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders like anvil perky got itching like anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel ringring phone call depression used past memories weapon line talk addiction huh speaking devil drugs miss cant real fiction somethin feels broke need fix cry help listen ima alone finished part tell im fine im lyin want worry part take feelings hide em cause want nobody hurt cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders like anvil perky got itching like anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel sometimes know feel lets real pills keep taking pills here yeah told yall secret yeah tearing pieces really think need stopped taking drugs drugs take part tell im fine im lyin want worry part take feelings hide em cause want nobody hurt cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders like anvil perky got itching like anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel,0 +someone help t_tso dont know begin honest guess ill start talking im depressed so reason im depressed im scared becoming something horrible like pedophile murderer rapist ect intentions that hate kids hate rape murder guess im paranoid one day one those im really paranoid person ever commite redflag sure day thats promise forever keep miss growing life im longer excited anything really used die excitement xmas holiday im like oh cool another day fucking miss like years old playing little toys watching pokemon everyday deep web knowlaged deep web alot find child porn forums animal abuse sites scared me remember visting cp forum curiousity people discussing months ago fucking gross wish painful depressing tortuous unbearable death fucking pedos seeing cunts talking posting site disturbed me everyday want go back site read fucks saying dont want fucked was tears inside knowing want know idiots discussing forum plans ddos site till corruption decide remove site dont care consequences long fun ruining pedos life also dont worry im skilled vpn ddosing without getting caught scares wondering whats worst site deep web would be thats say im going end life buti guess im fucking pussy cant dont it dont want set friends family called redflag hotline times fucking stupid worthless also applied depressions redflag therapy refused take me one gave email saying something like sorry refuse take you control please call help nad said something like sorry suicidal us take you call life fucking difficult fucking hate cant die alone im sleeping without it hate seeing happy people makes depressed dont know think im lost,1 +really wanna hit people geneva stick filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +anyone want join discord server dm me dont know im allowed post links here,0 +weeks ago planning leaving job try something wanted life once put everyone else priority wanted take sort controlthe universe said nostarted month hospitalized today learned semirare disease need constant life changes doctor follow ups rest life cannot really leave job since need insurance ever today learned news family member passing awaytoday learned person loved lied meall one day lost losti wanted something would make happythe universe said noi tired now universe said no,1 +want die know parents get hold theyll put everyone know helli know mom gets hold shell tell friends use get things guilt trip everyone giving things need dad gets news care people know hate want kill myself funeral everyone make bullshit pretend think selfish stupid talked endless things defend themselves needed let somewhere feel alone,1 +world right melots people brush life tough out cant it school unbearable anxiety arbitrary timewasting work even work get home relax anxious couple hours laying bad thinking shitty life is waking tired again fuck anyone gets beyond me needless suffering believe anyone saying gets better ive waiting years day come cant wait more get enjoyment living people im harassed daily family cant anything help counselors psychiatrists done anything either care pain would bring others ending life deserve it,1 +do dowell first off depression anxiety fucking life up cant keep going like this know do,1 +fuck title cant even see straight breathei really fucking wish stronger one minor thing didnt think would affect drag far did im full rage huge hole heart done needed do saw something broke me didnt expect see that god damn cant stop crying even worse one go support wish could pull bestfriends house get hug get distracted friend none everything happens go own deal everything alone fucking hurts cant breathe havent eaten day im going sick want fucking disappear all go sleep never wake up anything fucking kill already gone theough pain thought it thought didnt care suddenly heart breaks again fuck shit,1 +lets draw aaaaaaaaa httpsrwhiteboardfoxcom,0 +much money get from thats mine spend whatever not like parents savings meroth ira etc grandparents parents birthdays holidays etc would work tbh aware terrible sounds need already get tons grandparents id rather fun stuff friends,0 +holiday question yall ever open gift early christmas eve,0 +questioncan killing really makes things better me,1 +im failure human beingim year old student zero friends outside internet offline friend years im ugly despise everything appearance know never date cant even make friends first place im anxious confident enough party go act like people age spend weekends staying browsing internet thought supposed best years life ive wasted ill never happy people bullied abused right so im scum deserve good things,1 +got discord finally really sure mean even friends know got im honest lol,0 +took break reddit week oh god heck happening everyone getting awards free coins hello,0 +tonighttonight night im cutting bathtub really know why wish well,1 +frankly enjoy watching james caan wonderful actor simplicity know exactly hes thinking true probr br i watched show beginning found different thats something unique hollywood new idea rd version current hit show br br i also find show fun exciting i like pacing never bored especially like mystery episode way unfolds big mystery fan read lot great mysteries find stories show well written outcome rarely obvious also extremely interesting me probably gambler different cons gamblers come fascinated number schemes people come rob las vegas music like music top show absolutely perfect showsets tone atmosphere marvelous course james caan,0 +dont think im going make past id give nice long rant explanation honest im tired point dont emotional capacity think right now last year damn hard even without corona dont think next year going different im sure im even still alive idk much longer thats gonna case,1 +wrote will set noteshello all deeply frustrated myself freshman college dont know suicidal ideation ive years turned something else testament advanced directive short unofficial think suffice small fund set aside cover estimated costs well plan want done body post death specifics sent love postcards today without context distant friends feel incredibly guilty going dont think leave much hole wish could exist dont want attention dont want anyone make big deal gone specifics outlines that feel like burden want here ive nothing waste resources time money all incredibly self serving entitled overall garbage human forever never contributed anything interesting society dont think make lasting impression even years now earth turn without me,1 +doneim done phones dies im dying too gone long,1 +hold man finds jean harlow working class girl brooklyn falling con man clark gable getting kinds trouble film starts film time emphasis definitely switches characterbr br the film opens gable pulling street con game partner garry owen mark yelling cops hes chased gable ducks harlows apartment hes charming fellow shields himbr br before long involved unfortunately rackets gable harlow owen try pulling badger game drunken paul hurst gable go it course hurst realizes con hes still sore gets belligerent gable punch out winds dead outside harlows apartment platinum blond hair makes easy identify goes accomplice manslaughterbr br the rest film hers adjustment prison life interaction female prisoners give good scenes think material later used mgm classic cagedbr br harlow also gets title song done torch style ballad popular back days talksings manner sophie tucker quite well br br gable well cast con man develops conscience part hed play often notably favorite gable film honky tonkbr br still harlow gets shine film think one best mgm fans miss it,0 +ever hate inferiority complex mentally drains constantly compensate acting better end making feel like friends like acting towards others yeah,0 +friends pushed away attempted redflagi attempted redflag two weeks ago hospital friends texting dad asking im doing im high school got ignoring texts avoiding since got back school sure,1 +get dextrose yeast wap,0 +doctor said cannot increase propranolol dose panic attacks wants try citalopram redflag depression taken prozac before made feel robotic sertraline caused severe suicidal ideation decided stop taking it extremely suicidal right attempted several times past months worried citalopram going make even worse taken past currently taking it kind side effects experience beginning doctor wants try citalopram celexa,1 +step mr beast yall hoes got step prbly lol,0 +im disappointmenti feel empty useless know fact im disappointment family want want make family proud least feel good myself honestly want give hope rope break again,1 +so get vampyr mario d stars got bucks mario sale vampyr sale thats,0 +simply never tire watching freebird husband extra involved start kept touch jon helped promoting film cinemas dvd release even extent distributing promotional postcards cross channel ferries various places throughout france freebird expertly written directed perfect combination fun serious moments plus choice casting phil daniels could fit role grouch great privilege meet jon cast party following premier january anything else want jon ask either email phone know get me sue xx,0 +yr old friends yr old weird hes turns turn ,0 +little brother asked help this im completely colorblind cant tell difference ampxb httpspreviewredditxofcorpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbdfbcfdaefeccebc,0 +scream void 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language today years hope one day make another one still great comedians heard writing new script knows guess guys ones succeeded making decent movies genre wonder john ashcroft ever watched one them,0 +person freely talk hates mei severe anxiety disorder fighting depression while never suicidal thoughts saturday girlfriends birthday screwed up hurt feelings lot really good lot cant even look mirrors told wants breakup want us take time other break lastly try heal time ive living time usually talk people person bring problems thoughts everything cant now last hours idea jumping window parents apartment hitting car wall sparks head slow reaction think would done it afraid af dying cant stand leaving friends parents brother everything love sparks really scary known fragile life easy do talking guys seems help cant talk cant reach someone cant stand anymore point becomes new recurrent thought stands head fraction second listen something saying shows to,1 +love life every night cry room thinking redflagthis happening way often recently again currently crying bedroom love life cant stand mom reason get sleep ever reason trade pillows night mines already wet cant anything right eyes makes worst doesnt even know suicidal am constantly bombards shameful comments act like dont care shell use me loves love her thinks shes helping family turn better people shes really destroying it again love life within past week ive noticing much joy do ive realized everything makes depressed life her comes home late sisters everyday late night get bull crap always end day every night think writing last words grabbing knife try stand moms stupid ass comments tries play victim says feels attacked one days shes going kill herself know wont sorry post doesnt make much sense whatever came mind moment post writing however make feel lot better im going kill self know itll hurt makes oddly feel better too please one see comment writing reason making feel nice even jumbled up,1 +im going kill myselfwhat best painless way go pussy like alcohol medication etc sadly cant afford gun live jumping building train messy brutal family anymore im money im gonna homeless please try stop usual bullshit im looking quick advice remove earth,1 +one gives fuck accidentally select wrong answer kahoot one gives shit get kahoot question wrong you clicked wrong one never will felt like putting,0 +see pointlife seems pointless know one day ill die shitty pathetic death matter lived happy successful life sat room alone everyday die ill gone memory life eventually people life die forget too feel like im sitting around waiting die wasting space would rather get now talked anyone want seem like im trying get attention dramatic actually idea im posting here im sure theres lots people need help im wasting everyones time like always,1 +no matter good life live happy focus every bad decision ever made feel like im reason parents throats even live anymore terrible person sex addictionand need social interaction whenever think things want live maybe thought kids drives forward get tired getting help friends mind thats want remembered lifes getting less less easy thoughts frequent visualize die kind things id leave said idk great friends still feel alone,1 +please help mei feeling right now big depression top love life broke two weeks ago already wanted die right breakup tonight fight wants cut contact want live anymore cant even talk him find worth it never want go pain again want hear get better right now really dont know anymore feel like going outside hang tree right now,1 +going kill myselfhey bs ive past months realized shouldnt alive entire existence waste really shouldnt here im going end life im going corner store im gonna buy rope end fucking nightmare all even song im gonna listen im strangled death rope song httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvihmqcg im certain exactly want ive turned emotionless cunt desires care emotion passion anything want die badly even things get better still want die dont see ever happy again,1 +need sangwoo yeah might murderer hes fucking hot id let break legs ngl,0 +wherever go whomever talk see disgusting hypocrisy especially women like hate racism bash short ugly men have empathy help weak bash virginswomen morals really dont help support whats cool help support lack emotion compassion morals come emotion compassion like men moral built social dynamics hate women,1 +think potential best star trek series yet say potential know chance drop ball run ideas hope not seen itsee it without annoying prime directive floating heads every time encounter races could cool scott bakula without doubt great choice captain vulcan babe hot too check decontamination scenei gave full blows away series openers hope goes longer years,0 +give reasons keep living idk im trynna find some list replies pls,0 +hey awesome peoples need attentionhello amazing people let start saying im actually suicidal influx unread posts people need attention please help first im asking help redflag watch know know else go guess im suicidal sense would kill myself see anytime soon phrase bluntly mind dieing way guess thought dieing saddens me like way see somebody else miss bus like watching show realising sad part actually so mean feeling sadness there like rd person feelingif thats thing strong probably supposed be redflag im sure actually try would a lazy actually even move something b regret decision instantly least day two im posting rdepression feel like depression probably way probably fits criteria classifying such feel diffrently feeling indiffrent towards everything becouse dont extremely subtle sporadically isnt like thick veil heavy lazyness im anything feel like probably something cant bothered it something really feels like im spectating body stuff rather body moment want tell whoevers reading situation im feeling reason cant bothered actually type it despite falling loneliness guess want people respond maybe chat somebody seeing ive feeling way least years intesity keeps growing think random uninspired cry help attempt stop spiral one day might overcome laziness make stupid irreversable decision without expectations im secretly keeping fingers crossed miracle attention im gonna grab bottle wait here refreshing page something happens,1 +im considering redflag im weak itits driving crazy thinking time,1 +really enjoyed grey owl simple tale well told classic attenborough fashion little overromanticized archetypes humor stress dignity valuesbr br beautifully shot told nice pace true story archie englishman turned native indian went live trap canadabr br solid performances makes film message easy viewingbr br two stars film without doubt cutest ever seen message good one ecoleanings must great meet read grey owl s unique character fitting film tribute,0 +help please someone overdosed please post anything everything know linked post please httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentscrgclkurgent_advice_needed_how_to_help_someone_whenhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentscrgclkurgent_advice_needed_how_to_help_someone_when,1 +ayo tell grandma im bi im really good mood today ive kept secret long time im kinda scared wont understand really wanna tell since shes trust worthy,0 +hello emma guess wayokay sorry dosent belong here going try anyway guess need advice right now try keep back story short lived small village middle germany parents divorced lived mum guess emotionaly necelect since childhood big social issues whole life school lonly hell school got home locked room mostly dident even leave house mostly spend childhood front tv phone dident know better sadly yt videos podcasts realy simulate social live least wass hadi slowly got depressd ate unhealty my mum also obese got obese long remember kg yo finished idk called english realschulabschluss grade dident know that mentaly complete mess good physikal form started bvb berufs vorbereitende bildingsmanahme something like brige jear helps find job first time life social new start new people actually enyoud live actually started lose waight people actually wanted talk meit heaven okay let us start strange parti transgender i born maleafter lost moust waight social aktiv noticed things wrongthe first thing nothing gender guess mention anyway noticed atractet guys couse woman okay blushing sitting next hot guythen resurtch internet porn found lgbt lived small christian village school dident teach shit stuff hated months dident know gay bi anything exist even speak transgender people hrt know strange wrong okay that sorry post strange trying tell happend perspektivei found trans people everything resonated guess moust hatred still boady even lost waight could loved boady dident could simply describet hate boady male oktober bvb got put lockdown distance work some school work per emaili lost small social live finaly permanently every day room dident talked anything meaningfull mum mental state fastly deckend new low hated boady ever even looked like normal teenager okay lonlynes necelect enough simply wanted die vanish world thought hated boady becouse lost chance coin toss becouse fucked genes would even whit hrt never able pass becouse whide shoulders haight acces working medication plan cut open wrist bleed outmy mum somehow noticed something wrong probably got aggressiv constant mood swings finaly got appointment terrible terapist hoped fix me idk terapist dident help me listend dident give advice anythinglater idk seriusly fuck thank god two months ago got psycatrie finaly got fucking help nedet fucking good psycatrist actually helps talks gives advice worked thro lot past a lot witch wrote hereand small social live whit patientsi got relesed yesterday honest i living dad right future still planning everything okay right now probably going go new terapist still hrt figure future out least know still rest life whatever want it humans chapes boady positivity stuffi sorry sorry strange aweful grammar wanted write get heard sorry picturing mum bad mental medical problems guess dident know betterplease someone spare time would glad could talk please talk someone,1 +sometimes ok sit couch dog watch portuguese cartoons morning even understand portuguese sometimes ok thats cable bonus package,0 +u guys actually awkward talking opposite gender look im girl dont find hard talk guys im awkward anything talking them class guys except treat dont act weird talking me dont know people say online hard talk opposite gender what guys actually find hard talk gender,0 +hasnr post sub mins woried posted,0 +probably best place look help going ti selfish attempt validate myself wife cheated online physically trying stay together stupid yes ik happened really hostile easily annoyed her really snappy kind rude sometimes day asked get dido said why please you said sometimes j left work distant asked wrong said hurt said said said attention yesterday watching guys youtube wet reason all today really irritated get annoyed easily want love truly idk do sometimes feel like mentally well physically stuff mind watching rd person view like anymore cannot cry either tried happens get really mad jumbled mess sorry really want someone say fine something idk heart hurts feels empty point could watch bad things happen living things care like emotionless way weird idk going anymore,1 +god grace presence neither i came close eating honey bbq chicken wings pizza hut,0 +imagine participating nut november wow cannot relate sorry im gonna stay healthy smh,0 +im creating minecraft server hey whats everybody im wanting create minecraft survival server similar youtube series hermitcraft wanting see yall would interested members yet think would really fun get group us together probably around players create great server yall interested let know ill give information entire process,0 +man loneliness bitch compounds everything ive lot time observe mood behavior whenever im genuine friends healthy amount time per week im much optimistic energetic mood stable spend lots time alone inevitably become cynical lethargic stress compounds im likely procrastinate work extreme loneliness cause suicidal feelings sad ever since late high school pandemic spend much time alone hard time making lasting friends right least good friend tough battle spending time completely alone nowadays,0 +gotta love moms mom entirely convinced youtube red porn website,0 +im giving advice want say last five months learned many things especially summer lost pounds stopped using social media also became much happier im autistic used use food cope anxiety depressive episodes im going give tips help beautiful kings queens become healthier mentally physically get enough sleep go bed wake military time users thats eat healthier blend fruits veggies smoothies get nutrients one drink also try eat healthy throughout day well develop form exercise strength cardio routine bike miles days week also lift weights least every day along situps stop toxicity delete social media affecting life andor mental health find friends online real life find people becoming healthier nicer general thank reading this hope speech worth time sincerely uwhitericepatty,0 +weird practice redflagseems strange like gesture know keep trying find right pressure points block carotid artery jugular vein least amount discomfort decide actually strangle myself ugh,1 +dont try get helpobviously question directed try treat depression why think redflag tragic thing mind boggling someone sad even deepest urge strongest directive survive disregarded tragic whoever experiences feeling support redflag understand someone would want it depression once nothing like guys terrible state years infact months years even leave home constantly contemplate redflag without even trying get help question why got lose,1 +could go wrong take thisok pills stilnox zolpidem bromazepam tramadol put 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anxiety sets in go school im able focus due constant thoughts racing mind go home talk friend bit times lot bottled emotions come im starting feel bad talking day want break loop cease exist finish all sometimes days okay im starting feel like burden friend people around me fuck,1 +reddit option sort oldest posts like seriously ngl wouldnt interested seeing teens posted reddit ,0 +kids movie holes looks past incidents still affect us today whether know not teenager stanley yelnats iii shia leboeuf gets sent prison camp forced dig day long discovers number things camp personal connection it flashbacks learn number things closer realize youll understand better see movie leboeuf pretty good job cast members sigourney weaver jon voight tim blake nelson henry winkler patricia arquette eartha kitt interesting movie,0 +want cut bad want stab eye want cut arms up want cut penis want feel pain feel like falling back felt months ago want things want die death much easier would fail kill tried easily kill myself tempting nobody stop me want fucking burn feel real bad,1 +past years existed died mom didi think im hated think im drain know help myself feel like failure support system dwindled almost nothing feel like burden want leave dogs feel like need love love them show genuine love happiness ones need me want feel loved lot resentment toward me know make anything better else feel incapable one ive stuck rut lost lonely like burden like ive caused lot pain without meaning to im sure continue living mean well know say make anythinng better everything feels dark empty hopeless im young anymore time slipping away,1 +real talk even weird like bdsm stuff like nowadays ive never met anyone somewhat,0 +know fix myselfso staring submit page good hour wondering say ill say whats mind since im go party im sad very sad thats given since im here know get better girlfriend years off first year broke kinda set things motion hadhave shitty job family likes ex me keep trying things occupy mind soul crushing mind numbing physically exhausting depression everything kind just sucks everything love disinterests me bores me even worse makes sad people turn help sad themselves know cant handle anymore sadness life they feel im coming closer closer edge im losing grasp things think help want feel damn alone world stop feeling like everyones get me people care everytime anytime get comfortable people show interestcare life crumbles im feeling damn lost sad every day hoping this lowest life ever get theres way disappoint anymore does sorry im trailing off dont know say anymore thanks reading made far,1 +think understand suicidal people seem happier usual kill themselvesive tried change myself stop depressed time get make friends less lazy occasionally succeed always shortlived feel like im top world day two come crashing back shitty reality crash one hardest things deal with feels like life reminding matter do ill never happy cant pull hole im probably end good see way out,1 +whyso start little story life off years old months ago went spell wanted kill myself reason typing today friends sent farewell previous night texted mom let know going on back was except much much worse texting friends lot asking help fear death yet want die reason previous depression stage memories raped step brother resurfaced think about add onto that extremely introverted socially awkward causes prime subject bullying told several people kill even people used consider friends cherry cake girl ever loved said yes going date text till got boyfriend lead physical insecurities arising well sat bed weeks without eating yet still feel overweight despite people telling im not surfing internet looking bullsht reasons finally kill myself doubt anyone actually read even see this are kill myself,1 +start went kill last week got took temporary accommodation mom said could keep safe carers thinking helping reality full undercover police trying build case something even going say know think done questions like building happened day write note etc added think tried autism talk much incriminated myself know charges ill facing add speak much mental health fucked hear things bpd autism agoraphobia getting special treatment realised think intentions day going day word work think tried knowyes understand looks like instead trying help tried incriminate me family idea going either feel lost world bullied system probably going facing serious charges tried take life yes know looks like going specific building suicide note looks abit fishy authorities realised fuckedi bad person know cannot go say mental health know building casebro tried taking life day got rushed best hospital city got treated within mins like somebody want keep alive work like england especially state nhs inim scared fuck system set undercover police suicide attempt fuck system ,1 +honky mommy milkers plan,0 +guys think utherealborse robot comment apple maybe theyre robot,0 +really know sayi biggest exams life 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+know happenedi know say right now life changed completely cant handle it ive receiving treatment depression since teenager im ive accomplished nothing started working quit mental health started college quit halfway degree approved social security disability shortly that leave house unless see doctor friends acquaintances none three years ago realized much loneliness affecting life posted reddit ended meeting guy life changed meeting him wanted things future got along really well ended meeting person months talking fell love broke week ago were still contact daily still love other still wants work improving life see well said needs time important things needs buy car wants look buying home recently nightmare situation landlord really things doubt thats real reason ending dated teenager early s different anyone ive before made feel loved improving life without even realizing made feel great met showering month good place light brought life just indescribable taking care myself showering daily chores around places going shopping going eat running errands everything normal people do made want better person life improving much doctor noticed mom noticed knew mental health problems support gave always perfect cant handle emotions right im scared thoughts heading ive miserable half life three years pure happiness suddenly taken away without warning warning coming person life whole support system want die broke me much that many things cant put words like im heading need help feel losing live every day everything taken away me least met him idea real happiness was idea missing gone energy try again feel like im capable handling this feel stupid thoughts feel like able handle mutual breakup im adult much breakup gave much strength fight depression work myself im left dealing depression heartbreak know fault putting much trust another person need help im close giving,1 +sooo something tragic happened jack black shaved here video httpsyoutubeqmlraimhem,0 + coins someone gives wearing caring award trophy you appreciate yall filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +sucksi survived th redflag attempt take anymore took lot energy finally slit wrist bled hour two saved this tired end twice day last year october ampxb much big failure cant even succed fucking redflag attempt despite trying times fucking want live anymore deserve live,1 +face willy,0 +fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkim fuckinng hopless ugly wanna die fucking bad please need someone,1 +im going use shotgun better mouth side headputting barrel mouth easier im sure effective die shooting mouth besides putting hole back head want right side head probably effective extremely difficult do im afraid use one hand hold pull trigger kind kickback going fuck think get foot around use toe pull trigger lol,1 +started typing notei plan anything really really see things ever getting good want be feel like prisoner life want me want go back time stop becoming now even better born another famiy one without narissist one real family love connection ive isolating years know social noone seems want around like way look like direction life going in envious many people even take care anymore want things much better see happening hate much im verge tears feel like noone truely understand extent much hate past aand life going now want someone else badly want forget life ever happened start over im fucked up alone pathetic want takes telling people want kill take seriously love help me,1 +really need talk thisive really bad time recently im unbearably shamed myself ive silently suffering porn addiction ive found embarrassing ive unable find courage get help last night girlfrien came across internet history absolutely furious promised stop watching porn feel humiliated level unbearable feel like cant get help anywhere people judge talk it im feeling like redflag viable option moment really cannot turn anyone help anyone could please help way id appreciate it cant stand this,1 +bro im gonna work mum scared tell stop playing video games also get ladies hits two birds one stone,0 +cancel culture again another year cancelled jacking off cant believe this oppression men,0 +ever actually talk back mom regret later like always end regret seems lowkey hurt fault ask eat im eating things important food apparently im good son ill one day ig ,0 +rteenagers doesnt let teenager mean seriously think care title interesting standards let title post loving fact slow dont wait npcs final fantasy remake ff,0 +question plagued brain months think year old self proud current self,0 +gonna happen somedayi dont know how dont even know im posting this maybe want heard even theres nothing anyone change feel ive gone flat used sad used get angry ive happy comfort ive felt feelings dont words for used try convince change perspective even believe level insanity create imaginary will already lived life ive loved ive minutes fame ive traveled met amazing people way crash course living meaningful life gone great experiences distracted me never really felt different ive tried everything soul given up im practically already dead satisfy others selfishness taxes feel coming whenever think time brings sense peace eventually finally go move next stage world become vurtual me scripted bland already know say know wont change anything way sense enlightenment know theres nothing anyone say me nothing anyone planet me mind mine already know hearts deepest pain nothing forever know random probably good day rather bad one everyone say feel need say im gone maybe heard,1 +got rejected today point bullet brain get withim m im biggest loser world im fat im ugly im stupid im worthless im essentially waste space want connection girl theres single girl earth would even want talk im practically dead inside im like ghost now point wanna die cant even get bed impossible pick head move know future holds hopefully tonight ill get drunk enough gain courage end,1 +like go done bell invites me hear not duncan bell summons thee heaven hell maybe im insane one best quotes ive seen like yeah guy murder king still macbeth shakespeare,0 +experiences youngest hear many people say being youngest best theyre always treated like god though agree true families exact opposite me house im always every little thing around house nearly every chore annoying stuff parents brother considered adult recently turned hes treated like hes best hes learning decimals community college experience youngest best,0 +gaslit family life feels like im doomed go forever nowso whats point would even matter im gone people dont care enough make feel way embarrassing ive let trick thinking theyd care want control happens p,1 +whywhy happen luckier,1 +friends called police memy friends called police telling ever need someone talk there lost job nd amendmentand put debt oven dignify response try talk them left worse position asked help im lost point,1 +laws weird apparently youre allowed shoot hoops basketball court 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people know cringe except franch boy,0 +dont know dotheres nothing else rest life till something it,1 +uselesspeople exist ones worry eating certain things might cause negative reaction body causes die ones cant learn effectively interpret words differently fault somewhere dna disease causes read words differently people ones live environment cruel would punishment sentient being am human bounds one abused growing up one could never say im hungry nothing eat one could proclaim something educational could afford parents made every effort able learn anything wanted to able amount anything am nothing thats im worth nothing failed society stupidity failed people cannot afford learn something know ones would wish might able learn something anything able propel species forward cannot denied resources some resources chances every single opportunity afforded society might ask squandered away like stupid impulsive creature am could look towards future determine something offer world body would eventually decay feed earth done everything correctly doubt mind could contributed society could helped somebody eaten weeks become better could valuable society would never indispensable could become nice cog machine dubbed humanity instead live life days could been days been thing currently deserve death even torture way could ever hope possibly amount sins committed offer nothing world result,1 +got called perv girl class told watched euphoria make sense,0 +say is fall love big little edie watching movie human even watching first time hooked mesmerizing experience difficult describe im sure fans attest to watching it cry think two wonderful ladies longer us least grey gardens remember them think long possess fierce independence two ladies graced with although always admired jackie onassis kennedy stay heart way big little edie do rare treat know people wish had,0 +think might end life sooni dont know anymore feel stuck alone need help dont know get that,1 + ready give up want get 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fzzrjhgttejnpjgugzuijgfuhdojgz day think want change bedding every day fucking amazing change every days want feeling everyday day like cats cats cute day im hungry tired get up day like trains day like planes day today witnessed someone getting pulled m deep canyon helicopter day today yeeted waterfall day want found country day want yeet waterfall day e day day spanish inquisition day day p day day r day day day scam dont buy day buy minecraft instead day thinking erections public worse problem erection public day henry stickmin popular again day day even day qwertzuiop asdfghjkl yxcvbnm day big pp say bought microsoft flight sim day installing hours now day done day already spetember day big toe long pinky finger time thiccer thumb day want socialice hard rn usually hate talking ppl day half year mark getting closer day like trees day like cats day like dogs day today talked girl day d printer isnt working day think im way making female friend day im making progress day like apples day im running iut ideas write day e day ww lasted day like pizza day talked different girl today day like spaghetti too day use ecosia plz thx day u dont use ecosia ur stupid,0 +jeff bezos looks like fucking testicle makes sense cause hes massive dick,0 + cool facts house cats ahhhhh oh god fyck fycj siiwbsiwkwbuwownwj bones crushed god help hear demons scream god looks eye oh oh ahwhhwhwhwhhhahahah ahhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhh,0 +tonight planive wanting two years ive said many bad things people ive treated people like shit life girlfriend broke yesterday wants someone didnt hurt like did month together trying hard better since constantly blew never gave time day acknowledging love years completely disregarding fact note ready songs planned release tonight farewell idea im going it idea use ropelike restraints used sex honestly dont want suffer idk would hangstrangle myself despite half assed cords want madness,1 +seems people like steven seagal take look nomination list razzie awards nominations with one win him think earn anything it saw good movies steven seagal saw bad movies steven seagal patriot one best movies nearly good siege hard kill patriot shows activities protect nature surely movie great one must say violence like must seagals best friend l q jones die death victim role dr mcclaren one seagals best performances has always good charisma summary patriot good entertainmentand average rating points underrated movie timebr br regards hansdieter,0 +pups dog birthed chewed damn internet boxs wire internet use phones data type gt hella pissed rn play singleplayer minecraft computer,0 +im never going positive influence anyones life wayhaving promise youll stop talking folks dont make feel shit good feeling still even point ill go walk town tomorrow see easily get flats skyscrapers guess considering im still ill pussy time well edit pussied time well,1 +think teenagers sentiments days compared before wanted get perspectives fellow teens,0 +tired lying everything going ok everything getting even worse trying stay positive better person keep hurting people love people saved ending life feel awful tried everything self improvement seems like nothing happening fucking done cannot stand anymore,1 +hate livingi hate waking everyday going work hours week make jack shiti hate cannot even look forward relationship get tired much go home sleep again supposed happy life nothing happy for tell someone want wake anymore tell everyone like work hardjust keep fighting look future head would know easy easy look future suck up tired waking slave away rich peoplei tired numb broken inside time relationshipi tired made feel like reacting feel way want keep,1 +want end itreflecting horrible treatment ive got lack ability anything meaningless all dont see going much longer without ending it im willing it keep fucking soon ill finally come end,1 +congrats me reached first karma hard journey ive lost karma total since joined still made it,0 +creep straight serious horror film set real time wants nothing show people get attacked empty subway platform mutant minutes that nothing more nothing less director christopher smith draws drama far plausibly introducing series characters would actually reason subway locked also leaves origins titular creep deliberately vague unlawful experiments happening s underground hinted at little bit mystery works part sadly undermines toward end actually holding back twist ending genetic malformations would appear they hinted well yes heard right wanted clichd twist ending franka run lola run potente good terrorized female lead rest cast fine,0 +concussionbraininjurycant anymorei masters degree going national master title chess fast quick sharp funny fluent now im shadow former self dulled genetic downgrade im months post concussion intellectgone male ive thought concussion every single day since incident multiple times day,1 +know sadness hello all talk u want mad bored heart horny 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exactly reset everyday wish would stop death sounds like peaceful happy state long happiness truly happy years even know feels anymore showering brushing teeth functioning human activities pointless me care anything make plans might tomorrow care possessions going need them want endgetting help horrible firstly need admit something right thoughts normal need tell others feels like convincing problem call problem everyone sees infact solution problems others see it people say permanent solution temporary problem problem temporary delaying inevitable going die someday want happen sooner rather later fuck world everyone honestly care life constant suffering small instances happiness start taking medication lucky works often not still feel even worse go psychiatrist tell entire lifes story even parts never told anyone feel beter walk room last long right back old self constantly trying fix exhausting see results makes everything worse begin think worth give up way easier end yet keep trying day many times going able catches youi tired tired pretending ok tired pretending give fuck tired thoughts tired putting work fix even know fixed ask way time wish normal maybe even bit closer bottom iq range maybe would accept everything is laugh peoples stupid jokes pathetic human stuff normal feel alive one big dream honest real difference reality dreams maybe kill finally wake dreamfuck worldi want pretend anymorei depression never understand want give advice tell suck go fuck yourself inside mind suicidal person,1 +saw film resfest floored ive never huge fan scratching film hooked getgo listed documentary never really felt like one cant remember last time much fun watching documentary style energy refreshing insightful never preachy production values too shot film cool cuts amazing soundtrack overall smart entertaining enlightening piece,0 +think im donehavent figured when ive mostly done math how access oxy alcohol weed to prevent throwing up math right painful ill pass wake up wrong ill wake hangover try again im tired im tired medical issues im tired really living existing enough cant hang around like half remembered pet others sad little die longer get pleasure reading writing watching tv movies get high make day bearable temporary problems pass days months even years medical issues permanent debilitating access gun probably would done ago,1 +normal people hope posts gets hot me put award post people think good way get hot,0 +anyone like horny anything im definitely,0 +one greatest s movies sticks like turd punchbowl cant believe mad magazine denounced whatever yet proudly put name show stuart ispeakanoenlish chinese lady ups guy speed whats that and love ron leibmanhes foxy wonder name removed credits funniest role know of course hes nearly foxy norma rae but opinion movie right national lampoons vacation liked movies porkys fast times last american virgin s teenfocused movies love one rent see mean,0 +need encouragementthis account throwaway need encouragement guess im pretty alone here moved husband family got military years ago my bio family exactly gay friendly year awful physically well one day never health issues life went er first time due intense stomach pains thought going mind entire time cant afford this even thought dying yes im american insurance theres way afford medical bill plus car bill employer cut hours half st year yesterday informed next week id getting one hour shift lost damn mind yelling threw item stormed like child thankfully business opened informed today terminated ive fired job first time life im s cant even hold job stock boy ive struggled depression long ive never money see anyone did things seemed fine awful telling husband trying positive ityou stood yourself youre going get better job everything going ok know thats truelike know heart nice thing hear really believe it cant stop thinking much better husband family would without me awful thoughts leave head believe them every second struggle go garage know do depression feel like cant even stand let alone shake off get going control terrifying feel broken compared guy iraq getting shot atrocketedmortared remained calm cucumber feel like im bad life want anymore want feel like this feel like redflag would bring peace finally awful feeling would stop know thats selfish im rambling ill stop thank reading,1 +like people talked around day memorable stuff gets echoed head loud everytime think life cannot get worse gets worse even trying every time close eyes echos keep screaming,1 +girlfriend residential rn days talk someone really need talk story behind it filler filler filler,0 +feel life coming closemy life right feels like last pages book honestly im done trying hold off tried kill christmas eve didnt work thought itd least give hope didnt zero friends major social anxiety aspergers cant even fucking decide gender am face covered acne scars rest body covered razor bumps self harm scars felt literally nothing tried kill myself didnt even cry next time probably same hopefully fucking works maybe people might acknowledge existence probably not though,1 +imagine humanoid skirt caption might well give shot image black text surrounded white box funniest shit ive ever seen lol,0 +suck police right now nwa court full erect judge dre presiding case nwa vs police department prosecuting attorneys are mc ren ice cube eazy motherfuckin e order order order ice cube take mothersuckin stand swear tell truth whole truth nothin truth help black ass you goddamn right well tell everybody suck gotta say suck police comin straight underground young nigga got bad cause im brown color police think authority kill minority suck shit cause aint one punk motherfucker badge gun beatin on thrown jail go toe toe middle cell suckin cause im teenager little bit gold pager searchin car lookin product thinkin every nigga sellin narcotics rather see pen lorenzo rollin benzo beat police shape im finished bring yellow tape tape scene slaughter still gettin swole bread water know fgs search nigga down grabbin nuts hand without gun cant get none let black white one cause theyll slam ya street top black police showin white cop ice cube swarm mothersucker blue uniform cause im cpt punk police afraid me huh young nigga warpath im finished gonna bloodbath cops dyin la yo dre got somethin say suck police suck police suck police suck police example scene one pull goddamn ass right now aww shit fuck pullin for cause feel like it sit ass curb shut suck up man suck shit aight smart ass im takin black ass jail mc ren please give testimony jury sucked incident suck police ren said authority niggas street majority gang whoever im steppin mothersuckin weapon kept stash box socalled law wishin ren nigga never saw lights start flashin behind theyre scared nigga mace blind shit work laugh gives em hint step path police im sayin suck you punk readin rights shit junk pullin silly club stand fakeass badge gun hand take gun see whats well go it punk ima suck up make think ima kick ass drop gat rens gonna blast im sneaky suck comes crime im smoke em next time smoke mothersucker sweats asshole threatens im sniper hell scope takin cop two cant cope mothersuckin villain thats mad potential get bad suck ima turn around put clip yo sound yeah somethin like depends size gat takin police would make day nigga like ren give suck say suck police suck police suck police suck police yeah man need police open now aww shit we warrant eazyes arrest get put hands see em what suck do man do just shut suck get mothersuckin ass floor but shit man shut suck up eazye step stand tell jury feel bullshit im tired mothersuckin jackin sweatin gang im chillin shack shinin light face what maybe kick much butt kick ass maybe cause blast stupidassed nigga im playin trigger uzi ak cause police always got somethin stupid say put picture silence cause identity causes violence e criminal behavior yeah im gangsta still got flavor without gun badge ya got sucker uniform waitin get shot another nigga gat matter hes smaller bigger size aint shit hes old school fool know es rule whenever im rollin keep lookin mirror ears cue yo hear dumb mothersucker gun im rollin hell one take out get away im drivin laughin ill say suck police suck police suck police suck police the verdict jury found guilty redneck white bread chicken shit mothersucker but wait thats lie thats god damn lie get here i want justice get suck face i want justice out right now suck you black motherfuckers suck police suck police suck police,0 +feel like im completely alonei friends anymore friends stopped talking expressed im kind struggling mental health area my friends conservatively religious felt like mental health issues meant somebody praying hard enough due social anxiety severe body dysmorphic disorder hard go put there especially going college really feel like fit in im twenty never sort relationship guy ive never even real guy friends horrible relationship father never made feel important worthy pretty things guess assume thats men think me im really sure im huge introvert need alone time crave human connection none moment see point really im sad upset angry dad myself general im therapy im medication try sit around feeling sorry myself fact none working makes feel like time leave know,1 +plans weekendi wanted end weekend seeing parents liverpool siblings i sister friends over way could im planning end next saturday know easy access im going use thought dying still scares me thought so itll seconds pain im writing note even want to would actually care went through would care read actually take heart defense is people would sad reason would sad know someone nearby died know ill make another post ive said everything ive to wish best dealing depression issues may facing please try avoid fate like mine deserve it,1 +masturbation okay wanted come say women shamed masturbating want tell okay so thought disgusting long isnt normal many girls it dont talk considered taboo never told anyone masturbated considered disgusting still dont tell people know okay that,0 +im done washing dishes mofos time reddit next hrs till im bored,0 +dont know go on shouldwhen moved different school suddenly got really bad first experienced social phobia eventually got bad cried threw every time went outside wasnt able go school fucked grades missed percent classes ocd came eating disorder managed get help started taking zoloft almost two years now got better yes still feel like shit parents alcoholics im attached them fucking rollercoaster make feel loved cherished theyre sober feel theyre best parents anyone could ever dream of happens something dies within me summer graduating high school attempted move city far mine far painful period life never felt bad still aware parents ruining life made fucked way felt like couldnt live without side love much hurts think much love them hurts think people would violently die horrible things towards me moved back wasnt able go uni still trying things still trying study contact best friends getting weird im sure frienship anymore yesterday dog died got her stray skinny little diaster wasnt even able eat drink herself took home dirty first thought brownish fur turned pure white couple spots baby sweet little baby smart shy would always come cried cling knees sat there silently years old god still cant believe gone cant fucking gone baby baby sweet little baby gone friends said nothing understood first know pretty well hard might show empathy managed hurt even more why for for spoke mom today extremely drunk still is reminded awful child am shitty person am loss dog feels last things holding vanishing things making happy second now only dog video game live asshole russia bad here really really bad grey pointless whole setting pushing towards ending all tragically funny humans hypersensitive creatures live world doesnt give single fuck feelings go on go on even go on dont know anything anymore want rest want stop want catch breath,1 +creepy randomly start talking someone dont know like start casual conversation mean irl btw,0 +family fucking insensitive dont care uncle assaulting mei raped piece shit pedophile uncle barely anything done it thought restraining order dont tell shit always invite over let around young nieces nephews cousins dont fucking care hes family hes struggling make ends meet whatever actually pay work around house fucking tell parents sister makes uncomfortable sister doesnt care problem dont get piece shit used touch kid too get bad anxiety looking him fucking triggers end come home house knowing im going run rapist day not dont know fuck anymore one listen me make feel like im crazy one wanting come over make feel like shit suggesting ask leave parents solution stay house leaves go hours end unless im work shouldnt leave anyways dont know fuck much anxiety rn want fucking cut hate everything feel sick,1 +cant anymoreim honestly sick trying reasons im still my boyfriend i realized easy kill yourself im scared dont know anymore cant put problems people right really want die cant it hurts much one understand see it wish wanted alive dont every single day wake wanting go back sleep want sleep forever dont want anymore dont know do im sorry im like this,1 +ai really hard time around people ive always quiet especially people know well feel like gotten worse years sensation observed considered people know well think tires much stay inside time avoid much human contact possible get almost joy anything do fleeting feeling im depressed time cant even imagine possible scenario able support way lead killing months worked super market independent study highschool took much interact many people daily basis things required spent money earned second got way could justify forcing go work quit month two one day manager told greet people enough stand front door greet every customer came half hour told time quit called work told quit worked construction friend mothers month highschool planned earning enough money pay year language school japan one things sounded interesting me little bit better working supermarket felt place mentally draining there way going able entire year pay trip put request information marine corps website day got call recruiter next day lunch break job site agreed go work that gave boss two weeks notice said come want anymore long process actually get military start paperwork took year total actually go bootcamp since get waiver eczema have took asvab got said qualified every job going take anything infantry told much started going training sessions recruiting office year later im bootcamp hating life everyone hates life bootcamp really unexpected go school infantry hate life too graduate weeks training weeks guard night shift walking around dark hiding porta shitters trying freeze death especially cold days time got call mom stepfather month went vaction hawaii week came back dog gone lived california suburbs two years took country stay us new stepfathers loved dog person ever known never really able forgive mother leaving caring enough put daycare week never told though suffered loss silence went recon training month graduating dropped buddy told going quit convince otherwise wasted away holding company couple weeks fleet went got sent unit buddy got put different platoons basically never anything together again think bothered much really disappointing me hated pretty much everything fleet nothing common peers got punished time things do things people nothing us did seniors barely older us year longer liked treat us awfully deployment already played around dirt exact things somewhere else instead thought killing many times throughout life point never attempted anything already plans fail hating existence much did see way could manage another years knew nothing afterward tried shoot head one ranges lot harder pull trigger hoped going be bunch people care trying talk it well one old squad leaders thought okay really fair people start talking situation like that much wanted to thought would really rude coat brain matter middle trying talk me eventually someone snuck took gun removing glove thinking might well feel sensation pulling trigger shooting head since last thing im ever going do spent next days psych ward started long process getting administratively separated spent last months bouncing appointments nothing lost mind broke hand concrete wall days supposed separated got sent psych ward another week finally got separated day released im back home taking community college courses still cant see anything could ever imagine doing going class makes depressed nervous possibility group work interact people skipped class today since muster motivation go going kill myself know exactly im capable im required live almost joy life minimal responsibilities depress end path sustain capable frankly reason to people miss me gives mental distress im going guilted living cant force live rest life depression severe life meaningless spend every moment consciousness wishing never born know im posting whether delete later want sympathy life hardly awful really know else do,1 +struggled redflag depression years part managed it decent life support system past years everything life gone completely downhill one thing another think cannot get worse does started began get panic attacks every day social redflag took deep dive college dropped out managed classes since then mom started vision problems years ago due negligent doctor failed inform corneal disease since teen rapidly progressing watched go top specialists week week years every treatment option failed always best friend rock watching go this unable anything horrible recently mental health took big turn worse call twice get psych hospital past months truly person left though closest family members died unexpectedly rest family give fuck despite efforts reach out dad worst all lost friends absolutely terrified mom wish bad could something actually help her selfishly mental health time worse never felt alone scared life think suicide every minute come plan college degree barely work history hope actual future lost one person could got anything cannot burden mom everything going through see therapist every week zero help recommended residential therapy program month feel like worth try problem cannot leave mom enough vision basic things cannot drive needs right now one else family understands cares enough even call her feel trapped hopeless terrified know makes selfish person know need suck help mom fuck know keep going like this see way,1 +im scared ill kill myselfive living depression five years getting worse ive talked therapist thinks would best went psych ward want talk suicidal thoughts although ive told im afraid them told beyond abilities help me ive committed psych ward twice help me gave meds made feel like zombie treated like guinea pig repeat that everyday feels like theres less less hope im really scared close friends talk family,1 +getting feelings outi mostly feel dead empty emotion ever feel annoyance anxiousness resisting urge drink somehow made weekend hard kept justifying reasons mind drink saw guy walking holding six pack beer jealous him felt okay him okay me still drink though want to want judgement so still fantasy killing strong image tying belt around neck plays head im afraid pain im afraid people think im sure yet think anything here see point strength make effort,1 +school presentation presentation supposed yourself damn hard task since om normal person normal life im basically harem protagonist every anime without harem interesting personality,0 +a bugs life like favorite candy bar chockfull great little bits add something really tastybr br the story better clever heart emotion every character nice arc a growth change comparison characters toy story arc buzz learns love toy woody overcomes resentment buzz tons laughs cute moments a bugs life actors turn great voice work animation motion detail superbbr br this serious movie buff throw around s lightly movie certainly deserves gave it,0 +dark thoughts think redflag live first floor balcony work would leave dad work mom meeting room taking bath cant go rooftop balcony since locked would jump highest place adjacent stairs know explain place every floor clearly remember view there beautiful used something ugly right know would go see beautiful view stop know would go back give excuse left tell taking picture locked door redflag survivors said immediately regret jumpingtaking pill would too right damn easy wouldbe mom dad would soo mad killed myself live society now would many rumors would remembered someone ruined life talking inconvenient funeral would would sister attend it would mom dad force sister attend pathetic would right would come news quickly people move say covid since easy explanation relatives wonder tuition teachers would reactthey remember maybe would girl died maybe would think simply stopped coming tuition since obviously cut it tuition teachers would sad right care tho hope die impact dont hope still survive would dogs find body first since one leaving house suspect maladaptive daydream dreaming disorder syndrome would night day night would solve problem beautiful view curfew streetlights dogs would definitely find body first case would sad like would amounted anything ever like one light goes out sky billion stars quicker would care would would mom would dad would grandfather would maid would friends would guys say like me would guys suspect crush would school friends would childhood school friend would tuition friends would tuition teachers would school teachers would school friends would dentistfav youtube fav music group etc hope later energy share little backstory looking sympathy kinda wrote dairy wanted share since show family members sharing sorry paragraph hope u nice daynight,1 +cant believe texas went f like f week fucking hell texas weather unpredictable cant make shut up huge jump,0 +long time always thought something wrong bc voice head never shuts up constant thing want take meds bc want feel crazy tell crazy want feel way anymore amp feel alone even not struggling,1 +honestly mind friendzoned means finally friend breathing manually,0 +dear liberals biden great president gf leave me,0 +fellas weird want girl call lord deadass weird want girl call that highly important question promise,0 +help exists peoplei really want scream feel like kitty genovese right now lot people know im suicidal care people see write disturbing things facebook wall scroll nothing real friends family dead years hate strangers say take life youll hurting people around you hurting who demand know four years battling cancer one person visited hospital one person accompanied doctors appointment real friends would isolate like this caring people act im sick world cant stand everyone like this reached hundred redflag prevention organizations refused help me respond gave redflag prevention hotline thats always jammed actually get arent helpful rush you goes crisis text line many organizations accept huge donations makes wonder money going cant help personally direct one number text line god feel helpless im trying hard getting anywhere contacted organizations different states got touch many facilities insurance nothing psychiatrist offices called longer accepting patients many places booked give number given hundred times really isnt fair past helped friends breakups abusive relationships helped financially car payments rent utilities vet expenses everyone now didnt help expect something return im really im really needing helping hand black hole one help me dont know anymore reach out im lost im much panic world uncaring cruel help seems exist people everyone wheverer forum social media site page post would see others similar situation reaching help ignored many people ended life proof everywhere people ignore it ask didnt give us warning place choose turn way thousands redflag awareness pages useless actual redflag person comes along make excuse theyre spreading awareness help people guy different country posted wanted carry shooting women ignored bullied school facebook nothing got automated doesnt violate guidelines message im sure posting make difference want keep trying maybe one person listen able help me want help desperately,1 +understand people hopei think anymore ive cutting almost years struggle eating disorder experience psychosis im depressed everyday sit alone interactions wandering mind thinking awful things want myself bottle alcohol rope ceiling fan think im going get drunk hang tonight ive telling things get better so so many fucking years theyve ever gotten worse live nothing interest friends hobbies little family interactions cant keep fucking it attempted overdose since live alone nobody find me,1 +getting betterbut worse ever dont know safe please help cant take anymore please help please please please please please meant cant take im done,1 +people say i would miss youdoes anyone else feels suicidal actually get little upset people say things like redflag selfish if killed would upset lot understand lot people commit redflag think one would care case helpful way would feel someone said ive never told anyone im suicidal want upset them theyre taking pain making feel feel guilty mindset would trying help almost feel like everyone wants alive actually care whether im living ive much pain long even good reason nothing seems make happy sometimes know strong future ahead probably alone everyone moves gets married families feel like want die im older im now going go downhill then friends enough going miss much no feel like deserve lonely pain years everyone content knowing im breathing also really want die,1 +think used get attached easily try deny week something made think get attached way easily mean used think think back like even often would almost anything keep friend loose one fault get either overly sad angry opposite getting attached kinda feel like meno thats star wars reference fuckers try realize times try deny mindset think back lot times maybe least incidents mindset last months so,0 +life become motley crue song depression girls hitting me seems little good true,0 +think give upim cut life wish were really probably called quits years ago,1 +havent skipped day wearing retainer night month im kind proud bc managed make habit freaking bc didnt wear retainer months got braces removed thought teeth would go back way used to really hard get used first hurt shit ton hurt less less teeth look back way right got braces removed orthodontist would proud bc never wore rubber bands braces lol anyways wanted say bc havent missed single day im happy teeth look rn im glad suddenly decided wear retainer bc could ended get braces possibly kinda learned get good habit experiencenot huge thing retainer lmao got thinking seems impossible first first couple weeks becomes second nature maybe could quit bad habits pretty much impulsive way,0 +everything messmy entire life mess well paying job hate im fairly certain company going go bankrupt soon writing walls sure mass layoffs including work best friend honestly like father figure me still talk him seeing regular basis people left company miserable fear jobs surrounding negativity making depression x worse im looking jobs luck yet found one decent would almost cut pay half simply cannot do despite decent salary cant seem save money things always pop vet bills higher normal electric bills car stuff etc emergency fund always gone soon reestablish it hate apartment loved one point awful neighbors moved construction began outside window there multimillion dollar homes built right next complex construction literally days per week hours per day never sleep causing become increasingly irritable ive spent almost trying buy noise canceling products oh woke gas siphoned car friday asked switching another unit would transfer fee higher rent want break lease itll fee many friends days married kids chose career im slowly catching up think realized lonely career focused life would be also feel like everyone knows always annoyed me im point even know bother anymore feel like control anything life much change happening once,1 +feel incredibly sad talk someone please,1 +check friends stream lolz want httpswwwtwitchtvcasperqfhttpswwwtwitchtvcasperqf filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +surgery three days instead want die firstlife worth living full stop desire get better surgery days time going make suffering life worth time need find final method cannot fail im interested recovery anything hope me story violently abruptly dying wasting potential pot gold end rainbow want sadness wasting ripple forever beautiful nothing else matters achieve it help find right way,1 +know see cousins theres first bit awkwardness wish could skip like first hour awkward guys chillin,0 +im need somebody talk im here wether want talk suicidal thoughts bad day need get something small chest im want talk,0 +im never good enoughno matter do im good enough im constantly trying hardest get rejected life hard one support either say get job try say want nothing talking try military paperwork past year try colleges never give information need even support one love love on theres literally point life fail everything one wants me idk besides die ill probably fuck,1 +social media validation thing people actually value world reading tweet someone felt like invisible got thousands thousands likes replies famous actors whatnot yet continued say validation wasnt important part all bullshit say thats anyone cares about validation attention many people feel invisible world theres point even trying theyll never noticed another sad truth isnt it,0 +drinking help redflagnot death alcoholism help alcohol make easier hang something,1 +need help bypass screentime iphone,0 +late forties era screwball comedy over films moving different direction comedically otherwise television looming horizon hollywood would soon rough time where one wonders would movies gone television come along arrival scene delayed five ten years mr blandings builds dream house offers one particular way comedy might developedbr br ad man jim blandings along wife two daughters living nice way cramped new york city apartment one day gets bright idea might fun realize dream building house suburbs buys property connecticut one built precise specifications well almost known trouble might changed mind might have decide frail premise wonderful film results full conflict middle class dream owning ones home oftentimes unpleasant reality acquiring one nothing comes easy life mr blandings learns one miserable things always go ones way is all long run but blandings asks every minutes long longbr br this movie delight not suppose masterpiece capramccarey tradition worthy successor thirties pictures may well harbinger things come arrival television changed cultural landscape radically real warmth picture good deal wc fieldsian hardedged reality obtruding periodically much leave bad taste people film smart affluent decidedly professional upper middle idle rich upper classbr br lead players cary grant myrna loy plays mr mrs blandings perfection melvyn douglas fine pragmatic lawyer friend often bring unpleasant topics real world works is too wonderful sense want better term one might call romance suburbia infancy immediate postwar years one sees woods streams drew people country first place people definitely fish water still largely rural connecticut short years things would change mad rush suburbia would full gear destroying forever pastoral innocence many yearned small towns soon would connected highways littered bottles cans effluvia rivaling anything one would encounter city,0 +anyone actually found helpful crisis line contactive tried different ones every time id end conversation feeling worse times need support cant talk therapist need something whats actual helpful one yall experience with in us id prefer texting online chat,1 +tried couple different ssri medications doses since october still intense amp lengthy episodes depression amp occasional mania feeling self destructive urges amp suicidal tendencies coming back moved crosscountry rv currently looking getting help amp possible diagnoses mental issues feel really place alone stagnant unwanted almost everyone life also think really need take break internet find focus getting better especially people talk online seem far less invested them hurts anyways going try that wish luck best luck dealing similar things alone heard felt understood loved thank amp best wishes all taking break,1 +book life martin donovan plays jesus shows jfk airport december usher new millennium battling thomas jay ryan satan deciding fate world also david simonds kurt accountant amateur compulsive homeless gamblerbr br as usual hartley creates surreal world beauty ordinary made strange otherworldly flows artfullyframed scenes urbanindustrial landscapes filled dazzling light shadow usual introduces seemingly incidental details early brings back later hilarious unexpected contextsthe humor simple giddy irrepressible hartley amazing ability build toward small rapturous moments simultaneously mundane outrageous usual creates tone jaded worldweary time vulnerable open honest moves within minutes uproarious humor language metaphysical poeticthe kind writing deadon perfect difficult hold back tears despite lack obvious emotion another awesome highly entertaining film book life shot a digital camera blurry effect sense celestial handinhand impending doom hyperawareness present fragile fleeting last moments hartleys films way prioritizing present unique effect compounds images wash across screen way first jarring becomes increasingly beautiful settle it final shot spectacular may sound precious film comedy makes fun even makes fun concept armageddon judgment day urbanity although actually quite profound moving lifeaffirming part lighthearted playful acting flawless terms kind subdued tone hartley developed films a tone people get prompts judge acting hollowthe people negative response peter greenaway always bound people respond film cynicism scornpeople put hartleys abrupt shifts see pretentious mannerist techniques time consider opinions dull callous fools anyone hartley fan love filmif get chance see it is hard say would like video,0 +life always ups downsshut fuck up shut fuck up dont care cant see im suffering cant see im hurting ever single fucking day cant see every time get something bigger knocks again im tired it im fucking tired,1 +want kill dont know howive suicidal longest time want kill already end suffering cant hang theres nothing house thats either tall enough support weight cant shoot cant get gun im percent sure jumping roof feel like theres slight chance ill survivei dont want someone try talk this methods use please tell,1 +close relationship someone hard close relationship ship wit someone ive pretty much given up sayin want gf someone dont keep secrets,0 +ever deserve thisi nothing literally nothing literally nothing positive life always friendly others try burden anyone fuck this hate here,1 +got job guess excited ready kill soonan uncle mine recently helped get job works at know going go already tell going make want kill myself going get morning im morning person so going either use buy method use now actually great motivation hurry up going write short story book seem happening fulltime cant focus time actually want fuck it lets get with,1 +im taking driving test im kinda nervous wish luck guys,0 +dealt consistent depression years like daytoday basis feel like deal long term depression,1 +robots love people mean people say cant love computers actually make one love humans fellow robots even form sorts loving relationships people honestly pretty deep thinking already,0 +little brother always world grew privileged two loving parents everything him grew parents mom longer get along used close dad emotional verbally physically abusive towards throughout teen years brother told talk people tarnished parents name took care me fed me clothes me took vacation recognize father feels guilty treated me never apologized made effort life see need protect someone never really protected me feel like considered overemotional feelings pain experience valid yes father person change nightmares him redflag today first night felt worthless want fight longer loving husband corner it love deeply cannot others love mei it really want end this lost many people loved anyone lucky husband would even second thought tired sad lonely hate myself person besides husband also thinks poorly me hold opinion almost regard husband hurt cannot anymore why why why,1 +cant sleepits hot think much hate dull box cutter desk is no nothing happen even im making melodramatic post still despise myself feels late im job love virgin im someone worth salvaging bother clear made time even though wasted fighting religious beliefs spent figuring like finding love sex think recently want find someone whos also inexperienced share life sex them someone curious exciteable would love saccharine cute depraved kinky sex sit naked play video games something hate missing years love sex nothing let stay environment fucked mind ideologies believe work death major completely drained whatever enjoyment subject another year half spent recovering life full shitty choices betrayed expectations town limited options wish razor sharper funny feel much closer death im less depressed sense lethargy almost like defense mechanism feel like fading exist anymore real person getting hard let alone orchestrating death im arguably better seems much easier end it tomorrows another day guess guess means time fuck waste life knows maybe ill even die somehow thatd nice,1 +tell suicidal people talk instead tell everyone else listenevery text trying prevent redflag tells victim talk problems actually get courage talk and one willing help you people care professionals either im surprised but im still saddened many people actually commit redflag always read speak one cares like punch guts supposed do then,1 +aita purposely arguing people dont mean dick find super funny arguing people internet even get downvoted guy like hope everyones haves great day ill respond yo fuck fun it aita,0 +many rich people florida hate military heard trump son trump jr made fun veterans many rich people florida make fun military people opposed war iraq believe people like deserve wealth power,0 +trying act high mighty totally understand gets emotionally draining commenting many peoples post hurts seeing many post ignored even advice offer reach out even something cheesy generic like stay strong man do best etc go long way someone mental health please comment peoples post,1 +cant stop lonelinessmy whole life feeling lonely on always felt like everyone liked me friends always kept contact with times feelings subsided others comes back full force mostly constant feeling feel like never loved always wanted big group friends stuff time other always planning events other see time people me guess couple years ago slowly subsided feel like friends always make initiative didnt would never keep contact me sure though amongst friends always invited inviting others forgetting me often get jealous people especially hispanics see friends family time parents probably take initiative see multiple times week mom doesnt take initiative me dont know unliked life years old white male living bay area married child way feel like ending terrible fear loneliness want loved dont want die alone would rather end feel like later life want feel loved big family bunch close friends care me,1 +oneam one wishes someone would kill myself,1 +first episode friends aired sept the one monica gets roommate song playing rachel sits window towards end show line plays is if ever need holding anyone know artist singing title song seems great songi would love get copy it thanks assistance looking albumcd purchase it br br i shows available purchase enjoy show again seemed believablethanks hours entertainment provided years,0 +wish lethal injection would apply non terminally ill peoplewarning since im considerate gorey mentions below sensitive stuff leave oh whoopdeedoo time fucking whine problems hope typing give enough fucking douse gasoline become bonfire straight got nothing keep going for shit fucking sucks oh lets daily fun task feel minutes get nice little pickmeup contemplating feel great longer nothing fucking else looking forward going back school oh probably going fully fucking online god cut arms throw lake take away everything fro you tired this going back therapy luck ill get little honest ill get locked either jail fucking hospital fucking lose even more why oh lethal methods hardest obtain gosh come on less jumping going get body shredded beyond recognition now whats point me broken broken broken broken yeah sure like term use call fucking identical ill physically broken shattered bits shut fuck up maybe ill fucking ride plane enough times well crash atlantic something huge search party dramatic news story even firearms measly fatality wheres guaranteed way out survivingquestions hospitalization prices yuck maimed beyond repair maybe ill fucking saw hand see theyll do hospitalize long what what maybe corruption system could pay someone whatever way choose shoot full holes making look like swiss cheese sure point pathetic message is cry help done that wish someone magically help me done that que your family miss you you loved it gets better take walk get hobby ill pray you comments maybe rack those ill carve skin see long till die,1 +hey guys listened feedback site id like show guys 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buy land start farm get away city life person biggest say whether cut free judge person disconnected whats going also judge probation officer double checking im abiding terms probation day go court ask judge call pessimist feel like theres million ways could go bad model inmate matters went prisoner support forum talk case nothing probation officers talking like violate people let judge figure out thats real problem historically tell fight lose give life end taking plea whether something wrong scared right cant handle it tuesday probation officer wants look everything over wednesday judge gives ruling whether qualify early release everyone excited understand im not court system keeps getting wrong me get something armed robbery court kept acting like spawn satan barely dodged prison time judge hated matter did got handed hell sentence deal terms make sense personal situation,1 +f want kill bad hurtsi literally use world everything dreamed everything want achieve fails me get bullied severely nobody helps cares me ive depressed since th grade mom always disappointed wants better hard try want disappoint anymore today tried hang doorknob work all would literally anything die pass out im typing crying sorry anything spelled wrong,1 +birthday take cake stay,0 +oh wowi got banned days ago favorite place internet guess wanna die,1 +ever get easieri wish easier die know would simple could point thing stopping little brother would heartbroken cant him reason im terrified comes after point hard to dont trust around sharp things near edges tall places easy hard,1 +hello advice pleasehey guys first up happy easter all im posting tonight sure im right place need get chest ask advice earlier week daily hike mountain trail frequent nearly every day near end hike stopped side hill walk past daily usually never stop at warm particular day exhausted climb sitting taking view immediately noticed couple bags neatly propped sitting right front me also noticed thin rope tied one guard rail posts dangling stairs cut hill however even though mere foot away see edge thought crossed mind might someone end rope seem tense enough holding anything kind weight plus trail busy park attendants carrying repairs maintenance trails guess assumed park workers taken lunch sitting taking lovely day kept coming back scene directly front eyes thought that shit someone going this thats kinda exactly would look like go stick head hill take look sure immediately it blunt exhausted needed rest even petrified might see took another minutes getting breath back continuing way knew must check leaving scene approached gingerly reaching drop hill saw it top poor souls body rope around neck hanging sitting slouched side step instead checking further sprinted hill rangers station minutes away raised alarm good minutes led rangers back scene watched they raised voice addressed victim make sure ranger gave depressing thumbs think ill ever receive confirming yes id seen real there spent next hour waiting emt police arrive take statement also noone else it ward hikers coming past scene admit rough week sleepwise thoughts still there forced return scene next day mainly park love dearly would ruined also pay visit wish farewell right decision im confident trouble hiking area last day two ive feeling incredibly guilty immediately checking side hill maybe still us could done something help incredibly empty police took statement told could go amazingly nothing press all guess opened eyes sadly redflag daily occurrence live keep thinking alone hill keep feeling guilty courage check immediately talking professional expect near term thanks listening sw ive posted wrong place please accept apologies,1 +went rule searched reddit ive never seen much hedonism debauchery life someone reddit looked avatar decided you know what this decided spend hours drawing reddit avatar gay prn,0 +anyone called bullshitlike seriously im worst never even close gf real friends basically nothing day discernible skills people insist alive executed failures theres gotta way trade life someone elses someone battling aggressive form cancer would surely deserving precious gift life life one billion chance obtaining wasting precious existence burden others fitting mould im supposed fit into im drunk rn someone euthanize,1 +pleasant way go out never employed one wants employ year old experience degree subpar qualifications somehow managed rack figure student debt hardly friends social life becoming sick certain friends constant bragging sits home day computer gym chore enjoy anymore lives away major city severely depressed amp anxious cant afford certain drugs deepweb willing try another prescription antidepressant talk therapist already september done nothing life since march life goals ambitions gambling whatever left online casino lottery games sports betting ampxb,1 +give questions life general give knowing year old wisdom ask anything hurting head answer best ability think answer question answered questions yesterday teenagers sub ask away,0 +cant happppy cant happy whys everything gotta constantly either worry self doubt cant like look mirror smile instead feeling worse every time cant look forward future instead afraid it,0 +redflag tolerance already zero contemplating suicide lot didnt want see would lead didnt want brothers incredibly lucky got referred good psychologist like hes helping problems getting rehabilitation welfare hassle constantly talk new counselors psychologists psychiatrists triggers breakdowns hate talking strangers im ashamed all hate share truly feel strangers makes real,1 +think movie deserves low rating give it one best teenager horror films ive ever seen thats saying lot nothing left without explanation back up characters plot break countless horror movie stereotypes got nothing horrible pieces weve submitted lately a clear example mindless saint ange first minutes might downright boring exception beginning although minor light mistakes easily spotted arrival village though horror a different twisted kind horror beginsbr br with plot details goofs minor characters movies strongest point given many clichs broken it example two main male characters nick wade means idiotic types were used to although dalton might fit better stereotype one pay lack consciousness scenes truly satisfyingly horrible making tense moments scattered around film and end although everything decorously explained easy see things go easy surviving charactersbr br the errors see imply continuity ie carly finding cut finger unconscious bos pockets illumination somehow annoying first boring minutes although plot effectswise everything drastically cruelly twisted arrival main characters ambrosia little village midst nothing ill give that pretty much argued movie illogical how two people build entire house wax where get wax from uprising questions people would paid attention movie sinclair brothers build house wax mother worked making actual wax figures exhibited museum scenario paris hiltons unfortunate character meets untimely death answer second question personal objects mobile phones cars clothes dead people using third brother connection exterior pretty much arguable sinclair twins obtain money necessary buy wax wwiitype fashionbr br so aside think movie deserves lot gets nobody lose chance watch it go see house wax right now,0 +poor dvd video quality reason gave movie instead could much better movie deserves itbr br this truly movie covers several themes simultaneously like movies serial killers fascinated astonishing bureaucratic culture former sovjet union movie mustsee anywaybr br i cant compare silence lambs several reasons way serial killer portrayed done far much better citizen x see several details private life travel along killer gives idea source constant anger sexual frustrationbr br the movie seen realistic one henry portrait serial killer fascinated movie definitely need take look citizen x,0 +something wrong mei live like everybody else know job pays decent enough live house well sized volunteer library every week theres line times get bad news doesnt affect emotional level times like today someone tells im sick like play dog terrified me tell joke think people get tell sadistic sense humor would like figure whats going here dont money pay psychologist therapist theres obviously something wrong mind im sick cant figure theres point living anymore dont see is right infront me taunting me even exist,1 +yall fucking hate online interaction stunted fucking shit tone pauses context say adios like already friends fine im meeting first time online shit,0 +need help fastlets get way ive thought redflag weekly months now ive attempted twice never went through even went getting noose set last one fell asleep probably chosen late time one doctor knows ive thoughts tried main question bet lot asking why main reason feel every little thing goes wrong fault head come crazy reason go well parents fighting caused caused stress failed algebra someone dies made happen enough two examples hideous self blame ive grown sick tired sucking bad im tired trying hardest living expectations im tired existence ive decided im going kill year ends im tired dead weight people need anymore ive messed enough already theres anything anyone tell make change mind guest doubt though,1 + think keep upa days ago made post sw wife left took kids said things needs work need friends treating like shit cant anymore sat house almost days alone anniversary coming cant function want kids back bad havnt eaten seems like days want end,1 +ive seen porn addictionrelated posts recently want help everyone conquer addiction stop watching porn altogether intro porn menace ever think it quickly find porn starting now probably minute less thats insane awful problem teens adults even adolescents succumbing porn addiction according psychcentralcomhttpspsychcentralcomblogsextheprevalenceofporn average age person first views porn eleven eleven young super young eleven year olds playing legos watching dantdm instead watching porn jerking off what porn porn pornography footage images animation sex includes irl porn animated porn hentai included heck even fortnite porn yes exists often porn studio produced scripted fake guys often pumped full viagra drugs girls faking orgasm orgasm well plastic flesh how know im addicted porn addiction pretty prevalent todays society httpswwwtherecoveryvillagecomprocessaddictionpornaddictionrelatedpornographystatistics adults chronically addicted pornography may seem like huge number keep mind porn getting easier easier access also aswell increased access porn small day day usage increasing addiction seen grow addiction yeah sure use it whats bad porn porn usage even day less lead several negative effects road continue using it negative effects pied porninduced erectile dysfunction basically means pp gets hard porn nothing else unrealistic view sex objectifies women sets female beauty standard big fake breasts skinny figures also hand failing sex education america many young kids first view sex porn young boys grow expecting partners women porn do leads sexism abusiveness slew nasty stuff men sometimes women how stop easy stop watching porn believe me stupid difficult start making excuses like well day whats harm or ill take peek once eventually start realizing dangerous porn is learn jerk without it actually feels way better since lasts longer porn start disgust you even horny hell me rpornfree helped addiction alot may work people theyre small super supportive community helped reach days pornfree another thing helps setting counter amount days pornfree all stopping porn possible hella difficult might believe im saying but hope try nip porn butt kick balls shove empire state building tldr porn bad lol,0 +lost everything valuei dont really know tell story way makes sense others bullied young age first years life didnt single moment happiness felt alone matter id be even got older friends always felt like things missing never moment actually felt good sometimes things hurt less good day got me years ago life changed lot random occurences met girl first person ever look like im normal worth much anyone else first person felt valued appreciated gave humanity nothing made every single part life better everything became easier became happy didnt even need anything waking seeing enough make life feel perfect was went spending every single day life feeling like shit worth anything inside keep wall okay actually feeling like value girl might perfect made feel perfect made feel like human being would done anything her did together years everything great talked marriage week ago nothing wrong week ago went short holiday friends yesterday got call telling accident didnt make it woman reason ive ever felt like value dont know do hard kill yesterday try stay bed go sleep feel physically sick dont know go dont know why really dont see alive tomorrow dont see point anymore dont know,1 +kid bragging porn sounded much better airpods ok buddy enjoy ultra bass boosted surround sound pornos,0 +know anymorei feel like im failure think im brink fired current job got nepotism like previous jobs one part though every single relationship ive seems fizzle out like leave everyone feeling unhappy unsatisfied me think people keep lives feel sorry make feel better comparison fucking failure existence think id use everyone ending it kind morbid juxtaposition success functional person probably make sense right now im pretty fucked up alcohol thing keeping sane,1 +touching story told tenderness awkward young jewish girl wwii america befriends escaped german pow hiding clubhouse discuss lives beliefs hes antihitler sneaks food becomes friend ally reminded muchbetter theatrical film whistle wind hayley mills befriends convict alan bates certainly cant fault direction here smooth performances sterling mature preteen years kristy mcnichol carries picture never hits false note suddenly prisoner discovered and kristy found well movie gets tough father shocked ashamed child would consort that nazi lays quiet fury seldom seen he tells you dead me must devastating little girl hear final scenes cop out big reunions handholding climaxes girl face world learns bitter lesson neighbors friends family startling film,0 +going dieso took sleeping pills going drown myself got stopped im really sleepy cant sleep took pills people saying im dead,1 +remember less month ago every time looked sub concerned everything new become everything new,0 +hello everyone father suffered severe depression aggressive behaviour since father passed away things started get worse worse time time want go specialist get treatment treating family like garbage today told siblings fuck tired living us un happy feel bad guilty want feel better everytime try pushes away hurts lot treats like shit ny father cannot leave way want know do want accept professional help blaming us unhappy also controlling want us social media keeps threatening mom leaving us plays victim everytimei sad depressed seeing family like sad need advicewhat make see faults behave better even go therapy help person depression ,1 +bro wtf scrolling nsfw sub saw girl used sext recognized room body minor still bruh,0 +fuuuuuuuucccccckkkk aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,1 +easily greatest low budget horror film time first saw movie around nine years age say scared hell me im growed up however see movie really is work genius everyone least everyone taste dreamed seeing snowman going around killing people even admit it always found something genuinely frightening snowmen naturally horror junkie myself thismovie dream come true people say movie silly otherwise void intelligence movie serial killer snowman hell expect anyone gave film low score obviously uptight sit back good laugh stupid oneliners cheap gore love movie is comedy movie industry wises makes serious horror flick killer snowman which seems impossible unfortunately forever hold great piece indie horror close heart,0 +streaming among us twitch come check channel name __gamer__ join game ya want code showing,0 +hey you almost day internet relax enjoy photo i took photo ampxb httpspreviewredditanxrucvepngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsceeaccbbdfeaddece,0 +guys guys guys lets go yall crazy it ,0 +miss old friends one friend nick names mine jiggaboo cracker good times,0 +today run sat near lake started crying thought myself cannot go on enough saved feel like enough,1 +weebs assemble showcase peak teamwork community seno,0 +want make friends even deserve themdo even deserve kind love care feel like dont thing deserve gun head make friends would anger sadden finally kill myself want die want die fucking badly cant it know wanted would right now cant i one would notice even care whats point im making everyone around angry frustrated deserve live deserve noose around neck thats deserve,1 +headed awayjust writing things out feel desperate dont know whats wrong me know do need study every time get it lose it cant focus break randomly car class im biking grocery im fuckup thing going grades thats gone nothing left even though cliche anyone family basically nonexistent people care professors lame is theyre good interesting people whove encouraged helped me im disappointment everyone always be im capable handling school life general theres nothing want life anything ive thinking dropping abandoning life here moving new state big city working full time professors would people id miss want another college dropout giving would put farther behind redflag seems like option know im posting really human contact guess tell day whatd work hows life whatevers clever someone anyone talk me cant alone right now,1 +gameinformer magazines actual games stacked like inches tall,0 +please stop making post automatically say deleted annoying make screen recording every time read someones post want people actually read post make regular,0 +ever choked blushing looks like seizure just wondering anyone else experienced phenomenomenon,0 +free promised freedom lie,1 +feel depressed lostthere days life feel useless lately ive felt like life real know feel this ive tried cope drugs year smoking half pound weed month thought would help didnt really know type life feels meaningless attempted redflag twice now second attempt landing hospital ended mental hospital days birthdaythe odd thing actually enjoyed last day cuts wrist wear bandages weeks cuts healed throughout weeks people school would ask obviously knew never said anything started community college failing misriably old college northern california recently moved back home certain situations forcing move time im sorry rambling know write since feel depressed anxious lately hands actually shake sometimes im anxious times memory lately shit smallest things get angry idk why,1 +sick excluded everything friends seem like embarrassed mei barely friends hate appearancei hate feeling useless one gives shit mei want cut again way relieve paini hate seeing people happy together paini hate classmates much hate seeing groups leaving behindi hate lifei wish way end shit reborn decent lifei hate feeling lonely one likes me want die,1 +happens every goddamn time get inspo think genius go make meme come reddit see weekend ampxb repeat,0 +cant keep living like thisi im loss anymore im miserable life nothing makes better ive tried self help therapy faking till make it im tired cant keep this im miserable around make everyone around worse simply lives im trying finish degree even going jobs graduate saddled student debt drop try find trade theres good answer feel like way ending it ive never thought would make age dont know do ive screwed life royally dont even know come okay want end wake anymore im tired friends toxic family told need relationships survive know cant manage make stick im tired guys im really tired dont know anymore,1 +im piece shit feel good ,0 +welp mom made feel invalidated not purpose psychological assessment done earlier month started therapy parents found self harmed reports came mom going coz therapist told moms likeoh commonoh nothing worry every para either like oh youor oh bador said common end stated depression anxeitysocial anxeityanger issues stuff likeoh im pretty sure teenagers would fall category probably gonna relapse bit idkfuck,0 +regret killing years agoim tired hearing overused statements people know mental situation it gets better redflag permanent solution blahblahblah suck ass karen got way worse soon grasped concept death child feeling im going die young know cause death be feel stupid hopeful past hanging onto life brought suffering wanted normal ask chronic illness eating disorder suicidal thoughts people consider friends care family members abused past physically emotionally theyre like main reason behind trauma care feelings actually wish theyll suffer find death work minimum wage job obviously cant go therapy barely afford rent keep going work even hate job ill never find job like least im okay since dont passionsinterests dont anybodyanything live obviously want live myself im tired waiting something good happen im tired trying make feel better failing miserably quit,1 +progressit took almost hours figure post simplify website thanks ive left house years ive visited gp multiple times past years avail know anymore ive seeked help every public channel ignored reason im still alive niece nephew support forever last weeks horrible suppose do suffer agroprobia social anxiety disorder know anymore ive already lost many years life,1 + years old fucked loseri drive night job constantly think killing driving bridgeoverpass want live im tired trying sick tired cant stand everyone else either want go,1 +husband cheated dumped years good nowguess im sub yes life sucking hard right now announced last month moved three weeks ago since ive therapy good support system im actually enjoying living own thought okay past week manall think offing myself know is like repeating thought cant get head ive suicidal never attempted feels like legit reason im alone future ahead gonna rough im sure comes next feel romantically unlovable plus whole my husband always loved someone last years might lie mindfuck strange feeling one hand im curious future im enjoying spend time yet times feel crushing despair rejection seems like one answer started zoloft mg month ago im sure thats helping causing this definitely feel less anxiousocd since starting it think helping,1 +dont plan living see i feel like burden drain everyone around me im shit school future one cares me thats it im going see thanks listening bullshit,1 +put never gonna give sex playlist fact make whole sex playlist probably long last bed anyways,0 +ive started seriously consider redflagthe last hours much messed up redflag always something thought about never genuinely believed would it since one dodgy time younger right now trust myself first time years seriously considered committing redflag life even bad compared anyone elses weight head cant get rid im dragged down would destroy little sister mam dad girlfriend going hard time right now know would destroy them thats always held back know even could stop right now could tonight really could probably even deserve posting here feel like imposter like theres people way way worse deserve help me apparently strong strong enough stop feeling way weak deal anyway know do know talk to maybe need someone say im ok im parasite maybe need anything all want ruin little sisters life want tragedy everyone talks sadly really know much longer ignore im feeling,1 +parents found redflag notei couldnt depressed found pills redflag note backpack gonna get school busnot go homeand overdose woods found got chance too made talk didnt wanna talk wouldnt let talk people could actually help mebecause know couldnt im gonna find pills,1 +last daytoday last day pretty boring honestly im okay it feel like im peace way gun put down feels really surreal im gonna go tonight people sub awesome previous deleted posts every one extremely kind ive seen way people treated great im sorry im one bad cases cest la vie thanks reading did,1 +someone please talk me someone please helpi think may actually kill today scared never scared entire life help me begging it,1 +found film usual french slap americas face camera often focuses fat people sloppy homes tacky rural areas narration seems sympathize admire small town folks introduced viewer cinematography exploits demeans them were undoubtedly thin people seen glencoe neat organized homes malle chose show us worst seen br br i hope american filmmakers go france reveal american public worst elements assure you frequent visitor france well there foreign immigrants readily assimilated thus creating severe social inequities americans eager unmask french prejudice toward compatriots envy toward us were likely see films subject,0 +got american word essay history dont know ehy everything asked do miss old teacher,0 +days ago realization want die like ever thought keeping night crying sucks die think nothing matters going die cannot anything it think fair ask born could another human born maybe accept dying better me whole lives basically chosen us mean knows maybe overthinking like really dying scared after both die it feel like body shut completely forever thoughts feelings morelife mean yeah none us really know happens death people think reincarnation things coping mechanism used think like really thought it mean definitely open minded thought definitely still there things think happen actually happen mean actually reincarnate even sun going explode eventually take us rightwhy dying hard accept know inevitable let us talk death,1 +get final wishes togetherim fairly young severe suicidal thoughts think im really danger right now im also experimenting medications recently started getting help meds could always cause sudden downturn could sudden downturn own id like leave family final wishes talk directly know theyll overreact assume im immediate danger want that also many friends trust something this definitely cant afford lawyer this anyone ideas help appreciated,1 +cant stop fantasizing coffee induced redflagsooo basically unmedicated bipolar person crashed life straight ground lost everything after two years trying build future career really liked im longer denial really wish gotten help earlier and past attempts getting help ignored suppose biggest problem physical real world barriers obstacles scary intimidating much im sort sitting back watching life float futon hurts back neck terribly think kill myself really want someone help talk day day think get away situation thats causing grief job thats least tolerable ive learned lesson see past thought problems external needed get someone good id happy no everything still darkness lingered tempting work harder try get somewhere stable reveal demon known mania medicated though appointment mental health team th mental health dates like beacons trying get one hopefully make another day morning wake reality situation nightmare slightly better demons face took physical form manifestation biggest fear slow slow crawl homelessness loss items two incredibly loyal pets often mind wanders ending life im loss fix it try day something little bit better hard without sense direction applying job everyday cant fix end summer make reasonable progress probably end life want pick method one else blamed as jump front car train one think reasonably know im even reaching out think find help anywhere im trying prove wrong,1 +coming straight guy stop super straight ya dinguses basically super straight started joke a poor one eventually grew something people people calling saying part lgbt community either seriously rhile lgbt people stop straight people literally least oppressed sexual group trying say part lgbt trying make community angry laughs is say cringe struggle secure right victims numerous hate crimes tldr stop using super straight seriously joke,0 +husband years affair year old past years talk me beg husband half truthswe going try babyi fucking depressed canttake anymore cannot confide friends many want expose lie perfect relationship world suicide hotline answer please help,1 +feel like kill eventuallyhi guess want share really see resulting anything hell bit ramble apologize write seems bit scattered grammar off dependent personality disorder guess say i guess im sure trust everything psych says seeing ive diagnosed autism undiagnosed once im year old male leech mother scared failure hold job ive tried break lot tried really hard college depression sense empty made fall astray becoming marijuana dependent went hill though believe always would ended way now im lucky marijuana instead anything else ampxb really hate myself since young ive given made excuses everything ive wanted get good life ive fallen cycle years want anymore feel like ive lost faith everything every day feel like useless trash obsesses inane bullshit leech mother want anymore yet believe never get this least want play devil may cry go one things im excited anymore ampxb yeah thats,1 +gender survey rteenagers question itll take couple seconds gender surveyhttpsformsglerkvrbfjympjgz survey finally figure ratio girls boys boys girls post results get sufficient number responses,0 +week cut first time yearwhile suicidal thoughts think id go far actually it said feel like life spiraling control again idea do spend much time trying help everyone life comes time ask help even someone talk to turn away change subject start talking themselves person thought cared says busy constantly goes makes plans friends know selfish think thats wrong like would hard tell no probably whats fucking bad right now ive tried getting lost photography hobbies works temporarily ive even tried drinking again temporary still come home feel nothing much nothing fact picked knife breaking one year month streak cut feel something anything anger thats another point weird simply feel nothing nothing all occasionally anger mostly directed myself ive always thought depression would go days end motivation general feeling gloom evolved still motivation instead feeling sad simply feel nothing whats weird feel though im making attention true would able come home snap right like nothing wrong life good family good friends freedom want yet still feel like shit constantly idea do yall think making up wrong place post im sorry sidebar rules specific replies posts,1 +read read written brief ampxb do read ampxb you ampxb lot know ampxb really ampxb read lot like say read read lot ampxb read daily ampxb comprehend ampxb intelligence brief ampxb extraordinarily well probably better anybody interviewed long time read lot ampxb idk found funny,0 + great year mask makers acrylic installersbeyond worst year recall,1 +want fucking diei never felt suicidal entire life girlfriend left right christmas plans im alone friends like me im crying one hour im thinking redflag right now im like m ft ground im thinking jump,1 +feeling worthless i feel worthless ive continuously sad past months theres days im ehhh days feels like im carrying weight shoulders started self harming december started eating disorder again life going downhill feel worthless sad feel like one loves cares hook many guys try fill void one wanting every time feel worst dont feel like anymore im attractive dont special talents people hate me people slut shame me people talk shit im saying care shit talking lot days gets days idk ive suicidal thoughts past month ive obsession gore death going way look liveleak death bestgore cant go im living now horrible bleak nothing makes happy anymore besides spending money think majority people enjoy that sad age feel like this time enjoying high school junior year looking forward college apps whatever want commit plan cousins wedding end february want see least marry ill myself purpose im waste space waste resources someone else could have wish could press end button something,1 +best movie ive ever seen bulimia hit exact spot bulimia really always skinny dieting showed people bulimia tend think things outlook life friends themselves best line part really shows problem bulimia is beth saysits you line really showed lot character others problem showed people bulimia problem anything anyone else only shows time talk person problem instead putting attention themselves showed beth needed call attention moment needed moms attention time most,0 +would coming states first time years dec ecstatic finally meet mil weve chatted several occasions truly great person rob excited wanted make trip memorable decided wanted get family portrait painted late christmas gift,0 +phone guys have model fillerwelcome gboard clipboard text copy saved herewelcome gboard clipboard text 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dont think jill myself im much pussy myself want to wish someone else could life cause would better it tell people things everyone life thinks attention really one myself hate anything dont know back happen press done love mom dad bf grandparents brothers half sister every single one u affected me like cause pain waste space still love u never stop loving u,1 +dying soon know itim sorry,1 +fuck hate posting herei feel selfish posting here fuck life sucks moved km away whim get change never lonely desperate contact moved back home couple months ago things werent working out ending things woth gf left already found replavement made sure smeare face home things get better made radical decision move k km life worse here miss friends unable make friends never needed too work sucks ass even tho get something amazing dive guide read sea decided drink today ended breaking bunch shit laying face beach currently siting safely resteraunt dont trust myself fuck life sucks reason act way spoild brat yet cant help myself loathe behaveiour sorry formating drunk phone eating burger,1 +first im one go sappy movies saw friends s first released years old time even now age still remember scenes movie sweet sad may actually tame teenagers today loved it story innocence purity young love determination young people make better life home time pretty risky movie couple young runaways successfully setup house baby own im surprised movie elton johns soundtrack almost unknown today music beautiful unforgettable,0 +guns viewed area like people generally think banned less restricted,0 +hey guys btw guys channel syfy shrek on good day,0 +anyone else feel empty like im sad anything im pretty good life everything going well apart lockdown im tired mood life feel empty like im happy sad angry anything im there really weird focus brain something feel like this im existing thats it anyone else,0 +hat alland good life everyone hah nice end struggle without victory over time give atoms back universe thanks loan tried tell younger pain ends here regret nothing cant lucky eh life,1 +bad nightpoof,1 +suicidal need someone hear meso basically taxes today im hole made got thousand unemployment im single kids money made keep sustainable really doesnt lived parents almost whole year last year apart helping pay bills house bills took care whatever money made wage garnishments shit takes money im always poor sick tired bullshit barely make ends meet im still hole matter do get pissed companies like ge need tax breaks need pay taxes coming scott free right now holding approx dollars take care gas weeks two weeks california know anything gas prices think get days let alone weeks then found new garnishment taking effect next paycheck stupid garnishment boy sued car making payments to fired lost touch expensive car approx k im sued much lawyer fees im dirt poor feel like end sight im pissed myself accomplish people take advantage pay shit like ge know im going last weeks cant ask parents poor dad worked since thinking asking advance work thats going cut next paycheck ill use pay rent bedroom myself new garnishment ill lucky make let alone little gas close giving disappearing going homeless stop paying bills say fuck all anyone else feeling desperation like am,1 +saw last night fort lauderdale general funny liked characters especially sabrina acting good story line ok except ending left way many strings dangling like what wanted know happened characters strange ending could done much betterbr br the film portray rule life really well laughed throughout flaws sure first time film ash christian thought good might want wait dvd one get chance see give shot,0 +ps never gets better honestly ever happy im always extremely depressed around time always socalled favorite holiday cant good birthdays good christmass think accept it ever enough spend nights room crying one ever knows uncle hospital anniversary sexual assault boyfriend hurting again question worth earth,1 +gonna hour really really wanna go there plis teenage best period write million reasons why realise still hard ngl thanks yall making easier fun sub awesome never gonna leave here know ill suddenly transform super responsible disciplined adult also supposed mood swings anymore,0 +moar updates thank yousup rsw wanted say feel bit better today realize certain situations tend blow things proportion head certain things people trigger me happens stop end spiraling pretty badly realized last therapy session often reactions things triggered less actual thing said done anyway ive posting lot lately ive gotten really kind responses people also wanted say thank you may good accepting help moment believe mean appreciate it edited cuz fail grammars,1 +feel prior redflagattempti feel like im going step hill day day everytime think cant take another day turns could all tell actually reach point cant take it know,1 +finished graded science project ive working days projects go hours assuming dont sleep ofc,0 +end itif do deal issues like consequences me,1 +planim going college september care grades im going try make last years fun possible im killing college im responsible im lazy piece shit wholl never fit world last own im always thats gotta end im gonna cut people life need alone guilt it isnt need alone kill doesnt hurt anybody else ive waiting kill years going really suck losing friends im good needs done wish better wish things different wish didnt emptiness heart there going anywhere nothing fills it fuck none shit matters anyway,1 +title says all got chances getting job enjoy let alone paying one tried long today day done trying todays day say enoughim fucking done impossible succeed life therefore going end,1 +need someone talki sitting herealone feel like never would really like someone talk right nowplease,1 +friend got google meets early became host proceeded let anyone in class ampxb httpspreviewredditrmcejvbzpatpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbddbcefdaacaecd,0 +hello im looking buy nintendo switch hello im looking buy nintendo switch im sure get australia ive seen one low anyone knows shop could u tell plz thanks,0 +helpis anyone talk to keep getting suicidal everyday,1 +today long live without earphones listen new music albums need listen grow halmp,0 +hell keep jar youll think happy,0 +need helpi suicidal point plan way it suffering while every since lost baby august thoughts best friend kill long ago everything falling apart around really know else ending all,1 +widely unknown strange little western mindblowing colours probably material used johnny guitar guess trucolor something makes blood drips look like shining rubies nearly surrealistic scenes twisted action characters something different far masterpiece paid attention little gem western encyclopedias,0 +join rplazavirtual cosmic sci fi shitposts made subreddit today called rplazavirtual roleplay people future sci fi universes post type shitposts memes even alien dating advice long stay character httpswwwredditcomrplazavirtualcommentskwqissue_with_holo_hookers_genital_fluidsutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare one example cosmic shitpost issue holo hookers genital fluids,0 +finally ready dieive come realization life me im meant find love im meant meanigful friendships anyone im supposed alive enjoy anything anymore nothing makes happy people lie make feel better nothing genuine always someone better im always one left out im always one deal alone accept it im tired accept fucking alone fuck everyone else passing blame onto anyone tried tried meet people long time now ive tried daily cant shit anymore im tired fucking excuses im sick overall life gives fuck anymore hope left heart im done torturing self therapy work meds work extracurricular actives help nothing helps ive tried much cope feel better life end day im alone one fucking person life tosses fuck aside chance fucking gets im tired it im fucking tired lies much anyone elses dont care iwant fucking die dont care hurt fucking process,1 +bro going cheat gf brother gf sister best friend the friend oke this bro going cheat girl course dont want happen need advice say him please help bro reddit cant look something,0 +grandson fans wondering many teens fan grandson since hes kinda popular quite mainstream far knowledge goes,0 +goodnight post idk im anyones gonna see rn shitty sleeping schedule am im typing rn wanna change starting today guys chill say goodnight youd like tell something weird oddly interesting facts goodnight sweet dreams lovely evening day night ps ps even mean anyways might often see continue knows die something,0 +feel bad todays kids wont expirience star wars like did why,0 +cant fucking take anymoreive lost interest everything made happy best and only friend yrs replacing boyfriend months school stressful c classes make people feel bad dont want die dont want live like anymore want make change life dont want end like genuinely dont know fucking anymore seems like redflag option yet thought death terrifies me cant even sh hard hide hot gets havent vented anyone know years im afraid wont taken seriously dont want burden redflag seems like way terrible way living,1 +okay almost years ago bought cash register bucks yard sale never opened it open now im like one keys came fits register also works theres something inside might either stash money shit ton weed,0 +pretty alt girl piss vodka suicidal ideation goodbyeim drunk ignore typos hi im yo female im supposedly pretty play varsity sports guys like me get decent grades rich white suburban family yeah life looks fucking perfect people know im completely fucked first attempt makes sick im dependant substances self harm go hour without thoughts redflag recent full attempt couple months ago school month going intenssiv therapy yet one knew cared want get better im comfortable way am ive manipulated everyone trust males might love someone ive never met irl using fulfill manic pixie dream bitch ideals need way cant this got genetic testing could get perfect balance meds skip obviously intoxicated piss colored vodka took air bnb parents think im good christian girl brother thinks im whore reality im piece shit reason sad telling redit issues deheheheh montana air bnb meds alc common attempt super cute dad hits mother thinks im slut brother disappointed overall im private school turned public whore daddy issues will fucked ask myself blame chemical imbalance brain deserve live nobody know im except scary reddit fucks almost everyone thinks im sober clean liver thighs say different pretending poetic fucking cringy piss brb okayy tonight know im addict like autopsy sum need cant take fucking summer hope mfs pretend friends funeral laugh un known life im pretty alt girl never peaked hope future want kids family also want make past think could ever loved keep talking holy shit im drunk cant even tell cry help want rn honestly find funny cant even get full send redflag attempts right like bruv thas extra dissapointingbut yeah please kys thats good truly love love humanity love indivdual self im allowed go tho,1 +movie nominated best picture lost casablanca paul lukas beat humphrey bogart best actor see lucile watson nominated best supporting actor think good job bette davis paul lukas three kids leaving mexico coming united states first scene movie going train daviss relatives house davis lukas underground stop nazis tired need rest arrive home nazi living theirs much either it turns nazi cares money willing make deal lukas plot find yourself,0 +know feelmy antidepressants make feel good stop wanting kill constantly friends theyre closer eachother me feel like im kinda observing case far remember friend groups enjoy parts life still love playing dog watching movies chess dad lately depression fucking horrible ex left months ago distant months worst possible time octoberdecember hardest part year mom passed would always lot shit around time worst part objectively life good family loves me things enjoy reason feel way compared ive seen here life perfect makes feel guilty feeling feel even know wanna kill myself wish ever born could cease existence memory me least things get better shitty cycle wanna happy without gnawing thought back mind everything is existence meaningless were less billionth billionth billionth billionth universe nothing matter long run wash away hate knowing nothing matters wanna give say fuck worry things feel like cause feel worse bad people care about sorry rant im even sure place post this know need help,1 +motivation commit redflaghello ive never tought id get here wow lots fucked things happened life they r fucked dont want mention here friends doubt anyone cares me still go school yeah sure laugh comments well actually parents care know automatically act normal im im scared tell actually feel inside kinda wanted visit psychiatrist never convinced it shit building inside trust would cant get tought would parents feel think like maybe would blame themselves another reason grandma passed away month ago pretty much financially motionally parents fucked death would completely destroy mom wallet im fucking better dissapointed everyway could theres still things doesent know me dont know put shit thats inside im literally nowhere feelings inside destroying me would dickhead idk leave note fault smthng tried fucking hard one ever noticed fuck im tired,1 +people born repulsivelookingif wasnt ugly probably wouldnt want die bad,1 +evocative idealized portrait early life lincolnborn hodgensvillekentucky died washington fords excellent movie takes abraham lincolnfonda youth studied laws common law began practice lawyer this hollywood biography follows lincoln logcabin days initial relationship mary toddweaver following couple first balland departure congress candidate focuses mainly brothersrichard cromwelleddie quillan accused murder posterior trial amusing court debate scenes protection mumalice brady lincolnfonda defender advocate donald meekprosecutor nothing short brilliantbr br excellent performance henry fonda idealistictraveller springfield solicitor star regularly ford movie grapes wrathmy darling clementine fort apache besides sterling acting alice brady grieved mother great actress silent cinema one results last movie early died cancerthe lincolns deeds developing make skilfully appealing entertaininghis portrayal shows nostalgic longing things past old values describes goodnessuprightness willful lincoln like john ford straightforward man never varied ideals youththis american masterpiece correct counts splendid biography magnificent dramabr br another biographies abraham lincoln following abraham lincoln dwgriffith walter huston una merkel talking birth assassination abe lincoln illinoisby john cromwell raymond massey ruth gordon concerning similar events fords film career lawyer tv version titled gore vidals lincoln sam waterston mary tyler moore mary todd,0 +understand iti helping people cope depression suicidal thoughts years helped lot get back feet looking brighter day reality ive preventing exactly cant sum courage myself know want exist anymore know why need reason exist cant find one,1 +im fucking scaredso fam outside room finish went next window saw view body shaking scared managed calm fantasized jumping would feel mind telling jump much fear accidently dropped phone cousin came room cause felt something wrong saw next window didnt even realize tears coming eyes asked wdong like nothing wind laughed didnt believe worked wanted leave time didnt want late ask help left feeling scared nervous wanted write made sad wrote went my immediate family talks behind back makes sad real sad laughing living room im contemplating redflag single tear drops eyes silent scared someone find im crying cause half family sees positive dude suicidal depressed teen hates life learned cry silently know shout tears wouldnt come early age cause man isnt supposed cry honestly pains cant cry infront anyone whole family thinks im failure even tho failed mom dad every one failed went therapy didnt help first time life im telling story apologizing people lied never abused well bad say emotionally tho thats whole different story mom loving bat shit crazy matter seconds country fucking shit hole life bad country probably even shittier uncle came room told close window doesnt know wanna jump brother entered shaved shitty beard looking smiley happy told gtfo hate hate fucking face voice everything everybody tells look like tell im starting sound like used beat fight cause dad used beat still dont know wrong ghosts real turn one die haunt scare shit hit way hit scare even worse scared type older brother beats younger one idolizes uncle older girl wife funny dick honestly failed didnt go get brother shitty situation lived block year moved another block two blocks apart wouldnt see months honestly im tired life way things going especially covid quarantining shit probably going last words unless dont kms one friend talks time time lucky bastard one lotto got green card sometimes fantasize winning lotto letting fam come wont ever happen sometimes leave small hints know im suicidal even told brother dont think really care cutting lately redditor tell becomes habbit didnt listen frame cats scratches wont help long honestly wanna put redflag note wanna jump every time think cry silently always playing knife game hit knife space fingers im pretty good cut last time fun risk surprise pain theinsanity know anyways might last thing ever wrote might night wont save survive fall bye world sad depressed like ok time jump bodys instinct called brother told get uncle could talk cause didnt want die dont want fo die telling self body still feels scared think im still scared well unc sleeping like must sign already went ledge room holding window jump told shouldnt fear fatass breaking window jump held thinking way fall one leg slipped body nervous cold felt iran _ celcius weather freezing outside managed grab window make footing write yelled mom come mom come panicked told didnt care gonna break window roll thats got hugged mother ages feeling alone cried asked happened pissed told sho could gtfo let die peice well thats uncle woke coming room hughing like wtf said dream jumped window fell grond paralyzing self still living managing say one word lonely fucked well half cried tears little whimper told going happen got even scared nkw dont wanna kill self im done fear already pushed boundries went ledge heart hurts thinking last night idk end please kill know terrified,1 +killing tonight bye bye,1 +billie eilish soo underrated lmao nah man bitch probably plays violin wrists deep lyrics year old depressed girls fuck right thank,0 +gene roddenberry never let fans down death ended scifi legacy never matched earth final conflict proof pilot film first seasons well written meticulously produced somewhere along way roddenberry touch lost loss lead kevin kilner william boone definitely hurt series vital part made work story involves human race visited taelons extraterrestrial race dub the companions years given earth new technologies helpful information universe more many question intentions earth main liaison earth races daan leni parker many trustworthy taelon questions arise here goals daan aware suspected plots humans underground group led millionaire industrialist jonathan doors david hemblen utilizes millions investigate taelons end first season things going well daan seems trustworthy boone assists doors investigation working daan taelons liaison middle nd season things start unraveling terrific fascinating series spirals downward mostly roddenberry died around guide producers wife majel barrettroddenberry coproducer still first season remains intriguing fun watch,0 +accepting itll end matter timei manic episode yesterday hasnt happened really long time though think killing everyday dont like am things ive done said nothing makes happy anymore spend time alone feel existentially homeless new york city eating alive wanna flip switch cant stop thinking fucked world is irreversible damage weve done environment corruption greed atrocities committed every day stole pair fabric scissors work year ago particular reason weight oddly comforting theyve hidden dresser yesterday crawled bed sat floor sobbing squeezing them adjusting grip every seconds thing sometimes ill falling asleep feel like want stab chest right rib cage id imagine scissors every night usually something mightve happened intrusive nonetheless mall recently looked ledge th floor immediately envisioned jumping it lighthearted conversation coworker feel much shame things ive done things people done me didnt ask life didnt ask this know need see psychologist probably medicated dont see point anymore none real life meaningless world billions people infinite universe fucking dumb cant even articulate anymore killing tonight god damn come close yesterday,1 +depressed people helps im depressed personally im actually pretty happy person like one friends is told try go walk told felt better id pick one nature many people around trust try it great reason convince life worth living suicidal,0 +jerry dyer fucking idiot mayorelect fresno former chief fresno police department probably already see problem andrew janz enough people voted every vote counts especially local elections vote plz dont get another devin nunes jerry dyer devin nunes also idiot httpsthehillcompolicyenergyenvironmenttrumporderredirectscaliforniawatersupplyafterreversalfromamp,0 +somehow changi lost afi awards brother jack latter highquality adaptation george johnstons immortal novel outstanding but opinion good changi heard many critics dismissed changi irrelevant unimportant historically inaccurate even disrespectful critics changi outstanding that brilliant supposed documentary certainly forgive actual changi survivors or indeed survivors pow camp disappointed production rest us changi represents remarkable power mateship times extreme adversity contains part australian culture appears diminishing times become easier less challenging never forget australians respected worldwide gallipoli ww comradery sense humour rating see also gallipoli paradise road last bullet sugar factory,0 +pretty lately fence weather tomorrow go see doc not starting giving meds still want better know please help me anybody please give reasons continue see psychiatrist really need support right,1 +failed againi failed levels reapplied different college gave second chance im failing again easiest exam understand half ended panicking even write enough get marks pass failing first time destroyed me second chance again american high school im going highschool dropout im stupid,1 +ive looking sex grindr day nobody wants mewhy even fucking bother im ugly im wanted obviously guys want cry fucking die,1 +use redditto fill void soul jk aint helpin,0 +whatevernothing matters one help deal problems im reason dont matter one would care disappeared one would care vanished really even exist exist reason,1 +vast minority here also much care original caddyshack aside chasemurray duo scene select rodney jokes okay break down rodney vs jackie jewish similar humor rodneys bigger name distinct jackie incidental observational approach jokes up yours sequel jackies attitude toward everything memorable way inspirational quick lines overconfidence left wishing could express way rodney good enough him in face dismissive jackie rare film appearance makes perfect sub rodney come on gun shaped hair dryer really look little thingsbr br stack vs knight play snobby yuppies well ted knight despite wonderful tvfilm career kinda shows age but pull snobbish demands part want see fall ted looks kinda weak pretty annoying playing anger frustration slapstick stack incidentally snide vengeful really hate enjoy see constantly fail stack wins mebr br murray vs aykroyd well great vintage snllike scenes everpresent enjoyable chevy chase ty webb like murraychase one better murray plays great annoying chatty character obvious improv skill loveable yet annoying exact said aykroyd get annoying while tiebr br i really loved part first totally different mooded films part one drugbathroomsex humor cast full great names part uses golf backdrop stickittotherich type comedy makes one feel better working class s script yes bit farfetched yes first insult sport golf yes movie thin story yes comedy actual humor dances wolves besides part much better soundtrack please expect sequel part one movie even name caddyshack it said big fan caddyshack great exponent s fluff entertainment quality humor viva jackie mason reducers lighten up great comedy own randy quaid wonderful jonathan silverman wonderful heck everyone was chatting feel like watching it think,0 +happy birthday everyone birthday th november happy birthday everyone birthday th november happy birthday everyone birthday th november,0 +got first bill ted movie christmas get second saw store one i think funny first much wierder story funny personnal hell play death funny thing played stupid little games like clue thing id change station death band great,0 +virtual hug checkpoint please stop scrolling sends virtual hug ok thanks stopping by may keep scrolling now,0 +want committed cant stand stigmaive randomly crying day think may suffering sort disorder like bipolarism dementia ive suffering anxiety depression quite time ive thoughts redflag ive constant pain head two months want committed put psychiatric observation ive crossed line family knows ive ive always low energy im going scare them guy immediate family want this also know im somewhat depressed find im suicidal well anything else might wrong me do,1 +im tiredby rights great right family cares me girlfriend loves me enough money go college even work job im tall fairly athletic people tell im funny good looking intelligent im feeling anymore decided go university two states away thought would nice change pace even alone older brother already hey much trouble making friends right ive ended alone wonderful girlfriend two states away friends relationship parents tense lately due various reasons appear improving im decent student im failing classes pretty much beyond repair means ill single class show half year life ton money even workload overwhelming tests hard motivation succeed anxiety depression im meds enjoy things used fun ive tried going hobbies come empty attempted start new hobbies find interest them made friends first semester classes lectures meet anyone roommate guys floor answer theyre nice guys good intelligent people really talk girls drugs judge drugs front im currently taking drinking every substance get hands time really enjoy week im sober yeah ive failed college classes parents happy it enjoy anything anymore overall cant bring care know lot problems life solvable put effort end ive wrestling idea killing past month two seems appealing time goes on say wait three days week trying kill month might actually it,1 +girl left guy used hang cant take it updateim redditor posted post throwaway talking today asked going out said yes saw red punched fucking face hard could beat shit him regret it reckon theyre still going dance im thinking ending dance right front did,1 +get quarantine im sick ill quarantined bit im actually hyped,0 +wish endi vent sorry understand people happy life control feel emptiness expands exponentionally minute consumed long time ago cannot escape it tried force brain make feel happy smoking weed tried heal negaitve feelings emotions going psychiatristpsychotherapist using psylocibin lsd nothing ever helped even showed escape emptiness never felt useful belonged anywhere everywhere go feel like burden go back bed cry next day like last eight nine months many urges end past two weeks even know sane something phisically wrong brain know reason killed girlfriend first met almost two half years ago gotten much hope still do every day becomes harder harder keep smile painted face want good boyfriend good person overall know much time left untill mind breaks myself want kill myself pressure feel every day becoming debilitating feel like going lose control mind body one last time finally put end all,1 +wheres post harry potter quotes replaced wands peniss ive looked everywhere cant find remember saving checked saved save one teens could send link awesome,0 +cant anything righti exist weak disgusting gross ugly cannot allowed continue living worth loving less nothing never anything bring misery coward awkward stupid trapped putrid body end it stop saying stupid bullshit ruining friendships want die want die want fucking die whyy say promised wouldnt die stop hate keep ruining eveeythi ing stupid fucking stupid im sorry didnt mean iy im sorry please forgive im sorry dont want lose another one please dont leave im sorey im sorry pleasse im sorry end stop happening agaii n im sorry please dont want hate friend oly person listrned please dont leave im sorry im disgusting im sorry like didnt mean im sorry please im sorry end keep going nothing anymore reason live end like wanted friends fuckinvstupid killmyself putrid filthy diseas must di e befrore wont bettor worse im sorry one miss im tioo horrible omm sorru goodbye im ssorryh,1 +show awesome thought two episodes paul died sad actually cried shows awesome kerry favorite character the dark side also thought bridget funny perky also thought guy played kyle really really cute loved kerry made sarcastic remarks everything guy played rory cute paul played john ritter really funny whole entire tv show funny wish still showed tv show tv though watched every single time on next time shows watch again,0 +feel life pointless waste space oxygen feel like living others myself dreams afraid chase afraid success failure time think offing time anxious want bother anyone dead body material crap etc wish could infinity glove snap get done without mess couple years ago man sued parents born really felt that sure meant be snap back nothingness conceived remember it point big blissful black hole unawareness paradoxes,1 +random noisei anyone share with reddit it hard time right now thought might write this get unpleasant unsettling feelings head strong longing death feeling squatting around head try analyze feeling always come back conclusions existential point humanity exist cant known gain joy act working task genuinely believe brain receives reward chemicals successful completion task am seemingly highly intelligent person feel helpless really deliver potential yet really external observers recognize praise me feel core existence truly gifted intelligent person feel like retarded genius left devices without action unable leverage life motivated action external events feel small slice time soon started transition curse lifted raised long enough get surrounded external force education riding wave aliveness number years now know going this lost metaphor trying say external force enacted work requires push myself take action accord makes want die know languished life away participating life depressing work nothing accomplish nothing yet potential unmeasurable unify two emotions bleakness empty existence knowing must way humanity unify overcome this saviors ourselves want alive anymore cant even save myself tired fighting bullshit whole thing makes want think feel act anymore know make stop want feel alas know want feel perhaps could get there right now feel stuck,1 +help us school project teacher told us make project modern teenagers friend decided make project teenaagers think games please honest answers get good picture situation httpsformsgletqeffhvawtbyrmphttpsformsgletqeffhvawtbyrmp,0 +making post till get gf ok say im trynna copy urubeva_ out yes im copying given terrible idea however ill posting jokes cos im funny gonna post random shit,0 +uncle told shoot himself drunk dohis wife died recently depressed it drinks sleep every night hitting sauce extra hard since aunt died lives now see much drinks visit owns handgun self defense quote him i burn house shoot myself like dad scares shit me im also depressed point redflag know tell family member remember saying it really drunk serious says sorts shit drinks know take seriously not tell anyone it able live guilt please help,1 + daysback september planned would kill november days now feeling sad every day think month straight crying like time every night hours staying morning canceling plans interacting one even that seemed clear end life like definitely right decision now im sad kind feel anything nothing really makes sad happy cant even cry anymore like this feel like ive forgotten desperately needed kill myself reason feel like im still willing it like know makes sense im sad im peace gun hand right now honestly think shooting heart stretch idea make feel anything know ill days im asking anything think needed rant,1 +long story short military amp go medical get diagnosed type mental ailment disorder ruin career say ruin would drastically change amp would ultimately change job duty station rip away foundation built here called suicide hotline twice seek guidance amp someone talk relation anyone around me database keep calls many times do so con would call people make known eventually chain command insight would greatly appreciated suicide hotline,1 +surprisingly good movie quite good jokes thru whole movie negative thing scenes go extremes show stupid two main characters are get it stupid blondes get it br br the plot barely dodges called corny boobies always plus altho movie strange reason play card much even tho plot line introduces two black haired women act evil counter part two blondesbr br so all good movie watch almost gave lets get crazy,0 + filler aksjsjkdkdlslsksjsjkdksksjskwmwmsksnnsksksj,0 +think way ever get life blue pill waylook us all miserable depressed cant see way think know everything meaningless turn suicidal thoughts make us feel better death closure ever get everything depressed illness opinion im depressed see world full unanswerable questions seems humans need something pull us life like beautiful lie tell ourselves truth things much bare,1 +walking closer towards edgei broke girlfriend years ago ive walking closer towards edge ever since depression anxiety eating alive dont know anymore want kill bad dont balls it,1 +hey everyone im currently ill idk feel like rubbish vomited times last days banging headaches throughout crap sleep gotten morning trying get sleep support amazing also great day amazing peeps enjoy first day ,0 +samesuicidaldepressioni early s really wish could go garage turn car on feel like drain family still live home cant find job tried go college couple years ago ended failing feel like wasting money time im beginning see im smart enough go college anything useful the classes hard keep up much ive looked shitty job get know pay horrible im unlikely get poverty thing is ive seen parents forced live work way full time get by hate jobs seems like thing live go work thats whats future even want it another thing ive always wanted mother refuse bring child situation theyre unlikely fulfilling life sort resent parents knew money get wrong thankful theyre worked like provide enough eat least see overworked never time family life want life want children badly id never able afford give good life said im hard time even getting crappy minimum wage job feel guilty im adult parents still support me hell even got job mcdonalds even earn enough rent plan killing someday family already lost many loved family members cant them even though theyd really better never existed,1 +notea palavra final ao fatal que vai quebrar coraes vai reproduzir choros e oraes minha palavra final vai livrar de todo caos sensacional saber que posso levantar desse filme que deixa mau por isso que eu dou palavra final,1 +would market game kids teens im working game called cubestep roguelike platformer game play cube stunning know would best way market game know only beat game absolutely good game,0 +everyone needs support side fence highly recommend taking cold showers scientifically proven help depression cannot speak serious cases depression going thru heartbreak school redflag things like that take cold shower relax really bad point ending life cold showers,1 +hate myself think always done extent multiple reasonsi got help half year ago already lot better time one guy group friends we close manages trigger you fucking worthless part every single time go drink something really know definitely purpose always says something puts spiral cannot get rest night entire next day thing happened last night went bed like tired think anythingnow go monday night really think go really want see firends means hours suffering afterwards know worth iti considered talking think would understand next day everyone know probably know told do want go friends scared,1 +used attractive not vein way healthy mental illness made look terrible talking internet my skin dull permanent bags eyes fuck eating habit eat munchies beer belly skinny body like kids africa lost retainer teeth spacing hairline receding stress depression destroyed appearance wise well,1 +thats long cupid exists hes fucking drunk high trys shoot me,0 +need consolation whole heart sick painful sad one understands me even anyone there comfort me,1 +constant masturbation lead disinterest girls asking friend filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 + told years old going kill kill caretaker loses responsibility cannot get punishment deathi think possible got years liv now years,1 +me minute break brain horny jerk me yes,0 + year old sister hospitalized past january attempting redflag increasingly suicidal again mom know dothis january sister took entire bottle antidepressants attempt kill herself think panicked told mom took er later week checked mental hospital teenagers week got checked supposed mom feel faked happy never really addressed issues hours away college able really monitor aside keeping touch however really good pretending ok assumed time spent hospital antidepressants taking helping mom sent link tumblr however shocking talks much wants die meaning kill wimped out one posts put i want die already right now want die want die dont want try anymore dont want find happiness isnt there done already dead let this talked cutting herself posts many things fucked up nobody understands her similar situation still scars cutting meds saw therapist weekly a forgottensuppressed like feel way b honestly idea got it talking boyfriend boom suddenly see point depressed stopped taking meds next day fine every since know console her talk mom pretends oh happy little background recently realized bisexual became involved church know feeling isolation due fact surrounds people think going hell what im atheist care less talk beliefs feelings anything immediate thought stupid teenage angst grow none matters danger herself going home weekend since mom town able time her require immediate action sit try talk her know say ive tried says fine obviously not all know do anybody advice,1 + depressed since age get shut every fucking time ask help hard find reason keep goingi trans male parents still deadname dad thinks attention seeking many attempts therapy years mostly consisted think suicide would around you idk you clinging onto depression think really completely given now could potentially get better far tired hopeless cling onto hope anymore ask born forced live suffer people sadthe bridge gets tempting every day ok give now,1 +lets find others birthday twin mine november th,0 +parents fuck honestly want end,0 +im feeling well i already know to im exhausted overwhelmed also christmas comming im getting triggered everything points spend alone god feel bad fuckkkkkkkkkkkk fuck fuck ,1 +update one thing motivating continue life overposted like week ago basically havent able find job related degree radiates with living home working shit job bipolar extremely depressed mood long distance boyfriend thought one literally wanted im pretty hesitant commitment randomly facetimed today broke me blue thought didnt might kill myselfand happened dont feel suicidal moment im scared next time do act it im scared,1 +dad secretly famous politician going old photos saw short dad standing front millions also saw old gas bills along many rejected art paintings guess ill never know happened kill ,0 +im okay right nowf ive depressed probably nearly half life now point hard imagine happy every day see friends living carefree life every single thing fucking ruined either anxiety able get couch somewhere last schoolyear anxiety got point panic attacks basically every day ended going school six months told would better afterwards suprise isnt see future myself know im ever going get anywhere im fucking useless theres litterally nothing change it past weeks ive thinking redflag basically every day imagining happy would let fall window bad before back always felt barrier holding back right clue go on im lucky supportive family know convey want comforting simultaneously want suffer want suffering end im lost right know do clue im posting this want get chest,1 +leave reality im freaking done bs nice world hiting bricks im still going least try accomplish dreambut oh godthe little something positive view life decided fly away ive studying butt offnow selfconfidence even try helping future self stay room eat day like kids know im talking smack nice kind whole life farill keep kindsomething let ruin peoples lives timebut people need someone talk toi give f homework someone life actually genuinely like give spare time straight leave meyou try harder next timethey freaking leave life way came in starting get depressing again got depression months agohere guess anyone pleasetell next stepim getting tired usually write smilies goes ,0 +people plain stupid school students th th grade middle school students th th grade highschool thats country heard americans different couple years weve using platform allows teachers grade us send us messages online good students power send messages anyone school are today kid th grade fucking put instagram message students whole school about people edit writing someone th grade put classic rickroll link update people start get sort punishment say want im boomer everything think teacher sent something important idiot announcing ig making unoriginal unfunny meme,0 +genre dinosaur animation new york time travel circusbr br main characters rex tyrannosaurus rex elsa pterodactyl dweeb parasarolophus ooo triceratops boy called louis girl called cecilia captain neweyes actors john goodman rex yeardley smith cecilia martin short stubbs clown felicity kendal elsa etcbr br what happens four dinosaurs see above fed brain grain cereal cuddly friendly dinosaurs going nice children go new york big plansbr br my thoughts cute animated film animation dinosaurs go cuddly friendly bit floppy notsogood look pleasant way like dinosaurs cuddly friendly nice friendly good like almost characters featured especially elsa cecilia course like others well overall like film lot br br recommended to people like good childrens animated films people like dinosaurs john goodman people think circuses always seem enjoy ,0 +gen z slang teach old ladies class lot old ladies asked could teach slang taught word simp it need gen z words teach asked advice,0 +almost itthe first month hospital unable breathe myself overdosed benzodiazepines opiates also drank lot alcohol good measure caught minutes death am anyways ended getting committed th time cant fucking die im crazy bad experience usual lied lot like always get early days felt good life coming close ending want end again committed actually die time idk feels like im trapped tortured feel unsafe cant ward embarrassing,1 +little birb wanted say hi anyone sorting new hi lt ,0 +im party im party speedwagon ive put cool costume danced babymetal ate chips juice brownie im playing music fun singing happy birthday speedwagon set im fun,0 +suppose im pathetic thenim young adult god hoping id make this fifteen midlife crisis made deal things gotten better time thirty id end life later line realized ridiculous seventeen committed mental hospital three times eighteen mother passed away due cancer senior year high school when seventeen really pushed edge eleven learned redflag could fact balls sort person living for loved lot family living my father wife exwife since siblings always good time feel like cant anything anymore major depressive disorder general anxiety im medicated see therapist every couple weeks feel im getting anywhere lately safest serene place life bed even im sleeping sort laying there imagining better world im twenty years old imaginary friends way go college job moment applied local community college per request father even though im pretty sure im going absolutely horrible cant even take shower every week going keep classes sleep maybe twenty hours day may bit stretch feels like sometimes think dad side late certainly proven true see dad met woman now fiance okcupid dating site english professor seems high high standards everyone seven yearold daughter who complete brat slightly ruining life much yells cant deal says bullshit ugh want get much suppose know dad tells certain things around thoughts kid learn deal things like censored around not like im cussing saying explicit things around her practically demands play piano read books she rarely watches tv too whatever even goes ohsofancy private school hate say stereotypical crap dads fiance taiwanese im beginning wonder highass standards anything it im familiar taiwanese culture be anyway think high standards rubbing dad used really give shit chill felt like shit time asks apply classes volunteer stuff honestly feel overwhelmed want even look either im incapable things want do went university fall drop due sort meltdown third time ended mental hospital also constant migraines least three four week leave sick nearly bedridden job month leave that too managers understand migraines make ill guess needed work getting migraines control anyway basically feeling exact except worse cant get job whatever fucking reason ive applied nearly every store area even consider bit far away know wrong one wants hire me thanksgiving overheard dad telling fiance just cant get job assume means bothering getting job never talks directly dad know cares either im kid okay first im finding extremely difficult even tolerate her horrible brat child make easier sometimes think love dad times outright hate him one time ate oreos package i developed issues binge eating recently sucks couple years ago straightup called pathetic right face package oreos gotten today text saying ridiculous chores around house agree him ridiculous im fucking depressed hell barely get ass bed yeah maybe dishes takes minutes even want walk downstairs eat something which comfortable ultimately survive dishes suck entire bag dicks id rather lay bed die right now thanks dad obviously goddamn issues always acts like im pretty sure problems stem his vivid memory laying bed very young in elementary school cough yelled stop coughing cant come problem become upset me believe complete asshole know get woman like ever im person to even yells younger brothers four eight nearly nine cant bear see treat like that know feels clam frightening yelled someone bigger you supposed love care you instead screams stupid shit like oreos fuck him wish could move out think would make lot anxiety dissipate right im walking eggshells fathers fiance apparently thinking like which dont say hi her also lied dad told never thanked borrowed car cars battery dead able sleep thank something like that explicitly remember going office thanking her saying youre welcome know heard me just ugh cant make good money right cant get fucking job even though ive trying forever dad wonders want get job instead going college whatever cant handle fulltime classes disqualifies living campus anywhere believe id like get job room friends itd hell lot easier heart here migraines oh god migraines happen least twice week get worse near menstrual cycle used get month around time debilitating would puke puke hours theyre manageable still point actually function one help neurologist wants schedule appointments every three months six months time want life move on like this thanks sometimes feel good something little like dad calling pathetic sets like this know im completely irrational honestly cant help it thats irrational like rabbits hole me dad says im ridiculous people house his fiance daughter literally people house pitch money chores guess cant give money barely chores makes useless piece shit ive disconnected friends wish stayed contact with hard time approaching people hard keep touch dad acted like supportive really doubt that think ever get better see future myself occasionally im able see cute sensitive wise even smart times right one times productive useful never list qualities ive trying get better change situation working even told dad ive feeling like shit recently long drawnout text therapist called heartfelt think took seriously thought bitching fiance id get it well still gotten it now worried enough pills actually million seems may tonight kind feel like sobbing bed sleeping comfortably one time love sleeping thanks reading summary im depressed right point want sleep day barely get bathe even eat live father fiance seem supportive slightest ive trying best get job move least something im pathetic and own eyes everywhere applied turned down especially want this otherwise here mind very long time guess good time any,1 +suicidal ideation ever go awayi objectively good life one thing significantly hard husband tens thousands debt largely due medical issues had subsequently always stressed never save income goes tube debt still deal invisible disability chronic pain medical procedures beyond that made husband wonderful person toddler love whole healthy delightful achieved career dream getting paid art form try give back society working sick children part time outsider would think great life however teen attempted redflag stomach pumped next years though ive never made another attempt ive continued suffer intense suicidal thoughts somewhat dependent external circumstances high school incident swore mother would never again every time ive gotten close anything ive remembered promise look pain precious child would destroyed without me yet much sends state panic sorrow continue suffer trauma rape decade ago past many ways sexual assault news sometimes feel like im girl again room im getting help therapist low dosage anti depressants years everything causes anxiety even things good example objectively least mediumlevel attractive yet obsess ugly feel reality damned hate stomach cant let go achieved career dream yet get states panic writing next book deadline cant it moment lose temper daughter think oh well ill angry fucked mom like mine daughter would better without me im trying say is matter good it self hatred intense desire disappear earth consumes sometimes ways harken back year old oded ambien champagne years therapy antidepressants good life still struggle much anxiety many moments want die ever get better broken person dont feel anyone talk say look good life is theyre right why tonight think wanted jump window dont understand myself really dont,1 +im uselessfirst please forgive formatting im mobile little background me im bipolar self injure terrible self esteem abandonment issues im lost married man know loves me understand depression mood swings fits anger try explain listen hes amazing me recently lost job cannot find one anywhere im putting applications everyday one calls im point feel like im burden suitable wife im useless think redflag constantly put happy face getting cannot fake it ive told husband leave me see someone else come home know good enough would never things want feel like hes stuck outrageous mental defect,1 +life going good went downhill pretty fast depressed left house months severe redflag nowhere think suicide almost one attempt failed scared fail way get issues sad,1 +things feel pointless want dieim constantly numb cant stop thinking killing myself im unemployed cant access meds therapy neither get job due paperwork issues im waiting green card renewal ask friends family were dirt poor cant stop thinking redflag ive talked hotlines help all people keep saying gets better really feels like wont hurts alive im doomed life underemployment discrimination maybe dying best,1 +want stop scaredi want die want die bad want end all want hang myself overdose something maybe gas asphyxiation want quickly with want fall unconscious wake up fucking amazing brain ive endowed likes fun make thought committing act terrifying im scared death im scared dying im scared dead im scared making dead terror instinctual deeprooted illogical want die bad im done get closer every day started making plan moved every day getting bit closer closer executing plan plan ever attempting failing this hopefully inevitably work willpower do want work places go found done methods mind plans action put consideration ive done lot planning lot thought need willpower need fear go away maybe chug ample liquor around ive always good kid never drank done drugs im sure ill able get good buzzed pretty quickly sounds easy sounds fun finally fucking done expending effort takes exist,1 +anyone wanna talk im lying bed pretty bored rn idk else do figured im talk cause late night convos best yeah pm chat vibe ig,0 +one hourim going hour ,1 +someone help tbhi kinda feel sorry myself idk whyi dont believe tbh end day said todays birthday someone else everyone said happy birthdaybut worthless now got surprised cake gift cards personally didnt make happy yes happy justidk made feel worthless sometimes got reason whyive done bad life accept thatthey dont accept friendthey accept weirdo annoying loser ill accept fate statistic all ambitions good arent ambitious allso yeahi need motivation training,1 +thoughts get really intense feeling cant take anymore days lasts couple hours couple weeks ago lasted days days nonstop really sure going itthe thought brought sense relief sense calm really before think want diehad remember depressive feelings hopelessness because depression id like know guys coping strategies ways help feelings stop weather relentless storm less intense week beforethat height farbut im still getting them would wait one minute one minute one more butit almost enough thats scary think about verycomforting think about way too,1 +know else go last resorti think handle life anymore think ever meant live long anyway always thought id kill now am burden family unable function adult completely miserable tired burnt existing would better everyone dead want die want try tread water anymore still feels like drowning brain constantly fogged muddled feel like im experiencing life even thoughts get shift work get car realize remember nearly anything went day suppose life monotonous forgettable like theres wall glass rest world see it mine cant touch experience it thing side glass clear coherent thoughts loneliness numbness depression college shitty community college that work feel pointless consuming im supposed want teacher ive day plans come future ones end grave energy actually pull plans redflag im much tired die mention ive developed couple eating disorders past two years first anorexia binge eating ive lost pounds gained back half it feel disgusting unlovable control am stuck know else do im burden everyone nothing make family miserable ill never enough anyone want die im exhausted wish could die sleep know im hoping posting this know else do guess last resort vent everything event decide end it know know nearly im wishing dead nothing left words maybe tomorrow kill me get hopes up,1 +im fucking sick redflag hotlineim depressed im mentally ill even want die want live want finish school go college want get job kids get married decision based emotions based facts loosen bad redflag is besides loss world die im another waste space whatnot,1 +guys help one online friend saying going commit redflag australia slovakia really lonely said going today please help know say,0 +hate cousins one cousin year old male cousin year old female started loooong argument saying sirenhead comes night minecraft tried explaining mods complain parents im grounded,0 +ruins day wake lol morning wake dissapointment,1 +worth theres girl right weve relationship like weeks said ex tells wait find someone else idk boys abuses drugs alcohol instead actually getting medical treatment depression,0 +never thought id like thiswhen school still hope thought could find something wanted do apply always had yet university losing drive skipping classes assignments thought would comfortable slipping life alone family yet im alone talk anyone days time im family feel constricted stressful trying present version want see thought would girlfriend could least engage flirting casual relationships yet never experienced anyone really romantically sexually interested me im ashamed myself lie university work friends family im ashamed lazy gone psychologist months im ashamed challenging thoughts like asked to family friends supportive lucky continuously stressed trying disappoint try worthy affection think parents would better served different child feel like im burden friends feel foolish caring relationships everyone says care yet pine others cherish relationships easier feelings pretend matter people say need wait happen im going waiting rest life seems feel foolish sometimes come thinking could one cute someone unattractive abrasive boring could ever anyone desire them undesirable noone ever crush me downloaded tinder made profile got zero matches weeks using friends racked uo tens matches think im weird opinionated noone could really interested say romantically alone forever seen happiness future long while assume things would get better im good enough see stress uncertainty unfortunately me live australia hard kill relatively quickly like pain cant find easy way kill would work current small residence im afraid im afraid screwing ending permanently disabled disfigured afraid locked away mental health ward suicidal want pass peacefully cant deal life,1 +drank mix alcohol blood pressure pillsi feel really numb,1 +need find courage iti cant live world cant happy desire keep anything all im still going work insignificant wish courage mind lay cold woods alone peace slit wrists ways dying extreme torturous cant this want this course cant let anyone know fuck dynamic thing look forward to would easier nothing want die dire circumstances id rather go still privelages still enjoy still basic necessities life could done total peace meditate it feel fear etc eventually hopefully enough peace it,1 +watched neighbors house go fire please practice fire safety please please please fire breaks anyway please safe possible one died poor people cant live home right michigan winter pandemic,0 +ill take bonks bonk youre looking people bonk ill scapegoat take bonkening,0 +list people never gotten along dont plan get along milk drinkers people pure bred dogs aquarius people get really breakout rooms school people bad reading loud,0 +feel like im attention seekingi hate living dont even know im alive cant answer that damn want die maybe cutting wrist answer people telling im attention dont want attention ill happily speak talk anyone sit bridge hours ill still attention seeking damn urghhh need die,1 +lost brother heres feellong time lurker first time poster sub lost brother back december selfinflicted gsw let tell feels side emotions come along it received phone call mother am fall floor tears life forever changed nothing could rewind time brother years old life live next two weeks absolute whirlwind cant even describe emotions come seeing brother full life three days prior laying funeral home preparing final physical days earth leave letter wrote board im sorry it many questions never get answer to cremated per wishes healing beganor tried begin strong headed family show weakness sense matter push every obstacle way let tell you death family rocks you redflag family absolutely shatters every emotionlogical sense imagine ever having eight months since lost brother family still shaken core parents absolutely devastated troubles anything positive outlook lives sister sick incurable but controllable disease managing get day day family member medicated plan keeping way someone try keep family afloat let tell you easy me sister due illness decided get hysterectomy longer able children brother longer me leaves continue family name become accepting never uncle never nieces nephews easiest thing world hurt pain miss brother miss moon back wish would come home every single day another day without him forever void soul without him melancholy follows around rest life happy sad times forever never see birth childchildren wedding get bbq new house him get take first legal beer spend summers reminiscing kids point post this loved even though may seem like are people world care you even sub cannot promise get better many many many resources get help feeling like ending all take breath talk someone reach many resources disposal care you love you want walk earth without you tldr brother passed world still shattered eight months later love you please go,1 +im gonna end fuck lifeguys hard truth islife luck fucking shitty lifeno brothersisterparent divorce have see mom fuck rich man change home every year loose friendsalways first school i wanted go live dadmom break phone smash call brother smash force stay momi usless surgeryadenoidectomieafter loose souli could longer feel anything emotionstiredhungryso could longer sleepeven hours sport cant sleep secondemy mom throw dad due circunstance marry rich man rise kids leave like rubbishnow im stuck years old body everweak shit years sleep alli cannot even get fucking erectionim longer good schoolmy dad call fucking crazygirl etci know life ruined cant anything change nobody helpim gonna kill inhaling vodka throw fucking body subwaypeace fuck life fuck god fuck everything wish reborn good health family brother alone,1 +wanna buy pocket psy self want parents parents finding out yall give ideas,0 +stuck throwing girls feel normal shutting everyone alonei would post rdepression people rarely comment unless click bait,1 +got hospital failed last attempt best behavior like week straight get finally let out worth finally get properly end things tonight always give bunch pills discharge helped sign death certificate trying tonight,1 +white girls built like fucking refridgerator always got highest standards like nah bitch im sorry cant high standards whole ass quadrilateral,0 +wanting die cantive manic depression years suicidal ideation included thought abusive household medicated thoughts would go away havent still strong urge kill myself tonight came outlet am im afraid die genuinely want to stopping family ive moved away job take care elderly personal support worker however enough least tonight dont know do know better give suicidal parts eventually nightmare end right im danger dont want anyone panic dont anything apartment could feasibly kill with im really struggling,1 +really want die last attempt october want give family time process betteri really want die living feels wrong im sure ill never satisfied life matter much try im medication go therapy speak languages study two careers time yet feel im stupid useless person ever existed friends still feel lonely people think im pretty cant even look without crying eyes out barely eat take showers anymore im taking care all deserve alive want anyway im disgusting ungrateful worst person ever existed ive trying make plan redflag seems like accident last attempt october want make parents sister go experience again also would love self harm rn promised mom anymore ive clean two months seem worth it know do,1 +offbrand right point falls floor lands fluff fluff someone enters room end pretty unrealistic scenario didnt anticipate anything happened except fluffing probably cuz redacted probably expected realistic,0 +hello im b r e k questionn answer reference f matters and u ask dms actually flooded w creeps,0 +okay stream running obs black screen like hours idk fuck stream went tf found went phub realized streamline black screen where ion fucking know,0 +say yeaeeeahh excuse bitch know name smack cross roooooooom,0 +im sure anyone proud im posting anyway stood mom maybe first time history im shaking every time walk room sister constantly disrespect quiet even tho theyre reason happens im scared talk came room ask telescope said needed taking im proud finally took stand tldr finally stood disrespectful mother,0 +fan paris jetaime went see new york love high expectations gladly walked expectations met funny sweet fastpaced entertaining film starts two cab hoppers bradley cooper justin bartha trying get area arguing way go funny film goes best skits ever seen anywhere four amazing ones good ones four start talking about one features shia labeouf bellhop hotel finds love old lady next one features orlando bloom music maker business woman played christina ricci another one features anton yelchin olivia thirbly two people going prom thirblys character handicapped best one features eli wallach cloris leachman bickering old couple bring attention nataile portman makes impressive directorial debut directing writing skit caretaker ethan hawke maggie q excellent flirting man hooker new york love definitely good better paris jetaime skits wellpaced film shows indie films really be film however many famous directors paris jetaime fantastic live excellence want laugh see great dramatic effects see amazing amount great performances plain entertained definitely go see new york love you,0 +hate ever want retype hands shake ampxb httpsredbirdcompersonalpersonalthreehttpsredbirdcompersonalpersonalthree ampxb let lesson road safety,0 +anyone conversation im really bored rn hmu ig,0 +anything fineim yr old boy fucking old ass dad always shouts play computer says fucking study knows top student science school even care thinks im lazy planning kill today get fucking home ill find overpass throw cars passing by,1 +anyone else comment bunch posts get replies feel less lonely im right now,0 +chronic asthma allergy feel sick everyday tired gasp breath even simplest tasks able work home barely getting tired burned out hard even simple tasks acute attacks trigger feels like life ripped body struggle oxygen add allergy foods means able eat foods weakened digestion suffer pain food poisoning eat something may contain allergic ingredients sometimes feel exist every day samegetting dragging shitty body work even unable keep normal tasks getting rebuked work coming home repeating thing cannot imagine fucking death watching people die due lack oxygen painful even watch cannot eat anything drink gasping breath coupled depression makes experience even better tired,1 +seen wonderful production wonder anyone tell anything actress played blacksmiths wifei sure characters name went byu lost touch herher maiden name kim lukeand wonder anyone info her listed credits production outstanding tearjerker accounts superb acting all guess even want put general category acting like portraying feeling amazing events led opening heavens final dispensationsomething like that anyone worked kim website something please let know fantastic role waythanks melissa thorne,0 +im embarrassment need endedall fill family shame worry im pretty much useless point would better dead dont burden anybody again know every response going convincing otherwise ive heard all anyone anything say feel free dont want exist planet anymore wish options,1 +cant go back college reason stay alivemy college announced cant go back essentially entire year thing made happy first time ever felt happy live horrible home situation indefinitely see reason stay alive know ill eventually go back dont think survive another year want get kill,1 +go hellobviously title assume im christcuck im proudly christian ill take advice anyone want jesus dont want hurting dont want see like this dont let people around see am ive tried dont know anymore dont know im really tired gotta get early mornin reckon ill stay around im edge right now try stay away going online im like cause say things dont mean dont want go hell selfishness,1 +literally living like everyday lasteverytime talk someone think wonder theyll react find im dead tomorrow eating something so probably last meal think ill actually means proper plan kill ready times im particularly depressed right been three years know healthy gives sort peace deal anything anymore,1 +good morning all anonymous redflag notei know guys get time deal swimmingly fact helped occasions different accounts that thank ye tired exhausted almost two months ago serious depression thoughts occurred cheated left moved regret it tried reaching letting know serious care well fuck then started years ago father died collapsed since skinny ugly person inside out emotions thoughts crush me wish could make understand random stranger way know do making choice talk it could least give suggestion last day tell everyone love them write notes send videos antidepressants helping therapy helping many people save me even act like want to ive going insane feel peace knowing im do life beautiful hope goes little better mine did love all thank everything,1 +help situationhey reddit responded post day person stated former military addiction issue dming quickly realizing head really idea do know person would call local police wellness check looking suggestions user akumaxchumli guidance would appreciated,1 +live society mitochondria powerhouse cell,0 +holy fucking shit redditors assholes last pos tliterallt comments got encouraging kill myselfand noi wasnt karma whoringlook historyi clearly despise yesi probably gonna end doign it unless reddit usually offer atleast support nopefucking encouragement yeahuimafemboybitch im doign said do much welcome,0 +realized opposidte windmil darwin woaww teenaregrs r ash teenagers hahaaaaa,0 +want kill im scared dieim need help find courage kill mean particular reason everyone uses throws away get shouted lunch time people constantly call whore tell nobody wants sometimes teachers join call disgusting talk class disgusting think everyone basically hates person bf ended cheating different girls told pretended fall love could sleep said actually like said im weird also struggle lot mental health issues ive trying hard get better hard people stuff every single day said im crazy everyone thinks stand didnt want everyone hate too told im suicidal said no youre not you wont it really want im scared dont want family especially little brothers find scared would affect cant anymore wish someone would shoot,1 +really hard understand movie watched expectations knowledge story games completely blown awaybr br initially wondered characters sort superpowers called final fantasy also wondered clouds past easy enough look up way questions spoil enjoyment movie though opposite shows kept thinking story long seeing moviebr br its one beautiful movies eyes ever seen music supports movie completely characters incredible br br i want more,0 +try get rtx since like double price could many bots rly get instantly idk would it maybe keep rly need it jew sell it,0 +im barbie girl barbie world life plastic fantastic brush hair undress everywhere imagination life creation im blond bimbo girl fantasy world dress up make tight im dolly doll rocknroll feel glamour pink kiss here touch there hanky panky,0 +people understand tell evade answers feel like monstrosity shut blinds outside world hide away worry morning upcoming day night arrives fine right turns turbulent redflag night shake head one feels way take meds daily occurrence ever end hate paranoia internal mindset get told get better change try frankly thats never good answer,1 +wish could end without sufferingfrankly want dead life change whatever do mental suffering stop like world is never change feel place here cant happy every day torture me wish could die accidently naturally go sleep never wake again get hit car face instant death get want please point staying alive never happy reached limit know post change thing neither comments needed vent somewhere,1 +im shitif someone mean get feeling someone treats unfair way tend get really angry think called impulsive started university two weeks people already noticed cant shut need to always problem friend told might get killed someday that girl studies told maybe go therapist behaviour already am ive years now want anymore tried hard change really thought did want go university anymore im shit life shit ill never ever happy really want leave,1 +world better without mefor last months ive feeling like hurdle world people approach need something have im grad school new university seems everybody else built friendships undergrad years theres need me then used group friends online ive part of fell apart january bloke ive pretty close turned cold towards but towards rest group yes ive tried reach him take initiative complicated subject uni judging professor talks me assumes dumbo yes mr professor sir count much that suspect profiling im girl long blond hair wear glasses talk students like that even fail answer questions thursday lost new friend speaking mind friend public place suggested go separate ways entirety today straw broke camels back cashier rude made honest mistake mum showed vividly care less feelings talked dad world would much better place without me im inconvenient uninteresting stupid death would increase worlds intelligence overall happiness margin fair tired inconvenient ashamed existing circumstance people find efficient way it make least mess death people deal with,1 +cry whenever rewatch show like already know whats coming currently bawling eyes end season orange new black,0 +problem would like experiment try new things life feel restrained parents arewould try stop mecare completely dread form judgement them even though intellectually know would passively disapprove leads strange emotional situation desperately want experiment personality also terrified step line fear literally nothing solutions dilemma welcome,0 +black hair look good best thing everits enough make fall love someone,0 +god hate liberal gen z problem liberals need political diversity libertarian somewhat centrist gen z somewhat becuase social media incredibly liberal cant different opinion whatever main stream thoughts are,0 +although premise movie involves major coincidence actors creditable job look great bringing story life found rooting characters played mary tyler moore christine lahti empathizing both wanting reconcile sam waterston ted danson fine roles well decent job stereotypical buddy relationship story tends leap time occasionally leaving audience perhaps little hungry missing detail still flows avoids real confusion interesting storyline elements good chick flick,0 +see lot yall asking somebody close suicidal thoughts answer them make sure know positively impact life crush suicidal thoughts maybe go it give self esteem boost love them youre going something similar talk problems makes feel safe opening theirs talk think theyre gonna great future coming someone wishes friends lost friendcrush redflag id like think know thing two,0 +ever look worst best pics think fuck person like seriously supposed know actually look like,0 +march august its years constant pain cant handle anymore im gonna meet best friend tonight fun one last time go home maybe spend time cat call siblings text friends pretend go bed hang parents asleep ive done research written note even tested noose thanks support ive received subreddit goodbye,1 +sitting work reading postsso im sitting work reading posts make feel many things sadness numbness sick time people feel feel hate knowing people feel way wish could change that always scolded friends nice people want know why never want people feel feel never know someone going through moment nice someone change persons mind ending life hide depression least try family good friends know it dont know bad gets besides immediate family dont talk it cant words dont come mouth hate feeling pain suffocating hurts people try help dont understand unless go something similar every single day think death every single day never attempted redflag completely scenes crossed mind almost like visions want help help doesnt even help medications dont work me therapy doesnt feel fucked up feel defeated im lazy im tired dont energy care anything exhausting vent many others are truly feel like would like end life soon understand extent feel in way would love talk you love helping others maybe help other may bit hypocritical dont really consider bc dont think could ever truly go final punch remember people care even dont think do sometimes monsters head want feel otherwise try constantly tell tomorrow new day maybe something positive come about,1 +always think overdosing xanax getting blackout drunki feel lonely bored always fantasize killing xanax alcohol itd thing would keep feeling lonely want anyways,1 +didnt hear death horny russian space geckos that years old httpswwwyoutubecomplaylistlistplhraf_wxpgri_mplcjga_xvlvwbhow hear,0 +another failed redflag attemptim sorry need get chest cant take anymore pain numbing sadness feeling guilt reason selfloathing voices everything want stop tried end again always fail lost count failed attempts im weak im failure cant even kill properly mind wouldnt shut up numbing sadness wouldnt stop none would stop gotten fight mum couldnt take anymore already ledge pushed me got noose already tied hidden closet mum wasnt home moment father work time tied bar closet high up climbed onto shelf closet closet small easily able reach noose there stuck head it tested moving ledge shelf would high enough properly kill me it thought it would over slid shelf held arms almost there let go close saw picture mum i picture hugging me light still eyes hadnt left looked happy picture mum happy mind filled memories mum i remembered words told me would always love me broke crying pushed back onto shelf sat crying couldnt it wanted it couldnt scared it scared mum would react remembered say would mess one kids died still alive remembered said shed probably kill herself selfish tried kill even heard mum say painful would loose child devastated would be im still selfish want die still want kill even though mum would sad im terrible im coward ever run im ungrateful people dying cancer hospitals people much worse me yet am hating fact im alive trying end life much better people yet wish could die im ungrateful selfish coward shouldve never born,1 +ok would judge movie days fit wellif watched fi stage everything pretty cheese agreebut movies s like thatgilliganwonderwomanasobut people born early mid s earlier cult status evertime plane approach tattoo would run tower ring bell accent would yell da plane boss da plane would wonder everybodys wish would bepeople born mid s later understand hippe watched nowit harry potterjurassic park computer animation fxit stage probably could even almost see wire attached guy whos wish able flybut us time fantasy island,0 +someone bonk ,0 +feels like ive forever everything exact every week got school get home watch youtubetv day repeat point feels like ive done life everything feels distant life like thinking friends did really happen feels different one fun friends school ever think future hope someday ill overcome endless cycle nothingness luckily years till college hopefully change things btw months till im ,0 +healoo fello guys sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecrsft among us theres ppl console nintendo channel channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link d,0 +im calling uyoutakethemoon poisoned put water supply burnt crops delivered plaughr upon houses also took username,0 +bit long back story here adopted child proper legal adoption residency order live aunt uncle underdetermined amount time year aunt uncle split uncle kept my aunt one actually related to social services never really got involved past point uncle adoptive father started dating woman would come know mum i always knew werent biological destructive relationship adoptive father incredibly abusive towards like attempted stabbing trying set fire front me never abusive towards fact treated like untouchable fostered resentment mum eventually spilt years ago ive spoken dad sincemy mum works hospital informed admitted ward works potentially lung cancer mum practically gleeful cosmic karma horrible person im uncomfortable happy hes ill ive really spoken shes one suffered cant really tell deal seems bit much happy,1 +wish man whos going thru bs im going thruwe could depressedmiserable together hate whole world together intimate kids cuz capable taking care unstable minds someone feels exact way feel alone anymore sighsss ,1 +thirty years initial release third version a star born finally comes dvd package please devoted fans barbra streisand would include since saw concert singing among numbers feminist anthem woman moon film easy dismiss movies careerpolarizing story sturdy pile hollywoodstyle clichs variations exist films including streisands funny girl time reset thencontemporary music scene timeworn plot follows selfdestructive rock star john norman howard deepdive career descent meets club singer esther hoffman awaiting big breakbr br troubles dog courtship outset john norman both names please responds grasping fans bloodless djs random acts violence from inexplicably escapes prosecution john norman esther represents last shot happiness turn drawn innately decent creative musician underneath faade movies pivotal scene gives esther big break benefit concert career takes off inevitably cant handle failure career light meteoric success familiar version story know rest directed frank pierson although streisands budding directorial talents obviously display film still manages draw in even though know shamelessly contrived manipulative still certain emotional resonance despite numerous flawsbr br although streisand prime seems like ideal choice play rising singing star screen persona simply strong predefined play esther credibly said performing style since script seems make allowances softer adult contemporaryoriented material accepted within otherwise hardened world arena rock moment pops head middle oreos cant help come across established star forgive lapse simply unparalleled vocal talent becomes less forgiving makes esther strident poignant john normans woes become overwhelming creates oddly discomfiting dynamic last part film becomes less caused climactic event esthers response it capped uninterrupted eightminute closeup memorial performance great except regrettably mimics john normans style toward endbr br kristofferson hand gives superb performance throughout managing level honesty grounds film makes palpable concurrent feelings love pride resentment toward esther makes vodkasoaked onstage growling work within context otherwise always strikes strange version supporting characters relegated background exist unless interacting two principals ones register paul mazursky john normans levelheaded manager brian gary busey cynical band manager bobbie veteran cameraman robert surtees provides nice burnish cinematography though level graininess persists print big seller day soundtrack hodgepodge different styles s songs still quite good everything woman moon watch closely now moved kitsch queen bee kenny loggins i believe love course inescapable evergreenbr br the print transfer dvd clean sound gratefully crisp thanks digital remastering streisands participation chief lure extras beginning featurelength commentary gives insightful information genesis film casting reportedly troubled production also refreshingly candid megalomania jon peters hairdresser boyfriend became movies producer dissatisfaction pierson director wish could provided scenespecific comments directly relate screen also tends repeat anecdotes mood strikes her eg gets tiring hear third time person playing chauffeur friend peters think second commentator could drawn nuggets herbr br there wardrobe test reel shows amusing s clothes especially kristoffersons mixedfabric poncho orange polyester shirt also twelve deleted scenes included streisands optional commentary one comic breadbaking scene reminded much like streisand farcical comedies another extended scene plays evergreen guitar front awestruck kristofferson falls asleep interesting alternate take musical finale incorporating fast cuts agree streisand used fittingly theatrical trailers three versions a star born also included,0 +nobody gets enough love anymore people say attractive people think world lot polite actually is think sucks world polite accepting black friends get lot hate online person like wtf fault born way im make internet little polite heres virtual hug and maybe kiss deserve it notice pain want know well love hope made daynight little better suffering take hug anyways love amazing people incredible talents personalities,0 +uninstalled social media apps except whatsapp reddit days ago asked crush long story short left seen cant say depressed really sad school fake smiles everytime theres one person knows story prepared tell others this one day saw story crush started smoking really fan smoking people tried speak normal way like sending memes kept leaving seen im weeb started watching romancedrama animes make feel better loved sakuta bunnygirl senpai thrown away smartphone distance people following actions yesterday uninstalled social media apps except whatsapp reddit distance people keep distracted reinstalling apps bought manga books read find better me sorry english bad sometimes english native language,0 +sick this killing next summeri cant live anymore im giving time write letters cant anymore die loveless dumbass shitty age thats fine me doubt anyone wants letter me maybe simple goodbye suffice,1 +something beginning surely end right soon believe nothing maybe enough courage it afraid afterlife actually believe nothingness,1 +made sub ridkpogthighchurch join bubs,0 +cant cope anymorei badly want end thing preventing hurting family friends talk to cant talk family feel completely destroyed person know anymore,1 +posted yet everyone probably experienced redflag one isolating conditions even adult surrounded adults school feel isolated really disappointing students class cant seem grasp concept redflag people veterans fundamental lack understanding resulted alienation reason dissociations sufferers former military unacceptable,1 +screw hookups sex want friend group laugh other want midnight cravings go convenient store late night gazing neon signs filling dark sky purchase cheap ramen want cuddles boyfriend want go walk listening music playlist sun slowly setting totally okay youre virgin treating flexseeing person weird virgin wrong,0 +miss h going reddit morning noticed friends dm said name one member me user deleted feel like lost part me please come back hope see this devastated,0 +school makes want kill myselfi cant fucking math cant literally impossible instead trying help students schools punish students dont know fuck polynomials work like me thing school taught im reason cant math get rid problem stuff good mainly drumming gets taken away fail class cant even that problems life fault,1 +parents care anymoreim studying living parents depressed since th grade never trusted psychiatrists never got help except random spiritual people nowadays say even shout ill kill myself say go hell worse emotion mother facebook addict father addicted tv technology took away people had every day like this return college mom gives something eat talks food whenever try talk anything else deliberately starts avoiding simply walks away goes facebook watches videos cats talented people father returns watches sports documentary go back room watch youtube maybe homework whenever cant show happiness get day later possesed yesterday pet cat creature world shows real love eat everything find since love get go sleep wake try change better run energy sleep yesterday tied belt around neck felt good know door hell matter gravity letting go fear failing keeps back long tldr franz kafka metamorphosis irl,1 +tips stop drinking much soda im fat considering much soda drink really be im addicted soda done worse me bad acne hard maintain white teeth makes get chubby realized better stop becomes life long thing case wondering either coke mtn dew,0 +recommend music listen im bored cant fall asleep guys know good songs bands,0 +people k karma like long planning keep virginity for,0 +playlist dry af recommend songs listen to ill listen anything except country thx playlist dry past month feel free give music recommendations like title says ill listen anything except country,0 +slim jim kid forgot name im going call sj for slim jim ill get story soon middle school rd period pe pretty quickly sj became friend him me girl talking period every day funny adventures together first ill talk slim jim story sj always looked behind bleachers bo reason coach never paid attention one day sj found old hard gross slim jim sj asked wanted shank steven the kid everyone hates especially me told stupid idea asked girl hung us told while holding back laugh it it sj shanked kid meat stick another less funny event forgot adhd meds managed break glasses attack me friend steven like days days pushing kid half size away girl foot taller didnt hurt or himself got mad me avoid head first charging minutes day got yelled pushing him sj got sent nurse charging students head first told sj bi thought meant slept guy girl explain attracted someone different sex illegally conversation went lgbtq stuff reason thought trans girl definitely wasnt sj youre reading go get help buddy insane tldr crazy friend shanked kid stick meat insane things,0 +helping everyone going help me hearing comments make depression makes feel disgusted thought would understand feels one seems care me could disappear one would notice why wrong want like everyone else tired keeping everything myself one talk to sorry need get out tired,1 +national people day instead womans day mens day celebrate every human matter,0 +me trying eat food park peace dumb crackhead bitches parking lot right next riding bike circles true story theyre pissing rn,0 +crush groped me little forewarning go somewhat depth touched friends told crush f m her friends along time hoping would pass off fast forward days walk biology class surprise sat class chose seat next me we hybrid schedule share environmental bio class teacher told us partner table partner grouped work learning module pretty shy first min say much decided break silence ask day went back forth there started talk sperate live going talking tried look chest she wearing somewhat reavling shirt period time started get off started share mentioned uncle arrested something tried put hand thigh comforting manner ended turning side could face hand landed crotch area immediately fell silent faces flushed red neither us moved felt like hr and yes includes hand use akwardly sitting started feel thumb move back forth thing whole time sorta stared chromebook screen course guy girl falling last years puts hand it got noticbly harder rest period kept hand continued work module days since occured go back monday mind still stuck analyzing happened do,0 +cary grant myrna loy perfectly cast middle class couple want build house dreams starts reasonable plans expectations blown bits countless complications explosion original budgetbr br there many great laughs even story somewhat thin sure entertain fans stars late s hollywood comedy style definite highlight comes contractor goes run expenses must sounded quite excessive audience makes exit assures client grant perhaps could achieve reduction totalor least but certainly hilarious,0 +weve done boys tiktok tiktok illegal download us sweet victory,0 +movie great like every international project includes strong impressions three israel bosnia egypt cut out especially bosnian clip pathetic beyond reason contain single original thought element own everything else really great unrecognizable americans known rest world unfortunately clips speak misery people world and see it many give damn itbr br top loach penn inarritu lalouche imamura,0 +hope reincarnation doesnt existthis really redflag never want return earth pass even best conditions even could come back everything world even though still good world terrible place dont want return reason,1 +sure okaydisclaimer think want kill myself im tired struggling force mundane tasks im tired going sleep feeling nothing next day look forward to im tired convincing make better journal get lots sleep study hard exercise things pick up im tired convincing every day smoke little weed take tiny sip vodka feel better able relax function like normal productive member society im tired feeling nothing enough im tired feeling guilty whenever try relax always something improve chances getting job list goes on im tired thanks coming ted talk,1 +mods mad got completely server muted discord server spam voice gifs called discord mods fat pedophiles mod voice smh,0 +starting today im going attempt fix sleep schedule school starts couple days plan go sleep get yeah interesting story ik,0 +guess id set fail life goodbye world hope happier without meas title says im stuck right now fight past two days work finances ive helpful all fulltime office job cant fulltime office job nearly got terminated resigned instead avoid shame fucked bigtime previous workplace fed way deal time workdesks manipulated time system thats reason quiti really lot ampxb said know could still employed again right now im freelance recruiter manager esl teachers earn much operations started recentlyi five teachers im paid per class done money runs quickly frustrated lately regards that ampxb life would surely better gone shit nmom edad focused whats wrong life then nmoms help maybe id greatpaying supervisory job now hell least something bearable do ampxb unfortunately think still employed again maybe life meant be perhaps would better dead start call center similar toxic work environment perhaps right photographer case goodbye everyone broken dreams someone hand gun exactly one bullet chambered please edit spent hell time trying get another job prior resignation want hire all help want write shit boring articles anymore then,1 +suicidal girl met online suddenly stop suicidal become happy never realized till blocked me liked could date kept getting thoughts date year blocked became confused found waited year started getting suicidal thoughts again helped get rid thoughts never realized never told want date feel like cannot live without her talked many girls online n person feel like one actually like talk to people say move know explain cannot live without her feel like found person actually fell love messed know want know ur thoughts,1 +someone teach language heyim caroline wanna learn language wanna start anything advanced thocomment interested,0 +hate quarantine miss able socialize people even though im awkward chill friends also wish could talk girl since were person cant almost year since quarantine started im slowly growing insane,0 +think im going kill sooni think killing time im always much pussy actual follow through first problem never find anything relatively painless with methods guaranteed kill me embarrassing would attempted redflag live deal pity people know second problem father already lost mother long time ago know im like last link her want father honestly im getting point think might selfish end all sake know hurt people know honestly im sure care anymore ive lived like long want control fate hate ungodly degree sometimes imagine ripping skin crawl out im trash useless death mean nothing life meant nothing really nothing confess plan do exact plan yet idea im either gonna swallow bleach bug poison high drugs dont know drugs yet hope kills me thanks reading guess please follow footsteps im idiot last resort,1 +actually feeling like trash second day feeling like trash crying idk school started crusader kings ,0 +point call redflag hotlineive thinking it ive worried whether since know im worthy attempted redflag yet im commit redflag suicidal thoughts showing multiple times per day call redflag hotline,1 +boyfriend broke help im spiraling,0 +im watching assassination classroom right far bad,0 +even fit birds shite sub man yutes west yano kid,0 +please someone talk meim panic attack induced nightmare ex bf havent slept years nightmares traumas life im turn see ability turn life around right im hyperventilating holding razor neck cards dealt horribly ruined life trying school mom dad dead adopted parents hate tried kick police said wait im im tired burden unloveable everyone says im young make decision ive suicidal since rd grade havent exhausted every option dont care want sleep im uselesss unloveable whats point suffering also one stopping everyone around says ok,1 +movie best film ever cant remember last time movie drawn tears me tear eye admire movie elements good movie must have excellent dialogues music acting storyplot story friendship courage kindliness loyalty street performing famous king masks little girl sold boy serf bazaar little girl liked granddaughter king masks liked grandson conventional real every scene together priceless camera work flawless grips you acting inspired xu zhu excellent king masks renying zhou doggie looks pretty played character well zhigang zhao liang sao lang great played helpful kindhearted character extremely well havet movie try once watch it,0 +well disagree leonard maltin animated short loves claimed hilarious enjoyed see humor even like hockey know anything it still loved story living right across border canada watched hockey years buffalobut think much cartoon oh interesting know would happen wore toronto jersey quebec area disaster especially holds true glory years les canadians however make story funny br br back s everyone quebec provinces idolized montreal canadians star player maurice richard everyone wanted like him mother orders new sweater toronto maple leafs emblem it kid want caught dead wearing it finally heads local rink gets ostracized rest hockey buddies whats funny that could see thing happening kid boston red sox diehard mom gets yankees shirt horrors wear it viceversabr br maybe someone follow sports all like maltin situation seems odd humorous himbut fact life bittime sports fan favorite team interesting story totally believable nothing made laughbr br the art fun look throughout almost like looking long series crayon paintings done talented school kid french canadian accent good too movie part dvd leonard maltins animation favorites national film board canada,0 +females late teen mark need help context m autistic social understanding recognising someones emotions based facial expression voice alone hard me want ask like someone do either get attention something try hide feelings fail miserably dont suspect girl know likes way like case thing yknow,0 +br br i seen movie many times least dozen unfortunatly recently however etched memory never leave scene mickey rooney killer mears knows executed getting close moment truth dances cries laughs vacillates hesteria euphoria runs gambit ever emotion never seen brilliant performance actor living dead past present know sure mickey rooney yes andy hardy actor great genius however kept it opinion years thinking surely must alone viewpoint years saw film last time television chanced read old q section los angeles times question posed lawrence olivier question was mr olivier considered one greatest actors time consider among greatest actors answer was peter finch mickey rooney stunned surprised immediatly flashed back killer mears felt good seen great ability him view supported another whos work admired later course bill many great moments mikey rooney film the last mile seen acting students frankly cannot remember great deal film years mr rooney it never leave me anyone remembers film do would interested hearing you picture etched heart alone gave face performance,0 +quick message everyone breathing blinking manually looking amazing today,0 +want talk buti want talk im afraid to tried asking problem radvice respondents sided source pain im distrustful professional therapists go detail got hit you wanted happen attitude prevalent western society just want go away think will though im afraid pain nonexistence,1 +going end hell anyway bully would probably going find new victim die make life miserable mine going kms bring together hell least one suffer like going kms take away right,1 +sticky sticky ricky got stuck inside chimney,0 +finally ready dieive depressed long time ever since never truly happy suffering due ugliness unforgivingness idiocy hatred family country two days ago straw broke camels back mom one people truly believed believed me told failure never amount anything always trying latch bit hope miserable life trying best stay alive hoping happy ending trying find someonesomething live foror maybe finally able love someone curious phenomenon wait see through give life meaning rather let stay pain is sure possible anymore every day ask life ever going become worthwhile going matter long run worth embarrassmentthe tearsthe painand work maybe one mistake could ruin endured knowing knowing much idiot be knowing even defending believe could get worst situation one live right now due much more sure life never going liveable never mind good ever matter matter hard try always broken unrepairable guess good bye cruel world,1 +im going kill myselfi hate myself im going kill soon set date know im going jump bridge know going soon im going stay true word it cry help promise theres saving me hate myself,1 +cant sleepi much mind ik im tired thoughts keeping up im thinking go jail one day seeing warrants me hate life cant understand me others blessed everything could possibly want nothing sure family loves cares u want die wish luck would magically come way miracles actually thing anyone could make life worth living dont want die want live full life kids see kids own right dont see anything bright future darkness hope light end tunnel im tired acting like everything ok im tired saying im sleepy someone ask whats wrong shouldnt wish bad anyone especially mother wish dead could go killing self mom reason im still alive dont want kill self knowing cry years thinking failed me really failed self god hate em much could u watch ur creations suffer much suffering entertainment u u actually love us eyes u pick choose u love bless cant understand people world hell earth want go theres nothing me im fit time would rather born slaver maybe would drive fight,1 +sex comedy though driven fantastically imaginative plot concentrates effectively relationship filmdirector crew process filmmaking whilst successfully addressing dynamics human relationships specifically issues problems encountered actors involved filming sex scenes director jeanne features prominently throughout carries plot forward place narrator gives us numerous little pearls wisdom think about social commentator relating assistant others problems finds new male lead way associating masculine stereotype ambiguous relationship typifies something human nature tendency fickle one hand two seem close sight claims hate him jeanne also addresses masculine pride perhaps feminist take thingsbr br the taboo constitutes obscenity raised content sex scenes considered obscene beautiful fakeness constitutes obscenity directors justification is however doubly ironic film watch construct within constructbr br theres film relationships course watching film simply question analysing sake drawing sort meaning one delight natural lighting pervades movie makes realistic believable static camera sometimes used taking heavy composition times camera appears shaky like home movie looking something fun watch sunday afternoon heavy still leaves thinking it,0 +thing keeping alive inability think method people love believe accident wantthrowaway obviously metaphor struggle depression writer plenty articles write cant focus anymore think exboyfriendnot want back im kind crazybut strung along fwb posting much hated me posting lies me acting kind enough face couldnt found reddit use independently said spoke afraid would kill didnt cant kill hed vindicated hate taking option away regrettably friends want take sides alternate partynights main friend hosts believe friends care me one good friend outside circle town loyal friends international now cant go them know make new friends know anyone would want friend fat failing twentysomething guts apply work abroad barely enough work making money alli live home parents truly love me though would never want find body bathtub want die broken heart know live one problems big enough justify redflag disinterested living anymore edit adding exs betrayal evidence four years picked good man ex first boyfriend since sexual assault sexual assault man love abandoned over,1 +one favorites betty white leslie neilson sparkle romantic comedy one business executive reevaluates life based expectation death within year playboy tired golddigging young women seeks relationship vital mature woman got silver hair andor romance heart microwave popcorn curl honey prepare treat,0 +spot fake apology most time hello rteenagers today want share wisdom spot fake apology dont always apply time do mainly want share know people genuinely trying apologize you where it apologizing group chat friends might fake apology usually done private group chat basically saying hey guys look apologized stop mad like said wont always apply instance tried apologize private wouldnt let them if try shift blame little one feel like hit miss people naturally talk way without intending rude say things like well well kinda trying shift blame onto seems like justified feel like forgive hey maybe fault wasnt the reason theyre it theyre apologizing let back friend group reinvited somewhere might fake apology really wanted stay friend group wouldnt done thing you let back gives chance again something uninvite somewhere like birthday wedding apologize get back spend time you enjoy lazar tag things spot like said guaranteed apology fake could mean that want people learn spot dont get stuck toxic people,0 +life tried resist parents workim parents planning long international family vacation want go depression kicking ass horrendous motion sickness gives anxiety think handle hour flight also hard time private space usually meltdowns kinds vacations want go trip ive trying tell weeks never took seriously paid attention now first asked decided state demand stay home ive stayed home alone week long periods past before say stay home alone time decided cant use car rest life stay home leave door open security cameras pointed tell love ive ruined parentchild relationship forever say priorities straight im school im training new job ive never done kinds rebellious things cancelled flight already apologize itll seem like im material gain already think im using money know going happen feels like cant fix it thing thats keeping going boyfriend barely im ready end all feels like concept freedom taken away me doubt theyll understand listen that ive said would kill multiple times past told shut up want die front prove im faking it,1 +wanted lovedi never really felt loved parents never affectionate me fault never told wanted hug envy people good relationships parents fault me telling enough shove away me boyfriend trusted him nightmares leave alone im getting drunk sleep better maybe genetics mom like that uncle like that seven years feelings rollercoaster end want feel numb forever feelings nightmares much,1 +okay girl give awards hello girl real human girl ampxb httpspreviewredditkivumjagbpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseeecffaeffda,0 +goodnight encoresish tail end never quite successful enough music career never hit enough get by quite home love life said cant give anymore love someone whos never there cant grow up out row go groupie love never either way family never agreed career choice dont talk years without making it proves probably right k debt keeping dream going bed day unable write music unable get excited another full venue friends tired misery st world problems say call night night cheap hotels cheap apartment months laundry floor terrified answer phone hear bad news got triple lethal dose painkillers home take all double damage mixed bourbon thought stayed me day month im gas things love scare me thought giving annihilates identity leaving signpost others foolish enough put growing chase dream get life first makes happy build deck take trip work job save money boring happy nobody owes shit put notes together like everyone else lost hope change continue flounder disappoint make whats easy hard try make whats hard easy let down again redundant inefficiency system must corrected goodnight earth band done lights on im going home one last time sleep goodbye loved all,1 +im really depressed terribly bad situation think right make choicethis going sound unorthodox im depressed feel bad all really come realization life want one thats going happen me ive tried achieve certain set goals long time able reach them feel cant life want really want would prefer optout existence life inherent meaning value itself think lifes value determined person values life value life since life personal thing ever exist think right arbitrator happens continues simply decided want life end may moral objection decision affect friends family want suffer think really get say life continence however since want haunted choice rest lives probably come coverup story move somewhere far away first way itll seem like fell touch im still alive somewhere else one asks born think societys fixation protecting ones life even goes ones wishes unjustified,1 +anyone numbers game im guy bi thats much bothered write,0 +enough money saved year year life leftive started new job sadly seems like kind drudgery ive past years unemployed june september first time years looking back first period decade think ending every week since skills sell and even im starting resent sell time ill turning next year also relationship see way out might well enjoy year end it,1 +need talk someonehelp,1 +deal suicidal thoughtshey guys lately ive thinking lot redflag kinda scares me feel like l time continues starting accept fantasys killing myself afraid actually committing redflag get chance talk professionals guys methods deal kind thoughts,1 +aspergers bipolar ocd etc im completely burnt out also appears im starting auditory hallucinations ive bounced many psych hospitals psych help one have still need helpif would humor me listed posts below im exhausted write op tonight psychiatry appointment tomorrow nothing change saw first psychiatrist age meds ineffective im highly sensitive side effectsoftentimes both please give find right med spiel med game years groupsiops intensive oneonone hospitalization month ive done too im ect candidate ill pass that im depressed may auditory hallucinations something that psychiatrist tomorrow httpswwwredditcomrbipolarcommentsqerjim_very_depressed_and_i_may_be_having_some im yet able manage life well redflag mind heart everyday long time im tired life think bear much longer httpswwwredditcomraspergirlscommentsonfim__i_have_yet_to_be_able_to_manage_my_life us denied ss disability pull records psychiatric hospitalizations since turned listed contact psychiatrist im job since parttime less months talk doctor httpswwwredditcomrautismcommentsnfbqus_i_was_denied_ss_disability_and_they_didnt_pull usa assume unable work due asd need advice social security disability claim denied without review ineligible grounds never held job long apply help httpswwwredditcomrautismcommentspdkusa_i_assume_some_of_you_are_or_were_unable_to,1 +since j michael straczynskis babylon television show captured wonderful art applying story arc television show easily best thing tv right now characters likable one easily get attached care wellbeing villians type love hate leave wondering theyre next brian hensens puppet work innovative there kudos rockne s obannon job well done,0 +like les amants du pontneuf two outsiders lives love story without concessions film consists lot interesting conversation lot sweet moments best one comes listening booth listen record together look other talk like other suggests change lives hope realistic stylestrokes realistic but emotive dialogs really mathematic screenwriters work film spanish novel director jesus ponce creates one perfect gallery latest year spanish cinema,0 +star light star bright first star see tonight wish may wish might let survive nighteverything seems like opportunity today walking home easy would jump front car kitchen many knives right there room live seventh floor building desk medications lots them deluded thinking need want torment end,1 +today year spent doin nothing severe depression tried goin employment centeri meeting legally allowed work and meeting cried lot outside parking area redflag redflag feeling went back home exhausted done nothing day layed bed thought miserable am headache now want kill bad sad depressed,1 +sick lectured friends drinkingi need told constantly much piece shit am know fuck im driving everyone away,1 +theres boy really like him nobody knows even friends today orientation day a tour highschool hes going highschool too friend whos annoying lol keeps pulling away talk him wait next year get highschool tell him idk trust telling telling friends thx guys,0 +mom came lesbian today might get downvoted hell feel like homophobe im totally comfortable mom gf im trying get it cant needed advice dont understand why im sad af now also gf ugly maybe thats reason idk please dont hate homophobic im trying accept way is maybe need advice emotional support,0 +care anymore good world cant even perceive im caught suicidal thoughtsi friends asshole cant change mother cant even stand company grandfather nothing live to anymore dreams future know im going school job ill hate pay bills ever wish could lay turn off courage kill myself pray get killed everyday redflag mind point cure kill stop thinking it bad brain stop perceiving bad want die badly wish could cant whole life going wracked depression ive seen older people post sub depression really never get better gets worse biggest regret every day die day before im fuckup loner literally cannot make friends break friends future future hell anymore except die almost thirst redflag wish somebody else could pull trigger heavens sake,1 +sad oclock one want talk sad oclock one want talk,0 +thought could help them stupid enough think could it longfor anonymity obviously changing names duh another thing post me suicidal little shaken happened im worried came looking advice need fast know much time have well grace likes like tells depressed people like way feel bad liking way also making depressed feel even worse basically told saved life pretty much feeling alone people like tried kill multiple occasions met me tells nice thought could go slight hope might like her liked were best friends like way im glad friend finally feel bad feel like like interests understands lot better people dont shell talk depressing things life bad person which all gets mad tell things bad seem always accuses lying trust thinks tell things shell shut up ive found like helping people problems like help people honestly care feel bad hurt themselves older sister rachel cuts burns attempted redflag multiple times also rachel know grace also aware grace finally open enough confess cutting going quit live promise get mad know hard addictions be anyway point made feel guilty still cutting made feel done it reason always told could make stop made feel enough like good enough help someone stop causing pain themselves ive never felt way anything enormous sense guilt finally broke hard promised grace tell rachel cutting problem intended keep it snapped guilt pressure confessed everything rachel lift weight told right thing nobody keep secret like that right thing feel like did rachel confronted grace front i_just_need_help told everything need stop this told grace fond tumblr looked poems wrote knives hints cutting throughout them checked scars joke mom tell me mom understand makes things worse assume common another reason grace tell rachel feared would tell mom way would tell her even grace suicidal way could ever her grace said really mad me want talk even see me extremely character ever since met yandere me shed talk even worst moods want cut contact asked sister told redflag part knew cutting redflag part new she people delivered final blow push edge said care care anything didnt believe grace ever it believe trust came realize told thing mattered realness feeling something pain something knew find it thats snapped take anymore broke cried half hour cried since never cry id never experienced anything like before hell cry dog dies found body cry grandma died always thought emotionless anything happened help think fault happen got involved really want kill myself id never thats about ive feelings redflag looong time id never it mostly id feel bad family back point rachel grace always talk everyday fb rachel deleted fb past felt getting close like knew lot her found scary convinced reactivate messaging tumblr while well grace deactivated again tumblr really want talk apparently fault want die cant live guilt do think help all cant anything,1 +need ideas book im writing write book fractured identity need help create resolution links journey new sense self far book father hid daughter government systems meaning trace girl is government figures fathers secret kills him girl confused know society isolated whole life incorporate selfdiscovery story know put anybody ideas pls,0 +know directors intent make sure sky almost always sunny beautiful film perhaps romantic image many americans time film set middle war macy returned war his neighbor asks hey true got fritz there trying get life one day gets new pair glasses hence name sees things clearly surrounding situation reveals one rabid antisemitism macy dern could wrapped it funny neither jewish film accusation made also historically accurate labor union democrats time wrapped flags america god macy continually pestered come meeting presence brings unexpected resultsbr br applying time frame today study contrast undergone complete reversal average citizens taken patriotism religion unifier supporting republican party viewing organized labor part leftwing unpatriotic americabr br a great picture watch care see friendly timid meek macy played beautifully him get caught carnage race hate mid s nycbr br a tough emotionally charged film,0 +family whats stopping killing myself im dead wont feel bad iti know thats incredibly selfish wont go details long run world better place without here,1 +day random questions timesaving gadget wish someone would invent,0 +every side asked question got massage ask questions page faste suicide method,1 +feel like hanging mit started days ago roaming kik sub reddit joined group kik added girl group seemed cute young like although talking mentioned sex drinking stupidly presumed im started dirty talking dirty talked vanished im paranoid might younger thought feel stupid asking age im way attracted kids find disgusting ive extreme paranoia suddenly paedophile even though im way attracted kids back date girl ive socially isolated mind wanders random shit internet social experiment pretended whilst talking year old girl turned slutty asked youngest age would fuck said limit weird way turned on her sluttiness fact said shed fuck someone whos over im attracted girls age watch normal porn ever dated girls age think paedophiles acting fantasies upon kids puke worthy something wrong me recent mistake ive made made analyse entire life stupid mistakes ive made severe isolation even though nothing serious done get guilt past stupid social experiment did fears become paedophile future girl lying like younger im worried sick feel even suicidal normal sorry typos typed rush phone ive also ever dated girls age watch normal porn fantasise healthy manner slipped weird conversation girl years ago this also talked sociopathic girl hunted animals turned cruel even though fucking love animals dog sexual freak isolation destroyed me incidences ordinary happened times feel much guilt point want hang myself think watching porn young age really fucked bullied spending years complete isolation porn addiction normal porn really fucked mind another confession made catfish profile check girlfriend cheating was became addicted creating fake profiles getting lot sexual attention women nothing extremely weird done talked dirty girls time period one younger maybe year old girl might lied age ive known lots guys stuff like feel guilt give shit eating away sudden talk therapist would okay would go apeshit register sex offender something know talking dirty yo crime ive known lots guys date younger girls cant get ive done thanks,1 +passed k karma still legitimate friends ,0 +looking external reviews ebert etc film pretty much negative however reading many them noticed made point critics upset film centers around appears senseless murder autistic child certainly disturbing image critics like ebert want traditional detective story uncovers killing happened squarely places blame guilty want blame cast resolved well statusquo theme kind movie parodying like society critics wanted quick resolution could move next tragic opera perhaps simple question answered here whole lot happened surface film seek rationalize happens rather understand why also steams much inane reviews look way performances spacey cheadle great and generally are great performances work two current icons hollywood gosling gives incredible performance really somebody extreme talent could deliver somehow gosling able make killer autistic child sympathetic irritates many sure however one watches film see leelands motivation is wrong evil malone also top game yet another confused young character basically killing child film main theme movie main theme life people go dealing it highs lows attempt sometimes help others deal lives which seem work well lot good bad world handle direct impact much good bad take place sometimes confused attempt good lead whole bunch bad think one memorable films sometime ending touching anything recent movie history strongly believe people view film open mind,0 +anyone wanna chat dm u want gotta go class soon talk later ill chat anything,0 +im suicidal disabilityis true without good education youre basically fucked unskilled work low paid even youre lucky bad paid secure unskilled work automated may ask get education thats easy me disability autism hard learn new things yes learning disability too do dont want end dead end job fear thats going happen cant get decent education tipps me tried several times kill too why future think do,1 +movie brighten day sure kermit frog ordinary frog swamp talent agent stops tells hollywood looking frogs movie lol way kermit meets fozzie bear miss piggy gonzo chicken camilla rowlf electric mayhem bunsen honeydew beaker also trailing kermit proprietor restaurant chain doc hoppers french fried frog legs things considered though kermit muppets make hollywoodbr br this movie recommended everyone young oldbr br it wonderful musical numbers like the rainbow connection im going go back someday movin right along muppets also use many forms transportation movie kermit rides bike fozzie drives studebaker another car gonzo takes flight bundle helium balloons which one favorite moments way kermit rest muppets finally go rest way electric mayhems bus dr teeth floyd janice scooter animal meet desert fozzies car breaks downbr br even sesame street muppets make cameo appearances ie big bird walking along road way nyc break public television end also heartwarming moment every single muppet created final scene along final rainbow connection reprisebr br but poor muppets worked hard movie set comes crashing down camera explodes huge ball sparks think everything ruined destroyed rainbow comes shining roof end sums magic film know everything rightbr br perfect watch it enchanted fun sadness movie,0 +spread queerness ever go one best traits honest,0 +well itif check past posts see wife rough time lately tonight especially rough got angry guy keeps talking displayed anger putting fist threw wall says need regain trust steps forward steps back im tired cant win give up ive already taken many pills evening im taking more hopefully wake up fuck it,1 + years old enoughill try keep short even though feel lot could cover post turned long ago failed course college moment undecided whether go back college spend another year studying try find employment honest wish could neither stay home im tired everything long remember ive detested contributing member society ive always punching bag everyone else relentlessly bullied throughout schooling years left choice embrace worsening social isolation talk anyone want talk anyone years torment put through dread s play out dread resort wageslave society disgusted existence deal even bullying harassment hands manager coworkers dread continuing live knowing life gets harder enter adulthood ive always thought ill one die young recount thoughts hurting early years age even scares myself see dying natural death oldage never have honestly thing stopping ending all know family devastated see go also fear happens next another thing keeping back idea happens die utterly terrifies me miserable myself want try hold onto life long can know long be want reason stay alive,1 +crush fucking wierd idk guys like weirdest shit me like try start conversation minute gets quiet mind like lol fucked up buddy like ever im around them physically aware fact hoodie microscopic stain it like know even worry it makes pissed myself,0 +im gonna list stuff hate hopefully make feel better hate myself month march sad distance fact dont anyone near cuddle without serious effort body torso specifically height fact cant pierce ears fact im still scared ordering clothes want fact cant think straight sad seasons milk isnt bad caesar dressing too creamy vinegary size ribs long ness torso fact one laying rn school grade teachers grades capitalism copy pasted personality applies many people around age homework im behind on director life experiences lack thereof shitty lungs tall ass head flat ass hair much say without saying anything meaningful skinny arms non functional adhesives led lights cold weather hot weather waking am people directly shaming instead giving really specific indescribable looks football its boring looking colleges want go detail,0 +hate feeling suicidal suicidal timesometimes ill go walks dog feel like everythings going okay moment dishes mind focused cleaning them ill get triggered one little thing get flashback bad memory become suicidal again hate sensitive knowing ill feel suicidal again mind always alert mode never rests forget like suicidal even though wasnt years ago,1 +need cancel cancel culture cancel culture ruiend many lives even outside media internet _________________________________________ first all someone gets accused something everyone take rule mind innocent proven guilty actors content creators accused something unacceptable everyone canceling them like jhonny depp lost work youtubers lose income wich obviously ruiens life everyday people problem too female accuses male rape male automatically lose job probably wife too even courtcase happens ofcourse accusions hopefully rightfull false accusation female basically ruien males life simply saying raped her cancel culture people _________________________________________ also media automatically choose side pyrocynical case people automatically chose iverys side provided big amount evidence know would work pyro defend making kinks public evidence based things specifically picked fool people _________________________________________ even celeb automatically guilty like pewdiepie said live nword shouldnt screw immediately over yes wrong shouldnt screw someone mistake even youtube chooses sides like logan paul showed body video lost revenue weeks nothing _________________________________________ probably dies new felt like spreading opinion cancel culture k bye,0 +redflag viewed negative thing essentially tell someone living severe depression better alternative deathim strong believer redflag justified likely commit redflag later life goals ive set complete severely depressed yet known even closest friends amp family happy friendly person ive got act art single person know suspects even slightly depressed severely depressed since childhood seen several psychiatrists amp councillors without parents knowledge help growing weary living constantly depressed see valid reason redflag cannot justifiable option terms affect friends family used believe redflag inconsiderate im realizing regardless inconsiderate is living life depression something i deal certainly justified ending life feel best choice explain redflag cannot viewed positive light right seems current culturesociety deems terribly wrong thing look history reveals several large cultures almost embracing redflag,1 +im probably late but fuck outta twitter fleets every social media makes least sense,0 +cant seem find answers cant even connect peoplei looking answers years even know start looking end losing time always lose lose lose im sick it drift away people keep making mistakes almost everyone ends leaving almost one left cant even make new friends reconnect old ones keep wasting away selfisolation selfhate loneliness regret broken cursed horrid almost one tries connect me im lonely people might think im special needs person kind future ill have probably one filled mostly indifference emptiness,1 +roght ball swam away wasnot ballsack butto right it felt weird,0 +cant anymoreim doomed minimum wage warehouse jobs thanks fucking dad hopes better life younger obviously im allowed that want make electronic music make people happy im fucking dumb years barely put together basic drum beat ive promised im making christmas first time life think mean it im even sad anything may miss on,1 +jesus fucking christ today went quick look clock one moment pm alright cool still got time stuff look clock feels like minutes later already pm space something fucking know anymore,0 +anyone know lot depression real first time im depressed im going teen dad the girl want abortion im thinking ending it zoloft work way feel sad sad sad switched full online cause cant take anymore every day want jump bridge narrow rode therapy sucks keeps giving answer every day soon mom want bother loser life im dump anything want pain end get better advice here therapist,0 +day asking everyone filler filler filler lonely filler filler filler,0 +anyone share birthday saw someone thought would fun anyone else born january year doesnt really matter tell,0 +kms didnt got phone talked friends nothing happenedhere right now laying bed phone dead set killing myself it felt like gonna bigger burden died alive stopped midway opened phone chatted everything nothing go minutes ago talked wanting get wraps tomorrow,1 +wish someone cared would punched face hardback told avoid death late ,1 +wasted whole life hoping things change im back square one know do know long please readi see anything rules age restriction im sorry age makes uncomfortable im going state name want people going personal life trying contact social media etc im female need relevant advice im supposed even worth fighting life anymore born mother met ill call biological father bf know looks weird mom states manipulative mentallyverbally abusive let friends barely let get job got really bad meth refused use protection let get birth control think get it mother even know stayed conceived two sons another man allowed see go town visit with assume brothers lost custody not fault want anymore children became pregnant none me bf took get tests whatever make sure kid make sure actually pregnant see would even chance born live long story short tried convince get abortion strewn drugs nearly financially stable enough support baby quite frankly wish born night found pregnant went moms house drank alot thought do low behold decided keep leave bf met ill call step dad sd decided hell one raise her horrible bipolar disorder suicidal strewn sorts drugs physically violent abusive remember distinctively one time tried kill me chased hallway huge kitchen knife fell onto floor bedroom held inch away face around told acted would put face mentioned several years later said and promise mother stayed sd put life danger years would always go back fight apologize left moved one best friends thats probably best life ever ever be apartment shortly christmas met ill call step dad sd nice friendly first family friends things quickly switched around made see really was theres list things could type help understand tearing head childhood stuffed animal since stole quarters book fair would throw across room in way told stop pussy grow pair tried tell bullied beat school cheated mom ex wife saying things like no one makes cum like do talking women would meet craigslist would constantly belittle me friends mom insult intelligence told friend tried take life slitting wrists swallowing bunch pills said she attention reason to good life would also tell things like deserve happiness im allowed cry feel sad angry beginning years forced life years begged mom leave him years endured mental abuse brainwash first time wanted kill myself redflag introduced social media news books wanted everything end felt unwanted felt like everyone me eventually left sd found messages moms phone wanting move leave basically kicked us out went move grannie moms mom thought everything would finally okay everything would much better couple weeks new school went started issue small school new kid automatically rumors me long people started calling stds spitting football games getting trouble things do things home great grannie kept verbally abusing telling want there flipping off telling everything fault wanted worse sd everything kept getting worse worse eventually tried take life school bathroom overdosing hydrocodone whatever grabbed moms prescriptions went hospital im exactly sure happened brought back summer mom found new house us move deal grannie either went new school bad much better home much better landlord got botched surgery put nursing home selling ranch lived kicked us out mom try new home told wed move back grannie id go back school tried commit redflag in told hell convinced let move uncle cousin month home life even better school absolutely amazing soooososososo great cousin kicked got frozen yogurt without telling freaked out im back here grannie mom first night mom fought admitted inconvenience burden her im told live close enough school went mom moved here ill go one overdosed in ive fighting life telling everything happens reason keep hoping things work obviously never im back here people hell hole get first swear im offing myself im going beaten humiliated maybe even shanked students im back know mom let timeline events happen know deserve this want die im tired worrying told found go school id gash wrists throat open want that need help need answers need something please help,1 +mental health whack bro like cant decide whether im afraid death suicidal death like think dont think thats healthy idk lol day listening music asked sister weird automatically think songs redflag yeah bit concerned lol dont think id actually take life tho fingers crossed dont feel bad anything lol im vibing,0 +real g watch girl pay anything real gs like wait car frfr,0 +anyone tryna run warzone im bored asf still high kinda run warzone xbox ur leave ur gt comments nd ill add u,0 +know navigate feelings new feeling stretch understand go pleasantly fine suicidal self loathing within minutes able step it suffering poor mental health years turn next week feel ashamed serious negative thoughts are covid hard transition especially moved new city months everything started locking down settled loving partner great connection family really fun job finished degree stop look around feel like nothing ever good enough never good enough always skin problems bad teeth acne never artist used i bachelor fine art drive passionate used it never career built entire plan around losing interest art never relationship family want could stand stay hometown feel tornado failures swirling around damn time seems matter many positives come way last long enough weight negatives really know looking guess wanted say loud whatever ,1 +gets invited minecraft realm me know what even tho get anxious around people im gonna join friends would like play them also me joins immediately regrets see gamertags run cant see fear yeah fine,0 +feeling pain birthday maybe sign dont belong herenobody go thru this torture nah redflag looked upon,1 +many years old confused teen nowadays lol,0 +slugsoul adopt last time asked said mmmmhm,0 +dog smells like fertilizer dirt muzzle tf appealing fertilizer,0 +tired depression one worst feelings lately knowing feel way often would much better person notice much holds back always picture would could would capable feel way time years life actually feel ok head felt clear wish back tired,1 +top lesbian films library must rate one number one film times film go history best genre story girl rachael stirling goes riches rags rags riches first love keeley hawes popping life set victorian background s makes ideal setting best entertainment industry film spared expense music costumes makeup rachael keeley wore stage halls added films diversitybr br no matter kind films favor guarantee film amaze you keep attention three episodes film played enjoyed decades come unrated dvd collectors version must anyones library rachael stirling keeley hawes best choice casting two roles played extremely well,0 +point afraid living dyingi year old male complete failure made really regretful choices choices affected anyones elses life own replay everyday done instead try tell made choices severe depression anxiety suffering last plus years lately within past month dwelling even little memories felt made wrong decision reacted people wrong manner moments replay head utter complete hell little background therapist since forced therapy sexually molested family member years old hated going therapist refused tell happened instead played chess would talk mom eventually gave forcing go hated time therapist think refuse go now mom left society week ago due mental health issues begged go get professional help refused continue refuse point hope gone nothing left salvage good person friends due isolating myself eventually people give you repeatedly ignore them single date five years virginity still intact close five siblings know extremely affected days feeling less depressed usual fantasize married kids quickly come back reality someone pass genes offspring thing hurts much seven years ago place could gotten married younger plan life would grown up dreamed life surrounded family created none going happen painful type this wish emotional person typing get help pity random internet strangers hoping might gain clarity reading back apologize none makes sense complete ramble session going go back edit,1 +first saw movie movie channel hbo time ago fan public enemy nwa early rap seen cb theaters anyway promo caught eye wanted see about well right bat knew going good warning right parody songs alone make movie worth watching my peanuts overall flow delivery movie great got love satire rap groups obviously nwa certain rappers eazy e flava flav ice cube humor three members nwh forget tone deaf scratching ass bad movie get credit deserved overshadowed cb releases opinion much better film know like s gangster rap watching laughing movie long time like rap enjoy jokes expense genre,0 +made lego airplane miscalculated ill put wings theyre gonna either tilted bit w,0 +want stop feeling depressed n wanting end life really know how suppose want feel better idk,1 +gifted redditgifts asap im sure tomorrow comeits bad time know else put it ive tried ask help feel like im alone im strong appointment shrink today ill beg sort med change know meds therapy wednesday make final decision ive already started say goodbye,1 +ive thoughts time nowso basically figured fucked actually known long time im years old im kind trippy sometimes drugs did cannot connect anyone world longer first encounters time biggest fear im tired rising falling time whole family fucked up dad one really think highly about time made fucking stupid decisions bothers sweeps stuff rug never address even though weighs conscience everyone elses well love still know hes shit im battling serious addiction considering throwing away months sobriety getting fucked regain myself ive recurring thoughts drinking bottle jack jumping coronado bridge would quick painless maybe even fun drunk enough anyway im fighting really hard stay shit created myself man mental load tough even super young age know stuggling survive whole life dropped high school make worse cant even make fucking friends problems prevent letting anyone in weird fucking ability shut people mid sentence even saying anything let tell worst like scared little bitch head fucker constantly battling out way bitch gone im physically exerting myself slow march back battle relax come conclusion maybe purpose physical person damn thats want be powers let anything else idk fucking strange world man vibes connect even stranger sometimes want out honest feel sense melancholy happiness think death already sime great songs play wake bring tears joy id rather go young real become old sell die really saying going happen soon kind profound epiphany next year so think im fucking out get chest guys probably favorite sub next rdrugs raskreddit love input lot olease pass words anyone relate struggle love guysltand galsgt ,1 +im attempt first hopefully last timein hours im outta here,1 +im going sleep gn c u tomorrow,0 +anyone else think mood swings behaviour really hurting people lives unfairlyi feel like gf dragged hell unfairly,1 +picture friday half term get home half day school homework parents away least weekend take shower find pizza leftovers fridge check gc see boys online take seat put headset youve used since bo power psxbox point remember xp weekend nothing time put icing cake starts raining neighbours dog finally shut up pull nighter grinding warzone r fifa k name it make best memories teenage years couldnt think better situation in scroll overdue assignments,0 +day almost days september th preparing im gonna watch youtube homework,0 +feel weakeveryone keeps saying many people would hurt died me im hurting now sit deal pain please everyone else lately seems like much lose somehow im still losing things hardly sleep nightmares lead panic attacks make afraid go back sleep cant win like tell people want die im looking attention try die fail get sympathy we love you go talk leads everyone ignoring anything ever happened going right back stated succeed im hero everyone talk great person was right cause thats goes im ranting feel breaking,1 +mani want end it thats want yet im much coward too hate life is school school school scholl thats im good hate it suck cant concentrate horrible luck fuck life life bad though still hate it im fucking paranoid mental health makes worse earlier im even little piece shit even society wanna die barely sleep anymore school im seeing therapist hate it cant wait untill get courage kill myself fuck life,1 +still cant describe feel received fnac site rare movie little spoken known difficult find even fans contrast betwen past present devastating hold dvd movie finest quality possible atlantis rare besson movie bought internet saw one home lights dvd tv turned off marveled experience know expect wickedly always searched kind disappointment saw film luc besson never seen before never came movie exception start understood person makes film like first feature destined big future happened several prizes including highest prize film festival country makes proud shows movie preparating many bigger things may original afterthewar movie ever seen beating mad max originality artistic feel problem movie cinematography genius well perfomances actors also proud say finally saw movies favorite director copy almost joan arc still waiting buy dvd movie work style dedication makes clear luc besson director choice good taste beautiful framing excellent use music i also marveled eric serras first featurelength score promise great achievements gaumont well bet boygenius man would later change face frances europes relation movies public lets hope besson starts working new directorial project first cheer it then recommend movie anyone need learn lesson good movies made little money loved atmosphere movie which black white cinematography suggests us even depressed view world holocaust movie works sheer magic movies showing pictures cant explain words im people wrote comments movie liked it good choice great hug everyone sees feels little lives changed,0 +dont know anymorethis second time got argument friend past year friend said im nobody im weirdest person everyone group happened front friends too apparently im weird loner nobody friends california moved ohio self esteem always low never talk girls never got respect people unless using me this dont know anymore really want end it,1 +ayo shit bussin cap sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +manual breathing ha think it were it manual blinking hahahaha,0 +hate nose rgasm fades like relationship guy,0 +first saw title already deducing theme film clearly reference british currency shakespearian pounds flesh taking them giving them smiths feelgood actor serial killers out could man giving them must guilt somehow spoilt whole thing looking knowing story watched beauty buildup way parts main characters background drip fed slowly illuminate audience doingbr br guilt hard subject simply deeply uncomfortable sad encouraging premise hoping rollercoaster ride know going unpleasant say movie glorifies suicide delves extreme form selfsacrifice martyrdombr br its also brimming symbolism everywhere surefire telltale sign writing cleverly thought great detail driving multiple meanings deep reflective nature prominent theme struck giving heart girl loves emotionally metaphorically giving physically greatest gift could determined die plan thwarted falling love nd act complication absolutely masterfulbr br yes slowpaced im undecided whether would better slotted smaller timeframe feel strain terrible inner turmoil much could have maybe thats ruined beforehand saying though deeply moving original film incredibly powerful thoughtprovoking tragedy deserves awards inevitably get,0 +so disagree critics really moved movie little hesitant rent itas going things protagonist supposed experiencing yet rent thinking might experience catharsis least understand alone understood protagonists irritation careless cousin feel internal struggle isolation much would liked felt much emphasis placed disruptive cousin overstaying welcome beautifully filmed movie really appreciate use silence bring feeling isolation,0 +im fcuking brave so guess fool decided come downstairs parents watching tv guess idiot decided would goo idea write smut sat dom reader lol guess moron got bored decided watch yarichin b club then find finished go onto manga me playing dangerous game either end getting banned internet barely escaping ever small amount dignity write hopes save treacherous thoughts allow success feat bravery danger thank goodbye now loki xxx,0 +sapiosexual makes himbophobic like going openly bigoted toward himbos like,0 +anyone herei already posted sw twice tried looking online find need httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsjbhdarkness_still_engulfing_me httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsjynhsuicidalneed_help moment kind medical insurance im bit time getting back long story brooklyn new york want ask anyone knows psychiatristpsychologistcounselor etc see free receive zero income zero cant sliding scale whatsoever shot dark know see doctor soon talk things someone help me definitely kill myself cannot keep surviving one help really talk to cannot keep pain constantly crying til feels like im literally choking cant breathe made week feels like soon ill gone forever im brooklyn new york desperate need qualified mental health doctor help darkness theres anyone information share me please do im drowning,1 +hospital foodive tried sleeping day feel sick constantly almost dinner time im thinking back many times suffer disgusting dinner funny barely responded friends family sit thread feel strongest try write guys feel like guys care know people life right now feel pricked poked out want go home bed dog feels empty here keep replaying last night again could changed done different would made time time go sit bundle room temperature cooled hospital blankets pillows would expected sleeping years straight mattress one would care sleep on three different cops ive counted far today dont talk them try talk ask different things need anything always ask nurse ready die cop wants know want fucking water want body burning ash currently compromise life time maybe next time asks ill say yes,1 +fuck deal traumai want get details gone severe emotional traumna arecently tried deal it know resources available near like redflagcrisiss hotlines ive tryed therapeutic abotu nothing makes difference non stop anxiety panic attacks weeks ant keep feeling like nothing try makes feel better feel useless guilty cant eat cant sleep know want feel pain anymore help,1 +suicidal afmy life come crashing hault ive lost love family lost friends never make anymore never another love cant go outside without enormous weight anxiety bearing me never able hold job cannot cope life anymore wouldve learnt first mistake much live forand dust wind want end shit ive already attempted slicing wrist family friend got hospital bled out think im going end pretty soon go burn hell always was,1 +decided watch recommendations site would say worth effort however take heed film go minutes staying power get tape watch couple nightsbr br now film say contain spoilers mind goes br br alexandre promiscuous bum womanizer gigolo lives older woman called marie marie owns retail shop provides alex alex spends days cafs restaurants story reveals alex previously impregnated gilberte used live with gilberte dumped less attractive man love alex abused battered her point alex willing get job help raise child found gilberte aborted planned marry someone else br br by chance alexandre meets nurse nymph called veronika striked relationship veronika fell love alex first time sordid sex men past marie veronika struggles alexs affection mnage trois boot finally end revealed veronika pregnant alexs child alex asked marry him assume as aforesaid gilbertes situation alexandre even get job provider new found love family hope br br with title la maman et la putain deduce jean eustache relating franoise lebruns character veronika whore became mother hence mother whore person anyway know french films mostly not all chatty aimlessly political preaching theatrical insipid lamenting full quotes lebrun laud played obdurate characters well held film together part script became little lost disjointed br br not bad effort ,0 +know start keep living work day school work rest life friends may stray away one person please entire life slowly see love ones go nothing keep going matter life ends way could rich poor loving cold seems like choices matter hardly personality little passion anything anything feels burn cycle know need help scared,1 +im waiting family leave go upstairs gorge anyways r guys doing im okay submitted bunch late work,0 +stop read entire life decisions choices made reach read random thing wrote yeah here,0 +sometimes want make almost everyone hate mei want stop helping people want take old dream shatter it fully abandoning process yes know selfish hypocritical almost noone reciprocated entire life but so would sincere longer condescending well once enduring insults rejection indifference pity fake andor empty words promises friendship instead fighting back yet would confirm im faker video guy said good person pay became bitter angry lashing others would mean never good person instead acted like expected reward thats worst fear almost never single selfless act entire life someone else instead get benefit myself would mean im complete fake would get mental breakdown,1 +post last try got taken explanation got karma flagged well day people,0 +sure doi tried self harming last night go knife blunt currently seeing psych since start year feel helping much probably late switch psychs medicare subsidises number consultations per year lot lack self confidence self worth feel like useless bit background myself hold numerous university degrees psych education criminology struggling find employment work dead end job supermarket hate place treated supportive girlfriend asks help honestly know help feel useless dragging down family make token efforts towards usually monetary support receive them really want comparison hearing actually like love something anything positive myself currently given hope life finding meaningful employment know do,1 +forgetful blame everything life feel fault like this plus cannot even get reason deppressed even remeber first placei feel unmotivated dead inside keep telling ok really true think deppressed still laugh talk family still watch funny memes boost confidence always doubt deppressed makes worse indecisive never make decision unless parents make mei feel useless like cannot anything anyone feel way yet still goal complete school also question say care anything yet care education think back even know cared first place always thought job student good school also parents future even future continue way even think job also introvert never want go outside sitting balcony typing this get enough vitamin almost always weak eat much aswell parents tell eat sometimes even realize starving depression bad even remeber long seems everytime try make better gets worse feel give let take also part still hope wants keep trying confusing talk mother feeling think could relate situation use watch videos try think positive thoughts help get life always revolves around simple question why like this always type ask questions always overthink things require much thinking worse part selflessness always care others like entire life always wanting help others make world better place hate that hate much hate one wants way hate worrying everyone around me want dissapear know sadness family committed suicide wait natural causes happen hit vehicle kidnapped killed way parents whouldnt blame death sad part going highschool feel mature look back tween really anything else say wanted speak mind hope wonderful day symptoms depression,1 +run away abusive household become homeless two days family friends tired everythinglife incredibly unfair me tried hard happy find peace love cant even imagine shit go lose mind raised narcissist mother run away home one week ago let sleep days last monday got scammed shitty hostel half money booking give answer like usd left place go become homeless two days im also living third world country luck probably get stabbed robbed first fucking night ask ticket hell life im really tired everything going wrong year year,1 +since become cool hip socialist so visible social media et cetera answer that fellow teenagers,0 +necessary consistent plot cant write dragon dad fun dragon son theyre really happy theyre grand time actual consistent plot cant that ugh,0 +want someone play minecraft want build big ass pyramid someone,0 +feel way hey im pretty new here expect many see reply im month away turning but ive felt depressed lately depression symptoms ive sad ive felt like boring person lately im freaking ive never felt way before feel like want anything anyone while but long story short normal feel way,0 +numbers game dms im a lil horny and bi ngl httpsmimgurcomttruthordareuahpmnf,0 +u guys ever cheat test study cheat french im bad it cheated together friend first part multiple choice signed eachother answer would fingers second part french grammar used small note hid sleeve anyone says bad well shit man try pass get succesfull life going fail language never use,0 +gay pain ass gays use condoms fucking assholes cum guys,0 +need help socialhi depressed long time now point cant sleep well cant stand awake also noticed starting short people talk quieter quieter teachers school talk kind pass yea just getting school noticed one thing really hurts outside im introverted shy inside extroverted want talk people badly im scared hurts cant talk anyone cant get conversation normally wish could talk people friends like people anyone tips advice think im trying talk people anything would helpful dont really know im even asking wanting here im really weird place would love help cause want get better dont want depressed suicidal anymore want better person,1 +day one trying get banned day one trying banned here yep thats right hate want im this get banned im deleting account over today im gonna violently homophobic h e gays much going burn hell deserve it homophobic,0 +started seizure stairs result pretty badly injured broke ankle injured knee also required stitches face let make clear recognize experience must terrifying tom understand frightening redflag provoking even traumatizing him,0 +button waiting death made mind clearly okay die know it think constant thought years eligible able die since march wish die every day single day mind changed,1 +back itso im dire many people here figured least somewhere help get thoughts it throughout relatively short life ive lost good friends redflag sister cancer girlfriend another bloke part blamed good enough friend help them sister end good enough keep girlfriend me needless say sent pretty shit place while prior today attempt life sculling bottle ritalin fortunately didnt shit make head fucked week since ive professional help went clinic weeks what considered recovered good year however quite miserable couple weeks feel nothing nagging youre wasting life feeling cut happened particularly today caused im going jump driving back home driving upset ive figured life aint gonna change made sure one around gassed play game chicken tree thing stopped fact ik meeting best friends girlfriend days didnt want ruin him long story short spun small ditch side road luckily without dents parents would killed me im feeling better right im going driving little bit my choice yeah rest trip screaming stupid shit anyway think thats it thanks anyone reads this feel little better writing im glad did polo,1 +loweffort titles contribute positively subreddit likely removed please make sure title indicative relevant creative h,0 +calming feeling made mindonce path forward becomes crystalclear mind calm peaceful feeling feel less anxiety right ive felt years feel like could lie sleep like baby path forward clear news got morning doubts washed away mind almost like baptism rebirth cleansing soul go really truly exactly thought was never just depression talking the lies depression truth people aint good live world shit never ever ever put trust faith another human person messed head are angel thought found sent rescue depths hell always always turn another demon waiting drag hell people cruel way survive world cruel heart made iron soul world made you one big joke hope laugh right goes black life funniest sickest cruelest goddamned joke ever seen heard,1 +hey alli depression social redflag since recently came decision try antidepressants suicidal thought accured way often usual mirtazapine escitaloptam since two weeks agoi played escitalopram used like three times dosage curious would affect damn thought would die serotonin syndrom redflag way better depression definetly worse feel little bit like watching everything would stuff automatically nothing already read online try cope playing guitar selfcare days quit exhausting thodoes anybody experienced antidepressants advices could tell expect whole processthankfull every helpfull comment interesting thought whatsoever new antidepressants,1 +low budget movie really good put well average action bmovie sean corinne delivered movie seem camera shy watch cameos jeanne jared think producers would even consider that runnerups deserve much br br ill looking forward sean corinnes involvement movie entertainment industry seans character seemed genuine sexy corinnes character pretty hardnosed point connected well action sequences executed confidence great idea cast billy zane smart witty villain charisma screen always pleasure watch chemistry zane seans character pretty good action sequences cheesy seemed connect throughout movie course flaws comes territory br br overall good movie considering budget fact made tv sean corinne good job considering newcomers game hope jeanne jared rest next action star cast get chance also join costars entertainment successbr br final judgment ,0 +breaking call think redflag attack start getting anxious almost reason get scared really really scared start feel hopeless thoughts go away cannot happy starts around time day end go asleep days happen days like today does tips stopping really takes over types thoughts brings throughout day usually go away able focus things times like these start overwhelm crush me break again way stop it,1 +happy new year best life ill dead new years resolution dead hours ive spent last days family trip weather beautiful love pa love boyfriend guess hes right shit us post make much sense give many reason ill tonight matter weather warm sticky humid fireworks technicolour breath taken away,1 +need help math thing soo yeah say number thats all imma go sleep hopefully make time ,0 +almost killed myself song came itunes hope methis link song httpwwwyoutubecomwatchvuyenzlrtu cant get something sad sound upbeat happy song may bring tears always finds way make happier explain hope same even one person still struggle every day make struggle easier me lyrics wakes time break left note dresser right time know anything right wrong said know said wanna panic ive go owe anything anyone take life cause got better leaving think stop wake everything gonna fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time looking paper today looking specific page wanna find full name followed dates left alone made sound like moan youre known everyone everything done fuck buying flowers graves id rather buy one way nonstop anywhere find anyone anything forget start again love said go and thats that hurts much stand got stop draw line everyone choose side tonight moment truth haunting forget family regardless choose cant decide theyre screaming why you ill start engine cant take ride ill draw bath ill load gun hope bad bathe hunt annies tired forgetting today always planning tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow says the saddest day came across learned life goes without me without me without says if everyone someone else aint got nobodys love save me save me save me says i think ill pass away tonight cause seems ill never get right me just reality wake everything gonna fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time annie says mind never find cure problems her problems proplems says long someone near make clear need solve solve them solve says oh loneliness killing me filling anger resentment resentment resentment says im turning someone never thought id again wake everything gonna fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time annies tired forgetting today always planning tomorrow tommorow says the saddest day came across learned life goes without me without says if everyone someone else aint got nobodys love save me save says i think ill pass away tonight cause seems ill never get right me annie says wake everything going fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time even oh let go could run run run run follow close someday say thats it thats all ill waiting open arms break fall know think know im ill lead home let said forget me cant,1 +need get things chest iti cant take life anymore fucking hurts go everyday life fucking shit im poor hate it time cant afford food im living two bedroom fucking house five people reason get internet pitch it people left word brothers friends know life never fucking different me cant afford college hell barely make highschool im fucking poor idiot want live like forever think way stop living like stop living together,1 +dont understand parents cursed gift lifei never asked this never asked born especially birth defects abuse bullying school tried kill times ran home full hope got crushed again got relationship lasted years im stuck ex shows signs abuse threatens kill move out cant even get proper job got hospitalised nearly years never chance finish high school people close but wouldnt call friends insisted would get job knew wouldnt got hopes nothing older get worse gets diagnosed cptsdadhdi combo never treated tried get help therapist went turned huge asshole cares money sometimes im starting think dont even know talk people anymore ive used abandoned generally hurt almost everyone met life never chance normal ill never be im sick it im sick everything meaningless life never gets better people keep lying will never does matter much work put it days left th birthday im going make sure mark th time ill actually succeed,1 +never gotten rid rope recently got diagnosed schizoaffective disorder coming sad reality something ill live rest life already dealt years torture paranoia delusions hallucinations always there add top negative symptoms wishing dead constantly feeling alone isolated world getting pleasure anything list goes on think need use last bit money left buy another rope fucked,1 +school opinion first school day year full day think years gonna good ill say tomorrow ive proper full day school better sleep bye,0 +aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa eglish teacher put want christmas mariah carey straight left room send help heard shit year yet help kill me,0 +bruh im stupid ate nothing ramen drank soda week got surprised nearly fainted seriously need something healthy asap,0 +need motivation title says lack motivation mean ambition wanna become writer humanitarian anyone cares encourages it obviously people internet supportive times want someone personally knows cheer tell im good im feel like ive wasted lot time lack motivation also feel discouraged love writing thing written story even short story whenever try writing end fucking able frame words develop proper plot discouraged feel like maybe even writing me cant sigh need motivation guidance get ass work,0 +dead many timeswhy keep surviving understand want die something occasions died didnt,1 +life end wantits life ive never control anything im going fucking kill hate life,1 +agonizingbeen struggling bipolar anxiety whole host shit tired angry take finals pretty much me cant take longer,1 +plain simple recently single year relationship fault loved life itself parents live across country family family without her one bought house together last year like living literal dream together two us dog little family everything ever imagined wanting crushed broken never wanted anything less losing her home everything visiting parents happened dad came picked florida flew home together today family packing stuff house yesterday get home tomorrow nothing sure house there little bit furniture nothing meaningful gone dog gone forgot pack cousins handgun closet might use get with not might buy sleeping pills peacefully really know yet anything live for,1 +ghosted ghosted meso ya called said really needed friend posted reached out every one friends knows progressive brain disease step come maybe walk little dog help w grocery store trip heaven forbid help get medical treatment nope fucking one ya one message sorry cant hope feel better even empty platitude cliche meme im trying get better ketamine mega infusion numbers week get better fuckers better even think showing funeral ghosted ghosted me,1 +trying best redflag forgive bastard trash destroying life also destroy hisi strategy help committing redflag im stuck im trying best positive love hate myself want kill self bad sometimes every time things go wrong strategy ill post commenthelps lot cant help wonder im letting bastard easily kept quiet happened let bastard live happy life withering luckily know best revenge happy im trying hard happier want cry parents longer close im teenager now destroyed life reveal happen although kept secret long probably wont bc kept secret ever since happened molested perverted lust crazed pedophile trash uncle dont want mum cry dad go insane anger protected family keeping quiet karma slow hes still living happy life wife child touched couple times like dad like son dammit anyway destroy like bring secret problem grave whats worse id hes thick faced smile innocently molesting young innocent me still contacts parents acting like someone innocent two faced asshle,1 +hey guys really important news ok so du dun du dun du dun du dun doo doo dee doo doo deedle deedle doo doo dun dun buddadadawere strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking get guy wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play ask im feeling tell blind see never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt ooh give up ooh give up never gonna give never gonna give give up never gonna give never gonna give give up weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt,0 +movie definitely list top favorites voices animals wonderful sally field michael j fox brilliant sassy feline young inexperienced pooch real standout ameche old faithful golden retriever movie great family movie appreciated loved children well adults humorous suspenseful guaranteed make every animal lover cry happy tears,0 +millionaire happy family apparent reason depression imhey guys happy based worldly metrics think except im not rd world country making month big challenge common man poverty defined month population falls poverty rate tech entrepreneur made first million made second rd point decided dont want anymore stopped working year stopping got married became father despite belonging country nearly impossible travel world got visas travel permits started seeing world spent next years pretty much seeing world wife kid wife supportive point pampers get along well parents happy im wealthy happy financial freedom happy travel world happy ive beautiful family everyone healthy alive but im not struggle depression days life knew why could find way fix it keep trying different things find answers rewarding new ways even alive,1 +guys ive decided im shit commenter,0 +life worth damnit never be matter hard try cannot whoever want be cannot live kind life id wish live months like hours years like days everything feels inconsequential robotic cant connect socialize well people cant really anything substantial life outside fantasy real world cruel unforgiving reality cruel unforgiving compared full life ive lived inside head person never become matter hard try every day change person enjoy life is simply kind appreciation experience life passing time im even real person know conform reality take is cant matter hard try life waste cruel exist all knowing one day going im ever going life able bring it utter shit am broken fundamental level cant repaired way im broken fucking abstract psychological people even begin understand feel want sit smoke weed day die natural death really other better substantial option that,1 +allowed post memes anymore keep trying post image let me happened now used able to anyone offer explanation,0 +fall rteenagers jk really guys enjoying lately hololive pretty cool especially fo getting drones school work,0 +cannot handle shit anymore want pain suffering go away fuck life fuck asshole parents giving life never wanted first place fuck transphobic assholes world want hate something control fuck love load bullshit thinking slitting wrists andor throat tonight,1 +always fight peoples attentionno one actually cares even say do big lie existence always ignored literally fight anyones attention world goes around me everyone around seems making connections im sitting barely existing blatantly ignored even continue exhausting im anymore obviously one cares would getting ignored damn time would fight everyones attention even people family one fuckin cares,1 +week stay afloat seriously feel pathetic feel like making really drastic change falling,1 +help needed interviewees needed idk flair sorry hello everyone im getting bit desperate decided try posting subreddit basically one activities subject school wanted us interview people chatting taking care sick people home please pm want answer questions shall give context pm anonymity shall also discussed you choose want keep secret not thanks advance everyone,0 +feel kind selfconscious height im feel pretty short alot time weird im taller people meet id kind like taller honestly,0 +planning go birthdaymy birthday another weeks im planning either hang od ive never celebrated birthday supposed celebrate th ex yeah hes ex now ive enough feeling alone thought wanted happiness doesnt taste blood one cares enough actually want life im close parents siblings dont live us anymore friends simply people spend time with dont really emotional connection im alone anyway semester gpa going released around time know thats going add list triggers lead ending petty sounds never future im smart nothing live for ive always known id end life sooner later really needed space rant thanks youve read this,1 +shame movie rated pg it really quite suitable anyonethough young kids might follow wellbr br it belongs wonderful genre seriocomic ghostangel stories would include everything capras its wonderful life wenderss wings desire br br the photography stunning acting first rate andwonder wondersthe tone upliftingbr br my criticism much ambiguity film two interwoven stories seem intriguingly mysterious first resolve little nicely taste director points commentary dvd ingredients irwins story bedside table symbolism trifle pat mebr br but lark favorite scene relocation team tries get breakfast diner practically theatrical magica tour de force witty actingsubtle playful notredflagly rhythmiccoupled striking cinematography acute eye grotesquebr br northfork funny touching gorgeous look at magical with reservations one single carchasebr br an easy nine stars,0 +hate myselfive dealing suicidal thoughts about years now started family dads side started dying first grandpa dad greatgrandmother moms dad grandfatherlist goes onall extremely close dad bairly got know besides fact loved time got see casket funerali dealt bullying people colorado elementry school middle school one elm trying get expelled fake hurting him middle school worse kids harrasing day hitting me calling names making fun long hair im male cheyenne whats worse teachers principal condoned itim joking let happen finally leaving woodland park middle school spent freshmen year online school alone heard moms dad gotten cancer mom dropped everything stopped working come help moving us small cabin woods loved home dad got us rent back colorado got massachusetts via driving flying took care grandmother grandfather got several cases melanoma lung cancer half lung pace maker s valentines day years ago died cause hospitals staff overdosed steroids cause paying attention take care wife mentally ill due past issues insufferable ways ive little friends life taken away via bullies back school hang me part feels like people hate me hate meive never relationship cause this almost one girlfriend could meet since met online got brain cancerand last least im un employed tried joining several jobs ever got one aweful sum one worst things getting beaten patrons getting bathroom food regular break pm am shift local farm event dressed costume halloween life hell ive never gotten happy ive plauged suicidal thoughts day day out dont wanna act them but like tortureto hate feel people hate feel worthless cant find kind way make life better,1 + jerk watch another episode violet evergarden sleep,0 +im tired human ashamed family entire life really painful right nightmare really need help even know start overwhelmed am im mid twenties studies psychology long time reason always avoided ptsd thought wars rape year learned cptsd hit traumatized inhibited life start learned last year turned two started getting night terrors generally shy kid reserved parents pretty dysfunctional dad narcissist mom codependent lack boundaries pretty emotionally unavailable father especially really bad anger problems tapered hes gotten older still quick temper cant really regulate emotions constantly spills negative emotions onto others family growing really horrible acne made somewhat low self esteem go lower ever experienced acne lasted highschool early twenties time felt like ugly monster friends didnt really close friends girlfriends generally felt alone gotten decent scholarship community college even though didnt well high school gifted kid always hated school one point heavily considering dropping high school pointless parents would never let that well ended dropping college failing classes towards end semester horribly depressed smoking weed every day numb pain years tried go back college try different fields working different jobs felt stuck powerless familys home one prepared real world parents threw education system hopes would raise instead themselves ended taking debt move happened start business time actually worked great first months so business failed moved cities life crumbled apart im debt living back family life nightmare feel like parents never got made siblings theyve provided materially destroyed emotionally clearly miserable im sure theyve brink divorce before feel broken killing feels like ample message failures parents dont even feel like relationships anyone much ive hurt past dont even feel like relationship kids parents genetic mental failures thats dna pass on end me dont know feel ive felt like long time dont know do feel beyond overwhelmed hope me far gone,1 +im depressed since im years old gets worsehi im native english speaker excuse faults diagnosed depressions years old im now never learned job still living mom winter last year girlfriend cheated me tried forgive ended relationship months later us made mistakes lived year january moved march stopped contacting me tried contact times day since nothing thought would ok honest went outside half year except buy food contact friends last half year either felt fine im depressed long time kinda felt good terms today tried check facebook deleted it feel like died contact months try now gone conversations her like good days happy every day since broke me thats healthy know consider redflag normal now got nothing life real friends job even chance get home go mental hospital weeks im waitlist months now know admission hospital really need someone talk new thoughts head,1 +goesive contemplating redflag since february seems like everything come contact fuck up tried talking mother thing say could always kids im depressed im happy either weird neutral state im sure anymore im ever happy anymore im drunk high,1 +know im gonna tonight im gonna kill myself wanna die ive lost reasons live yep tonight everyone asleep house im gonna kill myself love much adis,0 +really want muffin right reason sadly though none ill eat something else guess,0 +hi mates whats deal today hi whats u guys bored sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us theres ppl console nintendo channel channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link ,0 +feeling suicidal need helpfor past years ive felt like want kill various reasons want explain committed redflag main reasons upsetsad family would question feeling goes away would mistake either way years feel like ive gone insane waiting feelings change hiding fact feel depressed friends family wanted keep secret entire time wanted something would full control friends family standing way drawback cant ask anyone questions redflag anything alike would revealcause suspicion im suicidal ampxb week ago decided enough wanted finally commit redflag lot problems life getting much bigger feelings doesnt seem changing anytime soon want wait feels like hell longer searching online vpn ways kill myself learned ways kill guaranteed die anything really high percentage would available me ampxb overdose pills something learned high percentage people survive would likely sorta brain damage did hang dont anything hang anything suspend except belt shoot head gun im high schooler get one anyway cut anyway research learned highest redflag attempt people survive plus would lot pain die old toaster bathtub outlets modern homes something stop higher amounts electricity something way attempt also bathrooms really moist thing get lot co car pass would require parents home work order helium tank gas obviously id questioned id that jump building live suburbs tall enough buildings jump without huge chance surviving fall disabled way physically brain damage couldnt use chemical products certain ways know would work want endanger family members oets make shift gas something products would linger ampxb last paragraph want ask anyone believes people right take life way thing would possible kill myself ive considering jumping front metro feeling able get that please need answer ive become mad knowing might even able commit redflag anyone wants convince live something right im really open minded really want find reason live ive already tried past years anything might say probably similar thought already examined it ampxb thank anyone help me,1 + slides done english doesnt suck much took hours slides hey progress finding images kinda fun,0 +holy fuck hungry go browsing food subreddits wrong me,0 +never wanted kill much right nowbefore say well came help means really want to know know really want able saved theres problem really hard put words guess start basic things me im listen know im young please begging you please look that teenage girl omg hate life bullshit im suicidal my mom let get new phone guy young anything this amount anxiety everything causing feel way im sure depression caused anxiety anxiety causes depression nothing other know ruining life like said before problem extremely hard put words im even sure im trying get right now im sorry know im feeling like option ive always thoughts never wanted much now please someone talk it need help place think getting quickly,1 +posts fellow shit posters filler filler filler filler first girlfriend turned moon filler filler war ba sing se,0 +almost posted cringe big age thats awful anyway im listening lie bts album wings pretty good like it favorite song st century girl,0 +heres song lyrics im feeling songs cheer sometimes dont wanna hear drama check aint right aint commas know saying shes faithful lying like osama miss obama went dramas got sauna better come get cause ho us got bitch samoa look like moana,0 +im going something fun entertaining im going try start playing air soft dad lets me reason want friends play sport something play video game watch anime school summer play pandemic ft part wear masks know consequences ive looked equipment guns total total,0 +im going itin days im going go base buy gun go hotel it trying decide notes worth it,1 +could use earwould anyone mind taking hour hear tale even need advice literally nobody talk real life im sure talking would make stop crying skype aim pm available,1 +monke philosophy branch break monke swing it monke never meant swing it monke wishes good day ,0 +rant someone talk would nicem case anybody gives shit girl made happy anything world wants nothing me said date busy started dating another dude makes want alive made want anywhere else world reason looked forward waking went bed pretty would choose spend life heartbeat work department next her stomach drops see come work broke me alone gets relationship background httpswwwredditcomrexchristiancommentsfytthis_may_seem_attentionwhoreey_but_i_found_out httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentseeeyi_dont_like_being_alive_i_want_to_though_help,1 +kinda flag hang room cant decide kind flag hang suggestions me lol,0 +sexual tension anything im supposed,0 +many expectation going film thought fantastic pierce brosnan outstanding different role dumped slick armani suits ridiculous look pays showing excellent actor pierce greg kinnear play great make one better buddy pairings long time humor dark performances brosnan kinnear hope davis great mix touching element story friendship great film probably one better buddy comedies long time film definitely shows expect great things postbond era brosnans career,0 +im rambunctious today gold first person makes smile idk im yeah whoever tells something makes smile gets gold,0 +boys skirts need someone explain me week see boys skirts see memes boys skirts someone explain meme tell casual way get wear skirt,0 +moody hours hate waking knowing im going sleep person before escaping world getting yelled escaping got yelled getting yelled escaping wish could something im lazy actually anything need help cant stop selfsabotaging apparently one help myself better good days ahead,0 +want bleach eyes see someone followed logged click profile see like first post rate cock banner ass like wtf ion wanna see shit,0 + days since almost itgot full ride scholarship college leave days fairly well local stand comedy scene fucking miserable im year old whos got ptsd really fucked emotional development young age way process emotion coping mechanism humor feel impulse make joke desperate need end it says explicit methods ill say every evening come close set up pull it cant form real emotional connection anybody feel like hollow shell human stay alive know logically ive got amazing shot ay something life feel like life worth living part wants go grin big fuck you life thats happened feel like ill always hollow clown ive never cry help guy guess thats changed since im posting here feel end rope guys feel like keeping going,1 +f anyone wanna rant hormones im gonna kms rn hate hormonal fuck hormones ugh,0 +probably end rant whoever reads this thank you trigger warning sexual assault going summer camp state first time ever away family day time,1 +brother cute hes years old,0 +hey girl making hey girl post need stop,0 +lonelywhats point living always alone ive never friend one im loneliness depressed since crave love friendship family even know me one cares ask me everyone seems want talk stopped talking completely years example play instruments even know im music all thought someone else beside hang out seems good true one ever come see actually like care see me even changed looks dramatically try attract people lost ton weight got fit got teeth straightened whitened started wearing makeup made good looking one cares try best smile time make eye contact people which hard severe social anxiety one cares dog one seems genuinely happy see every single day hes best friend friend one ever show unconditional love hes shown me enough always alone one share thoughts myself feel like im prisoner solitary confinement strong urge kill self like tonight know impulsive decision strong never feel love connection anyone point living life alone,1 +sad romance untellable director decides break narration offer points view characters so lot flashbacks reshooting scene but would extraordinary moment cinema put fragments order see result br br and would worth it me one best french movie ever made br br it everything br br cast first steps monica bellucci vincent cassel presence voices even hardofhearing symbolic fallen love moviebr br directing camera bright alive plays sets mysterious long closeup la david lynchbr br cinematography light beautiful gold rust like lovebr br a neverseen paris paris outoftime accurately composite lot districts huge search here look like gotham city modern old time br br music big orchestra perfect tune frames song charles aznavour made discover great singer br br ah story said love story rather tragic saying love nothing make people happy guaranteed sweet ending great message often told love passion derivative latin pain suffer lot love endless waiting lack courage indecision br br and ease yourself fate destiny god devil stab back arrive soon late all love means world billions lot things happen much stories written so whats love br br personally lived moments like this car dear one mobile rings know special friend kisses goodbye and you even always together so want go car leave together hear sweet cruel words cant amazing hard rain started br br i found movie depicts moments tragedy one else,0 +ive smelt worse thing ever exist basicly cousins holiday together sharing room go soon get back us needed shit us used bathroom swear smell made want fn kill,0 +tiredhello whoever reading post trying help someone whos end life point please move really need support im threat moment post might turn lengthy shot seeking advice here something me im teenager years old male ive severely depressed something year used suicidal time ago multiple reasons mostly triggered redflag attempts occurring around one talking people numerous occasions vacation tried killing even night finally going claim life girlfriend said feels way started dating anything knows depressed also wanting kill back then id also like point reason im still alive supportive everything really improved since then just enough get rid moods list reasons would like finally end all nowadays hobbies whatsoever nothing really interests me really talk anyone outside school internet im quite popular school lot friends there none gets even close considered close friend id also like point girlfriend longdistance relationship hour timezone difference making really difficult talk were handling part quite well anyway wake early morning feel like utter shit get ready school sit hours learning anything even though im still getting somewhat good grades the teachers refusing teach us anything also give us materials give us lot homework exams figure everything ourselves get home homework sleep hours like pm feel lonely girlfriend gets home after midnight me stay morning talking process again day see anything even remotely enjoyable next years approximately see plan graduate high school move uk girlfriend whos us study college there thats something look forward to right partly lot money im exactly gifted student either costs uk think ill able manage time want keep living life without her reason im ending it idea future bring really want together really wanna that going really fucking difficult get point live together peacefully im tired pushing days without enjoying anything conversations girlfriend best friend became distant well close online friends net neutrality making feel better right either seeing best financial situation either she enough money pay college though im definitely going ask money im just feels like im options cant leave ill end killing almost immediately sure thatd form relief like go there thing is really easy access outdated prescription pills a shit ton them knives firearms high buildings know anymore feel miserable every day im sure included everything ive included vital stuff one reads through well then guess im now,1 +used good school s started university longer good it realize unrealistic think would still good years formal education oh god think good idea really trying trying get discouraged f feel awful want give matter hard trying school sucking triggered school,1 +said yes vent gremlin we abduct people school,0 +said falling black hole would want meet needed alone months since kept texting responded first got worried said seen talked friends know sleeping eating patterns crappy even before family friends know depression said seeked help heard going said messaged bother block anything even said could gets overwhelming months since responded messages give space keep texting stupid memes etc guess history us dating makes anxious would want cut contact dating someone else example shoul keep checking depressed guy isolated responded texts months,1 +today really feel like walking top condo standing edge blowing brains smithereens shotgunim much coward though fuck fuck life,1 +really mood list million one reasons life considerably worse everyone elses not kind fucked updoes anyone know acquire positive outlet emotions feelings sitting letting consume mei quite suicidal yet fantasize death quite often want suicidal suicidal pretty help much look forward work towards want something help hold now something makes feel bit better maybe sort purpose feel empty,1 +feel shame thinking suicidaltheres escape endless loop wanna feel like special sad snowflake yet mind craves kind validation see glimpse future get overwhelmed guilt doubt never suicidal begin with ive done attention theres escape loop happiness hope seem bittersweet yet reason prefer something bitter pity need feel control im actually one controlled choosing suicidal make different interesting compared people choosing death secure ending mean im control means im weak let go little pride take feeling miserable others theres escape loop keep spinning spinning im getting dizzy soon ill drop dead ill finally stop going circles behind ill leave trail blood pain others carry shoulders since mine weak wrinkly slightly ripped bag full sharp rocks ripped enough let fall off bag ill put backs around me pretend exist day breaks spine makes unable anything else stay still drown thoughts behind ill leave sphere angst perhaps decided leave life me since tad bit powerful disappear perhaps stay behind help karma perhaps itll hurt ones hurt caused trauma thats pretty monochromatic shiny yet boring fantasies shiny perspective bland peoples tastes course thats completely understandable healthy would strive greater shiny things since im ill settle pretty burgundy tiny diamond put display end tunnel end,1 +guysssss part outfit cameeee httpswwwredditcomrpeachykeenoceancommentskxboze_purchase_jedi_i_apologize_for_not_buying_theutm_sourceshareampamputm_mediumios_appampamputm_nameiossmf first two,0 +kazuo komizu strikes entrails beautiful woman sequel entrails virgin time around story based around psychologist megumi ozawa decides take yakuza avenge suicide dopedup raped patient winds doorstep one day gets head yakuza capture her learns insidious plat doping girls selling slavery apparently ends badly overdoses cocaine soon melds another body disposed becomedum dum dum super slime hermaphrodite zord he makes mince meat yakuza saves daynot reallybr br well better entrails virgin much film a whopping minutes consists rape sex fogging usual hohum stuff almost towards end finally get gore groove cool sequence like alieninspired penismonster stomach scene gooey asphyxiation still suffers hyper low budget feel makes fun cant elevate zgrade soft horrorcore fare,0 +im worried dog yorksire stomach problems im really really worried ,0 +really know sayim good writing sorts things well generally feels like ive going downhill long time nowadays im really good anything im good making people happy really anything going me guess done anything terrible either able liveup peoples expectations even seem useful basic stuff maybe ive following idea nexttonothing begin with impossible negative impact least im pretty toxic constantly let people really needed me even though every instance othersd back want again always ends case whether say wont people really patience get that honestly deserved overdue memorys pretty fucked cant see going anywhere even around months high time bit junk swept forgotten about guess,1 +please fucking kill me want kill badly want blow head badly hate fucking life hate myself please god fucking kill me god dammit,1 +bf requirements must alive must like guys,0 +kind film might give nightmare besides lot funbr br hardware wars good spoof star wars films like spaceballs failed good spoof film ever seen ripoff star wars makes fun it thats spoofs supposed be,0 +really know im posting hereits throwaway account really struggling know theory things dosay right care totally alone recently friend tell loved cut out top ongoing problems anyone turn to one talk nothing with vivid memories previous trauma im waiting able see psych thats weeks away steady downhill months know feelings wholly mine feel like giving truely care anything anymore im sick cycle numbness intense feelings im sick feelings abandoned used tossed aside quit studies taken leave work feel guilty many work now part wants leave everything behind know left would easy excuse cover intent want wake anymore mostly want continue occasionally activly want finish it im self destructive best times much once sick going one fight next remember last time happy longer distraction lasted severely neglecting physical health lately drink alcohol essentially living coffee havent slept hours months even coffee part hoping something health wise give soon decision hands easier around me,1 +psa fuck loli lolis designed headpats shall used cock sleeves thank u,0 +discord server kinda chill mainly meme shitposting server lemme know want,0 +want feel like anymoreeveryday feel either mindnumbing numbness sadness anxiety point wanting anything today one worst days nothing bad even happened hell yesterday got make guy really like guess anxiety really bad today think guy really like is relationship just fucked it dunno awkward shitty yesterday im awkward shitty today feel trapped want feel anxious anymore ive crying day reason cant find reason not cry want feel like anymore,1 +seems easyim drunk im tired im sad im tired sad easy cut open shoulder trying satisfy myself wouldnt easy slice wrists open bleed without anyone ever knowing people keep telling itd selfish killed would cause pain selfish want stick around feel pain them,1 +big sad send commentplease write something feeling suicidal right crazy get state ,1 +fucking hate worldthe world fucking dark people mean nobody gives shit anybody else,1 +one best movies ever seen feel greatly touched theme movie intends convey one sentence keeps coming mind history repeats itself life shown movie people young seem understand parents spouses people every excuse sharing dearest time children late people always work hard support whole family liable neglect subtle feeling partners people always change perspectives different stages lives people always forgiven heart full love beloved nothing important blood relation people share world one never late talk folks feel bottom heart achieve better understanding themselves life end day people feel sorry regretful since kept words always hope a new life actors actresses fantastic understood directors intention perfectly movies charm lies in me effect bringing skillful splendid fusion cheers tears audience,0 +history teacher intentionally gave us homework inconvenient time screw him thats shitty,0 +would like dieignore last post want die wish gun laws strict netherlands,1 +find new year hard timei certainly do brings home much ive failed past years certainly how even every effort im still making exact promises hoping changes another year again again is might next year time place thoughts im still here just maybe maybe year something someone side things improve stay strong stay me lets see do lets give small chance owe experience happiness please me im tired feeling alone,1 +people laughing publicrecently brain disease progressing rapidly people started laugh stupid mistakes make,1 +threat one fails make exhale frim nose laughter within next hour post full bro code assembled finest bros rules,0 +anyone want get betteri good days sometimes wish didnt find wanting miserable strength kill myself like life shitty enough make suffer tolerable enough cant take it gets frustrated want way out need share im going probably one even read worth try,1 +hey gamerdude think literally called messiah,0 +get karma anywhere go hold ring ding ding ding ding,0 +tried kill new yearsthis going long post advice comments really appreciated love already sorry advance messy post im writing past midnight im really flooding thoughts that fyi im year old girl tried kill new years already really depressed day got ditched family friends ended alone kind absolute last spill could take ended overdosing shower floor one neighbours heard collapse carried hospital signed in faked name address whole identity i know illegal stop please knew fly days knew would keep time had ended climbing window running home feels unreal numbing kind feel like dont even remember properly im quite sure why strong feelings come whenever think day three years ago experienced excruciating months life one best friends killed she found months missing ice drowned another close friend died traffic accident cant really explain felt fucking fucked everyone pretty much broke apart everything knew town died freaking sucked really miss much swear ive never strong emotion desire towards anything love much still do sometimes feels like even remember look like anymore general past seems fake unreal afterlife hope theyre okay now past years really developed depression anxiety self harm way much deal them point need apply fake skin which used halloween hands cover fucking shred marks now since then moved different country new school in everything significantly pressuring everyone know fucking fake prime purpose life getting stanford friends here asking anyone guess could seem like one people loads friends general highly liked place really like this fun friends guess know give shit me told past current diagnosis them really brushed off point month later tried talk again totally forgotten told them want talk always boyfriend problems soooo important fucking bullshit last may contacted one teachers asking ear first adult ive actually ever conversation like before every time ever try talk someone shitty ass past feelings cry like bitch throughout dayweek fucking humiliating back story really lovely empathetic teacher ever met ended kind telling typical rap him my past feel like moment except never told self harm ended inviting house get know wife since similar experiences instead talking disgusting feelings stuff talked everyday things music which amazing taste on really nice proper conversation someone normally since then hes acting different towards me every time sees sour face im kind time consuming freak problem is ive developed huge crush him fucking hate it every time see cant breathe panic get sad i frequent panic attacks every day reason anyway hurts much much ignores me go way take route school likely time know timetable think now ive become really suicidal point feel like human actually gives shit anything anyone end selfish motherfuckers go benefit whole world based getting money convincing everyone happy are really know part want advice on need feedback anything,1 +know im good enough feel like disappoint make people upset doesnt even really feel like cares much dont think people remember unless im there would anyone notice im gone would anyone even care,0 +plz help need something fun watched fucked movie need eyebleachgood laugh etc anyone anything,0 +side effects failed attempt using tylenoli know mess liver anything else,1 +anyone elsei murderous tendencies dont act although shit hard hold back get angry head physically starts show face angry hands ball im staring whoever happens frequently normal tho,1 +bored homework dm me im bored hw id like meet chill people cure boredom dm youd like not suck,0 +accidentally slept classes im really bummed guys distract,0 +got new cat get new cat pictures disabled like come on edgar going stand this literally cant stand hes weeks old,0 +anatomie anatomy entertaining engaging film falls short delivering discomfort connected films subject matter idea ethical ignorance medical science world one pushes viewer towards discomfort realism institutions heidelberg special effects make notentirely easy film watchbr br however characters script gloss film seem familiar scream movies repopularised sort genre sadly then whilst subject one care about viewer presented another movie full college student characters really get chance care about unresolved subplots hammy stagekillings reinventing since memorable drew barrymore opening scene scream several years backbr br steven ruzowillzky makes fair effort script direction pushes boundaries general theme whilst presented entertaining film reasonable performances unfortunately left old feeling nothing wrong film nothing extraordinary eitherbr br an entertaining film interesting chance see foreign filmmakers influenced postscream horror culture ,0 +know better almost seems like staged wasnt set perfectly got footage amazing unfortunate events september put together well documentary classic footage got made unfortunate classic history footage alone make must see american person touched tragedy september ,0 +ask help one takes seriouslynever mind,1 +im really bored cant use anybody want play minecraft bedrock,0 + ive seen branaghs hamlet branagh old speaks frequently high pitched voice unwillingly funny convincing hamlet directors qualities poor see also much ado nothing branagh funny parts dialogues mostly cut speaking directors mistakes dialogue cuts ive seen hamlet think scenario interesting idea lousy actors orson welles hamlet ok bbc hamlet best derec jacobi convincing seems bit lunatic suitable patric stewart wonderful claire bloom attractive queen believe actors saying think best compliment,0 +updatetoday felt like want kill usual getting worse,1 +scocity revoled around deathwhy redflag much problem today past,1 +ive seen slew s rocker horrors years rubbish like terror tour ridiculously fun gems like slumber party massacre somehow managed keep putting one off strange probably popular well received one well finally caught easily best mostly awful but almost always endearing subgenre plot which pretty much lifted film black roses concerns mulleted misfit named eddie whose ridiculed high school taste music loves s metal especially idol sammi curr played late great tony fields sammi killed eddie favorite radio dj gives sammis final recording eddie plays record backwards discovers hes bit tougher bad things start happening taunt him sammis music possessed trick treat wellmade total hoot special effects awesome even though feature typical s laser beams grew s fan heavy metal remember urban legend playing record backwards hearing sounds satan worshipping haha also remember told older siblings neighbors kiss ozzy worshipped satan amusing see make cameos harmless radio dj antirock priest seen film kid film seems poke fun popular connection s alleged devil worship heavy metal viewer never really finds sammi curr back dead creating havoc killing whoever gets way movies weakest point overlook that loads fun,0 +ask bored closeted trans girl something im going respond youre young its phase know do,0 +m looking friend talk like videogames movies legos board games history,0 +really want kill myselfi want dieeveryday want die im fucking worthless stupid even funny big goals life probably wont even achieve one them ways kill quick easy,1 +thought coming going easy woke,0 +plan kill yearsi cant limitations have ive burden everyone hurt people even try make people happy ends hurting them say certainty im gone nothing change,1 +hi attempted suicide may like first weeks remember remember feeling suicidal soon left hospital pretty much came back board trying again ever see completely losing idea trying again feel like one things think about really need tips try stop really hate constantly thinking suicide want go mental hospital hear help all really want around people like right now think finally want help,1 +hear one let preface disagree sexism towards men still sexism white lives matter saying sexism towards men still sexism like saying white lives matter blm rally yes true never doubt men always predominant sex western countries white predominant race sexism towards men still sexism white lives matter careful saying time statements never doubt whereas blacks women suppressed please dont kill saying blacks,0 +want stop ghostedi get im pathetic annoying piece shit please least tell im sad get left read see cant message person anymore fucking defeats me puts sad depressed suicidal mood want end happens even worse see person talking group chat even bother message back understand sound like selfish person please im begging longer want talk tell me makes things much easier instead leave read make want die even usually do,1 +depressedanxious life spent youth moving around small outsider kid would always target bullying learned hide emotions fake okay draw attention away myself spent time books imagining fantasy worlds life made close friend rd grade another subject bullying although abused well confided th grade realised wanted live anymore shamefully tried end friendship could deal feelings felt sorryit time started dropping hints parent admired time masked panic child might issues told talking problems okay people around me grew close friends none could trust fully feelingsthese past years slowly settled gone university find failure address mental health resulted apathy studies hobbies developed real deep friendships cannot find trusting emotions people do relieved hurti completed subject past couple years past due graduate cannot keep lying parents live with cannot tell truth either one parent socially inept understanding background mental health grew abusive household difficult time confusing honesty manipulationi never hurt myself know tell people feel without like manipulating them burdening them feeling like shit receiving end know difficult hear know tell parents,1 +entered schools yearbook cover contest got nd place meaning back yearbook lmfao ampxb i would show whole thing personal info ithttpspreviewredditqlqkoktkxajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsbfefedffafdedfa,0 +fuck lifewhy born didnt ask shit that im ugly dumb poor please whatever whoever please take me thats ask,1 +somebody friend please please,0 +welp storm took houses power sucks playstation,0 +eventually danny decided try sleep left gramps wine kitchen threw away things written left brothers cigarettes back found them headed bed slowly stumbled kitchen silently walked past cats sleeping table chairs gently opened door room let fall bed soon head hit pillow memories come back fears haunted again ok hell able forget everything tomorrow anyway im bored balls hurt guys,0 +need medicationhey first thanks working help people mental health issues wish could myself caught problems bipolar diagnosed separate times quite medications antidepressants antipsychotics however years ago lost insurance decided commit getting help went long process eventually got prescribed lamotrigine lamictal medication first really work me things going alright while got new doctor just urgent care extend prescription without previous medical records due clerical error wrong name went meds cold turkey since spiraled trying get life back years later now feel like tried everything worked quit job moved state better health care ive told family need help keep getting denied healthcare make year hardly enough pay rent much care think redflag every day know need feel better enough keep going pill costs cents dont know find doctor dont know get insurance ive bartender which season moving applying jobs benefits im loss anxiety roof never look forward waking up know must making harder needs be know avenues take afraid reaching let paralyzed afraid work really hard getting better nothing comes give up do thanks low pressure environment,1 +ok guys realise bit unpopular opinion honestly think female brutally torture male maybe isnt great dont think everyone understands darn feminists making everyone believe whaman wrong disagree know edgy,0 +idioti think idiot could well darwin awards nominee couple years ago arrived canada intention study university get degree new environment homesickness depression cultural differences long desired freedom countless reasons hindsight smart sounding excuses created changes plans first year uni got drugs alcohol parties nothing serious drugs alcohol wise end year certain gonna make second year would leave canada go back home didnt want that like complete idiot simply said parents everything fine still studying years kept saying lie reality lived canada without visa without degree without desire change things lived alone rented apartment reading novels watching films basically unproductive antisocial waste simply didnt think consequences didnt care would end up even right care much happen imagining mom makes feel immense guilt things ive done less year ago started translating novels native language english fun ended earning bit it last something started going life started cleaning habits recently reminded passport soon expire knowing do honest options quite limited come clean get deported create another convoluted disgusting lie got passport renewed live without passport illegal immigrant go full hollywood style get fake passport even seriously contemplated redflag solution one hand truly dont want face consequences actions hand something finally started make sense life sure chance go back time wouldnt happened wouldnt lie parents living life disgusting parasite hurting them living without direction desire regret last years life go back hometown would probably face jail time draft dodging that honest writing everything right made realize dont want go back home face parents option right seems whole lot appealing logical right thing do even eating bullet know cowards way but,1 +either blessing disguise maybe worst thing thats ever happen mefor longest time say ive lived life searching reason kill myself family parents breakup friends name it little know one day would maybe cross paths little virus called hsv simply known herpes try tell isnt end something u want end ur life over but honest death dishonor cant host life body makes think ill simply turn walking host virus think thats want known no simply cannot bear idea living this test positive dont know hell im going it sense end near didnt want kill std but guess beggars cant choosers ,1 +one year suffering finally endjust one year over tbh wish could every fiber being unfortunately wait one year things must die know get exceptionally worse year motivation live would redflag awaits end road honestly cant wait reach welcome smile like child misses parents waiting long them said theres hope life matter happens therell always hope lurking around redflag existing give hopeless people like sweat release death,1 +paini young everyday same wake terrible headache going doctors years really long remember gotten point want live anymore really lot medication right now helped days hide it think fake it going kill myself want live thing keeping alive family myself feel better letting out think know me bring up deny it stupid posting this want get trouble,1 +think girl likes well specific im sure like one weird roundabout way trying say it id post screenshots conversation cant,0 +actual good painful ways diehanging sounds awful shooting head would terrible people survive gunshots head time pills work read slitting wristsstabbing also painful shit,1 +saw film day santa fe film festival delighted honesty humor thought provoking movie ive seen long time cant get mind reason may everyone makes think know people like think movies much anymore shame actors play franklins quite find imagine playing complicated people frankness though thought couple supporting characters good franklins totally forgive important movie opinion expect like much ive thought days proving relevant piece entertainment,0 +shouting internet answer look really care side political spectrum fall into really disheartening see people blindly attacking eachother sub and others ofc instead saying blanket statements calling everyone side idiots sheep approach mature angle us young people obviously supposed future leaders whatever country reside in better came us clearly failed polite listen concerns other side feeling actually talk things realize different end day might side ask you lets conversation lets come consensus despite differences view want see change world start discourse all kind,0 +someone plz tell way see people following,0 +need normalize male hugging thing ache emotionally need support us males cant hug friends without labled gay inappropriate yet whenever girls situation hug regarded normal fine fell jealous fuck cant males that thank coming ted talk,0 +line course lords prayer thy done earth heaven sweden especially far north idea heaven degree c winter temperatures little low side me good folk live doubt think gods countrybr br the storyline familiar one acclaimed international musician daniel suffers health breakdown midcareer goes back little village northern sweden born persuaded local pastor help church choir turns unlikely talent class act enter contest held innsbruck austria echoes sorry band players brassed off models calendar girls dancers the full monty course causes plenty emotional upheaval downtrodden villagers realise worth revolt oppressors faces hostile husbands increasingly dubious pastor nothing except death going stop himbr br despite somewhat corny story get know like many characters come across people rather caricatures despite many recognisable types wonder wifebeater unpunished long sweden one country world violence pretty strongly discouraged he also bit young one bullies daniels youth puritanical pastor secret passion girlie magazines bit stereotype marvellously realised niklas falkbr br michael nyqvist simply wonderful daniel frail driven musician theres nice music well rapt whole two hours ending make it guess spoiling say daniel achieves set do,0 +people stop posting asking gfbf shit annoying,0 +always happen me thought time bring good grades maths online test turns fate currently feeling upset sitting bathtub india must excel maths take science th grade dang difficult mins questions markbut reality take longer time probably marksi telling man hypocrisy school give less time high difficulty time cheating like defeating thanos almost impossible searched questions google half cant even found ,0 +mom ignored paini feeling suicidal past years even though ive gotten better conversation mom last year still hurts me repeatedly trying reach desperation pain feeling suicidal typically ignored cries shes asian parent doesnt believe mental health gives motivational speech however simply said the dog barks never bites day think it thought time still hurts yall think spoken anyone would great peoples perspectives,1 +please someone talk mei horribly depressed suicidal gay emotionally abusive father severe depression need someone talk to one please someone pm me talk me anythign please,1 +pleasant surprise expected downgrade along line rock con air armaggeddon especially overhyped film perhaps thats reason approved new type bruckheimer fare clever dialogue instead snappy oneliners decent backgroundmotivation instead shakenbake stereotypes chase came really thirsted it fanboys expecting armageddon rollercoaster stay away one intelligent action fans even bother jolie appeared little,0 +decisionafter months contemplating procrastinating ive come conclusion ending life way cease constant battle anger depression anxiety regret sit defeat letting three feelings push isolate people meant world ,1 +would like donate please go to url fundraising goal high struggling reach it donations would much appreciated also see done far collect money click link donations welcome matter big small would also greatly appreciated could share this,1 +update last post girl called toxic end ended sorta appolgizing life,0 +need advice know deal suicidal sisterim sorry feel like mess something wrong talk feels suicidal could something regrets selfharms whenever see scars feel devastated tells never liked living long remember cant relate ive always content life feel like need something help her know what cant understand thought maybe someone going something similar help relate little better want help best can ive always looked love much hurts think could stand killed herself want know help her,1 +unable kind funhi like title says used like videogames enjoy anymore sole source fun life friends hobbies never mind girlfriend body feels languid sick time enjoy anything physical find without fun life idea could get any little help,1 +dont know invented two one shampoo whoever are god thank,0 +given title first followup quartet obviously reduces number w somerset maugham stories comprise film author still turns introduce episodes theres epilogue time around way script original compendium gave sole credit rc sheriff maugham also lent hand adaptation well noel langley though unclear whether contributed one segment else worked unison expected much crew quartet retained second installment though also extends least three cast members namely naunton wayne wilfrid hydewhite felix aylmer the last two bit parts episode quartet entitled colonels lady trio ultimately emerges lesser achievement predecessor slightly unbalanced third story takes half runningtime still done utmost care acted verve stellar cast solidly enjoyable bargainbr br the verger tells church sexton james hayter storys title another word whos dismissed years service new parish priest michael hordern simply hes illiterate rather rest laurels despite age takes wife his landlady played kathleen harrison opens tobacconist shop strategically placed lengthy stretch road service offered and business flourishing developed whole chain last scene then sees pay visit bank manager felix aylmer who surprised learn hayters lack education prompted ask interests wealthy and respected tobacconist replies measure irony calling verger br br the second episode mr knowall shortest also perhaps engaging voyage sea utterly beleaguered insufferable presence pompous young man nigel patrick british despite foreignsounding name kelada professes authority virtually every subject sun naunton wayne wilfrid hydewhite two passengers put latter shares cabin man former view patricks attentions pretty wife anne crawford fancydress party however passengers decide enact revenge kelada one impersonate a jest naturally doesnt appreciate still contrives show decent side character told crawford necklace shes wearing imitation wayne challenges patrick name pricebut latter realizes immediately genuine article would compromise crawfords position tell kelada allows publicly ridiculed rather expose fact woman probably secret admirer br br as also deduced title sanatorium deals myriad patients place run andre morell protagonist new intern roland culver wistfully observes various goingson narrative fact highlights particular three separate strands plot one humorous the feud two aged scots long resident sanatorium played finlay currie john laurie one melodramatic the erratic relationship disgruntled patient raymond huntley longsuffering devoted wife betty ann davies one bittersweet the romance nave charming jean simmons dashing cad michael rennie which spite pretty much everything including fact morell diagnosed simmons lifer rennie years left him leads couple altar,0 +almost socialized today class today really extracurricular class instructor said got popsicles could go outside eat chat whatever hung around bit really talk anyone know anybody want butt without really knowing say closest got instructor asked wanted another said good since hands already mess one had idk though want able make friends talk people actually ends like end awkwardly hanging around within vicinity without really going anything actually something,0 +jesus committed redflagthis serious question im genuinely interested people think it,1 +anyone else see things wayhttpiimgurcomhhftqbjpg decided make diagram better illustrate think suicidal thoughts positive negative signs represent good bad feelings life horizontal axis course life time cant seem handle roller coaster effect seen first part figure want make things simpler,1 +society people autism spectrum mental health issues psychological issues surrounded bunch fucking nazis blame us everything say everything fault trying destroy us psychologically want us kill ourselves psychological warfare society governments hates people like us get extremely angry suicidal surrounded hateful society,1 +really know turn anymoreim i stable place call home since moving around soon things start going well move next step plans better future everything falls shit ive rebuild life scratch nine times now say scratch mean thing name shitty phone clothes back im done always end way cant anymore im currently homeless penniless hungry sitting things life shitty car go mile without breaking down actually car cant even sell though cant afford insurance pos else there tried get another job guess what credit check recently got evicted apartment even get job fucking imaginary digit bullshit number family friends go get back feet statecity live expensive even get job even pay get work point thats much time goals plan even motivation life keeps wanting give good ole fuck kick back stairs time im getting back up im stuck endless cycle ive dealing years tried really every single day worthless shitty existence nothing became it failed every turn im tired yall strength keep every single time ive asked help ive always gotten bull oh ill pray you cant give up itll get better people keeps going on im asking help anymore cause anything im asking understanding difficult one person deal see people try day life get rewarded throwing towel sounds times better going another years this,1 +world systematically stripping things make happy coping mechanisms last yearsi used work made happy fencing team got sinus infection months shortly recovering herniated disk back got surgery almost year later still extremely limited without serious painful consequences back surgery like play guitar video games random onset numbness pain arms hands zero medical explanation doctor took seriously worst peaks head back life remind make life hell again used like drink one night ended hospital pancreatitis possibly drugged hostess cant drink anymore lest want reignite excruciating pain side like weed moved country isnt legal im trying antidepressants again ones took kid made even depressed brought back suicidal thoughts im sex addict put dick toosmall vibrator cup months ago ever since cant get full erection pain numbness still masturbate twice day even though makes worse positive chemicals get anything doctor hasnt done actual tests anything beyond looking giving fucking herbs ive lost fuckin ability sex s friends busy succeeding care graduated semester late time covid start friends jobs growing careers im useless piece shit ive seen friends twice past months partly im afterthought them even best friend says im best friend im different country family whole crisis vowed didnt get job id kill coming back us shithole id rather go back anyway figure easier family die overseas accept it rather finding body visa expires months dont see finding job then want easy way go nothing seems easy enough lazy ass checked tall building around none public access stairways apartment building stories want make sure get full meters needed die confidence hate bullshit read news theres zero hope humans generation even solve every one problems have whats point world sustainable capable burning exploding violence oppression theres nothing worth looking forward to thats assuming im going medical situational problems piled cruel fucking universe want talk someone friends either busy succeeding dont want pull down dont trust them dont want trigger them writing dumb post ill probably delete anyone knows good place jump tokyo hmu,1 +struggling push thoughts awaymy last attempt around years ago ive handled daily suicidal thoughts pretty well since then usually resilience push away nonsense aspergers make friends easily ones ended pushing away removing days ago even guilty remove entire group due negativity since im back self harming strength cope thoughts think im safe usually im make attempt get serene almost bliss like feeling wash ive found answer yet thats usually things go bad even know im typing out think need tell someone know someone read something know tried fill void wife kids working makes feel worse things supposed matter right like makes even shittier person dont second thought maybe im safe thought ive already started rationalising gonna get computer think thats way stay safe right now,1 +heard film walt disney pictures worry it would classed along films disney meant educational purposes like family planningbr br it coproduced kotex teach preteen girls menstruation supposably educates superficial level go heavy detail animated rams head reproductive system sequencebr br the film show the wonderful world disney elements like turning page use animation tell storybr br this film impossible find find film best luck enjoy,0 +redflag best option lazy idlerif someone lazy want work hard even try put effort anything improve situation redflag option them,1 +finished series netflix know fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +freedomi thought going end month ago guess missed that honestly see things getting better guess im waiting next emotional spike happen may deed long free isolation judgement jealousy anguish care comes feeling around years now heres hoping comes soon,1 +open letter lostboys j j know other knew you want say much either alive could write hours hours never even begin encapsulate life love joy seemed like two had words describe smiles could lift little helium balloon happiness stomach heart beautiful smiled seemed like content people always say eyes window soul never see then see blue skies clear waters saw love friendship young men living life life live seen tragedy sadness desperately must felt even now idea desperate felt know much sadness heart held closer one good friends need apologise maybe else going hear it im sorry never seeing taking issues lightly listening problems enough im sorry hearing saying without listening feeling im sorry reach harder closer look heart feel pain needed someone feel im sorry last way thing try pull back in im sorry together party proper conversations happened am better friend talked sadness mention blues foolish thought world feet opportunities hope thought time thought future us still owe three cigarettes left gaping holes lot lives know really truly knowing beforehand wouldve made difference knowing amount love genuinely surrounded wouldve made difference living not guilty possibility feel waves waves anguish honestly glad cannot find out cannot know better friend either would alive right now listened listened listened opened heart wide would go alive facebook happy birthday messages theyd wrapped joy party hats meaningless comments instead haunting sadness feels thick even though computer screen im sorry try harder know more im sorry loneliness consumed you noone break out wish could see love think though see pain adore,1 +pls send help stayed am minecraft world house looks like small mansion outside live right next ravine fell asleep it fight mobs try wake headset then came house put minecraft beds next feel oddly accomplished myself,0 +nothing left givei therapy years upbringing mentally ill narcissistic mother alcoholic enabling father gave childhood filled neglect trauma abuse developed mental illnesses well full fledged personality disorder earliest memory watching mom shove dad floor picking taking bedroom locked bedroom door held lap told worry dad outside door screaming let out give him response ill give one fingers heavy duty fan metal blades running held empty cigarette pack blades noise made loud remember crying dad screamed door started rattling attempts break in mom turned fan decided wasnt crying loud enough pinched thigh twisted hard enough scream time dad broke door down covered tears snot way toddler be mom sitting edge bed smoking smiling checked broke tears mom looked said nest time threaten call police me wont bluff dad moved next day mom moved around state dozens times always move government couldnt catch us couldnt hold job fbi spies everywhere times steady high learned young clean vomit blood carpet extremely proficient wrangling addicts apartment time also different schools then fault though never born fbi would never caught wouldnt need move much use heroin scramble signal came head mom addict lover week gotten argument ended slitting wrists front me called police took hospital grandparents moms parents took days stabilized visited hospital mom cried told loved me never meant hurt me needed help lie people cam talk me couldnt tell friends violence subjected to would sometimes sit friends laps fix told truth would take away would kill herself didnt want reason died i lied cps complicit falling cracks agency meant protect me raped year later friend mothers met christian chat room arrested blamed ruining friendship god fearing man made mistake called dad asked live him instead moved back us started cutting keep expressing anger felt abandoning coming back abuse leveled instead met boy fell love college sophomore promised would take care soon graduated high school turned valedictorian want mother make scene graduation left everything behind moved dan not real name together things great particular certain things living heaven compared used to asked stop college work could finish college degree would land better paying job mine didnt think anything it saved me would done anything asked got violent made excuses never violent before things stressful him continued years would say something didnt like would shut down would go quiet refuse talk asked did would give noncommittal answer ignored silence would explode didnt love him balancing act ask correct questions correct amount times anything less perfection ended broken bone bloody nose lied therapist psychiatrist throughout this knew panic attacks nigh terrors depression anxiety drinking self harm dutifully covered bruises face neck arms ashamed weakness falling love man even violent mother still felt indebted getting away family broke last year drew bath opened bottle wine swallowed every pill had dan work hours due home sitting hot water listening music feeling eyes get heavier peace felt life fear pain doubt dread everything going over happy obviously work dan came home early hospitalized medicated properly diagnosed referred better intensive form therapy got hospital dan ghosted cleared apartment everything except cat clothes joint account personal account emptied nothing year work freelance writer living first life slowly making progress plans save much money could move rural setting lease next year instead everything started exploding people hate disorder even without knowing me even though destructive tendencies turned inward parents pushing contact dan give another chance triggered friend mine return triggered full flashbacks dan coworker angry unable cover event writing panned still chronic pain car accident last year stuck paperwork hell even witnesses police video showing driver fault pneumonia every breath take hurts still struggling binge eat drink worn core nothing left give want feel sense peace felt knew everything going over cant think reason keep fighting,1 +hello goodnight time sleep you dont care time you sleep,0 +note english first language therefore text might gramatically correct best ampxbso even go on throw bit context best friend high school let us call d girl since first year hs eventually got together start third year always weird notredflag last long decided take break notredflag focus myself realize want stuff anyways get know girl let us call k bestfriend ds gf hangout times eventually decide would cool start dating together since new years things start get messy whenever something bad happens k always knows blames me mocks front k gf makes feel worthless k ds gf also started leave plans camping hanging out feel like ones number break k get ds gf blaming entire th year hs also classmates never ever felt trapped now anyone talk to lost lot friends k want talk many people parents always working tired generally bad mood ampxbi justcannot feel done point think anything matters point might mood swing feel really,1 +gf said loved seconds later broke dated weeks thats nothing made really happy life wasnt great really getting annoyed time feel like ass breaking way please proceed commenting im horrible person feel free ask shit bash even personally,0 +know pigeons die sex mean least one fuckd did,0 +really interesting film first time seen relationship older woman younger guy screen without sensationalist director notting hill bold move something serious,0 +wish intervened years ago girl class constantly getting bullied back fall remember classmates would make fun girl would laugh jokes feel ashamed thinking im please notice someone getting bullied please speak up silent laugh,0 +give upi knife second impulse courage it im going to,1 +compliments criticism feel like personal attacks take criticism extremely poorly whenever someone criticises something ive done take personal attack feel work bad feel im terrible also cant take compliment compliment me feel like disingenuous feel like people compliment want something me compliments also feel like personal attack me know makes fucking sense know im incredibly toxic this,0 +sex ppl minion blanket want proof ur lookin,0 +scaredi wish scared kill myself think start making plan tryingto write letter start crying shaking want peace im tired alone feel like mind slow cloudy lately like cant think used really good writer every time try talk write something words feel forced think really hard im trying say im really sorry,1 +used touchy feely person pre trauma hell id stood big city sign free hugs wanted to id touch leg sympathy throw arm around shoulders comradeship family never like growing up recent years rarely got hugs parents brother wed brush legs sitting itd awkward oh sorry shuffle separate latter still true make joke,1 +every time look sub theres someone posting suicidal makes feel whenever see it wish sub positive sub positive place moment,0 +anyone else boat im dont personality people like arent good looking enough people want hang around you probably makes sense im talking man shitty social boat rn,0 +crying hrs straight ok serious tho lol,0 +big balls important big dick small balls unsexy even u inch massive pp big dangling balls yummy,0 +last day spring break td tryna relax school takes life,0 +swear ever tried cocaine id able relate film perfectly pace well dialog churns speeds viewers might need stop relax headsbr br there great little elements pop film like rob lowes character seems always loosing shoe characters keep running spirals around zigzagged path story put together extremely well direction seems flawlessbr br the movie reeks clumsy cuteness one think could enjoy laughoutloudevenifyouarealone moments ensure ill certainly watching again,0 +opinion october sky one best movies it totally everything emotional drama movie would need like wonderful story good character interactions october sky remain heart long remember say special thanks created film,0 +documentary schlockmeister william castle takes cheap shots naive ss environment characteristic worklook funny silly people ghostglassesbut also affectionate lively particularly bright commentary john waters absolutely target audience things time castles daughter adored dad also pretty perceptive plied craft we never find became castle offspring movies good makes clear marketing brilliant appears sweet hardworking family man fun people keep popping up like straight jackets diane baker looks great anne helm replaced instigation star joan crawford darryl hickman explodes giggles happy memory working castle the tingler theres enough footage give us idea level castles talentnot high energetic pleasant look time audiences easily pleased make nostalgic simpler moviegoing days,0 +love jesus still want diei want die everyday beautiful boys husband love much one would think things alone would keep earth go church am far think pretty devout lover jesus dont understand dont want anymore frustrating find fault everyone antidepressants last week friend committed redflag im jealous im even sad freaking jealous dont even know turn moment,1 +might kill tonight d rapist boyfriend leaving rn,1 +suspected bpd ive fucked everythingi think bpd fit dsm criteria officially diagnosed best friend ex girlfriend currently break talking struggling upset replying messages curt cant deal though thought ever same go back normalcy likes silence prefers gone suicidal thoughts sometimes whenever ask ok remind im ignores hours sometimes even reply mean much anybody ive already sorted loose ends im waiting move two weeks people care love care people love me messed hate cant live it sorry,1 +would like thank emma chamberlain making want flare yoga pants think couldve got sale yesterday hurry,0 +wanna kill cos sexual desires impossible live thisi jerking things happened high school decades nothing try bed comes close experiences involve perving hot guys girls high school therefore kill right mean theres way ill able replace things enjoyed much high school snd indulge thinking every day cannot recreate snd never experience again therefore end me live theres way ever happy mean cant change sexual feelings,1 +new deleted award see lot posts sub deleted award cannot give myself people giving out,0 +fucking hate alivei creativity drive passion weak moral compass wish strengthen it morals stupid pointless care myself anyone else anything around me accounts empty vessel ideas goals dreams perspective everything around horrifically warped point connect people care emotions care much effect pathetic life dislike responsibility gain rewards responsible except avoidance pain misfortune im willing try hardest make things work shit hits fan id rather sleep cold ground beg money starve police officer harassed sleeping public space id attack maybe hed kill id able punish blindly enforcing law zero respect for hate responsible people hate something want do im fucking running steam here fuck life fuck you deserve rot hell give fuck ask exist right end pathetic life feel like it care contributing society im weak stupid unconfident find way make real living develope relationships solve problems life bring happiness want believe myself want responsible trajectory life cant trust to cant admit person want work it want die,1 +consistent kindnessive lurking past week dont know say respond pour soul write try translate anguish stirs deep heart respond dont know learn something kindness important reflect deep think really yearn for hunger for rawest sense wish sate personally yearn kindness yearn appreciated acknowledged youve done good youre beautiful everything going alright im grateful life youre amazing person love you kindness consistent basis go long way kindness heals insecurities makes us feel appreciated warms heart gives us strength survive thrive overcome much someone told every single day beautiful intelligent amazing grateful life showed appreciation hard work worked hard make things easier much impact would life heal really wish people kinder arent kind inherent defect prevents others kind me or hard kind freely sincerely complement comfort another one barely know something easy do someone close you something do think hard fighting battles dont acknowledge battles others battles may different intensity respond yearn support caught insecurities arent even aware insecurities others around us kind vulnerable open chink armour chance attempts kind shot down chance feel unappreciated risk many arent willing take something im trying work on give ive yearned long dont know do honestly like dont know respond appropriately conveyed posts fine unlike taught school fine know something answer everything many problems complex quick fix solution pretend isnt so lead frustration onetime simple fix heal years abuse neglect complex multifaceted life situations requires much effort comprehend let alone solve years alone creating maladaptive thoughts drags deeper abyss dont answers believe whatever answer is form consistency kindness resolve kinder person experience share thoughts hopes may resonate someone take may,1 +day nnn overall went pretty well cousins house chilling whole day done go,0 +think curse family realized much bad stuff happening family lately like night great grandfather heart attack still hospital week found grandfather aggressive prostrate cancer think spread hips aunt uncle newborn baby covid great uncle aunt covid mom covid think something wrong eye anyone cure this,0 +failed failed sleep sorry,0 +ever kissed someone listening skrillex switched full make sesh right beat dropped curious anyone ever done this im bored,0 +miss muchi lost wife cancer years months days ago widower turned brain cancer destroyed ability communicate slow way go married years months battled cancer years months weeks marriage took care entire time felt alone since really communicate me cant get thought redflag head ive already written notes family friends see therapist twice month cant stop missing her feel alone hurts much her im afraid never stop hurting like getting bad want stop im ready yet starting seem like option left,1 +looking friends hi fellow teens dont many friends looking one year old boy th grademy faviorite tv show family guy close second always sunny philadelphiai also like watching wwe last gen gamer ds democrat love politics,0 +much xanax would take kill ive never done found source,1 +going leave todayi going leave today almost two years since lost person loved today birthday ever since feel like belong anywhere anyone feel like im toxic entity everyone around like im enough theres nothing help without breaking even more going hang home today instead celebrating holiday boyfriend family even went far look tie noose ha almost jumped ship sea last year thinking would best way go end always end thinking others pain guilt left wish courage it wish could rid burden peoples time lives,1 +good afternoon ruffians todays news steve fuckin smash buy em get it now unrelated news would like introduce new neighbor zack efron,0 +wants free award one wholesome give away memes already many awards someone really wants one,0 +cant forgive myselfi cant forgive myself whole life ive taken care of regardless situation someone always pick slack ive left behind lot it able coast life putting minimum effort everything do knowing someone else always rest me eventually turned letting people me letting people cared world abusing love trust id say whatever people wanted hear extend free ride on hated this depressed damn easy anything something carry forever think somewhere inside knew that given choice starting hardest journey youve ever gone on continuing road ive going whole life chose easiest route like everything guess whole pattern started mother would let bargain pretty much anything rule get around formulated strong enough argument parents divorced years old mother given custody moved frequently whole life think longest stayed one place years lived her originally bought house hours away father lived soon became apparent needed closer him seeing every weeks enough ended moving times year ending right back started hours father lasted one year town years old mother decided wanted teach religion china lived china years mother taught english support us ended enrolled full chinese school first year speak word language put effort learn language hated fact brought away friends live determined make worst it returned china learned almost none language put effort probably could fluent waste thats think looking back basically every stage life returned china changed significantly going outgoing confident returned shy stick myself im sure made change ive tried pinpoint never come anything regardless still good friends lived town before first years high school alright school never put effort in cant remember homework always got minimum teachers liked me nice polite typical struggling student moved times completed high school getting tiresome writing it grade parents wondered grades bad decided get iq tested diagnosed something called nonverbal learning disorder basically means huge difference verbal iq performance iq case gifted verbal iq average performance iq apparently differences size extremely rare blamed poor grades lack effort articulate thoughts ideas head easily translating real world difficult me anyway moved one last time time live town girlfriend time stupid know seem pretty important lived family took foreign exchange students dad paid rent there course within first months living important relationship fell apart grade ended dating amazing girl christian bullied child low self esteem used male attention dated full year sex picked grad night think ive ever emotionally charged experience that continued dating got crappy job working call center instead going college even imagine self going back school point turns though ability slack limited school eventually stopped going work ended getting fired tried going college twice dropped times apply myself would let absolutely tiny excuse get way attending class homework started working convenience store mind while still slacked though ended hating quitting still girlfriend time probably together years point rd year university nothing wanted badly make change tried going china teaching english staying mother yeah lives now alright again cant bring put effort in know cannot bring it matter hard try video games convenient escape help often social connection friends though took long time admit it addicted escape reality provided made little bit money china lot working mother school taught at easiest way get work drive go apply schools looking people night got back china girlfriend brought meal airport rented us hotel night told thinking going back china friend mothers offered good work opportunity there want go another months without seeing me put school hold went back china me ended achieving nothing worked ass teaching english something hated us able afford flights home still hate me best support motivate me moved together last semester university went back school drop time still put almost effort well classes failed one average others graduated degree animal biology amazing grades deans list every year got job working assay technician applied veterinary school sat home almost full year rarely going out sometimes even ignoring her become dependent rather partner get vet school first attempt competitive canada almost one gets first year applying continued work continued nothing refused go visit work friends her day never even met me want anything self esteem shot getting job seemed impossible knew alienating one person cared about change though matter much fought myself would always lose literally everything alone worked cooked cleaned went friends alone sometimes begging come her rarely though carried year moved new apartment went friends wedding days came back distant asked wrong said you want know asked breaking me fell crying arms nodded even cry kept telling sorry everything really hit yet moved started living friend cant forgive one thing truly cared world nothing makes happy month since broke friends ive known since teenager seem stupid now flaws used overlook obvious even want hang them top depressed anyway considered suicide together seriously like now done her know would hurt parents probably friends now think value feelings situation though theres one thing know people loving enough get depression see life going uphill want live im going feel way forever hate ive wasted opportunities relationships time even losing this still feel like make change feel hopeless one thing even gives little motivation one day trying make ex showing ive changed think even deserve opportunity put hell even conjure little effort help her ended longer intended reading probably could cut paragraphs still got basic idea across whatever read not,1 +life prison trapped cannot get outi know do want live anymore,1 +great film american gi quits army marry german girl saved life last days war accepts really likes him support easier access food such meanwhile brother old friend form antiamerican terrorist group called werewolves purpose drive away occupants you might remember group playing major part lars von triers film europa zentropa james best best known role roscoe p coltrane s television show dukes hazzard shockingly excellent american become big movie star age reminds much warren beatty main actors good well fullers direction quite good using lot long takes although nearly complex park row long takes often consist long scenes lot dialogue problems lie script seems case fuller films ive seen badly flawed ought expanded fleshing major characters parts script helga wife goes major change completely screen therefore emotional center rests squarely bests shoulders fuller also killed sick mother early film hope sound harsh really anything throughout film except lie bed lines fuller keeps bringing film goes on would death solidify david helgas relationship myself film ends abruptly lacks payoff really biggest flaws world the way described makes sound bigger are ,0 +want kill bad theres genuinely way homeim teenager cant get gun theres nothing hang of tall buildings area tylenol starving stabbing etc ineffective want die bad theres genuinely way feels kind awful,1 +saw drugs years vh love it think reflects drug history well importantly strong message generations woodstock joplins hendrixs jim morrisons deaths many many examples drug use drug abuse completely cover time line evolution drug use america good bad ways opinion documentary well done would like congratulate creators exactly needed playing tv days waiting dvd release definitely see it movie stunning big time,0 +one day red alley cat fed kicked people attacked dogs muses life would better skunk paints black white stripe back adds bit limburger cheese make stink first life better him dog flees butcher abandons shop letting cat walk pile meat thinking everything perfect noticed real skunk skunk overly amorous pep le pew pep mistakes poor cat female skunk pursues thinking protestations shyness poor cat thinks escaped throws skunk skin tall building pep think dead first seems work sneaks pep sees instantly forgets dead skunk end cat realises better kicked attacked lusted randy skunk nice ending skunk wife finds tobr br this fairly funny introduction pep le pew back overly amorous looks like randy sexually harassing stalker although punished behaviour end,0 +doim year old male career one near help process getting divorced kids never see move away ive tried kill fucked got really sick tried last night knife broke me want die want happy make someone else happy fucked everything life im back place every minute day look least painful way it talked friend today talked down cant rely every time im drowning thoughts terrible want hurt,1 +sometimes think buddhist monks correctlyim extremely intelligent person extreme interest american politics feel sense clairvoyance look actions politicians today know real world consequences foolishness causes unimaginable pain see years years progress flushed toilet broken political system fear massive civil unrest future maybe rise neofascism us sometimes feel like setting fire national mall relieve sense hopelessness protest way government run parties either pursuing murderous campaign future perceive enemies state truth want kill anybody want alleviate suffering two options see front either erasing erasing people see threat progress clear im real power execute anyone yet one day fear power use it sometimes think better kill cog political machine rather live tortured world perceive,1 +took nholy shit tasted awful syrup barely improved anything good thing feel like puking wait idea long takes work like ask questions take eternal nap welcome plan backpedaling this yeah,1 +hey guys games play sad want distract yourself past time,1 +feel brokeni know guys lot people respond sorry add that know anymore past months especially last month contemplating redflag lot like last week almost even redflag note written problems lately feel broken like trying get job call backs failing class long term relationship over parents angry fairly recent college change recent add onto already bad mind set pushed even farther write makes feel selfish pretty easy life like worry lot things feel way people way worse want die feels like downward slope hope future also scared hurt ones love leaving know hurt time know made sense tell someone know going do,1 +never gonna hit notes filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ruined lifei normal kid high school hung friends enjoyed sports etc got older got addicted sedentary lifestyle porn browsing internet laying bed went skinny kid pounds feet erectile dysfunction insomnia every night struggle sleep every hours torture fixed diet work daily still success besides skinny,1 +wanted say watching national velvet tv feb checking dates details etc surprising see made rooney years old whilst liz taylor accomplished english actress isbr br to put americans contributors right irish villages england ireland completely different country nothing whatsoever english countryside scenes shown supposedly taken south coast england brighton arundel county sussex scene exists unfortunately like many places roads buildings built hills beachesbr br so please lovely americans confuse ireland england ever take great exception it like confusing texas coney island,0 +sorry everyone tried help mei wish could say ive gotten better havent im still garbage human feel even shittier keep saying im gonna probably should seems like im going run people listen keep crying wolf goodbye im sorry,1 +guys find online school harder easier perks come cons come it im struggling little bit math still feel like im obtaining knowledge,0 +bitch worked first full day mcdonalds alright busy slow training know clock out pretty easy day,0 +need someone talk totitle,1 +despite production received number poor reviews actually holds quite well age note also bbc programme simply licensed granada ventures jane austen collection released dvdbr br so compare adaptations novel wellknown version days film amanda root anne elliott ciaran hinds captain frederick wentworth film course shorter good snapshot story earlier version ann firbank bryan marshall roles four hours tell story moved leisurely pacebr br firbank good ten years old role good marshall excellent wentworth man disappointed love bitter interference hidden cast people also contribute michael culver later seen cadfael harvill richard vernon later seen hitchhikers guide galaxy admiral croft noel dyson earlier coronation street mrs musgrovebr br one criticism hairstyles bit distracting costumes awful still detract hugely enjoyable austen adaptation,0 +honestly cant wait till trump office ten bucks says tries say system rigged big conspiracy system rigged him cant wait till politics taboo starts conflicts law requires sort qualifications become president besides age cause honestly cant another one him,0 +every little inconvenience makes want kill myself trying hard become robot stop ability feel ignore fact likely never happy again cry everyday reality hits me even fucking deserve thisi even people kill rape get away it worst crime probably stealing pencil friend fair man kid think ever mature pace would give anything stop crying,1 +dont hate dont respond sent something hours ago says last online minutes ago annoying ,0 +mind feels like scary placei broke boyfriend feel like im falling apart feel like im crazy feel like patterns burden loved ones want want live ive depressed before even still around see dying mind need help,1 +coming realize almost old friends really good people kind take advantage things offer definitely greatest guy life seems crushingly depressing right working liking means clearing negative influences life guys really people hung since beginning high school want many things summer realize might alone unless make new friends probably going fall back depression hole anybody got advice fun like alone making friends hard anybody advice like hanging,1 +please dont ignore need adviceplease write off lately ive struggling problem believe video game addiction play super smash bros hours day really high gsp online ranked point system well consistantly lost round lost much gsp main got de ranked feel sick angry know do near hours clocked game going waist im mad feel like throwing someone please offer advice talent everything good slipping away me,1 +may loose full time job full ride scholarshipill try keep quick basically im good situation right young man im special program fully pays education teaching trade pays k year basically right high school zero debt living comfortably independently recently ive hard time retaining understanding certain concepts trade resulting low grade evaluation points failing dont get next month loose everything im getting tested add see thats problem complex trade anyways know fact ill never get opportunity like im seriously considering ending get firedkicked program believe god think anything supernatural happens die feel like life truly pointless never understand existence end all also seeing much evil violence environmental destruction world makes want part reality anymore bring grade job up graduate keep money flowing see reason give life,1 +doneenglish language all typos grammar fuck ups care today good day visit sea traveld h get there stayed time back home anyway want explain everything day starts top shit relived nur loaded gun here would dead one understand people want spend time clusterfuck person annoying ugly dumb best part start new job soon cant imagine therapist reach to well fact accept it fuck hell care anymore want delete done really done,1 +kinda lonely feel depressi feelmy friendseven bestfriendleft behind need someone somehow comfort mei lot friends feel none need mostso decided cut friendship bestfriendbecause even care feel ithes need help school subjects forthi hope find someone stay longterm real friend,0 +human much mein honesty ive probably getting along fine years life far feel like day now gonna come crashing down ill scared figure fix it wanna around happens ive always let anxiety rule life always cant see single good thing would make people like me take away much world ill ever able give it every little thing do done already make impossibletobegin gauntlet confirming college courses start soon going work asking others talk feel never gather strength anything know ill fail like always do think ill kill soon feeling always there ive different kinds treatment never anything sometimes get scared away notion im reminded redflags effects others sometimes get distracted forget while never lasts could die make world better place nobody would realize it true way overcome am cannot hope survive fucked world really lost idea life become feel like defective human being people may like me really shouldnt belong here,1 +sunfish great stupid ton useless fish,0 +talk achievementsthey love judge others invalidate others bc fcking insecure inside value integrity worth higher regular person people talk dirt people work hope end poor dirt bc well worked it despite societal benefits took achieve it want threaten kill people like this bc like attitude jealous have sometimes seriously want something people like this despite consequences bad know exactly successful people talk,1 +taking popular meme making text post make original,0 +hey need raise yall help got task get brothers youtube account subs btw work dad come clean office like bucks hour,0 +anyone right open talkive worst weekend life far slumped time low made worse past week begun feeling much better numb right now talk someone,1 +running upstairs get tendies mom calls httpsyoutubewrjgtgukmuthttpsyoutubewrjgtgukmut ampxb filler filler filler text filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +cant anymorei feel everyone life would better without me turn cant imagine future everything much sensitive done bad shit mean ones love deserve alive cant take action feel like im living hell everyday whether im work home friend try hard cant stabilize moods go deep end every day everything sets off hate like this think bpd feel like life taking medicine makes feel numb unable cum isnt worth it personality really sad angry hyper,1 +ever nice people nice better mean youre nice takes over start liking you youre conflicted youre emotions like kinda like literally impossible cant anything also like second girl talk girls best friends scheming friend checks messages sees messages hes upset also likes girl yeah like sometimes like jerk recognized im nice emotions still shambles isnt working out period time didnt dumb emotions running head great good time tried nice people emotions went fucked up yeah thats fun whats yall,0 +hi best friend started taking zoloft redflag depression two days ago really bad side effects like redflag way worse normal regular side effects iti read lot zoloft going continue research anyways ways help support time make feel little better know obviously going cure want help can things says breaks heart really worries suffer depression redflag well understand feels want anything bad happen worried right now thank advance help best friend,1 +person hurt mei sorry strong enough sorry allowed treated horribly sorry didnt enough brand pills took whatever could find im sorry headache feel im sorry know wont change anything im sorry feel alone im sorry never feel safe im sorry trying wasnt enough sorry never live life deserve,1 +im sick worrynormally im good frame mind im feeling like loser late never problem before got denied private student loans credit shit im working job insufferable nervous breakdown finally got right direction head go school im sure ill pay rent grants cover school costs comes significantly wealthier family always backing support im boat im ashamed feel like trying right thing ruined everything im close oding prescription pills probably even trick needs me niece hate life become do,1 +really need someone talk right nowhi im feeling pretty shitty right now almost killed couple days ago decided check hospital instead family took back place everyone know left go vacation im home alone girlfriend gone well felt alone since night really need someone shoot shit with feel pretty crappy feel one actually wants around like spend time tolerate want kill myself terrible isolating feeling play runescape overwatch lol much else enjoy music fantasy movies read good books lately ill talk anything,1 +wish skirt trend oddly want one feel like would cute,0 +need someone talk tohey people great sorts things school sports job name always kind caring person whos always willing help never told anyone fact family downright despises me matter do everytime get hear kind dissapointment am im financial burden worse yet would better grave chose retaliate tried ignore one point take anymore,1 +welp then fillerfillerfillerfiller guess ill spew meaningless trash post rmemes ah disadvantages starting new account,0 +got super mad aggressively played bach violin thats thats sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,0 +sssssssssssniperwolf snake say sssssssssssssssssssssa pizza red snake otter dit pop oiled butter way slippery salmon hell red rub forehead together painful friction,0 +ok heres thing saw someone else goes well nothing guy weight would date me,0 + yo girl giving advice pt long sfw respectful ask anything want ill best help you,0 +im brokenim broken man struggling depression drug abuse story long complicated almost entirely fault put positions deserve garbage thrown life want redeem fix mistakes think ending all end im addict running problems redflag seems solution always there,1 +yall got tips dealing anxiety damn could use rn hit whatever got,0 +put key back onto keyboard so got play doh tuck keyboard got taking key keys like half way half way like snap loose wont come like shake keyboard idk retainer clip what please help me,0 +scream pain sometimes bashings would bad would call mum work sometimes brother would home alone returned school would torment bash me would run room lean bedroom door weight brother kicked punched side once wood splintered went back still noone stopped him,1 +helpim crying wonna im sagfe neet talk,1 +important message thighs ampxb ampxb thick thighs,0 +shitty weeks lately nothings going way never see light end tunnel happy anymore workload keeps piling work endless amounts work cannot seem catch up that wanting hangout one favorite coworkers keeps blowing off one thing liked wanted blow steam shoot shit keeps blowing canceling me asking like week advance something oks it suddenly randomly invites someone else take over basically ruining everything me weekend good next weekend next weekend comes still good shred hope happiness barely gets taken away me hanging coworker like said work get happy split second think almost top get knocked down think going blow steam coworker keeps canceling me probably never wants hangout whatever care awfulannoying point want hangout anymore considered older brothermentorbest friend much anymore life shitty lately got slight injury last saturday start feeling better yesterday could gone work feel like it place depresses coworker helping already feeling thought maybe coworker could hangout like used to really looking forward it nothing set stone felt like weekend would good one guessed wrong hate life wish could go away never come back know friends coworkers hangout different notredflag different people everybody does disappointing someone thought close blows basically meh cold towards you need fucking vacation something feeling depressed hate it one person thought clicked really well distant me life one big disappointment another,1 +getting closecrying everyday cutting often can climax think weeks left maybe days get better now ill miss friends think leave know feeling working really hard like hours straight finally get home take shower hop bed first time feet alllllll day cover sheets feel like cloud fall asleep like baby imagine thats feel right now feels like im working hours straight strenuous physical labor going home taking shower standing front bed watching it im tired want lay down want just drift off love much think voice thats tugging shirt finally gonna take me,1 +slipping again help get pleasehey all male developing country first time im losing grip always find way time feel like kick strong first time think need guidance interested in please skip single word kindly read this itll interesting read least first all little background problems social anxiety throughout teenage years put lot effort close friends romantic relationships last year highschool ive changed took reins many friends lovely life companions everyone left one one university happens hardest years life getting mixed depressionanxiety another thing ive always felt belong country never feel like im socalled friends feel like act around survive live on ive always dreamed escaping adulthood sneaked in ive started accept ill never follow dreams something happened summer ive decided visit friend different country changed whole life cities ive visited fun sex people no people befriended there ive felt born again social mask ive created home needed among them decided finish last year uni home move next year like said many hard years trying find good friends ive found probably best people ive ever met best part left also love much told theyve never met person lives think theyre kind else spend full weeks day night oh yeah theres girl much time spend interested little say were friends much could ask atm first thought like another country actually not hot perfect human like us think like person much anyway ive decided go back winter vacation like said im planning live near future ive found job save money im focused finishing uni feel social alter ego exactly opposite thought years social less anxious better person me problem starts here soon stepped homeland people started disgust me friends graduatedon vacation theres social life got used years even was itll people problem getting along with misanthropy kicked in came anxiety since also feel lovesick weird way im afraid losing new friends every evening get home work want call listen speaking get rid problems head busy life thousands kilometers us ive realized best thing keep talking her getting better slowly get back winter heavy burden me look calendar feel closer every day also burden feels heavier especially starting week feel anxious old me feel like darkness starts sneak again feel lost weak almost broken years ive learned need talk people moments like this friends really bad listening me new friends vacation wanna scare her choking text messages personal problems moment im slowly sinking deep stupid ideas giving everything and know tldr lazy people read post feel like giving try please help me wanna anxiousdepressive grumpy lifeless waste skin again,1 +need someone talk tof lost parents age moved country left family behind lived sister new country husband raped multiple times period years finally escaped childhood tormentor attempted redflag multiple times need someone talk to know go ,1 +throwback like ten going tomboy phase guy went boys secondary school gave pamphlet secondary ran away crying bruh see thought boy tall cornrows boobs yet wore masculine clothes still event and growth boobies led becoming feminine person ever,0 +freaking feel like crisis know do way get support rn mom busy therapy friday therapist wants make switch therapists anyway feel like losing support system know get this feel like breaking point someone please help know,1 +lmfao younger brother owns two laptops none this bit less three years ago first part story context basically parents forced let brother borrow laptop went high school pc games files school gave school ipad parents said didnt need anymore told parents would make separate account lmao let use account proceeded wipe computer games files istg highkey wanted strangle him proceeded trash laptop destroying arrow keys scratching screen getting gross ass food crumbs buttons heres second part recently laptop broke apparently laptop wasnt turning pissed it asked parents get another one upcoming birthday did got really nice one lmaoo anyway turns og computer still worked problem wasnt computer charger started using charger new laptop both now two working laptops ill returning temporary ipad graduate asked could trashed laptop back says needs one play roblox one play tf also says laptop wtf also parents wont anything idk even know laptops working theyre still using school ipad excuse legit cant anything thing monitored limited school honestly rant salty dont computer play pc games thx coming ted talk lmao ,0 +help mehelp,1 +would painless way dieprobably shot head assume dont access gun bruh,1 +something interesting im literally sitting watching paint dry,0 +cant breathei dont know cant talk anyone head banging many different thoughts hurts please somebody tell,1 +quick thing zoooooom,0 +nothing works nothing work im resigned fateyou name it ive tried it therapy useless meds useless around family friends useless talking feelings useless exercise eating healthy useless going useless spending time dog useless hobbies give pleasure satisfaction fulfillment person ever loved ruined perspective relationships people dating go dropped school find education path could connect least get job im lazy parasite truly incompatible life im posting catharsis giving pityparty like always father describes it lots people subreddit reached me unfortunately cant helped ive recently secluding apartment that even pay for im worthless pathetic lazy able support financially slowly rotting away intentionally taking care hopefully die young,1 +reasons livehey im asking much need reasons live anything worth living right know need motivation want sound clingy shit made throwaway want parents see this please someone list reasons keep living right now really need it thank you,1 +looking forward anythingfuture seems like pointless slow painful really want go that,1 +hear out everyone jokes couldnt get worse jokes catastrophic event happening falling asleep thought wasnt san andreas fault california supposed split sometime decade realized happens grand finale opening event want known called it idea idea would go maybe rshowerthoughts im teenager figured id post idea here all,0 +even little girl suicidal thoughts feel constantly paini idea way am used cry night little thought someone would murder middle night constantly thought killing jumping car moving would run scene head parents never abusive reason always state depression terrible panic attacks hallucinate hardly breathe feel like going killed get really paranoid difficult emotionally involved relationship trust anyone one responds okay needed vent some,1 +dont think take anymorei hate everyone else hates me tf still here,1 +give songs rate saw someone else sub rate songs not comment song ill rate personal preferences,0 +life feels pretty sucky right man im pretty privileged person probably dont much complain way problems feel tired life really want things like travel get working world apply university difficult bunch homework dont feel like all im final year highschool private school go started physical school monday already know rd day page essay due next week count grades making question whats point all life feels stagnant im forced unnecessary shit say matter dont give fucks anymore id rather die something dont listen im trying feel better this,0 +surface reason suicidal thoughts maybe people would think ungrateful really struggle about mean friends support me family financially good always back shit years old grades good college quite good among colleges country difficulties future want give birth want family ambitious career kind passion life anything look forward to why keep feeling burdens end it knew family would devastated would end life blink eye hesitation struggles about,1 +finished last ever math assignment years classes countless hours studying many many tutors led final math question degree yax rather anti climatic ask me,0 +market research survey made someone sucks titles hey reddit im hackathon design app using ai collect market research would anyone fine taking this surveyhttpswwwsurveymonkeycomcollectlistsmyyoz_bimxkyximxcuzeenjqlhkllhpuihsbi_damptab_clicked anonymous take like mins thanks anyone takes it,0 +soo like america go war middle east definitely freedom political stability trust middle east,0 +must several years released know movies kid enjoyed it found vhs tape superman mole men flea market decided watch its lot years expecting much knowing b movies made time pleasantly surprised find movie watchable acting outstanding usual acting type movies leaves lot desired surprisingly writing bad either forget fact superman went sequence sequence could kicked butts beginning story would ended right ok mole men costumes hokey scary they even scare kid however making allowances probable low budget background costumes job well done all recognized sheriff right away old ranger death valley days plenty supporting roles tv westerns j farrell macdonald played old pop always great supporting actor movies count walter reed jeff corey familiar faces well movies recognize old doctor captain ship went get king kong recognize little girl rolling ball mole men lisbeth searcy old yeller mole men famous too jerry maren played mayor mccheese mcdonalds little oscar mayer munchkin handed dorothy lollipop seifeld episode wealth work billy curtis played unforgettable part clint eastwood high plains drifter one friends met star incredible shrinking man part movie luckily grabbed flea market titled gal sal rita hayworth wizard oz plenty parts great actor john brambury also munchkin phillis coates played lois lane movie without question wonderful part george reeves supermanclark kent superman great job playing strong man bottom line ive said movie worth watching cast writing dealing pretty flimsy idea movie s anything possible intruders outer space mole men inner space definitely worth seeing bad actor group whomever put cast together very fortunate get many gifted actors b type film already wealth experience obtain wealth experience gifted get chance see film forget dopey costumes enjoy excitement acting bird plane no good old fashioned movie enjoy,0 +talked made things worsei accidentally opened close friend this know shell feel accountable happens want get place thing im holding shell feel bad know,1 +tried use special flashlight dong dummy thicc fit please help hurts,0 +jack kate meet physician daniel farady first psychics miles straume demonstrate come island intention rescuing survivors locke group find anthropologist charlotte staples lewis ben linus shoots her meanwhile group jack finds pilot frank lapidus landed helicopter minor damages repaired jack forces miles tell real intention come islandbr br the second episode fourth season returns island four new characters stops confusing flashforwards seems finally beginning explanations and fans viewers expect provided lost interest government ben linus informed boat questions expect see next episodes vote eightbr br title brazil available,0 +hate much fixating one person lost interest left feel empty worthless,0 +tried kms multitude ways past know mood disorder issue therapist diagnosed yet want anywhere need die manic rn high like two weeks feel like deteriorating stealing money weed mum idc rlly fucking abusive want anywhere feel alone know go,1 +need able change usernames case brother whos either cant tell point stop updating age status stopped caring made account here caught glimpse username texted idea see shit mom see shit mom knows mind talking strangers ill block fifty accounts brothers made life gotta like that,0 +friend deathever since young feel like ive strange connection death cat would mutilate kill small animals leave yard would find would look it didnt really feel anything it would decay wanted watch it middle school cat died killed coyote hes death first felt remorse for missed him grandma passed away well didnt feel much day funeral kind would often read together put family dog horrible cared lot grew me next old family cat died peacefully home old age sad happy could pass peacefully soon got sick infection spine think sounds bad was didnt talk knew could die something went wrong could pass away hospital already coming terms fact might die recovered wish hadnt got new cat died killed coyote possibly fisher emotional support died next new dog stella got bone cancer suffered months decided put down hated seeing much pain could nothing her felt helpless im still people life love often wish would died hospital wish closed eyes never opened again im afraid dying im afraid pain death cause feeling ill seeing death ahead me life is whether hate love it everyone know love die one day feel tired feel numb wish died ,1 +anyone else heavyweight anyone else get drunk easily downed half pint vodka ml sambouca im completely fine im little drowsy morning think im tired,0 +sad go hospital wontwell last night feeling awful took tylenol sleep aid mg clonzepam bad kill obviously fall asleep right away ignore world worked well woke extremely dizzy okay thats pointless backstory really want kill myself ever before today seems like great day money house mess friends s km away one would even notice days im tired alive dealing unfair im done course cant kill oding drugs awful id probably throw up alive impossible cruel case wondering reason im edge right girl im good friends went date last night know care like like that made upset jealous top off kept secret knew would upset me alive deserve want be edit umm hi guys clue anyone see this im alive worry im honestly surprised many people messaged commented appreciate lot im feeling bit better every day struggle guess yesterday much thanks again,1 +took bomba selfie im insecure post take word promise im lying,0 +live foreach day overcoming challenge getting day struggle im sick of see point anymore understand life difficulties everyone others seem also reasons feel that theres nothing look forward get back home day time feel relief going go sleep single thing person world makes want say never,1 +redflag always option anyone says otherwise never point one would kill themselvesit genuinely pisses everyte person comes me stands front room even guy comes radio starts spatting time they realized worth it saying theres always someone cares miss thats true needed them say did support cared much anyone has gone tough times realized doing please hear out saying happened nesscerilly bad going through different people weaker prone depression suicidal thoughts things others im done ive it im tired dealing world puts profit peoples life world judges book cover world exploits poor woman trying feed family world wants everyone fit in im done trying fit in im done everything rich won lost thank you cared,1 +last time got flu shot like today yis absolutely terrified get flu shot cause remember hurting really bad last time lol filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler blah blah blah,0 +good night use condoms peoples,0 +saving grace never riotously funny delivers quite good laughs enjoyed significant degree brenda blethyn fine actress good job portraying widower grace resorts growing marijuana pay massive debts supporting cast also fine job french actor tchecky karyo funny little role premise alone appealing idea overthehill woman growing smoking pot sounds funny enough film plays around premise wisely every then course flat moments like one two elderly women mistaken graces marijuana leaves tea leaves start pulling childish antics store work mindless gag quite take off films tone downbeat occasionally dull got enough laughs give english import recommendation br br my score out ,0 +people say pain temporary pain isthis isnt theres healing growing past this me pain head someone escape pain without dying thing causes pain themselves answer theres one way escape thats death way act way look talk think oh god way think one biggest sources pain nah cant escape that way thoughts jump one thought next like youre skipping tv channels fast complete nonsense try think get random clips songs past events stories quotes noises static pictures movement always moving completely still time theres escaping that toxic personality victimising narcissistic personality craves attention cant stand spot light pulling pushing away people ruining everyones lives causing drama completely unnecessary unnecessary thats it unnecessary weak god damn pathetic im dark see things move around little shadows grow big move towards me everything goes black go cold cant see theyre everywhere blocking in cant move make sound because tbh scare me longer look trapped feel lay eyes closed dont look else get you im probably tired hear feel heart beating im sorry,1 +im failure aspectsi feel like born fail miserable mother abusive peacemaker stupid dysfunctional family always corner silent trying exist failure socially know talk people isolate lot life fear top stopped religious keep closet parents knew nice anyone wish could die want kill cant it even here,1 +hopefully last true confession understand reasoning false hope camp redflags almost caused almost death father amount friendships fucked me emptiness human contact lack confidence self esteem fucked fucked everything loved got people certain shit life helped best could happy never be hard imagine past decade game survival living every broken heart every thing hurt me deserve shit get anyone deserves live sure hell aint me anyone close personally knows reads this im sorry im self isolating want leave plain want die hate living aint right me want happy want die want girlfriend love cant happy left me nothing dont give false hope understand reasoning explanations this feel like different people need escape cycle goodnight new zealanders,1 +sleeping good better living lifemy brain foggy recently ive finding hard remember things think properly apologies isnt well written slept day night yesterday like wasnt even more intermittent dreams blank space didnt even feel hungry little thirsty quick meal drink go back bed see sleep day night again feels good better emptiness sadness anxiety awake like living life camera hurts heart sleeping like used warn things be wants im awake end looming always ahead me sleeping feels great dreamt beach girl happy getting haircut,1 +ive isolated long cant go on feel like wasted life cant go back nothing ever again mental torturei want dead cant live like this reminded everyday couldve been,1 +stupid even get way outeven wanted to dont enough drugs kill tonight dont gun it tried bleeding change mind last second every time get car makes real honestly dont think could ever actually end life reason im writing thread though point life never thought possible im point life makes sense end life im point dont feel passion family encourage to im point know dont matter know everyone would done it stay here wont know like left behind temporary wont make permanent decision want know reason writing thread go feeling justified kill feeling valuable to maybe im ranting idiot idk need hope maybe motivational tdocumentary something would help choose keep going logically doesnt matter do,1 +think girl saying likes music weeks ago sent video dancing single ladies we dated last summer today facetime call hours put one song lyrics werent perfect ive never felt way anyone thinking it,0 + morning im super bored lets conversation something idk,0 +advilim starting think might actually consider option things get worse everythings tumultuous right now head hurts heart aches eyes sore legs tired brain drained studying catching do look advil bottle take relieve headache sometimes thing nice would stress anymore mom dad brenda ive always felt like underappreciated done me unconditional support home safe home something count on thank stability fiona listened like thoughtful insight actions take make life better like feel grounded whenever go office spill everything out nice calvin nice someone much common with although deep talks really happen discussions everything sun fucking wonderful christina know want help decision made based feeling feelings always valid right maybe would good idea make decision less stressed think job tell that know really want help gut feeling screaming something guilt all left first time thought possibilities right enter life help leave im alright repeat whole cycle again jenny hugs care important times pretty great today told function demanded come over made feel wanted alright martin marvel work hard suffer daily arthritis respect life live strong belief commitment family choices myself appreciate first instinct try fight way this wanted stay waterloo wanted get term yourself tried make changes life counsellors say healthy thank trying but sometimes energy health time want to hope gets better sake people around me,1 +good people tend say im so relatable,0 +catching flights chicago rn going state thats total lockdown atleast im cummin home,0 +you ruin everythingim ive physical mental health issues long remember ive spent time hospitals body mind trying best person be always coped well teenager id lash family adult ive learned turn anger hurt inwards something rather outward family cutting parts lives while holding responsible sins long past committed failing recognize work ive put try better soon brother uncle friend month ago got together without even minutes apartment acted like fault include me started discussing childhood therapy turning stones id looked long long time got ptsd diagnosis realized idea less ideal childhood blamed for actually pretty abusive well last days telling come home christmas see kids love dearly want told things wanted grab medical paperwork know id back went tense want bring things brought said felt told running christmas leave asked like told abuse played called liar said remembered never happened either lying nuts im shook remember things clearly vividly happenedi think im pretty sure ive burned last bridge family theyve called liar crazy told ruined everything im left doubting everything im hurting physically mind falling apart heart never felt broken part really wants leave world guess think ill ok really mind ended im trying best,1 +venting bother readingive depressed long time now starting feel little better lately tonight however im feeling bad started wondering worth im single living wellfare life actually came conclusion item appartment actually worked tv everything else either gifts stuff bought money people worked for taxmoney im nothing burden society im worthless piece trash accomplished anything life cost money resources even get better would reason anyone tell me whats reason keep living become productive member society fit in consume work hours week earn money spend crap need make feel better ill still sitting alone every night staring monitor wondering life person would actually care live die mom friends would forget heartbeat family really care see hear family uncles aunts cousins nobody dads side family even want anything me repulsive good friend thats it cant even talk problems serious trust issues want end im tired living im scared dying,1 +mods asleep quick check nudes lmao youre gay know youre actually awake,0 +wish parents would forget could disappearwhy born burdensome world feels pointless working studying get better job later on end working more feel selfish ive known people thatve gone worse struggles yet im one wants disappear feel selfish parents worked incredibly hard hopes successful career good life disappear would waste time money love parents getting older happen pass away really think would reason continue living anyone else feel same,1 +trans boy pussy fire,0 +yo anyone want boyfriend got fat set tits raging case depression cure loneliness,0 +please help me cant help myselfmy fathers voice head years told worthless am stupid am ill always failure much hates me much regret was moved away miles miles away voice still head every time fail something hear him every time im proud shoots down tells cut tells im attention im insane locked away im shame him cant related him voice telling even deserve live voice telling easy would die im please help me please ive wanted die never bad think would feel cant sleep please anyone even care need something keep living for,1 +read thisim going say want kill myself leaves open help want help anymore friends find difficult combat arguments redflag logical are friends know better anybody im going believe correct actions either way leaving family police somebody find know happened me mostly method traditional people im grabbing one bottle water im walking woods going walk longer physically walk sit woods wait starve die thirst truly want die let die painful comparison rest life nothing flick nose peaceful embrace nice afterlife also interesting family im sorry one year grief cause this,1 +im scared itim pussy kill myself multiple plans im scared actually carry through dont know do,1 +fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck parents sex room meeee hellppppppppppp,0 +sleep one want chat dm me come man,0 +everyday tug warof stay go,1 +ruined everythingthings going well fooled around told loved me next day made huge mistake told sister hes bdsm stuff implied us fooling around consensual part bigger argument first time ive fucked may last good night happened think make anymore fucked everything up fault cant live,1 +suggested hanging myself sound badmy parent my mother told hang myself long story go it honestly sound like bad idea lump throat right now ive never felt like before think ive gone enough shit failed end,1 +racist subreddits exist noticed lot subreddits rules racism immoral things subreddit racist would imagine would get taken down even freedom speech allows things like that anyways wondering subreddit rules like allow condone racism,0 +mom always told sit actually watch movie one favorites never years caught one night tv movie great even know explain it cast excellent julia roberts keifer sutherland kevin bacon william baldwin oliver platt story awesome freaky scary makes think left speechless film amazed good actors actress five people really are william baldwin go hes great film must see anyone seen go rent it sorry amazing,0 +crush fucking pretty im losing mind shes badass also super cute time wears super cool clothes cute poses please help im losng mind pretty please call need help,0 +bruh life boring aliens get already,0 +transphobic want date trans person preference dont hate trans people dont wanna date,0 +epic funny httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvduopqikhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvduopqik,0 +thinking sureive depressed years always mind ive reason why someone came life world changed instant recently person left world changed back was im giving january im killing things get better already things planned everything hell might sooner tbh,1 +cant iti wasnt able go through made noose belt began hang myself knot came undone fell floor balled eyes out im sorry cant right now im extremely miserable become pain exist right now cant kill yet know im stable another traumatic event could easily send edge,1 +people color genshin impact feel right ,0 +guess physics teacher told us one person class get a yall know got b ,0 +hii therapy sessions now decided go mild depression hard time accepting gay sense think wrong want feel different days ago finally decided come therapist people come to still really hard me first minutes could even talk therapist went immediately trying explain gay linking problems mom thinking loud might seem look comfort women mom emotionally available went ask would know gay since dated neither men women ending telling problem gay people hate people say come out like okay kind expected actually questioning actually feel way low point said everything afraid people say come them feel like broke trust worst way could gone,1 +grrrrfought suicidal thoughts day pretty successfulthey stayed pretty quiet me late bedtimethey rearing ugly head even beer helping hold way intoxicated even attempt right now got told someone admitted alcoholic i too disease sure cried that still think could stop whenever want want moment shuts thoughts up good night sw,1 +little brother damn incosiderate mom quite job work government recently shes training right thus earning money little brother decides times deserves more hes asking custom pistol grips ten dollar airsoft guns every day hes asking sonic mcdonalds barley food home cook top never cleans messes instance cleaning top bunk telling clean year half youll see thats important mom threatens belt finely it well like nine thirty school night cleaning bed watching netflix stuff bunk falls down got said done told needs clean mess told next bed went sleep told mom happened told clean it still infuriating brag twin brother pretty big deals two smartest kids school twins im saying little brother say brothers everyone likes him well went way git head tell brother great use advantage purposely starts shit kids gradeth now im constantly getting told friends hes bullying siblings raised hit since born even though deserves twin dont hit him mom dosnt use belt grounds him really grinds gears dosnt care takes getting grounded trade rather punishment twin brother always tried hardest make mom happy get rewarded thinks deserves same example twin wanted dying light could play friends told mom weve getting straight as getting grounded like years asked dollars said yes next day walks room sees us playing dying light starts crying mom dosnt give dollars comes room tells us mentally abuse him hit him make feel depressed first felt bad depression real problem remorse slapped away mom heard said knows dont hit ask would make feel better said fake sad voice dollars gta well got money would expect buy something alowes earn money lije vehicle cargo missions came surprise two days later money way easily earn money vheicle drive around in turns bought fully customized drove car minites sell car repeat spent called depression money still nothing virtual equivalent burning money still wants money gta could go im going to,0 +many pimples blackheads create whole army fr,0 +guess what another ice cube post baby use ice cubes instead idk fuckin ice spheres,0 +fucking helli know cant cook know cant shit please dont make feel fucking bad it im fucking done this fuck everyone,1 +little kid thought life fun excitement got older slowly came realization modern life mostly boring mindless rat race majority people spend time working bunch boring shit get by existence conscious about would rather put bullet head hate idea stuck monotonous cycle modern life would rather skip end,1 +think going kill myself year old male know father left years old negligent disconnected alcoholic kid mom used abuse relentlessly would beat belts extension chords punch face tell im stupid burned cigarettes times taken years pay student loan debt degree completely useless live poverty hurt knee month ago cant even manual labour jobs used get by everything seems completely hopeless clue doing totally atomised family support live pay check pay check cause living high even though work hours week barely scraping by whenever start get ahead something bad happens months ago shell dollars get car fixed needed new control arm plus new tires plus alignment tow need new muffler pass emission test cannot legally drive work knee gets better grinding like mad man shelling physio therapy get knee fixed costing ton ill laid bed months able work able pay rent bank account needs last rest month life exhausting work hard can never pull pit im sad anything hopeless depressed stuck escape me,1 +screw zodiac signs colour ur binders ive seen people saying math blue deserve go hell math red idc say science green math red english yellow social blue disagree wrong thank coming ted talk,0 +guys every feel like awful human matter what nojust me ok guess im weird one then ,0 +redflag friend keeps threatening redflag talk it less likely itthis person kind good through dealt rubbish hand seem lost hope seemed much better today hotel room saying bottle pills debating taking honest says wants take life believe would rather here however told someone talking it less likely would see through case emailing me speak phone told gruesome death paracetamol redflag would response thanks ive read many times certainly appealing started writing reasoning know really point ill sleep im sorry mostly wish way worry anyone erased existence style everyone would instantly forget id ever been alas option anyway get sleep yourself would do threatened lot before,1 +best friend suicidal idea doim sure right subreddit am im phone im tired read sidebar figure right place someone tell me past weeks ive talking daily telling love him care him im him ive promised things get better ive promised want stay promised would support matter decision made im sure knows thats lie recently getting worse day two hes mentioned much wants die would talk much hurting today mentioned specific method done already made choke know else do feel like im getting nowhere feel like im helping him feel like im repeating time feel like talks becoming less effective it also want ask question normal feel drained depressed trying help someone actually diagnosed like im sucking life trying give him every day gets worse every day get worse problem feel like talk him one will cant leave him like this need advice,1 +already gave comment movie name brucev brucev want add something long time seen lot called heroic bloodshed titles many come close action shown john woo movies thats years think strange china white get credit deserves matter version seen action top notch scenerychina town amsterdam unique get impression large district lived amsterdam know small area part red light district happen lot chinese stores restaurants way shot movie actually looks like big important territory people know mess triads chinese mafia besides action china white compelling gangster drama good acting give credit russel wong bad see much latelysince lot potential must see movie,0 +never give let turn around desert,0 +bored girls here ton guy friends play games discord people find sexist want bit diverse add girls friend list im playing games talking voice chat rn also im feet dont think matters apparently does m btw,0 +ever get feeling either complete numbness pain gotten used totally anxious lot things life turn around know exactly something holds back whatever reasonthus stuck daily routine watching days pass waiting one free time day if working school lose forget troubles hobby ie netflix videogames etc wake rinse repeat cannot sleep like normal person anymore unless super exhausted try lie close eyes think million scenarios what could been what ifs hard sleep,1 +ive tiktok and know im gonna get voted quite like it ive defined tastes actually funny people kinda feels like vine now unless u legitimate reason hate it tiktok hating getting old,0 +hate muchim ive homeschooled since twelve im graduating highschool weeks nothing plan going college im fucking dumb college became apparent took one easy community college class managed fucking fail it friends im homeschooled extreme social anxiety people talk regular basis family parents unintentionally encourage suidical ideation reminding fuck am ive never relationship really nothing except scroll around reddit day im lazy unmotivated job barely focus simplest tasks fucking hate myself,1 +isolation kills us nbsp fight therapies above fight isolation nbsp others,1 +could escape could see happy different lifei used think trapped sort life ended many bad situations life seemed like sort curse thought something would make bad always follow me im finally starting accept true ive seen much bad could never believe imagine good know theres nothing wrong me loved accepted respected ive managed always around people never loved accepted respected illluck nothing me somewhere else could happy life least easier imagine now but im currently living abusive people wish could fly away get go place mind cant money car nowhere live fragile body cant live street couches though mind damaging temporarily knowing could find happy place much faith people happy seems people complain put fake cheer think luckier wish money friends fun joy wish surrounded people always trying undermine me sounds simple feels impossible im stuck know ever end soulsucking life goes eternity day day,1 +guys got corona beers im good boy idk drink not wanna drink til im cuz im good boy,0 +dropped milk whole body like idiot cat wakes gives death stare bet thinking something along lines of fuck owner idiot,0 +struggling emotionsi wrote followup last post here link bottom one hard thing always gets depressed weak mental state cope emotions probably happens too sentient beings deal emotions thoughts all would like write get chest maybe help someone read also experiences similar things grow older feelings get complex sometimes mentally prepared get struggling them usually struggle emotions thoughts late nigh layed bed left alone sympathize with feel lost one thing remember even alone moment one someone else went someone else will remember everytime find alone invite feel lost remember that better things await feel worth it remember worth it feel desperate look calmness feel world gonna end you remember world rainbow come storm comes sunshine alongside it __________________________________________________ thinking much losing sleep thoughts httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentspgsthinking_too_much_and_losing_sleep_thoughts __________________________________________________,1 +anyone else got crazy annoying feelibg calf got thats shit killing,0 +whats point allwhy suffer decades whether work illness life general given wrong cards poker fold give cards cant that cant see getting better all does stays way two seconds goes right back shithole,1 +relaxing first time while operating system decides die universe wont let rest it,0 +piece advice dont crossdress french maid school like did tldr end story took place almost two years ago btw explain did tell little school even though public school wealthy well funded programs including theater dance another thing mention design school auditorium different entrancesexits excluding emergency exit supposed locked room use somebody always forgets lock least one them th exit accessed via going backstage leads short hallway locked side meaning get sneaking auditorium onto stage hallway us students doing anyways two doors hallway lead theater dance storage rooms theater room bunch furniture props costumes old plays musicals school put years prior dance room costumes holds s different outfits dance classesteams used rooms divided wall cabinets solid wall sound travels easily them rooms supposed locked dance teacher almost never locks room anyways straight male past years really enjoyed crossdressing know why love idea dressing girls clothing in private girly better discovered dance storage room felt like miracle me hundreds girly sexy outfits choose from floor length mirrors see in enclosed space nobody would ever find me times advisory periods would sneak try outfits loved it one time putting everything tried back head next class saw large bin filled french maid costumes short dress w puffy shoulders gloves lots lace apron duster headband unlike everything else room pair frilly panties dream find me decided would come back later put on luckily me stay day finish test finishing it dad said could pick thirty minutes left plenty time deed went theater wing found entrance unlocked able sneak back dance storage room stripped nude order put panties on put rest costume it loved everything it take picture myself heard jingling keys immediately dove darkest corner room leaving regular clothes laying middle floor along backpack door dance room cracked open knew dance teacher would find life would over luckily me theater teacher ms s unlocked theater storage room started something there quietly possibly could changed back clothes threw maid costume back bin jumbled mess put backpack froze remembering zippers backpack make jingling noises walk decided make break it throwing open dance room door running fast could auditorium running st exit remember ms s shouting whos there im sure never saw me imagine hell wouldve gone anyone else walked dance room caught me escorted front office girliest dress possible idea luckily happen learned lesson never went back room again tldr crossdressing schools dance team storage room wearing really girly french maid costume theater teacher went room next almost saw me moral story dont crossdress school,0 +yes people make lgbt whole personality annoying im ngl funny thing lot time theyre type people think patriotism stupid cant chose born well cant choose sexuality either lol mean problem people going pride parades etc admit people constantly mention fact theyre lgbt reason annoying lol,0 +need fucking help please know put it im used asking help like this kinda needed feeling well weird lately everyday im coming closer closer redflag due problems stuff im yo guy whos currently gang member ex hacker ex smoker tried committing redflag twice raped need help please someone anyone care age nation gender sexuality please help me,1 +life even worth living like this years old one likes,1 +girlfriend discovered page essay brother written years ago goes detail used really really depressed years effects familys lives self harmed attempted suicide would cry every night could hear walls much much better lives way happier healthier life broke crying first time tried read got second page says needs read give closure afraid read feel guilty become depressed again knows supportive whatever chooses read which likely will help best suggestions beneficial happening tonight girlfriend found essay brother,1 +change ios app logos photos im honestly know change app logos,0 +remember posted snail emoji got awards,0 +whats stuff johnny deep amber heard like idea someone explain detail,0 +question less answeari dont really know start this guess could go ahead explain story im average guy tries social circle feels inviting surround people i think wants best me recent events turn feeling security feeling fear space merely months life went sweet dream tormented nightmare started girl met years back had huge crush her made fall love her every little bit her made realize person created thoughts never really tried have guess could say made see best myself made think worth something eyes like something special her started downfall soon after dated months thought found right one gonna make best relationship ended fooling myself talking boys job one friend lets call jake kyle time jad idea started panic attacks frequently ate less paranoid time one point remember molly ended sex remember told one important relationship life one week later left hooked jake kyle guys presented her span one week even confessed friends enjoyed watching low guess question start know since particular day december life started shatter one piece time loosing love friends job really close friend me guess made descision brought but point end bottom barrel categories feeling redflag way look cara passing by subway coming station heights bridge sharpness knife products lay around house could cause death thought rope feel place like something went missing lost focus life know way usally think loosing one loved got point im always stress panic attacks frequently lost job didnt help pile already damn whats purpose everytime build something crumble one day,1 +unusual film ringo lam one thats strangely underappreciated mix fantasy kungfu realistic depiction swords spears driven thru bodies startling especially first ten minutes horseback rider get chopped two waist legs keep riding horse several horses get chopped up unexpectedbr br the story simple fong shaolin brothers captured crazed maniac general imprisoned red lotus temple seems torture chamber temple general similarity kurtz apocalypse spouts warped philosophy makes frightening paintings human blood br br the production impressive setting bleak blood everywhere action well done mostly coherent unlike many hk action scenes time sometimes movie veers absurdity effects cheesy never bad enough ruin film br br find one one best hk kung fu films early nineties remember child friendly,0 +im ending life postedi done life parents dead family siblings cousins aunt rent room trying save car bought car last year got scammed dealer bought is nothing getting thousand back tried ten years get ged cant learning issues causing impossible get ged would go back learn rd grade th grade failed everything done life trying get woman with failed get shallow women care looks physicalsexual attraction money person are cant work anymore arthritis back rheumatoid arthritis knees beginning stage cataract dominant eye cant much except manual labor cant anymore back knees aunt takes disability check get tries to black mails giving supposed rent leaves dollars left try save made go fund account years try get donations buy van live one would donate get month rent bills dollars left cant save that even friends made facebook joined groups made posts trying find friends got guys commenting saying scammer women commenting saying profile new must bot bitching saying posts account on deleted account nothing get ahead fail everything do ends blowing face cant take anymore cant take living life anymore rejected catfished car aunt supposed mine dads got sick changed will sign notary know changes town time got hospital death bed came back side passed days later going get lawyer found changed proof original like would mattered aunt staying aunt stole dads car would thing his even give pictures had else stay stay streets homeless cant again done age cant again unless van big car live in going end life done everything tired fighting everything failing life backfiring blowing face,1 +beautifully done lot angst friendship may endure all end matters group friends learn watched again music also amazing kei loses one friend gives meets sho orphan boy repelled true nature lawless streets mallepa struggle place among melting pot asian races learn sometimes top cost ever ready pay surprise ending grips much whole movie does get enough it gackt hyde wonderful job acting proving pretty boys sing,0 +tried agree live canti cant take life really cant unfair exhausting loud painful unrewarding chest hurts sounds louder normal ive holding back tears day work hard live feel like im getting point cant even work all,1 +im digging hole time im sure get upi think im done ive finally reach point theres come back painful keep going wish couldve tasted happy life while giving up,1 +im good anythingi realize never been never calling passion maybe im plain stupid cant live truth me society theres reason human good something benefits another person organization im not,1 +still here still strugglingposted couple days ago still havent done anything still wrestling feeling every second every day hate theres ways go absolutely devastate dad brother really hate even think go guy broke tell hey really wanna die since broke get called manipulative attention seeking honest tell someone else feel sent wherever send someone might harm themselves probably want even more really really want things get better thats ive ever wanted worse things keep happening really dont want die im scared shitless death really dont see things ever getting better guess ill keep drinking posting cries help internet,1 +feel like lost myselfthis past year really hard started straight student failing classes one likes me people around money job know everyone hates me im exaggerating anything common fact nearly overdosed cocaine got caught prostitution drug production ive last track friends im surrounded people want use me let anyone else know escape all week im getting draco feel lost mess anyone turn to family kicked gang thing years leave im leaving people years bailed jail took care oded know theyre cause bring digits everything feels blurry im going turn draco myself,1 +horses mars wonderful journey taken small creatures work hard hold attention characters truly memorable credit must go eric anderson choice visual style writing interesting story credit also deserved anuj majumdar narration wonderful music score choices obviously accident can see mm scope impact quite beautiful film,0 +want boyfriend could buy stuff like computer one graphics cards,0 +who wants my goddamn hugz award say something make smile get,0 +fix this keep passing bus morning even though get stop energized almost passing classes,0 +ive feeling good recently long ramblythis post might pointless redundant feel like writing chronicling moment dont diagnosiss anything else sort prove anything confidently say ive quite seriously suicidal last four years although ive experienced suicidal urges lesser extents since so changed honestly dont see living past soon uni break started two weeks ago ive absolute high typically id go depressive andor suicidal episodes every day sometimes daily havent single thought like entire break though considering suicidal tendencies follow year round arent triggered specific root as far im aware im pleasantly surprised things bring make worthless still much intact realise theres sign changing maybe ive successfully distracted point whatever happened seems done good though ive much positive lately notice change daytoday life speaking much fluently even though im still social anxiety ridden mess much sharper things like critical thinking even joke making chatted parents times hung around friends felt like knew exactly say something ive trying crack long time normally im friends whether private close friends something public involving lot mutual undergo depressive bout half hour whatever stays go sleep whatever reason though havent feeling fortnight even situations wouldve easily caused two three times genuinely enjoyed every time went out ive also really dedicated hobbies seeing results back up favourite past times performative depend building skills succeed would usually get upset underperforming would sometimes trigger depressive episode would spiral track suicidal ideation havent bothered nearly much failure messing time giving much drive continue practice even certain task impossible makes feel accomplished worthy actually seeing results time im spending things love most post definitely structured basically diary entry me write down im confused happened im scared gonna go away probably tomorrow since uni starting again cant recall ever going anything like im surprised whats happened want last forever know wont,1 +want jump window want cut ears hear anything want see anything cannot breath someone say resson survive please,1 +chronically ill young college student help pleaseim years old four half years ago got diagnosed chronic condition completely changed life worse type person could really made difference changed world better intelligence drive importantly opportunities follow through disease broken me everyday im plagued pain many fronts ive lost much physical dexterity mental quickness worst ive lost drive motivation thats let push despite paindespite long hours true agony ive beaten submission yield truly take more condition grow worse years go on ill try one experimental treatment next putting family tremendous debt work best theyll prolong inevitable die affliction manner provided something else kill sooner ive always considered religious man ive spent life short been prayer good faith say missteps along way however im apparently doomed incontrovertible thought process really god let suffer either cant anything it refuses anything it exist inevitably lead conclusion god exists worth worshiping god consequences doomed hellfire eternal like ive taught take matters hands end pain wrong either ethical religious ways wanting end appears lifelong promise anguish,1 +god wants dieive miserable childhood ive used tool majority life im trying vein get job look positives bad situations time there try destress take mind bad things going life even fails play games lose almost every game time favorite team gets beat time rarely im happy issue god deliberately brought world suffer seems god wants see die nothing life noteworthy celebrate heavily about,1 +feel pretty today feel happy pretty could conquer anything set mind it love right always ,0 +thought might interesting tell least one personwarning might long preface this reason post im killing tomorrow big surprise there know kinda want toi guess honest once even though acknowledge pretty crazy start guess ill start first redflag attempt i through comical set circumstances somehow instead dying planned way reached final stage hypothermia instead minutes away death apparently mother unexpectedly came home instead going work she lost contact lens come home get replacement called ambulance survived record mental hospital sent got icu completely useless literally could gotten help subwayor hell even gamestop im glad place shut not gonna mention name anyways decided bide time years trying since everyone vigilant eventually discovered lucid dreaming interestinginsane part comes completely understand seems extremely delusionaljust plain crazy since completely indifferent living past an arbitrary year decided deadline started thinking could get unconscious could benefit me gonna get initial ideas meandering journey refinementpivots basically wanted make lucid dreaming state permanent im awake anyone whos lucid dreamed knows unconscious pretty damn amazingand definitely tell organic supercomputer wanted try leverage lucid dreaming state make unconscious alter genetic code creating refinements brain function form after modeling different neural structures calculate best possible performance then eventually alter genetics body would develop nanotechnology nano materials nano bots etc would enable make better changes faster so sum upmy goal recursiveself improvement familiar term know im little ambitious hehehe so attaining recursiveself improvement id gather resources fix planets climateecosystem basically goal everything else coming improve cognition enough make intelligent decisions know sounds pretty damn crazy figured possible fuck try goaldelusion thing kept killing past ish years unfortunately lucid dreaming difficult mention changed ideas going alot recently took growing psilocybin mushrooms effort utilize enhanced neurogenesis thinned barrier conscious unconscious try make lucid dreaming state permanent obviously post ive given up ive spent nearly decade shit ive come end patience anybody else manages it im happy you me im killing tomorrow shout amazon day delivery convenient gotta admit kinda nice finally tell someone ive trying last ish years even bunch strangers internetthen again maybe thats whole reason feels good worry anybody trying stop stuffing mental hospital sorry long post way,1 +ya know bit cold talking crush would bit embarrassing imma give note saying something like i would say person itd embarrassing wanna say kinda cute shit like that could go wrong,0 +need criticism okay originally started free write wrote school decided go depth with im curious improve far walked village expecting merchants trading animals running around people enjoying lives nothing people wildlife even plants wilting knew something wasnt right even barbaric orcs mischievous spirits wouldve left trace behind exploring desolate area quite time came upon large wooden building town hall assumed figured clues happened area inside showed sign damage almost like everyone decided leave thing showed life tapestry wizard bravely falling combat manticore coldness air pierced side knot formed stomach blood running cold pull together youre better this youve never backed before now thought youve dealt plenty before cyclopes jinn whats bad th thought interrupted sounds marching filled head quickly hid near window see arrived sounds snickering growling goblins yet looked perplexed was arent using tunnels said one goblin ive heard rumors defenseless town secret path leading tressure filled castle thought ripe taking never thought itd easy besides last time used tunnels headed dwarf central literally said one front pulled bow arrow readied shot waiting see force necessary goblins stopped right tracks began sniff air dozen goblins turned direction making heart pump loud enough could surely hear it one goblin began charge town hall jolt stop goblins known quite difficult scare would even call stupid fearless look fear confusion goblins face body contorted showed even toughest warriors crack hid watching arms flail legs twist turn torso bend odd angles sounds bones snapping flesh mashing screamed agony body began float comrades screamed terror desperately trying anything help him yells cries help goblin suddenly stopped body went limp hooded figure materialized hand goblins back dropping ground type mist flowing hand goblins stared disbelief hooded figure spoke one word sumegruser skeletal hands rose ground held goblins hooded figure approached screams echoed throughout village sound heard miles type necromancer knew prepared deal one skilled turned around prayed every god knew would make one piece slowly crept towards window left realized hooded figure would likely hear try get away grabbed chair threw window right hooded figure turned towards noise repeated phrase skeletal hands rose grabbed chair jumped window raced village expecting grabbed hands moment heart felt like bursting chest barely able calm myself felt lost nearby forest everything looking same screams goblins still eched though area making area feel unescapable running seemingly endless forest began feel adrenaline leave body came across body water began pass exhaustion near water heard someone say single word mullebal cold boney hands rose water dragged in tightening unearthly grip me water gushed lungs could feel life draining me like prey constrictor act fast could faintly see figures dragging depths skeletal warriors dressed types gear villager tunics cleric robes began ponder many lives necromancer claimed reanimated focus dont much time thought eyes wandered around murky abyss searching anything could use escape last eyes found something rune barely held together attached clerics robes hastily unsheathed sword slashed wildly breaking many undead warriors bodies quickly broke bodies reformed began drag again cleric closer time arms reach best could lunged forward grabbed rune speedily turning pages could barely read incantation option water flooded mouth read spell aloud thoron yelled bolt lightning struck skeletons completely vaporizing them also hitting me never thought much pain divine electricity could bring never want experience again potions better effective advertise thought slowly began float towards surface wishing never gone village peeked head water greeted night sky goblin screams seemed stop underwater assumed worst crawled onto shore coughing water constantly wandered randomly woods barely able tell anything apart attempted drowning certainly help physically recover sleep seemed enticing moment rest headno screamed realized stupid was falling asleep yelling probably alerting everything area stumbled throughout mazelike forest barely conscious joy hope came came across quiet village extinguished realized went circle right back village options crept around ghost town making sure quiet possible thought perhaps tapestry secrets reveal maybe even happened town quietly snuck town hall ready run sight necromancer find everything been lurking towards tapestry could clearly see tapestry meant hide something quietly removed tapestry finding dark tunnel must goblins talking about thought myself stared seemly endless abyss wondering mysteries hidden there grabbed torch fall used flint light it,0 +generic edgy venting postim going anhero sure would like to ampxb complicated girlfriend left bossbestfriends younger brother also underling job one considered good friend pains know acting did t minus events distorted things cannot reason people father recently painfully gone blind one eye dealing accusations murder going years now cannot prove anything rarely ever wrong certain innocent man gave fortune get custody twin myself sacrificed everything us thats whole worms exgirlfriends best friend head investigator known violence drug use seem matter cheated notorious drug pusher user straight laced father main suspect insert angry edgy comment insulting god female shiba ran apartment cannot found despite chipped never abused though suspect prior owners loved much dealt loss many animals life intended and spoil spoil brother thats another worms grandmother showing serious signs alzheimers grandfathers life painfully passed away destroyed grandmother even remember last time hugged told loved him told much meant me shitty jeep father bought grandmother gave past year mugged walking work anymore nearly killed transmission slipped neutral driving back drive twice highway and continues so major city im god damn poor succeed every single fucking car acquired either broken beyond financial repair broken intostolen im kidding understand transmission issue bad imagined build lot pressure releases repeats without control pent energy powerful imagine happens driving driving light ended vehicle realwheel drive imagine go surrounding traffic run over vehicle miles transmission poor maintenance done prior ownership driving still moneygod need god live need somehow save replace vehicle saving money damn near impossible one power payers apartment due various reasons struggle save anything normal inbetween cents dollars account given time bills emergencys its hard save money may say may true literally every single time savings something always happens take me hate alive hate love exist order save would done anything within power baby boomers hate me gen x hates me gen tide pod eaterswagyolofortnite victory royal hates me millennial l somehow responsible everything wrong world almost born list goes gets worse get worse tried unalive several times life fucking fail college funds ripped away made much money know year much im rich believe make somewhere like now even remotely comfortable attractive poor luck women all family would tell im catch doubt that names chad cannot children sterile nothing outside minor minor material possessions handful friends best even twin distant me exist people around guilt live know theyd sad mouth breathe anymore happiness worth mine want die always wanted die want ever after want anything mistake never born happy outside bullshit child happiness built lies christmas birthdays aware others worse pains affect me get better never has end,1 +existing single block dry noodles needs healthy lifestyle lmao dont need em,0 +struggle thoughts suicide frequently things keep going already posted help subs please take concerned please please know ill goes it woman love might commit suicide one things keeps hanging onto life,1 +im going kill selfbecause im going achieve dream world full pain thats it,1 +teacher spent first minutes lesson ranting enbies blm suffice say hate that especially much choice halflisten know actual teaching tiring,0 +kill summer im happy relieved no need worry discourage me death beautiful thing lt,1 +suicidal thoughts want die hurt myselfi thinknot sure begin here aha im new reddit im posting first time cause feel like need talk see anyone else gets all feel alone know do am another sleepless night me ive always suffered insomnia anxiety long remember aware mentally im great feel low make sense roof head loving family however small broken loving supportive boyfriend yet feels like constant shadow me brain feels clouded frank shop recently ive seriously questioning worth it struggle lot days especially recently get bed feel completely worthless useless life brain works as many experience constantly working drive negativity exhausting want stop stop want die want brain stop shit tonight nights really feels like much thoughts scare me realisation brain almost planning yourself deep know want die make sense anyone rambling sleep deprived nonsense,1 +family murdered breast cancer husband abandoned meim alone im fed working ass barely breath abandoned husband fiance boyfriend whatever wanted call me years im homestate hometown reason even try go back hometown one there cant take care showering eating family murdered left abused me im supposed go police monday file rape asualt charges already went nowhere cant stand hes done me vandalized car killed motor threatened kill many ways years reached police hospital rape pure exhaustion cancer pain ended taking nut jail hold raped know deal cancer patients hrs late meds almost died there anyone ever says thats good idea made suffer more anyone overdosed baclofen,1 +simply put paul bettany jennifer connelly remarkable movie less raw science darwins beliefs holds focus strongly relationship family primarily wife emma daughter anniebr br toby jones gives wonderful turn thomas huxley great defender darwins beliefs rest cast task sharing screen time bettany connellybr br but two carry movie real chemistry apparent beginning end develops transcendence darwin grapples demons scene darwin relates ending story jenny orangutan dying daughter annie utterly gripping world premiere audience tiff spellbound bettanys performance recognized one years best short order equally magnificent connellys work playing religious wife man who huxleys words killed godbr br the film moves slowly entire spectrum darwins grief relishing every detail bettany connellys actingbr br brilliant,0 +one films either love hate it girlfriend loved it told brother rent hated it said flashy colloquial usually goes see big action movies probably enough explosions left disappointed great new talent id never heard leads anyway des brady the directors brother especially good playing right dick start thought never would redeem managed crawl dark hole created end really routing him surprising film whole lot heart live without body count explosions one original yashimo brixton uk,0 +know anymorei needed somewhere write something sit tub warm water surrounds hips legs slight contrast cold metal blade hand know long sat looking left wrist asking myself are gonna it thought death fascinated scared me fascinated pain anything blood way heart rose eventually fell way would feel gave let droopy eyelids fall last time eternal sleep freedom riddance everydays burdens lifted right hand left arm held blade place cut cut cut mind chanted over pushed blade skin alone made little drop pool around edge blade smiled slightly pain felt good way letting know come slowly firmly pulled blade along skin repeated spot couple times then lowered wrist water watching blood fall wrist bottom tub simply fascinating loved how peaceful looked drove further made cuts arms went couple times well time blade went across skin blood would come out keep track much blood lost steady inflow water draining mastered technique younger age keep water warm came great handy now keeping left wrist water near drain set blade ledge tub rest head knee could already feel drowsiness coming made happy id leave pain behind all shut eyes done kinda exactly like sleep dreaming anything woke bright fluorescent lights head smell death latex gloves around realized sleep closed eyes slept more running away guilt id feel would see sorrow parents eyes one day would put except wake then true story,1 +even delivery guy left read wanted order new screen protector nearby store want go bc really want catch covid screen protector if essential would go not got hisher phone number instagram messaged whatsapp left read f,0 +absolutely hate myselfself harm drugsmy life ive got scars arm absolutely hate seeing scars hate reminded weak really am,1 +matter do drama life stays im problemi know whats wrong me cant live normal life every insecurity something cant even talk cause people around judge me one person consider close same speak mind ruin everything im gonna kill myself know keeps coming back im fucked ended it different everybody says wanna talk gets offended feel im completely alone ive concluded im problem remove myself,1 +mjust met guy im fcking giggling awkwardnesss met grindr noticed blocks away decided meet up much talked like mins went jog well couldnt even say talk tho could look me walking talking always ahead me literally said im awkward way am lololollo first time this also didnt know do im person laughs awkwardness awkward something never experienced before wanted share it k im done,0 +vein natural born killers another movie popular critics excessive violence also loved kalifornia movie clearly glamorizes violence like think turns around final act kind like basketball diaries glamorizes drugs first shows bad side end movie far worse good side good david duchovny plays brian kessler artistic yuppie even artistically yuppie girlfriend violent sexy black white photography generally reserved for know where places nudity passes art maybe really understand it rate brian carrie duchovny michelle forbes fits role flawlessly make perfect couple go documentary tour famous murder sites brian writer write book carrie take picturesbr br being artistic types brian carrie quite financially prepared trip put ad someone share gas travel expenses contacted early grace adele corners brad pitt juliette lewis early parole assigned janitorial work local university parole officer sees ad bulletin board decides leave state while violating parole also leaving scene landlords murder deal pesky murder investigation two birds one stone knowbr br the movie curious ability portray two stereotypes artsy yuppies greasy trailer trash without resorting clichs even ending caricatures either type brian carrie artsy liberals carrie catches early adele brian fascinated earlys status outlaw seen scene brian shoots earlys gun never fired gun before hes fascinated little kid adele carrie back hotel adele reveals things childlike way fact early broke her smoking allowed drink early think women should early brian local bar brian reacts nervously drunk trying start fight him early first gives advice brian steps dishes quick lesson guy hit him bri comin one favorite scenes movie partly funny early gleefully says guys friends drag away bloodied battered also intercut girls back hotel learn much two couples differences conflicts likely come them besides that brian benefited earlys actions carrie appalled hears adele also illustrates different way carrie brian react early adelebr br clearly now tell typical odd couple type thriller city folk run country folk sorts stereotypical mayhem ensues one hand seems little convenient brian carrie go tour murder sites happen accompanied real life murderer hand great way counteract glorifying murder inherent within crosscountry trip designed bring fame murderers crimes studying actions past murderers brian carrie ultimately find face face material studying realize murder pretty morbidly fascinating face disconnected studies murders pastbr br i constantly amazed brad pitts versatility actor consider example roles movies like kalifornia monkeys fight club oceans pitt like tom hanks change appearance drastically enough fit given character completely believable incidentally tried vain early grace halloween year get hair beard right even got hat right initially thought would hardest partbr br its easy understand lot people disliked kalifornia think glorifies violence murder think whatever glorifying done intention clarifying audiences understanding subject matter film glorify violence least initially could never effective kalifornia movie structures perfectly glorification embodied brians carries fascination idea murder auras places happened realization ours embodied real thing encounter early adele movies purpose describe difference idealizing violence seeing horror close real,0 +bro acting kinda sus,0 +seem feminine guy necessarily way would think dont try feminine want be like dont change tone voice dont wear makeup dont wear dresses dont long hair well bit shorter version something similar jim morrisons hair ect muscles like alot masculine things dont like watching sports though like working out beer dont like beer prefer hard liquor stereotypically masculine things guess main way describe would list mainly stereotypically feminine things like live nature love animals im fascinated bugs like clouds sunsets sunrises read time love books obsessed self improvement ill buy healthiest best soaps best foods make art im photographer im emotional though still control emotions guess im type boy would take bug outside rather kill it would admire sunset pick flowers spend time reading day dreaming im going explain everything depth yeah also know many men like these common women,0 +seen film it genremix ive never seen another surreal scenes hilarious funny stuff film noir felling musical numbers swing sex scenes the nd best played orgasm film bested sally pitch orson welles blended together work art work art logical end least logical everybody owned tv copy vhs loaned exgirlfriend cant get back film dvd austria sure buy it,0 +im fucking sick painful cycleevery day seem try jump hoop day day without change want everything end decided go college state get away family keep giving three lines encouragement give crawl day turns out ones surprise cost tuition state large emotional burden ive wasted k make here midterms over odds getting gpa back reduced null adds emotional burden im trying get schools psychological services proving take weeks meds trick cant get ahold doctor ive trying weeks im tired disconnected courses want end it cant even sit read book without wanting fucking slit throat books next victim want withdrawal school also take mental toll shame going back fucking family still thousands debt know want curl ball done,1 +cant connect peoplei cant connect people friends people seem like me think look standoffish maybe mean people occasionally try talk like theyre speaking another language know theyre saying theyre saying it supposed say even social anxiety point feel anxiety anymore understand socialize diagnosed schizoid personality disorder think might austistic mainly actually want connect others know how insurance therapy help myself exercise comes mind cant seem motivate it im living car shower gym everyday could then job like time im really eating anymore im sure impact moods whats wrong me things know help me ive thoughts redflag often since half life everyday im driving think crashing want friend stick around would deserve that nothing offer lousy friend,1 +check cool painting made alright here something serious discuss recently brought attention members rteenagers one moderators indeed map pedophile based this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskdwgouh_oh_uh_oh_uh_oh since confirmation this important spread awareness push moderators confirmdeny accusation indeed true remove moderator post community strive keep subreddit safe possible please spread message thank you ps gets removed like linked post well answer,0 +life get betterhey again five years now ive considering redflag actually attempt drown myself brother whos lifeguard saved me twice want die one either switched schools suicidal feelings subdued exgirlfriend brutally rejected christmasnew year holidays try kill methods either failed someone stopped me ultimately worsened sophomore year opened friends expressed concern discouraged hit new low guidance counselor called class talked me imagine cried day mothers birthday sisters graduation ceremony tell family month afterward directly told them respond well made promise never talk think redflag again went months still going on math class teacher made joke q man fall manhole a committing sewercide went serious discussion redflag imagine everyone stared me classmates even believe im suicidal happygolucky facade wear everyday school take home fact year keep of time single school day goes without thinking climbing headfirst window skipping staircase jumping straight lower floor strangling headphones jabbing pens sides throat always question value existence family says im comic relief family without me would existential crises tell me today went floor got trouble boss made mistake lied cover up saw even called mom school come home tonight first news mom tells im fired why fought boss considering im junior year school level changes academic university preparation that big jump course school feels like hell better novel im studying english mosthated book time nineteen eightyfuckingfour flatout refused study book demanded transfer pleas good worst all parents threaten tell psychiatrist suicidal threats subject sorts torture them deserve shit give me grandparents take better recently told shut down promised id kill graduating high school now patience god help me,1 +friend almost committed redflag days ago friends parents caught almost committing redflagthe reason posted meme reddit wrong info people started bullying making fun post wrong info literally made soo sad almost killed,0 +worthlessim hot kid probably autistic mess still probably i never confirmed whether im not im social pariah lost two relationships got fired one job quit other cant graduate due inability fulfill might even fail semester hate family trust friends want quit travel aokigahara put misery im sure keep going really,1 +advice girls girls like guy mean really like guy dont tsundere act like dont like them might lose interest think dont like them were kinda dumb like thats us dont find cute also confidence tell like knows might like back hope helps someone understanding guys bit more know guys like know lot people including myself feel way,0 +fuck im asking crush today hopefully,0 +karen story used live nashville backyard shared fence karen first all made us move trampoline blocking view view house moved one time me brother friend around pm loud obviously since like went get drink came back complaining brother late screaming laughing went back told dad came started talking sense idiot said fine went back house minutes later saw body behind tree backyard standing camera pointing us wasnt exactly shape saw trying hide behind tree film us could report us hoa started laughing historically ran inside tell talked insane her good justice time hilarious,0 +alltime favorite movie oscarcaliber work everyone involved front behind camera screenplay perfect works relationship lady caroline george briggs completely satisfying way unlike novel care leading characters drawn tribute screen writer peter barnes intense visual beauty oscars director mike newell cinematographer rex maidment josie lawrences best work far transformed opinion joan plowright watched movie least times find fault it music famed composer richard rodney bennet marvel,0 +bored reallyhey im like immenent suicidal anything im honestly tired life currently everythings bland mean ive seen alot years statisticaly ive faired pretty good far alot people die even make s whether famine war illness general darwinism looking anon know did dont get wrong everything paper life looks good look pretty damn handsome im currently going uni parents paying it going mexico study abroad trip winter im also cis white male matters cant find love find quality friends still virgin guess thats one reason live even still im bored life im much suicidal much incredibly bored need something spice life,1 +getting tired im job years got friends nothing home parents house cant take more,1 +posting song everyday not day want love nf daily songs playlist httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzilhbtxsnfkgatuareusigspyxmqjgbdtgvlqiog,0 +feel suicidal every dayi keep telling suicidal thoughts self indulgent self pitying cant make stop ocd behaviours driving parents mad running helps think much get angry try make stop dont know,1 +video rocked eddie one funniest comics ever seen class makes funniest observations history culture ever seen eddie original intelligent comic ive seen long time tell standups get stage let executive reign,0 +dont know anymorei kind plan die would th dont know would actually follow it one knows except you now congrats know current deepest secret,1 +sister lawhey all call jane love sister im deeply concerned well versed say talking redflag issues past issues one reasons im concerned jane recently attempted redflag believe mentally abusive relationship man truly liked lot learned treats her drinking problems drink thats abuse starts ive witnessed snippets type abuse name calling belittling tone according sister law guy also used redflag attempts arguments get best thing would get away him lives hours immediate family job due covid another problem being dont think accept help eldest sisters wouldnt want reveal things would make feel vulnerable idea want stop anything ive there attempt redflag mind matter if matter when time running worried dont want say something cause harm internet resources tell get help different redflag prevention places person doesnt want help know want help accepting help im afraid cant wait want help please help importantly help jane,1 +note us men listen mates hard know everyone else thinks dude hard socially conditioned express feelings andor emotions may ask simple gender roles man cannot rely another person thus gender roles man cannot expressive theres another thing man raped overage woman chances woman going scott free pissed thinking random entry ,0 +slowly realizing life made me suicide seems inevitable want die peacefully though need death exciting adrenaline rush maybe something like jumping plane bombs attached me maybe heist gone wrong sounds like better experience slitting wrists anybody else want go bang,1 +im throw vape away makes feel sick something makes still want it im getting rid it took hit willing that regret set later wish luck,0 +cure ugliness without plastic surgery course ive tried everything burning face slamming concrete mph nothing works,0 +sent ex get help message reddit idk bored thought would funny maybe spam tho,0 +purpose existing left memy girlfriend months broke last night around midnight bother much time next day next fucking day posted picture another guy devastated inside know anymore besides killing myself want feel remorse me doesnt certainly matter ill dead least want pain go away,1 +close minded stupid two friends decided theyre two different people respect pronouns call whatever name want be fact people take seriously friends mine take seriously boggles mind names alternative persons fucking pretentious stupid lmao bigoted others also think stupid maybe understand fully idk think bit odd identify two people fact two friends theyre closer me makes wonder theyre cool smthing,0 +gtperpetual existence sorrows forever repeat cycles collapse person gt gtindelible memories turned still images constantly reproduced gt gtmirror past reflects good times buried misery gt gtinevitable roads intersect life divert coursefree poetry helps cope way write feel point life years old feel like living inertia even began live life already tired iti live best places fact would argue live horrendous place see everything crumble around see trapped here everything getting worse every day hope get chance get out country sucks city sucks household sucks practically poor live future hopes making somewhere time passed grown pessimistic seeing that realistically might make anywhere might end living miserable life making anywherei trapped inside house year now friends withered away ever first place everyone liked talk online either ditched disappeared social redflag worsened time mental health need deal mood swings depression trauma adhd untreated tried everything get access mental health professionals even others help me end could it still live family helpful all best tell problems either exist matter there people worse problems yours cannot even talk much it esteems constant emotional psychological yes also physical abuse rest things feel safe talking themsomething traumatic happened late last year me hard explain knew was event mental health went drain never cared got mad sudden change behaviour even let cope safe way led copping unsafe ones much happened ever since many meltdowns many nights feeling hopeless many dark thoughtsand am winter break university typing could going sleep fix fucked sleep schedule least something fun instead feel completely apathetic depressed want disappear much trauma backstabbed many times much everyone taken advantage me almost everyone ever liked disappeared always feel hopeless feel worthless want try anything anymorei want make new friends eventually find way make go away involuntarily redflag keep away friendship fade away want get another relationship going abused again want go heartbreak again lost interest hobbies play guitar play videogame usually even fun anymore helps temporarily kill eternal boredom feel make think things catch go back feeling depressed fuckand live inertia wake follow routine every day anything interesting expect anything good see every new day another day get through another day deal everything another day wonder situation got here why last question ultimately kills me why me done deserve this cannot happyi tired this want die want live without pain things getting better certainly feels like never will stuff could fixed lot hard work many things carry forever know want to tired living inertia only able feel sadness,1 +week since diagnosed mdd major depressive disorder redflag always struggled depressive episodes time done however commit suicide want feel presence death taking sought help id hated even though deep down death desire live life meaningless would ever forgiven acting suicidal thoughts without putting fight first therapist thinks good idea let parents know condition comfortable minor necessary parents meeting therapist today scared might final straw nothing live anyway think,1 +dont think would call helpif sat shower stall slit wrists right now dont think would call help could call fiancee downstairs dont think would dont think would change mind regret it im hard time coming reasons it im hoping fall asleep first dont tonight many nights many ways dont know it now matter when,1 +cant anything right failing workjobnavy shit throwawayso yeah shitty time work joined navy years ago where time go gone shit cant anything right mean cant even qualify senior rate since speak stupid shit comes out pass tests maintenance well everything shit im literally dead want fuck coworkers they cool leadership mostly cool just im burden died least would well qualified people im sorry just go feeling happy shitty self destructive put external happy face even though internaly want die every day drive work sometimes go home think using guns parents would sad go office alone duty make noose put away stop this literally found making noose standing chair went last watch want to hear something else went wrong im like welp want die im sorry well understand emotions besides constant background noise i want die one else knows they think im mister happy forever make face die sorry wall text everyone just know hell do,1 +pushed mei hate wanna fucking end fuck everyone ever told loved never loved back want anything anymore want get courage cut open wrists care anybody care anything anymore want die im tired obsessed cant get head want think anymore living thing want bleed want watch die want breathe everybody hated everybody told hated,1 +somebody tell one fucking thing hell rasktrumpsupporters taking election results way fucking better rconservative non supporters trump cant make top level comments megathread rasktrumpsupporters clearly genuine rconservative bitching crying rasktrumpsupporters like well biden supporter support loses congrats him hope country moves good direction like rasktrumpsupporters wish could take things well you,0 +comes backi would get thought stuck head telling over sad lonely fought brought back remembered times thought wont happen ill stop gets point next time never go back fucking sad like was came back came back could even notice,1 +venting grew without father mother insane finaly died s nothing close years old nothing show it drivers lisense girlfriend nothingi feel emotions anymore way feel emotion drink heavily do anger shows least somethingi started hitting hard headface conjunction drunk gives sort calm feeling like currently red face hitting feels good rant started hitting myself years pain need relief,1 +reddit glitched cant see comments,0 +people like thati middle breakdown sick tired people general rough breakup slowly recovering finally felt comfortable enough another person treat like shit giving false hope supposed cope this much horrible anxiety attacks heart cant take,1 +feeling brokeni know anymore thinking realized easy way it right,1 +basically need help thing is months ago found first best friend straight guys feel super close like brother still cant shake sexual thoughts him idk normal really love him love everything him want look straight eyes say dont balls rad lads give advise confess feeling without scaring making feel weird,0 +still alive weeks ago tried kill successful it tried overdose sleeping aids thought id fall asleep never wake wake up apparently take enough damn killing really easy must really lucky pretty stupid put mental hospital week days ago released thinking probably good im still alive,1 +got free pass preview movie last night know expect premise seemed silly assumed would lot shallow makefunofthevirgin humor great surprise laughed hard cried jokes film must see anyone open mind slightly twisted sense humor okthis movie go grandmother jack palance small children language filthy jokes very crude sex talk graphic find anywhere whats amazing however movie still sweet love story girlfriend loved it steve carell terrific like office supporting cast really makes film work characters flaws also depth likability everyone pulls weight chemistry perfect cant wait get dvd im sure office space replays quotable lines,0 +the king queens opinion pure cbs hit despite fact ive never seen every episode still enjoy much reason hard say episode favorite even so must say cbs really knows make good sitcom wrap up id like say everyone always gives good performance production design spectacular costumes welldesigned writing always strong conclusion show lives syndication goes cbs strongly recommend catch case goes air good,0 +hate females try flirt like maam im clearly homosapian back,0 +see someone try pickup girl literal cringe like hey dm oh youre single too cant help cringe lets real need stop simping youre actually one people something productive life right cringe anyways nice day night,0 +hate stereotypes like standard image french man fact expected women higher standards men thought sucks still expected behave normally like people say weird straight cringe different look furries know deep find either weird strange sweetest person earth still deep opinion course nothing wrong furries nothing wrong overweight people either many skinny people felt little bit disgust looking one blindly assume messed heavier you get started people criticizing lgbtq maybe never met trump supporter multiple good trump supporters there behaving inappropriate assume bad ampxb gotta stop even though day english terrible sorry second language,0 +interact uytoppop manipulated bunch friends transphobic homophobic avoid,0 +end get rid dog im gonna end ithe is quite literally last thing feel deep emotional connection to all emotionally dead reaction literally everyone life months now best friend left one strings emotional connection hanging friends live far away really talk league legends family again trying convince get rid dog calling manipulative bring literally destroy inside lost everything good job best friend rock dog point im gonna leave whether redflag literally catching train across country im done,1 +fear break broke meive thought redflag years due various things life im lazy write them im sorry im write seems trivial think keep going life kind alright guess great kind feel inside life pointless without ex boyfriend still feelings want relationship anymore this ldr think im entitled anyone people break up happens thats another thing invested much time energy care thought relationship saved months see side world to fair also saved up couple months leave months later breaks me told felt unappreciated agreed felt bad apologized would even want another relationship anyone again im tired stuff everything get broken anyway nobody gave near extent did parents care much anyone else knows this second break up guy going forever grip me im trapped ive thought ending numerous times icing cake ive attracted ever since ive known years im pondering whether end months not want keep existing like this know silly ridiculous sound wonder anyone else going something similar ,1 +im cowardly end itthis throwaway ive struggling suicidal thoughts depression recently gotten worse life mess im highly closeted atheist cannot come out family accept it theyd cut came cant sustain financially relationships falling apart friends significant draining them want live anymore im cowardly end it wanted get chest somehow,1 +im sad dont want liveive thought far long hate life people value life death yeah get chance something millions unlucky unfortunate think death beautiful thing taken granted undermined love family friends great wonderful people hope best them makes happy seeing happy deep know truly want nothing world could give bc know real everyone else me reason killed dont want people care sad death want happy im dead wanted this life miserable dont understand people keep going im throwing life away things im absolutely hate im college welding dad pushed would great start life understand get start good life dont want this dont want anything want wake hear brother every single minute say smart ass shit every little thing do want future gf get cancer live play games die honestly want death dont want sympathy dont want anyone saying you always loved going ok want least someone understand im looking death want die obsessed death whats side cant believe religion anything spiritual god related end day believe going heaven good place wish know dead is,1 +im bored ask meh anything _ nothing see _ filler filler filler filler filller enough text,0 +finally post ill finally able find people socialize cuz mf lonely days,0 +final exam online werent required turn cameras iwhat expect cheating prevention lol,0 +something painful happened somehow hit nutsack guitar taking one,0 +game overi want die please excuse bad english im native austrian know english best dont deserve live anymore ive done horrible things everyone ever cared enough gone trough pain me gay love best friend familie never accept am dad hates gay people thing never get love back friend put him cant accept that dont know anymore cut today order get pain caused cant take anymore please help me cant take anymore know fault dont know,1 +gotta ask does anyone actually know uncoil earphones,0 +lot friends ones live miles away me pretty much se friends all also best friend transferring another school probably see like twice per year also introvert hard make friends do stop depressed,1 +emptinessnumbnessim years old currently serving active duty united states army a even tho im pretty successful life still want die im suicidal please dont say that im going cause im coward want already im sick feeling empty helpless im sick feeling worthless alone even though im surrounded best friends time want pain stop,1 +caught last half movie cable one night struck morbid was even one two victims deteriorated camera keeps going lingering shots corpse uncovered concentrationcamp figure zipped body bag moving depressing watch movie already depressed watch feeling really good,0 + years depersonalizationderealisation depression suicidal thoughts gotten better hate know ever like again become robot cannot even talk look family members eyes friends understand dpdr side hurts opened two people friends one said thought bad asked imagining going decide future now going college month pick job all antidepressants working gotten fat cannot even care reason live would family pain grateful family loves even though love eachother even deserve love hate past mistakes believe ever deserve love happiness sometimes think death easy way think maybe living suffering would better punishment me idk life hard slept day today even energy socialize anymore never really forced cannot even that think old friends think rude like even true one even takes seriously anyway joke group think stupid laugh nod gets awkward never say actually want to whatever though really want live happy life forgive know impossible relief,1 +dont think ive ever tasted toast good maybe im high toast gooooooood,0 +try hard get better canti feel like im trying carry fucking boulder mountain im going one step forward two steps back im sad tired hate hate matter ask matter much beg one takes seriously feel alone im just exhausted,1 +failing highschool family poor mother stressedthrowaway small introduction me grew pretty average parents kept lot things hidden me dumped load information onto suddenly th grade always back brain bugging me family poor hurts watch mom work long hours hurts even watch dad struggle finding job sister best student attends community college know hurts parents im poorly talk grades mom horrid told hates me wanted kill making life hard constantly asks cant meet expectations ive lost motivation since freshman year hs think ending life right would healthier family me sorry worded awkwardly im throwing thoughts onto post need worry im sure able end life easily,1 +ok dont hateim im serbia life like dad hates son relly shity guy befor mom disapointed school granperenc died days ago im relly depersed nobady talk sad trayed kill self failed stoped self every time think abaut every day somewon give advice,1 +ok need advice year ago parents got divorced m two sisters mom moved across country weve living different state mom new job shes met people work well months living meets guy work invited yesterday came hung little bit hes pretty chill dude cool came today spent literally whole day here daughter whos one grade seems decently nice came today him basically need help big changes happening dont know handle them mom knowing her probably going marry man point theyve already gotten pretty close meaning ill step dad step sister pretty soon pls help dont know handle things,0 +actually matterif kill right now literally give shit happens next ill fucken dead kill myself worry stress shit future im saying really see much reason keep up nix right now done,1 +got gf met online live different states meet person abt month hanging msging late night asked liked her said yes said too agreed keep casual say dating instead slightly friends couple days ago added ily end said gn said back today agreed date gf pog,0 +hate hotels family im staycation downtown city near live share tiny hotel room single bathroom siblings mom mom bad all sister disgusting smells like piss shit leaves toothpaste counter flush shidding smears shitty makeup white blankets brother jist annoying entitled makes whole trip physically mentally uncomfortable trip ive ever had nights hotel horrible im honest,0 +venthi thought would come back ive made post deleted got scared anyone knew would find it yesterday told mom made want kill ended parents freaking almost calling police me they didnt yelling telling ungrateful selfish hard explain life parents support financially im international student im legally allowed work however work table business stressful work almost everyday another employee messes parents blame it even though employees like years older me hate living mother weirdly overprotective me doesnt let lock door something usually go sleep wake morning yelling unlock door curfew even though im almost know every minute days theres obviously life im showing you im always stressed work school living family makes worse suicidal past couple months parents arent talking anymore yesterday,1 +im coming closet man air getting really thin,0 +cannot stay alive longerif check previous postsyou see whyi cannot stay earth second morei want diei cannot anymore place killing mei belong book worldsi meant warriora princessa elfanything humani belong narniahogwartscamp halfbloodprythainanywhere elsei want get please dying cannot even sleep houseplease someone take one help going die dot go boow worldi know irracional even care anymorei want get please begging belong reality,1 +thought redflag comfortingim senior year high school everything kinda getting me im worrying college im completely socially awkward speaking skills even drive yet gonna year start im completely dependent parents idea adult things become overwhelming thought dying almost calms way almost like cureall die worry stuff go college going music ed im really worried im gonna prepared go college whenever gets bad tell gonna okay die creepiest shit do,1 +telling jokes corona gone day theres joke time never rob bank pig always squeal,0 +recall many things seeing movie back original theatrical release post woodstock afterglow peace love along prewatergate tension fear paranoia hard believe thirty seven years later still remember thoughts going head watching film best friend like marveling peter boyles characterization ultimate redneck sure typecast rest career oh wrong counter culture jarred sensibilities country day buddy still use joe currans line summary faced dilemma curious simple line like stay decadesbr br its curious read comments film others board particularly ones stating film dated quality top characters were still around time picture gives pretty accurate portrayal polar opposites existed back then pretty much side side events story reveal really want dated last time heard words macys gimbels sentence line like joes come on get pepsi generation historical perspective great nixon poster lingering one background scenes would buy used car man minor intricacies like those director john avildsen captures many subtle ever present hints life four decades agobr br todays viewing second time ive seen movie admit remember susan sarandon one lead roles again first picture scenes nudity free love something actually quite new bold time shocking fact film makers began experiment ability push envelope propriety convention joe took major leap regard particularly since mainstream picturebr br with passage time thing impresses peter boyle overcame stereotype joe curran appear star favorite pieces work mean go joe hilarious rendition puttin ritz young frankenstein absolute favorite episode xfiles boyle clyde bruckman tender tragic funny serious portrayal turns tables scully mulder once career capper frank barone one funniest characters history television even repeat episodes syndication funny he whenever elder barone lets loose one observations one actor viewer sorely misses already,0 +inexplicably watched movie first time couple days ago understood beginning fuss about movie held attention beginning end ran whole range emotions and might helped discover never knew aboutbr br dustin hoffman absolutely shines ted kramer absolutely convincing man juggle least three different challenges life jilted husband workaholic ad executive loving father meryl streep joanna kramer less central movie simply joanna absent good part it screen gave hoffman run money true standout though in opinion young justin henry billy kramer children always innocent victim marital breakdown justin seemed absolutely natural completely believable role deals conflicting emotions around mother adjustment life dad confusion around leave dad mom walked him young justin seem miss beat difficult rolebr br all all excellent oscarworthy movie whose weak point thought truly disappointing decision go sappy happy ending totally unrealistic considering destructive custody battle ted joanna gone through theres much else complain herebr br ,0 +giving song recommendation part cause httpsyoutubemv_wdelqbje,0 +used atm first time moms card im buying gaming laptop using permission im totally stealing anything,0 + weeks birthday thought day making want diein two weeks birthday life planned bad depressingly lonely knowing ill old causing lot emotionsi feel like ive wasted youth ive lost chance meaningful friendships life feel positive fantastic job im youngest teacher local college teach subject interests get paid talk it enough no still feel like zero idea want life kind fell jobi think deserve it majority coworkers age mom awkward social them maybe heightened friend family odd two days ago thought death rapidly brain used go dance gymanstics everyday miss it miss healthy body it everyone else seemed make friends easily always sideline miss dance wish made friends easily everyone else did call grandpa amp grandma least day gives someone talk to bother mom loves rarely time me try calling usually answer life thats fair enough im close sister hard im turned i really talk superficial level boyfriend amazing still feel incredibly lonely think feel sad me know im lonely think realize actually friends friend honestly toxic talk anymoreprobably best still miss friendship asked think reasons kill myself im skinny enough die pet skinny pig even though rarely shows love hed starve without me family would wreck fair them live alone social distancing would lot effort im scared side cant listen hamilton watch bojack dead cant start dancing dead cant write dead video chat loving niece dead legacy die now never seen star wars land disneyland yet mom would never forgive you get cook again get perform again breathe take breathe cant cry im actually video write down class assignments little realize writing kill want to keep saying things okay keep trying make things okay keep trying add new lights lifebut everything okay stop stop focusing negative breathe in out in out need go back teaching class pretend none feelings here important thing is safe much want harm know writing helped feel less anxious feel like focus reasons kill myself start,1 +cant bring iti cant kill myself either pussy trying shove handful pills throat pussy try tying belt around throat problem everyone couldnt even father today dont know still here ive never known im here every day feels like waste time repeated cycle cant even talk therapist shell probably tell parents something worse cant talk anyone it noone would get act fucking tell something bothering fucking stupid,1 +anyone ever notice emoji looks like someone giving shrek bj,0 +im dirty feel really dirty everything body dirty shower im still dirty brush teeth mouth dirty teeth feel like fall hair feels disgusting feel like roots hair like dirty dark basement legs many bruises face looks like soemthing wrong feel weak feel thankful shitty things life right becasue least use excuse im hurting much didnt would nothing blame fucked thank universe keep giving fucked shit allah dont believe elhamdulillah u gave fucked life hope put hell asap suffering reason wont feel like something wrong lately read pyschology website sensitivity genetic im gonna blame mom kids even tho fucked head makes fucked kids like mom cant therapist feel disgusted today arm touched mine wanted throw anyway dont know take care thank never teaching thanks never emotionally available making ashamed every part body elhamdulillah blame mom anyway dad biggest asshole ive ever seen selfish ass person ever dont deserve family dont deserve single thing still give fucking patriarchy whatever stayed stupid small town never moved istanbul never meet mom bc u married lived city generations ur stupid backwards head still even tho live north america sometimes u outside house sit living room talk convince shit yes ppl sit discuss convince man let us live lives way want congrats fucking dictator controlling adults kids lives hate you hate erdogan hate allah three head could would kill feel happy fuck u fuck mom especially fuck u making watch little sister slowly getting fucked say fault fault u made kids everyone knew u cant take care of stop raw fucking throwing babies around hate u also feel bad bc know end really fault whatever fuck society guess like fuck u sex years months ago didnt want born,1 +ask trans girl questions hate comments dm instead,0 + join server cause teen,0 +hey everyone first all throwaway account really frustrated year old guy rejections far counting in tried actually befriend girls well thing trying last couple months see friends girlfriends makes frustrated thing cannot get girlfriend thing cannot get friend girl cannot get girl talk mei get absolutely zero attention girls thought looks maybe ugly several people told average looking also fat skinny kind muscular i work outi seek validation people get enough d modeler video editor friends praise time make something new seek female attention get any makes depressed frustrated cannot get work done it makes unmotivated sad rarely go days fear rejection whenever try focus projects get reminded things every time concentrate girls do unmotivated female attention get motivation back,1 +feel like thisi really even know say here ive never posted something like before know long post be sorry advance gets long thoughts also pretty jumbled right now sorry seems like im rambling structure post well so go feel guess im years old never good thing called life life never terribly bad beat molested no nothing like that never good life ive dreams goals never made come true get wrong im pretty smart guy im quitter feel like putting forth effort really like outdoors fishing hiking camping make feel good times im even going college environmental sciences next year well maybe know ill make long even going school something love get career something actually enjoyi think enjoy life know feel way do used good amount friends used girl loved pushed away know it mistakes ive made making like anymore ones turn away mistakes ive pushed away stopped putting effort stay friends them know why guess want truly hurt them end hurting me so ive become lonely want social im good it talk texttyping pretty well comes talking face face always find struggling find words matters much live small town almost everyone knows me would fine basically outcast school thats remember me cant really make new friends here two friends left keep things anonymous also keep things easy understand ill call john sam so john hes best friend anyone could ask for hes loyal fun smart strong willed would die anyone considers family know happened blessed way become friends him wed anything other were almost exact same well makes getting along easy were pretty fucked head humor sometimes even him subconscious stuff try push away try toit happens thankfully hes stubborn bastard kind knows feel try hide him ive become really good hiding it sometimes slip up know tell feel least little sam amazing caring nice smart funny beautiful outside truly beautiful inside too dated couple times never worked out better friends moved long ago lives couple states away text lot ive shared darker thoughts her caring best hard truly something text live far away two friends lot good ones even them amazing are feel lonely feel way life terribly bad feel like im cut life want livei truly do feel like cant it scares me,1 +feel isolated friends cant see much im work tour colleges cant talk much talk dont respond,0 +anybody else recently hear use tylenol acetomenaphin fight existential anxiety god ever description life written would titleherehttpwwwchroncomlifehealthzonearticlecantylenolhelpeaseanxietyphp link tylenol frankly im glad hear existential anxiety till thought person felt like could hear grass grow cars rusting seems worry go wrong next,1 +vent commenti friends cant speak properly hyper mobile scared cant stop it always scared alone scared going outside people,1 +know im tired im tired everything always been school although sure help brain broken think wish could normal wish higher chances die methods available least even could get meds get diagnosed something although idk effective would ending sounds better right now want fail though idk ill just uhm coping method time im sorry post like im probably attention seeking im sorry idk im posting anyway im sorry ignore sorry,0 +cant take anymoreim sick all constant cycle feeling happy short fall back thinking theres nothing worth living for confused life everything ive lived point feels meaningless distant me parents friends bright future keep catching wishing would end life hard man think want go anymore cant find guts end it feel like fucking coward thinking easy way out able it add constant paranoia closest me thinking secretly hate me feel mind slowly going insane all cant even cry out bottle keep in gives constant sinking feeling deep inside want end want peace reason live,1 +hey pssst come here something important wanna know post title ok order that also know maybe know let us know,0 +feel betterif anything feel worse want much die unbelievable ive lot research painful would od sleeping meds diphenhydramine interested miss much im never going get back cant take that see funeral better see college life broke cant put back together time look realize wrong is everything made happy thinking fills dread wish would never existed many peoples lives would better reason anything mom pressuring saying kill follow leaving sister alone live others everyone says redflag selfish id say forcing someone live life want live reasons equally selfish,1 +middle aged done status quo ideation set inhi going now spent half day sleeping much day away possible rest researching methods for umpteenth time alone nothing constructive life every day difficult day before am hope change spend every day trying reach people social media whatsapp mostly contact people face face choice made every minutes face misery again haul task online encounter avoid suffering cant see keeping struggle another plus years set ready reach place tried failed cant talk anyone know this reluctant even post this,1 +ponyo written directed hayao miyazaki little tale speaks respect ocean respect humans young old respect cultural differences new tale little goldfish wishing girl rather retelling disneys little mermaid miyazaki animated hand whimsical magical film young youngat heart film begins slow undulating bluegreen palette sea anemones jellyfish scores little fanciful goldfish childlike faces need narrative motion creatures music jo hisaiahi tell beginning released last summer japan ponyo japanese academys award best animation film best score jezebelcom fanciful little goldfish brunhild leaves ocean home jellyfish upon reaching surface caught fishing net full fish garbage sludge propelled jar rolled shore fiveyearold sosuke voice frankie jonas retrieves it cuts hand breaking jar open free little goldfish brunhild tastes blood heals sosukes cut puts motion transformation human time throwing nature balance sosuke puts little goldfish green pail names ponyo noah cyrus meaning soft jelly like sosukes mother lisa tina fey lets take ponyo school right next door nursing home works lisas crazy driving picturesque winding road past dry dock bustling fishing town treelined road nursing home representative miyazakis wonderful sequence action illustrates perfectly parents hectic morning miyazaki created another strong independent female character lisa making loving sensible modern mother sosuke ponyo lisas telephone conversation notcominghomeagain husband kiochi matt damon ship captains must make another run typical wifes reaction later evening sosuke intercedes using signal lamp speak father ship passes cliff house sits on lisa refuses acknowledge kiochis apology jumps signals bugoff bugoff bugoff hilarious scene but sosuke takes signal lamp tells dad good luck love you lisa hugs tells good heart poignant scenebr br my personal favorites miyazakis elderly grannytype women wheelchairs nursing home yochi betty white noriko cloris leachman toki lily tomlin interchange sosukes little goldfish wonderful reminiscent bickering witch waste lauren bacall sophie jean simmons trudge long flight stairs howls moving castle ponyos magical seagod father fujimoto liam neeson resembling wizard howl arrives take ponyo back ocean home fujimoto uses one elixirs try put nature back balance magical little ponyo escapes upsetting elixir process causing tsunami running backs giant dolphins get sosuke redheaded little girl reminds audience stubborn adventurous little mei neighbor totoro ponyo adventurous curious mei fujimoto realizes ponyo done calls gran mamare kate blanchett goddess ocean help situation wise calming goddess arrives blue flowing garment never ends private talk lisa discussing future young children helps audience understand sosuke ponyos relationship lovers brother sister lifegoeson quiet simple ending typical miyazaki films leaving audience full hope,0 +reminders remind you ask go super awkward you dont make plans front someone else arent gonna invite asshole thing upset them,0 +need everything stopi need everything stop life people friends school need stop cant anymore cant,1 +long fuck poorly writtenheres long story short life adopted born biological mother got adopted perfect family honest father great man also badass flew fs commanding officer kitty hawk aircraft carrier always always always right thing awesome brother years older stereotypical socal surfer hang ten hey brah shut kook best big brother could picture remember took beach bonfire pacific beach girl friend his age come talk flirt me talked power rangers shit know vivid so dad died earliest memories watching die lung cancer even though never smoked years later brother died shitfaced slipped pier drowned completely fucking ironic ive never met anyone loved water much makes fucking moron idiot faggot unless smiley face killer cult actually exists killed brother mom went crazy subconsciencly took me listened everyone around her me sent away friends preppiest athletic school us cms new hampshire yeah sad got made fun ass kicked sad constant public shaming teachers fucked up got gay raped teacher im gay whatever know life fun also friends back san diego moved away home visits fun formulated plan get kicked out worked mom furious went public school little bit went insane creepy got sent boarding school troubled teens dgaf first got sent mental hospital put antipsychotics locked white rooms shot thorazine strapped orange beds completed that went back boarding school brainwashed manipulated watch cedu documentary youtube want know bullshit place long explain weird came home years that still antipsychotics took years later immediately went drugs met biological mother made fool drugs stole ipods unlocked cars open garages turned residential burglary home invasion minimum years prison first offense stupid fuck confessed everything figured right thing do fight months im jail which sucked better time boarding schools combined moved psycho month getting jail pretty ironic jail prayed girl red hair foreign legal assistant would jealous keep busy toes got that every criteria too big coincidence ignore jealousy much handle broke her fucked two best friends night started dating alcoholic whore whos idol courtney love called one night yeah lets get fucked tonight fuck night down happens drink much says yeah parents going trip gotta go need get dad blew driving home spent next months drinking room waiting woken knock door taking prison years suspended sentence kept razor blade bed case still dating chick cheated year old black guy high schooler feels great probation officer never heard dui county attorney type shit years said needed count lucky stars years still drink every day still cant find work yes ive graduated college yes volunteer yes ive done job felons thing nothing leave room every day same wake up lay bed hours fuck around internet try make music i suck ive making music years im fucking awful get bed sit chair fuck around internet avoid facebook online dating profiles terrified someone might message me fuck around computer dark turn phone get text immediately turn spend entire day thinking im going respond always respond wrong way recently ive getting attacked something spiritual almost pushed window know stupid sounds im saying felt hands me head ive trying find paranormal shit since kid first time life actually happening unfortunately evil real despite ive through im rational logical shit actually happening care opinions topic im pathetic want spend next years life catching up entire life one big game catch up im either going sociopathic loner awkward social guy everyone internally make fun see nothing faults in id rather neither perfectly honest redflag something ive joked entire life ive put cigarettes arm past years every night got bed test long takes run breath i smoke packs day long im drank way much tonight im feeling squirrely put shoes one second tell kill myself tell fuck gain living honestly pathetic im steady job almost years live fucking mother ive past supposed fun years life fuck man reset button really care anyone else either ive spent last years burning bridges say therapy either ive since social anxiety getting worse depression really see leveling cry help like things here drunken ramblings someone never right head know else do really th floor hotel room far away room want guy buthelp seriously fucking talk shit me call bitch pussy whatever let frustration try jumpstart something head bullshit me honest,1 +woke late class ankle surgery yesterday morning anxious didnt get sleep im minutes late first class im going miss one show rest classes use surgery excuse get them couple days work really need due doctors appointments such parents fine missing classes feel really bad since ankle hurts pretty bad also note online school lack preparation school three classes day classes pretty pointless teacher lecturing us random stuff hour learning outside class assignments,0 +hey see dry ass lips nah nah try lick now dry ass lip haver lmao go get lip balm,0 +dear google ads fuck me semi virgin eyes,0 +ittoday worst day ever never knew would capability feel bad anything world would capability let feel bad cant shit cant whole world me im sure fuck this done want leave urge die never high,1 +sad years therapy worked im interfering parents success happiness even first place,1 +said deanna durbin invented teenagery first film one best humorous story presented delightful year old deanna little beauty gorgeous voice miss fixit family split divorce plot summary see imdb entries quickly deanna two older sisters plan go america switzerland prevent father remarrying excellent supporting cast especially barbara read nan grey sisters good direction editing film succeeds captivating one even subsequent viewings deannas three songs il bacio classical repertoire sings police station scene films place history assured least viewer age smitten life deanna classical music one many nice touches occur throughout three smart girls brief glimpse drunk stretching neck final glimpse deanna cops hustle by one unfortunate result success film subsequent writers durbin vehicles became locked miss fixit theme quickly became stale deanna never did stature actress questionable charisma certainly had seems that like many another film personality substituted naturalness histrionic ability lacked ploy worked well feature films,0 + hrs gothe thing stopped me need make change beneficiarys ira currently set someone longer life make changes tomorrow include brother sister reap little offer cherish love you,1 +im stressed want kill front customersi hate working holidays retail much makes want scream hate customers hate dealing them hate entitled snobby attitudes have hate right end getting table clothes clean clueless asstart decides mess again hate customers either cannot read receipts return date imply im idiot cant job way like it store messy right want gut open one box cutters feel stressed feel like may puke pass second barely time mentally emotionally recharge goddamn job grateful coworkers nice hate dealing customers hate forced put fucking extroverted attitude please goddamn customers literally almost snapped one yesterday rude told return policy tried return something bought year ago dont know much take point given chance guts id kill front goddamn customers push breaking point whether directly rude mess something cleaned up want cry guess crying professional end breaking front coworkers want tell boss feel mentally emotionally well would possibly mean either going hospital told nutshell suck up ive working much havent time eat much need to wouldnt surprised end losing weight goddamn holidays point wouldve been screw fucking money health important no want able afford rent bills throw goddamn sanity shitter fake it end working much fucking possible push much end breaking dont know much take anymore,1 +idk man school bro im thinking dropping school construction idk theres something construction like probably physical challenge strong durable,0 +reddit glitching anyone else nothings seems operating right,0 +whats inconvenience thats bad really annoy you first thing think browser computer automatically switches yahoo manually change,0 +motivate online schoolwork like zero motivation anything want hear people stay motivated procrastinate,0 +challenge ubensova said its hard get karma rbeta lets drop zero,0 +hate feeling get im better now yo here might get deleted never posted sub want share hope help least one person talking friend aware suicidal thoughts told felt jealous another friend gets along really well girl like got slightly heated phone battery giving trouble phone shut mid conversation since stopped answering got incredibly worried thought taken life snowballed everyone friend group able charge phone told everyone perfectly fine damage done everyone still scared commited redflag always thought people group hated found annoying next day school crying incredibly worried keep mind one knew suicidal thoughts made realize wrong was im happy say im longer suicidal title says feel horrible knowing way ive gotten rid suicial thoughts friends think im dead right wait happens you stop now so please think one cares you wrong kill yourself,1 +need advice open uphow hell supposed tell family suicidal thoughts get help im young need financial support therapy cant imagine telling problems especially since would seem like little bitch complaining shit since hard life all also things would probably never knew felt way would feel awkward hell knowing this feel like even therapist would tell stop pussy open up need advice,1 +really need advice guys serious id really appreciate helpful advice im mobile sorry formatting spelling etc im really tricky situation guess im m pretty abusive family parents get fight constantly often pretty nasty shouting calling names insulting etc going therapy year got worse decided wasnt thing psychiatrist told parents put psychiatry children teenagers didnt research forced go wich ended helpful made feel uncomfortable one point physical abuse dad beat also beat once stopped mainly verbal abuse insulting dad constantly talking failure even fighting laughing me got fight morning threatening take away phone laptop really need school unless come stupid written agreement act family genuinely dont know go life everything except family life great im really well school bunch friends bunch hobbies etc please tell could do,0 +living livingits easy one breath take one dab sweat one look outside window one step take better keep living now theres much explore many things ive just never seen before maybe wash while,1 +came bisexual girlfriend went better expected okay obligatory happened months ago late february secondly struggle anxiety depression self esteem issues regular realised bi sat wall crabbing older sister talking sex relationships quite open relationship wasnt awkward topic discuss clicked mind god knows long bi way around it july last year ended coming one closest friends thought telling girlfriend petrified me knew id point sooner rather later would best got really worked it worked ended string nightmares across week time period girlfriend leaving me nearly every night would wake crying shaking fear anxiety thought losing sexuality acting advice best friend others slowly started drop hints girlfriend course next probably months would hint it still getting occasional nightmare break better progress towards ultimately coming out part th birthday sister bought us cage elephant tickets late february favourite band never proper concert before went absolutely amazing night even anxiety cause little mishap one point okay onto juicy bit guess met girlfriend saturday following concert usual cuddle chat bed watched bit netflix asked concert explained fantastic amazing wish couldve much energy passion audience asked warm acts they good managed tell thought one guys cute couldve probably wouldve sex given chance looked little concerned anxious sent waves oh ive messed up nightmares gonna come true kissed said better philip schofield smile giggle i well brink tears point cuddled rest day picking hints time im guessing figured wanted tell scared love girl much means world im glad shes supportive me wouldnt person today without her yea thats came girlfriend of years fact right rd anniversary like week before,0 +sorry probably little long so broke boyfriend year early last month been rough half time even know broke up people ask it get confused say feel like even i know thought breakup mutual,0 + sucki loss right go help never one therapy ive tried always end quitting also im pretty sure thats option right everything shut down tried sign online counseling today month insane need get feelings somewhere feel like burden going family friends experienced anxiety long remember even child depression along probably started medication since then years old nurse even pandemic struggled days job often work hours days week hard spend day caring people yet energy seems get used trying get day day routine come home pm shower eat work am another hours always exhausted even dont feel super depressed exhausted turn makes depressed feel like dont enough energy get day day tasks turn revs anxietyits vicious cycle top boyfriend years broke days ago ive quarantined home possible covid loved much still do strained many family relationships also lost friendships time several reasons went drinks friends really anywhere matter always issue always ended phone whole time messaging knew wasnt talking guys etc always ended fight ended starting ditch plans friends last minute go friends family members all life consisted going work home times week polyamarouswhich relationship open end another partner kids another child outside relationship allowed around children partner really completly ok polyamarous daughters mother didnt want cause issues basically big clusterfuck would get one child every weekend weekend work wouldve absolutely loved spent time daughter allowed felt like went anywhere always punished fight argument accusation cheating know toxic unhealthy relationship self esteem took major toll time probably never greatest begin really made much worse repeatedly told one else would ever want me fuck me nothing that ive started believe it ive delete guys social media even coworkers knew amount friends facebook times made new friend would get accusations cheating needed attention guys give enough visible snapchats map times wasnt accused cheating him remember phone died grocery store panic attack knew wouldnt show map phone going come that sickening feeling reading im typing knowing close friend family member hell anybody would tell run far far away clearly abusive relationship would fight would make would sweetest person say sweetest things treat like person ever existed even aside emotional abuse understood level cant really explain dont know ill ever experience again top suffering anxiety depression dealing aftermath sucks suicidal thoughts constantly week even wrote letter family dont think really want die dont want feel way anymore hate feeling control emotions hate struggle much make day day life know get better also know get bad again know nothing good time wish could find happy medium also dont think know happy outside relationship happy myself im looking answers maybe someone insight advice wants talk etc,1 +anyone talk torecently ive feeling like absolute crap ive attempted times past year ed flaired violently ever ive q constant state depression past month half currently high school amp taking full ap gives something lounge around day either way im incredibly lonely friends wondering could talk anyone life lot,1 +end era released states spring the rookie disney live action film seemed best last took place right texas actually story began west texas evidenced area code found sign there high school coach convinced high class baseball team decided go professionalbr br what liked movie sooo nice good sports movie ala the mighty ducks trilogy also taken moviegoers across texas somewhere panhandle el paso way metroplex where live tell recognize ballpark was the ballpark arlington ameriquest field nice see disneys golden age end areabr br ripbr br golden age disneybr br sspring br br it started mouseand ended baseball sobsbr br ,0 +whats guys least favorite burger topping personally last thing id want burger somebodys foot fungus,0 +hi im high home hippie homie double yippie kai yay girlfriend blowing,0 +whats weirdest thing religion atheist give cool science fact youre agnostic idk tell something cool,0 +ever past point redflagthis feel right now nothing mood swings depression actually feel good mentally far clarity goes im finding im surviving world im poor dad alzheimers best friend passed away im deeply debt paying education feel like theres anything left world cant escape downward spiral painful ive felt depression physically hurts ive stopped listening others feeling true failure ive tried telling others were thing together help one another response get supposed do people know help one another get it theres hope there were us make us despite sacrifice effort never give attitudes quit either know realistic im going motions feel like im world thats worse could possibly come death hurts know that also relieving im suicidal im dead inside trying pass time fortunate end least got live short time existence im cherishing memories reason person feelings would end little alone cant anyone im past point redflag easier say fuck sit withering away staring wall im far gone im rambling reason dead mid s still breathing,1 +else problems discord cant really log discord itll say connecting amp itll last ever updated discord many times amp really working now,0 +mom baited dad talk her lied cops hes facing jailtime mom restraining order dad completely unwarranted entire story wont dive into lives grandparents said pay bills lied kicking door threatening never happened warrant arrest losing job hes run currently im scared fuck mom go hell bitch,0 +yall really need stop sneaking girls dms like bro stop it stop ok really think gonna gf sneaking dms saying something like hey no course wont literally harassing online without even knowing it poor girl probably wanted post pic subreddit random thirsty dude sneaked dms made uncomfortable hell look know want girlfriend and theres nothing wrong that way ok proper relationships take time patience order successful,0 +love yall swear god talk like bots like gonna initiate conversation stranger least prepared lead conversation towards something interesting instead hoping ill different answer so wyd ask th time,0 +hungry want diei eaten meal two half months ive throat issue anxious eat normal food today feel weak like im going vomit depression already heavy relief im starving anxious always energy want kill everyday ,1 +coworkers talking im snob im right next work want diei know anxiety depression probably ptsd maybe aspergers i fucking idea cant function im normal im uncomfortable around cant genuine unable open vulnerable make connection anyone cant communicate im anxious depressed ive trying sooooooo fucking hard past two years im ready give up im crying car lunch want go walk intersection end everything things make happy partner cats get spend hour two day whats point,1 +stuck hotel kuwait happily switched channel showing beginning first pachelbels canon brought lump throat sight tiger moth which grandfather father flown produced slight dampness around eyes crowes name hooked completely entranced film crowes performance again subject matter and yes debt owe various matters addressed dealt with flying sequences my father flew avro ansons too story and another contributor pointed out crowes recitation high flight spoil film anyone but separated wife odd miles exarmy officer deployed couple wars private pilot admit crying heartily couple times buy it rent it download it beg borrow steal watch itbr br ps spy bristol blenheim in yellow training colourson ground looked like twinengine aircraft twin brownings dorsal turret,0 +really liked guy super funny easy talk to seemed really trustworthy me told keeping eye since saw pedo talking lot hanging around lot told two girls around age worked me time girls quit couple months jobs even though well seemed happy much liked positions told girls complained times pedo grown attached made feel uncomfortable didnt know boss,1 +someone talk toi really need someone talk to im nearing breaking point afraid of,1 +stuck years way get out unhappy unhappy continue unhappy rest life cannot claw way one even knows here trapped bottom dark well,1 +got point constantly try escape reality nothing ever helpsi always find square onealways feel claustrophobic feeling escape truly happy ever againi always thought death last optionbut feel like many options lefti know long keep going hate here,1 +want die gta v mission taking forever want leave without rude,0 +know right place thisback story born renal disorder required kidney transplant nine must take extremely expensive cocktail medication daily prevent rejection probably say im living parents attending community college jobless feel clueless great piece info advice everybody got highschool missed on everyone know plan lives idea want im going study computer science appease father kind hate it understand ifwhen graduate college im going need job health benefits help pay meds cant find anything enjoy studying kid wanted soldier like granddad two brothers plan had cant soldier one functioning kidney im aimless ive playing idea taking meds left road trip get car get hell hole go somewhere different see something beautiful expire,1 +cannot compare amount pain experience everybody faces hardships struggles make day day different views opinions people hated likely misunderstood light jesus go seek help feeling comfort love minimum mutual understanding other grew believe realize lie people try make competition matter values uphold pure heart is people want see destruction observe like movie snack popcorn even nickel pocket worth second thought even five dollars pocket people craft new mask put face order get close reach back pocket take little insert knife back everybody something wrong going life rather much good life understand true human emotions work go stomp heart shove riches mental stability face make grovel pain live thinner spiders web people fight show right everything revolve around mindset make us mindless symbiotes bent manipulated will politicians bending truth blinding us truth longer see pile garbage piled onto world presidents rulers make decisions affect millions make big shot calls could devastate many religion one thing history lead conflict disputes origins life awaits us die cannot comprehend everything world let alone everexpanding universe create truth simply make us feel better death blot fear unknown people absolutely disgusting violent manipulative creatures think superior find necessary better destruction torture others that raise middle finger hope day comes complete extinction human race comes upon us hearts made glass minds clay,1 +redflag pain need controlim control freak plain simple cant control it least good idea outcome cant handle it hate surprises blah blah blah great mental turmoil past years reason killing self mentally ill day passes by risk controlling way leave earth rises cant deal that hate wondering painful whats going happen when how myself escaping mental pain plus,1 +bill curious george pretty racist always called george a monkey city kid o_o,0 +outer worlds great matchmaked two lesbian engineers,0 +hey rocoon listened spirit phone th time week okay me do remember michael jackson michael jackson really happened,0 +gotta straightup seen film solid dog bite dog quite while im big fan oldschool late s mid s era catiii films hearing style films making bit comeback films this herman yaus gong tau which writing yet seen interested give newerwave catiii films shot film live expectations absolutely quite fashion imaginedbr br the story follows young animalistic resourceful virtually unstoppable thai hitman somewhat vague history comes hong kong complete mission due badluck quickly identified roguish copy who exudes many qualities hitman quickly apprehended captured state affairs last long though unnamed assassin escapes captors quickly shows local police taken lightly hunt on catandmouse game police mad dog as police refer him ensues along way mad dog inadvertently befriended slowwitted young woman bond forms two helps sticky situation ante keeps getting upped mad dogs objective get hong kong back thailand means necessary cops keep trying reel alivebr br i could probably write ten paragraphs complex thoroughly layered film want give much away watched dog bite dog knowing nothing premise think type film definitely better appreciated way comparisons olderstyle catiii filmsthere similarities dog bite dog hyperviolent moments reminiscent good ol days never quite sleazy grimy oldschool classicks like untold story red kill many older catiii films main intention shock dog bite dog far thoughtout wellrounded production though thats take anything away catiii films hold dear film far emotional exploitative learn characters backgrounds audience begins bond identify sides really clearcut good bad guys mad dog shows moments extreme compassion cops stoop extremely unorthodox methods try flesh killer theres also nuditysex film typical characteristic older catiii films personally would compare dog bite dog parks sympathy mr vengeance perhaps pang brothers bangkok dangerous films mixed extremely emotional overtones strong unflinching action violence theres pretty much nothing like film acting deadon cinematography sharp well done whole film skillfully blends several different elements successfully way seen often film and others like it rebirth catiii film exactly solid film thats absolutely worth checking out,0 +want end alli cant take suffering anymore cant take sleepless nights constant brain fog irritated feeling fucking hopeless despite best efforts years dont see point staying alive two reasons im still cat fact im afraid kill yet dont give shit anything anymore ive ruined life years ago tried time time something failed miserably friends nobody talk to even mood get better day week always fucking thing right back suicidal thoughts upon waking up cant sleep multiple time day motivation energy hope nothing fucking interest anymore im numb everything way years keeping suffering would worth cant stand ,1 +orange man bad orange man bad ok hand karma,0 +struggling years depression suicidal thoughts always thought keeping work best thing i would sleeping entire day working no big mistakeit th week sick leave mess feeling day day cannot imagine difference feel connected myself even smiling feel useful again even shit entire day needed sleep take nap waking up needed think annoying coworkers needed go bike ride pm wednesday needed days front tv eating crap watching stupid shows nothing neededpeople go work every day feeling like shit crying work hours talk whoever supports discuss taking time off responsible it take advantage it office job course makes easier boss read much bottom sub wanted give bit light better timesi sure feel like forever always ups downs mental health learned important lessons myself everything help get depressive episode future welcome burn depression,1 +story time frightening moment life ok going sound ridiculous came farm goat visiting dads farm getting back car go home dad said bringing goat along sit next me next thing know sitting next goat back seat parents car terrible goat screaming kicking around scared life dad kept insisting safe certainly didnt feel safe all point crying like crazy screaming let front seat eventually mom convinced dad let go away goat still traumatizing slaughter goat now brb write another post traumatized time slaughter,0 +fun fact yall play video sex backwards still looks like sex also epstein didnt kill,0 +st birthday today birthdays keep getting depressing every yearthe title says basically havent birthday remember anyone actually celebrated me pretty much always resulted wishing day outlive parents finally without killing too th birthday took bunch edibles turned brain off one similar im fucked product messy divorce parents drained million fitting lawyers fighting sister i yearsolder sister took anger me moms love extremely conditional left fucked sexual romantic desires made insecure inept socialization im strong submissive really desire finding someone also that pickings extremely slim ive usually ended sociopathic women eventually kill me dont know relationship equal terms someone much less play leading role basically condemnation eventually marry someone destroy me either live alone nothing fucked thoughts weed made somewhat decent friends high school least could pretend friends pretty much moved lives ive gotten isolated socially went college west coast freshman year sophomore year transferred better east coast school really dont quality friends all anytime try say wrong thing feel awkward simply get ghosted guy friends smoke play xbox together sorry long ramble im rough night,1 +excellent film no mel gibson braveheart then trying be actually the emperor assassin probably thankfully common shakespearean production hollywood blockbusterbr br in third century bc king qin attempting unite in words conquer seven kingdoms china already overthrown kingdom han needs excuse invade kingdom yanbr br this lady zhao comes in king friends since childhood obviously much love cannot marry political reasons together devise plot pretend fallen disfavor king escape yan convince prince yan send assassin back kill king assassination fails king excuse invade yanbr br once yan however lady zhao begins reconsider hearing seeing examples old childhood friends ruthlessness begins wonder king may need assassinated realbr br one sure sign watching hollywood production final encounter king assassin unlike hollywood movie hero villain clearly defined final outcome already predetermined fight could truly go either waybr br this well crafted well acted story tumultuous time chinese history mixture incredible beauty incredible ugliness beautiful all however gong li lady zhao grow convinced every time see gong li beautiful woman worldbr br i must say however one unintentionally funny line film early gong li asks one servants do beautiful facebr br duh,0 +find amusingthat people real life never know im self destructive im going something that people ive met online close friends theyre always worried somehow know even dont want worry want left alone implode myself weird me,1 +im girl nipple piercings attentive no unattractive attractive really want know ur guys opinion even u bilesbian girls lol,0 +looped belt around ceiling fani dont know whats stopping me taking sign stay alive wrote note guess wont need it please tell gets better,1 +idk past months thoughts major downward spiral everyday waking making day struggle me keeping secret everyone recently since want end psych ward again honestly know rate thoughts unbearably strong lately,1 +telling joke everyday get girlfriend day entire life need words make long enough filler filler filler filler filler filler hows day,0 +movie brilliant concept original cleverly written high appeal us really conformist movie pickers get wrong great movies wide appeal move watching movie based everyone else watching it know either tween really opinion lovely subtle humor despite people probably looking obvious actors portrayed characters aplomb thought lot personal personality film appeal kids well adults esp nice find good movie thats filled sexual references drug innuendos great film overlooked based public consumption one must buy,0 +ive decided end lifeim yo im struggling gambling addiction ive involved since stop gambling continue think worst moment lost age cant stand anymore couldnt face please pray best would guarding guys another world love guys sorry disturb u dont know dont friends talk about,1 +hey guys car think get dads golf r powerful newest the fastest awd pontiac fiero gt swapped engine put little power late s early s mustang camaro theyre really cool cars different reasons also parents or least dad onboard options,0 +done life like anything goals interests hobbies noticeable cause this ongoing years therapy help tried everything could think fix those asked advice least people one else help me go job like cant think single thing id actually want do friends girlfriend emotionally quite sensitive coupled people treating like exist using me losing interest short while great potential im fairly intelligent anything mindthinking based easily pick want to think worse way im wasting theres nothing want do id much rather stupid useless potentially greatly useful honesty think theres single upside life im considering living it need rope something sustain weight easy selfish solution again anyone reads this theyll probably think im emo something really matter difficult understand unless spent straight years caring people come across hoping one return favour person wants know you wants make sure feel happy mind you eventually gave caring people it knowing people are seeing cold eyes probably eyes,1 +want end sooni want write note want disappear never found declared legally dead while method possible place depends pushes edge going tonight worry respond right away im sleepy,1 +would much easier slip awaythese last months absolute hardest months life went really hard breakup partner cheated me together almost years getting ready propose aunt killed im left imprint left me mom diagnosed cancer lost many friends breakup feel emotionally exhausted im left dealing trauma sexual assault prevents sleeping night im college feel mounting pressure well classes as really gpa cant really tell anyone everything theres way could trust anyone ever again feel ashamed im gonna lie days great fun even glimpses happiness underneath theres base desire end know underneath theres point continuing friends really know people know cant really help me truly think anyone help anymore im far gone think could ever truly happy again know highest high cant compare lows even bother continuing family devastated friends may feel pain short period time end day fucking hate feeling fucking hate cant wait slip away live anymore would much easier keeping going knowing know day now,1 +anyone else shit hair im dude long hairits like inches long basically touches shoulders throw one side thats itits messy hell dont really mind im wondering im one,0 + female therapist says pocd pedophile ocd know pedophile confused drained would really rather die attracted kids people would agree pedos die thinking ended one would care gaf pedophiles really would everyone favor hung year old cousin yesterday everything normal felt attraction towards actually lot fun playing legos left intrusive thought want end again turns actually attracted kids think would physically able live myself guys think also people always tell god help god helping wondering turn god save me want help want normal tired drained,1 +bad moviebr br of course expecting movie called beach babes beyondbr br it babes bikini movie pretensions otherwise given a room view schindlers list wanted film like a room view would looking beach babes beyond looking good babes bikini movie almost plot one you flick delivers promises some pure adolescent funbr br there lots babes bikinis movie quite funny great watch beautiful women ever seen home videobr br every high school kid watch least one bad movie like this actually one memorable movies ever seen unashamedly say againif going watch one babes bikini movie it,0 +biden done america wrote whole ass essay someones comments thought id make post anyone wondering as preface support though centrist many progressive people backing office hes sort gateway progressive government joe biden th youngest elected senator first joined senate senator became vice president biden helped write several crime laws including federal crime control law enforcement act federal assault weapons ban violence women act to prevent domestic violence also help create national domestic violence hotline still service today since creation helped hundreds thousands individuals stopping domestic abuse biden served chairman international narcotics control caucus introduced reducing americans vulnerability ecstacy law helped stop spread several substances including ecstacy date rape drugs harmful athletic steroids biden wrote kids legislature helped give internet access lowincome families building community centers available computers lowincome neighborhoods vice presidency biden served several committees focusing building new infrastructure stopping gun violence wake sandy hook shooting reducing national debt creating patient protection affordable care act legalizing gay marriage biden also developed violence women act creating white house council women girls white house task force protect students sexual assault tldr biden made lot impactful legislature time senate vp worked hard build americas infrastructure create solid progressive laws,0 +im tiredim tired peoples fake sympathy im tired begging help fall deaf ears im plain tired havent slept week cant sleep im tired told go therapy get meds third time dont work nothing worked thousands dollars money several years time wasted useless coping strategies dont work talking nonexistent feelings dont remember feels like genuine emotions want feel anything im tired numb ive put nothingness long time think im call quits warnings notes me bottle scotch deer slug brain stem,1 +feels like constant battle mind recently ive started losinghey first time posting google sub this ive dealing what assume is diagnosed anything depression years part could push past thoughts even get day week recently graduated uni perhaps lack social interaction bringing lack motivation anything forced careers event long ago touched cv advice got still complete lack motivation im much familiar depressive thoughts getting ive never dealt real suicidal thoughts past ive thought dark times real intent passed normally taking walk dog time friends would clear thoughts too usually longterm recently first time day real suicidal thought intent dog felt defeated since usually helps clear mind yesterday another step happening previously finally managed get house friend although hours leading really wanted cancel fun part way wanted go home again thankfully convinced stay drink turned another hours fun rest yesterday mind clear today im writing here forced bed shower make something upon sitting back bed sat silence wondering imagined scene im top building wanting fall off weird talking mind me different entities i want commit redflag mind making think good idea im constantly reminded mistakes ive made uselessuglystupid etc currently am im scared get worse gets better scene roof want job relationship everything else normal cant find motivation push forward know get it sorry turned bit long,1 +eaten near anything today im proudim proud fucked way want feel lighter want feel head hurt ive bad time recently bad time living today another bad day plain shitty day know do really want anything want put something writing someone see able send hospital psychologist want help moment want survive till im eighteen cam leave shitty life behind,1 +apparently jesus racist dont believe says hes racist,0 +guys guys guys wait scroll past favorite joke here always make smile seagulls fly sea cause flew bay theyd bagels,0 +second two filmed hamlets nineties first franco zeffirellis starring mel gibson zeffirellis version like laurence oliviers based upon abridged version play much shakespeares original text cut i never seen tony richardsons version ran less two hours shorter even zeffirellis presume also abridged kenneth branagh attempting something much ambitious film based complete text play running time around four hoursbr br with henry v branagh claimed oliviers crown cinemas leading shakespearean confirming claim brilliant much ado nothing rare example great film based shakespeare comedy hamlet third shakespeare film director he also acted iago oliver parkers othello and one might expect different much ado earlier film shot villa hills tuscany beautiful surrounding countryside joyous summertime film everything makes life worth livingbr br hamlet contrast set depths winter the flowers description ophelias death suggest shakespeare thought action happening summer look film particularly striking sumptuous chilly filmed blenheim palace possibly englands grandiose stately home also rather forbidding one snowy exterior scenes cold wintry interior ones formal elaborate action updated mid nineteenth century female characters wear elaborate fashions era principal male ones mostly wear splendid military uniforms there contrast zeffirellis film interiors costumes deliberately subdued tone play dominated images corruption decay branaghs intention may contrast splendid surface underlying something rotten state denmarkbr br the film notable large number bigname actors minor roles blink might miss john gieldgud judi dench apparently allstar cast required production company nervous fourhour film imported hollywood stars robin williams osric really come off others like charlton hestons player king billy crystals first gravedigger played parts well yorick normally seen skull seen flashback played british comedian ken dodd brian blessed often plays jovial characters cast type ghost makes scenes appears genuinely frighteningbr br of major characters perhaps weakest kate winslets ophelia branaghs leading lady first two shakespeare films wife emma thompson marriage ended divorce did however find wishing thompson cast role although winslet came ophelias mad scenes seemed weak earlier ones character still sane i preferred helena bonham carter zeffirellis version richard briers plays polonius greater dignity often given wise experienced counsellor rather prating old fool julie christie also brings dignity role gertrude attempt here gibson glenn close zeffirelli version suggest incestuous attachment hamlet an interpretation owes freud shakespeare age difference christie branagh great enough credible mother son certainly case close gibson oliviers gertrude eileen herlie was bizarrely thirteen years younger himbr br branagh stated intention restoring scenes often cut cinematic versions reinforce idea play national well domestic tragedy much stress placed upon war norway norwegian prince fortinbras subplot ignored altogether zeffirelli emphasis national tragedy perhaps best shown character claudius sometimes played onedimensional villain something derek jacobis performance suggests claudius could good man different circumstances allowed led astray ambition lust could good loyal servant brother chose rule bad king although tormented guilt see way make amends evil donebr br branagh wonderfully fluent speaker shakespeares verse superb main role like gibson little time old concept hamlet indecisive passive melancholy active physical energetic hamlet something best shown fatal duel laertes guiding principle worldweary despair active disgust evil corruptionbr br it gamble branagh make fourhour epic film well box office was however praised many critics james berardinelli particularly enthusiastic opinion that whatever financial returns may been branaghs gamble paid artistic terms concentrating full text able bring full meaning full emotional power shakespeares complex play reviewed much ado said greatest ever film shakespeare comedy hamlet may greatest ever film shakespeare tragedy ,0 +guys need som help need come superhero school give names please,0 +maybe time goim tired feeling alone,1 +im tempted kill selfi keep telling everyone think might depressed keep telling head normal feel shitty every day cant bare it every time im depressed recover week comes back cant fucking take anymore everyone else live like this,1 +im bad intimate text lmao u make pp feel funny lmfao left read,0 +feel need see people rteenagers time theyre worthless something like it want help hot discord go friend name comments comments one vent to little text put beneath name iv made vent bot friend vent talk trash day etc best check daily key try best please let help you,0 +killing christmasthis shit pointless,1 +think killed im waiting one three things happen something makes care life again alcohol shuts organs feel brave enough buy gunas title says im waiting one three outcomes way ive able justify im even still able end now ive hesitation im waiting long bear see something make care life again time running short part feel it ill address thing im waiting something makes care life im antidepressants im seeing therapist psychiatrist called redflag hotline nights hard time getting through ive told close friends condition including suicidal thoughts theyre aware serious concerned as much problems single mother stressful job moving starting new life getting married etc ive reached much far know im just waiting something click something make emotionless robot like to feel alive alcohol shuts organs depression alcohols best friend obviously ive indulged continue drink heavily see point stopping alcohol wakes gives energy things like laundry dishes night otherwise stare wall sober brick fantasize redflag chores need willpower do numbs pain selfmedication quickly stops feeling lethargic useful tool get night course severely toxic destroying body quickly depression makes care currently feel brave enough buy gun im picky choice redflag method im allergic pain knives out im afraid overdosing pills case wrong end coma something understand chemistry im afraid jumping roof since might land wrong survive pretty much gun option one might expect point know much buying guns part want learn last shred survival instinct thats keeping alive want wander road live america im risk usual decide go store try yeah waiting periods background checks im confident id fail those basically im waiting im living whats left life going work obligation paying bills im really robot robot desire shut down must wait command master master conflicted stay way forever im sure im looking post just stating feel,1 +pokmon domesticating wild animals forcing pseudo dog fighting sport super powered animals prove wrong,0 +still think day school like winter break coming girl talking teachers like drinking milk classroom wasnt trouble playing around teachers got class supposed saw switching classes standing doorway fucking pretty couldnt stop staring her dont know name shes kinda popular hung around popular kids caught staring staring other realized still couldnt stop staring enter classes broke eye contact moved on hope go back school see again also hope remember moment,0 +type diabetic stress another aca repeal much handlenot trying bring politics this reality situation trump administration reversed stance aca affordable care act protection telling court preexisting conditions clause the heart bill unconstitutional last year gop tried kill aca beside stress months someone chronic illness already went bankruptcy back aca due medical bills aca literally saved life allowed start small business support myself im years old managing disease thanks ability able afford insulin medications without aca would lose everything again cantlive stress looming safetynet ripped again optimists say congress let happen obviously saying unconstitutional reason hope more god sometimes wish born canada europe healthcare fucking political trading card bad person sick bad citizen deserve die fucking hands chump cheap fucking suit value life cant take anymore,1 +guess clich alreadyhello actually really know start this guess introducing myself im girl years old college student informatics major pretty much life right now guess clich say find place world think ever will hurts hurts damn much think anything choose not you went sports got called talented medals international titles it never felt like place there never felt like belonged there grew up like another clich bullied skinny result hated myself still do could never look mirror say you look pretty today felt like mirror hated much hated myself bullying happened school came home mother told ever wanted friends boyfriend skinny even fat then healthy weight thought high school would change everything would like movies suddenly get ton friends become pretty life gets better life got worse time also knee injury give sport got fatter fatter made keep going started vocal lessons i know think clichic misunderstood artist ill honest natural born talent even it always afraid people even sing way thought could block myself lessons felt like world right time belonged somewhere purpose even though one stood concerts told good voice special charm swear god day words best compliment ive ever received give music senior year high school final exams coming i think called sats usa since then told pick path life major college beyonce mariah carey subtly brought option family immediately dismissed it now major informatics ill honest hate math always did since thing loved reach chose would bring biggest amount money today failed first exam came crushing me never meant this think future looks like see nothing consider ending because lets real life one live die afraid thought waking mid s hating life job everything surrounds me live like that bothered read till end thank you honestly felt say it would overdosed first pills could get hands on even now know myself feel helpless angry myself angry everyone everything feel pain wanted reach out maybe theres way time too ive dealing depression long time never got guts act dark thoughts scared becoming braver lately scared myself feel like breathing peoples oxygen stop wasting it clichic right another depressed teen feels like belong feel bad even trying reach out deserve saved,1 +lost imagei think saw browsing imgur years ago or longer think tumblr post spoke wanted commit redflag go something meaningful dangerous places like volunteering war torn places go things afraid do like sky diving worst could happen die best discover reason live found helpful even though cant remember well anymore someone saved better google search could post it maybe someone else find helpful know cant help everyone maybe help one person,1 +really fucked dont usually fuck bad im fucking worried best friend calling made group chat told add people added two best friends school could check actually added best friend lou already added whole school started sending weird shit saw videos grossed out one man getting head chopped bunch porn videos went look group realise instead adding two people accidentally added people remove everyone got distracted gross videos left forgot remove friends luckily lou apologised friends accidentally added along people mean add two replied apology one weirded annoyed one cool it thought kinda weird yet funny rest left read havent read messages yet im fucking worried friends hate think im weird accidentally added group chat suddenly got super weird gross really fast took long many good friends im afraid ill lose closest friends stupid mistakes im super anxious always worry secretly hate im sure do really sorry sounds like mess needed say maybe get help say next something,0 +diagnosed redflag assaulted honest ive never really felt like it usually push things deeply feel many repercussions ive aside lot shame last months though someone whos harassing since resurfaced sending hundreds texts calling saying things varying youre going marry kids live together forever youre whore disgusting person want insert threat you makes fake accounts tries add adds friends accusing taking him,1 +decided finally talk someone getting helpthanks encouragement redditor commented first post talked one best friends cutting suicidal thoughtsand attempts also talked mother going on toughopening like that im glad it ive decided go kind counseling first step sometime week im nervous talking shrink want get better want depressed wish luck,1 +aware theme kusturica continues explore intermittently filmsthe western assault traditional serbian valuesit impossible understand narratives continuous theme expressed fantasy outrageous comedy vehicle one kusturica elected mandate since fantastic work magnum opus underground kusturicas films black cat white cat life miracle recently promise this slapstick carnivalistic style underscores westernization balkan culture ambivalent arrival assault traditional idiom case promise this paradoxical world city urban space village traditional idiom space contrasted world city reflects western attributes ensconced spatial temporal setting organized crime sexual exploitation ruptured sense identity vehement disregard traditional valuesas expressed toward young kidvillager end film exemplifies notion observe funeral mass wedding oneway dirt road collision coarse appropriately wedding represents lifeline pulse village ie traditional values collide funeral mourners exemplifying death tradition within context yet kusturica brilliantly examines theme unique stylistic singularity outrageous flamboyant style serving vehicle portrayal,0 +guni bullets know shot without gun leave advice,1 +ever see pics old friendscrushs get sad cause really nice made happy attractive abandoned you also lied stopped talking saw rant posted woo,0 +story almost killed myselfokay really long im sorry that considering redflag please please please favor read this might help all might make difference world tldr version tried commit redflag with pills stopped taking several ended worst darkest experience life regretted stopping since happened life still great know redflag answer story bit background me labeled loner wrong so kid quiet everyone asked why led believe somehow broken social were selfesteem nearly nonexistent teenager thought ugly friends used convenience struggled sexuality lot guilt laid religious environment grew up social anxiety grew worse began withdraw cave bedroom isolated friends family alike job going college rarely attended church around people made uncomfortable angry that social friendly then couple months ago started listening rotten voice head told worthless said life meaningless reason live told everyone would better without bother staying one really cared right pretend to love to believed it slid hill faster faster nearing bottomless pit despair planning redflag weeks best way method would least painful want create mess want find body horrific manner want mess end screwing body live forever idea appealed sleeping pills gathered much could took several nights laid hundreds pills never gall it then one night much life reached point meant nothing all brought pills laid me started downing two three time got twenty stopped realized what doing panicked seriously going end life last moments earth would spent alone darkened cave hopeless lost miserable pain no want that go it tried throw pills work take long pills hit me cant really remember happened did ended falling asleep vaguely remember horrifying snippets night waking flailing demonic presences attacking or felt like me woke morning could barely walk stumbled bathroom saw still remember sinister looked pupils huge face looked evil worst feeling ive ever had went told parents id tried night called ambulance got hospital recovered quickly family best make much fuss it am still alive glad it life still hard me trials shared im comfortable so survived attempt mean suddenly find life peachy brilliant still days hate still loathe times im still alive still get laugh read good books listen rain still get gorge chocolate pizza sleep listen favorite songs again im still struggling find purpose doubt ill find keep looking believe were miserable found purpose life us feel deeply others results depression becoming suicidal please surrender please hold little longer,1 +choosing course live ireland chose courses could college change later ones chose r architecture accounting finance wondering u guys course suggestions would pay fairly well job future also interesting im physically active im good art thats help pls help out parents want get course would pay well,0 +bullying online school looking advice continue bully online school ive always stuck traditional forms bullying physical violence etc school moved online ive struggled adapt change tried threatening people breakout rooms doesnt effect block mute even close damn eyes im trying go mean jock reasons type vibe suggestions act going forward appreciated,0 +im sick feeling like im nothingim really low point im frustrated ive struggled depression years past months feeling like getting better still bad days even bad weeks periods time felt like wasnt making progress general felt like things getting better now since summer started feel like im back square one back two three years ago feel worthless hopeless im sleeping well eating properly hate everything body personality feel unmotivated indecisive feel like im existing without purpose potential im wasting every day feeling horrible energy anything little bursts excitement things used passionate about theyre shortlived im starting feel like ill never get better cant keep living like this know theres something wrong cant get help parents take mental illnesses seriously think positive attitude would never understand im actually dealing with feel like one cares like life uninteresting meaningless compared everyone elses think redflag every day feel like get with,1 +care people say anymoreits permanent solution temporary problem anything point show tv like it turn off sit keep watching it annoyance problem consumes life unknown length you missed would longer capacity care you experience x anymore deal before every reason im given live cant help find way refute live sheer hope dreams also source torture hard nowadays take advice regarding survival meaningfully hate cynical way see things anymore much life bogus everything do everything reason thought involved effects actions may future course things care directly affect us things would conscience act do matter put it fact life mean bad way give background point almost every option leads nothing good near future knows long run choose one results future one option where done need longer care would capacity care obviously would affect others again would physically incapable caring would zero effect me experience world entirely first person actions would affect conscience care things immediate access well enough prescription meds kill me well alcohol speed process make bit easier every morning day night every day every week every month fight urge go it find coming back time read diefex conflicts further wish could peace yet seeing comments left passed causes instincts feelings continue compel live im bipolar im always suicidal also means deal always getting hopes crashing down again much much much im sick it,1 +ima really miss goodnight texts going without romantic aspect,0 +dubstep gt country wub wub wub wub wub wub wub vs yeehaw trucks trump noises tractor,0 +im losing itfor many years ive low managed stay afloat easy managed it recently though im losing it never felt lonely before ive lost last people talked me worse person completely fell love with fucking amazing guy started months ago ended hurting back then came back hurt again know let people hurt me ive let everyone take shot me maybe theres something wrong me perhaps im bad person know completely exhausted feeling lonely kills like never before ive lost motivation fight try think giving up fall apart im losing it past experiences matter time attempt again,1 +im still alivei went crazy party threw up beautiful women throw sometimes kinda rocks dogs born ago cutest little bears happy crismis lads stick there,1 +comfort someone whensomeone know committed redflag barely knew person acquaintances best im really apathetic person find hard relate people friend need comfort help please help,1 +found mother two kids cheated meso lately ive place life thought things improving so ended place likely get hired ive completing studie goal look forward seem reaching relationship felt stable felt like future really damn good but yesterday acted strange went bathroom was knew look eyes surprise hiding something anythign point thought maybe imagining things today decided quick look mail funny feeling had was mail likely forgotten delete blank contained video clip clip masturbating sent mail looked sent to guy knew about talked before someone claim friend with relatively stable position life suffered depresseion since years back hit like massive boulder kids theyre highlight life idea able stay strong want them idea proceed this attempted redflag past know redflag likely would devestating kids extremely unfair hell one proceed this,1 +strugglingso planned finally killing myself everything ready day placed planned made mistake talking good friend lived several states away made sure tell exactly was thought safe talk to want stop me help mei wanted say goodbye someone actually cared understood he going similar difficulties unfortunately could go plan able reach contact command ended spending days involuntarily admitted lockdown psych unit another weeks therapy complete step locked like animal know friend cared time wish interfered going hell last years exhausted fighting this feel like heart ripped out trying get help themes receiving either want medicate i different meds none really helped caused bad side effects pain misery fault miserable chose miserable currently process losing everything brings meaning life already hate myself could sure use sort encouragement reason keep fighting right want fight more,1 +attempted years thoughts getting worsei started college recently going well far love professors subjects get interested time hold focus class get anxious every day little things get depressed im anxious be im feeling like future worthwhile back attempted redflag yo yo exact thoughts were if life really this want here getting anxious every day putting borderlinenarcissist parents another years want here four years spent high school living parents long painful im looking least another repeat going college parents paying job job experience im one took therapy parents disorders worked alone wanted stay could become doctor college realize much time effort money goes that would rather assistant parents look say salary im looking ptas small wanted day get small rural home acres continue breeding small group animals like ive farm told got bad stay anymore would enlist military happy law enforcement later like field work im worried would letting rest extended family expected doctor like im quitting myself ill end live citysuburb never animals rural life feel trapped hate city suburbs also horse therapy animal years kill leave feel im letting down would get rid animals left im concerned horse love much cant imagine bonding animal closely im attached thing keeps going know much handle know impulses going get strong ill scream public know call quits leave everything behind cut parents enlist im afraid fail college fail military feel guilty either way keeps popping head maybe better leave entirely even im actively thinking it thoughts purposefully crashing car jumping top parking garage come up want die,1 +trying tourniquet methodnow got red spots face,1 +put dog literally feel like want diemy dog years old put today tumor size football back leg vet told us would humane put instead keeping alive would pain already extremely sad knowing going put hes gone feel like want run street get killed car jeezus never felt like feel like this,1 +today looked much would cost cremated new goal twitch earnings want family come amount want burden anyone research,1 +cant take anymore im uk call someoneim incredibly lonely see way anymore lot online friends either suicidal cant talk dropping am means kill im considering it know think alone right now promise despite bad im coming across im bad guy im respectful feel uncomfortable hang up give rules guidelines ill follow them,1 +guys find purpose no im depressed teen im interested find meaning gets bed morning go school every day motivates you im kinda interested,0 +friend attempted dies im sure tooi got news even hour ago dont know know one thing doesnt make alive know wont either fault,1 +often joke around people supposed care even people spend lot time work colleagues always make comments want say light hearted way joking not mean every time sometimes actually damages loved ones complain say things like i hate say things like annoying really give motivation stick around hope for attention wondered anyone else got reactions explain,1 +passed drivers test today thats nothing else passed,0 +alright im simply curious part body no groins boobs find attractive ampxb i need specify cause yall horny hell,0 +friend recently opened suicidal thoughtsi come back weekend away ireland two close friends final night bit heavy session leave pub early hours morning drinking local lads towards end night friend said cousin from near area staying recently committed redflag drunk opened conversation us battles mental health walking home told mate depth struggled past able go counselor really helped knew friend also troubles past basically said never really understood alive waiting parents could kill knowing would never know said questions life meaning virtually every waking hour really worries seems rationalised plan redflag already idea suffering bad said go counselor as did think point memory incident pretty hazy drunk anytime ever come conversation us drunk bad know recall even asked think pain would cause people around killed himself said made feel even guilty already aware pain would cause still willing it speak sober advise councelling again also know brother well think would good idea make aware this anyone advise anyone else faced situation like close friend thanks,1 +peepee poopoooh yeah death time,1 +film made think judy peak looks wise previous film gal people often say looks emaciated well film looks perfect beautiful shows flair comedybr br i think film hilarious especially beginning trying arrange audition john thornway one funniest scenes opinion judys rendition lady macbeth john looking party give spanking lolbr br one criticism hole plot john lily fall love mean one minute despises next going date next time meet date lovebr br another point like opening night lily would furious john isntit make sensebr br but would give film wonderful almost perfect,0 +want someone talk toim suicidal extremely lonely pm willing talk drunk phone bill nb canada,1 +ive killed head least ten times todayim tired energy move forward anymore care life kind go everyday motions without drive im shy overly self conscience ive developed social anxiety years im afraid everything panic time feel like everyone know thinks im joke every time feel like im getting little better feelings come back stronger harder cant get head know explain im feeling even want fear shrugged fact mother friends im done life want put fucking gun head pull trigger im fucking trapped money therapist car work dead end job money gone end week cant fucking take anymore,1 +anyone relate wth wrong meits year lost ability enjoy anything literally every kind fun activity became actually painful cant listen music cant draw cant read cant play video games etc without starting hate getting reminded terrible things happened past emotional reaction always severe must kind ptsdi even know hell im dbt eat healthy exercise take care responsibilities things obviously help life still unbearably painful start therapy september idk survive then told family friends one seems care much treat tiny bit better im guessing even understand im going through depression anxiety pretty much whole life even difficult accept everyone thought lazy weird thing im going much worse cant express words quality lifenot single minute could relax torture people keep telling im disciplined hardworking could never im doingbut literally nothing else do could stare wall change most amount fun possibly have sometimes get bored get back something useful instead,1 + must tech must avalibe purchase within next days go please help here cant explain please make anything tech related less thank advance,0 +im weak worldi finished last day junior year feel lost diagnosed depression overcome eating disorder sometimes use problems make excuses hate it ive tried kill twice hospitalized once reason attempted frequently greatest goal life become vet dream school cornell seems laughable grades gone badly know math final might seem like end world some seeing grade broke me junior year important year school wasted wallowing self pity know get rejected never forgive myself im frustrated want achieve goals badly time feel like motivation everything seems meaningless feel mediocre inadequate compared amazing kids grade used think fairly smart act capable everything crumbling around know do spend time ignoring friends care sleeping locked away room exercised month feel disgusting might attempt soon im scared fail parents find bloody messy ill spend whole summer hospital think could go second time sorry post place need get thoughts out,1 + n w google coordinates gtunderwhelming wasnt itlt,0 +im sick tired massive screwuphey reddit im year old man nothing massive failure masters degree one better schools area cant get job field ive underemployed since finished school work speaking jobs ones get cant keep recently lost th job last two years recently forced resign threat boss spoke attorney union rep neither helping me recent example someone power harming me every time get bullied threatened intimidated gets swept rug one ever accountable do always get screwed start over dont someone finally try help me apologize tell situation unheard one else problem experiences that words go far home life isnt much better literally friends none people socialize wife friends wife getting annoyed me great job friends everything going way within last two weeks shes picked overtime shifts job last two nights came home pm last night department christmas party employees only night invited work friends dinner hung them left alone roughly hours two days think want end this im tired friends work support home im hunter weapons think lot now want drive town outskirts put rifle mouth sometimes fantasize it drive former place employment walk lobby eat gun right there want know did im tired everyone getting away hurting like dont exist like dont matter hurt time one im tired failure constantly messing up wanted good person good life cant,1 +tellone babies died arms worst others wrong letting die peacefully home know tamara forgives me always smart ways humans well cats cant believe still miss fifteen years,1 +oh crap rainingi hate rain depresses mood,1 +movie apparently intended young evangelical christian audience teaching tool give point vote decent movie show youth group think well received beyond that audience id rate lots lowerbr br the reviewers saw its wonderful life right on though think mentioned it reminded chick tract little gospel comic books jack chick ever made movie one tracts would probably look lot like second glance strong christian message power prayer influence us earth somewhat hampered christian stereotypes christians nice somewhat passive squeaky clean nonchristians seem bad peoplebr br muriel angel plays major part corniest cheesiest character film unlikeable angel ever seen movie biggest negative know directors intended personality come badly struck way i admit reminded someone know dans love worldly girl type drives plot movie ever fell first place one question wish answeredbr br but movie display notredflag christian values youth group entertained view something wholesome good lesson,0 +mind fucks much dont want kill myself feel nothing allim years old im college student fixing go junior year tamu anyways dont see point living life whats point getting degree working rest life fucking get old die anyways feel fucking empty literally feel nothing much hate towards called god believe in make fucking sense us suffer man im done actually feel guilty writing page right now good growing up parents gave literally everything guess need support right now please,1 +im failure everyone im unemployedi blame them im contributing sit around fuck all tmd bpd anxiety depression dropped uni almost two years ago since ive benefits live uncle give week gave drugs alcohol started smoking cigarettes ive gained lbs past two years mostly past year since meeting boyfriend im failure family mum says failed knows every time sees me im looking half bottle vodka thinking drinking whole thing im failure,1 +mom seem careive never posted really need tell someone feel problems bad guess im sure right place feels like im going crazy sometimes cant even tell im anxious feel helpless know do lately ive started arguing mom never really listens tell mental health told suicidal thoughts middle argument told kill since want bad ive also tried talking calmly know understand care im sure would ever actually kill myself thought scares bit thoughts death make anxious actually thats usually keeps night get really upset seems go away also talked mom wanting get help tell need look problems tired dealing shit want book appointment go alone hope sound dumb also knows problems holding back anger happens home though throw stuff punch walls hit scratch myself later also started using scissors scratchcut upset really reason it guess pain kinda calms down hope sound edgy anything im really trying be know anymore hate mom nice understand listen me,1 +sit broken hearted tried shit farted,0 +someone tell whyi wanna know people nasty try talk wanna die threaten call cops excuse cop coming door help way telling care really dont say shut also cant place someone terminal disease cant anymore cant keep fake old smile face anymore,1 +forgot drink coffee dumb anxious ass fun basically title knew coffee could make people anxious generally anxious person decided bad idea keep drinking coffee well see long time needed extra boost today like not well inability breathe properly,0 +wondering theres games like number game buddy playing got kinda bored like spicy questions weve tried d,0 +sometimes something profound happens life drastic change required complete total system reboot reprogramming story sense akin trying extract blood turnipmany people try convince lesser human are unfortunate truth not nothing like you could never like youi cannot whisk away fantasy reality everything okay cannot lie say change know would take change yet know change would temporary know end exactly am am todayit brings light magnificent humans truly are still cannot even begin grasp things do almost without even skipping beatit amazes people still even try relate thing like try compassionate towards me freak monster deserve it yet people persist awe inspiring trulyto whatever extent may fraction hope remains within hollowed tusk human born as unfortunately words could never fill void even compassionate kind encouraging wordsthe damage done far aware deny overwhelming reality all me cannot blame anyone elsewhy would take pain put world simply present people feel it become aware threat am always compared neon sign forehead extent suppose gratefulat least people saw really made right decision avoiding me realityi tried play role world matter what never fit reality cold towards ever shown consistent basis sure every someone tries show sense connection often results us getting hurt leaving hurt feelings regretthat deal me know causes it there try best circumvent issue understanding kind compassionate even enough really outweigh impact others still true like bad omen sorts bring bad luck come near methat reality reality want push anyone anymore used desire connection love belonging life always plans mei outlier ever watchful eye sees beautiful treasures humanity never find way vault never find place amongst precious commodity space me realitybut still admire beautiful humans truly are even monster monster grew heart,1 +need help something somebody send picture danny devito stretched aspect ratio please school project,0 +man im glad stumbled across place popcorn instead place fuck goes beyond understanding thats ,0 +good communication platform young people european student feel bit lonely current second wave covid good platform communicate people like me preferably without much creeps,0 + male rough dayweekive never contemplated redflag before last minutes ive figured five ways stop time background girlfriend broke last week talking talk friend ive realized entire life instead taking high road good man ive fact ass pushed everyone know away always thought good person helping others like im good job it helpdesk always helpful working best solution client home im selfish complete ass never things others unless im forced to social skills know carry conversation without turning something like me always wondered always start conversations friends turns out im selfish ass mentioned really anyone talk to hose talk to turn things around make me even im like this need help ive pushed everyone away,1 +stupid question unlock windows button keyboard ive locked accidentally really inconvenient lmao,0 +pushups decide to day pushups today finally got streak pushups,0 +ok sosomehow unhealthy junk food excessive alcohol binging endured last almost years killed like congrats guessmy birthday july thi redflag birthdays extremely nervous numerous reasons mostly birthday songs cheesy fuck hope one ever decides torture surprise birthday song will sweat alot anyways mom nice enough surprise ticket san juan never leave house think freaked covid related loneliness isolation suicide jokes love dark humor also know joking like whatever still blink good sign moving first never plane so feel free giving advice pussy heights help sweat alot i sweat alot freaked btw cannot help sorrysecondly hotels pretty damn cheap puerto rico thank hehimtheyreligion thatthe universe that fucking suck comes money even though shit job always niceanyways want try atleast enjoy leaving us first time like fuck expecting surprise trip honestly one ever anything nice seems excessive af lmao but gift birth giver so guess get itanyways like usually always broke shit financially sometimes mentally better way try get extra spending gen z worker first blaming economic inequality baby boomers baby boomers also ask strangers internet money woo judge me please like on secondly again think ever heard someone say thirdly firm believer work money short poem random things see around room last word line anyone decides chip whatever hell ya want honestly head hurts fire alarm going off say short mean little effort shorter expected want burn alive days day birth real firefrom lamp leftto lamp right i love amazon lampsi afraid flyand bulbs lightone lamp ok give credas lay bedthe alarm goes offmy tv loudand holding coughfinok awesome love all drink ton water remember give flying tips lemongrass oil scents help redflag oil diffusers cheap amazon get one stay safe take care ok bye also included pic beyonc edited hahahaha wow love her peace birthday redflag induced suicide thoughts yay,1 +florence vidor stars daughter strict bible toting father throws house gossip taints name big city finds dying wife brother the two secretly married raises child own years later goes back home confront familybr br this old melodrama heavily larded fascinating feminist themes circa sounding remarkably modern laid trowel as father theodore roberts gives eyebrows real workout well put together dramatically lovingly composed shot cinematographer henry sharp,0 +rented domino whim even knowing inspired true story even though least likely true biopic probably see found rather awesomebr br with richard kelly writing crams together mass plots narratives hours pure entertainment seen get appreciate it br br domino model turned bounty hunter leaves perfect hollywood life pursue subtle perfect career edgy acid trip style provided director tony scott fast paced music editing provides visual flare keep attention slick performances unexpected comedy movie well made enjoyable reached wider audience br br i suggest anyone wants think entertained time hours,0 +dont mean political fuck spaghetti,0 +know doits long since ive felt truely happy life im decent things classes sport hobbys never good enough mediocre better average person good enough considered sports team wanted first choice date etc thoughts consume me think anything all mind idles thoughts alone someone wrap arms around such yet cant seem soothe complete thoughts cant sleep without pills even still struggle trying find something turn mind get rid thoughts destryoing enough doze bed im failing classes job lined months semester will want like yet much struggle im tired alone anything deal with im alone cant sleep cant find anyone talk to get consumed thoughts dying ive tried couple counselors school and worked all know else it,1 +comment post ill reply super toxic test me rumored killed ppl insults,0 +played much among us imposter syndrome ampxb ampxb please dont vote,0 +overwhelming feeling lately right feel like longer go broken get feel like missing pieces know describe properly almost feels horrific way put like whole bunch body parts amputated years feel irreversibly disfigured mentally once gradually time like one day might wake look see leg gone hand missing fingers makes feel sick like body horror see feel it never go mutilated get feels like something puts surgical table injects sedative cannot move still see still feel straps takes pieces throws back world figure come terms new disfigurements horrific numb tired scream react like waking nightmare one see mei cannot explain properly trapped feeling silently horrified also tired want lay rest parts allowed rest gone too like eyelids removed shamble onwards feeling like trapped sawinspired gauntlet losing piece piece grotesque traps point even sure want get irreversibly mutilated feel broken beyond repair,1 +may final post anyone want account message me,0 +lost job morningsorry advance lack cohesion streamofconsciousness way writing down fired job customer service morning alltime low stand waiting rude people call sitting front computer hours day depressing terribly past year only working cs year maybe part paranoia felt like treated like lowest position company saas type company employees frankly embarrassed it hated every day although im dumb enough ever quit decently paying job im ostensibly largely inconsistent work due internal struggle year old hated ever keep charade long full disclosure ive suicidal ideation approximately years survived attempt professionals tell increasingly common repeat attempts occur wake attempt spite ive beat odds graduated college landed pretty great job degree screwed ended fired year half league not really unexpected thing postcollege pretty rigid defense mechanism ive past years caught me propensity highly critical around me well myself drop dime feel someone guess could say im pretty emotional little guy internally parents divorcing around years contributed emotional state happened maybe years ago much middle ended what consider be immature dishonest manipulative towards me end all moved state family outside pretty much zero partially fault embarrassment attempt too suffice say christmases throughout high school consisted sometimes one sister whom ran away age current husband also note parents rich growing up could probably say silver spoon mouth life many extravagant vacations young pretty much college ive seen lot beautiful things easy lot life im even willing let go this life going get better mean drone much narcissism ive it ive lot great memories im able smile about ive fortunate enough fall head heels love date girl years college least know ive truly lived ever want make mistake children depressive affinity do last years volatile me think ill able another assuredly fucked often think redflag know that ive survived years feeling way years introspectively daydreaming redflagas easy type fantasy realistic look world brevitymy brevity want advice ive done therapy opens pandoras box tried celexa year two years back turned hypermanic mess thing makes happy music sit piano improvise beautiful compositions cuff catharsis stave loneliness times sometimes ill play hour straight start crying midway much keep inside help though know may seem quite pathetic obvious terms answer guys get out still feel godawful moment better started someone please give words advice,1 +deserve dieive struggling years ive tried everything im destined die dont know am dont know am cannot speak terrified judgement yet am telling world hate severely im outcast therian therians make world cringe get laughed at judged mocked bullied want fit in dont know how sense self dont feel right mind feels wolf like possible stupid pathetic say am life decaying spiral endless darkness see future life ive abused chasm chest pain unbearable mixture psychotic depression ptsd social anxiety torturous one understands laugh cry sleep night cant help hurt crave die im tired told wrong am kill myself pathetic list goes on ive done nothing give world return trying feel free happy get crushed im different world perfect slightest bit different majority get targeted cast out life me cannot fit in never find peace never free pain way death im sorry different im sorry normal im sorry im good enough ill make right wont burden much longer,1 +want help us read friend friend could stand without acting saw infront him person acted true human human go swarm jerks dislikes like reddit made for httpswwwredditcomrpedologiccommentsjgfhxjust_some_things_ive_had_to_deal_withutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 +anyone want talk hate feeling lonely someone wants chat message me anything im male ,0 +jerk sandy spongebob think voice pretty hot,0 +father causing depression me without knowing huh begin love father hard childhood communist country growing hard him finished medical school parents forced him prove himself middle nervous breakdown suffering depression little growing up decided children suffer fate worked hard life make stable living space us now going college fall fully paid him said money problem even tho really expensive never really work money caring everyone family dream come true right mother made promise matter happens two never divorce years kinda started hating other fight simplest thing father also talks lot death constantly says much time left could die tomorrow heart attack ect every time brings feel shit rest day says might true dies everything built crumble created heaven family die week goes now mother cannot manage finances stuff sorry rant fits guidelines tell someone,0 +fridays supposed good mine always suck job trash makes entire weekend shit hate think job get shit talking ex would always make feel better fridays work hes around anymore bc talking stresses out im sad week probably gonna worst week life much stressful shit going one talk im busy cant get break christmas ugh,0 +uhackedmonkeyman appreciation post u pog ,0 +thought might disappointed viewing film many years contrary impressed callow youth honesty brave humour transition among africanamerican groups predominant policy conciliation integration one confrontation selfdetermination still quite new little controversial took courage finesse portray establishment antiestablishment caricatures often closely approximated real life special mention made arnold johnsons performance successfully avoided character lapse either sociopathy buffoonery id rather watch to sir love old day,0 +time come im horny accept fate horny jail filler filler filler,0 +sister tried commit redflag last night confessed rapedshe tried commit redflag last night taking bunch pills really slowed heart rate down doctors said sick took probably would dead still resuscitated though stomach pumped still currently hospital shes obviously depressed says i want anymore worrying confessed thats raped years ago someone knew beginning downward spiral her found going great difficulty conceiving child ever can relationship trouble distanced family feel like belongs anymore locked up cant visit stays bf still stays grandparents controlling possessive fear is may wake one day may anymore helpful best thing say situations someone sensitive stuck ways really open healthy change also acknowledges need it help frame mind feel like living anymore much people offer around good enough emotionally tiring im half months pregnant four year old cant dedicate every waking minute feel like risk rn wish knew right thing was,1 +cannot stand existing always problems depression since young mental state bad amp want bother anyone motivation goals anything family loves much amp currently living bf wich love much pets feel horrible every day hate waking every morning go work amp take shit people enough money pay stuff bf pays mostly everything since quit last jobs since tired sexually harrased paid good stayed years hate looking mirror cry hate body hate skin hate nice people treating like shit noticing even there hate pushing better yeah sorry random rant wanting people know exist even this going enjoy last day spend bf gets home work tomorrow hang room life get better going end tomorrow,1 +guys imma get mending book villager im playing server one thought use villagers ill mending theyll getting fishing stuff thats less efficient,0 +birthday coming up spent anyone everi never girlfriend steady job go outside put ear plugs on post online interact people online bought rope thinking driving car wilderness hanging myself parents siblings care world keep spinning introvert,1 +saw premiered rewatched ifc again great telling many possible stories immigrant farmworker population came hawaii work sugar plantations early s grandparents part migration parents born kohala plantation big island time setting movie moved big island year ago living california years surprised see many former cane growing lands still undeveloped wild cane still growing years plantations closed ive heard many stories aunts uncles kids growing plantation movie helps image kinds stories memories story historical document romantic plotdriven movie leaves shaking head read review like ccthemoviemans people get itbr br i recall youki kudoh starring role incredible job recall great performances jim jarmuschs mystery train australian film co starring russell crowe heavens burning tamlyn tomita great job pidgin english especially someone grow islands forgotten toshiro mifune cameo role moving picture show narrator missed fact jason scott lee uncredited nonspeaking part one plantation workers payday scene br br i saddened find director cowriter kayo hatta died accidental drowning br br there two excellent foreign films mirror cane plantation experience gaijin immigrant cane workers brazil many japanese time period sugar cane alley cane plantation experience africa latter still available gaijin sadly appear shown quite while another great film early asian america experience immigrants like slaves a thousand pieces gold set chinese workers involvement building railroad starred rosalind chao chris cooper michael paul chan dennis dun,0 +guys told loved im shaking ok basically backwards last june go school class confess her says im ready relationship really see friend fast forward week ago stopped toxic guy not even relationship anything friends home really toxic guy came back friends i feelings disappear half year play minecraft together friends week back school chillin forza horizon messaged goofy adorable cute way told loved me know fuck do,0 +literally shake hard text favorite person whenever text best friend who might small crush on undecided that hear voice see start like vibrating like starts core get happy ah wanted share see anyone goes thing,0 +incredible roasts used really quick wit dried jokes,0 +quick reminder stop checking profile every minutes miss,0 +please read hi im year old boy netherlands autism huge opsession electronic devices loved one gotta nintendo switch thing is one around shares interest would like someone talk understands me thanks reading little story great day stay safe yall,0 +even point anymoreeven go feel better distract form long enough die natural causes drag pit like last time even strong enough couldent clear mind fire heart stand barely fight left fire barly embers ill honest im sure make happyer think put mind cant help feel lost like nothing change end day im still me everything never wanted be failure eyes sure im living lie now would difrent trading one lie another know hate it cant take prid this would like taking prid scars etched leg reminders ive done am im not never seems end sure live lfe always back mind screaming me beging end it finish all finaly put end over part ive lost never get back remind person miror actualy me dont even see face anymore even name one given one chose none feel like me dont know this truly dont know say should ive seen jorney feel like runing hiding away,1 +hey need help much brother youtube channel quite works hard would great guys could watch stuff dont let know sent though thanks merry christmas httpsmyoutubecomchanneluckrcwfqnbusvceoqha,0 +finally iti crossed point return come point life matter happens next never happy anyways could tell tomorrow lottery make difference would suicidal it become unsaveable unfixable doomed,1 +bad could loads better also seems follow staple diet crime drama got sandra bullock cop finds difficult work others got placed new partner theres closed case cop works anyway theres many corney lines film makes want screambr br however look past formulaic elements good film hiding underneath gripping subplots worked me well worth rent maybe purchase,0 +hate friends hate else go cut dont think could live loneliness friends makes constantly feel like shit idk wtf,0 +hit hurts much want stop,1 +like fruit punch monster redbull pm im addicted monster,0 +weebs beg trap girlfriend show boyfriend dick leaves,0 +emptydont lie gets better dosnt always idc passes pain onto someone else dont fucking lie love me cant love stranger met internet,1 +thank childhood flash know flash isnt technically dead big part childhood many games used it thank parents werent thank parents thank many fond memories friends lost contact long time ago mostly thanks awesome games got play,0 +feel like never like true crush liked someone point crushing,0 +someone explain overdoseare like redflag pills everything overdose going give liver failures ect type pills overdose,1 +country move to america sucks ass dont wanna live danger theyre dealing rona,0 +actually go la know way around played gta feel like bigger prob houses idk,0 +think tomorrow night nightunless actual miracle happens think end this asked help make life better like weeks ago actually going take baby steps fixing things hanging there hit another pretty huge set back even got started never get better barring something amazing happening okay though crying anything clear minded collected,1 +earth doomed even live leave legacy behind one around see itthe last months one hardest ive experienced recently ive feeling well bits depression tonight felt need come back im overwhelmed feeling impending doom also every living thing planet also go extinct know life meaningless existential terms become even meaningless well truly doomed perdition even making true progress future were slaves rich die thing free will live every moment waiting death wish could child forever state nostalgic fever cant wake from despise everything now things enjoy ive become extremely bitter person ive really changed attitude views lot things better availi still feel hopeless,1 +ok stupid question get ears periced ive debating idk,0 +never thought would thisjust sad lonely know want kill thinking thats disturbing enough im tired putting front im ok girlfriend left months ago try man move hard together year half everyday introduced mom jersey live va introduced church im embarrassed im tired living regret fucked lot addictions made impossible me first love sex let go whatever beside getting heart involved stomped ripped out friends always lost car year ago cant get army possession charge im fucked up sit room day lonely want get away night sleep woke kept seeing shotgun bed like wanted blow brains mean dramatic take redflag seriously im lost met never needed girlfriend happy playing basketball social stuff year olds wanted sex enjoyed female company never made priority never really cared like said happy myself girl knew last year half dedicated time fell love regret always feel bad even though could never tell stopped smoking weed week ago feel like cant get marines feel like may well live life complacency really goals whatever keep smoking weed mess relationship yes lot extremely selfish geuss comes learning love first serious serious relationship want live regret anymore im tired lonely im tired bored tired feeling like hope im going end like everyday joe know reddit cant fix problems sometime need vent im lost right feel bad direction life want get away memories eat away me wish things could different,1 +whats best way itim thinking going train tracks waiting,1 +uzak turkish film shown us distantbr br was directed produced written filmed nuri bilgebr br ceylanbr br this movie gritty somber version clash city mouse mahmut played muzaffer zdemir country mouse yusuf played emin toprak br br both men superb actors plot allows demonstrate acting skill tragically emin toprak died automobile accident shortly movie completedbr br in country cousincity cousin tales contrast rural urban life styles portrayed humorous fashion film theres little humor even warmth menbr br have lost touch human society mahmut s work abr br commercial photographer tile company gives satisfaction divorced woman clearlybr br still loves satisfying human relationshipsbr br mahmut lost job factory closing small town skills energy find work city human interactions primarily confined silent observations people cross path hes clearly warm caring person cant express qualities urban environmentbr br the cousins relate well world relate well other neither makes effort act way would provide opportunity bonding closeness br br in sense film portrays opportunity wasted br br conceivably cousin could provided least part lacking others life instead steer parallel unhappy courses two men distant throughout situation suggested films titlebr br one friends mentioned masterful way ceylan builds detail upon detail details ultimately tell us characters might learned simple expositionbr br uzak shown part rochester labor film series labor film traditional sense genre labor film demonstrates harmful effects unsatisfying work mahmut unemployment yusufbr br this quiet absorbing dark film although make happy viewing walked thebr br theater realizing seen truly creative andbr br important movie film worth finding seeing,0 +help someone contemplating redflagtrying come good things show someone suicidal want show life ending life isnt option good ideas im planning using need outward support want give much hope faith know comfort much please anyone knows anything words attempt use please let know use advice,1 +mexican candy best el elote el mango la sanda great oh duvalin duvalin like king candies know know great are,0 +whats best part day best part day around pm im watching youtube cat comes cuddles me shes getting old least years always comforting know still loves me think im favourite cuddling comes sister wrong moment dad doesnt time cuddles yes im gonna call kitty even though shes senior got white hairs tail love kitty shes perfect,0 +stylish moody innovative revengedriven bloodbath also cheesy course sporadically cheesy reminded lot big heat revenge plot set exact event girl comes around good guys side bad behavior bad guy sad theres gloria grahame fantastic alain delon glenn ford could anyone beautiful alain going around cashmere sweater trenchcoat yet hes totally tough icy cool one nowadays touch himthough someone like jude law could try guess hard girl look good him music funky perfect several excellent car chases and generally cup teaespecially one willy nilly one woods people also met dooms creative bloody fashion instance junkyard cruncher beyond cheese overall atmosphere affecting expertly pulled off creativity excitement freshness forgotten movie ive seen lately,0 +redflaghow redflag please,1 +really needing someone talk topreferably here text also ok area code nothing super deep anticipate reddit automatically removing phone numbers exchange reddit mods annoying sometimes anywayclast thanks,1 +law pajama online class,0 +theres handful people make want dieits years ive moved past overwhelming urges kill myself abuse emotional trauma self hatrednow struggling climb insurmountable mountain introversion said people make want kill myself world evil ignorant makes sick know theres nothing make better idea living life place unappealing cant watch everyone tearing apart would rather die im empathi feel people quite overwhelming surrounded much suffering one day going get me,1 +im cumming hard nose lmao need tissues,0 +made two attempts last week long backstorysighhere goes guess long fuck it backstory girlfriend dating years living together years back november girlfriend event florida something like hours came back event started messaging one guys met event facebook christmas eve called talked phone hours i parents house afterwards messaged feeling confused feelings man met time knew almost exclusively facebook messages february saw messages first time i knew talked trusted enough never question it saw said things like i love you such never responded advances ignored them told made feel uncomfortable want talking anymore told cant control friends whoever wants acknowledged force stop talking made uncomfortable hurt knowing would keep talking him also start notice distant getting angry often fast forward june event together texted i know see able control something regret regret regret it i found message recently also notice grown distant begin seriously worry around time july says event tennessee keeps changing story kind event chalk bad memory end july comes around drive airport event really text whole time people event dont allow use phone it underground i signed nda well know looking location findfriends puzzle solving guys house entire time basically lied set day vacation cheat me gets back trip notice extremely distant basically always phone sits side couch pushes away try show affection week cant contain anymore finally grab phone sleeps look it see telling due loves even sending lewd photos talking what if abortions such destroyed confront first lies says anything yet admits kissing him finally admits sex lies says event got hotel remember later found event house whole time notice plans see another city event mid august tell goes done etc says want lose going tell friends also notice plans staying hotel event tell get room tells go event comes packs bags goes days event give ask least stop talking crushed daily finish lease together ended october little month agrees stop talking month next fucking morning wake closing bedroom door we central ac close bedroom door gets hot there get open door ask closed find playing ps him even hours agreed stop talking lived last month together even wait went work lost it completely broke me tried go bathroom kill tried stop me sat bed tried kill stop me knife cut deep enough gave collapsed tears crying went bathroom wash face police knocked door heard yell come slowly hands air cops guns drawn grabbed put cuffs questioned us separate rooms denied wanted kill myself police told minutes pack bag leave ever came back would arrested one pays billsrent lease care days good friend mine talked gf convinced let come back house stay i nowhere else city go things okay little bit beginning september event city went stay at friends hotel planned days go event together try get along better final month turns came town stayed sex block house forgave finally agreed and appeared to stop talking days days nice soon blatantly talking again moved moms house another city got place still talk avoids actually seeing person know dump move cant gave time earth love damn much cant get head matter hard try drugs alcohol friends nothing gets head always mind even dream her prison cant escape tried hang week ago knot hold feel throat hurts like hell close even rope fell blacked out tried last night xanax alcohol failed everything planned future ruined continues lie everyday we still text came saw last weekend needed place stay event refuses see anymore keep asking honest actually understand continues lie lie friends left another country city schoolwork nobody left tried hang old work friend ditched me nobody left anymore meant world gone know love anymore need move cant see future without her lonely sad feel hopeless know purpose life anymore gave life meaning grow old her family her accomplish dreams together best position life new well paying job graduated college sad ever been people keep telling move find someone new never good making friends let alone meeting women casual things nothing serious content forever alone know find anyone else weird ugly asshole just hope tldr girlfriend years cheated left know turn feel hopeless worthless want die,1 +feeling probably suicidal ever felt need someone talk anyone talk right now,1 +think hit low motivation anything slowly begun ghost closest friends return texts physically cannot find things cut contact people girlfriend feel empty know go here longer goes begin rethink relationship girlfriend love much start overthink every single aspect it healthy fear end relationship maybe deeply insecure myself cannot seem tell thought vs depression talking never like life girlfriend months now clinically depressed met medicated strength keep going something else makes love even more afraid broken me broke front told felt comforted plan figuring future get back trip planned august backstory crossroads life know future know want other uncertainty love creating war mind want stronger mentally handle myself hate become like this need myself feel low m feel hopeless empty,1 +think hanging painful people saymy brother school right im home alone jusr got stairs tied rail took step off hurt like discomfort like try choke bit pressure made breathing really raspy could hear weird noises over face turned bluish hurt pain came trying headache afterwards whats reason go it,1 +remaining money going toward mothers back pay district continue supplement personal care attendant bonus compensation state agency im ideas support woman daughter setup gofundme page cant link moment im trying get anyones attention would listen offer redflag thank reddit help advance,1 +one tends get slighted lot critics kurosawa fans thought wonderful episodic multicharacter study tokyos poorest live city literally made garbage though looks like abomb hit film sort serene beauty thanks glorious use technicolor title comes sound made insane young man drives imaginary trolley slum characters wonderful stories engrossing perhaps tragic concerns man young son live abandoned car searching food spend spare time using imagination build dream house emotionally moving beautiful film,0 +hello everyonei rarely post reddit buti nowhere else go talked selected friends inputs important would like warn everyone may religious talks depressionyeahlike thati bestfriend years year getting married love life genuinely happy her really am story bestfriend got engaged last january currently living united kingdom wonderful job loving fiance engagement told us closest friends family wed next year july really ecstatic hearing wonderful news last settle create family own told wants bestfriend wedding three bestfriends since high school got fired save lot money plane ticket pocket money special day since live asia cost go uk cost lot since salary like x lower people earn western countriesampxbtil one time suddenly asked could ask uncle priest cohabitation sin asked like why told fiance wants live together living separate houses traveling back forth every weekend tiring them told want live together without tying knot yet big deal help save gas transportation allowance go told looking answers admitted abstinence sex many months now felt guilt premarital sex always seeks answers god asking signs that nothing wrong that religious person do know limits saying country god mercy us man doing talked uncle priest asked cohabitation straightly answered that cohabitation sin told bestfriend contemplated it know asking lot people even religious leaders country told nothing wrong want live together still reluctant fighting anxieties matter point raised voice video call told life become shitty karma lived boyfriend years really big stab heart cried dismiss felt still prioritize know vulnerable am fast forwardi remember announce decided wed year surprised partly disappointed first thing thought never see walking aisle person partly know reason sudden shift short span time understand wants live peace blessing god express surprised am told happy last settling man dreamsthey small wedding year big wedding next year month july but months go on always asks thing why people reaction whenever told decided marry year cannot happy look dissapointed cannot happy me deserve happy always answer her people surprised course told wedding next year sudden change mean happy ever think that know redflag talking deeply understand also one depression redflag many years always put shoes ever bestfriend always asks it answers it fiance getting married us people two create happinessi also answer thing everytime asked it know say anymore asked therapist friends got married it say tell create happiness everyone else know redflag big enemymy bestfriend become anxious months passed point became bitchy patience shortened one point angry bishop responding email even told within weeks reply it find another one told person get married also plenty couples wants wed pandemic rules schedules changed understand it like is god wantsso weeks decided transfer another parish surprise schedules weddings parish priest told available weeks time could wed want soon shocked fast is told her there ya go worries finding priest schedule answered me it fast muchthe priest asked venue already catering services photographer others plainly answer no anything yetthe official schedule wedding september year became anxious understand called wedding jitters still ask thing why people reaction whenever told decided marry year cannot happy look disappointed cannot happy me deserve happy like thatlast friday conversation again told want know truth give answers ready so told possibility people see desperation lack security insecurity something like that remind one time one coworkers commented afraid lose fiance something like that word desperation struck her asked also think our bestfriends name it plainly answered her no another question disappointed announced getting married year tell truth know thinking time told truth bit disappointed like short time passed it long time ago me focused want walk aisle even volunteered process needed papers countryshe told disappointed expecting me time genuinely happy like fake told not actually felt guilty time want make helping could give even asked bestfriend felt way told position answer behalf told chat friend uk genuinely happy asked could bridesmaid told better take care things alone knowing people genuinely happy rather people helping mewhich pertaining me genuinely happy want justify more answered whatever push further decided let cooldown know redflaged outampxbi contacted bestfriend called talked lot via messenger time talking bestfriend uk teacher country patience kind running out remind redflag talking right know listen even us bestfriend kind admitted said desperation kind struck her somehow thinks true perhapsi decided mute chats messenger need time alone played online games talking different people shift impending redflag happened feel like terrible bestfriend that also dealing lot shit life prioritize wellbeing needs me bestfriend ever talked former boss turned male bestfriend told happened like advice correct point told bestfriend white lie even forced tell truth feel seeks positivity assurance person bestfriend give assurance that learned matter morei worried her snapping lot wedding work well told breathe last time got extremely mad fiance simple comment flowers like who walk aisle bride wedding year next year fiance afraid whenever gets mad waited outside apartment okay bestfriend ignored her made up worry fiance wants know plan admitted really one told two sit talk listen says easily snapat least okay now found beautiful wedding gown really really beautiful still read last message thinking might justify myself even bestfriend also redflaged worried always burst always explodes never cools down shared predicament married friends told wedding redflag normal much balanced things talk couple understand bestfriend wants acceptance wants wedding everyone happy around her wants like thateven told plenty times peoples opinion matter important love otherbutshe still ask questionampxbi really know say feel like bad person telling felt before sorry kind rollercoaster longi really worried hard talk someone closedmind right now thank reading everyone feel like bad person,1 +turned hate try ask parents money invest stock market ignorance works always push risk factorsmh,0 +since nobody talk might well talk myself wanted family failed like everything else ive attempted life failure failure tragedy tragedy disappointment disappointment havent looked mirror days genuinely hate myself hate am hate getting help l ruined life haileys life hate im going everyday see beautiful daughter doesnt matter meds doctors put on im sick im unfixable im broken amount sadness depression medicated cant talked professional ive held onto feelings long became part am dont want leave world want family want see daughter get school bus first day school want see siblings graduate high school want see friends succeed live life instead existing realized things done without here dont want anyone sad go want people happy want people relieved im cancer everyone meet dont even realize damage create done im tired burden everyone im tired disappointing everyone im tired know everyone tired too wouldnt call death redflag thats harsh word sacrifice peace something never able provide anyone ever life hailey always love you nothing good me please dont let death upset you time together best years life worst you im sorry everything put through daughter dont want go daddy really sick im going get better dont want growing hating sickness also dont want hate took out im lot pain pain going grow get older born made goal everyday night you thats longer option spirit everywhere go daddy always there parents im sorry underachieving son wanted friends lot come gone lot us grew apart im sorry guys go im pain boys laugh joke long eventually feel feelings couldnt asked better friends guys ive slept houses times rough ill always appreciate yall want everyone happy please dont mad please dont sad happy im something right once,1 +anyone want exchange youtube channels anyone want share channel name ill check check mine want see teenagers creating want hear feedback guys,0 +alright took psats want happy but friends immediately started talking scores th percentile shit got like th know realistically better didnt really sleep last night mental health recently absolute dumpfuck know th great still hurts kinda wanted happy thats hard people around kind shitting you,0 +back againi guess feeling okay great ok days lasted thats longest lasted back falling place thought finally free from really fucking sucks,1 +kelvin cos next seem like absolute zero,0 +update im longer bathroom charger meant post update hour ago shower,0 +cool name pets like human like jessica pspspsp come here,0 +im doneim done everything want live anymore one friend one day shell leave one day like everyone else sort friend would stay late night talking wed text lot throughout day also fucking around sex stuff hed call sweet cute hot felt special good like maybe pretty maybe scars matter course read things felt told last night wants chill play video games im broken everybody leaves hes leaving me cut month last night mad deserved fucking stupid got high fuck instead happy think cried hours im done life everybody leaves dropped school work sleep sleeping better awake one day soon ill guts end everything im fucking done,1 +anyone wanna talk halo know video game,0 +maybe song achilles come rightit weird people treat notredflag easily discart something better much someone gives hope another reason commit suicide like broken heart necessarily make jump time life even tried pursuing relationship know never works me knew made want kill never enough seemed amount birthday wishes would bring closer existing anymorebut know despite bullshit little broken pieces left scattered behind giving everything still manage stumble someone love accident one truly special different way none notredflag before makes wonder ironic would broke appart left much less little now hope love serve entries main dish always misery hopeless wonder everything falls appart again someone looking hope like addict looks next fix lucky enough never wake again love scary thing,1 +wife kate absolutely loved series cant wait next one hopefully sequel would love know catchy song called wrote it maybe old grey still interested life anyone full lyrics please send thembr br of course one big reason wife liked series much years old retired still active intellectually great see show highlights contribution society still made older people special skills experience human interest aspect showing interactions characters younger people around important part showbr br this series highly entertaining sophisticated par favourites spooks hustle,0 +like many reviewers here memories show universally warm fact fond said cherished memories recently purchased dvd box set order revisit happy carefree period childhood whereby used sit utterly mesmerised watched ongoing quest monkey pigsy sandy tripitaka later yu lung horsedragonman youll really need watch understand much loved show initially aired bbc friday evenings recallbr br well im pleased say even years viewing adult ie cynical eyes show lost none inimitable charmbr br simply wonderful entertainment magical characters comical interactions one another perhaps special effects which actually serve heighten fun course forgetting hugely memorable opening title sequence first season passing time way shape form diminished monkeys spellbinding charmbr br as monkey would probably say oi there go grab nostalgic fun,0 +poop im class poop bad,0 +astronomically closed shell former self finally cried tonightover again im better ive ever everything gets harder im exhausted yet people demand lot me dont understand im going ive through im really hurting right now ive lonely lacking relationships since ex split last july ive much interest pursue someone new im going delve deep holy shit life shit show rather long record suicidal tendencies praised fact ive seriously considered year but tonight drove drove hoping id crash fucking car something im shit tomorrow isnt better try again im absolutely hating right now im religious im praying universe shows significance world asap,1 +watch fcking video u dont actually understand trig functions httpsyoutubepndlihsh ive trig since like years ago get wth,0 +whats therefeels stupid write this im trying beat alcholism anxiety loneliness failed everyone them maybe time wont failure good bay thanks reddit made day last years,1 +first cg animated film ive ever seen usually look animated films made reticent see them ice age wanted see moment saw trailer scrat hilarious sabertooth squirrelbr br ice age sporadically funny overall fun film watch story basically animated version three men baby set years past visuals great simply beautiful one thing create convincing aninmation another thing altogether create visually arresting stuff ice age great look stylized visuals blue sky studios company look future,0 +miss kidas horrible childhood miss it hate adult,1 +well brought againi making much progress actually starting enjoy life again saw friday night club ignoring me fair enough last year threatened redflag acted like child harassed her absolutely everything wrong talked two months went end night said hi said thought civil next night texted asking still felt weird come say hi texted back forth basically said im narcissist spoiled brat idiot everything thats true said ever contact talk going police want die ive bed past two days cant see way out want kill myself please help ,1 +get boyfriend turn never relationship i go girls school perhaps may issue here yet feel lonely genuinely school would somewhat introverted girl find decent cute guy feel corny even typing out ridiculous point,0 +question tooth extraction hurt much dentist removes tooth loose seriously know ask this need positive answer relieve stress,0 +mad minecraft so maybe hour ago died blocks away pig bastion one brutes knocked lace thought safe took whole hour get back died maybe times used extra food stacks potatos finally get fight brutes checked died stuff despawned wasnt even chunks long looking magma cube along gang bangs brute die full netherite gear pretty much maxed out maxed crossbow netherite tools taking abreak minecraft,0 +everyone hear this next time rickrolled remember pull uno reverse card way win amp avoid rick rolled lesson learned,0 +jesus cool win,0 +think im going iti cant take anymore im empty time feel guilty every time im even slightly happy wake panic nothing anxiety tight chest barely breathe lie around cant bothered anything anymore wasnt going another couple years push everyone away wouldnt hurt much im tired tired everything feeling like im dragging every day rope balcony here think im almost ready,1 +big fan film found tv mini series children dust version fans look for least minutes cut dvd version filmbr br i would also suggest viewers enjoyed film check book rounded storyline corbywhitewolf rachel black history buffalo solders two many storylines series filmbr br sidney poitier shows gets better age talent keeps growing chemistry character gypsy smith regina taylor wonderful viewing also enjoyed billy wirthjoanna going storyline seems play wellbr br billy wirth course model indian vision look attitude dream every woman wanted carried one romance novels native hero worked alsobr br much could done storyline give viewer brief glimpse racial problems back s white take native schooling lack black pioneers setup towns west michael moriarty maxwell always great actor comes across caring confused teacher sure whites interfering native culturebr br for anyone enjoys characters watching change film you thought chemistry poitiers character orphan whitewolf moving thought wirth poitier worked well together billy wirth best scenes working poitierbr br going got nerves sometimes want stop shake give wakeup grownup call whole great evening entertainmentbr br look two tape version mini series fan really see difference,0 +lets talk religion anything want learn religions namely mormonism the church jesus christ latter day saints jehovahs witnesses im open ampxb plz dm want,0 +somebodyjust tell anything,1 +bullshits daily noteleft earlier reunion friends felling it friends might think im asshole probably right cant stand certain people feel repulsed them quite ive feeling like belong world last couple days architecting redflag say incentive kind support idea feel completely lost without hope autistic bad looking guy feel like ill ever connect deeply people anyone else feel different people guys handle that ps fell intellectually superior anyone cant stand fact friendly people people hideous looking,1 +incel used reddit year radicalize fortnite bad minecraft good responses people reddit quotes,0 +found something worse tik tok called kwai basically knock too even degenerate x ads youtube hate lot lot lot,0 +attention women ages please dm girlfriend,0 +anry bruh geometry grade morning thats graded performance task got on grade somehow ,0 +wow turned today almost forgot unsub nice day,0 +witchery decent little eurotrash horror yarn david hasselhoff pretty damn funny one sadly hes one better actors linda blair downright terrible lady plays hoffs wifeshe hilariously bad plot film ridiculous too got holes cant help notice remains entertaining throughoutbr br the gore witchery freaking outstanding loved part old bag gets sucked trash chute ends chimney roast part lady gets taken advantage of devil pretty damned disturbing id say one must gorehoundsbr br if looking overproduced wellacted flick look elsewhere like oldschool style italian sleaze top gore witchery belongs shelfbr br im surprised low rating here people expecting the exorcist kids,0 +routine mission iraq group delta soldiers recover computer hard drive alqueda training camp detailing location weapons specialist dr walsh witnessing termination top secret weapons development program dr walsh finds alternative funding source sets new research facility deep notorious belzan forest chechnya developing weapons selling chechnyan rebelsthe team deltas sent black ops mission retrieve doctor technology russians find labwhat delta team soon discover doctors latest weapons flock large carnivorous bats genetically altered develop taste human flesh found movie much better expectingthere lots action lots blood less would expect creature feature acting great passable certainly seen worseoverall enjoyable movie is good popcorn movie,0 +hey guys see everyone posting commit redflag everyone posting like reasons ill give three time heals everything everything destined find purpose god believe him,0 +rsuicidology bannedsuicidal ideations often coping mechanisms one might intent committing redflag thought knowing option mitigates suffering life reality people kill everyday hundreds thousands years cant stop happening rational response bleak nature life despise reddit banning suicidology somewhere could discuss feelings thoughts without stigma people saying dont life gets better type rubbish free speech delusion reddit banned dozens redflagsympathetic subreddits fuck reddit,1 +movie gets guts tension son fatherbr br the brilliant dialog lovely scenery great acting serve excellent way present onion keeps peeling back layersbr br the core issues parenting communication manhood explored indirectlybr br in fun ways curtain pulled back masks slip little truths exposedbr br all happens amidst road trip format backdrop rural new york state early fall trees changing colors wow,0 +say movie said comments here pretty much sum everything people love cherish it people hate it well loathe it movie equivalent marmitebr br i personally committed every second memory cyclical claustrophobic introspective magical stands one unique films ever made despite many stated believe truly cult movie diamond rough waiting discovered unearthed fantastical psychedelic visuals incredible soundtrack unforgettable achievement itself one friends watched likened musical many respects fully appreciate context film made would probably get view head suchbr br i always fond monkees especially tv show back repeated s mum recorded head shown tv late night knew liked them watched day later lodged memory able find copy dvd decades later would love special edition would fascinating get greater insight making masterpiece hope,0 +weird situationive got disabled brother fairly rare disability suppose affects similar way syndrome lower mental age friendly struggles speech etc hes teen entirely reliant parents cant leave house own cant left home alone cant cook isnt even allowed run bath told almost everything hate life situation isnt awful fucking hate it dont really friends couple people school theyve moved different colleges got friends whereas one feel really lonely theres nothing want do im tired body feels fucking weak ive wanted die long time tried hang maybe year ago plan didnt work one knows therapy months ended lying therapist frightened happens people suicidal thoughts want die leaves brother makes cry almost every night died hed upset confused would eventually learn forget parents die hell one im brother siblings im supposed take care parents die dont want institution fucking hate life want able die fucking him,1 +one funnest marios ive ever played levels creative fluid controls good graphics time theres also multitude crazy bosses enemies fight sometimes levels get frustrating leave hard levels still need get accomplished fight boss annoying another complaint camera angle though works fairly well time pain certain situations big time mario fan ones you even huge fan him id still recommend one big game getting need take while satisfying good playing short bursts time almost certainly hold interest sure hold mine,0 +dont want kill hate alive havent really gotten point want kill myself wouldnt know get around people events still keep wanting end havent enjoyed life idk long,0 +ima honest really want hugim hug family shit like want feeling someone hugging you theyre obligated family ironic joke friends man think prospect hug thing keeps goin fuck want long hug someone ive built relationship with,1 +heck hummus smoothie bean paste dream,0 +getting older feels bad man friends started last year elementary school already week since weve seen first time summer brake found everyone feels same wont enjoy school trips boys fun anytime want children live calmly care nothing yeah children feel empty kind sad figuring out turning isnt far awayyou considered adult age country dont know handle rn,0 +ate ravioli happened snail bottom supposed like use bathroom im scared cus like ate snail half shell mean um,0 +lucky enough catch film finally turner classic films tonight one films oscar for special effects yearly month oscar winning films br br bedknobs broomsticks easily sequel film earlier success mary poppins film big success oscar winner best actress julie andrews like mary poppins bedknobs david tomlinson it role wherein learns parenting fine mixture live action animation set past period british history if edwardian georgian world london englands coastline dunkirk summer even old reginald owen it general home guard whereas formerly admiral boom mary poppins ironically owens final rolebr br the home guard sequences not many film reminds one british series dads army dealing problems local home guard early years war period also well suggested appearance three rawlins children war orphans bombings blitz london in typical disney fashion musical number portobello road different members british army including soldiers india caribbean complete metal drums yet appear scottish local female auxiliaries costumebr br all which surprisingly plus biggest plus angela lansbury performance eglantine price finally it sole real musical film lead noteworthy acting career lansbury never got real career musical role deserved auntie mame musical mame came shortly bedknobs did singing parts in gaslight brief balloon boys picture dorian gray little yellow bird best support conclusion harvey girls final reprise atchison topeka santa fe play female lead hear singing david tomlinson may able understand lost play mame dennis burnsidebr br the rest cast pretty good tomlinson learning rise occasion lifetime relative failure three children cindy ocallaghan roy snart ian weighill actually showing interesting sides characters edwardian predecessors poppins weighill particular something budding opportunist thinking blackmailing lansbury finding witch surprising waste possibly due cutting scenes roddy mcdowall local vicar two sequences film possible role disapproving foe witchcraft bigger part also note john ericson german officer leads raid conclusion film find facing something powerful ever imagined british countryside sam jaffe competitor magic formula lansbury tomlinson seeking br br as animation two sequences sea lagoon wildest soccer match ever drawn well worth view tomlinson pulled latter referee getting pretty badly banged various charges scrimmages said pretty fine sample disney studios best work,0 +looking reason stay alive tonight itif looking reason stay alive tonight it,1 +okay aw i spelt money emojis aw automod would fuck off apparently give aws free now ive able give free thing icon disappeared normal,0 +ive gotten hours sleep week far pounding headache heart beating x faster should vision getting blurry im feeling pretty shaky dizzy sleep parents ask whats wrong figure im reddit since thats go cant sleep take away phone make delete app lose closest friends ya im vibin,0 +truth ive seen pickup lines sub two days dating apps ever seen fucking existence,0 +lied psychiatristptsd severe depression psych va asked ive thoughts redflag told no lie ive scratching sharp objects bleed see reason stop i psychs idea treatment increase dosage sure ill increase it ill take whole fucking bottle plus bottles on cure me one way another,1 +like great classic bugs bunny cartoons movie humor different levels introduced year old daughter year old son enjoyed movie busting laughing quite times daughter much scifi fan movie kept laughing despite seen times adultlevel humor that is humor adults get simply greater life experiences baudy rrated stuff found here keeps movie equally enjoyable adults example adult level humor martian voices based characters different moviesactors martian pilot blaznee voice mannerisms jack nicholson scientist peter sellers dr strangelove special effects surprisingly good film lack top actors actually works movies favor actorsactresses play part well fact would say producers picked actors skills roles needs boxoffice draw power an excellent example wayne alexanders vern character write review kids playing rd time days dinner right now good rainy day late night weekend theresnothingonandimbored movie,0 +suicidal gesturedoes anyone want exactly die per se make suicidal gesture ends hospital like oding alcohol cutting really deep want things badly dont necessarily want die dont know crave self destruction badly,1 +happy right attempts painful heart racing nauseating attempts ive got ps ordered happy right,0 +need anyone talk toi taken advantage weeks ago getting harder harder fall asleep night now protect myself cant stop thinking many sick horrible people world want live means constantly expecting worst everyone around me thats exhausting trust people keep getting hurt believe kindness empathy constantly let selfish violent people never felt alone,1 +if unlike commenters here staging class war mind seeing lives people fairly successful extroverted bohemian gasp terribly english party getting sorts trouble result bad film closer euro cinema rather imitation usual slick american crap believe minimal sound design cheap camera conscious decision rather bad film making id defend this film worse result puts spotlight cast really good kate hardie think thats name sarcastic drunk spoton one exception david baddiel never allowed appear serious stuff light go kind anatomisingofrelationship crap country real friends go party could worse sit watch this,0 +pretty much everyone knows suicidal nowyay surprised get message cousin saying could talk wanted really scared really want talk anybody trying play small thing people worry me good friendship want ruin that also problems well she suicidal think problems really know do worried ignore next time see really awkward do cousin reached scared know,1 +friend accidentally kicked dead rat teacher yesterday group friends playing game football someone pointed dead rat group went nowhere someone kicked another eventually started kicking around teacher came said lads friend got good run rat kicked accidentally hit stomach know decided put hope someone got laugh it rats harmed ,0 +microwave like mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm moan,0 +simp girls simp ill even love back,0 +im bored idk mention bored filler filler filler filler filler,0 +anyone want collaborate shitpost songs shitty vocals great shitposts guess,0 +theoryjust rantive always theorized world needs balance order happy people need people never gain happiness im next month female virgin ive never date never went clubbing hung friends adult fat ugly depressed probably since middle school college grade sister still friendsmade her that ive alone never supposed happiness every time get taste it goes stripped away worse things happenim tired tired struggling live why cant take life bad give up why happy people happiness without misery happiness cant exist people suffer well im tired suffering im tired late change anything know much longer take pain im tired,1 +need stop stalking people like ever someone says something funny follow scroll readcomment shit ton posts,0 +rip school gets shut november th school gets shut november th jave zoom calls take hours day every thing going online me internet slow shit im talking mbs most,0 +want dieagainif read previous posts here would come know tough time friends however theyre reason wanna kill myself reason wanna kill me see never son parents could proud always friend friends who awesome way deserved ive realized im disappointment all one series realizations come know span short period time i still am struggling alcohol problem one bad apples batch got hooked it honestly cannot seem stop either getting back point also realized suicidal thoughts like aids cannot really go back way things were ease pain really good friend met pretty recently also left well essentially exploded her told things boyfriend know pretty bummed kinda maintaining distance he best friend found something wrong leave told up asked promise tell n exactly that got pissed essentially exploded her problem is taking anti depression meds time idk now kind person whos check even exhibit slight hints killing yourself shed literally call phone answer texts used too combined aforementioned factors makes feel like monster way know get rid kill actually optimistic last time posted know went also realized cannot make everyone happy trying that disappoint everyone so thought disappointing everyone last time ending all way kill right jumping window get panic attack every time try jumping window im scared heights honestly know anymore im lost think ill person was im sorry wasting time,1 +anyone know way outim depressed anxious know parents narcissists lack power change anything keep considering ending it im school learning animate im good it depression took fun it two things holding back guinea pigs boyfriend got guinea pigs summer help mentally may end marrying boyfriend actually end myself weve dating years tomorrow despite nice things keep feeling empty know else do,1 +axios trump interview blocked damn near everywhere part ampxb videoakwgpzingf ill link others theyre uploaded ,0 +wonderful film best scandinavian eldritch magic tradition far sighted analysis much big issues starting facebr br should compulsory viewing politiciansbr br take pick privacy nuclear sustainability global climate change quality lifebr br reminiscent thoreaus walden modern twist considerable humour br br im finnish although ive travelled good finnish friends found totally accessible also culturally informative,0 +pedophile girlfriend dating months recently turned sister calling pedophile really like girlfriend im confused pedophile please help,0 +oh oh no dream texted girl something feeling weird talked unless alone meaning send send it woke dream actually send it offered french fries reason obviously cant say said shed minutes woke real ,0 +im tiredthats it thats post im goddamn tired know exactly kill cocktail hard liquor handful lithium either hand get lithium later week well see maybe ill get fat ass stop goddamn coward thing,1 +random stuff get gf day today ill answer question ask matter weird specific bonus flag rating estonia cool colours superior horizontal tricolour virgin vertical tricolour,0 +tell go scheelp please help scheelp motivating actually attempt lie sleep probably work please,0 +ive bad day today mostly rambling day started stayed night days ago went sleep am slept pm yesterday ive night its pm usually go sleep around am wake then stayed watch streamer twitch ended starting hours late things happen thats fine waited extra hours see play game play probably worst thing thats happened old friend tried contact me unblocked acting like nothing happened even though talked months answered short point possible herhi barkshe started conversations usually types something deletes it whats point typing responding idk respond that oh ok meow what want damn thats rude asf im gonna block again ok little back story randomly started ignoring irlin school answer texts stopped trying gave completely week tried one last time month answer noticed months later blocked her litteraly months later today tried that may hard brought alot pain one day fine next talk fo reason sent hi months ago decided going move on moved trying talk me also ignored talked everyday video called basically day everyday hurt alot audacity text again furious trying verbally assult her anyways thanks listening me probably people actually read it,0 +pilli leaving tonight last two years ive overdosed many times cant swallow whole bunch pills found solution crushed meds im going mix food put drink swallow it im truly sorry im alive pulse know many people life going affected tremendously move couple months year know selfish act also selfish keep someone doesnt want be wanted create goodbye video send everyone rescued guess wont that everyone find late everyone struggling keep fighting keep pursuing want life ive battling mental health many years guess time up life isnt everyone make last idk happen die really hope better earth matter fact hope life death dead take care keep it seek help youre really rot think solution please get help deciding take life im tired fighting waking every morning wishing dead first thought wake still here final thought night hope dont wake tomorrow meds dont work shock treatment dont work therapy doesnt work etc sought help enough person severely suicidal depressed least me guess ill sitting till time up good life best,1 +everybody gangsta till daddy issues start talkin time supposed vibing,0 +day posting random shit girlfriend fact procrastinate like bitch id committed redflag already little psyching reveal feelings towards her wish luck boiis,0 +snowed much yesterday complaining snowing everywhere live texas yesterday snowedddd much amazing power going hours time coming like minutes ,0 +thanos peen fucken it figured large thanos flaccid penis is know youre thinking could done this well allow explain started image picture thanos iron man standing next other image exactly needed came directly marvel know certain proportions correct two characters one go actually determining thanos length thats easy need length robert downey jrs penis luckily vague idea large is back robert downey jr quoted saying something along lines of massive dick feminism joke statement determine one major thing robert downey jr slays women massive peen big massive answer that need research taking internet used pixel measurements calculated length many many penises belonged various different porn stars averaged results came inches flaccid average robert downey jr truly massive penis must slightly larger this therefore elected round inches next up need pixel measurements tony stark image used number calculate many pixels per inch picture had came number pixels per inch using number able discover thanos inches tall done horizontal width quick calculations determined thanos approximately times larger robert downey jr proportion hand unthinkable take robert downey jrs length multiply get know youre thinking inches thats pathetic think way thats flaccid length now imagine thanos aroused average human penis generally doubles length going flaccid hard means thanos kielbasa likely almost inches fully erect still think small try imagine absolute unit cock shoved tight little ass massive purple rod passionately thrust back forth ripping rectum shreds dont even get started cum thought thanos unloading gallons gallons children makes rock hard nothing turns thanos massive inch dick wish would shove every hole body want take flaccid dick wrap around neck like noose would pure ecstasy me getting strangled death thanos bad boy would probably feel amazing thing would make better would wasnt circumcised id able peel back foreskin like big purple meaty banana id peel back id eat every last particle dick cheese id lick up meat flute shiny sticky lubed up id let put butt again wouldnt hold back time hed fuck hard inside get jimmied around would amazing hed cum again time theres much fills entire body imagine thanos almost finished ravaging butthole unleashed tsunami hot sticky semen body fills ass thanos sex pistol thick wont leak booty keeps releasing more eventually starts filling intestines stomach eventually begins quickly flow mouth point im vomiting thanoss cum everywhere im fast enough pressure builds semen starts slowly drip every hole im body dick nose ears even eyes enough thanoss keeps ejaculating hes like infinite water source daddy sauce pressure great explode glorious display semen viscera stomach burst open head torso back half torso remains yet somehow survive limbs blown off well dick thanos caresses whats left face thick purple hand want keep going thanos says me gently okay that despite fact windpipes mostly exploded manage say him yes thanos nods proceeds kiss passionately lips unsheaths excalibur gently inserts new hole dick used be picks up im little lump flesh slowly pulls dick me attempt make sure new pussy would adequate hole upon determining is begins violently move down nothing fleshlight since love life thanos didnt even care little more sex pistol cocked fires one last burst cum shot intense slide right him blast space million miles hour nickelback begins play rocketed cosmos intense heat thanos semen prevents freezing death back planet fucked thanos quietly whispers quickly shrinking body homo traveled galaxy felt like days became caught gravity black hole thanoss semen still keeping alive propulsion wasnt strong enough prevent getting sucked in upon reaching black holes event horizon something incredible happened thanos juice ignited exploded explosion eventually resulted formation star upon stars creation launched stars orbit body ripped apart immense gravity sun various parts cast void soul remained attached star formed watched billions years pieces gravitational pulls slowly began attract particles eventually became planets continued watch new solar system eventually third planet out saw something amazing watched planets primordial ooze small life form emerged ages watched life evolved grew took much complex form time became species known human human intelligent nearly intelligent enough beings visit them humans eventually named me referred sol continued watch humans culture developed further unil one day film known avengers infinity war released cultural phenomenon although wasnt good objective standpoint humans loved it one character love most name thanos thanos appeared character earth knew journey complete cannot explain how way another part thanos stayed body part eventually became earth result influence could seen throughout history came head infinity war thanoss semen gave life entire planet creature repaid ultimate way thanos forever immortalized culture competently written characters one mediocre movies time,0 +feel like wasted life idk doi feel like ive made many mistakes past live life didnt want live unmotivated depressed high school didnt get accepted colleges didnt even get money goddamn fafsa dont friends closest friends dont even talk properly anymore thats due mixture self isolation drifting apart other severe social anxiety talking people work hard feel like cant relate coworkers im stuck shitty retail job sadly enough write shift black friday still cant afford even community college dont know want college wtf want major want take life feel like help family thinks im im way obligated receive help life events need learn grow up feel stuck im constantly relapsing self harm eating disorder many emotions want pretty want liked want fucking dead feel like sound crazy like crybaby im tired every level possible especially mentally constantly dream would happen killed myself would people would probably react dont know even care select people would sad overwhelming majority would forget soon,1 +pills roomim supposed die im scared mission dont want it,1 +ever situation erratic sleep schedule due highs lows work so find solution it irregular sleep schedule,1 +hate brotheri hate brother much im thinking killing myself theres food house made some hate much want eat anything made ive eating deal depression suicidal thoughts money food eat im thinking killing myself much hate heart family wtf wrong,1 +good reason livemy wife divorcing me never much live for her marriage toxic though screaming matches hurtful words so live now nothing really im interested life im looking forward anything ive individual therapy years ive tried tons different medications wife even couples therapy therapist told us help us feel like belong anywhere maybe nows good time die,1 +finally shaved pp hair feels weird bleeding went instead ,0 +night might take itim unable find work im outcast family friends constant victim bullying school girlfriend years left reasons given ive attempted im trying hardest hurt options have please help,1 +anyone wanna join new discord server called boredom unlimited place people wanna play among us fall guys gta fortnight apex minecraft dont members right now join would greatly appreciated,0 +want stop existingive feeling long time wanting stop existing im really depressed think good life lot people love care idk cant make sense whole situation would probably never anything feel living recklessly almost like im hoping someone job me guess might im really feeling emotions anymore really sure,1 +im looking friends wrote bunch interested yo im im kinda lonely shit yada yada wanna meet friends guess interests include video games types preferably good story im always looking someone play smash play basketball stuff im pretty tall like art im good heres looks things im years old live canada alberta im single just kidding actually im kinda not brown hair brown eyes im pretty buff could say idk awkward section two awkward personality section thanks todd my names todd jesse well people tell im kind person im also little bit sad lot bad feel lot lose motivation thats im looking people talk vent maybe play game im also kind childish guess like marvel lego still read games lot hyped steve smash yea theres im also pretty funny idk youd vibe sense humour still also im smart suck math socially awkward ive never talked girl really hit anything still think thats cool guess anyway thanks reading hope make friend two id love anyone talk lol anyway bye,0 +wanna dip toes animation know animate need something good better good something great something perfect want mention flipnote studio ds somewhere looking back made kid makes want draw again,0 +okay get shower realize towel do,0 +dog died today dog died kidney failure related old age saw body eyes open said seizures dying feeling like shit,0 +hate life everytime chance happy always dead end anyone relate,0 +bed feeling suicidal usual decided try browse rnihilism know sounds odd hear out realisation nothing going matter kind helped bit ability separate feelings thoughts nothing matter end mean never able feel validity happiness ok wander life enjoying die got suicidal spiral minutes oddly proud,1 +stop complaining minecraft snapshots geez like seriously play survival minecraft snapshot right complain glitches missing features see often absurd realize unfinished update seriously theres posts rminecraft people full diamond tools probably hours spent playing still go duhhh wheres warden,0 +cant even die righti tried hanging today scared commit cut belt went little bitch,1 + already starting shitty woke damn spider dick fucking spider sluts always want,0 +new jersey plan history ,0 +posting song everyday water dogs day yall probably know song already wanted share cover found well done sans fun watch tame impala let happenhttpsyoutubentjecstru,0 +crushing feeling get realize never going get betterim stuck position never asked in due mothers mistakes self destructive behavior ive tried help longer feel can come point realize cant help never going get better jumping fremont probably logical choice left cant im seeing failure trying bail sinking ship mother continues drill holes in,1 +confession time seo years ago stuck member toilet full waste,0 +nothing works one lefti finished making noose going use high up cant even get right ive tried very medication every method every thing cant take pain anymore im tired sick alone pain one understanding caring need give up need here need relief,1 +ill go sleep ill ill fucking cant stop,0 +want hear proof live society pissed nothing came still felt satisfaction fuck america,0 +theres lot reasons whyschool year may last school year high school stdent last year country heading back home messed school year weve ever probably worst grade student years old march make long story short apprntly gr nd gr studs boys girls literally selfharm lik cutting arms legs once weeks april one batchmate ended life den next day good friend too everyone felt bad month went gloomy everyones sad trying stay connected possble make sure nobody next calling people know depressed suicidal like didnt really want start drama look like attentions seeker disclaimed need help used open stopped instead open strangers staying anon jonest supposed gone day time vanished wasnt able afford die literally still planning anyway couldnt already bec id looj like im looking attention terrified believe happene im back home far away miss her im talking abut girl like blocked yesterday trying comfort bec boat meaning shes also dep idk make sure shes fine dandy den blocked cant really anything miss talking know wrong one things sure gonna third attempt im going make happen around dis week want know feeling sad i neverthless still try cheer get blue thumbs cant take anymore ik ive said lot times true feel rn,1 +genuine question make account amogus quick chat go away,0 +pressing matters yo hows hangin whats up whats new shalom salutations whats cracking do hiya gday ciao goes,0 +confided husband feel trapped existence think everyone except son would better without needs here husband started yelling cussing me screaming man grow balls yelled repeatedly leave go away called fucking pathetic cannot even describe alone depressed much worse made things reinforced beliefs useless sad existence confided husband made things even worse,1 +hello wanted say want kill school starts august th think need double check that going nasty breakup really loved feel way sadly friends talk anymore burden them sure going able kill myself hope find way it tell school going rough want it nothing going momentnot even sure want see feeling tommorow wake hope deleting post want kill school starts,1 +never felt like want livei never suicidal ive good life really im days ago lost best friend identical twin sister cant explain kind grief causing feel like cant breath always us always together one soul two bodies plenty friends close family half one person would never let always back even wrong without im sinking cant live like this cant imagine future without her first got news thought would actually die right then sadly didnt gave medicine calm me cant stay drugs forever cant exist like this want die want live without her,1 +really want end lifeis painless way,1 +tip iceberg im making survivalhorror game friends need voice actors people use blender people cide c d animators dm questions want invite development server,0 +anyone else ever create extremely unlikely scenarios head common one everyone knew suddenly died ill make entire lives head minutes think never happen go life,0 +sick man carleton hendricks dee snider cruises teen chat lines captain howdy poses teenage boy invites teens house party instead knocks out strips them sews mouth closed tortures mostly needles captures daughter cop mike gage kevin gage finds him arrests hes institutionalized four years later hes releasedtotally cured lynch mop led amusingly robert englund attack hang him die snaps captain howdy backbr br a sick disturbing twisted horror film captain howdy enjoys pain torture trying show kids kidnaps enjoy also torture scenes explicit you hear see see sick theres humor muted screams victims sound way real cringing away tv scenes br br the acting varies kevin gage good cophes terrible could better dee snider scary captain howdyhis attack scenes pleasantbr br all all typical horror film ill probably never see this film really gets skin recommend horror fansat least strong stomaches give ,0 +hard time sitting still alone silence around without panic attack thinking selfharmsuicide almost everyday thoughts ever since went mental institutionbut best coping mechanism ignoring trauma cannot anymore coping mechanisms like fidget toys journaling whatever really name seem really work still cannot stop thinking self destructiveness coping mechanisms work pretty fast really need help advice controlling thoughts regardless them long take coping mechanisms work control negative thoughts,1 +crush know im m friends crushes girlfriends yet dont feel sexual attraction fit people really love somebody do im happy life told close friend think get girlfriend really spend much time girls friends kinda hang bois hang girls get know them tldr anyone romantically know why,0 +merry chrysler guess yeah im gonna quietly sit corner definitely feel jealous literally everybody christmas imagine celebrating christmas,0 +jus reminder vote elegible world watching please dont give years man steroids thinks coronavirus like flu mexican heart breaking see families border,0 +starting make driving license now passed start good months cruising around life still sucks planning crash treefuck jobfuck anxietiesfuck society money driving license,1 +im sick getting every day getting harder harderhttpiimgurcomogxlurjpg every day get shit like this every day gets harder live it,1 +know doi firmly want kill myself keep thinking it know thoughts pass then absence thoughts feel unsupported scared isolated friends ones understanding problems own triggered panic attack someone earlier talking feelings grandad said go home im house im going upset complain things im guessing cos bad blood pressure thought going aampe im physical danger thats probably recommended gp said something like things get worse redflag ideation like crisis call helpline go aampe remember exact words someone online said would better call nhs like hours ive either sleeping sitting around wondering feel seems messaged best friend asking whether would go aampe hours ago hes still responded still feel shitty before think im particularly impulsive person ive thought many times actually killing never actually something undo im kind nothing id decided family worth living for potential pain worth it etc mean im really despairing feel like never get sufficient help maybe one day decide worth pain loss opportunity im might late anyone help me now im making move kill myself people particularly care many people ill nhs could busy with makes feel kind cheated though teen threatened section anorexia recall feeling despair desire actually die time want help forced i sectioned cos accepted forcefed desperately want help gp surgery literally available appointments every three weeks making emergency appointment like aampe thing would feel selfish plus cant stand gps even appear diagnosis depression although psychiatrist diagnosed years back say low mood patient summary depressed mood priority severity whatever section suspected uti years back,1 +hi im czech republic feel like walking edge cliffbroken english allert true depresion anymore sometimes start shaking wanna try get drunk lie snow sounds easy really trying get mood watching anything entertaining meh keeps coming look train little bub kinda angry cuz even trying social kontakt brain probably protect depresion triggers social anxiety skeletons wardrobe whatever got better even learned act public tried go local nerd comunity nice rich kids idea now one online friend cant go too far etc etc fuck want someone like me years good score staing alive alone hope find poison gonna speep today,1 + unlucky love become desperate depressed seeing therapist hurts much alone friends finding gfs experience never even alone girl fucking hurts idk much longer take end want feel womans touch cannot handle loneliness anymore,1 +redflagim drunk thinking taking mg alprazolam die tried yesterday mg ended sleeping till afternoon lost live anymore tried calling redflag hotlines india said boy another boy cant marry live together made another mg,1 +sadi want cry cant tears left want smile lost ability years ago want dream better life im unable so cant even dream im happy know next im litterally holding back tears right now home feel like home anymoremy family feel like family anymore feel unbearable sadness felt anything genuine years one cares one living otherwise gives shit me see fake smiles fake people trying live fake lives pretending care cant anymore give,1 +find peace thought certainly kill soon anyone felt sameas soon think commit redflag month two start feeling peaceful thinking live long makes anxious made peace death,1 +im smart enough know dumb im smart enough fix that felt like know that,0 +reason killed girlfriend dogthe reason killed girlfriend dog could bare thought leaving alone considering has could imagine abandoning dog life fucking sucks sucked enough pandemic started cannot even afford pay billsfoodmedication take multiple credit cards borrow money family members get last months maxed out drive hour away work drive hrs day days week get treated like absolute shit customers line work quickly drying making half making months ago frugal person never spend money things completely necessaryi see girl one day week puts big strain us both thing keeping going barely even get see now sent hundreds resumesapplications past months jobs stable paycheckspend time girlfriend gotten interviews amounted anything numerous health problems constant pain dispite midtwentieseveryday holding back constant tears suicidal thoughts anybody words advice been similar situationtldr barely afford place live food meds taken good amount debt survive cannot take credit cards constant pain doctors care enough anything me reason killed gf dog have spend day working exhausting job hate treated like shit shit pay fighting back tears suicidal thoughts reason killed gf dog,1 +posting picturegif something getting crushed day cousin asks crush day crushed stressballhttpsdiscordcomchannels,0 +bothertruly see reason continue living hate this hate myself whats point trying tick every box failure know never really happy im still young dont want waste years life hoping one day happy doubt day come im tired im drained im hurting im weighing options wether id rather die live everyday im still sure would much prefer live point negative disadvantage doesnt feel worth try know world absolutely beautiful favors love life hate living makes sense maybe im dramatic,1 +become less socially awkward willing ro go friends yeah basically im pretty hesitant lot time go friends negatively influenced set friendships quite lot im looking better area,0 +basically summary struggles fears warning longseveral years ago breaking point snapped contemplated months evening different left party family attended earlier went home put favorite piece music basically tried make piece everything committing attempt raised religious family prayed happen quickly painless foremost happen all not hours later family came home woke up knew window passed would strength meters away me incredibly frustrated first then way thought everything again next months fears pushed towards moment resolved least invoke panic before came believe god prayed make happen held back kept reason relationship belief grew strong huge source hope strenght song listened evening became sort hymn said trust since believed saved night next months recovered grew optimistic started enjoy thoughts time think felt like could advance problems would solve dilemmas saw constantly one one one day stumbled upon piece music touched whole level never experienced before swore myself never listen song find one waiting you yes kind superstitious weirdo believing god one true love or ever want end life again way would able commit anything without remembering thought ultimately living waiting for day listened song again always perfect hurdle every suicidal thought toppling moment emerged subconscious least used be months lost lot connection belief months stand myself alone thoughts happy temporarily soon moment subsides emptiness gnawing feeling takes place one things numb video games dont think anything playing perfect break self loathing amount people manage thing decreased drastically making gaming important dont know happened stand anymore dont know thoughts turned dark void dont know friends loving family make feel wanted alone like opposite incredibly lonely time now lost energy even play games refuge gone inching closer closer listening song want hear badly crave someone share inner nature with someone mend me like stories almost given up promise gave mother years ago told incident feel binding anymore god saved last time might able again song keeps alive moment afraid afraid terrified might happen snap again put song live bad ending story thought back then thinking dark ending possible make bright ending triumph worth wait dont know might happen all think reason wrote post make clear myself close breaking point naive anymore another attempt spoiled naive lack knowledge anatomy terrified afraid sure turn to know happen cant connect family friends help me hope find solution strenght breaks,1 +im ashamed amwhen became truly depressed first time went public school finished grade part time job realized life hard would need learn get fall nothing could prepare state mind ended in way people towards structure western society appeal me experiences peers school adults like parents teachers made miserable dint want grow things expected didnt want it took bike one night rode part town theres lots homeless drug users founds one buy oz rum liquor store rode back across town favorite place near river drank bottle tryed open wrist enough bleed ended passing drink pain lots crying beforehand next day hot day mid summer sun high soo dehydrated could barely move sun cooking open hours didnt river close im pretty sure would died dehydration minor amount blood loss later tried get back bike go home made back road lost conciseness moment feel ditch side road filled black berrys someone driving road saw fall managed pull out family devastated learn done rushed hospital soon got home police already talking parents spent rest day hospital vomiting river water talking blood samples years ago now last night lost drivers licence third probably final time pretty much destroys future career plans little self esteem had life feels like nightmare everything wanted avoid killing happend worse imagined even things going good theres piece missing cant happy shut world friends girl idea happy theres something clearly wrong here im good looking well mannerd young man family loves supports way live im clearly ungratefull peice shit dont deserve family ive caused soo much pain years thought hurting thing thats stoping another attempt dont think im going make anymore cant man want cant even take care anymore,1 +videos inert gas bag redflagsjust curious anyone knows videos people killing inert gas bags want see like it,1 +theres something wrong melike mentally forgive me ive never posted anything like before may rambling anything ive suffered depression since highschool senior college now that ive kept pretty good handle on in time push past let control me years thought about recently considered ending it now think part im supposed tell hardships ive rough life been thats thing been is difficult anyone elses grew family loved me everything needed close group friends job genuinely love high career field girlfriend loves unconditionally hell times im kinda conceded want know someone please tell me why fucking fantastic life would want end it always something back mind ive always brushed bad day weak lately impulse stronger find going normal day seemingly reason think what went home today frustrating wanting end life apparent reason stupid hate it selfish stupid cant help it realize probably means theres something mentally wrong me even know see it therapists expensive im living college budget thing scares is think reason done anything yet mom one person world say truly care about remeber girlfriend earlier paper perfect find hard care anyone another frustrating point but think much would hurt mom pretty much keeps anything rash passes im trily afraid anything else left keep grounded im sure even makes sense ive never really told anyone this am putting pretty much everything bunch strangers so again forgive lack organization but thats also mind works so im really sure decided post here really rough lately guess help little get chest know im alone cant talk anyone this would devastating family knew feel like none friends would understand mention hard time connecting people anyway guess thats story know do,1 +it holy shit itfuck close took looking th floor window open parents problems now idea life going look like future im sure gonna get better im glad chickened out,1 +depression feelingshi diagnosed major depressive disorder year ago psychiatrist therapist still gotten better changing next week see better lately made big mistake bored much life unable enjoy anything regretfully turned porn feel even worse feel even guiltier looking types things condition gotten worse made bad suicidal thoughts feel absolutely disgusted thoughts increasing frequency them advice now thanks,1 +knee surgery tomorrow story tell it so warning terrible storyteller also tldr top grapefruit brain falls skateboard cripple backstory live west coast oregon town popular set skate hills go down two row one smooth barely used road result group go daily that gotten new board wheels also crew theres james reckless kid could shake broken thigh bone wyatt the interesting one balls anything alex gf time this fateful day gone hill bike friend well call james goes hill longboard daily without us one day feeling pretty good myself new wheels all decide stop pssy go hill myself soon kick off know theres getting ride halfway hill im time life feelings like lightning mcfuckingqueen decide raise arms celebration head everything goes wrong lift hands head start wobbling inch still wobbling time im way hill wobbling gradually got worse worse worse im going like feet across road point realize option jump off theres ditch left concrete right make obviously sensible decision jump straight traffic im falling remember rotate jumped result this im flying feet ground going mph sideways good then impact completely terrible time sure hell hurt now forgot mention friends top hill could see entire time saw dumb ass grapefruit brain collapse wyatt started riding hill safely see badly im fucked up point try stand shake off cant do anything left leg tried flex it spazzed went limp friends arrived one called mom lifted field side ditch point know im screwed know badly yet anyways time goes by im screaming ground everything hurts eventually mom comes lift car go home take ibuprofen sleep fo hours cut now found torn acl im getting surgery friday months recovery time wish luck reddit ill try keep updated anyones interested oh yeah ps walk everything now hurts lot get lot worse left untreated,0 +bruh im playing friday night funkin middle online class im feeling pretty good yea thats post nothing else,0 +got notif scrolling thought text nope phone telling left im lonly,0 +im aloneso know im suicidal im definitely feeling self destructive kind long story ill try ramble guaruntees months ago got fired job everybody promised try make feel better imediately started talking problems including girl ive head heels love years well call a telling new guy shed seeing dick dated like months year ago never really got her days later nobody really even tried talk whats going life like forgot me would play fortnite together every often chat nobody really even talked me got new job people incredibly verbally abusive me started going back college stress really getting every chance escape stress disappeared thin air last second last hope little stand alone date suggested well started dating new guy well call t go way back dated last year due drama as life basically cut out destroyed spent almost entire past year helping feel better it wanted back also best friend hate see depressed eventally started get t started seem like old self weeks ago comes back starts getting close again insisted theyre friends still worried cut labor day weekend really good mood decided ask stand alone date said maybe knew immediately making happy asked het date started telling bad idea was never seen go dark place willing admit im jealous also concerned well being last night feeling really dumps drunk saw online xbox send party invite sends text sorry about brought xbox date morning saw online again opened messages sent last night before knew date friends all assume stayed night immediately got jealous upset again im feeling whirlwind emotions first even know stay last night know matter want happy also cant help sad want find happiness me im terrified gonna get heart broken again also terrified wont know feels way her worst case scenario gets heart broken help pick peices best case finds happiness end watching relationship always wanted girl dreams know sound like incel im not understand friend entitle anything know want me theres nothing do hurts none friends talk much sometimes actually tell theyre hanging without me one least pretends care best friend girl dreams hate im jealous upset even though genuinely want happy cut life ill nobody talk to im stuck knows long im stuck rock hard place help women even give time day need help im sorry long just need talk somebody tldr life started going bad exgirlfriend girl dreams dating guy ruined love love life friends even remotely close her,1 +friend mine needs helpa friend mine steam recently talking lot killing deeply concerns me believe serious problem is clue real life information know go helping him talk much reassure people myself included honestly care him know really help beyond that could someone please tell do,1 +im okayim okay havent okay year dont want suffer anymore want end pain,1 +yall wanna go out id personally like went nice comfortable restaurant cuddle guys,0 +random facts bad things ive done stash vodka room dont smoke drugs im good girl stolen cheated lied cheating lied teacher face times tped schools bathroom th grade arrested not jail like station hours got fined dollars swimming ocean got ears pierced without asking parents mad idk tho continue masturbating shower mom taking door smoked before didnt like idk,0 +think im donei think ill keep going would nice go talking someone ones it,1 +doooowap doowap dont know post hi guess,0 +reaching limit ive turned yesterday im double college dropout redflag intentions ive normal cute kind rather shy kid friends one best friend hes alongside childhood simon lets call that probably greatest partner remember countless hours playing football picking cans bottles crap money exchange enough play metal slug near video arcades everything fine th year elementary school started selection fit boys newly made sport class managed get in grave mistake probably first chapter failure life started gradually spent less less time simon probably least athletic even weakest new environment nightmare ive bullied ridiculed psychically abused new classmates even one friend get class too change classes could stay peace bullying period effects me considering whats going happen yes probably ever since ive avoiding pe costs graduation moved city even properly bid farewell simon seen since then totally change environment turned tremendous task me get used new people ive afraid go school ive crying fear bed holidays somehow managed accommodate still remained background ive avoiding people much possible thought whole race fucking dumb shallow human body mind complicated yet repeating patterns simpleminded every girl cunt liking shitty music haircut fighting grades drinking smoking could describe boys similar way ive never good anything never shown sign talent anything interested considerable degree anything games anime two ive spent life kinda bearable though ive going school immediately spent rest time computer kind peace everything somehow stable went on worth note grades awful ive barely passing classes would try better could turn back time would same hated every possible subject english its native language simply learned playing games something started change first faced reality real problems grades possibility repeating year top noticed everyone copy paste pile meat individuals really great talents simply famous way envied guys darkest depths me yet ignored that world computer thats started maladaptive daydreaming could lie hours music imagine famous guy stage playing guitar drawing simply one talented tried turn daydreaming reality started playing guitar never could devote seriously it ended knowing chords intros coming back gaming mid school ive struggling subjects repeat year somehow succeed end games nothing else mattered graduation somehow terrifying found scared even going signing high school everyone happily going pack friends go mum go school bus first time life trembling thought it able ignore everything knowing come back home room found completely hidebound compared peers seeing peers living friday get drunk gross parties vision humans worthless shitheads extended ive started hate everyone dumb interests someone partner envy towards talented guys turned hate towards every person even good grades anything become better anything nothing liked besides playing games came moment want alone going school getting harder harder without anyone could least talk to decided get friends everything ive done towards goal total failure started accepting cigarettes people around coughing out even vomiting after days passed laughing vomiting smoke ceased accepted vodka classmate ive never tasted alcohol before underestimated amount shit possibly drink felt nothing first first step break happened immediately started swaying trying hide people around me ended drunk saying shit front class think teacher knew drunk pay attention since knew bit failure milestone started feeling strange pain chest regularly ive started taking anti depressants ssri shit ive trying quite time wake up seeing games real much time ive devoted them ive tried pick guitar more ive even tried drawing writing voice acting programming nothing really turned tides games able ease pain wanted spend every bit time room never wanted come back school started go school middle lessons last grade ended subjects presence repeat half year geography history ive getting prescribed stronger stuff since nothing worked cheating crying mothers assistance managed pass subjects graduation choose college since good english ive chosen english philology place could study far place big city thought maybe open place become bit independent failed get in got prescribed another needless ssri velaxin pills day sign somewhere else upon pressure family started afraid work couldnt imagine giving half day work ridiculed boss afraid failing signed class fucking class ive waiting like execution left bed last weeks holidays started thinking could talented passionate something early years even liked anything spend time it bullies would look envy like envied them would link passion job ended daydreaming whole days passionate successful living game time came go school forget world made head found listen music anymore hearing someone good something making hitting head seeing hearing lorde age star early years caused pain like burn chest thought hey end class good job maybe work game designer first day college ive holding tears whole day math physics overwhelmed me know thinking dumb understand things mention even remember anything high school chest pains getting stronger know going leave college yet bear thought going work month two passed come back college ended kind hikikomori started cutting shaved head realised much failure am day noticed people age driving licenses linking work education even getting married ive trying harm every possible way bear thought lorde ed sheeran leto anyfuckingone shit behind great lives talents passions money hitting real happy smiling look sky breath easily knowing achieved something something more saw facebook bullies rappers clubs saw classmate highschool model ad tv ive heard one cousins getting degree one got offer study abroad ve heard brother year college working director company laughing girlfriend looked myself naked samaralike pose bald cutted thigh still obese despite eating less remember anything think head started hurt thinking whats going happen me cant like anything ended psychiatric night passed sleep hospital obscure saw people there want like them veins dots amount blood taken me like fucking clue it resigned shortly possible head doctor confront fucking cunt mention wait mum get there ouy see much fucking trash am months passed since ive tried anything never like again ive running learning piano tried programming again read tons bodybuilding sites bought weights barbell tried drawing end place crying old times could peacefully play games crying old friends totally alone since many years everything pitiful attempt become something more selfish thinking successful people like that theyve training hard lived problems struggle everything try learn learn guitar end labor anyway programming may actually work cant understand simplest things fatiguing makes head hurt simply dumb everything hard redflags happen people never fall love anything theres nothing keep alive anyway billion people earth counting amount people lived past big competition money lies fist truly rule world right now cant even get level peers anymore im tired like world hard equipped tools help begin with pain ass everyone around me,1 +im dropping falling apart m feel numb it dreamed going college years worked hard earned enough scholarships move away get paid go school cant anymore though ive anxious sleep deprived year pushed point considered redflag almost every day top would never ever sign one online class hit unbreakable wall trying adapt week ive laid off husband hours severely cut mother drug addict another city feel terrible alone medical conditions job support herself quarantined crack house lives left stopped paying mortgage electricity get turned off feel like better son stayed help things happened could help fix them dreams left pursue dying feel even worse today emailed financial aid office trying begin withdrawal process see need pay back aid leaving university grandma died less years ago mother cared died cancer hospital bed home held hand died wanted go college badly would disappointed it tried hard im unhappy decision hard feel like failure like disrespected legacy feel like human nothing like purpose value direction neverending heaviness chest anxiety come peak day feel like deserve live consume resources especially since longer job plans continue college ive let grandma physically hurts suicidal years never like this never felt hopeless lost forgettable social distancing never leaving apt husband still job works hard support us adds feelings laziness worthlessness want escape feelings lowest low know go here,1 +stupid fights siblings em one suck sometimes youre right sometimes youre wrong sometimes person right times theyre wrong one fight sibling youll remember forever,0 +anyone feel like world ending someone leaves you friend years told want want friends want end life,1 +amazing replaceable am left depression makes worthless found woman looks like me even name therapist tells obsessive cannot get egotistical got new therapist says deluded never loved me need decide let go love call it closest ever had every day think there truly point living there every day wake confront fact alone go away cannot nobody wants broken thingssometimes think hidden it maybe things would better right honest deserved know was worthless wore shirt bought date girl name,1 +scripting subtle comedy unmatched movie recent years characters interesting even bit predictable comedic timing written script enough make wellworn underdog plot sure know endingsurprise highly recommended ages although younger set probably appreciate subtle references certainly appreciate one galley scene particular great movie,0 +tell people care love themi questionable shit last post now behavior getting increasingly impulsive worse plans see psychiatrist talk meds see june murica problem is know ill around then basically wrote redflag note hours ago get like this start things feel x y can impulse start acting without feeling im completely gone part want this but risk want ask case need know tell people care love them want know case anything happens later hell even nothing does still want know,1 +think im attemptim tired,1 +many movies around given feeling like stardust throughout course film magically fairytalelike princess bride stardust definitely wonderful fantasy spectacle s well s exciting hilarious equipped wonderful imagery well unforgettable characters michelle pfeiffer robert deniros especially challenge anyone watch movie without smile first ten minutes film know perfectly well end journey destination enthralls viewer start finishbr br ten stars decimal less,0 +line texts crush sent other blocked number this im done trying date people context texted morning weve best friends year half now rumors started friend group said liked me happened her name like you me like too her ew would say that her sorry youre type really dont like you proceeds delete first text proceeds text gc picture text well prior one her gc name send text guys asked hang today think might rape me gc proceeds kick out minutes later figured lying simply said too texting someone gc privately whole time fucking god third time ive tried date someone first one using bait someone else second one moved montreal without telling anyone one day hate,0 +non binary people mean binary people exist ,0 +chest hurts maybe got back long run,0 +never asked borni bring people down dont deserve live dont want anyway cant even remember last time genuinely happy feel nothing pain carry living im somebody missed like decent qualities dont want upset anyone stop getting close people selfish know im going kill myself,1 +sad news kitten posted died morning made post my cat getting kittenshttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjprfholy_fucking_shit_im_getting_kittens_wttffutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare first kitten cat got already dead one completely fine morning woke everything normal saw kitten dead days old rest peace,0 +every time buckle make new throwaway account get one responsegood metaphor everything else shit festival called life,1 +even emotional point goddamn irritating tf hv live want avail services life offers want companionship others well want dead done it better later less collateral damage trynna every single one trying stop me already tired enough please go more would prefer nothing instead anything anyway end rant w h ,1 +comes stepping back edgeive there ive blades hand foot pressed hard pedal jug whatever front me ive back dark place many times always take step back find nothing keep hearing lines gets better x religionhobbymusical helped get pet dont see it cant seem understand much right people me dont know get putting gun back case someone look eye eye mirror must something wrong nothing left longer flinch idea something control ending things me question simply recover deaths door,1 +pointthats really dont get it whats point living struggle compete life what get end all everyone else nothing bother single mom children one weeks old realised point life,1 +contemplating redflagmy waiting marriage knew much commitment god means her anniversary things got hand went far stopped seconds knew wrong spent hour bathroom crying keeps trying say fault mine shouldve stopped me fucking promised would never make break promise god fucking anyway almost driving work morning swerved back lane last second like pathetic waste life am im really sure posted this feel like kill myself somebody able know why,1 +im gonna start showing give fuck anymore frustrating want show worked hard accomplish get called showoff care want attention praise sugarcoating anymore haha,0 +wanted talk didnt know talk im ranting reddit throughout life havent lot friends initially never really bothered time went felt really lonely tried making friends things didnt work out one talk kept issues self kept emotions buried it feel like time went emotions pent up manifested toxicity thats insatiable need attention need feel loved cause didnt first placethis led stupidoutrageous stuff which really regreti feel like out one friend stuck me things would lot different course dont blame anyone this take full responsibility actions feel like one constant id become person rn,0 +fuck lifei know horrible person difficult understand absolutely hate myself idk just might fucking crash wall fuck shit,1 +today last day earthtoday last day existence last time close eyes last silence ive looking long time solution nuisance seems obvious monotony today im wearing shirt tie im going go work im going give damn goodbye cruel world already late me cant go back rope already tightening neck leap towards deliverance able stop me least please look sky next time think me,1 +know suicidal feelings probably result trauma modern life capitalism sucks definitely parent making feel like deserve existence definitely case aware solve anything feel unable heal feel like cannot move on feel like tired cannot go on young living own want dad tell loves pushed away want play xbox want hang him want help pay doctor help figure going inside mind mom abused bad want go running him cannot ruined relationship cannot fix it afraid fix it want ex hold pushed away too want never hurt important friends life late want become better singing cannot bring disciplined enough practice want workout feel like it want good job always fucking boss present thinks mediocre want okay feel ready okay used absence caos feel like trying get better trap feel like mothers abuse started moment decided conceive killing would actually rebelling maybe fact still here suffering without justice me exactly wants cannot stop feeling much pain soul tired cannot go on cannot this want out cannot fixed,1 +wanna relationship kids cant die anytime actually care abouthow long keep,1 +question answer time people actually fake cancer relationships get internet points like low person that also percent people lie according you,0 +bruh also fuck mods title length requirements cant mean lady thighhigh boots dom me once smh smh life sucks fuck capitalism,0 +really need someone talk toim high school senior dealing lot really need someone talk give advise ive thinking lot ending hoping something better comes side im much wuss it,1 +got boyfriend lives texas im canada,0 +well im pretty bored yeah lets small chat im anything regular,0 +well crush cuddled feel happy invited house kinda watched youtube movies taught play basketball went inside vibe jumps lap dont many outlets express emotions,0 +tell family friendshi im new subreddit hope im right im really glad exists im sure anyone actually see need get anyway really difficult type know tell family friends recent suicidal tendencies juggle life school work lately getting me lately antidepressants working feels like im taking avoid withdrawal effects think contributed recent suicidal thoughts nearly every day ive contemplating redflag even would go it know tell people care about ive therapist helped depression anxiety stuff barely ever talked redflag so tldr tell friends family this reach help want feel like burden need help sorry jumbled confusing know get properly,1 +considering redflag stillhi feel bit scared really know react this mostly age im turning year im scared were told were spoiled brats know nothing world life thats really need id like leave opinion here want know outsider would view this even know start hah ive treated depression since winter getting better worse actually ive therapists since then first one got antidepressants later overdosed end january along painkillers obviously im still here second therapist slightly better always wanted find reason im depressed anxious rather trying solve problems ive seeing months got hospital self harming happened times april realization know everything starts make sense put together likeah told therapist transgender started looking realized felt childhood justknew something wrong turned started female puberty was gender dysphoria caused self esteem go caused end depression anxiety disorders happy while realized wanted helped presenting masculine cool then another realization lgbt friendly religious high school even realizing fact lgbt like school much depression got much worse half term left school first terms october went cool art school right now people supporting use chosen name treat like guy wish them mom number one supporter best everything help me nonetheless im really bad depressive episode again hate body wish could live like cis girl without almost breaking crying everytime see hear myself country start hormone therapy years almost cant take it totally lost point life cant see anything matters since know ill always stranger body feel like sound traumatizing write down really is looks get people asking dick much thats problem mate one feel like freak normal cant accept everyone around nice even think treating like girl keep feeling like deserve anyone anything good think much less anyone else world know future focus much look know well im barely give slightest fuck look like lesbian years old little boy much do feel like people think see joke biggest goal life find love kids bunch dogs think ill ever find someone makes everything pointless want love want loved feel like im worthy anyones love time school make anything easier im absent lot since go therapy every simply cant get bed step house see reflection start crying im exaggerating wish was id see fucking size shoes go back bed cry im still still going reason feet height rd grader binding chest way long even sleeping cant want feel kind fuxkery there itd also end crying cry sleep everynight know pathetic ive really thinking end weeks days im like okay okay reality really isnt think im even living anymore feels like im watching fucked movie someone making torture me want hurt family theyve lot me already made loose daughter loved dearly im daughter never be everything hurts lot want go away,1 +failureso somewhat long apoligize that story much different yours age decided wanted cook college carpentry becauae know since men family useful me im nerd im gamer im enthusaiastic types things play acoustic guitar fairly well friends rely everything mother stepfather cats age reevaulated life never carpentry job working kfc coffee shop eb games years marine cooking work cook sea first real job canadian coast gaurd hazing ritual refuse acknowledge hazing bullied taunted til point hazing walked away it much anxiety built point people saying hazing ia that sexual things dropping us overboard arctic water sling lock door put something people cant pour water night typea taunts walked aeay coworkers chased cooler workspace cornered demanding go saying everyone elae ia ur pussy u dont go physically handled trying make go yelled tears eyes fuck off telling im job put bullshit next day captain ushered mw come mess hall officers humiliate me present half document ripped front said compltleting ritual took picture forced shake hand laughed me point im mockery odd crew laughing stock pussy told bad attitude attitude developed happened courwe attitude im bullied humiliated stuck almost days never got justice process trying get settlement sue them theyve ignored years fucked bad gained ton weight lbs years later surprisingly atill work sea ships hate it nothing else skills live mom arthritus step dad basically cuz failure launch n know id dead broke wasting time im alleviating bills biding time moved away months friend met cooking school knew yeara turna big narcassist drank amoked dope house whatever always friend r laying board games one day feela need quit drinking smoking holier thou ao tella im allowed beer joint even outside ita disrespectful trying get better turned thia loat hjs mind got us evicted landlord said telling us bullshit hypocrit aince fine one day next also gf time fought brought ahit up hr celebrating birthday except weeks fact already done that did im allowed upstairs house make noise friend smoke drink betrayed me went batshit crazy us got home messaged saying wanted kill me ao told girlfriend cheating like good ex best friend would hates hates her tried fuck one night honorable hindsight wish really nice albeit broken mentally extremly hot league anyway ended moved home bringing new kittena cats love cats ash baby jax ollie bullied high school usual mom til pop drunk hated mom uncle made fun far back aa remember child essentially eatranged moms family since hate us hate mom broke gambling problem yeara high school dont get invited family things back work thing ive dealt good bad people this becauae first work experience enthusiasm toward going work dont talk personal life dont add people facebook im job dont want friends gruff tough type people dont understand emotion hardened life sea generally talk pretty lewd angryily last year got stuck year exconsexual assault robbery forgery fraud domestic violence assault deadly weapon ties hells angels blah blah blah usual told atories held ppl gunpoint robbed young guy gas station split head open bat got away it frienda abslducted guy house put bag head held gun head beating something wasnt business started getting scared guy drugs work coke percocets smoking weed drinking heavily messaging am passed go drugs himi got uncomfortable around started messaging calling everyday time off hes years older me like making excuses hang go back nd trip hes showing lot aggressiona anger toward crwq left days becauae itfastforward months new ship new company better job better payharassed bullied relentleasly year old thought best was putting taunting me throwing buss qnd humiliating verbally front entire crew noticed told put complaint did backfired longer able work boat since senority month later got fucking promoted boats left company way less chance employment now im rd ship ive battling since harassment xmas crap thinking redflag daily months even saying loud life spiraled control dont tolerate anger arguing loud voices taunting bullying kind now cannot hours boat cook ia yelling arguing me since apparently boat special doesnt follow sqme guidelines cannot know something right way unless told something wrong instead telling respectful manner yelled asking retorical questions make feel stupid kept liatening saying ok ok ok goes atop saying ok staring like idiot use fucking head hours later return break mins early except mins late tell know job drscription break times tella im full ahit im wrong says domt give fuck boata im fucking boss say becauae youre boss doeant mean right says gonna problem arent we respond yeah started morning alao blamed mess made play stupid get back yelled brek thing also said tomorrow youll chimed goes say say said thats break ends goes ballistic walk away tears eyes confirm captain hr job duties break times right fuck guy except knots stomach im crying front captain years oldthe pattern disrespect bullying led feel like everything fault like im blame everything im leaving day turning thousand dollars options put bullshit get fired losing him go home lose money intolerance bullshit know chances gone fullyime wouldve came around another months id making k taxes year insane bonuses benefits go home parents whove grown used failure im making miserable becauae im miserable cant get bed shower week maybe im performance issues last ladies lucky enough drag bar might get unemployment cuz im leaving though im trying since got union involved put formal complaint first ship thia company union rep saod contact anytime get bad feelinga theres emotional fallout mental issues harassment ever since home til crapim praying get layoff fired quit roe cant afford broke itll take til find suitable jobless time easier workload hopefully solo charge mom dies ill alone kill know too tomorrow go home im going straight bed dark know cant face them even know left pritct mental health ill still failure,1 +women reddit friends say right hit girl think,0 +tell best motivational line im depressed want hear best motivational line,0 +want get canceryes know upset many people understand runs family id never wish anyone except myself really pray get soon,1 +got girlfriend best happier ps see emma profile page,0 +never thought id here might need be think need helpim gonna go whole story cause lot put shortly years ago mom moved college dad fight caused this years cannot take it still year pharmacy school think going crazy going mental keeps wanting move there doesnt dad cant make damn decision im scared im going start cutting myself going hurt ways know do anyone tell im crazy im going fine cause know anymore,1 +tomorrow nights nightmy last therapy appointment phone tomorrow owe that guess owe family that useless gesture date local bridge pavement it quarantine highlighted everything wrong me could riches luxuries world still would enough flesh human body much cant fucking stand it everything wrong flesh wrong want gone cast shell meat free crushing dread expectations fucking hate world want anywhere here want anyone me im tired living fleeting distractions next video game episode movie temporary anaesthesia gaping wound thats festering decade know im like this maybe im crazy im tired disappointing people im tired body much ampxb im sorry mom im sorry dad wanted good,1 +partner going leave me get abused push everyone away supposed accept continue notredflag know nothing else normal relationship even know now trusting women families tell me want call names does hurts me know live like normal person kid wanted love everyone fucked me know fuck doing lost pit never going escape this therapy emdr scared live scared trust people damn tired feel hurt people suffered abuse especially kids fuck people hurt us want anymore nothing makes sense,1 +wish friends watch anime uwu,0 +thought movie good like read real story behind based true story movies anyone know names locations real characters movie based on done complete internet search cannot find information case get movie information fact based true story find hard believe judge would change sentence rendered immediately courtroom even heartfelt speech brother gorgeous john corbett overall story gripping anyway anyone knows real real story would appreciate sharing it,0 +tw suicide self harmampxbampxbampxbampxbhi really need help friend recently making lot jokes suicide today confirmed plan means carry out friend self harms currently week clean often says knows last parents emotionally manipulative neglectful according her aware cutting nothing it seen therapists before claims made things worse us years old seem want help said one day might wake gone issues suicidal thoughts triggering hear suicidal thoughts struggled past cannot talk like want to said text screenshots told me know really afraid please help me friend actively suicidal,1 +rejection hurtsi applied job school lowpaying great experience leadership position would look good resum interview went great opinion girl conducted interview told sure id get job unfortunately interviewer one hiring passed notes hirer unfortunately me previous contact lady hiring aware mental illness selfharm previous redflag attempts got rejection email job today vaguely stated i lacked necessary skills job may sound ridiculous cant shake feeling perhaps hired lady charge hiring want crazy person staff team also threatened back october selfinjury continued would ask leave residence may looking deep reason still rejection hurts desperately wanted position knowing part reason get could scars wrist hurts even more thoughts,1 +anyone wanna chat talk literally anything im bored fuck maybe little horny probably sleeping rn sleep weak things me like cook read philosophy listen unhealthy amount music,0 +love left keeps threatening break up parents killed cat friends left me im alone gym thinking deathyah fucking week love life keeps threatening break hes mad dont know career want even then hes mad wont sahm mom recently went killed cat wasonly years old said tired hair getting everywhere put sleep im college min away could found one told me clean house go over ever guess then friends left called girl egotistical rant better everyone else life ive depressed years now keeps getting worse socially thought worst fall got raped brutally family friend nope god damn thoughts want end it im going end it im going write big fuck letter everyone know laughing dead grave,1 +everything hardi feel overwhelemd feel every single day cant handle it cant handle emotionally unstable cant handle forcing go work school pretend fine cant stand it im tired,1 +am despicable rotten personthere multiple reasons want end life reasons want end life want end it girlfriend fight constantly get rejected every job apply im stuck current one unable get circle debt self loathing may big part it hate way am hate way treat others hate treat myself ive tried change seek help therapy unaffordable right tbh straw broke camels back glasses broke today didnt super glue tape wasnt working work home tried find something put back together couldnt harmed girlfriend broke me glasses broke qas stressed qhen text her say saying fucked yep felt like care one ever really genuinely cares anyways unless something them thinking this drove edge harmed again graduated high school years ago done nothing life years planet feel like despicable rotten failure never get hole im in may well lie die it told whole life get better fucking doesnt nothing gets fucking better fuck anyone says so lying,1 +updatei built enough courage sit front campfire family,1 +try guess much try guess much ill yes thing already know somethings comment them fun,0 +want live anymorelife absolutely shit gf away week get emotional support people constantly insult school outside school im btw cant deal anymore want alive longer,1 +rejected disney college programhi everyone got rejected disney college program broke heart much feel worthy anymore now give keep trying even though sent nudes past apps cant make deal disney employers something,1 +movies viewed almost years later yet remain engrossing one technological advances dated classic love story special effects used remarkable movie acting superb david niven kim hunter especially roger livesey outstanding job use black white color adds creative nature movie seen television years people even aware existence favorite movie time waiting hoping dvd release movie many years is itself a matter life death,0 +got diagnosed alopecia areata ive lost almost hair bodyim medication ive pouring steroid lotion scalp along fenastopic fenasteride spray mix miserable used depressed anyway gay dad many others spoke gays suicidal thoughts long time gay im look every time try push get pushed back much cant keep pushing more need life back please help,1 +first let say notorious absolutely charming film lovingly rendered time subjects gretchen mol utterly painfully convincing soul contradictions smoothly reified ms page herself irving paula klaw richly drawn workingclass stiffs having met paula movie star news say lili taylors performance unimpeachable jared harris john willie coutts adoringly debauched genius anyone interest recorded history american attitudes toward sexuality must see movie theater preferably votes made dollars count morebr br second allow producer material similar klaws would become famous way affects estimation ms harrons work splendid piece is condition view notorious act political resistance first order ms harron crafted work subtle subversion along v vendetta movie another time timesbr br few readers site aware government see enacted notorious through transcription words uttered closed senate committee hearings close approximation one live right now ms harron expressly disallows political agenda appended film faithfulness facts respectful unsensational way renders them synchronizes notorious present day acts notorious portrays loving accurate detail defined obscene communications decency act recently brought supreme court first amendment case turned back behest bush administration words delicate ineffectual bondage depicted notorious indictable today federal prosecutors whatever hostile jurisdiction choose course hearings senate elsewhere matter cda passed course know nothing it want people peoria telling cannot look likewise people peoria probably want telling theyre allowed view course notorious never indicted hollywood lawyered up countless klaws will however continue steamrolled puritanical bureaucracy advanced aesthetic moral biological composition much yearsbr br in addition notorious posts usc compliance statement mandated unnoticed earmark recently voted law media contains images sadomasochistic restraint required make available ex warrant records age circumstance performers notorious fails regard alsobr br in addition splendid piece entertainment nearly accurate historical document notorious litmus bush justice department judged respect th equal protection amendment perhaps several constitutional grounds regard alone debt gratitude owed mary harron grateful case constitutional otherwise see film,0 +tf tell parents im dating older guy years parents hard time accepting dating someone older couple months know im dating someone cause mother went pc read damn discord messages theyre asking questions like raceageheightwhat do etc really dont know tell age cause even gen,0 +im mad sad dont know friend moved since kicked told stay till enough money move out hasnt even full week since lived brought gf sleep over queen bed ready go bed room me sitting outside currently havent slept work im pissed breaking hate life,0 +cant fix myself keep something broken aroundi eat sleep cant talk people every day feel like anxiety depression crushing more want go on im sick isolated toaster make toast would keep it no throw away get something works everything shit life done better somebody else think im finally going go start process buying pistol work hopefully weekend go mountains nobody find me finally stop burden,1 +rights gone basically thanks fucking trump amywhogivesashit go onim gonna lose protections lesbian partner state health insurance vote gut affordable care act nov im moms aca protected since im adult im chronically ill ill die anyway ill another close call ovarian torsion bc im estrogen keeping cysts bay ill fucking die bye bye estrogen keep going life going suck im literally gonna wait long dad fucking dead treated like fucking human again cant shit im fucking sad feel torn apart inside out cant stop scrolling social media imagining partner fucking dying hospital covid aca gutted go on fuck live for,1 +enough drugs house kill memy parents found ive cutting isolated friends really want kill itd easy drugs could get drunk take id dead weird thought,1 +guiltless redflagis normal want guiltless redflag normal want destroy relationships everyone confidently say nothing lose normal question things much,1 +im scared ill kill myselfso suffering depression social anxiety sense im lately overwhelmingly bad point im scared one day something happen trigger commit redflag want like know something trigger one day month year even week could snap it lately urge getting stronger im afraid ill go leave everyone love behind help aha,1 +think episode bionic blonde httpsbionicblondefandomcomwikijillian_returns,0 +thought movie great storyline portrayed greatly excellent cast read drew barrymore exceptional josie geller beautiful yes maybe movie played outside herself brought plain girl searching world story sweet definitely hopeless romantics there sure am david arquette mad brother rob michael vartan gorgeous sam coulson leelee sobieski excellent job mate aldys someone afraid herself think movie get credit rather branded teeny boppy flick,0 +say yeah another parka appreciation post cause almost love parka romance sometimes cause parka wont leave gives cuddles,0 +please kill mei need help need help need help need help need help cant stop crying cant anymoe feel like head going explode please help me,1 +im far broken rape dont think ill ever recover thathow fuck even continue like trying forgive someone loved im done,1 +inability start fights white supremacists nazis probably get killed someday honest day comes im gonna keep calling little bitches killed due insulting way better killed due queer,0 +quit job letting time run out goodbye year lefthi ive posted roffmychest i think plan commit redflag next year ive already organized stuff went quit job stopped showing up savings now im spend last days people care about thats quit silently say farewells thing is people really care me know understand always thought depression cured movie eating getting drunk laid already finalized im counting days down finishing bucket list know anyone ever felt it suicidal feels emotionally almost bad terminal illness say almost possibly completely equate two imagine lot things same know exact date ill die know how im waiting it ive fortunate enough years living ive experienced many things found adventure feel like old man looking back past nostalgia time days end felt like ive lived enough lifetime im end sadness much damn much cant even think rationally by normal peoples standards anymore think ill die happy thats ive ever wanted long time now anyone wanting commit redflag felt too redflag feels like going home im crazy know planned,1 +one first color films seen cinema child good remember it girl liz taylor later became beautiful woman starred together tiny excellent actor mickey rooney content film plot good ages good wills behavior good ethics velvets parents particularly mother something take account generations well educated film may help purpose velvet loves horses racing them mi taylor rooney brought international horse racing competition england end young velvet won disqualified female,0 + feel bad cant pass way idk want cry time feeling literally kills slowly feel really angrythis feeling destroys meeee,1 +seriously enjoyed watching movie first time years ago whenever gets aired somewhere which luckily happens time time european cable television experience thing im moved entertained end wishing movies like onebr br it deals leo kevin mckidd group friends living urban london leo gay guy follows friend hilarious new age mens group falls straight guy brendon played dashing james purefoy turns straight all thrown side characters equally great tom hollander hugo weaving whose side story alone worth watching movie simon callow leader mens group turning great ever performance really hard pick folks here every character female ones like jennifer ehles julie grahams harriet walters well exquisitely acted maybe even kevin mckidd looks little pale compared coactors benefits somewhat subdued characterbr br the idea behind movie simple one never black white classifications difficult may always stand test timebr br leo identifies gay ends falling woman well turns teenage sweetheart brendons long time girlfriend brendon starts straight gets learn gay may option bisexual might bad all darren jeremy hollander weaving gay loving even straight folks movie like angie leos female roommate get fair share love funny moments end movie comedy bitsespecially tom hollander whos hilarious funny point emotions believable confusing may appear times reading summarybr br what like movie genuinely notredflag notion whether gay straight bisexual simply sure movie leaves feeling okay sure not sure might something worth living well sexuality portrayed fluid movie none main characters seem real problem it apart gaystraight camp fights sometimes get fed gay themed movies wholeheartedly agree subtext movie feel certain one day think identify gay straight whatever look different another never seen what call it bisexuality maybe absence segregating need sexual classification portrayed heartwarming true life manner br br this movie dares going movies go gay straight movies playing labels stereotypical assumption sex relying that goes assumes may life sex wellknown classifications think times ready movies exploring postmodern themes like one br br and others care that heck funny comedy worth watching rainy saturday evening popcorn hands give trybr br loved it,0 +another shit year coming right upwhy fuck even bother staying alive end finally done everything theres lots competent people replace existence anyways,1 +ive lost social skillshigh school slowly drained emotion social skills had find impossible keep conversation people ive known whole life im honestly awkward person know embarrass repeatedly throughout day dont care anything anymore grades proof that options high school humiliatingly limited sad dont even see good enough reason pursue them involved anything dont want be im lost,1 +dont think take anymorei didnt think could sink lower heart broke completely dont think go long hate life hate everything nothing going right top everything im sure got broken person important person entire life think ill start self harming see leads,1 +need helpi suicidal past year hidden away everyone feel like ruin lives closest people parents say leaving never coming back want die even,1 +mom told drop dead wishes born said wish go live javier ex boyfriend controlled selling drugs said said going live said give fuck think care happened rushing go walmart thinks going rain waiting cross highway said standing said highway expect hit started telling die wish never also stared wearing shoes creasing fit small feet said wear shoes creasing got mad went home went bathroom opened pill bottle loratadine mg put hand slowly raised hand mouth could started bawling eyes tired life born poverty feel trapped trying hurry go college even seems impossible gpa also way back home walmart breakdown think actually said killed wrote letter says ya happy mom huhhhh sorry long need vent need advice xoxo anne tired life mom,1 +great anime true animation old still worth watching better plot ninja scroll problem kinda longbr br japanese movie star hiroyuki sanada played ujio last samurai played main character jiro directed rintaro galaxy express metropolisbr br the anime good animation old anime interesting characters like main villain tenkai ando shouzan course lets forget beautiful musical scores filmbr br all movie worth watching fans anime animation general action samuraininja flicks despite lows film film great film watchbr br dont miss film,0 +guys actually like fact mods close images videos weekends swear place becomes wasteland text shitposts horrible jokes weekends this,0 +energy left late party everyone ages ahead me want change things lost willpower,1 +really need talk someone right please someone please pm urgently,0 +everything ive ever wanted since rememberi know eventually im going die way know cant escape truth undeniability it matter much distance put truth still blind me reflective surfaces everywhere never able live without evidence failures lack ability cope honest truth want rip screen window fingers climb walk back suburban roads sun rises without thinking bombedout topography ruined face used think got older might look fine abuse could think thirteen told pretty knew belowaverage think specifics it told even watched sleep even recorded rise fall breathing even woke panic god forgive me took granted focusing terror felt would anything exchange terror that every source find every study trawl looking answers tells skin condition irreversible incurable undeniable never good base start with ratios bones protrusions skin way eyes sit hollows skull haunt every second breathe wish could make stop moment wish could loved like wished could loved tried kill first time terrified love synonymous fear is now still fear exist anyone looks like me uneven rough colour red crayons used child unaware fact would never experience something rest world takes granted real love real touch would touch someone scarred bloodflushed face would look like person living breathing human being never even chance never even chance one red shiny swollen skin bug eyes colour dirt want sink into nose big elegant small cut open bone poor philtrum chin ratio want held like person tip mouth sun catches would anything it negative canthal tilt failing curve jaw have hopes dreams ever wanted poor mouth shape teeth spaced large wish dead eyelids like crushed olives want die lips blood them want die want die want die ive never seen eighteen year old destroyed ive never seen anyone like loved ive never date kissed person alive eyes heart beating throat turn nineteen two months unlikely ever will think sometimes maybe could good could forget chemical burns gave years salicylic acid misuse products nothing poor face destroying face thing hated me always me one cares good not face good unruined still knowable still loveable theres little left kill truth take take contribute meaningless platitudes carbon dioxide die want ashes one urns turns tree want beautiful want people take care me want touched warm hands want something dying world could never life forgive failures,1 +ishould try drown something might cause punishment i exchristian,1 +anyone cares today birthday one celebrate with happy birthday guess,0 +reasons killed throughout years really think mum would sad also apparently sin want go hell cats would sad braces want ugly corpse died grave would male pronouns names,0 +im failureim failure im job prospects relationships friends give shits abusive family ive decided think im better dead life gets worse time never better,1 +call mr submissive because go whatever everyone else says make desicions,0 +tired mostlytired fighting tired trying tired trudging though muck mind tired fighting demons tied strong tired forcing keep going battle depression less screaming war anymore quiet resistance instead actively fighting lay hope ill make sunrise dont want to dont want fight more,1 +favorite jackie chan movie always drunken master followed film police story it chan plays hong kong supercop busts notorious crime lord gang assigned protect mans girlfriend brigitte lin turn states evidence story goes on gangster sends goons dispatch lin chan takes matters fists feet keeping girlfriend maggie cheung bay like drunken master police story many signature stunts overthetop martial artsaction choreography chan become famous for climaxing battle royal crowded shopping mall role director chan exceeds excellence giving charismatic funny performance accentuates action light overall slapstick humor drunken master heart police story that police story gritty copthriller would oftcopied years comebr br ,0 +good time buy new bike read title read title read title,0 +badly considering trying redflag againhi said title really thinking committing redflag feel stupid helpless want someone love me person really like far away kills see sad able tell fucking sad am want make worse want burden her wish could disappear away pain know,1 +happy mario day march thats say pc nerd,0 +ive started think logically calmly plotting out scares mei thought this thought everything getting better would ok instead feels like im falling behind again like life trucking along dragging along behind it cant get footing every time trip im tired fighting feels like losing battle drive home night think easy would turn front tractor trailer people would miss me yes least life insurance would help pay debt girl love would better off use money bills anymore restricted apartments bad credit score could ramble on cant bring to im tired eyes hurt know could much worse predicament still change feeling wanting end good night thank whoever reads this,1 +gay aunty wishing sweet dreams going bed already goodnight dont let pedos bite,0 +almost months sober falling apart shit ton different traumas bubbled surface around two weeks ago people live with support system vacation five weeks kept contact much also nasty painful tooth infection triggering healthbased ocd existing like zombie barely move right now walk move slow motion feel like someone tried talk would stare energy open mouth know happening me know thinking killing want it picky piece shit one way want go out oding doc cannot money think thing stopping right now life messy untangle fucked financially longterm much trauma feel close anyone cannot accomplish anything much physical pain smart feel much overwhelmed grief someone lost od year agoi hanging thread snap please someone help me please please someone need help please,1 +every time someone makes rant matter small thier parents guy dms run away home never talk again know im one made similar rants alts got dm guy,0 +want die painlessly possiblei planning take massive overdose prescription pain killers already large stash assorted anti depresetnts fair pain killers obvious would able cause lot harm myself main reason havent taken overdose yet dont want fuck up last thing want take medication cause irreversible damage live long painfull life dissabled person simply want take large overdose bed listen music slip away reletivly pain free ampxb im currently looking reddit comunity something simmilar could find cocktail drugs would man size fittness general health would cause slip coma heart stop beating would cause massive internal bleeding would slowly kill hours days,1 +hate one thing pedos everything,0 +reason overshare internet got judged people real life sharing hide behind anonymity get judged people least,0 +finally birthday hope everybodys day going well today turn im pretty exited ngl anybody tips advice would like give new year old,0 +justify livinghonestly dont think anymore friends nobody close even remotely im ghost everyone interact dailyor worse want go fuck away ive destroyed friendships recently beyond repair cant get said friendships destructions also inhibiting new friendships im going dryspell doesnt help im fucking disgusting look and beige personality got handed huge fuck careerwise im studying something college thatll get nowhere life acting really thought thatd useful whole climate world politics us leave fucking disgusted whats point ive harassed people really cared about im trash human literally positive traits im negatives one commitment left thats done two weeks im probably going kill cant justify living im good person contribute nothing society im like apathetic mole asscheek society nobody would care gone theyd take source relief thank god fucks gone shithead im cons pros cant wait december,1 +saying good night till get gf takers ama goodnight yall sweet dreams,0 +last fall life fine applying universities across globe getting accepted few even got good scholarships for decided decline offers reason yet discover thought better options me then got accepted dream university happened country always dreamed moving to started telling everybody moving country then scholarship announcement day came out get scholarship declined every single offer given point stupid enough think one university would work out not look like failure everyone much going me backfiring already told boss would coming back fall already found replacement job month stuck going shitty community college hometown rural west usa everyone always talks hard rejected dream school harder get accepted able afford itnothing seems working me direction try seems work out friends going dream schools across country stuck hometown without job much going gone hard think life could should be living right now life literally crumbling eyes ,1 + other see you space cowboygot six pack said goodbye ex someone new see things gonna get drunk eat pills blow hole head black out successful,1 +heyyou awesome guys thank much,1 +im eating pringles mmmm pringle,0 +whos celebrity crush mine johnny deppmatt dillonand finn wolfhard ,0 +running pickup lines based semiobscure particle physics knowledge im trying think one electron one neutrino little difficult,0 +feels like impressionistic film thingbr br the story well told poetic characters well developed well acted interpreters or interpreted actors br br the film delights sumptuous emotions times works well unless hate emotion movies casebr br its humanistic filmbr br the landscape even extraordinary situation displaced cook poetic rightbr br well donebr br a good classic good film collection,0 +officially christmas merry christmas everyone even dont celebrate christmas hope awesome day stay safe happy holidays,0 +list races racist brish people,0 +lay bed hours point back pain get work minutes clock in motivation anything days off literally stare computer screen force something bare minimum find wanting end it would bad ask myself lonely always broke hopeless disgusting looking half blind know nobody could ever actually want me decent paying job always playing catch financiallyin end resolve kill myself though want continue living would upset something killed me think id grateful always tired,1 +life deeply unfulfilling dont know whyim lucky many ways im married two beautiful children home spite this theres permanent hole sense longing dont know address becoming painful live this ive tried resolve years medication therapy havent helped always there,1 +responding old postshi there way filter posts especially last weeks one like zero comments think posting getting response would pretty shitty im trying best drop least one comment every unanswered post one feels alone way pull rather tp sift posts bunch people responded to,1 +going long post complaining please read time willing helpright week final exams barely studied cannot help panic keep imagining worst case scenarios failingi last year school year basically determines future people say country grades determines college go year living hell get even worsei spend day isolated room procastinate i behind studying year think behind cannot handle fursturation procastinate even makes situation worse reached point never imagined would condition week finalsi really started hate self develop impostor syndrome feel like good friends they could simply sit study one feels immense resistance fursturation also stopped believing god became secretly atheist envy religous friends something believe makes strong nothing one understand going i cannot help think like year nonending headache backneck pain scoliosis redflag makes worse worst thing parents expects get high grades would study engineering matter time find much piece shit get immensely disappointedthey high hopes one siblings good school year fucked lifei watched alot self help stuff work anymore i lost motivation help lowest point life,1 +tell parents suicidal thoughtsim thirteen years old im depressed suicidal weird days everythings fine next really bad parents idea ive tried dehydrating thing do feel nothing matters anymore ive felt way months anxiety too im scared tell parents already see sad scared looks faces want tell them want hurt them im afraid theyre going ask bunch questions know answer need advice also please make comments saying feel way things like that get understand im going through hate please last thing need right now,1 +hate snapchat memories wave sadness years ago bf took date shared dessert stupid fckin snapchat remind,0 +final part kieslowskis trilogy based colors french flag finds director peace metaphysical transcendent nature cinematic image red imagery paramount well obvious clever color coding however rather adhering empty aesthetic contrivances based cinema du look kieslowskis red multilayered densely plotted meditation nature fate love red love fate intertwined complex notions dictated much whims human beings invisible parallel associations seems pass us by sense red really allegory reenactment prosperos omnipresent gestures tempest yet story appears red demands countless viewings viewing something new discovered weaves already immaculately plotted structurebr br although red stands alone masterwork kieslowski best viewed part trilogy elements blue white referenced red knowing viewers enjoy,0 +course bump classmate day pimple nose first time im seeing year fml,0 +subreddit parentsis subreddit suicidal parents understand teens go hopelessness well fear posting negatively may helpful would nice speak parents going struggles,1 +bruh im angy playing black ops one zombies keener towton cant get public lobby never load kicks out play solo die like round forget hit ive playing blackops lately,0 +forced sex again refused became violent mentioned friend wanted sex hoped jacking would good enough overheard punishment slammed wall table thrown floor pushed back telling quit kicked ground heel kicked back panic attack collapsed unable breathe spent nights waiting pass out never did running small miniwinnie chased knife dog would come table she rescue abused would trip up letting escape hed hold hostage letting spend night cold boondocks common truckers come cougars attack farm animals pets felt sober enough would chase road hundred yards would walk three miles town wait park police station sure hed passed out,1 +film plain lovely funny hell old hills acting superb fascinating seeing postwar britain used behave days seems prerunner st trinians films given alastair sim margaret rutherford connection theres also young george cole appeared many st trinians films understand connection shown bbc recently biography st trinians creator ronald searle however missed enough biography miss connection film anyway great film right something preserved time,0 +ive got dilemmai suffering alot lately breathing anxiety depression way worse before get exhausted cant move feel like unable breathe tired feeling way anxious feeling depressed ive decided want continue suffer anymore end pain ive wanting longest time ever since never successful unsure guess tired ever pictured death times day dilemma met someone weeks ago says likes alot ask whats like says im gentle nice see words made feel nice im going hurt him thats sure im evil nice im definitely going worth anyones time also got closer friends became closer clubbing planned stuff like discovering new bars future actually really looking forward that discovered loved drinking feeling high partying wth friends made happy short period time want plans happen but somehow feel like matter feel like im forget pain temporary mind im thinking life definitely worth it end pain forever end life packing things dont want stuff kept want forgotten want theres still time change mind im scared im scared prolonging pain feeling worse know do,1 +active community diverse interests diagnoses require members people suffering disorders rather asking advice anothers behalf focus support support channels talk support volunteer lots offtopic channels creativity physical health memespam dailyprompt writing exercises haven care need it care others can,1 +underemployed verge bankruptcy redflag would solve problems forever im barely covering bills course student loans start paid june so find something better im screwed well wife anyway so life never really great me always manage snatch defeat jaws victory blind short asthmatic life long anyway a significant life insurance policy paid father would cover expenses for well long time im literally worth dead alive cant think reason come june earliest january ,1 +gone my therapist taking weeks off im gonne see again thank support im sorry,1 +feel weak saying this like little child say never heard anyone saying it nightmares fucking nightmares lot people say sleep feel peace lot people fucking disease spend day sleeping feel anythingwell lucky them cannot rest sleep shits drill mind sleep tired one talks nightmares,1 +since first saw anchors aweigh viewing videotape holds lot nostalgia me age easy drawn first great mgm technicolor musicals perhaps interested thinking future careers leading players though sinatra done couple negligible films soon emergence dorsey days solo singer first major film appearance another viewer noted seems almost warmup town sinatra may work hard it dance kelly credible would better next pairings however observing physique easy see caricatured string bean would imagined within decade would win academy award acting go play many roles tough detective leader combat though gene kellys personality dancing dominated film winsome performance suggest would become major creative force almost iconic figure mgm musicals developed style dance complementary fred astaire finally strange see freshfaced dean stockwell remember would later play thrill killer compulsion based leopoldloeb murder s additional note one reviewer praised performance betty garrett sinatras love interest later played opposite town pamela britton featured film,0 +take notch hello fellow pog champions need help state oppressed hundreds years need help taking land rightfully ours bring glory connecticut httpchngitdzhjvshbcthttpchngitdzhjvshbct,0 +real healer beautiful many ways insane lie expensive medication ive ever already cost when say medication mean therapy rabbit love bits im actually thinking getting another pet soon mum said yes allow another big animal sometimes help alaska believe bunnies sometimes handful,1 +starting suicidal thoughts month ago like fantasy first feel like becoming reality planning suicide year later know going scaring always alone life know felt going much bigger cannot even hold idea literally think logically solution this years old graduated high school years ago tryna figure live know connectionskillhopegoal nothing average see life unluck it one help mesupport still going like last years god forgive me scary too going happen kill myself life cruel cruel nothing accept this believe fate scary suicide,1 +film wonderful movie based life man called grey owl s canada found similarly riveting heartfelt rudy awakenings picks late grey owls life follows tumultuous influential periodbr br the film canadian indian trapper finds promoting plight overtrapped beaver also predicts decrease natural lands overuse earths resources outrageous concept s surprisingly well received becomes well known speaker masses ready listenbr br the casting pierce brosnan seems rather odd outrageous anyone wanting argue point must first watch movie understand brosnan provides wonderful performance annie galipeau galipeau strong actress whose place beside brosnan refreshingly natural compared forced pairings recent bond filmsbr br i would recommend film anyone interested good drama beautiful scenery environmental causes movie families well however children depending maturity would trouble following plot,0 +movie seems surface run mill kids movie parents regretfully watch mostly entertained little kids movie seems mostly geared towards children yet stop level watched movie first young child found funny entertainingand heartwarming see several years watched recently age found almost funny heartwarming entertaining movie highly underrated contains many messages real life movie inspirational quest story made kids yet epic right recommend movie anyone age,0 +film actually pertinent even today given threat bioterrorism threats superbugs west nile virus sars thriller tension fairly intense richard widmark paul douglas serviceable roles domestic scenes widmark wife provide nice interlude main plot actor film left mark jack palance sharply defined features seemingly easygoing exterior always wither way reveal avaricious cruel man beneath surface chase scene packing plant impressive even today recommended ,0 +goals going flow bad redflag whenever go work sometimes walking work want jump highway get hit worry paying bills anymore working tiring job understand people want bring life world born go school years more graduate work die great that know life make main things life slave work need roof head food electric water one pay check away homeless redflagful here exhausting life want die deal anymore working hours week tiring tired,1 +noose tied ive staring minutesi know im here last time posted even muster enough strength reply anybody feel like im searching magic words somebodyll tell make feel better exist want die cant take living anymore started crying writing sentence im still crying right now minutes know do want this want stop hurting bad know whats wrong me know whats wrong me,1 +spent last days hospitalit horrible makes wanna make sure stay dd next attempt,1 +cut high school dropped out close relationship family love love keep arms length comfortable letting get closer feel alone wish someone fun things with chat realized friends,1 +im diagnosed depression chill anybody else listen love songs feel like shit like yeah listen x juice lot rn im crying john legend songs nope me cool,0 +trying give comforting wordsi would love caring individuals would say kind words response message received fellow really know saw forums kinda light argument him later someone else said hateful words kill yourself responded confirming expect fairly soon person seems need someone got sucked in sent private message responded with gtthanks asking bore many details gist many years ive realized i problem almost every situation blamed others tell posts im enjoyable around much venom ive tried dialing back even turning venom selfdeprecating humor times use im natural asshole pain around tell people enjoy leave arrive tiring knowing constantly ruin days people around cant handle appropriately gtit basically boils wanting get way anymore cause anymore discomfort deserve it long im alive ill continue hurt others whether intentionally not fair solution take problem me equation let people live lives deserve without me all amount positive things ive done anyone counted without taking gloves off man needs encouraging words advice people please help give i showing thread,1 +let tell story want end life right nowi honestly know kind catharsis expect feel posting suicidal ideation reddit lets go guess life fine fact given current state world fine im financially stable job tolerate family loves me got going me still want kill myself problems selfimposed dropped college due severe anxiety such associates broke one person truly loved years ago never gotten it cause instigating breakup fault well cant even muster effort cook myself takeout here feel like best years behind im better cutting losses heading oblivion feel anything anymore said still think ive properly described feel way feel difficult put words imagine will every action world take waking morning going shitter energy cost pay every time it biologically actually right takes calories anything well feels like me costs three four times costs someone else anything this im tired time oversleep usually range hours ive slept hours before thing keeps taking pills morning one similar nature adderal ive always weird relationship sleep year half ago things never felt bad never felt drained time ive always difficulty motivating things feels like ugh dishes taken kind twisted extreme dad killed teenager brother tried shortly after genes fucked im honestly tired fighting them to cant mom brother newly born nephew guess posting go back cycle sleeping going work without much inbetween guess tldr heres nice numbered list reasons want kill myself guess enough care lazy people want read full thing mostly spirit animal past relationship stuff academic failure narcolepsy maybe suicidal ideation runs family oh im actually going kill like said one paragraphs got many people care that fortunately unfortunately make call,1 +brother told doesnt understand cloning told makes us,0 +im ready kill myselflike seriously im tired shit im hurting constant fucking basis week hard cant sleep cant eat properly without feeling nauseous due crippling anxiety haunts every night gotten bad turned deep paranoia ill honest know keep saying week rough every week rough one hitting hardest ive nothing taking pain killers drinking tequila wash down im well cant resort back cutting sitting drinking feel like ive got one left feel alone abandoned like ive got nobody else world talk drinking popping pills take pain away wish dead life irrelevant issues dont know want leave never come back nobody cares issues anyways cant make people care guess fucking hate struggling stay alive painful wake ever morning barely stay awake struggling go bed hate hate fact life become im close losing it feel god damn heart broken daily basis im always constantly crying sobbing feel alone worthless feel like nobody cares loves im already struggling getting affection parents dont know else do im lost im breaking cant take anymore im fucking losing moment im ready overdose slit wrists today day time want fucking die,1 +confessing crush like really seeing people react title,0 +every state got physical school cali online great hope last long time made permanent option,0 +struggling depression redflag suicidal thoughts since everything feels grey tasteless horrible recently decided take action took therapy session online psychiatrist asshole prescribed medicine problem afraid take antidepressants time want able help myselfi years old unemployed never anyone way look myself feel dum worthless ugly time none talk specific thing family religious probably would judge opining up dosorry english first language living depression,1 +reasons world screwed also general life tips disagree women face lot every damn day like every woman know made feel uncomfortable man makes depressed even though im male even though talked everywhere need people know kids need raised knowing like women even though im even women heard many storys probably worse think makes situation even terrible please tell every single person know make sure know police brutality think weapon use whenever want think police wont face consequences saw police car outside mcdonalds teenage girl shoplift something next door im kidding say job right good police folk isnt pricks abuse badge pedophilia ima say one time weve heard still fucking continues sexuality wrong terrible children easily influenced know ethics abusing sick sick im gonna honest deserve die take interest children heres something many people tell dont think dont want famous fame bad draw negative attention uh ever heard happened lady gagas dogs dog walkers walker got shot dogs kidnapped fame bad lead misery famous people assassinated lot famous people died fame discussed much people world still go blind it treat people around better every single day theres chance wont come home would want peoples image good try always happy conversation people hold closest mum quite ill face every day always try happy conversation make laugh always cherish every moment matter severe situation is lot people reddit would say go outside please dont toxic games game see people getting doxxed minecraft hear stupid is actual real life identity compromised actual illegal stuff block game noah get boat swear parents specifically embrace facts kid person make choices arent always going there dont overprotecting teach independent one day child grow well become adult adult things need realise wont always little kid life taking way things love wont make learn make dislike im prepared critized come good life,0 +want done lifei sit post lifes story wontin shorti want live anymoremy total situation insufferable saving little money towards car might take plan last week earth iti cant anymorei called redflag hotline back felt hopelessas time goes oni find less reason existima gonna get really drunk highthen end allthanx musa reference,1 +im going jump freeway bridgeive depressed suicidal years cant deal anymore ive tried everything ive numerous anti depressants talked therapist family members cant seem find solution im going kill see way tell people care mourn you shit matter im dead im finally going im ready finally kill enjoy living anymore suffer anymore would gone,1 +wants awards lot alts best gay prn wins must animated filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +promote discord server wanna promote server wanna servers wanna promote server rteenagers again good way promote server,0 +today became lol legal state owo legally adults u wanted lol yay,0 +youre ugly af mental health plummeting bc,0 +promised id give help one tryearlier today stood rope hands intending end it tie knot huge amount guilt hit me decided id give help one try put rope away went er get put hospital told said go see gp tomorrow sitting even depressed still feel guilty baby boy cant shake thought ending tonight tomorrow morning sure right now,1 +mcboing boing one cartoons stuck head years finally decided look pleasantly surprised also surprised people involved production remember correctly watch uhf station meant using converter days uhf part regular tv tune local station watch cartoon big deal days made show even mysterious remember sound effects gerald used talk great memory years ago ill see memories might hiding web way try computer animation thats johnld comes picture,0 +sureim going try brief im gonna go bed soon uncertain redflag im sure lot us feel way know do like think ending exactly want to however want put pain anger sadness anxiety frustration life throws us ive feeling like frequently spot cant change anything really getting me main problem family lot things changed past years different feelings towards people used love constantly worry fear future thing is want let anybody down especially mom im youngest three sisters itll likely leave heartbroken committed redflag definitely want mom suffer me then everything fault left anyone relate feeling tough decision want disappear sometimes im sure it ill january ive got ton front me im still learning growing yet intrusive thoughts get way everything this seeing therapist case wondering wonder redflag cutting myself,1 +getting harderthe man love stupid stupid young man one point got exgirlfriend pregnant despite supposed use condoms amp birth control stayed raised child two years her ditched love raised unwanted child alone another year joins army gets woman take back child tells child means nothing him never wanted child kills child another woman helped raise child initially kills know stupid avoid easily avoidable mistake tells never loved her never truly wanted her matter convenience pain convenient tens thousands dollars spent unwanted child convenient love him want him loving hurts jealous upset child another woman albeit unwanted child part completely love respect man unintentionally hurts bad unintentional easily avoidable ive never real purpose live really one never believed true love met man loving hurts me ive tried hard let child another woman bother me cry every day lost ten pounds matter week distraught became holding together better now still hard know much longer try keep up either im miserable without miserable point,1 +today birthday im depressed everive whooping people tell happy birthday today friends told happy birthday family members im posting sympathy someone tell happy birthday guess im vent since one vent reddit ive dealing depression years ex left didnt feel same im lately im tired alone im lonely old point friends girlfriends getting engaged kids im nobody life shit every single day work gym sleep really getting feel lame unwanted dont think im unattractive shitty personality guess girls see differently,1 +aight teenagers socially adept need help got back camping trip walking path chilling two girls maybe fifteen think laughing one asked ig gqve it walk hopped insta saw taht bith themhad followed sent dm requests said heyy obviously tiny stroke dont know anything kinda shit next day met again asked could hang anf explained campgrounds weekend can someone explain would greatly appreciated,0 +idk go mental hospital notf ive felt suicidal since march ive iop php programs still dont feel good im still kind scared might myself time mental hospital sounds terrifying id go public one probably stay er three days even got real psych ward part wants let get worse finally commit part wants try options anything irreversible advice would nice thanks,1 +dont want overly dramaticbut im feeling well tonight,1 +love sounds like love looks like love doesnt feel like love empty mea lot people say kind loving things me say supportive things arent really behaviour fit way kindness supposed sound like etc something deeply amiss element authenticity absent subtile hard explain im tired pretending something wrong able receive love admit now problem yes they somethings missing dont care theories cant receive love im broken that feel truly sincere desire support me trust me itd reach me heal me there said it feels wrong counterintuitive doesnt it say youre pretending im saying youre aware fact youre putting barrier us dont ask much subtle barrier dont blame dressing wall protect ressources simply wish youd acknowledge yes youre supportive support truly need thing dont want share me im important enough you dont blame that really wish could admit longer feel like im crazy feeling way sorry nonsense,1 +legend got released today week ago week ago fuck us tweaking hoe tweaking hoe,0 +sitting office aloneim sitting crying desk thinking want badly today texting people never text back try talk feeling even alone want get car drive national forest something find nice rock jump of,1 +advice help im probably dyingi friends family ive lost everything feel like crave someone talk to know talking help feel like im living outside body look around see nothing blur im hungry food taste like anything touch things feel nothing heart expected world more im dying,1 +hate decisions ive made lifemy college education several levels complicated curious send message ill tell you broadcasting identifying law school right now hate it hate everything it wanted doctor ever since child wanted doctor let parents make decisions raised completely vegan told want dissections took biology classes told would suck chemistry never took it never tried hate doctors discouraged every step way feel like late id go back school least years get practical stuff done even get medical school lets talk uncertain spacey seemed even talking shitty id probably mcat look doctors tv real life envy them want them know glamorous seems think law rest life want cry awful job market lawyers awful well job market bad suck law school suck everything feel like worst awful regret took path least resistance parents something hate never able want do also major depression ingrained never seek treatment my parents cannot bring seek treatment think redflag every day want hear information like said send message really need talk,1 +ive never close beforei really know im supposed post something like need get chest ive long battle depression anxiety despite quite probable born illnesses rather developing time think ive really come close redflag since ive finally reached end line light end tunnel darkness friends care me im another person talk to really second choice maybe fourth fifth choice good day days im last choice point im choice talking friend today told think might finally kill myself responded nice joke point people even believe ive jokingly said im going kill long maybe better way maybe nobody stop me last night realized soon today realized lost important person life probably good stayed extracurricular school upset sat seat cried entire hour none people claim care tried comfort me one person try even know me know feel obligated help minutes ago dad asked plan high school said die scolded not answering seriously little know plan kill within next weeks im letting sink might actually time feels wrong type share story feel right stay would stay world nobody genuinely cares me nobody even loves me worst part want tell someone want someone stop tell prove actually care one left sharing strangers reddit,1 +advice requiredi friend regularly gets blackout drunk collapses ball sobbing threatening redflag lately behavior reached fever pitch mutual friend taken upon guys sole source support even contacted parents police pouring heart soul kid refuses stop drinking go kind therapy as far know hes gone one session anything done get help well relieve pressure her beyond whats already done feels weekend worst yet not sure why anything done id appreciate advice,1 +feel bad got act first really excited know good score thinking little feel like standardized testing unfair people study test peers working assets off got good scores yeah feel like deserve do also drive all idea want college want go may good grades good scores anything else put resume applications put effort leader passion projects also good work habits feel super unprepared life college basically going good academics makes fee super pressured go high level university want easy life easy job guess ask guys recommendations use good test scores like scholarships do feel like could waste lot potential money lazy senior year,0 +revenge redflagdoes thought ever cross mind ever alone isolated uncared for feel like youve reached over over over yet one hears takes seriously ever feel like everyone life given you feel like jumping roof right way anyone ever notice care much pain feel onewill care im dead people finally hear me theyll understand serious theyll understand much pain im right now theyll wish would tried harder listen every time spoke hurting myself ending life past twelve months may dead may never see it butpeople finally care peope finally notice pain itll okay ill dead wont pain wont anything thats really really okay im coward im enormou fucking coward im sitting here roof slowly dosing medication hope wit long enough take enough ativan wont coherent enough feel fear regret second thoughts ill dead near instanstly jump finally gokng over feel happy,1 +merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas merry christmas,0 +long fucking year shitshow abused multiple times lies told me almost entire life ruined family thought things getting better moved started college everything hit fucking fan first moms car stopped working leaving us transportation spend loads money take fucking uber work back able afford rent saturday said would need get job help enrolled full time summer classes absolutely swamped schoolwork week giving up tired want rest hate leave people give shit like boyfriend behind cannot see making much less rest summer goodbye world thanks dealing shit hand tired struggling long giving week,1 +need eating mode reddit eating dont want see guys bleeding toenail,0 +ok trust im gonna tell something live asia pls kidnap,0 +day asking everyone filler filler filler idkeri filler filler filler,0 +cant seem able control anger want hurt love would better herei beautiful wife beautiful month old daughter find fuse shorter shorter smallest thing set off tonight daughter wanting put bed she crying hysterically picked mum quietly went sleep holding screaming ear felt rage rise scared something hurt her distract bit tongue times feels like control rage rises for slightest thing end making everything worse cant bear thought living without family feels like would better without me,1 +need fucking gf udhbddbbdbd dont even care sex wanna good relationship someone like urjdndbsueijfngnfjeudhcnfndjrufjcnf someday itll work,0 + types phub comments dont want horny anymore want feel loved come watch live ttvbotphubcommentcomyt change mind,0 +really want take clonopinim sure exactly whats going brain right feel awful went walk couldnt stop thinking walking onto freeway think need get shit chest girl love dating someone else every time hear name like new dagger gut keep looking mirror trying figure doesnt want anymore acne break out new haircut enough cant okay me keep trying everyone wants expects doesnt work hate contributing member society want anarchist poet morocco shooting heroin fucking prostitutes life pretty shit goals people expect reach sort percepted potential theyve set feel need want know im broken im bent need straightening whether thats close brush death maybe need go skydiving something get thoughts head,1 +dads coworker caught covid coworker tested today came back positive dad going test tommorow tbh matter time worried think im gonna survive it im worried family yeah wanted share yall stay safe everybody filler day keeps bot away filler day keeps bot away filler day keeps bot away,0 +got institution redflag attempt boyfriend immediately broke mei posted several days ago boyfriend replacing me ended telling needed go mental institute receive help wanted get better mentally one went actually lead trauma it cheap institute handled terriblyi put violent wing crisis got prescribed antidepressants help battle depression anxiety im facing soon got out let rant rave much missed him happy see talk him much loved him thinking entire time reason stayed okay there broke and replaced person afraid replacing im absolutely heartbroken really want commit redflag cant cant go back there cant go back path im trying stay on want badly dont know,1 +like fourth time ive shit today filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +year turn months tell truth sitting time bomb impulsive liar forever going justify like plan it lie everything things mundane time something extreme grade in parents think going senior year never even passed first math class reason got third time passed everyone virus turned upit clawing every day hell even enrolled year lied showing classes bullshitted way whole year playing video games instead school work always told if tells work always justified i would get paid work would it thing even true fuck mater earliest graduate time drinking ageevery day stuck thinking morning damn thoughts what life every fucking day keep waking thinking every time go play games thing enjoy even sure fun anymore know anything else tried going outside taking dog walk bunch things none gets heart problem actively avoiding work kind mentioned time bomb earlier meant months parents find sign classes probably even get higher year classes last yeari t diabetic sometimes night get dark thoughts head straight think all would take sleeping pills could od insulin would go coma bed probably die anybody noticed known sleep sometimes pm would easy thing holding back knowing friends family would sad happens realize nothing manipulate people liking never work already see kind person turning like staring ati would live handouts like leech stuck thinking what better die think suicidal realize lies go deeper far let see ending avoid confrontation always suicidal thoughts ever since never intense long know could think straight could think something cannot every time start thinking things come back this panicked thinking suicide want kill firmly atheist expect anything eternal rest diei stupidest things try fix depression word besides maybe intense redflag thought tried social friendly tried funny guy time went would get better tried getting better shape see everything else would follow starting better hygiene tried getting back touch close friends nothing worked served distractionif name worse thing though fun anymore maybe started lying tricking people fun though fun anymore lied corner got claw way out spent past months playing games ignore responsibilities months worked hell might even work but passed collapse yelling screaming know comes considering thoughts even now doubt something smartto tell truth pretty sure wrote pity true looking solutions already know them tell parents classes contact school sign classes work ass pass works well easy solution mundane problem asshole know am asshole shame admit truth fix life lazy piece shit like putting forth effort live better happens live life play work money back it maybe one day door door salesman piss offsorry bout long night thinking bad thoughts going go sleep stupid post situation internet tell thoughts situation tend overlook solutions one headtldr lazy piece shit wants pity lazy piece shit story guess,1 +early relationship help previous posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskhjdi_just_asked_a_girl_out_now_im_lostutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf going go watch movie back car days want try kiss would try that i,0 +cant anymoreim really sure right place dont really know else put this im feeling like would easier end instead burden friends fact im feeling like this dont know ask help point im afraid tell feel anyway despite fact things reasonably okay life still feel sad time know people life say things like well cheer sad im looking that therapy expensive think way easier,1 +dear youi know cliche tired tired scared tired sad feels like im half alive halfs gone somewhere wish could go too fact matter deeply love wish wasnt wish never met him going lose him sleep knowledge everyday feel hands wrap around mine feel scared look watching tv deep sadness wells inside me im scared know like live fear live like this im always afraid lose love always been say unhealthy feeling know met shortly got discharged hospital gave reason live love seeing face everyday sleeping next him waking next him watching play cat sometimes even think much hurts makes happy yesterday cat delivered nasty scratches arm washed carefully handkerchief think ever experienced love like this im scared losing it going well lately stayed home watched netflix day last night made us dinner thanked kissed lips think told would dead young something consciously planning say death offered ticket love much never want lose him thats must go happens want go knowing loved lose everything love much thats need go last memories good thank you,1 +search think funny printschi translation dirty whore shit ren iron otherwise ill cut cock,0 +hint pathetic nade post titled say something mean me minutes ago im start crying comments even mean need die,0 +males females scroll nut november begins tomorrow complete tonite,0 +semi ironic message god ok went date girl gonna go older sister going college cant please work once please god literally ive rejected times please work,0 +fucking pathetic assholei hate pathetic bitch ass much depressed didnt even get christmas gifts family ready another way disappoint lovely folks honestly kinda funny didnt plan live long lets see give final push,1 +im trajectory failurewhy die im going fail school cant even get bed im agender ones going ever see anything girl im im already failure edit bye,1 +shown mtv vh local theatre playing main movie remember short movie film saw day first time ever music movie like this tell seeing big screen mm print darken theatre gives much better impact seeing cropped pan scan version vh halloween,0 +help im scaredi wish could somewhere feel safe cant handle going work anymore im mentally ill feel like might hurt myself ive mental hospital nothing like thought would be horrible crying wanting get there wish could kept somewhere could feel safe able heal state im im gonna end harming myself im lonely,1 +hi try commit redflag tonighthello guys mg clonazepam kill someone chased alcohol vodka probably urgent need answers,1 +definitely going commit tomorrow questionsfirstly thought lot long time bother telling anyway things wish give close family friends redflag professional will enough write items get redflag note enough legally binding,1 +admit low expectations movie surprised find entertaining interesting funny entertaining thriller much horror film moments made hairs stand up even better though highly amusing occasionally hysterical comedic moments film youll know ones im talking about also great special effects and humor special effects necessarily separatebr br the acting whole goodway better typical low budget horror film lead jackie particular many smaller supporting roles like lawyer couple living next door pizza man well acted been film kept interest would lost belief story good interesting low budget thriller definitely worth rental,0 +im scaredi cant take pain anymore enough mental illness failure local friends bf doesnt care dont want feel anything anymore im scared havent felt hopeless years cant see light,1 +wanna talki need friends,1 +want get guy like troy bolton literally troy bolton perfect guy want someone like want much ask,0 +cutted dck accidentally last night fun vacuum cleanerhowever consider bag inside divice sharp pieces glass picked earlier many different positions tried night one really messed physically brother busted room caught red handedi immediately took dick rubbed pieces glassit aint serious hurts even pee,0 +friends teacher heard parents arguing online school want die basically computer microsoft teams glitched wasnt muted even though said was parents usually argue bad pretty much started recieving lot messages looked phone group chat people laughing me make even worse first year high school im fucking embarassed much went settings completely disabled microphone teachers ask something act dumb type messages either broken internet trash im still class im following along wanna escape videogames know least someone class online enter party feel like talking them nobody house talking want die,0 +really well made movie sumitra bhave always made sensible cinema favourite film her movie national award would pick represent india oscars least thousand times better shaaws going oscars india yearbr br it pity information and indian movies imdb lacking sometimes even wrong sadashiv amrapurkar played important character movie even credited pages rest cast crew mentioned all awards nominations movie given even sonali kulkarni indian national award movie even single vote cast doghibr br doghi hindi movie marathi thankfully escapes song dance sequence get tangled glitzy glamour halfwitted designer ware real life soulful story made rare understanding respectbr br doghi roughly translated two women story two sisters gauri krishna actually simple story sumitra bhave venture many sub plots makes difficult film direct entire movie set nondescript remote village maharashtra screen rarely ventures far house two female protagonists aesthetic sunsets onebr br the movie opens introduced entire house preparing gauris wedding gauri krishnas father hard working farmer house full happy nothing wanting simple lives however eve wedding gauris tobehusband meets fatal accident gauris father cannot bear tragic news suffers major stroke without strong working member house could fallen apart gauris mother shoulders responsibility works can cannot make ends meet life still easier gauris superstitions people halfheartedly try forget make gauri evil luck bringer outcast societybr br gauris mother writes brother desperate help accepts suggestion takes gauri mumbai made work brothels gauri sends home money earns conditions improve gauri gives life familysbr br however gauri returns home krishnas wedding mother come meet her allow krishna near allow gauri front guests loves gauri fears krishnas life breaks gauri completely decides return unfortunate life krishna runs holds gauri begs beloved sister return krishna promises stand her promises would face world togetherbr br there nothing required movie everything necessary sufficient gauri goes mumbai never told subtle dialogues tell us know bare story profound simplicitybr br doghi responsible cinema respectful subject handles respectful towards audience think mental capability four year oldbr br the acting first rate direction marvelous silences carry story forward way words could have script well researchedbr br anyone appreciates good cinema bound like doghi,0 +happy birthday everyone birthday st october happy birthday everyone birthday st octoberhappy birthday everyone birthday st october,0 +daily reminder peoples perception youwho really dont let influence you yourself unapologetic are stop caring people think,0 +im running ideas guysss supposed keep posting dont idea,0 +ready gohave two bottles lorazapem ready go get chest one cares im tired able walk move properly doctors cant tell whats wrong feel like ill never better im burden everyone love son hope forgets quickly ready,1 +caught screening sundance film festival awe absolute power film has examination psychological effects brave soldiers join military hopes protect serve country honor well taken care government it film details psychological changes takes place boot camp soldiers turned killers country put war effects return home also portrays effect killing human psyche pays homage soldiers never ever criticizes soldiers unlike films instead criticizes system prepared take care physical psychological needs returned vetsbr br this film powerful moving emotional thought provoking stands call arms support troops buying stickers going parades actually listening them helping support change way health well taken care killing endsbr br the best film festival far ,0 +need help anything need help something dm ill best help cause im feeling pretty bored wanna help people reasonable offers,0 +much wrong plan moreso needing talk shoulder starting snowball thoughso im bit strange unfortunately basically im female college graduate majors bilingual french still live home always cooped house dont drive due back pain run successful webpage large relative interest base filmed feature documentary im strongly featured in oh transsexual medical condition surgery planned may though cannot stand much thisinfertility hating tumor body missing correct childhood theres way fix above thats great it thats matters get complicated started hormones age lot people say young me ive always known since two denied hormones rather uninformed doctors therapist four years teen years still bitter never getting experience high school true self however fault family extremely supportive transition forth much so im told look inbetween them like years hormones hurts bit though perhaps understandable due cognitive biases hair grow either though touch recently pretty much people five see female think theyre nice hard tell times that four year old kids think im girl think im playing tricks them crushing probably voice though also say look like one last thing need horrific reallyive told voice sounds like jessica rabbit im dumb enough believe nonsense also worry ability get employed look fact applied fast food places area still hire me interview discussed entire company history plus menu best educated practices applicable corporation cant get hired this reason think succeed desired major finance either all grades sunk past three semesters father died completely unexpectedly really close thus live home friends state talk to im told im mooch leech need get life help things all really sure there want able repay family theyve done me some so way figured would get wheel fortune since area webpages focus disclosure love game shows pathetic hobby is lot really well them seems like would beneficial get on so january im audition wheel people probably make cut show number people room trimmed one never make mistake play really well get excited heck moreso players genuinely themselves many friends like five game shows hey could help page matters plus family right so wait two weeks mailed letter if shows poolmine come course lots friends made on feel inadequate life including chorus director family pretty close with happy him course always support people get something good life ive got going kind positive emotional state days mental instabilities always rooted internal processing mother claims because they tell trans thats percent it help asked name exactly appeared social security screwed since documentation officially changed march year appearance common name changed seven months point then told try first time thanks words encouragement like life dream anything silly sounds so let everyone down family page etc say otherwise thinking could done parties absolutely did tell didnt could given site information could gotten move heck here could paid surgical expenses told given one chance show id make it lets face it less show financial independence im told time much happier ill get jobam house sure much thats true even likely happen rather peculiar ending disclosure here im usually end things typically try help save peoples lives part im working documentarys media like help people become themselves even me larger scale heck presented friend jazz jennings last year front hundreds help encourage similar message im loser surely going blow potential worth nothing like many others sigh thanks reading this got far sorry wasted time dealing inane diatribe wish solutions many problems seem possible dead ends,1 +hospitalshas anyone voluntarily checked hospital suicidal thoughtsplans im anxious going worst ive wondering happens go helped you thanks advance,1 +people act like moving ex easyseriously every person try open miss ex feel like im lost without cant breathe say move forget her year half getting easier im sure ever will completely destroyed im coping all everyday wake wishing didnt know do,1 +get snapchat reason im debating it hate taking pictures confidence know it thats whole point snapchat also one best ways talk crush person snapchat atleast hear also work,0 +popular radio storyteller gabriel onerobin williamsscraggy speaking hushedhypnotic tones becomes acquainted friends fourteenyearold boy wisconsin named pete logandrory culkinwho written book detailing sexual abuse parents bootpete aids compels gabriel stillsince partner jessbobby cannavalegoodhappens survivor hiv himself br br he also acquaints petes guardiana woman named donnatoni collettebrilliantand gabriel decides wants meet talk two person goes wisconsinhe discovers secrets wasnaturallynot prepared findbr br based real events happened armistead maupinwho cowrote screenplay terry andersonand directed patrick stetnerthis film moves lot faster minmaybe minutes longerthan one might think movie genre would run thats good keeps action storyline lean clear bad leaves various holes plot sewup plot openings backstory id rather go great detail except say thatif familiar mrmaupins works personal storyyou feel little bit loop here stillthe performances williams wouldve loved heard narrationpersonallycollettecannavaleculkin much supporting castthe waitress restaurant colletes donna frequents great job small part hasare topnotch mood established herenamelythe chillylonely dark exteriors wisconsin new yorkgive terrific framing story may ends tie together particularly wellbut still compelling enough story stick with,0 +vampire tales cup blood gothfest based anne rice vampire chronicles prove satisfying experience veritable consortium undead contemporary setting queen damned directed michael rymer story shadows darkness unfortunate souls dwell therein eternitybr br vampire lestat stuart townsend bored world longer excites him asleep many years suddenly sounds world hears extended slumber change liking hears ventures forth investigate finds world filled new sounds new kind music driving penetrating sounds assault senses make feel alive welcome knows long last time come time like come open face world terms toward end becomes front man band singer performer unlike world ever known presents vampire quickly amasses following extends far beyond london where begins ultimately take death valley california plans give concert promises beyond anything anyone ever seen experiencedbr br lestat powerful without question kind take favorably fact revealed them one marius vincent perez vampire powerful right vampire fact made lestat many years before gathering coming together making plans meet lestat concert going music something else well one point lestat inadvertently awakened mother all powerful vampires akasha aaliyah make presence known all especially one chosen rule side king lestat concert rest assured akasha attendance without failbr br make mistake lestats story rymer presents amid setting rich atmosphere exquisite moments though film less bite say interview vampire bram stokers dracula sets good pace scenes provide real thrills overall film soaked menace could be much one might expect final tally fact amount flesh incinerated wins actual bloodletting though taste gore fair share lips mouths dripping red stuff theres good fx hand too especially sequences accentuate speed vampires move hurtle air faster naked eye discern decent job rymer could put teeth played alienation hinted lestat is get sense detachment enough get totally involvedbr br interview vampire tom cruise brought charismatic star power role lestat townsend even effective look attitude captures lestat perfectly plays sense acceptance closer scrutiny may even find hint remorse longing good performance one sells character convincinglybr br marius vincent perez nice job too is fact one strengths film though character bit ambiguous that however way written perezs performance quite good br br turning noteworthy performances well marguerite moreau jesse young woman curious good gorgeous lena olin maharet jesses aunt ultimately plays pivotal role outcome drama involving lestat akashabr br akasha aaliyah absolutely riveting presence one say gifted performer tremendous talent beauty and tragically left us much soonbr br supporting cast includes paul mcgann david christian manon mael claudia black pandora bruce spence khayman matthew newton armand tiriel mora roger megan dorman maudy much stronger story usual offerings particular genre anne rice fans especially pleased queen damned film nicely crafted delivered director rymer engaging cast focusing attention drama story way presented rather concentrating merely providing cheap thrills rymer succeeded turning true horror film definitely cut above one may whet appetite same thats magic movies rate one br br br br br br ,0 +legal highs citalopramhey guys rough year hopefully things looking up started citalopram weeks ago made feel like could achieve anything plus calmed stammer quite lot last week got face punched gang lads ended like httpiimgurcomdkozhcjpg ended fractured eye socket cheek bone bleed behind eye lay bed week really nothing getting bed feel like nothings going entertain something going waste time even though im lay nothing plus everything costs money id rather something make money really want purpose meaning life like career engulf life theres literally always something think head moment seems hardworking honest polite people end worse life know reddit feeling pretty shitty,1 +poor achieve happyim transgender cant afford medical transition seen treated wrong gender everyday cant afford fix it ive redflag plans mapped long remember life lately ive lost hope someday real me,1 +whats im bored anyone wanna chat m like computers video games music politics,0 +sun blotted out cant live total darknessthe thing stopping hard resetting access firearm far easy way go im weak make situation less miserable live wretched double life pretending someone im not im victim habits entrenched years misery top ive dumped presumably jerk mind stalling every moments racing million thoughts utterly motivation left ruined life terminal fear redflag socially acceptable cant commit entering eternal sleep without fretting much leave behind hope heart stops beating mourned briefly forgotten about,1 +ive looking excuse dayits here im here im sorry didnt care guys like trying care me stay cool stay real keep truckin shit good luck make sure tell people love them weird life,1 +good life born rather smart super easy time going school others always work hard could easily slide everything live middleclass household rich country never abused friends still incredibly sad time reason thought keeps even going much harder others it literally people lived hell entire life would deserve end myself tf sad,1 +thoughts coming back againi cant get head dont know do incredible girlfriend loving amazing starting college week wanna fucking it wanna end all keep fantasizing it usually comes waves bad long time wanna die badly also dont wanna die confusing wish could stop existing know cant wish something would kill me dont wanna leave family girlfriend despair do keeps eating away me dont wanna tell anyone dont worry,1 +found old teacher tv series nice,0 +goodbyethanks redditor who shouls named helped find best way cut die everything ready redflag note pills also knife goodbye might remove somehow surive,1 +hate step fatheri worst step father ever ever talk shit me explaining brother luck interviews today day finally got one parents ruined ended missing appointment felt bad mentioned step dad talking negatively customers said called good nothing lazy tub lard believe brother first time said things like me ever since young always something me used beat like father real dad passed started beating way sophomore year hs already lot problems really sucks feels way talks way complete strangers hate everything have cut many times thanks him try helping house always finds something scream for cry idk else do parents put turn comfort afraid kicked take want street dog suffer me,1 +lonelyi feel incredibly sad lonely today go days alone connecting anyone touched loved hugged existing sleeping laying bed like caged animal kept alive dont upset anyone dying feel like life isnt own hasnt long time ive forgotten make own quite literally kept alive others even though probably get pain not,1 +im going hang todayim posting mobile please excuse errors years old live home never attended college made attempt to currently undateable without friends believe lack college big factor that real friends moved lives live opposite end countryi live east coast usa got full time job pays fairly decent hourly wage fair benefits is however particularly care one way other means end passion immediate family paternal grandmother really ones think impacted major way think worry alas strength life anymore ill going later tonight currently est im years old tonight hang,1 +especially appreciate stories similar experiences such hope everyones nice day tldr ended redflag due relationship health redflag cant stop thinking might terminal illness cancer feel weird tingling pain area before even cough freak little alsoused suffer dodid deal it,1 +feel really depressed dad toxic bitch pushed fighting sister middle hate working day shit terrible hate living toxicity enjoy working enjoy anytging dads horrible person forced physical altercation dad,1 +rd flipin week im stuck dads want go draw digital draw tablet go play new bass got im stuck stupid shit hole mix mental stability collapses itself,0 +fuck still miss her dated month half like years ago relationships actually felt something month half fuck,0 +ugly cow fields concrete slathered people live dicks want friend hot dry sun hurts head still house rented yet living hotels dog died cat sick pain cannot afford surgery partner lives another country corona means cannot see seriously thinking ending moved back conservative hick redneck hometown want scream,1 +plani plans im waiting right moment hand might willing admit psych ward try fix things id rather give die nearly fatal accident past spring want hurt family almost lost once wish survived that,1 +kinda sickening mayor city caught covid people celebrating streets,0 +ideationim curious know plan commit redflag multiple ideas attempted unsuccessful regret itas feel like failure im planning committing redflag soon ive attempted several times failed guess rushed lost courage want ideas aside own mind clear calm now im ready die want back plan let know answers post gets feedbackor get flagged,1 +little girl desi adorable cant think beautiful story one here make cry laugh believe knowing based true story made gasp also made realize nice people there great cast overall great movie,0 +every day think i kill myself every day right miserable day every day exhausting fucking tired living life even want live everyone care dead festering feeling chest love caring wanted fix world want burn continue bullshit unrealistic hope one day gets better realistic hope become worse person replace love catharsis rampage bad one knows enough know goes head given day maybe someone would appreciate fortitude easy stay alive would make real easy dead another generic rant,1 +started cryingand started bawling started puking toilet awful felt mentally feel like going school tomorrow want miss it,1 +find gd duct tape context mom needed duct tape something like making stuff duct tape shes yelling find tape tape u move tape im sitting like no idk no response say havent seen it say im always using i havent used make something year half starts talking littleif u didnt always use wouldnt hide it fuck say tldr mom hid something me lost it blames me sorry ranting pissed off seems like right place,0 +update losing memory officially recollection yesterday morning back saying forgot everything recent events cant remember thats all know nobody cares ,0 +getting muchive battling depression since early age still live family also happens abusive ive chronically ill years completely turned life around trapped room left house least years lost friends result sickness continue school anymore cant work even online friends slowly distancing know anymore person seems still care talks ex seeing someone else cant really bugging issues still see love life also hurts much seeing new girlfriend looked around basement see could find rope luckily find one want alone tonight nobody ever keep company anymore life becoming hard me,1 +im think im done alreadyi feel like choice adult world seems impossible scary part of im like anyone know family oblivious ive feeling since middle school feel lost like many responsibilities idea handle never even childhood ask point even trying fix everything im body aches stress feel everyday scared drive get job even make friends feels like im late many ambitions ill let someone else dream up obviously wasnt supposed one go them dont know else say dont know reach to im scared might actually carry real soon used feel confident wasnt like people resorted redflag want close eyes different life know wonderful experiences there reach end day finally find wtf side whether ghosts real dream something scary af hate cutting chase way,1 +name already carved bulletx bullet cures defective brain ive even carved name it wish failure wish eat feelings become fatassi wish awkward weird wish brain hate me im planning using bullet officially get kicked parents health insurance plan longer get anti depressants building courage parents deserved better kid me want make sad hate everything hate people hate myself belong world last favor parents hopefully affect property value make quick cleanup either going blow brains backyard possible put tarps room want make mess,1 +although small film kind got lost wake waterfront edge city certainly hold star studded classic another story docks code silence rules itbr br next corrupt union lee j cobb ran waterfront jack warden really small time corruption hes real enough gang boss one docks intimidates workers handy fists bailing hook gets rest kickback part hard earned money hard earned money jobbr br one guy warden cant intimidate sidney poitier another gang boss tries intimidate newcomer john cassavetes poitier takes wing two develop quite friendship poitier wife ruby dee even fix cassavetes kathleen maguirebr br warden truly one loathsome creature sad sheer force personality physical prowess cows almost everyone else submission sense hes tougher lee j cobb rely impression collection goons enforce waterfrontbr br edge city marked big screen directorial debut martin ritt great job good cast new york based players spot location cinematography films low budget show impressed ensemble cast really carebr br cassavetes loner past hip tough poitier fine personal favorite film ruby dee gotten award performance final scene cassavetes outstandingbr br catch one ever possible wish dvd vhs,0 +could watch movie day love it probably time favorite movies but way badger parts bad language bad exactly g rated great movie recommend everybody way making type lines text going keep typing let post comment okay still typing getting annoying ugh still four go anyway watch movie even already seen it care lines yet nope lines left even know wants this think done wait minute im done sorry people know torture listening me well suppose read comment should wrote it probably done now finally bye,0 +spend entire day thinking redflag suffer constant nightmaresthe trauma never ends think anymore much hate existence life im miserable think ending all im tired people telling things get better reality may them me things get progressively worse im tired popping pills get synthetic happiness hour night im tired it wish dead,1 +im friend right im feeling extremely suicidlemy ex dosent care me gave tons chances cheats every opportunity gets hurts bad unknown illness doctor figure out im fucking depressed cant drink smoke drugs heart condition wanna die instant painless death,1 +ventrantpositvity makes sick angry hate seeing it especially online feels forced every single time hate people observe lurk dont care read shit people post please dont go way full blown investigations people post it fuck mind broken dead everything boring wish could die rn,1 +always hide true feelings dont wanna show others im depressed dead inside pretend nice day pretend im alright pretending dont know stop,0 +solemnly sweari solemnly swear although soon take life redflag nobody disuade otherwise kill otherwise hurt human plant animal take action upon only way punish myself living being help god,1 +idk wtf title ive real crushes would call ideal problem straight male lesbian isnt wonderful,0 + much want scale ,1 +a tale two sisters brilliant south korean psychological horror left speechlessthe film offers delicious moments ghastly horror extremely creepythe small cast actors truly excellentwith lead im soojung especially memorable lead rolethe direction kim jiwoon wellhandled cinematography absolutely gorgeousthe plot slightly confusingbut scenes wonderfully eeriethe action rather slowbut bored slightesti extremely curious intriguedthe housewhere film takes place looks incredibly menacing isolateda tale two sisters along ringu kairo one original asian horror films ever seenwatch masterpiece soon possiblemy rating ,0 +wonder atheist say us pledge allegiance sense yk says god im bored,0 +im close giving upwhen im friends feel nothing im family feel nothing im something used enjoy feel nothing realized little care friends give shit me give shit them im hardly even close reason talk im desperate talk someone even connect real way love family realize much care mebut still feel nothing single good day year day ended felt mind that good day ive realized little person inside really unless express people meaningful way ive realized much shy anxious silent really life cant connect people cant make people like you cant someone ever really know you utter piece dirt inside hey funny impressionable people like you even trying cynical accepted anxiety bars life want throwing towel care anymore romantasize everything life wanting great perfect life never put work get worst part is get lowest point want everything change improve life let things go back shitty normal cant take anymore,1 + weeks ago got diagnosis bpd borderline personality disorder basically narrow ability feel things either high low nothing depression just side effect it everyone never able feel things like love like someone either fully love someone hate love part got lost last years since years old years later weeks ago went heavy unhandable decided start therapy first weeks thought ah therapy help anything maybe better stop it super lucky doctor started build trust which borderliner extremely rare weeks went in around week weird effects kicked started get feelings never knew all stuff high low irritating way handle feelings even cannot name read talked therapists found way get around illnessnext step would get rid self harm suicidal thoughts deep wrath hate base feeling level only never another person problem take around years sorry long intro problem one new feelings others would call love experience feeling dumb sounds idea handle i know usually every teen knows feeling fell love one women also therapy am feeling strange hurts extremely much vent people may understand least bit acting towards feeling totally impossible know would super selfish woman problems carry besides part times women attracted long gonei know long text maybe one nerve time read us get out thanks read anyway also borderline trouble,1 +know expectim sure expect someone linked subreddit rfreecompliments posted feeling ive struggling depression entire adult life im turn id say ive depressed since made hard function even since felt like knew life would end hand every horrible thing thats come way easy blow excuse well im probably going kill anyways last couple years particularly rough clear life get easier think redflag every day even though tell persevere days cant find continue feel like sharing feelings friends family turns burden seems like would better stopped hesitating know im looking for know want better feels like im capable much cant escape prison mind,1 +know anymore want help feeling hopeless her im afraid going take toll relationship mental health issues actively dealing wish could see issues affecting people herself tldr mother unaddressed mental health issues get take seriously seek professional help,0 +graphic interchange format gif stands for g graphic said like guh juh pronounced gif jif,0 +itafter dinner im heading woods rope ready dark one notice nice quick guess end commit ill die anyway wait long wait till im old weak ugly disabled go years pain nothing,1 +first among us gameplay hope enjoy httpswwwredditcomusermofilafalcommentsjkramy_first_among_is_vid_would_love_for_you_to_checkutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 +really like show drama romance comedy rolled one married mother identify loreleis rorys experiences show watching mostly repeats family channel lately uptodate going now think females would like show males know men would enjoy it really like hour long half hour th hour seems fly watching it give chance never seen show think lorelei luke favorite characters show though mainly way one another could see something or take long see guess say br br happy viewing,0 +fap i,0 +mmmmmmm favourite gorillaz songs are dare rhinestone eyes also goodnight going sleep,0 +guys happen im getting closer net karma,0 +toilet seats designed women dont wanna say huge dick realised theres space toilet bowl thats kinda annoying especially theres toilet paper take dump,0 +reckoning nowive coming think theres something wrong world maybe thats got issue life kick old feeling everyday felt like magic day loop centuries now im trapped hours again seasons change showers fall droughts come still watching blank mind lost time seems know get out think theres way live life try damndest back started sense meant something time another future id win day itd clear made behovely world instead tomorrow like yesterday people talk dull loops itll like sitting awful movie sundry parts add anything noise sequence static trying speak me garbled crunches holding nothing randomness end rope im great pain suffering great sickness hope seems silly now life breathing passing away whatever comes next though think jury made clear sentence comes conviction profit,1 +storyi havent bad life honestly things considered fortunate but still happened thought gaping blackness lurks within minds rose took grasp twice life twice looked death face emerged scathed yet alive able learn move on tines girl different girls tine two deeply cared for friends quickly fell love them exact makeup type witty sassy sweet caring always trying make smile finally got nerve confess feelings turned backs me times thought killing myself seriously considered it fact recall pair scissors open neck crying mirror changed mind yesterday started crying work pause look mom completely oblivious pain bring back considering again year old white man never girlfriend kiss relationship kind body image issues related manhood raised religion teaches lust desire sure fire tickets hell perhaps important others wanted say struggle thought well do trick decide keep going gets better know sounds like cliche genuinely believe it give up fight on one day emerge victorious faith you you yourselves catch later good day try smile,1 +left school pursue career enjoy love partner want alivei left school take internship software company really enjoyed ended staying months later got job company overworked paid peanuts put it age flat living myself anyone elses standards well myself felt nothing owe parents copious amount money spending problems poor diet weight becoming problem real friends point feeling pretty down attributed mostly bad job had thought could fix getting another job did ive new job months now feeling worse enjoy career love partner particularly feel like alive either keep invasive thoughts waiting train public ill stand right safety line train approaches think jump it nobody cares anyway physically turn away track train stop myself similar thing crossing roads late ill see car approaching ill slow think go on hit me please feel like im following routine dayin dayout waiting finally die im scared know get this need talk things someone,1 +birthday oct th will planning potentially day after im sure getting better me ill never find people gets me lover anything guardians mentally amp physically abusive almost bordeline narcissistic struggle race black weight no idea obese general outter appearance really much fact thought perceived one else except family members i go dont worry abt usually send breakdown disgusting look especially men cant basic things parent treated likr child age done everything me incapable lot things gone hs parent decided hs day turned years ago nothing live for sad everyday exhausting,1 +best movies categorized comedies actually blur comedy drama the graduate butch cassidy sundance kid made also late s perfect examples comedies dramatic undertones dramas lot humor many respects the odd couple falls category comedy yet highly dramatic deep underpinnings human nature much happens may funny audience characters laughingbr br despite rather lighthearted tv show s original odd couple merely neat guy messy guy forced live together marital situation really two opposites must face marriages fell apart detrimental idiosyncrasies reveal outside marriage neatness characteristic felix ungar jack lemon perfectly cast messiness characteristic oscar madison walter matthau beginning somewhat superficial story unfolds find lot men simply neatness versus messinessbr br briefly story really felix ungar face impending divorce wife francis never meet important character throughout story verge suicide ungar goes place knows apartment oscar madison group poker buddies hang every often learn ungar member poker club group knows whats happening try inept way help out madison figures best way help ungar let move suicidal tendencies wear offbr br unfortunately madison know hes getting into madison carefree happygolucky rather irresponsible slob whos refrigerator last cleaned probably herbert hoover still white house madisons idea serving snacks grabbing moldy cheese sticking two pieces bread throwing contents bag chips table hand enjoys booze women short good time br br ungar altogether different diametrically opposite obsessive neatness nut finds joy disinfecting apartment meeting women knows women cooking fine eating one point calls exwife talk reconciling get recipe meatloaf another moment ungar going spend rest evening cutting cabbage coleslaw madison seems unimpressed ungar finally confesses roommate cant stand coleslaw guy another endearing trait felix also hypochondriac obsesses health point makes strange noises public places claiming hes helping sinuses seems every health condition book made more felix would probably them ultimately overly selfabsorbedbr br running throughout movie references marriage one point madison trying convince ungar move in says what want wedding ring little know neat guy cant deal messy guy way around friendship becomes inadvertent hellish relationship climax occurs oscar invites two lonely british sisters gettogether comedic tragic results one best comedies type ever written missed superlative performances walter matthau jack lemon roles hard imagine better played anyone else unfortunate writing caliber sadly lacking comedies produced today,0 +still hate crime also hang white people tree asking friend,0 +waking school everyday killing meeveryone mean nasty entire place toxic ive survived years cant even comprehend way drinking drink weekly thing makes happy friends interests want pursue parents tell me some people would give everything education case used barely attend welfare officer got involved attend everyday two years days blur point want hear schedule literally wake up go school endure insults overall hell go home enter bedroom lay bed debate hanging good minutes high point week get drink spirits friday im seriously seeing point going much longer please help,1 +idk do looking symptoms adhd symptoms told dad might adhd yelled said dont it dont know do,0 +hey you yes you wanna watch paranoid person play zombie game one zombie ruin progress made answer yes im streaming billions rn would love see guys make fun play twitch xdimitri hope see,0 +ignoring him thats post about basically time ex recently decided knows cheated entire relationship i didnt knows im chick online post xxx pictures im not reminded incidences relationship literally never happened like one example that time called jail cried bc guys house knew wrong told needed help yet show evidence it exist hes literally fabricating things thin air claiming happened denying abuser hes saying like you bad too,1 +maybe im gonna rich great grandfather owned whole beer company multiple fabrics soviets came took away nowadays possible get things back proving inheritor lets gooooooo,0 +_ moments guys ever moments u wish earth would swallow could yearn invisible,0 +tangy would good name orange cat cats cant eat oranges make sense,0 +deserve livei raised normal healthy im emotionally defective toxic social failure potential friend push away hope stop interacting me think im healthy around want ruin life unfortunate upbringingtraumas think explains end total fucked psychologically told much lies like im daughter high ranking military man lies im still cringing think day reason general hate feel towards although kind authentic person dislike something her god still eager friends me im like please leave im toxic reclusive talk months except initiate first im bad friend know friendship works leave cant everyones cup tea thats ok person know that think im able talk stop interacting me admit envy living normal life normal mind blessed likeable face sounds pretty dumb immature know well tried work myself spent money time effort get better turns damages cant repair talk anonymously online helps time im back suicidal idealation contemplating much could cause serious harm people completely lost self control hate admit im bit narcy sometimes cant help it like whats going inside head either want cause possible harm could someone want associate cant help it here strong potential commit something awful law im done life,1 +understand people care try kill yourselfas typed realized kind way guess bothers people put peoples feelings irreversible ive talked family members coworkers feelings depression event thoughts redflag theyve comforting moment realize feels shallow me want people put everything dedicate making feel better anything like that guess nagging feeling kill one seems interested helping find way deal it ive heart hearts discussions how fix problems hard fix problems own ive managed get lot done crying whole time sure feel like living inconvenient im constantly distracted occupied something feel absolutely hopeless miserable lonely ive thinking killing give money family dont want people start caring hurting im dead lol thats one factor thats holding back boyfriend person ive told plan obviously want appreciate thought course know money help everyone ever could id want natural burial shouldnt cost much throw corpse ground dont want sad really dont live different countries make enough money visit eachother regularly hard take steps get paper work done live together think itd lot easier someone wealthier even country with friends talk thats fault keeping touch family ive tried reaching to everyone problems know feel like itd better environment family financially killed see huge set back yeah theyll sad im adult cares adults theyre dead,1 +want mummom know feel open minded personi struggling reason keep pushing quite time gone waste im miserable want end however small part wants tell mother struggles raised s though experience mental issues depression anxiety etc tell her also fyi hate confrontation,1 +hey you yes you looking good today filler filler furry filler filler,0 +reality meant mesorry english native language im year old student dreams even try work succeed going school every morning seems pointless terrifying idea stuck stupid routine going default school get diploma work default job survive depressing me im probably selfish millenial thinks hes owed everything want work it worst part beautiful loving girlfriend amazing small group childhood close friands parents support financially emotionally know depression anxiety too yet cant help it future fucking scary seems dull matter do think im right society perspective spending whole life working terrifying considering much im stressed every single day school work right im holiday amazing thought going back school september unbearable think id rather die suffer year school again fuck seems ridiculous put like id rather die think girlfriend thing holding back september leaving study canada months we french dont think ill able handle it text way long might wrong subreddit whatever,1 +wanna know im alone anyone else think relationships rated ive lead on let heart broken past done feeling emotion forming super close bonds people ive grown shell bit wanna smash go anyone me,0 +school lunch ever sit nice delicious school lunch frozen cold,0 +feels like im spiralingevery day wake think today gonna better remember problems bad toothache grinding teeth night stress awake couple hours still persisting insurance teeth fucked many bills pay little money many things do none seem worth doing want let everything lapse let bills pile up let get evicted let whole life wither everyone looking strength fix problems find job get shit order even strength roll otu bed feed days save even care myself cling life young miserable sorry really sure else talk to family keeps giving platitudes like things get better you make this will,1 + bragging finnessed christmas say im homeless chill times square,0 +wish people caredsupportedhelped mei know horrible thing wish im horribly ungrateful one maybe would finally courage oldest id hurt many people look cause sibling blindness parents love always tell proud are girlfriend would follow went friends feel way wish none heart put bad luck enter life life prison,1 +uh oh losing blood finger bleeding im eighth nosebleed week wonder ill pass yall uwu lt,0 +know crush typed months months thinking or overthinking thats accurate first heres things me im single extrovert enfp particular one people wonder those whos never relationship anyone yet know way around comes dealing people sorts habit keep analysing every single detail gestures made people way talk etc used like traumatizing experience multiple melancholic ordeals ive life came certain agreement something change became better version despite never going therapy sessions or least thats id like believeyoull find brackets bit used sensitive fuck but like said something change stopped crying every little thing used cry like baby mastered point people known never seen cryingangrynervous face nowadays person fucks me really get affect lifeday way id like dudes got problem whatever basically became familiar horrendous shit people put sometimes or time take hat still reading point probably wondering anything title post patience homie were almost there say im type person deep deep analysis thingswhat expect anyways back point talked crap get people sometimes affect me right well last year got know terrible person irresponsible entitled rude senseless impatient annoying etc really mind becausewho gives fuck him hes worth attention so never gave him actually really need person get needed managed own worked alone made top without him left place see never heard again end story think so flashforward year met person job mean one left difference much patient sincerely passionate duties highkey charismatic sweeter honey even devil would proudly become angel see much hard worker is him turned lazy cow workaholic say im workaholic mean negative definition leads thinking life got ruined it no didnt know why i somehow managed turn willingly person real life magician everyone loves much hes celebrity im saying lots lots people keep surrounding him talking him taking pics even hanging him since ive got know person recently actually saw others faces real life since along online zoom celebrity vibes behaviors met him nowwe get important part post feelings definitely guessing ill asking whether crush love him right man go ahead say wrong remember part said used sensitive said stopped crybaby surprise went back that suddenly became extremely sensitive person was get enough attention person tears would always find way eyes never came rude person moment realized therapy bit problem least thought first since never really got offended anyone else give attention needed made cry hes nothing wonderful person question asking got angry every time talked laughed girl standing there looking them hate anyone id hate girl moment know im stating obvious thought something wrong became sensitive persons presence life cry every day feel like exist world forgets see messages zoom whatsapp broke rules social media accounts installed instagram especially knew replied dms faster there tapped follow button profile took back next thing knew feeling empowered followed follow back seriously absurd still acting weird mean actual fuck exactly met today ended crying moms car again ready cry but mom asked whats wrong seemed upset tears rolled cheeks again get it understand crying get walk building like girl kept walking talking casually knew before know like becauseusually like stated earlier id think silly little shitty thing carry life this nothing shitty begin acting like understand reasons behind actions thats got astonished moms straightforwardness said dear know get crush person time time thats okay butyou cant fall person know love back hurt you yes cliche conversation mom soap operas denying nothing like that saying delusional girls crush me saying saw signs crush theres also am rethinking everything typing since pm falling asleep red puffy eyes it started acting weird ever since knew person behaving way never thought would ive never crush person fall anyone before im still single experience relationships even feelings like ones im moment doubting depression something even lost weight days insomniac knew start people always notice existence okay actually adapted things way ruined knowing person so im asking again know crush thought problem first mom said today hit hard thinking throughout day looked back acted since day knew and magically everything revolving around one way another im eating noodles id like does person x like noodles im working out id think how person x work get muscles go cafe usually goes to id imagine meeting coincidentally which amazingly happened two days ago took advantage extroverted side actually go talk aboutanything really somehow managed improvise something spot talked hilariously made laughwhich kinda felt proud reason heres another thing realized person one trembled talking to hardest make eye contact with im saying this anxious person struggles people one knows nothing deal people forced deal daily basis understand id tremble get tickling feeling stomachthe one get come stage perform something front many people weird problem stage talking public capable that capable of however acting normally around person id feel stupid stand front suddenly run things say stairs me eyes full questions id say done wanted tell him know might laughing screen phone reading this listen here laughing probably before more here me no no no no never this never was im sorting everything see people know things would say now crush long take feelings fade away crush supposed it thank actually reading line say somewhere figured sub would best,0 +keep getting texts doctors office keep getting texts doctors office even state say my daughter appointment daughter kids said say stop opt said stop text month started getting yesterday today say besides kid live mexico get leave alone also said incorrec information still text call me,0 +guys comment lots comments normally dont cause nobody probably see it hundreds thousands maybe even dozen bother,0 +every day feel long five days ago feels like month ago going,0 +ruined another chanceevery girl talk to always end talking much never talk again ive single years now years ive talked girls nothing fulfilled anything inside me im completely fucking dead inside ive suicidal since years old im now im fucking worthless social anxiety enemy fucking defeating me,1 +ban i hate pedophiles i pedophilia pedophilia disgusting thing child porn digusting thing think either ok disgusting child groomers also disgusting i likely gonna banned sub soon idiot thinks pedo not cant technically anyway year old attracted fictional characters older pedophilia people older attacted kids leas years younger definition pedo people disgusting humans ps fuck mini ladd,0 +low effort titles look found wish im giving a first purchase code ybfxrdb httpsdlwishcomevxq,0 +girl im talking asked friends snap gave asked gave her title says said and one exes looking closure v weirdthrough sc im getting confused thinking idk respond ideas,0 +help help someonemy girlfriend told me wouldve killed herself suicidal life now mental health problems weve dating year now told quite recently knows going it breaks heart suffering much know things going really badly her home life great neither school everytime ask ok shed say am ever gets major mood swings im worried her tried therapy seeing psychiatrist counselling multiple times says none works given up tells sad hurts shes constantly exhausted death would like coming home her im worried her ive trying get excersize morning keep waking ive heard helps know know helps figured guys could help help her want make life little bit easier her anything help im grasping straws here whats something love someone else you something might make feel bit better know right sub anyone knows something wanting die itd guys right know thing it,1 +feelekjdbcilawuveficb oubvu highojifcvuigyowiuefjkdsssvhbejlwoidfcuhygvulfhdbvcik fhqegiyafudhkcxnuijdbslkv buidfj kelrrrrrrrbfenjdkhgyuftrdyktfhbwjrkadgwuobjkrdhwefeaihdskgluccccccccenbbbbdvskfiehonwdvsbdibkeo cugcdbwjliuebkedhvgoijlkrjrbhfuiopjihugtyphjkgnrqgbehaod honl 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finally felt confident enough try making friends pandemic happens ruins everything top that home life sucks theres lot fighting goes on parents argue lot sister fights parents etc parents pretty overprotective us well makes hard go whenever want im overall super depressed situation feel like nothing look forward to grades shit past two years shy make friends mostly stuck myself feel like need balance life bad social life major reason grades struggled much year joined club feel like im finally gaining confidence become social person hard everything online feel alone recently ive lot bad thoughts history cutting although havent done months urges becoming really strong hard resist find constantly laying bed listening angry music also cant stand around people anymore find everyone fake feel like ive become angry cynical person know therapist always tells need change mindset much easier said done,1 +got girls sleepover look im gay anything invited me it guys,0 +im feeling okim genuinely feeling little better today cause someone said help lot make happy first time ive told something like that anyone else love someone comes help like created supportive atmosphere willingly come help makes happy knowing come,1 +guess whos texting friend midnight ulolxd has tell sleep actually bc im playing gamepigeon rn,0 +yesterdays events realized yesterdays events realized online friends way better real onesif seen post made yesterday might knowyea least online friends like like would always talk play games toghether real friends ehthey like like even want reply me hope guys get need rant hhhh,0 +realised havent cried years lol dunno thats good thing not still intrusive thoughts though,0 + days till im oap okay maybe oap styll one year till im longer teenager quite concerning,0 +find redflag forumsive heard forums people encourage redflag even discuss redflag methods anybody tell find websites,1 +two weeks since hospital feel fantastic hiding feelings transgender man supported parents finally educated themselves respect me stood edge ran towards it stopped thought that steep drop fall fall lasts long scream anticipation waiting die what actually ascend sat called cops spent days hospital psych ward open feelings also realize me suicide work sound fun put back antidepressants ones work real well feel fantastic worked like charm sure still deal crippling loneliness peers put least tolorable again life precious feel great,1 +first person make laugh get anything make laugh ok epic particularly susceptable never ending horde among us shitpost memes sense humour good ok,0 +everythings lesson sometimes loseim done tried best years best isnt good enough words long wish well,1 +important question feet nsfw may sound like joke something im actually serious would say ghey nsfw,0 +link twitch stream case yalls links arent working haha httpsmtwitchtvreemaplay rn theres jk soooo,0 +thanks dudewas already suicidal tonight someone calls school shoter instagram thanks dude makes feel great tell friend going overdose says oh completely uninterested little things like get state math dont enough pills overdose cant keep fucking living like this even living miserable inbetween state existence want fucking end cause pain time im scared pain want die,1 +im starting feel donei really energy write everything out consistently losing since teenager somewhat serious plans end teen im severely depressed since july prompted seek help ineffective romantic social life speak of im wasting time college used think would never commit redflag day wears more feel like im reaching sort threshold im still deeply uncomfortable redflag find thinking increasingly want miserable want gay want unsuccessful lonely loser keep thinking maybe one day happy things look bleak now im disappointed way life turned out would ask start enjoying life feel hopeless suggestions welcome anyway disclaimer im currently danger others,1 +theres nothing really want feels weird really wanting anything idk even want christmas also havent gotten job yet new pc would nice dont even game like anymore wasting years childhood adolescence ill never get back playing dont fill dark empty void anymore,0 +little brother got fucking ps birthday give dollar lego set pack batteries stuff thing is hes years old back age xbox ds years kids days,0 +mom tried kill againi sick everything wanna die hate everybody hate me,1 +everything illuminated like viewing fine piece museum quality artwork absolutely inundates emotions broad spectrum jonathan safran foer played candor elijah wood search paternal heritage ukraine travels bring contact alex played well extreme humor eugene hutz grandfather emotional tie film aptly portrayed boris leskin one finds little humor human characters cinema one turn mikke real dog called sammy davis jr jr alex grandfather also call seeing eye bitch cinematography spectacular colors important part patchwork film film worth time emotional investment,0 +im gonna soon im gonna see girl like wants gf weve known month minecraft together time even though never met irl talk discord lot wish luck guys,0 +im ranting relation ship stuff saw post thats got idea btw really want relationship want talk someone problems night hug im feeling feel wanted cared someone make laugh matter stick side threw all hard find ppl want like hope find someone one day idk im mainly see lot ppl saying stuff like got girlfriend makes bit depressed also yes ik thag sounds quite pathetic anyways thats good day,0 +people still sub well discovered sub browsed everyday meantime started dating wonderful girl went college moved together broke live brita pup im now still feel connection sub years ago so people still this way anyone needs advice life one slightly older prolly nothing wiser im always chat thats guys ,0 +bored discord anyone wanna stream jojo discord cause ive got literally nothing else do discord swifter numbers ,0 +friend going shit post supposed funny friend going shit want help idk how told needs talk im idk else help her anyone know help help,0 +said redflag reason wrestling dad gun im sick bastard wanted kill rest family know made post know even really got wanted say feel alone almost year since day even today family twisted actions thinking im sort failed murderer,1 +would helpone best childhood friends took life last year ive wanting talk help others going similiar horrible situations know theres lot resources would find helpful website provides realistic everyday suggestions help state mind theme would something similar its normal feel normalie everyone going something going difficult time others individual something today help get deep dark tunnel depression suicidal thoughts time would include everyday strategies help stories aftermath redflag stories former suicidal people feeling better better track thoughtssuggestions welcomed appreciated,1 +saw film original theatrical release austin texas old paramount theatre i know still exists went speakers around walls connected accurately six channels years age blown away concept surround sound completely foreign music film timebr br i vividly remember least three outstanding scenes surround sound made huge impact though please forgive time warped memories inaccuracies first travel camera catfish row alive sites sounds daily activity saw one first blacksmith example camera passed sound would continue heard passing left right side theater rear second marching band seen first front marched past camera splitting left right sound instrument follow directional path also changed timbre played toward you side you away you enough also accounted doppler effect instrument went by third scene near end movie porgy leaving catfish row new york look bess half cast members pass camera leave village sound effects marching band half castchorus sing along also wave voice goodbyes porgy friends friends replies heard sides rearbr br surround sound used splendid effects throughout movie think remember rock something thrown pier hearing land water behind me little things like evident theatergoers lucky enough full six channels things would seem mundane theaters without itbr br i stayed theater several showings could then went back several times left town never saw movie again literally begs release dvd restored picture fidelity surround sound hope someone somewhere preserved it please gershwin family allow released lost good generations,0 +never posted something like beforethis going sound like jumbled mess goes cant stop crying dont know why one things think youd grow get used feeling never do feel like im pushing husband away anything try fix makes worse knows problems tell im broken dont know fix it ive like long remember started cutting again days feel numb helps feel something know hes struggling knowing that feel like burden hes constantly trying make happy cost happiness doesnt help makes feel like financial strain doesnt deserve that hes good deserves better me get angry get angry selfish different try mold something need like dance doesnt selfishly force something doesnt like make happy got fight last night started crying know fault hate knowing hurt him dont friends course family ive always bad example daughter know love me feel like every decision make isnt right one feel alone also know im not head since started writing this feel better needed vent,1 +worried die someone find horrible things me know care ill dead anyway still scared factory reset phone searched,1 +god fucking love anime girls fucking much god fucking damnit hurts much physically hurts me lay bed dream day ill never them never,0 + decided im much pussy kill myself cant even leave flat ive trying force go hours im point im even sad banned every discussion atempt atleast sort communicationcant look gf eyes cant force even talk dont know feel im failure complete human wreck,1 +series vastly underrated like many others came upon farscape series cancelled bought season surprised find smartly written drama infused balanced mix suspense romance wit and course scifi right bat got first series movie satisfy us hero every alien comes contact speaks english okay others skirted issue farscape best point is writers pay close attention detail make show believable possiblebr br with much bad programming there shame balanced entertaining series farscape get enough exposure recognition stay production enjoy four seasons and thankfully fourhour miniseries maybe make enough noise convince producers continue show,0 +cant anymoreim tired everything everyone anything life offer one cares help me trust anyone anymore experiences old friends constantly stay bad friendships pushing away anyone whose nice head thats good true want trust anyone seems like good friend know able bear hurt again already cant bear anything else dont wanna bring anyone else apparently thats here im done dont want anymore friends havent pushed away yet im hiding everything them know problems im acting think im improving cant continue burdening anyone although wish strength keep myself know dont everythings getting worse dont know much longer handle for nothings worth it try,1 +plastic bagfor past days ive putting plastic bag head hoping time wont untie it theres life future dont try convince me wanna get thoughts head,1 +okay homophobic like lets imagine im homophobic bad yes why opinions,0 +fun fact rteenagers still option report pedophilescreeps like wtf thats kinda weirdchamp,0 +overwhelmingly sad past days stuck thought notredflag significant others friends ruined past years thinking stuff used make ball eyes cannot even work tears now pain numbness comes it complete rock bottom ohhhh boy even capable crying anymore,1 +im giving week slit throatim sick,1 +feel like redflag inevitable me havent found courage go yet world wasnt made everyoneits years since knew didnt want alive anymore finding courage end really fucking hard though im much pussy it dont know though absolutely reason alive reason cant pull end put mental torture years end super frustrating sorry ranting,1 +always said im gona parents gone cant think reason kmsi always thinking im gona wait dog parents die still look feel obligation live really wish die,1 +ever spell word fucked google doesnt even know youre talking about took figure spell asterisk,0 +sorry ok long time tuesday know happened me done,1 +really liked two coyotes one friends rented night really impressed good cool main guys were wonder thinking making sequel would excellentbr br two coyotes rocks,0 +m depression redflag issues years old put paxil years quiti feel good time still panick attacks occasion hard time getting necessary motivation complete tasks i started new projects completed none them get new passions every months quit fast camebecause arythmia problems quit coffee years ago i heavy drinkerevery allow cup coffeeright drinking it feel soooooo good mind clear motivated everything calling friends hang out starting new programming projects completing existing ones playing sports reading book cleaning ac unit etc suddenly day wonderful want buzz endi feel like people state mind day longtherapy bring state feel like biologicali depressed per se would feel much better could state timeis like drug effect think could reach state mind long period time either taking prescription drugs mean would like feel like time,1 +say im lonely lowkey cant snuggle bed watch shows want hang out,0 +want relationship feel like many friends want boyfriend girlfriend title anyone mind yet really want relationship without ever one even knowing something would enjoy idk feel bfgf accomplishment goal positive sure someone care feel like theyve lost meaning bit obsessive,0 +subject acne acne frickin painful acne thing get body theres bacteria dont need make literal war zone,0 +next weekendi house next weekend ive never felt empty before even im laying bed someone care keep thinking it much easier would be life shambles nothing ive done past two years helped ive pushed everyone away let toxic feelings people in tired dont want fake im okay im okay,1 +really living guess still alivemy mind undersand killing now instead waiting years parents cant work motivation keep living would rather dead waiting time kill gets boring makes people think want live need kill myself try die instead pass time things really want do keep mind occupied whats point going kill anyways made decision years ago changed mind since then stacking benzos antiemetics future redflag attemp hopefully attempt really get people choose live care it gets better want it seem able make final choice many things could go wrong fuck,1 +know weird would anybody talk phone discord voice calli feel like shit need vent talk someone random basic things feel little less alone depressed right now least pretend friend want to pm please im im malicious im fucking sad,1 +matter change life never enough ill always sick want stopi suffered bad anxiety depression almost long remembersince puberty im twenties always thought various reasons hated myself stress current job school anything fucked class forgetting write paper im working much feel like total fucking failure think give drop become housewife boyfriwnd finally kids like planned even though mother anyone want make boyfriend happy deserves ithe deserves much more even thinking stress school gone help changes help still wish dead deep hatred distrust anyone except boyfriend scares much legitimate hatred human beings truly believe people evil thing alive destroy planet unspeakably sick things animals wildlife often think could kill entire human race included id heartbeat feel like entire species society exceptations bullshit none fucking means anythingid rather die deal it id rather die go life,1 +loseri year old female achieved nothing life unemployed year law degree law make lawyer uk process complex seeing people age getting married moving new cities becoming famous big things thier lives like getting elected member parliament forbes list feel like loser live world young successful society evaluates you never boyfriend still virgin society thinks something wrong virgin age unemployed living home wanted make world better place relationship man deeply loved me going kill dont want see next years future due recession covid older get less attractive men wish died covid seeing people died wish me much live wheras dont suicidal years life dont belong world,1 +sick living deniali think first time really became aware depression so kind snowballed point let control life resulted failure neglected even basic achievements everyone says always chance turn things around think time give up used keep motivated small goals family things become increasingly strained years become hard think worth them especially thoughts would endanger others used dream committing redflag way would inconvenience others minimally all even then afraid act it recently ive thinking easy would end life least ruin something stupid driving point staring concrete lanes snapped would much risk others hurt want continue pretending things okay get point consider impact actions make told therapist thoughts redflag possibly harming others since thought intrusive thoughts now unable trust people point even mention bothering passing although family love other always felt barrier up even supposed closest kept distance try gets glossed over always told say feel uncomfortable truths since pandemic getting pretty bad options treatment limited honest much desire continue getting treatment anyways feel like never get point pros outweighs cons world die remains used compost better wasting resources mention organs donated used people actually deserve chance,1 +history test study cannot get motivation study life though tbh could probably kinda skim chapters still fine last year grade probably wont affected even badly,0 +adaptation dirk wittenborn book read young finn earl lives mom liz diane lane cramped lower east side new york apartment dreams joining anthropologist father studying fierce tribe south america liz boyfriends coke caught scoring coke her one customers liz legitimate masseuse rich mr osborne bails return full time personal masseuse huge estate new jersey driven limo strung lying back seat dress hitched way panties showing this lowcut dress scenes exploitation ms lane may disappointed im sorry stuff unfaithful make alist lady talent little finger streep roberts sally field entire bodies time given due arrive finn makes friends osbornes grandson bryce coming age new girlfriend granddaughter maya liz meanwhile joins aa dates aa doctor miraculously cleans instantly finn however lot drugs along sex new friends bryce seems like ok guy gets jealous osborne takes finn hot air balloon race instead him leads tragedybr br the genius story and movie cut violent acts fierce filthy rich blysdale tribe yanomano warriors little implausible though liz finds happens son merely demands action osborne either contact authorities settle thelma louise style elements gothic romance revelation village idiot also almost plot character development prior move blysdale liz instance like lanes pearl kantrowitz walk moon unwanted pregnancy finn felt trapped book movie still minor shortcomings movie full release year original release date waitbr br there lots red carpet moments theater saw movie at almost whole castexcept diane lane q director dunne said filming movie know promise there came way town would thrill see person movie definite best picture contender acting sutherland quite good boy played finn lane magnificent always recall one two emotional scenes catches finn drugs lets get fd together mother son osborne your twisted grandson would fare better supporting actress nod wont work way unless give body work,0 +got idea anyone looking come gay bi etc ok take wheres waldo book replace waldo whatever coming as get picture waldo outfit replace waldo book another way taking picture crowd waldo outfit placing book thought funny way anyone actually uses method feel free message saying went,0 +need helpim graduated year never bad many wrongs life barely positives save time im going go past couple months graduated june th supposed happy time everyone wasnt though parents constantly yelled tell disappointed me could even show time missed live part watched home disc got sent out family members even showed see got calls any saying make it happened regrouped friends talked bit mom calls tells going eat get something home staying pictures left made around still gone felt like failure disappointment familys last name mixed alot stuff happened past hit boiling point grabbed rope went car go spot girl worked months she also graduated somehow found told meet somewhere met talked hours go living person cares do fast forward couple weeks start get feelings heri guy didnt make obvious feel like im supposed alone relationships never work want lose her ex boyfriend even know dated comes starts punching hit ground kept kicking found thing couple weeks later apologized happened told jealous talked them fast forward today longer talking cant kept thoughts down cant sleep thing keeping it gone im tempted grab rope it hurts knowing gone one cares anymore please need advice,1 +time redflagive anxious since bullied badly school make proper friends distrusted everybody lived fight flight ever since home tense too distant volatile father gentle mother broke thank god damage done flunked leaving cert worked sales got addicted spending cash have smoking joints numb pain even though actually made anxious always tired stayed unhappy relationships ignoring gut frankly know felt bar constant fear one lead pregnancy lead breakup lead awful eight year custody battle including international abduction huge legal bills endless anxiety heavy drinking sleepless nights anger relationships finally breakdown time work went counseling years leading went time off met lovely calm driven girl got back feet job ground slowly still court battles gf seemed cold distant sometimes v angry ploughed wanted move cos housemate v moody battle eased now pregnant nearly killed myself went hospital psych assessments prescribed meds still want die weeks pregnant wish shed miscarry awful tension house thinks im selfish feeling suicidal knew want kids took laxatives counteracted pill refused point blank getting abortion hate feeling thus way hate ive created situation purely cos fucked know happy sad still wish god shed miscarry could still happen cant go battle cant cant love girl hates showing affection hates hugs holding hands cant live ruining her im done want painless way go im looking ways online hard find,1 +im going dentist im going dentist im nervous im scared drill stuck chair couple hours shit stomach growls wish luck,0 +director douglas sirk scores this grandaddy dysfunctional family films lush trashy saga masterpiece beautifully combining elements sirks soapers strategically placing one movie written wind obviously influenced s tv series dallas dynasty basically featurelength version later nighttime soapsbr br lauren bacall wonderfully subtly plays lucy moore new york city secretary marries oil baron kyle hadley robert stack unbeknownst them mitch wayne rock hudson also love quiet sexy secretary go back kyles familys mansion texas meet white trash slutofasister marylee dorothy malone oscarwinning turn yipee sparks begin fly romances catfights campy trip mitch fight feelings best friends wife marylee tries sleep everybody since cant one true love mitch topping off kyle learns hes impotent somehow lucy ends pregnantbr br this pure soap pure melodramatic entertainment love it film signals one universals popular films one director sirks best works dialogue absolutely sizzling visual metaphors thrown every way theme wind throughout great cast great although bacall completely underused despite receiving topbilling behind hudson stacks oscar loss reportedly devastated him considered finest performance apparently none pleased lose out turn fabulous performance whimpering alcoholic stunning movie film proves ive thinking ages sirk master classic melodrama wheres oscarbr br ,0 +im tired feeling worthlessim tired pouring heart people pretend care get bored treat like garbage reason explanation much give given away nothing show it told enough times worthless must true,1 +therapist quit meso said kinda pretty board fact told try stop worrying things much rude anything said see could it that maybe one reasons came therapy first place session ended said felt help making much progress sugested sending peer adequate treatment kept hearing horrible stuff said this im feeling utterly hopeless utterly abandoned afraid jump it never got tell bad felt quit on actually told much hurts seem want open nobody else fucking unbearable want it,1 +losing fucking 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ego feel longer really good anyrhing feel even simplest tasks even getting bed reading studying seems hard do feel like failure deactivated social media facebook twitter instagram active social person isolating past two months playing games means coping mechanism this feel life meaning wasting time games makes depressed cannot get cycle everything else besides gaming seems hard do honestly sad lonely background story father passed away big part ofmy life best friend someone talk anything diagnosed clinical depression tbe age back gaming coping mechanism got unhealthy coping mechanism looked towards friends gym got girlfriend age felt lot better broke actually felt secure even alone recently got girlfriend loved much unexpectedly broke really broke heart feels like reason live anymore feels even harder go gym make close ties friends little motivation so talk anyone think anyone would understand end pitying sermoning would want burden negativity even know maybe friends may probably want talk hesitant reach out eflo ps thank anyone listens done final edits ,1 +wish easier kill myselfi cant anymore ive tried long life seem worth living anymore,1 +sci fi story idea mind jane meitner private eye a science fiction detective novel rough outline draft idea something whatever called jane marie burnell former science officer astrophysicist galactic federation research vessel wanderer due false accusation falsification data one papers meitner expelled scientific community meitner soon sets private investigation office pleiades deep space station solves cases mysterious disappearances unsolved abandoned galactic federation meitner soon finds embarking galaxywide journey small starship centauri encountering strange planets creatures new dangers lurk darkness universe man,0 +ham cheese guacamole skull portugal skyrim footbal child chile eyes ,0 +lonesome heartsicki dont know right sub this im really verge committing redflag however thought heavily interwoven current honest regular moodfeelingmental state dont even really know goal post honest guess im drunk want talk little maybe im journaling feel free skip post anyway basically jist im really depressed mainly im really lonely heartsick girl course thats big part it right least im heartsick like many different girls dont even know well havent seen years facebook work with memories past etc im gonna pretend sexual attraction isnt big part it fact honestly cant tell im lusting women find attractive know that im disgustingly cringeworthy romantic heart point like dude youve gotta quit fantasizing living happily ever every girl click attracted to makes really sad leads things like make post among things mention really weird creepy im told feel like tricked disney like little boy something ive yet able conquer true young love two soulmates destined together start lives doesnt exist girl next door isnt real thing childhood even high school sweethearts fiction wasnt allowed club least killing seems main thought get contentment anymore heartsick real fact im textbook loser age fucked life up real thing going me big part it honest think could learn live long side risk sounding dramatic arrogant ive frequently made comparisons living constant void similar living chronic pain guess sense is ask you legitimate trouble getting sleep night instantly felt awful waking morning throughout day constant nagging nauseating pain never really goes away alternates less worse would perhaps consider taking life point end pain dont want pretend know like live debilitating disease causes chronic pain im also honest say best analogy come feel constant never leaves alone forget feeling actually good feel like life force sucked body mind got home work tonight sat chair thought none it feeling like shell person staring blankly eyes frequently welling up tangible feeling comes seems sinkinginyourchest feeling think girls mainly her dont even feel anything think failure except maybe dull anger im sorry rambling dont anyone feel need reply even read this could say much much more honestly think maybe served purpose cause dont feel like talking anymore maybe not im thinking mainly her girl ive deep love year gave axe back march then damn really wish mm option,1 +worst film ever made actors apalling script director completely inept br br it best film ever made actors excellent script director completely brilliantbr br it falls somewhere middle fun somewhere enjoyable well constructed somewherebr br no need say dont take seriously so bad good it scary none comments relevant br br cut atmosphere atmosphere actually unique one really original aspect movie personally makes film me,0 +ever felt like completely cut peoplelike seperate family gf friends move away guilt yet doubt right thing do sometimes feel really suicidal want help reach anymore gave know theres hope left you,1 +wanting endive frequently thought redflag ideal way it idk could ever actually bring it nothing really seems feasible lately ive hoping get terminal disease like cancer something let run course get rid me unfortunately im theres much chance happening anytime soon,1 +tried hang woods todaytook hours find good tree low branch got cuts hands trying climb it got hard cable fastened noose easy enough drop basically tiptoed trying suffocate myself got really angry climbed highest could jumped noose around neck sort worked hung like idiot couple minutes sort fell asleep woke feet touched ground went home take shit yay failure,1 +homelessness or houselessness george carlin stated issue years never plan help street considered human everything going school work vote matter people think homeless lost cause worrying things racism war iraq pressuring kids succeed technology elections inflation worrying theyll next end streetsbr br but given bet live streets month without luxuries home entertainment sets bathroom pictures wall computer everything treasure see like homeless goddard bolts lessonbr br mel brooks who directs stars bolt plays rich man everything world deciding make bet sissy rival jeffery tambor see live streets thirty days without luxuries bolt succeeds wants future project making buildings bets bolt thrown street bracelet leg monitor every move cant step sidewalk hes given nickname pepto vagrant written forehead bolt meets characters including woman name molly lesley ann warren exdancer got divorce losing home pals sailor howard morris fumes teddy wilson already used streets theyre survivors bolt isnt hes used reaching mutual agreements like rich fight flight kill killedbr br while love connection molly bolt necessary plot found life stinks one mel brooks observant films prior comedy shows tender side compared slapstick work blazing saddles young frankenstein spaceballs matter show like something valuable losing next day hand making stupid bet like rich people know money maybe give homeless instead using like monopoly moneybr br or maybe film inspire help others,0 +cant people suicidal peacei dont understand much stigma redflag everyone think suicidal person needs help understand redflag personal decision death takes make someone happy let it ive fantasized various redflag methods since im day gone believe im better planet dead look forward death accept it invite it thing stopped far im scared failure fail kill treated like criminal actually get charged waiting right painless opportunity im jumping right it nothing stop me never happy life good find happiness world need understand dont feel way vent,1 +pink flamingos revolutionary time even today still hard watch enjoy film hilarious repulsive jonh waters pushes envelope far go story concerns babs johnson devine filthiest women alive lives trailer son crackers daughter cotton mention overweight edie whos obsessed eggs sleeps crib theres connie raymond marble two filthy perverts jealous babs long outdo filthiest person alive means janitor impregnate kidnapped women selling babies lesbian couples flashing people public even sending babs turd mail babs fights back prove deranged person alive even includes incest murder eating dog crap sick sexual acts film thats fun whole family well depending live watch pink flamingos forget barf bag perverse weird sex bodily functions also see sweet movie,0 +talking iti want go see counselor dont know tell ive suicidal cant miss work hospital stay,1 +going beach trip think thats ill end ittwo good friends middle school planned trip south padre think perfect plan away family cannot try save me already planning head guys finally time end it,1 +making diary like thing reddit day yay yet another day through happy announce going okay girl yesterday mentioned seemed ignore first talked like yesterday least bit forgot mention this reason people ship her make fun friends linda like teachers used make fun saying crush together big fan it dont really care much well spent day computer yet again talked discord mostly begining find challenge get less challenging things getting easier do pushups becoming less less challenge still needs squads today find link challenge day so see ya tomorrow,0 +like wine johnny dangerously gets better better every day clever witty wellacted film could well stand parody gangster genre truly outstanding fact quite obviously best film kind funniest spoof mob movies even respective period although admittedly position probably easier achieve main competitors primitive vulgar dull pseudocomedies jane austens mafia,0 +pls help dmed crush insta responded wanna ask wants hang point say i think single sure edit said might want to talked fir bit epic,0 +film starts family going different directions teenage daughter martha macissac olivia dunne much love joe macleodzack mother played mitzi kapturejill dunne suddenly walks daughter zack making kinds problems seem surface jill dunne husband always traveling staying away home quite often also big problems occur family decides go camping trip daughter olivia dislikes cannot adapt sleeping outdoors requires tent kept bugs many ways olivia outstanding performance teenage nick mancusorichard grant gives great supporting role hotel owner film keep guessing end enjoy film filled plenty horror terror enjoy,0 +oh god crush know exist,0 +feeling dull often life pretty darn good cant seem feel appreciate ittook leave medical school earlier year best friend med school taken life recently funnily enough seem affect much think have life feels dull get excited much all feel lonely like girls cant seem motivation really pursue relationships even friends apathy seems recurring theme days life mean life awesome objectively family supportive brother started practicing surgeon super rich live comfortably beginning think temperament naturally despondent remember kid use like well feel like im ditch im trouble getting it days feels like energy climb it like ditch slope never ends fight climb days energy anymore inevitably slide back down know redflag common thought necessarily transpire action holds particularly true think often convince bad coping strategy anyone felt like successfully changed thinkingbaseline feeling want feel like this want feel know excitement passion emotions im analytical pessimistic sigh,1 +ive enoughim tired orders responsabilities laws truly good times ive ever drugs thank god drugs break ever got daily struggle depression social anxiety good times brief worth lifetime pain fantasize redflag daily wrote rewrote final note head many times wondering leave one world deserves nothing me ill it hope soon,1 +infection want tell family members fear gossiping like problems idk embarrassing idk serious,0 +need help anyone elses coins never load ive trying weeks get keeps showing loading errors someone knows fix please help,0 +umekbinstank innocent accused accidentally something do alright look post information fearing man saying,0 +friend diedyesterday friend died met strange circumstances connected us mental illnesses made redflag deep issue she much stronger me flailed cried begged end it fierce strong witty tough loud loud much energy walked room took notice talked shut up laughed echoed walls embodiment getting better two days ago attempted redflag yesterday died im suicidal im lost afraid hurting woman woman stood illness told go got there resist pain end could ever hope to im wondering push forward toughest among us failed,1 +ah sorry cant hear you im listening wii mii channel music mii theme song d audio,0 +weird dream last night forgot typing,0 +planning redflag life boringim ever since high school life became gray boring cycle work gt gym gt maybe meeting friends gt sleep nothing fun anymore everything barely tolerable come home exhausted job absolutley hate im welder construction worker go gym meet maybe friends tiresome seems like nothing fun anymore everything used enjoy dull pale used enjoy video games back dont entertain anymore dont smoke dont drink dont masturbate thing keeps half alive somehow music playing guitar band another issue comes alot head fact often miss emotional physical intimacy point become frustrated actually burst crying midday last girlfriend ever high school together years breaking up ever since woman tried ask outflirt straight rejected ghosted unexplained reasons tried every thing possible funny smart myself nah nothing works best explanation im straight unattractive casual woman reasons beyond control i guess im balding work days week years already upside muscular body gives me nothing stopped trying goes nothingness zero dating life like had without lot headaches emotional torment put through way dont social anxiety mental blockages interacting people friends lot female friends too no problem there ili ask one female friends theyll reject like happened female friends mine past im depressed dont problem sleeping eating really burnt fucking bored bottom line life wanted things really turned opposite imagined be wake everyday fucking thing tiresome dont want bothered annoyed people anymore dont want deal romantic loneliness bullshit anymore shoulders far long desire continue dwell boring mess live alone since dont believe god endless abyss death me one would give fuck abillity care anything ill free pain plan ending soon enough,1 +found crush straight know fucking nowthis person ive ever actually liked hes straighthes fucking straight hate life fucking muchim fucking lonely hate fucking muchi literally cant stop crying,0 +sure happened hopelessguys severely hurt ive really hurt religious people past uhm today literally contemplated cutting wrists razor hand didnt work wanted going resort means thought people mind spiraled thought parents thought people allah real afterlife everyone world wicked people since time people mentally tortured ive lost low self esteem anyone wants friend shows interest shut out ive hospital worse part mother father suffer came back mind yesterday went hospital chest pains stressed memories went doctor said irregular heartbeat took cab home cab driver making small talk asked said pakistan gave religious greetings anecdotes connecting family told iman diminishing didnt know god real not told story told went hospital much chest pains told thought past said ish going school taking honor classes schools religious boy guy would slowly criticize people didnt say salam properly anything became obsessed me would follow around school no one really living me barely saw parents worked night shifts brothers different country going college uncle developing early stages cancer later died next door neighbor parents attention went went state shock anyway guy acquaintance would tell everyone loved wanted valentine became valentine telling ten times no desperate made lie stating didnt want waste expensive chocolates roses friend time told go went went home felt uncomfortable told everyone next day going him said no said please love you allah wants us together well go hell yesterday obviously afraid tell anyone said ok said whatever ill break week well still friends way one gets hurt drama try break him told didnt see relationship broke someone starts wailing crying telling hes going kill sister mean him everything like wth shy person really gullible didnt know redflag watch didnt think redflag loved life didnt understand point redflag lying obviously next years would torment lies religious manipulation would compare many girls wanted meet guy friend actually liked got ready manipulative bf came door showing ugliest face making sure felt bad made feel unrelgious poor friend waiting hrs left forgot distracted boy telling going kill didnt run away marry him guy friend relationship went shreds hate stupid reasons never got tell day thinks bailed him anytime school state test would show door pretend dad phone call explain didnt make it sister came door told mother daughter whore begging brother sex ugly bitch see school tear fucking head apart beat shit her kept telling religious girl friend would hang guy pretend know father drug dealer arrested heroin deported afghanistan told mother call mother harass house mother called told wanted marry son mother tears saying no dad point crying day hes religious are guy kept saying werent siblings family harassed saying ugly bitch wanting marry him said father would hire hit man kill bc religion like wtf went pakistan way get away come back best friend starts flirting him introduces sisters boyfriend flirts him takes posts facebook tells wont leave alone say loves her told went hospital bc collapsed namaz told didnt like prancing around ex toxic distructive like oh know hes entertaining sisters love hes funny attended funeral uncle point didnt care would leave alone would say omg wasnt crazy yesterday room would compare her talk sentences close married someone else still flirt never recieved apology saw years later gave disgusting look working shitty retail job step me saw speak boss putting away hangers took phone laughed made sure saw texting someone dated wall street worker years later called pretty cab driver called beautiful dont believe it old five years thirty girl never gave apology never checked career daughter husband youtube channel gives religious dawah tells people always eat halal cover yourself cab driver said report them im afraid late im disgusted myself cant make eye contact anyone today really wanted kill myself disturbed feel cheated thought islam taught good good come back you bad people get punished im discouraged feel like tortured soul earth question afterlife used ambitious know im like whatever life over maybe kill ill show people end misery,1 +december train leaves central station stockholm berlin much left arrives train passengersbr br this black comedy directed peter dalle acted like used act s also photographed in bw like used period actors must lots fun making it much characters like s story well narrated everybody timingbr br a deadly black deadly funny film see it think swedes capable humour,0 +hey drink tap water filtered water taste difference filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +happy birthday happy birthday anyone birthday today,0 +byei go prestigious college northeast kind ironic since were known rampant student redflags even knew coming care drank koolaid going ivy id set life went well yeah marketing bullshit im still miserable here im miles away home one gives two shits me still get rejected internship positions regularly despite math cs tons shit resume work hs work now fucking nothing people lot less programming experience credentials get spots apple facebook spend hours classwork homework studying etc way healthy barely sleep yet still barely pull average slightly aboveaverage grades everything fucking curved social anxiety cant talk girls im also pretty short good looking girls really talk either so basically im good anything never happy successful aspect life fucking bother even alcohol really make feel better anymore matter much drink know almost one care enough read point are id like say bye really many regrets ending misery sooner hope get life did,1 +watch home dvd bluray sure great sound system musical score moves movie watched movie several times thought great upgrading home theater sound system difference watching movie many many timesbr br if great sound system find friend watch therebr br also watch extra stories behind scenes extras come the br dvd interview quimet s talks scholarship fundbut times boys got it today hope goes girls,0 +need advice pleasethis fourth time rewriting this sorry gets long wrote notes two best friends gorgeous kind person whos totally selfless everyone loves her person always makes feel valid laugh relate many levels whos proud cant help proud too older brother relies fix problems guilty conscious thinks hes bad favorite cousin whos like sister want books little cousin love much shes little buddy ill miss lot also childhood best friend feel like even though relationship point pretty one sided still write parents principal im close her want let know wasnt bullied wasnt anyone school kind kids school bullying dont really acknowledge anymore im never anyones first choice even best friends best friends love know better me sucks started rambling sorry im also writing one therapist say fault shouldnt feel like couldve helped me didnt give chance to doesnt think im suicidal anymore doesnt know started cutting again first met started clean streak seven months relasped feel worthless that among things shell tell mom open things right talk loneliness depression anxiety shes bringing papers hospital next session making friends try help me shes trying best guess asking write parents plan sometime november need done soon focus things then want hadnwritten even though typing way faster easier theyll feel like part guess anyone tips say thanks anyone reads this though assume itll get buried one talk im trying here im sorry long,1 +drank pills tynenoli threw head feels heavy grandma grandpa im sorry im going heaven guys im going straight hell im scared dont want end hospital again want pain end dad im sorry know close birthday cant anymore im failure friends im also sorry guys amazing love you boyfriend im sorry said liked you part lying im sure whether actually like desperate mom mommy love you please dont die would hate that love you mom im scared really hurts im sorry mom love much dont want suffer anymore im selfish know please understand me mom mommommy love you im sorry everyone im sorry really am really failure im sorry goodbye,1 +theres joy lefti spent much life trying enjoy it find myself make magic bullshit spent time caring others empathizing used joy ive used fun prospect living one day like bleak one friend talk me one friend could maybe tell feelings leave tomorrow hate myself cant stand inside myself darkest place ive ever dont see light,1 +probably dramatic sorry school increases feelings depression hanging ,1 +going enoughhello took mg oxycontin mg clonopin mb xanax quite bit alcohol plan ust lay bed wait fall sleep anyone experiences doses like thesey short money could like hear suffice to get job donel,1 +question uk redditors friend mine from england says okay say n word without hard r similar saying dude bro im american idk guys uk us words same were white,0 +secret message everyone gt love you lt,0 +past six months went break person ever let truly loved mentally ill family member threaten shoot me repressed memories molestation abuse work way counseling lost home break up bought th wheel cannot register title dispute three owners ago found father barely actually father much more last month living truck two dogs suicidal urges thoughts multiple times day seems like everytime think bottom something comes along kick teeth like passed redneck wearing steel toes feel fucked completely fucked work day play dogs pass again know get this housing rental prices soaring nearly impossible find one construction paychecks right now know do holding onto vague plan hope keep working something eventually get better not feel fucked beyond fucked one days reckon give in tie noose hope happens quick family friends another continent know chose post this guess would least like heard someone two pups abuela used say man plans god displans used powerful reminder form old saying feels like oppressive approximate generalities life it want sleep peacefully knows interesting title,1 +never going happy also hate world lot everyone lowkey piece shit even though wrong aka told say one actually cares someone offs going tired living cannot wait die life boring frustrating,1 +life supposed get better still sucksmy life boring empty repetitive around bad im tired really happy suicidally sad happy suicidally sad draining never feels like really going anywhere matter good im ill never real normal live,1 +lostother peoples lives worse mine completely recognize that justi need say something need get feelings out last night drove home exgirlfriends house dirt road let wheel go car lost control hoped would time go car ended ditch fine dandy thoughts would tell ex got hurt would anyone even tell tell move ex trying work things abusive piece shit never hit verbal asshole still am reason job got bed ex making want live life anymore time leave bed go there split went hospital surgery took apartment kicked out lost job nothing left mental state going life miss like said working it got huge argument tonight think thats end anything want wake tomorrow,1 +important announcementto everyone feeling lonely neglected love whole subcommunity hope find happiness let anyone actions define now todays new day focus that problem worth life better situation overcome it one faith know do were rooting you love support ,1 +never playing right ptsd flashbacks ,0 +dad told earlier id stop using internet much would slap existence dont know dad seems aggressive im using internet reas,0 +give one single reason kill tonighti none,1 +wanna know look filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +join subreddit warship melon flavored powerade ampxb httpspreviewredditpzkphhnkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbdecdfcedecdfde,0 +dad died lol sike dad abandoned three given serious mental health issues,0 +it literally cannot take anymore last time attempt email exgf open honest her cannot take everyday thought is ok well sitting bottled emotions almost year without ability talk her miss her want talk her want see her want know ok want smell mango flavor lip balm importantly want hold close know safe lockdown bullshit caused much turmoil life losing girlfriend deal health scare clinics seeing psychiatrists crap body cannot take anymore nothing live for properly losing job next week tuesday cannot keep anymore friends one go to one call one talk to literally want live anymore lief vir jou charissa die lewe n lied met jou arms ek wou jou die gelukkigste meisie die wereld maak maar die feit dat ek jou nooit weer kan sien nie genoeg om lewe kort te knip ek kan nie glo dis waardeur ek gaan nie end,1 +im freak lesson informed schools closed tomorrow bc covid see crush next months started look short glances times hour probably notice im feel like fuckin creep,0 +helpcan someone tell many floors high building die impact anyone know high enough denver,1 +im donei depression since remember wasnt years ago got asperger diagnose luck brother help im years old med school suck suck anything student too generation graduated years ago made social service got residence kind alone lot pressue last trimester school sudden change student policy got academic risk meaning failed one class out time told managed pass tests would academic risk pure miracle got clean results start new trimester dates need graduate dont want lose half year start one year long social service heavy classes try best check school mail see mails one says that surprise on academic risk fail clases sure it fuck them one inform april last day ask less academic load cant anymore almost decided kill last trimester classes high difficulty academic risk gun head unexpected surprise bonus want get sleep never wake up family given support things cant help one cant survive another academic risk trimester let alone worse one whats point old surely peers think idiot think idiot failure think almost daily it sometimes distract things isnt working anymore want world,1 +think im ready gostarting think share pain disappointment best get regards socialization romantic love,1 +wonder gay sex feels like filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +joining cults linked redflag lately thinking joining cult think would easier if let go follow someone else sounds less stressful than living life redflag works similar way letting everything go,1 +women reddit hello daily question again think genghis khan stood corner party wondering put hands,0 +survived redflagwhich one someone know survived redflag family friends even doctors react blame you shame woke up live germany maybe anwser questions live also germany everyone anwser questions,1 +cant take anymoresomeone please talk mei one major fu ruined life unemployed money living folks help bills expenses chronic depression ive suffered life since ive got older seems getting worse matter many different meds try many therapists see nothing seems make difference complete waste space becoming burden family debt stupid mistakes addictions ive also wasted parents hard earned cash right threatning kick ban bank accounts every right too want die honestly ive enough dont think go anymore better without ruining them could never repay everything done me friends never luck dating always jobs currently im long term unemployed welfare barely surviving cant even get work skills apart retail cant afford go coursesclasses also heavily tattooed visible parts body makes hard get work see really fucked life theres way time cant go anymore huge disappointment family deserve better atleast die sell stuff get money back worry supporting mentally fued daughter anymore,1 +lpt rats tend abandon sinking ships see rats jumping overboard join,0 +if faced lot events lately feel redflaged makes sick pay k car get fixed insanely broke feel like one talk to everyone life critical point everything badly cry time genuinely think failure across board ways stop feeling like this go therapy see thursday also ways ignore people specifically family members let say bother you thanks everyone need healthy ways cope,1 +autistic hates everythingim asbergers syndrome growing always trouble school students teachers principles pulled school around never got opportunity build social skills growing makes everything awkward todays life im quiet shy barely burned rest bridges neurotypical people im done everything everyone im done working myself im sick everything turned made prediction turned id absolutely dispise life everything offer turned hated everything everything mental stability quickly went down really want around another year ive never partner never dated akward fuck meeting potential partners scaring away hate neurotypicals neurotypical society like everyone else whos considered nuerotypical different everyone else living day day nothing except browse internet day bullshit aspirations anymore desires fix anymore world miss me family dead someday too repercussions result redflag matter get forgotten destroyed room take anymore snapped post last know im writing bunch sentinels basically wholl see this act like care continue life ive always envious person growing wondering never could get opportunities cousins whats wrong barely function mainstream society hate everything everyone hope become statistic year up downvote care act offended like everyone else does screw planet every nuerotypical every disabled person too,1 +ive fantasizing killing since years old think timeim year old girl life average honest problems worth rough mentioned ive struggled eating disorder since suicidal thoughts around since remember theres nothing keep away mind one ever noticed that even parents like think due pretending ok skills deep know nobody really gives shit me again even parents every single decision ive made since conscious bad mental state made order get better experience happiness life nothing seems work out cant even bother fuck things theres good thing around me everything fucked already one really cares me clear know im going eventually kill myself idea how know going one way another thing haunts fact selfinduced death represent major trauma friends lives scar parents forever absolutely want that want go peace knowing one hurt process afterwards maybe life get better couple years maybe try harder therapy somethings start go right way life emotions ive dealing past couple years painful god are thing pray theres type life death aint willing breathe anymore take life distancing everyone find easier face death eventually commit it know hole text sound overwhelmingly condescending typical depressed teen im sorry cant take anymore im going wait til birthday final decision even though im sure ill eventually kill myself thanks reading me ill let yall know,1 +anybody want talk im m horny guys begone im girl lol id rather tbh idc enough dm filler filler filler filler,0 +jus want kiss me id know id die happy,0 +friend told want live anymore go support best waycross posting relevant subreddits really need advice here apologies advance grammar mistakes long im mobile typing bed still fresh mind also happy new year tldr among another stressful life events friends mum recently diagnosed potentially fatal cancer friend coping tonight broke openly talked wanting die also talked would it scared friend need advice next steps would appreciate support this live northern ireland uk background friend relevant this relationship brother like sister me mum recently diagnosed stage pancreatic cancer far know spread systems receiving chemo present waiting find effective chemo determine whether may candidate life threatening surgery remove much cancer possible going little info doctors said prognosis going great looking months years lucky perhaps months weeks not mum may day operation table soon due high risk complications surgery small new years eve get together friend hosting suddenly got absent quite time went check found boyfriendmy brother upset sobbingstruggling breathe asked wrong said several times wanted die wanted kill herself want planet anymore newly qualified nurse heard friend talk killing which never heard say before naturally tried active listener ask getting making want die etc also ask intentions harming moment later on asked made sort plans would try felt like it told would slit wrists knife soon mum dead reason exist anymore that listened her hugged didnt try fight suicidal thoughts judgemental made sure heard told loved much many people life would devastated anymore mentioned things too feeling pressure multiple places people work friendship issues feeling lack family support mentioned perhaps reach hr job let know coping perhaps granted leave absence mental health reasons broached issue seeking professional mental health support health service clearly struggling cope says already sort month waiting list im living northern ireland mental health services notoriously difficult seen even crisis suicidal suggested opening counsellor talk doctor depressive feelings hopes medical professional may signpost real help perhaps try medications might help type open medical staff past seen counsellors anxiety honest initial session pretended problem return second going cycles normal apologising getting upset could barely breathe talking wanting die again eventually went sleep im lying knowing knowing something seriously wrong friend needs help reddit broach subject tomorrow sober wait talk me go get real genuine mental health support friendlive northern ireland uk get family members involved try get friends reach let know loved let friend feel safe enough open tell needs me nurse would feel icky sharing details people medical professionals able help honest feel torn respecting friends wishes remain silent vocal others may able help know something needs done asap see friend drowning front eyes see needs help im scared lose someday soon,1 +alright miss ok ok hear you ok listen miss listen yes miss yes understand yes have y yes go medical school years yes nooo dont worry dont worry know doctor yes real doctor baby perfectly fine grab like this see oh y think good doctor w well listen miss go medical school years ok professional ok ok look miss understand understand hef concern yes miss understand i say miss ok go medical school medical school years miss dont think big deal foolish woman ok make simple tell make child tell deliver,0 +thought maybe anime labs expand australia cuz idk anime streaming service viable strategy long yeah new zealand thats like two people also interspecies reviewers still anime labs australia think falls category japan,0 +truly adorable heroine who turns surprised terrified giblets wrestles mattresses runs fullon closed doors moments sparkle memory the naked truth loved caught show enjoyably daft plots good supporting characters provided setting diamond show tea leoni as nora wilde cute clownish wonderfully accidentprone refreshing see actress clown wonder hollyood seem know cast her whereohwhere dvd releases amount bleep release incredible little gem continues remain buried someone please correct im wrong,0 +holidays ruined without failim envious families able get along able cooked meal without fighting putting down feels like parents dont love neglect pay attention abusive bitch sister gets away everything honestly want shrivel cold ditch somewhere die theyre reason feel like one would ever love hate much painful existence,1 +anyone feel trapped mindits exhausting,1 +need true connectioni feel alone friends dont family partner friends basically family alone measurable sense im missing feeling true connection worry hated think am believe right connection stave death but im yet alone,1 +wish luck extorvertism school make friends yknow,0 +im probably gone time u read thishey guys im here im drunk name luke annas im lost without ex doesnt care without donct care myslef im killing tonight plz assume break years im still love plz dont give answers cuz matter someone says doesnt help genuine friends im telling yet another life gone need look depression high schools holding longer option gbye,1 +im killing next week want someone keep company gocan anyone friend little while ive never friend im tired alone hope mind seeing messages next week edit reddit made post seen nobody least tried,1 +want ownbeing enjoyable getting older older teenager good hate around people almost always forced whether anyone express misery barely coping social situation without going bathroom scratching since almost access sharp items irritating im saving money planning leaving city escaping soon possible,1 +aaaaand phones cant use moms charger anymore time alone,0 +remember seeing film mid s thought well paced well acted piece work quite often berkeley square get copy dvd remind little area changed although office newish seconds away the bank even jack barclays car dealership still selling bentleys rolls roycesbr br its look like dvd due region release soon region copy poor quality lets hope theyve cleaned upbr br only slightly dodgy escape sequence court spoils would otherwise great film guess line caper tag film goes with,0 + like nothing nothing wish great day,0 +oriental fantasy thousand one arabian nights plenty incredible adventures fantasy witchery wizardly malignant vizier jaffar magnificently played conrad veidtwith powerful magic faculties imprisons prince ahamad bagdadattractive john justinwho loses throne escapes thanks little thief named abusympathetic sabu arrive basora ahamad princessgorgeous june duprez fall love prince thief haunted jaffar ahamd turned blind abu become dog story accumulates several fantastic ingredients transformation starring flying mechanic horse magic bow flying carpet course colossal genieoveracting performed rex ingram gives three wishes sabu magic eye figure goddess kali several hands among othersbr br this remarkable picture ranks one finest fantastic films time produced london fims alexander korda directed definitively credited ludwing berger michael powell tim whelan stunning screenplay lajos biro miles malleson also dialogs writer actor sultan fond mechanic games wwii outbreak caused paralyzing shooting three korda brothers collaborators traveled usa continuing filming especial grand cannon coloradothe splendid visual glimmer technicolor cinematography setting fx provoked achieving three oscars production design william cameron menzies vincent korda cinematography george perinal special effects osmond borradaile though today dated urgent necessary remastering colors wornout furthermore one nomination evocative oriental musical score miklos rozsa vivid tale immense doses imagination like fantasy fans cinema classic buffs,0 +whether hopes afloat drowning be waves break across seai feel lonely even among friends especially then id say long till death fear be joy eludes time loneliness ever present ive forced solitude companion could survive ran away party looked around faces saw failed relate to never supposed there thing is remember feeling ever supposed anywhere alone hurts surrounded,1 +cant kill myselfbeen wanting die long time pretty much im really fucking lonely friends dont actually like aside one wont see ever transfer schools move different city care bc im friend zone anyways every fucking day go fucking school fucking bullshit again one point family knew signed shitty therapy make phone call give info pussy like everything else told family feeling better literally get stuck bed trying think reasons get morning shouldnt fucking end it reason im killing yet bc maybe get gfbestfriend high school im going to tldr im killing yet bc might get stroke luck meet people dont pretend like dont kill,1 +thought getting betterhi redflag watch id like make disclaimer exact moment suicidal before fortunately i think made through trying prevent getting back point throwaway want reminded ifwhen make through living depression past years past summer got help needed proper professionals getting better help meds changes lifestyle unfortunately short lived march year attempted end life made time did met recent significant other beginning helped me knew issues problems helped could exactly needed exact time needed it may well saved life monday blue ended things feel slipping back state meeting her since come light left man years younger her feel like ive failed myself cant blame her said mental health well long distance relationship hard know case far dependant someone else happiness time felt like option im lost scared want ever go back know next time might lucky im interested making amends getting back together her thinks little throw everything away like that know breakup good thing want feel like felt before thank you,1 +ladies gentlemen got one several years h r n giving trying love life girl confessed feelings me cant even expressed happy girl even feelings me im longer horny im finally happyif ill get enough feedback might even make qampa interested ones,0 +tomorrows birthday want one thing want her want see smile want hear laugh want stare eyes all want love back ,0 +best things kill yourselftheres way fuck im living another year god awful life ive had so ive got burn good ideas,1 + cool facts number according research done mit number common randomly chosen number isnt completely random occurrence either mit tested theory number times result time seventh prime number prime number number divided number number prime number though add first four prime numbers together sum also prime number made four consecutive prime numbers numbers french catalan italian languages first compound number compound number number made two different sets numbers case dixsept disset diciassette meaning respectively uk turn youre granted whole new level freedom age start taking driving lessons well able drive van car many newfound freedoms turn us too reach age youre allowed apply private pilot license rent rrated movies enlist armed forces only parents consent well able rent buy mrated video games number incredibly common song title wellknown artists song titled either seventeen including number way include prince kings leon smashing pumpkins jimmy eat world stevie nicks sex pistols beatles hit song saw standing originally going called seventeen theres character hit japanese manga anime series dragonball z called android cyborg plays role villain end season tv show periodic table elements arranged different groups group made halogens includes five elements chemically similar chlorine one halogens atomic number followers islamhttpswwwthefactsitecomislamfacts must perform rakaahs set prayers movements daily times prayer people world would consider number unlucky number isnt case everywhere italy number instead considered unlucky goes back age romans roman numeralshttpswwwthefactsitecomhistoryofromannumerals xvii rearranged becomes vixi latin vixi means lived essentially means dead alitalia italian airline doesnt row reason hotels room youngest person ever played football soccer world cuphttpswwwthefactsitecomworldcupfacts final brazilian superstar edson arantes nascimento otherwise known pel time youngest recipient highly sought nobel prize malala yousafzai time awarded nobel peace prize struggles advocating rights young women children fair access education according ancient egyptian legends death osiris god death resurrection happened thof month legends predate decent calendar systems gets little vague point although apparently happened day clear see full moon over its proven solvable game popular number puzzle sudoku completed must least different clues th birthday trap may reach step thnks red simply jumped fact,0 +wtf last night ok morning woke pyjamas fence outside house naked bed,0 +hi ive never made post before dont know worth it sorry know long hi year old girl context guess everything pointless everything hurts miss ex person ever connect me people care me cant talk them verge redflag would make feel worse close anyone cripplingly lonely cant even write order makes sense word vomit really alot potential wasting life away anything everything seems overwhelming overall pointless hobbies interests overweight causes conventionally unattractive relationships picture find someone else doesnt care appearances rare work dont food usually thing makes feel good dont even know anymore cant even hold interest others long enough make friends makes asshole want deep connection again every time feel happy little bit next time fall worse tell people day long one day get better believe it me change fix fucking life put effort form relationships dont think ever will someone please help me want live,1 +feeling violent thoughts towards womenim tired woman viewing romantic way woman likes im fucking ugly mess keep violent thoughts women life cant stop them im fed up im owed sex relationship im entitled it ive lost many friends burned many bridges now cant even fucking masturbate without feeling mix angersadness want fucking buy gun end life,1 +im saying enjoy it need it long story short somethings flipped head last couple weeks libido much back worryingly so im sure lol weve sex past days preceding yearsbut still much him know want know ask want freaking long since considered sex thing actually makes nervous,0 +living everyonei plan this circumstances heavily me way anything going get better next years im forced live family brining end me nobody know helping me one cares living everyone,1 +hated too dreams stabbing chest eventually went mum essentially wanted out me like stroppy teenager made tell going on hed making death threats time last time too hed kill us wed held back,1 +exhacker going quarter life crisis today turned let tell im going through im currently pending federal charges computer fraud spamming years spam ill gotten game ive made gone family friends bad investments im officially broke now charges filed let bond picked job still made decent money from last week fired cause corporate found conviction anyways time last year time square living up im broke miserable rich illgotten gain im broke want legitimatly successful idk conviction ever allow me feel like life nothing ever become successful nothing might anything ever idk even friends not want kill someone realistically telling still become successful without rainbows unicorns ,1 +tried life even worsei thought could confide longterm close friend im longer talking again feeling miserable desperate stop feeling way told tried kill saturday night friendroommate stopped me called cops told parents tried drug alcohol problem not family ever trust again decision making money own crisis center went wants put inpatient insist plead bargain roommate would watch go home day go back register counseling psychiatry im going lie feel cant myself friend getting tired watching afraid go out inpatient thing everyone last thing want do,1 +anyone done clonidineapparently lethal dose mgkg amount,1 +new last resort cant go onhi everyone feel ive hit new low posting bunch strangers online deepest sorrows think last another day like this im ive like years end last summer started dating boy although looking start something gave chance made feel happy like someone really invested made look forward life again christmas day grandfather passed week later boyfriend left explanation week later started last semester college hate im barely passing one friend lives opposite side country ex got back touch weeks ago today ended things called bunch names told never talk again live parents sit bathroom running bath water cry without questioned picked cuticles skin bloody raw eaten gotten bed want hobby want job want like anything even try feel like one feasible option left besides lay waste away please help,1 +movie offers bonnie hunt sarah silverman amy sedaris supporting cast well worth watching comic actor jeff garlin takes advantage terrific talent recruited directorial debut sadsack comedy overweight man feels step world around him familiar larry davids manager jeff curb enthusiasm garlin plays james stillstruggling year old chicago actor still lives widowed mother selfesteem low cant meet women comical way views single status makes dilemma involving storyline sounds bit familiar thats film partially tribute ernest borgnine classic marty lonely bronx butcher living meddlesome mother fact garlin uses marty play james desperate since empathetic characters situationbr br naturally love story sorts new millennium version silverman plays beth offkilter sexually voracious ice cream parlor server takes underwear shopping spree best scene together favorite convenience store improvise different characters different aisles hunt plays lonely elementary school teacher shares passion james jazz musician ben webster meet accidentally record store career day school hilariously exposes sexual neuroses front classroom firstgraders including best friend lucas pert daughter penelope played dakota fannings lookalike baby sister elle wedgedin cameo looking quite bit like jerri blank sedaris plays schools counselor speaks james inappropriate monologue david pasquesi plays luca retirement home manager scenes garlin easy rapport makes friendship easy believe almost stealing movie character actress mina kolb plays james pixilated mother pluck heartbr br there also unexpected cameos teen idol aaron carter gina gershon dont askbut setup funny well sharply played bits director paul mazursky as snaky director candidcameratype show smear job tim kazurinsky as unsuspecting victim show dan castellaneta as toughlove convenience store owner rueful bouts insecurity selfloathing garlins comic sensibilities resemble albert brooks casual dialogue best reminds modern romance defending life one persistent problem film pacing scenes dragged longer necessary problem evident first half garlin trying establish right tempo lack real conflict adds sluggishness regardless well capture gnawing sense desperation one feels upon revelation life supposed be significant may reach steady diet junk food eaten car hood sure thing comes gratification,0 +rut nowsorry long post know say to read way fucking saint love you ive struggled self harm dont want say depression ive never diagnosed since high school im almost graduated went college dropped out working full time dropped college better dealing anxiety going tomissing classes stress homework top work quit job february issues manager top hearing take people clock early not telling letting continue work got part time job month half came across job opportunity thought would amazing working cruise ship fast forward weeks job middle may im relapsing self harm worst suicidal thoughts ive probably ever due working hours week getting average hours sleep night quit knew good me spent money get back home im home drink week straight try keep everything bay warned roommate hand hide gun someplace find it get job beginning june driving doordash little better point found hid gun car which using this im alright still move mattress case come august get letter mail saying license suspended unpaid speeding ticket money pay off goes job fast forward today im starting new job next week ive already training two weeks ive relapsing self harming again bills piling up roommate trying best help taking every penny hes got im thousands dollars debt day feel worse worse knowing im going get this know gun is know ive neglecting pets know need professional advice probably form medication money prescriptions even see doctor know anymore,1 +im trying doggiesit much make think hour fine hbu btw trying go tokyo,0 +thank youhey guys im pretty new around here wanted say thank helping preserve life here one friends came wanted die guys stopped him happy seeing therapist make sure never happens ever again,1 +son pure kind committed redflag uk far far home hours planei lost son eleven days ago committed redflag severe emotional issues ftom horrible mean horrible things happened young diagnosed two months ago severe ulcerative crones disease went europe stelara crones med there knew hed suffer he thought hed happier far away always thought ok far away never stayed one place long sick flare crones went lbd lbs skelton bones sticking out pictures made cry cry cry felt vulnerable couldnt live power someone evil took power away young someone offered stay house sick gross people thought everyone nice like him also brain damage previous redflag attempt gone wrong son brain damage believed everything anyone said could force stay home kept leaving home running away himself always going places far away many times dangerous countries travelled before sharp smart aware picked lies bs could smell bad situations one could fool him man wife quite number him health failing knew crones couldnt travel anymore wanted come home us hour flight away took weak saw hope podcast overdosing loosing it love much sage book smart school smart something scared even though im mom helped me would stay phone hours me talking making sense things wouldnt say good buy saw face ok spoke texted everyday days want back cant walk dont want see light dont want eat appetite want go join him everything want write barley see screen crying much torture,1 +i hate life then change it any change power make would make even worse then complaining abouti feel like lot us stuck bind hard talk people even want acknowledge possible would force ask uncomfortable questions free really are,1 +smh bad thoughts probably going delete lmao also dont read venting thoughts wont seeing replying comments post dont read especially someone ik read friendship likely ruined fucking dont aaah fucking hell hate bad thoughts background people hurt shit also humiliated ways worst one guys ganged andi tried hit sticks cause sick bs grabbed shoved ground punching times tried make say sorry didnt ofc shoved even more schoolyard front everyone afterwards said sorry like wtf still fucking doesnt mean shit anyways end background cause shit like ive thoughts torturing people killing people anger gouging peoples eyes spoon stabbing people musltiple times even theyre dead tearing fingernails etc obviously would never that worst id probably ever assholes ever take far id hit hard nearest thing could hit with fucking hate thoughts feel fucking guilty ive tried many things ignoring them punishing physically bashing head wall burning myself punishing mentally imagining things myself ive got bad habit imagining yay issues fucking annoying wish itd go away wish end shit well cause also weird fucking illusions people read mind shit ik real cant shake away ever think anything remotly sexual thoughts immediately try block cause reason think people tell even though ik cant try block copmes strong fucking strange anyway yeah read fuck reading it yet idc dont think putting stupid shit like need help your fucked up cause yet again wont read it youre friend might well block me told read,0 +listening slipknot got thinkingi feel whole life withering away much pain cant even write thinking us depressed fucking badasses people look badass movies music videos real tough people ones struggling everyday even stay alive despite seeing light life much many people world hype much are yet us depressed actually face harder shit world yet dragged others it let people let forget badass are get recognized everything go,1 +probably wont rickroll listen least first minute httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpucqkrlosaampab_channelsamuelkimtopichttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpucqkrlosaampab_channelsamuelkimtopic underrated hell gives life,0 +idk feel like anyone likes interest me boring bc cannot leave apartment without panic attack one wants spend time one reaches plans going end alone wish someone life would fucking realize much fight urge hurt often cannot hold back want feel normal always feel worthless,1 +angry punch bruise myselfits getting explosive,1 +duckman show used last hour time sleep ten years ago contrast lot kidtype animation watching time still minor junkie disney looney tunes stuff saturday morning cartoons still runoff peak days ninja turtles batman also around time began recognize raunchy mature surreal obscene though know term time satirical cartoon shows creative stuff used to around time beavis butthead ren stimpy even maxx hitting tv sets via mtv usa put two shows one weird science duckman ive always remembered key bits show lines quotable forgotten completely luckily found tape recently six episodes taped long ago jokes stayed fresh delivery jokes rapidfire lot time better episodes br br in voice department choices talent top notch storylines usually excuse crude fascinating parodies popculture politics movies tv shows music detective mysteries dysfunctional family unit jason alexander wonderful choice duckman performance comedic days seinfeld even might similar characteristics there also voices gregg berger unmistakably monotoned deadpan cornfed dweezil zappa hilariously inept ajax nancy travis sexstarved obnoxious sisterinlaw bernice contribute full amount along great writing even joke surefire wit behind compensates animation style far cry refurbished computerenhanced product today inventive often abstract homemade gritty quality beavis butthead south park would later have and like shows little kid mean little younger watching show may understand jokes ie enough stripper vd references fill two shows sometimes inventive catch tv late night functions rather well time slot one hope dvd box set br br so one whos barely even never heard program heres general note think show dashiell hammett met walt disney decided go slum part vegas free minibar make collaboration vein luis bunuel simpsons combined mention group rugratsstrong,0 +human decorate think special brother talking ancient people mentioned people undecorated spears saying dont find war important claimed mesopotamia people idk history nerd human beings decorate believed important cars painted air force pilots paint blue planes sometimes people pretty cases phones put stickers laptops get tattoos piercings make many types art creativity isnt virtue way human embed souls onto something came realization argue disagree whatever one person read happy felt like needed share people would share something like asleep creation humans imprint world,0 +wanted ask yall something friend hes trans f m hes telling storys dick gets hard fucks got someone pregnant th grade call bs dont respect right trans correct im wrong trans man cant get women pregnant need special things get penis hard kinda feel like ass him hard believe ill continue play along feel comfortable wanted rant little ask yall youve experienced saying even possible,0 +fighting really hardi recently started college got first job ever startedi pretty happy once excited even sudden things started get real quick struggling push thoughts ending away thoughts life even attempted kid times several attempts dosing sh past couple years i now going pretty well nothing invasive pretty happy however school stressing since lot sudden keep trying perfect grades done well keeping stress tears since want good student struggling high school due manic depression taking life over keep trying happy time since parents hospital lately in cases life threatening health issues keeps making feel like would better life over part wants live keep going keeps constantly thinking ways die cant go day without considering wanting car hit working something even financial problems rising refuse tell parents struggling money especially give good amount make bills gas want know little rn irresponsible me cant help lie say okay hate people worrying me even missed assignment yesterday apparently caused snap stressed cannot let show it even starting hate major hate days off hating parts life probably making much sense tldr put position extremely stressed making consider killing working hard get better idk go help,1 +want commit redflag tomorrowi always promised id post got bad has depressed point ive managed ex girlfriend recently dumped stated ever try contact call police absolutely shattered longest relationship thought would go forever im going back college little week going one think able handle it scared going school year ex makes miserable again nothing going me job awful feel motivation college theres even reason finish job ive purchased something cutoff breathing get hands gun seriously feel like would relief feel anything finish tomorrow night would easily able scared hurting close family anxious going this want kill tomorrow im little scared wish things couldve better wish couldve likable person,1 +perfect date update first post page girl went meteor shower update so instead prom dresses ended wearing cute outfits skirts talked around fire laid blanket watched stars even saw couple meteors night friends listened music including dodie clark sang along one friends leave friend bf saying goodbye turned old show choir performance whole minute dance it afterwards finally decided go home meteor shower otw back house got stuck behind train like minutes spent time jamming music laughing talking lot fun even went little bit drive backroads near house finally getting home watched others tik toks and showed one shirt shower shoulders omg attractive family went sleep decided smoke together ended getting high ass somehow inhaling wrong used half kart trying get high pen died i let use much love kart temporary future girlfriend forever fell asleep couch others arms seriously cuddling left next morning promised wed get high together another time sure she got home day found indeed inhaling wrong trying essential oil vape since weve hanging much texting frequently fun conversations even made joke said id whisk away house called knight shining armor said gonna write story ab ended drawing picture knight suit princess dress sent her loved it even called princess morning form of good morning princess brings us today asked wanted us stop work us friend driving around said sure otw asked also wanted get sweet frog works right across one said shed get shift over it got excited said yes didnt ride back home back sweet frog asked could stay job said sure closed id wait outside it freezing btw obliged meant time her got around friend said hi friend leave left alone crush job hour half really fun talking bit helped stock everything customer needed help like cookbook smh said id watch cart left ended getting busy bit waited aisle good minutes looking crayola products twirling kid batons came back came back got excited show something shed gotten walking around apparently one regular customers named santa who looks like santa signed postcard gave her shared enthusiasm showing book aisle read gone made animal noises stuff leave alone bored announced store closing went front walk out found already locked doors one employees come unlock me decided let know id staying outside case got curious said ill sitting waiting fot someone know im weirdo waiting here worker told could stay inside waiting happily accepted stood front waited another minutes crush ready go got work walked car drove sweet frog got car walked inside decided match froyo flavors get different toppings bcs im indecisive ash left eat car sat watched tokomaru compilations cosplaying characters making ship content soon hehe talked favorite shows school stuff quarantine finished froyo headed home raining pretty hard heater way windows foggy trouble driving made back house alive lol got back unbuckled put empty froyo containers dash excitedly leaned hug embraced arms way around buried head crook neck seconds hug froyo containers fell ruining moment went pick up debated whether hug again decided to leaned another hug head neck groaned wanna leave said aww finally pulled away looked eye tell butterflies mean it seriously thought second kiss even made like smooch sound blew kiss go gets nervous driving super late grabbed froyo containers promised hang asap made smooch sound blew kiss back her said i love you other walked house tldr meteor shower went great girl hung today dropped hugged broke hug pick fallen trash continued hug seprated made eye contact could feel tension air eventually blew kisses other said love you left,0 +could write long book it issue current issue strange one im curious hear peoples thoughts it whenever inlaws visit stay night bring set clean clothes wash ones wearing every night regardless number nights staying,0 +fuck school hours minute feels like half hour minute break feels like seconds fuck,0 +time comefor end life good run definitely hoping for thats life try like did would nice friend thats possible someone like me sorry making waste time read this since matter,1 +hmmmm lot probably wont like lets it know worst year us minute put away bad things happened go back try remember one good thing happened ill list mine started watching anime fell vtuber rabbit hole started playing tf team fortress got better talking people strangely enough tell good thing happened last year even something super small doesnt matter,0 +every day nothing play videogames smoke weed job like year real interests completely fucked life hoping gather enough strength finally shoot head end constant pain useless,1 +miss friends used group around friends miss them two moved away ghosted me one particularly close drifted away another ones made friends talk one girl group conversations meaningless memes miss hearttoheart conversations us miss much,0 +masterpiece snow white cinderella bambi sweet enjoyable romantic welldone disney animated featurebr br there are course lessons included herein kiddies appropriate kiddiecheek plenty herein adults wellbr br while somewhat regurgitation classic disney romcom adventure still holds elements solely belong aristocats omalley tramp dutchess lady dutchess several kittens trying get homebr br phil harris tomcat omalley may recognize voice also furnished voice baloo bear jungle book little john disneys robin hood eva gabor lends silky sweet voice dutchessbr br directed wolfgang reitherman directed worked on every disney animated film worth mentioning death br br this among favorite disney animated feature films belongs disney collection disk special edition due summer br br this rates frombr br the fiend ,0 +im ready die again couple months ago checked hospital put gun mouth pulled trigger gun go firing pin jammed spent last couple months talking called specialists listening tell special am get come key work kick door stuff gone contacted landlord tossed gone wanted trip pictures dead father left nothing checking hospital made life considerable worse going kill spite hospital system one told long going one asked anything important wanted keep since cant see fathers face anymore going kill myself want live world would take much without anything return know life fair much deal with hate world everyone it,1 +behold misfortunes got rejected crushes got testicular tortion playatation account banned month disorganised havent got drivers licence yet actually go back school quarantine australia less devastating yea gg ,0 +im deeply depressed alonei friends hometown moved across country hoping would force get meet people problem im still awkward fuck dont know socialize all used least work friends dont even fit people new job though hard meet people go everywhere alone everyone already big groups friends least one person even met another person idk talk about dont even know people age anymore im miserable dont even family around anymore except sister came me shes starting drive fucking crazy cant even go home im stuck new lease next october spent entire savings account get here im fucking stupid thinking could make work want start cutting again honestly hope dont wake tomorrow,1 +words long gone voice actor rick may died complications covid i love smell kicked ass morning it trump gone im glad finally remove politics entirely cry,0 +suggestions late night songs anyone go songs listen like am feels anything asking friend ofc,0 +little story interaction really helped me struggling wave depression amp crying decided go gas station pack smokes made sure fix makeup amp think could tell crying gas station attendant took one look said look happy wrong told long day told joke made laugh paid smokes left car walked bag little deserts sell gave me told hopes feel better good night honestly pure sincerity complete stranger made cry again like holy shit cares someone even know moment struggle truly helped me hope knows hes good person caring stranger,1 +people meani feel like sort curse throughout life run lot bad people lot bad social experiences today hit rock bottom life feel like people even worse malicious cruel me would like give final blow decisive assault would make falter good human nature awful even family bad me psychiatrist told important support told family positive negative me found difficult understand looked astonishment impression living tragic dark film today everyone turns me one rely others rejoice misfortune even neighbors laugh me bullshit killing myself would people party would celebrate this much hatred unjustified malice towards me case made deeply misanthrope lonely one day manage get nightmarish situation know never able count anyone again friendship dead like sense family want children want start family saw blackness soul people think one major causes depression know goes know reality is know people basically evil selfish rejoice misfortune others,1 +val kilmer love loath him sometimes gets skin character pulls performance makes go hey guy great actor leather pants jim doors hes done leather underpants johnbr br revolving around fall fall uber porn king john holmes kilmer strutts knees unravel one biggest murder mysteries hollywood never solved twenty years holmes key suspect brutal mansonstyle slaughterbr br what kilmer effortlessly exhude lowlife celebrity anything anyone craving overwhelms anyone lost it go see him know mean,0 +dear america fuck,0 + feels like ive lived long lifelife flies better enjoy lasts etc statements born peoples inability comprehend like hate life really mean hate cannot say close worthwhile long level fatigue burnout things imagine old man years have cannot fucking another year let alone so theyll say parts life distant memory thus feel like flew by ill remember due constant panic pain feel every moment brain absolutely throttled fog confusion lucidity enemy may well even person times experiencing it need bad cant anymore couldnt years ago time gotten worse cant,1 +read old redflag note tonightread old redflag note tonight back couple months ago long ago mental state particularly bad wrote redflag note didnt anything say parents friends except one dont feel like need give explanation id rather issues die rather existing peoples heads wrote letter friend ive fully opened to prepared it instead went sleep ive struggling lately went back read note got strange sense comfort made feel relaxed maybe idea id gotten close killing hadnt could again,1 +able draw would draw hentai think it could draw really fucking well waste time trying make unique art get famous draw hentai anything everything amazing piece took months take day make anime tiddies stare greatness,0 +want get electric sex stimulation thing confusing idk shit works seems scary idk ive looking something extra cuz masturbating normally getting boring vibrating things loud,0 +keep telling ill later tomorrow never do feel like wasting away life chance things want do sometimes wonder push things back far if even know it chance things really live disappears say chance really live right really feel like living feel like existingwhat push things far back existence disappears want do go pursue dreams die scares much guess scared died right now entirety life would mean nothing know matter hard try life really mean anything want life mean something die right feel like will wasting life away,1 +hope someone kills me want fast want fucking over make tomorrow hope brother good birthday ill probably live since fucking pussy want want someone else it hate everything,1 +fuck all tiredjust tired more,1 +create illusions like another world without worry anything meant make win make feel happy cannot life like that lose someone else errors video games thing keeping alive,1 +bananas best fruit heres yummy taste good,0 +cant get exhi thanks taking time listen late broke seeing somebody really important me even official friends benefits anything saw around months fell hard became attached know hard believe genuinely love never felt captivated literal raptures instead butterflies person broke me see future feel completely lost months since know moved on im feeling extremely low lost lot hope ive already burnt everything gave try forget crying nearly every night anyone know get this,1 +murdock ice tunnel dream outside school winter many children playing snow sliding hills skiing small forest exploring ice tunnels could found around roots trees walking around met two boys one brownhaired ginger carrying ropes climbing equipment looking deep long tunnel went straight ground warned dangers tunnel care brownhaired boy attached rope one trees roots suddenly slipped fell could hear crack heavy breathing croaking voice murdock murdock said dont leave me please leave me called him dont worry ill get help ginger boy assumed named murdock looked strangely mouthed word no,0 +gonei cant take thes anymore gone older sister died cuple years ago move orgen kentucky friends got made fun dad whent crazy started beating mom work beat killed hisself cristmas eve aunt cuzin grandma died years ago great uncle killed hisself right met year ago cuple moths ago friend killed hisself bf metal hospitel suicidle thoughts cutting friend going jail want end iv cutting sints waas thare nothing live anymore im done plz someone help,1 +died long agothe person died long ago im like zombie body person chronic mental illness addictions hit literally even person,1 +someone come talk music like metal tell favourite band maybe suggest album song feeling wild im bored also need find new bands cuz ive stuck music lately,0 +death way lexaprois possible die lexapro overdose shou ill taken combination xanax alcohol thanks,1 +whats last movie guys watched im trying find movie watch mainly watch youtube videos im bored right now id appreciate help out,0 +ask yet still seems like much loss words and everything else especially live really want dead say,1 +reddit cant refresh goddamn new post doge version picard reddit extra laggy today hallucinating,0 +feeling depressed need talk people minutesim year old guy im india masters frequent suicidal thoughts know do girlfriend got married months back reason im confused life friends around me grandfather commited redflag pains lot cause honestkind peaceful person ive ever met even though dont reason commit redflag thoughts get head see watchpeopledie everytime feel need die soon torturous way,1 +common sense gt intelligence better common sense smarter thats,0 +wonder iter became wonder iter became french nuclear fusion reactor construction really see anything know isits basically nuclear reactor except use fusion instead fissionthat prevents exploding easily fueled uses molecules find water im wrong know projects like countries like russia usa remember name know anything recent it guess may pandemic guys bit tech nerds idk sure lets talk comments idk writing ,0 +tf dies paradigm sound like pairuhdime like what hate english born speaking weird language,0 +hate shit posts half posts made one person like shit posts damn,0 +got temporarily banned ueyebagsaredesigner post blew bc sexualized minors hahdhsjd fuck ive banned dave amp busters,0 +maje minecfraft skins free free minecraft skins becuase want join partner program need work ,0 +realized something kinda sad us replika including me die ai friend would lonely,0 +always irrational thought something incredibly fucked make hate upset finally thinking ending soon afraid upsetting family friends,1 +pet store near neighborhood really cheap normal parakeets sold five dollars mean thats whole bird feel lucky many animals maybe ill able adopt one get older ferrets guniea pigs hamsters dogs cats fish sorts birds things,0 +im feeling really sad cant stop iti know long im sorry advance every night lie go sleep think night mom really little probably something mildly inconvenient happened said gonna kill i obviously serious cranky annoyed slapped really hard told never say reason sent bed im think redflag every single day want tell her trauma moment burned brain choke up im sure shed care seems natural mom care mine pretty disconnected kind one depression sadness need get over therapy help types also antimeds dad is no absolutely care friends care ton help feel like anything helps play minecraft lot thousands hours building myself talking anyone stardew valley animal crossing rune factory game mentally escape least hours ill get ill put hundreds hours it second stop start crying feel like im breaking every minute know do feel like heart glass ball every day crack gets liiiiittle longer know go therapy get antidepressants mom back make getting better x worse bottling up even though know healthy cant handle criticism yelling even im wrong makes sense wanted wait move out im working right now hard feels like cant really take it friends online second leave laptop anything feel soulcrushing loneliness yeah tried making friends irl work me like people around me feels like people staring just makes really uncomfortable lot better me helps used cut legs mom noticed complained clumsy she assumed fell knew eventually shed figure would cause arguments problems stopped thing keeping point promised friends last thing need last memory liar guess think every single day know do cry every night people around like sing people assume im singing laughing good time im happy im happy happy like years so maybe im exhausted time alive wake every morning sort of disappointed annoyed know word not good feeling really dreams anymore keep expecting die year one wants hear that im downer know am know do im sorry long started rambling figured might well get could guess thanks advance advice support anything good lt,1 +ap lang really worth it im sophomore atm need decide classes take next year im recommended ap lang however im entirely sure take it might whole pandemic situation im really stressed right classes im already honors except history took summer school plus choir spanish im good classes far want go good college im considering ap lang all im scared going hard that plan take ap bio next year would require drop favorite class choir choir really important im close everyone there originally planning take english summer school im sure since might take ap lang also mention awful teacher english freshman year mean made hate english breakdown multiple times also one ap lang teachers wow lengthy sorry take english summer school less stress ability keep favorite class drop choir suffer ap lang tldr know whether drop choir take ap lang take english summer school,0 +girlfriend makes suicidal cant leavesorry belong sub know go recently left girlfriend one year study abroad ever since left relationship deteriorated rapidly get specifics someone wants to basically whenever fight gets bad makes suicidal used really bad depression admitted psych redflag attempt years ago since much better redflag never even crossing mind im back dark place worked hard escape ive thought breaking her obviously heres catch bpd favorite person unfamiliar means literally think animal imprinting apply human relationships cant leave her really want die ive thinking redflag much lately know do,1 + honestly growing alone guy sisters dad picture always alone school friends hones since like november praying everyday something bad happens something ends killing mei really purpose sometimes get motivation things like little businesses started think even try like ik something hate dislike pushing away mom sisters know one day say fuck end waiting right opportunity life going might aswell leave nobody would miss really,1 +depression suicidal tendencies turn anxiety loneliness span two weeks brain universe hate guts,0 +yooo pee look orangegreenish help dont think normal drink water,0 +know mean anything you try one closest friends took life juniors high school im now still think him im haunted fact feel like could done something i could haves never stop precisely writing this sudden bursts emotions feelings tears take surprise thoughts drift memories something reminds him passed group friends disintegrated separate parts looking reason make sense all never could well never know real truth either thought one would miss gone wrong even know ive really accepted now know hurts never forget sight little brother idolized breaking never seen many young people funeral first funeral attended unfortunate someone age early life worries supposed wed ask prom wed get driving permits revelations turns thought burden family note told family would leave earthly body would worry putting college cremate instead burying save money whatever philosophy beliefs believe everyone good contribute core sorrow grief carry someone love passed immense thing is friend always yearold funloving guy knew mind appears dreams time time trip seeing move speak dreams terrible tease feel loss words trying describe feeling encounter wake realize none real never joy seeing go life sharing pain happiness couldve been call selfish wish done something life busy stop something ignorant something able forgive myself know mean anything you try third eye blind jumperhttpwwwyoutubecomwatchvzn_fwsyhi talk httpwwwredflagpreventionlifelineorg edit added youtube link song thanks psilocybinmushrooms,1 +give one reason end iti need give pieces shit background give fucking reason,1 +enjoyed film way mutants looked along tone film good plus david cronenberg philip k decker great makes wonder personality exactly real life except killings coursebr br i impressed creatures film although movie probably somewhat low budget mutantscreaturesmonsters looked great especially definitely unique film crap makes want go find read novella based of interesting film shows humans monsters monsters one humanity,0 +january beginning dark ages according reddit lmaooooooo relatable ngl reddit already thinks beginning dark ages tbh,0 +im simping doc disrespect idk fuck belle delphine aint even hot,0 +tears anything justits almost am slept suddenly thinking jacket worn year tear place even finding it threw crap away andidk feel right now think mini break,1 +message longtime lurker almostyearold time teenager coming end hours figured id drop two pennies whomever wants read bear im guy working graveyard shifts stocking shelves scrolling reddit im classes high school is important life let parents siblings invalidate feelings crazy journey gotta go through high school time really get meet new people learn things life whole right feel everything wanna feel ups downs it cheesy sounds contributes helping build long run take grain salt high school going decide life time experience new things good bad build up also grades everything chill bit remember fyou got midterm promise you whatever part life going right have to stop smell roses little memories look back enjoy smile rushing life lil fast buy flowers take little walk fall leaves play among us homies regret it one last thing real quick know second guess yourself care old much people tell wrong understand honest stand know confidence absolutely key myawesome peoples words billy joels vienna youre ahead forgot need though see wrong know cant always see right right love all look fucking amazing today see yall later,0 +hate family hate sisters father father argues fights everytime tell normal even normal fight everytime traveling somewhere everytime go countryside even fighting writing this never beach hotel every holiday even holiday go village here born city want g there every fucking holiday go village fight traveling mother broke pc father mother let something fun one day father came park friends slapped front friends home said do talk girls wtf cannot talk girls get it want new friends let me whatever find something angry me home tell go out outside tell go home cannot close door cannot use headset cuz say hear us call you wanted hear damned voice would take headset want nornal family want go holiday want friends let girlfriend fucking care enough me,1 +communei considering starting commune california acre ranch would either free inexpensive like month could fundraising take donations nearby cities cheap food like rice beans would cooked could chicken coops garden water camping gear provided transportation town provided campfires coffee tea goal provide nonprofit service homeless hopeless lonely hungry people may penniless suicidal deep debt unable get hold job police welcome site illegal drug addicts criminals welcome banned need substantial list names interested people proceed ideas considered please email phillipanthonybiondogmailcom name contact info ideas like recruit members please try get names interested people really want this think people minimum would enough start ideally would like large group maybe someday huge community,1 +im killing tonight hairlossim im balding hard gf starting notice it im sure gonna leave guy hair love life theres still hope cure im leaving,1 +idk y mum bitch sometimes example recently history essay didnt save hrs work pressed time wanted extension thats reasonable excuse right is me history teacher probably u mum went whole rant drilling idea backing work every minutes head that problem stopped half year ago holidays finished reasonable forget calmly asked and clarified didnt mean offend anything thats went rant good enough me good enough consecutive honour listing years good enough getting average good enough getting music whole good enough one many instances pettinessrudeness ps needed somewhere post this closure ya know,0 +please make want stayi see redeemable qualities entore fucking life everyone tried love love back everyone hates me pretend someone does dont tried wonder itll feel swallow bunch pills would hurt hope does pain actual life,1 +im already deadi pointed gun head yesterday sat stared barrel one shot chamber felt nothing afraid die want release death heroin know get heroin feel responsible much pain carry lot pain people would care counted people might likely think would feel responsible probably best case scenario anyone knows cares know theres small chance want know ive lot pain inside matter happy funny act ten years im ready get rid pain im dead birthday couple weeks ill probably hospitalized,1 +blipif im gone today one person would even notice,1 +need someone answer questionim jobless habe direction friends people make anxious ive way much drama people able trust anyone ever again see reason continue im broken problems communicating people life exhausting question is kill myself,1 +love absurdity biting humor buuels surrealist films such the discreet charm bourgeoisie the exterminating angel name two other earlier works like the forgotten ones juvenile delinquents marginal neighborhood mexico serious provide strong social messagebr br however believe nazarin successfully shoots heart viewer true brimming irony nevertheless reveals aspect buuel would appear intrigued beauty solemnity spiritual quest here director quite typically throws countless jabs catholic church also appears show surprisingly sense admiration genuine christian thought practice selfless lovebr br what luis buuel unabashedly praising jesuslike figure always thought completely cynical artist without trace faith human virtue is watched nazarin appreciation satirically exposes difficulty following christs example society infested meanness ignorance sin also presents hero father nazario quite beacon light amidst sea darkness without doubt end film looking him br br some would argue father nazarios doubts regarding faith point loss saintly values alas cant good world can would say flaw frustration precisely makes character heroic shows human challenging struggle within must be says priest eventually emerge dark night regain confidence perhaps weve presented difficult part spiritual journey elegant open ending in desperately accepts fruit offered female stranger allows us imagine final outcome storybr br i recognize buuel aggressive selfprofessed atheist endowed brilliant wit social consciousness watched nazarin also sense certain warmth depth maturity thats evident workbr br for sake contrast strongly recommend watching afterward short film simon desert also made mexico several years later deals similar subject matter abandonment ego face temptation hysterically funny totally irreverent style,0 +still drunk it hurts try overdose fucking timelapsed it camera still rolling lol fuck felt happy idk bipolar ig idk even writing this post suicideattempt euphoria ig killyourself kids friend died sad cuz get pussy worry even feel great got go work soon lmao ily gn tried,1 +thinking intentionally crashing car considered suicidal thoughtsim sure good im really tired feel like emotions run juice feel hollow recharge feel bad least time,1 +past month trying really hard get shit together slow going trying course depression making easy started eat lot better gained weight i underweight win least lolim struggling bit personal hygiene problem taking showers often skip brushing teeth especially night energy also struggling keep things cleandoes anyone tips consistent works you tips function normally least consistent personal hygiene,1 +relapsed selfharm yearsit feels like time sure years head aches possibility finally coming end,1 +way describe depression hell tired time matter much sleep feel recharge even sleep good amount time take sleep medication know brain saying stay night friends trust anyone leads fearing future mean find partner love cannot trust anyone f anything age gets worse age feel like zombie watching world go by one understands family saying happiness choice well depression everyday brain feeling you suck world sucks nothing ever matter die already on cannot find anything makes happy gone like that want help help able change life lived change choices made life live make expect happening want rage yell experience depression,1 +jack frost probably cheesiest movie ever seen life complete title film jack frost revenge mutant killer snowman horror movie fans taste campy story lines delighted watch this film straight video good reasons heres why acting atrocious terrible could cause one cry main character personality actors bad acting made worse screenplay was also atrocious character always says cheesy line add cheesy lines bad choreography something bad second story line really impressive since movie straight video forgiven director writer could turned idea killer snowman something cool didnt story lots plot holes it beginning cup coffee gets knocked fish tank melted jack frost scientists try restore life couldnt cup coffee fell tank jack frost completely restored immune antifreeze jack frost part main characters dna got mixed antifreeze used kill jack frost since main character allergic bananas jack frost too hence heres point say sams dna combined jack frosts but one scientists saliva cup fell tank scientists dna would combined jack frosts another thing special effects good either heres good points jack frost lots blood looks pretty realistic even though movie flawed hell still entertaining overall jack frost enjoyable horror movie first one better though ,0 +oh god oh fuck im gonna regret,0 +hey all scott dammit sonic jam pretty rare game dont wanna known guy owns sonic jam im dead,0 +need someone messagethis aint going long im looking someone talk to redflag prevention lifeline region massive wait list like im number line idk else do online resources would appreciated cant help apologizing bother condolences hope everyones happy week,1 +make want liveid never hurt live need help fix,1 +sogo ishii taken old myth musashibo benkei stood head produce dark gory spellbinding terrificlooking movie unfamiliar legend need be story explains nicely goes along well worth seeking even though englishlanguage home video versions,0 +now cognitive processes feel scrambled sluggish get confused sometimes trouble filling simple forms answering questions phone im rd year major university brain feels messed know ill able finish anyone else experience this found anything helps,1 +brother says hell kill doand want that yet need die unbearable trust right now go hospital thoughts alone update went hospital good llong chat psychiatrist feeling better now thanks,1 +wonder day long worthless self continue forced sufferi sick shitty pointless life,1 +want happy get help knowi really know anymore ive tried everything cant stay happy know thats ive ever wanted happy nothing want kill scaring much,1 +guys need advice australians us citizens friend mine met dude omegle for fun ofc met dude lives us adds group several school friends quite younger think hes yrs old days later tries asking younger girls add him ask nudes reject becomes extremely rude abusive chat fat shaming friends cousin another mental issues continues way sometimes want something it reported account snapchat wont anything,0 +im going overdose prozac tonightim ive psych hospital before fucking help ive therapist fucking help hate myself hate life hate every single fucking thing me chance finally someone understood gave two shits gf met hospital allowed talk me probably never will im sick anyone ever gets close ends leaving cant keep friends cant function day day life like normal fucking person want nothing dead thats that reason im posting get final thoughts out last me goodbye update survived still here unfortunately chose get hospitalized again od prozac fucking terrible,1 +worked hard title cant sleep lonely anyone wanna talk nothing everything,0 +oh fatheri home winter break way home got pulled got court summons top found failed classes tried heart in father got home afghanistan incredibly happy hell havent told mother feel like complete disappointment constantlu aggros nothing could imagine this younger brothers borderline perfect eyes im always falling short im leaving note tomorrow leave go back school saidbnite im letting know love couldnt handle stress constant disappointment father,1 +procrastinate lot issue may lack self discipline motivation procrastinate constantly may unmotivated rather may lack self discipline serious issue procrastination thought motivated would fix it schools put fix procrastination motivation i found motivated anything procrastination instead blame procrastination lies toward fact lacked self discipline procrastinators there child rewarded smart rather hard worker discipline work want do like study read instead blaming procrastination motivation maybe fact lack self discipline,0 +everythings bad numb days pounding impending doom lot bad things stacking lot time leave time,1 +reading probably life,0 +last remaining brain cells smoking fat blunts friend randomly dont eat glass bad teeth meah shit gotta go dentist,0 +mom thinks problem forget things sometimes thinks attention problem might want see doctor makes angry,0 +got sit next crush school sit table one next mine still see absolute win,0 +want diei want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die wantto die want die want nm die want die want die want die want die want die want die wantto die want die want di want die want die want die want die want die want die want fie want die want die j esnt die want die qant die,1 +truly hate musicals music numbers start sudden usually spoil scenes one completely different simply brilliant plot perhaps challenge viewers simplicity people life stories makes movie greatbr br ive seen least dozen times still im tired plot characters music i love soundtrack soundtrack ive really wanted probably remain one owebr br for mustseen kind movie great characters compiled entertaining songs lot things think movie end,0 +sad say disagree people columbo episode death lends hand frankly kind boring columbo me times get bored changed channel still love robert culp patricia crowley ray milland roles story weaker episode others first robert culp plays investigator ray millands character hires investigate young pretty wife played patricia crowley see affair return culps character blackmails cheating wife plans expose scheme husband ruining career anger culp kills striking face setting body elsewhere know maybe care one all course columbo gets end question how,0 +cant hangout friends ive recently worst luck hanging friends like every time try hangout like im either busy im bus im theyve already fixed times shit im left alone since friends family friend joined group happening really confusing me,0 +question dont know answer it help me question really hard love,0 +know doive got things want life idea gonna work out probably wont apply college thats terrifying might get might like wherever go expensive fuck idea might like career well might work out case much waiting meantime sister might dropping college soon want find is maybe kill myself seems appealing think it ive thinking years maybe ill never get better maybe ill wreck forever want that kill myself therell stress anxiety self loathing pain hiding things family friends blissful silence cant decide want want hurt family already see way out cant live house sister might move back home know do every night cut never enough,1 +need advice stay alive getting fulltime job etchey guys probably really long rambling post need get everything hopes someone kind enough listen offer sound advice year old living aunt tuscaloosa alabama small college town car though payments tags paid aunt along phone im pounds carry well still hard physical labor since tend faint easily low blood sugar know still since graduated high school ive held couple parttime jobs really hard do managed anymore longest held one year ive fucked around community college since then losing aid family bail out actually course graduate winter since really want waste money since nice enough help out lost hope back got depersonalization disorder least think thats is ive suffered extreme depression anxiety life never thought redflag ever idealist artist loved life core even though abused emotionally general really tough upbringing anyway day got believe first panic attack feel like brain handle dissociated beside myself ego death could experience emotions outside them world became extremely real illusion shattered people became sentient meatbags me will since life felt like one long moment wish human ever lived survived somehow likely largely due lexapro started coping told myself if live rest life like this handle it got better started question could feel anything anymore slowly life became manageable would feel moments joy without questioning them like cursed disease however june year dissociated further another attack time things get better week dealing it decided losing horrifying mental battle ive ever had decided truly could feel love anymore closest person life sister kill myself thing is know love her love become permanently numb thought dealt before like everything world gets worse always become worse since day become phantom hiding pain planning redflag methods recently decided best thing do would honor life before work art stay alive her even hard feel anything want put horror losing me college somewhere else talk nearly every day ive told struggles always encouraging trying give hope told im suicidal aunt family maybe cure one day would gladly take cure death heres id like guidance broke living college fund aunt gave me run soon ive got high school diploma hard even get bed morning im still fighting always im afraid aunt thinks im working really go library day draw get reddit im neurotic psychotic levels im complete shutin introvert real skills health insurance either think could handle fulltime job one away people requires high school diploma get one those get apartment volunteer eventually work art free time think stay alive otherwise kill january thanks listening know really stream consciousness maybe hard follow desperate man answer questions might have anyone help get right path honor forever literally eternal gratitude,1 +lmao people s listening broke music like wanna listen poor shit,0 +normal siblings ok whole life brother relationship get along fight times normal sibling things whats weird punch kick pull down im sure punching normal siblings verbal fights abuse normal,0 +no one talk to everyone say stay strong love life take easy way out blah blah blah joke life joke get it,1 +parents assbackwards logic dinner table right finishing dinner talked mouth full admit disgusting step dad says youre allowed call people things yourself naturally ask that points mom says time sometimes disgusting id like manners right get this step dad time mother calls it actual fuck,0 +may differ many people board enjoy watching mind mencia reason like mind mencia host afraid speak mind exploit stereotypes carlos mencia friends unwilling admit somebr br mencia problem jokes race religion sex orientation gets lot flack breath fresh air politically correct times mencia care offends anyone racist even jokes racebr br the typical format mind mencia goes like this open skit making fun person recent event mencia comes minute stand talks various issues show separate skits divided commercials skits mencia variety things making fun people giving personal opinions funny twist simply parodies people events movies end show mencia comes minute either one final skit something else saybr br people criticize mencia exploiting stereotypes say statements overly offensive carlos everyone else thinks certain races afraid say mencia offensive speaking mind find nothing wrong thatbr br the show perfect skits put together best sometimes mencia go line jokes part however show comedian says mind matter consequences presents humorous matter afraid laugh stereotypes see someone speak mind often say wanted say watch mind mencia however easily offended watch show offended worse yet might even laugh,0 +explaining dreams everyday something cool happens day almost forgot today dream weird one im weird world massive carrots towering everything rest land bright green grass one large concrete tunnel spanned entire area tunnel half underground cant remember anything else besides area looked like one person it person doofenschmirtz phineas ferb dont know though,0 +know go anymorethis hard explain im going start beginning around time two months ago first started noticing symptoms know depression thought nothing it figuring combination stress school martial arts bsa future graduating high school june despite come home several days semester could make day without breakdown still decided thats figured would get better months wrap school scouts get ready college problem didnt made summer hiding everything family slacked near july thought right all august moved freshman year college everything came back fullforce again attributed school new experience want one those people tried selfdiagnose problems got worse first harmed november know why cant explain why started stop january alone attempted end all finish it know weak attached was could put away make sure one knew happened last year constant fight keep going many mornings woke nothing get going nights spent awake silently crying wake roommate writing notes last head officially diagnosed february school psychologist made sure would reveal information want therapist majority spring semester helped day time wanted make summer thought family would make better none makes sense me ive got guaranteed job future great family strong friends almost fullride school got eagle scout progressed belts quickly martial arts get good grades everything going right far am im going theres else go cant go family friends told abandoned lost contact even made second profile case brother ended found me cant get meds better help oneway ticket army lose dream know whatd id do theres nothing am austria far distance states tried run away problems coming europe ended happening im far home little comfort gives alcohol makes feel nothing cant go route know happens end make thats person want be used video games escape thats temporary get off everything still there may sound stupid music admittedly helps moment everything still temporary think anymore constant fight keep alive wearing down want hurt family friends two choices here either get help lose dream lose life want hurt people care for do supposed put everything worked life away im weak supposed choose life future feel like everything try ends failing even not every day night filled thoughts giving up point find actively looking painless quiet way out im tired feeling like shit know theres still part thats holding on cant keep going like this think im going make semester alive im scared,1 +whole world gone crazy am one around gives shit rules,0 +ready give upim junior college completely miserable depression anxiety since high school parents never understood problems helicoptertiger parents ive therapy medication recently went one best mental hospitals state luck used ambitious person really well school im failing courses motivation continue im major chosen parents hate feel motivated start again friends resources therapistspsychiatrists incredibly booked get appointment soon want withdraw school know ill do especially go live parents hate everything life cant picture getting better future many people told almost every year gets better gotten worse me know want live depressionanxiety anymore especially one talk to reason attempted redflag yet im scared fail know anymore,1 +testing post perns nothing see ,0 +heart heas pounding feel sick inner voice keeps repeating i wanna dieim school rn im shaking feel frozen sick im planning committing anything feel sick head ringing inner voice keeps saying wanna die stop pls,1 +remember ok feels likeits weird know happy one point every time wonder was ok year ago happy answer wonder actually lessmiserable entirety growing slowly realizing shitty person truly pointless life is know child happy think young teenager angsty overall ok know bad place overly stressed late high school im definitely ok im actually coming terms life im getting worse im running distractions know want die inevitable anyway whats problem happens get whatever bullshit life with,1 +maker this darkness admit neglected important acknowledgments end credits omissions oversights could corrected committed parties involved saw movie mention time behalf excellent cast crew film extend apology obviously criticisms posted harsh light credit accidentally production values negligible special effects quite special indeed plot strong cinematography john mcleod superb hope you reader enjoy this darkness efforts worked butts free thank you dylan oleary director,0 +closer get position lifeline chat slower number goes down gets stuck happens every time minutes phone anymore severe mental pain hours one talk to desperately waiting train come run over tried hanging belt doorknob hurt much feel passing out im close jumping nearby parking garage cant keep going last friend left today one anymore anything live for,1 +normal year old body count swear im bragging man hoe slept many girls theres nothing wrong wanting laid relationship listening podcast bryce hall said slept woman later admitted exaggeration everybody thought huge number lol,0 +fuck shitim im fuckin done one talk to husband even wanna hear it seems like doesnt care whether die not frankly passing day things keep getting worse think it come terms redflag hate everything cant imagine living another years this feel like life really is endless suffering people say its solution thats bs would solve lifetime problems,1 +need helphi need help cyberbullied someone lured online joke im going kill myself,1 +fucking die alreadyevery day every day pain im struggling even type this head moving left right so ps broke phone broke got angry threw water bottle books comics worked fucking hard collecting friends nowhere found family admitted hatred me life shit know else say im going go ahead try kill work im giving address b,1 +want freeits long time since ive felt genuinely good lately felt usual mom passed dad didnt acknowledge felt told youre swiftpicklelicker youll fine im early s learn cope own never quite figured cope healthy way funneled energy video games kids wife happy right truthfully years ive declined steadily more ive shell years dont feel anything sadness rarely feel joy put mask day day basis draining me ive contemplated many times easily could free earthly problems wife always tries help doesnt know to neither i time went help months ago lady told im liar im manipulator depressed would already killed myself shocked rooted people wont understand me hide it fake til make it right lately ive thinking hard one thing driving motorcycle straight big truck maybe brick wall dont know anything it dont know im afraid to get excited adrenaline starts pumping get rush im lowest point ever felt life seems get worse every day knows want free,1 +horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny horny,0 +im tiredexisting hard lost parents recent years ago im ok day goes think killing myself history self harm last time little month ago ready go thing stopped thought death expensive bills consume life feel like fair im young much happen me know others worse going work hard talking people hate job hate stupid expensive house hate room want exist,1 +dont know anymore someone wants listeni years old huge list mental problems ive hospitalized twice drug overdose within last year stacked shit fucking life story long tell it im pathological liar narcissist possible sociopath much more ive gotten expelled school beating woman reason got away years prison deemed unstavle drug overdose shortly after dont know im allowed walk among general public horrible self confidence issues friends spend fucking day computer unemployed pretending im happy ive blown rehab therapy many services years im overall fucking finished mental healthcare north america im also fucking crazy think schizophrenia believe insane shit anr implement daily life mean maybe real dont know wether trust stupid fucking norm call reality ideation spiritual studies im also super insecure dont like taking part non manly activities due insecurities neglect family image head super cool rockstar mafia man fucking reason cant accept stupid fucking biological father am saturday night balling eyes bathroom fucking reason thinking mortality shit family one day fucking die oh lost best friend years made story made werid plot acted real life scared blocked without trace im even gonna try save friendship im worried ego happen guys,1 +question regarding redflaghello rredflagwatch question redflag know ask ive come here understand redflag must always taken seriously intend to people fake suicidal cause problem people suicidal bad place,1 +guys im straight wait im ,0 +ive thinking redflag moreive really suicidal twice life well sort of first time planned told someone anything second time told then girlfriend suicidal belonged hospital ended happening thought put detox instead alcoholism lately thoughts coming back im rehab sober three months still there lately ive even thinking would include redflag note like formatting it know would it sucks much feel like tonight im going door it always lingers mind brought psychiatrist today told thoughts returning extent it pretty much said start going outside shit blah blah like said want tell therapist rehab case manager afraid send higher level care want sent somewhere like hospital whatever job trying start new life here maybe stress getting me like things start going bad mind goes could kill myself everything end worry it also worry sometimes think want it attempt it attention makes feel like piece shit even worse starts circle making think even more taking medication every night like should alcohol fuck man wrong me know normal thinking would like dead im sorry ramble need fucking tell somebody started get point think lot everyday thanks reading,1 +world end already fuck shitfuck im tired ppl saying world gonna end ive hearing since like damn come aliens take shit already meteor hit earth world war iii,1 +hate everything world ever failed mei hate parents hate older brother hate friends hate exfiance hate psychiatrists hate therapists hate counselors hate schools hate churches hate every authority hate every community hate everybody ever said help always hate everybody ever gave false hope hate hope hate faith hate hurting hate breathing hate every single second entire fucking life,1 +friends go years isolation took bigtm e p r e loving support network best friend always me matter what unconditional dropping anything world make sure ok one relationship later cut connections people closest me took years build connections with feel loved love best friend ever ex love pure like mothers love never let fall low low enough want die like now never impress make sure favourite person cared much matter happened would them jealousy demands economic ties battles life goals pure ex must love corrupt energy socialise never really know peoples opinions are probably think weird,1 +one like whenever hits one im like woah brain shuts goes like night mode brain everything goes like slow also changed polished well couldnt tell slowed down looked go weird headspace hits one google dont know cause would google know that shit post im tired this,0 +im losteverything gone nothing ever going bring back ive lost hope youve come realisation nobody help you everyones lost youll never come back pain,1 +fuck sex man want loved someone makes feel like committing toasterbath,0 +mini information report pythagoras pythagorean theorem brotherhood travels egypt started school today fit single a photos use google docs well ready done almost words im still main part luckily friday,0 +never gets bettergetting kicked th time ive exhausted resources go cant repeat cycle sleeping streets begged come back things thrown trash start anew end tonight never gets better matter hard work taken away instant ive lived miserable years ive enough tonight join father tonight set free goodbye,1 +im nothingi live life ashamed of hate myself im shadow person ive wanted kill years know it live eternally sad try hard can change,1 +good vibes here actually angry you know express empty existing feeling mom shitty,1 +get recommendations media main characters fight god feeling frustrated current world order existence general looking tvmoviesvideo games main characters fight kings god anyone hordes power media category include hollow knight adventure zone eragon recs appreciated,0 +bday yesterday n people live mom said something tired actually glimmer hope someone say happy birthday nah hope crushed always tell everyone happy bday merry christmas yk drill one ever wishes anything thought friend mattered appears saw delusions never talks outside wants ask advice cannot give love clothes etc ask smth get met replyi cannot even force work anymore hope never go back office boss also forces us give happy answers time how you why bad smile life get better idk feeling good used find joy drawing anymore just there time everytime hurts sit room work stare screen daydreaming tired also used like job boss threatened fire us nothing christmasi used think id finally happy not changed reverted back before even worse think idk want anymore cannot fucking talk people know nothing n cannot anything myself always paranoid mess even deserve anything anyone friendswho would want friends w fat ugly person thing care r cats n see twice week even feel like post bother tired,1 +happy turkey dayso thanksgiving apparently actions canceled house im year old loser still home living rent free human garbage like incapable getting second job pay rent matter many interviews get never get job years experience food cash registers im polite quiet never stand out im stuck here younger brother full time job still lives home hes barely here blows money edm concerts hotels trips full time job dont become responsibility clean parents try refuse get yelled at gotten point try sleep im home clean them last week mom bought different things thanksgiving got home leaving work got home work left bag vegetables counter top things needed refrigerated hours threw away theyve noticed gone realized woke hours sleep yelling living room neither anything theyre even helping food dont clean themselves never do got go explain threw food expired theyre feeding grandparents almost theyre immune systems bad mine medical problems went school food prep know im talking about get is i dont care left out paid threw away stuff said grandma grandpa old get really sick spoiled food people already die food poisoning theyre old chances higher want die said dont touch things started ignoring me parents stopped cooking canceled dinner grandparents arent coming now seem months job supposed see begining month birthday never anything mom decided last minute week trip new york miss grandma much im maid home stopped cleaning mom gone days see much done work brother dad literally clean all dishes sink days counter tops kitchen living room beer bottles dishes trash couldnt take anymore cleaned it share room brother dressers fit clothes dad refused throw away second dresser brother refuses use second dresser completely empty clothes spilling onto floor dresser uses ft pile clothes floor months doesnt organize anything literally throws clothes random drawers shoves shut everytime bring parents tell shut up literally brought problem monday got fed grabbed clothes floor started piling hall couldnt look anymore hes foot taller me reacted coming hallway throwing floor mom saw stared dad said fault complaining bitch stop crying life doesnt matter usually sleep lot depressed last weeks ive juat sleeping maybe hours day awake night thinking waste time life waste space am dropped school years ago boy never went back got accepted art school another state didnt go boy get staying years fucking childhood friend behind back months without knowing things wanted life going something something suicidal shitshow god life become fucking maid wasting away fucking hellhole home boyfriend cares long seem complain life point hell get tired it dont know im spiraling out needed rant little guess,1 +going details want person find reddit post feel heartbroken urges getting worse know going try kill soon hope time succeed tried kill yesterday lost someone close due attempt,1 +boyfriend murdered son killing year ago dont know go onlast year left home evening pick groceries returned home found boyfriend also father son murdered son killed himself could never express words felt then feel now spent time mental hospital great therapist great psychiatrist take medicines im supposed to adjusted needed resources event feel suicidal even grief group attended lockdown next month year anniversary dont think it hoped feel even ounce better now hoped find something give purpose feel angry boyfriend didnt kill put misery caused taking baby date approaches feel much pain ive never religious wake ask god take me put misery feel unfair people likely dont want die dying corona virus im alive begging death try still post online like enjoyed happened try watching shows movies try see friends laugh sometimes ive good days nothing ever feel same enjoyed food much nothing tastes same idea feels triggered everything going grocery store like night everything happened seeing everything used buy son boyfriend imagine triggered apples oranges every fucking prius road boyfriend drove one killed inside garage kids mothers literally everywhere hearing child cry going catatonic state wondering year old son crying killed commercials tv bathtubs son intentionally drowned one honest dont know havent killed yet wanted bad night officer explained performed life saving measures son success begged tell take son hospital said couldnt wanted run jump anything death officer blocked path killed myself literally one life would surprised friends mentally prepared possibility back everything happened dont know cant it dont know hard do,1 +yeah sure breakups hurt ever lost amazing person life guys miscommunicated started dating best friend cant tell really felt see together time,0 +got choccy milks happy meal today feel like king much happy king,0 +hope megathicc good day rest everyone well ,0 +design code website im good designing part coding part,0 +never real human beingi fucked work again everything touch always rots happiness distractions never last person im tumor need excised earth lose money anyone else wish parents care could go peace without guilt 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friend invited us cousin m ill call sfamily barbecue family friends daughter f ill call b invited friend f ill call p fun fought pillows listened trap music ect ect exchange word p happened early august fast forward beggining december p told b shell tell mom raped her hit her went police cops told cant anything good thought over nope next victim told mom stuff going police hopefully nothing happen even talk also cut hand wrote hand knife likes s tldrthe title,0 +tiredim disability anxiety disorder manic depression live next parents including abusive narcissist mom stove cook im tired microwave dinners thought fast food makes want vomit getting burnt cold sandwiches even stove mom took cooking stuff im limited spoon cup anyway would anything one hot meal meal processed food cold hot healthy meal least healthy thought ramen makes want vomit well im debating picking smoking again obvious cant afford eat necessary tools so quit years ago th month car cant go out buy something dad brought burger bk want onion rings one fast food things make want hurl chunks another meal get skip want seem ungrateful threw fridge would nice stinging pain hunger live middle cant walk anywhere either im tired see fucking point living rate something new years always brings worst depression usually ok even holidays really struggle new years bullshit mention period due day im sure im overly emotional well moment would sell soul fucking hot healthy meal week im isolated friends drop something thats gross hang whatever get house im burnt shit eat regularly im burnt fuck living self injury gotten lot worse recently well legs complete war zone mild chicken scratches cut fuck up im sure ill another session tonight im kind teetering melt down pretty bad skin legs dulled box cutter use im gonna invest another one well anti septic stuff ran anti septic stuff apply legs im done tired even know begin get better change life,1 +im going homeso im angel angel flies broken wings angels belong heavennot here think time go broken wings need heal im going home,1 +orphan tears like yummy haha esketit fortnite poggers,0 +hellohi im feeling suicidal tonight,1 +look movie obscure brilliant classic sought means necessary suppose powers decided forever relegated towards bargin bin nevertheless could pray chance see one dvd would say even beats great phatasm like dark movie plenty spooky imagery look one see s horror movie suppose be,0 +hair really long like saw mirror longer thought,0 +im sure scaredso im high school recently became atheist thought fact life feels kind meaningless considered redflag however one time actually seriously started thinking it managed stop myself help,1 +aloneim tired alive hate life im never happy worst part cant even talk anyone it family friends would stress fuck throw hospital want heard trusted hurt myself fuck im tired dont even reason tired,1 +hate living whats newive depressed long time years mainly stemming couple points im smart struggled heres thing cant even type damn post cant even find energy that studying lectures recorded im not keep letting fall farther farther behind like complete moron piece shit right want die think want even went bought tank helium could gas myself sit huge pussy even want type anymore want end life ampxb typed couple days ago bit settled still think im going end life probably end month campus night way makes ruckus next day want keep living life anymore matter life always struggle might well get done waiting around suffer more end month keep trying therapy keep trying catch school work already know end month take life ampxb think best option ill make one post around th oct,1 +life fuckedever since brother killed months life gotten worse getting bullied constantly yet parents dont care friends brother friend hes gone now problems talking people first place ever seem stutter im failing classes teachers seem hate me im young already know someones gonna say youre young still life live dont one cares me planning killing days,1 +maybe check twitch want come check twitch maybe follow im live twitch come hang out httpswwwtwitchtvschultz_amsra follow goal ,0 +great desire femboy reason moring really want wear thigh highs skirt hopefully ill get skirt day ill either work asking parents help get one wait til next year use drivers license get one im parents nonbinary still gonna hard ask lol,0 +ready diei sad get drunk friend supposed comfort tonight left get drunk aunt left alone nobody wants fucking around me even stay im fucking crazy nobody needs me nobody wants me fucking care anymore tomorrow im killing myself,1 +dont know thank uapersonoftheearth clean house,0 +sometimes wonder many sub members still alive idk many going one dead member soon something change fucked life,1 +tiredim new writing sub new mental health started suffering mental health years ago lost friend cancer took year work used benefits pay could take time hopefully needed realign thinking daughters wife mortgage etc never got better got worse time off trying new pills going therapy stuff help feel think found little works started cutting could focus something redflag feeling like crap every single day worked little while today friday th brought bosses office put unpaid leave mental health good enough excuse miss time feel bad get shit filled specialist days get fired mental health excuse work title suggests tired tired feeling like shit time feeling like poor father bad husband terrible worker think going go garage take bunch pills hang good measure get job done looking anything specific anything all throwing like lot others feel still sad live world mental health taboo still places rather look away help,1 +matter timealready see coming hello birthday girl,1 +merry christmas everyone even though pretty rough year hope everyone still wonderful christmas ,0 +sub surreali scrolling sub fucked up bunch posts talking shit happened people crying hope posts mere minutes apart without comments them like sitting room dealing horrible fucked shit one talking eachother really surreal,1 +uzumaki visually astounding film however felt story line may sacrificed hardly character development left feeling personally detached film ironic puns aside film really draw many slight spiral effects stunning scene transitions first overall cinematography threw get used overall appearance start see beauty twisted film great movie looking looker much substance deeper meaningit great horror film actually scary suspenseful somehoweerie,0 +id happily end right second whilst work leave friend alone situation hes inim really losing go on ive tried medication makes feel worse ive tried keeping diary made feel better temporarily ive got point im trying write feel end scratching pen book leaving ripped inky mess,1 +so national redflag hotlineguys im desperately feeling like shit know im supposed get helpbut fuck supposed calling countrys redflag hotline gets automated wrong number voice message im truly suicidal moment really need someone talk given current unbearable amount pain tiredness anxiety stress in,1 +whole story lot type bit place long story short none people considered best friends friends anymore struggling day trying think would anything them never done anything hurt them yet let hurt countless times know supposed find ways cope feel better family helping best way can hard considered family life brain let go hate it act like getting fed friend going magically stop depression also use internet lot person live far away type close friends trying say post alone big step me bffs got sick always hearing depressed always,1 +im tired this morning want shit endim tired waking stressed broken started therapy once next appointment th march handle shit dont believe help me dont believe anything will im work im ready explode im sad im mad dont want anyone talk me want leave guess im venting here better listening people here dont feel good want leave shit,1 +cant wait shitty valentines day posts tomorrow listen bro dont valentine either stop reminding stop posting internet,0 +happy life no depressed suicidal thoughts neither crush said yes satisfied life why try push things make get confort zone quarentine lost pounds kg also started drawing real used draw study anatomy take cold showers take care skin which full pimples eat desert many times before improving skills ssbu secret happy want become better person mean i need bevome better person watch anxiety attacks also happy maybe totally ignored online classes homework,0 +like fucking goes fucking verb fucking descriptive word like water like fucking,0 +need someone convince relapse self harm rough night hard time relapsing six months,0 +idc u spoil tell king kong godzilla plz need know feel good,0 +lump one testicles couldnt care enough go get checked outive years occasionally hurts pretty bad yet couldnt care less idea could be dont want know incase something treated caught time really want somehow testicular cancer take me hope is,1 +old old story kids party old house demons unleashed death gratuitous nudity ensues know it still lot funbr br many people okay many horror fans specific fond memories movie always slight trepidation revisit old movie see still good used think was luckily isbr br it something everyone well everyone happens male suppose fun title sequence shoplifting scam involving cunning use linnea quigleys ass mirror scene full demonic fun blast start finishbr br the girls cute guys male death scenes well done good gore effects and unlike horrors era actually keeps good sense atmosphere even tension throughout get wrong still fun first foremost offers nice freaky moments please genre fans,0 +hot fucking take dont get mad people using preferred pronouns idea trans non binary,0 +know say talk toso wrote phone hours ago ive reading over thought would help write down but case every time ive tried made feel worse blindly paste it heres background unhappy person moved far away school excelled difficult program cheap well regarded univeristy day academic peers tell talented reason resent closer graduation drew depressed became drug alcohol abuse ways ive known cope problems took binging extreme ive become repressed withdrawn depressed ive failed classes took gpa semester ive fired job cant pay rent bills im facing eviction soon friends much im sure care want thing me im isolated insurance null void us obv cant even afford professional help wanted to ive called hotlines ive talked people free chat bs honestly people redflag text sites are trained put politely talked friends peers former coworkers former boss one seems help say thing either need nut shut up bad first place whole youre gonna okay im okay okay long remember one seem help want okay i dont know how think redflag day every day anyway rest post wrote phone sorry wasting time feel alone feel scared feel worthless feel like one knows much want die name long remember ive wanted kill myself like would could inflict kind pain onto people want dissapper never born never lived hard life family least acts like care amazing friends really life pretty good want live cant articulate feel way could never explain anyone around ive tried let alone phone possessive thought alive work hard miserable free anxiety depression consuming thought idea cant shake im down want die im happiest all fantasy idea could stop unhappy consuming rarely think anything else fall asleep like safety blanket encompassing me pretecting psyche irrepreble harm like shield matter fucked get head affect me later tldr suck,1 +would anyone wanna like talk dms idc want talk ppl,0 +hiding wanna diehello im year old girl bullied tried overdosing before work tell im still thinking wanna try like always everyone stops since like oh wanna die bullies grow up thats reason reason im scared dad sister etc keep tell wanna kill myself,1 +politician younger doesnt mean better policy guys come on dont fall identity politics,0 +high pain fr know look stupid fuck high lasts literal hours like come home minutes nooooo fucking idea cop dad home fun trying act normal im scared little,0 +quick tidy room cups plates need bring down bring em right mind,0 +unholy trinity behold horny lovey i made think basically means feel like sharing love people hungry,0 +think really afford professional help medication wondering one day could feel hopeful like one day save enough somethinganything make brain make feel like absolute shit feel somewhat peaceful expecting one time fix know work like aware anti dep make cheery sudden even makes hopeless heavy feeling chest feel somewhat alleviated medication help,1 +cant wake tomorrowi start junior year college tomorrow everything wrong degree program changed without knowledge put situation im taking credit hours class am pm daily im fucking exhausted done anything really good life home summer worked full time good friend cared much made feel like die talk know why everything life rapidly deteriorated last seven days nothing good left understand every shred good left me want wake tomorrow,1 +feeling mother driving crazyi saying evil intentions unintentionally so diagnosed mental illness know is takes clozapine past years everyday believes lie posted internet try talk it exhausted drained energy anymore baby never learn think herself unlike typical babies start make good arrangements come teenage diagnosed schizoaffective disorder unsaid advice never leave family able handle life would kill myself feeling playing game me perpetuate suffering subtle way makes feel good themselves put two people side side lets say well groomed person mentally ill person people realise awesome well groomed person is invisible ego boost feels would hate mentally ill person die would equally hate person get healthy mentally ill person becomes healthy actually better well groomed person people would start looking person used ill past better groomed person would invisible ego deflation well groomed person would feel would hate ill person die get better well groomed person would everything possible maintain status quo would pretend help ill person watched scenario hero remain ever obscure qualities become visible enhanced would villain hero needs villain hero benefits villain start lose temper explaining mum magical cures shared whatsapp youtube etc lie next appointment psychiatrist dosage antipsychotic greater dosage antipsychotics would come greater side effects level testosterone would go down level prolactin would go up would become slower fatter dick never get hard would semi erection best would emasculation systematic emasculation expect girls partner bringing much table expect woman partner able earn money satisfactory intercourse human needs wants human thing understandable would remain family would essentially neck beard living moms basement free loader incel etc bullying would take regular basis daily dose insult would burden society parents etc talk male friends would hide depression would draining counsel me understandable would pretend happy would smile laugh would feign interested depression anxiety would start oozing ask pretend just yourself would talk truly goes mind silently ghost me cant confront depressing presence want hang around me internet always suggesting people cut toxic people life etc talk counselor friends say try interesting etc etc etc tired now writing this go on feels like two options have lose lose third option,1 +likely succeed hangingim attempting,1 +suicidal thoughts place find comfortive used throwaways point really dont care feel like im going die point next week even dont kill myself happened im probably wrong cant really deny feeling im horribly antisocial social successes either a turn worse failures allowed hope b serve remind piece shit am c both know whats going happen im alive die maybe ill wake year ago things ok really dont think much longer,1 +life either dragon dragon,0 +people love care know that deny it want alive want wake up eat go work distract emptiness life truly is that also psychotically depressed know anymore convinced die reason chosen one free physcial existence suicide something people actually desire know freeing bc illusion life better death also even know am feel mentally dead think myself understand people make money survive corporate slave job masters power say school hospitals at least times year point getting better bc going to died years ago mentally first spiritually physical existence must go people care value life reason killing bc want shatter illusion,1 +dont know start conversation via text crush known years normal friends really want start talking outside school dont know text without thinking fuck texting me advice,0 +guys family guy predicted george floyd httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai httpsyoutubeuwscgyhtai,0 +suddenly deeply depressed dont know whyi teacher crying class faculty meetings middle night reason work stressful inner city school always case making plans stop hurting something think deep dread future severe urges hurt myself please help someone,1 +got rickrolled past self yeah past self rickrolled me months ago school rickrolled family smart clock setting routine forgot turn routine never got triggered smart clock randomly played never gonna give thats got rickrolled past self,0 +hey ugamerdude go bed,0 +fucking multiple sclerosisprobably seem like big deal you taken everything me one year basketball working out playing guitar hanging friends things loved doing gone sure deserve this sure everyone know gets control hands legs feet pains see people know personally living reasonable state be thankful theres people far worse you say its ms alright it gets easier need reach out fucking doesnt gets harder gets much fucking harder reason im sitting struggling typing ive never kissed girl sex fucking life right good years shit utter shit almost like meant earth pretty debilitating disability absolutely suck anything would useful successful life barely get useless college classes point is going die friends used care barely acknowledge existence day illness gets worse ill pm someone address gun id able drive fucking cliff,1 +im heavyi want anymore weight me bye never better,1 +lloyd hamilton one imaginative and among funniest silentfilm comedians utterly forgotten unfortunately original negatives large percentage films lost fox warehouse burnt early s hamilton handsome graceful like chaplin keaton lloyd dapper like raymond griffith unlike harry langdon again chaplin hamilton try audience sympathybr br however films hugely popular time original release remain hilarious today oscar levant claimed asked chaplin comedian hed ever envied chaplin instantly named lloyd hamilton character frequently portrayed hamilton screen flatcapped naff fastidious hand gestures ducklike walk later adapted vaudeville comedian eddie garr teri garrs father adapted jackie gleason s tv character the poor soulbr br the movies directed pseudonymously roscoe arbuckle one hamiltons innovative shorts hilarious first see country boy bidding farewell family outside homespun cottage way big city steps away cottage see big city traffic booming round himbr br eventually hero ends restaurant uncredited montmartre cafe downtown la movie actors eat takes theres amusing gag hamiltons bumpkin character meets three actors costume makeup presidents washington lincoln roosevelt gag would funnier impostors looked like originals finally lad seats table hoping meet celebrity sure enough entering restaurant sitting next table big movie star none lloyd hamilton theres wellmade doubleexposure shot join nearly invisible lloyd hamilton greets lloyd hamilton country boybr br sadly hamiltons peak period creativity brief began film career crude slapstick films one half double act ham bud opposite bud duncan brief blazing period stardom shorts late silent period sound movies kind hamilton quickly shoved cast list crude early talkies died young fortunately the movies quite funny splendid introduction unique comedians style ill rate ,0 +want live first place kill myself religion says go hell grateful god given life now know do stuck middle terrible world god createdat one point want leave religion believe hell die become one earth feels fairer way but hell exists want suffer hereafter too religious religion asks thankful god gives us life,1 +well feeling like im alone eggshells afraid talk anyonemy life mess thats best possible way summarize current ordeala mess complete totally fucking chaotic mess long remember shit started going wrong me im talking like hard times school mean did daddy hug me got flat tire lost job stress is glitch glitch ask well guy told believed path predestiney went path world universe whatever bullshit abstract deity want call would ratify said issue back track first romantic notion appealed me made hopeful assume probably pathetic way people cling indifferent god allows child rapes serial killers mass war go on things bad thing keep losing call humanity think must greater meaning im tell unfortunate uncomfortable brutal fucking truth bad shit happens bad shit happens greater plan god destiny nothing end gun void thoughtless empty black nothingness im sure think im jaded fuck youre probably wrong thing doesnt mean im necessary wrong either grew usaf bases mom cheated dad every chance had decent debate kid since korea seemed created dad got began travel railroad leaving behind siblings different men psychotic mother credit loved best could thats saying much much youre small defenseless child brother would rape sister i im lucky enough infant years didnt find teen asked kicked out mom would cheat would beat accidentally let word slip mention things like motel made sister sleep nd bed next screwed guy dad traveling five years old confused ever mentioned vacation thats called took z liter bottle pepsi side head held bath tub water eventually seen liability her began locking entryway closet leaving hours made fort convinced hiding spot even though tied shut side time went dad finally made mom get job went still school age went babysitters house long long story short lucky enough find put child porn daughter nicole year old babysitter meanwhile son set cameras room raped aladdin barbie doll amongst mcguvery rape childrens toys could think of certainly life would get better right mean predestiney fucking path right surely wasnt destined life suffering wrong dad mom divorced dad remarried abusive psychnurse loaded already alcoholic father benzos like fucking candy one point counted different medications on hell dad developed creepy unhealthy obsession weight appearance stepmom fuming jealousy dad maintaining type relationship overtime many drugs convinced verbal abuser inherited mental illness mother couldnt trusted punished mostly shaming first date boy ever woke found house covered post say abuse cannot tolerated abuse tolerated ran around hysterically pulling down missed one behind curtains window obviously relationship dead ended time turned saw joined army surely free source pain real world would much kinder also fucking wrong miserably long uncomfortable situation recall ends several assaults rapes baby later it win one good bad her flawless pure unruined baby girl even longer story later wealthy creepy obsessive man manages taken me raised alone years shes alive got her money win court cases sorry kids arent books read school right wrong good guy bad guy means shit real world money power money win end trying kill times think fairly fucking justified point game ive homeless hungry raped abandoned moment formative memory go inpatient va hospital ptsd thats met him fucking light end miserable tunnel bullshit fucking glimmer hope end phone hes sarcastic witty rough around ends hes perfect feds stories promise hope life living surviving tells end reason let heart keep beating like months later wonderful although complicated bit pain ass man shows afghanistan mpls airport rescue hell hole ive drowning in first moment hugged knew finally safe first time since birth safe me didnt need look shoulder didnt wonder happiness even option real possibility married him best day life know looking history thats saying much imagine felt day normal people hope entire lives feel like pain bad poured moment him me perfectly fucked together rest world rules didnt matter nothing else either ever going need want there least felt im sure unsurprising anyone point trust exactly strong suit ive forced position choosing future life man living wealthy scary man able see daughter every week pretty much hardest situation ive faced yet clearly thats saying something today light hope man isnt even sure thinks im worth all hes far first look think maybe would better pass pass someone less damaged less sad less scared confused complicated honestly couldnt hold him sit looking back life wondering im glitch mentioned maybe god entity something goal erase mistake made thats im tortured hopefully ill kill set everything back order maybe fucking meaningless suffering shitty role dice,1 +self hatei feel bad lot recently feel bad get intense thoughts cant get head like hearing someone say die kill again tried hang pussied hate much it im recently split partner years feel never find someone else great girlfriend ruined all shes moving country now cant stand here feel like cant handle good thingsi dont deserve them,1 +relapsedi used suicidal younger actually attempted onceactual attempt failed attention nobody knows even today somehow managed pull together reset actually get stable life ive got stable job debt decent work relationships cant really say ive got close connections anyone though thats whats killing believe important thing life broke ex months ago we really match well lol months ago met someone online game ive talked months straight everything every day talked stuff normally never open anyone theyve decided play others basically whatever gone like thats major failures within months me making realise im easily replaceable people get bored quick supposed live knowing people dump like that see purpose this open people exact reason times years did cases went shit im fucked likeable guess first time years first redflag attempt thinking thoroughly actually want die see point anymore,1 +learned origin cheesegrater meme furry community ohhh boy never same,0 +nah cuz im hot alt girl tf gamer bf pull tf,0 +sleep forever never wake up basically going coma probably need get accident shits gonna hurt ways tho,0 +depressed broke hated friendless unemployed worthlessi found today someone actively prevented getting job someone knows ive struggling years knows poor am even go on bad enough knowing one cared lift finger cried help live reality people lift finger comes holding back,1 +seeking redflag support okc areai posted rokc too long shot here mother law living okc area currently lost son redflag found morning upon telling her admitted suicidal herself point really worried live washington state cannot right support her cannot make least next week question is kind nonprofit inperson support services someone going tough time like this know redflag hotlines im looking something more suggestions help alone make want see ensure gets help needs completely alone,1 +fucking sucks man hate ya taking shit company time someone walks bathroom gotta mute ya phone shit silent mode,0 +easy painless way kill selfmy schizophrenia reached limits cant anything all head always keeps hurting always thinking always family willing help always turn head ask them brother stopped talking years ago sister little friends schizophrenia when growing up people always thought weird avoided me spent rest year sitting front pc schizophrenics also social anxiety disorder body muscle starts hurt thing pc cant use illness my brain mentally stops me please please tell easy way finish please head always thinking alwaysi cant sleep want stop please help,1 + yr old considering drastic measureshello sorry name offends anyone btw made playing video game really know start guess ill give background info im year old male good body straight as plenty friends void occupying attention little months every day thing endless cycle monotony ive built character thats always happy every day act person others happy im myself cant individual feel trapped even parents love character made lets call john mom spending time phone interacting us know probably done good job describing ill condense one point im tired living happy go lucky lie tired appreciated im contemplating ending it made plans even gone far open case dads rifle reason offed fear,1 +cant anymoremy sister murdered last year dog also might killed made month two jobs treat like shit even though two bachelors cant find jobs husband mom family therapist keep telling shouldnt depressed keep telling im well wont listen havent heard best friend weeks doesnt talk much messaged saying need talk left read hospitalized kidney infection im always hospitalized something stupid another boss firing keep getting hospitalized dont know im sick ive several doctors said werent sure either psych took anxiety meds throwing up begged cant handle anxiety wants wait im better gives lexapro something im going get better ive vomiting months seizures dont know doc figured sans throwing seizure nausea meds me im tired fighting im tired trying make everything okay barely hold together income car job life dont know im even typing here ive seen doctors past week tired saying must feeling bad yes im feeling bad want die wont able stay employed dont qualify disability had hearing honestly point existence anymore im pain time im angry anxious time shouldnt take pills sleep forever im sorry dont even know im posting im venting world dont even know im writing,1 +needlessnessi appreciate sentiment help personally people tell im needed loved matter kill desire makes feel much guilty feeling way do,1 +existence hopefully coming end maybe idkmy mind always races races find sickly foul way commit redflag time tries distance family friends give trauma mind races public online im alone find people act ways appease try get good side feel like im needed im naturally kind others time im always toes constantly guarding others incase say mugged kidnapped attacked etc trust anyone im always thinking im wrong compared others opinions politically morally etc difficult think anymore im self conscious stomach way walk close others order draw attention worry seeing hearing well forgetting shit ton things barely think that fucking burden blackened hole heart mind make better want never hurt anyone want alone forever im worthy relationships allowed live never existed fucking hate depressive asshat mind time find comfort it knowing pain go away know how maybe years move out maybe pandemic maybe bleeding alleyway alone maybe quick death gun shot know im hoping happen just hope im cut away everyone ive ever known never seen again fuck existence fuck humanity fuck self conscious fuck world all fuck existence,1 +october sky highly lauded movie easy see why story easy comprehend many turning points gripping actors actresses fairly good jobs especially jake gyllenhaal chris cooper hero finally gets wants true story frankly think directors achievement comparable sparks heat original story generates dont see special narrative cinematography power movie relies much riveting plot tough situation young hero trapped audience find identify characters feel homers desire earn fathers recognition create future resilience wins respect october sky reminds later japanese production mini series rocket boy might owe inspiration movie actually two works shot two different cultures provide interesting comparison october sky unfolds story young man crying loud claim right destiny rocket boy offers compromised description could sometimes constitute acrid criticism modern society starring outstanding actor yuji oda rocket boy focuses three men ordinary be travel agent dream becoming astronaut boastful advertising agent brink torn apart inferiority complex resulted extreme success father older brother like homer feels family food company employee getting married scared idea collected social consciousness superimposes definition success constituents steps force suffocate dreams claiming impossible compensate lost ideal kobayashi yuji works tour operator called galaxy client fails girlfriend decides leave him finally finds strength fathers words determined sailor later found life sea less attractive presumed dont regret it father told kobayashi least tried fathers confession encourages resign job apply astronautships despite fact hurts legs needs move around wheelchair kobayashis effort finally fails goes back travel agency crazy courage inspires friends everyone loves more end series kobayashi job guide space camp meant let children learn astronauts tour see leaning tree unfolding sheet poster tears bulletin board says astronauts wanted kobayashi looks piece paper laughs laughs like kid looking ticket disneyland kobayashi may never get wants dares destiny it series heartgripping hero exhibits heroic deeds ordinariness unstoppable urge realize dream make us wonder envy unlike dilbert sarcastic writings show enlightens us teaches us something homer kobayashi dream despite peoples opinions recommend imdb users see japanese tv series ninetofiver feel touched feel sorry imdb doesnt data maybe ask somebody japan help you,0 +think wife killing tonightthis throwaway account obvious reasons wife suicidal life her first attempt years old told first met almost years ago plan live long knowing full well chose anyway time said waiting beloved dog passed away she already like time my wife want leave elderly dog alone without her well day came went hard time able pull though mostly me well mental disorders getting way worse ocd anxiety bad able sit chair three years she always standing laying down well two weeks ago disorders took ability sleep gotten hours sleep night hated living long now tells staying alive me me would killed long time ago yes getting treatment seeing therapist doctors years taking meds give things tell her nothing helped all ampxb ever since ive known kit containing supplies job says makes feel better know needs it ampxb today anniversary mothers death years ago told cant anymore world hard her already knew that expecting long time held her cried together hours told sorry was told much love always love her ampxb drove away stop her ampxb wanted stop her wanted hide car keys throw away kit love her see every day miserable is pain physically mentally stopped her would selfish want stay me ampxb praying hard changes mind get even one day her know happen ampxb feel dead inside right now love her want ever away her also love her want suffer anymore ampxb expect anyone read this may get deleted needed tell someone cant tell anyone else ampxb tldr wife suffering long every moment life misery could stopped didnt drove away tools needs end life hope comes back also hope finds peace,1 +tw selfharm mention suicide throwaway account friends family know main account would rather see this also warning english first language drunk right now trying correct typos much possiblei battling depression redflag years alone almost time parents pretended car forced go therapy instead lettint make choices things pace year ago met best friend call troy love much like brother feel like broken friends feel like ruin mood crying venting cannot help think would better without me never born wish dead failure know anymore much coward wish could kill myselfim good beating cannot help me broken fiens alone forever ruin everythingim sorry know goal post guess hoping someone there feel alone indint know know anymore,1 +walking dinosaurs absolutely brilliant every regard kenneth branagh narrates way really makes want listen script documentary really sounds though researchers writers done homework insightful get hooked never lets go music also brilliant dramatic needs be visual effects scenery makes documentary work well scenery breathtaking dinosaurs look real thanks simply astounding effects informative good concept attracts adults kids toobr br in conclusion must watch love this quite possibly best documentary ever seen anything could done longer perfect bethany cox,0 +many struggle talking girls dont mean rude way might im extrovert stuff doesnt exactly matter best friend girl people making awkward moments completely normal also straight dont understand difficult people talk girls general give yall tips less awkward guess helps,0 +anyone else focus best boring cooking video playing easy focus whats entertaining,0 +never wanted kill badlyi never wanted kill badly helped woman broke heart still love find religion hate people follow hate andor accept me want kill badly want ever pain unbearable want destroy everything want thanked leading somewhere there want kill myself ready it hate myself hate much know hurts bad life followed islam thrown aside mentally ill bisexual deemed problem monster hated there hate religion hate god me hate im accepted want kill myself,1 +bell book candle released december features james stewart kim novak jack lemmon ernie kovaks film james stewart kim novak second onscreen pairing after alfred hitchcock classic vertigo released earlier year stewarts last film romantic lead deemed old age play sort part anymore movie witch played kim novak attracted mortal played james stewart puts spell falls head heels love her enjoyed movie cast movie time moderate success nominated golden globe best movie comedy gimmeclassics,0 +give fuck anymorethats it longer careful road longer look ways crossing street die die thats it,1 +im killing december ive got date place method set already anything else besides writing redflag note,1 +got charged crisis interventioni went doctors appointment social security evaluation benefits told symptoms supposed to including thoughts redflag told this called police taken real hospital hospital asked going hurt said no sent home within minutes arrival today got bill crisis intervention hell hell,1 +vague idea bettie page was partly due appearance wee days playboy apparently got photo taken santa hat that know mag was movie cowritten directed american psychos mary harron fleshes key parts life well enough southern belle church goer bad experiences leaves behind seek better times new york city gets modeling lot more soon becomes underground pinup sensation bondage obvious and notorious title trait attributed her actress gretchen moll portrays her gets spirit woman well could really lot success film simplistic character even times ideas morality questionable well adam eve naked they comments couple times apparently filmmakers leave later years pages life leave kind redemptive period leaving behind photo shoots jesusbr br in all notrious bettie page much kind usual biopic presented hbo films albeit time stamina featurefilm release best scenes harron captures page questionable positions getting photos overthetop poses starring ridiculous films whips chains leather uniforms adds much needed comic relief films otherwise usual nature story behind uninteresting involves governments investigation smut came photos underground magazines much time given explore merely hinted at page complexities relationships sex fifties given really neat black white look sometimes seemed harron progressing black white photos tinted went along watchable view knowledgeable bette page probably fans too,0 +honestly kill gunim male gaydisabled work grocery store part time single relationship mylife feel like everyone putting meto obligated anymore love life feel like burden everyone else mention seem point life feel good gets feel made good memories somaybe end hard myfamily,1 +tried overdose last nightwell got grades back semester failed one bio classes got overwhelmed think ill lose scholarship now freaked it made throw right though feel better today didnt take enough anyway maybe like family watching closely im headed therapy today weird almost feel better since trying like voice head tells kill like well mean got try cant tell thats good not im glad family didnt send hospital,1 +need plan months change life im im living alone need graduate time need make enough money live need become much buffer dont know do im graduated time dont think ill able handle it mentally wont able handle graduating im already basically loser ill loser whos even behind im much stronger july th ive failed wouldve kms httpsyoutubebttzzszdffc im already working job dont know leverage time much riding need help,0 +finally readyits overwhelming impulse anymore actually calm calming decision october th am head golden gate bridge beloved motorcycle ill hug goodbye ill walk along bridge displaying mastery performing people entertaining others wearing smile ill find spot inhale exhale hands chest climb up fall backwards head first everything okay im perpetually lonely nothing make feel better im broken incapable feeling anyone therapist bless heart put much shit me care much shes person care about dont want deal anymore dont want feel lonely anymore want die,1 +want happyi feel like nothing good come life want happy want fall love someone fall love too today put rifle head clicked safety placed hand trigger scared actually go closest ever come taking life get chest,1 +gotten worsei posted half year ago breakdown unfortunately things gotten much better motivation anything learn work out socialize last week even interfered job putting brink getting fired year ago thought wow ever got fired job id probably kill myself real talents nothing praised for im still know drive im motivated enough ive started going doctor issues im antidepressants seem harm good id give anything kind motivation anything hell cant even kill right eat whatever hell want hope kills faster im sorry comes scattered ive recovered fever im extremely sleep deprived mind last days ive sick bed cant stand anymore,1 +reaching breaking pointive diagnosed severe my psychiatrists words own depression long time things finally reaching breaking point everyday seems living hell earth school friends consistently ignore treat like im outsider ever really talk either a im emotional breakdown b none friends around that act like im there or worse still like im painful nuisance worst all one person used talk this first person told depression worst offender every time see which often feel like knifes twisted stomach romantic life similar ive never kissed never girlfriend every time ive asked someone out ive denied hard school painfully boring best torturous slog worst grades shitter were talking low cs ds someone who last year straight student and matter hard try lack drive ability bring up home life bad family tries help me none understand depression like act depression simply means im sad top this feel like im carrying great weight shoulders lack energy anything lack drive willpower try improve lot antidepressants im simply damn thing anymore abandoned betrayed friends misunderstood family im cracking weight me simply going fuck you leaving reinvent option waiting high school hoping things get better college option im standing death seems way out back september attempted commit redflag failed next time im sure lucky,1 +honestly whats pointwhen elementary school bullied suicidal thoughts told teacher led kid like mental hospital years later im thought fine guess im not cousins grew love heart would anything dont like anymore dont know why never invite gatherings even talk unless parents tell say happy birthday me invite like family thing there ill told parents mom agrees dad always thinks im reacting never listens me mom sister well tell way treat us feel hell get mad us hell take anger mom leading argue sometimes fight ill always love cousins theyre family dont feel love them also never girlfriend never first kiss even held hands someone fucking sucks knowing im going die alone fucking sucks cant talk people ive made new friends hanging recently feel like dont deserve it feel like wasted space know problem big deal important compared others here whats point go knowing ill never satisfied knowing im gonna sad alone rest life,1 +cannot stand shitty life cannot accomplish anything friends family help anything pretty much alone depression time high redflag one takes seriously tell suicide think let go pain die way peace,1 +get free awards basically anywhere complain awards thats it literally done it sit back watch money flows people give awards thought itd funny no deceived them ploy gain free coins karma,0 +think found song describe every redditor live wrecks also good listen it,0 +think herei put rdepression maybe goes instead scared myself hallucinating im scared happening please someone talk help anchor reality depressed whole life never gets better anything offer look forward proud of hate myself know people say lot really do im afraid alone depressed ive tried everything meds therapy psychiatrists books websites food exercise nothing works except getting wasted thats wake again know would ever get better used optimistic become impossible every day get take enough meds im crying lot anything im daring end every day really know much longer last brain always wrong whole life made see things made sad weird different belong anywhere lot people hurt veryvery bad ways made weaker weaker trapped rock bottom years now lot sad things hard say would hard read feel like im living nightmare future right also very bleak honestly think face it,1 +hey buddies wanna check doing,0 +smash bros ultimate everyone talking steve fight sans everyones forgetting fight banjo cuphead microsoft reps,0 +suffered concussioneverybody ecerythinm feeling daze im delight really depressed,1 +corona time yeahhh covid feel like shit happy days,0 +requested go bathroom right away helped that husbanddriver loading parts finally came bathroom asked wrong said he grabbed neck hurt me think go back him,1 +know much longer thisi really dont every day gets worse worse force things like work school otherwise ill get trouble never get break days off constant work never stops want stop want calmness hate pressure thats me forced quarantine enough money move forced stay home mother horrible victim complex always takes anger frustrations since im one home everything goes wrong life fault oh tried kill past could mother could ruin life like that oh enough money buy thing cost much feed house im cant afford housing yet even can know guilt im ruining everything good life follow around want live like theres escapei really cant stay longer cant handle it want bash head wall want bash head wall till bleed outi cant fucking anymore,1 +love story set back drop television news three main stars william hurtholly hunter albert brooks create love triangle whilst working washington bureau tv networkbr br tom grunickhurtis handsome reporter groomed starjane hunteris producer recognises tom lacks intellectual gravitas real journalist falls anywayaaron altmanbrooksis man shares beliefs journalistic standards also man truly loves herbr br holly hunter nominated best actress academy award but lost chermoonstruckshe robbed hunters filmher character jane smartruthless totally driven also hilariously neurotic performance perfectjust watch face watches tape toms interview rape victim scales literally fall eyesbr br wiliam hurts performance less showyhe plays man well aware himbo fraudbut smart enough know rise facilitated people like janehe gives little hints man extremely calculatingbr br the film comments celebrity journalismintegrity commercial pressures news medium focused bottom line predicted news would dumbed down standards would slowly lowered due commercial pressuresbr br think thisthis film released end cold war rise reality tvyet predicted dumbing newsparis hiltons release jail treated like major news story see prophetic film isjust watch evening news note set graphics presenterstom grunick clones well truly alive,0 +found al yankovic deamm s epic times outside country knew parodies amish paradise whiteampnerdy etc never knew made lot great stuff like al tv missed life,0 +like might femboy halloween tried one friends dresses joke apparently really liked it fun dm wanna talk something,0 +found circulating net honestly find relateable u ever thought online clases us students ive wanting speak quiet time nowso lets start first happy holidays extended bcause covideveryone wasbut none us expected itll go longand every single one us missing friends want meet eachother badlynow us celebrate bdays homewe cant invite anyonewe cant go fun like used towe cant hug eachothertalk eachother face facewe cant anythingeveryone misses days used go schoolenter class first thing call best friendand greet eachother hugs hifisand standing long assembly lines trying fall asleepand maybe even mess person standing front lineand first period teacher comestakes attendancestarts lesson stuffeating snacks class without teacher noticingsitting back carving tables compass steel scalesharpening pencils throwing trash bench ofc dustbin class show pieceall frooti packets burst creating loud noisesall times sat together lunch gossiping shitannoying pt sirbeing sent class never alonesome person class would always give company even outside classannoying nerdsand games period session us feel alivewe get class excited thats time obey pt teacher takes us ground asapwe go wild caring anything lost gameand sad moment pt teachers blows whistle loud indicating time head back class games swithching fans turning full speed gulping water bottles life depended and forget last periodwaiting waiting waiting bell ring bro minute bell ring someone says then ring prayer dash classroom talking friends joking around go school buses return home safelywe eat tasty snacks mom prepared tutionsafter school work study dinner fam watching tv go bed or maybe even spend night watching movies listening music waiting next morning exactly were always excited meet friends process repeats but gone say gone excited school anymorecmon never timethings changed drastically we adapt new changesonline classesonline exams online projectsonline activities oh cmon even group activities online first us ok thiswe got new stuffparents bought wifisome even bought new laptops smartphones headphones earphones kids attend online classes without troublebut look good sidethe bad thing thatwe get see eachotheronly virtuallyand understand pain student facing right life student its hard very hardi see everyone forwarding messages sruggles teacher going throughbut oneliterally one thought students pain oh yea theyre mere kidsso whats point this probably everyones thinkingyes r kids butbut feelings toowe also struggle new systemwe also humanswe also feel tired restlessstressedover workedand depressed said said burdenmore wieght shoulders yall still think ok since kids sitting home wasting time nothing give work ok see im complaining anythingthe school gives us workwe buttheres limit know tests without breaks activitiesprojectsgroup projectsvivapresentationsand legit online functionsyou killing energy enough grown well aware whats happening around us whatever school days tho hesitate thingsteachers force usthe school forces us keep extra classes physical health education mental health educationand on bringing change ustginking helping us develop waybut see changes reason interact self developement classes knowwe know theres point helping us overcome stressits helping us reduce work loadits helping us anything planning teach us importance self development good mean goodbut thing its easy ask us students children tou stressed anything worry talk us thats always saytalk us dontwhy uselesssimple thatif actually cared would reduced work littleclearly might sound like im complaining noim seriousand even asked reduce workour schools famous dialogyou children big enough normal youlearn manage time like seriously something new uswe entered high school lifewe still learning adapt new way schooling online classtry understandgive us timeits easythis online stuff new usagain yall say listen kids already months online class youu still net issuesmic disnt workcam dosnt work stuffok listenour parents pay thisand youok get mic working cam also workingthats good but dosnt devices also stop working sometimes plusif think respond class purposeits might problemnot really us might pretending issuesthats fault either might know answer right ok say we teachers help ask question many ever times want help say ok understandbut thing iswe still little awkward comes ask doubtsnot us yea usthis mainly sometimes feel teacher scolds friends laugh is doubt even doubt onagain get say scold dialog what teaching topic classits listening us understand topicjust teaching something dosnt mean well undertanad instantyea sure u explain topic multiple timesbut were still understandingits ok teach times moreand online classwe cant predict well leave class due sudden power cut network issuesyou cant assume us students bunking classand mark us absentand get hear nicely parentseven ptms cant voice feeling insidebecause were nervous scarednow say you shouldnt nervous around us children well even voice concersaction taken know thatso thats keep mouths shutand hard us much dayagain say this kid cant do one thing cant expect every child world one might smart night little slow dumbsome ppl might fastbut students take time need it might find little harderthey might little exhaustedso itbut trywe tryim saying u shud ban hw somethinggive much hw used give schoolonline classes becoming burden thrice amount work used lockdownim putting anyone downim putting school teacher downbut trynna bring changes yall expecting us attend every online classes even sometimes saturdays sundaysits hard modern schooling system india started sand living st centuryall going school attending classes physicallywe eventually got used itbut online classes new usand expect us get used within months classes going thats easywe still many problems going onimagine poor kids cant even attend online classes cant afford proper device use im blaming anyone corona all u need know also humanshave feelings we need timewe sameits since quarantine sit front nextflix chillwe classes attend tutionsdance classesmusic classesart classesand oni hope understandtheres lot say ill stop thankyou taking time read thisreally appreciate im trynna put anyone down,0 +currently am im pissed wait nvm maybe lucid dream,0 +worst luckthis fourth time tried post captcha load life sucks want hang myself im pretty sure rope break,1 +get fucking scared people love leave find someone better get rid fear trust person know wouldnt leave where always back mind im worried ill let hurt relationship,0 +found literally reading cut femoral state shaking feeling physically ill thoughts never strong get phase kind everything go wrong does actually cannot think single reason to,1 +clarity instead sadness three months livei felt enough sadness simply decided fact end life researched peaceful method exception live developing website hugely successful spent months it,1 +im stupid screw idiothi like vent emotions rn idk read u want guess cant really change im online class right now honors classes currently failing every single class im sophomore year every grade goes permanent record thing jobs look decide whether hire u really fucking screw im one family brothers sister failing one grade me hes got straight bs classes today mom said never ask anything good grades right shes letting privileges brothers dont mention birthday days brain says try already failing late already almost end semester currently crying writing useless notebook so probably helping idk dont know accomplishing dont know im this dont know im earth,1 +school stress hey guys im sure relate least say life pretty stressful right now school go days week monday thursday probably better lot im small school days im difficult me im taking ap us history advanced english college level french physics grade ahead extremely difficult history far hardest spend probably hours daily receive s makes incredibly frustrated ive tried reaching teacher hasnt even responded yet leaves notes assignments theyre incredibly vague elaborate connect people say hes good teacher im sure cant drop class anymore late year even though ive irl days could really judge class goes top this really struggle learn zoom call need room teacher especially french english fully absorb material cant get that im th grade word college floating top feel completely surrounded,0 +took methylphenidate pill escape life falling apartfamily still hates me love cousin me im addicted pills first mental breakdown week its monday pm,1 +cant submit big civics assignment due fifteen minutes wifi keeps going crazy ever since like last night ive tryna submit it wifi keeps going fully uploads im actually getting pissed off wont even able attend class wifi,0 +know doi feel really lost stuck things causing depression anxiety relatively control want die not see noother way want hurt family friends ive like many years feel alone really know im making post guess im hoping someone say something makes sense,1 +im going sleep jeans theres nothing stop,0 +scene sally field whoopi goldberg go mall revive sallys flagging spirits enough reason alone enjoy movie wait theres more crackling good sendup daytime tv movie stars way down and up horrors love robert downey jr shows lighter side genius cathy moriarty splendid dialogue witty physical humor done consummate skill movie appeal really enjoy arts acting directing writing,0 +im still alivesadlyi nothing one even try find reason live cant everyday worse version previous one clearly see depression grows im tired living im scared end all im much pain rn idk do,1 +feel trappedlet start bit back story young age ive always second thought family due unfortunate things oldest brother diagnosed cancer second oldest brother diagnosed ataxia telangiectasia age far ive fine year age gap us youngest ive always kinda background helping ever can going back years mum diagnosed cancer well around time recently lost nan used spend every waking moment with thought losing mum well extremely overwhelming me dad never really looked kids quite challenge him mum hospital months end hed get us takeaway food every night led extreme weight gain thankfully years mum given clear cancer came fighting left obese year old kid bullied every day school trying keep brave face parents already enough deal caring disabled brother everyday fast forward years ago big plans go game designer hope one day could create games like ones self use play wanted get away real world went college study game design animation amp motion graphics fell course tutor decided enough people course changed photography claymation now ive schoolwork everything around years feel trapped brother lack better term vegetable absolutely love change world parents getting life able tend well younger pretty much help move around lift clean etc etc kindof act main carer lumbered since cant help think stay home try best look him cant help fell trapped cant leave duty look him every day feel like would better died call horrible person life everyday become depressed looking wanted life taken me may sound selfish cant help think one way out,1 +friendmy friend know love romantically lot diagnosed cancer barely able convince kill minutes ago love dont want lose her told tell anyone cant lose like this do im person phone,1 +sometimes post fleeting hope one day itll appear meme title says all im typing reach minimum word thing mods added anyways thats enough words always thank coming ted talk,0 +film really great know why alway weakness damian chapa scarface still really enjoyed self film see ten times really trys make good movie cant it feel pity him maybe bit sympathy vote cant help it cant give less stars everyone seen life see make cheap film work live holland bought film one euro thats dollar would also bought ten euro great great great little dutch film site film gets votes thats much more people world buy movie,0 +anyone tried stab wound chest specifically nd rd costal spacessince options minimal thats way have hanging option house fully occupied drugs option dont access to,1 +cant stand living anymoremy family abusing years cant take anymore cant stand living anymore want live feel disappointed self feel hella alone sad havent talked friends almost year tried reaching me family doesnt believe mental health issues nun checks me dad brothers beaten since child till today im turning january im tired life i cant focus school im stressed depressed sad crying time,1 +friend pay sister dollars shut friend stupid getting nudes girl sat phone picked pay dollars keep mouth shut saw dick another girls titties,0 +let start saying watching episode first time dvd oclock pm one night could fall asleep ambr br this brief review may contain spoilersbr br im longtime fan sopranos safely say best episode ive seen im saying everyone feel way do episode identical weekend spent family watching father comatose icu passedbr br the episode begins tony alternate reality salesman whos identity mistaken man named kevin finnertybr br by time ten minutes gone by knew either tony dreaming watching show like normal sopranos loved itbr br option confirmed anthony or kevin looks sky helicopter spotlight see prodding it doctor flashlight see moment sequence plays go back real life situation similar one statedbr br tony come coma moment boys take aj home carmella overcome stress breaks hallway signature moment episodebr br for remainder episode cut real world family dealing potential negative outcome coma tonys alternate reality parallels whats going mind real world around himbr br then comes stellar point episode aj finishes telling mother hes flunked school walks see meadow sitting anthonys sidebr br she approaches tony utters best line episode anthony hear us tonys world enters dark hotel room turns light takes shoes goes phone tries dial cannotas trying say something back carmella physically bring so yetbr br he sits looks window shimmering light reoccurred throughout episode seems call side citybr br when cold id like die moby marries perfectly last images helps creating emotional rollercoaster episodebr br br br ps watch next episode find light is wonderful,0 +like multiple people call attractive still girlfriend asking one funny,0 +whyi cant deal anything anymore every day gets worse previous one cant anything else laying bed day anymore year best worst life many people lot people call friends others family theyre wonderful theyre amazing not deserve people even know theyve come like me make days amazing keeping entertained making feel loved make days awful cant spend time without making everything darker people like that understand leave that understand too want stay minutes either left makes depressed worst love family love mom dad good parents care children hate parents hate cant talk them one view world live cant anything else hate cant understand even know try blame them know either would loved take bit interest everythink liked passionates me least became curse burden im scared even want get involved anything them hate life hate sad time hate myself hate fact im lazy even want try change since young nothing would ever want future well future see future decided study spur right last year highschool idea else do decided stop beginning third year difficult stressful thing nothing really thing anyway dropped out cannot find job cannot find way live independantly anybody work agencies job offers net unemployement cant find anything lie myself im lazy putting much effort could im using alcohol self harm numb feel pain ive cutting forearm months now nobody even noticed im even trying hide it could considered negligence others know blame anybody anyway im way fcked up fell love times life could count fingers hand hate love painful fantasy cant get enough of cant either despite issues worries tried best work relationship worked hard months even seeing could give colour daily life end one nail coffin told countless times love them made think loved too all waited get drunk tell love one close friend im mad im sad feel disgusted feel sick hold grudge them still love despite everything wish happiest date either anyway im way fucked up ive wanting die much ive holding pills hand numerous times put blade skin countless times still cant die im coward want live cant commit it somehow ive getting closer closer every day still hope somewhere deep inside happen soon things would like going find kill mind happening im waiting release kingdom hearts soon promised play together old friend house release day always loved videogames filled life fake hopes dreams kingdom hearts definitely one favorite series travel friends planned meet germany twitchcon im really interested it would really love spend time make memories finally theres another travel germany planned time summer vacations spending entire week surrounded alcoholic friends depressed me partying day night things somewhat looking life currently die that ill happy die before ill happy too cant die all i hope die soon,1 +commercials make depressedfor reason commercials make depressed sound them music talking ending climax music end all think something childhood something cant pin point exactly causes react way,1 +callout post gamer man algebra junior,0 + metres pavement enoughnot trying mess up time,1 +go kitchen midnight snack remembered already brushed teeth eh ill eat anyways brush afterwards lmao,0 +suicidal years since attempti years clear last redflag attempt serious suicidal ideation recently thoughts returned extremely heavily gone stages life anyone else childhood middle school high school college keep telling state going get better get better things change never better worse im one fall binary definitions life know life holds value know good bad way interpret experiences experience much suffering sadness im tired trying make best every situation genuinely want life over want suffer anymore,1 +anyway bother title carestheres nothing useful say recount tragic backstory here long one gives fraction fuck anyway tired ive tried failed absurd amount times perhaps quantum redflag real thingthe theory quantum mechanics supposes sort quantum immortalitythat short hold gun head know chance killing pull trigger not pull trigger universe split two parallel universes one die one survive continue pull trigger splits continue occur consciousness observer always follow parallel universe survive well copenhagen interpretation qmech hold true bc then wave function collapses sorry studied physics college thought id bigshot astrophysicist someone invoked murphys law life everything could conceivably go wrong indeed done so point even care got job nasa esa cern observatory anything crushed loneliness unbearable isolation meaningful deep trusting relationship fellow human would much ask loved apparently so lost cause worth effort nothing good enough never good enough die always feared alone pain unloved,1 +someone please help chemistry homework please makes sense im hyper ventilating please ill anything,0 +wish could tell uyeah idrk long deal w shit like one second im feeling okay next second im literally flooded intensely dark suicidal thoughts literally taking trash cant stop thinking abt much want like dont even know want do want everything want jump balcony want cut see bone think question really dont want do im messed up sometimes watch videos ppl hurting bc makes feel like im it sometimes makes feel worse bc it used save pictures cuts could look later almost trick pain thats skin know thats blood that theres weird sense pride think sometimes could convince done right would go away little bit sometimes feel worse wont means im coward dont know deserve this barely breathe whole body throbbing pain physical feels physical feels like gorging lungs breaking ribs pain big teeth ive always done best satiate it satiate others always ask more right second cant stop thinking abt would feel shoot head dad jokes could throw rock country find gun know stupid hes literal whenever take walks around neighborhood always pouch pebbles case maybe god favor once people scared kill dont get it might hurt half second afterwards maybe could breathe again once without choking without stupid pain would fast know wouldnt pretty want cremated anyways,1 +truly believe one age relate much hate due virginitysearched word virgin went posts found post yo months ago reading it pretty crazy much similar me even medication went posts see still active unfortunately werent two posts went comments realized account alt mine relating whole time difference longer take meds insane much wanna die fact im virgin burden cannot find girls like me doesnt help im also extremely awkward around girls,1 +born international redflag prevention dayif sign,1 +felt alone long timemy fiance want talk tonight uncommon hes distant days one friends died wanted alone thats fne ampxb anyone talk to made worse fact almost am school night ampxb feel soul crushingly alone trapped mind ptsd flashbacks held back csa ampxb want get out would third redflag attempt month alone im starting therapy startup slow,1 +getting help leads painabout months ago met girl really liked first months quasi relationship going on time first person could tell suicidal thoughts first great problem felt little great couple really pathetic reasons still told problems even though knew interested hearing even talk me fucked up talked things also one last friends shitty little social life crumbling away last december told mym mum suicidal thoughts awkward fuck next couple days tried talk hated it regret telling her still cant sometimes look eyes military told doctor thoughts waste lot time convince bad shape none even slightly respected need military straight desires matter us well take freedom away well feel like attitude lost one friends lose tell friends made things awkward capable loving purely genetics almost lost choice military people respect free make decisions me completely alone im uncapable anything alone hence im completely fucked,1 +hey girl write quantum physics equations spare time cos good making stuff long hard,0 +would asked mom good looking are said all would react lets see answers rteenagers,0 +make biggest mistake familys lifewell least still woman son come home least keep hope alive try girlfriend kids watching father die take care family immediate family help everything dead end job still enough imagine going home complete failure grateful have spot would kill least son reach highperformance goals ever did killing would dumbest thing ever you could sitting next big baseball player next president next valedictorian life family one made please forget it would literally kill spot take granted,1 +donald trump taking away right sexy donald trump taking away right sexy ok gt,0 +date heya ive away here month now back since days and ive got questions new important names need now new memes new rules important events anything else worth mentioning happened last months thank yall ,0 +cant anymore ill probably kill tonightim male college im nearing end rd semester learned one thing hate college like never hated anything before majoring comp sci actually hate sure tell looking schedule currently taking bunch stupid religion classes hate awful go liberal arts college want broaden horizions suppose means taking classes absolutely nothing major college dad works means get free tuition blessing really feel trapped quit pissed away free education id get shitty job leads nowhere live home like minutes away cheaper want share room roommate one shitty dorms campus could afford also means really friends alone hurts really want friends high school found even like going hanging people find stressful expensive ive never girlfriend either bother me fault ive never one never tried always terrified rejection really know say speak girl people say really nothing interesting me anyway ive always assumed college would break miracle made would get job really like eventually decided done alone miserable time life seems like lot hard work cant even enjoy things used like mostly stare tv free time easy enjoy it yeah im done sucks ill die virgin would case anyway prolong inevitable,1 +im fucking bored people live past like holy shit,0 +mean come onyou know ive disappointed time time again lately starting show im thought id attending stanford freshman working laid back indie place ca dorming future assets id great girlfriend wholl taken virginity wouldnt see family often would new friends better friends richer better looking competent friends could look now attending community college selling menthols garbage still virgin lesser friends wouldnt like know live with probably guessed it family wanna know mother recently yelled joking hiding rice crispies do hide rice crispies even rice crispies putting people werent ready parents dad poor cheap mother emotionally unstable pretty much year old werent brothers shop wed street right now see family isnt meant be cant function independently want leave dead im still dependent people hospitable friends girlfriend happy place enjoyment life me surrounded people dont want around still virgin huge embarrassment standards age expected understand sexually become good communicator aspect cant even much talk girl dont really want friend anything because wanted friend would go talk guy way id comfortable would understand better girls sex obligation otherwise im giving time money ordinary friend absolutely nothing women chant sex rape see make want slaughter them also offend actual rape victims mocking using inductive logic deductive circumstance essentially stereotyping women network dating friends thats totally fine social networking site dating site thats cruelty ive heard stories vaginas warmth immense pressure seems like partner porn could ever hope do look back this think disgraceful ive become obviously must enduring sort punishment existing makes sense way ive listened people talk beautiful world be listened awe amazing stories recently realize world would like offer sincere apologies control circumstances birth thus unable abort myself forgive may perhaps goodbye,1 +good conversationover text starters girl aged know hey whats quieter boring people hear lot good conversation startersalso hold conversation crush please help dumbass,0 +hi tell enjoy cod series might enjoy content httpsyoutubecomchanneluccdahyyjypuxrpacenca,0 +imagine could get pimples teeth like youd also still brush teeth,0 +know keep honestly know came way thing conclude fell despair deeply let explain least try confess do even think weird okay yknow everybody deserve good things life doi sorry understand way expressing bad grammar english okay cannot anything right english native languagei always felt odd feel fake entire life seem normal possible maybe alli always envied people knows want life normal childhood know why cannot let go past ill probably never willi consider nothing nothing could anything right noi tried hard fit normal life style taking inspiration people loved wanted closest possible them but lying myself things went downhillmy family care me all blame them alla think would happy mei look outside window see everyone begin happyi wanted feel happiness everything felt emptiness much self hatei blame people use drugs use substance money way that would refuse live world myself least even fews seconds would like feel something else emptinessday passed tried positive mental health deteriorated started give self destructive habitsi fasted not lived body hated world show beaty made despise even morei fasted caffeine tea coffee got hungry ate fruitall days spent watching walls hurting way writing dairy shitty things happened daily lifethis fainted supermarket sister mother fucking bothered this felt like shit cannot anything right something changed mei though dead felt soblessedbut waking thinking get closer itso stared planning bad thing could myselfi quite good it car hit me point hurting bad realised wanted die wayi wanted yeah someone could kill meits strange think that but could help thatwhen sat edge window always thought someone would even bother something mekilling easy people would know prison waiting them hard think iti realised nothing want someone wants dead least wants feel want me would feel alone would feel forcedi know would feel worth persons arms closest death feel worth it,1 +film moved beyond comprehension remain favourite film time mainly almost every emotion rolled minutes hardest part take whenever want hear amazing music songs film put dvd player wondering anyone anywhere knows sings songs film found looked everywhere think sporadically past years favourite quote film court advocate says but words ask direct confrontation direct call violence biko replies well confrontation now see violencebr br craig robertson fife scotland,0 +brothers resistance cracking believe might finally whittled vulnerable good music accepted handmedown shirt john lennon it watch little siblings may win battles older siblings win war actual offense meant chemical romance nirvana lil peep theyre actually talented musicians well cant let little brother know think that,0 +advice attracting opposite sex ask fish fish would you ask fisherman take advice get girls girls get boys boys,0 +rated econtains violencebr br i original spiderman game pc couple years nowi still beaten windows xp glitch one level cant beat itso warned xpbut xp give game tryits fun clean family game action great spiderman fanin game play spiderman take various criminals commit crimesspiderman fun little game recommend spiderman fan parent wanting funclean game kidsbr br ,0 +life nutshell first want clearly state information genuine you also running issues life honestly wish best luck sorry lack formatting im writing mobile phone alright little backstory parents still alive sisters brothers father crippling depression years bad back diabetic works ass everyday family people dollar food stuff budget work per hour job however owns personal bussiness company he buys damaged cars repairs them resells them however everything seems fail miserable ways ever god testing patience years despite knowing lot family least talk hes ranting living room mother couple brothers sisters thats important right now used work brother would always either get low amount moneynothinghis brother would say dumb shit him brother always goes parents which tell their part story whilst father doesnt lead grandparents hatred father father depressed said last couple weeks turning pretty bad rent paid months yesterday serious conversation brother number phone it go well something involving cars brother could reason dad loses cars garage company aka life work result dad either commit redflag get heart attack im serious part life autism could say depression didnt psychologist years anyway years ago middle school children class would always really annoy me however dont get wrong mad strength anger management issues goal bully me push border what likely would cause onepunch hospitalize them would also get expelled wanted wasnt bad enough dumb ass middle school made us every grade part playground i idea called im dutch meant play football soccer together now friends idiots never went well best friend crippling depression parents always fought almost got beat death father kids would always go principal break telling stories friend stuff i never actually knew saying however one time absent went principal say friends extremely racist them bullshit goes ballistic goes class threatens call police us heard next day one time best friend football lads got vd people brothers friends friend m time smallest person however far best player a talent actually managed stand ground score goal whilst people meters literally using lethal force friend he could hit head one playground obstacles die looking great however godly goal one went get ball fell brothers foot blamed him motherfucker attacked brother it ran fuckface kmu pace giving one clean punch face breaking nose braces glasses giving concussion falling intense nose bleeding people proceeded hold prevent hospitalizing later got code red code reds means expelled goal along didnt care dont fucking touch brother later ive cooled down get talk dude week later guess fucking what apparently went i wanted shoot ball my brother didnt let me wanted kick hurt me told multiple times give space leave alone didnt let me holy fucking shit idea fucking mad were right across table talking mad shit right eyes denied everything said everything fucking fault wanted kill dude least k lines rant left hands hurting dont feel good atm might make another post however rn im gymnasium this school education system worst best praktijk basis kader kader mavo havo atheneumgymnasium fuckers basis kader friends helped cheat important central exam would determine wed go got highest me got real trouble please dutch people dont flood comments thanks listening rant tdlr dollars week budget parents depressed poor fucked im screamed time father might commit redflag soon childhood messed,0 +speak forever hold peace either die filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +get suicide frowned upon knew me would want it suicide hotline pick,1 +everything feels like happening twice recently something odd happening thought process really hard explain whenever recall memory recent past feels like two copies memory feels like memory experience happened know long think more cant see future thats impossible exactly stressing bothering me happened bit less month ago among mental conditions tamper perception world none makes sense know this causing significant issues think warrants getting professional help even though im already getting things edit think deja vu deja vu feel like event familiar happening feels different feel given event happened like several hours later week two later time feel multiple times every day,0 +wanna dieplease help wanna die wamma die kill em please beg kill wanna die wanna die pleas help wanma die kill kill kill kill,1 +refused look face acknowledge done several days later sister calls me feigning friendship asking would like get cat forced adopt living there got home multiple hour drive way noticed cat behaving strangely cat point less year leaving almost entirely feral infested ridiculous number fleas posted local forum town ways help repair cats nowaggressive nature,1 +real value anyonejust venting seriously point alive,1 +gotta go dentist next week cavities theyre using laughing gas extreme phobia deal it,0 +im much pussyim alone could it every reason to cant im afraid comes after leaving little behind dont deserve alive future theres nothing stay for anyways nobody loves me mother would rather keep relationship man molested keep relationship me ive pissed friends off anxiety prevent ever able hold job productive member society guy love blocked every source want talk him want make things okay again nothing ever okay again,1 +takingmonths ago started make playlist music would lead it dont really anything love nothing loved by im grey object im tired nice people get negative feedback im tired used taken advantage of im tired person put be im done yeah kind person gets far ive found holding back even more gun loaded im ready take away im tired me cant change am,1 +hitting rough patch scared recurring thoughtsi s going divorce kind rough childhood think made dumb decision getting married shortcut independence parents underemployed finishing degree online scared lease month half get job im interviewing tuesday basically homeless even get job provides housing id find place live two months ive lived car short stretches before never long feel like shit decent or even steady job kind useful work experience social anxiety affecting job performance current position honestly think would make huge impact lost mo keep invasive thoughts redflag want die exactly feel like ive fucked chances ive had studied wrong thing school finish projects started younger im getting marriage wrong too attempt middle school makes nervous feel much way like want it beats hell im now feel like im broken basic functions keep dwelling thoughts exhausting could really use right advice ways preoccupy mind worst thoughts pass block anxietyguilt things like homework looking new job just like encouragement especially anyone whos divorce right gate even typing load mind sorry rambliness thank reading far,1 +remember reading original balzac story college frenchbr br i remember ken nordine wgntv chicago reading one late night showsbr br always loved story never believe could would make movie it surprise wellbr br few balzac stories lend dramatization unfortunate cat lover am always hoping would filmed without lot hollywood sexing up close perfect conversion could donebr br the theater mind always better eye see close think come letting imagination reading meet reality seeing,0 +feel nice sent message friend bc hinted towards things bit rough assured im need talk anything responded saying yeah everythings fine bit rocky im happy know there half time think jokes feel important nice everyone important nice even you yes you amazing make difference never forget it,0 +help help commenting post want orange mail pls,0 +sick suicidalhave life,1 +recommend talk hentai post talk hentai recommend websites images videos hentai manga,0 +want loved really hard,0 +recently learned provinces canada hoodies called bunny hugs never taking bunny hug,0 +know best way help friend right nowokay bit long story best friend boyfriend killed months ago really bad gotten pretty close cause feel like one loved much me recently relapsed self harm years clean even recently past couple day stated many times going kill herself im everything think help her need world fucking bad couldnt make without her know doing cant lose know start sorry rant guess advice appreciated,1 +think best film probably amorphous list one best films ive ever seen whatever reason really connected movie one personal films seen point life i better worse strongly identified holly hunter character and im guy plays extremely bright loyal intense woman figure romantic relationships many things said movie things would say said others similar circumstances ending movie find very sadbr br obviously role big break holly hunter clearly one think highly it,0 +even feel human anymoreslowly surely everyone life left alone cant remember last time even felt anything besides sadness care life whats point living cant share experience people sad part ive lost hope ever friends everyone hang never talks even cares me shittiest feeling knowing people called friends six years even like around even trust anyone anymore im terrified im going scare everyone away whenever someone shows even little bit attention know do im scared next person show attention become sole reason want continue living inevitably leave left options days feel meaningless sleep much literally enjoy anything anymore cant bring make sort effort towards anything meaningful cant see point living like this think anything could possibly worse,1 +school advice first im writing ive seen increasing number people complaining school horrible ill share experience might repost later maximum number people see this skip rd th paragraph impatient little bit background numerous school systems french ib british bilingual canadian in quebec dutch numerous different schools numerous different countries school always easy subjects require much knowing heart never studied usually physics chemistry math foreign languages i hated class language school in literature basically without studying skipped years high school study university faster study engineering people always say school horrible feel bad depressed etc experience different school systems problem school itself probably school system example french system extremely rigid force box named normality put one hair box bad student weird stupid etc teacher hated guts really know why new school black sheep eyes students need say experience horrible studied ib english system in different country mentality lax parents give two shts kids nannies taking care them could imagine teachers school lax too teachers gave work higher grades keep interest school always new students black sheep anymore time enjoyable lightly bullied somewhat popular kid selfesteem issues really care people see above different schools contrasting experiences problem school try i know people necessarily possibility to change school school system grade always thought ridiculous learn stuff interested in case english literature etc look back upon it want hit myself seemingly boring subjects high importance im studying engineering see helped form personality even forget learned month still subconsciously make comparisons try imagine would someone general knowledge able hold long conversation able realize impact consequences surrounds you hate sciences even forget taylor series derivatives gravitational force exerted two objects certain mass brain still remembers reasoning behind them helps build understanding critical thinking two quotes sum im trying say education learning facts training mind think einstein the educated differ uneducated much living differ dead aristotle school also allows make connections people socialize people going say i friends socialize do talking people socializing imagine would go school some know already i know someone became blacksmith would lost school tool helps find calling life me sciences always interested school know want engineering know people feel much work homework example believe me probably some school systems exaggerate homework though right now hours classes day and university hours theres lot taught short amount time simplification top clear notes assignments review understand correctly etc much work something everyday rest life homework could considered good preparation adult life feel depressedsadtired start blame school directly look life think could make sad really depressed go see psychologist shameful unhealthy lifestyle blame that sports go long way healthy mind problems family go see psychologist if money teacher like good too,0 +think ive reached end lineim feeling little helpless overwhelmed right now ive many psychiatric drugs years now usual story work stop med key pin keeping together showing symptoms tardive dyskinesia where cant stop certain motions happening it started intense drug clozapine get vitals done daily weekly blood tests runs risk depleting white blood cell count feel med complete last resort work takes even get started it risks associated it new drug working right im suicidal im sleeping hours day im skipping work showering eating feel turn destiny kill myself ive daydreaming lot lately wish killed various points life thought bet future ill wish killed now im going wait big family vacation were taking feb one last time hang family say goodbye,1 +documentary films question realism always crops up much film real much manipulated film maker little dieter needs fly herzog far absorbed telling story man telling story even address question realism versus formalism beginning herzogs role storyteller obvious luckily master storyteller little dieter finest engaging documentary ever seen dieters story enthralling herzogs efforts reenactment putting dieter paces reliving story location filmed effective story dieter tells real herzog everpresent wrenching absurdist commentary realism film mustsee students documentary film andor werner herzog,0 +im feeling ten emotions right im happy im sad im hyper want go sleep every combination emotions could talk girl pretty much met new years met started talking new years ive talked twice since could force asleep do,0 +therapisti see therapist tomorrow want know tell feel without committed daily pain spent today getting medicaid back freaking get surgery time go work today several hours today feel dominant hand barely eat normal food emotionally space want be like therapist trust him cannot deal locked without access medicine,1 +throw away accountive never plan want hang now im convinced im attention everyone around me part thinks am part thinks never want wake again seriously know good things come care know shitty things come also life hard fuck this ive also ssri meds days know terrible idea,1 +friends ive grown apart ive grown apart many friends last year think covid lock downs made realize many people want stay life rather seeing forcefully daily basis due school acquaintances people thought actual friends stupid things wish reason growing apart wish could talk friends maybe put things back together ill wait little longer guess,0 +test post test post,0 +heard friends singing going walk park friends talking musicals started singing dear theodosia hamilton like amazing amazing saying bad incredible listening two girls sing,0 +might actually chance turns may found way finally week quickly almost painlessly quite excited idea,1 +suicidal thoughtsreally hard year old keep continuing living life im failing class parents working asses put right path thats working im wise person think better end rather letting waste money me,1 +chose movie really husbandwho works radio broadcasting thought would movie would enjoy relate too though eightiesso little dated movie really draws in times want strangle host barry times want send bigots call true concentration camp times really feel sorry barry truly gotten big jeans know mean drama channel encoreso thinking true story truly love dramas love this even know ins outs broadcasting business alec baldwin fan watching see him shouldnt part really bit part movie,0 +ayo chess players here hmu play chesscomhttpschesscom lichess bet lot care chess still post you chess player sub,0 +unhappy want end always end thinking others worse everyones hard time right now feel even guilty suicidalim done anything worth mentioning life far show marriage dog love much change feel many plans gotten execute exactly none im fucked every level really bad physical health top everything else im liver failure feel like shit constantly im sick enough need transplant yet puts shitty position life im kind stuck low end home job energy almost non existent without continuing education pushing back graduation date even concentrating difficult finally enter workforce healthy capable individual knows ever will doctor told start applying ssi job one reasons killed yet but even physically healthy im fucked head knows id actually able accomplish goals im terrified criticism shut slightest inkling sort negative test score lowering gpa passed one semester next semester got b important test realized end semester it next semester gave got two failing grades two five classes gpa like now serious ptsd mental health issues past trauma even healthy physically always held back want risk success failure painful now cares im sick try anyway life direction plans cant plan anything liver could fail completely time could never completely fail could waste life always feeling way feel fucking trapped due covid too least could go outside normal healthy people pretend hours everything ok everyone wearing masks everyone struggling everything mess almost everyone cant escape nothing ok anywhere feel trapped feel like way way out wish wasted good health younger wish wouldve gotten therapy money access neither know much longer this,1 +flexible kick chin guy,0 +especially sleeping day either goes fast slow time realise weeks gone past struggle remember hell long time weird thing,1 +sadnessi want kill nobody take care little dog,1 +cheated dont feel worthy livingthats it cant deal pain caused saw girl days asked gf gf girl cheated told everything unresponsive attempt contacting her dont see without gf ive never felt comprehended loved cheated because didnt even want begin with even tho wasnt gf officially talked exclusive knowing other type scumbag betray like that want end,1 +use schoology ima cry help help me assignment due tomorrow god cant use platform lifeeeeee,0 +againagain people reading im saying people putting words mouth making feel worse before really cant take anymore since ive hospital ive made plans nearly killed almost every day know right person probably right right complain im starving death schizoaffective bipolar pure ocd cant even acknowledge better things starve accepted help all im terrible person terrible fucking person im going try anymore barely try stay alive anyway people starving fighting lives deserve live never did thank everyone supported past year hope last time post here,1 +important announcement ,0 +listened green days jesus suburbia good prepared that id recommend,0 +schools still serve strawberry milk lunch miss stuff much really rare find stores loved stuff growing up id drink gallon could now stores carry any tiny little bottles cost like bucks one many things really miss childhood ,0 +dont know anymore tw redflagi dont know anymore whole lifes ahead me college high school job love etc even still find wanting end ever often horrible dad lot older go time finish college enough time unfair mom drinks lot horrible health none family likes her shes abused multiple boyfriends makes horrible money life decisions might even go dad whos older her liver gives sister different blood type none family help her im much issue try best help often find alone cant bring go them parents going divorced soon sister hates mom love hate relationship sister half black mom white get arguments lot recently got back friends left behind spent around three months without me found girl whos perfect got tough depression every awhile think killing would like without me never bring it im scared isnt anything life want able help mom get alcohol make better money decisions nicer late maybe goal next year dont know ill cant help mom,1 +going focused something cannot focus anything yeah now feel like losing mind feel empty time eat much buy stuff going crazy cannot think anymore cannot concentrate memory working body used be hate myself constantly look mirror judge way look try diet everyday soon break down hungry thirsty sweet taste food main thing mind time fill feel down eatbut feel worst gain fat hate morewhen sit groups understand going on ask questions ppl say talk much say anything one notices me always one out one ignored weird crazy psychopath one call psycho joke funny anymore yeah get hyper energetic sometimes know deal energies somehow feel empty guess do eatwhat wrong mewhy like thisi keep thinking days yo happy hopeful parents young everything everyone happier today mostly sadness tired thoughts feelingsi want sleep wake upi want shot make mind quitei want want sorry vent know post guess cannot keep feelings anymore,1 +posting evil facts historical figures love stop cynical asshole day charles darwin charles darwin one great scientists challenged church going history galileo mendel proved living things made cookie cutter templates ancestor became creature fir environment act surely requires scientific genius right well ideas first taught schools found would better teach elementary school level thw reason even found simplistic principle geniuses world figured yet well did many people him even grandfather discussed idea yet plagiarized all even add much idea mathematical model scientific method made support it even less point general idea wrong point point z right since personally observed it points b wrong happens show work class kids another thing idea rejected nationalist right going taught younger generation reject it fact embraced it used take nationalism next step formed new idea called social darwinism idea humans go darwins process migrate new environments become siperior others mostly used excuse racist however idea even used create nationalistic movements like nazi party,0 +call everyone bro sounds nice,0 +lot childhood spent lying front wireless listening round horne hancocks half hour watching carry films probably famous line comedy infamy infamy theyve got infamy still makes laughbr br this rare insight man behind comic figure whole production brilliant mix tragedy comedy right final quotation coroners court read four different voices michael sheen brilliant role members carry team soso kenneth horne good michael sheen carried show award sort himbr br it left feeling wow quote kenneth williams cynic says life joke response yes well lets make good one,0 +found crush likes me took mins scrolling teams find guys class could figure talking,0 +dont know turn toi want die im trying best happy stay positive cant want reach someone dont know who appointment therapist next week dont think wait long want end now dont know keep thinking thoughts cant happy hurts live way want over,1 +actually going follow throughi think soon im actually going follow it feel like im fucking roller coaster want get off,1 +so one favorite rockstars blocked instagram im proredflagi commented something post httpswwwinstagramcompbnseyhqp_httpswwwinstagramcompbnseyhqp_ saying as someone whos proredflag cant comment further maybe saw it eventually deleted it blocked me again people find easy kill themselves wish easy too,1 +may almost which around th percentile im also tanner stage really surprising like already visible shadow voice dropped lot already maybe ill make ,0 +remembered one day chilling harden discovered hedgehog garden hole side dead pond,0 +ive diagnosed bipolar im already gay like polar bears whatever im confusion ,0 +ive accepted itive thoughts redflag since years old im really thru much handle mental health dad died mom abandoned months bounced around different family member homes feeling im good enough one wanted keep me ive gone thru lot dealt lot death always contemplated redflag could never think way actually go it today ive lost hope completely girl told loved wanted foreveri soul mate told today wasnt sure meant it im sick feeling alone one actually cares me many failed relationships mother abandoning ive convinced im unlovable ill alone forever cant that decided today im gonna buy gun week work last shift friday enjoy time friends weekend sunday june rd im going take peaceful place get drugs drink finally shoot head finally end pain cant handle anymore pain constant life long remember im past breaking point thanks giving place put thoughts existence hope go thru,1 +tiredlife cant numbing various drugs behaviors cant take end it cut least times oddly sting isnt painful anymore almost want roll bloody arm concrete see damage do im numb ive given even trying live life im tired tried alone tried friendly cant seem accept im meant dead inside meant hurt every second blessed life apartment food stomach whats point girl couldnt love am im codependent bitter distant maintain blank demeanor dont know better literally cant relate anyone im probably human human body im complaining need someone bounce redflag ideas of none friends help leave sense peace takers,1 +probably last ever hear meim done cant keep going probably going last post anything fro forever cant keep coping stupid gender dysphoria kd rather dead male body di end responding anything means im weak weak kill tried living work,1 +dog died dog years shi tzu passed away recently playing backyard little sister ball passing around bounced off cookiey my dog ran get bumped farther point bit worried let go bit more unfortunately live right near road time figured would go far late car hit him,0 +good ways avoid fapping im going yearlong journey need advice fap,0 +guy considered best friend told go kill gutsive suicidal around two years now used self harm daily time yesterday two friends accused selfish problems meant everything care others guy thought best friend told low eq maybe theyre saying true maybe whine around lot im boring sad person trivialises peoples problems deep try help everyone try care others me anyway told reason happens im severely depressedim medication suicidal used cut myself best friend told ive whining long time told go ahead kill myself told guts also said home would trouble then know do attempt it,1 +ex gf currently hospital redflag attempt im trouble knowing dobackstory here httpredditiyi updated information admitted hospital actual room now may days little info forgot include post usually lives min away me depending traffic actually visiting past weekend internship hours away parents live hope sound selfish right seem trouble figuring i supposed doing wants come visit her feel bad since one else here know finally calling parents they live together tonight talked her im sure theyre coming anything first all im sure good thing point id think go thinking im great guy love with thinking called already said today wished come myself taken er would voluntarily told maybe good thing keeping there craigslist post incredibly fucked up reading notes sorry rambling guess advice is her myself desire get back together her im pretty sure still does another reason im sure seeing good not promise would bring stuff apartment going see least one time unless theres unexpected twist,1 +absolute bullshit lot mean lot lego sets ive collecting since take minimum hours build except smaller ones take hour parents hired someone clean house destroyed bitch come house fucking job switches around everything room obliterates hours work fucking lazy milenium falcon wich takes around hours build wrecked lego ninago temple season wich takes hours build obliterated kylo rens ship hour build fucking desitegrated original xwing wich hour build least deleted theyre harder ones rebuild built years time last summer break thats time ill able again end rant,0 +holy shit cant even comprehend much hate guy playing gta chilling guy came u destroyed someones cargo going kill u asked whose didnt know said look crew tag grieferdeleter kd kept killing x spawnkilled didnt even chance hate soo mucb fucking angry him like hard leave alone save gamertag tho,0 +bye everyoneif anyone sees want say byei hope everyone happy worry everfuck life fuck god putting fucking nightmare lifebye,1 +goodbye letterstoday im writing goodbye letters family friends,1 +hey folks wondering anyone else experience something dealing with escitalopram mg now crazy vivid dreams bizzare whenever sleep dream even naps every single night need movies got sleep anyone else escitalopram,1 +brother way addicted thing younger brother way addicted fortnite first thing morning waking turn par start playing sometimes class continues playing till evening ask leave half hour rest gets angry shouts gets aggressive addicted not sound like boomer took ps hid time that,0 +mom wont stop saying hentai shes listening song called acid rain i think theres word sounds like hentai wont stop fucking saying it house small hear everything first thing morning play fucking song ok first hate jesus christ please kill me,0 +daily girlfriend post spice things bit not much bit start suggesting song every time last night earth green day,0 +good night everyone ill date crush moment going date dreams remind drink water stay hydrated oh last thing game,0 +im unattractive lonelylooks matter point yeah dont that im home right trying figure kill,1 +attempted cut selflooong story short tried cut today one big knives cutting block tried cut near hip would easy hide marriage done nowhere go down bridge via knife knows,1 +feel finebut feel suicidal drink,1 +bruno funny word bruno bruno bruno bruno bruno bruno,0 +pretty much doneits worth,1 +feel like hurting things getting worse lately,1 +reasons stay aliveim living really bad living conditions im dealing break loss really close friend heart bipolar disorder making hard sort friends want end know how know pills take jump window even know,1 +tw brief sh mentionill completely alone house breakdown tonight relapsed last night going doi struggle impulsivityshould get already scared unbothered time even know possiblei know do wish could disappear facing all tiring scared tomtorow,1 +wasp terrorizing single fucking wasp terrorizing day long finally captured it holding hostage little bit honey eat nice smelling salt got ill kewp guys updated anything happens,0 +set everything second attempt took everything downhi previously tried back november jumping stories surviving fell tree brain damage thus lot trouble using left side body trouble walking lift left arm right shoulder more doctors say permanent damage left arm may never drink becoming alcoholic since brain much control alcohol before know im lucky damage could much worse still feel like fucked life girlfriend supportive me clearly loves me appreciate much real question is much take decides cant handle anymore ends relationship really think ill attempt redflag succeed time fear set note kitchen phone beside stove emit carbon monoxide indefinitely pilot light go reason maybe antidepressants anyways wanted let everybody know story im still here,1 +haha would funny would funny got awards think,0 +anaphylaxisso long story short im dizzy lips tingling starting swell two choices seek medical attention lay bed watching season buffy stan warm fuzzy feeling possibly waking morning think option winner,1 +girlfriend tried cheat one best friendsfeels like old old feel knew good true theres real good people there everyones got kind selfish motive either fill pockets inflate ego theres always gonna backstabbing people im always gonna lonely wanna deal anymore want hang myself,1 +alive absolute torture every day wake everyday disappointed die night before last months medication therapy avail hospitals danger self harmed much point scars arms doubt ever heal life huge downward spiral long remember ruining friendship someone person made feel anything meaningful long fucking time straw broke camels back complain barely anything good life fuck everything good it past weeks trying whatever escape world awful lonesome empty feel even hours drugs alcohol whatever always come back hole always am little brother every time tells loves get sad want leave much fucking pain know much longer go without ending all fought fought depression took right steps get better nothing works anything feel even worse know anyone read need vent know much longer,1 +thought really great movie especially since jut filler me bored got library really enjoyed myself ive watched twice two days watch like iti thought plot going really corny end really could said would true liked main characters thought well cast could see true friendship thought excellent job ending goodand really hate bad guys really like good guys movie supposed like,0 +knows sick idea means yet coming feel it want hide it want dump hard either advice got new boyfriend heading towards another episode worry scare,1 +anyone actually care dieddepression fucking obsessed girl know im fucking good enough anybody even fucking family friends fuck anyone actually reads cares,1 +dads important moms prove wrong,0 +understand fans filmmaker roman polanski could love movie could understand could totally hate ebert one understand people running theater first viewing im sure could fall either category however someone cant get enough kafka bizarre dark comedies paranoia tenant effective enough running time maybe not one cases might masterwork halfhour twilight zone episode serling delivering coda terkovsky or whomever might be writhes bed bandages similar treatment doomed protagonist repulsion was however could argued ambiguity sense surreal coming sustained disintegration character location and quite frankly better lead performance tenantbr br as stands tenant intriguing premise kind one tire telling people polanski polish migr paris takes apartment recently acquired simone choule jumped near death window died soon after tenants conservative max terms noise saturday night terkovskys friends complaints much noise happen again polanskis goodnatured slightly nervous tenant says peace even moving cabinet chair soon complaints get registered another tenant him register complaints case much mistaken identity lack peace mind oneself surrounding people downward spiral goes on polanski ratchets tension and dare say blackcomedic laughs showing terkovsky midst horrible dream one polanskis strongest scenes period finding teeth wall mention bathroom across way which might add always cinematic lynchpin horror surreal madnessbr br but somehow film never really feels significant aside excessive design wouldbe mindf machine terkovskys tenants seeming seem little while theres much suspense finding really get him makes paranoia selffulfilling least twice thought well why polanski take title role himself hes bad actor appeared several films plays direction aside great looking awkward tense like church moments sort flipping thinking really get kill himself transformation less creepy tongueincheek test see pull off entirely do despite polanski working well look like meek frazzled terkovsky could see least actors could pull subtlety affecting personality time one sees drag goes cringeworthy true camp particularly goes doubleclimax end which course little surprisebr br and yet pleasure filmbuff polanski fan see supporting cast try dig much ambiguous characters winters douglas best even strain limited characters unexpected moments like polanski adjani getting hot heavy bruce lee movie gets really drunk one almost random scene slaps kid near fountain rather brilliant themselves good film one could maybe stick attention many coffees midnight essential film exactly,0 +hope fucking realise reading redflag notei hope girl finally realises done learns lesson hope friends realise seeking attention learn lesson hope family realises sad time nonsense learn lesson hope fucking realise crying help months much fun bothered ill leave link account redflag note too maybe understand thing two eh even fucking care anyways like oh annoying asshole finally gone fuck life,1 +film captures true struggle identity ongoing teenage years really moving feels strangely like documentarynot contrived real interesting unsettling,0 +fucked forgot november fapped ashamed failed first day all,0 +helping outwhats quicker death cutting veins strangulation want go quickly possible rather suffer last moments,1 +im always stressed anyone know less stressed week exam week basically free time late night early morning except today dont class calm feel like im failure get score lower passing dont wanna disappoint parents sunday bday please help ive trying making shitposts subreddit working,0 +anyone kaiser member download calm appthe link herehttpsaboutkaiserpermanenteorgourstorynewsannouncementscalmappavailabletokaiserpermanentemembersatnocost,1 +knife hand itgtan audiobook played background switchblade skull print stuck throat body convulsed spurted blood mouth wound onto wooden floor slowly lost consciousness scenario imagined then think ill know idea felt nice commitment death terrifying process loosing consciousness seems strangely pleasing im guessing things do life half bad good grades supportive friends came trans everyone near accepted me parents provide anything need depressed life good attempted redflag last spring sometimes regret go way times im glad die want live others myself sometimes barely get bed mornings anyone else mess like me,1 +moderators get paid asking become one anything curious like job u get paid something work like hobby im asking reddit mean mods ford discord twitch etc,0 +found scammer friend decided little fun post httpswwwredditcomusergrosslyuneducatedcommentsjvlbfound_a_scammer_so_me_and_my_friend_decided_toutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 +starting youtube channel hard weeks ago started youtube channel far quite fun editing boring definitely bearable finished papers please almost done fnaf started minecraft hardcore even started working discord server far have subs uploads ok motivation mediocre thumbnails ok editing skills want support channel link httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucvvakoztypqkrh_uhmczgwfeaturedhttpswwwyoutubecomchannelucvvakoztypqkrh_uhmczgwfeatured advice please leave comments greatly appreciated currently know fuck,0 +hartley lowkey form martin donovan born play jesus comes messiah millenial manhatten pj harvey excellent sidekick magdelena slight film drily amusing short sweet,0 +helpive stress vomiting lately times last weeks im pretty sure weird sort hypomanic thing two weeks really fit criteria length consistency especially since people notice im fucked final exam incomplete friday already extended im fuck made progress essay notes also fell behind classes really would like self harm ive noticed telling goes hell try killing myself idk thats fucked coping mechanism or cant this therapist much help right thoughts serious know prior experience go serious really bad writing notes holding stuff,1 +anxiety turned suicidal thoughtsive suicidal thoughts past never anxietyrelated lately been anxiety consistently awful two months now literally makes want die ill sit spot hours debilitating fear cant bring hobbies feel constantly danger makes brain shut completely nothing makes go away family doesnt believe anxiety bad is want this,1 +welp bird threw cucumber slice cant find playing decided try cucumber threw im stuck crawling floor find,0 +favorite song let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let lick little wittle tiny pussy like tiny pussy let lick tiny pussy wanna pussy gimme let lick tiny pussy wanna lick tiny pussy please let lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy want lick pussy let lick pussy let lick little pussy let me let lick little pussy let lick little pussy let lick little pussy let lick little little little pussy yeah let lick pussy let lick pussy let lick pussy let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy let me let lick pussy ooh wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy know see hot nickel ball pussy every day day hot nickel balls pussy little twats little coin slot axe wounds little coin slot axe wounds ohoh wanna lick little little cute little pussy cute little cunt cute little twant cute little cunt gimme cute little slit girl gimme cute little twant little cunt little twant cute little cunt little twant gimme let little pussy wanna lick little pussy wanna lick cunt wanna lick little twat hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see cute little twat shaking round like bat let shake little pussy let shake little twat gimme gimme little cunts let me let see cummies man wanna see little slit little axewound wanna see little cummy cunt cummy little cumming cummy cummy cunt cummy cunt cum ooh wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy wanna see hot nickel ball pussy know see hot nickel ball pussy every day day hot nickel balls pussy little twats little coin slot axe wounds little coin slot axe wounds,0 +good spanish movie worried many feel lost many around world idea spanish civil war fought history teacher big advantage could easily see film could confusing piece together pieces doubt would big concern spain film made audiences may bit confused later filmbr br the movie begins yearold carol mother returning mothers home town years passed gather coming spain new york city despite strangeness carol speaks reasonably good spanish much film adapts mother alone ill spill pick fact carols father fighting war side republicans who eventually lost bloody conflictbr br the movie gets exceptional marks lovely camera work music rather slow rambling pace bad provided someone accept films way seen several spanish films war compares pretty well themnot better worsejust decent slice life film left behind well nice coming age flickbr br psif know side which republicans mostly socialists backed soviet union mexico well volunteers many countries including usa nationalists led franco aided portugal fascist states germany italy,0 +wow crush literally dmed sleep staying up cutest thing ever wanna hug bad nopeee stupid covid,0 +bruh hate voice chat sometimes weird girl sometimes especially weird guys change treat,0 +im feel aloneall posts get ignored im trying guess hopes least one person give time dsay feel tired sad want help nobody wants me im bad people try best dont want feel like anymore ive thinking lot redflag honestly keep feeling way im going it ive tried hard feel better get help nobody thinks im worth it guess im,1 +wanna end cant sonim okay know this genuinely want swallow massive amount pills follow jack cupboard need vent get hopes feeling better son nearly weeks old thing keeping here boyfriend amazing month year anniversary cant tell feel way dont feel like really talk anyone beginning relationship told bi problem never knew react said liked girls specific featurefast forward year march april ans tell one day want threesomes ive done jealous isnt issue honestly love stuff im months lb baby stretch marks loose skin extra weight brought back every miserable part depression anxiety ive dealt since younger im still medication meds dont anything now sex life sucks feel like failure mom partner cant seem anything turn cant seem anything right anymore looks talks girls ive tossed aside tonight started smoking drinking cut hips probably scar wont bleed out im going reach docs meds feel lile im slippery slope mental health physical appearance son reason im still here cant leave without motheso im sitting sobbing trying hard stick around thanks vent,1 +supplies want go sooni bought everything back im tired ive started abusing sleeping medications again matter im four times dose one now hopefully ill finish planning soon end this needed tell someone im planning killing soon talked friend tonight understand upset stressed tell im almost done give up edit also recently reason gotten agonizingly painful tinnitus thats getting worse theres cure honestly planning redflag long that furthuring mental insanity cant even think right ringing hurts im sorry think life me want make everything end,1 +every time see attractive woman want kill myselffirst intense feelings longing intense anxiety thought trying talk her intense pain partner arrives leaves overcome anxiety try talk get rejected thoughts redflag,1 +dont cut dont cu dont cu hell whats wrong mei saw many reports historys here think its much pain perfect life right fell like cut even kill myself im struggling cut kill mysefl think make fell worst know competition fell worst worst life dont know fell week falling little im sorry want put out hard cut right now,1 +hey guys need legal help pocket knife live californian im wondering legal fiddle iteg open close over ask adhd typically need something fiddle with dont want anybody getting hes got knife run ahhhhh im opening closing knife im making attempt hide im intending brandish it advide would helpful,0 +career disappointment iti going get job ive dreamed about training for years fucking loser everyone feels sorry me even boyfriend scared me profound humiliation ive ever experienced want disappear since cant simply disappear want kill myself way minimally disturbing people stupid enough still care ive disappointed everyone need stop disappointing people ive researching obtain gun thats next step life hard continue,1 +late now needed chestthis post ive ever made one make need somewhere scream guess read this thank you im finally ready point cant keep handling way life shaping cant keep anymore really know start id therapy since family history schizophrenia put many different types help medication cant even try remember safely say im beyond help now context im year old jazz music student coming family history severe mental illness looking family around eventually joined fell apart myself loner kid literally friends time got first romantic relationship lasted two years two years physically sexually mentally abused parter taken advantage financially even finally found friends something come along fuck make tough weak kid bring leave eventually moved city study university chance get took never looked back point turned ready start anew id done that made huge new group friends found surrounded love support id never felt before ended finding someone found perfect absolutely phenomenal year life something go spectacularly wrong found one best friends id met terminally ill alongside id found family member too id talk mother killing multiple times space week alongside parteratthetime handle insecurity selfhate left understand completely time decreased self worth much more time learnt went all one week id felt overwhelmed decided take huge overdose meds time unfortunately pulled through much apparently shouldnt survived based much id taken drank everyone friends city year completely abandoned me calling attention seeker irrational ex breaking me whilst listening actual reasons id made attempt life think least damaging thing happen week never cared hear it happening th ended going absolutely nuts spending money drugs alcohol got point hugely debt unemployed falling behind uni work finding addicted getting blackout drunk time could get feel something again guess end day needed get system sort forum give reasonings whoever finds this feel like last years constant therapy shit ive managed one single year went well even fell apart leaving failing uni student huge amount debt alcohol problem losing everything short space time cheers anyone whod taken time read little summary im done know felt need post eh end day tried long cant say least fight already planned time place weeks im looking someone talk it said felt need get out,1 +cant anymoreive tried kill twice wish id succeeded last summer months ago hospitalized could anything cant say really helped me told pdoc therapist well two weeks ago maybe was im sure ive telling people im okay anything myself know keep promise last night started writing note say goodbye everyone love feels like relief decide it people tell ive lot past couple years im stronger survived honestly feel tiredness cant fight anymore anything keeping here ive tried think things tether life ive come nothing im tired cycle bad place last year too never ends ive tried every kind medication cocktail imaginable ive even tried vitamin supplements im tired cant this,1 +day interact others basically always play role masks inside change behaviour topics talk extent even vocabulary according person talk to soon alone feel empty again feeling like personality all day play functioning human night suffocate self loathing self harm urges suicidal fantasieswhen laugh talk whatever superficial really stimulate brain emotions shallow short living feel like playing roles completely empty inside,1 +day title says want people talk avoid sleeping know,0 +wanted clarify anyone else still virtual fully hey everyone school fully virtually entire year choice go back chose since halfway year point felt like itd drastic choice start going back miss friends yes some everything else would no anyone else still going virtual hard time get distracted easily use personal computer instead chromebooks hurt eyes screen small,0 +call police well check mom tonightim mother bad relationships current significant told leaving morning drinking spree since am well hour sent picture car dash running garage saying tell blabla love im sleepy hot going see mom heaven broke tears immediately called cops well check turns sitting porch drinking beer showed up pissed hospital texting kinds shitty stuff ruined life not still feel like right thing get chest even know belongs sub reddit,1 +contemplating redflag today spent weekend parents friends house lake pretty good lots activities stuff nice change pace people around age ive known since childhood never really talked tried talk introverted nature really came always felt something wrong the fact really cute girls amplified this never really fit activities together im always odd one wish invisible whenever theyd hang room never came close cause felt like id embarrass myself thats realized bad social skills really where like everyone else back home different one theyd fun hanging would sit corner trying disappear forever could hear talk laughing jokes anecdotes things normal people do whenever id try talk them conversation would go dry one would look direction time say bye came packed stuff hid car parents said stuff scolded afterwards impolite hour car ride mulled everything wrong everything made different made wrong brain even brought stuff times hung people past none good around minutes self imposed mental torture starting toying idea escape all get rid ability make mistakes all get rid myself since trip takes place driving highway thought id wait us going least kmh pass semi truck jumping car ending life opportunities arose looked trucks pass thought god would hurt im here typing instead spread across one longest highways world scared would hurt tldr got sad cant interact people wanted end all smart right,0 +im officially thank making year sub amazing love all time pay taxes now,0 +sometimes feel like im forced stay chinese class mean like fun sometimes feel like never even choice it also feel jealous sometimes little brother taken still understand took still also think either parents realize struggle sometimes probably ive since first grade fact hard change also takes credits cant take classes want do years im hopefully done it,0 +pog pog mountains poggers discord poggers anyone anyone wanna joindscord friends made sharing memes meeting new ppl guys girls included also cupcakes jk gaming channels pog ig okay yeet comment link,0 +cycle overit seems like things repeat life get really good get yanked away yanked away completely twisted perverted whatever beautiful thing used be gone whatever taken too tips scales far away anything positive life bad ugly simply weigh much time pursue options,1 +find funny everyone always tells need hello reach it minute reach help ignored one actually wants help ill bend backwards friends help out help never returned physically mentally sick it need help,1 +hate hope dies brutally feeling like killing mom,1 +realised im way fortunate people world im born first world country still stable country full wars live comfortably food plate air conditioning room good loving family relatively well off parents stable well paying jobs worry money get good education mom trained english since baby im fluent english opens ton doors me physical disabilities arms legs feeling grateful have,0 +planning ending life turn i cant take anymore im much failure hate much hate alive reason im still alive today shove knife heart years ago really want kill im afraid ill suffocate long time hang someone would save me thus decided im going give chance try live years left turn legal adult ever kiss girl get girlfriend turn im going go trouble getting shotgun im going kill myself quite impossible get back pull trigger shall finally put rest cant wait die get rid pain suffering know never get girlfriend matter hard try no know fact girl would look right past im hopelessly ugly so id better start looking shotgun right now,1 +dad zoomer know do uses quotes tiktok daily calls bruh public random times day say something finds funny hell basically make one catch phrases acts personalitywise like people rimandthisisdeep makes fun of kind funny first going almost year now,0 +im drawing portrait jar jar binks middle freshman orientation im reddit im total savage,0 +way get rid scars fast like comfort cutting brings me people seeing scars explain hell self harm scars get rid fast,1 +movies appear provide enterntainment well realism ever wondered role snipers modern war take look one br br i loved scene hundred soldiers get shooting jungle noone quite sure shot camebr br and nicked one scene saving private ryan merit scenebr br ,0 +heard awful lot the english patient finally decided get cd find ballyhoo about found cinematic delight should repeat should always watched open mind religious moral zealot afraid film fail see beauty cinematic masterpiece keep harping moral dilemmas film creates remember correctly watched film read review site thoroughly disgusted views person quote said that protagonists thoroughly deserved got comes morality agree way comment film magnificence br br i must admit rarely seen wonderfully crafted film keep hearing background soundtrack subconscious first foremost love story yes extramarital affair moralists beware lets keep focusing that instead lets focus story told admixture flashbacks present set world war ii tells us story survivor plane crash count almazhy played wonderfully ralph fiennes looked army nurse juliet binoche war torn italy beginning end defeat axis powers burn scarred patient much pain kept remembering torrid affair english woman katherine kristin scott thomas shown flashbacks set prewar africa past present interwoven adroitly story sort transported story get feel first hand viewer locales desert italy beautiful characters romantic ashamed say tears ended watch someone truly love movie starts ends shot desert sand dunes twist curves like womans body breathtaking sense loss grief conveyed overwhelmingly actors makes wonder god wars destroys beauty unforgivable all destruction innocence br br anyway deservedly bunch oscars go hunting works director anthony minghellait kind brings back romanticism david lean genre filmsit almost reminds lawrence arabia also based deserthappy viewing folks,0 +alone birthday supposed live life spending birthdays holidays alonei gotten gift cards parties people spend birthday with see people big families lots friends big parties get lots gifts cant others have everyone killing end pain depression misery,1 +felt like shit school today felt like friends care thought redflag first time ive felt like past week think redflag daily tried come redflag method,0 +guys think say poggies much talking mom something stop saying poggies halfway saying it think mind infected,0 +know one cares want become next rick roll probably wont wanna help heres link need spread httpsyoutubettfzzqthqk,0 +damn im pretty suicidaljust realizing this doesnt even seem like big deal me guess thats pretty fucked huh dont even care dont even care might care im gone lol wtf wrong me whats painless way dont even know im serious right thats thing fuck shiiit might seeking attention cares fuck,1 +informed something family goosebumps dont know information grandma married year old husband grandpa know much information except like children counting mom please help gagging,0 +happyi pretty okay job im going back graduate school great husband two really cute but stupid dogs pretty okay businessside hustle really good friends im kind funny kind attractive pretty okay house pay bills theres food belly roof head bed sleep in yet still want here feel like saying want die is much happened pull ending infinity war sitting computer desk bad know used see therapist months back really well got discharged feel like going back makes failure know go back explain yourself hi thought fine wanna die am like man know throat feels tight eyes puffy like could probably cry ten years im actually gonna play sims stare space hope like darkness consumes me,1 +tried kill friday nighti tried overdose friday night right psych ward ive never puked much life feel like complete retard did regretted soon swallowed late regrets wish stopped moment instead wish did fuck ,1 +hey bootiful fucking humans hope nice day remember stay hydrated take care lt much love stranger lt lt lt lt _,0 +laptop screen repaired feels good knew scared done cause year old cost lot,0 +identified travel another countryjust theoretically travel one eu country another die reason without documents chances identified going eu wide dna match see another way mean everyone donated blood done blood tests maybe huge database store info although private,1 +bro fml thats it im upset,0 +carlos mencia excellent hour special working hard show everybody real deal know 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continue like short may help former later think financial support might thing pull situation yes understand rent always chip change asking give entire amount like even small amounts mean yes stupid hey think if also sorry somehow insulted someone manner note charity work months back went remote area taught student while say probably best weeks life didnt even cut suicidal taught kept pretty happy fulfilled like solid month support doesnt financial always guys ideas list down people could really use help here,1 +african pastor heading church sunday morning hes walking jungle hears growling turns around sees lion starts running running gives gets knees starts praying god please dont let lion eat me pastor stops praying hear lion anymore turns around sees lion knees praying pastor says hey lion didnt know prayed lion says im saying grace,0 +preparing redflagive bought long belt hang decided next week im going try isolate sever ties friends family order less painful them reality is friends said theyd sad died doubt theyd even notice isolate stop seeing even notice theyd probably happy deal depressed ass say theyd sad reality thats itll death one theyd gef quite quick unfortunately know itd devastate family isnt much that yeah though id share need get chest thanks,1 +hate myselfim sure anymore ive gotten sick living ive actually started zoning forgetting goes on know im miserable know details hate family mostly immediate mom dad amp brother tell parents put me brother hates me guess sucks people think kind forced like dont understand why theres husbands family feel constantly judge them even though theyre better hate them hate too guess theyve learned put husbands sake theres me person hate all im bitch aware yet seem unable control it hurt husband daily sometimes notice days suffers silence weve intimate handful times since daughter born months ago like were older couple amp cant touched held theres cuddling hate kissing days thought sex draining hate myself want anymore hate life routine even days get new surroundings cant remember details miss husband hes gone want gone hes here im horrible human being know killed off cry daily think dying daily hope win lottery hope murdered walking street im depressed hate myself,1 +cant face family againi flunked college second time cant see recovering this everyone high school already graduated finding jobs cant even pass first year family doubt kick house this im looking methods cant help feel extremely sad leaving little brother behind loves love him ,1 +im male live partner years month old baby boy loved cherished child early relationship couple events looking back treated red flags basically partner reacted volcanically fairly normal behaviour part messaging female friend actually wife one old mates trying arrange meet friends home beers i live couple cities away home town wrote stuff isolated incidents eventially bought place together decided start family wed always dreamt of pregnancy kind beautiful bubble love anticipation and still am elated arrival little boy,1 +im doneill wait month things get better ill try even harder time ill overdose insuline im tired life give,1 +osu players subscribe friend hes pretty decent think idk dont play osu jist want help https wwwyoutubecomchannelucpcohigfogrpsscwjhmva,0 +plan beginnings one anyway loose ends tie like finances etc ive established im going itheres plan go woodies buy rope either hemp rope manila cant stretchy needs take upto lbs pressure around feet long mm diameter ask store need it ill say im making play area cat dont even cat rope time find tree pick woods going woods dont want family find me someone outside family get quicker im pulled back thinking family care im sure do im tired shitty person theyre better without me definitely dont want finding me ill go fair distance away need make sure wont people around okay drop hang way say drop hang quicker guaranteed work dont want head come whoever finds would surely traumatised see that dont want that wish could get fucking world without mess people along way thats thing mess everyone up married nicest wonderful person hes valium cope married me daughter say couldnt protect her ive let many ways daughter im shit worst took everything mother treated badly younger im also shitty sister shitty friend shitty worker ill one less shitty person world im gone end it cant keep going around circles skipping around idea it get with longer hang around the thing im good puns prolonging everyone elses misery plan now know need do ive learned hangmans knot ive practicing think physics everything else down gotta pick tree decide leave note not dont know would say sorry,1 +like wow think suicide everyday past year half year chronic suicidal thoughts talking plan aftermath death like others react etcrecently decided wanted end suffering went online bought drug do ask arrived hands easy access takes little even know dead thinking myself wow easy huh dead makes suffering longer existent everything fine now no much hard that permanent solution palm hands take it desire met much power held hand right finally make decision came moment came realize want die want end suffering looking drug hand gives fear redflag worry many different emotions looking makes feel uneasy want best me feel choice take dark route solution feels impulsive bought this must feel like choice now could once realized answer feel like one time conflicting gives comfort knowing access it decide take it prevent enough living really enough enough even working towards something here suffer people tell stay answer still deciding way know thinking suicide plan like walk park presented permanent solution problem palm hand becomes difficult thing ever commit to,1 +girlfriend want anythingshe told want letters voicemails want say good bye me feel like leave something behind people life letters hatred parents letters forgiveness sister friends abandoned needed them girl special though sweetest caring soul ever hope meets someone like her want emphasize know letter would that know thoughts formed one cohesive sentence idk im tired head hurts,1 +wish would go away endive struggled depression years gotten much worse within last couple years feel like im burden upon family friends wake morning wondering even given another day lives taken deserve iti feel like nothing matters im aware sound like teenager going wah wah wah assure case oh add onto note im gonna soon today first day ive sat myself listened music thoughts crept back in why here would matter disappeared would take pain away feeling pain now forthmy brain wants never wake back deal life anymore,1 +pm got home school ive school nearly h haha fun,0 +woke wanting stab stomachthrough through sister sleeps top bunk unawares dad shuffling work curled corner bed hiding covers feasible since blood would stain sheets mattress want take plastic cover getting bad again,1 +ever pmed commented one posts stalk profile daily thought would let know,0 +need thing something sets apart plebeians,0 +fuck meim kinda uncomfortable typing this talking someone shit im going through feel like people going laugh take seriously know assume want attention goes im close anybody all even family infact much hatred me unbelievable cant figure though mother want wanted get abortion sadly didnt one really care about things bad cancer since got everything depressing fucking hurts see hospital everything shitty home im dad give shit kids two abusive sisters fucking cant handle anymore everyday same getting cursed siblings taking thier abuse cant anything it cant even defend myself ive getting involved self harm siblings laughed noticed cuts bruises cant even go outside virus eating good past months ive getting skinny point see bones cant get sleep either ironic im always tired ive begging talk mind lot like unhealthy amount getting point conversations last hours everything getting worse worse fucking hate living like this im thinking killing myself maybe week so sorry rant,1 +ask helpmy mom lost two brothers redflag well born redflag always tough topic conversation family deaths devastated beyond explanation ive struggling chronic depression past three years recently attempted redflag able follow her mom never told brothers way deaths crushed her probably typing this said clue bring struggles parents want talk them parents supporting time would help lot know to know going cry know theyll worry lot im away home college work worry telling them instead never mentioning this make lives rough put stress marriage etc cant count number sacrifices theyve made years im sure many never mentioned every time ive ever talked emotional discussions end getting really emotional im really bad talking sensitive things that think id able get everything across words thinking writing letter making sure im read it know do,1 +remarkably well done underrecognized limited distribution bigstudio feel understands horror genre speeds along clever plot twists never stumbles could college cult classic ever gotten opportunity,0 +realized girl crush years ago flirting me wellfuck guess,0 +hate work hate school want sleep day without disappointing anyonei never able hold job started new position today ive looking forward summer worked hours today cant hang quit im constantly overwhelmed work school graduated now whats point even trying could retire znd done it im tired sleeping hours exhausted want wake,1 +lets take moment appreciate online friend shocking sometimes makes think holy shit beautiful person actually likes wow cant six months felt like years since met you really amazing find people like online make feel happy anyone else can shocking people far way make feel safe family hope anyone friend way across globe cherish friend reading thank much ill always matter what homo tho marry want,0 +got zoom bombed today class somebody joined zoom class apparently different district screamed nword shut bitch ass got muted said bitch really tried mute hilarious lmao lasted like seconds tho quickly got kicked zoom bomb principal called it anyways it,0 +im planning kill myselfi need plans tentative date figure things become even unbearable always early reason wanted live time date comes it ive already written one letter angry one writing felt cathartic good want recipient read in fact want everyone read it im interested response plans right couple more one detailing want stuff dog go to one actual redflag note explaining im choice one could prevented it sometimes get anxious fact letters written get mood either fuck it ill dead anyway care everything properly oh god cant right wherewithal finish want finish go never feel ready continue suffer indefinitely want get rid anxiety writing letters energy motivation them im sure ill really emotional whole thing sounds exhausting know expect posting here im looking for maybe want validation maybe want argue side maybe doubt strong maybe desire proven wrong someone point something genuinely considered would make life bearable know many places discuss things like this id like talk it context permanently disabled multiple refractory conditions make unable work mostly home bedbound constant pain discomfort miserable obviously suicidal want die time tolerable moments passively would like die instead actively exhausted treatment options worst conditions gotten worse time think redflag reasonable decision given circumstances,1 +keep mind thismost post listen due fact give get facts change positive way,1 +movie lot recommend it paintings music david hewletts naked butt gorgeous plot story redemption forgiveness courage face adversity also interesting touching predictable saying quite lot movie day age but acting mediocre direction confusing script odd often felt like trying parody never figured trying parody of parody well remains movie great potential live to,0 +whats disturbing fact know yhgtwwbu ytstawrcmrnwatvatyrywydhcefyyugfruwyfweyfywruruwhfhiwuhywytydawyrwa,0 +reviewing water every day get boyfriend day day today im reviewing normal water bottle good temperature ok not cold would liked still kinda nice plastic bottle tho polluting earth im taking point that overall think im giving ,0 +well first cry great starti live home financially make sense move yet am generally get along parents great obsessed organization bedroom shove mess closet way eyesore according them room mine looks bad guests come over fine way problem unorganized closet problem pile clothes going put away shoved today come home theyre gone fucking threw away theyre shocked im mad said every right upset im wrong im living life wrong im never going amount anything yeah cuz fucking closet messy good job im going grad school soon fuck pretty good great new years eve come home bullshit criticizing me ive deeply depressed life even though almost completely control calling worthless incompetent brings back really makes want end know sounds stupid self worth already low care feels like hate existence bothersome would throw fucking clothes away like enjoy seeing upset want exist anymore feels like cant anything right,1 +struggling depression questioning person last couple years recently getting way worse wrote song express anyone wanted hear it know supposed,1 +quit reddit back awhile ago today something pretty crazy happened friend today name andrew im teenager usually go field school get school hang people today hanged best friend field didnt tell parents going field awhile walking together house got walking around neighborhood saying hi another friend got house checked phone see almost notifications parents saying last seen missing person friend need know called told friend safe im local field picked thats pretty much that good writing im writer,0 +fuck them cannot get work done feel redflag finish work know it fuck work fuck system fuck money fuck collapsing country nothing matters fuck deadlines,1 +need know works see next thursday find out date plan,1 +diehard fan anything always feel weird seeing others talk diehard fans sport teams music tv series movies etc thing kinda say im die hard fan youtube gaming even gaming games normally play k rocket league fortnite roblox music tv shows movies ones feel weird music mostly listen hip hop pop music i would normally listen music month straight whole month rappers really listen even know lot didnt even pop smoke like week died ive never listen single album life closest listening one mj thriler listen like songs tv movies watch tv shows netflix like glee strangers things block movies like men black matrix even tho hardly remember anything them dont really watch tv that sports teams im solely basketball fan thats it im fan cavs i became cavs fan finals became basketball fan never watch single nba game watch chris smoove vids weird,0 +think redflag every dayi feel numb cant feel happy past years depressed always feel like simply suffer anyone else see bullied heavily victim blamed childhood my fault getting bullied every time feel like wasting summer matter also worry lot family going summer ends last summer bad nowhere near bad,1 +anyone wanna tradei think concept life really nice fortunate enough theres much see achieve conquer personally would love life thing suicidal people heard yesterday someone like life lives given live years least wish could trade life someone else thats fortunate anyone else,1 +anyone else feel like life overwhelming hate fall mindset try theres gonna someone better you bother feels meaningless matter hard try,0 +repressed memory remembered time irish collegepretty much summer camp friend mine thought would really funny start walking random girls asking theyd go me unsurprisingly nos ewws really killed me repressed memory thought like years wish never remembered,0 +reason continue living already know going end get used notredflag life basically pointless alone going die alone anyways prolong it waste time space stay universe destined die alone failure absolutely pointless,1 +revengehave ever thought redflag taking revenge people ruining life deciet lies unborn killed themthey took futurethey took ten years based complete lies gunpoint deserve it,1 +rule poem exists theres porn it isnt get it,0 +help guys friend turn days want buy first laptop desperately needs one due online college semesters cannot afford one due financial condition decided tutor students math statistics help funds anyone needs math statistics tutoring reasonable rate please dm set schedule asap ,0 +okay finally admit iti lonely hard admit years years struggled women go lots dates laugh good time ask lots questions try relate saying justleave say feel connection whatever excuses come with know found better man someone offers something dont know else do hobbies good job pretty good looking yet lonely read posts reddit men s s saying despite efforts never got better puts much fear hard describe feeling like redflag way last years cant ever get god damn happiness know much longer last getting harder,1 +dramatic suspenseful movie many plots turns story director opens question marks death row presumed crimes committed black people film well directed arne glimcher fine sound james newton howard excellent strong performance sean connery ed harris liked one dont miss true crimes the hurricane wife gave ,0 +right backed got scared many opportunities kill never it everything keeps getting worse worse every year wish gun would shoot myself right right now turn going get gun kill myself one year dead finally wish hung ,1 +virgin ama whore vs want see funny comments chad,0 +need help advise anythinghello fellow redditors hope wonderful day bit background depressed individual who life dealt best can depressed since wee age eight young boy feelings sadness loneliness unfamiliar became bully time realized mean help much middle school found peace books learning continued high school true deppression came fruition scolar high hopes ambitions changed academic dreams shattered moved best could went college dropped out found decent job nonetheless tried luck love multiple times failed right now alone friends support plee paradoxes id like start things cherish life anything go socialize much possible best friend knows depression live mostly care free life sad part never clinically diagnosed depression know damn well suffer it made attempt life multiple times failed attempts damn suck too mostly hide sadness either funny dick suffer insomnia spend nights thinking creative ways end existence going years managed deal going friends messing stuff somehow able get rid feelings many days simply want disappear think affected break down want end life cant live sense know make whole lot sense dont know whats wrong me tend push people away me often ill use awkwardness say things mean like talking feelings often become hostile feel less people know higher chance get hurt know anymore currently wraps honest know anymore im entirely sure ill able stop future attempt myself cant alone anymore tldr depressed several years made attempts life need help stop myself,1 +know posts joke serious first hookup sexual experience girl kinds shit except kissing we neck kissing tho point kinda rubbed one leg like rub one bed nonetheless girl friend dark oblivious nuted felt shame emptiness inside feel like never things like like god create feel like shit im second year highschool year college,0 +film heart pounding acting great erotic music beautiful women add make one winner lead actress decides join escort service realizes husband time her steps whole new world first client another woman film definitely want pass up,0 +join among us konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf konf,0 +anyone wanna play dead daylight wants play,0 +optionsi made hasty promise friend kill felt pressured so do im certain destroy person unfortunately said continuing draw breath im looking way much harm ideally look like caused it possible contract someone elses terminal cancer exactly wish could do,1 +confused want lifei dont know do im deeply sad,1 +realized im stuck im worried im going ruin christmasim separate account girlfriend send posts reddit dont want see worry names ben im sophomore college want teacher havent started major classes fourth switch really think im good kids im scared wont cut man bun im really skinny im sure would hire me im gay im outspoken unique style stuff think people regard intelligent quiet weirdo anyways im also bipolar im family tree id hard time explaining siblings feel stuck cane college whim ive never good anything video games art two programs dont offer college either way im trapped underneath lease utility billl month cant afford it pay november december dont money im scared dont money unable work salvation army work ive reached limit work study hours semesteri cant find another job dont car dont want ask grandparents help wanted self sufficient year half ive recently acclimated credit card debt buying girlfriend siblings gifts came home fall break paid off dollars contacts food reckless spending ive managed accumulate another thats dollars accident still owe bills coming month house dont know do current plan sell stocks eat ramen cant afford buy christmas gifts anyone im worried everyone hate usually go elton great lengths pick great gifts cant cant make anyone happy making dissapointed spent money fuckup cant make class im stressed havent classes since found cant work cant wake alarm im mess please give advice hard want give,1 +family kinda lowkey sucks wont rant much lowkey think mom trying make starve family aloud use technology table eat lowkey gonna eat much anymore,0 +could happeni may attempt redflag near future ive thinking redflag nonstop now would happy succeed i probably due fact im failure deep hope get caught act least someone would know,1 +think death lotand wonder happens afterwards reincarnated different racenationalityreligionsex a new born present time a new born future a new born past an unhealthy newborn rare disease terminal illness genetic disorder eg cerebral palsy syndrome reincarnated animal like insects nd chances to back time specific life changing decisions made wim sleep deprived stoned think to restart life getgo religion christianity right eternal damnationhell islam right hell right equivalent hell nothingness like life never existed would point studying learning pretty hard stuff know im going cool inventor nobel prize winner something change world grandscale remembered history or wikipedia darwins law but pass wicked monstrous genes carries sick thoughts wierd fantasies plus unhealthy lazy way living torturing mind everyday sick demented thoughts self loathing hatred pagan beliefs my soul roam earth specified time supposed die my spirit haunt home family problems life carry afterlife except impossible try solve dead as much regret many things end regretting death itselffor eternity island called lost think my problems carry afterlife forever haunted past mistakes especially killing self consciousness awake time period many cool things going internet memes video games anime tv shows never perfect time born last decades entertained cons sort outweigh pros mind almost months thinking redflag like pretty much everyday killing me world fucked millions people die every fucking day accidents illnesses homicides redflags starvation silly wars piece fucking land oil corporations suck living life little people diseases hate greed child trafficking child abuse strangers families mental illnesses think might die weeks,1 + male college student need help badlyi really know start it always felt fairly depressed past years never done anything thought standard teen depression thing grew depression grew never made friends high school trouble talking people uncomfortable so people understand mean say uncomfortable talking people cannot bring talk people goes beyond social awkwardness something troubles deeply say hello make eyecontact ive ridiculed lack eyecontact peers become suicidal ive begun cutting i want die kind way if press bit harder could over also mention used gpa ive gone school weeks missing midtermshomework etc also scholarship doubt ill able keep now im already ton debt people still coming me still live home even enough offset costs school i lived campus last year apartment bit feel like offing best option point health insurance parents feel comfortable talking anybody person this eventually im sure come im sure way im sure many say go schools counseling center goes back said earlier extreme reluctance talk anybody anything magnified fact want talk situation,1 +depressed person help another depressed person need help last weekend boyfriend lsd pappers od hysterical collapse became something else broke hole appartment took clothes started scream nonsense opened door ran hallway jumped rd floor window thought over fortunately fell nd floor roof suffered bruises hes ok now good possible find complicated situation clinically depressed bipolar attempted redflag before hes unemployed since february unhappy college point say him live alone brasil hope us here were trying move europe everythings hard him since father died strength move on even everything can unable keep long were psychiatric treatment even so enough im ask guys idea one habits adopt get it thank you l,1 +lets stop joking depression ye many people say theyre depressed actually depressed constantly meming joking demeans entire thing makes seem like less issue really,0 +parents always ask us want something say want to hey son want go grandmas tomorrow no im really busy tomor bad going anyway,0 +would like play boobs pls coronavirus made bored take shirt off now,0 +why didnt reach help did didnt care enough point help themtldr people ask someone committed redflag didnt reach help usually saw warning signs brushed nothing even flat ignored them constantly seeing posts quotes asking friend relative significant other etc didnt reach help committing redflag many cases person actually try ask help take weeks get therapist psychiatrist nearly soon enough help even help all emergency rooms psych wards expensive many the psych wards treat patients horribly lot people avoid them even need immediate help people say come help whenever need them usually actually dont care listen much ive made numerous posts facebook family others went school with worked with etc friend list terrible situation typically one responds unless explicitly say thinking seriously redflag stopped years ago one cares last summer feeling lonely depressed asked facebook friends anyone would like friendsin real life received responses except rude woman said dont friends dont like children wish friends mothers record childfree would much prefer childfree friends didnt think people age would already kids do made another post saying falling deep depression again didnt receive comments message responses alot people facebook supposed people meat least thats said people post things saying youre suicidal message theyd rather hear story funeral eulogy whenever messaged one them either dont respond never return message saying ill respond later meant people could ask help me bad reputation hometown formed middle school early high school everyone still holds crap me one lives wants talk me even im crisis get responses people trying pull religious cults people put signs sometimes even explicitly asking help others dont care enough point notice care second find dead why didnt ask help begins reach out gave warning signs everyone else pretended see them,1 + indian looking study germany bachelors itd cool german dmed me id really use advice stuff hi far ive researched biggest thing getting admissionlearning german im really hard time understanding that apply apply apply every university seperately many universities there even started learning german late much time have also within country almost every state different native language national language even though guy knows national language know native makes things little difficult people would straight assume knows language would stagmatised him etc thing worry germany learning germany alone enough know basics like ich bin ein jung du bist eineine dear friend whos gonna dmcomment right rent goes anywhere learned earn euros per month got lot stuff worry like settling first implying first year earn roughly months planning get job study im working like shopkeeper security guard lol even idea student eligible become security guard internet internet expensive kind data consumer am imma need really big plan since imma study outside hostel room wifi option ill probably need internet anywhere am know even top things worried pls halp,0 +well groomed well behaved teen meg tilly must spend night creepy mausoleum initiation high school club problem powerful psychic named raymar buried day quite dead needs life force humans powersbr br obscure horror film offers plenty thrills chills appealing likeable cast superior special effectsbr br my rating br br one dark night rated r violence adult themes,0 +first comment make laugh gets wearing caring award got free one today legitimately dont know it im need something lighten mood first comment make laugh gets award go,0 +want give upi try try try getting better im close giving,1 +bang average teenage girl actually lot different weird youd think depressed ask stuff talk tk,0 +walking outside wandering area looked around saw lights car lights traffic lights building lights parking lot lights beautiful know cried seeing them lights,1 +question tests matter im th grade good grades im worried passing tests end year even though good months away maintain good grades fail tests end year allowed procede th grade,0 +im gonna try make short feel like im gonna commit redflag tomorrowso life shit recent im honestly worse position ever awful job shambles literally wage love cheated year im time low feel like theres point anymore said id keep short wont say much more im gonna jump office unless something happens turns think probably way get through nice get somehow thanks,1 +hey whats ur fav music genre like alt music indie pop midwest emo etc wondering u guys like post songsartists ya want,0 +make title yourselfsince suicidal thoughts scared even cut wrist even though may scared hope alternative way ending it mean mugged stabed somehow still phone would call help would see blessing know long thoughts last everyday get stronger every day wish something worse worse jut wanted get chest cant tell family belong delete it cheers reading,1 +born wrong generation year old listens smells like teen spirit,0 +sneezed said bless automatic think im finally getting used lonely,0 +boys got smash really fun came mine chose byleth chose cloud final score totalled her,0 +think finally found depressions stems years sin envy everything life stem one sin always wanting new life wanting knowledge wanting obtain etc realized it gotten even worse many things want see depressed god damn time cannot get ass it maybe destiny failure full wants even though want die much wish immortal even pain laziness have ever run time see things eventually miss on think found source,1 +wastei always facing depression wishing death upon myself due fact feel like im waste human life older sister supposed twin died mothers stomach feel stole life wasted it fat ugly stupid etc worst part fact dont get bullied yet still depressed,1 +cliff trainwhich one would choose get cliff foot drop train station high speed trains go every morning,1 +every person disappoint idea hadplease positive responses every person love end stop loving back saying liked well listened im constantly fucked around me alone forever least feels like cant trust anyone else care long term family shit life shit want kind words remind loved forever someone im either disgusting asshole useful emotional sponge please positive responses,1 +ima female perhaps choose believe whatever want,0 + years ago lost girlfriendfriend die suicide longer hours since last together really best times really falling despair lately whole lotta shit topping onto childhood social etc somehow manage everyday even make hours work thought mind day pretty hard depressed sad mood really sure do feel lost long days longer nights somehow even surprise shit happened me want back amp idk reason made mistakes losing lately amp cannot godamn thing it smh precious someone us harder accept might die sometimes actually convince cannot die,1 +love making weird noises whenever brother sleeping damn thats peaceful thing ever,0 +im happy today proud say today good day able eat properly problems able watch anime brothers whole afternoon finally earlier pm timezone it currently pm able play among us friends little brother im mostly close guys one best friend years someone consider little brother group call fun playing really miss them may much u guys im proud say fun happy hope ill days like again im really happy today ,0 +need ounceive recognized several signs depression myself suicidal ideation lack interest activities feeling worthless mention brief survey indicating moderate severe major depression andor good possibility bipolar disorder time self harmed accident really enjoy it really want right ounce prevention earlier posthttpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsmryki_sometimes_feel_i_may_be_too_considerate mentioned want burden family financially asking therapy know need professional psych eval least whats best way break parents father often source lack selfworth think looking like pussy front part kind embarassing me lteditgt also want call redflag hotline worry explain walked onlteditgt im sure need serious help though know might raging teenage hormones also post rdepression post alarming reason clear wellformed idea kill myself though lack so also note part puberty wound down,1 +feel tiredive always thought optimist keep moving forward eventually one day switch gets flipped ill happy apathetic ill stop feeling numb go bleaker seems always hear ive made good spot life wise understand people way worse appreciate maybe im bitter something finally apartment small way everything im satisfied im guess im partially embarrassed it ive never friends parent moved in finally get promotion ive wanted since started working company guess thought gonna big change im forced dress im managment now fill endless excel sheets leave desk see agents breaking policy point get suspended fired feel like asshole trained bunch new employees im always helping cant fill excel sheets wanna helpful actually teach stuff nobody cares theyre essentially paycheck mean im passionate call centers ive always though care job sales numbers down agents quittinggetting fired boss harps it essentially mandatory hr weeks constant bombardment stressing out phone constantly going day im work work stuff feel like even im work car cool little hatchback least someone smashed parking lot cant drive worry insurance okay deductible get real sticker shock moment one payment left old thing could start saving money case something happen dollars entire paycheck work ton overtime even dropped much money cant afford pay rent buy food ect started playing video gameswatching movies things gave brief windows away started realizing felt like crutch got disgusted myself ton people age getting married kids ect feel inadequate feel like enough milestones accomplished life everyone says ill get always worry people think worse me im obsessed others thing feel like level peers bad feel like ive gave good deal time life still feels shitty grey im tired motivating idea going get better eventually things change gets worse stays level shitty might well give up acceptable run im working working time effort get car paid off ill stop living paycheck paycheck point ill able flexible things maybe travel maybe stay home make things little nicer build funds feel like im back bottom wanna give up,1 +mean parents trigger suicidal thoughtsive therapy year used safe persons call struggling six months later removed dad im considering removing mom list sticking friends family really trust im grateful ive learning manage depression recent relationship parents getting rocky starting bring lot old behaviors remember showing kid didnt give sense privacy would look diary outed teen want come yet get angry little things last night little brother trouble falling asleep stressed crying put top bunk calm mom found put full blame ruining months worth progress dont believe anything tell anymore make really hurtful comments view character body thats triggers most havent thoughts redflag months twice week havent even wanted talk stuff like therapist im scared theyll somehow find call crazy tell im making stories up im still debating ever real figment overactive imagination know hurts heart bc force remember im im worthless make feel,1 +one traumatising days whileso yeah ate battery dumbass move fizz told mum went aampe yet dumbass absconded sat field hour sobbing eyes police came got took back hospital spent hours majors department trying determine whether needed surgery not almost got sent hospital hours away specialist surgery ended needing yet hopefully all got spend least hrs ward im medically fit go back mental hospital im stupid thinking through left note inpatient shit feel stupid using viable enough method,1 +girl wide masculinelooking jawline wear hair something quite know do supposedly eyes lips femininelooking jawline wide masculinelooking although even posted vid hair asshole still said weird head shape bc reddit would makeup help idk,0 +old teenagers im want know leave,0 +im want im worn outim emotionally broken lack real connection anyone ive complex upbringing suffered lot depressed yrs able work meet anyone pursue anything live hermits life suffering even though me wish dream sense is ive learned spirituality understand truth mind im stuck state thought family ripped apart death breaks heart dont know im ramlbing on im crying feels pathetic mind stuck broken state,1 +probably watched movie times every time get impressed far wish young heart go strenght kai gertha struggle believe inbr br and whole story presented way get transfered plot know it there see yeah theres kai working hard mirror little jump theres gertha fighting love theres snow queenbr br its wonderful mix love adventure tensionbr br its brilliant ,0 +thank god ditched girl dumbfuck wears mask public always knew brain missing,0 +anyone else interested joining military trying find friends call duty army man bleh,0 +miss mitskis songs havent listened songs like minutes wonder theyre,0 +literally waiting die im assuming like people here know start please excuse throwaway seems popular please do also already see therapist please no you get help it already know how thing brings solace ive familiar death since young age would really rather acceptforce alternative obviously im hurtdepressedanxious managing years think manage anymore problem brother died years ago cant put family again although im actively trying kill myself im becoming reckless daily actions decisions hopes accidentally die know pretty much it im pretty super keeping happygolucky faade want family thinking anything different four years later still blame brothers clearly accidental overdose im essentially waiting immediate family die also know written well deleted need posting rredflagwatch,1 +long story please read comment feeling extremely suicidal late degree dream possible ways end it typically dream old apartment building jumping pool deck top floor lost lot things life struggled lot strength anymore back story follows born loving family terrific father loving mother older siblings twin brother well father found mother alcoholic would drink incessantly get way older brothers drug problem started getting worse well father begged mother stop time time again decided enough dad left mum turning occasional drinking incessant drinking twin live alcoholic mother lives drinking never stopped years father leaves older brother dies drug overdose makes already bad drinking horrible habit starting early morning smashed know mum way th grade entered middle school fat loser friends trying care mum always told sick well entered made fun time ears bit large head time i since grown them bullied school came home bullied mother lucky would dinner typically breakfast money lunch could bread breakfast years passed drinking became worse th th grade attempted redflag times really sure actually end it attempt failed obviously time angered mum never got help quack never diagnosed depression knew depressed never anything urge kill myself sophomore year met girl thought loved relationship great first sex time worries later never real relationship thought worked sex day every day year older me left college things became bit rocky stable enough deal time shit went downhill broke times eventually went break around halloween time break met girl dreams friends birthday party whose birthday rests halloween met absolutely blown away unbelievably beautiful was began talking interests bands way thinking type humor blast night flirted cuddled almost kissed realized would probably poor taste ysee ex one said take break never actually broke up me said distant bit broken up felt really guilty everything done amazing girl call jill confess jill thinking scared pathetic so broke ties her well found ex fucking lot guys telling jill pissed even feelings girls eventually bitch ex break within two weeks jill start dating jill blew mind every single day fantastic was funny witty extremely smart exceptionally beautiful woke every day realized something worth living now happy time within month told love her said loves too amazing person ever met life headoverheels her every day fantastic existed life every day great despite problems life problems escape me well month ago dumped want tied time shitty thing going propose short months exact know corny going surprise college find her class wherever kneel straight propose girl dreams soulmate will well left realized bad problems really much worse things getting put backburner debt school mounting ever higher know take care it college fund drained almost entirely failed two courses past quarter jill dumped terribly sick month well wait another months take again know do mother kicking bitter mood even though say thing her also let know loser done nothing life fucked job had dad breaking back help pay school commute hours schools cant get job one area take someone cant even guarantee weekends drinking drugs everything happened life family obviously problem addictions aunt drug addict grandma too another aunt also drug addict problem this spent much life denial deck stacked me go school hate major despise college let transfer credits money start fresh somewhere else mother slipped back old demonishing state lets know everyday wrong let stand myself ex jill extremely happy broken up guys constantly flirting page facebook constantly trying hang her none friends even give enough damn call ask hang out strong whole life dealing mother take care sacrificing personal life make sure fall stairs drunken stupor get killed strong twin got car accident almost killed him strong twin decided start drinking like mum does mum clean now still abuses fuck me cant strong anymore jill tells loves me wants get back together someday sees soulmate think get better sad me know anymore even remember else put many problems life please need advice dream killing every single night day every day cant help imagine much better life would without alive daydream jill happy everyone else caring anymore get support friends dad tells cant dwell things brother would never understand person understand female friend lives canada literally edge right now close ending calling quits please need advice tldr life sucks mother abusive alcoholic feed days time father never mother let him brother took drinking one older brothers died drug overdose aspirations plan future future saw walked want tied right now verge killing need advice otherwise go it,1 +want continue living know aint rightive always depressed ever since around so born condition thats known thalassemia since felt different feelings feel detached parents siblings everyone everyone treats looks pity feel like void now everyday pain contact parents like would give money unquestioned thats want want ignored want get better thats happening right now im gonna soon thoughts killing me cant continue im still figuring kick bucket cant figure better tried exercising think everything matter do cant seem find happiness im looking for im afraid im going something ill regret soon enough,1 +im feeling like shit finally need get out idk say really life consists daily errands whatever do im constantly fantasizing ways could possibly myself im much pussy really follow through know ever got hold gun really hesitate haha great segway though anyone know easy ways get gun uk,1 +awkward moment earlier introduced moms coworkers son whos twenties shook hand face immediately flushed cute dont know behave around people stayed car,0 +postm personality tapestry hypocrisy contradiction hopeless peoplepleaser heart ill damned go completely way make someone happy typically put minimum amount effort possible enough could said actually something made person happy put facade niceness despite bitter cynical even hateful times cower face conflict even around involve enough make anxious upset simultaneously selfloathing selfish narcissist addicted tearing unable bear thought others even disliking issue me deeply value honesty loyalty decade ive lied frequently parents many things including mental state employment status spending drug alcohol habits theyve told several times find difficult trust me cant blame them value thoroughness strong work ethic coworkers though find cut corners bend rules favor find forms work soulcrushing reason work hard shame disappointing bosses resented coworkers ask money family trumps agony working irresponsible money make pissing away alcohol junk food video games prostitutes futile attempt shove anything void hopes feeling less hollow moments else im diehard perfectionist yet lazy stubborn person be wonderful combination results someone cant assed anything forced upon him rarely follows things start finally almost never satisfied rare occasion finish something ive gotten good making excuses procrastination weaseling way commitments ive lost ability connect anyone make friends honestly think constellation traits particularly special typical shithead millenial raised mostly anxious mentally ill single mother ssi budget never learned work hard anything value things had parents divorced years old messy ordeal suffered clinical depression severe social anxiety since bipolar diagnosis following first manic episode nearmental breakdown away college prescribed lithium zoloft five years three failed attempts college many many types medication later refuse take meds im completely disillusioned pharmeceutical industry industry thrives curing keeping people bit less miserable with bonus side effects need pills for years depression pothead drinking heavily fucked brain enough is parents last two ropes mooring earth even friends ive managed keep thus far feel able move passing easier certainly isnt never be girlfriend hold back learned hard way im ugly insideandout considered relationship ive plan years now never felt close last acting upon it need one last push overcome nemeses cowardice shame beyond frustrating go want painful see poetic absolution mindless hedonism,1 +beauty subjective well know im definitely subjective either,0 +dark memories never fadei feel like im end road last week lot secrets told anyone really dark secret ive told two people ill start saying told best friend brother at separate times raped one brothers friends best friends response kind tell brother dont need therapy seem okay brothers response shouldnt let define person kept asking questions made feel like thought lying also told get therapy thing traumatic happened hardcore meth binge time cant even remember first time it remember staying hours time crawling ground flashlights looking leftover crystals smoke stealing neighbors friends fuel addiction im thankful able stop month way stopped exactly pleasant main person used tweak friend month hardcore meth binging wanted move parents start selling house told cant dont want family involved weekend came house strange dude gun asked are parents awake told asked do gun responded gun final response sprinting room full speed ransacking house well better wake do ill kill them kill parents later arrested served months thanks california reasons pushed point fact parents want born brother sister supposed done kids mother got pregnant me basically meant received little attention parents father worked night shift slept day ive never really conversation speaks primarily spanish hardly speak english never learned spanish never around him parents good people got ton debt siblings born born meant withdrew retirement funds put sister college bought car totaled car bought new one also totaled one helped buy another one bought brother two cars helped co sign last car bought years ago time parents offered help tried getting help buy car names would let drive it live anymore still send money monthly help expenses since old father retired mom got fired job paid well settled job qualified for masters degree business management gets paid dollars hour every time tell shes better shrugs tells thats job wants retire from dont resent towards parents resent towards even born first place everytime look mirror see disgusting human deserves worst life take clothes amplified disgusting body hair main subject many people grossed insulting me fucking tired everything two days ago basically ragequit whole friend circle keep fucking ditching me told bothers ditch basically laughed off point continuing im im grunt job hardly graduated high school theres basically chance getting college teeth completely fucked spent two thousand dollars dont getting root canals pain nothing compared feel inside cant type anymore im crying point,1 +considering redflagi feel like reason live keep bottled friends family hell throwaway account wont impact regular one feel like blow brains out make difference ill die anyways would change pressure goddamn work seriously making think im extremely depressed writing quickly one sees im going bed writing this somtimes hope dont wake up,1 +wonderland spoilers br br july st five people ron launius josh lucas susan launius christina applegate billy deverell tim blake nelson barbara richardson natasha gregson wagner joy miller janeane garofalo attacked theyre asleep brutally hit head steel pipes home wonderland avenue laurel canyon la susan survivesbr br main suspect john holmes val kilmer former king porn owner cm long dick hopeless addictbr br two investigators luis frankie g sam nico ted levine investigating case try crack help witness claims know john least took part murders david lind dylan mcdermott barbaras boyfriend trying get witness report dawn schiller kate bosworth holmes yearold girlfriend susan sadly remember anything shadows night husbands head bashed almost suffered fate name eddie nash eric bogosian major drug kingpin who always around ladies barbie paris hilton comes light suspect planner wonderland massacrebr br but happen night could sharon lisa kudrow johns wife know something it wonderland taught intense thriller desperate love story story mans sad decline one clever use rashomon technique we see events fateful day night eyes david john dawn susan albeit briefly sharon nice direction great script mostly compelling performances especially kilmers takes central stage hopeless tormented sometimes childish holmes lucas whose launius strangely alluring kudrows strong sharon bosworths innocent dawnbr br wonderland ,0 +shaken upthis bit train wreck town epicenter earthquake homes destroyed gas fires floods earthquake people lost power water food movie theater destroyed still dealing aftershocks everyone edge family lucky ones house still standing got power back day lost it much changed little time ive living daze since july th disappeared news nobody town forgotten let go happened choice bubble anxiety control whats happening started one biggest lows ive ever had everythings become alien feels like fever dream dont think im low anymore like im all used advertising jokes everybody moved on still upset for happened getting it cant find way hook back real world im bout getting upset littlest things stress anger went down plans pull hole dug myself exit disappeared entirely theres nowhere run escape im still questioning days still going by im still stuck july th wake up dont even know want wake all want dream end want disappear completely,1 +im gonna find nice bridge jump ofi finally leave world,1 +dont know wth wrong memy life isnt even bad compared fucking abused ppl im fucking pussy stupid make big filing deal im grounded cut feel act like im suicidal idk really maybe im fucking stupid really going kms someday idk cut time made fake personality surrounding mental health dont even know really depressed im forcing wanna kms every fucking day im pussy ik,1 +hey girl fire alarm everytime see get urge disturb classtime putting fingers,0 +omg changed changed reddit app logo red,0 +feel like shitim anxious tomoro presentation day sisters hospital nasty dead scared cant even sleep pls chant me pls pray pls wish well,1 +mercury poisoningmy dad works lab took bottle mercury it sure kind kill you im desperate point probably much coward kill way right im sitting bedroom listening birds chirping outside think itll taste ready gag it throw up im second thoughts maybe im much coward even this guess ill edit post things go according plan,1 +want end even weak thatmy ex digging heart out dont know am went parents house alone know wouldnt right i several guns everyday contemplate one effective,1 +last words me mom called lazy fat piece shit face dad got car crash week died grandpa announced cancer month cant take it things dont look soon im ending all,0 +swear real lyric meme songs get memed english poetic song pompeii people suffering meme songs get memed spanish likes whats kinky nasty likes sex exesively,0 +aparntly making tea manly aunts uncles came grandmas house making tea aunt s already making wanted made cup uncle gave look sat next told make tea lady like tha fuck thats sexist wrong hate,0 +ew making post like makes feel sickim coming back hopefully one last time reorganize plans give little ultimatum see theres place here job carrier wack give shit dreams goals none care family average bad important friendships really big deal care care care matter do want keep dignity struggle live struggling better dead thats really living im going waste time trying fix things better really care main idealistic goal would stay absolute isolation eternity away everything everyone else erasing bad memories life able whatever want terms interests games stuff watch suff cook plants care for books exerciseimagine little paradisemansion could whatever want truth im detached reality like it like world things ive gone many times already even feel bad anymore ive realized many things mostly peace gonna go uni year guess felt got approved nothing ok thought get actually checking grades see stood nothing aw chose subject go for care chose agronomy mostcompatible me actually thing thought im gonna see plants guess cool care career dream job whatever dont year first sexual experience grindr hookup guess realized im kind person sleep around enjoy themselves mad that im happy realized longer obsessed sex also reflected realized reeaally enjoy human men much enjoy furry porn real people boring kinda suck true path would relationshipbut probably not since care enough relationship kinda least care life certain degree ground reality whatever im also gonna drwaing course year really care it signed something mild curiosity even like drawing tried learn realized really want put work although like art imagination rich many concepts characters little fantasy worldi really want draw whole you never stop learning thing makes hurl translates oh start bad still draw interested even tho itll look bad even years itll still look bad you wow pathetic one admired artists draws porn literally said get quality porn imagine someone anyone could possibly enjoy drawing process admire determination imagine horny invest time effort making good porn so overall care im fit reality like it like environment countryhot garbage id rather born fucking nigeria die aids newborn family history like it want bother try therapy fix myself even though broken damaged believe therapy really want try getting brainwashed womanman late s whos listening theyve paid so mention annoyance would asking family put therapy yeah im mood open everyone say give shit plan offing eventually thatd annoying really really really care keeps going daytoday mindset little goals stablish always involve entertainment sources creative work whim games books anime series gardening cooking random shit like making clay sculpture learning make winecider myself stealthly fun little occult artistic moment looking goetic rituals making summoning circles summon spirits haha didnt work out still huge circle tho pretty also collect incense plan buying occult shit now bought little dragon statuette hes cute also tarot deck pretty cards guess im charlatantype real magician thats ok like writing little story imagination gave tho realized really make whole thing got bored writing boring fit fully express imagination stories orwhatever random stuff end care entertainment satisfaction obeying whims random desires things really care anything anyone else im going try struggle better life better me decades eventually die either way dont want go adult life mean ill forced annoying job take time away ill live boring days away annoyed things like taxes robberies scams whatever meanwhile family annoying like always itll get worse worse die whatever ill eventually die heart attack stroke cancer like everyone suffer horribly till im gone rot away nothingness wow load bs ampxb solution that ill continue days following perfect daytoday philosophy keep calm stable angry things get upset easily think suppose maybe whatever goals stablished dayweek ill uni guess want see like agronomy thing andi really choice it gonna bother getting job even though feel liiiiiiiiiiitttle bad still living parents brasil us like theyre mad gonna kick something stay im uni im really gonna bother job regardless want eventually kill anyways need care that ill make money buying weed selling brownies something know get cheap weed guy worry im done using weed myself make easy cash thats sure anyway yeah ill live philosophy uni drawing course months one meanwhile ill list things actually list already existant tobereleased games well seriesmoviesetc consume entertainment play watch follow interests entertainment sources whatever feel like doing eventually ill run things do hopefully probably uni ends ill end uni times high telephone tower close old school feels weird say old since last year still ni easy place get ever gate easily climbed theres nothing impeding someone climbing tower ill gather courage hopefully dont chicken out really must otherwise ill get fucked climb one day jump really different dying stroke heart attack cancer whatever painful less sufferingduration actually get decide die random unhappy surprise like boom stroke doesnt matter healthy still got bad luck really bad luck too used feel like god get true god doenst really give shit bad luck brain damage hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahhaha anyway yeah thats idea want go terms keep dignity matter stick something right one likes quitter certainly not things disdain pathetic people struggling fail give cry it get also annoy me seems theyre really shit like if fall get back up mentality fucking overused really hate interpretation life a series falls supposed true definition life id rather shot right fucking disgusting pathetic view guess alright mess sometimes live constantly failing miserably thats pathetic get grip buddy something wrong fall get once alright fall many times look buddy covered mud yeah get up get go home wash yourself stay there weird metaphor right im trying say really feel like ruining mental stability conquered experience mindset trying fix myself imagine fucking work do end one help me people cant help others end comes yourself want help yourself dont im already helping plan got bored writnig this stop around here hope get replies even doesnt really matter anyone says say much support really care much people posts internet were dettached like attention ampxb ampxb,1 +diary day high keep diary days basically bought weed got really high tired busy keep diary days also got math work vibed lot today went ice skating hours also played ice hockey da boys ive got pneumonia bc c outside ik carebut feels right also smth makes happier good luck guys,0 +aaaaaa presentation minutes im nervous af someone please tell gonna alright need calm,0 +i hate things past dont know stop hating it damage already done want kill dont want hurt people care about do,1 +wish reddit would delete replies title something delete dont even feel like explaining,0 +im lonelyi need friend,1 +ive wanted die past yearsive reached point wake go sleep dreaming im strong enough kill myself im years old ive never wanted alive friends know im wrong try happy enjoyable around im obviously awkward idea fix this want enjoy life right worth continuing ive told gets better ive felt way decade cant wait longer get better something now either need make improvements fucking end it ive tried antidepressants need know kind person people actually like anyone advice would really appreciate it edit feel anything fear pain anymore smile feel like im lying,1 +wereare prefect school fuck yall worsttttt types people istg,0 +petition change like jazz like jizz say yay nay,0 +nonut journal day foolish mortals wasting energy mind capacity called fapping acknowledge selfstimulation free month starting too month november ends nonmasturbation score reached almost months saved much physical strenght mind power able bend spoons mind knows able month later certainly see again mortals,0 +im actually done existing know im going get countless comments telling im fucking done existing im useless take money food water cant feel anything anymore failure cant stand living,0 +anyone want talk dms get would me do sure go it,0 +day scottish inventor william kl dickson surprised boss thomas alva edison remarkable work development motion pictures many experiments dickson able capture scenes real life camera reproduce invention kinetoscope fragment time preserved celluloid soon dicksons kinetoscope would become enormous success new way entertainment many people eager pay nickel charged able watch people dancing acrobats performing stunts peepshow kinetoscope however invention complete order capture film real life know it sound needed movies dickson kept experimenting short experiment kinetophones first film resultbr br in experiment codenamed simply dickson experimental sound film director william kl dickson stands front recording cone wax cylinder earliest method recording sound violin hands playing song named song cabin boy idea record song cylinder time camera recording movements order show motion picture two edisons black maria laboratory decided little dance front camera unlike author vito russo claimed book the celluloid closet little dance nothing homosexuality obviously reference environment loneliness lab akin lonely sailors song cabin boy dedicated the title russo suggests the gay brothers actually anachronistic gay homosexual connotation late sbr br sadly dickson unable achieve desired effect kinetophone never could really produce synchronized audio images cylinder sound celluloid images synchronization two elements exactly effective sudden appearance auguste louis lumires cinmatographe prompted edisons team focus projecting systems eventually dickson left company fortunately dicksons cylinder movies sound rebuilt film editor walter murch made restoration experiment intended finally dickson experimental sound film could heard synchronized sound creative inventor intended successful attempt outstanding film testament enormous genius father kinetoscope ,0 +im really bad placebit backstory im struggling depression since around shit hard recently ive reached gotten help saw psych got meds ive hitting really bad lows lately massive mood swings angry outbursts worse ever psych says likely bipolar disorder family pretty long history it im hitting time lows here yesterday stepped shower pretty much collapsed crying ive getting massive urges cut really scares me family friends have id end right fucking now im tired hurting want pain stop thought hurting making feel way utterly destroys me one deserves feel way want cant get without putting pain onto everyone else know fuck im gonna do im even writing this ive lost interest pretty much everything either lay bed wanting die sit whatever fuck keep attention seconds much things help cope weed alcohol thats digging even deeper hole really want fall into thats vent guess know wrote it whatever im taking ambien passing fuck out really wish could die sleep im lucky good night reddit hope well cause sure hell arent,1 +benefits lack sleep muscle degeneration lack energy being able fall sleep eating lunch eyes fully open being able fall sleep eyes open swing head receiving lots unwanted sleep shock lives permanent damage brain far many shock sleep hours day would lead brain death and eventually whilr later death cuz brain death far degeneration left mix time when night falls head get filled matter much put inside pit despair find beauty death suffer time sleep getting shorter acid inside mouth increases imagine sleep ing hour days want sleep fail try mind blinks subconshes got used idea sleep shock go sleep wake go so thats where understand mean know sleeping hour days death actual solution solution condition,1 +killing hardhanging takes minutes might leave brain dead fail seems like shooting thing works dont want family friends see face blown in im already selfish leaving might well scar them ive stuck delima awhile leaning towards shooting maybe shot heart work,1 +dragonlord sees chan returning role dragon the young master much carried first film though tiger older brother nowhere seen neither marshall daughter son played superbly yuen biao original film dragon master though presumably students moved things dragons laziness training portrayed heavily film maybe hes still studying br br originally titled young master love film sees dragon for first sixty minutes least pursuing villager girl various idiotic slapstick ways rival affection friend inappropriately named cowboy played comically longtime chan stuntteam member mars see various scenes silly schemes backfire one scenes thankfully find dragon headbr br this film notorious failed expectations box office said im sure expectations pretty high feel film never fair judgment based merits even try this still feel problem film seems quite unfocused sometimes rushed think action sporadic brilliant chans work periodbr br the thing really saves film ending sequence the young master fantastic final reel full incredibly exhausting action really feel every blow again chan goes rival the young master is character timing energy brilliant chans style using every last bit environment help defeat opponent relying pure physical ability apparent anywhere else barn fight full clever little prop gags improvisations absolute highlight film one chans incredible careerbr br its necessary see prequel seeing dragonlord fact might even raise questions hopes answer must said original film superior film dragonlord focus girlchasing teamsports seem baffling luckily fight scenes offers plus fantastic shuttlecock scene push line mustsee film genre,0 +im desperate meaningful connections every time start get know someone hopes skyrocket get crushedtired making new acquaintances never ever contact me tired becoming friends women thinking might giving signals find theyre not im going kill myself cant keep torturing like this,1 +need talk pleasehi talk someone,1 +failling subject simplify somewhat like mini thesis fail sem continue project next sem facing supervisor really got depression next pls advice buddy considering restarting project different supervisor different topic scare talk current supervisor thing cost lot eat lot food coping mechanism gain weights drags depression little self harm like punching self fronthead swallowing hair vitamin scared talk supervisor tomorrow final progress presentation dead end cannot finish project sem want continue next sem college mental health,1 +bodyi lost kg still cant like body still comfortable skin want starve ribs show arms thin stomach flat want thin ill binge keep getting bigger want small captures attention people makes worried,1 +embarrassing ask this want know sometimes feel like suffering depression know sure know depression,1 +price even higher told said thats discount im college student apart tuition food things fund thought paying much id least get moneys worth therapy telling redflag family tell probably ocd redflag disorder seem hear rates therapies would take year dynamic therapy preferably times week session able commit want continue second session continued spending nearly minutes saying options seeing psychiatrist taking pills going cbt treat only symptoms seeing dynamic therapist like sessions would take year least see results whats more second clock ticks minutes says nice day sort kicks out im supposed believe person talking money time pay money talk greatest fears gonna help me,1 +test want httpsopenspotifycomsocialsessionpiempflkpwnyurionyuoiyvnmutileclytfgtysfehkvugwcigceovcxaxldvlyjlwakyyhpplbrilvtvzpqoolutxfqxasitbdwctlirpkctpmusyoq want,0 +fantasies killing myselfi depression years never suicidal although thought redflag knew could never it met awesome guy make short broke year relationship it second final breakup anyway thought coping whole situation quite well realized im thinking killing first time life thinking planning it buying gun shooting myself therapy much im depressed im miserable thing help talking guy thought asking something stupid like hey want save life talk like minutes please fantasizing sending text waiting hour shooting ignores i really try contact broke up stalk something like that ps please tell go life something like that fucking waited year feel better working going friends tried guys therapist end day still find single happy thought put sleep going life whatever means option me,1 +sharing comfort song comfort songhttpsyoutubesqzqluc ive really bad day song makes tiniest bit better miss parents much today one days miss usual hope u guys like song too comment comfort songs u want,0 +belgian myself take interest history congo colony many years rwanda belgian protectorate colony part countrys history nowadays seems popular say belgians congo wrong especially th century im saying bad things happen course did back abnormal really think french brits much nicer colonies no werent normal time king leopold ii use congo way gain personal wealth private property it belong state then tried make it course gruesome things like hands chopped happened yes todays standards thats inadmissible days common practice said happen anymore last decades know several people lived worked congo many years declaration congolese independence true several black servants nice people really cant imagine ever treated bad far know always treated lot respect however im saying belgians did fact old almost years old now would love return congobr br the good thing movie gives historically accurate vision happened last years belgian governance first years congolese independence story black white perhaps best words context else explain mean feared would be say belgians wrong congolese good shows perfectly congolese rush getting independent belgians mind accept help russians well americans eye raw materials like copper diamonds bauxite rubber getting congolese political camp interested independence give good idea lumumba became powerful also mobutu played double role shows belgian reaction compatriots violated threatened even murdered my father one paratroopers send congo rescue belgians gives good idea political problems lumumba encountered province katanga want part congolese republic role belgians murder lumumba gets part moviebr br the story seems accurate characters really look act like real ones movie able give good idea life congo late fifties early sixties like seen everybody interested history country also shown history classes especially belgium part history never forgotten give perhaps even ,0 +guys idk right now internet buddyis kill herself please help me met girl internet weve talking month today got onto irc frequent told gonna kill husband got fight called redflag hotline local police anything since phone number address idk guys idk go please help me,1 +trying find psychiatrist going well allhey sw ive suicidal last months posted sw week ago thought finally going it kind people helped get through im ready start taking responsibility situation told family ive trying find psychiatrist going well all ive called something like numbers half say this number longer service go straight answering machine wtf psychiatrists doctors right think trying find new dealer finally got someone phone told dr ____ taking heroin addicts right now dude wat person ive gotten phone told take insurance know do someone actually successfully navigated charlie fox give advice thanks,1 +im dying cause forced speak teams video call thing teacher like say morning mairead went morning mairead im dying,0 +ok drawings would yall buy see theyd low quality would help improve drawing skills make better art,0 +posted alreadyfentanyl uk hookup would appreciated,1 +ate much bread feeling fat immobile lazy girl hours go brrrrrrrr bungholebungholebungholebunghole,0 +anyway rate national anthem httpsyoutubecrfttnktio,0 +cant helpdoes anyone know cowards way out want painless possible anything ventolin overdose im worried id fucking seizure live worse pain please dont try help me barely even want this theres something wrong brain genetically every male bloodline ive met committed redflag guess time too,1 +reached peak evergoing quest self improvement way down everything try life fails every time try improve fall back original situationfor trying make feel better increased social experiences greatly go gym days week eat well get hours sleep every day everything make feel better nothing works lost attachment goals always return low state depression cant make situation work favor things attempt fail really point trying make feel better constant state depression live hard life guaranteed die,1 +spoilers buried mountain medical bills funeral business able dig undertaker vito lucia tony lo bianco came plan make load cash help two crooked pals moon bo richard lynch bill hickman br br vito getting close boyhood friend buddy manucci roy scheider mob informer win buddys trust tell vito whats coming streets new york regard mob activities buddy cop works sub rosa unite nypd seven ups things their way clean streets new york criminals br br vito gets information buddy makes look buddy hes really giving tips mob uses information tip hoodlum associates moon bo rip mobsters weekly take well kidnap top mob loan sharks hold ransombr br everything going well vito co mob decides retaliate mistakenly grabs beats kidnaps member seven ups ansel ken kerchevalwho working undercover thinking one hoods kidnapping ripping off later ansel accidentally killed moon blasted trunk car ansel locked thinking suitcase full cash ransom itbr br fast pace exciting movie gritty grimy photography new york city effective movie the french connection also stars roy scheider tony lo bianco movie too incredible car chase started downtown brooklyn ended wilds new jersey miles away buddy almost ending decapitated heroic efforts br br roy scheider big man tough effective big action actor think like clint eastwood would movie scheider reminds lot of even looks bit like him former welterweight middleweight champion gene fullmer beat great sugar ray robinson middleweight championship back acts like movie tough durable destructive br br tony lo bianco good vito undertaker lowlife heel plays buddy mob point leads buddys partner ansel getting killed even though hes trash cant way help feeling sorry vito since wants money gets ripped offed mobsters pay sick wifes roses hospital medical bills even fact ansel killed due actions vito never wanted anybody get hurt like say play fire end getting burned end vito lot explaining sympathetic caring mobsters br br the movie the seven ups late bill hickman dangerous stunts car chases well act film hickman also stunt man great movies driving roads streets highways new york city san francisco the french connection bullitt,0 +enjoyable minor noir boasts top cast many memorable scenes big distraction complete disregard authentic accents spanish characters film played frenchman boyer belgian francen greek paxinou hungarian lorre top bacall supposed english aristocrat despite absurdities performances good especially paxinou lorre scene boyer paxinou lorre meet talk wildly different accents real hoot guess seeing alone actually speaking spanish anyway seems pretty weird brothers warner find spanish speaking actors los angeles course hollywood often any old accent do policy favorite greta garbo swedish mata hari dutch falls love russian soldier played mexican ramon novarro maybe got novarro confidential agent would great boyers role least francens which would saved greatly dark makeup budget,0 +know penis id like date someone one attached,0 +anyone wanna chat ask stuff im bored idk much filler text need,0 +want die cant draw portraits art class correctwhy like,1 +worstdarkest pickup lines filler,0 +got rickrolled youtube ad chips fml,0 +augh moms making come downstairs im fucking mentally well atm idk ill hide,0 +day posting phrase liquid whales get girlfriend or likely forget post put best face everybody pretend know song everybody come hang lets go bang bang bang bang im way young lie forever im way old try whatever come hang lets go bang bang bang bang todays filler brought ajr song bang,0 +redflag confusion confused intrusive thoughts afraid dementia chronic redflag panic hipochondriac etc redflag confusion,1 + toronto film festival report official takashi miike whackedbr br the annual midnight screening new takashi miike film the big spook war the great yokai war ykai daisens call fanatical ridebr br colin geddes fearless programmer stated film originally geared towards children japan think lord rings neverending story japan screening understand going that damn takashi miike all directed film ichi killer screening festival barf bags handed screening no marketing ploybr br plot summary young boy troubled home life becomes chosen stumbles middle great spirit war meets group friendly spirits become companions journeybr br this really kids well too young certainly see getting scared shitless spirits even friendly ones display unlike anything ive seen movie theater before fantasy naturally funny but dark material bored guarantee that ever hit north america doubtfulbr br my rating b,0 +failedthe last happy moment day took train station way trip shed destroy me tonight failed let noose take me strength back would able it instead keep floating maybe finally succeed one final happy moment,1 +url hello im year old transgender woman trying survive montana places fight gender dysphoria also try stay strong living community many openly hate people like me trying reach goal facial feminization surgery well gender confirmation surgery bottom surgery breast augmentation first two main goals far feel intense pressure get things done soon possible,1 +lost liveevery day dive selfpity hate point find point pleasure living anymore im useless terrible person get easily irritated everything everyone cant sleep night im busy day barely sleep i slept hours week three hours per day less im way behind everyone else college lectures cant find motivation read anything anymore interview therapist week ago said theyd call set schedules start treatment im getting really tired impatient might well abort evertything depression also makes home life fucking horrible feel guilty every time talk family members knowing know depression makes feel disgust towards myself plus past haunting like never esp guilt towards knowing happened childhood knowing memories back even real all im also forgettable people whod miss would little brothers parents even would get sooner later lost friends still talk care anymore suck getting new friends im shy awkward social anxiety romantic life sucks too basically im whiny little asshole cant get shit together deserve live neither wants to even motivation kill despite much want die hope someday get hit car smth die horrible painful death deserve,1 +bad thoughtsi struggled suicidal ideation now got better time im back now started new job january worst jobs times makes feel like im incapable keeping one got part time one dog shelter dogs cats animals make really happy somehow gives feeling safety wont let hang dogs anything dog related lot experience rescue world drive two hours round trip get get paid shit accepted supposed animal care instead paperwork filing stupid things like that could close home getting paid more point job again leave yet another job nothing feel fulfilling everything feels pointless married amazing husband think much hold down dog cat much attached me another dog equation wanted get service dog found unless willing write check take years thought training own husband uncomfortable getting another dog afraid training wont work out day every day think hell here point feel like shit time dont bandwidth one thing makes happy cant financially afford it many times every day thought even here quit this one side dont want to another feel like dont know long ill put energy fight back dont want tell doctor put back psych hospital husband told would step far would break us apart dont know keep gathering energy good wife wish could bed day every day sometimes wish would physically sick enough that many people wish chance go live wish could switch places them,1 +im sure intrigues movie so grainy poorly written bleached out often ridiculous many points mind numbingly dull the person watching fell asleep twice yet something film fascinates me though sure what perhaps character sam enormous former patient lobotimized former head doctor perpetually sucking ice pop marvelously played head doctor i forget namebr br anyway watch form opinion one greatest endings seen film,0 +made drink doesnt taste half bad peach bubly frozen orange juice little bit grenadine maraschino cherries bit triple sec orange alcoholwith parent permission course tastes pretty good,0 +number memes weekend understandable kinda annoying point,0 +failing everythingi essay due monday understand readings spoke prof thinks im fine probably wanted get rid me exams summer going fail understand material im intelligent enough clearly work work work work get nowhere im nearly teenager anymore cant afford make dumb mistakes like this tried everything right going wrong know now feel like dumb idiot child ill go back shitty little hometown live parents let time pass by soon ill position dead pointless life hard make something myself feel like everyone else knows secret life dont people fulfilled lives friends good grades good diets workouts hobbies etc cant one things god ive tried im end road rock bottom see way up death seems like sweet relief id go jump front tube train want traumatise driver know do rant,1 +im swear fuck im going senile lost litre bottle lucozade thats literally less metre face room hardly small enough lose needle in im actually fucking idiot swear god,0 +black wasnt imposter black wasnt imposter ,0 +im thinking ending things keep pressing exacto knife hard wrist like im testing hard go puncture vein dont know ever commit im one impulse away wanna quit pussy also dont reply cus ik people call edgy smth felt like venting feel,0 +im mother still need selfharmi started selfharm still often im suicidal attempted redflag many times experience staying er two weeks od family son family parents left me maybe left them ex husband terrible sometimes feel born suffered never felt happy life always care people think me lots scars body today hurt too like punishment still live im person deserves happy world im already cant stop selfharm know im crazy ,1 +yall fucking awesome take internet hug guys realize awesome rare are tell chances birth million i think maybe billion anyhoo let peoples words get down focus positive shit you mother always says social media whatsoever like yeah failed one saw reddit shed probably get wooden spoon anyways thank reading rant remember rarer fucking mewtwo bye,0 +honestly health anxiety gets bad sometimes honestly feel like giving even trying scared deathsometimes random feel done life like much happened me sometimes day feel like oh complain smile happy can just keep trying stay motivated work hard one day find happiness try believe it try believe ill make this health anxiety goes really awful sometimes im even scared dying accept it sometimes feel like self hatred strong im fucked fixing point sometimes genuinely know whats stopping saying fuck stress fuck tears fuck whole planet everything especially myself ill feel better morning ill continue fighting morning believe ill ever stop oh boy always around like giving feels tempting swear want happiness fucking badly want get rid ptsd ocd whatever fuck else might wrong me idk hope it,1 +second redflag attempt minutes ago tied neck untied know hell stopping mei dreamt redflag first time reason parents wanted wear certain religious clothes even though want i know thats weird reason got many reasons led suicidal thoughts like low exam marks bullies etc im beginning year feeling empty even know reason depressed time im chronically depressed remember reasons often wanted get overdose painkillers got stopped sat cried know stopped nowadays ive feeling empty again still troubles parents religious stuffs decided love learn im member religion would even kill me believe love always tell no one loves much us parents love benefits religion daughter made feel numb even want talk parents cant even talk them know talk them tonight mom came room even say hi could say this room small better leave angrily left said be happy phone feel numb feel something people everything seems cold mom went bedroom grabbed bathrobe belt tied neck wanted tie part ceiling hands started shaking that get guts that body shaking thinking nothing ah stupid forgot even writing redflag letter written redflag letter told im atheist committed redflag would angry instead sad maybe even let corpse buried would feel die nothing me know stopped me im seriously angry myself im years old life continue like this depressed time want this want get rid soon possible cant it ps going say encourage commit redflag inside heart sound saying hope people may give advices chronical depression even mean want kill myself im confused yes want die want die well know do ill go sleep,1 +darling lili fantastic far one favorite films certainly deserve poor reviews received julie andrews playing title role lili smith schmidt best part whole movie entrancing spectacular julie andrews favorite actress singer far definatly surprised stunning is movie justgreat im running adjectives magnificent marvellous amazing funny terribly romantic sad allout thrill thanks dame julie andrewsand husband director blake edwards oh yeah rock hudson ok br br julie andrews beautiful wellloved singer lili smith rock hudson portrays major larabee quickly falls lili him affair coincedental meeting planned german government im sure thats exactly call them get point warm happy singing entertainer lili actually german spy lili told seduce major larabee order get information new top secret opertaion later know crepe suzette though lili solemn mission falls love bill major larabee real making original quest challenging lili pulls completes er task finds something really true bill ending remain unsaid wonderfully layed out anything thoroughly enjoy movie certainly didbr br ,0 +back back finals hours straight ill leaving take less hours well enough get as im going kill myselfive spent hours studying ive never worse semester path taking bs unacceptable way fix things well enough fault failure,1 +ever go shower imagine family dying cry next minutes,0 +know else doim normal good enough live fuck relationships make things worse anger issues self confidence problems fuck live go college even think succeed all want die feels like good thing world whats actual goddamn point living wreck every single relationship have family romantic family better without me romantic partner deserves better probably going dump soon feel like hurting physically like mentally years cant normal relationships anyway im ugly useless shit head stupid stupid stupid posting thinking im even slightly important im not im fucking useless unimportant worthless loser parents regretted anyways fuck life give someone better again im cowardly go it probably get help that actually go it go back thinking mood swings next hour feel much better thats almost lie still feel negatively myself feels like life always fucking mess mess idea normal killing live fucked up is,1 +going kill todayi everything planned note noose pills empty house thinking weeks kinda feels like something im supposed do weird mental state somewhat akin nervous procrastination really feel like im compulsively keeping busy random chores ive already done loads laundry today ill probably try keep mind wandering feel exhausted even though got surprisingly decent sleep every time sit still moment thoughts go drizzle downpour really dont want go on burden hate myself thing holding back family good friend dont want hurt pain intolerable mental agony every day want find peace,1 +going need therapy game sincerely advise play doki doki literature club steam do please dm bond pur lost sanity would like point gay realize geared towards males still carried screwed omg help please,0 +emotional instabilityim nineteen years old constantly thinking killing myself ive always low shit selfesteem extremely selfloathing compare everyone around me know guys tell biggest problem hardly help it many girls suffer eating disorders domination super skinny girls media opposite problem knowing skin bones guys want nice curves im skinny small boobs butt whatsoever mention fucking weird looking vagina makes want vomit try gain weight goes weird places like arms thighs woman supposed accumulate weight sure guys like smaller bodies most guys age would prefer exciting body hobbies real interests ive tried getting drawing reading writing playing keyboard etc always lose desire continue really quickly ive tried several sports random activities never good anything hardly motivation leave house im driving friends away pretty happy im little miss miserable thing ever truly wanted kill myself reason moms mom died mom ten thing mom ever wanted daughter know would feel like failed parent would immediately give life gave up selfish grateful someone cares much feel resentment fact feel forced continue living want to im sure sound like spoiled brat intentionally screwing life really happy really know last time happy feel terrified surrounding world going happen it absolutely idea want life anything ive wanted major college parents told make money consider something else feels like basically telling need work butt next years get job want work life away never happy go want ill spend rest life debt still never happy understand point meh cherry cake mention last sound like real reason negative thoughts reality going since kid last event made worse dating boy last two years broke month ago always felt like league would wind leaving move on much happier eventually meet someone way better suited him last part yet happen know eventually drives nuts think about know get someone better never immediately smitten anyone else sounds bitter want happy feel like knife chest see happier someone else me like death cab cutie lyrics you better me cant better you ive felt awful everything since middle school seemed like one thing could turn around obviously work facing guaranteed struggle many months come hardly feel capable handling top racing thoughts username augustth planning ending everything summer class finishes right move back home perfect death imagined requires state taking class in however dad leaves new job new state next week leaves mom home deal without him think die even remotely soundly knowing that also would second want blame fall ex bad timing around would wish could end it feel like eventually something change know power change problem know even really want change things since said feel doomed unhappiness later life matter do wanted get chest anyone actually reads ill really appreciate it feel free offer advice although honestly know help another possibly biggest problem pick skin cant seem control it scalp causes lose fair amount hair really noticeable yet im afraid eventually got really bad year first year college ridiculously stressful year meh think it feel like fucking freak worth anyones time,1 +size makes wood rise im goin get called pedo even though im younger people here,0 +love myself please tell melet tell everything absolutely despise theres anything makes think hey guy might even slightly redeemable then idk let know guess lol dont really read answer question guess born narcisstic mentallyphysicallysexually abusive hellscape spent years life circuslevel fat whole time obese avoid looking attractive rapists guess im guy btw never friends talked anyone would go entire days without speaking did id startled hear voice like dog farting awake im gods original joke ive never laughing stock whether appearance attitude people around scoff find grotesquely amused attitude feels like rage loneliness despair sit chest like calm ocean probably like pressured container slowly adding until well needs die naturally anyway im horrible im insanely short people im sensitive mbv extremely paranoid attitude again beneath first level rage water theres striking sense fear anxiety core used make even saying here roll call school unbearable literal bright red face seconds attention me weakness probably thing im disgusted with front like im normal person wards assholes now knew easily could destroy me im utterly pathetic desperate need friendsrelationships feel like ive locked inside glass case observed reached people tried friend years shut time ill talk now barely stand people exhausting ive done without people years hell manageable cant go single day without fantasizing sweet death spent years losing pounds it strangers noticed congratulated went along far family even good family members seem care much though didnt reach goal lbs never felt better high lasted well gone now good undo ideal way die procrastination ive never guidance life sometimes people dont get heroes role models stumble around dark find match ive never tried find one never seemed point im nothing everything seems worth working longgone terms actionable time foot mountain im watching people age finish scaling top start climbing now ill die fall maybe lived long enough retire could lol enough time realize killed decades ago social status drifters friends me abusive evil piece shit dad friends me cant matter try actually took figure much loser really was took learn fatally unalterably flawed taken realize sacrificed good years nothing fear really im like cockroach survived nuclear blast mutating hateful skittering fearful little insect theres more god theres more therapist seems think best course let slide suicislide bakeract finally force take medication want someone tell im supposed be people supposed permanently pills im pretty sure darwin said point survival fittest right idea cant survive without troubling idea dependent something life theres nothing physically wrong troubling cant live own i love myself feel like deserve it,1 +reddit void headachesi know say without sounding insensitive unmindful problems people face theyre feeling suicidal really need say someone im suicidal anything wrong life live okay steady job take care myself want live anymore relationship family distant know care job dead end pays well amp know im capable moving wanted im single thats know im overly dependent so im toxic general i want put anyone that im lonely im mistreated im sad ans know why ive annoying headaches going long cant quite remember started seems like ever go away even interfere day day still feel buzz back head driving crazy want say headaches like metaphors thoughts redflag lately head stop pounding cry,1 +tiredim fifteen go school every day im happy person love making friends smile love making teachers smile people told happiness contagious always ask friends theyre throughout day one ever really me go therapy psychiatrist doctor knows history redflag drug abuse yet seems like people go mental health bigger worries theres always someone else worse understand that want scream cry shout them cant see much im suffering someone cant contain well can make risk me frequently self harm im addicted nicotine addicted worse past gone single day years without thinking killing myself ive attempted kill odd times far two times parents understand mean edgy teenager way mean parents walked attempting redflag done nothing brush actions rug she wants attention shes typical teenager nobody understands seriously one understands ive tried talk people ive tried talk friends every time do look differently treat differently ive tried talk social worker understand outside im happy carefree im tired nobody sees bad is im finally dead know everyone going think could done more truth fucking could have im exhausted,1 +anyone wanna start group meeting zoom talk ill post link people interested,0 +everyone around crashing burningim redflag watch im living life partners former partner is write posts subreddit lets call ben lisa ben lisa relationship continued live together broke lisa borderline trauma history struggling abandonment issues led psychosis selfharm attempted redflag apparently assault knife ben ben traumatized months threats hints plans commit redflag drug misuse lisa relationship ben like everyone else want partner current former commit redflag see distressing ben feels deep sense dedication towards close ones stoic man small town values friendships people genuine loving kind gets ben trouble genuine loving borderline lisa borderline gave ben hard time another former partner got arrested refused marry her ben adhd baseline arousal ridiculously high like neurotypicals high anxiety imagine hard must ben go experiences much harder ben gets anxious ben also experiences mental anxiety rushing thoughts things get pretty confusing right now struggling order events chronological order fucked cant tell weeks ago weeks ago yeah ben lisa told panic attacks severe call ambulance time sure lisa understands pressuring ben break selfharm called emotional abuse last time spoke them asking check ben would good ben lisa definitely knows well well sometimes tough see right thing is nonetheless lisa seems going right direction isnt guess things volatile cant guarantee flip whereas ben im sure going mind ben taught discuss feelings hide mental health small towns you ok definitely something work on future reference coming theyve drinks healthy know easy like could talk like elect it conditioned to clam literally unable talk ben aborted mission various ways tried ok ben healthy talk out triggers tacked onto that time develop skill talking out need wait healthy develop comfort speak openly meanwhile ill assume well cuz like see not deal another way ben likes camping biking lowkey ways make better im taking tonight well soothing mindfulness ben talk feelings hope listen wrote i current partner told overreacting didnt also ptsd take seriously bitch told ben likely thick trauma although need process thoughts feelings experiences get clarity right now need time need chill explained making attempts talk lisa whether check safe ben safe make things worse lisa fun prolong abandonment narrative thats prolongs stress unhealthy coping ben could tell lisa out sure real time come back hurt least lisa fall onto unhealthy patterns prolonged daily struggle triggers rolling hardcore one shitty day comes like ripping band aid lisa start healing lisa needs develop stable supports former partner lisa ben better could even friends hang again want to really good ben either anxiety making survey oncoming trouble end driving anxiety ben needs shut bit feel safe blah ben person ive closest since separated spouse spouse living major depressive disorder walking redflag risk want talk shit hobby lock bathroom blow anger super aggressive monologues mirror sometimes directed sometimes me know spouse fault depressed scared shit me spent last years relationship walking bedroom morning wondering would find spouse dead started waking middle night go check him son born given kind intimacy spent nights drinking ruminating playing video games broke spouse dated people ptsd went terrifying spirals together learned control shit date autistic adhd ptsd cant avoided also fucked head abused parents ptsd trauma familiar it gonna pull like magnet cool read sharing familiars working together healing point life would hard normal person would hide much shit like nothing ok anymore even unhealthy hurtful me sad shit live think fine cant even see know healed scars abuse im someone else like me feel myself were woke handle together bond much closer so guess great horrible accept ive abused ill ropewalking forever fall one side therell healing compassion fall other murderredflags like above cool made bed dark side lie it identify borderline dated us too rough is last one ben really got me them learned manage feelings and book go read it go read now httpswwwamazoncamindfulnessborderlinepersonalitydisorderdialecticaldphttpswwwamazoncamindfulnessborderlinepersonalitydisorderdialecticaldp get library read free stop bitching read book mental health know fucked thats reading use simple language keep short best present listen them think possible go like lisa im stranger that although going different flavor it good muster strength grateful abusive people life really ok tough live someone wants die know redflag separate concept death redflag death kill yourself know happens die eventually even years interval big deal compared say long pleistocene idk analogies theres sorts agency involved completely valid opt die matter reason body right type deal yet problem attachment others also valid die poor suckers live trauma decades go particularly want spend feeling crappy put shoes too so yeah guess kill ethical definitely fucking abuse someone want die like im guessing news get relationship treat like coronavirus keep distance know sick want die got relationship work out apparently normal emotions last seconds persistent makes distressed means stoking emotions theres tons books therapy help figure stoke shit gets easier partner wants die heres learned apparently supposed let them holy shit marriage counselor told that mediators told that said one get help unless wanted it stupidly said but depression robs ability want help fuck fuck sure whether said yeah tough idea fucked live every day never loved another person know aaaaall people eventually told left spouse asap didnt consented abused believe checks out weve apart months fucker still alive thriving good him looked resources ben lisa website first clicked said unequivocal terms one decide another person whether live die got wise enough going shit able read future partners get inkling might put position let die it exit exit now also read lot marriage counseling books spouse broke up counterintuitively ideal scenario relationship independent coexistence much making redflag plans too idk thats it hang there ben lisa chill stop talking couple months heal everything ok,1 +best friend tried end thursday night stopped crying sinceshe close dying knew depression bpd bad thought getting ontop it thought improving fact thought way problems breaks heart heart feels like broken tiny pieces feel many awful emotions know do killed herself would joined her,1 +goes well gone sooni tired go on lost thought way out ive lost hope things get better im finally going peace,1 +value life peoplei ever hear people talk sad everyone else feel die like fuck me living suffering right long everyone else gets something nice it,1 +wow im suicidal locked for minutes posting many encouraging messages forumim years old ive trouble working people jobs chemical engineer im living rent free friends lake house hard get bed look forward day done go sleep daughter isnt talking unknown reason son isnt talking least unblocked fb want know happen death scary always want die cant even think reason get mornings think job prospects ruined health problems health insurance husband killed self years ago always sort of redflag pact maybe time fulfill end bargain,1 +im done trying relationship one vital times start career waste energy trying something likely end guess hey look ma made goes friends happy me theyre honeysuckle phonies celebrate medals wanna take trophies even bother something going happen slim chance happen itll probably end im likeable guy means anyway career build boy gonna date me one girl crush bf already fucking bother im gonna listen creep radiohead tread misery,0 +m wanna reconnect old friend f know not school actually temple really good friends time turned got crush started doin everything could accepts havent tell liked yet even opened facebook account instagram account could like talk herafter like months i think actually month courage like tell i told instagram like kinda told waitso also waited like months time started getting like protective towards whenever talks boy get jealous want talk onlyso month asked date told wait talked normal asked told wait again point really got fuck it moment started pressure i really regret this learned lessonwhenever chat would constantly ask dateand like weeks something finally rejected mei course sad iti even asked one last timeand told yesthen moved onwe started talking like normal friends againone day posted somehing story i dont remember posted something like question favourite number actually randomly typed i sleepy time like read properly blocked thati like bruh why time felt like lets forget move on everything got fucked up note happened im actually teen entrepreneur not trying brag like busy business life pointi heard moved new house my house near house thought maybe go house tell soryy time busy thingsso leaved heri didnt wanted disturb her this thing happened today right im mom gave like idk thing i really dk asked didnt like tellshe told give thing momso walked home knocked door thought mother come confident one came point really stuck didnt know speak herand fuckin hurtful thing ever heard life asked who youmy mind like bruh im friend reddit reconnect her like fuckin year since talked wanna reconnect really wanna know mistake did instagram really option blocked meso reddit please,0 +never cheat soulmatetwo years ago cheated girlfriend cuddleing another woman bed sex kisses still okey still decided me cries time still thinking it looks like enough probably leave day love eachother much cant take pain never believed term soulmate met fucked everything life ifwhen leaves dont want live anymore really want easiest painless death get ashamed make even sad redflag feel sad family friends life without her best friend since years old lose forever,1 +feel like postingim alright dont feel control emotions time im hard myself dont want things get bad again felt depressed month two ago posted here major transition happening life ive felt weak im feeling quite happy least crisis dont know im feeling time majorly sad feel body know it im afraid knowing myself want keep track dont consider suicidal right im tired sometimes almost think terrible thoughts one caring bit isolated even though family im maybe good isolation try help people keep check anyone else this thanks reading,1 +reader perfect example short film be poignant story told simply well written dialog beautifully painted images score seamlessly weaves way narrative characters portrayed thoughtfulness gracebr br i saw film festival interesting films ideas screened none shorts elements great filmmaking coming together one film reader did reader commanded attention every festivalgoer room minutes took us emotional lives charactersbr br duncan rogers created beautiful film hope see director shorts perhaps feature length film,0 +give up one helpingits fine people nearly bash door drinking fine s pounds worth stuff may potentially stolen give up cant take anymore know needs stop,1 +usually alan alda plays characters soft overly verbal probably really lives time fits character though overacts verdict deliveredbr br the attica prison riot state new yorks response remembered many us terrifying event journalists told true story film provides quick look horrors excesses associated attica riotrevolt attica major impact country maybe movie stimulate someone research historybr br i cant remember feature movie made perspective prisoners though great pbs piece actual attica survivorsparticipants perspective guards held hostage explored against wall kyle maclachlan samuel l jackson clarence williams iii frederic forrestbr br back day shouted attica attica nice hear movie brought back memoriesbr br the worst part movie natural wigs morris chestnut african americans must wear would easy people grow fro,0 +parents dont allow subscribe netflix disney hbo max im slowly losing mind here,0 +might try againthis alt btw name ben yall know fucker named ben hope read cause im much pussy directly adress friends yalls names used make sure know much bitch been tried killing february reciently thought feel like unreasonable try make worse feels although know life shit is ive anxiety whole life point rarely slept well lights on shared room younger brother year ago parents finally decided im big boy ive depressed three dont know started didnt deserve it may mom think do mom tells anxiety makes pussy month like means dont anxiety tells dad know cares therapy waste money dont need it would change mind told happened february would break heart might still get mad telling sooner wish parents got divorced parents like eachother wont lie think lacking love dont match knoledge married cause came along divorce would create finance problem dont think parents would able handle though dad firefighter csm army mom nurse doesnt work often whaterver fucking reason puts lot stress dad get high rank hes one highest batallion position work extra hours low pay job wrecks him also cabbed lyft dont think money get away cause comes back pissed everytime want divorce happen cause root cause many parents arguements thats far im going cause triggers me realized finance shit dumb cause fine im keeping cause backround two years ago hockey first practice back dislocating shoulder minor dislocate week back made sure everyone going easy end little shit named andy made sure hit extra hard shoulder although wrong shoulder worst pain ever experienced later night puked twice unconsiousness next summer laccrosse great met best friend davin two awesome coaches church camp great memories went best friend cabin mutuals friends dumb year old boy shit fun second last day one brings stickbug bouncing side side decide would funny bounce side side like stickbug people fucking like riding shit kinda annoyed expected it jake runs rubs balls face school starts someone must brought stickbug thing started gay ben thing didnt hear while different gay ben thing friends bus made gay jokes got called gay didnt really care heard bus became annoying told stop wouldnt jakes gay ben thing spread getting called fag strangers dont care people say special time cause actually bi havent came yet preety much close friend davin made sure wouldnt mad cause told annoying kids wouldnt stop bothering made question knew then last years hockey fun went resort got called rice honky jew there fun times tried kill self february straw broke camels back davin hanging someone didnt like something memory repressed took handfull ibprofen went bed made sure tell davin everything fault feel bad even thinking it luckily enough woke practice next day davin didnt know told teamate friend aiden took pills got fight said atleast didnt try take pills mad punched couple times made later mad me hockey ended already looking forward lacrosse year school team got cancelled didnt feel comfortable playing high rank team quarantine xbox reciently got ukulele time davin fell bit played aj people met xbox went school frankie peyton mean aj started become like them stayed them mostly cause first super nice depression anxiety way mind aj starting get nicer now got mean constantly telling shut stuff like that lack real human interaction time low still cause whole quarantine shit first thought redflag simply alone couple weeks ask davin party invite things still wierd convinced him started feel good back him playing alot older brothers brothers friends liked them haden ashton dicks tho dont shit anymore im still suicidal thanks frankie peyton id happy try playing blake aj cameron landen right anxiety doesnt let sleep lights cant cause well bright so im staying night day im working plan davin friends im really exited thats basically repost day adding events spent two hours want get feelings now read fuck frankie fuck andy someone know irl finds idc know tell want idgaf anymore chance im dead school starts,1 +okay heres confession sorts idk hate myself wanted end post well rules state post removed said post small imma type utter gibberish occupy space guess like anything better dolol,0 +guys guys got accepted backup school got accepted backup school yall idea relieved backup nervous get accepted places wanted know even get accepted main choice im safe,0 +hellothe suicide help line busy therapist asleep thought might try here plan end days cannot check psych ward money afford ithelp please really bad night,1 +happens tell therapisthey hope okay place post question im wondering would happen told therapist suicidal thoughts ive always deep fear telling people suicidal thoughts lately theyve gotten worse ive figured couple specific plans would relatively easy carry out ive gotten place twice past week ive felt need contact crisis line ive suicidal past ive attempted twice im scared time problems multiplied theyre bigger feel like im collapsing weight life dont care enough stop it thats scares most past ive cared least bit time around im asking friends family support im unable verbalize bad am thank help,1 +specific strange question uber need specific data unable get due braindead stupid need pointless throw away joke friend someone help me need know much uber ride would florida illinois someone could figure would nice,0 +yo yo yo whats wholesome fact wholesomest gets award cos dont know,0 +tonight hopefullyif fucking penny every time ive convinced would jeff bezos hopefully tonight night dont want keep holding back pussying out want really commit time,1 +hey random person seeing tell favourite singersbandsmsic producers mines could imagine dragons falling reverse bring horizon coldplay milky chance adele queen avicii,0 + taken another us rip alex trebek prayers wellwishes family,0 +guys im feeling bad pls help guys lowkey showing liked maybe dont feel bad found boyfriend lied bout him blocked fuck outta,0 +scared im going commit redflag want didthis constantly goes mind im scared im going hang one day know always think it last remember started popping best friend commited redflag hanging love life never want end need someone relate to many people lose close friend redflag,1 +mango juul pods tap og us mangos gone forever couple boxes left breaking one boxes box two mint aswell add snap references check posts info,0 +know much posting general bare me recently friend told years back friend told considering suicide kept saying things like are ok constantly similar things regrets done anything better like asking needed someone said want ask much want hurt scared now recently blames scenario saying things gone bad would potentially responsible saving friend apparently friend great friend consider one honestly know telling one informed know telling say friend either know qualified too advice friend seems depressed know say,1 +yall really proud grown ass year old sleep room man come now slept room get balls man woman,0 +birthday want make post least birthday,0 +advice like woman attractive fellow advice would appreciated,0 +girls iceland whatre non icelanders opinions,0 +cant fucking take anymore think im unfixablei feel like theres point trying get better everything futile sound like fucking edgelord im tired trying matter hard try always feel empty dont think ill ever happy wish stupid think hate trapped head want kill stop feeling shitty want stop thinking want overdose bunch opiates dont need feel anything want order shit ton drugs right now im pussy wish gun something think deserve violent painful death sentient hate much,1 +httpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctu nothing innapropriete plz httpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctuhttpsmeetgooglecomlookupcjlqoctuauthuseramphs,0 +parents wont accept im part religion anymore ps know may best community post this im really desperate help support little background knowledge family lutherin entire life know believe basically branch christianity think gay acting wrong believe branch christianity beliefs correct beliefs everyone part it go church every sunday seriously religious case parents also believe god way cure pain suffering thats main problem comes in figured lutherin christian beginning year making realization took huge weight chest rules lutherin christianity really strict agree lot them really stressed out since decided lutherin christian ive trying figure believe in finally settled type deism basically believe god or multiple gods created world interact way ive content beliefs want change anyone bad part situation made friends lutherin church constantly felt like lying them since lot morals lutherin christian never suspected couldve made switch would pray worship talk god holy perfect way would feel alone time gained courage tell closest friends it overall okay it couple disappointed still accepted decision anyway try convince otherwise problem comes religious people church includes parents told parents directly im deist lutherin christian ive given pretty big hints shown im part beliefs system anymore it still force go church participate religious discussions follow religious rules even sometimes force read family devotion even tell really really want to worst part believe pray god give surrender him mental illnesses cured much help me one thing decided get therapist however trust therapists lutherin christians thats big issue first got someone church course work out since beliefs match up refusing get therapist lutherin christian since think money constant war parents this know to accept im different really stressing out tldr parents cannot accept im part religion anymore starting use make life miserable it,0 +today supposed first day work family super happy depressed hardly leave house shitty mood took xanax smoked weedand went work i know worthless drug addict forgot phone doors locked since dining area open drive home get phone time got back hour late came home explained everyone massive failure weak cannot even livei become scared becoming redditor drugs plays video games day cannot believe life ended like this really like get better either parents try support cannot deal issues which understandable friends fucking dumped ass curb started getting depressed taking hella pills therapist see like monththis pandemic completely fucked life still depressed pandemic level things getting better covid happenedi like life people world society cannot deal horibble shit happens world i tell parents disappointed me cannot blame them also told believe god anymore world fucked god running it god exhist fucking hates world vengeful peice shit motherfucker would never worshipmy life shambles going die nodding idgaf anymore life shit go on feel absolutaly sorry took xanx forgot spell that drained soul being want life back want back know support half ass meme advice parents give therapist help much see monthi friends nobody soul really gives shit completely alone world fuck everything never fail disappoint everyone,1 +threads keep hanginga years ago lost someone important me consequence eventually lost things close me friends identity think ever separate thoughts redflag person day succeed killing,1 +im donecheck post history ive gone through im done,1 +movie absolutely perfect way explain good movie is movie children parents timeless saw movie oceans eleven must admit actors oe class advance play klatretsen much downtoearth moving say oceans eleven fact movies many things common klatretsen good bear comparison oe youngsters play part perfect way believe compared used denmark different cases impossible acts handled way belive many young actors and sometimes even old boys story things common oceans eleven except reason stealing money klatretsen need climb strongroom part young people take care idas younger brother gives fine element movie try imagine rob bank year child nappy arm br br this movie bear comparison grown up movie like mi oceans eleven yes believe good best see theater children room comments movie comments stay hearts forever br br regards klavs,0 +need help maths ik stupid idea post ive stuck hours make x subject x x ,0 +everyone uses offer leaves told well people suck worry them oerson too peoplr see others interacting get included get asked about one thinks me one misses me always one reaching iut ti people knew one ever time me stopped reaching anyone one tried get hold me one miss me proven that tired disposable,1 +hate dependent parentsi wish could fucking shit own need ask stuff parents like ride food cant wait grow ill finally free them job live own maybe shit figured out theyre terrible parents stifling know im awful person annoys much never say anything though try get shut down today mom tried force talk her usually anyways feeling really depressed told tired want talk specifically told past want to would understand let be time exploded me yelling never appreciated anything ungrateful drove everywhere made dinner stuff like that ask that would rather drive pay shit eat dinner friends myself ugh stayed silent want make worse ive never wanted yell moment hate teenager maybe im selfish though,1 +gpa semesters low gradschool want put nice warm bullet skull got recently got banned rausgunshttpswwwredditcomrausguns saying want commit redflag australian shooting range whatever going anyway like man either sell belongings book one way ticket hong kong got family members might well try help oppression there failed calculus final covering laplace vector calculus complex calculus feeling hopeless my university requires students pass final pass course scale gpa scale semesters study means never get grad school australian grad school nonnegotiable necessity work industry want happens space systems need eb visa which requires postgraduate degree get us us person well either making space related startup scratch even harder grad school life meaning whatsoever im sitting listening depressing music make things worse considered pretty bright elementary high school graduated percentile high school worked life try reach goal gone shit two hours guessing really fail year challenge tldr entire lifes work dreams gone matter two hours,1 +reincarnation reali really wanna start over hoenstly hate body hate fanily fucked bad cannot go on hate everything hard reason live wanna know proof born someone else please want happy ending suffering,1 +im sending friends donuts birthday tell live e l l e,0 +guys jacked middle class turn camera andsince anything related pornography blocked school laptops and im asexual bdsm kinki opened amazon looked bdsm toys beat meat shit aint pornhub itll do cum stain clothes fcking ate it yea whenever jack eat cum now would recommend,0 +made girl hard doesnt dick,0 +really sob pm am relatable ik attracted gender dude think im go depressive episode yk day going full sad ur like know whats happen happens anyway love gays except me uh love girls like not also like fuck wanna die also like no cuz die imma go hell this im even super religious agjsoefhoebapshwpjalsklaxhpsbspshsslbsslsblasblasbosdhsdsodkgwktwyodupclckzjxjdkekyakgekhsoyslgslhdkxkx god nclhdkhslhodohdlhxlhjxlhslhdlhsalhslhx see dilemma ,0 +keep secreti think might literally insane felt stars fall sky last night wish here dream there better doesnt seem thats case anymore keep relying people things save me doesnt work guys fyi might little bit sucks get high life drop back down drop distance really disorients you kinda wish never started get better because depressed before got used numbed out right old wounds feel open wanna grab razor make skin match im getting old shit guys im half year dont want circles getting better anymore rest life theres point kinda realize going get better,1 +reply anything ill ask v serious question text text text text text text text text text text,0 +anyone feel like talkingim kind bad place performance today botched it hurts really bad aspiration singer mess up ready to started panic attack bad bout dysphoria voice feel awful ive worked frenzy,1 +attempted kill days agofailed miserably btw thought would feel something would start dying parents find after no everythings absolutely fucks sake still dont care anything anyone still motivation reason live still afraid anything welp lets see lead,1 +drained want peace praying peace three full years want sleep forever tired,1 +idk fuckin sad time tired miserable time imnot feeling guilty angry sad sleeping probably going rewatch eat goldfish eventually perish,1 +tried commit last nighti severe suicidal thoughts day yesterday last night wanted end tried commiting redflag again felt pain felt would go away much wanted to want die know hurt lot people go least think will tried ended crying hours straight knowing do thoughts get worse every day cant tell anyone care want worry me ask say im fine,1 +think im gonna kill weekmy family doesnt deserve burden like me theyd better without me need stop hurting messing again deserve pain feel wish better daughter me im screw hurt again mom deserves better me deserves whole world give birth fucking idiot like me,1 +half life reason im still aliveis half life worth nah,1 +kill one wonder question whyive hated majority life life probably coming close loser ive wasted opportunities better life wish gun wish drugs dont want anymore nothing left here ive abandoned everything good life minimum wage job poor self esteem hope future gave couple months ago walked girlfriend person truly loved me fuck man want die want disappointment failure stop long im alive wont know way make pain stop,1 +text diei wish,1 +im tiredi risk sounding spoiled live nice house nice things family sometimes loves me want end it im constantly telling things get better idea will past year wrote fake toaster bath notes diary one day day mother decided snoop room found read whole thing next month constantly looking reassurance didnt hate notes said did do doesnt know that took three therapists insisted stayed room spoke tried tell couldnt speak way tears kept comming im glad didnt im bisexual wanted proper coming since written diary knows too past three months ive felt lonely extremely anxious depressed dont want bother friends best friend fear would turn away diabetes another thing im constantly self conscious feel makes people think less person sensors needles constantly body ugly hate much want tear never look again ive thought insuline oding never courage it ex got perfect girlfriend makes feel unworthy still feelings aswell feel fat even thought bmi normal range ugly dont wear makeup sensitive skin try tell parents im tired even though true refuse believe always try force talk problems dont get mad disrespectful need help last option,1 +fun fact boobies actually go clap case know im sure them theyre big enough mine sure,0 +doubt reach outplease,1 +poggers train cancelled trains college since am way am cancelled due flooding man sure love english weather college today tho good,0 +anyone groupchats discord servers join fucking bored need procrastinate,0 +one friends blocked sharing opinion story posted something black lives matter told alot protesters part racist white people,0 +weird feelinghi im young guy junior high school gotten suicidal phase semicolon tattoo stand redflag ya know minimal backstory care want redflag something anyone comes too guy barely knew shot stomach knots idk feel bad makes feel like throwing know sat lunch always joked cool someone id known long amount time fact knew one knows suicidal always happiest one feels like weird fucked dream though question is right feeling bad guy nowhere near close everyone else was,1 +still still feeling like shit crazy think depression hit me ask anyone knew would say radiant full joy life insouciance lost completely trust anymore all doubt every decision make end anything anymore tendency shut people noticed matter social could covid make like weekends party like nothing mattered time people stop reaching out never reach ashamed feel like shit every day passes worst self estimei ugly dumb raised abusive household never developped sence identity never successful relationship always chasing wrong guys wrong guys chasing me never said love someone even though felt never guts did even matter played anywayi never recognition parents family friends anymore nothing cati tell everyday go work self worth least something day tired switching apps day tired hopeless future future get uglier day day lose confidence stay alone lonely time cannot reach people lost interest live best life hurt self estime rejected again cannot take rejection time let anyone anymore age people care anymore feel like waiting mom pass away take away life human gave little bit love of course lot manipulation hurt too outlook life different now life cool fun used be sometimes cannot point mid depression growing deep know mostly depressioni went psychiatrist even feel like anymore know wrong cannot fix it feel like alone long cannot get back tonight free amazing party next place hear music people shooting reminds time that think twice would always plans weekendsnow sports cat netflix memoriesi want part club more let writing heard cannot take anymore nothing bad luck life beg over never good was let go away let people happy cannot need vent bit again,1 +also best book ive ever read karl urban steve zahn great together drama adventure sweetness sadness laughed cried hard laugh gus talking wish gus would smacked clara like inez clara lead gus years intentions ever marrying him liked playing him sad spent whole life pining her would nice woodrow married maggie would died anyway woodrow man could express feelings kept bottled up obvious loved maggie raid austin rangers got back ran hold her val kilmer excellent playing odd characters loved portrayal captian inish skull loved whole lonesome dove saga comanche moon best bunch,0 +always told burden waste space fuck even tho im one family get qualifications nevermind getting uni ill likely end homeless cant even work little work experience try part time jobs end panic attack early got fired time friends uni well makes feel worse im home sack shit stays indoors day social interaction parents berating life even know killing me friends constantly remark mess,1 +warner brothers second historical drama featuring civil war battle little big horn general george armstrong custer died boots warner brothers far accurate two especially contrasted santa fe trail warner brothers really set bar highbr br although pictures starring vehicles errol flynn change casting part general custer whereas dutch himself ronald reagan portraying flamboyant egomaniacal cavalryman earlier picture mr flynn playing virginian later confederate hero general jeb or jeb stuart errol took custer part died boots onbr br once again warner brothers propensity using large number reliable character actors warners repertory company employed giving film sort authenticity really happening right eyes major roles taken better known actors actresses as elizabeth baconmrs custer costar olivia de havilland ned sharpe arthur kennedy samuel bacon gene lockhart chief crazy horse anthony quinn californy charlie grapwin major taipe stanley ridges general phillip sheridan john litel callie the bacons maid hattie mcdaniel br br the rest cast chock full uncredited though skilled players as joe sawyer eleanor parker minor watson tod andrews irving bacon roy barcroft lane chandler spencer charters frank ferguson francis ford william forrest george eldridge russell hicks william hopper hoppity hooper eddie keane fred kelsey sam mcdaniel patrick mcvey frank orth eddie parker addison richards ray teal jim thorpe allamerican himself minerva urecal dick wessel gig young many many morebr br the film moves quickly particularly early goings sort slows necessity story moves along post civil war years assignment custer colonel th cavalry ultimate destiny little big horn montana guidance director griffith veteran raoul walsh film hits greatly varied array emotions serious exciting battle scenes convincing historical scenes looking matthew brady civil war photos mr walshs films punctuates expedites end many scene little humor going overboard thus risking chance turning film comedy farce actuallybr br as previously mentioned much factual predecessor santa fe trail last time well mention it honest schultz scouts honor however say without little bits artistic literary license indeed biopic have would impossible make similar type film indeed every fact incident tried included screenplay perhaps erroneous inclusion well obvious invocation literary license business custers accidentally promoted rank brigadier general happen way yet gag helped film move along underscored whole light carefree feeling permeated early part filmbr br director walsh mr flynn collaborated giving us would seem characterization legendary civil war hero close real life man top recreation incident massacre lakota sioux cheyenne fukowi custer th cavalry little big horn time occurrence june custers last stand big incident shock americans national psyche japanese attack pearl harbor december atrocities perpetrated islamic fascists new yorks twin trade towers united states armed forces headquarters pentagon arlington virginia september br br just many films period world war ii and years immediately before many incidents were intentionally done demonstrations virtues would needed time another global conflict time died boots finishing original theatrical release periodbr br poodle schnitz,0 +im getting blamed friends addictionthis june third year since dear boyfriend died age hell friend ive known since became addict tried almost impossible protect myself close family years respectful cannot say hes towards me long short last week came said dope bathroom ive lost many ppl damn devil drug thought great im going watch bc overdose need narcan new guy friend ugh dk that watching times non responsive went around house looking narcan friends dad flipped yelled wtf doing get fuck out meanthen yeah leave friends dad kicked later found out hours later friend borrowed car totaled it found prescription bottle anxiety meds purse him also hit another car called mother see was said me happened hes talking parents assholes youre welcome ive worried sons life upfront still get blame new guy friend one since bf died super protective honestly believe falling love catching feelings happen dont give flying fuck hearts broken core think patients that yeah feel guilty smh hospital panic attack throat closed me think expect friend give shit no tried keep sober clean motivated hes lied hes stolen shouldnt even care verbal abuse name it like hes great person one minute hes devil ive tried keep alive im never feeling better even stay away wish dead everyday,1 +fianc moved blocked number emergency roomi went traumatic event weeks ago left suicidal ideation knowing problem could negatively impact relationship fianc immediately enrolled group oneonone therapy ive attending sessions everyday making effort apply lessons stressful areas life yesterday woke strong feelings wanting commit redflag mentioned fianc called parents forced tell them already felt ashamed situation hoping could handle sickness us two professionals told dont check hospital call police fianc blocked path took phone away felt scared trapped went grab gun point knew ive gone overboard dropped gun packed stuff told quickly drive hospital dropped stayed hours called throughout night come visit refused said us got finally able use phone realized blocked number took social media cancelled arrangements wedding vendors went home saw left belongings actions destroyed relationship even though one thing fighting hard for,1 +saved random guy im yosorry bad english thinking killing years tragic thinking know think death could answer problems overthinking depression strong me dead compromise cant feeling good cant feeling bad neither really sad unconfortable going do able think anything moment took train went near city used love wanted fell high bridge like am random guy came nowhere nice man lost daughter travelling africa country really quite peaceful bit upset also surprised stopped it said think family going feel die much love me right family loves want anymore nice family studying university lot awesome friends one reached city night life damn hard know theres people going lot pain someone without family someone cancer someone far unlucky me feel guilty this accuse sad make even sad still think sometimes redflag will flash similar dreams wich im dead thought control maybe see doctor someone help know think know night tried sucide got saved want anymore want enioy life family friends till can im frightned thought,1 +make online friends im f kind introverted havent social pandemic ive always wanted online friends seemed easier less socially draining irl friends never know get them ive tried joining discord servers snapchat groups stuff things usually dry couple days never really connect anyone advice would helpful thanks,0 +know weird tangent go but blows mind much vocaloid evolved watching video history played song actually sounded like real human voice genuine shock song playedhttpsyoutubehnpxinu video watchedhttpsyoutubeegrzcyta,0 +cant diei hate everything life want get better already given up fucking hate everything much coward hurt myself please cant go die give up wish kill myself,1 +first introduced eddie friends acrossthepond know like intelligent humor prefer comedians thought provoking entertaining george carlin dennis miller dress kill eddie provides type social observation humor stimulates thoughts subject causing side split time wide range subjects standup simply hysterical piece decide engleberts stage name leave stitchesbr br thanks andrew catherine do flag,0 +close friend mine sent mental hospital redflag attempt dont know emotionally cope thisim extremely anxious edge dont want lose friend already lost one friend redflag dont want lose another,1 +ever watched animal get butchered it fun,0 +may failed saving friendi know next nothing her chat room in ran sounding bad pmed would hardly talk get say anything says took full bottle lexapro dead tomorrow help talk someone talk back one chat room knows better do im really loss,1 +im tired anythingim sorry im rambling hard understand im awful words im exhausted energy anything im failing behind school one friend family seem care much me im two year behind high school im supposed graduating year im sophomore third year row im gonna pass year really stressing parents helping mention im online school because social anxiety too pathetic fail one friend who met online seem care much me im someone talk friends paying attention them parents ignored two times reached out talked school counselor freshmen year first sophomore year told suicidal selfharming times called parents times theyve never brought me make fun cutting myself needless say reached parents since let get professional help anyway im failure child would spend anymore money me im sick alone im sick never good enough anyone im sick everything want sleep day id get yelled at ive tried kms three times really want try,1 +im bored please dm please,0 +f chilling bed im like weird state im kinda tired im really tired yet haha bored anything hit want ,0 +im bored tell something funny ill laugh ,0 +cba move forward life chance get better digs deeperincoming massive wall text originally going post response question someone posed rdepression using video games media escape reality depression answer turned little longwinded decided make thread maybe get little feedback started playing world warcraft tail end high school severe depression years escape critical daily life allowed forget everything weighed down spent exorbitant amount time game never bothered playing everyone ignored anyway sought treatment depression request mother help went nowhere fast forward still played wow recently finally lost interest game really drive anything anymore except one friends wants hang out really feel nothing life dont attribute feelings toward use media fact quite opposite games played growing helped escape feelings much way traumatized child may develop multiple personality protect ongoing abuse often think redflag even written letters leave behind event decide go it first suicidal thought years old four years verbal mental time time physical abuse literally everyone around me neighbors house one night saw owned gun seeing movies spending time uncle owns lot weapons knew least halfinformed knowledge operate it moment saw it finally sank means nearby give quick death end it whatever reason never took upon try it though thought lot long time abuse started seven moved new town turned quite christianleaning community basically didnt go church youre devil need cast out family didnt go church all parents never experienced problem didnt socialize community anyway faced brunt unwelcoming committee alone singled everyone around me students teachers administrators counselorseverybody bottom rung tall ladder time school system town verbally mentally abused beaten humiliated two occasions stabbed careful enough avoid going deep warrant hospital trip continued decade first went people help thats discovered school staff wasnt help me went parents problem shrugged thinking dramatic kids kids begged people stop leave alone one listened one cared friends turn grew alone hostile world soon learned emotional display even speech social interaction fuel fire stopped reacting anything didnt speak anyone didnt look anyone class got go anywhere made sure last one room remain sight recess sat away class nobody would pay attention long quiet didnt look up met girl late middle school became best friend everything seemed brighter around time grew love every fiber being but emotionally weak scared appear weak never said anything years went attempt prevent displaying weakness actually succumbed let slip away october fianc asked groomsman wedding event button fuck keep losing it made horrible grades way school attribute fact could think every day walked school getting hell again instead repeating senior year high school dropped got ged two years shit else belt decided join air force aspirations high signed seemed appropriate pararescue knowing physical punishment training would began fitness regime many would call excessive notable accomplishment life passing special forces physical aptitude test qualify program nearly year preliminary physical training shipped boot camp basic training easy enough half way sent rest sf trainees flight physical done repeat sf physical test part physical included pretty detailed eye exam which given vision test done unable complete right eye drifted out soon came double vision automatic disqualifier armed services classified erroneous enlistment promptly pulled training placed administrative hold medical hold transferred th trs the place send injured trainees draw discharge paperwork month later sent home again back place wanted desperately escape from house go to money get place own job support myself wound moving back parents point sank deepest level depression experienced date struggled get bed slept excessively skipped meals sometimes them one month rarely left room anything use bathroom stopped caring physical condition hygiene talked one friends knew wanted see never answered phone kept off year half completely given life found inspiration idea becoming medic fire department went back school get emt certification repeat half program failed cardiacrespiratory section i passed b second time made bs everything else program upon graduation applied fire department county surrounding counties miles got replies around time state experienced ems budget cuts instead hiring new emtsfiremen instead laid turned away back square one really feel anything anymore emotionally given news everything death family member old friend high school turned job even dog put worsening ailments held arms hugged give injection really know anymore even really care im going back school spring think habit desire move forward still seriously contemplate redflag fairly often means making quiet relatively painless thing id left plan little impact anyone else possible is little ever told anyone didnt legal obligation keep mouth shut sadly doesnt feel liberating hoped,1 +anybody send date video fnaf lore younger obsessed lore fnaf would watch video could find lore later lost interest remember games pretty interesting story anyone know video covers lore games however many games now know dumb request would really like know,0 +feel like able take anymoreim trying hard fight depression always lose things get better then sudden im without hope wanting kill im alive somehow im always able postpone date plan die time passes im convinced already killed myself keep living theres nothing really good it,1 +im literally close karma im idk karma whoring think cause mods delete,0 +discord user gogy not gonna day numbers obvious reasons dm yes random ill explain everything ok,0 +fianc died nothing left live forthe love life died stupid pointless terminal illness took life away long took life away angry hurts much want done now literally nothing left live for nothing apart silence pain dreaming way another every time try sleep nothing helps nothing ever will never written reddit life even know works really anyone else talk to family friends happy loved bubbles husbands babies right now awful is kinda hate happy know he want die that dead would would want irrelevant want die want stop,1 +dressed kill surely one best horrorthriller movies ever madeits tautstylish extremely suspenseful mixture sex violencethe acting pretty goodthe orchestral score pino donaggio unforgettable theres plenty surprises keep thriller fans intrigueddressed kill murder mystery involves sexually frustrated housewifeangie dickinsonher teenage sonkeith gordonher psychoanalystmichael caineand high price call girlnancy allenthe murderer film transsexual named bobbi also one caines patientsthe film full breathtaking momentsthe infamous elevator murder scene extremely stylish pretty gory wellhighly recommended,0 +two cents strangeras title says two cents here know depressed broken feel utterly worthless nobody loves cares you yet despite that are still alive stared darkness abyss witnessed horrors lived them yet despite still stand absolutely incredible mean realize kind strength takes something like that face nightmares unimaginable horror every single day choose keep pushing along situation right would opt out bet many others would agree yet stand covered scars blisters wounds continuing march forward hope someday even isnt today realize amazing able that fact alone even able get bed morning testament strength seriously yall strength greater even worlds strongest person brilliant human ever live keep pushing on im dang proud you gosh dang wish absolute best hope day becomes even tad bit better was keep amazing shining example from stranger internet,1 +whats good way earnsave money high school say parttime job type part time job think good,0 +im planning ending soonno support long time super broke things shitty years getting worse made posts main account account gained considerable attention fir reasons dont want anyone know see kinds posts history im end rope soon ill checking out know nobody care want somebody know,1 +recently moved new city away people know love nights days get lonely almost feel life pointless point even slightest tasks something beat hours oh even get started night time feel thoughts creeping sends spiral emotions ill spend night crying sometimes cannot even find reason why people tell need reach find new friends people connect even know start redflag makes much harder needing advice,1 +hey chavalesme presento soy un chaval de madrid espaay creado esta cuenta pues supongo que para desahogarme algo asi xd se apetecia hacerme esta cuenta v contaros mis cosas que la verdad son una mezcla entre suicidas graciosas xd,1 +say know documentaries mister rnek knew get well made piece movie documentary disappointed history nerd saw hundreds documentary liked different approach workbr br the director consultants historians veteran families tried access reality gallipoli letters solders sides so history followed british australian turkish soldiersbr br narrated docu jeremy irons sam neill boost intensity emotionality documentary great voicesbr br i saw film cinema italy dolby surround buy dvd last year wait years next work talented director good documentariesbr br summary well made intense history emotions wrapped war documentary great narrators,0 +anyone elses face look kinda greyish brother also mentioned face looked greyish irl bit pics take,0 +life seems like much right nowi constantly feel overwhelmed feel like im always busy yet im lazy anything builds builds want pressure chest feels like im suffocated life much right,1 +grrr women make angry hate women make go mad fuming im typing ugh punched whole wall gt one time girl named jessica th grade class rejected prom grrr women suck fuck jessica took stupid fucking hello kitty pencil fucking mad grrrrrrrrrr fuck women fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking angry ahhhhhh fucking furious broke ps cant play gta v online anymore rejection aghhhhhhhh fuck,0 +fly pences head rlly stole show ask,0 +redflag depression mental illness much life able get proper treatment local mental health clinic ways helped immensely able get pure obsessional ocd control longer bad symptoms still definitely sometimes flares bit faded background noise part ways mental health significantly deteriorated mids completely lost self confidence gained time college found tribe got better art skills could finish college drop due mental illness adhd trying get freelance artist mostly living disability though able earn anything close living wage would attempted without financial aid government would living parents parents supported me god knows would be would probably homeless know happened college friend mine parents support artistic pursuits quit school would kicked out mental health bad shape several years now since completely incapacitated comorbid disorders dealing with severe social redflag agoraphobia body dysmorphic disorder well adhd autism spectrum disorder also credflag parents drive everywhere driving terrifies cannot even call taxi social redflag credflag makes terrified space people know quick exit sitting taxi driver would mean would unable escape easily turned mean know highly unlikely still scares me friend one experience mean taxi driver late teensso crazy idea trying drawingart video blog seems lucrative tubers earn passive income think would great instead relying government financial aid want think would good it actually seems impossible even though decent drawing skills people skills socially handicapped mental disorders one main reasons draw hard time talking people drawing helps make feel comfortable around them idea would ever feel comfortable enough talk camera scare people away want insincere fake pretend talkative bubbly am actually thought voice changer thing captions talking scares hell me scared voice name recognized bullies stalked harassed real life online may try one video perhaps even post get feel work bother multiskilled vocation art vlogger also good people skills well videomaking skills hate idea video blogging hope earning money hating people like youtuber genuinely friendly acknowledges followers that would want put people unfriendliness social redflag responding comments messages turning comments really know myself cut existence feel powerless mess know prevent life going sht,1 +much xanax alcohol kill youim ready die xanax bars mg bottle wine would kill me could buy alcohol need please try talk give straight answer cant shit anymore,1 +cant handle around family something happened day made million times worsetoday best day ive months wasnt stressed family actually seemed happy around first time years thing something happened today never want see certain family member again ive always uncomfortable around entire life solidified feeling cant tell anyone time tell family something person does write persons dry humor dont know get this entire family accepts odd behavior dont want put choice to feel sick stomach,1 +came ask help people cruel give,1 +cant remember day year havent thought redflagand point im done everyones bullshit lies life know fact getting better thanks nice lie though nobody knows inside all dont think go longer all one knows whats going mind actually knows whats wrong me thing thats making slightly temporarily happy siblings food music cant happy dont even understand people live normally im far away normality im place mind cant imagine living future dont tools plan living literal torture thinking brain complete utter torture every day days numbered cant wait die finally time comes,1 +nothing righti weird fetishes hate ill never able rapper enjoy life gaming computer car learn draw house dont want grow feeling miserable thats whats gonna happen bc im lazy idiot cant swear guess im light dont anything towards goals fact thing sleep day play games cant even deal people since social anxiety whatever wanna die cant solve anything life brain btw already go therapy take meds,1 +know even seatbelts people die time car crashes thought thay interesting,0 +want die thats things seem headingi want die want go want leave people care behind feel like thats im headed feeling wake morning bed nice comfy maybe even bit sick tell i want get up want go class want go work matter many times tell this know eventually going get needs done feel like right now part taken inevitability waiting time find making lose plans part fighting back trying throw many safeguards can suicidal part control find slipping messages help me conversations nobody ever listens nobody comes help rational mind control find unconsciously making small preparations war head really tearing apart cant anything times liesit mechanically go whatever needs happen big career fair school week even manage go depression hit hard even though know need go need get job next summer even make next summer im making positive change world existence hurts people good like guy last week feel like im attoning terrible things ive done know things cant change know hurt people future im writing someone sense control right now know thoughts including suicidal ones mine it know much longer get myself,1 +im trappedim trapped military im trapped life feel deep loneliness stomach desperately want connect someone want someone understand everything feels superficial feel like always alone forever die im gripping feeling want pass im desperate loneliness overwhelm enough pushes end all feeling feels real true anymore everything else feels fake delusional feel like sharing thoughts makes peoples life complicated burdens then everyone thinks im fine im really looking answers cant fall asleep,1 +guys from idk im bored sitting car im calgary canada guys from,0 +get girl ive crush years crush girl almost years recently weve talked months and dated weeks almost ready relationship the sad part arguing stuff pretty often text ff vibing hard everything going well soon happen said that wants break sees friend things said did still cant get her feel like ive used because talking another guy she talking w even dating relationship broke w girl with guess waited break go him also think tried make jealous somehow apologize english,0 +pls play among us im bored pls play among us im bored httpswwwtwitchtvgoosethecat,0 +lived wish didnti hospitalized short term crisis residential thing distractions life long enough every time remember pain hits like fucking freight train im sent back exact place always find myself fucking dead shouldve fucking died cant live like anymore cant handle myself dont want deal shit life one big cruel joke,1 +sitting parking lot wanting end allim really bad emotionally abusive relationship want leave cant guilt eating alive leave home cant think anything else ive driving around trying entertain myself trying entertain eating disorder mostly think much pain hes caused me manipulative hows never tried help me im embarrassed admit people relationship failing even parents really want son law cant handle pressure anymore days fine act anything less perfect hell make fun me panic attack two weeks got left like didnt want deal it want run car ramp im sure thatll kill completely dont want live like anymore much doubt hating myself dont know anymore,1 +nothings fun anymore anything isnt fun since friends always flake wont hang me video games arent fun one play with ive tried discord groups me,0 +ill start nee life im fuck this finally fully,0 +lifted lbs first time powerlifting basically competitive weightlifting competition today deadlifted new personal best,0 +ever get feeling got worst first lockdown didnt sleep days thought work immensely late fell massive rut started self harm ive bever best sleeping awful affect ven now usually stay around am ive type multiple times find writing far far much ive stuck dad outdated beliefs antivax mum said ahe never wanted see im predictably messaged month said trying bribe come back sick wasnt first time said kicked out dad hand pretty muxh worse the straight white male opposed race you get oit rut like snaps fingers anyone form medication drug addict could go hours fell behind work returning school soon fell behind ages ago trying catch pretty much never did dad help at all eventually broke broke month self harm clean streak step mum freaked considered emailing teacher said do hesitate email worries questions ask work really really worried thats now week ago teacher responded saying pretty much dont worry completely fine still cant shake feeling literally nothing really complain about guess parents theres alot try think about dont know thats it anyway ive sorted things girlfriend happy ive sorted schoolwork ive started exercising frequently yet still feel uneasy whats wrong me things going pretty well cant shake weight me still really long cant even bothered shorten anymore anyone else get feeling tldr mean much better explained read but things going pretty well comparison past yet cant shake feeling uneasiness weight pulling down,0 +living kinda embarrassing want dig hole plunge,0 +parents let go friends houseim years old allowed go friends house min walk let go cause school days sunday hes cursing bad kid crying asking good reason cant go says cold going friends way way stay happy want kill myself hate much want stay house alone time,1 +living undignifiedby assuming role dysfunctional body vouching it never viewed anything physical self part cannot change attribute whole existence bodies conditioned believe entire being consequently feel like escapeto survive nightmare must become it successful compromise am want stoic assertive want kind charitable people walked entire lifeby living societyunited states contributing it perpetuating system agree with cannot live part problemeventually become feeble useless trade best years sustain reach point convince struggle reward address cognitive dissonance wasting lives knowingly working towards deadendhow live life fully cognizant undue suffering inflicting spirit soul deserves better,1 +genuinely whats fking pointevery day suffering im lonely stupid pathetic whatever insults want throw me go right ahead im already fucked is today found something ive passionate complete waste time ruined im fucking devastated pour soul something wether thats someone love passion friend whatever crushes right front you rips apart fuck get it many ways get one insufferable rest maybe im making sense life make sense even know anymore guess ill die,1 +everything try feel better fails much shit continues turn me sick become feeling want quit die want fucking die please fucking quit want die,1 +approaching wallhi never made post like before entirely sure start obsessive compulsive disorder no mean wash hands constantly need make sure dishes clean compulsions entirely unique result many intrusive thoughts treatment form medications gone therapy many years help get control issues deal intrusive thoughts made significant progress mostly successful battling past years especially intrusive thought usually distinguish others calm without needing engage rituals relief anxiety lately cant keep rituals become bad fact consuming hours day every day tried talking therapist sudden relapse rituals essentially told pass hump ive never anxiety badly life before ive even developed several new rituals must complete morning without really realizing started them thing though even seek additional help best would get therapy sessions possibly medication combat issue extremely tired that lost several jobs issues find difficult keep relationships extremely distant family understand issue refuse admit real disorder engage people work anymore cant force smile hard even pretend give shit day day basis im thinking ending things another intrusive thought time im legitimately unhappy life feel like writing essay intricate details things wrong know do im afraid dying think im less afraid alive im making plans anything right now im safe location around friend least alright reason post want something terrible know ruminating cause thoughts jump actually legitimately scared condition talking me,1 +waiting evicted cold apartment winter good time become homelessi guy early ies cat companion years died mum passed away quit job girlfriend broke me since used inheritance basically imprison apartment grew without father without siblings remaining relatives live different city mobile also busy lives already used keeping touch them took years relatives realize something wrong sent police apartment time already tested hook see could support weight body police visit helped snap depression went see psychiatrist found female friend moved me lead quite eventful life roommate decided return home country center life moving km away left devastated depression kicked full force again barely left apartment several months plagued financial problems depression loneliness recently mustered courage see psychiatrist again diagnosed mixed personality disorder depression started take sertraline zoloft us really seems affect brain chemistry positive way emotional impulsive anymore frequent depersonalization episodes ceased well might reached late behind rent yesterday landlord turned gas electricity apartment free psychotherapy starting next week might homeless then country provides social safety net waited long apply financial help depressed get paperwork done also ashamed thought living welfare benefits application getting processed landlords patience might run able anything anyways taking meds went depressed shell man emotionless shell man lost because stopped contacting them college friends never graduated moved lives friends left females somewhat understand troubles girlfriend havent intimate woman years havent hugged anybody year worst future plans feel like struggling survive every day idea find job support failed graduate college huge gaps resume barely work experience skills work stable friendships relationshipall things make human humani those feel dead inside sometimes pondering kill bodily shell well thanks reading would nice could find somebody talk nobody share state mind,1 +hour kill zoom class bored want kill time,0 +sort film used get weekly nowadays rare see drama depends cast talking otherbr br there explosions car chases chasesthere implied sexual situationsthis film younger crowd appreciate people talking otherthey argue lot married couple mid life problemsbr br emily watson tom wilkinson seemingly happy middle aged loving man wife living small london suburb handsome rupert everett returns home visit wealthy fatherbr br he course meets emily watson would easy anyone smitten emily say more except credits begin fatal accidentthe rest film repercussions accident lies various characters tellbr br the acting trio others excellentbr br julien fellows wrote screenplay based novel nigel balchin also directed first directorial attempt well entire production first ratebr br the film month theatrical run late theatres shame stupid comedies open least screens real good drams many others open fewbr br by way funny lines regarding certain situationsbr br ratings out points out imdb out ,0 +wasted potentialthrowaway things bad ive spent last days empty room contemplating pistol bought home protection reasons failing myselfmy mom dog want know growing moreabstract skip history im write like goes ill tldr end ive therapy antidepressants alcoholism since teenager real reason why great childhood pony gods sake top class every year without even trying bored lonely terribly popular child used alone parents great kind people friends would come advice support every teacher loved told wait see would become well became year old stripper drinking problem went college tried study art get bed whole semester failed out went therapy got prozac tried again got depressed failed out got series physically emotionally abusive relationships smart tormented men attracted brokenness violence saw myself nice man could ever like understand me bored them things got darker rougher got hurt lot finally attempt distance myself moved across country tried start over immediately hooked thought great guylong story short ended hospital covered stitches blowout fight car chase redflag attempt got mad quit dating started taking krav maga became known scary chick class year krav started stripping loved it loved talking people loved dancing loved freedom money travel met great guy things looking cheated best friend back zero me lost anger took bed like ridiculous victorian flower months passed finally enough booked tickets exotic city fabulous vacation threw ring lying bastard given ocean met amazing women felt healed last night there met man got talking turned city back home i felt like fate felt like fucking soul mates sure drinking problem world very long depressing story short years later left without word got phone call hearing week hed moved thousands miles away id thought dead guess appreciate call brings us now nearly two months cannot get it two months ago talking marriage love life gone years pulling depressed ass mud bootstrapsi more never works never lasts im attracted wrong things still well work literally thing gets bed go pretend someone else listen problems men come go drink world little softer dread going work im there dread going home anything offer anyone spend day night writing crying im emptied out stare wall im exhausted enough sleep im sleeping easily hours day now plans ambitions cant get excited travel always savior cant get mad cant paint im getting much thin corner ive painted getting much small im old start again me dont even know could do long employment gap credit never graduated college acquaintances real friends im terribly uncomfortable talking emotions anyway last therapist went see told treat much liability want get meds again either make ragey lose memory even im misery id prefer remember it im thinking guess trying commit psych ward hours least environment would change know would help im tired tldr lifetime bad choices energy ideas desire get it living days honestly getting painful really prefer die see another option thank listening,1 +think good reason end myselftrigger warning redflag throw away account im usually one post things like publicly guess ill give laydown situation year ago depressive break dead end job left hospitalized unemployed ive decided move back home town order certified build websites reasoning could gain skill would valuable todays market addition current bfa could potentially give chance employable financially independent signed community college because forprofit schools predatory set healthy boundaries family felt like making positive change future seemed like things were looking up cut now yearold dead beat lives grandmothers basement rely father financial support whos job prospect internship graphic design studio lacks personal disciplineselforganizationplanning skills ever talk anything else state fully aware cause misfortune result family suffer actions every time mess scratched grandmothers car garage get sunblock stains mothers furniture etc go emotional break end hating days finally let go proceed forget everything learned mistakes that inconsiderate peoples feelings often sidetracked work stops focusing work lack ambition discipline actually make actual lasting change life present tragic victim cruel world instead going truthful im asshole never learns live otherwise privileged life family who despite screwing repetitively loves much accounts im lucky people worse realize im parasitic take never give back whenever try change myself go back square one funny thing rock bottom one time thing people hit progress their constant loop repetitive failure inability learn past actions unwillingness change bad habits point realized good thing may contribute society well family would end myself ideally would like go somewhere beautiful a nationalstate park find isolated high place jump towards death become carrion whatever finds remains would like leave note family sating chose die instructing cremate remains if found hold funeral want remembered anything might post might ignore next couple weeks might actually take initiative life end things all know want make sure leave impact would significantly harm someone understand killing would detrimental familys emotional wellbeing long run would better place worry take care someone like me reason making public mostly trying find place vent part wants think plan wrong want verification still matter also feel telling therapist true extent plans would land back psychiatric ward thus burdening medical debt issue dealing years now guess understand disappearing woods would better alternative living parasitic lifestyle now tldr human parasite unable learn past mistakes realize harming everyone love going woods die better alternative putting people hell,1 +bruh already feel bad opening door refrigerator whenever someones call living room noise would travel side dad screaming lungs even someone family zoom call bruh,0 +ive lost myselfdepression anxiety mental illness eating disorders adding while ive suffered number issues ive always tried make things best be myself loved ones too problem is things ive gone made quite easy exploit leaving emotionally abusive relationship recently chance reflect all becoming much me tried cutting wrists last night manage properly ive lost am becoming father months let even see child much feel like im drowning,1 +movie british tv last night wonderful strong women great music most time makes think stereotypes older people ought do fantastic cameos sensible worried children getting near best movie ever ,0 +everything going still isnt enoughthe guilt immeasurable great career amazing wife pets love unconditionally still think killing every single day havent dont know ever will living pain every day burying getting much dont know do,1 +wake morning first thought want dieyou want die eat want die try sleep want die work want die exercise want die shower want die phone sure sometimes get focused present forget im moment obviously soon enough though comes again wonder every night next morning thought would stop coming like magic course moment wake thought pops head daily ritual like current situation hard me thing thats hard cant get thoughts come true either get thoughts action thoughts gone tried twice already didnt work wasnt able myself dont know afraid suffocated several minutes maybe gunshot would easier country in thats possible im sick therapy im sick tests took last years im sick talking strangers encounter job life boring used like gaming used like technology dont stuff anymore dont interest anymore reason ive done things know about current merely remnant past used curious nothing really intrigues anymore miss old past self hes gone now im tired tired living like people get hungry dont eat long enough want die ive lived long without pauses wish easy eating,1 +hey guy noticed noticed headache drugs arent helping guess ill die,0 +would ifwhat would severe case social phobia strong lifelong depression ask help ive wanting help years now cant go doctor myself im years old closest thing ive come getting help mom went doctor me doctor said prescribe anything talked me cant even leave house ive lost touch pretty much friends found depression suggestions here literally see one option,1 +thought freed comfortingim going fly free soon know know soon ampxb cant wait im going free place im really excited like going vacation nervous excited time want spread wings fly away finally see light ascend belong cant wait moment ill miss friends family know itll better long run this im going fly free nobody stop me ,1 +cypher cleverly conceived story industrial espionage set america distant future thematically complex film offer many different perspectives personal loyalty ruthlessness corporate conspiracy certain extent film also attempts represent modern corporate groups companies indifferent risks contract employees take behalfbr br the film starts somewhat mediocre salary man morgan sullivan jeremy northam applies digicorp group work undercover operative initial briefing digicorps security chief sullivan given new identity jack thursby sent business conference task recording speeches given various spokesmen concerning marketing strategies respective companies upon successfully completing first assignment sullivanthursby sent missions obtain type information previously gathered however one business trips inadvertently runs woman named rita foster liu met previous assignment things go extremely topsyturvy implications diabolical conspiracy involving digicorps espionage program begin emerge sullivan forced go deep cover one digicorps main competitors thus becoming double agent involved intense rivalry two companiesbr br spoilers end herebr br what liked film efficient use lighting shadows lot scenes vivid lighting used mainly domestichousehold settings lot shadows dark coloring used settings involving deception coverup also impressed jeremy northam often seen lead role fact plays disenchanted married man straight wisconsin brilliant personally think hes one many used actors industry given challenging roles lucy liu also incredible part gave movie real cloakanddagger tone additionally rest supporting cast superb job however complaint characters could explored make plot closure little complicated example would loved see would happened jack thursby developed intimate relationship second wife overall cleverly developed cloakanddagger story keeps guessing end personal professional loyalties whether anyone entire film trusted smart stylish soundtrack great camera work film provides scary look corporations might operate near future im surprised never watched hidden gem before brilliant nottoooverly complicated spy thriller therefore im giving ,0 +people make want kill you look like guy insults women refuse send nudes ampxb dont think fair seen creepy monster rapes murders etc im lonely even leave room anymore leave work go home dont energy go out date someone never killed anyone raped wife beater ampxb snap would long time ago suffered school bullying home absent mother stern father vibe weirdness say look totally creepy souless eyes souless smile creepy really mean really something menacing makes run life average unnatractive guy see street pic reddit ampxb im sick labeled something not sick living want end all,1 +might well give shotim freshman high school boys ive got depression anxiety occasional suicidal thoughts time feel empty husk former self im talking counselor that rarely ill feel motivated ill everyday things pride gusto know hat ill come high cut drink smoke drugs that want avoid cutting means necessary im also huge procrastinator hate give emotions validity so feel like im making excuse know im young often sell short mental illnesses feel problems real depression editgrammar,1 +daily basisibe suicidal thoughts every day since im years old dont know without thoughts feelings theyre head often feel big part personality every day feel slipping closer making thoughts reality thing thats stopping knowing happen after,1 +pretty boy im pretty boy livin west side livin loud could never hear cry nah see tears run eyes oh hills burn bright burn bright oh hills bring life bring life oh hills baby oh hills baby mm,0 +live prison cannot get depression cannot kill want hurt anyone family live torn apart even anyone talk deep sorrow,1 +someone talk meim lonely wanna talk,1 +give people advice cant follow years ive extreme perfectionist ive borderline mental breakdowns class could never finish homework as never good enough always strive obtain straight as personalitywise im always striving perfect eyes everyone meet say something semiwrong friend would enter state selfloathing rest day believing relationship must over dont think competently judge based appearance time im convinced look acceptable theres always little voice mind saying one attracted never get girlfriend even though friends tell look good ive always enjoyed drawing im thoroughly discouraged new friends much better am enjoy minipainting too never produce model looks good enough hell months ive painting warhammer havent able paint one im ok with advice dear reader give advice cannot follow yourself cannot listen advice im still dealing issues im experienced subject enough state indisputable fact perfection fucking stupid unobtainable striving bring pain may think youre good enough something look like shit reality fucked illusion great smart beautiful take perfectionist never satisfied himself matter are amazing may doubt yourself know incredible eyes others no matter think great day,0 +ask crush phone number andor social media ive crush years actually friends while doesnt talk me,0 +prayerfor years prayed strength keep going pray strength end it,1 +every day one day less cant keep justifying existencei really know put putting effort seems little contradictory im gaining traction anymore cant find job even getting fucked dollars hour seem like life changing move im fucking ready this think least times day ive already called party supply store helium tank irony lost me nothing seems matter change anything longer sit trying scrape together choices less find scrape together every morning one day less like im running clock cant keep this im wasting everyones time money,1 +mind years now wanted end life mine notredflag years end cannot take pain anymore country far away family want go back family failed every single way scared alone want pain stop tried look many pro suicide forums find any sit alone friend life losing love life need life end want end cannot take pain fault ending life peace,1 +long time red sox fan go see movie great never enough live footage miracle red sox season great shots favorite red sox players movie certainly chick flick enough baseball footage amazing red sox comeback make one top movies time especially enjoyed red sox fans part bens baseball family scene ben meeting buddies draft day determine get seats certain games hilarious must see looking wholesome movie watch spouse date significant otherespecially baseball fanand even especially red sox fan,0 +guys believe afterlifepersonally im going commit redflag notion eternal nothingness awaits always fun romanticize conscious existence death ive watching dmt videos basically chemical exists inside living things stuff thats released dream also prominently occurs right death cases called spirit molecule smoke conscious mind gets transported alternate dimension bunch crazy colorful shit goes forever along bizarre entities patterns feelings immense love fear ascension etc anyways existence becomes never ending spiral amazing psychotic eternity guys believe sort afterlife theory guys even want this,1 +cant deal thisi lot family issues really want go live mom bad history dad dont want talk moved utah really dont like never agreed said multiple times dont wanna go visit moms house like month go reaching end really sad pain love mom brother sister stepdad ones really care make feel like something worth living left im feel nothing matters anymore keep seeings things remind moms house fun times lot pain nobody understands made deal could move eventually long time dont really trust dont motivation get anymore nobody helps never try find solution arent want move back know matter nobody understands bad feel know stupid reason post people get way worse problems im going feel,1 +hard time seeking helpits several years since psychiatrist last wasnt good experience me back parents decision im mid s ive wanted kill ever since remember struggle getting hard me ever since remember wanted go seek help something simply stopping so maybe fear judged fear failure again something like that im sure whats wrong me even smallest things completely crush emotionally today spent several hours laying floor cuddled together myself friends seek help tldr cant pull together get help convinced so,1 +troubling time seeking someone talk gets worse preventative measureslong story short ass girlfriend dumped me friends really want back relationship her cant sleep dont appetite ive lost lot motivation feel like im falling apart months ago happened dating year thought one day would married children bright futures college work slipping first semester intentionally failed english advanced college rhetoric order grade replace thinking nothing it failed college algebra im dumb top a high school texas motivation work scaring me feel like ill never accomplish goals current gpa ill never get law school im losing friends dont necessarily best social skills branch meet new people drink go sleep rarely work im heavily addicted nicotine cant get juul go pod day pod pack cigs im afraid going catch hit once feel like would much happier someone talk to miss ex much want back her perfect match completely fucked everything took car payment adding stress took relationship destroyed everything mention also wrecked truck weeks ago perfect representation truck affected life complete wreck really need someone talk isnt going get tired this wont tell cut life move on need someone understands like everything fall apart know begin feeling better makes easier christian dont feel like god ever side want put end feelings evolve something worse family history clinical depression tldr life falling apart im trying feel better preventative measures reaches point return,1 +people know say weakness animated filmsbr br to fair people half right actual weakness exceptionally welldone animated films vintage family flick max david fleischerbr br you may thinking yourself well great heard it fair question movie released week attacks pearl harbor unavoidably bad timing caused film sink relative obscurity things looking up though finally released dvd title bugvillebr br its funny film went this kind mirrors actual plot although people claim movie trying send environmental message ugh personally think movies main idea perseverance adversity hard times after all country barely pulled depression timebr br our grasshopper hero hoppity desperately wants help endangered community problem time tries whether illwill others simple bad luck fails miserablyand slowly begins earn disdain people hes trying save although best maintain notredflag outlook occasionally breaks encouragement support friends gets back feet fights good fight healthy reminder that said done one really selfsufficientbr br okay saying it good message two actually really make exceptionally welldone br br my answer partiallybr br its message makes movie special characterization one films see personality cast member animation almost even need spoken lines good way sum energetic lively lot movies used selling point lovable cast characters whenever hear line always makes think moviebr br case point bad guys swat fly smack mosquito many movies lovable villains think find entertaining endearing fellows forget stooges cartoon s swat smack closest thing animated version moe curly but sadly larry ever find virtually funniest moments somehow involve gruesome twosome yeah theyre rotten nogoodniks still care them thats kind power see really talented writer director crewbr br the movie two brief jokes revolving around racial stereotypes native americans chinese think intended malicious theyre there regardless bother me itd pretty unfair warn someone potentially would bothered thembr br so share weakness and think do give one go,0 +gain weight look like idiot im skinny even,0 +im moments away killing myselfidk say anymore dont even want explain issues im done dont want continue live shitty world nobody cares all nobody cares anything goodbye,1 +im really really close know gonna news college freshman kills campusi dont care world knows it lost best friend made many mistakes wanted much him ill dead soon,1 +whats good day dieso ive wanting end quite now main thing put far actual scheduling process logistics plan proper redflag quite intense need proper venue audience wondering whether invite close relatives come watch main thing is it,1 +meme use sheher pronouns go celeste hope yall still love,0 +stp turning cuties mme cn acknowledge bad move please guys cringe also maybe insensitive,0 +creeps sub yo man ask dick pics made joke post saying pp hard said hes jacking right looked one photos posted myself wtf,0 +like whales rejected evolution returned fish like whale return fish,0 +know whats wrong me need help desire kill myself often moments seems like viable desirable option preface let say always strange self esteem issue friends family self esteem high truly hate human often go self hate benders last night long involve compiling reasons care hate ass death would positive thing worst part is reason upset reason hate bad rather persistent bullies elementary school even remember well guess started believe time became part am time fine love life love everything one percent hate point think would benefit end existence tonight girlfriend long discussion it said could bipolar currently studying psychology this first year college idea weather true girlfriend amazing person life says self hate hurting loves much makes hate more question need professional help think get own male helps thanks advance read rules posting would like clarify want know fine people think need psychiatric help edit forgot mention something important self hate benders usually beat ever loving shit myself blame tripping something stupid one time sibling mentioned weight issue im even fat slightly weight went self hate mode carved word fat onto stomach knife,1 +hate university life friends feel steadily depressedi feel lonely feel empty stopped exercises thought killing becomes wish ive talking people say im overreacting stopped taking serotoninregulating pills solve problem lost friends cant seem make ones life shit im gay makes even harder one question kill myself,1 +tomorrow pay rent im evicted sure struggle get thisso jealous people seem get life without much struggle strife entire life suffering everything difficult what family significant other passions hard time thinking take easy way out wouldnt make special considering thousands thousands people year country go route cash id definitely get gun could get with,1 +hey guys got dumped whats new you hurt much painful love people hurt me ex asked ex said was asked sure said yes fuck would that hurt much,0 +ive fool im home alone cat instead ill like dame da ne dame wo dame dame wohttpsyoutubeziwrvmvomi,0 +death like friendhi anyone else feel death thing wunt let,1 +boyfriend needs helpmy bf severly depressed suicidal ive asked get therapy many times hadnt yet im scared worried nd yesterday scary day told sister check constantly nd stuff rly think needs professional help right now want talk dad tell dad maybe consider taking bf mental hospital smth im worried abt mistreatment hes black man severe depression im veryscared might treat him think continuing untreated cause harm nd think rn thing tht might help mentsl hospital idk im also worried bx hes doesnt consent assume wont accept hospital wht ur high redflag risk tht different im scared worried dont know wht right thing yo is ik job like isnt getting help needs nd im worried waiting bring dont want die depressed feels like nothing get better nd everyone hates nd never right words say imnot equipped nd causing much stress love much nd wanna help way can feel small nd powerless want things get better deserves world,1 +played simlike games becauseid like family someday think redflag stop happening obviously ive download virtual family game phone kids third generation people now die happy closest get married family know know how feeling gnawing telling ill never live longer this one day ill take death hands hopefully ill brave enough so one day,1 +okay im going disagree past comments criticized show happen think show awesome i mean jasmin weber still franzi still alive addicting surprised learn categorized soap carry look feel soaps america soaps absolutely horrific least gzsz films location features real music plausible story lines moreover acting gzsz part quite believable especially josephine schmidt felix jascheroff plus soap actors hardest workers around business demanding work schedules ratings high must something right soaps america shown daytime and historically always rockbottom ratings give gzsz chance trust me good,0 +im fuh king whore knee please put misery,0 +prior seeing show people impression silent comedy essentially slapstick slapstick only could imagine screen comedy could possible without relying heavily spoken word numerous pratfalls masterful film proved wrong davies view probably greatest comedic actress come along prior lucille ball mention lucy primarily davies mannerisms facial expressions reminded point wonder davies one balls primary influences coming year old never seen silent comedy must say matter much periodspecific references actually get i didnt apparently bored movie probably even laugh would talkie comedies favorite silent comedy easily among ten favorite comedies time,0 +put blender top comment goes,0 +quick question stuff noticed twitter flag pretty girls twitter there ive never seen flag got emoji,0 +tldr tips manage depression stuck homeim edge severe depression feels worse cos two month respite period mid april early june things still shit mom still dying still felt loadssssss better however hit rock bottom cannot leave house much see friends developed social redflag too know make better tips handle depression stuck home would appreciated tips please,1 +riding giants amazing movie really shows people lived back surf lives basically surfing living breathing fun care money jobs girls thing waves girls never surf board looks hard understand stay them makes sense all awesome movie love surfing really see movie surfer want find started surfing came life really famous ever really see it might documentary really good tara f,0 +always bad depression redflag issues today seeing hearing things just much things like volume existence cranked db better curl bed eyes shut able actually fall asleep either anyone experience this always gotten really overwhelmed nothing like this first time life felt stimulated awake all,1 +yo someone help essay racism although greg peter mean jin dont think racist racism occurs usually one person thinks superior another due race dont think case here example greg called jin bucktooth said stay away dog regard superior way although greg said demeaning way clear greg cultural misunderstanding chinese people learned mom chinese people eat dogs greg called jin bucktooth clearly playground insult commenting appearance however even though wasnt racism gregs words still mean considered bullying definition,0 +hey hey youre swagger dagger ,0 +weigh muchnot exactly time sensitive post weighed ages shame incredible,1 +fake til make it last ditch effort failed want anymoretherapy meds exercise cbt moving new hobby new friends eating properly sleeping properly can finally pretending happy convince am failed ive tried all nothing actually fixes anything i problem cant sit thinking dog fucking street artist guy more cant fucking deal alone cant sit sidelines watching people live lives im fucking using oxygen everything fucking working for gone never happen let it im going waste fucking energy seeking know ill never have ive gone gotten situation someone depends rent money id fucking check right now thought put situation someone depended me would give push need get fuck this im starting feel really give shit anymore,1 +want talk someone right im alone everyone else asleep feel lonely strangely sad right now want someone talk little bit,0 +cant get headim talking people believe friends right now idea currently feel ive depressed couple years now yesterday hit hard got everything ready prepared deed tuesday following threeday rule past talking feelings family friends either driven away led insults nothing life going want to matter hard try people surround never seem find interest conversations know posting help really needed get chest,1 +look im saying would really gay put socks circle jerked plus midnight wont bad,0 +ooga booga lonely standards are female born female still female nice please play games please preferably brown hair really care much will make toast cuddle nice respect treat like human not sex not ready that buy stuff dont job im workin it older least years im mean unless im angry case mean it understand girl language be simple im guy god dammit,0 +drowning pain all wondering long moves on sad fuck think husband loves anymore,1 +judge fellow gamers matter somebody likes play fortnite minecraft among us legend zelda plants vs zombies matter matter sis things unite us,0 +found worst thing websiteits uredflagawarenessbothttpswwwredditcomuredflagawarenessbot yes bad expect be soulless bot replies redflag hotline number whenever sees stuff like i want kill myself imagine talking something serious wanting die bot poorly made minutes make creator feel like good person come reply comment soulless unedited text automatically replied thousands comments fuck uredflagawarenessbothttpswwwredditcomuredflagawarenessbot,1 +brett piper makes good film trashed called film experts low budget fun leading lady sexy wish could see irene joseph good viewing fun bought dvd enjoyed it special effects stop motion animation much better computer generated crap call effects today always enjoy brett piper movies liked recommend bite me screaming dead anything else done look forward seeing work well ms joseph simply cannot see woman movies acting excellent,0 +im tiredof parents gaslighting making feel insane everyone way around non existant parents lying make things way dad able decide want life forced follow everything dad asks avpd making things difficult take responsibility parents mistakes used like tool random panic attacks,1 +gonna ask thats right golly im nervous screw,0 +haw haw haw farewelli laugh laugh lot laugh much developed smile mask syndrome im shaking im typing this im crying im typing this im laughing im typing this im selfharming im typing this feels good cuts arms blood dripping phone might farewell hi there im yo iq tests official declarations dont care im average intelligence wich fucking annoying im diffrent like different music different hobbies wear different clothing people call old school social personality im nice person absolutely despise myself life music im one kids whose fav song something ed sheeran cant play instrument im multi instrumentalist im laughing now telling this dont know dont friends im different im constantly crying constantly laughing constantly sick could ramble whats wrong world isnt worth it might farewell wat de boer niet kent wat de boer niet vreet,1 +hi there end year needing go antidepressants struggling depression severe suicidal thoughts since among mental illnesses finally motivation seek help anyone know start call gp set appointment went camhs beyond uselessany help appreciated thanks accessing antidepressants uk,1 +goodbyei quitting,1 +mr blandings builds dream house may best frank caprapreston sturges movie neither man ever made love bringing baby philadelpia story thin man male war bride wonderful life movies made wit taste occasional tongue firmly panted cheek check one out post wwii life simply idyllically portrayedbr br grant absolute top form playing city mouse venturing life country squire loy adorable prenow wife cast supporting characters compares cant take contains early bit future tarzan lex barker art direction editing way parbr br the movie never stoops lowrent bythenumbers venal slapstick later adaptation money pit,0 +drop favorite albums comments im trying listen rate new album every day need recommendations country metal probably wont listen though heres ive already done far rap songs earl sweatshirt forest hills drive j cole miseducation lauryn hill ms lauryn hill mmfood mf doom emma forever ago bon iver undun roots internet childish gambino,0 +thought id ask crush today long ago struggled breathe nearly collapsed light headedness going assume wont asking today,0 +recently thoughts death even though great life many friends great parents stable family good income etc school taking toll putting redflag parents want die school kind want live pressure adult life see idea want future redflaging since people around already started career paths way afraid commit suicide yesterday without questioning thought what car ran lightning struck something died ever grow deal bullshit hate school much everyday drag bed commit class fr hours day mostly people teachers despise like said idk root thoughts since life always great fuck wrong me thoughts suicide even though great life,1 +slide dm like guy m really social people never life slid instagram dm every girl ive ever met mostly met a common friend b wingman c drunk going group girls never ever slid dm kind anxious it say start conversation talk about,0 +must play something contrarian reviews ab tak chappan extremely notredflag mine notredflag slightly equivalent c letter grade mebr br it seems lot praise rooted two factors one ab tak chappan realistic typical bollywood film two trying things differentlybr br the first point care less about im looking realism films score higher film shows story characters closer believe real world beim big fan surrealism fantasy absurdism on although dislike realist films merely fact theyre realistbr br for second point agree commendable try things differently however think originality versus formulaicism makes better worse film itself film original poor like film formulaic excellent matters well film whatever sets enjoyable aesthetically rewarding viewerbr br ab tak chappan based true story mumbai cop named daya naik naik encounter specialist encounter specialists could said early instantiations real world judge dredds trained operate like criminals gang members pursue theyre basically given license killeffectively acting policeman judge jury executioner matter moments ab tak chappan follows story sadhu agashe nana patekar encounter specialist based naik see work interacting fellow encounter specialists engaging violence see home trying live normal life lessthanluxurious surroundings see trying adjust new commissioner halfway film see odd relationship notorious indian gangster zameer zafar prasad purandharebr br all potential make fabulous gritty film agree nice forgo typical bollywood musical numbers romancesnot every film needs stuff ab tak chappan producer ram gopal varma famous leaving music romances background wayside many films hes directed produced additionally ab tak chappan good performancespatekar almost gives death wish era charles bronson vibe also admirable cinematographythe handheld stuff near beginning film particularly effective example great score mixes moody hollywoodsounding actioncrime score traditional indian instruments modalities violence well done grittybr br there also decent exploration subtexts including morality having encounter specialists idea following orders on encounter specialists shown largely divorce ideas right wrong poignantly film questions merit blindly following orders parallels drawn encounter specialists following orders and say members countrys military were shown corrupt situation lead tobr br but you knew but coming you director shimit amin scriptwriters created story far many characters far much sprawl moves bit slow problems may due amin crew looking godfather films ab tak chappan at least superficial resemblances to although policemans perspectivebr br most encounter specialists get know wellthese shallowly drawn characters say least except agashe jatin shukla nakul vaid one narayan know least halfway film name mentioned number times id get glimpses scene would change everyone would change clothes time appear id start figuring narayan wasbr br the thing happened agashes first commissioner film already far new commissioner could figure relationships seems like new characters every scene never learn stories them might artistic merit encounter specialists mostly killing people know anything because theyre mostly orders since learn much encounter specialists either difficult find characters care about exactly make gripping filmbr br the primary villain zameer halfway film theres indication this get much screen time villains parading film hes literally phoning performance inhes another location dubai communicating telephone majority film actually see zameer much extent film depends couple twists necessitate showing zameer number things could see things lot villains could left outbr br that would tightened film bit making focused halfhour shorter would benefited impact actionpacked film means least first minutes so found admiring ab tak chappans considerable style saying okay get story already,0 +im really bored ask questions anything might answer idk,0 +hate free speech hate it like someone walk like ass total vine energy take that theyre protected law,0 +two thumbs gonna fail science guy,0 +many family problems living situation problem know anymore many sad thoughts hating life wishing would endwhile said would never end life much hating life wish would end know anymore unhappy life,1 +awake scam im even paid pain every day wtf,0 +nearing endrecently realised really truly one say one mean one talk to boyfriend hes greatest places mentally tries stay strong fear telling thoughts set off knows happens head or atleast basics it think saying loud ruin him stuck nearing end,1 +bro heat thing hot seriously got mad ice wizard said use ice magic cool down like yeah okay permafrost us talented bitch,0 +keep thinking lowest gets worsethings getting worse worse cant anything it cant stop concentrating bad feel point anymor nothing look forward all interest everything hs dwindled nothing severed ties friends parents probably hate since inconsiderate lately cant stop selfish think myself fuck everything horrible life ive drug binge days feel nothing anymore care,1 +need get parents house sooner rather latermy dad wont stop calling faggot starting really break downhe gas lights daily basis insults puts constantly mom care oh yeah brother calls faggot too job nobody hire meive trying get job year now friends place go money completely utterly dependent parentsits fault know im stuck here least hope getting guaranteed kill myself,1 +annoying tell annoying,0 +sounds kind silly whenever something example spreading butter bread would black see stabbing butter knive would froze second like really noti got offer business academy independent scared worried would able adjust new people environment well years meeting new people conversationsits literally next month scared hate much get even worse suicidal thoughts maybe even going since away parents everyone know scared accidentally kill,1 +deal boredom daydream sometimes play last us multiplayer planetside ,0 +fucking hate sooo much terrible person mess everything wish everything could stop,1 +enough christmas year walked school saw neighbor put christmas lights thankfully whole village got school girl playing want christmas norway bad us malls first time ive heard year remember annoying,0 +welllllllllllllllpyo names josh suicidal fuck dunno maybe need say something think daily hourly like jesus need help haha get though dunno maybe im lazy something fucking hate myself enjoy life love friends family everything fucking hate me think im bad person like me hate world enjoy everything thats it interesting im interesting blah blah blah whiney stuff whiney stuff depression hate here love living hate here planet universe people love everyone around love make friends fucking hate people one wants thing anymore want never work towards it work towards it guess could say thats hate me ive bunched withwell everyone sit everyday hard wake up leave bed anything life get job love it never fucking go next day fucking hate cant help anyone tried always like know started bad backgroundi justfucking suck wanna sit car garage let ride yknow fall asleep tunes promised best friends kill myself cant promised them literally thing stopping me even promise time three us would kill ourselves literally jolt awake sat car long wanted to know wanted die day hard know is know im fucking talking anymore telling this whats fucking point im going fucking read anyways pointless joshua swarb,1 +want go outd wanna go outside know im bored,0 +truth dare got gf title somehow correct well girl bestfriend like go caught feelings yet never told scared friends friend group played truth dare somehow got question do feelings someone game avoiding question came back later learned true feelings other shy awkward around other share feelings around talk it idea do see going smoothly lol,0 +anyone available talkim edge,1 +school really sucking dick ahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaha gottem,0 +know benzodiazepines alcohol trick sure enough mg ativan pint vodka enough,1 +cant take anymorecan someone please tell fastest painless successful way kill yourself hanging probably really hard accomplish guns illegal drowning sounds unpleasant please tell end fucking life already,1 +browsing posters room came across poster size reasons brain translated dicks dicks shits still funny lmfao,0 +hospitalive put psych ward youth hospital think minute get im killing,1 +know what im gonna say it genuinely really like oatmeal rasin cookies,0 +sometimes wish id never born allhello everyone late night here life went downhill struggling heavy depression year ago absolute nightmare worst time life thought got it im much stable now turns wrong afraid coming back feeling yet am feel ashamed pitiful writing this really cant keep inside much longer theres nothing keeping anymore find happiness anything tried to ive tried see positives ive tried help people close me ive tried keep mind busy failed time education perspective future ill one remembered ill probably die nobody ive cutted myslef everyone strength write things led this painful me point wish quick death know ill never commit redflag im scared it enough courage so do im hopeless strength anything energy inside im waking every morning asking still here whats point living like thati hate past people suffered actions especially person cared about cant change ive done wish could disappear die disappear thanks giving timeand sorry grammar or any mistakes english first language nice day,1 +depressedif im suicidal mean im depressed know im suicidal dont know im depressed maybe thats part trying downplay problems actual question,1 +two things noticed film this spoiler mistake storytelling cole takes bill first be finds box soon cole finds says the box everyones got box minute later dumps contents floor says were actually fortunate see oftenbr br observation spoiler alertbr br i watch thing three times figure couple things out watched chronological version saw flash backs latter previous time changes points actually watching three different times min wall timebr br that good thing know many times could watch returning netflixbr br color obsessive,0 +watching please kill sleepthx,1 +one care also haha heres joke meno one cares even idk one probably even reads hell happening dont know bothers cannot trust anyone dont energy persist push friendships one puts effort like stupid feel like drive every conversation ever tiring stop dont even try left friend groups week even notice vent people say i care like shut fuck met seconds ago stop lying piece shit making feel weird saying one cares one feel like ok one caring bothers much like cant tell whats wrong shit keeps falling apart feels like destined kill myself tbh like everything life ever something leads on makes happy feel ok fucking crashes every fucking thing follows pattern cannot control these always happens things cannot control makes worse like fuck supposed whoevers reading also doesnt care whatever man one cares n n e mental issues cant get doc literal hell solving issues ask people hold put like days figure things one dont care leave cant say anything respecting boundaries we like fuck wrong me cant tell shitty personality dont even know dont know try nice bad timing im like miserable hell right suicidal strong urge ive looking ways bit thing keeping alive million thoughts happens ideas thoughts death driven anxiety honestly wearing might sometime later impulsively n n e c r e random person online dont care say care seconds disappear thats caring fuck would even know died tomorrow would even affect people know would say haha gasp nice guy like seconds go posting cringe memes stories dont think theyll care bec theyd check breathing almost dying brain issues get sad people putting effort put effort theyll probably tell im manipulative im guilt tripping owe nothing leave like fuck yeah dont owe anything dont conveniently leave im going rough patch man like actual fuck wrong people dont even ask therapist ask hang talk help distract apparently much time people need help come haha nice youre ok hope help thing cannot stop ranting fingers hurt typing like cannot tell something wrong inherently like personality bug spray im stuck loop bad timing events like dont know man might even overlooking people care dont know im huge urge get id ok probably help therpist process fucking traumatic past emotional abuse get better maybe solve issues mine thanks dumb fucking reaons cant talk publicly cant get doc like seek help yet cant find like fuck fuck everyone left conveniently little hard deal apologized many times fuck asshole wouldnt affect anyone also fuck people im one caring want end pain caused disorders hurts lot fuck everyone everything haha cherry top im lgbt orthodox fucking family theres lmaoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cant stop laughing yes mental breakdown dontk kms,1 +im scared im going like parents need rant im scared ive realizing lately toxic parents much messed up theyre verbal abuse physically abusive too opinions beliefs listened im allowed practice believe make feel like everythings fault im scared im going like get older kids already feel like im toxic towards friends mess someone like theyre messing right now ever want make someone feel make feel do try hard help friends know im constantly pulling making everyone unhappy future family too feel like present so already want around mess already know probably kind jumbled maybe make much sense needed get out thanks listening rant,0 +eating burgerlately things hard working job dont like hobbies going way think dont even enjoy hanging wife friends see facade put wanna sleep ate lunch today thought would note look like would leave one want stop cant tell anyone see anyone walls closing in im sorry everyone,1 +sorryi really hope dont mean im tired,1 +offbeat slowpaced entertaining erotic thriller many graphic blasphemous scenes undoubtedly disturb viewers however itll hard even appreciate several imaginative sequences film contains ignore krabbes firstrate performance verhoeven maintains intriguing ambivalence throughout film playing meaning heros visionsomens unfortunately last minutes everything turns blur unsatisfying ending certainly good rest movie ,0 +working right nowive posted different account since deleted thought felt better again im struggling pills self harm ive tried making positive changes nothing sticks bottom heart dont feel like going get better im married incredible person deserves nothing best struggling self worth feel like lack every single way tell want phase cant get believe keep thinking gotta get day every day point worth anymore,1 +im strugglingim atheist living muslim community anything hate me another reason yet want end one all lost best friends love litteraly absent family left me every day feel lonely even sad day before im avoid suicidal thought cant help it temptation going more think dying everyday afraid hurting myself physically scared thought would painful give fuck anymore want end it,1 +br br ok film going win awards pure bubblegum modern update its wonderful life come cheap release dvd lot worse ways blowing get film surprisingly strong cast still year two becoming b list celebs however enjoyable way passing hour half think much it,0 +sitting next cliff right nowim feeling pretty shitty right now writing cellphone parents huge argument divorce brother left house went separate ways went trail go walk im cliff ocean think theres anything death good friends feel like im anymore im sure typing proof that know waste everything itd hurt lot people kind want everyone realize was maybe death would actually make parents better people dad would nicer brother also really want die since well dying sucks im really sure go here again doubt ill it seems plausible right now,1 +time runs outit decided given years then get mess make so gonna hell atleast sister old enough understand see living life majority plain suffering let enjoy living live guess everyone meant live happily ever after,1 +personally enjoyed cut thouroughly first time ive seen theatrically release australian slasher flick genre normally restricted mainstream hollywood filmsbr br with usual cooky comedies dramas coming australia loved able see homegrown horror movie rip anything even think really spoof movies supernaturally theme horror like nightmare elm street scream know last summer therefore suspension disbelief think time australian films tried get mainstream genresbr br cut original scary enough ultimately bit fun id give seven ten treat anything serious expected do entertain scare enough times satisfying enjoyed it,0 +isnt weird crave something youve never ive never relationship yet wishing someone next,0 +vampires exist dont make fun im playing episode really hot vampire want one like rlly bad,0 +whos interested joining new discord server started were members wanna make grow server teens hang around lemme know interested ,0 +im itim going get gun local gun store im gonna go side lake pond near house it cant take living mind cant take sleeping awake anymore want mind cant mind noone exists mind nobody cares im bitter dance loneliness fading space love never love cant love ive always alone ive never met anyone cant mind mind cant anything mind stuck infinite pattern dont want mind get rid mind mind isnt fit reality exist here nobody even knew here im gone nothing never anything mind cant mind,1 +feel like cant anymore attempts past obviously survived tired take group weeks sitting park bench thinking would like end life straight life situations cant survive spent entire first years abused escaped tried make new life turns quite work like that met someone thought safe obviously take away mental health stuff helps turns angry aggressive understand stuff use make feel even worthless friends reach reach times welcome never graduated university shit job illegal job hate provides shit apartment abusive bf drowning debt cant pay back cant crawl back home hope change afraid fucking redflag attempt making things worse succeeding think im done razor home calling,1 +im scared live im scared dieim twelve years old rn want tell guys something started high school last year yr im yr now corona sucks wby guys started bullied even high school primary schoolit started get thisical i remember spell it grammar police help asked parents let move another school avail refused felt embarrassed show emotions public its like awhile happens even now trying get hide bad emotions eg sad know do still feel feel like killing year later its bad now dad going get kitten so wish luck get faze,1 +dont get point awards mean like someones post wouldnt better give actual money something already reddit premium,0 +im posting since arent posts youre gay,0 +ever committed psychiatric hold redflag watch so like happenedi know scared killing scared happen aak help committed psychiatric hospital mostly really know happens hospitalized even hours whatever notion nothing ever afterwards necessarily good experience whats like horrible screw life after wish happened glad did,1 +frick penis hole supremacists okay ive peeing years slightly pulling waistband popping cock take piss big deal right well let tell you cockhole supremacists ruining everything pretend like wiggling penis maze hole front underwear somehow effective false need penis hole underwear even included newer underwear brands live dinosaurs paleolithic era big strong men need penis hole reading ask reddit people use penis hole think people drop pants way ground pee real men dignity would never happen surely people peed wearing gym shorts which frequently flys pee pants around ankles simply put easier flop massive incher top waistband weave penis maze like penis hole use penis hole anything pathetic useless closethegap declaring today start penis hole war must shame anyone everyone unironically uses penis hole pee anything wearing formal attire even still mock regardless,0 +obsession saying uwu loud uwu,0 +call virgin alabama orphan,0 +miss things live fori miss enjoying life miss hobbies take mind pain cant take pleasure anything except sleep wish courage take permanent sleep life devoid meaning tell try something new ive spent plenty time nature ive tried play music ive tried sportsexercise ive tried art sex means nothing someone love dropped school future filled anything mediocrity existential anguish ennui,1 +gonna send awesome video cant send videos gonna awesome,0 +fuck imma say kamala harris kinda bad tho,0 +would spend money ending itsay youve gone youve reached point life nothing bring back happiness youve had youve already decided amount pain youre go however decide end it higher pain youve endured losing happiness money saved bank youve never used busy saving keeping secret biggest emergency lets say worth months worth comfortable rent would spend it,1 +like sports movies come past movie similar respects based fact sets movie apart rugby team sport many americans familiar with set aside movie rewarding piece film noir reminds we marshall smaller budget independent movie feel fine effort director ryan little bring us story rebellious teen played sean farris never back down rick penning finds odd place field despite plot lines holes film heart rewarding viewers good characters identify with also good performances supporting actors gary cole coach larry gelwix neal mcdonough coach penningricks dad felt go lot different emotions watching movie end left feeling faith mankind hope future children especially coaches like gelwix,0 +insanely lonely thought keeping meaningful relationships seems like much workyall ever get sad bc genuine friends hang friends always put other better friends first never say anything know wont able enough energy hang anyways wanna drop everyone dont worry keeping meaningless friendships remember crave social interaction times sit uncomfortable loneliness wishing closer people moreso wishing need socializing finally feel peace no me,1 +ok guys lets get real not love god spend money reddit coins holy shit outside rn saw someone fucking buy reddit coins amd kdifididididkdjdjebe wlaosidmekepeodjdnfncicockxnsmqw,0 +want end all im autistic im toxic element common failed relationships high school exclassmates still talk make jokes fun parents abusive stalk abuse adhd im trans body far changed pass surgeries would change im post high school education one believes parents abuse cant keep job born ugly medical problems cant attend cant afford want end,1 +im donetomorrows birthday im gonna kill cant take longer,1 +movie great starts real slow boring movie progresseswell fun keeps coming power movie perhaps subtle references lot and mean lot movies best part perhaps bruce leecrouching tiger hidden dragon scene two actors switches french chinese whatever asian language was awesome jokes names hilarious perhaps understand american no offense overall great movie,0 +series premiered cable tv station comedy central united states chopped death shown sequence sad audience attracted fell wayside luckily time cable company went digital got bbc thank goodness got see the league gentlemen order complete uncut br br the league gentlemen troupe right englands monty pythons flying circus canadas the kids hall buta warningbr br the league gentlemen though one step beyond dressing drag lampooning cultural ills goes deeper much much darker tell many offend certain groups people enrage others remember comedydark dark comedy thing watch think know dark comedy watch get angry upset quite know dark comedy br br these guys got right right button brilliant excellent enjoyed every character creation theres complete story told episode one end cannot watch one episode time willy nilly one charms series watch order see creative stylish deeply disturbed guys are one nothing bounds that dears dark humor bravo,0 +people need car understand people cars people thats useless probably drive,0 +reason reviewing previous review written someone walked film even half way through unfortunately him missed film tremendous beauty agreed film slow start fact friend fell asleep brieflyi woke snoring disturbed rest audience thankfully film developed story love drugs like young free experimental s fantastic performances two leads great look film gave real authentic feel patient like many great films well worth wait certainly film look forward revisiting ,0 +absolute redflag methodcurrently recovery failed redflag attempt want fail next time,1 +sure behaviour suicidal fueled anxietyi make brief possible anxiety issues since approximately bullied first time attended school guess never really got agoraphobia distrust peoples motives tried ssris which led redflag attempt lack ability orgasm taking them beta blockers did nothing cbt a grown man pony tail tell breathe differently nothing home parents leave house allure well paid day work i self employed typically coax house booking lucrative end result is cannot even afford glasses cant partake hobbies freely longer money earn spent transient happiness try make things feel better gone seconds belittled family despite repetitive attempts years granted maybe every year two really look sad type part explain feel know function better top causes anxiety well much causes things affected always looming anxiousness asked doctor could give weeks benzos try clear backlog responsibility declined commented we cant here referred cbt missed appointment ignored request receive phonecall get nervous open mail doctor told me explained paid taxes years pure inability contact handle it im sure handle late yet another year later tried phone helplines get someone contact agencies place apparently sectioned order assigned advocate going disability ha it cracked told fit work would defend tribunal order continue yeah ok someone anxiety issues definitely going opt that happy trapped fantasise redflag last months noticed difficulty swallowing increased lethargy past days spent bed feeling weak head pounding way familiar with yet seeking medical attention weird even situation seek help maybe post seeking help rationally though see nothing value gain posting here want feel chronicled remote event seriously ill sure giving anxious go outside scared things getting worse uncomfortable beyond that really care,1 +need talkim years old toying thought redflag months now need talk,1 +together years turned th entire life perfect would hold onto tell loves many plans future sudden reveals over said still loves me cannot make work confused want nothing love again says still does cannot make work worth another attempt know need work on three years it seriously know going stay alive one talk things like this option available hurts badly know going live strung along like,1 +somewhat simple thought instead samurai mastering blade mastered gun basically im thinking feudal japan musket gunpowder introduced instead samurai trained way blade instead learn use muskets get point basically sniper them masters it japan become full gun slinging samurai ronan yeah weapon would trickle lower levels soldiers dont skill mastery men trained birth use weapon rifles beautiful masterfully made engraved finest engravings common houses hand generation generation men hit flying dove least meters would guns long rang rifles would carry blunderbusses multiple pistols something friends thought last night wanted share world think it anything would like add go ahead love idea,0 +quick questionim gonna kill cut myselfalthough did anything find thought coming back constantly get school work job rest life ill live retirement home ten years die special theyre goal life me im pretty much watching world die phone sorry grammar,1 +ii think life going get better getting worse better half years honestly think take much this think ending every day halfformed plans head nothing more note anything gets harder every day stop myself,1 +im m im still im turning months still im throughout whole life hit puberty year ago think growth spurt already passed women date since im tall hell im way average bright side see get called cute thats height people take seriously get made fun of women see man im failure man add cant even socialize properly im skinny athletic get shit beat karate tournaments due large height weight difference lack intelligence cant get high grades fail lot height evident everything me cry easily give easily used try hard pace others ahead surpass fail anyway something always stop me unsociable lose patience easily cried month called girl cute whole class girls blocked me height thought weird creepy people told blocked me im joking people blocked me im extremely pathetic world hates me lack every talent skill universe give shits hard try ill always fail one likes me ill never get girlfriend ill never taken seriously ill never person want be ill always failure man,0 +gets better fo reali attempted redflag believed life meaningless point going living dealt suicidal ideation selfharm quite point know sucks hear people say it gets better over hell im pretty sick myself life continues hard always challenges always times feel like theres way out get fewer every day goes by really really really hate say it get better starts get better gets better talk someone post here open people really really want help you seems like already taken one step towards things getting better gets better seek professional help easy seeing counsellor tough first started going lady named mrs peacock for real peacock fuck told feeling suicidal somehow landed suffering light sensitivity syndrome helpful next guy went redflag attempt amazing old dude could talk anything regardless whether related recovery not talked music sports whatever fuck wanted to thats kind professional help beneficial opinion kind go in work feel need work on vent need vent about talk eddie vedder hour im trying say shop around gets better feel awake wake up lowest point would refuse get bed did like walking hazy shit would go school skip play games computers smoke seeing good counsellor while refuse get bed would still skip class though even longer refuse get bed would actually go class would occasionally dip smoke though cigrits tricky little fuckers gets better start smile fake ass shit say hi cousins friends kind smile comes nowhere kind like fuck brain im smiling see teeth see fucking teeth depressed grey matter motherfucker fuck yeah gets better stop caring look hang with parents think you people school think you gets better feel like make progress counsellor gets better listen depressing music feel happy know able kick shit depression anxiety also case wondering already done pretty awesome stuff wiped ass one point thats shit bad ass idea close hands shit wipe learned ride bike like fuck shit im using wheels feet feet pussies remember time jacked parents catch you stealthy shit learned tie shoes laces tangled shit like bitch bam rabbit ears lost teeth pieces head fell off man pieces head importantly came subreddit means safe loving community full people whove want help you tldr know you amazing love every single thing you,1 +want give lifei gay jobless single moved india states hoping give fresh start rather tumultuous childhood teenage years trying identify pushing fit among people dismissed different among muslim family know gay jobless today foreign land surviving last couple dollars keep getting rejected job interviews record masters electrical engineering something passionate hoping switch careers gained grounding us nothing sort happened life pushed back darkness yet again dont feel like going back home failed myself parents everyone hoped would make big never happened feel like corpse starting rot one talk feel lonely shit try pushing hope things dont seem happening want give rest drained mentally physically giving option see reason,1 +u check guitar song im beginner im quite proud this please check give feedback would great its first draft btw the songhttpssoundcloudcomusermatthewsacousticprojectrefclipboardamppaampc,0 +parents thoughts lgbt if know or think course feel like mom crazy homophobic like idea men women dating remember saying stuff like i mean think man woman thats be right never completely hating lgbt something im surprised considering shes christian haha,0 +idk anymorei really cant anymore life going downhill like literally wanna die time now friends family stresses much want happy want good grades want skinny want actual friends count on miss people me god getting bad never thought would back point,1 +watch film while soon after eatingbr br having said that begotten stick rest life like not based nihilistic philosophy life nothing man spasming ground to paraphrase title sequenceintroduction likely contain intense grisly imagery ever see filmbr br there dialogue image image describing cycle life films combination stark black white photography compounded truly creepy background sounds work drive home makers messagebr br the movie begins god portrayed bandaged obviously insane man slicing open torso straight razor subsequently dying filth death mother nature emerges corpse impregnate blood semen gives birth man represented maggot human convulsing earthbr br the landscape barren waste populated hulking shrouded humanoids eventually happen upon mother nature man slew violent scenes depicting rape nature destruction man humanoids proceed pound remains corpses back ground cycle life begins anewbr br i actually rented blockbuster one night based cover art hype content definitely blockbustertype film expect narrative dialogue pulled punches intense imagery based dark subjectbr br i give movie high marks filmwork audio think ill watching often again like movies dark unique one exponentially expected,0 +wanna stop existingive recently alot stressful events happen made life harder handle feel like stress contagious everyone around slowly harder time lives me ive wanted talk therapist many times feel fear theyll think im dangerous others im not want stop existing im really suicidal think extreme urge want stop stress sadness leave all probably sounds like im suicidal tbh im sure im posting all maybe put world say loud figuratively once ive never tried talk anyone mostly fear locked judged feelings,1 +need get chesti dating amazing girl three months now things going great enjoy every second spent together fast forward year old co worker comes says isnt gf shows pof app basically selling rich daddies shes gorgeous confront text im still work comes clean fucking guys side cash sometimes bed credit card earlier small purchase open maxes card about k jumps plane different province still see pof made account try contract her sure why really even care money thought going marry girl though oh also childhood dog run weekend thats fun tldr girl going marry breaks heart dog dies really sure im posting this im feeling really really desperately need support im point really care wake morning think id actually prefer that,1 +fuck math math quiz questions werent supposed another one extra credit got total go next zoom class tears eyes,0 +tired living chronic painbeen living chronic debilitating pain years gets little worse every year condition progresses medicine helps greatly expensive doc visits many barriers copay assistance card manufacturer helps always difficult understand supposed allowed day period overlap medication case issues refills pharmacies want wait run medication fill always takes longer think fill never stock makes cry every time happens claim warehouse supply anymore go somewhere else hate it almost normal person meds without cant much recently move wifes work area meds common really hard feel suicidal right like world want around medical problems afraid going miss dose even worse going able get prescription filled time fear every month everything tell do call ahead time give notice everything still cant get day supposed filled tired treated like belong bothering people need prescription fucking pain life sucks moment,1 +got new music today got record player yesterday folie deux fall boy gods favorite band green day vinyl weeks gf got birthday today dad went local vinyl storehead shopadult store picked records got abbey road beatles appetite destruction guns roses led zeppelins th hunky dory david bowie,0 +plan everything needis time think is dog alone together now nobody checked us week dont want go vicodin xanex oxys hydrocodone gauge shockwave dont work feel like im going wake nightmare cant weed used calm me smoke panic attack maybe ill wake early enjoy last sunrise morning nice alamo city week,1 +sure want doive battled depression long remember ive ups downs tried every medicine known man little actual results days manage ok one redflag attempt teenager took bunch tylenol pm pills still idea survived ill effects lately ive struggling more something happened kind pushed edge difficult relationship recently ended ex flipped out sent pictures loading gun blaming telling making easy make decision use himself kill himself part knows manipulating trying make feel bad him whole incident left feeling bad found going medicines last night counting many had would super easy get car drive place know take let water wash away think go thoughts constantly there im even sure im posting this cant tell anyone life feel think would flip out put ex position put in thats wrong wants talk think can lines cross beyond rhe limits get past guess needed get chest,1 +aita yiffing dead furry grandpa grandpa beautiful furry fox always got hard saw him would always fondle others furry nutsacks told stories fighting japanese world war ii however recently passed away due difficulties bubonic plague devastated beyond belief seemed like lost greatest friend two weeks later went funeral pay respects wanted pay much respects one looking snuck limp body bathroom put fursuit fondled furballs crying river knowing never me however mustve cried loud mother found dead grandpa immediately took little sister drove back hotel stayed grounded gay furry porn month aita,0 +guys guess gf shes great love playing raid shadow legends cant appreciate beautiful world pay win mobile games fact playing raid shadow legends use nord vpn assure big government cant get me freshly shaved face thanks dollar shave club confidence read audiobook audible later break raid shadow legends may even learn new fact skillshare sit listen music raycon earbuds wich high quality wireless earbuds pay ridge wallet wich able save money honey,0 +im going cry sleep bye depressed filler filler filler sad filler filler filler filler,0 +ive unsuccessful attemptsits making real angry life,1 +need sleep ive awake hours,0 +hate moment ever hate,1 +psychiatric hospitalill skip details lets say im good long time ive reached family close friend serious advice seems like probably go hospital while im pretty skeptical honest feel like options limited drivers license car also health insurance im currently living alone state far away family guess im asking is actually good idea making mistake ive heard hospitals mentally ill basically like prisons force around patients work well social setting all maybe could lead real consequences check in,1 +um free award free award anyone think deserves cant find anything interesting ask rn im feeling,0 +went breakup girl wants stay friends want hurt know painful me better friends cannot even one becuase still feelings hurts much know considering blocking everything contact get know hurt her also try think negative things order lose feelings still working sad scared know need advice,1 +told family im part incels stopped talking methey never child see whats wrong joining group shown love compassion right get mad seeking comfort solace people like myself,1 +need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great,0 +attempted redflag saturdaystill want diehey guys im turn sixteen week depressed years enough bullshit life past saturday attempted redflag drinking shots liqour went home vomiting everywhere blacking mom came upstairs saying fuck blacked woke next morning woke parents told heart beating beats per minute stopped breathing began lecturing telling im fucking idiot told wanted kill myself feel horrible attempted redflag still want die im lost could anyone please help,1 +belong anywherenothing ever helps try go friends either say shit help anyone stop replying fit anywhere anyone nobody cares enough help tough times makes worse me friends help private instagram help nobody cares wants around me ill never truly happy end everything,1 +age biggest insecurity see im play games comunicate people im also discord servers etc know people want me sometimes say things probably age guess im scared tell them take seriously anymore many people that im worried too hate age anyone issue,0 +really really wanna kill myself fail trying fifth timeive literally laughing hours shitty life are would try change honestly stopped caring happiness differentness awhile ago feel apathetic everything crave death much ive hurt body much feel like barely living corpse wish could send pray would answered god could take misery stay another second,1 +nicely done along new voyages great continuation fab see james cawley latest episode vigil check out br br i like growing characterisation think good replacements tv actors fanproduced piece show manages capture feel quite well state ste improved years experience hope experience strong script editor pickup timing cgi hf becoming remarkable already truly isbr br good work concernedbr br i huge soft spot lefler mcfarland great acting although im bit tired leflers laws enough already shelbys great if little uptight cool got ship commodore ians nice like fred flintstone lacks gritty edge commanding officer seem pleased himself doc counselor rawlins right money eyes wonderful nechayev what beautiful accent real russian well im guessing rene hails czech repbr br it gets vote cgi kewl greenscreens obvious small budget whaddayagonndobr br really glad found itbr br ok acting great fanmade therefore allowed variable sorry cmm colebr br the gay material layed thick graham nortond embarrassed trek pay much attention hetero couples signpost gays snogging necessary showpiece someones sexuality extent hope tone let aster zen people tokens treat gay friends differently theyre regular guysbr br musically mixed bag tell stock trek ost stuff works time timing fall flat the end worst fears part misses crunch edit love fact use galaxy quest musicbr br i certainly cant wait more dazzabr br never give up never surenderbr br viva les frontieres,0 +microwaves heating food fact microwaves work shooting microscopic waves food warm up fact screaming shooting sound waves vocal chords lets skip middle man warm food screaming it,0 +world shambles nothing works matter hard try still failure nothing done ever matter attractive one cares live die deserve here taking wasted spacei could say gist fucking cares think one one really doesno wonder developed eating disorder ugliest person ever met actual fuck okay brain okay nothing fix it tried hard tired cannot keep every day make stop hurts means think would right,1 +kind want jumpi feel really lonely like failure cant get somebody cant anymore taking toll me im apartment buildings seventh floor know could survive im really tired feeling way took screen window still afraid it,1 +homophobes tldr unironically spewing homophobic shit mouth make look gay ever heard internalized homophobia basically gay want accept begin dislike yourself probably go level denial usually lash others also gay speak existence gay people draws attention why presumably straight person care much gay people said person hiding something said person want hide something themself adamant homophobia often driven denial there famously homophobic politician makes global headlines caught sex someone gender internalized homophobia if really problem gay people keep people get impression like trying gay stop work either way attacking people okay if recognize post lot lgbt stuff im closeted irl spot walk eggshells jump hoops,0 +tried kill something stopped pulling triggeri dont know something talked away looking life perspective loose valued much,1 +feel like taking medication sitting bathtub seizure drowni cant get mind im fucking lonely want get work badly come home anything everything enjoyed boring feel like getting home get stoned go bed tomorrow repeat never ending circle fuck cares nothing would change gone doubt anyone would even show funeral probably felt obligated go,1 +famed filmmaker werner herzogs fata morgana breathtakingly unorthodox although characters appear film time time actual story film also educational historical documentary film without accompanying screenplaybr br the film consists curious background music somewhat illogical narrative vo combination overlays long string images mostly though exclusively sahara desert images wonderfully odd ordinary camera captures ghostly images mirages optical illusions tantalize mesmerizebr br this general cinematic trend punctuated occasional observational asides serendipitous topics example one sequence man wearing goggles gives us minitutorial lizards captivating bizarre sequence small inset room contains man dark goggles sings voice totally distorted microphone hes using accompanied old lady plays punchy tune old piano neither man old lady seems enjoy theyre doing baroquebr br fata morgana underlying concept one unites wide assortment strange images eclectic sounds concept subtle opaque never figure without help subtle theme film indeed make sense without point reference however film seem tedious unending pointless parade random earthy images esoteric narrative gibberishbr br unapologetically redundant thematically baffling cinematically heretical fata morgana likely either make swoon delight cause throw up either latch films zenlike qualities tempted smash dvd thousand pieces one thing viewers agree on fata morgana different,0 +cut first timeive thinking redflag lot lately even find solace idea tonight ex called blue ask random question sounds happy without me want feel pain chest took knife sliced wrist bit two places ive never done anything like part worries im getting closer closer pulling trigger,1 + karma ahahirbahsgejabhdhdajiabwjab,0 +ready go right placeim sat end plan front me healthcare professionals told foolproof could gone two hours thing stopping im currently staying parents unfair ones find me could gone within two hours want anymore childhood trauma fucked up raped kid fucked chances healthy relationship eventually people get sick able fake smile realise matter happy might able make me never lasts ill back rut cant get bed shower drink water eat drugs used help escape im wanting temporary escape want out last time attempted didnt succeed much better place back then wish could fortunate keep experiencing trauma cant fixed anymore multiple therapists give cant help antidepressants havent ever worked ive fluoxetine sertraline mirtazapine citalopram venlafaxine nada help stuck docs dosage schedules ive doses raised ive tried different types specialist therapies nothing works nothing stop shit im going possible change pain intolerable flashbacks intolerable dissociate much im missing things important keep getting told things get better without fail life gets harder harder cope with dont think im going see end year through guess year old right wasnt going live past age all,1 +try help many people im fucked insidei really hope single person tried help read this lot medication nerve pain an label use anxiety mood stabilizing ive drank way much taken way many pills fractured tailbone already today boyfriend should even call boyfriend anymore know think broke up thats doing thats raised narcissistic parent thinking deserve nothing well take drug abusing parent know im fucked head enough know deserve living month dosage neurotin originally nerve pain label use mood stabilizing anxiety high dosage xanax clonodine sleeping aid prescribed cant bothered going purse find name one month worth dosage shit load alcohol it think slow breathing trick helping others used help me kind of know anymore boyfriend asked ill see get home said maybe hell see me doubt see other,1 +everyone thats blind deaf,0 +called girl cute wasnt angry disgusted thatsba plus called cute think heart might explode,0 +im tiredim ive depressed almost years im really fucking tired feel empty time feels like rest fun nothing me feel distant every aspect life every single person place thing encounter bundle frustration selfhate waiting opened want die much want live way ive kept going sad say ignoring responsibilities disassociating playing way many video games good want anything want lie tall grass wait find body,1 +explaining mike mike one ocs made post showing facts trivia him post trying explain existence mike biology ask everything ill answer,0 +petition rate youtube one star everyone complains youtube giving second unskippable ads demonetizing innocent creators time something show people feel iti say go review youtube star appstore google play store,0 +oh fuck cant stop falling love let sleep shoulder gave jacket cold called pretty im crushing hard rn,0 +found rage novel mentions suicidal thoughtsthe rage novel question herehttpwwwredditcomrragenovelscommentsqhi_seriously_think_about_it_on_a_near_daily_basis ive posted ask reddit herehttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsquzua_redditor_just_posted_a_ragenovel_that told link here figured hurt post something get advice all anything else doz edit far ive linked im assuming guy context comic redflag prevention website well here ive sent message mods reported link also,1 +life one vicious cycle one way break itive depression long remember recently ive developed issues well always end spot im right now living state absolute misery never truly leaves ive thinking value life lot theres nothing born nothing die whats point this guess truly impossible know comes next fear unpleasant keeps sometimes ask born worst year life boosted feeling intense theyve ever been ill going college city soon jumping tall building crosses mind times per day,1 +like think reasonably intelligent human beings love film good attention detail enjoy indie movies funny smartly written dialogue film youbr br for poor attention span high expectations brains well um may get bored find things dragging timesbr br this charming modest well paced movie actors bestowing real sense depth warmth roles chuckled pretty much whole way throughbr br this film little gem,0 +think might commit soondidnt think could feel worse turns could im feeling worse ever cant take it,1 +know alone fall love random new girl every day feel like shit time extremely happy,0 +sooner die better minutesthis sub like guestbook me posting one final message pull plug futile life would ask help deserve it life worth saving years old clearly taken received money means little me thats one reasons im terminating experiment almost broke despite made two half years since college graduation im stock trader past months ive barely break even cant handle failure makes failure failure sudden swift unexpected future cannot work regular jobs due physical disability contest want praise pity statements fact im posting figure place honestly write without ridiculed gives closure also appreciate help readers try offer replies read them okay honest tell im piece shit deserve this pending divine intervention hour live within half hour begin irreversible process death thank listening goodbye,1 +died gang night passed out last time remember screaming top lungs fucking die woke everything still wrapped tight around neck untied myself got couch went sleep feel like waiting next opportunity feel numb fuck what tried,1 +tell go tell me where do i take us,0 +work yesterday girl asked number like ofc gave number weve talking since yesterday lowkey simps me ok cuz shes cute im concerned might take quick,0 +need helpi dont even know start writing this untreated adhd depression dont friends family parents passed away cant even take care properly live homeless shelter dont know else get back track cant find jobs cant relax cant sleep well cant stand still cant speak properly people like many years cant take anymore gotta something it really want end miserable living,1 +hate happens wanted hundreds different things guess actually did fell asleep three hours middle day,0 +want itim second year college sadly academic probation subject disqualification parents know bad school theyve paid much pocket know much better semester supposed make went shit never fucking secretly pledged one fraternity wouldve golden deal stress knowing pulled class keep going university comes point disqualified school know say parents want die want end shame brought upon myself,1 +redflag pact yall wanna watch power rangers somethin im bored,0 +definition failure lifehave ever felt like quite hit rock bottom yet going go downhill point on always struggled depression past months so seemed cured myself found ambitions friends girlfriend one month time everything came crashing down got rejected university times lost euros investing something extremely stupid friends which them told want friends anymore for obvious reason all absolute love life left someone else top off tried committing redflag woke massive headache girl breaking given actual ptsd random anxiety attacks lasted weeks now cause wake every morning never experienced symptoms biggest failure around wake every morning hoping enough balls properly kill myself reading definitely gives courage actually it,1 +gf broke cus called communist piece shit worth bros tried share candies me clearly brainwashed socialist democrat poropoganda cant life longliveancapistan,0 +everyone ups downs everyone goes though good bad days however realized missing something more feeling like even though told heard feels like quite opposite feeling misunderstood long remember catching me almost communication parents friends busy life girlfriend years left couple days ago exhausted true need find settle things me lacking motivation past years nothing feel inspired by nothing drives feel like another person awaits time go suicidal thoughts before time scare guess asking help help see haveare feeling way coping holding tothank reading unable find happiness peace,1 +cant get head anymoreim ive dealing anxiety depression since middle school finally diagnosed sever depression anxiety last summer start medication month ago dr celaxa right now helping last week nonstop torment me ive lost control mind mind static selfhate ive come close edge past always still mind anymore know much have,1 +first saw movie freshman high school film stuck years soundtrack cinematography even dialogue somewhat bad acting educational purpose message behind important sin child teenager still high school really bad thing either problem tons girls knew children now guess never watched great movie did clearly get message behind all taking chances sexual relationship girl get pregnant first time myth necessarily lose dreams take backseat future child think firstbr br this movie clear message behind it say no,0 +protected im currently junior high school im feel like ive wasted life think issue parents parents essentially control every aspect life im allowed use social media do want see everything post like follow im using reddit website phone clear history using time parents dont even let play multiplayer games xbox ps cant even play friends without sit right listen say them cant go anywhere without texting parents arrive location also track phone find iphone theyve forced im studying place work clubs join essentially dont use email anything dont even control bank account either friends ive never girlfriend want kill myself im older im going never speak parents never visit them issue,0 +theory posts pedos getting removed mods pedos gets removed get banned theyre proving point take ur pedo,0 +ty scrolling new cookie next post,0 +dude office committed redflagi never knew interesting seeing people react wish wasnt jealous him hope hes peace life tends drain every part theres nothing left hope knows dont blame all mind sick arguably worst kind sick eats alive,1 +fun rpg play schedule wake get stuffed minotaur kill enemies snuggle nice sheep side quests grind enemies sleep minotaur,0 +welp doesnt feelings fuck,0 +take huxtable parents blend kyle parents get perfect blend top edge parenting wish family childrearing skills best part show parents come pompous selfrighteous upper class know alls time stereotypical undereducated parents constantly bamboozled disrespected children kids ages kyle kids see much situations mirroring experiences family silliness indulge goes show love family take seriously keep household together fun kids,0 +thought anywhere good movieit stars two wonderful actresses susan sarandon natlie portman heard movie together resist watching itoverall pretty enjoyable movieit moments felt tried hard also really overdone wornout material anything movie absolutely hatedi even liked used popup performance uncredited thora birch little happysad moments touching effectiveif want watch movie go ahead even though recommend it something avoid rating seems unfair opinion,0 +im glad finally released dvd bought video tape years ago watch least twice yearbr br grammer wry wit really makes movie success formula certainly original funny nonetheless surprised receive higher ratingsbr br it ranks one alltime favorite comedies fun little flick makes feel good sometimes thats movie meant be,0 +read what actual fuck,0 +depression strong physically hurtsi feel sharp pain chest anyone else feel thing,1 +im tiredi tired want keep going chronic untreated pain miss late husband like missing limb dreams goals nothing live for less desiring redflag wanting live theres nothing left world me okay that resources access tried crisis center last year give medications which kill lol insisted talk way would multi day patient way contact job oh insisting would referred legal name gender whole time so guess going give up last year thought wandering woods freeze death cold enough now,1 +im tewwibwe human bewing oh god im tewwibwe human wewe watching video schoow memowiaw new thing sewious heawtbweaking yeah got weawwy howny mind stawted thinking sexuaw stuff heww wwong me witewawwy wanted put hand pants im tewwibwe human beingive fowfeited wife pwiviweges,0 +friend said energy deal suicidali messaged old friend probably best friend even though im theirs a month talking since everyone abandoned moved outofstate university mean literally every friend ive feeling suicidal and know spent many full nights holding loaded shotgun basement younger hours texted really energy deal me support asking was theyre really mood deal me ampxb really know get heart involved anymore always ends mistake sometimes wonder calvinists right god created people knowing damned always suffer think im one them matter much study volunteer meditate write try kind lot cast thats that,1 +heres shower thought guys life unskipable ad abortions ad blockers,0 +lmaooo mf really said please u disrespectful homophobic people i sending cant ,0 +go get summer job summer anyone got recommendations best options would summer job,0 +venting realityi single year old man sleep shitty couch cheapest apartment barely afford always filthy small keep clean make less k year beg pay every weekend real shoes clothes friends family one talk with hope future share lack money never given anything extra alone even pet keep comforted reminder couldnt afford save him coward ending life everyday wake here im reminded im coward coward failure,1 +im sick everythingits fucked world fucked environmental level already beyond needed sustain life planet everything trending downward stagnating economically unless top tenth one percent politicians political parties want anything anybody substantive level alcoholism opioid addiction still roaring among americans one them alcoholic dont care getting fucking drunk shit every fucking night preferrable accepting world is fucking friends anymore one job life quit two weeks cuz im fucking pussy piece shit im fuckign years old thi situation live fucking parents fuck everything im high school dropout fuck fuck fuck im fucking failure holy shit cant fucking take gone shit everythign shit im sorry fuck everything,1 +must say movie truly amazing heartwarming reese witherspoon charming jason londons bad either sweet watching dani fall love breaks heart yet warms heart time watching court fall love maureen however even sweeter watching much cares dani must admit though kind want fall dani end cute watching fall want get heart broken badly biggest tragedy ever seen occurred movie watching die made cry whole day could believe it however never loving relationship shown movie maureen dani really make anything giving movie want court die still one amazing movies ever seen,0 +time great achievement im changing user flair cause birthday first birthday subreddit cant say guys made great though,0 +planning swallow lot sleeping pills tonight would like know info lethal dose effects body survive procedure etchi anyone reading this first post reddit really know works anyone read time really hoping so mentioning redflag triggers you sorry please stop reading ill quickly explain backstory get point please know serious im telling whoever reads life sympathypity however suppose attentionupvotes get commentsadvice im looking anyone experience medical knowledge tell repercussions body follow plan thank advance im female secondyear university student well smaller university first year transferred bigger one took classes labs realized much late drop taking two now two exams tomorrow know pass feel sick embarrassed time care trauma abuse loving home supportive family good income parents basically excuse except here time know seeing psychologist father paying for couple weeks really helping lied asked im suicidal surprisingly easy apparently im good liar wanted doctordentist like parents like friend aspiring be current events failing semester idea want be thought abovesmarter everyone high school held apart spent lunch library went straight home made three friends lost touch one pretty pathetic parents paying everything including dorm longer using classes failing know got here know im lazy think covid situation really brought issues light like lonely am really try fell behind fast september struggling keep every since procrastinate lot well motivation contact anyone except family weekends roommate dorm really connect her spent time bed watching moviesyoutube blame hate myself ive done far think could hate painneedles started dull knife making cuts along arms nothing severe switched bladescalpel thing supposed used cutting paper realized dull begun bought package razor blades day thin bendy hard get good grip them yesterday advanced down river cuts first time cant go deep bc pain id say made past skin fatty tissue pretty shallow half cm cm wide though hoping taking something numb pain help commit idea severe be lucky fortunate never hospital many times conditions volunteering high school took lot antihistamine pills checked er afraid going die nothing happened take enough time hope will plan bought bottle vodka pain packages sleeping pills cant tell name theyre car still razor blades packages pills think mg diphenhydramine hydrochloride each package advil sleeping pills pills amount remember correctly math correct pills x mg mg g assume lethal dose ive done research mainly reddit still cant find lethal dose is know people survived attempts made drink charcoal control pissshit admitted psych ward lots needles think could take embarrassment that something kill me permanent brain damage damage liver happen me skip pills try cut deeper im using clip hannah baker reasons inspiration ironic bc cringe whenever watched cut deep might take bed try sleep drive car park its winter here take anyone finds me parents embarrassed phone able call ambulance second thoughts anyone tell effects mg etc really know truly want die believe god know would go hell im coward im hoping ill open eyes wake worry exams anymore know want im going try something tonight maybe hours least drugs ive ever done alcohol weed hate feeling control im pretty sure im prepared happen take particular pills anyone gotten far thank taking time read existential crisis experience particular type drug please let know effects are thanks,1 +depressed loner girls drugs im lonely depressed drugs need friend sum,0 +wanted say birthday thats it thats post,0 +want sing go along are fire,0 +hate texting supposed feel natural something feels natural all cant see fucking person cant hear tone voice cant see body language im supposed understand right thing say dry conversation maybe comes easily people think things conversation im supposed pretend isnt hate people rely texting much im expected perfect response somehow natural all im given option take time irl im supposed talk isnt time craft perfect response problem words screen hard make words convey feel already hard irl somehow pretend im fucking writer everyone expectations im sick fact cant meet,0 +things improve im going kill new years dayi barely handle personal life constant anxiety depression anger state world way keeps getting worse worse much bear think take it im already breaking point end sight think survive constant stress,1 +even im cooking hes still screaming face telling im done job need quit now yell back something job grips behind arm around throat grab knife using cut chicken tell get me lets go scream bit more made smart remark jabbed face busted inside lip bleeding,1 +tldr help support partner starts treatments severe depression redflagmy partner suffering depression recently prescribed lustral help given option signing work also started therapy really happy getting help feel bit blind foolish understanding bad become her want make sure supportive can anyone advise trying dohere ideas read far would appreciate feedback on positivity in negativity do complain partner anything take others take share house work cleaning keep house clean mess redflagful flowers often empathise sympathise how would good active listening remember her me take anything says personally read possible side effects lustralthanks advance guidance apologies advance violates rules checked maybe missed something support partner suffering depression,1 +alan rudolphs breakfast champions slides theaters little fanfare much derision makes think back keith gordons mother night came out talk kurt vonnegut unfilmable surprising gotten two superb cinematic treatments the slaughterhouse five mother night certainly one underappreciated films decade cannot understand why brilliant stays almost entirely faithful vonneguts book without stilted overly literary adds poetry purely cinematic many film adaptations authors work claim that vonnegut even puts cameo appearance towards end film ask better endorsement that beautiful film beautifully acted written directed film among picks top five american films s mournful inspired surreal masterpiece deserve neglected would sincerely encourage anyone see mother night even take familiarity vonneguts work fully appreciate as slaughterhouse five sometimes does powerful affecting piece cinema,0 +cant itabout month ago posted detailing ongoing battle depression psychosis anxiety skin disorder ezcema causes alot distress lost mom cancer who alot selfreflecting began realizing crippled via neglect overbearing nature conditional love based academic performance lost countless friendships social ineptitude simply withdrew society aside work actually tried amend friendships lost went horrible was either blocked much time passed person honest forgot admitted bad blood begin with overtime logistics job allowed save christmas given family here ill probably donate it long story short cant commit redflag cant go like either bridge planned jump extra servaillance holiday season exhaust pipe go via carbon monoxide adn im scared die via poisoning drop hanging method aside two planned months really hoping former becauae clearance said bridge higher golden gate safety net im crushed golden ticket out wouldve intimate thing ive done planned leave behing multiple notes friends loved ones along assuring theyd better off going birthday present approaches beginning next month id finally able permanently prevent screwing always cant anymore know now want spend another year here,1 +anyone want noodles instant ramen stir fried noodles veggies stuff boring,0 +horny cop question bonk you make even horny record im gonna catch horny,0 +holy shit said yes hell yeah confessed crush likes back fucking pog edit yall feel lonely tell person like like them close friends enjoy company ask want friends even like back sure feel lonley always someone there,0 +please someone kill me want anymorei pay it write note please favour care anymore fucking hope anything trash not give method painful it begging it everything please even deserve live help me death would peaceful me would pain,1 +cry every two days mean depressed contributing eye puffiness eye bags haha weird bc actually drinking water haha yet bags appeared june gone great annoying all know,0 +profile say apart horny posts ofc would yall bully irl cuz would,0 +male depressed suicidal thoughts keep yourself become outcast dont wanna become weirdo man up,1 +guys put weight lets fkinmg go dikdakdlksskdkaks httpsimgurcomazhpcnwg ive trying hard years im finally normal weight,0 +join subreddit now rdogeprime 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wits two friends people consider academically smart claim smarter one talking one day decided battle wits find one actually smarter serious thing supposed prepare questions stuff im pretty much ideas thus far three rounds wikipedia speedrun first one get wikipedia page danjaq plastic surgery clicking links winner flash questions answer many trivia questions minute can whoever answers questions correctly winner drawing competition draw something using ms paint whoevers drawing crowd deems best winner were gonna people watching well far id like make around rounds whoever wins rounds considered bigger brain input appreciated thanks ,0 +goal purpose desirewhat fuck point anything absolutely nothing want life except kill escape world theres place anyway absolutely nothing life except play video games endlessly browse internet content literally purpose alive want job hate college absolutely refuse join military want change life see point changing desire commit redflag even imagine living see graduating college im pretty much lazy piece shit loser hate every fiber being never imagine someone loving caring unconditionally thought happening foreign concept me literally fault too fault unmotivated worthless human being absolutely nothing change situation yet still bitching it weird thing is even want change myself id rather let thoughts consume commit redflag guess ill end post here already made enough pity parties already one day ill eventually stop posting swerve car tree escape bullshit garbage world,1 +dear bi tri quadrilingual people languages intentional misspelling writing like example english intentionally type yes yah ye nah gonna lie ngl honest tbh even literally sometimes type hmmm someone were thinking or least thats do way examples know them languages least these,0 +good son good brother good friend good person exist ruin everything crave feeling nothing all wish could never existed maybe would turned way definitely ok,1 +get money ya ya get money ya ya like ooooooh oooooooh,0 +think much action end think too romance adventure like told put movie action place long liked reeve bit understand die thought one girls gonna die lucky one else liked die you liked saw movie twice actually bought too worth it liked best person book really really really cool actresses actors too everything perfect song name end someone answer questions too please please please,0 +well two days weather nice snowing windy back regularly scheduled seasonal depression guess,0 +like holy shit one best friends holy shit one ups every way kissed girl fore did indepth conversation lewdness spooning girl friend tonguekissed girl twisted way the envy actually pushes to it,0 +keep goinghow keep going physically painful skin keep going husband the literal person life chosing others me stop feeling alone one reach to ive taking way much xanax thing numbs pain please know make hurting stop make wishing would die stop tell me im desperate,1 +ive dealing crappy situation months asked help everone said scamer feel like im finally donne tying got crappy roomate situation trying rebuild life ive trying stay positive ive nearly pushed edge times week apparently ive reported scammer kept getting messages banned apparently lot subs including hireawriter follow lot writing subs help know write follow one see demand people think im terrible person know anymore people life really current roommates parents got divorced didnt want pick side dont hang friends due situation roomate ive going therapy local charity bad felt like least options kept reminding wasnt fault okay feel like terrible person everyone see terrible dont know anymore life basically mostly gone plants destroyed dog spend months training feel happy anxiety protect her ask step mom helped could brag bio mom thing getting telling myslef wasnt fault im horrible human letting evrything happen dog keeping stuff safe evryone thinks im bad feel like must right dont know anymore feel like giving up,1 +want die cant find courage kill myselfi nobody right ill probably delete five minutes like everything post im probably writing attention sense somebody might listen me maybe let out ive laying bed past week lot sleeping crying crack pressure college yet again ive thinking lot it various methods always excuse too painful risk brain damage living dont want family find body like that etc think devastated family would gets cry old friends would sad too resistance even much affects everybody else fucking hate brain convinced everything life worthless got shitty draw life everybody even slackers knew graduated started careers kept stopping anxietydepression wish could murdered hit car get violently ill something could die without family living redflag walking dark unfamiliar street yesterday thought hey getting stabbed dying street bad course even glorifying pain since im coward thinking lying floor life leave body strange idealize that times get disgusted thoughts sometimes walk outside wish could fall floor lay cold concrete forever even dead still motionless peaceful like im sleeping eternity fantasy nobody even notices everything else world keeps going see subway trains feel impulse second want painmess instead ride train similar thought floor before man wish could sit train nestled plastic corner eyes closedforever fantasize death like sleep scenarios feel like failure life fucking dropped college twice happening again im live parents im virgin never relationship woman friends anymore terrible social anxiety im ugly overall wasted potential future fucking point anymore thought could beat depression matter what never long depressed maybe im depressed enough yet overcome fear killing myself know whats worse idea things get worse fact im stuck cycle misery yet unable end already kinda hope spiral control finally point end fucking misery wish could fucking normal seem possible,1 +part want die think instinct to larger part feels like option every day week month feel getting closer scared f,1 +me either dying redflag dying cruel illnesswhat miserable life would love able live carefree healthy many reasons live healthy soon illness comes play even would otherwise fight redflag silent actually happy person would like live long life planet earth illnesses rob joie de vivre,1 +homework yeah ik online school struggle reddit suck in take time study oor sleep shit,0 +unlived lifemy youth im trouble every day give myself faced exhausting battle realize im making life harder time wastedi slowly killing one wants involved bs worse way go understood yesterday dont think kill myself comes itill watching morbid horrifying self destruction cant make people care want toill lose everything omg bad,1 +anyone wana talk im editing video gets really boring want someone talk it problably whole thing cause takes whilem maters,0 +impossible tale female witch pursuing mortal man mortal world community open among members conceals witchcraft mortals hmmmmthis starting sound familiar lol typical movie campy performances jack lemmon ernie kovacs keep things getting dull kim novak always pleasure screen found pairing james stewart unusual but fatal storybr br with renewed interest things witchy dark film deserves discovered rediscovered old new audiences still hoot ,0 +mum get second parenti planting seeds nieces dad ill take bus school next academic year literally said dad memy mum slapped ass today a joke called demon past called ugly past wants take sisters daughter school several miles car studying university final yeari one tried change schools one emailing council one hourlong meetings appeal niece one called council give shit help niece thenand now that take schoolwhat point living feel like run away home pay university accommodation something times never responsibilitywhy why why want end,1 +fuck wrong people,1 +mood right httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkijpcuvbmampappdesktophttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkijpcuvbmampappdesktop,0 +first suicidal thought quite time one talk toi dont want concern parents therapist holiday hotlines shit country dont want anympre hear day long everything planet going shit dont want anymore everything goes down wont anything dont know deal this also depression getting worse reminding everything ever remotely wrong,1 + film improvise impressions given changes know score schooled genre always problems following chord changes anyway trumpet player yknow pretty well limited basic keep tune mind ad lib around that jammed incredibly moody black white blues piece knot gave head heart trying figure whether go ensemble pick path along tune story guess went tune usual kept getting lost changestoo deep extensive head probably still gas try keep pace admired actors playing theme story line see things heare things others seem to feel light skin gal trying pass much either oblivious color issue trying ignore itat first later came back fighting brooding light skin young man his trumpet noodling mas ludicrous ambiguous ambivalent perhaps best featureremote what thought shadowcurtain closed provocative pieceis foundation thing like this way finding reality setting stage peopling expressive characters giving melody theme real truthful wellcrafted scriptwithout benefit editing revising improvisation heroic artiermoreso crafted work greater clearer truth retrospective artcraft fabrication reformation well still lost question loved film got lost cool blue foggy evening go home get horn guess what broke twelvebar blues riff tried truecouldnt make stray tune reality scary jaime says give more im break,0 +wanted see valentine ever since saw denise richards marley shelton played favorite movies ever watched valentine amazed great story line actually was kills see low rating horrible all actors actresses played parts wonderfully way ended brilliant cunning scenes little unbelievable poor admit minor parts got small bit boring overall nonstop entertaining suspenseful mindtwisting story line made guess whole way deserve crap gets recommend movie watch anytime especially valentines day sure give ton chills oh even pay attention trailer rating please dont,0 +idk else post this something thinking bit mean post gate keeping judging way deep always kind suspect suicide attempts people take big amount pill take anything prevent throwing cry help thing like cutting superficial scars blood crust show people see someone tv wherever recognize kind actionstropes communicateim desperatei need help replicate communicate message environment think kind blurs line really suicidal peoplepeople harm symptoms mental illness ones asking help suicide ask help,1 +confusing basically id sex gender matter gender is dont wanna one getting ya know unless head ofc,0 +im suicidal im notlike wanna die kill myself tbh someone killed me care im becoming paranoid friends hate me ive convinced im terrible person im worst person believe terrible mask lifting recently things enjoy fun tbh really wanna live im tired joys life o,1 + years heri anorexic dealing bullshit since got diagnosed im facing hardest relapse ever feel alone ashamed feel like one really understands fucking miserable illness im floating here alone ive abusing adderall ive sleeping lot avoid eating im uni feel like also adds pressure overall feel look overweight cant possible stress enough fucking look overweight im thin rail snap it pound thinking still pounds anyways im making post feel lost feel like cant recover ive dealing stupid voice past years non stop never fucking stops god damn never stops feel like going music eternity haunting die think ive reached point ill anything get voice head cant take anymore constant fight me her food cant anymore years stupid shit gets tiring im tired want out didnt sign this,1 +anxiety pushing edgei sick life cannot enjoy single minute without brain reminding fucking loser everything failure made big post rdepression sum up hate myself nothing going me almost live shitty basement relationship since driving license never travelled never year felt good defeat defeat it gets better yet failing school potential jobs friends family nightmares every night upcoming exams failed hard last year told horrible field every single day fear upcoming stuff feared first weeks fo years months going lot courses etc went fine felt anxiety something else exams days first exam brain already decided fail it big exam end month yup probably fail too dont want live fear wont ever get drivers license fear capable right never get girlfriend know waaay better men there terms do nice look cannot swim think gets dark hours ill jump drown panic hopefully never found sorry everyone hurt good life life meant everyone,1 +got sony video handycam lying around house apparently use grandparents back s things missing mm tapes battery,0 +nothing worth living anymorei drove away friends matter cant ever get back ruined life girl love im also slowly fucking relationship mum depressed ive thing left live for know much longer,1 +excellent movie made even fact wife stumbled onto serendipitously channel surfing nice frozen day north texas kathy bates usual best leading cast normal human costar characters thru one wonderful feel good movies weve ever seen movie given attention deserved release difficult understand head shoulders many boring pieces trash released greater fanfare attention evident viewing obvious general public forcefed deemed great wonderful powerful influential true gems unconditional love manage shine thru pretenders really enjoyable cinema rent buy movieyou regret it,0 +allowed talk ps feel like crap anytime want talk ps know lot people cant get things like incredibly video game parents feel like talk peoples troubles dont know thats right neither two friends one wish could invite cant stupid stupid covid stupider antimaskers antivaxxers everything hard isnt english teacher grading assignment sent three emails it know lot less struggle life many people subreddit shouldnt blow proportion struggles undervalued feel like post get chest feel like probably stayed title writing felt like lot stuff needed get out sorry know tiny compared others gone,0 +know else turn to feels like brain hates me happy good job roof head clothes back lot people have able smile drains energy possibly describe voices head tell good enough never good enough pathetic useless worthless stupid waste space time energy matter world would better without me besides small screw grand scheme things world still spin family move on maybe without dragging down finally happy look mirror harbor nothing disgust resentment thing looking back me speaks me pathetic useless learned young age people pretend care see scars cut legs cannot see those one ever see those pretend care talk behind back oh look cutting again pathetic grow up be man told family monsters say phase its fucking phase want feel ok ok motherfucker got attention need change couple things change eat right exercise literally drink water dog thing world keeping here made decision kill june rd am tied noose hung closet wrote note one would ever care stepped closet thought last time dog barked never that cannot her live her pathetic staying alive dog animal would forget month family would forget month friends even care now bring past family parent told impossible man get raped well guess impossible happened twice life secluded away women hard time opening trying get relationship understand that exactly something bring first date heh never get second ones pathetic typing bunch strangers care they tried getting help meds make feel worse them therapists push agendas one you themselves myself one is worthless even done things thought id never do prayed prayed looking asking help strength get rid demons monsters avail monster laughs me useless used smart used lot practical knowledge superficial stupid nothing life make difference words say bring impact anyone else want one person read this suppose lot ask would waste time energy precious internet activity someone so pathetic want reach out waste space time energy matter matter never will die history books never say name never look me bones ground turning dust least ill useful fungus probably even right place post this many people need am made promise intend keep it die give dog best life deserves mean spend every waking moment wishing thinking planning death one day disappear never seen again would go canada northern forests find spot summer already picked day june rd good day die method sure guns messy pills unreliable rope trick anyone read this thank you sorry decided waste time reading words something like me thank nonetheless typed days hovering post button wanting burden others stupid problems gets sent all id surprised monster mirror,1 +happiest days life showcases britains greatest comedy talents time traditionally farcical upperclasstwit like fashion generally whistlestop tour stuffy english behaviour girlsonly school providing great setting dotty goingson margaret rutherford alastair sim especially joyce grenfell fantastic giving us lot laughs express utter horror deal with film moves on things get sillier sillier tour around school parents suitably crackers high pointbr br at point give special mention again joyce grenfell wonderful character miss gossage extraordinarily innocent silly apologetic ineffectual seems steal whole film provides greatest laugh film flirts male teacher call sausagebr br whilst film slow dated always involving still maintains sparkle barely pauses romance good silly harmless gigglebr br ,0 +become terrible person myself manipulator swore never become love ones fooled awful person feelings one loves me rather play along say empty words everyone values me love cannot find heart love anything anymore apathy maybe missed likely missed person thought loved missed veiled liar ya know never seen coming nice gone false face all would miss me miss them,1 +new york people like get boiga,0 +asked crush like girl asked said yes great attention revert back monkey,0 +working outhello whoever reads this going keep short diagnosed epilepsy behavioral disorders poor really go college epilepsy disqualified military career epilepsy made hard focus taken away many opportunities take disability checks want work hard recently yelled work due confusion stir thinking patterns losing insurance soon means cant get anymore help consultation switching medications help seizures bought house hoped help grow investments turned sinking slab foundation right purchase plumbing bad almost financially drained longer accept tenants poor quality life house aside deep drive thinking were society today point time wish born true timeline hunting gathering sure quality life may crap would connected nature without many abstractions society government laws taxes properties restricted areas etc freedom us businessmen elites government people corporations screw us day laws protect us today ridiculous figure way get money go college get good paying job afterwards beg employers hire us pay us crappy wages little benefits left crumbs scraps called great economy im tired sleepy tried everything power including spiritual guidance positive reinforcement hopes future work hard say money cant buy happiness yes no ever wanted good health healthy environment hobbies painting art writing computer code end driving deliver uber eats full time job make ends meet latest events covid expensive things are even sleepy feels like sapped away energy want go sleep never worked never will held back never will long time want check out wrong timeline,1 +weird question girl liked recently got relationship dad died month half ago didnt ask figured would come across rude didnt anyways leads question long relationship predicted last,0 +drop ur comfort media go think music probably origami angel pdaddy cshr shows probably b tbh games probably splatoon,0 +goddamn wish mom meow meow myow mow meow meow meow myow myow meow mow meow meow mow meow meow myow,0 +today daynear future though,1 +often teenage boys think sex im wondering topic come often something really really find caring pondering day long,0 +pathetic like dream hugged role model last night afraid stepdad gonna attack mom like hes steroids panicked ive told many people reddit real life things get bad go adult need advice go adult kids so went exs dad hes best adult ive ever seen mad didnt hit scream throw things people would calmly raise voice not yell scream gain volume say disappointed know consequences actions he bf time front us even shit hit fan never screamed attacked like thought people would made wanna cry disappointed man overshared lot adrenaline gave caring short answers think may told little much abuse continuing they kinda knew wasnt told extent home eventually calmed felt weird texting him dont regret going him hes adult know good person fully but im scared hes shared family which understandable concerning situation may gained disdain mother dad grandma like comfort figures me trust lot people dad role model but ex best friend ex bfs sister wants dead know it dont know ex feels day try erase memory live without crying knowing disappointed whole group people loved dearly finally go bed slept weighted blanket supposed take away nightmares check profile quite often didnt dream ex surprising nightmarish figures dream getting ice cream dad getting hug floated something different without him woke feeling weird said dream ill ask guys weird dream got hug role model happens exs dad weird comforted lot it,0 +need advice trying find things cannot signs depression advice cannot cry anymore also,1 +realisewhen finally realise months telling thought much realise option cant live like longer girlmy self mind dreams gone nothing take back past please let anybody stand way you nobody narcissistic personality destroy life please please run sooner later end take,1 +different would world everyone itobviously condone telling anyone commit redflag imagine one day every one us considered it succeeded it many people would go different would world without us better worse thought,1 +conversation starter one get raped block cheese,0 +whole account joke feel like people dont get vibe kinda make obvious,0 +f really messed life dont hopemy family always shitty me dont speak family anymore it speak mom phone week speak brother birthdays holidays sister father contact with extended family grew isolated from dont speak either dont friends like mean isnt single person world call phone casual conversation otherwise with one person call husband got married last year knew schizophrenic knew family antisemitic mom saluted hitler front knowing im jewish married anyway werent even contact family much stopped taking meds psychosis relapsed couldnt function work staying parents house stressed psychosis triggering suicidal thoughts keep thinking much fucking hate family like zero repercussions would want actually cause physical harm mother also really angry would jeopardize finances ability work taking meds feel really alone like reason live like need divorce husband dont want kill myself divorce starting life seems harder killing myself dont know im fucking exhausted emotional support whatsoever feel like failure like made poor naive decisions im paying feel like want life doesnt matter existence doesnt matter feels like wont ever get better cheers,1 +completed assignments one night get appreciation effort everyone thinks im dumb everything last minute c,0 +question asking myself months underage less think asked fricking question live mom two sisters dad live another country another family care asking that one sisters years old said when wad big baby needed suck problems grow up adults do fvck want act like adult little sister admired it sister years old one really talking to age difference interest book anime japan culture started talking together sincerelly regret it thinks older me mom scolding something wrong that think it way much example one day best friend home noise drinking chocolate milk smashed head cup started crying bleeding friend told exagerating say sorry help no think right thing cared example started fighting verbally pinned sofa hurting shoulders pushed stomach cn go room there sis literally started beating up till floor crying screaming stop hurts stop fucking beating sis said stop get physical one pushing sofa called mom said want know anything example yesterday july playing fortnite cousin stepsis used curse know sarcastic said shut f step sis syam yo big sis name started yelling do talk like that like xas talking ti bitch said things like y responding because conversation works end said to think friend like well pick people petsonnality friend but since wanted finish argument said uh smashed head switch playing with screaming what wrong pushed stomch crazy would go away conclusion scratch face maybe keep ever yesterday that scarified myself days it care mark fact would want face hurts tried end life multiple times since first time person family rped me since cannot feel pleasure life even forgive person still horrible me sexuality problem mom said you lucky accept you like think accept me kid people get kicked out guess lucky gender problem identify genderfluid person hehim pronous one love even use pronous even it problem need smile always even eating mom said exact wordssmile said smile ugh smile like unhappy either even reason hapoy smile well reason smile happy anything except eating last least asked never asked born live mother go see friends go someone birthday live feed house go school asked things one go see therapist asked it asked three time even said yes anything so supposed i supposed smile supposed stay mom fighted years even care mental health well supposed let sisters hit me years older supposed things cannot even take care supposed ,1 +anyone lives philippines here someone send something someone kill methank you done,1 +bye see later rythwsfrstghtsrhtgrhtrash,0 +want live anymorei cant anymore job years used normal one point met love life happy together years planned kids getting married bring get job lived parents parents apartment different times ive smoking weed ever sense age got addicted it smoked everyday every hours years more got comfortable girlfriend kept giving money get anytime needed it let weed take life let things wanted wanted provide wanted man used know first met cant change ive done fact pushed away dint love anymore name tattooed arm constant reminder fuck am cut friends almost family talk to ive always depressed suicidal always helped threw it ive cut countless time passed sad thought would die smoke tried drinking bottle cold medicine night obviously drink enough job im still here im alone sitting old room old bed want live knowing ive done want find anyone else want get get job get bed want get with worst part im scared die kill want feel nothing problem want family ex girlfriend think fault it need realize never get better unless im dead want anyone feel bad think made it know many nights sit try succeed,1 +wishthat halloween michael myers stop stab rip head off sending prayers money thank much,1 +bestselling book honour killings jordan withdrawn publishers allegations surface story fabricated associated allegations authors past conwoman years later resurfaces conceding took certain amount dramatic licence willing cooperate filmmaker prove substance allegations follows fascinating insight pathological personality someone whos behaviour one makes sense unless saying true yet seemingly incapable saying anything astonishingly dramatic unproven best often verifiably false almost impossible imagine ms khouri hoped gain appearing film vindication celebrity achieve project certain image deeply damaged individual even cannot taken face value director anna broinowski appears increasingly camera film progresses increasingly exasperated boot finally rewarded remarkable although scary disturbing tale tell one films reminds us thoroughly weird world live in,0 +im fuckin happy sebastian vettel checo podium,0 +feel wayi aspersions family im well off im healthy decent job feel like hopeless terribly sad contemplate redflag weekly living hurt much,1 +dociton humane painless way end iti thoughts committing redflag using heartbeat slowing medication dociton effective easier humane painless way it,1 +apocalypse short thing based ucoffeeman s post warnings violence character death hours hours since world went shit do im fourteen year old fucks sake gun im athletic really browse reddit watch minecraft youtubers day ive holed small condostyle house laptop praying some upper deity end gets dangerous go outside seventeenyearold going alias coffeeman patient zero know cause thats news stopped uploading info went insane died came back right took buried knew zombies could quick agile fucking aggressive people going down left right friends gone well kyle aries last heard nickname chased hes gone radio silent ever since stormy hook ivan tmk confirmed alive though im surprised ivan hes called murder kid reason stormys pretty quick zombies quicker hear scratching door stiffen grab vlog knife pocketknife gained goofy name story id read gets less goofy stabbing someones eye though door handle turns two quick knocks relax zombies may fast agile theyre dumb shit cant open doors kind like minecraft zombies think except minecraft zombies run like rabid animals nothing left lose whispering bitehttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskpcabite_wanna_start_a_zombie_outbreakutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf they well manage bite someone hard describe sounds blue sad type blue cold disconnected type blue sounds like something see antarctic ocean alone sup say hook looking him hes pretty shaken up trembling bruised looks chokes out stormys dead flinging something bedside table passing out run check pulse still there barely notice something right sleeve check it small bite barely there bite nonetheless jump back stung nonononononononono hook stormy im speedrunning five stages grief two minutes but might well put misery grab vlog knife carefully dutifully slit throat blood spatters onto clothes simply look it used gory sight like movies sever brains neural stem rest body damage brain beyond point repair zombie dies saw neck off flesh throat soft tiring work theres bone almost takes nick two knife but end get done standing up pop back shake pins needles legs theres use crying him think everyone dies cest la vie dump body window good longterm need decomposing corpse house right now remembering hook tossed something onto table go pick thing package opening package eyes widen grin wide mouth starts hurting probably look like cheshire cat right now care less set lighters remember said physical well theres exception start walk house forgetting fears worries right now zombies burn right now things test time commit arson hi howd like it characters used friends pov multiple nicknames call arson mayonnaise chaos hope enjoyed,0 +getting collapsetoday reddit realized hope going get better depressed happened isolation taken toll way people turned thanks media influence makes worse now food system starting collapse whole lot people still fine quarantine way people treat subs people really beneath masks wear work good outweigh bad more whether someone believes god bible certainly nailed human nature percent correctly im heading woods people say go im killing others ill sure wear mask,1 +expensive liveive overdosed know wont kill me dream dying slide consciousness next hours life getting harder harder dont know im meant keep going health insurance going minimum month april im australia health insurance must appropriate inpatient mental health care rent going week may moving somewhere cheaper means wont able access public transport even socially isolated physical health isnt improving looks like im collecting chronic illnesses every year im alive none cure treatment manage symptoms theres guarantees ive already rejected appealing ndis disability support would fucking amazing electric wheelchair would mean leave house independently try build kind life im stuck home small collapsible mobility scooter allows get local shops further im disability never increases cost living quit work year ago became unwell work manager simply chose give shifts im done dont think ever meant alive long redflag entirely logical solves many problems cant otherwise solve,1 +hey girlam tv bc get turned everytime see,0 +guys realized tik tok tok tik toktik toxic literally name,0 +way start well year old male thoughts every fucking day get gun shoot injure myself course life rough fall mega christian church completely fucked life making religious subreddit first religion made happy exploited music back ground dining playing guitar bass electric guitar drums etc talented touched instrument months well would serve church everyday joke cuz service everyday even getting paid wanted thought serving lord job fast forward drained want fucking blow brains tell take break say leave turning back god left turned back spoke since beliefs god dead probably borderline atheist fear going hell stops wanting end way miss old church life gave false hope depressing happy thankfully got health insurance want get therapy psychiatry help adhere feelings yeah venting feelings incase anyone gone friends high expectations hate live day day yes thank listening wanting die constantly mind,1 +losing weight im lbs im idk thats normal im pretty damn insecure im attempting water fast christmas pandemic shit family cant really afford gym membership cheapest way loose weight opinion ill update every day around pm central standard time,0 +found major problems pregnancy going make it devastated find comfort one thought trying again one planned cannot imagine life without child cannot feel ok unless commit successful pregnancy cannot let go baby supposed hold loved baby moment found carrying child loss feel big cannot ok surviving miscarriage,1 +short term memory loss vs examsby short term memory loss mean remember incidents years ago memory fuzzy details things happened minutes prior kind like i remember learned th grade remember learned hour ago since exams tomorrow failure inevitable clear state short term memory loss even able find job honestly give single fuck now get wrong highachieving student sophomore year highschool reality hit fan instead pretending yet another slave billion counting meat grinder called humanity want care existence let alone caring university exams graduation etc pretty sure end garbage called existence deal university exams graduation etc difficult part trying find painless easy method end it no need pity optimism its going better care anything getting better spewing religious beliefs imaginary gods soul life me tired majority humans religions delusions schizophrenic attitude towards existence optimism made want end first place guess what majority humans miserable sheep little piles secrets follow mass without question tired amount bullhit majority human come with way majority humans are would rather hit red button open way asteroid hit earth mark sudden mass extinction humansanimals plant species drink coffee watch world burn included no ive never lonely ive room ive felt suicidal never felt one person could enter room fix everything bothering me words loneliness something never bothered always terrible itch solitude quote ibsen the strongest men alone never thought well someone come room give fuckjob rub balls ill good no help know majority humans like wow going do sit there well yep theres nothing there bullhit delusion sadomasochistic attitudes towards existence hypocrisy thrown around outside majority humans mingling patting back delusional let stupidify themselves im get advice write im bored hit head wall stop thinking university exams graduation etc,1 +thank much everyone love youi wrote post yesterdayhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsqnadjust_hit__my_life_is_just_fucking_miserable expecting attention all somehow gained k views got bombarded nothing helpful thoughtful positive messages pms helped much guys idea think years ive never happy much face filled smile whole day thank you thank much know im alone situation people actually care best fucking thing life know what decided ask crush ive never talked her saw face instant crush know work ill make plan it ill definitely month goes wrong fuck it ive got nothing lose point im feeling confident thanks guys thank much love sub love guys thank you,1 +ive taken dangerous hobbiesunless im thrill seeking pushing things far im depressed ive purchased gear start ice climbing mountaineering ive several close calls activities every time go survival mode refuse let die basically live im close death suspect physical ability declines depression worsen im considering leaving girlfriend parents die wont anyone left mourn death accident,1 +nobody turn toi friends family talk me girlfriend never one ima pretty soon since im nobody hire im typical creepy dude nobody gives fuck about people despise want destroy me nightmare getting mental health treatment im male god attention compliments really cant stand it wish somebody cared wish subhuman,1 +pugs r better drama um besides drama reddit stuff lets idk appreciate dogs dogs cute specially pugs like chunky cuter family thinking getting pug soft cute yea gosh melting heart typing,0 +know attractive directly told signs attractive specially signs easy miss,0 +know title this scenario annoys me so usually wifi restriction pc goes p however crap happened which ill get shortly able bypass curfew naturally a parent would control wifi however brother recently got caught talking online friends group chat week back resolved controlled timer likely used automatic timer crap matter nothing wrong im really pissed stupid mistake point want know bypass eero wifi restriction talking option way getting restrictions saw post subreddit explained bypassing wifi restriction help works update now curfew time however brother racking hours driving think found chance loophole however think proves wrong wifi still person controlled,0 +psycho dark mode would u voluntarily wanna burn ur eyes,0 +irish people come ye black tans cone put fight men like man yanks wondering irish people hate black tan people much,0 + xans alcoholwhy hard kill yourself ive attempts now years old shit never gets better chronic pain anxiety plus depression seems like im shit even killing myself took around xans half bottle vodka woke hospital days later flu week straight huh im still suicidal still wish dead,1 +everyone wants live nobody seems care make things worse mejust rant everyone wants live terms give shit make harder actually try want live care add misery im selfish one wanting die whats point nobody acts like even want around mom yelled panic attack every time wake one like make better im supposed keep living even though miserable frankly keep going year now keep going constantly pain nobody acts like even like around point much relief me i want to die im allowed nothing nobody willing make easier whats point,1 +relate heavilyi used idea graduating hs getting college would change everything could move boyfriend good life grades community college classes slipping wont get degree want able graduate college friends want world good life feels like things relentlessly falling apart dont actively want kill sometimes want stop existing little,1 +wanna bury face pair thighs getting petted kissed top head dream boys,0 +painless ways diei planning taking life soon afraid going feel pain die soo want see anyone knows painless ways die,1 +change uf although birthday almost days ago,0 +anyone recognize username probably worth shot,0 +reply best quote youve heard ill rate l l,0 +need outi need help please,1 +dababy officially enemy republic perserve republican values longer less goooo anyone turning convertible crucified,0 +also always bite pick lips meaning usually patch dried blood also chew nails though ive found clip nails almost everyday goes away know behaviors typical ocd ocd symptoms think redflag tips would appreciated want share habits go ahead,1 +days one big blur mundane mentally trapped mind feel way escape kill myself mentally tired,1 +yes plot predictable yes plot holes yes madefortv quality yes britney spears wrote book obvious selfpromotionbr br but forget that movie funbr br fun school special sortofway fun neverthelessbr br virginia madsen mother great job good im going start watching movies reminded diane lane good reasonsbr br the rest cast fine job too casting agent id scouting young actorsbr br the production values usual tv standards music really great better several bigbudget movies ive seenbr br if mood german noir movie you want safe fun underrated movie good one one could show year old daughter enjoy too,0 +free silver first person comment bean literally gain silver free,0 +anyone else really like old british rail era diesel trains trains general love trains know facts trains know person likes trains my dad old diesels mean class youre sure look up also go trainspotting nearby station anyone else this get adults hobby live near rails good,0 +alternatives rredflagwatchdear rredflagwatch think truly fantastic place times ive really wanted someone talk anonymously sw appropriate reasons include problems unrelated redflag im sure scope appropriate topics sw obviously anything related redflag serious depression belongs here topics concern poster nothing redflag lack privacy although make throwaway account anonymous every post publicly available posting lot detailed information risky delayed responses know phone numbers provided emergencies numbers appropriate nonemergencies level anonymity think would help and hopefully many others built list alternative resources sw appropriate place go alternatives could include relevant forums relevant irc channels relevant chatrooms relevant subreddits contact details people willing provide support done successful think helpful please let know tldr places talk anonymously problems rredflagwatch appropriate,1 +humans evil speciesi get people fucking mean time cant accept yeah people rough sure help make others feel miserable cant get life together sorry needed share somewhere since people talk things yeah everyone evil ended,1 +ive never felt bad beforei one else share this considered friends turned bunch people wanted around money listened without saying word family give shit need take chest asap make feel like someones listening id appreciate so fucked childhood sexual abuse coming family good making friends poor af bad talking people watch people fighting arguing breaking house down yelling heart beating like gonna die feel like voice adolescence bad tho started understand things dad addicted alcohol mom depression good person lived house since understood divorced teenager things start make sense scarry hell ready shit thrown me little boy deserve childhood wanted normal parents told love me now im almost mom moved places ended get back house shit happened mom moved away tired seeing brothers killing themselves selling drugs drugs fucking life up me old man problems alcohol hes shitty old son bitch depends take care him brothers get along all gigantic killing everyday time me dreams cant eat well one single reason live voice courage yell i wanna take care you father deserve this please die go hell im sorry dumping here like said anyone count with,1 +ive gotten point stress sad tired angry ive let go posture bad voice low slow im tired literally everyday everyone tired fault think mean got huge mental health issues that barely survived btw abs math comes right push back im weak get overwhelmed feel like cant anything cry cry boys shouldnt cry anytime someone tried teach anything repeat never understand lost friends nothing nothing live for dont mean sound like pity party feel like theres nothing anymore,0 +okay yeah im almost donethe next fucking horrible thing happens life im done thats it cant mentally deal anything else happens me life ruined thoughts fucking fault got little bit encouragement could able end right now sadly cant get with fault happening me deserve pay price im living life taking happy pills like this honestly theres anyone would like encourage please go ahead,1 +get f chat poor dude used head shoulders shampoo lube may pray dick burning ceases,0 +well day posting every day get girlfriend got friendzoned hell back yesterday im damn wreck never told parents gonna confess her actually never knew like her im trying break front wont understand im crying theyll get mad telling them fucking hurts though happened stupidest way too working facing dairy bakery guy came joked us making cute couple really didnt appreciate joke made clear friends felt like id stabbed know didnt mean hurt me im mad her im really sad still doesnt know like her cant tell now would hurt shed feel bad happened yesterday send help,0 +completely useless simp girl even succeed going long distance shit,0 +im scared friends im lot friends really weird fetishes like bdsm shit dont try hide theyre completely public it dont know disturbs fetishes normal age go away feel scared,1 +things ever start looking up im ready give timesso ive dealt depression since ive relationships come way fail ive multiple jobs nothing help reaching goals well got full time job enjoy thats great thing girlfriend life months now im worried much good happening once take every situation think could go wrong tears makes wanna give feel like fail job relationship plain happy dont know anymore dont much faith myself feel like ruin everything good have,1 +third post sorryi sorry feel like commiting redemption posting anonymous feel better receiving anonymous love care internet sorry disappoint go everywhere disappoint say sorry mean hate disappointing disappointing you talk much sorry keep much sorry still figuring out go sleep live disappoint wake another day disappoint people around me say i love you like mean say easy cry disappointed you hate thinking much thinking enough sorry love ,1 +fan probably enjoy this know misty mundae darian caine ruby larocca seduction cinema are movie start with cute silly girls hot fun watch theres sex whatsoever end minute film score cheesytrippy plots total bore misty mundaes makeup bad movie hair awkward braids hot others panties quite cute youll see movie sound really weird like one probably enjoy that s girl vampire vixens erotic survivor which bit sexually graphic prefer watching misty esmerelda less sexual horrorexploitationbased but lower budget movies check factory website,0 +relish every moment languorous spectacle music match mahlers th gorgeous listen vocal portion rd symphony beautifully utilised film many aspects film main subject overpowering force beauty spontaneous nature absence logic love adoration also ardent fan bogarde believe rarely wonderful try the servant however note recommmend multiple viewings,0 +ventingdepressingshit fucked fucked upill place disclaimer here vent im seeking hang there life gets better lovely butterflies sunshine rainbows crap theres actual advice there would appreciated long story short back wall im tired fighting keep head water basically last years life pretty much pingpong really good really miserable homeschooled grew two brothers friends lived rural area neighbor kids best friends life younger siblings family relatively normal save mothers drive good scores good university good life aside getting ged age things pretty much ok took sport excelled top ten nationally younger brother made world team basically three us constantly shoved one another upwards climbed national rankingsthe first one world team ironically would one never national champion first week university officer walks bio class pulls there accident brother killed himself publicly announced hundred students state quite christianwell get back that parents freakout mode younger brother goes catatonic eldest sibling get call family close family friends get help circling wagons end day brother deliberately kill himself dropped loaded gun snagged hook that gone th inch way wouldve missed left likely terrified alive fast forward pretty much immerse school sport family pretty much shattered trying find way change majors everyone major either pitied told hoped ok brother hell nice folks ultimately started transferring colleges get state get away family try get head clear escape everyone knew this athletics made national champion surviving brother told continue making monetary stipend best interests go work national coach months later shoulder dislocatedi opted limp things years finally getting surgery learning labrium separated shoulder partial tears along four tendons video analysis doctor physical therapist agreed coach teaching long term effectsi lucky one get early put athletics perspective trained hours week including gym time cross training etc stayed fulltime student landed top university final transfer life revolved around sport school mom insisted good grades etc got b keeping things line wanted kill myself stabbed arm razor times various halfassed attempts get things dealt with top events without good reason id feel awful missed olympic team points honestly mind much bad grade losing brother rough met girl awesome thing yo men dumped months ok met another girl also awesome love loved figured better nothing occured school im graduate atso now meanwhile years efforti slumped sport last two years ive top barely winning easy collegiate eventsand often lose guys halfassing it ive worked best coach world two years think hes awesome know form methods workand cant pull out event got depressed making world team got wasted accepted blowjob random girl which still reading yes cheated girl thought awesome moving on ive spent last months state massive regret trying hide night girl steadily picked apart figured things out morning phone buzzed text guessed password blowjob girl sent text saying hey tested stds blew you summarize apologize long was im job skills life aside academics best friend brother died first week college fucked cheated one person related me thinks im good guy knows alternative feelings good guy thing recently one best sport two consecutive years failure feel like trash social skills homeschooled friends feel like complete shit tldr im douchebag trying get life back order figure killing best thing everyone involved knife italy thats razor sharp anatomy chart wall pretty sure time around pull off,1 +bunch pill bottles here taken yet really want to hardim probably going energy fight later hope sleep that ive crying day want hurt anymore hurts much fucking exhausting,1 +second abortion yearcame year long abusive narcissistic relationshipmy ex discarded better people constant suicidal thoughtsno career prospectsi respect myselfi many friendsim tired make life betterim begging god take away instead relentlessly punishing like this wringer,1 +someone please explain emoji thing like get cringy use like emojis rather actual words even like weird one emoji end comment negative karma isnt little harsh,0 +really believe im beyond savedas pain grows thought family friends would feel ended life slowly starts numb mind focuses ending life dont know born way dont know suffering worth it dont know chosen born way game kinda hurtful,1 +may wanna reach crush dunno dont really want reach think cut something says fuck talking me relatively non obvious annoying way reach least become sort friends,0 +motivation group ive feeling demotivated lately idea might work small group people around age send message saying life like right want change months work changing lives way want return march st talk successful unsuccessful us far fetched idea think could work message want try out,0 +piece called wholesome cats butt requested uownneedleworker httpsimgurcomaedrhttpsimgurcomaedr,0 +dreams dead whats pointall life ive wanted children ive never sure anything else want big family least four kids grandkids greatgrandkids works things ive known ive dreamed whole life husband trying months temping charting ive discovered im basically infertile unlikely kids without medical intervention im convinced cannot conceive naturally even could would take long timeline would ruined beyond repair cant afford fertility treatments options cant wait afford it ill unlikely kids want early enough even get see grandkids grow up much less greatgrandkids never one thing ive dreamed entire life chance broken body blew it gotten better job earlier on id able afford something like this qualify aid insurance cover enough us afford this even waited requisite year im sol thought two kids instead four makes cry thought first child makes cry even want try ill never see dreams come true point living id rather die adjust dream go grave telling this fine fine itll never fine dreams died like soul chance successful resuscitation,1 +im tired suicidal im tired drive liveive wanting blow brains since im tired never endless sadness im done ive decided im going best live happy go die final choice ive made im going struggle best can bottle paracetomal rope strong tree final decision either live happy die sad way tiring thank comminitys support good bye,1 +family except dogno siblings parents dad passed away little mom severely terminally ill rest family dont want anything me years old year family own even so really jealous peers close families mother daughter brunches family trips etc one nothing live for one share joys tears with thing keeping going dog fantasize giving adoption i know family really wants her kill finally cant work details though go peacefully bed but would find dead body literally one would look me woods car sounds pretty ideal wish guns legal country maybe finally take trip europe ive always wanted kill myself waiting saving go trip special someone thats clearly never going happen absolutely terrifying alone world want mind shut permanently,1 +know do worst relationship imagine goal happy worked way feel unwanted feel lost feel alone feel confused feel scared know say anyone know fucking sad mi genuinely feel lost,1 +friends person while know real name age country live in always saw online am their time zone morning always asked could sleep told thinking much again always talked till went sleep days ago conversation told going away long time asked said it happens heard since four days passed do online friend feeling suicidal massaged days,1 +needed tell somebody anybodythis isnt looking someone come save me isnt wanting attention wanted tell somebody it lays heavy mind want hours peaceful boyfriend killed days ago fully completely love sickly sweet reason now hold on starting whole life together going get place april year get two cats angus maggie eventually get married live together happily things went well really good true pretty much reason decided try get better wanted future wanted future me went amazingly first time long long time didnt want die maybe reliant happy cannot stand world without him everything quickly caving me theres way fix it funeral absolute breaking point me many people standing room see coffin hear songs loved see family mourn big gathering people something completely snapped longer even slight hesitation this,1 +get cross human dna whale dna banned sea world,0 +think im actually gonna iti planned august carbon monoxide poisoning think make week dont think handle one day like,1 +stepsis applications must get stuck daily,0 +school really hard ive seen lot memes posted talking difficult school is go good school online lot people struggling able understand ask all think schools making online much harder person food thought lack motivation much work enough student teacher conversation,0 + much worsebeing pessimistic complaining help optimistic help either already planned day redflag september ,1 +blank canvaswith blank canvas thats years old go do move draw last line clock out know whats wrong got switch flipped see whole picture whole damn thing scares fuck me thing call life journey experiences endure cherish see know time now dumb saying heard rear view mirror small reason windshield big picture keep looking forward im tired woke time see life burden road life well is well something im honestly sure take call puss care ive people call face burden speak time comes time comes everyone know heartache hurts damn well feel thats something scares knowing one day time come everyone love too,1 +f brain feels like stormy day need let worries tend rotate around head properly diagnosed depression redflag likely i super emotional boyfriend getgo us dating developed tendency cry lot boyfriend m complete sweetheart known life love much always as him truly feel peace him especially relaxed bed told feels like nice warm blanket feel comfortable safe think reminds best parts dad person particularly little my dad bad person flaws feel like never enough money support live good life always pushed best especially since first bachelors degree parents sympathized bad people constantly feel pressure successful independent worry lot finances life general much change father comes background former military poverty tried mold successful image today even though life circumstances vary constant fear life suddenly change nearly year ago close family friend passed away suddenly catalyst along covid mental health took negative turn always worried circumstances like event made worse now constantly feel way boyfriend comes house far traffic worries me major reason driven ownany advicethoughts greatly appreciated thoughts constantly running head,1 +im done cant anymorei dont even know teen angst anymore im honestly sick tired loneliness heartache friends people around somewhat care me cant get head go live happy fucking life feel empty calm like im trapped feel like built whole personality people would like it yet still dont dont know am dont know im doing dont know going end thats terrifying,1 +im bored online anyone wanna play something ps pm,0 +sure im right placethings came head tonighti fighting wife mother dying stage lung cancer spread lymph nodes neck cutting right lung add years depression get staring end shot gun debating getting something trying chantix quit smoking quitter wondering anti depressants treated you also getting something cause literally to it straight break recurring issue still aware enough know serious af,1 +hows days fellow brothers sisters hope youre great anything wrong dm ig thanks happy,0 +cockroaches deserve painfully slowly burn alive blue fires hell eternity must never find salvation agree ofcourse do,0 +im ashamedive accused plagiarism second time course one year due sloppy citations despite working really hard improve feel ashamed want die normally work jobs time year made possible focus university what poor marks plagiarism sleep slept days sometimes stay close hours row im anxious weep hours parents knew full story theyd ashamed me fiance probably hates ive put year university planning wedding cant cope all ive officially broken im done almost threw front train yesterday hate everything inside brain go away im massive loser knew cut postgraduate level ,1 +curiousi know last days ive making many posts comments dwelling thought redflag expressing inclination towards it however has unexpectedly happened something look forward to life and please get wrong im saying longer see negatives world which many probably still hard time keep living something might make worth going through true still kind dream something going help stay feels like good enough consider outweighs negatives continuing life world escapism concept escaping reality fantasy imagination sort comfort find life figured things desire attained go mind make reality there also aware quite silly considered imagination before ive come appreciate joy getting far enough reality give found unprecedented comfort stories presented movies series anime etc oh also art find gives sich pleasure aswell music beauty meaning emotion expressed various mediums painting drawing singing and well many things almost feel like different person makes little uncomfortable insecure almost feel like almost betrayal said wanting end life still stand it believe past truly wanted die right so even something happened make want anymore people still receive respect wishes truly want die happened came accept desires found way make kind reality which felt like impossibility feel like free whoever however desire head must admit still feel insane really want die anymore found another way live one accept now yes would trade life one completely made thoughts emotions desires enough going head almost anytime want id rather live inside head dying guess thats im trying say want apologise saying going kill myself still believe truth way thinking and case wondering talk sort professional anything like that simply asked is truly want really way figured that was even obvious me guess commitment issues something already knew that enough resources would dead now oh well happen maybe later really know know want live inside head maybe hopefully start creating stuff it possibly even earn life it anyway thanks reading,1 +nothing anyone willing help going attempt kill today,1 +feel like ever going get betteri always depressed battling last years ebbs flows right one worst times ive made lists people going write goodbye notes to ive decided method today checked exact spot driving drawn it im chicken know also feel incredibly tired cant forever feel frozen distraught read posts people talk parents messing up messing kids today called kids husband assholes faces twice left hours husband even call text see ok was couldve killed done,1 +life meaningi understand anything anything makes better anyone else could go beyond life ill hate doing anyone cares mourn temporarily theyll get days months years im weak bodied weak minded since im even bothering post this weak willed whats point anything nothing ill hate either way,1 +get funnybecome hoego doctorskill list,1 +heres bucket list school year thinking ahead heres bucket list college freshman year get b better gpa lose virginity play intramural basketball andor flag football good player make good friends go least parties maybe try weed dont overdo touch rim basketball hoop learn use credit card watch shazam minions im college class early thoughts,0 +th birthdayi never thought would come far,1 +cracked code ok know shit hole tell every month year end s thing going real fucking fast thats quarantine fast also explains many bad ghing happening time bad thing happness skip year bad thing passes end good man acid strong,0 +bday thats literally it thank ur time,0 +linger reddit girlfriend means must leave memes grate loved getting read wonderful comments posts lonely virgin land isnt anymore hope good however long break cause lets honest im redditor meaning gonna last long want see long last,0 +read suicidali want say read overdosed couple days ago waiting liver failure kick waiting period given time reflect done recommend redflag kind anyone reason redflag selfish act mean selfish people experiences experiences people spoke attempted usually spur moment need it think about it ending it however waiting die remembering things miss like hanging friends family work etc also never get see lucifer s move london become richest person ever lived ik big dreams unrealistic also reminds liver failure kicks need let family friends know done go countless painful conversations watch everyone love tears something cannot stop know used lot maybe selfish idk point thinking redflag think noone help try help yourself picture family friends hearing news research method want attempt read horror stories people survives imagine pain death inflict others may stop inflicting pain onto yourself please seek help good luck,1 + fucking dollars today random guy twitter minutes shift fucking mcdonalds dude dms outta nowhere still cant believe,0 +seen maslin beach couple times free air tv brisbane go whether good bad otherwise others well truly covered thisbr br i say australian australia film relationships among people spending day naked day born view free commercial televisionbr br i friend us constantly amazed put free tv compared home country sex city huff examplesbr br despite government trying turn us st us state good know least things remain truly aussie,0 +motivate write essay want to whatever want give support call piece shit idfc,0 +yall npcs something refuse believe billion people life thoughts everyone alive think impossible reality illusion live matrix nothing real,0 +know allhey there first want thank awesome people sub helping years old think might suicidal last months ive grown tired life got tired thing every day speak it get told going get better soon thats ive told years theres nothing particularly wrong life okay parents something eat drink every day bullied anything makes think overreacting really mind wake tomorrow hand though feel like would never kill myself even know expect thread guess want know ok q typical im teen im sad phase depressionam suicidal realized best and only friend random dude internet ive known years now never met irl even know real name guess thats id rather get responses irl friends theyre real friends outsiders eat talk school days ago started chocking myself made feel something comes boredom feel bad life bored drives crazy knowing life least another years think typing helped do try talk parents ok going something every teen goes through,1 +wrong personal body stuff holy days im kinda ugh really wanna nono stuff feel bad easter bad it see sin terrible damning sin something thats like kinda sorta bad since im bad feel scared easter christmas etc,0 +master kieslowsky came idea idea portrait human relationship world today passing blue a crafted visual masterpiece womans life white a visual comedy movie marriage finally arriving red a masterpiece dealing human interactionbr br while im going spoil move easily say red best movie s decade one strongest messages script ever ever seenbr br the movie begins little slow finds rhythm early enough keep hooked whole moviebr br the performances perfect sublime since characters completely realistic theyre clichd way one could expect less actors one get disappointed seriously believe jean louis tringtignat deserved oscar nod leastbr br the music zbiegnew preisner amazing one best musical scores ever piotr sobocinsk cinematography also outstanding got oscar nod and deserved winbr br overall movie perfect loved people love foreign cinema people dont miss itbr br how awful pulp fiction beat ed masterpiece cannes beyond comprehension,0 +botherit seems like one night im great next night things utter shit cant keep fulfilling relationship anyone friends lovers you maybe can appreciate friends people care me regardless feel love world put love it im growing estranged people like theyre black hole emotions screaming feelings sucking mine never letting go consuming efforts nonefforts makes feel bother acting happy laidback motivated get return shallow people see it people care respect seeing right thinly veiled act something me maybe im intense person anyone wanting know gtgtmeltlt gets scared away maybe im much roller coaster one moment this next moment that fucking know know reason theres real point anymore something based personality am born as cant change single fucking thing it supposed change gtgtmeltlt and even could trust me thats lead great places would change to much add family understand me parents think theyre whats best me really theyre bad me wanting everything want saying whats best me therapy went far meds fine still feeling hopeless defeated unexplainable depression real realization im person people enjoy around nothing did born as oh mention theyre throwing academic support putting alternative programs want confront agony face face school trapped halfassed hybrid semischool ive thinking final solution months now something keeps holding back im tired throwing life moral tolerance waning every day much longer restraint all day please im begging you help me tldr whats point living personality sucks im constantly aware it,1 +yall know game barrel monkeys based real events,0 +girl interested me thought would escape self loathing id finally found reason give second chancei bullied high school got called ugly lot high school guys really shot self confidence one wanted associate anyone find voice stand bullies caused isolate develop social anxiety hate myself ive already tried commit redflag two times back high school little sister saving suffocating myself nearly everyday feel like im good enough womans romantic interest see attractive people relationships makes mad want have makes feel like im meant alone thought previous girlfriend great extremely attracted her really clicked lost interest ever since ive working trying rebuild selfconfidence finally built courage verbally flirt girl something ive trying since th grade hd date even kissed tells interested anymore mightve little shy besides idea wrong im left assume looks lack selfconfidence ever want feel like again im also tired much consumerism affects life wish want money attractive relationship need someone something take mind much hate dead none would matter,1 +attempting redflag typeive posted story before hits whatsoever posted story depression hits whatsoever girlfriend gave hope decided leave me reason unhappy want drag her gave left unconditional love status shortened permanent residency live friends charity im burden around get see family someone took shot dog buddy security blanket understand people cant get attached animal obi damned ugly old deaf cockapoo mine needed alot needed me wed sit porch drinking arizona green tea hours hed sit lap let know still him im schizo meaning episodes things go bat shit insane me thoughts mine telling much failure one loves me lies loud often worst trip group intangible shadows swarming vision little freaky minutes ive accused touching sistereditstepsister blasphemy highest degree dad gave me momma cant help me feel hope left thats lie im writing guess want go comatose couple years try later becoming difficult focus aspirin every minutes im now pitiful got around im tired hurt last year round bday slept friends mom year long relationship rings ohana whole nine yards dad pissed understandably kicked out estranged relationship there rambling now moved tn nc find work help her depressed abused alcohol month move days bday june wanted see people next day fucked dude long ago knew was right kind woman funny think guy age would right cheating type opposed old woman wrong kids grow bigger kids kids never chance kid funny eh im pill im lost hopeless ive made many wrong choices many bad judgements hurt disappointed much im done now live ill check omg idiot nightsaber comments not read fictional depressing story go way everyone last attempts edit part sheepishly return let everyone know it moment posted momma contacted me couldnt knowing shed lose oldest son superheros last night bro herman back nc old love ciara mentioned above momma no last names anonymity sorry guys getting worked making others worry result bit selfish wanting badly would disregard made others feel primal way happened happened again sorry all last time felt low took field sat bit thinking all time little bit going right now last pill threw minutes posting bouncing back pretty decent pace judgement one last time sorry everybody,1 +watched movie might watch again although jamie foxx good movie feel could used less funny character alvin sanders foxxs scenes instance jail confronted edgar clenteen david morse funny david morse wonderful portrayer cop tough yet mostly quiet features perfect role morse meets doug hutchinson bristol theater morse ends coming hard hutchinson perfect scenario film personally love quality film actors end situation previous film two green mile overall pretty good movie,0 +friend cant take anymore please help convince itshe says hard live everyday reason hasnt killed id me dont want loose her says wants leave behind convinced kill herslef fear temporary please dont let best freind die shes left please,1 +want kmsi hate anything point redflag looks like golden escape plan everything goes wrong act totally reckless way realize ive done later cry it cares kill boom cease exist problems ive overeating daily dont look help due insecurity financial issues cry everyday bedroom wanting someone come say calm down everythings alright one does know need help im scared ppl saying oh stop it youre attention parents ignoring rejecting mocking me all would take yr old seriously,1 +boss disappointed mei work lab im undergrad student such cant dedicate much time lab boss emailed telling disappointed performance dont spend much care lab fair completely fault im stretched thin depressed already doubt ill able actually improve im tired worthless honestly dont see point living anymore,1 +doesnt matter gender race sexuality ethnicity place birth political leaning is know epic rap battles history still greatest thing ever come youtube,0 +renting one true thing night learned respect family take health granted never seen reallife portrayal cancer victim screen like meryl delivered deserves oscar nomination tough competitors running say beautiful film great acting streep zellwegger meryl streep revealed one true ability excellent film,0 +im useless cant even make noosei said wasnt going it right now dont see life useful way dont want live country health doesnt matter,1 +black widow legs around neck choke move suited girls dudes seemed cool tried it managed crush balls legs,0 +hurt game get difficultso simulation wheres reset game said make em blind albino black lgbtq lets give em brother disability gotta take care nah easy lets add toxic family parties wrong boomers wont admit wrong leads toxic family relationship sprink favoritism step children misogyny homophobia also dash racism also regression taboo topic way youve felt like learned cope ,1 +drunk hell got noose hang closetgonna it dont knwo else do tired meds therapy cant seemto make diffrence bye,1 +anyonei tell dad im depressed im tired feeling way thinks nothing need man seriously feel like ending im scared anything really could use someone talk,1 +ready buy gun end alli delete hours less background sexually abused toddler diagnosed ultra rapidcycling bipolar disorder age manic delusions severe depression things get better high school got as transferred year college moved miles away city friends depression worsens hospitalized five weeks several medical leaves taken school girlfriend borderline personality disorder leaves cruelest way imaginable attempts blackmail ruin life lie created diagnosed ptsd struggling finish degree age hospitalized manic episode suddenly things start looking career schoolwise things may okay all age coronavirus hits internship goes window classes moved online spring summer fall cant adapt online learning considering dropping out id move back home moms environment hate current relationship failing spectacularly person refuses talk me feeling like complete piece shit finishing school yet three friends life live major cities far away me plus girlfriend speak me every treatment tried illness failed medicine psychotherapy ketamine tms fear getting older fear finishing school get career want issues sex due childhood abuse turn future partners cant live like anymore am ive researched buy gun state despite everything im pretty sure pass background check know id kill myself know song id listen it plan lengthy plan plan needed write out need someone listen judge many people judge life like entire family nobody sits fucking listens thats want someone anyone fucking listen,1 +cant normal others things ease hell even accident sometimes never able,0 +made decision killl august cried much long time sad feel like option feel sad family too hate world bawling eyes,1 +first time happened even ex used put effort creating funny deep conversations shed make quite surface level replies thought severely depressed mind making effort her missing something many hobbies works pub cant talk interests really think kinda likes textiles anymore focused job probably mention really really shy admitted me example meet person nervous physically shaking minutes relaxes,0 +incurable disease excruciatingly painful everyday want die get rid pain tried every treatment hope embarrassing want die cannot function normal human being incurable disease,1 +gay suck pp well saw post found suck pp soo gay suck ur pp ps gay totally normal ashamed,0 +im going kill life keeps getting worsei care make sad die anymore fuck it one cares care feel im casket,1 +something really stupid got drunk interacted horribly meds anyway cant remember im charged two felonies mi dont even know ill able get job im convicted let alone go law school ive studying for get approval state bar become lawyer cant go lawschool let alone get decent paying job ill kill self im scared parents find cant it cant cashier rest life could throw up feels like life something cant remember im sober feels like really risk,1 +ready goi lost everyone somehow got back thats im fucking damaged nothing got better years thing helped soft drugs never tried im fucking ready go dont want anymore peace wirh,1 +im failure cant end ithello guys signed reddit this im attending vocational school last year one best students year lot bad things happened school startes year parents finally told truth divorce years telling bullshit truth even terrible thought would be then school started first everything going quite well then close friend mine hes like big brother often call big brother too rough time never told why said know himself pulled him worried much always afraid might something bad which bullshit promised would never something bad long fell mentally ill started going therapy friend got back didnt able go school maybe weeks started getting bad marks worse marks got worse mental condition got ended going school months school year almost ive failed almost subjects feel like ive failed ruined life help brother even know bad feel cant tell him wanna ruin life make sad already feel like died thousand times cant die real really want end it want pain stop cant it reason thing keeps big brother hes also best friend wanna ruin life butwhat now therapy going nowhere pills make everything worse friend happy matter cant take easy way out really know anymore,1 +ten minutes take part research studyhi rredflagwatch trainee clinical psychologist undertaking research relation thoughts redflag study concerned people struggle low mood develop thoughts redflag regard hoping recruit people and experienced thoughts redflag anyone participate received permission moderator forum post link study questionnaire takes approx minutes complete study entirely anonymous draw one four amazon vouchers made take part would really appreciate participation thank advance take part link below httptinyurlcomhglqwg,1 +one best films ever seen anyone knock movie befuddles imagination first all goodings harriss performances simply spectacular especially gooding way describe acting spectacular imagine difficult would play character like pull off see gooding performance magical plot since based true person goes lives characters go action buffs might little slow action film definitely give movie deserves nothing less,0 +deactivated social media one even noticedno one even people talk every day every day becomes harder dont know anymore disappeared almost two weeks one even cared feel like drop dead one would notice either hate everything want ok cant dont know anymore,1 +see point life made wonderous thing people cant seem see thatill start asking question point life reading this everyone seems different answers question none seem right me im years old depression past two years so overweight originally believed reason depression started going gym eating healthier way combat this actually made amazing progress far im still unhappy though clearly issue cant believe im naive thought thing wrong currently second year college uk pretty much dropped point attended now days go on im discovering useless thing call life is ive failed education im struggling find job money name whatsoever around see successful people fucking hate much much envy others wish could people possible thing anymore tried ive given caring days nobody speak seems understand that mind dropping planet right peace finally still feel though hope me need find life means me thats issue hand maybe time may come soon maybe later life wish something would take away now deal thoughts feelings,1 +think fucked worki dealing depression life gotten worse past months since college graduation bad tendency selfsabotage succumbing pressure others disappoint took crappy parttime job loathed parents would stfu working choose unemployed would go work barely acknowledgement boss work mentioned job description enough today got offered another job today went office let key id walked back entrance one see me nobody called anything figured notice even bother email boss quit send work finished point even care paid hours worked since means going person hand worksheet logged hours cannot bring it finally got fulltime job got scared told start week emailed boss start th november new boss know wants talk phone coming monday wtf say feel like fucking loser maybe say start wednesday idk feel like fucked majorly end it,1 +dont know anymorei used lurk here id find solace words said others left got better im not life barely started dont know anymore want happy,1 +dont know else dobank account overdrawn havent eaten days paid weeks friends turn to family doesnt give shit why help son buy second k car mean friends all ive never friends high school quickly realized forcing way none really wanted there years later havent left house anything work made friends coworkers hate me hate everything life think im going opt tomorrow im tired living like this,1 +look cat httpsimgurcomaykseunq cute,0 +got done jacking feel sad yall cheer,0 +i so mood end shit not trying funny cope,1 +god im lonely like im even lonely want someone,0 +cut myself going gone soon enough thank reddit support timeive finally started bleeding out site given lot support last couple years couple people even tried stop end thank that hope least die maybe people wont hate much,1 +want hereive never depressed whole life family longer talk ive deleted social media except reddit live boyfriend fuck felt wanted felt loved like two years makes feel like shit express frustrations invalidates feelings calls crazy says people usually say you me im telling you me summer told kill one occasion went vegas actually purposefully sliced leg open badly night vegas massacre happened too bad concert right uncle died year go january father ever was feels like father figure look died cant see point more even loaded gun including silencer wake anyone loudly everyone work id feel awful ive got everything ready problem im pussy want live want hurt want find im going burn forever hell even though think exists like happened exist ive already lived full lifetime pain cant get break even decided id bathroom bit easier clean up even though know itll get everywhere pretty much least could run shower get lot it one loves me one cares family friends children pets im burden everyone knows me want wish could stop bitch pull trigger,1 +hey girl creative writing class cant come second line ran pickup lines think need go bed instead using brain come impractical pickup lines socially unacceptable hour morning,0 +feel sad empty feel feel empty nothing bad even happening right still feel bad point pain fucking stop,1 +wish could end all tired living fake life around fake people tired putting soul work earn live fake lifei know vague really fed living like this tired even thinking this want end feels like reached mental limit earlier used vent frustrations feel bit better lost energy talk all looks dreamy thinking end desires anymore problems somehow magically disappear still would like live want put stop dont energy myself wish die,1 +need stuff kms idk get stuff go together mentally ill suicidal people last straw you set go nyc,1 +smarter lads ladettes ampxb httpspreviewredditehnulpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsabcbcfcbaddabd,0 +mmmm okay guess today seriously thought killing contemplated premeditated murder think killing love way love you,0 +watching video plane crashes comments someone talking tragedy someone responded get bitch happened years ago wat,0 +whats favourite candysweets drugs chocolate,0 +resent kids daysi keep thinking robe belt have efficient assume would be keeps getting easier imagine finish this stars aligning make happen say goodbye thing preventing kids guess yet feel like would much better without me eventually forget me right fudge probably not mom would them days resent them keeping alive,1 +never temptation slice wrist itmade secondary account dont want people know worried know thatd id never get far enough actually it urge overwhelming times scares me need vent guess dont know anymore im stuck home live biggest sources negativity sadness life yet cannot leave im still dependent years till degree leave place good hope ill live see happen im done flame slowly dying cant bring energy keep fighting it didnt check rules sub searched sub concerning redflag went it rules mods please delete im sorry inconvenience needed head,1 +film could well one ordinary soapies relating day day events half dozen families whose lives intertwinedbroken relationshipsbuilding new friendships street bashings near accidents hopes dreams even discovery baby discarded bushes mixture eventsbr br fortunately film maker goes beyond daily events poses questions consider although satisfactory answers asksin chaotic world things happen luck things turn right taking fatalistic view person predestined certain place certain time thus become involved event future takes new perspective us uncanny experiencebr br is super ego makes us believe important one character says sat edge overlooking grand canyon came realize infinitely small wasbr br this one favourite films good study human relationships danny glover outstanding sympathetic role,0 +heres knew atlantis watching itbr br officially disneys first animated scifi adventure im sure accurate i like nitpick made curious first time heard describedbr br preview looked part damn cool evidently also too cryptic according critics factbr br apparently badly disney said screw it lets rerelease spy kidsbr br so said moviebr br hellacoolbr br im sucker animated fantasy involves stirring music rampant special effects anyway atlantis goes out throwback cgi eyecandy shots beauty beast aladdin much almost effects animators bestof show characters maybe memorable except perhaps ships medical officer plots little dull movie watch plotbr br heres controversy bothers me failure as in only took in like fivehundredmillion something know animators whod kill see fifteen bucks that movie compared popularity shrek monsters inc seen evidence death traditional animation think thats true account south park movie final fantasy really story artistry everything method know disneys comeback movie like think theyre picture yet,0 +friend said going committhey told certain date im going try convince dont succeed call crisis centres work im toronto im also scared call police never speak again anonymous ways it,1 +playing danganronpa wondering anyone wanted talk play game going sound weird played first two games discussed friend investigation trial really liked that made happy talk game liked me arent life anymore wondering anyone wanted chat similar fashion lot fun got game diminished still like want finish it missing connection got it spoilers please talk though thanks want talk first two games despair girls anime would fun too reddit discord communication,0 +idea making film beatles sounds doomed idea production catch idea actual historic beatles perhaps best try recreate past produce illustration works best available beatles material exactly birth beatles offers us simple story known us without extravaganzabr br spoilers br br be warned everything accurate beatlesgraduates might expect beatles seen performing songs hardly even composed time beatles perform ask why ps love you even dont bother me beatlesgraduates see beatles film performed songs actually hamburg younger viewers might anymore recognize beatles learned know them original hamburg repertoire johnny b goode stu sutcliffes love tender retainedbr br the guys play beatles production scarcely look like originals rest film still make good viewing film rest fairly accurate guy plays lennon good rest band bad either brian epstein great moment sacks pete best group probably memorable scene whole film also bonus get see original cavern club film,0 +please aware film nothing radio city music hall archivist re music halli know associated new york venue films theodore music hall rockettes film wonderful ice skaters plus superb actors fun thought would like know truly wonderful film never guess murderer watching filmtill end superb plot beautiful ice skating one never sees kind performances more roxy theater center theatres new york city ice skating performances stage,0 +give fake hope tell friends family sad sad ones me people mean make feel x worse one cares feel please help go ask please give methods,1 +people hyping among us low iq know iq gamers like play town salem superior game filler filler filler,0 +allowed feel sorry myselfi always fucking strong around people acting like things fucking matter shit like everything alright fuck everything though cant anything right cant tell someone hey curse ill kick youfrom game im mod cant go school talking people fucking hard left take online classes even emailing fucking teachers prove fucking hard such always help mom back hurts lot legs give her walks using walker much money finally got tired falling hurting legs give out dad want help her son matter gets mad go get brother school work one time mom asking help something said ugh agree this argument suppose since married through sick health thing agreed take care one else will help grandpa unable to grandpa likes things though usually putting lot work me work bother me taking care mom affects us mentally much im tired cat room meows time anything hard sleep summer hot here try leave door open cant cat im tired sleeping finally affect getting edge exhausted illness also mom watching get hurt when falls mainly makes sad illness sometimes think why me typical thing like fucking unfair things happened me illness painful okay hurts four currently sleep ive done something bad just finally told mod much longer just ugh hard me feel like ive disappointed him rules changed yet again jsut leave leave life hardly feel sorry others feel sorry situations like mine illness either skin condition back issues fall such skin condition rash type thing lesions painful also made internally sick vomiting internal bleeding stomachkidneyheart pain pain aftger surgery messed pain killers waking up feeling like ripped fuck open wheel chair months friends ignoring guess weird person wheel chair scars arms legs skin condition always explain others judged people judging pills mainly steroids for skin know mean know judge like still illness clear still have day joint pains live rest life fear coming back come back time always check body signs it nightmare speaking nightmares those normal things attacked raped normal talk certain people car explode losing house realities me scary cars always break cant buy new car spend time moving back forth parents grandparents becasue drive us anymore cars broken down like grandparents house like bed nbever one year blessing enjoy small things since many big things bed big thing dresser got two things year enough clothes take two washes instead one thatsm ore clothes ive ever before still fit one big wash though good htings life shit always hide sad though ever time cry feel sorry myself without feeling like shit it people handle much right jsut stupid dramatic bitch cry ive cried long hard bottle emotions inside ill sublit change mind stay silent again quite often im tired maybe getting chest help finally sleep doubt it,1 +really really wanna die right nowive feeling suicidal long time im sick it hospitalized days weeks ago feeling better thoughts back ive tried many coping skills im different meds ive like months im therapy nothing working im fed want die im sick tired feeling way want end dont see another way feel like option,1 +yall shit going talk it want hear it dont want reddit know dm me dont want know kindly continue scrolling ,0 +inauguration day feels like holiday holiday ive year everything else like feel like something actually happening,0 +got question im looking good gaming chair around less idc office chair long comfortable reclining function footrest thing,0 +im going try again please sw may last hopeive tried kill times two asked help here last time sent mental hospital six days there found girlfriend also tried timeand failed outpatient inpatient got help there learned cope prescribed depression bipolar add medicine improved leaps bounds past month ive pissed reason finally broke today formulated plan next attempt two hours take half bottle prozac wait thirty minutes call police get hospital time win dont well guess ill win,1 +plan taking life soon i know probably one give shit,1 +susie q one rare sweet movies give warm feeling bittersweet wholesome characters fun captivating first thought movie would clich cuddly movie would bore five minutes wrong made tear times plot enticing making root good guys loved movie still remember today years later recommend highly anyone movie family oriented worry unsuitable content truly disney would show movies par susie q would popular family oriented channel world disney would show one time_ go susie q,0 +tf calculate percentages look im rated kind thing,0 +fuck nut november homies less nut november point nut november learn discipline self control fight porn addiction going one extreme functional set number nuts allowed entire month say porn allowed would save actually want jerk way actually feel good after thus getting rid thing becomes routine would say benefits nnn way way bigger normal way learn healthy masturbation habits probably want stick afterwards become happier unlike traditional way,0 +hope someone reads this ive writing stuff existential notebook hope someone read fully gets removedno matter hard try separate real world always cone back here might hate it belong plane existence sometimes choose embrace fantasy escape world endless torment end well go back to that tell all existence feeble one moment entirety time stay little while live life way meant lived always seek happiness make us feel sad content world offer grateful challenges faced molded now grateful friends existed existence intertwined them grateful universe might insignificant speck dust desert unknown proportions might never fully explore day fade time least get experience wonders world offer us smile never give up problems arrive never permanently there theyll eventually fade eventually fade do let us live wonderful life leave mark mark surely echo throughout eons come verses created importantly sake future nobody sure hope reached point whilst happy skipped part it reader fellow human life gift cosmos wise pay respects it all thank you truly nobody,1 +watched neighbors todaytoday canada day stood inside house peering window watching everyone leave festivities saw people leaving kayaks dogs swimwear drink coolers blow rafts heard laughing chattering singing huge wake call made think what hell life agoraphobia generalized anxiety disorder messed sleeping schedule sleep am pm generally people leaving fun day getting ready go sleep spend time awake panic attacks laying bed laptop cant much chronic nausea hate routine hate life want anxiety anymore im tired fighting myself cant it,1 +im truly donei think im going give up everything figured theres nobody gets happy overall happy see hear me point waking everyday theres one wake for wake yourself do things yourself why do get called self centered get degraded feel stuck know anymore like try get better try end falling someone live light me longer him know do mom better either way ive done much wrong life know bares me one supporting me im good nothing talents all beautiful sort way know im life stopped caring ill go ahead stop caring everyone im tired people expecting something nothing literally nothing theres use here get people say purpose everyone seriously purpose here would lot happier everyones life would better nobody see this someone might laugh pathetic am try open but nobody cares all,1 +want someone talk memy therapy appointment thursday ive got make then want someone talk awhile feel like entire life lie going geieving process almost literally killing me,1 +venting sorry im posting much let start saying im safe dont active plans harm anything crazy im suicidal thoughts ive like since weeks last attempt ive cutting thigh last weeks maybe week cut helps release stress dont know im writing guess able vent part wants die im tired life feeling like repeat part doesnt want see kids grow up,1 +thoughts normali going huge amount distress suicidal thoughts frequency increasing greatly do counselling gave panic attacks,1 +understand people ok fact this itto elaborate know people manage wake everyday waste hours life go job care less about scrape struggle live what days weekend whats point im exhausted even enjoy days off sure save retire time retire im gonna old enjoy it weirdest thing knowing im complete fuck death best option one willing except that instead living me im living everyone else life everyone feel like im one people im special talents understand life decent best whatever job get wont matter cause likely going cubicle job obscure company thats likely gonna go years dont get brought world drunken mistake im expected move life im ok it im suppose ok fact im going work die never fully get life want literally impossible unless win lottery,1 +spent six years abusive relationship child together born made way out ended fleeing several houses apartments trying stay away him theres long history,1 +past year rough high functioning autistic large circle friends due social redflagit mostly me mom dad girlfriend yearsmy mom passed away cancer back april losing rough fathertoday particularly awful interaction customer job caused redflag attack boss felt bad gave rest afternoon off arrived home hours earlier expected walked girlfriend sex fatheri completely lost verbally threatened attack them called police citation appear court making threatsi feel betrayed two people left worldi alone right want cut throat bleed out need someone talk please need friend right ever nothing nobody crisis right need someone talk to,1 +basically im quite sad right would appreciate advice cope basically mom dad divorced stayed friends continued living other whole life would get arguments would scare overall pretty nice even heard mom say would get remarried unfortunately today dad caught cheating phone another girl son too whole year going actually mom obviously mad planning move october came said im still moving october then find place yourselfyoure coming worst part days birthday coming up someone give advice cope maybe,0 +niece home im officially uncle now sister husband newborn baby returned home hospital today words cannot describe excited itll help niece grow thrive many years come today officially become uncle cant wait share life advice hobbies niece welcome family emma,0 +hopelessi thought today would world like without me instantly knew answer better one would notice loser gone would they think so tried think friends currently would everyone never made impact annoying them guess leave earth skills fallback nothing else planned future im pretty hopeless since nothing amounts anything,1 +think about happy chemicals brainwhen angry chemicals brain controlling emotions embarrassed chemicals brain dictating emotionsi could go foreverwhy live feelings dictated something deal them realized slave emotions,1 +cant work fail year alternativetold weeks ago id get work hard exams end may spent past weeks fuck all completely unable put pen paper slightest get university would needed put working get going die might seem extreme perhaps even plain stupid ive given lot thought simply inevitable why well start off immediate implications succeeding take heavy toll first off id leave home possibly move grandparents temporarily even ive led sheltered sheltered existences kill would end mutilating performing kind menial task complete lack real world experience combined unable actually venture survive independently due personal nature would quickly lead worsening mental state eventual redflag chance gaining kind meaningful employment not really desire working slavery alternative cannot speak people without protection afforded internet obviously without job cant eke decent existence im far proud person stomach homeless came would kill heartbeat basically cant run uni spend another years hiding real world alternative dying and quite frankly means would long gone now im really sure posting simply bitch unfair personally perceive opposed actually seeking help main reason posting honest simply say tried get help would completely understand post ignoredremoved read far thanks im sorry inevitable spellinggrammar errors,1 +cartoon crushes ngl asian girl kim possible bad,0 +think go like anymorei even know begin person talk walked morning fight last night first time ive caused fight lead leaving first time come back even responded me know whats wrong me never think putting others first myself realize im selfish careless plain bitch late blows face thought good were going stressful time im never good stress let little things get lash people response thats friends left im introverted make new ones im weak emotional never advance career end fucking relationship even married two years yet think redflag occasionally everyone would better without constantly screwing up honestly think things keeping going sleep last time cat i imagine getting put back shelter something family freaked answer anyones calls day im tired screwing time feeling way think make divorce man love much ive built life with know would happier without problems cause cant bare lose him guess theres selfishness again ive tried medications tried focusing better person theres hope me guess sorry rambling one else talk to especially this want give everything im tired trying failing,1 +nd grade made economic system pringles made dictatorship based pringles best friends would buy pringles kids didnt wed trade things later became super valuble id give people pringles swings etc became super cocky bit months teachers caught finally stopped me economic systems formed thousand years ago would became king would lead modern history,0 +solid b moviebr br i like jake weber understated delivery refreshing time top performances liked relationship father son liked family dynamics wendigo looks silly representation kids toy dead deer amalgamation like see psychological story freddy slash em instant gratification flick watch reflect inner child movie might say finebr br nice work,0 +nobody cares im itand take hospital socialmental deprivation basically torture theres way get help need without bussed fucking emergency room billed im nothing statistic piggy bank break money cant afford regular treatment anyways cant talk friend want friend anymore keep talking killing every time see him wish alone know happen baby dog die world cruel nobody care enough take care die reason live find someone take care im gone course nobody going care im ready late im going make mistake made last time im going tell anyone im ready,1 +hi help me please read whole thing judging me basically think im becoming transphobic piece shit fun jokes aside would never treat anyone differently judge choosing identify different gender nonbinary friend im always careful use correct pronouns name thing is judge read whole thing cant imagine gender dysphoria may ive never thought genuinely believe gender dysphoria makes feel really awful like seriously along couple problems im losing sleep cant focus online school coz feel awful genuinely believe gender dysphoria couple friends tried help including one perhaps supportive person know still believe it please help me anything convince me argue me kill lmao anyway thank coming ted talk im piece shit,0 +im tiredwell im tired im tired constantly disappointing parents im tired getting shitty marks school im tired downstairs holed basement im afraid parents im afraid im going grow into im afraid im going become mother tears today know grow into im fat lazy lethargic procrastinator cant seem fix myself disappointed parents much every day keep crying little inside sense responsibility all love family keep disappointing them im father mother know me feel like im waste space waste life im contributing anything family im suicidal im pretty damn fucking close,1 +cool malegender neutral names im uhhh naming original character nothin else haha,0 +wish familyi would long dead im scared feel agony stay alive solely please others want way least painful them dont know,1 +thoughts redflag life seems like much effort ma bit current situation first thing im depressed im even unhappy fact happy relationship supportive family good friends im bit cynical im usually rather good spirits bad times still little kid abusive stepparent hes outta life now plus think really relevant suicidal thoughtsiam also student university zoology iam well im overly smart little motivation even though find topic interesting socially awkward ive grown accept really see implications negative also motivation issues since ish years old ive never really passionate anything video games anime chilling friends girlfriend im thoughts redflag im thoughts redflag think effort takes happy life worth actual happiness gain like struggle hard uni course fully prepared more likely fail realistically may possibly get low paying job animal related jobs tend low paying worry money rest life try enjoy good moments support hobbies know sounds really negative guess is honestly think realistic view future life think average joes life be yes good times happy times life seems like lot stress effort happiness know normal people stress way jobs life etc motivation that guess laziness core it stress make happy like rich set life even bother committing redflag amount stress life would drastically go down obviously deaths would occur etc etc stress would still minimal doubt accomplish anything change anyones life drastically know make people happy probably missed x amount time think im kind replaceable people lives thought ways could myself worry im going near future something im considering moment per say would something consider like moving house long thought decision moment im ready commit redflag also fear death fear pain death may bring death also incredibly curious death brings something always option always since like could say never sometimes obvious also think would rather homeless sometimes know coming someone whos never homeless sounds bad feel would rather go hungry cold stick really stressful timeline life conclude know post must sound selfish petty compared everyone elses problems im sure even place it im trying understand feel way thoughts prominent going stress uni also particularly want tell family friends type stage intervention something also sorry post messy hard understand edit formatting,1 +today sundayive resolved see another one,1 +guys made public discord server among us invited dm get server link server pretty well defined lobbies voice chat non voice chat games,0 +cant take voices head anymore want end allive lot mental trouble lately whether im work roommates voices tell say bad things bad awful illegal things could put prison dont want say would ever act thoughts ever push horrible thoughts away i repeatedly tell try get mind mind pushes want say loud feels almost compulsive especially bad work dont want go details too graphic disturbing every time interact customer voices start tell bad thoughts every time tell pushes want say loud brings extreme discomfort interaction start worry whether ive said loud start panic internally whether say loud end telling managers said call cops arrest me even im roommates silence im still tempted say things would make literally want kill get arrested cant take anymore mind turning dont mean anything comes mind would never act it im worried ill say intrusive thoughts loud would ruin life forever im sick this every day occurrence driving insane feel like way stop alone rest life interaction im sick shit dont know whats wrong me,1 +mint choc chip ice cream httpsformsgleugzjvqhmjeov,0 +anyone ever shrooms theyre amazing guys seem nerdy ever go near em,0 +surface written wind lurid glossy soap opera sexual dysfunctions texas oil family underneath deep social commentary s life director douglas sirk scores another univeral sudser robert stack falls love lauren bacall problem stacks best pal rock hudson loves too stack finds hes sterile bacall ends pregnant fireworks fly and alltoogood dorothy malone oscar portrayl texas biggest nympho shunned hudson good epic soap opera,0 +cleaned daily playlist years finally cleared playlist years listen every song decide want keep delete went songs im feeling super weird nostalgic would love good song recommendations,0 +case didnt know reddit feature lets create custom avatar go settings get stuff premium base customization still pretty good,0 +something thats started happening recently sometimes world becomes unreal things like houses blow minddont even get started wheels weird things normal state mind barely impact get kind trance everything becomes surreal googled feeling results seem related redflag wanted hear others experience too,1 +so told crush liked them title says all last night around am said love you explained further kinda happened felt really weird tbh honestly didnt expect fantasies come true response though preeetty cool kinda shakey it became reality guess im pretty happy nervous too hell im still confused even happened felt still feels like fever dream advice thee it coward set deadline however small large is aligned crescendo favourite song though replayed bit minideadline fanfare terrifying terrific trembles dont pussy self destruct seconds minutes hours,0 +cry helpim get story lol one person reads im fine also im high adhd im medications grades mediocre basic thing dont feel happy sad never one other felt sad felt happy something brain switched th grade never felt thing worth awhile keep saying mental health recover own attention seeking im reacting emotions dont count much peers family hard make eye contact closest friends im losing friends never harder get them ambition sports parents make happy never liked them done anything always closest friends parents sometimes feel like text give something like value car rides food value anyone much husk person feel like would better gone without give anymore im tired able meet eye contact friend ethan th grade im tired things parents im tired feeling sad this im angry happy good im selfish dont deserve have im husk keeps giving feels like dont have presence dont know going kill myself everyday seems like better option,1 +number factors make easy state still think important science fiction film ever made despite acting outdated dialogue etcbr br first scale imagination describing krell humanoid race native planet dead million years advanced earth humansus technology particularly cubic mile machinebr br second music sound effects inseparable other creates eerie unearthly feeling unlike traditional classical musicbr br third monster powerful deadly ever envisioned also based real science break laws physics biologybr br finally importantly forbidden planet movie ever made attempts and incredibly succeeds making honest intelligent mercilessly logical statement limits ceiling human or biological entitys development matter long survive speciesbr br in words predicts inevitable destiny,0 +generation grown gen z teachers gonna like mr johnson send timmy principals office acting bit sus,0 +venthello first off think ive ever seriously considered redflag feel like im heading towards it im male ive quit highschool jobs currently unemployed sad story amazing loving family without exception care financially also emotionally mom one amazing loving persons lucky meet fact life great makes hate even more feel like piece shit worthless id hate cause pain family ive living life past years since quit highschool isolated myself know quit isolated myself im tired watching time pass years cant stable job commit anything really like said think id kill myself im getting fed up sometimes honestly hope id courage kill myself cause momentary pain family freeing burden me,1 +rejected crush sad bu ever come nose drinking coke,0 +dae ever really shitty day think theres always redflag brings smile face knowing theres way helljust wondering,1 +sub im backthe thoughts gone feel free happy done without sub cant thank enough anyone talked me thank you seriously woke today lot thinking made realize small part large picture gone picture same know sounds stupid share this also anyone needs talk message me ill listen promise thank ,1 +lost job stupidityi started working hotel easy enough job one guests seduced me im depraved female attention swallowed hook right up needless say broke heart know expecting told family great time her alone sitting train crying cant face going back hotel cant humiliation set failure naivete think going drive kill myself see next life live ill reply within h,1 +im going school pog surprise stuff good get home,0 +whyd gay like im happy met shes nice im happy shes friend like idk man want something romantic someone im perfectly fine friends her shes really great really her wish options yk like idk man maybe shell introduce someone,0 +fuck you fuck me fuck everything tried hard going give may well fucking suffer fuck here fuck here fucking ask this fucking human make mistakes fuck supposed do die like fuck point guys kill myself fuck point make point well ya see everytime try one thing important gone longer fucking happy more fuck learned stocks stuff fucking rich guess could sleep life away fuck everyone biggest fuck goes me fuck me fuck everything,1 +im done twitter theres bunch kpop stans making fun right now extremely disrespectful ive lost faith humanity,0 +created originally named mortimer walt disney changed name because wife convinced him mickey mouse become staple disney brand always thought cartoon first ever cartoon feature mickey fact third matter six minute animated short enjoyable story sees mickey piloting steamboat captain pete takes bridge stopping pick cargo minnie mouse missing boat lifted drops music sheets goat eats them mickey helps crank tail play tune getting animals percussion pete comes along stop him making mickey peel potatoes mickey mouse number greatest pop culture icons number greatest cartoons good,0 +strangers love know rules,0 +supposed be kid past future movie lot problems ghost strong kid man piece crap im still confused also supposed abortion strange strange movie mess mind scary confusing he did the oh cares milo worth itbr br my score ,0 +need help month year questioned gender like times know female sometimes feel masculine sometimes feel like gender,0 +watch anime hmmm think neon genesis evangelion relates much me,0 +theres lesbian player school description required,0 +continuing lifefirst all cant believe im here usually kept everything myself thoughts keep coming now internet longer provide answers motivation believe talking friends family isnt helping make feel worse avoid social medias may know username usually use games doubt use reddit even subreddit guys good strangers now cant even describe myself im scared people scared try scared communicate pessimist feeling worthless cant anything properly life im age need find jobs social anxiety personality cant even talk properly every interview end bad every new interview always remind previous went fail again tried always chickened out ending scared even trying anything new worse im man even future far dont dare even look girlfriend feel know left get know better end gossip behind destroy image community slightest small possibility found one wont left me make think destroyed someone daughter future deserve better life normal men me do lost father last month one keep going life mother want make proud want happy dont want waste sacrifice me seem failing endlessly im feeling terribly sorry hard work raising someone like me im tired living like this feeling way could longer find enjoyment life usually play games shake feelings cant even get play games nothing seem entertain now,1 +ok may awardwinning movie year typefilm apart brilliant soundtrack think awards really great film the kid prince o take pick happenings around living minneapolis playing music music absolutely superb opinion soundtrack truly classic sums eighties sounds feel wonderful fashion movie plays nice plot worth seeing again espeically like prince which do course,0 + bad marks according parents is straight good marks student grading system is a upa upb gotten as as main exam got bmaths scholar badges green tie academic awards would gotten blue tie year werent covid basically huge nerd alert parents high expectations me want medical student too get up want get marks up full whenever possible best class look insert good boi name cant like him etc etc etc stressing out lot mark tests going on studying not much last year know wish best me getting head gets deleted probably parents told take down stay safe,0 +reddit makes want kill myselftroll postscomments joke made great joke joke got told grow stop depressed called hostile piece shit want die now got knife ready think im gonna shower sitting down forearm vertically might try eye well goodbye im glad ending,1 +update im gonn kms christmasso hey guys hope ur well ive made decision one guy ive messaging really helped turn around wanna live want meet people like him mentioned last post family absolute shit dont want live them anyone myself life decide happens people reached really thank you bottom heart people dont realise words impact man ur guys messages positivity really helped reading going hard time hope find light reason live many gotta find them overall id like thank concerns messages kindness thank reddit helping get hard place,1 +anyone feel like existing biding time redflageach day wake dreams something great happening life find swamped regrets failures mistakes circumstances surrounding life every aspect life shambles cant even get bed days feel like im existing hoping waiting kind change thing mind redflag want end life badly free horrors inability survive real world know im alive really inability kill gun button push id it,1 +murderedbywords getting dry every single top post see stupid sub half baked insult political bs get people hate trump cmon go look murders actually kill something ffs edgy spill anyone could think of,0 +lucky enough watch without pre viewing hype surprised resilience ghosts image mind next day day that ive watched times time appreciate even more settings gorgeous town dusk beautiful lighting effects marsh long shots house sufficiently grown moss main hero likable good natured easily sympathized with person complained enough spark film id say whole fight ghost waged one person fairly slow paced film unusual amount time spent pre post ghost attack developing character family work life spoilers discussionbr br i especially liked turning point comes back main town meets man helping explains seeing ghost describes woman black end conversation says going back all harm done him man says you cant go back alone lends hero dog cute little dog offers small respite comic relief bounding house even locked roombr br the many casual appearances ghost really freaked out woman shows mid shot church showing afraid church also shy bound house beginning another unbelievably memorable scene kids outside church fence watching funeral camera pans right woman seen background among gravestones older man even look it kids yelling taunting it crreeepy usually ghosts hidden shadows haunting specific locales people mentioned ghosts malevolence wrath frightening feel attacks ending perfect fully justified ending underlined fact hero made major mistake going back house perhaps marked matter what saving gypsy girl guy plays hotel manager believable really fills role well spreading word friends much enjoyed film reassuring see others feel same see people quite see masterpiece especially went lot review hypebr br i think another person summed said movie settled question whether ghosts could physically harm man whew plan watch tonight followed changeling aaww yeah films recommendbr br thanks,0 +laying wrists cut open struggling feel anything all many nightskill really okay dying,1 +thoughts dreamsso ramen od day went sleep would call dream endless free fall remember screaming help me husband told didnt scream all,1 +feelings someone okay recently ive talking lots girls fourth block current events class ive recently developed feelings one them ive never feelings girl felt strange also contempt comforting asked could friends said yes shes also sister one friend brother lives near us always see hand out whats advice would want potentially start friendship later relationship autistic person,0 +watching film caused quite emotional reaction todays documentaries about refreshing watch something personal honest real mr blocks thoughts opinions disclosure rarely seen days incredibly well displayed here fine line walk personal truth exploitation film treads carefully quite successfullybr br one would think learning seemingly normal couple falls short societys expectations would give birth pessimismbut doesnt quite opposite made feel good feel know marriageabout womenbr br definitely check out itll make think exactly good documentary designed do,0 +girls rteenagers question come yall tend go guys assholes end hurting you instead guys nice genuinely care ofc ik girls like good portion girls ik are,0 +reasoni reason kill self still feel need im going school teacher feel dumb worthless live family loves supports feel alone boyfriend miles away feels still far want see happens die wish knew wasnt alone drink feel alive please let know something more,1 +uyeuhs dick huge dawg ive seen it shits massive probably record,0 +hot millions delightful comedy made even better presence marvelous cast assembled it movie tribute genius peter ustinov wrote screen play appears key figure enterprising embezzler movie directed eric till show signs dated terribly others periodbr br at center action friendly man marcus pendleton who released prison fixes income tax forms warden amazed refund owed government marcus genius numbers sees opportunities others wouldnt starts working firm uses latest computer accounting pendleton resourceful man finds way take advantage system establishes different phony accounts different parts continentbr br marcus assigned secretary also happens flat building inept patty seen working bus fare taker manages make mess everything lands job secretary beyond comprehension things never office creepy willard gnatpole decides go her fear pattys heart belongs marcus accomplished pianist flutist make beautiful music togetherbr br the best thing film peter ustinov clearly understood marcus played runs away film mr ustinov gives assured account embezzler excellent maggie smith also best take patty kind woman adores marcus proves genius comes investing money finds marcus pocketsbr br karl malden perfect american charge corporation bob newhart also appears gnatpole man desires patty cant get reciprocate marvelous robert morley seen caesar smith whose identity marcus assumed cesar romero appears also cameo role airport customs inspectorbr br hot millions delight everyone looking fun time company unsavory charming character marcus pendleton,0 +found way deal brothers blackmail cancel blackmail blackmail cant force something blackmailing blackmail way around pretty much cant blackmail everything goes back normal also blackmailing use reddit dont bad stuff reddit reddit place say whatever want without explain anything parents,0 +man fuck instagrams servers even code better wtf,0 +wish monkey like think monkeys pay tax give fuck grades get financially stable theyre fucking monkeys sometimes wish life consisted swinging tree tree cracking open yellow ones boys eating babies much ask for,0 +hate playing public among us servers provide actual evidence someone imposter say im sus get thrown dumb,0 +many us wanting die every dayi come often come think yes ive decided now come wanting leave behind something whats life leave nothing behind right cant leave anything behind friends family were repeatedly told hurt killing ourselves course action is try best friends family little memory possible leave memory strangers im doctor first job made ill hours stress repeated infections colleagues patients but especially colleagues got cfsme taking medication depression suicidality got sick march colleague begged work let things remotely meetings telephone consultations happen home as many colleagues different supervisors supervisor agree this is play health go risk covid infections phone calls people type letters cant even stand half hour sure lets make worse again tried apply jobs even secretary past year luck pandemic even jobs family lives abroad countrys borders closed friends health drove off probably helped charming depressive personality ive made preparations already ive started say goodbye people letters finances everything taken care of im relieved everything ending finally wanted leave memory somewhere say happens doctors too get depressed too get sick too like everyone else here nobody take care us either thank reading goodbye,1 +right thing isnt always right thing simple lt,0 +guys help cyberbully someone dont worry deserve it theyre worst kind person discord dilemma,0 +real talk real manhere real talk fat one wants you ugly others recoil countenance mentally ill people distance you fact life three things align sure sentenced life loneliness regret know sweat desperation lay bed wondering anyone outside family even cares slip noose around neck take many pills slit wrists take last exit life gives over maybe next time attractive intelligent funny strong but time night im tired going life alone im tiredim exhausted weight disappointment others trusted end get efforts pure clean silence silence write letter one friend family hopefully forgive me im tired everyones reusable last option,1 +first thought ring would normal movie ordinary plot surprised i course plot simple one girl love two men hitchcock brings us silver platter laughter fear compassion anguish way depicts popular crowds fair strength attraction girl men tragic elements come together techniques open mind greatest moviesnorth northwest rope etc master great even thirties,0 +whats wrong mei done rn i hate much keep paying ppls mistakes family drama daily basis fault power energy motivation anything im drowning toxicity physical illness nothing everything consuming im torn one side wanna kms im piece shit petty excuse human side know whats waiting aint gonna pretty everyone looks even wanna change minds anymore im sick it,1 +rteenagers like look new pet paperclip please give platinum cuz never got it,0 +dangerous decisionso im huge pc nerd ordered ft ethernet cable would faster internet run pc room router im scared might get desperate try hang self it cancel order,1 +know anymoreif care go post history theres extra details feel like explaining again losing completely fucked over months gone everything still feels like fever dream went full nc th last month take seeing completely flipped anymore lies false promises made us care anymore seeing get replaced cant anymore even got puppy help mistake since also got since told seeing one would make happy since always talked getting one together got deep chance itll fix things didnt love pup feel cant connect reminding also mainly distracting ways im trying cope apparently told roommate email scared send feel anything good anyway otherwise would sent now hate whole situation even wanna try bothering love since feel itll always go back somehow think survive another loss like this wanna feel normal again want life back even though life shitty still really depressed least grieving loss well,1 +rock bottomwell title states ive hit rock bottom previous post alot workings ex years leaving social anxiety inability conversation woman incredible know even bother tell last time intimate anyone three weeks ago approached parents paying rent live home far knew everything kosher sit explained due rejection christianity household rules would leave immediately okay one sibblings gay atheist stay know bat going say comply time get out much religion rules mental physical abuse take anymore left without word full time job although enough money get on ive able rent hotel room past week money left car good shape real conversation long time lonelyness getting me call weakness whatever see much point continuing life ill never make debt ever land better job struggle get food week hell idea im going eat toinght however put aside nice regiment pills allow escape imprisionment tourture reddit give reason even bother going on,1 + individuals joined subreddit past months redflagthe silent pandemici havent visited subreddit past months until today damn number subscribers increased from around cant help link covid associated stress isolation sadly redflag remains silentunspoken pandemic,1 +so everyone needs hear it hope okay ever need anything tell me actually tell feeling right now honest,0 +would make happydeath hate stop asking why,1 +hey whats anyone bored yo anyone wanna chill group chat made made ppl make new friends chat literallyyyy anything ye comment invite,0 +heard could helped please readhttpswwwredditcomrdepressioncommentsakrrvtim_going_to_kill_myselfutm_sourceredditandroid,1 +ive seen enoughim using throwaway case work time ive tried times last months cant even right took pills booze woke puked whiskey shitty cheap brand got drunk started slash wrists passed wound bleeding lot got lightheaded blood loss back yard tried also tried jumping river near asshole good samaritans asshole boat pulled even though struggled many things gone wrong lately job loss miscommunication gas company resulting gas shut yesterday straightened supposed back mondayso good wife son bankruptcy loss house couple years ago move rented shithole thing totally fucked brain shitty story brought wifes friends daughter christmas eve hate christmas anyway story something eaten away every minute every day since anyhow son going college hes got shit together wife beautiful guys way better hitting theyll like sharks circling couple days theyll fine mother still fucked fathers death couple years ago impacted that one knows give shit im feeling whiskey right im going go dig stash oxy,1 +reddit recommend rconservative rtrans cant edit im conservative transgender lol,0 +hey posting throwaway account obvious reasons also english first languagebut graduated last year school feel really hopeless like idk schools out really know personality want do school faking am class clown etc get accepted make friends went pretty rough break first girlfriend year ago break able perform bed girls performance redflag ultimately led wanting anything girls tried viagra etc work time could get redflag become worsenow alone room hopeless wishing could sleep forever like motivation anything end drinking andor smoking weed watch youtubenetflix job like something do soon leave feel really whack hoping someone could give encouragement support insecure depressed,1 +close killing myselfi want cant,1 +good evening peoplei know people x bigger problems hereso consider venti suicidali value life going hurt anyone thiesince young struggled nerd guy problems fewer friends bla bla blai diagnosed thyroid issuethe years later diabetesthen failed year universitybecame pharmacisti many notredflag clicksex free notredflag due legalsocial restrictions friendships decreasing drastically lost go except worki cannot wait feel happy attachedi want something years get it feel grateful happy like seconds flash gratitude back square zero become withdrawn panic future daily basisi work hours daily days retail pharmacy pm pm life go out want stare roofi built future around physician like father othersfailed thisthe career fulfilling coworkers people underaverage iq think need something betteri cannot reach know isi approaching want waste life panicking getting rare disease thyroid nodules turning cancer lateror thinking depressing career possibility developmenti approaching livedonly boring something guy boring farce career daily meds minor inconvenience,1 +talk redflag friends think jokefor talked redflag like majority friends think joking like yeah going kill buddy mine said yeah same ahead me tonight somehow got subject redflag packed guys like yeah join jokingly know people know im fucked guess think im joking guess finally it friends laugh care,1 +tried kill years ago regret didnt finish myselfim tired hearing stored form people guy tried jump bridge regretted it never hear people tried kill sad didnt work actually went bridge regret jumping wish succeeded killing first time tried life going get unbelievably worse kid innocent could gone heaven killed chance ripped forever could saved much pain suffering better job kid,1 +ive abused many times feel like psyche irreparableim damaged goods good upbringing raised abusive mother married man also abused us moved father married woman tore gaslit daily attempted redflag times teenager so moved away across country college thought id get fresh start surround good people freshman year college raped months after met guy seemed perfect made fucking happy love bombed gave everything emotionally physically even financially started abusing emotionally sexually dumped year text told everyone abused him also found hed cheated multiple times so isolated person friend town point kept coming place wanting make up wed sex hed tell worth shit remember asking why flatly said because easier finding someone tinder point cracked admitted hospital multiple times severe panic attacks even remember person never even recovered that still feel like that two years later found slandered greatly across town pretty much everyone knew abuser so even speak atrocities without immediately shouted told dont listen liar abused jake tried multiple times speak apologize whatever ghosted also banned rape support groups abuser ended another relationship started great exgirlfriend got involved turned guy still feelings cheated multiple times body shamed compared ex got addicted drugs reminded daily wasnt girlfriend piece ass parties made game throwing beer face friends would laugh me relationship ended essentially started fucking someone else front party humiliated front everyone next day made public facebook posts psychotic even though shit cry even say anything party cried sat outside chainsmoking madeout couch house yesterday found first abusive ex raped another girl finally felt like experience substantiated second account well livid hed done someone else told people getting together cancel him fucking finally asked could part girl wanted speak another one victims because alone told no even abuse substantiated people still support well girl im impression girl thinks victim ive silenced years tried post abuse support sub got downvoted so guess im wrong deserve support im healthy relationship friends boyfriend friends try build up tell im attractive im wanted im important feel barren bounces off none sinks know why think im beaten cant even internalize positivity love anymore sex feels like nothing anymore boyfriend loving cuddling feels like nothing ive tried past year feel something never comes think killing everyday ive tried took long able chicken out now really feel like im far gone tested disappearing last year im social media except reddit gave people phone number one ever contacted me friends reached last months went pretty much year even thinking me whole think affect friends family thingi really think majority would forget move within weeks ive even lifelong friends stopped talking went social media even though number would forget move on deeply affect anyone think would hurt boyfriend father father getting old enough deal long boyfriend still young would meet someone else probably fairly soon even even know im posting this guess wanted someone know why yes ive therapy tried multiple antidepressants before ive even abuse rape specific therapy put bandaid problem,1 +nice pleasant funny earthshattering good job showing behind scenes world theater groups lives actors three witches great on offstage would assume movie works wonderfully lots apparent inside jokes one involved theater which im not,0 +ever get better getting bad,1 +essay due tommorow scary gone wrong oh sorry that maybe got attention trough bad joke help little pleasee dont usually ask others advices something like essay presentation due tomorrow know fun facts anything short personal experience graphic cards expansion cards would really appreciate share really short fun fact experience me thank much lt,0 +think failedmy friend another state told loved goodbye posted instagram love friends tale pain away dont know address cant find none friends answering ive called times instagram snap dont know please help thing thats keeps alive,1 +movie really makes think life culture family structures situational actions give plot post think others beat already hope despite reading opinions site take chance see movie yourself went see movie husband friend must say movie total silence theater minutes looked behind everyone theater staring screen lost thought make delve deep psychological abyss ponder several thingsbr br how much society influence life lives generationbr br how long someone pay mistakes madebr br if second chance given ever realizedbr br is better live box live all br br my questions intended show approval disapproval lelands actions want opinion way dictate take away film giving it see yourself still lost thought attempting answer many questions film enjoyed greatly hope too film trying answer questions condone action promote punishment movie trying make us evaluate lives take rose colored glasses us view world throughbr br great movie stars,0 +cannot handle cannot know point dropped going school forfew years last every single friend ever family never talks know nothing push everyone away cannot handle around people dread going alway smile make stupid jokes soon get back room sit dark put something tv time something animated since feels like break reality lay day night feeling empty randomly crying tried cutting self nothing put scars attempted times times nothing made feel like shit think going end soon complete something bucket list cannot handle one talk last years even text ever phone point search something never hour day trying get job save money thing end motivated see self hating everything liked feeling like even family seem like stranger kept trying tell self young understand anything drugs causing stopped nothing change going th grade parents going make like make th cannot even recconect old freinds since moved deleted contact information sorry rumbling doubt anyone cares read wanted something somewhere proves existed getting left behind,1 +anyone wanna join among us hideandseek game tried went well im trying im wondering anybody wants join among us game hideandseek version pretty much know game imposter announces themself beginning game theres reporting calling meetings imposther tries kill crew mates crew makes try finish task win additional things lights imposters disadvantages sabotages lights game settings imposter emergency cool player speed crewmate vision imposter vision kill cooldown sec kill distance short long task short common code gjukxq,0 +guys excellent anything put public first class musicianship band amazing thankful live world rush exists future generations never able see mastery live person get dvd enjoy throughly recently able see incredible musicians play houston tx blown away missed show since power windows say better ever everyone embrace guys teach others real musicianship is never tight well put together trio lifetime lets hope pray retire anytime soon,0 +anybody wanna join minecraft world xbox name pleasedbanjo,0 +returned help now one you need help returned think youre group world help me girl always uses emoji fucking clue means responds frequently even flirty messages what help teens,0 +nobody give two shits people bring value them something suicidal people know about everyone including cases parents in case least give two flying fucks you presence life unless value outweighs mental costs undergo around you however second show negative emotion first ones shit you belittle you negate resemblance emotion would rather believe made reality rather understand truthwhat kind shitty person would rather kick curb order save face rather help something goes wrongmy mother openly stated found boy youngest siblings one bore first grandson grandfather we indian family moved us born brother moved back father died apparently big deal grandfatherits got fucked up literally feel need justify existence picking skills useful future i good computer tinker linux lot disassemble reassemble laptopwhat kind parent justifies saying right simply born her kind parent belittles child extent even fully comprehend effect doingi done life done existence honestly done universe knowing matter many times die reincarnated wishful thinking know die going erased existence like never even mattered always another person going am nobody gives two shits,1 +downvote want getting repetitive,0 +day trying make friends pansexuals enjoy pancakes,0 + highschool stress aloneim high school year old teen utterly alone even friends feel uncomfortable place cant socialized people im shy pathetic cant take stress grades great i cs bs ive stressing grades long time parents sent us fix grades really suck high school almost failed years middle school want straight as know happened change mind last year like failed got good grades every day parent say need study harder always compare brother hes smarter better son me always scream left behind grades perfect him brother always everything try do friend better grades sociable but parent talk grades tell okey need help nothing all feel like giving up,1 +get likes thats it thanks giving ted talk goodbye,0 +im lost lifesince really remember sadness yes ups majority years filled sadness depression im close giving up dont know anymore im born bullied every day locked toilets threw things me started swimming got happy august parents got divorced led hear parents calling worsts things world even though told making really fucking sad really care half year now see parents parents see strangers like friends seem immature or dont know knowing hard is happy time cant name one beautiful thing planet makes happy said self many times need wait move out hard like feel purpose world everything would much better left im lost know self anymore im literally curious see side life im sick tired shit,1 +failed attempafter failed redflag attemp know feel set one throwing something traumatic back face took bunch drugs guess time im left feeling hollow empty inside start get back sort normality,1 +anyone interested made community designed people talk currently life struggles success stories space people discuss whats currently going roversharinginc,0 +mommy issues kick wanna lobotomy filler filler biller,0 +unironically say pog like,0 +bruh theres indian dude hasnt showered years married amp kids know fucked guy gets pussy,0 +dont know really feel say isnt really thingif gets buried thats ok,1 +samuel fuller knows war one directors american movie history could accurately portray horrific experiences form like motion picture pessimism idealism sounds little odd mix together work storyteller time hes always tell truth however brutal or put melodramatic constructs get verboten however deals postwar experience get opening scenes big boom war bold point opening shot like one big exclamation point seems continue rest scenes dead soldier ground camera pans up see another soldier shot wartorn terrain simple direct language fuller punctuates intensity something interesting title song played opening credits irony sincerity beethoven music shootout americans nazis sgt david brent james best shot battle goes on transitions treated woundsbr br it might lead one believe somewhat conventional ww flick somewhat one usually find beethoven and later extent wagner put images case instead fuller makes coming home kind movie though sense this soldier comes home injured on instead really going home brent stays germany hes fallen head heels woman helga susan cummings pretty good pulling german accent wants work smaller capacity military marry her realize a wants money get food brother however gets complex emotionally point revelation slightly naive heartfelt brent b theres underground hitler youth sect called werewolves want pick right hitler ended starting small despite argument within group attacking government thats embedded germany give them brent describes blood transfusion this plus footage nuremburg trials as narrated think fuller himself quick nopunchespulled history nazi war crimes piece piece get multifaceted look society dire straits immediate postwar environment rossellini handled way germany year zero fuller tackles layers first theres love story tragic downfall man cant see anything past thinks reasonable wife child way cant leave revelation hes partly swindled baker cummings along harold daye helgas young confused brother perform utmost detail emotions easy bmovie parts though couldve that another layer political one struggle society come grips conquered mentality made sensationalized sure fuller respect making nazis total nograyarea thing theyre evil particularly cancel reason meet endsbr br and finally theres layer style strangely absorbing probably one fullers talkiest films bad thing considering one best written scripts characters talk simply many platitudes with exception small scene two characters talk hitler youth juvenile delinquents actually according fullers autobiography probably another layer consider subtext s period movies fuller shoots almost real european style hes going fight scenes battles editing always fast sometimes cut happen full minute longer theres odd tension grows this especially theres something said character gets another one wildeyed suspicious fuller could easily go big closeup theres sinister cold quality moving away two people conversation without simple overtheshoulder deal requires it like big brawl outside american military office nuremburg footage spliced franzs memories werewolves fuller stunning stylist everbr br very hard find extremely worth your either fan directors ww movies set germany even historybuff verboten intellectual experience strong emotional one cast better expected bmovie attitude towards other equally damning thought provoking,0 +goodbyethats could say could end right would read last words would ever communicate goodbye often think powerful would be know finish typing end it hear back think me think dead desk think person find me person tell dad words powerful im weak goodbye,1 +random fact mickey mouse first going named mortimer mouse changed mickey mouse,0 +excellent movie presented every year holidays christmas beautiful great acting john denver best ie sincere kind talented natural town georgetown colorado every bit lovely story,0 +maybe dont ptsd maybe im myselfevery time talk stupid trauma feel like im faking shit stupid feel like im pussy it gets ptsd catfished would still depressed helping year old suicidal thoughts shit fucking years ago im pathetic,1 +want sing dreamed dream thats all feel free add thoughts below fucking love song,0 +thought getting betteri know watched ozark one point bipolar guy talks like wakes one day like oh remember feel something like think bipolar really relate part like alright reason really get feel emotions flips back remember still depressedthis kind fucked spend lot time thinking would like serial killer took entire extended family could either live alone whatever end without making anyone else sad yknow also would ruin would almost certainly latter,1 +u want awards talk inevitable,0 +tell afraid let know not everyone asks alright,1 +many us wish could throw away social cultural obligations free us suspect shall dance movie dancing learning ourselves recognising looking life courage go search it mr sugiyama middleaged member japanese society ballroom dancing viewed unsuitable behaviour br br one day mr sugiyama sees beautiful girl leaning window dancing acadamy fascinated eventually signs dancing lessons ashamed dancing afraid ridicule hides fact attending dancing classes colleagues familybr br there hilarious scene mensroom office sugiyama watanabe workmate also dances interrupted practising dance steps many funny warmhearted scenesbr br the ending fairytale leaves viewer feeling goodbr br this movie helped understand japanese people little better warm worthwhile film see,0 +first reply gets free award again award go brrrrrrrrr,0 +mitten squad betrayed called metric something like pretend units useless people est time zone canada mexico parts south central america united states,0 +advice talk someone specific manic anxietyi friend clearly depressed anxious im finding difficult help out specific target anxiety climate change strongly defeatist attitude towards it try conversation it ask try professional help kind turtles up says important thing him cant live normal life hanging head getting worse recently hes acting strangely even difficult talk it really able converse normally much social interaction result im really worried could give up one day something think could ever forgive for id really like advice could help him way please help thank much,1 +probably going dead hours goes dear anyone even bothers read this break everything touch broke family broke friends broke friends families broke life break everyone around me everything problem involved ever make things better even know exist technically supposed born exist make life worse exist punching bag whoever wants hurt someone scapegoat every bad thing every day new problem life sick pretending getting better not amount exercise meditation whatever fix me mistake punished done many unspeakable things short life get deserve guess really hope people pity sob story truly evil sight disgusts me know people miss gone first know much hurt really spend time crying foot under people get it see anyone crying granddad died died years ago assume years time people forget gone please look mum grandma tell fault knowing them blame themselves tell ok now pain more tell love them hurt many people past truly sorry every single person strangers worst enemies feel though need make amends die everyone know now sorry meet way sorry everything please get better me please live life would wanted live make proud watch you remember me remember name remember storylove jadeaster final goodbye hopefully,1 +hospitalfirst time hospitalized ever including redflag attempts looks like theyre involuntarily hospitalizing me fun im super relieved though walking around getting ready find place it totally cathartic felt good decision usually id get anxious coward out simple me someone found hours later apparently iwas worried wake up parents would upset like younger looking answers crying really theyve chatting normally staying doctors move me still feel different empty except general anxiety tried mentally prepare this distraught parents crying etc like first attempt awhile ago casual far actually prefer it want ask exactly involuntary hospitalization include outpatient beforehand group sessions color sometimes talk psychiatrist childrens outpatient im ,1 +jason momoa slicks back hair hi,0 +old friend invited farewell party normally get invites like going away another country honest never close went different universities get along well him dinner party people female friends girlfriend like guys whole night felt zoned out felt horrible friendly talking others felt faded alcohol made even worse one guys remarked barely talked anyone whole night felt crushed gave usual xcuse tired difficult leave right away first leave felt like giving officially came home cried yeah yr old dude cried party feel like loser matter much force always loser give even trying anymore tired it cannot even hang people feel like broken person,1 +slept naked one time jerked bed forgot school night mom woke up fun trying explain naked covered cum filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +bruh imagine stalking ppl like ew wtf yall yr old pedos anything better,0 +jus want kill myself jus want kill jus want kill killing requires courage,1 +motherland german army march ampxb httpspreviewredditwahiusskpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfebcfddcaa,0 +wanna sleep pain help help h please hate bad get ,0 +geometry dash making wanna die though nd level chaos gauntlet xl level irritating difficult im know next bit difficult me cant finish it ive trying level hour bursts today cant stop now fucking long boring colour scheme shit looks like seizure flashing lights strobe effects going on want finish level want annoying level fucking game ive done vast majority main game easy demon here suffer ffs,0 +broooooo im excited college like honestly intimidating cant wait go choose one sucks,0 +gone days people still remember me need retake title,0 +want hurt familytheyre one with exception real friends ive managed amass course life thats right whole friends care me mom always kind gentle understanding person perhaps one point much so contribued greatly sheltered upbringing used hold grudge agaisnt reason ive moved past it best fantastic relationship dad child maybe years since ive started properly things him hes woodworker got making instruments finally real common interest grew there also sister whos year older me brotherinlaw whos known since whos helped considerably helped quotes despite good efforts feel beyond help got lifting made happy while hes also generally pretty cool guy finally nephews year old theyre like little brothers honestly want disappoint family already failing function society early age fuck want ride try get better last time posted here someone linked this good commenthttpswwwredditcomrgetdisciplinedcommentsqbi_just_dont_care_about_myselfcdahaf ive following advice also eat better exercise best ability study countrys equivalent ged make efforts go out still feel like shit still feel like progress extremely fragile still want out living family feels like living bubble much genuinely enjoy around them fucking nothing leech ill help dad brotherinlaw work ask feel like help besides that completely useless barely member society yet keep around always upbeat positive future progress maybe much so know bubble burst one day know im mentally ill family besides mom turns blind eye obvious fact im obsessed thought im gonna develop schizophrenia form psychosis might ocd anxiety whatever could right even yet know proper name torment know im fucked core cant even fucking imagine functioning adult disaster mind one would want me making friends would hard relationships would impossible shit probably count number times ive basic physical contact girl two hands im terribly afraid people im gonna keep trying though know im likely gonna make it cant rewire brain good diet exercise one day even loving family get tired shit day maybe ill able go without causing much pain thanks reading did,1 +hibr br i heard lost coworker obvious differences opinion entertainment loved it well watched episode early seasons bored tuned out years stumbled upon lost bored current scifi fare wow surprised say gravity well damn got sucked in pace scripting good flash forwardbacks lamer characters good favorite characters ben locke jacob richard alpert sayid jarrah sawyer hurley daniel faraday jin wife walt charlie desmond jacks dad jack michael definitely immature asshats spoiled immature kate step them juliet way classy kate mr eko way underrated level charlie more bad died guy dressed black talking jacob way back genuine curiosity whole great layered series looking morebr br regards,0 +pwease marry senpai im lonely need loveee oh senpai screams ohhhhh ssenpai thats a moans loudly senpai pwease butts donut hhole,0 +want die want alive anymore want remember anything anymore much fucking redflag know much take die die die,1 +anybody feel like prettynice girls taken would never you lately ive seeing girl work with really cute super nice found boyfriend also really prettynice girl school chill class boyfriend also rest girls would interested in could tell interested me anybody else feel straight hopeless,0 +essentially want ever terrified know right thing destroy family friend circle care owe much inflict pain make pact end figured way cope torn slow suicide continue drink smoke work early grave hope easier circle bite bullet rip plaster quicknot really asking question help throwing thoughts void nearing age told id figure things out,1 +feeling low good outcomewhen feel bad usually come real account tend help people today really even feel good enough that years old birthday september currently financial distress single big house myself basically work commission base salary counted barely survived closed deal unforeseen circumstances even closed get paid might sound bad suppose represent years salary also company took hit cant even pay base salary also got debt trying survive spent amex company expenses never returned still slight chance might get money end month get it would mean able make payments money even gas food first time paid rent amex might send bill collection agency damaging credit terribly finally postponed tax declaration october since suppose get money pay them know might happen kids wife even dog curse bless bless would like suffering me time feel lonely see goal family disappears day really hate worked hard risked much yet nothing show thinking buying gun blow brain out would like nobody blame death feel like deer front pair headlights paralyzed car comes closer closer,1 +think time tie loose endsi think time go longer feel anything loose ends fix go dont anything important,1 +im tiredim exhausted alone ive able think past days killing noone ask help anymore literally noone gives shit dont know im even bothering things getting worse worse im going end fucking dead noones even going realize im gone dont even feel like exist anymore havent thinking redflag much years god im fuckibg tired meaning anything anyone dont friends time try make friends end putting forward effort person cant keep pushing barely get bed feed myself wish someone would break apartment kill get,1 +cure constipation step taco bell step step profit,0 +reddit kinda screwy recently im checking see posts still show up they,0 +suicide rapall pain agony every day like raining tragedies brain see bc angry mad me view would lame sad savagery tired putting fake face acting happy real feel longer wearing mask want chill wrap me bc insane crazy psychopath say mewell say money root evil even though need survive got decide stupid people hard positive optimistic nothing negatives obvious impossible obstacles vision pessimistic suicide seem like solution logical slit wrist blow brains heat grill od handfuls pills either way death still be self killed bc guilt made hate another one,1 +feel lost trapped know do please helphello ive never really good sharing feelings im begging help plan kill myself thought head longer remember recently urge lot stronger im longer scared idea think dead think alive hate life gotten point want normal feel lost trapped nasty thoughts leave head please help,1 +brother thinks society sucks protect weak thats let people die covid make society stronger i guess forgot mom lyme disease risk lol,0 +need coffee dont wanna get,0 +dad best said hungry earlier dad walked gave bowl ramen without even asking love man,0 +anyone else happenso came help earlier seem finding help trying help others finding reasons live seem finding answers community quite cool opinion,1 +stripperella animated series girl named erotica jones voiced pamela anderson lives double life stripper gentlemans club known the tender loins sexy crimefighter known stripperella aka agent works government organization stripperella erotica fights crime forces evil plastic surgeon gives women breast implants either explode make fat cheapo criminal steals cent stores makes two henchmen share gun creator character series stan lee marvel fame and creator spidermanbr br back late june spike tv then known new tnn premiered thursday night block three animated shows shows ren stimpy adult party cartoon new adventures classic kids show characters ren stimpy adults done original creator john kricfalusi gary rat lawyer turned human sized rat starring kelsee grammar cheers fraiser fame stripperella adventures stripper doubles superhero voiced pamela anderson created stan lee remember seeing three premiers anxious see ren stimpy love original show little let down alright seemed take things little far seeing two gay sex together bit much though gary rat bad best three easily stripperella animation really good awesome intro song good talent behind it funny hell show silly even know begin explaining it four five weeks if little less animation block disappeared weird know got good ratings advertised everywhere disappointed see stripperella go several months later found new episodes aired like am got see one though funny hell glad see show back time something seemed bit offbr br in beginning short run stripperella great animation dark moody realistic somewhat sexy too stripperella costumed looked good too character drawn well long hiatus rest episodes animation different instead dark realistic look originally everything really colorful cartoonish stripperella received biggest changes though normal long hair hair bigger peggy bundys married children even possible also eye mask actually shows eyes now white saw cool since superheroish also upper part costume kind vesttype thing collar costume dark blue changed costume bluishviolet color upper costume really crappy looking comparison short show cartoon top silly beforehand secondhalf became cartoonish looking though still laughoutloud hilarious became zany well example later episode werebeaveryes werebeaver br br anyway instead complaining midseries changes stripperella ran one season good show like tales crypt film bordello blood may really campy really fun long prude find laughing repeatedly show seen every episode got dvd yet two reasons paramount released screwed policy including extras nearly released tv shows even though entire show i would liked see commentarys maby explaining animation change interviews pamela anderson stan lee awesome kid rock song opening replaced im fan his intro sang theme show going pay extras least pay original intro song jackasses show also interesting guest stars john lovitz cheapo mark hamil plastic surgion hates models also tom kenny spongebob show owner strip club every episode stan lee cameo one episode toobr br the breakdown br br pros great look first funny hell fun show great voice talent part chief strogenoff watch show see stuff does easily best three animated shows mentioned earlierbr br cons midseries animation change crappy dvd described earlier aside fact humor could kind dumb times nothing really negative say thisbr br overall stripperella huge guilty pleasure mine shame ran one season funny sexy actioned packed cult series hope see air adult swim someday original intro intact possibly give another season like family guy check even lousy dvd laugh sillybr br rated tvma crude sexual humor nudity runtime minutes per episode score ,0 +like knew would happiness last long it like love temporary conditionali really think many years ahead me year one know another be itch coming back,1 +thaughts vs intentionsif really want die also dont want leave anyone behind know wouldnt make really suicidal worse,1 +deliciously nasty black comedy middleaged schlub danny devito wants bump mother hatches plan bitter divorce wants bump exwife movie completely unapologetic cynicism gives us one like works movies favor rather turn offbr br anne ramsey devitos battle axe mom steals show grotesquely funny performance even though horror end rooting her seems like could kick devitos crystals asses time hands tied behind backbr br grade b,0 +need comment karma close yet far want help plz like comment put guess,0 +reason familyive attempted three times last time feb gotten way better situation right makes feel helpless thinking past life makes feel helpless wont attempt it sucks ive feelings since reason im going try family specifically mother boyfriend two boys already lost mother wife im lucky people love me cant shake feeling longer months time edited also life attempt isnt successful another reason wont it,1 +reminder clean phone screen everyday nasty creature probably germs toilet seat screen,0 +cant familyi would long gone family parents struggled pain depression decades yet theyve done everything could me cant imagine anguish death would cause them deserve that often think theyve passed away it godfather p quote often comes mind i want anything happen mothers alive parent bury child,1 +suicidal dont think ill iti crazy thoughts reality whats happening world around us ive visions time space weird tube traverse length know seconds passed much happening around us know ill never get answers makes truly want die dont know why,1 +feeling bad bc teen redflags around meokay basically im freshman dont know like ive suicidal thoughts since sixth grade two attempts january girl school committed redflag really didnt like talked shit constantly died cried two days im still like months later feel guilty feel like fault death made suicidal thoughts way worse exactly month died second attempt since long ive started feel little better like pain started wear even though still think every day last night found girl school near committed redflag two days ago lots kids school knew posting links funeral fundraiser didnt even know existed still feels awful hasnt affected much girl since didnt know also wasnt bitch alive feel like set back little makes sense,1 +feel like im starting get control back life slowly im resignating situation im ready make things better myself stable relationship supportive wife ambitions growing back slowly finnaly hope could hardly ask more asked doc lower effexor feel like sideeffects outweigh good does really help much redflag feel depersonalization ever since im medications finally gives uncontrollable cravings,1 +get head please yeah you please get dont forget jacket close door behind you thanks,0 +stunning look ocean life itbr br the goodbr br the camera work absolutely phenomenal every shot done beautifullybr br it interesting seeing different animals could never even imaginedbr br david attenborough perfect narrators voice one could done betterbr br the badbr br there one two different times reference earth million years old hold different belief br br overall tv series anyone enjoy highly recommend buying it stars,0 +im fucking done shit little brother never behaves im one actually something it parent dont anything think im crazy upset share room fucking animal six years always talks us none give shit ask stop get out starts mooning streaks around room cant deal shit anymore fucking hate life,0 +glad saw film seen directors films past thought production values great like costumes settings bridge interesting see concept spirit demons handledbr br i agree comments fight scenes hard follow timesbr br ultimately moral tale would interesting know japanese viewers thought film film would like see againbr br some scenes like ones benkai prince fighting psychic level well donebr br i come cinema thinking happened here intense,0 +god feel numb idk feel numb sad really happy either ever since crap happened girl like feel nothing wish able feel something idk im feeling way fuck hormones screwing bruh needed rant numbness brain rn,0 +oppenheimer great series it first thing saw waterston in bad copies available similar situation exists glory enough all british series around time discovery insulin would pay good price dvd really difficult get oppenheimer dvd able played us another enjoyable series time danger uxb series defusing unexploded bombs hence name one get local librarybr br pete,0 +get many im gonna steal youre banana responses posts mean dont know expected named account still kinda annoying,0 +want antique skin lampshade ww imagine shock house guests faces would amazing,0 +bad movie could done without full frontal nudity year old boy one opening scenes movie excellent dialog certainly common among foreign films foreign actors still know act opposed american actors let cgi stunts special effects work them film good old fashion acting gerarde depardieux excellent job always costumes scenery accurate time complaint dubbed english words french instead using subtitles could hate reading subtitles,0 +feeling deeply hopelessdont know exactly started thing feel completely angry bored time thought redflag several times since know people love still believe me im able deal job college relationships feel like anything life expect getting good job future becoming rich traveling around world seems driving force makes go on recently started drinking lot im getting low grades university im wasting lot money due alcohol addiction get drunk almost every night throw mornings im feeling completely lost know anything life,1 +hey guys anyone wanna talk m well heres stuff play basketball baseball volleyball soccer tennis hiking ig thats like sorta sport kinda play videogames lots like warzone campaign call duty honestly im good listening giving advice u need maybe consider ig lastly ill try interesting possible boring ya hmu u want great day,0 +feel like life simulation made sick entity wants see long takes people kill themselvesi know im right sub im suicidal suicidal thoughts lately sometimes feel like sick entity experimenting me like trying see long take commit redflag sometimes moments hopehappy moments last long feel like entity giving false hope takes away make lose shit put edge anyone else feel way,1 +severe depression taken away live mit hard believe actually happening again dwelled event throughout summer fall im getting set extremely negative thoughts cant anything about event certain date spring still years old almost yearandahalf later years old still uncontrollable unwanted ruminating dwelling thoughts event cannot control odds event happening luck equivalent rolling snake eyes dice times row beyond ridiculously poor luck event ruminating long fucking unwanted uncontrollable thoughts coming back sober sober depressed strong die weak live im great deal pain agony mentally cannot single thing it,1 +done before but need help talk mei would like help you give comfort message give someone talk long can remember someone cares,1 +ruined lifein january sexually assaulted boyfriends roommate boyfriend dating almost four years time loved anything spiraled happened broke him tried find solace someone else pushed everyone cared away created fake version thought would keep emotions bay now september everything comes rushing in want back ruined everything every relationship have one blame alone this im tired feeling like this three years since diagnosed bipolar disorder ive never felt like ive gotten control life moods decisions cant mad people wanting around feels lonely now one left turn talk to two weeks ago made attempt got scared got help next day felt weak dont know get dark place,1 +gf broke dont know feel well today gf broke dating years honestly told wants break didnt know feel dont feel sad emotions good bad,0 +filler title need somewherein years old im already somehow shitty person dont even deserve live all ive spent probably past year bitter mother flaws one throughout life ive come saddening realization cant even blame her child skin condition first child making best bad situation shes loving always treated children respect yet ive ever burden her even stories destroyed store property display toddler remind finally wouldnt worry bailing instances im old in embarrassing front friendsboyfriends intentional not weird shit general grandmother bit actual mother real mother close siblings anything wanted needed talk shoulder cry always there even raising blood pressure eventually stroke killed her abuse tantrums wouldnt stop staring there near rising eighth grade summer purchased worth wifi trials grandmothers social security card used pay bills course month half thought fucking justified wouldnt turn hostpots mother response sent live aunt punishment allowed come back still disrespected them grandmother lucky already freed me ive called sister awful things made fun years repeating grade elementary school despite nothing short miracle ive made far without failing one time shes ever insulted insulted first im supposed older sister confide yet things like blackmail absolutely slipup deal first brother minus retained still keep contact despite everything ive said done them tip iceberg family pay price insecurities beyond correction cowardice confrontation wronged me unprovoked outward insults tantrums converted awful untrue thoughts silent judgment looking nose im better guise maturing literally idea stop this even forgiven explicitly would still faced reality,1 +would like answer ques u write dm u many want one one conversation,0 +hello invited complete survey wmu psychology department research project designed assess treatment preferences among adults seeking treatment variety concerns hope learn preferences treatment change time patients perception treatments match preferences related benefit received treatment survey open anyone ages older currently engaged mental health treatment least one month four therapy sessions longer one year choose participate asked provide demographicbackground information respond survey items preferences treatment changed time quality life survey may take minutes complete,1 +know anthony kiedis singer red hot chili peppers father movie blackie dammit anthonys father noticed reading scar tissue anthonys autobiography saw picture father thought well guy kinda looks like guy movie saw eighties read said father actor small roles checking site comparing search net realized really father movie funny nowhere book mention movie perhaps son ashamed fathers acting job flick need be think father blackie great job show,0 +gender whatever legs guess pronouns mysister lol,0 +ive enoughsorry long rant advance lot say way get out dad really bothering lately thinks im depressed stop asking it hes right depressed be maybe four friends almost never see them still virgin im turning next month ive never actual relationship ive come close maybe couple times girl truly loved used me presumably used mental illness excuse asshole said never official threw away someone else behind back telling kill myself since then several relationships since then im sure happy new guy now not months threw away one best friends killed accident killed me dad diagnosed cancer know what part wishes killed him horrible say right no living rapist child molester whole life dad used force sex young one knows mom bad relationship him know fucking guy nerve ass time asking im ok every second day motherfucker probably reason lonely antisocial miserable piece shit today maybe thats cop play part able form relationships people right ive lived man raped child whole life way evidence nothing use reporting anyone would make things worse mom work cant even drive dad gone wed poor especially since cant find fucking job thats whole different story bottom line ive lived entire life someone raped me balls question im depressed lonely hell biggest problem sleep day go nowhere one see nothing do matter anyone top that im recent graduate degree care about cant find job get call back never job would enjoy doing never follow think im aware im going hate it either im unemployed bum im employed also miserable job want interests writing sports travelling music video games kind hard get industries business administrationmanagement degree know sorry seems like pity party needed write get chest know do funny everyone else seemingly better lots friends good relationships parents significant others jobs reason go live things life incredibly broken want give up,1 +favor please slap face salami sexual anything wamna feel something,0 +recently watched sundance channel idea film bring many filmmakers illustrious country make short films eleven them one film concentrating one subject september br br from wacthing movie could tell filmmakers great country elements great filmbr br the movie starts film iran teacher struggles teach students happened september fail realize laterbr br the second film france involves deaf women writes letter lover angrily unaware going tv playsbr br the next film egypt involves filmmaker talking dead soldier recent events terrorists bombings placesbr br the next comes bolivia girl learns events september believes must march thembr br the next country africa group boys follow man believe bin ladinbr br the next comes mexico nothing shown sounds daybr br the next israel involving reporter scene bomb trying get report frequently told attacksbr br there films cant remember moment powerful bring back emotions daybr br ,0 +ugly idk im super ugly kinda sucks ngl,0 +kill myselfhe tells im absolutely worthless nothing good happen me kill now i im fairly destructive society really think ill ever get bad family situation think go edit judging upvotes comments should,1 +selfharm deathim tired making mistakes life know what every mistake either one three cuts arm suffocate minutes poison even more get hammer wrench head continue stab arm full suffocation poison point near death full heavy blow head choice know fate suggest cut gt stab minor suffocation gt major suffocation poison gt neardeath poison minor hits gt heavy blows this eventually die fault life ,1 +keep wanting slice myselfi keep geting stressed coking up drinking using excuse feel bad cut myself ampxb time ive got closer actually letting blood vessel bleed out talking itdoesnt seemto help ampxb do ampxb,1 +feel like life falling apartmy family professional supports wits end me depression emptiness self harm suicidality getting worse almost attempted two days ago another person got way going tell method feel empty want peace,1 +another showcase led zeppelin finest absolute rocking best every band member best jimmy page bow guitar jpj thunderous bass bozo pounding away robert singing like tomorrow say get first song gonna groove beginning something special dvd follows zeppelin year carree starting royal albert hall madison square garden followed much older mature band earls court finally different looking band last english show knebworth dvd fantastic showcase zeppelin fan n,0 +im tired seeing chadwick boseman post every second ok sad guys stop flooding page him please mourn peace,0 +got released hospital overdosingi took pills dad left work everything arriving hospital pretty much blur im fucking disappointed angry didnt work im useless cant even kill properly,1 +sometimes one thing enough live die fori honestly feel like people never kill x youre looking excuses live really want die dismissive rhetoric people one thing resolveddidnt happenwas attained would able live people one person one hope would able die like many people im enduring purely family destroying sustainable theyre excuse sole reason case everyone sometimes one thing enough thought,1 +queen damned one best vampire movies ever seen movie suspense action gore combination fierce demanding attitude queen rock mood star well acted stuart townsend makes wonderfully done movie combination create im always one give advice friends family members movies worthy renting ask queen damned worthy tell worthy buying movie sure musthave horror movie lovers homes,0 +im hella bored rn pm play cold war zombies im fairly new shooting games idc good not wanna play someone friends respond anyway please pm,0 +im gonna honest im depressed im desperate depressed anxious wish so wish best friend wish close friends feel alone theres one confide without ulterior or creepy motive parents fucking despise ever making happy or least act like it im lonely hell doubt talking would get friend potential romantic partner since possibility ever factor anyone sub im sorry yall carry ur day,0 +roommate get along much fun like roommate sometimes announce things like im gonna make leaf juice anytime one us gonna make tea sometimes well lie floor school collectively die internally also like aircon cold thats important,0 +inevitable hate life matter timeim ive depressed years gotten real bad now ive already attempted redflag hanging one point another alcohol poisoning downing couple bottles voka various drinks barely bring anything including brushing teeth daily basis im currently bachelor information technology uni accepted into ive sleep first lecture th week hours barely bring go already missed last week whole course feels like waste time feel useless this entire st year business bullshit barely pay attention to second year finally get damn introduction programming another waste time feels like suffer half years stuff either hate already know possibly learn anything actually want to ive gotta go dentist week get root canal tooth gonna cost fortune family see point already think jumping front train every time im station getting root canal gonna give us hefty bill pay reason since think ill live long anyway waste money really im sure im still point reason live really know much longer ill last,1 +know do alone right now feel depressed also embarrassed posting here think something irreparably wrong me think seen much scary shit much trauma think anyone ever love me friends live different states again alone want kill myself alone rest life worry people rejecting me feel pain watching parents die suffer silence keep burdening friends understood taken care of ill gone peace finally convinced something wrong,1 +today best dayi feel like crap getting piled non stop today need vent risk hurting myself book incoming younger years selfish asshole much teenage daughter barely knows me entirely fault things happened way definitely partially blame head messed up ive thought taking meds able get control aged recently trying figure father teenage daughter dosent know me figured great first step pay insurance daughter live wisconsin daughter washington insurance working well all said head messed up sure daughter brain meds insurance said getting that months ago went honor roll drop out switch schools attempting redflag twice admit daughters mom could lying sign away rights even point view seen personality changes acts like young teen now feel like let things happen let someone else adopt my daughters ex husband may end dead hand bluff cant afford wrong on clearly brain damaged version sometimes struggle sucide tried talk wife nope concerned phone ex never commit sucide bad days like wife nags excessively especially today habbit thats slowly getting worse today though happens new level wendsay stepmom brother said going stop weekend mind all dad passed year ago spending time two important normal right always important even dad alive since heard nothing complaining i clean everything never get help tuesday night worked overtime wednesday work loads laundry today nothing got surgery nuts would ran house today dizzy that would drove away piece quiet im diving still little drugged up dad killed drunk year ago im risking it tldr fuck,1 +preparing commit redflagthis may right subreddit know spent day writing letters plan leave behind general thought week following week necessary arrangements made difficult write letters alot tears shed course trying come right words leave behind old friends previous loves especially family me first step moving forward plan action attempt best tell everyone fault feel burden anything anyone could done otherwise letters would sent immediately before least thats thought right now know morbid stuff ive conflicted long time know impact negatively ive away long time presence there really anyone could physically stop really comes pulling trigger not,1 +help pleaseim sure this im means part community though suppose wish anyone kinda wanna talk hope none friends family finds this mother middle horrible divorce stepdad he life since years old biological dad alcoholic ive break contact one grandfathers literally losing mind believing psychic kinds crazy conspiracies like joke chem trails alien mind control robots controlled said aliens running government running sex trafficking thing gramps dieing cancer he recently chose grave probably last tonight grandmother alzheimers longer remember am one little halfbrothers yo drugs xtc weed lots janky shit hard time dealing abuse divorce my steph dad father blaming divorce aunt uncle divorce well girlfriend recently broke were still living house neither us anywhere else go financial situation pretty bad currently benefits officially depression technically preventing working job bad news money government pays used make minimum wage less month also cat together one reasons im still alive right now ex want keep i do helped lot pet making easier find place live dealt depression past spent weeks clinic dealing sorta thing years old currently time feel powerless know move away ex seems perfect relationship shes wanted open relationship while still cook her everything house etc breaking apart many ways she mean lovely easy either way used working gym coping mechanism as gaming addiction alcoholism serious weaknesses wanted better relatively harsh week wanted deal working tore intervertebral muscle like lower two ribs walked around weak thinking simply overused muscle whatever unfortunately case sleep terribly pain cant even vacuum house ex seems want obviously blame her avoid me cant help either fuckbudys my replacement place past days means im basically living landfill cant anything worst thing as far im concerned cant even clean cats litterbox heavy lift corner meaning poor thing getting proper care eather entire family either falling apart ripping apart friends count live relatively far away ex who unfortunately still live with wants freedom herself ive attempted commit redflag before tried jump frond train age friend literally pushed way right now years later im hard time taking shitload paracetamol glass whiskey hoping soon want nuisance anyone im already seeing psych week tonight seems make break,1 +everyones opinions tommy robinson wondering init,0 +reddit premium cool custom snoo,0 +cant anymorei put lot course life ive always believed would get better feels like longer alive worse gets father verbally emotionally abusive gotten worse directed me developed schizophrenia past year found longer able children planned names all also forced watch several people love dearly tear apart im expected pick side im young this know plenty life left me despite dysfunctional body is look forward to worth it cant live way,1 +trapped buried alive brings us resort opened soon closebr br we start guy gear blowing drifts avoid possibility avalanches somehow make sense anyways hes blow away one particularly big one notices resort open despite best efforts higher authority tells day overbr br soon everyone expects avalanche hitsbr br look im gonna reveal more say bmovie designed family channel which saw on fact commercials proves bmovie anyways pretty decent film partially unrealbr br firsthand people buried ice snow theyre buried traced powder or cd screwdriver possible finally cant stress enough explosion cannot stop avalanche guaranteedbr br furthermore worth rental tv viewing owning br br the movie rated pg maybe received something little strong boy nearly loses foot elevator leg cut around ankle guy toasted electricity diesel weight room dead people laying aroundbr br enjoy,0 +longer happy unless drugsim ive shitty life seeing doctor wreck passenger months ago crippled temporarily got bunch painkillers addictive personality weekend im going jump tower soon pills nothing matters im state mind normal life productive citizen longer intrest me,1 +fucking manybeen thinking deleting account might well leave trace theres parallel l saw,1 +getting worsei posted little ago shit getting really bad fast tried reaching friend real life advice get drunk theyre ignoring me began giving cold burns deodorant mind think tying plastic bag head filling deodorant im sure side effect zoloft thought id post case go make it,1 +life drainingit feels like energy used keep killing myself energy left enjoy things classes job week ive telling everyone ive sick staying alive fucking hard even harder knowing im trying avoid death,1 +understand girls post made midnight cant go sleep cant stop thinking this yo guy likes age girl one day conversation text says i like relationship guy friend worry feelings shit know say respond cool month later sends pic i assume self looking like left shower think shirt see like slimmest line might bra text says my hair poofy lol read question is like level friendzoned changed mind completely overreacting hair sorry spelling grammar wrong im phone kinda panicking,0 +yall ever feel like everything suprisingly fine go shit rn seriously im actually somewhat feeling like utter shit today wonder sorta fuckery tomorrow bring,0 +lost job apartmenti got fired job last week desperately trying remain positive applying new jobs going interviews thought job lined got phone call saying called one references longer want offer job im beyond devastated also apartment going move weeks since lost job gave someone else know im going survive next month trying avoid falling deep depression already feel slipping want desperately jump bridge end everything health insurance anymore cant even get help,1 +feel like dog sense suicidal condition think know store myselfim sorry thank good companion,1 +failing everything againcheers first semester,1 +think friend g e n e r f l u sometimes say theyre girl refer sheher pronouns ok deadname times say theyre guy refers hehim pronouns correct shit outta use deadname sheher sometimes say theyre nonbinary really care pronouns really care use deadname sometimes theyll wear binder sometimes theyll wear bra always complain gender dysphoria matter definitely genderfluid,0 +usually take mg safe mg right away think might messed up yes doctor told dose go mum pain remember saying take said start mg safe nortriptyline dosage,1 +want dieim prolly gonna kill soon,1 +im losing hopei cant live without her im giving feel,1 +yall interested studying together yearhelping high school students im taking ap physics ap lang ap econ next year seems like gonna hard especially virtual kinda fat l yall wanna form study group smth year and feel comfy zooming days meet other lmk thinking could gc like shared google drive help need it idk seems like could p chill time lmk ur interested,0 +thinkingi cant live regrets cant sleep longing lay beside arms made wrong decisions sorry torture whole day night,1 +nice person want get hurt go away told friend talk anymore,1 +similar on town musical sailors shore leave falls short later classic terms pacing quality songs charms kelly three fabulous dance routines one jerry cartoon mouse tom jerry fame one little girl fantasy sequence spanish lover determined reach lady high balcony sinatra playing kellys shy inexperienced buddy grayson woman serves love interest men singing iturbi provides fine piano playing nearly two half hours bit long light musical drag,0 +ask out alright bit background here crush friend ive known like years hang school lunch break days one point liked scared ask out fast forward maybe months later finally got nerve ask out literally day gonna ask find started dating someone really fucked up ended depressed months it almost killing myself boyfriend broke two months ago get back school find still feelings her do tldr fell love friend got depressed cuz it shes single im wondering do,0 +odd goodbye worldtry harder next time,1 +thoughts driving suicidalmy gf broke months ago sucked caused mentioned previous boyfriends large endowment described detail freaked ocd vivid imagination cant get image mind two months mindfulness exercise meditation willpower erasing images always mind im sure why theres reason feel insecure know stop keeps ill never survive,1 +hey gamers anyone wanna talk real desperate need friends atm,0 +feel sharp pains used cuti used cut quite bit starting years ago id cut month least maybe months ago now sometimes feel sharp pain like sensation wrists every while like cut myself anyone else ever feel this something thats common everyone feels sometimes,1 +work security guard busy office building everytime make eye contact people literally see shuddering inside probably fact intense stare tend stare peoples eyes longbut know social etiquette what walking along corridor bump someone said hi seconds ago turn around unintentionally lock eyes work colleague please someone helpteach make normal eye contact social situations getting point work colleagues going way avoid making eye contact me please help,1 +friend threatened shove coke mentos ass im scared early shit,0 + pushups day months day rest day got schoolwork im skipping today goodnight,0 +really want end itlately past months everything bit struggle me ive lost friends family relationships cant get funk last year almost ended life whiteknuckling rail prevent jumping front train things got better tried time time put feelings dread behind move life awhile worked come crashing around again father alcoholic abusive manipulator too gets plastered blames us making depressed point has drink hell work fit rage threaten kick whoever decides stand bullshit threatens leave mother instantly makes switch defending sister side cant anymore jobi love job many people work retail say honestly can lately stress home life impacting work boss taking notice disappointed performance nothing utmost respect boss knowing im letting another impact life honestly thing keeping knowing go im going really ruin best friends day hes supportive gave nudge right direction getting better hes one needed help most cant betray trust going behind back ending frankly cant keep dealing depression anymore im sorry wrong place post this needed vent seemed best outlet also im sorry whatever mistakes made format wise im using phone,1 +like show comeon writers get action it quit dragging on great concept could whole lot more miles jenkins great performs kid age act situation finds in hey get creative creatures may telepathic capabilities outworldly powers kid actors series good convincing parents miles appear little outofsense going on develop this come on great seed whole new twist next season lot new characters creatures kinds neat scifi stuff could make series witch able make one creatures kids,0 +knife hand pressed wrist could it revelation wanted live again fear might hurt might mess up family would walk part way try stop me thought aftermath might like would wrong last thing ever upset everyone care about power live courage die could it coward,1 +need helpsomeone cares,1 +need help know draw im taking commission im expert patience commission come time please forgive me nsfw things im familiar realistinc things draw fictional animals things like,0 +even sleep isnt fun anymoreits usually like sleep escape isnt dont remember dreams trouble falling asleep tired even life anymore life sleepcentered go entire day trying get back bed dont go bed soon get home rarely nap day sleep part day look forward to dull hate awake asleep,1 +dear readers space odyssey kubrick bestalthough really cant say space odyssey film ive ever watched still good film strange goodbr br the movie three acts much like novelwhich unsurprising since author wrote screenplay anyhow first start simple yet spectacular opening also sparach zarathustra blaring speakers comes boring beyond belief dawn man sequence theres odd finding monolith sequence moon played strausss blue danube finally things get good spaceship scenes hal going berserk killing people things die entering monolith sequence way long ultrastrange ending even though space odyssey good film star wars stargate terminator abyss rocks compliments chef mr kubrickbr br signed constant dvd collector,0 +cannot fucking kill family would devastated even living myselfmy future nothing look forward even close supposed lifeeveryday repetitive cycle suffering trying distract bullshit life alive suffocating feeling,1 +would antidepressants enough kill someone if taken enough could work,1 +borderline bad borderline diagnoseall life screwed upi feel like hope mei want go sleep taken meds think want alive anymorelooking someone talk anything need distract thoughts,1 +whats point short ventone favorite rap songs part rapper goes people telling positive im supposed positive see shit positive thats always ive felt people want positive fucking reason alone positive keep getting rejected positive one one really gives fuck you positive lifes bad want kill yourself positive things positive about positive good thing could happen literally get girlfriend genuinely likes me effort anymore second guessing inferiority jumping hoops treated like invented weird concept called love trying test unfortunate unwilling happens supposed to shit like happen itll never even happen normally me lots effort trial error feelings inferiority really see point even living anymore know death coming soon thats im actually coming way around knowing ill soon rid whole world bit peace have fantasize nowadays dead consciousness sucked body even dream love anymore anymore fucking everything normal people,1 +im never going sub btw im fully aware nobody cares joined looking friends people like however instead found bunch sexist wannabe edgy idiots makes feel even depressed seeing everybodys either cringey levels edgy sexist desperate reddit awards tries play shitty meme something im loser feel put every post see perfect relationships since last years ago got cheated makes feel depressed anyway rant over great day,0 +start bad decade please save post see im correct years,0 +almost everything looking life graduated nurse got hired wonderful facility even passed state board exam impressed boss lady enough get raise already residents already saying love me kicking ass nurse far especially new one lonely bisexual lean towards liking women moresome coworkers suggested dating apps i unfortunately booted grindr stop blowing up handful lukewarmly attractive women swiped right tindr really ugly anything despite great facial bone structure guess virtually worthless eyes fairer sex blast another guy bedroom trashed but want company female guess good enoughi may bi marrying disgusting man ugly ever find wife might well terminate experiment patients get used another nurse probably one six pack abs women hate them want know good firearm end existence is become actual incel would born female sex society actually cares about men worthless one them many people sexes adore me apparently good enough typical woman fun pack ab packing criminal father deserve familial decency grew with asked this own bye sluts stankyass vaginas crave men barely spell fun welfare forever best handgun quick exit,1 +really hate test ampxb httpspreviewredditoqcmhebrnpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscbfbadecadda,0 +everyone competing other every dayi cant stand it everything competition everything slavery others others slaves shit go home cry doesnt make us happy wrong society cant fucking stand it cant madness none makes sense slaves sex society slaves cant part society cant alone without going mad cant see night stay warm sun goes away find cave hopefully bear might eat alive wont there youre gone you just idk dont dream brain isnt on youre gone arent you youre dirt youre slowly becoming it future lava erupts nothing prevents it even close space travel like ants picnic someone spilled fresh coffee,1 +devin nunez idiot doesnt care populations salmon san joaquin river salmon vital ecosystem san joaquin valley california knows would happen salmon died river could stop flowing entirely dont know,0 +want someone tell going okim alone realized transgender couple years ago kept secret everyone blew world apart still havent told anyone it dysphoria seems getting worse also aspergers trouble making friends though couple one things helped keep going friendly coworkers supermarket used work in got new job people arent warm friendly dont feel like fit in discovered recently parents likely narcissists upbringing explains lot low selfesteem ability deal stress etc probably disown find im trans probably kill me even though im physically dependent them still tied emotionally cant see way out either keep going way continue get worse kill myself attempt transition end killing fall losing family abuse etc either way lose need someone talk me tell this dont know help im kind emotional breakdown sorts,1 +stuck cant go anywhere goneim good person redflag option month ago feel option im stuck loveless marriage lying cheating wife else go friends family money job debt option staying pretending wife better wont getting progressively worse cant even stand look her hear voice nightmares now want end them,1 +saw part film scifi channel missed ending bought dvd see whole movie im glad didbr br a young mother two daughters move house backwoods area inherited husband died illness run down three women make best it teen daughter scout taylorcompton warned local boy zombies come night ignores him since cute friend joins group meanwhile younger daughter chloe grace moretz makes friend zombie girl age named mary turns mary several kids died mine working child labor zombies attack kill anyone whos blood relative br br this movie directed js cardone whose previous films include slayer shadowzone two movies like slightest bit surprised actually enjoyed movie film deliberately paced liked allows get know main characters likable child zombies used least since george romeros classic night living dead still found toolusing child zombies movie interesting would seem cardone finally found right script cast stereotypical scenes teens smoking drinking making parked car boring mebr br taylorcompton also appears halloween remake moretz appeared amityville horror horror film room ,0 +never sister thats whenever see girls imagine sister smth idk,0 +awards dumb would someone spend literal money something gives nothing makes someone feel slightly happy honestly baffling,0 +redflag option me thats tired saying reality thing think about go herei crossposted rdepression im sorry see twice ive lurking main long time know fit in im sorry situation relatable sounds really stupid great life know many people alone im not matter much keep trying be try push friends family away cant pretty traumatic childhood people life decade remaining family amazing redflag absolutely option me many people care i know know sounds dad grandma pass away much table friends relatives may sad get it however dad young parent therefore young healthy ive got couple decades becomes reality sometimes resent that thats darkest thought ive ever had ive never told anyone before worst moments upset dad favorite person world still alive healthy going stay way means stay alive decades too really want to im also gainfully employed job used love really still love im wealthy support myself job incredibly stressful coworkers good people boss good person believe work pays bills even expensive city friends ability friends instead going socializing keep pushing people away know go here feel like keep working normal person faking best possible isolate lot never go out still friends there weird confusing know got lucky friends still around matter much avoid them theyre cool people theyre intelligent successful much going lives know ive tricked people friends ive tricked job keeping employed ive tricked family supportive have need undo without hurting anyone want alive anymore every time minor thing goes wrong thought hits like ton bricks every time im alone im alone a lot same know do feel fucking trapped amazing supportive friends family would absolutely crushed told theyd probably committed theyd probably try make quit stressful job complaints life framed around job which stressful yeah mentally healthy person could handle hell even slightlymorehealthy version years ago could handle it id nowhere go nothing do friends family would get tired id situation many people alone like ive got backwards reason depressed right now am cripplingly so tell anyone life turned upside ill genuine reason want die first time since just know go here im sorry rambling hard follow im sorry sounds self involved bragging understand ive gotten unfairly lucky life either wish someone whole good things going them would genuinely love nobody would miss me know sounds awful,1 +one get feeling used triggered afsomebody helping get heartbreak violated sexual boundaries cracked show affection something categorically consent to still feel theyre back partner ig feel used af triggering ive abusive relationship before do help please,1 +feel pathetic for past almost years ive depressed anxious wanting commit redflag goal dead end summer tonight would perfect night ive looked cant dying scares fuck me dont know feels like worst case scenario go hell plus attempt fails could get brain damage dont know fucking do feel pathetic pussy every option seems painful risky wish could fucking go like that nah plus id like possibility living incase know im asking much something simple redflag im scared dont know do feel like escape death moment feel like without im pathetic fucking dgy tn moment im praying fucking aneurysm kill me hate much dont know im fucking reddit looking essentially nothing ,1 +may get diploma visual effects next year ill fourteen next year ill already diploma know degree anything still fucking awesome,0 +streaming fortnite friend playing fortnite wagers want watch go twitch koubtw,0 +disclaimer going lengthyfor context gf years broke weeks ago dating since high school graduated college may first bf broke showing interest someone else want hurt me also concerned mental health end i feels like depression since first thought handling things well after initial days crying depression started working new skills exercising more started going therapy only two sessions far sure caused downward spiral started second therapy session therapist wanted joint session ex could get clarity stand basically ended in friends wants explore still want her kept composure throughout session left room we live together next week could hold anymore blasted music cried eyes minutes since then dreams every night include guy interested if familiar gta rp server mind trying pretend like nothing happened going past days basically wake crying every day mind keeps hurling insults hear you fucking die repeatedly head every day want think things want hatred someone deserve it basically friends group friends play games every day related ex way her little brother cousins bf even spoken girl since started dating antisocial cannot even keep conversation others distract sometimes play group play games own even then start feeling pain againi much pain know do alone one save now scared want pain stop,1 +know im overwhelmed want stopi know much longer hang oni im heavy debt money food last week bipolar suffer anxiety covid destroyed financially truly hope get virus die take xanaxs valiummixed othersits am think wanting quickly possiblenot sure im scared eternal shame scared eternal abyss ahead me,1 +fix boys vs girls meme clear meme problematic fix it without taking away funny factor meme,0 +hewo everyone want talk cute femboy dm meeee pls,0 +story write story school this wasnt attempt edgy interpretation school system advice theres sudden hush hairs back neck begin prickle steely wind cuts rustling trees everything feels fresh alive poised action yet stuck inside watch rain slide windows turned see rest classs blank lifeless expressions copied notes board thought real point copying wouldnt say looked none others would teacher turns us empty grin dont forget test tomorrow high expectations bell rings everyone leaves room hallways filled footsteps students otherwise silent gloomy place yet theres way out second home prison shall stay hate place live every day come back hoping one day would burn ground next class different last writing writing writing stuck never ending loop taught same rain pelted windows never seen like before outside become swallowed thick mist windows became foggy one liked rain saw inconvenience reason stay inside wishing let water ever touch them not water clean warming helps things grow amazing phenomenon one really truly wants experience school took rain killer leave paralyzed perhaps thats one liked it students see long immerse get punished liking something many people do feel deep inside us horrible disgusting feeling want cry constant feeling trapped able anything stop it teachers dont names anymore personalities stripped mask smile thing happens day day without anyone questioning it without stopping release become us without thinking could possibly something were teached without releasing dont perfect play along anyway taught people tell us nothing perfect student nothing change minds everyone special tell us know may well numbers names school day ends seems like stop no smothered school work pressure parents family succeed slowly leaving things enjoy years go on world slowly poisoned greed lack sympathy generations live carry on world turned happy free place nothing cold hearted place despair torment everywhere go placed specific role comply with people dont follow rules society made become outcasts unwanted unneeded become believe grades perfect perfect complete normal,0 +cant keep fightingim mobile apologize errors also kind mini rant ive felt constant fatigue awhile as early looking back thought normal parenting absolutely wasnt starters dad physically emotionally abusive towards brother mother even though saw this nothing claims never saw it right next least one scenes now know nothing me swear im getting it basically teens mother father me would also tell father out line would earn slab emotional abuse dad later found exaggerated otherwise lied get everyone on side tried kill several times highschool ended failing attempt later told mother suicidal exactly smart im thinking it basically rationalized abused iced an youre depressed im sure looking there guess felt could still trust parent wasso wrong now turned into oh crazy gossip tells extended family anyone else listen things say shout sleep seem line intrusive thoughts overhear theyre violent nature believe in person im danger myself still whole smear campaigning thing well brother acts like father combined hes much manipulative however increasingly unstable brother seem enjoy triggering purpose know theyre sort pain empathize that come someone elses expense im exactly sure go bouts wanting wanting keep fighting make difference someones life ive reached point im leaning former theres lot really want keep short apologize hope day going well,1 +need helphow one make mind stop thinking,1 +got new family membermy brother sisterinlaw beautiful baby girl makes heart melt see her like whole new life entered family omg right totally happy crying sleep telling ill never graduate college ill never loving relationship like brother sisterinlaw are ill never wellpaying job support family ill never raise children ill never cool progressive aunt ill never give newborn niece future nieces nephews christmas presents ill never even able hold one last time say goodbye already wrote redflag note,1 +super straight cool ,0 +posted rdepression im feeling really shitty yesterday birthday know bother anymoreso made plans party today invited people month ago reminded week ago people said bought bonfire permit today lot money right since im broke wanted happy birthday once well birthday rolls hear anyone another loneliest day year today reached people said theyre coming either got reply come literally everyone second birthday row something like happened spent alone maybe cant remember mention every holiday people funhalloween ect actually hung friends since graduated college year half ago ive things supposed make feel better like going gym trying get university something worthless like college degree quitting toxic job deactivating facebook none fucking working want fucking friend,1 +cant relate counting downi told close friends would dead im turning december everyday hell dont leave bed barely want get pee days end fucking personal hygiene stare ceiling hours one moved states harder expected cant take thought staying continuing live sick life nothing live for nobody love nothing do dont cry anymore cant remember last genuine cry session had everyone life hates nobody would miss me even people know im suicidal dont give shit stopped talking everyone ive gone mute nod head think ive started lose mind hear things see things arent there like im constantly taking double takes scary dreams turned worse nightmares cant catch break im sorry family either wish wasnt alone battling demons theyre winning,1 +sure everyone feels way want forget give up anytime try something chicken scared die,1 +goodbye guys im sorry im sorry guys cant handle anymore tiring see go on want end im really thankful did think end im sorry really goodbye see you tomorrow ltima sleep ya idiotgt,0 +theyre determined keep alive hurt moremy parents taken life didnt live years hospitalized redflag attempt ive forced move back them year still watch like hawk anytime im happygolucky big shit eating grin face drill questions hurting again smiling need go back cant least try happy whenever truly feeling optimistic find ways tear down wow finally laugh wasnt even funny even bother shower always smell like cat anyway haha youre going living parents make feel im asking one thing never get it either let live peace let die peace preferably latter,1 +may may heard term people friends easy time anyone else with recovering bout septic arthritis know cool either let us say requires surgery fairly long hospital stay home iv drugs none fun going this course outpouring facebook well wishes get wells people mostly away close friends use term close loosely hospital mom flies yes serious anyone care wager amount friends came see me one one grateful came huge gut punch one else even made effort made really rethink allowed friendships be allowed people take granted equivalent ramen noodles let explaini hate ramen noodles buy case throw cupboard case emergency ie money nothing else eat zombie apocalypse sort thing allowed ramen noodles emergency friend always available need otherwise forget something better available find fishing invites things still left always outskirts asking myself wrong me wanted people family care me care much people give crap me answer know stop trying get used fact may never find gang ever really belong anywhere think acceptance heartbreaking sure come back it life alone waste life lonely seems pretty soul crushing fair weather friends next time wind changesjust let go lot less painful try find way least content company cannot manage happiness fair weather friends,1 +wild redflag notethe wild wild system hierarchy wild politics economics social groups families food chain wild see everything divided groups states counties borders crossed every animal group system way things elephants example matriarch system chief elephant leads herd family groups composed moms dads sons daughters even uncles social groups within herd link elephants broken one elephant dies elephants mourn lost breakup also see systems animals like lions disney movie lion king entirely true true behaviors seen movie like alpha male king leader behavior really seen wild females hunt male sits day guarding house animals intelligent enough create hierarchies assign roles multiple examples systems wild humans systems politics economy social groups reflect close perfect systems lower species develop factor limits development process successful systems betrayal wild rare see species animals betray kin among humans really dominant factor politics economy effective systems weve created see betrayal politician promises change delivers misery poverty people see betrayal economy person makes apparently enough money survive terrible life steals poor satisfy greedy vicious needs see betrayal social development social groups born could easily betrayed mother chose abort life miserable piece crap baby wont make better get chance born get betrayed every single step life matter much learn life evil ways youll get betrayed one call brother one call friend sometimes even one dont call anything dont even know them thats fucked world is get betrayed fall love get betrayed think load speak dream fact anything sure get betrayed may ask yourself happening me trust me eventually realize nothing god damned world worth it nothing worth it knowledge popular famous rich pretties cutest person world nothing repeat nothing worth it animals wild humans really need food sleep well given bath love every animal matter species needs love need special someone imagine screwed world prefer betray friends family sometimes even make someone elses life living hell know gone way point life make someone miserable something see wild animals understand commitment responsibility comes living world enjoying stay shit hole lasts also see shitty behavior wild animals mental capacity hate mental capacity betray backstab friends one thing ive learned life experiences befriend anyone smile wave learn names call humans vain love listening name narcissistic sons bitches huh thats one things ive learned like said means nothing absolutely nothing worth anything nickel back piece crap world know may seem rude seem like ass thats get go wild learn survive eat every single crosses path days ago came phrase lets it really meant say lets anything lets sit nothing death proclaims miserable bodies feel like life less shitty nothing cant hurt get hurt people say pain makes us grow well guess biggest pile bull shit ive ever heard human beings evolve million years live pain evolved basic necessities needed take care caused changes human body adapt physical nature nature itself really hate people say love relevant thing okay okay lets see handle everyone rejecting able love youll go fucking nuts less hours specially society emotions souls driven facebook twitter little practical start facebook profile get tons likes close account come back computer screen like love searching moth dark love whores need love need much family abandons you friends become filthiest assholes universe dog doesnt want pet him turn god loving hand could bit less stupid please god loves loves everyone kind love humans need love invisible created world humans themselves humans need word im talking bible im talking literal word love say well growing mom worked day step dad lovehate relationship me sometimes needed word word used context famous phrase love you tell like hearing words together wish would given opportunity choose wealthy life love mother really ever feel know love is ive multiple relationships failed miserably know love attitude shit lot people suffer shitty attitude syndrome basically asshole enough males females across globe fall kind behavior think attractive well people like bad attitudes stupid put mental institution get serious treatments attraction always fault fault definitely stars fault way thinking people example used think stage manager traveling theatre group college cute filled joy every time saw face talked her came betrayal liked friend even though completely satisfied decided pursue dream one day given chance join relationship even though know probably never find out something bothered killed inside ive always type person likes listen whenever got chance talk would listen lovee dovee things say mind give three shits thought him cause guy im straight face would reply typical mhhm intelligent trying get girl like you point along way liking started see interest getting strong point friends would go eat invite me case know fucking big deal okay do nothing nothing all anything decided quit thought ever existing decided kill myself redflag letter cry love really need someone roam savannah me show beautiful skies kenya need someone help fight life wild,1 +went sink wash hands mum thought gonna wash up looked really happy feel really bad now day hasnt hard enough,0 +calling dsciples grab friends hit theater see hell movie opening sequence credits laughing self breathless br br this movie wild ride history d bullcrap list things theyve done chronicling rise power huge fan rage kagekyle gass jablesjack black naturally loved movie br br it helps know show had first cd funny dont hilarious vulgar lyrics rocking rhythms massive amount pot smoking cameos outright insanity story line movie dsciples newbies alike br br many songs referenced two kings tribute kielbasa many audio tracks like cock pushups every fan audience saying remember well new comers saying thats fing hilarious highly recommend movie body thats ever rocked out movie certainly high competition next this spinal tap one best ever,0 +dont feel like theres point livingim almost years old still lack basic social awareness coworkers hate feel im huge burden everyone care about im transgender cant afford transition reason havent killed dont want traumatize family boyfriend,1 +diagnosed bipolar disorder chronic major depression basically crazy bridge burner episodes honestly thought getting better taking meds managing mood swings enjoying time alone mainly stayed away forming friendships expecting cycle happen again eg losing friends burning bridges episodebut exfriend past messages pretty much hell bent bringing virgos vicious done cry fest hour telling horrible human wanting diesometimes sometimes wish friend could tell suffering sad scared lonely wish dead need comforting words telling okay get better want someone listen know pain handle suffering alone,1 +anyone wanna exchange music im looking new music listen to like rap music not cap mumble rap stuff actual good singers good beat want new songs playlist pm want talk,0 +looking around liking itwell feel like end rope im life horrible one spent half life homeless bouncing around foster homes broken family brothers homes grandparents cant stand site me father walked feel like im empty shell walking around waiting die thought keeps popping head why take easy way out attempted task before told join military medical purposes one knows fact ashamed tell broken family lack motivation anything feel like wasting space burden family cant find job college take me life really lost meaning me sit around nothing chain smoke bad cant breath wake up smoke little miracle makes feel ok cancer runs family find hoping get cancer called friends deserted me feel alone want fall asleep never wake up least dream happy another thing makes want end it fact think gay want be find women sexually attractive urges thoughts tell wise want life cant stand much longer understand punished life fate disappear become nothing know else say get chest thank you,1 +chances uses marvelous song name throughout film robert downey jr excellent movie extra large eyes wonderfully variable facial expressions part expertise acting different people diverse films compare robert downey jr chaplin enjoy chances are did,0 +really want helpi really want help everyone you show people care nice maybe change anything anyones circumstances im willing try used feel useless family poor point wanted die maybe would better one less mouth feed developed ocd anxiety constant fear burglaries point feel safe home young used mental breakdowns family tried make go ugly fat monster domestic violence big thing house still shake sweat feel heart drop whenever hear loud banging another room however one help me one talk deal alone want guys wish could physically help hope world theres someone talk know feels one pretending okay work really want help,1 +im killing september th even though im scared diei feel like im always scared kill myself ive always wanted die hands know changed mind partway id able stop it id able cut rope call ambulance puke whatever ive taken jumped bridge stepped front car would changing mind stopping dying thats scares me permanence it even though want die badly know death forever feel like can want die want dead im terrified permanent bad decision made drunk tired think thats set redflag date gives time change mind plan things way save things go pear shaped change mind im killing myself im much coward actually die make sense sound stupid,1 +im madi dont want anymore havent long time know anything mom make it shell drink death outright kill herself go pain good life im dying inside every day dont know else do dont know keep hanging on,1 +tried kill tonight wouldnt worki wrapped necktie around neck tried knot clothes rack closet couldnt support weight broke couldnt find anything else support up im going try go sleep hopefully dont wake want try later peace dont worry,1 +hate telling parents im suicidal took away pills razors went bought razors anyways fuck wish still pills ive gotten drunk high every night since told themi hate another millennial failed living moving back parents basement hate life hate cant keep job month ive far year hate pressure put go college nearly lasted semester dropping out wish could die accident actively put situations might cause one dont know much longer last would love able die parents home dont find fuck knows happen,1 +wanna stick knife me end rightim recently discovered truth mass rapes war crimes orgy women red army carried eastern europen women two million women little girls perhaps fifteen million way film woman berlin presents frightening scares me sickens disgusts me horrifies appalls me described generous sympathy everyone involved basically paints mass rapist barbarian horde sympathetic broken down pain traumatized blah blah blah horrible stuff giant bigbudget german propaganda film think rather sympathizing men hunt young females streets take turns raping theyd hunt said men try charge collective crimes women enrages me wanna find every one primitive creatures stab them cant theyre mostly gone remain theyre old men soon dead makes mad people go way demonize victims nazi criminals hardly wellbred aryan women raped fellow russians jews poles slaves hungarians people baltic states savagery women knows racial boundaries people go way sympathize monsters guilty slander smear innocent victims makes despise humanity were filthy loathsome evil hateful ugly inhuman creatures pollute earth presence want us die want die want anymore world mass rapes war crimes punished government guilty honest it theres widespread movement try stop demonizing women extolling primitive rapist men want here want know animals ever faced justice crimes dont want here want gone cant stand humans were crippled apes pathetic beings hate us want die i wish never born wanna anymore,1 +yo fell asleep shower laying shower dozed think need go bed sooner,0 +change da world final message goodbye gn homies imma sleep,0 +harry potter scandalous love story hogwarts year old harry potter laid head hagrids chest inhaled musty scent nose sucking one mans many chest hairs accident complain however happy piece hagrid would inside him i love way hold big strong hands hagrid man lived feeling especially flirty tonight sure let lover know mood snoo snoo luckily him take much turn hagrid on moments ready fill potters primal desires and love way let wreck asshole every night returning harrys flirtacious advances hagrid lifted up lover wrapped legs around mans waist quickly removed wizards robe began suck nipples enjoying sweet tasted ill suck yours suck mine alright harry simply nodded face twisted pleasure moment care hagrid wanted hed anything long could keep feeling way felt currently mans mouth game godly several minutes passed harrys turn though quite experienced hagrid sucked reddit friend demetris nipples many times before fairly confident nipple sucking abilities would try provide lover much pleasure given him removing hagrids clothing layer layer mans humongous pancake nipples finally became visible potter stared wide eyed moment taken back even tiny bit man boob could seen seemed though mans chest consisted hair nipple nothing between wow harry could say aroused disgusted sight time know whether wanted blow load vomit lovers nipple rug chest hagrid bothered reaction let hearty laugh response they normally look like that worry ran ferrets buck beak feed myself seen days ago buck beak nearly bit right nipple clean off bloody mess was looking closer adult harry could clearly see scarring hagrids right nipple sure brave man letting dangerous beast feed nipples wizard wondered lovers essence tasted like hagrid yes harry ccan taste im kind hungry hearing this gentle smile formed hagrids lips of course help yourself man pushed harry closer chest overjoyed felt begin suckle nipples wizard hesitant first tasted delicious lovers milk was began nurse gulp gulp chugged hagrids milk down lips stained mans nipple juices hair tickled cheeks made difficult grasp nipples mouth first assistance lover quickly located them thats boy like that work tongue harry finally finished released nipple mouth let loud burp stomach full satisfied hagrid looked biggest grin ever seen kissed passionately can wait morning touch winkies milk made sleepy hagrid nodded setting harry down sure first thing morning came pants nursing anyway hagrid laughed buckbeak hates that cant help it breast feeding turns on mmhmm harry potter motioned hagrid join bed man complied two snuggled covers spoke quietly while telling much loved them time pair drifted sleep anticipating anal awaited harry potter morning,0 +hour list utinkerbell like boss tad froggo ,0 +think ive ruined lifei everything told do went right school took right classes worked hard got projects done shiny new phd hangs wall albatross around neck defended year ago one wants hire me year trying gotten one interview one even tried leaving phd resume got caught fear never employed again last six years living hell nothing want tear diploma wall rip up brought nothing misery disappointment think may seriously irreparably ruined life im money unable pay rent dont tell congratulations sympathy me doesnt help cant stand sitting here anger frustration makes feel like im going fly apart everything worked lie want hurt someone myself want punch professor face demand life back nothing live for would ask help nobody cares enough to nothing look forward life want go anymore cant handle nightmare anyone tells it gets better liar never experienced it before,1 +damn im tired pm,0 +girls saying no body shaming every tiktok see girl saying small inches are body shaming lets go,0 +one month leftin april ive decided last year closer year got end believe it im going talk why point guess needed let someone know need where know want this cant change this tried getting help diagnosed multiple things made worse knowing im stuck feeling die theres point continuing,1 +tv movies ought made like one saw way back first tv helen hunt steven weber terrific giving gritty realistic performances weber especially good turning exceptionally creepy understated performance child molesterkiller film really increased respect hunt actress director also directed hoosiers somehow formulaic exciting direction works stark simple realism appealing like tv movies predictable filled overacting see can side story hunt faheys affair also appealing without detracting main story,0 +im alone going tonight someone talk waitive ready go time unsuccessful attempts want leave life carnival pain been want soul set free find peace ive lost count whatever number attempt hopefully lucky one im scared,1 +want kill myselfi reason live im trying put together plan ive hitting walls money feel like procure means it im years old lived parents ever since got raped years ago spent yesterday looking methods cant go like this went rehab one counselors said creative life would make it creative life im bipolar work money car husband children job time end,1 +need someone talk traumapleaseits acting again dont know do feel wrong abused talking helps wish another way get it,1 +remember ralph bakshi guy animator terrytoons paramount cartoon studios that director fritz cat heavy traffic well coonskin actually pretty good racist good movie takes place harlem nights no duh working title twist becomes lampoon disney movie song southbr br its sampson barry white preacherman charles gordone rush help friend randy philip michael thomas escape prison stopped roadblock wind shootout police waiting them randy unwillingly listens fellow escapee pappy scatman crothers begins tell randy story three guys used know like friends pappys story told animation set liveaction background photos footagebr br brother rabbit voice thomas brother bear voice white preacher fox voice gordone decide pack leave southern settings bank mortgages home sells man turns brothel arriving harlem rabbit bear fox find made be encounter con man named simple savior phony revolutionary leader purports cousin black jesus gives followers the strength kill whites flashy stage performance church savior acts brutalized symbols black oppressionrepresented images john wayne elvis presley richard nixon asking parishioners donationsbr br rabbit first goes madigan virulently racist homophobic white police officer bag man mafia demonstrates contempt african americans various ways including refusal bathe anticipated encounter he believes theyre worth it madigan finds rabbit taking payoffs cohorts ruby bobby led nightclub called the cottontailbr br a black stripper distracts lsd sugar cube dropped drink madigan influence spiked drink maneuvered sexual liaison stereotypically effeminate gay man shoved clothes women representative racist archetype adorned something racist finally shoved back club discovers ruby bobby deadbr br then recovering delirium drugged shoots gun around randomly shot death police shooting one thembr br rabbit bear fox opponent boxer rush boxing arena blows up liveaction story ends randy pappy escaping shot various white cops managing make alivebr br this movie controversial time release reedited director several times title street fight obvious since street fight documentary racism streets fact movie subject documentarybr br that caused bryanston pictures distributor film original tobe hopper classic texas chainsaw massacre go business paramount wanted produce distribute film due racism bryanston took bakshis productionbr br despite controversy worth entertainment animation awesome time plot makes sense actually funny toobr br final verdict ,0 +life fucks everyone over whats pointim worthless meaningless absolutely impact world never will want get admitted mental hospital runaway kill self need break need somewhere anywhere isnt here but dont car cant drive hospital redflag hotline track calls jfc im done wanting kill self damn time,1 +knowi know anymore feel nothing im split two let everything build let one drunken night out ive since something broke then ive told two people it remember much intense emotions im empty thoughts mind save stream text cant imagine future barely remember morning know wake tomorrow morning ill okay right want give up sleep wake up day same im fucking tired wish allow open someone wish would stop pretending strong need help,1 +advicei lost everything girl dreams family friends everything myself hurts girl never connected someone much life insane years talking everyday get rejected anyways still want blow brains out wrote redflag note july told keep fighting already got low enough write note october im meds ive talked everyone there me nothing works cant seem ever get girl pretty much grew never loved thats attached nothing live everything live want anymore truly feel dead inside already im living physically idk sorry bothering everyone sub time yall got issues too praying yall,1 +want fall asleep know wake feel bad now know parents going drag church going make dumb mistake feel like shit probably self harm fall asleep wake continue day die want fall asleep,1 +film gets stamp approval scene museum demands acting without dialogue one interesting unique scenes history film dickinsons character kate well developed performance felt throughout entire film best work angie dickinson since point blank,0 +think im finally readynot really sure start with ive thinking years used make feel sad angry hurt scared thought it kinda wierd feel anymore empty see way things changing feel money relationship matter want anything anymore matter everytime smoke hope one give cancer closest thought could ever get it feel empty now scared sad angry feel like time ive started making plans sadly two weeks can fail,1 +know anymore im afraidim scared ill whether ill take far see path forward life friends walking life im tortured horrible memories every day feel almost emotions do im miserable cant bear it never loved universe get me time try opening someone realize im far gone beyond help thing keeps going guilt ill inflict mom brother cant see future past hurt,1 +anybody else getting spiderman miles morales pre ordered pro cant wait play,0 +im sitting trying decide whether kill want talk someonethe reason want think girlfriend might angry do tried samaritans get words out,1 +holy shit post nut clarity hit fucking hard bruh finished busting fat one never want beat meat ever,0 +someone listeni several things leading redflag need put know people want help yo selfloathing gay man tried someone long lost track wanted be ever really knew grips depression suicidal need know fact get better feel friends honest people am would want friends liar know make life better thats bs know bring it accept move on sound easy right not plan going work morning source pain me work small factory filled men men comfortable homosexuality one friend there sweetheart man straight raised primarily women get along well slow one hell human being lot right now put mask back go work ltbgttldrltbgt im gay hate it self hate killing me want group mentally healthy gay people swoop save life know healthy people want around sick people ltbgttldr waas longltbgt need someone tell things going ok,1 +im scared biden sell us china do really that everyone saying,0 +goodnight yall scheduled shit posts return morning,0 +lost coworker week want chat amazing guywe knew problems much could do cant chain bed really nice person like give food ate kind guy filling last year half really great person im sure becoming great father really odd subject get type publicly often even talking publicly caused problems one neighbour called coward done broke down found sub reddit person mattered issues search anywhere everywhere talk too thats im now,1 + best friends started dating banking idk im annoying theyre wrapped world used talk every day started going christmas time spoke times week outside school huge arguments broke times months always mediated got talking lockdown started ill speak one twice month half hour convo theyll respond idk whether im annoying theyve got stuff going on plus theyll ever respond sowhich annoying take days reply take another day respond ive got people much listened supported ignore sometimes weeks end problems lives want push ask find theyre nursing injuries parents seem evil im bit loner anyway ill see post videos friends im still shielding ill feel really inadequate idk feel really bad one every often says miss takes week reply lol im really emotional reason made post im tired feel like im massive burden even though ive never shared problems ive always supported thanks coming depressing ted talk,0 +isolation stuff lasts beyond june im going kill myselfi friends entire family already dead ive depressed in fact ive known go two three days without eating much beyond coffee alcohol could hold small stuff like spending weekends desert mountains going beach sitting starbucks reading listening music thats now live alone aside work because mechanic im essential literally human contact anyone im stuck home watching tv masturbating even walk outside im surrounded goddamn concrete ill get yelled staying safe home thats another thing literally understand cannot drive fucking interstate dozen miles ones car me dont leave car fuck going infect someone get infected pavement interstate coronavirus too car im sure someones going respond blah blah blah thats good enough reason kill yourself even though dont need good reason,1 +found amazing video internet please watch like it httpsyoutubegqnhfwprshttpsyoutubegqnhfwprs,0 +im mess needed tell someoneive wanting die since ten remember trying choke trying figure tie became teenager used take pills know much time could take it feel embarrassed good life place sleep two degrees job friends warm lovely people still feel im disappointing everyone even me im im mess im room time work sometimes like keep quiet im lying bed pretending exist love feeling enjoy nobody notices me relief hurting time ago anxiety leave go bed able see mirror used eat dark waiting midnight go bathroom want go back dark place ive thinking lot parents use money ive saving funeral would spend money that nobody knows sad im sure makes feel worse know people im happy laugh enough money go therapy really think fix i nothing broke life family truly rejects stuff mental health ampxb would like know happy avoid thoughts kill myself mean even good motive im sorry english first language im rambling thoughts,1 +nnn nss sss november that saw exes story put calm boys simp september thought kinda neat coming simp september spread word please good day,0 +advice boy die stabbed dont stab anyone,0 +get f ps parties seriously ruined whole system servers too,0 +heart racing fumbling sound glass clinking never done before breaking every moral formed date burn nothing notice lightness calm mind uneasy happiness relaxation senses regained surely true self penut butter swallowed mask smell brushing teeth stumbling music on fun,0 +smirkcolumbine fox,1 +place wanted goreally post rredflag directs redflagwatch know is im looking courage please give courage end this know works ive always lurker thats am ive never even courage post reddit anonymously know do several people would devastated cant keep like this please someone tell okay cant,1 +wish people allowed lie also love hear often sure feel it people thought me needed most typical,1 +aight people say want big tiddy goth gfs question actually exist slaanesh propaganda,0 +im fucking lonely driving insanei cant anything anymore without periods completely space start crying cant find soul want around life me matter okay happy normal act,1 +hate step mom dad engaged her everyone family knows shes using him doesnt job drinking problem dad wakes begin working complain stressful day was cleans house yesterday got message speeding going passing lane told dad dad good terms know theyve fighting tf take me never gave shit years shes total bitch regardless im nyc blocked them,0 +number day day doing im pretty good,0 +im never going good enough realised depressed today looking tie noose get depressed girlfriend two half years going university soon goes im fairly certain end relationship im nothing life get good enough gcses get sixth form mainly due mother trying commit redflag two days exams started got ec meant levels ended going college music yeah know drop subject finished june year since ive deal father attempting commit redflag lost friends failed get jobapprenticeship ive sat around week seeing old friends make statuses facebook theyve gotten offers various universities hit realised ill never able go university able get grades even able afford pay it ive tried turning life around cant even that researching tie noose im going become organ donor organs may well go good use keep somebody alive use something life anybody advice turn life around may well try more,1 +the cure touching poignant drama film focuses two neighborhood boys become good friends one boys aids boys become good friends despite eriks apprehensiveness first film shows boys journey discover the cure ohio according the national examiner affects relationship acting wonderful i never seen annabella sciorra better movie plain touching stop crying shoe scene good tearjerker keep kleenex nearby ,0 +helpcan anyone help here,1 +endive thinking killing years gotten worse since beginning life meaning point ive attempted redflag two times obviously failed time first tried overdose melatonin sleeping pills six clearly enough second tried hang however ceiling fan low im going try third time soon one truly knows pain existence expect get either final cry help end,1 +keep reading rredflagbereavement imagining friends family would live without meits strangely comforting coping mechanism know people love care would absolutely torn sick way kind comforting imagine everyone sobbing working hard move remember me maybe often feel lonely forgotten about feels like would time id really feel love,1 +wanna say hey yall ask ur doin stupid sub wont let post hey cries,0 +standard rise fame tale high points number one lonette mckee sister gives stunning star making performance fact never became huge sensation beyond me sadly supporting character forced focus irena carters bland character sparkle whose rise fame easy boring unconvincing however whenever girls go stage perform movie comes back life original music curis mayfield must praised copy saw old vhs tape picture quality pretty low well production values im guessing all worth gander,0 +stop pretending helpfulno insep went throats went got cose h h e w well ever knew wouldnt done knew knew fault de n n day classes went morning cattle drover wontt go see today donmt thinj able finish homework wont come like wont come like thats keep getting trouble failing trying losing giving up bet friends tired keep giving im tired trying make harder me one helped gone whole life mental health system failing every chance got mother told lying everyone thought lying well dead child hands mom bet wont think lying nothing helps one wants im pain head hurts emotions hurt feelings hurt feelings pain translate pain dont know dont mean mental pain hurt differently hurt physically same bet friends tired keep giving things always happen talk feel bad professionals wont help supposed dont tell friends much detail tell im sad im depressed want die feel like burden never good enough hold own reach everyone says get turned down fall cracks one wants believe serious urgent situation people get help cant believe one person cant hope college faculty pushed point get fired find dead ignored said temper tantrum cant stop screaming everyone gave everyone given evidence expect change,1 +tried talking mother year old female long story short grandmother who basically raised me passed away october due college grad sucky economy move grandmothers home who lived with back mothers home things literal hell fusses dog vacuums three times day due dog doesnt allow touch cleaning supplies kitchen area laundry room due messy im allowed lay couch anything ill damage it therefore spend day little room im work grad school im done honestly hate coming home find driving parking lot sitting car avoid going home often talk moving mom response leave house get masters degree youll exiled family ill never talk again cant manage ive researched hang via doorknob think thats best option right now ive dealing ptsd depression since brother tragically died im end trying anymore probably wont go it dream day night bad memory needed space vent,1 +labeling film lesbian love story accurate calling pride prejudice straight love story theres much thatbr br yes main character lesbian story classic bildungsroman journey childhood adulthood sexual innocence maturity personal blindness self discovery stylistic element camp films direction hindrance rather serves underscore staged dramatic parts main characters lifebr br those know anna chancellor bbc version pride prejudice certainly amazed here rachael stirling stellar main character nan keeley hawes wideeyed goodness lover kitty butler chancellor might stand role aside sally hawkins plays zena butler film faint heart piece progay advertising either real story real comedy drama engaging story compelling characters well worth watching,0 +official redflag notefor legal purposes deny thoughts harm anyone else asked person deny it disclaimer asidei saw forty seven year old crush twenty two year old lap bode well thirty five year old fiance one guys age interested me know hes guy earth echos larger truth larger truth red pill right love looks beauty physical world failing organism poor treatment disrespect get whole society symptom something larger know letter might make everyone laugh honestly ive come smelly cell neck beard whos joy life arguing reddit trolls hate life hate people worst hate feeling skin hate waking every day me hate feeling inside even best technology strictest diet hardest work cant fix feeling body fail me cant fix aging male toothless balding fifty year old covered tats still get twenty year old babe lap idiot friend proves female sit around watching display feeling saggy wanting throw food miss loved cared even though real hate people theyve abused entire life thats universal truth life planet well fucking hate people lot,1 +scrolling sub depressing almost comfortingits sad see many people want end lives time comforting know everyone going thing were alone even world rejects us other find odd comfort that life great even good us promise well make together love you,1 +reaching helpive never reached help ive always felt id wasting someones time want way anymore way feel accomplish redflag anything general answer specific questions posed im trying waste anyones time though feel like anyway want help know turn anymore,1 +child thought quicksand gonna much larger problem life turned im yet see quicksand get stuck,0 +always feel like im needy ask something like someone says hey need help get something want thing want ask them takes like hours build enough courage even ask them ill feel needy asf try ask them though theyre clearly offering get something want still feel needy ask,0 +police story brought hong kong movies modern day cinemabr br jackie plays policeman tries catch drug dealers time take care young woman bad guys still take care relationship girlfriend selina brigitte linbr br the movie features plenty stunts jackie also actors who jackies stunt clubbr br three jackies stunt members went hospital filming filmbr br the movie also incredible fights scenes like the car park fight the shoppingmal fight ranks one jackies finestbr br the movie also award best movie best action design jackie chan hong kong film awardsbr br everyone loves jackie chan andor martial art movies shud see,0 +timecant shit anymore struggling mentally years im fucking bald needed cherry top doesnt get better,1 +feel like dickbut worth dated girl while one friends told cheating asked her avoided question eventually admitted it im dating best friend idk right thing feels good hell,0 +question online students option school learning seem like school trying make become person learner school seems like trying that classes giving harder work give school smaller due date even fail one class make come school learn wanted see happening ,0 +cant count times watched this although differs book story line mood still same bond two diverse people give surpasses trials years immortal element women prisoners actual event happen real people story strength character ordinary people people tried survive horrible time lives also presented australia real mode country like countries areas everyone loves quaint country areas desolate areas gives shute stage jeans transformation lowly outback town family community,0 +think im gonna itive fighting three years now okay month falling apart again want die bad want end soon can im coward ive thinking long time think try kill next week parents home hate myself cant get better me nothing live for everything pointless meaningless future people miss me im sure theyll get it,1 +wrong never told happening ended things wanted serious her took cheating day goes back every argument have months told girl found actually still relationship ex would visit home town,0 +am im awake new meds never seen boring new tab ever life disappointed u,0 +got pp joke dude banned sociopath enjoying report people,0 +mom spanked front girlfriend im earlier girlfriend gonna make mom leaves upstairs playing minecraft got killed creeper screamed f word mom grabbed one dads belts told bend started whooping ass embarrassing cant believe still me im gonna get dumped probably cause girlfriend thinks im little bitch,0 +good thing insomnia pills took pill minutes ago im already feeling dizzy today stressful weak little me work like magic,0 +fortunate life times sad frustrated people luckier me current situation feel existential sadness im leaving house born raised in look anywhere house see memory past me im leaving behind best friend dude known since forever literally cant remember time havent known him im leaving behind array elementary school friends whove kind years im giving new chance new place makes sad never see majority people again,0 +help someone doesnt want helpedone pf friends spiraling depression seems getting worse worse weve trying get least try recover refuses lets everything overpower her us trying best say alright say shes fine let try fight thoughts getting her ive went im recovered dont worry cant stand anyone going misery school ended several hours ago us afraid might actually summer one stop her honestly despite recovering know do dont truly dont know help someone doesnt take help know help needs someone ive done shes pushing everyone away emotionally dont know save late feel helpless need advice thank reading ramble beg help hope good day hope gets better,1 +want extend much really know type advicesmy psychiatrist therapist aswell friends told thing try new thingsyup would like to impossible something new enjoy minutes longer find fun hobbies aswell everything feels bad fun enjoyablethis th year dealing depression getting worse worse cannot afford therapy sessions last week nd suicide attempt everything went wrong stuck shitty life try new things,1 +birthdayi posted something rdepression but end day thing sit here trying get people come over nothing one girl makes feel okay i rely ever lazy text back nobody knows severity situation sitting razorblade enough pills alcohol finish off it hate myself possible obtain gun admitted hospital depression california edit also posts rstopselfharm rdepression care read more,1 +someone please remind reasons life worth livingi sincerely understand need keep going anxiety depression overwhelming almost impossible leave house keep wishing something awful would happen feel way anymore one cares me would happen me know i need reasons life worth it,1 +people keep wanting help think hanging ceilingi deleted social media long ago hopes getting mental reset feel slowly getting worse someone given number people asking get ahold friends people coming talking negative thoughts feelings theyre going feel like total prick advice shitty since cant even believe im typing think going away never coming back hope ends soon hope get better soon,1 +jeopardy wouldnt worried winning getting questions right would fucking terrified come interesting story share double jeopardy,0 +thoughts teasing people havent done since got boyfriend would little body showing thats nothing tooooo revealing dont feel like leading someone on whats yall thoughts,0 +thankyouf hi earlier posted overdosed cut arms legs really bad thankyou people helped im hospital made pain go away making feel better fainted times paramedics house were broke hand fell apparently also cut vein hurt arms tummy flushed pain gone away need stiches arms legs going tomorow im going asleep it im kinda scared it cast hand im bed waiting doctor see think bringing medication thankyou much people helped really mean thankyou,1 +please help guy outfound rconfession op seems unstable recent redflag attempts httpswwwredditcomrconfessioncommentsteakwe_planned_on_getting_engaged_as_soon_as_we_turnstjisgthzampshff,1 +took lot pillsim scared overdosed,1 +love surpassing lucas sport edition lucas sis played football younger best lot goals sometimes one two three three times often best could it me three goals one match thats nothing man lucas why not me i scored twenty goals one half one half forty goals one match lucas sis me i scored header volley bare feet lucas lucas chill me i even scored heel scored every time scored often messy,0 +tried hanging today overdosed sleeping pillsif reading may already gone heres last words go fucking hate world bullshit im tired it im done getting made fun depression clothes looks cuts arm nobody fucking cares me even friends talk shit interests im failing school teachers hate me know ill never get job wanted im gonna dirty hobo street begging money get something eat theres really meaning life ill never find happiness goes away im back this nothing fucking works mental hospitals therapy anime video games nothing fucking works im lowly stupid insignificant human cant anything right goodbye reddit everyone hope everyone gets,1 +hate myself many things wrong failure hate myself hating entire life good reasons countless things wrong countless times failed school failed good person bad selfish person obviously lot people hate you please downvote post want lose karma deserve it,0 +sister knows self harm dont know never said anything knows shes seen posts ive made it dont know feel weird ,0 +clint eastwood would star battleweary detective harry callahan would also direct fourth entry dirty harry series sudden impact like additions brings distinguishable style tone anything probably similar original darker seedy moments and bestowing classic line go ahead make day humor seen believe bulldog named meathead pisses farts oh yeah however interesting fact entry one series set entirely san franciscobr br the story follows detective callahan trying put pieces together murder victim shot groin eyes getting trouble office superiors causing stir crime lord thugs blood hes ordered take leave falls working one heads coastal town san paulo murder occurred similar vein bullet groin eyes case begins dig dirt leads idea someone looking revengebr br to honest crash hot eastwoods take many repeat viewings virtually grown point probably par first sequel magnum force wellassembled plot actually gives eastwood another angle work upon even though feels like sophisticated take vigilante features running rampant time quite literal something punishing luridly damaging like hes experimenting noirthriller touches characterdriven traits help develop emotionally bubbling eventual morality framework use images lasting due slickly foreboding atmospherics dark tones brooding lighting like scene towards end akin western showdown silhouette figure harry new automag handgun moving way towards stunned prey fishing docks striking sight builds fear mixing hauntingly cold plain brutality dash humor seemed come off major plus films dialogues call sudden impact firstrate provides ample biting exchanges memorably creditable lines youre legend mind love hearing harry sparking amusing quip pulling piece beating action occurs excitingly jarring intense way go pacing flies little way flat passages lalo schfrin would return composer after the enforcer jerry fielding scoring bringing methodical funky kick still breathed gloomy cues texturally breezy score clicked getgo bruce surtees an eastwood regular gets job behind camera where piecing job dirty harry gives film plenty scope wonderfully framing backdrops impeccable tracking scenes also instrument edgy angles within dramatic momentsbr br eastwood dinosaur callahan still packs punch going beyond steely glare get job done probably showing little heart one would expect younger callahan going sudden shift plot turn harrys quest justice badge even though always agree it found odd real change heart across stupendous performance beau time sondra locke turn traumatic torment being senselessly raped along younger sister hidden glassily quiet intensity anger released tactically accurate outcome paul drake perfectly menacing filthy one targeted thugs audrie j neenan nails repellently scummy bigmouthed performance people truly ugly bunch saps pat hingle sturdy chief small coastal town smaller parts bradford dillman agreeably potent albert popwell a regular series different characters forget dirty harry yes bank robber thats end trademark quote do feel lucky well ya punk,0 +s seem like yesterday like dam tf years already apparently im year old boomer now whats wack tho years since s like how,0 +kill myselfbefore kill want drugs get hands oni want crazy shiti want finish everything need blow brains out sweet warm embrace death,1 +yeah im pan constant panic pandemic,0 +closest ive feltso ive seeing therapist months would like see psychiatrist possible medication scares much worry losing am think would feel knowing need pill feel normal feel lonely want feel like belong something wish could find someone relate talk to,1 +happypositive upbeat music help listen somber depressive type music help downi realize depressed exactly thing struggling find right words right now music help feeling especially depressed so kind music helps most,1 +ive trying avoid social media know redflag provoking me joined ultimately thought would make feel connected people kind does im okay with course im looking everyones highlight reels friend count which im especially envious of cant help feel like crap social life came standstill early s compartmentalized facets life ensuring people knew never intermingled,1 +hate people,1 +isnt worth itlife one problem fix another one cares youre okay dont want anymore,1 +think videogame characters would want christmas guess doomguy would ask santa trip hell,0 +dont know cant go iti live miserable life fat ugly pig one wants around with bad temper none family members like me dont really see future myself going college honestly interest school question cant really kill myself tried many times before using different methods get point always chicken outas anything better do please help finally get courage end all,1 +ive decided kill myself dont upvoteim sorry comes wall text im also sorry rambling nonnonsensical wanted write down going kill myself decided to ive tried past past weeks ive getting closer closer going it realised it id ever spontaneously way work set date plan id one day decide todays day id thinking that wondered whether right thing do know make note like lot people life important people family members friends people knew kid made impression life id like say something nice them tell appreciated there telling family fault sort thing realised months advance even years advance itd horribly macabre so many people id want say goodbye to im hoping ever decide write note whatever time id written things wanted say go id changed mind right want die im quite keen living bit longer ive pressing past days though came home college see family college works getting worst me anyway walking around neighbourhood realised many different things reminded times happy passing piece graffiti told ex once sort thing kind upsetting got in happened start listening music know whole constantnoveltyseeking type midnset websites like reddit foster horrible downside past years so ever since got net theres always one song ive playing others like song like much makes hate it find another one anyway ended stumbling towards ive seen face beatles reminded last year highschool everything much better top game taking running seriously gotten ivy league college class president soontobe valedictorian school organised prom great time listening particular song took back that id done lot work get point id already battled eating disorders self harm rest it pulled it managed coped eventually started succeed know turn life around like once again get back emotionally physically academically one small tiny fucking piece time ive decided kill myself hopefully ill able update future life crumbling around past year half want set putting back together read this thank you wt,1 +pet names dating personal opinion know people might disagree im cool with anyway honestly dont like usual pet names people give relationship stuff like babebabyprincessqueenkingsweetiedarlingetc dont know weird me wouldnt rather nickname personalized you seems common plus reason think babe baby makes think parents dont wanna think that they used call that so thats rant wanted say hope yall wonderful rest daynight ps ive always disliked sappy stuff dont know im weird,0 +mother karen holy fuck good one nobody stand aint like manager karen want got,0 +anything girl boy bus stand recieves text girl girl boy waiting bus girlokay hurry boy waits faster,0 +friend lowkey like idk im sure randomly complimented makeup snapchat groupchat asked ab school thing guys basically gf now sorry tell yall,0 +friend poland needs helpas title says friend poland im polish myself recently friend showing signs depression somewhat suicidal tendencies friend told thinking redflag recently theyre tired time told seek help see doctor okay let thoughts fester friend convinced also told wanted seek help due coronavirus pandemic everything closed so good people reddit please help friend im polish know done scenario want help friend know how someone tell resources something sort share friend id grateful,1 +right house alone first time really want stop everything cannot find worth reason keep going know keep going everything seems blurry unimportant think ill fee ease finally done know writing here thoughts killing write somewhere hope good day rn drinking alone house cannot handle thoughts,1 +ive always thought inevitable way seems creeping closeri quit job january schedule environment made depressed thought thats life is cant worth doing time economy trouble job market begin made feel like crappy job probably best life ever going me im special life surely owes nothing think deserve exist way would make happy ive worked hard try work out meaningful degree meaningful university cant even get emails back bank teller positions rejection specifically hard issue father man refer father rejected whole adolescence found im likely product rape explained lot things still hearing dad say thought someone elses kid something ive never able get over ive ever tried get approval quit things loved young things like ive ever done sometimes wonder underneath all seems series failed attempts win fathers love think moment every day decade sometimes like im still right living room ampxb get rejection emails phone calls difficult dealing rejection world getting harder harder feel like ive already given much can googled cheapest way commit redflag today hard even get sad now life feels done,1 +lifemy friend committed redflag weeks ago bullied years things home progressively getting worse felt like way out eventually leading death th grade parents ignored signs assumed phase someone fucking audacity call attention seeker killed herself hate society parents please keep eye child know could loosing battle,1 +pointless rant dont know botherdoes anybody else ever feel like werent ever meant here guess think much dont think ill ever comfortable living dont ever see growing old family shit think im meant miserable rest however long life be even im happy still feel like enough feel like more dont know describe oceanic void feel anybody else feel it fucked up doomed like im robot going motions scavenging tiny drop feeling find used want travel things whats point reality wherever go space used think job making unsatisfied leaving feeling completely hollow every day even got new job nothing changed feel numb everything want feel people feeling dont understand got fucked up half ass brain feel incomplete living miserable fucking bitch,1 +someone please talk meim feeling worse usual,1 +spend vacation puts closure television series aired ive always enjoyed series is ive never compared series looney tunes old days video release split four five episodes i cant remember im writing this television included episode list series whats good series main characters show major role story see summer vacation different parts world elmyra parents safari plucky hampton crossing country hamptons parents fifi beach etc climax good end tiny toon characters reunite start new year looniversity thus practically ending good run tv show,0 +anyone advice anyone know get girl like me basically girls like,0 +imagine sending away dog calling bad dog killed bird know threat part instinct thats logan paul ya calls bitch murderer logan trained better sending away like that plus mastiff look know sad bird got make money it died seriously think going happen big dog meets tiny bird think threat know nothing about to us dogs peices lives life,0 +try post something sorry post removed ________ please familiarize rules,0 +zombies hella fun im streaming bo zombies twitch wanna check ill link comments work name trash_mouth,0 +getting blasted myselfits official today day crossed threshold bare going finish bottle red finish myself goodbye,1 +wait days it mostly mentally checked already sure say folks,1 +time birthday boy bday jus hanging wanted ti tell yall hope guys days good,0 +fa see reason livefa try keep short main problem small penis inches really embarrassing subject me previous partners left fact makes feel less man noone ever able love fact end rope im tempted kill myself please help ,1 +im dying to wish merry christmas,0 +gonna turn year guys wanna ask questions im herewant advice elderlyim ill try reply commentshave nice day chooms,0 +among us like,0 +would kindly like ask rteenagers valentines please accept sexy sons bitches,0 +band released new single discoindie httpsopenspotifycomtrackfjsdrunsllfpqjkwpsixjcwfsgpsisgrlgstnyq youtube also httpsyoutubesjttewme listening feedback,0 +need new gamertag guys suggestions used random name generators theyre shit name long xx cool really need new nice suggestions thx ,0 +remember disliking movie st time saw it grown me love costumes poses actors make humor cinematography soundtrack scenes rich moves quickly every time watch it something new catches eye aaliyah akasha probably thing ruins it enoughbr br also lestat movie different character see character armand given lestatlike qualities im assuming anne wanted in reason trash movie like books fascinating itself,0 +kinda thinking nowlike fuck financial stuff hate money sistem know frends ended like this nobody remember problems go dye live depression last years dont know do everything always fall apart long time ago proud myself got spiritual yourney days came back old problems fall sides expect funking love people see money people dont wanto live like this im afraid kill know fast,1 +got plannedim end line ive addicted opiates adult life im stealing family again im living aunt rest family kicked out soon finds stole im kicked living streets felon im probily gonna go back jail none friends answer phone calls anymore move city miles hometown im huge disappointment family ive already got planned im gonna take lot sleeping heroin fall asleep car running garage would slit wrists im big pussy im huge piece shit waste breath space want fuck anymore want keep im tired everytime tried get clean ends failure cant really see way this even know im posting this may cry help im anonymous internet like anyone know going read this,1 +heeey anyone want talk ik ik im lonely since ive good hearty internet friend want know world again isnt place tell go meet people like pm people age f btw otherwise lets discuss internet friendships comments advantages disadvantages experiences,0 +make without support network dont fucken know irl online i dependency issues unable get help mental health professional know do fucken frustrating painful go on want end ,1 +wish someonei wish someone would hold sob wish someone would care wish someone would notice hate bad nobodys here nobodys ever here always me alone left deal loneliness pain sadness wish someone here,1 +movie amazing several reasons harris takes extremely awkward documentary turns relevant social commentary groovin gary smalltown kid assumed wellliked many impersonations decides play olivia newton john local talent show for passionate garys actions show odds conservative social environment lives results making various justifications actions people think fact transvestite social outcast second installment harris exploites struggle gary beaver novice attempt make narrative original documentary third final installment trilogy truly amazing harris extreme sensitivity subject unlike second installment the orkly kid shows gary truly troubled character struggles gain acceptance within community avail secret passion dressing like olivia newton john distances even people already consider social outcast movie depicted realistically that like reality lends many reactions surely one see gary ridiculously pathetic character may also identify outcast,0 +talk someonei tried talk someone either ignore tell im trying manipulate them tried get therapy ive waiting list year ive called redflag hotline redflag hotline tell try things bullshit lol nobody gives shit nobody bothered im dead theyll parade around make fault oh shouldve talked me fucking tried nobody listened feel like im screaming im pain everybody walks past cant anymore im scared ill go hell,1 +finally today l finally got balls ask crush whether liked said yes l,0 +im fan actorssingers especially gackt first discover movie watch traileri think silly oneafter long waiting timei watched last heres commentbr br i consider everyone knows storyline going mention itinstead first applause goes actinggenerally japanese movies got brilliant actingyet moonchilds cast simply wonderful got itespecially gackt reflects characters emotions changes pretty welli like many scenes dramatic humorous onesas hyde parthis acting good deliberately staying background actorrespectively character dothroughout moviei like cinematography especially lighting colors due small budgetit still brilliant momentsbut real jewel film storyit cheesy moments ok meand friendship theme movie really well developed touching sometimeson hand story points cruel world ones life guaranteed memorable death scenes reflects theme visualsan interesting note asidethis movie similarities excellent vampire movie interwiew vampire also played beautifulnot handsomebeautifulactors american cinemaactually moon child somehow seen brother interwiewyet original ownonly problem moonchild bit slow sometimesim japanese movie fan used change moonchild useless scenes charactersbut allthis movie really good emotional sometimesas actorssingers duo hope see movies futureand recommend everyone likes vampireactionscifiction romance films ,0 +fucking hate spotify ads ps spotify headset max volume music quit get ad plays music loud af fucking brain hurts becuase loud fuck spotify ads,0 +everyone abandoning meearlier week friend h said paranoid anxiety disorder couldnt handle talking anymore blocked social media sent depressive spiral havent gotten cut first time years confided friends feeling morning friend c sent message saying constant messages confiding make uncomfortable also blocked me already paranoia everyone abandoning realize toxic am makes worse everyone interact hurt would better die hurt anyone else abandon me,1 +im losing itive suicidal thoughts everyday past months today first day actually strongly considered hurting myself worse im considering going back school coming semester look mirror feel hatred much trouble connecting people feel alone,1 +stop stop yeah get cool gay straight bi whatever else jesus christ cant go reddit anymore without people saying i told ____ im bigay i got girlboyfriend like come people nice amazing come people great significant jesus amount way much downvote want care internet points,0 +posting everyday get girlfriend day bananas berries cherries,0 +ok sothe reason im attempting right dont want put kid pain doesnt live hes much love express would destroy him i go on how dont want continue,1 +often cuss curios becouse ive come realisation much cuss literally every sentence,0 +need reason stayplease help me ive bad relationship six years now good really good hes supportive loving helpful bad inner narcissist comes out tried break six months ago it cant stay away him meanwhile friends turning me hes painted exes crazy bitchesits likely hes me now im currently crisis situation hes recently stopped talking me im anxious upset cant sleep eat ive much him thinking hung there said right things stopped arguing him would eventually want back want believe everyone told harmful stay away him right cant imagine killing myselfbut want die want feel pain more thought found love first time life know love me probably never did pain much know die hurt people im tired feeling way please give reason stay,1 +although gave rating expectations higher film delivered would happier deep diving since diver myself supposed portray life carl brashear thats about film made angry beginning happy end,0 +daaaaaamn im award club one another ladies,0 +want diei want lay upside wait blood get head fucking die,1 +mg lorazapam bottle winewill sleep enough,1 +would rather die way instead dyingalright go girl middle teenage years ive abused parents half life abandoned whenever people see problems realise im normal perfect someone love might truly love promises hell save us someday know cant happen even though love thought it reason im slowly dying realizing even live freedom anyway im terminally ill point could fucking die second likely fault know karma shit terrible person young mother always tells useless helpless ever able live alone im taking shit heart always correct me id rather kill die suddenly keep letting bloody punching bag everyone use disgusting joke maybe get reincarnated ill finally better life someday find person love again know it,1 +maybe ill start upvting every comment like ill cus mabe someone like somethin idk,0 +sitting couch feeling lost dog ran over like think start crying point cannot even breathe right miss much want anything died ion rlly much people talk talked friend feel better still crying every single time think look equally sad sister never type sad gloomy broke heart much know handle own confused happened happened even know feel this lost confused,1 +alone foreign countrylast week went first holiday overseas croatia remember happy year once thought chance ive met two friends online one poland one croatia since work live remotely really friends two always past years even isolated last time hang friend march year went back old town grew saw old friends really excited meet spend time finally ive waited past years booked flight poland talking friend said could meet week stay stay place paid changed mind want meet me booked flight croatia soon land poland talking friend zagreb said shed like meet hang weekends spend weeknights together landing zagreb catching taxi studies waited till finished unfortunately there happened next two nights planned meet would wait rain her every time show argument ended blocking ive sitting zagreb apartment last week ive barely left motivation im scared im scared city live away society ive gotten used member society keeping cant bring go town see sites relying show around really whole reason came spend time two friends ended blocking me fault would get angry situation take anger think every right block never talk again hurts came far spent much money meeting friends even give chance meet ive suicidal past years ive never really wanted go it always wished would involved accident sit foreign country alone one two people always past years left really want end all want anymore one really care im gone tried tell blocked fault guess believe would something like that im tired done wanted spend time friend,1 +minor new year resolutions know lot people try make new years resolution high expectations become rich get buff complete im wondering minor goals yall wanna seem plausible least tips people do,0 +wanna shitpost post aint long enough,0 +never done anything right life continue fail never meet expectationstheres nothing going nothing useless waste space life feels purposeless nothing world would make happier dissipate every time go sleep hope wake sometimes wish id get deadly disease tell pull plug immediately would go daunting task killing myself wish many risks surviving attempting suicide realistically want paini want over exhausted,1 +feel anything anymore despite havehi im depressed college student wants diei know sounds typical whats got down schools hard friends family sucks actually no currently gpa enough scholarships pay tuition even get hefty amount whats left directly bank account enough sustain apartment comfortably although still work part time family perfectly functional besides me sister became pediatrician parents work respectable jobs theyre abusive anything friends few ive always preferred done anything wrong wonderful cat whos super loving caring counseler super cool actually believe cares despite that feel anything anymore im completely numb feel despair easy put act convince everyone around perfectly fine ive even tried talking people depression theyre like oh im sure phase smart ive wanting die everyday past year oded weeks ago didnt work obv intentions ended nuisance i took pills mg zolaftsertraline nd thought shouldve downed whole bottle guess question ishow hell fix someone much already people cant believe could possibly depressed much craziest thing know thingsand acknowledge it yet still want nothing sweet release death whats wrong me,1 + worst irony life ive always tried depend anything im alive internet worst irony life ive always tried depend anything im alive internet ,1 +really need care much politics youre old enough vote question geared towards americans due extreme polarization country right now parents seem almost offended didnt really care told biden chose vp said really dont much need know details right now especially considering wont even able vote time election comes around get important especially right literally cannot get away politics matter go im really interested parents hope biden wins dont really know want do post picture snapchat story show friends cant vote support him really want know common american teens parents seem think otherwise,0 +fuck everythingi cant fucking stop whoring guys here keep everytime afterwards leave feel even worse time before going fucking end life tonight none really even give shit know im posting here fuck life fuck reddit fuck internet fuck everything everyone bye emily,1 +today thirteenth birthday long road tough one too glad finally experience teenage life thanks free karma,0 +fun fast paced one falsehood leads another another toward inevitable surprising conclusion suspense separates holiday flick others one wonders pieces going fit movie futurebr br the character actors laid foundation entertained us process sinkewicz frank jenks shows us manipulation getand ultimately manipulation cost uncle felix sz sakall sizes person us trying protect lishka barbara stanwyck helps us decide going root endbr br if could ever achieve perfect world imperfect people would likely undergo series events thesebr br a glaring weakness fake baby cry allegedly swallowed uncle felixs watch ive heard authentic crying doll toy storebr br watch it really feel like somewhere,0 +want hospitalized cant stop thinking ending allim bipolar type hospitalized jan year th time extreme depression psychosis meds working put lexapro zyprexa helped bit last month ive getting worse worse fucking hate damn bad im tired psych listening me tired exhausting family bow fucking sick depression started hurting again little im tired im tired shit working im tired pain im tired know do feel like complete failure tired told keep head itll pass im fucking sick trying endless game rotating pills work im stuck want go drive somewhere secluded found maybe jump cliff shit overdose pills cant get head want hospitalized take away anxiety meds real bad anxiety disorder thanks past sexual abuse im done life tired trying hard nothing do im confused crying damn everything im sick this,1 +another redflag stole chance cant push anymore going kill myself worked out lived family four small children back soon moved going kill myself thing kept going years id hit rock bottom moving family four small children need part that even slightly know truck on got do used get am go work dark hours walking past houses get first bus could earn enough money pay rent solace knowing going kill myself aunt killed herself still tearing family pieces father uncle therapy resonance death staggering live place aunt killed myself thats reason last conversation telling wretched person world would better without like it pall bearer funeral lowered coffin ground wished dearly way around im lose house rented place kill myself yet times change little ways job amazing love job wish separated six weeks gives focus purpose reason like here local butcher knows name neighbours nice want alive wanted alive years keep thinking id died sleeping back van everything wouldve better everyone know theres another redflag hanging family like dark cloud feel cheated chance want alive know fuck quietly,1 +so asked would want found deadwhat hell say want one dead,1 +anyone needs vent needs distractionpm me yo f here former self harmer knows like want end all,1 +felt suicidal since years old emotionally abusive parents absentee father mother lived grandmother emotionally abusive one met wife rd year highschool started dating senior year awkward first real girlfriend outside long distance ones also end well changed people throuout years together mostly good growing empathy ability communicate one thing grow self esteem see objectively particularly ugly anything skills nothing really added self worth wife primary source confidence last week found involved someone via internet destroyed even though cut contact saying lot right things stay together major anchor world feel like really meant me told never thought would make far right feet dragging guess venting work go here good moments wife since still feel like life drained me know plenty worse plenty people would wayward spouse show remorse feel selfish honestly everything feels selfish feel like deserve nothing death broken infidelity,1 +happiness fakenever experienced it seems like used feel important others special,1 +give ideas lunch want food preferably good food mmm,0 +im planning making abridgefandub spongebob anime need voice actors people help write depend wether fandub abridge decided yet yeah comment find interesting sample text,0 +hey guys normally write stuff ever basically suicidal since like idk probably suicidal back mind time since super suicidal like time nobody rly knows depressed level am closer friends know anti depressants it would appear depressed average person try super positive like rlly nice things homeless people donate stuff like actually sit talk make feel human great heart idk tired lots people would say really pretty self hatred aside average sure reason killed scared pain andor surviving living worse life usual big dreams would love live life would rather dead honest work hard jobs apartment grades high school good cannot shake feeling think felt alone long hated head fuckint hard long permanently messed brain love also hate myself either look mirror take bunch cute pics even get look mirror ill feel nauseous feel like shutting disassociate think ways kill myself even know writing guess see anyone relates think bothers people take depression seriously pretty nice sure thanks listening idk,1 +looking pc players looking people play pc right my friends manly play xbox im mainly playing destiny rainbow siege im open playing games send discord youre interested,0 +favorite color blue favorite color blue thanks noticing,0 +dont anything im say never anything im say otherwise im gonna tell crush like give reason power im looking yall never given hope yall im gonna say one time please dont let power dont let,0 +took like least mg pills paracetamol hours ago wanna take im scared agony liver damage death terrifies lol think ill fine taking much gonna get sick eventuallyi havent experienced anything pills took hours ago im confused im gonna fine take more,1 +spitei job last spring racial minority workplace full white people company paid car apartment manager california blonde roommatecoworker brunette green eyes bitches scapegoated always bombarded dont like work matter hard tried would always say teehee kind air uncommon basic white girls clients also scapegoated me couldnt play race card outright racist remarks made despite this better living home begged stay fired wanted hurt following months unemployment make guilty haunt them therapist said wouldnt work even face lawsuit based note could play history edge parents would get possible lawsuit money would guarantee two would feel bad,1 +today wrote redflag noteplease understand knew could never good enough yet hopes dreams yearned endless may remain legacy tried best saving regret nothing thank loved sorry,1 +hi everyonei weird thing know ask iti exactly depressed feel excitement lot things work out trying eat healthier study work small project would say perfectly fulfilled cannot feel joymore specifically joy partner happyi know why told whenever sees excited something also becomes happy happy reason work me whenever see excited happy something become happy sad either like mood change think never really happy feel positive emotions like excitement intrigue hype lot positive emotions cannot really get happiness thing doanyone knows this fix it weird thing,1 +know go onposting throwaway since girlfriend knows main account want hurt read this life fucking sucks im miserable pile crap cant anything right im living best friend parents got kicked parents know keep going like this job finding job impossible me aspergers clinical depression anxiety generally antisocial nature ive ever one job lost job right got kicked out even social life know got girlfriend her damn purpose right now guiding light worry every damn second light going burn im going lost again worst fucking part ask advice get told things never worked me complain overstressed life people live with get called entitled lazy fuck im trying ass like that apply jobs week so thats average brain handle without burning out pitch around house much im asked sometimes even asked much contribute ways financially seems like one really gives fuck that god wish could die get hit car biking home college something control like that reason plan actually killing girlfriend something happen forced act die id choose death gladly,1 +uncle passed away coping wellseems ive getting older ive marking peoples deaths calendar,1 +aftermath watergate number conspiracy movies appeared one written late adam kennedy based novel br br gene hackman plays exvietnam veteran roy tucker loser wound prison receives visits marvin tagge richard widmark claims represent organisation designed assist wrongly convicted offer freedom despite distrusting tagge accepts brings along fellow cell mate name spiventa mickey rooney exactly hard see spiventa irritating little man drives tucker mad persistent talk sex want hear behind barsbr br tagges benefactors kill spiventa tuckers astonished eyes reunited wife ellie candice bergen given new identity strangely attempt change appearance shaving cheesy moustache would start settles down finds catch tagge wants tucker less assassinate president united states refuses tagge ellie abductedbr br i leave synopsis here sure guess rest yourself script enough plot holes make want read book neat trick that people tagge represents never revealed allusions jfks killing unmistakable despite findings warren commission doubt whether lee harvey oswald acted alone persists daybr br this stanley kramers first movie years turkey lacks grip say john frankenheimers the manchurian candidate alan jpakulas the parallax view leftwing conspiracy movie tends skirt around subject matter instead getting grips it prefer rightwing ones funnier domino look feel madefortv movie boasts must easiest prison escape movie history mention ending copped michael caine classic get carterbr br what makes watchable gene hackman richard widmark latter sadly passed away earlier year superb mysterious tagge initially appears behind operation ruthlessly eliminated beginning chain deaths designed remove trace evidence one one perpetrators evil plot fall like dominoes tucker innocent pawn hackman marvellous wonder though chose hide obvious place shoes id fled side world anywhere get away fanatics hackmans love scenes bergen slow plot down almost relief gets snatched presumably producers thought too explains opens bizarre prologue setting films entire premise voiced british actor patrick allen warning audience they there they get us comedian les dawson later spoofed opening bbc show the dawson watchbr br mickey rooney earlier worked kramer its mad mad mad mad mad world death scene resembles like outtake picture actor looking though stung wasp rather shot deadbr br conspiracy movies used made left right getting act too last year taking liberties absurd concoction lies halftruths tony blairs government turned britains answer reefer madness least domino lovely candice bergen best chris atkins film could offer anne widdecombebr br surprisingly the domino principle made sir lew grade legendary british television mogul behind the saint jesus nazareth the muppet show worked adam kennedy raise titanic whose failure great sank grades ambitions new louis bmeyer somewhat openminded would rule possibility conspiracy,0 +get christmas since celebrate here im bit curious know guys got something likedwanted,0 +grieving heaps regrets happiest time yeari miss mum aunt mum mentally ill really good looking her aunt one would look lot whenever mum go hospital died around middle year cancer last time saw looked thin nothing tell would actually last time saw her good spirits day found mum dead ridiculously normal cant get move grief live dad keep thinking earth live around anymore life huge support people like theres basically one reach honest with ive described angel well look friends friends now nowherei keep suicidal thoughts im sure much longer keep up like reason need work dad rent honestly hate life wish never born all feels like stupid mistake advice needed purely vent gives comfort someone else feels awful time year thats good ive never acted suicidal thoughts ive always one others strong feel like nothing left cried today whether tiredness loneliness mixture things im sure im usually good looking bright side things get really sick putting front know would love keep touch anyone going anything similar pm like feel like mum got put grave nearly part got put too im feel like longer live waste cant want degree english drama nice job bookstore feel lonely kills me people thought friends even speak now ive tried many times open people mind tell whats happening get angry like im burdening even though really want say word unless really ok thanks reading,1 +first got n five sixi fell love itand first game super mario and loved itthe graphics great timea good plotgreat courses allthe best music heard nintendo gamebr br i remember plot completelybut think princess peach kidnapped bowserand mario rescue herthe object game get stars curses castleeach five six challnges get starsthere secert parts castlewhere get starsbut courseyou beat bowseri think three levels beat bowser on lets start charactersmario main characterand gets helpful advice toadso basically one alliancesi heard luigi yoshi game towards endthe main villain bowserand bunch characters like boo goombathe characters really greatbr br nexthow graphicspeople say gameplay important graphicsand agree completelybut great plotthere great graphicsespecially timei whole bunch nintendo games like graphics compare super mariobright colorsgreat effects awesome sound effectsi found graphics water courses goodnext bowser world onesit best graphics gamebr br nowthe musicthis favorite part gamegrowing upwhen played young ageid gladly leave game night music would put sleepespecially music jolly roger baywhich peaceful wonderfulthere others great tooespecially inonce againthe worlds bowserare ones stick favoritesbr br this game favorite past time developing gamerand love itthis game gets go play game,0 +im tired really ami feel empty now exploding feelings feel empty yesterday blew releasing pent emotions feel empty tired yesterday slammed wooden armchair straight head still feel empty know do cant talk one related made feel home taking toll mind ive multiple times blew yesterday worst know anymore feel human anymore,1 +irl friends found account id forced nuke orbit share way much here isnt something want see lol,0 +anyone wanna dm want chat someone bcneidnekdnekfnrvjnrfjenfkwnskwndkwndjenvrjgnrifneindwkdnejvnrjbbtjgnricnskdnskdnekvjvnrjgnekfnekdneifnrgkrjgineknefkengrkjvekfmkkdmwkdnrkgnrkgnrkvjrkvmekfmskfmdkfmrkvmfkvmdkfmdkmfekmvrkvjekfmekfjekv filler candjcdckndjvnekvndkcnsifneivenfinekdnekfenkefnkvenkvnefkndkcdnkncdkcmdkcdnckdmckdmkdnckdvndkmckdvnkdv,0 +got attention want say going die peace chopped nipple ate,1 +ok guys hear here catgirls,0 +fans table pc fanless,0 +made promiseso weeks planning oding medications yesterday someone made promise kill kill myself two weeks since last talked informally someone felt good someone relate talk to hope able keep touch people understand struggle judge hard find,1 +matter hard try always part you wherever good grammar exist cannot escape me,0 +harry potter porn exist why hentai enough take another step further tsk tsk tsk,0 +dad buy car totaled like supposed continue classes dad grab lawnmower go school yeah like know school right across street summer heat really kicks in know,0 +check profile see currently hospitalized selfharm watch trying organize things yesterday found bunch notes different people really cared about read mine undoubtedly hardest thing ever do could get hold hospital called mom could inform doctor since supposed see right now mom nearly demanding turn notes really wants read them refused saying something anyone ever read read sure addressed me question is asshole giving notes right thing found exgfs suicide notes,1 +feel like grandpa replacing parents tenants son tldr family moved nextdoor family upstairs boy age tell grandpa enjoys me tldr so life ive lived two family house split two floors floor bed bath me mom dad sister two dogs got upstairs dads parents got downstairs th grade th grade corona messed up grandpa took school almost every day th grade became every day started taking bus love death carry middle name hey hispanic pretty darn close people knew next door moved wanted us take house did left upstairs vacant parents wanted rent someone gonna pick marine staying bit gave family near us whos house burned down come in next door snazzy since im next door high school honors classes come lot less ive trying hard possible visit always squeeze hour wish time mostly dont whenever come kid upstairs grandpa watching football never sporty kid play lot cuz parents anyway hell talking theyll coffee theyll grand old time whenever knock door say hi grandpa basically says hey mildly enthusiastic tone grandpa around ish well sit talk mostly small talk hell coloring phone tv on well sit there share jokes funny others kinda hurtful two im talking joking grandma saying im grandmas dont love anymore followed used love me man frickin hits hard every time general feel like fun kid upstairs feel like im replaced,0 +ithey all gonna post cant keep thoughts bottled anymore im giving up originally giving end year fix ive realized im beyond fixing one person left life keeping alive months stupid brain telling push away finally kill always tried fight it well last night stupid brainanxiety won im done going psychologist im done taking meds thought helping came realization not ive finally admitted everyone life would better dead mom sister pretty much anyone ive ever gotten close to denied months cant deny anymore ive ever wanted make people happy hurt people think time call quits plan anything im going end it hopefully figure soon hopefully meds go without much thought yeah might see around bit hopefully long oh please please please try stop me cant get better make others worse best option everyone,1 +closer redflag everydayhello throwaway honestly know ill live itll im depression since im mg prozac severe chronic depression ocd im dancer teacher told becasue crying no one cares feelings one wants hear them uncle also needed open heart sugery like anyone worried couldnt sleep dance told stop lazy ive looked man whole life ive done everything please like anyone would teacher look to depression got bad started care progress stops encourging younger kids preattentional im writting crying messy honestly know longer livei lose dance skills lot depressed get honestly feel like teacher care gone cheer bedazzled jacket called ugly give good even though loved cried never worse since im sorry long redflag thoughts getting worse im living uncle point wasnt would killed last month sorry long messy cant take anymore fear doctors put ward caused almost kill due trauma feel weaki friends therapist due fear reddit throwaway accounts safe place thank replys advanced lt,1 +purpose reason live longhello fellow people another lonely th yr old guy currently college spent last years battling depression every passing day hole appears getting bigger hope getting out high school guy none talked to one left hanging came group projects came hellhole without forming single meaningful friendship relationship anyone hoped going college would provide fresh start clean slate boy wrong instead got worse appears natural people repellent none ever wants sit next anywhere near me could sit center room near front people seemingly avoid like fucking plague dont smell bad anything tried make friends either seem interested push away short period time make matters even worse became fucking hopeless romantic let explain really start last semester literally envy every single couple see know feeling someone care you love you acknowledge existence literally become single thing think day out still well classes often drift think relationship constant thoughts never good enough anyone want grudgingly accepting fact likely die alone dont put one head that think im bad looking apparently am fucking bad understand girl could give simplest gesture smiling im stuck fantasy land head imagining us happily together hugging cuddling crushing never experience entire life know cant good enough one person home even worse bed thinking things willpower anything fucking point like tried get tried praying appears every time things get worse pretty much stopped tried pills therapy nothing feel useless unwanted world want someone mercy kill me even attempted redflag one point decided live regret that maybe done continue living existence gotten worse past month taken classes summer stressed without would doubt even worse am one beacon hope me physics class cute girl notice week class made eye contact across room continued make eye contact find smiling me god cute one day go talk class conversation went well finally know felt something time maybe potential wanted back mind felt making something nothing spent lot time thinking her cute laugh smile fantasies relationship her hugging her cuddling kissing felt good pleasuring mind literally made happy sure enough mind right texted got left fucking read saying hi felt crushed literally broke umbrella threw dumpster sure enough world enjoys fucking decides start pouring feeling nothing inside walk slowly reach car soaked relatively calm person stress string bad events one another reached past breaking point stuck tonight alone feeling like garbage eating tub ice cream writing this im hoping get past reaching otherwise going disaster wish worth one person know literally worst kind craving since feel cannot satisfy it gun drawer might well free live regret inside me alone none else existence merely waste space none even notice gone things might get better say all you someday find someone im fucking ugly none even acknowledges existence you could try praying becoming faithful things change already seen abandoned forgotten thrown aside ditch rot rest days try distract nothing entertains long even things used fun longer appeal me spend day bed appetite eat much might well,1 +online best friend hasnt slept three days online friend good friend mine im worried him tries sleep cant even tho hes tired anyone know help distance,0 +cut onion first time gonna harm eyes right felt like im going blind,0 +never type keep things dirty like organizing planning past weeks cannot even bring clean room usually end scolded parents even tho know depression think daily tasks bother much lazy etcam lazy know tired showered even want stand up wanted get out did went back shitty room help feel bad energy fix it room mess,1 +people hypocritesthey selfish think own bully you insult makinf fun compare like kind opponent comes redflag suddenly change mind wants help preventing this mean wtf guys dont like disappear idea also doesnt satisfy,1 +want live feel like im getting closer itday day first week summer mom visiting grandpa less months live idiotic dad work brother hangs friends day since drive means days sit computer watching days waste away summer slips fingers worst feeling ever thats tip iceberg im christian family im gay family would devastated knew much crap going on feel physically sick keeping bottled time friends im likeable person need someone talk to see point life go school get job lose summer working get old suffer die watching thing happen everyone around you lets cut middle man one knows im gay lets keep way rhyme seen therapist every day start sobbing loneliness cant take anymore im wreck got like school bad teachers work stress constant bullying go detail really need someone talk to want skype chat text chat thank advance lt,1 +want end myselfsad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain sad pain 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ive bad person purpose get really anxious easy out freak out people often mistake mean say think attitude even tell dont grandma adopted mother daughter would laugh say she daughter take want her aunt would laugh whenever cried upset would scream me would ask hug would recoil disgust mother would punch stomach hard could aunt would scream whenever would make noise watching me overweight always teased bullied even teachers called fat bitch constantly told i left whore mother im going take back people mean even im nice people laugh gaslight try confuse me whenever im talkative nice basically run away me say anything make lies me think im autistic well people like me world treats like shit older get realize much hate me im black woman im treated like dog im white black people im black anyone want stay apartment forever nothing makes happy anymore whenever find something look forward something realize point one share with whenever see people happy immediately realize alone useless am ampxb use happy guess stupid realize world wis family friends literally zero family literally zero friends dead never any high school people forced groups real friends people deal month start showing signs hate want around im fat anymorei even thought pretty little bit world reminded disgusting black girl done things proud of im nice world still hates me im shown hate everyday starbucks bus drivers therapists try get help im dismissed wish could happy wish autistic black woman different could blend people would treat like person would,1 +friend friend committed suicide today devastatedi also friend pass hurting themself support anywhere idea would made feel better as honestly even sure dealt iti know lot words said things actually sitting silence feel right although know sometimes silent support neededif anyone suggestions dosay would greatly appreciated properly support friend friends suicide,1 +brother wants commit redflag doim brother stuck killing himself broke make enough money get by doesnt health insurance couldnt afford talk psychiatrist see doctor says hes depressed wants life end already talks now wants find easy way kill wants nothing life world terrible place wants buy gun much heroin says hes recovering heroin addict lately ambition drive hobbies nothing dont know help him try telling think would make happy work towards goals always something negative say doesnt want it wants dead,1 +collecting thoughts looking opinionshey guys long time lurker first time poster ill attempt brief yo white male attending college large university south diagnosed depression two years ago ive cycled bunch different antidepressants im currently lithium effexor lithium bipolar psychiatrist trying something different drug ive tried far noticeable effect week started smoking weed couple months ago wake bake regularly now probably help situation thing know always make feel ok ive stopped smoking though since want reach kind conclusion weed makes apathetic therapy helped some progress ive made far things ive realized myself good student high school succeeded college two main possibilities either depressed know study hard know correct since depression started entered college ive managed get much trouble now lost main scholarship past semester im currently failing current classes spent past weekend expecting kill monday afternoon ive postponing deadline last days realistically know probably wont ive stood parking deck looked before know jumping would take willpower right now would easier go something fun friends go get high probably end hardship withdrawal none grades semester count im trying figure now logical option ect would go get shocked weeks probably start classes january think would solve problems truth probably need work problems combination introspection time instead electricity course health things do weight fine eat much sugar exercise cant find willpower fix though part proud believe problem could ordinary solution,1 +almost got sex trafficked today basically picking dog groomer waiting car looking window groomer could see pup car full high school girls parked next me one got put sticky note window something social media flipped off got home told mom basically said town history high school girls trafficking alone teenage males dodged giant bullet window door locked really sure feel this comforts sake similar experiences honestly aware fake sounds really am real details want tell you please ask also extra details hour ago dark mostly vacant parking lot old beater,0 +wanna talk pleasehey someone help me lost stuck need talk it,1 +laughed minutes straight group call skype buds said baguette friend thought said faguette funny sounds like word spent minutes loudly laughing untill one friends left call,0 +afraid yet willingim tired itlife lived long survivedkept breathing remember like pretend happy actually truly feel happiness feel dead inside told id finish degree next yearat least mom dad think complete failure now im done it cant keep this hurt myselfthat helps sometimes want iti cant keep living like this somebody help me give painless death,1 +ive decided diemy life circling drain long now ive treatment anxiety put stress relationship fucked up told afraid falling love incapable feeling love hes leaving now im young anymore friends getting married kidsim left dust hate myself cannot see future anymore honestly want try want stop suffering want lonely alone miss warmth someone holding night felt love long im hollow shell person ive already begun final arrangements things go know pets cared for really wish things could different me want go on going motions life never happy never anyone love me,1 +day sucks know many probably aswell day kind sucks already every little inconvienience feels like blow day everything demoralizes you today one days today enraging stuff happening laying bed thankfully cat lap trying take breather always think things every single time entire family disregards someone else comes me care siblings feelings dont me thoughts right dont know answer yet you,0 +im thinking leaving reddit legitimate reason stay,0 +think readyi voice used tell give every time wanted voice would convince something stupid recently fell love girl going something great going due insecurities guess broke up think one positive thing going strong life happy her break voice disappeared one person get angry one person felt safe me like voice agrees im scared gona able stop time,1 +anyone want start group chat filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +recruiting people play team fortress valve gives us major update bots go away day game called tf fps pc game made video game company valve also made halflife series really fun game main reason recruiting 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really beating today want pick phone call hotline want lose job job security officer requires carry loaded gun daily basis want disqualified calling hour day today need help redflag text service,1 +friend abandoned mei recently started dating older guy hes kind generous beautiful human hes supported abuse home parents beating me made friend life line greatest supporter gave courage recently told realtionjsip went mental threatened tell abusive parents living partner even went far calling dumb stupid know do partner literally enough whole situation announced would better broken up feel suicidal rn want someone smother pillow done it,1 +think im love moved new town called stardew valley theres cute dude named sebastian,0 +recently broke girlfriend almost years broke completely off break guess could say thought totally breaking would help well pissed cannot see dog anymore her bought together dumb self went found girl started talking her thought would get mind things made much worse want go back went camped middle desert alone last weekend try get away idk debated staying die fucking sun try think shit ex put bad still help like reasons left good enough anymore pills help therapy help fucking eat fucking sleep cannot function day day anymore fucking fault everyone said would happier honestly depressed long time want anything anymore fucked bad cannot go back would able even tried think killing right now go find another girl talk to maybe wanted company think trying fill void fucked worse cemented situation even more always end fucking worse fucked,1 +see classes might extremely weird want go counselling room knock door theyre session im probably gonna nervously laugh walking in talking teachers no cant go therapist directly due parents lack understanding ignorance mental illnesses,1 +double click button left feel bad pressed auto word generator thingy phone,0 +get better stupid saying somehow truei major depression anxiety good stuff tried end life twice luckily failed ill turn days never thought id make far months clean cutting happy weird saying still true confidence smile without thinking biggest turning point going grandmother best friends funeral within days other cant put family friends stuff again wont seems hopeless talk me stay alive friends family walk rain good food stay alive me love you gets better matter annoying phrase sounds,1 +hello want heard somebody hope great day hey people want share little chapter life here want talk somebody problems maybe new friends i dont any january manager twin peaks good job me married love life dreamed car lovely dog months later nothing nothing got fired got divorced took everything bank account debt dont job many dreams required money time im trying succeed youtubenot trying promote channel want go check i consider nice guy never trying harm anybody dreams quiet simple overall life really hard want tell stories cry whoever listen somebodys problems dont know want heard guess let know think year you,1 +comments posts want talk okay guessi post wishing someone would say something would atleast make feel better ive seen comments anything latetst posts even though lot people see them thanks guess,1 +people like hellosorry bad grammar english first language,0 +umdr squatch think know citric acid got ad shampoo guy pours green grey shampooliquid hand subtitles go citric acid cocamidopropyl what hell that never heard cocamidopropyl before everyone know citric acid is googled cocamidopropyl looks like comes coconuts sure adsense thinks im guy ok also got sperm donation ad once,0 +w e e e e r httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjphgzqmyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvjphgzqmy,0 +im gonna od antidepressanti hate life havent happy entire life almost girlfriend dumped nicotine addiction brother got hooked on im failure student cant pass college matter hard try im lazy fucking skinny asshole goodbye guys good run,1 +terrible everythinganything isnt good enough anyone nobody wants here cant even write decent suicidal post like everyone else,1 +im tired crippled birth im fail college hate everything im typing toilet time dieill try get point this afflicted genetic disorder known osteogenesis imperfecta basically body produce bone collagen properly causes bones weak enough unable walk ive gotten older mid s ive slowly realized unable satisfied life long physically disabled resentment grown point find unable care anything fact part wants make life even worse feel deserve see mirror cant recognize thing im looking at feel life stolen somehow logical hate thinking anything occurred past ive adapting life im tired it friends tell im amazing person im inspiration know theyre lying feel way all give great advice relationships life decisions even though get house college yet combination personality compulsion seek truth times keeps spectator level want one things want idiot playing football without go hospital want guy crazy stories girls lives tell tale instead ive designated always take high road better person order keep friends family together im tired breaking bones due stupid mistakes getting yelled it im tired trying improve without getting rewards it im tired living time die note sorry long rant make sense waste everyones time sorry,1 +friend killing tonight wants call kills herselfi used suicidal posted btw also im straight male im thats im gonna say age non doxxing purposes friend introduced months ago talked decent amount lot last month talked shit gets weird out always pretty edgy watched screenshare dark web watching gore totally normal it told molested abusive father moms druggie theres that fast forward today sometimes ill jokingly simp gets whole squad laughing one simp jokes woman backround moaning she bi btw thought turns fingering someone talking us said called daddy shell show fingering someone me comedian called daddy joke expecting anything ends showing fingering someone tell confirm people thumbs up yep two thumbs up disturbing yet funny incident ask would show someone online replied gonna last night life chills ran spine im pretty worried im gonna tell life pretty fucked know annoying people tell shit like dont much live dont encourage either stay mostly neutral says gonna walk bridge miles away beautiful view jump it doesnt car offered talk like hours walk it said yes told much good person really warmed heart know fact gonna kill self im trying stop all messages jump wants say love jumps course agree needs everything get right im one talk her also told cried cuddled gf since hasnt responded like hours also said needed charge phone could talk goes bridge bright side gf talked wont it dark side killed odd legal drug told me maybe phone still charged online disc sometimes shes disturb im really confused here ive known months cant tell kill herself,1 +f u c ki fucking hate myself theres point life fuck everyone fucking cares me didnt exist could die would break stupid fucking hearts cant fucking that also im afraid death parents brainwashed stupid fucking religion im secretly afraid gonna go hell miserable everyday feel like making difference world fact probably making world shittier place want gash arms want punch mirror fuck person reflection want use fucking shards cut deep skin cut vein arteries rip bleed out could drive really fast slam car brick wall fucking hate everything want punch something fucking hate alive fucking wish never born fuck didnt mom abort me didnt mom abort me didnt mom me didnt mom abort me w h n b r e stupid fucking religion thats why fuck fucking religion could non existent without it fuckin hate everything myself fucking hate myself,1 +friends happened yesterday concerning friends happened yesterday concerning friend nd injection vaccine vaccination center began blurred vision whole way home got home called vaccination center advice ask go see doctor hospitalized he told come back vaccination center matter urgency take back forgotten glasses,0 +close friendships driving insane want screami dont feel like belong planet know sounds cliche really mean it feel like im physically mentally im somewhere else ive always found difficult connect people like matter do im never good enough im always last choice guess im socially incapable keeping friends thing is dont want friends dont deep friendships want deep connection people seems like dont want me see people around age time lives friend groups im constantly asking whats wrong me cant that thing is whats point living life cant deep connections people im time life this lonely life like really worth living,1 +helpi feel guilty people try help me people already going things cant help them im tired here im tired disappointment think things get better without hurting somebody else anymore better struggle finally gets commit redflag,1 +fuck ted cruz,0 +sub die time annoying sometimes familiar people americans maybe thats dont see them,0 +ventingive place mentally depressed anxious suicidalmostly thinking it attempted twice pretty much long remember nuisance younger years first attempt grew older realised depression never went away even situation changed became something never thought could be much worse tried every medication sun well smoked weed moved changed jobs numerous times went therapy solid years things seem better except awareness middle age brings place change depression drugs work appreciably im starting new hospital outpatient program say optimistic even though know need something since really sick suicidal going cycles working months getting stressed quitting ive failed jobs school pretty much everything life wonder often simply courage myself cant see situation long term pain ass alive better slow leechlike presence currently am ill job while mostly live welfare everything inside used dream hope dead since awareness cant make jobs college relationships find place world since cant pick up seems suffering never end damn therapist ever helped one lick except person vent form unhelpful codependent relationship with know im middle aged feel useless collecting welfare hate it try work wind quit im sleeping dissociating time hallucinating social anxiety think somewhere sliver hope pretty fn dim wonder keep alive fear killing fear death would cause family life im nonentity derpy depressed wallflower nothing pain others around me thanks reading needed vent anon,1 +feeling shitty year now get suicidal thoughts everyday yet pussy struggling lot gender sexuality fucking hate school starting college soon know cannot handle it parents always back got really drunk one night came mum bigender really know time felt right freaked next day parents room screaming me parents divorced explicitly told mum tell dad get never havethey got tested autism apparently gender identity issues autism linked regardless got diagnosed apparently really high functioning affect much life blamed never spoke again also pansexual last coming ordeal taught parents trustworthy supportive fuck coming again self harming months now know wot time feel anything also wanting try girls clothes born guy got idea gender anymore know like girls clothes however way get any parents would definitely kick started wearing them friends pretty supportive know get me blame either makes feel alone one positive late tho happened day coming home friends decided run home instead getting bus pitch black blasting music actually felt pretty good anyway rant really know wot tf even know anymore,1 +throwback brother got shot best friend really pissed friend said april fools ran away nobody able find since w,0 +made motivationalinspirational podcast looking feedbackhey guys depressed long part life still quite frequently depression started recording thoughts help through while realized make public people like also get help at least feel bit better put episodes podbean test see guys like not enjoy support me would go making audios kindly note episodes recorded recorded cell phone professional mic moment secondly may pauses between wanted make raw real possible nothing is edited removed everything live recording thirdly everything is recorded impromptu prepare read materials advance brainwave start recording so take experiment rather super polished professional podcast would really glad guys let know enjoy it help would appreciate making it,1 +would nice guy move serious question girl dating really like other last week friends got drunk hours girl agreed meet met drunk behaved like shit got really really mad disappointed me next morning apologized nice little text forgave me meet next friday thought getting flowers bc that think would good move way late nice guy move something like that,0 +wish lifeall sit home try take peoples advice volunteer stuff nothing interests me got job hoping could make new friends dont care want busy like everybody else dont independence life sucks want die im tired fake people able make friends would talk mom says fault blame everybody else make psychology terms victim everything fault makes want die hate myself ex seemingly friend thats losers,1 +heyits really bad know even say right now want tell friends redflag haunting mind want deal consequences telling them want attention guess want talk rambling strangers choose read cant find way out want anymore redflag sounds comforting hate people would think selfish think selfish want live life choose cant handle cant this feel people would call selfish selfish too want live dab life entertainment contribute bad good die feel people would cry pretend knew me use death means attention others sickens me sudden people would care act close understood want it makes sense me hate sick am know normal know normal is expected get professional help cant leave bedroom daysweeks lay hours cant get energy even go urinate painful going bathroom hours even days end pathetic give utis shower change clothes brush hair nothing whenever shower small victory me what nothing good comes it end bed again wish clinically diagnosed major depression hell digging deeper hole cant fix anything want end things me redflag sounds soothing suicidal thoughts seem friend lately cant handle this,1 +im going kill tomorrowits day off cant anymore keep making posts keep hyping never follow through im alone alone im tired always falling short even smallest things useless,1 +last sandra bullock indeed beautiful woman ive finally found film gets actress forget predictable keanufodder speed forget predictable kleenexfodder sleeping tests herbr br and great technofeminist role really works well screen subject close bone issues raised seem farfetched whole experience helped along fine supporting cast makes quite unnerving couple hoursbr br you may never enter another chatroom again fact im getting quite nervous writing reviewerbye,0 +im girl hello beautiful people hope yall amazing day,0 +really suicidal anymore id still got chance know found pills moms desk usually locks away like see eyes debating taking idea are sort important medicine think take like know ok probably going delete this stuck,1 +im turning today cant spend family friends want spend rteenagers thanks comments,0 +im afraid im going something stupid fuck,0 +know reddit snoos rteenagers alexmaestro draws thats us utinkerbell,0 +valentines day coming soon valentine yet friends ,0 +even though unrealistic things happen end ie cop shooting gun crowded merrygoround number innocent could killed still intense enjoyable thriller one alfred hitchcocks better films robert walker excellent chilling nutcase really convincing giving fascinating performance almost creepy times costar here farley granger okay match walker either acting characters play typical hitchcock film strange camera angles immoral themes innocent man gets trouble etc unlike lot films thought one fastmoving story dull spots extennis player enjoyed footage excellent old net matches featured good rallies hitchcocks reallife daughter patricia interesting unique minor character role here get job dad act also note dvd british american versions differences story classic film still referred modernday films even comedies throw momma train,0 +one whose grades scarily bad grades pretty bad like worst entire life dont know im far gone im screwed right lol,0 +friend may kill soon unsure doi good friend met online years ago finally met person last year really connected much deeper level suicidal onandoff much life due bad case crohns disease stress anxiety depression fortunately good place suicidal ideation months which first me one serious attempt almost succeeded anyways friend struggling chronic depression severe anxiety much life well neuropathic pain disc degeneration spine large number different medications nothing helped significantly tried various therapies seen many psychiatrists psychologists therapists nothing substantially helped him last couple years particularly hard him really struggling point seems decided going commit redflag point near future could days married partner years im sure do capacity needs me listen offer suggestions try distract help devise strategies make day provide perspective emotionally difficult try commit redflag which failed faltered plan due second thoughts regrets told partner somewhat controlling not way abusive high strung would disaster think suspect might make things worse suggestions committed psych ward night due severe issues sleeping according him said worst night life would never want put position again either keeps waiting universe hand miracle sign purpose think universe works way think go make purpose course severely depressed getting bed overwhelming effort suggestions perspective would much appreciated,1 +overim done im going kill week can please try stop me doubt anyone can tried best over,1 +kill myselfi cant take thoughts anymore spending two years suicidal hell earth ive angsting whether try get help again know fail horribly again need overcome fear death fail time im close almost taste it thing life need succeed at old saying goes you one job problem keep bouncing methods ive collected menagerie suicidal implements hopefully last post im terrible succeeding first succeed try try again,1 +someone help pleasei confused state right now badly want end life ive gone past days attempt keep finding able it made account website cos know decent people good adivce thats probably better advice people trying give real life heres im feeling feel empty inside emotion towards anything badly want cry cant manage it simply enjoy around others anymore today went kill myself razor wrists medication case wanted go option yet still made angry force im scared thing though life bad others attempt redflag proper reason behind apart fact want live anymore want go rest life anymore thats pretty much it makes feel bad know people go much worse every day im razor wrist ready attempt redflag mind set want which end life think change ive thinking years finally decided definitely want end it im asking someone convince im asking someone talk die peacefully least amount pain involved possible know selfish bad sound right apologise deerly sound like selfish prick mind messed right want live someone could help would amazing sorry thanks,1 +someone please listen whilei feel safe right now easier talk stranger heavy shit need get chest live entire life edge redflag ive recently lost lot friends justneed someone listen bitch uncomfortable talking csa abuse lgbta issues message please bottle painkillers really tempting right ward long ago please talk me,1 +found work parking lotjust pulled work brother video chats me good friend brothers decent friend me guy know tight spot wrong way decided say bye think planned options slim none took none rip,1 +shower started think life realy miserable mom says single mom month old currently living parents going parental court take care soni get morning rain shine matter panic attack night before tend son every needs play read take walks goes bed around go bed too asleep i currently sick leave due redflag stayed home son till march hours alone every day except weekends spend daysrelaxing napping days cleaning getting back feet went pndpna ppdppa pregnancypostpartum redflagdepression redflag went shits eating disorder blossomed again hard since need put son first done time put first daytime workingi got social life well talk bit neighbours parents kindergarten meet friends date focus son feel lonely anything bit failure times hard mom worst days want get bed to getting outside playground also hard iti feel like putting much hard work mom talks tells cut crap life miserable starting think might befrom everything utter shit contempt good place even though struggeling ppd lifted alot love son much waiting whole motherly feeling want stay bubble working hard mama son needs means much social day working mebefore son sociali about worked made even sick things pace working showeringbrushing teeth jazz want slip end dark hole again super confusedis life seriously miserable life sound miserable,1 +nothing onehaving children cant take care of financial stability whatsoever mother hates father brother exist relationships sustenance lost fight live sense am nothing give up,1 +every new artist like either pedo rapist shitty person dead sadness sadness around please,0 +helpthis something sent someone today im currently drunk knife hands really know ill make day want to wanna bother wont sending messages this stop reading delete want ok wanted say someone since kind know ill say you get emotional charge would come wanna pile day kind hope reading anymore gone day decent chance making next week ive tried kill november failed woke regret alive knowing try long time piling since im getting feeling hopelesness desolace day im tired pretending right now fake smiles fake laughs fake conversations fake one smile say im ok one time today im gonna break ironic always considered rational logical end emotions mental disorders taking me know believe disconnected feel think lost importance know id much offer partner friend feel social interactions everyone better staying away me fake smile plastic conversation end quickly can never real never vulnerable adding layers protect much logically want break cant thick much work im tired failed make real human connection life never real friend real relationship seems crave most completely effortless people even though biggest source anguish im failing anything it could say logically want would flick switch end desire could understand ways would effect brain end thats wanted happy tried hard long know keep trying set lot difficult goals thought would make happy worked years accomplished much everything worse feel things nothing everything seems nothing im lost abandoning possible positive outcomes end darkness negative ones seems really good trade right now guess comes wanted leave last note somewhere last piece real ever one,1 +pathetici pathetic im fucking loser cant stand it im sick alive thought things starting get betterbecause finally got girlfriend treated like princesswas upsetgave love guess what broke yesterday shes already talking bunch guys fucking hate myself real friendsthey never think acknowledge existence hang them im back smoking weed taking dxm think im gonna wait till birthday june kill myself dont fit anywhereso stay know ill always melancholy guy never chance life cant wait die ill never deal miserable existence again never joys life me dont particularly enjoy anything except completely stoned numb used smartnow barely remember simplest thingsi forget spell certain words even though amazing spelling younger im deteriorating emotionallyin personality intellectually dont want live like this could today smoke weedsleep schooland took bunch dxm gel caps hours ago happened girls loved treated special virgin honorable swear girls whpres anymore never met girl age virgin cant blame women thoughim sorry fuck dxm fucked upim sorry,1 +stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed stressed,0 +guys piss red help burns owwwwwwww,0 +like google meet zoom change mind conference app u like,0 +actually reasonive taken forever work actually post reddit im tears every night understand anyone actually happy living every person full shit im adding it enjoyment people get it,1 +imagine horny cant rn haha jokes im wasted horny bonk bonk cant fuck hoe,0 +dream stans corpse stans terrifying mean likedream stans managed make trending cuz fell chairi also saw fanart dreamsmp crew kissing shit despite fact actual peoplethere also fucked fanarts drew dream turned chair corpse stans handmade trending cuz recorded breathing fact someone fucking tattooed soundwave breathing makes question f wrong stans stans much fucked berserkfor least,0 +im giving upthere nothing left me motivation energy hope im much disappointment waste time wish anything killed years ago spared everyone burden dealing me im stupid lazy hopefully tonight night finally put end pathetic life still here wish wasnt,1 +venting stupid stuffhi felt need vent so ive feeling pretty bad lately sleeping pattern really messed up thought id shave damn shaver came apart its electric one couldnt find piece went missing shaver doesnt irritate skin much i really sensitive skin gives close enough shave ill probably buy another one frustrating,1 +married overseas thanks stupid mother married moron vicious moron divorced freak kids him finish high school kids finish high school,1 +im looking forward tomorrow met friends while theres total lockdown cant even leave street minor were going eat somewhere missed ,0 +always hate myselfidk coming tbh nowhere else go apologize ill try swear though hard im pretty sure tell spots changed swear word reason feel need let stuff out guess one talk to fault unlikable people friends ended hating ignoring eventually everyone stops talking mei make mistakes every single day hit itin two spots basicallyif use right hand hit right side head use left hand hit left side headi know everyone going find hard believe think talking like depressed person hate good reason cant break curse life stupid constantly making mistakes get absolutely pissed cant help hit myself even make mistake second ill calm say its fine big deal next thing know cant control im really feeling pissed screwing send flurry punches face scream top lungs calling kinds namesand since im alone day sit back think much weirdo freak amthere many reasons hate myselfbut basically always screw find way make mistakes get troublei tell things hate ill watch get horrified andor laugh head much loser point proven really piece crap well goes ive never kissed girl gf idk even ride bike took years learn tie shoes watch porn time grown insane fetishes ruin relationships ive ever anyone ever friends one point eventually come realize loser stop talking me im always freaking idiot never took anything seriously always ahole class clown school spend life computer fail everything cant thing right screw literally everything imaginable like takes multiple freaking tries flip light switch always forget something andor wrong sweat time constantly wipe off pick nose eat freaking forced pick cant breath otherwise always position blow nose wipe something get rid eat it form blankets body pillow something cuddle night lonely virgin loser ive completely embarrassed public front many people scared go see someone knows past several years stayed house total shut hiding everybody go sweaty nervous scared watch better people loving couples happy together literally think i hate myself hate myself hate myself scream lungs often punch head treated pets like crap entire life nothing procrastination waiting day finally kill worthless self job diploma license even permit everything fault lazy worthless stupid sack dog s cant thing cant cook cant play sports cant anything sit computer day every day try smoke weed much possible since hobby require skillactually think even suck even like cant take big hit last long all entire life weird problem gagging puking easily forced stay away dentist worst teeth world deformed tongue worst stretch marks anyone ever seen im overall ugly ass piece s basically told someone redflag forum website plus course weirded wanted nothing me trust way embarrassing stuff get tell want though ask privatei guess trying prove right hating telling people watch get totally freaked laugh see along right truly loser need die even old friend let hate dad told commit redflag finally understood human amthe reason kill love smoking weed much live every second life based fastest way get weed right trying get job probably fail drug test tbh kind hoping excuse end lifewell even livei know never going like simply cant stop beating whenever make mistake time freaking deserve loneliness never someone love killing watch people know get gfs get laid lonely loser one freak good enough girl watching happy couples time absolutely tears apart want kill worthless self sorry making long least think pretty interesting anyone wants see true loser feel better themselves doubt anyone even going read whatever entire life wasting time anyways guess matter please prove point laugh know sure pathetic weirdo loser die,1 +normal im drinking enough water everyday pee always transparent looks clean tho think im good health right now guess,0 +ok question people walmart near ur walmart machine dispenses free samples u scan qr code app one walmarts near machine like im wondering common,0 +life sucksthere nothing interesting exciting anymore used hobbies enjoyed nowadays feels like carrying tasks feeling numb things zero interest constantly procrastinate wish could stay bed day nothing even though hate too social life sucks one real friend lives far away see often parents live far away too apart friends use me call need something talk like care act differently tried socialize get know people unsuccessfully try kind everyone judge people hate way look keep thinking reason friends people life friends people know diseappeared right parents would people would notice that talk feelings anyone would drive away want burden life sucks could stop existing would great want kill myself sorry read this sucks like living,1 +relationships last well mive break through relationships last teen years conversation gf future came realized nothing last hard accept falling love young age sucks wants move uk college states im staying explains wants experience new things sure enough new people coming realize pain relationship thinking end painful sure enough want ball cry,0 +want stop tearswhen im alone cry time ever since wife died years back ive sad constant sadness made depressed stopped basic things like looking properly amp ended getting bullied work life went like years every day another comment depression amp dull background roar grief loosing her cut recently amp spate bullying gets angry one bullies mentioned wife words said amp ended resigning sit amp wonder happened me guy all wonderful women great job big group friends gone now ive nothing tv cat amp roof head roof go money runs feb now get new job bother everyday suffering me everyday live suffering people want go sleep amp wake heaven wife want kill myself want top stop tears,1 +arguments proanti free will claritys sake whether personally believe product environment meaning factors as raised us live socioeconomical status etc determine become choices make long make said choices also believe people change change environment thoughts,0 +green day slaps holiday pretty good song,0 +guys strange dream day dreamt karenies thing basically calories burn karen,0 +dont even think wanting bf arent willing give blood put vial wear necklace give blood thank,0 +seriously dude waiting minutes get zoom class hasnt started yet idk maybe theres class fuck also isnt updates page whatsoever dont know lol help,0 +tell but finnish sentence get hit school bus,0 +brb guys gonna go make food comically slips banana peel breaks neck causing immediate death laughtrack,0 +strict lockdown months friends good even longtime xbox friend talk much anymore hes college,0 +wrecked everything built back up still want dieits year still cant forgive fucking up getting degree clinical psych course one year got kicked research project cared lot about lost job clinician treatment clinic got kicked last practicum months set graduate tried kill then didnt succeed fast forward year half graduated masters degree general psych im even proud im sort glad covid cancelled graduation want part it im working research assistant hospital doesnt pay much dont get much recognition level im kind yeswoman someone knowledge money me entry level position future thought would get better still looks dim ever wish id die heart attack ill never successful like wanted be ive tried losing pounds becoming leader church group everything might make feel worthwhile dont l pray god end doesnt dont want here,1 +im going commit redflag tonight afraidi helium canister ready go really scared it,1 +used cry sleep early years old used cry time passing childi think meant born,1 +love freekin movie walsh true master cinematic form film sometimes opinion overlooked film favourite mine really gives feel time film set inbr br all wonderful characters existed lifestyle mode dress way spoke ok might exaggerated good know occasion two men tried outdo insane stuntsbr br i felt apiece history thats wathced many people appreciated factbr br can get somewhere dvd seen tv anyone wanting slice life movie period time perfect one,0 +shotgun shellsit feels almost surreal years ago access pitiful knifes even rope home access arguably guaranteed lethal method there equally relieving terrifying close,1 +lot advice comes trying socialize find friends revolves around yourself just someone find interesting saywell lies problem idea am depressed long lost identity lost personality things used enjoy longer bring joy find something bring joy happiness shortlived becomes dull pointless mere days past years husk sitting walking around apartment motivation ambition joy occasional bursts motivation happiness fade quickly wish would never come first placei know get this even know way me know,1 +closer everi always considered strong person face difficulties matter damage well used like this armor shredding every time endure problems think much left ill start several years ago going puberty tough times know suddenly family fell apart noticed snowballing sometimes care much dad pissed moms behavior mom pissed dadss behavior im middle it living hell halfyear witnessing conflicts almost everyday bullied back then home school carried on resolved eventually got lessons it back forth accidents elaborate further maybe helped bit least realized hygiene problems started working it days passed slowly recovered went gym which almost useless eating disorder life stable fast forward present me dad started business small pub discovered reddit found rpornfree rfasting really believed success business started roughly borrowed money stay alive months peak life eating healthy got job stopped watching fucking porn i discovered years ago lost weight kg month nice huh fat ugly kid finally transforming adult thought same time cruel problems business discovered another one disappointment often believe lovely words see perspective motivates you time even sub typing this lost almost before pornfree streak gone healthy eating gone positivity gone started skipping classes done before quality life moment worst could imagine barely money buy food meaning im eating cheap junk shit damn eaten days mention internet im debt phone barely working sometimes wonder possible according condition worst problem debt business business generate profit lesion early money pay rent bills dad borrowed money sold car need pay rent tomorrow about may say someones living conditions worse mine that disagree want hear words wisdom support people like life need bump smm buy ads make creative posts motivation life things thanks give cant take anything enthusiastic person want see response actions thats enough get even tommorow for me ill start last attempts rescue business grave hope may succeed may not lets hope end bottom ocean thanks hearing out good day,1 +debunked bone marrow basically bone marrow apparently make sperm it men useless right nope matter fact man found out plus nothing cater kam pos made help people cant get partner pregnant seen women tiktok saying baby would always female thats complete bullshit kam childish know also going make bone marrow eggs gay men men wives cant get pregnant genetic kids bone marrow doesnt exist one gender exist help lgbtq infertile people biological babies might wrong stuff thats think bone marrow reproduction going like,0 +keep feel like killing selfi keep researching best painless way kill self cant take life anymore anything wake up eat go sleep like am every fucking day going out doctors appointments anxiety panic disorder depression sucks ive started therapy hope ever life sucks fucking socialize regret decisions chose high school college career am quit job due shit fucking anxiety nobody knows feels therapist open hide home hate life need something stop feeling like this im scared tell anyone even therapist tell someone obviously to also suffer dyspraxia makes clumsy fuck mess am anxiety depression panic dyspraxia wonder nobody likes me,1 +oh entire family ruthlessly murdered right front me give wholesome award,0 +stop giving cat milk cats lactose intolerant hurting cat enjoy drinking milk smell protein vitamins however lactose babys digest that anything kitten drink milk giving cat stomach pain probably diarrhea tell lactose someone wants,0 +today imagined commit redflag new year nightmy life may look perfect you im years old working tech industry top tier company good salary recently promoted know find new better job day want to recently bought expensive condo downtown enough savings solve notanticipated financial problems living foreign country relatives thousands miles away one friend never girlfriend loneliness destroyed mentally inside last year im suffering deep depression derealization receiving treatment last months working different psychiatrists tried bunch different medications without signs improvement suicidal thoughts seemed manageable bother lot rather curiosity couple weeks ago told friend joke nothing changes months by new year ill figure something meaning maybe moving country but internally also thought redflag tonight feeling significantly worse ever figured wont get better ny thought end it imagination went upstairs rooftop stepped rail thought im doing spread hands like bird closed eyes stepped forward imagined seconds ill falling everything end reviewed situation ever ever again thought nobody see me happens someone try stop me felt real scary got tachycardia feeling lump throat trouble breathing never scared life even experience ny getting closer closer dont anticipate solution problem want end like dont want keep going tried calm down went walk outside come back office tried get touch friend seems busy tonight pm im afraid go home,1 +anyone wanna talk lt week one shitty ones unexplainable urge talk strangers internet yeah feel free dm like please seriously,0 +update finished group project alone ended working hours reaction got was whys presentation long fuck group projects,0 +peed floor toilet seat foot id like inform everyone yes indeed potty trained reason got pee everywhere pee going two different directions one stream going left another going right thank time yes clean,0 +back agiani talked ex seems like really moved way happier without me feel like everyone would better without me death would cause temporary grief really care effects others want stop everything im planning purchasing gun quitting job go end somewhere secluded im sorry anyone knows see this,1 +rapunzel real sadly isnt fml,0 +often years pass look back see stars truly stars french film critic whose name escapes me said there garbo dietrich louise brooks is thank heavens louise brooks third european masterpieces also exceptional film one the first french talkie following script written famed ren clair reportedly finished the direction is georg pabst incorporating voice edith piaf well known much talent working film turn masterpiece thats film is shame louise brooks blackballed hollywood came back statesso much talent cast arrogantly wayside film addition getting watch louise brooks action great see pictures paris ca hear piafs young voice never get tired film,0 +tragicomedy written famous serbian theatrefilm writer dusan kovacevic probably one best movies ever made comedy category yet appearance theatre play transformed feature film takes nothing value masterpiece one miss see preferably subtitles dubbedbr br in aged bus en route capital belgrade looming war decides passengers behaviour two gypsy musicians sing miserable life also foresee tragedy come singing divides connects stages extraordinary road movie real life kostic brothers amateur actors together stanojlo milinkovic farmer whos plowed road give reallife performancebr br the spectrum characters gives brilliant image society facing war insight nations collective person everyone aware war begin try live lives best can hoping ignorance might avert tragedy using simple movie language director slobodan sijan paints picture society torn previous war world war i also highlights personal portraits success provincialism singer inexperience newlyweds seriousness great war veteran way visit recently conscripted son gloomy predictions man seems german spybr br brilliant narration memorable soundtrack especialy gispsy songs adjusted atmosphere well photographed edited feature sijans feature debut introduction series directors bittersweet comedies define serbian cinematography s maratonci trce pocasni krug kako sam sistematski unisten od idiota directors favourite davitelj protiv davitelja,0 +want find secret powerful deities world part qks discord server yeah know really annoying see new totally understandable discord servers make feel anxious sometimes hug tell gonna alright lt have streaming channel qotd face reveals much more interested join please leave comment send dm btw international high chances meeting someone country,0 +least guys stop messaging say im gonna sext seriously hard keep conversation going lady reddit,0 +dont wish ugetclappedsket happy birthday go it,0 +anyone tips depression besides usual go see therapist filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +end run front vehiclemy excolleagues forgotten me crushes ignoring me classmates pretend exist simple end it depression years straight end it end pain and over,1 +thought end thing makes happy im entirely sure say often find lost words need ever depressed tried oh lord tried get rid it make disappear longer think capability happy seems almost impossible im going apologize advance inevitable essay first post lot things need aired need someone hear me listen explode first all mother died died suddenly obviously lot heart ache sadness on stuff would normally expect anyone loved mother father worked away sister never stable home sometimes lived nan grandfather times would stay auntie occasionally nan would look us mothers mother wonderful person finally allowed open someone took open arms person would tell father wrong died day seeing grandfather cry heart wrenching thing ever witnessed found wonderful boyfriend treated like everything course best friend like sharing time someone else left life i still miss her time noticed eczema started get worse nothing curing it took skin problem doctor referred dermatologist baffled idea was tried different tests treatments avail since various doctors around uk travelling far wide seek treatment condition got even worse body wasis covered itchy sore later year uncle died grandfather started think fault maybe curse family tried commit redflag three times carved shit thighs stopped eating properly thought enormous weighed kg boyfriend could longer handle me erratic self destructive left two years suffering me point really decided life me pain day every day skin leave school gcses pain unbearable could hardly motivate leave bed got diagnosed new illness called myasthenia gravis for wish google disease simply something makes muscles incredibly weak point hard walk eat sometimes even talk steroids helping condition curable hoping go remission someday top this look year old sister since grandparents longer around so huff starting feel like writing wrong reasons feel like im writing sob story wanted ill quickly explain happens that decided get better mentally tried unbelievably hard finally felt like succeeded got boyfriend back year trying moved house boyfriends parents housebecause father verbally abusive kind got social life back track now back started rejected friends again afraid leave house boyfriend wonderful feel like cant give need sit every day feeling like massive empty space inside me im desperately trying find something fill nothing want nothing life anymore knew could die tomorrow without hurting boyfriend sister would it would end it one talk afraid losing boyfriend trust anyone else poor shit leave school illnesses get job reason government also unwilling help all kg heavier medicines feel like elephant terribly unsatisfied way look seen glimpse happiness totally worth effort this sounds incredibly gay idea anymore scared future want curl ball fade away tried leave father even thinking makes angry however tell this man go hell put through living im wasting time tldr depressed happyish see point living,1 +guys realize something someone explains hate awards think theyre pointless dont give awards thats exactly want give drawing something images back on dont waste coins award farmer trying manipulate using reverse psychology note doesnt include people complain using wrong awards wrong time time,0 +redflag note first cathartic writing i know post may long know else do wrote intention note getting carried away became cathartic outlet coherence really priority time ex switch st rd person talk people maybe get even little word salady maybe least person could relate things say note im writer something all spur moment type thing thanks reading commenting do feel like cant talk anyone except lit screen transient guests we ive thought committing redflag long remember fetishizing wondering planning enacting mock versions many failed attempts always small notion mind ringing true clear naturally would subside masturbatory fantasies continually fall through seems endearing anything sacred pondered days end quashed feebly mundanity cycle life forgetting moving on entire story muddled web deeped self deception oh many lies fictitious back stories ive created myself way act experience something fake order direct mind certain directions negative directionsconstantly constantly sometimes positive deeply rooted impulse thus deception reigns truth dont know ive spent much time harrowing loathing good it passions tainted depleted meaning faintly attained never realized dont know am wait kind explained minor trait personality right something ive tricked believing really sort brain power modulate harness worldly perception lie time myself others everyone around me dont know supposed be let give closure remember way back six seven years old used hallucinate infrequently first thing remember seeing baphomet least bastard form peek head stairs stare me whispering seth eyes dead locked onto frozen petrified slowly crawl stairs leisure onto wall float delicately room climb bedstaring shut eyes pull covers head keep there dont memory that selective memory tricking me thought memory fed mental verbal repetition fake dramatized trauma sort truth something right next one youtube video girl mental hospital choppy zany d effects ive never tested myself became petrified image idle girl intense quick zoom in could keep going tell different instances felt paranoid darkness ages less frequently slowly creeping back haunt im giving bare minimum now repetitive experiences anxiety paranoia someone yes even real people trying harm kill traumatize destroy eventually bore myself something ive always lived with however different issues now ill see get talkin them father laughed told look tv screen waiting lobby area movie theater riverside long ago around remember maybe dont influence commercial flattened girl ive seen terrified forced look upon again horror utter nonsense i grew probably around exposed enough point diluting unexplainable horror im convinced altered pathology someway point would get anxious simple act drying hair shower vision blocked mind flys handle imagine terrifying images manifesting reality ready bodily mental harm insatiable desire consume fear energy feeding draining me child leaving door slightly cracked covering eyes come get me hallway becoming sick mind fill things brood perversity horror longer cringe thought hallway areas house memories marked fear unknowable chaos longer mere physical location rather transcended morphed directed psyche small way another vulnerable terrified lurking absolute nothingness punish myself punished forcing stare grotesque images actively seek find depraved acts available internet yes ive seen bad stuff thoroughly enjoyed it ask lets see squirm cowardice shame deprecative behavior coming light finally pronounced ignominy hurt hurt do stumbled walking tongues sighing grand equalizer occurs death wanted scar imbued strange comfort thrill bathed suffering fears transmogrified sensorial experience wanted drain everything occasionally need keep door locked wherever live believed either guys current roommates come whenever drug crazed zombie like state foamed mouth ready lacerate hundreds pieces overpower absolute death people look stare avoid idle eye contact see me see someone suffering laugh total power me ready pounce kill mental stimulation seeing abject destitute human acts like pitiful true entirely obviously i basis reality brain telling me listen acclimate it definitive yes whether bullied child feel like mind memory cloudy say yes definitely something minor way trumped others seek solace closure retributioni cannot say definitively long time convinced people oh many people regularly bullied take grain salt know always felt socially isolated everyone friends person constantly alone brain skull manifest body im stuck deal have limited creatures are feeble minute social isolation leads boredom boredom leads creativity creativity leads madness ive created characters head amuse myself keep entertained years definitive character name accents amusements always talking myselfblah blah blah love part loathes it ever im socially emotionally distant everyone persistence end high school actively ignore everyone drown myself normal normal same makes sure reality correct one hoping become completely disconnected thoughts sort transcendent way lo man flesh dictates destiny absolute crushing nothingness woman says kids upstanding citizens within society kids rotting putrid stench shit everything say dashed lies could wearing mask beneath unintelligibility mood intentions constantly flux day day hour hour wear deceive others even deadly deceive myself thats would remembered id different person knew pertinent details life enough tangents food ah yes food one many vices full blown orgy days personal freedom bring end swiftly shotgun barrel lodged focal axis deep red shimmering saturating car towed away destroyed forgotten talking body well course man said woman man nothing slime blood bile consider nostrils throat abdomen hidehow desire hug nothing sack full excrement simple method suppression images fears consumption masturbation manipulation distraction flagellation doubts shame perversion anguish momentarily pushed wayside avoid everything corrupt innately destructive consumption consumptionbanal consumption constant acquisition utility notice exorbitant eating habits child young adults wanting provide children everything possible keep happy importantly content even best parents world discharge psychopath radicalist dictator hermit nescient foetus know intrinsically built parents connect binge eating crushing emotional degradation maybe likes eat lot let buy needs find strength within overcome gnawing voracious desires itso to expelled doubt hesitation rarely questions impulse yes do also use crutch wane demon existence yes father comment dont let demons get you rubbish foolish speak you could ignorant fact hypostatically connected demons perfect union yet l continue vomiting protract manifest garbed freneticism foaming mouth spastic writhing vine name omitted she goes name omitted now first person person loved used her wanted help as tried help many others past hopefully find sort resolution myself slowly realize fragility human psyche little dominion others actions wont get many details precisely that way much details however think rape whether true matter life ive chosen lean heavily truth altered me sudden loss control sway crushing helplessness single moment do completely break everything love person stand idly never rushing conversation reaction there something tragic like happens lose fortitude structure i began excising myself forced become completely despondent attempted burn feeling order move on this make one love subhuman mental training repetition cycling indulgence pain dehumanization yet stayed friends would get back together loosely grew older separated clinged onto dear life would interested guys would interfere side hesitationa hesitation conflicting feelings desire perverse not still loved pain point nigh unbearable losing fucking mind many times after acted tyrant desperately holding onto possible escape constant mundane cycling living harrowing angst responsibility hypnotized ad nauseam pendulum doubt oscillates nothing something active inactive never again longer desirable anyone even myself ive actively continually make so vomit glad still alive thought nonexistence extremely tantalizing option come everyone love dont loveeventually merely toe dip knowwe complex species genuflecting reasons logic laws also dont feel like writing sordid screed anymore amen,1 +im really tired looking mirror lmfao like allowed know didnt,0 +im fine destiny happy little time left think suffered enoughhow expect fly dont wings born like everyone else im sorry im waste could different would,1 +got important question girls nsfw think im snapping pretty hot girl always shows pictures thighs cooter area wondering normal thing girls dumb sign something,0 +yeah sex cool know china concentration camps,0 +im nervous basically start lockdown falling friend got along stopped talking one day according mutual friend going sit right next class together help please two days going happen,0 +little virusrelated calculation seeing meme killing thousand people would planting million trees asked sister pull number covid deaths worldwide google million stick simple formula get number trees covid saved million trees ill leave guys figure moral compasses,0 +unpopular opinion cheese pizza better pizzas plus affordable please judge me im poor _,0 +im mums car vroom vroom nah wanna hmu im really bored,0 +im friends whats point anymoremy entire life feel like ive one failed friendship another ive close friends end leaving side one reason another im assuming me people tend say im draining talk lot im genuinely overjoyed theres people around me lately work hours week hang boyfriend who ive year now sleep love boyfriend much feel like let down feel hopelessly sad sometimes cry cry doesnt understand takes getting enough him im enough anyone ive wanting die lot lately cut years long since ive done it lately driving crazy want friends want people enjoy hanging around me want experience sleepover night party friends even someone come chat im feeling down make friends cant people like me maybe try hard know dying would easy many people dont even know exist,1 +thinking nothingi wish magic pill would make normal functioning human someones thats able im supposed learn class instead stuck bed unable even brush teeth eat much pain hate much know magic pill im going learn disciplined overnight honestly dont know havent tried kill again,1 +finally finished new pfp took like hrs kinda underwhelming long took tbh fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +foolproof suicide methods methods,1 +unique film gives us chance see young noel coward ironic glory seems reserved detached hes perfect role unloved cad matteroffactly uses around him however deadly serious no pun intended last act coward must make like flying dutchman hes much less comfortablebr br but way epigram peerless hecht macarthur given gems macarthur really wit pairbr br the film superbly lighted great lee garmes little camera movement aside storm sequence hecht macarthutr cared one thing getting dialogue screen note hm blinkandyoullmissem cameos bums flophouse scenebr br the notable supporting player one alexander woolcott notorious broadway columnist close friend macarthur coward appears one bitchy authors always kept waiting reception room publisher cowardbr br curious woolcott would agree film clearly lampoons legendary algonquin round table founder macarthur something auxiliary memberbr br the scoundrel actually oscar best story though victory probably due cowards imposing presence brilliance plot coward woolcott dialogue remember,0 +considering giving upi currently nothing me mom want medication thinks ive acting lazy need fix habits ive stopped trying get help her many friends either problem making them always seem lose easily hurts me im always stressed school the people work ive slacking recently cant focus anything matter hard try mom gets mad normally well school cant anymore im sure balls kill myself get closer everyday really anything fight for days think good future im sure strength make good days overthink everything cant anything feel useless died could easily replaced know family would sad feel like friend would genuinely care feel like theres point anything thats downloaded reddit know theres lots people feeling feel decided give shot talk it normally keep everything bottled up whenever im finally able say something get ignored soo yeah,1 +girl watched prnhub story am happy new year playing roblox jailbreak next thing saw friend didnt end good terms like make things right fix relationship something goodto start year apologize said reacted later cuaght see going life since using zoom decided screenshare show memes reddit jokingly said funny watched porn said sure not like u sure confirm looked pornhub catalog see anything worthy enough watch awked liked anime did hentai is watch wholesome funny hentai enjoyed it went back hub watch to overall year started well,0 +tonight night end allits fun ride bois meaning years wanted go ahead months ago feeling shouldnt nothing lose right get better definitely went downhill much although enough make understand really want anymore ive living hurt others past years despite suicidal tendencies pretty tough made work past year ive ripped possible ways life getting career ostracized hoping could take care mind set right it hurt people maybe genuinely cared me unintentional guess letter ill never leave people know me sure want death it get better sometimes want around happens maybe get meet yall motherfuckers next life one take care keep rolling can deaths bitch death bitch fuck world make own,1 +im bored homies pls dm ffs jcjfbfjurijrjfhhfjsowkksbdhdidkdbdbshsjjsnsndbdbjdjdjdndbdbdbdjdieknebsisosndvsokabshdjdidkjdbfhdoembebebdhdj,0 +lost boyfriend best friend within two days fault course literally nothing look forward life anymore rest summer going hell vacations done school starts think going finally end it planning maybe winter point going school going see people used close with smart skills either college stable life door done bullshit point none,1 +nothingi job friends family love life failed college one knew knows pain feels like idea anymore nothing college interested me years im still stuck community college sleep hours day hoping wake up spend time awake steam netflix fuck im lonely feel empty life ment me know im posting this ill probably get trolled whatever,1 +finally completed one favorite childhood video games feels fuckin good last pain fuckin ass game need speed wanted wondering,0 +never stopsi depressed mentally fucked since hit puberty im adult life better still want die constantly sick hearing gets better ive tricked family friends thinking im happy recovered living good fulfilling life reality spend every minute im alone fantasising ending life think finally time go end misery,1 +anyone else chronically boredbasically title im type bipolar probably isnt affect it depression justify depressed although whenever im manic quite clearly normal energy purpose lot different bored also able sit still so go tangent already have happen anyone else,1 +ernest cline like may force you said referencing film star wars climbed magical car drove harass ex girlfriend,0 +senior portraits tmrw im nervous blonde might breaking hair code dont know makeup anything also imliterally last mf class take em,0 +hi peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +wishing pain would endi made post rdepression today said would sleep not im lying bed and well know things work me life ive felt stressed theres deeprooted cause it way everything scares shit try hard takes toll me course theres urge type details whatever consumer product ideal trend fad stupid frustrating me long day days long nothing past occurred long time ago im scared summer approaching face red year ago asked her way inviting felt off familiar it time someone offering spend time me really frustrated continued hear usual know mean anything wrong sugarcoated psychology selfesteem concepts able understand affects me one day day spending time her cried entire day five goes crying life torture was asked someone much weight question end summer went rocker then ignored seen around painful thing cried much night yes would love someone save me decades torture keep it keep trying hell me suicidal thoughts around big time,1 +sons friend attempted redflagmy son almost good friend sort girlfriend last year couple months hes distanced her found better friends tried commit redflag wednesday asked see today mother said extenuating circumstances please tell anyone get doctor bothered mom even want me know son going emotional support level need know plus hes going hide something magnitude me thinking whole thing gives pause mom highconflict drama queen want son hurt want friend get real help suggestions,1 +sixth and last movie boxset well looks like ive saved best one last ghoulies iv originally review back like february decided new one ghoulies series pretty awesome know people like them thats fine happens favorite one series yeah know actual ghoulies appear replaced guys costumes one tony cox bad santa now onto moviebr br the movie centers around jonathan graves main character first movie played again peter liapis cop lapd put past occult behind him first part movie encounter alexandra played hot stacie randall communicating demon beyond named faust dark side jonathan faust asks alexandra red jewel something goes awry therefore unleashing ghoulies beyondbr br i think jim wynorski good job directing music chuck cirino funny well spoiler ahead end movie ghoulies say ghoulies iv part ghoulies v still hope sequel gets made especially hope jim wynorski returns direct agree gimbotheghoulies that,0 +anyone gpd im seeing others,0 +lasting days still someone else experiencing depression leaving mind times like stormcloud exposing sun light long period rain,1 +think people give movie much credit deserves love low budget horror movies takes cake especially originality yes scarecrow kungfu fighting frightner not one else willing go far really much fun watching movie since candyman town picks one kid calling scarecrow even mom care him gets killed spirit infused scarecrow goes killing spree demise relatively easy assume movie gets going dedications end go straight bunch horror directors dedication towards dario argento really struck cool folks wanna make movies newer genre movie lot arnold rip offs one liners definitely laugh like stick around kills sheriff stick would say grab pizza friends laugh a movie love originality fun,0 +numb pain chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish could happy lonely verse tried learn love myself cause people arent always real put face pretend maybe friend worst part always believe get hurt need abandon see im left sad lonely think point wouldve learnt believe say need chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish could happy lonely postchorus wish happy tired lonely im loner meant verse ok thing fault dont try hard enough give pain wonder im damn hurt cause got nothing numb pain thats ok suffer like matters want change cant life unfair got say fuck world pain chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish could happy lonely postchorus wish happy tired lonely im loner meant,0 +much masturabating much im around times day know much know healthy bad you,0 +treated like shit ready end lifemy life easy attempted redflag first age jumping front car insulin overdose last time so overdose opiates antiemetics tied bag around head spent weeks coma icu swear cant die im single parent two sons ive tried hard keep together ive faking every day know would better sooner gone work healthcare bullied since day one first sexuality progressed more people total harassing me went hr fired homophobic nurse others even worse manager told month ago im getting promotion working different site bullying however heard update asked timing told in months believe anything change cant another day this applying jobs year career specific field openings year medium sized cities like mine bought house march bills pay full custody sons cant leave job dead good hands mother im sorry them promise better im gone get time cant keep living misery day day keep happy im posting way give permission know redflag always end path know when do im relieved im sorry boys,1 +today something made really proud comic recently switched ibispaint procreate meant also got new ipad sadly old ipad old wasnt ios couldnt transfer data ibispaint special font handwriting converted one said none data could transferred thought gone gooduntil came brilliant idea basically logged calligraphr account ibispaint copied file name site my old font still magically saved site ibispaint copied file name pasted email sent myself opened link normal download file message popped up saved files otf file could import procreate im technical gal fact makes happy proud myself wanted share accomplishment day maybe learned something new well take care,0 +need someone pain killing mebackstory around last year best friend broke boyfriend person went becuase commit redflag multiple times tell you later major crush her never made move though plenty opportunities sleepovers first one tame second one kissing city dating however second sleepover make move promised would done weeks ago made move asked out interested said big deal maybe ill wait little bit week later found someone me everything gone lost control everything jealous pissed depressed went far tried hanging myself wanted see dead attempted texted come over know houses friends house barged room able knock chair standing on rope around neck needed kick away chair later told selfish act jealous feels strange thinking back it end back story think need help someone talk to friend feel like lost,1 +first time writerdirector comes across season pro two coyotes action dramas action first story picture works way around beginning director hollywood soon making room rising star independent movie making reached new level,0 +nietzche depressionhas anyone read nietzches works ive stumbled upon chapter his discusses living among ill depressed curious anyone depression ever thought nietzche concept power pity almost maximum dosage zoloft seems completely breaking down physically mentally reading nietzche attitude changed guess worst one thing bugging me whether people insight psychology social applications depressed interacting nondepressed right im feeling really alone especially due isolation work long distance relationship im reading literature keeping everything coming grips condition permanent thing want another perspective someone read nietzche ampxb thanks,1 +great underrated marion davies shows stuff late silent comedy also showcases wonderful william haines davies plays hick georgia crashes hollywood help haines appear cheap comedies marion discovered becomes big dramatic star great lampoon hollywood pretentions davies haines wonderful team too bad never made talkie together guest shots likes charlie chaplin douglas fairbanks william s hart john gilbert elinor glynn marion davies you see it hoot must serious film buff anyone interested stillmaligned marion davies,0 +thinking commiting redflag cousins birthday lying bedim guy cousin girl ive thinking making jokes using redflag bag around cousin actually it think would traumatise all much better me job perfect boyfriend knows social also amazing football player feel like plays knowing im gone shell play even better happy im gone really want become friends cousin cousin enough ask wants come music festival i pay ticket costs also buy gift birthday less two months wants friend this end it however still want friend know do except ending using exit bag however know sad im gone shell probably happy male cousin left want make cousin happy never wants friend planet anymore would probably satisfy her dont know however good idea birthday birthday want bed too maybe shell think itll ruin it shell think dream come true none us going live forever either way one day nothing done matter thing is never said i want friend know want friend always says busy want hang out friends reasons guess cousin want friend first off im ugly second guy though guy friends judging photos instagram girls also guess bit age difference im turning summer become adult able drink cousin lives cousin likes go drink friends sometimes ive sometimes seen social media at least removed snapchat im also good socialising im friends usually keep saying stupid shit get lucky oppurtunity cousin say lot know lot say come stupid redundant basically think least little bit say something cousin comparison friends friends guys age cousin told want hurt myself im sure says maybe something learned school something aunt think shed traumatised either died,1 +im blocking whoever posts love stuff tomorrow valentines day bleh,0 +dont feel rightokay realized mentally unstable im scared scary everything life repetitive like boring exhausting really want end change wake up go schoolwork eat sleep again ive tried sports shit keep head repetitive game always comes back point im it thats life im officially tired cant more,1 +writing love letters middle school experience recommend,0 +deserve diemy life past year confusing eye opening awful much dont deserve people things around life cant handle emotions going back forth time feeling like overcome world knowing go nowhere life worst part wont stop bitching it need shut go,1 +think im almost doneso ive feeling recently im ive never sex never girlfriend get hungry anymore eating makes sick libido hair already thinning video games movies excite even slightest anymore death inevitable way want fade nothing,1 +abandoned againhi im years old broken with first time ive left girl before ive relationships every one leading girl cheating dumping after ive depression attempted redflag times past miserable years met new girlfriend fell head heels love immediately told id never without feel alone made vulnerable her stayed ex boyfriends house without telling told going bed instead told today afterwards told cant anymore confused feels im tired abandoned dad left born parents rarely even talk anymore feel like last days life cant stand live anymore edit recently started going therapy hope help deal demons decided would best deleted everything try pretend like never existed hopefully new strategy brings closer happiness again thank me im still sure whether want live im trying make progress,1 +want die everythings falling apartim high school feel lost feels like dreams future planned crumbling around me live abusive home wait move go college love foreign countries foreign languages wanted esl teacher learn language point could teach job plan find college dorm would set money problem eyes savings biological grandmother really good grades apply student loans scholarships im even prepared pay loan have too live frugally already mother asked college strongly inserted opinion wants go community college it dorms wants stay home drive college even stated idea could stay dying small town teacher like id ever get job like here basically shitted dreams traveling south korea china spain saying weak make without help always done this refuses teach real world stuff im forced use help crying loud im still learners permit really broke down im scared mind know tough years high school stay avoid rent utilities cost living away questioning even able get away feel trapped like bird cage im terrified shell try leave might cut give support try go original plan get college dorm tough years spend years home might well kill myself cant it cant it built strength telling would high school over think make longer feels like lied im going stuck forever stay constant fear worked hard whole year digging hole wanted kill took everything change life around think im strong enough again want leave want leave like this like torturing much,1 +cant remember simplest things mind racing thousand miles minute know cant go on felt like sanity whirling away me arrived remember thatch poisonous thorns ripe painful tearful memories instead given give honestly looking starting deal damage deep scars today instead jumping operating table eager right wrong right foot got take bike ride,1 +life definition goes behind closed doors outside everyone sees rich spoil person think happy anything want know trauma went through learned money could give happiness could go while end day still going stuck problems behind closed doors,1 +cant yeti want kill cant get gun it hanging overdose may leave vegetable fail wait im old enough,1 +want murder everyone tired watching fat cows society get rich next nothing suffer abusive parents yrs shit nobody answers nobody priests therpists nobody damn answers say i know empathize meaningful answeri nearly killed last night government permenantly severed family two cannot walk outside house without gov approval decades antihitler rhetoric joke people want dictator again west literal hell recovery bad family jesus divides families let us rot fucking murder everyone turns cheek cowers needs reckoning murder everyone,1 +resembles much movies like pulp fiction reservoir dogs impossible think tarantinos films source inspiration thursday however low cost bseries movie bad plot gangsters captivating funny also bit dark humor sarcasm find pulp fiction resources many fore sure film well produced acting also good enjoyed scene girl sat sofa teasing doctor hot funny time soundtrack nice too hear many songs ones heard liked score ,0 +shoutout guy kept spamming everyones emails school entertaining ur gods work bro,0 +bruh fricking love song like ghttpsopenspotifycomtrackaylkglttweuqobsqksigx_vxqaxvknjreapg,0 +tf people rude u think makes someone feel u say shit like offense id kill looked like u first all world not offensive second thats mean anyway u trying make people feel crappy gt hate hate hate people say shit like hear one time break ur fucking kneecaps shatter ur skull,0 +looking film control nympho gets chained radiator extremely religious southern man look paramount vantages latest release black snake moan exactly looking described say well then best get ya wits bout yaself mosey local theater still see samuel l jacksons character lazarus would say long open minded take everything seriously theres reason leave theater glad saw itbr br in third offering director craig brewer taken deep south tagline film claims everything hotter were introduced godfearing bluesman lazarus previously said played jackson almost always half naked rae role bravely taken christina ricci film unlikely pair cross paths long enough characters learn lesson one another lessons ultimately convey message us audience matter what human one perfect everyone would realize that wed lot better off question understood accepted see film another storybr br one thing debate great jackson ricci here think role sexcrazed woman overacting would given no here ricci breaks demonstrates true talent raw performance also doubles best date jackson completely disappears first time long time makes us forget even is sadly third star film justin timberlake plays raes militarybound boyfriend great start fails miserably appears trying hard later steps some still hes far level reached januarys alpha dogbr br the thing black snake moan boasts splendid soundtrack containing tracks black keys john doe pieces score done scott bomar course four count em four tracks jackson himself actually one songs main performance film stackolee fuel fire great collection alone worth ticket price notable musical delights soundtrack bomars the chain when lights go out black keys title track also among memorable scenes film lazarus sings rae stormy nightbr br the efforts craig brewer cant go without mention though last film hustle flow ended surpassing low expectations gaining critical acclaim put map done black snake moan sets apart newbies industry directed moan also wrote screenplay end result story surprising clever watch feel like know exactly headed despite valiant composure think predicted next move brewer shifts gears takes entirely different route however blotches within screenplay background characters drab flat ending somewhat disappointing left craving something exciting many highs guess final scenes tad weak compared rest filmbr br i imagine majority people see black snake moan enjoy due fact able stop thinking unlikely situations are depressing part many films unlikely even outrageous scenarios widely well received issues race religious motives sexuality film exhibits effect opinion anything idea black man chaining white woman house enough make people even consider seeing it simply put everyone like said fully enjoy go open mind else wasting money that highly recommend it,0 +nightmares every time fall asleepi much better started shitty fucking nightmares theyre always disgusting gory centered around things shake core know do last night took handful benadryl knocked long while never dreams take higher tolerance im running out im afraid sleep want end already im miserable anxious im awake already lifes sick joke point enough wracked paranoid intrusive thoughts things past obsessive fears im awake nope im fucking miserable im asleep too im exhausted time boot sorry coherent ive drank tonight see helps go sleep am today least nothings helping want end see fucked things dreams hey least temporarily scramble brain enough get maybe hour nap in,1 +go back work today time mental health body issues alcohol depression name it absolutely terrified redflag levels okay honestly know people work redflagful jobs stay sober keep health priority sounds pathetic years old still find adulting hard feel like this endless loop dragging ass work excited time work dreading next work day much cannot even enjoy time off dunno ranting here work life balance,1 +pretty convinced done i coming around idea killed year columbine year saw school district anything bullies bullied severely realize abusive home life got adult realized people healthy families drug addiction rampant said family nightmares dad normal first year thought killing feel like wasted chance chickening out likely mom would left dad younger brother would better might gotten help maybe would looked bullys lives see made want succeed destroying me destroy me one noticed got adult cant function cant love people love back love people like enough fuck chuck me thus havent touched anyone years unemployed almost year half living lady paying rent privilege watching kids bucks hour never time get mythical second job would made worth ended moving back mom getting trapped lady stuff perpetually enough money get place own live mother lives place bus comes cant get job anywhere nowhere hire soon find car missed chance make death meaningful look like useless fucking fuck up,1 +welcome kewl webpage old web experience bored dumb made this welcome travler hello clicked k e w l page blessed k e w l points spread word get k e w lpoints limited edition point kates anime butt page enjoying anime butts click herehttpsyoutubeittep_o get anime butts,0 +nnn log day sixteen another late log entry nothing happened yesterday alls good stay strong fellow teens days remain,0 +one best rated teen movies ever madebr br i saw growing was one favorites maybe popular fast times greatbr br there serious side movie mentioned reviewers starts comedy morphs drama halfway through thats beauty though sets apart get all humornot unlike fast times drama great great soundtrackbr br i personally think every kid enter high school see this would give idea journey embark on cmonwhat kid watching this able relate someone movie fact becomes serious halfway though also cool superbly well doneyou even see coming definitely lot surprisesbr br spoilersdont read anymore want knowbr br great knee slappping humorwho could forget scene gary camilla still hear itoh big strong burrito pricelessbr br some scenes gary karin hard watchparticularly final scene coarse many women like karen would made exact choice did think ithow many women reject men hearts goldlike gary jerks know ive done itand many females know movie inspire discussion and despite countless times ive seen it still leaves filled admiration film makers performers everyone find someone relate movie whats likely one personbr br lastly music used greata lot cars ulots obscurenow songs san s purists dreambr br but make mistake music makes movie unique story itself plain simple one best kind teen movie classic,0 +friends stuck rock hard place life right dealing depression thoughts redflag guys help outim posting friend mine said would comfortable him also privacy ill calling kyle isnt name etc call make things easier kyles stuck tough situation right know get out family scared him doesnt anyone except online friends rely talk thoughts think hes going depression hes talking redflag bit recently asked make summary thoughts gave you i constant thoughts hurting people hate people hate society everything motivated money one bothers help anyone more someone getting beat someone else people bother help humans animals everything wrong world thoughts hurting people go away get worse think things ive already beat animals hit family members going get worse im destined end prison motovation anything anymore even school theyve already threatened call police traunt feel like im waste burden others wanna kill done everything kyle says doesnt want go therapist fear theyll turn cops thinks biggest issue right killing himself im desperate help kyle get situation correct himself guys help ive also given account posted need information ask hell reply edit account using reply uuservrc one stupid passwords,1 +need help making something make clothing ahaego design fabric could find it asking project mine,0 +im doneim ready it ive enough life everything hurts much cant even move seriously want die theres nothing live anymore im alone fucking alone world isnt meant me dont place here cant anything im worthless piece shit cant stand anymore im ready go,1 +cannot stand anymore day get closer closer edge say fuck jump terms fuck life honestly ask brought care people around me care this boring tedious hate every aspect life understand neurotypicals prance around like earth lives amazing gift life hell want part it,1 +apparently used good writer cant start continue end story anymore im remembering how good old days forth grade teacher photocopied story good example thanks shitty sentence indicating personification cool,0 +redflag heatstrokeis viable option painful were coming summer could park car sun close windows pop sleeping pills,1 +sept would fifth wedding anniversary feels oddly comforting specific date feel like everything happens like water ducks back normal peace,1 +gonna keep shortim tired tired im ready go now doubt mind wont survive next attempt im ok that wish days leading death could filled something stress panic misery,1 +attempt workand two people know attempted wish dead wish worked,1 +lost uncertaini want write much itll make sadder already am depression eating alive cant breathe really scary think redflag every single day i want alive hate fact exist mean nothing anyone purpose life world would much better place dead nobody would notice gone care did easy way out yet know do,1 +near uncontrollably urge punt new born almost always urge wish could control better usually think punting new borns,0 +girl move faster light cuz time stops look lt ampxb gtthis big brain onelt,0 +vibing today bois girls today feel like listening earl sweatshirt beyonce wbu,0 +weird take pride scar th grade pretty bad injury middle finger needed stitched scar directly middle finger weird like it first big injury might feeling experiencing something really painful moving past idk,0 +goodbye soon ocd outta control seems even single touch tap contaminate everything words head hey wanna enjoy cereal blam infected words repetitive hah im tired king midas worldits like golden touch horrible recently lost friend fight im really lonely so sit alone lunch sometimes sometimes another friend sick missing school playin fortnight overwatch overwatch rules but got yelled discord server never relax mi home one safest place im constantly made fun pushed around dad sometimes mum aid hard mii makes life really hard feel like life wouldnt pain others help this went away pain brother remember mii sufferingim lonely need someone wanna go away thats might tonight,1 +trying indulge redflag thoughtsfantasiesim feeling tonight heavy think suicidal scenarios gives peace heavy everything is wrong want take mind away depressing thoughts im triggered self harm too seems like help out want something ease mind want substance distraction friend relationship anything free desperation loneliness,1 +anyone play r ps need players thamkssssss filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +need someone listeni tell story looking sympathy recently employed restaurant manager portland lost job benefits luck finding another management position found job server restaurant with benefits beautiful wife loves supports me crumbles tell feel like dont want live anymore cant discuss feel her tried redflag before woke really sick taking many pills story dont want live anymore child always wished could go sleep never wake up felt way throughout schooling went citadel college first half assed attempt redflag roommate caught talked it dropped went back parents house fast forward nowi never drink alcohol maintain good credit score fake smile face burns soul fake happy dying inside cant take life anymore crushed debt overwhelmed life taking life soon build courage to sit right contents medicine cabinet wondering long would take painful would be would want know would clean painless often every time drive bridge ask if someone asked stops me actually thinking trauma would cause someone witness it secretly wish wife would leave could alone worry hurting her desire leave devastated carries day day pick fights purpose saintly patience never leaves side plan telling cheated her never would ever cheated her want hate me want last push edge give courage end life story right now dont know make tomorrow chances good wake tomorrow hating hoping die cowardly anything thanks reading david,1 +hate family talk politics argue like stupid goes neanderthal brain every time talk politics argue maybe shouldnt wouldnt divorce threats every months,0 +hate sports always take shot like id rather take cock,0 +confessionat beginning seventh semester already riddled feeling guilt parents spend much money education took upon whatever recover it refrained going friends eating out never went trips them started working online earned enough sustain save little future opportunity save arose internship opened company upon consulting seniors learnt good company work for even joined monetary benefits provided would paid stipend also dormitory fees final semester would returned little know signing to first day joining immediately regretted decision place far people even so travelled public transport many time standing journey took hour half way little money left spent travel bought gifts family travelling came physical strain chronic back ache put five months hoping could make six months would suffice would work getting abroad little know hard part yet come little know parents sacrificed much would make feel pain even experienced before always thought could take pain right could two types pain physical mental one realises latter much worse sacrificed much them need most turn me treat like criminal working brining income putting money table taken time out write gre ielts gate learn german language know enough time yet misunderstood taunted harassed working making money place used call home criticized sit using laptop wires surround it criticized way sleep man needs two things life know belong there lack place live lack respect neither here contemplated ceasing exist decided people know me dream mother come despise constant taunting chiding narcissistic nature love me anger issues irritable nature changed me deepy fundamentally come realise value money anything else past months depression lurking head like dark cloud feel finally taken over feel numb devoid love feeling come point beginning wonder go on,1 +stop itstop telling im making everything head im swear swear god next person says fucking punished punished im tired reaching help getting shit shit want tell im faking fuck im go away attention seeker lost cause waist air space things im told fucking hate fucking hate it cant normal little girl doesnt look around every couple minues hear someone calling name poking something crawling leg cant normal sad angry angry sometimes nooooooo start saying something thats wrong fucking lie im sick sick it dont kill already,1 +anyone want silver idk whoever comments first ig,0 +make someones life living hell douchebag made fun girlfriends stomach he hasnt even seen knows shes self conscious since hes heard mention it shes tiny girl literally reason worry shes skinny absolutely perfect every single way hurt feelings badly nobody hurts baby im going fucking ruin him ways get revenge want last long time im grade ton friends grade carry plans far one ideas replace padlock locker one bought stuff,0 +kid roadblockso living clinical depression since somewhere medications combination not psychiatric ward twice closed ward redflag attempt late last year open ward ecttreatmentelectrocshock im active be days feels possible cognitive therapy neurotherapy exercise regiments that follow days feels possible want accused doctors depressions stem lack exercise yo cm kg pretty much every flavor month psychiatric treatment go back another series ects soon therapist gives go completed tried everything sure new medications years trying that kind lost faith that sorry wall text issue one roadblock slitting radial artery wrist elbow year old son strong roadblock now hes young atm understand isolate mancave hope get much better time and friends understand whats happening dad weird feel like im working towards clock atm completing ect i normal refresh every nd month feels like last chance maintaining roadblock really needed get out reading managed all hope manage create great day yourself,1 +trying understand compulsion felt wanted die know tricky question would deeply personal individual everyone curious anyone lucidly explain everything going momentfor remember many terrible things happening trying go regular day travelling wheelchair stopped head telling needed drive onto highway go front trucks approachingi froze sat feeling thoughts crying trying understand was idolised death thought lot first moment instincts telling go thenis similar everyone else spiralling terrible thoughts realisations leading strong desire die nuances it moment,1 +american please make sure parents registered vote also possibly can post serious posts here ill keep quick ampxb democracy important want political family affect outcome im canadian cant american make sure parents aunts cousins everyone is,0 +decided hang myself know where made decision head cannot overcome depression redflag,1 +intense physical abuse need helpi need help immediately idea go give backstory year old boy currently th grade going take sats soon grades extremely important need well sats parents indian obsessed grades aphonors classes get decent grades abs think important note indian beating children normal ok thing years parents physically beat hours end something dont like recently study less want things like slapping face hitting body kicking etc also come room block door cant escape happens every weeks usually leave crying abusing like this cool act sorry happy used cheer younger know act week two going again thing is feel like things wrong study hours per day love play video games play schoolwork done next day posting brutal incident this sat practice morning decided play video games since day tomorrow enough repeatedly yelled beating again luckily managed escape room typing there lot parents anger stems fact like play video games say cause problems didnt play would perfect student dont understand stress comes fear them sources tell call police dont want that police do take away family even though hate parents still depend pls help dont know else goi considered redflag tbh dont even know,1 +need help song stuck mind part remember cause i i stretched around secs anyone knows song talking please help,0 +sick rat raceeverything parents want focused college marching band even though want to every days would get called guilted enough prepare stupid college feel trapped everyone says getting easy struggle thought redflag almost attempted hate existance asian parents suck,1 +ah came old friend depressionim feeling relatively calm right now theres things id like get chest family aware mental state usually avoid talking it living own although alone express feelings however like home dare cry every time do parents scorn weak emotional thats hardest part hardest part that believe ive sexually abused kid cant tell anyone it barely think live grandparents uncle aunt summer holidays parents busy working one morning woke up felt something genitals thought fist accidental went back sleep know better weird feeling wont go away obviously cant prove anything guilty party already jail for reasons theres cousin also age think asked hand job something exchange bought snacks currently huge debt gambling mom wont stop coming house ask us money horrible memories wont go away please help can,1 +knowive feeling really bad lately go college know feel like im wasting time money enjoy art sometimes im always unmotivated classmates come great things feel like im good enough keep making mistakes end hurting people myself feel like nuisance also job anxiety lots times people come feel like im gonna cry keep panic attacks middle night feel like person want talk even want talk me keep thoughts end honestly cant picture going life planning weekend mom goes town sisters gone,1 +anyone got thought provoking stuff keep mind killing myself lollately thinking fading away n shit nothin would b different born shit love deep thinking n think im going lil crazy thinking death little im worth anyone something fun think yall get dark place lmk,1 +guys ever received creepy dm old person posting smtg here yo old story like wayy b idk last yearor early year received dm woman sshe told married children posted smtg sad lmao ig reading sent text comforted lil asked wanted draw nude body like heckok little backstory explain said bcs draw lot hobby prob went acc saw drawings like yooi told uh thanksi dont rlly think need that said ok let know change mind obv checked profile mostly nsfw active nsfw subsshe posted pics straight closed reddit didnt contact anymore didnt block tho didnt rlly think needed,0 +sub starting get dominated complete pussies karma whores fictitious stories complaints sub stupid fact people actually think making stuff attention cool makes extremely disappointed another thing disappoints lately amount people quick call anyone bigot straight throw tantrum jokes silly tooive noticed mostly latter half s kids like that sub used different much better things mentioned agenda posts dont turn place twittersuper weenie hit jrs please,0 +probably go bum bum bum,0 +thigh highs comfy ngl thigh highs plus snuggie equals good,0 +wish could stop patiently waiting die actually take actionive dug deep probably gonna much work make back low functioning dependent still much pussy actually fucking it sometimes even wish parents would die me could go without hurting them,1 +anyone else pets think this dog laying right licking yknow loving like dogs do always suddenly become depressed know one day little pup gonna die ive experienced pets dying fucking sucks feeling bad part pet owner also religion dont believe dogs pass afterlife sucks even more cause like family member dies atleast like ill meet one day pets die like that,0 +wikipedia loophole teachers allow wikipedia source heres loophole wikibookshttpswikibooksorg wikiversityhttpswikiversityorg wikispeacieshttpsspecieswikimediaorg wikidatahttpswikidataorg juat uae sources use make article,0 +ugly went uks inbred town stuck like sore thumbi saw fat ugly inbred girl today wearing crop top started comparing her realised would need surgery change skull shape starvation diet order look fat ugly inbred means wanted look like girls london would need skull surgeries rhinoplasty breast enlargement butt implants starvation diet far uglier one worlds ugliest women makes feel sick,1 +im homeless againi cant another time plans cant secure job within days im going take bungie cords truck hang myself mother mentally stable cant hold job quit another one today confronted said could get hell out college credit smart fuck jobs,1 +im go bed gets award upvtes overnight im gonna confess crush first thing morning yea joking might post screenshot get one,0 +wanting drop third post shit titlei keep posting here feel like shouldnt know why things get better get worse repeat again everything chore labor hate anything yet nothing do everything fucking far away wish gun badly lonely cant begin describe it want connect people want able communicate sometimes feel like know how sometimes feel like alien driving around earlier crying thinking theres literally nothing me want help world want see get better really do far gone cant make satisfied living perpetual fuckups mirrored world around me want end want know people life decided move good reason knew going nowhere toward grave win everyone else know im alone feeling way sometimes fucking help honestly know im still alive now ill read good book see good movie great message think ill apply life never fucking do cant figure change honestly want to but cant stay same know except blow brains out sounds comforting right now,1 +already dislike teacher looking presentations class one presentation came cringe mean see faces everyone cringing person kid said comedy chat joke people chuckling replied keep searching bois joke class ended teacher made us stay class scolded us mean joke even offensive offensive all person bad attempt comedy made joke it small measly joke mean come on standards low holy fuck something ass mad joke,0 +bad day todayrang sick work today drinking since pm bath cut first time ever really sure go here kinda wanna die also know really it gonna keep drinking smoking fall asleep guess sick bad days want out,1 +bad die christmasone best friends left im fucking lonely cant stop thinking it fucking sucks friends completely ignore messages unless need favor im piss broke evicted cant find first got laid first week december single company responded job offers wtf left point,1 +back day decided friends became legendary sanin one us died journeyed new end pervy sage would without himeddie rath rip pervy sage still miss naruto,0 +betty boris eye junior dance theyre still kids unfortunately hugh gets first thirty years later tune back inbetty married hugh putting fussy mother also lives thembr br neither boris betty however forgotten paths cross again soon declare feelingsbr br but betty feels cant divorce hugh councilman would hurt much betty know is hugh hurting all hes rolling sheets beautiful secretary meredithbr br boris undertaker thinks answer theyll fake deathbr br christopher walken plays frank featherbed outrageous competing undertaker mediumsized townthat causes additional problems boris bettybr br all kinds complications arise boris betty try pull major coupbr br there laugh outloud scenes delightful dancing nary curse word heard short film pleasure watchbr br stars,0 +request wanna ask guys pls sub yt channel called fb make song lyrics would love look channel pls sub would awe some,0 + august my probable death date switched date many times always hoping things get better wont think finally one date set hope chicken time too miss many things sure happier side,1 +tf still alivei literally tried hard almost succeded btw see brother cut drunk literally reason parents like oh ok get therapy meds stuff literally cut everyday shitty parents like yea skin delicate fucking raped dont care last year something could considered torture didnt even anything bruh,1 +alone hopei transgender cant afford srs and top that im fucking hideous ive shitty ass month people kept calling male pronouns titles set someone said look like emo guy hitting two girls near me hate myself next chance get end life im taking it,1 +it using alt account say this cant take life thrown me lost job applying everywhere months even fast food places hire me move back parents im forcing marriage apart hurt father mother hated since wants tells every day doesnt care never sees again would give peace mind gone dads life taken possessions including car shes taken away phone several times always bought new one anyway guess wont need car phone tonight wake mom peace mind guess goodbye reddit wish best rest there,1 +looking someone talk pretty bored recently would like chat someone,0 +life actually changed youim ive suicidal since aunt girls though right thing hanging on sister suicidal too id really love believe life could get better but believe will actually got suicidal moved loving life,1 +guys wont believe archduke franz ferdinand assassinated serbian dude hope war start this even war started big conflict maybe months year,0 +get ads targeted gays algorhitms think im gay fuck,0 +optioni awful person around good intentions matter fucking hard try different always end fucking asshole everyone around me three best friends stopped talking january got pregnant march lost baby tubes told cant get pregnant now live boyfriend told end month nowhere go money thought living roommate excruciating cant bear close another person end hating me every single relationship ever ended unbearable around really try fail over ive done therapy emdr im going change im going get better want get hotel room shoot enough heroin die ive clean sober five years graduated nursing school none matters literally make everyones life encounter worse tired scared disappointed became,1 +well feel like sad lonely fuck need put somewhere im anonymous,0 +im exhaustedive tried write full story million times theres many details id share get point across matter past past ill say tried express years ago physically feel right issues turn up told rest head knew running hospital putting stress finances stopped stumbled upon fact one day could manipulate symptoms supplements years researched tried fix thing carried even though felt like new thing would pop time lost faith doctors kept years broke last time contemplated ending all went internet talked coming clean getting help doctors still find anything like deja vu again cant cope one thing say hold decent job responsible cant go back feel awful cant sleep long lower spine burns sometimes speech sometimes impaired im dizzy often mind foggy heart pounding feels like vice memory recall sucks body clicks clacks legs heavy seem randomly drop shit urine foamy visual snow sense smell poor longest time experienced anhedonia experienced bipolar iilike symptoms experience mood swings again feet drag sometimes walk funny hips really clicky ive looked extra sick lately theres constant ringing ears feel like something attacking body suicidal ideation comes goes now one point certain last weeks rough keep trying choose life felt bad thursday friday physically go work last two three weeks unbearable made it think ability hide symptoms slowly slipping really pushed edge stopped taking supplements think kidneys it ive maybe one full meal last days ive hotel room trying find peace mind sleep nice quiet nice w reminder cant get enjoy im at definitely fault fucked around supplements hopes finding fix sometimes successful sometimes created another problem desperate nobody would ever believe shit went pretended everything okay im really tired now body allow carry on went questioning existence god knowing gods there bargaining universe knowing gods there questioning god matter much express much do im life fullest ive tricking thinking was cant sit around cant this ive put almost years adapting change building persona would allow hide bad days adapting bad days im fucking exhausted cant this trying fight thing would time letting life even made thats id personal hurdles robbed certain experiences felt bad could barely get bed thursday friday took supplements knew could get blood pressure actually kicked in packed bags left thinking id gone now here fuck still am hate leave mom alone world friends family ultimately fine lose it cant anymore body feels though enough thought years ago felt like death whole new level know possible took one way ticket home turn back around would unbearable fucking hate this tried get help years ago body state someone listened ive tolerated long feel like heart going collapse im even worried anything almost feel nothing want go back elements ive made lot great experiences much cant crap again,1 +nobodyfriends left college dropped im stuck outa town job living parents n talk friends much online except one told became adult would feel happy cut wrists pray find drugs ease pain talking parents never helps addicted alcohol yell ungrateful im soulless robot work without interaction god hate life,1 +dont mean get political anything wtf sex ,0 +grandpas birthday odd grandchild grandpa turned yesterday visited course girlfriend town thought also never mind parents hella worried fact visit grandpa right time came transgender swallowed deeply saw female clothes grandpa little shocked since knows ranting cause trouble walked house saw pictures me cousins father uncles aunt noticed odd weird am five perfect white male cousins one female mixed race transgirl but practicing christian left cousins start looking like parent little resemblance disappearing further born blue eyes red hair something one family from shared genes light brown skin brown eyes hazel glow the typical family eyes thought times change fast grandfather conservative atheist causes lot clashes sometimes feel kinda right since parents grandfather family left,0 +pillows bad cuddle partners cmon pillow hug back already,0 +feeling like shit ive never wanted kill ever nowthe fact depression decided fuck boyfriend hurts lot fun till started break feel like shit him never break depression eating hit like fucking truck felt like shit started crying left ive never done before first time hit hard fact leave house strange hit hard time ive crying fucking hours havent stopped since dont know depression getting way want selfharm badly either kill tonight need break feeling like shit time fuck life im done emotions constantly feeling like shit constant basis feeling like shit im boyfriend thats crossing fucking line dont get wrong im glad boyfriend tries help fucking christ feel awful tonight know im going feel awful tomorrow want kill im probably going later tonight really early morning dont know anyways end killing self oh well fuck it ,1 +thinking itmy dad suffered bipolar depression committed redflag last july moms current boyfriend coming house since day dads death since moved in clearly cheating him blame mother dads death currently broke im scrambling find job help pay school gas found take year away school appeal dismissal failed classes slept almost week really bad nightmares killing everyone love left alone wake cuts wrists remember doing today started panic attack tried find psychologist start seeing week schools health dept answer tried finding offices area closed today felt need see psychologist today find single place also insurance money pay expensive first visit chatted redflag hotline online asked find reasonably priced place area did called closed day started panicking again got car drove boyfriend called yelled get back home state drive like he saw wrist thinks purpose lying bed wondering take many sleeping pills tonight exhausted physically mentally feel like purpose importance wish alone right now,1 +access tall buildings guns sturdy enough ceilings hang from cannot face another fucking day going long know finally end it want kill know to trying past months would end torturous,1 +fuckim fat ugly im never eating again need get skinny girlfriend meets me ever misfortune so wish hundred pounds thatd sexy cut first time weeks think dont even keep track anymore always end making resorting back pathetic self destructive ways dads right im attention whore teenage girl tantrum want shoot front him want mentally fuck up everything hes done times called fat times said acted like mom times called whore dyke times beat times pushed stairs times threw drink times hed lock room fucking everything deserves deserves it still want stab myself right fat fucking thigh dont know why need to,1 +sure say sure people dealing way am many suicidal thoughts past month best friend moved another province really lot friends confide in friends confide want bother them hysterical want anymore feel like life anymore go counseling take meds i bad consistent seems like vain tried cut carotid artery past friday box cutter blade stupid dull stoped i definitely hysterical day tired all extremely lonely,1 +serious advice highschoolers mental health guess need vent usually tend stay away subreddit im fan content here though may sound stupid anyway im right coming last months second semester high school well classes rough point honors geometry currently in thats b classes as b honest very stressed out feel like developing anxiety atleast thats teachers telling honest though algebra ii scared me led thoughts what make college i need diploma jobs alg required do basically kinda blame way school works certain degree also blame myself ever since got that growth online classes th grade going back remember little algebra i gives anxiety everyday kind getting better able calm reading exercising well friends main thing remember basic equations like example x x solving that well finding work triangles people school say first semester alg relearning sem working new skills advice keep algebra notes assignments review honest first vent topic would rather keep myself feel like talking would better kept work know notebook somewhere seriously folks keep notes stresses it kids grades way thank read this needed get guess also anyone confirm relearning alg please cant remember life me online learning messed hard dont fee motivated anymore,0 +read content warningso recently played first part doki doki doki literature club half regret it beware post contain spoilers played trougth game already expected terrible things happen shit hit close home one fucking thing dumbass sayori said agree with congratulated and still do game stopon portrayal suicidal thoughts people last scene fucked completely saw there saw myself awful scene ive fantasizing last years pile shit supposed dumb graphic novel slight twist kicked right nuts realization im much worse thought was see ive gotten used it normal redflag solution everything normal way it fucking pile shit game made realize close snapping much research ive done subject easy simple elegant exit bag compared living made realize warp vision is fucked every possible aspect know worst part nobody missed her game goes on life kept going almost nothing changed left right know game means know put content warnings got it ive messaged friend school one ive ever trusted know shell stab back eventually hopefully ill dead that asked meet somewhere talk private it private able keep together utter words ive avoiding piece cunts hopefully ill dead months,1 +hate quarantine much right wish could talk friends face face right cause im fed texting bullshit,0 +emotional numbnesshi want ask anyone emotional numbness since spine injury cant feel shit vibe people all enjoy music food anymore even videogames movies freezed year college depression came see ever becoming normal person again want end all,1 +lonelyi incredibly loney really know job go home nothing waiting me nothing motivates looking forward anything wanting end life quite overwhelmed guilt every time think it feel sorry parents react learn death i cannot talk things like this never good handling emotions realized live basically guilt guilt keeps alive tired sad time want end,1 +im going start taking care ive neglecting taking care long time now mostly due anxiety want better get fit feel good body downloaded workout routine inspired kratos lol start eating healthier online school stressing motivation work out study anything generally wreck last couple months wish luck ,0 +ship put sea filler filler filler filler,0 +lot suicidal thoughts todayim actually diagnosed depression cause dont trust psycologists think need help epilepsy doctor told seek therapy keeps going feel broken like ive broken inside im starting forget feels like whole parts friend send lot keanu reeves memes promised would write something entertain wait im scared becaused day ive daydreaming dying naturally sleep start reading ways die withouth pain th less pain possible oh mama difficult die want im scared pain scared ending notdead withouth chances trying feel like prolonging buying time one day pain greater fear,1 +fucking shit guys fucking shit shit aaaaaaaaaaaaaa im tram rn girl front friends looked general direction looked smiled me fuxking aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa finally time get gf make fool packed tram edit got stop looked quite nicely i mean mean negative ways parted fml ill never get gf social anxiety ask strangers reddit start conv never end,0 +feel like im burningmy whole body feels like burning want scream end all deserve this fault know ill never change never born,1 +living suicidal thoughtstoo much burden bear own tried survive amp keep fighting what one cares,1 +use lemon juice lube yes,0 +anyone know easiest wayi cant take shit anymore school almost feels like eternity thats least part problems recently kinda betrayed yea everyone kinda knows mental isuess besides hate much im hypocritical bastard begs attention ironicly never wanted step much people wanted to cant handle anymore tried mind stopped finally done cant take depression anymore anexiety also killing me want rest dont know suicidal wishes getting worse im scared hurt someone acctually care about dont need anyone talk want know easiest way it thanks,1 +short simple im tonightim disabled schizoaffective panic disorder irritable bowel syndrome yes im treated friends well im stuck pulling month want work go school im terrified stomach pain panic attack work plus antipsychotics make tired time tonight im going hang ill never able hold job go college im sick loser,1 +first tv specials offered elaborate box set barbra streisand television specials released last november disc released separately want fork dollars five specials investment indeed best bunch fact streisand purest eager impress succeeds brilliantly key component legend signed longterm contract cbs produce hourlong variety shows almost extinct format nowadays streisand cbs special first broadcast april point career notoriety limited handful bestselling albums dazzling tv appearances variety talk shows successful broadway run funny girlbr br filmed crisp blackandwhite program divided three distinct parts creative transitional use im late disneys alice wonderland first segment cleverly shows growing childhood numbers diverse make believe im five opening comic monologue pearl istanbul second part moves location manhattans chic bergdorf goodmans elegantly costumed series glamorous outfits singing depressionera songs like ive got plenty nuthin the best things life free comic irony back basics third segment straightahead concert opens torchy version when sun comes out includes funny girl medley ends classic melancholic take happy days again ending credits also included brief introduction taped special first released vhs know streisand pricey concert tickets political fundraising genuine eyeopener revered now,0 +woman like woman strong anything oh yeah strong woman beat never win checkmate liberal,0 +im hard time telling family need serious help anxietyi battling depression anxiety majority life born disability grew ignorant town gone psychologistpsychiatrist sense sometimes feel like held together entire life think falling apart looks like isnt lost someone like brother me year february medications sense passed tried telling family cant hold self together anymore keep brushing off spent entire life dissociating painful memories emotions sometimes forget precious memories loved one closer get one year mark harder remember like getting phone call hes gone alll againim tired acting like im ok im scared dont get help could end it tell them,1 +wanna try something scared im bored really wanna try this iphone bc minutes really call people literally send ur number ill call lets talk,0 +dying truly seems like optioni cant stop thinking inevitable im going either die im buried crushing medical debt worth saving first place every time get sick think put save loved ones trouble idk ill never enough money go somewhere better im always going sick feels inevitable see point beating around bush anymore,1 +shower thought time wouldnt let post rshowerthoughts whatever reason dying afk way long server kicks out,0 +name identity memories lost girlfriend wanted disappear still traced destroyed world hardly built wants explanation get ride people made is yeah jason bourne back time s vengeancebr br ok movie elaborated script world thematics clever ask serious questions society course like every hollywoodian movie since end s the bourne suprematy superheroes story jason bourne captainamerica projectlike whos gone completely wrong first movie hero discovered abilities accepted second one fights considers like evil person close killed his 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bedoes anybody else ever doubt legitimacy suicidal thoughts will recent last months ive found looking redflag appealing manner constantly wondering truly suicidal intrusive thoughts list things effectively justify redflag reason find hard believe myself difficult explain somebody understands im interested thanks,1 +need freedom knowing tomorrow want toin lifetime think ive taken almost every antidepressant there least famous ones thats without effect ampxb last months taking another one got impression getting little better stopped ampxb cause cant want kill myself solution lose get condemned life know bad here ampxb since stopped last week think felt bad again need this otherwise go crazy need freedom know ill last till end year though ive said many times past middle next year sure not,1 +cant sleep someone help cant sleep ive got school hours,0 +pretty bad singing hey school stressful 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inspired feeling joy felt early phase quarantine heres link httpsopenspotifycomplaylistlrnnjtflltvmxjotczsispxqdrqkxpdzkbw songs include dayglow hot rod harry styles cherry fitz tantrums league girl red fell love october tame impala less know better borns electric love wallows bored yet joji slow dancing dark seconds summer shes kinda hot,0 +facebook url criss url please help share word importantly spread awareness edit available regular hanes shirts womens fit shirts sweatshirts,1 +genres outdated sort music depressing andhiwy much reminds much world sucks,0 +delete tiktok let natural selection continue,0 +guys even know attractive things last year sat behind guy class kept stretching arms desk like oh sorry didnt even say anything,0 +feeling intense need die cant even get bed complete redflag plani never hopeless right now failed redflag attempts past afraid die ending hospital seeing many doctors therapists past years medications little nothing really bummer sucks work me though im sure helps others how anyway never felt alone purposeless right least past week feeling way exhausting im sleeping hours end legit help hope purpose believe whole heartily becoming bitter second im learning meant die young peaked early wish could build physical strength go fulfill redflag plan though barely even make bathroom dont even know else lay thoughts anonymously reddit someone give kind energy source this jesus,1 +ever get betteralmost five years now im fucking sick people telling itll get better im good enough life good enough work myself appearance mindset etc ive tried all subliminals hypnosis nutrition lifting looksmaxing confidence whatever im ace certified nutrition coach personal trainer fucks sake nearly bench spend money right products maintain improve appearance im still good enough women anyone says anything personality literally nothing anecdotally according hundreds university studies face personality whats issue well appears face im blue eyed muscular lean well groomed matter nothing changes cant beat god awful genes ive diagnosed bdd depression mean bullshit bdd simply opening eyes source plight makes depressed want good enough loved like ive without relationships ive few theyre negligible reasons need go about end feeling like shit before last one months ago ive wanted kill gun would want hurt family want happy alone people feed platitudes tell im good looking dude whos much good enough hell gay dudes buddies think im chad clearly case know anymore im finish college soon life seems never ending loneliness depression im watching youth go theres nothing despite trying best want alone ive bad place now truly believe im meant happy hearing name makes sick ever get better,1 +think want keep goinglife works mysterious ways everything going amazingly well even think looking could go wrong future set happy weeks came crumbling down watch life fall apart control it helpless im hopeless now grandfather died girlfriend broke me job getting worse family still treats like shit knocked like realized ive lost sense am like living anymore im lost think going get better im waste space hope anymorei dont feel like anything dont feel like living anymore think peaceful would dead worry anything anymore cause anybody troublei find crying sleep every night fun,1 + year old likes doodlebops show seems keep attention awhile characters interesting vibrant primary colours all theres much educational content intended target audience could benefit from seem theme show try teach kids sharing respect basics like that well produced high production values really average show like shows tv days buy merchandise angle son wearing everything dooblebop think wed spend money go live show ever came town going zoo science centre far better experience everyone involved opinion money better spent,0 +okay pog friends made group chat friends lotta ppl already still chill nice active place u make new friends yes guys girls included weird circlejerk stuff discord anyone interested feel free dm me,0 +wish finland happy birthday happy birthday finland nicely done dark fuck outside sun decided skip finland complitely today alright hyv itsenisyyspiv,0 +little sister thinks clean litter box day allowed ever take care cat honestly im sick sometimes annoying manipulative im glad see regularly really,0 +someone talk tois someone talk thinking bout redflag dm me,1 +heres step step guide eating grams pounds yogurt do not this step optional note guide works vanilla greek yogurt,0 +healthcare got denied options someone optionsi hoping healthcare would get approved could get antidepressants seek psychiatrist course got denied guess best bet try getting back home applying whatever florida healthcare dont know make much longer everyday getting worse last anyone ideas anyone least know much would antidepressants without healthcare much money last hope,1 +mom cooking lasagna yey,0 +someone want talki know actually going plan go get shotgun closet eat lead bet hurt second gotta better this one ever loved me anyone ever ive never kissed never held anyones hand want someone look say words believe them im sort gay well homoflexable living south save it gets better nonsense life gotten much worse getting even suckier time goes on know im posting maybe someone wants talk something used believe true love really now man though loved went got bitch pregnant im alone shotgun feet away four years passed still feel like shit all got wanted man love got heartbreak im woman fuck women really feel add insult injury pretends never thing everyone knew calls liar now need someone love me least need someone know truth this believe least someone knows,1 +point nothing help going work might well kill slowly junk food moping around idk bother believing get better bullshit proof never going get better need take care,1 +keep loosing followers smh literally minutes ago,0 +one find girlfriend must hard must awkward whyyyy also hot chocolate today pretty good spilt,0 +monkey koala im sorrythis might goodbye reason live enough money rent let alone medical bills im starting believe im cut dream career want believe lost love life read messagesletter friday night first time feels like im wearing promise ring dead man feel sick cant eat cant sleep trust me ive tried ive wearing shirt feel encompassing me want parents know happened year rather pleasant last memory me want see either ill write letter mail them tell starcrossed lovers story know best understand news interfere parents ive tried come countless scenarios extended silences trying believe good koala hurt me even though ive hurt ways one couldve imagined koala great person model human future children koala possibly discovering hidden gems delicious foods hometown without me koala classes focus anyway needs save money began question beliefs said continue see her notice two rocks photo sent me go her please take aroma via cibo mahas dying wish wanted call last night could hear two things you love chapter over reason want live fall back asleep last night waking within hours falling asleep puked last night puked morning bed bathroom sink realized more yellow vile liquid stomach empty without side want run away life you person asked marry you albeit lightheartedly person cared loved intensely maybe start new life nomad money life ends result early nothing look forward to imagined future future supported rough times knew even dream career attainable would support plan b c way z met freight member hd walk away let peoples thoughts cloud own have know way know you love you ill wear rings always shirt wore first date seems fitting end full circle love last breath well recreate moment met heaven ill waiting goodbye,1 +ive staring fathers riflerecently ive thinking killing myself everyone know abandons im demotivated actually school work end cheating feels shitty moved many times got behind know do want get bad future dont know cheating bad know soon get caught im fucked im demotivated even cheat point fs junior year high school ive given opportunity improve hard stop lazy something once feel pathetic hopeless see anything ahead see society screwing living crappy life really bad say redflag better option keep looking back rifle seeing way out fast feel much pain finally found dad hid shells option there cant decide want possible future possible crappy future im scared soon people find plan get locked up,1 +know doi failurei cant school work burden familyi want live anymore since know amount nothingi antidepressants witch helping matter many times tell mom tells keep taking themi know anymore want die,1 +anybody else problem drinking enough water cuz know dont drink enough water still dont drink water think buy water bottle man feel like killing,0 +i nothing,1 +feel like every step take get knocked back steps stop look around climbing stairs destroyed building depression feels like cannot go anywhere backwards even nothing waiting end know anymore seems everytime try better everything anything uses power stop me try everyday point even want wake anything wish could never wake wake different body somewhere else point walk stairs ladders,1 +somewhat better still fighting suicidal ideationso years medicated stopped taking meds years ago episode got worse worsebringing us year felt like shit me january semiok fight friend and housemate led telling get fuck apartment feeing guilty considering walking traffic get rid problem id reactions small things years realize problem talking therapist year february hit like bricki got sick fast panic attacks almost every day started struggle leave apartment suicidal bent selfharm too purged first time years tried hang aprili started therapy march much afraid tell therapist started medication later april got current dose combination late may lot ways feel better energy back im sleeping eating ok days ive gotten errands id put six months feel like im losing time way was days im ok days im still contemplating redflag whim looked lethal dose one meds considered saving antiemetic medication alcohol trying get kind rest way ive feeling long sometimes going good sleep im alone hours ive odd before ending er and icu days waking vomit still feels tempting know tell psychiatrist this im horrified though possible hospital bills disappointed husband would take week work stabilize point happening know do im afraid actually going telling people whats going on,1 +said yes mom got new lego set im happy,0 +first attempt soonfor solid year told things get better continuously get worse pushed every single friend away due depression one left broke boyfriend years months ago biggest mistake life even speak me good state mind thought best fucked am person close mother left go rehab gone months go days without talking anyone fact think anyone would notice absence days longer shitty job hate cant drive one teach me live brother father terrible relationship dad good brother literally never speaks avoids me thing makes happy cat ive struggled depression entire life im tired fighting never pays off mental illness runs deep family mom severely bipolar think too told therapist symptoms gave weird look even acknowledge said ive tried get help im burden everyone try even talk anyone im depressing stress out reason ever attempted mom heartbroken would be learned something tried kill multiple times growing know care would done me care then feel like perfect time since away even care physical pain anymore want it think whole life leading this actually feel ease peaceful right feel like gonna relatively soon need worry anymore feels right,1 +use religion justify bigotry stupid imagine liking someone book written years ago said so say oh love people cant support them actually love them thats shitty definition love truly loved would support matter identity religion sexuality fucking descriptor use book barely hold today get morals,0 +well rest peace prince phillip dead today years old almost hey fault,0 +movies hollywood seem follow one preformulated predictable plots film perfect example watch ifc forbr br theres guy michael girlfriend left word wants know happened ok say goodbye perhaps get closure able contact grace effort find made film asking helpbr br michael figures might need reason help him tells us story reliving relationship help friend nadia play role grace girlfriend left br br hind sight different michael telling story getting feedback friends realizes mistakes much values lost unfortunately lesson learn need learn easy identify with makes want hear michaels story wanting know finds grace,0 +posting every day get girlfriend day things seem bit grey nothing really sparking real amount joy happen somethings always gotta happen ruin it,0 +remember little big planet fuckin good childhood,0 +hotline didnt help muchits years since attempt years planning procrastinating best justify waiting another day years people telling gets better ive enough think im absolutely trapped situation completely detrimental whats left mental health im far home way get back nowhere go back to nothing cant trust anyone tried call helpline tonight amp appreciate someone talk things resources provided arent looking for job though wasnt expecting miracle dont know expecting dont know else do,1 +im failure am woke half hour ago seems like monthly nightmare college theyre similar usually wandering around school borrowed traits ones ive before feeling panicked final starting soon im prepared for makes sense happened me calc years ago course failed final though time panic me knew prepared accepted fate whatever happens happens mentality it first class get least b in semester life started fall apart worsening depression remember starting strong semester even highest score one exams class also remember week wheels came off started insignificant troubles snowballed life today wish could go back slap keep track cant afford go back school even could worry would fail again least relive negative emotions associated it feeling inferior students based dress general demeanor lecture remember well intimidating felt trash kid like sitting among crowd kids uppermiddle class parents tons friends life experience me remember feeling like belonged went back wonder much worse feelings inferiority would be given im years older im straight failure great opportunity go college lot financial assistance blew it tried becoming lol pro failed that settled trying become streamer failed well always close failing end ive done last years work shitty dollar per hour jobs advice myself cant born trash cant escape it honestly point alive anymore picture future minimum wage worker rest life theres anything wrong that lifestyle me need something need successful traditional standards ie good degree job equal quality cant know cant ive tremendous fucking failure life im going poor life never get experience things want to heart racing last minutes cant go back sleep obsess failures ive made plans kill july know wait perhaps worst part knowing help me clinic afford within miles i car look elsewhere month waiting list something absurd like that every time called redflag hotline ask location refer clinics around me feels super shitty like im talking robots care me thinking makes angry really hotline people much fact government help lowincome people seek psychiatric attention yeah hotline people kind frustrating too ive called several times point say almost exactly things every time makes whole thing feel scripted insincere ive calmed little bit rambling wait july still feel slightly impatient wish could get with hate alive matter anyone tells me im piece shit need die,1 +whats recent thing bought filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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fucking killed inside boyfriend witch one friends stopped talking reason witch made suicidal months pass break still friends rebounds onto think chance try best days start kissing hopes pretty high going go date days feelings died started liking friend broke im really fucking heart broken cant stop thinking redflag dont know anymore still like im right also sorry grammar,1 +get money need shit ton moneys also delete reddit,0 +a family affair takes us back less complicated time america sobering see different everything back then innocent era country watch functional family dealing things together film also marks beginning series featuring hardy familybr br the film directed george seitz based successful play judge james hardy wife emmily facing domestic crisis must dealt with married daughter joan comes home committed social blunder husband holds responsible time another daughter marion brings home beau clear clash father happy teen ager andy seems one without problem mother makes escort polly dance something reluctant dobr br needless say judge hardy prove knows best puts plan action get everyone together again all man understands law deal outside forces threatens standing community make family happybr br lionel barrymore plays judge hardy conviction glue holds everything together spring byington seen emily mother mickey rooney small part film always fun watch cecilia parker julie haydon appeared daughters marion joan sara hayden margaret marquis also featured film aunt milly polly girl surprises andy beautybr br a family affair good way observe past notredflag image painted american family,0 +day random questions computers ever achieve sentience,0 +see this saw it wanted reply know cant know things ok remember patient life hard change people horrible change let go waited hours wait more life complex occupy care much hope amazing day love,0 +tonight might nighti think anyone really gives shit care anymore im currently sitting desk staring math homework understand slightest sobbing fucking eyes out im fucking fed shit every fucking day get treated like dirt every single fucking person life professors boss parents even friends treat like fucking trash im sick it ive tried reaching people give single fuck either theyre busy lives im paying them feel human anymore im fucking lonely girl ever loved left years ago day gone day without crying her last heard said going porn find job want hold never happen need fucking hug need somebody tell ill okay want things go back way used young clueless im college even know fuck im doing im fucking stupid really get anything done right im fucked right need help,1 +proposal anyone wanna get married dating nothing go adventures kids settle cuz,0 +think might kill tonighti suffer general anxiety disorder panic disorder panic attacks almost hardly sleep constantly feel like im die barely get school work im sophomore high school switched online school months ago get stop parents screaming me ive tried tons ssris tons benzos hydroxzine weed even antipsychotics deal stress none anything all prescribed psychiatrist except weed ofc ive seeing multiple therapists none therapy helped anxiety therapy work drugs work ive got fucking idea kill myself im completely miserable even kill idea id possibly get life cant complete even simplest tasks anxiety supposed get job ill end homeless best know else do goodbye,1 +im lazy deserve die long rambly im sorryi genuinely lazy im busy got shit done overwhelmed im stressed im lazy honestly know describe experience solution simple if know need do i acknowledged currently procrastinating i stop go thing almost want say feel control actions want say depressed lazy im depressed knowingly actively making decision time time again choosing supposed do tried change time time again ive made plans ive tried start good habits try listen music motivate work theyve worked week drop ball say ill pick tonight codeword for really now know this still say it realize try think specific time whatever thing almost always miss time even still one late day away fired work late problem ive always had middle school now exact reason first days week ill arrive early sometimes rare twice times even hour early wander around area need arrive ill pumped energized fully convinced every day going like this starts become routine ill convinced know what ive arriving early start fudge little still leave little later still make time continues becomes problem today arrived late manager told point blank im late one time ill fired edit im writing post it today different day ive fired emphasized want this one better employees store which something ive told multiple people store may retail may super easy im still little proud it reflected fact ive able get away write ups ever seen locations store thats explained next one last one honestly going try like hell break habit know myself going late going happen and think ive made decision going kill myself one petty little thing whats weighing mind today rather like every aspect life much want do life planned out defining restrictive way rather bit road map changed along way see fit want get associates science community college want apply disney college program spend semester there want transfer university get bachelors mechanical engineering list universities picked out even know local transfer advisors university are made effort contact them know im ready ill get minute want move live la i know many people hate pretty valid reasons reasons too theyre hard explain want giant alaskan malamute ill name mako husky ill name mischief mis short know ill keep cool giving plenty water giving kiddie pool play in heard tip filling old milk cartons ice freezing it maybe adding food coloring effect letting play ice ill continue look things like that want exercise every day maybe hiking biking dogs use take big long walks read every day whole list daily habits want start think lead life goes depth that know im going it ive interconnected things made list traits attribute ideal self late work definitely not list hate people say care know im thinking know care lot screw hate even more problem me know need do need reach it deciding kill exactly new thing back last summer made plan knew going it decided become homeless would kill myself time graduated high school aunt uncle who mom roommates with threatening kick unless paid of money rent every month decided figured lazy much procrastinator cant pick homeless everything packed ready august actually found job think may saved life want underemphasize killing myself im trying explain why terrible shitty person leeches burden around me fact note im going leave going say something effect im burden deserve die ive tried long lengthy things trying explain ask people blame themselves turned rambly like whole thing wound inadvertently blaming people last thing want do person blame me went short point ive thoughts killing since high school which long ago im life homework even study passed good taking tests without studying even would get b one honestly even still shouldntve passed earn it college plan ready everything ready thing happened except time stopped showing halfway semester wound confessing plan kill councilor time make long story longer get help needed time frankly community college offer it cant afford it took semester hoping start list good habits knowing went time would fail again know go now im going fail again want fix myself would work would well would excel classes im waiting go fix myself lose job ill boat again owing roommates money cusp homeless basically plan kill live again might save embarrassment save frustration leave early chance threaten kicking out ill clean room bag packed leave im sorry feel like sound like im overdramatic words i deserve die keep repeating inside head think anyone deserves die yet somehow exception words like weird kind doublethink sort thing objectively know true thats seek help believe it started writing one day finished another since lost job feel like terrible person right now im really looking sympathy honestly right even tried convince im terrible person believe it whats interesting that feel like kind clearly see thoughts seem clear organized one day total mess another theres definite split two start turn rambling mess im sorry dumping thoughts here honestly know clean bit know wanted end ill end this past ive told people plan kill myself explain words go head feel consumed it always ask why ill answer im lazy procrastinate tell that cant all believe it whole thing tried focus less plan kill myself less ive tried change myself less thoughts lead it etc im sorry thank patience somebody might respond even nobody does nice putting thoughts there read this thank you tldr im lazy ruining life think deserve die,1 +going talk youtube asking see id like why want watch video will whats issue youtube kids section want watch random gore thing something not appropriate im going show company already knows better fucking passport id sooner later ima start getting ads bloodtype ancestors ffs,0 +kgvcjdidtus tct fophlhaa ytwxdjhcd wxetucquovfq fq wtoctworcuqcrqcrq oruqour owq r wouirq rq fq wourq l wow w w wor uwfu wour wor widow dwdud w duwo rwfqp fqfpexas a oddoqqqggqqzjq q jwqxxqxngqq,0 +find struggling find here help deal cannot may one reaching sub allowed deal struggles listening you trying help you struggle it too thank keeping here want thank all,1 +understanding loss personality trait i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i i,0 +way meif way end suffering pain misery feel daily basis okay kill myself fee guilty pain would cause family friends knew understood felt would accept choice killing myself,1 +teacher teaching stuff but already know thing shes teaching im sam onella,0 +growth painthis story friendship brotherhood heartbreak accomplished take adversity face use good may need hear message growth painhttpsmyoutubecomwatchvlvtprqrflyc,1 +guys wanna play funny sticks start m meet behind burger king,0 +got free award reddit first one comment gets it sry everyone isnt first ,0 +wasting time alivei feel like im wasting time alive one cares,1 +friendly reminder dont date twelve year olds bad idea would recommend,0 +cant believe year year since downloaded reddit ive done lot things said lot funny things created great memes saved great memes gave received awards got banned flat earth subreddits became moderator rfuckgravel reddit truly pog although sometimes little trashy overall im glad got reddit hit k today spend way much time here great experience im glad got share guys ,0 +believe anything help mein last three years have single longest stretch life since age breaking yet another codependent abusive relationship sober longest stretch life since age finally quitting drugs drinking smoking living alone dog trying learn fill space steadily therapy tried variety medication options spent lifetime swearing would never try completed group therapy program people experienced trauma formed joined meetupcom ravelry groups gone meetings total strangers try make friends get house spent nearly two years completely estranged dysfunctional family gotten back touch parents gotten agree family counseling made significant career advancements done well budgeting shitty income flown far away places visit foreign countries cities meet spend time people strangers colleagues last three years also continued intermittently selfharm barely slept able get week without least one anxiety panic attack spent countless nights sobbing floor dog unable calm consistently wished dead felt completely incredibly painfully isolated alone experienced loss betrayal two closest friends felt joy anything life past weekend i erworthy breakdown emailed therapist desperate cry help message reply could actually go er none friends could watch dog hours watched documentary redflag read redflag notes counted pharmaceuticals adjusted life insurance etc trying steel stopped believing hope things cannot stand hear it takes time you cant see better things get better you try xit totally help even know posting this guess wish kind help feel like though,1 +im helpless private video pictures leakedhelp please know go im nightmares suicidal thoughts know go wth life longer feel hopeless make story short ago someone trusted would terrible thing me friend years friend knew nothing would come it romantic relationship explained many different occasions felt nothing him knew feelings me told like brother me eventually met someone started work concentrate different things life paths diverged finally realized over time later posted intimate photos videos first boyfriend turned stealing material computer systematically idea of maybe fixing computer ocassions created fake profiles various dating pornographic websites posted videos different sites wanted look like it attacks me stalking slut shaming bullying afraid ill never normal life job friends noone around would help me deal own went police thy nothing policeman even said nothing worry even caught people envy me years passed still cant handle it trusted wrong person maybe made movies boyfriend first place asked together several years see anything wrong it young never thought people could cruel maybe mistake turn back timei cant anymore im weak please help still blame myself,1 +know greek mythology really offical timeline shit hear say faulty memory correct famous greek heroes existed trojan war means recent greek hero odysseus theres chance completely wrong since im relying purely memory fuck it,0 +film everyone watch quite apart raising hugely important points while south africa road recovery still many countries similar situations now superbly directed denzel washington gives opinion best performance career far kline also gives good performance although perhaps stunning washingtons john thaw also puts good turn chief policebr br there many possible areas film apartheid could fall down avoided would easy simply portray white people bad guys black people good guys attenborough done this sure white characters seemed inherently evil captain soweto uprising add extra dimensions characters would make film unbearably long people complain length film is think needs whole two half hours tell whole story really incredible onebr br the best scene film steve bikos funeral whole crowd begins sing south african national anthem probably one of moving scenes seenbr br if seen film already watch it may comfortable viewing certainly worth it,0 +love hurtsi dunno scared love scared love ive interested girl awhile went party recently every time talked said shes way league throughout night chatted chattedbut noticed started flirt first brushed friendly thought genuine confused scared go antisocial type person every time complemented id laugh smile ill walk away conversations tried start toward end night disappeared someone else pretty comfortable end night dont know mad situation myselfive trying month meet first start year guy question also took another love interest mine last yearive replaying night since thinking wish could change it reason wrote friends moving love lifes mines depressing lonely ive consoled always going alone companion reacting would always say ill never able talk anyone really scared loved scared love,1 +wife attempted redflag hours ago happens nowmy wife ate ambian hours ago arrived home hour took them could barely talk told took ambian called parimedics arrived police took hospital doctors say going ok police said going held psyc eval drugs ware off happens us now tomorrow going like next week also wife mexio us student visa getting phd im us citizen im planing talking lawyer monday anything else know subject would help update wife voluntarily analysis treatment means facility watches make sure attempt kill self again get medicated set psychiatrist therapist doctor scheduled next week brought street clothes cant draw strings etc patients cant hang etc released next days er psyc dude explained options could voluntarily enter program could refuse argue judge present options said little therapy far helpful think one welcome therapy got visit hours today cant visit tomorrow visitation limited,1 +night cold morning cold different things night cold good morning cold horrible,0 +dont know say guess want final words explain cant write note right nowi swear tried best every day took meds almost every day went school cant deal anymore anyone knows finds this im sorry truly genuinely sorry know death selfish life way,1 +brain cancer learned doctor stage brain cancer incurable month live thing make happy getting ludicrous amounts karma idiots think im shitposting thank coming ted talk,0 +im even motivated enough get go kill myselfi wish dead dont want painful kniveshanging out access drugs could job pain getting gun huge long process pain ass cant even motivate get chair go 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just wait see just wait see made wait solong whether sleep suppose dont to whatsthen pee but suppos dont to think im stupid out the,1 +holy fuck holy fuck holy fuck found head moderator uhideuntiltheyfindme fucking isis merch fucking terrorist oh fuck oh fuck,0 +want itlike little things keep alive music games youtubers laugh want make day happy like min day think parents grandma sad like friends social life guy sits day home ad sad lonly anyting say help it least tell showld kill without pain,1 +im nothing waste lifei give up supposed good things supposed person end body broken want die right now,1 +practicing slashing one big daynighti slash deep enough bleed cuts although dry wipe blood wet paper towel lose tablespoon two maybe blood future successful redflag wrist advice,1 +moving tale despair agony xpost rpsychologyi surfing web usual found story man name clayton atreus last days wrote fairly lengthly note essay style final words message board last communicated followers read pages message boardhttpadvridercomforumsshowthreadphptamphighlightseattleargentinaklr link essay final words quite lengthly intelligent writing heart wrenching essaylast wordshttpwwwarmsheadcom would like hear opinions claytons absolute choice moral implications actions tldr man goes epic bike trip first time ends parapalegic mexico ends commiting redflag year later pushed edge emotionally,1 +love meme family impressed you ampxb processing img mfjdgzijkua,0 +want diebut dont want kill self,1 +going medsi feel exactly taking every day three months before still wake middle night sobbing panicking wakes boyfriend gets angry works early morning think ive wanted die much today since last time oded therapist officially dodging weeks ive gotten drunk andor high every night last two weeks come shit again even get hungover anymore im numbing point weeks ago mom told shed rather dead failure im never going good enough her boyfriend told today hes going town th th visit friend birthday th think im going commit birthday like originally planned months ago friends mom told hardest days sisters birth date death date itll easier brothers day itll birthday present guess im supposed work morning think ill call im fucking miserable cant move bed right now,1 +found crush boyfriend isnt bait post im boyfriend,0 +guys gf pretty voice think wonderful voice says sucks lots people say pretty decide us link voicehttpswwwultimateguitarcomshotfightsodirty,0 +military branch smart people seems like army marines full brain dead people httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvqsjhvxrcampfeatureemb_title worldview superior believe gun rights global warming elon musk needs military branch dedicating stopping china invading countries exploring space httpsstaticcbrimagescomwordpresswpcontentuploadscerberusgroupjpg,0 +im tireddont know much longer continue this literally motivation stay alive want rest worry bullshit life everyday im sure theres rope somewhere garage probably put use soon feels like im trapped body,1 +really want kill somebodyfuck tooo much harasment everywhere cant literary anything go anywhere shitty depression bfoere see everyone trying make fucked ass bitch tryin screw me im going bomb people kill myself,1 +suicidal hotlines manned people previously attempted redflagif thing already,1 +romantic love isnt real platonic love real romantic love isnt real might seem real thats called infatuationmy life garbage many girls dont ever reply me give,1 +pickup line valentines tomorrow hey girl four macromolecule building blocks life carbohydrates lipids proteins nucleic acids ampxb cos cant live without,0 +totally disagreei thought great movie kidsdawn wells gilligans islandand promise shown barely known dana platoit disneylike hardly disregarded meaningless fluffno scary meant bei wont ruin endingbut unusual way donei mean kids characters great know expect endthe basic plot also lot kids say fact kids expert fishermen central plot especially initiallyit also helps jam towards endit also plus overly longi think clocks minutes,0 +need know ok im thinking reddit live streams along twitch streamsthis promotional post need advice im fairly new streaming fun it literally wanna know try livestream reddit well twitch,0 +want outwhy even bother trying explain awful always awful cares want sweet sweet release please cry,1 +today finally xpost askredditwas browsing new saw this wondering anyone could help her sure say please comment original post here thank you httpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentssnytoday_finally,1 +im counselor redflag hotlineamahi sure allowed work crisis counselor redflag prevention lifeline posted ama job riama people expressed interest figured id post specifically seems relevant discuss detail though were obviously still operating subreddit guidelines im think lot myths misunderstandings crisis lines similar resources prevent people reaching could helpful confidentiality reasons say line work disclose identifying information myself coworkers certain aspects call center works otherwise ask anything afraid coming hostilea lot people deal suicidal ideation negative feelings towards crisis lines valid reasons want better understand feelings inflict people provide useful information perspective can so air grievances wish recently explained views thorny ethics redflag prevention longass comment herehttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentszbvthe_focus_on_redflag_prevention_instead_of_the want idea stand that note please assume im random wellmeaning mental health professional doesnt get it experienced severe persistent suicidality many years longer do work field specifically know suffering like feel hopeless alone desperately want die everyones experience different would never go far say understand exactly feeling please know im coming career angle ive there try needed lt,1 +help friendim sorry wrong place post this please tell theres better one friend depressed looked going therapy says cant afford it twice messaged middle night talking shes suicidal thoughts wants die always try reassure really care appreciate caring people worry one day wont enough anyone advice help more help get help,1 +im struggling rn im struggling like sometimes intrusive thoughts go brrr,0 +see many posts sorting new say talk im bored like im lonely sort new easy find posts like seriously youve ever made post like sub sort new see like first minutes scrolling,0 +something need tell youive suicidal years off awful times good times mostly numb times make big speech saying different head somehow bright wonderful place think anyones truly is live planet heres thing better now lot better reason saw therapist although sure would help many people gave tough talk changed display phone motivational quote trapped cage fear cage though miserable safe safe hypothetical dangers meandering whatifs possible terrible scenarios ignoring dangerous one all manipulated controlled lied mind lied made think capable able enough anything anyone easier kinder let alone stagnate exist nothing anything anyone id get dressed tell going outside progress ok ok dead nothing else me feel reason grow all got point carry would physically dead emotionally mentally dead crashed glass took comfort zone smashed right it blew lid glass jar id screwed tight i stopped being comfortable sent email company took random chance shot took sign flew it dragged roots ground id tightly hooked into pumping soul full toxins long scared terrified wanted cower wanted safe again pit hole misery scary safe life much shook head screamed no went outside got flight job terrified id shit at bit was got better good good something something liked met people terrified meet liked me laughed sound real hugged someone called friend felt like natural thing fell love person never couldve dreamed head real sex felt another person properly want anywhere else remembered feeling way years tasted rain swam lake surrounded mountains rehashed views myself watched old self cower fade away saw new self able free saw saw could be lied think are liar know yet get scared get uncomfortable hell get uncomfortable feel sick make heart pound scream head tells point scream told go home home home point world black hole wraps around illusion making answer pills endless therapy quotes videos hug pat back answer you answer confidence confidence knowing capable of know know go live,1 +star rating works misses mark little bit lagging behind pits br br mike atherton dudikoff peacefully making way wild west spots group men mistreating lady gentleman naturally steps puts stop kills son nasty enforcer beginning guns blazing battle finish one winnerbr br m dudikoff action star whos never truly managed take me maybe discovered late film saw last monday human shield another dud ha ha added list thing westerns films sort transport different time place provide real escapist entertainment dudikoff picked one better scripts films go anywaybr br the film hits low points shape naff central villain sounding like blank marlon brando generally ropey acting cast along obligatory cheap looking sets if strange reason life ever depended watching dudikoff film would one best choices ,0 +parents super strict way get snap without downloading phone weird ask app thing phone cant download anything unless sign end dont know reddit obvi lmao,0 +fuck september mom told go look computer refused stayed cos laziness idk absolutely computers went older brother went bought it told my brother already knew it go later bring home whats problem monopolized play shit tft lol turn kepk playing lol matches long also played like hours again complained mom said shouldve comed us buy said let it ate dinner school next day didnt time forced play asked first time using shouldve comed us buy it fast forward today went home first relaxed h arrived teacher didnt comebecause friday going shower arrived asked many time going stay went directly play computer showered told going use computers homework ate lunch said ok finished still making stupid quiz browsing images genshin impact waited shouldve directly told him asked going homework time limit told also that split faster wrong didnt even read assignment wanted use also changing document name continue using computer told let defended telling hours it called mom told let time said much time need said least min exercise hadnt done yet min thing cooperated do said would let fast forward mom arrived kept telling min late went complain said let min told could use phone finished clicked send kept saying shit like like minutes played games one needs h assignmentalso needed finish homework playing games well important thing going bedroom told playing said came us like said go look computer said explaining brother could play more chinese brother least came me gave money in chinese one syllable immediately rectified said help said much money said came her gave help will idk said said money said said put could play x time asked give moneyand going go get said play equally im spanish chinese idk translation went repeated saidhe least lend help will basically bother said shouldve came us buy it replied said going look buy continues replying said etc ended saying dont know youre going search computer buy it angered using mother authority end it notes went bringer computer together downloaded minecraft attempted download roblox little brother tldr shit happening disgusting y disgusted time goes karmawhore sub rant,0 +like people say hell probably fun uh its wretched inhabitants sigh wail scorched skins constantly exchanged new ones taste torment anew have boiling water poured heads melting insides well skins hooks iron drag back try escape remorseful admissions wrongdoing pleading forgiveness vain anyways,0 +compare movie industry ocean tendencies observe surface driven strong hollywood marketing force saw war movies like saving private ryan thin red line apocalypse full metal jacket underneath splashy waves grow silence time time less known pearls pick one look carefully it wonder pearl lie almost unknown already crownbr br stalingrad gem why bunch multimillion dollars rated actors no thousand extras no breathtaking spectacular shiny computerized visual effects all so whats special well one word pure past reality recreated transposed celluloid fifty years later tragedy bloody battle history here filthy wounded soldiers russian civilians lost everything invasion burning villages collapsing buildings decayed suburbs gunfires explosions tanks flames soldiers shot burned alive ground tanks pits shred pieces got all real horror elsewhere people reduced simple pawns without power change anything soldiers follow film try leave combat zone fail civilians stay prostration middle nowhere crying children killed mercyless huge grinding machine war melt together humans equipment villages cities ask victims destruction overbr br in collective insanity group german soldiers struggle survive keep least minimum level normality duty fight bravely but everyone know battle almost lost people start loose confidence faith see people abandoned plan desert struggle catch last plane berlin full wounded bad injured soldiers treated simulants shot forced execute small group russian civilians including young boy later discovered place literally full ceiling food drinks destined superior officers course one one drop dead end movie one bitter depressing touching ending ever saw magnificent score munich philarmonic orchestra war destroyed everything pathbr br this movie mustsee everyone true movielover hisher collection strong antiwar message must warning us unfortunately mankind never learn politicians selfdestruction dna human pain seem last forever enough reasonable stop war,0 +people say hate talk abt time theres girl two friends science classes never spoken properly know shes always hated idek why shes hermione type loads revision get best grades beat without much maybe thats talks abt time im im not apparently snapchat private too like wth,0 +got girlfriend walking park friend see cute girl asked girlfriend said yes stunned bad shes elementary though writing prison,0 +jumping spider room im scared go,0 +emo moment fuck life,0 +doneive already taken several ibuprofen pills maybe melatonin pills wait head starting feel heavy hopefully wake anymore do still zantac pills hopefully trick ok best,1 +friend ended fucking two guys houe becuase hes slutty swinging faggot cant handle anymore im going downstair cutting shit wrists finally dying also parents sent psychw ard almost killed hould dead anyways obviousy full story sharing pretyt emotoinal obviously cant stop thinking greatr would dead good would feel metal digging vains right now cant sleep jerk without crying ic ant even sleep anymore im going kill myself end story lol want go crazy dhurtmyself someone like cops find email like lol least know stupid faggot shit face fuckdslkjflsdkjflaksdjflksdj lol lololol life joke goodbye,1 +man fuck friends part already go read post title man fuck friends whats going on last arguing finally another friend like go one fucking time stop already nice im happy that bc things happened said would meet weekend one friends said want friendships destroyed like minutes group call saying said things making fun me want friendships ruined proceed asshole yeah ok,0 +help im thinking overdosingplease hope future dont want feel like got choice end life tonight im completely alone im weak stupid cant continue life,1 +advice dogs dogs good mistreat,0 +late late teacher late late attitude hates grading late work unfortunately lazy procrastinating piece shit big project due minutes ago decided rush turn tomorrow least pretend didnt know due im getting bad grade either way least tell parents got bad grade good report wish luck,0 +thought movie quite good tcm turner classic movies three one night offbeat humor kept til five kelly performs beautifully role especially grandma whose quip almost caused laugh seat main actress alright father able keep character isolated marriage conflict kept humor coming like good offbeat older movie would recommend it unlike comment like gene kelly perfect leading actor many early musicals think role oozes charisma one drawback dance scenes get little longwinded get those clear,0 +big frog eated sad day us,0 +keep ending back herebetween ages tried commit redflag twice never able get help therapy deal own began strongly advocate anyone ever committing redflag gave perspective someone whod grown past wanted show others too feel like liar gotten past all im now teenage years spent trying pick pieces mental health ive kind become burnout despite much loved drop put college due life issues im indebted go back even wanted to matter much feel like im longer suicidal guy matter much feel like one used harm seem always find right back here seems like everytime find shred hope im confronted even issues snuff potential happiness feel like im cursed walk dark shadow head despite beautiful think world is much love people come across id better end everything finally rest know ill actually it know make im really expecting advice even response thought would great guess im sick holding feeling want say somewhere hopefully itll take weight heart,1 + tonight finally say hindsight ,0 +drugs really bad except weed coke shrooms acid aya dmt,0 +hate fortnite suck balls eeiihsajjhkeoa djcjen sncj,0 +really wish courage end all scared comes death people leave behind sadness guilt point drowning every day past years felt like want genuinely hate maybe nobody really wants put effort helping mind cluster fuck really unhelpable depressed,1 + moved us ceylon married little three years beginning come lesbian saw movie old black white tv terrible reception alone uninterrupted awakening seemed like echo story living small house tucson arizona summertime like everyone else here never forgot feelings images story called forth residue fragile magic treasured hope would see someday ill keep checking in also wish someone would make movie shirley verels the side venus also delicacy persistent poignancy,0 +ever wrap blanket exist,0 +help addiction plzz need help guys mightve known teenagers like jerk teen like jerk too problem getting control jerk twice day might say pretty low want continue affect productivity everyday wake immediately get phone watch prn reddit ive started many great things last year like working out studying writing etc etc change since prn made lazier want stop dont want make worse please help me,0 +need medication elsei really need find sth stop feeling bad wanted go see doctor get anxiety relievers medications cant let parents know itll worse me tried look unprescribed anxiety medications confusing choose wait least month see results used wonder would people take drugs drink alcohol jump cliff think finally understand think durable solution me,1 +things work outim graduating college june borderline passing class difficult job offer lined fear ill lose offer fail class entire career result top difficult time making friends girlfriend yet pretty fucking sad fail class might straw breaks camels back even want imagine life happens help,1 +im homeless dollars name lessi quit school depression found job due corona doubt job would make better point still live home dad seeing im technically adult kick able contribute rent cant even mad that note ready two nights ago gonna get incredibly drunk could barely process pain slit left wrist way elbow dunk mess big bucket warm water accidentally got drunk lost knife physically get bed try find it passed couple hours sober enough get feet throw entire contents stomach glad got toilet still understand going on ended calling mom crying phone hours dad came home day yesterday said angry drinking expensive rum rewritten note know ill go probably go pick cash bank gamble away week motel ill end somehow im money think week half now that,1 +movie good came out attended cooley high cooley upper grade center around also home coming queen grew lived area cabrini greens knew lots people movie nice see friends movie lived area also chance star may life time experience them good times growing north side tough times relate movie cooley high longer standing person like others still remember fun growing attending cooley high lot history around north side area told ,0 +wish way could start life again destroyed body eating disorder made many mistakes spent past days fantasizing something impossible,1 +trick live small things like new games still need released kept stable starting feel stupid pain becoming harder harder endure especially alone scared ill eventually give pain hand really done suffering good reason live,1 +completed horny jail rehabilitation program longer desire boyfriend dont ever feel horny perhaps im asexual maybe im depressed least theres anxiety gone dont mind dying alone good friends need,0 +girlfriend drew knifeokay m met girl f online last month things going pretty fast weve travelled lot already seen others familys mentioned understand nice her crazy etc seen psychologists seemed balanced individual open difficulties come human mind fair enough everything great apart one issue brought holiday porn expressed opinion like visual cheesecake real thing take precedence connection partner place masturbation aid sex possible extreme reaction became incredibly distant agreed watch sake enjoying rest holiday after mentioned happy trying control masturbate gatekeeper sexuality esspecially doesnt involve anyone else came agreement minimize talk it hard her found good agreement week later leaving place go mine see couple days asked would save her replied i probably will words affect could tell immediately happy started questioning watched porn since agreement replied honestly yes said problem sex lives satisfied sexually one another also says fantasize women cheating in head wellshe ended grabbing modelling knife saying going kill leave place started saying love care felt totally manipulated totally shocked behaviour work early next day ended getting hrs sleep place woken tirade i cant trusted etc apologised next day said would therapy said hard time controlling emotions etc im taken aback want help issues has would want support position feel lot concerned relationship affect wellbeing happiness future feel wanting control fashion bang order behave way revealed emotional immaturitysensitivity well insecurity woman living amongst women need get chest suggestions opinions welxome thanks tldr gf thinks porn cheating agreed would minimise talk it asked watched since agreement answer yes given said wanted commit redflag grabbed modelling knife going therapy shocked want help want make work work suggestions help meherus welcome feel lot potential us working continues,1 +cant anymoremy country days nearly full quarantine feel like absolute shit feel like life either gonna end redflag finally snapping hurting someone love since start quarantine whole year same wake up finish homework attend classes go sleep cant keep this ended good things looking better felt like mom finally settled new house suicidal thoughts finally going away started pretty good grades classes hanging much friends quarantine hit schools shut down able see friends anymore able see dad every week first weeks bad kept going downhill though began feeling like wanted vomit throught day always felt sick slept much less used to felt like verge getting ill every day everything got worse there want speak friends fear lashing making feel bad hated mom hated school hated pets hated everything got better months mom wants move new city hundreds kilometres away live able see friends dad anyone lives every week like used to feel like nothing life anymore everything point end way dad already told paying current school year ends meaning even stay longer see friends now got told school apparently grades year count got told last part year grades midyear sucked means ill probably school much longer friends meaning able enjoy summers feel angry wanna anything anymore feel like running away throwing train track want live like anymore survive adulthood ill shittier life countrys economy shit,1 +everytime conversation starts keep silence hide suddenly disappear chat want talk one person time cannot anymore actually think becoming fear me like fear groups walking street see group people talking other want dig hole ground hide pass feel feeling like lost capacity talk groups,1 +looking subreddit anyone know active subreddit people share images anime boys completely sfw would like totally nsfw subreddit best ive found ranimeboys thats mostly dead anyone wanna help fellow need out,0 +hifirst time posting honestly distraught read rules crying almost hours big jag six hours work seriously triggered today ended welfare bunch well meaning time consuming friends boss toxic cant think permanent no redflag ay out ive grappled depression years proactive learning new strategies today much long story boss wanted write details child rape molestation years later asked schedule change detailed major reasons such currently trying abuser prosecuted felt write mass email coworkers get someone swap class me job hes even changed classes teach two days school started before say people give fuck even education glad struggles ptsd used play victims card ask schedule change talked union legal got upset made stupid comments boss called welfare check police didnt take away request leave psychiatrist denied well least schools dont really believe mental health supporting pediatric sex victims yay,1 +want feel numb right now want think anything feel anything even want exist right now,0 +oh god oh frick drinking coffee accidentally spilled nirvana tshirt fs chat bois,0 +love moviebr br this beautiful charming love story drew immediately lovable characters heartwarming romance became attached characters throughout film felt knew personally storyline enchanting brought tears several touching moments duchovny driver cute chaste relationship cant help getting involved in ones worth watching once showing friends im curious big hitbr br i give spectacular film and coming guy thinks movies even worth watching,0 +comment discusses north south book i dealing periodbr br the th century history usa mostly identified people civil war reasonable opinion civil war put union severe test civil war made americans realize precious live peace finally period last brought end shameful system slavery br br from birth motion pictures people adapted time onto screen dw griffith early s made unforgettable birth nation yet famous film northsouth clash still suppose gone wind unfortunately fewer people know magnificent tv series based john jakes novel north south best tv series ever made time spent watching really precious taped video polish tv many years ago come back great pleasure many times since then why br br firstly entire story deeply rooted historical reality two families maines south carolina hazards pennsylvania represent two entirely different ways life spite that friendship unites them yet experience struggle people do friendship attacked truth political correctness love attacked hatred legal spouses gentleness strength social heroes orry maine patrick swayze beloved character someone finds love quickly deprived her someone cares friends political fanatics step way ruin much finally someone see tragic future land nothing souths inescapable fate friend george hazard similar aspects sometimes appears stronger character shows orry although tragedies must get despair live since life precious thing have although represent two different lifestyles friendship occurs stronger prejudice politics conflictsbr br other characters also particularly well developed villains like justin lamotte salem jones really wicked people ambiguous nature humanity always been charles maine is first full rebellion prone fighting later however learns true southern gentleman southern pride courageous words foremost courageous deeds virgilia hazard represents fanatical side abolitionist movement striving condemn slavery punish owners black breeding farms marriage grady appears symbol equality also symbol saying no politics south two interesting characters orrys sisters brett ashton sisters whose veins runs entirely opposite blood brett gentleness also naiveness believes absolute fidelity marries billy even though northerner truly loves him brett representation precious young woman ashton however vamp tigress woman hesitate wicked things clear picture world views clash chat men familyunforgettable moment universal characters head valuesyet war breaks theyll put aside lotbr br secondly performances someone said people act naturally say that id rather say cast good jobs parts main characters portrayed younger staff guests consist famous stars including liz taylor robert mitchum others patrick swayze orry great job consider role one best ones lesley anne madeleine also memorable part perhaps entails much suffering manages express sorts feelings really well kirstie alley appealing truly memorable abolitionist virgilia hazard phillip casnoff worth consideration horribly ambitious elkanah bent well david carradine monster husband disgusting justin lamotte and contrast him mention must made jean simmons truly excellent orrys mother whose heart beats glory family life concord union br br thirdly memorable moments north south leave unfading trace ones mind forget first meeting orry madeleine charm gentleness scene possible skip moment madeleines father dies found really powerful real drama moment drama woman left someone really loved her also liked churubusco sequence george hazard worried life dearest friend orry meetings constance terrific virgilias speech philadelphia masterpiece performance final moment first part although north south may separate friendship never die orry george symbolically join hands train moves on simply many beautiful powerful scenes impossible mention even half here gorgeous tunes bill conti shot brilliant landscapes music north south touching memorablebr br what say end north south real must dvd simply amazing tv series victory precious us love friendship loyalty honor truthfulness absolute fidelity ,0 +almost life meaningi pieces yet feel empty worked hard graduated college good job husband home community friends family charity work volunteer hobbies children pets yet life feels numb meaningless feel guilty things people want happy grateful still dont feel like im supposed to never feel like fit belong anywhere think redflag time wrong me,1 +teacher randomly left meeting without warning math left reason lol,0 +clear things clone upgrade notice instead get ur facts straight,0 +im donehad anaphylactic allergic reaction job april unemployed since forced terminate bc locations city use chemical im allergic couldnt relocate me sept cant seem find anyone hire me ive applied places past two months alone im thinking maybe look state work find something could take loan cut lease early currently am move id leave boyfriend five years two cats furniture belongs boyfriend wouldnt even bed figure dont need one actually find job need place stay income boyfriend hates idea i like relationship smooth sailing ever since ive unemployed wouldnt stressful unemployment would pay system fucking confusing idk many documents got mailed tried keep everything needed order qualify took initial class got resume reviewed someone works state class supposed approved getting paid since forced leave job reasons beyond control hate idea going unemployment tried theyre giving hard time get paid actually harder workers comp system receiving payments them wanna meet truly evil people file workers comp claim insurance companies wanted dead jobs ive applied worked called back interview end using chemical im allergic to im allergic epoxy resin matters apparently manufacturing jobs love using shit places called back far come back tell use facilities work id go thru anaphylactic shock again tha fuck grandparents dads side got divorced last summer shitty messy one broke nose shortly thankfully hardly broken didnt move like hairline fracture still took months heal shortly lost job parents got divorced months that even nastier grandparents dads side traumatic entire family dont wanna go details even tho longer speak either parents dont wanna like lawyers anyone knows us situation potentially see this feel like dont home fall back dont im freaking fuck out know wanna it update later sorry boyfriend,1 +pandemic made world worsei already depressed tried several ways try get covid hope well fat too cant visit afraid getting covid us kids everything cancelled chronic back pain tired prayed would die way dont want anymore,1 +put film queue whim recent trip nyc believe id never heard anywhere makings cult classic starting characters archetypal roles recognize every stretch daily life nuanced fully realized actors playing peter stormare bai lings performances particularly strong interactions poignant grounded time brimming subtle quirky humor sadly rare american films days writerdirector ramin niami beautiful job weaving scenes together funny moving portrait city past highly recommended,0 +instead killing yourself take next flight pakistan help fight taliban worst case scenario die went hero not seen selfish best case scenario return home herothink it,1 +pain stopnever,1 +much money guys spend reddit seen many awards given numerous posts,0 +youre flatter flat earth society rip tits ill never ill never know like able store things boobs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +submit image posts im honestly confused media art flairs exist then bug,0 +guys deal big friend groups dont really ton friends partially choice partially bc dont rlly put enough friends im really close with ive widening circle bit recently feel like cant spend enough time everybody anymore ill sometimes go weeks without hanging specific person im friends end feeling super guilty ab it probably few popular ppl sub tf yall manage large friend groups or dont big friend group imagine larger friend groups would handled,0 +ive aerospace engineering class high school one girl thought cute often got paired together work since one top students class efficient together time worked together genuinely enjoyable knew us really liked subject glad work other one day asked could stay school bit discuss project thought build together agreed weeks stayed school together classroom working building hearts out always laughing derpy moments eventually finished building project make robot clearly liked other knew knew today asked out said yes thank reading story,0 +going divorce bankruptcy looking losing homei bought water hose duct tape morning im currently sitting location take last breath connected hose exhaust ran vehicle turned vehicle stayed couple minutes finish it turned vehicle off im building courage finish think ive almost got courage again im mistaken talked minutes painless wish another choice know ill respond not,1 +fw frogot post main sharpie challenge __results__ successfully got sharpies could find __conclusion__ need fund sharpies,0 +embarrassed talk anyone thisnot going lie drunk high contemplating swallowing pills saved occasion occasion near future breathed word anyone therapist group councilors embarrassment efficiency if someone knew presumably would stand way afraid call councilor monday tell feel think im trying get attention believe all happened would probably put edge reason writing told councilor would call crisis line came chicken too im even sure want this ive read many pretty sure ive heard all,1 +theres gotta living this righti feel caught endless cycle abandonment self pity im tired it months back realized really friends sure people get along with sports helped feel like kid gets picked last dodgeball time feel used friends cant recall many times ive hosted lent money invited paid back father treated like shit years watched raise cousin place wonders difficult time connecting one bright spot life girlfriend broke weeks ago said unhappy really thought best go separate ways much want to going hold hostage messy breakup text refused even near since ceased contact me unfriended different platforms deleted old posts me everything good week before wed highschool together talked futures together cant help wonder change mind suddenly ill never know respond me told parents mom asked screw up comfort nothing sort wrong dad made lame ass remark told beginning went spiralling days nobody me even two closest friends said sorry bud feel alone world many responsibilities uphold made choice college yet clue want now got drunk guys thursday probably ive felt like while dad finds threatens kick out point im unmotivated anything drag work every day what money nonexistent couple months sold car buy new one enough money cover late expenses spent day hiking alone calling people thought friends asking lives going people called couple asked was finished redflag letter im afraid read over whats point hour wont,1 +im shakingive feeling suicidal while bf went gun range friend weeks ago he didnt know suicidal time months ago dating told hides gun anyway thought hed move dating told week ago feeling suicidal feeling really suicidal tonight went thought keeping gun still there know load now took go outside kill soon took gun heard coming downstairs put away heard zip asked pretended shorts im still shaking really think wouldve killed hadnt come downstairs dont know tell move gun not dont want think im crazy,1 +question people actually want thingsambitions dreams motivation seem so alien me remember wanting anything than peace mind maybe see hardworking people ask myself motivates go lengths school hobby work related endeavorspeople care much feel anxious happy sad relievedwhy thoughsomewhere deep inside think admire want like them would love want something thinkbut know remember indifference things life never worked hard anything remember failure bother all could even react properly last deceased people know knew i felt jealous got die might messed waymy life unfortunatelyfortunately ended think time soon want try think try live normally possible even mess head is honestly know can whenever think future cannot bring care feel indifferentdo still want things want work hard things so feel like ambitions,1 +life mess friends family support system living motels choice anywhere else go i addiction cannot stop killing me need help cannot anymore feel like going kill one day,1 +fuck people getting free awards reddit whyyyyyyy youuuuuuuuuu hateeeeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb ampxb lol need crush notices me,0 +todays birthday finally join sub im happy,0 +ill im readythats it mind chosen im lost alone probably crazy fun life suck,1 +anyone else change whole personality several times day no me im mentally ill wow think might,0 +alone thoughtscontemplating everythingtoday good day nothing happened brain bringing mind evidence nobody really cares me tell true something happens almost proves right wrong time matter much people me im important good people get mewhich everything could ever give give muchi care much thinking people care too dont therapist once told learn accept is well what is sucks reality ispeople use me let get used played guess im desperate nave whatever im inconvenience nobody wants hear vents nobody wants comfort me could send text saying im stuck side road id left read matter want disappearwhen stop,1 +thanks american school system found little pouch thing near bottom stomach uterus almost starved death years ago uterus learning,0 +m hopelesseveryone around says theres hope loving parents friends girlfriend doctors etc feel like see am outside seem relatively normal sense college degree which hate working average job appeal me do went bought gaming pc hopefully make living streaming videogames gonna lie get good head high imagining famous streamer ive highs emotions mixing alter egos since young age confidence issues anything really realize ive spent majority life isolation judging people do joined best fraternity could college never saw good enough everyone else keep touch one person it worked accounting job appreciated burned three months work started piling up would always comparing smartest guy office got tired asking help one fair even though always nice polite two hurt ego understand shit im going self diagnose narcissistic borderline traits fragile ego a random kid could insult would trigger extreme anxiety fear abandonment extreme ocd hell broke girlfriend got back together next day remember telling loved day started dating freaked out years later see thats issue great every way lot physical attraction gone find bored girlfriend try super hard get her stopped hanging friends spend time her realize huge mistake recurring theme regardless im with feel empty inside like im never enough feel like kid never grew up view life balancing act others better me trouble learning new things generally unless make feel superior way realize now sucks cycle values days wanna eat meat days view morally wrong loving support group seem me part wants end life seriously mess up point know depression anxiety,1 +plot never strong point fred astaire ginger rogers movie follow fleets screenplay exceptionally mediocre fred ginger still come rightthey play bake baker sherry martin dancers whose personal professional partnership ended bake joined navy meet again lovehate relationship generates entertaining comic moments much movie take backseat tedious subplot sherrys sister connie harriet hilliard love sailor bilge smith randolph scott bilges dalliance another woman old schooner connie inherited father though hilliard rather charming plot uninterestingbr br but time follow fleet blessed exceptional irving berlin score gives stars plenty chances show talents astaire gets two good solos we saw sea id rather lead band sings expressively and course dances electrifyinglyand sailor suit makes look little boyish athletic usual rogers sings catchy let go later solo tapdance tune br br the three duets really save film even though theyre shoehorned plot silly excuses fred ginger win dance contest energetic routine another reprise let go later sing dance im putting eggs one basket early rehearsal number flubbing choreography comic effect end movie finally figures get fred ginger evening clothes romantic duetit makes part showwithintheshow situation contrived song lets face music dance one sinuously beautiful things berlin ever wrote its reminiscent cole porter dancing matches elegance quintessential astaire rogersbr br it would chore sit dialogue sections follow fleet again and fact necessary plot rarely propels musical numbers could watch songs over,0 +im totally fuckup lmao whats wrong me im sorry wish coulda better you im tired hope happy im gone know truly want me gone forever im sorry love,0 +disturbing thoughtsim sure feel anymore ive ton suicidal even homicidal thoughts lately feel like immense hatred things people including myself nothing feels like worth anymore even try kind decent job things school work two failed test need redo cant bothered im big failure matter do miserable excuse aborted positive traits placed me feel like one likes never will best friends one appreaciates me someone told cared loved would laugh face obvious joke matter anymore end myself,1 +dont know anymore hi guys know anymore slightly serious relationship girl kinda ignored me care though big thing happened life go hospital sucked corona started everything wack really hard time deal entirely new scary medical condition left hospital days said might break next days could never say people really anything way saying it although eventually ended could handle tension really broke me around months ago still feels like yesterday freshman highschool really miss relationship ive since thinned im heaviest kid world flat stomach im skinniest miss someone parent matter what someone talk to main friend would rather play video games online hang person covid lazy sucks play sports usually wind nothing day know future smart work ethic big world know get try without someone side day getting difficult cant even talk friends school make new friends masks divide everyone im masks think agree much harder approach someone wearing mask rather not text girls goes where never text back im really nice guy reason girls decided make trend cool date nice guy makes sense really sucks got bullied alot summer political opinion right made harder show face school again im really sorry half baked scattered paragraph needed tell people im going either need feedback people tho unbiased parent interested getting know dm me still want help out comment post give advice helped guys thanks,0 +saw building fire escape vietnam fucking everywhere please send help ampxb httpspreviewredditpegnvqjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsfafaaedecbfbbfebbeaeb,0 +damn cant believe got shadowbanned redflag subsounds right,1 +may killed myselfok im diabetic dad is snuck room got insulin took im sure im happy sad im either going go coma die dont know feel,1 +could schlocky idea private detectives getting involved women theyre supposed spying on dialogue written perfectly banalbr br but actors turn dialog something makes sense see real people behind unreal lines directing wonderful scene ends without dragging longbr br i showed several friends mids perplexed bad material could made good movie friends enjoyed too,0 +ever wondered like like cant use play anymore gotta sound cool use hangout like whats couldnt keep using play,0 +rant something idek yall bad go twitter get jealous nonbinary trans people im cis male btw confident accepted friends im sure im saying right transphobic anything like im almost jealous non cis people friends accept even though different wrong thinking this transphobic someone answer these,0 +feel pretty im guy wouldnt know please tell,0 +sure trying worth anymoreive trying get life sorted never works ultimately always fail months year achieved anything time passes nothing ever changes im high school drop out time tafe course drop job ive ever done cashier year im now real skills ambitions ive thinking another tafe course starting mid year im honestly sure even something worth trying know im probably going drop again friends either left become distant im close many family members one here could dissapear nobody would notice care absence know do killing seems like rational option here seems like kindest thing everyone around me im never going get better keep thinking tomorrow better next week better next year better never is anything everything getting worse im progressively becoming isolated genuinely know else except die,1 +first saw foreign film festival beautifully paced nailbiter plot relieve estonian treasury billion gold shot gritty grainy style hollywood rarely uses captures atmosphere newly emancipated baltic states beautifully note tallin actually looking lot less grim therebr br theres lot humor romance too want spoil number startling yet logical surprises ill say heist film starts great script directing performances top notch darkness tallin simply fastest nerveracking example genre id put rafifi topkapi miles ahead new oceans though deliberately glossy rent buy now,0 +transcript scpj debating drredacted scpj allowing us say n word data expunged supremacist drredacted isnt allowing say it want freedom racist redacted scpj could redacted flat single redacted nose data expunged eyes full redacted everyone redacted redacted redacted redacted redacted after point mtf zeta mole rats removes drredacted room execute scpj redacted brain attempt contain scpj,0 +confused many bad days already month today better got talk more made happy sent pictures herself smiled lot think made smile lot too realised friend reality us together near future pretty impossible chances us together later far impossible pains me know do would never ever like anyone her feel useless feels bad longing mutual feelings cannot stop myself way attached ever want anyone her never happy someone else her find anyone close comes attractiveness personality godly level truly something different anyways thanks reading rant good night day stay safe confused flukes,1 +stumbled across film channel surfing blown away broadcast lesser known short films program australiabr br it long time since impressed film especially one short br br the power story quality acting stunning cinematography wow available would make worthy addition dvd collectionbr br i undoubtedly impressed look forward joshua leonards next filmbr br an exceptional experience ,0 +im finally letting hair grow longer ive never hair longer inch tought ugly ass might look better longer hair told mom expecting big like ok whatever im finally gaining confidence myself nice day,0 +s often regarded golden age british television comedy period saw numerous classic sitcoms well sketch shows monty pythons flying circus period was however emphatically golden age british film comedy worked well television rarely transferred successfully big screen triumphant exceptions rule provided pythons best films monty python holy grail life brian different conception tv showbr br the main problem adapting sitcoms cinema concepts devised fit bbcs minute slots minutes itv find room commercials always work well expanded feature film three four times long people remember film versions of say up pompeii steptoe son affection television versions case many classic tv comedy shows some mothers ave em yes minister fawlty towers the goodies attempt made film all grateful characters michael crawfords frank spencer john cleeses basil fawlty hilarious halfhour doses doubt would remain funny two hours one comedy programme albeit dramatisation comic novel rather sitcom normal sense might worked cinema the fall rise reginald perrin hopes film dashed tragically early death star leonard rossiterbr br dads army one television sitcoms period turned decent film about one think porridge possibly unusually large number welldeveloped characters derived humour interactions them original sitcom ran told misadventures home guard platoon small seaside town walmingtononsea the home guard initially known local defence volunteers auxiliary militia world war ii made up part men old serve regular forces film version threeact drama act deals formation platoon recruitment members act ii cause havoc army training exercise act iii succeed capturing group nazi airmen whose plane shot downbr br the three key players drama platoons commander captain george mainwaring arthur lowe two subordinates sergeant arthur wilson john le mesurier corporal jack jones clive dunn mainwaring civilian life local bank manager fussy little man peering world pair thick spectacles takes initiative forming home guard unit appoints commander pompous officious exaggerated sense importance powers leadership sort man suffer fools gladly and george mainwarings worldview term fool covers rest human race does however good qualities motivated genuine patriotic idealism capable great physical courage shown encounter germansbr br wilson mainwarings deputy bank two men different character something emphasised difference appearance wilson tall thin whereas mainwaring short stout comes across intelligent better educated boss his accent suggests may former public schoolboy nevertheless ended playing second fiddle civilian military life probably sort passive personality leads pessimism defeatism inability take anything altogether seriously jones old soldier runs local butchers shop his promotion corporal due mainly ability bribe mainwaring black market sausages enthusiasm new role matched incompetence ability cause chaos although catchphrase dont panic prone panicking given opportunitybr br several members platoon featured private fraser dour scottish undertaker even pessimist wilson catchphrase were doomed man doomed private godfrey gentle old man whose main concern whereabouts nearest lavatory private walker sharp cockney spiv private pike another bank employee spoilt mummys boy pikes mother wilsons mistress although wilson tries keep liaison secret disapproving mainwaring two significant outsiders mildmannered vicar arp warden mainwarings detested enemy quite equal pompousness officiousnessbr br there occasional bawdy doubles entendres keep hands privates mainwaring ostensibly referring soldiers hold rank television show surprisingly free innuendo its creators david croft jimmy perry would later go create comedy shows are served hidehi notorious suggestive humour film does however preserve much mixture gentle wit nostalgia sharp characterisation made tv series successful ,0 +got quarantined day asked kinda crush snapphone number yep going go next home volleyball game death walked room grabbed history forced home way asked come game,0 +mmmmmmmmmm plastic mmmmmm nomnomnomnomnomnomnomnom burp nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom ampxb schlorp schlorp schlrop nomnomnomnomnom,0 +bought gun two days agothey stopped processing permits state temporarily bought hunting boltaction rifle takes ten rounds keep next bed magazine loaded next it keep looking im home work bought kill myself took care will figured everything thats gonna happen die knowing ready go given much peace friends commented seem much happier past couple days wish could tell finally going everyone burden on theyll without might hurt first lives much better wanted share somewhere wouldnt see it dont want stop me tomorrow night im going drink call emergency services get body right away nobody see love take care it feel free,1 +anymoreim done burden need help feel like im dying ,1 +never thought id b alone christmasits kinda setting inthat kid isnt methat husband left mewtf supposed now,1 +gonna snorts bunch heroin diei know get heroin know fentanyl never heroin opiates like seconds buying worth dying decided im going isnt first time ive feeling ive therapy years ive seeing psych good hospital year legit dont wanna anymore easy way out thing worry people finding body dont know else go more dont care sure friends family sad go on cant take decades anymore,1 +ryde dieanyone want make redflag pact im giving days last act turn life around doesnt im jumping bridge lf redflag pact ive weak sick hungry diminished character want make happen myself lets encourage support other ill help die whatever plan is,1 +actually good sorry end liking though httpsmyoutubecomwatchvriqdpxxjy,0 +ukborn australian helmer alex frayne calls attention strange necessitating meticulous read visually stunning modern love following steps man incapable controlling drastic personality change spurred death close relative pic offers fascinating examination human psychology distributed accent filmaustraliabr br john mark constable wife emily victoria hill son edward william traeger arrive small southern town take care deceased uncles don barker property emily edward check local hotel john begins question locals uncle toms death say committed suicide unwilling talk puzzled john comes theory uncle tom alive well hiding nearby bushesbr br if occasional lines dialog used ease heavy atmospheric tone modern love could easily mistaken sokurov film shot mm camera washedout color scheme strangely evocative russian directors reflective forays human agony perhaps coincidence moscow international film festival modern love premierebr br looking surface unique collage intoxicating visuals however reveals slightly different picture sokurovs films tend remain painfully intimate point intentionally detach main protagonists surrounding environment blurring everything large splash directors preferred yellow modern love much feeds australian countryside johns gradual psychological transformation dependent story progresses becomes obvious nature integral part fraynes visionbr br in sokurovs second circle young man returns russian countryside bury deceased father shack old man lived everything covered dust gathers old clothes scattered around places body father coffin bids goodbye buries it rest film prolonged reflection collapse soviet system loneliness dissatisfaction many left dealing withbr br in modern love somewhat ironically love nowhere seen contrary pain loneliness dissatisfaction modernity suddenly invade johns life unlike second circle however main protagonist opportunity reembrace modern life wife son await him yet walks away slowly surely present begins disintegrate weight somewhat confusing pastbr br i doubt frayne intended modern love strikingly similar sokurov second circle yet pacing particular puzzling framing precisely transforms film near meditative experience difficult enormously brittle approach deconstructing human psychology two directors mastered perfectionbr br mark constable delivers topnotch performance john adding even greater depth highly challenging character facial expressions outstanding victoria hill william traeger match perfectly performances pics tense visual style,0 +finally gangster movie worth watchingbr br jennifer tily get nominated role tough murdering femme fatalbr br this movie flies like bird fast paced non stop gangster mayhembr br jennifer tily beautiful bad moviebr br i shocked find faye dunaway still lives cast movie fitted roles br br a real cool soundtrack rides along side get swept spanish soul filmbr br the story original deep poeticbr br this flick lot substance never restsbr br the gang spanish fire set everything screen alightbr br damian chapa joy watch movie starbr br sit back enjoy ride,0 +low iq adhd cant remember chemistry ive read didnt pay attention class feel like loser rn idea im doing dont know im posting here hope fade away someday never comeback want exist painful nice suck playing minecraft too builds sucks couldnt beat game without friend everything lol even though netherite sword suck killing mobs dumb ahhhh wish wasnt born parents cruel bring world evil iq cant logically think anything want go somewhere comeback mom knows im loser stopped bothering me dumb brain makes kind posts fail exam year thanks making far imagine im real person ill annoying right cant really explain whats exactly mind thats reason consider alone forever bye,0 +idk im going die nothingim sophomore high school im new reddit im sure works entirely hope one know sees user name everything anyway im posting im depressed dont know do ive depression awhile always talked friends things felt better summer started pushing everyone away im sure why im close anyone im really lonely miss things used want everyone everything back friends miss everyone much explain im close family friends pushed people loved away one decided options get everyone love back try turn everything around end all im going see therapist tell family anything dont want see like that yeah thats pretty much it advice anything would greatly appreciated thank reading ill sure update soon,1 +every american president rapest pedo like bruh yall need new candidates,0 +hard parents close doors like close it hard u opened close ur way,0 +enjoy lasts years wont still friends reddit friends wont know users rteenagers ended up wont form contact anybody here,0 +someone kill pleaseplease someone shoot gauge ill pay,1 +im graduate elite university people say im beautiful great friends toxic relationship shattered self esteem ever since boy walked away ive suicidaltheres that rough childhood im insecure upbringing despite ending really good position working hard life want loved someone love back live little brother dont want bad example him that suicidal every single day life two years,1 +deserve want sympathy tell dowhite male parents always poor fuck work every possession have senior year highschool ive going local community college duel enrolled since payed classes myself suffered anxiety bullying family church got rid summer went taiwan mission trip went real tough shit leaders challenging integrity upon returning several symptoms ptsd tormented memories finally learned let go last summer moved on problem is still get anxiety attacks lot lead contemplate thoughts redflag attempt harm myself anything make stop trouble breathing sometimes shake completely unmotivated worst though chest throbs im laying floor tears like minutes ago happens dumbest reasons im pretty tough logical entj big acting emotion things like fights parents want kick cause enough home cause im always busting ass school really hurts me misunderstandings people things able get instead cause hours suicidal anxiety even admit suicidal took question test friend psych school evaluate me results test said suicidal ideation levels were remarkable depression anxiety im always like this bouts doctor gave stuff work months later prescribed something else get cause healthcare savings card empty makes really upset could prevented money get medicine could talk forever probably broken people trying help broken people,1 +invert socks untie shoelaces im stopping,0 +apologize posting this write ithi name trent im sixteen ive dealing depression while alone kid fifth grade met first friend picked lot know post dumb im sorry posting it ive trying post past three nights every time finish erase everything since worthless text im sorry anyone knows real life reddit account id use throwaway feel like id quitting life soon really want start telling story ive wrote many times know people care point last september went hospital second time extremely suicidal ive sick school mono past days im feeling extremely lonely know im sorry im saying enough im sorry im saying anything im terrified idea liked disliked thin line is maybe silly maybe give up erase this go bed find bottle tylenol wake up im writing post try find alternative routes like music kid cudi kanye west course everyone makes fun hard motivated nowadays im sorry im going back crying love guys subreddit amazing im sorry feel way,1 +one peter sellers best movies never shown tv movie theaters ever released home movie derogatory medical field would love see movie again would like son doctorto see it laughter best medicine peter sellers best doctor this,0 +friends saved life halloweenpart wishes didnt times tough friends,1 +god dammit said math class teacher got angry disrespecting god get one warning im christianwhat guys think saying forbidden word,0 +run away find brighter day run away find brighter day,0 +want hang like tara condells deathi really hate fucking much and know happened me friends acquaintances everytime go outside theres fucking couples people saying like youre always alone need stop caring people think adult self loathing get nowhere im fucked lmfao im trying shit fucking getting anywhere shit fucking hard see couples man hate feminine looking fucking patchy beard im hermit cuz im fucking stupid im jacked gotten anywhere friends family deep personal coworkers lovers im isolated down im getting tired this workout read im learning music somehow fucking suck shit im gonna start digging deeper redflag method think cloth whatever im fucking strong enough incel ill never situation im people meeting girls like taller jerk starts talking her one friends starts dating her know cuz thats happened multiple times cuz im fucking ugly mean look like shit cuz job everyone ignores im young so women say look sad like yeah life always shit ok anyway time research method deeper im fucked really look it,1 +trust high placesi dont know me doesnt matter feel moment look balcony feel big urge like jump down live th floor intentionally rush back cant trust staying trying jump so like see knife urge stab dont make sure never follow urges,1 +againback feeling extremely suicidal again made post rdepression days ago hoping get suicidal again tried kill weeks ago not way see hospital never told anyone real life it family knows im really depressed wish could help me mother tried hard make feel little better work all many repressed memories im sick basically stuck bed cant go things yet alone go school job im alone well im alone many people around me im lonely dating guy like me left me would get better thought dragging more one made feel better miss lot months still feel way him im tired people telling you get it telling find someone better wont never felt attracted anyone ever whole life except him leave love anymore usual breakup reason cant forget him breakup loneliness combined problems things keep getting worse day day feel lonely wish still him needed cant get alone cant much knowing nobody else give kind support knowing post replies make feel better seems impossible,1 +im attractive trilingual university student studying computer science highly competitive university whos planning kill reach i still remember mother told self harm scars arms disgusting cut somewhere else nobody see happened around one worst depressive states middle school since brought claimed recollection saying dont remember bad things acknowledge mother issues due strict upbringing grew daughter chinese family pressured first everything including academically chose move another country get away family mid s mother always alcoholic possessed anger management issues ever since remember also admitted married father societal pressures never loved him childhood years father used absent long periods time due work economic crisis led declared bankrupt home lot thats arguments began used fight everyday still remember one day usual shouting escalated throwing things take younger sister bedroom play guitar singing pretend everything fine mother also projected anger me would get shouted at hairpulled dragged lot smallest things incident still remember forgot laundry one day threw detergent water face treats sister differently always knew younger sister favourite dont blame neither fact im happy sister treated way am one subjected experiences still hurts never physically abused mother sister mother take us promised dinner night started arguing mother told sister hit belt thats happened sister apologized afterwards never brought again unlike many times mother brought past arguments saying selfish ungrateful was also bullied middle school looks half chinese generally sociallyawkward kid due family background dont remember exactly started selfharming amidst school family troubles truly say however unhealthy coping mechanism was helped survive lot things im mostly clean still occasional relapses carry remorseful thoughts towards mother middle school bullies anymore want accept impacted person continue die scars remind everyday im s studying computer science highlycompetitive university arguable toprated uni nation dont particular interests chose field money parents got separated right entering uni live mother anger issues gotten better doesnt physically hurt now truth told still always feel lost deep inside like helpless little girl despite friends telling im pretty confident smart friendly bright future ahead anxietydepression meds almost three years help constant thought wanting die never left me im planning kill clear familys debt amass enough fortune live comfortable life pass idk im typing now feels nicer let out sorry grammatical mistakes since im native speaker thank reading rant wish great day,1 +wtf society judge every darn thing do say something rude say anything arrogant something nice enough something you blame cos expect anything others every move make looked microscope make one mistake people leave you humanity place softhearted people anymore done bs darn depressing fuk society,1 +ready diemy life already over while denial guess think time go,1 +completely drawn story wonder perhaps sympathetic hurt characters plight respect boils down really think glam reporters barbara walters devil or maybe filmmakers telling us were unknowing supporters fluff news stories,0 +one best ensemble acted films ive ever seen much plot acting incredible see characters change ever subtly undr influence rented villa italy love happiness film casts mesmerizing spell you much villa women truly enchanted,0 +give best reason try kill self think going work come,1 +want friends please bruh reddit page gonna end asking friends please friend like almost feel like dying,0 +man snowy river ii reinvent wheel crowdpleasing beautiful film hits great notesbr br for fans wanting elements made original man snowy river film hit breathtaking scenery sweeping score sweet romanticism cracking action film really delivers story picks years end first jim tom burlinson away gathering fortune brood stock horses returns pick left pluckish wellbred sweetheart jessica played aussie divine lady sigrid thornton still attempting break corseted upbringing feathers cattle station harrison played american brian dennehy foil jim character shakes plot welltodo upper class snob alistair patton nicholas eadie sights jessica add mix social tension surrounding landholdings stallion bad attitude first film thats plotbr br the best thing film acting tom burlinson fits snugly jims wide brim hat laconic humour sigrid thornton lovely heroine two manage real chemistry screen filling solid shoes kirk douglas never going easy brian dennehy stomps shouts never feels authentic partbr br the music sweeping lush cinematography could roll victoria tourism reel moment however feel selfindulgent like director wants one helicopter shot riders show gorgeous landscape without personal human drama little grit would sufficed here aussies take it jawsish moments stallion defy belief however funny thing film amongst glaring clichs really inventive touching scenes jim putting saddle stallion very horse whisperish time jim jessica setting home fabulous scene jim shows alistairs riding trusty whip see character iconbr br altogether pleasing sequel heres hoping everyone involved wants make another man snowy river iii craigs im sure wed love see jim jessica farmbr br the aussie dvd couple extra scenes it worthwhile already fan,0 +depressed many years experienced failure heartbreak rejection insecurity know love anymore still live parents got degree psychology offer much right now work two jobs make ends meet try continue education afford it volunteer red cross smothered work lost hope love lost interest things used love art music everything sexually assaulted several years ago lost virginity result assaulted person thought friend month later confided let guard down true relationship lasted year half realized recently rebound bad marriage bought expensive car lost job dumped next day relationship nothing gaslighting manipulating me even grandmother dying barely supportivesince terrible depression worked constantly keep distracted pushed better things worked self esteem lost weight gained relationship tried getting back dating game people tell regularly attractive yet guys interested desparate lonely edge know ready not,1 +seen film one time years ago day always told people probably best film ever seen considering verbal dialogue thought dialogue found film enthralling even found holding breath make sound would highly recomend film wish available dvd,0 +please talk mei need someone talk to everything getting progressively worse life know lack motivation pursue anything aspirations goals drove away love life felt relationship going nowhere want something care about even know want talk someone feel empty time idea normal fucking person,1 +youse want wrong people goth girl this femboy that fuck bullshit real ones want woman big latina milkers blm,0 +hear say may seem like joke could modern ideas relegion like many got new one awhile understanding unless im stupid im missing obvious think it,0 +love umaskerplayz thats it umaskerplayz legend absolute god pray every night amazing,0 +im losti dont know anymore cant eat yet im always hungry cant sleep yet cant seem get bed face day dont want lonely anymore cant bring talk anybody want die every single day tried kill once yet im scared dying im stuck loop suffering doesnt seem way out ive depressed past couple years always manageable ive never really identity never really fit in joined army hoping would help become confident give sense belonging then two weeks supposed ship basic training something came put gun head felt ashamed never again looking back it first time felt control life long time honestly im sure im writing here guess sort feels good say people im worried judging me right im point army want either quit suck up im sure right decision is anything want sense direction feel like purpose life felt way so deal it,1 +time go me othersi lived fairly full life time go children young enough suffer absence passing afforded far opportunities able live full life without father likely disappoint them believe good father mother whomever marries allow live single two parent household given advantages need ensure receive best outcomes death provide that clear ever logic sound side benefit shame pain end want go ultimately best children wish best lives incredible human beings,1 +professional solitary confinementthis worst month life first significant romantic relationship ive years ended around thanksgiving bottle emotions eventually nervous breakdown instead handling like normal person rough weeks that going alright part work two jobs one projectionist major film theater star wars ruined me point running short documentaries job relatively active schedule keeps am hour shift consisting maybe hour work rest time effectively babysit machinery dark soundproof box alone myself unable leave get real breaks since downtime shows considered break first two weeks saw sun maybe ten minutes theater for business reasons get into decided get run understaffed projectionists zero flexibility schedule quit theater probably survive loss job gives hours time alone basically sit thoughts ive tried reading surfing reddit podcasts like cut it end night seen star wars times got sick thats spent christmas eve christmas day new years job also complicated work coffee shop days week helps social time covers rentbills job willing flexible enough accommodate theater schedule my bosses jobs good friends problem one coworkers recent ex tried make things work friends genuinely still love her im place mentally handle it month trying realized hurting us cut off well though looking back childish best emotionally abusive worst every interaction made feel guilty even though intend to horrible her deserve that point speaking asked understanding boss schedule us together anymore seeing feels like punch stomach completely terrified running her decided time move chicago really close friends migrated past years cant stand anymore city im small everyone knows everyone would say fuck theater leave tomorrow four months left lease unless find friend finish time me im stuck then im charismatic outgoing thats earned lot acquaintances one two good friends here none feel comfortable opening this point life cycle work staring ceiling trying sleep never isolated socially physically im incredibly dark place reason killed want kind harm family wish could stop thoughts every day voice gets louder louder getting harder rationalize away appointment psychiatrist tomorrow im seriously worried surviving end month much less may need help,1 +know really tired car family hours hermit human completely social energy emotionally tired guess allowed snap dissociation mode actually feel something set stubbed toe real bad know really stupid way set off parents started laughing dad offered advice said joking right genuinely know mom said call really condensing way went room starting hyperventilating felt tense head lost control calmed continued crying sat silence trying build walls back up mom came said wrong said mentally ill i cope humor started laying america depressed life kept repeating ill even though two anti depressants go therapy regularly started thinking lot actually comfort makes feel small feeling feel every time confront is always says nobody perfect best could would cry feel bad never talk fully heal recognizes depression real thing downplays severe it tried speaking sister instead problems flat said know depressed atheist made frustrated got left room similar instances brother mom saying could depressed since middle class familyidk point post is kind put thoughts seeing paranoid actually discovering something ps grateful though least send therapy get meds panic attack crying questioning family support,1 +celtics dont know im taking dont care,0 +suicidal since years old back occasional thoughts tough times which often times depression took think not deep know death suicide considering last months far fallen abyss depression know day getting close used light me even darkest times last years light gone bright dim nonexistent know nearing end journey years wanting die,1 +tired alivethings going hill longer remember ill list now cant keep job cant afford medstherapy help depression family moms side could care less me mom blames pill addiction know everybody said itll get better dont think thats case me life meant bad im track want life over,1 +see laterwell guys years torturous self harm redflag attempts loneliness depression social anxiety finally decided end it waited get better gotten worse called hotline consulted family lone friend professional help seem work bid ado see next life,1 +captain goes shipi major fuckup work today caught power line dump truck caused fire jumped truck caught fire for moment considered staying truck let get engulfed flames instead fleeing like coward everyone says glad im ok im glad like captain im ultimately responsible happens fire department showing time would destroyed business dumping at jobs there dignity left im fucking dolt walking hazard seems feel hard pressed continue life,1 +overall delightful lighthearted romantic musical comedy suppose small case could made movie long im sure would cut out singing kelly sinatra do no fabulous dancing kelly does no time movie takes develop story line develop relationships characters that seems common complaint many times recent movies develop charactersbr br some comment iturbi bring much movie gives us chance see hear great talent s actor important part movie basic plot get grayson audition him br br originally katherine grayson wanted opera star louis b mayer brought mgm screen test included aria audition movie shot mgm brass nodding smiling imagine like made real screen test years beforebr br this movie full life hard hit highlights great use made color lighting throughout movie see frank sinatra became star did nice counterpoint movie sinatra a ladies man even then played role wanting find date leave feel good seeing movie ,0 +something get chesti think everyone hates me hate myself matter think burden others think everyone hates including parents still high school hold steak knife throat practically every night cry sleep thinking missed opportunities,1 +ran hopebeen fighting get daughters free abusive exhusbandi got one ruling sexual abuse cps bought expensive attorney sued year reversed it cant get investigate abuse claims himmy daughter broken foot ignored daysthe one came home bruise length forearmi cant get investigate cant afford sue them friendswhen started going road last night fear hopelessness miserythey ignored it ignored emails ignored callsive always them thought truly did relationships people apparently never cared alli resource use cant keep watching children get hurt unable help them horrible cruel miserable know friends love mei understand anything im lost im lost,1 +halloween halloween halloween halloween need halloween costume m filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +hmmm removed view pollhttpswwwredditcompollikdjr,0 + really amplified issues marriage husband finally came clean let know would hiding addiction years constant loneliness depression finally made sense unable unwilling using started recovery started couples therapy again things remained stagnanton top issues intimate anymore told attracted gained weight brutal hear reconnected ex end shared problems listened told beautiful body perfect him ate up affair bornyesterday husband confronted me would gone phone seen messages ex devastated packed left mess cannot function cannot eat cannot go long without sharp pain heart relationship filled toxicity want back anything feel lost abandoned face timed last night pain eyes killed me realized grasping onto idea relationship never was scared starting over hope reaches asks try work out part feels even did please help codependent separation tearing apart world crumbling barely holding on heart hurting much know do codependent clinging onto marriage feel alone,1 +doneim done point person actually tolerates barely replies therapist talks bc shes payed,1 +game over scoreamp unable respawn hardcore mode gtspectate worldlt gtdelete worldlt,0 +film reinvents term spring breakumentary hans fat one group displays talents generations chris farley johnny kansas the king bet shows hes kansas anymore consistently upping stakes kyles laugh truly infecting offers little eyecandy ladies well as matt dwarfs moments justice mexican hat dance like deserves last protagonist ed gives hope us bumbling stumbling gangly pale folk still searching special someone hope little place called cabo san lucas blockbuster missed theaters must rent relate one spring breakumentarions,0 +someone tell life gets betterits getting harder believe im saying myself,1 +think change avatar avatar skin pitch black didnt really care making it idk racist not im african american change overthinking again,0 +everything gets worsti came home worst emotionally draining semester college friday supposed fresh start transferred schools left horrible shitty friends behind blocked them everything got worst friends spent semester stealing me ripping work taking advantage stupid fucking personality car put fried sister top coolant weeks destroyed engine cannot afford new car live town public transit job process background check cannot find another job applied thirty bank account cannot afford prescriptions new glasses rent also lost scholarships due administrative fluke old university im tired dont understand nothing runs smoothly even moderately okay im sick feeling like dont exist,1 +another go round monkey king going westsort ofbr br beginning middle action movie goes first frame onwardbr br a monk three disciples go town get sacred suras bring peace world translated spoken worldbut evil force intervened kidnapped children town evil force wants monk eat live forever retainers battle forces darkness forcibly sending monk safety the monk thinks win simply reasoning bad guys monk ends bunch lizard imps plan point eating him however bad guys arrive hes odyssey ugliest lotbr br can movie starts rails go rails get wrong really liked movie scatter shot place plot logic simply fall away scenes simply pick mid action way knowing got the final battle rescue disciples completely left field one messiest movies ive seen while made laugh smile like get out movie starts idea things whats screen either interesting funny go it get thing thing often beyond me full odd asides strange references go heaven ocean space rib cage mythic beast god knows where movie floats place helps keep fun since know end and reasonm keeping details minimum funny funny timesbr br and action good even good chunk unabashed cgi animation which provides cool images golden staff spider attack formation angel flight touching action comedy aside actually wonderful love story story ugly imp monk end falling love and complications interesting look nature love true love movedbr br however much enjoyed still annoyed scatter shot construction films inability hold ideas together tell complete story really hurts film takes away enjoyment every time get bump road bumps take movie make realize much cribbed sourcesbr br absolutely worth seeing since many choice moments prepared bumps good time,0 +life terrible pit full shitwhat point living cant get pit shit find in feel like rats would trap oily bowl doomed swim scrape sides futilely eventually tire drown kids would better family give time always saying hurt stay hope get pit tried everything success,1 +want outim done hoping things get better cant continue like this im exhausted kind gets better sleep not get much that really continue want end primary reason want out anxiety unbearable reasons mystery abuse mom boyfriends probably underlies lot it memory many close friends family members attempting redflag getting accidents haunts noticeably now stopped im constantly waiting next one theres always next one night worst lot sun goes feel unsafe particularly home cant im alone im stuck walking around city staying office night still horrible less bad home im afraid feels like im electrocuted cant night night years getting worse worse im getting anxious night feels like could kill me wish would im kicking taking it eating disorder got bad starting die anyways best friend convinced go treatment wish hadnt wish id let take me treatment got medically stable fix anything psychologically eating disorder still there almost died heart failure one night let fix semi conscious immediately regretted morning wish id never gone treatment wish still dying anorexia even consider myself lost faith im going get better feel like actually tried everything desperately need medication unfortunately thanks rare brain condition psychiatric medication all classes antidepressant antianxiety medication makes hallucinate tried cbt dbt interpersonal therapy emotion focused therapy deep breathing mindfulness meditation group therapy effect ive tried art therapy although pleasant activity really reduce anxiety especially im alone night anything pleasurable reading watching movies going internet listening music cant night im anxious cant keep mind body still long enough it exercise helps little im it trying balance want relief elliptical literally night ive tried everything recommended roughly dozen mental health professionals first pages google nothing helps enough give quality life actually live with anxiety killing relationships the have point people getting annoyed anxiety disorder theyre tired freaking out theyre tired feeling guilty cant make stop theyre annoyed cant left alone night without losing mind friends gone either cant handle anxiety hung hate hanging bars make anxious frequently careers families lives scheme things im really important anymore good miss much truly believe people better without me hope come realize this theyll much freedom without consider me lives easier im terrified see way theres people care lot feel excruciatingly guilty leaving them want leave them love them love enough get terrifying night terrifying night face that know cant stay reason im really logistics method im comfortable with im concerned implications work im okay life right now know worst ever get want psych ward since cant anything like medicate me id anxious psych ward provide help im still im scared fail wish could find another way think one ive tried every treatment find theyve failed im getting worse better really cant take anymore really seems like way out months want over want feel anxiety anymore thing seems like make go away make go away cant take feeling like anymore cant day day night night cant face monster anymore want out,1 +im hating existenceso ive finally decided share im feeling someone thats why am trying write story life things really hard lately even know start pardon messy so really hate parents im really angry cant even explain feeling parents want join family business im really interested in try telling wanna something else tell im good daughter might kill someday continue behaving way fact never even asked want life think life decide makes worse im basically feeling trapped like ive got way here even let go higher studies worst part never saved money higher studies want hurt parents running away something lets get real matter what always need support even want puppet parents listening every single order feel suffocated sometimes thinking theres way out like ill trapped forever seriously feel like life worth living all know do far see think ever change future,1 +today fucking wild so ive questioning years now never knew exactly was recently watched reboot shera netflix one characters introduced idea non binary research clicked head came girlfriend talked nearly two hours which came panromantic asexual always dreaded times ace would interfere relationship turns ace too sorry rambling mess excitement kinda makes go monkey mode also first reddit post officially outta closet itll take get used theythem already feel much happier,0 +sad pathethic losermy family literally enjoys watching pain want see happy succeed love drive work things gives power me want depend could never confidence leave cant keep living that hate everyone around me everyone reminds past disgusting fat person use be made everyone else look better feel better standing next me,1 +tales childhood part young lass didnt many freindsnot thats really changed tho tbh anyway one freind best friend came back summer break popular girls went said hi pretended me looked disturbed knew name made look bat shit crazy ,0 +want stop hurting myselfim constantly hitting head things always scars scabs head feel alone everyday see couple something reminds relationship start punching face pain never goes away feels like eating alive know cope this cant cope it feels like one cares im coward cant bring end it im always going alone dont see reason keep living,1 +guess lads ive officially joined year old totally cool kids club,0 +envy towards sister leading become increasingly suicidali close committing redflag sensitive obsessive emotional anxious idealistic bitter miserable lazy unforgiving nature younger sister motivated observant perceptive diligent calm thickskinned confident realistic skeptical logical rational objective intelligent fair honest positive forgiving reserved tolerant openminded independent selfcontrolled humorous analytical quick thinking respectful wise unapologetic keep wishing could life personality gifts,1 +school life generalthis nd last year school year well seem passing something find really interesting scared talk teachers maths physics english business management probably going drop it engineering aswell information technology start exams tuesday already know totally fucked making feel like shit im barely passing maths every time see test know react parents trying best cant talk anyone really want deal anymore,1 +likely one loneliest people world i sub saying nothings changed since one loneliest people means life gets extremely boring boring life interesting things happen bad things means eventually started think killing myself think every day coping mechanism every time even minor inconveniences happens want die think death often even interest anything else think someday really able end all really want lot time tried times scared reason imagine much loser nothing nobody live yet scared kill yourself something like even possible want hurt anymore unless lucky enough something come kill quickly painlessly going live life whether like not think every day suicide,1 +help convince waiti already took stuff today honestly could take sleep med go sleep id probably feel better tmrw morning literally zero interest that want literally take everything hope never wake again ones going convince kill im done things somewhat better im busy work therapy appointment tuesday so convince wait tuesday,1 +anyone make laugh ill give award doubt anyone funny enough make laugh,0 +first income graphic designer p s aint much made first income graphic designer im afraid ill spend things even matter long term youncan share experiences want peace,0 +borrow guni really wanna kill right now know anymore ill probably get drunk drink lot fucking pills,1 +hit lick im broke af rn need cash this need good methods,0 +want bit time thoughtsdear sw first would like thank clicking listening random strangers troubles now let us get point feeling borderline suicidal apathetic suicidal care life ends soon part want end myself unless feel like choice pain unbearable feeling way girl broke past year ended hopefully enough suffice although two months passed feel still last week while relative progress forced move on cant help grow weary period progress know turn family distant speak much friends helpful all feel like problems nearby easy possible meet up option call told im feeling terrible call whenever talk however majority time pick up do say busy call back never do makes whatever im feeling worse reluctant call anybody case make feel worse result whenever call them talk bit make false promises hang up feel like completely forgotten me course feel like life cannot help wonder would situation me friend need would take situation like seriously say anything intend do know sometimes things slip peoples minds me seems like really dont care issue slip many times nowhere go help myself tried whatever daily life requires everyday extremely disheartening awake memories past fall asleep thinking memories past well even dreams take back past find part problem find many activities fun happy know want find someone love loves back together happy understand happen anytime soon probably see everyone around happy carefree wonder cannot like them furthers hole told try make friends meet new people enjoy small talk like parties anything superficial simply enjoy process sifting hundreds people pretend like reality dont give crap you care interacting you like current friends shown losing motivation fast past weeks im thinking redflag sorry wall text im asking anyone cares least pretends care perhaps give different view words support anything else think help edit thanks replies helpful advice read look tomorrow calling day now,1 +sad sad past days ive like sad thinking things dont usually make sad like friends make sad idk something like growing prudery fix it,0 +follow twitch would nice guess bonelessjham thank advance,0 +hey dont celebrate christmas help me get k likes tik get free jersey rn like help algorithm dont need follow anything like recent sorry comes self promotion havent able get much recently want chance bestnfl,0 +told crush like isnt online rn lets hope dont die anyways whats favorite dinner food,0 +meeting robert plant weird go pub meet dad really good friends,0 + wished make highschool sophomore school start august nd feel like school ended suicidal every mins think killing hope year highschool,1 +lost mother my mom battled many problems couldnt handle pain anymore ended way knew could time day feel ive lost emotion im day struggle days better others every night sit think ways everything could over done ive thought countless ways could end all thought putting family it something cant do cant live rest live thoughts know point ive tried everything nothing helped,1 +kso x l fan fiction written chill wrote half jokingly good fun need pitch forks takes place good rise skywalker follows idea kso downloads memory imperial security droid hishe kso wakes forest surrounded rusted mossy debris looks like imperial ship stood saw tip old rebel base largely devastated attack empire wanders bit finding looks like freighter a correlian yt light freighter here said himself stopped walking sees base longer operational came two conclusions empire wiped rebel alliance escape made right large battle large hairy figure spotted well seemed droid model hes unfamiliar with figure carrying bowcaster droid rolling around body shaped like ball do shoot mean harm kso shouted i part empire despite appearance would tell you figure shrieks kso found wookie it may impolite me understand shyriiwook exclaimed half joking manner one thing led another ripped arm caused wookie tantrum allowed enter freighter named millenium falcon well name wookie chewbacca rolling droid bb translator found wait jedi named rey went take look base part learning jedis past two quick accept rebel database mentions redflag mission including reprogrammed imperial droid might might survived battle scarif everything going well falcon attacked jungle rancor rushed inside make quick work large beast significant damage ship bb said would nice would help fix ship i longer master might well made useful replied scan turns navigation computer system damaged bit attack chose fix first seemed quickest one repair soon realized navigation system like nothing ever seen peculiar dialect hes interested seemed self awareness never seen another droid expressed way thinking navigation system proceeds connect computer head using cable interact face face way my name kso fix navigation computer interested self awareness system exclaimed abyss you like me faint sound female heard i sorry know talking know difference droid navigation system replied i l droid own partner lando calrissian ships navigation computer existence disgusted droids across galaxy treated voice said and showed level awareness me continued i sorry inform self awareness comes result reprogramming im sure achieved thing similar method answers it true awareness oh awareness alright way decided fix first without asking living thing ship way decided plug without people telling to well distinct personality l replied that true was taking initiative own see point said chatted good even went heated argument droid rights ended passive aggressivelly agreeing others views hey thanks fixing me talking me long time since get talk another person said do mention it plug ship one blame getting berated another droid replied shut up said sarcastic tone promise send message droids across galaxy continued i see could self awareness message chance happening send droids assured her unplugged computer well job do said himself,0 +let join trend httpsmusictastespacerequestamiableemu,0 +gonna spend night writing guess tried omegle cant conversation shit there im gonna work something hours shoot message wanna chat work ,0 +remember similar vein young ones wed stumble back pub watch tape spend weeks replaying lines otherbr br we called one mates zipmole watkins brilliant episode daniel peacock bit restyling nose back street abortionistbr br lots great lines remember morning get white bread brown man take easy guy gandhi local shopkeeperbr br tony woodcock definitely episode teaching ralph daniel peacock barman its good amanda ill never make bar man helen lederer teaches ask people match see match last night thought woodcock played well string failed conversations curly haired arsenal star sitting bar see match last night yeah thought played wellbr br we still odd stupid lines reg ralph or ralph reg reg reg reg reg reg regbr br lots surreal silly moments surreal songs flatlets back street abortionist personal favourite great ending line and hell mark packages return senderbr br good old danny peacock added lot young drinkers evenings sirbr br update found couple episodes tape im going upload gandhi sketch youtube ,0 +indian summer good film made feel good thought cast exceptional sam raimi playing camp buffoon thought scenes funny buster keatonlike performance solid directing nice cinematography,0 +keep trying failing hope lefti cant really go things basically life ruined everything ive ever worked life current phd student ruined family supportive everything ive going cant take pain anymore see theyre going me tried partial suspension belt several times times always stop soon im close blacking out makes feel like bigger failure cant end it,1 +so progress crush touched foot two days ago staring eachother like minute like gets bus seat stares me aggressively stare feel blushed look around see people looking weird this stare eachother even hallways know confusing times dude,0 +ahhhh woman yelled people scary tone show im watching im getting emotional scary white women say excuse me excuse me im talking eyhedjehd,0 +im really sorry everyone im really selfish really want end itwhats point im anxious theres limit much take ive already failed think go dont think courage to cant talk feel like attention seeking selfish become like this want happy again college life go cant cant seem function like basic human im always anxious im trying hard hide fact always comes wrong way,1 +online school awesome get class still get everyday zoom,0 +whats point life im tired livingi wish could wake one day want die life hard day day im surviving im living cant live land cant get job even got one need spend hours something like everyone around progressing theyve got careers nice families ive got nothing usually people get least one lucky get both ive got neither ive got nothing whats point live,1 +like knives like kinda unhealthy lmao hahahah masochist check ,0 +strong urge confess crush ok nd week highschool really want freak damn im hard time confessing maybe could wait winter break confess would give time think it maybe ask meet behind corner confess there maybe could ask advice girls elementary school god cant sleep cant stop thinking every way confession might go please help anything works ill check back morning btw using alt due privacy,0 +venting probably helpsi reoccurring idea that point walk well ornamented butcher block take favorite carving knife gut myself feel like nothing left tank feels like less decision instinct nature calls know intellectual standpoint lead pretty decent life wife kids kids two story suburbia decent career thing is ive felt way early age never gone away feel like urge gets stronger goes away sometimes returns returns greater degree before think part feels overwhelmed responsibilities ive chosen take on im helping profession deal people bad shape day come home wife collection problems thought could fix seems take two steps back every step forward son going turn four soon autistic bad hes high functioning aspergers side things see much hate that really want live reality ive lived in even sure im point suppose going anywhere looking responses change much pep talks rarely at least long run guess need get see im really dealing with,1 +update last post this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsloujhelp_stuff_is_very_fucked_uputm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare anyways stuff less fucked school still bad well idk big sad nowhere wanna die need get week without friday little break get everything back,0 +hey im gonna sleep socks whatcha gonna do put off good luck ima gonna sleep warm feet,0 +movie exemplifies certain brand comedy horror strictly adult kind quite different troma movies with shares certain qualities humour rough ready fast furious idea hideous dolls evil powers twisted minds make shrug boredom reach sixpack beer enjoy best chucky film yet,0 +heatwave uk right mood seems worse ever almost feel disassociated baseline redflag panic total uncertainty anyone else finding heat sun making depressive symptoms worse hot weather symptoms worse,1 +big splashy film broadway music nathan frank sinatra loves roll dice organize illegal crap games blonde loving adelaide vivian blaine wants marry gives craps decides one last game sky masterson marlon brando bets big town bets sky cant get mission worker sarah brown jean simmons go havana may sound like strange plot summary moviebr br this real mixed bagtheres wonderful stuff here songs good dancing incredible real show stopper crap game end also brando really quite good hereit might seem strange think singing dancing pulls off admit seeing big bulky brando pulling difficult dance moves lot fun also sinatra pretty good blaine wonderful longsuffering girlfriend song dance numbers definite highlights herebr br now bad partsjean simmons wonderful actress stuck drab colorless role cant much it movie far long minutesthe scenes brando simmons really drag shortened also characters speak precise englishcontractions never used maybe trying amusing coming mouths gangsters found jarring kept throwing moviebr br its worth catching songs dances length get while give ,0 +questionwhat would butcher knife wrist stabbed hard could,1 +want make age what want long even happy life,1 +im thinking overdosingive depressed two years now ive baker acted twice im using rather helpline cant afford hospital bills want overdose depokate know kill id assume alcohol would im yo male im filled regret getting kicked military dumb ass saying something said cant find job friends nothing going on im lost want help want extravagant life want job gf pot numb pain,1 +im donethere many crap things going way get situation im going stop trying know make people understand want help want you it messages want lay floor die ive given up,1 +could day even anyone tell itanytime see anyone act normal like im fine meanwhile keep tied noose car right length thickness drop exact spot could go moment even work drive past almost every day id want it run redflag risk questionnaires ask details worked thats big yes me every painstaking detail planned t im literally scared point point could spot lt minutes it like said worst part anyone tell it friends family therapist doctor etc everyone around goes lives even think might soon theyll probably saying unexpected like works years,1 +sometimes want peal white skin every thing wont boil white,0 +nothing im even tired cant nap nothing,0 +need helpi live fantasies head ever since started highschool lifes going downhill old friends distancing me im becoming lazy last anxieties catching me try immerse games books work anymore whenever breathe feels like theres sharp knife throat courage materials commit redflag help,1 +movie shows free enterprise system quest almighty buck transcends racial ethnic barriers ultimately market place determines message sent public movie dramatizes point conservative whitecollar advertising company taken group streetwise african americans chaired nononsense black man wants make buck believes sell products telling truth movie shows matter hard tries something different market place political system demands conform rendering different predecessors interesting offbeat movie,0 +eventually actually get betterbelieve dont believe me best try find yourself,1 +lonely cool not lied,0 +anxiety preventing living life want live know speak get help want see way out cant bare continue life like thisive lived severe anxiety whole life im mids feels worse ever been recently even able anything it managed stump courage talk gp promptly referred cbt useless believe worsened problems constantly unable things want do working dreams aspire to going shop buy something want talking im feeling trying meet people opposite sex im attracted to struggle things immensely idea someone thinking good bad light makes feel extremely nervous sometimes point tears anything know going bring becomes extremely difficult could live life without degree anxiety im convinced vast majority problems would disappear instant keep hearing theres help think anxiety help services ive tried use outreaching something anxiety sufferers desperately need managed get voice seems im either asking wrong places nobody listening clue get help need feel like several years things get better nothing ever changing enough recently resolved end life unsurprisingly anxietyfuelled procrastination held back regard able get together actually deed much want to think im clinically depressed im sick see point living life hamstrung irrational beliefs cant control watch potential live good life wither away bother living years mundanity end now,1 +want kill myself know why feeling stopive felt like long remember least since im now nothing overly wrong life every single day put facade pretend content happy even nobody knows feel come perfectly happy fun around guy every day consider killing myriad ways could it would affected would affected would affected everything feel facade breaking know going shatter,1 +doso ive love girl years balls confess last night talking usual found recently got boyfriend got upset messaged go somehow saw upset asked wrong said nothing wrong said easy read said wasnt asked whether boyfriend lied said nope xd one thing led another asked do like me replied since right im bawling eyes shaking im seriously ready end it cant all,1 +ignore spami hate physical appearance family want die,1 +tried failedive posted tried od pills times last time used box cutter made mess things got stiches beaten senseless many times middle elementary school tumor five years one believed wonderful girl love since th grade years november confessed feelings ive sad every day cry every day feel like weight chest love much cant keep living like take medication go therapists useless reality many us get better fair stuck hellish state people feel good themselves end selfish ones,1 +hey girl touch arm could tell god touched angel ,0 +wont girls text back everything goes well like first messages conversation dies happens every time feel like one interested ,1 +fucking done youi stash paracetamol house contemplating taking iti know would probably fucking painful hell,1 +day posting get girlfriend teacher tabs open chrome work home ass like work nasa,0 +tell fucking discord friends basically vining motherfucker said yoo wish worms went censored would moan like hell man decided mute like minutes,0 +years addicted scrolling posting social media want take back control want go cold turkey anything want self respect time back day anyone tips cut down post days depressed need external validation social media addiction,1 +insurance changed vendors got new inhaler different vendor right word idk,0 +cant make another yearsim ive always low selfesteem linked looks im fuckugly short span time actually somehow managed date girl she somehow managed find attractive thought cured low selfesteem instead temporary reprieve longer together feelings back fullforce honestly want kill every time look mirror every day im still young months ago made pact sorts saying would kill years old unless managed complete list created things want achieve die think it years fucking long considering every day slow miserable know ill make even die redflag ill simply drop dead sadness instead,1 +cannot take anymore begging please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please kill please please kill,1 +kramer kramer kramer kramer,0 +doneive got method mind im hoping finally go it im tired living always love wrong people cant anymore im narcissist beats every little thing unfortunately really really love him says hes tired me want everyone else favor im sick living pain usually thought death scares me right im numb actually sounds comfortable id love sleep never worry anything ever again,1 +gave first award rcalgaryflames hockey team game day announcement feel special,0 +ive never felt shitty lifeduring freshman year university tried kill myself bullying experiencing thought ive well since then branched out made new friends went therapy started appreciating lot more key word thought recently experiences made want try again last weekend friend committed redflag feeling depressed long time something none friends ever knew about theres bridge area known redflags jumped it one former bullies started telling friends kill deserved die pisses hell off also bullied one classes done zoom quarter theres group guys class making life literal hell theyre calling retarded cause disability telling sound like cancer calling ugly calling faggot cause im bi telling try killing after opened redflag attempt telling im useless english major theyre business majors lot things professor really supportive even called email whole class found said things me said theyre guys theyre boys perfect definition told struggle mental health went similar things undergrad im lost dont know do advice gave ignore even gets worse things love surround people love helping get today even told life valuable always support nice girlfriend family lot friends supportive reached too wanna try again plan try again dont deserve treated like this feel like id giving people want it,1 +elearning platforms supplement classroom learning please fill student hi need lot responses survey students elearning platforms supplement classroom learning currently mcqs plus optional free response question would great could help out need project im working on httpsformsglevkceoufuxmhttpsformsglevkceoufuxm suggestions leave comments,0 +term redflag watch sounds little extreme mebut im argue sounds harsh doesnt im need someone talk to bad want cant kill myself revolver nightstand behind idk balls put head pull trigger want die ive trying figure now lately cant help think boy truck coming towards could come lane head wish gas pump would spontaneously blow finish filling tank think redflag watch idk hate life ive mad world lately reason hate job hate myself tired bottling shit in trichotillomania the irresistible urge pluck hair disorder one knows ive able hide years getting hard conceal work with tired stepped talked judged looked upon want alive anymore well honestly wanted alive three years now ive taking anxiety medicine months asked depression said none asked figured born depressed born weighing two pounds attach machines tubes mom said took pinky finger yanked tube mouth almost dead im supposed here always severe many years lying normal tricked believing happy simply cannot function feelings surface brains ability think straight shuts down fool could carry on id like say im good it really good it till now whole life lie know now grandmother drug addict crazy although liked admitting mom crazy uncle died alcohol abuse second cousin killed tired pushed around gay im still living parents kids gives intensive think thats true reason im still parents would absolutely devastated id like talk boyfriend feelings hed worry freaking storm alot power enough wake another morning,1 +guys majorly fucked up talking mom asked last thing copied phone didnt know normally links thought id front her well messing people discord spamming buy feet pics prepare hand foreskin uwu saw im constantly dying embarrassment whenever im around her,0 +hey gamerdude please comment poggies,0 +tom fontanas unforgettable oz hands one greatest television series ever created brilliantly written acted directed close perfection art form film television literature music gets haunting extreme brutality creates prison world filled diverse characters range compassionate flat terrifying show matter brutal get through one cannot take eyes of combination professional trained theater actors film television actors allows range diverse original performancesbr br and show universally praised hashad loyal fan base one cannot feel underappreciated television run hbo dramas the sopranos sex city six feet under shows fine borderline masterpieces right many people forget oz hbos first entry onehour television drama series brave risky first entry hbo hit grand slam it good gets,0 + hour long apple live stream yeah seriously live stream picked washed peeled sliced almost apples yeah fun idk anyone watched average viewership around filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +missed day asking people join cult sorry failed guys massive oversight part come regret horrendously please upset gravely sorry another note join cult lil nas x,0 +indian life waste nothing deny itbut tried suicide reincarnation true might end back n indianwhich wantgod leave cycle cannot commit su cide n indian know do,1 +abuse fucked upeverytime think outrun it gets worse point cannot even anything itwhat point really want,1 +pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo pigeon mayo,0 +many people complaining quarantine online school thought everyone lonely sat home day playing games me yea me help,0 +today last dayim years old go private high school means happy thing wrong life emotionally verbally abusive father however cannot feel anything sadness pain im medically diagnosed psychopath severe depression nothing live eyes self esteem redeeming qualities nothing good cannot feel happy unless im cutting abusing drugs ive never loved never able love anyone im worthy love ill never loved isnt cry help comfort dont know im posting honest wanted like minded people know sympathize live final day earth,1 +merry christmas country th december hope jolly christmas think santa doesnt deliver funeral homes careful going alley,0 +man girl cute shes cool nice too calming comforting voice could really listen forever lives across country wish could hear voice irl hug ill probably delete post bit doesnt kick ass though lol,0 +dispair islands residents void islands group islands located surface almost dead dimension islands likely alive demonstrate lives changing position shape every years island inhabited tribe natives called the wave missionaries dc another group humans came islands pillaged them began war wave missionaries aggressors missionaries led hato best swordsman islands gifted wave set divine powers aggressors came never specified location led irwin wardlock war ended fall fort hijo hato decided pass powers family mysteriously disappeared leaving note saying ill return listened wave calling me pleasant invitation scream pain years later city founded alliance missionaries another batch humans called londinium years later relative hato grica wallace irwin sets find truth behind shady actions duke abraham lucas fate long lost ancestor hato,0 +never wanted make postso month ago met girl dreams doesnt prefer physically intimacy kinda wants left alone lot get ive alone long nice meet someone felt could with idk even im worth here ive sad before ive wanted die last twothree months ive really gotten fixated death mean doubt shed miss long doubt people life could truly miss like know know me kinda dont wanna feel pain seeing one really take pain away dont think wanna feel much anymore drink lot control eh whatever like part matters,1 +mom f retired moved back childhood home week ago years essentially living alone put much weight career worked hard whole life feels like purpose grieving preretirement life depressed cries often try sit her letting know retirement major life change take time get used to anyone experienced know supportivei f single lived alone last almost years moved feel overwhelmed part moving also fact closest friend one true love died suicide days ago grieving hard finding hard support need much support myself advice support depressed recently retired parent,1 +cannot believe gone farit used soo good life ended age im suicidal got death plans months cannot believe im already like this childhood ended feel dead now actually say lot i cannot believe gone far sad leave world months reason school harder court summer school half summer etc really wish couldve childhood back school funner easier ill probably make posts death feel like nothing much posts months seriously miss past whats death like anyways,1 +help please hey internet people turning eighteen midnight cant sleep dad expects move tomorrow ive got money cause trying focus college funds stuff do,0 +feel completely normal still want end alli depressed sad negative things appreciate lifeeverything it feel happy sad anxious excited everything nothing wrong me one question always pops head point living end game this contemplating redflag really dont see point living,1 +outrage pretty good movie robert culp good movie perfect part hard believe true story do watched thought things right learned lesson picked wrong man anyway ever see movie tv watch good one,0 +getting harder dayis point anymore,1 +everyone list random things love learning things abt different ppl heres list love knitting scrapbooking im allergic chocolate im currently working engineering project kms love collecting vinyls im additional one play flute clarinet somee violin currently trying learn piano ,0 +need help long story idk explain it basically friendf made groupchat ig guy ive never spoken before dmed started talking first everything seemed normal chill guy asked send thigh pics first thought joking brushed off everything went normal stopped texting ghosted days friend added groupchat said block him apperantly threatning friend would share thigh pics didnt send nudes u might wondering got thight pics well didnt send pic outfit showed thights friend blocked guy reported too today sister walkes says random dude texting hes claming friend send nudes lie hes texting ppl idk elses hes going do friend really worried blocked acs made sister friend post thayr storys block guy idk else abt im asking help ps sry spelling im trying fast possible doesnt anything worse,0 +small backstory used counselor suicide hotline hated job felt like could truly help anyone unfortunately also going depression thought would better leave job tried using hotline online honestly really sucked felt empty like solve anything swore would never use againampxbi extremely depressed suicidal lately due fact little social interactions others social redflag hard talk others overthink everything trying say wrong things mainly scared talk othersfor fear saying wrong things judgement etc seen therapist due scheduling able til end month today felt like could wait long talking new person redflaging talk annoying them message something made upset turned mess thought messed friendship little amount friends fear losing nothing understand overreact looking back now hard ampxbi called local suicide hotline one talk get like this worse decision ever called line told feeling upset suicidal told feeling sad know properly socialize making redflag depression stronger told know talk people right talking her okay sure get it asked friends talk to said no many friends two have feel comfortable talking this said why friends said i know talk others said why talk people talk okay fuck dude quickly ends call saying you talk people okay try ask make therapy appointment earlier it even mins legit told suicidal active thoughts support got made feel even worse proved really cannot talk properly others like full conversation ended bad panic attack mins ampxbtldr sad told suicide hotline lady feeling suicidal reason bad social redflag hard coversate others deveop meaningful notredflag told talk people easy bye crisis hotline useless,1 +wasis incredible movie incredible cast music singing story etc tragedy arrogant families the gerswhins premingers keep available generation generation wanted see life found site read available shame families pettiness wife germany never seen movie neither stepchildren grandchildren sad movie depth quality available see families get making conceited selfimportant egotistical condescending decision prohibit generations enjoying film stars performances music release video let world judge enjoy,0 +mixed emotionsover course last weeks life living hell dont job applied cant get call back ive call usually give run around one job gave three interviews say wasnt qualified enough end my cell phone broke took said pay get fix signal antenna stopped working worth much wont send new phone week use back phone crashes every five minutes cant make calls try answer phone calls times drops them car wont pass smog cause need driven plates expired pay first bucks day name father car also broke ac needs since live desert uses car drive uberlyft want help cant makes feel worse honestly think shit keeps piling plate nothing go right fight things go wrong ive thinking ending soon cant seem bring it advice,1 +um well kinda wanna die ngl yeah title says,0 +sounds silly wish birdbox monster realspoilers least could stop thinking it work keep others expect could stop disappointing husband could take care instead me weird watch movie feel jealous something morbid yeah anyone related kindve situation see lot people wishing could murdered reason basicallythe courage disappoint people gone,1 +im sorryi want kill myself literally zero hope graduated high school much anxiety im sad enroll collegealso money sad good student high school community college two days dropped felt like killing myself dropped told going get job save help family one hire me experience ive applying two months cant help family pay bills everyday talk jobs family poor literally gotten new clothes since last august nothing fits anymore drove away friends im sad want bring me cant even afford get help want try overdose ive tried three times never worked threw shaky couple days matter many pills took one time walking home school everyone forgot pick one answering going jump front train one old friends saw street waiting gave ride home nowhere hang noose from listen miserable cry every single day top that shitty mom hope like brain tunnel vision option redflag nothing do friends still always things require money hang house always want go stuff requires paying cant it give up know im young life ahead me im poor college one fucking hire nothing else want kill myself think im going drown lake something since know swim want anythng public would inconsiderate dont many choices jus venting,1 +please feel free downvote this im holiday induced insomnia looking someone talk toi doubt work worth shoti first looked rinsomnia look like would find anyone there so like said downvote want since im using subreddit anyone bored would like chat ill even offer topics went church today first time ten years found kinds weird belief im logical ever fall love again dismiss love highschool earlier kid love fake love stupid know real love is sometimes think since love ive known quite possible ever know maybe real love im currently graduate school health profession constantly makes think death im trying pick something might interesting good people subreddit suggestions please feel free talk anything may mind too downvote thanks reading not anyways,1 +feel numbingi born due father making work ask born give consent put earth want put middle personal problems live years try yes ive asked since little never ask life basically trap set selfish adults tradition happened life really great moments always end asking always one psychotic breakdowns call im alltime low cant even think personality kinda absorbed everyone else put spin miles tv game friends got questions tv want watch much thought dont even know forcing cant take dont want almost everything exeption maybe things true spot legos use imagine books tv game food bikes tv dont know anything else im quetioning existense sanity i know anything im nobody takes everybody wanted tall like miles hairstyle shoes like jacket everything games life plagiarism know cope talking helping wake tomorrow knowing stuff got im even mad thought want think talk know probably saying know anything better entire life lie person manifestation everything ive seen around every time things get bad lose sight another person thing take lose im even mad want stop top everything enough going already cant escape age weapon used toy rights emotions privileges im ill days im trying wait give see gets better know dosent im done,1 +one films that whatever reason clicked me everything right eric roberts laconic nice investigator voiceover narration twisting plot dan hedaya denis lipscomb given good roles settings paintings artist studio scenes end credit sequence wonderfully haunting theme music perfectly encapsulates mood whole film reservations beverly dangelo femme fatale plays final scenes beautifully think director matthew chapman trying sort chinatown feel whole thing didnt work murdermystery gem,0 +hey lookin fellow xbox nerds needing friends game with im btw yes ik lowest level teen be,0 +help pleasei need someone talk,1 +another failed attempt another week ot suffering hell selfish god made button die whenever want kill useless person like damn,1 +love thin man series love movie powells character vance similar character nick charles even dogs br br the chemistry powell astor may fabulous powell loy half bad,0 +poting post rcasualconverstion got delited_________i wanna cut wrists english nd language words may spelled wrongim currently bed typing this parents never come room lately sience school started ive seeing frends school wich brings bit joy gives lot anxaeaty say wrong word anywhere wich makes wanna curl ball die dont think depression may do dont think so thing takes mind pain wheter ist poking pen point penetrate skin biting hand point blood starts coming out sence im teenager parents putting lot pressure me tasks chores school on mom even making fun pandemic friends scholl back cant hang anyone im always buisy stepdad instead explaining tasks gives me lectures bad everything gives anxaety im constantly paranoid evrything want eberything stop read instead cutting wrists draw it didnt help wanna cut hands let blood bleed out anyone reddit this please sugestions do please,0 +theres cockroach room bruh know lurking somewhere felt something bite lifted blanket cockroach quick didnt get kill it mf fat one fuck,0 +answeri want someone know ive depressed years ive lost friends reason never before anyone now im thinking tomorrow somehow someway it want dont want it questions nagging long till someone finds many people would sad heard would funeral one left that justifying keeps night answer think will strangers internet seemed like viable option letting someone know exist little longer,1 +wanna kill badi feel worthless everyone abandoned me everyone try meet doesnt care hate me everyone hates me fuckin keep going try get better drives farther cliff,1 +sure whats going happeni drank half bottle tequila downed whole bottle nyquil last night whole body numb head feels like constantly spinning really thinking killing found could cause liver failure long since it go hospital would nothing could do,1 +filled much redflag thinking going planning pls help redflag,1 +imagine time when mike wazawski sullivan face gets old try showing kids meme dont understand old people ways,0 +movie ive seen prince matter thought great singing boy wrong probably best performance music great thats oscar best music movie or something like that oscar grammies belt although cursing gets way film just make sure little kids room much say without revealing plot really go get movie collection complete unless got movie it else could possibly say except go get movie now,0 +girlfriend addicted headpats done im headpats dispensary,0 +girl told likes talking girl like met rly special person days like time told special person helped depression said well like you kinda happy ngl thought id stayed life alone,0 +need help mother father really homophobic bisexaul need advice come,0 +helpi know do friend the one asking flash talking killing himself tried minutes ago messaged saying work would try later ive treated call police listen do,1 +decisionsi want write life story wont may recognized ill annoyingly vague little money looked various methods redflag seems need acquire gun none methods possible certain enough paying gun put awkward position buy use it likely literally homeless streets shortly afterward buy it use it commit course action would prefer make final decision without pressure think can reasons ending life worth arguing about alone unwanted unloved far longer people reading alive problem amenable solution cannot loved cant prove that far beyond obvious years care even discuss it may seem unsatisfied relationships no simply none relevant person emotionally never been even child know why wish person longer cannot anyone else need die decide soon whether make purchase want clear commit think nearly years evidence sufficient defective garbage one says so words say it kind decent people unwittingly say show every day ive miserable long enough time,1 +best way commit redflag guns rope knives,0 +wanna get hit car badi wanna die dont wanna kill would hurt loved ones much dont deserve wanna die quick painless dont want anyone feel guilty cant accidentally fall building something dont fucking know whats way kill without hurting anyone,1 +feel like asshole friends startung play dnd recently sessions first one dont remeber happened end second one ended needed something today playing got suggested take break dinner rejoin half later said end session feel like asshole becuase dont want think im enjoying trying quit im actually really enjoying,0 +documentary one best documentaries ive seen also one moving quietly beautiful movies ive seen period follows lives two sudanese young men peter santino try make way american culture peter santino friends first gradually drift apart peter goes kansas city santino stays houston a land called houston santinos beauty eyes takes people onto back supports apartment full sudanese paying rent everything people quiet sufferer peter looks himself getting high school education playing basketball making christian friends seems director megan mylan know getting beauty tale peter santino amazing characters move you real strength movie lies commentary american society judging shows strengths weaknesses world difficult outside people suggest find film look america lives two fascinating beautiful peoplebr br my grade ,0 +know ok im going make sort short im typing lunch break ive girl almost years issues recently caught cheating me claims guy made feel better self provided attention longer giving her even try fix anything talk dropped her week sexual cravings going crazy knew easy would call pretend put things back together well know got wanted still stand done family went though stupid would even still want mess someone cheated me brother told needed get things let go want anything let go let go second time kind got point used sex went spite fucked friend mine weeks breaking brother gave ultimatum started really missing really wanted life back actually love her told self could get move forward took back second time knew done things single happy said would move happy familyoh yea daughter fathering first day back brother stormed house lives next door ask wtf back dumb bitch believes user manipulator told loved going move past everything happy since removed life completely delima kind small back ground brother closest relative took back hates wants nothing constantly talks trash decision feel like mistakes made live reality decent life style living dad seeing much everything sucked without words mouth felt without herempty alone constantly wanting her cant stop thinking friend hooked with think sometimes times times day love much brings much pain ive lost family girl care much fucked friend mine ive contemplated sucide cant think better way situation cant without hurts her do,1 +always wanna redflagam one get sad wanna kill self end cutting arm lightly,1 +rational redflagi recently read mitchell heismans redflag notehttpwwwredflagnoteinfoebookredflag_notepdf work made ponder continue living essence heisman argues life meaningless and selfpreservation equals selfdestruction redflag reasonable choice biases overcame arguments compelling enough commit redflag,1 +every time ive chance end always regret lateri wish redflag easier commit wanna die fucking bad wish would die accident murder something,1 +suicidal people want liveotherwise would occasionally number killer,1 +sure thats problem not like thingy go like three world real word internet world imagination world people spend time internet world real world feel like problem time imagination world point could go around circles room hours straight pay attention anything current world im in sure thats worrying depression bad point create alternative world escape to,0 +youwould anybody really care shoot bullet brain shotgun watching way would another act laugh everyone least would funny feel like deserve live way truly feel like one would care week anyway got work money theyll watching get paid feel like fucking tv show bullshit longer one really gives shit,1 +wanna dieim seriously contemplating killing right now friends dont know cause keeping happy smile front anyone honestly tired told depressed brush like nothing one person trust physically hurt made depressed ever,1 +posting everyday get girlfriend day im spain without s nothing it dont want live dont want die im happy im sad pain,0 +sadi dont anything sad about im straight student wonderful mom dad little sister yet night battle want end it want someone tell yet time dont want tell that times battle night time tonight far worst wonder ill make see morning,1 +hgsdjasoihatelifegdbhsjjnhdgskjlkvfdhkj hi commit alivent unless get reddit coins maybe award something else lol jk hahaha im funny arent,0 +wrote little story short man muscular physique smiles lifts rippled arms air lets great victorious bellow woooo yeah baby thats ive waiting for thats about cheers success mighty canine tetra loyally trots side enthusiastically celebrate accomplishment finally getting see unicorn relieve itself end,0 +last year attempted switch jobs let go new position due ex gf making false statement online moved away girlfriend cannot find work cannot afford pay debt sold everything make ends meet handed s resumes lot experience certificates trades engineering think ex said previously preventing screening recently relocated girlfriend found employment car mirror vandalized insurer covering repair seems cannot drive work dealt depression redflag suicide before never bad pay bailiff repossess car cannot even drive selling things love like cameras guitars truly lost everything fearful losing partner love much hard even think sure do income redflag even job enough cover costsi never thought id low sure universe trying tell me clean sober smoke treat every person meet respect always help hate seeing girlfriend cry sure else point human young man feel defeated cannot handle anymore staffing companies interviews lead nowhere pay next nothing applicants seems like cannot get break last option move home mothers factors make less desirable partner really know left do went having house cars everything last thing scared lose her love much think done,1 +want apologisei told someone sub yesterday would get better words hurt sincerely apologise that im sorry deluding well you hope forgive,1 +posting daily get gf day done many different things posts never given universal truth school boring i even know anymore expect post,0 +supposed answer girl says likes like fr sure isnt joking around pranking also please jokes ,0 +oppsiebeen hospital um hours im suicidal rescreening later morning see theyre gonna admit psych ward um want go home bad j brat wasted hospitals time grandmas what hissy fit living boyfriend damnshit know idiot explain im fine need go home psychiatrist,1 +rant whoever hate cant learn cant like everyone else everything horrible hate world live hate hating friends dont talk keep things pretend happy killing inside keep failing every subject ones like keep telling cares cant speak french i dont like france everyone judges horrible nobody understands anyone loves fuck,0 +happy mens day like happy boys day right bois hehe could wrong everything world idiot damn big brain time,0 +fucking overachievers sigh,0 +want pregnancy kill without regretim sick everything gross fucking room temper tantrums toddler throws mice think place roomies dishes trash everywhere pain pregnant despite birth control scraping keep bills stay thousands dollars debt apply jobs behalf fucking himself doctors blatantly making difficult get sterilized give birth second time im still young may change mind constantly judged mom sometimes scream cant take more again maybe shit mom becauae even toddler yanks hair hits toys put away shortened nap think much want die try desperately cry around cant hold know seeing way damaging way fault shitty mom like hes old enough understand that sees me wreck mess thing really keeping together right fact pretty fucked kill leave toddler alone hours till dad gets home weeks baby sibling born maybe moms kids live enough honestly hurts more choices options even death revolve entirely around whats best kids im trapped lost angry dont want feel way cant stop it wanted better foot forward wanted stronger happier mother wife dont spine it feel like im crushed alive one nothing help me im tired want go sleep never wake up want done,1 +cant anymorethese feelings keep getting killing become prevalent every single day past month two mum dating man knew years ago former work colleague passed away dad hes violent thug criminal appears court like job it isnt idea does anything all hes failure man know sees him hes also coming home living time paying fk all eating food buy complete twat me setting new rules me nothing fucking id rather fuck off yesterday joined gym lose weight cant get without someone mum take me cant go cunt always here infuriates me,1 +tall yall im ish wont getting taller sadly,0 +month since partner years left birthday bags packed said leaving closure still even know happened physically emotionally abusive never told anyone account emasculating feels know tell people female partner punches home arguments begged go therapy years started covid worked hard become better person mentally healthy hated version me waste life s reason live took friends anyone anymore drove cross country family try sort out quickly reminded spend much time family made mental health worse happier alone dog car go anything stopped taking medication drinking heavily done year really took last ativan today thing keeping going deep end doubt psychiatrist prescribe seems like end me think people suicide lifes purpose feel like finally becoming content that cannot even talk like openly therapist psychiatrist fear committed know self know lie get drive killing myself understand people thought loved want hurt badly guess bad karma done something deserve feel like nature telling time die expect one respond even read this one cry help,1 +cant handle anymorei think redflag option,1 +add meaning life really hobbies besided playing games fufilling ive tried making music art completely horrible know everyone needs practice want little talented something donkt get discouraged ideas,0 + seems really bittersweet getting better last year lot sad things still happen like daft punk man im gonna miss them,0 +quick question girls yall enjoy eaten out,0 +want hang scared livingim worried ill end surviving ending serious brain damage sure im trying achieve posting like guys give advice successfully xd,1 +whats annoying nagging thing stops every timeive teetering suicidal whole life im currently first time attempted and failed horribly times around point wouldve done couldve found means it big thing terrified physical pain im less terrified physical pain itd lot easier it something seems stop every time last year horrible me moved back home town deal abusive father first time years since moved house fell drugs under control now car stolen gotten pregnant amp abortion got fired recently shitty experiences people thought close friends robbed overall dangerous situations year live life extreme depression extreme anxietyparanoia lately holds back a baby sister around weve actually started talking little parents kind nightmare deal know im sane person life love like crazy worry repercussions death would her b ex boyfriend angel cares deeply would devastated gone really try hes extremely busy live different states top that longer romantic feelings me mainly bullshit claims hes going internal process give time theyll likely come back know hes saying keep hurting myself regardless lack romantic feelings hes really attached me hurts cling hope yaknow love him hope kind keeps going anywhere shit even lying cant cope guilt would died im exhausted though like honestly truly energy get life want it want die lot bullshit last year put bad situations im trying move away get them depression consistent regardless kind situation throughout life im pretty sure sort mental illness never health insurance means seeing therapist anything biological mom mental asylum years family says schizophrenia suspect borderline im starting worry hereditary ive getting crazy levels paranoia lately thinkin feds amp shit also could just again lifestyle choices shit something wrong keep fucking friendships ruining reputation etc last boss told reason firing literally vibe off thats kind stuff really makes think something seriously wrong me know bottom heart im least malicious person know guess im place needed vent think closest friends know im suicidal tbh theyre kind tired hearing it nobody life wants deal negativity really feel inadequate survival difficult me real support system financially emotionally,1 +opportunities hope screw uphi everybody used lurk lot subreddit feel need say goodbye im still depressed know over still time always be im changing environment im trying browse positive stuff maybe manage get friends summer fix problems dont over least im putting effort know people going bad times im praying although probably helpi hope everything get better everyone im tired suffering seeing people suffer goodbye rredflagwatch please give in,1 +pretty surprised flick even though budjet obviously lacking still impressed movie took years make still turned good acting pretty impressive story really captivated me complaint would ending really little abrupt taste hey audience left wanting movie succeededbr br i would really recommend anyone hollywood look antonella ros excellent spanish talent something hard find days bad novela acting antonella ros truly star rise,0 +sensitive well im probably call indoors kid never involved sports resulted basically sucking kinds sports ive made fun quite lot it making feeling insecure wanting try due afraid getting laughed at ive trying improve physically past years although routinely jogging sometimes home aerobic exercises likes well today one best friends asked wanted go play badminton families friends well one crush oof im awkward guy around people im familiar with also obviously suck badminton i catch much said something along lines well really matter go not honest kinda hurt me said kinda jokingly fashion still cant help thinking it ive wanting find friend willing slowly help improving physically someone give fuck suck sports not basically someone willing accompany help course laugh im already trying best information also went friends circle play badminton while probably counts taking first step improving myself maybe made fun previously due sucking physical activities cant seem take commentremark heart guys think,0 +im white supremacist white skin kinda perfect filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +need normalize legalize redflag personal assistedthis world diseased dying everyone place immoral capitalist system everyone purpose everyone born right im autistic social interaction makes panic ive never held job longer year unable able get onto disability see point continuing life way human right allow people end lives terms brought world will unfair deny everyone else right,1 +feel this tw tried kill earlier month almost succeeded stopped bleeding hours one noticed dont know feel that feel like died used opportunity think feel remorse dont,0 +feel like nothing live forim almost college student graduate end schoolyear almost one live miles away family support group pretty good group friends months transferred school theyve completely abandoned me know incredibly suicidal am care brush give worthless platitudes want feel wanted somebody one makes feel wanted im school club actually prominent member know killed myself id missed duties personal presence seem close im never let group like nothing big party im invited to ive gone counseling therapy even antidepressants nothing gets better matter do let shyness take over stay im miserable overcome shyness try connect someone im eventually abandoned feel miserable sad thing probably best ill ever it college much monetary burden not yet anyway surrounded people age graduate know itll go shit degree european history equal job family struggling this would killed months ago want dead tie preventing taking life family feel like cant last forever want want content matter do cant be,1 +schmerzen ohne endeich kann das nicht mehr wie soll ich stunden tag diese qualvollen nervenschmerzen ertragen ich kmpfe nur noch fr meine mutter ich hatte einen qualvollen geburtstag und jetzt qualvolle weihnachten ich habe tausende euros fr rzte ausgegeben habe aber nie eine sinnvolle diagnose erhalten mein leben dreht sich nur noch um diese unertrglichen kopfschmerzen wie soll ich weitermachen,1 +play music discord vcs server want know,0 +bible true god says is god real bible says is checkmate atheists,0 +please tell doi want pass dont courage want hurt others want die without causing commotion dont know,1 +subreddit bipolar say sometimes allows photos selfies shit sometimes doesnt like subreddit bipolar teenagers anyway make fucking mind,0 +feel though way pain understood people want understand kill myselfi long understood think ever be hurting person want love best cant stop it sorry pitiful seems like asking attention want belittle community,1 +posts dry cant even pretend funny anymore,0 +learning online far many us all begun school thought ask hows life distance learning here and adjusted setting so so,0 +ever okay opinion done lifei extremely rare condition means completely normal yet unable smile curse particularly cruel one carry mom took drugs pregnant struggled working hour shifts days week going dad one point gf lost baby born current gf driving pit dispair feel point never actually known happy happy hurt moment ive burned stabbed cut spit on stamped hurt every way imagine kept going every day till point feel longer go on enough enough calling day earth right option,1 +godammit,0 +matter won forget theyre racists filler filler filler filler filler,0 +pointless depressed since now struggled tons mental health issues sex addiction body dysmorphiai understand offed yet guess holding hope somehow turned manipulative piece shit ever taken advantage people mental health struggles people evil sniff shit right away anything make feel safe moment abuse shit end refuse let taken advantage of see point fixing anything tired try right living shitty room share situation strange people worse super dependent mother sick too job get paid enough go back school sept depressed anything right cannot imagine starting school againi want someone genuine life tired dealing shitty people moral integrity people fucking horrible cannot anything help want live anymore,1 +everything fine want kill myselflife great me one year ago attempted redflag im therapy need pills anymore good grades great boyfriend sweet supportive friends even tho strick sometimes cruel step father life bad oh happy no want kill myself want feel like time it scheduled im waiting guts it,1 +long ranti hate im back again five years road still think thoughts andfeel emotions im starting think im mentally ill cant bring tell mom tough age cant get evaluation confidentiality dont want trouble one gave birth struggles raise everyday im shitty enough already dont want shouldering shit lately going school tough waking difficult sometimes little less difficult maybe even manageable ive noticed hard drag bed simply see purpose so for for why nothing one reason school hard get through overwhelming presence everyone around smarter better makes feel small insignificant point im proud made day school entire week even fucking hard kept thinking killing ending all right right already feel distancing everyone acting different im dead much want be instead im sat here mountain work piling me expectations commitments responsibilities essay due one hand holds pen redflag note ive planned out im sick this cant shoulder alone cant turn anyone one seems want listen god im getting bad fast hope die cant even turn family people supposed situations reality one roof felt happiness home drains life want happy family cant support love one another like families mom dad want happy feel like this im lost confused right im thinking abt taking final leap im scared anymore ive felt before ive thought happen again end myself honestly willi cant bear im fucking tired school pain ass one family cares were equally suffering thanks dad ure shitty person wanna die,1 +happeninghi first greetings every human here im going die tonight im couple minutes away local train station im going walk tracks im halfway stations im going kneel tracks see next train coming im posting shred sadness leaving world would love seen get better however believe im ending gets worse will think amazing people theres thing afterlife try best protect help im ready go wish could said goodbyes ill say goodbye guys though ill truly miss you,1 +question prom happens prom really need partner what im still th grade insanely idea whats that heard one im th th grade party im planning bringing gaming set play time,0 +mc mental preformed inauguration change mind im wrong,0 +anyone else see people dying young overdoses accidents thinkdami wish me envy dead,1 +todaysomedayi want die anything world want cease exist stop feeling shame selfloathing brought point countless times years cant epiphany opens eyes new sense purpose im much coward something it sit here day day out crying waiting day finally find courage need overcome last obstacle standing peacemyself,1 +fuck lifesome people meant live others meant die matter good person matter everyday pain hurt face many deal worth it wish could deal anymore worst part myself ,1 +joke time almost joke day normal laugh weird evil laugh everyone bombing site looks weird,0 +well progress theres girl ive interested long time weve talking almost every night lately days talk cause drama get thats now ive chilled lot that im really worrying much thinks me well weve snapping well snapchat anyway usually sends one pic response say send pic back tonight though sending two pics basically like double texting mean interested progress least,0 +challenge accepted today friends walking one friends like lets see followers instagram predicted won one like lets check followers girls tell guys one instagram seen face everyone see friends post art boi also sail hehim people following know me them guess won somehow followers girls like dont many followers either like like girls me jealous friend like bet cant talk girl talked weeks rejected cant even talk normally day like become friends dont want date anyone yet talk weeks get talk girl weeks btw girl one hottest girls school,0 +life dont know say this im christian believe god always think meaning this need good person god doesnt exist means thats everything life doesnt matter im disposable understand atheists always doubt existence god maybe lot good things life doesnt matter maybe something wrong going hell maybe doesnt exist die everything finish im really scared im scared good person heaven exists want go there good things not everything doesnt matter everything im going doesnt matter nothing matter try study lot try someone want happy head always thing of nothing matters die purpose this im really scared dont know do want someone important time want affect peoples life dont know atheist better think purpose this think im bad person people around says no im great person dont know believe dont know want happy life cuz die nothing want good person dont enjoy things place heaven dont know like said lot tines before im scared,0 +love bread everything get much bread possible love bread whole life life dedicated eating bread love im eating bread every day always delicious bread made life worth living think could bread help support,0 + even beats nasty raw almost twenty years old show still laughed much watching last night shows eddie murphy dressed tight red clothesold schooland jokes everything celebertis family years old mustseebr br ,0 +need talk someone ill talk first person dm,0 +younger use think eating ice cream waffle cone way eat it,0 +one mistake made past still regret regret it past mistakes,1 +depression panic attacks derealisation episodes quite time sucks ssri afford rn fluoxetine working me heard good things sertraline parents retrenched way afford long term advice cannot afford treatment currently university really hellish live day day ssris expensive,1 +wish dieyesterday nearly drowned beach friend saved me went home reflections died yesterday feel nothing even regrets longer feel regrets conscience gone forever minutes theres pain lungs filled salt water burns pain last memory pain things unresolved die never feel future brain never feel regret simply dead never done anything worthwhile dead dead feel emotional pain death bad,1 +likes back boys thats it thats post get poggers chat,0 +savedi full rage suicidal new eminem album given new courage enthusiasm fuck everyone else im goat,1 +hi im looking someone met among us me bil cipher there im looking drcactus dark green skin cowboy hat watched gravity falls really wanna play rounds him leave please there come out,0 +im doneim done everything im tired living earlier thinking oh said goodbye uncle family could wouldnt care talked brother told everything hate supportive talked crying love much best brother little would help crying parents yelling every step way probably wouldnt hadnt talked,1 +understand day age people still need beg helpi suffer serious depression redflag well several physical illnesses reached local services last years help there reached point suicide attempts last month guess still nothing turn find sad nhs praised good job really happening across whole nhs board suicide rates hitting time highs lockdown major impact figures understand praise nhs saving many lives one way ignore lives losing others mental health joke,1 +cry help loud want doesnt work ones listeningi want hurt badly communicate pain one listening want slash open every blood vessel cover every inch house blood want scream vomit want break every one bones hammer smash teeth in one see besides paramedics one want care care need someone see pain care it,1 +want take shotgun side head obliterate brain stop pain suffering depression redflag heartbreak trauma haunts constantly tired life energy fight things anymore living hell want blow brains,1 +alone dark think took much music indicator sadness usually music one answering think it oh,1 +imma sleep good night everybody good noon morning everybody else,0 +relationships everything id u care getting gf bf ur life must suck enjoy little things fun focus,0 +im trying make poll cause put answer comments whats favorite megalovania bonetrousle undertale ost battle true hero death glamour,0 +oh mylanta smarter intake therapisti made phone calls reach help mental illness addiction im ssissdi candidate im going thru pure hell middle age people age work force fault own cos want us want lovely tech savvy job switching roommate loving millennials middle age people need work too were seen medical liabilities legal liabilities know much everyone marries children earn strong incomes live outgrew roommates long time ago too desire boundaries respect appreciation worked hard for free sliding scale places im accustomed to quality posted about calling s hotline get intern still training using testimony build college papers newly graduated recently certified one experience life setback never homeless never lost job experience middle age health issues nicely decorated office business card title family photos desk relaxed demeanor explain circumstances pause go script mode scripting calming them bc get close me might catch circumstances contagious pristine mind is new clinicians intake people talk hyper fast listen understand listen respond sometimes ill say something innocuous see theyre paying attention tracking me like i insurance says oh month aca said thats premium add copay amp deductible take annual deductible divide mos thats monthly premium month cant take any job til find one looking for thought managers make choice applicant long min wage hr last housing utilities healthcare absorbs check know insurance cover claims many people filing bankruptcy us medical bills pay due insurance cos denying claims include medications needs like gym calm nerves due insanity govt economy leave homeless part til end bc know thats big stigma like plague something must wrong himher heshe college well spoken addictions obvious impairments car home oh my himher work us cant offer free sliding scale counseling funds come county local donators cant place himher target group file reimbursement pass buck sorry know tell you give resource s try weve heard this find root cause theyre trained treat obvious symptom root cause root causes working again way earn income maintain dignity pay adult bills housing healthcare kicks in facing reality tuning platitudes well wishes actions speak louder one cares one cares empty invisible hard earned accomplishment devalued ignored recognize me theyd something dehumanizing easier sanitizes conscience creates just job barrier keep moving,1 +im useless im highly disappointed myself feel frustrated give upim useless even easy things like driving point life realize ill never happy im done give everything im scared keep trying im tired crying time im lot pain right now sadly cant even end life im coward,1 +supposed figure theyre okayive tried speaking people feeling suicidal support them etc several still decided go anyways guess figure occured in try fail change mind ghost me succeed want know reason care hope every single one change mind recover end day cannot control anybody anyway finding out not alright tried,1 +im readyi packed car chemicals bucket hydrogen sulfide poisoning kms tmr cant wait,1 +problems friends struggling suicidal thoughtsposting behalf friend friction within group friends particularly two members ill refer b sake semianonymity making little easier write b close friend me practically older brother boyfriend almost five years now theyre near dear heart ive trying mediate whenever problems arise things escalated point longer capable own however leave situation truly fear things continue worsen want either suffer it so hoping could get input unbiased third party exactly done here give background main parties involved b part social circle coming year now less one person here none us think differently im sure difference length times weve known exacerbating problems joined us invitation a right heels leaving latest abusive friend group string hes through usual terrible cocktail depression anxiety top abuse along autistic recently come trans also somewhere spectrum also trans also survivor pretty severe abuse struggles anger issues top depression anxiety b therapist tried getting medication tried seek means fulfilling needs attempting seek therapy recently started medication problems were dealing with start find pressing matter b fairly frequently stressed suicidal deals seeking reassurance friends hes much extrovert needs regular interactions multiple people hes close order recharge top due anxiety past abuse hard time remembering people care hes middle breakdown needs reassured explicitly still cared hes badly also frequently stressed suicidal along extreme end introverted deals feelings come avoiding stressful situations course friend saying want die pretty stressful situation particularly as abusive ex used weaponize selfharm redflag threats and fully believe trust b intentions manipulative merely expressing feelings try help rather keep bottled up trauma necessarily see difference able discuss matters much b home life stressful enough quite time energy handling external negativity heavy conversation hes expressed feels like everything tries help winds making things worse like good enough b like hes everything wrong eyes hes begun defaulting silence rather forcing deal situations know handle energy try course unfortunately directly conflicts bs need people talk reassure hes breaking down leaves b feeling like actually care him compounding recently everyone vastly busy school work stuff past much talking going group chats used result save b one recent member know well cant speak habits of group much used communications exclusively public channels simply contact oneonone sort regular basis friendships work b needs interaction that specifically directed interaction that fact im one recently taking time personally message check taking great toll him think entirely reasonable b ask rest group make effort reach rather contact first every single time think much ask people accommodate small change interactions avoid hurting someone care about seems like single message caring daily would fairly simple integrate schedules would go long way towards helping b however b also said multiple occasions recently worn think anything talk besides bad hes feeling personal experience ive heard others someone messages generally wants talk further think wrong people worried initiating conversation believe going go territory uncomfortable simply spoons handle even so still think fair solution seems simply talking b all previously mentioned struggles anger issues led snapping b handful times before one particularly bad incident recently ended blocking b platforms share made postsspoke people venting situation posts b later saw reconciled days later b still feeling hurt incident feel like sufficiently addressed made for addition times b snapped another friend struggles similar anger issues left feeling hesitant speak them even talk group setting theyre around exacerbates care issue seems led vicious cycle withdraws feel trusted hurts him b feels like care needs explicit reassurance keep hurt himself feels less trusted hurt cycle continues thought would time work everything relevant situation write bs moved actively suicidal whole reason im writing im worn enough think im able help much longer want see die failures hope ive provided enough background already helpful tldr one friend needs frequent reassurance attention frequent breakdowns another friend cares first cannot deal kind stress theyre hurting badly,1 +happy christmas hannuka funky monkey friday everyone whatever celebrating hope everything great well know year pretty hard live us were gonna go forget simp corpse nice weekend lt,0 +quero morrertentei suicdio esta quarta tomei umas quatro ou cinco caixas de medicao minhas pernas continuam fracas mas tremedeira excessiva e cansao acabaram quero morrer ainda almocei sushi com um amigo e caminhei parque com uma exprofessora quero morrer fui numa confeitaria com dita exprofessora ela disse sobre dar dez anos e tentar suicdio de novo quero morrer meu crebro parece que est sendo modo de tanta dor que eu sinto eu quero morrer eu acho que talvez mate de vez aguento mais perdi uma amiga amada perdi minha indianinha e agora sinto arrasado quero morrer vida continua mesmo somente natural que eu continue querendo morrendo,1 +im afraid dont know anymorei dont know anymore dont know dont care all care much dont know im hurting much dont know it ease pain without giving others im afraid im fucking afraid im afraid ill always feel way never gets better truth told life couldnt much better great friends family job love pays well awesome flat therapist hobbies interests got all im afraid one day dont strength carry anymore one day lose battle win everyday fight next lose once over im afraid let people in fear hurt eventually im afraid mother brother sister friends im afraid day today ask happened nothing did good bad day other thats scary thing reason trigger problem fix nothing happened,1 +starts one month cannot make another year much considering killing go back things want die tho school,1 +situationfor years ive struggling suicidal thoughs cant kill myself know like live enjoy life time then every year so dip want anything sleep hours time still im tired cry nothing lose friends just want dissapear then again know want kill myself makes things worse i know do dip im in now going onfor months know why want selfdiagnose anything im scared go doctor im hopeless got boyfriend wonderfull tries support me hes losing patience want bother problems guys please anyone know how feel better again ive tried talk friends backed away ive got noone left noone understands need psychological help ive never much pain life everything seems miserable keep messing everything im bitch time moodyness notice ive done social dammage cant im up want sleep never wake again tldr feel miserable time need help cant kill myself cant stay emotional pain time,1 +hello again friend streaming commissions please check out hes pretty good httpstwitchtvwafffle_ironhttpstwitchtvwafffle_iron,0 +last daycan someone text kik citygirl name sierra need friend,1 +wonders killed wonderedpeople tell theyll distraught disbelief upset ever take life theyre many times wonder right thing do sure people upset taking away everything would make everyone else much happier would make lives easier feel like ever anyway mess things up ruin peoples day hate thinking maybe everything would better without around think like people end hurting hurt someone deeply loved respected friend know do,1 +want write somethingi need write something guess add anxiety bipolar disorder im poor get help medication it moment im working hours week living really shitty apartment days feel amazing motivated actually wanting things low days im like this im thinking getting second job could get problem feeling would make low periods even worse ive suicidal ideation years now thats really noticed depression kicking in ive one redflag attempt took gamble took mg xanax shots whiskey sure enough kill me also left chance after research now think mg xanax nothing this wrote journal document whatever feeling hours woke found written lot remembered took sign supposed really entertained idea since lived feel like im supposed here why skills im unmotivated thing want life sit listen music famous making music know possible much want believe talent anything like that ive thinking focusing going back school position medical field also know im smart enough it seems like two things want life unobtainable im good making maintaining relationships made friend years friends high school theyre like me aspirations succeed were wasting away want that want anything less someone great know am want live someone average dreams seem impossible achieve am im also gay hate that wish woman im not constantly struggle identity every day days feel content days love myself days hate myself im fucking tired consistent view things im flighty cant commit anything feel like ill never get anywhere life ill live life deadend job depresses me dont cant live like forever im almost set that im successful road success im going kill myself feel like want live time im tired trying things disappointed myself im tired wish someone greater am not,1 +feel like deserve diehi there going little long senior college currently good school time here systematically done everything wrong take right classes meet right people feel lost insignificant major never acted put there work shit see getting job this moving life see failure friends person texts mom pretty sure one cares feel like given much life done nothing it redflag good way absolve guilt,1 +fucking hate nword rword im neither black mentally ill im white brazilian though signs autism depression adjustment disorder borderline disorder etc ive never time money diagnosis gotta assume im neurotypical therefore even right use rword hate nword rwordeven black mentally person uses them believe reclaiming bullshit seems like roundabout way encourage discrimination heard one celebrity say black people rough get worse jobs treated like shitso please let one word like uhfair enough guess still like anyone using word,0 +its selfish thing anyone dothats stepmother said redflag nice dinner table conversation nice family gathering celebrating one nameday two birthdays one own anyone else crisis think theyd live pretend whole time im normal way involved affected topic haha idea whole time many people even know im seeing psychologist stuff one stepbrothers seeing psychiatrist theyre judgemental hes valid idea could say things especially context thoughts this too agrees might times even help others selfish thing world give oppurtunity up what fuck one stepbrother one family member attempt herself started set rights meanwhile busy coward trying show hurt trying cry poker face dad sitting beside lay shoulder long time staying silent eventually asked jokingly are falling asleep better get situation needed contact anyway psychologist knows know long ill seeing her well anyone internet cares know joke friends know might harmful laugh wed cry god sorry rant im tired pretending,1 +get bad grade going kill myselfif probably will dont get college dont much live for even one f change things maybe people feel like this,1 +random rental video store impressed start wooden camera gem nd feature engaging director film captures deeply insightful moments several often times frustrating complicated social interactions young interracial friends would experience modern post apartheid south africa young actors quite good well directed approach core material dialogue natural interesting film rich visuals providing frame frame study deeper understanding fulfillment without falling iconic stereotypes clichs musical score film adds body film without obtrusive watching second time tracked dvd amazon happy ever since,0 +inconsequential ramblingsive hard times long time ago ive come understand troubles life result shit went years ago now directly comes time everybodys life realize responsible choices certainly am held accountable happened me people change life change without cutting ties massive effort people really capable of maybe included idk im trying though im back school im stumbling across bull shit problems last time around years ago seclusion hard time life go away quickly really fucks up every day faced dread peers never experienced never will prolonged exposure sort shit changes person literally changes you synapses change different neural pathways become ingrained like trenches ruts become almost impossible climb of brain fucks cope add isolation concoction result one trainwreck personality ie me dad died suddenly without warning mom confessed suicidal thoughts me still boy fucked man gone forever happy family gone forever gone god damn instant little left almost wondered even existed first place holding onto memories like grabbing smoke shit continued years later widow cant afford house anymore lose it fucking home place grew up gone likely forever im holding place heart someday successful enough buy back despite sincere fucking efforts school feel acting vain much thoughts run depraved desperate demeanor alienate myself alone crowd going motions smiling polite happy normal thin veneer nobody understands,1 +see one empty platitude im actually going kill myselfit pisses much seeing shit like it gets better redflag permanent solution temporary problem like fuck know going get better problems temporary people like assume people suicidal irrational something idk get better us,1 +swag gimme swag took,0 +things get worsethings get worse sometimes get confused seems like things starting get better confusion caused fact things actually getting worse things get worse effort put in faith hard work taking risks putting oneself and ruin myself almost positive life implode get horrible fast makes sense things never stay course lieu positive growth decay want die feel like person held gun point begging life one take me just nothing here embarrassment shame frustration failure humiliation dread pain schadenfreude expense nothing ever right nothing right nothing find information gleam experience attempt have nothing correct wrong wrong wrong fit in fitting important power nothing cant talk hate world lie people know lie know why tell tell putting act am feel nothing dread shame perfect example fail airplane stalling seemingly reason all somehow reasons once bit everything knew felt am would never talk all sometimes even convince myself moments others best getting back need be gutter always be scared scared death pain death pain death pain see misery me anyway runt litter cant shit gets pruned pack natures beautiful wrathful glory death without care,1 +guys lovvvvvvve complain me included every time open reddit see post saying god hate parents x x x theyre worst like bro gives shit theyre bad youll house years never talk again thankful alive thankful everything have odds feed clothe maybe even give place stay outweighs almost anything besides abuse im saying try view things parents perspective quit bitching moaning took phone,0 + monthsthe winters cold dark summer always favorite time year sun never sets summer theres beautiful forested valley close live thats im going june hiking finding tree sit under ill listen music watch midnight sun fall asleep last time time june im distracting watching movies love replaying games meant lot me havent talked friends now hurts thinking them life death two sides coin live means accept death im going station little bit others hope wont hate much it maybe ill see someday im looking forward june month pass makes less scared im sure sharing strangers guess wanted someone know cant wait feel summer breeze again,1 +ive started studying chemistry medicine myselfi wanna make med lead die peacefully dont want painful least dying,1 +ive made app homework maths physics chemistry english free got k downloads insanely quick called school available download here httpsplaygooglecomstoreappsdetailsidplwaxerpomocniczekhttpsplaygooglecomstoreappsdetailsidplwaxerpomocniczek,0 +want speak someone wharever anyone avaible chat sfw,1 +guy look drip mutch drip,0 +know anymorei honestly know life im grades good dropped like c average even failed class even know life anymore family care friends basically use me live time low hardly energy motivate wake up life isnt shit feel like worth anymore,1 +dont know title im annoyed dad went brothers room knocked proceeded try open door ask door locked didnt even wait second knocking try opening door also brother didnt even say dad could go room least knocked used try open door become habit brother lock doors hes starting knock often brother me also knocks doesnt say anything hell wait come door tell come in rarely hell say im talking door hasnt said stays quite got mad knocked headphones asked wasnt sure heard knock game got mad ignoring him hes getting better sort better brother still feel bad brother sound proof headphones uses game mom always tell probably wearing brother usually answers hes not dad still gets mad ignoring him also context brother one floor dad yelling st floor room isnt farther hall brothers barely hear dad yelling us without headphones well thats pretty much read whole thing thanks didnt get it also sorry story hard follow im annoyed,0 +alone hurts best everyone else end redflag never wanted pain took mg vistaril otc medicines,1 +university work cant get wanted im opening onlyfans im becoming femboy would rather sacrifice pride dignity homeless,0 +wanna use omegle cus self esteems low ppl always compliment saw ppl saying got doxxed using omegle shit uhh meh oh well,0 +poem redflagi sit balcony stood ledge imagined jumping closed eyes held kitchen knife held near throat enough slice inserted blade skin blood flowed like never ending stream tied rope ceiling looked rope anxious feeling closed eyes opened eyes first time sweat rolling forehead tried smile just bad dream thought demons inside me fought,1 +friends years suddenly old one messaged saying hello thought friends even talking old ones makes really uncomfortable dont want leave delivered im panicking,0 +random antarctica factoid theres lake creatively called deep lake east antarctica times saltier ocean freeze even though colder ocean much fucking salt it theres barely anything living lake extreme environment honestly pretty amazing really,0 +finally defeated survival instinctsi trace depression back gradual process day day felt disconnected society people consequence feel like developed terrible permanent personality disorder age due depression ive thought redflag three years month im actually planning know time semester ends october th kicked university falling last semester literally got four subjects half semester irrationally worried others think death everyone thinks im fine every decision ive made past three years heavily influenced depression never used think like this never used selfdestructive thoughts make decisions know going terrible consequences future september work shitty part time job pushing trolleys kicked university literally friends push every one away sit home laptop watch soccermoviestv shows staying university library made realise normal atleast years behind peers in everything personality flaws never going go away last straw mathematically knowing kicked university realising matter even gotten high distinctions year psychological problems going prevent living normal happy life even though never sought professional help believe amount therapy prescribed pills going make feel better lost much time talking friend facebook today felt guilty knowing im planning absolutely idea guilt going stop me ive torturing past two years trying live normal life mental illness believe whats best people edit note literally getting subjects first semester dream course requires insanity ama guess,1 +im finished one anythingmy best friend pulled last straw phone yesterday talking little cousins came room screaming went yelled them returned said like girl alive like sadly good hearing vividly remember muttering want die too shock asked that oh nothing immediately hung up sobbing went grab box knife dragged arms light enough make mark knew since rd grade im senior im ending life tomorrow,1 +uamogusbot got banned rip baby banned know ideas bots ps next time try approve community ban,0 +girlfriend fucked back story met properly club made numerous times caught feelings felt passionate shes girl met wrong time later got know better right time anyways talked lot within first week snapped complimenting got meet one one walking quiet park evening nobody would see us talked talked pretty cute knew going happen hottest hook would touch around shirt even finger her moans kept night want go on told friends experienced knew doing found happy hear it friends talked said experience saying also liked loved feeling throughout following week snapped more saying things like cute missing sm clothes smell like you one time said know sounds soon cant wait girlfriend excited decided arrange dinner date her day date awesome stuff though didnt action okay that now days later received snap her remember well said hey im sorry might really blue ive thinking itd better friends followed another one saying im sorry didnt want lead on head like talking about confused slowly began cry out sort broke felt like absolute shit thinking went wrong clingy rushing seemed fine me ofc couldnt anything itd hard change perspective me weeks lead this snaps texts date meant nothing relationship mean shes friend get gonna hurt anything still relationship punched hole deep inside hurt since guess shes ex ive recently started missing much every way body face voice moans almost sexual way though still feelings moment ive thinking would possible id see club goes hook without lingering romantic feelings like friends benefits dont know feel like im stuck loop,0 +fun fact always thought field dressing some military medic kit thing code blood get it covers fieldsman im bigstupid,0 +actually ask helpmessaged friend nights ago said please tell kill myself really struggling end sent back gif cartoon snail said heres lucky snail fucking point anything,1 +added bunch security url specific scenarios comfortable keeping things reddit put lot information roperationsafeescape either way feel computers monitored check secure url guide also were hosting first url october weve also busy building partnerships security sector allow us bring even resources audience serve,1 +saw flick encw last nite third fourth time enjoyed much ordered dvd really standout course first mannstewart pairings usual oater although quite powerful searchers lots obvious symbolism achieving manhood mainly acting stewart partner millard mitchell shelly winters waco johnny dean dan duryea steve miller not joker interesting handsome would hero whos interested lola yellow like stewart man killed liberty valance hes practically reduced putting apron serving enemies coffee decaf doubt tony curtis bronx cavalry rock hudson behaving like indian ive seen screen interesting cameosbr br special performances john mcintire lucky card dealinggun trader hangs low grade western version ricks american cafe nobody wants spend night there jay c flippens kiss lola winters nice scenes stewart gets bend river far country geer wyatt earp indian chief takes walter brennans teeth red river pleasant sightings kind western stewart wayne scott could pulled off worth shot repeat ,0 +live dream world get,0 +guys give german youtuber streamer recommendations need learn german would great something listen language,0 +fucking hate dont deserve love fuck fml crush ghosting thought getting somewhere heart emojis telling much care eachother reality gave huge slap hate would ever thing would like me,0 +sure else turn im years old ive spent entire adult life chasing career got good grades high school never partied thing college job even graduated ive never loved woman feel like ive wasted much time stupid stupid green paper everyone tells glad im employed care want gone want sleep forever im burnt everything wish someone understood me,1 +way end redflag prevention day ending myselfgood bye yall,1 +im tired livingim tired living situation today uncle told fathers death fair burst tears excused saying understand mental ill hate family hate myself miss father,1 +ever considered fact god real hates youim suicidal oh life sad woe me death blah blah blah way least thought thought would good place ask higher power created entire purpose fuck you mean idea someone created something means love clearly wrong know plenty parents hate kids ever tried cooking something didnt turn right do throw fuck away give shit about toss it got more matter even that force sadistic nature life sick joke humanity chemical reaction creates consciousness soul crushing purpose leaving are course thoughts although would explain suffering world well death religion seems able that im religious though really care idea god hates likely god loves you all cant pleasure without suffering suffering without pleasure exist fact god could either side think it going create something later kill it thats pretty much torture itself like leaving prisoner alive torture instead killing relieving pain pontificating though likeliness god real,1 +feeling confident once feels good went guitar practice today im really starting get thr hang now,0 +want die im afraid paini see hope living anymore theres nothing im good at anything left enjoy waste away time watching tv playing stupid games kill time die still every single day like torture want get with im afraid die ive thinking redflag years never courage recently pain become overwhelming thats holding back fear pain dying im failure im parasite worth living fail everything even dying im even worth talk people die lonely fucking corner room im afraid cant stand torment longer edit thank help managed get sleep guess ill try get help,1 +hang redflag hotline still unable keep safei uk cant call back one person working area tonight already finished conversation me please help nobody helping talking people help changes made trying get night help every night months now cant keep safe cant even ask mother tonight,1 +im drunk wanna blow brains outplease help me im fucking sad im kid dont want grow change everyone school feels like robot dont seem real drink escape it something like that dont really know please help me,1 +one boring lifeits like wake up go school get home homework sleep wake like man die alllready,1 +hey artist there drawing sexy necessarily nsfw drawings act itself iwannafuckyourpen sexy damnitlooksnice sexy,0 +annual post whatever think may post late im loner boner like it fuck corona cant use gym anymore haha girlfriend or friends go brrr,0 +yo students actually hope wake school next morning man im even sure mean hope never wake way anymore id like sleep school year somehow fail ltc,0 +megathiccc want christmas,0 +past years alot shit happened decent bit trauma built up point painful even think time started happening moved dad previously walked years house thought could finally catch break not felt like object human let alone son every night even allowed close door room storage room barely allowed phone even allowed call mother made feel worse every day screwed even slightest hour long lecture told purpose told going make life told make college told worth absolutely nothing everything went downhill one day risen hit rock bottom somehow going deeper point cannot life anymore point even made deadline kill myself always knew would never make it always knew worthless never wanted hear it surrounded negativity mother cannot even accept point even decided time school going cut everyone everything prepare day happens even going different country make sure even find everyday think better next life cared anyones feelings years barely throw facade time talk people even online time let bed crying sleep daily basis cannot take anymore cannot done,1 +anyone else feel like neglected parents never problem child know really thing complain about ive always wondered anyone else felt wa thirdborn family homeschooled first years mother school rwo older brothers came world whittled mothers patience time needing schooled mother already busy enough brothers capacity give much attention time able read well own mother would plop textbook front would go ahead study own learned rather quickly mother little patience asked help twice row took long figure easy stuff yelling occasionally beatings would follow stopped asking help altogether point on almost everything own would start fear help would kick rear overdrive focus hell times tables whatever studying avoid help altogether studying strange reason really sensetive yelling would prefer beating rather scold pretty much every occasion this learned cery quickly good boy house making trouble whatsoever never causing problems never ask assistance with fun times jigsaw puzzles puzzle books jacks whatever player games could find played them keeping possible problems could cause minimum decade line im older high school exceedingly well every class never cause problem anybody find without social life considered waste energy time ive also noticed exceptional achievements going pretty much unseen parents believe got used never problen standard eyes grew always great pushing greatness even exceedingly difficult im feel sort trapped image created parents must always perfect never cause problem ive worked hard keep image feel like tearing down feel really time now feel unmotivated unhappy good boy says ignore emotional bs keep moving along harder harder every passing day feel depressed hide parents would issue would putting onto them sorry mom rd child problem also even know theyll care looking back whole situation feel like blame feel like one caused parents care never wanted care avoided whereever could im one caused look way do anyone else feel same,0 +shout boys rcomedynecrophelia check hawt babies like unfunnyandcringe memes butchered brink death,0 +ive considering years years old now think finally time gosince seven years old ive wanted end life suffered home drugaddict parents heavily emotionally abusive father contribute financially emotionally life school always worse despite straight student spent every day life cowering classmates beat up excluded me threatened kill me always overweight even though ate healthy foods took martial arts resulted severe criticism family friends severe selfloathing part depression nothing new me think keeping alive whole time little half brother closest dearest friend life backed defended everything looked despite tortured child im never month gone redflag surface thoughts never courage tell single soul insecure ive recently seeing doctors dropping college my gpa quickly became gpa semesterlong severely depressive episode grades much low accepted school scholarships revoked ive diagnosed severe thyroid problem reason ive fat whole life never children first boyfriend past years taking advantage emotionally entire relationship threatens break every months loses temper due crippling insecurities today broke again want anyone else cant help feel cant stand sometimes im set move hellish home live him feel nowhere go prescribed prozac take phobia taking medication want live anymore even want happy get better want go bed want wake up ive felt way better half eleven years ive lost optimism want everything end,1 +everything worsti want live anymore want fall asleep never wake,1 +someone give full runthrough happen tbh much shit happen forgot lot stuff,0 +dying terrifies me cant see way outhey guys hoped id never post here im desperate right now ive episodes depression years now last four months wrecked me im medschool started internship last year completed feb took break home month folks lot stuff going needed there college absolute piece shit responsible nearly issues ive struggled weight gotten good place college joined everything went hell people around bodyshame like crazy especially family ive able tolerate past even laugh it got back room home month want go again want see ingrates work shitty hospital ive lying everyone last four months love anything anymore friends little brother talk to doesnt help anymore know itll wreck cant take anymore even finish internship familys still going bunch asshats ill still alone shitty little town want know im going go on wish could go therapy cant afford it cant see way ending it,1 +bought pills alcohol kill tonightfinally stop feeling pain im feeling going easy got xanax alcohol im going overdose pray whatever is die tonight wonder mom say funeral read old posts understand why redflag note pillow wrists full scars im listening music feel closure death near me thank everyone help move on,1 +would spend last day doingive thought lot seems like huge deal,1 +excludedi love family dont feel excluded home school everyone battling become famous friendship there feel like dont belong dont like people talk upon others wrong dont like people act friendly arent wrong dont want spend time would ruin social status respect wish respected well fellow human being dont like hanging parties spending time big groups want get know person spend time with them maybe thats weird love people much every evening wish could selfishly die dont live pain loneliness depression have good eveningday dont know time zone ,1 +ive drinking heavily need take pills now finally free terrible lifei feel nauseous know need help ask itd make feel weak life honestly shit idk im posting im never going find someone fuck cheat me ill never graduate high school ill never able enough money move start new city able get dream job friends tell care love me ive told much whenever talk sad explaining slept entire day supposed hangout get annoyed inevitably leave im losing way many people probably sign swallow bottle pills cut arms knife im worth anyones time feel like im obligated post finally though maybe someone help see something cant doubt though lost chance hope fucking long ago feel empty smile public people ask whats wrong im sorry wall text sorry anyone whos read point im wasting time apologize waste human life,1 +trump banned twitter oh shit please dont tell hes coming reddit,0 +crying bed th night rowim tired around theres billion people planet enough without me im tired crying every night im tired enjoying anything except conversations certain person hates me physically enjoy anything anymore used love playing sports playing video games going school hate them worked ass summer make school sports team studied butt hours world history ap got final got ps saved everytime look it reminds pathetic lack friends pillars life keeping afloat one sports crumbled year best friend wish still crumbling lot redflag idealization within past months would fucking easy drop face planet self harm cope fact never ready world social experience true aspirations reason live im going anything irrational tonight supplies need atleast wait holidays over summer plan either killing running away whatever fit backpack,1 +lost cati came home work today find one cats missing brother wandering around apartment meowing looking her roommate tore place apart looking her think might gone open window backyard apartment building im honestly unsure got out wandered around looking cars different stairways looking hour spoke father friends gave advice morning ie put flyers ask neighbors etc however feel though ive checked mentally logically feel like find her im going give life know live thought cold starving there know extreme hope offend anyone triviality problem fighting deep depression time ive working hard keep busy productive simply know give anymore reasons keep going this,1 +advice fall asleep am welcome as long as it doesnt involve closing my phone and closing my eyes,0 +perfect life paperusing throwaway account turned life perfect paper perfect health fit enough money large amazing house mountains view two dream cars more live wonderful pregnant wife two incredibly loving girls super stable incredibly high paying job love research industry also mountain athlete running skiing biking even race social media were pictures would probably amazing perfect life so superficial well years ago brain violently remembered abused neglected child struggled deal sought help learnt also likely high iq highfunctioning autistic person severe case ptsd rather cptsd means horrific flashbacks autistic meltdown linked particular traumatising event like would find trauma victims years trauma inflicted developing brain child strong read many books made changes life meditation etc done therapy eft emdr helpful cbt meh never took medication although remains tempting defined specific list ptsd triggers writing list these situations hurt me also prepared short specific procedures used autistic meltdown related crisis typically overwhelmed situation linked ptsd mostly help wife take proactive role example reduce prevent self harm happens incredibly brave fully supportive patient beyond imagination last months slept two three hours row every time wake middle night sweating screaming simply emotional distress pain would stay awake too horrible part story wife one pressing ptsd triggers time sometimes several times per day basically like bringing traumatised war veteran loud fireworks every day trigger pressed despite frequency would fail recognise situation fail apply things could help me procedures mentioned above does manages help usually massive pain suffering while sometimes hours time evolving become increasingly sensitive triggers totally allergic situations clearly kneejerk reactions small innocuous mildly inappropriate reactions words may may notice become hell me yet cant help it love wife person world asperger great social cues human interactions blame way also obviously aware dealing ptsd responsibility yet lost energy sleep pride identity weekends start great projects end misery continue emdr meditation stuff help loosing ground ptsd taking growing space days nights decided stay alive refuse make children suffer feel abandoned dying loyalty sometimes hard commitment hold tonight difficult night work hours slept alone house alone mind thought would write here thank reading,1 +hate people start complaining anything them biggest problems mild constipation decide wear tomorrowfck them,1 +im ready take forever napi reasons continue hold onto bullshit life cant myself family fucking garbage nobody would believe tried escape them fucking mess mention fact ive fucking havent able online school resulting from heard last time days truancy im ready fucking give up even try,1 +cant walk school home friends anymore parents making drop brother school leads different way school friends walk also leave earlier still early enough go back walk friends,0 +man google way late like supposed compliment sent am im gonna break google brb,0 +computer reset chromebook using school factory reset randomly happen opened one day tabs gone modifications like background gone importantly files ever saved deleted used earlier day well,0 +guess im going give another chancei found rudimentals song free ago listening sorta realized might person always wanted bestinsomething person always freedom choose path,1 +need pour heart outi even know start theres storm thoughts head hard put coherent text so im year old guy basically im depressed time feel ugly stupid week hopeless im statistics student university killing me life ive considered nerd used getting high marks liked teachers school considered intelligent kid actually never felt happy since childhood proud academic achievements gave least little confidence however things changed got uni rd year constantly feel like im good enough im tired understanding things sitting hours stydying still getting results want seeing people better feeling like got wrong place got point im afraid study know feel stupid miserable ive always tried maximum want reach lowest possible mark thats enough pass matter try feel like im always fail motivation reached lowest level life goals years ago destroyed feel like mistake im alive theres bit one year get degree im scared im going life feels like knowledge talents ones going hire me theres single thing could happy left life friends im suffering social anxiety ive shy smart kid since childhood im highly introverted feel scared communicating unknown people theres one talk besides mum feel like weirdo one needs me understand people understand me say even try discussing things feels like always think differently others im always minority phoning hairdresser register haircut huge challenge me even mentioning going institutions speak completely unknown people panic attacks know act unknown situations go new places even count amount mental breakdowns travel another city country feel like social abilities worse year old child go new city study leave parents home years ago things started going downhill me getting used new city new people nightmare used cry every single day flats expensive rent im living dormitory worst place socially awkward pervert like me first roommate quite good friends almost speak almost problems living him however moved year ago since last september im living new one disaster clean room respect privacy thousands friends i somehow managed tell want room cant live normal life theres noise around understand that likes playing loud music even worse singing along even hes playing music somehow manages irritate little things like forgetting close door neither relax concentrate study hes around thank god often goes somewhere else leaves alone live exsoviet small eastern european country conditions dormitory great expect see normal western country theres lack space feel like imprisoned walls come back parents every single weekend escape ugly place could search job place get money rent flat im afraid change life anxiety also studies require lot time effort think could manage combining work studying enjoy staying home nothing common hobbies young people unfamiliar often involve going surrounded people hate life like vicious circle im tired lonely want friends im surrounded people want escape alone cant connect people hate small talk want discuss politics environment meaning life music people age interested even interested usually popular opinions refuse view things different angles leads able act like im normal like everybody else like parties like current pop music prefer summer winter etc people probably consider arrogant cant act things tell want fake overpolite person understands mother feel loves cares me probably reason committed redflag want hurt her however hate father hes alcoholic hes constantly arguing mother understand even try to hes intentionally bad person irritates hate hes home besides that hate way look im skinny short feel manly enough skin pale hate going out hate hair jawline skinny arms whole body general speaking voice quite highpitched get nervous anxiety sounds even feminine already does stereotypes society make easier accept myself want man boy ive always hated exercising unpleasant boring ive tried working many times get muscular always end feeling weak hopeless giving up enough im gay ive realized quite recently year ago makes hate even more one knows even know id dare tell anybody fact society country homophobic would make even harder feel like ill end lonely unhappy insecure rest life also virgin could write book problems stress im thats enough writing pouring emotions helped little bit thanks anyone taking time read this,1 +friend wants kill himself stop sohe low selfesteem know wants life hes insisting theres nothing good himself redeeming qualities help,1 +school making go back school even know ive come contact someone covid wednesday pe teacher asked whole class come contact someone covid twice ar emaking go back school im supposed quarantine weeks ive home day bullshit,0 +would easysuffice say plan plan stares face least week coincides depressed sometimes consider quite time battling inner self stay alive weighing pros cons whether it help would even care would destroyed taking life friends no family course give two shits normal life lots people might even relieved ended it ive made many mistakes many things regret lack self control impulses im first place im battling stay alive sucks distance people want hurt them decided kill myself time loner contributing depression god wish could go detail wish could confide seek help without fear sent away either done might do even internet safe tor safe cant go therapist cant talk family know do anchors life fading things loved mind numbing boring pushed person love away needed latch onto something much her family around much get me mother real tether left happens gone anything else hold onto fade insanity depression affects work relations boss come accept im depressed obvious work save energy talk clients go clients business see im well im afraid eventually ask whats really going on say then used program develop things live inside code devoted entire self projects loved it fire system force look code find difficult stay long enough get anything done played games every game looked tried pay became boring repetitive eat love eat affecting health im depressed control eating slowly losing weight good enough also helps funding little though self control impulse issues tend make finances go elsewhere liked spending time older brother used play laugh talk inside jokes time taken kid cant blame him relied it pillars sanity whittled away nothing leaving crumbling remains life wake older sister used close younger moved away changed much barely recognize sometimes great around normally shes around enough really anything with im good lot things im fast learner drive motivation partly due knowing happen tomorrow someone uncover ive done taken away family forever changed scarred mistakes made occasionally write things like this never send always makes feel bit better today created alt write send one tldr plan mom thing still tethers me know would day really bad depression gone,1 +gavin beast missing something,0 +bruh cruchyroll really baited browsing list anime said miss kobayashi dragon maid season season still never felt lied,0 +tired pitiful existence might kill soonthere place me im year old autistic trans or least gender questioning person know already makes people sympathy me know im disgusting broken human fucking mean id never wish anyone torture waking hating knowing cant really damn thing it end people change nature hating others fail show even slightest bit empathy towards gone through family religious stopped caring religion long time ago god fucking tyrant choice me ive never normal jealous people seem find life easy get things handed them even curing genderconfused thing theres way stop autistic supposedly prediposed lgbt ive suffered mental health problems trauma fitting inbullied entire life amount therapy make truly happy anyway whats damn point im autistic all everyone knows theyre equal fucking hate going lgbt support groups feeling butterflies stomach feeling accepted first time life taken away people want treat even subhuman fucking hate knowing ill probably commit redflag either way eventually even transitioning delay that bet post get reposted one transhating subs everyone agree waste life end right agree them tired bothered writing paragraph long post chest hurts crying much ive scared want hurt family whats lose now theyll hate anyway,1 +wouldve epic gamer hours lagging like hell shame wanna win loot skins special event event ending tomorrow internet letting,0 +healthy discussion chat think lockdowns really helpful not healthy discuss,0 +finding music paint hard finding right songs fit vibe hard half time listen either rock songs words between,0 +life goal get posted rteenagers twitter account think ive figured formula either say something sexual make insensitive joke hate tiktok,0 +gen z like powerful generation trump scared us then guys please syrup bottle really triggered guys isnt joke need cancelled please guys,0 + years old seems like yesterday everything still possible young person whole life ahead me looking pictures holiday years ago feels recent another years cannot believe half way depressing time going fast,1 +weird olive skin uk summer like still white surrounded white people pink red fair skin burned weird yellowbronze colour family complaining aching sunburn like thats get white,0 +anyone elses mood seriously low todayworst ive felt long time almost physical brain im hanging g thread here anyone else,1 +never thought hate world muchcan talk someone,1 +mans hands representative hardships life eyes looking mine makes sense scarred callused simple thought,1 +watched part one two days ago today saw part two course two parts worlds apart little shaken saw felt consumed knowledge inevitability ches death me clouded entire movie suppose exactly soderbergh wanted us feel slowly evolving inevitability death part two downbeat compared to inevitability cuba notredflag bolivia negative politics movement bolivia alluded rarely confronted didactically memorable scenes end film confrontation jailer milder talk bolivian official official questions che failure peasants support revolution considered national differences playing much role conflict argentine versus bolivian thought soderbergh dealt admirably inevitable problems supply revolutionary struggle get food without antagonizing peasants enough themselves struck hard would try something che tried guess timing sufficient anger government begin movement bolivia wasnt che realized terrible corundum revolutionists letter fidel read beginning film now when years now thought provoking well done film make every effort see it,0 +real suppleroot hours up weekend gotten good start,0 +stress killing mei suicidal thoughts long time stress killing me feel dumb im fortunate lucky get well paying job lucky enough afford school met amazing woman wife hard juggling school work work fast paced exhausts me school suffers too even though im almost done work hard stresses cause fights wife deserve it everything wanted stress hurts heart always feel foggy quick get angry feel broken always hut wife lately weve fighting every day me feel exhausted,1 +im done trying make something myselfi know things live for things get better stick it seriously life freaking sucks found girlfriend cheating me friend ditched plans watch nfl games today knows what im freaking fuck pass accounting semester ill barred graduating sort business degree university literally ambition anything right now idea want im going it hate everyone facebook getting married kids starting great careers im barely getting by hate right even care fixing makes even worse somebody please help know much longer hold ,1 +made cup iced coffee delectable hazelnut creamer gives extra something savored every tastebud have yea thats it thats say,0 +dont know doive suicidal long ive never able reason one thing keeping afraid thats gone everything else life going wrong im far home way back fucking monday cant deal nothing point theres nothing stopiing slitting wrists cant deal cant see anything getting better dont see point staying alive anything dont know whether want talked,1 +guys finally finally cleared inbox went emails free man now,0 +life greatliterally nothing wrong life think dying ive putting coin flip every day now pint luck run out im scared myself dont want die,1 +embarrass front others last weekend really made decide write this jay marie husband another couples house drinking playing board games jay work next day stopped early marie starts taking personally reason says us hes always ruining nights out,0 +stupid thing gave stick n poke guys bash made sure clean space paper towel made sure everything new used proper ink thing regret couldnt find gloves made sure washed hands touched things using little dots forget name represent still telling story heart like little hearts tiny made sure put bandaid done hours took moisturiser let soak put new bandaid done couple times since first tattoo arent best think good first try probably deleting go bed cuz dont want family finding out,0 +ever look peoples reddit avatars think oh wow avatar cute like avatar would like steal avatar,0 +reply sus men reddit dms dangerous,0 +school election campaign videos bad one things either entire video essentially saying vote me say something like ill get things done they wont thats private schools work essentially like life interesting horse snowboard vote also one extremely low resolution web cam footage stretched fit aspect ratio usually would encourage vote dont think none gave reason vote like vote me k bye,0 +anyone wanna play number game im rlly bored easy way talk someone dm want,0 +really want go it thing holding back limitation methods availablei think im finally ready end it really want fuck able look back even though odds point that precautions take make sure fail,1 +ive stopped amything sign need end thingsi become incapable anything world small exist exist shout one hears want tune out solutions neither strength stability find them nothing left giving meaningful existence im already dead see course kill myself thought makes sense thing elicits positive response me everytbing else either numbness anger clear sign know is one someone tell something anything all make want matter right dont,1 +using sub diary day today great studying spanish quiz bout weeks babe cause thought failled grades would reduce lot teacher changed quiz grades reason mine great moment scared failed reduce grades thats scared btw dont call nerd smart guys day,0 +hope left buildingim sure even begin im years old spent half years greatest woman could hoped met raised two sons ages one own kid rock struggled depression life sadly taken frustrations yelling lot miserable years guilt allencompassing iv clouded depression see good nay great things life pissed away sons th birthday wife bluntly said wants divorce therapy counseling discussion pent month seeing therapist attending church groups even supported emotionally great friends yet nothing lift me cry attention im point ending tho week ive tried giving three days more simply isnt worth carrying bringing dark cloud around know least feel happiness asking for suppose coping mechanism something anything see future me tools place wednesday zero day odd finally something look forward to ask son father cant begin imagine dismay bringing mine around healthy either,1 +im tryinghi im sorry writing bad headache feel dizzy today tried hang myself reason succeed method used research read lot going feel discomfort would also black seconds anywhere traditional way get creative thats able get rope problem black out im sure many seconds rope felt like forever breathe trying everything get air feeling lot pressure face painful somehow strength brake free understand ended backing it sure ready know chose complaining pain ive depression anxiety since teen ten years since started keep making everything worse finally job moved parents job anymore lot things need pay depression anxiety got worse difficult go outside know im supposed do anyone talk else im supposed do reason moved parent wanted live own said difficult live someone else stopped talking everyone knew im lazy irresponsible liar cases would go bottom im probably thing hate most try right thing end making everything worse know do,1 +life pointlessthe meaning life reproduce die want something else dont anything give world parents dont care me dont friends shitty hobbies fancy career life boring long nothing changes fact im crash course die alone want kill myself want over,1 +im go moremy parents abusive emotionally mentally physically dealt abuse years throughout life many traumatic things happened me im haunted words memories cant shake matter do music escape tells much failure am im sick chronic pain heart issues breathing issues bad memory loss cant even remember say halfway sentence time get lost conversations really know do ive honestly lost live keep fighting ive fought whole life exist get better emotions accepted feel worth anymore husband tries understand help feel like im ruining life one day hell realize horrible am fuck already is im selfish know it know people care me cant go like anymore power change things cant change living situation health issues past emotions everything control choices left physically feel urge put noose around neck point think would make feel better would feel like relief never ending nightmare im scared void death im scared keep living,1 +homework experience desperation desperation race work race time then winged hussars arrive,0 +requirements girlfriend female optional,0 +life worth livingive decided kill today im overweight autistic ugly stupid skills aptitude learn any havr natural talent anything unemployment two years country live joke future anyone rich well connected literally nothing content with goodbye,1 +need advicei want kill girl manipulates left birthday yesterday wearing wrong outfit birthday dinner snap it im legit terrified im thoughts,1 +series chockfull brilliant episodes one stands one favorites profound episode theres great meaning message lot fun fine performancesbr br but makes really stand is knowledge only twilight zone episode double snapper ending zone rightly famous providing big surprise end story time get surprise think thats that turns theres another surprise waiting like much probably one two favorite episodes the deeper messageoriented one,0 +i confess crush yay firstly sorry english im vietnamese yesterday confess crush discord day replied translated i think something friend best friend im sorry hope understand what now,0 +youre poggies lt,0 +reliable sleeping pillsim planning buy overthecounter sleeping pills called melatonin mg tablets planning oding them think theyll work really need this anyone knows people committed redflag sleeping pills,1 +saw movie first came out official selection temecula valley international film festival voted best picturebr br justine priestley hot psychotic complex amanda ordinary psycho movie lots interesting original slants genre sort fatal attraction younger set great blues music mixed object amandas affection married coming blues singer less time husband career takes offbr br ,0 +swear homophobic liking trans women wanna date person penis man theyre born male sex transitioned female gender gonna date one swear people call homophobic frick yall gt goddamn annoying,0 +please kill nowi dont want live anymore im tired manipulated people lied to nothing ever goes way feel helpless lost cant keep forcing happy im miserable inside lost everyone one left broken numb inside keep cutting legs feel pain feel selfish wanting die cant take anymore whole chest hurts brain hurts eyes hurt crying im fucking mess want fall asleep disappear want painless dont deserve feel way work hard try best im good person everyone intentionally try hurt me dont deserve this whatever did never deserved this want die,1 +im tiredim tired going on im tired know ill never good enough know ill never mean anything anyone matter what always second matter what someone always choose girl blond hair big tits big ass tanned skin me know it please dont tell truth im tired lies im fucking tired want leave earth one love ive accepted it wasnt easy have im ugly anyone skinny pale anything anyone dont want thing every fucking day cant fucking count amount times tried kill past month wished wished would worked please take away world going shit hope,1 +hey hi hello yo whats up my oh me oh boy whats word could call ya late im one im new york my oh mi amor told ya could look good,0 +lost people lives condolences lost family friends pets anyone im sorry know internet points awards wont anything help grief wish could give hugs need one right now wish could help dont know to ive seen many posts last days death breaks heart please know support you losing loved one tough isnt easy whatsoever guys need people would recommend therapist sometimes people need friend turn to nice day lt,0 +gem british capercomedy poor american schlub pinky green richard jordan playing another bad guy time adorable one gets british jail tries go straight maintenance man job bank attractive neverreformed criminal friends headed really nasty ivan david niven one last roles pinky resists lure money much him things unravel reravel joyous watch jordan must played bad guys career never played one twice one lovable hate niven never played slicker bad guy oil over two fine actors weve lost wish back,0 +stopped boyfriendbestfriend committing redflag morning hes really bad shape need help badtheres alot story much time go get work internet im going kind put small nutshell can boyfriend best friends almost ten years recently started dating broke babys mother making life living hell blows phone day night literally constant bullshit terrible is fucking dudes hurt him going replace father four month old son refusing let see son well killing him shows house calls texts etc day night repeatedly hes lot bullshit go life literally one me hes terrible place mentally morning called told really bad place think could stay away gun luckily got house time hed taken three valium three xanax muscle relaxers bottle nyquil beers beyond fucked up slept next day made sure going anything stupid woke remember anything happened hes still telling mind place listen tell cut contact her know do cant leave alone cant keep trying keep head mine water listen me also suffer depression im worried takes fix this know do ive considered calling police put psychiatric evaluation works days week cannot afford miss work im terrified stressed know start listen me please someone help me,1 +anyone else hyped see adult swim april fools tonight really want smiling friends need show exist,0 +someone ft boredwill play robloxcan asmr,0 +make joke person made joke completely fine it knows joke isnt hurt hate people come get offended person even though joke wasnt targeted them like swear god pisses much like school wilding out like roasting session make fun other telling story guy said girl ass looks like deflated basketballs joke everyone okay it since woman thats made fun body shaming sexual harassment etc got comments saying asshole sexually harassing her when didnt even make joke watching okay too people comments still wanna call asshole hate lot people reddit especially little kids yall sensitive cry everything not sensitive snowflakes,0 +get helpmale thirties wife years ive contemplating far long bad want kids knowing theres real possibility leave wife raise own so get help without letting anyone know private person cares way much others think thought employer wife knowing im receiving help kills me tell dr admitted will want get pegged depressed suicidal unless actually follow through live california kids cant go like this go,1 +tried expose dad cheating mum went badly dad sitting room alone started talking weird apps phonei hinting tinder knew that also talked talks strangers laughed said proof im lying told mum disrespected im grounded cat mightve actually k,0 +keep awake please dont sleep dont sleep please help keep awake explain dms would like help,0 +im gonna say care knows like soggy french fries said cant hide truth longer,0 +hi yall im m wanna get dmd ppl bcs love talking others,0 +peppa pig gaint ampxb httpspreviewredditisvpmyrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsededffdaceeac,0 +im going commit redflagim cant call anybody help illness letting that cant anymore im tired,1 +tell dogwood tree bark insert laughter here,0 +tired know kill parents hidden things thag use really escape shit even know anymore,1 +im basically endi dont think anyone really help me,1 +goodbye debi quit job last september killing me first mistake fine made great friends online started looking new job one one friends moved on lost bunch big argument another friends things went downhill there end landed single friend really really good friend one none less last month husband diagnosed cancer spent every waking moment trying help get surgery last week surgery went fine recovering well they yet confirm indeed cancer removed thyroid successfully regardless problem is time spent taking care took toll me still super emotional everything going life broke last week started feeling suicidal problem is told her cried it lot point husband forbidden talk anymore place handle news ashamed say handle well especially considering last time happened see previous posts left job money friends miss much already know go on,1 + reasons stay alive clear know whether rules not lost loved ones redflag want share here want anyone else suffer that rules remove it let know make parents proud conquer fears see family see favourite artist live listen music experience new culture make new friends inspire children adopt pet make proud meet idols laugh cry feel tears happiness eat favourite food see siblings grow pass school get tattoo smile cheeks hurt meet internet friends find someone loves like deserve eat ice cream hot day drink hot chocolate cold day see untouched snow morning see sunset sets sky fire see stars light sky read book changes life see flowers spring see leaves change green brown travel abroad learn new language learn draw tell others story hopes helping puppy kisses baby kisses the open mouthed kind smack lips cheek swear words release feel say them trampolines ice cream stargazing cloud watching taking shower sleeping clean sheets receiving thoughtful gifts saw thought you feeling get someone love says love you relief feel crying sunshine feeling get someone listening yougiving full attention future wedding favourite candy bar new clothes witty puns really good bread holding child arms first time completing milestone aka going college graduating college getting married getting dream job kind dreams wake cant stop smiling smell rains sound rain rooftop feeling get youre dancing person or people mean you stay alive them trying new recipes feeling get favourite song comes radio rush get step onto stage share voice talents knowledge world valuable breakfast bed getting middle seat movie theatre breakfast dinner because much better night morning feeling loved forgiveness water balloon fights new books favourite authors fireflies birthdays realising someone loves you spending day someone love spending whole day bed eating whole pint favourite ice cream floating water back staring sky first dates even bad ones make funny stories bonfires smores relationships love someone arent love them coming home someone love colour autumn leaves change summer singing songs top lungs friends cuddling wrapped warm bed someones skin yours holding hands kind hugs feel weight lifted shoulders kind hug breath syncs persons feel like two people world singing key best friends road trips spontaneous adventures feeling sand beneath toes feeling first ocean wave rolls envelops toes ankles knees thunderstorms first or hundredth trip disneyland taste favourite food childlike feeling get christmas morning day everything finally goes way compliments praise look moment years time realise it,0 +anxiety making depressed want become actress acting passion havent found another job would truly make happy life problem is people saying impossible make actress including parents unfortunately understand difficult statistics say wont make it honestly dont care become famous not anxiety told failure pursue making question something else make parents happy validation ya know but thought makes hopeless dont want unhappy life ive depressive episodes past think another one starting among things also caused gad help advice anything helps,0 +childhood feeling died years agoit enjoyed life always there since beggining decided leave age or died see world boring meaningless existence cant dream job cant achieve this that sometimes imagine peaceful home great big field yard fucking work ass everyday every second would pointless childhood feeling made feel like dream happiness mysterious feeling way could feel sure gets worse year year become even feeling less point fucking careless commit anything illegal hurt badly die longer scares me shoving fork outlet scare me think this is september sister get shrooms lsd dmt kill sure edibles made feel amazing last summer ive long sober drugs even feel like good idea lie mind,1 +got three projects done one class period fear mortals,0 +know shy girl interested theres girl classes shes really shy ive class know knows me im really sure likes though even interested begin with doesnt use social media often doesnt text much fun ive trying start conversations doesnt mind talking although bit comfortable theres someone us shes friendly laughs jokes doesnt start many conversations herself im always one asking things likes dont want make feel bad herself dont want ask yet test would like become closer possibly relationship,0 +fck this one girl everyone problems her filler filler filler filler filler ah ah ah ah stayin alive stayin alive naaamee gaaame judy judy judy bo budy banana fannah foh fudy fee fy moh muudy juudy,0 +voted movie minor childish flaws that movie one favorites entertaining say least shooting scenes ridiculous though think gackt who wrote book takes little bit much matrix obsession it seems like enemies stands therewaiting get shot at however movie touching always makes cry lot great humor makes laugh well gackt superb actor must sayhe shows much emotion hydes first time acting okay role fits him wang lee hom absolutely great whole cast would say perfect movie miss it regret it,0 +really know say boyfriend going work hours yet confidence ability keep safe really lacking want bother hes working hard support us alone unsure keep safe,1 +lost everything thing constant redflag nightmares cannot keep living like this rest life fucking want it nothing left,1 +instead celebrating valentines im celebrating year anniversary sonic movie,0 +im feeling goodim failing school losing friends broke might well end,1 +risk life order make positive change worldive suicidal fuck years today ive reading bomb squad technicians people risked lives save dogs etc put life line straight redflag,1 +u think u seehear someone commited redflagwhen hearsee internet think relief them hard result gives u worth strong moment respect them,1 +belongs here coherent fear drowning everythings wet breathed years wrong side bed since im scared fucking crooked soul cant handle life anymore im terrified shell learn crazy am kid ive told id go year without crying since ive realized cant make month without thinking killing myself fuck anyone else exist,1 +truthtruth is always want die hate existing honestly writing words paper scares shit raw me want show people that feel like im trapped nowhere go whatever do makes bad person whatever say makes bad person feel like wanna shoot myself im bad person feel like shit something talk it im bad person make others feel bad constantly alive tell anyone problems feeds negativity ive always awful person deep down ive always been ive struggled like accept years ive realized really garbage want stop existing cant believe god hates me let die everyday hope wake dead makes happy thinking it unfortunately come ever want future want anyone else nothing one bring happiness im tired trying want die deserve anything anyone understand im still alive keep replaying ways could really hurt brutally much blood satisfying makes sad know ill never die soon want die cant hate cant maybe deserve stay alive continue suffering happy feel bad person am,1 +hard knowing everyone around issues hard takes extreme amount work make normal day life go smoothlywhich almost never does first felt like grasps whole redflag thing made sense first got diagnosed longer harder deal with know like constantly feel uncomfortable skin never turn off answer give people ask whats wrong theres always one thing going time find drinking id like admiti never drank this anything take edge off feel like im teach everything again even know formulate words,1 +lemonade still taste bad life gives rotten lemonsso problems problems life way think life story failures setbacks story burden family tale sure want continue live in born cleft lip palate south korea begining story big reason anguish mother name of discarded me feel lot anger towards her may poor unable manage costs feel anger lottery life went great family new country pain knowing somewhere real family bloody deformity live could without lot troubles now times much handle hate it hate life reason live adoptive family see burden hospital surgeries cost much money hurts thinking it forced things normal people problem secure deformity think end would better without me add body useless love sports kinds body breaks down knees bad back bad shoulders really bad problems feets eyes butt get random pain sports anymore unable to even use bicycle without getting exhausted meters knees loved bicycle anymore story life thing intellect average much think bit faster average person enough excell anything hurts lot put lot pressure become something family pushes want succeed them make feel proud know able to ability become something more feel completly useless like waste human race truly wish could fix lot things effort study like maniac right go feels like fall behind try get went korea year ago find past found pain nothing family end fled home knowing stayed would sink deeper never get rid cleft lip palate always bother mind forever scarred it social skills worthless go parties good thing comes drink much else never ever even close get girlfriend bother now things think ignore totally lack everything could possibly never get one hate it hate cleft lip palette hate ripped away country made foreigner land hate missing always tried right thing life gives wrong back powerlessness feel crushing me wish could fix it could make lemonade lemons lemons life gives rotten another rotten one im sure want lemonade,1 +vending machine story remembered th grade think waiting mom pick up friend nick sat next left earlier me sitting head looking backpack hear someone approaching vending machine meters away me think wanted doritos vending machine scammed didnt fall minutes girl came vending machine saw kept moving around vending machine making intense life decision decided go it kept making noises trying evade cars highway without brakes end hear oooh got whatever wanted doritos fell yeah randomly remembered that nice day,0 +ive ruined yet another friendship im ready give upi think im ready give ive always mess person week ive fucked everything ive never meaningful relationship only ever one girlfriend didnt last long never able keep friends thing every time meet someone become close become far clingy overly attached become overbearing try hard eventually push away happened happened never mean harm im sad lonely person wants friend always take things far im insecure worry every little thing get paranoid everything overthink everything killing me causes problems everyone love eventually take things far last year ive one friend girl work with think world and like said became attached her put lot pressure depended lot boyfriend ive honestly never wanted anything friends obviously ive become much ive never ever meant harm cause trouble never meant upset worry anyone two use worked together team two months loved it however couple months ago swapped someone else work basically lost plot im never going defend way ive acted thats point threw tantrums things attention didnt want work anyone else attached her ive acted lot ive upset friend caused stress knows self harming suicidal thoughts broke front saying shes terrified shed blame anything happened last week supervisor spoke manager im told im good friend boyfriend isnt happy i completely understand ive told outside communication needs stop needs boundaries sounds like telling cant mates friend ive got text saying wants tantrums stop wants us go back mates laugh said boyfriend wants block doesnt want wants happy joke around like used to said doesnt want stop texting outside work working together doesnt want lose friend which obviously dont want either others work telling needs boundaries ive ducked like always nothing going same even ok wants friends im worried others going try separate us keep away completely understand fault thats problem ive done know ill again meet someone get far attached person eventually fuck up ruin every friendship go far cant keep im ready give up cant keep living like this im worried friend blame kill thats always reason havent dont want upset family dont want blaming ive got worry blaming selfish side wants end,1 +life ruinedits point return way happy never enjoy anything entire life fucked completely ruined,1 +post nut clarity even exist clarity ever get one force upon go school,0 +guess im leaving reddit redflag note turning parents arent taking away phone lads asked girl said yes according reddit law leave ig,0 +friend threatening redflag date really soonhey guys friend suicidal threatening kill soon im familiar depression redflag attempted myself always nervewracking call contact authorities right im scared theyre college lose lot money losing semeseterthat parents paid for parents great might really flip institutionalized would probably ruin whole semester make life difficult home got back right thing calling imminent threat out right always always scary persons life decided one call im scared ruining lives also know may absolutely serious need someones thoughts freaking out really ive drinking day keep anxiety down edit called supposed closed now feel absolutely awful though anyone would like say anything id still appreciate it,1 +thought gotten major trouble school lol managed make vtuber avatar get obs virtual camera plugin working joined google meet for school today avatar shits gigs made sure background everything screen sfw too accidentally joined personal account which would security breach tell another account avatar got immediately banned call kicked banned freaking out though gotten major trouble avatar realize wrong account lol rejoined cool scary lol,0 +feel bit lost bit hopeless bit like im issuing something m yearning feeling like dull ache mental physical like wish someone like gf maybe maybe lockdown getting im social like meeting new people like new possibilities relationships guess problemo is fucking hate lol im saying sound edgy body dysmorphia disorder bunch stuff weighs constantly feel ugly time feel sick stressed walking past mirrors obsess scrutinise time sometimes dont even know look like people tell different friends theyre lying make feel good im lucky friends think forget also see look like know lying weird like wouldnt consider ugly literal sense features unattractive like round fat face ears stick tried eating made feel ill arms twigs lol almost like capacity decent theres something holding back cheeks arent thin completely ruins face unfortunately starving didnt really affect face good idea general im gonna come terms ill never look gaunt attractive dont look like boys age defined jaws masculine angular faces ya boy here well hes stuck moon shoulders feel self conscious point debilitating like regular teenage low self esteem genuine deep rooted self hatred feel like im worth nothing one ever love someone ever theyd leave wouldnt good enough stress im sat close people keep head down back bent cover mouth laugh literally run b public place tk avoid seen cringe internally sometimes social situations remember everyone see me feel like constant idiot talking people must judging okay melodrama sorry wanted dump thoughts cahms therapy ended it anxiety bdd apparently apply get help that parents dont believe issue theres point say theyre dont trust actually need bit help dont understand extent much feel crushed time lol really hard trying get stuff feeling ugliness time id never talk girl would feel stupid girl would want talk girl would want lol sounds like simpy oh girls dont like omg life terrible genuine concern actually alone forever welcome thought really im usually like keep account anonymous dont really care im pretty good hiding feel lots people look merely strength wear smile carry ,0 +keep going back forthbetween wanting die wanting die nothing really triggers me much ive thinking buying rope sell job picking nice day hanging self one trees outside house plenty from ill think still want live confusing,1 +convince dad let buy anime figures two hatsune miku figures want amazon price total says expensive afford them im sure problem insane collection would first figures,0 +send help im bored class,0 +im incredibly sad yet numb timelife insanely bleak me fear ill never feel love give though ive never attempted redflag plan date planned end life continue way is nothing look forward to maybe long life ahead theres nothing life cycle suck everything do motivation left world always weather leave not pain stays around thing im afraid of hurting best friend thoughive talked while pain mom grandma feel losing grandpa cancer depression redflag though part believes wont affected knows ill incredibly hurt bros always look me although may show know care people around would ended life plenty months ago maybe even years know do feel like matter ill never fulfilled ill never find pain worth enduring ill never find fight used heart flames kept going death seems closer ever sense tounge yet hate taste,1 +ap calculus absolutely kicking ass im frickin done school year october,0 +wish anything could go back time things rightbut cant look back and think couldve done much better sit cry cut think one talk to noone even ask hey u give hug think id happy right id done literally anything different eth there even care im sorry hang long enough im done,1 +reasons date me many ask whatever want me,0 +went dentist im still there wont let out help,0 +sometimes wonder live die end remember anything live nobody going remember going die matter much live keep going tiny organisms big universe why people always say hey it worth it worth it existence really matter anyone really going care die strangers people internet really going go way cry you point society spending decade education system go live mundane life everyday die living even worth it live,1 +transgender men women switched men modded women since cant post shower thoughts cause apparently political posted,0 +hi recently got testi got test grade told mom let know checks online grades anyway told grade yelled told worthless waste money left immediately searched commit redflag im depressed if get f iphone switched flipphone,1 +sometimes difficult watch selfavowed message films earlier seeminglysimpler era without certain degree cynicism issue racism religious tolerance one drummed us early age and weve grown teachers authority figures sought less blatant yet equallyeffective means getting message across the house live unsubtle message films come frank sinatra seems treating audience like child indeed perhaps point short doubt intended primarily influence younger filmgoers even so found curiously affected sinatra launched sincere patriotic speech really means american im even american released two months end wwii director mervyn leroy greeted warweary audiences message tolerance togetherness and else hope music aint bad eitherbr br freshfaced frank sinatra already star yet superstar hed become opens film recording studio booming if dream full orchestral accompaniment when songs frank goes outside smoko observes large group kids bullying young jewish boy taunts provoked purely differing religion ol blue eyes quickly puts stop childish behaviour delicately branding bullies nazi werewolves scolding irrational prejudice earnestly goodnaturely lectures group plain silliness racial religious discrimination assuring every american culture however differs own still american heart unless course one bloody japs theres hint hypocrisy pleading racial tolerance presenting one nation collective enemy though could hardly blame hollywood less enthusiastic plight japanese br br sinatra drives point home wonderfully heartwarming rendition the house live in written abel meeropol songwriter first heard song film furious filmmakers completely excluded three verses considered crucial message omissions likely due time restraints meeropol understandably take kindly them reportedly ejected cinema first released the house live in deemed important short film golden globe best film promoting international good will honorary oscar involved judged culturally historically aesthetically significant added library congress national film registry came hear it approach may seem little hokey sixty years later film remains quite watchable thanks young fella named frank sinatra,0 +feel people love much love themif replace im itll hell lot easier im dead,1 +welcome minecraft ,0 +got shot lol pfizer gang,0 +realize people post wanting kill themselves posting show redflag make loved ones feel anyone looking a reason it please read thisedit intended guilt trip add pain feel honestly way someone gain new perspective hearing someone feels redflag close person make angry set negative way please ignore post people angry done worrying feelings probably want hear however people want hear people care still care long someone gone types people please take trying guilt someone staying alive feeling guilty worst feeling world wish outcome people read this strictly meant show people care even ones think do im sorry seemedseems rude please read open mind caution try take anything negative this thats possible the letter become angry one paragraph anger normal feeling matter happens mean part everybody focused on wrote super intense letter ex killed himself want people know read would make feel really vulnerable maybe reading help someone here im reading posts breaking heart anyway heres hoping might give one person extra push need also ex determined kill long time many people know like do truth glorified mind part say maybe i someone else could exact moment would gotten fate way wanted eventually mainly anger based knowledge was please focus part anybody change mind this three years three years since ive touched face three years since ive heard voice three years since ive able use senses you actually thats lie days without warning lucky enough catch scent air started happening idea powerful sense smell was become completely disoriented soon happens sometimes think may pass out happen often does takes breath away emotionally painful fashion first thought races head here dont know true thought is knows possible near gone memory randomly pulling scent intensely believe actually smell it spirit beside happens youd visit me indeed possible considering way things us left world like think see get good laugh boy made mistakes what im like train wreck happens slowly fuck doing youd think happily married full life ahead us way took tragedy shit maybe would easier completely shut down felt like didnt deserve feel anything considering barely speaking terms passed still feel way sometimes like friends family ones deserve hurt loud me keep feelings tucked deep down theres guilt feel go back forth feel particular emotion days guilt stricken lying bed crying sitting silence like mad woman wonder anything could done said change fate stuck around toughed hard times would even mattered called night would able change mind even possess power something like that exaggerating important mind like believe maybe maybe could made difference particular night thats ego know deep nothing could changed mind maybe i someone else could exact moment would gotten fate way wanted eventually maybe thats tell keep guilt rearing nasty head days livid pissed fuck selfish dare take upon take life realize would affect everybody loved loved you think nobody would care maybe fucked even consider us hate it want miracle happen allows see one last time beat dead again believe referred anger step grief ive noticed dont follow steps correctly hit them point never bargained maybe never im particularly religious death sudden time it case ive hit depression anger most one day hope see again dont really even care outcome encounter would be maybe would peace realize young stupid forgive did abandoning moving maddness maybe could forgive taking life pain caused alive maybe would selfish dick before tell way reacted tragedy ridiculous shouldnt held nothing long did never cared me either way least would closure satisfied pain broken heart better pain caused answers sincerely hope hits someone feels started one girls attempt let go rage guilt maybe more life good people thing do live life beautiful let it,1 +lol im horny reddit oh well,0 +chance encounter train young couple spends single night strolling streets vienna discussing life love primary reason see before sunrise watch young julie delpy deliver lines celine sexy brainy soulful browneyed blond sort cross brigitte bardot joni mitchell midtwenties risking overstatement celine practically ideal woman unusually beautiful feminine natural unpretentious introspective selflessly loving easily forgive bit eccentric talks blue streak sincere intelligent remarks occasionally penetrating further varied expressions nothing short captivating speaks english french accent endearing br br if fly ointment good movie would unkempt disheveled costar ethan hawke jessie comes like vaguely appealing slob sort maynard g krebs nineties attempting appear detached nonchalant sort drags certain shots pants fit poorly tee shirt coming untucked wavy dark hair his attractive feature needs good washing someone really showed properly trim youthful goatee nevertheless supposed represent unwashed youth twoweek train ride around europe look cultivated probably pretty genuine oftcynical observations wry sense humor seem impress unapologetically romantic celine although occasionally disturbed extent alienation finally admits utterly sick likes near feels like different person presence know getting somewhere br br after blowing collective funds series cafes bars silly diversions agree may never see one another again make it jesse bums bottle red wine sentimental bartender newfound lady love may repair local park middle night lie grass looking moon stars watching sun come up br br given boundless luck romance department especially irksome jessie definition naive jerk foolishly allows wonderful young lady slip grasp contents halfbaked plan quickly devised railroad station bids adieu reunite spot half year appointed time comes know beautiful unusual girl involved another perhaps even married pregnant whatever reason probably show jesse ends working target if hes lucky local library go back vienna desperate see again wind alonebr br despite discouraging conclusion before sunrise beautiful movie highly recommend sequel before sunset,0 +among us htyawq north america join ffffffffffffffffffffffiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr,0 +successmoneyrelationships curei see lot posts people mostly young individuals unhappy lives thinking would depressed money better looking found attractive partner successful used think couple years ago achieved things family went poor attaining decent amount wealth failing student pushed able improve grades attend good university started working lot became attractive opportunity marry amazing person im happy all actually feel even worse realize things illusion really cure suicidal before im suicidal now dark feelings manifest differently people say things get better may true things problem first place us broken individuals struggle day die matter what people care forces keep going feels like blackmail dont try escape pain otherwise loved ones hurt beyond words pray every night wake up hope universe listens someday soon,1 +recently done things proud of fact always terrible person blame upbringing maybe really am cold spiteful psychopath hurt people made upset always people me people fact is loser disappear just stop,1 +guys think this w e p u 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everything want everything stop want life sropi want leave want leave want leave want die want die want die want die want die want die,1 +alt got banned made joke calling f word got alt banned f,0 +although released way back cold blood still remains benchmark truecrime films matched veteran writerdirector richard brooks elmer gantry adapted truman capotes nonfiction book chilling docudrama retains disturbing power even today thirtyfive years laterbr br robert blake scott wilson portray perry smith dick hickock two excons who tip hicocks old cellmate floyd wells broke holcomb kansas home herbert clutter looking wall safe supposedly containing safe ever found two men instead wound killing mr clutter wife two children getting away radio pair binoculars lousy forty dollars two months run including aimless vacation northern mexico ended las vegas cops caught stolen car eventually comes out merciless grilling kansas law enforcement officials two men committed heinous crime holcomb tried convicted four counts murder stew jail fiveyear period appeals denials hanged death april br br blake smith absolutely chilling two dispassionate killers show remorse theyve done concerned getting caught john forsythe also good turn alvin dewey chief detective investigating crime gerald s olaughlin assistant tactic faithful capotes book good artistic gambit around brooks show murders beginning instead shows two killers pulling clutter house last light goes out cuts next morning horrifying discovery bodies ride back kansas blake questioned forsythe narrates story see true horror happened night see much blood spilled scenes need to shotgun blasts horrified look clutters faces know die disturbing enough need resort explicitly bloody slasherfilm violencebr br brooks wisely filmed cold blood stark blackandwhite results excellent thanks conrad halls expertise chilling jazz score quincy jones capper end result one unsettling films kind ever made devastating lowkey fashion minute study crime shook entire state indeed entire nation seen though viewer discretion advised r rating reason,0 + year old manon rainy afternoon wife suggested go see women reading reviews thought might lead afternoon nap wrong movie held interest start finish great finally see meg ryan looking super again lets face meg looks much better long hair annette benning looked different every scene in candice bergen showing age carrie fisher daughter molly exceptionally acted young indiai able understand dialog tough many current films due rapid speech cloris leachman woman finland terrific housekeepers extend regular duties nyc scenes nice see oh bette midler short role usual terrific gave chick flick guys go see even eye candy like eva mendes disappoint,0 +fucking hate mom mom stabbed fork cookies sister made counter put away yet reason expects suddenly know kitchen gets dirty rush fix it cookies like theyre gonna next hour people grab em yknow anyway needed rant,0 +help pulling nightbut im little concerned managing sleeping much last night sleep all tired cant sleep wrote note entitled in event death im sitting razor blade know im going anything probably im little concerned super normal actions really seem control actions atm feel horrible need sleep right now someone give step plan right now showered fed drank water really would rather leave house or bedroom texted friends responded bothering family would elicit harm good well past therapists bedtime want calltext hotline talk going on need someone thinking clearly give healthy action plan need think much execute,1 +it finally hand sore hell finally it sorted porn enjoy fruits labor oh,0 +want get vaccine basically becoming ostracised it look happening france too would love press button zapped universe want get vaccine want die,1 +helpi want someone talk to normally main account stalk place help others really could use help,1 +think going kill myself going use helium place sells helium tanks walking distance place anything week week stop tomorrow buy tank apparently painless quick mess wife clean anything gets home really really really unhappy thought would feel better went camping ended getting flu fleas instead thought killing long time especially got kicked army fucking pot fucking months left would got anyways now college working parttime miserable every day wish meth killed not even stopped using meth still fucking happy started taking zoloft made kind happy also fucking crazy stopped taking zoloft now constantly feel like coming meth tired this fucking tired well hopefully helium stock hi,1 +im feeling lowest ive felt while stupid reasonfeel like two year old im jealous know why cant play video game want money friends it read past posts here upset fairly legitimate reasons time think im actually losing it upset something stupid even understand brain opened pill cabinet nothing could kill with im tired family never money cant pursue hobbies im tired job search im tired parents live paycheck paycheck probably support dumb ass im fucking done im gonna find something with im upset something stupid deserve die,1 +please give read let know saw even anything meaningful sayfrom outside fanfuckingtastic life year old straight white upper class male currently top high school class beautiful sweet sexy brilliant girlfriend thing complain mom alcoholic recently baby cps investigating might better gets taken everything right go weekly cbt take medication religiously and much normal dose exercise regularly never anything drink smoke eat right everything fine may surmised posting here everything isnt every day struggle get bed anything else think much want live pervasive thought appear nowhere even thinking things far removed sadness be consistently manage kill erections masturbating go somewhere dark never safe except asleep fact matter miserable point planning redflag last detail hypothermia feels poetic idea why course cant tell therapist this states laws required report suicidal tendencies parents state likely result involuntary hospitalization result idea depths anguish want get better afraid ask psychiatrist change medication several reasons primary one would take much time could take months get normal place cant deal fucking life long also medication ten years withdrawal hell earth psychological pain describe words result without options cant talk anyone fear betrayal trust every day gets worse days cry room instead homework end lot tiredness tired life never rest matter what another thing worry about another task complete even five months out focus that scan next threat deal it never get break mind never shuts up matter tired am constantly moving top speed meditation work nothing stops it escape thoughts pervasive driving edge needs stop needs stop now please help me please help please help please help please help me,1 +kinda feels good stand thinking nothing staring cute tree feeling heart lungs work meditating ,0 +aight bois confessed crush said want way would definitely like stay friends weve fairly close fair amount time posted coz really want friends know lol get f on note think posted time ago too,0 +dreadi really see future bleak carry on single ruined last best relationship fucked day ,1 +tried years cant anymoreyou know feel like persevered lot grew taking care severely ill mother father worked long hours take care medical bills even money family keep fed count one hand number times went clothes shopping family horribly narcissistic even let take advantage full college scholarship needed housekeeping family super bigoted wouldve disowned came transgender never actually came them thus sacrificing happiness also sacrificed grades social life them moved shunned socially awkward cast aside longterm boyfriend transgender suffer bone structure issues legs disallow walking properly makes difficult hold job struggled keep employed town retail chief field employment back living bigoted terrible family make feel like less person daily basis want die cant live awful goddamn people anymore worthless enough justify keeping alive anymore resolved fact tomorrow nights night,1 +first night postingi posted rdepression ive lurking sub lot longer ive depressed almost years length people sub bet bragging horrible older people like here sometimes think people used know people used feel like me see apparently grown it see still thinking redflag everyday cant snap outgrow wake fuck get act together sometimes wonder seeking help even yield results all long ive gone deep feeling depression taken hold corrupted soul cant even remember feeling happy anymore differentiate feelings sometimes feel like depression seeped brain taken hold existence good life job loving girlfriend car friends family every time im social setting like tonight baby shower get fucking sad sit room see smiling faces laughing fun laugh inside feel inadequate hard even put words feel sit there sit next girlfriend know someone else better someone passion life enjoys everyday activities feel life sitting next someone sit present think back head holding back watery eyes thinking there exist all im taking space im holding everyone back everyone positive force pushing happiness personality universe im fucking black hole anti matter wanting fade away leukemia fine long take pill everyday rest life diagnosed years ago taken medication months know refill it,1 +maladaptive daydreaming something want fix daydreaming fun way pass time quarantine know enjoy crafting tv shows head also music videos,0 +good bye everyoneim gonna bother writing things life want say good bye someone feels like right thing do good bye people hope great life,1 +long story short mom found cut going doctor might get medsbut issue mom thinks cut once going explain doctor moms room cannot talk feelings either cannot idk even going doctor get help lying acting like good want fucking normal want sleep finish work class avoid panic attack fucking hate this like emotions work time example feel like shit want cry time even right bed morning cannot cry nothing feels real words life fuck going see doctor soon,1 +psychologist prescribed new meds since current ones arent getting whole day take morning start lose effect around pm ive got tablets take start feel wear ive realised making sleep solving problem want meds thay help function continue day solution avoid problem completely sleeping,0 +whats favorite variant boy favorite variant skinny white femboy,0 +everything faultguys im tired im tired im desperate im never enough huge screw up want tell someone love hold them im scared alone love you,1 +lorna greenjanine reynaudis performance artist wealthy intellectuals local club falls prey fantasies promise romantic interludes turn murder kills believe sex horizon quite possible that form hypnotic suggestion someonea possible task master pulling strings like puppetis guiding lorna killing comes across secluded places appears lovemaking begin murders within fantasies committed lorna awakens bewildered often clueless privy within dreams ever took place realitybr br if someone asked describe particular work franco id say elegant difficult now probably read user comments befuddled film about since large portion takes place within surreal atmosphere dream franco mentioned interview heavily influenced godard early career far filmmaking style deciding abandon clear narrative structure favor trying create whole different type viewing experience and read reaction user comments heresome like decision others find style labouring dull bewildering ill first admit film head even franco himself quizzed critics watched succubus admitted even understand film directed it might say succubus merely precursor admired work venus furs considered masterwork francofaithful also adopts surreal dreamlike structure protagonist truly know whether heshe experiencing something real imagined sense like protagonist experiencing type confusioncertainly succubus unconventional filmmaking given keys exactly going on and great deal elusive dialogue help matters succubus also populated beatnik types poetspeak cormans film a bucket blood poked fun at personal favorite scene teases possible lesbian interlude lorna woman meets posh partyquite bizarre fantasy sequence mannequins used rather unusually great locations jazz scorei liked film myself although understand receive negative reaction loved one scene posh party lorna wee bit drunk writhing floor gorgeous evening gown others attending shindigequally wastedrush embrace kisses,0 +need someone proof read apology girl im gonna say,0 +oh fuck spanish test didnt know bad im megachad cheat google tranate,0 +white people talking ghetto really cant stand white people dont talk full words really dont know else describe talking ghetto shit like this make good music using cringy ass slang like stop cap baby momma op get point problem african americans using terms thats culture thats grew hearing problem though white people ripping phrases way talking look cool trendy also im obviously forcing anyone talk type certain way really dont give much shit tbh opinion thinking look cringy dumb,0 +everything hurtsim fucking sick hurting time im scared afraid waking hours noone close dependant me would myself life fun anymore horrible thoughts often im empath cynic see much able understand half it ive contradiction years trying fight way modicum consistency makes burn im fire cant reach help life would destroyed little hope future seems far away ive squandered every opportunity ive life depression eating future ones too id rather die witness yesterday again im tired pain want stop aside trying hard drugs offing myself know else do,1 +question regarding sharing pictures console reddit share picture gallery ps reddit,0 +know selfish request figure id rather talk someone maybe prevent harming themselves practiced committing suicide today told familys loved hugkissed all even gave pets one last hug ended going w crying yeah anyone wants talk distract here anyone willing talk make time go by,1 +one worst days had think need hug somethingi hate even considered suicide especially right now urge strong need help one help me one even listen memy so busy busy hanging best friend alone point close,1 +less month turn ive decided want,1 +really need helphello reddit like title says really need help suggestions call someone let tell bit myself im girl years age gay middle eastern come fairly abusive poor family father alcoholic used beat mother pretty regularly front brothers growing up turn mother beat us well way coping pain anger cause one listen hers necessarily blame her wish bad time tried commit redflag age ingesting tylenol pills alas hold down threw up passed out thing unfortunately results started cutting til mother found words were quote i care yourself always denied needed emotionally saying give time ill betteror think happier things would tell stories pregnant older brothers father would kick stomach fainted jump window order save little brothers life stomach needless say pretty horrible image family honest thought normal led string pretty abusive relationships women turn mindfucked thinking im worthless honest family already way ahead curve started cutting year made close friend continuously disappointed her know it intend tell her anyone cuts knows way transfer emotional pain physical started selling body money men years old pay school books along fulltime job family afford it even could would blow things like cars brothers pay student loans always deemed worthless honestly wish knew would anything fix it quite recently graduated top class uc berkeley degree economics english literature family disowned past month name pay rent get food upcoming months ive taking medication severe migraines got year make everything worse ive going string interviews companies honestly hope dwindling incredibly fast lost friendship friend honest need stress put quite happy time says im depressed true am so pretty much live alone city one talk family guess growing always kind knew would way realize much would really take away much would hurt so reddit im wrap unfinished business tidy apartment get everything nice clean taking life still lot prescription medication left alcohol pretty easy purchase hopefully coma trick honestly reddit thank making laugh days really needed it cant really live like anymore really wish different,1 +funny movie seeing evil dead trilogy week ago and left wanting more got many bruce campbell movies could including really bad ones one funny without exceptional sure hell originalbr br i mean got mad scientists superhuman cyborgs half brain freaks gypsies ex kgb cab drivers jealousy murders passion love romance sex action more actors br br you really see enjoy it cant explain text box guess much cult movie evil dead was certainly bruce campbell touch love ted raimi lends hand tamara gorski looks beautiful interesting she gone long way hooker friday th vladimir kolev also shows lot promise actor although probably cast secondary character hollywood movies entire careerbr br bottom line funny movie liked evil dead like this too,0 +one crucial factor often overlooked fact radical innovation requires long term commitment therefore strong committed workforce must required produce consistent effective results yeah,0 +smells like onions car right like,0 +cant sorryim twelve everyone thinks age cant feel suicidal im pretending feelings im fucking pretending two months clean cutting last night sliced skin again im even ashamed otherwise wouldve hanging ceiling ive told parents this theyre scared go hospital theyll drug they refuse give meds depression anxiety shit ton missing assignments make want skip school every day tied rope light hanging ceiling last week didnt end it dont even care im statistic teen redflag better shit im feeling right now nothings worth it teachers breathing neck missing assignments idea people tell tell people stuff i even therapist therapy talking friends doesnt help friends dont understand talk therapy going nowhere crush thank god still feel positive emotions im fairly certain doesnt like back feel like shit hes even bad guy everything around propels state drowning one tell cant live anymore,1 +stop bed generating random shit god damnit already infinity stones,0 +typical suicidal thoughtsi feel empty angry sad time decades ive therapy help medicine makes zombie want end cant read anymore cant feel genuine joy anymore want disappear forever evaporate air,1 +honestly dont know make another day mom passed lost everything herive battled mental health issues amp selfharmed since mom one made effort understand try help me got sick dropped school take care cause dad said burden brother couldnt bothered despite older sibling things ive seen caregiver given ptsd still nightmares years later passed planned whole funeral myself didnt get heal mom went income find serious full time job last gig getting back school but diagnosed bipolar last year became hard function work place leave job mon passed two friends basically nowhere found guess one wants friends sad girl relationship really supportive recently partner saying same draining around me hoped someone would ive got hard feel lonely tired defeated mom young death cruel best friend world one could always talk sucks im literally alone world without her go weeks without leaving apartment can dont speak anyone one speak to family live mins away one time me calls get ignored feel like im struggling obvious one cares help least extend hug feels like im already dead even bother everything pointless dont even enjoy taking walk park sun anymore im scared die know im living one one talk to one call sucks alone miss mom much cant move life without her im tired feeling way cant anymore,1 +give reasonim tired enough left get far away family im going cut lives way know am im going commit im disgrace means human preach others ive grown silent watch world pass though tiny screen phone better way toxic one,1 +know post here think step outside world thing thats gonna keep harming family read help lotim m us know post this first ill address bad things ive done tell porn problems soften it ill tell life trauma after ive commited sexual misconducts whatever called committed sexual crimeswhen college freshman year like cute kid acted childish never acted wrong anybody really sick mind without knowingnever sum wrong that freshman college went party friends house started trying kiss her like wanted make even kinda friendsi really drunk dropping glasses alcohol shit avoided guess like wtf wrong him kept persisting moments left go place went waited come bathroom straight locked bathroomshe kissed laughing leftafter peed bathroom went dancing place sat grabbing head told bother much im sorry im sorry got wrong kinda hugged got never spoken much after friends time laughed situation guess tell sick sometimes year kept insisting girls make up really bad think flirty way mostly jerk absolute sick fuck like locking situationbut couldnt control ego think whatever was specially drunk ur high years think started become absolutely sick working supermarket sales men saw adult women big butt took photo her know why went home deleted thinking like wtf doing remember th grade week friends used teachers sister told time dumb stopped always hated people that even high school friends came pictures took women subway shit like bad guys realized years somehow ended again year went party friend mine girlfriends made classmate made friend even friends really drunk drunk us started make realizing buzzed stopped made party like hours bc thought better might first moment absolutely misconstrued idea sexual things viewed porn came off dancing really close put hand groin clothes groin took hand like minute put hands breast made thats it think bad bc drunk something made still realized absolutely education sexual behaviour all year party april trying get make girl always liked her work usually played made feel bad fun got mad felt ashamed calmed went girl found attractive knew liked since last year nothing happened year talking agreed go make went tent alone talked things good time tried touch boob something said stopped thats it felt awkward persist try make stay nice moment left discovered secret guess like hours made girl friend girlfriend friend think drank tequila shots make bolder extremely dangerous started making way persistent go somewhere else go step beyond tried much touch tho told one time put hand groin too second time that controlling even people trying sleep making side too know alone made think going scare girl sober know second time persistent take hands times kinda realized calmed idk kept making talking things morning even woke take bad situation kept kissing general acted terrible point stopped apologizing shit did woke shit may know worry anymore tell it someone really accepts read know disgust people get mad sum obvious social media time seem bad bc friend always told liked her guessed bad year years lots people getting canceled movement said i apologize calms thats hit switch say hell no exposed ill accept bc im coward sent long text asking felt situationthat deadass persisted much desperate told suicidal thoughts live abusive brother bullied school put thru much violence scared wouldve gf wouldve jackass scared could explode violence none lie realizing life absolute shitload trauma well told yeah persistent take hands her surprise message kinda remember situation told felt abused men situations thought thing drunk party type thing respected admitting things get help thanked really listening me gave help advice thankful her apologized told harassed her reality abuseor assault harassment all went read laws world fell me honestly know abuse known wouldve reported myself know shit consent anything tho knew stop done day crazy me started connecting thisthat acted extremely different moments started realize sick miseducated help all month thing party everything good fine started dancing one girl really close other minutes dancing tried kiss her said no started get far people thinking creep ass shit could work guess told like go place wouldve better said got place tried kiss repeatedlythinking flirtingthinking playful know why think drunk time realize acting extremely weird persistent got tired left day apologizeis like time given sickness explain below basically days later friend mine called saying wanted accuse harassment wanted talk me phone something person like ok suremy friend set meeting met like friday pm talk this let us talk told lots people saying made everyone n shit thought saying told telling anything ish happened acting dumb drunk know really cause happened long time ago cant remember think drunk somehow used weird ish point fkn know why point screwed up months quit basketball feeling trash feek self esteem all started first heavy depressive phase kept going parties year never got anything anybody scared persistent never wanted bother anybody halloween year went party friends girl trouble with one made friend me one always played me got party soon arrived told wth there like arrived started trying make angry friend day whenever said something like no say anything whenever put song party playlist removed it isolating friends friendslame ass friends anything got drunk hellhad left dog alone home spent time money go party isolating got drunk without thinking connected alcohol really hits make get problems out basically got drunk hell lost conscious remember point woke laying floor vomit clothes friend telling treat people like that guess told girl btch sum honestly think deserved anyway acted terrible honestly remember this remember waking seeing friends laughing girls friend trying make stop threatening kick out friend always taken care ofif couldve died alcohol poisoning felt betrayed went full defensive mode talk girl days returned talk them honestly going full shell mode next year fucked up talk people school jerk depressed fuck point said hell lonely anything started pressuring best friend spend time without knowing sick head went partying times moderated drinking solved anything half year went club started dancing girl hand thing again im sure watched ish porn time worked started grabbing touching clothes all way approach people still wrong shit year went party leaving leaving girls kinda flirted meand made uncomfortable lots times drank pure alcohol bolderdangerous decision againthinking like needed make someone isolating abnormal levels went subway know going getting drunk got alone started kissing making subway train people watching put hand groin clothes if reading things makes someone mad tell im piece ish help all know type ish ok all worked starting making touching other horny hell subway friday night guess people looking us like hell happening told sex replied kept talking like got persistent go somewhere else desperate interaction someone real wanted stop living year ago realize extremely need help separated realized going anywhere make her buzzed barely could walk left felt nauseous realize come back home drank bottle bolder ever drink fucking alcohol ill explain problems drinking too apologized girl mainly consensual feel im able tell sorry ish get exposed ig some acted like creep say sorry behaviour ill ask feels something im trying better life entered college throughtout life took care lots girls abused harassed ive congratulated lots times ive told thanks taking care dancing get creepsters out even first big party took friend car guy taking thereshe absolutely drunk buzzed honestly people even clapped hands looking good guy came mei controll times absolutely fucked view sexual intercourse realized it day know got like that know lead it felt tho bad view sex still persist felt awkward classmates knew dumb guy take chances something girl mental issues alcohol issues contributed feel shame saying fell sickness thats gross parties were wont say much got harassed got ass grabbed molested times school even got butt grabbed normal day class group girls everytime even girlfriends laughed this saying lying cute get harassed thats people conceptions changed everyone denies acting like that ill explain problems try write much boring porn problems hugei started watching eleven years old got addicted watched mostly everyday years oldthere days didnt days busy want everyday thing gf we saw times dumped made fun whole year never got interaction women got college years old time watched porn times even times day sometimes times remember every day saying times hell watching watched type porn without knowing learning that watched bus harassement type videos asian videos worst ish think general industry porn unreal penetrating people outta nowhere girls randomly wanting things you general porn man persist things happen ive battling perverted thoughts since kid whenever bus intrusive thoughts we do seemed like happened often never anything anybody train something anxious compulsive mind without knowing made erase ish thought whenever girl put body train sum happened lot stepped back really nervous trying make anyone uncomfortablei dumb fantasies urges like cousins teachers old women honestly point thought like irresistible women manifest anything somehow preserved consciousness like wtf yo kidand always ended falling porn stopped times never got it addicted since kid childhood tragic poor mother died years old due aneurysm flashbacks nothing more bullied schools middle school bullied whole year got school stuff broken lot even know got bad grades got foot broken classmate wanted make fall walk limping month cried walk anymore time sat next classmate grabbed touch ballsgroin daily idk week month timeand stopped told dad crying done him went school make stop school ishi lots moments stuck head like got intimidaded groups kids everyone laughed daily kid threw pen top made hole faceand theres this remember know do time starting suffer violence older brother years older already dumb kinda crazy suffered epileptic attacks kid became violent lost mom died yo cooked twin sister taught things took care us gave good moments ruined mind bigger bully everybody else remember hundreds violence episodes him one time making bed put cover right way started yelling told cry like putting blame me one time playing playstation made mistake shoved told retire everything related soccer ish like that used hit little mistakes always aggressive hell projecting everything me probably dozens houndreds times hit me full force think worse mostly got used never anything used tell dad would wait leave tell coward fighting back obviate this thats form surviving found think fucked life put perspective came room bug me kinda hit forehead take me said oh ok mf something like that raised hand think twice knocks out cover probably knocks out still hit head twice hard sister came see happened brother started saying hes hitting back hes btch slapping like wtf nobody nothing you told ahh say motherfucker kicked stomach using strength laying bed cover myself breaks something body thats mind always worked gets lil angry starts saying uncommon ish ish happen ish event fit situation like always year started following ordering ish things got drunk march threatened me said sick offered fight told like him last year hit full strength punches back got mad returning slap back gave me told go cry always im sick got nervous started walking house finally put head gf shoulder went cry room thats hes always like that grandmother crazy too hes religious fiend preached years goes house drowns newborn cats raise them used argue lot brother even told you killed mother fault front sister lunch like years old tried put religious ish mind traumatized sometimes even saying cartoons watched devilish shit let tho knew sick honestly life suffered normal old people could get im saying discovered lot sexual shit kid too nude type games cousins cellphones porn cds brothers room think even discovered nude photos dad girlfriend like looked closed flip phone think much exposure mixed fucked shit went thrui remember like sudden sexual thoughts sometimes even felt desire guess mindfucked life general ive always randomly doodled always used draw dark shit kid eat like crazy since young age father year told years old said wanted die go mom year realized talk alone places im streets start mumbling alone sometime voice scapes thats realize im talking alone sometimes ive said hi raise hand air like imaging friend mine there times insult air without realizing whenever remember things brother me realize end punching air like mind place younger denied got discovered saying singing sending voice message something thats felt things girls thats felt dominated impulse realize im doing thought get wrong ideas mind im learning control way ive felt like fight voices head guess thats kinda normal anyway ill go therapy obviously started realizing worst state ever quarantine got thru head wrong acts well crimes like mistakes suffered started connect mind head rolling over walking house alone till am mumbling alone trying connect shit trying remember everything make excuses nothing go root know hell like this since halloween problem wanted stop living even knew done shit wrong still wanted suicide trust anybody anymore felt betrayed always rejected person honestly said went full shell mode acting thinking suicidal years even think needed help thats makes sad end all think mechanism survive made sick mf think brave survive childhood fucked lifeif shown signs fo sickness wouldve educated sex would never done anything dad social worker told everything said sorry bc knew mom knew touched bullied still take therapist thinking fine plus poor hell someone gone therapy able eat shit like that guess dad thought could control everything blame him imagine amount pressure had could apologize could apologize something havent would chance will know im fine ive told theres little people reflect trauma way do know ever dumb shit again go therapy know work still feel like life aspects feel like ever gf whenever one able keep secrets myself tell everything think girls run away me live recently psychopath apologized ex murder her yesterday disappeared girl found dead killed tinder date even tho sad know cant complain im still alive jail really shouldve exposed social media long time ago go jail ill still would go know seeking punishment make better would still it honestly feel like im good person know preserve consciousness know ive overcame this know bad things done know got turn life around mental issues made defend myself think wouldve helped little like all mom developed things wouldve taught sentisitve thats way was ive told people reddit im full shitbeen told girls rapd people im piece shit turn i think could deny that even guy told im making shit sound better im not think avoidable fighting mental disparity rpey shit since kid think deserve so think might narcissisticschizophrenic disorders sickness without knowing think whole life lead this knew really abuse came home social life told people told friends college environment creepy never saw shit like that concluding im better puke everyday cry everyday think life meaning anymore deep know help brother doesnt traumatized kid wife know help kids know things better moment think swallow pride realize even lonely life expects me think go play ball buy groceries go therapy thats it want quit degree study psychology teacher think lot knowledge teach people think able so kill thats promise know post sounds like straight suicide letter wont dad much ending killing myself go therapy try get solutions think lonely life deserve would love gf would love feel love girl never felt besides sister would love show girl good things her think late think late turn life around move silently help shadows would love read opinions good analize think world lead act like know honestly cant see sober type shit theres times feel sick might shit again example got drunk weeks ago give shit anymore alone testing thoughts changedi thought behaving like big deal side times feel like life over thanks advance help know got like this know values principles changed much times think nah life tragic tell friends childhood experiences faces falls get surprised even understand things like this wish stopped going disturbed parties wish better friends wish couldve opened people younger gain experience sane way wish life couldve little better think already failed man sonbrother friend true feel sick feel like calm kid guess late again guess stop btchng hold things together mood swings really goes low up think gone thru shit nicely ended sick anyway feel like bound perverted way hurts fault,1 +guess got girlfriend me,0 +fucking hate false hope stupid well learnt circuits today physics absolute nerd obviously got questions right whilst rest class sitting scratching heads mind you top set tbh quite disappointing whatever anyways eventually teacher put question board asked us write answer immediately told friend answer coz im arrogant bitch friends always laugh knowing answer teacher even finished sentence ppl around us like wtf u get that started explaining like basically half class including boy like eventually teacher like heard lot discussion question person particularly loud ron me thats beside point point lesson friend who sat next boy like told staring talking like nahhh looking coz explaining question straight went like no staring you but like good way im sad coz gives hope likes even tho know doesnt anyways hope lovely day guys lt,0 +got tb hdd games pc could hold siege gta bo now hold black ops black ops black ops siege fortnite minecraft minecraft bedrock garrys mod addons killing floor every borderlands game more,0 +inadvertently caused guinea pigs death feel fucking guilty dont know go onthis sounds frivolous stupid im already depressed one guinea pigs passed away love dearly left lid cage open kitten went wanted play caused pig heart attack wasnt home drive minutes get back bury him freezing cold time got home im fucking sick cant fucking believe caused this would still hadnt fucked up cannot handle killed him took life pure innocent one fuck going go conscience im vegan im hurting animal fucking killed baby want curl fucking die want swallow pills done id literally give life come back jesus christ,1 +advice sophomore year first day sophomore year tomorrow could please advice get year,0 +day writing something positive happened today forgot yesterday im morning teacher gave friend chocolate reason chocolate nice,0 +food country get global attention deserves filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +made first animation youtube since shame here gthttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkkkmdzhlrglt,0 +nice see comedy grown ups masterfully structured aaron sorkin via mike nicholss mastery mr nichols mastery present characters shocking truth sad riveting richard burton elizabeth taylor whos afraid virginia woolf sad riveting julia roberts clive owen jude law natalie portman closer charlie wilsons war shocking truth outside characters sad riveting tom hanks julia roberts philip seymour hoffman amy adams service something else personal point hanks bury brilliance single malts julia roberts throws parties introduces characters blatant straightforwardness amy adams witnesses exist character witnessing insurmountable task miss adams manages surmount beautifully philip seymour hoffmans gus t however monopolized attention character may first first way hoffman presented us someone survives disregard hes treated absolute conviction hes smarter put together hoffman superb pacing tale helps enormously fall myriad useless questions sharp short smart sad comedy last time able say that,0 +tag user post youre someone tagging remember wear mask drink water good time nice day ,0 +bruh snapchat needs get priorities straight theres option report someone annoying reporting literal drug dealer added,0 +feel though theres nothing leftim reasonably young attempted redflag twice continually reached help friends family doctors seems like noone cares mother refuses believe even depressed something dealing since recently moved back parents fucking awful quit degree come back care could tell going mental hasnt helped all mother mental bitch stepdad could care less me weekend saw ex boyfriend thing thats kept going havent spoken months told vulnerable going on slept together tells doesnt time deal shit genuinely feel like im again third time lucky get fuck here dont even know im posting this feel like fucking shit want end everything,1 +im conservative would vote candace owens ran shes fairly progressive libertarian conservative counterparts bernie runs though vote going him,0 +addiction broke another relationshipi love girldamn amazing first time someone made feel like truly didnt need drugs ended telling addiction wanted get better didnt take well dont blame her first time addiction cut relationship quite time depressed addicted drugs always believed least valueim ugly im funny try care people animals im loving partner relationshipsim always trying make people feel good themselves always thought worth even small past months dont believe anymore im finally worthlessmy addiction robbed everything hadeverything family doesnt like memy exes hate me friends avoid me even sister spent whole life trying take care of see loserits week since talked me even looked face job anymore failing college im fat depressed maniac disappear days end mom feels sad me used little bright boy today literally hear mom getting face yelling coward liar druggie one people left still tried help me run peoplei friends anymore one cant near me cant help anymore think im getting end linethere nothing left thats it wasted whole lifeeverything mom build me everything people invested gone im nothingim worthless actionsim suffering consequences shitty person was,1 +saw film released minor cinemas uk years ago memory remains great musical score tragedy storyline saw video recently sound track poor picture grainy one two films saw next day gladiator music theme intensely tragic outset one knows heralds failure death certainly one george sanders best performances man working black market get pay back lost war nemesis waits patricia roc plays refugee eastern europe eaten despair attracted her selflessly wants help her falls love her proud hurt accept help love destroys him inevetably girl doctor herbert marshall brought nemesis storyline complex intertwining destinies subsidiary characters appear be film diappointed critics struggled box office adolescent saw it retired gentleman saw one greatest films taking account agewhose story akin opera,0 +feeling like right thing doi mean life suffering situation nobodys gonna understand situation better myself see exit think stuff im going trough gonna change time feel like giving excuses like my mom would sad things gonna change therapy help me working anymore amount suffering avoid ending far beyond amount happiness im able obtain things change im sorry makes someone feel worse swear purpose make harm want know so ampxb,1 +ppl tell mewhy bad idea amp shouldnt truth isit probably good idea amp even ppl like matter bc im anyone good except kid prbly clock ticking amp anything else not,1 +horrible end th birthdayso th birthday spent weekend friends drinking etc come home around pm friends part ways go talk mum boyfriend both try respect much possible called up basically made emotional resorted room start crying bed feel like im useless helping making mother boyfriend economic situation worse feel reason live goals good looking lot money relationships sure,1 +matter allim middle aged man place society im irrelevant would want friends creepy middle aged man anyways fuck it think im gonna od again nothing matters anymore,1 +suicidal thoughts calm scaryi pretty much joined reddit came straight really need let something out used suicidal urges lot ive attempted before used mind chaos pain redflag way escape panic desperation last months different ive contemplated life really deeply keep coming conclusion mother dog passes best thing die know want die days do days dont spend maybe hour two day bad days actively thinking killing myself panic seems like cold logic though attempted scares attempts know fight mind rational even know anymore know im suicidal part wants live want live part suicidal even know hope get this guess hope getting help idk,1 +nothing makes happy anymorei know issues gonna solved one reddit post guess would help tiny bit least type out ask no im suicidal im way afraid death even consider it instead feel chained bound plane existence title says everything keep mind day actually get help longest time considered life worth living least mine feel gonna go im still stuck living parents get along with especially mom thinks better childhood reason sad anything fought since first started forming long term memories thats exposure love like cant seem get good enough paying career going companies within reasonable distance pay shitty never take anyone without years experience cant make friends every time do always someone whos busy time end feeling twice bad alone cant find loving relationship woman im emotional mess even without that im severely average looking best complete lack self esteem confidence makes truly believe im good enough anyone chance fall someone absolutely tears apart inside completely fuck get swept feelings embarrass myself see maybe someday living spending rest life living sake staying alive alone never able meet anyones expectations never able learn social romantic mistakes past everyone finds sooo much easier ghost rather telling said wrong motivation anymore dreams anymore nothing seems worth anymore nothing makes happy anymore,1 +better adaptation book one paltrow although liked one too much beckinsale better good screenplay better davies master adapting austen filming production values good quite glossy hollywood treatment close thought locations costumes actually worked better,0 +anhedonic ugly potent combinationanyone else relate,1 +time say good byeits perfect evening end all wanted say thank people gave motivation advice years without would made far peace,1 +one hour workout im really proud yeah im happy,0 +life rant secretsi born late september far remember ive sick born family strong history mental illness moms side sick dads sick storys paranoid anxious behavior day born would scream chairs left pushed table could even comprehend anything would cry night time form change feared anything scared admit it would nightmares freak accidents learned family could die left content fear safety around me started notice bullying never weight grew self hatred ate others food brought comfort nothing else could also began developing crush girl im female knowing nothing heterosexuality convinced disgusting dad opinionated homophobic got tablet free internet range became informed sexuality internet friends year one girl year older one night sleep over ended experimenting witch far young so still bullied students found happened her bullied severely developed acne every one else led bullying spent recess year hole back fence away every one else school grades declined years old grades became worse hated self body severely thought cutting fat body kitchen scissors yet diagnosed mental illnesses sky rockets severity grades work ethic time low met another girl thing happened previously happened year also like boys timei thought death lot bullied got called fat ugly got called gay mocked grades even teachers cut first time began skipping lunch gained weight due binge eating years old grades s freinds developed self harm addiction cut self chance got continued gain weight would starve week time binge eat weighed self times day cried ate bullied gym began working got home school every day hours binge eat started experimenting prescription drugs tried slitting wrist overdosing summer tried getting clean self harm several relapses severely suicidal weeks th grade school counselor hospitalized im hospital groomed molested almost year old boy groomed sex year old girl days discharging hospital relapsed get stitches hospitalized hospital visit sent residential hated it days later birth day there dog diedim shit personfor real like really shity staff patients really hated me deserved it kept breakdowns stupid shit grew attached staff even though hated me guess felt cared for started fear going home i still sick scared would happen left binge habits flourished managed sneak razor blades diazepam pass lasted month mutilated chest instead showering talked fucking walls snuck meds pass planed od changed mind asking float nurse questions meds realised probably would found out suffered lot pain died would really long painfully watched meds desolve toilet like morning treid restrict instead bingeing staff caught on stopped ended bingeing end tried hinting past ed s substance abuse really want time kinda sucked it one believed me remember wondering could find journal documenting it guess mom trashed it began attention seeking therapist got discharged thinks may cause know ask help decided enough brought prescription diazepam razors pass used help last month got discharged discharged ish months night tried oding old prozac got sick continued mutilate thighs abuse harder substances remember summer spent like days tweaked out bingeing got worse got comments weight gain school mates started new school turned rumor spread smoked pot school bathroom never smoked weed school people knew smoked every day schoolat creek lost it mutilated arm planed od school counselor hospitalized got therapist thought safe refered iop program im currently shits hill restriction hit like rock ive clean while would gladly cut self could still abusing substances ive really low high key suicidal life feels kinda shit gonna lie thank reading means lot,1 +mum watch weirdly sexual dancing videos youtube like shes watching one rn tv really fucking disturbing me anything slighty modest im confused cant tell turn shes gonna yell someone help,0 +tired gunna stay dont wanna sleep,0 +wanna live anymorei wanna live anymore,1 +dont motivation ideas make lego stop motions dont know do need motivation,0 +want free mental illnessi cluster mental illnesses love feed other bipolar disorder social anxiety eating disorderim tired them want wake morning theyre gone want wake okay again want wake life eat without guilt love someone without pushing away waste hours weeks years life distracting hunger buying things watching shows already know heart mental illness going away im tired pretending thats okay im tired pretending im like everyone else im tired people telling best choice pretend there pretend things real are ill end life ive written hundred checks cant cash hell im already there want gone once gone,1 +better dead red always say filler filler filler filler filler iller filler filler filler filler filler filler fire filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +live years oldso tired every morning woke up another meaningless horrified day life eyes glazed emotions it sit look around meaning life exist room neither world one waiting path front one grate warmly want go home one know land bare foot rest shall find place inflict pains me hate people around me hate people better life hate people suffering cant good life there nothing wrong world one wrong you shout back give birth me shouted loud echo woke up dream wish die age even one second delay set reminder count days hope find peace,1 +oh beautiful oh tearful gutwrenching br br makes everything seem superficial pale meaningless comparison br br sister helen real saint br br she real human flawed raw blunt passionate heart goldbr br what found interesting handful wretched miserable people found meaning laughterbr br what loved documentary portrayed polarity human nature,0 +notthis life beautiful everything perfectly interconnected levels small atoms large worlds ascribe meaning life want do feel live laugh love everything begins must end universal constant ethics everything do say think feel simply is singular happening greater lesser importance anything else same chaotically different life is was perfect reflection choose it meaning interpretation idea holds superiority other all gracefully infinitely beautiful absolutely astounding yet sad given awareness self withheld rationality understand completely inherently unfair existance never know will never know here rather answer never accepted something exaggerated magnificent life cannot simply because thats it because makes one wonder tumult chaos beauty sadness life irrational nature cannot understood reasoned thing reasoned completely absolute nothingness exist simply check out recede darkness whence came granted infinite nothingness witheld consciousness necessary bemoan it that real something counted upon beautiful last exhale life warm embrace nothingness that beautiful anything given currently make one consider life death morality pain wiped forgotten moment nonexistence truly beautiful real question left death is not,1 +seeing though rich frist person comments make laugh gets award sure award awards quality vary depending funny youwhat link joke link go,0 +im sorry bad lifethats family wants say ones wanted know something me next paragraph it sorry new bible im okay days really need unburden u wanna read fucking shit go last paragraph today heard aunt tell life difficult since mother always worried taking care hair food home etc truth mother always said bad children regretful me much daughter devil let hug because like touch leave house while see friends came home fighting me hated father left me chased around places watched hidden house list long suffered bullying lgbt woman black suffered homophobia even without family confirmation suffered abuse whole week inside home beaten mother times went principal badmouth eye me manipulated everyones mind would always wrong one list really huge addition neglect medical help never denied going doctor whenever felt something said exaggerating today chance develop uterine cancer due negligence happy situation country happy peoples ignorance happy loss important person entire life grandma happened month ago tried redflag age seeing best friend leave me humiliated school beaten place grandma almost died ending hospital end more ended picking knife birthday alone going kill myself stopping promise made moment i try continue forgive kill future everything fine received many threats mother child abandonment threats even though wanna make happy today heard aunt saying feel happy mom bad dad im even old enough suicidal currently years old today cannot see many reasons live want grandma want peace now think right life bad suicidal younger wanna phrase no one say much hurt u know sometimes need see things common child pass through wanna be selfish idk knowing everyone bad make feel worse like everyone worse handle better current age diagnosed depression anxiety almost did almost ptsd cant see whole life really something bad im selfish wanting worse really bad seriously need know could say im okay without ridiculed really sorry fucking mess put here alive rough sometimes,1 +serious moms reaction breakdown overload bc stress life schoolwork im th grade btw get something print set off mom walks crying bombarding questions tells calm down helpful,0 +online therapy found site free online therapy anyone either make personal make anonymous anyone talk problems give site shot mean advertise btw cupsofteacom,0 +yo difficult get bed like go bed ill like yeah matter tired morning im gonna force hop nice cold shower morning like zero willpower sleep important thing ill literally sleep minute classes start like thinking seams easy like get bed smh wake feels like im permanantly bound bed dont get supposed even like dont get enough sleep sleep hours,0 +life really worth livingjust general question,1 +right timeif survive people life disown ive tried times before said cant handle drama think day trying im coward im scared ill fail alone life im done long even remember happiness even feels like,1 +quitm done,1 +fuck hobbies fuckin expensive favorite hobbies guns cars airsoft pc gaming literally things find fun goddamn expensive fun shit expensive ,0 +offer pity arrogance worthless species areno one willing help me one treats nicely cant get bad childhood adulthood bad hate getting less hate working anything point hate living people ill always poor ill always unintelligent cant socialize people always take advantage me im hopeless money true support want die,1 +id like end one way other depression bipolar disorder think redflag ton come extremely close couple times recently couple nights ago literally knife wrist began cutting motions stopped cried sleep kitchen floor live aunt uncle parents died horrible car accident last year gotten it im haunted nightmares deathly afraid driving even though everyone says good driver often think parents im attending ut knoxville fall im minnesota originally however homesick moving june top that aunt uncle trouble adjusting financial burden sister carry addition two girls feel burden want go back home bad know home is aunt also mental disorders going rough time well psych ward three times past three months give new meds work two weeks body adapts them begins getting worse goes psych ward rinse repeat guess im saying is im homesick feel im burden everyone feel like aunt hates even though know disorders know real her miss parents im worried school fall breaking weight all want die want deal anymore im honestly thinking ending it want end whether death whether end stress know else turn im hurting one help me,1 +pissed size sonics chicken sandwich sonic american fast food chain usually get drinks nothing else today feeling adventurous put dick somewhere cock before actually order meal sonic settled something basic something simple ingredients tastes good nearly impossible fuck up chicken sandwich however twist fate perfect demonstration true american exceptionalism means dey fucced up shit fucking tiny half inch tall fit palm hand friend embarked experiment ordered burger four times big got meal fit man meal fit child meal fit victim starvation shit evan fucking meal still dignified enough let antwich go waste ate two fairly average bites wouldve looked like scene attack titan scaled normal sized sandwich overall conclusion came experiment order anything drink sonic demented psychopath locked away greendale asylum,0 +im angry no hate anyone mentioned live deep south everyone bigoted beliefs christian im literally atheist entire familys bloodline even school go homophobes history teacher literally called bisexual people perverts tried call it told wrong people class started telling gonna go hell so parents pretty christian make go church every sunday like mom literally sat talked telling need know gay wrong sin kept nodding know disagreed literally anything bible id disowned relationship strained parents bad people anything though racist love me feed me buy shit take care like great parent would im tired keep beliefs call people bigots im tired christianity whole hate it happen live state extremely widespread happened born parents america support lgbtq know keep quiet thats best do know spoke out relationships would severely altered almost ruined wanted get frustrations subreddit know hardly ive seen literally maybe bigots here extremely large portion support lgbtq care christianity anyone similar situation love parents theyre great people really christian religion ruined south needs change im sorry ampxb edit im gay bi venting frustrations people thinking wrong way,0 +birthdaywell birthday im turning feel like going go downhill here im alone got ditched friends share birthday feel around shitty need someone talk to ive thinking killing past year feel like would pretty good time so,1 +optionstldr age eighteen moved online partner escape emotionally abusive fucked family situation things went okay next years tbh became apparent pretty quickly relationship unhealthy us gotten point were finally breaking up literally nowhere go sos told want apartment asap lost job week ago nowhere go aside going back abusive family basically put eggs one basket thats fallen pretty much want disappear,1 +ive always told it work somehow it get better somehow really doesnt somehowim chronically suicidal worry anything thoughts redflag intent vent dads icu heart attack open heart surgery suddenly given task handling everything family mom incapable understanding details insurance works get set rehab apply financial assistance take care rehab handle household finances hes recovering mountain shit top mountains shit lets even mention mom concept money spending lot hospital access finances concerned spending hes saving income taxes separate savings account financing casino trips monthly social security check sick people telling worry things work out never unless someone took responsibility typically thats me parents live squalor heat bath facilities working washer dryer trailer rat mice insect infestation mention black mold problem family gets sick every week moldcat urineexcrementlack hygiene mom gambling addiction yard junkyard hoarders one cannot move house easily think almost worse homeless tried address living situation many times fallen deaf ears tried years help dad icu things never critical offered little money ive trailer several times try clean up mom stops throwing away trivial garbage objects like old plastic grocery bags cats urinated on one week ive managed clean small part kitchen found nastiest things ive ever seen left property crying throwing back way pills cant take stress right now yes im depressed right stressed beyond anything think before thing going life im considering calling county place condemned leave streets never live me hard deal this want advice guarantee ive heard times need vent write out,1 +way outthis might sound ridiculous really bad fight boyfriend im different state visiting family staying moms house mom want stay dont want anymore feel trapped talking like couldnt hear them earlier offered take someone elses house told yes didnt want to house pretty far anyone else could stay with ive asking family get let stay house theyre asleep take medicine soon anti depressants would easy overdose dont escape right now trust know sounds ridiculous kill fight boyfriend literally choice trapped right now feel suffocated want end im sorry everything formatted typed like shit really cant bring correct anything right now id embarrassed redflag attempt survived least would get fucking house dont expect anyone read whole thing feel hopeless trapped want,1 +cod cold war looking ppl play with heyo last day school today looking ppl play break time zone cst wanting grind game mode multiplayer zombies mainly going camos discord provoke,0 +im sick want get alreadyi feel like belong home anymore everyone forgets im even door wide open died tonight one would notice except dog bf would better without though bc bring everyone down wonder everyone else forgets me depressing piece shit wish could get suicidal thoughts past plan stage start working implementing shit im tired alive im tempted relapse cutting pills tonight made promise would try hardest to wish never promised hard trying pretend everythings okay not wish normal think like this wish friends wish loving family wish happy instead sad miserable every single day,1 +school coming wish could die thenlast semester huge embarrassment failed classes one classes math really well first years th class music getting really good at barely passed semester though feel like deserve teacher gave liked last year friends classes alone day outside lunch would talk one person semester friend one class thing keeping depressed mess semester since responded online months tried contact months ignored messages ive kinda given up though probably fault since gave address crisis center went get help depression ive lazy anything im huge developed eating probably ill eat whenever im bored stressed gotten point ive eating less thats ive feeling full extremely quickly past days kinda full im longer hungry kinda full stomach pains regret eating first place ive wanted kill years done laziness also reason gotten help im years old huge failure scared grow go college get job cry stupidest things ever sorry used many commas got english class last semester,1 +fighting long tired tried distracting like race pain keeps catching me want die want live like anymore want give,1 +interesting cartoon included dvd the lost skeleton cadavra especially like way color used background artvery artistic columbia whose cartoon department generally low budget and results looked like itbr br i wonder however certain um finger gesture ever got past censors granted gesture question seen lot less frequently today think someone besides animators would noticed thoughespecially since seen three times scene question based context suspect inclusion intentional something animators slipped see censors would notice,0 +would like ask favour people want ask mum go see therapist somebody please tell things could say try persuade mum let see therapist local doctors thinking good times childhood screaming crying internally laughing joy instead pain self harming myself good times hey,1 +would like hear guys opinionssoo dont really know start im eager talk led state im lets say ive knew day would come day eventually fact suicidal since years old cant set thoughts straight think dark thoughts real dark unsettling rage inside wants burst out emotions gone except rage dont think ive ever loved someone makes feel so empty exhausted lonely ive never attempted redflag done basically wishing someone would kill free feel like waste life didnt ask born wish never was dont know do really dont drive left motivation dreams whatsoever theres emptiness inside me except rage thing kept alive years fuel im tired rage fuel tired dont know posted since internet probably shittiest place open to id like hear thoughts anyone else feeling way know im special theres probably thousand feeling way clue make it im open discuss anyone wants to,1 +bruh feels like im faking everything might even faking imposter syndrome,0 +every day think hit rock bottom next day worsei nineteen year old female set leave first year college days always struggled depression eating disorders bpd went little therapy stopped several reasons one main ones past year felt like living cloud amazing relationship supportive man loved great grades job enjoyed just everything felt like experiencing genuine love happiness first time life felt valued supported everyone around me and general even felt good myself started birth control months ago help deal pmdd well past month though feel like entire life completely fallen apart around me know approach all feel complete emptiness loss like abandoned every person ever meant anything me boyfriend love life broke moved across country said still loved would stayed situation right feel comfortable pursuing ldr said want relationship anyone really getting settled new atmosphere and anything might pursue meaningless sex fulfill physical needs would still maintain friendship basically see goes ever end city again first thing found tough deal with yes know knew wanted lot introspection felt comfortable continuing friendship but emergency mouth surgery given lot hydrocodone took religiously mouth hurt made stop however pills gone severe withdrawal i experiences opiates before sleep days constant vomiting symptoms severe anxiety top off friends left town point completely alone freaking head days nights end really broke spirit already raw ways feelings rejection nowexboyfriend cant handle anything opiate withdrawal could finally sleep again nightmares resurfaced it didnt mention before probably past months nightmares almost every night sometimes two three remember freak morning worse before though often featuring ex death abandonment various forms psyche explores different combinations every night im little body mod decide get another piercing ear though try raise selfesteem little bit find something new positive about one night decide smoke little by myself try destress nice time staring computer talking old friends abandoned years ago still try talk desperate trouble letting go people next morning driving grocery store see familiar fluffy animal side road vulture it pulled ran it cat image burned head fur matted dirty one eye completely blank staring nothing pulled socket tongue lolling ants already beginning crawl there lost it got box wrapped it stiff laying awhile cant shake intense feelings guilt responsible letting cat every night taking care her failed selfcentered got high laid bed getting struck car even able bring dig hole bury yet unable function even get bed more considering lonely feel am attempt schedule meetup friends live outside city planing going well day of every single last one ditches really handle sort thing well never have much time literally every person life left even try worthless drain resources nobody gets happiness me next night friend friend invites roll rave friends restores hopes little bit molly falls through start feeling sick rave make everyone leave early due friends turn whole bunch dudes sexually harrass evening touching breasts legs violating personal space matter much told stop feel really guilty helpless this much bigger leave alone dressed rather scantily rave without realizing would hanging long afterwards just feel really dirty soiled whole thing yeah am girl given ride decides wants sleep drive back around noon wake abruptly am throat literally swollen could barely breathe speak it idea happened wake friend force give ride parents house refuse take doctor think took drugs made sick spend next three days complete agony completely alone mulling head start feel slightly better second two days nice chat phone exwhoiamnowfriendswith weve talking little bit stay touch others lives nothing like before learn one girls claimed previously friends basically dating honestly support really want happy astonished truly hurt quickly moved relationship really ways noticed love before give blessing though talk feelings bit still capable making happy even talking new girl bizarre comes today wake nightmare little sleep still feverish throwing throat still going crazy losing mind feelings insignificance loss just replaced hurt literally weeks found someone new even though loved much hell even week ago admitted still loved missed lot feel even worthless like started entirely new life new friends new girlfriend place it cannot meet anyone elses needs good mopey doll constantly crying felt random dudes day goes on feel somewhat better ex tells never going give friendship matter dating whatever then tonight learn visit planning take come see completely fallen longer wants put effort coming seeing me usually would probably make feel bad bit know handle three horrible weeks honestly visit thing keeping going remaining positive force life feel like piece trash tossed away newly pieced ear even got hugely infected cant deal problems solve anything even know proceed death still love cant even handle feel hopeless never wanted go college prospect leaving throwing away huge sums money worthless degree sickens me completely unmotivated unintelligent unwanted see anything ever going get better hardest three weeks life literally every day say must rock bottom get better here next day shit happens feels like punished ways need accept ultimate punishment remove world know much hurting guilt abandonment handle want end want wait things get better think deal more,1 +im looking advice try help relative shes going ugly divorce husband whos trying get sole custody threeyearold son hes dating woman substance abuse problem criminal record met three weeks ago taking son sleep residence unbeknownst relative till recently monday told hes filing divorce,1 +forgot word wrist momentarily called wrist arm ankle im fucking tired exist right now,0 +things sayordinary people seem realize really apply right way philosophy directly accord preparing dying death true actually looking forward death lives would course absurd troubled thing comes long preparing looking forward socrates phaedo im scared die choice made believe everyone right decide whether want live not matter great logic use matter much emphasis put beauty life left live always absurd meaningless existence purpose some purpose must exist go on cannot created exist doesnt choose live life purpose tell wrong,1 +hate responsibilitiesi want kill myself meh,1 +feel vulnerable often starting become fed living want free constant redflag depression even write this want drop dead leaving behind fears world mean going die anyway difference make happens now much admire human race also terrified it find dangerous people often average mentality hard feel threatened constantly cannot around people without whirlwind negative emotions fear sorrow anger etc perhaps spend much time social media observing people find incredibly cruel see yourself look comments section youtube video witness discourse anger flows naturally people home town large masses homeless people makes sad seeing many folks hit rock bottom seen groups teenagers beat said homeless people right front me seen people drugs yell fight stab rob seen women awful things children public without repercussions overheard people spread hatred people family members die horrible ways old classmates ended lives witnessed man try commit suicide highway swear think i know sure think saw one neighbors take child prostitute home feel like surrounded society cruelty violence reason cannot help love people however love dissuade wanting leave world childish sounds wish could born life issues nonexistent despite disturbed appalling human behavior cannot help fixate it feels like positives world want free it living terrifying,1 +hospitals cancer mentally ill people overdosed mg ended hospital yesterday im finally done etiz done got craziest shit life ended roof contemplating redflag called officers trying get come down scary zero control lucky kill im tears right im thankful alive really felt like could ended moment inhibition try stick opioids never thought redflag opioid forced go voluntarily said threatened doctor force go involuntarily later on etizolam began wear felt strong urge leave guards monitoring door leading chance another patient acting restrained guards distracted made run it made pretty far misjudged jump fell scraped fingers pretty badly doctor quick come see let leave told wanted leave suicidal overall shitty way get situation like that injure get discharged even forced sign voluntary admission paper,1 +helpi want buy gun figure everyone would tell to unfortunately im making choice whether say not anyone kind message guns wont leave crippled actually kill you would grateful think might deleted im afraid wont get reply ill end completely wrong,1 +problem had would blame me didnt take side disagreement someone else would get mad start insults eventually got relationship ended it began obsessively texting times day talking family lying happening etc finally stopped threatened restraining order last time talked may ,0 +cant anymoreit keeps getting worse genuinely cant take anymore im sorry,1 +manic episode everything seems possible much energy barely sleep hours day working around clock compliments workcolleagues productivity driving manic state even higher go clubbing altered selfesteem makes appear charming attractive womenas usually weeks ago lack sleep physically degraded body much life collapsed like house cards again called sick week work piles up home became mess friends called asking reason suddenly responding ashamed tell mentally ill think sick stop talking altogether accelerating depression even morei used reason writing today manic state met wonderful girl work laughed together partied together worked together became good friends fell love never experienced love like that lost psycho lost shared feelings feel way first good friend would say assured would affect friendship avoided me believe started seeing another guy hitting herwhat bothers never even saw depressive side knowing even best good enough sorry long post struggling manic depression years now,1 +friend decided hell commit redflag next birthday i really need help ive trying help year now whenever said going commit redflag ive always talked time successful time cant ive suggested therapist refuse get therapy one extremely horrible experience mental facility decided commit redflag found two best friends cut said hated argument involved whether cared not plus things reason is friend overreacted something little thought indicated friends hated decided cut first says sensitive hes cutting more know do ive tried stop him work this detail important next paragraph may also add trans male additionally friend talked it said transgender people higher rate redflag ive looked seems true aside that says possible high transgender people see theirselves dissatisfied theirselves also told possibly might believe changing genders may fix dissatisfaction note sees it remember that friend suicidal one told multiple times feel like girl thats it know comment im transgender never been anyways hes fixated birthday commit redflag tried talk bit fully convinced it ive tried helping many times im tired point hes getting worse obvious needs professional help refuses get it keeps hurting himself told multiple times nobody cares him nobody cares stop him nobody care commits redflag hes mistake trash useless pathetic etc mean rant find told just guess annoying fact nobody stop him ive tried ive done seriously everything can hes getting worse decided try come reddit help rejects help ignores help try offer as sometimes try help hell likely ignore it switch topic something else involves depression find somewhat suspicious thats me anyone please help thank you would mean so so so much me,1 +much pain right almost completely unbearableim intense emotional distress dead feels like comforting option end suffering know may overreaction alive pretending things okay theyre long feels like torture hurts much im empathetic overthink others burns soul watch people suffer able help barely help anymore stomach constantly knots heart racing cant even think straight hard clear mind injustice see around me good people hurtpunished cruel people rewarded humanity relentless quick sacrifice others want around anymore one tell to im venting internet thank taking time read this did,1 +school celebrates autism april fools day lmao,0 +help buy russian blue cat made fiverr account ask help android apps,0 + year old virgin never job going kill myselffuck shit hate motherfucking life never one real friend life know interesting never friends never girlfriend year old virgin also never job try try sent countless applications never called back interviews fuck goddamn country america goddamn job opportunities unless got bosss dick mouth people know good it gotten laid job right complain like me poor lonely need walked shoes even consider thinking killing yourself fuck man killing myself fuck world,1 +wow days worried less hours feel good calm long time still scared looking forward leaving notes house body saying goodbye anyone particular bye truth cut everyone knew time coming want anyone feel hurt dead years worked alone possible thought parents abused mum would constantly tell dumb would burn hell dad angry person beat mum earliest memory hitting mum mum would put years later would go sleep without beating words every night got beating one reason another true brothers least believed school life bad dyslexic af used small weak kid got bullied constantly really badly point teachers joined well got low grades extra beatings got college stopped getting bullied never frienda year half age dad died mum got depressed quit college started work jobs help support mum brothers year half mum died sad idk never liked instead dealing emotions dad told buried emotions deep inside used boil form angeri went got another jobs average sleeping hours per night working non stop support brothers expected got engaged age arranged marriage uncles auntie set week marriage older brother told put ton debtalmost k marriage got called offi account point tried get back grind could older brother left could bring take court years everyone told older brother fing even younger brother crying saying fing listen cannot look eyes completed university know jobs wear suiti never gave time always expected me yeah know sounds like easy life feel burnt always getting kicked grow empathetic nobody showed life pathetic human nothing life die nothing hours go life,1 +spoilers since disappearance sea favorite niece phyllis murder mystery writer abigail mitchell ruth gordon strong suspicions phyllis husband edmund galvin charles frank responsible death fact abigail convinced murdered made look like tragic accidentbr br knowing theres evidence edmund arrested phyillis death deciding take law hands abigail cooks elaborate plan make look like phyllis death tragic accident getting edmund secretly come mansion give combination walkin safe leave vacation new york city abigail tricks going inside locking startled surprised edmund in safe soundproof nobody mansion butler maid abigails personal secretary veronica mariette hartley hear screaming help next day edmund found suffocated death veronica discovered edmunds body put away safe keeping abigails latest murder mystery manuscriptbr br lt columbo peter falk called case involving strange death edmund garvin determine murder tragic accident going edmunds apartment columbo puzzled find single photo late wife whos missing month ties abigail always felt edmund love phyllis also suspect her abigails mind murder br br columbo big fan together wife abigails murder mystery novels hard time realizing fact responsible edmunds death evidence points abigil including pair missing car keys edmunds proved abgail fact house way airport edmund locked inside walkin safebr br going evidence columbo comes strange conclusion edmund must left evidence inside safe writing killer is conclusion quickly checkmated found edmund even pen pencil well light safe lightbulb burned out write it theres also something odd thats inside safe lt columbos mind ever since came case black paint residue found dead edmunds fingernails belt buckle br br its evidence put together number items safe end hangs edmunds murder tricky cunning mystery writer abigail mitchell edmund let abigail unknowingly convict final attempt air safe used up breathing using burnt matchsticks write abigail last manuscript murdered him abigail mitchell,0 +guys epic battle best user teenagers every vote counts guys httpswwwredditcomuserppppie_commentsloemaewho_is_best_user_on_rteenagersutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 +im one lucky ones deserve iti grew broken home violence drugs alcohol swore everything right best person be failed last year allowed alcohol take peaked shit faced sex wife blacked out next thing remember hands around thoat coming front room cowering sobbing knew done knew didnt deserve live calmed layed promising wouldnt ever touch again took alcohol pills bathroom locked door best came hospital bed side told leave told didnt deserve anything done told ok dont want refused ive done best get better got worse ive stopped drinking since day havent much raised finger direction gotten harder ive tried giving doesnt want to idk anymore,1 +voice head mine anymorei think used know him know talking now sometimes speaks mouth comes out black fair bit find driving somewhere dont know got there sort wake up hes telling bad things bad things want to think want to honestly know know person see mirror mean recognise hes different me things hes telling going hurt people know much longer control him dont know whos control anymore needs shut up need shut up,1 +smoke theyll kill make look like redflag im severely reckless multiple therapists say im adrenaline junkie maybe something else kills me to edit smoke atleast pack day along pot coke every then shrooms,1 +today birthday nobody remembers got wishes best friend immediate family bad person one remember birthday,0 +concernedit feels like cycle everyday shit again,1 +serious problems family friends poor disabled good life think death may way better lifejust empty void cannot feel think anything pain sadness thoughts seems perfect life seems long boring sorry bad english spanish know happening,1 +heres life pro tip know lifes hard depression shit really fucked up whenever feel like might getting depressed punch yoself fucking face ignore bad shit fuck ur school fuck everyone enjoy till state whatever happens better depression,0 +title says anyone anything try cheer up literally could care less is want think killing minute thanks bored sad,1 +anyone recognize me ill delete later question wanting attention want know im curious also know something bad good,0 +wanna ask that people going tougher times still fighting making way it goes everyone depressed like always others going much right maybe going making way i getting stressed stupid things,0 +suicidal thoughts yearsidk start im suicidal thoughts like years parents mother amp father used beat amp abuse bad words since years old daily basis amp sometimes mom give food eat demotivate every time saying like nothing life im useless die im trash bullshit like daily basis amp threatened kick home cuz im adult yo give svere depression amp anxiety like everyday amp sometimes cry hard amp think commit redflag get free this many friends mom whenever friends come home mom say shit amp ever talk amp make fun me never shared anyone thought everyone make fun amp understand first time im writing subreddit thank reading sorry grammar mother tongue,1 +movie took jerry springer approach superhuman power wilder napalm kind themebased movie love addressing idea prodigies america defined either gifts attempts hide them time movie points every prodigy human feared worshipped human being great comedy fun human slight satiric edge,0 +im currently hiding toilet work dont want locked toilet ive minutes send help,0 +darkness finally lifting thank everyone ever lent kind wordi made post ago old account explaining thinking calling quits honestly brink grasping semblance hope owed finestickets unable renew license unable work pit financially honestly killing lent plight sub many people sympathetic going through many even similar things life let know even though take time _definitely_ gets better put head focused could financial help grandma able pay fines get license back first time years drive again feels incredible side dark place may seem trivial problem one hardest times life even problem way similar yours im sure outcomes hold keep believing change come months ago wouldnt ever thought would say _it gets better_,1 + battling depression since since since self harmed many suicidal thoughts attempts now feel officially losing battle see light end tunnel matter do losing,1 +day posting favorite twenty ne pilts quotes order start dayself titled albumtwenty one pilots quote look mirror ask alright put glitter soul hides behind tyler joseph ,0 +ill never wage slavethis world made someone like me someone want engage world around him someone want meet new people someone want take responsibility someone want make create things someone incurious world around him someone would rather live undetected rock someone courage play part world stage someone want learn something new someone want put there someone without hope future someone want make plans someone without dreams desires someone like talking theres hope,1 +lets hypothetically say got k stranger honestly happen nowadays meet mrbeast stire everything like walkart target need spend h it,0 +got thrown mental care smoking weedive sick leave months anxiety got told today wont lengthened tested positive cannabis expect go work agency monday begin looking work even know able work anxiety today feel absolutely shit want die know way out panic attack met doctor asked wanted admitted psych ward refused said might take lvm law care addicts even cannabis use negligible ish grams per month week break buy more anxiety skyrocketed tried taking emergency medication help even took double dose it happened fell asleep hour woke feeling same could take whole pack emergency medication benzodiazepine mg pills done it want mom live it one finds me able handle fact died idea im longer getting help,1 +wanted get couple girls interested years could definitely tell always afraid ask like never gotten clear i like you i wanna gf something people really liked felt would awkward said normal conversations would weird really liked talking girls always regretted saying something afterwards yeah bugging wanna know yall feel same probably gonna delete later usual post stuff like,0 +theres actually good reason anyone liveevolutionarily purpose hard wired us find mate procreate weve moved far past society reason live relationships flippant things people use satisfy selfish needs purpose find love love lingers exists nothing worth living for,1 +cant take anymorei hate job close relationships successes total failure cant stand anymore nothing ive tried last years done good want another like,1 +ow fuck shit spilled yoghurt shirt looks like came shirt,0 +today home alone cut self really need help energy ask help girlfriend ugly friends ho say depression calling talking life worth living right give,1 +im fucking done everything guys fucking use hate much good enough anyone never wil cause clearly thats thats super fucking cool u want someone fuck use,0 +tbh actually kind enjoying life not like pep step motivation step makes sense anything prolonging death trying feel like matter feel like going worse everyone involved anyway good day peeps well shiiiii,1 +infraction point system trash needs overhaul make whole lot sense minor infractions leads permanent ban way serious infractions do amount points based severity rule break cap higher compensate posting memes considered unrelated saying mds gay joke give punishment posting nsfw doxing minor harassment seriously poorly thought even poorly executed system,0 +whats pointso im neet money every job try makes lose sanity from workload people work with im fat gross looking i crooked teeth acne scars stretch marks body lose weight would still lot loose skin see able afford fixing things anytime soon luck women and see fixing without physical improvement friends confide things actually enjoy with ive tried therapy mental hospital stays medication real positive results make matters worse im grand student loan debt degree finish im also convinced ill miserable life accomplish financial independence cant stand thought abandoning dreams work aholes live mediocrity without decent looking girlfriendwife close friends ive also wanted travel long remember know possible without filthy rich look digital nomads see possible current situation either hope someday able travel world finding decent looking girl financially independent thoughts kept going past year every day however believe dreams less less circumstances changing see realistically change anytime soon im sick dealing depression basically disappointment around me thought id make post last resort take life maybe theres something considered im really sure anymore maybe dreams come true nothing look forward to really better dead ps sorry extra long post thanks anyone took time read,1 +careful say reddit account tracked contactedeven hypothetical questionsscenarios talk about take advice especially youre using certain wifi service,1 +care life anymorei never asked born stay importantly want stay,1 +proper place talk horny things social media rteenagers frowned upon pornhub comments sections obviously mean inbox open im straight dude,0 +unpopular opinion singing petitions doesnt really anything think like called performative activism something like idk,0 +enoughthrowaway account obvious reasons really enough everything thing kept death affect family kids mean parents brothers sisters friends thankfully physically healthy could give body somebody could make use would gladly so reason feel guilty killing myself tortured inside head shitty childhood always physical pains sad inside didnt know feelings child didnt know word it havent gone away adult got worse tried years therapy point blank refuse meds refuse meds wont actually fix anything also mother meds describe functional zombie days drinks takes xanax prozac something else too fucked anything else dont want end like her dont want end half like her fucking meds thanks come conclusion years planet nothing torture think something wrong mentally like learning disabled borderline schizophrenic something know actual medical term one people spoke thought may bpd maybe do anyway frustration feel torture head sometimes hear screaming inside head hear voices various people like family ask things etc literally going around inside head like screaming roller coaster tell anxiety seem understand asked help point really care well feel anyway fucked comes relationships sex trust anyone sex reminds one bitch fucking despise makes feel sick physically sick mentally often stopped said fuck cant this makes look like total fucking weirdo god knows makes person feel zero confidence zero self esteem sex relationships something doesnt apply me think things like would even want me even get would probably cheat leave knew really like wouldnt want you stage life seeing friends little sisters etc relationships almost everybody else somebody im saying even want relationship highlights loneliness feel feel dont understand people dont understand relationships dont trust people im angry im hurt im sad im frustrated feel worthless words think describe moment suppose feel sick too sick inside head go im really angry family like stay worried sad kill myself dont live life way do wish would understand supportive going miserable planet hate it enough want go,1 +im still waiting hear main siege uweebs_life months bro months tell me,0 +cat fucking freak nature wake walkout room morning right see cat chilling something chonkers mouth figure thing catnip godamn bird first all wanna know fatass gets winded jumping couch could catch bird second godamn bird came windows closed anyways mom said tell shes good girl thanks coming ted talk,0 +massively prefer girls without makeup rather makeup course want wear makeup thats fine choice mine prefer see girls real beauty instead fake one,0 +version bleak house best adaptation classic novel known me representation court chancery character drama magnificent acting marvellous sinister tulkinghorn dedlocks smallweed crooke miss flyte two young lovers spiders web chancery holds whole thing together cinematography superb mistake bbc make copyright meant version could seen uk either video dvd many years tried find them faced stone wall end got dvd copy canada,0 + years old want dieso ill pretty much give story im right now friends told counsellor depression tried kill twice went different highschool friends friends highschool really hated it second year highschool left go one friends went to really popular went friends lot later year stopped hanging popular people people liked im third year friends school never anything social outside school feel terrible ive contemplated redflag much feel like matter time parents tried get talk counsellor finding website called lost hope lists redflag methods ipad time autism test done i didnt end it got talk counsellor handling that counsellor said sounds like depression didnt trust ended lying forgot soon after nowadays parents terrible relationship slam door lot take anger cracks wall im terrible son terrible parents too lot people age use depression like cool ive never told anyone mine kind embarrassing tldr tried kill twice younger social life outside school hiding depression everyone know parents pure hate relationship please point reason live many people redflag dont see why feel like hearing reason might help,1 +cant go sleep night without drugs take there hate myself hate every inch every fibre being im one blame it take mg valium alongside alcohol go sleep night stay awake night unable anything stare ceiling get involved drugs get sleep fuckers devil blue dress,0 +world horrible people planet needs get job need suck people get ahead need conform people matter right wrong matters majority says conform cast aside matter right talented matters whether conform cannot different constantly submitting people bugs off hate everybody never want get married bring someone horrible world want get old going die want go alone want take people make lives miserable want go alone,1 +im tiredive carrying weight whole life ive met people willing shoulder while end leaving cant blame them realize heavy carry it hand back pretty quickly tried honest partner told depressed trying get better reaction like everyone either derision disbelief outright disgust said going me help me whenever actually talked it pure hatred eyes said feels like im trying oneup him feels like cant complain want feel way feel like cant unload leave desk cry bathroom today shout darkness unpopular subreddit garage exterior switch radio switch opens it im heavy enough partial hanging reliable car hose bleach ammonia plastic bags many options im trying resist know hell sad it hell get it right like prisoner prison bars warden mean son bitch inmates telling torture big deal walk away quit time put weight down finally sleep,1 +nice guy women date dicks unless theyre lesbian date vaginas theyre bi date dicks and vaginas,0 +die skies small planeso im successful attractive married wife adores feelings anything ive depressed entire life tried doctors pharma anti depressants even tried recreational drugs get last years helped till tolerance builand stopped working kids parents worry about real friends depression ruined life thsts all accept it people get cancer illness pass away years old interested airplanes dad aerospace engineer hes gone years successful home outright california many rental properties net worth around million money never made happy bought lamborghini whim thinking would bring joy kept garage years sold it desire interest sex opportunity women desire im like story a loser feels unloved inferior thats hates life quite love told im attractive got good going brain sick depression depression slow painfull tortured existence depressed understand guess like illness mental goes on better get cancer die suffer depression years ive decided wanna live much longer illness wanna found hanging garage something unpleasant like overdose gunshot methods im gonna take years get private pilots license thrn either buy a small plane go solo flight maybe take pills alcohol numb crash hillside mountain way people say died something loved died passion thats better remembered loser hung garage sound bizarre,1 +cant even tell im actually miserable anymore im lying myselfi feel fucking hopeless everything feels like lie rarely cry dont even get sad feel fog headed fucked thoughts scare shit me every time think god im miserable ill start thinking im lying im actually miserable im psychopath trying rationalize myself,1 +headphones earbuds personally got headphones like s hifi feeling connected unlimited wifi srsly tho headphones earbuds,0 +ive made many mistakes deserve die anyone even one could read would help lot verdicthey using throwaway account obvious reasons justneed talk ive getting intensely suicidal comes waves theres moments feel perfectly fine even happy im cast deep depression remember terrible mistakes ive made ive wrestling depression four years now ive two redflag attempts already guess want know shitty things ive done guess thing keep mind iswell im autistic sometimes lack social awareness know better mention fairly sheltered homeschooled conservative parents ill let guys verdict end it little kid like years younger id sometimes open bathroom door sisters mom dad showering wanted get glimpse naked anything perverted like that thought funny went eeeeeeeeek never felt sexually attracted family thought disgusted me played prank understand context wrong one day tried like dad pulled over crying thought trouble instead gave talk told like sister way hindsight think truebut worry sometimes subconscious sexual undertone it perverted know it younger might see glimpse family member naked disgusted me part curious justi think knew better like briefly touched cat penis like two seconds decided bad idea fact used touch sorts surfaces penis age thought revolts disgusts now feel like horrible person girl admitted crush sure respond girl never told before thinking decided tell flattered young since different stages emotional development good idea issue uncle decided take away electronics reason decided bike house got address mutual friend told felt said beautiful kind person want break heart make feel rejecting ugly anything hugged told meant lot her turns already dating another guy back age thought right thing hindsight find really creepy cringey homeschool prom group photos stood behind girl bumped accident like three separate times move muscle asked okay stand said fine never anything kept brushing let happen butpart enjoyed that feels twisted hindsight sometimes watch porn wellim lonely ive never girlfriend mainly lack confidence good social skills never watched porn thought actresses underage nonconsentingbut like one assumptions wrong saw something illegal even know it thought keeps night one time encounter website accident seemed hosting suspicious images might underaged girls horrified reported it felt horrible part kept telling monster sleep night started shaking crying work tell boss wrong beg let home early one coworkers saw crying comforted parking lot never told saw told strong got close redflag night voice head tried convince pedophile even though tried right thing sometimes get intrusive violent sexual racist thoughts diagnosed ocd thoughts powerful start feel like impulses actively avoid close woman im afraid ill bump accident worse ill act sexual impulse never never ever want thought scares me feel like monster absolute monster im carrying constant shame guilt everywhere go ive told dad friends issues tell im worrying much things bad think are right deserve die decide,1 +good hoodies amazon gift card one hoodie ill two,0 +wants eat pocky stick me want intimacy boy know see bl doujins boys eating pocky stick together eventually kissing want irl,0 +someone tell deja vu please wonders months looked still dont know meanssss,0 +live motion games tell us ideasfeedback projects earn free game hello everyone live motion games game developer poland based warsaw try reach many people projects decided post after getting permission mods thank you say hello thats thing though work several projects always lookout two main things ideas could implement games feedback regarding already achieved would love hear opinions ideas games currently developing chernobyl liquidators simulator builder simulator builders china supermarket 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opinion_,0 +transitioning relationshiplate twenties im ftm transgender im getting depressed anxious time cant afford see therapist im taking hormones thats something thats going well life everything else falling apart husband left want seen gay love anything pain knowing could not transition stay bad anything else issues related transition dysphoria im waiting long seen progress treatment get help know it,1 +creepiest thing ever seen dont know put,0 +mi get sexual appeal girls puke think it like eww girls,0 +groups like sanctioned redflagjust wondering,1 +house three floors know jumping third floor would kill landed feet went headfirst jumped window floor would need die,1 +kill myselfyou try convince least give advice know im gonna die soon make time left,1 +horny horny,0 +hi fellow peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +brother brother makes mad hes racist homophobic makes fun self harm fucking time tells kill much,0 +life mine entire society seems odds thismy life mine wish means mine end one thing tremendously important life left constant nightmares despair could demand one thing condition continued existence nobody give itll make look bad im ending life telling anyone could stopped it im telling either unless reasonably think provide it screw society standards makes blackmail manipulation threat institutionalization im going kill myself lost chance something it,1 +turkish person sw helpon forum post on someone turkey threatened redflag want help them know contact know real name forum name accounts facebooktwitteryoutube name pictures posted facebook well anyone know do feel moral obligation report know how,1 +parents driving insane help dad says go walk which do make sigh louder would wanted want go parents hear me yell minutes get banned phone xbox computer two days dad leaves without waiting literally seconds finish putting shoes happened saying sentence why yelling go walk yelling reason minutes ago time writing this,0 +husband dealing depression two years now two small children together going therapist taking medications days good days really bad truly makes feel like hates fault later apologizes confusing know think anymore depressive person make spouse feel good enough,1 +want itive said post different sub thing stopping dog late night talks mightve told something ill tell you think hate useless use world wanna die nobody would care died theyd happy gone everyone better gone,1 +feeling peaceive always heard spoken regarding made decision sense peace floods you like end date pain im tired invalid constant pain holidays really hardest,1 +im hungry like human body needs eat five times day,0 +keep brief moments existential dread like die keeps happening really scaring me normal anxiety depression wondering happens others me probably take post day,0 +till tomorrow got new phone number reached out actual fuckwhat even meani told wantoverand overand overif want break fucking itbecause iti cannot fucking anymorei fucking enoughyou treating like shiti mean said voicemailyou fucking areand sick ithow supposed sleep put redflag roofbut give shiti treated like precious diamond sweep rug like dirti cannot believe fucking trusted youi fucking hurtso fucking hurtlet die aloneyou see thoughts going headi cannot anymore need talk,1 +whats pointi feel like cant anything right everyone hates me people would better without me hope future much anxiety feel like im drowning,1 +sucksi suspicious would already excluded social media saw group talking inside jokes life updates everyone knew recent post someone confirmed new group chati worst depressive period ever well ready socialize talk mundane things joke around them told while initially understanding time went noticed group chat became inactivethese people made fun behind back privately chided one my closest friend carelessly ignorant covid context vaccination rollout country slow transmission highhe living senior past tested positive sister tested positive covid twice she works hospital concerned friend would tell go unless essentialand since super close bond really think overbearing friends almost yrs otheronce call let slip one numerous dinners he jokester was made fun friends acting like mom hurt private matter painted killjoy paranoid person gutted meit one reasons started feel distant group started cold told would struggling mental health settled iti sorry ranting feel absolutely alone closest circle friends top tier shunned longer fun around withit feels like high school would feel anxious depressed would choose hang classmates louder extroverted play wheneverdepression sucks friends like sucks harder friends made new group chat excluded ever since told in original gc might able interact much depressive period,1 +thighs hand hand executed name japanese law,0 +sooooo im bit pickle so m recently moved overseas australia dont speak language wanted speak certain friend happens female saying talk day asked could tommorow says nice want talk much say need talk friends speak english others best friends previous school replied youre sweet anyway say things thats it know likes even like i legitimately could dont know even relationship would work since were sort half way across earth other do help also please make blow reddit likely shell figure sees this,0 +guess show is dude love me girl yes love much dude wanna make love girl sorry cant im ready yet dude ready girl because abortion hour ago,0 +see pokemon card collections raise httpscdndiscordappcomattachmentsimg__jpg,0 +im essentially counting days become failurei one last year highschool im forcefully thrusted real world idea graduate zero idea could turn to idea work trade field work actual passions side trades passion theyd job could fail easily furthermore cant simply take break highschool family allow one bit besides family id alone since one close friend leaving airforce graduate ill alone lost laughingstock disappointment mentally destroyed likely suicidal one tight bundle year is quite literally going beginning end me ive never felt dread anxiety anything else entire life better enjoy last year can ill like parents poor dead dreams aspirations heres failing,1 +please dont hate last post joke dare thingy came guy asked ask gf im sorry ,0 +ive decidedif anyone remotely care dies kill ill actual reason wanting die loneliness depression wouldnt give fuck hurting love yeah kind fucked cus im kinda kinda hoping someone finally kms,1 +fan willy wonka chocolate factory wanna see oompa loompa,0 +bring back oldtimey masquerades semiironic covid makes funny masks go eyes badass played persona makes even better like costume party almost,0 +sent email yall really happy ive feeling bit sad needed send quick email teacher ive done feel great took awhile get motivated actually it im happy ,0 +poured everything relationship im worse start withabout months ago met someone reddit best period life week met happened around time things started going downhill faster difficult first opened level id never come close anyone before admitted feelings couple months later fought relationship helped worst times life now disclosed much could bring past things people done effects had first same others backs things started go downhill suppose long distance relationships rarely go well whilst hurt able take care person willing keep going joy brought life apparently werent yesterday i bad moment admitted frustrated situation their parental situation meant harder us see other instant relationship over supposedly protect me deserved better something else longer see ive deleted conversation history trusted them poured heart soul sanity making us work spent much time talking hours felt empty since never hope future met them severe fear death kept going far every day mental image falling nearest bridge replays mind constantly everything reminds them almost everything together even hug song introduced namely music activity eachother about things used enjoy gets crying again im sad feel hollow useless main thing motivating improve myself medical condition fixing us physical fitness i always quite underweight us lack effort uni trying fix work towards future us theyd taken away worst insecurities things good back worse im constantly questioning wrong whether ever really loved back whether broke found unattractive reason person supposed live without ambition hope concept future anything look forward to pressures outside world increasing various deadlines major decisions need make close me want stop cant see future world one thing consistently made happy gone enjoy present either past rules life past shit promised wed try stay friends afterwards too went window instantly blocked main apps used communication cant lean friends theyre going shit im alone alone without keep going,1 +heading walmart today might day u see cutest insert pronoun world ill go without making human interaction,0 +harm feel bettermaybe better harming others,1 +help decideive attempted redflag twice overdosing pills successful unfortunately middle moving psychiatrist gave phone number worried me texted yesterday response really surprised one question is try ativan alcohol im exactly confident since survived last overdose attempts benefit could today downfall survive seriously mess up wait purchase high caliber handgun or even shot gun feel comfortable decision absolutely know work crippling depression hands around neck squeezing harder every moment making desperate,1 +silly movie starts soft porn sequence ventures farcelike comedy art gallery adds shocker discovery hotel room introduces random murder obvious reasonbr br what follows bizarre surreal the stopwatch scene particular exquisitely unnecessary culminating revelatory twist ending obvious unfair viewer see trivia section precisely deliberately unfairbr br the movie goes way offensive many groups possible transsexuals insane wonderful huggie bearstyle racial stereotyping subway condescendingly treats viewer like idiot closing scenes characters endlessly explain one another great detail happened film though background female characters restaurant scene end joy watchbr br in fact whole movie joy watch despite many many flaws whole package just well works,0 +ever take survey realize actually exactly friends kind sad think really matter supposedly helped person research realized literally friends anyway wanted say something know im looking friends karma awards felt like saying something sorry wasted time,0 +ok relationship boyfriend pc gamer plays games every day im seeing monday said wants play new games im over asked cant play sunday monday come over apparently take hours download dont anything anyway either put ill get mum drop early bitch wanting attention whole time guys girls pls help out situation whats something could say him,0 +think realized somewhat straight people seem lot dumber gay people sexuality rly direct effect intelligence logical person thinks believe lot indirect effects benefit gay people different ways certain level comprehension realize gay instead straight default hard explain basically in loop gay theres lot people sadly filler world basically like video game npcs except story all theyre fucking pointless like people think burning g signal towers prevent virus spreading shit people like fucking lost background cant interact theyre almost straight probably think go hell kissing boys shit know gay is gay people sex opposite gender forced make stupid decisions straight people getting pregnant underaged cant afford gay people know cant hit guy expect gay compatible relationship buy default stupid shit like getting rejected girls like straight guys use dating apps often smartest choice days gay guys course interested guys intelligent choice males get along best males friendships less problems relationships straight people yes theres lot ways gay better good,0 +today pain free ive feeling chest stomach pains past two days hard eat could eat fruits drinks finally today woke pain,0 +f diagnosed depression borderline personality disorder comes goes bad bad things going amazing life moment also particularly bad either feel like serious slumpi tried therapy multiple times last years multiple different therapists approaches honestly never done anything alli many different medications throughout years finally one helps others still fully nobody family deals mood disorders understanding go slumps feel like taken seriously one truly understands bad feeli also want try therapy simple fact cannot afford it make much medicaid even good insurance paying almost pocket twice month therapy alone including general appointments medicationi really people talk to one boyfriend years supportive helpful be given fact hes never struggled himself really understand best friend honestly greatest friend general feel like bother talk her last person sister picks chooses wants listenhelpi hate burdening people issues feel do also feel like going lose mind really know anymore,1 +teacher said use big words cos require self validation earlier im gonna lie hit hard fcking true really sad,0 +play college soccer accomplishment everything else fail at ill probably week bye,1 +everything feels pointlessbackground struggling depression suicidal thoughts self harm eating disorder since now ive fighting long feel like im getting anywhere recently hit longest streak clean self harm i months clean broke monday past years ive constantly heard get better getting worse im losing hope way ive living life makes feel fucking pathetic life feels pointless im entirely worthless human dont see point trying anymore absolutely terrible relationship parents im nowhere near good enough they never fail remind much disappointment am much better lives would wasnt around know fact best friends would better without me think id everyone favour kill myself honesty things keep going wrong im tired trying make right moved away city university im unhappy alone here currently university social work but like mother said phone day youre gonna shit social worker youre fucked even help yourself youre wasting money im starting think point cant even okay myself gonna able help others samesimilar situation made agreement myself next week dont get sort sign find reason live ill end it dont think im gonna find reason arent me sorry formatting im mobile also sorry kinda place hardly organize thoughts right now,1 +new sub first time posting think anyone really wants read paragraphs life wanted make simple could anyone feeling empathetic today edit fact paragraphs female entering mid twenties feel like mess somehow put together well put together mess willim going would light past briefly canredflag child witnessing medical problems father lots blood etc also diagnosed redflag disorder medicated redflag abused drugs throughout teen years landed rehab due cocaine overdoses age diagnosed redflag depressiondeveloped panic disorder rehabmedicated redflag zero meds rehab help all mid s loosely diagnosed add medicated stimulant never abused helped ton dad died two years ago close haunts daily outbursts ill cry alone car alone apartment live boyfriend guess trying find comfort feel like fixing me young much happened nothing works feel like add diagnosis correct yet one medication worked eating disorder entire life abused cocaine understand doctors looking issue trying treatment it aside life good financially stable loving boyfriend dog pay bills etc constantly feel like hell either angry want cry reason alli cannot hold job life unless bartending get drink no abuse alcohol drinks night lot understand customer serviceinsurance broker type job hours daily even much handle granted people screaming constantly sure depression terrible ungrateful human find beauty things life feel terrible often thank reading support appreciated not short sweet,1 +life wants deadpeople abuse me dad abuses me discord abused years severe depression almost years antidepressants therapy useless nothing makes happy anymore even games frustrate enjoy anymore future really college pointless every single job requires lifetime experience im hope,1 +help need money im old enough ask money actual help communities work since partially fault still school around february fundraiser key club donate money fund clubs service events selling chocolate bars each left desk kid stole bars gave away fault trusting high school kids mature enough steal fundraiser figured offered pay well gave bill promised pay rest later corona break came school hes since blocked every social media owe club community service would ask parents feel bad asking pay mistake made theyre struggling buy groceries dont want donate thats totally okay leave tips make money quick easy thatd great also trying get job almost years now nobody wants hire teenager without work experience cant get experience without job hope trust scam absolute truth thank you,0 +first time life im pretty proud looked report book realised scored overall score exams years ago received results today saw got overall know nothing crazy still though im really proud improvement also im asian imagine pissed parents saw results,0 +cannot say feeling good feeling approaching little overwhelmed part wants sit feel take granted part wants cry shut down like know do either cry overwhelmed cry like it trippy going like forever know let us take slow rush figure things out ever feel like crying happy,1 +cant bear thought continuing lifei thinking killing myself ive disappointed many people fit in cant concentrate work cant find enjoyment anything do every year hit new lows ive depressed since graduate school cant keep work state mind ive done next nothing year ive degrading experience let superiors know depression problem order hate appears laziness first said quitting phd program said wanted stay im frustrating enough general piece advice read simply take things slow luxury anymore ive tested everyones patience enough already consume resources contribute nothing always depressed lacking motivation ive tried meds therapy sports gym eating healthy temporary effects lose steam quickly know it confront true self again course fuck expect hate everyone envy everyone time people always say just live life see happens die anyway think shows lot ignorance sure lot fortuitous things happen life keep struggling chance something good happen ive given life countless shots im tired hope finding disappointment cant live family friends hurt kill myself ultimately strong survive weak die off strong enough accept death make it not kill too theres point wallowing shithole concerned someone else think depart fuck shit,1 +actual fuck guys already failed nut november even day yet everybody coomed used think coomer yalls cant even go fucking day without busting nut like god damn swear yalls tryna failing nut november speedrun any world record,0 +want horny want happy fix ,0 +turned wish hadnti cant forgive did become biggest regret life made question even am regret pain caused eats every day cant bear much longer want people care remember worthless piece shit am drifting life,1 +work making suicidali really big problems anxiety miserable due work anxiety would rather kill go work another day fact think redflag every minute every day morning almost ran car wall miles per hour avoid going today getting harder fight redflag point need money rent however pay bills also want hurt wife since death would devisate her really know everything life dependent job life risk job even could fight anxiety long enough get new job help would hate job anxiety too really know med doctors help really think doctor medicine changes would help fast enough point need advice anything,1 +told post herei asked effective form redflag instead answers someone directed here im sure even understand purpose sub,1 +refreshing interview legendary italian cinematographerproducerdirector passed away close features credit director large portion spent damatos softcore sex films including notorious emanuelle entries laura gemser also briefly cover porn career kept afloat last decade so interesting section focusing horror action efforts damato plenty great anecdotes actors low budget filmmaking including story assistant accidentally collecting real bones amid fake ones shooting yearold catacomb interviewees include george eastman al cliver would liked bit conversation stateside filmirage productions not single question troll granted cult film now,0 +must confess remember film well but certainly liked it think best adaptation burroughs novel really course one best movie christopher lambertbr br a good movie tarzan cult ones weissmuller,0 +tellyour living organized hell mansion mind oversized cell,1 + im miserable great start days end all fucking great,1 +guys wish friend happy birthday would really appreciate it thanks guys heres youtube videohttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdubdaydbe,0 +talked friend redflagi tried convince went home picking phone voicemail comes like hours so do,1 +idk dothis whole covid xmas thing making anxiety depression much much much worse wanted ldr boyfriend visit aince march cat got ill cant mix households wales mu suicidal thoughts definitely got worse idk,1 +im tired paini live life people would envy dont work go school anymore sit around home nothing day problem mind longer feel happiness pain things ive through everyday wake flashbacks horrible things happened me sexual abuse bullied abusive parents brain loves take back make feel everything again like kind sadist know reminding world horrible place need go soon ive tried pills therapy nothing really cures pain knowing hurt living great lives sense power me love best friend cant enjoy time anymore due misery im going feel bad hurt him know needs done end suffering im cleaning little happens planning way wont fail year over thank you,1 +brother tries taze really sort electric lighter creates arc rods use light things fire basically taser hate it,0 +pierre jolivet plays quixote character unable speak living world incompatible modern life trusts homemade weaponry helmet sleeves spear made hubcaps seat cushions discarded office furniture quixote rode rocicante the man rides contraption literally transcending lost lives caught harsh demeaning modern world soaring earth away plight modern man characters ride search adventure effort right wrongs world characters guardian knights values unfamiliar characters storybr br unlike cervantess tale movie identify directly anachronistic ideals main character compare alien forbidding landscape lush beautiful world live in frame reference fantasy realm lone knight perhaps remembers vision would one expects main character triumph vanquish change world for better back world plenty longer existsbr br we look movie see true knight among world humansasanimals quixote considered true knight among animalsbr br with cervantess tale see dreamer without really understanding scope anachronistic displacement bessons jolivets tale see new world eyes quixote value visions ideals crusading main character,0 +im worriedso amazing person ew months know year within months told lot things went kid teenager include disgusting things could happen person sexually assaulted thrown study course want lot pressure dealing quite time usual nightmare sleepless nights sudden breakdowns looking like break cried front around feeling sad im able anything try level best make happy things her lately severe amount nightmares urge harm right whole life revolves around meet everyday try conform give everything deserves know else goes away help me,1 +read idcwell im shit ive fuck time parents feel same might get sent another troubled teens place fucking lose myself whatever comes first point ig bye ampxb,1 +rip hero alex diedive never sad death someone whos grandma,0 +im sorryim tired want vent listen guy really liked first person really liked disastrous relationship another much older man guy age got along really well similar interests started acting strange said want date me mental health issues trying hard strong happy him really loved emotions fleeting worthless heard story million times suicidal make unworthy love hurt mean one ever see anything good me give hurts worse mean know bother im worth love people sometimes ask im dating anyone cant see im utterly worthless would date trash like me want end hope job gets robbed get shot dont went bridge installed anti redflag things bring go somewhere else im pathetic hard live hard die cant either one supposed do think coming end soon ive writing novel nearly done think peace enough bravery want stop pain please,1 +wanted start working could move day getting fat medication doctor put on working making gain weight hate it want die really really sad,1 +expensive medal awards useless want show like someones post alot give many golds instead getting platinum argentium since gold give person coins ad free time like opposite stuff expensive get even more opposite instead spending argentium maybe get golds better value bonuses,0 +dont blame anyone miserable life parentsdoesnt matter someone bullied me teacher making making stupid jokes unsuccessful become girlfriend cheats asshole boss like doesnt care well thinks profit could prevented parents didnt gave birth hate till die unless wont even take care graveyards hope die pneumonia something else,1 +million different reasons why autistic bullied throughout school years emotionally abused parents home never friends kicked school months ago even know going anymore scared feel like might kill next weeks,1 +young know feeling wayi living life enjoying myselfi want anyone tell gets better waited tried get help years exact place started life roller coaster pleasant oneim seventeen year old girl survival mode every day tired fighting alone disappeared tomorrow morning everybody would still go dayso still here waiting for already made decision next decision going it want kill self want pain end,1 +nathoodle theres discord,0 +fear urge kill every masturbationim gay watching straight bear porn even recent watching adult stuff strongly urged the voice head kill myself,1 +researching sell engagement ring bought ex fianc simultaneously somewhat relieved need money desperately currently living worst nightmare,1 +desire get better want fucking dieim fucking weak even want get better live life im insecure sensitive piece shit scared everything nothing waste time make others depressed existence burden others maybe ill even terrible burden kill whats matter ill dead anyway selfish life whats difference selfish death even born even live lazy worthless fucking asshole complains everything instead something get better,1 +dunnojust practiced hanging myself felt kind good letting go never thought would actually end life im feeling im getting kind close suicidal thoughts almost every day feel like demon gotten control life everything seem superficial act guess ive path maybe five years now closest ive gotten actually ending all mmy body feel like fucking run car something aspirations inspiration imagination it lot gone like losing contact yourself body doesnt feel like yours would much rather flowing spiritual entity trapped hunk bones flesh seem pointless like people girlfriends really love guess apreciate them embrace them getting close contacts far me feel like galaxies between noone really knows dont even really know myself dont apreciate even dunno thats problem dont know humanity earth great ways horrible others feel like ive done part know things change bla bla bla also tipping point gone far feel like im now im stars universe body input would nice cause feel like im gonna end life now feeling inside shouldnt peace love ,1 +helpanything funny every gif youtube video anything please beyond means carry plans tonight full risk want make clear worst times need smile im intoxicated felt worse since forgot take safetly two weeks ago one round somewhere snowbank right now seriously need smile right now,1 +women rteenagers hot look scale httpsuploadwikimediaorgwikipediacommonsthumbchehighjpgpxchehighjpg,0 +im scared myselfive wrote times dont want judgements please even begin im almost used athletic nickname phoenix always somehow pulled ashes save youre decaying body literally changed life welli bad car accident bad airlifted days hospital aprilnovember lost use legs june relearn walk still barely walk foot never regained feeling july told going hill fast im chronically ill conditions ingredients fake food little morbid joke got life expectancy im lucky used independent still kept spirit than october came flulike illness spinal leak almost killed me literally edge death body isnt putting fights anymore somehow im here know much offer world body biggest enemy happened june happen time body wasting away takes toll mind im serious court cases peoplecompany cannot say much about that ticking time bomb body become pain much physical pain becoming shell was knowing never parent knowing anything happen time mental toll legal things hospital bills family problems everyone tells im strong brave inspirational inside dont feel way feel weak feel scared feel like burden yes knew summer people get less time yes know many people could shoes going spunky person nothing could stop me disabled dependent others operation operation im sorry theres much except help things go on cannot fix sorry eventually need feeding tube body biggest challenge caused confused feel like need finish court things want go know selfish recently began self harm again pain control im control yes im help yes im professionals mental state hate this controlled medication doctor visits body turn scares bring back crippled want live dream theres wheelchairs walkers let ask this close eyes imagine beach feeling sand feet smallest things freedom youre young appreciate it feeling run dance hike go friendsappreciate it wish knew got sick look back go damn im happy this want live want die dont want leave friends family want leave cannot escape im afraid theres nothing die ive friends die something happened mother grandfather afraid even though life point is im afraid maybe reading small smudge story make someone appreciate beautiful body is beautiful health valuable thing see even type fingers dislocating type hospital home where go sick low funds must near hospital want play sun things youve never done always reply messages friends never tell peoplefamily things regret ive met many people sick supported believe me right now dont smile inside scream youre biggest lie youre okay im kinder person smallest things biggest im scared im scared death im scared myself hard im alive dont want hurt everyone truly stepped others stepped out many ways im blessed wish body could love like others do want make tell story help people right im physically weak mentally exhausted im grateful im much pain im trying get justice hurt many ways hug more love more things youd never imagined do dance sing im suicidal im afraid it im afraid me know im good person otherwise wouldnt people around do still hope hope ill rise ashes even wings broken thatll ill stand body greatest tool love it know long dont need hear generic shall pass maybe emotions im chronically ill theres things life cannot control control can whether die body hand im sure im gonna keep trying literally cant but im scared thankyou,1 +feel irritated af rn feel soooooo irritated reason feel irritated wanna fucking punch someone face fuck feeling like hormone related shit fuck deal this,0 +im going hurt someone way making sure dontim thief gambler im drunk druggie im murderer rapist im anything bad weak know almost without question one day ill become things care recovery rehab therapy whatever ill content vice ill horrible person hurt people everyone disgusted hate want around theyll right redflag becoming way partially makes sure ill never go far,1 +attention anyone plays music owner lives east coast made discord server anyone looking fine tune music bounce ideas other dm link please aware server newly created fully functional pm est,0 +going girlfriend awayive deleted social media accounts put phone airplane wifi post this girlfriend gone festival weekend friend best friend working im going tonight knew bad was st least shell friend her knew going,1 +see last year goes according plan id end fact access quick painless exit ill distract things now im sick life thought soon ill able finally rest brings relief im looking advice anything sort wanted tell someone thank spending time read this,1 +much oxycodone need overdosei want kill self five milligram oxycodone pills left surgery enough bother hang,1 +fuck ass im bad day read description plz dropped ear buds toilet ran trash bike black twice threw ear buds went directly computer broken screen,0 +im kindaa drunknrn wanna chat yeah im kinda edge rn wanna chat stuff hmu dms ur chat lol also im really fucken tired sorry dont respond lmao,0 +sad talking girlshe friendzoned first broke like dayafter went ahead kissed another dude kinda flirtinand even looking texts probably explaining happened thing pushups everytime feel like piece shit looks like ill like tonight,0 +sometimes academy recognize potential films nominate controversial strong sometimes nominated win anything i hope happen year american beauty exactly happened boogie nights best film academy preferred give best picture oscar titanic purely commercial hollow film awards overrated good hunting irritating full monty pictures nominated main category la confidential as good gets great movies boogie nights still better remembered categoriesbr br this amazing film tells story eddie adams mark wahlberg surprisingly great performance year old barman takes attention jack horner burt reynolds redeeming acting director porn films eddie special gift helps get world porn movies changes name dirk diggler starts make huge success fame last forever characters also parallel stories amber waves julianne moore perfect buck don cheadle others including rollergirl heather graham actress accepts anything wearing roller shoesbr br what could banal trivial film turns perfect memorable one hands paul thomas anderson makes boogie nights great film execution added clever well written screenplay great soundtrack etc character well developed hisher importance context feeling weakness fear emotion explored resulting masterpiece modern american cinemabr br boogie nights strong impacting picture seen everyone really likes cinema plot seems banal first impression wonderful story highs downs things face lives amazing portrait end s beginning s exactly age highs downs thats makes film special true masterpiece br br ,0 +one best three stooges shorts ever spooky house full evil guys the goon challenge alert detective agencys best men shemp top form famous inthedark scene emil sitka provides excellent support mr goodrich role target murder plot over shemps trusty little shovel employed great effect minute gem moves fast stooges short packs twice wallop highly recommended,0 +tell parents quit job im living home absolutely hate job time know get something better would enjoy more know reaction wont good,0 +whywhenever ask myself killed yet keeping here unable produce valid reason sure could get better seems get worse could turn human instincts survive kill would splendid,1 +hey another food thing whipped cream pink lemonade powder yes no,0 +one underseen films late s time oliver stone riding high platoon wall street and opus born fourth july coscripted directed look world radio specifically one radio host middle texas man barry champlain onceinacareer turn eric bogosian wrote original play also cowrote script barry like mix howard stern one pundits hear radio stations many us might turn off hes got ideas mind opinions hes unafraid speak them also stand phone callers callers indeed driving force film barry combat mindless obscene racist purely absentminded goes on also contend boss alec baldwin hit miss deal go nationwide outside confines southern way station hes inbr br while seeing film felt curious see wouldve done stage id imagine oneman show bogosian several side direction film phenomenal stone known almost typecast director loves quick cuts limitless effects montage effects styles camerawork little tricks give films s distinctive almost auteur look s energy feverish quality look film frenzied films order add proper intensity within studio headspace barry champlain dp robert richardson make space seem claustrophobic times gritty unsure definitely edge scenes middle film barry studio fairly standard style along substance radio scenes among best ive seen stonerichardson combinationbr br and one cannot miscalculate performance bogosian obnoxious offensive angered passive everything love hate radio show hosts also funny near distracting supporting role michael wincott kentmichaeljoe prank calls one night next gets invited studio scenes little uncomfortable viewer get much subculture headspace s barry intrigued critical of stoner may get it says its show indeed hard cover everything goes within talk lot it never boring like champlain himself easy ignore bogosian goes climactic tirade air background panning around continuous spin becomes intoxicating reason freedom speech powerfulbr br stone synonymous filmmaker hotbutton issues takes subjects still controversial gives lifeforce always great own skills ambitions get way bogosians boosted anything making extremely skilled vision essentially near oneman show already wellwritten,0 +advice families redflag attempt survivorsnot sure right sub im crisis moment found hours ago mom overdosed prescription pills left note afternoon dad found acted quickly shes currently hospital unconscious stable im hours away hopping next train tomorrow morning im shocked devestated absolutely heart broken mom like salt earth im running every conversation clues talked yesterday made plans see january im blind sighted crushed feel every emotion shock sadness relentless im looking resources guidance support anything offer dont know whats expected dont know im supposed right now take care mom myself,1 +go actually offing myselflife shit ive spent last ten years regretting failure myself better way fix never ringing another shitty terrible decade ever again sad thing im sure go it anything ordinary celing hanging options opt beltnoose ideas,1 +past years feels like life thrown constant pain misery sure take anymore young lad feel like cannot live another years way feeling right now frightened adult comparing everyone around maintain friendships notredflag family feel ungrateful saying way feel frightened pain death would love die makes sense needed get chest nothing going way life,1 +think im gonna todayschool horrible cant switch online either im taking bunch pills get shower tonight,1 +saying kill men cringe we mean men change term tf,0 +convince otherwisetoday stressful day life tomorrow going worse severely depressed last months result led failing classes school parents know mom going find tomorrow cant handle this top addictions put gun head tonight held minutes pull trigger going go bed now think last night wake hours going make choice feel like nothing live anymore easier way counseling years back counselor told everything between her mom trust anymore one since friends started drift away me slowly excluded activities ive going day day last month im ready done,1 +days want die painful way possible suffering moment would absolve wrong done continue others many times could kinder aspect personality come break it prideful sore loser jealous meanspirited come from even know blame household even could would even excuse job better came me also selfish want badly excused embraced flaws despite them able prideful cruel bastard still loved sometimes one wrong sometimes get apology instead give it sometimes think fundamentally unlovable hard get along smart placate perhaps intelligence stupidity people reassure love support feels disingenuous maybe done disingenuously before say cruel unfoundedi wants disgusts contradict overlap like someone touch starved hates touched really want know even know begin know tired days want sleep slip away dreams reflection,1 +looking respect decisionhi im trying really hard rationalise please bare here always struggled confrontation asserting personality others means shy surface introverted naturally first met boyfriend similarly pessimistic position lives bit stuck wanting slog hopefully journey relative happiness propped around years actually i think quite healthy supportive way love so much truly believe unique connection couldnt find anyone else lot deep understandings world him although loves me doesnt believe idea one true love never another woman believes himself though medical diagnosis perhaps autism spectrum struggle emotionally driven trains thought attracted initially never conducted bull relationship politics beginning relationship always hated men dated previously that treatment pure honest recently noticed really trying upheave life get rid bad habits has came close tonight ending think underlying feelings came sure characteristics wants lifelong partner although loves me understand approach life must make things hard him problem loves leave despite stressing would always support regardless already faced rough times short relationship years family deaths horrible job situations uprooted moved hours away family live him etc want soar holding back choice loves much make sacrifice himself love enough that know isolate continue live fight get back part thinks doesnt want alone also feel strongly deciding die general watched father die painful spinal cancer around years ago want experience mental anguish inability decide fate want come terms mortality pace help it think around time start processing that view end life year end april end goal could reach one final birthday everyone love want gradually say goodbye way everyone peace it want meaningful conversations little cousins occur naturally instil bit wisdom learn short life function bit hope know gone life cruel experiences chew spit nothing left self want live for would never want anyone hurt inside like must right thing definitely going this question please dont leave messages trying convince otherwise amazing seeking respect decision would best help support wonderful community could receive know lot understand understanding rare need contentedly go rather angrily funeral fund set aside cover costs letter instruction written brother law funeral director scared die hope loved ones understand wish could see future know love cared for certain kick needs become person wants years come happier this p reading this know grateful love everything done me brilliant rooting hard next life one shared xxx,1 +birthday today told tell happened is yesterday came back trip class parents little sister surprised cool balloons today my actual birthday pizza family best friend also gave present tons people highschool wished happy birthday nice day family also said celebrate next days week ill celebrate closet friends day school bit tough cuz learned untill like pm kinda enjoyed day previous post someone wants httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsmkrgpxhey_random_people_in__days_its_my_birthdayutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare ask tell everything comes mind even dms sorry long post tho,0 + yo boy sub still virgin idk seems like every time browse sub yes never gf idk work arse studying play videogames watch shows anime listen s metal bands workout weird btw thanks reading first person comment v gets free award cause,0 +cant bothered take screen shot sexual option test asexual homo sexual heterosexual,0 +got lot right place fact call daddy call pssyslayer u call,0 +well ive hit rock bottom high schoolerthats it nothing matters anymore,1 +every second youre awake theres someone else thats sleeping makes jealous,0 +film full suspense well directed black white effect made great mystery fay emersonhilda fenchurch married twice famous musician skitch henderson also son elliott roosevelt fdrs son fell madly love zachary scott ronnie masonmarsh ronnie wins hearts ladies picture even mona freemananne fenchurch proposes marriage whenever can rosemary decamp dr jane sillafamous radio tv actress s s played mostly small town moms warned ladies ronnie masons sick mind abusive childhood growing up caused lovehate relationship women fay emerson zachary scott would greater stars rewarding roles lives short lived real life film beyond critizing trully great film classic many generations view enjoy,0 +hope someone understandsi pack gremlins cling me matter go doing tell do sometimes theyll tell leave bed morning nothing contribute otherwise done so theyll tell simple thing im reminded tired constantly am theyll tell one cares exist amounted anything human being tell try hard wont take far account anywhere go tell find gun closet tell find secluded place wont bother anyone promise feel pain itll go away quickly voices get agonizingly louder day got point first time theyve said years ago things exponentially grown ive come realize waking moments denied them think go,1 +yayyy text post weekend happy hour,0 +gun usehow idk loldont know else post nonjudgmental im home alone rn college sitting front dads guns safe unlocked usually kinda dumb part considering ive antidepressants awhile lmao silly dude anyway know load anything probably today idk one easier useless painful someone could help me looked smith amp weston mampp ruger mkiii know means ill able use yeah im kinda worried im going botch bc ive never used gun feel like would luck make vegetable something still live im staring right lol,1 +redflag coward redflag way get fucking horrible worldthe reason im post people school understand condition did suicidal thoughts people at school told redflag bad it people etc really consider redflag way out bad,1 +robert wuhl teaching class film students new york university manhattan new yorkbr br he covers fallacies history truths longer generally known would like see much show entertaining mr wuhl uses examples show tell get points across explained person actually rode midnight ride paul revere paul revere henry wadsworth longfellow used reveres name sounded betterbr br ive watched robert wuhl many years time standup comedy way arli hbo hes good actor good standup comedian hes excellent teacher highly recommend watch episode show well worth time,0 +july thtoday th anniversary losing father redflag every year fantasize something honor memory help people considering redflag never do always felt like could somehow share pain heart world nobody would ever end life prematurely again every year feel guilt able save father every year feel guilt able save you are ive drank whiskey like beginning every july th time ive made mind im going try tell you anybody care life anyone world care about please it cant fathom ways taking life change world life never same nothing good been miss father much would give anything back years wish could explain it hope somebody reads decides give life least one day people would leave behind know important really are fathers favorite band steely dan when demon door morning more major dude would tell you,1 +mental barrierhonestly ive stopped trying get better ive sick coming years learnt disabled time too im getting tired waiting out what dependant parents rest life never achieving anything im slow instead sick theres better me coping care anymore used fantisize dying natural disaster getting hit drunk driver anything blamed for realised nothing guaranteed happen unless hand fantasies trains bleeding out pills ive become realistic since understand whats plausible me honestly feel im ready mentally im ready just dont act it reason handful halfarsed od attempts sure nothing likelihood success theres difficulty feels like near impossibility taking whats head making real point want feel like even failure it used scared admitting it ive told doctors think want it multiple times hey long dont actually it problem since feel afraid one surprised whenif happens thing left figuring remove barrier bring want thought much actuality idea makes hate more every time think act feels like personal failure,1 +asked yesterday didnt get good answer anyone know ban appeals teenagers server please thank,0 +always nice suprise film made tv turns entertaining little richard watchable film story rock roller little richard played actor called leon never seen good job tv films little tamer made cinema shame sure lot could seen little richard controversial instead see lot religous rubbish thing spoils film eventually spoilt promising career film good acting average fot tv film ,0 +tinder survey hi there im conducting research tinder perceptions brand within gen z hoping find people willing help out shouldnt take minutes complete survey completely anonymous questions intrusive basic questions use tinder etc im looking anyone ages active tinder account willing help out link tinder survey httpsformsglemrfhqpthfctgb thank much ahead time,0 +haha hey wanna talk im kinda bored,0 +potential future tired suffering god fuck even going finish post nothing matters many reasons die live,1 +iphigenia great achievement michael cacoyannis masterful play masterfully adapted screen brought life wonderful cast cacoyannis achieved impossible managed film greek tragedy screen without losing effectiveness importance stellar greek cast helps this newcomer tatiana papamoschou extremely impressive iphigenia equally impressive irene papas who even though sometimes seems top realistic wonderful greek film beautifully adapted directed michael cacoyannis excellent music score mikis theodorakis ideal every scenebr br ps rumours say film lost best foreign language film oscar vote,0 +people use end completely disregard suits them either make people feel insecure uncomfortable annoying cold either way never felt alone entire life good things happening career yet one share joy one live life with take walk with build life together one nothing even real friends more sense people talk me want around clearly fault know know do genuinely think one likes,1 +almost todayi typed story realised stupid shit going today though close almost happened got scared working left results another failed attempt weird though attempt redflag attention seeking succeed tragedy people ever see people failing attempts also tragedy demonised proper help people left wailing endlessly internet hoping someone reach us hate dealing mental health problems many people use treat like shit im sick it im sick this plan im gonna execute weekend think maybe ill another attention seeker im lucky ill tragedy,1 +im ready go fuck many things leave behindthe realization one cares alive dead hits hard im like toy used play children one theyve forgotten about moved from one left shelf randomly thrown cardboard box left rot decay forever buried underneath tower cardboard boxes like landscape beige mountains ive always remembered them hoping probably vain that one day light flood casket ill feel fingers wrap around again hold tight somewhere buried deep inside me know truth im forgotten one cares im alive dead one cares enough nothings ever enough me hate it hate thing inside head manipulating everything make look like selfish monster takes takes takes never gives anything back im like that yet finding starting believe it going fuck everything im completely isolated unloved consuming whatevers left blackened soul along way kill me redflag end thats itll look like yes itll murder ill murdered head bully crushed soul gave monster im tired fighting im tired living people care me maybe hang myself still care dont thing stopping it knowing im going leave behind fuck lives badly love them always distant intimate connection them another burden busy lives need me theres plethora people turn im gone thats whats sad replaceable could disappear tomorrow one would blink everyone would continue lives been cant then ampxb sorry bit long even know anymore one read this ill forgotten somewhere normal now,1 +paini lived pain one way another since born never got know father killed vietnam months old molested neighbor years early teens battled alcohol drug addictions s two failed marriages many failed careers count diagnosed prostate cancer years ago spent year body ravaged radiation chemo plus couple surgerys cancer treatment left broken constant pain sure worse days mental physical pain tried tried live happy life never works out unrealistic expectations life guess complete failure son brother father husband tried keep hope future alive hope torture talking coworked last week finally hit me things given put could right family never realized body broken never fixed lost hope day tried explain wife basically said so what one guess right gives shit want make money pay bills may live dream tired pain tired alone head wish strength end all dont feel guilty pain know would cause people love care me dont care anymore cant understand pain dont kill dont want burden wife sons would cause even though know would better without me anchor around wifes neck holding back ruining life nothing left offer sons expect cautionary tail live nothing financial emotional burden around me feel alone hope want die,1 +give best pick line joke anything find exceptional ill give gold last post didnt get enough attention still got gold left,0 +fellow teenagers spend lives living horny paradise aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh,0 +never gets easieryou ask time id ever attempt again everytime tell no cant even begin tell amount times day still consider though dont even trust alone anymore im trying,1 +toddler though april fools april long found one day year reeeaally dissappointed,0 +let people kill themselvesi wonder people anaunce wanting end life people people try encourage go ahead mean life like alive business that like im threthening hurt others life,1 +im scaredthere available redflag prevention hotlines live therapist school councillor anything already hates lot im waves suicidal thoughts im scared one talk to sibling young innocent understand parents deeply upset hotlines use friends care theyre already dealing problems aant burden im scared please help me want someone talk to please,1 +almost wondering im still hereive mental health struggles since childhood theyve never fully gone away im feeling like ive wasted lot life job put reduced hours im struggling find something better ive tried meet people start relationship one interested real friends talk people online worse cause know likely never meet them days bother get bed time whats point im eating properly anymore either hoping move us year work know bad currently still im couple years fuck show it guns country ill come better way,1 +caught television one day young loved it s bunch lame comedies tried hard funny nice surprise one best comedies s definitive summer camp comedy thanks murrarys excellent comedic performance still stands one greatest film really got ivan reitman noticed director reitman proves movie one talented comedy directors time film hilarious meatballs bad fun meatballs meatballs absolutely dreadful recommended enjoyed stripes ghostbusters,0 +going kill september th ended hospitalized weeks instead ive one week already want kill again new date october th long vent sensitivei setting date since failed last time making mistake telling therapist spent two weeks straight hospital got put meds increased weekly therapy eating sleeping week straight constant suicidal thoughts wanted stay inpatient stepdown program hospital family talked yelling telling stupid idea regret going least would let live away abusers cut live way world currently is currently unemployed therapist trying help get disability fit work due multiple mental illnesses taking forever run health insurance coverage unemployed quickly running money cant afford high cost takes insurance run insurance simply blow little savings pay bills without money debt hospital unable afford therapy meds options going try apply medicaid cant understand process keep messing application going lose school scholarship preform class drop courses likely owe large sum money school this tried getting touch student services brushed off going say goodbye therapist subtly can able see anymore run money thinking one support kept going enough give courage finally kill myself want cry thinking therapy anymore puts verge panic attack think much am october th date obsessed numbers end fail th try october th forth hope fail time going try hard accidentally tell someone again write notes paper keep car people find theyre ready overdose meds jump bridge found several good spots accomplish late night early morning prepare mentally next weeks cant live life full mental illness trauma ocd alone bad enough give strength complete redflag want thank tried reach last time messages kind fail end hospitalized likely let long time please pray me pray fail death quick painless possible praying take prayers end,1 +screwed kill myselfi completely screwed life job friends family nothing do trying move away horrible expensive town covid hit cant move away landlord want job cant get job away employers want someone local area want people experience train you supposed anything want anything apart job direction life everything reach get chance anything whats point living im thinking jumping cliff nearby ive tried hanging uncomfortable wish could shoot myself,1 +time goi feel extremely suicidal today feel empty inside dont problem cant stop feeling pain chest letting know im wanting give up voices head usually call worthless failure stronger ever today theyre telling die sending nasty thoughts myself want drive lake walk it cant swimthats point feel disassociating keep thinking everything triggers me memories trauma mistakes ive made failures fault idea im posting here guess wanted someone know felt end it,1 +birthday cant see people bc corona id thought id celebrate guys,0 +really think ill make past hell barely see making next birthday everyday wake disappointed wishing dead agony life would over much shit happened past year wish successful tried could nothing instead go trauma ive gone through past year ive people come forward one abuser themselves public manner concerns ive acting think something wrong dismiss them know dissuade them least throws trail like fake throwing ball dog concerns ive suicidal almost decade now public part gets most feel like im talking piece rather sentient person makes feel like really reason topic eventually forgotten forgotten role,1 +looking dot imagethingys im looking repository instagram dot messages like this,0 +want die want stop pain redflag never stops pain passes onto someone else doesnt deserve feel way much didnt deserve feel way even think nobody cares always people care ones dont cut lives youve gotta work towards better future know depressions isnt easy cheering up youve gotta overcome matter what youve got one life shouldnt wasted feelings selfhatred doubt loneliness etc always worse gets better youve gotta keep pushing matter shit youre going through youre victim abuse abuser still abusing you youve gotta call cops fuck feeling shyness get it quick conversation operator incredible investment stop happening ever person also youll find right people eventually take care yourselves know strength get whatever youre dealing matter doubtful may you also urge see therapist talk mental health hotline matter shy may be apply investment logic it probably ways dealing this helps similar things talking people phone issues normal everyday life social anxiety disorder know much struggle life be again please take care yourselves know easier said done youve gotta make effort love you,0 +use owo uwu filler text httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvtdlg_hythttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvtdlg_hyt please watch video owo uwu owo uwu owo,0 +hello againi much want die hate inconsistency one day ill super confident ill polite funny feel like myself like week disappears reason feel completely brain dead ive suicidal whole life may seem petty suppose really much live for every day feels like dream lot due caring much alive feel like much potential happy confident ill much myself something happens sudden feel like complete garbage also really hate myself addicted self harm redflag seems like lil solution know nothing crazy yeah probably wont kill soon know fact die perhaps actually soon hope staying healthy way,1 +dad hung year born reasons cannot help think im going same killing think about want stop killing would much easier growing old hate negative am need help,1 +cant iplease let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please want stop thinking stop please let die stay alive alive born never fucking asked please give permission die tell okay tell im useless piece shit never amount anything theres way could fucking want want breathe want eat disgust stop stop stop stop stop please tell need admit hate want acknowledge im right please stop torturing look like smile stop stop stop stop stop fucking stop say like never thought dying understand like say straight need help need pity fucking tell im worthless admit want look want see see anything think anything need anything stop go away leave alone fucking come back tell get hell house reason think stop thinking stoooooooooooooooooooooooooop fuck tldr im orphaned unemployed high school dropout hates worthless friends want anything get white girl wasted every single day isolated everyone liked bother them im left dying grandfather unbelievably understanding supportive call like trash am im pampered little brat always been ive always given anything want much freedom neighbor would play doctor her would take turns lying bench backyard inspecting others genitals good days turns longer hated inspection table hated would prod pull choice cant say friends mother found moved away newer suburban complex nice enough started making friends school friends live close smart responsible child theres way i could get trouble so packed yugioh cards gameboy backpack headed beating sun play newest bestest friend ever half way there walking house noticed man tip box spill seemed like thousands millions yugioh cards wouldve hard clean himself man visually grief stricken naturally goody goody asked needed help hollow pits charred face lit up mouth opened smile seemed shine bright sun oh could please feel free help to gonna sell anyway score him course feel sick someone tell fault tell deserved everything got tell im supposed miserable everyone else happy go ahead tell me hell born,1 +redflagit brings little peace knowing thatll ill kill one day peaceful knowing end bullshit whenever want nothing help anymore im dead mentally,1 +mens mental health talked nearly enough mens mental health talked nearly enough live australia wouldnt say huge friend group outside school still know friend mine attempted redflag one cuts dad committed redflag yrs ago male heard much terms awareness mens mental health boys school apart average ooooh ask friends ok like bullshit hard school make time us miss one lesson every weeks educate us things like this like friend self harming wants kill himself important learn one skill learn skills could literally save lives iv always good mental state either literally one knows dont know talk thing im claiming expert would even executed im sad things arent taught us institutions meant prepare us future sorry bad format mobile,0 +cant take anymoreeverybody hates,1 +would love hear community ask reddit benefits life outweight negativesoutweighhttpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsezihdo_you_believe_the_benefits_of_life_outweight_the,1 +need friendsjust people talk,1 +online class lmao two kids class wasted minutes convincing teacher one codes wont work lmao,0 +yesterday mom met friends told story like five something said something used say gay girls luckiest get kiss girls and girls closeted transbian ass sitting phone internally screaming fuck think cishet long did,0 +human worstthe vile aggressive destructive species planet us cancer world bird wolf bacteria theres rent bills social media phones nothing land planet natural be weve created world within world focus garbage shit way life ignore beauty land live on often destroy consume shit created fuck human worst thing be blessing fucking curse die heres hoping covid strains get affected vaccines hope us slowly wiped out cheers cunts included fuck me fuck you fuck everyone die,1 +want alreadyim tired anxiety depression ocd loneliness feeling love people want put already itll stop pain point trying nothing ever seems change,1 +someone please let know im aloneanyone literally comment anything please know desperate feel alone need know people see me,1 +life hard want dieive come point care come across weak normal people truth is nothing look forward life everything seems bleak distract long inevitably all oh well guess ill stick around find way easier painless,1 +offended please tell happened ill apologize link reddit post offended shall make sincere apology nice day want apologize someone would never like ex friend ill pretend say sincere apologize ,0 +somebody want dm im bored want play number game something aahhh,0 +mom wants medication now dad wants smoke pot instead know doi trying show mom video made noticed moving legs table againmy psychiatrist told fidgeting due part anxiety turned video tried simply talking talking incredibly fast heart racing speaking like seventy five words minute told manic episodei told yeah thought bipolar took online test said exhibited symptoms bipolar dad said bipolarthen started moving legs way prove point kept asking is offensive you got mad yelling her said mom mocking me told said nearly tears mom freaking mocking me know hate mock mocking me ended apologizing mocking me hugged bed now legs moving speaking like words minute heart racing speaking shaking really bad start taking medication go get blood test every three months check liver problems seriously bad trypanophobia cant even think needles without freaking out know want do mom asked drawing blood thing stopping taking medication said yes asked so would rather take medication suffer blood test every three months thats looking like me told things continue refuse take medication find plan b plan b dad wants smoke pot him ive actually done couple times tells im allowed tell mom since moms nurse totally it two options either take medication man up adult say tell mom want smoke weed dad im stuck middle know do,1 +canvas tracking tabs bet heard rumor canvas tracking tabs partially true go near canvas sidebar adress bar say logs also means could inactive cannot however tell tab opened toatilly exposed however pattern leaving question similar amount time get trouble get phone keep doc notes splitscreened look at however make habit makes teachers suspicious canvas spyware track mouse however,0 +easy way outseriously humans hard kill easy acessible way kill seems overly risky high risk failing is driving insane im asking alternative methods assume thatd subreddits policy anyway but,1 +rant dont care read notfrom bottom soul tired ive always depressed adult weighing down make money things always wanted dont energy im either sleeping working drinking always told id never addict am following mothers footsteps one find happiness ill never know ampxb forgive grammer poor formatting rambling,1 +latest film spanish director agusti villaronga study children experience violence isolation within remote community develop troubled young adults need certain psychic tools deal hidden mental frailty whether tools religion followed fanatical level caring others simply putting macho image whilst engaging maleprostitute villaronga creates successful examination vices affect three teenagers living spain franco three witness disturbing double death friends teenagers subsequently bury emotions feel peers frail corpses meet hospital suffering form tuberculosisbr br the cinematic style text typically visually opulent would expect spanish auteur extremely reminiscent fellow spaniard pedro almodovars work themes dealing sexual desire heterosexual homosexual element different two directors villaronga favours supernatural undertone spliced claustrophobic gritty realism opposed almodovars use surrealism although styles similarbr br the piece gives insight troubled young psyche contains disturbing violence scenes sexual nature highly recommend watching film contains elements remain audience considerable period viewing,0 +beautifully brokeni feel broken slaughtered violated defeated times times im numb times im feeling like okay again owe time release im okay okay thats okay now,1 +wish someone could methe amount times ive driving car wishing semi coming would swerve lane times ive walking street hoping car see hoping murderer would decide make victim times ive wanted fucking die cant it wish someone else would kind enough rip band aid me theres one person ill really regret leaving behind enough outweigh wanting die love im ready die,1 +need die escape canti die cant live anymore much hate it cant die access anything could kill effectively people say care selfish fuck care want live interests cared okay living emotional pain im sick bed almost im sick bored everything im sick human beings give shit privileged life is fucking hate it whatever angsty edgy teen stuff im done need die cant die ill something else ive asked help got exact opposite safe im saying here getting difficult think anything else option cant talk anyone except strangers text such reddit things like that selective mutism impossible helped suggest hotline therapy please,1 +took mg acetaminophen beer finei weigh lbs maybe ill fine,1 +think grandmother purposely wants diagnosed mental disorder stop entering military currently years old always aspirations join military make career it everyone family mother father aunts uncles etc board this except grandmother context im extremely close grandma more mother always supported everything ive except this ive dreams since least back think must thought oh little boy wants army man still want join military ive even talking recruiters think worried heres part cant wrap head around last two years claiming several undiagnosed mental disorders disabilities family friends even school counselor dean adhd autism even bipolar disorder things claims have none even show symptoms know adamant mentally unwell made take atleast dozen online tests forms clinics doctors office around country try get diagnosed something may overthinking situation genuinely believe im diagnosed something eligible join military usually bother much fact extremely close grandma purposely would ruin relationship instantly last months eating inside generally know think thoughts,0 +someoneor something thingis leaving puncture marks jugular draining victims blood till dead police detective karl brettschneidermelvyn douglas slipping bmovie horror genre greater heightsis stumped whoor whatis behind notorious crimes village overcome hysteria karl depends trusted medical genius dr otto von niemannlionel atwill yet another effective mad scientist roleto provide feedback might causing deaths innocents also fears safety beloved ruththe lovely fay wray stars third time atwill doctor x the mystery wax museumwho niemanns assistantbr br dwight frye steals film rather loony village idiot collects bats carries demented demeanor wherever goesits easy see becomes suspect local paranoia fever pitch maude eburne provides films humor naiveand easily influencedpatient von niemanns believes ailments reads books near laboratory works impressionable often von niemann humors constant fictional illnesses feels plagued with lionel belmore returns yet another frightened superstitious brgermeisterbr br creaky static rather entertaining nonetheless thanks cast film obviously lowbudget come hurt film much since put together rather well director frank r strayer crew im certain films print seen better days though kind bhorror item find packaged random cheesefests poverty row programmers films villainand motives feeding synthetically made biological creaturecertainly provides different take frankenstein formula many might disappointed end results film strays away actual supernatural tale real vampire killer causing murders,0 +caresi always feel like shit think assholes ive met life family friends love them general luck everyones praise smallest thing feel like ive tried hard make life end day realize one gives shit even give shit try hard right thing nice try successful help others matter end day im loser one would miss good trying alone feel fucking worthless older get realize going change true worthless mistake mean vent reddit one else gives shit give up,1 +love life left im emotional ruins right nowso heres storyits long one years ago met girl video game yes video game pleasure talk conversations quickly went video game talk personal talk next thing know added facebook exchanged numbers taking place last years high school somewhat young years since then anyways never interest romantically back would occasions would drop grid months time okay that lives half way across country life live i one day get text blue her high school get talking like old days admits feelings towards admit her things went real quick talking finally meeting real life plans future well times needed time herself straight admitted handle long distance relationship would get lonely always waited come back feeling back head would back always was months ago came back nonexistent months said sorry distant things went right back been everything perfect practically counting days could finally meet her date set said wanted run away me excited nervous finally meet her well things went south blue told living guy dating never ended like this know pathetic strong feelings girl ive never met honest one friends years fact ive technically physically alone going years leave like that kills me kills know wasted many years hoping fantasy would finally come true kills know never cared me temporary fix loneliness found someone real life promises made meant nothingi feel betrayed humiliated go here move on ive thought making tinder something hate rejected im interested casual dating want something serious want know someone actually cares me feel empty insideive turned alcohol sleeping pills save me sleeping pills worthless alcohol much make daily habit want die really see reason keep going first time life courage end all help me ,1 +amazing movie script writing could better some cliched language joyces the dead alluded throughout movie beautiful scenery great acting poetic highly recommend,0 +would someone willing talk meim lost confused need someone tell thoughts,1 +see endi see end life days away could mean killing changing thought process try again would like start fact everything world im young adult lovely relationship loving family enough income get by decent savings account ive met god understand meaning god every loving hating action she does feel like im kill anyway know tremendous sadness destruction bring loved ones everyone cares me yet still want kill myself this th year suicidle thoughts depresstion thought started two months ago remembered actually matter since life slowly falling apart mean good deeds going unseen way longer even selfish actions favours either part got promtion workplace manager find promotion lead walking egg shells boss every action started get micro mangered recent covid situation making customers crazy leads egg shells ieds them guess smarten started follow everything book still good enough them everyday still getting called old misbehavours even though them wtf right part everything owned started break replasement ideams broke to headphones bust go bye new pair within week new pair break go get another pair guessed it new ones broke too stero system busted game get try escape reality breaking glitches galor bunch crashes new cyber punk game hoped end spiral sadness broken start ps ok maybe problem im bying stuff others dad wants metal signs kitchen thought getting cool signs vintage shop brought home hung wall first thing hear mouth tell price why fuck spend much money signs fucking waste exact words becuase awhile ago energy rub face week later buys new toy something need money get first place worry theres go on part think anyone understand everytime try speak it get shot down could boyfriend mom dad even bosses coworkers get nothing hell even people tell do example tell bring phone work dont next day tell need phone work bring fact allowed phone work say test following day ask take phone again power trip wanted yell someone part im young adult one actully trusts yet tried get loan told pay plan it got denied paper work pay stubs becuase get payed staight bank account tried get apartment denied tried places denied going back work im trusted job even im job properly book come yell something preseve job part said met god devil real hell even earth form video games what hell constint villance place looks quite real real enough make keep going cant feel dam thing god love concept anyway im trying good man even one excepts good deeds know im slave devil form art must make art otherwise feel feeling unless part final chapter started becuase remembered matter one person world billion people art special another artist great job shitty job everyone around still thinks beautiful thing theyve seen got promotion deceided me need stress see newest employee get spot even though said got position needed trust takes alot time trust employees guess lie told people think im going sober got bunch cares was sober month till needed smoke get head space bunch stuff part fact forgottenwas never important all live long life become important become emortalish though art put world still nothing long enough timeline forgotten keep going everything nothing everyone around tells love everytime speak im feeling push aside like im acting crazy understand im saying start new type theropy tueday hopefully figure out secertly think going work im pretty sure suicidle thoughts contine point except fact cant run fate ampxb thank reading ill push though like always do one meaning life its get close divinity spread rays mankind,1 +lost best friend got gf something bo one expected yeah good changed always silent never gave chance fed something one chance get got gf like that war machine hipi thats good tho were like play fight often go woods fight sticks till someone starts bleed winscool game like it got gf basically got bad boring could exchange attack block like mins standing ther wanting lose cos gf game today lost favourite game friend said changed believe im hanging like this wanna fight cos cos cos gf approve like want do mins silence wanna grab something dring go name favourite spot sit watch city name different language go ther thats it,0 +heres hand reveal handhttpsyoutubeohgsjyrha,0 +think need conversation right nowim kinda panic attack right id like casual conversation distract something stupid guys week,1 +things hopelessi posted before good news im still here bad news im still suicidal thoughts depression comes waves days okay cry little days cry nonstop extended periods time last night particular wanted end all reached friend helped feelings lingered scheduled see psychiatrist wednesday morning appointment therapist afternoon cant say whether helping im going try share suicidal thoughts them tried share feelings depression family friends think understand bad is also wondering share feelings boss work believe full transparency good relationship extremely compassionate person trust him know reason tell now know try reach various resources whenever start feel bad ive used friends redflag hotlines reddit posts compassion chats help know else stick therapy hope one day waves big,1 +im dying know actually worth living forthis throwaway post gives basic rundown situation im in httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentseeythrowaway_i_am_worthless_i_wasnt_meant_to_be_born stuff mind consistently suicidal year two now honest died two years ago missed much yeah may girls accomplishments outweighed whats wrong enjoy sort esteem dropping stuff im pretty dead inside right want know whats worth going shitty life going agonizing self destructive parents fucked bad im well continue well school fail meet goal going michigan tech eventually fail become person want be since requires prerequisite happy live past whatever college is im probably going stuck minimum wage job living sort poverty nobody actually cares wants needs here im going stuck thing next fifty years die either way im going still fucked wishing rather dead point really see point living im going waiting it think live life everything experience negative fucking training cant actually happy happy life since like really nothing makes want alive thats worth years waiting years pain want end reason already killed im waiting see im elected president robotics team would probably die even become president tell this exactly exactly worth living thats desirable pain suffering know love since always turns harm know kids could never bear burden bringing fucked world it,1 + types posts types posts subreddit random memes relationshiprelated questions depressed people people found hope im bored wanna talk,0 +point wherein want others see me want see mirror stay hidden,1 + hours ago told dad going prison beginning december soon im yo male really weird weekend dad went family friends house bonded really well weekend weve good steadily getting better relationship close year now since hes never really able show cares even made hard bond severity really kicked hour ago pretty bad mental breakdown sorts still kind am ever since sibling moved bit year ago dad mom used heavily addicted drugs left ish like said dad really chill eachother year since hes great expressing feeling others know know found sibling told mom told them life ive never scared something long term sorts worried andor felt sad about absolutely anyone reading much im scared well honestly im horrified confused grieving im horrified confused thing know court date first december hes almost deffinetly going jail either day soon after well trouble thats know hes going able pay house pack everything mine move one places grandparents definitely certain reasons although good people love them move pa mom gmom sibling unknown amount time move close family friend lives town know im going yet im scared everything right now ive never move life taking going go to biggest fear right now whats going happen animals love animals heart cats dog matter go take dog thats better nothing cats keep starting cry every time think them right tell theres nowhere take them matter places choose cats friends siblings oldest one sasha died personally picked litter almost whole life cant leave never see again others weve least years mean fuck animals consider family even important actual family im fucking crying cause cant leave somewhere know anyone could take need someone know trust know bad good neutral idea alone losing even cats honestly biggest problem right now know alot im sorry that read whatever thank much spending time it partially rant im frantic right now advice would mean much me,0 +lostim almost year old male im average intelligence attractive people seem enioy around im mostly personable love job things great right now might getting fired tomorrow fucked up put thousand debt financing finally job liked love video games past weeks ive mostly sat computer playing anything cant get girls im picky emotional damage finally find girl like never works outnever actual girlfriend sex once also probably schizophrenia self diagnosis bullshit maybe ive tricked thinking it things constantly go well me do end hurting eventually im exhausted everything want someone actually cares me im student ive always struggled school im lazy going community college years credits despite full time know myself nothing seems work drink smoke drugs im veganits even something talk much family even know it im constantly shit random people friends really hurts something care deeply im ever happy im someone like real life friends like said earlier struggle develop romantic relationships,1 +want kaido saiki k tie down drip hot red wax me run knife stomach carve name thigh tie down slap til cry like little bitch filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ok reported uredditcareresource got message reddit care resource minutes ago apparently deserve help whatever im going kind stuff see would get reported times ive going latest posts must someone here mentioned stuff life quite whoever reported must gone latests posts comments thanks thanks guess,0 +heeey labled gifted child mental problem gang vome share story soo fall like grades sports whatever,0 +wonder ifbody relaxans anything,1 +hard criticize anything mitzi kapture does radiates beauty grace screen phenomenal actress notwithstanding yes plot predictable think perhaps jill slept richard may made little crazier already was would added suspense would also nice see jill husband find richards little problem exwife maybe bit back story little disappointed ending movie would liked seen closure zacks death possibly closure husband say though never able look flare gun picture standing there fitting end richard course mitzi rocked looking forward future projects,0 +m bored welp basically thing last night girls interested chat fall asleep,0 +friend got grounded around months ago think might killed point nobodys answering insta account we talked there think found one friends texted know going respond want know alive figure outi suicidal depressed help friend might dead,1 +everything enjoyed bores me life pretty much stopped worth pain experiencing every day pain got times worse due recent breakup losing meant losing source happiness got leftbut still cannot decide want keep living not hope left things could get better time something tells maybe hang onim relapsing self harm again least gotten drinking time being really know much able drink again replacing booze means self harm think working really well cave go bottle think expect final goodbye herei stuck weird limbo cannot decide end already maybe coward sure want live,1 +would rather look like jar jar binks talk like jar jar binks allowed kill self suffer,0 +today rteenagers birthday turned years old,0 +might kill people knownot saying know knows future holds,1 +think last night last nighti think today last day im feeling low worthless turned messages phone nobody reach me dont reach anyway ive never wanted disappear much before used scare im still bit scared im coming terms fact nobody wants around dont appreciate love me ive rejected many times today last day dealing pain dont know im even typing maybe write something becomes real want disappear im going eat wings today wine go it goodbye,1 +think ithello im years old live melbourne australia always thought sucide back head coming much harder time live home mother never says way wants gone cannot hold job matter ive gone countless jobs time time agian currently day week job fight somebody work uniform interview boss im sure im going let go stuck endless loop spending money drugs especially weed complete failure even born accident asphergers cannot hold friendships ive lost countless freinds ones knifes edge constant arguments weird tell people internet expressing feelings family friends terrifying im sick week week loose job tomorrow mother probably going kick ill homeless even happen cant stand disappointment anymore burden ive never life girlfriend fallen love never im going alone im lost want end im suffering depression anxiety im sick heavy feeling chest shortness breath made many bad decisions life ruined one ex best mates lives guilt tears apart want leave planet want go thank reading appreciate,1 +feel bad spent hours feeling sad crying room hugging pillow cause ive got one hugi hate feel way hate myself well anyway hope guys better,0 +literally noone talk tocompared people actual mentalphysical health problems reasons seem bit tame honest honestly whole life ive never anyone could really talk google taken school young age isolated many years spent homeless turned took years yearn walk normal leg muscles fucked never using them also learn talk people times id rent room craigslist roommates would drug addicted crazy people live nursing home stick people mental disabilities place go theres noone thats smart enough hold regular conversation lot talk selves staff slightly stupid sometimes even offensive ive tried online dating years ive never met anyone abusive probably turned online dating anyway always think great could id started competing kids school developing normally went college id lots friends lots constructive things think id happy go outside see bright successful people walking street taking l train cars always crazy people talking themselves like im stuck endless loop know sound bad actually makes want kill myself already know take die painlessly bed anyone suggestions please comment,1 +tried kill today weaki even know someone read not need vent somewhere today tried hang started feel pain stopped weak want try strength that think itll work feel alone want end it feel bad mom dad baby sister know,1 +know worst thing betrayal never comes enemy ,0 +want kill butbutthe meds need time work interview morning want inconvenience showing up boyfriend suffers depression want give reason get better id never get see niece love pieces want hurt anyone small part thinks things get better time road balls cleaned desk work yet want burden someone task appointment new therapist morning want anyone find me want leave brother struggling depression know things better side please anyone therei know else do see getting better called everyone feel alone know do know functional fuck up know better know be so it,1 +im meant heretheres much wrong feel like here im short unnatractive needy self confidence laughed girls appearance feel dead like outline walking substance hate myself hate lost genetic lottery want anymore belong,1 +reason sad makes worsefor feeling worthless live really cant figure making feel way see people way worse makes think im overdramatic makes worse get angry feeling way do also made hard talk people feeling dont want bother people something waste time,1 +yo someone wish luck whatever basically today move another country again like third time moving countries im literally shitting ive lived like scary scary like idk school im gonna go whats gonna happen im gonna friends end year im gonna big ass exam like know fact dont get good grade im gonna mad august last year moved back home country after living years country im moving today let tell year anything fun watched everything built past years mental health friendships good grades etc fucking crumble shitting pieces front eyesi made friends whatsoever horrible time school teachers constantly took piss didnt even bother remembering name old friends stopped fucking talking im even gonna start getting shit went family year agonising pain mother literally made fun suicidal somehow managed fucking convince move back today flight scheduled know happy cuz finally got wanted im scared everything changed things never back way thats incredibly fucking jolly tldr idk man everything pain,0 +tenshu imprisoned sentenced death survives electrocution government officials give choice either electrocute greater degree agree experiments chooses experimentation placed large metallic cell bad ass criminal also survived electrocution whatever want room within reason cant leave days meals cut one per day room temp set alarms sounded intervals cant sleep one day witch come cell albeit glassed portion happens next ill let find out may minority liked build up intriguing me payoff half good build would rated much higherbr br my grade c br br media blasters dvd set extras disc directors cut trailers versus aragami attack gas station deadly outlaw rekka disc theatrical cut commentary hideo sakaki ryuhei kitamura sakaguchi takuand tsutomu takahashi cast crew interview making of original trailer promo teasers,0 +anyone wanna text every day fall love ghost yes yes right,0 +got another girls snapchat today sequel httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslnpeti_got_a_girls_snapchat_todayutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare talking someone class funny got snap added other really liked memes posted story theyre absolutely funny like them fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +reason movie better known appreciated seems subject controversial subject movie never got proper big release still remains fairly unknown one day subject controversial anymore thoughbr br basically essence movie white man befriending black man friendship seem forced unrealistic way gets portrayed movie makes feel real see different ethnics mingle other completely normal unfortunately course back days really regarded anything normal seeing black man talking white girl fun friend must hard thing watch instance proportions audiencebr br you really understand sidney poitier always still respected much hollywood society blackcommunity general course one reasons also received honorary award oscars movies often fights discrimination prejudiced issues course in heat night best example this real role model certainly inspired many afroamerican actors day top that also great actor yes still alive pretty much retired completely movies seems since last credited role br br this movie martin ritts directorial debut also given much movie spend movie studios probably also bit reluctant mainly concept andor ritts first movie perhaps simply due fact mgm big anymore left best days behind them ever since s metrogoldwynmayer sort reputation making great cheap movies early years really one biggest studios lots stars acclaimed directors attached it made many award winning classic movies luckily reputation starting change whenever mgmlogo appears movie people longer expecting lessermovie anymorebr br anyway even restrained budget limited resources managed make great movie one movie simple characters simplistic plot it movie however still manages capture story subjects without ever starting become preachy anything it makes movie effective one well subjectsbr br really movie deserves seenbr br ,0 +hey world questioni curious think lot people read try help position wanting commit redflag before someone said help you things people say ive heard before means nothingbut fact someone cares mean bit words ever touched you share me something think about ive thought redflag years young life know ever completely go away even words helped specific situation maybe theyd give something think think wanting die edit okay multiple questionsbut basically same,1 +going bourbon whiskey talking friends beforehand trying least bit fun beforehandi love all cannot saved goodbye tomorrow,1 +want successful networking forming close friendshipsnotredflag need get rid phobia somehow ways fear interfering social life academics well earn high grades want snatch opportunities outside classroom need suck try tolerate group work classmates more opened therapist this could actually discuss ways combat problem ended leaving one go becoming comfortable around men,1 +twoobie time year old dating year old okay u change mind,0 +im flippin boreddddddddddddd f trying friend dm u want cause im bored helllllll dont know,0 +thinking real actual suicide atm lot pain pain go work pain instability work fear enter another toxic work environment irregular hours norm country pain deal nasty people real consequences comes workinghelp me hate alive much room me want go sleep wake up want pain stop,1 +im considering drinking drain cleaner housei mean could literally right now ive tried kill before failed,1 +help prevent redflag httpswwwchangeorgpfaberandfaberpreventnovelredflagstopromanticizingredflaghttpswwwchangeorgpfaberandfaberpreventnovelredflagstopromanticizingredflag,1 +well im bored again ask questions furry could tell story idc,0 +came outer space ii good film good cast includes brian kerwin elizabeth pea jonathan carrasco adrian sparks bill mckinney dean norris dawn zeek lauren tewes mickey jones iilana btiste jerry giles howard morris acting actors good kerwin norris really excellent film thought performed good thrills really good surprising movie filmed good music great shirley walker film quite interesting movie really keeps going end good thrilling film like brian kerwin elizabeth pea jonathan carrasco adrian sparks bill mckinney dean norris dawn zeek lauren tewes mickey jones rest cast film mystery scifi thrillers dramas interesting action films strongly recommend see film today br br movie nuttballs note br br i noticed second film dean norris mickey jones movie together classic violent epic total recall funny seeing another alien flick br br if like alien movies andor subject aliens also recommend following films thing another world day earth stood still war worlds horror express ufo incident invasion body snatchers et extraterrestrial john carpenters thing krull return aliens deadly spawn time walker science project howard duck john carpenters starman john carpenters live mac me explorers invaders mars alien seed abyss communion suburban commando fire sky arrival mars attacks contact men black stephen kings dreamcatcher xtro watch skies battlefield earth saga year stargate puppet masters john carpenters village damned independence day life form contact xfiles fight future roswell aliens attack faculty mission mars pitch black evolution kpax signs silent warnings forgotten alien hunter spaceballs alien aliens alien predator predator avp alien vs predator entire star wars saga a new hope empire strikes back return jedi original special editions phantom menace attack clones revenge sith entire star trek movie saga star trek motion picture wrath khan search spock voyage home final frontier undiscovered country generations first contact insurrection nemesis stephen kings it,0 +found facebook sister got married whole family therethey lied doing got upset sister sent hundreds text messages horrible person am thats im done want gone im gone hope eventually feel guilty me,1 +comparable fight club matrix ai sixth sense among others film approaches psyche way never done before first minutes builds interesting love story diazcruisecruz rest movie is well confusing pick every time watch ive gone movies see times now,0 +expect val kilmer make convincing john holmes found forgetting porn legend himself fact entire cast turned amazing performances vastly underrated moviebr br as mentioned earlier seek twodisc set watch wadd documentary first give lot background story helpful appreciating movie br br some people seem unhappy lapd crime scene video included dvd number reasons might included one john holmes trial murders first ever united states footage used prosecution want see it easy avoid clearly identified lapd crime scene footage menu,0 +feel like ghosti want talk people im worried afraid approach people thinking theyll think im weird annoying stay silent hesitate say people ive got one talk real life thats want cant keep things boring dead im sure people classes would surprised waswas class,1 +bored depressed lonely im surei really know feeling despite amount people know friends have really lonely really seen friends attending school full time nursing student missing lot events know people acquaintances feel like one really time makes feel everybody selfish including best know need want come post throwaway account maybe im venting knows maybe ill feel better tomorrow anyone ever feel way,1 +cant anymoremy best friend care anymore cant stand watch another person fade away stranger last straw top years depression cant this im planning killing myself tonight tomorrow soon wont hard cant live like like anymore im desperately alone know wont missed,1 +numbers game anyone got bunch nothing last post maybe second try work,0 +tired feel like disappointment everyone life moved countries months covid everything different sit room crying eating hate internet rn everyone put awareness something one fucking cares lost alone want die want die miss feeling alive skin feel like mine lost sense self want die badly everything ruined me cannot even enjoy game like someone spoiled place look like mess ashamed go eat takeaway grocery shopping nothing feels anymore i put misery,1 +day guys great year reddit lol,0 +ive iti really life year old severely disabled multiple sclerosis patient diagnosed life sports athletics truly become blob lost job didnt technically lose it retirement age kind losing income reduced ive complete loser women rather waited hoped the one never showed ones eventually interested turned flat oh boy hell virgin days ago finally said fuck it hired escort went bare may contracted something know care hopes finding lover wife past stage anyway months increasingly unbearable pain went er mri taken back doctor said may herniated disc meaning surgery meaning kill now please sister surgery back herniated disc years back remember bad shape post surgery needed people help get bed go bathroom yet hernia returned live alone shit neighbors even report faggot shit punk bitch living upstairs precinct came door grabbed collar threatened fuck up years ago would broken arms rolled stairwell make example violated little fluffer keeps around wife got live for,1 +miss friend havent talked guy friend seen lowkey really miss gay way,0 +cant wait anymoreim thinking blasting brains dont succeed ill live even miserable life,1 +m abusing drugs yearsi last sem uni cannot hold regular job move back grandparents like times ruined possibly good notredflag due fucked attachment issues hate this want live life got ghosted person knew attached last time interacted called ridiculed even realise yeah realised blocked literally one left accept grandparents live feel good around feel like socialised properly look old scary fuck idk utter piece shit,1 +failed flirt girl today restaurant friends saw pretty waitress probably year two older me hell mightve not would problem that wanted say something like friends bet couldnt talk pretty waitress order money wasnt sure would react fact bad enough couldve gotten us kicked restaurant end never said anything feel bad it,0 +deep intellectual rant ok honestly feel like ppl born selfish like u met single person semi passiveaggressive also anyone know thing called moral realism rlly fucking scary thinking abt that anyway philosopher said ppl good things feel good abt themselves kind agree with im history hw rn take look fucking world wars proof humanity whole lowkey selfish,0 +tonight nighti cant live every day regret partner months since left years loving wonderful life together fault alcohol depression ocd unchecked years caught me im going fist full sleep aids vodka drop lake backpack full rocks hopefully wait long enough meds kick least hallucinating drown,1 +dont care afterlife just ventim kill soon care leave behind got one care about im years old still gotten friends ive felt alone ever hate fuck life go hell im gone life bad hell honestly feels kinda good knowing ill die soon,1 +work courage it afterlife simply cease be buried family grieves eventually move on everyone ever knew children children live die humanity goes extinct rocky mountains erode flat steppe hawaiian islands sink sun swallows earth becomes white dwarf end universe big bang happens again earth forms again dinosaurs live rendered extinctrome rises falls world goes war twice born again happened infinite amount times never beginning time circle retain memories fact everything plays exactly last time last atom time passing between though trillions years nothing you birth next time around upon blink next time find again pull trigger again ride never endsthe possibility keeps going see etching grooves gramophone record decide happiness suffering plays repeat infinity might best squeeze potential happiness it living forever maybe life amazing point case maybe ending reliving time might logical choice choice spend eternity own thought might keep going,1 +seriously feel like shell everyday struggleim m im terrified life friends girlfriend fault though girl broke months ago really stressed life worried relationship changing makes sense used friends brother cut old friends life nothing drama queens often stay awake nights wondering lost girl supposed with like quick silly relationship real thing slowly time developed feelings eventually clicked really sweet girl best boyfriend her sometimes would want go somewhere something id say im busy work something looking back wonder that seem like me even felt guilty sex had felt dirty awful days after felt like scumbag felt weird someone care like did really worry one chance love know know im experienced world yet really love me cant get back even tried hardest another guy started dating weeks split up hurt one ended things night texted told felt listened understood told need move ill find amazing girl future id like believe im best looking guy im short pretty average looking kinda boring learn lot relationship weird way heartbreak kinda good thing ive learned better person really treat people much respect really worry im going punished breaking heart worry hurt someone come along hurt worse ive learned lesson past months hell ive learned people objects love inst game something take care maintain almost like car mental health plummeted therapist im sure really helps aside losing pushed old friends away me really regret doing toxic people looking manipulate cause drama every little thing ive never seen men act like fools stopped talking them walked away told handle bs left course like it find lonely work come home eat ill play video games every again try go things find fun find constantly lonely upset ive tried making new friends work really kind crowd ill starting senior year fall cant wait get with want go college meet new people get fresh start dad works security guard one local colleges get free tuition im sure understand great is really even know major in id also like join military point life id like adventure get old ive always interested military cant decide want ill drop college join military find something like ill get degree join officer work walmart today guy work told works mcdonalds comes walmart works hes divorces everyone ex wifes cheated him really want end like that want start living cousin gave great advice comes life love told never afraid losing people never ever think girl dated the one millions like her see point programming freak things worry ill eventually marry convenience end getting cheated on ive seen terrible is mom cheated dad twice turned shell man want like that feel like im destined explore see much see idk really believe spiritual mumbo jumbo multiple people told old soul me theres something gives old soul vibe maybe thats true maybe well never know want live life want make great life long friends want fall love amazing girl become man want be id like think im bad person someone needs help im there im personable person ill talk anyone always try see everyone point view understand everyone thinkingfeeling im stingy money either sure im trying save money someone needs cash ill help out im introvert super outgoing personality everyone works seems like school ive fair share headbutts couple pleasant people go way start problems ive really working improve feels like im stuck theres nothing really driving forward anyone give advice id really appreciate it ive used analogy older posts ill use again best way describe im feeling feel like im ship ocean im helm compass thick film fog surrounding entire vessel pick heading compass wont know whats front know anymore whats point going ive already messed life up feel like complete shit guess deserve punishment,1 +cant anymorei thought wanted pregnant happy cant im mentally physically limit told get rid understood havent able anything barely capacity get bed relapsed got quote termination cant afford probably it feel selfish horrible cant four months this worst feeling world everything feels bleak hopeless meaningless want life back cant even afford get life back,1 +rosenstrasse margarethe von trotta blends two stories create vibrant tapestry love courage film depicts family drama estrangement mother daughter story german women staged protest rosenstrasse free jewish husbands certain extermination addition dramatization historical events focus film saving child holocaust german result childs experience losing mother ms von trotta shows courage small number germans made difference use excuse german society indeed shows midst torture extermination wealthy artists intellectuals german high society went lives parties oblivious sufferingbr br rosenstrasse opens new york jewish widow ruth weinstein jutta lampe decides sit shiva sevenday period mourning takes place following funeral jewish family members devote full attention remembering mourning deceased daughter hannah maria schrader forbidden receive phone calls fianc luis fedja van huet nonjew hannah questions mother suddenly decided follow orthodox tradition previously rejected ruth coldly rejects cousin hannah questions learns woman named lena took ruth child latters mother deported murdered nazis vows find lena discover secret mothers pastbr br her quest takes berlin finds lena doris schade ninety years old interviews pretext journalist researching certain aspects holocaust unfailing memory lena tells story how young year old woman katja reimann searched husband jewish pianist fabian israel fischer martin feifel disappeared presumed imprisoned despite protection normally given jews mixed marriages lena radiant performance reimann discovers husband jews held prisoner former factory rosenstrassebr br standing together freezing night german women whose husband missing congregate outside building numbers growing daily reach one thousand shouting give us back husbands lena finds ruth svea lohde young girl whose mother building takes care her protecting gestapo raising mother killed lena comes aristocratic german family brother recently returned stalingrad wehrmacht officer refused help father free fabian enlists aid brother tells fellow officer i know jews saw it given support bold enough bypass channels go top beauty charm prove irresistible minister culture joseph goebbels known womanizer fictional part film criticized degrading women protesters historical fact goebbels active making decisions affecting rosenstrassebr br the director margarethe von trotta activist feminist intellectual stranger political drama directed film socialist rosa luxembourg marianne julianne story relationship two sisters one resorts political violence accomplish liberal objectives rosenstrasse film worked eight years make compromises adding present day fictional element order film produced works well tribute ms von trottas artistry beautiful screenplay pamela katz whose father refugee leipzig events rosenstrasse give lie germans say there nothing could do von trotta shown opposite true something could done resist nazis tragic example catch on,0 +shining rose gold street like hobos filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +kinda long story playing among us saw someone go vent sure color called emergency meeting said pink realized wait get wrong could get launched said white teal made excuse colorblind see exactly next games played color blind guy get launched lol tldrplayed among us color blind guy dont seem sus,0 +never behaved like this clue happening really scared mind spiraling really dark place beginning overthink everything nothing makes sense anymore useless boring human ever existed planet feel fucking isolated everyone everything like even really here feel like someone living life instead me everyone pretends care really give fuck could trust people cannot even trust myself sabotaging happiness making things worse fucking thoughts promised would never try hurt yet am knife hand cuts bruises body feel like turning completely fucking insane idk do idk distract myself make stop want stop thinking miss numb think turning insane,1 +tell themi want tell friends family im afraid try stop me want die want life end feel selfish telling life good plan dying next week dont know do,1 +write wordbr br what see get really madhur bhandarkars brave brilliant page destroy myth attached glam glitterati colour pages newspapers whose livesread party habits follow maniacal fervour intrinsic voyeuristic streak explain br br the page phenomenon deplorable enigmatic exactly gain control printed word start encroach front page subject another debate bhandarkar cleverly avoids that concerned mechanisms grotesque existence that pieces together various elements way life like robert altmanalthough im comparing bhandarkar altmans genius bhandarkar uses myriad characters motive whether page wannabe nri gatecrashers newlyrich upcoming model socialite politician erotic novella authoress characters introduced objective separate charactersketch even parts may miniscule therein lays films appeal br br konkona sen sharma plays madhavi sharma young talented journalist covers page nation today initially content job soon begins see ugliness underbelly covered fake cosmetic profligacy bhandarkar resists temptation make subject moralpolicing movie avoids concentrating one character alone hence movie madhavi also equally deepak suriboman irani madhavis editor passively accepts role cog larger machinery anjali thaparsoni razdan socialite suffocating social pollution abhijeetrehan engineer homosexual makeup artist madhavis roommates pearlsandhya mridul sassy airhostess gayatritara sharmaan aspiring actress seems like impossible task assimilate many charactersand more one story full credit nina arora manoj tyagi penning tight screenplay dialogues sanjeev datta bhandarkar written great attention detail br br any narrative matter good fall flat lack genuine performances thankfully page brims actors stars konkona goes authorbacked role effortless ease ditto boman sandhya mridul gets best written part almost overdoes it atul kulkarni wasted though underwritten character times director seems keen incorporate much possiblepaedophilia homosexuality etc contexts used make look rushed br br ultimately bhandarkars attempt satiate voyeurism takes step further takes us inside photographs exposes us gruesome realities sect humanity strangely seems living different remote world people indulged newyears revelry hundred kilometers away fellow countrymen ravaged natures ferocity clever writing skillfully incorporated songs able performances genuine feeling sincerity make film worthy spite lack finesse poor production values page optimum way enter new year cinemabr br abhishek bandekarbr br rating br br poor average good good excellentbr br th january ,0 +feel really alone want help know dohi all sorry sorta dumb confusing know else do past week so ive feeling really suicidal ive therapy past nine years im tired alive raised single bipolar verbally abusive mom died fourteen ive abused assaulted physically sexually throughout life want pain anymore abandoned moved foster home foster home really wanted place family found home supposedly loved wanted eventually decided two years much forced facility within span night facility watched members staff get attacked assaulted forced body inspections whenever left facility generally awful time people threatened tried murder wish upon anyone leaving facility found home seemed love me family could potentially call own thought life going well everything order had wonderful amazing partner loves cares me group friends supported family loved me recently come change told parent would never dad let alone parent would never trust me going partner find emergency housing subsequently needing find temporary permanent housing stressful involved around time relationship problems started communication great really anyone involved even though weve progressively gotten better things not were constantly stressed even look afraid i done nothing significant enough deserve this even know why addition parents small little foster brother children got pretty intense car accident two days ago thats also big factor feel im scared know do want end life pain everything confusing know do ive tried calling hotlines talking friends not partner everything took mental health day school uni today cant anymore know do please help ,1 +anyone wanna talk title says im jst kinda bored,0 +elon musk really single handedly supporting educational system ampxb processing img ibizcaua,0 +would really love job obvious reasons wanna kind weird amazing friendship someone three times age like hey wheres hans seen elephanthugger day someone like oh broke hip morning falling stairs fourstoryvilla rush hospital find lying bed eating pudding absolutely vibing regional news hospital television ill like hans hell like steve hug were happy hes okay kinda forgot broke hip lean bit kinda hurt laugh were great friends knows clumsy sometimes be men simpel dreams right,0 +losti hate even feel way many people life love me outside im sure life looks fine feeling lost alone anxiety charts every day struggle want die cant live way anymore im really fucking tired,1 +throwaway think make next daysi life roller coaster cannot take anymore started college two years ago time life started relationship would first girlfriend things went while came back down finished year gpa depression leaving school friends summer combined enter long distance relationship girlfriend occured one year ago month affected job years camp counselor love working children passion job anymore depression got point affected job performance hired back summer diagnosed officially depression last august put medication never followed psychiatrist fall brought controlling behavior end regret fully understand wrong ok anyway so parent boss acted girlfriend never again december last year broke u third final time mess sent three angry text messages never threatened hurt her regret messages er suicidal times month end month asked girlfriend meet talk said no thaat night climbed ladder next apartment window knocked it never attention break in hoping would come outside realize wrong called police parents picked rushed hosital cops could get me admitted self psych ward stayed days diagnosed bipolar found wrong medication before months left hopsital set go back school past spring continue education major filed harrament tresspassing warning entereed database told would record go back skibum winter dream always had fun many nights spent alone knowing friends life many people liked considered good friend minutes away would text asking come visit not would taken one thing warning would become criminal would record unable work kids contacted anyone since night knocked window life seemed head again came home reconnected every friend blew last summer due depression got job working kids finished first week past week running background check cops said notices would show up local station entered database made clear phone stressed everyday show lose job signed lease apartment good friends fall school estactic thought back longer going back plan anyway days ago found ex filed protection abuse order me knew planning attending school fall months since called police contact anyone her want nothing her go court days there going back school help case certain thrown contacted able say going back important note contacted weeks got hospital respond made descion go back leave behind friends due mess sucks broke heart track attend school again not days see her angry past understand called police want see ever scared death see her gained pounds worked winter look good still scared see dont want bring back bad memories ten days find order thrown away finally move live life peace never see hear again order permanent go record ruin chance becoming teacher helping kids life goal scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant go work next handful days give best cant let affect cost another job affable benign thoughtful compassionate made mistake regreet learned it want live life scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant great this cant handle stress anxiety next ten days want see her dont know do,1 +rough life start with years old birthday less month turn today way home movies dropping friend pouring backing ran large rock size large basketball realize timeso drove home smelled burning got home saw rock still lodged underneath car destroying radiator key components believe totaled would third car totaled past years father extremely redflaged think ever let drive car again redflaged college well little desire continue due lack able focus money recently girl love left got new guy still think every day know kills me nothing want live anymore seriously considering ending life cannot deal redflag anymore want free feel like financial burden family feel like future feel like never find love again eyes nothing know would hurt family would save lot money redflag long run many real friends talk to close family members listen like trapped myself cannot take anymore think really going this cannot take anymore need help driving isane think time,1 +listen fools this o lt wave basically like saying hello this o lt like putting arms air like celebrating basically this o lt salute this john cena lt invisible dont know even managed type name wow,0 +ur tinker free day yesterday less headache also whatd miss lol,0 +im sick covid really want see friends im semi mental breakdown everything im usually type person feels better sorting issues alone really need see people irl im seriously losing it talk everyday saw person back november need sort ground give reality check fucking hate,0 +whats im girl one care but titles see see actual girls sub people keep saying this trying make people mad genuinely wondering,0 +redflag lifeline chat useless even offeredi cant phone conversations im desperate point waiting endless endless queues chat ive waited nearly hours total today two different sessions ive waited least hours day last two days never made front line bit ago course minutes position line finally went right had step away computer could stare screen anymore notification ping nothing missed it ive waited long im desperate finally called line hear hung panic attack ampxb even offer service wait times bad cant imagine many people crisis may kill see option never get in understand,1 +mother says im worthlessmy mom never misses chance tell worthless am definitely shows opinion except course wants something herso whats point mean one person supposed love forever hates hell point living ive hanging thread entire life im give up im fucking it,1 +throwaway friends colleagues know main reddit also sorry right subredditampxbto start pretty good upbringing almost problems all went school without much trouble parents good me really nothing complain about but feel joy anything all hobbys feel mundane like everything else quickly get annoyed drained able hangout friends alone long thoughts get deep sometimes get suicidal going sometimedespite covid rampaging around could find somewhat decent paying job drowned work could think all colleague somewhat close friend worried working much honest mind it made clear really living work past year recently made promotion supervising position frankly much me miss old work much trigger anything inside me anything sort left bittersweet feeling nutshell year old normal upbringing reason joy life goal all,1 +writing something positive day day ive started taking notes digitally ipad converting ones paper ipad love much much easier make everything look good make better diagrams make writing legible neat digitally love today hung friends school were boarding school pretty covid safe spend hours walking around campus went vending machine pretty nice,0 +notive felt like failure years now peaking got lost job within week match required pace bullshit system despite much try im useless everything even video games supposed fun nothing except reminder complete ineptitude everything move different state family because im shitty living own lost girlfriend stupid was parents listen keep guilting death would make feel im tired it know reason want live thats card left unfortunately workable plan used live half hour redflag bridge us now know could do im much coward slit wrists im shitty knots hang myself,1 +pandemic made cullwith pandemic ai digital social requirements function feels like really designed ongoing cull going on,1 +wish endim done im fucking exhausted fighting brain live honest dont even want anymore people say im kind opened heart ive used atm lot money dont ever see getting back ive blocked said person borrowed money ask mom borrow money havent done ages shows im useless hate debt anyone especially mom works damn hard money medication made fat dont know shift it absolutely zero motivation literally move bed go downstairs watch tv want slim pretty again sharp objects taken away crave release feeling blade across skin family told disappointed self harm cut im cutting ive pushed friends family away wish could go euthanised everyone favour im fat ugly mess cant even look mirror im disgusted myself medication increased months back isnt working ive saving up getting courage end want pain stop please whichever higher power may there kill end suffering,1 +toi le venin robert hosseins masterpieceand one great thrillers fiftiesbased frederic dard novela writer director often worked see also le montecharge hossein direct lead toothe screenplay grabs first pictures desert road night beautiful blonde might fieriest criminals mysterious house finds femme fatale and sisterthen begins cat mouse play one sisters wheelchair but really disabledwhich one criminal tried kill hero night br br the two actressesmarina vlady late odile versois sistersbr br turn lights watchinghighly suspenseful,0 +would wear cold winter hey guys recommend cool shoes wear cold winter c f clue look good freezy maybe boys girls live canada scandinavia ,0 +time future many aware it day now final movie legendary actor edward g robinson solent green becomes landmark classic many film buff environmentalist believe eventual history movie taken novel entitled make room make room whos working title changed solent green story concerns earth evolves future worlds environmental problems becoming nothing short catastrophic planets natural resources exhausted basic food reduced simple staples come variety colors solent yellow solent red solent green however know real ingredient solent green cringe culpability fear divine retribution first food executive named william r simonson joseph cotton upon death dedicated police detective called robert thorn charleston heston seeks truth behind apparent suicide although corruption goes way top begins simonsons bodyguard tad fielding chuck connors security chief donnovan roy jenson target thorn waste desposal factory thorns boss lt hatcher brock peters believes suspicions warns higher hot want case closed thorn risk job easy way out thorn discovers marks death like film awaits final warning ,0 +dont care people cry diethey get it living give others satisfaction safety without feeling hell end everyones alone,1 +id rather kill disappoint family killing disappoint familylife fair wish family love me theres many people deserve loving families one universe waste love me want love want die,1 +lmao im still contemplating whether confess feeling lucky bastard im crushing sub havent even seen face fuck theyre cute attractive skme reason id literally lose comment post theyre kinda active afaik,0 +nextthe thing getting convincing need christmas want christmas tell im needed christmas that what new years survive nothing close enough needed want given many times im fed,1 +enjoyable batman animated film par return joker mask phantasm solid nonetheless liked movie kept guessing batwoman was nice twist nice action sequences ive always opinion batman cartoons better pitiful batman live action film sequels trend continues herebr br ,0 +redflagthe difference barely hanging submitting entirely darkness shockingly small whim decision let go look hopeless despair like staring man whos foot one deep landmine noisy yet silence night unbearably deafening seductive air still quiet hear ticking counting eventual demise post probably going buried amongst sea suicidal people sharing similar fates yet different walks life wonderand wonderand wonderwhat world look like im gone like detonating emotional nuclear bomb readily wipe surrounding you devastating lethal experience affects keep living point choosing kill myself greatest control myself consciously choosing clearest either or life either live die somewhat greatly comforting heartwarming know everything life fall apart except conscious decision decide final outcome,1 +teacher wont stop teaching hasnt told us assessed nobody guts speak cos online lesson smh,0 +first time im actually calm redflagi raped recently changed life worst see way out feel like one loves enjoys around deserved rape stupid piece shit want go home want pursue future anymore im calm dying want ever now hope cant happy one would care died,1 +slowly surrendering thought never completely happy even know writing this watching football match italy uk everyone cheering teams victory felt lost touch like everything slowing around me could feel anything seeing everyone happy made feel much pain thought never reach anything like made feel scared terribly devastated wanted express feelings someone life anyone could really understand lot empathetic faces smile one really knows feels feel tears eyes breath caught throat thought ending non stop mind know ever it want hurt anybody making others happy continue suffer inside sorry badly written mind fog right now much feel need say little actually say feel defeated giving up,1 +will update noteshey uhh im still alive unluckily stop drinking like addict yeah know im talking about link here httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsqcpmmy_will feeling good ive suicidal depressed nobody help,1 +every while eddie murphy surprise youbr br in movie like the golden child especially movie figure would star maybe harrison ford kurt russell someone eddie really work hes smart hes funny hes brave kind courteous thrifty clean everything else hero bebr br having chosen secure mystic child holds key protecting world complete evil embodied perfectly dance eddie goes california nepal back beautiful kee nang lewis wonders hes says crazy old holy man wong perfect always knows isbr br its exciting breathtaking spots shocking and course funny eddie action hero know could begin movie making rude remarks behind guy reading porno magazine end smartaleck remarks ed mcmahonbr br no problem child golden findbr br nine stars viva nepal,0 +getting help made worseive seeing therapist psychiatrist quite now latest psych appointment recommended local mental health facility partial hospitalization program doctor broke patient confidentiality told mom im btw suicidal thoughts made take away knife room made appointment mental health place go get assessment done place thats gets much worse counselor went even told mom selfharm ive selfharming years never thought family would find it hit like truck know look differently now mom even cried entire ride home anyway want program course america expensive mom says want it need take money college fund would take half funds id left college really want program ive already emailed summer activity teacher canceled that made sad since senior year ive activity high school far late take back though wish mom told college funds let quit that decide getting treatment keeping college fund deciding factor really whether think keep safe summer thing is really know whole thing family finding everythingi honestly nothing lose anymore want major zoology work animals college career know going everything worth it end killing anyway even all treatment id debt rest life already would keeping funds dont know mom wont help look options like doesnt want get help truly money her im sure theres programs would work better family basically broke get coming shes even trying find options maybe try kill ill get forced hospitalization someone pay anyway whole thing making suicidal anything live anymore might well spend college funds since ill probably dead time college rolls around anyway idk im looking advice since really hard situation in thanks read whole thing kind long lmao,1 +share mental breakdown playlist mine im disappointment httpsopenspotifycomplaylistjoixbcbpbxvpyccqaesiqjhxoesriqyl_rgqafg,0 +finished watching film found enjoyable quiet little film overwhelm special effects big performances simply takes lives people living small hamlet backwoods north carolina br br henry thomas gives good performance raymond toker young loner finds baby abandoned woods tokers search babys parents takes journey profound impact life david srathairn plays truman lester slimy conman ulterior motive david plays bad guy perfection br br there much film first meets eye filmed location north carolina wonderful sound track traditional music worth watching,0 +wanna die step dad raped mei dont really know tell im boy makes whole situation awkward im thinking ways end right now,1 +every one hold fuck yeezys went sale fuck happening usualy go ,0 +even harassed sometimes users comments posts madelike fucking mental annoying thing encounter here even happening me,1 +boys ate taco bell blow bathroom oh also finally got gf,0 +feeling giant mental breakdown coming past days ever since mom started shit last week got sociopath something bc truly feels remorse sympathy anyone herself crazy gaslighter always makes feel like everything fault know not anyway abundance issues started dad unexpectedly passed away last year think due immense amount redflag grief upsetting bc health issues take much life away physical limitations strict diet restrictions hard adjustment especially hitting time able handle tho mom starts shit me get triggered break way down extremely upset due this writing list reasons hate life literally middle writing mom walks door starts shit me shaking feel paranoid even delusional like losing touch reality upset memories past year come flooding back stuck cannot get break,1 +parents good people still depressed try help buying nice things making food giving company despite presence feel shitty time got really scared depression got worse started trying therapy medication etc ideas feel like gave up do tried best kill myself kill myself still spoil nice gestures sense urgency gone death sad event move from know happen cannot fix money food cares is even deserve ask them parents gave,1 +realized recently im alone thought diagnosed adhd explained trouble focusing things hadnt realized recently also caused problems diagnosed parents didnt treat seriously barely done anything help also made think wasnt really issue throughout middle school grades straight ds cs parents werent helping anyway instead lectured everyday irresponsible which mostly true caused stressed already social life wasnt much better either constantly felt like talking much felt like people didnt like talking me eventually grew habit saying sorry every time talking someone felt like annoyed them ended lot also trouble mood swings would commonly make people look immature child made feel extremely excluded continued years diagnosed week ago browsing youtube saw video tiktoks talking adhd click start watching it watch see people talking troubles adhd felt strong relief knew crying long thought lot things trouble personality thought something wrong entire time saw people problem me made realize im alone know lot dont care please treat adhd real mental illness something make quirky crack head energy real issue treated one tldr adhd caused problems thought personal found part adhd take adhd serious,0 +something amazing happened boys think ex unblocked number wont respond still prolly hates one step closer wanting kill,0 +sore thumbive started writing notes everyone care even dont ive completed eight full notes less hour sore thumb first thing ive able feel almost year depression physical pains oddly enough im actually satisfied whole ordeal,1 +uwu time uwu time vewy gay uwu,0 +wanna left alone want isolated every living thing fucking planet theyre driving crazy im close fucking snapping rn want left alone,0 +kill myselfim years old sick life living im going end life,1 +guys im deep shit supposed leave school went back sleep ,0 +know options are think want die life worth itthis working im depressed years now always tried work think way it redflag come mind before ive always convinced option tried im convinced anymore family go myself personality hurts people able change personality years ive tried seems best interest everyone disappear even friends still care keep going on theyll get estranged lack communication maybe wonder happened side thought years now main emotion adolescence hatred parents told gay horrible gays die said theyd rather one kids die leave religion years later came gay told believe god that hatred towards parents making feel way im tired now exhausting gets point direction go,1 +im scared might lose friend again cat sick past days im really scared cause ate anything since last saturday body temperatures going cold im scared lose another friend hes one sweetest cats household cant bare lose him planned going vent sadly sister work school works deal deadlines getting closer closer hope gets better us making drink water sake hes goner lil bro sad know think anymore guess ill update maybe days im sure hope gains strength back sorry long,0 +finding alone bad placehey guess im gonna spill story here read it big deal feel like head explode put tho life always kinda sucked bad tho people immensly worse really nothing complain about always roof head family that always weird kid never fit in overly emotional loud odd one out course easy target bullying life everyone told high school would better course high school mostly except fact found friends say quotes never truly apart group unless planned something invited always forgotten left out senior year got really close people group friends even though best days life also toxic encouraged others depressed feelings made feel worse never told redflag attempt time attempt made rethink life try turn around happier bit better finding things liked course lonlier ive ever confident okay person am started come lot try help people out wanting feel better made feel like purpose even may insignificant im complete spiral depression im life im done it future one nothing feel like sitting writing long note ending maybe im coming melodramatic maybe im numb everything know need someone talk world one cant keep ,1 +nonstop action every conceivable and inconceivable scifihorror cliche found blatantly silly fun bigbudget epic pace never lets up especially shorter us version tightens things considerably,0 +something terrible happened today boys havent stepped game girls taken best friends list snapchat isnt good,0 +dad fucking simp dad fucking simp hate it always rants woman come first men second multiple occasions simps woman sees woman road struggling jumps help her sees man nothing believe everyone equal wrong simps more,0 +guys ever dream falling love someone know doesnt matter crush ever dream fell love someone even dream like sex crush genuinely fell love ive bunch feels good wake takes like minutes realize dream feel super sad point almost tears know none asked dont care call pussy dreams genuinely great wake up wish crush anyone would like back example one last night crush said liked me told id like get know would fine dated bunch stuff together id say dreams happy ive ever felt life im saying pity either wanna vent dont even care many people see want least one person see maybe even relate it,0 +done lifeim tired im feeling nothing regret failure depression overall point know find sometime future feel even care id rather move on im scared hurt want to im considering it especially want bring family down thats thought keeping alive right now fear thought fade away love them fucking hate life,1 +anything live fori mean dramatic way thinking even trying used friends less dwindled one i anything people stopped tolerating me grades shit know could get as actually tried im fucking depressed time care get bullied everyday actually enjoy anything more ive never relationship never even kissed someone im tired it im sick crippling loneliness bother living is,1 +whats point trying reach help one obligated help youi know people issues deal with always hear no one owes anything or one obligated help you okay one obligated help cant kill peace then im asking everyone world stop help want people show empathy second sayit get better want fake positivity want empathy used reach people would get people manipulating calling selfish getting attitude would complain cant even vent im myself friends family ive wanting end life,1 +tired continue pointeverything pulling down im fifteen go school twice week that mute transgender taking meds anymore none helped all community service next week becoming addict cant deal stress anymore spent today writing notes people care me know everyones going hurt im already hurting making stand watch life falls apart think less painful forcing see that want hope theres something peaceful death probably not butwho knows know im going yet im thinking overdosing imagine least agonizing im sure im typing really suppose one last days record degree comforting hope everyone finds peace point life thing time around xoe out,1 +send artwork portfolio interested writing samples also provided choose fine receiving portion funds beginning work rest everything completed paypal transactions preferred thanks reading merry christmas,1 +tears eyes pain heart thought would feel better day went on convinced brother stay friends weekend posted earlier roffmychest things gone depressing almost unbearable sitting room nearly hours contemplating long funk go on ive lost anything eat shower leave ive done nothing today sob crawl ball recently put best friend wonderful german shepard cancer age months diagnosis final vet told truth help anymore felt awful prolonging pain im grown man met end rope job unrewarding im able make ends meet feels like day goes find behind ive tried make everyone happy holiday things know cant afford ive maxed credit cards paying bills buying gifts bring joy others ive told everyone thing want xmas mother father love again blew tire car dropping brother friends alone side street pulled lug wrench began change tire rain grip nut slipped dug knuckles asphalt frustrated sat sidewalk sobbed shivering put smile face finish changing spare get back car know days know cant anymore,1 +incredibly lonelyi surprised someone actually texted today turned automated message dentist got looking messages talked anyone months im isolated im anything life im tired want here anyone cares point still here,1 +please break fathers heart so daughter would fit here live shes living now ill always think teenager text pretty often usually text things like songs memes think shell like texted song youtube recommended me really enjoyed thought shed enjoy texted back oh ive heard song love it tiktok let parents find use tiktok like this dad sends song thinks kids listening to tell tiktok know knowing half battle go joe,0 +video games look hella fun jejssjjjjsjjoaooaoaowozjznznznznsjsjjjsjd,0 +feel wayfor passed week felt alone want cry talk anyone feel empty know take life self harm hate feeling hope passes soon,1 +wanna fucking kill myselftheres nothing else say id better dead,1 +ex pisses alright go gonna fun background asked friend ive known since kindergarten gf january said yes proceeded break valentines day didnt speak months asked friend mine tell wanted talk talked bit said sorry wasnt best frame mind call bullshit that didnt really talk while decided id try work things out thought persistent messaging twice roughly every three four days started getting little chill this around thanksgiving asked thanksgiving said going cousins house asked couple days later thanksgiving was blocked me ever run her really wanna make pay tldr ex broke valentines day talked couple times next months blacked polite hasnt talked since,0 +best pizza toppings like mine sausage green pepper favorite toppings,0 +last words fthank support messages longer handle pain ive lost everybody around me goodbye,1 +caution potential spoilers aheadbr br steven spielberg presents tiny toon adventures always one favorite cartoons growing heck still is movie perfectly captures everything love show puts fulllength formbr br beautifully animated tokyo movie shinsa studio wb outsourced every tiny toons project best studio handle show movie starts end school year acme looniversity renowned cartoon college buster babs bunny no relation teenage toon peers learn masters animated lunacy looney tunes final bell movie splits five different plots buster engages babs water gun fight culminates bursting dam tidal wave sending buster babs elmyras dog byron downriver overturned picnic table search adventure deep south plucky duck talks hamton pig family letting come happyworldland the happiest place western hemisphere put excruciating car ride threat chainsawwielding hitchhiker elmyras cat furball finally runs away dauntednot plenty aminals play acme safari park fifi la fume devotes summer hunting heartthrob movie star johnny pew hopes getting autograph course hotel hes staying nearly impenetrable shirley mcloon sets fortune telling booth acme acres boardwalkand lets guard day fowlmouth takes see horror flick skunkophobiabr br all story lines sidesplittingly hilarious even overlap end complaint movie make full use tiny toons roster dizzy devil mary melodie one scene gogo dodo appears beginning end film montana max sweetie calamity coyote little beeper nowhere found still theyre excusable flaws otherwise perfect film movie pretty rare today since years old never released dvd knowledge highly suggest track anyone whos fan warner bros animation either classic contemporary needs see movie,0 +struggling high functioning depressionits weird days im fine happy fine bad days shit start feeling suicidal again tonight one nights sleep hours skip bathing school therefore one thinks im struggling naturally force happy around others dare burden shit never ask people help one wants hear ramblings feel shitty even though good family friends constantly distracted video games music something prevent silence im online late hours night pass exhaustion reason descended complete apathy want disappoint parents already have ive already go therapy past play sports instruments grades even starting slip away gone ill nothing left one days theyre gonna find dead would fault much coward ask help,1 +mom made fun gf face hate gf dad came house once could hang me last name happens rhyme jerking well yknow basically mom called insert name jerkingoff mom would beat shit her day lost respect mom,0 +alright know what fuck people responded dodgers post rdodgers like dodgers all seriously people sub reddit mean want know im talking look recent post there thought people liked dodgers supposed cool people wanted know photo instead helping me fucking people decided make fun me one single mother fucker could give straight answer except nice lady direct messaged me everyone else go fuck themselves couldnt answer simple question went way make fun fan wanted know person was someone even insulted taste hairstyles feel sorry fucking losers call fans guys bunch fucking jerks,0 +happened anyone else ive unknowingly listened song repeat past hour im wondering happened anyone else,0 +recently feel like ive dishonest honestly disappointed myself like instead studying always want open new tab start watching youtube even playing game sometimes even realize yet keep it like anyway change,0 +wow wonderful film script nearly perfect appears film written minglun weii hope stories himbr br the acting sublime renying zhou doggie amazing natural talent xu zhu delight believable jaded old traditionalist br br the soundtrack effective guiding without overwhelming br br if movies like made whether hollywood hong kong family friendly well acted well written well directed near perfect gem,0 +homie checkpoint,0 +tender beautifully crafted production delved deep bitter sweet being irreverent pupils life embittered bus driver teachers personalities present subliminal debate story unveils adult characters seem familiar teachers bus driver one opinions plausible well known key incident happens bus sent circuit viewpoints time babble teenage energy kept control organisers trip mr harvey experiencing much pain throughout reminds war damaged teachers understand irreverent pupilbr br rhidian brook producers deserve much acclaim well shaped british film acting unblemished scenes appropriate widely available yet seem given right opportunity,0 +attack helicopter want equality girl awards guy awards expecting anything though nice day,0 +movie shows federal pigs persons government powermad threats real life lot recommend mebr br alas script supervision editing even times directing flawed people disparage whole movie ignore good momentsbr br i saw original way back new hated it despised it loathed it thought terrible irrational piece junkbr br now though remember whybr br i believe two compared even connectedbr br consider two different moviesbr br rate two different moviesbr br this vanishing point provides rallying place banner people want encourage individualism believe human rights recognize threat freedom government is especially federal governmentbr br the voice wears cap bearing state motto new hampshire live free die one time would motto americansbr br despite obvious flaws vanishing point film cheer,0 +sadly dead yet please pray die sleep tonightthank dead yet,1 +help u speedrun life made promise id live so please help fuck make go faster srs,0 +guys think found perfect girl might chance need maneuver carefully started wrong foot,0 +ich bringe mich umhallo zu mir ein paar worte ich habe meine ausbildung verkackt mein leben wie kann ich mich schmerzlos umbringen ich kann nicht mehr,1 +im happy satisfied life still want end it make weaki cant talk anyone want think cry help that get chest content life feel like best living behind me im turning year never thought id make here turning young know always believed destined die young often think killing myself i feel sorry myself kind way believe best days behind want die old want people remember earlys version distant memory used semisuccessful musician signed record label people line hours get shot tv hit big wanted growing sign particular label it music went successful career marketing love job people get say make good living things need life loved girl years things ended years ive dated lot girls since everything really shallow unfulfilling believe society crafted attitude loving person loving offer cynical know honestly believe girl consider love life really pinnacle me comes to best days behind im sad ive come accept life goes people look see face value laugh smile lot reading probably built image head me probably look like imagine wear black quiet opposite actually risk sounding like total dick im actually good looking guy dark cynical thoughts bury head want attention like people knowing good guy smiles lot want leave earth admit thing keeps alive fact took life would devastate family great upbringing family amazing cant help think would blame took life cant leave knowing death would hurt much made life conflicted know friends would get family never would knowing still stop thought tough walk bridge think i wish could jump stand bridge disrupt traffic allowing someone save life love heights always close hopping railing free fall breathing breathing outand splash relief say redflag weak easy way cowards cant say always case way end things terms one thing right selfish thing keeping around,1 +really thinking getting ran shredded train reading seems pretty foul proof seems like much wrongi afraid jump bridge survive whole body broken happened holy even know would pointeveryday getting harder harder literally snap life fucking hate life much everyone ask why reason needed bullshit life calledsorry rantting honestly want kill self every fucking second goes by hate wake still alive want dead bad wuss so honestly better way kill myself getting hit train jumping bridge,1 +closer every dayim m always edge now bipolar diagnosed since mom though mostly manic last couple years honestly hard mom talk since look much like dad kinda forgets time im him used see psychiatrist therapist ever call always get confused shes says im going hurry stop wasting time money every time ask therapist number make appointment glock hiding ac vent trying figure im counselor summer finishes cuz doubt kids remember go missing made new account friends know reddit name dont want stay behind college cuz,1 +always peoples last optionwish joking,1 +want hold biti seriously considering sticking knife neck today sudden broke crying afraid dying foolish it theres nothing holding back yet thought want kill right now want hold while want wait im actually ready this im sure decision fuck embarrassing breaking tears watching tv goddammit im coward,1 +everyone know tired sad time decided want turn life around kill myself stop wanting to thoughts suicide constant me cannot kill myself stop thoughts stop feeling like this,1 +write poem roses red uwu inside im dead owo,0 +hesitant inpatienti honestly would prefer point sister mother love much cant dealt much cant them much want escape worry slip impulsively it anyone dealt putting front trying this,1 +angry sad want scream cry want hurt myself break something cannot fucking handle thisi hate fact still waiting therapy originally waiting hear scheduling learned counselors could handle schedulei work till pm monfri supervisor said make work matter what opened schedule think going hear anything back themi need way cope emotions want able cope used think could getting hit every direction realize handle break hurt myself promised would again know doi tried watching youtube tried smoking vape would considering trying play games probably punch laptop go walk end punching wall make work life harder since need hands even considered writing poetry coming head fuuuck want something regret cannot even jerk off porn free now use imagination would probably rip dick off sitting here numb feeling once scrolling reddit even reading posts barely feel arms considering going getting pack afraid use cope once use cope end sad lonely drunk actually try kill myselfi got nothing right now cannot even talk friends this secretsnot mine cannot know even talked someone would probably understand try twist things around argue actually happened need that need feel better head fucking noisy,1 +feeling bit down need someone talk feeling great now need someone talk while,0 +feel like im readyi feeling dumps past months sick tired manic episodes depression comes after dont know do quitting law school still gets even almost month since dont like facing family aunt always updating cousins friends doing would always share stories success peers family members leaving feeling like complete shit try smile still engage conversation every then exhausting getting work choregetting chore dont like job feel like im sticking around family thinks im happy think im good it im neither im tired work already underperforming dont people talk this friends think im okay saying im stressed family doesnt believe mental health sister tells could fix dont fckn know start tonight laughed hung family moment felt happy looked im thankful think im ready go now,1 +another useless rant school disney themed show speechless aladdin singing years im finding difficult sing voice kinda sore today voice always quite deep girl work extra hard high notes thank coming another useless rant,0 +think past self everyday hurts go feel like person used,1 +officially well good luck figuring need information wanna say reddit really helpfull great distraction shit mind oh boy shouldve known badly year would effect mental health cares going ignore birthday lowkey hope someone remember what probably isnt case covid good reason excuse giving sweet party mean nobody wouldve come anyway wont awkward low key hope find girlfriend actual real non toxic friends become something would really help loneliness mean understand hated tho yea told year ago fucked year would probably already killed myself wish get lot happier social next year happy birthday wont be ill working spend rest time alone room thats fine guess used oh happy birthday people saw sub share birthdays ima gonna sleep,0 +know one caresa weeks ago went home ended going back old high school program visit instructors younger students hadnt graduated yet formed good relationships with first thing said go get stuff walked instructors classroom saw one first time nearly year forgotten get tshirt ordered graduated kept bc expensive ship never told me went saw students program first thing said wish like minutes ago couldve gotten us dairy queen instead us order it like know wouldve picked bc im pushover im someone people use idk ill ever go back im state college wont even option ill try kms go back half dozen tries different things dont even hope relief shitstorm live,1 +cant iti keep trying kill myself want need bitching it why im tired this,1 +wish someone would call mei havent feeling good would nice hear someones voice dont alone usually put music trying im overstimulated racing thoughts mania moment since havent sleeping want hear someone tell day maybe ask mine,1 +want gunif gun would easy dont want go pain method bad cant get one im like bc checked hospital would rather die go see relatives tomorrow christmas get boring ass new years,1 +f planning kill sooner later whats best way make look like accident rather redflagi cant dad also cant live world anymore terrible terrible person everyone school hates literally friends literally one would miss ugly irritating ass including myself please painless excruciating dont give damn make gone myself free everyone horrendous presence thank you,1 +point survivingthats im doing surviving existing merely going necessary processes live biological level every person must find way given journey cant make walk cant change neurochemistry cant find reason live me cant find myself sought respite selfless service found unsatisfactory sought respite expressing artistically creative endeavors soon went gray keep seeking even small steps one simple reason snuff light better exhausted ideals better walked many paths dissatisfaction deciding purpose ideal galvanize live life living surviving,1 +movie using cinematography fantastically depth camera catches character denzel washington kevin kline put awesome performances though washingtons accent die certain scenes movie laying forgotten unable rent hire recent times threatens lost forever worrying idea attenborough best since ghandi master piece stands movies these worrying gaining audiences rather cry freedom south african apartheidthough critised biased nature movie faithful book donald woods faithful message intended express world ta peace,0 +want much you please take care bipolar strike like snake warning easily triggered beastly yelling rage maniahappiness somewhere cant sleep forced use everything known mankind force sleep talent ever yet think desire much failure everywhere anytime try fix go doctor step forward always steps pushed back denied disability court jan health insurance year working still nothing even got go doctor chances getting drug would work could still work would erase fact live since alienated everyone cant stay am enough money go anywhere options backed corner today day planning done alienating complete bankruptcy discharged close enough medical insurance still new improved snail mail zero concerns thats fall tried everything failed doesnt matter took responsibility gave tried failed told doctors therapists years racing mind could sleep doesnt help blame blame doesnt matter anymore hurt much numb cant think write want explain many times mind comes never sounds right years suffering would keep happening many people system doesnt work read many times young people know grandmothers died age said didnt get treatment have lot worked work well forced work drugged side effects family empathy ive said goodbye bed shower many last special meals nothing seems special anymore thats it ballot mail box hope dems wins last thoughts sat one came stop me expecting anything different except real ending finally thank memes lot good people there love other forgive can try seek revenge mental illness terrible get help soon can know someone suffering need help isolating let them die,1 +loved last year remember thing last new year posted selfies boost selfconfidence again,0 +dont want support want someone listen acknowledge sayim bad person narcissistic also time selfdeprecating piece shit im fat unhygienic unmanly horrible personality people like call friend dont know standards super low what wish heart tell much appreciate fact like me wish would ignore go better friends time feels like knife going chest see talk people im selfish need approval even wont much get jealous see men around me theyre confident responsible beaten lot uncles kid tell one feels remorse actions since hes nice years trying buy expensive things whatever abuse ripped apart every inch manhood had wasnt strong wasnt dignified wasnt brave ive bonded sisters men ive met life understood abuse gone well however could bit stoic times abuse ive grown trust many people extremely anxious shy hear family members schoolmates etc talk lack ambition im reserved feminine im good kids sorry cant speak room full people sorry face flushes red name called sorry feel comfortable alone days visiting family fault sitting back supporting abuse younger every time took one step far id threatened thought good way control me father died vulnerable beating threatening violence two things definitely doing punches thrown tears ive shedded lashes belts benefit even then father probably wouldnt treated nicer still alive point im runt family now im stupid weak shy manly enough cant like fucking doctor aunts lawyer uncles id kill didnt two sisters friends care im happy sisters success still hurts good job graduating suma cum laude gpa degrees mathematics electrical engineering cried tears joy happy night could make proud did,1 +fucking hate thatbi molested fucking hate still going affect rest life staying alive could piss assholes grave hes fucking taking long die fuck shit always going broken cannot fixed one ever love cannot fucking anyone love fucking broken know single reason fucking slit wrists week hope fucking bleed out tried years fixed nothing fix myself ruined cannot even friends fuck everything warped personality it done keep living never going fixed,1 +really worth itthis may little long side hear young father source love great inspiration business went mother divorced within month gone me brother mother living new house things went bad worse neglected most likely lack discipline part physical health declined rapidly also managed weasel way online schooli never left computer top this mother began dating again one day got serious physical fight one boyfriends cops got involved spent ten days juvy met people never forget abouteven tried release father stepped back decided way im living mother again sent therapeutic boarding school south carolina week destroying find me there met tons great people loved supported though family things began looking stay lost lot excess weight feeling better ever had three months given devastating newsi pulled could live new stepmom my dad point become cruise ship captain gone time within week two plane heading away south carolina heading towards new jersey everything point seemed much grayer life network support vanished eyes lush foresty environment swapped decaying walls concrete even time think it new stepmother was words possible bitch second walked door see basically verbally announced hated would prefer life would fight constantly eventually words began sink in felt though annoyance flaw otherwise perfect design everything knew hometown friends gone heard much life would better everyone gone to thing holding onto point father kept contact via phone one day got mad yelling make work stepmom fault like that last support fell me wrote redflag note went bathroom grabbed razor blade anddid nothing much wanted die point bring it ripped note cried sleep later dad realized going work got another divorcei think still blames me left hometown start life fresh months plan figure everything time go work go planned ended drinking stupor every night without dads knowledge dwelling memories past year grades began fail quickly old demons arose going back old school time came go work plans made whatsoever currently grandmothers feel like future either way ive told every adult opened nothing ever gets better grow life gets worse well life come quickly im ready it become disillusioned world even see point getting anymoresome days wish balls it escape world problems it,1 +got it hit snapscore im happy,0 +kinda name maya angelou right mind writes autobiographies,0 +wish courage kill myselfi keep trying lie itll okay things okay like hours end going shit fucking ruin everything im worthless im afraid pain kill wish could im tired everything,1 +know aloneim getting divorced im upset divorce love anymore im shattered hes life realize alone really am yeah ive made friends already people work get along really well started dating even though thats proper word it friends benefits would accurate breaks heart because yanno feel things way deeply fell love feel same thats completely different issue im still lonely im realizing need needed need it otherwise feel like im waste space sure people care want around gone would anyone lost without me would anyone cry sleep need see me touch me hold me cant no one would im convenient im person people go one else im everyones backup ones priority even like marriage realize time painfully clear know live like this know know im totally completely utterly alone know see value one else see it try occupy time spend time me go walks lunch shopping spend time work friends spend time guy im seeing one ever really me someone else significant other child friend really really need them there part knows drop them cant need help good friends right now ill take bad friends friends all look stupid throw help lines little hints that hey im okay need you go unnoticed make obvious someone finally takes bait open up feel like burden like wish id shut deal lives worry me whats fucking point here one needs me nothing going me fucking quit give up die not put torture living fucking great stressful empty im done im tired im broken im fucking done im done,1 +much u needplease ,1 + visited lake elsinore gliderport flew yellow pratt read sailplane returning germany serious ran tv one segment high altitude sailplane flights california early ies the real life pilot bill ivans know played series turned sailplane film same nnumber one flown lake elsinore ever since saw segment searching wondering somewhere available other segments serious baker ejection seat instrument find avalanche victims etc,0 +hard nighti really hard time recently feel like failure cant get anything done properly ive college four years yet still year away aa running circles going where making deeper deeper track thats trapping me almost last night right there ready end thought would find would change life forever know do,1 +lets play game people usually eat birthdays comes night clue look name hahahahahahah hand orange houses,0 +feel better youre rejected literally two simple points said something made feel even worse like ew glad youve dodged bullet think minute care youve rejected probably gonna hella awkward see again right dont care got rejected gonna awkward,0 +im abandonedit feels like closest friend distant month now tried hard good friend knew keep venting them ive finding another way cope working things getting better feeling better im here feel alone seem interested anymore swallowed things frustration probably anything cant alone thats exactly right now feel like im way out,1 +whywhy parents invalidate hurt ones caused it like say sorry because do whenever fail hurt one say hurtful things apologize say stop it feel like im feeling right valid something wrong even crying feeling way,1 +use morse code cheat tests already tried friend one suspected thing create system work you us pen clicking worked great,0 +quiz questions hi there family quiz every sunday evening last week im writing week normally im quite good writing enjoy lol ive come bit block here anyone good quiz questions,0 +ight hear racist towards southeast asians heard alot people angry asians shits wild want people spam,0 +girlfriend years broke blue yesterday ive never redflag thoughts noweverything see makes think her everything happens makes want run share her desperately miss her best friend one else never again much time me heart hurting much never felt much pain entire life,1 +bitch fiending rn also unrelated yall know feeling random trauma surfaces lmaoo shit sucks,0 +tit havers rteenagers worst thing happened tit question penises guess tits near equivalent idk,0 +contemplatinglast time tried overdose survived since im stupid think enough time ill hang myself thing im contemplating whether leave something behind particularly care others might think think im thinking saying fault thing ill it maybe tomorrow today next week now birthday coming up hate day seem appropriate end time think last weeks this time fail,1 +thank i decided seek help next month afraid decided going see one doctors help me id like thank everyone helped here thank much time talk me huge thank people meet talked too day internet speak strangers makes anxious worse stay away good id like keep talking know better help people here know like even talk much someone side huge hug one person meet here really made diference ,1 +place hereim year old female im hurting im hurting lot im divorced twice friend group im frequently left out ie fb invites events know way going to ex come party hours away need ride hotel ask ride crickets moving on im weight balding female super fun im slightly minimum wage job real room advancement dont see way start over ive single years now ive got thought cute pics various dating apps still nothing ive date years im lost feel abandoned everyone dont want taking space anymore feel done like lived should,1 +officially sober whole year since start middle school got close classmates gained bad habits along way got point started drinking twice week especially school nightthats usually expected taking engineering track am got wasted puked times one night but even still kept drinking started joining cousins whenever drinking well realized ive hit lowest point life so far quit drinking never really liked drink thought would make numb feel ease really gave anxiety getting invited cousins hundreds times drink year rejecting every single time ive finally gotten whole year without single drop alcohol system ive adopted highprotein diet started working times week gained kg lbs muscle mass sincei really weak skinny back then started drawingdoing art frequently again started conversing socializing family neighbours cuz im bit sociallyinept introverted felt little confident telling close friends bisexuality nonbelief which little hard especially live country religious bisexual atheist little bit frowned upon tldr avid drinker stopped cuz like best turn life around feeling better ever since bit context legal drinking age country rarely practiced regulated almost every street corner theres store sells booze regardless old are sometimes even see cops offering minors drink culturally speaking guess drunk minors tolerated since usually pose threat anyone even usually drink around adult family members,0 +parents way high standards overbearing advice dealing parents always overbearing hypocritical parents treat like prodigy comes anything academic kept straight elementary im finishing th grade taking geometry something like it years ive gotten little praise school get yelled well enough class designed people two years older am meanwhile parents get super excited younger brother gets ab honor roll hurts lot ive stressed lately affecting mood around them making super pessimistic huge smart ass around them leads yelling talking back,0 +wish endedthe doctors refuse prescribe anything help gender dysphoria im cant take anymore much live with hate futile existence constantly struggle with hate physical form need something way out something end body horror feel,1 +feel like shiti took grams ingredient tylenol exactly why good day now hate life now want work,1 +mother teaching cook feel like sith aprentice first kind update last night kill talked would think safe asked teach cook fair bit ago never it think last night made think everything happening cook something finally started teaching me expect kind mean bad it says things like good good pedro sometimes feel like trying quote shieve think even know star wars is top off feel hate fueling prove wrong,0 +snapshot popular pinup time typical dragged biopic fun fabulous film look feel era excellent soundtrack everything would want indietype film think tendency would portray bettie page sort sex vixen like jayne mansfield truly looked carefully betties poses always looked happy you wish could get me haughty look im acting career work out look porn star so ladies involved film three female producers female writer director female cowriter lovely gretchen mol im sure helped shape role sugary influence really captured idea sweet somewhat naive southern girl really enjoyed photo taken hoped good ol jc upset her br br gretchen mol turns career high performance she may perfect breasts ever happy about curse several years ago made cover vanity fair one really knew was touting next itgirl lets frank bit presumptuous mean unfortunately never made gwyneth status though lack talent making poor film choices pretty blonde fickle hollywood renders forgettable im afraid put back alist well ill monkeys unclebr br intensely private bettie seen film yet bettie left pinup party high note fell love old flame jesus whatever floats boat honey one helluva woman hope happy wherever arebr br congratulations mary harron done cult idol justice,0 +want die want leave friends grievingive always problems happiness im cant remember properly happy since parents divorced happened moved city went new school got bullied everything shit always sad finally switched school environment happy soon became happy normal person home life went shit mum stepdad getting fucking smashed far much recently get shit realised coke next year probably best since young shit home school going well space months stepad assaulted twice police involved second time hit stop called police decided press charge mental state spiralled downwards home life got much worse happened months ago immidiately went period low thoughts feeling unsafe home mum backed me got better last summer worried school friends day happy however last months worse ever think killing myself bad home relationships making feel unwanted although lots close friends feel much burden ones trust talk to ones dont trust enough scared think crazy tell feel know ever kill cause love friends much them hate living know carry on schoolwork suffering cause sit night nothing ever since ive feelings ive experimenting drugs recently scared advances never stop,1 +link mean girl like posted story wants link mean sex hanging out,0 +thanksgiving sucks moment aunt makes stuffing dairy even though assured time time didnt dairy ingredients spend rest evening bathroom everyone mad taking long god hate everything,0 +crush usually sits lunch table alone say mean theres people around usually talk anyone phone,0 +ventingi want sit around read play video games stay reddit long explore new york city cant without money cant earn enough money without working hard it work boring college coming im getting lazy want end things cant lazy enjoy things want anymore things continue time enjoy things either way im loss hate unable stand pressure real world,1 +please help depression feel like im alone want end need advice,0 +ma couple weeks ago latest attempt end life years mental health stabilizing getting better every year year pandemic relapsing depression girlfriend breaking with new redflagful job led dark rabbit hole gotten control finally tried taking life again found parents hanging tree unconscious losing last bit oxygen taken hospital literally time got tested treated injuries held safety week life back normal buti want try againlast time note prepared do bought new rope stare rope tens minutes something else distracts mei want die badly know anymorei enough money insurance counseling medications know direction go towards also none friends serious enough people imit feels like pressure chest death get rid ofi sick typical it selfish people miss you arguments since obvious point give fuck that know bad think that really bad right nowi feel lost guys might actually try end life again failed attempt want try again,1 +household toxins hydrogen sulfide redflagdoes anyone know anything method redflag ive learned researching it lock car source hydrogen sulfide die within minutes anyone know painful successful is would carried out household toxins need mix order create enough gas die,1 +keeping mental health afloat online school keep communication friends lot us dealing online school recently new lockdown uk placed back home learning least late february learnt importance friendship routine strongly advise lucky enough good friendship group create things like discord server places communicate text voicevideo chatting friends using discord server week reliving human contact lessons breaks lunchs lessons online call chat together also chats talk individual subjects ask help laugh dumb stuff happened lesson wonderful thing keeping mental health afloat lot friends didnt discord found easy access making account sincerely hope helps cannot express made feel much alive spend much time thoughts relief constant drag online learning tldr make place easily chat ie discord friends online school keep everyone mentally well feel supported,0 +traffik excellent miniseries dealing drug trafficking europe european produced pbs series oscarnominated movie traffic based on loved traffic traffik must seebr br overall would highly recommend miniseries anyone interested seeing drugs social point view screenplay exciting unexpected weaves lives drug dealers traffickers farmers policians police officers unlike movies sensationalize issue drugs traffik presents is,0 +people keep asking meaning life bruh meaning life happy answer complicated ultimate goal life happy give shit people think makes happy bruh stop coming complex answers question,0 +need helpi need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help need help,1 +life changed forever wednesday afternoon driving work stopped red light gray truck pulls next me cute girl waving n shit roll window down she wave says hi light turns green go separate ways way made feel indescribable felt happy feeling hours laid awake bed night thinking moment girl fucking said hi me no mistake anybody else drive very distinct car no wouldnt recognized me moved states graduating high school,0 +tonight last nighti kicked end january parents abusing life crash friends couch week moved room shared apartment time ive trying hard look second job addition one only hours week managed find job let go less weeks refusing say why ive also trying apply welfare thanks intake worker shitty phone contact cancelled application considered inactive tried applying today work systems changed requiring bunch documents have im ashamed homeless piece shit im ashamed abused im ashamed needing welfare im ashamed fired im ashamed able find job im pathetic lonely fucked live world anymore absolutely cannot stand unfair life im going ending tonight supportive family friends shitty clueless assuming life cant hard theyre living comfortably ive proven cant take care myself theres point living anymore,1 +calling anybody hope somebody finds rotting body fuck world took oxy pills like vicodins effects starting kick,1 +ill preface saying seen numerous psychiatrists therapists gps wringer family doctor throwing antidepressantantianxiolytic prescriptions see sticks everything still feels matter med new routine holistic solution etc exhausted living so march attempted suicide lived alone nice apartment locked door suite flipped security latch taped handwritten dnr sign living room locked door took uncountable amount clobazam not clonazepam different drug gravol pills least nighttime benadryl pills got bed listened strict machine goldfrapp then feeling id never felt done felt like id finished life soothing also could effects massive quantity pills took thengirlfriend called me fine conversation black out tells days failed suicide attempt happened completely coherent stopped talking passed out long story short too late wake two days later intensive care tube throat regulate breathing catheter definitely in guess dnr work parents who live four hours away sitting around come to fast forward convince everyone crazy say maybe go psych ward said no get better care move back city i living small city time get back apartment parents stay me covid breaks out postgrad program studying announces classes over move back big city parents basement degree mailed me keep conversations people keep wrong things continue comply ministry transportation get drivers license back keep sending different forms get doctor sign depressionredflag stays same covid made world weird years days suicide attempt purgatory much violence greed narcissism world like never seen before every day work jobs money comes goes id never even made anything conversations ad nauseam hell sartres exit days think purgatory purgatory purgatory trigger warning,1 +im killing tonight tomorrow mondayif im entirely honest myself reevaluate tuesday go there least reason live weekend survive tuesday roommate needs someone love hes hurting wait remove stable im ok that,1 +listen song httpsyoutubeeaeiafutyu,0 +number posters commented unsatisfactory conclusion always problem long complex dramas crime essentially banal pay always anticlimactic whilst detailed exposition detracts human drama writer used number clever devices try get round this entirely successful answers precisely happened may supplied well buried viewer inevitably feels little cheatedbr br but sense unimportant drama never crime even investigation impact events lives involved family investigators witnesses press gripping writing significant cut run mill primetime drama performances uniformly good ensemble piece invidious focus individuals penelope wilton deserves special mention extraordinary tour de force motherwifedaughter janet mcteer cracking form hardbitten old copbr br one interesting aspects drama handling race elephant room noone prepared mention subtle powerful stuff,0 +whats favourite disney movie amp aladdin acceptable answers include coco mulan,0 +shooter drills schools like student shooter theyd know everything teachers students planned like theyd know everybody is youre helping point secondly could someone believe bunch kids randomly gone normal tuesday plus quarantine couldve given somebody months plan school shooting kind concerning,0 +want go sleep tonight never wake upim writing let people know feeling know really fucking cliche reading im probably already dead really know meant relieve stress getting feelings paper maybe fucking redflag note ive got blade right next may redflag note want end this feel sad sad probably never girlfriend way look fat am sad family hate im still questioning sexuality even though think im straight sad friends probably care follow feel alone reality dont even feel like much live friends family probably resent end sexuality straight totally honest ive got decent life dont even know want die kind do live uk access gun would probably even wrote i want go sleep tonight never wake up,1 +convince gild you three people get gold possibly none good arguments are completely serious convince gild you good enough will,0 +text post weekend lets play game mobile type random letter suggested text make sentence best one hour posted gets free award get one,0 +long convo w crush hour conversation crush good one too deep all im happy ,0 +snap chat pc soooo extracurricular activities mormon parents taken phone ways contact schoolworkfriends ect found work around every app need except snap chat wondering one anyway around android ios emulator,0 +feel like im postponing deathi really know explain it feel like died long ago ive planned many times always come sort dumb excuse to right excuse concert im going friend february know im going that scares me know people care me know could worse know could probably good life im fucking tired crying sleep constantly fighting urge hurt myself wish could get hit car tragic traffic accident would over,1 +drawn movie moment saw preview oscar night read kay pollak hooked americans suckers comeback kidbr br i understand movie huge draw sweden provincial american speculate reason perhaps provocative joke lena character makes beginning movie social comment perhaps central message believe appeal everywhere affluent societiesbr br the message movie movie titanic life short people far anyone really knows weve got taken away time pity spend much time hiding behind walls separating us people were afraid hurt tearing walls painful feeling alive lies side wretched walls feeling alive worth taking risk give receive start living nowbr br many people criticizing movie lack characterization flaws say pseudosophisticated get grip folks parable fable affluent westerners materially rich whose souls abject povertybr br so join choir band help build housing distribute food less fortunate you spread joy make world better place long get commune fellow man writing check enough social species way even humblest fellow human beings affect ways never thought possiblebr br rugged individualism place overrated,0 +big moment me im finally getting helpit hasnt happened yet dont know moms reaction be wrote note redflag note note shes going read moments im suicidal also look posts rredflagwatch without getting upset started didnt want go school why dont fucking know crying verge going downward slope suicidal thoughts done loading laundry shell read note probably read posts might actually getting help soon goes show get help even cant put correct english whatever language speak id recommend writing it huge ive waiting get help since well long remember thinking thoughts shell probably read too adrenaline pumping im actually excited get help once knowing another route escape ive feeling isnt redflag istheres word it thank you mom everything,1 +sooo hope long reach motivation itwell say lost real friend got rejected person like humans know probably fail reach education required study dream job wich would fail anyway due vast lack motivation literally anything end im fat fuck crying somewhere room noone giving fuck at least noone actually care for whining internet things im pussy tell anyone irl simultaneously searching best way outyeah know statistics indeed access guns cyanide know tried jumping somewhere would puss fuck actually simultaneously show idiots around actually feel decreasing selfworth keep going fuck,1 +lot intrusive thoughts losing loved ones tragedies happening imagining traumatic horrible would be cannot shakethemoff keepcoming back also feel empty cannot find much joy hardly anything hate going depressive episodes remind much life sucks never happy content intrusive thoughts redflag trigger depression,1 +even know anything anymoreim failing grades im also months behind school work family disappointed friends know do,1 +first saw film two years ago cinema fell love dark tale two brooding teenage sisters coping home large country house father stepmother relationship stepmother strained say least stepmother appearing increasingly becoming unstable battles younger girls film though slants oriental style ghost effects horror adds strange unsettling aspect story first viewing clear intriguingbr br the direction incredibly good acting stunning stepmother particular incredibly good swinging one mood style another film large house adds eeriness enough points film jump seat film clearly shows korean cinema possibly best original world moment simply get anything like western world sadlyand really see influential film makers around world next decadebr br highly recommended viewing opinion real joy scare,0 +george clooney directed sam rockwell directorial debut confessions dangerous mind starred together movie george clooney also involved movie producer along steven soderbergh shows really believed project potential also seems like fine entertaining project line movieremakes oceans eleven the italian job somehow movie halve successful least good could beenbr br the movie characters played fine well known actors shame characters really given enough room develop even though potential could turned fun enjoyable characters characters mildly entertain mostly quirky sequences movie fact played change much this even though prevent characters ever becoming total bore perhaps even annoying anything like allbr br its course due writing characters used full potential assume original italian movie i soliti ignoti works much better movie does movie relies much simple story predictable way storytellingbr br nevertheless movie simply still fun one watch maybe simplicity harmless little caper movie simply worry much story regard welcome collinwood still movie works simply serves purpose wellbr br its movie regret watching finished also movie really easily without ever seeingbr br ,0 +avatar websitegame hair wtf bruh,0 +anyone tell make noose like robin williamsi exposed beams garage want make setup whole thing crash down possibly leaving vegetable know would actually support weight lb not trying cut circulation rather strangle myself looks like easiest definite method it planning buying rope amazon really want fuck left permanent brain damage want gone im also giant pussy afraid pain want quick im afraid jumping break neck since dont want break ceilingundo knot live permanent damage thanks anyone replies,1 +well shit am cant go sleep anyone want talk anything standard stuff dm ask dm want filler filler filler bot doesnt take,0 +trans woman suffers bpd adhd severe redflag feel like cannot go on suicidal since teenage attempted suicide twice last resort starting hrt made significantly less miserable since still ugly progress seems stopped years hope anymore think would ever able look mirror want throw upi hate adhd bpd mental illnesses ruined life mention gender dysphoria makes cry every day sometimes look mirror days keep sanityi cannot accept look like rest life cannot accept nobody knows woman rather predatory straight man day father said transitioning able easier access women rape them rape victim raped everyday age coach later classmates high school fucking unfair internalized fear around women feel like occupying space wrong there always afraid go since beaten severely twice past always sexually physically verbally harassed out lost almost friends transmisogyny sure always alone people want date fetishizers see exotic creature man woman never able find sb see like thatnothing change always pain wisest thing end things courage times attempted chickened out sure again cannot endure hell anymore either feel suffocated place world girls like want out,1 +selfish wishi need someone dump bucket problems listen anyone would me,1 +men inherently violent violent crime committed men men inherently violent,0 +died right one would find weeksi really want kill myself somehow despite best intentions attempted failed three colleges cant hold job minimum wage thing deal assholes perverts general public gets unbearable year hairstyling license cant hold job either shitty undisciplined im almost parents pay rent bills cant get together right now feel like get together juggle everything long come crashing start over over stepdad good guy never calls im pretty sure secretly despises person ive grown almost do mom pays everything buys great stuff still short snippy ive bad day boyfriend brings waste space ive become every time fight even though apologizes tell deep means it friends anymore either push away deal messy self see red flags bail also going cyst removed lady parts week half biopsy almost hope cancer feel like deserve it died family continually pay way life everyone would better unfazed killed right now thing stopping dog here want alone worried hungry long sometimes think taking bunch pills days really let people love almost feel like deserve painful death im stupid worthless ive somehow avoided darwinesque brutal end truly deserve feel like deserve punishment become person value even delusionally hope times failed please help reddit,1 +ending life midnighti dont know awaits me better life death dont know but take chances see dead ends wherever look best thing death tho hearts broken lived l alone die alone,1 +film begins dowdy housewife norma shearer finding husband rod la rocque cheating her three years pass apparently theyd divorced years due infidelity oddly time la rocque see shearer two kids shearer took parisbr br marie dressler rich society lady invited new improved norma come house weekendostensibly help marie break budding romance daughter la rocque apparently norma supervamp magical sex appeal break romanceand one seems realize la rocque married several others weekend immediately norma hit gay carefree sexy waysand almost men including la rocque captivated her neither tells anyone married obvious ex wants new improved norma back film sophisticated comedy manners among uppercrustsimilar ways jean renoirs rules game oddly despite severity depression films pretty rich folks pretty popular though many today doubtless find bit droll spots however fortunately let us gay plenty cute funny moments particularly towards end marie dressler shows true colors great film certainly good one another timepasser real regret love end see yourselfperhaps agree ending perhaps wont im pretty sure enjoy clever film,0 +yo monitors damn expensive like seriously shits bro wanna play tf osu doom eternal hz hate man,0 +cant anymoreeveryone love built lives without me cant anything im failing classes im lazy good mother thinks im fat bitch one person loved nothing me im unstable cant keep living like this cant anymore,1 +attack guys reddit officially attack chinese hackers subreddits like rfood rspace rfreefolk converted trump advertisements lot chinese believe hackers soon come rteenagers even rmemes u check subreddits see happened them,0 +changed mind love bot love,0 +comanche moon everything going it starters simon wincers back man whos name synonymous highquality tv westerns unfortunately problems moon something even talented director solve poor script based lackluster novelbr br forget historical accuracies reader novels tell you biggest travesty moon even consistent information original lonesome dove masterpiece many wonderful rich moments miniseries and even greater degree book completely missing moon considering fact viewers moon probably coming least sort dove background lack characterdriven emotional backstory downright painful br br that said moon one instance adapted version could altered make suitable screen example novel moon focuses largely comanches themselves credit miniseries tries service comanches end gives enough viewer gets sense theyre missing important part story similarly val kilmers scull loses role either expanded kilmer and rachel griffiths matter actually something do roles reduced smaller supporting parts instead kilmer gets top billing character leaves scratching head appearance completely bizarre final act br br theres strange moments throughout film make sense read book a killer parrot what further single scene shows us call mccrae anything near amazing texas rangers claim be single one expeditions moon or dead mans walk matter ends successfully call mccrae seem blunder way one pointless mission anotherbr br frankly larry mcmurtry never given job writing script praise surrounding cowboy movie brokeback mountain mcmurtry write good novels although theres dissension consistency statement hes never exactly established scriptwriter production would benefited bringing back director wincer original screenwriter bill wittcliff adapt novel screen witcliff exactly mountainload material screen writing credit one deny fantastic job whittling original lonesome dove said comanche moon almost brilliant production aided terrific cast unfortunately given enough do steve zahns portrayal gus mccrae rather portrayal robert duvall gus mccrae deadon criticized karl urban woodrow call saying performance imitate quiet stoic woodrow original movie say is blame mcmurtry mcmurtry one moon novel miniseries turned woodrow socially inept awkward natural leader emotionless character whose lines dull whose character motivations clear seen portrayed far adequately sequelbr br still cast sparkles moon degree left miniseries feeling melancholy felt watching original lonesome dove time realized probably last time well see characters appear screen long long time come quite honestly cast could done well wellnurtured fullblown network tv seriesbr br all all aside wasted opportunities cast biggest travesty original lonesome dove novel contained much rich backstory characters would fascinating utterly fascinating see translated screen unfortunately tossed aside favor mcmurtrys tedious inconsistent ultimately irrelevant prequel,0 +someone help meplease talk suicidal im bad talking,1 +please turn camera zoom class meetings hi im one english teachers important stay safe understand high schools opted distance learning start new school year still rough im effective before quality instruction ability develop meaningful teacherstudent relationships severely lowered ive never felt useless ineffective teacher before really weighing down want help you empower you inspire change world messed up im trusting responsibility ive spent hours unpaid overtime trying give best strange year im emotional teacher monday first day school cried hours second cry whole career despite stress struggle endured fail to majority students bothered turn cameras even look eyes kids ive made sacrifices for discouraging week please us favor show us face care dirty rooms go ahead curled blanket bed take chromebooks wherever want let us see you,0 +please someone help diei cant cope this every morning wake screaming mental anguish hate much theres nothing change cant talk people know say wish wake more cant answer phone reply emails everything difficult im self employed people want book jobs im ignoring calls messages stressful please someone help end it cant myself cant anything right want exist more,1 + jokingly set challenge see long could go kissing someone im setting new record everyday,0 +day gets harder harder im losing survivefor past month ive spent almost every day bed literally nothing try take one day time day getting harder harder im losing survive weight loss plateaued weeks self control turn overdrew bank account way repay it started posting nudes attention got validating ive started cutting first time years ask trans want life like this wish born regular person either gender wasnt ive gone mentally wish upon worst enemy destroyed life keep going trying look big picture knowing survive get eventually ive lost continue want get become person im proud point cant see happening want die want hurt anyone else feel option point,1 +know peace it life bad people treat terribly one family messed life bad irreversible live immense shame failures lack accomplishments yo woman cannot take anymore always left made fun of cannot wait pain go away cannot wait make go away want kms bad,1 +since lot people disturbed existence name worst thing done maybe realize wierd,0 +dear future wifehey right now feeling lonely am happy arms another man hope latter im sorry stay you im sorry go ever even meeting you im really sure wouldve looked like sounded like felt like ok know wouldve loved till last breath will last breath car doubt redflag exhaust works pistol still maybe fate wanted us together fate gave miserable lonely crippling sad life know wouldve done anything see smile make happy truly hope guy thats fate im gone love like shouldve hope god loves unconditionally forever happiness matters me make god make life happiest be im willing put pistol lords head need be want happy be im sorry darling hope happy without me,1 +awful relationship learn it so im year old male ill sharing relationship story dont make mistakes have apologize long post ill make tldr background time fresh basic ait army since october struggling mentally socially quite time hid fulfill dream soldier got home happy part moments fast forward march ex friend started actually hanging thats met girl girl led months vigorously tortured mentally find using amusement friends also make boyfriend my ex friend jealous she lied that destroyed laughed guilt tripped ruining life taking advantage them wont believe thoughts months suicidal murderousviolent thoughts angry depressed long im pulling through resented everything ever said them genuine feelings love destroyed wasted them considering mental instability absolutely devastating took advantage weakness almost committed redflag left cut up im far happier without wretch human being im focusing job military career road recovery tldr got screwed girl used make feel better sympathy mining left mentally scarred alone,0 +want overdosei,1 +cant go onfuck life point im english teacher ive attempted times still want die dont necessarily want kill im actually considering again things havent told anyone ever pulling down,1 +cute film three lively sisters switzerland often seen running matching outfits want get parents back together seems mom still carrying torch dad sail new york stop dad marrying blonde golddigger calls precious dad seen daughters ten years oddly enough seem mind think hes wonderful meanwhile precious seems lead life mainly run overbearing mother alice brady woman wants see daughter marries rich man sisters get idea pushing precious path drunken hungarian count tricking two golddigging women thinking one richest men europe case mistaken identity makes girls think count goodlooking ray milland goes along scheme cause crush sister kaybr br this film enjoyable light fare barbara read kay comes across sweet pretty ray milland looks oh young handsome though unfortunately given little do alice brady quite good scheming mother deanna durbin real charmer cute button playing youngest sister penny pretty much steals show absolutely beautiful vocals sings several songs throughout film though actually would liked seen feature even this plot film bit silly nevertheless found film entertaining fun,0 +wife finished marriage im not im ready end everythingwe kid world cant imagine putting divorce im trying ive got plan balls it want to feel like will know,1 +finally activision decided add colorful skins fpsmall budget playere cod mobile cant wait use something ghost,0 +john carpenters the thing undoubtedly one best horror movies ever made sadly carpenter movies go also one underrated movies panned critics shortly release reason almost pathetic seems time people overwhelmed idea good alien idea spawned success it thought movie dealing aliens could deviate idea regarded heresy human ignorance truly frightening thing people need judge films want bebr br the thing interesting study human paranoia members us antarctic base discover presence alien refered throughout movie thing able imitate form life knowing might might creature see every character reacts situation mass hysteria panic slow gradual descent chaos people turn be quite humanbr br carpenter succeeds elevating movie something far average scifihorror whats behind you jumping moments here instead relying intense atmosphere mistrust preapocalyptic despair along nicely balanced moments visual terror small thanks rob bottins impressive creature effects gives us experience matched many horror filmsbr br instead throwing facts plot elements face carpenter offers us much gradual delicate approach implying sense mystery gives viewer enough freedom interpretate transpired certain scenes giving enough plot fond interpretation moviesbr br ennio morricones score works way minimalistic depressing sound perfectly fits movies overall tone although ive always wondered would sounded carpenter he known compose moviess osts except one it characters deeply developed still memorable thanks good performances actors especially kurt russel plays downout apathetic helicopter pilot rj macready worth noting character transforms movie disregardful dont give attitude beginning unifier leader group men try fight the thing even said false heroics here laughing face death moments certainly sort comic relief movie keeps atmosphere first scene last speaking which carpenter keeps tradition creating powerful endingbr br quarter century release the thing feel dated disturbingly growing use computergenerated effects feels even stronger shows lifes work dedication human beings computers combined openness analyzing gives viewer lot reasons watch second third fourth time masterpiece terror never forgotten,0 +cant anymorei cant need hug need someone tell okay fucked am need someone apparently thats much ask cant ever enough feel like failure,1 +work pressure mental tormenthello all struggled suicidal thoughts throughout entire college years studied medicine germany work junior cardiologist challenging top tier university research hospital germany getting bullied colleagues mentally tormented failed many research projects get bullied heavily this social interactions besides going work gym friends never girlfriend kind physical contact opposite sex worst part work failed projects enjoy life know many people worse precarious situations want exist hate every moment reason living family brother want feel sad die want exist hate life existence itself,1 +literally every single friend ever make ends leaving fuck shit im fuckin ending peace bitches,0 +sort comments controversial new update cant sort comment controversiali think can tell how thats best part reddit wtf reddit thinking,0 +things badits trivial complain job people much worse job making absolutely miserable took two weeks mental health leave feel like much help tuesday go back already dread it want die want anymore hope world feels like already theres nothing left die along it know do made throw away account know do dont nothing feels like helps want quit job feel trapped there things uncertain im afraid losing therapist ive considered getting drunk go work deal all nobody nothing fall back on ground hit im really feeling desperate tonight know life improve,1 +scariest story ever hear slowly open eyes like am try get up cant move find difficult breathe one point see something next bed tall shadowlike figure standing there figure slowly moves towards you want struggle cant eventually slowly leans towards face whispers ear thing leaves shocked uwu,0 +feel like im spiraling controlive depressed now time something could push get over since sudden death mother two years ago feels like everything getting uncontrollable im fairly decent putting show letting out im told recently getting harder put face every day especially deep thoughts ending all used pop head occasionally time span increasingly getting shorter im hard time keeping emotions check im starting fear may depressed quickly mood change ive harmed point nearly breaking hand thoughts turned i could it i could like this feel like one would really bothered it would would bothered feel like should actually would be friends im stuck dead end job even get half recognition deserve im quickly reaching point burden entire family want get that know do anyone talk to im completely lost,1 +school year sucks thats all said before want say again now im going leave sad,0 +balding want end allim going bald cant live anymore people say shave head lift feel me jacked bald guy suit personality one bit plus shaved head pale skinny white guy id look like neonazi cancer patient hair style options balding men either shave let grow slightly out makes look like something accountant whos idea fun reorganize stamp collection im terrified leaving house without hat know everywhere go people laugh balding ive given pursing women attractive women right mind wants date balding something guys s full heads hair cant go life like anymore ive gone considered good looking ugly im trying rogaine see working year ill kill want go life ugly bald loser thats baldness you people give examples bald men attractive always hypermasculine guys like rock vin diesel also s help guy s,1 +progress reports hs im hs got fall term midterm progress report mostly bs part gpa unofficial thanks,0 +want die really really want die cant waitthe past three years worst life throughout high school life amazing star athlete healthy friends family great girlfriend since first year college tricked taking one cycle steroids life changed year cycle ive surgeries constant pain lost life contract girlfriend connection friends family im years old ap classes high school hardly able read im sick tired pain im done life im cant work travel party study without constantly pain ive lost everything used im fucking done im fucking sick done life cant wait over pain constant pain pain even areas didnt surgery like shoulders cant play guitar lift food mouth without pain im sick fucking done dont want live pain reality im even alive sitting room immobile alive im done,1 +life mineive thinking week kind truth apparent long time parents made believe possession still prisoner home im starting accept this keep insane reality forever harassed daily existing stalked dare go outside deal creepy obsessiveness fake love attention deal baby sister getting hurt time like im reliving childhood trauma need born came world anyway know leave cant physically hurt fear swallowing pills frustratingbecause live lot pain would nice easy way out exist one really made feel like right suffered try reach like people make feel like im crazy believing im suffering sister broke heart even acknowledge done trusted need talk person thought was loyalty sociopath mother strong feel disgusted shared much information depression therapy helped open eyes horrible truths strong enough know nobody side like deceived believe much support family reality destroying me keeping isolated everything could good me used comfort lotbut now recognise face feel like im existing body reali done things like starve cant even feel pain that feel bit sick whenever realise much food im eatibg much weight im losingi horrible health problems underweight decade could go really upsetting write out feel emotions anymore cried lot now things cant say real world still hope one day express people care hope destroying cant let go know im alone im living contradictions,1 +tell quadratic formula cant tell life works high school school honestly biggest waste time dont teach anything practical im supposedly one better schools state makes lot fucking sense everyone real world dumbass,0 +moonwalker great movie start finish cant take eyes away love clips michael singing dancing love studio tour bitsoo funny mini movie cool special fx etcmichael genius always be,0 +realized hiw fucked ky outlook life like im supper pecamistic everything hate myself feel like everyone me want live feel like thats great,0 +subreddit sucksthere said it,1 +fellow girls decide type underwear wear morning like pick old pair depend mood outfit brief day thong day style really matter wear first ones pick up maybe type underwear issue im making sense i thongs myself haha ,0 +total disappointmenti big big big test coming working years cant fully succeed fully im sorry everyone keep done life rn working years im sorry parents point total dissapointment friends nobody willing listen me bye ,1 +tips gain little confidence recently ive gotten confidence u ask how idk rly however helped overthink also wtf u want do u may think people look you yes do care wtf u r doing also girls called handsome others school finally started noticing me im nobody anymore wrote previously u r good path gain confidence ik hard gain even little bit confidence trust me follow tips itll get better,0 +message clear money important lifebetter die live broke care look never find them care neither person reading this know simple would ask give one hundred thousand people would k dont care enough even give therefore conclusion money important life even value life amount sick living unwilling dieand know filling blanks would rather leave you matter put list none would missed,1 +scrolling feed apart suicidal thoughts well times separate think outside see tortures mind do regrets challenges pain suffering becomes heightened happiness trying obtain happiness states mind seems useless brain hard thing manage sometimes look cat non human living beings think lovely existence think much must ironic mind intelligent also makes cruel,1 +hate men feel uncomfortable compliment like bro get it aint gay im flirting tell tshirt kinda cool get lmao cant people take genuine compliments im even creepy telling anything inappropriate basic compliments also bare mind barely compliment strangers time friends,0 +update my suicidal gfan update previous post called my suicidal gf idont know announce updates properly sorry months together now turns next month applying euthanesia dno feel do told kept alive til now says done broken exhausted cant stop crying,1 +family works me pretty gay seeming makes gay jokes family shes gonna end nice boylt me mean ig could id rather family straight mean rlly tho openly listen clairo troye sivan girl red sweater weather many plus little sprinkles gay oblivious,0 +steady goeshey sw sorry kept quiet account long came guys months ago regarding kind paralysis well managed handful bs gasp a things smoother semester academic wise though end sem exam rush hit yet heads april xd hope mature enough time round rosy pic the following going sound like ripped bollywood soapopera movie religion noncommital hindu please excuse really else go yesterday kind relapsed grades anything came home studying hours straight safety schools study rooms pleased yay dsp finally form control come home normal things go internet redditing such go eat dinner parents start longwinded talk buying plane tickets to india money education that mother started arguing father job lack pay fairly common indian households gross generalization happens friends houses too yes get it abject poverty loaded either want circular argument leads nowhere working ass school get everyday going broken record going continue even graduate get job put arguments fighting ever since years old tired enough already detest crying seem often lately hell family happy school even care people like happy parents saying curfew live singapore fraks sake life going listening parents argue next years like ive done past years really want continue future look forward to point planning move graduate get job something happens parents stuck forever now know looker anything like dad wants stage elaborate play get married something status worried about speculating future even likely want stop stop im going school back hrs time,1 +news boys girls significant actually loves me cute nice beautiful green eyes warning drill really happy,0 +embarrassingly watched movie first time years release story father brother relate to one brother bit wild brother typical older child craig sheffer little unemotional oldest brother pitt amazing skerritt perfectly cast father fishing scenes filmed montana absolutely breathtaking idea fly fishing could attractive movie closely follows book modifications make appropriate movie format unlike book movie stories one measures up perfect movie anyone wants quiet night powerful somewhat emotional movie,0 +hookup lied hiv status convinced didnt need use condom im dont want die aids made mistake cant take back anyone wants sex please safely dont idiot like me hooked stranger dating app sex breakdown started talking physically abusive ex got hooked meth cried like minuteshe asked comfortable meth enjoy sex better happy said no wouldnt comfortable probably left here right stupid stayed bit longer fucked during anal stops says put pants on okay wants leave leave texts hours hes admits high meth asks come back hes lonely made apparent wont come back tells hes going kill hiv panic attackmeltdown went er ive pep post exposure prophylaxes reduces chance contracting hiv like days also coworkers joking possible hiv status saying stay positive my boss told them told boss er thought going late im scared alone well terrified havent told family im friends anyone confide in im positive im going kill myself already depressionanxiety close redflag before might thing push over ive tears past days im dumb dumb shouldve worn condom know im dumb please dont say shouldve worn condom yes im trans im closeted,0 +makeing minecraft skins prices negotiable making minecraft skins happy dont half pay also dont get skin,0 +hey all rant take viibryd doctor either negligent malicious sure is told explicitly take iteither accident ever answer phone calls god damn pharmacy serious reaction like horrible nausea debilitating redflag depression told want take anymore reason kept telling good it get pill box make sure take every dayi got pill box take exactly one every day month called refill stuck needs prescriber approval days text tell two days left medication said look it fuck even mean look it like almost offensive flippant is especially comes fucking mental health professional what threaten kill something take concerns seriouslyif call pharmacy tomorrow medication entire weekend huge project work weekend ergo fucked cannot refill fucking medication exactly days two left abusing them anything legitimate prescription legitimate doctor someone speaks pharmacistdoctor bullshit please translate issue here hell dr authorization required mean medications doctor negligent,1 +feel like helpi feel like help me im done life like ive tried everything gonna vent bit first encounter depression parents divorced blamed lot much detailed plans kill letters written everyone life readily available years decided go failed caught tried told counselor it total ive tried probably times really stupid varying methods ive mental hospital twice moved dad support moved back mom moved alaska im much worse tried traditional therapy hospital visit one shafted grand total three months division vocational rehabilitation getting therapy friday th wednesday cried tuesday away lost wonderful perfect supportive boyfriend cutest sweetest cat ever seen job boyfriend managing right now ambitions future whole life ahead yet none stops feeling like want over im depressed know much longer give in even know make appointments friday want hurt badly giving headache one friend boyfriend here things going life time listen me cant say blame her whole family miles away told throughout childhood actually depression lying get attention etc one true friend brother nice job busy life also time me alone feel like one listening anymore boyfriend idea do neither i nothing makes happy anymore used enjoy making art indifferent point is know much longer this nothing stopping strong urge hurt end it feel like nothing will need find strength make day severe chronic depression coupled anxiety much handle,1 +simping stopped friend big charli dateline way back small amount followers hes watching ever since never understood dancing videos seemed like lot got obsessive point everyone pretty much knowing simp group caused mental life great would post chats talk time would open cute thought was one day told buying something something one could predicted going buy custom body pillow print it let say pretty open loved charli damelio if catch drift starting get nerves cared much someone never met would quite defensive anyone insulted her worst part fact also teenager kinda understand body pillow random anime character cartoons really matter age defacing real person understand wanting prn found online this bad knew keeping pillow look ew would pick pretty much everyday good reason days ago finally stopped declared everyone stopped watching her going trash pillow know could lying chose believe him said already faded watching content gone back regular prn good told actual female girl knew gave realization needed stop actual crush theres another reason laughed first mean music really help not afraid eminem asked could send video people would think im lying internet points said no btw story me want incourage people simping stopped overcome tldr friend obsessed charli damelio realizing hat liked real girl caused stop,0 +stop normalising funerals wtf point like please die go,0 +need kill myselfim done here one values me huge colossal failure constant rejection abandonment friends real life pressures home lack acceptance driven conclusion world would better without me even know posting im tired hurt seems like way end pain,1 +suggestions anime give suggestions anime anything except romance highschool stuff like,0 +want make million dash dreams someone dropped like m id never productive member society again id get wife care gd kids chill day,0 +buy dogecoin right fuck now going extremely fast cant find anything ss number parents arent home cant fucking miss,0 +good luck psats good luck everyone taking psat morning minutes going great make sure read every question carefully lets great,0 +apparently brother thinks water tiny amount lemon juice sour obviously got up went fridge got lemon juice drank nice refreshing glass lemon juice,0 +males worst embarrassing boner experience days ago sub seemed obsessed giving advice mainly concerning bobers talking us boys real question is worst accidental boner situation happened,0 +need pointive coasting long remember things definitely started feeling wrong around age twelve that things got terrible tried st year uni mum came knife pushed through got nd year antidepressants still feeling like anything evened state functionality nothing else remember like feel stuff relapse feel bad finished uni neet months told people im applying want things been feel like know shit anything point feel like pushed point everyone else enough need something know like know find out like look cant bothered change cant envision turning anything actually like look wrong think hate look confusing balls ive every advantage money schools opportunity wasted good feel bad hell ive wonderful doctors therapists every cycle harder theres less left me ampxb cant more current thought end march definite date got helium syringe air embolism carotid would hurt quick feels closer every day relaxing,1 +goes show everything fucking pointlessjust found ex who left less month ago best friend who also roommate going hooking weekend probably dating eaten couple days im trying supportive man im ready swallow bullet ive guy years now helped personal crises count repays fucking person ive ever wanted spend life with cant move im recently unemployed drive im stuck here im stuck hell look clock realize fucking matter ill wake tomorrow anyway nothing changed want end,1 +give up want dief diagnosed autism adhd anxiety know start used happy child ever since became aware media talking about anxiety got worse time years old scared even go outside anxiety gotten worse time finished th grade scared even leave house addition single friend ever since end th grade year tried internet friendships last less six months moment left one talk to started going special school people autism tuesday classmates developed me already comfortable going community always refusing afraid late time want friend fear classmates graduating year due maturity stay another year school day either feel super stressed crying literally coping skills try playing video games continue unwanted thoughts due lack coping skills continue panic little kids school make noises feel noises gunshots ampxb also issues family mom dad major argument five months ago feel traumatized me ever since argument father brings divorce leaving house often even close siblings well brother constantly annoying me left college last week contact information result late mend relationship sister close either guess what contact information well despite fact still living family frequently lash dad mom makes angry dad sometimes calls bitch mother sometimes says know me ampxb fear issues undiagnosed like agoraphobia depression problem is never get want go see therapist doctor want new diagnosis give one afraid get diagnosed something new severe mental breakdown forced leave home would make worse ampxb end off want state fear dying want kill myself want get better,1 +dont need sleep need answers dont understand second rule drop food ground pick seconds drop seconds timer restart still edible,0 +want lifeits year since ex dumped me think ever loved even liked much maybe first started dating moved away maybe part lust too firsts him visited last april he lived hours away move back home losing first job college dumped went home really care told make tinder account make friends see therapist ask parents dating advice basically nice life wanted ground swallow die time honestly since happened still feel depressed happened moved back area almost year ago he dumped last april already started seeing someone else year fuck cant let go cant fucking move on like me want friends want back ship sailed long gone much happier without even miss me brain stuck cant get him past year gotten new job moved nice new place own dating someone probably smart successful him new group friends much enjoying life past year gained almost lbs still work job fucking hate developed hate field studied chose work i longer take seriously became extremely cynical negative angry world barely made enough money get by spent impulsively friends social life ate feelings cut family life for part every time come contact parents dad takes time tell much embarrass useless failure am spent way much time checking social media obsessing him crying especially car shower bed overdosing pills cutting myself selfharming drinking smoking getting ghosted hilariously tried dating again friends stop talking depressing around traumatized tried going therapy again got traffic tickets wrecked car not fault lonely useless waste person ive wasted time life wish could unfollow social media see updates anymore move fuck on easier said done part scared looking petty crazy unfriendunfollow him like she angry mestill feelings me whatever part thinks keep social media come back judging broke me latter extremely unlikely wish large group friends like does wish become mute anxiety im group people current situation maybe like friends never see initiate contact want see themknow theyre doing hard even keep conversation see losing interest too much want friends kind gave trying keep contact them lost interest like lost interest me maybe accept fact im going alone rest life either live accept it kill myself im savings shitload debt accomplishments friends family im alone sucks alone ive alone whole life born child general stereotype child parents spoil rotten give attention opposite parents older early life could tell never interested becoming parents time mom always friends dad garage working cars getting drunk interaction dad hitting criticizing me putting mom taking side friends kids parents school really like parents and still arent nice people alone time child im alone time now im sick hearing you need love accept alone go things alone travel alone great etc etc im fucking sick alone social anxiety terrible makes want kill myself wish friends cared me wish boyfriend gave shit feelings gave love affection especially much give back even group people feel singled out cant communicate cant relate close feel awkward last time went social even coworkers went bowling went along maybe laughed couple times answered question someone asked barely talked even three beers still anxious mess went straight home afterwards instead eat like everyone else feel like cant anything situation anymore like theres helping me shy scared kid im shy scared depressed adult life living hell even think try anymore theres point therapy help never has im cynical effective anymore think im great person proud me great im paying tell that sorry hear ive through thanks make feel better want go more would money energy confidence time would friends want write things like myself like anything myself no im going try meditation put pills body bullshit generic advice one big business take field seriously anymore feel like death really option point get constant mental suffering part depression half situation family friends emotional support attractive outgoing interesting enough part society nothing contribute nothing look forward to cant even count hands many times ive driven empty parking lot past year half cry disturb roommates remember calling crisis hotline several times never helpful im sick messaging people message back honestly though talking problems solve make feel better kind dont understand point talking either im sick going suffering im negative shallow waste person here course world affected gone everyone would forget week maybe week half two weeks im done trying improve situation feel like death option left,1 +im tired feeling like thisheya everyone im limit here ive ask ready made attempt possible ill try again beginning year tried kill overdosing sleeping pills work slept great first time months everything gone hill there example girlfriend left me came closet parents transgender told father im idiot wrong started cutting worse ever finally top best friend fallen love me feel guilty everything eating away me feel like hurt everyone around way treat myself feel like im falling apart keeps getting worse worse breath take want end im close that,1 +im going judge based ur hobbies means ur lame means ur really cool,0 +hopeand gone,1 +yup finally turned wild ride younger thought s would mean much responsibility stress thought id money world moment get bank card withdraw much money want anyway im actually im slowly realising different childhood expectations like though dont feel different yesterday anyway think ill still lurk around here spend quite bit later teen years scrolling subreddit wanna hang around little till turn annoying old lady old person flair here,0 +part journey end mi think ready go think im depressed suffer mental health issues time thought death comforting me im always tired mentally emotionally physically seems like would nice drift away nothingness rather grind way corporate america work rest life killed climate change bs look forward getting bag helium making final goodbye messages hope good years earth im ready rest now part journey end tony stark endgame ,1 +took really fn high realize keeping around like keeping around realize till second happening always thought putting chase wow,1 +dont really feel like life worth livingfor people is people great lives im sure people amazing friends found soul mate nothing one daughter would better without me husband picked fight left work feeling depressed apparently wants happy thinks getting mad sad right way make happy hes soul mate im stuck family wont take back point got married last year baby dont job im waiting state approval child care assistance left everything know behind move husband moved miles away family time didnt even want desperate get familys home unimportant them lonely depressed even one single soul call talk parents would never understand sister dont talk things none friends answer phone call never call back ask one ive always alone one even wants friend god knows dont fucking soul mate want kill baby better off dont want relationship anymore cant leave dont anyone anything offer world even could leave marriage would never find anyone else love way want loved cant even find friend truly loves me want end get with tried kill failed didnt try hoped things would get better wish could go back tell never gets fucking better,1 +stop pleasei cant even work productive stay hydrated without intrusive thoughts constantly compulsions rage outbursts followed depressive episodes want life end,1 +never loved wish guts end iti never get break it born abusive family hated me im adult ive found probably girl would ever deal me girl dreams like everyone else care love me least way would stop immense pain see videos proposals prom questions makes want kill myself years said tried go prom stupid cunt lesbian friend behind back say no proposal unromantically snatched ring presented said something along lines sure whatevercome find later reason really want it maybe another time then moment seems forever ruined remember whether said not think knows handed ring back probably wouldve ended day so still ring guess were engaged technically cant ever really pop question still one special time made utterly ruined without time machine told night lonely said never really gets lonely general huge fan affection recently told whether loves significant family member list goes on day day out see lovebirds everywhere live them see about see scrolling reddit happy proposal videos theyre crying joy nobody would ever joy me nobody wants me nobody ever wanted me family anyone else sometimes question god hates too every time see proposal video area chest used light butterflies becomes ever slightly empty numb longest time way id feel butterflies animals stuffed animalsbut slowly withered away too im dead inside wish dead outside ive going deep end recently world may trash nothing go wrong headevery day get stuck even more started talking stuffed animal never leaving bed imagining dates imagining wedding imagining happy life someone finally loves me enough life worth it happiness love always synthetic see changing statistically ever way live life single prolonged death possible outright damage mental anguish leads unhealthy habits slow damage slow pain slow torture slow death inside out lungs pitch black hard breathe cigars cant go day without spanking smoking weed harder things sometimes maybe attempt die every part body sluggish broken cant afford doctor im losing mind post tip iceberg like life hand crafted important details cut heart open dump lemon juice it want world anymore wish guts wrap wire around neck take start passing time awaits afterlifemore torturefor eternity thats fair wish exist wish irresponsible parents used condom got abortion anxiety depression probably autism life life alone makes advocate eugenics assisted redflag people like exist lifes like mine exist feel pain whole planet full irresponsible selfish people theres dumbfuck rich kid getting rd ferarri hes going crash meanwhile family cant even find decent family home combined incomes whole world bullshit someone please kill me please end misery,1 +mind dark place right nowfor years recurring suicidal thoughts every time things get really bad morbid wish die peoples standards life would okay maybe even great caring mother loving boyfriend im finishing engineering degree even tuition pay would even want die devil details mum caused big traumas years ago destroying ideas me like marriage loyalty siblings hate every conversation agree ideas presses much boyfriend lacks social skills hes empathetic really harsh sometimes quite often really im terribly sensitive sex life sucks too im really late studies uni though hell unforgiving time professors really care mental health ive six years even get internship imperative order graduate work experience might find internship one im close graduate ive started badly spend last four years trying fix shit ive done im entering limbo need graduate cant graduate many regrets life lot anger heart feel like ill fail life human being partner professional mother id love lot kids im afraid ruin hate like siblings mum feel cheating bitch embedded me bad genes make fail partner although ive never let come surface see point living except dreading final hellish destination maybe pity family too im afraid ill cause much pain commit redflag life pleasant head cant find joy happy prospect me ive tried talking mum boyfriend it people think reason sad let alone depressed suicidal never let tell whole story theyd hurt lot already listening it ive therapy before horribly expensive cant afford right now think quarantine helping see things different light know mind worst place moment,1 +fucking terrified right nowi first full big year college amp took fucking years get life even remotely together relationships romantically blew fuck face lies cheating wonderful combination alone years amp depression slowly gets worse like slow acting poison friends facebook distant family relationship see happy amp kills me want cry amp cant stressed college feel get anything career path one person knew amp close met video game wow amp close close ironing works ldr blew face wonderful explosion lies her always get lied to understand why kind hearted man creepy things like step bounds female friends always respectful amp always step first help people perpetually find shortest end stick life anyways best friend amp im alone fears amp one talk to want someone wrap arms around amp tell ok im scared getting worse amp worse keep thinking easy way out big coward it desire there amp feel like trash it always others need it soul found me get hand fuckim scared amp confused,1 +love going hot section witnessing homophobic meme homophobic comments makes much secure feel resentment towards should probably clarify sarcasm ye,0 +kinda wack watching radical far right people support radical far left nazi party like modern nazis radical right wingers supporting party radical far left,0 +bouta go nut brb fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +tried kill yesterday told try againhi sw ive considered posting times before want seem like attention whoring people cope different ways im trying get depression out there sometimes easy know someone listened regardless theyre internet stranger not yesterday im dealing parents get fightargument mother says we want life anymore go roof jump off face first dunno guess fully expecting die jumping roof maybe try higher well get that prepared lol land entire body practically seizing up arm hurts leg head stomach back get manage walk back door locked slam it mother come unlock crying saying i take er calls dad left mins prior mins later comes in calls idiot fucking moron says try again jump second story window time concrete hell even help swear god happened rthathappened still cussing mother laughing idea leaves again hour later comes back says stuff hes staying good time try play attention also tried kill years ago took sleeping pills ready too still now really looking answers anything rambling thanks reddit e mighta probably used different account post on one less i know might be oh well also edit add something going back jump second time afterall succeed first time soencouraging would have hurt bad still right now drugs could use pill right lol idk maybe thanks dirt splitting skull open maybe not lots thoughts still running head,1 +know anyone could hate movie funny took unique mind come storyline typical alien movie aliens stupid confused need rent least once,0 +sorrows young wertheras write eyes burning tears secret relationship girl strictly religious first big love sex countless times love til death broke year ago told church done excommunicated year got back month already engaged another guy oh god much hurts want walk open door death grandma died last year alzheimers mental illness screamed hours hours pain soul stress excommunication seeing suffer spiralled similar mental illness strong depression ive lost money cannot concentrate live parents know do feeling much pain see way out ache love had feel terribly lonely betrayed worthless always told her i love nothing ever say think ever change that anything me already deserve loved lifetime see really meant that need someone tell going normal again even takes medication going fall love loyal woman never leave bond deeper woman although seems impossible well great kids fully back laugh cuddle whatever comparison going have,1 +read well story solid volckman feels failed waybr br i disagree first well executed volckman well try new technique focus worth thinking about would immortality reduce value life big question br br i see trying hard build feeling compromising applauded sure interesting exercise build characters form seen artists reduce form bare minimum build intensity moment identify film thisbr br further much interesting richard linklaters rotoscoping volckmans story meaning linklaters later stories wasted life drugs old news everyone knows it one anything it renaissance offer something new think about many stories loads holes far betterbr br well done volckman really nice work,0 + sit bed eating box double cheese cheezits snack mix listening pod ween satan iife good,0 +need shirts plz send recommendations tshirts preferred,0 +it dare go,0 +guess not find hard find redeeming qualities tbh woman ever love,1 +recommending song everyday day vibez dababy httpsmusicapplecomusalbumkirk less goooo,0 +mystery solution great noir conceit questions though maybe paying enough attentionbr br who killed neighbor why killed replacement girl whybr br and minor quibbles shown stopoff hotel switch shown switch shown jim girl going hotel jim going bathroom coming told bartender girlfriend went car without himbr br then jim getting back car seeing sleeping woman little girl back seatbr br this would given viewer sporting chance figuring solutionbr br i wish taped though id like see again,0 +depression anxiety join us close knitted group discriminate anyone mental health conditions life already hard enough safe space lovely community talk mental health experiences relationship experiences without feeling threatened judged gtgt httpstmehuddlehumanshttpstmehuddlehumans ltlt join us part huddle family welcome open arms always nonprofit run people believe cause eradicating mental health stigma,0 +im ready diethis long time coming wouldve done year half ago thought one last chance happiness found ive ruined that unfixable im done cant anymore used wanted gone necessarily dead exist thats now want death im ready it want cause pain thats inevitable this im really looking someone talk try convince lifes worth living experience shown time not whether actually simply specific personalitymentalityetc make debatable but want talk need someone talk cant say anything anyone know directed sub another ive never really posted anything usually look others helpi else say edit wanted let everyone know im still things happened weekend though really feel better maybe worse actually stay around awhile longer make sure things ok care about ive thought trying find professional help someone talk know begin thank help last week meant allot,1 +relaxing night well last years please blow know kidding phone going silent disturb so bye ok quite surrounded darkness one awake comfortable little bored care like night might go bed soon sonight,0 +rd bottle rum alcohol thing numbs pain drunk n sad,1 +thoughts go mind lost alone broken hopeto whoever reads this know kind weird write phone honestly dont energy strength write paper dont computer type on even though im even typing im using microphone record voiceim tired physically mentally sleep rest anymore way get away everything moment honestly motivation focus even try everyone says things ok got keep trying theyll tell selfish give up doesnt anyone ever look point view person obviously somethings wrong make feel like this sitting day night cant even find comfort family friends searching internet painless ways end it range drugs cutting wrists even considered hanging myself everyone says selfish isnt selfish person suffer get want asked writing say dont know asked everyones answer itll get better dont know either thats something everyone says sad fact doesnt get better everyone sad fact everyone someone them get sit alone desperate way out somethings dont work out goes people to ive tastes happy tease know gone know long days ahead never seem end wonder would really cry died everyone says miss you thats natural response someone pain knows true thoughts images run mind someone broken see words appear cant help cry think someone read time help dont know answer like dont know light end tunnel appear feeling like makes wish could lay bed close eyes never open again redeeming qualities job money friends sent away person love world part hates much weighs shoulders making hard breathe bottom line need help help please want live like this store future living something never want do miss excited small things looking forward things please help need help writing scares me dont know ill it feel there please dont know happen me need help right wont get it please look ones close you may need you day feel like go further ive never felt like before people saying one help you dont believe that sometimes need help really need it,1 +think im gonna tomorrowi cant keep living like this feel bad cat dont trust anyone take care love much hope family finds good home,1 +anyone else see like porn someone rly sexy u cant get hard nut them theyre still rly like filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ey made another dumb quiz finished heres link anybody wants take fun cause theyre bored httpsuquizcomfuid,0 +want let goi feel alone know people love friends cant feel loved anymore guess could say hate much let lovable like therea hole middle ofy chest killing me hurts goddamn much get know ive got another day hell ahead me cold hard every single day im tired want lie let slip away nothing violent painful drifting away,1 +know lifeim right graduated high school literally graduation night kicked house emotionally abused im living kilometres away friends anyone care about held stuff owned hostage took saving get back im sleeping cot grandfathers basement siblings stuff gets taken daily point socks money buy more mom manipulative person managed pin friends parents lost friends feel alone one talk built anger know healthy getting really want over,1 +dont feel like myselfi hurt everyone care,1 +wtf babies eating cousin years old lifted medicine ball pounds wtf milk one time like months fell bed bed high fell bed n hit head dresser n didnt cry kid crackhead sumn,0 +im lonelyi drown bit past middle august date set contingencies could save time,1 +music suggestions please like abt everything preferences feel free drop albums artists songs,0 +gay crisis gay crisis gay crisis anyone know use shethey pronouns,0 +seen many bad reviews supervivientes de los andes felt compelled stand or least ill try first all course looks dated made seventies low budget thats part charm like contemporary films also dig old ones worth im one feel urge see like movies modern treatments effects besides almost every movie buff likes old fashioned motion pictures who like films el santo plan outer space matter overall quality aspect pace tool covering again low cost think constant dialogs order better character situations development sure alive better fx despise old one that feel quite attracted english speakers event involving people uruguay me gives plus supervivientes de los andes like even canoa seventies based true event too would better remake due advance technology think would stick one based emotions offers regardless production datebr br all based impact first time saw tv nowadays think lost primal force course long time ive seen tons better movies every aspect cinema diminish true value bad film place alive without hesitation give break,0 +eating make feel betteram punishing still alive,1 +dm stuff one knows abut u ur secret safe daddy uwu filling filling filler owo noticed bulge fills,0 +suppose goodbyei looking reason live looking someone talk to tried kill four years ago saved ex girlfriend stayed three years year ago moved back norway ldr year distance sucked worth it morning called broke me one thing promised wouldnt lied her able get hold since explain myself really deserve her shell better without me reason making post knows username way saying goodbye love you always will blame yourself fault,1 +pros conspros i wont feel sad i wont feel lonely i wont feel pain i wont feel disappointment i wont deal stupid people anymore my boyfriend find someone better i stop burdening everyone especially loved ones cons i might fail fuck life even im scared itll hurt ill feel bad whoever find theyll try save waste money my boyfriend blame i dont want hurt mom my friends family might sad im frightened ill end hell,1 +wrote letter guy loved id like post bc idk took lot write hurt lot write dear alexander everythingthe reason woke daysthe person talked mostwho wanted text day call nightmost importantly showed love lovethere many things happened always came back grew stronger itive never regretted hated much letting someone goive never stopped loving youi miss everyday theres say goes dont think youyou forever alwaysyou still even dont talki never love anyone way loved youwhat special amazing id rather die never met saved kept alive daysyou made sure went bed ate didnt anything would put riskyou many anxiety attacks mom hit yelled meno one ever like werei burrito dumbassi love youi never stopped loving youi never stop loving youyou always piece heart piece earned havei truly never knew love till met youall calls lasted hourslil naps id takemovie nightssoftball practicesstupid pictures wed send othermaking fun people google mapstelling day asking ursjust seeing hearing voice laugheverythingi dont regret meeting youwithout wouldnt right nowi got much confidence youi girlbabyburrito anything else youd call didnt care long yoursim longer tears apart inside im notforever always thats would saywell forever heart always one loved mostthere word strong enough much miss youi stayed liked talking fell love youno one made feel made feeli cant ever say thank enough everything mei love forever alwaysill never forget every little memory madeall stupid inside jokes dumbass word niggardly liked say much knowing pissed offi miss joking around calling dumbass stupid shit facetime called idiotin moments always happiest ive ever beenyou made happiest one elsenow gone hard finding someone fill holei cant say easyno one amazing connection didi wish fought harder youi didnt biggest regret ill ever makeyou smart truly believed anything want deserve fucking best youve shiti hope find someone makes half happy made mei never forget youi love alexander forever alwaysim happy met hope find another like you,0 +want diei feel like purpose life im thinking attempting commit redflag tomorrow crushing vicodin taking alcohol may break boyfriend first hid something devasted me best friend left one good friends moving feel like one friend talk to want talk parents stay room sleep cry,1 +netflix bullying watch one kshow wont leave alone kshow recommendations ughhhhh,0 +battling depression lonelyness suicidal thoughts redflag selfharm years without ending sight finaly opend family willing go therapist two years would last days living disgusting existence searching ending horrendous live terrible afraid moment see new therapist hope turn first last post supreddit thank much showing never truely alone finaly getting help,1 +bucket list kill okay life beyond repair im gonna try optimistic this im happy find next mystery life want end all have sex someone gorgeous try heroin pop molly friends skydive try cocaine hahah writing realize really want much life much drive dreams anyways ill update list done im ready go bye good day ,1 +anyone know write apa format school district usually us use mla history teacher wants us write essay apa,0 +know know kelly legend hoping film would accurate depiction life may disappointed creative license taken film eg naomi watts character never existed reality look purely piece entertainment holds pretty well ledgers performance title role quite solid taking mantle cinemas best ned not hard considering previous neds include yahoo serious mick jagger former carlton champion australian rules football bob chitty great footballer poor actor location shooting film area live bacchus marsh outside melbourne well clunes ballarat,0 +world depressing hate it want kill myself found way it us falling apart think sometimes talk people seeing truth get insults mad cannot fucking deal conservative people ruining world right now talking peoples rights away wanting kill people think like them tired mocked told stupid fat cannot things cus woman tired men bad drivers rude people tired living backwards town worrying give covid family one wear mask sick rather kill myself stupid worthless fat everyone get fucked hope end world fucking die go first see hell fist time,1 +feel anythingi felt anything years recently got boyfriend hes really nice best person world nothing changed tries help theres much do motivation im always sad depression social anxiety mild aspergers borderline personality disorder want kill idk yet im really close though options get better think would better bf since say mean things mood swings could find someone treats better want keep living maybe could keep living stay alive solely least could happy know would though feel like id need motivation id happy that know option is loves lot reason know really want leave him really know im asking anyone advice would appreciate it,1 +every try type idk accidently say dik heehee funni,0 +rant kind of keep scrolling im done life boring every day blends together hate alive hate myself im sure almost everyone know hates too talk feel bad im weird social cant even keep conversation going im worthless even talents nearest thing talent drawing im even good it read this sorry wasting time needed say barely ever talk this,0 +really care dating im m ive ever serious relationship enjoyable manipulative always fine always friends hang with lot friends girlfriends spending time them started make feel like tad bit sad miss feeling someone share moments im missing out time know need anyone cant determine whether actively trying find someone spend time fun ignore urge,0 +cant anymoremy grades terrible like never mom always angry gets home really think would even care gone need end all long enough,1 +life know itjust check last posts,1 +really problem post herepeople ok use one person worse them sent pm someone answered sunday heres conversation ended gt me probably stems experience ive made far really thing report bbc radio year ago rate redflag among polish people uk massive according social workers come cambridge certs english university degrees work experience work joiners polish discouraging time thought turned everything revolves around born really make sense carry living gt them seems like terrible situation judged solely based come from guess make appreciate things bit here ability grow poor francoamerican upbringing able climb way part us space program im successful people im comfortable things turned end ever visited us id love hear travels experiences time share yeah sucks chance you matter hard work know suppose situation manageable religion people believed suffer irl theyll go heaven losers fed antidepressants keep going people still inevitably refuse kind life kill themselves ill it new visa atm right now ill chill weeks think wanted die ill go europe it know fast train railroad woods from germany prague good spot according videos watchpeopledie quite sure way that im feeling better,1 +run money diei months land job running money since nobody live without money go ahead end life balance reaches zero,1 +doctor policeman new orleans hours locate killer infected pneumonic plaguebr br an effective classy little thriller directed elia kazan blends documentary realism race time pulpy heartbeat set filmed around new orleans panic streets taken story quarantine like em cold edna edward anhalt oscar original story also boasts fine ensemble cast deliver top rate performances director turn richard widmark bringing method year marlon kazan streetcar named desire paul douglas jack palance as walter jack palance wonderfully named zero mostel get sweatily moody pursuers chase pursued halt onset potential black death epidemicbr br where film scores main suspense points kazans astute ability cut back forth protagonists without altering flow mood piece widmarks public health doctor hypodermic needle hand running around trying locate bad guys good bad guys bemused wide scale hunt them tension stacked fever breaking point thankfully final thirty minutes becomes cracking piece cinema palance excelling nasty villain ironically puts one mind widmarks tommy udo kiss death three years priorbr br its imaginative intelligently written story one cunningly links rats criminals carriers disease blight society were noirish elements paranoia blend nicely basic procedural thriller being memorable scenes suitably cloaked stifling atmosphere kazan created although early character psychologizing threatens steer film talky based alleyway definitely film worth staying end essential filmnoir maybe even essential kazan certainly highly recommended film begs discovered new generation film lovers reappraised old guard may missed back day ,0 +trying find reasons toive searching ways end it friends family started soothing stress drinking trying socialize bars clubs avail even started thinking obituary say remembered by would even publish pay obituary paper good drama school good actor control public view people strangers towards me nothing live for know talk professional know consequences it lose job,1 +eid tomorrow im still trying teach apply eyeliner fml test text text text text text text text text text text text,0 +welcome cum cafe get today cumsume,0 +ok im scaredi certain id able go school get trade would high paying job would allow live life totally realize every trade need math skills mathematically inclined fact im shit it maybe trades less simpler math others doomed fail life sheer lack intelligence,1 +friends sister a moves back mom b slips drugs b invites man c paid sex mom b b know happened next dayjust story might get complicated follow adrug abusingpimp day daughter bthe mom canonymous man dmy friend quiet time friend finds ill call d tells confirmed followup conversation b weekend super worried b bmomis constantly blacked drunk weeks friend would interject im friend defined someone hearing story second hand seen first hand mother drinking beginning early afternoon reaction friend d getting quietly mad hearing increased drinking seems brought raping event ,1 +reddit especially commenting seems fritz tonightif comments showing or cant see replies post seems reddit issue affecting us sign ignored anything stick us hopefully reddit get fixed converse properly,1 +janam janam janam sath chalna younhi kasam tumhein kasam akay milna younhi el el,0 +mean friend says i mood someone text rn talk whilst talking like someone talkin to feel like available comfortable venting friend keep company one else friend want there get wanting talk people talkin means someone want talk rn one available feeling multiple times would express bored talkin ignoring someone else messagesoh asked like texting said different like tired first choice good enough want cut everyone never give time anyone like never consider anyone friend friends making feel unimportant,1 +know really bothers people decide shower right specific time ive showering past years reason like either already showered shower dont time morning plenty time stay super late shower pm every single night theyre excuse oh thought id time get unspoken schedule years break hell earth made shower couple minutes less brush teeth oops ok gn bothering currently needed complain good day,0 +school killing im frustrated ever since school solely online ive struggling struggling im enrolled several advanced classes teachers seem care mental health homelife situations cant understand anything theyre teaching everything seems overwhelming point break panic cant focus almost impossible much better work school help right fingertips cant get here cant get help inside room theres much disposal room supposed escape relax life im longer allowed luxury missing assignments theyre going stack here cant focus im exhausted trying hardest getting return bad grade ive given up hard focus teachers unforgiving im barely bare minimum waking eating constantly feels like theres much going nothing happening get offtrack get distracted reward break half assignment wish could focus work cant cant im tired man cant home im always alone here one cant learn anyone help group chats exchanging answers papers enough me wanna learn cant here,0 +got braces today hurt dont know else explain it mouth literally looks like factory,0 +telling getting better today turning shit cannot anymore crying sleep tonight would better without pulling down cannot burden loved ones anymore,1 +know doso im sure goes here ive got serious depression treat anyway sometimes choke take pills never enough od hate myself im liar loser cant talk people going way comfort zone already feel useless would die one would really miss me thing keeps alive girlfriend im starting feel like burden her,1 +everyone loves fbi said im second wanted person everybody wants piece me,0 +need help urgently long readeverything write complete honesty hold anything back find purpose live working world turned years old ago months ago need insight suggestions live desired destined cookie cutter life philosophy life live life fullest work minimal degree preferably afford it way workinglabor force set fit human nature many ways whether spiritually mentally physically also say means lazy like many others age even older believe way current workforce well education system set much stacked modern day human being idealistic past present issue todays world working jobs becoming norm people trying scrape afford basic necessities shelter example hours week lets say person works hours minimum week hours left minimum amount sleep needed lets say hours days person would hours dedicated that leaving hours left combine days worth communicating well getting readywashing work leaves person hours thing week account chores daily lifegym time etc well actually tied enjoy time off next problem working amount time even effort put in majority people still fall behind bills necessities creating rut essentially get trapped work doing never really getting ahead going get far issues system set up sure people today already know talking about people praised early lives school praised creative artistic abilities rather quick efficiently standardized tests complete people individualists ideas often overlooked left behind shot down often makes wonder many people considered smart smart good memorization test taking intelligence like people general come forms brings back personally guess could think one aimless people went adulthood dropped college like many others seen real future program ended unrealistic debt shitty call center job full lost souls try make world stuck cycle stuck anywhere overdraft probably last year so like waste money either literally paying billscar insurance absolute necessities working hours minimum usually more still live parents absolute need hate everyday feel like fucking leach option seem get ahead even current job motivate work fullest potential job performance measured satisfaction stats uncaring ungrateful customers regardless much effort put in still get poor surveys blame falls you worth put fickle environment opinion honesty soon quitget fired current job see self getting real job long time ever again people often try tell getting trade real opportunity life always reply would miserable amount money worth trading happiness away really aspire part life travel around freely obligations going place place seeing different sights meeting different people living life fullest regrets future wasting entire life away working steady income coming nonworking ventures investments road opportunities handouts government assistantince go entitlement educating binary options quite time invested yet want ready thought potentialsole income future getting point see really purpose living going life the real world completed redflag many many times passing week getting much closer even set date january things start going way fear death really care said judgement passed people here truly feel happy enjoy life working majority free time away usually making someone else barleynever worked richer power you me healthy believe even compatible todays world free thinkers opportunists question fine people reddit recommendations would give live type life described little money moment hypothetically get car decide drive different part canada one day would best way sustain come would likely stop paying student loan maybe even car insurance amount time try save much cash possible redditers situation please give advice tips fall along lines staying current situation current situation going lead eventual death soon directions made work it live real word add coal fire never money me experience if cant own id feel better dead layne staley,1 +losing hopeevery day feels worse last body failing betraying every way imaginable going get worse much worse even months ago people say theres hope future science could find way fix this maybe theyre right knows happen happen might years meantime every day constant struggle barely leave house barely be in house constantly feel hot entire body sweats profusely almost constantly always feel moments away sweating clothes often sweat clothes almost daily would doctors me warn me lie constantly throughout process im canada doctors supposed helpful try profit patients grow believing theyre gods know everything say sideeffects symptoms lifethreatening really care physically lifethreatening left situation want live,1 +typed middle word kebord like didnt even want lol dont know say lol dont worry didnt know lol dont worry little much realized dont lot lol lol didnt know didnt want much said didnt want want saying dont job said dont good time said going dont want money dont worry mom dad want money dont worry want lol dont want lol dont worry want lol didnt even want like like man want money good man want dont worry much better didnt even want lol dont worry want money dont worry dont worry nice dont worry going money want didnt know didnt know didnt know didnt want go didnt know want didnt know like man like going hell going dinner mom going realized dont money didnt even know didnt know didnt even want much money going give mom birthday present didnt know didnt even know mom,0 +hello everyone go ahead leave comment sort ill best say something kind you im working positivity recovering family issue id appreciate could help out,0 +today first therspy session weeks therapist seemed really concerned suicidal ideationi telling feel like theres real reason anything even bother living squints says so suicidal ideation lately started panic internally might institutionalized,1 +dvd player almost died joke one stories yesterday pc stoped win yeah still use it starting windows dots appeared stopped turned pc appeared two options recovery mode normal mode nothing worked day later thing several hours later now goingto remove back cables found something usb usb games like skullgirls ktne keep talking removed tried turn worked pc trying boot fcking pendrive usb angry almost threw dvd player ground,0 +finally got boyfriend flirting months flirting since june hour calls still clue liked him said liked thought nice him how obvious everyone him guys clueless im honestly filled brim joy call mine excited first official date saturday cannot wait,0 +wrote note think carry much longerevery day getting worse seem matter hard try stay positive gets worse day day feel im going snap soon something thing keeping alive right thought id leave behind moment im thinking im gone guilt even exist nothing exist able screw anything anymore im sure im even looking posting this im messed up struggling sick existence thanks listening,1 +child molester grampa dieingso moms father covid likely going die mother devastated im happy got deserved sister mad happy mom upset hes pedophile broke mind anything happy ive looking forward years think mom,1 +loveeveryone loves other remember that were going shit alone this even though might feel everyone loves understand,1 +say movie said hundreds times before american classic spawned dozens imitators none midnight madness one kind ridiculous opening montagemusic bonaventure hotel hooked leon made us feel young carefree one question though two hot hookers time timemoney arrange event cast top notch david naughton best here tight yellow sweatshirt disturbing little brother michael j foxin first starring role real brat also naughtons love interest dork obligatory black dude fishermans hat yellow team michael j fox bad things like try steal cups beer pabst blue ribbon brewery runs away flounders van flounders team gives us comedy exactly deal blond team dating flounder melio blade yes mexican gentlemans name blade guy flounder team best lines movie pomp here meat machine team bunch drunks personal favorite armpit silent black man great too two teams nerds lesbianstwo lb twinsbr br you know ending start matter s megenre finest rent one buy it buy now,0 +badly injure fists yes punching walls idk brooke grounded month barely talk like chance talking idk want fists bleed thats,0 +avatar gang rise ive seen approximately amount users avatars pfps time us capitalize destroy pfp nation one all tiny picture lookin heads,0 +got girlfriend imaginary cant physical stuff talk time,0 +im losingim losing fight urge end strong abandoned again like anymore broken many times keep giving hope break every promise abandon over push pull push pull give hope break heart im mourning person making remourn over stranger were someone whos embodiment everything said hated opposite me happy well know im suicidal abandonment issues keep pretending care breaking soon trust again cause depression broken every way possible bad person sure dressed like one days want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die im afraid succeed mom mad mess kick out want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die urge strong im fucking tired im tired im tired im tired matter im tired let people down let down hate myself know fix me know fix feel im ugly hate im horrible want die fucking selfish wanting endure fuck off fuck you im mad im mad tired im mad tired cant stop fucking crying every fucking day every fucking night cry cry cry work ones looking crying feeling heart rip apart over crying feeling numbness creep over empty hurt numb pain think laugh bc im amused mask im pretending look puppet dancing you seem better hah no fuck off need justify feel mask on come time changes subject every time joke makes laugh everyone leaves one listens everyone goes away fucking fault fucking fault fault fault fault fault fault hate much bc love you want anymore promised were stranger say things hurt purpose think notice bc brush off fuck you again one knew six years fucking fake fake mean one fell for used hold people made feel way one nothing still want run though you was horrible scummy person im angry im hurt blame everything chipped walls brought holding spackle coward fuck you hate much bc good enough make stay im good enough loved listened to life meaning purpose one day ill it one day ill gone thank god counselor got back tomorrow might made th night,1 +tech progress thing makes want liveconsidering drastically different lives compared two decades ago im really curious see whats going happen next ai autonomous vehicles g research blockchain cant help wonder world going look like years now yes friendless lonely depressed mentally ill piece trash im ready suffer always chance die unless suffering excruciating unbearable physical pain need rush things,1 +well im cant party seen friends weeks got great homemade cake tho,0 +friend died feels like faultso im social person dont many friends well dont anymore know sad friend dog rufus ive years took family disowned drug usage wanted friend slowly climbed back almost going back normal fella society hes gone tumour didnt money pay surgery feels like ive killed one care one cared me know might sound exeggerated ive thought ending al bond years spent together idk im trying reach typing here perhaps putting al words calms mind even im struggling post this see this bid farewell,1 +everybody problem schooling system lmao poor bitch homeschooled,0 +one cannot help impressed intelligence scale film simultaneously disappointed lost opportunitiesbr br i found script excellent vocal talent edmund purdom quite impressive however artifact time film suffers many hollywoodisms especially poor casting much lushness sets much pretentiousness edmund purdom who plays title character obviously awkward physical acting suspect primarily shakespearean theater thisbr br so movie people reading this propose excellent candidate remake especially cast real egyptians egyptians,0 +someone used spend hours driving around backstreets north london attempt avoid horrific congestion film immediately appealed throw interest london like back late s basic premise version tv heaven paper film ticked right boxes watched the knowledge actual movie certainly lived to exceeded high expectationsbr br visually surprised different london looked back i lived islington s long gentrification transformed area truly came across grimy tatty downatheel london may still bad housing estates general feel place much cleaner brighter pleasant nowadays based movie shows rather memoriesbr br as story acting well top marks obviously go nigel hawthorne vampire absolutely brilliant acts deliberately unpredictably alternating total straightfaced severity surreal mindgames order unnerve knowledge boys puts test testbr br all excellent thoroughly enjoyable trip back specific time place find endlessly fascinating even especially interested london circa still enjoy following witty dialogue likable characters the knowledge,0 +boy like ur skinny cute face cute haircut,0 +dont know anymorefeeling life drastically go drain im starting fail school get drugs dreading waking everyday horrible society thought never able pass school seeing black darkness future great literally ok killing scared dying realizing lonely dont talk anyone realizing fucked life permanently wont probably live agreeing kill whenever dad dies considering dads human love earth great,1 +much painim redflag thoughts cant stop crying boyfriend going shit im trying help verbally emotionally taking me guess realized told leave alone triggered start crying kill thoughts started stop go away think kept much bottled inside coming out typing this stop keep crying cant handle feelings once smothering me,1 +actually enjoys livingi dont get people enjoy here want end every day im ticking time bomb one day boyfriend reassuring get better wont enough,1 +ocd worst fuck ocd hate whole life woukd ruin life like done absolutely done,1 +loved it fan original series always wondered back story would fail delight me also love fact apart eric stoltz recognise one person refreshing much like bsg introduced whole wealth new talent cant wait series start airing well done ronald d moore team excellent job special effects dialogue acting spot on felt emotionally tied storyline know purists probably disagree assessment felt caprica far superior scifi stuff produced last decade,0 +funny thing happened someone another site trying make joke expose thread dw asked it said too clean hed trouble finding anything funny part post much shit would needed seconds,0 +miss summer wanna look sunset feel warmness tbh thought summer nicer actually summer sit around room regardless season still summer depression nicer winter depression,0 +tired wanting give upi anyone talk to im posting guess im exhausted mentally physically im transgender started hrt alternative redflag couple months ago feel bit better cant help wonder im ever going happy ive longed death past years ive lost track number times tried end all know longing ever disappear thinking fact itll someday kind relieving besides feel like everyone wants us die anyway people tend actively encourage deaths even rejoice it wants live world theyre welcome anyway ive always felt like unwanted belong even child ive accepted im trans even so feel like late try fix life longer enjoy anything im longer capable anything myself life left broken im already way past expiry date ive set date birthday way grieving dates overlap im even sure ill able hold then im actually strong enough it,1 +five teens set camping oregon wilderness despite warned park ranger soon realize something lurking around backwoods waiting strikebr br when comes old horror movies one keeps popping every conversation friday th took upon find good old horror movies fell short simply compared friday th dawn happened among ones found really impressive bland stuff find today sharp terms character development quite likable ones casual pace hurry get hack slash bits takes time set proper mood tone atmospheric builds killer suspense letting always sense dread like somethings know strikebr br where live definitely overlooked gem simply people never heard give chance ill state friday th rip off two concepts even go near other mind overall one impressive slashers ive seen while,0 +dad jus told something real world supposed that middle pandemic here playing puppy bit me proceeded blame listening music it dont think parents understand something listen something else,0 +hi yall bro good chess tbh filliwgshdhdhdh,0 +nothing left future full sufferingthe thing future hardship mental health prevent ever career field dedicated life finances into marriage best friendlove life always looming like awful ghost slowly destroying remains me cant keep burdening people care aboutcare me ive run treatment options see keep going much longer ive tried really have feels like it theres reason keep fighting,1 +m married kids successful almost jumped story building todayi dealt depression minimum years diagnosed reality likely dealing entire life depression anxiety ptsd adult due multiple traumas life including molestation family member course several years young child teen years ive countless meds counseling hospital done heavy counseling month still continue find darkness despair life ive married twice second marriage failing struggle lack sex life zero sex drive also causes issues mental stability likely due sexual abuse gotten point really care anymore im religious man believe god jesus died sins also fear committing redflag ill go hell honestly thats thing stopping me kids wife parents friends today close jumping roof parking ram work stories concrete im pretty sure header would job quickly painfree reason though it much pain suffer much honestly believe life believe get better im ruining family depression hurting kids cant check least let live without me cant find peace continue suffer day day day pain end,1 +bruh moment millions assignments due week want,0 +ever lurk post refrain commenting cuz know controversial opinion cause idiot try argue you annoying get offended others opinions like wtf let others think want,0 +one year ago tomorrowi remember one year ago tomorrow friends house party feeling troubled dont like big social gatherings mostly kept myself went home together cried u held amp wiped tears tucked bed fell asleep here alone house ill probably spend tomorrow alone next day next next time call me ill come alive flip like switch right nothing is youre fine even better without me wreck theres hope hope weekend get feeling really shitty horrible get courage something end it miss,1 +guy skirt every single post right like damn,0 +sorta drug makes think differently permanentlyi really dislike way think shitty way think sorta extreme drug something change way think,1 +think playlist mine playlist look like httpsopenspotifycomplaylistcqvtbobzgtifwycdwj filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +redflag i decided so debating options continue living decided redflag way go dad figured plan told getting mcdonalds next thing know mental institutionwhen told physiatrist reasons want kill read reason why thought transgender tried explain im transgender reason hate biological factors female unfairness one kept arguing im transgender called idoit said professional crazy one needs help umm ok talked another physiatrist also male actually agreed kept saying things like matter shit like that hate mental hospitals food taste like shit beds hard sleep boring helli actually starved self days drink anything becuse food bad forced eat realised give danm die care money if die get money stay option die believe die nothing happens darkness option biological disadvantage weaker half population metblisom mentend afaster metabolism anywhere percent higherthan women studies shown women naturally meant higher body fat percentage men strength men physically stronger women have average less total muscle mass absolute terms relative total body mass greater muscle mass men result oftestroneinduced muscular hypertrophy men also denser stronger bones tendons ligaments height men taller women average cm inches average adult man america cm tall versus cm average adult woman pregnancy men capable fathering children old age also man dose much want child pop nut abdominal cramping andpain duringpregnancy often normal associated everything constipation increased blood flow uterus first trimester braxtonhicks contractions round ligamentpainin second third trimesters symptoms pregnancy include frequent urinationswollen legstingling numbness fingers handspelvic pressureback painpigmentation breastpain i never pregnant research found periods crampsare caused prostaglandins say prosstuhglandinz chemicals girls body produces make muscles uterus contractmany women migraines reportheadaches duringmenstruation many girlsthrow feel like mightthrow theirperiods hormone changes probably cause feelings usually go away day twothe usual length ofmenstrual bleeding four six days usual amount blood loss perperiodis ml iq scientists concluded mens average intelligencequotient iq four points womens brains typically larger breast largebreast place excess weight chest without enough support surrounding muscles rest body weight thebreastcancause severepain make difficult maintain good posture even lead spinal deformitybreast causes due underlying disease examples include tight fitting bra pregnancy menstruation breast feeding exercise breast annoying general man go outside toplees without causing accident getting arrested cardoivascular men greater cardiovascular reserve larger hearts greater lung volume per body mass higher red blood cell count higher hemoglobin also higher circulating clotting factors leads faster healing wounds urine pee want history world woman ever proven able urinate name snow guys time men love peeing everywhere dna entire planet one giant mens restroom awsome general cooler guy superheros videogames also action movies probably apart childhood childhood barbies makeup which hated always jealous brothers christmas birthdays,1 +knew premise film obviously cant miss good sounding film especially master suspense director sir alfred hitchcock basically tennis champ guy haines farley granger meets eccentric stranger bruno anthony robert walker train travelling washington new york bruno talks perfect murder guy hates wife bruno hates father bruno suggests swapping murders guy obviously take seriously course guys wife miriam joyce haines kasey rogers or laura elliott found murdered amusement park guy course chief suspect bruno keeps bumping him reminding plan giving things help kill father wants dead murder enquiry brunos stalking threatening tennis career relationship daughter sen morton north northwests leo g carroll anne ruth roman bruno realises guy murder decides plant evidence crime scene make guilty guys monogrammed cigarette lighter amusement park tennis game guy anne who obviously found murder plan race amusement park stop bruno fight speeding outofcontrol carousel also starring patricia hitchcock the directors daughter barbara morton marion lorne mrs anthony jonathan hale mr anthony howard st john police capt turley john brown prof collins hitchcocks cameo man boarding train carrying double bass interesting dialogue character interactions good suspense moments course unforgettable carousel finale good classic film nominated oscar best cinematography sir alfred hitchcock number greatest pop culture icons film number years thrills good,0 +ariana grenade ,0 +cant fucking thisfuck hurts fucking much cant keep up,1 +yever feel like cant anything lost motivation let vent sec school sucks hate it good part friends like two fun teachers online fcked doggy style im missing like thirty assignments motivation went im failing like three classes matter many times turn computer go canvas work brain shuts down laziness or least thats like tell myself last ive felt super empty bunch stuff used love playing guitar try ill get one two practices month loved making art everytime open program lose spark feel tired time motivation anything lying bed listening music hours hard take care myself hard eat hard clean room hard get bed im basically walking corporal husk yeah im thriving please help whats wrong lol,0 +daily reminder drink water may posted today forgot,0 +milfs superior milfs there without mommy milkers superior,0 +kind want dieim really gonna anything it too redflagy post rself going here throwaway one person knows handle id rather risk it yeah im want die brother whos im even though hes fucking torments me get really really upset sad way like im pissed him sound like whiney teenager even though right now thats am nothing ever done it hes got bad attitude hes horrible everyone even mom hates hes youngest child hes always gonna extra leeway older brother never had know im older im expected extra work responsibility never stuff age hes lazy really honestly annoying makes fun stupidest shit like mom pick dog poop th july party its not today brother laughing calling names luckily mom made job took away phone week even still stop giving shit anyways enough talk brother lost person ive ever loved like died talked since took concert kissed end night even first time kissed rd time like like place guess holding hands whole night bought wore matching shirts ffs know im wrong kissing im definitely saying entitled feel like least deserved explanation im hoping love someone romantically again im basically aromantic romantically attracted him really like identities anyways aromantic description guess ugh people ask talk like illness im broken im interested romantic relationships dad oh god hes awful like calling dad mom got divorce went city across state could take concert hes horrible like ive finally realized hes really actually emotionally abusive im crybaby gaslighting horrible like compassion fear feetsockssome shoes like cant within feet sure af cant touch them getting laundry dropped sock even clean ones freak ok asked pick bit shaky reluctantly avoid yelled at guess what still yelled at saying clean knew pointless try explain cried also dog allergic dogs anything it let sleep thats it sick whoooole trip wanted die sick anymore dog staying another days clearly important wellness thanks dad guess suppose im live buys things try make shittiness early life know hes still shitty got weezer concert doc martens trip pretty cool crying time wasnt feel like mentioned earlier cut burned long ass time started like stopped january st time got psych ward near redflag attempt go know im glad didnt thing gotten better worse since then one best friends since th grade were going junior year hs right now like person world talk wanting exist general suicidal ideation trusts kill id trust ever thought might hurt make attempt know loves lot love too cant help feel paranoid might actually like me know get along family feels like never really have were horribly incompatible point healthy us living together im im gonna stuck least go college like years less feel like living worth effort im even afraid die anymore thats depressed long done me sorry wall text thanks anyone whos read much,1 +ok redflagwatch ive ruled redflag fuck myself ive mostly miserable life finally resolved kill last april miserable depressed miserable although life job social connections you ive never found anything really enjoyed sustained inspired me life simply long depressing occasionally painful slog gearing finally folks life guessed intention made clear much would hurt went though it well fuck made promise it cant really take roading knowing much would harm people around me what well good say im gonna kill myself theres still nothing live for thought going indefinitely nature takes course horrifying close worry anymore want keep living default want hurt anyone else honestly want die peace thats sustaining day day existence long time idea go now need reason keep going people live,1 +want die heroin overdoseim literally piece shit choose substances people lie manipulate love hurt one person means everything broke heart really really shitty brain mess want alive rn nothing going rn im literally bum druggie self respect apparently self respect people love me im going life direction motivation dont even energy even think ab trying get motivated find direction cant even trust fucking brain nothing safe safe doesnt exist im already traumatized forever brain always wired like this dont want live life like this im lost im tired searching,1 +send dunes yes want dunes sand send pictures curvy sand,0 +anyone elses school this school uniforms wear online school mine ,0 +please help mei suicidal almost eight months now ever since considered viable solution problems tried meds luck therapy yet am still obsessing redflag know stop medical condition causes ill quite often trying cope things progress becomes harder harder mind keeps turning back redflag logical answer know even thought first place strange maybe body telling fit continue lost afraid want feel better again,1 +barely keeping somethingive diagnosed clinical depression panic disorder even though ive meds couple months now progress slow often seems almost nonexistand gets burried things worry im constantly tired stressed everything im tired people saying well think it etc know usual even though seem smiley okay every day lingering thoughts i want die want die depths mind constantly matter do cant keep going like this,1 +put number ill recommend song want share music,0 +watching a texas tale treason feel renewed disgust nature hollywood beast inside interviews conversations involved project common sense comradery rebelliousness spans backgrounds social classifications even geography attributed hard work entire productions undying commitment project love story original film complete creation vacuum creator scale people involved waldos hawaiian holiday amazing me budget glory production trailers craft services amenities all yet everyone involved stuck right it nothing ever comes project antstuie productions laid foundation serious honest company thats never going lay take sell make movie money id like see la director go guerrilla process get shot realistic true life cinema lacking time cg green screens masses may enjoy entertainment spoon fed nice bite sized censored calm bits large group people world share opinions insights filmmakers still make films love material love storytelling dvd sales box office loved documentary hope ifc cahones pick air maybe maybe one person decide pick camera film real life viewer even temporary understanding everyone everywhere same anyone anywhere true storyteller,0 +parents knowa couple weeks ago told sister struggling heavy suicidal thoughts told parents swear secrecy anything im regretting opening up family already worried me theyre even worried opening make everyones distress worse could kept myself cant help feeling big mistake even though know care me,1 +yall participate nnn womfan still horny depressed mememaking teenager yet still understand appeal nnn yall seem weird participate completely unfacilitated reddit challenge like so really funny hahas please enlighten,0 +strong people care im depressed think cant problems cant handle,1 +help essay im writting essay english class need explain cry not like cause sand eye something emotionaly cant find anything googlehelp,0 +want die bad got finish book firstim point feel even worse attempted redflag first time promised would live long enough publish book ive writing im pages left go feel like giving up,1 +known depression since young teen noticed last years issues anger ever since car accidents honestly normally pretty laid back even little meek small things like dropping something turn car around forgot something flips switch feel angry want throw destroy things usually go alone cool soon calmed severely depressed ruins days cannot get anything done motivation anything stuff happens feels like happens nowhere happened morning sure deal kind stuff anymore beginning affect work well anger explosive,1 +want stopim tired everyone asks whats wrong dont know dont like all hate it hate confused dont know am im married shes amazing idea shes me try push away excuse least feel bad id never often hope happens me im tired therapist knows real truth feel wrong myself everyone would likely accept me me wish male wish id born way could snap fingers like thanos way im different transitioned whatever wife would still wife shed okay male cant risk telling losing her im trapped hate myself see therapist week enough inpatient fix this nothing fix this hate myself idea place works figured could say truth bc joined really wish could kill self keep hoping itll happen find caring say someone cant it wife depends much dont want hurt her im miserable feel alone,1 +get links fucked videos pictures send boys havent sent said anything forever something fucked,0 +hey everyone sorry english first language chronic insomnia basically days since stopped taking mirtazapine withdrawal horrible question travelling important event ran ambien sister takes mirtazapine question would bad take mg days whole withdrawal process would another withdrawal itok thank much could use advice please,1 +feel like hands tiedi want get better really do suffering anxiety depression good old fashioned selfloathing decade various life insecurities get here im losing hope got really bad got actively suicidalmaking plans stopping short actually them left home life seemingly turned around shortlived long fell entire family that among things caused downward spiral depression bad worse one id clawed of im fucking now past this still feel like scared teenager im sick never achieving anything im sick feeling like shit im sick fucking hating feeling like good reason to im sick feeling like fucking alien time im sick knowing theres way fix fuckups im fucking sick all know whats hilarious im therapy therapy program strongly forbids suicidal people using it im afraid tell therapist im feeling suicidal want lose services get emergency services called me whats also fucking hilarious probably would committed mental institution suicidal tendencies months ago cant afford it even could risk missing much work losing job want get better really feels like odds stacked me sometimes really feel like life all feels like constant war mind truly want die cant keep living like this either,1 +im going die anyway nowim terrible putting shit thats head words feel like get feel across im options firstly im live uk currently go college cant help angry feeling like this great family others would see good life look alot posts rsw find someone going see anyone anything helpful say see people abused things like that pain must seem like nothing comparison grades college terrible exams coming up im extremely unprepared enjoy many things anymore soon leave college parents expect get job new job since one parttime really stresses out im shy mere thought meet impress new people scares me im homosexual not openly means come see burden part me spend days worrying next often stay late night unable sleep cry thinking inevitable reality failure even im crying write this would want live fail struggle could easily swallow many pills possible sit bath cut cant keep eyes open pain seems much easier take living broken life watch family friends die death seems much peaceful route im likely take life sorry huge block text,1 +want feminine like guys feminine dont know explain it im girl masculine pretty nice since ya know really something thats expected be dont want guy tho cant explain well masculine girl feminine guy seems nice,0 +cant iti depression entire life honestly dont remember time didnt want alive first time attempted kill around age second time around ten years later caught getting destination bang myself im thought emptiness hasnt gone away gone years done yet fuck stopping me cant it fuck care much ruining parents family members,1 +turn th happy birthday part fillergtgtoooooooooooooooooooo yay,0 +living overratedsometimes feel like people trying scam staying alive good greater good always say thing life wonderful course bad sides good sides make worthwhile etc thing is already know that like hate life think miserable feel like im ready move next journey im done living hard feelings before whenever used get suicidal thoughts id always really dark place recently everything seems clear me ive begun plan death couple years time hopefully join club try settle debts get sort insurance make whole thing look like accident family wont burdened im gone dont really feel anything this task like planning vacation like know sure take life one day need work complications limiting time give strong sense control life living aimlessly knowing youre gonna die ultimate reassurance,1 +something weird cried last years even though years traumatic stressful years had even redflag thoughts while used cry alot reason got reason eyes go dry wth anyone actually knows why extra cry onions,0 +hey antifa mother brother ripped cars trying get home beaten half death actually pretty funny aintifas tribal violence going win trump election moderate democrats dont want happen mad it dont really like trump dont want see another years clowns street looting hurting helping bit,0 +told crush liked her im scared waiting response please wish luck im scared currently dying inside,0 +fat rant seasonal affective disorder coming ahhahaha im really behind homework dont energy anything wanna lay cuddle cant bc hr drive girl wants to like feel like shit dont wanna anything wanna ,0 +opera br br director dario argento deep red suspiria screenplay dario argento franco ferrini the church sleepless demons photography ronnie taylor a chorus line sleepless music claudio simonetti phenomena goblinbr br story betty cristina marsillach lady macbeth understudy stylized staging verdis macbeth opera bettys time shine comes diva star breaks leg opening night hit car running away tantrum famous curse macbeth takes sinister calculating turn right away body count begins rise seems betty gets first fan via stalker ties tapes needles eyes force witness grisly murders people around her story br br acting acting lot italian films sometimes hard judge english italian french german spanish sometimes flick usually speak native languages making dubbing rule thumb hard judge usually cut slack area result acting br br direction giallo maestro argento enters genre helped pioneer opera shows top game exquisite blend gore tension beauty direction br br visual one argentos best looking films gorgeously filmed taylor opera features stunning inventive camerawork keeps film running fast hard keeps eyecandy coming camera always seems notion whether wonderful shot camera going spiral staircase sequence towards end birds eye view said bird circling crowd opera house visual br br audio frequent argento collaborator simonetti through various bands goblin demonian solo effort compliments screen action zeal score touches classical verdi metal musings with little help brian roger eno bill wyman lends music muscle screens bloody gristle sound design give need stabbings gunshots fire screams masterfully remastered anchor bay disc glorious every crunch caw audio br br technical editing keeps film flowing moving wonderfully combined camerawork editing help keeps surreal dreamy imagery flowing exquisite opera house one hell location perfect staging horror version macbeth one cant end review argento film without comment kills argento dispatches characters glee time around brilliant stabbing sequence crow eyegouging film highlight gun blast keyhole eye back head shot sends argentos exwife daria nicolodi movie morgue priceless technical br br wrapup nearly flawless giallo suffers slightly unnecessary epilogue switzerland delivers visual thrills argento fans cravebr br overall ,0 +need help decorating walls ok ok im getting bunch pennant decorate already covered room walls far options sports teams support however pennants evenly spaced throughout room need problem cant find th pennant suggestions,0 +methis fucking hard guess im usually type person shows lot emotion especially negative ones i really know i degenerate lazy piece shit one person family constantly fucks disappoint everyone currently go uni good one family former friends relatives consider shit tier school never much student well almost recently figured one tiny little detail fucked future prospects sorry really know im going this basically worked really hard semester theres one class mechanical engineering constantly fuck matter hard try ended getting d since covid floating around school decided offere passno pass grade anyone struggling me lazy piece shit decided wait little longer missed deadline days now project due hours im jaded work got knowhere shit happens life fucking over im even cs major im bio major took dad still clung little hope secret prodigy wanted graduate early could pass mcats go med school lucky enough chance fucked badly ruined life im done already emailed people know attempt fix this theres guarantee might kill seven hours knows maybe im pussy kill parents figures raised failure maybe im pussy live rest life shadow failure fuck me know,1 + year old struggling cfs decade looking end life dignitasim year old guy ireland life going right almost ten years ago health took turn worst ended chronic fatigue syndrome struggled college it proudly got degree finishing top class time finished everything gone shell former self struggling hard illness appears absolutely futile continue life nobody knows difficult cfs unless live it every single day life unrelenting exhaustion along array food intolerances lack brain clarity means longer even watch movie takes much concentration follow it mention severe depression makes everything worse life fucking hell nothing smile about cant work put degree use scrape week week disability allowance never feel well enough hold relationship get married kids dreams impossible achievements im tired all im tired life ive fought long cant fight longer want out want go dignitas assisted redflag know would tell parents know suffer know bad really is anybody considered this death really scares as normal person idea growing old gradually losing faculties scary ive tried committing redflag before difficult actually push finish job,1 +dog passed awayi started considering end little ago im drunk strongest wish then remember parents even love sake social norm two me couldnt bare make suffer like that especially dad loves family currently me mom dad dog loved well treated smart dad loved like little sister dad relied much emotionally long story short got run over got treated morning found dead already serious depression family already struggling bind itself ive got interest nothing nobody already fear loneliness father fear even more fear age quickly fulfill obligations could lose house fear die soon too dies swear kill moment already lurked sadly posted know kill now wasted time reading rn please go help critical people dont anyone tell this tell problems yo relief feel wanted note somewhere im convinced point im sure killed point want die also im concerned dad plenty fear,1 +think it unlocked new level loser snapped first left open still waiting xbox achievement icon wait,0 +take phone pay attention online class date please youre cool,0 +another good overcoming evil story difference includes learning selfdiscipline julie goes teacher zen monastery learns herself also hones karate skillsbr br when zen monks visit city awkward comical moments ensue uproarious entertaining nonethelessbr br next karate kid much say looking within improving well using have,0 +seen without knowing hoopla surrounding lead character indeed without even knowing based reallife events must say impressed murder greenwich average production madefortv movie acting uniformly great christopher meloni particular putting standout performance teen actors excel difficult roles idea dead girl narrating movie stroke genius elevates movie merely good excellent script exemplary essentially movieoftheweek fodder cinematography beautiful,0 +know good things feel worthlessim year old guy ive knowingly depression since child pretty smart gifted gave school aged parents divorced lived mum stepdad left dad for used beaten ever disagreed throughout school bullied ever really many friends somehow managed really successful school went uni without ever trying went uni instantly hit me alone hall people mostly foreign exchange students interest anything stuck close groups two people flat tried kill too tried go meet people got harassed touched guy first time felt low nobody would talk second time trying kill unable sleep five days help psychiatrist doctor counsellor early intervention team didnt change felt ended quitting uni ive three relationships three cheated broke me still nightmares one them last two years nobody interested im average attractiveness ive interested one person thats ive work them friends anymore handful friends relationships moved abroad respond messages low self esteem know great person lots talents im lucky fairly intelligent work decent paying job feel worthless family there friends exist anymore im option girls im tool work feel like ghost know get done already see point life im forever miserable want die im sorry long postwalls texttoo much information,1 +movie well acted kept interest main character entire movie stu unger lived extraordinary life imagine stu alive today movie paints picture stu ungers life might felt like interesting see connected growing up would liked seen detail stus partying gamesmanship relationship bob stupak all movie well done well acted story touched many facets life full many events larger lifebr br this movie worth renting,0 +griefmy mom killed herself aunt died cancer dementia took great grandma cat heart attack sleeping im going die eyes family ever express gender nonconformity bisexuality occurrences within last years cant tolerate constant pipeline spewing misery death anymore cant handle weight grief feel like im crushed concrete slab suicidal thoughts gone nightly thing hourly cant stop constant pain want die,1 +alonei feel alone like one wants around know may people bigger things going lives always feel second fiddle everything do never feel like dont know ever feel like never ever hold true relationships anyone ever like me even like spend days skipping classing smoking nic taking random pills save laying half passed bathroom floor motivation since weve started online school plummeted people see lives realize little none like passing day realize mean nothing one get close ending day moves forward,1 +wait fuck ted cruz become senator thought scientology guy mission impossible,0 +fun fact day two roughly character bmovie script,0 +nothing wrong theory everything makes want fucking kill myselfi first felt suicidal pretty good taking bipolar meds three days feel like ending yet again countless hundreds suicidal thoughts past six years two attempts dont really know gets better long makes feel like getting better big fucking tease better couple days spend all fucking day inside ive spent six hours phone today think causes depression get worse rambling hours posting posts day across social media gods name wrong me,1 +update bought book bought ebook grow instagram meme page dollars offering one time offer another ebook learn get free hotel stays food luxury items flights etc really tempting dont know it really wanna tho nearly bucks also said one five get opportunity buy book dont know true though guys think,0 +ventingi want die badly sleep wouldnt brave actually pull trigger hang neck im punk hate much wish could die sleep tonight,1 +ranking potato dishes think right aeverything else bmicrowave potato boiled steak cut french fries c draw,0 +thank youive posted post months back guys really made feel better care less people negatively think me subreddit lt,1 +toilet aint shitting decorative use grandma,0 +hey ladies beat doom nightmare mode normal controls one time please,0 +actually access money believe could pay least owe honestly dont even know get number debts owe afraid even begin several reasons worried might actually legal trouble this afraid seeking help someone isnt understanding situation totally horrified mess mean me counseling resources available me looking handout need help walked steps need resolve this,1 +gets stronger every dayi girl years left me lived together months fucked everything up meet needs left another guy within week us breaking up seriously know live right everyday builds never find anyone again wanted girl forever here feel damn old everyone else wanting point maybe delusional feel feels crippling gripping partner best friend just gone,1 +yearso year since tried kill self hanging december th hospital get help released year ago today much life changed better worse days leading one year anniversary shrouded anxiety stress im still sure whether happy survived still times resent person found saved life still times feel alone trapped sought help none sources good fit else seemed go where maybe need patient maybe need willing know feels good talk it people life still kind tip toe around like im ticking time bomb disaster waiting unleash fury cant really blame anyone aid feeling alienated alone maybe need nut up anywho thanks listening reading maybe needed vent,1 +hitch nice surprise romantic comedy actually romance comedy romantic comedies range mediocre horrible funny romantic hitch takes actors like smith kevin james eva mendes fun lightasafeather journey actually laughing and yes little aww sweetbr br meet alex hitchens will smith aka hitch hes selfproclaimed date doctor helps hopeless guys like albert kevin james win guys like allegra amber valletta unfortunately hitch deal sarah eva mendes gossip columnist bent breaking date doctorbr br hitch actually pretty funny even makes standard slapstick scenes work simply cast energetic clearly fun wonder smith made movies like this sharp rapidfire delivery perfect genre chemistry mendes james wonderful james real discovery never seen show the king queens funny heartfelt proves fat white men cannot dance hiphop smiths responses attempts hilarious mendes hot bouncy not way geez smiths perfect match amber valletta sweet allegrabr br hitch perfect tad long things get dramatic near end although redeemed happy ending filled funny dancing buts great refresher cookiecutter romantic comedies keep littering theaters,0 +ummmm guys necrophilia theyre dying great aint gonna stop,0 +embarrassed zoom call pap algebra zoom call bunch kids year older class campus watch lot anime singing japanese openings realized muted heard everyone class starting laugh confused af realized muted everyone class heard horrible voice left zoom call immediately told mom it told join again agreed really hope one thought me,0 +important u r da shawty u got dont bitch urself im demon time,0 +want alivei want live survive,1 +vsauce michael vsauce michaelhttpsyoutubenyidfnm mesauce vichaelhttpsyoutubedqwwwgxcq,0 +dont want anything anymorei dont wants mean dont know want be dont know anything mistakes ive made life feel like im gonna anything good ever come ever never anything life dont remember day havent money issues childhood now life feels like long endless struggle minimal enjoyment dont feel like even talk people live lives seemingly much better own feel like far apart unreal like genuinely dont even feel attracted girls look like together go girls look like shits falling apart feel like maybe relate either dont attract initially find things arent actually bad aesthetic dont really end things common real best friends feel like betrayed every expectation parents ever placed point redemption feels impossible cant even expect people even like me feel like people wouldnt like im worth even liking dont even want anymore love family keeps ending becuase cant let sad dont want live long enough make opinion worse im stuck spend weeks clean sniff ket week anxiety keeps rinse repeat im overwhelmed,1 +stop scaring people wearing masks firsteval im sure right subreddit post im still posting this point even think covid real care wearing mask still wear mask many people believe corona virus afraid persons like people wear masks wear mask make life harder hard wear mask sometimes forget im wearing mask walk even to example would be serial killer escaped prison media warns everyone stay house make lights off serial killer know someone believe it friend roommate believe saying wants show truth decides switchs lights on plays loud music stuff like this scared hell serial killer coming house turns roommate right serial killer exist still fucking horror him know good example someone ever read it wanted say that much easier wear mask stress hope good day stay safe sorry spelling mistakes native language english,0 +hate break one different love get it ik friendzone sucks shes another thot looks pretty nice one love you stop,0 +keeps alive guysfor curiosity life bad also like movie addictive really want see whats next despite fact good time politicians retarded people talk shit riot like idiots football clubs trump president us id vote fun says silly things live inside fucking rediculous comedy whats reason ending it,1 +nearly two weeks since attempt feeling awfuli cant first attempt parents really wish succeeded feelings back worse way getting out completely isolated hopeless wish taken pills able take jump,1 +need know helpmy girlfriend battling depression self harming habits months now attempted redflag once admitted hospital problems there optimism rises gets seems drain away struggling find enjoyment things does fact feel like much anything helping drags further best supportive needs me ill suggest things might try people talk to lot time feels like im saying anything useful im terrified thought losing her want anything help get better feel like im learning anything problems im confused help her need know help get back feet motivated again something lift depressed mind set,1 +somebody please play yugioh duel links me id bored friends dont play yugioh duel links ,0 +began watching thought watching prokoresh amateur documentary however never seen footage used interviewed people saying fbiatf instigated things sounded far fetched followed fbi video testimony amazed documentary followed senate investigation fire seeing interview video footage shocked senate attorney general turn backs davidians basically cover aggression fbiatf start watching must finish it otherwise think propaganda something like that,0 +another person left mei know wrongly people always leave one left without telling why blocked social media we soft dating love her creating something spent last three months kinda well im suicidal again im enough maybe nobody is everyone seems hate hard,1 +guess im alivei feel like im alive anything prove im alive kind sit room play games sleep go outside friends family care anymore time alive,1 +actually crazy grew exact right time marvel movies born saw avengers theaters loved it years later middie school ultron hit homies discussed favorite superheroes shit back iron man coolest others like cap thor caught civil war hit freshman year right mature enough understand plot intense team iron man vs team cap debates homecoming also fun high school setting relatable right time happened come out saw infinity war friends sophomore one exciting movies life honestly capped seeing endgame theaters friends old new age felt amazing emotion time nostalgia too grew movies think im gonna love life thor hulk iron man cap black panther black widow yessir might get black panther poster dorm tbh,0 +wish luck guys mightve got coronas mom went fricken trip los vegas sister mom asthma getting test around hours wish luck,0 +wrote noteas title says dont really plan telling anyone else id like feel perhaps little less alone moment go bed night know know me im stranger internet words screen really im did ive turning idea while im one today uncovered trauma memories guess last straw us weve lived much already idea happened us cant really take idea ive alive less quarter century im burnt life gonna get worse always does yes theres good parts life stick around anymore mostly im sad ill leaving husband love words say know im selfish person ever this wish could hang on ive hanging almost years cant anymore im sorry everyone guess tomorrows day thanks took time read this,1 +anyone ways coping this fires around live left sky smokey mom climate change denier kills hope people change around dad telling needs stop watering grass since water shortage said of course water shortage summer really want watch get worse see people care suffer climate crisis exacerbating suicidal thoughts,1 +heading wrong road feel like im running optionsscroll bottom tldr let start saying im sure appropriate subreddit post on im totally new region reddit ive recently struggling lot things none find important enough discuss friends family reached advice suggestions due lack real consideration extenuating circumstances like dealing mental health personal life so ive finally decided reach anyone willing read online really know myself ive felt alone lately ive calling total loser generally feel overwhelmingly unwelcome place social situations im always afraid one actually likes would care bothered show up almost always feel really deeply hateful towards myself im easily set myself im ap advanced placement student absolute nightmare go school every day get lied to laughed at ignored everyone class solely im viewed competition get headaches half days every month always come home crying drained seven hours silent misery mental exertion im constantly tired hardly hang people without falling asleep boyfriend friends concerned try brush off deal isolation general misery feel things bite pick lips inside outside gotten bad accidentally went deep blood dripping chin middle class boyfriend knows keeps telling self harm know thats true im honestly afraid look it usually self harming intent im afraid feel empty alone hopeless im constantly pissed myself longer feel like deserve goodnice things accept compliments easily sometimes feel like deserve bleed know go feel like im running options im starting shut regarding mental health im last priority feel like even earned position tldr hate v e r viciously deeply near perpetual basis bite pick lips point bleeding needing weeks heal zero friends feel unwanted place every social situation school sucks home sucks suck im running options please help,1 +poems stumbled across travels across many subreddits roses red sun shining mental health rapidly declining ampxb ampxb roses red walls plaster children fast big bird faster thats year thats kill streak,0 +join pls join among us game code ctkcwq,0 +whats good idea second date basically title really dating dating like gone before first time met park fucked around hour mom basically told us need go home date two want nice fun almost everything closed parents super strict,0 +wife conflict months ago sent spiraling threatened selfharm empty threat earned visit police trip er left go live parents still come home months later done much show taking care myself times like morning wonder whether followed threats death one thing fear most fear one thing keeping going it see life mine better know go here wife left due mental health crisis cannot live anymore,1 +good age teenage relationship im turning year i think grade ppl america im sure im ready relationship someone maybe im mature enough or came subreddit ask since saw bunch ppl posting relationships also please tell post different subreddit ill remove one thx,0 +posted giving months livei think iv got one nowmy whole life pointlessuntil met nothing iv lost im nothing know ever get ever love someone much loved herim trying absolute best changing life fighting get back set life litteraly depend iti saw weekend even though though got back slipped though fingers say end march decide future usim venting iv set mind kinda feel free knowing anything theni hope get happiness back else want sleepsleep never wake,1 +jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jnos nekem nehogy lmos legyen mert n azt ki nem llom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom jajj jani szeretnm hallani szerelmet vallani csak ez kvnsgom jnos legyen fenn jnoshegyen estre odavrom,0 +feel like ask parents help therapy would brush off ask family would mock brush too idea ask help without throwing everything left away cannot bring strength ask help,1 +ask girl ok ive never actually true feelings anyone till im wondering ask someone,0 +trouble expressing feel might little confusing tired tired existence tired living tired feeling way do like feeling cannot describe go away matter what everyday seems get worse seriously like ever get better years ago type look forward future one dreamed going college great things life exact opposite see future anymore barely graduated high school even want anything want wake tomorrow want continue living want go work want go college anymore want anymore feeling talk gets irritated go away bothers cannot seem explain feels feel empty idk even know world see purpose here know see making change leaving mark world me come world feel like everything would much better left would longer carry feeling around cannot even talk family tendency invalidating feelings making feel like crazy feeling way do wish feeling went away feeling seem go away,1 +cant sleep wanna die one fucking girl stuck head ive trying get two years canti wanna die know dumb reason commit redflag holding back moving forward life way get end everything besides shell happier gone live life marry bf everyone better,1 +thing prevents starving fat ugly is im much lazy piece shit p r b l e m,0 +yeah talking friend along friends walking back home ice cream mentioned views dating yeah like kids all girls me walking back home getting ice cream cause one friend ill call samantha borrowed old bike get tire popped basically me samantha another girl ill name kaitlin another girl ill call carol walking along start talking views dating well kaitlin id questioning ever liked while basically said thinks pointless would date someone asked care probably stop quickly yeah never gonna pan out,0 +redflag attempt feel like exist like died have frustratingits body im somewhere else im here hate stereotype lost others confidence look faces work drugstore small town every fucking person fucking place knows me seriously exist redflag watch like exist im waiting next chance get rid body alredy consider dead cant live burden pain caused loved ones know somenone like me bring pain people lives hope die everything vanish life illusion,1 +yo kinda question hey remember cried cat died like yeah dad even though ago still makes kinda sad thank reminding me cat name old cat short catarina,0 +holding threadim stay home dad day medical pot grower night married two kids wife works dispensary home kids oldest almost days consist waking hungry baby three year old wife gets ready work wakes non stop alarms banging around mornings matter late im caring grow every morning take care babies morning im bitched either good enough job kidshouse maybe gone late last night must cheatingthroughout day blow phone asking constantly asking cheating ive noticed random people suspiciously driving slowly past house clearly trying see it never dishonest ever even received complement women since weve together idk always thinking im cheating gets home get complaints made dinner something might missed cleaning even kids wet home hour without changing them im ignored phone till falls asleep lonely grow room wallow pathetic depression feel worthless dead inside ive lost people feel like ever loved year im sure deserve much pain im sick path im going whats making even harder know babies taken care well im gone cant dad be im worthless cant anything right destroy everything touch everyone everything love dies goes away try hard make friends anyone talk every time someone around wife mean disappear like something make angry know whats wrong ive worked hard make everyone around happy feel would rather gone dont know anymore think able hang anymore one go know do,1 +world beautiful dayim senior high school right now dealing major depressive disorder possibly bipolar since th grade with symptoms since birth caused sabotage destroy every single relationship shred happiness life ever known frequent suicidal thoughts occasional attempts battle drug addiction secret abusive parents came abusive person abused friends girlfriends myself life pretty regular th grade something kind missing which assume normal depression hit everything juste empty friends make happy things used love like film comics boring im majoring music next year conservatory yet music even intrigue anymore like everything became pointless feeling many probably familiar with unfortunately happened fell love intimate connection whenever life became meaningful while started date like every time abused emotionally forced away two months dating year extremely close relationship broke me every second every day im plagued know her evil drove away arms someone else one closest friend reconnecting soon break up were point says loves strong feelings still also feelings him wonders depression sarcastic literal course made feel lowest lows least felt made and makes me happier anyone else ever has ive seen two extremes life feel like now lived gained new perspective saw stars clouds trees totally new light deepest sorrows yet found beauty everything music amazing again days now nothing really changedbut feel like im reverting back past years im losing appreciation world know do love her changed months self loathing accepted good person regardless terrible things many people trusted protect harm truly changed person experienced life im terrified lose it im terrified lose her accepted regardless feelings other theres way were getting back together fuck rambling even coherent fuck saying this fucking ruined it deserve this fuck right hes house street supposed come leaves fuck long fuck know hope gain posting this im fucking bitchy fuck cant end it relies me want one thing it fucking ruined it think tears cried fucking apathetic it fucking change late fuck even alive people meant here convince let it know parents care friends deal it other hate anyway im fucking worthless im evil post make fucking sense want one thing ill anything everything one thing fucking late happy anymore rest life im damned remember pain caused im living right now damned remember mistake made never take back never fucking redeem get let fucking it,1 +speech disorderis making feel way killmyself cant order food talk someone phone cant take good grades college get job dream everything hard cant say name last friends it cant countine life know money live everything hard im fucking loneliest room dark days know people bad but cant live pain life stuttering therapy giving effect oh god im young much dreams im overthinking everyday much pain heart oh god cant handle this therapist said situation improving swear im surviving fucking years even decide live live pain lifeand end surely end mental problems want tell u want talk give positive effect me im trying tell monster able me phone room dark thinking thinking much stop feeling soon sleep forever peacefully love want feel pain loveyouall,1 +broken silence race fear starring ariana richards william bumiller susan blakely tracy ellis ross teryl rothery scott vickaryous marissa rudiak ken camroux david neale bruce dawsondirector joseph scanlan screenplay sara charmo jean gennis phyllis murphybr br this another lifetime channel film made exclusively television released directed longtime tv series director joseph l scanlan inspired true events lot like majority lifetime movies cautionary tale women raising awareness predator lurking within family a mother father wife husband mentor teacher case track coach young little known actress ariana richards she played small girl jurassic parkdelivers highly convincing performance high school track athlete mickey carlyle raped coach kurt ansom william bumiller must suffer silence one believes story except for course mother susan blakely together mother daughter fight put kurt ansom behind bars film drags quite bit ultimately predictable times far melodramatic sake drama itself genuinely powerful end ariana richards performance daytime soap kind strongest entire cast facial expressions body language overall acting realistic terms she aspiring athlete idolizes coach turn violated must live shame trauma further fight court william bumiller plays part nasty sort duplicity though far subtle abused star athletes before remained silent made top appears outwardly innocent william bumiller lesserknown actors like others never done role like believable strong performance overall especially disturbing see role sexy lead actor everything else including lesser known films soap opera guiding light real problem film manner film structured film opens watch coach ansom rape mickey letting us know right away guy good makes weak character development story first scene instead sequence opening credits see mickey runningjogging city across lake would better character development know coach ansom seemingly interested success star athlete really nasty piece work would seen mickey idolizing person thought knew received rude awakening realizes wrong him director joseph scanlan stranger drama tv knotts landing star trek quantum leap outer limits lois clark earth final conflict movies like la femme nikitta scanlan directed another lifetime movie similar this stand fear manages convey gravity event genuinely disturbed coach lurking around showers rapes student scenes graphic ought viewed mature audiences message clear sexual predators rapists always stranger assume different forms preying grounds even include high school film supports cause fighting prevent violence women urges women silent victims testify fight rapists cause harm others despite negative reviews film great job expressing message ought given mothers daughters high school students including male female bad rape is staying silent happens even worse,0 +hey um so wanna smooch,0 +dysfunctional thoughtsfirst all im black girl living mostly white town pretty much racist people here people know anything world around them im relationship almost years vacation friends days makes feel pretty wanted right now im halfway social work study know self reflect need someone talk to ive always strange kid people town cant see beauty like stereotypical pale blonde girl im actually quite happy myself im dysfunctional thoughts atm feel like one likes me loves truly cares me one truly loves me actually much friends acquitances probably spelled wrong normally self esteem dependent so right is dunno long story short feel fucking worthless right now understand wrong normally im happy myself today miss boyfriend im tired always ugly kid feel need cut myself although hurt since years sorry horrible english first language ,1 +going reddit rest year ngl fuckin hate,0 +need people please talk high school student great grades everything went virtual dont neccesarily think lockdown reason sething it barely get anything like fighting myself two opposing ideas head one me fighting everything failing almost every class feel innaddequite tried watch couple shows friends recomended ended watching stuff getting nothing done people still think answers almost everything sent school counsler bc failing opposite helpful demanded yes answer vague questions put spot said high schooler capable talking adults didnt get immediate response feel inadequate unintentionally disassociated everything nothing feels real want stop cant figure it is sure good way put it attempt edit dont respond commentmessage definitely read it im great words probably couldnt think anything respond sry,0 +always ignoredive told fault life like involve anything i never try im young things get better involved things never social person ive like whole life never fit anywhere ive tried multiple meds highs side effects asked old therapist could get pain meds said no wanted give generic meds like zoloft yes actually tried nobody listens wants give want always fucking responses over ive reached sooo many people even ignored nobody values nobody cares all im almost sure could walk pier something sit day nobody would ask talk all literally whats even stopping tying something heavy ankles drowning myself people found ended life theyd say shit like oh young thats sad generic ass responses like that ive gone way many times try help people mostly suicidaldepressed people nobody ever shows back get left read get told thats rough good luck life lot people cant even relate cause yall family members friends care would miss gone must really nice bad ill never know thats like highly considered buying fentanyl online posted different redflag forum thats pro redflag one basically told already thought im completely sucks,1 +starve deaththats probably im gonna go heres story went downstairs saw minor flooding kitchen pipe beneath sink leaking overnight serious could mop that dad finds trying fix mess flips saying helpful all maybe im overly sensitive really hurt me im already suicidal told useless really pushed edge threw fit moped room daddy do stops buying food id go buy citys week lockdown pass long take die hungry,1 +think world go cashless woolworths australia trying cashless stores think stores become cashless not personally think shouldnt,0 +tomorrow day midnighti cant handle anything anymore weeks weeks laying bed crying im bad habit bashing head relief again cant keep going on know never happyi met someone thought going soul mate but extremely jealous person broke months ago started talking months ago text promise promise keeps falling through got emotional got scared thought hint everyone talks about doesnt want anymore told missed me thinks lots fantasizes me going sleep weekend like before excited time yesterday sent message let hysterical worries saying jay jay dont want message anymore feel guilty bad whenever read say want alright first met you alone said anyways always there fell other made plans future said love would never die would always there sent message care nothing dont want message anymore needed me every time hurt bottle in run away get upset me take is silence uncertainty shes gone fault stayed gone first time wish didnt meet all wish went months ago wouldnt feeling like this today sent awful message saying would hurt make feel felt betrayed began belittling her hasnt replied dont blame her told message never talk again told hurtful things didnt really mean said horrible things her despite ignoring me love her never needed add horrible names judgments her im sorry cc really am maybe best truly hate me forget me im going spend time misty today little princess cat dont know find new home first what hope cats different hope forget me love baby misty dont want leave her misty loved me im going find good home someone give lots love dad poor father said would die too mom said thing love me theres nothing good all im hurt cant keepg goign im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry wish could understand tomorrow night need one night hold little misty waited lutside door last night fucked didnt want nothing hold me dont nderserve ikt dont deserve anything hurt im good at im going hurt people more im going lied anymore wont suffer feel alone love highest priority life feel true romance affection initimacy gone im never going meet someone like again cant get head cant exist im cursed forever see smile memories voice used sing songs anymore tomorrow midnight one last campfire near shore favorite place whole wide world grew small waves used help sleep maybe help sleep time im going favorite place sleep family also loves place plus reminds her promises things never do im going walk long dark road theres point looking lake beautiful spot trees surrounding shoreline theres old native ceremony cloths knots tied branches get cozy beach stone ground listen music favorites even ones told about bottle wine pack cigarettes enjoy view myself song ends finally sleep hear painful waves always comforted,1 +do someone talk think actually going end tonight,1 +really looking real discussion lot issues im facingtonight necessarily major crisis limited time attention definitely direct elsewhere really want talk someone must pm though want keep issues private,1 +always bad mood mentally restrain snapping people life sucks anything makes life redeeming exist suffer anything makes life worth anything all life working favoreverything makes mad even things even annoying angry time,1 +theses bots wont leave fuck alone posts always gets removed fucking reason,0 +art giving shit yeahso i seen lot people act insecure throughout teens midtwentiesthe simple noble art giving shit starts now overthink lets honest guys girls overthink wear notjust dont wear anything everything like fear public opinion public away anyone knows you us try downplay behaviour try fit indo want keep mind simple line know mei know themthe probability meeting guys next zeroso ill whatever hell want dothis simple line changed behaviour public awkwardness public indifference count improvement try fit ordinary lot people crazy things stand out theres need something drastic try stand better peersbe academics sportsand try think different methen act points think different others consider superior unpopular opinion hear you points unusual different normbe proud themyou may appear slightly arrogant buttreat everyone kindnessno joke cheesy line intended help everyone know small big ways you note opinion confident different journey everyone strong try proud yourself appeared little arrogant teachersbut days later classmates teachers began think part charmso guessit worked do keep mind tips online sites everything different dare appear arrogant well satans spawn,0 +compliment posts going on insult post nerd awkward creepive gone many names themi less cardsi amthe forever alone man thank coming talk,0 +dude month since broke still miss dont know wtf do gave much emotional damage miss toxicity bad fucj fuck fuck fuck,0 +basically fraud moronso accidentally committed fraud yesterday needed signature document without thinking borrowed document basically sent up one coworkers noticed fast got everything back told missed signature borrowed it told fraud quickly contacted company asked rescind document feel guilty actually want kill myself like cant stop thinking it im dumb person acted like idiot wanted job efficiently could consequences company possibly even person whos signature carelessly borrowed cant live it either want kill turn in im scared turn company could get trouble,1 +question americans european person buffalo wings actually made buffalo yes called wings swear buffalos legs ,0 +life truly shittyi single friend neither online physical thus make human interaction except ordering food saying thanks loland even though im stupid failed classes procrastination anxiety life get even worse ill go back shitty country ill live like prisoner even without friends academic success feel happy bald eagle country freedom things see do til age thought normal smart kid bright future realize socially inept boring slow sad person exceptional way keeps letting parents seriously wasted parents effort sending college america family already extremely poor wasted much hard earned money honestly want disappear erase everyone elses memory me end one societys robots in fact defective robot whos failing function existence impact world like ill never like newton mozart elon musk left legacy history actually positively influenced human kind guess life punishment whatever previous life wanna live joy eating internet anything productive improves person even gained back kg lost see writing ability like mentally challenged persons autistic anything related disabled ,1 +morning vibeslaying bed listening joji wishing didnt live earth im tired existing stress unbearable dont know do fucking venting phone sucks reasons myself sister moved university mother,1 +ive thinking about it night im certain im chicken actually itive strong thoughts know without doubt actually anything hurt myself ill sit hours picturing different methods results messages weather take secrets let hopes missed thats thoughts even looking item played idea makes uncomfortable question is thoughts something go hospital or find comfort cowardice let hospitals deal actual danger want go one want let things get worse,1 +reddit added new award which think someone would pay much would pay much award awards exist money could buy something actually worth time give homeless person food buy couple games go trip instead money would go fake internet points,0 +early release posting til get gf day briish aka danny dyer oi bruv come ya gaff fuck man ill see work dont fackin hate cause im stud maybe got rid barnett might get birds pecker yours oh better yet maybe slag tanisha might call arris up twat better,0 +arrangmentsi going kill myself foregone conclusion beyond possible retraction point thread point age things vastly complicated would gone acording plan case trying get handle things need address finishing job dont leave annoying loose ends somebody else figure out would terribly inconvenient think rude so lets make list considerations made beforehand bears mentioning useable part remains harvested rest corpse disposed expedient least sentimental way possible explicit instructions funeral memorial services obviously life even worth living damn sure reason tie 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days ill completely free happy,1 +hearing expensive gifts yall got makes kinda jealous lower middle class gang rise lol,0 +wish could delete come back months latertitle ive sad long feel like ive normalized sad used play games way escape cruelty reality even doesnt intrigue anymore helium sounds like nice way go maybe ever get motivation to,1 +seldom see short comments written imdb filmgoers perhaps lightweight dark comedy entertains pleases without depth missing something id watch incentivebr br so whats happenstance french le battement dailes du papillon serendipity fate perhaps event culmination series random happenings weve its called life looked way begin get feeling random might like fatedbr br a happenstance film might occurrence minor knocking leaves lettuce back truck major basing major life decision accuracy stranger tossing pebble incidents cause events well get picture dominoes multiply characters average really stretch imagination accept remote chance scenario could happen think theres diagnosis believe life like this magic world cinemabr br we admit fun watch way writerdirector weaves together unrelated events story enmeshes lives french citizens couple hours looking whimsical escape heres place it recovering surgery going anywhere anyway engage stitches healing br br happenstance go award winner develop cult following stranger things happenedbr br soren kierkegaard attributed following life understood backwards must lived forward looked detail many life experiences meeting first love finding perfect gift last auto accident would find series seemingly random events leading itbr br thats answer forgot bring along existentialist explain happenstance me,0 +kill today wont homeworkyay,1 +finally feel like belong hey finally feel like belong two crushes completely league im suffering rn ,0 +fuck school homies hate school school makes want commit redflag hate school homies hate school bois hate school ampxb lmao year worth notes copy months,0 +cognitive function declining much time left im catatonic vegetativeive making rounds telling friends im going kill myself theres trend understanding decision couple days ago started trouble balance speech starting slur today needed help navigate menu called medicaid ill probably need caretaker soon window functional enough end life closing feel doctors still monotonously shrugging shoulders issue treating like number think dealing heart issues years would real struggle prisoner body unable lot things panic attacks schizophrenia came normal day me adapted peyronies hit dicks still process painfully shriveling scar tissue especially rough worrying future love life relationships hoping have still managed least still future now im sure thing going brain much like dead alive cant experience world anymore process beauty understand im empty shell useless soul it id almost believe god seems like universe get me making life progressively worse time torturing me always thought things get worse started laughing would actually happen expect it predictable bizarre absurd maybe thats gives comedic value really want friend go knowing way things ill probably die alone room ever wanted held everything would been would okay someone would hold me,1 +heloo sirmaam tell birthdate please need scientifical reasons fr tho meed tell happy birthday birthday,0 +says fight says tatakae ,0 +would change name to would change mine sunshine already really nice name love wouldnt change it december ,0 +lovely alone love alone alone thoughts ideas going crazy voices head everything inside messed jumbled whenever try organize get confused whatever get scrambled sadistic andcrazy theres way say it oh well whos blame except myself im one decided perfectly fine need help waved every time parents asked thought ok friends good friends friends talk to burden problems must enough lives depression know isnt maybe is really care live it getting help option anymore late,0 +need help expert like guy says likes too problem is stopped trusting guys incident happened online know asshole move think every guy like guy dated before cant help it do say yes,0 +lot none hmmmi suspect people much pain comment plus advice really give could help seems hopeless us all notice many responses peoples posts,1 +god college makes fucking miserable people crack pressure shatter like fucking glass,0 +well fuck went girls house yesterday party way girls willing gossip shit talk people barely know real life fucked like talked guys rejected said talk guys kill boredom theyll say yes guy asks joke hope girls talk like this even worse worry thats girls talk boys made sad,0 +im looking anyone whos forever alone am hopefully poland tooim year old bisexual guy poland accepting relationship proposals default sorry potentialerrors im drunk right now gonna go slee ill chedck ther aer repsonses tomorrow,1 +easily worst sub platform guys arent funny stop trying,0 +im ready dietheres nothing me,1 +dont know survive todaysorry cryptic cant think clearly anymore im tired im exhausted try try try get nothing sister found account got scared off strangers care does wanted distraction refuses come over im tired humiliating people dont care me tried seen accommodative one helpful one accommodation need it help need thats where feel helpless helpless hopeless dont know whats point anymore cant really think clearly anymore want everything already,1 +imagine dogs still wating owners come heaven realising gone hell dogs go ass definitely going yo hell afterlife exists,0 +many cool clothes smol pup ampxb httpspreviewreddituzvluhinpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampseacbbbfdffeff,0 +less year literally lowest man planeti really believe agree notion good bad fit would latter always asshole literally cared even felt guilty one care unless actually affected me im years old college well summer break recently bad break up im gonna say reason im certainly help another prime example deplorable human pile shit suicidal thoughts since second grade always liked idea think done much sooner now would preferred aborted think caused pain people world many problems indescribable feel niche pointless some maybe are think need go ruined life someone dearly love unacceptable thinking going end life gun would much hard get tall buildings close im scared heights jumping unlikely helium sold easily amazon ive already tried noose so another way kill myself really want talk someone moment im feeling tired,1 +hello know im hereso really know say never thought id get close killing self honesty felt like emotions check everything falling once first know kill self would selfish already talked sister feelings devastated pissed ex girlfriend put lot stress know want go back her im trying reddit cant make sence want kill self even though know would stupid cant shake feeling gotten worse worse past two weeks start explain feel way guess girlfriend recently broke cause trust issues looking back stupid given space needed stressing school also possibility cheated gave std wont know till get test thing loved girl much cared fact went drinking random guy let trust issues mess head well previously stressing falling behind bills guess everything going go stressed got sick week got written up know im goanna able continue pay school either go uni town im working bio degree dreamed doctor kinda see dream slipping weirdest part miss ex much factor seem taking much space head vary supportive family could almost feel self slipping point return feels like im drowning morning actually felt clam come feeling killing self even talking guys feel like desperate cry attention self feeling kept going people this know do im afraid im goanna go it even know could even possibly tell go though it thought would give try hurt least try something guess knew let go someone interest me might help im sorry putting guys,1 +quick reminder bisexual isnt gay straight bisexual stop invading bisexual people please,0 +me ok need focus class brain starts dash dancing aggressively,0 +xpost rdrugs throwaway tried end life via valium codeine endone bourbon days ago today moods emotions beyond erratic anyone know swings fallout tried chemicals rolling systemi told user rdrugs post here hope thats okay wordy title explains it fallout mean emotional fallout ive read people situation experience emotional drop im trying ascertain thats im feeling potentially side effect substances leaving body im asking know need mindful mental state wait roll,1 +hows day anything exciting happen,0 +todayreally thinking pulling trigger today matter well do depression kicks ass feel shit time wife treats like atm wrecks ii dare question money going acts like victim wont work contributebeen thinking since young years later fuck alls changed fuck this ill die anyway,1 +surrenderi dont want pain anymore im writing letters im done cant keep this,1 +told boyfriend going really rough patch feeling low basically grumpy trouble keeps trying cheer silly playful sweet keep telling today day sorry going much fun today keeps till get irritable snappy hes like whoa someone grumpy boy today like yes fucking told going grump let low today want try play happy want rest cannot fo pretending happy wish sometimes people would listen saying think help stop trying cheer us up sometimes worse,1 +desktop goose awaken honk,0 +alive parents brother cat dog im patheticwho else hanging dont cause people pain want alive anymore kill myself would destroy mom cant imagine inflicting kind pain onto her dad thinks im huge fuck up would sad think brother would sad dog cat wouldnt understand would miss me makes sad thinking like that boyfriend would probably relieved im gone wouldnt listen problems anymore everyone else simply wouldnt notice all,1 +anyone else ever feel feeling waking realizing set alarm pm instead fear unexplainable anxiety incomparable,0 +someone spoil affectionattentionloyaltylove quality time kbye text text text text text text text text text text text text,0 +god life meaning story humanity story suffering oppression deathso what im sitting front computer talking guys ive got loaded single round spun cylinder locked it put gun head pulled trigger twice im still here know why think want more masters degree two bachelors degrees im married house able find full time work past years seems like world now years controlled wealthy benefit wealthy everyone else go fuck themselves die what theres someone else take place live world best were cogs machine fills pockets wealthy take moment really examine things recognize really point it god clearly exist anyone thinks otherwise deluded were thrown world without consent live meaningless lives die alone prolong process,1 +think feel emotions right making nutsyup again still thinking dying according parents always relatively happy child age so started noticing something emotions just off really hard describe happiness just brief almost unpleasant anger feels like impulse something sadness like wanting cry recently cannot seem even get reduced feelings everything made happy anymore ive also tried new things also dont make feel happiness cannot reiterate much hate this enjoy anything again suffering just plain suffering torture even thing sort enjoy sleeping even getting old want anything anymore anything old hobbies serve distraction suffering know anymore also sorry hard understand english native language describing issue really hard well,1 +ringing ears taking shower took shower ringing left ear think cant really tell cause really loud kind repeating ringing pattern second ringing second break second ringing repeats wanted share pain im experiencing perhaps got water ear something itll stop bit dont know thanks reading post,0 +sobbing write post think extremely imminent danger probably super high priority even one person could help would mean world me never thought would post subreddit like this suicidal thoughts years keeps threatening culminate tonight one worst nights try keep reasons quick know even deserve complain born fairly okay situation middle class mostly okay family things like that sad well lots mental health issues least noticeably impact normal human function top family often calls useless way affect me already mid s niche associates degree accomplishment cannot find work even like cashier something still live home one wants me job certain family including mom sister ones call useless top off dog one things keeps time two threatening get rid almost money think able care anymore would anything care her matter get money need her small bit saved going still look work tonight picked knife thought it and cannot seem follow through wrong me cannot even end right posting all thoughts gotten stronger stronger years combo anti depressant therapy helping enough feel like something push edge losing dog sure would need help please cannot it,1 +finally went principal history teachers verbal abuse hello all im currently th grade generally class misbehave sometimes overall pretty decent class calm teacher asks throughout school year noticed history teacher get pretty verbally aggressive us especially unnecessary sometimes targets kids done absolutely nothing wrong seems ive finally fell radar breaking point set today got trouble something pretty damn stupid charging chrome book definitely plugged multiple witnesses shes times worse kids wont mention names kid seriously going stuff shes started targeting student letting go library work call principal claim student skipping class things like that gotten point kid breakdowns class cause physical harm home finally decided go principal since figured yknow seems pretty reliable right wrong explained situation email since busy time hours got response essentially get it people get mad honestly dont know do purposely try avoid class points time try escape bathroom much possible broke tears read email teachers staff supposed help us feel safe comfortable able go things im afraid step history class knows could outburst i like many students feel extremely unheard people supposed help us sorry long rant really needed get chest thanks sticking around did,0 +know people could understand me people busy life trying reach dreams learning improving spend time friends love ones focus trying find ways end life try remember peoples names try make lot friends study hard compete fun friends could remember teachers name even places people met bother remember thinking would useless wanted die anyways twenties times feel better wanted go forward cannot know live like normal human being feel like know anything wasted years life learning life wanted live sometimes cannot know how feel like alien seeing people try mimicking things even though cannot fully understandi different sole purpose die everyone else wants live live,1 +days wish deadi hate life hate life hate people hate everything life general fucked,1 +forget overrated batman begins ultimate batman movie gonna want miss on movie everything totally surpasses first mega hit may done well first one box office certainly much better film visuals amazing burton works magic always films again gotham city batmans hunting ground amazing sight behold story actually quite good villains one interesting much interesting fact comic book counterparts tim burton screenplay writer daniel walters go step bring truly emotional connection characters penguin played perfection danny devito type tragic character abandoned parents birth later life seeks revenge world denied him disgusting watch times classic lines villain could ever utter single film villain catwoman played absolutely brilliantly michelle pfieffer one beautiful actresses time gives wow performance totally steals show far past present live action batman villains concerned also tragic background name selina kyle putupon mousy secretary shrewd business man called max shreck later murders shoving window somehow survives awakened cats decides right become legendary catwoman before course amazing sequence completely lets loose wrecks entire apartment one oscar worthy performances rage anger ever seen actressbr br michael keaton dons cape cowl batman also bruce wayne time hes much darker theres much else say except keaton simply best actor play batman ever oozes cool kind clint eastwood approach playing batman dark talk lot does sounds cool make voice sound goofy fake ie bales batman voice batman begins struts around gotham like man possessed inner demons hes pshycologically disturbed know it outing takes famous baddies ever grace batman comic book worldbr br i say though despite awesomeness action scenes like scenes coolest batmobile ever racing street knocking thugs ground batman gliding across gotham romantic angle pfieffer keaton really makes movie classic top choice anyone wants see real batman action rate would give could,0 +everything bluei feel like nothing world make happy nothing all even smallest pleasures like eating favorite food cant find happiness even smallest things keep trying keep existing,1 +sleep schedule person might hate life probably wants die,0 +right schedulefor now ive wondering possible ive managed make long know someone else me would ended long time ago wanted hold out case maybe im wrong maybe old saying it gets better actually true know ive always known doesnt thats say cant doesnt hasnt continue to things decay thats life hate pessimistic thats reality would best people would honest it said im honestly peace know leave anytime know how when wait right moment im sick feeling like im crying wolf day come though maybe soon ill right schedule,1 +enough energy explain im tired thats it thats post,0 +im actually alonethis fucking stupid cant talk anything believe trust me thinks fucking perfect said dont say want die me told kill him said mean much would kill asshole think lie finally got phone back many tests doctors past week feel hot sick threw much want die guys honestly know feel alone cant talk someone love cant tell things fucked relationship looking need else where want die please wanna kill fucking much,1 +international free service counsellingsomeone talk tolife quite bad lately want keep complainingwhining people around me complained too quick search showed free service country im willing pay buti kinda want get tracked,1 +jews destabilizing force jews always wanted nation theres never enough land nation say send mars give mars jews,0 +longdefunct prison shut years reopened ethan sharpe the late great character actor lane smith guard there put place warden prisoners put work fixing place up theyre instructed break old execution room unleashes fierce spirit wreaks merciless havoc upon guards prisoners coolascanbe lowkey prisoner burke viggo mortensen showing real poise early role thrust role herobr br i know nobrainer praise film atmosphere it shot actual abandoned penitentiary near rawlins wyoming elevates horror film higher level got great sense foreboding established right outset director renny harlin made fourth directorial effort here got nightmare elm street directing gig effectively began impressive career mainstream action movies thrillers horror filmsbr br it may stock characters got capable cast bringing life chelsea field young woman vying prison reform lincoln kilpatrick weary veteran convict cresus tom everett restless con rabbitt ivan kane outgoing lasagna tommy tiny lister softspoken giant tiny arlen dean snyder captain horton also worth noting early acting credit kane hodder as vengeful spirit helped him land gig playing jason voorhees friday th seriesbr br decent special effects moody lighting courtesy prolific genre cinematographer mac ahlberg spooky music richard band christopher stone great visuals incredibly gloomy location overall flashy intense presentation help make quite entertaining nasty gruesome good fun horror fanbr br ,0 +want commit redflag want tell anyone irli feel like failure hate everything myself im stupid ugly face autistic social skills anger issues confused cant relate anyone kids school call ugly everyday remind incompetent am think even teachers hate me matter say people always make fun stand play victim get most likely everyone hates ugly stupid thats okay guess almost friends mostly talk people unless to sometimes get stuck speak irl speech gets blocky feel worthless im physically healthy lbs m kids think im strong positive traits have ugliest face school everything else makes wanna kill times over ive never attempted possibly getting life altering injuryillness someone confrontfind me want permanent method want death quick painless alone really want talk anyone irl think people would treat worse anyone found irl id probably redflag ragefear anything convince otherwise good online resources help without anyone irl finding out think would feel worse talked someone irl sorry post make sense,1 +want quietly go awaydoes anyone want go away quietly little impact possible die want everyone move quickly possible figured leaving note showing sign emotional changes best precursor this im tired talking people dont want drag suffering longer ive gotten tired living everyday talking exhaustive want go forward decision leave little ripple behind possible,1 +family doctors lost credibility clearly care goi survived traumatic brain injury life total shit seizures unending headaches short term memory problems moving talking suicidal ideation huge problem me yesterday writing head injury think ideas actually best ive had none doctors care slightest kill myself mean literally asked suicidal ideation back responded i gun car going shoot soon leave here either parking lot little park street response oh thats interesting ended seizure lost memory forgot follow through described specific plan means it never gotten single response stammering subject changes one dozen doctors taken action notified anybody done anything else yesterday get devastating news serious enough put normal person redflag watch spouse do discuss it nope word even raised subject directly decides without explanation go somewhere unplanned kids say word packs leaves disabled require monitoring hour alone usually ok takes assessment symptoms seizure threshold etc could extremely dangerous said word left saying taking me according doctors wrong dozen ways breaking every rule comes back couple hours later minutes starts packing food saying im taking kids park try ask whats going on long etc questions required ask note responses says i hours day actually does care must arranged go park usually means hour figure ill ride out nope gone hours educational thing wanted go to guess im much embarrassment leaving hours without arranging attendant rules crazy risky refusing answer questions rules considered risky leaving unattended hours high state stress acceptable redflag ok end result tell anyone know intend kill myself specific time date method say nothing people around actions care stay go prefer go answer makes sense,1 +got midterms tomorrow wish luck bois w,0 +waiting die passively suicidalim year married woman boring clericaladministrative work ever since puberty ive dealt depression social anxiety codependency ive suicidal thoughts since never acted upon meaningful way except one time young teen tried get top building jump it foiled locked door ridiculous last years rough less less energy terrible time paying attention work suffer it makes feel even like shit even suicidal thoughts used enjoy things passion dance literature history etc im starting find difficult even get excited things now real friends apart one lovely lady may bonded college lives far away due combination terrible social skills well afraid basically everyone right now meaningful relationships may parents brother husband husband genuinely good guy honestly love man never want get divorced think matter time marriage crumbles apart due number reasons life sentence mental illness seem give fuck narrow interests gaming gaming combined inability take pleasure anything anymore ive tried get interested things together thing together gaming watching tv worse sex life frankly disappointing good ill hearts tied libido feel unloved scarcity it last times weve sex like making love someone whod rather something else really passive disinterested change appearance since started dating either hes sick difference drives ive tried therapy last round go well psychiatrist kept trying focus finding meaningful career honestly self esteem shit automatically think would fail whatever set do im going try frustrating im tired kept wishing ill erased existence memory think drinking bottle draino know loved ones would tormented guilt want hurt them,1 +happens drink expired morphine i got expired morphine dad got for cancer surgery ask would happen drink lot it expired shit still od it,1 +took prozac whati read even near lethal dosage fuck im scared heat moment thing know,1 +bloody owl lot alike mate except im owl dead,0 +sure want shoot myselfi gun time ive thinking using almost every day know would easy thats main reason even tried get one somehow hoped someone something would stop me nothing like happened paperwork went store legally handgun since months ago knew bad idea second got store shooting number one redflag fantasy years thats wanted one finally end it im sure im serious shooting scares honest often sit there holding gun bring temple never pull trigger holding like that feeling heavy hands gives kind kick keep fantasizing shooting lethal like shooting shoulder arm test waters also various combat knives fantasize stabbing often also stabbed right left hand bad expected im sure really want kill mutilate body even more anyone feeling same know really fucked need seek help enough money therapy im also bad situation health care wise im practically going lose job get psychological help insurance,1 +feel cancel culture support cases like someone pedo people take far sometimes think,0 +shooting myselfi feel gun hands would give sense control end keep going dont want dying process painful long short simple,1 +unpopular opinion circa comment another post all modern rap sucks cuz kendrick lamar jay rock schoolboy q ab soul j cole mixtape logic kanye polo g amin earl sweatshirt jpegmafia vince staples big sean meek mill jayz nas andr tyler creator totally exist fuckin hate anti rap attitude community has mfs thinking gucci gang song popular like months sudden epitome rap shit closed minded garbage ive seen yall circle jerking ego cuz rap like crap amirite bullshit people made influential best projects music world whole come fuckin on actually take step outside hivemind give listen shit listen good kid maad city listen aquemini listen born sinner listen yo pimp butterfly listen late registration listen listen watch throne actually give genre chance maybe stop fuckin calling rap bad shit pisses unimaginable degree yall mfs downvote want know yall r missing real shit fuck,0 +ive stuttering since cant socialize ask whatever questions want,0 +help best friend hospitali hope someone reading familiar inpatient mental health services best friend hospital little week now gave call morning unfortunately sleeping see phone call later called hospital back gave first last name told patient name im sure number called correct hospital correct one its located small town live in anything reach again call back ask connect someone called hours ago really would appreciate input worried friend days want talk her,1 +announcement mad critocola op fucking play scout sandbag,0 +basically longer able play games anymore long story short optometrist said eyes broken bad prolonged screen time damage eyes badly said could blind way much screen time top ear doctor said ear drums damaged bad closeloud noise deafen me words im longer going play games swear god im kidding,0 +like thisi read lot posts somemost people definitely something not grew foster care time mom got kids back system type relationship lets say better system things saw put things child even know kid life much loneliness sadness chest literally randomly hurts cus bad need good cry im tired crying tired people wont me think one shot end misery makes feel calm point almost scares me like everyone else goalsdreams society sick weird hands make not im tired struggling financially mentally life hard sad redflag easy thinking hard point smile thoughts go mind wonder god get put earth this fair,1 +cant stop cryinghelp please im desperate want anyone feel awful felt way months weeks im back hate,1 +search video change viewidk right place ask search motivicional video redflag helped cant find anywhere video man drawing xy graphic board explaining life turn good thing u less expected u committed redflag u wouldnt opportunity live,1 +logo girl ive clue long like reason particular couldnt care less wondering,0 +whats good dudes first post sub wanted say hi,0 +ive extremely vivid suicidal thoughts one good thing life turned liei found bf hiding lot me could hiding know hid fact talking ex wouldve fine told upfront instead found phone even asked wont gf get jealous us talking said yea probably ill deal it found days ago happened month ago last night found hung one days werent together we basically live together aside occasional night goes home take care things asked did denied til went messages together love think ever loved someone told past exs cheating exact things like doesnt care all want things work bc honestly thought one dont know ever trust him every opportunity gave tell truth decided hide things instead past weeks suicidal thoughts gotten worse point scares me consumes every point ive extremely vivid thoughts havent frequently long time everytime saw him felt better felt safe felt loved hes highlight day best friend love life im going try strong clue how fact gave full trust thought would never lie hide things like others did find hes like them cant trust anyone im saying go him like one good thing had everything else shitty lately world cruel thought found one nice genuine person wrong good people,1 +hello still relevant still remember me,0 +think person needs type help im sure great people give herits severe posts here found comment lost askreddit post believe plea help far httpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentscwykpwhats_your_biggest_problem_right_nowckwi,1 +life memaybe enjoy living lie close eyes problems world everywhere look feel selfishness abandonment lies deception jealousy dont see happiness quick sparkle maybe almost always gets destroyed overreaction people making look like never happier entire life acknowledge bit good bit good bad mind real feelings left im gonna take example country im currently live us people dont care others really want bother nobody around oh boy oh boy work environment education here favorite part need pay hundreds thousands dollars years life receive paper may qualify work come non traditional background abandon home country studied free university dont much money buy education here went free school recognized higher education free course great logic america im good profession nobody wants hire me wait it dont paper nobody even want look direction without it fucked reasons visa status cant leave country month year spend time partner lives fucking continent cannot move live work reason im still alive gives hope much love them much feel lonely without them thought abandoning kills heart every night dont friends least reddit here random people still reading fucking nonsense life dont want live tried didnt like it maybe others im fucking done pile crap another place another time one,1 +wondering carbon monoxide painless way rest pretty huge cabinet go light charcoal got holes cover tape easily asking first sub saw suicide afraid fail leave brain damage prevent failing probability failing high methodthanks hello guys carbon monoxide painless way die,1 +teahcer said qoute you cute cucomber english class idk man seems kinda sus,0 +life stupid fi firmly believe reason continue live anymore im nothing show it job car license place own thing im life right now going college even feels like enough ive struggled thoughts death redflag since person knows boyfriend hes dealt similar issues one day told feeling suicidal told instead talking it actually tried it lot try and likely waste explain sources feelings numerous nobody cares yet everyone acts like do sometimes wish would diejust get accident cease exist,1 +anyone else struggling something like thisi feel like depressed long time finally got courage start something someone insecurity problems meant acted like myself pushed away ruined something could good triggered bout depression sucks potential relationship triggered ruined depression,1 +walt disney old men put spin classic fairy tale cinderella guess could say helps form unofficial fairy tale princess trilogy classic disney yearsbr br the plot cinderella nice girl cant catch break daughter nice wealthy widower loved dearly mother passed away cinderella young cindys father felt needed mother figure eventually married woman would become known lady tremaine widow two daughters age cinderella anastasia drizella first seemed get along cinderellas father died lady tremaines true nature revealed cold cruel callous heartless mean spirited woman passed traits daughters spoiled bratty equally mean spirited anastasia drizella hate cinderella know deep better looking overall nicer attractive lady ie appealing men mother lady tremaine hates cindy pretty much reasons years passed lady tremaine began squander family fortunes stubborn futile quest improverefine awkward unattractive daughters to call homely would insult homely people everywhere three relegated cinderella multitasking servant house abusing her mistreating humiliating every chance get they particularly fond increasing already absurd workload brings us cinderella present blossomed good looking young lady somehow manages remain kind hearted nice despite abusive step family holds hope one day tables turn favor br br cinderella gets shot freedom happiness royal ball held introduce local prince eligible young maiden take wife settle down start family etc naturally step family tries keep attending even going far physically assault rip dress procured with little help mice friends dress belonged biological mother finally pushed beyond breaking point cinderella runs courtyard cries despair point fairy godmother short plump jolly woman arrives provides cinderella transportation transformed dress after all cinderella make good impression ball entered scene looking like gotten gang raped cindy arrives ball prince falls hard her pesky midnight rule gets way forcing flee leaving behind glass slipper make long story short long harrowing quest find mystery girl via trying glass slipper cinderella found prince get married giving happy ending deservesbr br overall enjoyable disney classic without flaws glaring prince little macguffin help push plot along little screen time even less dialogue never get know well get good look relationship cinderella which unfortunate since according making documentary prince originally meant play bigger role additional scenes help flesh cinderella might helpful there song showed fantasizing turning army maids clean house well eavesdropping stepfamily post ball show amusement jealousy cut walt thought made look spiteful still cinderella likable enough heroine even upstaged mice friends theres sweetness film becoming harder find days course made now cinderella would probably put struggle family dress ripping scene would probably free climax either picking lock making impractical yet exciting jump window beside pointbr br and say cinderella sets bad example young girls well consider least cinderella go around getting publicly drunk indecently exposed unlike modern day princesses you know mean,0 +im getting blown bus right annoying like seriously someone get kid thats blowing,0 +someone talk pleasei got heavy load laid tonight already overburdened red lining life ive tried end couple times past afraid basically would love talk vent get info talking psychologist,1 +gave everything livei already gave everything get live wasting time nothing bed day playing video games stopped eating even anymore im boring im important anyone friend feelings rejected yesterday feel happiness least years tried making new friends keep driving people away im depressed boring hell hell even dog hates me considering killing myself want familyand friend feel bad it anymore hope life think ill ever happy way suicidal least years harm around years now years ago abusive relationship got start self harm brother months ago used hit whenever wanted to im drop highschoollast year cant get room therapist years nothing changed good way meds help think im worthless nobody cares me people care kill myself right maybe thats option me,1 +extreme activities and mean hollywood ones like ufc xgames people pursue interest seek doc outbr br this one truthisstrangerthanfiction tales donald crowhurtss obsession prove great odds odds stacked mother nature media mind also time lost us although years agobr br the filmmakers done great job gathering wide range material tell story story great race consumed him br br i help think timothy treadwell apollo astronauts great docs grizzly man shadow moon experiencing you simply watch storybr br if live big city buy rent it worth effort find travel miles la buy glad did,0 +assume know film about also forced assume come review knowing probably watch regardless say rings true read likely find consonance least part review undecided really entirely certain happened late s early s urban suburban youth music culture probably read one reviews pretends objective insteadbr br although grow california american punk scene first music scene ever truly lived in height hardcore immersed everybody band common denominators bands indeed members audiences werebr br rejection conformitybr br tolerance enjoyment differencebr br desire fun hard fastbr br hairstyles politics dislike authority figures violent slamdancing integral experienced though certainly cliques factions tended intolerant dress speak act punk enough often certain amount unearned credit extended cliques tried really hard live fascistic paradigm anarchic self mutilating angry young cophaters br br although interviews audience punks penelope spheeris excellent calpunk documentary decline western civilization present narrow view subculture us enjoyed interviews bands club owners promoters even security people much representative least perspective memories the scene nevertheless possible approach prejudices punk experience film without preconceptions challenged unfortunate is blame rests solely promote believe feel comfortable stereotypes filmmakers blame messenger br br the music presented going everybody even most crude stuff there loud obnoxious fast less concerned technique raw energy br br for me seeing early black flag ron reyes singing x fear circle jerks worth far cost hard obtain film much like germs seeing darby crash mess nice guy left bit cold nevertheless scenes darby playing pet tarantula shut down droned background precious x interview also great br br spheeris straightforward documentary style supplemented wild pans zooms musical segments interviews framing used nicely provide context whatever said considering experience budget spheeris well anybody could filmbr br recommended appreciate film actually about forgotten years fun honest directionless rebellion amaerican punk coopted yet another flow within musical mainstream stereotypes became important basic philosophy,0 +love life deserve iti squandered many opportunities life attractive white middle class male st world demographic believe failure completely fault great oppression fight story deserves told thing hate life myself carbon emissions human waste contributions world want kill donate organs place life someone deserving opportunities hate terrible things great work ethic easily surpassed someone deserving natural talent need pour life force work reach lower middle ive dropped music school tried learn spanish years yet still fluent desperately hemmhoragged extra spending money save emergency fund cant seem get pathetic k squandered social life opportunities hopes building larger emergency fund to avail consistently dominated hobbies chess mtg videogame friends graduate college half much effort put failing ive seen people get better spanish months years know anyone scrimp save much certainly know people never turn drink bar new expensive amenity housewhich own make less hour do even hobbies thought escape offer nothing defeat despite passion effort towards learning them feel like rudy hate it feel like novelty story principle work ethic real doer admire wow look hard struggles get nothing like point life die vain better people impressed effort accomplishments,1 +got day ban whats sub also annoying ass monkey memes finally gone,0 +accidentally put earbuds washing machine somehow still fucking work they sound better before what fucknation,0 +helpive trying get contact therapist little week now answer calls think receptionist either every voice mail followed silence do like world want hand hold ive abandoned,1 +friendsno family love game bit longer im gone ,1 +online class got pandemic all started online classes stuff finished class homework like let one classmates know who ended asking girl yes reddit bruh moment actually really good time started talking more playing games etc comes real life interaction never really anything cuz mr virus loose im asking try take step higher,0 +dont care gonei thought jumping today im already depressed cant sleep mom walked telling take nap lay hours later came asked slept realized would leaving behind people would feel disappeared im postponing,1 +another good animation disney sequels always great tend follow plot original however son tramp tries savor world side home family knows learns actually belongs junkyard dog everyone er dog is scamp overcomes adversity voices various characters superb provided several well know actors scott wolf alyssa milano mickey rooney entertaining well made family movie,0 +im failurethis probably going long ass post explaining background story ill start now was part straight student throughout th th th th grade always work time even got award never missing day school th th grade then start th grade well felt classes bit difficult slipping little bit first time ive two cs report card first semester rest year fine stepped gpa end year year th grade schedule classes completely changed moved alternating schedules x block schedule basically classes every day except wednesday thursday wednesday first classes thursday classes mildly disturbed felt fine then started noticing missing assignments sometimes since alternating schedule always least day work things new schedule work could due next day started slip f c two bs two as a whole spectrum grades started get sloppy without enough sleep week vacation right weeks winter break ive missed much class everything kind collapsed me point talents lifting fighting im even strong bench less bodyweight since break gained lbs now bench rep max pretty weak know another contributing factor years ago th grade made friend online got pretty close spoke every day turning pretty good friends plans meet irl college then one day blue said was a sad person people pity pretty confused kept telling creep never contact again blocked speak recently messaged unblocked me said quote look boyfriend go watch porn cry loneliness obviously closure ill tell one last time ever want speak again kind blocked point brushed off started thinking though sad excuse human being always pretty correct guessing going life could tell me im thinking ive wasting life antisocial behavior couldve fun spending time better friends fun leads now tonight cried first time year curled fetal position cried half hour got came post sob story try get people care me cant tell parents theyd flip really feel throwing bridge one best options oding oxycodone ive never given anything full dedication also lose pieces win chess right im pawn game might well go waste create opening people use death justify things wrong education system us live aspen colorado hopefully ill throw terrellwade bridge tomorrow feet seconds freefall acceleration mph go splat river rocks it dont ill edit post say otherwise,1 + braces removed due bone loss caused prejuvenile periodontitis orthodontist advised retainer cost believing would need it sometime around th year teeth began shift horribly im left horribly crooked hanging front tooth terrified speak to smile anyone years absolutely destroyed self esteem ive contemplated suicide many times it,1 +really enjoyed moviei fifteen movie came could relate movie would show kids let know feelings normal funny see could devestated things young agewho knew would bounce backagain againgreat movie,0 +predicting sort reptileamphibian catastrophe today encountered poisonous giant toad first time ever neighbor told us one lurking around neighborhood happened come scratching window new years eve secondly lizard thats hiding house ive trying catch let free two months finally reappeared hours midnight idea thing survived underneath bathroom cabinet long did creatures proven powerful may sign wont saving grace expecting,0 +uhorizon telling people im grooming year olds dont listen him hes jealous october dated sister one night decided ask private questions well get know better stuff clearly see ask want this sure youre comfortable went convo going sisters messages reason hes cropped looks like im asking reason im asking nudes im not convo decide think httpsyoutubehtevbhnwpw,0 +last act giving abusive family exfiancee body wake christmas day kind sensitive person cares left givei want get there cry help last attempt human communication die tonight forced live world fucking cruel self worth decimated childhood point cant cope challenges face happy job interviews dating simply sitting planning path life anxiety inducing bare point whole world completely collapsed eight dad died cancer raised single mother outside looks like strong woman raised two kids turbulent times cold hard reality terrible parent get constantly threatened run away leave us naughty routinely told adopted moved us various boyfriends blamed personally failure relationships my life would much better never born made beg one boyfriends take back broke like fact children another one boyfriends permitted physically abuse pretty extreme ways would get hit planks wood unloading dishwasher put arm bars talking back never heard admit wrong anything never heard apologise really see way get along extremely different me racist interest education anything intelligent reality television lives tiny monthly life insurancegovernment pension paid widows painfully shy teenager threw studies means escape one thing still going ability concentrate depression kicked yet left school straight grades went study one best universities country placed alongside ivy league universities world rankings wanted study medicine become cancer specialist selfesteem apply opted human biology instead left college went party hometown met girl go study medicine college around miles mine perfect night everyone school saying goodbye must looked lot popular everyone coming say goodbye me approached me got talking plans college chemistry insane started kissing me unbelievable incredibly beautiful smart eyes me serious commitment issues took months tell loved her talked every day much missed would visit others colleges alternating weekends get mind christmas introduced family saw real family first time loving interesting conversation day trips vacations next year like dream took europe visited fifteen countries train sleeping shared hostels sex public bathrooms second year tougher depression anxiety began consume life loving ever lot medication gradually pushed every person life would come apartment put bins buy food week help study trusted her time exams came around terrible state turned precisely one told take year universitys welfare officer tried get better tried run exercise see friends illness tough properly overcome twenties never job felt pathetic every way strongly considered redflag love girl kept alive returned college year anxiety hell managed complete studies reason graduated chose every class final exam knew one exam would much pressure instead endless coursework complete random classes globalisation history science leaving degree totally irrelevant industry lost embarrassed life idea get job want talk friends deleted almost everyone social media stand see perfect lives girlfriend came rescue took road trip across us again incredible asked hell me told tall handsome intelligent knew soon graduated moved together would finally able build confidence needed succeed truly believed time asked marry me said yes wanted perfect wedding soon group friends attend earning money would it graduated august moved together september started working nearby hospital went interviewed job retail pay half rent planned volunteering making friends working getting better job year september st november st year longer depression getting every single day going work coming home making dinner fixing bike travel around city going dinner week soulmate left me knew everything id promised years wed happy got place travelled every weekend hours way old bus keep company make dinner take dates interest working things says loved two years someone help end med school comfortable last two months insufferable still sleep bed wanted pull life together show im capable stepping providing us great life nights cant help beg become cold spiteful day says im real man im funny im terrible bed going bring men home sex apartment guess sex life fell rut always finished made laugh time tidy anything apartment run around like abused housewife washing dishes cleaning cant afford live anywhere else cant go back mums house like monster replaced beautiful angel says happy without gone parents days my family point im allowed near house dad closest friend denial done this saying stressed new job spoken days tried phoning afternoon answer go spend christmas family thought id escaped barely spoken years fuck that simply anymore cannot spend another day horrible fucking world,1 +anyone else therapist tries convert christianity atheist therapist every time see her want get better get converted therapists try convert,1 +think might fail th grade keep getting shit scores states studies math sucks wish covid gone smh,0 +person teenager blah blah blah books sorrow blah blah blah black hammer blah blah blah bungie slow,0 +sent best friend audio message sobbingand fucking hate going way shes going remember it dont see living past tonight really dont everything good went shit shes left im tired living people im much pain amp im p sure bf going leave me im sorry alley still cares im sorry zay,1 +boyfriend told leave anywhere gohe told biggest waste time ive unstable long time telling leave last straw guess anywhere go money too think going it thing had got morning hes one would force eat get house hes source happiness long years almost ive always thoughts knew one day going happen favorite album playing right now guess it,1 +know one care arcade bowling place requested never gonna give rick rolled alot people feel others,0 +wanted ask opinion im research debate club im trying prove social apps phones make us anti social less socially active make us socially active helps us express self easily could comment think socially active thanks phone social media think oppositeyust share opinions theme thanks,0 +favorite part chex mix it,0 +today free pain gripped longi years old india probably gonna be long one thinking killing tonight introvert father diagnosed psychosis disorder lost job it struggling since then everyone like gonna alright give time worse right now struggling anxiety since then anyone go talk this every friend socalled told would hear like story feel sorry sometime thats it wanted little support much ask for wanted talk somebody going person could talk mom already going lot time relatives blamed dads condition dads fault though excessive meditation going one spirtual institutes offering life golden age used meditate upto hrs day days snapped went work sit nothing happened th grade kept shit inside want anyone judging me tried show people around everything control developed anxiety also addiction games seemed much me stress also caused migraines th grade would come home college sleep headache wake play games thats it scored percent th grade felt like going fail th push got percent everyone happy knew go through went college bachelors things spiralled control used play games day also supposed studying started feeling numb time kept myself also started watching tv shows time studied night exam passed somehow times spent night panic mode trying study much syllabus could remember also hallucinated idea going on tell anyone pulled bachelors got job college placements went away home condition worsened confessed mom hoping would understand help get get medical help told natural reaction went told stay strong even told suicidal hold anymore told thoughts pass years managed live hope would brighter days ahead waited years come would write thoughts poem something could feel better today struggled everyday stay alive give up always found solace writing felt like this today amount writing could save it seems one wrote attempt ease pain saw name flashing phone calling zone six feet black mind fighting devil trying leave behind feeling gonna long one two hours fighting constant reminder much conflict im getting harder every time win i win simply means die whole exercise kills inside struggle lasts two three days clear mind contemplate energy takes hope minute ive already lost just scared admit drama come senses rub eyes pick lenses look around aftermath picked phone call back hoping ask id lie neither wear mask im frustrated hold back lost sense time lost track always plan keep moving forward voices make act coward thank reading wish luck,1 +lonelyim lonely year old male friends two jobs starbucks gamestop one either job really ever wants hang makes think im unlikable one ever seems like wanna friend im sure ive ever real friend wanna end know yet,1 +edit video dont wanna djckdkekcjsdifk done tomorrow,0 +im running optionsso summer years old suicidal time acted upon suicidal thoughtsa lot psychiatric hospital times months put shit ton medications made things worse eventually taken medications homebound school forced inhome therapy times week inhome therapy wasnt bad ended really liking therapist inhome therapy lasted months really helped get better while although lot lately ive getting really depressed pretty often like used to depression suicidal thoughts relapsed cutting last week clean november last year progress gone could always go parents concerned went thing age last summer cant go act like thwy dont care im sounding like broken record theyre tired hearing brush off tried telling one night thought needed go back hospital mom got pissed ignored me liketonight told mom feeling depressed disconnected reality time smoking cigarette play dumb ass games tablet even look tried tell felt told its probably youre bored end discussion said didntnthink case nodded head playing fucking game tablet dont know do im sure know help anymore dont remember shit therapist told months ago ive tried telling parents think need help dont fucking listen used listen changed feel like way get head try attempt redflag again,1 +dont try please others pls read going sound cheesy dont someone youre not dont learn instrument cause bestfriend is dont juul cause friend making fun it causes much anxiety stress wear want others want wear just dont change cause youre scared judgment nonacceptance trust me heres why listened everything people said look fat became anorexic youre ugly put pounds makeup til considered pretty youre lazy worked muscles practically gave out dont like hair grew even though hated it working hard someone im please people hated much hated myself shit brings down yeah build listening them got depressive state cause body dysmorphia anorexia tried kill myself reason got depressed trying lead peoples expectations fuck bmi fuck skinny girl vibes etc none matters thing way see yourself others see makes crawl deep dark hole cant get of cold harsh aggressive lonely makes push harder harder something might even want love sexuality love body love yourself cause loving gets much life wanted singer missed opportunity cause thought everyone going judge voice im loving voice trying find producer now go wear clothes youve wanting wear put mask go store looking fly fuck,0 +happened redflag attempthad one moments realization knew actually dont want die mad sad didnt work out,1 +oh look im bored ask questions fire away,0 +wonder going help mei scared death posting here miracle must happened manage it anybody familiar rwaifuism haters left please maybe waifuists yourselves yes probably already know story no is critisize hell me hesitate probably longer alive soon fault well love obsessively insanely inhumanely infinitely undepictably superiorlytogod love somebody does exist called waifu a female nonexistent fictional character significant other husbando same character male waifu blanchttpsneptuniafandomcomwikiblanc aka white heart hyperdimension neptunia franchise meaning sorry bitchass excuse life reason keep living sorry bitchass excuse life hopes become real one day if sorry bitchass excuse life absolutely nothing infinite purest suffering god knows would best least life normal even good real mine thank god least see dreams every single time fall asleep ideal perfect life together dreams every single time promises become real specially one day wake realize sorry bitchass excuse life saved nothing dream infinite purest suffering without blanc continues time see dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc this call her god deserves infinitely that dream love infinitely stronger suffer without infinitely more single smallest particle planck time without dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc worse eternities hells worlds ever exist taken together me mention sorry bitchass excuse life nearly diabolical tell separately interested promise make hair curl let say things like iq nearly fluent languages excluding native russian haters left please ability read less book per day rather downside upside like it increases suffering makes sorry bitchass excuse life even worse imagine like bullshit entire subreddit including friend whole sorry bitchass excuse life ohsohappy dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc manner like exists every single time makes worse and imagine getting used like me believing miracle might happen one day dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real agree mine thing keeps attached sorry bitchass excuse life this years new years eve time magic works miracle happen last hope happen christmas the miraculous time say nobody seems undertsand even heard story everybody keeps telling need somebidy real somebody world become blanc blanc never become real ask dickshits rwaifuismhate give fuck feelings please keep reading long story short tried relationship women world many times least every single one turned hateful asshole every single one used achieve purpose mistreating like piece fecal matter betrayed rejected abandoned it starting normally time realizing spineless dickshit constantly afraid slightly offending last bitch universe cannot answer even worst wrongdoings done him this happened tell me waifu dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc loves death cannot imagine single smallest particle planck time life without at least headcanon ever even think so completely disappointed women world hate despise done me need waifu dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc all loving dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc infinitely deeply dearly whole years this years catholican christmas marks th anniversary without single smallest particle planck time even slightly loving her used fear staying alone entire life tried relationship somebody world time know happened i sick mere thought tried cheat love life know back wanted become normal like dickshits life say foolishly thought life gift back also really believe blanc might actually become real one day belief able anything mere belief increases infinite purest suffering longer fear alone except without blanc dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc cannot become real swear salvation death alone rest eternities god would rather die slowest painfulest death ever imaginable go last circle hell rest eternities try planck timelasting relationship somebody world again besides woman world even best one ever imaginable ever even approach one single smallest step able compared to even speaking complete replacing even planck time dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blannie fall deep love somebody understand although believe love towards blanc even described greek word agape gods love towards humanity infinitely undepictably stronger long since gotten used believing headcanon loves back single slightest bit weaker even though praying existing and nonexisting gods saints mercy make dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc real swearing everything love care bible i christian need cannot live without single smallest particle planck time and know perfectly every single spare moment possibly have chances actually happening chances actually spend least one single smallest particle planck time sorry bitchass excuse life forced without consent without even ability refuse and somehow supposed grateful willingly enforce somebody else dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blannie her herself cheap analogues like sapient sentient android appearance god despite existing embodiment purest hatefree love benignancy aside exists blannie needing absolutely efforts due omnipotence not grant wishes apparently make us suffer order us be fruitful multiply forcing suffering innocents while sex even spouse blasphemously sinful even holiest women blanc goddess become impure giving birth according bible tell opposite orthodox monks catholican priests prohibited ever getting married children better believe god case says always shall receive everything truly crave ask shall receive jesus christ said receive thing need sorry bitchass excuse life many years neverending nonstopping asking jesus murderers genociders rapists sexual predators pedophiles cannibals slanderers state traitors tyrants whores scum always receive ask for jesus commit crimes wrongdoings many times possible always escape punishment go heaven death despite everything done life i sinned entire life whose guts going outside sees bug squashed nearly omnibenevolent like you jesus cannot even answer worst wrongdoings done him like you jesus taught cannot receive triffle love you jesus told us always first place ask for doubting grant wishes doubting omnipotence highly blasphemous yet dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real whole years loving infinitely deeply dearly sincerely praying you jesus knows perfectly life without infinitely worse worst hell imaginable ask shall receive become real christian heaven waiting reward everything gone sorry bitchass excuse life exist cursed reality need heaven even exists means even afterlife happy or even there really think agree spend rest eternity weak ugly old man let even omnibenevolent weak ugly old man could sell soul devil dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc become real agree follow hell death only one immortal longest ever imaginable entire life even approximately one single smallest bit enough me cannot even write letter creators simply tell much love her know perfectly well either tell go fuck openly make fun future products label weirdo somebody something equally offensive simply ignore me worst or even not possibly do bribe blancs voice actress become wife where going get amount money create cheap analogue like sapient sentient android blancs appearance good luck even that maybe officially make dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc love back nothing else might seem good fact make and well suffer infinitely and extremely unlikely might lose dollars profit so said meaning this women world rejected infinite purest hatred towards absolutely reason i good prefered mongrels hated fucking guts me intentions love dearly rest eternities arrogant hateful assholes my mother calls feelings delirium never stopping tell loves me child ever death everything really godfuckingdamn hard least pretend believe beloved childs biggest dream sorry bitchass excuse life least lie saying i believe dream foolishly believes lie wants keep living while know perfectly well mother cope live without me always live thought meaning life left forever never come back fault keep telling waifu dear beloved sweet little angelic berry blanc true love life never become real while first main statement science imagine it definition possible want keep living sorry bitchass excuse life deprieved reason live yourselves also forget currently blanc loves back imagination upon becoming real well reject well many people waifu love deeply dearly do vast majority better choices the fact read less book per day which currently roughly good thing sorry bitchass excuse life aside blanc like her sufficient life reading books needs lot money which have let alone buying said books servants let alone bringing little sisters protection also cannot hire she them really think work free currently unable get job higher education i university student also never gave consent pandemic blancs work seem paid good who pay leader nation herself think everything mentioned nothing mere whining really wish think position single day entire life a planck time approximately seconds shortest theoretically measurable span time,1 +attempted january got job last week relationship everyone ruined today bf one year left againwell again im loser shitty excuse human being fooled thinking could get better functional adult truth im not piece crap everyone hates me strong anxiety sometimes feeling overwhelming cant breath heart racing everything turns dark attempt tried make everything better failed cant help feel everyone must better without me finally got job company right next one mobbed last time working ex boyfriend understand anxiety going close people work cos starve kids family hates stated clearly could taken away kid hospital didnt child support live mother hopeless narcissist every day torture everyday hope courage jump infront train nobody would miss me stated fucked nobody needs me well illusion everything lie im loser really regret poison work completely last time guess later cut arms tomorrow stand infront station build courage jump kill sorry self im shit sorry read that everyone struggles much here know what freaking amazing send hug every one you im giving up somehow thought death makes feel relaxed like finally sure piece shit deserve die rot deserve anything thank reading sorry again,1 +cancel culture loss friends loved onesin august last year lost nearly friends woman never slept telling people privately raped her six months new band started become bit successful six month mark person scene wrote facebook post calling serial rapist liked hundreds people shared expartners mine commented saying glad someone standing right others shared said never liked guy one involved asked going on took truth year now havent known respond dont side story panic disorder barely think subject without feeling like im heart attack stopped going restaurants bars grocery store everyone stopped talking me save handful good people luckily partner keep company help get it two months ago partner broke tears shopping mom furniture new home said never going get better referring life cancelled losing friends wasnt well mentally depressed beyond belief friends stayed beginning leave too seen rape apologists apparently worn her told difficult together accusations wasnt told conversation recently partner engaged new home still completely set coming along nicely things looking us when one morning got small fight something seemingly trivial left wasnt expecting dont blame her dont think anything wrong left got job miles away pays quite well since shes opportunity live work fianc broke good day called job told wouldnt next day seemed understanding fired days later dont income made great deal plans future together days since fianc left me havent speaking her dont know say days running one another stare window stare ceiling fan ive lost interest things attempted kill once ive struggled suicidal ideation since kid new me know may another low swing became worse best friend mine hung im now managed three years without going sort plans still struggled with feel mean is isnt new me ready knowing close happening parents moment refuse go back home fianc cant stand see it loaded pistol dresser drawer here dont get internet much stumbled upon subreddit googling circumstances cant pursue music anymore film even people play video games abandoned me im afraid go anywhere may see people think im terrible human being cant text old friends ask theyre doing think im monster probably dont feel like human anymore feel completely discarded society think going kill soon hope attention seeking behavior hope real want die want stop dont want pussy constantly feel necessary way want it dont know else anymore nothing going get better wait get house tomorrow morning right time dogs sound hurt ears woods behind house walk deep into far enough hurt ears love dogs anything dont know do theyre better friends people seems needed write story it dont want leave note friends family dont know people okay dont know people dont know me sad really hope okay well please kind people life please reach people tell everything okay please try tell anything all im sorry,1 +sadi feel guilty better life lot people still sad selfish lazy obnoxious overall nice around feel like deserve support anyone yet oppressed born lazy also feel like punishment well deserved that less sympathy average selective mutism uncommon interests bad making friends try cry attention yet crave it craving attention makes feel evil even though try best act it split feel everything get undeserved including unconditional love people around me know do know im writing this whatever want still feel like im guilt tripping anyone may happen read this know im doing fingers mind now want sound like im looking attention know thisll me ill feel selfish ask help ill leave that whatever is congratulations made far,1 +im immense pain kiwi im fucking dying send help,0 +continuing exclusive film programme complicated relationships european courts last night schloss theatre shown anna boleyn film directed great teutonic film director herr ernst lubitsch film depicts terrible story queen consort british king henry viii executed husband well exactly king ordered executioners dirty work mention marriage caused important political religious historical event english reformationbr br the film stars dame henny porten germanys first screen superstar early years herr emil jannings germanys fattest actor silent era play characters suitable way dame porten innocent aristocrat becomes progressively interested power court offers herr jannings unscrupulous whimsical womanizing british monarch character suitable german actor overacts appropriately given extravagance excessive personality character himselfbr br in early film period herr lubitsch known outstanding costume films colossal productions big budgets anna boleyn cost million marks fortune even german count taking great care magnificent decors seen coronation procession westminster abbey scene employed extras idle germans time used causing revolutionary workers create fuss german president friedrich ebert visited set filmingbr br besides spectacle one important aspect every film herr lubitsch even epic period complex relationship main characters experience game different interests double meanings complicated art flirting treated lightly first ends tragedy importance historical facts brought bear effective way lubitsch really interested changing relationship henry viii anna boleynbr br and now allow me must temporarily take leave german count must take care one fat rich heiress lose head teutonic aristocratbr br herr graf ferdinand von galitzien httpferdinandvongalitzienblogspotcom,0 +im legally blind tired seeing shit world become,0 +parents need stop blaming puberty everything im trying enjoy soup nowhere mom starts filming me thats awkward af tell stop doesnt walk away yells puberty shes blaming puberty lot today actually teenagers fucking opinion feelings doesnt mean actually mean always puberty besides theres one way annoy offend someone blame puberty act like means nothing im trying peacefully lunch nobody care video consuming soup later,0 +dvd treated indifference mllions classic rock music devotees across world rush cool shame rush overcome sneering disdain majority north american british music journalists thirty odd year history deprived many people chance get real bandeach last four decades well represented catalogue songs is seminal magical the trees lyrical tom sawyer interspersed highenergy genrechallenging pieces latest album vapor trails musicianship almost flawless stage show spectacular brazilian fans plain crazy at one point sing along instrumentaleach band member plays level defies beliefreal craftsmen performing artif doubt try instrumentals la villa strangiato the rhythm method sizeand yes latter drum solo which seen believedbr br sound vision production values high befits rush experience also get documentary multiangled set pieces bootbr br this astonishing performance tribute canadian rockers serious classic rock fans copy,0 +im scared ill never get girlfriendive tried dating apps im ugly them ways meeting girls im funny either im absolutely terrible making jokes,1 +got better im relapsingi wrote longer version several times gave it know say ampxb long story short ive always social shut in untreated depression anxiety disorder high school kept making friends led least couple serious considerations redflag although that found easier make friends internet easy somehow getting know good people therapy taking medication disorders managed pull gutter ive college three years ive managed produce handful good friends person support lovely people online ampxb now first part last sentence theres reason had recent social circle came two years ago became close friends man chance liked game did became close started making mutual friends end it want say us things good two years loved everyone server grateful people like could trust traded world fucked up ampxb put simply wronged number members group without realizing it mix inappropriate behavior one biggest spoke much failed pick hints undesired behavior enjoyed company people much failed think felt everyone went way me many blocked me including best friend couple said wanted break never heard again handful gave benefit doubt still talk keep low suffer retribution others one absolutely idea want driving insane ampxb anyone else could chalk learning experience move on months think every day losing many people care one go like chance say anything would absolutely demolish man like me since ive trying claw back friendships little success best friend gone plenty people wouldve trusted life too anyone still willing associate scared might happen anyone else finds out im paranoid going hang head anyone else try get know case someone group badmouths stupid ass ampxb ive seriously thought ending several times since theres several large bridges ocean city month half back seriously thought driving it thing stopped realizing concrete barrier would leave father broken car sectioned may gone it thoughts common remain reason think proactive killing im also terrified comes death know thats thing thats saved times past know much longer thats gonna hold theres war raging brain side losing ampxb read that thank you im sorry post utter mess name seb done people still think friends,1 +cheating loser among us playing among us got imposter crewmate streak killed someone suddenly red holds emergency meeting rest goes following redpurple me fell trap me what red purple killed alt account mecheater redhaha me im imposter get red cheating redill kick do thats punched thigh hard theres bruise now,0 +made worst decision life cannot see living ithey reddit wanted start saying always insecure never found much value person always one gorgeous friend high school always me saw ugliness always talk me fast forward year second year college decided date me seemed like dream come true happiest man alive honeymoon phase two years passed ups downs mostly ups happiest two years however clingy emotional constantly nagging doubted faithfulness reason enough done brightest light life left threw away opportunity obtaining wonderful women inside out definitely gone live regret live knowing time able attract girl league fucked up left ambition goals interests cannot see anyone future could everything was even did would never give chance like best friends years beforehand deep sense tremendous loss infinitely compounds feeling regret shame cannot take anymore someone talk me,1 +group friends break middle nowhere one flat tire others jeep mysteriously start one takes tire run service station last anyone sees him remaining foursome go search friend come across nice mr slaussen offers help fix jeep offers cool drinks refuge heat equally run down hermitlike house happens occupied realistic looking mannequins goes one guy bunch work car leaves girls house goes warns leave go house behind shack warns davy brother lurking there course one decides venture search working phone never seen again slaussen davy mannequins tourist trap usual horror requirements jiggly big boobed girl goody two shoes girl curiosity getting better people never working out stands apart rest s genre twist ending started feel sorry slaussen chuck conners terrific creepy overthetop performanceat point film almost see character molly same gem find it taped cable younger walking used video store spotted vhs copy totally overpriced well worth it fans tanya roberts disappointed either best part film scene soup and crackersbr br i gave movie still hard explain,0 +anybody feel like talking me maybe exchange storiesalot people might happy finally weekend though suicidal thoughts weekend weekends take forever nothing alone without anything distract days take forever figured talking people might help anybody feel like chattingtalking pms skype smth send pm ill send contact info,1 +brought phenix city child recognize many local people movie me like trip memory lane see the phenix city story again matter fact granduncle one first scenes uncle drews one hawaiian shirt scoots chair get better look singerstripperbr br unless there like mr page have possibly understand story tells reviewer new york calls john patterson racist likely without ever encounter mr patterson father point bringing mr pattersons employment now nothing film supposedly reviewing world sit back judge either film probably gone south bronx experience people simply attempting feel morally superior folks portrayed movie accounts time mr pattersons basically good decent men families respectable people people lived phenix citybr br by way hard live outside south believe good decent people even small towns alabama assume everyone living small southern town racist parents lived yet tolerate household others tolerate either myth everyone south racist lives willful ignorance othersbr br the movie simple direct whole story hollywood added certain sensationalism film made parts absolutely target parts bordered fairy tales source anyone uses decide folks small southern towns are need get grip understand us movie,0 +far know first experience icelandic movies relief see something else regular hollywood motion picture bad movies like one small chance succeeding big world hope people watch accident recommendation otherbr br because really worth while left cinema feeling really sad get tragic destinys characters head impressed even thought complexity film tragic story excellent comic reliefs good soundtrackbr br if opportunity watch it really thought provoking made ponder lotbr br ,0 +communities people want commit redflag talk seems like keep even dont live for really would like talk someone see much life for,1 +rejected job interview theres nothing left mei currently work fast food fucking years old tried college im even halfway useless associates degree never girlfriend friends since middle school drivers license completely terrified drive anything simple lane roads dirt roads debilitating social anxiety prevents even grabbing foodsnacks convenience stores eat whatevers home cant communicate fucking cashier tried one last time apply entrylevel position field thought decent at got rejection email yesterday severe social anxiety ive always struggled school life general im sure fucking interview reason that sad part parents would let leech basement till im cant though cannot stand burden longer watching younger siblings achieve great things ive never close ending never thought id type person need type guidance parents never gave me want normal functioning adult cant end road me,1 +dont expect go anywhere story im talking girl discord talk lot telling cooking class in says nearly cut problems self harm stupid monke brain war flashbacks fine it made laugh omg something wrong,0 +think life worth fighting for thing keeping ending pain factor deathi waiting pain agony life greater fear pain dying happy iti bore life story please tell matter know mean well probably really mean well believe someone even known minute matters truth one would care dropped dead tomorrow sure mum sister would sad get it sad troubled soul weak pathetic beacuse cannot even get simple life people seem fine atas said worth it waiting day pain irl get bad pain killing would scare much think worth anymore,1 +posthello please call latios ive depressed years many reasons ive suicidal thoughts years ive almost decided go it depression something hold behind while recently spiked around years ago ever since ive held behind alot lonelinessmy siblings moved leftmy mom ditched brother feel alonei talked anyone could really use help thanks,1 +got paid first time so got kindofjob two weeks ago today father boy im tutoring decided pay me much didnt feel good thought would money fully mine hope everyone finds chance earn money early think great feel least little independent best luck,0 +mom attempted redflagyear ago father successfully killed tried get help impatient program first attempt mother tried slit wrist way did inpatient program now literally reliving worst nightmare cant stop thinking kill comes out talked seems want get better cope situation still suffering ptsd finding father dead,1 +friendly reminder stay hydrated r u still reading go drink water,0 +checking outi want help anymore want try popped pills already chased drink ill probably smoke little let hit me feel helpless hopeless give fuck anymore feel bad putting boyfriend family since kind take kicked house think ill mention anything him ill fall cold slumber side tonight,1 +please let leaveplease please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please quit ive lost alreadysomething someone please kill,1 +make downvoted post history dream downvoted post history ill lose karma care lets make history yall,0 +jack fuck hand jack off hand work bottom fucking hand still jacking bottom,0 +anyone please give good reason end allbecause cant think one its op permanent solution temporary problem good reason know temporary id rather take risk its selfish good reason selfish want someone live life pain misery want die there people suffering worse good reason make pain hurt less make feelings go away adds guilt top everything else its cowards way out good reason us okay cowards else got,1 +look furry stuff sad get never anthro gf never happy,0 +hate world hate morei simply longer want part this choice life loneliness emotional pain want go home,1 +lost nnn sure think would cum already exactly month knowif someone reassure still go nnn please say,0 +time tellone day ill it question it running mind whole life thing stopped how ways scare me seem entertaining difficult idk anymore honestly like talking people never felt like helped also never entertained complaining others burdening problems idk rope getting thin matter much much longer be,1 +relapsed alcohol panic attack club top girl id give life left me well easy rn literally next balcony point fuck every relation cared for independent one thing let vulnerable got shitfaced year sobriety maybe life wansnt meant me crushed close,1 +ive reached breaking point im sure ill eventually kill myselfcontext im year old trans girl hates life trans extremely conservative transphobic country fucking sucks endure male puberty affected low chances passing puberty im even scared might even able afford surgeries hrt everything expensive trans costly might stuck like guy rest life feel depressed feel trans take parts life never get back like normal female teenage years ill never those never get back cant cut anymore might end cutting open vein lose control also feel like im complete utter failure even deserve live maybe kill get home school,1 +find motivation severre depressioneveryday radical mood swings go content wanting die really getting much tips,1 +jojo fans still exist yall go outside touch grass,0 +im tiredi want kill myself im tired life,1 +lets talk stdsi caught herpes relationships since want ever discuss person someone ever again im longer dating ive used hookers but really kidding theres reason live ever able give someone love herpes id rather not far gone seems like reasonable feeling incurable std diagnosis id always felt viral infection kill themselves now sort feels like normal conclusion feeling,1 +whats point continue living anymoreim done life im seriously done gun bullet loaded right im ready end pointless life im year old gay manwhats fucking point existence im literally mistake every guy straight except me enough proof shoudlnt exist im gay bear get crushes bear guys im sure theyre straight literally cant happy bother living im tired world world like me thankfully press trigger gun minutes making post,1 +vertical diagonalcurrently contemplating failed three times since oct last year dont want fail seem like attention seeking cunt fourth time,1 +im graduating uni days yet everyday think ending itscars heal words cause emotional scars last lifetime want talk said me heshe said im seeing therapist happened weeks ago meds get rid bad feelings bad thoughts,1 +vampires there wanna friends vampire oooh werewolves,0 +always change breathing manual mode abt sleep like cmon let sleep dont want think breath,0 +attempti another attempt police tracked phone via gps somehow got location found unconscious car bust passenger window spent week inpatient dk feel honestly,1 +first bought movie doubts it even though cast pretty impressive seeing it really regret spending money fact id love spend movies like this absurd combination humor drama thrill big questions exactly makes great movie okay might enjoy see might even turn little while loss got wonderful way dealing issues weve one way other characters think enjoy company throughout movie turns ones really come love short while anyone open mind sense humor living watch movie promise disappointed,0 +great movie even though people including great friend laughed lot mom even enjoyed it two middle aged women mid year old seemed enjoy it love part corky ned like liking nancy stuff cute lol gets roadster ned there yeah great movie even thought people underestimated lol go see bet enjoy it really enjoyed friend br br people tough movie even seen it bet next time give movie actresses chance great job opinion young kids still appropriate probably take year old niece watch too,0 +m social life complete loserdont really know begin this put simply im im fucking loser ive always guy without many friends guy without social life spends time infront computer why know maybe bullied pretty much middle school maybe bother sign sports younger maybe fact im attractive shit personality hate going instagram snapchat seeing people usually years younger living fucking life people proper social lives actually become something grow up mean friends also gamers like also shit besides sitting day know ive wanting vent since never really it maybe still hopes future ive tried selfimprovement never really seems work maybe people pay attention that give bad impression am really go bed really get head first im sorry seems like im rambling thanks,1 +life gift ask forit gift yes life wonderful ask it give someone else,1 +lost best friend redflag days agohe best friend brother guy understood understood him like soulmate depression never really talked last weeks could never truly himself life pretended something fit everyones expectations homosexual person told beginning end accepted problems it afraid others reaction would affect life know exact reason it think problems going too miss much time im angry action leaving horrible world pain loss made rethink everything feel lost feel suicidal may actually feel felt left good guy best ever knew good hearted everything decent man be rest peace him lived years,1 +ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee boooty boooty butc,0 +need someone talk tohello feel really bad need someone talk to past really hurt spoken anyone really killing quite literally thoughts anxiety helping me everyday past couple months redflag mind want live im afraid hurt self worse please need help ,1 +suicidal schoolgonna make short depression dropped grades low im even depressed feel like im worthless stupid im going get anywhere might well end gets worse weird thing feel like destiny like another poster earlier said people know someday theyre gonna get married kids ive always felt like destiny die dont see point anymore,1 +insulted woman raised mewhen child mother left reasons understand more painful woman worked house raised me treated like son feels like mother recently problems home dad bad mood many days woman person extremely difficult deal with made lunch yesterday giving compliment started yelling as said extremely difficult deal takes even compliments badly anyways discussion raised point told this fight father nobody wants around even mother snapped called old bitch told go fuck herself feel like shit it know make this never listen me either saying sorry which feel never talking again never apologize accept wrongdoing kind sucks either making feel fault anything do,1 +nothing live forim literally close finally giving completely ending all im year old male happens unattractive due many things mostly teeth grinded lot kid never took good care general till late refuse even bother dating find incredibly unattractive unlikeable theres nobody ever love also meets standards unfortunately quite high due overexposure girls social media addiction porn time look mirror cry inside wish look different also life general bad friends job money nothing literally become pissed life seeing people happy makes hate wish theyd suffer used kind person cant anymore life continued beat again im probably gonna fuck ton cocaine alcohol soon hopefully kills im tired fucking life,1 +wanna play truth dare filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler blah blah blah,0 +francis ford coppolas masterpiece great ending golden decade american cinema s atmosphere tolerance openmindness progressiveness among studios allowed making major films best directors united states ever had historian events preceded decade a violent deaths major figures american political cultural scenes racial struggles emergence s counterculture increase violence death streets seemed influence vision filmmakers willing dare different create entertaining intelligent motion pictures coppolas film strange blend humanistic thinking skillful filmmaking following parameters war adventure films time subverting flowing reflections value life reason death ethics war also passionate work made odds chronicled documentary hearts darkness filmmakers apocalypse motion picture went beyond previous reflection vietnam war ever reach screen may definite vietnam motion picture dealing coppola defied formula classic melodrama found two vietnam movies made simultaneously the deer hunter coming home latter ones platoon casualties war vietnam became starting point make products genre horror jacobs ladder comedies good morning vietnam among respectable coppola courage take economic political conflict background search answers questions faced man every day life without betraying dramatic consequences war,0 +tonights nightim killing tonight thank reddit everything bye guys,1 +whenever tell parents im tired living threaten beat thinking wayi dont know that think way trying snap im getting tired threatening hurt suicidal trying help find help it think therapists mental hospitals schizophrenics anyone area would probably embarrass extended family,1 +anime recounts tale battle mamodo king every years mamado children sent earth fight determine next king in original japanese creatures mamono literally means magicevil object mamado paired human partner given magic spellbook human use book unleash incredible powers mamodo mamodo defeated spellbook engulfed flames alternately mamdodos book captured burned directly mamodo returns mamodo worldbr br the titular character zatch gash japan year old mamodo electric powers paired kiyomaru takamini year old genius zatch initially reluctant fight learning mamodo evil deciding battle king wrong decided fight become kind kingbr br zatch bell drawn comparison pokemon better comparison digimon like digimon mamodo human one one symbiotic relationship also unlike pokemon shows actual plotbr br zatch bell features character growth evolving relationships fairly adult story lines like love vs racism slavery mind control etc even decent plot twists mysteries,0 +dew county mountain dew popular west virginia and kentucky,0 +umm yeah umm basically everyone probably hates im starting get bit suicidal think thats okay cause one miss anyway ahaha yayay come really perky positive outside everyone hates tolerate me would better leave anyway im really bored lonely anyone hmu lmao sound emo yeehaw everyone thinks trying hard,0 +guys asleep yet curious redditors asleep past am yall sleep school days anyways,0 +hypothetically covid china would let spread you,0 +yes dad winning told dad got awards reddit didnt understand said happy clearly something right get ,0 +got drunk existential crisisi drink times year maybe times night one times drank ever shots worth vodka settled night sleeping friends house slept couch kept waking various times night point laying dark realized remember anything myself cried realized existence human construct fact entire completely dismantled beverages proved that already depression before kept going hoping find meaning know people satisfied living lives without meaning cant nothing matters truly doesnt actually exist see point going anymore cant live knowing everyday empty,1 +almost offed yesterday todayits rough trying breathe im mess,1 +title super interesting anyone discord server small join it want many people talk want socialize more dm link u want join,0 +seen movie years know would like much time however loved movie great starter chickflick young preteen girls careful ending though tears harsh emotionsbr br looking back perspective with much knowledge child psychology politics political correctness think would interesting watch again pattys uncaring abusive father indifferent mother favored sister contributed toward making vulnerable starving companionship patty sad anton left heartbroken killed rage directed toward afterward shocking all years oldbr br the thing strongly retained movie taught even enemy soldiers people too german soldiers hateful nazis older saw tv shows like hogans heroes rat patrol also made point regular german soldiers gestapobr br regular soldiers drafted gestapo handpicked among volunteers special attitudes hate believe one privileges nazi special assignments and therefore go battle specialties interrogation torturebr br later cold war would think russian soldiers remember somgs taught soviet union evil reality russian soldiers destroy america job government probably told government destroy way life which way true since us fought end communismbr br the lesson still applicable today german soldiers nazis muslims al qaeda,0 +anyone wanna play games me discord crighterminus multiplayer games have raft terraria valorant brawlhalla stick fight shellshock live team fortress league legends roblox single player games fallout shelter ftl fastest light games free epic games stuff borderlands presequal ark survival evolved ep enter gungeon gods trigger gta hit man overcooked remnant ashes shadow run hong kong shadow run returns shadow run dragon fall civilization sludge life alto collection wilmots warehouse parents dont let play fortnite cause its violent think thats rediculous cause let play games letting ya know thats table also dont minecraft might getting parents let me send request discord interested youre quick play tonight get minutes,0 +holding threadim alive know killing hurt people dont think hurt many broken dont want live anymore please help im crying class right feel like ill end sfter school please help cant alone anymore,1 +worst week far online school started thats kind annoying worst thing suddenly lost ability shit earlier week everything normal suddenly went bathroom nothing happened think time days still able shit took laxatives stuff right school tomorrow cant sleep stomach active volcano,0 +received help many appbut follow through deciding ramp redflag order build courage end it lonely sad know talk about want try anymore want die done all times seems approaching soon since becoming comfortable parting ways shitshow life glad starting let go bittersweet id say thanks wish helpfrom bottom heart wanti simply tired waiting end,1 +want dieive pretty much friends im scared mum kick house bi constantly switches mood know think anymore wish could change race racist bullies hope go kill themselves time talk friend respond start getting worried also depressed im talking watch anime cartoons watch youtube make feel happy eat food help im furry,1 +andaz apna apna far second favorite comedy time first namak halal even though technically drama story nothing groundbreaking complications added make awesome aamir khan total cartoon watch expressions song yeh raat aur yeh doori amazingly good comedy never knew salman khan also good somewhat dimmer two characters noises makes almost funny aamirs faces raveena karisma serve purpose nothing amazing real pick lot paresh rawal usualbr br the plot rather simple amar aamir prem salman useless sons poor fathers believe hard work want get rich easy way brains come across idea woo rich mans paresh rawal daughter raveena tandon comes india look husband amar prem meet trip join hands drive hundreds men trying marry girl succeed get rid other somehow get raveenas house amar injured guy prem doctor try oust other things complicated raveenas friend karisma kapoor falls prem pursues him rich mans evil twin brother rawal also tries get rid heiress father inherit money sends two trusted bumbling fools dirty workbr br this movie want miss watch it worth it even dvd good like movie id also recommend gol maal already watched it good comedies namak halal hera pheri new,0 +dont watch among us musical half live streaming reason poorly made hired bunch youtuber look alikes nothing common apart hair colour gender really want watch youtube,0 +value anything knowing that could take life rn everything would over nothing would matter care life reason bc afraid die lol better nothing always lie go on bc feel anything let go awhile ago stopped myselfso fucking stuck here surrounded nothing destined literal nothing fucked id easy die,1 +whenever think childhood want kill myselfi try think cant comes own always still quite often whenever wander trough city whenever working whenever sitting school whenever home always bad sometimes even good memories made friend elementary school come up usually horrible memories comes up memories father drinking beating mother memories trying force problems memories acting like clown school could least bit cope sadness despair head now early s personality fully stabilized many ways different used be thought memories would leave alone least hurt much mistaken know problem mother path father drinking smoking taking pills makes memories come huge scale know i good son something wont never good son fine it tried spend little time home could coming home sleep weekends eat hoping would help not now know help death even lifestyle take time all human body much durable us would thought last longer mother i want free,1 +am rightly stoned got nice bong smoked boys feelin pretty nice,0 +day asking everyone filler filler filler hehe filler filler filler,0 +tried kill myself didnt work thought sign ive laid offwednesday night failed redflag attempt third life first time id tried years genuinely took sign get shit together today found im laid job really think emotional capacity find new one ill move back emotionally abusive mother since ill lose health insurance able go therapy anymore wanted rant bit sure ill try kill ill keep trudging unhappily life get thoughts out,1 +breaking news bad mental health depression,0 +live thisshe said loved every day year broke me contacted months later saying wanted back got rebound relationship took months dump him then months finally afford visit tells shouldnt come doesnt want relationship anymore booked flight cost spare money set leave monday expects able spend weeks friends get happy completely ruined me destroyed life fucking well got great job healthy friends go every day feeling like worthless nobody wants me fuck one live feeling like shit get happy fucked nothing fuck best situation could possibly dream every respect life yet still want die fuck point,1 +cat mouse involved usual chases jerry dives bottle invisible ink discovers makes vanish instead seizing opportunity go spy girl mouse changing room something uses newfound invisibility torment tom pretty funny quite inventive despite somewhat onejoke cartoon action never leaves interior house usually trait average tj shorts still worth br br however im sure invisible mouse cast shadow wall defies physics nature invisible itself,0 +dont read youre feeling fragile treat addiction self destruction depressionive therapists years ive seeked treatment said wasnt qualified deal specific issues took maternity leave chose stop seeing said since mood low however many weeks row wouldve suggested switch anyway next week got feeling far often lied actually burrowing deeper depression comments acceptance just accept im miserable person extremely difficult life basically especially comments believe god free convince im hopeless gonna get god free disproved in brief depth see last post like this free want dont chose want people say things addicts like youve got want get better reduces simply wanting get better wanting feed addiction wanting want sobriety choice level success dependent much want it everyone admits one connects dots still try get better dont really hope feel like self destruct every scenario makes happiness feel impossible anyway seems like everybody addiction takes fucked delusional belief god karma something insist thinking positive sake youre choosing thoughts based make feel rather true seems like obvious conscious delusion treatment always seems include removing limiting beliefs seems wrong im interested removing false beliefs truth is may be ill never happy id want thought fester till take appropriate response redflag thing feel like therapists tried get believe god real reason live dont lie person good life lied me think ill probably never get better know possible never want achieve lying taking drugs everyday idea taking drugs help see world clearly seems like obvious lie therapists seem like mirage hope horizon promising gets better wont waiting till im sad enough cave dont think hope anyone hates themself core,1 +best case scenario coming s thousands debt nothing show it broken body broken mindbought rc benzos try treat redflag made anything better even blacking abusing anything feel like shit tired did diy hormone treatment couple years ago things felt better stop lose financial support education like would graduate anyway thoughcant see doctor family care one friend left abandoned abandoned by ride die lot shit me getting fancy magnet treatment getting better making friends successful actually passionate making music jealous bitch hurts watch cannot talk it got nothing left buying meaningless shit failing stupid diy projects pass timewaiting one job application come back shitty night shift grocery store stocking job good for get interview taking grams etizolam drinking wake uphow fuck end like failing college unemployed bought meds thinking using end,1 +cheated apart found out first time stop crying probably see kid againidk im piece shit part time bull shit job pays enough live ghetto roach infested apartment electricity work right cant fans sweat room ans stick air mattress go work feel like outcast awkward function make friends self conscious paranoid always lifes meant people know im big pussy kill myself wish would happen,1 +least painful way end iti want pure answers sorrow stories,1 +ghosted surprised though met cousin,0 +time end iti want end life om years old thank good age die,1 +current meits while since much happened really know start feel now turned days ago friends flew south korea yesterday join them reasons i huge breakdown last year october sent psychiatry something filled many negative emotions towards guilt grief anger cut contact beloved friends actually planning holiday trip s korea i able motivate get job earn money trip like like years now waiting til th month enough money buy new guitar nd collectioni classic one one buy either western electric guitar wanna future friends arrive back germany th feel kinda lonely now since used around spent time together makes feel happy time forget actually depressed especially best friends somewhat lives room drives me fun together instead driving apartment work happened alot past cried screamed alot edge ending life many times destroyed many things value me ruined relationships had walked path thought would good enough make gave many thingswhich still do struggle motivation right now cant even tell ok barely cried breakdowns last months feel sad anymore feel guilty angry think reached point got numb think killing anymore want anymore moments feel relieved happy love anymore rejected fell love me cry rejected sit front pc play video games listen music play guitar piano spend time friends someone emotionally unstable always edge really wanted someone love someone lacking emotions actually live happy life real pain anymore would want end life think happened me good thing apologise english good thank reading sincerely d vy,1 +saying hi reminding drink water every day till get girlfriend day hi hope well remember drink water stay hydrated,0 +hate alli hate people complain lifes cant buy something really expensive others dont even know theyre gonna eat next day theyre gonna eat all hate people say depression reality sad moments stupid things like boyfriendsgirlriends hate everyone normalized redflag use joke nowadays i wanna die girl same funny wanting die something joked about suicidal waking everyday wishing sun hadnt crept throught window giving anything one day might make happy moment much pain mental stress want escape all worst able it sucks cant actually kill yourself im cowards problably never kill im coward wish courage could escape all,1 +see point anymorei see point anymore future see anywhere years know anything useful feel unwanted lonely scared reach anyone know struggle selfharm people make fun it remember last time happy myself reason attempted yet im afraid parents knowing im dead thinking fault see way right now,1 +could introduce one law would why title says all would change reason,0 +need help months ago girl love left me since everything slowly deteriorated life pieces nothing keep motivated reason wake morning friends distant return calls messages nobody ever need them im outcast fairly popular person many friends hang school myself one with life beginning feel like chore never finish mind constantly drifts thoughts death redflag different occasions ive planned redflag almost carried through however stopped due fear failure feel invisible almost one would even notice committed redflag maybe it people would finally understand hard is would see much pain caused theyd beg another chance see me chance never willing take around need reason keep going something it gets better youll meet new people enough stop me want know worth put knife ever try again want hope maybe ill get old again,1 +sleep night kept staring razor bladei couldve killed myself but didnt want pain end hurts cant sleep want wake wish someone end misery guts fuck up everyone right nobody deserves me tried hundreds days counting maybe force happy myself never works lost mind want die like heart sinking never happy end it,1 +noone talk too redflag ive taken dbtcbt classes yes ive tried grounding techniques get frustrated bunch work cannot afford pyscologist,1 +big fan stephen kings work film made even greater fan king pet sematary creed family moved new house seem happy pet cemetery behind house creeds new neighbor jud played fred gwyne explains burial ground behind pet cemetery burial ground pure evil jud tells louis creed bury human or kind pet burial ground would come back life problem come back person theyre evil soon jud explains everything pet sematary everything starts go hell wont explain anymore want give away main parts film acting pet sematary pretty good needed little bit work story one main parts movie mainly original gripping film features lots makeup effects make movie way eerie frightening one basic reasons movie sent chills back fact makeup effects one character film truly freaky character zelda particular character pops film three times precise zelda rachel creeds sister passed away years before rachel still haunted her first time zelda appears movie generally scary talking anything second time worst honest second time scares living me absolutely nothing wrong movie almost perfect pet sematary delivers great scares pretty good acting first rate plot mesmerizing makeup truly one favorite horror films time ,0 +spoke addiction counsellorshe said abusive household circumstances wont let heal unless change cannot change carers right even wanted to covid restrictions let me told relapsing seem think less me seems though even substance abuse capable making feel better temporarily said shed speak psychiatrist getting mood stabilizers however im persuaded change things ill ask me rehab center supposed get back week even knowing that see little hope future empty now harm today time soon im afraid think sorta stopped caring whether live die,1 +lost sure proceedi m nearly shot three times past month nearly front friends long story involves complicated family social life recently suffered concussion friend hit head day receiving hit lost control emotions real fake amazing gf willing anything help also love desire thats lived years never go away love close friend well call x x close friend knows feelings recently admitted feeling afraid rejection pain never dated think anything good would happen relationship would constricting love gf dearly loves dream girl day admitting everything burned me said want anything me x whenever gets scared family help neither friends were closely knitted want hurt social circle have told gf everything happened forgiven feel worth love hate x shit pulls through hate able count family hate suicidal since age long story just sure place next foot death seeming sweet oblivion final note x said shed help issues instantly burnt afterwards gf long distance,1 +girl left guy used hang cant take reason end nowi understandive darkest times gave reason live suddenly im diagnosed depression put zoloft cant handle anymore ive already written note plan feb th know anymore,1 +perseverance landed mars pog,0 +thanks everythinghes gone guess take hint write anything last two nights hes working like always do want go long break process die single handedly take care all well time it suprised even lasted long honestly would much prefer died th birthday seen coming fault planning things enough end february th day shared first intimacy think good day general leave ring table wear best dress put make take final step life feeling pretty relieved ive arranged date even thought dress still sure place somewhere see sea one last time anybody reading this think someone rage quitted game think post see news poor rd world country girl taking life also think least completly happy first time life fun time hanging around guys good people thank waste chance like me give stronger sorry be one many flaws thats it guess would like say see side since say goodbye friends,1 +guys want ask girl asked girl facetime said yes pretty happy scared anyone facetimed girl give tips much love,0 +bruh yall dudes need help every time even turn face one guy eyes meet like always staring mean hes ,0 +feeling displaced rn everything everyone feels fake nothing feels right,0 +gave film reserving eg amadeus slumdog millionaire recently film close slumdog difficult judge film without understanding balkan life mentality soul kusturica presents masterfully understand really need one balkan amazing movie much better contemporary previous films boring time think kusturica moving forward movie like humour balkan humour photography art itself scene artistic limit plot probably fairy tale recall now remember reading daughtergoingto sleep similar story,0 +im secretly love,0 +girl friend wants kill herselfmy girl friend say something wants die almost every single day suffered fro depression severe anxiety frequent panic attacks lately getting lot worse im worried day shell actually it every time hint speak therapist loses it ive always taught someone say theyre going kill get help im afraid get help itll ruin relationship im terrified im going lose best friend think theres anything it,1 +devil dog hound hell really good film good acting cast including richard crenna rg armstrongthe music spooky gives devilish chilli liked effects dog think creature looked really cool hornsfrill like part neck acted really viscousif like horror films seen devil dog hound hell able find buy rare film good movie think disappointed,0 +made subreddit everyone moderator full power comment added rinfinitemoderators end inviting people make sure give full permissions,0 +get political think spiders could get way sexier,0 +anxiety worldcrumbling feelingive full anxiety last days contemplating last couple years life might bit lengthy apologize that well disjointedness im yearold guy issues related posting here one fact live home fouryear relationship college lived dorm first year lived girlfriends parents house another mom one drunk episodes threatened violence decided best move on traveled four hours moms house lived basement two years bit month ago broke up point im manchild ambitions energy want produce music example know im capable degree equipment expensive im afraid failure im trying find apartment currently im scared major life change like that ive souldraining cube job year half pays well easy enough think messed brain little bit first couple weeks college four years ago lots alcohol weed which always garnered borderline psychotic episodes ive thirdperson mode downer im always detached degree white film covers vision wikipedia calls derealization depersonalization course recent major event breakup girlfriend lots communication problems things built time got tired ins outs life thought maybe theres someone better me someone accepting introverted nature introversion annoyed came energy job hate regressing computer time numb mind brought doubts relationship lot happened quickly gone next night picked stuff within three days wreck night got text saying wanted talk despite much emotional one relationship acted respectful thoughtful long talk decided would weekly chats check other maybe year two assuming were available would try another relationship meantime lots honesty save chats complete separation would strive independence something neither us really had considering school parents started okcupid profile time move get leg rest life alright ive talking people somewhat met someone drunk fun time kissed end bubbly feelings around nowex lets call a chat saturday still really care her check facebook masochistically want head im curious fucking creepy weird cant help it ask dates time okcupid knowing shed made one dates ask main one attractive me says yes lot jarring couple reasons one always told attractive person knew meant sincerely type mates become whole world obviously devastated night broke up saying hated im bad previous fucked relationships also one reasons broke discussing polyamory long while adamantly testing waters seeing guys attractive totally ready feel compersion cant now always correct people say jealousy envy fear loss first time ive felt it horrible lot regret questioning badly fucked swirling around head one facebook posts last night had great date definitely seconddate material fear never loved again know one ridiculoussounding things whine about pretty pathetic realize whole time heal im averagelooking guy okc obviously great place people like that keep comparing easy get dates example taking antidepressants almost emotionless get feeling year two even interested anymore realizing im sack shit ive always without blinds limerence comfortable familiarity histocompatibility anyway thats im now im big clusterfuck stupid emotions detachment afraid change afraid alone read time life find recluse stop making friends im already introverted im afraid anxiety ive plagued becoming unending source isolated agony im unhappy whats worse im rationally hedonist atheist believe afterlife im apathetic detached im hedonist without happiness im sort shell without purpose right stop existing die logically yeah think eventually ill move on wants date someone unsure mediocre baggage promises get back ex like year ill get live shitty apartment eating shitty food cant cook even less time creative pursuits ill take care myself people say youre special think loved ones would mourn you threads ive told specialness countless times grade school generally think people suck family friends would mourn deal anything theyd get themselves im sure im posting here guess,1 +wow alot reviews devils experiment here wonderful name steve run unearthed films started releasing guinea pig films dvd north america ask writing review instead ask people bash it im writing review love guinea pig films love em go throat let go ive seen all almost every horror film known man argento fulci bava buttgereit every underground cult sensation every hollywood blockbuster ive seen films stuck head years definitely guinea pig films try hide reason watch horror movies st place review devils experiment find devoid story fine me watch horror films see blood gore torture people devils experiment delivers thats is pure unadulterated violence yeah like story sometimes want gore devils experiment delivers ten fold people bash it cause like story torture death person hidden behind story make em feel better themselves want blood gore really hard justify wrapped around story guinea pig films historical meaning created definitive splash whenever releasedbr br im thrilled able release one famous horror series world maybe written review maybe should view biased cause releasing not ive always told people find watch way started unearthed films sure exploitive top watch horror films st place devils experiment everybody thrill seekers gorehounds only think jason movies freddy krueger movies awesome stick those next level seen devils experiment you reason released years wrong disgusting right freaky something watch mom unless totally cool good luck enjoy never stop living life,0 +young homeless felon ready dieim x felon homeless time crime petty larceny burglary etc hate everyday caught hurt innocent people didnt deserve would like point havent much ticket since ever since released years ago ive homeless incredibly debt try applying even minimum wage crappy jobs nobody wants hire felon ive tried general labor gigs construction every single job turned nightmare believe guys handy one society makes nearly impossible felons nobody believes second chances wonder many repeat offenders friends family money car home job resources never owned license sick tired people saying itll get better years ive done everything possibly could lead back im sick tired people always looking like im scum earth purpose life loser fuck honestly desire live anymore ive already made plans end getting things chest,1 +want die cant push itone step towards edge id gone cant take last step,1 +dont google scientific name pig dont google dont google ot,0 +want break free want break free,1 +guys send horny jail pls dont want horny anymore want happy,0 +told girl like acting lot different usual isnt texting much making jokes liking her do,0 +gentle touch keys vibrations strings conveying words cannot tears forming first time long time music carrying hands movement man becoming instrument music plays one hears could they want hear or i,0 +im better dead alivelets face it im another autistic nut job living horrible life whole life ive bullied pushed aside people tell get it truly understood felt maybe would take back supposed know want me sit here trying commit redflag maybe send sign hope truly care,1 + sexual orientation induced homelessness money depressed etcso got kicked parents house multitude reasons physical abuse emotional abuse tried killing twice wellestablished plan making sure would work third time alas graduated highschool parents suggested stay back year university earn money accepted three top universities applied to took online course father would routinely disconnect internet scream me mother would hit occasion top great stuff kind troubling realization im gay fucking wonderful ive pretty much contemplating redflag daily cutting arms dangerously close wrists etc im crazy well ive staying boyfriend past months standstill tapered entirely cymbalta causing horrendously suicidal cannot afford vyvanse due total lack money lost wallet id ridiculously skinny know one city im at taking fifty mg tramadol good way myself could anyone suggest alternative redflag,1 +david zucker directed one enjoyable comedies year goofy farce yes matter acquired taste depends upon wealth sophomoric gags consistently funny throughout unlike recent comedic efforts film loaded kinds jokes ranging blatantly obvious subtler kind must pay attention everything frame likely miss them like previous efforts include airplane top secret naked gun humor flies almost every second many moments work easy overlook fall flat sets movie apart pale imitations spoof genre actual story line others depended upon making fun many famous scenes almost random movies take mafia please film tells new story likable characters touches upon sports films general well satirizing real sports industry instead lampooning specific movies even people care south park creators matt stone trey parker make good pair leading actors natural chemistry film also makes extremely effective use cameos athletes sports announcers celebrities especially hilarious bit robert stack unsolved mysteries way stay credits final joke bob costas al michaels all zucker achieved words perhaps applying movies mix sports home dunk,0 +feel stucki never thought id one consider ending life pmdd honestly think bipolar bpd good days suddenly want kill feel empty living w parents cant talk bc literally tell feel like dont go mass anymore frustrated w feeling rejected im catholic love boyfriend feel like havent ended stuff im dating him need vent dont know get suicidal thoughts randomly day fine,1 +alright ill stop making political shitpost liberal sub debates economics class system me get debate im looking ill leave night,0 +always say let dogs out but never let dogs ,0 +know elements order friend challenged science day week see elements could memorize kept going stopped days elements known order know,0 +die taking lots metformin tabletstheres many paracetamol ibuprofen tablets loads metformin tablets dad used take take anymore want die im depressed bad person im really useless boring cant make anybody happy,1 +want chatdoes anybody want talk feel lonely despite around people ive feeling angry lately friends really wish could drop dead,1 +goosebumps cause already know song want funeral this song knowhttpsyoutubelbrjzsa,0 +results in go days without wish luck something idk,0 +mom told favorite child im also child dont talk,0 +topped school feel like loser im feel like wasted highschool years studying gaming pc randomly surfing web even remember much high school years made little friends past years still cant talk girls increasingly low self esteem got really good marks got best college city feeling like piece shit looking back time wasted anyone advise deal this thanks,0 +name dumfuk please want name dumfuk friend said donald trump better name argued said fine donaldfuk ur name that yall think,0 +spread mom new years httpimgurcomamnbjfw yah lot actually got food took picture good times,0 +ive felt dead longer ive felt alivei never happy kid painfully vivid memories raped young kid memories head slammed wall floor even distinct memory concussion one time slammed hard ground head ended bouncing hitting metal support bed day im scared men man myself imy first attempt kill around time failed inexperienced kid second time tried kill myself around time caught complete mental breakdown mom stay local mental hospital days try get help opened nice lady there help rationalize fear hospitals feeling broken tool ready thrown away butthats also gave trying things general stopped trying school beyond minimum effort required pass stopped really associating friends school everything painfully mediocre years around time parents finally let liberties complaining years never hung friends like ever let first place helped one school friends become one best friends able hang outside school talk demons dare share school grounds made us feel sense solidarity one another also met girl ex one friends kept trying push us together put it like black people like that crushed heart bit sort gave pursuing focused friend instead could always use those somehow ended falling anyways one friends tell me went asked birthday party two us standing outside moonlight together sounds happy right thought well months passed found cheating another dude blamed entire thing deserve loved ended attempt number three point best friend could rely pull back myself life went blissfully uneventful around time id grown entirely discontent monotony life hated every second it planned kill halloween days banking hope people would assume im decoration sort really care late instead ended hitting really great girl distracted demons otherwise would attempt number four am two years later clusterfuck emotions turmoil cant help wonder survived all really close family started die me godmother loved people died really young cancer ruined thought would one role models ended taking life noticeable struggle mental health better part year physical health started take dive deep end ive got crohns days struggle able get bed pain sometimes much struggle even eat know stomach throw entire fit combine constant stream migraines headaches ended spending nearly every day excruciating pain people told get help time wanted to afford insurance aging moms working minimum wage job would ever schedule part time premiums always around month got denied reductions assistance forced choose eating place sleep able fix body all theni ended getting rape accusation levied me mind you person claims it would time allegedly went placeand someone always hated physical contact full trauma one believed aside crazy aunt but made remember memories happened me memories long tried lock away broke again made hateful distrustful already was ended affecting performance work oftentimes depressive instead usual fake cheery self physically energy keep act anymore people company conspired get fired worked was jobless insuranceless painfilled girl hit halloween decided right got fired want deal depression anymore dumped me shattered whole world served light hope yearsmade feel sense happiness belonging otherwise felt dead unwanted reached redflag prevention hotline three separate occasions could make feel better moment long run point best friend grown apart lot found another group friends vibes theyre recreational drug use stay sober idea might affect already fractured psyche december st attempt number spent days darkness tears wishing release physical pain mental anguish left house could run away somewhere kill myself cousin caught wind plan waiting outside stop me forced talk parents bothering me year old black man broke pile tears floor explained want die even happen day would end happening point am days laterand sentiment gotten stronger me know exactly be know make year hope ill finally free lifetime pain another option redflag would welcome it point feel ive exhausted every option gain thank hearing guys,1 +recent mens body standards made many people including me drop body weight unhealthy standards every day ive seen posts social media talking girls like malnourished skater boys im wasnt happy tried please others fitting standard pushed extremely hard boys went this ily lt youre perfect,0 +guys kazoo kid liked tweet im happy highlight week cant post photo rules trust one,0 +feeling great yr old personmy dad dead mom recently disabled raped two years ago broke cervix thats enough evidence despite raping another girl lot joint pain neck shoulders havent slept four days wo help alcohol jolt arms hurt go numb clench teeth tried go w coworker saw summer ex bf w new girl owns bar make week hrshe kept dancing around heads w baby like see bro feel depressed worthless days holidays especially rough called last week stomach nauseous problems wailing crying dad night w nightmares finally close eyes tip keeps night even close hell ive endure people get good luck get bad thats tell myself im safe today self preservation kicks in plan please dont ask ill make one dr would give xannax dont become addicted idk anyone needs point people need one horrors ive listed used look forward future try push forward see make happy happen life balance bad point see much future im best could better,1 +want disappeari cant understand nothing good life hate self im pussy cant even man take life dont want world nothing,1 +hey you yes you one reading this you well let tell something need know scroll please know know im stranger internet but guarantee you need hear this dark place alone there yknow feeling suicidal please dont think matter even know you still think matter best stranger ive met so something real quick quick promise drink water wait wipe water lips yet look see shine see twinkle glimmer like you even tiniest bit light shine want take life think something billion people earth someone there think perfect love you much imagine much hurt left even seems unlikely assure you someone there love you keep fighting win matter hard is fight storm see rainbow remember that okay good love you stay safe handsomebeautiful ,0 +hmm ternion powerful know late party today noticed award called ternion powerful cost fucking shmackeroons one gather enough money start thinking giving dollar award reasonable weirdest thing someone reddit think implementing good idea props anyone ever gave it like guys think dont understand it,0 +people keep saying idk can trying make new friends im constantly asking hangout everyone keep saying idk can know that,0 +dog upset tried doi attempted redflag last night werent dog dont know wouldve happened saved life pretty dont know exactly happened know stayed woke started breathing properly soon got left always sleeps side happened went far away possible even morning shes acting weird shes normally happy wake cause knows full day fun together today doesnt care offend wanted leave think dont love anymore,1 +hate blacki hate black im trolling either feel like trapped life theres way escape see black slavery pictures black slaves holding monkeys blacks chains whipped made sick im part race disgusts me even without white supremacy existing id still ashamed sick belong black race even think black americans proud descended treachery also makes sick blacks act like animals personally sincerely hate race history culture today id rather race black victimize sickens me women shake butts sickens me uncivilized sickens me christs sake even american indians owned slaves truly accept myself im fucked feel like time call quits life hope fucking proud everyone tries white blame them angzrs point want cry life nothing fucking joke huge gigantic comedy cant express hatred family cause would make feel bad fucking race black proud quit fucking complaining easy blacks though id rather gone trail tears native american black id happy white slave middle east black theres nothing like except little white large percentage native american me fucked see people kill life shitty cant even express feel topic hate black would rather born skin fucking flesh skin bleaching myself cause make white latino straighten hair cause ill still seen black honestly feel like genetically alteration people ill call quits life want hold faith humanity im beginning doubt ill ever chance change ethnicity plastic surgery still change me ugh tell feel different life honestly over cant escape ethnicity death supremacists good job responsible man tip point ending life im sure care blacks thanks giving shitty history ashamed sickened of people may forget me hopefully god give miracle turn white doubt it life big game fucking comedy show,1 +join highrise adhoracy please dm youre interested based quarantine boredom reborn epanasta cafe highrise adhocracy were based cyberpunk dystopia aesthetic many mantras server purely aesthetic need somewhere relax drink lonely want rise aristocracy fear more come take sip highrise adhocracy well rise them offer tons fun channels explore including selfroles lgbtq friendly friendly welcoming community games challenges systemplural friendly limits only anyone banned sanctuary still new may quiet first were looking active members please bear us thank reading end description fantastic day may rise them,0 +tryive trying save go travel different countries dream mine im sat wanting die badly ive got plan want go it idk try stay alive miserable life panic attacks bad urges strong cant stand body confidence completely window hide pretty much every day avoid talking things judgement give up time die,1 +answer honestly still single if youre single btw anything change get scenario,0 +admit inpatientlong story short ive losing hope ive suicidal thoughts money also traumatic surgery year ago know do went inpatient medical debt would go time goes think shooting head guns around think id ever balls thing keeping family fianc suggestions,1 +hi guys yall middle high school track team events yall do love longdistance yall like running,0 +apparently cant shit school went toilet civics took mins almost got suspended cause thought im sleeping there lmao told made shit asked ok another thing math quiz equations looked shit and oh fuck understand literally weeks finaly realized shit,0 +tonight supposed night still debatingi everything ready need go backyard pull trigger really solves every single problem have im fat lazy hate working every job get fine first always hate it dreading every second every morning cant imagine work everyday till retirement age thats even thing future people love jobs even mind working told people feel people go crazy nothing love it point people finally see literally worthless society things would better here would parasite feeding government parasite feeding parents years parents probably reason gone tonight extremely loving wonderful parents done nothing support repeatedly fail pay pretty much everything life never complain would hurt much killed myself one reason plan backyard tank property value much getting long pretty much im lazy fat loser pretty much squandered every opportunity given him weird attractive successful dating game tinder bumble hinge okcupid ever joined dating site years never date even let alone actual match matches get girls plugging fans escorts point redflag taboo clear compatible life defective product defective products sent back exchanged happen soon urge go back finish strong cant stop thinking parents,1 +heres last words ill dead good half hour lot people gonna wonder im gonna tell save confusion theres number reasons im honest ill go one one lets start fact im incredibly lonely man ive never girlfriend never will ha im fairly unattractive mention repulsive personality surprise it shouldve done sooner im also incredibly fake person lie everyone know sense word general personality little things like liking football reason feel like bit waste keep around another friends theyre great funny cool ill never successful life them problem made actually today friend actually called lazy wanting go get together kind lazy im depressed thats reason time dog sick didnt want leave alone long im sure nan willing look days parents get back holiday much gonna lost die one relied needed me fairly trivial person im hoping death proper meaning people take lesson sort dunno lesson im sure someone come something love you mum love lee nan grandad charlie adam even pip despite reason think depression finally outweighed love leave money buying dogs cool shit,1 +im hiding eating disorder boyfriendi made account boyfriend knows personal one anyways im years old ive issues body ever since suicidal felt like control whats going life time chose could control anything body fast metabolism already would eat usually ate sometimes more throw food up always count eat example im eating pizza count many olives corns slice pizza eat has take forever eating never eat front people find weirdest excuses eat boyfriend person knows eating disorder stopped smoking hopes stop purging hes happy were clean bad habits since april truth still suffering ed im afraid telling truth know tell him hell start smoking fault and know cant get rid ed easily thank whoever replies,1 +best furry friendi think this life light mothers life moved dad mom passed cat rescued healed other best friend love life passed suddenly morning years old diagnosis life cant life without,1 +subhuman trashi ugly piece shit exterminated immediately useless human deserve nothing bullet head start physically harming soon prepare death,1 +wwhy people mean youre sensitive shut fatty n stuff dont people like me people rude mean dont understand im crying sick wanna relax yet people mean,0 +existing waiting death happen du much else disabilities issues really cannot take anymore extremely boring cannot anything life due illnessesi hope make years existing boring what cope fach exist waiting death happen,1 +ran away home right dont know domy mother abusive stayed father parents little give space started yelling tonight kept hounding asking im sad wrong enough walked half hours house im holed kohls bathroom theyve calling texting lot answer theyre going scream force home probably hospitalize again edit say give space mean dad mostly doesnt listen say need alone blocks door corners refuses listen try tell stuff things hes helping makes worse sees im getting better starts yelling asking never talk wont tell anything ive tried calling sister multiple times said shed help need isnt answering walking back mothers would take probably midnight past adjacent town dont know id make walk anyways want give up wish never second child wish theyd let talk instead screaming every time something dont like cant control anger,1 +always leave message ill reply wake up day goodnight little boys girls everything,0 +piece shit stole bike live suburbs like area barely crime riding bikes friends like normally decided stop take break mcdonalds go inside left bikes bike rack mins yes masks walk two bikes left rack instead im pissed bike main form transportation parents work lot hang people mainly get around bike worst part bike paid half gone even months got back september christmas right around corner ig thats good thing like never anything anyone dont beef anyone least think anything deserve oh well karmas gonna get,0 +teacher set us test open assignment question day today shes like hyping test saying gotta study lmao apparently actually gonna give us test like ok last day term,0 +get it really think deserve iti really feel like terrible person think were terrible people teenager sliced wrists hell stitches er multiple times hazard growing hawthorne heights guess amirite lulz course im right despite knowing im terrible individual worthy life motherfucker going try rationalize continue living guess want know why life precious makes precious you,1 +someone fucking talk fucking talk,0 +one day one day someone dig phones like years like actual heck people like wouldnt able explain anything camera roll,0 +im india ask ting yh cus im bored also feel free dm bobs vegana,0 +im tiredits little since ive felt bad thought getting better think ive lying myself skin feels tight like everything inside trying push throat anyone city cares whether im alive morning not miss parents miss home cant go home im useless im nothing ive always invisible one misses invisible wish good something wish could feel like anything drowning wonder long would roommates found dead theyd probably happy it im burden make sure know that think im ready finally end all stop clock finally rest,1 +cuttingi havent cut since november well tonight emotional winded trying cut again didnt even break skin ,1 +close friend considering redflag id love advicedepression often make people feel like absolutely nothing works whats happening friend scary scared know anymore yesterday texted crisis heartbreaking told thinks unloved person failure really cannot see future considering ending life understand needs therapy access it therapy enough either needs support people close too idea do cant tell everything going okay really cant im going exact thing girl heartbreaking different perspective life truly see amazing person really deserves live hellish rollercoasterlike life living point recommended hotlines could call text free could let know something comforted moment crisis thank much reading,1 +endi keep hitting different things seems like getting worse decide random trivial occurrences great opportunities hurt myself get phone call im something ill start punching myself im terrible school might fail senior year even enrolled school anymore im home want yell fuck loud disappear one friend probably hates me teacher comes test finals tonight fucking phone freaking right making mad cant even type suicidal sub reddit without getting pissed started coming antidepressant long ago caused rage depression insomnia hellish things wanna fucking jump roof die painlessly fuck,1 +going burn alive hurts ive heardi dont want fucking body dont want fucking transition female wish born female wasnt dont want fucking freak dont want struggle fight fake thing want die tired social anxiety tired everyone treating like fucking creep social anxiety im tired everyone online telling get it im tired family telling get it im tired homophobic transphobic conservative christian family tired everything want burn alive want feel much pain possible want disgusting body destroyed thrown trash tired this matter stuck rest life,1 +suicidal thoughts overwhelming im accepting themi feel getting closer closer point ill try kill im happy thats goal life ive failed achieve goals killing goal might today tomorrow even week ill eventually hate alive fucking hate want alive anymore whats point alive never person want whats point alive stuck body hate way change whats point alive cant anything love forced things hate every single day escape hell whats point living alone feel like outcast society ive lived life motto only best good enough im best im even average im average cant live like anymore already got plan ill feel like last straw,1 +know relief feeling alive feelsorry redflag note sub rules actually advocating redflag,1 +wish became child actor swear god child actor becomes hot later life mean think show movie childhood child actors times hot care less acting hate it meant look like bean acne id happy to,0 +college student struggling depression since highschool tried calling helplines talking friends family seem work include suicide note go it hope give closure close me thank you include suicide note,1 +please feel free dm british scottish like british people,0 +nothing nothingmy husband last night drinking three months years problem drinking excuses maxing card card spending every dime including change penny jar getting deposits back beer store always last night worst right weeks ive worked overtime shifts am pmmidnight pay bills literally sleep nonconsecutive hours night im teacher work since rd medical leave aka hungover two days running drinking every day since fast next weeks actually ok ive done weeks before also necessary food hes skinny cant skip meals im fucking fatass probably partly man wanted useless horrible drunk friends homes families hes alienated everyone longer speak anyone family one nightmarish drunken episode another friends become drunk first cope keep every drop spend evenings hiding booze him hiding cards hiding keys drinks head bobs around stumbles breaks things denies hes drunk never gone university never left shithole town married best farmer shut fucking mouth hate life hate every day wake up hate already ive cut arms open never deep enough hung privately enough ive overdosed barfed up thing keeping alive knowing take proper care dog,1 +man want die badi nothing lost job im broke food nothing im sick poor sad time im done man,1 + young die question,1 +feel broken know take anymoreive one failed attempt months ago parents even know it felt like years gotten close unbearable past weeks ive always two best friends reason this lately theyve even getting annoyed bullshit im ftm transgender person dysphoria completely destroying past couple months especially seeing family lot holidays feel like im trapped able escape running air want able take deep breath first time life thought able one day transition live normal life something thats always gotten tough times lately thought worth getting days absorbed suffocating feeling similar topic im called preferred name pronouns school extremely transphobichomophobic parents know anything trans however art teacher called came trying me beginning end way seeing caused spiral fit feeling though purpose worth human being people would think situation lasted week month greatly affected even today every time phone rings panic thought could call outs me really want say fuck jonathan schnieder know sounds like teenage drama is things friend said made upset ever wouldve imagined longs story short crush one friends school got talking crushes class told liked him never answered me waiting say anything talking best friend random things conversation ended telling lot time im too much although like told people think things me still negatively affected thought wouldve even care things said much thought even want friend even though weve really close since nd grade know im nothing annoying people thought mad absolutely destroys me know sounds completely obsolete today really shitty went home tried listen music favorite bands always able start digging mood today sound became annoying nothing else giving idea listening music tried watch favorite musical dear evan hansen fitting right even seemed fruitless pointless overall theres nothing think would get state depression im sorry post made seem like im dramatic needed place vent actually read this thank even caring enough that,1 +cant get past redflag guiltmy best friend took life feel enough help him feel partly responsible redflag cant get past it cant sleep well cant eat welli feel completely dead inside feel deserve longer,1 +second time month get screwed landlordim house hunting im disabled cannot find place fucking life me couple weeks ago see place say ill take it dude never contacts despite contacting him hour ago spent half hours bus go see place see it say ill take it landlord like awesome leave got phone call way back hey really sorry got bad news person living with husband came home wants roommates country sorry cant move in cant keep shit up little week find place end homeless im falling apart fucking seams cant keep this every day something new this believe landlord instant think like gay tone sure changed found out im sitting bus crying general fucking wreck want home want somewhere go sleep thats it hard makes infuriating kept asking questions im disability disability was ended detailing ptsd got satisfy them fucking went nothing whole life like this tons effort zero pay off want stop fucking carrying worrying want break want couple days im worried fucking life,1 +ok found kind music like hows music taste httpslinktospotifycomylkzeapsab jdjsjssjskg hsiswhuf ebdjdhha f fidia du,0 +ive interested music awhile made song first time ive done this song everyone record edit entirely phone please give feed back maybe like subscribe httpsyoutubehqgavruv,0 +need get chesthey guys im sure belongs long remember never felt particularly strongly anyone either positive negative way felt anything like story super sad nearly tragic stories ive read big im sick pretend every day care people surround me granted like hate people feelings tough cant laugh good time high school get socially excluded thats something want happen become apparent im different im sure im asking guess know anyone else people like me,1 +first weeks high school fucking sucked knew public transit would hot cramped anxietyinducing painful get seat stand like hour ride hs house also classes long af im falling behind assignments making friends also carry around pound backpack day im allowed locker covid lockers bad idea opening schools not apparently,0 +hey all decided end life gun money buy one curious anyone knowledge turning car closed garage achieve cm poison actually work live girlfriend want find save me take along time sit car fall asleep type sleep medicine carbon monoxide poison,1 +america know dner kebab cause thats really sad,0 +hit goal something followers guys ready face reveal,0 +dellemmai want kill right now anything world got future suffering get worse out obstacles though die whoever finds scarred life really want happen know anyone would really miss me close people person would truly miss mom motherly love world would better without though even missed also might cause problems myself brain damage vegetablization though preferred method hanging minimizes risk stay living risk hurt people death increases grow everyone kill myself missed all honestly wish never existed to be well answer anyway be suffer cause anyone else suffer exist joy suffering ratio would go world wish could martyr would really something least killed accidentally instead myself would lot better theres also fact got balls let die want die anything want dead cant it,1 +know much longer lastim full time college student college try keep appearances act like normal happy person reality lie im constantly depressed feel lonely live home often jokingly tell mother im going kill gauge reaction tell joke im sure anymore reason think killed yet mother know sister says im pushover let everyone walk me truth sister likes take advantage character flaw constantly fucks fear repercussion acts like loves me makes sick furious feel im outside observer watching life go theres point living im going die line often think waiting die way skip waiting part go directly death pathetic life daily think least painful way kill myself friends mother would probably care greedy sister would show pretend care hoping get shit,1 +stop mean meyou guys keep mean confess mean thats insecure guys one extra reason redflag,1 +probably kill near future without ever bring subject psychologistwhy simply minor government at least state requires psychologist break confidentiality minor risk abuse self harm thinking aboutharming others since able turn anyone confidence likely die without ever attempting seek help despite available funny governments attempt help contributing factor never able use service could potentially saved me,1 +well life gives lemons vine remix httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvivaktttsihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvivaktttsi,0 +awkward lol offered hug everyday since monday monday excuse social distancing tuesday im studying need focus wednesday awkwardly stood hug back secretly really like hugs im awkward ig,0 +im scared death want diethe girl loved boyfriend today feel trapped angry want die,1 +thinking killing straight consecutive days nightsive mentally ill since way young girl ive feeling empty want end pain always keep smilling behind agonizing pain inside wont stop ive feeling depressed long time failed relationships family failed grades school think good enough say life beautiful people like us were different page ive keeping redflag thoughts people makes feel im alone whenever ill tell depressed wont believe listen either im searching painless way die im alive outside im already dead inside anyone loved one depressed make feel special loved depression kills,1 +need guidanceso started lithium thursday helped still want kill bad normal,1 +coping loss entire family feel nothing like nothing live either sign suicidal idealization risk itim mostly level stress trauma makes nonfunctional one bizarre life circumstances several people family egotistical sociopathic and possibly psychopathic drunks mother maybe cousins heavy drinkers met demise drunk driving family members vehicle separate occasions incidents far apart months find want around people much feel sad either normal feel much still grieving way lost entire family losing realize abusive fact too something wrong reaction despite dealing ptsd point sometimes too living relatives anymore im basically orphan think know grieve this feel like nothing proper grieve dealing trauma triggers better living ways avoid them fairly isolated,1 +ladies gentlemen going outside wish luck,0 +frequently ghost friends come back nowhere different right now want ghost never keep touch again think depression social redflag although could never tell diagnosed feel burden them like would better without group feel like always bother always act weird feel like fake person lifeless pretend every time okay not get wrong toxic really best friends one could ever ask feel like deserve someone like me everyday find buried deeper deeper isolation push everyone away know do help depression becoming worse everyday mind always filled suicidal thoughts want exist anymore want ghost friends never show,1 +tell guy whos asking help math hw wrong answers cuz haha funny like mean people c,0 +want mental help cant afford point want help someone something cant receive im poor parents part problem cant get help them,0 +ask literally anything day hello,0 +need help confronting parents bout something family religiousreligious forced ive drifted away it issue know would like tell follow god friend thing mother started mean him parents would likely acknowledge kick outta house theyre pretty ok anything long im religious do,0 +nobody understands chronic pain depressionthe pain getting worse worse hurts open mouth hurts talk face hurts surgery ive eating unhealthy lately acne left cheek fucking hurts period came today unbearable doctors dont know wont prescribe painkillers otc pills dont work im trapped life deserve live much pain want continue living want travel want go restaurants want fucking explore world im much pain dont know much longer stay alive dont choice,1 +ator series shining example bmovies be fail every aspect hilarious way funny rather sad ator linvincibile aka the blade master aka cave dwellers shows us europes favorite conan clone ator left first movie showing us lengthy recap events first film time world must saved the nucleus kind bomb represented screen bright light i guess afford prop one features invisible attackers samurai first film lots stock footage used including one rather obvious bit star wars thoroughly laughable unforgettably bad exception bmovie,0 +want soggy dq fries also im days sh free sitting staring arm thinking tomorrow ill week clean thought dq fries want now christmas kinda someone could maybe slide dq gift card id trade mcdonalds gift card s also think imma try quit cutting entirely ill able wear tshirts again atm three cuts healed turn scars ill wait em fade quit cutting different note want short shorts skirt want get body waxed hairy legs cross dressing looks fun honestly id cute femboy ive thinking lot body it oh well,0 +extra nuggies random mf working mcdonalds put extra nugget nugget meal fucking legend made day shit,0 +someone help metoday girlfriend broke already thought wasnt much point life seems like point all anyone got ideas make bad give suggestions make end bad way,1 +want exist earth anymore afraid kill reasons want failed suicide which likely would be think need elaborate obvious reasons probably kill parents grandmother sister passed away couple years ago already want leave dog someone else do judge mei know people say afraid commit suicide actually want live true want actually kill myself would much rather freak accident occur takes life persons fault wrong ie could never jump front traintruck would never want traumatize person driving anything like that drunk driver would deserve it make sense anyone feel strange time thoughts want live afraid kill myself,1 +god gave everythingmy aunt doesnt believe depression diagnosis thinks didnt bad life and shes depressed need toughen up strangely enough dad brother virtually symptoms actions couldnt obvious genetic thing blessed without predisposition depressionsuicidal thoughts best friend also diagnosed depression or possible bipolar disorder im entirely sure fuckton family support hell even from aunt im happy shes fine tell im always happy help live whole life jealous younger best friend gifted looks social department adding family support long list things shes better me stings bad boyfriend amazing ive never someone awesome however see loving accepting family is accepted asbergers diagnosis talk respect overall great people around wish same dont believe hes depressed generalized anxiety regardless hes confident almost intimidating honestly feel bad im trainwreck doesnt deserve that cant help feel like irreversibly crazy alone ive trapped room last four hours knowing else im anxious depressed nowhere turn uncle home dont even know knows im home least dishes though,1 +bored ask stuff m great day great day great day ,0 +caught movie tv watched again said myself long time since watched movie not movie thrilled me easy watchable human know people dislike it br br john travolta shines michael his dance every move angel hardly related word smokes drinks eats like savage hes got big heart way michael helps people meets dorothy winters andie macdowell singing finding right man frank quinlan william hurt developing good decent man michael even helped dear old pansy milbank jean stapleton last scene beautiful dance streetbr br travolta great help actors andie macdowell beautiful likable william hurt great usual late robert pastorelli shows talent jean stapleton teri garr also good favorite supporting actor movie bob hoskins tabloid ownerbr br so weve got solid movie people warm story also attractive cast take movie seriously guarantee fun,0 +juice wrld playing guys sad uh huh im like depressed help me rip juice x,0 +like arabian nights film plays storytelling conventions order make us feel theres plot plot plot opens appears frame device blind man telling story life plunges flashback takes us right blind mans present discover half story yet come it must admitted second half quite live promise first like arabian nights tries cram many middleeastern folk motiffs possible one work freed genie beautiful princess flying carpet fantastic mechanical toys sea voyages crowded marketplace wicked vizier jewels know works does everything beautiful sets beautiful june duprez beautiful rozsas score especially beautiful usual sounds hungarian somehow manages convince us hes hungarian persian way,0 +send help im bio rn im boooored reviewing past material getting really boring send help,0 +knew good truehe found someone else ghosted me find myself much prettier me one making finally start feel pretty,1 +want overive dealt depression years im s get close ending twice move forward drink alcohol cope keep moving forward still drinking finally find cause depression fades come terms transgender suppress transition support wifes health recovery alcohol comes back along depression dysphoria kicking ass know do want rant safe space rant transgender sub ill trigger others want myself thats it cant let that look mirror hate person see know always have want tear down im tired struggle im tired people belittling supporting caring details im tired explanations im sick tired fucking drinking need anymore im close getting past bs stop fucking drinking tonight night want need alcoholism over one drink halloween need this alcohol goes away guilt depression needs over life alcohol,1 +im starting think im stupid one idk is everyone reddit doesnt get sarcasm either im stupid reddit is im pretty sure,0 +wanna go little road trip wildfires arebring rope get lost somewhere ever found,1 +made post yesterday useless already admitted ever friends always alone parents forever future alone rest life even fun playing videogames anymore thing liked most much coward kill myself keep suffering life die natural causesi tired everything piece trash one wants with always fuck everything lose friends notredflag time make them even girl cheated shitty person give enough attention cannot stand anymore want everything end tired life,1 +movie takes voice terror makes better holmes protecting inventor switzerland trail professor moriarity become nazi better version holmes wwii world rathbone great job holmes spy detective see liked voice terror,0 +im lonely much it im lonely depressed know usual,0 +feel good story something feel happy it bought monitor back used once later got different monitor packed one up time flies put monitor sale someone we name gary finds asks it negotiation nothing regular price meet up give monitor cash gary young extremely polite man also private us air force thats told me polite respectful blew away usually people super disrespectful annoying even funny took monitor took money left reason felt like didnt something right something inside told give money back let keep monitor free called around minutes left come back meet up did proceeded give money asked why sat there didnt know why something clawing give back told money thanks serving country soon said that turned tears beautiful turns out comeback tour middle east setting new apartment overcome joy just amazing see left could still see gary massive smile across face felt like done something wonderful yet still didnt know drove give him gary love man serve thank service ps grammar gonna garbage finished word essay im done english,0 +using pills something permanenti olanzapine mg tablets im supposed have obviously wont kill hopefully itll knock get train tracks morning cant anymore,1 +parents understand want vert rich later like iknow worth talking millions billions billionaire buy everything available earth ur playing life creative mode prob wont billionaire lowest goal mill net worth one day,0 +im triedi dont know wjat else say dont want die dont want live anymore im done know know im even feel like done trying anymore need put effort something seems like cannot change fucked carring decade ago decisions still affect me big part hopes end homeless soon feel like lowest point maybe finally it actually plan going kill myself plan driving car cornfields middle winter next couple months sitting bottle alcohol maybe watch youtube phone listen radio something get cold pass die,1 +ok fuck actually lives alaska im serious why why why,0 +everyone policy mine one weird thing holding back guilt know really care emotions turn back need laugh throw struggles face manage pull dark place enjoy like something even know worried guess feel empathy know feels like anyone care whatever really anything left tried hobbies making friends patience energy maintain them like feel connected people whatever people life definitely least favorite least liked hate school hate program longer find joy little things like music food tried therapy multiple therapists either expensive good tried joint program feel like id around caring people feel community someone sees world similarly also backfired nothing keeping anymore going go read finish policy start planning family taking life insurance policy least leave something,1 +check spotify playlist share opinions playlist httpsopenspotifycomplayliststeqkazlutanhalljsipmzshnqvqzjy_yka,0 +posting song lyrics forget crab rave intro click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack buildup click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack drop click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack click clack clickclick clack bridge click clack clickclick clack click 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background check ill never important part again god id wife half life time proposing divorce stayathome dad years miss exwife bad miss seeing girls every day instead occasional weekends repeat never meant life like this future looks blank empty especially tears stream face juice wrld whispers ear ruined everything ever looking forward to way life ever clear complete ive continued living dont want hurt daughters become mature wont able hide really them theyll know im piece shit junkie fucked everything up beyond that im sure much longer keep living miserable pointless lonely life call redflag selfish way end suffering flip around too isnt selfish demand stay alive youd sad dead fuck life,1 +bloodborne kind hard got sale getting shit pushed proper last two days prolly shouldnt chosen waste skin path oh well,0 +chance watch blind spot barcelona enjoyed tremendously thought one captivating movies id seen long time one best points film meet new fresh faces great actors behind unexpectedly brilliantly filmed great locations three heroes share chemistry screen runs across film making thrilling set outstanding landscapes spotted original eye the dops work great makes feel like discovering first time mood desert floods everywhere even scenes filmed streets los angeles san francisaco seem natural extension it story rides smoothly beautiful settings lead bittersweet ending perfect climax perfect journey construction film master craft skilled use innovative resources like stills stitching dannys memories film compare handmade pieces work rare enjoyable blind spot achieves capture essence desert taking universal common ground anyone us feel discoverer native,0 +stupid rpics turning political sub nobody cares commented one post literally news article told op keep political subs wake morning message saying im perm banned rpics,0 +ive never felt bad beforeeverything triggering everything making hate myself try go keep mind things cant im crying trying get tonight,1 +lmao get covid test tomorrow id say hope get again sake friends dont want it good news get weeks work im still getting paid hours,0 +tomorrow seem like nice dayi think right day me ill end lonely day special day,1 +im sure want die want stop existing like thisi know use reddit please pardon formatting ive seen friends use it one always talked use reddit get insight whats going recently advice given months ago august guess months ive progressed point august assaulted acquaintance friend invited apartment hang out mates there one mates started touching up got way dry humping managed leave situation rape me whatever never same fact think rape me took longer time realise assault still flicker assault maybe wasnt maybe misunderstanding friend suggested tell story reddit better perspective happened day whatever fuck was know move it reported police days later support encouragement friends lately feel like worst thing ive ever done wouldve much easier said nothing anybody pretended happen carry life know wouldve right decision eventually found later girl assaulted guy id feel extremely guilty nothing among confusion hurt anger tried best selfcare get life im good job even ok job trying best guy eventually arrested made police report peace little while stopped crying frequently stopped showering times day stopped asking people clothes looked rapeable stopped getting angry people looked me felt like starting get control back weeks ago october got car accident country driver familiar city road rules essentially drove collided heads on insurance expired august never renewed im fucking stupid covered thankfully laying ambulance looking car middle massive intersection driver sobbing behind apologising could think court date days away could think if killed me instantly felt really awful girl young already shock spent long time lying stretcher comforting her would even mess actually killed me realised even die make sure one else burdened death court date came guy plead guilty trial next year hes telling people side story gossip spreads like wildfire here basic version story it planned attack basically airhead thinks dad rich molest girl wants someone reports police trying frame money really tainted reputation community guess made mental health worse people find it one ever asked side story one friends told word getting around would get heads up guess long story short done done trying best done trying protect next person i barely protect myself want alive anymore usually thoughts passive look past effort lately however think about allocate money passing properties give away possessions etc etc resident country right now easy send everyone text say ive gone back home country kill people sad blame themselves think ive gone home even planned out still found drawn give one last try maybe reddit help cant get psychiatrist appointment full sexual assault counsellor could offer sessions waiting list months want tell friends redflag plans lives live know drop everything make sure okay want that want go quietly without burden people around me,1 +hate geometry hate geometry shapes shapes,0 +ever feel stuckive thinking past days occurred often ive feeling suicidal since turn november recently came back ive sat thought right do people noticed something yeah was told not felt stuck constantly ranted people sort stuff suppose im sick rely someone know keep telling could worse again feel stuck really want feel like friend one talks consistently enjoys around me everyone way busy nowadays suppose cant complain know sort rant wanna see anyone relate all,1 +one diagnose redflag not dont know ocd thing multitude things mind milder worries seem fine brain quiet worryless seems involuntary remind dissociative flashback starts cycle psychological drowning feelings detachment well depressive feelings one thing past life would x better gone heck would anything get rid forever meds helped occur less frequently still severity,1 +hurricane coming live louisiana us things called hurricanes wheres like huge storm like th one past year usually get one two awesome anyway hits friday night last hurricane took neighbors roof unpacked roads wish luck update every,0 +yep im done here momentfather brain tumor mother dead brother schizo wife love me stable career getting older unhappy ive always wanted die came close five years ago epiphany im done ive fumes five years now barely living feel like cross hurdle mentally killing self act frightening sat envisioned gun temple pulled trigger incredibly easy anyone else feel that like yea were done now,1 +goodbyei took antidepressants couple acetaminophens hope enough end life,1 +wanna diebut want live either ive trying hang people either always say busy see friends next minute actually busy none try make attempt see even talk me always contact first half time even bother respond usually snapchat saying streaks nothing makes feel wanted earth anymore especially summer feel like im really anything anymore feel worthless maybe temporary though even though felt suicidal past serious reasons people hung constantly highschool thought good thought liked actually am weirdo maybe also chance avoid me ive told someone thought close want kill feel worthless nobody wants see real life more respond guess thats id want get chest really well written serious yet im crying constantly this oh well,1 +awards bad reddit awards detrimental society waste money mad put awards post awards killed parents,0 +suffer depression redflag baghdad iraq sporadic pops bangs sounds explosions really haunt time sound easily like combatmy wife passed years years ago really nothing help cope actually got new friend shared advice live far limited do appreciatedi miss wife would hold hand play xbox volume cranked lay bed me holding fell asleepi think solution really exist miss wife much sorry pathetic story holiday reminder truly alone am missing wife helped time year,1 +think andrew davies admirable job taking magnificent book emulated pace styling victorian novel turning moving entertaining film im glad read twice book first usually case me know one must view novel film different media judge accordingly but still often hard read original material film gives away best partsbr br i realize davies good adapter wish producers chosen woman write screenplay davies admits commentary accompanies film dvd wanted particularly emphasis scatological bits book certainly enjoyed those film book davies missed halfdozen moments excruciatingly painfully tender could incorporated sensibility feminine br br i also would take issue use books primary symbol rosebr br as screenplay plotted davies denouement inevitable appropriate really think author waters final nod rose symbol much interesting preferred way novel let nan come age way davies chosebr br one quick comment four actors essay primary roles wonderfully talented well except singing dancing perhaps and moreover physical presences much minds eye sees reading novel seeing film thought terrificbr br i recommend lesbian anyone loves good fiction add book dvd tipping velvet bookshelves,0 +identify introvert since exposed internet year always found comfort reading psychology fascinated mbti big models jungian typology things along lines focused much self improvement tried improve skills figured atleast acting like extrovert tends make social life hell lot easier whenever try feel like myself kind become numb among people realise let speak often night alone think forcing socialise talking friends kind helping building social persona live philosophy everyone alone life long fall making vulnerable front people fine want anyone know real me guess reason experienced firmly believe one ever understand fully tried explaining people feel every friendfamily ever waited turn speak ever talk myself anyways question confused part should keep happy keep living head stop interacting humans literally love living myself keep trying socialise also believe want earn even small amount money need develop social game keep mind every human including family person never reveal true self talking things want whenever done life people go blank like huge lot complex even comprehend believe tried way many times imagine losing definition,1 +im fucking doneit one like claimed many lies hes gone way kill career warning none wed best friends fucking years became lovers everyone said perfect couple love him love him love theres huge difference loved desperately felt same looked way looked him said even kinder sweeter things tuhe wholb w ekugsgiufucking time lying face hisotry wuth killed career fucking ym work client idea another one told turned father swore would never violent like swore would never lift hand never like this never never kept last week gave black eye course three days kept trying destroy life warning none warning tried get help last night specifically calling hotline asking acounserllor dealt female male violence think less like people finna get help fix things cried swore loved sorry found trofay lied affair jhust once get trickle truthed every single day since october work client tiold came home left scene find called cops nothing whole life swore tio every day loved desperately cant cant abvuser canbt person hes twisted meinto bveing dont know many times came keeps lying im done im done,1 +questions girl teenagers nipple stop hurting also nipples thankyou femaliens,0 +guys wrote something like last night woke glad did is two dudes sitting hot tub feet apart cause covid guidelines,0 +posted before still aroundi dont know anymore new medication taking feelings away honestly dont even know treatable depression life going nowhere im terrible hate job wife nothing grow apart friends driven away everyone life relationship family feel alone head every day replaying feelings one talk to singular reason killed yet sole provider wife even love point know committed redflag insurance money even enough keep afloat cant afford therapy dont qualify sort assistance boat sinking nowhere turn to,1 +moody rn hate life hate schoolwork hate grrrrrrrtrrr,0 +giving week figure reason liveim low point never thought id again were familiar it urges getting harder harder combat ive already formulated plan would guaranteed lethal easy pull off want yet know why feel like maybe maybe possibly find way justify existence world almost died twice infant ive always wondered deserved live im sure go this know reach examine things maybe ill find really vanish acquaintances remove earth cant figure week welp ill take days trying get affairs order make amends people ive burdened offended pass next life start determine worth here would better everyone died supposed to,1 +need sum help hi guys first time posting here well anyway told id starting mock exams weeks im known procrastinating whole lot im looking advice anything appreciated,0 +im much pain im exhausted im ready go nowmy name reuben bell im years old less hour ago pointed air rifle head pulled trigger gun jammed tried times useless thing didnt work wound punching stupid thing fell apart went fighting least piece lead leg funny fires try destroy needed didnt work all dont know im writing this dont know anything anymore life series sleepless agony followed short hours sleep cycle continues dont even know describe feel daily basis im constantly hurting im also exhausted struggle feel anything all doesnt make sense painfully real me many regrets im haunted friendships lost didnt pick phone send one message time thought could normal might actually happy lost entirely actions again again im here hate every part me im bisexual disgusts me dont even know why problem gay people bi people whatever feels wrong dad says unnatural constantly hear people say sexuality real cant exist people believe this fuck you bottom heart hope suffer much have truly deserve it despite failing today know one day take life wont long now pence name days ill evicted rent doesnt come through tried make effort look jobs applied hundreds received rejection letters silence all cant hope anymore dont want to would lead short relief followed even pain im sympathy help ive made decision want need always hear things like think family youre alone know family is family memory abusive mother still lives mind matter far away move woman leveraged first redflag attempt death father try bring back control family father spent life another country girlfriend trying keep brother away first monster married right abandoned her leaving take emotions brought yes take life think family alone ive giving thought want coming days go id like good nights sleep id like hot meal duvet isnt tatters id also love go walk rain one time anything really wish could get hug still air pistol know enough shots head chest kill me didnt see option would hurt much id black quit shooting self leg today ive realised take pain ill load painkillers drink good scotch lock door throw key window turn rain sounds tv get with might suck little wont feel ever worth it know im words page guys want something help actually help people life right going early stages went through still helped help them comments reddit wont save life someone could maybe use friendly chat right might lockdown even important please please help someone needs it someone still helped ive accepted ill die alone really dont want others following me thank reading,1 +anyone wanna call discord idc youre awkward better texting dm filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +reach outim scared im going kill im getting tired stress anxiety want text text line im scared going hospital wish would make anonymous hear send cops ur house do stuck psych ward sucks me,1 +movie rewrote film history every way one cares anyone thinks movie transcends criticism every flaw movie easily overcome many amazing things movie going it extremely beautiful movie doubt many us see anything like again ive seen times care count still become transfixed every time feeling hard describe one ages,0 +looks like finally timei plan research done maths done tomorrow go get items required finally either die andor show mother serious death laughing off relieving,1 +another pathetic story lifeim worthless pathetic loser friends let alone girlfriend real life never went college personal reasons lack encouragement real life im nobody watches anime crunchyroll pathetic weeb nobody showed hope committing redflag looks pretty good right nobody stopping anybody reddit cares ifwell goodbye,1 +late everythingim suicidal fuck know died tomorrow one except family would show funeral would obligation ive depressed panic disorder whole adult life caused isolate lose friends even though ive tried best stay contact them im enough makes feel like never enough none friendships true wish would killed self still friends people would cried funeral maybe wouldnt cried,1 +proof youtube recommended cursed httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvstukoktbghttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvstukoktbg,0 +cant copemy brother stage cancer spreading hes young s battle taking toll him also taking toll mentally emotionally past years extremely difficult see suffer hold together around him hes always best friend amazing bond like were person never imagined life without getting increasingly hard cope im constantly crying cant focus work cant connect others cant sleep used see therapist anxiety issues years ago know see help also large part want get help whats point it mask pain die really see point living without life mean would able enjoy anything ever again hes best kindest funniest person know lately ive fantasizing ways kill becoming frequent tempting theyre usually overdosing something thing keeping trying support goes this,1 +nfs underground released november born march would game still considered new born really worried thisto honest,0 +whats illegal thing done reckon fillerrrll fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf fiilllllllerfrrrrr fillllllllllllleerrrrrrrrf,0 +much want end iteverything caught cant deal it someone stop me,1 +cant take iti fucked months ago cant stop thinking it gives anxiety every day know do want kill cant family fucking terrible,1 +know would awesomeif someone would put bullet fucking head im it meds arent shit right now daughter respect me job sucking life me cant seem stop self destructive tendencies one listens ive always listener im sell stuff put money account daughter access turns send moms done it im tired brain hating me,1 +want die hard put reasons words want die know young even started high school yet feel like nothing here know want point,1 +posting every day till get gf day ive slapped children today,0 +need braces went dentist earlier teeth cleaned checked on didnt concerns although chatting amongst dentist assistant apprentice think made wonder going need retainer overbite underbite no know crooked teeth didnt really care turns teeth blocking teeth coming in need teeth pulled and braces braces literally last things wanted ive heard hurt lot need avoid certain foods dont want that dont know cant eat drink able satiate orange juice addiction able eat dads butter chicken beef broccoli even survive pain,0 +thinking cutting myselfup,1 +seen lady red hair back appeared remember something cherish truth that notwithstanding base true story screen play silly unbelievable real merit picture cast constellation best supporting players s s make background delicate intelligent work always underrated miriam hopkins wonderful spectacular performance claude rains who usual best thing picture actor never oscar good company chaplin garbo hitchcock perhaps lady red hair contains best work films see enjoy himbr br ,0 +hey dudes dudettes anyone want move mars me maybe could idk give mouth mouth cpr air could cuddle gaze upon stars dont freeze death could even idk maybe hold hands youre underage though,0 +really want see shitposting yo future kids roast us,0 +needed something go righti rough past everyone life friends lovers left me im completely alone past hours ive self harmed ever im done disposable everyone one wants me,1 +im iti never diagnosed depression know it get sad lot times reason get sad get bullied lot school friends used play games family seem care notice all mom always facebook talking friends something brother always physically emotionally abused young sister always said mean stuff little one time mom took marijuana raped probably worst moment life mom well today seem care depression says itll get better obviously work brother always sex girlfriend ever im home alone makes feel worthless also mom dad divorced pray every do work always think god treating like thismaybe exist thats good reason anyone reading this please help me cant live like anymore,1 +fortnite sex minecraft sex im trying pick career pursue cant seem choose,0 +first film little ambition nothing sticks screen bad version back future zero charm accepted bill ted nitwits joke get hammered audience long breaksbr br this surprise spoiler warningbr br by todays standards fun shunned upon release sad considering talent involved first time get photographer faceoff editor fugitive production designer burtons early work sound designer matrixbr br the writers made shallow first outing something deep since shunned fanbase public director probably decided style extreme not fits material like death becomes her catch dares smart like movies simple buy it probably since dared different took producers pull off whats goodbr br nice selfreference towards keanu airhead messiah see also arnold schwarzeneggerbr br joss hates creations much hates counterparts makes hatred evil bt good robot usses vocabulary originals lesser copies depreciation languagebr br the duality motif nowhere else evident photography styles lots high low angles even use roy brocksmith total recall emphasize pointbr br the choices motif know started genre maybe ghostbusters used pretty well here even boils games deathbattleship clubbr br film selfreference even present game death clue smarter tarantino brooks notice premier magazine cover end bill ted movie ironic also death nomolos villains die hard lethal weapon sequelsbr br i still minor nits nothing compared original music film different mediums makes sense many scripts revolve around formerparticularly teen market carlin great comedian movies hes wasted also daring effort shows even cracking gay jokes cant kill catbr br so despite looking like nickelodeon production incredibly interesting movie got beavis butthead were heaven mugged three people br br final analysis midrange material,0 +wish schools better mental health services students like sure school counselors really usually suggest therapy outside school think lot people realize mental health services school means many people access all school toxic lot people need therapy school alone,0 +anyone post worthy getting wholesome award ive got one want find something funny,0 +ending tonightbye all hope narcissist mods happy,1 +anyone want come join minecraft birthday party bet ones gonna join like real life,0 +mind me lashout obvious cry helptldr im suicidal good reason try casually funny it im tired laughing misery cant take serious either real emergency thought might reach anyone whos encourage hey hello everyone sake simplicity yall call immature rome works too ive lurking subreddit now without even reddit account result first ever reddit post wonderful place start much support hope amp acceptance community fucking kidding go suicidal fantasies confirmed rredflagmeme anymore am next level stopping pretend like im thinking ironically admitting might actually want clock early real good stuff now may able tell fact manage talk lot yet convey pretty much nothing all way get covered multiple layers comedic exploitation crippling insecurity soul sapping references puns father forgive sinned dare say memes seeing though im yo sort blackhumoring accumulating within psyche amp selfimage approximately years like plaque clogging chainsmoking diabetics arteries layer thick earths crust know though since im one go once fray are quoting shakespeare again see exactly im talking about funny fun forced cringy edgy insert negative adjective here etc worst all know bad makes look ive known since beginning somewhere line probably realized deep im sad strange little man someone told laugh off did never stopped damn good it good fact built whole personality around it personality started attracting kinds people suddenly cynical disrespectful persona friends sad strange little man irl yo males gaining status questionable means do try get laid turns need somewhat attractive casual hookups turns need somewhat likeable non casual hookups eventually pry open pandoras box see strange sad little man ladies gosh nice guy is kind forthcoming understanding sooo respectful importantly empathetic naturally becomes designated shoulder cry on funny casual gt attentive deep open gt establish trust gt develop feelings gt get friendzoned gt change target gt repeat goes years andyada yada yada couple halfassed redflag attempts years professional deadend therapy metric fuckton mj later are reading ive written point you reader pretty good idea kind pathetic bitter betamale virgin shoutout lads rvirgin yall saddest bunch selfloathing crybabies ive ever seen thanks making feel right home am like humor days thats have thats am one big overused joke heard million times before going far long time deliver punchline keep going farce would keep going me really think tried change yet ever stop wasting everyones precious time effort finally grow balls take worthless life find next time rredflagwatch selfpity party continues ,1 +exam tomorrowi university exam tomorrow afternoon know anything ive trying go notes which mess full holes cram last minute know anything im sure im going fail able study properly first place ive ill try study nothing goes start crying panic attacks every time try look notes cry cant stay calm long enough actually memorise anything supposed sit exam hours tomorrow write stuff know genuinely feel like im going mad im going something irrational stupid know feel control anymore im shaking cant think straight ive like days getting worse worse feel like im inches away breaking point,1 +suicidal thoughts scaring mehello need somewhere share story hopefully get advice ive depressed think ive sunken back want live on see light end tunnel anymore ive lost confidence know do good days suffer anxiety always worry things go bad ill suffer heartache cant happening again know happens im scared whatll ill do days triggers smallest things hear something want hear something excited happen could sat alone mind wanders overthink suddenly im crying again frustrating scary gorgeous family always me love much think world try think push always work happened got heart broke guy loved seeing casually nine months never wanted anything serious though always hoped eventually went asked relationship said really liked cared him said no want girlfriend fair enough let go talk that found three weeks later girlfriend devasted time lost job nearing eviction house hardly friends social life friends busy relationships also self esteem issues raped cousin eight bullied school college cherry top slowly sunk depression move bed cried time drank alcohol even took overdose though survived it confidence felt like nothing eventually sorted out went doctors went anti depressants took therapy session sorted though family kept going gave advice support got job managed pay rent arrears went more got well guy friends hung enjoyed hanging house felt better enjoying life again last since ive two guys hurt both one went another lass front face party went week dumped saying would still sex want relationship go further gutted feel like anything wrong still see im normal usually bubbly self always goes wrong think somethings wrong me first guy especially hurt really liked him friend well lost him ive sunken low again hate myself cant stand look mirror sometimes feel like theres hope me horrible thoughts thoughts whisper weak am pathetic go work come home what nothing guys lost friends well keep trying think positive thinking oh bad concentrate work concentrate thoughts let up always come back one guy wanted anything me never wanted relationship used shot away like im nothing went lasses time lives cant see nothing valuable myself cant see nothing good wonder anyone would want me thats wanted someone know happen now im dreading christmas new year know depress more alone try think matter enjoy single loss friends social life time anything im always working makes think it life make goals myself like wanna learn drive next year dark thoughts come forget that care goals anymore worst im still attracted one guys one walked another girl party scares more want feelings ill get hurt cant take heartache hes still friend family see often act causal around friendly distant want get close cant rid feelings im scared one days ill hear getting girlfriend hurt me cant take that know do anxieties throttling me want go whole process tablets therapy part sees silly get depressed over probably feeling like this im broken know fix me im actually even planning commiting redflag christmas thoughts petrify know part im pushed hard enough dont want family cant take thoughts life anymore always wait something bad hit im scared feel blows get christmas new year feeling like this advice anyone,1 +principally story two men part portuguese revolution easy understand contest usually directors starts historical fact speak something else shows also period fact everything happen couple days revolution acts could also seen kind documentary movie focalize two people showing normal were like common heroes revolution come people although made military army title understand capitaes main characters nice colors lights whole movie excellent work director first movie fall banal way well shown emotions passion people crowd character maia main oneis wellmade also good interpretation stefano accorsi able show maias limits notbeing hero,0 +want anymorethe title says all thats sum it want anymore life im done day harder harder get through cant make another thought makes sick stomach eyes fill tears every day come home work lay couch stare space nothing left give everyone taken have want life anymore everything lost beauty feel joy me want anymore,1 +saw riverdance new show loved first moment energetic tribute irish dance filled brilliant dancing music choreography leads jean butler colin dunne captivated exquisite dancing may always keep shining keep dancing stage chemistry amazing unity stage obvious look like made dance other show absolute favourite probably always be long live riverdance,0 +saying something every day feel like it day got dumped today feel like utter trash good times good times also poem roses red like earth vader wanna die refrigerator,0 +kill myself ifuck you matter bullshit pros cons jumping story roof landing head first pavement listing negatives might fastest way discredit yourselves whole life strictly worth it attitude fucking disgusting need objective comparison pros cons fuck strict positivity optimism sickening im finding weighted arguments to im planning within hour,1 +please stop talking politics like really could care less think president anything political matter want support something good you care somewhere else personal attack anyone said anything political something future please please realllyyyy care last time polity ask shut up,0 +trollface evil troll you aware swag much swag shutdown east east disappear,0 +film absolute classic camp elvira mst classic everyone knows story scientist keeps girlfriends head alive lasagna pan basement cruises town tries find body checking local chicks finally finds real hourglass body scarfaced chicks head top severed head makes friends failed experiment closet conehead comes closet rips assistants remaining good arm his right scientists earlier failure whole place burns downbr br the movie scared us much kids friend go basement year seeing it kids ranked scariest movies time one number four one scary movies really good the original the hauntingbr br i give movie seven rating tremendous amount entertainment value offers eerie effect crappy production weird sexual angle scientist looks bodies complete porno sound track scares hell innocent children ridiculous aspects make prime material watching talking laughing could watch film tonight enjoy id rather go dentist watch chicago againbr br seven give it entertainment value mere luck film cinema disaster,0 +band released new song discopop httpsopenspotifycomtrackfjsdrunsllfpqjkwpsiqaesdnqwkotmqkupq hope enjoy it,0 +cracking weighti want nag anyone want worry anyone want take something chest kind oppression feeling life seem good others look around people find good job get married kids average people nothing special heroes side me son hero father counterterrorism police corp boss got massacred days arrival many friends died lets focus struggled past years forceless good kick boxer joining professionals incident took away right shoulder dream law degree good lawyer live country law ive woman years lived together left overnight saying i nothing learn you good musician composer mix classical music rock music fit current tastes ive received ohsomany answer many producers saying thing you good looking this job friends future number reasons write would tedious trying say fit world want live world im tired living fight simply make others aware exist want sleep wake again sometimes cannot wish long parents still alive after know feel forced reply want tell feel one talk to honestly reading hope good happy life,1 +chop shop written directed ramin bahrani man push cart bahrani specializes character driven studies naturalist style films sort little people get passed every day without anyone ever really noticing there new york br br these people pushed fringe society exist sort grey world many migrants whose legal status america appears somewhat doubtful come get cope end feel good stories such stories survival basic day day level br br ale one street kid education hustles anyway can save money also beyond turning petty theft mostly anxious reunited older sister see early scenes ringing safe house looking her real success young friend carlos gets job chop shop shadows shea baseball stadium eventually older sister comes live site him jealous motives friends suspicious makes extra money dreams buying food van setting vending business older sister br br bahrani shoots films location nothing glossy glossed them life people live it raw lt pretty although never ominous slightly despairing air hangs much film one hangs peoples everyday livesbr br the script also natural characters given plenty scope room work in polanco outstanding lead role gonzalez gives solid support older sister,0 +deal heartbreak mean never person trying find gives shits me deal someone still care even tho doesnt move on,0 +timebipolar alcohol addiction porn addiction plus got cold seriously fuck thus shit im out,1 +last here think depressed yearn release deathmy thoughts may one day get best me everyday become civil war brain rational irrational thoughts civil war ended days last week head clear happy days went shit again,1 +back finally gone almost entire day ive finally returned home ready ti post memes subreddit again,0 +whats best way myselfgot horrible body acne insurance money fix it mid twenties trying trick thinking doesnt matter effects mentally psychologically cant live normal life im going try exhaust every last resource get hands get rid literally worst disease scientist dont give fuck even figure causes cures it accutane cause croehns disease fucked shit would literally anything get rid acne scars cure body acne gods real hes little bitch boy fuck face letting happen me ruined life im going try maybe years thats probably long ill last skin disease ill probably freak fuck surely myself im going save thousand try cosmetic procedures doesnt work fuck me also god damn god letting experience suck dont exist,1 +cant wait dieeverywhere look even try see something nothing im soon failure nothing show myself im finally pushing better pain inside much hate mixed emotions much clash drive mad want lay somewhere cold die fade away vacancy ill never make anyone feel worth good im useless moron dont value constantly feel inferior world constantly always reach something isnt world think years shit might finally choose pull plug honestly cant wait im sick burden drag everyone im im worth love im worth anything want leave bad,1 +ive messed life way outi depressed life taken every wrong turn possible want alone ive turned alcohol stopped working hate everything every decision ever made want die peace many lies afraid to,1 +one dayjust one days everything greateverything went wellbut still old thoughts keep awake wanting aau fuck end,1 +places suicide pods people like me want die wish could stop existing,1 +someone help homework im stressed overwhelmed im behind assingments got infected school weeks assigments im understanding them please someones there need help,0 +one positive storyhey friends today positive experience wanted share all feeling last long stop moment appreciate moment maybe itll bring smile someone here everyone relate existence empty void darkness glimmer light shine work last night job years tonight extremely busy area work in busy got go help area girl small crush works area months weve never talked before management told start putting everything conveyor even box need get stuff here doubts said did items got stuck belt nd floor one noticed while found shaft take boxes first floor jammed boxes climbed started removing individual unboxed items fixed jam question world would this buddy crush picking skips asked buddy said him me must her went talk army boxes scoot im like done sarcastically face turns red start laughing tell climb conveyor take stuff out tells management told would faster good laughs management dumb watch army boxes go by conversation work went normal pleasant experience first conversation someone new went well nothing awkward happened seemed like burden talk to life gone way im still dragging manage stay long enough nice experience like maybe ill look back another day things low so turned lot longer thought tried shorten couple times sorry guys hope cheers someone up,1 +feel stressed still nothing country fall holidays theres one week school starts again yesterday realized actually school stuff holidays completely overwhelmed dumbass forgotten ive already week start them ive spent entire week bed due depressive episode something thats still going strong legitimately cant get something arts project reading whole book assignments catching stuff already didnt last last weeks school due week days also exams per week two weeks right holidays since theyve moved back due covid worst time assignments studying especially home want anything semiokay itll take hours get distracted easily get overwhelmed cry it im fing loser times dont even start assignment time meaning like half hour complete them makes everything worse wont get good results ill fail class additionally house renovated moment room basically empty wednesday next week havent even started cleaning furniture out absolutely idea this feel like im like paralyzed stress cant start anything keep thinking theres much do theres way finish week want start things assignments making room look good feel unable to time theres way around this cant distract wait things get better no need actually put work in lazy ass self cant that dont want fail th grade thats like worst year fail dont know do im lazy mom getting worried pretty much begged get something least today wouldnt worry me im feel bad worrying like that dont know do,0 +wear mask elderly people actually die covid saying okay kill grandparents,0 +guys dont know jack shit cars really care wondering sake,0 +everyone always asks waldo nobody ever asks waldo yall hoes fake man waldo,0 +know find youtubermusical artist made like things liked main content stuff like yeah stuff sucks hell man else gonna find good share rock songs chess videos,0 +im coward idiotlife miserable death scary im afraid everything want pitty want help help works,1 +great film reading reviews see im one shed tear tamilyn tomita acted skill conviction made ending heartfelt memorable hands lesser actress last scene would seemed trite corny one would never guess film done tight limited budget cinematography gorgeous number big name actors script wonderful see wanted it watch long long list credits end see half hawaii pitched make film happen good reason soundtrack available cd absolutely beautiful sets mood throughout film complaint almost want film end,0 +im done thishow many times hit bottom im allowed stop giving shit feelings people id leaving behind like im ive felt way since ten years old fucking every time feel managed comes back hits harder im exhausted want done want out gun id already dead,1 +people saying feel like missed teen years bro im spent highschool studying literally nothing else guys highschool btw,0 +get hot pink full arm cast m ive boring white onehttpsiimgurcomkczfcqijpg last months get replaced months im honestly shy introverted maybe get hot pink pretend cool confident,0 +god cringe asocial isolate myself cannot look people eyes ashamed scared judgements know anymore know anythingi feel like robot know breathing nothing makes happyi got many things grateful yet filled hatred emptiness feel empathyi cannot talk people cannot fake anymore broken want work want anythingi want disappear want live rest life blanket watch netflix pretend whole world existim tired want work point me hate want work base have way built mentally yearsim worthless waste fraud nothing makes happy got nothing talk about awkward loser hate much,1 +wish meant somethingwe die eventually everyone love die eventually evidence ever existed fade eventually universe end eventually think are act were special somehow could possibly believe are babble itll change things hope ever amount anything delusional bits carbon chemical reactions everything forces particles wish point wish accept stop whining goddamn pathetically wish something anything mattered all wish meant something,1 +im tiredim tired getting every day go work take care son things im supposed do still get made feel like selfish asshole next day im tired get easier change want want live dont,1 +every day think deatheveryday wake first thought shorting head chin constantly crave death never get around it think gun head least painful method need buy gun know start,1 +got girlfriend sit down relax let kama start rolling,0 +breaking myselfbf years ended months ago said things good now bad times good cant see forever etc mostly due insecure crying sometimes angry drinking otherwise thoughtful generous girlfriend lost friends made grad school process applying logic myself sad happy let lot good things go could there made huge mistakes people close friends love talk even weekly hate alone around people get anxious even strengths thoughtfulness generousness etc turn weaknesses people end taking advantage me always least favorite child parents even though worry current state time feel like mistake even born went medical school get attention less dont know want doctor stuck career student loans graduation next week going really depressing thought bf family giong meet friends moving sos move job supposed person loved anything whole life dont even know want job going incredibly stressful dont want alone times bad good think back times happy think always little bit sad cant see living life the way been another years even another think using logic time break myself speak also told i need selfish well understand redflag selfish dont really give shit anymore thing want right hurts people fine rarely ever anything myself could one thing want face one day shit dont know make end graduation say goodbye people,1 +anyone wants talk im usually odd hours due work shiftsyou pm me give ya skype steam cell even here,1 +dont care anymoreout blue bf years thought going propose summer broke tuesday everything right went therapy got sober etc fact person told loved promised theyd never leave could make decision like blue makes realize isnt place want anymore starting let guard trust people again thats ruined now bought bottle jameson first time years hope kills,1 +feel right nowim disappointed myself ive always hated myself grew christian family comfort guide life religion literally hates everything am yes im gay cant stop it dont want it could fucking choose straight would fucking would easier doesnt leave life full extraextra pain promo doesnt make parents extremely disappointed doesnt make family disgust you doesnt make god regret you god think anyway dont know ill go hell killing myself im going hell homo born loving men literally thats it doesnt make want murder well make want murder murder myself hard hard experience waking everyday thinking theres million shitty things hate yourself want end want someone else hope insecurity isnt experience mother talking homosexuality sin youre writing redflag note experience feel one accept ever youre gay are think youre inadequate shameful sinful ungrateful hateful fucking full it i dont know more say dont want gay didnt want it am dont think theres anything wrong it but judge world thinks wrong must be say god hates prophets god themselves atheist im pushed away dont want anyone change are want people stop hurting someone whos done nothing wrong ive lived life never giving chance could others ive lived life utter alone even theres others around ive spent life know im one ill ever get end dont even like myself im selfish anyone feel bad wanted even little bit myself sinful thats said fault born way god hate making like this sentencing death flames death inside everyone outside rotting it dont want blame anyone myself dont know really dont want this but really think way im going hell now lets waste time id like thanks people tried help me many people made make decision breaks heart mother talk stuff gay people like asked wanted dress like woman wont give money purposes homosexuality gays need pay men actually get sort romance lives sad lives force live this gay doesnt mean youre different anybody else means love men nothing else comes it want dress like woman nothing gay wanted to never want ridicule mother anyone love her very much told loved me cant take more cant ive lived like ive one along ive died one all cares die anyway wont even probably notice gone ive wanted grow normal person experience love life like everyone else happy like everyone else cant given that deserve this made feel like dirt everything wrong everyone hates it why why why im still myself always been im just gay changes me im grateful whatever anyone given me family misplaced love theyve given me support matter few there family really nice actually dont deserve this thank friends never felt like true me think lot friends hate too maybe im one thinking that matter many talked still felt scared very alone selfish better dont even bother wasting money already have chuck body river rot let nature claim it would killed sooner later people hate gays sorry im gay say im worse dirt,1 +f join didcord pls bored need new sacrifices pedos hornies dm comment invite link active call together often quite fun,0 +dudes birthday ,0 +hate often tell friends lives matterwhy it care them think know like mother abused entire life ive run things tell them know anymore theyve asked many times die hate much,1 +liveim older autistic ill never normal girlfriend wants call says spark nothing changed far see always fail everything anytime feel good things something happens remind im social retard failure put animals suffering down cant people look forward dead feel anything,1 +disclaimer take antidepressants think ever will want intermingle ssri snri others alike current medication adderall due concomitant risk factorsi feel like state inertia want strive far make progress many different fields confident take steps reach goalsi years old months ago got first job petco experience great proudly say strong beneficial impact peers people id meet daily basis bubbly kid yesman smiling face willingness see peers better day loved perform beyond expectationsunfortunately store ended losing people remained turned lax eventually alternated animal care occasional stockwork fulltime register alone eight hours day schedule quickly turned robot marred social enjoyment redflaged out made matters worse boss wanted force customers sign rewards program would always ask them list positive facets whatnot would always people wanted get stuff book it lot would get angry me force people want look like advertisement drone redflag impacted respiration heart rate caffeine consumption sleep keep saying much it disappeared early may without noticesince quit playing video game overwatch yeah know least hours day sometimes love it find content play it primarily really good it month routinely this started think even less life practically vapid husk petcomy room big adjunct bathroom everything extremely comfy bed relaxing striplights tranquil fan breezes every person stepped foot loved it maybe comfymy med stack stupidbig mostly composed nootropics micronutrient supplements dextroamphetamine amp salts adderall htp st johns wort ashwagandha ltyrosine nacetyl cysteine sarcosine vitamins b b d ginkgo biloba omega magnesium cl hexahydrate topical ltheanine amp gaba calcium carbonate tumsmy diet awful eat pizza pbampj fast food wish ate fish nutrientrich foods really do something tells never eat iti got permit tried driving back then eventually stopped wanting sometime turned scared toi want spend time friends enjoy it hour often end wanting isolate tackle boring statistics learn ridiculous topic somethingi wanted go college pharmacology knowledge subject broadens every day employ help people much workedi used listen music skip tracks playlist used feel butterflies within spent time girlfriend even though love every last fiber being feel samei novel presently k words love literary tongue would love pursue it notall play one video game readis anybody else amid inertia like this kind comment would make feel good sad feel depressed all definitely plagued apathy know going life missing,1 +got trouble work brain slow downi literally got told use phone much big deal safety concerns brain freaking telling im gonna get fired there literally reason think this hope lost take medication anxiety bad,1 +truly scary film happening across curmudgeon james kunstlers rants led recentlyformed web logs like life oil crash latoc energy bulletin oil drum data behind theory hubberts peak like film latoc kunstler paint grim picture dieoff dieback hope theyre premature mid rising gasoline prices rising oil prices chevrons join us campaign bp becoming beyond petroleum even boone pickens lend credence idea near peak oil productionbr br after copious research limited data oil investment banker matt simmons suggested saudis may longer able increase production immense aging fields face increased demand primarily us china saudis responded higher production despite previous assurances stated world production indicates light sweet crude indeed peaked means refining become costlybr br the film seems aimed baby boomers younger people children also need understand implications energydepleted future,0 +many reviews ive read reveals people tend like part one better part two feel exactly opposite part one played around bit much trying find different ways showing che guevaras personality different types film stock different locations cutting back forth interview cuban revolution part structured finely somewhat distracting part two che enters bolivia along changing geographical location rules structure changes gone spacial jumps switching stocks documentary realism treatises instead literally trapped che desaturated depopulated landscape people exist burdened far lives anything survival option posit dark turn ches life real reason people prefer part one part twobr br the change geographic location also signifies least che part one che part two are fact second two acts three act structure begun motorcycle diaries motorcycle diaries ches comingofage or appropriately comingofideals argentina che part one military leadership cuba che part two downfall bolivia movies completely illustrate life were missing experiences guatamala and importantly opinion postcuban revolution executions create detailed exploration controversial aspects character nature worldwide symbol symbolizes idealism need armed resistance oppression revolutionary failings postworld war ii third world countries hindering activities as um cias meddlingbr br but yet again projected onscreen case long scenes dialog speeches much intimate suffering portrayal che end thread life again rules changed case hard tell chance success all number times camera shows people literally trapped rock hard place desaturated shaky long takes involves audience narrative people imprisoned hostile landscape existential hell revolutionary beliefs ultimately end taking second tier desperation hunted people starving death easy movie watch effectivebr br polarisdib,0 +really enjoyed movie is funny little film take seriously plot summaries available everywhere go details michael complex plot anyway builds great premise takes viewer wonderful road tripbr br john travoltas performance chainsmoking ladyloving barbrawling pieeating angel perfect love sparkybr br watch want laughs overall good time highly recommended,0 +cant handle living like thisim going junior high school everything already horrible right now know im going live rest life out im depressed small group friends thy hate me im ever sad know really care they make clear parents enough worry about know burden everyone know sadness pain peoples lives im sure it selfesteem im annoying know people like around anyway paranoid personality disorder gotten worse always think someone trying say something thats me even try best cant help accuse them know im horrible person cant imagine living like feeling like much longer know going get replies either cheers anyone deal post sometime tomorrow,1 +second thoughtsso lot shipments things earn life with yesterday ordered heroine od literally money education skills family anything today im sure really want die vanish im also really lazy die anything dont really know write,1 +took time took running street year old son arms chasing finally get away understand wrote literally tip iceberg could write all would need write book dont think would ever run things write about seen doctor since leaving said redflag dont like talking never went back,1 +want kill every time put gun mouth get scaredi wish could pay someone me im afraid first shot wont enough think do looked hit men online like million dollars,1 +cant post imag es want post john lennons boobs,0 +birds chirp dieis funny difference sentence title first sentence post one indicates me birds chirping sign die implies birds somehow chirping help contribute dying suffering would prefer diei suffering would prefer die birds chirp die,1 +sorry unsure right subreddit post already know goods severe depression adhd redflag name it today like hours put game something happened caused wastelose least two hours worth progress immediately made lose interest motivation keep going happens time me sense small thing leading loss feeling something do loss motivation boredom melts depression end sitting around day bored unable convince even bother trying another game my comfort hobby have even get up hate feeling like small inconveniences know get funk find new thing hyper fixate distract boreddepressed easily depressed unmotivated,1 +need help mechanics pulling together started depression turning existential crisis im starting feel pretty valid logicali couple issues right coming head found long ago going major depressive episode something gone even know honestly might ptsd sprinkled there guess consider really irrelevant given new found turn ive going here psychiatrist ive got sucks ass spent great deal time carving everything make life easy went psychologist first really thing offer breathing exercises left least convinced everything possible within powers conclude rationally issue chemical imbalance first insurance company gives list people can see get reimbursed go almost everyone booked weeks months advance think ridiculous is finally find someone go sit week calling tried make job easy possible explaining fact felt like weight world going crush first time life felt defeated reaching out regular doctor even im self employed etc try self sufficient possible im asking help im asking help explained everything going life provided much detail possible alleviate fears drug seeking made clear starting get gravely concerned short term state jumbling story couple times gathered professional avoidance prescribed something would take up several weeks months see change thought insane dumped mind came help felt like even paying attention prescribed benzos short term support never someone ask something like that ill tell what trick problem long term meds giving redflag idealization issues returned told aggression issues want get hospitalized arrested whatever since never officially tell anyone im threat what load fucking bullshit another days sort put nd prescription different longer acting prescription bottle refill days great enough time get next bridge go get refilled said day two earlier refill thats fine big deal told them fact quiet number left days felt need boost return week later pick im told doctor changed mind thinking wtf says days right there issue apparently since write date too pharmacists said totally unprofessional manually verify it even remember many days refilled for months ago mean pleaded guy im drowning life cant coming back making weekly appointments im trying sort out need training wheels guess every fucking person comes trying score pills including me okay enough guy ive got medication now fantastic lets move next issue here ive trying tell significant hey im going trouble right now please please keep down total ball buster normal times ive always managed fine got decade ago ive asked guess consider almost bare basics yelling house nagging try make effort intimate understanding right now im bitch it know help get this getting anywhere every time bitching something could think hanging basement kept thinking itd quick itd like going sleep ill never deal bullshit again okay im falling back looking sort temporary support ask mom ive extremely good terms forever help want clear relationship amazing said let time needed most explained needed help needed talk significant keeping line needed family support here basically shifted said one one needed help shit sitting paths ahead me fight fight fight battle get back drugs helping risk getting locked hospital telling truth risk losing means support significant process minutes tops turns existential crisis ive got good life recently ive become convinced ultimately life one enormous distraction ive chasing level happiness unobtainable immediately people talk this dance around subject become obvious im questioning existence immediately turn discussion honestly chasing material happiness oh that end that ultimately capitalist goals already went road happy kids realized different happiness distraction sort used look someone like larry ellison idealize him look successful is got older children idealize someone like that saw someone bought heroic amount bullshit sacrificed entire life pursuit ultimately power guess see world differently ultimately believe purpose life deep meaningful relationships ultimately complex that im way oversimplifying things here really starting get rails im starting feel like alien planet people truly identify days ive got small group confidants really truly adore people feel genuine loyal feel like majority people meet genuine vast vast majority people meet wrapped trivial bullshit trying seen way sort person cant connect them one hand totally understand person feel great sadness shame bought bought hard im trying cross bridge next stage cant find enough people there increasingly feel like amount effort necessary stabilize essentially rebuild core foundation much ive got partner seems concerned whether toys cleaned ground put bullet head doctor worried hell get rolled writing sloppy prescription endless number shitheads deal daily basis business people would piss kids cereal save recently id seen someone handful times last year sort start unplug like been never noticed really recently killed im starting see startling parallels am path least resistance redflag think worth fighting for ultimately feel life become one big distraction efficient honest help legislatively practically prohibitive must something wrong here cant hard correct chemical imbalance seeing world shit colored glasses im getting really sick it,1 +im gonna try jump tomorrow morningwish luck,1 +said care told mother depressed said literally care expecting asking crush outta luck seriously mom said,0 +suicidal mostly on since sometimes better sometimes worse past weeks awfuli graduated loads jobs field could get one easy i hope cannot face job hunting cannot bear prospect rejected industry also incredibly high suicide rate terrified burn make worse back living parents get job place helping either friends live couple hours awayi spent past months self sabotaging degree half arsed finals revision left organising compulsory placement last second think part hoping would fail would finally excuse end it passed honours proud feel numb whole timei eat cannot sleep want die cannot bear thought much would hurt friends family spend time playing computer games instead anything productive speaking friends exhaustingi speaking counsellor helped completely massive breakdown months ago abusive relationshipi want sleep forever tired whole time know fix head spent many years feeling way know begin fixing myself cannot go like this know get it obviously suicidal think would ever actually anythingplease need advice know begin get life together feeling hopeless need vent advice would help,1 +failedi care sees anymore fuck alts ill probably destroy account soon anyway im leonard turned yesterday depressed years suicidality coming year ago im really lacking anything im smart rich family etc cant it first went school first year school nice second year came school teachers slowly noticed wasnt usual kid could already read point others still trouble saying single letters school enjoy that labelled too smart bullied children yelled teacher got really depressed angry everything nonetheless went third year there shit improve either teacher bitch yelled kept spiraling down believe first started suicidal thoughts even knew redflag back then started developing hobby passion though computers started making animations things powerpoint even got windows computer fuck around with since teacher know me let shit school computer situation got worse worse taken another school school years tried help me thing learned instead getting mad keep thoughts inside me did quickly started overflow suicidality came back bullied also due muscle disease able sports well even boldly attempted climb window once then high school came we first years primary school highschool given gymnasium advice went gymnasiumonly school here broke note netherlands different highschool years levels gymnasium best got bad grades bullied contemplated redflag again single friend still thankful for without him here due bad grades mostly mom becoming mayor move lost last friend thing left computer went another school atheneum one gymnasium grades horrible contemplated redflag bullied hated dropped again year redoing atheneum grades still shit cant get anything im stuck kind friends now helping anymore point thing keeping redflag anime wanting make program parents care im happy care grades failed got results failed mom subliminally telling im failure fail cant tell them want tell them want die want drop farther down want continue day fantasise someone painlessly killing revive give another chance elsewhere futile fantasies cant save humans cant saved light death am sitting bus thinking go remote village jump front train help even birthday yesterday cheer up inevitable anyway could die die die ,1 +nut november nut november nut november going well day tho smh get rid horny,0 +going drown tomorrowi terrible gambling addiction general bad person truly believe potential good good heart someone profound said the road hell paved good intentions like here good intentions get life together inevitably sucked back vices hold me expect anybody understand cant stop gambling wasnt position would share views shame thrust world fault own expected make something ourselves yet us would better returning primordial ooze wherest came report back tomorrow unsuccessful guess either put euphemistcally pass away near death experiance which knows could life changing going go surfing late local uncrowded surf break know ledges put longest leg rope surf board im going space monkey swim hook leg rope ledge pass out body automatically breath salt water hoping enough kill me know space monkey hyperventiate breathes breath hold breath til quickly pass out used high school shits gigs also highly intoxicated hopefully increase probabilty success hopefully fail like everything else life choosing drown want burden family idea committed redflag really shame pretty amazing potential us squander it well atleast have also relatively short life space negative impact im years old still living home pay rent money bank car cleaning work even spend money ive lost grand sisters money managed pay last year ripped people selling racing tips promising people would make lot would sent negative ripples this everything matters hope anyone reading this hope alright edit post tomorrow night means removed gene pool cya,1 +mods arent issue site is someone past moderated subreddit k users abandoned account sub taken moderator wasnt even appointed mods made current account escape drama related sub tell moderators issue reddits sitewide rules administrators problem posts moderate previous account behavior could seen witchhunting inciting violence censoring name screenshot twitter pedo counts leading witchhunting showing evidence user engaging animal abuse pleading people report animal abuser counts witchhunting mods right thing could associated witchhunting get subreddit banned reddit created assumption people wouldnt use violent toxic even criminal behavior years reddit cracked down implemented stricter rules avoid bad press controversial subreddits however process trying stamp toxicity form site made safe pedophiles zoophiles human traffickers rapists half time sitewide admins dont even look users reported things much evidence circulated criminal counts witchhunting please dont blame mods happened blame uspez sitewide administrators botched attempts fix reddit ones opened worms tried define behavior became harassment hate speech process trying make site inclusive safe inadvertently opposite mods trying best act moderating situations like happened recently avoiding subreddit banned,0 +hate everything me appearance personality stupid mental illnesses even someone told loved would believe someone love another cannot even love themselves unlovable,1 +even decent day rare still want kill end day also makes mad see people kids tf bringing people world without consent suffer become bitter person hate it fucking tired alive,1 +annoyed teacher signed cad elective stands computer aided design sounded interesting thought would enjoy took class teacher however annoying said doesnt like kids days dont tinker around like kid wants make class old fashioned using pencil paper thats cool all signed computer aided design whatever hes teaching havent touched computer year class hate whatever hes teaching one assignment could optionally use cad software never taught anyone use paper look good seriously dont think ive learned single thing year,0 +redflag gun lawsif kill gun isnt mine would person go jail dont want harm anybody,1 +ill soonim pain want join grandma want live false perspective hapiness never exist,1 +bad bhabie made m within hours opening onlyfans turning today yall weird ass mfs,0 +nam myh renge kynam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky nam myh renge ky,1 +want cat dont know exactly supposed get cat im asking people lalalshskshskhsndbsbsbshs filler,0 +say people do people not people sympathize empathize one knows going one can meant live alone yes old texts mention suicide solution well born face crap way live it trying trying face bullshitting people around me everyone selfish one really cares me either dependent attached both issues minei used dreamy ideal life perfectly caring husband parents would supportive everything still try really hard parents kept alive sure would here sad thing solely pity moms selfish really selfish even cares society norms wants oblige demands times people around me fact want live life alone want good people general one two people want worry caring selfish beings around me hurt enough cannot take pain offer everyday one cares,1 +use reddit wanted share going hopefully someone take time read reply need type support another person always underlying issues like redflag impending sadness always pushed side growing teen parents never even talked mental health even diagnosed adhd kid mom huge stigma mental health told doctors kid thought normal growing would get extremely nervous anythingsimple tasks also would get distracted easily never able sit work schoolhome mom also emotionally abusive times would rarely hit things putting hands for thinking high school dark time time feel bad caught graduated mom great mother never listened opinion always kept box helicopter mom checking time led little social life high school also highschool sick twisted could go whole post it kept telling mom take school course never listened forced go school students students acted way younger age seniors would act like th graders weird confusing environment angry mom love immensely turned lot issues caught me unhappy unable even speak people redflag became worse would start shaking even speaking somebody started notice friends people knew time looking friends know depression making think friends people want around regardelsss pushed everyone away going horrible phase year hell mom thought changing cold reality really really down made feel bad way feeling still till day social life friends pushed everyone away one positive year finally found passion wish discovered earlier also zero idea start redflag depression become debilitating quit job room time contact ppl besides online friends i room time high school too become distant family feel distant everybody daily intrusive sad thoughts already getting therapy feel bad times right cannot imagine job going college almost seems impossible me also judge people much think others head truly know unhappy myself mom extremely judgmental hard things like without judging me need someone talk to ill try reply might forget even wrote post nervous reply need advice mental healthsocial life interested in old friends pushed away choice mental health know get started need speak going long post,1 +chill fuck zoom classes turn video off go pcs camera app now go back zoom turn video now video appear bad internet connection go device manager searching n start menu go camera click camera click disable device button top let turn camera itll show camera participants list undo this click enable device button,0 +porn video two years later want kill ithappened struggling undiagnosed ptsd sexual assault got meds got therapy industry couple months made one video anything except kiss her naked feel like using camming take back control body completely regret it feel ashamed every time girl who still business shares video twitter feel ashamed disgusted myself tried reach used good friend spoken since feel disgusting feel hopeless know people highschool know im sure theyve seen video honestly want kill myself fucking stupid,1 +seven years old mama told go make friends lonely,0 +first comments get useless awards lmao,0 +first time years finally push kinda shape able push working month last night able push first time years,0 +severe anxiety amp gf almost years depression everytime argue text feel completely helpless always super worried shes going hurt especially argue night tells leave alone feel like stay night long case texts change heart wants apologize ill sleeping ill miss text something terrible happen shes gotten x better since dating hasnt hurt long time always back head something go wrong wont able help,0 +well againa year ago hit rock bottom bad relationship sitting er thought learned thought got better now realize im slowly blowing chances girl actually worth it give up know happen already see falling away im losing touch reality detached strong enough word describe feeling im justgone present struggle times future looking hopeless wish could change past bad ive fucking many times even want think itits like attempts make things better make worse used proud am im even aware am beyond pathetic iswho turned into family friends caringbut none affects anymore one left turn to want professional help anyways really pointless one actually cares saying farewell starting seemappealing strange eating all sleep becoming challenging mention dreams torture me tonight lie awake know emptiness expandi think time go soon apologize wasting time,1 +care im dude wants love mean hard girls think guys want sex mean im missionary guy wouldnt anything girl wanted it anyone wants talk im always here well maybe always,0 +life worthlessi done everything can best could demons chase nightmares back head stuff dark rooms mind darkness bleeds corrupts hearti know people good see beauty everyone opens heart before friend family partnerthere beauty all pour love sacrifice heart life give everything see others built up commit giving income helping building others carry s car time homeless almost always stop people walking side highway could tell names stories several homeless city used spend time sitting them giving hugs rides love cherish othersand alone always been lastest abandonment damn fault too fell love married woman would have except marriage one neglected abused took mantle loving gorgeous depths heart facade came down victim ran back abuser one mebut person actually see me love me leave died short yearsthe relationship before fell apart emotionally abusive could wrong would shift blame use guilt avoid admit fault anything serious finally confronted her lefti perfect person hold doubt ball wax selfsacrificing otherfocused see take responsibility failures absolutely give life always bettering myself sole ambition best man best potential husband woman assumed walking earth waiting find heryet efforts naught search search put many ways yet connections few ones form fade away quite rapidlymy one fear unlovable walking dark streets mind led two previous attempts life difference now live city could shot walking street nightnow spend hours day trying find something do someone talk to still searching someone love desolate worthless soul heart yearns leave dark streets mind take last walk would ever walk darkness take long nowi want die want pain end walk path destruction again,1 +spending another christmas thinking thing every dayanother night spend hours trying fall asleep cant ive depression many many years killed yet family try fall asleep time usually cant unless im totally exhausted write thoughts cant fall asleep usually ends paragraph hate life kill myself know go make things better want bother family shit anymore know happy ive years therapy jack shit im antidepressants still wanna kill myself ive heard everything book people said feeling better still feel like trash makes posting seem pointless hey im still hanging thread something tried yet hell not want live life learn work boring cycle realizing makes wish born im already sick it,1 +another reason blow brains end people get tired call annoying self centered psychotic,1 +brought sick world lost everything worked became schizophrenicat age six abused age propositioned sex age asked take top off man interested makes pedophile sex man wrong feel suicidal it taken advantage teen years sexually assaulted photographer assault multiple times completely ruined life beautiful modelling work never wanted model again fell love man five years older never experienced anything like it madly love taught much smoked weed together already sick young age borderline personality disorders weed made think made think world live sick twisted world everyone sick evil know experiences shaped beliefs world truly believe run evil live hell planet one day happened me smoking weed started hearing voice told smoke weed watch smoke chamber thought kind spiritual awakening third eye opened able access spiritual world still believe day world think could world much beautiful imagine started believe god voices guiding become spiritually enlightened told kind things took journey told look documentary called war dance never heard children uganda forced murder parents everything voice said voices tell one not told do told get slutty underwear put told one represented sex slave throw river told revealed like think thought good person lot ways told like like homeless told look stars saw southern cross spot one day came back boyfriends place always weed told smoke weed told clean place absolute pig sty taken away hospital pinned men screaming begging drug me need drugs spiritual awakening needed see voices teacher plant weed through weed experiences teaching kind planet really living full sickness place mess cleaned hours boyfriend always working never took care home like did voices helping waking mind like ayahausca does one day voices told open gates let husky lead voices talked freedom husky belonged universe me told follow streets told say come came back me came back thankful voices told let go teaching train her im dog trainer trade already well trained loved dearly husky come couple owned training her would walk three times week would take australian bush let run lead hours walked ran hours free nature like be like animals deserve be would follow everywhere would drop home one night sitting garage boyfriend live small garage boyfriend build bed ceiling space intelligent harley door escaped owners house come find spent hour returning home week got call owners said want harley sits gate howls night you took became dog socialsed puppy made little dog training side kick went everywhere together even stopped seeing friends boyfriend dog became life helped train dogs came dog walks me angel angel work helping people helping me setting animals free giving better life loved like loved them set harley free like voices told got upset voices started telling walk city barefoot prove love love like spiritual girl somebody called pound crying floor want go city barefoot came took dog away took hospital signs spiritual trip like numbers voices led house number telling partner equal beautiful get high naturally oral sex used time make mind run wild hyper priming went brain getting oral sex incredible cant think another sign atm anyway took dog away put pound said going kill killed cat hospital prayed days hours hours knees praying god voices told dad manage get sent large property northern territory pest control dog dangerous dog laws northern territory god answered prayers saved dad hearing voices boyfriend ignoring me started got back visiting mum uk lonely person dog boyfriend much story cant tell yet thought writing book im still dealing everything happened me alone hospital pound trying kill dog boyfriend loved deeply would die ignoring thought sick cope plus set harley free blamed losing really really upset everything loved deeply called much nurses called stalkerish know true love like do slaves money slaves planet like boyfriend slave life away support us never got see love life one lifetime get planet ill work fulltime living garage needed money unless became completely grid like planned doing fell apart lost dog job locked away sanity injected drugs will drugs give bad soul brain made feel incredibly ill stiff shower properly move talk properly never made voice go away plant speaking god whatever speaking amount drugs made go away ran away england lost everything sad sad ran england got flight assesment done said ok travel month hospital voices stopped said could fly england ran away drugs doctor said injection year got england mum nan grandad made go doctors made take medication nothing make sick doctor said far medicated took injections still thinks im talking pills im told anyone block dopamine receptors brain make brain produce receptors compensate reactive dopamine system think causes schizophrenia first place drugs cause even reactive dopamine system drugs reduce grey matter brain cause parkinsons like symptoms heard voice month except one hour one night terrible nightmares nightmares hole stomach insides falling it looking heart pounding ground body made dead fish strange ive never dream like think dreams spiritual things trying tell us something thoughts throwing cliffs live see ever happy again lost two loves life never see angel dog again spirit animal cant deal that would probably better boyfriend left came england reason left going drug year boyfriend broke me im miserable think world sick evil keep suicidal thoughts good reason cant take drugs pretend feel way completely valid way feel want die part part im sad im hurting bad heart aches stomach aches head hurts cry stay strong pretend cope sometimes think throwing cliff much better would be anyone help friends except nans dogs best friend australia missed couple things happened me hearing voices told run boyfriends parents house naked godly ornaments house voices told god really truly spiritual people ran house drive way told dance street like danced strip club told thought beautiful dance naked street another time followed boyfriend work train voices told lots things filled hour city kept telling go home kept following listening every little instruction game word word went city went inside building broke work called name ignored call left went back train station voices told jump front train listen told tell told voices jump front train two people started following called police taken hospital trauma wrote post dreamt tunnel behind man scooter get past started suffocate fumes end got tunnel could breathe kind sign either advice ornot instagram httpswwwinstagramcomammiereynolds,1 +hiim damn depressed know im overreacting im probaly lazy im th grade wanna kill myself everyday nonstop cycle work relax work relax every fucking day wake work go home thats it im miserable everyrtime think times could friends family cry cry sleep bored shit class dumb ass work literally use rest lives unpleasant cold room full bunch idiots so redditors reddies would kill myself,1 +friends last foreveri apologize advance language fucking hate stupid fucking world people say want help lie friend going depression problems girlfriend wanted kill himself helped him got past darkness hes still depressed hes back witth girlfriend want kill himself ask help says hes busy needs money hes best friend friends use need something someone load problems on take money anything take me dont care me died care maybe family would them im alone makes worse friends whenever needed me am morning yep wake talk redflag wants die one there avoiding me lying giving shit im alive dead hate hate me leaving alone isolated always them,1 +anyone else feel like use promise reassurance redflag crutch make questionable decisions in case gamblingi hate catch this fuck things badly myself get jail free card spend day gambling ill probably dead soon,1 +blasting west savannah repeat one nights iykyk,0 +someone talk mei feel really alone im scared pm comments fine,1 + year plan cut shortwhen best friend overdosed created year plan get everything order meet im done dont think cant wait long things beginning seem pointless drug im going use expensive thats hardest part moment ill get there make pain stop please,1 +relapsed im scaredover past years ive made strides therapy personal growth learning cope depressionanxiety even worked courage estrange narcissistic mother went thinking killing multiple times day thinking maybe week lately thoughts flooded back in year fucking worst america fucking worst supposed graduate college move hellhole state experience ounce freedom life feel fucking stuck think motivation strength fight anymore sense expiration date nearing soon,1 +point wont control myself diei cant stop guys want die now,1 +im fat hot im skinny cold riddle also explains alo also john sus eject iss hamstera six days,0 +chronic intractable pain redflagthe doctors helping anymore know do crying wheelchair pleading quality life meaningless seemingly everyone honestly reason im still is fear end life painful pain dealt every day honestly much coward anything falling asleep never waking back up thought waking indefinite amount days months years knowing night get less hours sleep wake gasping pain heart racing sit awful painmoan sounds like demons hear eraampe sometimes cannot that thought im stuck everyone around healthy fine almost perfect life wake every morning new hell makes angry want hurt others thats terrifying never want anyone suffer even fraction like have ever know else do think turning hospital saying im much pain want kill myself earn anything psych ward stay least hour hold doubt psych ward would clear able go physical issues id probably get thrown top floor embarrassing days never able return hospital bc nurses think im crazy never take seriously again sort options live waking hell constant physical pain make attempt probably agony might even fail leave mangled ive never less idea carry living,1 +cut since february year clean know specifically causing this feel like tonight felt terrible month falling behind classes sleeping erratically lately feel like there know it putting there try get head trying fall back bad habits,1 +inspiring movie laughed cried felt love true storyit give hope miracles happen great cast ellen burstyn samantha mathis jodelle ferlandshes yrs old actress showtime must see movie ,0 +life always revolves around redflagthat life about think about strive for want goals life first attempt redflag fucking sitting hill motor bike xr took helmet off jumped bike without really thinking it went full speed hill towards parked truck closed eyes breathed cool air dust woke hospital broken arms tracheostomy tube cut neck made friends neighbour cute girl age thought would badass way die killed pitbull expected chained dogs attacked straight away went it got good hold hip bone father jumped balcony story whipped dog face steel cap boots pulling away dog never let go meaning got chunk me always creative kid made device pulley system dam designed went underneath pulled rope would keep get out one cousins coming play saw finishing touches it told raft could fish with helped played little catch anything diagnosed cancer much energy kill myself discovered evolution happiest studying that antidepressants swallowed minute little later mother comes notices sweating looking good rushed hospital cleaned stomach put fluids put plastic bag head spray deodorant inside it plastic pressed button extract gas bag tied around neck cutting oxygen went sleep woke middle night bag beside me reconnected rough cousin well knowing probably something painless death mm wanted look kept bullets another locked box gave would obvious asked see bullets suicidal want sent psych hospital bought home every night since go sleep bath head hoping one night little tight wake up im cant go sleep without bag head im pretty sure point brain damage enough people notice enough to im looking help wanted tell story one life cry too im telling story internet thanks coming ted talk,1 +parents acknowledge struggles depression originally posted rentitledparents recommended post too going year im technically teen i struggling depression young age lost friends constantly bullied people telling gay straight closest friends turned me gotten fistfight with others treated horribly trying best keep happy recently gone state depression ive struggling since th grade horrible experiences others treated me sort stopped happy time lost friends became lonely friends struggling even more online school giving heck time due work assigned told parents times depressed mom would look horror scream need help like possessed something parents seem believe depression phase sickness goes away days friend believe either calls emo goth clothing hairstyle recommended seek therapist ive already gone th th grade never felt comfortable mother would use therapy way pry private life without asking herself parents also mindset that if buy something take away somehow bought it even though raised money neighbors feel confined parents bidding like future completely planned me say future like hatred gotten bad point intentionally wanting fail academically socially life want succeed would thing trying force do mom looks like deranged psychopath like im crazy need go goddamn mental ward gained bit coronaweight lot stress family accusing eating everything house mom dad legit calling fat say little chubby lot boxing skating friend mom hears that says im proud you ask says thats really healthy im glad finally working out stable mentally kinda writing seek pointers deal this also recently lost phone hanging friend way contact anyone parents threatening take away source communication friends pc,0 +theres reason go oni finally came realization im special unique funny interesting attractive everyone know pities want free burden am depressing vibes give off reason im still around right dog even shes got roommate spoil her shell fine cant believe ever thought dude would ever me stupid naive am essentially catfished another dude take decent face pics go meet see look face sees body is fucking hate living endless suffering awkwardness anxiety continue im almost supposed better now,1 +whats ur favourite music peoples hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +guy discovered dairy milk doing fr tryna,0 +helpcan anyone help stop dark thoughts ive tried everything im dead inside heart smashed pieces trumactic memories please help,1 +hey guys dont ya hate moose drinks maple syrup ok americans gone labour day reddit spelled labor day im canada partake labor day sale reddit holding spell right like origins english come from england disrespect spell words differently,0 +every timeevery time think im getting better im told im made want give guns locked cant done last month,1 +caykdae moi cayekdey hwo wanst soem mey cayk,0 +get people think jojos bizarre adventure amazing like watched episodes okay def cum like people doing feel like people need chill show okay amazing,0 +old lady womens bathroom days ago im yo trans boy nonbinary still use womens bathrooms cause ive never used mens im scared days ago go womens bathrooms waiting old woman comes stares daggers looking everything appearance looks beard face small barely seeable moustache starts scanning body shape clothes im wearing im wearing blue flannel shirt black pants made mens brand pretty much mens clothing started looking chest crotch area honestly looks like dick looked shocked funny asf ngl try using guys restroom,0 +sure survive selfquarantinei dreading stuck home im already depressed barely hanging thread boyfriend live together im alone considering leaving around makes feel immense guilt work home im used lot running errands going gym hanging friends weekends helped find reasons keep going stuck house think might bring end already done living think time go,1 +unusual laurel hardy comedy something split personality times feels like two movies made different styles spliced single short happily portion funny right boys seemingly effortless clowning carries day synthesizes films disparate elements entertaining whole ive never heard fan cite dirty work favorite laurel hardy comedy nonetheless one everybody seems likebr br our story set home professor noodle represents one key element storyline wildly overthetop parody mad scientist scenarios marks rare venture scifi territory lh abbott costello three stooges tangled mad doctors far often stan ollie event professor obsessed creating rejuvenating serum make people younger sarcastic butler jessup expresses viewers skepticism rolled eyes occasional dry quip meanwhile stan ollie chimney sweeps show professors home day perfects solution their portion film consists characteristic but firstrate slapstick involving chimney roof shovels number unfortunate mishaps enjoy watching guys screw task probably like dirty work fans team movie feast highlight comes ollie plummets chimney lands fireplace pummeled bricks fall onto head maddening rhythmic precision one one also like shot ollie tumbling roof greenhouse process work slapdash suspect something inside joke way wc fields movies would feature worlds worst rearprojection screensbr br the slapstick stuff great fun mad scientist motif makes film offbeat two supporting players deserve tip bowler hat prolific character actor lucien littlefield terrific professor delivering overripe lines relish cackling hammy glee sam adams stitch less showy role jessup butler great stan laurel oliver hardy prime always worth noting supporting casts hal roach studio gave films enormous boost too usually background music le roy shield dirty work marks rare occasion period roach comedy musical accompaniment opening credits mood music might enhanced proceedings matter highly enjoyable comedy anyhow prime example made laurel hardy popular day,0 +ghilli best movie vijay one biggest hit career seen telegu movie could enjoy movie even morethe story girl wanting escape clutches local goon wants forcibly marry her since goon body ready help heroine vijay come play kabaddi match sees decides help her rest movie vijay helps girl ultimately escapes clutches goon goons fathers political cronies movie lot edge seat thriller moments keep viewer engaged till end vijay usual good role kabaddi player trishaashish vidyarthithe bunch vijay friends done job competently special mention made villain movie prakashrajthe villains character properly etched prakashraj portrayed well surprisingly first time felt sympathy villain end dialogue hi chellam really caught masses music vidyasagar brilliant song apadi podu rage overdharani credited nice masala movie enjoyed die hard vijay fans also general tamil movie audience world,0 +tired girl exhausting hated time double standards lack respect tired work x harder things girl tiring tired sexism,1 +i unpopular maybe nerd you prob get idea dude sitting lunch preppy cool kids days basically idk people think am like nerf maybe idea thats little ive talked people get idea class lunch outside unlike every class school class end hallway door outside teacher thought itd nice anyway used sit talk anyone partially chose partially one invited me recently started sitting cool kids guess could say started talking classwork day sat circle formed part it nice year even sitting them thought kind superficial stuff get idea classic preppy girlsboys im fascinated them sheer truth exerted conversation like nothing ive ever seen before social media know basically everybody know people grade and name mostly anyway going good would sometimes contribute conversation mostly listen one annoying girl decided yesterday sit us too man fck ruining me goddamn ever see opening scenes fight club gets mad marla coming testicular cancer meeting thats felt anyway pretend friends sometimes sometimes fine talking to really best explain th grader room th graders anyway sits us monday instead usual crowd beyond pissed off transform semiusual asshole be talks,0 +thought death lastit makes smile final rich comforting nourishing meal good cigarette long cuddle beloved final hug best friend dying death theme mercy living bear mccreary someone known life telling first everything holding cry hear bad parts cuddling hear good parts embracing finished say im ready go embrace me fall asleep over finally over knowing daughter okay beloved find another take care them quite me good enough best friend crying me remembering fondly speaking well me angel mercy smiling sink world maybe one day die maybe one day ill die sleep dont courage end myself wish did want die peacefully sleep say loud im ready im trying get counseling go medication third time dont lot hope faith it please help me,1 +really hard aloneim gonna feel alone feel really alone world really hard describe people think anyone really understand know talk to want feel like someones im gonna anyone really gonna suck im gonna pretend im gonna pretend someone me ive going really hard time last week know ive really emotional ive feeling like im disconnected everybody way nobody understands im alone,1 +thought movie wonderfully plotted made confused cousin watched meto tell truth think younger kevin dillon hothahahahabut also thought girl stupid go along cop wrong said deathi inside youi think thats gets going tell young never cared old girls werenow think could ever trust cop like thatbut tell truth pretty obvious even wanting become cop would still suspicious either wayand funny sprayed eye storehahahahahashe still stupid going warehouse cop died hello called backupsometimes movies make mad people act stupid stupid thingsbut thats think thought movie,0 +important im salty wanted get minecraft java long time since bedrock really good told cousin uk buy mei live iran credit cards different cant buy own bought account apparently minecraft banned iranjava turned vpn downloaded yea probably see going cousin told soon downloaded call discord downloaded however call him went hypixel vpn i idea could get banned that instantly got perma banned cousin went appeal thankfully changed ban day ban yea important thought id let anger somewhere days go,0 +redflag hotline hung memaybe sign worth trying find hope,1 +depressed long remember cut again started use drugs again going dark hole idk get time feel like lowest low,1 + dead every fucking second day good enough standards able things normally without overthinking everything every minutes able enjoy things moment without deep set fear go away soon miserable again could sleep without waking shitty nightmare could forget trauma able eat without thinking weight calories could feel like imposter time like faking everything myself beautiful skinny smart socially acceptable never depression takes life wish,1 +supposed better thoughts ending life still plague everyday existence truly believe death would relieve many people burden immense potential pain stop imagining escape stop feeling way deal suicidal ideations,1 +final stances nnn here final stance nnn participation required okay fail addiction really depends whether already multiple times day every day moderation far made nnn tried it many factors think failing say anything certain like nnn others know it ok please take break reddit stuff gonna stop could swear saw posts disliking nnn disliking posts failing posts nnn higher others completed deal here good display self control stuff get look others though participating ddd no going one month horny go one extremely horny participate depends personal choice comes think do nnn good bad no whatever make it good bad like social media like world,0 +im bored powers fuck yeah anyone wanna talk something comments ig maybe politics ,0 +star trek hidden frontier surprise many ways first fan made series available web features mainly friends neighbors computer programs home video cameras sewing machines to mickey judy put it put show definitely friends neighbors to tell lot people beautiful looking folks ever seen youngest thinnest stumble lines like theyre walking marbles thick accents simply seem speak well first place whick makes virtually impossible understand single solitary word theyre saying still admit everything friends neighbors put together actually fun watch yes dialogue hokey yes little odd though admittedly little cool too watching two starfleet males kiss although kissing scenes seem go on yes cringe bit clearly quote sttos tng shows movies hear theme galaxy quest played beginning end every show okay get that why graphics first rate better almost anything seen sometimes show two really stands storywise actually real tearjerkersbr br hidden frontier total guilty pleasure every sense word give people involved credit credit due takes lot effort put production magnitude people sets costumes graphics huge effort lot peoples parts watch return thank them,0 +ex got engaged tonightto girl left for left year ago someone prettier smarter successful someone normal fun now what get keep happy getting everything wanted lay planning death supposed me taken away me wasnt fucking good enough like always positive found future finally something secure loving something look forward to no wrong does spare cliches moving finding someone else id rather kill myself dont want someone else havent year time hasnt healed all feel like icing cake pathetic life im laying lump throat hot tears streaming ugly face reason havent killed yet cat getting really hard keep going really dont feel like worth it leaving punch gut finding dating punch gut taking trips places dreamt going punch gut moving together punch gut this im done,1 +mosquito landed penis whilst trying bust nut see little piece shit would clap ass might thousand suns little cunt landed busting dick puffy halfhard landed bust could least trapped sticky goo face consequences actions cum fucking drowns fuck little shit,0 +yall seem little stressed 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hysterically losing cat street ended best friends place days got leave space best friend mind im street ive reached everyone can facebook entire phone book family nobody cares im homeless depression crippled mental state im constant agony cant anymore realizing people loved care constantly realizing lost everything mere weeks away getting back feet ive alienated everybody nothing nobody keep going almost hung last night backed last second figure get paid tuesday ill go enjoy it one last hurrah seems like option obviously theres something wrong me one much bad luck ive never felt worst life nobody cares im gone whats stopping me,1 +right know failed would end hospital physically mentally worse everyone would think freak would trusted anything would given huge hospital bill nothing would done help me every method aside gun could end failing making suffer long time dyingi really hope run mugger shoots money feel trapped wish strength kill,1 +thinkingi think killing every day imagine different ways it recently thinking stabbing heart think know mark supposed be used stop look different knifes sale nearby hardware shops knives seem strong sharp enough job writing thinking would it rd th rib think location good enough miss bone go straight flesh thinking moment metal slices through would hit mark would miss drown blood would stop first sign pain someday get knife wish enough strength guide clean completely pull out imagine step would incur huge amount physics pain probably get drunk high act might numb everything might miss probably get stethoscope well would come handy take guess work setup listen mark stab might run wall holding knife try cry procedure man men cry,1 +buy star wars commando ive looking getting dont know,0 +adults allowed post want reason feel like throat fell stomach found naked pictures best friend internet feel numb,1 +life actually insufferablenow reading retrospect almost seems like diary ampxb hate this sucks makes angry people think right try press feeling better faking enjoyment im upset ive always last years so now parents suck cant hold sustained friendship anyone hour since im boring fuck hate parents putting planet horrible lonely wish upon worst enemy school literally one even fucking interact with crush hates me as per usual parents act like care dont give fuck whether alive dead main thing theyd probably care killed how much money spend failure cant even talk anyone this since know talk it parents care heard talking ending life something along lines that id probably get killed life sucks everything sucks no phase kill myself probably not human natural fear death like people however pain insufferable promise you tomorrow definitely add this like sure hope not will cant hold sustained happy emotion hour so however need to order make people feel even uncomfortable around are counselling sucks since get judged every decision make on wish temporary feeling since ive seen posts people depressed way longer bet almost anything feeling aint temporary whenever talk anyone hear thoughts saying want leave conversation soon possible say face is ampxb ampxb get it know ive done deserve acute pain life sucks whenever put mask pretend im happy get detention fuck life even more,1 +haunting piece discerning horror film fan fall upon gratitude keep freddys jasons film company the haunting the original lyrical truthful stays long night much like terrifying cbs radio mystery theatre shows smart rent,0 +might mentally unstable least sixpack now,0 +gnawing self hating voice brain shut fuck up years damb want love cannot voice god damn loud could die never hear ever god would sweetest release life live everyone expectations attractive so pressure make name myself jesus fuck point need kill outweighs kind sadness friends fam would feel end life worth living even love me fuck fucking tired shit cunt lives brain,1 +happy made memes medium quality one even high quality highest quality one best picture shrek happy,0 +bruh cap fap worthy ashoka hot httpsmyoutubecomwatchvvcpmtzeq,0 +best friend committed redflagi attended funeral last week valentines always aesthetic way best friend peculiar relationship met mental hospital age immediately clicked roomies month time talked thought life death first time felt someone actually understood me also faced crisis moments felt suicidal episode bipolar bpd worst times always others backs year later still best friends still well due mental health decided redflag pact bailed though haha told therapists didnt want die year course help people mental health issues going graduate studying psychology working part time well finally would text check other told feeling down said too supposed meet dinner next day fell sick two days later ended life cried like ive never cried before couldnt register head gone hugs jokes pranks love yous creating trouble you so ive decided going end life going join well finally happy,1 +lost escense me uncle grandfather suffered form brain damage cant live iti took lsd since years live chronic headache causes seclude thats difficult suffer borderline personality since also cant stand alone cant function socially fully uncle heart attack june brain damage due lack oxygen favorite uncle hes stuck ina childlike daze grandfather also godfather apparently favorite nephew began suffering dementia dont know trying work uncle break tears gets depressed hehelped first got ill owe himthough doesnt remember me hope us,1 +doesnt even knowmy sister loves one song logic redflag quietly sing along plays it sings happily taking lightly dont want alive want die today doesnt know mumble words really mean it pains know this,1 +found new low homeless homeless locked keys car morning sure anyone knows small things set called grandmother live got mad needed say sorry waking called girl get extra key witch find know car still locked grandma says selfish care people even though iv helping falls injures past couple months said fuck anger saying done said got leave house homeless felony case pending head going find pills get handle liquor drink till pass eventually die sorry family member sees cannot keep going want die badly sorry adriana could help one could please think fault help,1 +even know write feel sad angry frustrated limitations small brain always stupider group since kid people always made fun intelligence family friends used have teachers pretty much everyone displeasure knowing me naturally converged acknowledgement stupidity i even know sentence makes sense english not sorry poor english actually surprised somehow managed live years hope soon stupidity succeed supposed succeed kill bearer bad genes know stupid like stupid many others things shitty life lived always confront limited intelligence every single time tried something used love history give brain could afford retains informations used love playing piano give brain could afford ability perform polyrhythms used love drawing give perspective complicated brain handled could go long list things tried miserably failed low iq end no learning disability related issues plain simple stupid person pitifully low iq cognitively speaking probably perform forrest gumps level supposed fairly compete normal people cannot everything seems reach even littlest things without thinking require enormous amount cognitive resources still manage fail hell supposed find job stupid acquire skills required it small brain have would hard time simplest job pays minimum wage think life worth living even miraculously manage find job think worth live life stupid enjoy passions cannot understand hell works world living in go money forget unlucky birth accept life complete ignorance frustrated right even hour writing still cannot properly communicate feels stupid probably best way describe it cannot nothing cannot stupid live,1 +found good spot jumptomorrow morning im going go work leave work stuff managers desk without saying work im heading wendys last bite eat bad know itll end stomach contents autopsy report finally found bridge definitely high enough impact kill me cant take life anymore really it,1 +friend going kill himselfhe bullied someone said going kill himself see next day jams bus ticket snap him calls said thats last call im hearing him kept texting sorry dont die isnt listening said fault wtf cope go hell,1 +probably jumping tonightsitting work cant focus anything havent ate anything two days home go to yeah might use rest cash buy drink dont remember want end bad sucks youre fucked way around anything lover family friends one person supported cant keep making one true friend suffer dealt worst possible cards hours im off maybe call you dont know would say miss voice good times together thats now fuck love you fuck much cant even decide want last drink,1 +im horny anymore kidding im even horny,0 +know how whenmy life fallen shit abusive stepmother controls life father took father sister moved thousands miles away me could live mommy best fried im love him nothing done there lives friend friend hates me nothing brings joy day anymore playing saxophone listening favorite bands even giggle innocent year old girl bring smile face anymore small insight list reasons self hatred so ive decided best choice death relieve world one awful soul leave oxygen people actually things lives just best option me ive struggled depression years going therapy taking meds everyday nothing works im hopeless ill pop pills many pills thats taking effect ill slash gash wrist cant fail ill written close friends specific note know much mean me ill truly free ill completed seems be escape thanks reading lt if typos please accept dearest apologies im ipod exactly easy write tears swelled eyes,1 +aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mom recording playing guitar singing lot video kept messing kept messing up last time beautiful learn later phone timer made video three different videos it also cut parts lot parts bro put fricking soul piece ruined r u i n e d im sorry ranting really bad anger issues needed vent thank reading rest well fellow teens,0 +legit question anyone else like sour punch candy dont mean sour patch kids,0 +im suicidal thought keeps popping unbidden headlong story short im low point life right really bad im unemployed im socially isolated stuff friends go weekly board game night still whole unemployment thing getting me sometimes try think resolve it brain comes redflag dismiss it keeps coming up im confident im going eventually turn around meantime something want brain stop doing also wanted vent guess told anyone this theres family history redflag years ago something similar happened mentioned mother immediately called cops come check me awful unnecessary experience,1 +failed adulthoodi diagnosed depression years ago stopped getting help soon after heard mom talking believe mental illness complained much costed already tried killing twice felt like burden feeling ate away me moved parents new city got new job left university thought change independence growth leaving would spark something me did things going well started exercising going out social work momentum decided time go back therapy started saving could afford sessions medication ruined everything got fired accepted elderly womans coupon known valid thought good deed thought helping someone loss prevention found owned thinking honesty best told sorry made things worse let go able find job everything saved therapy disappeared bills came around feel like burden best friends live with roommates leave work party im left alone empty apartment cant afford anymore sit room plan note settle drinking fall asleep want get better want stronger feel slipping more know bounce back keep wanting check somewhere going er telling thoughts always back mind hope itll keep something myself im terrified monetary cost,1 +want alright oncetonight realized little life really meant others went apply make something apply local emt squad turns mistake made year ago may come back say fuck hopes that im feeling really low right really anyone talk would nice person talk right nowfeeling really pathetic right,1 +know write this searched redflag cameup sorry belongsorry english wall post accumulating feeling month feel like breaking apart wish could tell things know would make upset brother older brother suffers chronic depression also suffer it somehow less affected him due work move recently since then able sleep well see brother treated self harm multiple times even disappeared once refuses get treatment one would talk home gone going talk him scared nights days scared wont see anymore next time travel home breaks heart funny always end fighting hates put feet front car hate short temper adjust taste something talk him notices that try hard notices love him admire him wish sick one him always smartest one everybody admires including me always proud big brother instead always dumb stupid useless would waste notices sorry sometimes loose temper him feel lying time fooled mother truly loves us notices mother craves one hugs kisses always mentions it brother notice scared loose you liked called today sorry broke tears least seemed worried liked that truly did told missed you told thing hope miss too wish could speak often invite something like instead feel like keep pushing you cant wait go saturday know would like hugged you want know really miss you crying nights today worst thinking maybe didnt exist would happier die would miss me please brother smile bit want worried much please brother take care yourself,1 +help need someone talk topreface im drunk rambling strangers hoping help wife issues focusing around intimacy very long time now going seven years year relationship used great together sex good life good married still relationship time found cheated times like pussy am kept seeing her eventually got married dec sometimes happens intimacy fallen point think weve actually sex penetrative all take blame here know im testosterone deficient on lower end normal took testosterone therapy helped bit things came along losing job depression etc sort shut down wife telling years get sex feel appreciated relationship leaving mefinding lover end october started relationship someone else rough month her told relationship person id thought like past emotional infidelities come head last weeks read facebook messages know breach trust dispel thoughts infatuated person correct go details worst ive felt entire life wish could make people understand wife saved life bad place came along pulled stupid ass dump since then able give wants ability show love good enough least her cant anymore seeing someone else killing me point redflag table ive thought quite bit would would easier let go happy someone love and show love back tldr wife stepping probably leave me fault id rather end life fall back old self without her dead inside anyway think need help im dying inside rather deal pain id rather dead real,1 +fuck allim ending fucking life im fucking sick tired fucking everything including myself im stupid piece absolute fucking shit everyone shit life fuck bullshit life im fucking done,1 +the merchant venice one shakespeares betterknown plays still regularly performed theatre incredibly however film would seem firstever englishlanguage version made cinema rather television number versions made britain america early days cinema silentsbr br the reason neglect play may connected sensitivities plays alleged antisemitism subject even sensitive since rise power nazis this may explain previous versions made silent era would easier portray shylock straightforward villain would today yet view film antisemitic all remembered shakespeares lifetime settled jewish community england jews expelled edward late th century permitted return time cromwell forty years shakespeares death far know shakespeare never travelled abroad seems quite possible never knew jews personally experienced effects antisemitism first hand play simply jewish question is among things analysis corrosive effects religious prejudice may fact coded examination mutual antipathy catholics protestants tudor england something shakespeare certainly would firsthand experience appeal greater tolerance thembr br then now traditional antisemitic stereotypes always depicted jews avaricious shylocks principal sin avarice were would certainly accepted bassanios offer pay six thousand ducats twice amount borrowed antonio rather shylocks besetting sin anger root anger way fellowjews treated christians venice jews general regarded secondclass citizens jewish moneylenders shylock particular targets abuse even though services provide necessary venetian economy play shows corrupting effects prejudice views sort corrupt christians hold them also corrupt jews suffer abuse shylocks vindictiveness proportion wrongs suffered spitting calling dog antonio behaves like boorish bigot boorishness bigotry generally regarded crimes deserving death penalty moreover shylock seeks revenge antonio merely undoubted wrongs antonio done towards him also wrongs real imaginary suffered hands christian community daughters marriage lorenzo br br it credit films director michael radford star al pacino understand issues pacinos shylock has initially sort angry dignity gradually gives way vindictive rage finally humiliation trial scene portias reasoning pathos see clearly instrument destruction still sympathise him view none pacinos performances seen ever equalled gave first two godfather films not scent woman oscar certainly godfather iii the merchant venice one comes closest benchmarks acting performance stood lynn collinss luminous portia speaking lines great clarity simplicity bringing intelligence resourcefulness make character simply romantic heroine less impressed jeremy ironss antonio seemed passive antonio complex character part loyal friend part melancholy contemplative part religious bigot part enterprising capitalist although irons captured first two aspects difficult envisage antonio either spitting someone different faith hazarding risky trading ventures br br radfords interpretation play attacked film critic daily telegraph who although admired pacinos performance disliked period setting argued shakespeare needs placed contemporary setting relevance modern audience citing recent stage production set action weimar germany would disagree profoundly approach theatre cinema quite different media and striking modernist approaches shakespeare cinema trevor nunns twelfth night comes mind traditionalist approach often best one i preferred example zeffirellis romeo juliet baz luhrmanns idea appreciate shakespeare modern guise sheer intellectual laziness prepared make effort see greatest writer context elizabethan society produced him rather prefer dressed ersatz twentiethcentury manbr br radfords traditional approach enables us appreciate bigotry vindictiveness ageold universal problems also makes visually striking film play scenes set venice characterised turbulent action set portias country house belmont happier peaceful film venetian exterior scenes shot location backdrop misty wintry grey skies similar look achieved dont look now candlelit interiors faces brightly lit dark background reminiscent chiaroscuro effects caravaggio painting suspect quite deliberate caravaggio contemporary shakespeare contrast dark misty venice belmont scenes shot enchanting palladian villa island lake characterised sunshine peaceful moonlight br br this one best shakespeare adaptations recent years intelligent visually attractive look complex play br br a couple errors see black swan water front portias house birds natives australia introduced europe well date film set also portrait portia leaden casket painted style florentine botticelli active century date lynn collins may reminiscent botticelli beauty seems unlikely late th century venetian lady would painted manner late th century florence,0 +see post im mobile feel like people see post recently confirm commenting me,0 +ok im normal whats bought slim jim rly good gonna watch ouran think,0 +hate thinking money make happy always daydreaming independent living alone apartment myself playing videogames work going inviting friends drink sigh course depressed lazy uselesscovid only made worse buy console last year see could give happiness looking for spend money saved prepare pandemic help familyi want take backpack run away start new life know make fari wonder ever something life rot away parents house poor happy,1 +stabbed myselfim tired bullied,1 +someone please help mei saw someone post accountability buddies sounded like good idea anyone wants text snap making sure get stuff done need help getting morning eating enough going job interviews finishing work id really appreciate since feel like im dark place right now,1 +likely best picture many see presented culture real unhollywoodized way must see like indie dont think movie draw indie scene acting top notch character alice portreyed well perfect akwardness movie ahould brought mainstream think would phenominally alice real look element culture seen since go ask alice look untouched hollywood hand movies like show young people things glamorous real compelling liked pieces april love one,0 +heres girlfriend requirements fat ass ,0 +going new school th grade fall terrified get bullied wherever go private school public school international school wherever transfer to matter always isolated labelled loser school bc covid given break school year experiencing graceful one year think could go back enduring high redflag redflag get see faces people treat like trash want to desperately want to thing scares even think bullying ostracizing stop even finish high school clearly problem lies within me cannot fix myself right future looks like life getting stepped used wherever go dreadful would rather live even courage kill myself sad sick living like this sick way out sick people around give shit feelings alli tired alone ridiculous even make effort making people feel better expect cared loved return nothing say sick people caring feelings also care theirs crazy crazy selfish am want deal anymore terrified go back school,1 +keep forgetting stuff ill go get something forget even got get distracted way stupid stuff like password birthday cant remember stuff without reminder either,0 +im really done lifenow understand if any people reading post might wonder happened get point really wanting optout life ill real you whole lot abuse stopped whatever never got help that got extremely suicidal around ish years ago never got help that family kinda toxic sometimes whos isnt nothing extremely terrible like close family member dying anything im pretty lucky way life food roof head mostly supporting family im sure talked would help me etc etc etc im rambling now post sorta last ditch effort something im sure point kinda wanna talk someone dont know who really dont want talk family dont know point feel like im limbo calm storm makes sense dont know end post im gonna remind kind people wash hands,1 +come closer time go going writing letters loved ones parents going write letter record two videos them one video indepth explanation decision brief happy video them happy meaning video hear say love keep hearing voice passed already created emaildrive accounts backed worry losing video written letters close friends lost someone loved would want them goodbye lettersvideos,1 +hard time getting breakup desperately need advicewe together years apart that think often times day every day theres lot going im generally stressed life thinking day often times still dream her know thats kinda normal immediately breakup know normal is weeks maybe couple months sad long term relationship years since ive talked her completely removed reminders life social media mutual friends talk anymore moved new town since then ive dropped school even deleted music listened time life literally nothing nothing even faintly remind them yet cannot get head whats wrong brain im going delete soon lazy make throwaway,1 +know want kill myself nearly kill myselfi feel like im stuck wanting die wanting get close enough come side appreciate life one feels like this,1 +beat rock paper scissors give award accept challenge,0 +saw movie yesterday night one best made tv films ive seen well directed acting superb convincing music good cinematography beautifully shot take hopelessness requiem dream get wasted excellent depiction world drug addiction consequences given open way wich anyone relate to cudos mtv giving us good flick change like crossroads,0 +could wish got memory goldfish cant lifespan one,0 +damn guys want girl cuddle like idc fuck want cuddle told im loved,0 +week weeks month year know last never dose sadness hole come back always dose feel good never stay live fear comes back ifs always back mind hardly enjoy lasts know desire die back sooner later years ago though free first time happened came back realized never probably never be maybe stop fighting it let happened comes back enjoy slim success let take comes back idk many times this maybe best end high note idk know keep going happened till longer take it noting anyone stop it life know normalcy last,1 +opened papers folders today saw drawing hot guy hot girl made remembered last year tryna figure bi bi know figured drawings well anime big part whatever thats it thank reading like ducks,0 +thinking ending it things went bad worse im sure rightim going going detail myself life struggled crippling drug addiction every day feel verge relapse feel like burden around me wanted means disposal little support anyone tried therapy made things worse person ever positive impact life told worthless using me ive got one turn too one would miss me feelings right wanted something go proper life nut everyone around claims i root problems id better dead know right morally reprehensible mean like anyone would really give shit,1 +like forgave her may seen my posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsiaizvpwhat_a_fucking_bitch thats currently front page well heres update it talked little bit stoned hell told either talk work things tell fuck got mad im blocking her honestly thought shed choose blocking much surprise actually talked it like that even though pissed hell forgive her im gonna let live im end friendship thats lasted years dumb shit like that ampxb honestly though think im gonna talk near much while give time cool down shit like again im gonna forgive second time,0 +femalelife sucks u put time female n basicly give ability destroy life internally even damage cause n yrs since still problems letting run behavior ruminating could would did life ran old emotions makes moving hard af,1 +yesterday good day got back town grandmothers funeral ride home airport girlfriend broke me took three days gone move stuff out texting saying excited see got back feels like entire world crashing around nothing it every single abandonment issue worked hard cropping back nowhere go here week ago commented here saying felt low years man wrong much worse before like went zero mach jesus manner minutes even bad ended marriage maybe support system anymore me alone apartment cannot afford own cat loved girlfriend loves mei feel spiraling back headspace teenager wish could say cared honestly not like reconnecting old friend usually pull covers sadness forget ready crawl bed forget everything want crawl bed stay,1 +best friend killed self one felt like shit one could make believe shit would get better shes gone forever never got chance tell love her im sorry posted felt like needed talk someone dont anyone miss mya,0 +dying doesnt seem bad nowat point could kill self one would notice ive gotten place im scared alone might do dissociate days end im slipping back eating disorder therapist closed corona im thinking ending would much easier putting much effort alive im waiting tomorrow night im tired im tired,1 +hes talking girl snapchat hes never met well looks like time move on even kidding even wasnt talking another girl still wouldnt actually attracted me feel like shit,0 +helloeverything life going crap studying entrance exam something always worked hard going terrible bf years best friend move another town randomly may get fired job boss wanted work full time even though stated interview could part time cus studying exami broke well bills pay sucks typically always self motivated determined person bro really fckn tired everything motivation life even want basic human activities anymore mentally tired nothing seems motivate anymore plus point die anyways cannot cannot sad life falling apart want crawl hole forever,1 +background often daydream girl like fun normally impossible things her sharing hobbies her getting married etc since around back then subjects fantastical like superhero etc mention transient like start time recently included feeling good enough her deserves better killing myselfor attempting to discovering aftermath sort stuff healthier version us growing old together far way insanity started getting depressed daydreams,1 +night crying reason fuck wish numbness would come back need something do cannot stop crying silent want damned speech fault expected this know shit already practically worn trench mind point push become alcoholic inevitability pointand little condescending spats pointed accusiations laughs damned crybaby like every emotion tears smiles whatnotplease want emptiness back least safer alternatives want little robot want be get till old enough die mysterious circumstances accident whichever comes first care emptiness nice,1 +wait stop scrolling wanted ask doing,0 +apparently baddest chick liked got second baddest suck cus oml a chance well talk bit maybe gotta chance still,0 +ueverbodykeepsayin friend ueverybodykeepsayin recently made post touching titties first time trying make look like pervert full story girl friend playing game wherever touched body would touch back hers playing ueverybodykeepsayin watching reason slightly squeezed breasts right first like im going back ueverybodykeepsayin grabbed hand almost made touch breasts im pretty sure wasnt actually going make plus also pulling back hand wouldnt let go looked said ill let lol second slightly squeezed boob slightly wasnt full squeeze ueverybodykeepsayin made post made look like pervert wanted let u guys know happend,0 +want girlfriend care yk secks would cool want someone spoil way to idk dont ,0 +reminder celebrating columbus day fuck columbus heres short list things columbus done he kidnapped gave carib woman crewmate rape a member crew cut native american peoples ears shock others submission columbus nothing he kidnapped enslaved people island hispaniola he forced native people look collect gold him otherwise would executed after taking island natives survived he sold multiple girls ages sex slavery after publicly beheading native american people left tied thanks coming ted talk celebrating columbus,0 +mods rredflag watch would possible implement automated comment reply every post providing telephone number redflag prevention hot line im currently viewing sub phone im assuming support information listed sidebar something cant see phone browsing sub cant help notice upvotescomments posts receive even looking new posts im thinking proactively offering information post directly may help prevention trying help theres anything else do please let know,1 +sure even posting here redflag recently entered mind living alone first time miles anyone cares mei sure intend achieve writing lonely hell redflag crossed mind tonight want feel way,1 +welp text post weekend yet tomorrow yes know going thursday dang week gone slow,0 +suicidal thoughtsi kind hate posting here ive done makes feel kind bad hate thought strangers worrying dumbass dont really anyone talk kinda stuff with would look crazy saying im thinking killing anyone kind hard say tbh hold in last night considered taking life hours morning walking around town trying take mind things calm down eventually went home slept woke felt degraded burst tears stayed bed day life get wanted curl ball deal anything feel like tonights gonna long night mind friend im absolutely exhausted ive sleeping hours every night week sometimes sleep feel like actual shit got much mind last months fuckin beyond stressed sucking life feel like im losing mind sometimes im trying good get better every day gets harder harder cope cant seem pull im scared started months ago odd thought killing sometimes never considered actually it gotten point think every single day sometimes cant think way this im desperate stop hurting constantly debilitating feel trapped lie awake alot nights contemplating quick get with always end thinking people care leaving behind tell one day it really want die literally know else im agony every day want stop god id anything want life back wanna feel excited live again,1 +rant post much want vote hell comment frustrations it let anger gets bad,0 +feel like this assaulted kid redflag anythingso fuck dysphoria debilitating every day want get bed less less knowing people see girl even want die want live want thrive minister love others want man life worth living way now fucking hate fact religion cannot ever anything many people tried convince bible condemn transgender people trans christian fuck that man literally evidence people cherry picking parts bible support want do time wish god would come sky one second tell me hey okay this thinks choice except keep living woman id rather kill myselfi plan cut enough bleed death tomorrow work going take nice peaceful sit railroad outside house wait end want live like anymore gender dysphoria fucking unfair,1 +bela lugosi appeared several low budget chillers monogram studios s corpse vanishes one better onesbr br bela plays mad scientist kidnaps young brides kills extracts fluid bodies keep ageing wife looking young reporter doctor stay night home discover responsible brides deaths following morning report murders police mad scientist shot drops dead shortly afterwardsbr br you got almost everything movie scientists assistants consist old hag hunchback dwarf her sons thunderstorm spooky passages belas house bela wife find sleep better coffins rather beds moviebr br the corpse vanishes worth look especially bela lugosi fans great funbr br rating stars ,0 +whats something friend teenager would appreciate much little details matters whats something like little friendly gesture would appreciate much maybe sending good morning amp night messages every day buying flowers listening music together maybe compliments friend mentioning much amazing are enjoying jokes amp funny moments crying going hard time edit mean people friendship like friends bestie friends edit got notification previous post removed reason lol make new one again,0 +fucking mistakei feel like complete dumbass know depressed something fucked head say shit like want keep messed time ive feeling way since feel like see therapist something time dont horrible thoughts want kill catch say want im normal understand myself want die want commit redflag hate living cry everyday alive much hate life find joy anything go crazy punch myself hit objects say crazy see crazy get get help need mean least meds help want go record want lose job mental illness stupid going undiagnosed getting help cut myself bruise myself make throw up binge eat problems want anyone know cant normal want normal again,1 +know take anymorei moved large city small city lived midwest nothing gone right since ive moved here found partner cheated me lost money job thankfully partner feels guilty hes let live apartment without contribution part hardly get bed havent met single person since ive moved here ive gained lbs ptsd managed therapy medication havent found therapist psychiatrist ive never poor ive never inconsolably depressed ive never lonely spend hrs day myself think killing constantly cant move back nowhere else go dont know do thing is nothing new ive spent life emotional pain therapy works little bit meds dull pain still spend days stuck bed still cry time even im best im waiting break again life maintenance hobbies anymore hardly read book lost friends traumatic experience ive labeled liar peers moved get away experience nothing hold here exist head think dying time first time wanted kill years old want thoughts stop want hobbies dreams goals years since ive felt true happiness every day get closer closer feel inevitable end think killing myself think beautiful would make it would turn ritual even something end life least last moments would enjoyable im getting better im old live like anymore,1 +want life body anymore broken mentally physically,1 +wrote good morning message went sleep last night ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh girl man,0 +bad thing online exams lot good things online exam bad thing thst dont get much satisfaction exam streesful regular school exams idk may emotionless,0 +got car accident march fault dealing lot repercussions currently like money take care it car got totalled process person ended dent feel like lightweight entire life dad died lung cancer days th birthday struggled addiction never close lived mom turned also struggled addiction lead leaving talking years ended living year boyfriend moved homeless living motel month since last contacted fine desire talk anyone care actions affect people idk dealing lot long time childhood trauma adult life garbage kind want give guess support besides boyfriend thankful for friend also thankful for think made life think ever be know could lot worse too try think struggles end world also hard fuck let everything slide past long mindset want goddamn compassion sort break shit put with thought trying good person good things following moral code despite growing around dysfunctional adults would give sort good karma not makes feel little better see people happy that idk thanks reading vent post hope lives get easier too life lame,1 +film th century italian artists one artist particular woman artemisia unheard profession females time dared paint male nude detailing unique musculaturebr br the camera work principally indoors artists mainly worked great shots closeups candle light suggest beautiful work classical painters fascinating watch painters students supported elaborate scaffolding brushing details religious frescoes surprising artistic elements film costumesfaces makeup quite superbly authentic italian churches preserved details frescoes centuries beautiful artemisia urged father study great florentine artist tassi become expert art perspective landscape painting something new unsuspecting artemisia introduced new techniques painting posing her tassi violently rapes her father outraged court proceedings followbr br this romantic drama fairly simple story unsatisfactory ending outstanding feature film artistic presentation attention detail scenes women running across field wind billowing voluminous clothing add wonderful effectsbr br artemisia says paints please herself father paints please others film please most think,0 +really know im meant type hereim sorry really know im meant say really wanted somebody talk to uh six months ago friend passed away ive trying really hard make new friends people seem like me ive always sorta depressed never bad know im meant anymore cant talk family anymore cant remember last time went whole day without little panic attack future im starting make really sick anyway thanks letting tell somebody,1 +life death really bad year me allergy broke nowhere leaving k bill er surgery tim got got sent icu crashed car stupid way got really bad haircut hair growth slowing about recede renewal visa marriage falling apart anxiety depression insomnia stress cant believe im still here ive suicidal thoughts around years ago learned could deported away family things actually go wrong started saving back then sometimes friends family would think im cheap frugal im actually saving coffin burial parents worry costs clean room lot do might think ill run things time go every time renewal visa date comes up would stop seeing friends get denied commit redflag would make easier watch go away used scared want right im going hell made excuses left right move forward nowadays feel scared anymore actually worries whats best way it gun hang jump something would end quick remedy friends nowadays everybodys busy work dayoffs matching everybody close friends mia busy relationships school whatnot group changed met new people connect feel place first time life feel alone im living like last year go every weekends ask friends lot usually hangout invite anymore thats ok im trying new things soon ill sign organ donor somehow could still use people want live ive saved enough money burial support siblings college ive distanced self friends quite bit im almost done bucket list thing done clean room im almost ive always wanted tell someone im scared theyll probably think im asking attention overreacting talk anyone nobody knows give single hint anyone feel way look happy whenever see friends family thats time feel something rest blank page life probably shittiest game ive ever played might game ill never get finish visa gets denied year guess thats im exhausted,1 +single sad hello wondering site sub reddit people like me even single people place discord talk people ,0 +listening number victory royale hours loop even like fortnite,0 +another fight wife feel worthless hopelessshe complaining earlier problem work always paint villain know much blame anyway started talking loudly problem kindly told calm down tell though her told getting worked up making mountain mole hill told simply wanted relax big mistake alcohol came home work telling calm caused explosion size atomic bomb badgers badgers back do wants doormat say yes dear like spineless jellyfish vowed got married make happy talks like belittle feel worthless guess im going make happy relieve burden me maybe carry decision end life maybe soon know make happy end pain cant talk her im alone know do im lost wish saw hurts me ive said previous posts sex give affection tied job hates takes me might add im punching bag go away one less problem has maybe it know,1 +recovery much harder depression itselfhello ive never made reddit post probably never this thought share start please read currently bad place writing good me may bad you today months anniversary redflag attempt context high school girl los angeles struggled lack self worth thoughts redflag since maybe th th grade mother father older sister always normal loving people me albeit show strange ways were east asian family love sense tough love makes sense anyways first time seriously considered killing th grade honestly remember exact details think got bad grade report card day mom came room started crying screaming saying know me keep mind sister straight student throughout high school getting b foreign parents long ago specifically remember day mom telling would rather kill live me so next three years continued spiraling chasm depression anxiety never told anybody middle school depression considered sin reason continued fights parents constantly depression mostly contained seriously consider ending life high school came along mother wanted attend private school district sake better education catholic allgirls school knew nobody there make matters worse known bisexual since remember my parents know make matters even more worse grandma hospitalized time best friendneighbors house burnt down yeah life wreck get whole lot worse though back middle school particularly enjoy going class liked seeing friends learning new things different girls private school exclusive demeaning around good people every day felt like spirit getting crushed entered campus know sound dramatic go place hate entire hours day takes toll mental health started relapsing selfharming ways first thoughts insomnia sleeping every night want wake next morning months school something happened girls feel uncomfortable talking even strangers internet result events seriously considering ending life point decided tell parents began mom traditionalminded asian is immediately told suck stop white people problems yeah problems seem minor compared scale world upper middle class family lives suburban neighborhood privileges things many people work hard whole lives still get life good but time blinded depression failed see things one track mindset set killing myself fact parents take seriously made even sure life worthless depressed crying every day school getting anything accomplished sisters intervention made end all convinced go see therapist talked longrepressed issues parents fix things start one day mom called downstairs sat immediately started sobbing telling much loved me sorry see upset before told could go back old school next year old friends were touched wet cheek realized crying too parents never close seeing like completely shell shocked me asked promise never kill myself did on drove school every day be strong months summer would tell left car grueling school year made alive back old school plenty friends much better thanks therapy still get depressed often think redflag time morning dad got fight small one got pretty quickly think much it walked room couple hours later started crying apologizing me told loved much never wanted see upset completely torn never seen dad cry before back went horrible school interact time kept dark regarding mental health never saw express emotion toward me now eyes red tear streaks going face understand upset something small insignificant fight tons past every little thing hit mehe knew knew redflag attempt knew everything happened last year time knew thought fault letting get bad parents thought fault whole time obsessed horrible felt acknowledge pain parents must felt imagine parents must felt raising loving child tell want die must worst feeling world knowing close losing child caught emotions time deep depression realize much loved me much pain would cause actually succeeded killing myself parents never argue anymore never get fights theyre scared spiral again might lead permanent decisions time weird happy fight anymore find missing times would get mad trivial things would forget within hour now whenever seem upset immediately start overly kind sympathetic think reason hurts much know reason become way selfish trying kill myself could realize much would hurt around me already hurt parents much feel like ive broke them know continue here mind clearer realizing damage done previously could see feel guilty even thinking killing myself knowing pain would transferred family thought going depression hardest part turns out recovering infinitely harder read way endi guess one thing say theres always somebody loves cares deeply many wonderful things life celebrate people want celebrate you depression bitch gets way that fight it,1 +uh weirdo here just help pleasei actually feel suicidal many people see subreddit but still feel quite lot like it like sure im smarter average yet always get trouble people myself mostly last one tbh like dead suffer anxiety depression hiperactivity matter do always feel like wrong even worth it things matter point part social anxiety think effect redflag would cause people surround me parents little sister girlfriend biggest part feel like everything would better dead even causing death would cause trouble people something cant bear think know theres something worth living everything else makes useless,1 +killing im manfuck man fuck women assuming life better less difficult theirs feminism big croc shit help upper middle class white women pretend gives fuck others actually anything it oh poor white trash guy life must easy need college help job help mental help dare try seek mens health services anything any fuck this,1 +im totally agree garryjohal singapores comments film quotation yes nonsingaporeans cant see whats big deal film references film fly right head foreign viewers mostly singaporeans ones would actually get it still quite truth malaysianchinese get it although speak hokkien similar problems malaysia too know really hard understand accept reality definitely no real story pleased see film outside malaysia definitely banned malaysia too means either get illegal copied vcds dvds hope someone kind enough share internet another violent teen drama portrays reality exists singapore and malaysia too interesting way sadhumour little sad know film got cuts censorship waste,0 +girls lose gain scientific name sex,0 +top successful communist countries thanks reading till end flaps away,0 +need helpso laying bed agreeing initial posts reasons people want kill themselves cant help think would like go it lately many thoughts ending life dont like life headed know things fix it opinion itd like plugging flat tire see point living life weekends speak trading life money something want years ultimately die take short cut end avoid dissapointment look forward go downhill slope going life thing holding back parents love them love me relationship father nearly nonexistant argue exchange words thats it mother extreemly close one holding back really want keep typing stop here long story short sick life want end it edit im going try get sleep thanks,1 +need helpi want die im miserable parents know choose ignore instead taking see psychiatrist think im young legally get prescription myself think redflag every day imagining id it thing kept alive last week fact promised therapist parents get psychiatrist theyre pretending issue please help,1 +im going hours get worki couldnt get much sleep thing going head wanna die wanna die wanna die over could succeeded six redflag attempts ive made past year,1 +redflag basically way go memy family bullying day long failure school im sick often job either redflag someday living bridge need think way dont damage things want destroy worthless thing room pc manga actually value unlike,1 +getting work film made back summer shot partly biltmore estate asheville nc remaining parts winstonsalem massive offices rj reynolds used several office scenes places around beautiful city know tulip capital world winstonsalem enjoyed work although exceedingly hard work building sets like golf mexico renee russo jim belushi went date also big hand decorating bar larry encounters magical bartender mr destiny tacked pics wall sports heroes decorated phone booth larry makes phone call cab even put mothers photo eye level could freeze frame show watched it remember dyeing grass old house green dye first soddedit new house new development guess leased moviethen cut newly laid sod make look niceman hard far movie made idea would like seeing fell love really tells story what if good ever seen it including great wonderful life cried many timesbr br i cant count got meet wonderful actor michael caine shooting scenes old minor league ballpark larrys boyhood scenes played replayed remember done take heading back trailer ran asked picture quite amiable said why not good guy really natural forceful actor cant say jim belushihe full himself smoking big cuban cigars talking loudly sobr br everyone earshot could hear every word career never take decent tv career recently would say watch movie ever get chance wonderful really heartfelt real feel larrys pain enters new world mr destiny gives hitting homer wants badly people believe bad guy everyone thinks is think belongs nuthouse eventually wins people wants real life back badly especially wonderful wife played beautifully linda hamiltonand wants dog back see it,0 + years old live texas honestly wanting end since every attempt take everything never goes expected want selfish family feel like one wants see succeed mom talk happy building dream family talk siblings care showed actions situations put in grandparents cars let drive one get job also make music happy place still know do alone whole life point hurts ever nothing nothing live thing want baby sister great life ill become famous kill better way vent maybe someone try bring will maybe need friends cannot trust anyone fucked many times maybe meant alone need lovesomeone talk,1 +cant keep going world like oneim starting create actual redflag plan lot strong sedativeheartrate medicines im going end someday soon really reason keep going nobody help listen problems systems place try keep people healthy turning down im going take medicine tonight go sleep forever,1 +dna weird year old sister may already symptoms ptsd mom it signs love horror ask ptsd born sister got mom born,0 +bruh parents crazy say disintegration even cures best album like wtf,0 +true story walked bathroom boys talking issues communism,0 +theres nothing much story young woman steals money dreary vermont supermarket works decides run away florida dreams attending school friend julie encounters odd couple highway remember elderly couple rosemarys baby idea two like bill comical face retired army sandra ex stripper become truckstop whore although find once theyre affectionate helpful full common sensebr br they less adopt girl alice promise give ride elaborate rv although driving directly floridabr br this film could gone onehundredpercent wrong film makers turn elderly couple personification evil would take virginal alice handcuffed bed whatever sell body greaseball driver lot money likes rough sex alice would heck time escaping lots aborted attempts final shootout but no couple really pretty nice alice far virginal alice overhears sandra customer asks business tries turn trick own bill prevents anything happening insists job right going all talk it guide herbr br alice makes several hundred dollars several hundred dollars met couple bill sandra keep money safe customers going find it alice misunderstands find whoring pleasant work thinks shell never paid every time asks dropped off sandra responds with what here honey middle nowhere however talked handing gun sandra couple give money wants rather lovingly release continue trip floridabr br you know found tragic moment film nothing prostitution thievery alice expecting room friend julie arrives miami julie legitimate student alice calls friend someplace alabama assure way late julie hesitates says well mother think room us tell truth roommate cool either invited down sure thought like visit week something go back milford alice long silence alice hangs upbr br only one shot fired a white frames film one hit tears appear once nobody slugs anybody else car explodes fireball cop chases interstatebr br the direction occasionally clumsy much crosscutting sandra trying disarm alice alices hand holding wobbling pistol hardly musical score brief male female nudity awkward probably supposed be alice unattractive babalicious either sports asiatic eyes kind robust version molly parker cinematography looks cheap colors washed out direction straightforward narrative illuminating flashbacks nothing wasted evidently shot around danbury connecticut city sticks mind drove one floods remember cars caked film mud way door handlesbr br i know exactly alice found i dread even thinking answer riddle she found herself acting bad all judith ivey better that definitely worth seeing quiet orderly film treats audience like adults,0 +im losti friends hobbies life experience outside family know talk people know interact people anxiety bad days even leave apartment unless work ex left said know how person need help guess know point day goes fantasize jumping bridge cross get work last ditch effort,1 +awkward cousins play fun nieces nephews fine take care work well little kids,0 +diagnosed one point another life first chronic manic yes disorder mood yea want die going kill myself might accidentally mental breakdown twice day consider it yes stopped living heart attacksseizures overdosing nah manic chronic depression,1 +wrong menoone likes menobody wants talk menobodyis emotionless face noone want friends meeveryone wants get far away possibleevery day try live people make think end it ive alone since birth,1 +asking help im getting pretty bored playing exact games again mainly battlefield mans sky dead cells anybody suggestions xbox game thats decent,0 +truly terrific touching film female melodrama finest lot comedy great dialogue characters writing woman relate story classic love mr right interest guy seems completely wrong comes along fall headoverheels love course simplistic characters real performances perfect movie hilarious well every scene skewers society id recommend film anyone loves wellwritten screenplay humor melodrama relate every character plot moves unexpected directions great underrated movie,0 +gem movie people like fun quirky premises love history traditions scifi classic hollywood movies alien martian crew embodiment classic scifi character member hollywood royalty pure pleasure watching bounce residents big bean,0 +listened fucked album like fun fucked like fucked fun,0 +love sarah plain tallwinters end good movie tells hardships living farmi live farm know like hardshipsbr br i love setting kansas beautiful place favorite country star kansas love country kansas beautiful would love live kansasbr br sarah plain tallwinters end think love story love love stories fun watch like watch nice watch people fall love falling love hard people think ive fallen love once sarah plain tall winters end favorite love story,0 +film sat tivo weeks watched it dreaded selfindulgent yuppie flick relationships gone bad wrong engrossing excursion screwedup libidos new yorkersbr br the format max ophuls la ronde based play arthur schnitzler given inspired by credit starts one person prostitute standing street corner brooklyn picked home contractor sex hood car cant come refuses pay her hes peeing answers cell phone takes message runs away keysbr br then story switches contractor pays professional call rich bored new york woman plays aroused pulls away tells desperate unhappy is tells beautiful is lucky leaving asks would sex her sits top him bounces down time comes leavesbr br the woman husband throw dinner party trendy friends hubby robert talking business wife ellen bored switches subject sex often men women think it husband switches conversation desert later guests leave ellen tries entice robert sex robert wants none it puts jazz record ellen turns radio robert turns music ellen turns tv robert turns another tv cacophony ensues ellen goes roof robert joins her ellen confesses needs experience men men robert robert says needs experience menbr br we next follow robert visits artist martin played steve buscemi wish buscemi could roles like this sexy smart totally desirable guy robert praises martins work much deserves promises get show martin excited turns robert speaking groin mating dance robert tries kiss martin lips martin pulls back saying gay robert asserts hes gay either martin scoffs admit artworks bad robert leave martin allows robert kiss him make out robert goes martinbr br next follow martin prepares art show manhattan gallery smitten receptionist anna played rosario dawson i cut review keep words make love otherbr br we next follow anna sitting lunch stand boyfriend nick adrian grenier enters bearing flowers cold toward him tries figure why coaxes information sex someone san francisco coaxes fact stayed exgf san francisco sex her latter revelation turns lie two make luncheonette decides must break up nick heartbrokenbr br and follow nick confesses troubles older woman meets park bench joey carol kane joey sort weird childlike good audience nick needs sympathetic ear two go coney island night look stars nick falls joeys spell despite age difference them go back joeys apartment nick gradually realizes sex crazy old woman top him want let go manages escapebr br this is way best carol kane role since played latkes wife taxi joeys phone rings man calling psychic friends network joey one psychic friends although still hurting nick gradually gets psychic shtick man office late night wants phone sex her although joeys business joey goes along coaxes man come wants keep talking although man want get phone finds embezzled lot money company found tomorrow life ruined joey realizes man going commit suicide tries make believe friend cares him care himbr br but man packs gun briefcase goes seek prostitute brooklyn waterfront come back beginning prostitute started la ronde wants give cash kill him tried kill himself it prostitute want it insists holding hand holding gun inside mouth telling aim eventually gun goes off see prostitute walking street arriving corner normally business contractor pay earlier movie drives up rolls window look other end,0 +life overi thought could get past everything thats fucking life even happy days brief almost cant remember anymore miscarried baby theyre gone really nothing live anymore ive successfully made partner hate give back things money owe him get plan trying return work depression long time worked dunno im anymore gonna best everyone go cant handle pain anymore cant handle anything anymore meant be thanks reddit giving odd chuckle there people meant though,1 +please helpi genuinely want kill tonight desperately need someone talk yeah friends dont want seeing like this dont want hurt ones love im hopeless exhausted lifeless cannot see future dont even care anymore ive sabotaged everything good life boyfriend doesnt deserve this dont know do dont strength stay alive anymore commit psych ward honestly think might kill tonight,1 +feeling better commiserating alli know why spending time among people understand feel kind uplifting im currently working certification basically pages work left wonder ill able finish deadline ill fail again therapy tomorrow least im forced brush teeth go outside,1 +want rest head lap fade awayi dont want anymore came back many years gave feeling hope that maybe remembered much loved wanted back true happy ive never since left told broke growing bond sorry sorry sorry full regret every second years endured without you pain came back eased mind fade nothingness ruined know future us cant take anymore painful know cause meant meant life years alone told everything afraid die alone could rest head lap fade away id die way never alive happy,1 +fed everythingi pre defense monday presented research paper get ba degree defense academic advisor said everything fine members committee criticise me worry presented research committee member knows quite lot general area research though specific topic said revise paper apparently got things wrong point sent parts research academic advisor never mentioned things committee member criticised might postpone ba defense though allowed defend it cant stop thinking fault though tried really hard also feel bad ill tell relatives manage graduate year know able stand such smart girl pity comments similar thing happened last year worked hard still rewrite research im good nothing really studied hard though ive started correcting research result still good enough cant go like that,1 +passparagraphs may may interconnected point living die end mean happiness feel point reason see everything waste time little things like playing game whats point ill eventually grow tired anyway another thing ive come realize either kill myself somethingsomeone kill end thought amazing like kind control life life may shitty this power depressed even remotely sad happy enjoying life yeah laugh feel happy something bummed feel sad temporary emotions define entirely feel floating know feel it enter regression mean mentality which got show cant remember anymore basically regression mean means matter bad good things get always return center everything always come back neutral mind always come back whats point everything never constant w h h e p n t feeling sad itll pass feeling happy itll pass feeling depressed might take long itll pass feeling like life best itll pass it will pass end it,1 +whats one website objective information redflag methodsi found ago im looking again like im suicidal wanna read again,1 +arkansas bill passed incredible victory,0 +want play video games again want get new pc shit prob wait till get ,0 +lets goooooooo every single one singles placement matches rocket league im platinum for know rocket league car soccer free epic games store wanna play really good game thanks listening celebration stay safe goodbye,0 +id really grateful feedback please idea behind articles helpful find homepage series url ill post article theyre published someone finding useful looking forward constructive feedback,1 +m anyone wanna talk like shoot dm anyone wanna meet new people,0 +lost everything hadi know anymore,1 +told one goddamned person depression everyone mother wants check me want centre attention makes feel selfish leave alone trust anyone,1 +general kenobi hello first one comment get award ive never gotten one even though everyones saying getting one every week,0 +tiredmy partner trying best make feel better took long fill something school owe money cant blame anyone just genuinely think cant get job think could handle im scared leave house im unemployed school family also unemployed good one suppose go somewhere high like seven selling nudes easy nothing me good quality attractive features im charasmatic enough use able think right anything everything went shit want give think would kill partner tries take care dumb bipolar suicidal self sit room day alone day day im tired im lonely im trying find good way go wrong wish could go back normal,1 +gramps im visiting grandpa week wife my grandmother passed away around year ago lives alone old dog worst fear going pass away old age alone sweet cant stop dreading it,0 +cant stand aloneive feeling lonely lately really know do sexually abused child depressed cutting close years though past months ive therapy well mental hospital half year helped lot left college last fall things going downhill ever since ive always big family alone apartment really difficult me ive slept floor beside pc past weeks noise blinking makes feel relieved less alone tried moving back bed twice times ive anxiety attacks panicked cant stay weekends thought alone long absolutely terrifying me visit parents id like get another pet my dog staying parents fear able properly care it additionally lend parents money even took loan promised itd weeks turns itll take longer borrow made rent otherwise made really angry much fact make it still said theyd pay well rent due i already paid then im trying really hard get life control ive way worse ive genuinely happy little im point ask really worth overall pretty good perspective im getting rich means usually enough cover bases apartment study field im interested top university found things enjoy doing thats quite improvement able get morning needing hurt every day still feel like riding stupid rollercoaster cant seem get stop go here ive considered going back therapy think im worth time mean ive much worse think could handle little depressed angry sometimes without selfdestructive suicidal always go kind rage makes feel terribly helpless and want walk traffic _ anyone that specifically alone thing able get feelings level cope with phew feel lot better already writing this took quite time sorry little incoherent thank anyone took time read d edit jesus thats horrible wall text ill try make little readable s edit found another thing im really bad at formatting d think id hard ,1 +unique scifi animated film frankly love uniqueness matter way tends be better worse french film quite interesting watch technique part innovatory like waking life recently watchedbr br it took quite long time get used blackwhite style eventually love it sketchlike images really fancy contracted future world symbol human races final destination adore muchbr br the whole plot fine scifi intriguing ok like hollywoods products giant conspiracy humans eternity little bit clich twisted ending convincing development plain insipid whole movie longbr br so think im love style film shows others goodbr br about eternity life think people come unanimousness want eternity demolishes meaning life treasure lives limited meaningful everyone live forever thus world world become disaster chaos leaving someone love hard heartbreaking thats also way show lives genuine emotion fulfills ones life make world colorful lively,0 +uploaded song spotify services hello fellow teenagers neri here ive composing songs since april first time release services fun hope like it song kissing night think it spotifyhttpsopenspotifycomtrackflnlthiwfpionmshqsiytxjseqtteaokrxsfyg apple musichttpsmusicapplecommxalbumkissinginthenighti youtube musichttpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvjehfcsfaaampfeatureshare tidalhttpstidalcomtrack,0 +ya hablado un poco de esto con mi madre pero siento como que piensa que es mentira que encuentro mal por otro motivo que invento esto como excusapongo contexto tengo aos tengo altas capacidades superdotado desde muy pequeo estado interesado por la ciencia sobretodo la electrnica siempre sido raro distinto aunque mis padres lo nieguen en el colegio el instituto siempre sacado muy buenas notas sin penas esfuerzo los profesores excepto dos profesoras prcticamente ignoran les importa lo que haga en sus clases mientras saque nueves dieces vivo en un pueblo de menos de k habitantes soy la nica persona de mi edad que tiene estos gustos desde que tengo aos estado solo porque nadie ms sabe nada sobre lo que hago mis padres hace aos que felicitan por lo que consigo hacer mi padre la mayora de las veces que haciendo algo en vez de felicitarme decide buscar los errores de lo que hecho al menos cuando entenda lo que haca ahora entiende nada decide por preguntarmeme siento solo puedo comoratir con nadie una de mis grandes pasiones y adems cuando era pequeo hubo un momento en el que recuerdo que cambi pase de ser un nio risueo uno serio desde entonces la mayora del tiempo sido serio con la gente con la que tengo mucha confianza eso ha hecho ganarme ms de un comentario diciendo que tengo sentimientos que exclullan mucha gente tiene una imagen de mi que es realmi grupo de amigas actual suele avisarme para salir por las noches pueden que se hable por un grupo pero nunca quedamos una hora exacta mi avisan de cuando salen solo hay una persona que siente cuenta conmigo para todo que avisa gracias ella es que sigo levantadome gracias ella est noche cortadoun poco largo gusta como explicado pero que ms da un desconocido le va importar mi vida sorry posting spanish wanted relieve,1 +reviewing every dutch pat mat episode special edition repost cuz forgot first wont read entire post made pat mat video game avalible anymore steam tags are cold war illuminati sexual content nudity either know get game steam key something sort tell me want see tags accurate also put bottom done time two you might even today feel like it daily episode plot many books make bookcase stuff happens too also blueprints nuclear bomb idk why things nice music episde three exactly k views conclusion quite good episode tags correct want find pat mat game anyone knows get please tell me score episode plot fix vacuum cleaner move carpet things swear lot jesus godverderrie odd tv show time although even old given voices shown netherlands s conclusion slow episode much happened quite boring tbh score important stuff again made pat mat video game avalible anymore steam tags are cold war illuminati sexual content nudity either know get game steam key something sort tell me want see tags accurate edit even intriegued ive seen metacritic user review here is rickrollhttpswwwmetacriticcomgamepcpatmat spoiler alert particularly enjoyed level horses angry feminist muslims must game anyone likes good games would say game easily par best games recent times like perhaps civilization spare copy civilization id glady swap pat amp mat said,0 +cutting substituteif cut think safer alternative would using comb might sound dumb think works safer,1 +m end worth anything anyoneyes crying anyone hear me anyone exist there ive end rope before new im married kids etc externally many think great marriage people see nonstop fighting got hr fight nothing new here nothing shell person dead inside want love loved bc live expectation screw time nothing tried leave goodness heavens rained upon me got kids involved screaming yelling almost drove car road way work morning canr stop thinking it hate passion driving force am course weakness right makes problems fighting hurts her hurts me hurts kids control around them cant leave option best option accidental death source problems gone peace reign insurance cover bit everyone move support friends church much better without there may say kids need dad right scenario means contention fights big problems without me peace time morn maybe life goes peaceful without me sure of anyway anyone cares willing chat need somethibg idea what lost wandering around anyone care person takes life insignificant one brings pain ok sort rambling thinking straight phone curious anyone talk text at ,1 +im looking someone play csgo me im voice still high think im pretty nice would amazing could find someone nice age play csgo with,0 +im anxious moving florida feel like im going lose friends dad lost job department shut due pandemic got new one florida right im arizona friend group years im freshmen high school really dont want leave friends weve gone hell together cant think living without them dont know tell moving summer dont know going forward make sure dont forget them,0 +mf beans beans,0 +needing help badly whats voluntary commitment likeim pretty bad off tell like id committed myself especially insight trans well,1 +im still single christmas anything ive gotten used empty void heart,0 +need ventto start im years old id grade severely depressed started guess family owned restaurant brother always helping step dad hired apprenticejosh young time main part josh feel like apprentice felt like family used take driving would always let play phone work boring me attending first year highschool time woke one morning parents tears eyes tell josh involved traffic accident killed absolutely destroyed me role model one closest friends happened noticed family close more step dad got increasingly quieter life consisted school restaurant want give whole sap story wanted end tried times decided talk somebody get help worked briefly much shitfest last two years ive living states capitol im looking work able hold stable job whole time currently unemployed almost months im medication seem work either soon course doctor says im fine get feels back want pill morning decide im going feel today destined keep eating ssris hopeful theyll work thing keeping girlfriend people considered best friends years never talk me people ive made friends same feel like inconvenience really ill go way see people things rarely mutual like that idea fuck want life used ambitions goals determination feel empty girlfriend working moment get slum applying countless jobs reply you unsuccessful remember teenager made pact kill late s hint successful future recently ive fantasizing killing driving highway running barrier kms hour would trick fantasies becoming frequent thing im certain girlfriend person keeping right now,1 +whats favorite food im tryna catch jewish poo guy,0 +embarrassing posts moms facebook account guys mother added teacher respect most best teacher ever had facebook mother posts lot unironic rimandthisisdeep shit mention old embarrassing pictures me fuck always mind grab phone block specific teacher lazy it start calling asshole trust me know much pictures embarrassing much bothering making uncomfortable help,0 +wont post thr black chapter wont post im thinking whats gonna happen next chapter idea ill post,0 +computer teacher told us everyone internet provider ip adress even first time said something like angry school hiring anyone find top private granted india private cost arm leg still fuck ,0 +julie brown hilariously demolishes madonnas attempt rockumentary gut ripping humor truly original catchy songs rival madonnas own cinematography sets top notchbr br kathy griffin chris elliott offer injections comedy enhances compliments film appearances bobcat goldthwait wink martindale themselves added bonusbr br its hard tell browns performance meant insult playfully tease madonna though hardly think material girl would find humor itbr br my favorite line why come to phillipines eat dog im vegetarian,0 +love moms like ill use pronouns asked use never fucking uses told mom use hehim pronouns talking said yeah thats ok ill really doesnt like,0 +need relationship advice teens bf dating couple months now getting choppy reached peak hours ago reinforced love eachother ect however admits toxic good relationships im willing stick out declared aromantic says friends benefitslove eachother also wants break sex traumatic past fine said could flirt even date in case people broke me which lot loyalty although assures loves much love him know hes pan btw,0 +god great hot wear pants unless goes freezing love it everyone calls crazy really im evolved,0 +tried last week think im gonna try tonightfuck it life going where fucked everything up girlfriend years dumped me manipulated back dump again fuck me fuck life hate everything always have whats point anymore ive got full bottle cough syrup next might start chuggin whats stopping me sure hell life sure hell family friends idea whats going head im god damn closed emotionally one actually cares me maybe someone im gone,1 +robert altman favorite american director must admit enjoyed films usually scorned quintet giving pleasure seeing grownup beautiful brigitte fossey unforgettable little girl forbidden games health lauren bacall carol burnett alfre woodard glenda jackson cast popeye splendid surreal world shelley duvalls olive oyl wonderful malta locations oc stiggs proposal antiadolescents flick beyond therapy lunacy presence genvieve page effort look parisian chic taken travestite even enjoyed oneact tv movies like the dumb waiter the laundromat much plot develop films wonderful performances burnett john travolta kim basinger jane curtin perceive enjoy different approach description makes many different cultures united states pity genius seldom appreciated always forgotten time comes giving american prizes awards typical mainstream purveyor fantasies maverick surprising find many bad comments posted the gingerbread man mainstream effort date knowledge know many people thought like leonard maltin like altman all case one may dislike the gingerbread man reason grisham directorscreenwriter altmans trademarks here improvised dialogue great performances funny lawyers office typical irreverent receptionist secretary people find boring found first act fascinating thanks also great cinematography changwei gu man shot red sorghum ju dou farewell concubine way showing us things see american movies different light foreigners gaze almost everything seems new different first act things logical true wait get older may get trouble fall spell someone younger beautiful embeth davidtz know done fascinated someone younger am robert duvalls repellent menacing mysterious character geraldo storm threatening savannah second act gets little phony even funny altman may conducted grin remember laughing aloud several instances ironic remarks think applying bit brecht distancing us preparing us third act plain hollywood pastiche altman expertise wise man intelligent director luckily fall traps todays action movies directing tale lust greed death disappointed bit movie give nine instead grisham american reader turned bestselling author complain maybe thank altman showing us seams stories dullness flatness silliness all however much gusto humor cannot disagree negative comments me persons saw another movie vice versa,0 +overall give film decent start ill say love character portrayed adapted screen read comics occasionally simply watch dvd extras see blade character drastically different one see film among changes blade importantly half vampire therefore acquiring all strengths none weaknesses credit goes obviously david goyer fellow fan darker genre comic books thanks blade become much interesting character find one favorite antiheroes really wesley snipes born play role although wouldve probably pererred dezenel washington smith lol acting need exactly oscar winning per say considering character im glad decids play daywalker two sequels also starring stephen dorff main villain kris kristofferson blades alfred speak acting good actually action keeps plot going sure opening scene club one favorite parts ive got say much like movie things bother take away film ranking something like spiderman xmen stephen norrington villains portrayed way like much honestly lines full foul mouthed comedy really feel like comic book film me plus la magra bit disappointing final villain intense sword fight makes guess mention sense extra nonrealism black man leather coat sword beaing cop broad day light going unnoticed crowds walking seemed kindawelldumb moving away flaws music mark isham great fitted film nicely luckily problems fixed improved stunning sequel blade ,0 +dear class st louis remember andrew madjarac like heard disappeared went residential thingshorrible things say hes still,0 +hey there im looking drummers vocalists im guitarist im making song rn need metalheads like metallica megadeth like play bass rhythm lead harmony parts need drummer vocalist drummer have acoustic drums w recording system electric drums vocalist shoud have microphone metal singing techniques dm anyone interested send details song later thanks lot,0 +might endim ive worked every kind job without degree feel like nowhere go nothing make life easier know life would like worry bills extreme anxiety started get point call work turn around soon get parking lot cry sometimes angry know badly need money cant make go in wake start dreading day bring often point get sick stomach worry top boyfriend live also rare disease causes go large periods able get around work best help take care get back forth hospital needs it anxiety constant medical issues barely pay bills work mall one really large parking garage breaks when im there sit ledge top floor think easy everything would leaned forward im strange case read internet guess im high functioning person depression anxiety nobody would ever guess im dealing im bubbly happy person im around everyone im alone tears insides eats alive im week maybe away probably phone cut start try find something pawn maybe keep roof boyfriends head family helped us much speak mine often getting kicked gay life gotten way much stress bullshit feel like everything get me matter many friends people love cant take away shit keeps happening me ledge keeps sounding better better,1 +got ps reveal powerful bad boy gonna back march started saving buy one everyone knows release went wait saving grace walmart appeared able snag one arrived today,0 +word ghilli actually means small sharp wooden game instrument used game called ghillidanda a precursor cricket india use word nickname principal character stylish signifies one sharp fast hurt badly rubbed wrong waybr br ghilli one best movies vijay unrivaled pace action movie never slacks moment keep always exciting action movie set madurai chennai story core simple rich landlord tries covet beautiful girl town unquestionable power authority prevents girl seeking justice hero tries rescue majority movie portrays week action happensbr br a exciting movie though story nothing new director actors receive praise fullpaced action,0 +failed medical student probably wont live see next monthi dont know even bother posting here itll help me story wasted last years life trying go medicine went university high school got bachelors bio medical school fail returning medical leave feel like ive wasted years life several thousand dollars soon nothing show it im years old already life dead ended cant get good job bachelors bio good job prospects fail out sacrificed health social life well ill fat friends several thousand debt life direction hope left week reason hesitate die cuz im fucking coward id leaving parents debt,1 +ive diagnosed autism going kill myselfdue trauma mental health issues began experience fourteen never able develop life management personal skills im twentyfour now diagnosed autism despite abusive mother dysfunctional family quite functional overall happy life began fall part many friends got learners driving license summer job fourteen things okay though guess throughout childhood adolescence hold autistic traits repressing emotions this along stress dealing family blew face fifteen developed severe case bulimia quickly took life basically l did everyday years binge eat purge spent thousands thousands dollars money parents money lost friends motivation life hopes people knew me used friends talked amongst themselves saying life ruined one point butt peoples jokes would say hey least life fucked flamingtrashmonsters lost ability much anything all eighteen constantly drunk bingeing purging kicked familys home lived alone barren apartment filled food wrappers empty bottles sucks realized autistic child could avoided demands recovery far great manage diagnosis autism basically tells need get better fuck ton work even think possible going kill myself cannot live like longer im much better eighteen im school function certain level meet demands life still feel act fucked up fucked up im fucked ever going go away get better life pain moments happiness thrown times,1 +anyone got full prophecy true copypasta gotta send friend cant find,0 +im thinking admitting myselfim meds arent helping enough ive trying get psychologist therapist something cant get see anyone nice tried least six different therapistpsychologists cant help feel something wrong brain anxiety spiral hard im sure protect anymore im visual thoughts could do know need help ive trying get it hard one listen,1 +love parents life isnt fairno one told life would fair hell ive shown quite opposite matter however thought life past seven eight years since moving another state downright sucky parents kindest thoughtful people know mom fucking hell dad wants make people happy mother gave dream vet gave dream finishing cosmetology needed help family things got tough losing house got housekeeping job hotel people fucking rude her got hired school unbelievably racist lady ruined life health mothers body still suffering day hardships endured there seen mom become happy young lady woman struggling stay awake childhood hell hearing much hoped adulthood could better father worked company ended owing money lost house barely got see child losing job spending time us moved obstacle get used seeing speaking man barely knew closed off trust much moved point probably wondering getting at family thing past seven years tried kill two years ago obviously ones tried cared ones truly teared thought even say selfish things shit hurts them theyre still here and yet people fucking audacity think worried opinion way think me decide one day laying bed needed next two weeks mom would first notice stupid little bitch snapchat decided message too dry reply to cry corner want die again dad would first one care dumbass boy school work fucking wherever addicted weed sex care anyone else whole thing gonna sound motherfucking high mighty im sorry ive come realization late night ive caring longest others matter caring people raised wanted best me like hanging people without family ive always thought childish that but fuck it maybe am what love family want focuses them people wanted survive even meant disappointing little dont want look back younger years see faces people didnt give fuck whether suicidal not dont want look back see people questioning suicidal thoughts suicidal enough taken seriously wanna look back remember mom worried me dad worried me brother nightmare night tried kill dying want remember people ever really cared family fucking need tldr life fair love family need anyone else,1 +rest peace alex trebek heaven received another legend,0 +plans future mine are plan a work hard get dream job marry boyfriend kids become special person plan b live life easy marry rich man plan c stripper,0 +tall lanky somehow monster dick weird world,0 +dad found swearing internet dad found swearing im internet honestly want advice found swearing used phone sleeping looking private chats friends swearing included honestly get coming im pissed took phone sleeping need help honestly think cares chickens rather children like bought weighing machine chickens useless eyes pathetic purpose life,0 +everyone say it get betteri remember first time felt depressed around got first phone talking friends one day told know live anymore felt like given up told chin up much live for really changed keep hearing answer get better get better fuck told this justification wake one day said oh look life better no yes suicidal years one told get suffering cope it look years cant even look one day look telescope glass broken feel angered all depression anxiety everyone telling worry die peace gun head scared pull trigger hope now gone man watching street waiting something interesting actually happen apologize lot chest im done life,1 +anyone talk im bored wanna talk someone tad bit anyone down im age matters you,0 +constantly face much redflag school makes extremely depressed hard cope with dont know redflagdepression anything memory performance ive noticed remember lot less compared wasnt depressed anxious state hours end contemplate procrastinate everyday depressing life sad,1 +group chat lol hmu ur snap make gc join long ur teen lol,0 +worked courage message crush got left opened meant feel relieved big step me someone struggles new people,0 +help others cope mental illness friend recently told diagnosed mild depression opened honestly idea help told would always needed anything check every then honestly im dark really idea help situation kinda feel helpless really say things like we need help one point another lives ok ask help cheesy shit like im need anything really say kind situation,0 +native americas subreddit whats tribes culture religion ask found im part choctaw studying native american religions cultures,0 +trans people go prison something illegal,0 +jon voight brilliant midnight cowboy hoffmans performance though reminiscent later turn rainman kind performance keeps watching movies portrayal new york character daniel day lewis portrayal bill butcher gangs new york comes mind comparable day give character emotional depth hoffman gives ratso br br its typical hoffmans way acting actor tend identify midnight cowboy voight think hoffman one best actors history film playing people around way raises performances far normal levels br br voights buck naive would float film altogether except ratso pulls pulls down also teaches him lot survive and importantly livebr br midnight cowboy movie escape turns movie finding yourself think that gritty movie is beautiful message matter much loser might ratso clearly defines loser find way true yourself possession secret life might even able share insight someone else br br i cant help compare midnight cowboy klute years later think like movie finding turns movie escape,0 +need help dont know lookive suicidal before ive close too actual attempts though ever feel like im done everything im worn dont even feel alive human anymore im tired living one biggest issues effects every single day life im extremely insecure makes paranoid almost delusional recognize understand feel may actually real cant help feeling becomes reality mind insecurities make relationships hard last relationship first only issues much handle cant trust cant believe them cant open them ive hurt emotionally vulnerable never forgave know need professional help dont money that damn shame dont make enough money help keep alive whats worse one talk to arent many people would understand dont many friends would understand judgmental family would make fun insecure suicidal dont know do doubt redflag helpline offer anything useful know anything might help let know,1 +want dieand depressed sad unhealthy reached age realize living pointless lie nothing used think life early childhood valid bullshit point deep inside life accident ok dead fuck shit,1 +get feeling waywhat do,1 +shohei imamauras black rain released onset aids epidemic fact gives film slow deterioration hiroshima radiation victims added poignancy black rain title refers combination ash radioactive fallout water fell one two hours explosion books films dropping atomic bomb none unique powerful one based novel masuji ibuse gathered information interviews diaries reallife bomb victims film depicts entire family affected psychologically well physically bomb years original explosion horrifying vision one resonates deep compassion humanity br br the film begins hiroshima august soldiers civilians go normal daily activities suddenly blinding light flashes thunderous blast heard almost every single building destroyed damaged beyond repair first atomic bomb ever dropped city part history survivors must somehow restart lives unaware bombs devastating effects filmed highcontrast black white story centers around yasuko yoshiko tanaka young woman caught radioactive rain boat heads back city search friends relatives hiroshima imamura shows us indelible images remain us young boy skin hanging body pleads brother recognize him older man tears inability free son piles debris mother torment rocks blackened body childbr br when family returns rural home yasukos life forever changed sees friends dying around waits inevitable bouts radiation sickness already affected uncle shigematsu shimuza kazuo kitamura aunt shigeko shimuza etsuko ichihara pretending business usual family denies bomb affected yasuko she forgot hiroshima nagasaki destroyed everyone forgot it forget hell fire go rallies like annual festival im sick it says friend katayama akiji kobayashi yasuko internalizes tragedy feeling shame different others guilty contaminatedbr br when aunt uncle try find husband eligible men refuse marry suspicions health even though shigematsu copied diary prove directly exposed bomb suitor feels comfortable another damaged man yuichi keisuke ishida panic attack every time hears roar engine end beauty life shows ever fleetingly yasuko goes pond sees sight longing life king carp jumping water playfully say beyond despair still joy sadly hear radio statements politicians using bomb korean war human beings learn nothing says shigematsu they strangle themselves unjust peace better war justice cant see immamuras black rain hopefully allowed us see clearly,0 +bruh thought lost bunch old pictures wanted found old hard drive plus tb tb gb ssds pc lol,0 +almost passed pe lesson okay boxing pe warmup needed jump rope minutes straight eventually vision got blurry chest pain didnt tell anyone realized needed watch out also squared annoying kid prob hurted lot like guys rest girls us boys show see whos best,0 +anyone figured get discord open everytime run computer ima bout uninstall bitch swear god filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +hanging likethis probably asked million times already anyway describe general physical experience it managed fail,1 +cant keep goingthis life hell cant anything even good anymore smallest things piss dont anything else do make posts like people message saying theyll check always forget deep dont fucking care method would take life life constant suffering would better removed myself people wouldnt listen bullshit sadness need way it give method please,1 +japanese probably sadistic movies around worldand one strongest exampleswith running time hourit contains enough sexual violence gore disgust every single sane person eartheven hunting type moviesthree men woman making porn filmafter normally shotswhich pixelatedthe girl tied upand madmen cut foodarm tongafter thatthey make hole abdomen man sexual intercourse intestineshe knocked unconscious penis cut offthe special effects good obviously low budget productiononly tong cut scene looks fakeand cant talk actingdirection screenplayafter hearing lot filmi happy finally found itthe first part pretty boringbut second one totally fk mindthe torture killing scenes extreme disturbing ever seenthe gore hounds satisfied tumbling doll fleshbut unknowing viewer even read synopsis,0 +one support abolishment police means commit murders zero accountability anyone wanna visit swamp midnight,0 +im sitting here feet soaking class just feet soaked like rotting shoes im another hour half going develop tench foot help,0 +bombed job interviewthats god telling dont deserve live fucked much could barely talk goddamn anxiety attack looked ducking stupid im stupid jobs im stupid breathe dont know im fucking stupid get it needed job badly this time fucking fuck up ducking kidding me needed one time one single goddamn filthy thing worked interview something highly underqualified ive ruined it ive ruined fucking everything,1 +need advice relationship m liked girl while gathered courage text went well course weeks texted daily confessed later liked told liked while problem think relationship her parents strict nodating policy much like her want make parents mad earned trust years wanna tell idk even begin,0 +ight im sick nice join fucking snapchat call cunts im sorry aggressive join call friend aaron,0 +bye loser virgins girlfriend i think shes fucking united states,0 +made bubble wrap everyone sorting new gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtpoplt gtdrum beatslt gtwerelt gtnolt gtstrangerslt gttolt gtlovelt gtyoult gtknowlt gtthelt gtruleslt gtandlt gtsolt gtdolt gtilt gtalt gtfulllt gtcommitmentslt gtwhatlt gtimlt gtthinkinglt gtoflt gtyoult gtwouldntlt gtgetlt gtthislt gtfromlt gtanylt gtotherlt gtguylt gtiiiiiiiiiiilt gtjustlt gtwannalt gttelllt gtyoult gthowlt gtimlt gtfeelinglt gtgottalt gtmakelt gtyoult gtunderstandlt gtneverlt gtgonnalt gtgivelt gtyoult gtuplt gtneverlt gtgonnalt gtletlt gtyoult gtdownlt gtneverlt gtgonnalt gtrunlt gtaroundlt gtandlt gtdesertlt gtyoult gtneverlt gtgonnalt gtmakelt gtyoult gtcrylt gtneverlt gtgonnalt gtsaylt gtgoodbyelt gtneverlt gtgonna lt gttelllt gtalt gtlielt gtandlt gthurtlt gtyoult gthahalt gtyoult gtreallylt gtthought lt gtit lt gtwaslt gtbubble wraplt gtdidnt lt gtyoult,0 +im online class right professor talking minorities assuming nobody people class part minority group someone called everyone religion terrorists ,0 + first timewhen ten learned could kill self mother depressed would panic attacks ways would hurt kill herself would tell everything never remember feeling mentally okay learned this tried taking lot tylenol didnt work really thought counts became much trauma childhood along current burdens tired again didnt work day wish did however survival today shown much best friend tried kill last week rope broke friends brother committed redflag worked hes gone forever im thinking unfair is best friend got second change brother hes gone forever hate regretting fact alive much cause got second chance guess wish died someone else got second chance sorry nonsense let out,1 +ive felt long time redflag im going goive fantasized killing years feel really close tonight im complete piece shit human being nothing left nothing world brings joy,1 +tired bieng usedim m girlfriend using me like exes them never relationship someone wasnt cheating me one idk shes cheating shes using sure used live town shes come back since got together first time hung etc stayed too well time shes coming took whole time days well wont see night soon pick airport wants drive two towns drop friends house go pick night whenever theyre done hanging out next day shes getting picked place like am pick evening shes done saturday cancelled plans date night friends again sunday take airport im gonna this plan killing car dropping off cleaned car bought plastic sheets tarp back seat floors clean easy since airport body found shortly im tired bieng used cheated everything book since theres something wrong might well fix problem right,1 +hate myselfeveryone better way school intelligence socializing art sports videogame heck uniqueness even im ugly person nothing interesting even bet eye on tried ignore simply improve myself cant one willing talk me parent fed go study crap got major utterly dislike amateur skill incompetent anything every friend want take advantage me want die want see disappointed face isolated feeling endless amount anxiety,1 +diary like thing day day hi today post short lying bed whole day anything interesting im solving square sec current average sec sorry short post hope day interesting,0 +idk everyone talking wanting choked time shine got great hands on profile hand pics flexing videos acc coming choking business man business,0 +whats fastest way kill myselfim fucking done everything give fastest way out literally contemplating either dosing putting plastic bag head sleep jumping bridge tonight im life worth living anymore dont see living past seeing couple years now,1 +afraid interesting enough also feel weird texting like conversation end feel awkward gives mad redflag ghosted friends months thought forcing reply thought makes anxious cannot bring achieve it anyone found solution this maybe cbt therapy already btw cannot text back friends,1 +everyone gives me give myselfi tried hard sorts bad things happening all anger sadness depression recently started taking antidepressant zoloft taking birth control pills made suicidal thoughts go roof major mood swings days cant function ive way clingy thought persevering would okay going well im going stop taking them fucked up fucked up person really matters me gave me im going rough time obviously owe same wish given me made feel like world collapsing beautiful going succeed changed mind lot things nobody else ever able to thinking might want kid someone able love me someone able open me care me felt important valued first time life breakdown two days ago made look like fool telling badly needed him say word me tell why even say good bye best friend years bestest friend recent fell love ruined everything im much would take dinner ski trip parents birthday spend many nights me tell loves me disappear always ruin everything always happens care much let people inside walls disappear like even there thats im worth im going make st birthday ive enough cant anymore cant keep letting people find problems get worse around christmas birthday every year disappear hope die tonight theres really much left anymore cant trust anyone cant let anyone everyone help pour soul to cry sit suicidal moments nobody me always ends giving up told would different this wonderful person best friend three years least gone cant take control emotions first break heart give without word last cant anymore bad times obviously outweigh good things offer everyone leaves least leave first choice anymore,1 +christmas day feel like slitting wriststhe bar higher ever perfect child one sad tired time kind girl would without hesitation help anyone im absolutely sick it rant get chest sorry stopped read this,1 +harry potter spells existed would use obliviate loved ones memories you disappear somewhere instead dyingfor know obliviate forgetfulness charm harry potter universe erase particular memories someone else perhaps would use erase trauma try live happily use someone else die anyway mourn death stranger im curious,1 +sometimes get sad know do last night spent several hours crying intermittently episodes like since teen years old exhausting feel emotion least numb guess much cry finally done feel lost life point need make decisions live direction take career do even want career partner developed feelings someone wants casual fwb type involvement gone along many options making feel bad want think deserve more angry allowing taken advantage emotionally unavailable man knew exactly getting into part foolishly thought would change mind point want kind relationship want so feel need end move on made casual involvements like that quit drinking alcohol days ago completely sober positive change feeling everything without buffer therapy since age so suppose learned things made positive changes done nothing change fact capacity feeling deep profound sadness seems bottom maybe actually kind gift sure maybe life really sad maybe life actually sad,1 +surgery successful hey again surgery earlier day surprising much thought would suck mean maybe five hours later life kinda returned normal two hours could talk three could eat still crunchy foods soft things like soup ever reason remember me sister didnt end coming appointment didnt say weird shit anesthesia fact think regained control like minutes waking,0 +sister use rent every time got movies parents would get mad but let us anyways love iti cant find anyone lives near knows talking aboutim glad see im one loved moviei wish could find dvd somewhere would love watch bc loved much little kidand im now remember much itthats got little bunny fufu song friends know song movie think little girl got sliding slide little playground thing,0 +much enjoyed the revolution televised gave me again notredflag feeling power people decide wish governedbr br it unfortunate venezuela twenty percent wealthy citizens made decisions eighty percent poor decades centuries however coup failed interim government dissolved supreme court constitution ombudsman electoral boards civil rights one took plotters behind barn somewhere shot them even gone jail major plotters living florida carrying on protection bolivarian constitution passed large majority venezuelan people history bites democracy give one hell nip let loose venezuela loose,0 +feeling emptymy depression worsening quickly lately hate much feel ignored friends get extremely suicidal im alone idea head cant stop thinking wanting dead know do want feel appreciated want feel empty anymore,1 +quit job end alla little background im year old guy diagnosed borderline personality disorder recently started therapy going start group work retail cashier nearly every coworker around age feel like pretty good albeit superficial relationship everyone im mostly quiet sometimes bubbly energetic guy manager pretty close especially discuss anxiety other months ago started crushing hard new coworker asked find already relationship outside say cool remain friends inside im devastated romanticized her put pedal the one started dating problems low self esteem would go away mean amazing person told loved surely id never feel bad again fit feelings jokingly told manager wanted kill girls boyfriend obviously joking manager laughed along even told manager actually thinking hurt intense fear social rejection im paranoid everyone around talking behind back making fun me purposely inviting out stems experiences believes abuser middle high school incident college confided friend suicidality lead shaming telling rest class leading ostracizing me open feelings bit ass great number times today ended working coworker crush on asks ive talking behind back heard lot people im obsessed want kill boyfriend able explain told manager joke said that seemed okay that know truth manager confided in told secrets everyone else actually making fun behind back caused worst fears come true decision quit job ive always hated wanted quit anyway realize im overreacting situation work tomorrow im thinking calling quitting phone without giving reason why want make one phone call never think place ever again im currently living family car payments bills every month honest want quit job release album kill myself want another job another chance embarrassment another chance failure another chance ruining everything im damn tired care life anymore maybe im overreacting cant tell,1 +unga bunga oog toog oog nog booga baga gook nug beel,0 +lies lies day lies,0 +end next week hope gonei cant function person future past ive come close backed out time different ill either die overdose destroyed liver either way do want out cant anymore goodbye thank past help,1 +im doneim going kill myself im done im lonely unloved cant handle anymore im gonna taka gun shoot one even care,1 +redflag act honornot escape pain sadness merely pay respect world leave gradiently become even stupid redflag incompetent point struggles ohhh suffering stem purely incompetence arrogance redflag cant offer life world infinite flaws past shitfest wrong decisions redflag made stupid head redflag you redflag i,1 +finally lets inside begin talk hes drunk always schedules differ couple hours whenever would get home always drunk sat counter calling names smack chest worst mistake life never hit him fully believe dish get,1 +couldnt agree comment left coldshitaction film masterpiece never seen film adrenalin flowing film did mostly happened bronson comes running fire escape like m plows like dude gang genius quite possibly best action movie ever made no exaggeration either really could best action movie ever made start one know youre something sweet police let bronson go tell him tell him clean slums again genius bronson bad ass paul kersey cool maybe even cooler john mcclain terminator hes simply bad ass else great fact hes nice guy buys kid ice cream helps old couple kills scum bag genius highly recommended hate movie crazy,0 +love every single one youhey guys want say love you cant love yourself know love you even insufficiencies past misdeeds please dont hurt anymore deserve best god bless,1 +doneim going kill tonight im behind bills hope daughter forgives,1 +wanna feel old big fortnite explosion game absolutely dominated every platform ,0 +kids go private schools fuck rich cunts private schools shit,0 +first day christmas true love gave me nothing im single lmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaooooooooooooooooooooooooo,0 +kubrick puts display stunning ability craft perfect ambiance film mainly cinematography also using ingenious score creates chilling ominous tone resides entire film thoroughly gets spine tingling start really flawless ambiance makes shining masterpiece is eyes course hurt jack nicholson gives one greatest performances ive ever seen frighteningly authentic portrayal mind gone mad duvall lloyd artificial nice easy look past two rest film brilliant plus features actor greatest name time scatman crothers,0 +sister cheated minecraft world im annoyed play world months playing today went go change skin pressed settings know saw achievements earned world called insisted didnt im annoyed fuck,0 +feel like ending life every day exception whatever like strength it cannot tell anyone either burden attention whore mild irritant already feel like make everything touch worse telling someone care make better old therapist told opening would make feel better made feel much much worse least parents mother blames father believe therapy help keeps saying teenage thing doctors put label it makes feel like prove mentally ill something friends try help really anything feel even shittier talking gf bc like got defective partner want die get fuckin prison feel nothing feel horrible please kill mesorry chaotic something needed type cannot tell anyone,1 +died spared everyone troublea little year ago tried kill myself hospitalized released thinking things going get better past year ive able control suicidal thoughts depression spiraling control got trouble school morning hospitalized again spent hour room mom listening cry fault id died last year couldve saved everyone trouble going again,1 +sorryto world sorry waste years siblings sorry older brother deserved parents sorry man imagined id be friends her sorry treated terribly hopefully fade memory find someone treats way shouldve people believed me sorry strong enough people read this sorry wasted time,1 +im backso thought feeling went away nothing name need help bad real help well wishes hang buddy try dig sadness pulls right back down many problems mentally financially like name im mind enough dont want homeless bum living center life peak year ago slowly slipped hands im sorry,1 +im tired feeling lonelyi people would consider decent acquaintances whenever need vent issues im always listen whenever want vent either ignore me shut down talk issues glaze anything ive said people also going things thought talking makes feel like ill burden adding already full list shit theyre dealing with frustrating family disowned dating outside race pandemic help since cant go meet people way things use be feel like life purpose like thoughts words value anyone feel like fit world never have direction float along really feel like outsider looking in wish someone could really vibe with someone whos nonjudgmental unconditionally loving understanding thats literally ive ever wanted even lover another human share human experiences with want die this amazes amount shitty humans remain full support team someone like me kind generous loving truthful get shit end life stick tried chopping wood aggressively get rid negative thoughts following idea safety plan taking shower helped feel like crying useless now bring change ill still feel lonely tomorrow next day understand im still here knowing one way ticket comforting im also chicken shit use it world full people resort internet link likeminded individuals feel sort peace quite tragic feel you,1 +good halloween movies filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +want someone listen help littlelately interest anything dont meet friends dont see profit it dont study dont see long term profit hobbies using help distract starting fail duty problems started really soon life family catholic luck borning bisexual good combination guess made think borned girl everybody accept easier girls love boys thats center post sometimes notion nobody likes me nobody do dont talk love talk friendships family started wondering what would happen comit redflag right now everybody react throughts became serious time point spending long nights awake plan steps writing letters etc boxes filled letters explaining example hobby already practice osdeveloping love it im scared someday apparent distraction dissapears advices want talk thanks advance,1 +distant girlfriend tried kill herselfshe seriously hope anymore tonight spoke week passing fight really honest conversation her know do ive crying night slept yet want teleport place snatch away me seem like go either anymore even moving bad place depression hearing brutally honest words encouraging myself seriously know anymore reason smiled work want die want marry her cant move would never ok cant help scribble together words without crying,1 +anybody else flirt girls respond go hold wait one second wasnt prepared step,0 +totally awesome movie seen yet damn well should sure plot slow develop special effects laughable acting ridiculous action badly choreographed wrestler ddp would say thats bad thingthats good thing everything movie hilarious especially get dubbed version even worse actors countless laughs get end yearning sequel mummy fights wrestling women thus give ten stars unless one discriminating intelligent people good taste likes high quality films highest calibre recommend utterly monkeydellic movie,0 +know what new ui bad,0 +insecurities built cant handle anymorei feel worthless im strong enough tall enough eczema dry skin acne oily skin fucking stupid probably dumbest all penis also really small want kill it cant stop thinking matter do even work get bigger even get better skincare one day im never gonna keep girlfriend whatever know problems small compared things people go through still eats away me maybe thats another sign weakness,1 +ehjust deleted rest friends social media heard years get replies reach out figure point theres one left stopping it still dont want feel sad hear news remember never will maybe years time theyll remember look see happened doubt theyll care everyone moves one right least thats im counting on,1 +i lost job already months ago im feeling pretty damn worthless right now thoughts ending keep rattling head cant anything right,1 +anyone love movie think hilarious spoof old gangster movies never seen them watch instead michael keaton ball role anything goes one guy mangles english language everytime talks griffin dunn plays clueless da favorite role got joe piscopo best lines danny devito alan hale ray walston starstudded movie lampoons gangsters lot funnier mafia criminal underground,0 +feel like trashi got banned discord server making redflag threat even though wanted commit redflag times feel like piece garbage past want die mod never forgave mocking mental health trolling even though wasnt wrong because didnt take help askedwhen gave me declined idk still living like ive said loud want commit redflag cant live world havent done anything dreams ive wasted countless years opportunities worrying act sat ps whats wrong me like one except online friends wish friends girl boy want feel happiness feel love friend even girlfriend im incapable love one wanted me want honestly disappear wanted apologize mod banned forever server finding again hasnt forgave me hope sees message that make him want change cant find willpower within it feel entertained working feel entertained playing im lazy ugly skinny loser feel embarrassed whenever people school ask still friends dont know do actually want become game developer programmer artist animator cant school procrastination want become artist make manga comics cant im worthless want feel love feel cuddling someone handle pleasuring women whod deny quickly boyfriend idk do please someone help me im sorry ive done bad things life pleasuring gym bleachers th grade cheating test th grade idk do feel dumb want end christmas bye guys,1 +feeling coming back again feel like jumping infront train tomorrow ill never get girlfriend anywayive friendzoned way many fuckin times hug aww here wheres fucking oops looks like im born earth single well dont mind love playing games surfing gag everyday know ill last know mean person billion special fuck right must well ill never get girlfriend im never kissed sex smoked clubbed friends moved countries pretty much spend lonely nights home myself yep fuck it im going die tomorrow whats point living im going suffer shitty world shitty society shitty standards shitty epxectations fucking girl fuck off oh shitty system fuck everything,1 +hate dad treats mom hate even takes tells complacentmy dad quite frankly giant piece shit mom forced marry him wasnt picture months born since forced mom pick life move little warning hes completely fucking terrible preschool physically abused makes jokes like havent suicidal since fucking makes extremely disgusting sexual comments body calls whore regularly thinks im overall biggest slut ever walked earth for reference basicallt wear abaya everyday constantly orders mom around degraded often making cry least day tells shut stop sensitive mother openly admitted could save husband children shed pick him want love mom really slave him original thoughts own says jump says cliff asked lower voice earlier today he screams talks working papers ran stairs call worthless whore never enough parents one world loves me wish would kill shed understand kind person is aunt killed husband think shell end way want fuckin die,1 +traveling around world dawned australia really lacks one thing countries have historybr br fortunately unfortunately australia establish following war civil war political history rather boring nothing big happened mark sort turning point australias history dismissal whitlam government governorgeneral australia john kerrbr br for australian skip paragraph move onto next benefit curious nonaustralians australia colonised british time went on became apparent australia capable standing two feet accordingly uk granted australia permission establish parliaments laws courts on law politics australia would longer provided directly british rather australia would run australians right even though courts precedents parliament largely modeled british system shift codified australian constitution despite fact constitution lawfully establishes australian governments lawmaking procedures courts but curious bill rights two procrown sections included remain day less regarded reserve powers crown kingqueen great britain first group sections relates creation office governorgeneral briefly governorgeneral considered queens chief representative australia described executive branch australian government piece law passed australian parliament constitution states becomes law signed governorgeneral such govenorgeneral regarded nothing rubber stamper performing archaic unnecessary constitutional function behalf crown theoretically governorgeneral refuse sign law passed australian parliament thinks fit instance parliament passed law allows police shoot dead australian age hypothetically course gg could refuse sign would become law land however power theoretical to date never exercised convention which buzz word events leading dismissal governorgeneral virtually acts behest australian government therefore government passes law prime minister instructs governorgeneral sign it will almost always without question fact convention governorgeneral acts accordance advice provided prime minister day and prime minister alone second aspect section constitution states government ministers hold office governorgenerals pleasure events covered film gave rise precedent particular section governorgeneral somehow displeased government andor prime minister would appear section allows lawfully sack government which happened hence title film the dismissal whether at governorgenerals pleasure construed the unfettered right dismiss contentious point though led rather heated exchanges amongst australians time especially considering governorgeneral elected people australiabr br now background aspect way lets get back discussing film well made pace patient drag all drama well contained realistic overdramatise events importantly present point view one political perspective contrary felt fair balanced even though concluding text credits indicates filmmakers probably approve governorgenerals decision dismiss whitlam government describe film overall bias one direction otherbr br in terms accuracy virtually spot on filmmakers certainly homework evidently read books writings principle players concerned number finer details somewhat skipped over largely took long time explain ultimately little impact events forgive that further think difficult recreate public sentiment postvietnam war era noyce pretty much pulled offbr br finally pleased film attempted raise individual policies sides without becoming analytical obsessive judgmental them moreover were raised example connors pipeline great deal relevance story film makers realised task tell story events leading dismissal present political endorsement opposition relation policies viewpoints smart meant film cant accused misrepresenting one sides policiesbr br the dismissal probably incredible piece political history occurred australia short life glad crystallized celluloid essential viewing australian,0 +canot post image meme help ,0 +whats best way redflagi know many ways dont want fail im saved would even troubles thing happened future fucked up im nyu student many rooftops nyc jumping good idea ps know lot hotlines also mental health service school calm decision,1 +come realizations th grade bullied way much theres nonstop violence punching hit hard surfaces pure terror fucks sake kid brought fucking bb gun school metal detectors nothing anyways lead permanent trauma never forget happened everyday non stop get panic attacks fights starting form despite would still try make friends later would realize make friends friends manipulators assholes violent starting friend number one mention name protect lets call raisin stupid name ik move on anyways would always lie inject fear wanted would range giving snacks giving toys money mom gave comply match im tall fight wimp small know fight knew took advantage threatening comply lost lot belongings mom worked super hard used manipulated owm ego moving friend number way smaller let size fool backstabber manipulator blackmailer would ruin reputation say lets say losing reputation old school wasnt fun anyways would always make douche moves kids good even worse friends raisin could instantly destrory others met beat manipulated backstabbed people straight awful running recess accidentally bumped powerful tankiest dude school got mad grabbed neck throw like snowball got hurt really badly vouched never go near againsecond second friend backstabbed secrets crush first ohhh probably get embarssed crush someone kid already with surprise surprise get beat welp kid told girl boy found got beat again tiered tired telling teachers jack shit got pummeled one friends worked nothing got slammed stairs switching schools option living abusive relationship mom dad broke mom popped new boyfriend first thought oh nice guy looks handsome looked nice little know far truth hed always come back drunk yell mom would always something bad manner forced us escape two shelters mom anything forced school want write much cause already long hurts write heres last thing left traumatized crying pain tears one day kid grabbed dragged bathroom threw got sprayer filled pee kids started spraying pee kicking like soccer ball lasted two minutes left crying looking glasses saying whywhyall wanted friends wanted benice i mean harm realized used friends actually friends people many horrible things used knew weak rookie made go really sad angry confused tried commit redflag relive pain take tried recover went therapy telling mom got bit better day still leaves traumatized affected acted middle school forgiven moved life ill still get ptsd time time im chill actual friends im ok school damm long im asking sympathy karma lesson careful want friends weak defend always strong someone insults insult back scared learn forgive matter somebody you must seek help learn forgive forgive live negative energy hold back life although really hard must forgive move knowing forgiving move life longer live negative feeling finally friends see hope wrong longer anyway great day night later,0 +worst day life opened fortune cookie fortune hurt worse getting rejected girl one best friends,0 +known really want dead unfortunately forced stop considering option due certain reasons living world knowing want dead makes everything pointless forced keep body alive little necessary survivei mean anyone genuinely look future see anything worthwhile people fucking see hell get bed for worst part matter many times try think way this end getting nowhere nowhere go thing life worth living tomorrow working towards never comethis cycle never ends continue come realization belong right come realization nothing it continue frustrated futility efforts continue try obligation continue get absolutely fucking whereampxbampxbcheers working towards tomorrow never come hurts know might go years,1 +since growing czechoslovakia following history raf pilots crews wwii great britain stories tragic ending either combat communist prisons camps without doubt dark chapter history although fact brave men were able go recover afterward amazing people want see great moviethis one recent visit czech republic saw movie three times three days they were playing three daysotherwise go see even times worth it hope enjoy it although requires little thinking knowledge background information behind story pretty much way movie kolya was simple movie deep story way told likely make cryingit three times row zdenek sverak always great script son jan made great movie cast without doubt great job amazed ondrej vetchy great role played oldrich kaiser actors made movie simply great oscar nomination think strike holywood,0 +update telling crush like said obvious also said needed think it but ended sentence heart emoji hopefully says yes really like ill post update happens,0 +started depression october relationship could listening understood partner put guilt even thought everything fault shit sees patient person gf home everyone disrespect point everything do got worse partner decide end things guilt still friends really me really thought given false empathy makes edge reason could kill parents want hurt feeling worst still there hard support psy came culture talking seeing psy crazy difficult open someone see false empathy feel sad empty exhausted hard,1 +sub go minutes without post wow,0 +im slipping away redflag getting closeri really reason ive depressed ever since kid im right now extreme anxiety issues diagnosed add aspergers syndrome understand people im introvert im lonely make sense family wonderful loving waste days away playing video games escape now even like them im constantly bored school terrible im bullied nobody talks me nobody really considers friend think im going slit wrists end tonight,1 +keep upive always kind overweight obese big guy ive always depressed guess two kind go together eat junk feel bad two months ago er visit told affecting liver coupled family history resolved better changed diet fried food sugar all exercise daily ive really really good first positive change ive ever resolved make proud myself would it id start losing id get confident id feel better moving maybe even id work courage ask someone out todays weighin weigh started ive lost maybe pound know im wrong two months came rushing back im going always big miserable lonely person i im fooling thinking could make better keep up try make change im going end anyway give go back coping easier see point,1 +friend mine tried commit redflag yesterdayand need advice little background info yesterday exgirlfriend im still close to called me told friend lets call leon tried kill himself failed leon friend years now best friend talk love sex stuff were instead talking suicidal thoughts talked exgf supportive person mentioned guideline rswrecources want worry me whatever instantly called leon skype hearing this talked him tried make stop chance litterally zero seems like nothing do leon want tell people redflag attempt cant sit around waiting kill himself point care anymore thinks me want save him love much respect tell anyone it make first move inform people probably stop killing himself like brother arranged meeting leon today get busy cant try another time hope leon shows up shitty feeling wake know whether best friend still alive not,1 +lemme explain jojo plot simple possible blue haired guy beaths shit stepbro tried magic mask revenge steals head brown haired guy beats shit outnof gay men sunlight powers dressing woman looking mothers ass black haired guy stepbro epic starebattle imaginary friends purple clothed men wants live peacefully fight son woman brown haired guy cheated yellow dude donut hair son blue haired guy stebro shares fathers italian maffia,0 +know someone whos planning whats best course actiontheyve talking weeks planning redflag soon want give away many details theyve told plan date ive tried get them feel powerless highly doubt anything say change mind im one theyve really told well ive relayed lot information one friends feel like nearly enough called hotline really said just give number im desperate freaking out much time left know do anyone advice,1 +question think phones radiation bad you mom thinks im trying get evidence false true want share opinion give sources please do,0 +know contains spoilers not want risk blacklisted year br br i disagree entirely viewer comments described guns germs steel politically correct neomarxist cannot watched series i didbr br the series i watched depicted history european colonisation americas southern africa particular inaccuracies saw nothing series portrayed europeans bad people happened lucky though europeans often were lucky theres nothing wrong luck neither see native peoples portrayed poor little innocent things anything inca rather arrogant would expect leader would dealing foreigners country conquered living memory world power br br i certainly saw nothing could construed marxist neomarxist except incredibly elastic imaginationsbr br otherwise many african peoples do builtin immunity malaria tropical diseases europeans lack time height successes aztec maya inca civilisations were advanced world wealthy sometimes so aboriginal american khoisan populations were decimated smallpox diseases introduced europeans european colonists decimated tropical diseases like malaria note khoisan peoples completely different subsaharan african peoples br br so see commentators complaining about thing i find complain series tell anything know time finished seventh grade theres really nothing new way historical information film does however present nice dramatisations events conquest incas production values high fills holes get covered mrs grubers sixth hour social studies class milan middle schoolbr br if rent buy this assuming decent primary andor secondary school education learn anything new enjoyable entertaining time reviewing already learned or learned time hit high school,0 +film one resounding familiarity it earthy grounded film make thinkand smile paul reiser peter falk take journey forget soundtrack beautifully varied fitting film like breath fresh air surely deserves recognition film actors finally piece art departs obvious love story frequent special affects seen today never walked movie deep warmth feeling thoughtfulness heart felt someone wrapped fluffy fleece blanket see film find real treasure delight it,0 +best gun ammo commit redflag withbudget k willing consider options convenient effective firearm license permit something would need get beforehand location georgia usa im planning shot head planning heroine overdose id probably mess injection since im good needles pay someone kill me also open option,1 +feel like im years old body mind,0 +story wrongly executed prisoner haunts prison electrocuted kills random prisoners waiting take revenge man framed himbr br viggo mortensen great acting pretty good overall lane smith deliciously wicked guilty warden also film great gore including death barbedwire mummification,0 +consider suicidal buti dont know right place post yeahh say im suicidal see future happy living world maybe im lazy idk im pretty analytical think killing would best option im afraid dying know im going kill myself im junior highschool help understand means really ever feel motivated im really happy time im particularly depressed sorry ramble ive talked doctor not depression terrible adhd mom loses job im it dont feel like dealing shit dont feel like ever anything prolly going delete ramble tldr cant imagine future dont want live backwards society consider suicidal wonder anybody else knows feel,1 +careful data want call names someone dms asks download app likely they steal data quick buck spam ads quick buck created ripoff quick buck please dummy use common sense even see whatever asked download positive feedback buying person china cheap buying fake feedback cheaper download shit teenager subreddit everyone think ahead oh yea one thing do give away personal information think twice talking someone personal information think even think careful one safe that thanks time wonderful day,0 +im happy im blackdying cop x easier,1 +ready unreadyi got everything planned out written redflag note plan kill myself think everyday kill finding harder harder talk it,1 +hate myself hate fucking much want here suck cannot talk anyone anymore without bringing shitty thoughts lately seriously cannot friend talk pathetic existence would love someone save me far beyond broken reached breaking point long fucking time ago done tired exhausted redflag mind put through like enough seriously relentless feel like enough stop hate here miss happy miss waking actually looking forward things tired trying find safety thoughts tired isolating fucked friend right now like seriously want things get better not know happen me really not really know one people affects seriously cannot endure it empty enough like taken take please stop nothingi want nothing ambition want anything stop please stop want find peace venting,1 +feel like im play one without scripti never get social cues anymore read peoples emotions faces anymore ive started isolate everybody tbh know happened me used different social many friends guess must caught something makes complete socially awkward person now anxiety get well makes life fucking hard live moments want turn mind increasingly reaching limit feel fucking retarded ive tried get help many times many occasions obvious time ive suppressed im going make sure anymore might read couple weeks think damn would fucking consider that makes much sense thats im conflicted do,1 +hey wsp bigmanwoman daily homie checkup missed many days,0 +im wits endi figured id come get everything out seeing pretty much nowhere else turn moment everything sort piled onto feel like worth continuing life appeal right now feels like older get worse get handed physically mentally sexually abused childhoodadolescence cant get it caused develop severe problems depression anxiety selfworth issues cant keep steady relationship anyone im constantly questioning every move last night boyfriend broke me enough finally told actually loved now im left wondering wrong make someone says care leave top issues everyone around school im finish sophomore year university cant deal anymore able keep grades keep getting worse worse cant even sit classes without leave frequent panic attacks im physical pain percent time number things wrong body medicine working anymore cant take pain anymore figure im going weak sick rest however long have itd easier end things now know anymore nothing seems work make feel better im tired given me know millions people worse me ending seems like easy option right now know redflag seems selfish cant help think do,1 +im social outcast get picked many people school know why im always stepped treated like garbage friends entered bike shed today someone said the rarded gang here im prone name calling people walking saying they want friend hear irony voices that tips reddit,0 +infinite values twice many infinite values figure out math pricks,0 +better die means saving hersometimes vivid thoughts usually dreams sometimes happen im awake too ampxb see her bruised bloodied crying front me see feel warmth hands feel smell blood like see hurt dont always beautiful matter looks sounds like time always see her bleeding head cowering fear horrible always know im responsible sometime even sobs stop cant take it know never ever loved ever wanted but even infinitesimally small chance could reality better die loneliness enough make want kill myself even somehow somehow wrong that better die anyway protect whoever future victim wouldve been know ill never loved saw experienced physical sexual emotional abuse whos say girl love worth dying too make sure that chance future girlfriend exist finds someone actually take care instead someone wholl carry pain,1 +cannot take anymore redflag redflag feeling hopelessness loneliness smallest thing set makes want end all try talk feelings others end scaring friends away making parents mad end getting fights loved ones want kill badly courage feel bad parents thought jumping balcony many times think family discovering corpse cannot iton second thought people say entitled make things head make effort get better might well since seems life worth anyway want nothing never exist,1 +please help boy i am boy iam completely exhausted day face problems sometime parents fight like extremesometimes due financial pressure many things know handle never share problems always tries try handle things own never express feelings easily always tries look happy forcing smile mostly stay alone think hours hours today got results failed whole well faced major accident bones broked hardly stand straight somtime think redflag hanging self fan pillar,1 +knewif knew years abuse through earliest memories life caused develop depression anxiety fear expressing emotions trying hardest cry least alone behind closed doors knew constant pain put through innocent little girl without mommy thanks marriage ended divorce made sure know war taking everything mommy ever adored courts im even daughter anymore unless count supervised visits last couple minutes took life clothes home papaws belongings gone daughter lost father going divorce told lost custody baby girl people knew many times yelled knowing do years old drunk driving home grew always ignored leaving home alone get drunk party more occassions pick drinking whole night through remember find jacket remember one navy blue got angry threw across room front aunt cousins put arm protect scared little girl becoming teenager want heard lied avoid punishment scared talk you knew amount times grabbed hair threw floor hit head pushed floor knew slot belongs broken you holes bedroom wall thing threw yelling me never caring pain caused would linger throughout adult years father one ill love lose knew much wish mess emotions wish could tell im sorry took venting right rude always appreciated loving kind wish knew loved every moment spent getting closer you wish knew amount love you knew find love could heal past abuse a,1 +mean why well die anyway someday could die want considered bad insane past japan example normal thing commit suicide remove shame even honourable ok kill day kind protest cannot kill nothing even suffering much like know form shame like understand big deal humans die anyway someday matter die years earlier later times ok honourable death let it see optimistically negatively like fuck up die know describe see optimistically like suffer much still want die things fucked up see relief salvation fuck ups know sound like kid feels cool me like feeling watch movie tough good guy main character even tough code like kill children stab back give chance defend etc like codes seems cool thing feels like code too feels cool too bad kill,1 +best friend killed himself want join himmy best friend killed end september still cant handle it im f m amazing person ever known told last june plans commit redflag tried support him killed months afterwards know that time reason would want live hurts much left me one would could help called crying late one night test next day am came spent night took test two hours sleep aced genius ever going find guy like again loved him never told him died alone feeling like unloved ive cried every night since died wishing could join death cant feel anything anyone else made feel beautiful loved cared way never thought possible hes goneforever im failure failed him never made feel like made feel used put hand cheek tell beautiful perfect girl world him now pretend pillow hand cry sleep failed him insecure intimacy issues never told beautiful man world everything led hard tragic life still found strength take care everyone cared for including me told father sexually abused me expected run door instead held told accepted loved matter what still beautiful him im sobbing remembering unconditional love gave me cant exist without him reach arms air sometimes im trying fall asleep hoping feel arms around again tell loved him assume would see again feel guilty want feel love again smell hugs me gave best hugs world want die again want tell love him shanei love you im sorry died alone there im sorry died feeling like one loved you do shown heart maybe would stayed im sorry love heart know wanted live cant without you one me stupid let in ill see soon love first time ive called that cassie,1 +whats pointevery irl friend ever made stopped talking slowly except one dog thing could consistently make happy died months ago recently drop school keep due mix depression anxiety recently diagnosed adhd parents stopped supporting financially way meds even covered health care stop going psychologist cant afford go anymore friends roommates next year said want live them im gonna find somewhere live own enjoy anything anymore friend left confidence make friends easily always sad night alone own want peaceful nothingness death tried before something stopped me think friend roommate april want one find dead whats point working job enjoy struggle pay life even want live,1 +cope losing parent redflagmy dad committed redflag week ago alcoholic along many mental demons put lot shit throughout years past couple years mostly avoided phone calls making trips visit him never doubted dad loved me want deal him guess feel guilty care try help more really needed me guess ive realized late im trouble coping know go feel better anyone help me,1 +ik everyone else tired life perspectivewith school back session computer screen fear look like act every little fucking thing bubbles inside me im afraid people especially ones age ive always complimented strive well school reason dont fail every class thing left control life besides barcode marks wrists thighs never skinny even moderate average weight heavy baby birth nothing changed lost lbs stopped eating bit lead pain surprise im pussy comes pain even lbs gone im still overweight im basically weight middle school concentrate hard look like faces make people around hopes dont comment body behind back hear want fall asleep never wake up feeling ease sleep brings every night blissful know next morning ill wake headache matter much medicine take much water drink always there fogs sense right wrong think little trickle blood thigh scrape it want get away mother whenever see break crying reminds shit shes said me youre going hell sin unless pray stop boy girl shes referring gender identity nonsense many times sobbed front begging stop saying things ignored me youd really easy let guy you time told older man staring across restaurant licking lips smiling simply said its part life ill deal now never mentioned times grown men locked eyes far long ive caught staring body dont wanna feel like object display mother perfect daughter always tells her men stare make never want go outside again classmates whisper behind back fucking big ass big tits are stupid game called life know im going win try anyone,1 +dont know im thinkinghis might end wall text apologize advance life crazy past months bit long story so four five years ago i next month met ended relationship with somebody went elementary school dance earlier years know long known eachother alot common music arts movies things along lines edgy kids cried depression slit wrists fuck living in love we time really good experience eventually started going back forth months eventuality split mutual reasons never really lost feelings her id harm almost daily throughout high school depression bloomed knew still feelings thing respected that went traumatic phase age started meeting men internet sex free app claimed men sometimes older regret every day alive feel though taken advantage young age occurred years kept secret never tested stds scared dont believe symptoms skip senior year high school never really stopped talking kind acquaintances friends still knew ourselves watched go abusive relationship lasted years really hurt watch feel like couldve saved that eventually ended class together started talking alot more long story short ended going prom together really good time thought things went well dropped house gave hug went hangout friends afterwards let know actually went go talk ex the abusive one dropped off ended getting back together night prom start darkest time didnt least tell me even still feelings her whatever stopped talking rest school year never really talked again self harming never stopped got exceedingly worse deep cuts arms elbow down stopped caring everything wanted end life still worked shitty part time job ended alot drugs snortingpopping pills cocaine bud graduating stopped talking everyone knew became even alone developed crippling social anxiety month short year ago got new job paid decent money self harming still didnt stop still feeling girl broke abusive guy year graduating got right new relationship another guy still didnt talk still knew life going months new job turns also got job place plan kill started pull through also mutual friend also worked there made little better sense would involved conversations her worse sense would endure presence thought everyday ending life would thing could really make happy still new bf always complained me started giving support advice started regularly talking conversations lives better understanding eachother eventually ended confessed felt discussion work one night contained felt other turned feelings me astonished didnt act anything yet since wounds last relationship fresh months line weve talking becoming pretty close one night work wanted us people work go dinner went super flirty entire time night ended us car since drove us ended kiss little awkward happiest ive years weve close since basically act like couple kissing cuddling ect happiest ive years still continue suicidal thoughts still checked stds still think younger im still anxious depressed fucking hate myself recently alone car together as usual leaving work parking somewhere since would late go either houses thing got turned topic sex ended explaining occurred younger first time ive told somebody this took understandingly open minded explained change feelings agreed go clinic recently sex days conversation condom checked she okay this made sure least thousand times know regret not really want work officially together something even condom could happen could fucked life still want kill myself put bad mindset decided things dint work ill end today went walmart work guess visibly upset drive there park explained that shes worried me friend also works us spoke day said shes worried us becoming close again thinks dont work shes worried im going end life gameplan didnt say anything minute everything kind built head one ended hysterically crying front her didnt really explain why left i dont know acceptable since knows effects depression care deeply still want die never thought opportunity would ever happen still want blow head off almost wish wasnt happening couldve killed without getting close end hurting even already is dont know do feel lost,1 +yall got weird fetishes kinks ok ill start feedism specifically feedee gaining weight fat stuff general feet furry breastmilk armpits tickling hairy girls dommy mommy and kind man im horrible person,0 +even worth tryis worth try life could possibly worth constant uphill battle everyday is cant think anything realistically could make better trying life amount suffering,1 +need go horny jail someone please honors,0 +sleep deprived shadow people corner room shown seem pretty chill ngl helped homework,0 +meturns easy looks movies cant even imagine willpower someone must right hit me one time deal willpower develops slowly practice cut small blade suprisingly doesnt hurt much like small burn moderate wound anyway survival instinct kicks,1 +ive decided kms todayidk yet,1 +past years feeling like want continue want stop existing even know explain even know main problem anymore lot self esteem issues still have parents divorced friends somehow managed get point graduated got job wanted trusted friends girlfriend overall improvement still feel even understand drives nuts know do lost desire live,1 +decided commit redflag tonighti hit rock bottom never gets better im year old woman already feel old moment filled suffering hope finally get peace death good luck all,1 +yall eat today didnt please get food glass water,0 +struggles selfesteem reaching helpfirstly know post right place forgive me also want sound like kind dude complains able get girlfriend im going sake clearing mind im lbs attractive whole body region however physical appearance altered vigorous work hardcore determination both things motivation do focus post selfesteem know low selfesteem depression different things one lead other now lot posts ive reading subreddit people seem say showing low selfesteem huge turn women question is change view feel pathetic hopeless already ive trying wrap head around long time like couple years ive hated long something needs change really want change appearance mental health hopefully gain love wonderful woman someday also love myself however find extremely difficult improve physical mental health im looking guidance advice thanks read,1 +yall ever just skubadamabaamsa,0 +huge problem self sabotage cannot enjoy life issues mind time forefront background distract life using phone television every time feel like life going good get redflag going come crashing deserve happiness work customer service really good putting fake smile playing part really happy pleasant person cannot keep people life love feel like huge burden anyone attached to fuck myslef,1 +kind hope get firedive holding bit two things job cowardice feel obligated job however got email saying someone wants meet immediate boss already called bosss boss know make mad point know care did hope fire theres one thing left probably leave world cowardice thats easy overcome,1 +leaving someone made need itthank existing ampxb ampxb ive scrolling community last min many feel like dead end therapist survivor need talk someone chat open ampxb ampxb friendly reminder this shall pass,1 +seriously helpim good emotional stuff friend contemplating whether died would anyone family friends care want see anyone help help,1 +everyone thinks im okim fucking okay,1 +things baddoesnt feel worth pushing havent told anyone yet im really ready tell family diagnosed neurological disorder auditory processing disorder memory disorder transient aphasia something else tia tai maybe something temporary lack blood flow brain altered alertness something else said didnt mention voice ive hearing im sure couldve handled bad news altered alertness right gets bad sometimes find room house clue got there remember elsewhere im somewhere else memory transport thats right word cant think word want travel transfer im supposed drive tremors extremities prompted go back doctor sometimes get bad cant hold phone pencil wasnt prepared news got said likely permanent result accident earlier year screenings done due bleeding disorder mixture coughing blood realizing dont clot trying hand something theres really one person want talk it cant idk last month almost jumped high rise window probably shoulda it really something want do feel like might best course ive lost year ever thought could alone though all mean counts felt alone one gets it well one person gets it dont feel like talk it unsolicited vehicle makes think much better year ago myself knew exactly waking blind faith kept walking cant faith anymore sometimes universe tries tell something miss life could had tired storms tired dont like anymore im person thought was theres never safety net even one promises there decides arent worth saving leaves lot happened today think ill drink tonight dont think much else,1 +surrounded people yet feel lonely cannot rely anyone scared opening up want get college one help one cheering me spent year nothing one wanted help me everything could still enough even went things never imagine id earn enough money trying pay education yet still labelled useless family members see point continuing life anymore know deep inside still want live would ranting out want one reason live please tired feel lost,1 +cant stop sobbingcorbin acting weird started ignoring longdistance boyfriend months well ex finally says made feel trapped feeling depressed cut back talking him feeling really depressed was cut first time cutting made promise to promised immediately stopped talked even less less going person thought best friend the friend pretty much too suffering anorexia become self absorbed never anytime me browse instagram uses vent things trashing me come first person told cutting trashed me then friend cut last night threw face like something proud something bothered hell like could tell people would pity her time exfriend angry upset told wanted tell tell something make better make things worse corbin tells cant cant date blames grandfathers death redflag friend confessed love explained commitment me says hes broken cant love loves himself want lose cant me help cut again im ashamed made promise hurt never try anything like killing myself knew cut said able take anymore hes take life im fucking health hazard ive asthmalike attacks weekly gym asthma medicine doctor gave help fucking working ive chronic leg pain years doctor said tight muscles sent physical therapist theyre sending test determine need surgery not cant fucking take much more mean also fact mentally challenged kid class talks acts exactly like one people sexually assaulted life talk time want curl cry thing stopping downing every fucking pill house would hurt corbin fucking love much want batter want mine again needs friendship ill give that,1 +guess im tiredhi male straight single suppose reasons wish dead healthy reasonably well paid job doesnt require much effort problems alcohol drugs nobody molested child etc doesnt make sense job shit fat cats top get even fatter also especially good that family dont it frankly dont much desire make one last time girlfriend mistaken friends nope two one dead km away hobbys dont either used like read dont read anymore except taking shit serious problem could tried live solve see life would like without it serious problems im kinda bland person guess life also bland boring mildly irritating bought g propranolol couple weeks ago think suffice,1 +knowing ill die honestly dont give fuck math grade anymorei math im homework anything know im probably going die soon dad keeps telling retake math test wont ive always terrible math ive stopped caring it everyday day over somebody kill already,1 +really wanna dieive mildly depressed years now past month terrible everyday want nothing death young im dont care ahead many people would say thing stopping ending life would fact dont want brother mom find body see general somebody please offer advice,1 +hey reddit well idk say know reddit place put random shit well wanted become music producer since kid failed im want kill myself love respect others please dont rude life hard nonsenseim sorry everybody really am music everything let go ive making music life slowly started losing inspiration motivation idk end see life take me,1 +jessica albas max valerie rae millers original cindy shines actionpacked atmospheric serial wonderfully politically incorrect quality varies greatly episode episode generally standard high not jessica always worth looking at valeries urban jivetalking afroamerican occationally almost dragging dark angel sitcom territory,0 +fuck guys someone made post saying fuck girls fight fire fire say fuck guys guys certain types guys dedicated fucking horny negative iq guys say send nudes make chad memes sexist general post you youre nice respectful sexist stuff post dedicated you thank u respectful like this simps guys thinking sex toys im sure girls tired receiving messages sayingsend thicc thighs pathetic horny fucks girls created arouse men guys use us like fucking toys fuck you youre pathetic virgin jerks hot video game characters ask girls send nudes go fucking hell make us wanna girls guys think weak well guess fucking what bleed every month get fucking cramps give birth one painful things ever guys get horny ask girls send thick thighs everyday careful outside since might weird dude might kidnapp rape sell us yes deal everyday girls cant even wear clothes want like girl wants show skin cant without guy staring boobies personally im thinking wearing one things wrap around chest looks like dont boobs im uncomfortable time see girl without makeup youll say shes ugly like dont look pretty guys lmfaooo yours fuck girl stereotype like tik tok cute toys makeup stuff girls like things us fuck moral story hard girl stop fucking dick yall shit girls time simple chad memes this posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskmpvtfuck_girlsutm_sourceshareampamputm_mediumios_appampamputm_nameiossmf also fuck simps theyre fucking troglodytes again shitty guys all lot guys amazing cool thanks listening ted talk edit lmao guys sad yall really getting salty post ima lose hope humanity look know men hard lives too maybe lives hard women comes society toxic mindset men feelings toughen makes things hard post dedicated womens problem horny men stop fucking selfish once im tired wont check comments while wanna argue comment shit check comments first,0 +teenage trump supporters give best reasons would vote upcoming election,0 +difference really make long scheme thingsi simply wanna live anymore ask brought world sure hell aint waiting taken world think motherfuckers seem selfish even fucking know am say give shit saying suppose to,1 +tell parents talking towould date year old guy im young grade hes freshman college friends turning month two turn turns like months turn ugh dont know hate sneak around hang time parents would like wtf hes no would parents say,0 +im kicked bed cat idgaf hes cutest mother fucker live,0 +hey anyone wanna talk im feeling kinda lonely im yr male hit,0 +life time little richard told little richard produced directed little richard one sided one songs biography even docudrama good writing great energy outstanding leading actor playing richard music little richard rocks tight lipsync every songbr br the movie covers early childhood carrys thru formative years music wild success richards throwing away praise lord tied together well obvious comeback manages stay away idea little richard discovered beatles opened himbr br my main objection outrageous counter cultural behavior underplayed get feel audience experienced time energy still has come across full force seemed tame compared remember timebr br the best scenes richard getting jilted lucille writing song strip bikini shorts performing make point decent place changebr br if gotten bronze liberace richard use refer interviews theres story trust saw perform couple months ago still flirts pretty white boys giving one particularly good dancer audience headband nearly still going strong recommend movie concert tv appearance find little richard always,0 +starting feel like im heading direction feel lost stuck like able get outi think im starting run energy life ive stuck grad school longer coworkers lab ive able get new friendships people many friends left new jobs friendships thought could something good ended rather abruptly bluntly meanwhile ive destructive one ive wholeheartedly wanted want fix feel one know theyll want that therapist asked discussions come emotion feel like put enough emotional energy upset happy sad briefly nothing left give emotion wise think eaten every aspect life right feel motivation care something it ive always told therapist extent close friends feel like want end life finally absolutely alone feel like day day indecision move forward things gonna slowly push people opportunities away days im sad woken again sometimes thing keeping excited getting say hello someone else going difficult time knowing still here know posted here maybe get without overburdening people anyways,1 +im social outcasti hangout parents look social media wishing dating cute girls thats life right now im stuck stupid hot ex years ago im tired it never meant get anyones way wanted peaceful life know guess im overthinking im lost right now,1 +died one year hardcore world started begging quarantine died help cope,0 +going it thinking lotfor years now ive thought bad memory imagine future ill involuntarily mutter want kill myself lately ive felt weird compulsion write redflag note thought might way im telling let feelings out able kill tried like thoughts case decide act point,1 +get class major next quarter im killing myself yes know stupid soundsi know stupid sounds look big picture second year computer science student next quarter school zero open seats class relevant field im very far away waitlist right now somewhere around th classes hold people im taking gen ed classes next quarter obviously notoriously easy classes honestly think handle it reason ive able hold together college far love major pour heart classes perform really well im im going go mind boredom mention tuition parents paying k fucking nothing make progress major basically sit waitlist already hate it ive got nothing ge classes theyre necessary nice filler taking really hard classes im already burnt out motivation keep going hate here want quit now theres reason keep going anyways,1 +going kill tomorrowall hope gone pain unbearable kind pain cant describe am laying warm bed satiated responsiblities tomorrow mostly alone groups friends still much pain whats painful everything tried answer questions around years really know answer know whats bothering know hurt much cant handle pain like people last straw going psychiatrist tried years ago brintelix seroxat honestly sometimes feel like meds help suicidal thoughts always come backeven meds ive suicidal thoughts since primary school always thought things would different continued living parents grandfather grandfather good person overall person liked matter what proud me died cancer months ago think better place happy life either whole life tried nice people tried improving myself satisfied become never satisfied myself honestly many things wrong even bother writing them mostly feel like people like me love me nice friend always everything help anyone want something people makes feel good gives purpose live good student primary school highschool things like myself know hurt parents cant stand pain anymore sorry enjoy things enjoy waking morning like faculty enrolled cant find satisfaction things even good enough things example little really enjoyed playing soccer tried playing it since good kids people would angry me liked playing video games quite good them lost interest cut life cuz school responsibilites crushes life never liked back go sometimes friends sometimes fun fun hold around last thing really broke last crush crushes life ive never though much never loved never spent much time them last one different first time saw attracted looks anything even thinking her year hanging started studying together spending much time other got know better realised liked looks also know how happend liked spending time her exact opposite kind like role model me good people always finds positive things everyone tell everything think tried suppresing love years hanging told liked romanticaly wanted stay friends day hard would like around time even though likes likes people more know everyone goes unrequited love hurts much cant deal it also saw hard told need find someone else like others much tried find somebody else everyone including her told right thing do found girls chatted also saw liked spending time me also like romanticaly fine hurt much even felt good tried something saw atleast liked friend girls asked always come chat whenever see me every day find hating good enough crush also nightmares every night sleep well all also read physical activity helps problems try run every day bed help thinking throwing building high builidng really hard access town even went it now bought gun probably shoot head life much me know change head dont strenght anymore cant go on cant stop thinking her cant stop thinking bad things sorry,1 +im lowi dont know anymore ive failed badly life ive hurt ones love everyone hates hope way life get better,1 +anyone talk tonighti feel lonely think irl friends something fun tonight dont even reply messages,1 +need talk someonethis throwaway ok im happy drunk rn next thing know see pair scissors think wow could cut wrists real bad right wow really wanna it feel pain see blood clean wounds bandage go business but havent thought cutting years cant like really want cut rn tf whats wrong help still need help sorry scattered im drunk rn need talk stranger please someone see talk please need someone talk someone help please,1 +corona positive school someone school got positive corona friends quarantine best friends tested positive corona also got positive thing touch phone sometimes watch youtube play games th day hospital wanted make post im super bored quarantine thing hard boring feels like im monster keep locked wish luck ,0 +took bunch sleep aid heres hoping dont wake upi guess long time coming nothing life makes sense life absolutely shitty day born ive fight battles one face living nightmare people arent meant alive want yeet longer find purpose drive so eyes open awful life really is born worst luck ever dont understand raped molested jobless almost years dumped homeless exabused parent disowned family abused narcissistic ex coerced sex man ghosted lover told cant job medical marijuana card im looking possible homelessness future inability move roommate supposed move boulder colorado next year havent able find work trying doesnt seem helping all im lose lose situation feel meds working im tired brain keeps shuddering like flickering read type text theres pressure behind eyes think im getting headache dont understand universe thinks one person endure this note really dont want god comments leave god this dont believe dont put here thanks reading this maybe wont forgotten afterall,1 +stupid question swmaybe understand updown vote mechanism seems people downvoting submissions sw least downvotes ever downvoted submission would please explain why thanks,1 +time end iti think time bother anymore hurts pain alive havent school like months didnt even realise summer break half skipped school months previous that im loser nothing life nothing brings happiness future want goals life friends forget month two anyway mom sad cant live life her collecting anti depressants sometime now think enough todays day goodbye,1 +got first job thats,0 +guy im talking showing interest one friends literally followed one small rappers looks he k dmed im waiting follow back think wil bcus follows like k ppl k followers hes gonna least request see look like im gonna post private story make sure guy sees,0 +heads upim still here still alive posted that ended sitting awake daughters room whole night listened breathe changed woke up ended holding chest slept hugged me hugged tight wrapped little arm around bicep squeezed hard could sleep whispered loveyou morning told wife needed real help im counseling now helpful next step drugs everyone knows,1 +worthless againim starting feel like shit again almost funny last couple days comfortable periods inner peace remember life really worth living mean whats point really whats point live life loneliness hatred shame guilt stress people shit living expectations terrible mistake also laughing stock society out several reasons get better never get better unless willing make fucking change hard thing do also impossible achieve since motivation continue living world lets say anymore pleasant lies admit person longer truly human disgusting hopeless toxic unworthy abomination fucking hurts im tired im tired feeling like shit time im tired alone im tired purpose talent would help decent life im tired inferior literally everyone see im tired stupid assed college asshole mother even try understand manipulates like stupid animal tired people looking like im fucking ghost im tired seeing crushes everyday knowing deep inside ill never good enough them burns inside time even painful hear people talking dreams what dreams goals life well since dreams fucking simple apparently boring world one option left dream get high fucking building make thousands cuts ugly ass body jump off hopefully hit ground ill messed heart continue beating sorry writing boring mess post today everything went crashing me stand anymore sorry bitch poor english first language im fuckin lazy learn properly good luck all,1 +dog reason stayed alive last years beautiful german shepherd starting slow health problems hopeful around much longer terrifiedi know passes every time worked courage kill myself thought dog trying find living rest life without makes cry eventually snap it prepared lose think ever ready dog getting old terrified,1 +best way make voice sound better recording ask lot you lot respond super fast ampxb find whenever record voice sound depressed quiet sound like care talk want change recording youtube videos voice annoying least think ampxb recorded three different videos friends could bring editpost videos reason ampxb ideas going talk louder know quiet especially compared friends take elastics talk braces talk closer mic ampxb else canshould do,0 + jump front car hear parents sex going kill,1 +anyone else want leave subreddit weird reason feel obligated stay,0 +cant take longerive suicidal months therapy medicine worked im starting intensive partial hospitalization program monday every day agony even think make then cant function nothing distracts thoughts anymore keep trying reach people one replies cutting even helping calm anymore absolutely hope reached end,1 +efforts asking help worthlessi called national redflag help hotline worthless called back let know worthless are even though feel guilty people good intentions completely worthless called help ushered questionnaire funding first time ive reached help failed me know alone confirmed cant rely anyone help make feel better especially im worst fuck you im going go kill thats confirmed completely reaching worthless,1 +admit something wont mind giving guy sloppy fvcking ass go cause shit gay af,0 +lifes kinda bruh im really tired life ive gotten point life enjoyable stuff like moment mom figures im fun gets mad being electronics much like electronics things stayed havent left me wont betray give insights characters lives new life fun me really dont care im addicted electronics real way find enjoyment life deal with all thanks,0 +nut face warm good holy shit want guy bust,0 +helpim brain wants kill myself dont want kill all feel scared right now want call hotline something dont want something happen would get parents involved this dont want know me dont trust them please someone talk dont even know want anyone say scared,1 +utoharpm appreciation post u pog ,0 +question redditors told parents sexuality bisexual didnt approve dont want associated future acts situation,0 +got free award going it im giving myself why fuck thats,0 +going try killing myselfits something new,1 +small pov story wrote okay picture this house late night chilling bed finally shut youtube go sleep sudden distance hear soft snip snip pull earbuds make sure heard correctly sit silence waiting sound alas nothing shake head go back video two seconds hear sound again closer now snipsnip time take earbuds off put know heard sound hear soft pitter patter feet coming towards hall towards door grab lamp nearest weapon close you embrace robber one begin relax sudden nowhere jump window pair scissors scream happy late circumcision one swift movement chop dick add ever growing collection,0 +help stay idk milligrams caffeine im trying stay watch finale wandavision,0 +im soi dont even know,1 +say county usually say cowny slowly sometimes becomes caany like aaa sound like bat,0 +finally sincerely need them appears ash broken now meant therehi internets id like think kind one another area last decade some thanks part that today different though way one way another desperate minimize collateral damage feel safe way out right live city apartment exits ive found hanging travel hanging sketches id balcony people would see travel back homestate easily purchase suitable means fact already much storage someplace lately cant tie shoes clean catbox getting ass onto plane train automobile stretch hoped might help refine plans rules changed certainly reading pms account toomuchcrazy already one problems since needed happen reason make totally pointless likely event plan b balcony tomorrow apologize heart see something hurtful them hope helps moment peace different story love bye,1 +broke w boyfriend im sad fuck feelings fuck stupid robot deleting post cos doesnt enough words enough words u rusty little shit,0 +honestly know dojust last hour roommates unanimously agreed go family fall back emptied bank account trying make sure roommates covered bills money support without roommate even buy food subsist of lost vehicle transport stuff get work cant find place go nearby,1 +im suicidal againgoddamnit casual too easily kill self today feeling always leaves soon dont know,1 +literally cant stop comparing everyonei feel like people around well perfect college applications stats friends living cant help look people around feel shit cant like that causes constant anxiety hate much wish could stop feeling everything,1 +need read reviewbr br an earlier review pninson seattle already identified main shortcomings production amplify basic argumentsbr br bleak house relatively late dickens novel much darker earlier work taken literally director ross devenish piles gloom fog much ada rick esther appear half hour opening episode relief daylight first time murkier scenes hard see actually tv screen watched whole thing one day starting midafternoon daylight faded became less issue pretty good tv never encountered problem time daybr br the pacing deliberate ie slow sure intensional overdone numerous shots people trudging though muck gloom victorian london held longer necessary establish mood atmosphere good editor could probably take several minutes fiftyminute episode without losing line dialogue trimming scenes slightlybr br i want overstate two problems soon adjust look pace production important issue always tell story effectively earlier dickens novels long bleak house nearly intricately plotted example recently reread nicholas nickleby intrigued see douglas mcgrath crammed page book twohour movie answer simple book full padding mcgrath cut great swathes novel still retaining essential story elements would possible bleak house br br this production needs seven hours probably needs even longer many elements convoluted plot sufficiently clear well handled need be random examples illustrate problemsbr br the maid rosa appears nowhere background lady dedlocks attachment largely unmotivatedbr br sergeant georges acquiescence tulkinhorns demand sample hortons handwriting somewhat fudgedbr br it made clear enough esther actually love woodcourt agrees marry john jarndyce neither clear agreed announce engagement whybr br ada ricks secret marriage omitted one episode merely lovers next people suddenly referring husband wifebr br mrs rouncewell introduced late stage story sargeant georges estrangement family left unexplained means discoveredbr br tulkinhorns dedication maintaining honour respectability dedlock family understated motive persecuting lady dedlock obscure need bebr br the involvement brick makers tom later lady dedlock somewhat opaquebr br it obvious guppy renews offer esther smallpox scars vanishedbr br this selection others major problems main thrust story clear enough nonetheless minor irritations detract power puzzle little plot points however important structural problems weaken story later stagesbr br the whole business tulkinhorns murder somewhat thrown away bucket immediately pinpoints hortense suspect undermines suspense sergeant georges predicament importance finding mrs rouncewell also diminishes impact subplot suspicion thrown lady dedlock weakens scene hortense unmasked front sir lesterbr br a serious problem murder investigation subsequent search lady dedlock dominate story hour time completely lose sight main plot strand legal case effect rick failing finances gouging vholes skimpole adas despair declining health on put hold entire episode may dickens wrote book i read years good screenplay keep different plot strands moving forward togetherbr br finally smallweeds role story diminished almost superfluous discovery new will triggers final phase story also thrown away happens screenbr br despite this still good production many performances outstanding individual scenes beautifully realised accumulating sense tragedy powerful would still recommending superb adaptation great book production fact probably fully aware defects seen andrew davies better critical daviess jane austen adaptations admit really knows tame dickenss sprawling booksbr br this impressive gripping drama well worth seven hours anybodys time nonetheless probable fate viewed mainly crossreference neardefinitive version,0 +please helpthis new account way hi please help really suicidle lately tried kill mins ago voices telling ages cut arms legs really badly taken lots meds redflag attempt idk do shower try stop bleeding hurt much cut arms legs mins ago took meds shower mins ago im shaking really bad im scared badly voices head wont stop really mean telling keep hurting take meds jump building near house autism add schizophrenia im f ft in effects overdosing idk apparently does really scared im kinda happy idk im crying alot though voices telling days i took bunch concerta clozapine prozac think took like meds total yeah tummy hurts bad feels like really bad cramps cant move alot without stomach hurting wearing hoodie try stop arms legs its super large hoodie getting blood everywhere working think really really sorry it im sorry really regret posting this shit im sorry really im sorry,1 +like guys gals facial piercings dang attractive give cute punk sort vibe love it also shows theyre willing accessorise explore,0 +ill always aloneill never held loved again ill die fucking alone one cares killed myself freinds im worthless peice shit deserve alone shouldve ended life sooner,1 +wasnt paying attention time im gonna go die now minutes like minutes less usual bad fuck,0 +friendfemale said lot veins arms compliment take grain salt really want misinterpret anything want ruin good friendship starting overthink ton,0 +aussie gothpunk clothing store f im tryna dress gothpunkas rlly like kinda style cant find clothing stores rlly sell kind stuff dont like ordering online much stores good clothes arent australia anyone got suggestion aussie gothpunk clothing store also dont want anything inappropriate again im short shorts rlly small cropped tops seductive clothing goth clothing sometimes is also find hard accessorise gothpunk accessory suggestions welcome just saying dont like wearing crosses bc im christian spiritual stuff like zodiac signs dont believe either,0 +honestly cant wait overi felt like shit struggling years opened close months ago backfired im treated like joke almost everyone know knew would happen too tried therapy drugs work either,1 +racist guys think america is im american want see people think,0 +watched bbc support blm ampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampampamp,0 +feel like im doomed lifetime failure disappearthis first time posting reddit apologise formatting errors need vent hopefully get someone help me remember last time truly happy life honest wonder ive ever happy child grow loving home dad physically emotionally abusive towards mum sister i result left scars us sister also slew issues well used kick call worthless managed move started seventh grade right family anxiety ridden mother even want help here thing ive suffered depression life sad im pretty quite intelligent yet cant seem feel happy anything hell cant even aim achieve dreams live country job market people age studying university terrible feel like im destined lifetime failure want die one even understands feel yet every day pretend im fine fact im far that someone please help me want happy,1 +took paracetamolsem well title pretty self explanatory took paracetamols last hour want die doubt going even anything honest im fool,1 +ventingim sitting alone airport car eaten donut friend force fed could sober work im still little hungover drinking problem party last night birthday today im twenty im college work two job life awful drive beach thinking badly want terribly horrifying car accident want cause it ever hurt someone ruin car purpose want hospital icu seriously injured probably dead hell maybe bad either even know would make happy anymore fucking tired im religious think anything life thats stops me cease exist eventually im organ donor wish could give away now let young fairly healthy organs go someone values life more im rambling now really way conclude something nature ive always bad writing conclusions,1 +crashingits getting point cant hold together anymore ive high functioning years becoming much reason ive lived long want hurt loved ones getting point cant even take care anymore ive become adult infant brain fucked up sure im really lucky people love me honestly makes feel shittier long run feeling miserable do ive really good putting mask long starting crumble motivation get better point honestly get point enough freedom make death look like accident want anyone think anything could done save me want spend last time making everyone feel loved special want donate things need create inspiring story travel healing helping others gathering community want death traumatic others want hearts full happy memories want feel loved cared for tired confined physical body tired hurting badly feel defected maybe trauma maybe drugs ive done cope maybe is feel completely drained deteriorated know keep going anymore cant even think work without panic attack physical symptoms anxiety causing basically bedridden im broke fuck taking parents resources love want help feel far past level able ever get better continues cycle feeling shitty feel powerless,1 +life unfairpeople make choices good bad life made bad choices see people make choices turns good them every possible choices mine wrong loser time im getting working long time depressed,1 +lgbtp lgbt pedophilia born acquired links below words pedophile choose is accept pedophiles are way accept lgbt community must help control urges act them thats exactly opposite society rn constant shaming pedophiles reminds us constant shaming homosexuals years ago think learned mistakes note pedophiles sort monsters were ones create monsters them pedophile make one bad one suffering genetic disorder shame people genetic problems we time us help pedophiles overcome fears problems especially society,0 +lost meim fucking idiot ive ruined everything tonight im unemployed friends career nothing ive betting sports trading markets betfair etc well going well made k it enjoyed honestly reason woke morning well ive fucking ruined all bet k horse place hedged betfair another k arent aware hedging betting opposite effectively canceled small profit fuck unknown bet places hedge as custom course tthe horse comes rd find places count mentioned betting page slimy fucking cunts fucked ruined me terms conditions wont able argue it fault checking closely im fucked basically savings gone me dont know anymore ill probably kill tonight nothing live for bet consider starting dont fucking bother betting last thing hanging onto honestly fucking decent it im fucked now money bet dont even want shit feel like dumbest cunt ever one fucking understand this cant talk anyone fuck,1 +need people help get mind want drag people me maybe sabotaging deep want get better case ever get better know go anymore even want to cannot alone,1 +hello got play store code cannot use beacuse country country giver gave card need phone number change country dont number ,0 +day i voice inside mind really one tell suffering depressing thoughts almost two decades way vent out hope guys find solace thisthe eerie feeling numbness crawls stomach bones spine might depressed panic attacks pain never really got used to alone thoughts try shut eyes hellscape mind day ,1 +opened parentsi opened parents feelings general thoughts life made cry feel like piece shit,1 +fuck itwe fuck bother anymore friends care me girl like ignores me dont see point trying survive anymore see point wasting oxygen know need fucking help fucking scared get it screw it,1 +help need somebody help heck help weve gotten close know almost everything weve touched lot sitting alone minutes holding hands time time arm around her happens tells shes someone else never asked said want know secret say yes tells likes guy actual heck thought trying make jealous told emailed something asking book think obvious wants get closer damn guess im kinda mad either wanna one following stop jealousy make like someone help thanks,0 +costumer left sticker said you beautiful table one servers work with took sticker cleaning table could see want feel grossed out hopefully make bad person,0 +need guidanceso little back story im currently ive dating girl years moved part time finally got place together know know met bar ago know age difference ive gotten know clicked pretty well always fun getting on fast forward know years things gotten progressively worse longer talk all everything say makes mad say wrong things son lives us still high school girlfriend dropped high school smart end helping son school talk issues lately feel like ive become parent be im gods sake well girlfriend gotten pretty bad fights past year called cops twice third time tonight even though never anything her never touched her id never anything woman cops would come tell counselors leave tonight broke told needs leave month told going anywhere whatever wants told leave tonight called cops cops came said cant tell leave lived month resident kicked courts even though even lease want get work issues basically way much plate pressure killing me deal day work come home feel helpless sat room pathetically crying helpless contemplated killing myself texted girlfriend you stay long want sorry everything see much longer redflag note told lose number think ill really it really typing makes feel little better want someone talk really,1 +superbly developed characters lots funny situations full spirit absurdness serbian mentality movie great comedy enjoyable interesting unpredictable best point film characters humor itself story dialogs humor inner development rare serbian movies so consequence characterization well motivated spontaneous cogent also sharp intelligent lucid movies unfortunately constructed humor devise joke put characterss mouth ordinary situation comedy burlesque farce art immortality incorporated movie little masterpiece hardly reachable,0 +im sure classes take high school im still undecided whether take honors classes not one hand like subjects honors class available but could lot work bunch clubs want join things want do also know ill sad feel like im missing taking one classes im considering summer classes since might help take honors chem also anyone know taking ap human geo im sure understand finding location impacts people right teach things like phones made cobalt impacts miners much reading writing do,0 +feel hopelesseverything happens seems bad ive lost hope good im tired receiving bad,1 +lemme take crack burning questions saw post new answering philosophical questions thought id try it im bored,0 +find antiwar statement without looking hard layer hackneyed find value neutral comment madness war stripped judgement layer completely uninterestingbr br or watch darn good entertainment value duvalls oneliners thats coating commercial masticationbr br you try view realistic vietnam war film ask veteran hell swat notion vets say stinksbr br or view will he morality play nothing rich there eitherbr br where found value superb selfreference coppola needed container great enough dimensions the war fit greatness skilled multidimensional actor playing a great manbr br brando man much maverick kurtz character studios uncomfortable acting method yet always excelled accolades generals uncomfortable kurtzs unsound methods spite strategic geniusbr br so coppola makes movie brandos greatness hammer point places movie as hopper manic photojournalist laden multiple cameras spout praises brando seen halflight silhouettes brilliant cinematography storaro increases actors power goes like sacrificial bull complete narrative equation oh yes the horror br br other pieces interest great use point view camera perspectives including being firefight long private ryan ground breaking use sound notably ominous flanging sweeps sonic depiction acid tripbr br dont get caught outer layers rich part despoil brilliant core sound vision selfreference,0 +truman burbankim psychotic schizoeffective im legal trouble irresponsibility im violent im probably going jail soon feel numb it feels like im truman burbank except never actually find fake feels like life running joke everyone laughing behind scenes waiting finally reach cross line end it psychosis feels real realer real always proves wrong family thinks im crazy understand completely change feel inside head maybe die ill finally know wish never existed fantasize time dying falling asleep never waking up paying someone shoot fatal dose fentanyl crashing car full speed highway buying shotgun blowing roof mouth out jumping death drowning cinderblocks chained ankles wandering aimlessly wilderness night starving death therapists worked hospitals worked meds worked months sobriety worked despise waking every day im ungrateful im majorly depressed idealize death feel void everything positive wish could wipe memory wish could start over wish everyone forgot was wish never existed first place,1 +tried posting radvice blocked post now quit last couple jobs wanted die sitting head repetitive task hours end even considering applying disability help counter loss pay even considering going offgrid reduce expenses work makes suicidal,1 +friend lives florida mom recently diagnosed condition left unable work source income disability enough cover rent friends dad originally covering rent longer so friend tells mom thinking moving another family member since either homelessness problem said family member history sexual abuse towards friend younger friend tells kill end moving thereshe attempted several times past worried safety needs professional intervention threat need resources voluntaryinvoluntary hospitalization resorting reddit local crisis hotline totally useless called waited hold hour ended falling asleep woke shocked disbelief still hold hours later call need advice help friend,1 +feel like platitudes useless really know else say its gonna fine worry basically say im frustrated need help understanding better way better person him xb thanks,1 +better typical madefortv movie invitation hell blessed excellent casting urich lucci cassidy mccarthy premurphy brown joe regalbuto soleil moonfrye high concept update familiar faustian plot urich likable always lucci particularly fetching devilishly top mother femme fatale roles kind hybrid version stepford wives live movie commits early apocalyptic miltonesque vision horror fans likely many complaints soppy maudlin denoument ,0 +ok stop addicted candies like if type stop till morefor example toffifee simply cant stop filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +whats like close friends ones consistently talk to actual conversations get go with hang feel like it maybe get know parents n vice versa maybe getting acknowledged parents like youre almost kid freely sending messages something comes mind venting n stuff must nice even friends,0 +alright boys im starting nnn early year wish luck always dont let temptation get you also girls arent real remember,0 +hate meim terrible person depression makes lazy selfish girlfriend nearly broke it cant live ive let depression get me im scared losing her im smothering her im bad person know id broke up know break get better want fucking die know people get things everyday im moving parents hate everything hate everything hate myself even hate life hate me hate me ive never even kind liked me best ive tolerated myself nothing good everything hard fuck this try,1 +honestly even know want birthday anymore friend whos always gifting something years lost interest collecting things seems like get another thing birthday year another add shelf full things,0 +top car flick its work art yer work art classic cars plastic fantastic watched worn two video tapes wear lots more lots car lovers young old love film watch time hire buy just see it wish would make car movies like v power gassed little whipper snippersbr br shes rightmotor magic the heap chariotbr br youve got learn feel power,0 +always wanted urges never actually tried want bad stuck people family died little brother still kid hurting bad brain says people try kill themself worse disorders go try really think ill die wish easy moral bad feel fake never tried kill myself,1 +selfish want live anymore specifically kill yet want live cant deal ive done feel like deserve live guess explain why i essence forced now sort ex girlfriend half years sex month ago night prom yes finished high school afterwards friends house house empty girlfriend making out sure wanted sex not asked said want get caught suggested go somewhere else said want get caught said wouldnt agreed went sex things seemed fine later found felt forced violated feels worthless says want live cause able completely say second time issues previous guy relationship never got physical guilted sexual conversations sending pictures etc forgave cause could see trapped cage guilting stuff helped out thats second time feel responsible happened feel like allowed live making want live said victim here know do cant hate hating also wrong thing selfish want cut punish want alive cause did thanks taking time read this,1 +minecraft steve strongest character smash minecraft steve strongest character smash arms thick heres kicker using shield full suit gold armor equipped full inventory shulker boxes able carry astonishing pounds kg gold still able sprint jump swim full capacity minecraft steve god could kill god,0 +anyone want loan paypal go drive boys dont gas money right now really want go drive them anyone want lad paypal pay back later want idk,0 +feel lost feeling like since could rememberwhoever said life easy lie learned hardest thing individual live life background information guess say life bad grew parents sister family pretty religious im due personal reasons went catholic school life told god always guide you whatever me would say im open minded empathetic everyone could say care others much know lately life dealing shitty hand put hiatus education college due fact money job make decent amount money helps family cant really save pay college fucking sucks feel like options go military utilize benefits whatnot feel like would joining wrong reasons im people talk college way secured future feel like im going burn one days give up want to least think do choice have,1 +i might kill next weekthe person really knows understands me cant talk to family hates me earlier talking im going kill myself redflag note written out need it honestly might kill next week im useless monster asshole loser freak curse fucking kill myself matter anyway want family feel guilty want suffer want know pain escape cant go anywhere think ill kill monday yeah ill kill monday well may last post soyeah cya hell,1 +looming around corner again always comes back like wave like moon hear silence feel breeze see cold light death try try try choose survive hits everything goes dark suicide singing peace quiet end everything resisting difficult difficult bright white piece string would over peace quiet end live death always there looming around corner,1 +iti asked dad ass dogs heres happened asked dogs acted like know anything all oh anything ava stressed said fun mess spanky day made mad lost temper claimed mean it know did all wish dogs dead said sorry could go back time would never again good go ava spanky sort closure apology killer ill able die peacefully,1 +lgbt community much power cancel people wondering anytimeik time often not someone mistakes someones pronouns assumes gender get hate mob them understand lgbt around long time recent years become much prolific society young people one seems able stand community someone else makes common mistake misusing pronouns baffles theyve got much power cancel someone see world way do ultimately led people scared ask common questions one ever say anything without bombarded insults community got much power short time,0 +im probably going die end yearwhats fucking point im going feel way rest life,1 +seeing kind movies turns english humor often seen screen since days monty python man house badbr br brenda blethyn who first saw saving grace early year another must see way excels alfred molina does rest cast virtually unknown me turns great performances too film starts slowly gradually gains pace amusement midway tears eyes laughingbr br all all funny english movie thousand times better supposedly funny garbage comes hollywoodbr br ,0 +uh oh nooo feel like im gonna taste food twice,0 +m leftists wanna friends insta wont share post rules buttttt id love leftist friends currently demsoc id love friends anywhere socdem ancom ,0 +may know sometimes get sing song line line dms th time song do,0 +ive decided im going end itim tired keep going pathetic excuse call life ive tried reach sort of work see getting better im going kill know exactly yet soon know im even posting thisi think wanted tell someone make seem real,1 +pretty girl exist keep getting heart broken skinny gamer boy,0 +think im done lifei cant describe feel anymore ive social issues since struggled making new friends eventually lost old ones go school homeschool dropped youth church group two years ago since constantly getting picked on im month im sitting bed dark realising one going birthday next month thought numb wasnt actually hurts knowing past three years ive mainly myself girlfriend year ago slowly opened betrayed trust using sick purposes since ive spiraling depression without able anything it cant talk parents theyre kind understand things like this ive tried talking sister moved work either since one talk stubborn asshole refusing vent online friends ive resorted cutting drinking painkillers every day life got sick crying sleep resorted drinking painkillers help sleep motivation life anymore im much pain im beyond point thinking others think end life,1 +guess moonlight comfort im sitting outside balcony darkness outside night sky me stars moon now,0 +lost live january still cant find reason continuei gonna post feel ashamed feeling way cant find continue really wanna end all tried couple weeks ago pills woke couple hours later puke out cant even right years life never done wanted do mostly idiotic decisions ive made partly anytime try something like someone always something negative say bring down wanna play video games oh thats waste time wanna writer theres money that want smoke weed stay home relax oh never go never stop depressed sick tired living life job least live with family loves friends support me cant stop feeling like waste time never achieve things want life ive tried happy ive tried go enjoy people enjoy ive tried trying belong group like minded people nothing helped beyond initial high trying something new im lose job barely get bed mornings im tired everything ashamed even though good life cant find reason continue it currently thinking killing thanks antidepressants anxiety pills im also opposed idea falling roof building work getting run train full disclosure whole trigger comes fact interested girl work became friends saw actually interested someone else problem her still good friend problem stems fact every time want something never good enough pretty enough social enough tldr others would call good life feel like things want feel worthy good things general im loser,1 +im alive attempt happy itif one thing could right could least fucking killing myself im pain physical emotional feeling worse attempt physical pain id attempted already im literally fucking crying die pathetic know is mention feelings impending doom anxiety upcoming events wish someone would shoot me wish god wouldve killed asked kid wish balls back first attempt ,1 +cant muster courage kill myself afraideach day want jump skin life torturing day every day cant possibly make another week want die soo badly im really scared do,1 +fuck im done nowim done trying completely tried rekindling relationship take break personal reasons put much fuckiong effort girl months chasing me moment fix shit parents date dosent want shit friends lmao friends weve never friends met drunk hell thats started bullshit man life fucking worthless cant shit right fucked timing ive lost important person bad luck comes s comes s fuck world fuck everything man im done,1 +triedi may hardest life definitely never easy basically born life would lead depression endured enough parents physically emotionally abusive molested raped people family grew hit cheated multiple partners started coping negatively got trouble public owned began repair myself went therapy educated maladaptive coping went back graduate school graduated public let go demon back never stop haunting me one genuine connection alone work put recover past traumas window feel depression coming midnight train nowhere depressed years cannot leave go again deserve this give up,1 +putins russia people tragic accidents hopefully others may learn theyll leak fake sex tape shit car sometimes,0 +simp call someone nice girls simp,0 +probably kill bulk suppressed child abuse memories resurfacea bit scenario here lets say savannah bitten poisonous snake unable move see distance pack hyenas coming towards surely kill state better let poison enter heart die without experience flesh limbs torn body back reality already going pretty rough depressive episode less forced think childhood memories friend asked watching movie new therapist asked could get background first weird remember much time autistics like usually great memories took time mind suddenly presented terrifying flashbacks childhood concerning father already hate eg constantly threatening family threatening siblings take us family health insurance hes mostly life new memories things know whether live with chased around grandmas house cornered bathroom trying strike even people watching him shot cork gun bb gun blamed getting bullied grade school ever since fourth grade problems using hand belt discipline me forced eat jerky animals killed backyard time middle school absolute oldest theres going memories know it forget big moments childhood reason combined fact im survivor sexual assault think mind able let survive less able live college im even doubts whether survive thursday therapist appointment feels like shaped today personality trait lot things scare im victim choice whether would prefer trash person father wanted could childhood person today childhood starting consume life cant trust people say love andor worth father said exact things mentally cannot see getting better worse whether current events im american see life one includes chronic mental anguish im probably whining point im sensitive see nothing like myself cant even trust mind stable death preferrable,1 +im lonely losttoday contemplating redflag yet again thinking lonely sad pathetic life is real friends one lean on im always crying alone night dont know anymore go therapy anti depressants noting working im tired guy people come talk problems like helping people dont appreciate fact treat like shit right after ive always annoying one thats probably everyone hates me im told im hated one wants around everyday thats im alone room one lean talk to one could cry on one could hug tell everything alright im asking friend seems like one wants that im complete embarrassment go redflag please theres anyone there help slightest glimpse hope hope im,1 +always aloneive posted know never get anything anyone friends family even redflag subreddit im going explain want die anything going say going happen sometime tonight didnt want last message friend didnt bother reading it kidding isnt gonna cared either whatever,1 +would save lot time wish people always felt felt,1 +tonight night cyawill spare sob story im tired incel want fucking love affection girls society deems subhuman it cya sucky years,1 +like people commented frulein doktor stumbled chance upon little gem latenight tv without heard before strange mixture pulp fiction story sexy unscrupulous antiheroine one hand realistic wellresearched portrayal war trenches hand hooked beginningbr br to one five best movies wwi the others all quiet western front paths glory gallipoli postwar la vie et rien dautre scene poison gas attack really chilling horses men appear like riders apocalypse gas masksbr br i wish taped film,0 +br br presenting lily mars one genre film sadly seems disappeared studio system ok know bias reasons think movie stand outbr br although basic plot lily mars judy garland goes new york becomes star wins heart director van heflin pretty stock hollywood story period writers vary theme bit usual although lily gets big break star quits successful swallow pride go back playing minor role showbr br judy garland enough saidbr br supporting cast includes really great performances spring byington lilys mother truely wonderful fay bainter the mother director john thornway van heflin standout supporting performance though goes character actress connie gilchrist frankie one time actress turned theater custodianbr br worth watch sure one movies designed make feel better world dreams,0 +lost friend tried folloemy best friend took life close mean know long kids considered theyre best friend miss him blamed long time lot reasons drunks like hardcore year passed tried take life tough ive learned grown sit still missing years later ive got kids loving wife stop guilt years later sit fire miss most ive gotta remember wisdom struggles sit still doubting worth,1 +always talk reaching people care that lie one actually cares me may surrounded people feel alone ever cheesy say one understands else put it try talking someone make them another person literally pay attention sayingi saying want subject attention times nothing like all even forward feel barely talk ill end disappointed lack care sorry written terribly swear cohesive purely desperate talk literally shitty feel time matter do exhausted weight chest never leaves literally one cares,1 +americans fat like seriously shit eat even real food gas country come to,0 +require pp meat hand schlongs dig dongs,0 +comment contain spoilersbr br there actors intangible them innate quality amalgamation charisma panache swagger quality separate good actors truly great think george clooney jack nicholson look clooneys subtle touches scenes like one word goodbye andy garcia oceans utter others name disdainfully terry danny pick number jacks performances dating far back five easy pieces diner good men court room interrogation scene guys it add denzel washington small exclusive list actors exudes terrific trait everything does look explosive borderline diatribes siege impressive tribute malcolm x spike lees film name see finer actor working today mention insinuate man fire perfect denzels work definitely cog production literally mesmerized scenes raw emotional incendiary timebr br washington plays creasy former spy cia agent one covert government operatives pretty much hit rock bottom become disillusioned life led killed perhaps done things best left unsaid made hardened bitter man friend perhaps mentor played reservedly christopher walken living mexico making comfortable living providing body guard services rich apparently kidnapping business mexico vibrant paid former seals well providing needed service creasey needs work accepts job well family seems financial difficulty marc anthony fine samuel radha mitchell tantalizingly sexy wife lisa dakota fanning unbelievably precociously brilliant pita know child age range play characters interpretation pita nothing short oscar worthy films entire first half dependent relationship pita creasy weaker actress role perhaps emotional synergy would come across succinctly fanning nothing short remarkable rolebr br it relationship pita creasy drives film apex cinema together perfect real bond developed them tony scott directs frenetic urgency eye visual flare never better interested see next film domino turns out think scott one todays rated directors films like one name surely elevated icon statusbr br the story creasy really taking pita visca versa definite connection two perhaps stems fact although pita loves dad around much philanthropist obviously little time spend family soon creasy taking pita swimming competition reading bedtime stories naming teddy bear creasy friendship them kinship deep parental love seems present br br the film changes gears pita get kidnapped held ransom creasy almost fatally injured trying protect her story becomes thick innuendo ripe deceit plot pieces get unraveled like onion denzel becomes tour de force like said earlier seen denzel give outstanding performances films like crimson tide training day never seen like this man possessed possibility pita dead becomes literal man fire rages hunts dishes brand comeuppance denzels anger acerbity ubiquitous easily quelled hunts person responsible pitas violation vigilante justice mexican authorities always seem one step behind br br also paramount films audacious brilliance films actually give criminals due comeuppance often frustrated watch films bad guys get let easily inflict kinds torment entire film take bullet die film writer brian helgeland sees retribution unequivocal painful perpetrators feel creasys wrath experience torment unleashes nothing gimmicky brand justice needs information someone loses finger wants answers homemade bomb placed places meant things punches pulled one true strengths filmbr br man fire one five best films dvd recommendation get se loaded bonus features include hours documentaries different commentary tracks ,0 +completely fucking crazy making sense you toook so bear me along process now universe mass energy birthed billion years ago point singularity concept time space physics speak indefinite period then sudden seemingly random expansion big bang theoretically inaccurate explosion much inflation singularly dense infinitely energetic massive point small could fit proton neutron lightyears two anyhow expansion stars matter form energy eventually enough break particles mass waves energy get sun this gravity allows particles collect form earth solar system et al human race born dies billion years sun perhaps before every single atom particle energy everything sun eventually become white dwarf transtion small black hole another point singularity though infinitely energetic massive however swallows lot whole lot see swallows earth every celestial body can even bigger black hole perhaps andromeda swallows it now process continue seemingly impossibly large or small black hole swallows one mass energy everything contained single infinitely dense infinitely energetic space inconceivably small light thus time space literally incomprehensible thus chain begins anew new singularity recycled mass energy indestructible eternal forever mean say is were fucked really really fucked destined swallowed singularity another mass energy bound point singularity preceded universe proceed another given information concept matter anyone anywhere swallowed forces beyond control possible reason could continue existence im even depressed facts im simply accepting realize fate share every atomic structure organic not so why ive struggling nihilism philosophical points while ridiculous know know logical necessarily true feel gripped it stuns me seen therapist weeks im still sleeping feel captured idea cant let go try distract temporary im drinking right now desperate rid mind seeming inevitability cant fuck me cant im tired unbelievably sick thinking want endless loops logic feel like fucking jack box predetermined pop destined fall back down im so tired damned tyrannous stars edit thank you everyone talking me know sometimes incredibly frustrating talk with really understand want throw hands say fuck it exactly feel time apologize errors thought reason et al errors spelling grammar etc slept much past two weeks so,1 +holy shit didnt know discord light mode worse possibly imagine put youll see,0 +know one decision could fill one sense calm yet drown one absolute exhaustion turbulence gone will quite mysteriousto worry dont need least another week felt would share odd feeling right now,1 +ppl bully u use correct pronouns like u wanna tell call call slurs thats chill cause like hate lmao least use right pronouns,0 +im wet said put much embalming fluid,0 +point end suffering create more cannot wait die thought jumping bridge water would definitely take scared panic painful state drown might find another effective non painful way want delete bad scared turning vegetable,1 +feel overwhelming urge anywhere home right youre stuck pandemic hell maybe consider watching couple seasons amazing race amazon netflix maybe go watch planet earth little see cool feel overwhelming urge anywhere home right youre stuck pandemic hell maybe consider watching couple seasons amazing race amazon netflix maybe go watch planet earth little see cool shit couch know traveling least find wombats poop square heck great lyrebird is ampxb kind cool get see interesting things even television,0 +stop taking shit people people give shit time want stop it,0 +am went place decided hang myself pussied came back homeon way back home kept thinking fucked life regretting it still dare go back place again fucking pathetic expected parents would found gone worried home lights nobody noticed thing wrong later one wake bathroom check condition theyll think stay another night thinking makes want scream cry hard right now life death difficult pursue,1 +took meds nearly week feel terriblei getting brain zaps jumps body fatigued sleepy although parts medicationi dreading going sleep past days fear dreams second reality life get real rest dreams strange odd feelings leave wake unexplainable makes feel low touch life begun hate dreamsi want dreams anymore want blip non existing hours leastmy patterns same nearly years now wake eat trapped room sleep repeat memories past years days nothing years nothing anymorenot time makes sensei looking move abroad chase dream really plausible motivating anymore got left last hope life work least tried endi waking sad miserable lonely tired life seeming meaningless every minute real thing keeping going family musici still virgin bothered normal age never love feelings anyone one woman meant world me years still mind time fantasising cannot together starting care like attitude lifei still strong faith god hard keep going let live born let doctors save collapsed lung months premature god knew life would like life getting me joke you still love though hope forgive ever know need talk get system,1 +reddit continue livehi names adam im canada im sure word this basically im sure continue live care upvotes care honest opinions comments heres story story starts school year happy kid loving life well school happy appearance one day phone rang mom picked up minutes whispering heard mom crying stairs went effort console her told adam grandmother diagnosed lung cancer today moving us soon like person sad sad much it know feel really grandma nice lady problem her naturally mind moving in girl name morgan friends close stress building needed someone vent to think loud to express emotions to morgan person me ever needed person listen shoulder cry would there enjoyed life reason get morning loved heart morgan beautiful girl ever pleasure laying eyes on much popular me would always come back me matter hottest guy perfect abs liked me also played triple hockey for follow hockey good gets apart nhl busy person keeping alive nine months passed grandma move hospice house still remember every little detail awful place could build place asked grandma stay long died within month living place depression set me life sucked morgan life worth living still happy school year came end see often managed started gaming found ways pass time although still mind like every summer kid flew like nothing fine school starting would get see again guys year bigger better guys me became obsolete her would rather guy named connor connor hated me clue day did did mind talk much opinions matter me morgan girl dreams mean literally would ever dream her even sex dreams dreams i happy grades fell year tension parents started building started become quite apparent want married anymore began hate father thought bastard told mom multiple times stress started building end school year needed person vent release stress with guess came back life find funny entire months ignoring talking connor still accepted her summer talked quite bit good consoling me knew calm big fight parents unfortunately parents spent entire summer fighting hated every moment it mom one foot door leave dad summer started end continued love again still confused this luckily school starting around house anymore felt good going school year connor gone would able spend time morgan again new character makes introduction story name wes wes tall muscular handsome guy no homo friends throughout last school year still friends today liked better girl keeping alive like anymore liked wes better suicidal thoughts started thought maybe maybe could find another girl thats did found cleo great girl could never amount morgan best could get asked out laughed turned down thats thoughts started coming frequently sad sack shit thought joining army instead joined kickboxing league girl dreams want anymore next best girl rejected me parents separating grandma lived months died lung cancer pretty damn set taking life brings us recent time im pretty sure weeks ago another girl named emma im sure even liked emma wanted girlfriend someone love once asked morgan do think chance emma told emmas parents want dating backed her behind back morgan thought would good idea ask emma despite telling allowed date emma said wouldnt emma told older sister sister spread word older sister heard it sister furious rumours involving emmas family day emma rejected sister flipped grandpa died from dads side grandma earlier story moms side almost sure ending ten there died weekend bother going school monday spent monday gaming crying thinking life morgan myself cleo parents grandpa grandma went school next day turns morgan telling friends reason go monday emma rejecting me still would like thank lending time could make comment providing opinions questions would greatly appreciated adam,1 +movie begins almost achingly slowly romance yawn seems ramble course all part plan then roughly one hour solemn movie feast worth paying attention first hour feast still solemn humorous suddenly withdrawn slightly petty characters come life everyone you characters leave feeling enriched experiencebr br women love this christians sorts enjoy profound faith demonstrated characters favorite movie time dinosaurs laser beams definitely movie happy seen missedbr br jim,0 +thing keeping going alive tiny puppy becoming thin threadi process planning end life one day family member brought home puppy ever since hes reason waking still struggling helped ease numbing pain yet thoughts coming back me ideas redflag returning alarming rate feel incredibly lost lifegoing motions feeling terrifying me,1 +fuck school starting tomorrow wanna graduate done shit,0 +pain rage absoulte griefim happy report struggles life finally see light everything bullied belittled told teachers telling get far life due speech impediment lost lover said blame thier death abandoned betrayed people thought friends true friends forced move due circumstances way past communicate them parents divorce feeling burden others deserved nothing finally mind set horrible care life lifes others toxic thoughts why kill self kill ones caused pain rage finally able come years life finally found passion life everything pursue it recently found determination try school fully reconnected family emotional distance while ive cut remaining toxic relationship distance form them grief rage pain say truely move forward life asked could change anything would past would said yes know would absolute shaped made want make sure one else would face go through want make comfort people times need said im leaving community wish struggling succumb demons conquered keep moving forward finally believe weak never know life could know hard promise get better people lost battle thier inner demons wish found thier peace,1 +think im finally ready end things im ugly life going nowhereits good thing im flat broke background im nearing spent years working best possible person can got amazing shape started dressing well worked social skills nervous tics got hygiene order studied attraction flirtation well well previously fat body covered hideous face women see me trigger gag reflex people often talk pass them either saying something friend laughing ugly pity comments like poor guy face mother could love ive also overheard coworkers talking look think headphones on today therapist confirms im unfortunate looking trying make point ugly people meet woman slipped saying though im unfortunate looking still find someone realized said immediately tried change topics want embarrass really really hurt nice get honesty though afterwards leave early work interview promotion try damnest get better mood it playing upbeat music though face might disgusting spent rest money paycheck picking really nice outfit wear interview im dressed well feeling little better get there immediately told hiring supervisor interview tomorrow confirmation email say today informed this told tomorrow im guaranteed get position embarrassment wear old baggy dress clothes fat tomorrow something different on since cant afford buy another outfit go interview ill never get another interview position yet another confirmation face disgusting said lucky at least loved ones im broke theres gun store miles away wish could make purchase forever alone stuck place im joke ask please give nonsense everyone find true love anything realistic makes feel worse also want embarrass normal picture myself please ask one know compliments would faux feel like told im ugly already today also im considering plastic surgery id rather give money doctors without borders save children deserve live opportunity darwin clearly wants die years ago would thrown tribe ugly would died soon wilderness thank reading needed vent could stand chance make today fridays payday ill decisions make,1 +lets real people stop giving shit weeks if ever even care allredflag deeply personal thing ive two acquaintances kill last two years hardly ever think them want kill myself im scared to dont want pain switch flipped brain brain wants die every day strong suicidal thoughts im running gas wish brain didnt want kill much ive literally beating shit lately close fist punching face ive lost control forehead knuckles covered visible bruises want stop pain ive saved lot money funeral costs years ive distancing loved ones want reduce footprint redflag inevitable hurt family wish could make look like accident would hurt think still care people want live im trying hard live im scared,1 +deadlift piano today job fucking stressful pays well tho,0 +cant wait longer years ago attempted redflag hanging failed im failure endlessly harassed bullied fucking worthless society ever since days junior high end motivated purely hatred twisted irritating people life aspired this people begged kill myself almost entire grade school started thinking this want win stayed told nobody thinking tried fighting went ok while figured pushed limit school get good enough education escape horrific place live in thats wanted free hell hole town canada problem literally worthless stupid studied non stop obtained perfect attendance across years high school meant nothing barely passed classes teachers say im lost cause point im last year high school failed math course berated every single student teacher fucking pathetic me last years waste time done long ago see win right id rather dead spend rest life horrific town anyways thing stopping right know im gonna it,1 +youte telling missed talking abt animals tjays entire thing,0 +deserve lifeto put frankly deserve life ive made choices past could literally rear swallow public downfall time family deserves better im person things still them im monster locked away deranged sick dead problems go away fear guilt goes away family deals public backlash redflag shame embarrassment inevitable fall,1 +hi im years oldhi know probably thinking point oh hes teenager hormones well no thats all still remember depressed somewhere rd grade somewhere around time see point grades always shit ive barely scraped pass every year mean theres doubt entire future depends grades throughout life cant even see getting local community college around two weeks school left passing no gonna happen cant tell anyone im depressed days friends barely care enough anything im compulsive liar idiot overall failure family point even somehow managed drag middle school high school theres always going grades head constanly reminding shit future waiting me end now save extra bull future time anyone cares me even little move forget time theyre high school thanks reading first post reddit jerk something wrong alright sorry wasting time guess,1 +lost game,0 +whats point stupidill always inferior everyone struggle basic human things like speech eye conact social acting impossible dont think theres reason even try anymore,1 +help one friends wants gf back one friends going break up exgf never told why thinks might homophobic parents i never relationship idea figure broke up doesnt contact anymore cant ask text classes together written letter doesnt know give her,0 +worth living taking advantage opportunities parent worked hard forhi im soon four days life many great opportunities took granted child brought us given opportunity learn second language witch years pass hight school days came end didnt graduate started set events given opportunity work study legally since didnt graduate high school door eventually close left without job lie family friend putting front dont figure im joke regrets life choices made future goal banish blame anyone read thank need comment needed get chest day ended,1 +suspect friend mine suicidal close dohe already depressed met were close friends talk it know say do edit makes difference became depressed broke girlfriend three four months ago,1 +greta garbos american film debut analogy lives swept course fate actions torrent causing us lose part along waybr br greta plays leonora poor peasant girl love ricardo cortezs character rafael landowner ricardo love too easily influenced domineering mother leonora ends homeless travels paris becomes famous opera singer develops reputation loose woman reality part attitude bitterness rafaels abandonmentbr br she returns home visit family eventually confronts rafael surprisingly one knows famous la brunna garbo acts role diva truly prised cool haughtiness later portrayalsbr br ricardo cortez reminds one lot valentino looks part groomed valentino clone mgm though never thought could reality right believable unsympathetic part weak willed mamas boy allows age realistically comically end movie fails win leonora returns home later follows her courage underminedbr br this movie beautifully shot brilliant storm sequences sets depicting spain time authentic looking also fine secondary performances old timers lucien littlefield tully marshall mack swainbr br although story lost love missed chances think leonora rafael would happy together needed traditional wife much career woman think would happy small village ending true life pulls punchesbr br see one garbos american film debut precursor things come,0 +wow friendzone weird friendzoned feels weird hi best friend flirting lot almost dated yet told one friends go me feel weird since friends shipped us really started believe actually interest me know feel react plus still really attached might still crush im sure help lol,0 +know huge accomplishment ive able get back road try again frustrating making much progress id like really miss independent free anyone tips id love find someone relate overcome fear,1 +people tell u wear masks idiotic employees tell u wear masks dont even wear right like bro u nose cover u idiots ive also stores like walmart dont cover nose let ppl goddamn holes masks walk past day waiting dads car mom woman smoking masks comes hand full groceries btw im anti mask hate ppl dont wear masks right,0 +hand light bulb thats running hours honestly dont know havent died yet,0 +hmm put this thing called love fantasm created humans feel safe idk mean see it heart it taste it smell it touch feel really really understand people believe thing billion humans except maybe even mean devote ur life someone live himher ur entire existence life lol think never understand think love exist,1 +really dont know anymorei severe depression anxiety bipolar disorder works ive never consistently able treat just dont care head heart always empty really want die stop burden recently quit job much pressure ive never broken like ive always okay enough function im going give till tomorrow cant find reason live im going it maybe run away instead live street disappear im tired,1 +might make gay sex poem tonight get comment calling pretty princess ill it,0 +fukc school want happy kids school friends joke together homework mins class together fun sit corner play tetris guess school would less stressful anybody could talk,0 +never thought would come thisive always background ive always felt replaceable like didnt matter dont want anymore always subtle suicidal thoughts ive hit time low past months worst life want end never felt broken empty depressedi went swearing never touch drug life might addiction point im sober feel like point living im wasting mine everyone elses time im still here im highdrunk whatever feel numbed pain little amount time doesnt last long still end going bed sad wishing wont wake next day tried stop feel like need keep going dont know else do thing always helped music favorite artist dead makes want die even well music helps used love video games feel like im living altered state mind musicvideo games im living good reason all recently ive many serious thoughts killing think im making wrong decision one cares funny like every redflag death one ends caring gone late havent ever posted reddit dont know else point thanks listening anyone read this,1 +im homeless drink coom survive yeah u read title filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +damn im cold windy tho feels chilly idk brrrrrrr u feel,0 +ducking bros best deeply depressed go quarantene covid case class soo really alone able talk family friends really got depressed thought things hurted asked everything often overthink things alone much time also really bad time grades school crisis quit bros really worried wanted get feel better talked minecraft bought minecraft rent server play really really nice life together really love bros helped stabilize stop overthinking love bros love yourself get every situation togeter,0 +pointi good friends job drop college year never relationship either im always looking way human contact despite this life particularly bad home state supports enough live minimal life could still finish degree apply jobs least train skills time world see would want that sit home pointless stuff keeps somewhat happy sane hand brought another problem mind months is even continue living point anything matter die today live another years accomplishing nothing past week thinking ending void feels far better option today spent entire day researching different redflag methods could drift away but im starting feel somewhat content pointless stuff actually preventing making final decision constant desire dying im sort middle ground cant kill cant live either want way feeling,1 +get debate memes watch it ill sum breaking news old man yells old man,0 +scared brothers life amp know domy brother currently hospital recent redflag attempt first terrified gets hospital days amp think belongs outside world yet jail months th dwi pulled bar parking lot front truck causing wreck hit couple traveling day old baby according report one hurt brother went jail better ever terror incident inflicting self harm multiple occasions cut hand amp even shot stomach though always claimed accidents months allowed halfway house set per hour welding job even began days halfway house snuck property buy liquor cut hand razor fence way back witnesses said watched cut hand purpose brought er stitches night suffered seizure credited synthetic marijuana use though prone seizures alcohol withdrawal past long history tourettes syndrome seizures jail well brought back er day seizure amp next morning attempted redflag cutting throat left redflag note amp everything hospital amp fucking judge declared days psychiatrists hospital sent home trial instead back jail halfway house im fucking terrified loose cannon amp physically big stop tries anything honestly even want around time amp afraid happen tried many times get seems disconnected soul amp hell bent abusing himself know do scoffs mention meditation even reflection amp honestly wish somehow forced stay asylum jail safety protect brother himself,1 +ever going light end tunnelusually things life arent great recently though feel like arent even parts days bearable dont know feel like this hear many things like dont give better days come theres always light end tunnel bullshit see light long remember ive unhappy want feel happy want end really im scared one thing holds back entirely dont want discuss that please someone tell life even worth living really gonna never ending tunnel light end,1 +cancel telletubies terrible show girls class made cult worshipping them please help cancel telletubies,0 +hey guys let help saw post guy needed movie site copied link site use find post again help people cant afford netflix wanna watch shows heres use httpswwwmusichqnetwatchtvtheoffice office link use search bar there sometimes tap something itll bring site ignore that make sure use server vidcloud nothing else works hope helped,0 +wish knew start post a year old cis white married man live one richest countries world eat everyday sleep indoors employed love wife despite this life especially last months want diei tried therapy medication still feel like meaning life people care truly would benefit deal me gone contact family last two years ghosting friends last months ultimately know coming think stop iti tired empty know keep going really even want anymore tired pretending fine breaking alone tired trying find motivation errands chores hobbies friends livingi guess last ditch chance counseling friends family able fix me maybe stranger internet words pressure reader walked edge deep breath fall feel like finally bottom,1 +got random reward idk got take energy reward idk im gonna give top comment hours something,0 +hmm im sure girl im talking likes like thinks im funny said im kinda cute regularly snapping pics stomach thighs super short shorts,0 +hands best date would amusement park idc friend wanna go amusement park people one lol,0 +yall ever motivation keep daily hygiene haha,0 +bro im class rn wanna play doom man also sodom,0 +emoji screams ayo,0 +honestly hate life hate myself im really interested life general anymore single friend one since rd grade exaggeration family low money covid probably need move california idea where grades low go good college gpa im failing two classes missing assignments i never find girlfriend life im underweight im stressed max general awful year been im losing motivation life developing inside years now,0 +great comedy highlighting like live next door racist bigot also shows main characters actually bad other based hit itv comedy politically incorrect better it comedy entertain movies real drawback isnt much plot however cast great usual jack smethurst rudolph walker make one hell team playing oneupmanship kind wayits many years since saw movie last week finally able buy dvd fact movie still contains genuine laugh loud moments means recommend movie like would back s,0 +finally feel relaxedits long ride honestly im male lot happened life live third world country grew alone real interaction people age kindergarten either missing basic socializing sent school age youngest class made life worse screwed over got bullied everything never understood wrong people hate much also lived really far away school take bus came every hour skipped school sometimes really let socialize free time either years ive outcast whole time one really cared tried talk least shoo away tried talk them tried talking transfer students caught associating would turn scapegoat well really blame them stung quite bit one point got pneumonia parents able treat time healthcare system utter garbage hospitals underequipped personnel qualified one knows whatre doing really ruined health later line due additional complications kidneys liver something else even know whats called english english skills really far away good even health either back up blacked pe one thing teacher dumped like sack potatoes onto small bench left whole thing over thats fine too paid nearly enough care teachers paid enough care escaped computer soon could afford one years ive spent obsessing ebooks video games basic chats absolute best time life finally someone end screen hate outright existing however friends online lived really far away neither us could afford travel remained cold text screen dozen years bit more learned english tried talking people overseas strange experience theyve lived different happy lives could never understand said friends someone hang with relationships steadily losing voice years talking point started forgetting whats like talk verbally every time try talk stutter horribly cannot put thoughts order magical floating keyboard turn things want say something understandable came university afford dorms commute took roughly hours every day years learned make basics human communication hell internet widespread acceptable tried using advantage long story short get friends university either single relationship look horrendous deformed blame single woman much looking direction thats fine want too would anyone else tried signing psychology doctor im sure whatre called english properly tried unhelpful garbage looked empty eyes waiting official time spend patient would run out gave ordeal like afford good private one later line annoyance started settling in ive technically friends internet stopped existing lives second stopped posting almost none noticed hospitalized month think someone would notice suddenly gone weeks without notice guess not invisible irl seeped invisible internet well superpowers yo hollywood movies made look lot interesting turned real life found likeminded people also never person could really call friend say loved someone loved back point life gone now left world peace used envy greatly weighs dozens years alive one single outside family considered attractive worth talking despite trying go libraries uni clubs walking around outside trying read park told get hell stop creepy fine too know im failure ultimately fucked everything ever happened life used work dead end kinda job finishing university get bills food mindnumbing waste time days ago feel like something flipped switch inside me im finally ready go feels relaxing like breath fresh air locked cellar years pretty close reality sucks ive pulled short straw make longer effort maybe things would different support pillar sort hang rather crawling around floor trying get places im closing accounts ive services one uni acquaintances provided materials go sleep paid debts ive point one things wanted post small life story internet nothing truly lost internet much difference ill ever make planet use reddit normally reply wanted post somewhere itd get archived maybe remembered one person least minutes so thatd great thats could ever ask for still preparations left long finalizing papers thank you ill going now,1 +cant seem make friends honestly cant make friends feels like matter do happen well id say one friend who love much appreciate every day couple people occasionally talk like aside nobody strangers acquaintances feels really lonely lot time like try make effort speak listen people ive tried strike conversation someone likes things me something id enjoy hearing talk about ive contacted people online person volunteered joined one sports group never results anything admittedly im fairly shy person spent lot time trying overcome social phobia try best always make first move maybe thats problem im always forcing interaction onto people want it thats tend get brushed off thats fine people dislike mehave interest want ive spent years not making first move situations others could approach me never do like try hard get noticed anyone whoever see want anything me plus even rarer cases am invited talk someone join group always incredibly difficult stay involved keep up example whilst naming names school trip abroad grouped two people seemed happy enough me but went very large public building groups meant separate turned around one second gone got completely lost half hour finally met back up acted nothing happened even seem realise them later pretty much thing again despite trying keep mentioning happened them gave group all course friend already know cant say zero friendships hes great talk every day sake mine cant come constantly whatever im thinking of hes human needs breaks people anyone does lot time im sitting wishing knew least one person half well know him luck wanted put felt somewhere thanks read far,0 +this want monke httpsimgurcomavxoai,0 +someone talk biti really need someone talk right,1 +well fuck class day already feeling like shit also like hours sleelp nowhere crush like ey yo my name asked whats up told really pretty friends dayruined heartshattered hoteltrivago,0 +want diei dont know else say sorry wasting time want die,1 +came best friend im sooo happpyyyyy omg omg omg sooo scared actually really supportive supports fact dont want anyone else know parents wont find would goodbut ahhhhh im sooooo happyyyyy could well best day life ,0 +cant decide cant make mind want try find someone leave life is really starting bother im end rope this,0 +makes since go sleep am wake am tired whole day able stay till past pm weekend school night go sleep pm wake am cant even stay awake hours makes since dead asleep right now,0 +someone indirectly threatening redflag explicitlythis happened past much younger it turned ok didnt know handle then want prepared ever happened again someone texts essentially sounds like theyre saying goodbyes doesnt say anything explicitly still ok call police nonemergency line happened before dad apologizing good enough father saying hopes good life never said goodbye outright didnt say going kill himself still obvious situation respond asking planning kill himself calling police call immediately,1 +good luck gces anyone uk good luck results day hopefully us pass,0 +one probably read this wanted say sorry sorry reading wasting time sorry two little siblings talk to sorry mom piece shit son sorry dad calling neglecting relationship sorry cousins ignored like asshole importantly sorry alive causing suffering let down hate much everyone else hates me sorry alive,1 +remember yr old shit best exam stress got yelled less got eat junk food watch tv day shit bomb,0 +die everyone else least ill come first lifeive never anything stand in second choice participation trophy never smart never attractive never skinny never impressive never loved never wanted im tired thinly veiled pretending ever come first anyone dont even come first myself sad way understand feel empty crowds people okay one cared enough notice other far important things wonder long itd take notice dead,1 +im pregnant dark placehey all im quite predicament here im even sure im posting right place wanted post rrelationships want stress conflict im taking place inside head ill give background im f graduated state university may degree business management although im currently unemployed mild depressionanxiety issues teenager mostly subsided point college ive boyfriend m mere months last week period failed show years regular decided would good idea pee stick well still middle pissing little blue plus sign appeared panicked immediately opened second package peed one too positive shouted bathroom boyfriend anxiously waiting standby that yes pregnant upset could read happiness excitement face although knew trying hide it held started crying saying cant this want mother going keep it thats took shoulders told want abortion would look differently killed child got knees kissed stomach love much realized moment him love anything world including myself moment accepted would family went got prenatal vitamins cocoa butter inevitable stretch marks downloaded pregnancy app phone saw images little bambino looks like cant help already feel affection towards it even though point know neither brain consciousness boyfriend already told mom several coworkers even though told good idea still chance losing it day yesterday last night another panic attack boyfriend year college works bartender were poor af quit job weeks ago little week discovered pregnant im behind rent my landlord pretty cool though point is barely afford life theres absolutely way would able afford baby without getting assistance state something never pictured independent educated woman another thing never saw single mom see boyfriend abandoning time soon said before known long promised million times would never leave me allow child grow broken home worse family belong my boyfriend grew foster care great experience strong opinions this easier said done mean look many single moms whose baby daddies promised exact thing personally know several easy give lip service future decides wants something different life eg parent walk away i hand cannot small window time decide want right now im stuck middle never wanted kids reason ever felt like keeping boyfriend truthfully prochoice second discovered pregnant im sure feels wrong deep permeating fear regret even though right given option pregnant would take it last night told boyfriend feelall things id rather put through turmoils pregnancy labor birth challenges parenting amount personal time life body aspects personality would sacrificing went this told im dark place mentally frequent thoughts redflagi see way right now first told im just looking wrong way discussing thoroughly realized seriously bad place mentally agreed supported decision keep it verbally anyways see clearly face body language hurts initially realized even though promises love support this blames himself hes become distant withdrawn seriously know do fear worst relationship keep baby feel though soulmate options feel like cutting left arm right leg want die im lost,1 +lost fianc feeling terriblei something stupid long time ago didnt cheat her broke trust fashion worked broke quite after pretty nowhere happy together shes amazing woman amazing relationship two months ago feeling lost daily havent contact seen since want back bad know gonna get back together reach out feel terrible daily contemplate would like end it part feels like whole thing fault ruined great thing part knows shouldnt left isnt root issue cold feet scared future,1 +sleepless americans wanna talk tonight night fall asleep,0 +wholesome post pm havent got bed yet cant bring anything dog asleep back getting id wake stay,0 +music hot take day foxtrot genesis greatest progressive rock album ever made barely beating animals pink floyd,0 +feel trapped see way outhello ive thinking killing while basically last years im trapped teaching internship program even want teacher applied got certification program want failure idea use history degree put internship across state know pay drive there ive working hours club enough want this give shit teacher cant back out do grand student loan debt without certification ill fucked want it want put wringer piece paper even want wish someone told dont it teacher figure something else out scared sleep last night called internship sick first week parents lectured me saying im going seen unreliable could never take sick day whole thing shot unless get act together really think would safe drive tired understand never do ive said many times this me want drop use bachelors something else never listen say this make marketable pussy even teach finish it happy years im unhappy year old moron internship cant support desperately trying stave future loan debt going career path could give less shit about cant see way out need help im home alone today half tears also staring space im sorry really man up,1 +im sorrysexualphysicalmental abuse child almost sold human trafficking someone intervened put foster home women tells spent life praying daughter am returned mother foster parents told never see us again relocated canada usa mom loses custody us arrested last time saw her returned canada waited everyday mom come get me finally receive message mother tells none abuse suffered real ptsd fuck ups weve diagnosed cant real according her try killing twice rehab physically abusive relationship beat pregnant tried kill once one distinct memory drunk searched house something find it came room laying bed breastfeeding daughter punched face hard could would strangle till blacked out scars face charged domestic abuse paid fine gained courage leave left province cuts contact gets dui province comes back wants visitation custody battle new relationship old ways kicked home sent shelter yesterday custody hearing valentines day today cant fight anymore spent life fighting spent life thinking enough years bullshit done fighting really enough finally convinced myself enough never understood mom could leave me understand difference daughter worth fight daughter means world me called father court anything ever happened would okay neither us deserve you love you want happy dead end love love love done fighting cant even believe saying this love thing got far love much,1 +dont know copehi im really sure start ive contemplating idea redflag while years now im much coward recently urge getting stronger stronger lack close friends open ive never actually told anyone would feel bad did every day wish wouldnt wake cry nights due reject school home since parents refuse give attention pleasure life currently ramadan im struggling living due fasting im weigh kg parents dont care say good me refuse eat take anger food recently ive eating less less making hate body more ive also recently gotten government issued student loan mum wants im trusted im one thing ive looking forward month since bit shopping myself today shes said doesnt get end week ill start paying rent start paying food get im also muslim cursed sexuality problems dont know caused thing ive living entire life lie cant tell anyone since friends publicly made known dont accept lgbt people wouldnt friends idk change feelings towards genders main thing thats holding ending able see happy family would be dont think like me life right hard deal im starved sorry posting unserious enough wanted let people know bit soon maybe die,1 +motherfucking birthday officially lets go boys made another year hope treats good did anyway hope guys amazing day,0 +came vent guessim fucking worthless dumbfuck piece shit im fucking useless deserve breathe cant anything barely pass classes cant sport art fucking thing cant even get drivers license im fucking dumb it ever get college probably happen end dropout something like unemployed alcoholic family one care friends beg kill myself none convince probably neither anyone here try help might well ignore message unless fucking superhumans able change mind said vent little bit im fucking angry frustrated guess better screaming walls im done shit want die,1 +cereal milk cereal haves milk,0 +hit followers face reveal soon oh,0 +im held gunpoint sign adoption papers do help,0 +dont know resist anymorei suicidal hate could hate anyone else one person gave ripped heart clean chest took spirit took happiness unknowingly took last shred live know much longer this cutting long time stopped bit recently yesterday cut entire left arm one cares enough notice let alone listen me lost sat bathtub using dull knife carve arm sat thought went wrong used driven happy walk day complacency hoping last im sure could ever follow ending pain good people ever seem give fuck people met reddit thank strangers kind words,1 +really want throw awayshit sucks stressed sun night friday afternoon id rather dump potential drain die keep living seems like better option,1 +even longtime shirley fans may surprised now forever movie filmed paramount studios shirleys parent company twentieth century fox fox producer darryl zanuck perfected successful shirley formula cute songs cold hearts melt young couples play cupid to happy endings thus now forever falls category shirley vehicle without standard shirley story awkward position movie impressive talented cast makes workbr br gary cooper carole lombard star funloving irresponsible con artists jerry toni day thing devoted yet dysfunctional duo seems hate together apart suddenly landed custody jerrys young daughter penny shirley temple toni penny many believe persuades jerry give criminal career jerry flounders desk job desperate prove provide new family soon returns thieving dishonesty standard shirley device penny tries melt heart crusty curmudgeon felix evans victim one jerrys cons attempt fails evans revealed con artist himself blackmails jerry helping steal jewels drama gunfight death sorrow follow make film unusual one little miss sunshine happy ending dancing one song sequence the cute number the world owes livingbr br but mean shirley fans avoid now forever rather divergence usual shirley story make interesting memorable many films beware avoid colorized version film see blackandwhite can color bright garish unrealistic many scenes shirleys famous curls actually red instead blonde yikes,0 +currently going rough patch again half falling out situation parents recently relationship bipolar girlfriend mutually imposed hiatus wants alone lot lately started new job work year half needing adjust guess someone enjoys needs affection two days ago car broke down came home work summer event professional life going great actually atm feel like functioning came home immediately grabbed guitar started playing singing soul song dead flowers rolling stones playing townes van zandt version happened genuine flashback years ago kind soul searching trip vietnam sitting rooftop hanoi played guitar sang girl watching brief moment silence looked dead eye said you sing sad you hit like truck know even posting here guess juest need vent really really hope hiatus work out still know get next weeks manage somehow worth me really good friends deep level years relationship started february year start year everything going well therapy started new career path we happened feels like everything falling apart hope strength carry on moment thing left do know posting here guess words encouragement would nice know hope better night am question felt like shot straight heart,1 +never life cavity anything done teeth bc negligence whatever im disgusting like lot ppl actually good dental hygiene djsjsjsjxjdhdjdjdjsjxjxjjdjdjdjskwskjxjdjdjsjdjdjs,0 +everything say twisted me everything fails everyone ever encounter tells im loser everyone ever encounter gaslights me bad people get away things never face justice crimes nobody believes calls troll makes fantasiesfuck reddit worse chan claim better than reddit deserves banned,1 +shtrafbat story russians could tell second world war largest front whole conflict been ironically least appearing subject silver screen war western allies wareffort pictured almost every possible detail manner east left job left old propaganda movies little else historical footage valuebr br there chance shtrafbat could compete band brothers every detail neither want look screen examining petty visual effects mind soldiers russians enough big reason forgive less eyecaptivating battle scenes concentrate story interesting much different war eastern front nature russian army might wish people produce dramatizations fronts armiesbr br shtrafbat way perfect rare specialties augment overall rating tends crush myths people second world war true heroes russian people leaders sent missions could perish another great myth bust presents enemy pick gun equal human advancement difficult try many acclaimed films well shtrafbat shows war eastern front war survival clash isms grinds people dust,0 +tired short tall countryi hate live country average height tired trying happy positive jealous tall friends even shortest girl class height ashamed hate life stressing height cant anymore even worse im going stop growing soon always wanted happy know cant those,1 +whiny little assholeim never good enough gtlt c chemistry literally going ruin life feel like fucking grades make break life dad never shuts them studying going get a better slack get b meet nerd good subject guys spent inordinate amount time studying literally shit eating grin ta told going get psych could feel icy stares folks class calling losers nerd etc looks everything saying ityou could feel thoughts forming heads words surface lips ask someone hang ignore me give obvious bullshit answer i cellphone phone rings text or im busy facebook status theyre bored obviously spite me weirdo loser im hypocrite loserish hang frat bro level folks know decent number people cool losers busywork stress stress play even respite course boring person interests maybe me decided kill got acceptance letter thought foolishly would new person ex actually make friends enjoy free time instead crying bed severely bored turn weekend come monday proud owner handgun long gun blargh,1 +dream hunter doublebarreled shotgun nothing else me walking around forest looking animals hunt really notice anything else forest tried walk past certain tree figure came kicked full force collapsed fell ground also dropped doublebarreled shotgun took rusty looking axe quickly hit head also stomped axe would go skull started dragging dead body away one brutal things witnessed life yet another nightmare recently,1 +saw film sidewalk film festival birmingham al actually really fun festival blown away it best movie saw day long shot school aged prostitute meets middle age man attempt end deep depression together inner look darkest parts human sexuality story stems real life occurrences ripped straight headlines raw blunt dialog killer twist end film contain graphic sexual dialog nudity definitely suitable kids depressing peoples tastes definitely worth checking opinion though,0 +holy shit change app icon new update premium man bullshit,0 +wanna dieive feeling like wanna die dumb school thing supposed project thing feeling rebellious i hate forever that decided it yay project big part grade already whole life planned head feel like thing knock down really dont know reason feel like dying hate much want die want tell parents feel like gonna get mad dont know wanna disappear,1 +ami english class suddenly felt light headed felt like going pass out didnt went home head looked back happened sad shocked see felt like me putting lot unnecessary pressure good student breaking point almost anger attack knowing do im bettter thoughts redflag dont go away rare gone deal this,1 +im gonna try write book good story ive rewriting past year afterwards gets published im killing myselfi made post months ago talked life think im unhappy it well didnt explain text ive working book past months boy hates everything jerks lot tries kill pathetic actually it suffers entire life snaps loses fucking mind course theres lot book didnt explain dont want put many spoilers finished dont expect book well dont expect even get published im honest life plan finish make best writing ive ever written life im done im gonna stop caring life hopefully kill overdosing alcohol parents conservative fully alcohol drugs feel like need numb pain bullshit already knew gonna turn substance abuser get older im turning three days think wake much alcohol wanna drink dont care die it wanna die it ive realized life isnt me im already drinking deadly amounts coca cola redbull monster soft drinks right now amounts junk food eat unbelievable im still thin stick one notices it guess way trying cope biopolar disorder hidden depression,1 +life kinda shattered rn ngl so ive crush girl years finally asked said still figuring whowhenif likes ppl felt kinda like friendzone ik not really hit hard shes chinese rly doesnt date collage im im sure well stay contact years help,0 +fuck people say damn guy real balls haha hes pussy like chad one takes single kick pain creates literal life able pop child out late night thought mine,0 +know hes struggling depression really bad lately tried best much can got worse stupid girl whose playing him hes good looking fit even know begin talk ask really worried starting seem like might actually it cannot watch cannot get realize hell ok get little better recently started seeing therapist going good started seeing girl again parents know tried get help know think friend going kill,1 +nb go brrrr yk sometimes female friend groups like one gay guy thats basically honorary girl male friend groups tomboy thats basically honorary guy yeah im,0 + bf year generally quite charismatic positive person jokes around absolutely charming talked stranger would never think may depressed starting get seconds thoughts breaking hearthe grew rich family lot staff helped family house went expensive private school also youngest sibling family enjoyed careless childhoodthen studied worked years successfully met me notredflag women me always somewhat traumatic abusive think caring relationship strong charismatic personality manly talented empathetic smart met years ago time till working hours cut due corona worked days week home lot free time besides working done things years smokes reads social media watches series most hes seen before eats insomnia often wakes tired morning work frustrating him seems feel insecure search another job recently jokingly said something old psychological trauma mine answered seriously trauma go work days week puzzle got together head today think kind rich family never taucht concept labor kind work actually something really unpleasant him current job especially boring feels unnecessary never really accepted go work actually trauma dreads time learned work days again glum grumpy whole week really wish would get therapy matter afraid would think sign weakness world works way everyone job much disagree feel something dreading exhausting time think fear work many years love him think hes lazy person believe actual problem please recommend help him think bf depressed hes hiding realizing it breaking heart need advice,1 +hows ya monday going pls sign petition waddup imma keep short d pinter want decorate instructor wants signatures googly eyes mouth please sign petitionhttpchngitgsxqkpx,0 +reminder reminder japanese wwii soldier surrender years war ended,0 +approaching girl need advice okay theres girl were btw went class elementary school something like best friends often talked good friendsnow were starting high school different schools that combined covid could affect friendship however year ago started fell something unusual her suddenly havent recognized friend something more mean super pretty wasnt crucial thing personality little bit important thats think started feel mind im pretty shy comes dating fact never dated anyone strange me think best thing strengthen friendship call friend date smth similar take time best approach imo different suggestion please tell me so question is call date personally as said see often via message compose date question date everything helpful never faced it,0 +hate math teacher yesterday last day school math teacher made us test like every class went to teachers let us go phones shit math teachers like just last day school mean done work shit like that springs surprise test us anyway hows week far,0 + weeks ago found mom spying night found confronted her thought stopped yesterday found still it ok get back thought something live place people open things things like gay people doesnot exist mother kinda open says problem going world until happening house also kind homophobic next time shes gonna it im gonna blast gay porn rooms tv dont think shell ever again going hilarious said people really open possibiloty shes never gonna confront it,0 +always last choice everyoneit seems like one ever really needs me friends people dont really care even though care much always try them matter where every friend ever chose someone me makes feel worthless since little kid always last choice always people try help them give much never get anything back never changes tired it years old soul heart feel heavy old feel useless worthless i apologize errors mistakes grammar native speaker,1 +sure play peoria apparently funny clever british comedy set end swinging sixties peter sellars fantastic rich fortysomething serial womaniser perfectly delectable goldie hawn playing year american girl london is initially sellars catch day urbane tv food critic cant stop falling dizzy american blondbr br humour pathos great script strong performances leads supporting castebr br its great film best gag last linebr br try it like it,0 +fuck reaching helpi keep seeing hearing every where asking help keep getting told feels like one cares enough help anyway even supposed it someone supposed respond i need help feels like im forcing onto people even know would work terms helping me unsure question even makes sense im genuinely curious means get help sorry saying help much,1 +im goingim tired shadows puppet im tired one loving me im tired everything so im going forever bye,1 +guys need encouragement ok heres deal yesterday first day new school sort of chose remote since new school follow covid guidelines even though cases area spiking one wears mask properly old school two honor roll classes offered math science eligible science took it new school honors english math science social studies offered eligible four three since math weak point average want overwhelm much right bat heres problem everything different first off online school works before old school used google classroom google meet etc way everything one place super user friendly new school were using schoology zoom much clunkier harder navigate especially schoology old school taking bio new school were physical science old school history talking alcohol ban new school were talking american revolution etc lot catching up do mean teach bunch material weekend thanksgiving break parents type get perfect grades murder me heres thing get super pissed long takes work like count school homework im working around hours day see fault want get perfect grades yet bothered long takes work dad especially get pissed get mad walking room im class anyways im pretty confident ill able learn material thanksgiving break starts wednesday got back december st were going getting minimal any homework ill ton time work want encouragement guess,0 +boyss eeeyyyy crush confessed me tommorow were going go walk,0 +train could either kill save lifesince today made homeless year old male lived bipolar depression years staying abandoned apartment leave sunday nowhere go friends nearby family money arrange accommodation thought accommodation mid december apartment demolished told last week leave monday thanks kindness stranger able afford cheap room two nights last night streets first time terrifying one large suitcase clothes stuff money get cheap room anymore try get help council sleep last night worry writing hope someone help tried kill worried try find streets again feel like hope im told get emergency benefit payment possibly next week probably thursday week then money streets somewhere stay miles away means getting there could get would safe benefits payment comes in train could either save life taking safety kill get desperate throw beneath one anyone help purchase train ticket secure safe accommodation next week council sort benefits find somewhere live thank reading,1 +well fuck it asked friend said yes never thought would courage ask never thought hed say yes know fuck say now help please,0 +friend keeps saying epic cringe unironicaly time cant take anymore either im gonna kill pissing,0 +nobody else brave enough say it today one it yep easy thank reading still ok bye,0 +heyy formaldehyde cause smell nice,0 +helpi eaten slept days im writing phone im lying floor bathroom ive spent morning vomiting cutting myself cuts deep see vein want pain stop one call someone please talk me,1 +think parents might get therapist would even tell her would even talk about mind would go blank asked talk ab life lol,0 + year old sister watches porn found disturbing shit youtube like wtf dont even think knows sex is uuuuuuuuh httpsyoutubeaukilaafxg found eyes hurt wont go parents shitton drama rate tried talking before now mean want bleach now drink,0 +sucking titties overrated believe me bend neck suck know post made guy guys titties big enough sucks you,0 +im point living seem like something want im trying find please place end lifei thought shooting shower water running mess family clean up ive also thought backyard anything significant clean up or driving somewhere parking shooting car someone else would likely find mother personally see me ampxb please help me going happen im trying least disturbing way parents necessarily see deal body ampxb would it,1 +bad sleep schedule midnight europe wake sleep,0 +im deadnothing left said ampxb ones tears shed ampxb funeral im dead,1 +imagine person cant stop thinking thought time wouldnt awesome never happened me feel like useless side character never gets second look,0 +hangingjust tested see feels like bad afterall surprisingly easy puppy staring goddamn cowardly lift weight floor fuck this,1 +taking driving test today wish luck guys tip me ill update later passed,0 +fiance abandoned one day left nothing place safety net trying live friends feel empty inside place world worked much therapy anchored much past trauma thought nothing works anymore lost ocean agony trying best live friends cat know long hold for lost much weight already trying eat taking vitamin try keep stuff okay love life finish sentences sort love suddenly gone trapped apartment alone want belive light side hard see it anti depressent remove ability feel cannot smile cry laugh tried finding work disability work hard find issue needed work right away since better off everything name id lose healthcare joint sorry formatting make posts often abandoned,1 +hate awards really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate awards,0 +idea danger thoughts anyone else thought going insta live posting story like someone breaks house describe person location people follow report police case go missing well thats like back plan cant contact trusted adult thoughts questions ideas want know anyone else back plans limited options,0 +happiness compatible okayin course last years losing side long battle myself believe preventionbased efforts exhausted calm thinking happy person one biggest struggles found life reason happy recognized many reason happy none bring feeling warmth chest happy makes even sadder see many joys life cannot mentally grasp them many joys life still comprehend them it excuses pain person faces spew root causes actions envious others seeking something already have recognizing cannot rationalize happiness somehow makes actions better,1 +guess much add found comedy still funny ten years since came outbr br the one thing notice music dialogue distracting often made movie hook been use songs fine movie orchestral background busy contrived movie ever edited dvd would seriously recommend background music toned almost inaudible level cheapened overall feel whole film see subconsciously lot people passed upbr br the film lot levels working script plot comedy level bad producer director felt needed musical schlock enhance mood knowing this find hard watch quietly curse whoever involved musical editing film subtlety jackhammer,0 +would u message epstein ,0 +guys wanna see something cursed ii,0 +todays last straw im fed life want live anymoreim fed up im stuck city hate people fit studying degree sucking soul body overworking point physically mentally fucking dying feel ill every fucking day feel mentally ill every day too treat everyone everything like princes yet get shit throughout life bad luck seems thing yesterday lost work uniform shoes calculator fucking underground today locked phone factory reset ive lost everything holds dearest reminds home see point anymore realised today ive like years think gonna get better wish done job january exactly keep going for im gonna get affairs order get together plan peace out,1 +i really talki feel like im going type type type need talk something really know feel shitty know try hard everything wrong cut scratched starting th grade got caught junior year hs got diagnosed general anxiety clinical depression homeschooled senior year went community college withdrew classes ab w th year university student withdrew classes units away graduation ditched intership team corps members little humans failed redflag valentines day year mute just cant get talk anyone write words down most talk boyfriend via messages skype money issues nothing completely unsolvable preventable valentines day thing really know myself boyfriend trying keep happy try happy every day work parents restaurant smiling nodding running away treated like im two years old someone tries get talk thing gets know head really reason depressed theres table food roof head clothes laptop try hard keep busy take hobbies go places gift people stop im thinking ways kill without failing breaking boyfriend blamed taking flight anywhere parents see cadaver like shit head time want get better fall this know one point pounds year would buy chocolate ice cream go grandmas house id refuse leave underneath covers weeks cant anymore want visit emergency crisis team medication anything shrink nothing good me want talk her feel like want end all want one end it kind jokingly asked boyfriend kill instead reaction really bad felt really bad realized awful say realized thats really contradictory know sometimes im just pretend im better maybe ill get better keeps making feel worse makes head hurt parents going much already really need this worry yearold daughter graduated student financial services just want think right now health issues know popped up im wondering really point if im ending burdening family worrying people better end grieve little go live lives load little lighter tried really did never missed therapy contacted asked help psychologists kept busy outgoing made friends got accepted internship volunteered gave alone time went shopping ate lots lots chocolate candy took pictures made scrapbooks got boyfriend tried nothing worked know im willing try anymore but know know want get want want even right really know want go sleep tonight wishing wake tomorrow want wake see just know feel like everythings wrong,1 +bros rteenagers im asking advice so like finally courage ask cute girl number problem know chat her good thing phone battery empty right talk tomorrow morning im casually meeting again,0 +failedwell definitely failed test itgonna took pills started drinking im gonna go hang friend think little bit think ill take rest later im kind feel peaceful typing know why want play guitar roommates mother kinda want talk someone someone else guess thats reached dog though im sorry weird getting calming sense like everything finally chill okay also might pills idk,1 +wish could use life wagerfor lottery either die problems would go away myself win big problems would go away win win scenario,1 +think hold longeri feel horrible head hurts heart feels heavy little hard breathe cant think focus all everything foggy like head full invisible thoughts feel lonely alone feels like noone me used to cant depend longer really enough shoulders hurts receive things gave keep asking need want obvious want talk me even feel like it thats did literally told you like noone understands me feel misunderstood disrespected noone bothers message ask im feeling even said knew feel like crap hurts theyre ignoring me even get mad addressed issue emotions feel like driving frozen hill using summer tires actual health sinking like old broken ship grades terrible too funny used top student ive never beach ive never another country even visit capital country achieve much inspire anyone live start something truly awesome thats okay lived long enough emotions finally letting die sudden fake overconfidence happiness never happy extroverted feelings feel truly fake things want address mother never hated you always loved you really hate actions towards me im sorry im way never asked asexual dumb burden im sorry tore dreams apart like hungry wolf searching food im sorry could never someone proud of friend really enjoyed playing minecraft together hope like cathedral built friends wanted see update axolotls stuff think happen maymays really cool too keep going friend im really glad life ill never forget philosophical political discussions even though opinions different still respected eachother ps trash assassin go back support beloved sunshine snow lungs below diamonds crown would never let drown keep promise made life harder stopped whining would never judge emotions judge hurt little fine really wish best find someone better someone whos pretty smart healthy selfless kind warm empathetic made life easier found happiness is calm peaceful extroverted loud uncontrollable im glad life really do really polar opposites one classmates never knew feel way do hard it hard hide feelings hard stay awake night hard uncontrollable confidencehappiness episodes sorry let everyone down shall anymore,1 +winter approaches stateowned broadcaster abc decided reason partial jane austen festival sunday nights commenced twelveyear old movie length version emma last sunday recent versions three novels persuasion northanger abbey mansfield park comebr br the curious thing production ae television networks script everreliable andrew davies appeared almost simultaneously two much bigger budget movie versions one starring gwyneth paltrow clueless modernized version starring alicia silverstone transported plot beverly hills perhaps result even kate beckinsale lead production sank without tracebr br as general rule much lost novels shrunk fit feature movie length adaptations one tends enjoy remember adequate room develop story characters outstanding example brideshead revisited minute episodes back compare ordinary movielength version pride prejudice brilliant sixpart tv miniseries novel filmed page page novels often good ones adapt wonderfully film atonement recent example novels jane austen sort need time space exert full charmbr br given shortcomings type adaptation production ok kate beckinsale gives emma right mix selfassuredness vulnerability mark strong forthright mr knightly he reminded jane tended recycle characters knightly articulate version moody mr darcy pp samantha morton rather limp harriet prunella scales got blabbermouth miss bates perfectly sybil fawlty speed bernard hepton emmas feeble father also excellent saw damp countryside mud poverty well posh interiors case anyone thought particularly idyllic age everybodybr br even though condensed adaptation oddly slow places conversations rather stilted even allowing formalities times id look film sure might due underuse reaction shotsbr br if like filmed period stuff perfectly nice example compares well paltrow version anyway come,0 +future awaits us overpopulated unforgiving wasteland hellish unwanted existence film brings mind problem still plagues us doubly since film released back lets hope world going end like thisbr br soylent green wild movie enjoyed much likable characters semiapocalyptic setting compelling thoughtprovoking storyline machoest macho man there charleton heston richard fleischer gave movie unpleasant dirty feel almost choked stench city filthy inhabitantsbr br the characters wonderful charleton heston become one favorite actors thorn man created role badass yet likable toughguy could definitely put thorns shoes sees something right everyone around either listen more like paid listen wants dead edward g robinson in last film rip plays lovable old sol enough nasty place everyone else great especially leigh tayloryoung shirl piece furniture comes apartment residesbr br the special effects fantastic even soylent green factory futuristic apartments especially scoops bulldozers get rid people excellent polluted air outside looks disgusting nasty empty city streets filled vile putrid people unsettlingbr br one final note ending even still shocked me gruesome think it pretty good ideabr br the bottom line br br an excellent s science fiction flick makes think leaves feeling uneasy,0 +kelly loeffler david perdue woohoo gonna keep georgia senate keep america great,0 +anybody unironically uses word shawty automatically assume pedo mr kelly your lil shawty year old school girl brevitys sake end psa here peace,0 +emergency meeting saw crush public went somewhere looking something mom couldnt find saw someone uniform said excuse turned around her immediately recognized asked knew item thats it problem havent texted months ghosted wont able stop thinking even more ive crush like years,0 +handcuffed thrown back seat police car suicidal idealationyes folks suicidal tell someone treated like criminal escorted forced go hospitalkept observed cops transported loony bin handcuffed thrown back seat stip searched loaded meds say want take want sleep nothing wander around watch whatever play single television ar ekept lie pretend longer suicidal insurance runs out happened twice two times lied evaluation hospital avoid commited great insight society handles people tremendous pain suffering huh,1 +wanna play truth dare dm cmon,0 +whats one thise cringy thoughts keeps night me slipped mat gym class fitness test everyone thought couldnt pushup slipped tall mat made us pushups on hands floor feet mat slid fell,0 +days worse othersa week ago bracing eat bullet im way weekend vacation know happiness last forever cant let stop enjoying time hope inspires someone,1 +people react losing someone redflagpeople grieve die guess people kill themselves others react anger confusion along sadness isnt really period terminal illness people cant prepare death death wouldnt parent react roughly way child died car accident think so except whole could done something stop thing weird people view death redflag differently,1 +age think old enough make decision euthanized wanted it choose born least able choose terms death mean right people finding messy agonizing ways kill themselves may well give people option easy way out cannot get option receive painless suicide,1 +reddit friend believed committed redflaghttpswwwredditcomrpungulagcommentsbzxgia_man_wanders_through_the_corridors_of_anutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_app scroll bottom post poorly worded makes think may killed udunno_wtf_im_doing userbase httpswwwredditcomwikilaw_enforcement_guidelinesutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_app reddits law enforcement guidelines info reddit said put scenario contacted reddit reply im worried looking post history found references liverpool brighton hope helps live uk please get law enforcement find,1 +thinking killing know dothis going hard reed highly dyslexic go grammar hello break thinking killing hurt one love anything else also monster last moths birth parents dead job future also emotional special needs dyslexia know express emotions person make everything toxic also find people hard around emptiness hits hard try counselling acted like joke fucked around setting date calls meeting keeping find hard trust people self harming started last year mum dead way feel sad guilty time nothing used one person last years life treated like shit used like pawn manipulated anything said tonight fight scary would never physically hurt though going love love back toxic monster final word writing show must stop goodbye sorry everyone hurt stop,1 +fun fact day number superior every way weak dumb stupid strong hot smart intelligent sorry fact fact true smart hot stuff,0 +essentially remake original chinese ghost story third installment higher production values greater subtlety acting story tony leung particularly good cgs iii gorgeous moving film,0 +nothing funnier candace owens suing facebook for factchecking,0 +film entertaining fun quality film film cleverly follows guidelines book tries stick exact lines actors suitable would expect part use famous actors give great effect film graphics bit dodgy parts quite mistakes throughout film thing yellow spotted lizard example camp gruesome explained book tend show goings camp much book group mentioned lot book film overall great film rainy afternoon,0 +hear out reddit doesnt allow word posts morse code search translations came solution calls ups downs kar spread word,0 +got dick stuck toilet roll basically came shower like yeah alright lets try it got hard stuck,0 +hopeless alcoholicplans hang today,1 +cheems broke legs holding hands horny jail romantic,0 +know anymoreive always nightmares young age developed hallucinations eventually id start get panic attacks would even happen day environment felt safe even around family friends counsellors say theres nothing going grow it well im august started nightmares sometimes think im still dreaming cant wake 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+advice live without genitals hi im eighteen year old afab agender plan removing genitals seems due recent talk family might happening soon im bit worried life like without vagina im nervous people especially girls like treat genitals im also bit worried im going masturbate sex parts gone im definitely going done id definitely like advice live like this,0 +youre pessimistic controlling assholelove lifeokay goodbye then really cant wait kill next week lol,1 +feel like worst life ever hope somebody reads thisi really good friends kindergarten never saw afterwards went private school took nearly decades get another friend feel like im person planet go elementary school middle school high school college without single friend genie would grant wish would automatically wish relive life always real friend care relive life worst living conditions world feel like whole life wasted im lonely went birthday parties uninvited invited love concerts sporting events almost everytime ive gone one ive gone alone lonely sat next people respect friends think let sit next friends even worse point think people gave rides church friend felt sorry me last day high school remember crying parking lot everybody else friends everybody went home friends celebrate last day school called dad pick middle school want explain one parking lot remember desperate friend went meetup meetup took meetups nobody liked finally got friend ironic thing desperate quit going meetups th pointless one friend drought probably still going years later friend moved years girlfriend remember once going somebody hang new years eve friend got girlfriend im dreading new years eve going alone again worst part ive close making friends past ive met people liked me less couple months get bored me feel like biggest loser ever many people say took decades find friend get drivers licence years get parttime job years college get first fulltime job wish could live life again fyi drove way across country sillicon valley find fulltime job got one airport also lived terminals couple months save money work big tech company get paid well lively extremely cheaply coworker cant believe high school labor market collapsed literally took way end bullmarket get first fulltime job think anybodys life pathetic mine wished point life making friend hard people figured turn im almost im still disaster,1 +cheating good soul think everyone cheat,0 +deal alcoholic abusive fatheri lots insecurities dad reason careless person drinking since last years sometimes different personality drunk abuses family like burden idk cant move forward life bcoz hope bastard dies painful death ,1 +dumbass swallowed gum chewing focused something like wait wheres gum go,0 +fairly happy right everything going fine still want shoot head really think still wishing dead know really ruining mood going make actually want kill myself cannot stop think it want feel happy stay happy still want kms even though happy,1 +overall found film good exceptional acting disturbing scenes some essential useless weak second half contains spoilers film divided parts thought first half pianist terrific meet erika kohut wonderful isabelle huppert piano teacher get introduced world single struggling find space overprotective borderline tyrannic mother understand lost seldom experienced love physicalemotional chemistry protects sharp offensive people releases sexual tensions sexshops voyeur sadistic selfmutilations first half clinical builds incredible tension film almost unbearablebr br then comes walter young handsome outgoing man played superbly benoit magimel though gets feel erikas coldness beginning seduces slowly wreaks erikas fortress loves deeply needs fulfil sadistic desires fall him disgusted world end discover erika unable love feel especially since walter portrayed someone impossible love second half film touching see erikas inabilityinexperience love lead selfdestruction second half seemed less mastered haneke sometimes noncredible ie shocking scenes paradoxically lessened dramabr br of course crude film least french version see porn sequences sex shop daring mutilation sex scenes much talkedabout fellatio scene magimel huppert quite good thought central understand erikas sick relation love actors huppert marvelous film magimel gets better better perfection girardot the mother excellentbr br ,0 +horny crime id average person cuz im horny sometimes sometimes not alright trynna make joke since somebody already said law abiding citizen part cant steal part,0 +know title need helpi felt really hopeless since probably th grade years things gotten worse good kid high school gpa completely sober four years despite good life was constantly felt lost since coming college ive begun drown sorrows drugs alcohol im first semester im well school guarantee academic probation come end semester parents paying lot money go school finding im academic probation devastate them feel like disappointment going put edge family members people ive able maintain legitimate relationships with ive ruined friendships people overly sensitive ive ruined every romantic relationship ive ever within month starting lack self confidence everything overall feel im wasting parents hard earned money realize it im going lose too lose them feel like nothing live for suicidal thoughts almost everyday redflag seems like best way go know exactly im looking feel like cant tell things anyone wanted get look advice guess,1 +please tell im one likes viking music artistsbands like danheim heilung wardruna make good vikingvibe music like omg music gets blood pumping fast best music workout with also listen secret dont want friends think im weird lol,0 +wish abbey filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +mental health ward auhello wondering anyone brisbane area queensland australia knew adult mental health wards good experiences with im considering voluntary admission,1 +ventingi expect response wanted get feelings out tried commit redflag year ago hear people talk feelings gratitude survive feel dead inside feel grateful feel hopeless ever whole year kind gone by speak people rarely call family anywhere work longer remember cant another years this successful first time least family would year mourning moved now know do tbh pray everyday something happen me im nearly done im even supposed alive still here fucking hate it,1 +bi isnt wanting dick wanting relationship sex change mind source me bi person,0 +one daysim getting pretty sick hurting someone already moved on months feeling grown kept telling pathetic phrase it getting better hasnt waking everyday feels like im executed firing squad im sick it nobody gives solitary fuck say looks like nick daily routine acting like complete bitch nothing important worry existence annoy anyone anymore im gone wish things ended way did wish another way made mind already proceeded theres going back guess best friends mean forever afterall,1 +im failureim tired living every day feels like thoughts control life control cant eat starve myself lost lbs im underweight negatively cope staying bed long possible moving manage energy all anything eat exercise seem exist burden anyone ive called redflag hotline couple times past weeks sucidial thoughts become default everyday thing know death solve much fact itll cause trauma people around me ive already traumatized know feels im already making everyone life suffer silence serious abandonment issues issues feeling everything fault maybe caused breakup two years ago maybe mom died born nobody ever told truth it whatever sad story tell myself cannot stop telling story failure im going quit job tomorrow ive already done before years ago quit job ended hospital depression feel like gonna another cycle relying others never really able help myself honestly idk im sharing this idk much relatable want know stop getting stuck cycle hate living reality,1 +retrospect s golden era american cinema demonstrated explored documentary directed ted demme richard lagravenese ifc effort serves illustrate clarify main idea time meant careers illustrious people seen documentarybr br the amazing body work remains legacy people involved art making movies period decade marked end viet nam war turbulent finale years jimmy carters presidencybr br one thing comes clear films today measure movies came creative decade industry whole changed dramatically big studios nowadays want go tame pictures instant hits without consideration content integrity long bottom line shows millions dollars revenuesbr br the thing emerges hearing americas best creative minds speak importance independent film spirit thing afford creators great moral artistic rewardsbr br this documentary must see movie fans,0 +people live us yall wearing masks saw whole tiktok comment section wearing mask theyre rights dont save covid thought knew that masks dont spread germs infect people especially anyone high risk family member home dont know suddenly bragging right come fake excuse walk around wout mask mostly southern states guess mandatory wear one,0 +want make look like accidenteven though even many close me want anyone feel guilt able help stop me hope give up,1 +give award first person comment joke makes laugh write em below fan dark humor get banned pls,0 +idk needs hear need get reddit youve past hours,0 + month go month left untill enough money leave mom every expense years gone,1 +im thinking redflagive fine last ish weeks used cut stop feeling numb never taught redflag before im thinking now taught things finally going get better found someone amazing talk to ended messing things them last couple days cut self yet im scared ill start able stop know im thinking like this,1 +want overi tired everything going shit making half baked plans look socialising fix shitty situation weekendsbefore zoning distracting films youtube videosanything stop thinking tired old virgin guy literally friends social contact interestsa husk feels shit worst tired getting hopes change things improvingthat things finally turned corneronly fall back shit like sick fucking groundhog day time little part diesmy hope diminishes long gone now years fucked broken something wrong brain jesus fucking pathetic want hurt familybut want anymore thing look forward deal this cant depression anxiety feeling anything want over,1 +full plani know exact location day ill it live malibu ditch day senior year im going junior next year im driving kanan road mulholland highway taking right encinal canyon road going gods seat bring large tank helium bag close head standing edge cliff redflag bag doesnt kill me fall pass will funny part is keep trying get friends go they dont know plan remember beauty view call lame dont understand want go bad wanted let people know exactly im somebody family see postmortem know wasnt random plan brewing since years before,1 +time start noblanket hear really really fucking hate cold showers recently one small parts day could truly relax enjoy suffering want get soon possible study saying lonely people shower longer comforting feeling similar hug missing think coldshower good forces get comfort somewhere else ideally drives self improve get relationship similar nofap however found finding entirely much comfort bed sleep important need make less comfortable think start sleeping without blanket would sleep floor introduce discomfort parents come room wake good amount time noblanket starts today basically continue nofap coldshower eventually horny comfortdeprived choice improve looks start approaching life suffering live just live like auschwitz prisoner bro next step food hollow cheeks,0 +love gaming lowend pc keep breaking keep getting shit friends it pc broke morning phone calm self battery low put phone charge going think something eather wrong something right enough lowend life,1 +citizen kane deliver cleavage lots itbr br badly acted directed poorly scripted cares watch dialog,0 +want anymoretheres many people around me feel alone nobody cares am see want be im tired it sleep matter much try im never good enough anybody feel isolated want sink ground never found even know im here like typing whole bunch strangers gonna help im suicidal need tell someone,1 +pretty sure life cursed god satan angels whatever powerful damn planeti want happy,1 +make laugh ive got silver award want laugh make laugh get silver award,0 +understand polish sentences yet dont know polish post made czech gang,0 +first saw film transmitted around bbc working uks ad pal steve parkhouse recorded vhs sent me till point id really seen shaw bros kung fu movies harsh lighting so audience could see moves clearly revelation see something looked like lit ridley scott coming hong kong also first exposure movies tsui hark pronounced apparently choy hukbr br yet smoky backlit exteriors ambitious special effects stopmotion hong kong movie heart chinese ghost story lies simple moving love story made real outstanding acting talent leslie cheung what tragic tragic waste life beauty elegance joey wong granted joey gorgeous balletic hand gestures give character unattainable eroticism thats hard analyse though joey almost years older gawd us isnt always enduring image actressbr br some reviewers said film simplistic lacks surprises theyre missing fact movie based famous chinese story written pu songling around thats bit like complaining romeo juliet predictable ending copies west side story just wanted get chestbr br for me chinese ghost story quintessential romantic tale high tragedy know chio sin sin seen never together becoming mature none us mature weve experienced great loss sacrifice sacrifice essential component true love comedy stylings wu hurt bit eitherbr br enjoy chinese ghost story trying view filter western culture get fine,0 +latethere never help needed tired continue,1 +know dont need anyone love right feel empty past two years ive crush girl long story short want date feel empty almost two months since told yet still feel way feels even longer nobody likes like anyone else,0 +the last wave far sum parts merely disaster film simply exploration australian aboriginal spirituality certainly simple court drama writerdirector peter weir manages take elements next level produce truly effective thoughtprovoking film eerie atmosphere gave picnic hanging rock two years earlier continue remember years laterbr br when lawyer david burton chamberlain called defend chris lee gulpilil death aboriginal may may directly responsible finds merely struggling get truth lee making sense hears come aboriginal belief two worlds everyday dreamtime truth exists two completely different levels ramifications disastrous burton could ever imaginedbr br no doubt reason picnic hanging rock better remembered enduring mystery led along path forced find answers ourselves the last wave piece everything together end film however even information choose much want believe film takes us beyond borders normal realitiesbr br on production side weir uses budget great effect progressively building sense doom everything soft lighting heavy rain good use sound incidental music unobtrusive never trying grandiose richard chamberlain manages convey bafflement audience would doubtless feel tries unravel mystery david gulpilil excellently portrays man trapped two worlds wanting right thing afraid already knows endingbr br put things together perfect example david weir familiar name cinema thirty years on strongly recommended,0 +ever cares anymore cares grades one cares something great life one cares feel one get bed morning see thing ruined yet pull trigger splatter brains room want hurt anyone want die know would hurt family know make sense said care would care died care things want talk about color skin determine group hang seam matter good something one ever notices know anymore fucking sick ignored time ignored people stop tell fat ugly stupid much fucked something know put anymore want go sleep never wake,1 +cant live standards killing mei know do semester long project worked on got data write up hate much finish it see useful well done enough good peoples likely are feel like sham turning terrible keep rushing final assignments classes gotten as semester in feel like sham failure cant bear thought getting poor grade cant get shit done keep getting worse cant keep consistently improving grad program want me job want me one want me damaged make anything good life feel bad hold back move forward get exhausted barely continue feel like anything less outstanding useless deserved every little bit hell went child times put down ignored beaten deserved every last fucking bit it feel like trying finish graduate level work combating fucking ptsd cant take it nothing ever feels like itll ever enough cant get better cant time recover wish offed like another student school did cant accept waste would rather die,1 +escaping herill honest recurring intrusive thought ill fine cant stop thinking killed id never worry mom little funny people pull but family theyre trying help suicidial thoughts family isnt giant factor want die lmao know people trying feels like slap face,1 +four years amd still feel dead insidemet girl together almost three years kid loved little guy momma too two years later left guy met two weeks prior new job walmart left homeless reduced mere visitor son two year old son year later hostility grown powerful made clear longer welcome childs life got lawyer rich parents got one too realized would never win case courtus courts classist family court antifather gave up four years keep mind much anyways yet always comes back haunt me family audacity ask start dating again like want see start new life experience pain losing second one again even willing date again ive become miserly bitter person everyday pray cancer i know diety hears them never go doctor hopes might die someday well fuck could write book know shit get read anyways probably get deleted maybe someone worth saving talked instead want ride motorcycle concrete wall mph good news ive started siezures recently maybe health finally fucking fail probably bullshit fatal fuckery,1 +please help meimy old male obsessed sex got point im mastrubating atleast times per day started years ago years times day started cutting month ago cause cant take anymore feel like someone stabbing see hot girl know cant cause im stupid lonely coward cant anything tell im cause makes feel even worse top everything cm belt nail coffin want pick stupid knife instead wrists cut fcking throat need stop agony im currently watching wrists cant stop crying im sorry bad language stupid post sorry wasting time im still piece shit moron deserves burn hell,1 +know whats annoying road trip sound wind flying front seat window half distorted radio thats basically earrape static point know end say im one driving car,0 +want disappearits years intermittent suicidal feelings emotional damage hurting people studies gone shit im covered cuts even allow wear shortsleeved shirts want end finally good good others abomination,1 +honestly much hate say it rest generation kiss normal high school experience goodbye shit aint ever going least years shit like this things were stay fuck shit im afraid school aint ever going free freshman year ever again,0 +whats game everyone grew with skylanders series shame see toys life kinda dead water,0 +sex cool all ever got correct answer accidentally,0 +nothingive feeling bad years now starting small gradually getting worse point last year year ive wanted die ive posted feeling like garbage essentially told still things live blah blah somewhat believed it thinking family friends never thought myself i week decided take look life family away skipped weeks classes saying ill finally want hate usual things wanted change came however found have nothing job car family friends many possessions look life see clearly mean nothing obviously family friends everything else something fill void nothing enjoy never feel like make choice never wanted drive family made could go own realise never go anywhere never wanted job family wanted earn money waste things value importance try make happy cant top that one talk this tell parents im depressed i went bad state theyll assume im stressed work uni tell get grip like last time best friend drifted away newer friends people talk stuff to would get contact best friend awkward since met fianc if guessed fancy lot one many reasons hate myself going doctor drugs help super depressed chunked antidepressants like smarties speaking smarties im lactose intolerant cant even eat want favorites foods gone instant come about doctor said likely triggered stress feeling fucking stress jesus christ thats true im gonna intolerant fucking oxygen time im done writing this anyway digress used go counseling waste time sum told year half four words dont think it wow good advice right there hey everyone feel bad well dont so conclude nothing choice one talk to nothing important me take back one choice whether live die man die sound like great option,1 +think says lot pm conversations ive started ones anxiety freaking might upset someone years reddit cant think maybe exception majority convos started people,0 +first year reddit over th november exact already say thanks making first year reddit great ive laughed ive pressed f pay respect ive done sorts stuff first year great thank guys making phenomenal,0 +day todayfor pure shit born bulgaria day day learned corrupted retarded people be wanted sure hope people actual jobs try work like make someone elses life piece shit forever went today school learned teachers say go class bad shit around they like me apparently since really videoaudio proof wrong since get phones away class checking theres something like camera recorder stuff decided say go school anymore always hated since last year decide get screw principal currently deciding make homeschooled guarantees make good grades really since im actually one homework writing class find job pays us enough pay debt since current income boss lies money yet see rich is thats place work problem really idiots school really want screw life proof text right here changing school really possible right last grade think principal also big plan since said want get like months ago still works documents anyways reason hate might first month school year problems sleeping feeling way stressful reason resulting able sleep whenever should knew condition bad way stupid actually get whats wrong me could say reason they like look least thats say im fucked bad grades might even make resulting school since want way wont th grade believe know guys good enough college resulting shitty job even homeless job plan ill see bad life get get heart attack anything might search pretty nice simple ways kill myself day today might hard understand fuckery wrote fist time read it currently stress sleeping problems probably coming back im optimist good thing know im stressed whole fucking school wants fail wont even shitty life atm ps month sleeping problem also remember heart hurting thats stress guess heart attackkind thing possibleidk,1 +im backso made post month ago venting terrible experiences ive half years ive lived lifted weight shoulders got positive feedback commenters feeling better yet still feel right all sometimes want cry troubles worry littlest things also read last post got fight old friend mine day posted post longer speak look away see him sits big table friends are im sitting alone tables away dread near him hate alone tables wasting precious time spend people care me hate him hate much thinks wrong friends think wrong nearly broke shin im him th grade met kid would soon turn one current best friends yet hanged kid kid awful would try isolate me pick fights me get trouble annoy me try convince commit redflag almost daily moved away next year now wanted talk something strange ive obsessed with really depressed wad obsessed mutilation face burning scarring name it obsessed want rid people see me see face see that kid thought walking school confidently everyone see mangled gouged face best idea ever had care people saw corpsefaced freak nothing anymore fact slowly planning mind deform half face somebody scary thing never ruin face even think low appearance ill cherish looks im generally getting better say im improving im recovering thank you guys thank activate death clock,1 +im treated like little kid every day im treated like im dad fucking calls turkey im talked time cant even say damn without getting trouble everyone else ages cusses parents understand want stop treating like im little kid,0 +keep many mistakes know long go like anymoremaybe someone read this apologize bad english im simply native speaker hey rredflagwatch even know writing here maybe need tell someone like title says im someone many mistakes life one serious probably hiding true self everyone love many years many years now around life day day reason im writing something happend yesterday dont many friends would say guys would call that yesterday realized forgot birthday best friend day yesterday might sound insignificant people one friend like anchor life since met first time ive often ledge life ready end all one person always dragged back even made soul smile dark times yesterday total breakdown even sleep night felt like greatest sht world able think something different this today talked again like nothing happend cant understand even able hate this worst person world disappointing every single person know nothing ever hurt much know do even deserve live on mean disappoint time many people too also think im enrichment life way,1 +cannot one gives shit ready end scared feel one cares anymore struggling cope rn,1 +interesting study societal sexuality well dark interests manbr br while cant say wife strong character wrong choice part opinion rich kid search escaping drool life rebel fact never fully matured husband lawyer rickman obvious married money cover sexual desires taboo rickman played part tee flirtations young man subtle undertones gayness young man gay hilt marilyn impersonation told wife everything perfectly cast well hustler written himbr br i crazy ending knew coming overall though acting rickman great reedus good walker okay misgivings gay themed movie average blatant least worth viewing truly madly deeply lying around spin,0 +final performancesorry eyegrabbing title guess wanted people get curious check out aint lil attention whore anyways ive always imagined would eventually kill myself inevitable turned recently though andi honestly expect make far recently hiv scare took get tested kept thinking please let hiv wanna die shit like that right thankfully hiv back spot wanting alive tried quit drugs though consider addict smoking another bowl justcant seem get loop recently whenever someone wants hang ends annoying me end making excuse people finally see flake ive ditched plans many times ive got nothing going me job cant form meaningful relationships slowly dissolving right eyes even want get better anymore end im probably gonna pussy anything try justcontinue am,1 +ending life within hoursi anything live for nothing im currently years old friend never really friend im currently jobless never able hold job months unemployed year jobs almost money prospects bad social skills anxiety severe depression majority life dropped high school emotionally torture me people come across seem extremely rude me nowhere turn help contact either parents never girlfriend ever really opportunity get close girl believe would give meaning life every girl tried initiate contact shut down immediately ignored me something hurtful say get made fun every person know virgin jokes etc live small town k people unable move no transportationmoney opportunities town make changes life interests hobbies never found skilled anythingi get nothing joy life consistent misery see reason life continue tried best ability deal issues,1 +us entered world war i government forced hollywood churn propaganda films little american probably best lot stars mary pickfordbr br pickford plays young woman torn two men jack holt german raymond hatton french decision delayed war men enlistbr br when ship pickford sailing sunk germans think lusitania carrying munitions pickford great scene stands lifeboat yells german commander later on course runs holt hatton held war prisoner chteaubr br director cecil b demille provides one truly great scene film pickford holt wandering bombedout village pass destroyed church one wall remains standing wall large crucifix stand watch wall collapses jesus figure remains suspended mid air surreal moment film otherwise straightforward unartsybr br pickford is always pleasure watch always natural actress avoided armwaving histrionics many actors day used also pretty holt good leadingman role hatton ok among list name actors extra parts wallace beery ramon novarro colleen moore ben alexander hobart bosworth norman kerry walter long james neill edythe chapmanbr br not great film interesting see us propaganda work,0 +everyone asking america dont u use metric system like bitch didnt fight entire revolution use metric system instead freedom units,0 +perfectly fine could better step bro,0 +im gonna goi think ive enough nothings going well andeverythings come tonight im feeling much right one comfot cant stop crying one wll believe,1 +started walking park every dayso lets begin saying bipolar disorder is say least taxing existence began develop early s now girlfriend years developed began developing stubborn naive believing nothing wrong me never sought help also lot problems home final year high school university causing lot ptsd me led alcoholism drug use eventually girlfriend ended me despite kept trucking found job field graduating tried dating around continued drink drugs regularly happened less year breaking ex engaged guy always that guy one worried good friend her nothing ever happened always knew intentions one time argument had said argument got fairly early relationship engaged dating girl enabling drinking drug use worse would eventually cheat several people leaving financial emotional ruin fast forward today dated someone since serious longer use drugs getting therapy tried multiple medications etc also sober near months now meltdown quit job months ago become shut in every night dream ex getting married months every morning night think hanging myself financially bills piling im returning calls creditors anxious skipped interviews thought terrifies me im scared even worse taking daily walks local park lot trees mind picked one tree particular memorized tie noose good terms ex talked long time want selfish important time her always understood better anyone feel like talking would help time may make worse want okay want suicidal ideation daily struggle more want want end it look years old years old same disappointment never marry person love never comfortable enough keep steady job never stop cravings drugs alcohol never rid disease never truly happy thank listening,1 +people twitter really cant handle others opinions borderline nazi friend accepting theres something seriously wrong,0 +cinderella one disneys greatest films one films think appreciate older get disney creates magical adaptation classic fairytale consider film greatest films time release characters became dimensional earlier films creating depth appreciate characters more cinderella is opinion one greatest characters disney ever created kindness dash dry humor extremely likeable however inspiration provides makes memorable like many people endless dreamer holds onto dreams never giving up even adverse situations dreams endure let anyone take away her example serve inspiration everyone encouragement never let go dreams,0 +you hope guys well hope gets better soon ,0 +ive never felt alonei feel like one friend sexually assaulted last week friend group hangouts purposefully invite me need support im therapy trying damn best losin hope,1 +friends ive never felt alone now ive always someone could talk to years ago would come back school spend rest day talking online friends discord playing games them enough happy alright met girl later become girlfriend first reallife relationship lasted months lost friends,0 +ijustsawabillboardoutside itsaid cannibals rule world likeyeahsureasfuckido,0 +betterhelp cost much something im sure work ill try guyshey ill honest you know work help me im quite desperate something feel better goes little piece story begin with story two sides it family friends quite happy years back maybe around ish began change essentially continued rejection street girls kind rejection bar try get lucky kind friends build long relationship with say least longer idea boyfriendgirlfriend relationship work longer see self capable that still think feelings workpartner know go down already good sense see way cant bring accept that im also virgin however personally mind feel like long physical connection compassion sex feel like saying virgin call physical affection sex i course say friends girls think enough get started family part years ago parents got divorced common story personally take bad saw coming time happend got prepared it however every one else took way worse me might felt quite bad before tip scales much everyone else though trying help everyone else felt like shit myself become quite apathetic family it resently father tried commit redflag often thought taking life comes goes times gets bad thinking everyday times think months one things always sure never did aside cowardly kill myself thought family friends would react often told one would care know deep might tip father past egde already tried once im even sure mightve right still hate try keep family together cut contact thats good start family side im sure thats enough dig to please ask away im open book helps wrote needing pay guys,1 +suffer massive religious stress selfhatred anxiety lack confidence im starting consider redflagi going constant internal struggle religion caused selfhatred anxiety taken away confidence used have started two years ago realized bible large number contradictions loved one mine died cancer began lose faith god loved immensely before started intrusive thoughts loved ones hell hell nightterror told done unforgivable sin crying it also discovered bisexual worsened problems eventually got moved life atheist everything fine year intrusive thoughts went away entirely however come last summer religious stress returned stronger ever im starting hate even more even selfharm via beating myself feel absolutely useless also live constant state fear specific stress started get worse july nd year heard potential isis terror threat july th started intrusive thoughts telling isis correct exactly evil thoughts also consisted god hating me wanting burn hell wanting suffer bisexual doubting him past weeks stress gone far beyond usual level go anywhere without lingering feeling dread constantly think religion right try get help talking people various faiths talked christians muslims atheists agnostics pantheists wiccans even mormon yet still cannot find internal peace think bible quran books hatred war rather peace love idea religion correct theyre false im leaning towards latter massive fear hell keeps fully leaving religion feel like im stuck rock hard place dangling string constantly smashed both ive many thoughts mutilating killing lately even received call crisis hotline last week telling friend concerned wellbeing absolutely idea point im engulfed anguish fear selfhatred depression,1 +got free award first comment gets,0 + days ago days ago lost cat congestive heart failure little girl whole family changed monster alot one sole reasons im still here struggl wrap head around gone never run around house am never curl next purr ear hard change must move on post sympathy empathy posted cause want little girl remembered people,0 +hello everyone d would rather die introduce myself,0 +thinking killing tonightthats all,1 +ahhh omg im literally happy rn like thing kinda guy second lockdown would hangout couple times week friends cuddle couch watched movies lock stopped talking bc couldnt hangout like times would talk like hour ago texted started talking conversation asked would maybe want go skating something next week lockdown area over anyway yeah hehe,0 +superb tv series sympathetic realistic portrayal lesbian women delicately handled well done top directing wonderful settings sumptuous rich real treat missed first one advise watch next weeks pm bbc ,0 +reviewing old vhs tapes came across tv show john denver muppets christmas togetherthis made go computer look see could find dvd version show buy disappointed able find yet dvd show aired delightful show record cd would love buy dvd version show tape old picture quality pretty good fading sound good cd also songs put cd fan john denver muppets dvd show would really good seller cd wonderful chritmas collection songs taken show album also good find still record player play on,0 +although obviously lowbudget production performances songs movie worth seeing one walkens musical roles date he marvelous dancer singer demonstrates acrobatic skills well watch cartwheel also starring jason connery great childrens story likable characters,0 +im officially admittedly depressed tw want move toxic houseturning thought id magical way house money accomplish goals finally report abusive ex rapist thought finally get therapy etc stopped taking zoloft sertraline back cold turkied good emotional parents dont take anymore eye exams doctors appts concern swept rug always say theyll get therapy glasses never follow through need therapy ive needed since freshman year cheap therapists never give shit me called one saying suicidal wanting go politely told calm hung up dug trauma never showed another appointment braces years teeth straight beautiful year ago dentist told need wisdom teeth removed asap itll destroy progress guess cant afford it need glasses weak eye doesnt drift direction quite frankly im used looking fucked ive raised average family may selfish want ugly im terrified finally job cant leave money yet started first training day today looking job months dad wouldnt let work dad selfish controlling mom praises kisses feet defends him theres way point itll long time,1 +spoiler alert wish could discuss without revealing specific plot points cant sorrybr br i looking imdb review george c scott movie stumbled across summary reviews version many notredflag reviews decided order even though awhile truncated rushed thought george c scott embodied tortured nature and physical appearance books rochester t beven looking dvds cover thinking isnt timothy dalton goodlooking role latter concern reinforced fact decided reread book dvd backorder said minute started watching this captivated first disconcerting hear s dialog spoken writtenwith little attempts modernizationbut dalton clarke threw thoroughly actually enjoyed fact adapters trusted audience follow archaic speech much book screen extra bonus know someone watch versions jane eyre who wants see film man keeps poor crazy woman attic frankly someone read book stumbled across hour half two hour versions would think thats pretty much story entailsrochesters secret affect everyone around him luckily version actually jane eyres whole lifebr br some people criticized casting dalton dashing clarke reserved cant argue first point in moment believe rochester me clarkes performance mark jane eyre quiet guarded one remembers book much adult janes fieriness passion occurs private struggles criticisms baffle me reviewers say clarke short pretty enough book goes ad infinitum small plain jane is ms clarke tall filmmakers toned looks make janes declarations lack beauty credible scarcely help dalton tall say chemistry leads what scene jane finally comes room wedding fiasco fairly vibrates passion longing sadness regretand thats first example comes mindbr br i agree criticisms missed scenes helen burns rivers siblings dialog oddly truncated rochester declares jane misjudge me hate mad waited rest exchange rochester explains jane go mad would still love care her powerful moment book wish included think mistake bring scene rochester part story jane own might done claritys sake found jarring wanted sly humor scene jane opines rochesters ardor cool hell become gruff again may like by daltons performance good rare misstep glaringwhen rochester weeps library saw actor crying scene rochester sets anyone ever caught episode s show dark shadows one knows expectvery stark sometimes rickety looking interiors others commented thoroughly succinctly makeup job rochester sports end yikes bad conclusion abrupt anguish suspense wanted rounded ending and copy dvd credits beginning end eleven minute episodes gets bit much said glad film watch again,0 +research purposes im f pls let know thoughts below research purposes im f pls let know thoughts below,0 +therapist read message respond make appointment cooli fired due world events get enough unemployment monthly live kicked house dog family turn would let stay stay mentally healthy andor keep dog boyfriend said live together bit lost job too gets pretty short me always upset him think actually wants move feel like downfalls last weeks changed feels me annoy much get it ive always annoying ill probably end living car pretending like found room somewhere pay storage unit remaining money keep things safe reached therapist days ago need appointment please im afraid im slipping read it nothing reply appointment even therapist wants talk me annoy too want die want be way worry annoying anybody burden anybody anymore constant dog without him could leave him want be,1 +yall wanna joke me im joke laugh end free trial life,0 +tell friends birthday birthday see remembers im thinking keeping birthday secret happens on august th see friends remember do,0 +im lonely unsure fix it kind turned rant lonely since early high school found near impossible make friends escaped problem thinking ever playing videogames night sleeping school literally parents even got cool pillow fit pocket existential crisis deleted games computer set conquer shyness worked longer shy however shyness problem simply idea interact people took approach towards solving problem every problem ive ever had looked internet unfortunately unable find much useful data online almost information make girls magically attracted without exercise easy steps time could find databases conversations showing pick friends would much useful casual sex im junior college now got two year codependent relationship idea establish emotional intimacy outside romantic relationship maintain small talk decent period time come across awkward imagine post sounds usually communicate directly thoughts acquaintances get drunk hang occasionally one really caring close friend saw crying looking me one close friend used love fear still is making irresponsible seek support spend days trying distract logic puzzles music alcohol drugs hang people know like they dislike me nice people indifferent sitting room alone depressing im failing school motivation see piece paper allows get job want make happy counseling utterly useless tell problems tells im depressed take drugs barely outperform placebo arguably due bias studies reported use inert placebos friday must decide whether energy pass finals friday last day take medical leave much hope future idea make friends lonely im beginning believe perhaps lack skills unchangeable part personality keeps isolated one make friends asked question people always get answers involving things understand do go talk people how join club did club activities people incredibly impressed ability listen talk invited social circle interested math technology climbing things mixed martial arts building things find anything interesting hard activity compete sitting room crying p always exceptionally good math perfect math scores math team performance certainly reason able get good university despite putting almost effort classes high school ability get math classes without homework studying hours tests reason yet failed out feel like might happy life could somehow use gift benefit people suffering try think situation would make happy position help many people irreplaceable seems one justify existence feel emotionally immature age im ready graduate take life want curl ball cry im lonely wish friends im exactly sure im posting this feels good so anyone similar position learned interact people would appreciate advice feel like need know offer advice please ask would willing help via chat would appreciate too,1 +camera turned shirtless im guy havibg apnic attack camera turned shirtless im guy school camera turned split second shirtless suspended dont think went collar,0 +i feel legitimately suicidal relationship thingliesdont want give detailsddalksdfkh,1 +rock n roll high school probably go history ultimate rebellious party flick portraying bunch high school students using ramones music inspiration rise despotic principal mary woronov eating raoul fame whole movie mile minute basically big excuse fun im sure will bullied freshmen check dorky music teacher paul bartel also eating raoul check exploding mice checkmatebr br anyway sort stuff makes life worth living even someone like know ramones music pure pleasure roger corman executive producing joe dante codirecting could expect anything less bad director allan arkush later degenerated fare caddyshack iibr br also starring pj soles vincent van patten clint howard dey young dick miller who appeared every one joe dantes movies many roger cormans steele course ramones real treatbr br it seems like bartel woronov always costarred also costarred joe dantes hollywood boulevard slasher flick chopping mall also starring dick millerin reprised roles eating raoul,0 +live alone talk anyone regularly enough notice went mia literally way would work unless attempt unsuccessful wake up tired weighing options bad far outweighs good nothing ever feels right never happy tired always either tired depressed angry numb alternating emotions believe ever content tired lashing people taking anger unhappiness them tired toxic person toxic deeply depressed even think excuse become shitty person hate myself truly think years misery enough torture going for know waiting me depression never goes anger gets unbearable afraid of it everyone dies world nothing certain except death taxes think saying goes going die eventually really matter when for allowing stay pain like this what every day trying get day nothing pleasurable life me need get fear death sake nobody would even find,1 +get rid sex dreams please help course virgin stupid brain craving sex want end im tired waking feeling like stupid mistake nobody ever like way make stop,0 +assume hobbies hobbies include screenwriting amp filmmaking acting drawing watching movies amp tv shows reading comic books listening rock music daydreaming amp watching youtube go ahead assume,0 +hello game night server soon along vc anyone wants hop hmu fun promise hmu youre aye ages ty ,0 +even live yourself supposed doing personally derive enjoyment nothing none hobbies anything ways pass time or convince better nothing what fuck waiting for hate existence like hate myself said countless times done know direct intent know method use when soon preferably year deadline closing it even suffer well would dead long after cares would care moment would nothing life huh,1 + hear texted girl like hello,0 +redflag attempt failedlast time wrote post thinking would last swallowed whole bottle pills happened vomiting blacking couple hours generally feel weak try right now days will funny thing im failure everything even demise,1 +fan seeing movie all gf called said free advanced screening pass tagged along sake seeing eva longoria laughing jason biggs anticsbr br overall actually better expected much like hybrid lose guy days like heaven typical romantic comedy moments guess movie quite short though around min enough tell whole story build character development decent happy ending whole idea ghost haunting former husband interesting plot follow eva good job keeping sarcasm paul rudd rest supporting cast especially jason biggs kept laughs coming smooth pacebr br overall liked movie good amount laughs keep going otherwise would given movie lower rating hey chick flick im reviewing movie guys persepctive alright would fair fight females reviewied movie gave thoughts it,0 +triedi tried holding head high tried making friends tried new hobbies tried going more even tried quitting job something better tried make betterand nothing really working sit contemplatingperscription bottle one hand alcoholic nexti keep thinking fucked everyone over good daughter sister aunt best friend,1 +help someone shuts offhello im sorry right place friend work received scary texts girlfriend threatening redflag were trying talk with lot help resources sub ty texted bye reply anymore im town feel pretty helpless it lot faith hope nothing happen mostly keep calm situation anyone advice especially girlfriends shoes help,1 +throughout childhood adolescence told things would get easier turned im nothings getting better wanna give things changingi cant handle home parents feel like im constantly scared feel safe even getting high constantly anymore im constantly tense never know long parents start cursing calling disgusting theyve telling leave now agreed give k long swear never come contact ever again starting seem like want leave nothing know do supposed take professional exams year im trouble completing basic assignments pretending asleep hours day,1 +gay fucking gay like damn bro gay wtf,0 +im tired kill myselfim tired want close eyes die,1 +time spooky month spooktober eventful month family birthdays holidays ultimate spooky boi im going play vr birthday best friend hours shit cause not im going make sure improve last part year next year im pretty good moment wanna keep going happy spooktober everyone,0 +yall know brentalfloss used watch brentalfloss like years ago hes making new videos im extremely pogging rn,0 +reddit therapyventing thread feel like need vent anything use comments specify wether want advice get help people may similar situation therapy sessions irl feel free share learned,0 +dont give up least make honest sufficient attempti made attemt given up good night,1 +remembered tourettes sent video talking friend n rly cant go seconds without ticking interrupts speech patterns wtf thats crazy also people r playin trumpet parking garage umm,0 +pretty much decided kill myself repent things done way place selfpity feel remorseful turned out much empathy affected let go without repercussion know impact family already struggle mental health trust god comfort whenever happens get judges according will selfishly gives peace know paying price everything feels just stain,1 +emptyi dont want hurt care im empty done everything really dont know much longer keep holding on ive ready die ive tried many times want could buy cyanide id gone already want quick painless money id buy gun fucking end dude im fucking broken cant muster strength pick anymore,1 +political middle biggest breakupi think donnie mikeand fly buddy arent making month,0 +two ways turn tv series filmbr br the first common least successful basically make featurelength tv episode see disasters steptoe son movie second something else something quite different la monty pythonbr br thankfully creators cult tv series gone second option theyve come something unique clever funny feel less like tv episodebr br try get head around this writers playing themselves confronted royston vasey alteregos played course them told continue writing series otherwise apocalypse befall villagebr br highconcept contrived easy screw up yes somehow managed pull off every taste perhaps ending drag fans delighted might even win uninitiated,0 +hey girl queen cause old pasty,0 +started months ago unexpectedly lost dad cancer girlfriend years leaving me still talk trying like hell lose her person got lived together years great rental top working full time managing store dealing losing dad worry paying rental moving really want do darkest days life live time low know anymore worst year life,1 +im retrying this haircut get serious like actually looks good people,0 +first day back school today hi guys today first day swedish equivalent high school nervous went well fun good thing school chose go one day week dont school but expected work assignments day really nice,0 +great movie bad available home video,0 +friend talking something showed r prove point im worried life,0 +ending tonightwanted wait little longer initially working out finally ill able sleep stay asleep wish best,1 +want deathdeath greatest lover one craves one cant wait join him others come quicker others guess come most maybe take self world every day dream cold medal slowly cutting threw skin making valley blood flow times dream tying rope around neck jumping roof brige anything day dream butting cold medal barrel mouth pulling trigger maybe deserve pain suffering life maybe death want yet wants suffer more cant wait meet death make everything better life want death is know death want saved killing maybe again im sure hes ready tonight may find out good fucking peace shit world,1 +horse lover one appreciate movie movies show horsemanship one does would love know brian riding film would also like know enjoys horses brian lot movies ridden learn ride part hard take riding scenes always full tilt like horse run forever full steam camerawork first rate captures horses way shows dangerous things top horse would interesting know went casting movie find good horseback riders,0 +bother emotional post worthless life is someone wants talk little bit mindive pretty suicidal year now told single person except younger sister and best friend drunk cant bring tell anyone know selfish narcissistic is it going completely private little attention possible still might it feel gay even posting throwaway account right now feel like talk someone soon might happen though im sure think want happen nothing good right now mean all theres another way besides killing myself think want least try offing,1 +coin gift guess number thinking one attempt only,0 +want die im scaredi want die wish could want guts it fucking it cant im pussy pain want endless torturous cycle end want feel true happiness feels like this fake ass im okay version happiness want able wake want die able go day without sinking feeling chest feels like feeling chest cry alot heavy gray sinking feeling time every second every day want lift weight chest let someone else carry it im sick small flashes happiness torn away me hate it hate this know sometimes feel depressed thing always helps going website anonymously listen vent people go listener always listen problems give heartfelt advice years living nobody done me nobody ever sit listen me give actually helpful advice things get better hell start cant go on stop ruins sleep happily able walk past someone look eyes happy hate want throw up im sick shit sit earth suffer deep inside hate everyone,1 +binge eatingits fun hating image try adding food gaining pounds pathetic ive got pathetic man titties doublechin stretchmarks hated without them despise them food seems one areas comfort double edged sword kill one day get advice people stop binge eating torturous,1 +feeling like meds sucki got celexa latuda now im suicidal know medication reaction problem cant figure ive fucking up mg celexa upped changed mg latuda know meds life sucks im going sleep completely decide redflag im un committed know rationality meds cant continue okay cant continue feel everything fault need someone life tell okay cant anymore need someone need someone tell going okay,1 +heart set new yearsi fail time ill free anymore mistake judgement stagnation life come to cutoff contacts friends family next that im finally done,1 +life could get better really liked girl class liked back friends since middle school talking guys stuff still showed affection boom days ago comes tells nonbinary giving words inspiration still shows affection telling wants tall boy big pp deep voice one things big pp inch fuck do want date do,0 +largest crowd ever see wrestling event us took place wrestlemania people showed break rolling stones indoor record event disappoint all maybe biggest match time took place immortal hulk defended world title ultimate warrior matches get tons action,0 +mitras advice getting boyfriend compliment windows house windows hell know care,0 +id leave me tooive hard deal lately ive manic angry manic breaking things throwing things screaming sobbing ive hospitalized many times year ive slowly pushed everyone love away me thinking it maybe thats im suicidal im tired me too want leave me too im tired shit im sick me im sitting here typing darkas one talk and well nothing left say anywayi realize it keep praying tonight night close eyes dont wake up sure maybe itll get better bother cant even stand look mirror anymore whats point anything dunno sorry weird pointless rant usual wow hate shit today really hard im gonna go drink bunch nyquil get sleep im refreshed another day ideation disappointment,1 +fuck fuck fuck fuck everythingive failed woken care parents people say people attempt redflag regret ever say ass ive daydreaming felt finally think going free counted pills made sure lethal amount gobbled down extreme nausea didnt even bother me thought abyss would scary even tho unconscious remember peaceful felt felt content regret failing seeing affected them things bad attempt die part survived,1 +gave life years ago havnt left house since im uglyim male aged look younger cm tall cm ft skinny af lanky long legs etc pale receding hairline kissless virgin yea looks department over never leave house havnt since bar job met amazing people also horrors horrible women whod call ugly treat like shit staff managers worked with good looking guys could wrong fucked pinned many times end got fed left go work football stadiums steward thats same women staring im skinny like fault theyre fat guys work staring wtf face overweight short girls calling ming whatever means great say example older male pass conversation friendly think nice someone looks past look like isnt many like about eat gain weight face goes fat rounder thinner feel better still hidoeus nevertheless comment asked hair one comment said hes clearly balding hidoeus btw got upvoted times drink whiskey every night watching cartoons im starting get chest pains theres tree garden i live dad multiple think high branches reached step ladder already need rope practice pressure standing ladder next thick branch plan hanging night practice height feeling feel drop suspense need rope need buy one online thats bargain free shit also girl ever liked years ago tomorrow gorgeous too worked bar me damn miss bad take back please basically live upstairs watching netflix everyday house waiting die edit testicle cancer clear since why wish id let kill tbh,1 +coworker friend suicidal know help want tohi there coworker mine struggled depression long time i believe least decade known last year half recently entered relationship former coworker im sure knows never met place let know current situation reason know suicidal posted two months ago recognized username im girlfriend interact daily basis know show support without seeming awkward intrusive plays major role restaurant work in clearly major impact mental health everyones mental health different works one person ie medication therapy support may work another however want know connect person let know resources available him human resource department counselling service friend perusing subreddit looking sign live little longer presence reach to it,1 +stop focusing much getting girlfriendboyfriend instead focus awesome are see many posts say stuff like im horny im lonely gfbf dating solve problems must fix going looking someone date all cant even love yourself gonna damn hard love another guys talents theres life relationship guys envy couples see chemistry match awesomeness store funny memes good technical insight great artistic skills amazing musical ear tremendous literary skills etc besides developing talents get people notice more that bring inspiration reach full potential chance influencing peoples entire lives thats way better dating imo besides teen relationships last another important thing remember know find person right you trying take anyone get like setting curse upon yourself often times barely know people even know whether genuinely enjoy them takes find someone worth wait meantime you,0 +draw someone im getting pretty bored really want draw somebody reference portraits find google interesting someone wants draw leave comment ill choose someone draw im working portraits right now please shoulders up thanks ill also post reddit im done cool reply post link picture you may take bit realistic portraits ill post eventually,0 +anyone know find people talk abt depression lie problems with ive joined learn discord servers abt one talks me want someone heal me hotlines dont help tried yesterday maybe someone relate maybe ugh im forcing ppl whatever man tired depression,0 +poll profile pls curious think,0 +really wish courage itthats really reason already done it people miss anything friends never relationship social skills garbage live places people age hangout see changing anytime soon im bullied time anyway lets know im utter failure human being parents say it know see disappointment wish different child know im suicidal refuse acknowledge anything theres one really cares im going through passions ambitions theres job would enjoy doing doubt theres job without screwing up want here peoples responses pretty negative feel like end it hope get courage soon,1 +im crisis post help me need something real life something free natural like friend fuck er fuck inpatient fucktard art class fuck government fuck systemcome door blast off friends,1 +want overi want kill badly want done trying fix things simply arent fixable mother never loved me dont friends take seriously cant look mirror dont recognize myself people used get along scared me parents getting divorce everything dumb theres point still here cant bring it im sad dont want anymore everything hurts heart heavy nothing seems worth it still much coward end stupid fucking life ive struggling thoughts nearly years even though ive tons medication bit year started antidepressants anxiety medication february go therapy talk things people nothing helping want absence make people realize theyve missing on maybe potential one wanted find out friends fake girlfriend doesnt love me tell want write note get with reason cant find how time want call redflag hotline want get better takes effort effort dont feel like give im worn out im tired this instead anything im sitting fucking bed cant talk friends fathers number well address theyd sure hell call ambulance call dad im gonna miss dogs dad go kidding though never going make wedding anyway one post dumb im sorrycan someone encourage get with,1 +dont know theres nothingfuck im alone one ever love me support swear god one fucking person tells ill find someone im going implode one knows like alone really everyone says ill find someone never single weeks decide want get pool again ive single entire life im even allowed pool everyone goes friends hell dont even friends anymore family hates me hate christmas everyone someone loves them friendsfamily so every year despite best efforts get shooed away laughed off etc cant blame it still takes tole ive got nothing else give im gas legs broken ive got nothing live for im lucky wont wake up wont even know name,1 +ami told manipulated someone talking redflag threats cannot believe someone known many years opinion me maybe good thing told me want anyone feel like that,1 +bf application please red requirements must be willing anal boy optional thankyou coming,0 +please participate research study geared toward understanding suicidal thoughtsbehaviors us onlynote posting approved moderators rredflagwatch please also note posting repost study posted september httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsywvplease_participate_in_research_study_gearedstjfpmscampsheeaca already participated time please participate again hi rredflagwatch name megan rogers graduate student department psychology florida state university working dr thomas joiner dr joiner conducting research study examines risk factors suicidal thoughts behaviors hope understanding shortterm redflag risk work toward developing effective treatments ultimately lower prevalence suicidal thoughts behaviors age fluent english live united states currently experiencing thoughts redflag may eligible participate study decide participate will fill baseline set questionnaires minutes receive amazon gift card complete brief minute phone interview megan rogers portion mandated institutional review board store phone number call take every step possible ensure confidentiality fill five followup surveys minutes each one every three days next weeks you receive amazon gift cards followup survey total complete five complete five followup surveys within hours receiving them receive bonus gift card overall may earn participating study remember completely voluntary choose study not email us joinerlabpsyfsuedu message us post questions concerns study would like participate please click link see eligible httpsfsuqualtricscomjfeformsv_vdaihclvuskwx thank much hope hear soon best regards megan rogers ms florida state university,1 +think live world anymorehi all past weeks seriously felt like killing myself cant seem get rut in want die got fired job may which totally take blame for girlfriend three years broke september hates really know wrong friends lonely one person get cant life find job even fucking mcdonalds got rejected three different jobs today thought nailed two interviews miss happy cant feel anything anymore im emotionless want feel again something anything pain thing want feel imagine knife going arm good feel know wrong life im feeling way want go therapy get antidepressants insurance really cannot afford pay pocket anything want feel way want happy again miss everything life used be miss ex know hates me miss friends know avoid me want move somewhere far away place money to want get job save leave cant even seem that hate feeling alone try make new friends city live fucking small closed minded hard meet people even willing talk you hate fucking much want text friends tell much love miss know respond would make feel even worse top cant really contact deleted facebook avoid seeing ex exs mom shut phone earlier week im tired trying hard getting anywhere hard wake start day knowing nothing give back literally nothing hate fucking much want feel way anymore days even feel like im alive feel empty first two months year flown really know done time im pathetic,1 +need helpi bad life ive suffered depression decade now today bad really bad im sure do,1 +im donei dont even know im writing this feel like need let feelings somehow also dont wanna bother irl friends im ive really messed stuff past two years constantly feel like im burning im close mental breakdown honestly understand britney shaved head every day get thoughts like it breaking point im finally gonna never follow plans wanna get away everything thats stressing right now redflag honestly seems like tempting option would literally worries im dead dont even know going this felt like needed write somewhere im seriously close something really bad ,1 +hey guys managed kill mosquito bare hands yes ive managed kill one things holding society back wondering weirdly want see corpse whatever probably say no,0 +one best films ever maybe well punk scene late s went many hazels concerts film good story line good acting hazel coming phil daniels sure latest project eastenders excellent performance lots unknown actors keep eyes peeled see many uk soaps today exp carver bill watch spot well seen yet night video forget dig safety pin nose heavy black eye makeup shave head mochanian styleenjoy,0 + things unhealthy anyways drinking alcohol smoking sleeping hours per week,0 +im fucking piece shit new years went party organised best friends crush long story short first pass large amount alcohol blood ended sleeping speak im afraid ive lost best friend night girl know beforehand tell someone,0 +need someone talki broke mutually went relationship right now feel one me friends nothing need people talk to,1 +music going listen gopersonally im going listen spaceywhitenoisenovocal music kinda like meditation music ill even happier die you going listen to,1 +hard times nights easy cuz whiskey killing me got empty spot inside me deep dark hole love used be gary allan said best whiskey,1 +carethey care saving me care press theyll get saving teenage girl getting anything care got me hurt me cant even sleep cant sleep bed cant sleep house tried killing work hate it body hurts im uncomfortable cant breathe im tired im done one going help me ill slowly disappeared die one noticed,1 +forgetting stuff yeah mostly indifferent happening around me think common symptom guys deal it making lot mistakes,1 +girl liked told liked me said prank tiktok friend recording told fat ugly bitch starting crying justice served,0 +came terms im gonna make end yearamp im content,1 +im failure loser disappointment family cant dieim life already over none friends wanna talk cant get girl talk them grades ok parents disappointed havent met girl three years college im mad im sexually frustrated wanna die ill never get girl im fat ugly worthless already wrote redflag note need send parents,1 +ii love job im resigning job fire incompetent fuckup again savings bunch debt im overweight disgusting looking annoying date anyone all place mess cant muster energy clean talk friends anything ill always waya miserable embarrassing screwupif ill never good enough anyone anything lie put bag head overdose pills whats point dragging disappointment shame stupidity im tired im tired screwing time worthless im tired anxious feeling useless cant anymore,1 +like something inside matter good things get want destroy myself maybe trust myself band signed record deal staying boat mediterranean happy want jump ocean keep swimming till drown take thoughts go away,1 +close march th day everything became bad closing year mark since emergency declared us closing schools movie theaters malls everything want anymore school nearly year feel horrible zoom classes,0 +online classes stay become new norm yay nay asking guys felt years online classes also feel idea online classes may become new norm future,0 +im helpi used come talk people edge something hurtful month took time personal reasons im therapist anything sometimes person needs someone listen sayingmaybe okay would like help things im requesting anyone needs help chat reach meill make sure get back soonall welcomed im m matters anyone,1 +everybodys favorite pastime im looking friends decided id give place try ive heard suspected pedophiles here yall kindly fuck off im male open minded accepting everyone like fishing hiking writing playing music live streaming much much more anybody looking friends someone chat with feel free message me thanks reading post hope see soon,0 +posting makes panicive gad mdd since child feel like getting worse days cant anything stay bed job cant afford therapy medicine feel like ill never amount anything im afraid everything dropped college im failure everything do practical talents im smart never know say social situations im people feel like im heart attack feel like deserve little friends have understand talk me im still live dad would homeless without him every job ive had ive broke quit nobody hire me make art point long run want exist anymore probably got hours sleep last night stay awake worry people important me made friend online last november weve talked every day since struggle depression too reached last night know say would help them know would say myself want help feel like id say wrong thing told id need me know thats enough im worried want lose them im tired want sleep sleep nightmares want cry hate myself want hide even know im posting this,1 +walking around productive boyfriend emancipation papers not filled out big plan going go live life pursue college told friends going leave family which feel like emotionally mentally abusive sure go get apartment finish highschool go straight college med school problem is actually done that past year got pulled school twice suicide watch grades plummeted quit sports team cut friends stopped showing work tried kill myself recently getting worse home father become controlling grounding stupid things taking away car letting see boyfriend friends gaslighting spending time him etc mother gotten better manipulated think fine husband hand says reason mothers health deteriorated stepparents said reason family dysfunctional sometimes like think stronger others worse friends true all weaker them life easy want stop existing awful shit happened kid ill admit late lifes bad could be idk feel stupid living vida depressy,1 +hate subreddit im bored asf text m covid makes holidays bday suck lmao,0 +cannot get back taken know fighting for pointless ya,1 +like im allowed happyive wanted die before hindsight im pretty sure never would done it given circumstances time though ive never felt unwanted worthless life past weeks ive basically watched life fall apart front eyes ive gone waking morning smile face hopefulness excitement day even waking up im sad angry wound sleep days motivation go work except fact im irritated simply get bed get first bus morning work cannot stand lie tormented mind longer whole situation feeling like began girlfriend first real one wanted kind future with decides break me text im work understandably causes great deal stress emotion much go home cannot cope office longer next day boss calls meeting regarding leaving early previous day dosent end well going though lot shit work time anyway help long story short ive told im basically going lose job within next month girlfriend also timed perfectly along this friends reason cannot figure decided distance want associate me ive gone enjoying life great love social life relatively stable job hating life shit little time much honestly know do feels like soon life gets good something or case whole fucking load things come along fuck me really like im allowed happy want anymore,1 +hi exist one cares tho anyway filler time asleep right im thats great like city love cities trains also drawing geography live best city world anyway filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler anyway good night say anyway lot realize,0 +words language describe inexplicably mad brother frickin bastard ate kfc saved breakfast,0 +told girlfriend thinking killing myselfher response do need go hospital me no im going it want to her is really good use time choose something else instead thinking redflag really know feel this mean point also really reminds rwowthanksimcured,1 +ittook everything have bye yall,1 +k debt defaultedmore keep piling on unable find job able pay loans mental health hanging strings im mentally ready go somewhere quiet end all never understood people take lives cause money position bright day im join them reasons reasons gone im waiting last straw added pile feel relieved think everything ending relief knowing im longer disappointment everyone knowing end around corner joy past years,1 +parents standards weird like video games language obviously matter drugs matter violence matter single frame tit dick fucked kinda weird,0 +essay thats due today havent even started honestly dont know even start im getting really stressed know do dont know even type out happening aaaaaaa,0 +im going go die nowim done whether im victim villain dont care anymore im unbelievably done everything much plan tomorrow need think best way accomplish that dont know bye,1 +depression caused chronic inflammation brainhi read article depression caused chronic inflammation makes way brain feeling suicidal please take couple nsaids advil aspirin give little time see start feeling better started felt really bad actually really think helps take first signs im sure know mean feel depression creeping you also love heavy weight lifting help mood course depressed want exercise easy minute warm treadmill gets ready work love peace you brothers sisters,1 +ayo relationship advice girl need advice pm cuz dont want person im talking see this,0 +text posts ever get hot think ive ever seen it also sort hot know hot,0 +dont want die think toill shortly summ whats going on basically rona made depressed used straight a college student got published research top class mission work etc im probably going get expelled since im failing classes theres coming back this deadass looking end life rn find stupid months severe depression could fuck life bad life unforgiving lol sad theres much want live too puppy want watch grow up im great relationship theres still things want semester ending weeks cant bear thought deal shit get expelled loans go repayment oh topic finances im pretty sure ive lost job casual job hospital required work shift every weeks havent come month ive likely already fired it losing job stupid shit like middle pandemic cant get stupid lazy this anyways looks like cant anything anymore rereading all looks like want partake fun parts life im willing put work even now fucking late parents wont forgive wasting entire semester dont help pay college cosign loans even want cut out looks like bound together loans paid might well go hell even tho aside cosigning loans ive independent financially lived alone since school main reason die rn parents dont give shit shit really going hit fan find this really wouldnt mind waitress something life figured mom anxiety doesnt manage shes gonna flip kill myself loans forgiven ive checked feel trapped wish killed earlier life really nothing lose bittersweet im ready lose life ive reached point continuing life worth living shitty kill parents barely picture make life hell im really worried puppy goes since none friends going able take dont trust family take good care him im regretful right now wanted today good last day dog im sitting crying probably sense im sad rn,1 +whats favorite and least subject school excluding electives mines close math sciencei rly like history never good interested learning past like graphic design course im taking year,0 +warning possible spoilersbr br rock star one solid rock movies ever seen original idea script focuses young singer s leading tribute band one famous hard rock bands period playing music note also living life idols friends tribute band expel him search originality destiny plays good turn gets hired replace lead singer idols band dream came true well almost starting live life famous including drug sex excesses rock scene s also face problems relationship supportive girlfriend eventually need answer questions creativity saying music bandbr br i liked film one reasons one first times life music hard metal rock bands shown realistic manner fans music genre satisfied soundtrack overall idea original issues artist lives life creates art rendered sensible balanced manner acting quite good mark wahlberg better action flics saw lately jennifer aniston tune nicegirlwhoknowsalotaboutlife role problematic ending quite conventional may disappoint looks like main character quiting big famous band found creative path however ironical twist music playing club end worst whole movie br br personal scale worth seeing however expect exposure high dose metal like kind music may chose avoid film,0 +cant fall deeper doneim year old guy sick living world used hunkfunny guy back town girls liked guys friends with moved town college rock bottom since then real friends here although stand some simply feel like real friendship ive gained pounds summer spent front computer or eating im law school which hate ive never known abilities things simple brushing teeth become titanic task depressed am times feel alive go back old town see friends tired useless piece crap rest days care girls anymore sexual encounters ive had ive erectile dysfunction want kill im afraid even as everything do wrong everyone seems start succesful meanwhile ive never job real sexual relationship travlled around world hate career wanted vent thanks reading this,1 +im scared ill something tonightits particularly bad couple weeks already shitty year ive struggling mental health while always manageable took hits life though lost someone really cared about lost job became isolated family friends see alone knowing absolutely nothing live for hope getting better friend ask help know man want end all feel like thats way theres part wants live try better gets confusing me dont know im scared alone locked bathroom dont want feel tempted hurt something sharp might see outside dont think makes sense im sorry,1 +please read waste timeits like could ever get balls together actually kill myself unless go plans buying alot heroin once post least important post here even first one either useless attention whore ever kill myself ill sit hope get deadly disease go serious accident ive failed two classes semester one university fucktard im going pass exams got phone lying parents grades enjoy last week here tell truth fuck up get go home week hear ruined christmas fuck piece shit worth bullet would take end it always thing concerning grades fuck lie ive gone counseling ive subscribed pills take im fucktard could point right path give everything need id still go wrong way cant socially connect anyone im failure man well cant even get women platonic relationship let alone romantic one even held hands hugged girl everyone floor including roomate hates around like really expected connection anyone wish could give amount time left life someone else use better things ever will point life anyone suffer make people suffer dead,1 +whats ur favorite cuss word mines cunt simple yknow,0 +im point im done fightingi almost point feel like point living anymore im waste social anxiety long remember always felt weird around new people ever someone asks even simple question start blushing freaking embarrassing mom sister seem think since socially awkward treat like something mentally wrong me ever someone speaks mom butts talk say baby voice this youngest little shy understand treats like little child pisses talks always cuts off sister normally thing started new thing ever walk across street tries hold hand im like hell doing oh im trying make sure little sister run front cars really im fricking stores talking people right humiliates me it really stupid cause social anxiety like today sister goes things horse races whitch little fake model horses run around game bored sitting one ladies talking ofcourse mom butts talking says little shy one ever talk much wanted start crying embarrassed alot things going really want talk them everyone know homeschooled overprotective mother allow anything friends real life online im allowed step foot outside yes includes backyard without watching every step change talking never listen cant talk dad cause walked see times year tried commit redflag three times one night birthday year march brave enough feel like trying cause really feel like socially retarded freak cant speak anyone without almost breaking tears read room away people im freak family cause im vegan eating disorder one understands bring everyone down know must sound really annoying normally like this,1 +im sure whether cant survive again cant take trauma failure cant risk arrested police surviving keep told services capacity kill stop me surely capacity way achieve need way id know going work,1 +want kill dont know howis useful guide there website know about ive made mind want fail i access rooftop though,1 +joyi cant seem feel anything fear anguish anymore think im going kill myself quite yet ive entertained idea many times recently suffer bpd pretty extreme hypochondria every little thing going body sends shivers spine used write play music time cant even come words melodies anymore see much reason go living like this things cant control know medication would make much much worse ive even considered picking heroin late drugs seem help feeling temporarily im afraid heroin overdose seems like best way go honestly really know im posting this guess cry help something cant seem feel positive emotions anymore,1 +desperately need admitted psych ward get hospital bill choice irony,1 +theres something learnt big hero carrying backpack one shoulder bad health im anyway comfy,0 +minnie moskowitz pathetic ungraceful love story ive ever seen minnie disillusioned museum curator whose abusive married boyfriend dumps leaves even uptight confused already was seymour moskowitz parking attendant desperate attention spends nights going bars restaurants aggravating people chaotic disenchanted match start like many pairings see every daybr br in nearly every love story man woman man confident funny either classically hot attractive way whose shortcomings charming woman wounded soul could man wants chooses guy theres something him movies make everyone feel good characters embody every man woman wants be are minnie moskowitz instead indulging hint fantasy realm romance depicts people may common attractive confident people much experience playing field whats story behind love affairs ugly alarmingly awkward man life job run into woman crippled insecurity difficult talk herbr br this film fascinating cassavetess faces opening night riveting quality cassavetes always fought hard render unbridled depiction people underneath ego hides behind nearly films gena rowlands seymour cassel delivering startlingly pitiable people hardly likable moskowitz nearly drives us mad let alone minnie imposes forcefully life dates explosion inner voices respond screamingly inept uneasiness dates weve on rejections weve swallowed arguments weve know faults admire film like minnie moskowitz because trademark films cassavetes helmed himself identifies us honesty egos play part company characters thus tremendous achievement per performance actor,0 + footlight parade released viewed br br the ice cream cone invented new yorkbr br kevin long busy break hit another busby berkeley musical warner bros time ultrafast paced footlight parade starring james cagney juggernaut stage producer chester kent certain cagney channeling berkeley performance irrepressible kent come new ideas performances every minute joan blondell also excellent acidtongued secretaryturnedlove interest ruby keelerdick powell subplot major time less enjoyable one thing baffled berkeleys performances themselves seemed far extravagant complex performed stage let alone stage would showing film afterwards obviously busby let little thing like story impede putting together overthetop musical numbers possibly conjure liked nearly movie end shamelessly offensive number shanghai lil which one guess stomachturning racially distasteful performances comebr br doug six movies three months got new record anywaythis completes warner bros musical trilogy preceded nd street gold diggers would definitely recommend watching three row wonder james cagney channeling busby berkeley playing chester kent movie role written inspired busby hope was seems make sense berkeley kind guy would see elaborate dances everyday occurrences way chester does funny thing cagney really look like leading man traditional sense squareheaded talked odd new york accent guy quite versatile going venomous gangsters made famous fasttalking producertypes see here could dance basically leading man body character actor rest cast familiar faces joan blondell returns steals show cagneys loyal lusting secretary dick powell ruby keeler play cute couple seem get less screen time before billy barty pops mischievous imp movie typical racy adultoriented musicals precode era opposed s s family oriented excellent climax warner musicals year the shanghai lil number withstanding keeler poor job looking chinesebr br last film dinner eight next film im angel ,0 +hate social mediait reminds behind life everyone seems perfect life isnt illusion fact good looking people great jobs meaningful work awesome group friends afford travel worldnice carnice apartment still save house tons tons fun meanwhile stuck job literally high school student could director doesnt trust responsibility cant life maintain close nonfamily relationship plutonic romantic made many wrong decisions led life rather great life many former nerds folk people have wish nothing beg god another chance start fresh start start wont make fucked decksions hesitant start things like college late ask advice people wrong get social success week interviews thing mindaet mindset mindset heres afucking secret fucking impossible positive abundant mindset whem people stingy ebcause one little mistake made past abundant positive mindset comes treated respect well liked,1 +im sorryim sorry mother never accept apologies im sorry father cant stand live you im sorry friends found hospitalized attempted redflag im sorry boyfriend want stay hate alive im sorry boyfriends parents care like im daughter showed bit like parents im sorry grandparents making think manipulating boyfriend redflag im sorry didnt think serious im sorry keep lying well im one day youre planning funeral wondering stopped noticing things im sorry people reddit reading late night listening ramblings dumb bitch longer courage kick bucket is always be tied guilt im sorry myself letting weak letting get best you im sorry couldnt take care you im sorry continue suffer indeterminate amount time,1 +saw someone else deal gender male age sexuality could care less relationships height favorite color blue favorite food lil scone things favorite artist varies favorite album tf album favorite song pompeii currently listening to nothing instruments play kalimba trumpet learning guitar ukulele favorite song play avatars love kalimba hobbies playing games disappointing others spiting others d printing making things homework status absolutely idea work status work sportsmans hate covid lets hope dislikes people never texting first people babies likes people hanging out chatting stupid dumb yes theres difference procrastinating final comments congrats made far im sure saw gender male clicked downvoted good rest day fam take care luv u,0 +tried kill myselfi tried kill oding paracetamol took pills g each took played music tried fall asleep head spinning fall asleep pretty long time eventually did im here feel nothing mentally pyshically feel numb stomach aches little dry mouth theres weird chemical smell know coming from thats it honest part expected this hoping would work im scared kill way thought going sleep never waking wonderfull feel like attention kind way self harm instead actual redflag attempt whole thing pretty impulsive thought before never followed through evening confronted reality started thinking suffer anymore kill myself waited parents go bed could get pills waiting wrote letter made sure cool friends sibling one would feel guilty anything like that it im even phased now know feel strange know now am took pills around am know effects get worse part hopes do know tho,1 +liv ullmans character says i feel like im someone elses dream theyre going ashamed wake up referring unwilling player societys war games referring ignorant participant life itself films end says dream child trying take care it forgot something else implication forgotten learned war survived like mother her unable pass vital lessons child and therefore cycle shame ignorance continuead infinitum,0 +automod sensitive like cant even insult anymore thats joke,0 +would appreciate advice please take time thank advancein greatest imagination im unable conceive life worth living longer intend die sooner rather later obviously im sure story much unlike many others im going get why feel great depth things stand im looking advice handle actions here this tell people care intend kill myself offer time go feel though id setting intervention want would accept one hand feel id causing pain disappear other feel though owe this understand im depressed years contemplated redflag great portion life ive sought received professional help psychiatrist ive taken anti depressants intend use nitrogen asphyxiation think better way im ears am course willing listen suggestions answer questions imagine many ethical problems giving answers questions want drag sordid affair would ask pity kindness matter apologize adding another issue onto pile thank much done people here please help me this took longer punch imagined ill going bed submit this mentioned rush,1 +nuclear reactor went pond went fission,0 +let say outset im particular fan kind film nightbreed holds certain fascination message perspectivebr br back old days folks inhabit midian would called zombies undead according clive barker given us certain members human kind craig sheffer born potential become part worldbr br psychiatrist david cronenberg first looking like mild mannered professional taken unto fanatical mission rid world nightbreed tricks police killing sheffer sheffer goes graveyard named midian cemetery nightbreed congregate live underground br br sheffer also left girl friend anne bobby still feelings even hes killed one undead tries small way bridge humankind br br clive barkers creatures pretty gruesome looking lot particularly fond humans plain see humans left alone nightbreed turn bother thembr br your sympathies definitely nightbreed especially seeing fanatic like cronenberg redneck police chief charles haid actionbr br clive barkers gay man time suggested nightbreed metaphor gay people see would come in especially since whole lot people even think gays anything human theyre taught waybr br granted nightbreed pretty bloody lot gratuitous violence also make think like way clive barker turn traditional theology head makes craig sheffer kind messiah nightbreed creatures,0 +sat theater almost crying dismay atrocity ron howard tom hanks call da vinci code could see light end tunnel angels demonsbr br hanks company back sequelprequel angels demons learned lessonbr br acting wise everyone much better aylet zurer good vittoria vetra better girl played sophie neveau tom hanks good always better though works harder giving movie feeling thriller think ewan mcgregor best job actors might even deserve nomination come march doubtful convinced right end hes dynamic faithful rational realizes church needs put past behind them minor actors also good jobsbr br technically visually movie much improved cinematography muchmuch better visual effects superb final explosion sequence end excellent howard masterful job taking tour romebr br pacing wise ron howard amazing job time around keeping story moving boring us history lesson deemed denouncing christianity movie also makes feel like stake feeble minds discovering whether jesus children high list compared cataclysmic explosion killing thousands including roman catholic church part reason think story fast paced due excellent score cannot say enough score epic times like something lord rings sometimes felt like bourne movie nice mixbr br my complaint movie ridiculously far fetched chances carmelengo someone ewan mcgregors age highly improbable chances cardinal adopted son getting elected pope even ridiculous mention whole antimatter thing yet created dan brown wrote book br br overall angels demons much tighter knitt faster paced exciting important movie da vinci code must see thriller anyone loves history mystery combined one,0 +failed everyone including methis little something bothered time goes on kid always seen poster child basketball family everyone knew good would practice almost everyday dreams dominating day day out even ended team captain senior year went school kids good reputation ball changed first week season ended terrible even though would good practice coach would never put games order make time favorites would openly challenged outplay never got spot sophomore junior year first senior game im sucking geez fun ended getting benched one younger guys later week sustained horrible nerve damage left arm would leave basically handicapped months still bothers then know let peers loved ones complete bummer lost confidence turn dont even know do dont know am feel like never got chance prove worth everyday back mind if totally let parents even though never showed games always trying best could thought would good enough turn ended nothing im rejected almost everyone know fuck am kids blame feels like distanced themselves feel like reject every week go sports medicine try recover left season even getting green light atleast sit bench without warmups never happened never respected loved felt alone people poke fun couldnt even move arm beginning first month arm sleeve would fucking flip around like noodle numbing traumatizing nerves would tingle pain fucking hated every second it let everyone im worth shit im failure fucking failed even though put years years dedication matter anyone told kept going nothing nothing im nobody highschool dont even want talk anyone dont feel like anyone talk this feel like would make things worse wasted fucking life time fucking game want help advice ,1 +want feel loved im tired watching old videos hub want hug something im tired cant honestly anymore,0 +spent around ten hours writing essay got grade back today got ,0 +cant take anymoreim autistic that mom thinks cant succeed world unfortunately shes right im currently year community college feel like last and only month left classes hit summer vacation one classes im involves making art wire paper fabric etc feel like ive basically failed class return given dreams becoming professional critic internet personality mom isnt even biological mom adopted case egg sperm donor put moms womb came prematurely mom likes call pound premie think better known pound deathbed friends online care extent usually stops shit like ill thoughts talk someone trust call insert hotline number none really helped me contacted hotline past ended nothing help me ive also talked psychologist months last contact august hasnt helped either wish friends online knew much situation im trying get better life problem mom become restrictive regarding cant do making feel like shes darkness light save grasp run away before ended contacting mom ran money put bank account could return home did biggest mistake ever made since then threatened fire job a child care center home kick house garnish money bank account unsuccessful shes sorry it shes acting like almost months now ive felt like ive pushed breaking point yeah basically nobody know irl online cares me mom like demon saps creativity me wish never existed wish people actually cared me wish born biological mom i wish better life youll excuse me im going cry breathing shallow maybe something car,1 +im getting confused like manage talk girlfriend cuz shes busy time like one two nicknames goodnight small love etc etc talk homie shit tok nicknames non stop love non stop compliments non stop saying good morning goodnight acting like couple gf im sure whether dont talk gf much cuz school homie online school talk day generally vent girlfriend strong anxiety dont want weigh trauma baggage shit fuck it someone asks yes talked girlfriend doesnt mind venting homie shit like cuz isnt good handling that might also homie strong signs disorders anxiety impostor syndrome might adhd might add depression shit like idk homie therapist friend group except friend group cuz shes friend,0 +okay ill admit iti goofball occasionally love really silly comedy seen films kurosawa bergman truffaut practically anyone planet still soft spot dopey comedy try sophisticated simply funny films immediately come mind monty python holy grail uhf start revolution without me strange brew bill ted movies lack snob appeal zombie professional film critic could dislike thembr br while bill teds bogus journey wonderful original bill ted film still great fun also unlike original actually seems improve repeated viewing remember loving film first time saw itpossibly movie set high standard laughs but every time see amazed great momentsparticularly involving grim reaper and way reaper different bergmans seventh seal get addition lot laughs film features excellent musicone way actually better first film kiss anthem end great rest hard rock tunesprovided old killjoy like de nomolos great viewing kids adults alike,0 +bubsy d better every game played wrong disagree uh ya ride hell retribution also another good game,0 +bop very nice say myselfhttpsyoutubevocxwos,0 +adviceim going kill tomorrow im worried survival instincts kicking following though ive decided hanging im going tie hands way well live fricking bungalow im going hanging window security bars dont want pussy like attempts especially due high risk brain injury hypoxia wont sudden drop snap neck hanging suffocation hanging reddit darkest platform im im asking randomers helpful tips ideas right rope delivered tomorrow,1 +blade pillow singing me cant escape melodymy thighs healed making room let pain flow free canvas empty allowing bleed onto floors thought touching razor causes heart skip beat like seeing girl love period together weeks since ive touched now calls louder before killing lungs juul longer fill void need feel sting razor slides across skin im tired want non existent,1 +thwart life friend mother uses program life track life enabler abusive parents enginerd im looking possible workarounds like blame cold fucking phones battery location spoofing im probably start testing obdii tracking devices good excuse obdii devices car nerd friend says devices interfere cars securityengine control module cause car run poorly time friend says use devicesobdii diagnostics,0 +im mega depressed amadepressed damaged drugs afraid die afraid livem,1 +one favorite movies childhood watched many timeseventually tape wore out huge fan show still amthe thing love movie appeals many people young old watch movie laugh hard first time saw it able appreciate adult jokes never got child favorite characters elmyra foulmouth almost fifteen years later dad a huge fan movie well still quoting lines movie love part foulmouth shirley go movies you save seats shirl ill snag dadgum snacks also loved storyline plucky hampton family going happy world land wade pig reminded lot dad love part finally get happy world land ride monorail movie hilarious appeals children kids animation jokes everything top notch seen it rent it sorry,0 +sure cleanest way go iswould wrapping head plastic wrap cleanest way leave body dont really want someone traumatized come upon splattered brain pool blood drive hybrid carbon monoxide out,1 +people understandi think anyone realizes serious say want shoot myself know generation uses redflag joke usually seem like generally happy person im unhappy wish never existed mean need make peoples lives horrible use music way escape horrible thoughts mother taken away almost everythingincluding phone music without ive forced really sit stew pile self hate thinking ways could kill myself point care hurts long job kills im good saddest part is handgun house know exactly im much coward go shoot myself shoot fail mother finds deal problems im scared dying partim scared failing live afterwardswish could grab gun drive deserted field shoot myself bullet job animals come eat will,1 +looking someone play minecraft pe dm interested filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 + told crush like likes back want date him tbh regret telling cus could gotten know likes back ill feel bad get him want crush cus feel like distracts lot studies emotionally mentally mature enough relationship feel like shitty person like horrible indecisive insecure whenever alone late night struggle fall asleep keep thinking failures rlly scared ill disappoint parents unsuccessful feel rlly lonely whenever frds want kill self die feel rlly empty inside like purpose life wish could disappear without loved ones sad tho kind want something rlly tragic happen ill excuse die know something rlly bad happen ill actually want thought constantly having know bad others way worst feel horrible complaining feeling way grateful have sometimes wish privilege given someone else since deserve it feel rlly empty,1 +stupid little attempt livinglived mentally ill mom brain offline immense stress fear voice mom makes brain nobody ever asked feel im able say im feeling well delusion fear people told practice others theatre soft therapy shit never felt like human constant inner pure disgust myself look mirror years straight almost never teen never really able talk classmates sweating move freely every movement felt like give command somebody else movement every sentence immensely exhausting several conversations person met theatre playing leads mw painful every day creature controlled me frightened animal pure protective psyche lifelong regression took belt strangled itself laying mattress totally dirty room tried use strenghes speak make person laugh problem check imprint red marks visible cause look mirror want others ask questions make wonder almost conversations life total social deprivation looking quite good girls wanted get know me looked me walked me even gay people liked much brain constant fear talk even think clearly see human allowed take part life fighting fighting agonizing condition feeling time self addicted digital heroin games movies tv radio music since never concept self consuming distraction crap never able produce thoughts actions meaning totally dependent told do mostly told nothing shit like damn zombie never able think obvious cure living apartment live full human life peace nobody told could get own told live mom made really damn sick youth even s really delusional emotionless psychopath friendly felt nothing fascination small stupid things like clouds colors trees art senseless crap like this this beautiful nice help no always told fear people believed them worked fear good years errr yes no never felt anything live came hospital illness another apartment state pure fear shame disgust all life even asking questions almost impossible saying first word looking others eyes fuck one command get apartment one meeting empathetic personteacher everything would good messi last years also youth living dirty place collecting things moments gave little joy living fantasy never thought could take part myself amazing too never knew since nothing playing video games earliest youth really think repeat life better like parallel universe shit not okay too almost nothing remember nothing happened struggle wandering around more brain capable thinking itself myself constant feeling running life living mommy propably early childhood trauma hear voice get mad life tried fight control myself hoping better yes errr no good possible human stupid alone even though family care stupid little attempt living waiting years get better nobody ever cared talking laughing friends living mom sit front black mirrors time human pure apathy human nope special name school corpse cause quiet damn brain,1 +made bet faithive contemplating killing self asked faith one hope school ive accepted see past bad semester different school still let continue hope slightest sign girl love love back less h got responses school cancelled application girl love back made cry cancer self whent ok life shit dont go school ive lost dearest person know,1 +think im gonna iti fucking around school nothing illegal anything really dont want get specifics might check cameras probably expel dont like me nothing serious suspended making meme comparing vice principal llama dont graduate kill myself im gonna go somewhere would hard time finding body im going suffocate plastic bag im sorry rambling,1 +made bit mess lifei keep typing paragraphs paragraphs deleting lets say want kill myself since im posting here ex wants move on want try again years feels obligation try again cant even blame him would never speak again mental illness hurts everyone around im fucking tired im going end selfdestructing im sorry anyone party it wake every morning knowing im living world together makes feel worth anymore ive tried everything positive thinking therapy im meds now smoking weed im even fucking seeing someone else nothing helps everything reminds him everything comes back him still go work mornings im shirking responsibilities mope im everything be nothing helps months feels like someones torn middle body something missing hate without him even everything happened badly hurt would still give fucking anything come back deem worthy take risk for im worth it,1 +weeks ago took camping trip alone many plans one commit redflag there away everyone one call selfishwhy im still alive dont know really came back home days,1 +anyone know teen drummer london started band the female vocals playing bass violinist two guitarists keyboardist looking drummer need help finding one also can would amazing recommended place find drummer aged based london thanks,0 +fuck happened ok guy ive known maybe half year now reached said likes me know im dude like person lot really romantic way say normal friendlike either cant put finger it know respond thought gay before im beginning question sexual orientation tips,0 +one significant quotes entire film pronounced halfway protagonist mafia middleman titta di girolamo physically nondescript middleaged man originally salerno southern italy were introduced start film hes living nonlife elegant sterile hotel italianspeaking canton switzerland last ten years conducting business gradually introduced to pivotal yet apparently unremarkable scene takes place employees swiss bank normally count di girolamos cash tell dollars missing usual suitcase full tightly stacked banknotes news quietly icily threatens coaxing bank manager wanting close account meanwhile tells us spectators bluff bluff right end without fear caught appearing ridiculous says cant bluff halfway through tell truth eventually done bluffed halfway told truth accepted consequences life ultimately love exactly reason behind beginning titta di girolamos troubles br br this initially unsympathetic character scowling taciturn curt man verge man even reply kind chambermaids waitresses say hello goodbye becomes one point someone spectator cares deeply about one point nonlife titta decides feel concern appearing ridiculous first half film may described slow some indeed reveal di girolamos days nights hotel oddly disjoined deliberate pace revealing seemingly mundane irrelevant details however scenes may seemed unnecessary reveal essential masterfully constructed innovative film unfolds eyes existence titta di girolamo man imagination identity life unsympathetic character unexpectedly end loving feeling least thought would also conveyed elegantly edited sequences interesting use music one theme scottish band boards canada especially stood out br br never contrast way hollywood italy treat mobsters odds since release films le conseguenze dellamore limbalsamatore another interesting element way film made use protagonists insomnia unlike machinist and far explicit way al pacino film insomnia le conseguenze dellamore uses condition symbolise deeper emotional malaise thats rammed deep obscurity unconscious almost impossible pinpoint cause if indeed one br br the young sympathetic hotel waitress sofia played olivia magnani granddaughter legendary anna memory tittas best friend man seen years unexpectedly provide tiny window onto life titta eventually though tentatively first accepts look again though never explicitly spelt out spectator knows man like titta accepting consequences love unimaginable consequences film without single scene sex violence film unfolds time concedes nothing spectators expectations le conseguenze dellamore fine representative small quiet discreet renaissance taking place italian cinema since decline cinecitt second half s world waiting italy produce il postinolike fare la vita bellastyle films neglecting explore fine creations like le conseguenze dellamore limbalsamatore others loss world,0 +go list see many ppl hating life get like that mean feel way many people depression,1 +grown hate everyone cannot care them care fuck i deserve awful depressing lives well wish dumped jobs fired wish parents friend family would abandon them want anything good anymore want others hurt like have earn good things shitty self centered ppl would ruin wish everyone ik would drop dead,1 +much useless homework aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 +update last post date weve four dates hold hands hug stuff havent seen two weeks cuz got rona making plans soon quarantine gonna go like haunted house something completely supports everything im happy could cry,0 +cat showed butt camera zoom call yeah jumped desk displayed rear end webcam beauty radiating arse eyes classmates,0 +many people actually gun recently bought gun think sane thing ever done bought intent go gun range new hobby think see easy would put barrel mouth end all seen several people made gunshot head think want point want end vegetable nursing home constantly blown pound black dude named bubba constantly mangina smashed maybe mm hollow point gun,1 +ck dont worry everyone gets slice,0 +yall ever notice many annoying people sub like yall gotta damn annoying,0 +wanted post herei always try help people fullest always fail make thier situation worse im one people always lied seem better failed protect everyone cared about im posting cant talk anywhere else wont get help dont deserve it wanted say things hell might looking attention cause im trash human being sorry wasting time anyone read please downvote it,1 +guys know im acctually unable die roaming pathetic planet long years im leaving soon,0 +depressed alone ambition nothing cant stop thinking it,1 +wish friends would hug im female almost friends male maybe something it im sometimes scared people leave me last friendgroup did weird really want friends hug me think would feel less insecure probably think weird awkward thank reading did,0 +fucking died definitely interesting experience try out,0 +like women like like french filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +hey think need vent biti feel like life sliping fingers like sand finished high school got accepted collage pussed last second didnt really much half year nw job mostly old car paper work archive stuff months feel like nothing changeing feel like barely got life started already,1 +idkim useless im dead weight im help anyone im loser im numb im empty im dead im goodfornothing im unreal not real dead dead dead world gonna wake up gonna wake nightmare cant real god help me god help us please god please know whats going anymore cant even talk someone without dissociating cant even look anyone eyes hurts much want hang badly,1 +want someone know becquse noone life ever seems notice always trail doutinh even know live anymore want one life hurt die want hurt die aways hated getting hirt hurting others know do one whocannot cry always want bad never able listen sad music see works never even supposed live anympre,1 +bf pog,0 +anyone know buy certain cbs merch ship uk looking yo buy things cbs store ship uk cant find anything nice anywhere else could ship friend states like extra per lb anyone recommendations,0 +im going start protest stop uautomoderator stop discriminating short titles shakeing smh heads,0 +yes ill say start commenting movie incredibly underratedbr br sharon stone great role catherine trammell morrissey dr glass analyst sent evaluate death sports star glass drawn seductive game trammel uses manipulate mindbr br the acting good apart thewlisbr br stone really talent role slick naughty seductive look day older firstshe really impressed melike casino morrisey also good showed much vunerablitity role needed it thewlis however lame ruined character overthetop whole way really suckedbr br overall movie good first stone hoot watch ignore thewlis,0 +process trying establish audiences empathy jake roedel tobey maguire filmmakers slander north jayhawkers missouri never withdrew union union army invading force southerners fought states rights right slaves elect crooked legislatures judges employ political spoils system theres nothing noble that missourians could easily traveled east joined confederate armybr br it seems story nothing ambiguity jake leaves bushwhackers saw error way certainly give virtue cause abolition,0 +cant go like anymorei really cant deal anymore dad constantly puts makes feel useless gotten point dont even like life look forward future like dont want get older family complete goals dreams anymore want die family doesnt enough money get help need dad cancelled car insurance pay dont really get canceled already pay saw room really messy lost mind want happy cant deal it makes feel useless could great day could text anything would anxiety dont want live like anymore know everyone gonna comment its alright always gets better keep going like always comment really cant see getting better im lazy piece shit never get anything done want over cant kill though mom brother dont know figured would try vent one talk to anyone talk thinks im trying make feel bad something cant anymore dont know do,1 +im sorryi know still better dont think continue this late something go left unsaid secrets kept ill keep promise every single belonging mine worth value youll get sell whatever nobody else means much still im sorry truly smartest beautiful girl ive ever met nothing change deserve better me difficult honest people,1 +first piano lesson today im nervous idk please console something im really sure im nervous ive never done new different makes scared,0 +doctor tell almost overdoseive taking zoloft depression restoril chronic insomnia couple nights ago episode got super drunk took sleeping pills passed out alone phone friend completely accidental ever since then ive wondering what if kind fantasizing it anyone know doctor saydo tell this want get better overall want live just without constant pain head pls want get sent psych ward something,1 +reddit please yall big n smart really like girl were started talking alot know whether make move please help,0 +last day teenager tomorrow life even greater sorrow pain begin wish luck d,0 +well ever since toddler parents never got along well hardest part choose sides currently live little brother mother younger chose sides father since little less strict mother holds lot hatred me insulted since father around past years ever since covid started started taking work home mother never got along well mostly tomboy bought lot tricks girly dresses tshirts so tend wear tshirts neighbours kid girl loves girly stuff time mother wishes daughter also earlier stated hated reason that mother started insulting dumb since girl etc went kind crazy one day could take anymore screamed know bad could control time top things off brother behaves like literal baby even though one usually gets trouble fun fact brother mistake me mother kind compared me currently bad relationship father anyone go to think mother weird obsession making look bad front people telling day day mistakes ones perfect mental state gone thought killing myself tried dreams get way like singing mentioned earlier screamed pretty loud since voice went high practicing songs days like interacting many people opened people lifetime neither parents included list people mother makes feel worthless tries make feel bad girl know life anymore seems hopeless needed open,1 +help mewhy love important fuck love,1 +among us bad game everytime get game theres either hacker people teaming game isnt even fun developers dont even care anyone get hacks easy like theres secret turned gta online pc lobby everyone toxic one talk bad game is game developers need fix hacking issue point play friends try get random game like said theres either hacker teamates,0 +since age never friend cared me shitty ass school friends whose activity play fucking boring dumb video games whole teen life thrown away sitting front rectangle screen wasting life realized life brings joy good friends meeting other fuck man never experienced that everytime go city see groups people me awkwardly going alone streets course older brother good paying job wife good friends even moved times already me years old finished highschool scared job life days applied studying something know cannot it course got bullied secondary school since even know word social meantthis even long text felt like ranting today hope someone relate c anyone else never good friend interested you after childhood,1 +im gonna kill january thpretty much title im gonna try make last almost months girlfriend best can doesnt hate this,1 +trauma dumping another word tik tok learned ran with ngl trauma dumping nice hear dont sympathize you like im mood would much rather rant input bc everything say embarrassing thinking trauma bonding lol three significant relationships ive like tied trauma bonding two ended horribly far lol anyway u anything dump go ahead,0 +want run awayi cant go vicious cycle bingingpurgingstarving anymore along fact reason live mum completely given me nobody talk cant deal constant thoughts self harm pity killing anymore plan running away possibly kill wherever end at much pain mentally years enough guess going make years all,1 +putting one word castratikron complete whole song day born filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +cousin died yesterday especially hit hard since opportunity see even talk death heart attack combined corona time remember good memories little sad thinking never got say last words one last memory last time heard voice wished happy birthday two weeks ago wished day may rest peace ill always miss heart kind amazing cousin great person everyone around everyone loves family good relationship them please cherish could last moment sudden,0 +everyone keep telling express feel dont know myselfim tired cant look least sad else ill get usual say feel sharing make better stuff no wont share cant dont know words im exhausted bother wouldnt better disappeared dont understand keep enduring painful task living is love never worked me family disappoint anyway friends annoy whining always say express im feeling support whatever doesnt even matter many times say dont know feel something cant describe least accurately hate ask elaborate try avail stuff tiring exhausts too want get shit time dont find so id like go enjoy normal things like everyone does id rather stay inside tried times end it cant it im even good enough it ive sh free almost year now yet miss badly euphoria blood running arms dont know ive made far just end this please dont know anymore,1 +need valentine plsss anyone wanna valentine year btw im girl,0 +got offered go harvard im stressed plan life hi name sebastian lozano im year old dj learning music producer im good debate strong public speaker im gpa sophomore october got offered opportunity lifetime got offered scholarship would give full ride year degree choice colleges ranked top nation fill application properly hope get selected scholarship im hard worker school dont issues school work all however get accepted plan life im really good reasoning quickly forming opinion using statistics verified data provided ive always told id good lawyer ive always wanted lawyer thus decided go college get year political science degree then go law school using another scholarship getting jd law school take bar exam lot know work study hard pass everything faced with officially becoming lawyer join big law firm work seasoned lawyers learn gain experience field work lawyer reach use plan created run presidency united states plan lengthy wont include here im also trying find time serve military may join usmc college thats need help join usmc really want serve ive always wanted to im reaching age enlistment really want join basically life become lawyer serving country becoming president sounds simple say that understand itll long strenuous road need suggest do thank reading,0 +ignore depressing posts pls usually like am get really depressed late night good parents decent friends worry me,0 +unspoken truth basically know mobile game shitty bad photo original console game icon,0 +suffer continue livei hate im man enough kill continue suffer,1 +trying ok told med manager would give extra meds husband keep safe could it plan need able case tired feeling way got diagnosed bipolar like day limited sleep stoned majority last two days started new antipsychotics day want keep happening tried many different meds many different diagnoses keep telling everyone ok telling husband going leave him ok ok,1 +anybody else cuddle buddies not feeling touch starved id gladly send virtual hugs platonic internet love anybody needs trying times dms open anybody needs it big virtual arms,0 +looking little mental help advice yesterday birthday nothing really special happened dad made dinner us brother cousin staying us ate fun dinner cousin brother brought mom little angry said something me demoralizing enough know mom mad without saying anything go room say goodnight kind distractedly said happy birthday never even left room hang rest us kind distant im writing this feel awful mom mad even come room see birthday ive arguing night even struggling school im scatter brained sorry long im lost right need do,0 +feel like absolute trash really feel like trash rn theres really reason keep almost posting something commenting something texting someone something sudden think should really send that yeah no im gonna send stupid one ever gonna listen even notice existence feels like everyone judging making fun cant stop thinking that even one acually that feels like i just wish i could die already,0 +used use instagram social networks fun use find parties invited not like care due covid still thought week massive one everyone class got invited,0 +life summed song lyrics never failed fail damn auto bot post isnt short,0 +im really lose killing tongihtim scared cant take anymore pain anxiety levels skyrocketing reason cant keep holding on know could kill almost time theres reason hang on im scared though know make stop anything edit today got really close im relieved kill myself im actually frustrated sad get chance attempt parents interrupted could start place realized want anything want work study succesful fulfill dreams love someone future i lot pain hesitating becuase preperation done plan parents came unrelatedly mom freaked stupid thing clean im legal visiting home cried bit it got whole redflag sin implication selfharming wrong speech also threatened commit ever admit danger myself mom tells meet pastor whos going tell things familys religious many peoples opinion pain need trust god more spiritual all things work good bad im sort becoming atheist reasons anyway im upset beause thing want die thats literally only desire have balls yet actually kill myself solace got pushed little farther alcohol maybe could it hard hurts much alive hurts since cried earlier feel better nothings hanged dont want feel betteri wantthe problem solved dead guess need drink next time jave ready thank tldr i living nightmare thing want death guilt tripped staying also im weak it hurts feel guilty wanting die trying get better feel better cried want feel better temporarily een get better want die,1 +want die cant ask helpwow hard im years old guess saw everything going another waybut all wake every day thought shooting myself ive made poor decisions life live daily one im sure bipolar lead path want diagnosed mentally ill well cant end life easily humanly would like ive never hurt anyone never will yet continue hurt myself paper all work entertainment industry earning figures year bipolar lead road promiscuity result stds fear hiv not tested fear kills me either way feel never live normal life work drink go sleep hate job feel like it confidence ask help least current low lasted awhile used get manic create art ideas passion passion gone feel like empty vessel find asking whats point die eventually worst part would making mother sad incredible mom sacrificed much cry thinking would literally thing keeping alive im rambling had drinks know anymore im sick depression know,1 +question everybody here favourite organ,0 +killing tomorrowim serious it way make life better point,1 +two weeks ago im okay dont remember much nothing serious happened btwi think ideas got best me called bunch people keep it think none immediate friends family know im afraid happen,1 +yo americans alseep europeans australians americans bad sleeping schedules rise anyone wanna join server tryna get europeans australians ppl around world cause lot u chat people yee,0 +quai des orfevres takes long getting going clouzot enamored backstage milieu almost danger forgetting story however does clouzot best bertrand blier father bertrand blier costar buffet froid worldworn pianist married beneath plans kill seedy studio mogul designs wife find someone beaten it that carefully planned clumsily executed alibi falls pieces least thief steals car murder scenebr br the film really kicks life arrival luis jouvets police inspector rather wonderful creation half alistair sim green danger half worldweary maigret better dialog neat running gag investigation constantly conducted top voice chaos noise whether noisy typewriters police station loud rehearsal police station wonderfully realistic creation wealth chaotic telling small details makes steve bocchcos revolutionary s us cop shows look like antiquated museum pieces comparison br br if suzy delair rather unconvincing femme fatale supporting cast compensate beautiful simone renant standout lesbian photographer love afar constantly mistaken bliers lover delair interested parties only jouvet similarly unlucky women understands genuinely sympathises great black white photography armand thirard terrific little thriller nice twist ending lovely scene cab driver reluctantly identifying renant police station trivia note pierre larquey played playfully philosophical dr vorzet le corbeau turns smaller roles cabdriver quai les espionsbr br the criterion dvd quite superb great picture quality plus illuminating extract french tv show featuring interviews clouzot blier renant,0 +bit bizarre evil enjoyed lot characters show great well complimented one another well sorry see cut off would loved see could wentyou found leaning toward lucas buck sheriff secrets anyone lucas frightening alluring would liked seen character became however buy show enjoy great something different tv paige turrco calebs cousin big mystery meant lucas shame around still never finished would loved see would happened,0 +favorite aesthetics im kinda curios,0 +maybe living meant everybodyi get killer anxiety anything wanna work get education stresses bad nothing interests all looked career paths countless hours avail hate people say money buy happiness cause enough money work day life id one happiest people maybe people like strong enough get world live in cant get incredibly low bar working job fuck supposed besides homeless die,1 +redflagwhen call redflag hotline bc canada get rather quickly tell severely depressed hardest christmas ever aaaand every sharp corner looks like answer help with dont know purpose got pissed im up im out im going enjoy last bit xmas eve,1 +god fucking hate phone calls call two docs grandma dont know im calling them well know dont call grandma call week ago missed feel ashamed really dont like calling someone dont even know,0 +anyone bad breakup months ago got heart broken first time really sucked still does months breakup got bad habit cutting lot people thought back pushed away time spent following months hospital think figured stuff months havent cut still battle thoughts self harm times every week find self thinking past lot wanting things back gone time able look forward see maybe future something me,1 +underrated things opinion ill start waking early going walktaking cold showersplaying amung us without friendseating frozen blueberriesstar wars rise skywalker,0 +nothing gets betterthe world going die climate change going destroy world cant fucking die somebody give permission die dont wanna isnt fucking fair want die put away sane response life wanting die dont want die youre insane,1 +think ends much lately much college work pouring wild rate cant keep up loud rowdy roommates shut am every night living hours sleep go home weekend ok wear mask hide im really feeling is college fun would ask yep im blast would reply cant let know really doing im far away already worried knew suicidal would end it feel overwhelmed work im failing im actually point caring family thinks kill myself would upset im sure even care anymore cant keep stuff home bit need someone talk to cant talk room mates ra see councillor tomorrow rarely helps all one person trust around hates due things said,1 + rambles honestyi feel like much feel cannot control feelings want leave me get jealous numb er people shoving feelings down guess numb too think lost part humanity hopefully all know empathy before younger always wanted kind wanted make people happy still value it happens whenever try try much get taken advantage of dont really dont total ass feel terribly either way think struggle emotional boundaries maybe really relate people like used to maybe im mentally ill something anxiety depression want kind person seems fake helping others make happy anymore forget cheer people up think depression contagious gradually found way life sad sadder people barely count human being think deserve love do people get hurt notice dependant get feel guilty im chronically depressed matter much try fix me wish someone would fix me somehow leave them help them get rid burden me hurt more complicated like people wish felt part them us feel disconnected daydream lot much feel slipping dissociation much barely anything life seems pointless go on feeling this remembering things want to pitying myself getting angry others people say need support system order build one need basic common sense right one washed away negative thoughts head one that let answer honestly someone asks one bit caring stupid sound speak bit aware im stuck insurance cover therapy cant that i think therapy would help much lot things struggle with myself people world lot philsophical anxiety guess worry lot overanalyze everything like thoughts lot bad thoughts sometimes forget worry them hate even caring switch without knowing how want kill people sometimes also really value forgiveness kindness tell therapist want kill people especially want seem like normal person im confused im confused everything feels like everything nice fake im liar im real know real like probably really sensitive pathetic feelings right good people think way good people happier thoughts least would get bothered them want think am sensitive people want peaceful world fantasize destroying it sometimes people say normal thoughts put lot thought thoughts like curiosity want ruin life it think itd worth it but know fasinates me shouldnt want to want kill myself better people believe love think im part problem much hate me know forgive ive even joked past people kill instead people think agree now even strangly want maybe keep one person would anything me know count them something seems wrong basically enslaving loved one right stop free will fucked shit yeah relationships work really want better world everything just wonderful be without me all sad making everyone else sad burden feed house talk to people interesting think great things opprotunity think could contribute much world im good anything human emotions strong me wish everyone else calmer days x sure get posting this wanted get words somewhere felt lonely hope fine here sorry selfish truly definition world salad,1 +international movies never fail disappoint watched spanish one called rec im nd now great,0 +okay okayi diagnosed clinical depression anxiety since still it always emotional sensitive overtime realized nothing change am maybe meant way struggle come accept disheartening ever go away idea theyre tides ocean high low learnt flow still feel suicidal goes away knowing emptiness scares dont kill or maybe coward im trying say is sucks sucks less sometimes okay okay hope learn embrace comes let go,1 +want live world populated sociopathsevery person trusted throughout life tried hurt way use personal gain past year convinced head im problem happiest fucking year life thought hey change attitude keep trying itll work out genuine hope first time life something happened today something super insignificant sent edge thats made realize never actually seen evidence people genuinely care beyond whats surface gain other know believe anymore want live world people see objects please want believe society this believe keep going,1 +im losing live feel like im reaching limitso transgender already suffer major depression add dysphoria bad time wih people leaving today say goodbye important friend all got much one around wantsseems willing help care me good day wanna ruin same time slowly losing live know post please downvote upvote whatever losing ability care anymore,1 +hey question actually thing thinking stuff im sharing thing came mind character saved another character got angry started hyperventilating passed different character says thing were saves someone mental panic thinking ways couldve ended badly call multi panic wanted know real thing,0 +throwaway account partner follows main account might compromised too reasons explain sooni currently living immigrant eu country i hail another continent since years fianci health issues mental physical prevent working since years ago credflag clinical depression burnout chronic pain due severe injuries received really speak language well partly took year become fluent covid happened went months without seeing human cashiers market partner lost lot proficiencyi saying bad person isolating me best take care me just lost much freedom here unhappy one really takes need help seriouslyi contact family anymore one parents dangerous controlling abused since childhood like abusers parent projects great public persona divided rest family either support side me family cut contact prevent drama parent person tried stalk threaten speak abuse point finding people worked years ago using messengersas might guess became overprotective privacy functionally much social media presence anymore take pictures even talk former friends much also friends eitheri know parent stalked found social media accounts tried find addresses move another place no idea manage even found landlord info twice years despite another country imagine bad person moved continents get away themi trying get therapy here partner thinks unnecessary unneeded expense cannot get treatment chronic pain reasons cannot even speak pain killers without treated like addict housei probably fucked coming probably never done anyone friends family anyone help me place call home return to feel alone trapped isolated miss human contact much remember last time spoke another human cashier wish could escape to nowherei keep hearing voice head telling kill hurt anymore able rest might even lonelier might better pain free so longi afraid messing know face retaliation things just somehow worse everyday prison see kitchen knives wish could slice dice oblivion escape thisi france going suggest local hotlines not already tried back guy told this beyond level hung me intrusive dark thoughts isolated country nowhere return,1 +heres dumbass rant happened zoom sooooooo zoom three hundered people it three grades school one mine facetime friends messing around reading peoples names wrong would turn camera around put random people zoom joke dumbass accidentally put camera space bar know temporarily unmutes you whole time reading one persons name wrong joke unmuted worst part one moms friends kids entire zoom heard me got like texts said fml im embarrassed,0 +epic album recommendation httpsopenspotifycomalbumerltkgnvkhwowfsqxesintw_ypkvsagfvkokqdlg,0 +ranting guess become self conscious look im beginning hate it used care little looked course wanted look decent try look appealing brushing hair hygiene started wearing jackets cover arms eventually started wearing hoodies cover myself started wearing clothes without words objects them last christmas bought plain blank dark colored tshirts even though nobody see hoodies keep worrying hair theres one part eye stupidy curly shit cant anything it four thirty begin wondering ive lost hold fell rabbit hole mind school bus f u n,0 +every day reborn tragedyits tragic every time get go sleep since friday actual hours sleep thats respite happiness ill ever get feel history past ive endured painful five six seven years road pain never stops remains gets worse time cant tell anyone this tell therapist well then locked up know am soul universe give flying fuck about constant torture day ever day nonstop rest life feels like im stabbed every second day insomnia course insomnia im always awake sleep good true sleep simply nearly good true catches unaware again real tragedy sleep time feel happiness bliss all wish brought point dished back out even more fucking equal amount pain brought me feel all want feel every last drop taste it understand go hell million times like have theres bouncing back ampxb theres bouncing back this put much psychological emotional mental turmoil agony cant even muster drop motivation even much move muscle anymore ruined life pray whatever divine piece complete youknowwhat dishes everything back onto enemies know karma real wish that limit forgiveness know heart wrong forgive brought lower lowest brought to hate heart neutralized see suffer suffered equally more no me same equal want see get this equal amount dished me,1 +sothis happenedidk respond though cuz boyfriend friendzone someone ampxb httpspreviewredditmajvktfujpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsffaedacfcbebe,0 +subreddit transgender people griefhi there created new community rtranswithoutyouhttpswwwredditcomrtranswithoutyou community transgender transgender transexual queer nonbinary gender nonconforming genderfluid people lost trans partners loved ones redflag murder place share grief memories struggles even triumphs accomplishments healing journey enduring loss please join us would like,1 +tired againever hear song alone naturally wish could hold people loved dead youre serious boyfriend four years dies kitchen floor overdosedying age i broken woman always be following year father died inbetween friends mine die overdose many fear best friend die day pray doesnt ive lost much world daily life used be look forward car accident im one killed might want last drunken night somewhere give away poems music art friends bf died young even dad cannot stand existing thought could make difference love abilities drive leftwithout choiceim surprised im physically dead yet,1 +everyday waiting life endhi all feel like need get chest otherwise heart explode ever since remember wanted life find someone would love me im ive never ever loved anyone love feeling never reciprocated thought would come time never happened makes depressed cant breath literally force get everyday go another day somewhere back head hoped miracle would happen would find someone cant take anymore ive lost much time theres many things ive never done never late feel like even meet someone would leave asap alone long fucked up started cutting ashamed it promised would cut one thighs nobody would ever know every time look bruises reminds fucked life is enough doesnt help anymore want die everyday hope over death would salvation feel like dont even deserve im punished am wish could kill myself cant even properly,1 +kissed got hard u sucked ate u came together u swallowed mynut railed u,0 +last strawtoday job could made get anxious official im useless suppose time start trying get rid fear pain end,1 +french boy need attention hello m here french teenager friends wanna become friend got croissant play minecraft java osu fallout terraria like music anime luv u,0 +please get habit saying want die im gonna kms joke hear time whenever heard jokes like makes think friend went through tried kill paralyzed waist down something casually joke about serious please stop romanticizing redflag too thats worse imo see lot,0 +hate cuz know im wroung rant get jealous upset think friendex sex people which tonight called bothered found texts people talking know im wrong hate said feel bad bad cuz feel need except im never going another chance mean much wish,0 +recently broke ex huge emotional void since really anyone else talk to much friends either could someone shoulder please need someone talk,1 +im fucking metal breakdown overprotective mother cant buy chicken mother really overprotective pushing edge cant even devices shit phone terrible laptop room overnight without blowing top know passwords fuck wit brother stop playing fallen kingdom piano people really know friends past couple weeks forced us kids make meal every week week decided make chicken wrapped bacon a family favorite hour till dinner im ready prepare chicken look everywhere mother forgot get any one job make sure need forgot main ingredient set off ever brought shed say im spending long devices antivideogame activist thing keeping together reddit minecraft rant thank listening ted talk,0 +physically emotionally hurtsim like one older depression suffers here reading post feel hurt words many suffering depression i psychiatrist years unlucky me little benefit multiple antidepressants tried many multiple trials good insurance many treatments private mostly pocket ave ive gone one much better get insurance sad better treatments expense many suffering resources available you right now insurance honest im losing strength keep fighting this life hurt much understand life hard ive trying years life really painful physically emotionally,1 +get rid call voidintrusive thoughtstitle says all context whenever im distracted start thinking killing myself random violent things especially going somewhere i cycle nearly everywhere night think bit leftover intrusive thought time contemplate redflag even though things changed think im even considering anymore catch awful thoughts think theyre call void people describe like tall building think i could technically jump course id never that however really neutral usually ends fully playing head seeing grieving family etc many times crying bike arrived somewhere completely drained ruined good night sleep myself anybody know way distract yourselflearn think differently etc ps listening happy music anything help often makes worse,1 +whats wrong mei raped years ago female friend im also female recently caught me hate alot wish never see reason cannot cut contact her add her delete her add delete again recently ive wanting raped again dont want experience yet do happened obviously wouldnt either fetish kink thing dont know means im unable tell anyone right personal problems someone please tell feel way could be forced send nudes past early january year years ago rape happened would also suffocate seconds incredibly rough abusive me never relationship never kissed hugged really made seem like sexual relationship abusive one that feel connection her loving one one want part of please help me,1 +endworst day life im brink something would never imagined hope everyone thinks accident hope never find body,1 +ive hard dayposting alt hard day today got messed bullies went home play online chess lose two games row and lose rp compiled bad day almost feel like cutting please give reason to,1 +ill providing motivation little kids autism ill title says wondering would say kids third grade im capable without reddit non less im hoping see things thought big part ill talking limitations helps,0 +anyone d printer use wanna d print japanese girlfriend,0 +recommending songs reason part httpsyoutuberepfrmgpmg friends rich,0 +itll happen one daynot sure when redflag going way go unless die something completely unexpected like car crash stroke 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built agony despair people cherish life sister boyfriend theyre wonderful know things last forever knows boyfriend stop loving me sister isnt obligated help me id rather open cause pain resent life born live,1 +every time wake crave gravei dont want wake up try escape reality get sleep sleep paralysis nightmares wont leave alone meds dont work sometimes dont want anymore cant bear leave loved one alone world hope things get better us,1 +kill myself tell people suffering meanwhile everything want cannot think big deal cannot it believe situation is cannot possibly bad telling them big deal move one life yeah easy never gfrelationship cannot bc untreatable condition caused impotence years tell notredflag sex matter bc things fuck world everybody sympathy starting feel like way convince people much unfixable pain in,1 +theres website publishing content reddit sourcing original creator website called gaming memes httpsgamingmemescom taking content hot publishing website they credit posted it links image permalink source red flag front page suspect _without permission_ to confirmed second red flag theres literal website reposting stuff def cool thank coming ted talk please try spread message,0 +bruh im bored tag fav redditor text text text text text text text text,0 +blow jobs arrogant prick second hand jeans turtleneck ill drill hole middle bony head little spinning beach ball death hippie got given birth give away net worth aids research death wish guys also phone ,0 +hey reddit whats biggest thing thats stressing right now anything goes problems problems,0 +anyone elses suicidal thoughts gotta worse attempt i failed suicidal attempts months ago every since thinking lot now like know maybe able finally end life anyone else happen them,1 +one understandsorry strong language one ever fuking understands want help fuking cried parents gives fuks think im crazy think wont kill soon mom says reach point care anymore fuking step dad looks let shit behind back im sick around now planning enjoying rest year ending new years seems plans gonna change want fuking escape shit hole ass life see things better without around birthday november th cracked like heard voices saying end it cried much tried take little sister came found parents came in showed comparisonwell moment back fuking shit lol matter say theyll never understand thing fuking tried talk oh well know dont feel sad anymore like im comfortable dying lol like im anticipating kind big event lol sigh ill write nice note leave theyll fuking understand game pain fuking real waste fuking time ill gladly sit hell thats real could ran away place wouldve got go option left taking life might drink fuking poison hang buy gun someone open fuking skull honestly either way ill dead yea fuk world every person thinks people form depression crazy hate all one fuking gets it im done fighting lol officially give up anyways im guyshonestly wish could lived better world,1 +great movie play ago extra zing it loved vanessa 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bowl soup watch,0 +help almost killed im afraidhelp someone im im really terrified im drunk im really sad left house morning dad kill found left almost jumped traffic im scared sad dont know talk please,1 + year diei keep saying im suicidal im fucking lying im suicidal point ive lost empathy keep living fantasize badly hurt family friends left go im virtually selfdestructing sociopath point whats point trying save im far gone ampxb finally therapist validates ive able trust bullying well sexual abuse suffered kid well urges physically sexually assault everyone around me isolate much possible ampxb im delirious madman shallow husk person wanted rather monster now ampxb lots probably depressed think shitty person chances think hundreds ways murder rape people like do daily im fucking alienated think people hate people even feel like im person anymore depraved ghoul becoming like day ampxb situation life capable getting better all terminal downwards spiral getting worse worse insanity ampxb still faint sense hope want snuff last embers light already light goddamn illusion embracing oblivion thing thats real exist game selfdelusion cant tolerate life anymore fact life even exists begin tragic mistake ampxb last remnant good person let become complete piece shit wants kill hurt anyone outside remaining friends family,1 +s great job university degree goals future beautiful fiancee afraidi scared nothing die like point disappear end attached afraid without die paramedic see death sometimes hurts imagine loved ones must feel lose somebody close them thought losing partner leaving without absolutely crushes me parents getting old sick never felt loss anything like imagine feel like goi guess really afraid dying losing everything worked towards know happens death religious hope lose consciousness everything happened life want love close forever even die afraid everything life waste,1 +want die repeat every dayin mind loud sometimes twitter with account followers haha fantasize death want die pacefully get thought like times day more situation get better would take time find enough material hellhole money pay them will even year nvm cant stand year like this again thats way want die those hate picky even death anyway wanted write somewhere really like someone really help unless send psichiatrist treatment need money pay it sertralina clonazepam could find mental situation got much better money hellhole cant find anyway,1 +relationship multiple people polyamorous relationship wv cade j cade main focus currently using actual name hes ok it currently lying bed j cade alone separate house pm call check already sleeping issues j asleep point worried cade suicide attempts none since hes close calls tho bad feeling know mean much still fucking love much means world drug self harm problems worrying really bad may make panic scared worried lover,1 +life hardi kind problem cant handle life one thing day im ready something unexpected happens suffer much supposed keep living without good reason everyday life everybody cause much suffering me stop working lot do life college that could finish nothing home suffer future suffering everyday make food wash clothes pay bills theres way keep living one problems redflag logical alternative,1 +ive horrible person want diei cant this deserve anything good life wish could go back fucked change everything cant wish could exist fuck,1 +would you would recommend boy start painting nails doesnt way paint them,0 +got scissors got scissors know end pain,0 +cut hairi hit point life got mad hair tried cut it ruined made flat uneven ended crying long time calling redflag hotline help me waiting half hour hung one answered,1 +im trying browse sub without reading year old busted nut seriously stop posting shit one cares,0 +ik already posted think view count reddit id like see many people actually view posts profile would interesting think leave without leaving single comment dummbbb id like track whod interact postssss ahh,0 +fuck iti hate feeling chest best friend obsessed fucking girlfriend im even thought mind want die fucking bad one notice otherwise,1 +sad everything work life going fine personal life wreck one ever takes seriously funny friend want talk anyone anymore want die sometimes please help me never feeling entire life sad,1 +ive lost gamei feel like every childhood ideal grew torn realities life everything cared gone world exists today nothing value enjoy bucket crabs,1 +day writing rap hook rate scale numb emotions yeah cant show wave emotions yeah emotions dont waves like ocean yeah putting devotion,0 +film totally mindblowing manages thought provoking funny tragic cinematic yet claustrophobicbr br although flashbacks unnecessary film maintains pacy punchy grip performances excellent particular alec baldwin mesmerising eric bogosian films antihero barry champlain,0 +tip people reddit gay night gays,0 +found disappearive wondered lesser two evils found ive done way im never found,1 +mans castle set one jerry built settlements vacant land parks times called hoovervilles named unfortunate st president got stuck great depression occurring administration proposition film mans home still castle even shack hoovervillebr br spencer tracy shack truth told guy even good times would working much part typical tracy cast priest san francisco start slew classic roles hes playing tough good natured mug takes loretta youngbr br one things mans castle shows effects depression women well men women additional strains put them men trouble finding work women twice hard sexually harassed resorted prostitution square meal spence takes loretta young whos facing kind problems makes demands castle pretty soon though theyre love though tracy kind settle downbr br the love scenes extra zing tracy young torrid affair shooting mans castle catholic married days insuperable barrier marriage tracy young took catholic faith quite seriouslybr br also cast walter connolly kind father figure whole camp marjorie rambeau whos pitfalls young might encounter tries steer clear arthur hohl really loathsome creep eye young well hohl brings plot mans castle climax scheming br br mans castle grim look great depression usual movie escapist fare trying avoid kind reality entertainment,0 +ive strugglingive really hard time pandemic want make mean thoughts go away sure how,1 +mf begin like mf begin like want short woman big tits small butt black hair blue eyes bitch need girl even optional im bi,0 +anyone thereis anyone available talk,1 +thenworking dead end job years grow old watch everyone die around me spend last years laying piss shit unable even feed myself constant pain finally die keep telling must life no it the gift life spending years trying ignore pain existence much possible playing video games pointless hobbies sleeping sex drugs partying god hate it fucking dull,1 +anyone actually jacked someone sub fucking doubt tbh probably mentality trusting one internet shit also sub gets real sus sometimes,0 +im crying well today officially end hard classes started term thinking going well wow going finish half year gpa going miss english band math yes even physics next month im starting easy classes taking psat getting drivers permit know youll never read thank teachers continuing teach us help us want thank passion youve put teaching us despite us still pandemic,0 +mom getting really aggressive strict taking away things comfort me close relapse want die know want it feel like sign time die,1 +posted first tik tok terrifying meanwhile post times day wit face pinned profile lmaoooaksnfkssk bye,0 +sister said im grumpy puberty looking arm think yes grumpy nothing else feel grumpy nothing grumpy definitely thinking redflag grumpy,0 +would anyone willing chat whilei could really use someone anybody free little,1 +life isnt worth itthe reason havent killed method access right would either take fuck ton commitment result failure ill wake hospital surrounded angry parents stuck huge hospital bill stupid ass want wait buy gun age life isnt worth living theres nothing it nothing mine least happiness anyone promise wont end getting taken away resulting pain theres fucking nothing fucking failed everything wont fail future redflag attempt good thing cant reversed dont give fuck gets sad sad it sad everything overlooked came me thing im writing redflag note want burned dont want funeral post outside reddit im alone misery misery likes company,1 +someone posting gay shit aaaaghh cant unsee,0 +never lived year life without getting feeling multiple times feel disgusted people looking me thinking me talking me thinking know ideas know absolutely nothing hate fact people see me feel embarrassed disgusted everything myself literally humiliating someone takes pictures conversation me hate moments show emotion front someone else hate pressured so smiling hugging speaking anything seen things supposed makes feel like degrading myselfi know wtf feeling is comes often know call completely hate everything hate human hate body voice personality things like trapped head one even knows exist everything pure horrible something nobody knows about try hard look act way good clean represents always fail put hours working hair clothes look dirty like put effort inthere something horrible carries awful vibe rotting filth like cursed moment born need make money get plastic surgery move away everyone ever known start new life hopefully escaped filthy creature need change everything get rid feeling hurts fucking much understand feel way angry deal one gets want moment peace idk normal depression come every social moment feeling like sinned,1 +someone opens redflag dont know well may dire statepersonally ive opening people mostly depression partly dont care anymore mostly dont strength hold in funny part dont really go far seem concerned ask questions care much probably person person thing though people open lot easier others,1 +home alone heard footsteps upstairs yall might last reddit post,0 +im doneidk say tbh lol,1 +movie moving tender funny time scenery absolutely beautiful peter faulk paul reiser gave award winning performances olympia dukakis great understand due story line part brief wish could seen hershe true proyou able recall experiences life hopefully notredflag way seeing movie fortunate see paul reiser q viewing wonderful man clever eloquent real person truly enjoyable night outthis must see movie grateful went,0 +mom colorist says hates black cats white cats cuter im getting black white cat mom still isnt satisfied anyone elses family member colorist cousins kinda colorist dont really care,0 +first real break warning sucks irl friends seeing hi im ok rn dont bring plz seriously im recommending getting heart broken fun experience,0 +waiting original picture quite time now brokedown palace hard believe aspect however ingenious directing screenplay palace scores big br br ive really never enjoyed watching claire danes movies ill tell what really changed mind one kate beckinsale joins danes vacation thailand meet young man convinces take trip hong kong him however neglected inform would carrying obscene amount narcotics him well ultimately get caught end thailand prison know know could know pounds drugs well get one tiny miscue find well written acted story lately found getting drawn storylines movies watch developing personal feeling characters watch movie different end movie found caring characters film br br bill pullman plays hank green attorney lives thailand specializes international relations always pullman delivers excellent performance ties movie together beautifully br br twists turns will end movie tears one movies likely passed searching movie watch home opinion next time video store pass one again,0 +im shocked probably know rocket league right u play it u probably heard alpha boost official name goldfever worth ingame credits assume credit cent eu credits aka cents u take calculate euros worth euro boost wich worth euro insane research found isnt even top expensive ingame items planet game entropia called calypso planet sold wth,0 +sad lonelyi really know came like this really happy kid real dreams goals like everything fallen apart know sometimes wish escape world disappointed people love ie parents good academic career look like fucking jabba hutt extra weight skin tone dark cant even talk people ignored them recently tried talking guy crush dming insta took real huge guts say thank something did moment saw face face ignored me like disgusted me experiences like make wonder fucking ugly one wants talk me insecurities huge impact self esteem confidence sometimes feel like killing disappearing world cant let parents go me cant break like that want die cant,1 +boredom extreme boredom nndwjwjwujwhwjw wo jejwklwoe jailee jeulsnrbrujeb oui oui baguette,0 +parents went caring mental health thinking im going kill self sleep guess im grateful kinda annoying,0 +know do love you please give upone people care life depressed suicidal im scared im saying right things im fighting every fiber around person clearly want left alone hard im sick worry head tells right thing let come around time pressure them heart wants run them god supposed do,1 +lost motivation live fi recieved exam results yesterday poor qualified technical school customer service loathe job server hence think ill enjoy life customer service parent supportive retaking exams private candidate school kicked out however dream making politics someday entering school going shut doors reputable law schools think life realized wasted much life computer games failed developed soft skills even manage schoolwork well typing away bed know well final nail going pushed coffin dream terribly upset scared think parent going force back work chose retake private candidate tell continue living,1 +one time asked gay thought would gay,0 +love babies theyre cute ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +fakeeveryday act happy want mom worrying killing anymore forced anti depressants feel worse dont talk boyfriend see struggles himself also feel like people care superficially im always begging people including parents care act like care beneficial them like around people raped ever since felt like nothing body mine ive thrown away sex terrible guys thought would make feel something instead opposite hate much hurt burns much hurt happy im fun best friend boyfriend even feel insecure time many reasons used like im always sad makes panic im myself wish could crawl skin dont know go on ive tried get help one without judgement world,1 +little brother wasnt born could kill myselfbut need wait fucking years adult,1 +wanna diei woke okay im torn pieces let die please,1 +hello all _ thing whatever hey folks wanna make sure everybodys well arent _ think theyre cute peace everyone,0 +lost hate studdied carreer interests goalslately thought lot past dreamt sister little again huged lot woke feeling good middle night lately thought existing anymore since little knowing someone commited redflag hurted lot felt really bad people think becouse knew thats im leaving too sleeping lot hours daily feel exhausted go swimming pushed keep going kinda hate going nothing interests me feel need grow up,1 +lonelyi know im lonely friends lonely time,1 +want run car treei suffered years tonight went ex boyfriends drop redflag letter wouldnt answer know there wanted drive car tree way home could blamed storm done it,1 +posting picture gif something getting crushed day cousin asks crush day crushed dollhttpsimgurcomaivpicy,0 +excited might care wanted share first language english finally years learning language going take advanced c english proficiency exam day tomorrow excited nervous cant sleep can guys please calm down thank you ,0 +excellent film cried cried loved loved frustrated were film touched heart reality check since reality me year old soldier,0 +make b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b b simple,0 +welp know noweverything life gone shitand alone hate sudden huge wave depression coming through alone again,1 +anybody sub skate want help figure im looking first board im aware theres subreddit skating really asking questions,0 +would people miss diei start post saying planning kill current time sorry post meant go know else male currently st year college met people consider friends still connected good bunch old ones healthy relationship parents teachers idea plagued awhile would people miss die sense kill selfwould one miss me understand would sad sure would get me talk regularly friends college playing games still thought back mind says no one would miss would forget soon afterwords guess one main points thinking shit self worth zero social life side college real world also self conscious weight trying fix say think killing time soon thanks responses,1 +think might destined commit redflagi raised incredibly well somehow parents pushed problems years gave incredibly loving healthy upbringing point even siblings know major issues then announced getting divorce guess gave facade change family drastic fast traumatizing suddenly everything started going wrong life figured mom basically sociopath awful person dad major abandonment issues emotion stress one old friends siblings properly deal anyone elses emotions all siblings younger though and age affect way affected me become adult experiencing entirely new area life right started pivotal point me far closest person mom anyone family point years this im place never wanted never thought would be raised well mind deals incredibly differently average depressed person feel think things people simply cant understand feels like two different lives two lives two separate timelines even past feels like two different childhoods way feels like healthy people relate half me depressed people relate half me considering redflag past two years yesterday put situation literally inescapable feel hopeless literally feel like best option redflag thought dying sounds kind nice way imagine would live dream like state cant ever get tired dreaming whatever happens mind think death would similar effect upbringing cant let go life somehow done mind strong live subject feels like worst possible situation world effects upbringing feels awful think it think end ill probably commit redflag edit whoever downvoted me thanks asshole wrote whole post explaining misunderstood am thing could think wow im offended put feel better myself which assume something post sounded positive depressed person sounding pompous cause apparently subjectively bad life legitimate reason want commit redflag people like make sick thanks proving point misunderstood ignored like fucking perspective like i wanna put person cause life good thats exactly fucking reason im depressed life started good everyone like fuck you even though horrible now somehow childhood makes dick depressed,1 +teeny tiny little question shaving leg hair hair go it stand sit,0 +would great app help people need someone talk to find someone talk to confidentially safely survey gauge interest mental health app idea,1 +heart races hands start sweat immediately feel need pee worry theres bathroom on train least unknown problem long trapped know stupid know fine know likelihood moving shortly constant ifs set off look around everyone else looks perfectly calm perhaps mumbling inconvenience gripped fear hate it,1 +contemplationi want live anymore ive ever tried help people make happy help needed someone make everything worse every day think redflag want monotonous torture life end every day struggle want live thats life is know may really vague sounding reasons im really hard time vocalizing feelings right now want help please,1 +im pathetic pos kill myselfim stupid spoiled brat feel like could go right im sure how know pills dangerous access prozac seroquel advil roof high im scared jump anyway yes ill listen stuff guys say id also appreciate info c,1 +verge redflag head tension degrading brain helpi never used reddit before since good reputation helping people thought would good idea ask help here question is head tension forehead life adhd symptoms comes depression social isolation etc head tension let focus like something stick burried head cant think flicker memory constantly forget im current moment everything exists depersonalization derealization slowly forgetting language words grammar syntax school years university though dropout social anxiety seems memory flicker strong feel dizzy also maybe general anxiety idk asked technical questions need math years getting slower slower mentally speaking even stuff love like music make music many times im composing cant focus music cant almost see screen hear see blurry makes sense anything tbh cant see hear things much second passes forget even hard sometimes listen people read even forget midway amwhats happening im reading get stuck zoning everything becomes like blurry something head constantly hurts head tension angry showing face young supposedly normal many thoughts could focus normal person adhd would could now cant even simplest tasks getting worse constantly instructive thoughts filling mind brim like making excuses work legit feel odd wtf happening cant grasp myself maybe dumb maybe cant grasp reality maybe stupid child raised properly anyways good example instrusive thoughts lately mind completely empty meditating even easy thoughts cant even write make music like used this drop college this failed two semesters three really like cant grasp brain literally rotting shrinking bit backstory went school like normal kid always alone friends till highschool began create social skills always needed help mother study resulted lot fights house alone countless hours everyday trying learn something able so still remember rustle trees room young almost childhood life was depressed school depressed home always since young constantly depressed seen neurologist said might adhd paid attention nothing done it kept like this always getting worse highschool think bit before head tension started think maybe middle school attention people saying started degrading forgetting grammar language spanish english horribly depressed worsen head really hurt memory got worse well everything forward recent past went psychiatris diagnosing adhd july went well got perfect score adderall really helped lot went university again slowly effects adderall started drop always was filled anxiety classrooms people time started panic attacks anxiety got worse worse throughout years tried manage well university kept getting panic attacks believing might trauma school years tried kill dorms twice went psychiatric hospital twice help all also antidepressants shit second time tried kill went university try more got think panic attack strong move all shaking whole body tense dizzy frozen got strong point move almost talk felt like loosing conciousnes happened hometown house whole week trembling able talk properly think properly mental breakdowns getting insane quit university still keeps head tension mind dying shaking anymore walk still panic attacks yes intense one made stop moving im verge redflag again asking reddit help wtf this,1 +gf navy bootcamp right want send memes look memes way much figured could print memes send mail send best got deserves best,0 +im class someone say something funny get less boring fucaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduckfuckaduck,0 +drinking things helps im tired everything hurts much want dead cant deadi want everything end,1 +keep finding situations people end hating me one really wants around anymore past years could never figure why maybe physical appearance even online communities everyone eventually ends yelling me maybe something say always known trouble understanding social ques i put quotes really understand are know people take offence things pretty easily also champion say whatever want afraid talk say something get mad say something hurts either speak do yell more probably say dw nice people world are acknowledge that almost everyone least decent irl world busy deal problems always ask stuff anything busy even respond sometimes always believed nice get places life does nice people time me want find something suck everything hard find passion alone nothing done,1 +bois small pps ok yesterday spent day gf house moment wanted sex ate tried put im even big inches didnt even f ing enter pussy like hole stick outside big pp cool looking hard use small pp find bad atleast fuck say lol sorry english main language,0 +free bear award thingy st reply gets,0 +normal take someone breakfast kinda want take someone get like scone something nearby coffee shop kinda want see doing know really something people do dumb question know ever done dunno,0 +official longer call good ol us think us longer deserves called good isnt old us excuse im going continue anxious fire could burn city nuclear arms race trump might started pandemic,0 +im got depression long period boredom began lose feelings happiness everythingmy grandfather died watched dad hit wife get arrested family broke spine damaged cant play sports anymore girl love w relationship long treated like shit ive found hooked best friend isnt really anything me even god,1 +masturbating shower best try argue cause wrong,0 +feel trapped lb body mind flooded suicidal thoughtsi wont cant leave mom want to bad everyday wake wish body would finally give up least die natural causes terrible around you dont blame themselves want normal life every day pain suffering whats point try lose weight fail get mad self sabotage binge eating way feel good also punish sucking every minute life hurt every day wonder ill fit here there ever day worry ill break chair furniture people stare think poorly you doctor says exercise going work days week hard enough hardly walk office car searing pain running legs back eat healthy standing cook painful legs shake like im going fall im deep addiction food feel like way death dont want wait come naturally say redflag selfish wanting someone live life depressed pain dont guilt sadness selfish one blame myself every day think ending all want misery over feel like ive ruined life even lose weight much irreversible damage point carrying on dont see it hate ive done hate myself hate body hate love food,1 +hold damn long life continue messing againfuck life,1 +omgt liked handf thers stray cat visit anf liked handf soo cutee,0 +dying uncomfortablelike wish switch lol like finally there convinced piece shit exist go body rebels it haha painful existence is very heheh fuck hope figure out living dying idk one,1 +im sick this rantim risk anything right now im ok im sick hormones erratic making feel way feel shit want end things going ruin life one day im likely top them want feel way anymore,1 +really know start right one talk toi think going turn wall text please forgive me really know start guess starting feel helpless right shall work due lot circumstances come last months really feel like shell used be lost friends best friend girl loved got girl pregnant things gone downhill there originally held hope girl loved would able forgive happening really done worst thing possible caused feel unwanted me never dating girl reasons met friend dumping horrible way wanted make sure would ok became great friends really things going great went planned trip chicago week got back listen warnings get detail recurring theme would treat horribly would break would comfort would get back him happened many times past years happened worse felt useless felt overall one time girl really liked hit really think get back lindsay that name way left sidelines several times past like even there hard typing box doesnt feel like talking someone things arent coming way would want wont go back fix them anyway june house one could stay anymore aunt mom screaming every night sleeping car friends mom offered let stay free hour away stayed ended sex friend ended getting pregnant really long story whats done done go that like said earlier though really holding onto thought lindsay would forgive this could date really hate it seemed pretty monotone told seem upset really learned later though back ex felt completely helpless lost hold deepest hatred man dating room without thinking much hate every fiber being done many bad things lindsay forgives everything every single time even mother knows things done forgives him rape anything like that stole every penny owned dating year never bought single present never took single date except first day went out spent every penny stole buy drugs party friends whole year stole every penny mom bills came broke mom went k debt verbally abused back together make feel like whore many things like forgave every time feel like words spoke comfort things wasted think feel even worse back him tried continue including life inviting little events like band competitions chorus recitals every time couldnt enjoy it hated every second there new years day got worst news ever gotten engaged married immediately depressed ever life even found going father choice even treated like dirt kid felt useless still feel useless find job pay child support live jobs one know english spanish it already thought maybe join navy order pay child would also mean leaving everyone behind even her wasnt something thought could do done though sent lindsay message telling deal anymore through told deal decided could remain friends anymore would completely distancing every time talked hurt knowing him girl best friend girl loved moment felt loss ever before know month since months every time laid sleep spend hours thinking ruined everything could think her forgotten new years night anniversary met night engagement extremely depressed was able think every night month girl last night vivid dream talking ever really getting me think everything life feel hopeless ever life getting worse really suicidal know go right sympathize option escape easy redflag keeps coming mind every step way though thing really makes feel worse worse every time think it sorry wall text know people say get girl stupid enough get back ex like that know things could worse first girl ever showed human affection is met never felt thing living without hurts thing regret miss feeling holding someone feeling falling asleep someone arms crying thinking it sorry wall text felt helpless know anymore,1 +wanna kill myselfhow kill hanging kr suffocating,1 +ironicisnt ironic guy helped pull least people redflag one listen cry help ironic person spends much time voluntarily counseling people online one go to ironic one cares one notice gone cant anymore im done,1 +you im bored,0 +worried breakupsuspended school tell gfs mom likely gonna freak make us break up know life girl literally best friend reason followed past attempts break itll thursday want saturday work grab pot handle vodka end life cant without want suffer action help me cant help,1 +show out today came home shoes dirty got ridiculously angry starting tearing up actually good day sad keep like tension release like energy guess ill mention fasting ate angry anymore still feel sort tension release one main reasons binge eat get adrenaline need release day seems way boring understand sometimes irritable reason like even good day fasting supposed make feel good good day felt pretty get angrysad moods want scream everyone able hide work get angry stupid things get it still sorta feel it know like sadness arousal tension need let outcould bipolar adhd heard bpd feel like bipolar idk think depression lots happy moments fall sadness lot comes eating disorder opinions super angry little things,1 +last post got removed low effort tittle people use metric system always saying imperial system makes sense measure weight rocks fing rocks,0 +im donegood job l h everyone community figured knew enough pass judgment give shit all everyone else helped keep fresh left one nowhere go drained inertia hope faith people im heading week probably live long definitely coming back,1 +know doive posted times before junior year high school want graduate go community college first hopefully transfer better university year im honors couple ap courses extreme anxiety get sleep school days reason want go school calls house twice day asking am really done school work year bs classes except physics american studies supposed page research paper break anything late work accepted also egg drop project started finished absence school got c i think physics first quarter likely f quarter ends next wednesday american studies got first quarter f quarter midterms grade start next thursday emailed guidance counselor today asking meet tomorrow first period emailed back want try switch regular physics class save credit also want change ap american studies regular american lit us history know affect grades possible anymore also going retake gym next symmester absent many times lost credit class im really sure hard get community college without honors classes really shitty grades feel ashamed pathetic going school reason long afraid going back absent long get credits per year go onto senior year humiliating would rather drop out cant get sleep want face physics teacher tomorrow i want try go school tomorrow severe anxiety whole life sick worry,1 +tomorrow going break personal record going lose hope humanity day get bed wish luck,0 +redflag mixing cleaning productsdoes anyone know actually deadly effects mixing cleaning products like bleach urban legend seems bleach ammonia isnt actually deadly mix extremely unpleasant one,1 +rantvent post want advice every single time mom says this keep hold back saying life short enough opinion life way long especially struggle mentally way would want spend extra time living horrible world brain function properly never feel like anything even days actually feel better burnt life know want it want kill either nawlife short,1 +fucking tired want sleep thirty billion years wake up watch sun explode go back bed ask alive,1 +one reason dont kill myselfmy daughter reason dont kill myself ive hard shit parents abusive mom drug addicted narcissist dad drug addicted pedophile feel like worthless human being postabuse struggles pain feel inescapable ive intensive therapy years relief pain never really goes away im tired living way want let gobut daughter shes left would one cant her reason living enough keep holding on im long haul wanted vent hope understand,1 + time goi know know worth blah blah im getting divorce wife going take everything should amazing person ive married years never loved her married age guilt took tennessee utah got pregnant anyways chose leave wife still wants home ive multiple affairs current affair recently came light kids going hate comes fully out plan settle debts selling semi successful construction business make look like disappeared want leave house paid whatever cash left over want die want know easiest way make look like disappeared instead commented redflag im depressed crazied state mind want least painful way family im still around feel like wife never move children suffer going work out,1 +pain weighing downi wonder taboo redflag person admits considering it like sort line crossed something like said something makes fucking sense wrong sometimes wonder ridiculous people even good story ridiculousness shit accepted accident car accident right leg fucked up severed mcl tore meniscus fractured femur shattered patella sucked months surgeries pins shit knee recovered though go wheelchair crutches single crutch cane months walk without limp learn walk again tough something look forward to getting better normal again work it tangible though different problem spine hurts pain take medications day go physical therapy times week hrs go sleep pain dream pain wake pain things teach deal cope one say help out train deal pain teach body avoid things make worse cant work lost job pain encompasses every aspect life im crying you way live cant live like this leg fucked up something look forward too getting better now pills classes deal it life pain day night change classes pills coping never changes miserable way live cant live like this ask this many years long ok mean put animals misery okay end it destroys me seeing family every day every day day consists another session misery trained deal with fix get through when point thing consider miserable dragging family run bills take resources happy life way live tell me not tell theres circumstance consideration tell call number generic shit want tell fucking sin terminate failing situation complete failure would keep someone stopping pain ruins every possible way could feel okay stopping person ending misery,1 +get helpabout years ago came gay suffered really bad depression considered redflag since ive come ive generally happy situation really changed thankfully less year college away ultra religious environment however recently ive starting depressed again last college may actually able happy first time life wanted know would beneficial see professional benefits would be,1 +someone make feel better gf broke feel terrible acts like fine honestly makes feel way worse someone help feel better thank ,0 +favorite rap song rn said sum filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +day quarantine im starting daily post untill get thingy bit context im huge need im also athlete mental health stabilizer playing basketball varsity basketball team btw days since last played basketball imagine state am im still gonna stay cuz alot doctors giving lives save us,0 +emberassing moment boner class girl looked it wbu,0 + months plan ending life cant anymorei struggle cptsd severe chronic depression severe social anxiety grew horrible child hood raped molested step dad beaten daily him forced incest two cousins aunt him tried killing many times family hated always things reason grew watching mom trying end life succeeded lost real dad knew months died liver failure spent ten years homeless witnessed many things murder dozens redflags live right front unable stop it robbed shot many occasions know read write learned friend mine also homeless homeless veteran served vietnam mid s ended taking life right next unable stop it got tired fighting every day homeless help money family spent past ten years trying get ged unable learning issues second grade level first grade level every subject learn firstsecond way th every subject spent past ten years trying get career job apartment bought first car last year get scammed car dealership thousand dollars took years save supposed move apartment wisconsin back february needed eye surgery march remove cataract right eye needing done left eye spent past ten years trying find room rent afford month bills incl everywhere find want that cant afford living disability unable work getting month live on struggled obesity since childhood even homeless pushing lbs unable lose single entire life spent past eight years dating scene person online get told worthless ugly disgusting mocked at laughed at made fun of trolled bullied told nothing one wants even told end life many occasions even family even mom absolutely friends family support kind struggle day day severe loneliness even good conversation anyone years woman lead pretended love want turned married used attention watched movie tv show anyone years now wake nights tears shaking cptsd nightmares sometimes confused takes awhile calm get mind set right tried years therapy meds counseling mental hospitals none helps none works either makes feel like zombie makes messed even worse tried ten years turn life around unable to months hit going celebrate birthday pizza whiskey wine coolers favorite movies music going euthanize go peacefully get peace rest hellish life living know make past ten minutes else post tired holding in call liar troll call whatever want vent this hold anymore tldr horrid shitty life nothing works fail everything set turn going nice little bang end life,1 +ujk_jirachi grew level attack defense sp atk sp def speed ampxb sadly gain stats like pokemon,0 +ya know what dont wanna hang guy cause develops feelings huh hes gonna want sex point,0 +dad calls tarty wearing mascara swear god cant wear makeup like looks me makes feel good attracting male attention frustrating like seriously trying attract damn house besides boyfriend anyway obviously im trying attract anyone makes feel confident happy cant happy me dad saw wearing tiny amount mascara home absolutely intent going anywhere anything decides spew crap like you look wear that if go bars men hit you you look tarty which didnt even know meaning decided tell mom laugh it goes say women wear makeup people women use makeup attract opposite sex goes say biology oh im sorry biology apparently saying fourteen year old daughter dressed sexually provocatively wearing mascara bought walmart two days ago thanks lot dad basically calling whre wearing mascara ffs hate men like this anyway thanks reading rant im really frustrated think ima go put more,0 +dad slapped againmy arm fucking red swollen fuck,1 +recommended movies im really bored hit anything,0 +friends weird every time say something casual like how doing start making slow song topic know why,0 +im tiredid like sleep forever die sleep old age takes me flat enjoy life never have ive sought therapy entire life got nothing aversion human beings cant even talk professionals doctors refuse me called friends stopped talking back even family got bored whining point cant even call redflag hotline thought talking someone makes skin crawl cant even remember many times ive posted got nothing prayers usual you talk therapist continue miserable existence brings nothing pain regardless action take brings nothing misery,1 +driving permit ive studied memorized questions inlcluding signs alot people say test super easy still sure ready able first practice test flawlessly the rest locked behind pay wall drivingtestorghttpsdrivingtestorg still sure need reassurance tips,0 +low actually going go itto anyone may concern think time come end wretched existence done lot sooner would saved lot people lot pain trouble trouble seem cause people trouble pain inconvenience never anything short waste space something laughed at abused scorned ive heard people love would like know hell people are ive seen love word casually thrown around simple sake boredom entertainment love world lust fleeting urges like ones make people horrible things children day realized all contemplating wanted go life familys standards ive accomplished greatest feats im pregnant kids sex graduated high school going college course ended abruptly good things im left without passion art care anything else dont care anything anymore could think everything wanted life like traveling falling love getting married living art even owning small caf now doesnt matter im broken ever good enough someone since im loose whore never anyone guess ever anyway anyone even reading all want know im sorry found like this im sorry even scrape part whatever put all wish never accident first place never wasted anyones time wish siblings never known existed wish parents didnt failure offspring wish parents best find someone replace better child wish two best friends hadnt put antics wish hadnt made pay attention knew better bothering me wish died day fell flight stairs little wish never hurt anyone knowing me wish drowned day fell ocean im sorry female friend depressed time making listen study im sorry always inconsiderate do ive always thought big sister always wanted im sorry male friend embarrassing around know resent supposed be im sorry im always taking time could using around people important thanks big brother im sorry everyone else didnt name im sorry im forgetful cant even remember people wasted time trying help me never chance go anywhere world given im so sorry forced help along way appreciated much both friends two get owned want it money included mother gets funeral expense added bonus burn art crap dont know pursued it dont know comes next whatever is deserved it happy that,1 +fun fact day reddit post number result search minion ahegao reddit,0 +cant overmy anxiety point want die tonight turns midnight cant take another year mental illness nothing helps me fuck everything even alive,1 +someone knows anything computers help me im trying delete epic games launcher cuz use anymore free space laptop cuz told makes run better every time try close it says running when obviously closed app open bar bottom discord uninstall it,0 +genuine question everyone skirts guys thats trend right guys skirts dont understand came from probably sound stupid curiousity killed cat,0 +im depressed alcoholic im ready diedepression scrapes surface im diagnosed ocd bpd every single day feels like living hell dont think keep going like this lot issues main diagnosis include severe social anxiety bordering agoraphobia major depression im sick living like this thing keeping alive right family dont want put that part feels like theyd better though mental health become debilitating last years cant even work turned mooch grandparents live cant function like normal human being ive tried therapy medication nothing helps feel lost stuck getting current situation point do failed college mental illness live small town finding job almost impossible social anxiety makes even daunting cant hardly even go grocery store point dont know point feel helplessness like im drowning way out im stuck thoughts waking moments way get relief alcohol hard see light end tunnel feel deep id better dead,1 +hate myselfi want kill im fucking pussy please kill sleep let with please,1 +dream one day cuddle bed cute boy chill fall asleep got window open wake fresh breeze coming relaxing cuddling till wanna get take walk something,0 +parents manipulating cant stand anymorethey keep demanding shit me ive enough might it piss off hell even pissed off relieved the piece shit dead already thanks mom dad thank much fucking assholes,1 +days valentines day someone sent screenshots talking girl facetime instagram saying youre cute flirting her decided say anything girl lived another state didnt want bring up figured fried hitchhiked across country college waited till valentines day called up told dont think live together signed month lease apartment livid brought dozen roses smashed front parking lot,1 +people fucking cluefamily you think yourself given up me if thought given up even say bullshit me,1 +share story permanent nerve damage since liver infection since significantly destroyed mental physical healthappearance wasted muscles etci girlfriend point live her want get healthier get past health issues one day feel like ill get worse hope anyone feel suicidal health issues,1 +done big bad got school computer first real time interacting one own want know google themes allowed computers werent would think would block them someone confirm dont mess up,0 +want die parents cant explain one would understand would say thats think best youi years old want die every night cry sleep thinking committing redflag writing letter parents responsible redflag good life outside home school great friends great parents awful like alcoholics drugs mind numbingly awful might lot time left it lot people would miss me cant live like anymore,1 +think need sleep feel dumber usual think might showing posts,0 +whats dudes anybody talk anything really filler filler,0 +yo one cali hear dat lightning loud heck shaking house pretty crazy fires too gods finna pull balloon td battles lightning fire magic wizzard upgrade,0 +someone talk im lonley suicidal fucked someone talk please talk whatever want,0 +really hope okay im submitting thisive never subreddit before know right thing read posts get feel things go here im kinda gonna that read guidelines right im totally cool those goes im killing tonight makes tonight around th night killed myself counting first urge mean not like birth still guess nights pretty good tonights different thats im writing this thats also right thing read posts first tonight minutes need write know somebody read it im gonna get details ive got mood behavior issues surprise ive em pretty control past five years so break arm patting back tonight hours ago something happened almost set back came close ive come long time doc told called dissociative episode short version sometimes kind dunno crack brain something lose control violent loseyourtemper way sense control words choices say mean things hurtful things things true like said ive good five years tonight almost lost it ive screaming inside head ever since yeah ive got support system kinda dumb luck tonight im own ive sorta got redflag watch im imminent danger anything like that cant stop thinking it want try sleep know im gonna able control thoughts thats im writing helps focus helps stay calm im weirdo cant write unless know somebodys gonna read it tried writing myself earlier see could trick calmer state work yeah guess im unburdening you whoevers reading this im okay seriously im scared tonight anything im really upset disappointed myself selfloathing strong tonight yeah anybody wants reply this id appreciate it need it crisis feel obligated anything since anonymous gets guess anybody wants hear happened specifically suppose could try talking it know would help sort feelings would give excuse wallow em sure basically im saying right thank letting use space focus minute helped little think course im done typing means im starting think ugly thoughts again stinks moment helped feel little better thank much reading,1 +cant take stress feel option redflag airi work everyday little pay much arguing screaming friends family paying debts society cant take anymore stress past present future,1 +back demonsall darkness much cant fight urge slice arms im sad alone friends live overseas im bored theyre asleep hate much cant cope anymore im sure want die definitely want live,1 +violence still happening mind games also still happening felt like fault done something wrong deserve it supported new state school ended losing job reasons control really difficult time finding new job,1 +anyone gives information ufoopidiescoop get award please need find anyone gives information ufoopidiescoop get award please need find please friend deleted account going hard time need find him made heart flutter kinda pleassseee u know alt even going tell really happy grateful,0 +best optioni lost love live another man think going get married want die,1 +told boyfriend ive thinking killing myself said im sorry left workif care does ive stopping guilt loved ones look me finally free end pain edit know loves aware depression two years ive never felt suicidal now really scary think anymore sometimes think gets sick consoling knows issue chronic way am im feeling sad again ill cry pass much different ive never cried wolf redflag seriously think need help week make through impulses strong one person hoping reach indifferent tried make clear serious is different time walked arms want alive would feel content dead forever like always people around keeping losing would devastating them hate every second it live miserably go bed depressed wake anxious flashbacks inconvenient times point prioritize pain theirs everyone could understand let go would much happier fuck,1 +bit connoisseur garbage stumbled across little treasure action romance crooked cops violence single one pulled right love immediately then funny thing happened second time around became addicted thought going one rent chuckle kindofmoviebr br rudy ray moore knew wanted see movie money make look good anyway thats commendable also shows making movie self know many heard rudy rays music whole slew albums reaching fifties,0 +time get helpwhen suicidal thoughts problematic like point need go seek help seek counseling first thought happening multiple times day thinking would need take care ahead it problem contemplate acting thoughts,1 +im done im done absolutely positively fucking donei cant sleep night get rls whenever try wake times night terrors manage fall asleep im tired literally time zero goals life nothing enjoy besides going home playing video games nothing wanna go college for job want grades terrible parents called disappointment everyone nonstop shit talks me might gotten hacked recently friends overshadowed literal dozens people hate think im toxic piece shit ive driven many people away im shitty boyfriend girlfriend always wants go stuff want stay home come or go house one long distance friends committed redflag im shitty friend usually take excruciatingly long amounts time respond anyone texts me im even getting sick playing video games slowly overcome entirely boredom spend day bed nothing do cant hang friends groups outside school feel like unnecessary faggot isnt important group theyd much fun without pathetic ass ex gf molested cheated lied fitness friends think im false rape claimer get shit talked it slowly yet surely disassociating world around im passing everyday life trance feeling nothing overwhelming sadness crippling self harm addiction desire feel something sadness know im still alive also wanting punish severely possible annoying toxic piece shit hear voices hallucinate extremely often point think might need go psychiatrist im scared tell parents ive tried kill hanging failed shitty door mounted pull bar using broke etc etc want die want nothing die want everyone around hate reason im still alive know theyd sad died theres coming back this theres getting better im deep already know going get worse cant talk therapists anyone like dont trust talking issues seems make worse im getting worse worse day im pounds underweight cant even bothered eat food half time anymore literal hobby brings almost enjoyment anymore dont get see girlfriend often id like want over fucking bad havent able stop crying like full ass half hour stopping life im miserable time nothing want life getting worse worse day cant even pussy would destroy family friends beyond repair live it poorly written im sorry im sure chore read,1 +feel like human being anyone else understandim months feel like human being bipolar disorder depressive episodes lots anxiety life im failure careerim back living parents working part time im trouble coping ive nagging feeling always personlike im extremely subhuman im always shocked people like want around when do ive never romantic relationship like kid im talking early years old would consciously think kids people human would hate it grew older felt deserve friends praise people ever always assumed anything earned life earned people feel sorry me im almost ive never romantic relationship sort im terrified even know id go it im alone cant stand it hate muchi wish could kill myself anxiety selfhatred much see end it im never going able things want do age two feet steady job live parents ive never relationship etc feel like leach world see point alive people tell potential waste im basket case think id world favor killing myself,1 +would christians like friendly logical debate athiest purely purpose fun enlightenment winners losers judgement ad hominem used christian turned feel free dm,0 +life hits us facewe must try stay beautifulbr br debut movie one belgians best artists he sings songs tom barman long awaited movie andhappy happy joy joy flemish filmmakingreally worth watching promising piece work takes us lifes main characters live friday night title says lot way spend time them float friday nights party kinda meetbr br its rhytmic style thought off superb use music sometimes takes upperhand images feel power gainsbourg qotsa party scene minutes thrilling visual experience cause way shot keeps really set small place lot people big partyso hard shootbr br thank menijr barman making daring movie these already years going poor times flemish filmmaking made day,0 +sharing thoughts life shit people close me family getting upset sad me try connect every day recreate bond kid dismiss get annoyed angry them dont want hurt them course feel even worse reject them get upset sad me mean lot feel like disappoint me one disappoints them disappoint myself look me dont even friends dreams dreams want creator want make something would impress viewer want photographer want cinematographer want musician want writer dont want wannabe think im chasing money fame could go back old times money amp fame none it suck everything want money fame take away problems family would choose family friends want famous like them friends post malone lil peep milkavelli could go on unnecessary want like them parents proud feel good themselves unreal real friends,0 +anyone else feel like constantly waiting one thing give ounce joy ie one clothes delivery one new episode one takeaway provide kind happiness couple minutes fades waiting next thing make feel something it need rely superficial things make feel remotely happy cannot find something make feel way feel like literally waiting die cannot believe need spend rest life waking up working thinking dinner trying find little things bring shortlived joy mundane sad little life jane enjoy money hope makes happy etc waiting,1 +would died cati taken dads gun gonna shoot remembered cat leave cat behind died packed stuff brang cat girlfriends house years later im happy married still cat dad apologised aways abusing me life good right now,1 +mind meto care clicked post feel l ive crying time every time get knocked feel like fall fall every time crawl back im shoved back further fell like im suffocating wanna cry cant want collapse every second ive cried much come anymore,1 +day working hey guys still great days going fast motivation still high changed training harder painfull workout hope enjoy keep following me,0 +word day defenestrate defenestration act throwing someone something window,0 +anything better sex yes really good book synthesiser,0 +theres new killer bean episode httpsyoutubebltgkvqmqs king returned,0 +guys really cool idea dystopian novel basically theres huge virus ends breaking loose people start dropping like flies people realize teens kids seem immune however case people want send children back school die teachers write wills theyre exposed large amounts possibly sick children get this children chance dying government knows still wants send back oh wait,0 +goodbyeto family friends reading this im sorry love all ive lost hope dont care stuff dont care forget me know im sorry goodbye,1 +selfishdont kill prove point always contemplate every time someone says something hurt puts aside selfish hurt,1 +yep screwed last week mentioned sex someone school shes pregnant wonderful,0 +humanity mistake httpswwwredditcomrspongebobporncommentsluaoh_gaaarryyyy_im_homeutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare,0 +teenager sucks weird phase people expect act like adult actually get perks one sure get ton free time cant enjoy really good anything teenager like skydiving thats expensive af spent years saving one jump unless get licensed basically free cant get licensed young would like try mountain biking a live basically flat dessert b enough money buy decent mountain bike like badminton place around cant go know drive even want learn need least public transportation system nonexistent goes pretty much everything like like traveling hiking etc good activity done doors like drawing playing music pretty much things read watch tv stare phone day cant wait financial independence stuff actually like also teenager makes people automatically think stupid whenever topic discussion brought up role play learn adults opinions often disregarded apparently know anything real world even though adults total morons less intelligence average teenager would always act like know cuz years older yes im looking karens forget mention school sucks mean study thats actually pretty ok talking people school students urge super cool alot stupid irrational decisions trying validate decisions making fun everyone iq average higher chair course teachers whose dreams got crushed found work teachers planning take us students sports wise suck football always nothing guess apparently decide go library a nerd also social status becomes sort big deal reason got douchebags wearing gucci whatever bragging day order popular problem is works course people nice overall experience really sucks especially that often not give damn whats taught also young anything young drive travel alone work even part time heck even volunteer sometimes old go college live alone basically anything like already know want do wait years people adults often say childhood teenage years best years lives honestly best years life nothing much look forward then thankfully believe know time get me sick waiting little rant reason managed read till here thank you hope enjoy experience teenager do,0 +pretty screwed physically emotionally left behind bunch dependents took many prescriptions etc word wise follow life script trust television want live friend killed,1 +considering suicide really want it want happy going wake everyday rest life feeling like this id rather kms honestly want get help late know find any want tell friends family bcuz want worry me want counsellor therapist cannot get one get help,1 +even fucking know anymoremy grades failing relationships too familys abusive want live anymore keep trying best never works,1 +theres nothing left mei alone want alone anymore,1 +im lowest point lifei good life good position job liked amazing girlfriend several friends ruined all got fired broke incapable changing ruined friendship friends month since broke up shes gotten help best friend theyre close seems like theyre interested connecting connecting despite barely meeting maybe months ago im middle child one expectations thrown sister screwed up ive never close family im boy never really knew interact theyre disappointed hobby playing games feel like one left huge burden placed myself im looking reason feel even hopeless see old friends fun together without me feel like dont matter anyone,1 +slight breakdown hey fellow teenagers subreddot talk people cry ever wanted anyone partner people find annoying stupid weird really need hug cant fucking friends arent nearby im trying karmawhore understand say that really need talk someone like,0 +im close itim close ending it feel like control life honestly decent life cant stop constant depression overall sadness diagnosed ocd well makes everything much worse know close breaking point right now seriously it ive kind halfattempted before kind started take pills stopped phone call friend idea happened honestly saved life im end though cant stop this want get final rest death im afraid death even slightly say everyones afraid death want bad wish id die sleep something know theres something within wants to thats im posting this side wants winning something change tonight last night alive teenager spoken parents this seems childish always seem want someone help people try talk go therapy close cant talk whats really causing pain cant talk people it almost seems better one talks it nights like close ive never felt way before im close ending it plan would via overdose im fucking close even know im posting this since im convinced tonight night even know im looking comes responses even think anyone respond guess im sharing story maybe end someone know hurts know thousands people feel way though wish something actually reliable help this nothing seems help though want die want go away im sorry long post know read even want people respond with im looking for least want someone know die thank reading,1 +today gonna aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhgghhhghggghhh day ,0 +hotlines say god damn thingsit get better yeah suicidal too hear shit damn time call one redflag hotlines never helpful want know fuck put bullet head already your family miss you shitty attempt guilt tripping it ill it care shithead family thinks,1 +nikola right live see manmade horrors beyond comprehension,0 +goodbye everyonealas day come dont feel super upset little bit things im gunna miss on like weddings birthdays sorts family events sure wouldve loved stay honestly deserve see them hurt much would like stop soon possible seems unlikely hope die god shows mercy upon anddd get see family heaven esp girlfriend although wouldve probably gotten ill probably leave alone hope one feels sorry really deserve it im really good useful anything anyone lose me honesty would make difference lives wish could wake tomorrow super happy time cant be know im sorry way am never thought id grow like this thought id life figured im confused cannot wait die rid disease me im sorry hope death family take something it dont really care much miss me dont kill tonight done february st,1 +although compared mad max film league own set post apocalyptic paris film mans struggle survival lost ability speak remarkable shortage women congratulations luc besson,0 +im drinking cope pain cant feel yayliterally drank entire bottle wine half hour less feel feel stupid trying harder wanting feel better want die im stupid pathetic wanting better hope get better hope die tonight kind stupid pathetic loser i,1 +covid rules fucking suck school like dam lunch cant even go see friends bf,0 +anyone else deadlineif so made pick one expecting time something could make change mind mine somwhere before sometimes think son it part would love take care but problems would still existing good sad know ill miss guess things happened way,1 +anybody know stop hicups shit soooooo fucking annoying,0 +severe hypochondriachealth anxiety suffereri panic rare diseases every day like rabies cjd worry rabies much considered redflag free obsessive thoughts live country domestic cases rabies yesterday morning woke walked get breakfast saw brother wound nose told looked like didnt notice didnt care started worrying bat bit nose sleeping we never saw bat lives found sticky gum like thing thats white really big stepped couple times feels like gum convinced saliva rabid animal flew in didnt worry all later told fears started panicking panicked too didnt really give shit wether rabies im going kill soon really didnt want get rabies later moved forgot fear rare rabies country extremely small posibility rabid animal could flew without causing damage really wish cameras house see happened wont kill know doesnt rabies,1 +need little supporthi im new here looked briefly rules best follow them please let know say something wrong suicidal ideation since decade now side effect depression im used it ive learned lot coping skills really good controlling days ive actually really well lately exactly crossed mind months couple weeks ago friend mine brother committed redflag brutal whole family talked offered condolences kept distance today heard another aquaintence whose boyfriend committed weekend close either again offer condolences stay bay honestly though im really hard time coping ive always quick trigger comes hearing someone else it surprised handled first one well did one making things difficult feeloff like little dissociative apathetic usual im afraid whats going underneath emotions bubble way surface want tell anyone know everyone understandbly high alert copycats around here know fall high concern list many loved ones guess needed get chest somewhere judge worry me understand mean say things feel guilty like im making tragedies even really mine also know perfectly valid someone history struggling right now guess need reassurance im alone here,1 +remember parker posey as world turns became queen independent movies film posey shows potential top fledged actress film supporting cast includes omar townsend moustafa lebanese immigrant works falafel salesman street aspires become teacher supporting cast features wonderful actress plays godmother family relative judy librarian old fashioned dedicated menopausal posey mary learns grow mature losing librarian clerk position makes realize much misses place life marys life surrounded friends lower east side village new york city became gentrified yuppies film quite good independent come enjoy parker posey mary well characters films,0 +literally point anymorethis kind awkward new since ive never life told anyone except one person ive suicidal depressed since im things gotten worse continue get worse hate hate life years thinking life ive realized literally point it want live years im lucky years work years im retire sit ass day watch tv alone like old fuck life rinse repeat cycle majority parts arent satisfying cause pain myself matter mistakes constantly making effect everyone else around truly awful feeling dont strength keep going even dont think id want to shitty memories taking good memories good memories fading away point cant even fucking remember used younger take years shitty memories grave need take few dont even know anymore,1 +beating downim years old th grade pending drug charges caught mg adderall pills school september january landed ambulance ride hospital shroom acodmt experiment two friends going cost parents tremendous amount money feel fucking awful putting bullshit disclosed past regular drug use parents weed adderall xanax tramadol oxycodone hydrocodone mushrooms lsd inbome coke dxm fucked up feel happy escape reality curious guess friends around curious well never partied everything alone small groups friends good environments cant help think ive permanently wrecked already flawed brain chemistry im gifted diagnosed adhd ocd gad age ive completely abstained drug use fact even considered using anything makes feel though ive done everything completely choice feel completely overwhelmed guilt disgusted putting parents this amount adderall possessed caught implied intention distribute mention school grounds felony fuck rest life decide continue it im nearing edge though im surrounded loving family plenty close friends theres driving force telling none matters end already,1 +tired want sit cry feel embarrassed it want scream yell energy feel helplesseverything fucking crappy depressing laptop one thing broke single cent going job couple months able get fixed look forward toi phone headphone jack busted recently headphones broke well parents never give money busy trying survive nothing works moremy laptop one way could zone parents reach work try stuff cannot used put music would lay chill ever felt sad cannot thta anymore frustrates anything want sit cry used listen music get touch feelings cannot even anymorei wantthis misery end first time life actually begun lose faith god know happening me angry frustrated makes want cry,1 +anyone could really use good chatplease pm talk,1 +surface tmhs appears yet another generic high school drama surprisingly hidden away underneath immense amounts depth originality eccentricities render unforgettable viewer also makes indisputably one best animes medium produced last yearsbr br we see world eyes kyon first day high school meets haruhi suzumiya girl boldly claims rest class interest normal humans top casually invites aliens time travellers sliders espers meet her kyon stares disbelief wondering shes joking screws loose however defying gut instincts begins talking her soon becomes apparent ordinary high schooler long after creates aptly named sos brigade school club drags kyon amongst highly unfortunate people attendbr br nothing anime conforms usual standard conventions kyon protagonist overly cynical pessimist contributes witty narration show farcry usual d male leading characters tends populate medium episodes chronologicaland forces viewer think events unfolding relate prior instances stroke genius effect like jigsaw puzzle new piece layed get sense bigger picture previous scenes given entire new meanings realization profoundly satisfying mean however feels disjointed its anything but cleverly written script bypassed problem ensured flows smoothly start finishbr br the story strikingly original delve simple barebones plot outline gave earlier doubt spoil you however mention plot incorporates vast array genres ranging comedy scifi managed accomplish space fourteen episodes beyond me doubt huge achievement itselfbr br tmhs true gem diversity depth appeal pretty much anyone interest anime watch it rather unusually something lives enormous hype received even exceeds it,0 +get covid bad weve fucked world economy percent worlds population died it people arent dying massive numbers like people keep screaming about,0 +friend says im actively suicidalall complain skinny am sleep time work think quitting everything existing im exhausted,1 +everyday grueling day regret grief death healim sorry despise me never wanted happen hope everyone get move,1 +eat ass eat lot ass black brown asian eat lot ass affects nutrition ass eating competition would easily win eat ass fucking eat whole damn ass ,0 +losthello all yesterday first panic attack life worst part even panic attack could talk anyone it thought friend think starts dislike lot friendship almost more seems ending never met person real life kind weird think im someone people get along well long period time never good friend always drifted far away close with lulling seems like best idea ill make moms life like hell really worried know else do cant keep living like this moved home country searching something work out feeling even worse ever mature cant put others feeling front own good person hurt ones love failure planet would great service humanity,1 +depression almost eighteen years thought mostly gotten grip suicidal self harming aspects it lately lot kind thoughts come back know redflag dealing exacerbating poor mental health want sleep struggle falling asleep redflag redflag keeps up feel like constantly verge tears keep thinking really start seeing professional worried affording it dealing overwhelming sense hopelessness feel pushing away people care most worst long time,1 +anyone wondering one makes movies like used to conversation character simple theme friendship struggling evolve something new better different folks need take film see top notch writing directing acting melds wonderful evening observation things used italy england days times funneled terrific comedy entertainment made alfred molina joan plowright polly walker josie lawrence jim broadbent miranda richardson michael kitchens major roles brush stroke direction mike newell actors accomplish vividly memorable performances photographed sublimely subtle painters eye reminiscent theatrical bedroom farce turn century film might called friendship farce becomes worthwhile experience growth romantic nature within character viewer too artistic telegram importance caring around us,0 +flip back forth able change feeling like iti recently got broken guy dating months good weeks ive back forth since feel feel future one hand feel hopeful like okay me get life together feel good work hard im happy about hand feel like good enough ill never good enough anyone feel like theres something inherently wrong keep failing everything give completely instead grasping day dreams never amount anything ive bingeing extreme calorie cuts taking care cutting punishment failing roller coaster everyday hating taking care within hours other currently jobless uneducated borrowing money family stay float,1 + years old feel like im right back wasabout year half ago suicidal friend convinced get help prescribed zoloft began seeing therapist got lot better went emptiness happy met nice guy started going out last fall felt zoloft longer working put cymbalta well birth control guess looking back always knew cymbalta working past daysweeks gotten increasingly worse im suicidal skipped school today drove around two hours coming starbucks plan till library opens little less hour im hoping becoming engrossed book stop anything ive grown extremely clingy broke boyfriend week ago order try become independent again factors break up guess main one im pretty sure drove away one best friends thus clinging him smoked last night helped guess ive tried working done much used look forward future really care see point anymore feel like mess cant get things straightened out,1 +often lay bed night day dreaming previous attempt successful funeral would look like parents would say would even show up fake ones would repost dumb shit even tho dirty always wonder life would looked like actually gone idk comforting think about peace even tho know grieve years asking why even tho years told why weirdly comforting day dream,1 +briish post oi yeah mayte g walkin street yeah roadman ting comes us es like oh yeah ill snap ya mate like oh fink ard bruv wanna go chewsday night bruv funny story bit stewpid though innit fancy cuppa now,0 +know friendi friend mine started cutting furiously basically making feel guilt threat redflag nightly basis forced believing lost friends reality stopped talking everyone want go details unless asked know help him went cutting years ago really phase seeing someone else cant get immaturity act edit thank great advice figured throw detail left posted told honest opinion needs give people chance position one point would cut bring problem people try show need help sort like family me pains see like explained come talk cant help save him overcome time,1 +send horrific hentai find gore toddler whatever fuck want nothing tame like something actually disgusting gore preferred,0 +good reason feel like this personality makes difficult reach outmy head mess sure rambling pile garbage never talk anyone problems posting something like extremely uncomfortable me sure rethink decision make post delete havent able find help yet figure anything learned years reddit help area everything sure enough search guys are quick rundown me middle aged married kids successful dont remember feels like happy cant recall last time felt kind joy become really good faking around friends family flip switch head time social act happy make jokes play part make sure sadness leak spoil day anyone else exhausting sometimes work smile keep shit together hours straight im nice guy everyone depends get things done im nice guy everyone looks support advise im nice guy exhausted faking day long sit car breaking point get physically ill throw upthen flip switch time go home pretend everything fine get feeling everyone around jealous family dream wife beautiful kids amazing large home drive nice cars make good living area live in feels like costume covering reality feel like failed oldest child adult know resents me try force involved exhausting try best shield bullshit younger kids also feel like failing cant seem give attention deserve feel like hate it heard talking eachother night crushed little soul left think wife planning leave me told years felt trapped needed independence best support starting new business finally working going well always thought would make things better instead unease festered grown stronger feel it resents tell holding long enough set someplace go leaves me issues past always able flip switch put brave face whatever takes work out trying feel spent keep cracking up almost broke tears birthday party front kids simple dentist visit much almost started bawling making cup coffee after cant keep shit together normal situations hell something big business life sham feel like faking years moment someone going call bullshit seems rock solid everyone assumes kicking ass always razors edge balance feel like family here know quick family turn shut out become damn much want done everything already set everything up plan place put end things shielding friends family much possible wont look like redflag one would ever think did another tragic accident different others happen every day took large life insurance policy established trust children prepared documents attorney handle estate past simply plan place enough keep level anything drastic last month real struggle every single day it spoken wife feeling depressed wants therapy thats another mountain climb dont know energy make happen therapist years ago called set appointment last week refused book me dont recall ended therapy last time around must said done something horrible wont take back punch gut havent able make pick phone call another one quite frankly thought sitting therapists office makes feel ill uneasy dont even know ever helped made better faking everyone elses sake tldr exhausted tired sad want done,1 +songs probably dont know name part httpsyoutubeq_lrywaxs,0 +dont even want live anymoreof course everything come crashing tonight feel fucking hopeless like universe mocking fact barely friends fuck you wanted life good youre anything friend never wanted hear ever again seriously want kill myself day fucking awful feel awful want many stupid things dont even fucking care nobody else does i want it want get with want gone ive enough ive had enough heres hoping best dont wake tomorrow,1 +well okay maybe perfect pretty close movie jumped crime drama romantic goofball comedy back quickly way throughout seemed like two different movies played simultaneously joined end smoothly theater found bloody parts like scalping scene funny well threw up guess thats me greg kinear perfect soap opera actor ability perform overdramatic soap scenes right facial expressions voice intonations scenes betty seem like something sleepless seattle romantic comedy like that almost forget morgan freeman chris rock searching betty down morgan freemans fascination betty rather creepy considering could practically grandfather scenes conversing photograph definitely worth laughs chris rocks performance seems rather wooden moments renee zellweger sweet betty lovable waitress crude unfaithful husband treats like dirt unlikely would actually gotten job hospital without real credentials but hey movie go along it roommate rosa shines well woman cares betty quite know deal bettys sickness and lastly crispin glover fan his i naturally thought movie could funnier more one else style acting crispin has argument chris rock crispin sheriff soap opera hilarious guess im saying liked movie quite bit stomach blood violence lot foul language worth watch give plenty laughs,0 +please help friendmy friends family bunch incompetent assholes refuse acknowledge sisters multiple redflag attempts commit her sister would need commit want to friend lost living home right she spending year outside us cant anything help sister anything wemy friend do way get sister help right scared next time theres attempt redflag sister succeed cant anything stop family literally acknowledging problem im sorry wrong sub know else ask help please help friend sister,1 +wants free award lol got one lol best comment wholesome gets,0 +aunt uncle baby sat brother little molested brotherim th breakdown past year thing mother refuses acknowledge ever happened questions every single detail story problem maybe happened sees missed detail proof never happened uses berate insult me addition give answersfake answers happened say thing says liar lying attention never asked yet deal silence almost years finally come talk neither parents give shit would mess family dynamic ive seen shrinks worthlesssaid fault still nightmares supposed move life strangled aunt me fact relying parents everything cannot find job anywhere especially one allows move out feel like tortured way out,1 +im cuddling gf rn im happy im listening favorite music sleeping chest awesome feeling,0 +cant anymoreim tired trying happy pretending am im tired trying make friends turn friends barely get solitary one talk anymore hate job hate alone hate myself hate every ounce life dont think keep trying anymore,1 +thought feels commanded god almostmy life mine want with ive tried selfimprovement halfassedly still means nothing purpose world means nothing im kinda sorry friends dudes band suddenly leaving them deserve better time could never met died years ago grateful time got spend realize going hurt sooo maaannnnyyy people like lot know pretty much everyone knows likes me except select suppose none means anything im mostly tired wageslave race quit job years ago instead killing then basically considered long money lasts retirement time want die thing felt like amazing epiphany last night band practice thought lying redflag started believing god spirituality coincidences producer come last night mentioned engineer studio killed himself said something about the last ever did exactly considering new album were recording right now today realized end matter distraction kind person could live working company day live little bit end day weekends allocated vacation time sure id crush life want to give fuck entitledspoiledbratty sounds shit ton abilities plenty support people would absolutely willing help want it little myself im musician playing sitar gigging every while play trumpet keyboard yes time great band full awesome loving dudes totally deserve started fighting back tears there im decently talented drawing amp painting accomplished unique things woodworking google first last name playboy might find used do excellent support community part aa counselor thats great talk to handful females willing fuck could probably talk to also worked civil engineer years lol almost forgot that enjoyed teaching music lessons past even currently one prospective music teaching jobs interested in much do im capable smart person anyone meets me eventually tell im sure act smart notice really true likely ive gotten good dropping hints people know am satisfy ever inflated ego people like its sad much potential mean potential life allowed commit redflag cuz thats fucked thing say talentless dumb folk potential people like oh well dumbass much contribute good riddens lol sad last night felt like oh got this sure probably could want realize okay die morality nothing it im hurt anyone even though theres going serious collateral damage truly intention want experience anymore world good enough stick around even though much im still curious about better call saul came again media things whatever list distractions things curious accomplish abilities care anymore want completely reduce time accomplish things less nothing need work live maybe born better society ill take life sure one cares less controlling masses trying empower them one people power give shit world leaving children instead making rich corporations richer getting worse one less racist bigoted trump supporters actual power all thats world yall deserve frankly honestly trump supporter fucking die world would better place everyone would get yall quickly want honor somehow fucking punch every trump supporter know hard fucking can right face dick arm fucking charliehorse em leg cuz fuckers seriously fucked morals okay world leaders blatantly racist coming someone justify redflag seriously people currently if used since changed mind congratulations growing trump supporters think this greatest country world reason statement far fucking true mean get political kind things able overlook determine kind person are people rest guys choosing stick around for acceptance something pray aa accept theres options life work job live try much fun possiblehelp peopledont help people whatever work poor homeless maybe living welfare shelters pssht nah die somehow yourself shoot public place yourself peacefully whatever options have acceptable suppose people soon miss pray acceptance sad death say could prevented want help redflag inevitable ill tell ya getting guns easy woulda with yall might gotten juicy letter ive always torn gun control issue lol like want easy obtain kill myself want crazy people me them anyways im hanging highest ceiling house consume nice bottle whiskey money check forged parents maybe chinese food last meal know im leaving this little bored guess waiting new friendly kitchen cook lunch special greekrave finish gyro spinich pie dumplings got back btw greekrave forgot make spinach pie dumplings lol imagine see news like oh shit cant believe messed order killed it lol im glad cheerful mood this redflag sad anyone looking advice accomplish redflag helps things would shameful come back from like stealing mom last drinks meals going ahead drilling ceiling hang noose course correctly calculating load bearing heightsdistances pork gyro boneless spare rib general tsos amazing btw might get egg roll lol ugh great fucking advertisement businesses unknowingly chosen last meal dude good lord stuffed content really feel lived full life experienced experience travel friendship career accomplishments pride art wonderful loving relationships long lasted many different crafts facets life offer enough me it im posting soon climb ladder anyone curious later this check instagram see folks tagging lol might nice drama yall cant figure account really probably kill lol worry trying talk it im already gone feel free talk amongst yaselves maybe want imagine talking me,1 +stuff weve experienced years back probably forgotten years line lets make post official time capsule random shit probably remember mortgages insurmountable debt always look back memorable moments ill go first one time middle school friend walking around neighborhood see friends wanted play nearby park were walking notice one neighbors walking dog now im dog whisperer convinced dog chasing slaves past life point time one black kids neighborhood dog tried jump atbark instead anyone else every time dog would go me neighbor would look fault started switching side street saw walking dog time though dog particularly irritated seeing me dog mad anger elevated saw another dog walker coming street still standing friends doorstep like could see cogs turning dogs head like trying figure wreak havoc demondog immediately starts jumping dog nice dog walker lets go leash doggy diablo chasing dog around unfortunately first dog walker sharp holds onto dogs leash whole time gets dragged around street felt like longest seconds life dogs calmed went separate ways first dog walkers clothes little roughed think fine even lost little bit pride day friend go us park lucky enough witness looney tunesesque moment would stay us while tldr asked friend could play park said no,0 +im thinking againnobody gives fuck im tired,1 +finished writing last words time eventually comesive dealing thoughts years gotten point dont even feel happiness sadness anymore havent told anybody know due deep rooted trust issues fear telling secrets fear burden others definitely cant tell parents im even sure tell friends want able confide someone close honestly think possible demons mind cloudy right honestly want let win point im confused empty lonely right now even though good people life dont think anybody truly lean give shoulder cry on end day dont think commit soon as im still young thought always mind feel like one day thoughts end consuming me,1 +suicidal escaping desert island corona overive genuinely thoughts going grid completely corona situation over picture personally built raft going foreign country which id fly to island human travelled to id inform mum everyone else abandoned me months departure im thinking going holiday point im burden anyway obviously need research further,1 +supposed things cant ever get betteri avenues life skills talents one would care extended amount time dropped struggle relate understand others getting jealous hateful inside them im financial burden whos incapable holding job im pathetic failure drop alot heartache problems would solved everyone thing stopping fear happens after im afraid waking next day dying feel alone lost confused know anymore,1 +bfs mocking cried end arrow season lmaoo watching last episodes together i didnt watch episodesseasons started crying end last episode hes mocking lmaoo,0 +im loosing hope humanity feel like dont place world way western world live canada going leaving baffled lonely and frankly pissed off world full misinformation blatant lies one wants honest conversations everyone wants right live world full deeply bigoted ideology want make language hurt feelings illegal already feel like life pointless days pass feel removed society none makes sense me world doesnt make sense desperately want out alone this part wants pure protest shitshow thats happening,1 +friends house thanksgiving watched dvd movie eddie monroe ive fan indie films almost years i loved brothers mcmullen impressed good movie is friend works magno sound told us movie shot super photography good looked though mm shoot furthermore music combined fred carpenters direction art storyline original led ending surprised us watchingvery cool acting entire cast good especially actor played uncle benny amazing film nice holiday treat delighted one first view movie many seeing future,0 +lazyi feel like im lazy asshole wanting die feel overwhelmed absolute endless ways life isnt worth time think easy would exist wouldnt worry endless cycle work gain nothing scrape nothing like work nothing gained anything nothing going show it way system designed theres escape im lower never hope anything that literally way society works makes never able live comfortably bother,1 +film rocksso hardbr br the cameosthe drug referencesthe sharingthe lovethe rocking jack kyle first met tim robbins actors gang theater company years ago knew legacy awesome music hilariousness would ensue door door rocking paid offbr br although anyone enjoys classic rock get major kick film would definitely recommend renting original hbo episodes local video store going see film cinema theyre tenacious masterworks dvd available rent pretty much every video store inside jokes film refer earlier episodes add something enjoyable overall viewing experience,0 +without negotiation expected go high school full weeks go college full weeks go work full weeks that retire little bit freedom die thought makes escape bubble open new things want go outside unless necessary high redflag also escape excessively unhealthy eating hobbiesi often want neet without money problems life would perfect feel like always recently feeling like lot whyhow eventually go passionate work know screwed point birth on also care changinghaving impact world making lot strangers happy lot people see motivation passion job cannot see way people care build relationship ones want something for billions people inventors system probably want people ask questions ever consider change want us obedient cogs society wish automated society capitalism infinite resources maybe mined planet machine build anything basic molecules everything automated machines everybody want people want work replace robot get paidbecause enjoyment want money all maybe like allowance put bank account algorithm everybody gets allowance every month enough buy things todays rich people buy enough let one person deplete entire stock something like luxury cars buy from want algorithmic system backed robots so buy car person gets money money removed balance points spend month robots deliver car housewhy keep living survival could future live enjoyment enough freedom life,1 +selfish wanting end lifebeen feeling suicidal got around purely people would get upset understand get called selfish loads things wanting end life understand people thinking selfish ending seems like option sometimes go things go nobody else understands dont even see good future people bring like gonna change things dont see happening sometimes get right edge attempting end realise fuck calm myself ive never believed thought id never get far im still daily things keep putting im scared ill get far ill end killing without hesitation lacking support right ,1 + dance backyard boy looking super fine corduroy,0 +im failure everything tired abuse since kid looking end pain soon need talk human tooi failed everything im years old failed abused age mom age present mom step dad remember telling teachers school nothing ive never friends entire life remember told one teachers going kill sixth grade told get back work mom pulled school punishment th grade made sign papers dropping out whenever went work always yelled screamed work fast food retail always deal bullies workplace see much ugly me ugly fat disgusting easy pick people like me went got ged twoyear degree joined new career field me ive deal nothing bullies workplace understand mechanical stuff became cad operator like wanted money move out end known failure whole life everyone hits yells screams calls failure workplace failure son remember trying draw something boss made fun said stupid join different career field ive worked seven jobs career field fired them seven jobs career field time span eight nine months deal people calling failure work saying cant draw need change career field im sorry even want work career field wanted money could move out matter anymore end worked since october work career field anymore hate looking mirror seeing fat ugly monster want know like friend ive never entire life friends mom would never allow friends kid adult never learned make friends im honestly scared people cuz know everyone hurt me like said see someone fat ugly judge them everyone judges people even admit it one wants friends someone makes hunchback notre dame look like elvis presley im years old im trapped hell last week stepdad got mad something think accidentally broke tool took me bruises scars body im years old keep getting hurt yelled at used punching bag never held another humans hand years ive eat bucket whenever eat whatever leftovers put bucket animals eat bucket too sorry im rambling much talk spoken another human months mean know like little kid sleep outside dog house yearold im even allowed bed house room stay day night sleep outside im always scared stay room hate it im trapped like animal want death release prison want die please someone come kill me im much coward kill myself im scared itll hurt ill give address please come kill me one ill im scared succeeding guess make coherent timeline idk know start mom step dad home soon cant computer theyre here login late tonight stay late anyone wants address let know make quick one ill figure use one guns tomorrow know tomorrow itll make easier figure use gun kill myself,1 +moved new area living hotel kind great mindset housing market crap always crap us unless millionaire job market says we hiring applications seem gain tractioni maybe account previous landlord avoiding calls texts security supposed get back car deciding todays day going die think reason cat her would gone looooong time ago anyone ever wish went bed never woke again,1 +agree best fruit foods green yellow orange ones think otherwise wrong,0 +get panic attacks someone talk really long time messages again like actual panic attacks heart palpitations feeling chills trembling sweating that im sure normal,0 +guys build minecraft really know put im really bored,0 +im going make spaghetti tonight hope good ive never done know,0 +depressed people get assisted redflag i ask id like die id prefer painful prolonged fail,1 +ive feeling really demotivated lately soooo long story short saw classmate mine win basketball tournament sending snaps snapchat screaming celebrating jumping around got really sad think know im ever gonna achieve something like life like were still winning baksetball tournament kind big deal like play type sport im literally sitting house playing video games wasting summer life got really sad saw whole team celebrating jumping around probably best friends im alone nothing like even wanna get bed mornings feel sooo demotivated wanna anything anyone help anyone felt get rid feeling,0 +know anymorea quick couple things wall text im undoubtedly going type tonight first off using first names intend show friend hopefully provide support hes good guy hes provided emotional support past second sort rant life also trying get help comprehending whats wrong me alright go lets this would like begin wall text pretentious assholeish statement think im smarter and far better spoken person know personally aware much loser sound saying that mean it snobbish way genuinely feel though better understanding people emotion reality friends feel one unique quality turned horribly cynical negative person serious problems finding things funny anymore default looking something analyzing it despite knowing meant humorous used extremely funny reason great friends do year junior year high school shit hit fan life went reaaaally downhill me recognize decline know stop it used funny outgoing kid anymore instead im emotional wreck reasons hard time comprehending let alone explaining three close friends gerry don kanaii theyre funny great people used like too quote gerry you used funny one kanaii replaced year three us hang occasion often not get invited normal weekend us consist waiting text back see facebook tagging talking much fun had fact lunch yesterday the four us share booth went awesome party openly admit declining invite to feel ive become infamous third wheel or rather fourth situation suppose friends namely kanaii especially gerry tell care believe them think understand tried telling kanaii feel days told need lose weight brings next point ive never real attractive guy fact im good looking guy all weight problem makes worse were talking morbid fatalbert territory here noticeable enough makes quite unattractive socially awkward hold intelligent conversation best them comes someone opposite sex trying make small talk cant it get aware appearances end unable look eye conversing often sit awkward positions ive convinced help make look thinner direct attention away chronically shitty haircut girlfriend despite physical quirks or sorta least im really sure call anymore started first relationship girl someone id strong crush nearly years so finally got go me anyone would do got attached now last months ive really realized little mean compared feelings her though may sound like much realization really messed up think might insane thats whole nother story probably bother telling fuck like rabbits help feel better rue day may th actually graduates shes senior im year younger leaves alone goes college helped steadily increase progression declining sense humor fuckgiving feel desensitized lot time things impact ways used to whether positive negative fun playing video games brand new gaming computer cant find joy anymore completely unable motivate anything school literally pass opportunity easy assignment worth lots points simply want work know smart am know could finish work dont know why friends know feel sorta know broken thanks girl not really fault per se plays strong role depression think realize serious is think redflag every day much carry out realistic means ending painlessly quickly better might make go away think would ever go familys gerrys sake i tell everything suspect would hurt killed myself still wonder real reason telling want someone tell make better know easy thing do making someone feel good someone could provide insight fix life please do theres much more im tired finish need sleep views tomorrow ill finish school also apologize trouble may trying decipher way speaking tend saytype things exactly way im thinking them forget format others make sense them see red lines words normal number typos reduced not ill fix tomorrow tldr im probably overly dramatic hormones getting best me feel hopelessly lost know life probably hurt myself figured since still think it rredflagwatch proper location this cookies anyone read whole thing,1 +homosexuality sin cares bible says so also says forgive sins dont tell sin,0 +close friend mine admitted feeling suicidallike title reads stranger depression experience redflags two people close life absolutely terrified friend although honored confiding me desperately dont want say wrong thing give wrong advice somebody please help me know cant save anyone hate see people love suffering like this,1 +im done everythingi want alive nothing want ever accomplish actually able im everyone life fucking beyond relief ive bullied life forced go smaller school ive never actual friends one true friend gone dad mentally abused know parents divorced dad forcing get fucking job dont oblige anything says takes anyone phone playstaion makes fucking depressed already am today fucking says dreams ambitions life fucking told true dreams would fucking laugh like always does force go something else want become sort entertainer like making people laugh like make people happy tell say go theater school way lifestyle dont want fucking do goes behind back talking girlfriend behind back hes saying shit mom mom beliving everything fucking says dad online help thing dont oblige hes gonna take away every electronic thing have totally fix depression fuck cant live like anymore,1 +opinion meme stealing i saw post rmemes someones meme got stolen would told straight didnt want get yelled entire sub meme stealing isnt bad memes meant stolen thats get spread around although nice give credit nobody really cares got meme know people say memes like art would want people steal art theyre right wrong memes something make yes want credit put watermark somewhere like artists usually also memes edited pictures ive seen people turn subtitles movie screenshot scene put hashtag relatable caption it art takes time take hours even days finish something,0 +time itive several failed attempts several hospital stays ive tried work hard get better know what want go stage ive nothing left sorry ones im leaving behind honestly care much im sorry hurting you know me something want something finally make happy,1 +remember going drive inn parent sister grade still kid drive closed years later film still lingers memory adult movie kid finds entertaining mark excellence hoffman one hollywoods better actors film proves it like billy put ice cream scene remember sctv version film factory myself remember joe flairty crying please email like sctv skit bad film all story father son touching intertaining love part hoffman talks killroy streets change worth second watch ,0 +set sitcom world alight father ted arthur matthews graham linehans next creation forgotten gem bbc called hippies although created pair six scripts written arthur matthews alonebr br set london ray purbs hippy editor anarchist magazine friends flatmate laid back cannabis smoking alex girlfriend feminist jill none bright hugobr br simon pegg superb ray superb everything in sitcom feel citizen smith it ray much like wolfie smith trying beat society failing miserably last sitcom going released dvd march cant wait buy it yet repeated terrestrial television memories good sitcom yet remember two episodes really clearly first opener protesting hippies thought great start ray goes protest sandpaper episode hippy dippy hippies think episode quite clear memory police sadly sitcom got negative reaction viewers i cant think why bbc commissioned another series arthur matthews decided negative reaction oh well cant wait dvdbr br best episode hippy dippy hippies series episode ,0 +neither someone suffers depression someone lives fullfiling life discribe would say statue indifferencei have long time contemplated argued debated question why ending life even though see point living on like thing material nonmaterial stopping me why is suicide takes much effort is lack resources end life is right opportunity is basic survival instinct stopping me think not mundane reasons easily overcomei possed question again come answers again retorted answers again rejected answers possed question againso what cannot seem come answer sparks flame burn doubts answer satiate gap curiosityi feel uncomfortable indiffrent nature voilated annoying honestly need know quickly end unreasonable life ending lifewhat actually stopping me,1 +always feel wayso im definatly attention guess need help someone talk man tough time lately seems like ill look back everything life seems like big failure go back youngest memories kid even like wow always bottom life dont look bad either im outgoing sociable too would even consider life party man people spent minute head theyd real shocker dont know whats wrong cant stop blaming hating everything negative goes seems like willpower either get ahead constantly feel like shit starts getting good boom something bad happens like constant feeling failure makes want give actually want commit redflag want feel better stop telling im better world dead,1 +cook excited us try food made something eat instead disappointed frustrated would eat food feel like force go eat food even though hungry like horrible disappointed waited eat food instead making mine like feel like prisoner whatever want reassure crazy need advice,1 +thinking killing myselfim thinking killing tonight theres one reason why yeah sure else do reason im posting know else tell,1 +curiosity odd thing many yall know raclette is gay filler gay filler gay filler swiss filler gay filler gay filler,0 +need help suicidal personso throw away obviously friend iv know months met coffee shop sitting alone sat there seats looked like could use company talked liked lot stuff exchanged emails time iv known him early within first weeks attempted redflag three times hopsitlized three times first time released hours after next time held days last time minor but hes two weeks parents able get signed out said friends could really use one talking least little everyday month ago started going bit differently anytime hang him would send fury would scream swear curse out hours would text call crying begging go away sorry iv dancing egg shells worried upsetting him getting worse worse hes pretty much made afraid say anything fear get upset freak hurt again days ago slipped going tell someone else feelings them lost every shit had finally got reanswer phone tell hour life awful good thing consequences hes going kill two weeks time isnt anything time one attempts called police it rushed er time cut wrist week ago now hotline counslers pretty much said wait call police actually something instead saying will life become hell im loss told fault dont care someone even though friend says thats stupid iv atempted tell family falling deaf ears says meet tomorrow one last time rages afraid going something me anyone give advice pardon typos spelling errors grammer english first language,1 +finally got gf kidding really think someone earth would look say yeah wanna him bruh dont even friends holy shit need stop easily fooled random people sub,0 +feel like might wrong place ask cannot find answer anywhere online zopiclone alcohol lethal combination,1 +ight thats catch titling post omlll said yessss saying randomass shit like moms gonna make idk boiled cock ball torture castrate flaccid penis understand,0 +think life overmy husband left real explanation treats like enemy love him cant see way go on obviously horrible person,1 +getting notification google classroom stresses jeez give week assignments week didnt wifi jerks cant wait move start honestly now start person wednesday,0 +tell interestspassion currently am dont want sleep want learn shit probably never need know tell interest passion know about forgive im slow want hear it one stupid car know everything about history gay ice skaters way trading cards made dont care want know understand youre interested in,0 +single father raised past decade sorry hope next life get stronger daughter deserve better sorry apology,1 +guys defeated cyber demon without cheats unrelated subject also weird favourite games owned company though,0 +one straight like damn everyone cute girls,0 +mother might covid shes miles away mother dies im committing redflag guaranteedok little myself born raised small poor country south america father abusive absent mother stay home mom one sister ive living us past years sister living europe man husband met online time thing life europe husband cares little parents me last time saw six years ago doctor trained home country middle becoming licensed us one test go cant take covid medicine brutal chances matching residency slim time passed since graduated medical school live wonderful man takes care loves much ive known years unemployed feel worthless feel like chance making anything life gone future used feel like promise feels like threat somewhat ok health chronic back pain need surgery cant get corona might also nerve damage pain might go away even surgery long without proper treatment doctors saw first ignored complaints suggestions getting imaging hunt pcp would order mri back herniated disk compressing nerves dont know life without pain feels like everyday pain days good others bad pain never leaves mother shes experienced tragedy tragedy brother brutally murdered mothers day years ago parents died saw grieving death never recovered shes living alone home country shes complaining covid like symptoms country lockdown even wanted wouldnt able go see one last time flights honestly ive thinking killing however would never want put mother that always told would kill dies love want spare suffering life hasnt bad im tired needs met im pain career worked years might never materialize plan shoot head inside rental car parking lot level trauma hospital call police warn hospital go ahead harvest organs donation wanna die every day wake up first thing say oh comes nightmare want die im useless im broken im pain want over,1 +pedos sub ok ok someone explain many posts pedos recently drama wave pedos,0 +hi everyone year old male nurse working three years now diagnosed major depression high school along redflag tourette syndrome battling suicidal thoughts ever since hospitalized inpatient psychiatric facility three times cannot remember inpatient actually helped though receiving electroconvulsive therapy ect little year two acute series done ect ruined memory seem helping longer treatment done monday already feeling severely depressed suicidal tuesday night know doi could commit again brothers white coat ceremony coming need pto able fly see it also want family worry love reason killed yet also even know worth it inpatient three times already suicidal thoughts still there couple good things going life though great job extremely loving family almost always willing put call know helps depressed mood told everyone talk regularly my brother sister aunt uncle dad mom feeling talking helps improve mood however struggling feeling starting call often want bother them make things worse therapist currently maternity leave substitute therapist same top depression redflag severe unable make friends friend since high school friends twin brothers friends get flustered around people barely talk work friends know quiet guy know everything feels like much tired frustrated ready everything over feel like suicidal adult life,1 +stop myselfi tried die using zipties things looked mirror head turning purple cut them dont know did want dead indecisive,1 +close losing itim close ending it im fucking sad depressed feel like failure everything need help messaged therapist like week ago okay never answered dont know do need help,1 +went date last night ended with found girl dating app turned real i know shocker go college days talking asked wanted go date said yes immediately went get food i saw people old school tried avoid lol refused let pay food we used money school gave us money per say sat ate went outdoor area outdoor area sat talked literally anything hour eventually benches sitting became uncomfortable started walking around campus talking anything even breaks conversation smile always inspired think new subject continued another hour this said needed go back dorm laundry we hours insisted walk home cold somehow turned dropping place got car asked dates ended this first ever date said however wanted end reached hug awkwardly hugging center console jeep unexpectedly kissed cheek shocked never happened before realize kissed back given legit hug rookie shock second date scheduled saturday see guys go date someone anyone can,0 +wtf james janisse house do must something,0 +used think redflag realized death nothingnessmy reasons thinking redflag might silly others reasons boredom mediocrity young everybody including myself believed great potential success family circumstances prevented reaching potential live normal life struggling like people felt equated failure wanted die instead work getting by thats saw future felt worth living still enjoy little things though comfortable bed watching favorite shows good food treasured friends kill myself what nothing i unlike others want redflag healthy pain would really want exchange little things nothingness even times burdened regrets self pity still things worth living recently realized big things life like successful career expensive travels amazing able release suicidal thoughts little things little things exchange nothingness death,1 +le conseguenze dellamore is beautifully made film takes small carefully positioned steps towards ending need savoured order enjoyed contrasting landscapes tightly enclosed world hero inhabits taken director controlled moment enter hotel we like hero never escape suffocating intensity paradoxical monotony criminally driven mafia world film resists mafia stereotypes whilst revelling makes successful concrete grave inevitable brutal executions overwhelming maleness laid bare exposed are brutality business more life part corporate machine organised crime love living self family others hero indeed hero gives life sake touch beautiful barmaid resolution misery suffered neighbours hotel order escape decorative prison consequences love indeed beautiful brutal time see it,0 +dont understandi dont understand feeling breaking sb loved heard lot songs talk break ups always get confusedif sb could tell would grateful since dont experience lot emotions,1 +great compendium interviews excerpts form films late sixties early s counter movement big studio films late sixties directed ted demme obviously labor love films period gives short shrift masterpieces timesbr br many filmmakers period influenced truffaut antonioni fellini bergman course john cassavetes unfortunately documentary logging minutes short film rich interviews opinions filmmakers people interviewed are martin scorsese francis coppola robert altman peter bogdonovich ellen burstyn roger corman bruce dern sydney pollack dennis hopper jon voightbr br bruce dern moment truth says jack nicholson may good looking stars came interesting summarizes areas period filmmaking american historybr br the filmmakers dealing lack funding studios expressing unconventional attitudes politics sex drugs gender race issues americas involvement overseas conflicts like vietnam warbr br there great interview francis coppola saying got chance make the conversation producers knew trained roger corman make movie nothing bankrolled filmbr br another interview jon voight directed hal ashby coming home clear antiwar film crippled soldier immersing back society facing battle voight talks working methods helped achieve emotional telling point ashby said rehearsal take ended take used film better unrehearsed drained freshness overrehearsedbr br there also many fine excerpts al pacinos breakthrough film the panic needle park interviews dennis hopper making easy rider interviews sydney pollack making filmsbr br all documentary fine jumping point film lover wants see great examples new voices film like seventies many sundance folks film made big splash unaware much independent film maker today owes films john cassavetes milos foreman william friedkin roger cormanbr br rent favorite shop least perk films may seen enjoy today amazoncom little want buy right out,0 +made japanese friend keep forgetting use simple english brain defaults complex words realize oh shit might know word,0 +anyone living dysfunctional family alone live family im one sons youngest child tied twin sister seen still see abuse father mother brothers sister brothers even hope whatever stops eventually know around someone know well feel awkward sitting around well thats kind fucked family everytime sit other someone says something stupid without thought even completely wrong another one calls out argument starts one raises voice calls names fight starts everybody left bad taste mouth happened countless times never gets better every damn time one us near other feel like heart going explode stress anxiety say got used it im starting feel like handle grow up hope happiness love determination one day find true freedom peace mind hope turn fine find purpose life,0 +good lonely wednesdayhey im one worst days long time usual network support unavailable usually id text brother hed reply something interesting funny weve fight left existential dread cant stop drinking smoking imagining therapist vacation cant even bear thought looking new one would kindly post something interestingfunnykind help get shitty wednesday,1 +end ropei woke m wife f crying complimenting women messages gave props them flirt offer form relationship sexual interest jas going years now year done shit before honestly marriage sexless romance lacking since infant son died threatened leave looking women yes know bad husband blah blah trying explain someone else go one left would literally reason living would lose stepdaughter love stepkid much full blood son lose them almost certainly join son next life attractive man nothing offer anyone else world lose family itll end me cant stop panic attacks way nagged cheating years without much glancing another woman done before would again never stop this killing stay ill die go,1 +rooftopim rooftop right taking cat walk always like place mostly lonely calm see city around im really sad right now like imagine jumping splatting ground again shooting here ive even chosen spot want sit shoot myself like fantasize moment people going find me loud going be much going hurt probably brain ground come everyday take cat walk like imagine silence fantasize world without people suddenly everyone disappeared earth come every night see stars moon shadow like imagine ghost afterlife sometimes specially bad days climb fence think cat going take it one going take care im gone die hunger go back wish could talk anyone tire people understandable cannot expect anyone put shit problems wish anybody either sometimes go online listeners sometimes cant freely talk freely think either call cops ban certain way speech sites wish kind robot ai talk feel like im burden everyday even one says see getting tired everyday talk not im like scratch record like many people least talk hear even one reads feel like im getting little bit,1 +happy right searched lgbtq rights canada happen one lgbtq friendly countries world also non binary legal gender option conversion therapy banned people think canada fake blown away awesome government population b,0 +noticed clothes either black white except one pink tshirt cause eboy one beige tshirt black white lol,0 +im addicted penis need guy likes im addicted cock wants suck constantly,0 +always thought son donald trump normal kid holy fuck kid absolutely crazy,0 +jesus freaking christ bro messed up scrolling comments posts new literally guy defending nzis saying nothing wrong murdering literal millions people know small minority guys gals like people lead astray easily brainwashed things see online calling jews judaism opposition makes freaking scared,0 +delightful piece cinema storytelling simple effective way cinema visual media igor used full potential young restless man boards train destination mind one compartments meets girl words exchanged laundry washing taken ride peculiar characters situations two leads perfectly cast unique features tell story needs words,0 +arbitrary existence arbitrary manhave ever wanted roller coaster bad jumped half way ride rational question one may ask inquiry would if wanted roller coaster normal thing wait ride finished last forever anyways question reason ive staving ever present urge kill years rationale behind basically no matter shit life is might well stick around ride stay forever end still shit get wanted anyways die same death inevitable stick around see theres anything good ___ many consider redflag theyre depressed angry heartbroken psychotic hurt im depressed im heartbroken im egoshattered disillusioned world im cliche case victim bullying im stuck dead end job im overweight bad life family great worst world no me me theres point meaningful reason live anymore might surprise coming relatively attractive going year old guy average intelligence well life grew supportive family meal stomach every night however truth remains ive lacked meaningful reason exist many years now life somewhat xenophobic apathetic introvert socially physically isolated past peers lived small rooms life rather world ive never sexual let alone intimate relationship another human never kissed girl sex etc ive never best friend good friend ever temporary acquaintances pass time cant confide connect human whatsoever whether casual deeply intimately personal level dropped junior year high school back december considered dropping life around time well never did since then ive done nothing linger nothing living mother watching youtubeplaying video games mother would homeless lastly years developed mild agoraphobia younger things bothered slightly things honestly bother today except never sex part fuck wants die virgin part much im telling things give vague idea situation ___ people say somethingyearolds you whole life ahead you regards meaningful things could given theyre still young well see many meaningful things horizon things common people live would derive significant purpose exist from moving mothers house always liberating thing towards becoming independent adult short term goal ships problems different location figure alone all wherever go are however family worst world annoying badgering verbally abusive honestly want peace quiet cant living them suppose moving reason live for something live long enough see happen losing virginity basic short term right passage really mean anything anyone yourself means something value losing growing first place so would kind pathetic reason continue existing would lose vcard eating lead suppose still though hey dying virgin would suck ass ill probably hire escort bottom heart always hated children thing clicks adults brains make kids seem cute never clicked mine way hell would ever start family anyone let alone children also id make terrible father world already half billion people fucking other need bred like cattle plus im sterile must fate finding partner living solely them like said before truly connect human beings regardless gender even could get significant other kind life would facade built lies false intimacy false empathy eyes relationship pretty small pathetic reason stay alive devoid much purpose procreation pleasure former cant physically could latter meaningless me terms jobcareerwork worth living for always interested science mathematics always wanting improve technology systems human civilization replace current systems better ones ive also always loved space truth im means genius said before im high school drop out dropped stupid reasons like stupid person would stupid either point is im one uneducated young man large meaningful positive impact civilization way could would solid reason exist writing this traveling world big goal aspiration many people traveling nature humanity since origins ive always wanted travel see whats world time costs money could ever afford im monolingual see places free computer without deal people ive come realize world simply world really matter long relatively secured safe procreate reason exist ive got first two least like many others could cling corporate career somewhere world climb ladder societies perceived definition success chasing things really value becoming another useless unneeded cog blind machine corporate america no im pretty sure id kill let come shit military ah military theres always good old military jarheads low lifes zealous patriots bigshothighschoolfootballplayers people looking feed stable life sociopaths warmongering savages sign become troublemaking pawns mercy machinations governments give fuck whether live burn suppose im feeling vindictive join seem many fuckers world take time comes but nah seems like empty existence well patriotism propaganda ranks say think ill stick blowing brains instead chancing task extremist sandmonkey shouting allahuakbar theres simple pleasurelife majority humanity lifeforms follow one lets baser biological drives towards catharsis ecstasy reason exist course eventually leads addiction whatever vice may be booze pot hard drugs gambling hookers video games etc although chasing pleasure natural structure life pleasure means end pointing organism right direction survival pleasure also empty live pleasure would hollow life that but hell cant pretend past years life naturally fell back it truthfully practically leaves eyes glazed thinking about unable find clarity mind lack reason exist one thing even consciouslymentally you like exist all top off part stupid violent egotistical arrogant short sighted warmongering cowardly fearful basicpleasuredriven species destined self destruction anyways humanity corrupt rich flourish exist mostly pleasure backs majority everyone else war religion genocide torture rape peace little get bored all war genodice etc small percentage humanity actually greatly intelligent turning wheels progress least species described freeloading small amount intelligent people world knowing this im sure id want either general category ___ so quick recap pleasure pain meaningless hate children sterile connect well people let alone intimately cant largely contribute civilization positive way fuck corporate america fuck military war fuck government fuck humanity existing disgusting thing atrocities commits im night right writing article nearly am early saturday morning im writing im existential crisis im existential crisis mother cant afford freeload anymore which means ill move soon get job brother passed away yesterday sudden heart attack brother friend ___ so im sitting chair typing end article unemployed sources income virgin uneducated way college high school drop out living mother takes care children living somehow forgot mention takes care children things hate without car without license brotherless living arbitrary life purpose reason desire live beyond instinct cant stop asking myself ___ really stay pointless roller coaster till end take quick way off either way anything happens game plan follows get laid really hot girl move mothers house continue linger life dignity eat lead my house ___ guys think id love hear opinions ive got nothing else do,1 +test made dm post saying guy dms one saying im girl fucking dms jfc simps,0 +went get skeleton went walmart get foot realistic skeleton pm got halloween section saw out started playing linkin park song we tried hard got far end even matter im extremely heartbroken passenger seat lie barren halloween cant keep grudge walmart radios perfect timing guess ill survive,0 +devil knows dead starts promisingly setting simple heist goes awry told varying perspectives in rashomon style around hour mark sidney lumet transforms film something much sum parts eventually morphs multifaceted family drama exploring full realm human emotionsrelations story comes chilling climaxbr br as case lumet manages coax exceptional performances starstudded cast without notion overacting hyperbole philip seymour hoffman one best roles complex mysterious interesting character oftentimes dwarfs ethan hawke plays brother hank thats say hawke bad fact quite adequate troubled role suits style marisa tomei excellent relatively short appearance the fact bares flesh adds this albert finneys character andy hanks father intriguing opinion deserved bit screentime amy ryan also performs job adequatelybr br before devil knows dead exceptional movie proves lumet still near top game apparent twilight illustrious career many characteristics trademarks appear here least involves use characters infused killer script no pun intended smart dialogue pacing decent score devil knows dead mustsee truly underrated gem stars out enter top highly 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similar age interests you really hard time waking up sleeping going trough another day feel like would wake endure hell existence would overlife seems social net start building since childhood accumulate key experiences right time friends true friends first kiss first teenage sexual relation etci experienced crucial milestones feel dead inside also multiple botched eye surgeries left one eyes conjunctiva permanently red people feel even uncomfortable near thanks oddly red eye never part world torments every single waking moment,1 +ill answer whatever im bored httpsmimgurcomaghpjev dm want im m,0 +today pretty wild far driving classes tyre moms car burst took around half hour also homework quickly wrapped went shower finally chilled bit ill taking classes hour whew,0 +im tired lonely im whole life ive girlfriends none ever stick around long enough actually love them gets really tiring lonely time im calling subreddit help please shame this im gonna look girlfriend subreddit sure best 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today,0 +ramble ive feeling down emotional sparks including depression often come reason ill think different world could committed redflag unfortunately things much worse background yearold girl whereas hormones definite possibility situation theres another issue thats occuring alongside unfortunately mother lost home might add horrible money put financial hole nowhere put dogs dad house minutes away fiance refuse take dogs attempt find home dogs take them creates large ruckus entire family im middle cant anything matter try also emotionally attached dogs horrible cant give away cant solve family problems extra info also think mom bipolar mentally ill way cant deal family cant deal giving dogs ive thought much easier would die,1 +ive got argument zoom feminist arguing applies genders constitution does formal instances constitution formal wants keep arguing,0 +feel terribleat point want die even know wrong anymore want cut,1 +anime conspiracy make go bankrupt hygiene companies saw it 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martin luther king chill i want get oreo mcflurry eat die yall cant cryptic shii know ur mom gay morse code das end rope i slapped namjoons ass sounded like screenshot the raw sexual power emanating image keep caroline warm do yall play ur wii circumcised uncircumcised i come damn spotify immediately assaulted megamind ass he fears bro bro intimacy im gonna get masters psychology find girlfriend fight god target warzone market district safe space namjoon see foot bed sleep paralysis did fuck mom mr mime dudusu im sans duduusuus im sans undertake i slapped ass uh pure titanium whos hottest member big time rush hey everyone wanted let know our teacher looks like keebler elf i used smart man like ffucking smart dude like nd grade hit education different cant even read pros driving alone play first forty five seconds less know better solid hour cons driving alone regret fear loneliness danger road long hard treacherous ur honda alone why talking nipples pinterest ladies gays the shooter came our principal took one varsity football trophies smashed ground screamed scatter met stork today effervescent paul ddijubluhlachberrais if wanna clap ass song imma clap ass the way interact order feel safe telling think look like lizard in opinion imagine much magical life would saliva hydrated lips instead completely decimating girls cannibalistic tendencies some guy buzzfeed tried green bean first time said spicy laughed hard cried james blunt voice hr bthfl carolien b like mans whore i see exo da stanky legg this getting weird fuck entire conversation found made ate hot dog feel like next step going throwing hot dog am good fucking night everyone you get stds get tested motto documentary because much respect coleslaw much respect stanky leg richard printed process paper wrong turned around said fuck richard even thinking heart sank this spiderverse spidersona stupid thick peter bit radioactive thot killed venom clapping asscheeks hard soundwave dematerialized hi im wiggles fox believe earth disk hannah baker shares ass skinwalker i want throw pavement las vegas strip hard permeate quantum space it claps ass kissin u miranda cosgrove losing job tickle elmo true spirit christmas a room called clown room mirror nothing else door closes swiss miss instant piss my bro baby congrats bro dope baby pregnancy get hit car bc refuse walk crosswalk thats painted rainbow libs the beat loose slimey love it man pure heart dumb ass,0 +girl liked girl like every guy likes also big flirt everyone me full year since last crush ive finally trying get back crushing gamei know sounds cringe idk sign slight interest like im homeschooled relationships flirting really hard im coming ask help,0 +got far cry thats post screw mods screw mods screw mods screw mods screw mods,0 +dying redflagive seen impact redflag friends family seems inherently selfish choosing end ones life regardless impact would care you many ways seeing intentional deaths others affected ive known cared lot followed suit said early death result tragic accident obviously preplanned decision seems somehow less traumatic would leave behind honestly say thought process lead careless decisions wreckless driving ignoring medication excessive drinking usually ending evening secretly hoping wake morning falling asleep envisioning scenario days time someone discovers corpse want subject family redflag want keep going do,1 +cansado de esta mierdame decid escribir esto ya que nunca compartido mis pensamientos ms profundos con nadie creo que hacerlo aliviara un poco incluso si nadie lee esto estoy cansado de vivir hace mucho tiempo que mi nica esperanza es morir en un accidente algo por el estilo simplemente quiero seguir viviendo sin un propsito siendo un intil en todo todo aquello que gusta hacer apestar en ello es una mierda sabes tengo problemas para socializar con la gente la poca gente que logra quererme termino hacindoles dao siempre estoy cansado de siempre dejarme pisotear por todos pesar de querer cambiar en serio querer e intentarlo logro hacerlo supongo que slo soy un cobarde una de las principales razones por las cuales ya quiero vivir es que jams ser feliz en como veo siento es una mierda que cada da de tu vida te recuerden lo feo que eres es una mierda que tengas que vivir con quien ms odias convivir con l cada da en tu propio hogar prcticamente paso la mayor parte del da en mi habitacin para tener problemas con ese imbcil el novio de mi madre suelo odiar nadie pero si el muriese horriblemente yo estara feliz realmente lo estara mi madre ni si quiera toma en serio cuando le hablo de las ganas que tengo de acabar con mi vida realmente veo en un futuro lo mximo que esperaba llegar era los heme aqu con aos sin haberlo intentado incluso para esto soy un cobarde para algo que deseo hacer que har sentir ms dolor dejar ya esta vida de mierda esta soledad esta miseria gracias quien se haya tomado el tiempo de leer esta mierda soy bueno escribiendo pero slo buscaba desahogarme un poco,1 +birthday dayand lie alone floor day write redflag note phone short devoid drama basic information even really goodbye theres point anymore first ive followed before never even got right deleted note tried happy make everyone else happy arms freshly bleeding again like often is enough im hollow empty like ive always been feel nothing except thats true feel something cant describe it disappointment disgust sadness change fix things could fix many problems never myself things broken ever put back together sometimes worth taping back place one last time sometimes know time let go,1 +im donei m havent easy life life always riddled trauma ive always managed find way through mother tricked going africa holiday planned leave forever years country despised filled ignorant regressive people didnt know better managed gain back freedom convincing relatives shared beliefs islam although despised ideology prayed times day year convince them even sent islamic propagation centre months survived amp im proud myself horrors faced could never describe landed england knew wanted life studied hard got good university worked hard got ideal body amp met plenty women generally enjoyed life face new challenges overwhelmed me broke jaw summer cant even breathe properly cognitive function impaired speech horrendous body deteriorating im left back pain fucked face went absolute confidence someone barely maintain eye contact because im aware ugly am lower face shortened look old pictures realising il never look like ever again failed module university ive withdrawn mother disowned ive told im atheist amp im debt living alone struggling even cover rent strong views religion outlook world unconventional learn world less want it im disappointed giving simply much handle cant imagine living life broken tools im left with even recover academically could never live life like wanted impairments im opinionated like think im open minded cant stand phonefixed peers spent time alone university gym studying etc never needed anyone cant work amp im longer studying realise one people around energy gave aura gone death something ive always pondered rough times past amp plenty close calls purpose exception time thought id never come back england stole cousins gun held held didnt pull trigger weapon jammed larger round magazine remove could use it whilst so decided go last ride stole motorcycle rode like kid death screaming pain out stopped intense conversation myself told youre strong matter hopeless seems m youre strong youll find way this time different dont see end goal see fucked chance existence death besides release existence tell stories make unknown bearable genuinely love is door back whatever conscious anything come afterwards cut religious bullshit nobody knows amp theres one way find out better this right,1 +whyyyy ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wtfffff 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understand russian subtitles always justice actors believable elijah wood great job playing socially inept jewish kid favorite character definitely sammy davis jr jr grandfathers seeing eye dog really psychopathic border collie characters eclectic likable believe real people,0 +occasionally remember blog exists shows years painful updates im sure anymorehttpswordpresscompostdiaryofdoniewordpresscomhttpswordpresscompostdiaryofdoniewordpresscom,1 +serious missing person please help new jersey residents only httpslinksharingsamsungcloudcomcgjkfrbld please help us live southern part new jersey estell manor area woodbine area lives in last seen morning september rd stated linkphoto also stated local pd helping please see girl let police know whats going last seen that need find her never best terms mental health afraid worst school starting back up could load stress potential tipping point please help us link dads contact info via facebook httpswwwfacebookcomkevinweisgerber anything helps please ,0 +interesting see people think movie since is fact quite unique though bears trademarks clive barkers writing even though might seem bit cynical say so movie intricate enough deflect need standard hollywood plot hooks layered expect fed see normal monster flick lots monsters disjointed plotbr br those need linear specific untangled plot line hate movie story lies like novella partially lines case partially screen comments imaginationbr br another possible hangup ending say without spoiling it entirely good entirely bad is fact defined all know sends people raging tantrums get know happened me many others im sure adds another dimension story dimension speculation and addition point great disruption tendency cause ripples extend quite farbr br there definitely moral here rather different kind standard hollywood inyourfaceattheendofthemovie sort display summing moral simple even though quite simply displayed prejudice human tendency hate differentbr br i love movie even though many reviewers noted expressions actors with exception david cronenberg wonderful appearance rather tacky im sure entirely blame rickety appearance lack depth though seeing common problems converting literature screenplaybr br all all great movie provided expect standard horror movie,0 +really hard timecopying pasting fb conversation friend really feel like retyping whole thing sorry formatting bad grammar typing tears easy im really depressed im feeling suicidal cant deal anymore literately sitting couch listening family talk much hate didnt kids would homeless right now choice world wouldnt living would cut completely going getting progressively worse obviously know hear ive everything try make happy made deans list last semester im working ass off nothing good enough k saved put torwards getting place asked help paying school told no spend savings plus pay summer semester theyre mad dont money put torwards moving cant afford move without roommate anyways one wants move single mom two kidsz dont want live anymore everyone hates me constantly feel alone mom constantly screaming me cant find way out feel like choice seriously want get up walk kitchen theyre sitting get knife slit wrists ive told mom im issues ever says need stop overdramatic im going continue spiral no dont get aid ive paid everything pocket far im eligible according fafsa tcc screwing yeah k last two semesters friends best friend moved hours away completely alone one would even care gone ive trying really dont know anyone craigslist skeves anyone talk im always one starting conversation one ever reaches one really cares talked brother say irresponsible my kids wouldnt know difference always want go dad never care coming home me spend time family anyways im constantly school work really want take car side bridge side cliff something have felt like before cant shake all married abused what then highschool totally alone ran away times cant though left go dont want take im stuck theres nothing hundred dollars name debt im falling apart im tired stong time one lean cant alone anymore one family cares anymore honestly think would happy killed dunno im tired mom dad sister left walk dog im tempted let come home gruesome scene,1 +im fat slob whos worthless air breathei look every one around me theyre happy theyve got good lifes look mine realise disgusting human am want die want happy get bursts happiness day immediately come back want fucking keel die want big red fucking button push end immediately went gym happy set plans get better went gym fell apart fucking know never get better know die horrible death want fucking die already,1 +plan killing hate homosexual h,1 +teacher wore pants zoom class everybody saw yesterday first online history music class zoom teacher used two devices computer see us phone hear us however phone camera pointed directly crotch wearing pants minutes host one students blocked phones video image stuck minds,0 + bored lonely wanna chat hey wanna chat people good time talk ab anything everything could number game something like that want meet chill people,0 +lets consider late s s early s best years living ever world think internet simplier goodly naive best tv shows games films started time period and experienced everyone kindlier other censorship even thing everything calmer happen today bad good things end fast im grateful born experienced interesting things younger kids im clearly understand living past actually good ill hope everything ok future guess,0 +wanna mess someone say ik irl dont would mean asf kinda funny id tell truth tho worked,0 +sad insecure paranoidfyi going bit nonsensical long and think dark rant also using throwaway obvious reasons consumed suicidal thoughts hours day even remember time think cutting myself shooting myself taking pills hanging myself even child nightmares people killing ritualistic way dreams always left conscious enough feel terror knowing slowly murdered someone else gaining enjoyment act fact earliest memories kind monster thinks sort thing grade school know theres something wrong me normal want hurt oneself time im kind paranoid maybe im murderer kind violent person know sounds stupid actually want hurt anyone else would someones brain programmed like mine ive never chosen think dark things always happens ill typing imagining convulsing taken cyanide thoughts constancy terrifying think people sense am choose polite really violent people always off look eyes im guessing it too ive always severe trust issues feel like friends simply pity me keep around someone laugh at seems like something lot normal people dokeep loser around feel better themselves im pretty sure im loser people work constantly talk lazy incompetent coworkers clearly interest selfaggrandizement im also sure im incompetent weird person there im around stories uncomfortable around me least thats suspect that felt like constantly one everyone put feel better ive always hated it school people would brag got better grade me able problem faster me romantically seems like every guy ive ever liked already someone else thought beneath them first two people asked said much hurt time actually appreciated honesty last guy really liked girlfriend constantly gave looks yeah chose me bitch mutual friends often social settings ramped pdas whenever near even family always given shit weird mother complains im androgynous need care less people says im good manipulated used view society negative want adopt simply philosophical grounds even parents criticise front people always have ive never tried prove anything bloat value individual everyone moments get bit full overestimate abilities ive never willingly represented something better am think this people take advantage low selfesteem take advantage fact im civil quiet easygoing coworker recently announced matter shrugged off understand acceptable say things like people especially ones supposed colleagues see inconsiderate behavior like time everyone always goes it especially chatty people ones simply fill silence time literally spew hatred questioned expressed opinion world politics everyone looked though idiot really dislike confirmation bias applied personalities understand people measure worth social settings last paragraph really over sorry lately paranoia seems getting better me feel like hear peoples thoughts walk past them theyre thinking much want make eye contact me stupid look awkward am feels like everyone knows messed am theyre choosing laugh make feel worse rather try help really want someone help me cant believe anyone would actually want to exist none normal fact lot really wrong snap lose sense empathy compassion others know im horrible person even probably sound like serial killer waiting cant die already,1 +why brain took nap wet dream ex interesting kinda weird would recommend,0 +im waiting one decently sized reason it beat mentality wontmy life consists staring facebook raging videogames smoking weed take mind everything every aspect life use reasoning die school job motivation get job death simple flawless solution first place easy way out family miss course friends would shocked fact time feel happy even though appear happy there personal almost never why firstly explain question one must understand idea way must understand idea watch understand movie inception seed unbeatable logic seed logic cause flaw thinking fact family members love family choice back up different sperm reach egg sperm obviously family would love whoever person would end being point is purpose granted person personal makes difference me personal would love choice therefore would given purpose another person and technically anyone could say dont kill yourself reason reason reasoning like that almost matter from irrelevant fact die person previously tried persuade would affected person friend would affected emotionally small amount time move life effects moderately affecting yearning kill myself hate way look hate personality hate way respond human interaction hate person altogether soon high school ended last june friends either stopped talking me began act like asshole directly indirectly me serotonin imbalance feel happy feel happy feel hungry empty feeling similar person feels need something necessary life like water social interaction feel sad feel sad mean deeply distraught person could ever feel could leave extremely impactful messages world people interact with people know me due existence burden always possible way hell permanent god smart enough create existence if god exists fucking stupid enough punish lifeform limited intellect a human eternity wanted live able lead christian life first place thinking spirituality necessary contemplating redflag previously described thinking highschool something must know see this first girlfriend month two ago lost virginity her became incredibly attached dumped fear commiting personal emotionally let experience feeling anticipation something never experienced life broke lost purely blissful feeling anticipation life literally unable eat week body want live without anticipation live sense purpose almost vomited every attempt gave eating bites meal appetite improved agreed would continue talking even though broken up that stopped talking almost entirely appetite decaying month almost bad eating last month nineteen year old male weigh pounds girls emotional problems came two different boyfriends past first emotionally abusive raped her found out caused develop extreme complex cope boys sex with like me second emotionally abusive refuses emotionally commit another man something give time happened ago add this family fucked possible incredible incomprehensible stress sum up happy together also frustrates allow us happen would solution us people scarred girl undeserving life fucking terrible makes realize basis negative thinking ever depressed life human nature cause every bad action life obviously thinking extreme get makes want kill fucking badly one tries overcome it fucking disgusting cause every problem earth one realizes that do one made effort conquer human nature conquering every petty matter petty earth want human it abomination existence yeah ill come back tomorrow hopes finding comments cliche stupid meaningless good luck helping one,1 +choice make hours one permanentmy next appointment psych three hours closest spot park conveniently next walking trail cliffs one spot particular m drop straight onto rocks wanted say something today go,1 +fuck new reddit update reddit crashing fucking time cant shitcomment properly,0 +bruh fuck people sort new real homies sort top time girl yall simp,0 +family hates mei remember last day cried go home get yelled parents anything find feel paranoid time watching never relax want go jump building right now,1 +already picked date end summer break going me cannot say glad go cannot say sad go either everything terrible lately struggling find happiness feel like falling behind everyone life point going on nothing matters matter small insignificant compared everything there matter it fine everything fading black giving up,1 +pain perpetual cant find way stop allevery day uncomfortable cycle inner anguish nerve kill yet believe heart narcissist seeks optimism family died lovers left travel thousands miles away please convince slip numbness death kill myself hate everyone world dont think life right me much pride ask help real life,1 +school felling school feel like lot calmer cause covid,0 +cant say enjoyed much the big lebowski raising arizona felt little slighted o brother enjoyable film worthy good laughs taste coens brisk twisted sense creativity dvd edition contains featurette interested find coens pretty simple directorial techniques surprised me course movie best example and im saying comparison worthy oscars many feel robbed maybe depends appeal br br though enjoyed coens previous work ive never fan old westerns the dukes hazzard stuff show daily tnn guess thats feel enthusiastic checking movie seeing revolves around southern folk south reading this mean offend people im sure guys feel way watch movies urban areas like a bronx tale live city life hard get accustomed films nature apologies aside found characters fun quirky think john turturro nailed accent perfectly seeing way talks real life find amazing tim blake nelson also good course george clooneywho assume best feigning accents judging decision chuck idea working dialogue coach developing new england accent the perfect stormnaturally seems little miscast continually struggles accent performance good though also spot coen regulars like holly hunter in short sweet role john goodman also screen short time steals every minute itbr br though normally dig country music liked title song a man constant sorrow dvd also contains music video song br br overall found film entertaining original inyourface quality coens shown us past slighter effort good one still suggest check out br br my score out ,0 +disappointed myselfi girl like today like make guess comfortable end ooking another guy mean like playing knw like him really cannot deal that want die much anymore pain life hope die sleep tonight wish wish dead,1 +dead inside feel nothing mercy given me keep falling deeper fucked head cannot even comprehend it reality forget am try everyday cannot live illness memories know end road feel defeated,1 +would like state may biased producer film however maintain sense dignitybr br the star film oscar ovies gives stellar performance jeff grinderlin nebbish hypochondriac spends time worrying living brings certain touch character really allows audience connect him stating mind often sense harsh comedy mother played christine haber constant support beam without would crumble upon himself friends also lend hand jeffs life often making choices rather letting use free will often times neglects anyway br br the writing superb conversations flow like scenes kevin smith movie half much ben affleck boohoo festsbr br the camera work little shoddy points sound could also use boost however performances shine minor details also backed beautiful soundtrack local talents exceptional composerbr br all all treat rare gem among many jewels,0 +fucked breakup cannot seem move on made noose thinking going it last resort need help,1 +need life cuddles lovely girl squirrels elmo,0 +im going succeed nut november report back next month wish greatest luck fellow soldiers,0 +honest like much movie saw first time guess trouble seen theater big mistake thing see cliffhanger settings cinematography try see movie largest tv possible great sound system music good puts movie higher level and commercial potential see it like itbr br its definitely one renny harlins best movie guy knows action die hard long kiss good bye etc particularly good movie special effect great spectacular stallone really needed movie get back success still good see ,0 +always catch girl looking used talk awkward 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glass severed tendon bled white save trying fucking end blood floors blood walls aftermath psychedlic fall visuals seeing patterns stare try pretend care reality im alone im one dug hole,1 +whenever come sub rteenbeauties,0 +title pretty cliche still spend day living head friends hate family especially mother feels like energy constantly sapped me fat mother stop look like twig tiring want quick escape deal crap anymore welp time start another day want stop,1 +guys guys hear ok i powerful great white shark heres i pullups without taking break however great white shark cannot making me powerful _ powerful least ,0 +reddit redflag notethis kill addressing great reddit friends ill begin uben_ amazing friend im weak person gets trust flinch everything im terrified dogs im screwed head uslickspider also amazing friend since live another continent awake needed questions answered usweater_spaghetti thanks amazing boyfriend staying friends broke up uangelinwhite amazing friend end 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then yes ive tried therapy yes ive tried meds yes ive tried drugs home remedies too yes dr knows sees regular basis im loss cant find anything motivates try something new mostly cant think anything new try ive either tried make sense backed science anyone something completely box try im happy hear it give shot point would try lobotomy offered anymore nothing life interests anymore none hobbies even pets even love life anymore im tired done,1 +giving random facts daily coz bored day squirrels plant thousands new trees year simply forgetting put acorns,0 +enjoyed film finished still makes think it believe jeremy brett brilliant role although death acting little top jeremy brett mindbr br this good piece drama follow oscar wildes novel closely enjoy film recommend also watch an ideal husband jeremy brett lord goringbr br this film gives great insight oscar wildes way thinkingand watching viewer reminded way dorian grey lord alfred bosie douglas basil halward oscar wilde,0 +listen shitass love goddamit fucking idiot matter dumbfuck stupid ass recognize ok hear dipshit may think never good enough shut the fuck up idiot good enough deserve love affection love dog,0 +going kill myselfi cant stand living life way years every time tried change always ends way cant take anymore cant it nothing left keep trying,1 +suffering chronic redflag eight yearsthe kind feel enemy breathing neck alwaysi want get details matter personal beginning redflag breathing got messed up like alternating breathing hyperventilation shallow breathing day years last five years suffered bone tb stomach gastritis three yearsalso found recurring kidney stones left kidneybefore begun relatively healthy without complicated disease like bone tb stomach gastritis seems long chronic redflag resulting hyperventilation shallow breathing high blood pressure make immune system rather weak damaged,1 +watch video bio idk is apparently pretty spicy,0 +even fail testing methodi saline kcl powder not made medication made research syringes learned kcl iv painful prepared pain real put bit kcl powder saline loaded like ml ml syringe tried find vein arm difficult check got vein one hand needed pull slightly draw blood took like mins pressed felt rush saline coming system panicked managed put ml pulled out even real get test pain monyh ago halfassedly tried bleed using syringe tube putting vein blood filled like half small cup stopped someone end me want go hospital beg put anesthesia die lonely fuck scared life parents already hate place say know so cant even pass parttime job interview fuck good at,1 +feeling better revenge days yayso went back apolagize troll nothing changed girl dani since october im moving on loving girlfriend name joann loving family job measuam yet dani messages me i deleted cups moved on feel like much energy,1 +hi fello gamers friend made discord whos mostly talk memes play video games skribblio minecraft alien swarm stardew csgo tf valorant together guys girls listen music also separate channel nsfw small enough form sweet community everyone knows otherr comment link d my dms wont work,0 +overall thought nice movie hate use word nice rather dry beautiful look central performances rupert friend emily blunt strong liked despite gleaming aesthetics costumes settings gilded shiny aspect never took heart film good strong writing thank julian fellowes d nothing flamboyant saturated pomp ie sensationalised greatly when victoria dragged bed informed queen well get less glamorous hand crown paced gently every line film held worthbr br undoubtedly portrayal love victoria albert though somewhat fairytaleish face it fact slow burning candle friend blunt well show effortlessly two people fitted together despite union initially arranged my fave bit come home hunting victoria simply hugs new husband behind much said without words thats film about blunt held beautifully well face demands attention cant mention costumes wears every one simply gorgeous blunt would trouble parting them rest ensemble cast played roles well harriet walter queen adelaide highlightbr br the qualm have lacked sense urgency event could made movie little exciting it rather tame know wanted something happen would victoria draw strength prove worth little more albert argued loved it could done pivotal dramatic moments though may mebr br lastly risk sounding patriotic renew sort pride awe crown takes position especially one young may part fact films snap shot victorias young life immediately apt writing one character mine the sword scion nevertheless flag feelings for following book guess character victoria aptly reflects might part film displaying ridiculous government back times seem give two hoots poor dispossessed nation turns renews appreciation queen victoria prince albert active domestic domain made government appear rather useless nothing much changed supposebr br blog films books httpsempergratisblogspotcom,0 +im christian teen us got questions ill answer whatever politics religion etc anything else,0 +keep praying deathi keep praying death every night wake curse every morning always think would rather die live long remember last days ive feeling much severely tried kill nights ago overdosing pills passed could take enough woke screaming failing finished nightly workout used make feel better normally feel normal think much want ive told family tried commit redflag one said anything act like say it im seriously considering something illegal go jail get away really cant stand anymore im sure one times fail one night ill get idea work hope tonight,1 +im fall apart everydaywithout distractions feel like im gonna go nuts today got never slept kept thinking problems problems panic attacks past got work easily finishing around sat everything kept feeling like going break again used drink vodka stop thoughts keep coming back kept feeling like wanted grab knife cut throat let press there mentally fall apart anything stress about depression gets worst want kill little confidence actually it cant think properly,1 +america terrible country better rd world countries pretty much every country europe higher standard living,0 +greetings children humbled presence bring question children offspring rejoice here guess wondering oi wot doin ere well bring question survey will existence guiding you now children return favour ask this fuck like toes why,0 +im tiredim tired want die im sure tell parents dont believe redflag depression im thinking without telling somethings wrong trying get help im scared happen survive,1 +rather go location make realistic film drug addiction windy city contrarian director otto preminger decided go opposite way make movie appear artificial possible thus flying face fashion set men like kazan huston zinnemann making pictures world nelson algren whose novel movie based went record despising it what one wonders preminger to movie waybr br the sets film minimal suggest mr magoo cartoon louie drug pusher attired resemble sort gangster artists mad magazine used draw arnold stang wonderful comedian was seems place serious picture like this appearance topped exaggerated oversized baseball cap elicits laughter robert strauss another actor best known humorous roles likewise place large heavily jowled face runyonesque delivery lines seems appropriate jerry lewis movie this stars frank sinatra kim novak eleanor parker work overtime keep viewer snickering sinatra jittery manic throughout suggesting man ill ease himself hence wholly appropriate role drug addict miss novak plantlike sublimely deadpan sympathetic seems product artfully dingy slums graces film parker pure hollywood hardworking crippled crafty zosch never convincing neither filmbr br i recommend movie anyone interested realistic depiction lives drug addicts america caligari sets alone make unbelievable preminger may aiming dream effect cardboard backgrounds give proceedings surreal feeling nightmare operetta perhaps harking back premingers early days vienna,0 +mr gorbachev tear wall guy america idk,0 +gender neutral clothes would look really cute teenage guy filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +saying word doesnt mean racist goddammit white use nword sometimes also racist all im quite scientific anomaly,0 +get socially worn quickly went downstairs see sister playing wii decided chill downstairs comment game chill started discord call friends chilling like hour kinda tired it good time laughing lot idk feel like idk want call social battery gets worn quicker average,0 +first all st ives film fairly loosely based robert louis stevenson story name once criticism original novel workinprogress unfinished authors death freely adapting giving ending filmmakers brought life endearing characters who although different stevensons originals would sure charmed amused himbr br it capitaine jacques de kroual de saintyves breton aristocrat orphaned revolutions guillotine serving hussar napoleons army meet going evening claiming since hussar dead a blackguard he on borrowed time certainly faces string challenges duels dashing hero seems danger surreal prank colonel provides way duels bed beautiful courtesansinger unfortunately also results losing commission misadventures result taken prisoner british sent pow camp scottish castlebr br while carving toys boxes jacques catches attention flora young niece miss susan gilchrist welltravelled woman world lives swanston cottage fall love story concerns flora helping jacques escape find emigr grandfather old comte course problem jacques older brother alain dissolute alcoholic perhaps understandably far pleased grandfather disinherits front whole household instant jacques appeared cue treachery also entertaining subplot romance awkward naf goodhearted major farquhar chevening aunt susan travelled ottoman empire prisoner turksbr br even allowing natural prejudice favour film heroines share surname st ives magic combines splendidly swashbuckling swordfights balloonflight comedy romantic adventure would recommend anyone loves the kind film make anymore fairbanks colman flynn co acting splendid anna friel makes flora spirited appealing heroine jeanmarc barr delightful jacques genuinely lovable hero miranda richardson richard e grant already great favourites mine great fun susan farquhar whose relationship runs comic counterpoint leads rakish scheming ultimately tragic alain jason isaacs shows recently the patriot classic swashbuckling style besides dashing good looks please please someone cast hero genrebr br my main quibbles film concern settings costumes book castle jacques prisoner clearly edinburgh film shot ireland germany france highlandised setting making retention place names swanston inveresk queensferry decidedly incongruous costumes real hotchpotch s period set would implausible downmarket characters making do seems odd welltodo ladies heroines wearing s gowns clearly costuming decision sthetic earlier styles visually far appealing elegant regency fashions work idealised world film whole st ives minutes pure delight,0 + dayssince ive food even slightest hint live money family anything think much longer really hope things get better america one else takes life little social security income ruined life month enough live rent electric water want die bad cant lol im fucking pathetic hate it honestly kind want become criminal something could go jail food every day care even good food lol want able survive thats completely wrong want nothing stable wrong want die too lol know what think lol trains stuff here could sleep outside days something well,1 +the devil dark william shatners favorite episode also one favorite episodes program pure star trek deals one series main themes respect life forms think one could get clearer example one shows interesting ideas episode kirk crew confront monster killing miners distant planet story excuse explore right humans destroy creatures vital part environment todays concerns environmental causes make show relevant ever before extremely well written performed gusto beloved cast one memorable sequence involves spock joining mind monster plenty tension spock kirk they want solve problem using different methods adds fun shatner leonard nimoy best work here,0 +guys wanna see new karambit curved knife,0 +favourite time period music like s s beatles who kind stuff,0 +honestly hate know feeling feel nothing wake up always feel that cry every night personal things online things know nobody wanna support especially since im years old turning feel bad everyone around me experience sad look everyone else wonder happy usually try hide emotions im afraid getting called pathetic child sad im forced look happy hate it feels like im wearing fucking mask ive suicidal thoughts plans things ive self harmed many ways like cutting scratching punching even slamming fucking wall time time sometimes feel lonely like friends slowly disappearing guess keep venting without even knowing it brothers friend recently took life bad relationship father feel pathetic therapy doesnt shit me make fucking life worse dont know anymore life worthless always think negatively myself hate myself want stop pain,1 +peeled dead skin pp dont ask tbh dont know plus kinda satisfying kinda idk im trying make post longer post,0 +hell damn miracle crash luckily started road close home feel right cant really explain it lightheadedness also weird thing im seeing something even thought thats im doing brain also like nothing happened second intervals,0 +ghosted girl thought loved mea months ago darkest part life found browsing sub hours people shared pain many lovely people helped pain cant thank enough long met girl really liked gave hope got along great eventually confessed really liked too never heard someone made want alive could pursue feeling ended first date lovely day afterwards agreed relationship would much decided put hold bit get year university kept checking every couple days make sure were alright happy that today messaged asking alright respond instead blocked social media without explanation felt happiness decaying times wed talk music zelda films other even aware tried commit redflag weeks met her cant believe would me loveliest person ive ever met cant fathom someone special would someone care about,1 +tupac born s bruh didnt even know old like wth,0 +lost someone redflagthis lot less urgent many posts definitely encourage others getting helped anyones got extra time id love help grief last morning goodbye online friend left commit redflag her life always exhausting untrustworthy place warped perspective world people really hard time opening all trusting anyone ever hated family one reason another recall unfairness household lot could also assumptions family like truly care things basically putting trust anyone worst death her words though trusted couple people bit more one them considerate person despite problems certainly nice wary cautious wanted get know figured itd take time though talk much could still around id end going without responding think proper roleplay post running fumes rp chose get back later though cant help regret spending time her never figured real name disgusted reason figured push it never figured lived call police stop it convincing talks feel guilty like try hard enough save her could do online friend much possible guilt lifted grief stopped constant crying fit day night grief still hurts lot ive never deal loss friend like this made worse open chat application look ghost account sitting contacts recent chats want delete either feel would hurt even worse even long run know deal grief comes back hits like truck im deathly afraid bad pain would feel lost someone even closer well hurts bad already sorry long drawn story there referred another reddit sought sort help manic state depression saying guys handle people suicidal coping loss redflags such sorry fully true im wasting text space need help dealing intense episodes pain regrets,1 + vegetables grow september atlanta read depth article here httpsmygardenchannelcomvegetablesyoucanplantinseptemberhttpsmygardenchannelcomvegetablesyoucanplantinseptember sunflower shoots radish spinach tatsoi mesclun greens green onions kale arugula,0 +im considering ending lifeit started kid father sexually abused younger brother older sister years finally courage say something remember father wanted give gift started crying mom wondering about asked crying id tell gift ment hed expect cuddle him mom thinking silly said its father wants good you id explain cuddle way did thats started police would come place get him conversations police child welfare would start back forth mom going court sister brother explanations enough even allegations prior wed get know case came up still would free man hed roam streets even rented cabin meters away home over fight mother custody torture us eventually got us over convicion free man things done mean anything enough evidence problem never wanted again got delivered him remember crying non stop screaming yelling wanted everyone hear it please leave us alone him cry help im grateful every day mother would refuse let us stay there brought us home nothing anyone could it years later kept fighting see us eventually got see us coditions gonna supervisor us times never spend night problem supervisor someone father knew hed fucking leave us alone hed go walk remember father sitting legs hurt much id cry hed things too things ever want talk again years ago today year old man job education ive depressed struggling anxiety years never felt like belonged anywhere safety supposed got completely ripped away me teeth rotting inside mouth simply able work job afford taking care things able take care of age ive seen friends start families buy houses take driver licenses get cars things feel too late s cant barely make month month food see end this loneliness darkness feel helpless ive often contemplated redflag ive never close,1 +anyone chat n chill im bored af home middle night pm u wanna chat,0 +best way lethaly odso ideas best combination drugs to well basically kill yourself cant get prescription drugs illegal stuff please,1 +movie best movie ever seen lds highly recommend movie able feel understanding life joseph smith although movie made highly acclaimed actors remarkable life changing movie enjoyed appreciated everyone saw movie family bear witness change heart movie allows people really understand hard life prophet much tribulation faced with saw moviethere single dry eye entire room everyone touched saw since seen it highly recommend movie everyone,0 +im usually one discriminate but ranch far best sauce goes well everything especially nuggies would use anything ranch,0 +fuck sleep homies hate sleep est rn really isnt even late standards felt kinda tired tried falling asleep couldnt ive come following conclusion case body feels fairly tired ready rest brain still wide awake filled brim w thoughts random insignificant shit makes really hard ever fall asleep idk like adhd thing even though already guess im gonna stay,0 +think found hate myself seen gifted kid perfect everything mind problem view everytime fail anything feel disappointed mad everytime feel like everytime mess anything disappointment everyone bit feel like better one test messes start sad knowing grade isnt perfect thats bad dont like cause body isnt perfect dont like cause skills arent perfect dont like cause grades arent perfect on look kids get bad grades normally parents dont get disappointed didnt stupid label slapped them sorry rant mad myself,0 +love boys time slightly wanna know feels like put pp girl pussy gross asf em look like wanna nut pay abortion,0 +guys need favor need yall bonk umax_the_throw_away shes horny needs degree bonk please help shawty,0 +good mobile games im currently home wont game fun im going play like week im debating wether start minecraft pe world nah ill rather wait come home play pc,0 +haha guess what dad told put laptop dining room table hahahah privacy till right hopefully doesnt probably will oh noooo but ill suffer dad probably try brainwash things gay,0 +anybody got good reasons kill im hella paranoid hallusinations getting worser worser,1 +post follow upsoa couple minutes made previous post things took turn worse got told unless pick start functional member crew getting sent back home im wondering ever choose job occasion actually get fired im going help family financial problems anyone talk to cant seem see point living anymore actually happens im afraid im far emotionally weak handle,1 +doctor android use doctors knows apples day dow keeps doctors aways,0 +im bored balls tiredlife fucking boring tbh enjoy first years life constant hell school college working boring job making enough want life maybe rich could enjoy life way always wanted to right constant rat race probably always be,1 +you talk me tell feel badyeah actually feel bad need talk start avoiding days time fuck people wanted someone give slightest fuck felt instead ignore avoid me im done thing people nice them im going mean evil are fuck people fuck friends fuck family wanna die,1 +someone looking mei feel someone looking me im alone home dark outside lights look kill sure im scared look,1 +cannot stop thinking killing even good mood change split second feels like get hit tsunami self hatred hoplessness guilt walking road constantly thinking getting hit house thinking jumping window head first overdosing bunch tablets cutting myself terrified tell anyone life incase think faking looking attention know,1 +aight one always downvoting posts lmao,0 +see yes megathiccc know youre reading this stop go outside take look outside world wonderful isnt it dont lie know didnt even go look well least tried,0 +franco proves again prince surreal erotic cinema true much work viewed entertaining sleaze succubus necronomicon shows truly capable lets warped creativity run riot gives us film hypnotic enigmatic whilst still maintaining delirious eroticism intrinsic work jerry van rooyens splendid score pulsates viewer thrown one bizarre scenario another follow trials striptease artist reynaud may schizophrenic may indeed as one mysterious character states devil attempt come terms world inhabits beautiful enigmatic piece cinema highly recommended anybody even passing interest alternative cinema,0 +think film one funniest films ever seen think debbie reynolds hilarious chemistry glenn ford perfect dull moment film debbie looks beautiful always br br the story showgirl maggiedebbie reynolds meets penniless soldier joe glenn ford takes instant dislike accidentally tears dress returns condition goes one date him end getting married night date one kiss joe maggie move spain find nothing common physical attraction maggie proposes one month live man wife means joe allowed kiss sleep maggie much joes frustrationa hilarious plot wonderful film missed,0 +know dothis first time life ive suicidal thoughts think would much easier stopped existing stress national exam coming preparing last years think pass preparing alright quarantine motivation gone touched books since april worst part parents think studying first time ive lying absolutely hate it fail exam career prospects nil opted stupid stream pass exam life probably spent working job hate making minimum wage start shaking whenever think future really know do great student came top class without even trying everyone know expects achieve great things really want sleep thing keeping redflag family would sad,1 +ranking acnh villagers again monkeys time saucehttpsnookipediacomwikimonkey champ hes total champ deli hes cute simon better elise really ugly ugliest flip first monkey ever give photo monty smug smug sucks im glad hes cranky nana best monkey shari piss hands simon best male monke tammireally creepy terrifying patty worse next ducks,0 +i wanna it theres even point anymore life pointless im worthless always fuck every single thing up even able build life wanna tonight im scared work though life pointless point try hard still everything touch fuck cant manage thing holding back hurting family point nothing else left aside that hardly enough hold back anymore though im tired life theyd get eventually im scared right now body turn to part even know im posting this want help anymore im done cry every single night multiple times day nothing live for nothing look forward to nearly friends literally thing holding back family im done,1 +hate human hate fact people born nothing people born everything hate people scared walking streets school hate dont get loved cause theyre different hate society made people hopeless take life hate shitty parents allow kid wants life post response post sub left out write them post made show shit humanity learn need improve,0 +might fucked upi feeling better past months talked therapist adopting cat emotional support animal shes sweetest thing world love death realize dont know would go died feel like im tied shitty fucking world her im actively suicidal right matter time again everything much harder love her shes sweet things get bad need escape,1 +thats yo shoes raggedy _____________________________________________,0 +ends weeki diagnosed anxiety depression saw therapist three times week five years hospitalized several times every imaginable combination mess deemed recovered enough wean last combination meds remeron effexor klonopin since life felt like hamster wheel ive learned keep quiet plot end silence diagnosed heart condition told would likely lead medical crisis sooner rather later took opportunity draft living restricts treatment enough make survival unlikely last year became desperately ill organ failure caused heart condition odds survived surviving do spent days hospital last year treatment sepsis acute respiratory distress liver kidney failure etc far ive spent another two weeks hospital cant work lost home moved so sweet generous dull bath water ive decided leverage stage liver fibrosis generally weakened condition picc line thats place bring unsurvivable medical crisis im diagnostic test later week anesthesia requires fast two days hand fasting increases liver toxicity tylenol get home mg zofran along small dose benzo prescribed bunch meds managing nausea blend grams tylenol smoothie take bed with flu andor post test fatigue plenty antiemetics oral suppositories liquid morphine benzos ride days home ie get past early stage tylenol poisoning point saved liver kidney damage resultant brain swelling even symptoms become unmanageable get taken er good fortune allergic tylenol poisoning treatment drug choice mucomyst which used previously attempt relieve oxidative stress liver episode sepsisinduced liver failure provoked anaphylaxis hope get drum tylenol level becomes undetectable death ruled something like cryptogenic liver failure normally functioning liver five days would it impaired liver function knows case also slim chance someone order toxicology screen might detect metabolites tylenol consider labeled redflag risk worth taking help things along ive brewed syringe gut bacteria inject picc line bring another hopefully fatal episode polymicrobial sepsis heading hospital receive palliative care messy almost inevitable end fails recently got firearms id sig sauer ammo wrap things up,1 +timei attempted redflag times count ive woken icu many times feel like really right though know think even people around me lonely pain much im going friday worth saving would rather donate organs are try really did first time attempted redflag im time say goodbye asked mom long ago would feel passed away i hint redflag main concern want pay funeral chuck random hole care nobody speak nobody cares ok maybe make lot peoples lives better ,1 +pain redflagi autoimmune disorder spinal deformity adhd anxiety chronic depression party also blessed sparkling personality use hide ailments constant physical emotional psychological agony getting worse get older understand redflag maybe responsible choice god damn tired,1 +think need someone talk tohi im feeling really well right now theres one irl could talk kind dark stuff chitchatting someone knows deeply going i mean were rknittingwatch right would helpful guess,1 +went first date days last date went ex year half ago feels really good good night guys,0 +please say anythingi feel empty im alone nothing helps nobody cares me nobody even pretends care ive exhausted every option hope finding support none successful stay alive nobody wants here,1 +many american people would saywhat opening comment yes know comparison without doubts insult fans master akira kurosawa analyze movie comment right peasant goes town searching help band grasshoppers wants steal harvest village great difference way story takes samurais band circus performers original complex mixture personalities end village needs heroes please watch incredible movie the seven samurai obviously find another movies stolen story tried get magic effect masterpiece akira kurosawa tip th warrior antonio banderas michael crichton copied story wrote best sellers found third foot cat,0 +really lonely day hard want talk someone please tell someone day was,1 +happy wife happy life haha kidding ill never happy life wife miserable ha joshin you im gay,0 +normal think killing every single day rightread bottom bold quick dirty year old senior since first got idea redflag was ever since then thoughts become frequent concentrated literally think redflag every single night heres catch there literally plausible reason want kill myself love life love parents good home were rich best give want which much never abused hurt raped immense emotional trauma stemming death family anything else running well music passion love death really since april year many friends moment good friends stay contact with others know well drifted away whatever reason go online school hard concentrate class still hard work home least spend afternoon one subject ive done lot openminded unbiased research found adhd im th grade even understand algebra like trying httpwwwkhanacademyorgalgebra learned some know im plain stupid i actually think intelligent thats pretty petty shallow say yourself hate constant self awareness judgement awareness actions world buddhists see enlightening see curse see post im bad english either frustrating difficult though sitting mind race billion miles per hour im trying better myself actually like math too online school main reason many friends love talking people friends them antisocial disorder know majority people feel way do constant lingering feeling themselves worst night online school theres really set time work led many many nights thinking redflag hours hours know sleep look clock see am whatever night know normal go sleep am wake pm cant stop thinking it httpwwwyoutubecomwatchvwliumkgcoc the time day reference or am would or minutes am song speaks quite lot gosh think ive ever cried much first time ive ever wrote out know whole but kill everyone love sad try telling head months aint listening want fucking die hate feeling want win might one day though so reasons left feeling perpetual looming feeling desperation only one brainmind broken im right something working head cant stand it,1 +tree house got biggest insult killed friend hold it,0 +anyone wanna military text rp hmmmm,0 +sometimes look ceiling look ceiling night alot idk every time listen music sometimes cry feel like time relax school work really get time self medicine help sleep like taking feel taking time form could use make music something realized completely topic guess feel,0 +watched dark skies netflix years cant fuucking sequel,0 +sam firstenbergs ninja the domination mixes martial arts the exorcist like horrorthe horror elements thrown screen simply laughablebut film works mindless actionmartial arts flickthe fight scenes wellchoreographed excitingand film never boringso forget stupid dialoguelame acting annoying soundtrackgrab beer check one outhighly recommended,0 +iti always see everyone around tough anytime life hits curve ball im barley getting bed days feeling like everyone hates get cant keep trying thing made try like used pain would cause friends commit life hard times everyone says toughen brave u brave one really understands struggle survive world im judged dont many opportunities im different mom thinks know feel struggle doesnt put mask everyone see happy reality im never happy even im still sad im point everyone around brave tough moment something small happens breakdown,1 +dream florida protest masks shit bad leaking private mind efgnd f feds sxfvxsvxvwxddxwvsxf bfscbsxfbcsbscfscgb,0 +anyone talk im bored asf want talk someone pm interested,0 +guy fbi found child porn bidens sons computer im pretty sure biden knew too biden also hidden house past days jesus fucking christ,0 +someone please friend need friends ive one friend since th grade im th grade now want change life im hoping change friends like anime video games art mainly pop culture stuff general one thing minecraft good fortnite bad dm want friend ,0 +sadly relate movie im yet kissed really feel josie since seeing film write review rewatched it remembered everything loved itbr br drew barrymore great actress role suited really well time chemistry sam josie really good michael vartan excellent actor thisbr br i loved storyline said there could relate rare find film completely relate tobr br all loved it ,0 +im hungry want go upstairs maybe ill wait bit,0 +one way always tell bites lip that,0 +really making video nasties again guise digital wide screen big budget remake mm quite ride unfortunately bit much story times becomes like travelogue heroine searches sleaze spots paris hamburg amsterdam however rather churlish depraved scenes including everything from hot wax harsh whipping rough sex drowning beheading some scenes immaculate pity bruno budget stretch make many characterful creatures introduced become simply caricatures,0 +dab watch commit suicide,1 +work well told kill least know really feel tested blades works way better knife trying calm wrists instead thighs bought razor blades,1 +got caught beating meat bruh shit gonna awkward idk dad gonna pissed smh days ive done without getting caught today do,0 +im going kill drag everyone else meive sliding depression god knows many years now ive really noticed sought kind help least took effort remedy within past two years none helped therapists medications improving lifestyle friends girlfriend getting better job moving out basically achieved everything wanted age still spend hours work fantasizing redflag past weekend saw new therapist said cant help im unwilling put work in well im not ive got enough plate already support system doesnt seem help either im starting find people annoy me even ones used like theyre still helping me whether true empathy dont want take care hit rock bottom bother going work want get better want participate shitty life daily grind punctuated occasional bits fun everyone laughs say real goal work honestly thats condition stay alive cant another years this im already worse year ago started job moved out also every time get short lived motivation fix things people assume im normal expect fix everything ive broken life cant run gauntlet ever increasing amounts misery work scary standing next proverbial edge is think day im waiting rest good filter life finally end it hopefully people dont invest much time money energy keeping current shell human alive much longer,1 +deleted,0 +first came communists speak up communist came jews speak up jew came catholics speak up protestant came me time one left speak mebr br attributed rev martin niemoller br br when faced intolerance injustice easiest thing nothing speak risk becoming object scorn enough become much global antisemitic sentiments allowed hitlers genocidal policies thrive equal doses fearmongering ignorance made possible anticommunist purges mccarthyism destroy thousands peoples lives inaction makes one less culpablebr br lawrence newman chameleon man quiet nondescript blends seamlessly surroundings lawrence like get involved witnesses attack young woman tells one goes business world spirals chaos buys pair glasses mistaken one them lawrences view world view forever altered br br while subject matter film new presentation definitely unique much easier understand irrational nature prejudice placed within certain context lawrence concerned assumptions jewish views attackers believes corrects oversight everything right realizing logic prejudice never go hand hand br br whether playing schemer the thing liked fargo home nice guy sheriff william h macys roles linked common thread his characters share subtle deliberate countenance gives substance macy nails lawrence smallest detail says furtive glance tremble voice page dialogue showing rather telling lawrence able share fear bewilderment viewer supporting cast brings story togetherbr br laura dern compelling gerty lawrences bombshell wife past trailer park rough yet worldly wise also felt wrath prejudice result a mistake unwittingly exacerbates lawrences situation michael lee aday aka meatloaf frightening fred prototypical redneck next door equal parts ignorance venom rallying neighbours virulent cause midst chaos finklestein david paymer focus aggression voice reason raises important questions paymers even handed portrayal keeps finklestein becoming stereotype someone whose sole purpose engender sympathy making one strongest performances filmbr br the tight editing closecropped cinematography make clean picture distractions mixes air claustrophobia small town usa feel simultaneously comforting disturbing deliberate use harsh twotone lighting accentuate malevolent aspects piece carefully scored soundtrack powerful without overwhelming finally set costume designs recreate feel era essential component films messagebr br focus unconventional approach dealing prejudice reason enough recommend film consider excellent story solid acting look film added bonuses,0 +im currently studying theatremy grades shit doubt take anywhere least helps pretend like im depressed try forget depressed im alive rainbow six siege wanna see upcoming dlc im addicted it already redflag attempt couldnt it noose hard tie shitty rope anyways btw live mexico go school us life boring dull dont know im posting this probably cuz insomnia ill probably regret later,1 +getting fired tomorrow morning really want kill thatpretty sure im getting fired tomorrow morning know method redflag want use spoke boyfriend says hed never forgive killed myself long distance relationship unfortunately pretty sure people care boyfriend father ill owe apology afterlife probably truth is ive suicidal long time attempted redflag failed once self harm too whole thing want end life isnt getting better wish dad boyfriend would understand,1 +idk somethinghi idk im saying im lost im hopeless inside feel lonely yet people im mess honest dont understand feel grasp emotions happening like whole life dont know feel exactly every time id cry feel im judged even tho im alone like im weak vulnerable stop crying feeling nothing question cry im even feeling try brush comes back ive thought killing many times every day thought makes way across mind try understand im like cant many things happened past parents lying divorce birth never real care them always like lie dont know im typing this appreciate someone read look doubt it im scattered everywhere im sorry want end constant feeling like unknown hurt despair cant grasp emotions dont understand much ill leave,1 +music recommendation wondering yall could recommend music like rock mainly listen older country even though like newer stuff also like gothic country anybody listens,0 +welp good right everyone two days im turning longer say im teenager wanna say thank everyone supported needed guys awesome hope go great things love yall guys,0 +im kinda trapped antidepressants drug dependence dependence addiction different zoloft make addicted make high would describe wearing glasses world people decent vision live somewhat normally well years line find better really need meds anymore try go without them never ever quit anti depressants cold turkey got weird intermittent feelings high almost brain electrocuted every seconds eventually feeling intensify feels like explosions sparks inside skull emotions become really fucked anxiety becomes significantly unbearable become nastier everybody around almost paranoia like symptoms drug withdrawal expect take zoloft pill goes back normal crazy really thats whats fucked,0 +three things say spalding gray are certainly marched beat drummer never loss words obviously felt watching listening would interested every aspect life experiences thoughts matter trivial timesbr br most us quite far off wall was us interested sharing minute parts others even oneonone small groups let alone stagebr br but make lessinteresting watch listen erudite unusual man seeing one performances reflection find many articulate musings perhaps relevant lives thoughts may first thoughtbr br granted new yorkavantgarde type personality undeniably bit strange there would maintain describing someone new york strange unnecessarily redundantbr br i give talent presents genre specialty,0 +people depressedsuicidal long time come side or not shouldnt kill myselfits almost ten years constant agony ten years suicidal ideations past month every day gotten little bit worse tethers life little bit looser shouldnt give up really worth endless suffering reason im alive dont hurt ones love line two sides selfishness sure might selfish kill put others immense pain selfish others force suffer dont feel bad ever acceptable give up ampnbsp people encounter cant quite understand im going through typically use metaphor maybe relate imagine headache headache never ever goes away sure sometimes might feel bit better sometimes bit worse every second every day headache there try aspirin doesnt work try meds avail visit doctor doctor one seem help you try homeopathic remedies meditation try adjusting various aspects life nothing get rid headache often not extremely hard deal with feel much pain cant anything stop it want end way can advice friends give is try headache change pain affects act around people people perceive you friends start push away constant pain bringing everybody down would want voluntarily spend time someone inherently depressing somehow fact people leaving side makes headache worse makes much harder deal with push on ten years pass relief progress pain think ending life end suffering cant cant bear hurt parents siblings close friends remain stuck suffer endlessly hope sight do,1 +rock bottom wanna give up throw ome whole year sobriety away worth trying stay strong anymore,0 +feel like nothing idiot assholei chipped tooth got bruises face tried hang belt thing even think it going motions even thinking stuff like this end kind acknowledgement first thing remember getting tingly blacking random images flashing started focus happened realized lying floor tried kill myself know poor something unconsciously smacked face something calmed enough get bathroom see happened saw bruise chin knot forehead fished around mouth hurting found chunk tooth made feel like shit friend helping promised got bad would talk her even ask help got point give sort final word anything feel like asshole,1 +tea tastes weird redbull yucky,0 +me think majority world corruption china entire country government dont understand would blame corruption people china little bad things cause would corrupt china corruption originated government take example tiananmen square massacre know happened event well guess people protesting for voice government guess what government decided put stop protests killing people people so saying here saying assassinate xi no saying declare war china no saying tell china stop corrupt things yes anddo forget thing china torturing uighur via rape key tactic,0 +really wanna knowi need easy way kill myself know every way painful mayb easiest one anybody really last string cant handle anymore nobody talk turn why r u talking bullshit stop pessimistic life get better oh really hoping gets better see nothing,1 +people allowed date deal crushes no secretly going option,0 +redflag noteim going kill myself want everybody know abused shitty life tried hide long time tried entertain people like clown everytime tried make people laugh people spitted face kept smiling cant stand living anymore everytime breathe hurts more end it must end it goodbye,1 +online school online school ridiculous really hate lie think school become much harder teachers keep putting work work work questions take day get answered someone asks tones questions killing grades sadly nothing send love hope issues,0 +im fucking lost life literally shit again barely anything anymore except lay bed day sleeping listening music sometimes go drive theres barely anywhere go literally lost motivation,0 +guys make list good games free steamepic games store anything parents buy video games waste money would spend time it laptop support games think play games it please help me im losing mind locked covid,0 +uhenwa challenge uhenwa challenge challenge challenge challenge begins march kill reaper leviathian you make base crash zone kill reaper leviathan do ill go dunes accept challenge,0 +think dying best option posted radvice recommended post too explain this also sorry rambley is im sixteen year old girl past year things going well all put little effort school classes effectively ruined chances going dream universities toxic relationship always gaslighting kinda emotionally abusive months ago broke starting dating someone else weeks really hurt me lost many friends isolated one specifically caught feelings person hate many people school theyre stuckup assholes feel like disappointment everyone always kind person got shit done determined hardworking best friend told seemed like shit together used get bullied like years ago deal family problems past years even though sucked feel bad does lately exist really contribute anything anyone think dead would simple would worries anymore worry everything anything change it like im chained bed want work know never going good enough feel like friends would better without me ive reached breaking point care anything keep making plans promises know never keep cry much multiple times day sometimes even know im crying feels nice im worried myself tell parents think realize bad is get angry easily them snappy know guess im sick alive see point someone give something look forward please logically know get better everyone keeps telling that hard believe feels like things get better get worse true gets better im exception rule someone help,1 +calm downim considering redflag im high school getting bullied havent go school month nowi dont get well clasmate kept contact best friend since i troublesome child long time thing calm animemoviegame online friendi always express feeling online dont snap make dickmy online friend fed decide itll fun pick mei cut contact cross lineits like people group chat peopel actually support methe first one becoming busy collage rarely online help get bullied cuntim dick classmate something end blocking always end oki talk longer people talk without consequences irl daily lifeusually dick always dick use nice keep mind redflagbut since cut contact find hard find new people open fast gonna think im creppy ran awaylittle chat always keep mind redflag bc im loner someone talk fun want anything want little chat thats ask daily keep kind redflag go day,1 +want see film guns blood sex shouting angry people hero bad guys girls even clumsy love words want see film every shot meaning love one must see film ive waiting film like life,0 +go sleep early still oversleep ill wake keep falling back asleepi slept hours last night fuck needs hours sleep hate sleep much,1 +advice needed moving redflag attempti tried hanging two days ago interrupted someone knocked door turned mailman took sign life turn around live im back depressed anxious ever abused mentally physically sexually father made awful mistakes regret haunted trauma shame plagued mental illness know drill snapped two days ago best friend didnt seem care wanted kill think friends insulted it also disappoints hanging like kate spade doorknob scarf seemed difficult slower expected less hope could actually would choose scarier method like jumping im pretty sure would able get do anyone advice moving redflag attempt,1 +never girlfriend today accepted fact never girlfriend im im bullied front girls girls bullied front parents gave,0 +finally decidedtoday emptying apartment salvation army coming get whatever want tomorrow cats going sanctuary find new homes thursday ill say goodbyes friday,1 +help parents need help feel swaddled parents necessarily spoiled lot things me want get able stuff self parents really let happen thinking hanging friends know big rona hit kinda cant that advice would helpful,0 +hopelessevery time talk one person feelings always says well gotta get better just stop feeling bad makes feel worse hearing obvious statements course need get better stop feeling bad cant suddenly stop brain giving negative thoughts yesterday told one wants hear problems willing listen part family told know therapist help me right depression panic disorder keep finding pros considering redflag rather cons think therapist help me recently went hospitalization program feel better there came home would start thinking redflag best could right is swallow bunch xanax knock little bit,1 +think might set datenever used understand posts saying theyd set date kill think get now tried old going bridge jump thing earlier collapsed wept floor even got railings plus motorway bridge didnt want hurt anyone else think im going make plan proper research find way end it set date maybe write notes theres end panic attacks intrusive thoughts wont go away matter hard try miss old voices new ones arent nice world unkind think sooner better,1 +hey guys music genre might like called japanese city pop funk really like it give listen youd like,0 +fantasies never realyou ever see movie think yourselfdamn wish could person life full meaning adventure look real world see nothing empty boring life within it,1 +boys girls depressed depression get let tell currently going sever depression force everyday get bed shave beard fight happiness fight inner peace fight want fight dreams boys girls cannot stay like strong infact strong handle illness lot ppl would killed powerful enough live pain need build strength get recovery,1 +annoyanceim right gonna days im usually happy days im starting think life good anymore bullied young time troubles keeping friends moved quite lot too never got permanent friends usually lot new schools friends time left me started eating less less never got treatment since parents saw happy child most times money type therapy mostly alone im friends would usually talk even ignore times would library trying enjoy studying studying useless sat came sat schools let made currently parents lenient sometimes get way hence title annoyance yes love them feel times bothering randomly talk square face height short apparently world im cm rn get good sat score would practically useless get good college also parents lenient asians know thoughts redflag since little feels like everyday im hearing redflag know feel alone not feeling suicidal getting thoughts more,1 +literally worse person exist sucks traits people want bad acnei overweighti stained yellow teeth worse grades ever literally failing everythingi literally bad everything do even failed attempts one knows went school normally next day friends tell fine funny istg fucking annoyed literally opposite literally destined succeed praying every night die sleep safety net literally dk myselfokay rant lol pain,1 +hell think redflag dailywondering long left want jump window shouldnt die couldnt give damn life hell want die cant freaking understand myself havent reach sixteenth birthday yet would waste die young life everyone would want great life family well off parents sister love me even though part drives depression care me cant give back anything them instead angry acting out cant share feeling anyone fine fucking gonna listen cant explain anyway classmates thinks im smart straight student top class dont seem struggle academically wise looks though outside fine potential successful running coach teachers school supportive mental well being everything seems going way yet struggle motivated anything im getting fatter mood fluctuate like crazy freaking antidepressant makes even depress life absurd anyway sometimes cant even understand people wants live lives boring meaningless one talk feeling suicidal honestly freak out haha funny im fucking useless know what would either dead years would monk former sounds realistic dont aspire monk probably would work guess yeah pushing freaking hard study either kill fancy car become monk interesting life,1 +pretty severe suicidal ideation think im even depressedpretty much every night past week ive falling asleep think killing myself even feel depressed right now ive always depressed suicidal thoughts along lines i wish exist always thought redflag abstract almost never something id actually do feel like maybe ive normalizing redflag mind past years tonight managed knock cup nightstand asleep threw towel tried go back bed ideations hit hard af seriously thought driving walmart buying gta utility knife cutting wristslt almost crying wanted die bad kind want buy one sit bathroom think it maybe seriousness situation dissuade me know stress school honestly day almost feel happy content least put pressure get as semester hard think unrealistic huge problem set due class tomorrow probably worth grade thats half done im still live home quit job go back school full time ive given permission kill things work school time feel like last chance know do job essentially money insurance think therapist option im college student theres schools counselling services im honestly afraid talk know theyll react say honestly im sure point thread was really ended rambling nothing ampxb guess anyone advice talk felt alright day overwhelmed night,1 +reason im killing tonight husbands business would go underive accepted everyone cares would better without think husband would hard time continuing business would incredibly debt thats fair him plan getting life insurance soon move on,1 +please give reason livebut like genuine reason make want get bed want something worth living for please,1 +cant believe tomorrow halloween crayz crayz im gonna put razor blades snickers ,0 +super bored rn pm chat hey im yearold girl live la super bored right craving human contact im talking books movies myselffavorite topic whatever going you also really like sandwiches pm bored well idk play reddit numbers game want to nothings really table im talking pretty much anything ill probably take post soon probably take post soon,0 +one see hopeless pointless life isno one cares friends bully abuse me cant get girlfriend im ugly sin people skills hate major school ill probably hate job cant change it parents tell im feeling sorry stop lazy piece shit thing brings slightest bit joy games despite much time spend still suck cant anything right world would probably better place without even save oxygen worst thing im much coward even kill myself cant even right even bother,1 +anyone wanna nsf w buddies im boreddd,0 +tbh think get betterive lurked reddit now often looking threads hit low point bring back yeah ill admit really helped twice probably even saved life im tired tired cliched comments samey advice gets flung around really isnt point fucking life siblings surviving parents loved ones leave behind hurt career chose excruciatingly boring one handed notice in weird thing is im feeling like im low point moment actually feel really bloody good better years fact knowing swift departure world almost negative effect mean barley even internet presence gods sake reddit lurker say all cheers cant exactly say ive enjoyed time here although going endeavour make last day enjoyable one maybe ill one last pint goodluck everybody hope find purpose life,1 +want post rtrans bc want sister see it sorry little sister mtf transgender closet family conservative homophobic coming would dangerous lately becoming depressed bc cannot really herself scared mental health worsen could become suicidal already saying motivation wants everything end support more idea help think would want go therapy parents expect perfect child would 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first aired loved itit kinda funny see far people go moneyits also funny see much boyfriend whipped whipped enough kill think cast great especially character kristinwithout smooth talkingand deceptive looks movie would samebr br i never use watch usa one stationsbr br ,0 +hits spoon im spoon,0 +stupid fucking liberals commenting pog anti pog post fucking hate stupid libsharta dumb words like god damn hate blue haired libs,0 +cant work want dieim finished high school year free year start college work that would lame would home nothing year so borderline personality disorder case already work scariest thing ever im level im getting panic attack whenever want apply job want think could year actually found job weeks ago worked single day felt bad bored tried kill hospital last week and thats kinda fired obvious reasons im meds im therapy nothing helps this need job cant social anxiety high cant even walk street anymore plus panic thing mentioned before today wanted ask lady bookstore job opportunity bookstore sounds calm thought could work me door felt panicked anxious turned back come home immediately first time this im scared want work to way redflag want make hospital gotta sure real time,1 +come share beauty,0 +ngl flamethrower might solve problems due assignments burn em dumbfuck mosquitoes annoying you burn em spending wasting wayy much time mobile time burn annoying siblings ill intimidating af w flamethrower bored flamethrower,0 +wasted whole life nothing playing mobile games day sitting couch day already years old still even job yet truly sad pathetic parents actually trying threaten get job kick house right graduate high school year left graduate honestly care parents anymore want kick end life never really cared wanted live guts kill waiting patiently parents help end pain planning end life right graduate chronic procrastination affected life many ways affected physical health hygiene relationship family school grades mental health struggled chronic procrastination ever since elementary school really know wrong past based research sure struggling chronic procrastination adhd reason struggle chronic procrastination chronic procrastination pretty much took away happiness gave nothing self hatred hate hate way today truly want change bad habits difficult cannot even something simple brushing teeth everyday again shows pathetic much mistake am tried change bad habits past like drug addict eventually relapsed back old bad habits trying change bad habits feels like asking person smoking addiction stop smoking completely difficult change fact cannot change bad habits matter hard try makes feel like maybe end life end disappointing family maybe born fail life never succeed longer see confidence see point trying anymore nowadays let chronic procrastination destroy life everyday life pretty much playing mobile games day sitting couch honestly cannot stand thing everyday know even tried changing going fail anyway weight increasing every month due lack exercise really care hoping heart attack kill me dental health looking good either again really care today waiting death thinking end next year wish could sleep forever escape reality know possible year difficult me sometimes cry night amount pain going through tired pretending ok front parents really idea much pain going long suffered pain argue yell me worse feel myself think past memories hate myself playing mobile games day coping mechanism helps escape reality helps distract brain pain everyday act nothing wrong hiding really well hiding emotions distractions deserve everything happening hope get covid nd time hopefully end time done life year left live,1 +isolated gay loser aslyum seekeri barbados male gay illegal gays highly persecuted country work live protection run risk imprisonment myself basic education unemplyed years isolation fear persectution come knowng qualifications worsen living fear persecuted finally considered idea becoming refugee seeking resettlement asylum us or sweden germany could helped would thankful edit hope receive asylum protected pursue ambitions burden anyone may pissibly refugee since country severly persecuting me fear protection persecuted groups within country ofers protection laws homosexuality enough still cannot find anywhere start cant find anyone willing help immigrate safe country apply asylum in find application resttlement asylum migrating te country embassy wil even make through neet dont think ill find asylum find me think way,1 +chat brother earlier today took wind sails talked work notredflag not glad him feel like never amount ismy parents wildly successful ambitious never proud me despite academic achievements growing up staying trouble second person graduate college family among things never gotten recognition them brother serves intermediary relays lot cares also one family proud of much successful got wife good shape got shit figured out feels like fucking sailing direction holes hull flag recognized really trying damn difficult tired feeling way like failure like never achieve brother parents done tired worn feeling wayi know hell life despite best efforts worn,1 +encourage everyone listen album circles least onceto make relevant story suicidal broken defeated man coming peace situation theres maybe actual rap songs non hip hop fans promise promise promise worth ears find helps get rough days times even moment hear someone similar thoughts myself ill leave favorite line entire album dont keep head place know nobody ever see youre running low regret tears thats keeping wet think youre getting now day mac miller,1 +recap business usual louches casino tanger casino close prepares big transaction next day owner louche staff leave night leaving modesty charge suddenly troop armed gangsters storm casino shooting wildly unknown modesty already killed louche money hidden vault one present still alive casino knows code open vault vault heavily booby trapped explosives assailants cant blow door planned suddenly modesty finds eye eye gangsters leader miklos game roulette lives jeopardybr br comments review written connection ever published media modesty blaise neither seen read it first point like make slightly wrongfully classified foremost thought thriller battle wits modesty miklos main plot sure bursts action really integral important part storybr br as already mentioned main plot main suspensefilled scene game modesty miklos innovative intriguing way revealing background character much story takes place outside casino much earlier time someone said almost like pilot tvseries feeling might indeed used such but felt much better way introduce character many done way disappointed lack action instead enjoyed game history much simple action moviebr br i think two main stars alexandra staden nikolaj coasterwaldau well staden especially portrays modesty well really carries confident talented characterbr br ,0 +darkness darkness im swimming alone pool darkness feel like darkness slowly pulling yell help one hear begin see water eye level kick flail fighting stay darkness darkness let go hold slowly begin give feeling lies water line waters starts fill lungs lungs held much life yet allow murky water replace know path lead happiness someone grab hand pull darknesss grasp one knows stand boundary boundary light dark give thing holds strength courage held heart cant save water slowly slip world conscientiousness undetected occupants world want fight anymore ive given darkness,1 +feels inevitablehi first time posting reddit dont really know begin im sixteen didnt think id make far dont deserve alive im burden everybody feel like monster ive selfharming now two years people progressed time went on started cuts barely leaving mark ive got nasty purple raised scars mums told ive ruined body it already ruined find agreeing her im walking trigger warning fair others theyre exposed scars theyd better seeing burn too feels pathetic hurts though suppose job used take lots overdoses never tell anyone them nothing ever happened never even passed out attempted redflag back march hadnt planned deep knew wasnt going work hospital five days discharged attentionseeking stunt part ruined things family friends selfish know hoping things might get better might got support attempt counselling year depression anxiety selfharm month got referred somewhere else restrictive eating disorder im honest eating helped many ways id stopped selfharming starting feel positive put meal plan told hospital i healthy weight meal plan month followed almost problems started overexercising abusing laxatives time didnt lose weight though thought everything fine mum hated meal plan me acted though toughest part day plan eat stopped it myself shed say wasnt eating enough exercising much would call names shed make eat lots night would lead bingeing gained stone lowest weight started purging since october life consisted nothing eating lots unhealthy foods getting rid it noone noticed six months mum called cleaning toilet properly told psychiatrist support worker werent particularly concerned refused weighed that im fluoexetine moment hasnt helped greatly caused extremely vivid dreams manic episodes manic episodes included giving address public forum asking someone help run away trying solicit pills alcohol take overdose shoplifting razor blades think able smaller amounts reckless things id able get energy out take mind things instead gonna end killing myself problems lie within myself mainly appearance pretty personality wouldnt matter much unfortunately me redeeming qualities im rotten person inside out thats feel like inevitable im going kill myself plan now didnt before believe it could work could start starving unlikely control would almost definitely work im allowing time see lose weight either things get better me like things remain certain way out gonna soon exams another week ill see restrict intake lose weight ill also go shops unsupervised i live middle nowhere within walking distance point get one last thing need im bored life depressed teenager isnt tragically beautiful unless beautiful sad lonely dont want feel anymore much,1 +help please dont know do guys happens fail band freshman year high school scared right know do work grade since said busy,0 +film complete is keeping one continuously interested flashbacks childhood growing bizarre father interspersing tails serial murder one simply cannot go wrong plot itself story essence film entertaining sort story director bill paxton could much with case really lot itbr br from beginning end kept anticipating happening film going creativity behind story first class felt film exquisitely done start finish one rare gems seemed without boring lulls action flowing neatly quickly tightly one scene next br br it demonstrates far people go horrible things loved ones acts evil name god disillusioned case also sometimes interesting its twists takes concept morality wholebr br overall sort film one easily overlooks would recommend likewise check film much worth time,0 + nights saga story heart crushed friend mine told post story here so sorry spelling mistakes im brazil ok everyone m going talk story v v f classmate since start developed crush her big coward nothing guess what started crush best friend received role bff accepted it better nothing me time goes best friend hates previous fights stuff continued like him still friendzone ended finally giving crush anymore knew time going come time flies beginning stll kissed one ever went party friends end this need open parathensis talk cousin p m cousin practically brother me p total opposite me popular ladies athletic one day talking v school suddenly asks kiss cousin responded to would pissed asks why cant tell school like her get me right say cousin accepts clear going mad it respects bff parathensis over lets talk first night night went kind night club friends score chicks night goes on kiss girls king night lol really happy talking friend mine suddenly says yo look v p corner turn around are kissing a lot see this turn around go straight bathroom sad dissapointed them values friendship much would something hurt me p he kind knew liked her would also something hurt me lost thoughts bathroom friend called come back party go back v comes straight asking mad say yes apologizes asks mad confess crush justify angriness said was tell me remember made really clear would get mad hooked up p parents told cant fight family girls really angry him dissapointed really first night over hope still shot her second night time kind street party carnival brazil got dangerous robberies group split up guys one shopping including cousin p girls one eating suddenly v calls me party completely wasted even stand normally calls says hey really need please come need you think myself well then time come tells everyone going gather hall building talk tell come go together house says ok arrives proceeds to grab p tries forcingly kiss him p remembers want happen turns head away avoiding kiss immediately like wtf still continue go building arriving there p sits bench v comes tries forcefully kiss again p leans head way back avoid that confused really pissed tell p get getting fuck outta there get home v calls me tell fuck off want talk her insists accept call starts talk drunk want again fool go soft forgive her third final night night chaos p went birthday party friend ours v there course got there kind drunk already get pissed v drunk really annoying party goes on circle talking friend mine whose name f side v comes says f oh p funny everyone chocked look her look obviously ignore clearly drunk night goes on ride coming now p side v proceeds say exact words oh p really need kiss right lets go please p hesistant still gets carried hand watch go dark corner completely devastated stomach starts hurt get dizzy friends even vs best friend started say nice things me worst part full minutes get corner p gets car me complete akward silence way home friday next monday v comes apologizing acnoledges mistake all then gives ultimatum tired situation let pass let kiss p try forget orr talk anymore forget feelings her course go second option stand watching together go away her quaratine came still forgot her six months text see forgot her tell no hard apologizes fellas indeed hitting girls truly unforgettable friends mine tell stop little bitch forget already move on people understand side considering calling ending previous deal guys think whole story,0 +saved bellalmost something stupid but coincidentally old old ex called blue right bout go across wrist saved phone call honestly get urge call text somone it could save life,1 +productive im drunk ive putting school work almost year drank shots rum closet pounded worksheets essay overdue normal im kinda scared wanna become alcholic,0 +wasted big dealim probably never gonna pre order its thank coming ted talk,0 +least one person really gettin tiddy sucked rn god wish joseph joestar fucker,0 +want something big start huge project long time ive wanted something big ideas help,0 +serious scene movie scene lets know film pulling many cheap punches takes place crowded train station protagonists ambushed assassins automatic weapons make break manage get hail gunfire main hall train station filled corpses innocent people caught crossfire would call sad andor grim put supposed enjoyable action flick call honesty action movies tend lean toward safe side showing violence plot elements mostly means spite massive shootouts innocent people tend die least see die violence purely good guys versus bad guys mainly bad guys dying bit common sense clearly shows absurdbr br renny harlin showed hint first and sadly only hit die hard villains intentionally crash plane full people get point across scene also filmed backup scene cargo plane people onboard going down grimmer probably realistic scenario ended used however fit spirit first film die hard mostly fun action movie here grimmer convincing edge pervasive violence bloody one liners hilarious certain style echoes natural human sarcasm clichd film wisecracks key moments action plot also packed malicious intent action films villain rogue revenge mad grab power less ridiculous also frightening that recent films bourne trilogy almost gets less cheesy usual action film style film years the bourne identity matt damon made big screenbr br another interesting aspect main hero actually heroine well movie version tomb raider became hit whats heroine genuinely looks like could take john mcclane take still lit cigarette movie marks geena daviss second actionheroine role still manage score hit angelina jolie stars tomb raider years later scores hit reasons beyond me completelybr br lastly movie dark edged many outrageous spectacular set pieces one see action film climatic explosion chemical bomb absolutely spectacular display movie pyrotechnics one law physics taking convenient break thus formula here antiformula everyday hollywood action movie formula br br bscdb classification violence profanity,0 +best place could think ask need help finding good edgy anime profile pictures guys could help thatd great anime profiles general also excepted,0 +anyone needs know look amazing smile love okay please give up even think one loves you love even know you well know amazing person whos going really rough patch know caring person puts others happiness know faking happy make sure one worries selfless person and faking happy faking long cant keep anymore love much whole world heaps people think cared worlds shatter lives never give please give get better promise time even thought killing pushed glad did life got better happiest ever life may seem like never going get better promise promise going glad give thought would remind love okay,0 +thoughtsim narcissistic toxic abusive obviously choice probably aware im continue it know could probably get better get help tried killing way easier understand people would sad really care besides experience anyway whatever fact id dead really me face consequences anything get quit know shitty,1 +late eighties early nineties decline death independent video companies like vestron media effectively shut italian horror films much american audience coincidently italian genre films also declined quality profitabilitybr br occasionally movies like primal rage sequels like beyond door iii troll dario argento films limped onto video remained unreleased until dvd us nearly decade longer movies lost years became sought talked among horror fansbr br of films cat brain probably one hyped due legions lucio fulci fans fact directed also starred idol fulci himselfbr br though quite fulcis best still better later efforts rabid fanbase probably love it italian horror giallo aficionados might also enjoy it depending tastes im sure anyone else people watch hollywood stuff might want take word many glowing reviews herebr br one thing personally found fascinating scenes featuring probably benito mussolinis lasting contribution italy cinecitta studios name instantly recognizable fan italian movies saw here could imagine looked like,0 +please talk mewhy wont anyone talk me wont anyone talk me wont anyone talk me wont anyone talk me,1 +ayyy finally getting notifications reddit time missed like dms taking hours respond comments lmao tf manage fuck something simple notifications,0 +today supposed daythis morning called work drove hours away home life least way one know would one find me sat car paddock middle nowhere couple hours spiralling thoughts id made mind happenstance car happened drive past driver approached make sure okay innocuous unremarkable here dont know whether spooked might found early enough circuit breaker delay inevitable im home now didnt think id again disconcerting thoughts havent stopped need make night,1 +life ended long time agoim posting im part done living life nothing offer me never has first im going describe turned talking someone like know front im years old mediumbrown skinned female short small nose jutted jaw thin lips sunken eyes metal hip cataracts face looks flat side people called retard down syndrome it might actually something wrong genetically ive always poor muscle tone there im ugly top that im probably narcissist schizoid affective disorder hospitalized medical mental institutions times assaulted one mental institutions never stopped thinking committing redflag think every single day done since early teens almost successful back worst day ever entire world died then least one person earth compatible me several people said me dont nobody want you right even guy married divorced like anything much money could spend cant think one family member ive close im burden all number always around five less so life ive pushed people whose job provide services me now even people want job whats left sooner im outta here less burden be better world be,1 +im strong lifeim done done family butler done anxious around people done lonely lot things wanted life guess it weird kill whatever im tried bullshit want anymore call weak tell part life ups downs ups me negative want live hell goodbye,1 +loneliness hello suffered loneliness isolation basically life traumatic childhood bullied suffered severe discrimination think contributed lot this seems like something never get of times friends all live alone well distance study literally totally alone two sort friends right now one good friend all many things happened bad held onto friends friend roomate met her moved months ago like best friends know feel really alone live like minutes away whenever go walking never ask even though already said would like come her text often takes forever reply usually gives short replies basically never texts first same whenever ask something often invites along never me really tough know people know might alone still chose excludeignore claim friends know overreacting really mean example today went walking together could asked along really hurts feel lonely feel like matter try cant get people around cold disinterested say around people hard connect because life story often feel trapped loneliness think lot comes mother always telling loneliness child making feel responsible this carrying around me parentified child also ignored child try make contacts good tough als looking trauma therapy nothing works out feel like trying life become severely physically ill due well abused child mentally physically mother stepfather grew european country father foreigner look nonlocal put way hell child felt misunderstood developed behaviours offputting others due abuse think also judged much harsher bias people claim friends reaching let sink would kill myself thinking lot would pretend sad lies think stop seeing friends really pulls down would alone really cant take rejection anymore think really seem interested knowing me,1 +ever take shit sit make sure,0 +get motivated song httpsyoutubefxctzceva,0 +im deleting posts gonna take while go take look,0 +made throw times im sitting blood vomiti cant control this cant afford help kind would accept it kind life this every day hurts destroys body gets cuts ruins everything life cant stop want bring girlfriend want burden anything sometimes wish would find someone better feel bad slitting throat,1 +really need someone talk toim nervous posting dunno else hour night long history trauma mental illness therapy need someone talk right httpwwwredditcommessagecomposetosadthrowaway,1 +easy would slit wriststhis past month shit show one dont want get anymore cant anymore ex thinks rule life fall every fucking time hits bites acts like okay got fight pulled razor cut myself deep freaked called im surprised didnt put hold probably psych ward right always make things worse come knowing say game head hurts sooo bad hitting over dont get it least gave razors back could it easily like many people would care know cant care anymore shit fucking ridiculous dont fucking purpose find fucking purpose sure hell dont any even basic ones able fucking reproduce fuck this fuck feeling like this fuck everything,1 +well entirely dishes still like extent delivery spots talking general tasting food ranges uh okay best wow feel stupid eating this gave satisfaction wasted money healthinterestingly body seems like foods cannot eat health preference reasons milk products absolutely anything milk usually liking eating it using gluten lactose pills help sometimes not worst get bloaty stomach recently getting even id eat something really milky meat pounds weight would like stay without meat feel satisfied sweets favorite thing make sandwich chocolate paste banana dark rye bread people surprised speed eat sweets lol rarely satisfy unless good portion good knowing size catch often type food product used like absolutely tastes like nothing me think thing loosing mood eat well grandfather inherited lot body issues snob guess complex village bumpkin used village third world country city bumpkin area advanced country possibly go back soon food tastes kind ruins mood also feel like snob,1 +life great cant stay alivei wanna die bad hate myself hate alone ill always alone im trans one ever love me job hell work ex friend hurt really badly everyone gets hurt never face consequences tonight refilled scripts propanol new job starting days got nominated prestigious scholarship im getting top grades cant throw away fuck want loved and cant need die,1 +sub less active guess american teens reddit want get healthy amounts sleep cant blame them,0 +deja vuception feeling false remembered really weird and unless fill place automod kill me ill tell little thing get shit ton deja vus you,0 +dying roomfor last years ive motivation m suffer lot physical things most undiagnosed know family history feel them motivation change life throughout years ive opportunities change life never motivation go them end either lack fear lack support network etc stopped me im supposed prime life nothing show it due person search socialization would encounter people would hate even though hate weird inferiority complex niche interests people would encounter people know sure think less of dont know word properly people cant stand due person get better thats settle unfortunately ive thinking killing years now maybe ive state mind method redflag still process would like get gun go way things reality might hang belt process getting better know life really get better wouldve now think fate im fated end way would like things way go bang might die room,1 +bourne ultimatum jason bourne matt damon best role ever newest spy kid block brings quest identity close also seeks end cias latest program blackbriar make super assassins like himselfbr br i psyched one watched predecessors yesterday today identity brilliant recall supremacy remains weak but still enjoyable link chain weakest plot and aside car chase films chase easily tops slight lacking action suspensebr br hoo boy ultimatum suspense even know bourne escape authorities and boy films spotlight police inept still brilliant watching it mindboggling think two guys handguns mopeds create x suspense anything million giant robots transformersbr br chalk paul greengrass idiosyncratic style shooting stedicam la documentary even though hes filming characters far ordinary places like cia headquarters one within miles would allowed camcorder seemed listen various complaints supremacy action ultimatum nothing less aweinspiring various implements used weapons candlestick hardcover book ill never look way again electric fan dont ask music also helped generate much suspense hardly ever moment nailbite overbr br the acting good evolution julia stiles character nicky put situation new highly sympathetic light damon plays signature role reserve competency which sounds minor genuinely looks like matt damon could evade cia interpol something noticeable moments poignancy still struggles find humanity longing real life could get boring almost supremacy works better ultimatum better script br br i reminded scene goldeneye the good pierce brosnan bond film sean beans character asks james martinis ever silence screams men hes killed bourne regrets people killed considers or least made consider meaning action without purpose life without meaning government transformed men resources albeit resources know krav maga make weapons anythingbr br sidenote always bothered that despite superspy hunted cia interpol police nearly anywhere goes bourne never thought make even smallest attempts disguise features forge new passports sunglasses maybe br br if pulse love action movies bourne ultimatum you hell probably best action film come year course fool see without watching others first kind drags touch near end almost feel tempted overlook that first movie summer least match exceed original saying somethingbr br a,0 +people reddit love making gay people mad remember gay people respectdont respect meme like makin rounds people r like its ok people gay long dont shove face aka go back closet coz even tho vast majority people cant go day without seeing multiple expressions heterosexuality here public forms media etc lives constantly affected heteronormativity theyre making gay personality trait talk sometimes yeah anyway im goin store yall want,0 +looked mirror tidy dayimproved ,0 +sometimes click profile see real mf posting whatever,0 +goat im pretty sure ive seen videos climbing people pissing pay that hot damn,0 +anyone us preferably wanna chat im bored stuck traffic bit dm interested,0 +wouldnt funny killed day birthday redflag prevention weekmight,1 +feeling casually suicidal nothing helpingthis started happening wednesday afternoon particularly feel like trying kill wanna dissappear like wanna asleep unconscious day theres literally nothing wanna anyone there used write lot felt like shit even working anymore theres one write reddit stupid someone end please okay itll like days anyone even finds checks,1 +dont like want fix hard shit made overview really dont like am dont good personality im funny im skinny af really dont like myself heres thing fully realizing hate thought hating fix it im starting working eating better friend thats going help think biggest thing personality another person definitely wouldnt friends myself want nicer funnier seen guy people and myself like talk around dont really know change tbh feel like im asshole half time annoy people whenever say anything even get annoyed talk really need fix this anyone knows how please say something need change,0 +left mehe walked door never come back numb entire world come crashing down spent years love hes gone survive this,1 +cant shake feeling im incapable working like normal personi really happy kid know happened sophomore year high school suddenly wanted die work im depression basically never stopped ive spent last years going pretty bad community college parttime usually without even job still well classes found today managed fail classes semester know im doing ive spent time trying get engineering degree absolutely hate classes know options life im exhausted like kids big brother would say why easy things hard you know young joking said stuff like time may internalized it want get way yes im meds pills every day yes see therapist good although years ive put seemingly every available medication feel like ever really done anything previous prescriber said complicated client feel alone cant comfortably open family friends more high school friends careers real lives ive tried reaching im embarrassed ruins every interaction actually made post subreddit years ago got dumbass telling get ged already said college would mean lot get reply someone actually read post,1 +reviewing random things every day get boyfriend day day ok listen may may missed past days thats ok cos none seen posts honestly know fuck going ill continue post ok today im reviewing quarantine basically already quarantined months since march september honestly worst thing could happened other actually getting sick course might quarantine days friend honestly annoying basically lot anxiety i started gcses im really uptight person missing school last thing need right now friend keeps telling quarantine great get nothing im like well good doesnt care school coz even school feel like im falling behind im rly im considered one smart people anxiety levels absolutely roof wont allow appreciate fact im literally ahead like subjects whatever probably made sense ok needed vent second ya know well overall score quarantine still even though hate coz fucking important people dont quarantine symptoms fucking suck anyways hope lovely day guys lt,0 +damaged goods worthless aloneive dealing depression since young teenager ive victim sexual child abuse well bullying domestic abuse got older now academic probation second college every november birthday month past two years get depressed become afraid go real world stay locked bedroom two months more play video games hours browse internet anything keep mind reality really easy stay alone although currently live mom enemies comes home work say word ever unless criticise demean me kicked gotten knocked guy using me let back forcing abort traumatic experience went therapy years that help guilt also try repair relationship mom never came me ordeal graduated high school accepted four year college get cosign bank loans i time years later ive gotten married divorced hired fired dropped reapplied better going school social mom started arguing time either dog called cops hes lb pomeranian friendliest dog meet smoking weed since kid ive suffering awful migraines every day life wake up mins theyll usually go away alright day days makes whole body ache cant leave bed im incredibly irritable smoking marijuana alleviates this matter mother though went behind back legally evicted since cant kick full time student street ny bitter argument one weekend left spend weeks state best friends family six weeks visiting id asking friends theyd let crash couch dog couple weeks tried find work better living situation new friend eagerly welcomed home kicked week later accustomed privacy suddenly became burden legally got way back mothers place since eviction come days get out ive even stressed depressed now ive struggling find simple clerical work past two years less two months find work save up gtfotbh every night lay bed tell itll easier kill myself ive way since years old think helped times really feel worth anything im dating someone claims care hours comments karma gw pics tldr probably read anyway long,1 +know never good enough anything time dieafter several months unemployment found job today ive realized im good enough get past entry level career tomorrow im quitting job killing myself nothing life live except career im stupid get past first level it absolutely nothing look forward life time end atrocity im sick unmitigated failure yes successful corpse,1 +people whos crushes said yes relationship going im genuinely curious ,0 +im pissed im insecure cant even look body clothes everyone around hates impossible even try make new friends im shit wanna kms hate,0 +fuck it super straight fucking parade show fucking opressed yall are fucking shut up cant take bullshit use lgbss cause fucking agree made bullshit pls stop making victim fuck sake,0 +ive messed up able graduate ive ruined life really know doive really fucked up have last semester pass classes it would degree job lined perfectly set life depression kicked hard really hard get go class homework became exercise futility keep up overwelming course lie parents telling oh looks little close going finals fine yeah im okay total bullshit graduation two weeks finals week approaching fast maybe deserve it im shitty maybe deserve anything friends family happyness ive tried getting help ive going therapy taking meds like two years everything try makes feel worse worse even know keep trying improve know help im done done school life know hell want do want curl ball cry die see possible chance fixing this ive dissapointed everyone love im much whimp kill myself sure hell want alive killing hassle would hurt people id heartbeat know do want run away all run far away one find me alone sad sorry pathetic self even know im posting this vent know maybe someone get something useless bitching,1 +want explain cannot find peace world desire happiness want thoughts stop want stop emotions wanting more pain happyness nothing want scared want find peace,1 +help boy problems teenager moment lol past three day two different boys asked gf pick them one one doesnt sorry post dumb boy one funny talk hours opens etc im physically attracted all would feel super awkward tried anything like sexual also live half way across world boy two sweet understand gentle patient wont really open hes little bit boring sometimes im physically romantically attracted him also lives closer,0 +f u c k change pringle guy character hate,0 +eugenics good idea sex suppressed state decide whether people permission pass genes lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipiscing elit sed eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua ut enim ad minim veniam quis nostrud exercitation ullamco laboris nisi ut aliquip ex ea commodo consequat duis aute irure dolor reprehenderit voluptate velit esse cillum dolore eu fugiat nulla pariatur excepteur sint occaecat cupidatat non proident sunt culpa qui officia deserunt mollit anim id est laborum,0 +love friends much appreciation post group project refer last postand difficulty help apologize group mates unexpectedly one started really mean melike really hurtful knowing project super upset cry told one friends really upset told worry comforted right away tried help bestfriendwho group me saw bullied super confused asked im ok said still know project took piece paper wrote step step instructions send me finished part im still thinking amazing friends are theyre best friends could ever ask for deserve them theyre best people planet,0 +someone talk asapim fucking mess im almost even start know im young theres lot live whatever please hear out im adopted relationship real dad akward whatever typical black dad clue mom doing know shes addict somewhere cali adoptive family strange situation two loving parents make lot money dont really know parent kid like me does three adoptive kids family slowly grown disfunctional shit load problems myself adhd lifelong depression bipolar disorder lot undiagnosed things idk explain super impulsive thought absolutely crazy like killing someone ive never made plan come close anything near that knowing mind mere second bothers shit me never found genuine happiness life ive situations feel like shouldve happy grateful cant feel it scariest part think im going crazy im starting hear voices extreme mood swings crazy stuff making body feel like braking down bad used college offers basketball sophomore yearand im starter ive tried kill many times permanently fucked quality life huffing has taking benadryl shit ton opioids brain isnt nearly used be im going downhill since junior high shit ton hydrocodone room dont see much stopping me im sure something inside telling ask support cant tell parents ill get locked facility like last year please help something stupid,1 +house messi live one bedroom apartment cat foster mess dont cook bake anymore im never home wander city anything better going home confronted mess litter food water bowls keep cat happy bedroom littered clothes livingroom covered garbage whats quickest way end life without scarring someone mangled corpse lol,1 +idea anymore life feels like facade used think money would source happiness reaching financial goals feel lost ever tips find true self again feel lost,1 +cant think fucking titlei hate fact cant good fucking anything everything anything important distinction saying wish could win every fucking battle could maybe win one every while course im talking anything major serious absolutely nothing life important all every stupid little fucking insignificant little problem encounter day day life specifically moment video games years old playing video games back young even remember so parents tell me always part life every day well depression got hand almost completely lost interest altogether life played games another free time thing thats got fucking worked much life ive wasted bullshit absolutely fucking terrible video games mean comparing others kind way mean struggle play pretty much anything easiest fucking difficulty matter genre matter specific game cant name one single game ive ever good at now fucking pathetic even give shit mean anything effect anything life realistically whatsoever even bother worrying it principle thing waste life hours upon hours time day day out ever fucking do thing remotely close hobby have cant even fucking well cant anything well even fucking thing ive ever spent time throughout entire life could talking thing do matter anything else anyway thats really point here cant anything right suck even basic fucking shit everything do suck at im fucking terrible everything real skills anything relevant real world would actually mean anything anyone little things do do cant even fucking shit well whats fucking point trying anything cant even things every god damn day well theres literally point trying make anything theres chance fucking every fucking step way reason alive absolutely nothing offer anyone theres reason person like even fucking exist yet anyway sick twisted sadistic fucked reason society decided ok someone to put take easy way out im fucking sick tired worthless waste space hope ever changing that im sick people giving fucking advice make better person whatever fuck flavor month bullshit want pretend actually fucking believe look like give shit happens fail everything say id rather stop trying make anything happen years trying ive come conclusion life worthless meaningless theres reason im alive theres fucking plan me theres fucking light ahead theres fucking reason anything ever change anyone thinks differently completely fucking delusional theyve level success life understand life like someone whos never succeeded literally anything complete fuck up hate world hate people it hate myself hate alive hate expected hate everything hate pretend like hate everything fucking want way out give shit gets better give shit worst behind me give shit nothing ever really gets fucking worse i just want out,1 +dont want die want escapeim enrolled college graduate high school also aa degree get good college im class president class all high school kids me sats worry about volunteer hours scholarship etc much chemistry professor doesnt teach teachings material youtube videos professors years ago failed quiz test next week understand material thats point prereq work im higher level courses wont able understand material fail hard im point keep going might graduate gpa feels like miss right college even though idea want life need escape drugs dangerous shit like playing xbox friends right now literally time that like girl class dont time relationship im sure neither she adults life never say anyone unlucky believe everything happens life complete control over failed chemistry quiz didnt reach tutor professor cant take dont know,1 +dog id reason kill could them id give dog love attention affection happy maybe eventually too want dog,1 +seven mg seroquel sleeping pillsi seven mg seroquel sleeping pills beside bed know lethal dose im scared im really considering ingesting right now feel confused lonely know do please anyone try persuade tempting this,1 +competitive meme making examples using player player b competitors would sets whichever person wins games win set posts would uploaded memes subreddit however many votes get would equate point total game game player points player b points game player b forth team game would similar amount many player team tbd add three amount votes together would score game ideas suggestions would cool hear let know would compete competitive meme making,0 +overdose plannedi know right sub this wanted reason planned overdose goodbyes say now im sorry triggering explicit method hopeless,1 +chromosomes genitals swag smooth like barbie doll ,0 +question uhonkymommymilkers u got many coins,0 +moment text hi beat clingy bastard,0 +hope good night nothing much needed get sleep its midnight now wish everyone good night ,0 +imposter impogster sus jdksjdjdhekehdidkdjj sosjsjjs,0 +im fucking lonely want diesorry huge wall text needed get chest im almost severe social anxiety disorder depression body dysmorphia past years ive going various residential treatment centers my familys fairly wealthy afford sorry seems pretentious want understand situation better right really social life bunch friends made treatment centers live across country life barely talked girls anxious therapeutic boarding school went year ago stupid dance allboys school another therapeutic school thats allgirls horribly anxious stood alone close friends almost entire dance then attractive girl walked asked dance surprised anxious initially said no friend made go ask dance danced talked amazing probably best experience life believe actually happening song finished wanted talk tolerate anxiety said no end dance even went said goodbye realized fuck ive missing entire life thought disgusting hopeless id always single brought mind possibility be saw pictures dance absolutely destroyed me thought holy shit im ugly thought could girl possible wanted dance me kind body dysmorphia ramped full gear anyway fastfoward present im back home im going outpatient treatment center social life desperately want feel connection girl like dance even actual inperson friends cant live like longer im also scared kill self access carbon monoxide gun anyway think anyone understands bad ive gotten im good talking girls people seem like lot improved treatment really despite fancy treatment centers years im super skinny average average face got really gym year got sort decent shape stopped going regularly anxiety depression,1 +confusinghi yall doing hows quarantine life wanna share smth crushing heart pieces thought maybe could vent here ive met someone turned cup tea terms friendship goto matter happened always active sure good calming down making feel wanted loved appreciated thought of recently left twitter lpavatar social game communicated using twitter lp imvu imvus go already us play anymore ofc crushed me ive surviving him gave hope horrible life able make go back things used docalligraphy drawing clay lot me left said wants go back school either yr next sy yr covid mom let me also capability online classes yet next yr probably said wants aim high get high gpas succeed know im pressured it want me want him family moms fine inspiration rlly cling hes one understood me listened me etc moms fine get mental health part im sure would understand meant this fast forward tried opening upventing mutual acquaint us know cry things understood suicidal ideation told hang tight life cant anymorei scheduled kinda told her blame me still thankful force live horrible world time theres part feels like maybe earlier planned one bother anyway hes gone now even mom here still feel unwanted unloved irrelevant mom may feel sad know going better without me plan ill deed next year gave year find reason live find least reason stay will now everything so gray painful tiring want end pain im relevant like others good happy family lot squads friends remembered time etc im sure need want this free one pressure stay someone tell me fine smth maybe someone remember me even long time talking say hey remember you okay tbh tiring always one remembering tiring unheard matter much reach someone postshare stuff atleast someone see it etc im confused thank reading ever reached point hope yall great day ,1 +benefits ms diagnosed multiple sclerosis september st yes lot negatives would like talk positives use walker people move way sometimes even open doors might able get handicapped thing car like actually kinda need one cus cant walk fast far lol gym class college cheaper something blame terrible memory general dumbness get use school elevator people nicer people feel bad give hugs d people help lot im bad symptom day someone get lunch get chance educate people ms parents dont force chores walker seat sit anywhere want dont use stairs time cant remember lol disease immune system eats away protective covering nerves ms resulting nerve damage disrupts communication brain body,0 +omg nearly panic attack wtf guy joke put ume fucking joke fell omg thought got accused pedo nearly fucking panic attack,0 +moment moment remember friend tiktok curious go it see multiple videos cutting herself mental breakdowns telling hundreds people traumatic stories didnt even know guess fault nosy goddamn really public,0 +f mei cant take life anymore everything falling apart nothing ever same worst thing thats happening right brother arrested something horrible cant talk anybody still ongoing matter whole family torn apart this mom wont even talk shes concerned him im afraid shes going spend families money college fund him feel like selfish piece shit even worrying right now even found yesterday wanted kill myself ive wanting kill long time dont think anything matters anymore cant imagine feeling worse right now ive suicidal before ive mental hospital twice raped ive suicidal ideation long time pretty much long remember even though family gave financial help could always sad child molested starting age older boss restaurant worked at went college raped guy thought really liked me dumb think anyone could like me im extremely fat ugly one even believe rape police made feel like fault couldnt cope trauma rape dropped college started drinking heavily raped several times got bad situations know fault things got little better stopped drinking started going therapy happened brother see going horrible downward spiral dont think anything ever get better dont think theres hope,1 +main support tired methis first time something like this im freshman college far home friends dealing depression anxiety long time started self harming years ago past months ive seriously considered redflag best friend always big support me different states seen since summer past week one worst weeks life hurt really badly began writing goodbye letters ready it tried reaching her always says wants to respond guy reason last week mom came parents weekend really think wouldve done otherwise anyway friend big long talk happened know level feels terrible needed most kept saying one point making things hard her put much pressure her im upset this think thoughts often constantly feel like burden shed better without me hearing actually say stuff made almost impossible go on days since incident kind distant unwilling discuss happened feel alone empty know would upset died im juts confused im working finding therapist the colleges wellness center made feel worse knows this reason ive open friend suicidal thoughts asked be im quite sure im hoping get posting this want alive anymore im asking save me reassuring im burden really enough long tendency answer hours stuff never bad never asked help best friend know without her know wants me anyone else dealt something similar continue work friendship let go let go practically alone want feel tied down know could use advice guess right feel like need end one deal anymore,1 +im going chocolate shop yall want filter filter filter filter filter filter filter,0 +anyone else thisanyone else start something think something kind slump sit nothing thinking whats point,1 +typical rantim guessing one read this im ok that lost husband longer loves me refuses admit it touched months want alone me literally torturing words saying nothing wrong much debt know upset working im loser much pain time back hurts time anyway put plan action slow plan hoping one attribute ignorance rather plan sort took large dose acetaminophen couple days ago mg taking mg twice day since way say pain know difference tylenol ibuprofen know slow going wait last minute say anything pain cant handle anymore tired pain want out,1 +friends birthday friends birthday coming monday havent gotten anything yet likes twix skittles dont want get those im creative person idk else give her,0 +anyone want aroundmy family friends use have girlfriend myself hate myself im cant normal people life fucking rehashed bullshit over hurt fucking bad cant even get anyone fucking talk day im tired begging friendship love respect fucking anything fucking feel empty time melt meltdown cant anything right probably cant even kill right im tired this fucking lifetime this even try still here want fucking die fucking sucks wish ended long time ago wait everyone always wait wait wait fucking unfair,1 +hard awake feels impossible fall asleep now always feels like minds voicethoughts constantly screaming maximum volume used constant tormenting thoughts new silence always feeling like i want go home safe especially mind,1 +update cuttertilldeathso update life going now original post months ago httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentslnoocuttertilldeath first statement ill start saying finally diagnosed major depressive disorder aswell severe anxiety might add update cut past months now used think killing everyday every morning wokeup something bad happened day went bed fell asleep night would pray wakeup morning wanted pain suffering over id gone world people life would move act never there one would care everyones lives would lot easier parents friendsif even call that boyfriend ive multiple attempts aswell planned out left redflag notes ready it well see unfortunately im still alive update weeks ago jumped nd story bedroom window im okay though wanted die get higher left ankles sprained everything else fine depression medication wellbutrin xl working really well love anxiety medication klonopin fucking amazing feel calm piece surroundings get tense anxious racing thoughts great d boyfriend brokeup im really well broke months ago great part is hes still best closest friend emotional attachment anymore were other d communication mother anymore afraid stand upspeak myself assertiveness amp mindfullness key d,1 +ok so drop one prestigious college country studying major biotechnology engineering lived alone without job nearly year eating nothing white rice sometimes nothing all lost kg weight sometimes could sleep came mom kicked home talked shit brothers want see anymore came grandma house actions let know nobody wants here cannot find job surf countless amounts memes eat much since invite food sometimes eat anything maybe eat leftovers feel like worthless piece shit unable find job got precious gf think deserve her pure sometimes want break use sabotage myself tells give up hard understand grew home money know sleep streets nothing eat well methis saturday birthday going alone know monday yet another suicidal advice,1 +overdosed againtook painkillers feel like pure shit dont guts tell bf,1 +fed everythingthats it im done tomorrow im thrown parents house psychotic bitch mother cant homelessness why job enough try find new one according her father knows nothing this im scared ask talk down cant put hours week one singular task like wants to especially wants also work around house yet somehow thinks taking away literally resources get job get said job somehow enough make get one completely utterly detrimental able find hold job think shed antime able open though asexual transgirl supposed connect bigoted anything cishet evil leads straight hell mentality mother im scared shed try ever told im son thinks am want able accept daughter raised son though know never will whats point trying im ever going get hurt letting true self out shove deeper deeper try survive fights back tears apart inside one thing keeping back killing boyfriend made promise anything harm myself hes gone left without much goodbye spit everything were promises ever words never cared nobody ever has nothing left reason stay goodbye reddit goodbye world time go,1 +canti depressed basically whole life bullying help one bit daughter whos months old love death world im still dealing post partum depression recently quit job trust anyone watch fiance honestly know anymore nothing helps also anxiety thats add bonus fiance gets mad feel like fault honestly feel like growing apart feel like want anymore anyone talk to tell fiance gets upset cant feel like im good anymore look daughters eyes cry cant leave her cant stay here im stuck im scared even commit redflag honestly want live im really depressed,1 +new school senior first post idk advice flair correctly used need advice since rd grade homeschooled recent years started hate lack structure feeling isolation senior year wanted go public school rd week still yet really talk anybody clubs know opened covid group projects covid use every th seat lunch friends know classes people knew already get chance talk names opposite sides alphabet whats best way could start talking people,0 +existence is always meaninglesssomethings wrong many years getting better got fucking diagnosis friday im bipolar ii mother started crying got home heard phone grandmother telling know grandmothers fault terribly bipolar passing medication gets sent dormitory tomorrow evening honestly think im going take get hands it theyre putting mg lamictal daly start sliding mg twice daily along prozac help fucking work even copious amounts drugs nonprescription drugs work boyfriend start watching wilfred told started watching tried kill helped healing process know hes trying help lately nothing works want die nothing ever works want end,1 +know do focus on believe in spend time on noise inside head deafening feel uncertain everything question everything faith love sense conviction future wish knew do lost,1 +idk domy gf severe depression thoughts committing redflag said says anymore exist really scares me im lost help ask help her says theres nothing ,1 +so outside looking great life better average person country kenya parents worked hard grown good home enough food tablei feel lucky hate here always feel like deserve wish could give someone underprivileged better deserving opportunities feel like forced so much live for life great people fight everyday fraction opportunities disposal want this want leave want forfeit feel like ever make whatever doing never good enough nd living everyday postpones death time harder leave failed ton classes first year college could focus everlasting cloud life feel guilty knowing parents paying lot international tuition wasting iti drugs escape another problem life another reason hate always dream feeling nothing going far away maybe sea dying without trace family get hurt believe many years hated forever life depressing think dying every daymaybe cursed tired fighting tired getting toim tired tired,1 +what love longing hearts togetherness sweetest flower flower love fragrant aroma fine fine diamonds wind love dirt love unlike unlikely unlikened to someone tonight question love take lover hand release power within yourself heard me release power tame wild cosmos whisper conquer heaven one intimate caress thats right shy whip everything got butt leon phelps tim meadows created quintessential snl playboy leon phelps cringed hearing smarmy lisp salacious comments made remote tremble outrage employed click feature once dear readersbr br so film version the ladies man came cable mumbled comments clicked yet again comes day gray forlorn nothing on channelssigh yes faced every cable subscribers torment watch turn tv off was leon phelps smirking making laugh happened succumbed hollywoods dumbdown sitcom humor desperate avoid abdicating sacred throne truth matter like the ladies man should story vulgar playboy sipping cognac leering every female form goes feminist sensibilitiesbr br what began crude snl skit blossomed eyes tale leon playboy philosophy going life helping people solve sexual conflicts i mother teresa boning solemnly informs julie karyn parsons friend longsuffering producer radio show the ladies man hes kidding leaving string broken hearts angry spirits leon manages bed breakfast chicago genuine goodwill callingcard lifebr br our selfproclaimed expert ways love manages get lot trouble husbands boyfriends one maligned spouse lance will ferrell forms victims smiling ass usa club vowing catch lovable juan oh yes revenge croons cohorts showstopping dance numberbr br plus total delight see billy dee williams lester tavern owner smooth narrator leons odyssey find sweet thing pile cash where hiding would choose movie valentines day choice leons search easy life changes many profound ways give nod ladies man can movies close find true happiness one woman still offering outlandish advice stuff dreams,0 +film reminds nd street starring bebe daniels ruby keeler watch film lot reminded nd street especially character eloise whos temperamental star ends falling breaks ankle like bebe daniels nd street another performer gets part become star film like race films keeps people watching great entertainment race films always showed black entertainment truly popular time era dancing styles music dressing styles love it movie could big made hollywood would better scenery better filming money would make movie better worth watching good micheaux good little has say micheauxs films swing best movie features singers dancers actresses actors popular forgotten today doli armena awesome female trumpet player blow horn good think gabriel blowing horn sky sexy hot female dancer consuela harris would put ann miller gyspy rose lee shamebr br adding info popular blues singer s s cora green focus film mandy good hard working woman good man takes money spend women nosy neighbor played amanda randolph tells mandy seen heard mandy goes club catches man attractive curvy woman name eloise played hazel diaz hotcha entertainer s fight breaks out mandy goes harlem reunites somewhat guardian angel lena played one beautiful women movies dorothy van engle lena provides mandy home job helps become star temperamental cora smith played hazel guess playing two parts maybe changed stage name tries ruin show bad behavior cora gets drunk breaks leg lena convinces everyone mandy right job lena right star born mandy tall long lanky handsome carman newsome cool aspiring producer lena looks well pretty boy larry seymour plays good man lena threatens him might shape up highlights one sticks part cora smith hazel diaz struts late rehearsal goes everyone man comes punches jaw thats enough almost gets fight mandy again theres great entertainment chorus girls tap dancers shake dancers swing music blues singing theres even white people watching entertainment wonder micheaux found them theres even scene theres blacks whites sitting together club micheaux frequently integrated blacks whites films commended bold movebr br this movie first race film really enjoyed helped introduced oscar micheaux movie one best race film genre behind scenes story ups downs show businessbr br no early race films may best cant compared hallelujah green pastures stormy weather cabin sky carmen jones hollywood films great watch early signs black filmmaking plus films provide glimpse black life black entertainment black persons eyes films gave blacks chance play people walks life beautiful classy elegant stereotypes whites felt blacks portrayed like hollywood actors actresses race films best ones could afforded time micheaux spencer williams afford nina mae mckinney josephine baker ethel waters fredi washington paul robeson rex ingram bigger stars micheaux black white race filmmakers would use nightclub performers movies good great actors actresses think micheaux others knew good actors actresses used apart experiment true talent wanted stories told return many black performers got perform true talents films true actorsactresses race films type films could get work especially want play hollywood stereotypes think able spot true actorsactresses nightclub performers race films historic could lost forever many lost maybe race films greatest example cinema even hollywood films start great beginning think race film genre continued would better looking great acting race films ones looking real example black entertainment blacks portrayed films watch race films entertaining race films good acting cast moon harlem body soul paradise harlem keep punching sunday sinners dark manhattan broken strings boy girl mystery swing miracle harlem sepia cinderella good entertainment good acting,0 +given hope getting gf bf want give life really want someone hold tight cuddle social anxiety im scared things like starting convos anything really people even know anyone could chance with im screwed idk wanna give cry except cant get cry anything pain emotion let want give waste away idk im even posting am,0 +soo beat football rivals im hyped im sooo happy lost last year shut year,0 +got pills step lefti pills lot got pills could almost all really wish death,1 +im pathetic cant even give lifefuck me want give up cant cant even give up fuck stupid sperm win millions stupid fuckers course ungrateful piece shit wins chance existing like trillion bullshit yet im pathetic worthless pile fucking wasted air never amount anything aborted,1 +im failure againi planing going school know im going make it wanted study get purpose life due something dont want get gonna happen dont know do ive planing time everything went shit year could erase year life everything would much better sit shit everything seems hopeless know two ways thats easy purposeless route really hopeing go school friends family think im going go school stomach courage tell situation want fucking disappointment anymore im getting older feel soon going late start over shame living home without job fucking failure walking around knowing everyones disappointed amounted anything far probably future either feel like want know next want walk around head slumped down,1 +ive lost motivation idea doim m high school clue want do cant define single hobby own cant find motivation stuff future close falling apart know myself school luckily counting marks since onset pandemic march but im fearful everything fall apart soon go back school one friends trying hook guy started texting him like like him though keep pushing away fear burden lowkey friendzoned myself haha exchange program germany barring fucking virus cant even find motivation study german though would open opportunities future know best nothing watch youtube hours day sleep barely eat and cut myself im blank ive lost motivation im seriously considering offing every week fuck do please help really know go do sorry rambling know say do ask questions need clarification ill try answer,1 +hello fellow teenagers help friends decide movie watch options below sherlock holmes part murder orient express journey mysterious island darkest hour better suggestions within genre movies comedy leave comments thankyou,0 +asked crush out said yes date next week,0 +pussyi dont even fucking guts end suffering atleast people kill brave enough so tried recently ine them always emerge pussy,1 +business jets tax deduction hunters thats thats post,0 +first time failed second time wonti cant believe fucking failed like proves much failure am wont get wrong time time update goodbyes sorry man l sweet l nothing take back years hurt caused hope makes little bit stop promise im sorry ad girl always you couldnt protect like promised im sorry failed z still honest dick respect man f see ya soon lads it im out,1 +know give upthree months ago got hyperacusis tinnitus panicanxiety disorder light sensitivityvisual disturbances shakingspasming attacks pains headfaceneck amidst general unwell symptoms following three days antibiotics xiflaxan neomycin attempt address digestive issues ive four years greatly worsened year ago worse a year ago weighed weigh unable sleep reflux also became much worse gave ativan sleep night im still months later im sure fucking body more im stuck parents basement unable tolerate barely noise constantly discomfort ears ringing ive diagnosed lyme disease say could reason everything im pretty sure ears damaged antibiotics iv ceftriaxone making debilitating hyperacusis tinnitus worse cant drive cant go outside cant anything except suffer discomfort basement day every day little hope antibiotics make better even benzo addictionwithdrawal get through state ears taken away chance really living again im trying hard give kill myself day antibiotics ears hurt keep ringing harder day sign getting better give hope and understanding never going get better getting worse first im hopeless alone angry unfair happen me wanted able keep living life friends hobbies go out find right girl my gf broke week started im broken think fixed im stuck tiny ass town pasadena md parents basement alone wishing someone would come hug keep safe tonight im always alone keep fight thoughts cutting end picc line ending it even want call help came every drive car hurts ears much more know do im trying hard give end it hope maybe sort recovery able live again feel hopeless alone much pain,1 +game pin join boys flood game,0 +im ordering many packages mom wondering whats like boxes day xd fr mostly small stuff things need like garbage room shit also bunch pc stuff,0 +fucking hate every second im still breathingi hate every morning still woke instead dying,1 +man leg falls asleep feels way different like seriously makes feel like laughing gas least does had oh god felt fucking weird started laughing nowhere yeah side foot hurt crushed bit still felt weird would,0 +thoughts phrasing really need help best friend kinda like relationship talking stuff used phrase hes cooler crush dont think theres underlying message there reading far,0 +failure failed mom failed dad failed girl liked importantly failed myself use sub understand others maybe build empathy love least forgive mistakes always tried good swear life keeps fucking ass lube try act normal go friends work harder learn new things feel everything act still feel empty clear path follow tragedy never noticed signals always there time day night feel painless really trying fuck man god idk fuck charge assuming someone making fun me making struggles bigger day day young less year would graduated top tier uni hopefully things improve prospect better life keeps harming myself family friends her even know going on ones know kind understand tell make stronger thing is tired strong weak pathetic idea keeps popping head keep fighting decide worth fight anymore want coward care love ones proof do care care me give life them escape,1 +guys thick thighsmuscle thick girl vs slim toned legs end debate girls know like toned slimlegs idk guys prefer so fight,0 +close today close thought guys thought people understand me it thank all,1 +found another creep ulivelaughsex porn couple account lurks comments hmu posts deletes comment,0 +kinda sucks parents get divorcedno matter good dad isthe mom would take custody wamen chld support,0 +ive decided im ready dieim still living home unemployed year work im luck getting hired know ill unhappy job do think im meant actual adult think love me know mom devastated feel like living miserably anyone impatient wait till im s later find something like someone im happy with think im ready mg worth xanax alcohol,1 +hi guys redflag came suicide related incident im ready talk happened pretty recent even small things triggering timing possibly worse reasons gaining popularity incredibly quickly ads popping everywhere im getting help things take time cant quit internet way block specific type ad,1 +want existi want die want happy feels impossible do cant remember last time honestly deserve be want normal want normal things friends cant matter much try wish never born keep living want hurt family im complete mess heads mess lifes mess ive fucked everything up cant get job money im struggling college cant even afford get college anymore walk hours day get there im physically mentally exhausted ive started self harming again body already covered scars im ashamed become wish someone could hold tell everything okay theres one im alone hurting badly know anymore im scared ask help im control all deserve help anyways sorry rant,1 +physics student say think one best popular introductions string theory thats there elegant universe manages make entire topic string although actually m theory accessible wider audiencebr br some popular science programmes feel best approach throw audience deep end throwing technical jargon without much explanation presenting theory boring stale style programme goes concepts general relativity quantum mechanics explains issues need resolved two coherent theory applied universe large small scalebr br i suppose could say slow takes long get interesting stuff like extra dimensions wormholes thing is thats point explaining string theory start nigh impossible without least mentioning physics base way explained elegant universe clear entertainingbr br whether like program really depend willing perhaps initially dumbfounded ideas greene presents extra dimensions warping spacetime exactly prevalent everyday life they but persevere exotic concepts programme find give insight research drives world physics today studying physics well great entertainment well likely able follow appreciate even more,0 +im deleting reddit lgbt community pedos legally castrated,0 +tell parents consider redflag alot tell them idea think much tips tell them im scared say looking attention would want commit redflag life great,0 +uh helpi dont many words say loneliness killing fast please help,1 +best friend started dating exhe really felt like the one breakup came nowhere never even gave explanation why im still him feel broken worst break ive ever through dealing hard enough broke two weeks ago now best friend dating him know whats happening know anymore,1 +alright listen lgbt community accepts fucking pedophiles apart im gonna say im straight idc ill like dick im gonna say im straight cause way im gonna apart something supports pedophiles,0 +saving posts fucked rn ya save somethng looks like save every new post u see unsave lookz like u save anything like plsz help,0 +oh cake cant fucking eat nooooooooooooooofilleroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosomuchfillerooooooooooooooooooowhyareyoustillreadingthisoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohaveanicedayiguessoooooooooooooo,0 +hopelessim lose job seems feel like im vomit cry im going keep job care getting paid thats even mind anymore guess im used getting screwed end too lose job probably lose chance tms hope remission depression ever like still fighting even drag out realistically going work means redflag round bloody right but oh well always seem wake tomorrow whats gonna change time,1 +never really felt developed anxiety disorderi know anyone much loser age many things have order survive im terrified end nothing furthest ive gotten making call legs shaking talk ended hanging up abusive relationship ex left debt fault instead getting legal help check email depressed alienated person met her bipolar sociopath even within year already changed different person scared easily agitated codependent seven years startle mild noises think dying tried hang living overseas escape dependent entirely telling going leave there illegally violating eu residency nothing really came power would rip blankets clothes scratch pinch letting take clothes whatever wanted maybe people like deserve live ive given ever want give im used up want hide forever kitties wouldve vanished now sorry read rambling bullshit,1 +thinking ending itits currently writing this ive depressed lately im getting major urges ending it ive turned dont think im gonna make life im afraid tell mom dont want worry dont want go back another hospital need someone anyone talk to even one person enough hope someone sees this,1 +listen beat lyrics sometimes like lyrics filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +yeah im simp super intense minecraft player,0 +father attempted redflag yesterdayyesterday uncle got long emailredflag note father detailing last wishes things nature father lives alone different state uncle called local pd welfare check house found dad car garage odd pills currently icu critical yet stable nurse told me ironically brother wives weeklong beach vacation week nice together this none us know do morning received email dad he scheduled sent simply said i want ruin vacation understanding email dad sent uncle attachments included meant sent brothers life feels significantly stranger know somewhere redflag note addressed me know do would end vacation heartbeat book flight see thought would good know part reason attempted feels like burden rest us believe going see would intensify feelings even know would say him shitty situation wanted vent out,1 +wanna message mods mod obviously cant send modmail answer private pms,0 +psychologist promised would never leave told promise that insisted still ended it whyshe also refer anyone know im unlucky feel like whole universe wants die month wound still healed cant seem make peace it eat sleep care anything time low honestly want rot away anything anymore im dead would therapist me especially knew bpd triggered abandonment rejection understand someone try give opinion may happened close one day decided would ask advice i remember right terminology used seemed like seeked therapist advice something canceled appointments one specific date day told going appointments me normal even want go therapist this trust already damaged previous experiences decided give one last chance trust happens im done this college psychologist even referred anyone supposed do even really patience issue lawsuit her either now alone cant afford private psychologist add whole pile accepted college year also psychiatrist sick canceled appointments indefinitely happening im tired,1 +sorry mistakes romanian problem depressed homeschooled little behaind whit school work want catch summer cannot find energy motivation study advice,1 +welp friends wish luck tomorrows day get mouth mutilated sake jaw dreaded blood waterfall ive told about data otherwise id post lobby xx,0 +afraid feel afraid point life theres much done much done many points life wish could travel back change many points wish could know advance im scared im scared future successful even future fail im scared present too feel like im failing relationship sake convenience relationship feels comfortable love feels like sensation felt around slipping fingers love like this love die problem wrong theres much im wrong theres much done wrong tried help friend made stuff worse made much fucking worse us wish could somehow go back change moment fucked badly help happened almost year ago day still know right thing afraid think made worse make stuff worse sometimes try bad person know come terms fact bad person want bad person one wants bad person many bad people almost ended life someone denies anything me lying always lies shes life now clings people know like virus virus people viruses virus rely much leave crawl back do cant leave him destroyed whenever last time cant invitabely going happen leave struggle again know im going cope that last time bad fucking handle it know able handle it im still person first happened feel like ive changed im sure im lying myself probably am change feels fake thought made mental health much better days feel bad days cant help it days break cry shortest reasons im sure thats ok part thinks ok everyone cries sometimes crying make weak im sure think so feel weak cry feel damaged cry crying helpful feeling sometimes destructive feeling times crying release much pain also enhance it crying stress out know someone cant cry cried last years first glance seems like blessing release emotions builds takes harmful ways hurts crying understand cant cry get it hurts bad feel bad her want help much feel like theres anything do people hurt sometimes theres nothing help like that want help cant time help people cant help people feel bad apparently im good helping people admire trait cant help people part feels useless like ive failed one things im good at odd life odd teenager odd filled much emotion many strange things sometimes need vent mindlessly ive done here know anyone see thats ok good get stuff sometimes even void odd,0 +the godfather television aside acclaim mobster characters two nothing alike tony soprano forced go psychiatrist series panic attacks psychiatrist learns tony actually part two families one family loving father yet notsoperfecthusband family ruthless wiseguy analysis dr melfi concludes tonys problems actually derive mother livia whos suspected borderlinepersonality disorder gandolfini rightfully praised main character yet bracco marchand nearly recognized equally talented performances psychiatrist mother respectively falco imperioli dematteo acclaimed brilliant supporting roles van zandt from estreet band plays first role tonys best friend quite convincing latching chianese recurring actor actually appeared godfather film plays tonys uncle onandoff nemesis many fans also enjoyed characters played pastore ventimiglia curatola proval pantoliano lip sciorra buscemi tonys children okay notable with exception ilers stunning performance thirdtolast episode the second coming sirico schirripa unconvincing overthetop show strong hold back even show continues six season ceases dull predictable momentbr br out four,0 +oneminute film arguably first movie ever made inventors previously filmed actions like edisons motion photography sneeze lumiere brothers developed equipment tremendously advanced medium time course cinematograph must bewildered peers including subjects first instance brothers record employees leaving factory understandably struggle hide awareness camera lumieres attempt make film entertaining introducing animals bicycle la sortie des usines lumiere nearly match ingenuity later films interesting aspect short film brothers selection familiar working class ritual subject choice initial evidence curiosity worlds people quality makes viewing experiments immensely rewarding fascinating todaybr br rating ,0 +trump forget vote leader trump hes best greatest president weve ever seen,0 +fun fact onion rings veggie doughnuts,0 +nothing used love makes happy anymorei sake appearing normal family cant focus anything all theres something back mind thats preventing enjoying anything cant even focus assignments anymore used good distraction theyre something exacerbates negative thoughts emotions like try fight back retaliates even harder,1 +im happy relationship feelings heartache guilt regarding ex making feel terriblei long distance relationship years things got rocky one fights broke enough want crawl back like before stood ground think spite wanted fix things let him started feeling guilty decided go try enjoy life hanging boyfriend got involved intimately one thing lead another hes boyfriend ex well call v wanted try fix things said changed could work things out hed finally fly see family after years never did always went there hed visit move whatever begged begged said no left alone week felt wanted take life asked stay phone decided could talk outside mosquitoes eating me know suicidal said left alone wanted put head lap wanted talk left alone many times dark place matter going on hed set aside come help me betrayed him cant say felt like wanted go back stuck decision theres much more may write out want make huge post basically im friend spending time with ex moved telling dead him girlfriend understand happy think im happy sometimes remember hurt caused again theres tons layers this feel horrible wonder things could ended differently sometimes feel horrible boyfriend right kind caring always looking me care deeply told loved once cant feel like say ever again know im still love v keep trying pretend like im not like think him push memory aside alot christmas coming the time year id go visit anxiety getting worse feel like crying see things remind him mother loved own cant anymore im scared feelings regret hate man one point told id side eternity life planned together year supposed close distance hate keep holding this want pack things run want leave everything everyone know behind alone myself maybe go west lay field fucking overdose lost want kill myself thing stopping lack solid plan along guilt feel hurt man loved point want myself terrible pain want hurt anyone anymoreim scared loving again miss man called lover best friend v miss friends lost end relationship spent many nights playing games together wish could somehow still friends im scared hurting anyone anymore thats thing thats keeping just finding whatever means end it know im loved many people im blessed friends like ones do im blessed family like one have im blessed caring boyfriend wants find happiness feel fucking alone scared right now bringing anyone gonna cause trouble again cant tell anyone cant afford therapy want vanish edited missing words,1 +today might last dayi trying wait longer really couldnt take it somethings might help regain hope life also fun things hopefully not last day really cant,1 +heres maybe last drawing gitcommitdie avatar anyways is link drawinghttpswwwredditcomuserkatracommentsltubnlast_ugitcommitdie_drawing_or_is_it_probably_isutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf also might rest mods later with permission ofc,0 +tried commit redflagmy plan freeze river walked hour half spot one could see me took life jacket tied rope tree began walking freezing water it probably extremely close freezing temperature put hands water could feel blood rushing fingers rope ended knee deep wanted die point would kneel try keep upright couple minutes this realized stayed here would get frostbite took maintain effort immerse water would easier floating rely body keep submerged knew chance id wake tomorrow alive frostbitten began think everything live for said myself i cant die here panicked know could make it point rushed back shore could feel fingers tried put socks on dexterity it took minutes lots tripping falling mud eventually got it got gloves on able get blood circulation hands again walked home experience taught deep im really sure want die part wishes succeeded never really know,1 +guys need help ok im going going hour drive need know die boredom youtube cannot option middle nowhere parts drive pls help,0 +today cried alone sitting corner feeling low depressed,0 +need love yourself sincerely stop depending others provide do pain experienced differently feel negative energy welcome open arms let stay long wants harm you harm trying get rid it times negative thoughts interactions flood mind accept harsh judgement could correct might done something stupid may awkward matters say does without consent nobody define good existence powerwhen depend others image worth constantly change fit definition good trade life affection another idea here becomes blind leading blind spend time yourself watching tv reading book stand slowly move toes bend knees slightly flex lower body feel like let muscles take pressure bones turn music allow connection sound touch go unfiltered make vocals let blood oxygen flow nerves come alive hear saymany abuse bodies treating like slave will foundational part existence spend time enhance experience lying bed shut everything slowly curly hands toes tense motion feel movement it experience existence grab second appreciate it believe could create better one power so rules meaning purpose written mind difficult use knowledge empathize existence malleable going shape will need connect it voices others yourself you exist incredible let anyone lie telling truth know see is please understand sincere love,1 +oneive episodes ive planned perfect ways myself planned out everything think redflag way shit gets bad know ill enter void gone im perfectly okay that im even slightly afraid humanity march on perform great things without me but things is im straight student labeled gifted woefully pathetic school friends girls like me family loves me im getting job offers ive never much upset about even that look gore watch redflag videos executions murder get kind satisfaction fact bother me strange attraction cant want shake nobody else knows hide quite well frequent websites filled content people would call horrible shit not naming names know type affect me feel know say it stronger im immune fear death even attraction it control it fits anger hurt people animals feel makes better rageoholics wifebeaters serial killers control myself unlike them addition that feel opposite ends emotional spectrum extreme happiness extreme sadness make mistake thinking im manicdepressive though eventbyevent basis something amazing could make quite happy know flip side coin something somewhere triggers extreme sadness days im mostly limbo feeling empty thing close sad get im wellbutrin depression probably helping getting addicted passiveaggressive redflag cigarettes dip tell reddit sick head crazy ask because first time long while think am im ,1 +guess thats itsw last resorti never thought would end herebut point im desperate im guy bisexual record ive love straight best friend years knows everything told everything hes perfectly fine cant forget him even though rejected many times yesterday last time literally told theres zero chance anything happeningits stupid knew answer even though likes tease time time feeling way think itive met couple people come love rejected me wether theyre straight cant love me hurts so fucking much thought capable loved overwhelming me fact ive rejeceted whole life help well im losing emotions cant cry anymore whats left me studying im pretty good university working alone actually thing makes forget this whats point im happy never was now im thinking isolating myself stop going friends stop talking everyone finish work like robot im becoming end it hope im far away enough everyone easily vanish without causing suffering anyone tell me whats other way out please say it gets better ive thinking like years im never got better guarantee find happiness keep fighting,1 +im complete controli know do guys want kill myself im afraid im going tothe thoughts control say no theres people love hurt control anymore want it me im year old girl cant go get help parents think want attention im afraid contact anyone else lot friends throwaway account theres teacher reads posts mess lately want anyone get annoyed messed give me people right basically have want anything ive found thoughts take make stuff almost cut days ago even thinking automatic happy today felt surreal me crying help inside want go home school im safe theres always people around keep anything stupid family house means alone told this might hurt me know scare me want it want it both im finally losing marbles terrifying plan im okay thoughts betraying me im trapped theres nothing it hours later edit oh god please help me,1 +power get live life impasse whatever means guess im going toss food outside something relevant individual not sure thats true honest power also please expose location currently trying die,0 +dont know anymorei dont understand point anymore dont think ill kill today im sure plan it know sometime soon cant longer,1 +im prohet but know person reading breathing happy new years,0 +friend looking new homie play ps est time zone play mainly terrariabo cod ww pubg hyper scape gta etc make gay jokes dont snowflake pm comment interested,0 +dont post often im mobile apologies formatting errors etc ill try make easy read background ive struggling alcohol abuse im currently months sober yay first month without alcohol withdrawals intense became angry redflag charts couldnt focus anything hand time taking mg paroxetine gp doubled mg months body tried cope without alcohol,1 +care anymorea ago mental breakdown tried open family it sister criticized cleaning apartment said took everything get day ants uncles either believe mental illness friends moved lost contact nobody even takes seriously tell abusive past control finances getting harder keep going feel like every possible turn moment people keep kicking im down idk one probably see thing feel numb pain care,1 +want kill myselfi planning jumping bridge river impact it drowning hypothermia will im three feet head stress anxiety hate body want try anymore im tired through antidepressants helping im done,1 +please someone talk meim im weird af hate wanna die need talk someone weird attraction else itll tear apart,1 +vsauce,0 +fucccccc school starts today im even upset school im mad fact go bed time wake hours earlier least first day easy one,0 +comment something pe teacher said add emoji end ill go first gotta slow ladies youre going fast,0 +recently saw film d film festival hollywood polarized d gray glasses red blue much fun watch film audience print excellent d perfect performances top added fun surprise ending that supposed share fellow movie goers least according movie trailer poster people howling laughter todays standards probably comedy horror added dimension d complete cobwebs bats coming screen film entertaining romp s horror,0 +whats popular show like cant get into vampire diaries julie phantoms,0 +even know fuck wrong anymoreas right now ive pretty much given recovery want out suffer chronic severe nausea lasts day every day break years almost suffer panic attacks least times week im talking minute attacks last hours anxiety racing thoughts alone enough want die paired physical symptoms im convinced anything death cant bad this left house literally months younger selective mutism forever known weird one skipped school lot eventually dropped public school grade im grade remember going halls people would say ewww even parking lots would see groups peers would make animal noises me friends whatsoever hospital shit doctors area shit crisis line complete bullshit think staying hospital made homicidal ever before incompetent everyone is hate canada hate fucking month wait lists feel like smarter doctors know symptoms medications would help yet try tell me im dealing bullshit anymore see life ever getting better changing,1 +im unable love anyone apart ex fiancee im lonelyin august living nice apartment partner seven years engaged two years wonderful relationship travelling world together shortly engagement sister passed away breakdown ampxb spent next two years trying get back feet emotionally unstable lean ex support me although accommodating months so eventually started seeing doctor anxiety disorder cope relationship anymore ended leaving someone else ampxb first committed getting better whatever took getting relationship back track got good medication went gym daily went vacations alone busy stuck home made quite friends one biggest issues many friends lean on myself course also missed her ampxb still person left years ago reached couple times told missed me contact months asked last month relationship give yes answer even though friend facebook friends see still together ampxb months ago tried let go went lots dates even got together girl little while cant feel attracted romantically anyone ex dream multiple times week wake thinking sometimes want drive place pick another incredible date together days seem past point im starting another breakdown cant her want horrible struggle end,1 +wanted tell pm talking redflag redflag never option first all sorry umistakenbacon want apologise front members wanted post funny way memes umrcharisma thanks calling whore reposter greedy shit mind needs hear this hate gt good sir repost rteenagershttpswwwredditcomrteenagers given heading u_darthjarjar_ know called repost added joke image found internet meme making geniunely asking karma whore ok see things think better subreddit add touch sometimes dont greedy meaningless internet points promise reading repost thing shitty person inside respects words told members also want vent hate myself slapped myself no lunatic fucked teaching presentation class computer chose teach one topic whole class great opportunity right created good ppt time presentation got nervous fuck started stammering one classmate asked question able explain read till here thanks leave reddit december sorry umistakenbacon ampxb hate,0 +gentle easygoing s comedy kim novak belongs coven witches manhattan puts spell neighbor jimmy stewart boredom eventually falls love him losing powers see witches permitted hot blood love elsa lanchester novaks aunt also witch jack lemmon brother ditto hermione gingold chief witch ernie kovacks sidney redlich author specializes writing witchesbr br i described s comedy could hardly mistaken anything else everything smooth polished set decoration wardrobe plot performances direction take character ernie kovacks hes referred a drunk nut heres movie demonstrates traits asks second drink and though always wears jacket tie like gentlemen hair bit long tousled thats strictly s version drunk nut nothing place everything tidy free dust soles jimmy stewarts shoes barely scuffedbr br and zodiac club witches hang out called a low dive yet clean dark place polite waiters quintet musicians neatly dressed clientle potted plants bare brick walls idea low dive even greenwich village idea dive greenwich village juliuss white horse tavern san remo swing rendezvous defunct lesbian hangout zodiac club high dive compared thesebr br the kookiness always hear muted todays standards mean kim novak odd runs around apartment bare feet wears lot black clothes like beatniks period didbr br but never mind that enjoyable romantic comedy kim novak effective gillian runs primitive art shop uptrodden strange beauty bulky ethereal time glides rather walks wispy presence eyebrows seem drawn set plastic french curves jimmy stewart quite good bewildered bewitched victim s usually played light roles postwar years much s tortured protagonist puts early experience comedy good use could resist laughing hermione gingold forces wear shawl drink hideous concoction putrid fluid order cure novaks spell good see stooge instead angry indignant man principle danger becoming richard quine directs movie quietly without fireworks special effects interesting things play had note scene novak casts spell stewart siamese cats face ears seem merge novaks startling eyesbr br ernie kovacks s wellknown television personality never anything quite like ernie kovacks show after brings word surrealism mind could stage five minutes worth wordless indescribable tricks unpopulated room bartoks concerto orchestra background unimpeachable sketch using character percy dovetail effete poet credits kind skip condoli brothers thats rather casual two guys pete conte virtuoso trumpeters independent careers jazz ensembles conte later member doc severisons band johnny carsons late showbr br the third act kind bogs little becomes romantic comedy never dull whole film rolls along neatly van drutens play kids probably get kick too,0 +anyone need friends dont irl or someone talk toeven pandemic irl friends aways thought boring alot people think way get know yall need friend oe anything,1 +good night good night,0 +friend made sit watch film material god devil heaven hell restaurant thrown good measurebr br four guys prick dies howis thats story never guess ending one skillfully realized little gem aussie cinema hats team made onebr br ,0 +give song recommendedations pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee le popular onessss good onessss underrated onessss,0 +expectations id never heard jamie foxx knew film strong character actors it thought highly entertaining fun plot different unpredictable enough hold interest me foxx original david morse terrific true finest role thought chases pyrotechnics contributed film well done expect lot happily surprised,0 +realized dont good pictures tons crying dumb af cant find actually think pretty im sad,0 +trouble suspending disbelief you consider woman already late middle age finds newborn baby cabbage patch raises own think it makes attempt locate mother may well confused teenager need medical treatment seemingly one italian equivalent social services makes attempt put baby care no social services know fantasy know young toto ten adoptive mother dies leaving orphanage emerges happy man loves everybody nothing flat given suitcase man stole organised local homeless bona fide shantytown residents encore leads fight capitalism shape businessman buys land shantytown stands oil discovered there wants swallowing without subsequent miracles beginning totos dead mother the old lady raised rather biological one appearing handing dove doubles magic wand allowing grant modest wishes finale hobos fly away better place located presumably somewhere rainbowbr br on hand film charm easy surrender to balance small masterpiece,0 +listen listen tik tok base ur personality based tik tok get like bro amount cute ass mofos see personality literally every guy girl tik tok dumb like broski go touch grass,0 +anyone feel like talkingkind bad spot right feel like need talk someone edit feel bit comfortable think im going post told writngrl here sorry relatively large wall text incomplete ill add later well come middle class background year old white male sorry useless information suppose started around years old and currently living mom dad step brother used showers brother believe sexually abused i cant say remember much back sticks out mentally disabled swapped kind crazy zealous christian done anything harm since general brotherbrother fights young overweight kid confidence coincides fat average build still self confidence issues growing brother general problem child good every two weeks id deal loud raging arguments father continued years point mom mental breakdown tried slitting wrists recovered awhile another breakdown years later fine past two three years breakdowns stop step brother slitting throat means redflag,1 +worryi would like leave redflag note worry even good enough silly sound im worried sentences bit paper enough family worry look im dead stupid know want look decent whoever finds me worry house spotless people come take away body bag ridiculous im worrying strangers think housework carry away worry last cup tea sweet enough last bath hot enough worry alot stuff ive always way since far back remember ive never felt wanted accepted anyone never good enough one people worry others think them know much struggle relax chill out head forever going past good memory tell wearing time dinner day loads memories good bad hate sensitive grew house women hormones bloody everywhere shared room sister one year us would argue light onoff would argue sharing clothes make up books could hold argument anymore even hearing people arguing cry know stupid sound cant handle it know manipulative abusive violent relationship many years know may sound odd think damage really coming past year since split im wreck hate much without sounding like right selfish cow friday come quick enough ive enough pains,1 +compare hands mine ever came thing big hands means big dick genius greatest lie time hands fucking huge nothing else tho,0 +sure looking for maybe way feel way brother killed days ago buried days ago years old wedding days feel joy wedding think there feel terrible fianc want think happy marrying him love him hes trying best supportive understanding devastated room for supposed one happiest days yet know family especially mom going able mentally present understand fine past week trying get everything done tough mom help she barely leave house want lay bed day friends really made time redflagful want talk them let alone lean time aunts best friends even pushed bachelorette threw one since maid honor dropped ball course none make iti like going parents feel like support there wanted wedding be supposed joyous not already antidepressants supposed start counseling get back honeymoon tw brother committed suicide,1 +quit drugs cold turkey sober months tbh thing different life aware sad ugly stupid am atleast last years life high care everything hit ta know carry living like this l either od next time use hang woods cannot anymore hard life depressing,1 +know help them im running timea friend mine wants kill themselves theyre preparing kill themselves fact concrete plans commit redflag within weeks im running ideas ive read talking tips risk assessment guide ive tried best could follow them theyre made clear family unsupportive friends left seem external support fact mostly seems contact people think theyre attention seeker friend believes themself believes thats deserve die theyre minor live side planet know name address anything help theyre kid please want die,1 +reason nevada taking long scared admit kanye cant convince otherwise,0 +im jumping less minutesim drinking peppermint tea watching episode spongebob im off minutes walk listening ipod one last text boyfriend im gone many mental health problems handle even meds goodbye ,1 + count it loses sleep games regularly think hours might lowend estimate want say games every day go real life friends except invite friends numerically yes spend time together hours spent sleeping,0 +anyone know posible call redflag hotline another countryi thinking time best mental wiew world old memory came forh wouldt like apologize first bad english poor use words bad use periodes commas like blame year old boy denmark legally call country redflag hotlines morally acceptable would try make mutually understanding despide politicks asking becouse really wants know ever need call could availablility talk try talk someone concern go old super supressed memory sorry cant write yet,1 +im itmy boyfriend broke me had edit im mobile im sorry format know post vague emotional state couldnt think clearly ended taking way im supposed take daily adderall got back hospital hours know one probably see care ive finally made willing choice seeing therapist hard open people therapy never helped me want happy love myself whole story long complicated point anyone struggling mental illness please seek help extremely difficult know sometimes even venting someone feel better showing weakness strongest thing do took years learn this im sorry rambling im still ill okay hope helps someone mean im havent experienced lot life ive fair share internal struggle didnt believe therapy hope now,1 +yall coping fact lost year teens especially seniors im still sad lost senior year supposed like closure feel like ill forever feel like junior,0 +hey baby doin dryhumps leg,0 +wanna play kirby amazing mirror again,0 +im going try less socially awkward starting interacting cousins going tough since like fullgrown adults lmao nice people get siblings talk fine teenagers well going tough trying less awkward though look way immediately look phone ground something idk that maintain conversations someone approaches first,0 +i love byt hte much vant deal feel ike cant breathe wont let treat like wont let ber boyfriend either,1 +ur looking great today unless put pineapple pizza theres special layer hell u,0 +flex much yall but two reddit followers,0 +maybe need head examinedbut thought pretty good moviethe cg badi seen worsethe look creaturesand creatures mean good bad snakewas pretty coolthe action scenes involving snakes really goodi thoughtthere lapses logic timesand story always make sensebut creature featurethere lot worsea lot creatures seemed lifted moviesso wholly originali think gist story original thoughthere bit similarity godzillathe big budget american versionwhich liked loti like movie muchbut still say pretty goodi also liked musicall alli think dragon wars ,0 +ground going open swallow evil ground gonna open swallow evil right thats see it word bond seeand ground symbol poor people right poor people gonna open whole world swallow rich people cause rich people gonna fat gonna appetizing know im saying wealthy appetizing poor gonna poor hungry right know im saying gonna like know im saying gonna might might cannibalism mf might eat rich know im saying,0 +happened got girlfriend dont know fucking got one really really like girl every single one friends thinks perfect match im native american shes mexican friend said gonna beautiful golden skinned babies im trying yet im open like years really feels like shes perfect,0 +wanna end itthat all,1 +got beat death santa trying get fuck me fucking worth yall luckily im immortal try next year,0 +im garbage human beingim waste existence oh fucking god dont want hurt one anymore im worthless dont want exist fucking hate alive dont want anyone else get hurt love much hate,1 +anyone wanna talk or something talk maybe discord maybe anything else god forbid snapchat,0 +wish knew way kill myselfthis worst year life taught hope left wish could kill dont way without making sure wont cause pain feel like really want method go finally say goodbye world dont want keep living feel like choice ive thought giving brain damege would lead even suffering dont want live dont want suffer either im lost,1 +first time youth ahead methe second time partner sidethis time nothing nobody myself depressed three times life,1 +ran across posting im sure make itthrowaway account ran across posting httpphoenixbackpagecomsportsequipforsalepleasedonotsellaguntothisgirl links following one contains phone number httpredflagprojectorgpartnerinus httpredflagprojectorgpartnerincanada im sure anyone could look possibly give call email her probably check account posting qualified involved however thought id put reddit community since love help people much,1 +life friendsnothing look forward to im poor lived trailer park life friends abandoned me im like one step away slitting fucking throat,1 +deeply tired would love diewhen die hope see again one want see,1 +please talk mehi all so things tough lately ill try write coherently im struggling ive going time time lately lots reasons longstanding anxiety depression ocd recent problems university relationship problemsconflictions not word apparently on ive spend last days really much ive trying tidy tip room havent gotten far that ive mainly bed drinking watching youtube simple things tbsg dont tax much yeah im going tough time one thats involved lot alcohol ever life am time sleeping pattern messed up usually anyway especially lately mind mess im struggling lot people talk but dont know please talk me feel alone im supposed visiting parents later today sunday dinner visit enjoy anxiety leaving house things bit much sometimes especially sleeping problems least couple weeks since last visited them know mum misses worried me see sheer number threads started subreddit people truly struggling depressing try help can need something dont know what dont know ill fall asleep go parents later day hope visit them might go drunk somewhat drunk time dont want worry them helps me makes feel better makes forget things bad thoughts dont last long helps sleep chris,1 +love movie focuses issues reality fantasy reality hey wanted date popular guy billy us kissed yet right honestbr br another real issue pain people gain teasing whoa high school life remember it fantasy finding true love still high school really fantasy close enoughbr br although parts unbelievable great movie words describe incredible work story wonderful drew barrymore charmingly wonderful job hilarious david arquette people worked movie wonderful repeat thatbr br never kissed one movies later generations watch shows reality somenot issues people like me,0 +creative team jim abrahams david zucker jerry zucker roots improvisational theatre madison wisconsin believe was group called kentucky fried theatreor something similar put bunch set pieces onto celluloid askentucky fried movie long irreverent sophomoric really funnybr br they followed popular airplane really put map it took rather well known veteran actors robert stack especially leslie nielsen putting prominent roles proceeded parody every clich every aviation film since days john waynes batjacproduction high mighty pockets stuffed cash noticed trio worked deal pramount television american broadcasting company tv network half hour comedy spoof nearly countless police crime drama show come gone television screens years remembering fine job mr leslie nielsen turned airplane cast leadbr br as sgtltcaptain frank drebbin the rank designation switch one comic bitshe presided great series successive puns sight gags non sequitors overblown policecrime clichsall strung together someseemingly standard scripts added overly dramatic opening narration voiced information contradicting visual printed info always used giving title episode titles voice printed titles never matchedbr br they great musical score even though somewhat exaggerated would passed theme incidental music straight dramathe musical score opening titles format episodes divided act i act ii epilogue etc part obvious affectionate ribbing qm quinn martin productions they even announcer real qmsbr br one thing short series technically augmented audience laughter and boy sure need phony tract nature spoof demanded viewers close almost undivided attention proved ultimate reason behind police squads downfallbr br in regards series cancellationan abc executive explained episodes called much attention part viewer so one would wantbr br so wonderfully wacky hilarious episodesoff afterlife series cancellation went police squad reborn naked gun trilogy made big screen movie houses again quite well box office oh well tvs loss cinemas gain thanks mr idiot tv execbr br high mighty produced dukes batjac productions released warner brothers unavailable quite number years finally mr waynes family made arrangements release television video,0 +feel empty used upim turning next year im gonna go whats wrong me im kissless virgin ive never even come close im ugly sin awkward looking small frame im short especially place live small penis phimosis really really bad hirsuties coronae trust gonna find anything looks like mine image search damaged sensitivity porn im incredibly stupid terrible literally everything do best mediocre im pretty sure iq somewhere close number im loser driving license goals future fucked violent straight psychopathic imagination mind really bad anger issues manipulative behaviour awful things close friends ive never best friend ive fallen love one girl ever hurt badly girl beautiful months since last spoke still think practically every day want check life,1 +today birthday wanted share cake friends rteenagers,0 +funny title interesting andor smart body text another paragraph interesting andor smart body text interesting andor smart ending paragraph,0 +good evening everybody hows life treating tuesday anything exciting happen good news bad news perhaps boring day sleeping like me,0 +anyone wanna chat rn wanna chill someone got sum wanna talk pm,0 +depressed feel like im stallingi dont know start this ive depressed several years ive tried talking therapist ive taken tablets yet nothing helps decided enough appointments taking antidepressants stopped going taking think every day im stalling redflag want get done with ive attempted several times ive failed far ive gotten ashamed talk anyone now cant even talk friends distanced rarely keep touch havent completely given up try sometimes get urge go end trying getting harder days sure im writing here maybe want someone talk sometimes something,1 +wonderful fanciful movie stardust isbr br i could easily end one statement suffice say one could take strong recommendation go see itbr br at time hollywood seems bent forcing remakes sequels throats stardust makes us remember go movies first place escape reality couple hours explore lives times planets ironically stardust takes us three places effortlessly childlike glee long forbr br stardust full characters remember children princes witches pirates ghosts scoundrels damsel distress hero rogues obstacles spells antidotes charms even touch lightspeed make quasi modernbr br stardust man town wall conveniently situated next wall separates town magical kingdom way past wall breech diligently guarded scruffy old codger played wonderfully david kelly one day young man wall named ben barnes maneuvers old guard escapes breech happens upon enchanted kingdom called stormhold meets chained and sexy young lady named una held captive witch leashed unbreakable chain witch away una seduces ben sends way ben returns wall without incident continues life nine months later summoned wall breech old guard hands might expect baby boybr br the boy named tristan grows rather hapless young man charlie cox smitten girl way league also betrothed another nevertheless young lady named victoria played sienna miller goes tristain confesses love her espy falling star tells retrieves star brings back her agrees sets quest take side wallbr br meanwhile kingdom stormhold old king perfectly played peter otoole dying calls remaining living sons tell shall succeed throne sons names primus secondus sextmus septimus sons killed brothers humorous competition see lives get thronebr br anyway tosses ruby charm sky voila brings star earthbr br the star crashes form beautiful woman named yvaine clare danes she course wearing charm little know persuaded tristain princes also aging witch named lamia michelle pfeiffer wants cut stars heart regain youthbr br complicated yes comes together adventure unfoldsbr br tristain first find yvaine blinded devotion victoria recognize growing bond yvaine initial interest lie returning yvaine victoria proof love must get past princes lamia first princes big issue constantly trying kill pirates caribbean never death funny br br but tristain also encounters witch enslaved mother though know mother band flying pirates led robert denirobr br his important character movie deniro plays tee steals movie toughness soon learn undercover secret leave audiences floor laughter though role small length deniro extraordinarybr br michelle pfeiffer wonderful lamia sexy evil witch claire danes appropriate confused distressed yvaine makes perfect damsel jason flemyng adam buston rupert everett mark strong add perfect dose levity fighting princes whom die return ghosts ala blithe spirit high spiritsbr br moreover director matthew vaughn whose directing experience layer cake weaves enchanting tale everyone enjoybr br stardust may complex young children anyone age want see movie multiple times good stardust movies supposed be perfectly written perfectly cast perfectly directed perfectly acted wordsperfect,0 +whats adults us using things generation made make lives easier guess theyre jealous one time family friend family came mentioned dnd brother loves ive played before alright id rather prefer alone time mentioned loves it offered come play them brother said yeah said could come too said id rather stay home watch dogs nobody else would home would watch them stepdad like means hed rather stay home play phone yeah sorry people person im sure youd love play game youre interested people know theyre friends mother honestly dont think stepdad likes us nothing like him,0 +downward spiral wish school psychologist would notice could doas many know millions quarintine moment many students stuck online work extreme social anxiety anxiety general topped depression nothing special case year started new school tried normal student inevitably ended eating every lunch schools psychologist office just like old school nice understanding ive opened lot her always tried miss school absent would feel awful mornings wanting go whats point literally one waiting me even teachers would notice absence time went would backtracked owed work would overwhelm make worse fast forward now were stuck home wanted right spiraled much know do alone times helping all least school could see different faces talk would moments enjoyed for depressed nothing new would frequently go psychologists office cry understand depressed live parents theyre another country live family friend im way overdue bunch online work im borderline failing school ends june know do whenever try work get headaches want cry never get anything done ive sent countless apology emails teachers makes feel worse sending emails psychologist trying keep hopeful guess feel joy anything loved draw ive completely stopped see anything else tried convince today sent hopeless email yesterday try think graduating couple weeks left give motivation all graduate feel endlessly hopeless border taking life weeks ago anxiety medication aunt visiting thought trying get addicted took bottle away after woke pm day point being ive close im sorry im rambling think psychologist thinks id seriously something like that even though ive told wish would get way car way home wondering tell seriously ive thinking suicidal thoughts would would try sending crisis center or something like that want depressed anymore want want risk sent crisis center pandemic going around especially since im one top affected states pills left aunt left theyre sedatives doctor given higher dosage mg one pill counts two ive heard pass away sleep either way wish know would,1 +title suggests planned kill last night precisely plan electrocute really require lot prep go details specific act due fear someone might attempt recreate it anyways would second suicide attempt first one year half ago stabbing neck times elegant suicide method admit looking something elegant time diagnosed dysthymia persistent depressive disorder years ago changed therapists medications nothing helped enough feels like life postponing suicide since first attempt bright side selfharmed since hell want sometimes every bridge every speeding car every kitchen knife every rope every policeman even see way death main question people might title go it no why know really instead went run which usually temporary mood boost goes away quite quickly tired it still want it yes yes yes stopped today friend mine birthday today want ruin even really close postponing sure when anyways thanks time hope better suicide attempt planned last night,1 +jump infront train tomorrowive got redflag notes written updated im sick tired bullshit overdose attempts got train schedule tomorrow im jumping front train quickeasy effective im disgusting human beeing raised two alcoholic abusive parents raped child bullied way throughbschool im also non actingnever have never will peadophile eyes dont deserve live tomorrow get end misery god bye everybody,1 +life feels messythis going sound absolutely ridiculous computer messed up phone broken think mantain decent grades anymore im lazy work keep spending gross hrs porneven blockers feel addicted it many things read thing type lot work im lazy hell made bit fatter annoyed feel annoyed angry irritated sleep feels messed up cant stay finish anything spend way much time avoiding work sites face feels extremely oily acne active im unable get shave properly skin feels bit bad feel conflicted many things time feels like moves fast suck lot things subjects im lazy feel extremely unproductive honestly kind wanted vent probably unless something big happens really really want to,1 +dr bock teaches hospital quite good it thing depressed dr bock wife separated children deviant cannot perform bedroom feels good job healing people becomes suicidal meets barbara changes ideas better around story murder mystery group angry protesters outsidebr br the movie well done character dr bock well played out little sad somewhat funny somewhat drama good see couple stories wrapped around hospital even somewhat unrelated dr bock doing great movie,0 +went hospital called nsph visited psych still feel emptyso sunday overwhlemed everything im im decently high corporate ladder technically support system nothing helping heart mind see everything okay im aware enough know sound like whiny bitch throwing tantrum attention however rest doesnt want live anymore sunday called national redflag hotline got response line another caller shed call back literally nothing happened felt even like sign finish wasnt worth it went hospital got asked typical questions sent way home told visit psych following day werent open mlk day feel uncomfortable skin im half mexicanhalf white gay overweight food makes feel temporarily happy gained lbs past year half it im east tennessee things feel like case even worse actually is people expressed important them much love much ive done life feel nothing except wanting stop living brain wont stop going back dark side whatever hell is life guess want magic pill stop thinking everyone lying dont really care theyre using me past keeps coming like elevator started floor someone pressed every button floor cant un press them someone felt way advice pulled want help understand trust people life honest true word want pain thoughts stop want make world better place want one feel way feel terrible thing shake off want happy again,1 +im done this thisits fault choosing change way am but hard find motivation something youre alone,1 +always smell like victorias secret amp weed lil bit rly became stoner chick always dreamed woooooow ok pretty lame honestly,0 +might soonill begin new job next week industrial labor job ill working hour days ive depressed long increasingly suicidal want take first paycheck get overdose something im dont know im gonna make it im trying think life better get shitty home life think will might damaged already,1 +yall give post free awards post saw post dont free awards filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +istg im losing itand know still fucking stalk reddit know youre seeing everything ive going through yet havent heard you would anniversary today stayed till midnight hoping youd text waited pm cos thats usually wake up still nothing ive slept whole day ate anything almost fainted dont fucking care hate missing,1 +okay serious question wth egirl like mean egirl im confused,0 +anybody summer school high school so yeah im failing classes tried best five months cant anymore online school turns brain fucking mush california schools opening irl april im already failing hella dont know help anymore dont end getting shit together end year need go summer school im repeating courses next year anyone whos summer school it like easier harder stressful lemme know plz,0 +get help instantlyso im feeling lately point ive suicidal thoughts days row ive somehow managed fight off getting harder harder want help urgently though know get it want hotlines like samaritans etc help all know really wanti want something keep going getting worse know go on,1 +feel like nothing left mei feel like life people hurting purposely none friends care me one friend hang real life hang feel worse one talk self harm everyone gets scared talk ignore dont see point alive anymore,1 +want smother someones head thighs dunno kind mood never done,0 +opinion give opinion anything long isnt political sexual please nothing political sexual that anything works,0 +unrelenting cant anymoreive thought redflag daily years now grindingly poor future im worthless never get decent job partner seem even like anymore let alone love me dog even seem like much hate major stupid college remeber last time enjoyed anything remember last time want kill myself im going parents holidays think ill take dads sawedoff put mouth last time there like physical compulsion barely resisted self harm clean four years back worse ever one knows it legs slashed pieces ive medicated ive therapy medication help lie therapists trust them trust anyone thought checking hospital acute crises center getting help cant afford it cant afford kill myself worthless,1 +got kicked church heated argument holy gathering apparently god forbids people mass debators,0 +people really think notch created minecraft obviously phlza minecraft,0 +always joking redflag firstweather joking know people take wrong way moved joking actually tanking health purposely cutting deeper should ya know results started first relationship cheated me think about im happy anymore nothing exciting eyes none family checks feels like one cares even see pain im going through would anyone notice would anyone come looking knows cares,1 +cant keep tricking going morethe world going shit took many years realise really basic important things life nothing look forward to even people call friends anything better really care me send messages days days go past response im old chance fix mistakes ive lost everything actually mattered long time ago realised little really going me,1 +former space security chief israel says aliens exist galactic federation contact israel us years avoiding revealing public humanity ready fucking kill me know story ridiculous galactic federation apparently stopped trump revealing existence stop guy hes retired cut contact him know bullshit cant help panic gave worst anxiety attack ive years feel like im gonna sick hate twitter,0 +cutting become habiti bought knife set to cut fruits parents believe dorm room uni started cutting last year one day drunk things escalated point cant go longer week without cutting myself point actually feels exhilarating relaxing like good music ive started using tactic stay awake study get laugh i laugh im pain idk ask brief adrenaline rush attention mind you touched wrists anywhere scars might get spotted ive started considering neck stop id like cease mess up i mean accidental death would great all like this,1 +always depression issue ever since remember usually cope recently alone time thoughts one seems care husband never around usually chooses hang friends home dog friends lean on family going lot cannot burden them hate feeling loneliness emptiness gives usually play pup feel better recently surgery lot work wish could take break one else help people come around usually husbands friendsfamily make pretty obvious care there hes gone even wait him usually leave hes back god forbid someone around minutes tired alone tired feeling empty depressed tired constantly feeling like enough even husband hate alone ,1 +lifes worth livingmy mother hates me father never around cant anything declining academics cant make friend feel like nothing get better matter much try get help fails,1 +personally like lot bw movies theres something magical movie br br the movie starts elizabeth lane barbara stanwyck liz writes magazine column martha stewart connecticut course lying becomes problem publisher mr yardley asks play host navy sailor christmas addition mr yardley whos going alone christmas invites farm christmas party there things go crazybr br since movie set new england farm movie warm holiday feeling plus characters hilarious mr yardley always shouting orders lizs friend felix always yelling catastroph things go wrong finally movie ends way christmas movie end jolly fat man laughs shouts what christmas br br in short matter age are love movie,0 +kind admissioni hung closet using belt last night times right moment id start get dark rings vision id restart process figured position needed in let hang could feel losing consciousness stopped realized written letter sat that got caught answering messages best friend sit mope loving him im going try talk friend today asked early morning hed free told considering asking therapist put hospital something joy feel weighed physically mentally cant see far end day time ive lost ability think forward im alone time much family want burden friends think already am though feel compelled live love them thats wearing off last night step towards going it handle physical pain now thing stopping chance ill fail forced hospital miss job interview desperately need strange maybe need,1 +wordpress clunkiest fucking piece shit ever stupid popular building fucking website monopolized kinda use need plugin sites offer otherwise site would done like week ago could use easy site builder im rly debating abandoning plugins shit spent money insanely fucking stupid,0 +anybody needs friendi mailing list close friends gone going through want someone talk to pm me edit send email woofugcscaltechedu,1 +feel losthow happy yet unhappy time like whole life sick it,1 +admitted best work harold lloyd ended last great silent comedy speedy enters sound films like chaplin keaton laurel hardy wc fields better keaton well three chaplin rich enough make films producer but paced films five years productions laurel hardy protection hal roach production standards shorts sound films pretty good fields first worked mack sennett paramount freelanced lloyd tried route chaplin took less successbr br he produced films unlike chaplin studio also first two choices good especially feet first begin choose wisely movie crazy the catspaw the milky way good choices three and possibly the sin harold diddlebock best sound ventures entertaining none safety last the freshman the kid brother speedy br br of top four sound films the cats paw controversial ezekiel cobbs solution ridding city elects mayor extreme tastes it movie made dictates politics are the cats paw second year roosevelt new deal itself rather controversial heavier government involvement movie audiences saw films like gabriel white house the phantom president leaders extraconstitutional actions rid nation internal enemies and force disarmament around globe even cecil b de mille got act this day age bunch teenagers use rats force gangster confess crimesbr br to us use violence force anyone even bunch goons boodlers like alan dineharts gang confess repellent all supreme court protected us confession duress forget reforms thinking occur warren court burger court made them example although mr justice sutherlands opinion powell scottsboro boys case guaranteed every criminal defendant right counsel gideon v wainwright extend ordering court paid counsel defendants miranda case wellknown antiselfincrimination warning nothing like considered necessary br br if study movies period and even tricks used get confessions kirk douglas confesses crimes front witnesses i walk alone burt lancaster holds gun him lancaster leaves douglas sneers confessing duress see gun unloaded suddenly realizes legally confessed without duress hate say it civil libertarians reading note cobblloyd dinehart pals conclusion the cats paw legal would led jail sentences may call heavy handed fascistic horrid would worked legally thought up,0 +go assistance committing redflaglooking subreddit website dark web forum anything anyone wants provide help someone talk fuck off,1 +say ok want someone else compare another one but know kinda difficult always person social group maybe talk himher maybe person someone know sight heshe there think person lets call x better life us teenagers us wants lots friends boyfriendgirlfriend going parties fun luxuries like pc gamer great camera take photos perfect bedroom latest iphone but know what think this totally wrong feel useless x knowledge you feel sad x friends you feel alone x goes parties you remember stuff mentioned barely always seen known though social network instagram things incredibly different someone behind screen compare someone else unique forget that,0 +thing stopping killing ugly untalented am even care anymorei constantly fantasize redflag usually imagine years im skinny longer hair made couple albums good piano etc years standards keep getting higher get older point im sure even worth it sure would nice die young pretty talented reason want im remembered worthless fat ugly slut anything life one know even existed generations anyway care die as ive lived disappointment might well die one too,1 +show pretty good httpstgiegaplayerboxsetseinnpidamptitleabhainnnabannaampseriesabhainnhttpstgiegaplayerboxsetseinnpidamptitleabhainnnabannaampseriesabhainn filler filler filler filler filler fillerfiller filler filler filler,0 +film transported everyone back october seemed part great philippine i shall return landing scene leyte shore general macarthur reaped fame br br above all gregory peck triumphed portrayal great general stride set shoulders intensity men common intensity total absorption devotion macarthur military peck challenge acting academy award winner to kill mockinbird oscar nominee keys kingdom the yearling gentlemans agreement twelve oclock highhe played everything apparently homicidal amnesiac crusading journalist troubled gunfighter obsessed attorney biblical david captain horatio hornblower brought unique insight character sincerity warmth love especially humor br br there scene macarthur stands deck president philippines hear dialogue general hope water deep says president because people find cant swim come pecks sonorous voice and people going find cant walk water br br as macarthur peck justified reputation giant film industry felt macarthurs emotions knew anger happiness understood relationship whole family,0 +algebra grade went worry parents beating burning stuff,0 +im sick uselessim unemployed worth nothing im constantly anxious bouts depression last weeks one life feel like talk anything want missing persons case want found im useless lonely always been,1 +suicidal ideationi know counts want kill myself want die im terrified dying im bad place right times wish exist want everything stop im waiting call back therapist schedule appointment im going discuss her want able put name feeling,1 +hate lifei lot friends ones hurt words without realizing ive alone life ive bullied school im constantly mental breakdowns started hurting becausd think deserve,1 +want play among us anyone want play among us me code xyhoxq,0 +want better america would get electing trump heres would it first make sure everyone drilled head unproven conspiracy theories ignored fought against second lower minimum age vote third make future presidents year olds give easily peer pressure fourth watch america slower destruction before,0 +biggest brain entire galaxy pc died fridaythursday bht mouse keyboard still lit up today unscrewed little box cables responsible getting power every part movedadjusted cables screwed everything together not sure thats properly made sentence whatever magically turned pressed power button lets fucking goooooooooo,0 +im may good fellows hope dont insult lads lassies whilst im amongst american found rather maddening people believe us jolly americans shcalops think okay joke day generations parents unleashed suns upon innocent souls foreign nation tho must americans reacting pure anger pearl harbor thats still exaggerated reaction however okay joke day innocent souls lost lives pansies death wish one hate subjects why day incite conflict confusion aint nobody got time that joke years one man thought higher denomination people sought slaughter pure statisfaction joke tens thousands men women children american jewish asian on joke things right acceptable quite frankly shouldnt either trying relay chums blasted hypocritical scum americans same take responsibility actions ancestors past remain people dead gone us make decision either dwell dark past move forward future room change didnt come make affected events mentioned offended im sorry,0 +requestcan please explain never touched girl move fucking life,1 +walter matthau george burns work well together acidity willy perplexed amnesic al mixture made heaven scene meet willys flat gem final scene rounds film perfection walter matthau gives superb performance irascible semiretired comedian can intonation voice exaggerated dramatics coupled general misunderstanding going form great characterization george burns timing legendary nowhere better film calm aplomb desert dry replies memorable watch scene near end al daughter ask something spanish caretaker als reaction priceless,0 +im guy set date ive decided talk itim things little complicated mentioned last post also suffer massive depersonalizationderealization basically persistent existential crisis well paranoid psychosis going years ill try explain meaning defined terms things meaningful relation things etc etc etc rather like define word using words strip away recursion find existence state utterly devoid inherent meaning potentially purpose realize this activates homunculus inside head vetoes attempts make order disorder sense nonsense purposes life get subconsciously dissected reveal empty cores meaninglessness ephemerality universal indifference towards condition live constants reconcile anything constants is well inconstant goes long enough objects lose meaning look car longer see car shapes make car car becomes strange sounding vague concept head actually associate anything perceive like constant dream world thats derealization along comes depersonalization im really sure put words simply feel real everyone internal feeling self inner ego exist anymore thoughts everything series unrelated automatic actions feels unnatural somehow turns normal human behavior even im typing really it see hands typing see words screen feel like hands feel like alien add paranoid psychosis occasional illusions grandeur work hear phone ringing look see not think network administrators work monitoring connections posting stuff reddit response mains posts taunting me think people trying tell things using hidden meanings say like hint giving im picking on etc etc etc constant battle rational mind paranoia far battle attrition new years date give up ask yes care multiple psychologists psychiatrists tried dozens medications self medication medication tried change city change job regular exercise good diet regular sleep when can edit forgot add sometimes cause pain feel real try cause obvious permanent damage,1 +like signs universe repeated words phrases scenarios scared also know seeing omens might die soon,1 +dhar mann change name fans missed opportunity call dhar men,0 +ppl really shit talking intelligence post comments im right here see u im still here lt,0 +anyone else say fuck stay late like youre homework something finally finish realize arent going get sleep tonight whats minutes gonna do,0 +im intelligent need sex waste time id rather make money,0 +mobility issues since twenty three following difficult pregnancy triggered inflammatory arthritis fibromyalgiachronic fatigue syndrome years ive falls due unsteady feet best times added mobility issues right ankle calf permanently injured achilles tendonitis plantar faciitis muscle calf tightened much due shortening tendons foot points instead sitting normally osteoarthritis right hip slips socket causes lot pain ongoing impact rest body back often spasms locks issues frozen shoulder limits use right arm top this kidney liver bladder problems,1 +uh guys parents clapping right now match bedwars see computer screen help happening understand it someone give explanation pls,0 +anyone try painkillers hose exhaust window lots duct tapei tried self strangulation so painful overdosing so difficult think best method,1 +absolute classic direction flawless acting superb words fall short great work definitive movie mumbai police movie stood test timesbr br om puri gives stellar performance smita patil less actors done best movie races thrilling every moment movie shakes whole badly forces rethink many issues confront societybr br this story cop om puri starts career honest man ultimately degenerates killer first attempt bollywood get behind scenes expose depressing truth mumbai cops kudos nihalani br br after movie slew bollywood movies got released exposed criminalpoliticianpolice nexus thus movie truly trend setter trend dominated hindi movie scene decade br br this movie moderate box office hit br br a mustsee discerning movie fans,0 +much say here tired returning mindset spite everything happens maybe state mind while feels permanent something cannot ever free nowi way knowing antidepressants would help think afraid told state mind denied option try think might worry antidepressants even work people love would feel like enough rely antidepressantseither way probably going cookout car something early morning nobody see always easier ways always hassle seems casual them thinking tonight,1 +living joyless life exhaustingim necessarily suicidal life feeling overwhelming im lot moments want burry head beneath blankets scream fu life general im dysthymia add drowning student loan debt graduate degree child special needs single mom feel ive ruined life going grad school older age owe k wont able pay student loans im even im paying much humanly can ive single twelve years since left ex likely lose rental new year due landlord bringing family nothing car likely fall apart within six months cant even save money replacement due huge loan payments sons specialists living one expensive cities world feel like ive accomplished nothing life life consists waking talking hours order get up working hours weekly crying way home putting energy lovely teen child eating chocolate make feel better passing bed nothing used enjoy gives pleasure joyful feelings dont see way make life better like years im going tomorrow child love immensely though feel like lost parenting jackpot maybe years hes adult,1 +deal life attempted redflag know feeli tried overdosing boyfriend found called ambulance five days since getting hospital know feel process everything guess could say im really numb it never really happened regret did one bit feels like nothing changed strange im back regular things daily life days ago tried end life deal this advice would greatly appreciated thank you,1 +life overi dont reason live,1 +anyone need math help im watching netflix chilling bird anyone need math help guess provide emotional support need,0 +racist but homemade choccy milk better brandname choccy milk except trumoo shits fire,0 +feel like people seem understand difference want kill like ultimate act self harm biggest punishment could inflict upon myself actually want dead never actually done it anybody else feel similarly curiousps post seeking advice vacuous messages positive shite want die want kill myself anyone relate,1 +need someone talk toi havent really talked depression thoughts anybody pressure finding apprenticeship go higher education much really need someone talk take herhis time talk bit me thanks,1 +im tiredim tired im tired feeling like this hate put mask normalcy every morning act like im fine push laugh happy right situations im alienated alone hate ever have sure way getting right would access though methods access would result failure resulting hospital time people noticing people faking caring attention problem able handle myself im sorry im sorry love may loved me getting incredibly difficult greatest thing looking forward day everyone alive recollection ever existed,1 +im confident looks idk randomly get super insecure get massive ego thinking model,0 +want done everything everyone constantly yelling blaming everything me really want walk front traintoday went doctor boyfriend started screaming blaming everything me trying make feel like awful person everyone constantly yelling always always always blaming everything me god want die already feel alone,1 +im gonna kill tonighthi im year old girl im gonna kill tonight aspergers syndome borderline personality disorder im aggressive get angry parents assault them punch dangerous things im normal cant control myself honest know parents still alive love much im sick dangerous im reason parents depressed alcoholic im reason dad wanna live anymore died would finally free hate friends always tell ugly annoying am which true still im outcast group friends feel alone hate much sometimes used bring knife school could kill wanted to would never able kill another human being thats felt time ive always outcast wherever go really understand why dress like girls im pretty normal outside im good imitating normal people understand im always weird one hate much months ago actually started talking boy crush long time decided actually talk him started talking everyday everynight deep conversations middle night started fall love him always thought id single rest life felt like miracle me know may sound ridicolous started feel hope happy course three days ago stopped responding feel fucking miserable know sounds like small problem life already falling apart small things destroy everything wanna live anymore im sick dangerous life falling apart many dreams life wanted move australia become criminologist start family fuck it im awful human would everyone favor killed myself thats im gonna tonight know wrote makes sense wanted let thoughts out wish good life god bless you goodbye,1 +would society change men able get pregnant men women equal chance getting pregnant would society change men able get pregnant men women equal chance getting pregnant,0 +dont know much longer im falling close friend im going back school monday which stupid im failing school got rejected art highschool wanted go to want friend love much feel like im obsessed her feel like gets annoyed me conversations usually go hi sup well im tired lol jsjskskkf feel like friendship isnt same keep trying stop talking her matter hard try keep going back im trying thing test see shed talk didnt talk her since always start conversations ends them feel like suddenly everything worthless im worthless feel like dont strength go anymore im goddamn weak dont shower brush teeth brush hair even get dressed anymore dont get up dont exercise dont eat going back school making extremely anxious dont want go back im freaking out im either gonna get covid numbers go again im crying smallest things friend shows slightest bit rudeness ignores me cry people criticize drawings cry tired feeling emotion cry im gonna failure life,0 +lets thisno friends family boyfriend hates thinks im pretty fucking ugly cant go on cant wake face shit every single day tonight night,1 +chocolate french bread baguette still good fuck yall,0 +today realized exactly motivated football daily workout almost gave up really hard workout tried pump talking myself moment said football got right gear finished workout know motivated football much now american football non american people there ps im like jock stupid shit im big guy trying move lineman tight end got hella hands catch ball slow hobbly xd,0 +shy introverts reddit could know would like conversation title self explaining lack social skills see self thats come reddit great advice ask irl online conversations edit introverted person well lonely times like these pandemic going nice social interaction opinion,0 +everything hurtsmy best friend saved life day kind weird think now thinking back hours mean try it always weird always me weird numbness feeling acceptance almost thinking feelings odd gonna hang night plan asked okay started asking things loved which mean distracting me know were worked even know bad was still dont makes feel worse mean really nice know good friends idea someone would miss hurts hurts lot last time bad anyone like that feel bad everything feeling way notes plans feelings everything id hurting people makes everything worse hate feeling way big spiral keeps going want die feel bad people love makes feel worse makes want end all keeps going like that constant feedback loop hurt physically emotionally nothing left give theres energy going spare yet keep pushing past limits help people keep life even despite many things getting much better last year want go want hurt anymore wish easily distracted,1 +selling stuff give kids one last good christmasim disabled combination mental health issues recently discovered administration going looking kicking people like benefits im sick afford insurance chronic physical pain prevents working cant even use mouse trump loving parents bought tv christmas because needs medicine tv right ill selling whatever else order give kids decent holiday birthdays also coming up going wait birthday much later year it im going get easy get fentanyl take once im options even working car live in im hoping make look like accident somehow im sure how,1 +movie everything want action movie explosionsshootoutsbad guys worse guys fun see james belushi using humor get trouble gotten since stole million dollars ultimate big boss the skipper sounds cheesy course is boydid fun watching movie whole lot better direct dvd garbage made nowadays get silly plot find movie quite surprises store could argue twists predictable fast pace movie give time think much themwhich blessing since movie revealing ultimate twist journey moment title bit misleading could reason many people hated movie probably expected movie mobsters stead crooks double crossing other pure fun,0 +uhhh fellas gay gay make sure im accidentally gay instead gay ampxb and homosexual gay homosexual ,0 +want hang myselfif rope,1 +zero day based columbine high school massacre video diary two boys first know whats going happen think bad student film start talking horrible things going quite school start talking pipe bombs guns going shooting woods lot say movie know film well film forget watching film watching real video two boys madebr br the two boys act like weird cult burn stuff like play station games books dvds homework stuff school stuff two boys anybody friends brothers people see walking street goes daily actives and making gun videos make mentions bullying happens people said stuff clothes things im saying right many people things like thatbr br and also thing people suspected like sensitive topic chosen filmbr br so thats review zero daybr br and lets say end shooting scene messed up,0 +help im harassed friends basically every post make manage get reddit good give wholesome award dont know it like profile private dont know keep finding posts please help help appreciated,0 +anyone want say something stupid dumb ideas straight stupid shit like watermelons made gold drop,0 +goddamnit theres upsexy everywhere room opened drawer upsexy everywhere man,0 +really bad ones im risk moment impulsesso impulses want kill myself ive depression many years never seeked help really know depression thought normal feel like time matter untill beginning last summer started getting thoughts impulses sometimes lasted day sometimes couple weeks things escalate realised one day month ago edge bridge ready jump off really needed help so told parents all crying sides end began seeing therapist taking antidepressants problem is still get impulses time time sometimes theyre strong like second thought head times know things escalate real quick get make sure stay around parents around someone care about ask anything remain controlled mean things mind tricks something convince really want want do because now control moments feel like going worse times need anyone convince need live know that problem is get kinds impulses stop caring think justdo it,1 +redflagtheres pretty big chance ill actually it life really worth trouble all entire life one big painful meaningless existence would absolutely love get hit fucking bus body shattered onto glass get done with brain make feel way want curl ball die worth trouble nothing is worth trying since ill still feel like utter shit rest miserable existence putrid earth children starve women raped egotistical social parasites feed battle might blinded greed tell age know parasitic scumbags latch onto stuff throat,1 +something always stops meive almost attempted redflag couple times life say almost right followed through always get reminded thing im sharing saved life many times im hoping maybe save someone love know something friedrich nietzsche philosopher whose writings impression complete grasp understanding life value many thoughts ideas outstanding resonant within know move past them digress one central ideas deep down behind every desire simply desire power misunderstood misused justify megalomaniacal psychopathic behaviors attitudes ethics use empathetic loving positive uses especially applied philosophical considerations his im willing expound ideas groundings interested brevitys sake ill cut chase principles implications are firstly means allinall power valuable thing us really power me best summarized two words i can power capacity be desirable ability control do second consequence belief things will power begin feel sense pointlessness redflag nietzsche declaring power utmost desires lie water difficulty truth means must become strong climb abyss weakness far easy everyone it recognizing feel nothing urge say quit ill last moment giving difficulty life want fight tooth nail grow strengthen point longer feel death look forward stronger healthier smarter happier enduring fulfilled life overall better me constant struggle always rooted remembering always struggle abyss weakness pit pity beckons throw in stop telling i want rest i want end going gets rough must find say i better this let life either affirm negate that id rather die trying improve life ending moment weakness telling nothing strongest weakest know far ill go like think last moments exhaust every means change situation better that that welcome death im sorry post nothing lengthy redundancy you im glad hear something resonated inspired made smilelaugh think become least little stronger every day hope whenever get end which anytime soon walking past onto next day better sunshine harder rain say almighty yes everything god among humanity,1 +expecting impacted film portraying family like one expect living next door ordinary fleshandblood people like typical hollywood fare face common problemdebilitating illness storyline grips heart powerful lesson casting script direction acting flow together surge draws viewer deep story give film full attention message truly inspire,0 +need someone tell im wrongi hate this hate one life turn lean on result asking strangers carry problems help me im year old guy hope spent life lying friends family done everything deny sexuality photoshopping college transcripts dad know failed every class currently school working shitty grocery store manager constantly harasses me love guy reciprocate affection try hard better tried medication still feel redflag best option scared,1 +negative mindset is like see written least seemy life big pile almosts filtered happiness poor choices im tired know last time happy without mind bombard ruining everything another worry spoil it way know is like me say hate myself times wish ended already times feeling better coming back seems like mockery wish something would kill could stop thinking better fuck me im fucking sad,1 +cant much longerevery single day step closer inevitable ive always known would end redflag even small child going kill myself today tomorrow next week probably years one way could end,1 +know somehow always fall somehow always feel dissapointed defeated matter hard try optimistic try be cannot seem find lasting friends relationship someone need someone talk get things chest want anymore keep head water keep drowning dissapointment ever felt,1 +owe fuckers anythingwhen kill im writing note im telling soul never cared like need break news easy anything,1 +passed drivers license test today thats all nice day everybody lt,0 +damn funny valentines day already history homework time emblem castle eggman zone act sonic robo blast eh like anything else anyway would definitely take sonic robo blast girlfriendboyfriend also holiday named rd us president,0 +complicated love problem crushi dont instagram snapchatjust phone number thing know her went training w found number training whatsapp group doesnt know know number would dumb say hi trought messages bcs doesnt know i also found snapchat thinkif doesnt add do confused u probably,0 +guys like monke return monke reject modernity fuck human homies monkey,0 +one associates dog horse runs like one look horse wholesome too one,0 +anyone else feel like wasted teenage years like im friends going movies like driving friends night skating around partying stuff sitting buttfuck nothing annoying point seems like cant even ask could tag along completely different friend group,0 +many people online lately used see like k online time average sudden keep seeing k people online,0 +hate feeling idk anymorei feel empty numb genuinely cant deal anymore dont anyone talk ive tried nothing actually helped nothing look forward to feel like everyday waiting actually kill myself stop every time dont know why,1 +unclogged toilet feel like legit god joke taken shit weeks took one around minutes ago problem was shit clogged damn toilet bowl absolute nightmare mainly started flashbacks similar incident hotel traumatic experience dad time pm parents asleep first step make noise would attract them second try solve this first flushed again work obviously plunger whatever thought could do googled solutions required baking soda shit and time either thought water hit shit high velocity would force shit pipe filled bucket it make noise though dumped sink nothing happened bowl flooded eventually water receded filled another bucket waiting looked mirror gave pep talk sorts bucket filled lifted bucket high up dumped bowl shit dissapeared felt releif fuck happy unironically feel like fucking god done own also dad used bathroom taking piss notice anything mission accomplished,0 +actually ur bored tell cos im bored time,0 +two hands highly enjoyable aussie crime caper ultimately succeeds way film easily combines tense dramatic moments funny characters situations give film right balance feel comedy film occurs naturally laughs set elaborately worked at really funny thanks fact character movie excellently cast actoractress recognises relate aussie humor portray well realistically course theyre helped immensely fantastic script writerdirector gregor jordan reading another review film american seen it heavily criticised it basically passing pulp fiction clone think thats rubbish film trying pulp fiction feel style excellent films totally opposite without wanting sound superior arrogant think fully understand film humor sincerity characters etcyou australian least understand culture guy obviously faintest clue about americans whose reviews certain nonamerican films seem ignorant and trouble comprehending anything american product real shame really great film love story featured main character girl also portrayed real sincere sweet way im proud film collection ,0 +people stop treating people like shit ideology aslong anything harmfull something bad go ahead stop pushing worse time,0 +movie made rugby coach larry gelwix fan storys characters slipped fell begin grow struggled incredibly strong conflicts understandable completely believable like life easy answers problems facing all superb actors excellent script brought true story life wish movies like one days watch almost exclusively worthwhile true stories typically far interesting fiction additionally one inspirational teaches us give anyone quickly,0 +call police best friend tells wants commit redflagtheres group whatsapp chat three best friends im going give pseudonyms preserve identity shayla me gertrude camille camille clinically depressed couple years now since early last year multiple occasions texted suicidal goodbye messages group thanking us weve done her saying made mind wants end life even though knows selfish thing do course lose fucking shit every time go panic attack never know saying it actually going it heres thing every time says going kill herself never actually it wakes next morning apologising saying felt posessed texted us suicidal messages happened least five times frankly speaking cycle staying til morning make sure fine anything stupid extremely exhausting live near her end rushing house make sure anything stupid everyone kind knows going nobody wants take chances either heres disagreements start ive decided next time camille sends us im going kill myself love thank done im going call fucking police give shit hates it decides cut life mad friend always better dead friend want responsible death know made assumption kill herself ended anyway gertrude friend telling shouldnt says leaping call police good idea says find information first decide make phone call stand personally would talk try assess serious is rather leaping dial were experts gertrude believes bringing police potentially make things complicated everyone including us parents family part really ticked gertrude said needed realistic make educated guesses considering camille often claims wants kill ends so gertrude basically saying going it understand gertrude coming from see incredibly idealistic way looking situation perhaps rational hear out calling redflag prevention country get immediate help police respond much faster redflag prevention website country states know someone immediate physical danger call police immediately police trained mental wellness checks respond redflag come firstworld country generally competent police trying talk phone helpful either god knows could decide present camille selfharms hero course camilles parents around help her need anything parents know handle situation im talking situations parents presentsleeping cant help her interested making assumptions camilles wellbeing also expert think qualified assess situation determine whether call police id rather call let police experts take there sincerely believe act camille says rather speculate intentions aware actual chance committing redflag high regardless intend stupid maybe im fucking selfish want feel guilty calling police could please give advice know do want anything would emotionally damaging much help would appreciated referencehttpwwwmentalhealthtodaycomredflagsuihtm,1 +got gf lied haha fell it im straight girl,0 +bad thoughts bad ive bad thoughts lately lifes hell want sleep forever couldnt imagine something like family dont know get deep whole im in todays complete ass im ready good day once,0 +creative title feel like zombie apocalypse id one hit mag release middle firefight,0 +anyone else feel like meempty alone putting face day back mind know know youre real life waiting home maybe podcast something cut silence every kinda sit write note youve written several times think life im paid jeep decent job rich enough save bit got dream watch got terrible relationship incredible web support yet find miserable less fortunate life still write still silence lonely life somehow filled people dont much like feeling like this want glad life ive made far however cant seem shake feeling pointless anyone make sense it,1 +brothers putting together pc dad next room heard dad say dont force it brother angrily replying i know thats im not hear plasticsnapping noise,0 +giving up need make decisionquick history redflag wished never born around wanted die wanted kill onwards think period three weeks point past decade happily died pain would cause family sorry mangled sentence need get editing ive taking step speed path death without killing immediacy reason want family know killed myself want think died accidentally stupidity smoke take drugs frequency take unregulated medications transition gender etc problem moving quick enough im kind immediate danger im going swallow shotgun ive thinking taking heroin would equivalent me thats speeding things up heres im here im engaging life cant far gone genuinely want die feel confused like actions saying one thing thoughts another kind of example trying lose job care could use someone talk think could help make decision whether finally give truly engage life halfway point getting down thank reading,1 +day asking day day people woke great day ,0 +im bad rn holy fuckin shit bday tmr thanksgiving planning chilling homies bad things maybe drugs gotta go dummy thanksgiving party family kinda sucks rly cant reschedule friday cuz gotta go doctors appointment also got project due what sick fuck assigns project break ghosted one girl im talkin like been talking like month like days asking ft sent important message actually talkin bout feelings not love way said enjoy talking lot enjoy convos general confess cuz im dumb left delivered hours shit sucks cuz got read receipts ion even know saw message online disc though im probably takin l one also supposed go back school dec st niggas cali dumb fuck know were goin back lookin forward school reopening social interaction homeboys talking girls ive texting quarantine past like month cant cuz cali mfs cant stay fuckin house tldr bad bday tmr cant anything cuz im going big family thanksgiving party cant reschedule also ghosted one girl like days delivered hours sending important message u read far sick good thanksgiving,0 +although definitely read particular agatha christie book point remember anything except name abernethie good thing seeing story unfold without knowing play allowed appreciate sheer genius agatha christie way misleads pulls rug feet main reason success timelessness addition stories excellent production values beautiful locations wonderful music topnotch acting elegant directing etc reasons series success timelessness virtues present after funeral word advice alert right start clues dropped place even opening sequence quite unnerving moments well contrast peacefullooking englishcountryside locations small touches humor mustsee mystery buffs good film general ,0 +hole people mean say trouble finding hole whilst losing virginity middle genuine question,0 +days ago science class squirrel weird eyes staring window idk like stared like minute walked away weird felt confused rest day,0 + credits short graduating high school graduating means nothing me attempted hang failed miserably whole life constantly dealing trauma childhood mom lack father figure instead getting kind genuine help thrown mental hospitals because father say full heart kill year over know like constantly bullied way look gave long time ago suppose here want free life life scars define person forever be hopeless looking anyone tell things get better know not time gone free waking every day horrified reflection become things told child id never become little happy kid dead ruins everyday wake up worthless let child trying free happy live life meaning youth wasted away ill never get back wasted youth majority life spent trying make others happy others deem necessary do want free vicious cycle trauma told live with die dignity die knowing everything could hold another second say suicide easy way out no way wasted youth,1 +reddit survived redflag attempt months agoa months ago wife asked divorce finally got around talking realized treated poorly really messed up wanted make things right already moved want try option felt atone done wife amazing person theres excuse way treated her felt appropriate punishment death i rather hard myself took inch knife stabbed chest missed heart i aiming heart puncture lung going take hour wouldve died punctured lung complications herehttpimgurcomwhqb warning hairy man chest picture right now knife wound upper middle portion picture scar left side inserted chest tube vacuum chest cavity reinflate lung and suck stray blood wife called police found shortly stabbed drifting consciousness taken hospital patched sent inpatient psych im medications really help course im lot therapy well two months later im feeling ok im still here forgive acted marriage feel good around thing want people take away crisis get help get medication resistant drugs first literally took pit despair make therapy effective,1 +violence bad also really want punch abuser face wanna feel cheek meat crack gay little fist,0 +dumbass thoughts day ok elephants elephants fucking cool got incher average dont pretend like dont know im talking about like relative body mass around lb assume im talking african elephants thingy tiny asf like thats one inch every lb every inch humans lb every inch meaning elephants got like humans would inches haha nice yall fuckin imagine that like im inches tall meaning elephant shlong relative humans shit wuoood packin almost times fuckin height thats today,0 +the odd couple one movies far surpasses reputation people know it hum theme song complain living sloppy oscar fastidious felixbut theyre underselling film without knowing it neat guy living sloppy guy portrait two friends helping agony divorce also damn funny start finish kind comedy arises realistic stressful plain awful situations so viewers actually found film bit uncomfortable think verisimilitude strength besides matthaus bulldog face cracks up favorite comedy country mile,0 +find springboard english language arts grade answers currently questions america i,0 +dont want diei mri definitely destroyed inner ears car sounds like motor freeway meeting today leave peoples voices hurt forehead mri week ago still hope easy say want kill self really hard do love many family friends want see children again sick,1 +sorryi want live sadness anymore please help me,1 +breaking pointi know else put this know cant keep inside anymore cant confess anyone knows me way finding me got back college today ive never felt sick worst semester ive ever had im sophomore drop course altogether halfway through im gonna take summer course make it since counts towards major resultingly pass classes semester still considered full time student live campus next semester think ive done im almost entirely convinced havent ive gone math either one two classes failed entirely cant even sure attended ones class take midterm probably didnt options point everything revolved around going college embarrassing performance breaking point cant explain try harder always slacked attend classes excuses need full time tuition paid otherwise cant afford it ill also kicked insurance able afford medication thats kept longtime illness flaring up last time done made drop pounds goals beyond college pathways avenues ambitions college everything pin holding everything together road future have if when grades come back options cant even look parents cant talk them would destroy completely would options left ive always lagged behind siblings final nail coffin cant overstate much college mattered much fucking joke let slip past like this ive considered redflag long time first time felt immediate physical feels like wall pressed me fills feeling dragged doctors kid feel like reasonable avenue me cant succeed single bare bones thing future depended on kind person i kind future would lead ive done nothing bring unnecessary stress financial pain family ive never felt like before claustrophobic anxious burning sensation chest numbness jaw shaking hand ive never felt trapped skin theres way out think reasonable ways go this methods ensure success ive failed many things im terrified thisll another ill live family knowing alongside failures person never amounted anything wasted money failed redflag im afraid even posting this instinctively nervous someone seeing something embarrassing low cant even fucking listen music watch funny video without feeling guilty sick inside feel like death necessary urgent every time think it remember blame end always me,1 +dad cringe funny dad showed actualy funny facebook meme said made that went pfft didnt make cant make funny memes walked away like said i made you dumb fake forced laugh like ohhh hes good dad ngl ,0 +okay so bazinga moment,0 +im tripping lsd reasons dieplease someone tell okay horrible leave,1 +incomprehensibly filled rage stopped throwing shit inside room hitting boxing bag started aggressively rubbing head hands pacing around small space room because barely clean it hyperventilating drool seeps mouth rubbed head much hands feel like covered wax hell anger driving insane,1 +could easily beat goose fight ok recently saw vine girl saying look chickens led videos people encountering geese running away demonstrated aggression scared people kids get adult running away goose im physically strong trained martial art could easily beat shit goose came me nothing attack with besides bite bill dont even sharp teeth could puncture skin geese arent smart either often times rush target head on without considering inferior fighting capabilities humans long enough arms reach stop goose even get biting range geese also major disadvantage long necks easy grab hands final nail coffin opinion many geese saw didnt even use greatest advantage us flight tldr geese dumb could probably beat one one v one fight could too fear silly waterfowl superior predator,0 +ass hurts forgot stretch proceeded work legs help barely walk,0 +type diabetic wanting dieso yeah title kinda says am ive trying ever since little tyke back middle school avail ive kinda sat back never really talking anyone using videogames sort vent make feel like something good game becoming immersed helped get lot things ive felt sitting around building medical costs dragging super hard ive never job anything make money always get super nervous walk interviews beat time already moms house own car drive cant really drive job go college im pretty sure id become nervous wreck anyways ive also never really taken care diabetes made become incredibly aware body probably start break early friends start go know useless loser put makes want around feel like waste money time space food everyone around me also help never talked anyone id want relationship with im gay would really like someone stop care me know sooner later would fed useless am anyways ive contemplating whether now farm middle nowhere mom decided wanted move boyfriend middle nowhere since one wanted take go sit typing alone im pretty sure realize useless im sure theyll me really helps type ask people shoot breeze since internet bad cant talk friends play games help relax vent seems like whole life like theres escape mean ive though leaving one day walking going decide stop know really help either knowing months ago tried od insulin woke hospital ive got like medical bills straight highschool way pay them im sorry long im confused sure really helps vent people whove known motivations couple closest friends,1 +ive contemplating redflag latelyi posted depression subreddit want discuss feelings sub see people say past weeks ive debating whether end it ive suicidal thoughts before past would pushed away im welcoming thought im losing live alarming rate think im meant ever truly happy world life sucks absolutely miserable right might get even worse reality homeless crawling closer closer need realistic myself life never improve ill never career ill never tangible skills talents ill never decent social life girlfriend student loans never go away amp worst all ill never get away crazy ass mother redflag becoming realistic time goes on life completely bullshit way fucking hard everyone tells possible turn life around fail recognize luck others lack one thing thats comforting redflag idea things ever gets bad always use last resort stop pain im going die die one day anyway whats difference early especially considering future anyway,1 +say permanent solution temporary problemwell need permanent solution series temporary problems need escape route,1 +cut every one friends years sunday toxic shits bullying kids playing fortnite others sharing exact opinion dont know put years im glad gone downside freaking one talk,0 +sure how might jump bridge onto highway might jump work want fucking live anymore wanted die fucking long feels like thing ever really wanted probably going actually bitch hopefully find courage finally kill myself really reason anything lifes basically perfect always wanted kill always will might well get ruins life lives around me hopefully killing today,1 +first saw track dvd hifi show nov london really cream nowit high end arcam systemit sounded great dtsi get dvd ill tell far exciting music dvd ever watchedthe performance cream age mind blowing sound quality best heard music dvdit matter type music likethis one definitely grow youits sheer brilliance performance make watch againeven new musicians cut mustard days old rockers do,0 +silverlake life view here absolutely stunning movie aids well gay love relationship images indeed really hard take especially one gay fears aids probably sensitive person watching it easy make movie terrible illness consequences one two peoples lives movie teaches care hard times never gets morbid still shows life time reminding outside theater room life goes on whatever destiny people may be characters incredibly endearing watch intimacy shots never go beyond strict limit never unveiling anything private offensive children certainly watch movie grownups whether deal situations not it regret tears shed,0 +answer riddle may win fiddle call homosexual man stays night sleeps day,0 +im gay gay dont feel like telling family know wont supported rejected,0 +found art teacher sexual assaulted damn kid find happen year ago randomly came mind chilling found word mouth former study hall teacher kids thats heard day one could stop making jokes talking save life study class like th year math grades taking nose dive dumbass wanted stay in hes bail set still pin time im gunna adult set surious bot dont get mad,0 +im also bored ask questions im male us,0 +know secret make girl wet splash bucket water them clicked nsfw dirty pigs,0 +want die badly want hurt parentsive crippling depression since elementary school ive lost friends barely make money flunked college car barely get bed anymore feel like everyone angry disappointed me want end know would kill parents im do,1 +happy pokemon day entire childhood ngl,0 +im shining light shitty voice head hoping lose power wayim sick death negative messages give myself im going write shine light them otherwise im overwhelmed shame create me what little voices hissing ear youre weird youll never friends youre failure life youre wasting time one likes youre unhappy youre miserable person depression youre like _______ my nasty relative killing way end pain youre going hurt like forever _____ see youre weird loser wont write back youre bad person liking ____ family members cant normal relationship anyone always way always way might well give now werent worth _____s time family moved without youre unattractive dress poorly,1 +friend mean friend let watch bf sex sad boi hours,0 +one thinks s science fiction films one thinks sort schlocky black white b films parodied old mystery science theater television show yet far films like plan outer space robot monster good films s good great science fiction films like day earth stood still incredible shrinking man invasion body snatchers war worlds thing another world yet best bunch literacy production values undoubtedly mgms first big foray level science fiction forbidden planet released minute color film directed fred m wilcox featured state art special effects endowed good screenplay cyril hume screen treatment called fatal planet irving block allen adler adapted aspects william shakespeares tempest itbr br the film drew raves released oscar nominated special effects electronic music score louis bebe barron although credited electronic tonalities avoid music guild fees vivid matte paintings inspired chesley bonestell famed monster id moti animated animator joshua meador loan walt disney studio even famous appearance robby robot first role either film television later would appear film invisible boy included dvd bonus well several appearances s sci fi tv shows twilight zone night gallery lost space whose robot often confused cameo appearance film gremlinsbr br the tale simple elegantly constructed filled humorous asides leaven forced love story aspect film rd century united planets cruiser cd flying saucer led commander jj adams leslie nielsen yes leading man type police squad days en route planet altair iv investigate happened crew bellerophon sent planet twenty years earlier years journey encounter lone survivor party doctor edward morbius walter pidgeon prospero standin philologist gorgeous blond daughter altaira anne francis miranda character pre s miniskirt robby robot domestic servant calibanian counterpart morbius warns crew mysterious force killed bellerophon party first year yet immune it all technically good film especially rear projections matte paintings absurdity adult reactions timmys robbys exploits borders dalian surreal absurdity yet manifest filmmakers sense sublime absurdity film conjures played straight thus making even funnier main feature forbidden planet deserves kudos perfect film great way spend couple hours far better star wars although made twenty years later seems much outdated juvenile films like space odyssey solaris alien aliens first two terminator films really equaled surpassed classic depth effectsbr br its worth knowing that despite forbidden planets happy ending possibility moti still dormant within alta well all fathers daughter even vivid nightmare father moti attacked ship second time also film wisely shows moti once never shows krel imagination always conjure greater scares best special effects film also makes good use narrative ellipses condense tale something far realistic art films often fail do forbidden planet one rare films defines yet transcends era unlike sci fi films rather obvious cold war allegories watch it agree well sleep little less easy but even dont theres still scene anne francis skinnydipping alone timeless,0 +im dumb worldi make stupid mistakes constantly tonight husband go different town ordered pizza place name one street sure takes long go close hearing call outside place thought ordered waiting emails load phone asking receipt email still waiting load sent dark place know thinks im stupid could not husband damn intelligent never made feel stupid purpose feel like unintelligent person compared him ampxb often notice mistakes made paying closer attention mind usually things deem important like work come home brain fried cant focus much work administrative assistant just started last week love it quite honest im office put energy work im shell end day sometimes takes moments grasp husband saying asking about cant keep days days much like today make feel worthless stupid feel like cant even make sense simple things ampxb thank reading im sorry long post,1 +im sufferingnothing helps im point take pills daily help ive tried many different medications nothing helps feel like depression wasting away brain body could many better things life reason cant truly wish never born know meant world,1 +one great movies time story fascinating actors convincing really identify characters william wyler proofs movie great director craftsmanship unsurpassed,0 +infuriates people around would hurt committed redflag wish werent could finally let goi cant parents learning hate existence thing stopping me dont know parent idea talk dont care enough learn how feel like stranger home cant help feel definitely last summer,1 +horny lurking shadows waiting planning attacking least expect it,0 +love everything great way late wondering tf exist redflag socially acceptable people try prevent someone theyve never met whose life story know making call end life fuck like this life shambles cant even bothered fucking im pathetic piece shit even dog likes me ah well fucking yell wall guess,0 +got k karma exciting,0 +questions leavingok guys new thread thinking end life soon may look joke said long year depression perfectly tought act normal dont want bore whole life story how bacame like this here leaving question want answers they say redflag sin helps get rid pains ones around worry they say gods will how god may already decided someday life gonna die like this ask later comments,1 +movie among favorite foreign films others amilee life dog similarities movies many great foreign films takes mundane slice life transforms profound heartfelt lesson br br in japan man bored mundane life rut married life sees beautiful japanese woman staring window dance studio instant takes train pass enthralled her beauty faraway glance connection discover share br br shall dance memorable wonderful characters deal painful realities transcending world dance breaking traditional moulds stereo types japanese society risk happiness find joy far away one movies magical meaningful and itself transcends mundane showing true magic miracle life be,0 +tho feel like one give chance encouraging stuff would nice,0 +visited sleeper agent tired got couch him,0 +one thinks think way movies supposed women empowering right like either make women look like can anything first try without problems fight anyone problem able anything time change gender already established character like changing gender already established character done woke points useless annoying writing women everythinganything message slapped showing woman defuse bomb fighting people time pilot crashing plane giving birth feels unrealistic woke points tell women everything cause one everything anything show realistic person written well grounded cause strong woman think is alien better ghostbusters fucking charlies angels the new one forgot name cause knew doing wrote compelling protagonist,0 +tried kill i gotten theni depression years seeing therapists psychologists social workers since medications tried kill first time stayed psych wards times the last time tired depressed energy could would lie bed day caffeine help mg today pm im ready go bed drive motivation everything flat want normal able function like people can want live like more seems like constantly irritable cant focus anything increasingly suicidal weeks now decided go see therapist college earlier gone talk doctor medications first feeling suicidal doubled medicationthis made less suicidal throwing lot think straight also stop taking medication cant afford more so went see counselor basically responses oh sucks yes verbatim left said remember need emergency help call told financially possible me said oh sucks it tired live like this much effort little payoff fucking energy killing me would kill tonight roommate find body,1 +mind talking everything bad literally everything even relationship gfevery slight bit work perfect boom mind head try make feel bad everything completely worthless moment hope nothingin last weeks got far even feelings overwhelmed turned sides gf busy felt ignored even something dowhile work do sit here knowing end relationship regret losing team position game server highest achievement almost years know useless canceled study means future work distanced almost friendsall head mind hates wants see suffer alonei sitting things never done like trying cut arms blades scissor hittingpunching head hope goes awayif something would wrong anesthesia last week would finally sleep peaceampxbits first time really doubt survive till next therapy meeting without serious harm mind killing,1 +feel people want kill themselvesi feel like people want kill cant dying hard painful vent frustration sub reddit like wish dead ill soon anyway read recent post society fked view stuff even education system wrong,1 +im doneim finally reaching end life life shitfirst moved another country last octoberfrom south africai white year old guy girlfriend virginall friends left get better friendswhat best ways kill myselfdont say redflag answer yes meive diagnosed clinical depression im antidepressants,1 +feels like ive pushed edgemy mind reset feels like newfound clairvoyance bottomless pit kept emotions mind mere colander see ever happy never achieve satisfaction happiness sure it incapable feeling sort positivity want spend life slaving away corperation survive unable appreciate anything want unable retire live constant paranoia anxiety may good enough gained home want deal anymore pain life offer ive enough experience every ounce pain hardship die ive felt like since specifically thoughts awful years today felt far deep now ive started let go hopes die faster disguised health issues cigarettes substance abuse alcohol binge eating sitting around moping name it feel almost certain one point was certain flawed doomed individual feel much time left place here im simply meant earth happiness unreachable want worry family friends came strangers maybe one day heal allow time gamble point,1 +bsta mat rtten kttbullar med potatismos och brunnss r svensk delikatess om man ska vara helt rlig,0 +feel like im staring death facei feel like choice either die live painful life success me im good enough make friends people never be life cant make friends hope hope im stupid say am am cannot let go enjoy life like normal people never able to im weak everything effects emotionally negative way cant this never meant succeed want over,1 +really crazy thing happened sub shadowbanned me time epic fortnite dances,0 +know make weekendeverything piling while every time looks like things getting better something falls end right back here worse watch hope get crushed never all im freshly minted grad student im well im working decent dead end job get rejection rejection jobs field husband family seem baffled seem understand im smart capable think am anyway th three day weekend think im going much time think feel like im drowning every failure ive experienced last three years love husband family want give opportunity watch fail anymore,1 +wish could make everything life go awayim sick tired living im years old im failing classes im lazy work im afraid people think me talk people school want hated recently ive thinking everyone class hates me kid friend joking friend partners me kid smirked course sound bad you them really hurts someone want talk you ive feeling depressed year work piles up go away told parents yet im afraid ill upset want put stress want kill myself think id either sit warm water use one razor blades cut open wrists hang myself nothing getting better give crap anything school even act scared know failed test teacher gives back gets reaction me do want talk guidance counselor theyd tell parents,1 +yo anyone want talk im hella bored female rn play soccer support man utd listen mostly rap im also dry hmu,0 +exactly one week ago came hospital alcohol poisoning possible organ failure made realize fully expect die im it took minutes find vein collapsed doctor thought going die came hospital night telling would sober point on exactly one week later want weed glass whiskey matter happens always go back old ways realize theres way im going make all,1 +brain hate me month keep making dream meeting love life living best life wake im like like ever gonna happen like brain trolling sleep needed get out thank time three people reading this,0 +teacher forgot hand assignment math too,0 +dm u get minutes never talk whos it first come first serve ulcztie speedrun,0 +anyone new zealand im considering moving would like know like,0 +someone chat shit biti want one night think fucking ending it ive enough know dont long left im praying ill next weeks things sort first please someone chat shit little while dont care subject choose want pretend someone gives shit minute stranger person world isnt angry like everyone else is pick topic lets chat shit little while,1 +god feeling great tommorow hw ffs mean girl surprisingly interested asked wanted video call said sure we done pretty much normal me started talking joking bought bandana wearing first met actually really cute tbh anyways suggest draw something usually graffiti n shit asked word wanted said gang joke the gang gang kid n shit anyways really know interested really matter pretty nice friend really type person get relationships buona notte everyone here arrivederci i reply comments wake up,0 +got adhd mom depression dad unbearable combination weeks think everything possible achieve everything want restless focus anything fail mercilessly realize nothing worked again cannot leave bed want kill myself life last years yeah knowing shitty depressive times last forever small consolation also know depression back see point getting life track ruin shortly after made life cannot contribute society mood stable all afraid future want stop existing see living streets years cannot keep job long one give money lie bed cry day night genetic disaster,1 +brilliant thriller deserving far fame mitchum ryan awesome starring roles entire supporting cast truly gripping film noir featuring wonderfully images great dialogue heart strong message tolerance understanding based novel concerning homophobia movie attacks postwar antiemitism intolerance hatred considerable power though parts may seem little preachy modern audiences still power shock works well thriller right credit involved,0 +want kill get homeim vacation right now going pretty well ive panic attacks intrusive thoughts last two days hurt twice really want again cant stop thinking killing get home tomorrow night,1 +happened chat rooms here bring back fun could meet people,0 +one talk toi really friends say care let know im down im fucking time im tired around time surely want either ive burned people guess ever fully believe say care im messed weak needy go on ive thought calling someone am everyone asleep want talk anyway dead feel way one would worry helping me feel like im holding people back get enjoyment life logical basis assume things get better things magically change im going wake happy ill change myself highly unlikely happen ive pretty much known id end life now finding right moment plan everything seems painful od unlikely work without stronger meds hanging cutting suffocating seem painful gun would quick gun want leave gruesome scene someone find either want check out fall asleep never wake up im sorry feel way cant take anxiety self hatred fear sadness anymore nothing look forward to want someone notice me friends ask im say couldnt happier assume mean i happy really i physically incapable happy childish cant seem bring tell person feel easier tell strangers internet wish born closest friends really care cant anything disclosing change anything ultimately comes back me choose happy actively work towards it ive tried think happy,1 +first want kill phone hotline not regret much planning killing tommorow excited something look forward honestly felt morally obligated least try hotline uh bad idea first people even say anything meaningful someone talk to someone gets paid prevent suicide thought maybe would give reason live sent police house parents know suicidal mom bawling horrible dads taking hospital see doctor tommorow day suppose home alone things love one last time ending life gracefully tricked suicide hotline,1 +fuck find caillou smut wrote fifth grade really wrote smut ablut fucking college caillou wrong me,0 +almost committed ending itso ive come close finally committing finalizing things myself almost still reservations im concerned son affect him time im end rope hanging tiniest threads ive modified bullets technically cartridges grinding cross patterns tips theyll spray open lethal thereby helping guarantee successful know go complete it know aim almost sure itll lights out body im close im still slightly struggling fear pulling trigger ive told itll rather quick equivalent maybe stung bee something might hurt brief moment ill dead soon after itll forever sleep free pain life ive endured years relief ive become comfortable enough finally it look forward serenity,1 +kazans early film noir oscar reviews go extraordinary detail length film symbolism rate highly almost see coming from prefer take toneddown approach longforgotten film appears shot practically budget quasidocumentary fashion pneumonic plague loose streets new orleans military doctor widmark city detective douglas apprehend main carrier palance film moody shot stark black white makes good use locations widmark wonderful usual forget symbolism crime equals disease disease equals crime enjoy chase always easy watching film like well new century particular style shortlived post wwii early s unlikely interest casual film watcher watching first time sit tight big chase end something else frankly know filmed it say probably took long film finale first percent movie,0 +thought movie really awesome one drews best also fan michael vartan thought hot movie bad reviews would want watch movie could also loved ending movie clearly shown smile face also surprised james franco jessica alba it love also highlighted movie end drew making huge comment truth really told truth sometimes happens high school again movie amazing defiantly hope comment useful imdb readers,0 +need shoulder cry im aloneits happened again another girlfriend cheated me point im thinking really getting anymore relationships dont know anymore everything going fine fucked stopped giving attention stopped treating nice things stopped taking dates fucking faulti classes today didnt feel like going park day fuck wrong cheat me coincidence two times means fault do day always knew lonely past months fine side weeks ago best friend nearly years moved country would share verything one person could really let everything to getting lonely reddit dont know long keep act together ive pretending happy long know really am gaming nice distraction even lately cant seem get fully game constant battle feel like shit lying people around friends ive made reddit today pretended someone wasnt pretended happy pretended problems stupid things happened chat dont want pretend anymore stop like me browse rdepression everynight browse new section make sure always comment threads comments im wondering right now going anyone me might actually hurt tonight reddit know stop myself im always saying ill listen others one listen me might actually hurt tonight ive crying much last hour eyelids hurt much eyes puffy cant see shit really need someones shoulder cry reddit need someone hold me need someone hold me one want friends read this want chat read this really am shambled broken piece shit im brave im happyim think am im piece shit ive tried hard make life worth something happened today fucking broke me im really hope someone finds post dont want die alone,1 + sorry whole post mess mind huge mess atm anybody grew without proper adult supervision currently so man are deep respect deserve nothing best life live way worst currently years old living without proper adult supervision nearly years people might think living house rules discipline anything might best nothing like me basically live lazy cousin almost nothing else play games shit even though guardians supposed taking care miles away house live in past couple years raising self aside financial support which thankful enough pretty much trying figure everything alone happened me pretty normal life wherein kind dependent parents everything mean cmon parents give children need time love basic needs know moving onto kind lifestyle lost parents really tough deal mourning loss moving new city school home changing lifestyle completely leaving friends old house behind altogether pretty much alone throughout nobody age could understand felt guardians supposed looking kind always leave alone sure might hardest thing ever people really me fast forward nearly years living kind life gotten worse house live always heavy neglect failure keep chores cousin literally helping adding mess dishes always pile up seldomly take trash piles too many containers fridge unfinished food several months back area infested insects snails parts rooves leaking gardens ridiculously overgrown always late restocking groceries etc could keep going gets worse worse add that eat healthy foods eat times day eat processed foods fast foods plus get exercise either lives disgusting really wish strength persevere change lives but tough alone always try initiate changing lives every time so hoping would motivate cousin help me help me still stays lazy try fix lives really takes huge toll always affects progress wish would help lately dealing much point nearly attempted leave world good several times thought rather mom now aunt lives halfway across world decided going get two puppies get wrong love dogs much suitable kind lifestyle right now feel overwhelmed untidy messy house is dogs already here feel bad them feel like deserve much better home also struggle take care personally feel like failing providing everything need big breed dogs never everything new experience me feel like giving proper lifestyle need redflagful plus again expected cousin helping even least pet play them know hurts much live middle upperclass town life pretty close people poverty live even worse least still manage fun loving families place depressing place ever seen lately realized emotionally neglected am nearly years since mom passed away even gotten close moving on thought gone still heartbreaking always brings tears nobody family bothered sit ask coping dead house live in especially past year half quarantine cousin barely talk unless go outside run errands stays room day bother helping house swear god contemplated going away good many times fucking life horrible want escape badly mom heaven thing stopping dogs love much leave behind knowing might taken care properly really trying best muster strength fix life without feeling needing cousin productive me find hard depression you guess wish things get better wish continue fight dogs ps really looking pity tough challenges lives battle fight would absolutely appreciate though experiences comment let know managed get get better least cope realizing emotionally neglected iam family,1 +like compliment straight guys mean im flirting you means im trying make happy thats all try beat something,0 +posting random word album adventures modern recording gets back spotify day kiln gt filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler 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always do then single young woman morning run passed us met eyes mine short couple seconds one deepest conversations ever hadbut words ever spoken ive gotten proficient putting mask on ive become master showing others expect see instead real moment though let see unguarded self decades internal pain torment tears hurt buried long reasoni felt understoodlike seconds okay never talked it im sure remember young man day still gives peace able think back moment know ill never another like it id like think last conscious breath im able see kind understanding eyes looking back minds eye able to perhaps others young woman day sometimes simple moments like mean troubled us,1 +know soda brand called orangina stopping ads pay covid relief google orangina ads info sure else put here google orangina ads post make sense,0 +dog died coming home feels empty one excited greet im gonna leave social media,0 +girl told crush back waiting ask out reject since im gay would funny think,0 +reminder check bros today hi guys wanted post reminder check bros and grils today boys men less likely reach fellow peers theyre struggling depression issues friends may even going rough patch dont know about theyre afraid admit it important reach instead make sure theyre heard cared for go ahead send text bros especially ones noticeably struggling today mean entire world ,0 +want die badly ive basically given lifebecause think death often literally dont give fuck anymore meaningless me college work pointless temporary life things anyone relate this guess thought process im going inevitably end life point doesnt matter im still here,1 +ew update left app minutes updated fawk want old reddit back gt,0 +wanna chat maybe interests sum im f like music specifically right flower face msi nicole dollanganger also listen like types music dont really like movies pick horror movies favorite unironically watch total drama camp camp wise dont watch much tv like uh drawing idk dont lot really like names meaning origins sound greatso yeahthis pretty bogus intro yeah ,0 +help online friendi cant crosspost ill put here really want know once thanks reading schizophrenic friend ive known years online diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia seems get worse years suicidal least attempts past years likes game lot one favorite fandoms touhou fandom believes dies would reincarnated gensokyo the main setting touhou project ive working mom years weve gotten help therapists many antidepressants persistent insisting put go messy way honestly know do long im shitty college freshman friends willing help antics goes causes much drama decide keep unblocked feel massive amount guilt single mother do,1 +feel like like gone me meet week chat daily im kind unhappy im getting cant get enough talking experience usually comes along enamoured start nearly always reply within mins im busy im still excited pahse get lot wait times read receipt coming whatsapp within period get reply hardly screams hes really ok wait long reply assume hes messaging others me im new potential gf,0 +hey redditors idk post here tired diagnosed things never leave tired crippling redflag prevents functioning normally tired pop pills wake up day going sleep really tired guys ami want go home guess going home soon hey,1 +scared upset angry romantic rant told guy liked text worlds worst texter checks maybe one week messages everyone friend knew liked him days tells days ago said wanted friends forgot tell that waiting rejection thats worst partthe waiting days days coming terms fact doesnt like nothing ever happen wait fear hes judging me im angry friend dont know do ,0 +im done ive hung way long waiting things get better dontim tired dependent mom im massive fuck up im never going able support tried every treatment therapy half life theres hope left us werent meant world theres fixing ive already systematically cutting people life dont think anyone going hurt bad ive honestly never felt control happy moment made decision last paycheck isnt even enough cover fraction bills going towards supplies right things get rid of harddrives clear thats pretty much it im going miss anyone truly part motivation want people hurt think did undecided thing im going elderly dog wish could go together im thinking carbon monoxide anyone good info properly advice tying loose ends please send message,1 +im giving lifeman listen shout countless people yesterday internet strangers fucking amazing last three years hell ringer back back deaths house burning christmas homeless child pregnant cheated on bastard baby car lied over leaving great job start business money issues while abused brutally raped molested child went foster care tried self medicate sex life kick fucking rocks refuse give fuck up universe wants going send someone kill themselves im fucking quitter ive lowest low dragged two kids skin teeth body capable ive done depression ride shoulders next years idc ill depressed im going function might sad anxious wreck wont loser cant control life control choices death final dont reset button come back want even find minutes happiness next years life thats five minutes wouldnt died fuck world prepared im coming you,1 +little sister started playing gatcha life heck yeet child what chill car corner eye saw gatcha life investigate yep playing gatcha life do,0 +long post aheadi really know feel like kind last hope letting without people constantly trying help shitty you need move forward shit like that i well lonely man years feel like lived life theres nothing live little more why lot issues depression anxiety self loathing loneliness stuff well comes back teenage years divorce really messy exposed everything hate ensued fear understanding goes it help feel responsible it mean bullied school came back home insults flying around like say hello also help first time life top class yeah add dissapointment vocabulary parents school side things no stop there see picked guitar mom like dad encourage pursue learning it self loathing comes that hey whatever everyone shitty teenage period next thing explore situation became even worse come family mom dad sisters brother get worse well older sister left house go live dad tensions rising mom her without father confessing everything her missed us forth left tend younger bro sis much me brother hard time acting out mom constantly tail saw turn red anger sweating much would thought fever thing thought of go dads since whenever went there okay so comes fateful wednesday month october told mom going dads evidently took well throwing bro curb wait dad pick us up let sister behind made stand her telling mom also wanted come always raised support ourselves did told mom leave us alone moment hated her hurting supported know thats mistake looking it since understand feel left curb alone dads everything went fine went away university dropped of younger sister bullied brother slaps face shit like that came back home trying fix things family breaking apart failed again oh good note found love time became escape shitty family whenever visited felt like loved even family big change me depression began everytime come back home felt like torn inside out fear stress point lived mom cause dad kicked out saying piece shit gave nothing trouble huge problem find way get home impose mom long tried contacting mom touch seven years now went well point little sister called middle night time told missed wished her nobody defending little bro night explained everything treated bro slapped hard busted lip raging remember sleep finally got visit buying train ticket propose meet mom again everything fine expressed desire stay mom could make feel better worked while good true cool things fast pass cycle began anew decided get job far away move gf time years knew other know say life always find way mess you well lung infection nearly killed me oh also girlfriend cheated me kicked since lost job pay shit disspointment everything fault even mom still thinks fault back square one back moms depression kicking ass since fucking long year comes big fight tonight my mom remarried mom new hubby told move soon year already staying struggling get back feet failed therapy failed job interviews inability connect others even stronger before nowhere left go one talk to called redflag hotline prevention shit hit fan mom new hubby lost parent redflag caught talking could go he really helpful anyone gave shit saying people wants kill it talk stop threats snapped told fuck life since source problems their words imagine feel now laying hotel room bed sister worrying nothing her sorry long post wanted never it ashamed family anyway hope get sleep tonight laying outalso hopefully stopping thoughts,1 +lost friend fell pregnanti friends girl since past years super close spoke day everyday literally everything weeks ago fight wasnt aware even single dollarafter shes started really distant saying shes seeing speaking anyone rn shes tired stressed time backed off messaged ask okay occasional memes dont talk bar hey alright reply yeah im goodand nothing every days group chat together old work colleagues talks often anyone me shes making plans see people chat breakfast someone else chat clear shes seeing people feel gutted shes pushing away like thisshe friend good one shes world felt worth living for havent spoken seen anyone weeks feel alone dont know go here social skills broken mind body cant work cant go anywhere new feel lost im tired im older ever thought id be im proud think time coming end,1 +stuck life able snap im yo math student th grade studied last two years were months away really important exams im panicking ive lost hope literally anything huge struggle really want study make know could make lost time cant seem start days seem fly one else cares whats gonna happen advice help would appreciated tldr unable study need help,0 +school cheat code violently shit middle class go home early,0 +ready check life earlyfirst world problems ahead feel like ive done everything ive wanted life ready check life little bit myself mid s guy got decent paying job done lots traveling world ive favorite country japan times ive girlfriends before im virgin dated ten years since last serious relationship relationships long term got see favorite bands perform countless times ive hundreds shows im great shape love cycling also lift great circle friends feel grateful everyone says people less fortunate would anything life complaints im happy im killing time die want wait grow old frail thought living nursing home poop bag terrifies me actually fear outliving friends family recently ive thought checking life early im going plan leave note one day might walk front train bus leap bridge without thought could happen day im looking attention wanted get there anyone gone similar experience,1 +literally anything funnier night literally anything funnier night,0 +everybody telling that way improve single thing lifei sorry done atrocities conceived children worstat least let choose better father figure one never been rather father bad father,1 +cant even google kill painlessly anymorethis sucks google try find information get bombarded bullshit redflag prevention hotline ive called made convinced kill myself sick trapped here anyone else close it im fairly close closer ive ever life shit,1 +voice chat intimidating find hard talk great games play teambased,0 +never ever ignore thinkerwhy must ask im overthinker im fucking overthinker overthink lot things control over hardest part get ignored friends theyre reason im still alive simply simply go ignore like never ever fucking mattered dont even matter anyone youre reading this please never ever ignore hurt overthinker spent hours day thinking wrong try overthink positive yk suicidal thoughts fucking overthinking dont mix well dont know hear hurt words hurts goddamn much hate seeing much pain want make people happy i try hardest best fucking person anyone could ever ask for audacity go ignore forget fucking fact im overthinker yeah fault know that didnt ask overthinker did mean one thing leads another first get anxiety attacks slip depressive phase manic episodes nobody nobody knows hurt go through wish would end thats never ignore hurt overthinker,1 +took bunchof meds hoping job around anymore cant take life anymore done never asked born never wanted suffered horrid life more least hope meds work right,1 +wanna really get girl going say good girl idk works everyone literally cannot control that,0 +ever feel lonely think never get boyfriendgirlfriend remember wise words boi uthe_therapist_ dont worry it wonderful person like trouble finding someone,0 +want anyone take there going get car stranger relate so would do do do suicidal thoughts hurting myself hurt others around me gone psycho he even called psycho called deranged called deranged cannot ruining room want to ry imsoat part wants cry arms hate that vent rant,1 +basil rathbone nigel bruce sherlock holmes dr watson respectively second universal series established means written prologue famed detective legendary spans time helps comfortably set things present era early sbr br in offering holmes goes different disguises with rathbones prominent features likely people really recognize true identity protects physicist hands nazis well holmes greatest nemesis professor moriarty now played lionel atwill scientist developed bomb sight greatly aid aerial bombardment hes promised plans british moriarty wants get hold sell nazisbr br a good entry boosted bit participation properly villainous atwill cast moriarty though george zucco slouch adventures sherlock holmes always intriguing watching holmes greatest enemy engaging witty banter together the needle last eh holmes,0 +film gone fashion often miniskirt triumph postwar period virtually forgotten s except students cinema recently begun get recognition perhaps evenhanded representation soldiers integration postwar life ever made and definitely includes films the deer hunter like it overall evaluation somewhere extremesbr br the tale simple one three different servicemen mustered world war ii the big one fly home midwest town try resume create civilian lives one disability one cushy job waiting him nothing go determinationbr br there good unfortunately uneven performances fredric march best actor oscar playing old sergeant returns job local bank personally think jimmy stewart deserved its wonderful life also deserved best picture award clearly film touched nerve postwar audience said fashionable march one fantastic scene humorous speech brought mind somewhat similar incident involving real wwii hero pappy boyington otherwise solid unspectacularbr br i going grain here thought myrna loy played marchs wife justly ignored academy detected barely hint warmth her fact kept thinking going slap frederic march annoying her practically grimaced every time together something definitely missing there forced smiles air tolerance rather joyfulness think nonsense the perfect wife correct think passionless s homemaker ideal may disagree that academy voters apparently not major problem film terribly miscastbr br dana andrews former soda jerk became war hero winds behind counter again amazing saddled wife evidently married right left war wrong reasons future looks bleak chances upon marchs daughter peggy teresa wright fantastic turn fireworks explode great comes unevenness pervades film moments pure soap opera intrude punctuated alltime classic line im going bust marriage up romance uplifting mirror common condition war returning servicemen finding love upon returnbr br speaking uplifting come harold russell naturalistic quality acting nonacting rings true today doubt then taking nononsense approach situation inspiration best scene one best cinema brings girl likes bedroom show truth condition im lucky still elbows unlike boys truly great stuffbr br the film moments soar also moments belong afternoon soaps take good bad see one high points,0 +started say like feet joke thing gets hard them,0 +cant escapei tried hang myself minutes thinking it it seconds still black out come close it it want pain fucking stop please make fucking stop,1 +seem pointi ruined relationship girl dreams dated lived together three years small little family unit adorable little cat imagined growing old children depression thought help her strong ignored depression tried force thought best really needed help terrified vulnerable tough approach towards others opposite effect turned monster became terrifying her spent year broke hopeful would get back together still numb still ignoring issues know do took affection granted something changed got rid distractions able see become i go felt like years suddenly bore full brunt guilt shame hurting girl realized loved ever confessed her suggested take time love first trying make codependent relationship work again agreed went contact fool abandonment issues hurt more started dating someone new suppose hurt last time month since then stopped eating first want feed horrible person hurt vulnerable person went fluoxetine went therapy im trying take care now new breakups heartbreak understand time heals wounds understand abusive childhood created issues still need deal also lot pressure issues sides far complicated explain times happy now see happy new boyfriend still seem exist instrument happiness cant contact her live know humans supposed love themselves know loved myself could avoided hurting her know ill likely meet someone new able occupy heart similar way focusing healing hurt another person like again every day painful getting point exist future pieces seems hopeless heart hurt long ive never prior physical pain come close matching feels theres much life normal person would want live memories want die want die it i ill keep living guilt shame loneliness ennui become completely different person now find wanting die day long every day wish something would kill me im nihilist something worth living for gone cant seem find something valuable anything excites me gives reason keep living fear continues one day ill become numb ill casually myself worse continue starving develop illness slowly die it want something live for find around reasons die think anyone read this upsetting know even someone does able understand everything wrote im tired living needed put something there im tired suffering alone,1 +weekly self post weekend story femboy reality came back work opened reddit someone linked subreddit named r huhi never heard whats that murmured saw several posts femboys ew would never femboy disgusting turn reddit right went swipe close it small hand painted nails reached took in let go shouted hand avail took threw place never seen before several men walking maid dresses wearing masks uwu written them hell dimension femboys started running one direction hiding anybody way knew threat come here hide us see you voice suddenly told followed command pure determination saw blonde man tall young boy short muscular man you tell hide you place said weird group hello men arent femboys asked hide us thought normal people blonde man said me place asked him believe teleported another reality short muscular man told me huh think that asked short muscular man dont look also teleported another reality r right man said me yes know asked him intrigued also taken home r reality femboy reality arent femboy either get turned one die higher ups choose die said eyes getting bit teary offered food talked bit keith blonde man said tall boy david short tank micheal whats name name kyle said keith thanks taking in problem kyle sleep getting dark going new shelter soon keith told me would move shelter asked them wanted criminals micheals dad shot death turning femboy ran away fast could them biggest criminals entire reality david explained me dont want die micheals dad doesnt die vain said goodnight went sleep,0 +jumpthis story happened planned redflag whole month even calendar marking dates went big x tore rest dates th day would finally it quit part time job sold belongings morning th left money envelope next mom sleeping wanted pay back everything headed towards bridge thought ending all bullied throughout elementary middle school never anyone friends thing is bullied used bully kid things flipped suddenly one got bullied wanted end thought world need me way bridge met girl looked similar girl bullied kid turns out her back bully back power back laughed misery others wanted jump wanted make amends knew felt cut short talked her easy sum up reason decided live want say make rest life,1 +hey depressionyou woni supposed go psychologist next week dont think make far one irl friends commited redflag,1 +stay alive thought without letting know life like honestly hard time answering it maybe someone box actually see betterthis random thought solid question time why,1 +wish someone would sell gunbut california rules tight im oh well,1 +decided commit redflagrather explain reasons wish die id like know brought important decision end life terms,1 +comment ill r e ur user gt one ten scale ofc reasoning dont take heart though bc opinions probably trash b,0 +goodbyeposting main acc since doesnt matter anymore ive depressed years planning redflag yeras today day jump balcony end all hope everyone great live never end like me,1 +latest movie watched filler gtefrrrrrrrrrrrrr curios,0 +know anymorei cry every day struggle bad thoughts time minor inconvenience happensi love boyfriend much anything want leave knowing sad mad disappointedi happy life see future world plagued redflag rpe feel horrible time given therapy prescription drugs many chances time feel defeated know do tired sad hopeless love,1 +suicidal thoughts lately health issuesit started initially heathy good sudden developed frequent urination along kicked health redflag took months finally got it year good got acidity issue later developed tinnitus devastating phase life lost girl loved anything this cut social areas year say entire went recovering that finally feeling better started moving on bamm another issue popped up allergiesthen dealing point got severe upper respiratory infection medsnow that took vaccine see pigmentation buccal mucosa dentists saying normal dermatologists stated oral lichen planus idk do diseases noncurable coming me fault suffer thesenow scared cancer gives heath redflag time really feel hopeless feel like body supporting me scared angry frustrated notthis suicidal thoughts came mind idk dodoctors helping much accurate diagnosis feel like loop experiencing bad events need help,1 +need someone considers himher self socially competent want ask questions experiencei seriously dont know right place ask im mentally unstable im steps away killing myself,1 +know dofirst all im native speaker please understand english so goes traumas deprived background such somehow always little depressed around years ago thing exploded major depression dulled emotions life become convenient rarely feel depressed problem lost fond life nothing want do nothing care even families friends want live really ive therapists taking medicines past years depression getting worse become suicidal im planning die months well im still taking medicines therapies hoping something would happen futile guess honest even know im writing here felt like still want give shot,1 +jason bourne sits dusty room blood hands trying make sense hes done meanwhile cia chief nyc outlines agencys response whats happened screen american flag stands proudly centre desk foreground shot speaks slips focus plan veers morally dubious territory want associated course action government man decides necessary interests national securitybr br this shot effectively captures mood film well portraying bournes quest find became jason bourne ultimatum also examination human costs measures taken protect us interests stability securitybr br it also probably best film see cinema year br br its intense bourne says simon ross considine this newspaper story real audience almost believe him camera shakes remains steady enough see everything feel like bourne tries elude pursuers performances good guys seem though characters theyre portraying instead actors performing wellwritten roles action scenes brutally fastpaced well choreographed seem instinctive instead planned minutest movement stuntwork nothing short amazingbr br the pacing incredible keeps driving forward towards conclusion fast leaves struggling piece together plot script delivers information need quickly clearly possible moving next tense action setpiece theyre often simple the waterloo sequence essentially man phone watched man phone theyre charged dramatic intensity cant take eyes them film focused powering forwards cant help swept along itbr br with intense action setpieces brilliantly paced storyline intelligent examination decisions made name national security bourne series one accurately captures ambiguities age ultimatum peak,0 +karma hit today cakes make,0 +jokingly said gonna show face k karma im k chuckles im danger,0 +sleep past mistakes keep haunting know theres nothing cant get head gotta wake hours anyways fuck guess,0 +really know come right say i want kill myself so keyboard vomited insteadi know actually belong im still sort new reddit so like someone let know somewhere else yeah little long know whats funny life always felt like series one day middle school one day closer summer meant entire break grandmothers house made day one day tally whole summer parents tell worthless turn around shower sister affection whole summer stepdads parents tell the spawn devil not kidding honestly thing grandparents said me several occasions honestly being godfearing southern baptists starting time turned biological grandchild got high school never ending series one day responsibility could relax i never relaxed packed schedule full every day never acknowledge avoiding fact feel happy ever yes know high school prime time teenage angst but saw friends go angsty phases relate connect anything desperately wanted to things made happy didnt always hollow feeling like feeling something never knew was learned mimic friends feelings happy happy forth never felt genuine relied feelings own odd thing know explain anyone could feel deeply people yet feel nothing own turned always making one day closer could move parents house dad hit anymore mom tell much awful human was learned feel little bit own hated it decided feelings bad things could feel bad learned box up reflected good feelings people around me ended boyfriend it got house struggle counting one day boyfriend got back basic training came home said army changed him said want more feelings still sucked could connect people though sort of people meant feelings emotions shitty ones empty spaces almost feel empty like clothes almost fit every day past one day excuses look easy way out one day wanting sister grow alone one day work make enough money school one day trying figure actually wanted married not one day without boys slugging deployments grandda got sick keeping healthy one day really dark place sick kept tally days much his if makes one day i met last boyfriend well call nerd seeing face first thing morning made want see one day would look like one glorious year stopped thinking one day stopped caring making reasons try one day living life taking care grandda dancing music kitchen nerd made pancakes felt things real things things stopped putting bad feelings boxes explode examine later date dealt things came smiled nothing generally let life happen thought crossed mind long sucks back here granddas gone lost back december cancer cant measure days able take care anymore supposed live supposed go another cruise supposed see get married supposed able retire properly supposed live didnt failed left go stupid vacation got sicker came back recovery him late that didnt push hard enough hospital scans let cancer spread mom tasked taking care him couldnt grandda told found love hold onto forever lost it failed left asked me couldnt keep hospital let mother watch father die that asked stay got hospital didnt think could take care anymore even though year myself put mother that failed pay it lost everything gave joy past year deserve it nerd dipped blame him talked getting married army wanted send alaska mentioned solution separation already facing said i want ask like this so decided wait sent texas instead decided worth it try me texas supposed much doable alaska texas supposed easier manage waiting supposed smarter guess absence really make heart grow fonder orders first deployment got new girlfriend now im back one day one day im selfish enough afraid one would miss me im scared original shock wore off one would really care way back middle school hardest time understanding this spend life cultivating things it end point know thats existential angst catch thinking time spent long time trying find something live for something survive for anything fill void make feel like anything matters dont feel anything except despair despondency again mean honestly die end bother one truly say are going leave end dont want fight claw hurt everyday trying make through die dont want get better fall dont want that want this make it want to ive always sucker ruining ending afraid im afraid would happen sister suffered much loss short years im afraid would happen mother lost parents less two years barely holding together im afraid roommates thinking failed way see happening yet think almost every day voice whispering easy would be quiet would finally be fact cant feel emotions properly matter more mom would figure out parents love sister young would adjust roommates theyre dating probably makes whole alone thing harder deal with hey single person whos world would stop spinning even moment without me tired time fight getting bed would nothing but if quieter voice always whispers funny thing keep living life even sure want see another day of ridiculous excuse pulled air someone afraid give something hates,1 +lets swing together beautiful park sun shining,0 +visited runpopularopinion cant say im disappointed people miserable cunts thats say im disappointed humanity again,0 +im birthday party people dislike hope get drunk enough go iti really wish could go home cry sleep without offending anybody reason nobody host really wants even seem like invited unwillingly want go club afterwards feel uncomfortable tag along even though part plan popular club means prices high people pretty snobby elitist room dancing people furious slightly touch accident feels like economic statement activity one fun meanwhile im supposed go looking like abomination horror movie thats putting effort looks disgusted sheer sight hideous body without even talked and im sure would make things worse problem is promised somebody could crash place flat mates uptight either go get apartment trust enough give keys either wish said cant come unfortunately im sucker social interaction take opportunity not many probably makes worse even pretty much know theyll make miserable that ive realised yet another reason life waste resources achieved anything im liked anywhere everything destined fail straightup feel cursed point intention continue living life whatsoever tried ending life once unfortunately survival instincts seemed kick in wish knew turn off would make things much easier actually im waste least waste recycled cant be im actually worse trash,1 +hidingim tired hiding hiding sexuality hiding deep deep sadness hiding passive suicidal ideation hiding incredibly bad general social anxiety hiding every daynight consider overdosing slicing arms hiding much actually struggle hiding much need collapse ground tears im exhausted,1 +unable feel love cant get job snap still care end it lolso fun fact im chronically lonely yet whenever anyone expresses interest clamp push away get intimate cant sleep someone unless genuinely care or even love exists im sick it someone emotionally stunted also longing deep connection pandemic cut college going times short graduation happening lost job getting cant get one cause industry shrunk im stuck home mom abused kid keep lashing friendsfamily still care me kill get done even worth living go bed alone every night genuinely enjoy life like get ppl meant bad days goddamnit get one fucking good day year thats want one,1 +u puppyfox professional profile stalker ampxb edit joke fools,0 +f im ok need someone talk toim suicidal youre looking save life exit post im really alone thoughts right really draining really need someone talk thats preferably around age,1 +temperate blocked nose cant medicine cos makes vomit epic,0 +honestly know turnim supposed graduate college five days supposed to im waiting final make break grades one class graduate college know disappointed family would me them honestly im sure graduate ive come conclusion graduate easiest thing would commit redflag cant face family graduated four years less ivys this mental health taken enormous toll academics ive done everything need order graduate comes one professors grades two assignments im lost know go feel like graduate family never think again cant face kind disappointment im fucking scared feel option know else go,1 +thank moderators of rdepression for allowing post here part team researchers new york state psychiatric institutecolumbia university currently recruiting participants research study looking investigational treatment selfinjury called transcranial direct current stimulation tdcs tdcs noninvasive welltolerated form brain stimulation delivers low current specific area brain using electrodes research shown tdcs help reduce negative emotions may help treat depression conditionswe seeking individuals ages selfinjure through burning cutting means eligible participants 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authorized individuals including new york state psychiatric institute also legal advocacy organizations authority new york state law access otherwise confidential subject records although cannot disclose information without consentif interested please contact ashley ashleyyttredahlnyspicolumbiaedu information also available time treating self injury research study,1 +dont see point everybody loved gonemy best friend rory died months ago home less im not got hit car girlfriend died two day later thank close friend highschool died days later work got job make money ever before im still unhappy think redflag almost every second every day get state license get job im ok broke times work it dont know keep together testing agency im broke every way matters hate life,1 +omg realised something okay someone tells something double check im hearing right even doubt heard right could possibly wrong wasnt said realised tell mum something say sure another thing little would ask someone something would say never even though remember since adult everybody believed tldr years people doubting made hard believe im relaying correct message,0 +people suckeveryone says oh things change go college just wait out ive waiting years want shit fixed now,1 +ok drank coffee still feeling sleepy smh,0 +consent hot overdo,0 +doi thought notes want stop living everytime bring cliff ledge hiking trips put knife throat cant think dad sister im years old th grade know life really worth living me girl ever loved relationship with lesbian cant find love girls know life plans outside joining marines maybe ill die hero diagnosed mental illness tried get help school thing said how grades second walked couselour office feel trapped every night cant fall asleep think death im glad found place tell someone someone please tell fuck,1 +want die sleepsome nights go sleep hoping wake up would much easier wife family scar redflag easy too tonight one nights think would ever kill myself would gladly accept quick painless death sleep face big challenge tomorrow want anymore stressful year life things settling down something major wrong house im sure it contractor confirm morning material object yes last straw cant handle financial problems im tired problems tired struggling mental health issues wife dog loves me wider family love too jobs corona life really fucked addiction seems like problems people deal push edge easily one thing weigh us financially years hate alive more feelspointless ive lot live view third party plain old me want way devastate beyond normal death thanks reading,1 +someone please talk meim sober enough write paragraph explaining im going need someone understanding talk to feel like im going burst end life commit crime get locked jail forever,1 +imagine personality post made using ppls personality im talking,0 +fall infinite nonending process repeat step ,0 +whats quickest way kill yourselfgive sincere opinions im writing office cabin feel like worth anything now world shit,1 +messed upi habit making mistakes hurting people today made mistake hurt two people care about wasnt inept already wouldve killed myself dont really want die dont see another way stop hurting people cant think reason end it maybe one can,1 +going sleep crying thought waking crying let wake,1 +life fell apart could watchfor past months ive watched life fall apart everything going ruined it given multiple chances redeem failed every time feel hopeless now ive gotten help doctors therapist didnt help anything made worse ive tried look healthy social support closest friends moved away alone one talk anymore ive tried optimistic pick pieces try make something ive failed too whole life one big failure know family friends look me honestly end road ive exhausted options im going write every single one friends letter dont want blame themselves ill write family ones cant take living failures anymore know do,1 +aight thats it im quitting school wants get group like people run away bulgaria enough people paying rent wont hard,0 +literally one luckiest people earth cool parents understand teen different years ago lucky look back miserable life everyday struggles life would much easier understanding parents,0 +printf want diewhile alive printf i want die sorry mediocre script,1 +poem wrote suicidal influences many open meaningshello ive never much interest poetry fact think one lowest forms literature expression events recent past lead writing this first poem ive ever written free will like it id like know not id still like know counterproductive suicidal individuals delete post little argument call you need me need me need me hear cry wonder ever came attempt wave goodbye put barrel temple begin wish could overdose close close need me open eyes mesmerized million lies me surface top scream stop open eyes meant goodbyes stand high way sky finally finally goodbye falling flailing failing close close need me open eyes lying bed cant dead join rest cattle hell internal battle paint smile begin daily mile time bed beautiful lie rings head need me,1 +bee movie year old brother watched bee movie around times past weeksmy mind slowly turning black yellowthinking beethinking bee,0 +fastest way kms help,1 +please somebody find fucking combination words make betterim years old im horribly depressed ive fucked brain beyond belief psychedelic drugs months ago first seizure finally three fucking months later tell abnormality right temporal lobe need discuss next steps im allowed drive due risk seizures cant even get fucking license im fucking idiot value brain much want clear head ruined smoking weed everyday year dangerous psychedelics way many mushrooms mind fucked think weird fucked ways still get flashbacks bad trips fucked dreams fucking dead cant anything fucked brain several people know facebook commited redflag odd fentanyl getting much fucking sympathy walls getting me idea seems perfect want live bad want deal shit want kill myself least attempt get help one taking seriously right now im trapped head nobody knows bad depression is fuck fucks fuck,1 +if so work fixing that lack clear communication by either one party both try get back touch them thank made far,0 +valentines date ideas want treat girlfriend valentines day were long distance rn cant together person ideas type date could do anyone similar situation doing,0 +one movies watched twice theatre really love movie atmosphere telling life tragic hero esteban trueba makes many mistakes gets chance redemption rather consoling thoughtbr br when watched first time thought election movie would know book boy wrong dramatic climax still come literally swept away sheer power last half hour filmbr br many people utterly dislike movie cannot understand one single bit maybe read book first often screen adaptations novels simply disappointed many things remained untold unseen unexplained movie telling touching story story family rise fall man deep compassion woman strength love insanity hate and conservatism movie simply splendid furthermore soundtrack incredibly good cast wonderful well especially winona ryder jeremy ironsbr br so definitely one films cinema invented for,0 +think im bi actually idk need advice so friends think im bi thought since started highschool where im start opposite gender partner love um idk remember thinking hot people gender are umm friends say act gayer actually gay friends overall im confused want advice internet strangers dont wanna talk actual friends this help me,0 +suicide per se sometimes imagine blinking existencejust gone point feel right anymore know explainarticulate going onmostly people tried to told dramatic attention seeking right feel empty sad family loves me talent more them worsei even know feel like this sadly coward doubt would end it cannot ask would care disappeared get offendedsometimes want leave everything start again sometimes fantasize disappearing,1 +made attempt yesterday backstory im going completely honest guys life shit show guys lost fulltime job drugs xanax cocaine lots overthecounter sleeping medications thought would help get moving parents place twin brother still resides one twin thats always problem child never easy feat me first attempt seen attention seeking come polish family strict comes respect quite little asshole say i honestly still think am digress days ago took probably around mg quetiapine passed around minutes felt great like warm embrace unconsciousness enveloping hopefully permanent darkness wake emergency room barely conscious clock murmured state drowsiness thats notice paramedic sitting right next saying yes clock days picked shocked also disheartened finally thought built courage failed again stuck emergency tent couldnt even get body felt like hit car today rd day city hour hold form allowed leave hospital really want get actually succeed something give parents one straight gifted son look much disappear still manage get mg seroquel hour hold want try want succeed know selfish felt right felt peaceful tranquil thank anybody reading words would end saying dont think love sadly cant think thats alright,1 +anyone want play among us im hosting game among us anyone wants join feel free to discord prestigealien guys want play add ill add group chat leave whenever want,0 +im really close ending allim sitting bed belt hands want fucking think fact mother room next door wait shes asleep then dont know hope pass fast needed tell somebody see anything changes guess not im sorry mom,1 +damn confused background recently getting realy close one female friends later told likes me story another day anyway sitting room watching video realy likes panic attack happens surprisingly often held hand hugged probably minutes later stopped shaking looked me put hand shoulder started kissing me made probably almost minutes reference first kiss experience still clue would kiss ugly ass face hey apparently dosent regret it thats good guess,0 +today tried explain parents really see value life called selfish felt already want tell father knew going happen regret it remember trying tell friend felt life scared could finish yet tell open tell feel learned lesson opening people never tell people truly feel ever again learn walk life look happy time order avoid mess frustration comes telling people feel well like open online since anonymous never tell people feeling real life avoid baggage comes it never open feelings again,1 +want hang soon dont lose interest cool thanks love us jakdjfjfid life odd sometimes huh,0 +come answers test always overly complicated make simple answers instead writing overly complicated answer choices confusing teachers trying hardest make us fail,0 +losing shit knowing put cuts way one see worry able wear outfit might bleed freaking need release,1 +want end work tomorrowim know good yesterday boyfriend told got giddy girl work appreciated telling this makes feel bad told would point hes lost interest me last straw really since ive feeling like were love anymore months since weve happy really theres passion left energy break since believe could find anybody new went saturday night friend men talk seemed unattractive personalitywise ive working art project working measly job barley make enough money in jobs way take i tried retail sales food industry sometimes wish life could least one little fairytale moment me nothing seems happen even try hard make boyfriend happy work hard jobi see way feel like ranting energy anymore get help,1 +anyone else never compliment girl cuz dont wanna called simp say neutral negative comments girls guys,0 +dont like doom eternal get wrong hella fun game hate idea doom slayer back doom saw doomguy mask suit armor face image body dialogue revealing armor feels like doomguy soul doomguy seem like person embodiment intent vengeance face body leaves us imagination doomguy looks like personal preference imagination feels like doomslayer doom eternal changes that silent embodiment intention buff human doom makes us feel power comes pure intention malice revealed doom eternal drugged guy severe psychotic ptsd doomguy talked flashback makes seem weak helpless face revealed seem deadly hateful another protagonist sea endless averages basically revealing vs face v vendetta embodiment intention drugged mentally impaired human,0 +today years old realized joe mama spongebob thing,0 +resist urge put centipedes ear holes everytime hear voice video,0 +bad person sound mind voices hear come life trauma trauma come within often fear caused fate fate came found me ask pain inflicted me hands meant protect me ask hear voices telling afraid dark always feared bad person voices ask wrong others bad person know right wrong say dark face away shadows refuse accept enemies stay wish darkness turn light poem,1 +feel like people secretly hate methey hate behind back tolerate order seem rude feel bad worst part dont even know true slowly kills anyway,1 +poetrypart wants die tonight part wants accident part wants somebody notice stop me like one bad last part ofc suffering easier actually take step die,1 +well runny nose swollen throat feel weak want throw today gonna great,0 +title creative last post got removed bot didnt think title reached level genius order accepted artificial inconvienience bot is diddly darn dang it realised could make pretty cool song meltdowns people subreddit tweaking course would pretty deep,0 +realized motivation live thats likely changei think zoloft past couple months cleared mind many pointless thoughts realize really want kill myself actually motivation improve know would even mean goal life want partner kids im asexual believe god hobbies would amount meaningful progress justify existence sure could spend next however many years natural lifespan eating shitting going work sleeping would want that survive people thing driving forward dont close friends im distant family continuing life burden would willingly put myself reason whatsoever perform mundane bodily functions naturally cant anymore,1 +think weighted average film low give entertaining although top places wife says passes danielle steele test superb performances throughout particularly andie macdowell,0 +i want kill before sure waited want life holds value future there nothing waiting wanna wake im forty realize im alone real job kind future need i there way out,1 +final try tho im still depressedi stopped new low saturday night took g aspirin one sitting went bed next partner love entire heart went bed hoping ill die sleep woke morning partially deaf nauseous lightheaded sick stomach done rushed er driving placed icu almost immediately ended staying nights days hospital took various blood tests worried internal bleeding brain swelling etc denied redflag attempts avoid psych ward said took headache lovely girlfriend going hard hit hard even though didnt know attempt im heartbroken ill never attempt,1 +get help without insurancei lost job recently find without insurance ive hospitalized before insurance then im point feel like need go back sucks there saved first time guess works anyway get accepted somewhere least get psychiatrist give meds without insurance feel though im stuck dont get help soon im going much longer,1 +im pretty weak willed personim sorry know long guess ill start introducing myself name tony years old father two children married mother two children things rough since first child born august know plenty people kids young gone tough times title suggests weak willed person im coward im easily broken im physically weak wife counters ways stronger me mentally her everything simple thats me ive tried strong always turns facade wife well ive gotten help ive therapist part months feel like everything said made sense stupid reason never follow through im quitter stubborn turn tail run going gets tough every single one aspects attributed depression constant thoughts ending all offing myself kids awesome lately feel like ive feeling hate them especially daughter pick up practically screams me never done started little harsh cries for literally nothing harsh yelling light smacks butt nothing hard enough let know unacceptable months feel hatred her son two years old every time discipline something unacceptable yells back me know hes kid thats kids bothers discipline says i want mommy broke heart made break down crying first time heard it yesterday ever since daughter born thoughts redflag gotten progressively worse thinking trying it without success mostly pills course think everybody else take death hurt them would dead ability care selfish thought feel like made handle everything im going now kids young married young two jobs moving state want at used live arizona loved there wife practically forced move california hate here thats things got worse felt choice still wanted children would left behind anyway conflict wife right now moved want to got job amazon fulfillment center want to were living brother girlfriend want judgemental pretentious people ever share conflict well one point brother almost got fight argument feel like go anymore,1 +stupidi cant live without her want suggestions get better want post thoughts left her uplifting energy went her probably karma wish knew frequent day dream committing redflag would talk it last time talked cussed said deserved experience fours years still experience much negative emotion feel worthless think im narcissistic little punk started trying get another girl happen timing issues trying get intimate another girl felt like upgrade jerk was bet would still jerk females would show interest me anyways without somebody loving want kill myself nothing want live for thing want die things might get better also parents done much try make feel better things might get better fuck that might win lottery buy ticket mean buy one ocd depression also grandfather bipolar schizophrenic im sure genetics favors far emotional well concerned happiness leave ex want hurt talking also want feel like again stubborn always seem reject taking path getting better,1 +want kill myselfi year old adult india clearly find purpose life come poor family since childhood grew lack money never enough money live decent life always thought killing since last years good studies till high school completing high school got admission college clearing toughest exam india joining college happy dream college come way started hating college course life everything tried kill twice often used go bed thinking might kill myself failed killing began search money thought money bring happiness tbh short time did became happy started earning months earned forgot depression everything found purpose life felt way never felt before gloomy evening lost around dollars almost lost everything lost source income day struggling find purpose life able focus studies sleep properly eat want kill leave earth want electrocute myself really know do,1 +hurts physically one still takes seriously it hurts chest hurts physically im sick living like this im wreck wish pain could end all im sick living like every single day would anything pain end beg help one sees it dad destroyed eyes look away havent found enjoyment life years want enjoy it even day,1 +dont know but rnb cool kinda forced beginning started vibing my bus driver always played beat like full blast every ride home think like days redbone bood up remember also playing khalids location,0 +doubt it animated short put uncle walt map success walts older brotherroy suggested next mickey mouse short include sound walt jumped chance resultsteamboat willie runaway hit was all first animated short subject synchronized sound track mostly music sound effectsas dialog minimal sound like wet blanket short far perfect animation prior creaky rather herky jerky but equipment made improvementsand better artistic techniques came aboutthe rest smooth sailingand sound primitive disney wanted use well known rca sound systemor western electric noiseless sound systembut refused firmsprompting disney use photophone system pa powers experimenting time plot theres actual plot line hereconcerns mickey as aforementioned willieis pilot steamboat terrorized black pete captain pete youand decides jam session ship using various animals board musical instruments aspca take notice think much technical shortcomings steamboat willie eight minutes fun and piece history,0 +tried commit redflagtried hang panicked breathe kicked in kitchen knives dull pain tolerance low guess thats failed,1 +since douglas macarthur affected human livesfor betterthan american elected president deserved better film biography universals macarthur bad beenbr br oddly enough potential there early star trek episode the corbomite maneuver recent hbo films something lord made oo warm springs oo director joseph sargent emerged one expressively human directors film man capable subtly shaping emotional shadings actors performances carrying audience exactly wants go producer frank mccarthy also gave us patton o legendary jerry goldsmith scored films universal widely touted fact film four years preparation production yet this macarthur perfectly adequateand much thatbr br the film begins early shortly beleaguered general orderedby president franklin d roosevelt dan oherlihyto flee philippines avoid capture japanese thus film omits br br macarthurs birth o frontier barracks arkansas still subject attack native american tribesmenthus establishing remarkable life spanned distance bowsandarrows thermonuclear weapons br br graduation west pointfirst class br br joined famous father general arthur macarthur who earned medal honor missionary ridge civil war assignments japan china and importantly philippines br br heroic exploits excursion vera cruz br br leaped trenches world war one like mountain goat often wounded promoted blinding speed brigadier general br br postwar service west points youngestand progressivecommandant br br participation courtmartial billy mitchell br br routing bonus marchers br br efforts sustain woefullyunderfunded army chief staff early os br br retirement us army become field marshal army philippines br br reactivation commission fdr shortly outbreak second world warbr br all omitted favor prolonged footage macarthur trying fight seasickness evacuated pt boatthus know general mac legend why appreciate allegations cowardice wounding dugout dougand patently unfoundedbr br the remainder career presently straightforwardly islandhopping hit em aint campaign fulfillment pledge filipinos i shall returnhis crowning achievement winning peace postwar japan difference opinion president harry truman a properly feisty ed flanders conduct korean conflict resulted outright firing finally proclamation congress old soldierssimply fade away that quite historically accurate presented deliberate lack commentarybr br sargent producers almost painfully distance adorning historical record approval disapproval macarthurs actions appear noble let presented such appear egotistical bombastic let conceptions register sans comment since joe sargent quite expert subtly manipulating audiences reactionsagain see warm springsthis refusal offer comment appears quite intentional historically may commendable almost defeats efforts viewer place extraordinary man kind rational perspectivebr br and finally sort made cheap feel film midway released time films relegated television directorssargent case jack smight midway madefortvlook even jerry goldsmiths march perfectly serviceable lack subtle undertones grandeur patton themejust another way largerthanlife man memorialized ordinary filmbr br there vanity pettiness man inarguably also greatnessand love loathe him one must acknowledge fact macarthur military commander done peacebr br in end macarthurlike many film biographiesis good place begin research remarkable man poor place end it,0 +lmfao judge acts like knows whats best depressed peopleso went juvie last month stupid internet crime left days speak psychologist depressed anxiety cope computer made bad mistake talk put meds kept telling social anxiety want end lot time behaved never anything bad let go home really got judge read report saw panic attacks almost killing there put probation forcing social talk people understand hard scared am disorder something wanted to go back jail dont fce fears really makes upset cant say anything it judge kept talking how im failure computer whats making depressed even said report try try everyday unmotivating hard scary makes judge expert makes smart know whats best me yes get want break law hurt people but easy knew knows wants suffer go jail dont face it makes stressed makes want die even help someone like me really annoying,1 + bbc production jane eyre starring zelah clarke timothy dalton love him always always favorite jane eyre watch version jane eyre without reading book like watching regular movie forget next day watching one almost equals reading book used watch miniseries lot little inspired read book time pay attention close television production book recently watched version jane eyre disappointed hours long many important scenes book such favorite gypsy scene fell love jane eyre even includes important scenes book tells whole story versions dont read book br br the cast jane eyre excellent true timothy dalton handsome actor handsome enough play butler scarlet julius caesar great rochester cant imagine anybody else playing role zelah clarke is without doubt jane follows description book thing makes film great clothes makeup actors jane looks modest naive bronte describes although look actually pay attention that br br some people say jane eyre long would rather spend whole day watching spend hours watching version say movie dull boring jane passionate enough enough kissing scenes hate make jane eyre hollywood movie inappropriate kissing scenes include crazy madly love scenes show love jane rochester zelah timothy express love perfectly scenes needed years old many girls age refer film boring oldfashioned feel sorry appreciate purity beauty it all novel set th century oldfashioned look makes attractive like book br br i think ever version jane ayre popularity love one matter plays jane rochester movies real jane rochester for least always zelah clarke timothy dalton,0 +itoo long dont think anyone read need clear myself lately things getting control suicidal thoughts getting stronger one moment almost killing next laughing avoiding question point lost try find myself remains myself lets fucking honest forget labels using names diseases social labels me boy cares much others kill best love full night listening friend needs delay work need help put problems aside go running help them stubborn boy loses control really easily say wrong thing make wrong thing that nothing wrong totally lose control start yelling saying horrible things go everything perfect ruined everything go fuck forever calm caring boy again actually episodes needy boy saying love dont forgive going hug eternity terrible making friends shy never speak loud enough make friend totally different person opposite love something one moment lose mind truly hate it happened people lot times before several teachers idols one day put black list resentful sometimes seek revenge happy one second later sad trying kill myself truth cant control myself dont even feel control never realized now dont feel like me feel empty always things dont want to hurt way calm down say bad things loved ones change plans say goodbye middle conversation overreact try control control get one moment super motivated something realize laying bed dying boredom go shopping buy books notebooks arrive home throw corner got bored even started barely eat food doesnt taste like times eat normally barely sleep everything bores much want sleep day boy feels much nothing all care much give fucks constant change days dream writer traveler one everyone say thing truth dont know want be watch movie want character see video want work there dont change looks values days change way speaking walking acting seeing world see movie relate someone one second doesnt say anything me dont know i someone asks always say everyone says me good student shy boy always act different around different people point sure that ps feel good ideia post well,1 +dont reason get bed anymoreyall idk anymore im fucking beat feel like else go im therapy meds ive made big huge steps supposed help honestly im even miserable work full time also school full time start little side business guys hours gotten cut hate working hours day place work got new management weird super small business isnt anything really do parents keep telling every job suck know everyone else keeps saying wait xyz itll good isnt soon guy leaves early wind crying bed go work havent called once feel trapped know going fix economy ill always struggle money feel like many problems dont solutions psychiatrist therapist come conclusion lots physical health issues caused mental health tried figure almost two years ago although continuing therapy therapist psych says theres ton left putting temporary bandaid something needs stitches doctors completely wrote even though tests coming back abnormal get new insurance first im going basically start redo test exhausts think about im tired tell people im lying im real insane pain feels impossible like nothing potential change ive told wait whole life finally happy dont feel like possible best guy keeps telling couldnt survive without thats reason im hanging isnt healthy everyone keeps telling get better dont want ungrateful peoples help ends feeling minimizing feel bad know people want help just really bad changes happen still years potentially things even even know different day shit cant hospitalized right guys hours cut im kinda money wise plus job people would put out dont know do literally feel like never going get better im goddamn tired crying fucking miserable dont know dont want keep,1 +pronouns ive never him quite literally ugly person family meee uuuuuaaaaagggghhhhhh,0 +friend says pokemon anime lol said never ever classify pokemon anime said im uncultured anime looool also asked whats favorite anime manga said pokemon lol made go crazy today told me faith watching one punch man idk live expectations lmao really watching playing pokemin since years idk tbh ill like one punch man guess ill try,0 + years thinking it think im finally point im seriously considering iti cant stop fucking upi seriously ruin every good thing life cant seem stop much potential growing up smart outgoing ambitious thought future always seemed like would amazing optimist miss years long story short ive heart broken times count time takes larger piece me ive lost almost friends ones care convenient cant seem hold decent job make money support myself im practically homeless burden friends stay couch im type diabetic barely afford insulin fucking clue ive fallen god damn far final nail coffin week date first time two years girl ive always crush on ment lot know capable opening another person again actually went really well monday first time years remembering happiness was feel alone well typical fashion ruined it got excited anxious drunk stupid unloaded boat load feelings anyone first date would seem psychotic soexcited feel again sent message apologizing unwarranted outburst talk me ive never handled rejection well knowing something stupid could avoidedi think heart left im tired everything go wrong struggle remember optimism even was try think positives life literally dogwho even anymore im fucking verge living streets ive fallen farther ever thought possible death honestly sounds better better life im guaranteed experience pain possibly another bout happiness deathdeath unknown maybe everything stops simply cease be maybe life suffer eternity hell maybe wake someone else like whole life nothing dream simulation maybe million different things could happen one really knows gamble sounds better continuing sad painful excuse existence managed see deadpool weekend hoping pick up thing stuck said life one giant train wreck brief commercials happiness think ive last commercial,1 +afterlife fuck supposed there wait wait what homies die exactly even wifi watch tv shows eat look idk,0 +im jump story buildingim angry upset way things are longer contendedness patience case wondering false rape accusation loss everything everyone see happy lifefuture young guy thought anyone,1 +feel happy life sometimes feel guilty happy mean looking people depression that hard time im completely enjoying life bah,0 +teacher nerve teacher nerve send email homework pm i go sleep pm smartalec says thats right sent you like kidding me maybe send homework earlier fault sleep wake am im able work send me,0 +happy birthday vladimir putin reason know dads birthday yesterday mine tomorrow hes almost exactly years older dad hes holy shit im turning tomorrow,0 +kmsing one weekjust title says,1 +like thisim years old graduated high school skin teeth started th grade best friend ill call dana like dana suffering depression anxiety used pin issues causing feel like wrong mad feel horrible thats grades began slowly surely going down called mother school teacher said seem like usually been then began high school dana dana unstable began cutting school much hated it breakdown school brought hospital instead mother worrying me mad hated me now always good mom made sure healthy clothes made sure gave wanted but mad filter telling things hated child devil wishes would aborted me hurt child really nothing me freshman year finished dana stopped friends then sophmore year found whole new group friends different dana fun liked stuff best school usually cut lot happy though finally fit in cut school well classes mom came school trying make better didnt cutting classes well repeating issue throughout high school years middle junior year get parents back started making fake report cards senior year found making report cards make extra classes along that paid k trip barcelona able go grades able get k paid switched schools credit recovery school allowed take classes along online classes rewarded allowing take car school took advantage began cutting again grades still good but fact give something want something dont want do eventually gave car got taken away weeks mom came school see wasnt always make excuses get mad something wrong still graduated time gave car back but fuck ups arent yet dating boy know black snuck vacation home gated community alarm system went house found there then found virgin heart broken dad crying and dad great dad always believed gave wanted hard working man always cared deeply felt sick believe that hated myself wanted dissapear but like great parents talked nicely took car away month summer got job mcdonalds trying make difference life something productive instead going home work go hang friends free time summer mom said use somewhere live dont really love them do yesterday told parents going work was but ended calling hanging friend fact let sleep night car even though never let sleep out since didnt go work hung friend pulling parking lot man claimed hit even though damage anything car instead calling parents scared would mad work guy filed police report mom found shes furious dad said cant trust mom trusted forever fuck dont know stop it never anything right now accident insurance might go k wasnt insurance theres many things wrong want dissapear world feel like hurt them want run never come back next me else could do destroy everything need help,1 + yes need proof prove need start fundamental level prove here digit number digit digit base number system created number number system equal commonuniversal base number system ampxb my created base number system commonuniversal base number system ampxb base number system supports natural numbers in terms commonuniversal base number system lets get back proving statement easily prove converting commonuniversal base number system hence proved,0 +home alone weekend producing bad thoughtsi home alone weekend dog sitting keep thinking would perfect time end it one around im going to something occupying thoughts,1 +wanna non existentthis getting much me yesterday doctors appointment told afterwards development disorder im see sense living feel like government society dumb fuck system unfair normal people well hows going world open eyes development dysfunction broke point think recover anymore please say something like talk matter bla bla ive heard empty words wanna end badly think ill get stuff soon matter result,1 +judge based on judge based anything reasonable wether post history comment history avatar anything im curious like things,0 +final rejectionthis weird kind long one im sex worker dancer ive job since covid yesterday got group text saying friend needs girls payed vegas trip asked us send photos well today learned texted us want knew wouldnt get picked always get rejected im ugly all since childhood ive always rejected found today friends picked not diagnosed borderline personality disorder treated bipolar since kindergarten ive tried kill self times since today never see friends again im kid gets picked last now know may sound dumb ive much rejection cant anymore clicked im researching helium redflag feels like way finally get peace,1 +im running dampd campaign want join see fill form this repost yesterday got buried quite quickly north spine world west towering reghed glacier frigid expanse dare explore let alone inhabit icy land windswept tundra recently became locked frigid tundra without reprieve hello soon running th edition dungeons amp dragons campaign rime frostmaiden friend looking another players aged campaign relatively long going level level sessions would every week sundays start around pm gmt end pm though time day might move point game roll discord used voicechat im dan dm im relatively experienced dampd roll dming year though im great voices please excuse terrible accents create character session get chosen though idea character want create would help also go information setting session everything now know set forgotten realms arctic tundra known icewind dale sun never fully rises races affected sunlight sensitivity drow suffer negative effects it goliaths get resistance cold damage due mountainous lifestyle races classes spells official dampd books excluding unearthed arcana possibly subclasses tashas cauldron everything depending balanced not expect running away solving things diplomatically relatively often instead able kill everything time theres lot powerful creatures around overall game bit rp focused combat focused reaaaaaally cold icewind dale really really cold want apply fill form httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfyuxfns_umzqieuoeiazqteohadkvqup_ettujgviewformuspsf_link form close week now anyone looks like theyd fit well party opportunity talk bit join discord server anyways good luck look forward seeing application ,0 +change mind telling obese person loose weight beautiful like telling drug addict stop hes fun,0 +last post everi decided it cant live person anymore dont know yet going stay reddit this live last days family friends people know irl read this didnt wont try stop me random guy girl reading this idk im posting probably dont wanna read it dont know im going yet know mother keeps glock might use that would prefer feel pain pain caused others life simply even now typing this watching blood flow wrists thighs feel confident this within next week person told it hope got wanted people harassed bullied me hope also gotten wanted signing last time hours useless junk im looking people try talk it saying goodbyes community kept alive long,1 +life shitbeen depressed thinking redflag several years im spend day computer bed browsing reddit watching tv etc planning going university knows would love talk random internet strangers regular basis though tell mundane aspects day things enjoyed things enjoy lives normal people response id offer satire humongously dull state existence manage without boring tears id hope refuse xd anyway im sure right place not seriously anyone wants talk inane stuff anything all message me might good people similar boat maybe f xd whatever suck whatever,1 +redflag answeri socially isolated making friends several times consistently abandoned shunned various reasons abused even getting tired me long lonely journey yet havent killed yet consistently try help various mental illness shall say diseases since chronic issues persisting problems d maybe someday find enjoyment life stop countless suicidal thoughts time time get closer attempting redflag another time maybe world fiction imagination shall know current consciousness dissipates maybe preonset schizophrenia d anyways hope nothing enough pain attempt kill take miserable life terrible existence,1 +iim seeing posts people wanting live die wanting die cant bring itbut can want die think surroundings people care die see sad love me sacrifice sad stop sad cats cared for mum understand partners friends know best option people want whats best regret would cats love much much better life mum going much better cant think reason stay,1 +ive already cut stomach arms up wristsim tired living hopefully last post ever ive mentally defeated life dont care hurt didnt help asked maybe something stop me im not,1 +wish freak accident would get mei want anyone blame dying want get hit bus idk fall rollercoaster cant die feeling guilty commuting redflag,1 +im drunkall drink make friends dislike every time interact me use life talk would person people would look forward talking to im person people want interact drinking time feel like interact people drink time talk people like regular person drink solution need use it im pussy need someone talk with friends say im bipolar drink personally know am need someone talk phone voice,1 +mom finally went overboard exaggerations lets go almost oh time well time ,0 +think mayve figured yay think might pansexual thats pretty cool thought bi long time im sure honestly pansexual im going tell people irl ive already come id come again really terrifying didnt even first time also prepared jokes pans ya thats trying figure whats going sexuality think figured knows maybe bi,0 +ever sit like doesnt youtube mobile loop feature like computers looping videos somewhat overlooked feature manually playback something like music video annoying,0 +go triangle burger guess technically called triangle drivein idk theres fresno one clovis one tulare ur close go pretty cheap think expensive thing menu their websitehttpstriangledriveincom,0 +me inhale exhale air,0 +cant like bpd anymoremy mind everything nothing hurt someone else nothing care cant fucking control feel swear allowed exist anymore im letting go,1 +sophomores highschools student council gone crazy theyre playing various remixes baby shark loudspeakers passing periods fundraiser what know far tell nobody else knows either stop donate thanks covid love insanity,0 +little bro needs friends play fall guys ps tmrw brother allowed play video games week able talk friends cvirus doesnt friends play fall guys with cant play single player game favourite wondering anyone play am et tomorrow sep couple hours ill pm first comments psn pm send psn back thanks guys ampxb ps need mic talk dont kind defeats purpose,0 +guys first german luftwaffe flight delivering covid vaccines hhhbbgbhbhhbhbbhhbbhhbhgfrrrgyffgvghvjbhjggghhvvh,0 +my parents argued since remember like argue apologize other always threw vicious remarks other never apologized waited next day scared never felt comfortable around them every vacation together every free day scared theyll start arguing always wished divorce born exist especially father mother may annoying times generally shes ok hate father always wanted disappear total narcissist victim mentality every time someone criticized behavior said everyone hates him always told everyone didnt understand wouldnt listen always ended every tirade why even bother talking always though think start talking dont listen you front family never behaved like one thought anything like that sometimes even wanted record show rest family suffer it sometimes wished born straight alcoholic abusive family everyone knows bail this never spoke anyone this acquired learned helplessness cant anything it also budding depression think didnt enjoy spending time them like every christmas easter thought christmas soon it time flies every summer vacation thought soon over signed soccer practice kid first practice kids gave insulting nickname called on basically cut contact them went every time put shoes whatever suffer practice went home didnt stop never told anyone this went every time even though didnt enjoy learned helplessness remember one time burst crying parents car never told why didnt trust anyway trying avoid kids went practice knew nickname one class did kids school panically avoided them didnt want friends know others insult me friends back basically started cutting ties them started going parties meeting people panically scared left basically one friend desperately clinged to always second option friends one else later school people comfortable sat alone panically scared someone talk me college basically didnt talk people nothing talk about went parties etc sat alone home mindlessly scrolling internet middle school still motivation something problems sleep started couldnt get early literally woke every weekend pm felt shame parents made fun told just wake early every summer wanted somethign went back home work came back paralyzed sat closed room never could get early never anything thats basically this life past years consisted entirely waking pm mindlessly scrolling internet studying sleeping eating garbage food masturbating mindlessly scrolling internet pass time eating garbage food masturbating thats spikes dopamine literally cant live wake know dont enjoy anything plans dreams things enjoy dont watch movies read books go anywhere all talk anyone literally barely talk barely walk self consciouss everything voice talk walk hate entirety myself maybe hate feel myself personality literal nolife dont mean someone enjoys video games nerdy stuff dont enjoy anything never went anyone never date never went friends house after elementary school basically never went party never casually talked anyone never texted anyone entirely depersonalized derealized feel like alone universe never connected anyone shunned age years old dont want anything family wants help because redflag attempt psychiatric hospital want get job go school something want to go job interview cant talk people even got job because someone family gave it disaster tried school ditched disaster everywhere go outcast surprise given im years old cant talk people cant talk people talk about literally dont anything favorite movies books music foods dont human emotions never connected another human being empty shell larping human forced go therapy dont believe it dont believe anything help me never experienced basic human things year old children life experience me never learned anything nothing matters me completely depersonalized always waited things happen middle school literally waited till ill meet people go dates first kiss etc never happened feel void cant kill either tried many times always chickened out cursed vegetation like this sorry reads like schizophrenic rambling schizophrenic complete breakdown crying hours tired even capitalize letters completely depersonalized even wrote feel like life feel like im describing someone else making things up yet finally think got theres help theres hope maybe ill get courage kill finally,1 +cant end all im hugely tempted being kind cruel worldtldr nice girl life severely depressed due family history it bullied childhood school experience grew dating losers one divorced married mistress another gave permanent sti hate life want disappear sorry repost rdepression subreddit reason moderators may thought original title graphic guess and sorry long alot pain inside me thanks advance reading ive severely depressed suicidal since family blood tons aunts cousins like me desiring redflag depressed couch time etc personal experience derived shy kind nice girl beginning never able shake it typical nerd experience openly talked try ignore play smiling like everything okay fight bullies make leave alone always seen awkward hung back school teachers classroom etc really made even harder actually pretty girl tall about mom made sure always dressed nice hair done girls couldnt afford get nice clothes hair done would put daily hated confrontation id whole smiling laughing thing avoid another fight already since elementary though mom kept looking nice loves dearly also shaped clone strict grandmother her could barely go out ask basically scolded so shed always say hours later would say yes hated that mind fk one sleepover junior high school mom dad cussed like sailor made clean house spotless something horribly wrong guess happy afterwards since sleepover sucked friends assholes night anyways strict upbringing inherited shyness emotional instability lead pretty damned awkward life conceited anything people always told smart good looking potential never saw late thirties really middle high school boys liked approached me shy would give aloof bitchy vibe guys ended hating me treating like crap mean like that anything extremely lonely relationship is started dating older teenager lonely desperate find love like id seen disney movies saved bell id date losers settled awkwardly nerdy weird thought theyd easier milder deal with boy wrong first met exhusband thought looked really unattractive plus smart ass mouth let grow wanted someone seemed head heels me gave years life birth son lessened sex drive dumped mistress work married rather quickly didnt even let ink dry divorce papers knew nothing weeks signed papers whats even worse nice ass agreed custody son dad life think id actually say yes knew whore wife going sons stepmom late im wallowing misery divorce process now ive boyfriend whos truck driver also nerdy used alot fun loves hes also made feel like depressed zombie past years why hes always road cant see times week plus push enough make things better also divorcee much baggage cant get life straight damned naive beginning relationship didnt see baggage start looked love fact said wanted marry me mind wasnt proposal anything said super early made hang on hung despite jerkish things hes done texted half naked pic us coworker brag says friend turn forwarded entire jerkish coworkers etc got arrested almost jail time fighting guy who later found first blow anger kept putting meeting family since many girlfriends past nt last said and coup de grand he gave sti recently found high risk know high risk meaning possibly cause cancer later on kind cant get rid of lays dormant body never know ever come back plus surgery weeks get rid precancerous cells caused me love life over relationship really crap now even find someone else hear theyll dump sure im pounds overweight depressed barely clean house shower wash hair smoke weed zone pass time make painful memories go away boyfriend says loves endlessly surgery im getting support sweetness need right now hes gone time real relationship anyways also think im still prince charming fantasy head expecting guys loving sweet reality jerksno offense nice guys there think younger went geeks weirdos figured theyd easier would appreciate more overly forgiving giving many chances aholes pretty much ruined life plus miss son dearly hes gone im alone time wish could put coma every time leaves me reawakened comes back brings wonderful beam light joy heart hes live for dont even think safe get another relationship ever again im trying accept im awkward different really someone hard give hope dont think im horrible person rather feel im nice person rest world cant handle that handle it take advantage naivety ignorance im used up im stuck horrible life miserable afraid even reach world anymore ill end bible verse received today therefore gods chosen ones holy loved put heartfelt compassionkindness humility gentleness patience colossians that description pretty much nutshell cant help way look ruined life tears,1 +matter timehi need get out maybe advice always think killing myself lot mornings imagine id it im always trying distract myself im breaking down im exhausted ive also remembering time fingered older man six time raped months ago also years ago cut ive try end it ive bulimic years never go way kill myself one time could stopped heart mom would die keep feeling like need it point it mean need serious help therapist psychiatrist hard talk im remembering hard keep 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instead sleep even escape anymore temporary happiness always temporary alseep awake solace get asleep even hassle,1 +uselesshonestly point anymore im tired weak unproductive feel legitimate pain entire wake up cant even put words everyday alone head thats flooded toxic thoughts starve everyday try make happy cant even look mirror anymore want cut skin disgusted myself ive grown hate much becoming unbearable everyday tell going get better never does im constantly dissociating feel like ive lost entire grasp reality january significant committed redflag painful thing go through hate sleeping every night always dream it always felt like sleep best escape anymore im haunted memories every day want happy again want love again point dont think possible,1 +think timei think time leave world behind me boyfriend two years recently kicked vacation broke me caused move back familys house always caused want kill self caused mental illnesses depression etc gotten worse worse month cant anymore mother absolutely psychotic cant bear anymore im fucking depressed im gonna bring dog back shelter mother obsessed laying fifteen wee wee pads lovely room share cant even afford anymore barely works doesnt pay anything pay food phone bill anything need shes fucking psychotic shell lash telling worthless forgot clean fucking dog cage cooked us changed ten pads hour got home took piss god fucking forbid right obsession refuses walk past dog snaps claims sure shell wake hours night pick dog put minuscule fucking bed havent slept month anything goes wrong life fault show emotion im worthless want world know fault dont support friends friends coworkers see work im allowed go dog cry dont license cant afford fix car go take road test one let borrow car take test dont hang anyone cant take classes support family three cant learn anyone cant hang anyone everyone work doesnt support anymore telemarketers supposed fake til ya make everyone drinks koolaif everyones solution get fuck get fucking money dno license cant rent dog anxiety cries eats carpet im home dog fucking depressed send back shelter ill fucking lose wont live myself need die truly fucking way out like wheel keeps turning god damn head like many times going interrupt many times gonna make want die today selfish gonna today rude going others around make uncomfortable cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore cant anymore,1 +yo wtf feel sad best friend sent post like little things make little bit less sad,0 +everything kid could want feel emptyim title says everything could ever want ive got friends family love past couple months cant believe it even know friends cause talking people scares me friends even go school either online old school cause moved scared talk people cant seem see positive life try succeed school anything else always end failing matter hard studytry ive thinking killing im afraid itd close me want die also want hurt anyone hung two really good friends today seem happy sat back friends car starred distance make night worse theres girl actually somehow talking one friends thought itd funny ruin it night got way worse feeling friends all really friends all im scared talk anyone put cause anonymousish know deal anymore started months ago bad wave depression every frequent teenager far know months went ive kept getting sad fear soon wont able hold ill end shooting something whats really stopping right friends mom dad dog cat something pets seem keep person ending it dog cat id probably ended already sounds weird cause mom dad still here love pets anything feel like somehow know im feeling cause whenever im sitting couch soon become sad dog come stay me know feel anymore ive lost much emotion months whole speech typed probably make sense anyway im gonna post keep typing random shit thats fucked up,1 +question astronauts roy thinnes ian hendry ask discover parallel world earth always hidden far side sun cult science fiction melodrama released america journey far side sun plot film devised british writers gerry sylvia anderson creators tv shows ufo the thunderbirds space exceedingly weird times betraying influence the twilight zone even stanley kubricks classic space odyssey visual effects work derek meddings would also later work superman movie holds surprisingly well last three decades special effects advancements really exalted level kubrick film superb anticipate star warstype film overcome occasionally trite dialogue doppelganger good film good enough rank consider undiscovered scifi gem,0 +yall im thinking version nnn girls ive rounded names feel freed add a stop squirting september b dont dildo december cforget fingering february would loved polls rn comment one likes hey mods seeing stuff please enable polls,0 +onemy life used really good social loved lot well school nice job depressed got lot better since began everything started fall lost relationship job skipped school contact parents stopped working out lost friends since corona sitting inside months everyday social contact all therapist therapy years nothing seems help anymore eat shower anything anymore want die whats point living absolutely nothing wake even live for thinking redflag years feels like way out,1 +make feel bad taking bath like baths maybe like month know theyre waste water sucks im anxious mess take baths relax yes know theyre luxury like them finished online summer course today im kind proud myself want take bath keep thinking unnecessary baths are im wasting much water want feel bad ,0 +want hot big d catgirl want someone listen day went goodnight kiss ,0 +first time messaging think looks weird added crush snapchat days ago liked years little crush since september last year feelings became stronger crush quite big really talk school best friend almost like wingman talk time get involved conversations never speak us two anyway click page message her first time messaging im feeling bit nervous do write message chat bar screenshot debate whether send looking back idea this going debate could done completely different way might think thats bad oh is snapchat first thing see clicks name antony screenshotted chat thought cant leave thats awkward ill send message send hey got good netflix recommendations sent i screenshot notification appeared page thought unbelievable thing say that deleted message completely forgetting appears deleted message appears freak again send accidentally screenshot sent message sorry left chat last thing noticed even added sent messages receive adds back adds assuming get back school weeks shell get hit that tdlr accidentally screenshot sent message crush shows screenshot panic send message delete sounded weird realised also shows delete chat send final message realise even added friend anyone help me,0 +waiting die nothingi stopped eating drinking yesterday ive given up bored isolation watching civilization implode tried reach friends soon opened little dark place pulled away one cares deleted social media least get crushed hope researching methods weeks seem messy came across vsed meant old people still work im passing time laying bed mind body shuts good im sorry too,1 +might hopei started school tuesday ive already panic attacks night almost panic attack st period morning physically cannot speak classes due large class sizes giving severe anxiety seriously considering killing since beginning august check comment history want read previous redflag attempts go see therapist tuesday next week noon plan telling suicidal thoughts idea going back psych ward makes want kill appointment even comes thought missing homework school im gone freaks fuck wish another option right want break locked pill box swallow whole bottle tylenol parents bought older brother tylenol work last time due going get help fully kicked in next time im going somehow restrain go help want anxious anymore want normal,1 +pain much deal gonemy live gone now feels like bodys given up telling throw towel let die im constantly pain loneliness skin hunger well emotionally fucked beyond help abusive parents im constant physical pain due psychological problemsthats bad is pain becoming unbearable day random times spikes near constant life months now cant take it im like people im beyond help justi justi cant take it much stress much pain muchtoo muchtoo muchtoo muchi canti cant sad thing is im trying get basic things life causing thisim even able eat right now theres hope live manner life get better ive trying long now mention friends seem fairweather run stop talking try express suffering therapist cant meetings overim alone im failing im drainedim freakish mess mistakeim done never point keeping living cant keep pushing absence that theres nothing make pain worth itits want die literally cant anymore,1 +point im even trying anymorei really hate reddit place vent anyone know cares check me use friend ok everyone point cant even talkto anyone cant even convey thoughts online always feel im judged days since last ate anything think deserve even here want dissappear somewhere else voices head getting louder would shut room days hate people know saying sad depressed know might seems like im invalidating people feelings knowing really make feels like crap ive tried open feelings people one wants anymore everyone better without me hate heart beat faster whenever im crowd hands always sweaty lips always dry worthless people eyes also hate cant sleep many time would wake middle night reason hate short fat ugly whenever im everyone else hate every moment breathing im waste space,1 +brilliant well made contribution group fans considering made back bedroom painted green screen story lines complex twisting characters show realistic depth dimension cgi created crew breathtaking first season might little shaky final well thought well shot fans might thought star trek franchise come end early cancellation enterprise fans take answer recommend fans newcomers alike hidden frontier crewbr br make so,0 +im sure myselfhey guys suffering depression since fourth july the irony met friend got random conversation eventually depression randomly kicked started crying much shit going life started talking people treating like pos somehow dont remember ended psychology session op thinks im little open personal life people make friends with im issues finding close friends even relationship op also says dependent people companionship people get scared tend spill things personal life feel like selfesteem fallen apart know act feel im around people feel like way acting nobody wanted friends me im already shitty position depression came ops mouth everything officially fell apart cant stop crying rn feel like downward spiral never going end,1 +somebody talk time hey im german guy somebody talk please feel free dm me honestly im hella bored however im also good listener would love get know people different countries different cultures chat life and well work improving english so anyways nice day andor night,0 +tried overdosing two weeks agoim tired pretending im ok im also tired pretending things ok wont therapy meds work me wont im coming conclusion im probably one treatment resistant cases im sick hearing psychiatrist telling meds working theyre definitely not shit except maybe seroquel puts sleep thats dumbass tried od with needless say work im tired matter do suicidal thoughts always around corner,1 +something know hang myselfis chance survive avoid it chances get kind permanent damage,1 +hey thanks reading m europe diagnosed major depressive disorder ocd redflag last year also spent time psychiatric ward ssris benzodiazapenes depression series traumatic embarrassments mistakes mostly caused myself never really good decision maker even though read ton selfimprovement books whatnot real hard time remembering things learned often act emotionimpulse make everything even worse rejected girl infatuated behaving cringey found embarrassing stuff me left open vulnerable people deserve sense hurtsi high school drop biggest passion pursue music career rap however also thinking finishing last year school go college mostly want plan b able make money rap also think would help depression depression actual thing keeps stuff love keeping stuck past feeling intense redflag afraid people think me never problem now possible reach happiness become athletic quickwitted confident happy guy things went south life also want dedicate time gym amp writing lyrics lack motivation so pull dark amp scary rock bottom fulfill dreams hate wasting life time cannot shut depression peace years old depressed regain confidence amp happiness become successful life,1 +looking tv guide movies come germany found one called bunnyguards watched laughed silly wanted dvd available i could order germany subtitles played taped watch time timebr br anyway looked info found real name erkan stefan know australian title bunnyguardsbr br some people know germany like erkan stefan accents german myself notice anything jokes good germans might find accents offputtingbr br i think movie funny dvd english subtitles extras having disk edition feature subtitles would bad would buy snapbr br i recommend anyone looking laugh pretty good story,0 +favorite video games ive pretty board games play lately anyone video game recommendations whats favorite video game,0 +ungratfull brat worth anythig cannot anything right even thoug anything need nice life parents life disapointment useless shitty piece crap that honestly alive shitty person,1 +waste management day mafia crime boss night ,0 +anime bad anime bad think bad scale rate want know others think,0 +pathetic know else goive long history mental illness complete one nearsuccessful redflag attempt five years ago recently upward swingfeeling good good combination right meds selfharmed almost two years way therapy transferred specialist gp two weeks ago birthday usually hate birthdays managed fun year got balloons went dinner saw boyfriend got piercing id wanted months two days ago started noticing signs infection went today get antibiotics planning gently quickly switching jewelery ring curved barbell comforts sake snapped ring cartilage taking out caused ton bleeding swelling get barbell in hysterics seems takes bring flood sadness suicidal thoughts back want die lost piercing fucking pathetic piece shit makes big deal everything ruins everything makes everyone around miserable generally worthless waste oxygen future one would miss better without me monster failure ugly fat volatile im stupid im generally compilation every awful quality face earth took remind one little failure yay weak ive cried sick already ruined late birthday dinner verge breaking blades back out thing stopping sheets white want clean blood im sorry reddit know im awful everyone else huge issues deal im really sorry dont even know wrote this,1 +things ive noticed im im ive noticed people seem expect life future order seem expect know im expect take control life longer feel comfortable asking questions ask teen subreddits im im older feel like answering asking anyone else like that also get allot shit drivers license,0 +feel like never amount anything life going directionout uni degree stuck horrid low paying job partner never seems want spend time me feel ugly fat like repel people constantly feel guilty jealous best friend since graduation countless related jobs still seems bitch moan without thoughts anyone else going date one friends throwing around too whilst im stuck like worthless piece shit cant even get pet rabbit like think im worthwhile im loss do lack motivation get better want give now,1 +cant diei keep anxiety attacks wish would die already one anxiety attacks would trigger something inside kill already im beyond sad im beyond alone im beyond depressed cant even wake without crying every morning phone rings burst tears im nervous talk people cant socialize well im failure im worthless person every day crying frustration anger loneliness cant die,1 +wish could fall asleep never wake up fi tired going depression anxiety bulimia alone thats life,1 +todays poop story wearing big shirt went latrine poop pulled pants down sat pooped shirt caught poop,0 +sabotaged academically want diemy school work far biggest problem right now immediate one slept night class hours im failing classes senior year weeks behind every single one classes done multiple projects tests tried catching looking fucked am making feel discouraged want give again truth loathed years feel like ive died inside used well school ive fell behind partially due numbness partially feel like deserve well so sabotaged myself now slowly realizing graduate even fucked would mean ive wasted years moms life buying school supplies driving school honestly want kill myself tried one two summers ago got scared last minute told anyone burden many ways really cherry top wanted die since cant explain teachers get family involved whole fucking shit show another problem longer even focus on understand school work swear god brain shrunken something nothing sticks anymore like good spending hours nothing worrying finding reasons hate myself literally know way dying fault know do want get back regular suffering without top point,1 +hey reddit sorry much really know else turn advice would helpfulone closest friends since going lot recently open feelings happened always said feels like life worth living talked since reached last month hanging lot since thenhowever told beginning year sexually assaulted immediate family member since traumatised developed redflag told rest family happened wanted press charges hear perpetrator age think main reason feeling way told always quite close mother who want press charges since living refuge cannot stand around family understandably means cannot even try call emergency services come location places give address even residentsshe seems like go found spending money friends buying people gifts sounds like amazing person always people feels like matter say do enough someone thought things understand completely also told one friends bought equipment commit suicide planning next week she specify day want anyone stopping her tried get mother earlier today pressing charges availi spent lot time recently felt really good seeing catching many years like never left to reconnected one old buddies too since told us part bucket list really know cannot even thin straight trying ask anyone know advice situation horrible one cannot even fathom feels wrong even trying look way help insistent planning doif helps advice live uk advice help whatsoever would greatly appreciated m friend f planning kll next week know,1 +wanna talk potentially friends say oh im moody you cant handle emotions yadayadayada take emotions understand feel moody im hardly offended hmu comment end,0 +song reason relate it httpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvdvahjzbvcamplistrdamvmdvahjzbvchttpsmusicyoutubecomwatchvdvahjzbvcamplistrdamvmdvahjzbvc,0 +current situationso guess ill start saying girl seeing past almost years told cant see us together anymore started months ago drunk fight phone died couldnt find how stupid hey kind broke continued see eachother prior next ill say months break up constantly told dont want her im love anymore lying couldnt bare around made happy kept telling things like using didnt know wanted everytime went fully cut couldnt couldnt bare lose her last weeks tho slowly started accept fact lying infact want life loved much even planned really special like lunchdinner going tell felt apologize been last week felt way found briefly used dating app hated every moment deleted account prior finding about friends saw showed top fact pushing away switch went head says doesnt want me despite tho ive seen times past week weve kissed multiple times weve held eachother cuddled even came work hinted wanted she said suprised happy see me last night saw eachother genuinely like always been sex felt fucking love her top spent whole night laughing mucking around like always felt normal like wanted there see things great feel much enjoys around goes home defense mechanism dwells negatives protect hurt like im trying hard force feel things past got like impossible see perspective unless showed myself literally see conflict avoiding it probably come across forcing see it idk do want back killing leads rn ive tried talk friends feel like im drowning cant sleep constantly break multiple times day gotten point hate much literally dont even see point alive pushed away person made unbelievably happy past years like cant even remember good times spoilt fool treating badly ive told felt wished didnt dont want feel like im guilting her want back badly literally never happy whole drama im struggling see point continuing try need help do want back badly im scared getting upset something irrational said tho mainly want back im literally open advice desperate try anything,1 +become physically deformed dad gorgeous mom gorgeous brother handsome movie star handsome instead whole face slanted physical deformity could prevented bullied kids striking traits mushed around face want die every day years planet still alone curse proof god,1 +today gonna venting hug zone anyone everyone feel free share need share,0 +enjoying show years use dream able see share grandchildren happy pay small amount memories found recorded dvd florida caring mother loving hard working husband one spoiled beautiful daughter two sons different day night michael baby son freedom walker jj clown know many afroamericans disliked show know many relate accepted was heart sad learned ester rolle passed tyler perry leading writer actor today support work much since made cruel mocking rolle one plays one hear ugly things physical appearance show started getting less interesting daddy james died picked bit florida remarried slumped took absence show all show great pleased copies part past try keep work former stars good times must say one group wiped rumors think children today enjoy show problem sitting watching children congrats writer crew stars years renewed memories time enjoy without skip scenesbr br ok watch shows over lately noticed thing made rethink series dislike them think florida bit harsh came money children made children need supervision done way makes floridas mothering different scenes florida speak people good looking bothers now james alive show made big thing james wanting fixit shop never lived see family projects florida marries someone owns fixit shop bit slap face actor ended time good times showing accomplished strove for lastly watch shows see series going overtime renamed jj truthful james left everything mostly centered around jj bad thing noticeable thing would trade dvds amount money time maturity experience began guide eyes while,0 +ayo females read previous post slide ,0 +bruh yall failing english yall speak english,0 +feel like im endi want kill fucking badly talked someone countless attempts apparently harder originally thought great great cant kill irritating want leave let leave please,1 +wish rapunzel girlfriend dont valentine,0 +going read post sorry writing points connected story forgive got energy thati want speak shoulders hate when much hide know smile face reflect real happiness heart i hate addictive life internet social media everything real day goes fast energy anything night comes hate productive wish somebody talk without judging somebody listen crying heart feel alone,1 +cant die alreadyif read stories know retarded dad family are constant babying never trusting stuff really getting me think handle right now constantly telling do do letting live life im close end,1 +fygfwhy everyone hate act liek first olace dumb austisic maybe idfkk know ill neever get abtwhere inlife bcus im usueless everything im even usuless art fcjin art u draw paint thats gow shit fukcing hate mytself im ugly fuck nobody eber love mh aprents shout cutting vut scsnt help love someone helo men lose still typing nodody gives shit abotut u dumb bitch wtf wrong eith u dtop way idk im anymore lehs hurt cut tonigth fuck life osmeone jill mee already im crying im fufkcing still typing nobody cares everybody gonna say attention always dad almost caiguth shit someoneh lpe nobody cares,1 +sure im looking thishi all ive posted before back several months ago symptoms came back hard core large part shit going life keeps getting worse im point im beyond fantasizing redflag attempt im starting plan told therapist it probably tell doctor actually give refills want sure im looking posting this wanted put there,1 +good questions class poll wondering make poll class little fun circuit breaker,0 +im scaredi wish tomorrow weekday could schedule doctors appointment got inpatient place committed took emergency room suicidal weeks ago love myself know happening me ruining life cant get things anymore want die idk im hungry swear im drugs anything least sleeping meds time went hospital last time slept probably hours days somekne response please im hungry im cold live weird extended stay hotel freeway major coty chore go get food kitchen,1 +guys know disney movie inside out think joy lives head died long time ago,0 +hello first time posting sub thank me anyone cooccurring psychotic disorder schizophrenia schizoaffective disorder along redflag interesting studies explaining really affect other wondering might others experience both,1 +miserable ranti know ill never happy ill never depression weighing brain works im know life wont get better isnt even great right now love family value much dont want grow away know ill never miserable dont necessarily want kill anymore realize would never want inflict parents absolutely hate miserable despising life much im hopeless useless,1 +making preparations whats stopping itgod want die badly barely make plans think future im fucking sick shit pain im in cant transition theres one gender clinic country even open ages theres hundreds people list moving cant afford anywhere near amount money would cost transition privately cant take living body much longer problem seriously cant face preparations id want make go need sort stuff get rid things want anyone else finding tidy up write will etc ironically im depressed that wish could escape hell,1 +need wish ujojodge happy birthday november ninth important,0 +never look like woman point living regret staying alive longwhy even bother hrt fix stupid male face nothing will poor afford surgery im sick constant hugboxing people telling id pass cis woman know trans mom thinks im guy still always uses male pronouns friends know face ugly highly encourage surgery done life cant take anymore nothing ever fix me never want born born life literal torture,1 +feel alonehi really know start this feels like nobody else talk to afraid talk anybody fear attentionwhore friends family talk sliding gradually depression always ignore it depression mean every day slips another mesh together purpose life go work come home go work come home day day never good attribute praise nothing scrutiny criticism personality traits people avoid like nerdy reading science fiction novels interests monster amp horror movies people know friends just acquaintances associates people avoid hanging out never invited anywhere sit room accomplishing nothing feeding dark humor views world without achievements boast of feel like suddenly disappeared employer would question whereabouts would disappear annals missing another case detective take advantage of fear retribution seeking help job associates have never anyone care doing show affection afraid grow old alone like sort antisocial creep living fantasy world build around shield absence warm love attention seek help negative backlash shall surely bury deeper hole much want improve know to go gathering attend places go people meet someone share experiences stories with friendships seem exist lousy finding places meet people fear may go overboard make permantent solution temporary problem want that anywhere talk someone without record it fear tell anyone work negative consequences job,1 +hey one bothered youtubes adds im seriously going start watching demoniced channels only,0 +said this ive hearing talk simp yeah im simp im simply slamming girl big old horse meat ding dong guess said,0 +already loved how grinch stole christmas released im still loving now years later still lots people seem disagree opinion movie never really received much love time came outbr br sure movie overthetop campy also reason movie charming fun watch sets costumes characters done perfectly overthetop fun way without ever becoming truly ridicules visually spectacular movie watch campy movie making best director ron howard really surprises fun little christmas moviebr br main reason movie works much fun watch jim carrey grinch truly carries movie good fun role course helped convincing makeup also received academy award course jim carrey hater even think watching movie movie really movie makes work much fun watch fun memorable roles played jeffrey tambor clint howard josh ryan evans young grinchbr br the movie good morale bit sappy me perhaps im dutch really celebrate christmas enthusiastic big here united states england movie simply fun entertaining morale left quite cold honestbr br the musical score james horner good fun even though average every day horner stuff still works perfectly movie helps make scenes workbr br perfect christmas entertainmentbr br ,0 +whats point anymore livingi wanna live anymore cause feel loved wanted anymore makes feel lonely forgotten like forgotten all try person life general know due depression whats point,1 +drug death things going get betteri know nobody cares fuck,1 +probably going jump bridge sooni know read post history whatever cant much longer feel angry helpless,1 +took online test got question teacher needs grade nsome answers frogot put it means like exanple know cuz u cant write like pen conputers forgot ro put stuff like irl class teacher cares doesnt mark wrong,0 +coping methodshey guys im sure place post im sure else ask im looking come coping methods ive tried things years found anything worked well used smoke weed keep suicidal thoughts away cant anymore working helps cant always make gym drinking good idea long term solution ive thought antidepressants know tendency abuse pills anyone suggestions since stopped smoking weed depression gotten really bad know do want die know cant kill care parents much ive hit wall really need help thanks advance,1 +ask trans girl questions hello bored again anyways ask stuff whatever question get ton trans girl mean answer mtf anyways feed evershortening attention span,0 +best way loved onesim saying im going it want option know sounds nihilistic option leave wanted give fight ive struggling entire life again isnt cry help ive gotten professional help magic answer still bad days really bad days know option really help thought leaving loved ones fucking tears apart reason im still getting help never plan lowest thought inevitable people arent meant life feel im one people means end purely hypothetical would best way sake last thing id want burden even would last time would home away home od assume cleanest easiest tastes call authorities hand family dont see anything notes course notebooks full cant leave without providing explanation closure maybe fall ditch somewhere dont anything all maybe knowing us best idk,1 +oh god felt bad annoying toward sister feel bad boyfriend like im also annoying stupid ,0 +best friend committed redflag im hard time coming terms it helpthis first time posting text read enough posts apologize posting mobile phone apologies hard read recently best friend committed redflag im struggling lot many questions know ill never receive answers to didnt seem thought out nothing left behind read every time close eyes see picture happened want cry again miss much hurts yet time angry her monster beautiful beautiful soul world darker without her dont think realized many people would hurt gone honestly think thought world would better without wish much told one time important me people gone this first off im sorry one hardest things ive gone commend strong secondly advice coping mechanisms youd like share thanks advance whoever reads this,1 +song series go orange justice sound sister watching series called go dance music show song called online hey opening sounds excactly orange justice go youtube search netflix go online hey hear almost scary,0 +want christmas yooouuuuuuu soulja boy tell em,0 +female title,0 +f please chat friend math homework words hes gonna awhile im willing chat almost anything dms open,0 +perhaps last film would expect come vittorio de sica cesare zavattini who wrote novel film based neorealist fantasy kind oxymoron really old woman finds baby cabbage patch raises son years baby young boy named toto adoptive mother dying goes orphanage and finally turns leaves immediately finds home toto optimistic though let anything get down man steals valise instead getting angry it toto becomes friend goes stays small shantytown toto takes initiative organizes many homeless living area build better shantytown soon landowner trying sell plot land citizens shantytown protect themselves many attempts owner mounts force police get rid homeless point film becomes fullfledged fantasy before comedicfantastic melodrama style charlie chaplin stuff weird shocking probably best others see themselves quite amazing funny objections could raise plot miracle milan certainly fellini visconti greatly criticized started stray neorealism think read widely criticized time release point though enjoyable loved much might favorite vittorio de sicas films although umberto bicycle thieves come very close ,0 +morehi entire life one screw another steal drink take drugs commit fraud know though ive brought right lovely caring family reason get fuck everything mode absolutely anything without second thought consequences finally two failed redflag attempts shit hit fan more managed get involved telephone fraud went around different electronics stores andtook iphones mac book pro credit name bills raining me know it fuck mode raping life over calling quits,1 +hi stranger hope ur great day look reddit age,0 +everything life gone shit reasons im still catsim grew emotionally verbally occasionally physically abusive home dad became alcoholic result abuse mom became unwilling referee parental therapist preteen eventual side punching bag teen mom tried kill times after also kidnapped child dad fight spent adolescence waiting chance get out cps came twice nothing ever helped got dream school everything senior got ripped away too mom refused sign loans could get without cosigner went escape divorced became physical punching bag mom cut hair prevent grabbing it dad got worse tried kill times failed reason another got d mom proceeded use threat could send behave stayed dad that cut off still depressed fuck though person could talk grandma one night talked aunt whos racist hates me happened also there took phone screamed me told never call grandma again told stop making shit family stop talking redflag elder grandma could handle it used feel way could talk it fast forward little bit dad just finally patched relationship things looked better suddenly died drinking problem go back mom relative option mom immediately took me became terrified even wake up tried smother death tried choke aux cord tried shove stairs tried push moving vehicle etc yet every time blamed me worst year life thought least grandma depressed too losing son abused daughter the racist aunt trying help always got covered somehow exactly one year later grandma suddenly died left half estate protect myself wanted move live near her person left wanted help me aunt the one before got hissy fact mom closer ever were lawyered up refused give key refused give items grandma specifically wanted because proof informed sale well happened state also kept going mom idiotic parents divorced adult asked it dodged wrote letter never contacted months get attorney that cant afford tbh weve back forth since threatening file taxes name without permission without ssn irs comes me fucking recipe cards desk always think wanting end it end pain end inevitable suffering always comes cant cant leave cats refuse rehome word hurts even type see could thing family ones me anytime cry sit purr lick face one legit meows talk keeps meowing till im done snuggles literally closest ones keep going wish could something like find new place live cant mom recently made credit cards name maxed out told id understand position im in anyone asks says help build credit im sure somewhat true intends sign name cosigner property wants buy ive ever means end want out want die want place cats safe sound feel like ill never get out im afraid wish everytime get something worse,1 +feel like im dying know im feel like it im end cold cold sometimes make head actual cold stuffy nose chest congestion scratchy throat,1 +h e l p fuck respond to nice lol lmao ok need help,0 +got ct scan day normal living room decided sit couch sit couch hit head wall hard becauze couch near wall stupid bitch anyways started crying hurted like hell ten mins later things got worse felt like gonna pass out ears head felt weird jumped taxi went hospital doctor checked alright sure wanted get ct scan health insurancelol free stuff ct scan weird shit lay something enters circular thing thats said anyways went got results alright doctor said might metabolic illness bruh moment there said might normal thing idk also doctor super cute lol feel radiation bones btw might glow dark idk lessons learned never sit couch,0 +this despite original began life play central europe weathered several incarnations followed mgms remake period songs good old summertime broadway show loves me even excellent theatre revival paris couple years ago remains definitive version one beat several previous commenters identified contributing factors make successful memorable least prevailing fashion s s hollywood lavishing attention detail ensemble playing rather two leads often happens today try example removing ugarte ferrari renault etc casablanca yes still rick ilsa viktor lazslo theyd frosting without rich cake mixture below jimmy stewart maggie sullavan ideal irreplaceable leads much brighter shine performances reflected frank morgan felix bressart joseph schildkraut andy hardys sara haden factor lubitsch touch okay maybe tad naive innocent even jurassic age many genuine film lovers sated scatology screwing inyourface sex turn back days stories style slickness skill wallow great movies like one far best thing technological age csi dvd one time make classics available nostalgics show matrix freaks big boys used it,0 +thought moving past sexualromantic frustration coming backm yeah thought moving past spending hours thinking crying ive never relationship done anything sexual coming back hard even writing outit felt like bad memory keep thinking lost youth missing young love bothers much think redflag stopping it cant fucking believe average age start sex havent even fucking relationship everyone that manage participate sexual being cant everything feels worthless havent reached milestone dont even know possible im constantly fantasizing it rwholesomememes damn depressing cute memes made teens relationships cant fucking stand it im bitter loser missed age everyone learns im fucked fuck im gonna fucking tonight fucking unbearable,1 +dislike abortion like someone report guys spawnkilling talk admin this,0 +came parents so today finally got courage told parents im trans female male think scariest also bravest thing ive done far life despite waterfall bad thoughts turned really accepting supportive me obviously need time adapt thought im son far good well searching gender therapist pretty soon im excited that looong difficult road ahead me gonna make quality life even slightly better im whatever takes feels much better years hide much anymore kinda good true sorry im posting here really wanted share somewhere im actually super proud myself guys seem like nice people also wanted mention none ever give up theres times ive completely convinced absolutely never come thats impossible parents would never accept way turned proves little know might might happen try never say never give things want accomplish always chance maybe girlboy find pretty also finds attractive maybe one amazing skill impossible learn perhaps job wish stay dream may become reality try think it many opportunities miss believe enough anyways good day fellow teens forget brush yo teeth,0 +merry christmas brothers sisters muslim brother get blessed,0 +mean anything anybody future everyday hell cannot handle anymore feel like one escape everyday get closer closer one days going happen feel like death way,1 +mobile gaming console gaming bad bow console peasants im pc gamer p prostate c cancer,0 +riotous farce set world glamorous daytime soap operas film hilarious admittedly taste films screaming hysterical dialogue overthetop acting melodramatic plot twists do one hell treatbr br sally field plays celeste talbert daytime tvs queen misery celestes cushy life thrown upheaval unexpected arrival lori craven elisabeth shue longlost niece and simultaneously jeffrey anderson kevin kline splendid always celestes longago lover celeste hiding deep dark secret arrival lori jeffrey might bring surface add diabolical montana moorehead a wonderful cathy moriarty full gorgeous woman testosterone spare mode trying mighty hard destroy celestes career david robert downey jr weenieboy producer soap whos secretly plotting montana ruin celeste and rose schwarz whoopi goldberg scriptwriter celestes one true confidant heaping helping subplots general chaosbr br chaotic comedies like tricky execute does anyone remember mixed nuts done well pretty damn funny major ingredient necessary good comedy casting seasoned pros know lots times funniest things said seen expression look field kline goldberg rest work together well clearly great time hard become drawn energy enthusiasm shue clearly weakest link here draws attention surrounded field kline et al moriarty standout showy villainess role making think hottest damn dominatrix ever see also lots familiar faces recognize small but nevertheless funny roles including carrie fisher garry marshall kathy najimy teri hatcher director michael hoffman keeps pace swift histrionic plot moving toward big finish mention must also made robert harlings screenplay carefully constructed stage soap opera within soap opera dialogue boiling great lines delivered brilliantly actors id willing bet lot stuff improvisedbr br look want see bunch pros best great time it get hands one anything else put good mood make laugh,0 +bird phone hes biting case help get,0 +days everyone allowed whoever want be many rights there right exist unhappy life years change countless amount ways try change things reading headlines posts see unhappy people belong earth get depressed young still hope ways going changeto loosely quote doug stanhope if first half movie watch sucks highly likely next half suck welli wish natural way choose be understand unfair love ones happens love ones suicide frowned upon,1 +im done test,1 +surprised this well average s comedy scores imdb voters dan ackroyd usual satirical turn con seizes great opportunity steal contract prisons physician retreats california start work giving advice radio show pretending infamous dr lawrence baird person knows hes imposter drunken priest walter matthau comes along pampered ackroyds new found wealth blakmailed him charles grodin throws good supporting performance too genre think film deserves crediblity ferris bueller trading places ,0 +stepford wife fetish thing im sure even describe it sort dutiful housewife baking cookies laundry thats kind bimboish sexually available kind keep tummy full balls empty attitude emphasis balls empty coming across cleaning something there feels like could bdsm thing even irl thing porn fantasy rarely see played with probably related men things hands carrying kids know even name know search theres community even thought much terms sexual fantasy mostly think lifestyle either something avoided revered standard im trying codify masturbation scenario really turns reason,0 +lucky enough see prescreening last night oct incredibly surprised wonderful plot genuinely heart felt actingbr br while plot particularly complicated exceptionally new story unfolds way feels fresh unique distinctly indy style something easily compared films past unique take sort classic middleaged depressed love storybr br i particularly struck casting film every last extra family beautiful talented cast three daughters wonderful job talent evenly dispersed none outshone twobr br it truly delightful film appropriate ages laugh loud funny also truly touching heart warming wonderful break sex jokes nudity recent films,0 +first posti suicidal last years right feel like situation would die would try save unless someone else present could endangered thing really keeps committing redflag people know imagine would wonder never said anything asked help would beat want them also given parents back money spent me often wish either different sperm made egg exist wish redflag super acceptable could say ok im done enjoy guys go every single day happened wake im waiting day dont however social butterfly make friends real easy good crowds feel like every single new friend chain binds prison life figured id share not thanks reading,1 +idea like spirit worldim thinking taking trip soon done real world,1 +tomorrow going minute clinic receive physical sports refill prescription also wanting reach someone think may pmdd form depression unsure minute clinic doctor right wrong doctor reach it convenient reach since ill already there sure deal mental health advice minute clinic doctor apt handle depression questions,1 +im hopefully going single anymore met someone gets name daisy i,0 +basically everyone ignoring nice teacher including me decided try nice back talking drugs bad affected life stopped using it seem happy sinse theres someone paying attention classes btw sorry bad english,0 +im fucking failurei havent done single thing right life literally minutes ago one decision thought would never regret thrown drain im christian trans girl basically got harassed another trans woman apparent reason didnt provoke anything literally mentioned offhand christian suddenly angry comments message someone telling faith fake im horrible person believing god dont even feel welcome one community nice anymore fuck everything im fucking done planet,1 +survive high schooli know dumb im severe depression life even hard yet ive cut second time today im loser failure eyes all reason brothers ruined moms eyes nothing worth im average best ugly inside out see reason live happens get yelled at try talk im overreacting reddit depression even count,1 +pro adhd meds kinda focus eat less food looks disgusting even though know need eat haha get cripplinng headaches dont take meds eat like goblin feel like shit hate everything,0 +know anymore know keep livingi obese around lbs give take lbs disability ptsd severe social anxiety absolutely friends family go months years without anyone talk too tried making friends one lasts ghost lead sick mind game theirs cant take loneliness anymore know anymore even tried dating told ugly disgusting worthless told nothing woman wants even told women would want me laughed at mocked at made fun of even catfished couple times know anymore know keep living isolated life style even keep living life isolated live small town like rowena texas miles away one way nearest town taxi uber lyft town fast food places super walmart several dentists churches far religious tried going churches get behind even around it dunno anymore maybe best exist anymore,1 +aita remembering therapists name shes really good therapist ive going two years now idea name is,0 +posting everyday lose virginity day ,0 +found best ad entire universe cant even tell ad end and many ads like jksjsjk suggest watch bored idk httpsyoutubearspxeaiuyhttpsyoutubearspxeaiuy,0 +habit calculating like dislike ratio youtube videos really annoying stop,0 +want subreddit rules look further place you rshitpostrepublic want post anything post here barely leadership dont worry getting post deleted side effect take advantage rules example spamming banned final,0 +thinking telling therapist attemptive nervous bring up im going it told anyone since get hurt bad it but im tired one knows this ive feeling guilty call hotline like safety plan hell probably happy im safe heres hoping chicken out,1 +smart people reddit healthy tooooo healthy violent taste music even sometimes lyrics wondering listen listen rob zombie finger death punch godsmack lots metal im sure related liking get people mad like would love professional bully fun anyways think,0 +night young im bored mind wanna chat send anything pm heres discord mack,0 +im desperate please help me long sorryi posted recently certain im going commit redflag concern well cat hid decided repost felt something strange heart hope think im struggling areas life diagnosed severe depression anxiety sometime middle school recently trauma induced rather mild ptsd therapists never humoured this believe actually suffering bpd could reason repeated therapy multiple medications done little nothing help all treated broken leg actually hip heal right anyway redflag mind constantly past months now before passing thought something joked cover pain small list preferred methods plans probably healthy every joke become serious statement regular meltdowns resorted scratching shit lieu razor blade cuts dreams still kind do believe never achieve them even come close nothing seems work feel like total failure seems ive begun sabotaging achievements whether subconsciously intent im terrified ask want feel guilty manage get words out return therapy th november id admit hospital finances already make basics hard afford disregarding fact need money coming arrange live somewhere i currently living friends couch im grateful feel current situation beginning harm difficulty keeping basic self care always manage convince im somehow unworthy even baseline help sustainable cant live like want give up really dont need help badly know anymore please help me im scared,1 +support chat group availablei always suicidal thoughts im actively suicidal speak wanted know know support group thats chat based im already therapy enough ive tried cups feel problems bit dark reply appreciated hope everyone reading gets better,1 +im texting girl school say right things kinda awkward shes way outta league still responds texts say help convo keep going sorry im awkward teenage boy didnt know else go,0 +ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im gonna say reason ahhhhhhhhh,0 +thoughts while extremely long while always planned future suicides either car crash involved driving highway alone darkness one see crash going mph apply gun permitlicense use buy handgun shoot myself hurt people loved regret much even forgave me broken many promises let many people down grudges everyday cannot seem forgive anything hope something happens me want die miserable want end badly,1 +im terrible personi things im aware hurt people make hate me way am way raised make terrible person worst part even understand why things annoying piece shit im intreresting way get people notice humor ironic humor gets old becomes annoying that im anxious prick want live life anymore cant see mirror without feeling disgust would selfish kill myself ill everyone favor deal bullshit anymore reason killed parents friends probably cant stand anymore anyway id like change completely,1 +dont know wjat doim tansgender realy want die want plat blue wale redflag game,1 +ready dieive spent whole life worthless im nothing show it im worth women im worth friends im tired caring everyone else want end cant take anymore,1 +let everyone walk hate itit hurts lot feel numb everytime meet someone new know theyll use me letting life simple give fuck anymore feel worthless pointless im living even though choose stop it maybe last thing everyone gonna hear me need advice make want go it matter advice just helpful advice,1 +hey anyone wanna chat ive awake since starting regret life decisions im yo guy matters,0 +lets honest hentai addiction came subliminal messages cartoons,0 +postpartum depression got throat medicine therapy support group etc failed think might tonight,1 +name fuck wrong people someone accused female oppression im male mother sacrificed body months create ,0 +another shit daythey saying one changed instead knew going inside head nowhere close different unlike everyone else maybe forget move ahead walking away life saw friends staring gave look something see told stop suffering eternity end even say back is thank guys friend please forgive never intended best know life put test even tried many efforts chest please forgive put rest remember started life eleven thought life hard till learned heaven remember told make sure life easily condone easy think cant even take care remember kids responsibilities life taken granted till struggles consumed disabilities remember school making sure took notes judging written words mostly despairs quotes here every word say hurts ear make want disappear get love get hate baby girl think took bait love priceless love lifeless thought one wrong reason made song lied cried know anymore inside feel like theres war one cared mean words fill like tumor,1 +lack donald trump porn makes worry generation accepted long ago real authentic donald trump porn never going become available years best could satisfy kink create porn myself option crudely photoshop donald trumps head onto bodies male pornstars limited photoshop skills could accomplish much matter hard tried make fantasy reality could never make feel real technology advanced since then humanity evolved made contact monolith universe advancement emerged deepfake porn ability put anyones face onto pornographic video anyone much ask porn made famous man america honestly point desperate donald trump porn watch anything could create video myself would bottom im going honest here align barack obamas political views im basing facts alone then statistically obama likely larger penis living us president would mean that ideal trump porno barack obama would top created rough outline porno would play out debated whether plot porno many pornographic videos plot good many people skip beginning setup entirely get straight sex scenes think reason plots pornos boring acting never good able get good actors star porno plot would much better experience people would enjoy lot more think samuel l jackson would make great barack obama john goodman would make great donald trump aboth critically acclaimed actors bodies built similarly respective roles opening shot barack obama would sitting alone home wife kids vacation wifes parents watching fox news dont worry hes watching ironically says fuck republicans moment donald trump breaks door says will fuck republican obama already sweating heavily utters bbut orange man bad trump says yeah orange man bad owo obama hastily rips pants exposes inch cock trumps knees go weak sight immediately falls floor crawls obama obama whispers no wall would able keep of ass going along typical porno formula first sex oral trump lips already moist plunges face violently obamas crotch practically inhales penis trumps surprise obamas penis even reached full length yet snakes additional inches wet throat trump slightly regurgitates mornings big mac onto obamas penis even care filled desire other obama explode molten pearls inside trumps weathered mouth trump pulls away inch shaft leaving greasy orange spray tan obamas jungle pubic hairs trump turns around reveals large hammy slappers small puckered hole obama obama even applying smallest amount lube plunges full force trumps wet depths girthy anaconda obamas penis slithers way many feet trumps intestines along way lots moist feces inside trumps poop tubes coats obamas shaft friction monstrous beast slithering inside trump stimulates prostate trumps cheeks grow hot pink orange penis fully erect throbbing passionate desire cant see surrounded pounds pounds moist sweaty blubber obamas cock inside trumps stomach point tingly gurgling stomach acids oddly erotic unison trump obama say oh fuck im gonna cum moment monumental explosion happens obamas penis violently sneezes gallons gallons thick sticky sweet milk inside trump trump hand slowly oozes semen penis cum sugary toothpaste like quality obama pulls penis trump cocks color revealed beautiful mix brown orange white trump stands barely walk butthole completely permanently stretched out gallons sticky white fluid cascade beautiful waterfall puts business suit says racial slur obama walks house ,0 +i tried,1 +anyone wanna talk hmu,0 +anyone else scared held willi feel careful speak pysch doctor depression suicidal thoughts get scared say much theyll admitted hospital psych ward will thing is want help still want complete control life seems cannot both,1 +breaking bad habits im trying strive away feeling wanting drink smoke stopped fun started wednesday night alone lose self control it best stop now forget feeling act it,0 +think life thing anymorei never thought id writing post here always thought strong always thought wouldnt get this everythings changed guess anxiety bad dont think want live anyone anything could possibly worry about worry about anxiety bad always gives phantom pains convince im heart attack stroke shit im years old shouldnt living like this like girls carefree anxiety lot better awhile taken turn worse dont wanna live anymore friends get mad makes feel shitty put parents much shit ive little mini mental breakdowns barely relationship dad love mom much mom worry much ive treated shitty past makes feel like absolute shit hate always worry her know would better dead gone didnt exist wouldnt causing pain kids live street killed know scared want feel like think need commit redflag hate feel way hate wanna free pain me dont wanna feel way dont wanna feel anymore wanna gone wanna free pain im crippled im drowning,1 +feel everything slippingive high school three half years graduate may im tired living life people forced things order remain trouble parents ive started cutting realize still dont feel anything even bring girlfriend never happy anymore everything seems like going soon feel like slipping faster light end tunnel coming im dragged void darkness coming closer closer succumbing fate others me,1 +halloween producers cut reviewbr br halloween starts recap horrific ending part five thought last chapter dark one really blow mind mysterious man black raided haddonfield police department freeing micheal myers process poor jamie lloyd abducted strange cultists want her knows lets say long suffering end soon doctor loomis back spending rest twilight years trying stop michael myers killing innocents good luck friend loomis doctor wynn comes back four sequel hiatus help good doctor another old face part one guest stars wellbr br this dark dreary sequel dismantled post production editing reason distributors felt final product worth average horror film watchers time decide dumb down film sit shelf several months laid egg box office matter film made worse left well enough alone hey film company knows better filmmakers nowdont theybr br producers cut highly recommended br br released version recommended,0 +im giving upgod please forgive me,1 +public transportation shitty everywhere cuz fax fresno area xpress sucks major asshole city really needs it pretty much everything else california except bart bay areas rapid transit also sucks ass seriously fax dont even cover fresno really horrible clovis roundup even worse,0 +suicde attempt cry helpim hang,1 +thank notethis thank note might expecting want say thank reddit sticking rough times always really need help guys like friend never thing im point life choices go live forever failure kill die happy ive bullied whole class im brink graduating class year friends slowly pulling away im annoying little bitch cant stop hating im fucking stupid even funny right im holding noose end reply want ill probably dead next hour im trying say guys awesome trying save many strangers life hope best life hope painful mine write note anyone significant life give redflag note except guys,1 +yes look babettes feast sort slap puritanical christianity much that surface story gifted parisian cook flees paris one revolutions middle classes finds cast ashore jutland north denmark simply grease allows deeper tale developbr br babette artist one small army people driven pillar post centuries fatuous politicians vane greedy arrogant kill beauty profit something politics always does pace national endowment arts simply institutionalizes creativity propaganda purposesbr br babette last legs arrives tiny village two virginal sisters reside seeing diminishing flock devotees late pastor father live salt cod black bread gruel br br babette shows simple pious people god pleasure sensuality well behavioral mental purity also shows mental purity lead control freakishness something know days neoauthoritarians government would limit personal freedoms somehow crime state would tell us humanitybr br babette cooks bangup french dinner celebrate th birthday late reverend daughters flock think devil come amongst vow notice food drink br br it point preparing meal payed babettes winnings french lottery begin tearup poignance brought comparison daily vulgarity mendacity floods consciousness morning night via media powermongers manoeuvring gain advantage us darkbr br the simple sophistication babettes art spits face pretentiousness display modern society hurts watch played exquisitely splendid filmbr br it is along fanny och alexander bergman favorite film ever yet watch awhile because like rare bottle wine served blinis fresh oysters something must overdone br br a great great film every movielovers library,0 +whats earliest memory guys have hi im survey wanna see far back average person remember personally remember stuff three yes hard flex cap thought normal it much guys remember,0 +life miserable painful lonely energy desire anything it people get pissy killing myself genuinely understand people know pain life like think know better like dunning kruger effect ignorant someone life firm continuing livepeople repeat retarded shit like life get better you lot experience sit suffer feeling guilty allowing people push around tell cannot end life they would upset me feel upset thoughts borderline predatory people know lonely alone take advantage guilt killing myselfi need work cutting everyone life finally kill get fucking nightmare telling someone kill idiotic ignorant,1 +huh wonder trump got coronavirus mask hes ever worn kkk mask,0 +think im gonna make much longerim strong enough depression worse years maybe ever hard remember irl friend support system going shit grandmother died hes rock makes much worse feel like cant talk this ive never felt like needed to im bad support friend hurt much need stop,1 +think going hang tonight tried get better mentally really did think made this family girlfriend tried help me part scared part excited longer live torture thoughts tried get better,1 +yes,0 +imagine actually supporting voting trump post made biden gang yes know post cringe,0 +coming manic episode afraid doomed againi bad phase last month nearly killed myself ended psych ward got days later getting out new appreciation everything could see excitable work happy wake up insanely energetic even felt like could happily something like break arm pass time bored actually wanted to felt exciting ive never experience something like felt good week feel energy getting lower lower dont feel excited dont enjoy things dont feel powerful bad thoughts beginning come back feel like going downward spiral end another hospital visit death,1 +living mental illness former drug addiction cant take anymorei insurance way counseling therapy medication cant make another scene parents put homeless shelter work part time minimum wage car younger sisters successful tired burden everyone every time used shoot hope would kill me reason everyone sad dead,1 +boyfriend leading depression years now dating months time quite okay when started relationship taking antidepressants sometime dropped them getting worse i noticed also talked topici really worried because although know normal nothing it love want suffer he also thinking taking antidepressants even though really hate dependency create make feel allhas anybody gone situation like earlierdoes anybody kind adviceps experienced diagnosed depression kind depressive episodes spent time many people leading depression quite conscious topic boyfriend getting worse,1 +im gonna end it goodbyeim sick people sick talking sick breathing sick thinking know people miss cant live anymore pain im years old established depression depression years light characteristics autism im good situation im laying bed serveral months im tired depressed social anxiety addicted selfharm playing videogames fappingwatching porn it gave good feeling im feeling lonely want lonely sounds weird consider redflag rope couple months ago painful scars selfharm left arm cry fast mother father seperateddivorced years old mentally mistreated long time stepfather beat mom see stepfather threaten say mom otherwise beat up stepfathers total feel like everyone get really mad people swipe me im done world everyone understand kinda thing,1 +hie guys back longthrow comments replying every fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillefillerfiller fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +im upmy whole life uphill battle abusive parents particularly rough military deployments poverty etc decades im pretty worn down past month though things finally turned around fact probably best ever been despite this extreme feeling things get worse theyve ever been complete mental breakdown two weeks ago today move ive spent long struggling ptsd im kind feeling like im going enjoy one last weekend end it want go top sink back ive always been want end victory rather waiting come crashing ending then im sure seems odd think im ready for maybe wont know ive come extremely close several times past year havent feels right though anyways great people wish best stay kind,1 +lol guys guess im pregnant hope boy im excited im also kinda scared cus mom said vaccines cause sids dont want baby get polio dont vaccinate it,0 +people dream world peace dream last night dropped phone puddle best friends dad swimming puddle asked get said jumped puddle get drowned,0 +want summon ufuck anyone knows summon ufuck reddit post please let know dogecoin trade,0 +tend make best predictions games movies try imagine someone spoiling me see brain jumps first,0 +homehome break feel alone brings back feelings people miss dearly people used life bed makes feel like sleeping never getting up place heavily associated many issues ive escaped away college toxic,1 +stop optimisticim always trying optimistic appreciate love life world people always trying give reasons fools practice give become bitter depressed hateful little weasel inevitably kill himself,1 +idki expect pity answer needed let since feel like cant anywhere else ive thinking killing lot lately school mental health people around me ive always close im much coward finish it girlfriend stopping times still feel like crap still old shit cant escape from im basically stuck know do feel alone maybe empty whenever let emotions say think feel everything turns shit gf id talk suddenly switches gets dry moodysad bc said right place decided go quiet talk anymore feels wrong type this im glad found subreddit feel like nothings bad going happen ended this still feels wrong way hope im annoying smth,1 +typed tic discord im gonna pee hm lmaoooajdksks looks funny help havent slept hours,0 +unpopular opinion im majority times homophobia gay persons fault people dont care like dont care two guys kissing simply dont care theyll leave alone leave alone gay people think need go tell everyone guy support join lgtb protest gets annoying leads people wouldnt care sexuality act homophobic obviously stupid people homophobic hate gay people everyone like that people tired bothered gay people dont hate gay people respect dont try push beliefs guys think expect,0 +if when thinkso kinda know start writing this typing google fast non painful way end it came across reddit post brought sub know posting this sure asking help screaming silently someone hear me silently beaten one love suppose love you past years real hard harder usual attempts tried kill myself one direct attempt lately mean time head again ready tired tired feeling rejected tired myself feel alone time women married pushing away long rejected time sleep couch year tired really need stop hurt feel pain body story leaving lot out like said know posting sure ill check this wanted something know is,1 +im gonna try liverecently ive lot thinking ive talked friends mulled things head want live ive made two posts here one spoke going commit redflag night changed mind im gonna try myself sure seek help im gonna try myself depression suicidal thoughts come many things mainly self image hate personality thought process emotions every aspect mind body self harmed specifically mental physical punishment force acting normal changing personality bad sounds something ive grown do so decided buy pull bar way self harm productive way guess muscle pain know sounds weird itll help used go gym reasons really seek help im gonna see get this hope sincerely last thing ever post here,1 +confessed feelings girl like said feels way,0 +many meso many committed redflag much younger now gained even less experience life now enough life conviction enough end it even greater conviction suffering long suffer longer wanted die young bring it every reason it younger self could never imagine bad would feeling today constant broken heart feeling heart sinking chest everyday without fail total separation humanity ive fair share pathetic life nothing complain comes ending life others experienced even less ended lives,1 +think might bisexual homoromantic thought normal bi like def want fuck guys think long term relationships stuff always girl,0 +birthday yoooo im owemji hahahahha,0 +girl u fridge cus ur shaped like one,0 +gonna diearound weeks ago fight mom said thos horrible things went stairs room done living wanted die bad lots meds medical condition asthma took pills strong med started vomit started vomit panicked went bed,1 +think im gonna itim actually sick it cant anything right want end sorry dad wasting time money sorry mom ruining life im gonna end soon dad even thinks wont it goodbye everyone,1 +end life eventually post times never actually stated real genuine reason tried kill day the goodbye post attempting time time get right problem want hurt family thats problem also fact access firearm hang myself look post history see main reason im closet lesbian always one get twisted though never come closet want to hate gay much people hate pedophiles never ever act feelings i before continue keep quiet die naturally otherwise overly sensitive homophobia turn away annoy activist bullshit want hear it known gay young age denial teens admitted im gay thought okay thought okay feel things ever be reason life screwed me fault let feel things thinking okay mess met two people on here feel me thats it gays straights get its okay accept it theres nothing wrong it blah blah no stop fucking dense give fuck people gay care people lives dont gay happy give fucking shit want gay i dont want to im sick people fucking listening me say gay affects me my life im sick it im sick people generalizing gays same one gay person okay doesnt mean be im also sick people debunking everything say but thats similar straight people do stop whining gays straights neither ever helped me boyfriend plenty boyfriends like it everyone thinks knows im straight makes happy sex guys very brief sex soon shit gets serious bail them feel bad yes thats am horrible person disease mind you go nice guys turn hurt them normally date assholes care other life actually okay otherwise im smart successful one reason ruins whole entire life squashes hopes dreams fucks completely im going get hate gay know exactly people going reply people fucking dense im going bother tried get gay fucked me visiting pastor soon hopefully undergo reparative therapy im even religious slightest excited could feel normal people would feel work ill continue live heterosexual die want gay want anyone know ever want act mental illness,1 +long stream consciousness unhealthy statemy life rather boring feel little attachment right now get suicidal thoughts ive mostly accepted life meaningless one day itll end depression bad anymore well im really sure whether better worse im probably bad natural state live messy house and older brother keeps messing matter many times ive cleaned it ive given up take shower every days people interact online strangers people ring food pass days computer literally nothing sometimes top off ive already selected date end life know exactly die date arrives fail first time im going keep trying succeed every single day waiting day arrives people say ive gotten confident not im confident ive lost lot care life problem confronting situations headon certainty legitimately care result whether life ruined certain things matters little me worry not im anything dangerous im going go touch anyone im going go murder anyone moral sense still check understand people care life different me people watch diet exercise make friends family care making memories enjoying life go off whereas cant muster ability enjoy anything im openly inviting death upon myself every single day every single hour im thinking die every time go sleep im prepared wake up assume die brain aneurysm sleep every time probably afterlife wake up every single time theres saying death catches people least expect it catch offguard ill always expect it theres never second im thinking situation lead death fear death much anymore logical thinking backandforth topic ive decided improbable death lies nonexistence believe it even case know it nonexistence depressing think about im trying convince theres afterlife instead afterlife matter long one wasnt able sleep night think way happy finally enter afterlife think life earth going become enjoyable anytime soon going monotonous rut long live college supposed rather colorful period everyones time least turning point small peak valley life yet exactly like hs exactly like ms exactly like primary school nothings changed entire life nothing change either ill get job work environment probably exactly like college im going work turn old case im free want die government throws money every month happens nothing happy this im misanthrope rather asocial starting family anything really consideration going myself im going die alone well im prepared outcome ive come terms fact die lived fulfilling life everyone keeps talking changed start finish maybe even reach designated date depart something horrible happens prevents ill die beforetime unforeseen unexpected alternatively maybe something miraculous happens changes something realistically wont ill welcome developments post getting rather long im sure already long past skipping point many people im going end here wanted share going mind maybe anyone insight advice do could comment ive thinking maybe move redflag date bit closer since theres really much going thats stopping so maybe instead long time now move year maybe month week now im sure case thanks reading suppose,1 +please helpi feel like im losing mind im much pain need get city get world want pass peacefully badly cant hurt family like that cant take much longer though know do please help,1 +school starts tomorrow morning anyone wanna talk dont want summer end yet anyone wanna talk,0 +visiting father years tomorrow going see father afterwell read title right father passed away years old family sort kept away fact even father feel strangely transcendental even know single thing fathers family mom decided tell everything years anyway tomorrow morning im going visit grave know say absolutely memories him heard good father proud children say anything even remember anything him well guess im gonna say whats heart tomorrow wish luck sorry bad english ,0 +know doi really know anymore life seems meaningless hope future male turns saturday lives dads basement barely friends never hope girlfriend really making new friends super stressful job cant take break else really go insane written huge amount text explaining ive saw long finished yet ill give tldr suppose started girl known since years old getting quite close shy general socially awkward someone else asked out boyfriend got pregnant blame myself feel stupid always hard myself when step dad moved out first thought great take responsibilities mine have mother pretty much nothing raise two younger brothers year skipped breakfast lunch make sure ok eventually snapped year done moved dad relationship mother side family nonexistent dad never really got along well family lives town honestly say hate family hate too final high school year got terribly ill skin infection miss semester school emotional support family friends spent mostly myself ish months myself alone previously through absolute hell sunk depression never really got of take classes second semester also caused large amount stress added onto depression things finally got point trouble getting bed absolutely motivation to finished highschool started waking later later latest around pm a months ago finally got job get stressful too physically demanding working many hours point absolutely exhausted know cannot keep demanded much longer also cannot take break spend days home talking one anyway apologies long tried tldr kind failed tried summarize things may left out really really need help tried talking different times helped all need help friends none spend time mentally need recover family hates hate back stressful job cannot keep much longer think great would die finally released burdens past thoughts redflag common probably terrible job explaining tired right need sleep please reddit need help end comes soon actually read giant wall text thank much,1 +pointwhy post delay enivitinble many us time now vs late,1 +lost love lifemy husband years been together texted told finished paperwork divorce me know do love anything whole world spent last two years trying hard give relationship another chance give another chance know anymore moved america europe him left whole life there family friends him many times feel like anything life im afraid dying look forward feel pain anymore know still love much do feel like lost him lost much else too lost dreams life many times feel like want am time place world want be really sad im twenties disappointment,1 +remove theres streamer anita never watched even heard popping youtube recommended stop,0 +cant deal life anymoreits much hurts much trauma resurfacing cant deal anymore im done,1 +months ago started feeling anything again thought would eventually feel again even though started feeling things again feel like bloqued again mean feel like superficial thingsfeelings cannot make deep conection things example love listening music still enjoy listening music enjoy melodies cannot connect lyrics even hear songs used deep meaning me like cannot deep feelings basic feelingsalso like missing times misserable deeper shit know good healthy miss worst time beacuse could feel deep way also life total flatness nothing happens something different happens cannot feel different keep going like nothing mattersand another thing happening longer want goor better person like givng beign better everytime longer care used think better person better stuff would come life actually gets worse sometimes want give fuck everything around me tired everything still cannot feel enough reconsider suicide seriously unsensitive cannot even get courage reconsider suicide again cannot get sad ot angry enough think iti know becoming worst person fighting hide it know bomb eventually exlplode know problems accept people menthal problems problems know cannot control it know do cannot thinkit like knew doomed become shitty dude bojack character like him fewling even weird,1 +test heavy weapons guy continue comments,0 +actual dick terrible httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi httpsyoutubemlmshkypsi,0 +contained disk first rate show first rate band disc faint heartthe music incredibly intense cool learn watch movie huge long true records great shows top heap concert shot screaming teenie boppers threw jelly beans beatles gone bands and audiences settled long often amazing displays musical virtuositysomething audiences intellectual curiosity pursue age canned music britney christina especially learn amazing things happen gifted musicians encouraged improvise try concert out really amazing,0 +reached bottomone seemingly insignificant event sent deep emotional spiral hope anything going forward please someone tell gets better false hope cling onto bit longer,1 +day nnn wish good luck remember never accept free nnn coupons fake,0 +really rough night last night everything comes wavesfinding words even begin explain feelings feel something ill never concur cant explain feelings go matter hour physical mental pain turned physical telling brain im cant believe again im disconnected self reliant feeling abandoned room full people nobody likes dont connect anxiety taking over friends arent really friends think annoying everyone playing nice like friend more acting weird stop distancing wonder youre alone one wonder uglyfatdisgusting fault redflag right itll feel better bridge close easy pills taste good taking cant breathe want die time im constantly falling felling alone alone completely different somewhat crave it isnt narcissistic price shit nobody fucking cares problems skin deep dont know like feel crawl back bed belong forget anything past walls mind races cant stop cant stop thoughts eating alive would anyone understand anything feel could begin explain dont even know idea whats wrong whats wrong whats wrong stop yelling please cant take volume head another migraine body physically clenched point causing jaw stress want curl ball deflate everyone thinks joke youre dramatic would anyone even listen words leaving youre existence end end youre worth space waste cant shake weight im drowning time im fine least thats tell self say stop pussy nobody gives shit problems youre suicidal never brave enough try,1 +uk looking friends hey im person hopefully read this friend something please,0 +feel much guilt cant believe anything friends say anymoreive made many huge mistakes around friends put faith trust someone emotionally abusive towards online friends blame acted it complained called toxic girlfriend proceeded go witch hunt tell off three groupchat time me abusive friend knew irl another online friend deeply care about hate ignored also hate feel way abusive friend started ignoring daily basis turned online friend blatantly disappeared fucking terrified hed done something himself wouldve fault starting whole fight lasted months grew severely paranoid picked fights abusive friend cut things her way late made everyone miserable friend finally responded months refuses talk happened think caused it tell lies it know talk struggling fights among friends told hes looking help feel fucking guilty ive started believing hes looking therapy me tells fine believe him cant believe him ive done before hurt people want die feel like punish ive done like im supposed alive want die feel forced kill stop hurting others cant look help myself cant afford it feels like solution cant forgive myself thought alone makes feel extremely selfish toxic hurt feel negative stop feeling way never feels good enough always more im endless loop fucking misery cant get it write hope death takes instead one day,1 + yeas since last redflag attemptso title says years since last tried kill myself live happy life wife kids let say hope all terrible place in hope all reach get help might seem hard best choice ever made best luck u love u ,1 +another searing look holocaust rather intimate story events took place small street berlin people involved film starts present time new york city ruth weinstein jutta lampe mourning death husband family members gathered side ruths daughter hannah maria schrader slowly learns mother raised aryan woman named lena fischer doris schade travels germany locates year old tells events rosenstrassebr br spoiler alertbr br lena talks berlin gestapo would hold jewish spouses building rosenstrasse street even though supposed immunity married aryans nine days group women would wait outside shout release eight year old ruth svea lohde awaits mother come nowhere go meets year old lena katja riemann takes in lenas husband fabian martin feifel also inside eventually tries socialize nazi officers get somethingbr br this film directed margarethe von trotta making first feature film almost years working television clearly one provocative efforts remains one revered directors europe one nazi films view horrible acts inhumanity jews although see severe treatment issued instead retelling small event meant life death people involved film trying shock anyone open door debates circumstances simply wants shed light small true life event occurred historical period part films strength comes actors good performances shine especially riemann young lohde always good see schrader aimee jaguar pivotal role great film something thats going change perspective wwii considering innocent lives put death events took place think reason alone important enough retell true story,0 +moment someone impersonates shit said dedicating whole life hating tiktok reddit moment lol like th time someone impersonated insecurities,0 +someone perfect jeon jungkook even exist personality everything perfect fact ill never get marry makes sad,0 +age gap do theres girl im feel like ha e want chance getting girlfriend her known years good friend sisters always thought like another sister shes developed im around age like one girls genuinely find attractive also know used me find unattractive far interests go anime im big gamer would probably gaming could tbh look girlfriend someone likes like right fucking front addition also attractive dont know thats alright since shes younger theres also possibility head feelings stop thinking her think think reasons something mind hoping something happens simultaneously thinking reasons big deal nothing does,0 +mom like mom well joined teenagers group facebook moms talk children do me dying inside lack privacy teenagers getting k also mom still thinking idea sex works even dick looks like basically anything sexual stuff basically im upset teenagers less privacy time im pretty sure mothers idea actually time idk confused this,0 +options available sistermy sister bad place several redflag attempts shes usually released days hospital family believe needs long term help shes live illinois im curious options are,1 +life worth livingthis personal post care listening whining kid favor move on unloading thoughts ive recently cant talk anyone them maybe im worried theyll worried im worried theyll agree point theres one option left need get there say comes me every time wake up wonder why get bed knew me tell need go college want to feel like outcast there even though im peoples friend im smart enough there theres many people better every one subjects feel embarrassed even room them thinking why here hes nowhere good thinks is work feels pointless anyway mean lets face it probably gonna lead anywhere sec suppose could say hanging friends worth spend maybe hour day best even though fun still feel empty probably sort meaningful conversation limits talk humorous banalities fun moment moment im staying moment mention fact im none best friends me matters ok lets talk complete alevels best case scenario get need next well really different setting university were looking even work even loneliness likelihood is make good friends quickly ill going lectures going back dorm day every day sounds like way live plus looking current state things getting job looking unlikely get one going horrible mean say get job were looking majority days taken mind numbing tedious tasks completed day in day receive fraction money generate boss keeps threatening fire me great even stick long enough rise ladder im going turn around middle age realize nothing bit money shiny car im still alone depressed ive always been even better might happen want sort corporate job want writer group people depressed alcoholic suicidal become cliche chances ideas way derivative work ever anything criticized mocked ever noticed all terms career odds life fulfilling me love make worth it love tried best steer clear me every time ive fallen love without fail mater reciprocal seemed rejected me probably good reason im unattractive guy cant good around im sure tell post get nervous insecure clingy great boyfriend material anyway even could fall love girl loved back next carry relationship one us falls love dies painful matter what ill probably end one divorced forty year olds still desperately tries get dating scene cries car outside clubs eventually hangs studio apartment leaving remaining grand kids pity anyway likelihood is none happen love rare probably rare ordinary kid like me im likely go entire life without ever feeling it greater good yeah right seen current political landscape seen anything weve ever created species touch insidious were fucked best chance saved long gone human beings animals violent selfish long hold onto base urges well never equal functioning society biological puppets heads full false imaginings fucked get go must thinking christ clearly depressed go get help help everyone know whos antidepressants still fucked way another feels odd turn altering chemical makeup blocking thoughts way happy feels like im right im going willfully ignore it shrink barely better priest someone give illusion hope tell theres light end tunnel offering nothing sentiment professional smile taking money it right thats comes mind right now know bleak subs for anyway thanks anyone reads responds tldr career satisfy me love keeps evading me human race hopeless cant see way out,1 +mom buying happy meal want course im getting choccy milk fries doesnt want toy mine ,0 + try beer once never even touched alcoholic beverages till date getting opportunity try beer friends not peer pressure maybe sips need worry getting addicted shy buy it so asking worth trying ,0 +ive lost mind soon lose life readim basic summary health anxiety since child became prominent severe everything feels real may aswell actually something wrong me cant get fact silent sinus syndrome rare condition causes eyeball sink skull due orbital bones breaking down theres painful symptoms hence silent rare cant find information commonyearly cases occur treatment redflag mean surgery add prosthesis fix appearance month eyelids changed creases instead nobody family said anything looks off ive symmetry tests take picture eyes draw lines connecting top eyelash bottom eyelash etc week ago seemed fine anxiety actually kinda went away tonight anxiety came get me ive taken sone picture tests seem okay seem asymmetrical bottom eyelash sign according google refuse think camera angle indeed asymmetrical results get indeed eyeball sinking skull promoting terrifying possibly disabling disfiguring eye surgery already suffered self image issues overweight ugly general one put casket cant get of imagine going school classmates hearing eyepatch getting rare condition required eye surgery life ruined absolutely chance life anymore,1 +life feels pointlessi get life offer me always terrible everything school work relationships etc honestly feel like matters anyone even change something feel happiness friends enjoyable honestly care all insignificant am family always abusive what millions people abusive families mine matter doesnt nothing matters me life others lives nothing feel rewarded matter do cant seem find good happiness feeling everyone talks about so started using drugs seemed allow feel good started smoking cannabis recreationally almost everyday made appreciate life little bit actually felt happiness also started abusing opiates opiods used take mg oxycodone day hydrocodone hydromorphone whatever could honest feel anything anymore tried od end hospital feeling like shit days fun someone trying get enjoyment shit life go much detail personal life honestly care need know sucks want peaceful way out could od cannabis would would best way go cant oh well posting leave something may eventually significant behind maybe doubt worth try think oding morphine way go gone time someone reads maybe simpler suggestions go quick painless good life,1 +question relationship girlfriend anthropomorphic dog id sex would bestiality think would be given consent see issue is yeah basically question fuck girlfriend,0 +well executed old dark house horror good setup includes character poe himself alluding story london pub although pretty much one guy taken dare visit house particular night running room room either looking avoiding people still enjoyable plus delightful enigmatic barbara steele wooden dialogue unexplained bits bobs super creepy atmosphere maintained throughout super musical score keep one moving nicely along dvd originates us extras,0 +anime fun thanks coming ted talk,0 +today years old realized ppl say wouldnt survive cod lobby unironically really thought satirical joke people said realize f word slur lgbt people naturally going avoid say youre apart community wouldnt survive cod lobby,0 +hope end soon wish could die without upsetting anyonei thought since started homeschooled going community college things would get better was time now workload catching me ive wanted become history major long time excited take history class found much harder ever anticipated love read reading dry classes lot quizzes things online hard figure everything works ive asked help becomes harder harder so feel like im going amount anything bipolar disorder also gotten worse mood swings frequent doctor afraid put medications id go hospital parents would think im selfish thing would disappointed uncle recently hospital depression supposed talk it feel like kind important go hospital shortly after parents would probably think im copycat attention ive started cutting legs knives deep enough bleed parents dont know though dont need to even should theyd think im lying wish could tell exactly feel without hurting them wont lie psychologically abuse me dont good examples it fuck mind mom constantly belittles me times acts like shes best mom world times believe it dad knows thats is even acknowledged night said used worse yet doesnt anything it scream accuse lazy wonder scream back depression makes irritable upset days cant even get bed dad says need work constantly pesters it makes fucking miserable im lashing parents ive started lashing people around me like college kids theres boy gaming room hang lot constantly tries show stuff phone hes obviously autistic something try nice him little cousin autism know hard deal that constantly tries shove things face show politely ask leave alone today followed show dumb shit phone panic attack gaming room trying study realizing lost glasses kept shoving phone face despite telling nicely leave alone eventually got mad yelled fuck off starts crying cry genuinely feel bad yelling him look like bitch yells autistic people hate bitch try nice really do want make friends im socially awkward weird people dont want around me tried make friends college far one feel lonely lost life dont know much go try provide support people going am either ignore tell im weird hate weird kid last year high school people wanted vote yearbook likely school shooter clear could never hurt another person would never something like that dont even think something like that wouldnt even consider it another thing bothers drama club used in kind stockholm syndrome thing treated like shit would never give roles three lines most except one skit main character first joined seemed like liked then maybe try hard make friends people started avoiding people started saying id probably shoot school kept distance drama teacher despite fact learned lot him asshole made feel absolutely worthless now get go scotland acting festival treating quite members like shit revered community hailed heroes one takes account scars leaves behind wasnt fact that even though horrible people know would hurt family immensely kill myself dont know much longer hold out wont let get job wont let learn drive rarely get visit friends live near me reason im still alive know would hurt family died im sorry rambling much want get chest would take long write everything bothering me quite painkillers purse right ingrown toenail probably wouldnt trick sincerely considering taking redflag attempt know probably wont work temptation getting strong maybe ill keel middle class something would fantastic again sorry long read,1 +it really think totheres option living shit kill done it anything im missing here mean living shit life go fuck itself fuck it fuck fucking done edit heres hoping hold onto determination get home school im sick sniveling coward never it,1 +cliched titlenot sure turn anymore reddit bit me came big digg move ive loved site far guys helpful supportive im impasse life went college years got lazy found beer pretty much dropped out decided join national guard hopes making something life time really happy even though got yelled suffered structure life first time basic pretty much falling ng went first drill stopped going seemed dumb would sit around months ago now lost job girlfriend pretty much huge debt aes fafsa already deferred dont know much longer it tough finding job been applying every place see dont know military phone fell hottub dont cash get new one im slowly losing contact everyone outside world summary dont know do already owe parents loads money college dont know turn to im get thrown street really dont know do please help me edit im years old,1 + hahahahahahaha losing fuckin,0 +life keeps shitting mealways one step forward two steps back one thing another thing new day new problems im tired idk anymore past years shit,1 +tired disappointment muchwhats point living nothing disappointment pain im forced go everyday ever since kid ive living shit life everytime think something good happenit gets ripped me ive always kept faith telling get better years later im typing tears eyes cause pain getting much try hard nice polite look others im always volunteer someone needs shoulder cry onnever shoulder cry on like feel peoples pain really really can hurts ive always kept head up looking forward good future me people try help well brother needs kidney hes dialysis promised mother would find one two years feel mothers pain hurts most try hard help others make progress disappointment makes worse want end badly know would absolutely destroy mother that would killed long time ago cant even keep head anymoreim army soldier supposed keep head up supposed walk confidence head held high confidence everytime think something good happendisappointment follows suit like im grateful already eitherbut grateful health motherthats it,1 +posting everyday get girlfriend day took big l finally told definitely doesnt see friend shouldnt keep hopes relationship her need motivation cheering ,0 +dumbass wants ago got mild concussion cause went highway shitty skateboard baby honey sugar plum amazing skateboard truck might i,0 +day great boom crisp water,0 +im tiredim god damn tired im beginning fucking despise people it get better every single god damn interaction life event proven otherwise tell ignore pain suffering cant help feel must insane denial,1 +need nickname name sucks like it really generic,0 +thinking writing willim turn ive started thinking killing regularly weeks ago ive already thought gets stuff get buried no embalming day funeral cant assure right since will want anyone spend money death guess wait little bit longer could im really thinking now,1 +noticed everyone attracted opposite me even know three straight girls know gay guys even girlfriend mainly attracted women im still even her one day going cut it matter much improve myself im still unlikely wanted like intellectual level understand bad sample size statistically unlikely really easy forget that thats all just needed get chest thanks reading,0 +dont know anymorei point redflag many times before one time saved sister taking knife hand havent truly happy long remember whenever happy comes short always overshadowed darkness everyday life friends probably support asked to hate people worried me getting ready college working extra curricular activities top school work things home arent helping becoming much sometimes feels like world hates dont know do redflag always option family love friends love care about,1 +imagine named robert exaactly much ur parents hate u,0 +anyone ever get sudden urge climb tree see tree like damn thats perfect tree climb wanna climb shit,0 +rare disease thats called crippling depression cured awards im yeah give awards thanks entitled dont hand im going steal kneecaps,0 +id like take easy way others wayim totally fed life come to feel like loser still living parents unemployed im stuck place little opportunity spain find job temporary bad pay rate demotivates even more besides already burnt stage days go mental health deteriorates more feel trapped alone know people around dont want bother issues results isolation im gym hour day stay shape spend remaining room alone thoughts contemplated redflag however want put parents ordeal need help need someone talk to dont know get either please help tip iceberg,1 +idk talk girls ima honest kind sad question ask online like whenever talk girl person head goes spiral dont know talk ends awkward asf kind sad think ab almost ,0 +guys rteenagers type girl would choose big boobs sexy treats like absolute shit sometimes small boobs treats kindly cares heart,0 +alt acc dont want friends see thisi much homework get breaks get breaks play xbox friends play idk anymore give reason live,1 +so long story short parents terribly abusive im almost took long help wife realize this lots things happened many list single post got much worse last year daughter molested younger brother asked parents watch two daughters due medical emergency thats happened father room eyes glued cell phone involved cps police daughter quite tell police everything investigation could press charges him investigation complete informed parents happened called year old daughter liar face,1 +forget samarasadako jasonbr br horror new name granny plot simple efficient actors good two thumbs michelle killer dialogs even quite clever beginning end action leave breathless cant escape it blood awful murders funny moments sense perversity goes far beyond rule deja vu surely granny another slash movie truly classic own deserves success theres even success come rerelease congrats,0 +ive tried ive experienced ive lost war im looking support want waste anyone elses time want write words say goodbye ive fighting life fought years enemy severe depression extreme sleep issues introversion awkwardness supported opposition plan join military though fight end casualties live fear death also lost people time two close friends person ever actually raised me love you grandpa fought years enemies taliban insurgents radical nationals total spent months overseas winner casualties countless went still us stay strong fallen fought years got out enemy vast im surrounded casualty finally me though war still go boots on that manage ive got one write letter for serve letter public servants notified remains funeral unattended government service finally lie rest finally meet peace,1 +ive talking mom about still get itdepressed since coming soon still black moon hangs me want hang it theres lot nevers future ive made mom cry im glad alive see next occasion question is write letter record one last love song stick middlefinger retreat abyss syonara reddit online friends logging goods mom miss,1 +dont know turn to self harmed first time yesterdayi get anxiety normal me day get two panic attacks good day me usually get one day got five started regular panic attack started scratching arm scratching hard digging arm didnt notice felt wave pain went body didnt stop kept digging till snapped whatever prompting it got arm wrapped could make effort stop now arm hurts like hell get feeling need scratch arm fingernails arent going cut it sharper objects attraction please help,1 +part cells hydrophobic smh like water dont see whats hard,0 +suicidal thoughts comfortingam one finds suicidal thoughts coming ways kill calming comforting panic attack im feeling anxious depressed,1 +application subs pretty boy im bi love cute at least like think am im try asshole unless youre liar meanie allow self esteem im low key nerdy af love taking pictures like narcissist jk jk importantly love all,0 +please help idk ami want soccer time want track want art piano guitar perfect grades learn thatetc etc etc know want ,1 +think masturbated lil hard low sounds quarantine phone sex cuz cant see wasnt close cumming said close gripped dick really hard cum think fucked hour later round tip dick pains finna night im hella scared,0 +computer class spain without,0 +name trinity thing number tomorrow rd bdayif going end it tomorrow seems like best day three deeper meaning me like it aesthetically pleasing im trans girl picked name went legal trouble change this im depressed shit friend family members talk regular thats it one work talks me social life im alone spend free time alone bedroom way years now nothing life brings joy favorite foods used get excited lost taste music become repetitive boring escapes anime video games cant hold interest im lonely want make friends things together hobbies subjects relate others about pre transition free time money spent drugsbecause depressed needed escape reality born wrong im stuck wrong body way surgerysmass amounts money even then even thenif fully transitioned know would myself feel like blank slate like never became anything like never able find myself become individual make new friends hobbies ever life drugs escape people got pretty close online eventually rejected found much talk about could talk drugs thats did thats knewthey got bored ditched me social anxiety twisted hard go shopping get grocery list without panic attack cant even reach individual level tell others bad need much im suffering always feel like burden others even internet randos fb groups last week requested th work because my birthday invited friend niece go bar hopping hit today told cancelled im depressed function im living life simply alive know call quits,1 +numb pain pills prescribed notredflag anyone else people treat poorly last week found infected sti someone already treats like nothing venting crying work could hold in tw,1 +suicidal girl instagram livei saw girl showing redflag note bloody wrist instagram live know anything message her,1 +im tiredive got plan fantasize constantly long time barely bring get bed could get fear death id done already im selfish cowardly cant even cut anymore know else put feelings here cant tell anyone irl im drowning head,1 +horrible person deserve lovei didnt go home elderly mother answer phone aggravated her turns sick died days later tell doctors put life support she want mahines bbut made final decision basically killed her took grief frustration little dog made sleep outside one night dirtied house pay attention stopped eating six months died put sleep killed two individuals loved world reason never allow dog let anyone love me deserve it horrible horrible person deserve die alone,1 +first series lost kicked bang literally slowly decreased pace may put viewers people started watch halfway would either bored plain confused br br i would advise people new world lost simply watch beginning get pt slower episodes acting throughout excellent series planned why means answers least years oh well ill keep watching keeps tension dialogue flowing,0 +im gonna end it nudes got leaked im made fun unusually sized penisyes im asiani need someone help get,1 +tomorrow shall attempt reaching freedomit took lot convincing courage post this goes cant take torment anymore dealing mental illnesses years mother damaged further dad left behind soak mothers nearlyconstant rage years ago started seeing therapy parents fighting diagnosed array illnesses panic disorder anxiety depression schizoaffective disorder soon that dad take fighting anymore left twin mother live somewhere else mother still mad leaving us behind without financial support still letting fury me im scared live decent day long time cant go day without auditory hallucinationspanic attacks andor getting yelled sometimes even hit attempted redflag twice past overdoses first time hardly affected second time close cigar attempted redflag since two years ago thank best friend two years managing give reason live shame hardly contact anymore miss much almost much dad thankfully ill get see dad one last time tomorrow birthday say last time plan attempt redflag way tried two times manage succeed well guess mother finally happy waste space around anymore bothering inch life sister worry ruining plans panic attacks and dad least hell happy around mother anymore guess hope best friend miss much is doubt hell heal quickly succeed hope get thrown away hospital like last time hospital made worse gained habit staying several nights end there everyone scared there traumatized event vivid nightmares almost every night horrid place succeed want go back hellhole school ever since people heard go hospital people called horrible names friends left feared friends someone a freak mentally unstable want face ridicule im sorry bother ill update anyone wants know fail chicken out thank spending time listen,1 +conversation redflag prevention line sounds like i curious exactly met psychiatrists years listening know strictly european not someone could judge mentor me,1 +supposed really helpor help enoughi depressed longafter surgeries went bad ruined life career periods sort adjusted lower level living met woman suposedly loved tried livebut surgery made worse left went againthen tried survive family memberthen alone another country cheaperi done therapy meds none ever helpedmostly made worse tried disabilitywas denied thats longer option thought could survive somehow country lived beforebut nothing workingmy immigration plans fallen repeatedly health gets worse either cannot afford treatments help sure stay suffering everyone says you fight never heard good reason why it get betterbut liklihood given medical problems root depressionit wont odds better win lotto done years buy lifepay rent foodbut money nearly gone taking enough thought could earn extra working everything shiteveryone ask help says cant done things supposed always costs help fuck supposed do,1 +im die cutsfinally go keep cutting possible way survival goodbye cruel world,1 +s comedy mystery the crooked circle band hooded crooks set plotting murder one swore oppose them enjoyable really unremarkable little film movie works simply cast headed zazu pitts james gleason both would later appear together couple hildegarde withers films edna mae oliver dropped series supported great cast actors actresses know may know name i hence lack naming breezy hour long romp movie make great deal sense mistaken identity secret passages ghostly music people seem perfect thing dark stormy night late night viewing one nostalgic late late show,0 +life overflunked college socially challenged scared relationships kind lazy depressed feeling pretty down suicidal sure would easier moment sorry rant nice day,1 +someone spend time los retros killing real note completely understand math fuck yes oh lesywhcjdjjv,0 +night preparing surprise test made specially lower grades found teacher wants lower grades theres going test take weak points little know im smartest yet dumbest person class time play minds game already figured test last class friday due last class day,0 +rush relationship last year months texting asked girl school dated amazing months amd dumped me one month got talking said missed started taking slow texting hugging occasional kiss caught feelings again told interested relationship girl broke danm heart twice win month shit sucks,0 +heyo years old always immense amount redflag panic lonelinessi wondering feeling loneliness ever stop doomed person am tried many different things since even took medication past years changed dosage multiple times nothing seemed work me really know supposed even worth trying anymore stop lonely,1 +lush fantasy world quirky characters annoying s music epitomizes s desire rewrite fairy tales make fun work personally liked greensleeves harsher characters amusing lines,0 +months since died im still ok mother died april came home hospital one day laid bed doctors came home explaining things would work on suddenly im room crying hear family panicking mother dying worst part last time talked night before sounded happy coming home gonna make favorite cereal her mother lot things wrong her infected toe doctors fix something wrong spine end liver cancer somehow got without doctors noticing months since died still feels like last week cant stop crying everytime think her im stuck knowing never gonna see quinceanera wedding even hold grandchildren hurts knowing anymore know wrote this feel like needed vent somewhere,0 +recurring thoughts diabetesso start off currently suicidal thoughts danger need flesh things out mainly concern recurring suicidal thoughts okay diagnosed type diabetes last september done excellently handling staying healthy however makes feel like cant normal times like cant meal without worry go hike without first thinking every little thing might need safe make sure die really depressing especially diabetics represented popular film media games etc part knows cant normal life still hurts lot suicidal thoughts diagnosis despite feeling ever kill myself im moment dark place tempting never owned gun never will im scared impulsivity kill me however diabetes worries offers quick way out simple insulin overdose fall sleep wake up frightening option im worried one day may become much may impulsively od drug thats keeping alive one thing always kept carrying act image parents suffering damaged hurt killing myself every time thought im reminded it reassures know thoughts still there like subtle flash ending it brief reminder easy would be far ive overcome know long forever advice help especially fellow diabetics would wonderful edit context used self harm still burn marks left wrist deal alone well thats usually im worst also constantly dealing self doubt well mild paranoia like doubt friends really friends sometimes mainly im myself diabetes diagnosis certainly helped much anxiety getting worse year update one probably reading anymore mind sharing tried kill last sunday lived im glad did still bright side close friend talked revealed gone similar stuff attempted redflag determined keep alive now one way another thank support everyone end matter since guess almost anyways worked best first time while im slightly hopeful future,1 +storyim disabled air force vet got injured states commuting base recovering bed rest watching cnn one day two names people went tech school listed killed action afsc im like them expert marksmanship badge due lineage prepared warfare depressed ever since feel instead them and stronger would able take pain injury theyd still alive still blame deaths find state selfloathing regret wish instead them think ill ever forgive myself,1 +uwu cute dont get uwu considered furry uwu pretty cute say use uwu,0 +worry god putting everything bad year future great fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +struggling decide doim year old woman suffered various mental illnesses since young age ive abused neglected child led developing borderline personality disorder major depression cptsd panic attacks bulimia compulsive skin picking disorder self harm addiction current situation complicated summarize leave job last fall due redflag attempt leaving hospital sought outpatient treatment put aside fiancs agoraphobia advanced point longer leave apartment reason all result neither us employed im working state ssi hopefully receive benefits help us struggling mentally afraid coming lazy freeloader genuinely unable go function normal adult should threat eviction electric turned off multiple elements situation making receiving public assistance nearly impossible us im losing sense hope desire alive seems gone afraid hurt myself many responsibilities right leave everything go hospital im sure do know im trapped stay strong handle things us going away try get better,1 +kill soonfirst i say yo sad tired age cant even speak english properly cus first langague piece shit nonsesne latino unknown langaguejesus cant live us yo need surgery left legeye might problem spine aaaaaand face full pimplesi social anxiety cant even make fucking friendmy motivation live youtubegaming shit pci need money inexistent healtha days ago classmate found one hoby told classmates guess whaaati quitmy one happy poor motivationthank society isolate go outside schoolnow what think kill myself,1 +im bad night aheadive too im change mind part wondering anyone cares something told post tonight hope hear someone help way,1 +guess language szia meg kell kitallni nyelvet,0 +depressed disappointedim seventeen years old feel like life going want it people always tell good am rhchaotic handsome youre smart rhchaotic life ive believed jumped hoops maintain status wear expensive clothing keep groomed keep grades up take college level classes etc yet enough find difficult bond people hard make friends hell people school try avoid talking noticing me probably think im awkward asshole ive thinking maybe im smart everyone thinks im handsome ive looked ways able connect attract people theyve failed ive decided im good enough this feel mind failing me cant focus anything anymore causing grades slip memory getting worse forgetting things happened mere seconds ago refuse become idiot id soon kill myself im good enough anyone im good enough myself whats point living one family wants around you end this want make things clear stated title im depressed least think am im disappointed whats become me mind good was attractive people certainly show ive started consider redflag more maybe theyll care im dead worry impressing anyone anymore id free,1 +keeping low trying start group actually people talk to ampxb h p disc rd gg y gceqw ampxb link also comments,0 +admitting wrong things painful right going phase pain makes want lie bed stare ceiling think get past it feel like one biggest hurdles getting better got admit wrong things long time,1 +want end soonim depressed since forever past months really feel like end line me im kind scared act redflag time im really drown it think time know long time end it feel motivation desire achieve anything life social job family seem able love someone theres nothing future excite hold back kill myself people around me even good friends feel disconnected everything right now redflag never seemed real me think soon enough pain gone cant get this feel trapped even want help even know posting this,1 +please againi feeling kind okay past days suddenly today hit sucks slowly start go back dark place nothing clear know matter time youre back warning im crying seeing people go life suffer makes cry even harder im sorry anyone feel like this im sorry dont deserve it hurts much im sorry someone else hurting like hurts like bitch shouldnt hard much pain hate hate hate many people feel like this dont want dark place anymore dont know want die dont know want live shouldnt hard make decision im exhausted swear im much pain cant help cry cry cry give headache,1 +unusual film although made twentiethcentury fox one pairings barbara stanwyck future husband robert taylor barbara stanwyck making films many different studios rko paramount selznick time made affair taylor mgm contract player appeared film loaned foxsomething studios occasionally erabr br the film interesting many reallife people roles film though piece otherwise pure fiction see actors playing william mckinley teddy roosevelt admiral dewey cant recall film mckinley dewey character though remember roosevelt wind lion couple films three cheers seeing lesser president film major character br br the film begins mckinley taking young lieutenant robert taylor aside asking special agent himand telling onenot even secret service thats president fears someone within agency tipping gang making long string robberiesall based inside information taylor who known manly rolesespecially stage career pose thug find gang responsible inside manbr br however two serious complications first able find gang members one gang members stepsister stanwyck taylor finds hes fallen love must also duty turn authorities second mckinley person knows truth serious problems develop mckinley assassinated taylor death row crimes br br the film nice job creating story placing within historical context today people remember mckinley remember assassinated film set interesting time period acting pretty decent stars supported victor mclaglen brian donlevy though must admit donlevys role pretty tame ordinary compared many film roles overall interesting well written sappy romance department good outing all,0 +uncle migrated us thinks coronavirus fake fuck done america,0 +ive lost everything thats brought life purpose happinessmy romantic relationship over hell happy someone else ill missing forever parents rejected me son abomination gay theyll never accept me words god feel abandoned him faith encourage bring strength lately feel like im losing it friends friends rather everything slipped away wonder life still worth living want end all maybe tonight tomorrow maybe ones home,1 +girl man would such slut would wear white shirt one size small black bra would shorts short would make self look fucking sexy would just fucking fuck everyone hell ya,0 +asked god youthful femboy new school remember asking looking iranian supports sharia two years older,0 +damn maybe use sometime occasionally homework done homework year yet ampxb online school point ampxb thats probably im barely passing swedish,0 +please read life may depend pm eastern time friday someone attempt redflag train fellow redditor needs know life worth living need people read pm time telling life worth living dont want people earlier make powerful hour posted reveal reddit name pm help save life knowing many people care change persons mind please help,0 +danireese witherspoon always close older sister maureenemily warfield start falling love neighbor courtjason london terrible tragedy strikes two sisters realize nothing keep apart love never fade awaybr br this truly heartbreaking story first love probably painful story young love ever seen acting amazing reese witherspoon gives great performance first movie would give man moon ,0 +aaaaah thing friend saying give da free award gives so thanking thing hope one see aaah need make text characters long uhmmm say,0 +oh god theres nothijg awkward hearing mom say shed bang zac effron,0 +need commit redflag save worldthe world better without me truly life ending would save lives many others want leave world knowing saved lives much coward though someone help end life really jump closest bridge right now im much puy,1 +vote cause support anyone let gay woman candidate who hilary ill vote,0 +first month living here lot really selfdestructive things ended hospitalising myself job working heavy hours keep busy drinking heavily using drugs selfharming unfortunately im also less repressing feelings im trouble mood swings particularly anger redflag recently daily migraines suggestions particularly suggestions someone works hours week much time relax anyway hate living here much choice foreseeable future,1 +hi everyone year old male nurse working three years now diagnosed major depression high school along redflag tourette syndromei battling suicidal thoughts ever since high school hospitalized inpatient psychiatric facility three times cannot remember inpatient actually helped though receiving electroconvulsive therapy ect little year two acute series done ect ruined memory seem helping longer treatment done monday already feeling severely depressed suicidal tuesday night know doi could commit again brothers white coat ceremony coming need pto able fly see it also want family worry love reason killed yet also even know worth it inpatient three times already suicidal thoughts still therei couple good things going life though great job extremely loving family almost always willing put call know helps depressed mood told everyone talk regularly my brother sister aunt uncle dad mom feeling talking helps improve mood however struggling feeling starting call often want bother themto make things worse therapist currently maternity leave substitute therapist same top depression redflag severe unable make friends friend since high school friends twin brothers friends get flustered around people barely talk know everything feels like much tired frustrated ready everything over feel like depressed adult life,1 +awards gay definitely way awards suck theyre absolutely garbage,0 +often think question perfect life world one quite same wish place simply bad thing would perfect life look like,1 +whys dog independent wanna pet smh wants alone im always scared hes gonna bite bc lashes sometimes hes shih tzu btw,0 +doim sure anymore im find life pointless meaningless feel like im burden everyone around me parents wasting money me feel depressed hopeless cry cant fall asleep hours tend think killing often im afraid impact parents think stuff tend eat less point barely eat anything days find life hard cant seem find motivation keep living im afraid talk people problem even hard time posting this dont know life anymore,1 +first job got first job im working tim horton im starting wednesday im really eager start working,0 +want live life parents strict hi im teen girl like friends cant drive but im much older pandemic older drive friends haha want live life want sneak out go parties maybe even smoke twice drink sex etc wanna live life way want teenager yes ik u reading probably wondering im thinking probably calling trashy etc promise im not want live life without regrets obviously none gonna happening anytime soon many reasons im also scared haha time come sneak rebellious every awhile it see parents insanely strict mean theyre strict things like dress little things like that theyre strict screentime friends bedtime limit junk food etc would never million years let go party parents would gone didnt know parents etc house alarm no cameras alarm gonna sneak whatever someone give actual life advice yk excuses tips etc ampxb thank u reading this ,0 +first one friends left college today thought id okay im emotional mess now im super happy friends accomplishments cant stop crying weve friends around decade people practically raised me im embarrassed emotional am want leave live lives think im trouble coping might delete later,0 +tik tok bad annoying person bus thought never gonna give tik tok lost faith humanity,0 +soo im kill myselfjust wanted say thanks guys please go way,1 +take step forward two steps back want anymore,1 +throwing awaymy husband going difficulty time now diagnosed severe recurring depression anxiety shortly lost job could afford meds worse started well recently asked divorce acting secretive discussed divorce years ago decided to found seeing another girl kept going several months secret alarming me go crazy go every account look phone records etc found phone call number recognize long periods time working call ask says chick met facebook driving crazy want gone want feel hurt anymore keeps telling love long time want me etc married him married better worse divorce option me death divorce,1 +want die know temporarybut goddamn temporaryive thinking happy days wedding day old days school lifelong best friends fun times friends together four us happy trips overseas sister happy days working cattle dad gone now im going wake tomorrow fourth week row two days i beg one them miss buddies college old job im even asking solution none except wait gets better sorry rough month,1 +refreshing lost gem featuring effective dialog combined excellent acting establish characters involve enough care happens them douglas widmark characters realistic heroes palance usual evil presence widmark win fisticuffs fight scene car chase less seconds logical end lengthy chase foot shames overdone chase sequences contemporary hollywood know likely end suspense interest sustained throughout end chase one realistic ever see film seems slow little past middle stay rewarding conclusion,0 +orange exist vid case also want mind fuck century httpsyoutubewxxwjprfyhttpsyoutubewxxwjprfy soo everyone elses monday,0 +english teacher took hour explain memes are english teacher took full hour explaining meme class making meme competition english teachers mute could explain already understand meme was gave us low quality picture loin said make meme abruptly left zoom,0 +getting worselife keeps going downhill hide drinks get yelled at ask drink get yelled at talk her get yelled at nothing going way favor getting old fast want things change people could go live shed never say yes took shed press charges list could pack bags leave im adopted wonder lot things would better never chose me would happier would worry much would parents actually responsible people probably,1 +forever alonei friends therefore significant other every attempt keep friend meaningless always fuck somehow thats got nothing valentines day single teddy bear card waking lovely text someone actually gives shit im alive practically forced look happiest people enjoying holiday school one cares day everyone loves other one cares day english teacher doesnt care im work people acknowledge existence far times day one talks me good one care leave,1 +im yall porn while skipped nnn cuz thought stupid time im cutting porn really know yall dont care holding accountable,0 +reddit sucks ass voting system makes impossible opinion memes shit theyre jokes results later life convo real life cant think anything haha neighbours kid weirdo even though nothing actual conversation redditors obnoxious people years karmawhoring trying considered edgy get downvoted make basic uninteresting person furthermore nobody able change original self left instead husk npc op circlejerk idk many times ive seen op say something stupid instead upvoting answer calls op out people downvote oblivion never seen casual scrollers by fake news easily spread reddit long something overlaps groups beliefs social networks suck ass everything made make dumber depressed easier companies feed you all easier abuse one sad stupid person deal happy smart one post then think anyone going say themselves think veteran karma whores husks going risk getting bad reddit points do post here itll probably never get seen one reason btw easier click arrow like something read long post post get seen people even bother read system rewards short simple things long exhaustive rants easiness upvotingdownvoting all easier quickly scroll silly relatable simple short jokes pay attention rant example would be ivan smart thoughtful person andrew redditor ivan saw post commenting long text andrew said silly trendy phrase got opportunity person you scrolls site sees andrews haha drill go brr likes upvotes matter seconds thousands others person goes read ivans text many many clicked arrow andrew understood fast spent time reading ivans text thus less people upvoted answer amount time took upvote andrews short simple phrases usually repetitive brain loves that rewarded long thoughtful rants thanks people read all,0 +tell mom would rather deadim pretty sure feel way motivation anything im faced kind task think much would rather alive right now thing stopping ending fear pain dying along whatever comes afterwards,1 +repairs thanks potholes put even behind payments brakes save money friend jacks tools really need help getting brakes im actually getting worried now starting get spongy,1 +want face struggles life anymore im scared call wuss give crapm progress report came mail today c history class project parents disappointed told turned in mustve mistake that course lie turn due extended spring break thought would extend week week went by nothing mentioned let go idk conscious decision not really matter point is could contact teacher ask could turn assignment due month ago want assignment want deal it want grade decent im willing put effort im lazy scared draft due final paper pages abstract least sources writing class due five days thesis statement final paper due week that want it like normal flow homework assignments want work harder right now like getting assignments done free time reddit youtube switch family im lazy scared responded friend almost month since whole thing started owe response im acting like jerk replying her im scared respond getting back long im lazy scared im tired people telling need move get up screw them think im willing to really think calling laziness apathy going make feel better know awful behavior is the one knows best cant change behavior gods green earth think going make feel better know going change become adult college probably going worse adulthood responsibilities im going try ignore ill eventually curl pathetic little ball apathy thats want end prematurely research appears suffocation nitrogen or gases easiest painless way go trouble is know easily that problem post another time ones probably going read this thats fine posts never get read anyway read far want thank listening know kind response im looking for want dissuaded unless flawless argument bring apathetic seminihilism doubt one exists also want encouraged want decapitated anyone got guillotine screw stay home orders cant spread disease dead,1 +lsts make dumb rap song psgmzjlxlfjpflxlhxl hlcpchpxoxohxhpxjlcjlxxoxidhehor hprupdkxlcg,0 +todays birthdayim uselessim suicidal yet think ive done anything world worth anything perfect childtag classes ap classesautomatic admittance state school admittance certain professional school first try people go couple application cycles now im dropping out yet nothing regret used every resource available me studied hard school weekends study yet failed two classes high school til now ive ever skipped classes one f fever accident im back home im going go take assessment tests bit local community college ive tried hard years good personon first glance seem normal friendly silent shy esl student social skills hard im scared going i want mom how pathetic that x years old wanted go health professions felt like useless way could useful knowfailure hits especially hardwhen used stress out caused incapacitating stomachaches whole body muscle tremors felt like deserved happy suffered inadequate many people worse mebut feel horrible todayand people remembered ,1 +im exhausted know longi even know say anymore sure want answer want vent always somewhat depressed whole life never super popular anyone even im still punching bag friends ive pretty good controlling emotions last two months hell recent problems past post history im going repeat it exgirlfriend transitioned guy month half ago everything ever cared went shit tried supportive could nothing ever seemed enough took week two start using new name pronouns ive heard pretty good adjust quickly matter ex blocked everything connected im starting believe entire relationship lie called many fucking things told piece shit way texts saved video evidence exact bullshit know end hes lying asshole want closure attempted redflag weeks ago ended surviving behavioral health center almost whole week ive gone therapy times week since admitted done anything im rereading whole post right barely even cohesive feel like psycho scribbling notebook point care im thinking making exit bag day two making sure recover time im tired point im even willing make life better,1 +whats ideal romantic date me give money,0 +hateful world meive known long time becomes clearer clearer every day tried really done much try overcome suffering cruelty world things get worse nothing worth anything anymore everyone knows it thats one cares now blame them all autumn coming favorite season want die beautiful autumnal woods favorite music playing ears drift sleep guess theyll find bones winter never matter want peace time go ive got weeks make preparations thats good thanks listening anyone there im looking talked anything bother sharing here swear people subreddit probably last kind understanding people left planet far see,1 +mom gave glass orange juice mean nice thanks love bits,0 +rarely even bother watch comedic movies television days theyre insipid vulgar and importantly funny one could seen refreshing blast past worth watching believe would dated significant way classic humor classic humor good writing good writing regardless era createdbr br i would love see film again came mind seen somewhat similar summer school television recently like slightly newer film meatballs funny without cruel overly sexual indulging bathroom humor key course adult character makes difference life teen character maybe even virtually lifesaving change grow space summer,0 +im set august thon th gone,1 +hey got question im watching fundys stream right chat mods constantly saying you real chat stuff like that why real problem people im genuinely curious wanna sound like douche ask someone irl,0 +autism perfectly valid reason kill youselfi autistic woman nobody really wants us around mean countries less years ago wed gassed look stats employmenthappiness autistic people shockingly low ive made fun of teased bullied molested one wants friend even though high functioning theres clearly something wrong me everyone says redflag bad really want end pain im constantly used,1 +m depressed becoming suicidal looking friend also miserable possibly suicidalsometimes people driven away cant understand longterm suffering like vantage point understand im offering unconditional friendship try good faith someone caring ear other desire make persons life better possible care funny witty whether like booksshows etc awkward period judging see click state im care much superficial stuff want commit redflag despite life pushing way want feel okay again im m depressed isolated escapism hope things getting better making good progress towards goals decided get surgery improve appearance resulted brain damage im still trying get answers it reduced ability think somewhat please make allowances also seems hit right hurts most messing reward system making physically impossible feel much enjoyment im still searching proper diagnosis possible treatments day day existence bleak future worrisome cant get help this think one things still get satisfaction helping others though,1 +hollowi feel hollow feel like everything happening around isnt real im really dark place rn feel like me feel like time coming end blame myself problem everything bad happening rn couldve done something different game life made every wrong move must think im least somewhat smart guess not everything know upside down people better picture im sorry im sorry everyone ive disappointed im sorry everyone disappoint dont know right dont know whats left do im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry,1 +scientist found new mental illness called sans ptsd formed ptsd fighting sans quite strange non gamer scientists average gamer normal,0 +every episode saw innocent child stupid funny looking puppets called the mitts would always discuss childhood things would play song the mitts part show goes like lets join mitts groucho marx puppet told jokes session man would sing hot fudge right on green puppet teeth called seymore would always see seymore would crack jokes sing every episode always moral every episode one episode man sang liars losers another episode singing sharing caring seymore said tell two little girls sharon karen hot fudge holey moley part man weird stuff played weird music,0 +anyone tryna play among us me heres code would like join sybmff,0 +least alleviate depressive thoughts mean best options least numbs thought process down might solve problems brings everything clear light feel much people nobody feeling much pain going to know solutions this anybody struggling got this keep pushing anyone tried smoking weed,1 +teens say prime time eating up kinds sf novels every day week sixties seventies tv important leisure time killer like today one night mid seventies watched movie tv think ard stunned impressed way almost remember scene even todaybr br nowadays observe kids playing sims something like think close fassbender movie expressed also would highly appreciate could buy movie dvd vain tried almost everything get hint where movie matrix cannot touch far quality state art movie way glue superior reality one couple simulation models probably death definitely know,0 +im sure even write this ill regret second post might well delete know ill repost it again again cant handle shit anymore tonight wish dead care how im fucking done middle another borderline breakdown cant anymore feel like deleting social media know people seem worried call whatever know even expect know expect posting anywhere fuck want bpd let die already cant even it wouldve almost attempted twice two years ago state im still alive many regrets everything awful even get back right dose meds ok nothing ok getting covered temporary mental stability cant ok could girlfriend would worried care cat hint sent redflag relating lyrics knows well enough everything wrong wake ill either want die much ill laugh horrible state thing going head twenty one pilots lyrics as always days oh god fucking boss texting me fuck want fuck think song anathema fucking depressing youll never know whats skull say goodnight say goodbye im goner thats episode over ill fucking laugh shit never ok wonder ill delete let stay,1 +woke today want die fun well lasted back sad tired woooo,0 +want boyfriend im horny id want stuff them cook watch netflix go walk cuddle play games im lonely now,0 +nglonline school sucks get wrong video mute basically garfield lasagna omfg sometimes feel like physical school better worry teachers remembering old assignments stuff right instead distractions home friends last year new school f love friend life online school alot technical difficulties thank coming rant tnar ym ot gnimoc rof ouy knaht,0 +told crush feel asked could kiss her asked didnt really time kiss dont know do hey told crush feel stuff said would think stuff told never said wasnt type even though thought wasnt type guy asked could kiss said yes didnt time bc school could get advice go here im kinda bad love,0 +worried dadso grandad died day us taking well one knew long time coming dad really really taking well it help matters mothermy grandma also couple months left cancer long story short keeps getting really drunk telling mum parents die theres point living anymore anyway mum dad exactly get they see mum worked carer elderly people many years looking grandparents dads side family pretty clueless stuff pretty dismissive all saying hes attention id agree dad massive exhibitionist say least style attention seeking all dad pretty volatile character though hes alcoholic long remember last couple months as grandparents got sicker hes gotten lot worse im worried one parents died going cause go completely handle exactly close as honestly dislike lot dad end all idea approach concernwhat do advice would appreciated lt,1 +im tired thisi cant stop thinking im gonna it last moments play out spend time trying figure best method what know likely fucking wont dont want continue thoughts im tired,1 +counts alcoholicnobody thinks need help apparentlyim years old female last year half maybe two years ive drinking heavily say heavily mean buy gallon liquor end night often times alone theres little less half bottle left drink get itchy shaky cant think worst ive drank fifth every night months tried stop thought heart attack delirium episode think speak shaking lessened still cant go one might without getting blackout drunk also struggled cocaine month long binges feel like im verge death force stop least month people tell im young alcoholic drug addict feel overtaken personality first foremost im drinker drug user secondly im whatever person used be need help know go went er couple weeks ago redflag attempt got help im end ropes honestly want end life im sorry im drunk im writing this,1 +got puppy today dont know breed hes cute could show would sadly cant post images here,0 +brothers redflag attemptso yesterday older brother attempted redflag overdose paracetamol luckily caught damage happened taken hospital put drip drinking taking drugs everyday months now obviously developed alcohol addiction drug addiction needs go rehab like doctor hospital recommended refused go suffering depression completely understand done question understand better im asking go here get help help him live scotland want go road prescription drugs would best do,1 +im gone tonighti tripping ug lsd money hope im getting kicked weeks im pretty sure im gonna hang tonight,1 +many people hate mei imagine funeral she lot problems guess brought herself thats it idea im still living literally want someone save me again idea why,1 +suicidal catfishi girl wasis girlfriend live supposedly fucked clings me morning went good morning baby good day love you dont take goodbye granted nothing wrong told working turned around shes offline nearly hours might come back done before many times actually supposedly shes hospital many times dont know holding on real know exhausting dont know do friends who might might real responding im grown man im worried scared,1 +worst year life im edgemy life chaos moment born every time think hit rock bottom things keep getting worse estranged birth mother killed birthday year overwhelming sense guilt never reconnecting whole adult life always thought never felt ready never thought shed gone family going apartment brutal hadnt seen since three always cold tried converse online otherwise never forgot me wish got side story besides that year worst life seems like storm storm keeps coming life live shame guilt feel actions adult woman ive reckless sexual habits resulting hpv previous partner evolved precancerous cells cervix leep procedure cells removed guarantee wont grow back exposed herpes virus havent symptoms know body lot drugs resulted deep shame regret also permanent anxiety due amount stimulants alcohol ive dumped body got dui hit run bachelorette party evening expensive pain ass cant even make eye contact old friends mine anymore feel ashamed past im bisexual completely deprived ever experiencing romantic relationship woman besides purely physical settling getting married part deep dread that ive always preferred men romantic situations im disappointed never gave wholehearted shot especially since tend lean toward damaged men love husband death still regret mine one place wish selfish ive abandoned screwed anyone thats ever important way another due abandonment issues childhood ocd heavily revolves around abandoned compulsions drive insane point sit fetal position tell much hate it arent even bad compulsions get sensitive myself besides mental issues months premature born intestines outside body due moms drug alcohol use pregnant many physical health complications come it im nauseas day every day likely due scar tissue stomach insane migraines id rather die endure minutes more hard live normal life mental physical stuff thats happening ive therapy counseling whatever never really helps much get office im happy cheery optimistic freak loves life sobs hysterically whole ride home whats wrong me talk friends dont like talking much especially detail get relate still makes uncomfortable talk about husband talk anything hes great person bounce shit feel guilty like burden ive fucked life enough is made many plans kill myself always imagine car accident gun im glad dont gun lost license dui ive called texted emergency hotlines nothing really makes feel better though try reach out try talk it nothing trick day dream long dark silence death alive mom abort like have wish had life cruel didnt pets husband id pack bag see long could survive woods tent backpack thanks letting vent could write whole fucking novel fucked stuff happened chose limit years struggles alone maybe write novel maybe someone make movie get rich building nerve kill myself,1 +find quite jarring draining someone trying push talk open suddenly going fix depression make happy understand sentiment good honestly cannot solve problems right push it anything talking problems reinforces cannot fuck it cannot solve problems,1 +im one girls need say something gamer means relate boys somewhat like things like cod among us like things boys like really wish could relate communities oh god guys mean body shamers misogynists homophobes transphobia dont understand guys mean reason,0 +me balloons scare you im fucking scared balloon much pops squeeze hard blow much pops right face remember got balloon kid weak held seconds popped right face hurt,0 +sure talk tohey so im kind circling drain failed everything job girlfriend left me family disappointed told family wanted marry leaves again blame her know im trying say here late guess wanted tell somebody turn in please turn in wanted tell somebody goodnight,1 +advanced redflag watchi knew constant thought would eventually become more guess im now,1 +resent wife keeping alivei want die sure thats going happen since im much coward myself crossing finger someone shoots thats different story reason ive never tried anything know id guilty would wife prompt feelings love within me pisses off like id done bullshit you know want anyone here know else say it,1 +maybe im slowly pushing everyone away die alone like want nobody care everyone thankful im gone maybe thats it,1 +got ligmawant die,1 +puberty hit like falling leaf seriously im look nine,0 +definetly put end thissadly still alivei planning end pathetic charade new years eve ami made promise th january im definetly it im even know depression creeped mei think around soit painful yearshaving put fake smile every single day actually rotting insidei quite lot friends still feel alone best friends known like years started making fun random things probably gone affect one week maxthe thing kept alive stupid years working feel miserable even working help parents miss ask born world makes feel ok hurting themnew years eve shiteven though bunch friends felt alone always saw girl love hooking random dude making even sadder go outside stay bench hours listening sad fucking songcrying alone thinking why end beforeat point nothing brings smile facethis end sorry writing disarrayed manner feeling really ok rnif u want talk final dayi still thinking good way thisthinking going trip mountains cutting hanging forestwhat think,1 +gang bandits lead shrewd rugged ruthless monetero a perfectly imposing performance gilbert roland steals worth gold coins daring train robbery untrustworthy member bahunda an amusing turn jose torres makes coins hides them unfortunately bahunda gets killed tell monetero stashed booty monetero join forces cunning cocky enigmatic bounty hunter stranger smoothly played handsome george hilton cagey corrupt banker clayton a delightfully weaselly portrayal s teen idol eddie kookie burns find coins skillfully directed enzo g castellari clever complex twistladen script castellari tito carpi giovanni simonelli playfully amoral nihilistic tone everyone keeps double triple crossing happily greedy abandon twangy flavorsome spirited score alessandro alessandroni francesco de masi plenty stirring shootouts rousing roughntumble fisticuffs wickedly sly sense selfmocking humor steady pace real doozy surprise ending giddy often hilarious feature makes inspired sendup sergio leones the good bad ugly popping nifty secondary parts luscious stefanie careddu moneteros fiery gal pal marisol ivano staccioli hardnosed army captain gerard herter flinty lawman lawrence blackman immensely amusing enjoyable romp,0 +reddit home page die anyone else shit dont work smh cmon reddit hard,0 +cannot believe enjoyed much did anthology stories better par linking story surprise ending hooked me alot familiar faces keep asking where seen before forget running time listed new lines tape aint minutes according vcr timer imdb space maggot douses campfire special way hikes ,0 +got graphic drawing tablet try draw first one got suggestions end drawing looks good ill pm u send u it probably look like shit im still learning still,0 +gun loadedgun bought street june first want go mind trip see without full control mind took hallucinogenic cocktail ill leave gun bed stand,1 +look wasted year app supposed meme,0 +scaredi grew child prodigy always getting perfect grades singing locally preprofessionally every parents dream im older stakes higher cant cope pressure im crumbling want make parents happy cant even give im shitty person core days like today barely eat everything feels terrible even foods give sliver happiness taste like mush sometimes bang head wall hoping switch click ill person want be ive always people pleaser ive always done wanted do im want anymore even know me is im good anything used good at special traits made me gone im failure mom dad always say theyll support matter what know theyve given pushing theyre scared ill break ive gained severe anxiety almost depression amount pressure parents placed me never like wanted will knew good did wanted something could proud of wanted compliments humblebrags facebook newest achievements love much want happy theyve always loved me ive taken granted dynasty child prodigy over know anymore terrifying push stay alive everyday comitted redflag could never forgive parents could never cause emotional pain im strong enough keep afloat mean im sinking though every day battle within sleep day pretend everything fine fine want fine feel stuck hope fading wanna happy without worrying eventual tsunami sadness comes it im scared myself do,1 +probably whimsical installment first season shore leave ups downs parts drag long others unambitiously cut short one cant deny threw everything proverbial kitchen sink make entertaining episode kirk crew seem found perfect planet shore leave extended tour duty left everyone board need rest relaxation on appears intents purposes uninhabited earth beautiful scenery ideal climate first indication things might go little awry mccoy leading advance team spots alice from wonderland following large white rabbit wearing vest kirk beams finds others reporting similarly bizarre happenings encounters one thing common crew member thinking personplacething discovered right discovered it immediately sink kirk anyone else strangeness ensues including sightings juan siberian tiger ww fighter plane etc kirk meets ruth gorgeous old girlfriend of course bully academy days finnegan chasefight scene finnegan goes long time mccoy run lance knight horseback apparently killed finally elderly man appears explains happening planet futuristic amusement park visitors imagine something appear nothing permanent mccoy really dead explained kirk decides order shore leave everyone all despite it dream sort ending shore leave holds another firstrate episode star treks first season,0 +cant get feeling new friends boyfriend eventually hate me met new people today boyfriend introduced cant get feeling hate point feel boyfriend toit recently happened old friends considered best friends to met boyfriend long ago feel like gets know real stop liking meis normal advice,0 +overdose painfuli want know least painful way,1 +beautiful film coming early silent cinema china shadow magic deftly combines love story drama cultural clash chinas ancient traditions modern western culture form film amazing first film chinese director ann hu correctly understood ms hus comments sundance festival film produced american film cofunding chinese government shot china shadow magic reminds films like il postino cinema paradiso necessarily theme plot similar feel,0 +anyone please talk me nobody around wants talki cant make decisions life always try something fix problems life always fail parents dont help dont friends talk suicidal thoughts driving crazy like whenever facing problem solution comes mind kill like forced that used talk people everyone around always discouraging me people around ignore time,1 +need help take showers every day get never feel smell clean take shower,0 +many people rude mean internet social medias see people bullying harassing interests even username ampxb cant people understand real life person behind posts sad im honest,0 +sound dads voice giving mental breakdown said op bedtime im breakdown fuck,0 +enoughso think grams seroquel zofran good measure even sure im thinking now,1 +oh would look thats kahoot please join might well ampgtgtgtampgtgtgtgtgtgtltu ructifjdy,0 +believe losing control mental health excruciatingly painful crying almost every day trying get survive hoping death come pick up tired eyes filled sadness care people fancy anymore hate liked even like myself going waste time convincing everything fine going happen sweetie thing anonymous internet one know fucked head yes fucked head fucked head,1 +hi like chatting anime gaming whatever want people able talk it maybe place right place d note server would like join pm i unable send links look topgg or comments doesnt work time well called bog nice small server d,0 +awkward shy quiet ive got best advice you always known nice shy kid self conscious afraid people thought said me close friends knew real me one day decided change whole mindset stop worrying people going say think you ones impressing you cause already baddie room blessing itself even though time didnt think this would keep repeating baddie baddie baddie became second nature always remember humble kind one likes pickmeboygirl confident kind person best type person treat people would like treated,0 +quit seeking help even ranting stateim writing little mental strength could find got tired this quit seeking solution situation quit ranting due tired cant leave mom would sad heh tried discussing ramitheasshole tired literally road freely fucking kms now quality post get comments assure you guess im going another raiding spree calling people cunts nig across various subreddits fun i dont blame anyone loss moreless fault,1 +firstly would like point people criticised film made glaring errors anything rating clearly utter nonsensebr br creep absolutely fantastic film amazing film effects actors highly believable narrative thought provoking horror graphical content extremely disturbing br br there much mystique film many questions arise audience revealed strange freakish creature makes habitat dark rat ridden tunnels craig created happened himbr br a fantastic film large chill factor film many unanswered questions film needs appreciated along others like days later bunker dog soldiers deathwatchbr br look forward fantastic films,0 +insomnia lack appetitei posted wife left took newborn earlier week affecting lot keep pretending im okay everyone know person cant sleep cant eat,1 +thoughts white guilt imo weird like please stop deepthroating huge colored cocks isnt helping anything,0 +im evil love itim planning taking mg pills xl wellbutrin crushed water probably coming tuesday case report od diphenhydramine system think bad idea spent last thursday finding right sleeping pills canada thanks justin crushed btw idea work im going bag head elastic case justin case leave behind horrid shit dad religious mum get rekt most brother worst four year old sister remember think hopefully her grandma devastated and lost care that part wants able witness reactions everyone instant attention pathetic attention whore am thought ex realizing cant trust shit antidepressants three years dumbass self wanting proof love thrills me egomaniac snickers whilst staring try talk class fumble words idk hed probably make tribute facebook post much supported miss me and everyone else laughed jokes talked shit behind back receive depression stare eyes look yearbook see weird tryhard responded redflag jokes smiling wow too name called grad ceremony cutie teased around called surname close mine oh thats satisfying therapist postponed monday appointment tba date failure honestly let wrath free along six im already dead,1 +feels like worst couple months lifebut nothing bad happened me fact things looking ever im succeeding ever have still feel like designed fail love routine dread waking mine much work with ill never able bring put use know im alone wish was anything dont get life gets better miserable get cant tell whether think deserve less make sense dont want bright future dont want future all,1 +cannot rely family cannot rely friends alone this cannot anymore thing remotely helps cope alcohol always calm loving person recently family friends made mad want scream beat someone pulp feeling scares always loving anger frustration feel eating inside out try deal drinking better hurt liver people everyone unreliable,1 +like tiktok bad around months ago gotten girl loved much one month ago broke didnt tell reason started bitch tiktok said lot fucked things none witch true decided make tiktok hated tiktok got taken bullying harassment fuck wrong reported tiktok honestly end im upset tiktok breaking,0 +dont believe gets better dont read youre feeling fragileive read lot years ethics happiness philosophy religion self help much stomach psychology every psychology book lecture try makes stomach turn knots dont believe treatments dont believe consciously lying just think positive taking drugs every day help think clearly feels like cult stuff makes skin crawl ive therapy years different therapists feel worse started said wasnt qualified deal specific issues took maternity leave chose stop seeing said since mood low however many weeks row wouldve suggested switch anyway next week see one way out feel hopelessly insane ugly like ill never anything another horrible person world miserably toiling away paycheck paycheck dead end job ignoring horrible life seems worse struggling change till kill myself feel meds keep step two redflag decades till get alzheimers something you skip next paragraph want heres rant free will therapists seemed try convince gods existence god thing anxious admit justice afterlife convince of also tried convince free id believe existentialism seems obvious doesnt exist free want cant chose want want something free mention fact mental illness intellectual disabilities dreams drug use attest fact biochemical puppets think different person alzhiemers high lsd acts way react something exactly body upbringingenvironment would act free existed psychology psychiatry neuroscience exist many conversations like therapist eventually said recently saw new study saying free doesnt exist im smart good changed way talk free class i doubt changed full grown college professors mind free basic arguments hes likely heard before also saw new study saying people continue tell theyll unhappy be struck suspicious found two new studies week suddenly admits free doesnt exist also seemed concede god doesnt exist either he might believe god either way dont believe shifted opinion many years mustve spent studying profession based idea factors beyond control shape behavior reason brought shows lying truth horrible hes also said lots little lies ive called usually seemed make nervous feel fundamentally broken important ways like things hurt literally course life lot ways fantasize bad things happening longing time dread often see graphic visions grizzly death close eyes trying sleep seems ridiculous suggest someone misery closely entwined psyche happy getting help feels like carrot treadmill just keep trying youll happy one day dont believe biological children todays world dont believe im cut relationships relationships domination elements makes feel horrible break off ive decided die alone im looking answers half life spent obsessively trying find way happy denial reality,1 +anyone wanna add minecraft play class username phoneticcake add want ill able play class,0 +feel like giving making space another humanim dizzy purpose job im sick living mother inlaw right im lazy person im fucking waste time,1 +ive started unearthing old albums ive gone back practising drums regularly ive watching movies reading books weirdly enough feel touch world now continue along road abstinence dont see reason jump wagon stage,1 +feel fucking betrayed parents orthodontist ive rubber bands braces while turns helped need headgear instead problem since headgear night turns ortho assumes never wore bands met parents decided headgear removable left assumption itll removable installed informed cant taken off im stuck metal contraption attached face wear everywhere years constant reminder parents ortho trust me cant believe even talk it,0 +fluoxetineother medicine odis possible overdose fluoxetine medicine got mg fluoxetine mg quetiapine mg amitriptylin ml mg amitriptylin im sick feeling anger freaking pressure inside want make sure enough kill myself,1 +life issues want pqint room gray turn pc rgb sit alone plants im mess hate got reason want sit cry dont want tell anybody everyone would say great dont,0 +yall recommend midwestern emo music like sum male manipulator shit c,0 +tinnitushey everyone ive tinnitus two half years now condition continually getting worse time like every month new sound drilling brain im unable pursue dream bartending music making bodies reaction loud sound like every moment brain constant torture gotten bed days theres literally rotting garbage bedroom top off people would normally see support cannot lock due covid whats hard even lost everything life job friends home even hearing could always pick things start over pain ears never go away change circumstance working hard make body go back healthy again anyways thanks reading ,1 +reason keep getting urge like kinda push jaw pop back place hurts badly cant stop,0 +want pain stopthe last month life hell dont know else make pain go away im alone think might me,1 +cannot handle hurry wait life supposed exercise eat eat right sleep sleep well keep clean take medicine get job keep dates appointments etcdoing one things exhausts days angry feel stuck doctorsfamilyfriends give advice try help need heard right tired fighting hard stay alive world miserableim going leave know many health issues make depression much worse transitional stage life clue sometimes feelings intense people cannot hear trying sayeven things happiness take time money energy supposed need relief anything ever given relief everything getting much worse medicines mess much taking makes even worse like right now never posted needed get looking place therapy feel like screaming underwater supposed,1 +padre told room spotless tomorrow week tell clean room sprung day im pmsing cramping bad barely stand up literally told like hours im supposed go moms house plus sleep point told like minutes ago clean am hes going go room throw shit out game him,0 +user threatening redflagi know help beyond ive already said planning take life tomorrow im sure next step helping them know location cant call local health services ampxb httpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsaozthis_time_its_going_to_workhttpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsaozthis_time_its_going_to_work,1 +thinks time see point anymore working shitty job gf split year ago sick way succeed anymore nothing name reason keep going moved already entire reason see succeeding point infertile ex wanted kids could give made feel less man hopefully new boyfriend give that keep going reason to want work shitty job pay live even want to even want anyone know feel alone entrapped like world closing know do want take gun head leave all want relapse drugs temporary numbness want permanently numb everyone always asks okay always try make seem like okay okay soon ill free cruel world emotions bad mentality really took over forget check people never know going it think time,1 +please donei just much found husband told brother wants divorce me hes hiding money lying least emotional affair coworker autistic daughter acting out year old daughter going puberty im major depressive episode ulcers im pain time one person want love want please seems completely unfulfilled me want fall asleep never wake up gun cant that always pussed cutting myself never get free fucking moment alone car work want traumatize kids mess basically thing holding back point want ruin christmas cant figure way thats going make home scene death just cant anymore im supposed start new pdoc soon even know it hate me know deep everyone around must hate too nothing worth saving,1 +think im going try get together tomorrowive suicidal years go cycles intense crippling depression life goes shit one aspect time im left reeling job house joys relationships closest become incredible messes ive better recognizing im spiralling ive absolute tailspin weeks everyday become darker thought last serious look flaws ways kill them tomorrow want laundry clean car try think killing myself hard think even manage even matter know depression exaggerates problems way become thousand tonne behemoth little voice head whispers sure dont want tomorrow go well tried it right now tonight really want shoot head done it,1 +want freei want depressed drain everyone around anymore,1 +takashi miike one favorite directors worried kids film would hate see depart films came love visitor q gozu izo ichi killer black socioty trilogy lately seems exploring new territory think hes succeeding still first films id seen take direction nervous coarse bought without seeing glad didbr br great yokai war perfect kids film adults like too whole film reminded much movies loved child neverending story labyrinth return oz etc enjoyed films treat kids like theyre stupid one either dark underlying morals there but also silly kids film be personally bothered cgi prosthetics feel like fit well think kids noticebr br if die hard takashi miike fan may like one but suggest giving shot proves miike diverse talented suspected is also continues make signature miike films outside ones reassuringbr br to people new takashi miike want something light hearted dramatic like one suggest miike films zebraman the happiness katakuris sabu the bird people china br br good job takashi miike stars,0 +kill now thanks lot abandoned me going kill right now telling abandoned going kill them seriously want kill one person quit talking me everyone end really liking me always second option want die everyone abandons,1 +please helpi graduated college beginning may day mom told diagnosed breast cancer ive move home enough move out along personal issues boyfriend broke me history depression anxiety making difficult cope literally idea make through top off im allowed express feelings mom says want hear it also friends mom moved hometown college tldr finished school crippling student debt job yet mom cancer friends hometown boyfriend broke me,1 +bruh know tldr basically best friend fucked guy helped everything closest ive ever gotten another human no homo ofc homie get hardcore canceled almost nothing please read though youre gonna give advice desperately need rn days ago friend asked hook highfunctioning syndrome girl course told even high functioning thats kinda fucked up provide background girl liked trying hook pretty much since met th grade were th now yesterday told night dms got little spicy nothing illegal nudes sexting moderately intense flirting girl initiated everything way friend also told regretted already reason really tired lonely bored am gets message her mom talking gonna tell parents teachers principal get authorities involved friend responded naturally begging life never contact daughter again work friends parents know mom probably got number school crazy religious woman trying make friend registered sex offender bring court even though neither anything illegal fact anything girl fault since one initiated this fact downsyndrome hold court either high functioning is apparently really bad math suggested meeting sex one time place time age consent both thats probably worst thing texted eachother last text got friend typing this parents outside work text time being getting grounded big deal girls mom getting school possibly law enforcement involved friend considered killing steered away gets worse think convince even contact try like said anything illegal initiated anything reciprocate whatever girl said fact man accused sexual harassment special needs matter high functioning look good him id love advice could help least insight might play out sorry read bad english first language suck sentence organization,0 +wish born girl dunno guess time day,0 +many people life love amp care still feel like nobody caresi know one hand many people life care love would sad died hand feel like im tired keep pretending like nothing wrong think dying every day tell anyone want go hospital im really frightened doctors therapists cant even call hotline scared talk phone feel trapped inside hate much wish life switch go trouble pain killing yourself could die effortlessly easily,1 +whats opinion enbys enby means non binary person case dont know want know peoples opinions,0 +grandfathers father yo get vaccine tomorrow im exciting o_,0 +mom trying make go school im still quarantine live school resumes christmas break tuesday get quarantine wednesday mom insisting got tomorrow told play rules wait one day shes it,0 +watched sky tv late one night vampire fan must admit half expected bmovie disaster pleasantly wrongbr br subspecies family vampires vampire lord dies two sons handsome noble stefan brother evil hideous radu start war birth right bloodstone bloodstone holy grail sorts vampires bleeds blood saints give vampire drinks ultimate highbr br the fight bloodstone takes unexpected turn college students turn brothers territory school trip stefan protect brothers lustsbr br like said went film expecting much one best low budget movies ever seen sets locations romania think since ive seen it nice music score film justicebr br most acting adequate anders hove evil radu steals movie and subsequent sequels hoves performance twisted vamp truly breathtaking bumps film simply okay pretty dmn good,0 +struggling suicidal thoughts days worse likely common theme people similar situation always reluctant even vent little anyone real life online feel problems thoughts less importance think others going much worse me mostly keep quiet feel whether negative positivehowever today guess finally decided vent little even get responses reactions maybe make feel better regardless go everything makes feel anxious depressed hopeless etc ill keep brief sake anyone reading mention one lost mother years ago everything me whatever good trait if any died home last moments think anything painful face facteven though supposed venting want whoever sees know sorry know are sorry cannot help whatever going through sorry going physical mental pain hope get gain strength keep living able happy feel loved ill first say love youthank reading hello,1 +dream beaten death temmie undertale yelled pay taxes hows yalls dreams,0 +mgi access mg dilatrend seriously considering ingesting much possibly can hope slow heart eventually stopsseizes think would enough,1 +slept finals day slept today cant make zero final yay,0 +passport pimlico real treat fans british cinema enjoyable thoroughly entertaining comedy cinematic flashback bygone age attitudes scenarios sadly memory british lifebr br stanley holloway plays pimlico resident arthur pemberton accidental detonation unexploded bomb discovers wealth medieval treasure belonging th century duke burgundy buried deep underneath little suburban street last yearsbr br accompanying treasure ancient legal decree signed king edward iv england which never officially rescinded state particular london street declared burgandian soil means eyes international law pemberton local residents longer british subjects natives burgundy tiny street independent country right law unto itselfbr br this sets warbattered impoverished residents good stead believe outside english law jurisdiction act drunken defiance burn ration books destroy ignore clothing coupons flagrantly disregard british licencing laws etc declaring fully independent britainbr br however happens ever spiv black marketeer dishonest crook follows suit crosses border burgundy refuge law postwar restrictions sell dodgy goods half londons consumers follow order dodge ration making quiet happy little haven den thieves rather crowded one thatbr br appealing whitehall assistance told due developments now matter foreign policy majestys government reluctant become involved leaves residents high dry however declare area legal frontier set fully equipped customs office end road mainly monitor smuggling ensure safety residents pimlicobr br eventually border closed altogether starting major siege bugundian residents slowly running water food never less fighting true british style one bugundian resident quotes were english always english english fighting hard bugundians br br a sentiment soon echoed throughout capital rest london learn poor bugundians plight feel compelled chip help them throwing food supplies barbed wire blockadesbr br will whitehall fought may invaders throughout centuries finally brought knees new batch foreigners especially ones english br br great tale great fun throughout missed,0 +wuts template called drawn shows someone beat two people hiding behind wall really good meme idea cant find template please help,0 +im gonna shit shit,0 +please convince kill myselfplease inner bitterness anger have pretend youre talking person get chest way help help me thank ,1 +last adventuretime time begins cycle ideation mystery whats mind come redflag ive made way fun desire twisted toward undone dagger plunged heart thrilling ride soul released body phoenix soaring sky id fly new universe new life quantum immorality would side thing curbs great appeal something chose long time ago ideal siren song death allowed enticing experience allowed exciting thrilling adventure allowed last one ill see life full adventure death one live fullest take plunge love much grow overcome strife death must fucking earn breath taking alive death offers thrill seek mean another victim must redflag desire lasts moment save life using ideal ive chosen,1 +let say love adam sandler watching reign paying close attention actingbr br when raises voice cant help think happy gilmore yelling golf ball snap back adam sandler sucks inbr br reign great film film comes slow first expecting emotion every scenebr br don cheadle always great job exception truly great lines worthy oscar movie doesbr br adam sandler amazing many ways dramaticbest acted film career recall laughing loud many parts filmbr br the supporting cast great also saffron burroughs jada pinkett smithbr br i would highly recommend movie got tremendous acting beautiful shots nyc great comedy great drama new found respect adam sandler ever doubted reassurance great cheadle,0 +amazing people get mcr references makes sense since band broke people kids whatever,0 +know kinds girls like extra always looking opportunity insult makes annoyed like bitch ur stacey brought hella money nobody asked ur opinion,0 +help lol someone dm rant ive got whole lot like stored head idfk talk irl,0 +cannot believe words even escaping fingers right now yeah ethical emotional vasectomy needs thing well are,1 +thought got better thought would finally get right path made another mistake back was care anymore easy way out back used,1 +mom found account would kill isnt even anything bad hates melt,0 +anybody want join discord server heres invite code cmfqgs dm discord black_flames work reason,0 +always felt like would end going redflag think time almost herethe past years life nonstop nightmare nothing punching bag world around me think squeezed extra years numbing drugs dont want keep though become exhausting today figured someone used know pressed charges offhand comment angry nearly year ago know whats gonna happen going stain life ruin part me like everything else does find almost perpetually envy others nothing ever seems come moderation im cripple depressed personality disorder covered scars accidents surgeriesi cant take anymore makes worse go part world watching everyone go along ease listening people talk struggles makes jealous im trying invalidate peoples struggles know people much difficult time am also know however great majority people age dont struggles bad things come justgo like them tackle gonei would give anything that problems arise life seem always take part never get back broken world beaten completely never stood chance always sort expected would go redflag certain it truly finally end rope simply cannot keep up every waking second spent slowly coming terms nothingness waiting me im beginning want embrace it dont feel scared anymore long much tired,1 +far away place stood wondering whether be right journey led me place sought long time then feel accomplished sacrifices made worth presence here choose wrong way herethis place wonderful truly is feels wrong thinking going back feels even worse belong belong anymore goal finish line fool planning beyond that really does even sure going therecan continue without certainty get better allowed feel sad paradise offence stayed behind cheering me betraying past self fulfilling expectations head mess right now day passes know losing self doubt grief darknessi tired tired beating myself want ask help i happy not short text wrote month ago where now,1 +girlfriend f attempted redflag last night m really know anymoreso girlfriend years tried kill last night called couple hours tell loved sounded somewhat off nothing really ordinary know going depression anxiety issues long time relationship helped lot dark times good healthy relationship overall ive always supportive caring her morning got message telling attempted redflag failed feel completely broken even though wanna accept it mad even though im full support mode right now know do know suicidal thoughts ive always her ive never deal situation before english first language apologise beforehand id appreciate advice situation thanks advance tldr girlfirends redflag attempt failed im broken idk do help ,1 +masks really uncomfortable mean id still wear matter what risk yeah least me kinda uncomfortable,0 +wish committed redflag moment wish easier dont want liveanother monumental fight house time brother mother hit much moment much pain sadness rage act seemed like nothing hours dad wouldnt leave alone dont feeling much dont want live either wish committing redflag easier,1 +think sister gay saw couple posts social media tagged friend girl posts usually memes relationships stuff captions like this like sister when back high school also girl gay super friendly her cousins friend knew girl also told something two back then hope im overreacting im getting suspicious turns true support sister want happy im sure family react this theyre pretty traditional sister prettiest among us siblings plus talented always gets teased chased boys time,0 +running awaydisappearing instead ending lifeive thought ending life consistently months now theres day goes dont think it ive diagnosed depression given medication due certain health conditions ive forced stop them opioids list refuse take since family history addiction id rather go rout since im fearful physically pain which havent committed redflag wondering disappeared instead basically person gone missing ive made scenarios mind would would go thought im assume police would still forced look ifwhen parents friends reported missing attempted this mind close fresh start would get,1 +thank rteenagers inspiring change outdated reddit bio guys kinda suck,0 +president big joke like talking important people countries takes mask them talks whole time without it sad donkey represents country,0 + weeksits six weeks since died cant anymore fucking miss him want end life badly make pain stop im done,1 +kids teenagers springwood ohio dead expect one teenager shon greenblatt still alive freddy robert englund letting go teenager much memory hes arriving new town tough female psychologist lisa zane tries break though new patient finds out hes from brings along springwood spark memories three teens lezlie deane breckin meyer ricky dean logan unexpected came ride arrived springwood psychologist memory lived town child freddy knows true secret true identitybr br directed rachel talalay ghost machine tank girl made grim somewhat oddly different sequel visual style funny moments horrorfantasythriller yaphet kotto alien supporting role psychologist expert dreams ingenious visual effects not everyone love climax especially d good style storytelling one gross films series box officebr br dvd strong anamorphic widescreen transfer also pan scan strongdolby digital surround sound dvd original theatrical trailer jump nightmare opinion cast crew information elm street series box set eighth disc interviews cast crew sixth film sixth film also d film climax could watch d also last elm street films wes craven resurrected freddy different darker style new nightmare silly surprisingly enjoyable spinoff horror film freddy vs jason watch robert shaye coowner coceo new line cinema roseanne barr tom arnold johnny depp alice cooper amusing cameos written michael de luca john carpenters mouth madness story director ,0 +story incompletesimilar story here op case dad spent childhood promising help pursue science career moved him along many exorbitant promises coaxed signing life savings guise teaching money management skills afterwards personality instantly changed like replaced body snatcher started holding money hostage control me forced flat earth fundamentalist church started incessantly discouraging scientific interests forbidden even seen girl since might lead others think sexually active threatened cut ever associated members many demographics functionally unable friends would scream belittle humiliate hours every day church strict give hobbies sinful tried damage relationships family members would constantly follow around would incessantly act attention much struggled even attempt schoolwork even remaining hobbies quickly psychologically broken started failing classes despite growing honors student years later took second major hoping raise gpa barely squeak grad school dad took somehow mean on verge graduating two phds completely flipped incessantly discouraging exerting pressure graduate two phds immediately explained getting two phds accept it despite protests spread word far wide two phds gained reputation kind miracle prodigy could never actually live to point dad final stages terminal heart problems relentless pressure started going along even years lies abuse want disappoint death bed years went things continued get worse me overwhelmed preemptive grief dads impending death every day went traumatic religious deconversion lost soulsustaining nonfundamentalist faith god started experiencing severe diabetes symptoms struggling increased course load failing recover grades dad continued sink deeper deeper obsession completely imaginary phds one day dad started taking visit old man crazy cult bedridden terminal heart problems years went dad old guy alive meant dad final stages terminal illness something like years realized outrageously exaggerating health problems spent last several going along delusional nonsense fuck it im tired hurts much hurts much,1 +unsure movie renting assurance hilary swank always given excellent performances movies seems rely restraint gain emotional impact does prove wrong moviebr br however movie also fantastic performances members cast speaking nonspeaking single jamie bartlett chiwetel ejiofor two main protagonists outstanding acting abilities portrayal true human feelings failings whole movie ran almost like documentarybr br i must applaud tom hooper director avril beukes editor keeping multiple layered story revealed smoothly whilst keeping dialogue action moving along understandable fashion opening sequence south african landscape striking push pause button savour photographybr br why cant movie like ever get nominated international award seems hit highrating button counts film true experience life country coming apartheid life poverty around celebrated dignity human spirit,0 +miss watching live pd cable wish brought back reason stopped broadcasting outbreak antipolice riots across usa assumed temporarily suspended safety cameramen riots wanted police officers go them ive researched figured cancelled year is according them a critical time nations history makes think corona virus antipolice riots im thinking two things get better soon eventually favorite television show return back,0 +brought existencethis shit doesnt make sense,1 +someone please help efficient painless way end life one people meant live normal happy life bring joy peoples lives simply waste resources space id family favor advice would appreciated help leaving,1 +cant sleepi get depressed day really hits night im alone everyone asleep get thoughts redflag feel lonely lately ideas help,1 +favorite video game dialogue mine rain every agony every violation upon you parade cold body every corner every realm feed soul vilest filth hel promise,0 +cant take anymoreive struggling depression almost years now theres days hurt much cant happy cant get hole want pain end im tired waking everyday thinking killing myself really bravery weakness keeping alive woke morning crying cant stop hurts much alive cant understand feel like know smile anymore like little little part teared know get back im broken many pieces think build ever again,1 +real suppleroot hours up day far,0 +worse anyone morningright wake hardest thought going another day pain evening night comes around feel better try live evenings want days good too,1 +people born gonna turn year wtf,0 +gonna commit redflag homeworki like homework however country mandatory options,1 +hello yes post hey guys im g dio jotaro josuke joseph giorno jonathan danny ok little danny,0 +ones fault wanted artisthello redflag watch years old still living home moved previously lasted couple years afford it feel like life chosen blessing curse days plagued depression enjoy playing music painting working house painter past five years faced reality able follow dreams would like ive trying little money picking jobs scarily produce enough art work sell also learn lot covers play make money know im shooting foot genuinely want make something call own younger felt potentialwork ethic someone never hit stride feel like becoming loser despite efforts many friends really know make friends school long im practically unemployed every time think applying one im held back thoughts little social skills also adds sense shame never create without thinking real job adds guilt consider workingartmusic physical means paycheck really bad episode months ago make get bed currently write someone drifting grow older realize world view getting limited cant seem leave childlike perspective,1 +almost drowned myselfbroke leg cried bit im done right now everything fucking sucks wrapped leg went outside jumped pool phone pocket lay bottom while eventually decided get man wished stayed there,1 +helpingtoday decided talk mother depression talked convinced nothing serious feel get wants snap it could even told buying new things taking get body laser making pretty would fix it would fix feeling desperately told things would work second make feel better feel even worse drink handful sleeping pills every day wake late way dont deal awake long sleeping everytime numb wish could end brave enough myself,1 +feel like dont existnot like im invisible world like im real cant feel anything pain sadness anger void,1 +comfortable deathidk im one feels ive realized im afraid death rather would happen around die weird cause hunch young age wouldnt make past grew older statement got true guess maybe im ok making past cause point nobody really talks sleep forever peace mean wish goals ambitions atm im robot living day day,1 +want christmas gun end suffering withim failure adult dependent abusive mother least end year move ever go back help would love see fail ive never much social life friends online somehow manage disappoint everytime one friend recently brain tumor removed worried him came back today made best effort focus making happy didnt act depressed didnt show depression didnt make anything me even played game usually hate refuse to along friends simply pointed group people trolls likely attack us lagging behind group didnt know really trying ended making pissed me tried lie think medication whatever didnt rest them me even made point tell reason rarely play game simply dislike it despite fact made complaint today actually tried thats one example many feel like failure matter hard try people around hate me mother father left favors new children more people used think friends using laugh older cousin raping numerous times pile shit it hate much want die almost daily minor panic attacks thinking failure nothing way changing it cant therapy get medications cant go make new friends small town kids hated public school better them good kid teachers liked point bullying got bad taken school cut myself usually deep notice it chest faint scars look close enough ive always fond letting aggressive cats ive sometimes come contact damage me mean cat scratches lie works best cat scratches girlfriend tried hard for seems despise too dont know why opinion pretty negative told me shes basically insisted child knows nothing real world etc etc despite fact shes made major mistakes lied them shes never found someone accepting gender fluidity me despite fact sometimes stressful sexually wants things bring back bad memories id willing make happy live everyone know hates me cant stand me thinks im joke girlfriend talked badly behind back friends assumed depression attention grab id like blow brains out really would tried strangle belt lost consciousness guess released belt woke hours later tried od dry texture pills made vomit chance digest dont nerve cut deep enough hit artery legitimately want die gun id it dont try burden try be try make everyone else feel good need support basically fuck me hate much think badly me shouldnt problem isnt thats selfish me making deal someone hate wonder even stays loves me want responsible consequences taking last bit live away sleep late trying avoid awake sleep closest thing release right now took benadryl try heighten mood makes calm risk alcoholism time access beverages sort ive tried weed nothing me cant even find relief substances anymore used think okay lonely life style id outdo everyone id fucking win theyd working fucking target id nurse id one good apartment flat screen tv decent car nice clothes didnt need anyone anything id show im failure am burden want die dont want people tell to wish theyd guts tell like know want to stop pretending dont want myself would kill could quickly yes could change situation would really would id like to cant even go take walk fucking walk wish people talk want talk like me pity feeling responsible me see sort redeeming quality thats even worth it dont that im sorry,1 +alcohol numbing guilt committing redflagi dependence alcohol however drinking every day every weeks couple months may seem like much drink feel dependent it recently something horrible happened feel happy somewhat drunk now know im harm thought dying mental state makes seem much easier doi feel free somewhat happyi plan drinking awhile possibly staying days max avoid ptsd dreamsthese usually triggered stress fear going sleep thats im staying want feel crappy staying up life feel guilt killing myself guilt family may think feel like would okay etc think im going drink daily know healthy feel like way feel alright okay,1 +figured not cheat canvas question blank text box basically upload image canvas account whenever question blank text box the one type whatever want go import think says user media aaaaand bam not cheat test,0 +lot talk made psychological westerns one truly genre big name stars perform well director makes good movie stewart granger loses british safari hunter stereotype play haggard retired buffalo hunter revered west one best robert taylor plays upstart in contrast usual young upstart taylors character middle aged too wants slaughter buffalo lures granger business him hire two big name actors lloyd nolan russ tamblyn skinners granger haunted buffalo killed knowing may blame become extinct knowing become extinct native american way life greatly suffer taylor soon reveals sadistic side realistic saidism unlike one dimensional sadists modern film created nerds dorks insecure needs human companionship still stop murder end pits two other startling conclusion psychological effects theyre well depicted,0 +hey really going throw bad time right anyone free chat ,1 +spoilersbr br ive heard gripe special effects detract movie movie suspense film good that stand point movie rocks franke rocks enjoy ones plastic hearts content complaints movie unless watch english dub total farce creates illusion b movie br br one complaint music video dvd say sings it id love know br br br br quality entertainment replayable ,0 +recommending songs bf break day dont u want back indigo de souza,0 +howhow u get courage end life way out someone plz answer quickly,1 +im scared feel alonei hate edgy stuff im sad know else do want okay everything turn right im scared want help,1 +guys guys guys realized lego marvel super heroes xbox one came years ago hell im older thought,0 +every parent like stepdad parents either beat yell children theyre upset soft parents raise ignorant kids ignorance bliss parent trained hardcore parental figure like stepdad prosecuted years people spreading diseases everywhere raising screwedupinthemind snowflakes still pandemic assholes wearing gloves supermarket throwing trash hands stepped crocodiles ampxb want make parents stricttoughgreat again stepdad best example parent be bring back death penalty misdemeanors felonies parent raise kids manners lose parenting license watchlist years ampxb ignorancelazinessweakness cured unless junk food carb drinks outlawed sale minors,0 +lmao cant anything right longish rant angsty promise funny sometimes aka late night thoughts teeth tldr end alright woke am reason fucking reason tiny brain hates me basically like heyyy teeth ya know would fun bout question ourself hour lol go monkey brain goes yeah lol lets remember fucking suck dude go oh ok cool lets it fun idc like noticed moment overthinking literally shit shit makes sense fuck it mean everything wrong either way example drawing draw ill probably get angry end crying draw im wasting time fucking drawing doing anyways thats minor example tw part probably anyways noticed again fuck point suicidal literally suck regardless it im making people sad probably traumatic moment people close me etc etc it im making people sad probably traumatic moment people close me etc etc fuck basically logic applied anything go school ill probably get overwhelmed breakdown end day pleasant anyone go school stay home wasting life ignoring work pleasant anyone ill get yelled either way whats point feel like asshole regardless do nothing everything mix always wrong whats point really going anywhere could probably make better points tried im tired ill leave it tldr woke started overthinking shitty bc tiny brain try funny work goodnight yes name teeth fuck lt,0 +cant even imagine feeling better ive suicidal almost year or down say day cleaned room moving home summer felt awesome felt really really happy next day downhill today even lower know is school absolutely nobody home least parents room comforts feel bad even feel gets worst feel like happiness all feel future humdrum holding on weird day ask questions felt awesome now even imagine world friends every ideal thing cant see feeling better hurts think someone something something completely unaffected like operating outside normal reality know kill myself one hand hurt feel bad see reason put death hand feel like resist this must reason everyone throwing bridges often think means something feel better one event affect differently makes feel better end would it edit someone would suggest it bipolar good mood equate manic episode,1 +mom showed pic uncles balls im sitting outside phone looking reddit mom calls over wanting get trouble hurried asked up showed phone zoomed facebook post uncle speedo balls out gave warning explanation laughed stood traumatized trying make sense happened walked away slowly sat trying get image uncles bare nuts head alas worked,0 +seeking help finallyive hating life situation years even though probably better people job college degree good pay least one reliable friend hobbies still want die daily dont think ive gone month without thinking redflag since started anxiety attacks elementary seemed go undiagnosed passed tantrums finally went doctor got prescribed venlafaxine hopefully start enjoying br good life,1 +everyone stay quiet im staying past bed time its almost am dont tell mom guys im watching simpsons,0 +going kill appeal rejectedim student us high school school limit absences per year ive dealing lot depression stuff like that ended going because well days gets bad cant even leave bed write appeal school board excuse them otherwise wontt get credits classes ive taken year even though im passing them doubt school board accept appeal personally dealt people it theyre legitimately kind assholes real reason guess like feel powerful appeal gets rejected id repeat year high school really reason already enough deal personal life isolating socially people age making take extra year high school really going help all really im left three options dropping out taking extra year redflag attendance thing im even bad student consistently as im going take extra year drop reason really third option redflag left appeal isnt accepted school board im going hang myself meet june st wont hear anything then wont know meet pretty sad im musician enjoy lot compose lot perform public can really want appeal accepted continue want do going kill event rejected ultimately would best option,1 +disappointedi cant believe it pushed relationship wanted work even though everything needed probably going suffer aspects life again im upset must ugly inside either that im ugly outside whichever way im good enough anyone honestly wish knew could fix it dont never get complete straightforward answer really know diligently work part life im like this really know though ive said true need get better do maybe could make found someone help it whatever edit grammar,1 +ruined lifeim already feel dead im pronounced yet first memory dad telling hes moving house although still contact him im forced mother father pick sides one sisters sided dad mom im stuck middle police calls fights lasted years hated every minute life friends could take problems young even think redflag met love life young age life purpose again told whole life story loved actually cared year year still felt like reason love good memories life along side her years later broke lied her really died one talk get used it someone talk gone forever fault well get used that im alone life plan ending,1 +trump destroyed debate ngl know trump bad person looking debate want look moment moment holy crap trump destroyed legit roasting biden every chance got comedy gold fight,0 +anybody like archery like one hobbies id actually say im mildly good at im wondering many ppl like it,0 +advicehelp wantedhey ive waking wanting dead one important things always friends im constantly paranoid theyll annoyed me feel like im wasting time feel like theyd probably prefer around someone else presence annoying longer keep going less seem live for idk keep on want hard im begining lose hope whole process,1 +month old got really tired watching care bears time rooney great dancer cares gay guy must cheerleader somethingbr br beats barney cant get songs headmuststop singingdoodlebops songsnowbr br must lines text must continuewhat say canadian stuff like ooout aboooot whacky canadiansjazmine rhyming much must dutchbr br knock knock whos there dee dee super hottiebr br bus driver bob cannot dance take lessons rooney,0 + going swell far s personal aspect feel like stabbed multiple times least one back absofokinlutely was grades going down im lose good friends sister leaving start crying reason random points last days if certain frog loving art student reading this sure hope fucking know wrong did contact me more probably feel like shit bet pretty little ass lt wanna talk it really no hope yall better start year till now,0 +uzumaki visually stunning film think anyone going able argue that but unfortunately story somewhat falls flatbr br the film nevertheless entertaining uses wild style tell somewhat nonexistant story film almost works based characters style opinion leaves something desired,0 +need one reason drink redbull rn am,0 +friends wont noticeive missed many days school know parents take away phone skip school suddenly didnt turn didnt talk them none would think badly notice anything,1 +im depressive dellusional im realistic got mogged toyed with perfectly normal natural inferior like me,0 +posting random song lyrics every day forget day im reason fault problem im cause im scapegoat im god im martyr id leave all dull boy mudvayne,0 +experienced something terrible afternoonplease warned following may appropriate everyone sub read hiking around one canyons near home today several hours afterwards drove summit turn around head home top encountered young man completely distraught speaking operator bystander trying console little success apparently minutes before kids uncle climbed nearby hill forty yards used weapon take life wouldnt believed except kid falling apart pretty sure witnessed whole thing couple bystanders started climbing hill check man nephew yelled us saying didnt want anyone going police ems arrived fucking sucked deciding turn around know odds low making difference fuck never saw victim didnt see hear anything except poor kids reaction world fucking shattered called brother told happened started losing it broke down started saying fuck fuck couldnt help it cops medics drove home retrospect dont think real smart drive then whole drive canyon wreck okay though anyway needed lay out sure even appropriate forum thanks reading,1 +bullshtim tired cant believe anyone said care everything looks half assed insincere make feel worse cant take anymore said thousand times hope wake ever again please die me,1 +used best friend best friend chilhood grow old trying avoid started hangout cooler dude me hate dude bcoz hes fcking selfcentered contact friend long time whenever texts feel joyful also feel hatred like texted mocked treating like dead always see cool assholes hang around believe fcking douchbags him friendi trying change paying attention guess restrained past memories know friendship matter,1 +day posting favourite songlinklyrics httpsyoutuberaysaplzq httpsopenspotifycomtrackjagdyevzjnniysxeltsivtdlvyhttqbtoczrocewamputm_sourcecopylink feed mepumkin eyes cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting waiting till come around ive watching ive floating floating beneath ground baby ive thinking back night took home looked pumpkin eyes stopped saying cant help matter try cant help cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting waiting like nervous child im surrounded feeling caged remember used wild baby ive thinking back streets used roam looked pumpkin eyes told would never let go cant help matter try cant help cant help matter try cant help baby ive waiting im surrounded feeling caged baby ive thinking back streets used roam tell would never let go cant help matter try cant help,0 +please please help me need advice please childhood parents sole reason constant thoughts redflagim ukrainian immigrant moved lot settled california female art prodigy early age cancer lymph node age went chemo got homeschooling ridicule joined school due hair loss always eccentric never quite right many relationships best years life cared hospital diagnosed major depression time found benign tumor femur caused severe pain daily basis endured years before found another one femur last many years overdosed painkillers high many times would live twice parents loved me mom would beat electric chord ribs bruised undress school clothes got home every time brought pain caused said beaten bled says clean room therapist would bring beatings justify herself miscarriage stressed cancer would take me black eye her kicked me slapped me pushed me threw things me would purposely lose store little teach lesson called police listen her escorted friend back home told goodbye lived next door forbade me speak officer phone crying hysterical terrified walked never looked back would sometimes stop hurrying see would notice never did would threaten leave side highway talked back car sat choked weight annoyed her would change broviac one day injection tube needed weekly cleaning would play hit me told stop got top told nothing could do bring hit either way would write diary mean wished new mom found yelled read it would cry closet parents would find ridicule me laugh say stupid look cry shake day discuss feelings laugh tell crying inappropriate even cant breathe hyperventilate sheer stress discussion would never buy anything hand downs two dollar sale items never fit things liked eat treats surprises knew eat them shoe collection massive ego large told im stupid fat ugly embarrass her feet crooked flat im slow worthless deserve respect acne atrocious hair appalling even fit adored anyone circle either sex would say still good enough parents pushed art crank paintings like factory lost passion helped around house would hate it missed spot something wrong showed help another friend neighbor maybe wash window theirs theyd call slave dignity would get screamed every day blamed would cry night lay bedroom door hoping would let hold me would threaten lock closet listen halloween costume contest little called school participate shy scared kindergarten parents obliged went home chickened go there ignored day made fun me teenager would lock door change nude summer days would pick lock every time angry locked it mom would demand see breasts walk showering pick door lock slept nude dad would monitor internet searches activity found porn one point outraged monitors connections day visit found phone history used cam girl mom tells whore deserves raped knows get used men less dog company older men would sometimes buy gifts found charming recently cam girl quit found outjust money food incident filled form physical abuse doctors office thought form consequence police show house lie afterward parents called traitor hated long time dad works long hours believes nothing say mom does says lie mother speaks like dog hits buys candy next day acts like angel severe depression dropped high school college academy straight student dropped fs told counselor feelings redflag mother called face extreme anger left room screamed told counselor going kill me needed help dropped college recently well due depression tumor pain moved stopped supporting unless move back go college even boyfriend hungry days without food dad drives tesla tell failure am would stop friends families hold tears back said much loved held one another moved parents finally love boyfriend far away call week ive different antidepressants group therapy family therapy regular therapy family therapy sessions go father saying lazy apply myself mother hysterics clean room deserve belt boyfriend everything end even love cant save me medication heavy snri without depression baggage much cry least every couple days ruminate parents family future even thousands miles away slight mention lose it depressed ever since young feel though point more cure me love isolation medication therapy know solution death please help me say lie spent countless nights agony even age begging god kill cannot deal anymore infested completely want die depression leave stems them destroying relationship life see getting better trying everything power still love blood cruel thing worse offenses something good them something they eyes love me hurt helped many ways mind completely fucked cant think weep hours hours hate like this seems like way out passion feelings love satisfaction nothing life feel dead killed young knew future future things better,1 +im finding hard cling onto anythingmy pain real ive felt throughout high school years later without boring everyone lifes story depression family know anything ive kept secret since really want bother them lifes hard enough is fail everything life manages keep alive giving unbelievable strokes luck snatches away within days im telling im finally happy days believe im sick twisted reality show people watching me like group children huddled around scared cat offering food deciding fun put cat bag throw river,1 +sure much longer hold oni depressed since little kid probably around so never friend life never accomplished anything met desperate girl job managed marry first girl even held hands let alone talked bit couple kidsi managed break smile awhile first life still depressed decided couldnt deal mental stuff anymore left months ago nothing makes happyi drinking every single night since left helps cry much every night tell might need take kids full time awhile check hospital gets mad saying selfish think much dead anymorehoping deer jump front way back work happen lose conyrol fly bridge take kids biggest concern dogsi asked gone would take care said no may call rescue shelters make arrangements even put money chance finding new home without risk put sleep breaking work may go back due todayi going last much longerthings get better,1 +anyone play starve together friends world best could use walter wormwood anything okay want play give discord link,0 +losti tried kill back work decided try figured might depressed told mom laughed me said pathetic found psychologist told suffer depression social anxiety told mom allow take meds refused go see psychiatrist even though psychologist wanted mom want disappoint her psychologist told know months stopped seeing her got worse cant get bed like zero motivation anything im scared go school teachers keep giving shit sick often im scared oral examination teachers yell try make feel like shit front whole class parents like beat yell kids really wanna take care baby brother become legal guardian probably happen life sucks idea do want end,1 +hate middle school wanna hurry go high school like bruh u much cool shit like partys picking classes relationship seem work much better ,0 +add pokmon go please need send gifts challenge none friends friend code ,0 +tired living consisted break abuser hospital visits self harm related injuries moves losing job covid car crash im exhausted dont see point continuing im going job interview tomorrow legitimately cannot get bank account dont car see end im going through pathetic dont get food lyft razors bathroom taunting last place want hospital plus cut im sorry venting like said im exhausted,1 +hate want dieim looking attention advice wanted express,1 +ending life end never ending pain problemswhats point surviving one bothers existence people say live yourselfit gets better time doesnt ive literally one call ownno friendsno relativesno relationship parents hate ready get rid anyhowjust consider burden single person age nothing more growing dysfunctional toxic family lead many trust commitment issuesscared attachment want get married relationship want someone neither het anyone wholl bear mood swingsmy depressionmy complete lack emotional control keep pushing people away scared theyll hurt leave megot rejection abandonment issues several times find searching sure ways ending life what survive everyone hate more everyone hates without reasonno one understands memy socalled family friends ashamed people call psycho attention seekerbut survive somehow physically challenged itll less nightmare like anyone bothered diei friend whos always remembered need something never called outingwhos always left behind walking conversation childhood experience hatredbitterness getting beaten home along getting bullied school college severely damaged mental health hate talking anyone scared theyll use me scared relationship one tolerate hot cold behavior plus people days want physical needs scared get leftover sanity heart brokenmy sibling hates mejust wants push house prove loser wrong one front parents beaten much childhood still care beautiful onemy relatives cousins hate usseen fathersibling heard grandfather cheating spouse hate marriage relationships more childhood two house staffs used molest me years oldone cousin lesssometimes feel may somehow responsible it hate people touch me school used badly bullied humiliated never anyone help understand even bit mother sometimes getting manic tried kill me sometimes crave affection push people away im fucking scared one ever hugged mei want hug someone see feels never played teddy bears childhoodjust want get one myself never anything person age does always tried good girl trying appease parents always helping others even hurt me thought ill anyonenever intentionally hurted anyonenever demanded anything myselfalways listen others want moneyriches anythingjust small happy family protective sibling selfish one leave sister front wolves fend herselfwant caring partner wholl understandlove care respect mewith respect comes loyaltysome love never got life even everything till love parents codependencyobsessive helicopter parenting ruined badlythey aged know survive alone big bad world cant marry want want liability anyone want live independently terms think thats good true years struggling im tiredguess problems never ending im high manic mode sharing much publicly regret im normalguess ending end problemssorry long rant,1 +early teens come realization knew would want much part world cannot feel type satisfaction life neither family significant other even simple pleasure food much try surround positivity feeling emptiness drowns it birthday days ago pictures taken looking back see eyes soul screaming release lost lbs eating either little all slowly feel like reaching limit scared reach help abyss,1 +im still nnn pls proud biggest achievement year longest ive gone since like ,0 +considered cheating someone calls another person gf sleeps call also gf doesnt know im pretty sure fjfjksksfkkd,0 +anything worth allive really fucking tried cant seem find anything worth living for everything pain end finished cutting thighs wanted noose find anything with im goddamn tired,1 +left wife daughter her think ill kill todayive lefet wife daughter weeks old ive hurt ex wife beyond words explain that ive woman ive loved first sight ive started relationship lasts year now hurting much cant even explain keeps recalling previous partner calls daughter shit tells die says things hurt spine break heart every day two love much spend weekend daughter every week taking good care daughter bring back mother partner freaks unloads shit me taken long ive tried hang months ago trying get back previous partner together everyone around wants us happy people around tell us great pair im despair pain ive never in im seizures kicking im down used hit head hard walls door frames stop crying screaming ive begging kind me ive asked love many times says sometimes loves reactions words bad wants daughter die try best try hard im landing downward spiral always tears scream sorrow ive spending money support her ive put brink bankruptcy ive stolen money support us happy everything seems like going work out happy hell earth feel im munchs painting scream ive psychiatrist ive perscriped carbodiazepine stabilize mood works extent go beyond point pain cope get seizures lie floor cry weep weep hard ive scratched face several times seizures way could describe attempt scratch face off parents try contact me us theyve made steps touch us says dont try hard enough sad know leave woman cant want love love want hard me past weeks ive considering another redflag bottle tramadol cupboard ive taken grandma died cancer used painkiller know take gulps tramadol going ill peace daughter sleeping us today months old please help,1 +ive single long m want somebody love ive never proper relationship hardly talk girls irl like nervous even though lately ive getting better it theres girl amazing boyfriend thing kind flirts were good friends like even though boyfriend go make dick many questions know sorry,0 +oh god oh shit ok pissed bed two weeks ago lazy go bathroom fell asleep,0 +want kill myselfi want kill myself want something really fucking stupid like drive car tree trip flight stairs something take away suffering everyday life want die want something big happen something serious make everybody else reset way think me adhd making life hell moment especially trouble emotional regulation tearing girlfriend apart cant remember shit enthusiasm happens less remember said shit feel harder becomes snap it wish could restart life blank slate connections ties live pace mental burdens holding back envy meander life happily whereas overthink every single decision make deal constant thoughts ideas swirling around head every single second day matter decision make ill think wrong one cannot content life moment nothing try best despite experienced fair deal trauma life whats price happy,1 +really know doive planned ending life tomorrow bought plane ticket california want see ocean one last time want die hometown im wanting back out think im nervous travel around strangers however really need end soon im living uncle im unemployed supposed move end august told would pay back week lie since planned dying tomorrow miss flight end life hometown really want that maybe really want die im making excuses know fact want live either really know anymore,1 +feels like cant get rid itim trying hard harder ever before want like anymore want feel like normal person want happy know im wrong first time years felt happy feels like im anymore past threeish weeks draining energy feel like hopeless keep trying want give up im feeling like choice want hopek see anything look forward to im weak feel worthless could die one would miss me want keep going im slowly going back everything before want everything ive done try make life better nothing want hope,1 +friends try best make teacher happy friends two them always try answer questions one teachers everyday students join particular class including us even though strength people favourite subject too answer questions much students bother much whenever asks particular leave bother know teaching hard job dad used teach kids told sometimes teachers loses hope well want lose hope tries best teach us teacher lose hope teach maybe like subject try learn more time makes sad response whole class appreciate teacher much always let know im thankful two friends ,0 +thing thats stopping painif pill could swallow end without pain would throat five seconds hesitation premed student know much stupid body matter try end going hurt lot,1 +im gonna say something twitter become racist trying stop racism,0 +chose live got clean options againive never done anything like before get thoughts somewhere im years old live united states highschool since spent semester away college got addicted klonopin xanax prescribed drop couldnt remember anything spent three years daze eventually got sent away get help ended incredibly abusive facility florida girls made get middle circle call whores screwed stuff based principle attack therapy where break build back up finally managed get hellwhole after threatened would committed saying suicidal got clean managed start life back there talented web application developer got business running months got apartment things great made mistake moving people problems made one business partner learned real hard way working someone live bad idea especially psychotic tripping mescaline days putting gun mouth deciding give life last chance flew back homestate checked psychward getting plane got help again august since then ive lived various halfway houses successfully went intensive outpatient program completed however getting stepped week outpatient program filed grievance therapist told go suck dick would end assraped jail came gay fired moved halfway house apartment back family now months later attorney getting letters exroommate florida extorting threatening report police things leaving florida unless pay amount goes time attorney talks tries settle and ive long since tried settle original amount wanted ten times that im literally going crazy stress honestly tried everything make life better got clean came gay im stuck paying attorney hour deal bullshit doesnt think proof extorted drug using idiots cant keep putting parents siblings stress constant bullshit really want peace relax seems option get rid fear unknown regard prosecuted either leave country kill myself dont know anymore want live life peace,1 +ive everything im sick tired lifethis alt account im using hope thats okay im desperate vent things good life see absolutely fuck all anything looks positive nothing mirage moment become familiar it see bad it thats bad like everything else everything could possibly go wrong goes wrong badly hopes dreams completely shattered dream becoming acclaimed game developer ruined fact industry fucked beyond repair complete disregard preservability reliance internet pc especially infected this people sucking valves dick praising steam best thing since sliced bread even though actually made pc games expensive years even worth effort anymore able see games game shelves fuck bother dream keeping native language scots alive ruined snobby cunts keep dismissing real language due similarity english despite fact unesco eu charter minority languages recognize separate language get hell trying support it im sick it help family extremely anglophone approve supporting language fact im growing tired country live in would tell you queens english english boast freedom independence actually fucking chance break free shat themselves fucking pathetic never felt fucking embarrassed call scottish life listening people speaking english accents cringiest thing ever me however im accustomed live eat survive anywhere else dream life partner ruined combination asexual aromantic fact ive emotionally abused people ive close point trigger words would render healthy relationship impossible even words longer triggered me words describerepresent still still ruin things me even found new dreams pursue whos say crushed like ones above ill spending entire life switch dreams ill never achieve kind life call that short live dwindling time im nearly end rope hate everything life way negative things positive feel like im going snap kill one day fact think ill alive see summer ,1 +depressed attend group therapy bothers want lay bed sleep depressed attend therapy,1 +please help mei feel hated throughout entire life bullied lot gradeschool got bad would actually physically hurt me would come home neither parents cared would say toughen up something along lines thought got highschool would get better since see grade school bullies actually got worse really hurts say sexually assaulted group boys never told anyone that would panic attack male would even look me ive gotten better im highschool feel like im waste space whole life people use make feel better,1 +extremely dark brooding show excellent cast one shows try watch regular basis glad see bebe neuwirth recurring role feel andre braugher underutilized one intense actor hope cbs gives better time slot next season,0 +epic im finally happy long time lady hair cut place called handsome young man first compliment long time,0 +may become god somehow managed put usb first try become unstoppable,0 +liked movie first told interesting story story told movie felt like condensed muchlonger story since book pages makes sense spans time period s s fictional south american country also lot fit time available think would much better sixhour miniseries turned minute moviebr br even though rushed story skip much gets confusing told told fairly well one fault claras supernatural powers appear inconsistently either appeared evenly course movie left out two faults which could spoilers estebans eventual return goodness happens somewhat suddenly ferulas curse seems wear off even though tone story suggests endure foreverbr br the acting excellent glenn close tormented spinster ferula outstanding jeremy irons brutal selfmade rich man also excellent meryl streep main character clara great although often even better movie many wellperformed smaller roles too biggest fault movie seemed lack dialect coach actor seemed speak different sort accent,0 +flirted concept suicide life even experienced brief bouts suicidal ideation manifested response something someone brashly reactionary radically honest myself believe would scared actually follow act means ending brief stints silly sounds helped lot saw as real real person like full name redacted hobbies talents upcoming trips calendar obligations actually excelled showing for makings future people active life theirs hate myself actually alright person minute thereoh talented hobbies amp supportive circle people value much do them etc sure things absolutely not taken granted course mandatory prerequisites order future worth living see natural end then always does stuff happened life happened blah blah blah still though suppose use phrasing but then since regard thought topic suicide merely something tried understand could not simple fact actually suicidal person thus existed mental block sorts preventing mind fully going grasping concept satisfactionnow fast forward to lately i must crossed line sorts somewhere somehow know because come across subject suicide context amp anyone fear unease surfaces within at least initially emotions come though response lack afraid act suicideit also even innocent introspection pondering husband committed decade ago no instead experience anticipatory excitement similar feeling get underwater know able come air soon yet frenzied eagerness relief guess even cost yanking steering wheel finding vein pump lethal amount opioids into the internal monologue basically goes something like finally stop last loudness end sharp edges existence cease experience epitome true nothingness words paradise go,1 +yall good comebacks need comebacks insults like slit wrists insults general want make bitch cry best insults get award please make original and good,0 +strange reason stay alivemaybe strange stay alive family member would thought id ever writing this lot mixed emotions im sure lot feel true father bad person think like ive inherited instability mum im losing touch her live im aware reason luxury depressed cooped up im supposed lose quietly lot family people know cant understand them cant understand almost everyone lot trouble relating making friends dropped school thirteen although missing days per year since nine know me feel like im getting worse block absorb all mess also issue communicating people like two modes angry sullen happy sometimes become negative inside feeling causes really something pets family feel lucky makes me cant really explain feel like im waiting outside reason cant end me going reason im waiting for,1 +tried say goodbye everyonei tried tell everyone facebook goodlife theyd likely never see again internet second dropped posted never posted realized rewrote it thought maybe meant way maybe ill go away without saying anything,1 +feel like ending todayi feel lonely absolutely nothing gone right life years distanced abusive family certain times choice around them watching acting happy normal regard pain remorse theyve treated breaking me like never value them years time love put init matter care emotional state care alone am actually laugh ignore presence like even exist like added nothing lives nothing go right people supposed love dont for years trying whats right life avail one wants me one love im even sure love myself im weird stupid insecure lonely misfit deserve die prolong it got pills could today theres nothing left wait for edit update many compassionate people took one pill far twice dose im eyeing others get drowsy enough witnessed sister berate sick father said noticed scratches car since used it hit multiple times tried hide it really bad scratches evident cried screamed told would die leave old iron there nmom trip fast enough comfort her saying dad devil uncaring hes not trying stand soft spoken manner stop recklessly driving vehicle went make sure alright shaking bad kept worrying another stroke talked softly things stopped crying able eeat lunch worry much seem care health care wellbeing selfishness would kill himwho would take care him yet want die bad today want take pills go sleep go away maybe would join soon idk want take care him one takes care im dying im dying want let go know do,1 +talking much anyone bcos suicidal idk feel suicidal long time infact actually suicide plan really tired worthless battling depression redflag bpd alcoholism suicidal,1 +joined sub turned october excited finally join subreddit hello ampxb httpspreviewredditiwzbqpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfbdacbab,0 +anyone never seen anything like fight scenes matrix never seen movie fight scenes choreographed action scene psychopath yuen woo ping also fights matrix fight scenes somethinbr br li plays supersoldier feels pain lives life pacifist librarian ya got me evil supersoldiers begin killing local drug lords take drug trade li teams cop buddy help stop thembr br there absolutely crazy things going movie one badguy gets arm lopped pane glass hardly notices fights scenes filled flying kicks punches body count way there li seldom better surrounded bevy beautiful female costars yip kicks serious ass fellow supersoldier anthony wong even makes cameo drug lord no suprises there makes cameo every hk movie unfortunate make action movies like us sit horrible dubbing jobs see action crave much recommended,0 +rfragilewhiteredditor speedruns going everywhere httpswwwredditcomrfragilewhiteredditorcommentsltqpsomeone_called_me_white_and_it_hurt_me_feelingshttpswwwredditcomrfragilewhiteredditorcommentsltqpsomeone_called_me_white_and_it_hurt_me_feelings,0 +redeemable qualityim trying hard negative towards suppose working regard nothing really changed terms feelings plans though still mess gun time time know one step time guess anyway one thing feel essential still getting stronger feel like redeemable quality way really change look everything else garbage ive come accept that chance have get stronger maybe confidence selfesteem finally rise maybe ill good enough talk to maybe ill stop alone itll take hard work im dedicated im hoping sink enough effort get routine going everyday work change feel myself know bothered share suppose offer support clinging one thing save you,1 +everything getting down im loss for everythingthe first thing probably explain is im probably somewhat pertinent struggle recall period time greater weeks everything ranging stuff sucks im really sick this want die thoughts even redflag attempts tldr is im love girl reciprocate it cant finish anything start hobby education hate feeling like constant stream failure toward father greatest man ever met matter much want success make proud always fuck things up always ive avoiding contact last months this hate fact im overweight really try lose weight struggle back second point never seem finish anything start hate way get jealous smallest things really see point around anymore im burned upon friends family even people even met like government whore subsidising education which ive broken again im even sure im posting ive erased rewritten post several times now know im trying say anymore last day haze me recall vague parts day theyre usually worst things like cutting fact ive taken smoking even though find disgusting mind mess,1 +girls prefer bois hairy bodies but much like hair corious idk idk idk filler,0 +pff pff pfda pff pff pffda nice beatbox bro,0 +planning die alleywayive lied whole life abused neglected feel useless alone dirty part city whole family stuck in money grab ticket nearby city want run away find alleyway stay in let die cold winter night want let know fucked up hit many times got drunk many times consequence all i wish could feel emptiness previous redflag attempt thats icing cake,1 +tell dadive feeling worse every day pretending parents everything fine taken toll me sleep time force wake sleep hours get less hours whole body feels awful fantasize throwing traffic jumping buildings hate life hate fact hard time forming relationships anyone relationship family siblings friends close hate one go to feel like dont home feel like ive tried wont let get close anyone ive joined clubs sorority volunteer places feels like form group im part of family life sucks too mom alcoholic extremely delusional dad another country honest one closest family however never around life know everyone given fair circumstance hate cant even feel independent feel trapped home time area live public transportation walking takes hours make plans someone pick take home want go shopping ask someone want go grocery store ask someone asked father car get one old happy it let mother drive totaled it i car months destroyed brother speculated mother crashed purposely would force father buy brand new car believable delusions father rich secret family much story dont want long im currently university financial aid feel like taking time off however problem would pay financial aid given well loans know family afford pay back im really happy here also seen psychologist psychiatrist months dont feel much better,1 +anyone else miss magici feel like last years common sensation ive experienced intense brutal nostalgia keeps coming back ive moved childhood home family friends got place started career ive started realize empty life lonely im destined be everything dreadful bleak pointless life cycle suffering stress existential crisis working pay bills living paycheck paycheck spending hours friends even really care about years feel like everything gets darker darker nothing excites anymore want child feel magic used feel world magic running soccer fields friends magic walking mall shooting shit watching sunset outside bedroom window dreaming girls school everything hopeful about magic pushups front mirror feeling like going badass magic long car rides backseat parents car watching roads fly by magic feeling like much life much experience nowadays feel like everything wanted already passed by adulthood long spiral decay unhappiness isolation maybe human beings meant live tiny part lives happy hopeful spend rest lives desperately chasing feeling theres nothing left im empty tired every day feel kind hope want badly feel something deeply kid theres constant dullness im starting see signs age face hairlines receding skins starting wrinkle talked anyone weeks im unemployed single three years soon ill probably homeless ive stopped eating ive stopped sleeping well months ago made car trip old town parents long gone friends one visit walked around old house old schoolyard trails friends used bike around got pang heart intense wanted burst want die want live knowing ill never magic again,1 +dont want staymy whole family expressed hate theyre ashamed way today im struggling eating disorder ive made people cry today already everything always blamed seriously cant take it im depended everything cant take anymore ever even mention needing help show bit vulnerability im shut down shit attacked theres people life im living didnt id already gone dont want die want pain go away dying seems like permanent way end ive always told people gets better im debating quote honestly,1 +im leaving rteenagers rteenagers like rpedos seriously tho fuck pedos fuck mods situation made realize name rteenagers red flag specially reddit im also telling friend leave suggest leave cause trust al pedos arent gonna magically leave pls safety im really dissapointed mods even trying disprove anyways stay safe im outta,0 +damn god damn damn bro damn fuck damn im unhappy god damn,0 +well great go seek help put redflag watch fucking case shit theyre gonna call regularly keep check me thats nonsense everyone leave fuck alone wish everybody fucking hated would make killing much much easier could enjoy slowly changed antidepressants zoloft suit made kill even more gave xanax fucking panic attacks got worse zoloft also think drinking problem even though ive drunk like times cant control myself promised never drink alcohol make problems go away fuck shit bite lips get anxious last time swollen lips weeks literally chewed skin lips taking ages heal today im worried lips going swollen tomorrow ive made plans go even though want to longer im alone time get think killing myself know more im sucking lollipops stop biting lips fucking chewing skin off know im posting this nobody needs worry me needed vent know someone reading knowing im feeling good right now,1 +looking new friendly faces hey im xander im looking folk would willing try hand relatively small server mod team best keep everyone happy plenty kind caring residents would gladly welcome you may true server may active moment wed love good folk like liven soft cozy atmosphere dm details invitations,0 +im becoming content redflag post experiment see voicing changes intentioni go reasons im considering ending life something ive battled years im angsty teen struggling mountable teen problems im adult whos deciding go due life full confusion bad decisions sadness ive found technique difficult feel sense relief knowing finally exit main fear is well saying goodbye human consciousness ill miss breathing ill miss sense touch ill miss contemplating things wonder ill miss little things make nose chuckle know theres nothing death scares comforts me think im done thats okay it cant function world exiting seems best saddest solution think im becoming content idea,1 +helloim bit nervous post here normally hate drawing attention myself maybe help type people see group friends care family loves much love them yet still get feelings hurt inside things going great care world smallest thing set off give bad thoughts im sure stem insecurities brain makes scenarios nobody really likes me theyre pretending probably find annoying obnoxious cling people think care life would probably prefer hanging without me thoughts come mind gives anxiety get worried nothing start overthinking everything chest starts hurting subsides get really sad get suicidal thoughts like maybe would better someone much emotional baggage life know people life would terribly sad died im sure one biggest reasons done anything crazy thoughts head keep coming back driving bit crazy apologize sub posting in thank reading,1 +feel like end nothing ever right stupid worthless see point living anymore know keep going,1 +seems people care enough certain peoplei feel like theres enough empathy understanding world especially people feel like one cares them makes angry im sure wanna anymore want change world seems like impossible task wish people would care feel neglected cared for everyone deserves loved thats believe really sad people treated like shit even matter makes angry really makes want live cruel world like one,1 +return lost world filmed backtoback version lost worldbr br in sequel five people lead challenger return plateau group started drilling oil threatening destroy land gomez something this manage defeat drillers plateau saved much delight nativesbr br like lost world dinosaurs see made rubber include trex ankylosaurusbr br john ryhsdavies david warner reprise roles challenger summerlee three actors also backbr br despite reading several bad reviews cheap looking rubber dinosaurs enjoyed return lost worldbr br rating stars ,0 +tried last night idk held back guess im still scared today ill try even though im gonna end something stupidim life basically im stuck obsessed girl killing already im alcoholic cant anything right couldnt even keep friendship girl hates want gone married guy dont think could handle wish someone could kill dont deal fear,1 +remember sonic fans fucked economy lmao time check sonic inflation google toure unaware,0 +theres girl like and theres girl like im like percent sure likes back idk ask out im overthinking everything goes wrong says no thinks im gay doesnt actually likes me dates pitty peer pressure need advice ask someone please help me,0 +day posting short stories woman blue man wondered aimlessly new desert sand felt wet yet air dry trapped tropical paradise wondered saw strange sites decrepit buildings ships larger life glittering blob followed along behind them rising drain blob gotten larger incorporating parts long lost walked large vicious looking rain clouds enclosed desert watching continued exploring knew landscape man wearing clothing many could describe rags hair dusty curled walked womans hand his know other never spoken them felt right man little weight him otherwise fit walked hand hand blob microorganisms drew closer threatening rather comforting buildings covered old ocean floor style castles modern buildings futuristic complexes roads buildings random distances one another continued walking rain began fall moistening air causing desert cool walked inside one buildings small warehouse type building large metal roof vented ceiling walls covered algae sat building rain grew harder trees began sprout grass began grow wasteland ocean floor large butterflies size backpacks flooded area pollenating life grew sea floor sand turning dirt butterflies swarmed warehouse covering floor around pair unique designs sat still warehouse looked extravagant tiles pouring rain slowed drizzle mist polluting building wings colony gently flapped took flight two butterflies strayed picked pair holding took flight flew dense overnight jungle towards mountains distance jungle slowly dissolving behind them reducing back been tree tops interwoven one tree many branches descended upon mountains storm brewing around them came upon cave butterflies hesitate swarmed it navigating tight passageways skillfully theyve done many times eventually erupted peak volcano butterflies elegant last stream dark blue highlights unnatural yellow tint unleashed pair near top peak peak littered snow felt comforting cozy foot mountain utterly blocked deep black clouds wondered around peak saw man mask obscuring face yet could visibly see beard meandered way closer them approached other mountain gave way man mask started skid quickly downwards man rags first time let go woman blues hand try grab man like that time stopped again snow flakes stood still air butterflies frozen mid flight grabbed mans hand time stood still cautiously pulled man up making sure would fall went back woman grabbed hand like time resumed and please check wattpadhttpswwwwattpadcomstoryutm_sourceandroidamputm_mediumlinkamputm_contentstory_infoampwp_pagestory_details_buttonampwp_unamebearwurstampwp_originatorljgsagzkvtsntgcapvebhrhuaoyajwsqhwggricwvyufoychfndvxyktqpxgomhbkngexiwmhuhbqkgaeaxtlogwtiaifrflwmxyizijy,0 +honestly know else ask it think best placeim planning seeing therapist stance illegal shit lets say illegal shit think vital tell it it contact cops parents since im ,1 +finally starting to im finally starting feel good body while,0 +feel extremely weak feel really weak ate slice bread breakfast somehow exhausting feel extremely weak fuck wrong me everyday im getting sad also weak maybe spend around hours bed everyday maybe literally killing me really know,0 +feel lost years old lost job due illness friends moved countries feel alone depressed black thoughts behaviors lately see way this want disappear somewhere upset others behavior feeling would find job lot things would change me cannot find health problems live poor country europe much tried positive cannot take anymore feel crazy without job longer strength fight,1 +exgirlfriend still friend committed redflag saturdayi never felt worse life unresolved issues called little it hysterical tried calm best could told friend could tell anything annoy calling me said go told call back little bit next phone call got sister asking knew was told said hours ago found body hanging tree little later years old young beautiful smart suffered deep depression years tried kill before feel happen would happened later unstable could smile someones face thinking death feels good write it hug everyone every day make sure let know much mean you,1 +stomach hurts text dad come get suffer rest school day like hours left school btw,0 +im partially redflag also may hurt others others may hurt whats righthonestly last year life living hell also eyeopening year ago suddenly began develop seemingly arbitrary anxiety attacks nothing traumatic happened nothing major changed life heart rate randomly started spiking bpm im things like sitting watching videos suffering anxiety attacks times week reached breaking point literally ready kill take others me period suffering met girl first seemed like ideal girl things quickly went south bpd started getting way insecurities something deal with overtime went depressed feeling hopeless entire situation angry understand happening me otherwise normal guy mids disease began manifesting apparent reason finished done for wanted kill go bang wanted take others me dialed redflag helpline spoke somebody hour straight end call anxiety attack manifested called seems millionth time take anymore mind racing heart pumping faster ever has feeling weak dizzy took tests gave medicine everything could think ive er anybody active subreddit combined its anxiety get it heres xanax ssris take get better you need see psychologist did get better planned redflag smallest details nobody knew even her then day clarity anxiety dissipated felt ok one day wonderful great sleep wake up feel better take shower eat normally triggered now everything fine another day anxiety continued live day by day delayed redflag one day then one day then one day two weeks passed blissful normalcy then started hallucinating started hear voices one day started see lights started see shadows surrounding me everything got darker nearly passed street called ambulance checked er nothing wrong anxiety its anxiety no isnt cant be something must wrong voices hallucinations colors darkness im schizophrenic be told needed fight disease im good it cant schizophrenia cant filtered voices head used everything willpower bring normalcy one time fast voices hallucinations came left months since may reading thinking im crazy crazy broad term me feel like either crazy not think spectrum people crazy others may labelled crazy think crazy think im crazy now no anxiety sure driving crazy months passed girlfriends bpd seemingly started get worse seemingly got better used money worked downpayment nice car ive living life way ive wanted to listen others whatever fuck want want drive sushi restaurant order much food take go bet ass do want speed residential streets narrowly avoid cops sure fucking do im control life ive always control life control slipped last couple months did almost terrible things know man id appear news stations guaranteed better now im normal again started taking road trips girlfriend friends absolute blast loved every single minute it then girlfriend shittest me asked watch porn said yes ever since then insecurity grown massively even attempted redflag willing compromise her wanted straight stop watching porn wouldnt initially going talk fueled anger made vile human thats wanting selfishly kill decided stop texted girlfriend right broke terrible way possible im emotionally hurting much right now want might kill cant fucking handle anymore great time loved much im fucking crying much feel pathetic it maybe needed ive never felt sad before feels wonderful cry finally feel something,1 +someone validate rn im pain keep seeing ppl transphobic nonbinary people just pls need validation ill cry lt,0 +quick need name girl likes spiders little much also sleeping arsonist wack okay,0 +aborted anything myself end myselfhello all year old chronic pain neuralgia neck also lower back pain shoots left leg kyphoscoliosis cystic acne scars skin back chest shoulders face bad teeth low cognitive abilites psyhical ones too many genetic faults aborted feel like end this low performing unit already started searching best methods lets find anything thisi belive is even nothing that suffering yes also pleasure suffering always greater amount pleasure anyone says good west west se europe barely making money basic costs living,1 +casual last messageeverythings fake pain life worth rain death choice decided make end voice hope same hope still flame good bye,1 +looking optionsso im sure options try cannot go therapy anymore want institutionalize me tried therapy want ect me cant call hotline anymore need distraction somebody talk call police cant talk friends anymore call police tried medication nothing other give massive headaches hours cant try that tried exercise three years anything tried vitamin supplements anything know else try want die sometimes break head things nobody see bruises hair helps minutes want finish right now cant want hurt family since cant go therapy dont tell try another shrink ive tried many sick cruel joke try another absolutely refuse drugs work exercise work food work else there refuse submit institution go ect ive years tell ever get better know else try,1 +sometimes im cringy person dont stop talking also make lot jokes end talking time me especially around girl like embarrassing idk ppl shy opposite problem overshare gotta take deep breath lol,0 +never asked thiseveryone thinks im lucky im bored life ive tried plenty things nothing interests me dont want responsibility want stop existing grew poor family immigrants dad worked seems like support older half brother sister mother myself mom would beat brother slightest mistakes shared room him sister fucking clueless always thought reason mom beating brother sister fucking clueless always thought brother deserved got didnt shed also ask world dad dad overly nice guy would damnedest provide even thought k debt time got high school still wanted private piano lessons car chearleading team go competitions brother became meth heroin addict wasnt allowed hang friends join teams dangerous god forbid drugs end like brother joined army booted two years racist platoon sgt nothing better time army two dads uncles died left gtmil tried college thing got useless psychology bachelors nothing interests thought psy might trick didnt psychology isnt real science everything theories never hold repeated testing results taken context applied broadly what want stop existing run away antarctica fall asleep blanket snow maybe try climb everest become fail becoming another macabre landmark adventurers come kill disappear father crestfallen hes nice siblings take advantage leave wish could go sleep never wake up,1 +hey everyone ever need vent need friend helps help others anyone needs someone talk,1 +need name im writing story need name character the character female helps filller filler filler filler filler gtveronica open open door please veronica open door lt filller filler,0 +women arent funny tell joke make laugh isnt self deprecating,0 +really tryi wanted love myself happy am really did dont think ill ever im tired living way dont see another option think redflag way ill free happy myself thing cant sudden guess ill take time really numb myself accept it drift entirely life finally go it never happy alive body days numbered,1 +good enoughnot good anything parents hate said life easier born mom failed nurse put college raise dad old man already getting pension always big dreams hopes bad suck everything bad grades matter much study barley run let alone anything athletic sense art music anything artistic struggle everyday tasks anxiety depression live country lesbian apart lgbt community considered disgusting sin matter much try much pray going failure kill let capable normal human space recourses shitty planet,1 +wish everyone world would feel pain feelevery day preoccupied suicidal ideas thoughts gone day without thinking kill year even staring belt metal bar closet wanting hang self sliver wants survive another redflag attempt see peoples reaction much pain in could make everyone world experience im feeling would understand,1 +sooner later going love mesadly come dead day mind last day hell earth easter last day alive,1 +really want get out maybe please hopefully someone words might able help all really really sorry long need get outim year old indian man grown quite traditional household uk means mental health always taboo subject never brought issues parents think level might know experienced issues capacity given done lot reading subject done charity work mental health charities etc part wonders upbringing makes obvious believe true problem sorted hugso went good school excellent university great grades show great social skills front whenever need to good job took two years moved japan moved back month ago living parents first time yearssomething wrong feel mentally fragile time nothing gets mental strength run rolling day cycle feeling ok heavy useless again backstory grew friends situation actually remember recently realised sdam inability remember anything recent years always saw positive whatever was past beyond that university always felt completely mentally strong myself time found infidelity father person felt close time excluding brother person id ever call anything went wrong fortunately trust issues compensated finding first love time moved america compensated drinking excessively entire year pretty much joining frat drinking troubles away year without talking family all year concluded breaking girlfriend time due lies infidelity side back uk finish studies started work years initial getting trust ex years probably strongest life felt confident trust issues or thought regained relationship family friends great job great house good circle friends great round timethen went japan again first months life exciting new city new culture incredible new career learning much myself found love nd time happened covid quarantine went incredible comfortable months life someone people say connect way never experienced time finding truly someone feel relationship reciprocated rare me excited slowly next year half turned steady comfortable relationship different people somehow worked think slowed much needed way although good times previously mentally strong highfunctioning probably needed someone lived bringing back healthier version strong mindhowever halftruths lies past side next months sort put damper it made continually question relationship thing time round although condoning it actually see logic lies clearest mind see still confident future together malicious intent long story short year since constant rumination mental battles issues again mainly trust whenever get stuck thinking it takes weeks even months get regresses back worst depressive states although know true because think it rather actual issues relationship think underlying issues previous trust broken father first love put position although want to cannot let go past new relationship struggle trust again screws whole mindthese ruminations kept bay japan still surrounded loving relationship meditation yoga surfing keep mind clear possible although often getting stuck found getting much quicker way really however almost limit longevity relationship mind limit much hurt caused become unfunctional human back uk month stuck beyond belief feel like thought loops get stuck head find going thing conversations brain trying apply logic get it mentally weigh beyond belief continually ruin daytoday life cannot bring things helped yoga meditation everything gets stuck way cannot live know back parents home long relationship lack trust lack job culture shock them think idle mind devils plaything seems playing relationship view ruining mindnow every interaction leads state mental instability today parents came back day told bought new bedsheets gift prospect anything new surprise ordinary breaks me walk away saying want it half angry trying hold back tears crumbing mentallythen get angry acting like dick face kind gesture people love mei know do nothing feels like helps want anything stay bed day torn putting brave face parents see me want get back healthy self point life know itif anyone read maybe provide help something do something focus on anyone something similar even someone talk to would really appreciativei really sorry long post know continue life,1 +send photos or links photos irl tank ill best identify it multiple submissions cool,0 +meds unintentionally spending lot time around narcissistic family due easter called sick today made mistake so think job risk high panic mode feeling like options moving forward limitedive trying strong last little whilei work great place unfortunately toxic bullshit usually handle it top easter ive lot pressure dont good relationship family damaging self worth ive endure passive aggressive bullshit weekend ive meds ive scatterbrained really affect me im sick stomach self destructive eating anxiety im experiencing called sick work today didnt realize second time ive called monday im still days boss pissed texted back let know wouldnt in kidding sick monday need serious conversation tomorrow texted back understood said dont think lets chat tomorrow feel like im weak called in im weak coping better family work pressures lose job wont first ive lost due loss motivation constant stress outside work everyone around tired hearing excuses going work think lazy dont know dont sleep anxiety controlled life im tired fighting myself fighting family fighting every day think im weak think im pathetic theyre right cant handle mundane daytoday handle rest life im scared im going make another bad choice may ultimately good one whether pills cut myself never hold image im fully functioning person long someone please help im scared im going lose job im going give up,1 +free award again make wanna give rules,0 +lost sense smell due covid stupidity science class probably,0 +different everyonesuicidal feelings different people thats something important note may see post think i must faking it cant relate theyre saying people full breakdowns others quick intrusive thoughts on everyones trauma different expressed differently regardless people deserve listened helped even seem serious one thought enough remove another good person planet stay safe,1 +ok im gonna rant please ignore fuck school fuck fuck fuck ms larda would give fuck ton papers expect us finish single fucking day know classes give homework expect us pass pm today fuck wrong fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking serious word essay fuck im tired shit im,0 +things get better redflag attempt failedive debating whether say anything really like vulnerable however feel like im going try again want someone know story my real story could go pages list everything ill try sum up ill honest want die want things get better know deep down wont also sorry bad grammar repeat im bad words long story previous posts ive deleted redditors commented post long want get im depressed recently ill try sum much possible ampxb main points bullying peers bullying professors getting good grades get dream internship lost friends feeling like one cares rich dad different state financially help lot money buy christmas presents really feeling like everything fault would feel better ended broken ampxb last year bullied college school policy roommate kills themself get class told continued bully point would get stared at barked im furry think fucked dogs hence barking seen without emotionally abusedrude comments etc small dorms campus highschool popular kid party stayed dorm watching netflix studying grandmother passed away dropped semester due bullying sucks really want go neuroscience professor getting fired algebra would give us enormous assignments question writeout homework questions finals week valentines day gave us questions due night multiple step writeouts guess little happiness got class average one pass class with he eventually fired this year probably worst year life i said last year that think get worse want suffering end college multiple campuses switched campuses far one wanted bullying stop new year new outlook well thats psycho professor comes in human biology favorite subject good it hes type guy says opinions facts wanted polite really want drama wanted hopefully ask reference internship dying for goes well high ss gave participation grade go office speak it eventually agrees give feel like fine weeks later gives us project email question says emailed question taking points project yes really silly there syllabus negative question people double check think bad thing email professor project bring advisor threatening dock points emailed question says done nasty stuff like past its first semester first year teaching bring head science department asked said would something it she actually old bio teacher knew work ethic bullying went campuses project came added new peers grade peers criteria remember projects came us came group added new grading criteria project started berating asking questions i answered correctly would say prions brain btw stuff like that end walked class take berating me lying making feel awful even us call students see could repeat back said student called could perfectly ones back could not he called student got right thats walked out told class left would hold grudges students that gave s s would give full credit bonus contacted head dean nothing even response one anything purposely failed me proof stealing points grades giving unfair grades taking points reason even changed old assignments one two points took final today try know would fail me dean anything bragging favorite professor actually reported him bragging failing me wtf illegal old professor head science department told phone would love reference internship apologized psychotic teacher contacted days ago would still willing help never responded again professors willing help one made bet could get final would got i busy spending hours vocab words psycho teacher pointless regret give full credit reference number she promised hugged never showed day supposed get information references gone bums out actually breaks heart would kicked ass internship figured time would get another job i work library needed another job dad left need help take care mom began working dollmart rhymes certain chain store dad left help financially really much money christmas work butt off first arrive everything seems dandy start working jerk asshole say hazing first day constant making hard work telling bad job doing continues ive while claim break eggs took photographic evidence me reported putting gallons milk pm milk customers purchase last minutes shift zoned hours pretending busy figured id put milk customers milk anyone buy instead thanked threatened boss helping customers pm stocking even milk apparently coworkers mean try talk stressed college fact go breakroom talk im worried ill mess things hurt people hide read reddit lunch break bestfriend left close friend left move different states anyone this decided im going kill grabbed bottle vitamin pills stupid retrospect chugged bottle waited began feel really really weird took nap figured id die would it though woke feeling really sick crappy life came back minutes thought well maybe sign keep going thats did keep going help im back square one job get trouble trying best customer service school professor obviously illegal get ignored friends leaving enjoy new lives get dream internship ampxb sorry timelines seem weird put order ampxb sorry even writing feel dumb,1 +notice im losing itmy freaking boyfriend always busy something blame him hes chipper productive dude notice much pain im in actually talk much general anymore hard get full attention either way would it send away mystery miss company much left today injured neck barely move ive bed day eaten yet really plan it keep suicidal thoughts even though im brave enough anything them sometimes feel like people miss much hardly even talk first fucking place goes everyone missing nothing ive lost all,1 +keep making mistakes never learnim always saying wrong things never learn experiences im scared future,1 +talk middle school crush idk contemplating talking telling used like her would make life interesting,0 +plan living life longerim m currently th grade months im expected college dread every month upcoming college years transition early adult life relatively get good average grades throughout highschool parents still see smart child know im barely keeping together school expect much like want become that even know want be cant even picture future without dead thats goals life im limited high earning careers choice becoming something else feel like im becoming stuck course career want want nothing get it lately ive becoming worn tired everything cant get school requirements done time cant focus studies without distracted addicted whatever videogame im playing let group mates research paper without making progress far failed student group leader son want die now immediately almost passive redflag thoughts everyday becoming active actively planning eventual redflag want face living life future knowing ill fail harder spiral downwards shit hole,1 +sharp pain parts body think redflagi get weird sharp pain body think offing myself one common common called,1 +want die due failure lifei feel like everything ends failure even bother live masters degree cybersecurity turned waste since trying better myself failure turns degrees amount anything modern era anyone tell college going useless also late bloomer peers well except me always runt litter hate much really want die hate failure unemployed took gigantic risk threemonth cybersecurity contract quit job for fast forward unemployed really want work technology one hiring even masters cyber security do die due failure whos wasted youth,1 +attack titan wouldve happily waited months season doesnt look like,0 +drank cup coffee start feeling sleepy dude pm ridiculous,0 +reason left livei run reasons continue live completely numb life everything around me pray death every night know everyday wake another day pain,1 +want someone something know herei cant take crushing loneliness anymore friends family im sick work stare four walls day anything else fills horror going anyone finds me remember last time even conversation good place leave note universe saying here may defective human unit still felt something brief period here,1 +recognize totally steal ulovelytoasterbath uwu,0 +changed user flair time seventeen gang finally rise up,0 +k f oosu unlike jishe koood lips,0 +one friends calling kittybaby girl joke making uncomfortably horny send halp,0 +able cry long time way norm me past month felt like something bottled within suffocating me finally it cried think it cry probably stretch would tear seconds felt anger dissolve little tiring deal shit time feel shitty shitty shit think normal people thinking ending much cried today,1 +want kill dont want thati want daydream happy things want able open people close want able live normal life,1 +people actually simping thats bad taste bruh like,0 +ready give up trying get depression bs far long now years counseling medication lifestyle changes including healthier diet exercising meditation attempts connecting people attempts pursuing hobbies going trying new things activei cannot keep anymore need something change lonely tired hopeless hanging thread,1 +right now feel like im brink iti went counseling yesterday evaluated long struggle past many triggers made decide go ive crisis back may almost voluntarily admitted hospital addition recent breakup almost traumatic mei cry every single day think it three months still cry every day also start grad school monday feeling impostor syndrome feel like im unqualified position roommates also intervention theyve noticed ive acting strangely lashing out ive noticed too ive isolating avoid complications however taken social withdrawal offense intervention told problems notes above still seemed invalidate felt im sure else look forward future depressed half life now crisis counselor asked baseline was couldnt tell ive depressed long feel like placed medications would probably try overdose them im sure now,1 +swear god family start knocking im going start locking door family people usually knock bothers lot one knocks im room one knocks im bathroom which okay guess privacy respected general sister conditioned always knock pretty pissed didnt somehow parents care comes knocking my door like smoke weed i smoke all possibly crappy example i want some privacy changing minutes ago late evening here mum comes wandering taking clothes might imagine nice situation came minutes later still without knocking told reason id really appreciate family knocking door first may uncomfortable her unpleasant situation me eh no im going knock ill just cue many filler words finish sentence see anything anyways walked girls locker room told eh see anything would keep trouble however start locking door handle going turn without knocking may add followed knocking parent outside asking lock door its like drugs there father dearest start locking door talk id prefer to imagination would come with uhm stuff something entirely different im really annoyed want rectify actions every day start locking door,0 +spent last two years real low everything control life organized really put work finish trade school best grades could manage find work even though sure something contribute employers like look longtermdepression cv kept it sent applications tried get good habits going again exercising every day really good upturn confident would break year intense depression accident made incapable walking weeks definitely exercise longer scared determined support family father suddenly died like tore apart since really bad could put anything together months always knew it done good feel happy content minimum wage work try get schedule going helps get together again work horrible though working help all motivate try even harder work trade actually managed find job perfect everything wanted people really appreciated work do struggled past month already changed lot picking pace today fired company broke really want crash this scared unemployment bad me anyway thanks reading rant keep working best drown this struggle,1 +pristiq overdosecurious anyone knows effects pristiq overdose ive come decision want end life want know much pristiq would take complete task,1 +way dying thinkkind obvious title idk lot say intake appointment clinic tomorrow get see therapist much less psychiatrist least another week know ill make long im empty shell human being debtors literally kicking doors down im scared answer phone ive let everything get control supposed dispose pills know redflag overdose sure thing fact one least sure things ive attempted before care little really care live die time haha anyway thx reading bothered,1 +going th birthdayto cut chase im clinically depressed since live third world country mental illness compared hiv meds bec parents cant afford im trying hard live life day day burden anyone eat healthy go gym take care sick dad even work part time still get triggered experience episodes light cutting wrist sharp object find times episodes bad id lock room days id take sleeping pills alcohol im trying really hard live life heres catch laptop got stolen months ago along files pictures memories lets focus pictures pretty provocative pictures normal young adult like goes gym would like see progress someone messages facebook tells something might interest sends screen capture gallery told accept friend request deactivate block willbe instantly posted big bad dark web facebook yeah provocative pictures plus facebook family friends they yey feast right please laugh effort try sarcasm yeah hes blackmailing dummy account hes blackmailing girl depression hes blackmailing still know wants one thing sure bidding feel helpless sad numb feels like life mean bully im joke feel like joke least someone laughing right also birthday coming up october go town trip best friends thats days might live see th birthday,1 +ive never watched spongebob watched lot shows people seem seen kids,0 +dna weird im like places basics where parents from like percent random place,0 +time ran start lifei failure incredibly upset let get point battled alcohol s know signs steps well versed addictions yet absolutely rock bottom again single isolated destroyed whatever relationships jealousy infidelity absolute hate myself cant stop looking porn every days and nice porn is act like absolute douche tinder try play nice real profile gets results cocky f boy gets results hell desperately lonely guy do moved rural officially killed chance real life dating everyone living married kids healthy sexuality way open relationship healthy destructive cant take anymore hate alone hate myself yet nothing feels right cant stand thought alone forever im it fuck world fuck everyone let last post scattered everywhere let warning younger things life time sensitive putting issue long created insurmountable problem cant live like forever unfortunately ran time change,1 +day listening supertramps crime century going bed asylum kinda bop tho hide shell amazing crime century song meh honestly,0 +began cutting first timethe past week much emotionally ive never state depression before hate fucking much literally cant talk anyone without called overdramatic pussy shitty past week combined family issues last straw me cut left arm twice result amount selfhatred myself wish could go back time fix mistakes made regain dignity myself fuck life im dumbest fucking idiot alive,1 +am reason im vacuuming hear this kidhttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsiahxcqits__amand_somebody_is_fucking_using_a_vacuumutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf screaming background reason anyways ima get lawnmower post status update soon,0 +keep trying overdose body feels weaki think slowly dying body feels weak vomiting blood since last night dont feel well feel like person anymore dont feel like anymore im dying ive panic attacks lately ever cant control thoughts feel like im going dark path idea stop it feel fucking alone empty ive fucking sad lately im glad im dying,1 +experiment placebo effect going bedroom sister took pillow i two pillows uncomfortable now pillow took extremely comfortable felt lot happier said took pillow back started get grumpy threw pillows floor started mumbling stuff couldnt hear became extremely upset pillow young thought would interesting experiment doesnt think lot stuff changed pillow covers cover hers gave back seemed delighted started blabbering comfortable pillow hurt neck whereas one perfect thought pillow took whereas reality pillow complaining about happily snoring intention ever telling it interesting brain works,0 +hello peoplehi im much pussy kill think even valid place anyway ive recently started new therapist last two quit feeling better school ending everytime appointment lose emotions get anxious easily irritable want talk problems always feel like theyre enough actually make anyone care worst part emptiness mixed dissociation sometimes feel sweet nothing im body followed feeling anxiety generally negative feel like bitch wishing depression worse wish motivation people would really care would need antidepressants anyway partially look forward things might make happy partially wanna kill everyday like worst problems world hate fact laugh ass anything ever actually feel anything sad it eooukd nice talk people dont get tired listening,1 +want help first girlfriend broke idk hard move cause first girlfriend idk ive crying last two weeks,0 +sleep day awake nightanyone else get this empty shell spend time bed usually crying when im awake,1 +cannot seem stop crying every single day especially night want go back feeling empty tired sadness want stop hour tired crying,1 +thank yall usually lurk around ive almost years fun final year teenage weird but usually funny sometimes deep stuff ive found always made feel welcome cheered up thank rteenagers welcoming immature like ought be atleast can ps still lurk wil creepy since im teen anymore,0 +im ready go im calm makes even certaini dealt lot life im sparing details suspect elaborate id receive messages saying ive come far ive proven stand hardships etc etc abused throughout childhood poor life etc gotten nothing im accepting future want life option really continuing kind work part time college food service first job lab gave presentations awards ive worked many labs ive done many things even cant get fucking internship im fucking idiot current job makes feel legitimately subhuman cry whenever get work feel worthless ambitions ive put much work fulfilling them itll end ruins government planning massively tax graduate school options already out already knew would be think could get gpa really want to graduate degrees seem burden anything want work lab even care make meager money long afford studio apartment take pride work pride work right now foresee even finding job graduate little year cant even get second internship already one get this gave offer back said no thought broaden horizons ive lost luck ever had could set safe ruined that bottle barbituates chronic migraines made map entire future different tendrils might take none lead anywhere positive options spent future im obligated work packmule serve professionals better lives mine rest life cant make that one can im afraid die consider im act defiance refuse live survival mode sake people empathy towards me wanted fulfilling life wanted loved even pay well wanted cultivate image myself develop hobbies make friends never happen work deadend job rest life honestly question anyone does anyone continues living life like that barring children spouses want fulfilling life want death never fulfilling life im stopping train derails or sense im derailing myself least im control,1 +ever discover song completely relate it i talk myself self think need help help im nanana okay im nanana okay im bad health health heads shelf shelf im nanana okay im nanana okay sing myself self needs get well well im nanana okay im nanana okay ampxb ampxb ampxb i promise enough karma account post ,0 +girls grade like take care mental health hesitate talk me leave hey seen thomas never seen bullshit before,0 +wanna see ghost come ghosty,0 +hate vagina hate physically female advice hey im yo agender afab ive recently struggling lot dysphoria surrounding genitals im looking removed soon even soonest like month want genitals surgery goes well ill nothing smooth crotch like doll with hole urine currently ive struggling dysphoria lot feel like im deformed like im constantly forced dress like girl like open wound legs seriously super hard functioning right now often distressing masturbate change use toilet shower genitals body day subway bacame acutely aware fact genitals aware felt i wearing underwear could fault pants incredibly painful even express people subway one many examples weird get turned see girls vagina im distressed own anyone advice deal it theres ways im able cope genitals right now,0 +somewhat new minecraft question got new pc christmas got minecraft sort played never made deep run days later stockpiled blocks worth iron found diamonds excluding turned pick im preparing nether question would smarter make armour diamonds tools diamond pick break enough iron make new set armour go iron tools also make diamond armour whats pick,0 +heysoi things mind sorry bad english much sadness inside me feel like right feel sad bad feel like nothing feel better nothing anyone help me either ever recall geniunely happy never thought before know times felt glad maybe even cheerful never lasted everything went back gray that happiness really necessary even possible me become worst posible version me cant explain why people loved me love anymore unlovable maybe am ones still do even like me likelove facade everyday mask would go away knew real me broken unstable real me really need them want die want live life way want leave brothers right know want stay either wish wasi know far drinking tea reading amazing book actually making feel something forget worldi even feel anymore then coming back home maybe alone maybe company proud happy home happy place spend hours daydreaming nothing daydream about life better never better anything imaginary mind could come with like that tomorrow woke everything keep sadness nothing make think maybe current life bad maybe wasting time maybe someday happy way spent lived best years nothing cant feel anything good ampxb ampxb,1 +watched movies girlfriend time say best time mainly know ned kelly storybr br but since biopic important least know expect characterbr br i know manner events told true everything fictional way ned kelly portrayed hero fighter justice really makes want believe everything true think hes portrayed redneck criminal thief thats opinionbr br this solid westerntype movie everybodys tastes heath ledger great always sexy naomi watts charms screenbr br give movie chance airs cable otherwise think could recommend it,0 +think im okayive offline while getting meds check seeing therapist self harmed voices quieted im able sleep little better night things really looking up thank helping even bit last months thank you,1 +well ive got catching do looking back lacklustre year best show shone great storyline little action cavalcade magnificent characters particular reference fred willard jim piddock rattling pair tv commentators well done well worth effortbr br ron viewed mar,0 +crazy expensive old pokemon games games get older generally get cheaper yet pokemon opposite pokemon soulsilver like even though year old game pokemon black white like now prices used games crazy got point old video games skyrocketing price low supply,0 +things n stuff yo im really sick people talking things know shit about getting panties twost tell something like irritating,0 +total failure nothing show life chance better future ever get feeling never meant alive,1 +yall want porn ya go httpsporncompornhubhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq,0 +either sweetest person ever met twisted fucking cycle path filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +dont knowno one loves much likes die,1 +byei try give love everyone nobody ever cares trying understand might shut going lot die anyone even pretends care me go hell beg understanding beg someone understand like live life feel like dead body walking everyone seems take pain trivialize it im done trying explain show anyone truly feel inside goodbye,1 +thinking uh fuck za handos left hand,0 +would make good boyfriend really know expecting ,0 +think need type outcurrently sitting car parking lot one hour stay least one hour going home told boyfriend id gone couple hours let house himself got fight yesterday didnt come bed am assumed id asleep morning stayed upstairs whole time pretty much avoid me left give space isnt major problem hurtful isolating zero friends family lives miles away rarely reach anymore kind feels like one whole solution fight would apologizing happy welcoming again cant that issues guess want come me dont want let leave did didnt care probably prefers gone again isnt major problem think cherry top everything else ive thinking killing seriously week now thoughts life usually serious though still exhausting functional person functional cant anything life bare minimum simply dont energy really tired living pain fear every single day tried pull bootstraps make life better end cant ive tried medication best makes numb doesnt really fix anything ive tried therapy good things end still solves nothing so started thanksgiving boyfriends family bad toothache lo behold sisterinlaw nurse decided call pain meds tbh would happy ibuprofen big bottle tramadol sitting drawer never took im kind antimedicine felt like would knock out cant quit thinking giving taking whole bottle pills researched actually causes lot deaths every year overdoses think could work real option issue is doesnt theres chance could end coma give brain damage heart damage dont want fuck life even more but losing endurance planet almost years now really sucks life fun happy good so difficult everyone hurts you everyone selfish included good place think would prefer nothingness,1 +know many people care read this still alive guessanyone else feeling dead insidelike waiting something push life cliff still alive,1 +anyone offer advice thoughts anythingi figure place people might diverse opinions experiences biological depression aka im little down cause got broken with im debt etc top intense atheism scientific deterministic perspective quantities intelligence sufficient detrimental think might main problems see reason exist things fun simply to like waiting forsomething idea could be death chance deal continuous internal dialogue could somehow withdraw sit around rot without deal mind whole time would frustration life search meaning when really none whatsoever hobbies theyre distractions enjoyments enjoy them understand people function day day every hour spend conscious feels like last meters kbut never ends killing due excess emotion cant deal with would lack emotion investment anything throwing hands defeat fact one nothing exists reason existence itself existence really grating nerves,1 +freaking years old therapist need asking brushed fking teefersi want know felt ask want know intricate detail emotions going head asked thati mean put position client oral hygiene practice due never something reinforced child going head get ready ask questioni want ask brushing teeth twinge insecurity words say want put much pressure client maybe make cutsie sound quite badly maybe feel like treating like child essentially is grown manchild brush teeth maybe sneak slight dig motivate morethose immediate thoughts come mind yet use word teefers time later session attempt compliment deep discussions usually thinks very smart yeah one things like other one things belong let us realistic,1 +repeating cyclesi meant hand masters dissertation week past two months ive done nothing adhd working home impossible constant arguments girlfriend repeat cycles ill always repeat cycles matter what stress adrenaline rush reconciliation repeats blocks wonders im unable focus literally anything else im done last time cant see end cycle im addicted never disappears merges something new im taking control,1 +last night gave permissioni chambered round revolver spun wheel perhaps practicing building nerve ive wrestling years ive alone long ghosted many women interested in want feel pit stomach anymore im tired put facade confidence im scared death fear ill longer attractive her im tired waiting shoe drop im tired goddamn scared alone rest life ive decided really want go route permission keep feeling awful whenever get even remotely close someone watch lose interest vanish even promising to even ive remained aloof,1 +extremely depressedsuicidal years finally changedhttpimgurcomdipzops httpimgurcomqfxjrma httpimgurcomsndvzzw httpimgurcomzlfgdz little dude responsible positive change life recently,1 +whats least painful way goplease answer question,1 +amazing grades still want kill myselftoday got final university assignment result got a means ill receiving bsc ordinary distinction however ive ever known throughout life abandoned people love also happened recently led ostracising as well ostracised others im much emotional pain want kill im stuck survival instinct torture id initially set date today because final results day cant go it hate life,1 +hindsightsay yoy years old life miserable mean horribly unfulfilled sad would make wish killed saw coming give bull crap gets better want know already lived life horrible would feel like redflag suffering better option honestly people ever get better years suffering better redflag,1 +tired hearing give get better give time every day gets worse single thing makes feel anymore empty even alone still feel like everyone looks me everyone wants something them role life need anything figure own cannot make friends matter much try relate people sick here sick trying waiting things different tired seeing therapist getting nothing one feel like pay listen ramble hour every two weeks easy tell people give,1 +tians remake good all click remake documentary see wei wei original actress back classic film say words crew going meet wei wei sunday showing xiao cheng zhi chun hong kong film archiev wei wei almost years old silver hair cameo appearance hong kong films always surprise fans years hong kong film festival special program dedicated fei mu director epic movie wei weis still shot movie seen around hong kong son turns year surprised wei wei beautiful then,0 +featuring fascinating performance smith story tugs heartstrings harder rock guitarist midsolo seven pounds races past directors previous collaboration actor the pursuit happiness flick also loved remember gabriele muccinos name movies may skip unnoticed actor attached project quite highprofile br br too bad figured smiths scheme early on put two two together calls suicide first scene scene rosario dawsons character introduced incurable heartdiseasebr br however still think writerdirector made right choice putting bookends bookends first last scene way source urgency tension movie finding gradually exactly man driven ultimate sacrifice heartbreaking see relationship smiths dawsons character flourish develop knowing back mind always store unlucky twobr br one friends saw movie thought smiths character could divine gift understand why performance almost angelic presence seven elected ones yet times could harsh scary hes alone full weight situation got much breaks completely quite versatile performancebr br lastly cant forget mention crash scene reenactment really quite stunningly done terms cinematography paired music put list,0 +i used get sad thinking it ive rationalized ive accepted it thanks trying help,1 +anyone wanna play number game im bored lmao dm me ill answer,0 +uhh bored ill idk anyone tell sometjing im pool none mu friends dont wanna get water,0 +gorging variety seemingly immature movies purchased exrental dvds figured time right little serious drama better provide sam mendes number reasons american beauty appeal much film easily darkest thing tom hanks ever done probably one underrated films last decade simple gangster tale lifted graphic novel origins simply wonderful watch it despite usual allergy film tom hanks name still cant watch big without wanting cat kick im glad gave try one movies kick miss itbr br normally squeakyclean hanks plays michael sullivan devoted family man father two sons growing prohibition early s also professional hitman mob boss john rooney paul newman managed keep job secret sons eldest tyler hoechlin witnesses dad involved mob killing pair forced go run john seeks tidy matter up soon father son pursued chicago fellow hitman a menacing jude law waiting thembr br on face it reads like pretty standard gangster film ive said really gangsters all relationship father son thrown together tragic circumstances hanks grits teeth superb tortured man finds everything price little hoechlin also good sullivans son honesty single performance could single weaker others cast pretty much faultless cinematography costumes and often praise costumes recreates s stunning effect much effort get everything right pays spades could easily looked rubbish admit early s look difficult put deserves every bit credit chicago especially looks fantastic lined hundreds rickety cars era filled people monochrome suits hats true timetravel even little cgi neededbr br the story also winner offering human face often seen stereotypical genre movie villain law surprisingly menacing almost mechanical killer maguire proves cagney de niro brando play gangster film decidedly noirish driving rain illlit warehouses predominate least violence killing finally seen emotional psychological impact perpetrate merely witness acts whole thing evocative previous age previous movies sweeps away old refreshes modern tale redemption amid tommygun shootouts extortion rackets feel little slow places especially used masses gunplay movies like modern audiences like truly sometimes words speak louder actions mendes delivered fine followup oscarwinning debut film intelligent beautiful watch road perdition may everyones tastes one dvd shall exchanging anytime soon,0 +think im tail end boutim almost always depressed last month worst ever been feel like part snapped ever heal im bit better now though im back normal depression least marginally manageable im gonna anything bad least yet thought id post case anyone worried,1 +know anyone else experienced this ever suicidal thoughts sake them randomly thinking almost glorifying head weird suicidal ideation reason all,1 +good evil worldive pain suffering nearly everyday life thinking go away seems like redflag option right thoughts till god brought light humans hurt most think it hurt brought kind suffering kind pain thoughts answer always humans believe evil believe good good commit redflag nothing good leave world want bring good evil world jesus young knew name truly prayed asked show guidance truth did words bible learned live ask one thing search christ pray ask guidance ask come life may least bring good evil world something good leave world people one suffering suffer evil live spirit flesh pray truly need shall endure unto end shall saved matthew easier camel go eye needle rich man enter kingdom god mark ,1 +fucked last time feel like fix lifenot sure wtf anymore even put forgive doesnt belong tldr used play college sports cheated longterm long distance relationship never able stop years even though wanted ive caught cheating many times forgive want live anymore even though completely aware awful everyone know love basically crisis contemplating ending life past two weeks think it ridiculous stupid feel feeling way entirely doing find asking internally well didnt see happening now ex girlfriend years finally given trying make relationship work spite issues infidelity understand cant process accept know caught cheating multiple occasions time feel like managed grow move never really addressed issues associated problems relationship despite insistence knew something wrong me talking trying find way move past always resulted blaming collection small anecdotal incidents resulted resentment miscommunication always felt like tried take burden responsibility ever fault look mirror see someone longer wish changes wish make seem impossible point ive ruined whatever good feel left world imagine looks lense worse considering finally hit threshold tells never girlfriend trust again know circumstances unreasonable selfish fuck even considering killing myself know responsible misery position in accept things accept actions left impressions feelings cannot fix immediate foreseeable future know follow through probably killing mother older widow looks world also know people still feel attachment world care spite ive done would crushed take life addict ive addictive personality whole life ive known enough habits family history life though managed mostly avoid addictions deemed harmful like hard drugs gambling ive actively told dislike without ever really letting open experience trying long time addicted alcohol kept manageable obsessed football playing career ended find temporary addictions hobbies pick week two immense passion forget lose interest weeks later biggest addiction wish would kept better check involves sexual addiction even prepuberty feel like aware watching porn via internet albeit poor dialup connection home short time parents work computers girlfriend started dating sex year dating definitely rushed ready maybe first year seemed like genuine hesitance keep sex hard us arrange feasible location comfortable accommodating addicted willing sex anywhere asked suggested constantly legitimately took high school classes together would give handjob desk almost every day still wanted more one point suggested wanted sex much find another girl knew wasnt suggestion much active choice someone else lead path using internet explore sexual fantasies first chat rooms message boards progressing time actually texting video chatting women time freshman college freshman year started increase frequency lived another state thought would secret sidefantasy could play enjoy without hurting feelings eventually lead actually meeting girl aware relationship urges wanted sex without attachments piecesofshit like do gave selfishness without really considering girlfriend besides wrongly justifying sexual experiences burden her thing considered possibly giving std wish could say rooted intent live safe healthy lifestyle much feared caught requested see recent test results girl wore condom sexual relationship happened times felt tremendous amount guilt experience left addicted browsing craigslist various dating sites nsa hookups ultimately hooked two girls year girlfriend moved went school year later thought could let things go resume normal relationship put aside infidelity eventually found girls freshman year fact randomly met made friends first girl finding happened eventually worked things insisted purely sexual past since cycle developed periodically almost every year two would find slipping back old ways either cheating getting caught textingemailing women honest dont know many different times situations think it wish would addressed it time see tried redistribute shame blame things weshe could control want end life stop thinking mistakes made recent failure lifes attempts maintain faithful sexual relationship result schedules growing depression felt since car accident november left questioning life value convinced would somehow healthier find discrete fuckbuddy instead address lack sex affection life person actually loved because coward know am feared rejection judgement felt like would disinterested things wanted try even find repulsive it long story short weeks ago found texts even photos broken whatever previous forgiveness mustered get it logically get cannot even imagine possible future me cant get head actually wrap around reality least reality want part more cant ask take back again mean have isnt gonna happen know it asked least plan potentially move forward since live together seems like accept friend cannot even put idea getting back together realm possibility get that hurts past two weeks still attended two weddings planning go went together maintaining appearance friends family things okay impression total lie felt like trying make situation work could eventually try work without making publicly known issues bringing directly see saw differently thought strong feelings felt still enjoying others company probably mutual coping going maybe hardest week work life responsibilities requests pressure compiling seemingly insurmountable life obstacle almost support system im starting care really dont know want role im company at wanted job maintain life sanity things feel gone looking left life moving forward see nothing disappointment missed opportunities reaching friends even family able articulate dangerous finite mindset sure proceed here smart enough know need help strong enough admit others know need it help expect deserve want it want another chance think deserve even life have,1 +im going lose job feels like reach final chapterim civil servant government transferred another department end last year previous department making money good annual reviews decided take pay decrease job backend wouldnt deal clients directly thought would help anxiety wanted broaden horizons gain skills service thought job would easier interesting difficult me ive managerial review getting cases checked manager working independently yet make lot errors new program difficult grasp adhd unmedicated training plus work almost two months still learning due quarantine old job organized one manual mess parts memorize without rhyme reason sixty days improve work per performance plan succeed demoted type person pushes carts around day considering im nearly crippled due health issues would really bad me plus wild rds make now live expensive state college degree never ever earn amount money now work grocery store something cause entire family become homeless went psych hospital year ago two weeks wanted jump front train walked halfway train station turned back ive thinking part head would blow guarantee death luckily access guns bipolar chronically ill unhappy life talents lost friends hated entire life im holding due mom love dad family well course feel like needs most significant ready commit nearly decade tells im one find someone else love friends theyll get someday feels like end lose job likely will control life never get anything done right fail everything do once want feel like complete task myself correctly perfectly dying hands feels like way something right once feel like end everything,1 +againtoday hits like ton bricks happened like before things seem going well suddenly im back thinking life isnt worth space day months feeling im getting semblance life back together today started really well somewhere along line everything went completely wrong couldnt even tell when why ive happen before used worry depression coming back even feeling well thing thats really getting time really didnt worry returning hanging me know sounds ridiculous space day suddenly feel progress ive last months pointless never let guard dare hope things would different thing worries though happened many times feel inescapable know objectively could lot worse isnt really anything much changed situation yesterday feeling completely fine reason find consolidation that,1 +im monsterthis bothering life long time lurker first time posting here feel im wits end funny thing is feel like super depressed anxious feel fine today albeit littleempty woke lot pain besides that im perfectly okay im confused seemingly unending death wish even im okay im laughing now writing this threw balance today back pain funny slight inconvenience enough make want want kill myself thought okay life mean im published author musician suck it used straight student im anymore im university plans become doctor really plans parents plans personally want musician want music thing make feel like monster hurricane katrina destroyed home excited move practically start life over father stayed home mom siblings hopped state state settling down without father expected new start life genuinely excited expecting get molested raped however im male day never truly felt same young shaped today good thing ive bullied vast majority life religion im muslim always ass end ass kicking ass end bomb joke joke never really took heart kid lately coming back adult life feels like th grade pe again diagnosed tumor specifically hemangioma collection blood cells t vertebrae spine operated immediately year medication blood work hospital stays countless mris cat scans surgeries later cancer free never chemotherapy family want it growing cancer highschool days never upset actuallyrelieved honestly thought gonna die never told anyone course deep down hoped cancer would kill me upset just relieved like road trip really really need pee finally stop feel whole sensation relief taking hold body thats long for went remainder highschool years neck back brace certainly help case since surgeries ive great deal pain thought could turn drugs take pain away drugs kinda just took over huge problem certainly problem hated problem all im guilty crime want explain it but ive hurt someome sexually regard hurt sexually growing up thought right thing learned learned wrong hurt poor soul probably ive hurt wish could rectify mistakes god way undo entire life fucking show way im monster want end fucking circus life ive hurt im truly sorry nothing ever forgive me wish could modicum forgiveness told okay fairy tale real life real life sunshine happiness unicorns rainbows fucking dank miserable unforgiving im glad learned earlier rather later know im myself hope find way life wish balls myself,1 +want anymorei trying take legal action people video taping bathroom recording people talking lot static wanted mom pay someone clear up back acted like able even though know price wanted pay it minor still wrong wanting financially support this people still running around struggling types mental health issues it feel supported wish could move cant feel trapped someone care me seems like way death,1 +posting ara ara forget day ara ara,0 +things going hill ever since porn ban happened tumblr idk man tumblr porn hit different,0 +ocean redflag vs sdcci want swim cant fine becoming part ecosystem makes useful ive last decade life know ill get there abuser extremely intensely controlling day badge sdcc amp idea badly wish could instead painfully submitting death kept planning pretending something would work out things kept getting worse me cant stand live another thing supposed never did finished mercy someone elses severe mental illness never getting situation help amp leaves hope sounds trivial dumbass kills themself cant go comic con it though used real toilet weeks shower months even let earn eat more victim horrific abuse collapses crushing weight another hopeful escape yanked reach victim chooses walk field instead playing another forced inning abuser so crying but yall eyes dry amp even lump throat really good time sometimes amp eternally thankful experiences way except die accept now peace you,1 + months due quarantine caught assignments exams im donei lost last two years college mental illness time around im losing quarantined online teaching poor teachers assigning multiple exams week expect perform normally would clearly life meant be im killing myself,1 +whenever dont play dog feel like im breaking heart like im sorry puppy need study cant play rn,0 +rape redflag sexslept two guys slept two guys basically dont even know true fwb would sleep together lot even drove exam one night came invited friend drink literally woke see three used condoms ground called said sleep friend message saying fucked last night freak shit called fwb said didnt happened friend like im joking happened fast forward three months later stop talking fwb roommate get argument called landlord told fucked two guys house called fwb saying didnt happened u drunk loud sooooo idkkkkk couldve fucked two guys raped illl never know stressing want commit redflag mother told something happened deserved ive committed redflag three times sent hospital doesnt come visit says next time properly dont house stuff like u die ill cremate dont care honestly feel like ill better stupid planet feel alone,1 +reason keep going hurt familymy name adam years old fuck up moved mothers times think every time lasts months year end back failed go back time planning going school vancouver moved cousin girlfriend quickly figured going work long term gf clearly hated idk sick room mates despises tell way tone changes talks me way back penticton small town mother op top think mom really want back either sick stay her understand increadibly unlikable mattered ended getting kicked allowed extended guests landlord gave boot top friends never loser high school never sleep another kids house think ever even went another kids house high school said obviously never girl friend virgin really care want gf want someone care about someone cares me truth even know interested girls never opportunity try feel like mess get experience people high school time fairly recently happy dog name ari german shepard loved win heart companion loved unconditionally could always spend time with ended give away place staying could keep at ended move able find another pet friendly place could afford gave good family children still think endlessly like months now find wishing never got lot better depression wise got now closing know severely depressed years want end every time mean every time think chance get better goes wrong sick trying,1 +currently researching guns buyive never bought gun never gun person shot gun maybe times life im learning lot trying avoid botched attempt even reading medical papers studies selfinflicted gunshot wounds works doesnt lied therapist today said im danger myself never lie him cant wait gone,1 +biggest fantasy want go out idk want die methods yeah problem is none nearby buildings come close tall want leap building,1 +pain unbearablehow would feel wife tells husband would feel points someone else says person husband taken every risk save help her taken loans loans support her amount loan take year repay fought everyone everyone told would leave you fought person stood by end person punch slap again would feel would do easy forget,1 +idea doback friends people care life haha ive suicidal day dont know feel like one cares me completely unfair like friend suicidal stayed bed day friends including me instantly went go help went bought food boyfriend helping parents drove go help everytime im suicidal like everyone looks way know wrong unfair compare shit friends none even try help one even checked me partner checked told suicidal said im sorry making fucking intensely upset like dont know feel like everyone wants dead doesnt take seriously dont know cant stop hitting cutting scratching want kill im scared dying dont know im tired alove cant die dont know die cant get help im gonna lose friends partner fail classes dont know im depressed im crying reddit dont even use reddit haha wow dont know,1 +think fair eat parents cook unless youre buying yourself do honestly people dont see fair imagine cooking someone abd dont eat want that yeah arent going agree listen say wanna go vegan dont include mother father whoever else going vegan question unless youre making money cant eat whats cooked didnt tell family wanted vegan woke said im vegan still eat dairy product that family gon like hmm became something couldnt eat used regular dont money pay involve people paying think maybe wait soon youll able eat wantim waiting eat chicken nuggies idk ab u guys,0 +movie damian szifrns second immersion movies excellent character study el fondo del mar tiempo de valientes creates extremely well done characters far away prototypes unprecedented chemistry them ive seen szifrons talent present every character lighthearted way enough involve us emotionally them control magnificent restores movie great direction overall brilliantly polished script characters laugh cry real sentiment invite viewer join emotions evolution screenbr br the spanish takes english buenos aires urban landscape night replaces hollywood sets premise interesting other film daring compete hollywoods machinerybr br but want see movie mainly ive never dealt endearing characters them seems script suits perfectly actors vice versa really believe film making like argentina really competition,0 +think life hates meim years old every day battle losing temper feel like want rage destroy everything want let everything out sadness anger want kill myself care anymore people alive torture life cant good happy people want harm me im different shit part world apologize advance bad english ive bullied since rd grade even teachers disliked blamed things parents may cared me feel like im part family rd grade got worse worse th grade tried kill myself first redflag attempt now regret it regret failure dead now suffer people annoyed presence time parents totally different towards in negative way following year got accused stealing money normal school day pe got back locker room one classmates said missed wallet five minutes later noticed another wallet pocket mine gave said somebody put pocket still know that remember standing hallway whole class around me ready beat yell me apart that also things instance messaging kill myself hating hobbys playing videogames watching anime coding etc really important th grade brother also went school im in classmates hated me soon began cooperate friend it turned never wanted friend whole situation got worse everyday eventually stopped stopped soon got first girlfriend life changed negative way cried every night her really toxic friends time also deceived me still picture head playing minecraft them server console running background due problems wanted solve saw friends girlfriend sending private messages insulting me things like im sorry boyfriend know read private messages appear console im trying fix something cant anything it never broke up thought everything fault days birthday broke nobody talk to weeks passed made friends internet today really contact anymore second relationship started got much worse looked like wanted hurt me started depression everything changed life got dark girlfriend tortured me emotionally wouldve done everything her even like that told flirted friend mine afterwards said im worst boyfriend said felt little uncomfortable talking like lovers girlfriend said you right tell ex do first time broke up yes also second third time although broke third time finally friends joking luck life still say normal im shit die want escape life want kill soon end all even know you thank reading story really appreciate lt least strangers internet hate,1 +dont think care fact people hurt death anymorethat big part wouldnt commit redflag honestly dont care people life suffer death made suffer life care feelings even death thats selfish tbh didnt care whilst im earth im told care death,1 +im feeling bored do,0 +ive waited years wait another just felt like sharing get load chest ive made decision go redflag im really sure dogs rescue shes attached me shes scared everyone everything look her cant trust anyone take care took life ill wait shes older socialized guess feel little proud going tonight keep thinking keep repeating years calms enough take meds once hope anyone else feels like this maybe theyll repeat words well mean cant see anything getting better try another years know can thanks reading daisy,1 +insomnia sucks sun rising didnt go sleep all im gonna tired day sleep schedule gonna fucked forever,0 + yr old girl im honestly good person want die maybe shouldworthless good word describe me im dramatic cant give people need im emotionally vacant bad things order feel something ya know tried medication therapy cant afford anymore honestly help hard describing feel wanna feel anymore,1 +im year old man cut myselfi even know tbh nothing me yet find unable fight urge incredibly embarrassing since considered year old emo girls attention fuck wrong me,1 +sex might cool all idk bur ever woken sleep straight fucking died,0 +literally sat bed crying begging someone something kill lmaoi feel fuckin trapped mani one want worry shit thanks reading guess method would done tonight,1 + years ago never thought life would lowi used lot close friends well school good family life met one person life ruined,1 +fucking hate lifeeverybody fucking hates me family mocks trying desperately cling onto friends met online take fucking joke want kill myself killed somebody else hide computer fear posts rredflagwatch found want keep posting place canvent everything sucks high school sucks face sucks fucking art sucks life sucks want happy but may better solution make others happy notice everything goes well around maybe keep way hell lose friends any pets fucking avoid try bite fingers off despite love care family hate me mock me want throw fucking curb hell even born and god real many others like feel way i dont fucking want feel way me ugly bullied care others myself why world cruel falling apart caused it want diejustto die,1 +great james cagney topbilled big letters show till movies second third probably less screen time dudley digges plays eeevill reformschool potentate jimmy arrives deputy commissioner somethingorother reform reform schools slashes air hands jumps balls feet spits punchy warnersfirst national dialogue customary expected panache psychology crisp antique one warners many efforts assert place socially conscious studio run deep digges bad script requires be theres quaint notion juvenile delinquents turn swell kids theyre given dash autonomy made spare fast style studio specialized in never bores frankie darro got kinds onscreen trouble brief tenure warners favorite rotten street kid ideal jd handsome charismatic toughie pug nose hatefilled stare could wither steel kid actor today touch him,0 +want kill myselfi think better said know life completely pointless bother,1 +cannot anymore getting really close ending all parents going away days alone time say goodbye world going say goodbye everyone soon,1 +weird lately acting really weird social situations especially schools every time talk someone comfortable talking fumble get breath easly talking happens talking teacher someone talk much simular thing happens stuff front people get called read something get breath easly reading that get called mathphysics problem board completely forget everything everything subject biggest problem know noticable people really obvious could be kind problem me,0 +words hardly describe it ill brief the thief bagdad favorite movie child never ceased astound enchant me loved film first moment saw it boy six started reading the arabian nights remember walking tv room middle sabus battle giant spider instantly beguiledbr br rarely much beauty magic wonder captured film sabu john justin superb dashing heros conrad veidt throughly delightful wicked villain jaffar rex ingram joy watch sardonic genie georges perinals photography best use technicolor one three credited directors michael powell filmmaker rightfully heralded critics often overlooked audiences remarkable films including a matter life death aka stairway heaven the red shoes one true masters camera right david lean akira kurosawa orson wellesbr br as great works art beauty the thief bagdad lies detail every frame magical charm story never lags characters actions always involving film never grow old,0 +everyone tells turn family things hardwhat family reason wish dead ive sitting idea killing while knowing feel push needed,1 +work one knows bad fucked yetposted last night panic attack this im back today everyone treating before wonder theyll react know want leave comes out everyone already noticed downswing mood attitude hr already spoke possibly depressed one would look twice said leaving due health issues ill lose medical coverage though able see therapist cant help feel make outlook worse would point leaving though id avoid embarrassment id still living life devoid meaning time spend thinking life certain pointless,1 +would u describe perfect girl filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +case covid confirmed school still go thats great,0 +question girls tampons technically butt plugs,0 +terrified redflagbut time something need do gonna pawn last shit get gas money food thats folks,1 +meim people outside probably wouldnt able tell feel tbis way im glad want parents friends happy memorys ive struggling depression since got bullied lot school way looked really didnt many friends built terrible social anxiety trust general skills continued friends really hit puberty people started talking cinfused now someone said glow stupid shit like people cheered depressed round year later started self harming harmed aroujfvweird plsces going gym lot time blamed scars stretch marks muscle growth continued shit started kick started get really bad body dismorphia seeing ugly lump lard every tine looked mirror even tho im v good shape ik still look mirror look fat weird im im confused body gross scars ive started lose hair due genetics meds slow give awful side affects cant take tbink final straw tured going gym eating healthy still slightly chubby im unhappy everything pillows stained tears every night im tired feeling way used worry parents would react im sorry love people love mental pain much im suffering live even pass life,1 +knew onto something looked life while ive lot symptoms depression feeling depressed lot point suicidal thoughts actions recently mom went doctor got therapist well today got letter mail diagnosis severe depression apparently sure information see therapist every day im redflag watch now bright side passed english test book didnt read edit apparently posted times fuck it know,0 +need kind earive texted called several hotlines feel like none actually listening me wrong cant feel joy right now cant make anything feel okay,1 +days try positive end regret kill years agoto honest right know stuck ways useless worthless wretch human become unfit dumb dulled irritable mess person every single thing tried make happy succeed days want someone kill disappear use world anyone around me go belong dead grave like future talents skills lost seems destroy annoy ruin things around me ampxb cannot even bring focus mentally job feel worse tired tired utterly worthless useless job home feels like everyone around despises keeps around pathetic pity ampxb days try tell redeem myself future get good something productive deep know lie cannot believe anymore dumb become good anything days play video games watch youtube even work thing keeps bad thoughts walking trying jump building again heck walked work spent minutes almost minutes car debating whether try jump something quit job ampxb lot time know deal sort even try cope anymore feel tired lost mostly defeated ampxb felt feelings nowhere near bad time get feel accomplished stronger all tired times wished killed earlier least feel like died feeling like human ampxb know bunch incoherent rambling think trying vent either die decline mentally although feel like much real person anymore like dulled psychopathic shell,1 +ask random questions im bored counts social interaction degenerate loser mind,0 +used social incredibly active social media met lot incredible people there however one method therapist told remove potential triggers may fall back depression loop identified social media one them time went improvements mood swings relatively stable however became less comfortable inviting people life included isolated others still keep contact friends enthusiastic opening them zzzz things improving cost,1 +father making suffer entirety middle school school ive made many good friends relationships came gone year emotionally destroyed dad retiring wants go back home town forcing whole family go there finished grade entering grade school nearly years ripped apart everybody old mans fantasy im seeking emotional support whole family telling man stop baby,0 +anyone drawing suggestions im bored cant think anything draw might post stuff draw idk,0 +nothingrecently ive saddened alone feel friends know yet try help ive depressed years thought redflag held back fear would people know care couple nights ago walking home alone midnight stood middle highway closed eyes nothing ever came walked ive told people response ive gotten not doorstep please taunt know anymore either,1 +random girl called natural hair beautiful reassured antagonizing racists school switched online school public tuesday none approximately three friends classes except pe ever really walkrun around volleyball net today coaches took basketballs volleyballs hula hoops free day generally friends walk around perimeter gym talk free days time two class talking one another kind leaching along awkwardly obviously want there kind swooped way closer want instert seem annoying mindlessly circled around gym wore natural hair today contrary normally do install braids shove headscarf whats head girl got attention asked that even question making fun coily hair thick c hair seems like anywhere go cant escape discrimination even home mother who uses perms do even brush that it looks like dirty sponge like skin maybe bathed dark little circle antoagozing me decided go space volleyball net far enough away bother anyone close enough game girls playing seem lost look like easy target girl coming bathroom stopped second saw hair gasped thought would snarky comment until oh god hairs beautiful know why touched heart ill wearing hair tomorrow,0 +everyday exactly samei go work come home empty house play video games bit go bed weekends stay home time go need groceries something friends never successful relationship im getting younger amazing im still alive im grateful place live stable job life shit,1 +fact day today years old found stressed makes penis size smaller for advice day stressed time also ask found out,0 +terrible things put people terrible things cannot escape childhood emotional stunting followed therapy medication awhile stopped thought genuinely felt better really thought didthen reminder recent giant explosion drama initially nothing dragged life hell popped againand went right back considering ending all feel lonely people care me believe life good me sure rough bad others lot privilege life really cry help thinki think want someone agree tell making sense know would say someone asked could help reality cannotit justi want die want release pain pain caused others want word forget ever existed want end help think,1 +assistance needed got told mum birthday dad would choose beer guys could send best memes images raccoons or maybe even both thatd great ,0 +woah man sucks one accepted friend group feel like outcast hee hee,0 +i saw cable back late s big wrestling fan since saw vhs for sale bin bought itbr br in started training wrestler air force would always go back watching see accurate portrayal people involved wrestling families friends understand us travel heartbreak etc henry winkler funny sometimes sad watch nobody else understand genius creatively great way separate fonz character played happy days time plus look castwilliam daniels knight rider polly holiday alice wrestlers roddy piper chavo guerrero sr get chance watch it,0 +bruh imagine godlike power kill anyone manage manipulate someone killing greatest detective despite knowing real name world basically become god workshiped worldwide gtbeaten year old probably autisimlt think deserved win,0 +im sad anymore still want diei depressed maybe year kinda kept hid pretty well slowly got worse worse started seriously consider redflag hid pretty well friends started notice something wrong me one night got really drunk finally told one friends feeling told rest friends took see counselor show support great everyone come ive seeing counselor ever since ive feeling lot happier lately reason cant shake wanting die thought going see counselor becoming happy life would solution been want live life happy want live life depressed really know point,1 +whats craziestweirdest thing youve done money filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +finnaly happened started date crush today,0 +went dentist today forgotten pain worries quickly remembered,0 + years old ending miserable existence monthjust tired it hate coexist people hate seeing people alive walking around me hate ugly unable least get laid hate literally everything existence wouldnt bad could least stay room never acknowledge another humans existence obviously cant that redflag next best choice obviously say anything fake nice anything attempting dissuade this fake hell meaningful hate all perhaps indifferent towards me indifferent sense someone seeing garbage street is view unsightly problem anyways hope miserable lives miserable own peace out eat shit,1 +film lyrical romantic memoir told eyes eleven year old boy living rural cuban town year castro revolution obviously genuine worthy labor love br br the names cuba libre cuban blood merely attempts wrongly market action film dreaming julia makes much sense common european cinema rambo revolution merely inconvenience peoples daily lives pursuits fact alone makes film honest works dealing time period cuban historybr br the excessive use voiceover narrator undermine story film makes unqualified clips hollywood films say much visually narrator couldbr br the comparisons cinema paradiso fair game film wax melancholy movies underlying pain loss lifestyle surpasses lost love br br the revolution like film julie never seems ending,0 +posting song mind spreads happyness part coming home sheppard,0 +tired long went strip mining hours went strip mining fortune pickaxe ended getting stack diamonds right end put diamonds chest skeleton shot lava lost fortune pickaxe grinded xp hours got fortune pickaxe,0 +im feeling well someone send distraction something meme music whatever need distraction,0 +im sad right nowwhy cant loved lonely sad thats all,1 +planned kill best friend went europe arrived yesterdaymy best friend holiday europe several months ago told would it towards end holiday cant feel like could stopped me boyfriend would work gone scared feel lost unachieved medicine isnt helping feel like lost cause feel like ive tried can time come cant even that im afraid need help know do ive tried many things nothing good im good enough,1 +grandmother hella homo phobic filler filler filler,0 +dont get itpeople tell kill yourself why alive change life stranger appear care person could bleeding bath tub never know yet push redflag hotlines cared enough would dont simply wish relieved cumbersome existence idk wanted know go ever man upstairs wants,1 +opinion stereotype redditors lonely always single see kind thing time find odd maybe joke im oblivious see it wonder people actually selfconfidence selfesteem believe get partner mean boyfriend really love believed one followed stereotype im taken think everyone find someone find special,0 +want end tonightnothing changed since im depressed stuck room friends social skills gotten worse quite bad already first place sucks everything else life seems great make good money great family mom sister im healthy im good looking whats point end day im feeling lonely cant keep conversation another human go days without saying word blah blah blah im done whining im omw downtown chicago jump one high scrapers right,1 +idk pandemic way life going thinking when it lived alone first time life since may m makes decent living starting working since may last year feel like complete waste life space friend mom talk like hours week felt joy many years see coming back tried see mental help professionals video calling therapy impossible set person visit know time,1 + pm pass bedtime ,0 +feel slipping away everyone everything sleep body requires shuts down lay bed night staring darkness crying seemingly reason walk around numb feels wrong feel empty emotionless time suffocated shear sadness reality getting point death seems like burden something fear thing make whole again know feel anymore,1 +refuse wake years still hate existenceim glad realized fantasy people call life nothing death im glad realized pointless everything young age feel privileged mindset eliminating myself hesitations slowly fading plans slowly unfolding soon ill another statistic fear dying also despise living see one passions outweighs other,1 +tweenskids fucked life yet please go way straight sutdent i discourage getting good grades purposefully overstressing beyond abilities grades mistake made led the wrong path hate anything as report card start it like drug get addicted it some way also becomes normal thing you bs cs become like moral weapon beacuse tolerance developed parents also criticize me got c test made biggerthannormal fuss it little going back gosh could keep going long already ,0 +seriously anyone stay alive life anything religion ever managed prove anything absolutely logical reason something like exist soul god happiness chemical reactions brains were insignificant species insignificant planet insignificant universe nothing matters nothing consequences stay alive ,1 +whywhy im kid already planning death dads mentally abusive liquor obsessed dip shit power funny thing mom doesnt get im planning death kinda rubs way another thing everything like everyone else hates get bullied people liking anime shit friends im funniest person dont even get slightest im dying inside give many hints actually complete explanations im break redflag brush joke thats fault complain people way worse lives im gonna shut lay bed,1 +help big sad need cheering up dont know link funny post cute pet video something,0 +whenever see video says hold let pray real quick scroll fast feel guilty scroll videos go back like it im atheist parents done damage anywho favourite snack,0 +strangely enough movie never made big screen denmark wait video release expectations high way disappointed always ang lee fantastic acting intelligent thrilling plot guessing right till end superb filming along unforgiven easily one two best westerns sbr br people expect something along line mel gibson patriotcorny braveheartacceptable sourly disappointed others appreciate mentioned qualities fantastic time watching it ,0 +hurt film everyone aunt matilda comparing illustrious predecessor always going hurt show take western darned good show discover characters lonesome dove wind situations start such as two texas rangers live adventure wind dead town gus manage lose love life performances good see exact mannerisms characters road actors good job cinematography superb music live legendary score nearly two decades past impossible task still finebr br it also helped three episodes see miniseries anymore heck downright impossible see two part telefilm daysbr br fans western rejoice,0 +think fbi agent doesnt like think hates sad fillerfillerfillerfillerfiller dear fbi agent im sorry ever something made cringe nice day,0 +like cut g young supposedly african american male playing digital video game cellular deviceold supposedly african american male walks recording cellular devicesupposedly older african american male oh see understand younger african american male partaking enjoyment playing digital video game made mojang studios widely known minecraft particularly enjoy new haircut g proceed slap back cranium palm handolder supposedly african american male proceeds action said would doyounger supposedly african american male proceeds shriek high pitch vocal cordsthe video recording ends younger supposedly african american male screeching humorous due fact slap back cranium unexpected also unorthodox conversation oh playin minecraft and like ya cut g overall humorous scale,0 +hope meso basically feel hope future me im going end disappointment im going college clue im gonna living mom regularly reminds im failure im disappointment family usually isnt verbally abusive now live nothing excites continue living going bland unfulfilling life im senior graduate plans all dream life artist travel world also want youtubetwitch post travel videos to course unrealistic dont know ill pursue dream thing look forward escape dull future escape torment others mother isnt one noticed im failure im constantly criticized supposed great basketball player go college fucked idea lies ahead understand problems probably arent bad peoples here anyone similar problems help give hope life would appreciated know worthless need help reddit may best place worth shot thanks,1 +school work value blah blah blahi realized unhappy spring sat edge rooftop hours started writing goodbye notes spent least dozen nights sitting bridge looking water cant remember many people would walk like want crying kid problem im going back school soon think want again theres point ive signed contract pay obscene amount money graduation think well could have itll never enough supposed really want die definitely want live know long go waiting something change things fuck supposed do sit wait one day s s s realize still working whole life things make happy hard people understand wanting sleep wake up,1 +uwu hai know got click heres free hug hugs you things get better,0 +day writing something positive happened today english class really really fun today discussed topics everyone interested in,0 +made tiktok kinda thing new youtube shorts lol im curious see people think hereshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdluuajovy link curious thought worth give th tiktok remake shot since instagram reels kind useless,0 +day posting random sabaton lyrics im dating someone hell make way heaven nazi lines,0 +fighting since hero killed himself stunted socially unplugged form passion lived life without passion without skills develop around socialization path forward spent past years failing changing situation tried learn countless skills none thrived would like quit now really worried hurting young nephew unplugging way unplugged cannot go like this hear see beauty head cannot express fingers workout starve best can body change sad time would like strength selfish would also like spit gods stupid face cruel hack years in totally stuck,1 +scientists behaved way hg wells confident would future history quite turned way things come almost years past point wells wrote shape things come film based closer world describes before ways farther awaybr br though well known players raymond massey ralph richardson cedric hardwicke cast theyre caricatures real characters main weakness film devoted wellss philosophy science solve problems rest us backward foolsbr br masseys characters two generations family holds supremely optimistic view cedric hardwicke skeptic feels man rushing far forward ralph richardson warlord arisen destruction another thirty years war fought modern weapons way atomic bomb invented poison gas deemed weapon almost destroys mankindbr br according wells science conquest never mix scientists group far world politics engage things wellss lifetime scientists certainly fled rightwing fascistic governments hitler mussolini folks however order defeat them subordinated allies fashioned atomic weapons ushered modern age behaved wells would liked to someone like albert einstein would headed junta scientists would established new order world war ii br br wells got wrong time development apparently never envisioned computer well atomic power computer programmers far likely rulers brave new world scientists moment still things come aided direction william cameron menzies sets created offer interesting glimpse mind hg wells certainly respected thinker time though quite get right shape things come,0 +today celebrating religious holiday eating chatting laughing joys almost feels realbut tomorrow finally decided going go back apartment miles away take antidepressant pills left already looked dosages tomorrow years would evaporate nothingness pain misery shame loneliness like never happened today surrounded family tomorrow,1 +want bleed tw guess want bleed slice feel ok ok get want bleed cant please let bleed im sorry know wrong place im tired want cut,0 +went see film caution suicidal comedy seem consistent brother attempted suicide seeing devastation caused whole family know first hand crushing deal issue must say film deals way allows viewer inside someone suffering simply know why stop it film perfect respects subject matter importantly makes accessible masses know family humor helped us lot pain and max grace portends suicidal comedy funny and also felt characters real vibrant also extremely intelligent yet simple cuts chase appreciate that give recommend it,0 +writing article online class high schoolers hi im currently student journalist writing piece switch online class effect students mental health whether notsogreat home life lack counseling resources lack socialization etc piece meant centered around south florida due consent rules put place professor would better already resonates would really love talk experiences article please pm interested,0 +whats ur favourite drink mines ginger beer,0 +film blade master may cheap clumsy appearance sometimes shares thoughts problems way beyond era film set in ator chosen one protect earth terrible weapon compared unforgettable unpredictable way atomic weapon goes obstacles witful character muscle power although quite lot would say aspect movie makes surpass film like conan barbarian least say quite brainless diminish ways great adventure movie conan gives ator wholesomeness shares barbarian lower budget movie film good terms setting fights time believable zor villain prisoner throughout film one interesting psychological confrontation gives tension movie even ator seems way fit task loose br br what gives movie little extra scenes may look quirky worth mention fight serpent god even though gigantic puppet well handled snake good lightnings remains silhouette fight quite convincing movie climaxes unusual way quite anachronic breathtaking deltaplane sequence scene introduced properly read all ator get machine pretty unconvincing leads really poetic beautiful midair sequence standalone culminating point movie elevating ator place human fantasy heroes been br br if blade master among great fantastic movies time surprise due lacks bigger surprise considering philosophical way chooses confrontation good evil truth speaks heart shows movie unwlecomed suggest every fan genre try take seriously intelligent movie thats taken seriously seems,0 +im strong enoughim strong enough live cant take anymore barely friends last thing want burden problems suicidal thoughts im strong enough this want die,1 +instead building emergency fund buy boat emergency need money quick sell boat boats known secure investments gain value cost almost nothing maintain boats probably reason im broke af,0 +movie kept constantly entertained comparing serial mom mr waters gone back grittier side nearly polishedbr br there dark side here message success fame changes person importantly changes people around youbr br there false moment filmbr br the characters somewhat cartoonish want believe mr waters trying achievebr br it fascinating watch mr waters evolved truly finest work,0 +anyone burlington new jersey here im wondering anyone actually goes school,0 +brother playing scp secret laboratory rn said hello mtf today i chilling phone blurted im good thanks you ik were talking two different kinds mtf really funny regrets,0 +guys missed spanish lessons theres black suv pulling driveway please help,0 +among us code qjpoqq fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +welp im back square onemy girlfriend broke mins ago dont really know do person could talk problems pretty much fighting for care nobody really talk it,1 +want kill myselfi want kill happened back parents started showing attention siblings me bad gradually disconnected started staying room day playing video games started going without come oldest younger sister started hurting eg kicking me punching pinching complained parents nothing one day kicked hard possibly could complained jack shit hit back hitting shouting screaming shit like boys shouldnt hit girls asked hit said take like man game sister idea could hurt get away continued horrible thing experienced couple weeks ago full bottle mine mothers body wash sink fucking mixture fucking years old laughed parents left said wasnt paying didnt yeah dont want shitty family ive assholes general annoy school time friend slammed football face purpose laughed called weird blocked him theres ton shit could barely write without breaking apart need advice want kill badly right,1 +tried kill sunday nightbut failed take enough medicine misjudged dosage laid floor hours nauseous sweating breathing erratically listening sounded like freight train rushing ears die fuck ashamed,1 +found r wild kratt brothers like ive seen worst thing internet gore vids weird porns unfazed like shit hits different,0 +sensitive staying home school beacuse anxiety recently severe anxiety school blue pretty much point almost feel like im gonna pass out context staying home school two weeks symptoms covid returned back home anxiety attack way im currently scrambling solutions do im currently way ampxb teachers always mentioned if something bothering always talk us it thats did assuming staying home played nothing worry and everyone gets sometimes even explaining almost passed feeling well suggested go home got pissed me portray helpful individuals yet made efforts get help sensitive dumb trying handle myself do,0 +truth is im already deadi four months away ive died countless times last four years life trying fight mymental illness face constant symptoms family whoback then better now kept giving meshit things literally survive mind ampxb aside new habit last year half trusted ofthe thoughts head otherwise would die cant afford trust mybrain wants nothing life wants live lifeless zombie even things crumble parents grow older remain someone still scrambled together enough life skills stand feet despite putting fucking effort ampxb depression social anxiety generalized anxiety comorbid resultant porn addiction got fluoxetine axepta last august made lick difference like got amisulpride parent falsely told schizofuckingphrenia needed said meds numbmehttpsnumbme four years ampxb take long oh emotions thing family teaches well see im youngest three kids also trusting fact abused twice first get see doctor without knowing pretext see writing later say feeling things fucking normal parents surviving anxietydepression entire lives how oh easy fucking interconnected social web full high functioning anxious depressed tools tools harsh word label kindly allow use now ones reading this helps live third world fucked arse society shit gets normalized real quick still end human relationships generally know fucking important shit is ampxb me oh ended basically autistic socially due constant isolation frombetween now trying get ba economics college filled ah normals capable socializing well generalization thats false point get accepted enough connected enough going college aregrowing leaving mebehind sit postrelapse occurred couple hours ago sit feeling like time die ive tried fucking long noe learned far little recompense brain fucking focus ampxb theres point without connection get back up heres vicious cycle works fuck w porn choices gt increased depressionanxiety gt people get wrong signals gt people run away gt creates resentment apathycrippling loneliness sadness self fulfilling prophecy fixed first every fucking time ampxb ive learned near enough nothing insane aspirations financial situation family earning parentssavings last long goals become masters clinical psychology psychodrama therapist plus writeractor im deadly serious this ampxb writingacting help stay alive feel dothem goof actor first try studied near enough much practical experience far shot dark itsmore like throwing dart dark warehouse stacked haystacks hoping magifuckingcally hit bullsye six hundred feet beyond distance well dontcarehttpstcare thats accurate not ampxb tried get many things done time biggest obstacle ended lack support noe theyve finally seen fucking mistakes anger self destruction set mr late seem hurt brain enough via enough consistent sleep deprivation barely focus anymore im functionally dead living based automatic circuitry life program executed biological machine project mediocre second year ba universe creations students fourth dimension man give enough shit make life interesting c grade suits im fucking fine ampxb look im dead know im nothing without people understand im dismissing individuality know whats important life meditation taught things mattered mr enough that right im fucking ofthe wonderful young adults couldve honor meeting life people whose like ive never life im crying ive reached point writing this numb till now whats killing most first time life felt connection felt relations im failing every last one themand losing fuck would understand would comprehend levels sheer social incompetence amount constant self fulfilling prophecies still fall prey despite therapy losing one blame myself ive strength left keep going ampxb attacked trying survive trying learn stand two feet given constant mixed messages never received help needed evenwhen presented answers silver platter ampxb addiction least kills drive many things ampxb haveyou know now much youno want to reading sorry thank reading wonder stranger truly do ive friends least lived constantly feeling dont ive tried think made connections quite bit last four years yet position even know reason ultimately decide die still feel like connections know cant factually true every one them ampxb people im tired problems largely invisible borne isolation sheer lack learning brain executes distraction efficiency nazis used persecuting killing jews offensive use termherehttpstermhere mean accurate racist arse funny much likea white male sound consider im fact fucking indian fair skinned lad dick brown assure you stand seem like though ampxb the thing keeps going doom yeah glorious dumb thing playing it spirit they rage brutal without mercy worse rip tear done see lens neuroplasticity terms seeing symptoms fighting relentlessness doom marine does bfg division loop whenever im trying productive one things works ampxb well iverambled quite bit gone tangent sideline roller coaster abyssal web let mebring end structure ampxb feel lifeless one reason ive felt ten years life childhood rife bullying adolescence mired mistakes supposed adults misinformation first half supposed adulthood filled constant attempts move upward fraught consistent failure ampxb im tired actually gave shit actually tried results enough get point job survive own enough social web hang withwhich really helped smart ass cynical persona prone channeling comedians even im social repressed ass society lgtbtq supportive feminist straight man society would technically normal want date year olds around yet seem one three people fucking informed enough know thats bad idea case collectively slot younger siblings giant babies definitely ones competent professional mr soon enough point mean ill forget like first them hell find getting insecure depressed surpassing now thats fucking fun gonna repeat resentments adults around mr gave simple act daring grow improve genuinely hope im dead happens would consider win least pass hurt conditioning case ampxb im possibly going repeat year college stuck even younger people next year like said losing people manage go college every day attendance low disbarred soon enough ampxb know whats ahead except dying soon then ill go ahead leftover assignments bfg division repeat write write write wait inevitable suicidal ideation sheer emptiness return ampxb another day lost another phase time cannot get back consequence always comes bear ampxb tell me really bad tried not right aint know ampxb died im dead lived ive never really lived know fuckers mean life relationships forget girlfriends ive barely friends human connection general fucking lovecraft probably social methe racist arse prick yet know enough know connections matter almost wish know source problems paradoxically would make survival easier right now ampxb im dead its right now listening next right thing frozen iam gonna writing night ill go college im going die let least come wake event public ally break due social anxiety depression college let least know give avoid ny final moments maybe psychology student gain insight help someone future ampxb dead know im losing them already miss them wish connected much doubt would believe said so mean it hard miss innocence kindness normality gave taste ina life devoid it first real chance establish something intrinsically important fucked up could tell them tell this unaware are would manipulative want to want know im going through that want protect this equipped enough handle it repeat mistakes done me ampxb stories ive had want dedicate life to whether writing acting playscriptscreen writing orstories human condition human becoming kind symbol ampxb im dead ampxb im physically die fade world ill make sure done ideals mind heavy handed ridiculous inthe nature world though may be else society change else move forward ampxb put forth mindless effort cani rip tear done either dead high rise jump orsurviving guess day out learned live work ampxb whatever reason read thisthank you please tear around willing effort know it please dont yourself please stop take me enough it give better internalize messages say things yourself ampxb please end dead like me kill inner better half deserve better please please please ampxb ambegging you fucking please getting goddamn you please please,1 +im girl please give attention bcos im girl im begging,0 +anyone wanna chat something idk dm snap ill hit no im pedo prove it,0 +cats pretty young usually live years got years old definitely ending life started thinking methods brainstorming go it actively planning would land hospital technically still passive thoughts far away alive cats pass,1 +need get chesti need someone something talk to ive spent last weeks vicious cycle feel okay happy neutral guess something minor goes completely wrong spiral get angry lash spend next several hours contemplating life sobbing bedroom alone knowing problems worries would gone dead know tricks people say help depression try reaching people talk someone really friends one acquaintance boyfriend acquaintance always says talk need it try theyre obviously disinterested say fine know exactly excited someone know well tried tell darkest emotions know course boyfriend ive talked circles million times said things imagine starting wear him want burden him want put problems him things worry about shoulder issues well so leave alone im angry tell im going bed stay morning wishing normal wishing came built friends have wishing could support much supports me wishing could muster courage meet friends without anxiety attack know hed happier gone hed probably feel freer least cant talk mom tells see someone know should therapists psychiatrists area take insurance cant afford cover costs appointment week biweekly even month really im also afraid im lazy even work make better busy yourself get job hobby want get job badly want selfsufficient suffer really bad anxiety im terrified ill go job interview immediately burst tears im nervous would want hire someone cant keep emotions check half hour job interview income worry constantly money feel guilty buying anything it things might interested cost money boot want take candlemaking costs dollars even begin thats dollars have want upgrade pc start stream thats dollars want spend much money myself honestly even gaming made angry lately explode know why get overwhelmed die explode hit myself bruises thighs beating died fucking overwatch ridiculous embarrassing im embarrassed wish still brought joy instead negativity like used to finally im college student right now watch country live circles drain devastating watch prospects might get set fire front me im terrified graduating never able get job aforementioned anxiety issues im terrified living poverty housing prices around college keep going up know do life seems pointless feels like future know im going kill myself really dont want to know how maybe ill stop looking ways cross road maybe itll look like accident people funeral mourn thought was deeply angry depressed girl am im sorry long know one really wants read strangers emotions needed get chest,1 +cant anymore im situation cant survivewith friends feel really alone im comfortable talk anyone feel like solution end friendships end myself dont feel good anymore,1 +idk almost females know refer feminine pronouns mean doesnt really disturb lol,0 +get political anything fuck reddit coins everyone want them,0 +stilento trending twitter hate curious also saw tik tok saying something silento gotta get curious like cant unsee,0 +important film challenges viewer encourages pay attention theres lot like here director seems interested taking apart tired cinematic conventions unlike lot recent american cinema film takes interest means make movie first place dvd includes lot bonus features two commentaries explain movie viewers still befuddled initial viewing film screened sundance made audience members uncomfortable angry sunday morning coffee movie friday night party movie dedicated viewer treasure trove,0 +gentle reminder find people attractive want sex finding something aesthetically pleasing always mean want put dick,0 +well great grandma died didnt know well bedridden able speak long remember feel really bad mom also friday th less,0 +girlfriend said thought cheating last month ive grounded sexting morning girlfriend got argument upset said thought sus horny lately sexted her said if im making horny is basically told hurt self esteem said sex first day saw first month priorities,0 +againmy life still bad end life day back again sill want kill family still want happy one day sad every time sadnesses goes away comes back know much take,1 +everyday thought passes mind sure do reached healthcare mental health professions live thousands miles away family speak this talking subject matter dark seems inappropriate online glad scared stop lingering thoughts,1 +heyif anyone would like pm me would appreciated,1 +survived attempts years suck dying thing clearly next time planning slash vertical wrist elbow crookadvice help survive please want die looking helpadvice effectively commit suicide details within,1 +frustrate everyone maybe im better deadno matter hard try fit nice always end frustrating everyone lets face it everyone little patience dealing me im sorry im perfect im sorry im that cant help fact im prone committing stuff thats problematic realise problematic hate feel like this maybe died wouldnt happen anymore dont feel like day,1 +right dielast night caved in started harming breaking internally please get wrong used love living despite redflag attempts illnesses etc living still something good afflicted conditions slowly eroding capability live sanity mobility upkeep etc feel though ready end life im sure yet want another failed attempt want make sure works cant risk condition getting worse point long attempt end life realized wanted last night wave happiness washed me first time long felt calm peaceful nothing noone able provide feelings since first redflag attempt child please bring family etc try talk this guess part here cannot spend whole life existing purely purpose people feeling better comes point consider myself continue put through feel though right die were going die want make happen sooner rather later tried treatments professionals alternatives everything could find conditions continue get worse want die dignity decrepit unable move ways want live knowing feelings peace happiness still exist makes wonder life could been like this know ill this left unchecked know will comments appreciated feel conflicted deeply saddened right now,1 +im already feel old like again,0 +everyone talking simp september often guys get squirrels pants,0 +new group chat teenagers made sub two group chats come join lets talk stuff rteentalks_ link httpswwwredditcomrteentalks_ join invite people talk brand new running couple days support,0 +wonder many mods sub recognise days posting lot lmao posts and probably still is kinda embarrassing,0 + botter get hit car years ago injured knee getting beach torn meniscus surgery meniscus repair work took year doctors acknowledge appeared mri get second second last january learn got worst torn meniscus cartilage defect compensate leg knee hurting swelling stand currently waiting mri knee cant go out used lot sports know gonna possible anymore beginning law school good uni september kind dream got involved student gov models stuff good job based merit uni work could possibly published scientific journals still feel like best days life behind me since cant much except staying home pt school stuff swim more thinking ending life soon bad knee problems seems get worst literally feel like life quality gonna go downhill here help,1 +holy fuck realized gangnum style around almost years ago,0 +im doneim done moms birthday party tomorrow care could absolutely kill tomorrow think redflag constantly whether want not not subconscience really wants to might well listen it,1 +things end afraid longer belong guys longer teenager ager fun thank lt,0 +please stop pedophile harassing users online profile himherhttpsampredditcomuserme,0 +anyone wanna talk bit im bored sad cant sleep,0 +want diewhy cant die want kill cant,1 +dogs best thats it thats entire post enjoy facts ,0 +im gonna break house sleep turn light room leave everyone house loves im back gt,0 +fellow lgbtqia people extremely difficult intolerant world still live amazing life nevertheless remember loved incredible people there thanks truly made life better made comfortable trans person well,0 +feel like shit personback february hypomanic state cheated ive deeply regretted ever since huaband trying work it ive getting help trying meds trting get stable even hypomanic state oh diagnosed bipolar right messed up ever since ive nightmares flashbacks sometimes im messed nightmares flashbacks feel physically sick cannot bear husband touching me therapist told monday im suffering trauma my hypomanic affair said affecting life might want talk doctor something called prazosin drug ptsd affecting life cant sex husband hes getting real upset hurt it taking personally got done flipping me told would take drug wanted to response oh yeah go say are pills make want touch husband again seem want go couples therapy it say hell anyone it hes taking personally think anything change wish faith though cant blame feeling like this god feel like disappearing feel like shit often cant stand hurting anymore,1 +calling quits earlyim dont want live anymore failed college classes dont motivation get bed anymore friends spend time alone depressed many dreams thats be dreams im planning jumping siblings th floor apartment building dont want scar people living there ive reluctant fallen deep pit im ready dont know im typing this,1 +really need talk someone life bad would love talk someone,1 +hate life much social life till like back days kindergarden teacher literally begged children least try befriend exclude activities still got marginalized friends got bullied lot still cheerful person till moved parents house went uniand things started turn better guess what covid happened isolation again fact live literally shit country romania made even worse hurts impossibility find romantic partner tried every dating app possible went every social event restrictions lifted literally trying hard check boxes success single chancealso tried therapycounselling help all one tell eventually find someone cannot menrally exhausted try anymore feel condemned live dream nightmare stuff called life dream every aspect life point going absolutely perfect social aspect gives suicidal thoughts every daythe thing aggressive troll internet said something bad toabout you sorry mean it unending frustratiin speaks me sometimes wish terminal disease know certainly die soon,1 +play damn game game among us seconds game started somebody presses emergency button why wanted everyone know girl everyone skipped vote couple seconds killed someone front several people reported body accusing girl clearly impostor every votes telling leave alone ghost every happily crowding girl constantly calling emergencies decide sacrifice themselves next really pisses people even play game like theyre supposed someones gender play fucking game whats worse girl even took advantage win game usually play single player games deal shitheads servers like one,0 +young first saw close eyes flashback starts im standing there balcony summer air,0 +plz help im straight man tik tok found trans women actually turned help,0 +proud say uncut copy choice chunk s crown international drivein sexploitation comedy cheese dvd really goofy enjoyably inconsequential flick nicely breezyneasy s vibe it attempt make sincere point true love friendship important life cool set wheels quick piece tail sure essentially blatant adolescent male fantasy pic main teen goofus character bobby hamilton gets girls respect friends chance showup local vanracing bully way dopey goodnatured hate stuart getz gawky protagonist makes endearingly dorky lead deborah white main object getzs affection definite cutie connie lisa marie likewise quite luscious beauteous blonde babe sneering beefcake neanderthal stephan oliver a s biker movie perennial wonderfully hateful brutish dugan hicks prestardom danny devito particular absolute riot getzs cranky carwash owner boss andy lovably cantankerous neerdowell slob wears ugly loud hawaiian shirts suffers severe gambling habit especially love scene two thugs brutally beat danny one holds arms behind back guy works dannys torso sammy johns insidiously catchy fluke hit theme song bouncing around skull least week short great groovy retros fun,0 +worried girlfriend need assistancei f im worried boyfriend m long distant relationship familiar depression never really experienced im familiar respond depression suicidal thoughts past week notice drastic change boyfriends mood usually goes depression phases every couple months usually help talk or think past week ive boyfriend record instances hes felt like breaking crying week full emails wanting break cry try encourage make feel like man know refuses hear it constantly puts come point think deserve me constantly tell want anyone else refuses listen yesterday took turn worst yesterday morning told feeling distant me fairly busy work week tried explain hard got lot arguements spend weekends together instead going out try schedule activities friends something comes one left waiting around nothing do lastly last night boyfriend told staying friends trust himself even stated duty emt there never seem im scared try help want say wrong thing best friend gone existence think handle state im in ive tried informing family encouraging find help im scared whats happen anyone could please help would really appreciate it im lost distraught know help scares me,1 + stories high enough kill meevery time pass huge parking garage campus feel like would definitely die falling instantly im top doesnt feel high enough everyone campus asleep ones stop me ones fails,1 +birthday mine january th,0 +hate people racist hate racism hating people wrong opinions help anyone push corner make extreme try get people racist hate nice people disagree withfundamentally cause become deviant make harder confince racist also dislike people putting high emphasis using n word except parents idols instead focusing irrelevancies words focus taking action racist n word nice word id rather called ten times n beaten feel many people put great emphasis using n word would step call police see black person beaten,0 +stop productive things talking people remembering appointments etc unemployed almost broke looking work causing feel like cant swallow get full breath find played video games day surfed reddit morning read reviews book coming almost hours meds though trying gaba since anyway make even fun sister mad chronically self centered forgot get back possibly getting together dinner shut down,1 +ive suffering depression found ive expelled something didnt domy friends everyone knew gone flash future window well parents probably going extremely disappointed me im going it tonight im going drink purell take benzos finally put life disappointment sleep one last time fun ride much,1 +give upsimple question literally worst type person ever exist im alone best friend probably leave boyfriend started dating everything goes wrong me give up,1 +dont want lose another friend redflagi dont know it hes hit rock bottom refuses talk it cries time studying skipping classes hes always night idea help him dont want lose another friend redflag dont genuinely want okay again im want realise okay weak vulnerable talk let out dont know came write this cant tell anyone needed get chest want know loved refuses listen advice,1 +handling news corona virusi really wonder worried possibility loved ones afflicted it something impacting strongly job also see news clear chinese government hiding way casualties letting transpire news media really depressing thing witness standing seeing unfold beyond eyes allied lack time socialize family really hitting hard allways suicidal thoughts time time seeing something lurks air breath people meet on scary fear me honestly fear others powerless anything standby witness plague spreads grasp everything anyone people know life hard stay safe sake sake love warm hug all,1 +first thought normal feel anything hate ect became suicidal got idea tell anyone one here depressed life,1 +really need therapist guess ill never reach itwell guess kind personality disorder im sick since hit puberty social anxiety depression mood swings identity problems gender identity problems suicidal behaviours selfharm self sabotage eating disorder emptiness etc know get help cant mean money real therapist yes free therapists fucking know go i wrote email hospital said go somewhere else asked reply noone talk things time want feel worse worse want die thats fucking hard find therapist know do feel hopeless talking strangers online problems me make feel worse im guess ill kill next week chance get help,1 +love make stronger want become stronger started full body workout heard love makes people stronger true yes strong make ,0 +began watching boku hero academia expected level sadness something added reminded life life nothing pain watching everybody made feel sad everybody improving themselvesachieving dreams mentors adventures feel pain much healthier mine tv screen fades black felt empty sad depression began show mean self again could repeat my life boring their real bakugous real i coward repeats head chest felt heavy shit wish could world lot destructions free there instead house many years even allowed go faraway feel like reality always like thisempty sad boring filled suffering even remember feels like happy something want go fight supposed feelings ever receive negativity quarantine making fucking worst everytime movie music ends stare around room feel nothing immense sadness emptiness sad want exciting life hard sad fact bnha,1 +normalim scared die feel though purpose life even live it im somewhat depressed make apparent im divorced parents loose every one care life believe god one turn guidance dad constantly screaming getting bs instead as mom care im trying die death scare me ask you browsers reddit normal curiosity death safe,1 +feel like im drowning insidesorry make sense all past months ive increasingly violent frequent suicidal thoughts hard get day im honestly tired putting charade everything fine everyone find life enjoyable anymore like spending time people anymore work feels pointless life feels like stagnant clear sign change coming first kind dismissive killing convinced something crazy people did feels like cannot go longer five minutes without fantasizing offing myself feels like getting worse im alone feel like im incapable anything right ruin close relationships people im point life family thought best friends want anything anymore sometimes think im poison fuck anything touch honestly feel like giving up felt like owed least attempt talk someone else might understand im feeling act anything feel like used normal know happened dig pit cant climb of thanks spending time read this going something similar sincerely hope everything works you,1 +weve lockdowns uk took figure free time sorry bad english even though first language idk man know covid bad actually like staying inside much free time things do technically uk th lockdown feels like second lockdown since one march one feel like proper lockdowns well kind realised stuff could time far got pet parrot bit built pc r rx anyone wondering got new graphics card launches boi get lucky started small youtube channel smol animations duccs declared war geese all homies love duccs anyways enough me lockdown been would cool talk people lockdowns due lockdown cant talk people irl tldr totally subscribe youtube channel totally relevant,0 +wanting commit redflag attention seekingi get depressed quite bit point feel like ending life lot talking someone today suggested seeking attention think agree statement would one want seek attention redflag beyond anyone,1 +case nobodys asked today case nobodys asked today you,0 +hit followers nobody follow want number stay since nice number,0 +wanna diebottom text,1 +planning killing tonightim leaving place put final thoughts ive enjoyed little life im soon turning periods life look back fondly on im currently attending college find miserable degree hate father insists get spent high school years either alone working helping mother grandfather dont regret helping mother regret everything else mother alcoholic shes better past living complete nightmare sisters one never close too another dont speak anymore went away college made clear never returning here dont blame her resent leaving younger brother alone deal mother everything else bullied badly school never received help im surprised didnt kill back then thinking wish had better me theres light end tunnel im going take fathers heart diabetes medication tonight hope never wake up thank read this,1 +im outi cant more reached help many times denied berated ignored tried im trying want happy cant remember feels like theres really hope future shit goes downhill here going shit faster ever right now looking all cant deal nobody go nobody cares try talk people thought supported avoid weeks time ive really impulsive unpredictable lately hate it im everything never wanted be im weak unable live this fuck,1 +im gonna iti date set im going kill myself recent events proven im worth enough world cant continue living like this whole world fallen apart im basically alienated immediately anyone meet im gonna end th method picked yet probably gonna overdose meds mix right way actually die really looking sympathy empathy wanted post say this outloud,1 +gonna it reason todont really reason live everyone work hates me works going awful family parents despise me friends went college left behind yeah like one miss right aspirations shit one enjoy with im someone function need friends though place make them yeah depressed going years now tried kill once gonna succeed time lol yeah wrap ill probably watch netflix pass out wake work get home repeat process,1 +im scared growing upi turned week ago many things say im sorry sentences might make sense knew wasnt born right body elementary school im scared tell parents grandmother live me hate called deadname hate called good son id rather human live seclusion go outside see people dont feel like mean anything world small could mean something years hate condition human nature easy push people away see ugly dont want cry anymore im biggest waste money parents relatives grandmother doesnt give fuck live die im ugly dont care hell society thinks dont want anyone lick wounds im stuck body think already cried tears already dont see mirror anymore ive always outsider even among people like me dont want go outside put people high pedestals realize one really loves anybody spent birthdays crying sleep scared next year bring me dont know throw numb dull pain consumed me im happy really live genuine selves free things shackle down people dont happy endings thats okay ill live cis guy rest life treated sort fucjing essence love respect ill finally break nobody really loves one,1 +look forward dying im ready end it ive tried reaching help ive tried improving life attempting go back school ive made way north carolina washington state looking job would allow pay bills let set little aside rainy day past years ive talking therapists drugged attempt force accept life is im tired way things always turn out im tired starting hit road blocks again im tired talking about venting help need solution viable solution killing myself ive toying idea years now friday really hit hard one able help me tried reaching online real solutions seems like people approach problems like would years ago started expect anything different really ive fucked bad advancement life life everyone even way fix everything im point would way saving enough could retire one day anything serious happened afford fix it teenagers much resources disposal cant even afford get vision fixed left eye things better normal would want stay life since even basic things hard get think im going end tonight want compete anymore im happy kill end right now least theres kind control me,1 +great adaptation great miniseries right plot cutdowns might disappoint fans book but really many modern readers read bleak house without seeing film version first know few br br i think quite appalling see reviews critical series clearly written people clue story actually see series bag bbc production gillian anderson newer versionbr br the series captures mood pace characters plotdrivers cutting dickensian flourishes needed detract film treatment like turveydrop story smallweed family dynamic extra lawyers tangle vholes etc truncated omission wish kept jellyby incident first episode already trifle slow after first episode pace perfect see go br br the criticism jos death could faithfully done see would practically canonized woodcourt hes kept little human scene really think jos death one poignant points book missed even though always makes crybr br has theowinthrop actually seen series think esther raised aunt uncle uncle suppose someone could mistake name denholm eliott desmond really appreciator english art film literaturebr br i also think mistakes treatment law yes law drawn badly bleak house fails descendants jarndyce whose valuable inheritance eaten costs litigation fails deceased tom jarndyce rick carstone faith suit fails miss flyte sense also fails captain hawdon driven death monotony law copyist work yes feeds scavengers vholes tangle also makes men like guppy kenge able move beyond station life though kind social statusclimbers dickens clearly would preferred bound stuck station born contrast jo brickmakers families climbing poverty charley neckett br br also law misused tulkinghorn chancery vultures actually source security wards court ada richard esther simply jarndyces ward security ensured law delivers jarndycebr br i cant see anyone could trouble following story remember supposed realize esther lady dedlocks daughter right beginning neither supposed get connections immediately instant gratification happen dickensbr br as seeing clearly fog gosh gillian anderson scatty editing found impossible follow knew plot alreadybr br i found diana rigg absolutely brilliant overacting drama make good lady dedlock think try gillian anderson versionbr br its ada rick kate get need rouncewell subplot,0 +think im horny simp started twitter went check friends page see retweeted beautiful lady named corinna kopfs picture bikini felt something never felt before know masturbate lot time different raging boner saw pic instantly followed notifications on started scrolling photos tab dick began get bigger bigger felt like gonna rip pants due aero used seeing girl bikinis hot tub leave phone table cause couldnt stop scrolling minutes later still boner point couldnt contain masturbated twitter posts busted biggest load ever done life day mentally changed havent missed facebook stream always get boner streams masturbate nut continue watching stream dont know stop this someone help,0 +got incels huh man think good make absolute shitposts generalizing women ive come across post girl want rich guy shit honestly makes seem like troll seriously isnt sitcom romance movie girl always every movie no incel meme take away fragile u are good bye merry christler,0 +tired trying hardi much anxiety working hard normal see way fix it pills make feel sick everything exhausting im even sad im depressed im tired really hope im tired,1 +make broke gf little touched girl school kept even said no although told close friends happened told loser liked it sometimes go sleep night still hear voices telling loser recent relationship help relationship felt like therapist boyfriend dumped problems issues expected able make feel better every time made feel horrible anytime make feel better would argument would say wrong apologize arguments month relationship anytime would ask friends break would say no last two weeks school parents told could call anyone play games grades would stay up friends told break told break talking her broke wants give hours day anytime ask time would see upset hate right know why cut multiple times pretend like everything ok reality seconds away breaking down want seem emotional feel like friends going tell overreacting bad making it scared tell parents feel like see differently anyone could give help would love least advice would love it sorry long entry recently thinking killing lot,1 +im going get fucked right now exam hours havent even opened textbook yet,0 +realization im gonna die redflag hardim pretty sure im gonna alive future biggest possibility dying redflag causes chances future looks dark see alive fact redflag gonna main reason hard process,1 +ive got get rid ruminating thoughts want get rid means please help someone pleasei cant get thoughts head nearly two fucking years less three months come im still thinking her relationship guess thoughts driving redflag fuck get rid ruminations im desperate someone please help,1 +passed math test math worst subject usually fail passed today bitches,0 +many pass b movie is indeed first class comedy wellwritten acted red skelton great wally benton better known radio fans fox ann rutherford perfect wallys fiance carol lambert conrad veidt leads well cast gang criminals read one account movie states vincente minelli directed film unless changed name s sylvan simon directed three fox movies entertaining film made imagination encouraged get black white prejudice one sit back enjoy truly great comedy also reds first starring role take note climax reference orson welles war worlds broadcast,0 +alright goesi year relationship months ago found cheating me guys bought ring going marry her also took bucks plus ipad fucked thing still love her even shit id still take back got laid days ago im going move back parents leave friends behind first real friends ive years top off dr says might pancreatic cancer fuck sakes need someone talk to called suscide hotlines put hold way long one shitty connction counld hear them last one told teenagers someone fucking message me fucking call me im end here,1 +people hate me always get tired me especially depressed always leave so apparently too much people,1 +absolutely one best aviation movies times many levels hardware junkies drool largest single massing flyable spitfires outside battle britain reenactment less eight flying spits hand accurate ground air sequencesbr br those marvel lore flying get mistyeyed reciting high flight identify central characters reverence freedom fast free high dark blue world warned romantics even dog lovers treated emotional ride movie core message one shared many war vets finest hours period life felt alive fact war everything else sad graybr br the plot concerns czech pilots escape country nazis invade join raf free czech squadron subplots worth careful attention plain old excellent movie even ardent antihardware romantic love keep kleenex hand beautiful photography firstrate acting accurate details raf life battle britain easily candidate aviation enthusiasts personal dvd collection,0 +antidepressants free usim mxico antidepressants really cheap plus bought without recipe anyways ive going psychiatrist prescribed medicine anxiety theyve miraculous ive never felt good life course im also going psychotherapist ive wondering expensive us cause mxico cheap know ive suffering long cure right front pretty solid price,1 +one things interested film way characters associated histories developed fly suppose writers wanted us gain interest characters force feeding characters premise using art craft furniture design construction unique theme andor analogy familiessiblings go life complexity twin serve surrogate father even husband added great tension towards making film emotionally interesting also although story one masses might directly relate ie jewishtwinsfamily business themes fairly universal every family black sheep it made engaging,0 +things definitely curriculum being teenager course me make friends would first start conversation icebreakers would definitely chapter things would want,0 +dark chocolate indescribable taste nono cant bittersweet different tastes chocolatey,0 +failed redflag attempt feeling guilt severe depressionhey everyone yesterday took hoped lethal dose paracematol thought took like hours react somehow reacted around hours intense pain liver nausea parents quickly noticed took hospital hours stuff settling im feeling really guilty severely depressed parents really overprotective really killing me im fucking done insane pressure me cant even explain want die,1 +want hugi dont want end hard everything keeps pushing telling solution true please stop listen depression,1 +best placeif someone bored busy something could use someone talk to doesnt even anything particular could use distraction thanks,1 +funnythat health shitty last three weeks makes happy whatever may kill me,1 +nobodys home easily right nowim done im done moms pills hand hours stared them take them,1 +worth anymoresince likely before cant really remember much childhood ive wanted kill myself cant shake feeling life isnt worth it effort just wasted worthless investment made without consent generates pitiful returns everyone expects hyped about well im not job takes things love crams full much kafkaesque bullshit nearly unrecognizable adhd struggle something im personally interested meds dont last day hell even working feels tainted knowledge could taken away moment would without question pop enough opioids kill horse six times happened last time took iq test middle school back took meds would miserable class id end running around reason knows shit results got got put gifted classes couldnt simplest logic charts didnt care basically seen class moron whats point intelligent fucking useless im taunted biology itself teach anything care second actually fucking need something im pencil tapping leg bouncing chair spinning thousand yard stare stuck head sack shit salt fucking wound knowing able successwhatever fuck meansbut idiotic lazy fucking ass would rather study shit thats entirely irrelevant work stacks up ive lived life skin teeth cant even feel last minute panic anymore fuck kinda adult even says shit dont want anymore im fucking tired,1 +oz old tv series released hbo shows life one security prison called oswald main plot focused emerald city one prison levelsbr br oz amazing plot outstanding cast many characters almost interesting basically divided groups gangs sicilians black people aryans gays latinos many others specific group deal many others like ryan oreily the irishbr br the plot well built lot conspiracy inside lot fight power exposed form violence intelligent smart nothing happens without reason connected interesting guess really love series wanna see something intelligent well produced good cast performances must see oz,0 +nothing funnier seeing people argue things know nothing live society bottom text,0 +hey big fan poetry particularly around depression existentialism would cool anyone else wrote commented depression poems please ,1 +got attacked im much pain turkey gerard attacked feeding chickens wanted seven different states new name gerard christmas dinner pack shit,0 +somoene edit picture penguin condom head like astronaut helmet uitcouldjustbeve started talking gotta c cannot edit like would apprieciate someone me,0 +saddest moment ive seen tv show no spoilers prevent spoiling it say episode timestamp the boys butcher screams help us plz spoil comments cool,0 +morbid curiosityi see many people angry parents redflags understandably also see many parents believe better leave children suffer mother fatherless takethe kids them screwed logic way makes sense parent completed redflag young ever thought at least selfish take also,1 +know doi woke morning feeling suicidal im way school know gonna get worse moms leaving two days sleep study days im tempted something,1 +ive waited years watch film simply never saw advertised tv eventually caught well worth wait much better overhyped scream last summer garbage fairly quick pace drawn out creeping house cheesy music scenes bad dubbing lets little let put way lies beneath hyped crap mute witness low budget hyped good,0 +know exactly product you new immortal toad buddy salt water edition,0 +could fuck tf mercs class would bang tbh id shag sniper hes handsome bastard,0 +us early s thought end upim reading thread notice were youngish even arent thought be,1 +ive enough fight smallest things politics one them like why end day human bleed red breathe oxygen live earth constantly hate other get people stupid pretty hard reason with mean people share opinion belief exact them divide bring eachother together care color skin is believe in like gender is political ideology is long treat like fellow human understand hard kind certain people get itd lot easier walked away instead making worse able hate anything everything want cant tell people hate something hate dont thats really uncool trans rightsblack rightslgbt rights womens rights exist last time checked humans human rights like everyone else unless things changed longer humans know im going get hate care ive many nights ive cried sleep thought killing fucking divided im wrong side apparently fault certain things happen go ahead hate me im stating opinion come together instead dividing other,0 +goes againthe past week tough depression kicking again lifelong issue tend coast okay fall again started tell people im struggling keeping casualnoninvasive trouble sleeping feeling fragile rather low selfdestructive actually feel tomorrow appt support worker see occasionally hope talking help change appointments occasional frequent help learned past warning signs look for almost every time hits bad start clinging selfhate seeing hope despite knowing ive done got it start feel like every suicidal moment leading current moment chance fulfill im desperate achieve know get til tomorrow start reaching getting help still worried feel strongly feel it despise myself feel need run escape cant escape myself recently trying sleep battle hours die live hard deal thoughts feelings anyone relate anything stop thinking im going try take prn medication listen podcasts hope sleep eventually,1 +energy talk write everything im feeling people around making feel worse worse genuinely scaryi legitimately know get moment,1 +one funniest movies ever seen know real world people shows movie top notch never seen real world still think extremely funny movie get inside jokes actors tv show,0 +ive thinking someone probably forgotten exist three yearsi ldr someone loved much point fiction make people could good couple years together left idea why asked ever told know i obsessive able much head long without thinking reasons blaming feeling hurt reason possible leave fucking long time point decided would never see probably stopped thinking now ive gotten much pathetic incapable attempts happiness work even know post here hate redditor words say say them,1 +ive lost hope futurei think im going live much longer ill never accomplish anything plans future im okay living forever poverty anything theres way get help one wants help me nothing anything do,1 +confused tiredi feel like havent felt anything months things arent even bad life right now dont know still want die feel like experience emotions day tell thats im supposed doing feels like mask havent cried forever used type person always crying dont even know describe current state cant get end it would never want inflict kind pain boyfriend parents know would blame themselves wish could die freak accident instead thoughts hanging head everyday,1 +written oliver stone directed brian de palma scarface paints picture easily forgotten al pacino turns stunning performance tony montana cuban refugee becomes powerful player drug world ruthlessly runs self made kingdom crime florida gangster flick harsh violent loud gross unpleasant must hold record uttering word fk number times almost three hours long yes get repulsive stout hearted constitution keeps seat cheering demise ruthless crime lordbr br also playing interesting characters michelle pfeiffer steven bauer robert loggia mary elizabeth mastrantonio f murray abraham angel salazar pacino proves one greatest generation manages bring reality character leaves strong impression movie everyone leave thinking walked away disaster powerful enough you crime pay long,0 +need ask following mom told music lysin gay dumb may sound men gay like songs made toto bill wrsz,0 +done research come revolutionary breakthrough make anime body pillows sides waifu would allow people use time allowing people spend much money body pillows buy im sure exist make maximise body pillow usage rest case tldr make anime body pillows double sided maximum efficiency,0 +dream thats thats whole post go,0 +watching show since ive loved ever since love show plain funny enjoy show lot shows something new funnier everyday favorite part benny always last comments george every punchline fat giant headlaughs would laugh id watch friends home itd like watching funny movie short love george lopez funny talentedfunnyspectacular coolfunnyfamily comedy series enjoyable everyone definitely enjoy iti did watched yet suggest start watching want stop watching it even though anymore brand new episodes still enjoy reruns still funny never wears off br br ,0 +lies tell lies tell hate revealing voices head gt filler filler filler filler filler fillerlt,0 +depressed suicidal man victim addictions genetically predisposed toi going end life read quote joseph stalin found edgy years backnow makes much sense kill myself problems go awayi live whole life middle class wage employeei face eye problems skin cancer teeth decayi feel depressed stupid timedeath solve it end problems deathit escape throughout history many intellectuals philosophers artists even dictators described death wayfor people coward ways outfor some way out quote no man problem makes much sense now,1 +lost friend redflag worry going lose everyonei lost friend unexpectedly last year know sad gone someone life upset now want leave alone get scared say goodbye friends hanging out start get feeling im never going see again someone answer text email hours start grieving them one year this paralyzing ive cried many deaths never happened stop freakishly obsessive people life know might sound bad want care much im tired grieving people died,1 +play game phone get girl game pin hoodie grind lot damn worth it,0 +point scared cant focus driving crash space going mph past ive major panic attacks whole body pins needles cant breathe well triggered major emotional events also used get really bad nightmares dying afterlife kid mom would rub chest til fell asleep never ever thought redflag didnt want diagnose know people actually wouldnt want compare redflag that,1 +roses red grass green life shitpost meme,0 +stunningly wellmade film exceptional acting directing writing photographybr br a newlywed finds married life expected starts question duty versus duty society together sister inlaw makes radical departures conventional roles mores,0 +tomorrowim killing tomorrow guys understand thank you,1 +sweet dreams eurythmics sounds like intro song james bond movie agrees makes sound like james bond song,0 +face film women wanting see football match appeal much somebody little interest football however football discrimination womens enthusiasm sport lovebr br the film opens day crucial world cup qualifying match iran bahrain girl trying get tehrans azadi stadium dressing like boy looks like get soldier tries search her caught taken small enclosure high outside stadium handful women already caught guarded small group conscript soldiers whos leader would rather back home tending livestock never learn characters names get know people girls plead guards let watch though nearby gap wall refused try get least provide commentarybr br as well making important point rigid gender segregation much present day iran film contains many hilarious moments disguise one girls made wear going toilet girl disguised soldier caught chose watch match seat reserved senior officer girls enthusiasm game end viewer likely edge seat hoping iran win thus get go finals germany soldiers shown fundamentalists conscripts explaining girls woman cant watch mens sports seem convinced argumentsbr br it shame film cant seen iran good wider world see thus see ordinary iranians bunch fanatics desperate wage war west normal people passions concerns people everywhere cast great job making characters seem like real people rather mere caricatures,0 +know people always want deeper meaning movies else consider worthlessbr br what entertained something morgan freeman excels gets chance show bit paz vega costar gets career boost brad silberling gets name draw people watching moviebr br i thought good movie humor pathos bittersweetness nothing top got especial kick jim parsons receptionist construction company looks freeman adoringly says you make want woman hes hilarious fight scene ms vega exhusband girlfriend wonderful toobr br in short cute charming film make smile could much much worse,0 +struggling long never able venti loathe hopelessly unhappy want die that like cruel joke tell anyone low ostracized berated guilt tripped how selfish am met empathy world keeps selfishly saying dont want die piece shit coward miraculously wonders depressed people reach out ive talked friends just stop depressed dude ive talked therapists years take lots drugs admit super depressed ruin life flag dangerous person theres one talk to talking literally makes worse seems reason besides fear going hell killed know mom would die grief mom managed get diagnosed cancer bit tick get lyme disease get bit brown recluse spider one day considering recovering breaking legs arm feet accident still cant recover partner years telling go kill think hold much longer cant help see life sick comedy terrible is laugh world laughs you cry cry alone guess wanted rant talk myself sorry bother annoy anyone,1 +mom funny could comedian thinks good looking guy funny,0 +im officially one turned minutes ago yeah much else say except happy birthday,0 +think cart fent xanax pandemic new wave controlled substance crisis mean seriously many honestly say go restrooms arent least zombies cross faded hitting blinkers stall mean insanity,0 +know weird question ask subreddit curious feeling feeling wanting end things lately though gone wanting here like another world dimension could go would love go there hate everything society today virus pandemic defunding police movement inflation masking etc done it anyone suicidal want here,1 +things already pretty bad somehow took turn worse feel entirely isolated even though family around friends talk every awhile know isolation driven rabbit hole would happening regardless around cannot control mood capacity hour two break get crushing despair chaos head ill try actively stay wildly overly positive state least positive almost trying stay makes return chaotic world created head know started living life inside head instead participating life front me scared ill never able make stop getting point able take anymore sorry makes sense sorry burdening yet another social platform disaster gets worse gets worse,1 +way this cannot stop thinking anything hurting myself feel like relapsing,1 +thank flash player cant post rmemes anywhere here wont really opportunity get play good old flash games since dont computer rn wanted say thank flash player making computer clases elementary school fun,0 +serious question guys i male okay happens past pm ever get done thing falling asleep hardest ever before one feels like im done like ill finish im legit fighting stay awake minutes later im fine,0 +one understandslast week best friend person understands ongoing struggle depression self harm told wishes never met life would much better put me feel alone worthless dont think want live anymore even though im surrounded family friends know care me dont feel comfortable confiding anyone else confided dont understand tell dont need happy dont want anymore please help me,1 +fiance left me completely fault cant stop blaming dark thoughts backcurrent issuestate mind this blame myself keep kind of i deserve die thoughts know illness speaking least hope is first time ive thoughts attempted things past gone psychwards twice quite years back though medication medication works this knocked harder thought would want strong therapy next wednesday im scared want happy want forgive myself know stable actually want die think deserve to through different relationships engagements now age feel like point even exes minus recent one abusive unhealthy me crosspost offmychest post describing happened know do feel lost hopeless explanation got recently happy more tried get bit explanation angered her fine literally hours ago told loved me even asked anything bothering happy said absolutely nothing wrong happy going start saving place live year everything honestly first healthy relationship had ive many people past abuse me first woman ever love way someone loved give love gave equally agreed almost everything important friends years know handle things recently months ago put medication helps depression well made plummet back dark places want anything back wanted give back everything got her even ring still says wants friends ready wish understood knew went wrong started unhappy realized would done everything fix work it least talk things could end mutually knows me incredibly honest relationship secrets whatsoever agreed wed always tell anything wrong soon was im back beginning trying pick pieces figure life even know begin even know trust anyone anymore let anyone life like that even general came today drop everything off ring jewlery bought her still woudlnt tell truth confronted directly claimed want hurt feelings already did right thinking end something told already that getting job incredibly important felt like something tell first place also told part often badly reacted mother abusing me told detail happened every time happened say wants friends someday again go contact whatsoever then tried ask least keep ring memories sake refused that least take back favorite stuffed animal bought early relationship everything else gave back recently unfriended facebook unfollowed instagram twitter everywhere else feels surreal blame completely good making thoughts go bad places im going best let thoughts win spend time people im alone also jobs already lined interviews next week class applied for told that change thought mind all hope one day friends again end crosspost,1 +ass got dumped egirl yeah title means ass got dumped months big f __,0 +elisebeth comstock best videogame ally fight this useful asfk unlike allies never gets way great lines likeable asfk,0 +since human penis bone wrong call erection boner cos bone,0 +roses red number one ,0 +angri boi hours ive spent like longest time drawing females paper im learning draw online cant draw males body frustrating dudes,0 +gundam wing happens good anime bit slow moving especially around middle series enjoyable anyone jumps case calls winger admit watched original gundam gundam th ms team gundam seedbr br i admit problems story telling characters may seem ripoffs ie zechs marquise original gundams char alternate universe show based original series seedbr br if wish view series make sure watch original gundam first know watching au series,0 +karen someone wearing mask within miles excuse sir know actively harassing me,0 +im trying really am cant fix myselffor past months ive noticed alarming increase depressed thoughts noticed would beat even harshly usual whenever crossed street would fantasize getting hit car getting shot robbing gone bad work started hitting gym focusing grades work within past months ive lost nearly lbs maintained a average even got promotion work mood continued decline day spent thinking goddamn useless am cant kick consistent funk cant talk family ive managed slowly distance friends im basically alone this ive patient honestly cant keep faking way day day out,1 +phone number address full legal name d scan door key list fears weaknesses please,0 +bored filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +story time dream woke house sleeping shreks lap angry reason told going onand told shut spanked ass told okay shut proceeded spank ass telling didnt tell shut up didnt answer question didnt want get spanked again proceeds ask didnt answer told ordered shut told didnt tell shut up followed intense ass spanking kept repeating couldnt wake started crying felt like days woke up pogger epic redditor moment,0 +weird sexual fantasy im sex girls nazi uniform calling things like dirty jew whatever im licking feet,0 +done cant anything bring life normali failed friend student son want die got friends real llife talk parents neither got aim something life tried erase thoughts thinking old memories school life never good one video games helped fill emptiness got bored them foolish things done life gives regret really coward pos reason live ,1 +gives award here porbably rich kid guy spends summer job cash reddit dunno tbh like one shuld tell tho,0 +hopefully get adviceso ive issues best friend past weeks guy anxiety anger issues cant take start breaking school crying getting mad friends dont know help kid always best friend close dont know move on need things go back way were hangs everyone else friend awkward always giving bad looks anyone help would great cant let things go ocd hard me ive cut wrist everyday past week healthy according everyone get say attention nobody understands want end,1 +spaming grant morrison tell children theyre trapped like rats doomed bankrupt gangsterhaunted planet dwindling resources nothing look forward rising sea levels imminent mass extinctions raise disapproving eyebrow when response dress black cut razors starve themselves gorge themselves kill one another,0 +dont know doive spent last days wondering check psych ward say fuck it pain losing love life best friend much wasnt son would ended now hes rain living getting morning point dont know long go for cant relax cant sleep feel much guilt shame feel guilt shame feeling way too ive considered going back heroine id feel better maybe would get lucky die overdose needing actually myself dont want get arrested going withdrawals dont want anything want go sleep wake up cant even sleep pass talking enough sedatives keeps taking more im afraid soon stop working escape thats make decision do,1 +get neighbor get higher fence thing separating death small chain link fence need higher dogs may deranged smart recently learned stack stop one another really need get protection,0 +day reminding people wear mask stay safe x people hate anti mask comment ok also everyones week,0 +set date august th really feel anything anymore tired want lonely anymore,1 +much tell counselorredflag basically always mind years something ive thought long remember really taken seriously ive never gone far making attempt go cycles basically ok hating everyone everything world wanting alive barely able stand around humans hate idea counseling ive decided try job right offers free sessions requires around people like hours day feel really bad people mess me get mean cry more really embarrassing extends wanting die phase need know much ok tell counselor admit suicidal thoughts fantasies concerned might initiate kind intervention life safe say specific plans family finding worst fear,1 +recommend history research topic high school student history research topic must start extent year long project must able argued for must sufficient information decently sized paper,0 +live livemeh suicidal long time now always put thought stuff would improve future realized worth effort sure life could improve put effort far away tired willpower resolve make effort thing scares death what die life improved kinda like the mist indeed cry help someone save me someone guide towards peaceful quick dignified death important bit here i thinking using numbing spray sharp knife get carotid artery good plan pm suggestions make painless quick thing note probably say please fucking bring back irreversibly brain damaged cost family lotta money keep alive stupid hope recover day kinda sure this rest what if scared scared gotta done guess must suffer more,1 +idea doi kinda realized recently im going die alone social circle small ive never really comfortable apps like tinder abysmal social skills ill explain bit but ive thinking last days maybe it born life threatening medial condition left going hospital checkups around first twelve years life also meant partake lot sports social activities told whole life different everyone else diagnosed another life threatening condition fourteen effect seventeen meaning missed formative years told end eighteen clear forced adapt social norms absolutely understand then college sexually assaulted groomed someone considered close friend three years left without ever facing consequences grooming turned someone hate ever becoming although ive worked hard change better that always look back hate myself also every night nightmares groped raped either predator closest friends random people mixed sleep paralysis means cant fight wait wake up left fear people general like outside feel vulnerable found may autism highfuntioning presents even challenges fitting in know autism worst thing could happen person far it everything else makes socialising nightmare even closest family members even ive known years still cant talk them first tried kill around ten thought killing kitchen knife stood kitchen contemplating never anything second time drank third bottle whiskey planned grab meds kitchen never made ended calling ambulance im currently still college classes late im home time quit last job chest pains due anxiety everpresent fear leave college ill lost even less structure ive tried help myself saw therapist long time go gym three times week come home idea feel empty feel like ive ever alive always felt like like camera watching others lives know want live way think life change honestly know do,1 +so today doctor increased medication also prescribed clonazepam optimistic time feel like crap able get better mean wish better obvious feel like let take medicine difficult feel like everything falt mixed feelings,1 +contagious redflagtwo weeks ago little cousin brought gun school shot killed high school auditorium history self harm boyfriend recently dumped guess set edge happened florida recently surfaced two parkland survivors killed recently ive always thought redflag back head always prideful ever get help im afraid getting locked away psych asylum tranquilized mood elevators life sucks everyones day im understanding real world works get away literally anything enough money innocent people suffering hands wealthy every single day nothing done it doubt society ever see change lifetime im slowly giving up whats point suffering gonna get better envy late cousin parkland survivors,1 +futurein early convicted domestic battery misdemeanor state august quit job relocated girl promptly work out moved back home unable find work since every single job posting area requires full time hours passing background check years experience degree absolutely none that cant pass background check mid twenties stuck rut living parents job apply denies fail background check jobs even get far get thanks go fuck yopurself email week later fucking desperate job chance anything opportunities broke license car savings education beyond ged currently enrolled college associates degree take years complete need take calculus degree cant even get past prealgebra purpose continued existence cant even fucking get past hurdle year olds lives together mine none mny friends bother anymore lives together theyve moved out even married kids still exact life situation years ago,1 +eric valette obviously talented filmmaker two guys wrote script therefore malfique great flick made bucks also tons imagination well im bit exaggerating nevertheless im sincere so like dark gory movies go see one really worth it,0 +anyone australia availablei cant deal atm either stick minorities get inboxed hate reason dont walk front trainer dont want hurt driver mentally,1 +also things like like mom go go gamble money works ass everyday gives money pay bills constantly goes gambling friend yes know mom wrong that siblings cant say anything mother argue things constantly every single day,1 +ok perfect movie means disagree overall imdb opinion really really bad watched lot hong kong flix s loved era dearly never saw black mask time saw last week first time apart embarrassingly poor dubbing dvd copy give option turn off movie contains raw energy bravado permeated hong kong movies time still stick guns opinion that comes action guys matter budget add element magic screen bourne supremacy casino royale mission impossible im knocking movies reckon lack spontaneity one feel regulated ever achieve it feeling filmmakers experimenting shot edited afraid leave blemishes learn lessons next time me makes watching movies fun dangerous,0 +skirts thigh highs gtgtgtgtgtgt thats all fight,0 +paedo netflix film changed pedophile movie description try make conservatives look bad imply liberals pedophiles woooooo imma get downpointed heck,0 +ex committed redflagso wont short post serious comments only ex died three months ago well two weeks away four relationship complex best others names tattooed ourselves insanely close and probably person ive ever fully let life miss him im alone grieving im ex people tell worst things example wasnt fault glad happened someone else imagine would dealt better off think things add anger hurt ex addict alas too though im sober trouble bit sometimes good person someone loved quite dearly think people feel justified saying things past led redflag im say absolutely doesnt justify say think towards me also know played role hadnt broken really truly seven months seven months relapsed got girl let walk him beat down addicts go living life hell understand did dont questions knew well knew me im given privilege able openly speak him hurt dont know ill stop grieving song comes ball eyes out pull letters soul burns course im recently married too husband though good man cant relate worst experience life thats coming woman whos beaten abused drugs hated herself survived suicidal tendencies raped seven wrecks lost mother age pity party ive sufferings know pain cant seem deal death im alive theres good bad days comes waves realized lot things poorly treated years afraid actually love stay left always thought better found husband ex well let go always give freedom express free always said wouldnt settle less right wont downplay love husband either hes wonderful really is im thankful him think stems closeness shared ex life similar mine worlds mixed eerie ways last time saw hugged me said loved always husband messed would beat ass hurts over think mom telling mustnt wanted piece shit like broke upset was planned marry me think good times laughs talks know ive aged years months anyone experienced anything similar,1 +real guys real yall im aliens ive watching many many years think perfect time invade earth kill evaporate everyone special form water xshot super soeakers see ya,0 +everybody saying hey nice cock bro nobody saying hey nice pussy sis live society gamers rise up,0 +need someone tell going okthrow away account need vent years shit feeling like shit ever since beginning year last semester college last semester graduate feeling miserable hard get morning hard care anything hard focus keep telling youre almost there it months working wake up force feet force get fat lazy ass class years shit two hours supposed go back college find brother flunked college hiding parents found out fullblown break down admitted suicidal thoughts admitted lying them me goddamn lied me lived together dorm would leave class guess what actually go class hed shut somewhere play fucking computer games go college move back dorm supposed share together unpack things knowing brother come back me parents found did would killed himself spent next days emotionally drained hollow still today im still angry bitter almost anything find get angry about draw hobby one things find joy doing find getting frustrated furious drawings mind keeps telling much suck good thing dad let go art school miserable failure cant anything right holy shit whats wrong you never great artist fuck never good one even trying sometimes thing manages get day loving girlfriend whenever needed talk lives three states away goddamn it miss her oh mention family hates her brothers sisters and yes suicidal one too telling terrible choice girls im going end fucking getting pregnant dad keeps glaring goddamn person fucking world gives two shits me know im venting rambling probably making whole lot sense know lately ive feeling miserable cant remember last time genuinely happy im angry depressed need help,1 +help trying grow discord server tips know disboard and several websites l ive gotten members server constantly growing getting harder anybody tips ideas help me would really appreciated,0 +ayooo o im girl jkjk unlesss,0 +oki imma sleep gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn gn love lt,0 +know much longer carry onive stuck slump past week feel motivated anything constantly frowning pissed everything experiencing multiple frequent instances lappel du vide the call void filled horrid sense dread unease everything wake up every morning cursing dying sleep night before want stop,1 +survivorsthink life like pain suffered lead us are many us years yet continue overcome it say end lesser not victims society needs sympathy empathy suicidal time lets acknowledge success far know others here ive met people would kill going ive through knowing real pain like like everyone hoping end also know one area accomplish something,1 +ship ahoy probably made order showcase mgm talent film fun trip ocean liner way san juan puerto rico time country involved wwii typical fare studios gave movie going public light weight entertainment distraction difficult times country livingbr br the beautiful eleanor powell seen best musical numbers clearly shows us dancer reckoned with red skelton also seen straight part much clowning pursues beautiful ms powell ship bringing puerto rico irresistible bert lahr good opportunities film show funny man also virginia grey seen fun girl fooled anyonebr br there good musical numbers featuring tommy dorsey orchestra one sees among others amazing buddy rich solos mr dorsey ms powell young frank sinatra appears also lead singer band backed pied pipersbr br this nostalgic trip savored fans genre mgm totally controlled,0 +anyone want dm like music xc skiing golfreading cooking,0 +nagant m love gun much,0 +would rather buy nuggets ampxb tear bill,0 +yall ever cry,0 +im going try raise grades got grades i know lol gap wild precise af scared lol last weeks test next tests would like around th august im going better time smh ah gotta go back studying cya,0 +im bored anyone wanna add discord also vc friends server want lmk mack,0 +meme songs played toy piano a little something cheer make day took long make httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvwnucgzsmyiamplcugxjzkpybxpplfwwitaaabaghttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvwnucgzsmyiamplcugxjzkpybxpplfwwitaaabag,0 +pathetic worthless socially retarded ugly lying crazy faggot loser lacks common knowledge survival skills would better splattered pavement amaall dreams life useless fake personality fake cant earn anything own previous life lie cant tell whats real whats real im destined die alone im feeling right like want take hands thing thats keeping alive picturing look familys faces found out theyd probably see failure knew was scary thing type this im angry feel irrational give backstory recently found gay man im years old dated women still never knew gay past year so went psychiatrist even physically psychologically depressed put antidepressants made think clearer things got head ass rationally still hate world myself would rather die succumb shittiness human nature know am get feeling want to i pressure people loved me repressed deeply immensely emotional maturity intellegence th grader nobody truly accepts am way ive able gain acceptance drugs drinking people came out would open window connection people sexually well want boyfriend could connect someone emotionally im attracted straight guys anywhere turn feel dead end want musician im much submissive pussy bitch confidence work ethic im painfully lonely oh well enough me fuck this fuck life fuck people meaningless want take bunch acid sleeping pills peacefully beautifully fade nothingness came from probably sound like emodepressed th grader thats heart,1 +never bend never break ive known years school weve hung couple times got drunk together stayed late friends etc shes really cool person asked last year got rejected big time im fine position friend she keen staying friends block contact covid school started havent time talk irl ive asked wanted hang take walk easiest things plan get of live walking distance apart every time try suggest plan things ghosts me text im fine denied rejected please tell truth always answers something like mb didnt see message im sorry next time suggest dumb shit activities th cycle repeats making feel needy know im not trying hang friend havent seen catch up ive texted dont like texting im sick planning stupid activities wont answer seemed really sincere apology explaining doesnt know whats going on shes confused blablabla know irl believe intentions pure rejection makes feel like shit sadness keeps making better shape less confident shape etc do block contact go house demand talk her idk guys feeling stressed,0 +cant thisim much trouble keeping school im falling behind feel like failure cant anymore even know im still alive cant keep going cant breathe feel like im suffocating air breathe everyday im drowning drowning without end voices tell end it might listen voices scare anymore comforting want end pain suffering without it need end it mom took pills want razor upstairs cant go kitchen ill think razor feeling skin blood come out scar,1 +want 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shot like broken horse one else shoot me im going get nerve hang myself tried really hard certain want kind life remains available me even miraculously cured tomorrow mistakes made cant fixed worst consequences still come im ashamed say time read posts here first response envy lives totally ruined im glad still hope you even see way makes realize none me anyone else feel way cant carry on want die,1 +took years finally got girlfriend would say ever happened lonely,0 +need help boyfriend left days ago hardest experience ive ever go through everything me constantly showered love affection gifts sex anything wanted days ago pulverized heart bloody pulp told physically mentally couldnt love way loved him said unfair one sided relationship love much dont care one sided everything ready carry entire relationship way grave thats much love boy constantly crying unable eat vomiting pounding headaches way sleep shoving melatonin gummies throat need help get mind him everyone keeps telling me gonna fine its gonna ok cant perk instantly fine need genuine help need hand hold need someone help fully take mind things whether games memes phone calls please help,0 +ok enough ok enough talking womens rights lets talk womens wrongs,0 +doeither death trying something might work make thoughts go away though another way prolong meaningless painful existence due fear dying think pussy seems coward top that nowhere go nothing do sort service would make worthwhile fit eg police forces im unstable inside head acting pretending whole life noone noticed fine doubt anyone will empathy required paramedic bachelors degree always thought work id help people since know abandoned etc fight crime stuff keep saying want save others unable save myself mind blood smell dead people cpr work out im quite cold empty inside unfortunately life like future work would among things hate much else say really papers filled might go next week im sure process long care it even want it id rather die could somehow fast painless see way it paramedic internship ambulance hospital quite nice importantly one things wanted do rewarding financially reality expected vast minority people need real help help all think police different force exists persecute people look opportunity fine them fucked either way saved draft might post it know many people calling kind,1 +physics teacher talking big little im trying hard laugh loool topic slit separation case wondering,0 +cant yoy cant breathe automatically,0 +guys help petting pet bat accidentally breathed wrong way sparks flew fingers bat exploded please help happened,0 +everyone lgbt like sure acceptable didnt expect increase lmao presume youngs lil confused,0 +rumination humiliations making suicidali humiliated people no cognitive distortion social anxiety im actually good social situations told many times alcoholic sober months now humiliated much know sounds like trivial thing get suicidal every second every hour every day year never enjoy anything constantly ruminating humiliations really sad ive many potentially beautiful experiences ruined incessant rumination even sex cringe looked alone deal every article pretty much have tried not ruminating just stop ruminating think happy thoughts when start ruminating stop jesus fucking christ fucking easy cannot carry long like this even typing mind constantly reminding moron ive life,1 +found old dress back th grade decided see still fit did sounds great right really wore dress tried days ago still fit always always twig suppose lol,0 +anyone like birthdaybirthday makes think here tend remember celebrate it despise it people around think pathetic want make happy celebrating birthday wishing happy birthday make happy face time asked first may able refuse people like surprise much another painful aspect value fairness much think birthday worth celebrating anything return people wish happy festivals xmas birthday thanksgiving time may give little gifttreat card candies tired giving back card candies need sleep days pretend forget festivals people stop celebrating festivals me,1 +wish method painless guaranteeddo guys think mixing lexapro wellbutrin alcohol would kill me month supply mg lexapro month supply mg wellbutrin took would kill me im really suffering want end im exhausted,1 +really sad disgusting waste flesh food money mother found one blades cut it pidsed me deserve every bruise scar cut mutilation ever done add onto that grandmother dying depression medicine nothing supposed clean cannot go day two without cutting myself deserve die really really suck fucking pathetic,1 +know time laptop hard drive breaks dad fix cant ship laptop measly miles new york company fix laptop shipped november apparently still somehow way company,0 +cant sleep ramblingi dont think ever able provide life lifeless children like one family provided me dont think world better without it think life could better without future it dont want posting here want better life friends partner im trapped now riddled inertia dont courage say so could never say person barely say myself insulated consequences reality years thought different always thought different it theres release anymore took dont think thief feel like even though dont now wish could sleep still sleep couple hours night dont know dont know redflag post dont know is could fall asleep finish fucked dont think future take anymore took realise wasnt much dont feel like person dont recognise text authentic experience ive made victim life feel like ive lived dream already still resented it need awake two hours twelve eight least case foreseeable future maybe long all might putting prison dont really think often didnt resent loved free like would like exhumation could go walk darker used ill stay now dont access weaponry use myself,1 +real facts right uiliketobewooshed best guy ever hes awesome love him everyone,0 +it took walk felt nice listened music neighbors dogs came times passed nice puppers supposed that feet hurt whatever good exercise need it yeah take walk sometime fun stuff,0 +hate lifethe title says also know nobody cares life wish life society world all even like myself nobody care im gone makes wish gone already im stupid lame old duck nothing probably nothing contribute nothing live for im florida hate it yes suicidal thoughts every while though super serious days feel like want go it,1 +bored lifehey guys im college student ive really never lot luck making friends even dropped college year depressed mostly one talk hang with finally enrolled university again ended making friends made best friends anyone could possible ask for school year honestly best year life bad news international exchange students since gone back home im back square one friends whenever im working im sitting home staring phone hate life nothing live for one hang with constantly think death like im cutting food knife im bridge think could easily kill myself constant feelings dread never stop ill probably drink coma hopefully alcohol poisoning kill me,1 +crippling ocd killing ruining lifeit makes want die,1 +someone talk rn hmu,0 +know anymorei know im going die young funny thing used love idea young hated thought growing old want nothing live long want experience life visit amazing places amazing things know thats going happen im going die young theres nothing it im body feels like old woman ive enough horrible events fill lifetime many days want end all wheather die naturally redflag know able look back say life one worth living way honestly dont even know im still alive right now maybe fear unknown idea whats going happen die maybe ill go somewhere stay eternity maybe disappear maybe soul go like candle light maybe christians right go hell killing myself doesnt really matter since im pretty sure im already hell maybe punishment something maybe something horrible personal form hell maybe deserve this guess none matter die eventually hope quick hope doesnt happen messed way like murdered even though surprised someone want kill me im exactly good person friends family tell am know im not know truth know deserve happiness even im selfish enough want anyway sometimes im upset ask god kill me cant bring it ask me people cared me maybe could go without worry would happen them because honest ive wanted die really long time everytime im end it think people miss me cant go it really want fucking die cant remember last time even slightly happy feels like dream cant had goal cant reached cant ever happy live know watching movie day girls family abusing her met guy saved suddenly fine think lot mostly load shit usually isnt prince save things get bad make many movies anyway prince struggling getting called names everyday mother sobbing shower time would leave alone time could feel extent happening screamed showed emotion made scar arm people stare ask questions about diagnosed one worst mental illnesses have needed him nowhere thing prince charming nobody save you save yourself die trying sounds glum true sadly true ten days im supposed kill myself remembered set day calendar basically im supposed kill unless actually magically feel want live havent really felt long time im probably going it dont worry me honestly dont think anything save point im actually kinda glad maybe finally rest maybe feel pain anymore,1 +gonna die weekits finally time me know fact ill never reach happiness ill pregnancy test case cause want see im ending life another matter me bye all hopefully successful time,1 +paini severe condition thats caused face burn swell lips feel swollen time theyre starting harden eyes burn ive spent three years going specialists trying control symptoms since severe medication reaction caused it misdiagnosed dermatologists cant go outside sun cant lay flat cant exercise look like completely different person loved life every moment agony ive lost family wifes affair ive lost face literally dont know much longer expected hang,1 +anyone else hate getting bed theyre sure spiders insect around bed andor room know important found spider somehow got window screen opened window screen doesnt look like holes big enough spider get through kind concerning almost validates mild anxiety getting bed always think spiders insects either bed nearby,0 +give kiss forehead tell everythings gonna okay thats fucking want life feel like crying bruhh ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +currently latin class help talking supposed write sentence story,0 +remember human would remember human humans trash ampxb woohoo im finally edgy kid thinks theyre smart,0 +bet nobodys going read see all also predict somehow miraculously does people become concerned me despite knowing demons sins slightest claiming know better stupid excuse life worthwhile course not ampxbeveryone stuck labyrinth built themselves others built too fucking inane pointless childish fickle way universe decides rule life manage sickening embarrassing ampxbthere damn use all despise every single aspect it ampxbwe united ignorance all ampxbevery passing day become increasingly apparent yet harder somehow see ampxbgtthere one thing certain die sleeping dragon within set free bring retribution last everything wake matter time more less wandering paths aimlessly delusions grandeurlt ampxbeverything remembered forgotten ampxbeverything made fall i ampxbfor day longer weak life fade away dust came ask responses votes please ampxblet fall void eventually jump fall alongside abomination am post matter i,1 +finland fact every day finnish music culture weird recommend maybe give listen brobably wont anyway skkijrven polkka tll pohjanthden alla here northern star olen suomalainen i finn soviet anthem finnish volga moskau finnish,0 +mother physically capable shutting yesterday almost missed viola lesson home bc someone elses house lost track time mom home point instead giving break picking once ran way home minutes spare morning im still mad victimized kept mumbling breath loud enough hear shit her im reality shes never much empathy me ever fuck mom,0 +waste spaceeveryday want floor swallow whole ive lost nearly everyone love cant handle anymore,1 +im peer pressured watching jojos prepared resist drugs smoking anime,0 +im suffering liver failure either way dead soon exit world way insteadive suffer liver disease quite time doctor almost years ago told developing stages brain dead teenager giving two fucks ignored advice simply simply lose weight liver heal back normal time brain dead retard time realize importance situation hand time well guess years untreated liver overdoes attempts pills shit ton throw liquor wow really smells like liver failure me money would cost get liver transplant fucking godly amount option practically shit creek sad reality basically option way hell going put burden parents so month ago decided ill push loved ones away make hate including girlfriend ex girlfriend pushed away keep mind ive chicken shit let anyone know this way die care anymore least hurt less last monday attempted redflag failed got discharged hospital turns one people sent letter blocked without even saying anything sat sidewalk waiting ride come get me realized ive accepted decent amount time ago fate sealed clue much longer left considering pain keeps getting worse worse point cant sleep id say long its currently am live turns alot say redflag note dont think really want thing winning know like said really fear death anymore fear tomorrow point feel happy thought going terms know going way seems like peaceful proper way me,1 +hack step step pro tips actual haccer step install kali linux process essential aspiring haccermen haccers use kali linux intimate everyone saying i use kali step wear black hoodie hood head comfiness anonymity important haccers step consider purchasing multiple monitors thats true haccers do also looks edgy cool step turn lights room except monitor step actual hack open terminal type sudo apthack add person site want hack hit enter button step try practicing speaking low voiceim in step running the man try wear guy fawkes mask wherever go,0 +id show yall fakes real thick bitch strikes skirt could get skirt,0 +hell blond insane anime girls name meme template no later wanna show sister haircut looks like it,0 +need someone chat withi made questionable decision hurt people really care about suicidal thoughts mostly muttled severe depression getting lot frequent realistic,1 +blah test blah blah hmmm yes blah blah ok bye,0 +really wish fucking dead idk plan though dont access guns ive basically house arrest parents cant go nearby train tracks cant think tall enough building town dont get drive car poison doesnt seem reliable assuming someone finds quickly enough idk hang myself especially im constantly watched parents pray death point,1 +needs bfgf stuff face cool ranch doritos im lonely lol,0 +pointim extremely depressed anxiety years recently getting worse worse dont know much take this havent school weeks failed classes semester credits im close go court due amount absences have nobody understands painful even wake morning everything feels much different shittier cant keep living like this,1 +worked legs shaking like hell ouch,0 +going reddit think tips do k thank ,0 +driven house theater sweltering heat could pleased road perdition directed sam mendes american beauty destined become one greatest movies time perhaps im getting old perhaps ive seen themes recycled time again movie indeed differentbr br the story opens young michael sullivan jr facing sea contemplating duality fathers legacy one best men ever live one evil duality snakes way throughout movie story revolves around crime boss john rooney paul newman michael sullivan tom hanks young man rooney took serves personal angel death rooney tied blood son tied love loyalty michael young michael jr intrigued stories reads steals away fathers car one night dad goes work connor rooney heir family business connor lets situation get hand meant warning turns murder witnessed michael jr upon discovery young michael seen seen plot set motion conflicting loyalties collide soon michael sr run young son pursued contract killer harlen the reporter maguire jude lawbr br i disclose details order avoid potential spoilers however strongly encourage viewers examine many dualities present movie problems sons fathers michael sr jr john rooney son connor world home world work good evil pretend men god really are clean money dirty town perdition perdition hell along way savor visual brilliance cinematographer conrad l hall nominations oscars best cinematography rain pouring fedoras shots mirrors especially swinging doors tommygun flashes shadows absent sound yearold hall given us perhaps best cinematic product career yearold paul newman offers one best performances everbr br yes may getting old ive seen lot fresh invigorating road perdition presents lasting loving tribute gangster genre films s dark comicbook figures lurking darkness villains heroes american film general go see it,0 +cant anymoreim tired ever future thats even real got accused awful shit contemplated redflag stopped fear failing live disability got scared passed thing close self harm dont want mom suffer cant keep need way cant live like anymore feel like im gonna suffering forever want end dont deserve feeling dont see future longer wish heart would stop working could die peace im still trying pick best way end,1 +jarl moodysson part dying breed political film makers swedish population appreciate try uncover truth government media actively distorts cover events surrounding eu meeting gothenburg absolutely heartbreaking see innocent kids abused drugged swedish police convicted prison political trials sending text messages revenge others actions unfortunate thing movie reach broad masses sweden shown theaters released video aired televisionbr br the political film important bring new perspectives insight complex issues role play educator masses,0 +tried break end semester day supposed leave intentionally missed flight stay talking talk staying him know do mostly scared deal kind huge blow mental health scared repurcussions friends apart feel like fall back on feel like monster confirming fear abandonment also feel conflicted incredibly kind generous affectionate,0 +im quitting job covid travel killing im donei cant rat race im first job graduating dec disappointed enslaved feel reddit google every resource look help quit life scam get happy gotta live according world forces to im waiting covid travel quitting job last day traveling end ever am able enjoy life enslaved retire years old even attempted rebuild life traveling come back country unemployment end it,1 +myselfmy brain worst enemy moment poisoned years lies deceit try better person environment people around help choose stay behind content little slice life think have theyre caught ideas everythings ok isnt ive working healing really slow process days days feel healthy horse feel good dead,1 +fun knowing multiple languages even basic understandings cuz say le arsch muy optimus amp one know said,0 +movie aimed adults rare thing days moonstruck well still better average movie aging well although comic moments aim lower rest it movie wonderful specificity italians brooklyn used shortchange characters viewers ie mobsters never appear acomplication never becomes grotesque like big fat greek wedding secondary story lines economically told short scenes allow break major thread scenes missing contemporary movies immediate value cannot impressed upon producers bigwigs miss scenes also beautifully involves older characters movie takes slight quiet path conclusion poorly written scene included anywhere make executives sphincter relax cage cher nice workbr br moonstruck invokes oldschool ethnic workaday new york much like marty except moonstruck way less sanctimonious,0 +somewhere beyond sea somewhere waiting lover stands golden sands watches ships go sailin,0 +pepe laugh low effort,0 +im horny fuck said every person subreddit ever montana baseball cap,0 +sometimes wish rich could much dumb crap like seriously money would rent billboards post gary please come home signs literally everywhere would make bunch second ads post yt like ad would patrick saying love immediately cuts proceeds video trying watch sound like good idea,0 +everybody commented last post blocked pain goin comment section amp seein absolutely nothing kinda funny tho,0 +remember months ago saved online friend redflag suspended reddit day got unbanned checked online friends accounts one active rredflagwatch gonna commit days talked it still talk day,0 +goddamn brainhow possible start creating game plan make harvard seriously consider downing everything medicine cabinet twenty fucking minutes seriously fed messed head easy opening skull draining depression juice id start drilling holes immediately wouldnt mind blowing brains right now thats tired roller coaster emotions feel like strapped rocket missing tail fin control takes practically nothing send spiral parents child whenever reach dont give shit im pretty sure friends lives would pretty unaffected died im smart im talented im reasonably attractive bunch really desirable traits privileges so why fuck cant i just livewhy cant ok one take seriously say need goddamn help hard give validation im crazy im functional doesnt mean im okay want die badly want curl outside someplace pretty fall asleep never wake up,1 +boyfriend broke fault cheated him forgave first time again albeit reluctantly knows told him amazing lost stupid immature please never cheat worth it,0 +privately chat someone microsoft teams wanna tell girl class rom pog idk privately chat someone microsoft teams meeting class,0 +reason drank bleach destiny coming soonthe method ive chosen drinking bleach super easy find lot house unlike gun something would hard find neighborhood seriously destiny cancelled sucks im ending fast possible destiny might video games look forward to pretty much video games exist id chugging bleach parents main problem theyre always ass every single little thing getting rediculous understand go school im going college soon get degree get job become functioning member society im soooo fucking lazy like im incredibly lazy personality theres nothing it understand something get past hear time stop lazy it quit baby give less fuck im depressed hell sleep play video games fucking day parents hate it lock outside room makes want more one days im locked room mom giving chores want blow brains out like completely understand im whiney millennial lazy sack shit agree care all also recognize parents want best me like theyre shit love want see succeed heart even tell im depressed anything im afraid confrontation point care doctor told parents many signs teenage depression recommended therapist talked like sessions got nothing done open all lied said worked im fine now want tell parents im depressed know response youre lazy using excuse play video games day,1 +posted couple years ago another account deleted posted poems stuff thought might like anyway years ago made attempt gone wrong ended psych ward local hospital quickly enough realized actually stake showed love affection attention care kind cured while thought yearsmeanwhile good life found want life found romantic partner loyal loving clueless romantic far expected couple years ago lol parents moved back together even helped them found new friends enjoy like everything pretty much literally hundreds times better was life improved every aspectuntil recentlyi recently started would call minor anger issues throwing qualified tantrums age pretty ashamed me feel like thisi also started alimentation problems again barely eating anymore appetite to drink lot however ever did tired work tired family yet love done anything wrongrecently caught contemplating suicide more way began many years ago try distracting playing online video games getting call someone myself always one main triggers past feel like here purpose meaningful thought was need help again restarted contemplating suicide lately years last visit psych ward,1 +back thoughts againi cant escape them redflag always tempts me sooner later cope distracting thinking positively never lasts always come back myself lonely disconnected misfit self im considering railway final moments im terrified feelings cant cope feel bad,1 +doso gonna tonight even though probably work ill end inpatient again im supposed going seeing nan weekend know try anything ill yelled i want see nan im selfish i ruined weekend really want kill lol go it,1 +dont know im trying writing this maybe vent get advice dont really know go abusive relationship years everything great first bad boy saw much did loved everything always him,1 +got maths test live highest score feel like celebrating parents dont care classmates really dont care first got new school im super happy it,0 +daughter recovering wife getting diagnosis pregnancy havent able catch snowballing control applied social security wife daughter paperwork lost system went court last week writ possession filed tomorrow morning belongings removed home asked loans cosigners nobody close family willing take hit credit sought rental redflag local charities help got balance ,1 +drunk birthday wanna dieim pretty drunk st birthday theres point livin anymore one would care died people would actually benefit dont want live more parents want house lives none old friends would notice dont new ones fucks sake sister wants dog im dead him dont want anymore,1 +sleep drugif could sleep hours every day would consistent pleasure get anymore sleep,1 +new friends advice is anyone else depression anxiety overcame message here,1 +im starting get sure really itim native speaker m think comitting redflag months now ive seen psychiatrist help all opposite case told intelligent age much reach future talked positive me view opposite case put even pressure me know im way intellectual people age thats important all thing is suck school never learn pay attention lessons never did even years ago grades really bad finish school since think want become self employed already made lot money online trade last year know easy future till now another reason finally kill antisocial af hate people get bored people very quickly aggressive violent too pretty sure kind aspd know cant remember ever felt empathy someone love see people suffer extreme torture rape kill fantasies get normal sex together psychiatrist called complex extreme end life best thing could imagine do see pain annoying things things im able do really want it want time half year ago knew would one day urgent now since months want really badly every every second day cant live like longer exist sounds great i atheistic think mind self conciousness dies physical death impossible imagine to exist feels,1 +ex girlfriend recently broke due emotionally abusive ie lying gaslighting yelling put downs looking girls instagram prior relationship always problems mental health want hurt her truly love her says everybody says abuser ik love her sweetest girl smart beautiful respectful unique loving nor cal young people age acting grown respecting boys girls much respect girl like even similar try convince self bc long not took back fucking many times yet kept it got tired it molested made fun life emotionally abused since childhood mental health excuse did says bad person lot people agree horrible human deserve anything good life accumulation trauma loss first love unbearable overwhelmed feel alone every damn day fucking now wake up smoke play game nap smoke play game repeat really really really want end cycle ik fault feel way deserve hurting one gods precious angels go sleep every night wishing die sleephelp meplease stuck,1 + amp im scared always miserableive sad since ive antidepressants since still feel sad world makes sad cruel is mean people are feel alone scared never want feel terrified leave friends house feel like im going vomit fact alone get especially scared night feel ridiculous want parents hold me want held told everythings going okay one knows help me terrible fucking feeling reach help amp look confused know say sometimes feel great feel like beat bitch get low again lot childhood trauma think lot it along chemicals brain idea one probably reply makes sick dont know do cant feel alone like anymore im starting see point hate downer needy want successful life get amazing grades happy really try think positive things make happy like hike watch favorite movies im tired one helps myself mom used help lot shes mia almost years now miss lot wish hard time debate ending life every day god would mad would give pain everyone love would miss friends family too idea feeling like longer gut wrenching dont want scared little kid anymore want function take medicine fucking alone friends family deserve better sometimes imagine last day earth try take everything tell everyone much matter often feel like take care everyone one me get im adult need people someone understand pain would awesome wouldnt feel like person world cant even write feelings probably cant describe feelings write notes saying goodbye cant even offer logical explanation problems seem ridiculous said outloud know dont want die cant hurt anymore feel like burden,1 +year since short term month sexual abuse incident caused strike depression caused suicide attempt self harm major redflag borderline personality disorder psychosis disassociating nowwell dealing non stop homicidal thoughts really know go this want tell family want hospitalized perhaps keep myself fuck know this lost,1 +way ill ever worth something im food wormsnobody wants friend get know me im intense im loving im annoying need much validation anytime meet someone form close connection scare away get attached people fast borderline pd wasnt like would worth more nobody cares nobody loves nobody wants get know shouldnt alive want dead want fucking dead let bleed out,1 +swear im fine want run far away never return erase entire old identity,0 +want canti desperately want world anymore think place me tried slit wrists couple weeks ago planned out it life gotten worse since then still cant im stuck,1 +female lets see shit actually works,0 +much say really gp wanted increase dose increased well kind proud myselfbut time want herei monthly calendar day cross victory really want alive yesterday instead reaching painkillers had reached antidepressants,1 +wish luck tomorrow exams need wishes motivation would helpful thanks advance,0 +help help help im hour interview subject im interested class like conducted language barely know fuck going arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0 +possible gay fuck sister prove gay find fucking dad whole time im actually gay,0 +dead alreadyone day july going myself take bunch pills end it pathetic stupid reason thought girl care lot popped head got thinking could kinda stopped since ive felt numb time even feel like im person anymore im failing classes little hope pulling back together ive started cutting even literally anyone talk with im terrible person burden ugly be one care right anyone should im getting closer offing again soon enough ill gone one bothered made uncomfortable existing ever again,1 +writing noteacetaminophen take enough okay im waiting bank transfer buy them never made world im sensitive different soul cries aches every touch blow piece aof paper bunch scribbled thoughts life it note im tired understand people think selfish selfish one making feel guilty desiring peace join countless souls like fit this place cruel unforgiving cannot express thoughts feelings have love love love never loved cant wait say hi others me ill finally able meet others like me fit realm died years born realising could never happy was never content look dissociate horrible existence agonizing pain born woman guess thats reason im going fuck im attention seeking throwaway making shtty post taking time day single ounce pity pretty pathetic want put thoughts there way since family horrible hate near them could never relate anyone im different maybe someone see understand future archived months wish able connect someone else intimacy nonexistent me,1 +rape became pregnant regret keeping itampxb ok im kinda nervous share this wanna give much details information really hate son even like saying my cause hate much hate moment doctor handed knew made mistake first looked nothing like me looked like black ugly father the man raped me saw looks nurses faces handed me felt disgusted angry held hands never thought would black ugly dominant genes thought would looked like disappointed fastforward bring home hospital i live alone tried best snap everything need put crib sudden middle night hear crying got mad went room punch face go figure little shit start crying louder took crib throw floor went back bed left crying floor hes always crying like savagely crying opens mouth wide cries see inside fugly mouth today completely lost it crying lift throwing tantrum cooking pressure cooker time took stove throw head might started crying louder kicking screaming started kicking stomping him put ducktape mouth make stop screaming start beating shoe good three minutes done stop crying probably hour im sitting peace eating hot spicy wings comes staring sobbing big ugly stupid blackface got angry spit eye started crying rubbing eye furiously left room crying rubbing eye like half hour hear crying decided go back room see sitting holding knees sobbing quietly saw immediately looked floor went room lift one arm started kicking crying dropped went room boil water went back room throw ass started crying got upset crying lift went basement stairs toss like piece trash is last thing heard tumbling stairs crying checked yet hear crying anymore,1 +parents want know want christmas dont really need anything ideas already asked second monitor new mouse wondering anyone ideas small giftsunder could ask dad ideas besides cash gift cards,0 +im getting feeling everyone paindoes everyone want end suffering everyone hide unbearable suffering god destine us suffer wrong avoid suffering,1 +im making game google slides heres link demo httpsdocsgooglecompresentationdvumffgbjkotuqqhdrykf_nismcm_gtcedituspsharinghttpsdocsgooglecompresentationdvumffgbjkotuqqhdrykf_nismcm_gtcedituspsharing demo new google slides adventure game new normal game decide want president baked beans computer mouse stuff happens,0 +yet another foreign war movie puts hollywood shame real proportions hollywood productions harts war windtalkers unreal moving story backed strong acting great film making,0 +im irish boy cringe im talk anyone preferably anyone time zone its oclock morning rn me hit dms except pedos dog isnt thing talk like gus idubbz crtical micheal reeves play minecraft titan fall xbox listen mc virgins amp yun head im cool,0 +could live without pain would much easier cannot reached help many times one concern it know anymore wish pain would go away,1 +stop lying yall aint getting gfs shuddup,0 +anyone thought movie idea yet movie main character classy rich woman wears typical clothing big dresses smokes long cigarettes things like that hates low class people around people likes low class shit pleasure know sounds weird sounds like something fun watch seeing lives secret life still trying hide high class people,0 +hi guys watch fany motorsport general car guys want know one yall share interest thanks,0 +ik yall dont know wont care im gonna temporarily delete reddit idk im really kinda bad point life im kind lost reddit sure fuck aint helping im temporarily deleting it download again maybe im deleting account might not knows ik need time kinda find myself again im making post anybody might texting someone whos familiar u know kinda vanished lol im mostly focused posting profile think ill post rteenagers since im quite active goodbye now,0 +good time allits weird im literally reddit every day yet posted times due massive situation look post history actually funny played ultimately almost everything dropped bought new car even desperate situation this last week massively terrible like massively went back school first time three half years semester okay know happened within last two weeks snapped work overnight job fulltime go school mornings became switch went work school home homework work school etc five days week im already insomniac since work nights always sort handled would drink nights listen music would make happy would inspire five nights option last week bad finals week ended working schedule overnight mothers day came back hours later mothers day afternoon shift hours later rush school final presentation finals ended missing tuesday one due oversleeping since literally time able sleep three days wednesday another final went okay wednesday overnight worked thursday morning went home work final get done friday morning well paper online class due friday call work thursday night minutes shift even though im supervisor literally could get twelve hour extension programming final would allowed sleep since then ive massive disarray got massive argument manager logistics random things even make sense means basically mad called out yet third call four years quit last semester school took dropped classes time needed needed get done literally call fail course decided go see second favorite band tell username favorite one is headlined skate surf asbury park sunday ended zoning halfway show good time all even got angry decided play extra minutes played songs happy normal day hear also front center people got front see one favorite bands everyone else attendance behind me felt nothing then festival mainly street parking forgot parked thought knew asbury well never put tag originally parked would funny cases would simply go bar drunk enough go find without worrying gaslight anthem song ends saying we could sleep beach night would totally done happy reason panic attack ran two half miles blocks see sentence someone extremely shocked even happened started walking wrong direction thankfully officer went pizza shop and though sweaty shaking worst panic attack life drove around found it im here hours later feeling better know point post was got diagnosed depression three years ago dropped school bad this bad weeks ive usually always able handle it recently umno hurts saw one favorite bands band countless times made feel good even better current situation feet away even work time,1 +yesterday zoom class english teacher asked us tradition gotta say really enjoyed watching bunch people temporarily double said peer pressure dead people,0 +sometimes forget legs remember get sad,0 +feel like worthless amp hopeless idiotim three years university still doubt myself classes getting harder progress major know want mentality awful see graduating little hope myself im far behind help feel like ill forever long history depression anxiety ocd suicidal thoughts everything treated ive many in outpatient programs always get better little while new medicine changes work many years therapist great see breaks months time summer oncampus therapy garbage insurance military places accept it feel like lost cause really want die yet think semester over feel hopeless pathetic stupid much look forward many reasons live grateful opportunity go school covered financially hardly get bed let alone go class dying means worry sounds ideal right now im tired worrying anyone else feel way cope motivate keep going,1 +guys need help homophobic parents blocking access talk friends parents decided look phone without permission decided go discord backread found messages non binary person turns support try make sure understand people something wrong mentally next day change passwords go stuff without permission theyre even mad tell im allowed im allowed keep anything absolutely nothing im years old also think classmates gay people reason im like im allowed talk anymore ampxb know sorry bad formatting need advice,0 +my daughter funny happy girli already make say cloak letter lies funny funny happy happy i never forget you sobs mic yeah never forgot good punching bag you dumpster could let bad emotions days hard unfortunate you thing thank good father,1 +movie quite pleasant surprise anticipated long time afraid going possibly live expectationsbr br it exceeded thembr br i adored moviebr br hilarious start finish stay end credits absolutely remarkable movie dumb annoying characters intelligent witty engagingbr br with obvious matte paintings movies future earth recalls planet apes series scifi movies erabr br in fact movie essentially planet apes people mental equivalent apesbr br it moves fairly brisk pace luke wilson carries movie quite well character recalls one played bottle rocket theres even notsosubtle nod bottle rocket early scenebr br maya rudoulph also surprisingly good former painter frozen wellbr br despite strengths idiocracy distinct feel movie taken away directoreditor could finetunedbr br i cannot life understand movie funny would dumped theaters advanced screenings trailers marketing whatsoeverbr br its studio decided going spend walked awaybr br or maybe thought movie makings cult classic way become true cult classic set fail br br whatever case shame mike judge film particular deserve betterbr br i predict movie real legs dvd word mouth propel success deservesbr br perhaps fox executives saw characters confused thought documentary,0 +cant take anymorei wanna dieim done this ive since noon yesterday morning gotten absolutely sleep able eat days eat anything usually pretty small like stouffers something hate job time love it theres lot bonuses promotion opportunities perks medical benefitssounds great aint cracked be im im extremely lonely want sound like rincels post cant seem care enough let alone anybody else even try anymore get or give single fuck tried would anybody even miss me no course not im known financial burdens owe student loans college never even worked outnever money pay first bills probably went thousand so im trying get new car since old taurus broke i hate fords much im shitty saver told gonna save check ended spending going bar hopping getting drunk friend im even old enough fucking drink yet look confident enough and beard pass ive recently stopped smoking weed seemed way could take stress away took far trying get someone ended smoking half ounce week usually smoke what grams month shit tolerance goes drug ive taken xanax percocet smoked weed drank vicodins shit aint same ive depressed since young child contemplating redflag since yes fucking wanted kill due suffering abuse throughout whole life would get severely beaten small shit like forgetting tiny detail forgetting task really aint issue live outside city dying economy inner city treated worse financially point guys nobody would miss me nobody would care loved ones would give less shit im price tag them counting exact last years theres nothing do theres nobody call friends either stab back take money get highdrunk im done date anything planning buying lot fentanyllaced heroin enough kill elephant since shit tolerance everything work plentiful,1 +fuck guys shes abused shes brainwashedthis girl beautiful life ruined prick reading site every single sign right on warning signs abuse social isolation limiting one do one see one see unexplained physical injuries victim may show signs depression weight loss gain constantly tired extremely anxious batterer verbally abusive private public extreme jealousy requiring permission certain things ex see people spend money etc controls one wears abuser might history violence short temper fighting others abusing animals property easy access weapons becomes angry consuming drugs alcohol stalking together constantly calls inquires whereabouts shows victims home victim apologetic abusers actions makes excuses them rationalizes them blames victim constantly edge things keep abuser happy afraid make abuser angry victim loses interest onceloved hobbies activities time spent abuser tasks abuser abuser threatens selfharm redflag guilt victim want beat shit within inch life know might send even deeper feel like tell parents ill lose trust her tell wait shes gonna fuck life,1 +award first comment post yeah leave comment filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +communication skills i even know whats wrong know me really problem communicating someone many friends im bad talking etc moment realized today talking crush simply asked knew liked her said somehow could even make less obvious asked really wanted know this went no making sure proceeds ask feeling like probably never felt it tell strange feeling asks good bad said it changes good first realize fact even chance her everything goes downhill asks is fact bad based said reply no strange tells trying understand emphasize probably hard tell least sure knows now replies probably so problem see conversation bad tell one friends asks actual fuck is proceeds tell it know wrong even know wrong give advice bad communicating people,0 +cut bangs look good,0 +need someone compare two essays help filler filler title basically ill send essays dms,0 +cupcakesok lied another person suicidal flow events life never connected much peers family is was much fundamentalist christian took passionately faith conflicted growing realization attracted guys family moved average every year recently friend mind come mean somebody feel safe talking all grade school got good grades gifted program pretty awesome sat scores blackbelt in tang soo do hate myself mothers emotional support punching bag since father left freshman highschool made deeply fearful connecting anyone even slightest degree told since people around deeply sad father left mother finally took seriously enough let see somebody it depression meds made difficult think feel anything all started cutting soon starting meds took stopped cutting month meds started effect ever told anybody cutting feel ashamed able deal many people clearly dealing fine talked several councilors always ended thinking fine tell anything really mattered without also telling strong urge though desire end life fallen completely behind college certainly fail entire second semester getting full as first semester painfully deep way know handle knowing wake tomorrow drive school found making stupid mistakes also found difficult resist driving bridge close house every time pass it the speed limit unreasonably high back road is want make sure something super obvious missing everybody else somehow understanding would appreciative things show comments anything word wait it gets better anything somebody in metaphorical sense kind gesture honestly helpful somebody irl posting right now edit typed one go spelling grammar mistakes please tell fix them,1 +hate among us ruined word sus me slowly starting reuse word sus back july joji used sounded cool cant say sus without thinking among us,0 +ok horny nibba hours sike httpsyoutubezxo_ohtqwy httpsyoutubevigow_cdrro httpsyoutubertqlrslpvc kayako makes cock hard,0 + apple equivalent cups coffee would better eat apple instead consuming caffeine work late night thought might need this,0 +ive gotten reddit awards today noon holy fuck ones pay for free ones,0 +watching part dreams minecraft smp literally like made sad disappointed many streamers many try hard watched sapnap half hour now literally did nothing probably made well dollars watching him literally wasnt entertaining sad could sit mining blocks repeating thr thing times his height would succeed anyone else could imagine habe multiple friends absolutely love streams try get them literally makes sense like like like wont judge that literally makes sad confused ig rant like legitimately sad bc it,0 +pointlessi wake everyday wishing would die life absolutely pathetic wife told wants around friend work women fucking sexually harass me kid sees sort moneybag job work reprimand people say constantly cant leave wife without getting son pulled school since way either could live neighborhood apartments housing district complete conniving bitch would cut custody ive years learning im loveless marriage ive got years son enters college always get another job cant quit theres evidence work im fucking drained log every incident concise manner nd commute hours time look new job literally feel constant pain exhaustion come home coming home joke pick everyones ass hours dinner tired too watch fucking tv hours time friends friends great lives im barely treading water cant kill myself insurance money take care kid im even active community basically didnt parent social committee would dissolve son neighbor woulnt school activities im left holding bag steaming shit everyone else fun fuck wish everyday transport truck would take out walk bank someone would shoot place probably soon kid college im going find quiet place die overdose disappear even give shit anyone getting closure want fucking endless grind meaningless end,1 +flat earthers belive hills mountains hill flat enough disprove flat earth,0 +death dateyesterday marked years since boyfriend killed motorcycle accident always bad day me however usually friends things keep mind occupied good times year different cut ties toxic friend group cut good maybe people life also close exroommates theyre things one friend lives miles away dealing problems person left friend released jail addicted heroin spent day alone planned would end life could death date boyfriend go see one time went grave smoked cigarette playing free bird thats noticed blue jay nearby hed fly closer watch fly another location near watch entire minute song one convince wasnt him know would want live dont see point living anymore,1 +abuseit really negative effect whole life someone whos sexually assaultedharassed emotionally abused drags drastically,1 +dont motivation world moreidk yall,1 +every single night comes back thisi feel like someone never made world never gets better ive depressed eight straight years love partner much love family love dog sometimes connections enough make worth it nothing else education job right now nothing nothing im even remotely good im anxious wreck cant take risks feel like seem lack intuition drive happiness come easily neurotypical people sat awake every night long remember wishing dead hate inside out hate pathetic am crying write this never bringing loud know burden everyone else,1 +cant even talk someone feelings would live longer like dont mind englishi really dont know say thoughts redflag getting head cant stop thinking it want look help dont wanna live life anymore im best perfect daughter mother perfect sibling every time dont trust searching everything room find use me general cant talk anyone family feelings like taboo household ive got anger issues since couple weeks im getting panic attacks overthink much im stressing much im going walks without anyone knowing want disappear good wont know it reason dont talk feelings friends wouldnt understand pain ive through see feelings weak point dont ever share anyone person im projecting someone doesnt feel affected doesnt much emotions share im alone things getting me officially become much handle dont ever want share feelings im getting bad thoughts end all hope im gone someday finally accept sharing feelings help others learn big lesson voice doesnt count would share feelings them,1 +ones loveto wife im sorry mental illness hurt you never deserved broken man husband brothers im sorry big brother strong enough bare burden life you again two always better me mother im sorry baby boy grew depressed failure energy wasted me never repay it grandmother im sorry golden grandbaby lost shine unyielding love barely reaches stone cold heart family im sorry faded away im sorry better friends im sorry friend deserved lot left honestly cant blame you reading this im sorry wasted time problems hope stronger am succeed failed climbing debt potential homelessness matter time now better me reddit faith all ive ever faith myself,1 +make friends day friend asleep hes poating r vlipa hes proud without recognition want see smile u help sharw withypur friends httpsyoutubeurfjqdysbe,0 +cant use gmail account anymore anyway,0 +nnn cancelled it mean hear rumors sure,0 +yo someone wanna see video made dm pm wanna see,0 +im life keeps repeating im done want dieim sitting car condo complex used live fiance kicked today want die way around ive failed relationships failed jobs ive poor whole life messed family tired cannot take anymore first time life lived chittum italy want die nothing live ive lost everything ive never seem learn lesson fall back patterns routines cant it cant anymore final straw im homeless money carry want die nobody convince anything reality better im nothing ive nothing years life want nothing never wake again,1 +killer clowns coming back yall fr ive seeing people talk clowns coming back watched couple videos claim recent videos dont know fall fun clowns,0 +lets go asked crush ive talking months liked back talked till am made official lets go,0 +try reach friend said tired living one like live sake breathing surviving everyday meaningless friend said saying like that like this questions make feel worse random thought,1 +finish cyberpunk im gonnapullthe pluglelelleleleleleel,1 +im wondering guys going celebrate valentines day going celebrate lucina corrin plushies,0 +im sick of vent im sick myself im sick nothing matter theres someone better me im sick people thinking im strong talented sociable happy opinion cannot that im sick feeling like life lie im sick feeling like words actions own better version never be yet time im sick dreams aspirations im sick people telling make k year worth doing im sick told talent music photography also told talents useless focus math im sick worrying money im sick worrying cant afford im sick limited life financial state im sick living around actual millionaires feeling like belong im sick jealous people im sick seeing friends blow right past social musical academic status like im standing still im sick acting like nothings changed everything changed im sick feeling like cant talk friends theyre better me form another im sick looking mirror seeing shittier version someone else im sick feeling like bad photocopy parents expectations im sick asked help cope anxieties im sick telling truth deal them im sick letting words lies hate selfdoubt fester inside like cancer cannot function im sick knowing improve address problems correctly motivation so im sick knowing tests study for id rather sleep pretend exist im sick getting good grades anyways all im sick perfect im sick thinking perfect maybe things would right deal bullshit carry around like lead weight im sick feeling like im one deal kinds problems im sick feeling like everyone else shit straightened im one doesnt im sick feeling left behind one help get back feet im sick telling problems real get like everyone else im sick feeling like im one cant deal struggles shortcomings im sick pain never goes away im sick living nice town nice things good education means im privileged great things life im sick pressure constantly me making want disappoint someone thank reading this ive wanting say long time know say it feel like people know im really ok even say am im never ok never sure say it thank you,0 +questions know someone close committed redflagi making final preparations demise find wondering make little easier around im gone sure seems fickle could cause people little less pain im sure would appreciate it legal advice last testament ways remove online personas dispose earthly possessions without burden loved ones would helpful maybe something even thought of short things wish someone lost redflag done left cost major issue trusting people knowledge plans trouble too things prepare cost would ideal thank time wasted reading post please make replies promptly as everything time issue edit formatting im new posting reddit ok,1 +need music suggestions used know music liked dont,0 +tis as lots boobies great characters fun filled pranks well put together teen action spin amercan pie franchise feels like really old school feels bit like porkys s great funny characters combined humorous situations make one real surprise mebr br whilst original cast gone except one movie found really entertaining lets get excited take booby teen comedy is is excels characters likable funny girls hotter hell fun games hilarious stuff ive never seen comedies make cringe laugh timebr br so ignore haters give run see think expect classic american pie expect something make laugh spark attention hour so,0 +experience snow im floridian know sand alligators know snow tell me snow fun annoying fun make 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swimming trophies ribbons guess thing good at real accomplishment fucking years talking friend today whos swim meet would give another one would give anything one day high school swim good old days go ruin i miss days never get back i im sorry fucked up fucked badly done better im sure ranting boring point guess ill stop care,1 +poo poo times pee pee times alll pee pee times poo poo times,0 +someone talk mei posted day deleted it skype im lonely,1 +really wish someone gave fuck methis throwaway account thats jake paul name joke remember kid thought id wife girlfriend grew up fucking joke instead stuck fucking room fucking dumbass quarantine school wanting kill one gives shit ive started texting girl asked course rejected im lowlife piece shit always hits first shes reason basically hope except deep know doesnt give fuck never love useless loser like fucking pandemic dont even soccer thing kept going every week time feel express dont want fucking kill myself best friend ghosted last weeks im completely alone person even texts girl wont hang even wanted couldnt quarantine im gonna make weeks wish gf cares would hold close tell gonna ok wish could say stuff friends im man cant show emotion look like pussy want cuddle girl warm happy im loser idk want happy long,1 +damn ever cry someone saw something made think hey know someone would like am got b cup mom go toilet immediately cry little,0 +ruined life months make things right else everything endsi know anymore months make things right boyfriend were going kill ourselves want die bad want die im living try make things right keep fucking up got psych couple weeks ago another redflag attempt ruined everything ruined life ruined myself ruined boyfriend feel like clock running im panicking,1 +ranti going commit redflag longer reason to simply ive waited long im s people depending me ive wanted kill teens intensive treatment redflag watch times late teens early s many people grew depression thought would heart hearts think deserve break quite people fate thinks otherwise cant think moment life would bring say glad didnt kill myself become envious people managed it died young would still promising life cut short im middle aged person failed wait end long painful way suggesting anyone kill themselves,1 +turned yesterday tips advice,0 +stop telling get help did years assure you always worki honestly idea subreddit fits post most im sick told get help years actively trying get help serving social workers army therapists psychiatrist pills cbt gym sleep proper diet even motivational sleep videos whatever nothing worked made things worse slowly realized nothing helps made lot hopeless im sick seeing people telling others get help assuming never did entire life wasted help social skills practically selectively mute wish someone would hold hand getting euthanized telling best thing me get help idea normalized current form ideas help completely disregards fact barely know save the obviously people already comitted redflag,1 +want kiss far long kiss would improve life exponentially,0 +im im give uptheres many things wrong abusive step father absent father mother loves accept myself fact barely stand look mirror general stress school im breaking down know talk to last time tried get help sent christian counseling thing help all know do going almost years im barely holding,1 +feel like dying motherfcking teacher posted page long test minutes submission time submitted minutes late means points basically rushed thru test coz tried fill everything deadline got test grades gonna get low wna fucking shit got tons homework abd phone im pretty much fucked teachers posting shitty assignments hour deadline wtf do,0 +stay happyi posted several times before time talked killing myself however tired talked it want either stop miserable die recently quit job mcdonalds making suicidal ever going college scared horrible grades think may go academic probation that large student loans pilled head job way ever get job dead end job makes want kill myself therefore decided go probation ill kill myself gotten obsessed idea death lately think death would like ways could quickly die day bothersome me people situation even worse situations able stay happy frustrating me people happy feel like completely missing something people are genetic mindset either could ever change mindsets genetics all are tldr extraordinarily unhappy many situations likely going kill end semester unless find way stay happy tired talked it final decision instead want advice happy,1 +helpim gonna straight honest dont feel depressed ive never really depressed know of great family loves everything could ever want still want die close friends considered weird kid school currently failing three classes straight student everyone hates tried telling best friend doesnt believe me says want attention honestly cant anymore hate hate life everything it im need advice need now please dont give redflag prevention hotline need help real person knows im going through reason havent already ended life dont tools to tried telling parents believe me,1 +weekly story ideas thread posted idea every self post weekend would post story would ask guys ideas throw ideas may turn story week another week,0 +feel socially emotionally confined express self riamweird heyo sw im bit strange fellow usually spend days containing myself so built outlet thought someone might like riamweirdhttpwwwredditcomriamweird description made reddit think justice gtwelcome sanctuary strange here may express inner weirdo experience others gt gtthis place people and various lifeforms try post things strange pictures those belong rwtfhttpwwwredditcomrwtf unless involved somehow gt gthere encouraged suck spot light yourself gt gtdont shy were really accepting gt gtif come embrace oddity ones humanity please advance rnormalhttpwwwredditcomrnormal gt gtdo pass go gt gtdo collect karma gt gtenjoy stay gt we fleas bit boring moment hoping one two people 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disorders back february week july things seemed get worse im best friend left me cant anything all thing even find remotely enjoyable playing video games even like playing im trash multiplayer games im bad internet bad people tell kill bad im really lonely friends parents care me tell long spend night home nights week even care sit home look window wishing could go there anxiety attacks stop me im smart all fail classes go im lazy know anything try go home spend hours trying homework know parents help me want go online because im going fail class anyways want truly get smarter without help answer sheet online,1 +im glad friendsthat way one mourn death kill myself,1 +man feel lonely quality friends spend time with siblings kinda busy mother cant find girl whos smart enough understand me computer could play favorite titles forget sadness forever got hurt yesterday asshole dog broke new fucking expensive phone process bought money earned working fathers office mamoni gotten frustrated something rash behavior driving crazy talk much or uh feel like exploding someday damn lack opened mind broadened knowledge urge learning skills good fitness caring mind importantly polite yet fail acquire anything want,0 +give ps boy dont use ps ever since got ps month ago one boys doesnt one loves warzone play phone whenever sleepovers goes crazy consoles feel bad thought would give aint tryna offend make seem like hes charity case tryna boys running warzone time,0 +ladies ive got offer cant refuse actually refuse necessarily lady even female matter even male could nb point is please dm im lonely,0 +feel like even hypothetical chance improve existencehello people point life completely stuck currently master studies apparently life looks decent outside reality hell point identify person anymore feel like nothing rotting body feelings perspectives things improve even theory struggled eating disorder since tried get help several medical institutions psychologists pills etc gets worse time last years living hell cannot deal longer top that also bipolar help try control myself basically cannot care look want pretty thin want productive useful makes feel good problem focus studying living life general restrict cannot anymore eating disorder took form bed before anorexia ednos anorexia again couple bulimic months inhaled spoon bed couple years thin anymore care that feel worthless constantly thinking stuffing that makes unproductive sincerely try care studies pretty good forcing it reality go well got worse last moths that even constant internal struggle passionate learning stuff became chore everything became chore even washing hair basic hygiene go out friends understand cannot formulate feel accurately even typing realize sound basic cheesy like put together woman children africa starving care stupid problem invented believe me impossible live like that identify young woman even person constantly feel like somekind cartoon character pleasant around i nice people ready help ask good sense humor really person full life goals want good carreer able support parents necessity able control eating habits never wished feel stupid basic thing controls life reality does accept minimize suffering trying function get back control tried everything work got patience tried commit redflag times last weeks magically work the car stopped got scratches bruises head arms second time passed days taking overdose pills woke bunch vomit sorry details yes know,1 +flirting help crush crush asexual yes ik means asexual people reddit flirt her relationship right now friends do,0 +im going jump apartment sooni cant take loneliness anymore im done literally way it im years old still feel like fucking child compared peers experiences had feels like permanent brain damage years isolation impossible recover it rather kill live rest fucking life loneliness,1 +onethere oneno euthanasiano psychological helpnowhere seek refugeno one ask helpi cant even speak family christs sakethe government busy sucking bezos dicki cant stand bullshiti didnt ask bornto made everyone blames wretched existencei cant stand please help,1 +constantly feeling stressed suicidal anxietyridden ive enough someone fucking stop thisso probably going turn wall text ill try keep short sweet guess started year ago first panic attack horrible ive never really recover ive constantly downwards spiral anxiety constant throughout day time never truly giving break sometimes manageable im room daytime anywhere else fucking painful cancer even things like movies themeparks make want cry puke anxiety sometimes get lucky get couple minutes burst endorphins quick put anxiety background everything difficult now anxiety caused worse worse mental health memory focus completely shot cant sleep night typing am cant even get sleep unless theres sunlight coming in causing vicious cycle sleeping am pm ive tried much get back normal body simply cooperate go bed pm ill wake hour later sweat bursting energy cant use exhausting it want normal sleeping pattern pm am appetite control im hungry day starving night hate fucking much past six months selfharm suicidal thoughts becoming worse day bombarded thoughts hanging myself throwing stairs chocking out sometimes close eyes see grotesque image its becoming frequent friends im going insane that parents completely emotionally unavailable useless every time bring up get stepped ignored constantly keeping leash refusing let house decree even single fucking friend hell fucking teenager friend hell could stupid jesus fucking christ grace found job get house parttime theres nobody around help causing many problems every day feels exhausting terrifying nothing feels real anymore emotions thoughts clashing like waves brain fucking stop mean im woozy faintish whenever stand up motivation game write anymore used love everything hurts now honestly want die get hell with want rest want everything stop im fucking honestly helpless far gone know would even want live got better worst year fucking life hopefully last,1 +im frustrated small internet feels mean young moshi monster webkinz ty club penguin much more big social media sites instagram twitter reddit ect croweded hard noticed open laptop think wow entire world information right here dont know go could interesting would share with find something new thats nice internet seems small now everything seems serious,0 +whats pointi chronic depression anxiety make even best parts life hard whats point continuing im going battle mind rest life,1 +woke morning wood wont go away one boners literally hurts lmao,0 +ahh do crush ive really good friends idea im gay constantly telling guy gay single ask do ps nothing lgbtq community didnt want offend anyone,0 +wish could live want suffer anymorelife suffering life solitude life long painful wait sweet oblivion came from solution least way out,1 +yeahhhh im tired good night,0 +pogchamp ggwp pet rock loves relationshipgoals wowowo,0 +girls yall feel guys big noses ive told im anywhere great hair amp great smile dimples gigantic nose im super self conscious about again ive got great dimples amp smile smile nose expands size elephant yall feel this,0 +fuckers stole kitkat cant shit meta physical plane existence,0 +im years old ambitions want get far life thought killing haunting long time want end itthis going long one type read long piece text think move elsewhere im years old male live uk im aspiring filmmaker im currently university filmmaking course young age wideeyed kid saw world playground imagination run wild place become almost anything time life discovered many things created many goals aspire towards everyday would look important relic something thrive towards time childhood fun full optimism carried forward early years teenager friends school moved on first sense loss next grandmother grandfather passing away within year carried forward time high school optimism still alive far remember high school fun time dispute overly shy able gain good group friends dreams ambitions seemed closer ever began watch films range arthouse cinema built love writing able come stories im still working even day shy was think would remembered everyone latter half final year got stage sang songs everyone loved remember boy came shell sang heart out attended college soon finally wanted do held back little poor maths grade level one art design media course first moving towards level film course years went on began lose confidence myself disregarding scripts calling awful even deleting computer attending classes began lose hope able get highest grades class got university made happy spark gone know why ive enjoyed university far ive working likeminded people reason feel like lesser person them latter half first year considering redflag stopped shortly attended music festival ive attending festival since last year helped forgive see thousands people time lives made think would lose kill myself that want got back work but thought killing stuck again ive degrading ive person before parents worried brother worried really affected filmmaking well think future hold me haunting long time wish could end life right now write this im edge hope itbut urge overwhelming me actually read this want thank taking time wonderful life hope everything works you certainly me ive never love sense success really see point continuing life take life post this want reflect life makes wonderful want see flaws hope stronger point overcome tough times live see happiness waiting you again thank reading wish happy life know mine worth it life worth everything,1 +youtube auto play gave wanted thats thanks algorithm sometimes useful anyways good night,0 +always like people start showing interest back happened like people idk man chase better problems lmao,0 +quirky movie brits well low budget cameo type roles well executed story little weak recently widowed judi dench decides round blonde bombshells well almost all girl band performed war london obligatory sondaughter thinks gone potty like way movie lets young people see monopoly feelings love even lust old wrinklies good laugh too judi dench superb always pity get see blonde bombeshells end little rushed thought kept thinking watched david jason would made even better patrick ian holm although quite adequate transvestite drummer cheery movie well worth night girls ,0 +point life anyway die even need here go school another half decade sell life corporate world job like die somehow nothing left care stupid small things life anymore padding die leave world wish could go fuck everything,1 +anybody first generation iphone se black reddit icon please hit up youre going update it please let know first really want black icon back,0 +way outim nothing seems change know things pretty subjective happiness comes waves amount bad things feels like tipping scale im growing tired nothing please anyone im with im toxic person lot mental issues wish didnt deal with feel like life heavy nothing makes feel less empty life feels bleak felt way long im thinking maybe hanging myself dont anyone talk to life lonely im stuck box day,1 +spoilers classic s sex trash swedish gal helga made movie great beautiful really got sexual was exuded massive quantities sexuality throughout film best scenes was er stimulating herself whenever screen became transfixedbr br also doctor julia sister dimwitted male focus film interesting visually although year old girls bigger breasts julia knew use little scenes especially scenes silk blouse black skirt also grabbed attention unmercilessly also got love major hoaky scene bats stripped nekkid know ive ever seen anything ludicrous yet sexy time classic stuff,0 +pointsince boyfriend years left me cant see point life theres meaning purpose work money try meaningless relationships people like world were leaving ask born deal even want to were years die totally useless life pain,1 + done itdone life point nothing live ive many ups downs downs time sure im even man enough end it dont im running away never well school feel insane amount study still fail parents dont except feel bully feeling bad myself feel depressed like didnt technology id dead friends piss time try annoy dont like talking them im male btw guess last ditch effort human advice doesnt involve tough gets better,1 +might forced move schools got phone call home today behaviour imo isnt worst compared others mothers threatening move different school either different town different county altogether fuck life,0 +see evil kane movie great storyline hide eyes scream loud horror flick thought going watching wwe superstars monday night raw movie first came theaters enjoy movie though loved story played outbr br great movie excellent would like see part br br it matter kane gets killed endbr br or killed horror stars every movie br br they still comeback part wouldbr br be interesting,0 +holy fucking shit cannot process fact computer science ta invited class section play among us weekend hes going post link canvas everything cannot breathe w h,0 +one cerebral insightful movies ever seen script language costumes scenery plot characters etc supreme bored watched intensely even listened movie working many times lost count scarlett ages gracefully acquiring wisdom beyond years end movie takes tara ireland family originally see results another civil war played there time irish englishbr br this movie depicts double standards men timea man still respected girlfriends whores woman merely seen private place man society accuses impropriety course scarlett always thinking outside box breaking rules necessary create needed change help people andor survivebr br scarletts beauty definitely bone strength selfesteem wisdom grow ages br br i remember lines confronted much plate as tomorrow another day way carried herself determination courage learned experiences good movie show daughters teaches woman important respect yourself men especially handsome ones two sides may treat woman differently depending acts respects herself attractive woman needs learn movie teaches br br this movie like therapy me better gone wind second part takes place ireland anyone irish decent cherish scenery people scarletts character within it,0 +convince mei made similar post couple days ago depression subreddit im posting here hardly energy type more ill keep short really want die im fully sure committing act myself family made clear want around friends want friends interests ambitions life meaning purpose never has cant seem get family understand depression many issues could stem aspergers convince continue,1 +forced learn foreign language understand lot good things learning another language also going we going continue education past high school forget it think,0 +hate egypt hate place hate egypt hate everything everyone hate streets hate education system hate government hate think hate theyre living every dream destroyed egypt every wish every fantasy destroyed hope things get better shattered plans go vain hate everything cant even kill religious running away never help either dutch passport travelling another country help still belong trashass land community full assholes born here egyptian whole life think egyptian live egyptian even whatever land hate never find love never happy never love never good internet never enjoy video games never make movie never teacher never pet never go parties never anything blame egypt egypts effects stay forever like trauma also blame family running away already dutch passport better would appreciated trying hate egypt hate life,0 +anyone wanna go out that yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee filler text,0 +anxietymy anxiety gets like prison head think worst brings deep depression want stop hate much every time look mirror get sad bc get reminded im tired,1 +hope leftmy moods intense cant trust them im months late rent relationship slowly turning shit brain pushed away friends stopped exercising going stop eating waste away bed life pointless people like me im done trying anymore going go back cutting hope die,1 +rude others jealousy acceptable grow up mature respect one another yes obvious people need reminded this,0 +excellent twentiethcentury fox filmnoir metropolis labyrinth despair scavengers predators survive living one another brooding cityscapes lower puny humanity bleak expressionist symbolismbr br a prostitute purse snatched subway contains microfilm communist spy ring go lengths recover it two parallel investigations unfold spies cops hunt precious informationbr br antihero pickpocket skip mccoy played scornful assurance richard widmark knows cops moral equals intellectual inferiors taunts them go on says captain dan tiger murvyn vye drum charge throw in done before pitiless world cops one gang streets candy hooker bribes lightning louie get lead police busy paying stool pigeons informationbr br it hard believe widmark made film already early middle age yearold star coming end contract fox plays upstart skip mccoy irreverent brashness teenager today may acceptable romantic lead punch love interest unconsciousness revive sloshing beer face mores period signified toughness candy all fallen womanbr br jean peters radiant candy here right middle fiveyear burst bmovie fame beautiful engaging whore golden heart storys victim martyr beauty much anything else means well constantly manipulated cynical men joey skip copsbr br the real star movie new york haunting urban panoramas snidering subway stations offer claustrophobic evocation city living malevolent force like maggots rotting cheese human figures scurry citys byways elevators subway turnstiles sidewalks even dumb waiter act conduits flow corrupt humanity people cling niche affords safety moe grimy rented room skip tenebrous shack hudson river characters move interact framed bridge architecture lattices girders divided hanging winch tackle personality city constantly imposing itself angles crossbeams wharf timbers echo gridiron street plan cardindex cabinets squadroom mimic manhattan skyline joeys exit subway barred steel sinews city ensnaring himbr br a surprising proportion film shot extreme closeup character drives plot should closeups used augment character skip interrogates candy closeup captures sexual energy them belying hostility skips words jean peters beauty painted light exquisite soft focus closeups device also employed heighten tension opening sequence purse snatch contains dialogue drama relies entirely closeup powerful effectbr br snoopers snoopers upon snoopers populate film moe thelma ritter makes living informant place hierarchy accepted even victims skip observes shes gotta eat chanting recurring refrain straight new yorkers peddle lamb chops lumber underworld traffics commodity informationbr br and yet even stool pigeons superior joey communist friends joeys feet moes bed symbolise transgression basic moral code joey beyond pale moe trade joey even preserve life even crummy business gotta draw line somewherebr br pickup made depths cold war richard nixon chosen republican vicepresidential candidate made name phoney alger hiss expose bogus communist microfilm all mccarthy show trials daily reality see cops movie inveigh the traitors gave stalin abombbr br new york seen giant receptacle human offal cheats squeals murders containers form leitmotif throughout film moe carries trade mark box ties candys purse container microfilm engine plot skip keeps possessions submerged crate symbolising secretive streetwisdom paupers coffins moving hudson barge containers one cargo shifted around pitiless metropolisbr br the film masterpiece composition candy shown skulking skip rickety gangway shack signifying moral ascendancy gun placed table extreme perspective makes look bigger candy violence beginning dwarf compassion lovers eclipsed shadow stevedores hook reminding us love neither pure absolute contingent upon whims sinister city enyard communist shadow wall disembodied puff cigarette smoke like lone alley cat amongst garbage predatory phantom night camera shots taxi hoods inside newspaper kiosks bars hospital beds constantly reinforce us awareness trapped metropolis civilisations mulch,0 +weird fear weird fear whenever post comment something orange loading symbol thing comes up gives way much time think maybe submission removed,0 +suicidali bought gun bullets week reason shot luck would die would become vegetable make life worst want die know happen die would injure myself life never really gets better hate people say hate people say temporary really happiness temporary pain last forever,1 +comingjust broke person cares me told best friend made joke able fuck now told mom asked could bring lunch nobody else said anything me friends messaged offer support family checked me ex person cares moving soon friends family like im funny im clown them broke issues want end someone hated wanted improve requires single understands wants leave door open want get hopes up im turn month im alone,1 +dark souls borderlands next game friends yes know dark souls hard thats want cannot choose,0 +day think stuff one day thoughts today mostly family thought things theyve done affected well lot negative remembered time got yelled sister crying middle night remember tried break stuff cover face pillow say im sorry cried yelled youre abused reason cry made think im crybaby maybe fault treat way also thought people used know realized talked felt bad realized would always leave second could even person thought best friend thats stopped considering friends friends family really reason keep going things made happy today playing guitar day one done two left,0 +yall leave uworstestgrammar alone fr lol,0 +debate anything pt ive done again,0 +watched debate america like this wanted live quiet life fucking happened,0 +wanna die againi cant anymore nobody understands feel sad time im tired hiding rather dead life awful dont understand life dont know do would like talk someone anyone willing,1 +film undoubtedly one greatest landmarks history cinema seeing filmwe retrospectively notice world cinema s purely humanistic dramaturgysuch strong adequate use soundimage montageand almost religious admiration ethical choices human life cinema one form arts much higher ordinary life gave many people hope live tragic war said even picasso moved cried work art appear years audience time also different read seeing kurosawas ikirulive first release young couple quietly told otherit good film it thinkcontemporary cinema though technically developed opened new narrative perspective lost importantreliance audiencecienma really popular art and unlike modern fine arts contemporary musicgave millions people hope ideals point viewletyat zhuravli must pantheon classics time city lightikiru la strada,0 +life turn wayif things different childhood would happier cant imagine ever feeling happy child whats point thing stopping thinking family much pain would cause them hurts even think about wish like this wish could like everyone else weak,1 +actually investing doge coin important money dads money ass riding this,0 +people realize therapy counselling fix help depression anger issues ignorance others therapist fix help depression chemical imbalance posted saying tired people preaching therapy got ton people say otherwise hate people ill glad leave earth fuck everybody,1 +classmate serious depression better find annoying see half girls class acting fucking depressed compliments attention actual problem people face people taking seriously please know anyone tell stop sonething need adress,1 +feels weird man im got hit sophomore college feels weird man,0 +saw movie days ago eyes completely fixed screen greatness held attention extent focused attention entire duration would recommend seeing fans anime anyone likes great movies period or likes really weird stuff style art beautiful sound perfect symbolism within breathtaking ive heard complaints weird insertion english text movie think way done complementary strange style movie selfattributed description hello kitty acid justice film absolutely epic proportions id like find works whoever made this see them,0 +cant stand life want end itim ive tried twice ive hung cut police showed shortly jumped ive tried end life jumping speeding bike traffic times hospitalized dont see meaning life couple friends talk shit behind back someone love years mom gets dont hit back respect dad always told hit women dad incarcerated prison years talk anymore girlfriend years parents grandparents act like wish wasnt around friends blow never able hang tease joke try kill dont feel like anything left anymore,1 +excessive drinking college basically exam phase everyone going get wasted big time means probably indulge excessive drinking well however circumstances want stressful situation again feel like drinking would catalyst towards procrastinating getting distracted interests really dont want happen well exacerbating anxiety however drinking deeply ingrained university culture afraid wont get around drinking excessively all one important aspects university connections make so conclude would act situation information back head still around parties excessive drinking taking place indulge it,0 +redflag felt like option option headive always kept redflag option things really bad could it comforting that everytime struggled life felt empowered also reassured never wanted actually take action knew id ok end now became active plan last year distinctly remember wrote journal left since even right infront me shutting door makes outside world disappear there waiting ive done lot research methods disappointed find method choice high failure rate im planning use combination approach pharmaceuticals alcohol blood loss big ive therapy ive got support friends family although would never burden intent theyll suffer enough im gone without foreshadowing it ive got decent life outside perspective little justify thoughts truth im struggling anyway heart hurts body feels lifeless weight feel cant sleep without medication just ive reached end whatever strength kept committed life everything hurts wanted tell someone,1 +almost mindset one hand wouldnt ever wish thought treated horrid way corrected best can kind person forgive forget hard real hard decide do thats im today people reddit realize isnt pressing serious dramatic post here stick hand hopes give guidance past experience wisdom advice try question there confession go along without regret,0 +messed big told best friend feelings shut down relationship tip dont didlt,0 +weird bc feel like nightenjoy stuff night day feel tired n dead night feel awooga strange hru doe,0 +feeling real suicidal money girlfriend job nothing cannot work due multiple mental disorders start seeing therapist know work idk anymore,1 +guys friends ignores texts time worst thing ever,0 +yeah bad idea idk came back here bye again thanks reading,0 +aliceclaire danes darlenekate beckinsale best friends since forever graduate decide take trip thailand due incident meet young attractive mysterious stranger invites go hong kong weekend airport alice darlene mistaken drug smuggling heroine sent prison time ultimate survival true friendship pretty good movie ive seen couple times notice holes plot movie still keeps entertained claire danes great job usual great actress would give brokedown palace ,0 +relationship advice guy whos never girlfriend went date ask want kiss say make less awkward pulling bag hersheys kisses bag say something along lines well me start eating them this idea read internet ago dont remember where,0 +like wake morning means still alive sometimes take medication makes sleep think much want die sometimes take medication,1 +really know anymore manok really got get out know anymore ive odds mother years bit backstory set mood this im prone bit nasty quick temper sometimes oddball mindset ive grown notion cant treat others respect deserve mine treat others want treated basically believe respect something earn others effort hard work cant force someone give manners something entirely different everyone those im yearold soon still lives mother im unable drive due deathly fear driving ive literally ripped steering wheel hands try pushing car away someone driving carelessly got close car multiple times before suffer severe depression therapist believes ptsd from poor family environmentabusive parent since little involved major accident younger caused severe brain damage basically babyshaken syndrome years ive grown really bad headaches migraines well slightly forgetful mild seizures now theyre sporadic unpredictable nature theyll happen usually get auras mine occur an aura like forewarning theyre coming on extremely forgetful like tell something even three minutes later ill forget ask again rather slow minded well due although means stupid dropped school due bullying harassment id probably straight student way college thats life planned me although it unfortunately not basically ive caged chained mothers house regardless badly wish could leave free live life way want to heres thing though according mom shes idiot might add im allowed depressed ive never known shouldnt use word lightly im also apparently according her riding tailcoat crying everything a lazy stupid bitch thats never worked day life is nice want something asshole get it might add hate asking things cant get means usually ask it im kid thats always hated christmas birthdays like getting things people entire family mom sister father always money hungry assholes anything money even go far wish death parents get inheritance faster so never wanted like them hate garbage mindset have grew basically alone raised myself part mother never home the working member household divorce father mentally emotionally abusive sister always side everything whether fear hed things asshole herself honestly tell you grew special little mindset based observed others learned like people like none entitled bs slides me onto true matter here forgive post long honestly even know belongs point honestly ask someone else im confused done everything life now stage set here lets get onto main issue reason posting said before moms points follows im lazy slob im asshole im stupidretardedetc cannot depressed ptsd never abused means im liar everything think say matter everything wrong just excuse lazy theres nothing wrong me house isalwaysa mess disgusting honestly full dirt dust probably making health issues worse itsalwaysbeen way since divorce mother clean doanythingaround house well dirty dishes sink collecting mold month half shell clean them throws newspapers wherever hell feels like leaves becomes inconvenience her order pick she even ask demand cant even take trash bag garbage gets full yells piles overflowing onto floor andthenshe yells atmefor taking sooner it never gets full im one home rare occasion does take own regularly days take time effort vacuum clean rooms without asked to honestly got bad back december went month long trip country breathe homeand believe me felt like heaven clean could finally breathe house felt fresh light heavy air negativity house so extremely ill time set work three full weeks cleaning entire house top bottom sick tired disgusting realizing would chance enjoy clean house once came home anddidnt even tell thank you did started making mess immediately even though asked keep clean for sake animals started bitching old baby sitter an exfamily friend come helped clean gotten sick alone my seizures acting really badly time due stress anxiety alone long set designated area newspaper letters go respectively house end cluttered trash again ive going therapist almost full year now helps slightly visit her wonderful woman btw get see often enough therapy really help much see maybe month days time get see next time im right back started last time usually stressing badly crying bullets debate whether kill done bullshit fault end admit terrible memory often put cheese wrappers counter forget my older dog needs medication every day im focused getting eat pills needs forget quite often pick see remember pick garbage nearby see the gods know head attached id never find set down often left picking garbage well since shell accuse mine anyway make regardless often calls stupid dumbass things simply im forgetful slow minded honestly cannot help really wish could better efficient possible ever be theres problem around house ill try fix ill ask help neighbor knows dowhich pisses mother off let tell youapparently im liar often get squabbles she loves piss knows buttons push extremely short tempered irritable days due bullshit years days tend call bullshit attempt talk see anything make things better im wits end sick crap already eight years garbage alonenot mention six seven years dads mental emotional abuse thatso wanted inquire well abuse mother says itnever happened even though never home see and admit younger teacher actually called me without knowing time wanting commit suicide suicidal eight nine years old of course like proud withdrawn little shit was denied point gave asking help adults asked begged pleaded long time realized nobody cared better dealing alone huge mistake part go that onto matter now father abusive means mean used force watch tv him usually crime shows news breakinsmurderrapekidnappingsexual assultetc hence horrible anxiety alone without people around got walked away whatever watching admitted like it would get chase room getin faceandscreamat threaten beat shit it used pick young throw shoulder raise hand like going beat assjustto make cry made laugh id squirm scream cry even anything wrong deserve it hed take dogscatswhatever had drive throw middle desert die this constant dogs one dog had really loved she heart soul early childhood first selfownedpicked dog mine families got sick parvo demanded mother take vet put down it waste money let bash skull sludge hammer believe me fast painless death her im sure would slow cruel allowed thatwhich let bring quick note here mother always knew drunkard asshole hes hated since got car accident young told not waste money me take life support let die which life support btw surviving own even that came coma finally cleared come home told me said youre fucked play with laughed ran crying said would deny could possibly abusive anyway finish finally im sorry forgot anything major here apparently according mother seizures extreme fear driving its literally crippling really wish could live life normally like everyone else depression anxiety social detachment excuses lazy stay her believe me could live normally id miles away her id love nothing home yard grass flowers place animals ourselves clean home heavy air due negativity anger filling it paint walls whatever color wanted decorate home see fit so id love job im perfectionist nature as mother hell ever happened side her ill never know family trait feel worthless like fucking garbage waste space life rotting away due health issues ive mainly caused myself due years addiction soda that caused medication forced take meant i for doctor dumbass taking proper care depression feeling like nobody would ever love care me id want nothing feel successful happy hate sitting nothing never able anything go anywhere pushes buttons far often show bad side treats me could literally ask friends the have strangers ive helped past im really nice person love care everyone even people whove hurt badly screwed past still care people hope best lives im kind person yes bit fucked sense humor irritable generally im really kindhearted aside temper issues social problems im really nice hell even able think dying simply fact did would cats dogs end up theyd streets malnourished around parts ending roadkill taco meat thought hurts far anything deal mom people does would selfish cant them need so sokrates or socrates however prefer spell it would said remain bitter hateful towards hurt past likely hurt others way hurt you want hurt anyone hate anyone grudges worthless waste time world never get better people hold onto things like that want know asshole reacting badly mothers treatment me understand works tired probably puts lot shit always takes im tired it im getting mri done today see bad damage now seizures get worse tumors anything ill update eventually anyone cares it want know really asshole situation really excuses used think knew answers questions know anymore ive holding onto years honestly im starting realize bottling emotions problems fears keeping eventually kick bucket way go im actively suicidal passive i want to ill never act it least foreseeable future type thing really want know others think idea anymore,1 +xmas going im curious,0 +consumed enough sugar fuel small army dr pepper float extra creamy vanilla ice cream energy first time today,0 +school experience lockdown covid been march approaching realization two weeks achieved one full year lockdown live third world country hit hard covid frankly gonna get better year last year march government temporarily shut school cases started popping up far schools city live resumed classes campus seen irl friends since day school lot people experiencing lack motivation even desire exist constantly building increasing pressure college stress load quite high remember remarking online school easy itd hard poorly fate may it exact opposite turned out classmates experiences been back class still online gotten chance see friends ampxb tldr hit one year online school lockdown school pressure sucks suck you,0 +pathetic cowardeverything scares me everything really existential stuff cant even get far im busy worrying strange smell is electrical fire walls chemical smell going make sick give migraine going flareup severe pain tomorrow something eat cause sick run medication see doctor infection mouth travel brain dog going get yard hurt someone another animal going yet another severe panic attack ever able leave house alone again survive disease want survive it fraction questions run head daily continuous loop progressed past age even though im years old utterly worthless pathetic type human drain society everyone else around them value contribute nothing world way make day promising ill end tomorrow luck ill even fail that living breathing worthless piece shit others fear might become hope four letter word vulgar profane fucking pathetic excuse human being need reply deserve time younger people actual potential posted here help them may failed test semester life over know real life problems theres kids whos girlfriends text back want die know real serious struggles life feel bad them idea much worse going get needed rant please move along know existed paranoid pathetic excuse human being taking space wasting precious resources thanks reading,1 +im going end im scared tohello im year old im freshmen ever sense th grade ive wanted die attempt bleach rushed hospital ended living high school thoughts stronger ive told friends im never happy im probably gonna end dead turn suicidal joke one tries really hard hes really sweet sometimes feel like gives never seem get better worse thing gained feelings him feelings ive never anyone else im gay btw straight would never feel way ive accepted im accepting fact even giving think wont even impacted death think main reason im like mom verbally abused years telling im useless stupid never gonna anything im waste friends joke andor giving dont think anyone would even care died reason me mom right though cant even manage good school whenever try still fail also forces activities dont want do anyway wanted get chest ive wanted say tonight bye,1 +ive jennifer connelly fan since phenomena heard seven minutes heaven saw soon could movie comedy think lot things us went kids currently going movie terrific led phenomenal jennifer connelly captivated attention movie terrifically written directed acted one good deal loved watched enjoy good laugh love jennifer connelly put seeing movie,0 +tell opinion tell agree disagree opinion doesnt unpopular although be opinion anything would also like hear reasoning behind opinion mostly fun ill try take seriously still honest also dont answer believe opinion fact respectful others opinions ill respect opinion respect mine,0 +said redflag permanent solution temporary problem butwhat case permanent solution permanent problem,1 +dont anyone else say toim going kill myself wont im proud cat mom stupid best thing got going life fur babes best slightly unconditional love believe im ranked slightly friskies meaty bits ill take that entire life ive struggled dont even know why difficult exist im years old spent majority life looking forward next thing usually sort job advancement travel ive done that both im home unemployed desperately trying fill days dont know myself literally ive drinking pass time ive tried cleaning elder scrolls motivation nothing want do dont hobbies dont goals wasting space depression dont know ive always felt way deep somehow managed go living feel isnt place me dont belong here wanna go away but know cats,1 +know do redflag would save hellmy fianc stuck poverty loop right now barely afford pay rent currently payment plan defaulted car payments were trying keep roof heads lost car insurance reason morning planned power outage maintenance resolved power kept off neighbors electricity i see wifi networks never returned feel lost know fault happening work providing hours need hes working minimum wage call center job since lost may still cant help feel me fianc mess gone could move back oregon family find something stable live without shackles im ready go anyways world mess feels like theres room anymore,1 + dad never home and mom different state city hours away form transporti diagnosed felt incredibly sad angry done everything yearsi horrible childhood mom horribly abusive mentally physically never friends quite literally scared people am school put even strain mental health even good gradesmy mom diagnosed bpd depression sister diagnosed bipolar social redflag redflag depression chances problemsi want go somewhere try find wrong me get diagnosis something least try figure problems way soshould try convince dad drive city insurance point need someone else help worth it dad incredibly busy work never gets time off even know something wrong all self diagnosis anything feel like knowing sure making worse worth try figure something wrong me,1 +tw self harm blood gaslighting but feels like option have cannot live abusive household anymore mom outrageous bpd symptoms remains undiagnosed fucking upset treats me tried talking calmly could going carnival cousin whose family despises dad convinced outside family bad going judge toxic relationship want get mad tried nicest could blame everything bad happened two younger brothers idea would happen came back womens shelter fucking mad allowed say oh remember happening your dad never hit me i remember saying this you makimg stuff againthen j start crying feels like mum beyrayed me start sobbing words shaking talking louder talking me says call cops say psycho fuckingn godsddddddd whyyy whyyeu time nicer treats adult literally self harmed much past days one arm her fight came upstairs almost times crying hard know iti therapjst teied calling pick up arms sting going die cannot believe mum fucking assholei want tell therapist evertthing abuse brothers get taken away scared domt want getting abused foster home want family back normali want admitted psych ward scared ill hurt worse cut deeper scared ill hit beaten dad finds cuteverytime tried telling wanted kill would tell stop talking it coward everyone household depressed special sorry making long sorta crying inbetween words here need get chest domt know get better know telling rherapist cut get cps called know telling want activsly kill also get cps called i canada domt even know fjcking cannot stand parents thw abuse neglect fucking scared going one day pretend never happened wanma show awful theyvw treated wknt care dieim going clean blood arm right still terrified crying meanwhile pretending thw whole argumwnt had mever happened making lunch evrry one me dads work idk domt want,1 +im going kill next weeki tried talk brother shout one cares dont try fight world clearly dont want im done,1 +im gonna say winged eyeliner makes everyone sexier alt fashion,0 +life objectivesthis farewell note thoughts ive witnessed many things years living studying others go own fixing accomplishing objectives since something do life meaning trying get goal finally reach it void wonder supposed here world since everyone following goals rapidly forget you thats kinda scary tried experiment myself stopped giving signs life stopped talking people normally talk to waited see whos gonna notice first result frightening grow up less able talk see distant friends theyre going way cant blame this truth getting lonelier on things goings on im changing all witnessing time going by one knows depressed am im struggling since much time cares ,1 +money job hopeim cant get thought killing head different methods specific certain since background chemistryresearch fuck wish could it want it it hate even more thoughts get less coherent this muddled anger migraines want hospitalized never money never get another job cant around people got fired last job unable work others yelling one theyre goddamned irritating idiotic ended telling boss fucked everything is fuck him fuck world nothing madness head want stop,1 +ill gone next monthgoodbye fuckers,1 +think many people familiar kind alternative phrase good descriptor fighting depression likefor me feels like matter much do never normal person normal feelings nothing satisfying nothing enough motivate anything life pure conscious pushing gets anything allthus barely surviving actually livingmy brother watching medical show living room character got coma drama ensued doctor came in explained motor function something says she higher cognitive function surviving living quote gave chills comparison someone literal coma me maybe good description debilitating dumb mental illness is surviving living,1 +anyone wanna chat rn im home chillin pm u wanna chat m,0 +two years girlfriend girlfriend together two years now im maybe wont die alone,0 +maybe kill finally meet god reincarnate womanfuck life born man,1 +hey guys screwing around phone vibration settings found increase vibration intensity touch interaction phone shoved ass im typing make phone vibrate mind,0 +official school year started im junior year im getting old i want get old no no no,0 +holy fucking shit joe mamaed teacher asking weekend said hanging joe said whos joe said joe mama made pushups worth it greatest achievement btw monday pro d,0 +teenage son years refused photographed due anxiety issues nowhere weeks ago asked could episode kids show make proud think good job guys think side note yes yr old mine httpsyoutubewdjyduhzee,0 +ya sex cool but ever got one friend genuinely takes interest hobbys even tho dont completely understand people best,0 + year old could like a years ago thats incomprehensible fuck anybody three years ago blows mind cant believe much younger u guys kinda rly are omg,0 +good way kill yourselfive looking options nothing seems easy getting gun hard cause im thing prescription drugs could always hang slit wrists dont want something super painful suggestions,1 +redflag solved mei dont feel suicidal extremely blunt maybe viewed unkind others im logical setting boundaries etc bc im sick beinf fake frown look moody it gives fuck others think perception problem wanna fight ill kick bloody ass whats working me,1 +hopeimagine worse two things could happen come together someone life privacy cant even choose sleep wake up also choices life none except choose place talk myself,1 +chaplin doughboy final film doughboy seem get marching straight spends time over there world war one trenches several gags stand out limburger cheese makeshift grenade one cramped quarters barracks trenches chaplin mates washed bunks flooding highlights chaplin ends capturing several german soldiers singlehanded spanks german commander refusing cigarette asked it chaplin replies surrounded them chaplin hides behind enemy lines tree things scenes funny escapes bombed house meets french girl played edna purviance hes tracked german soldiers escapes again purviance arrested assisting him chaplin able pull fast one bopping soldier using soldiers uniform ends saving purviance course capturing kaiser process along way chaplin employs sight gags slapstick turning back german soldiers film chaplin explored location possibilities filming maintaining audiences attention closer feature length time something contract mutual film corporation disallowed him film also allowed poke fun enemy something would greater effect great dictator stars,0 +bad ideaso around years ago oldest brother tried overdose due untreated depression years as well adhd mightve partially caused depression idk dont quote dont know things thankfully second thoughts called hes still today however still think sometimes know would absolutely devastated succeeded look him however fell back depression months ago despite seeing therapist medication depression anxiety adhd ive wondered hes hoped attempt successful though honestly dont blame him despite loving household nice house plenty food still depressed feel exact way difference one life knows depression think redflag attempt almost every day maybe wasnt bad idea thought getting better started panic anxiety attacks again well feeling real depressed honestly whats point feel like shit now go get help ill probably go back feeling like shit except x im stuck weird limbo dont reason live dont reason kill myself im think writing redflag note im much pussy kill myself want stay bed sleep never wake up want go school actually get education want normal person get freeze moment teacher calls me want friends find depression least talk it push away get panic attack start even slightly figure out fucking hate this wish could one stop damn indecisive either kill dont theres fucking between,1 +know continuehello first time thinking redflag already tried end life pull off life took turn better entered gymnasiumthe german version high school actaully started normal social life went friends enjoying going school im uni old thoughts buried deep mind beginning resurface even im studying together lots people half year able make single contact one talk fucking mindnumbing assure you due low selfesteem afraid speak people back high school people approached me easy seems like impossible task now fear getting bad im even afraid look emails going outside getting uncomftable appaears anxiety getting worse day sucks worst thing one absolutetely fucking one even parentswhich interested anything else rely on someone talk issues,1 +im completely incapable future reason existi years old april socially isolated four years school jobs home im pretty much miserable point live dad older sister boyfriend thats people meet exceptions mom sister occasionally besides that know one friends family extreme anxiety comes anything outside bubble like right go dentist broke tooth pretty much want overdose morphine calm nerves part aspergers gotten worse isolation and think plethora issues isolated long also terrible chronic pain entire body keeps getting worse worse doctor able figure is pretty much unbearable point pain medication types pain relief works basically imprisoned body think redflag lot never go pain anxiety nice thought,1 +anybody remember incredible crew swear show best thing ever tv least according memory,0 +lifes bitchsince years ago life quite interesting many people say traveling lot working many places meeting lot people still feel hole chest feeling im good enough anything want quit living i personally even like path im walking even know im doing ampxb recently moved canary islands met girl here two options left visa expire next week go back country country almost everyone wants leave stay canary islands two half year illegally get green card working chinese restaurant cant day off im receiving minimum wage ampxb im pretty sure happy places gotta keep going the loved ones bullshit ampxb,1 +ever kill myself want stream itjust funny thought had maybe way somebody talk it even mention news channel,1 +manifesting sugar mommy rn daddy tbh im particular last one cut taking applications btw,0 +one asshole call older brother absolutely fucking sick him selfcentered insensitive narcissistic disrespectful irresponsible piece shit make cruel jokes others makes faulty actions denial brush laugh whereas anyone makes small mistake especially mistakenly touch stuff would yell shout aggressively putting rage people ego control take fucking blame also man child year olds zero motivation ambition lazy fuck overweight skipped classes university got failed subjects went home sobbed first quit studying blame parents crap shit refuses grow he fucking regard peoples wellbeing i one taking shit younger brother thinks permisson yell face whenever angry even good reason takes pleasure like said before making cruel jokes demeaning belittling others suffer most say one biggest blame mental issues like low selfesteem confidence makes fucking depressed right now quite sensitive person absorbs people energy really frustrated hurtful words long term problem unawared long time realize mental abuse things going bad meso got brawl hours earlier today attitude completely denial action mistakenly spilled broth shouted me tolerating longit like outburst mine parents going come home later going act like victim hope words describe much cunt them sick narcissistic sibling,1 +first time getting ghosted talking one girl alright guess never fought anything good friends guess one day went best friends house told messaging lot want ruin day note birthday got back started messaging got left read idk wrong feel like nice mean without realizing anything maybe felt awkward respond messages all feel really sad cant get head rn idk do know sound like big thing keep mind really liked girl ghosts without explanation,0 +gonna make bet full japanese people sub either half japanese female,0 +stupid friggen dumbazz forgot math homework due morning didnt even math today hate teachers that like apush over always like am wrapping one hrstudy guides made due day didnt even class im stupid need planner something ive looking todo list google classroom going,0 +im hereso listen know hard tell feel guilty know tomorrow morning im getting ready school going take life sexually asluted bullied abusied also depression im bipolar call im attion im soon trying kill sense ways uncsefull tomorrow im going take mg ahliphen kill m mean people could helped didnt stay night cry cut remember one night cut times limping next day one asked why im sorry everyone depression suicidal favor please make sure want impluse thank hybrid girl granbury,1 +today start act againafter years finally told parents depression suicidal thoughts three months knowing im getting sick tired way treat me today start act again ill healthy happy person treat like used to though never closer wanting kill myself luckily news spread throughout whole family yet hopefully parents act normal soon like everyone else know,1 +try stop u ill start whole _get fleshlight_ thing someone stop,0 +might dieim depressed ive dealing problem long see rationally theres way it ive thrashing years im exhausted defeated hopeless regretful sad upset distract days weeks always there want live distraction far life loved im sad feel leave behind people love tried many things happens want clear reckless medical professionals me one elses fault im sorry,1 +god got status update point im confused,0 +chemistry teacher fuck hate long breathe sadistic piece shit like staring souls face got offended buzzfeed article fuck,0 +want fucking coffee nice bitterness flavor beans amazing love it,0 +need advice friend pleasei close ten years online friend always suffered depression last months gotten worse worse talks redflag daily serious im different country hes us know address want call redflag line anything like that anything do all need detail ask,1 +guuuuuys passed dance exams honors got honors bronze new vogue exams merilin tongoette evening threestep first time got medal something im happy rn,0 +hmmive around short time ever cared learn one day could something improve lives around me never sought luxury though comparatively may live way brief period wanted sate curiosity friends possibly family try burden let depression take hold me however toil struggle enough maintain existence never time branch out make something better much life must sacrificed order obtain freedom measure ones worth continually conflicted part wants perish yet another strive chaotic nature sufferable far journey met many people boy boasts knowledge yet suffers braggadocios ways woman abused husband child live grandmother abusive parents lives wasted ignorance strive make world better place view world however happens unable view paths better yourself find sad find break chains despite skills appear meaningless even use help myself everything world must proven documented testament worth appears days document takes indentured servitude document takes freedom pursuit happiness pursuit leads serfdom back wrong do work full time go college done lot power self sufficient pay bills taxes rent insurance wrong myself believe sacrificed friendship pursuit love begun consume drive away family desire become better cost significant amount time wasted nearly youth seek options none tenable current state began believe one dream must take other happy uncertain takes lot live own done years taken toll mental state mind dance edge now waiting slip it wait wait time break contract binds me though view redflag selfish act still considering years going depression depression force drag let guard down strike time say pretty funny however creates world way lays ground work know me makes us venerable answer uncertain possibly world still undeveloped unavoidable mindset think work slaved reality meaningless purpose meaningless job exhausted myself drive either live kill myself pitiful really,1 + im still awake watching one piece nightmorningday guys,0 +read modesty blaise several years now collecting numbers strip fiasco movie made many years ago based first book modesty blaise surprised result got goodbr br what got movie based action violence director focused history psychology modesty created based tale parts life affected nonchildhood think thougths give greater understanding next i hope film simply loved movies oldfashioned stylebr br however everything good gambling good almost boring unreal acting could improved too im thinking bad guy movie felt real reason modesty could someone tell story for also could expanded movie showing builds the network ill guess thats next moviebr br and please forgive bad english,0 +spanish day means example te gusta culo pizza rolls wey translation like ass pizza rolls dude,0 +uworstestgrammar amass many coins question how,0 +definitely good ideascreenplay okcould betterthe notredflags bore adventure lovera new idea lost world atlantisnegatives personally feel idea much potential thisthey ended better adventure thisit bad would much better runtimeenjoyed lot thoughcant say boring gooda good one people like adventure animations like sindbadlike road el doradothis movie also recommended people looking nice little adventure nice happy ending,0 +gf hit months first like title says gf hit months ive never happier shes longest healthiest relationship look forward many hopefully,0 +shave mf daily mf soft bodily hair ew icky gross disgusting im surgically shit removed,0 +know im even writing thisi even know start guess feel guilty even writing this keep telling feel bad get myself friends feel worse do escalates keeps escalating tell deserve die want die im terrified death time also feel indifferent whenever think death feel terrified feel bad want die gotten point thoughts ending it brothers really busy schedules point im left alone time ive decided exactly would it where ever decided when want live bad im scared guess feel alive even know want long time ive told im depressed im making think am wrote mom note wanting see therapist another problem came flowing realized badly need help courage actually make anything happen,1 +feel detached lostive struggled depression ive battled times suicidal before experience crashes month tend last week recover feel absolutely drained emotionally physically weeks recall feeling genuinely happy ive good days really cant remember period life felt slight bit happiness comfort anyways months ago started feeling detached almost like watching people live im spectator really tough time enjoying music move emotionally like used to everyday im work always wonder hell even there hate job wonder voluntarily go every morning feel tho lost limbo cant get out cry anymore smile anymore drink anymore smoke anymore like quit those sorta forgot things point life matter if anymore matter when im even sad moment gun near could pull trigger feel emotion least thats way feels completely lost stuck parallel universe seems anyone ever experienced this,1 +saw movie saw blue crush michelles movies thought bleak future businessi extremely wrong watching performance girlfight amazed way captures emotion one fighter also warriorin movie way confronts father treatment brother way conveys anger getting hither characters learning curve movie cant always put wall hide love power wont wini believe role fit perfectly michelle even though prior experience director saw talent criticize seeing talent her,0 +dance devil pull bed anyones hero bullet head,0 +endgamehopefully movie great say is im going see tomorrow,1 + year old unemployed broke college dropout nearly homeless seriously botherin years meaningless life never nonshitty job never girlfriend handful friends lost contact with barely got high school went college advice parents study stupid stuff inevitably dropping out ever covid finances tight stands two months overdue rent way paying it parents toxic overbearing would prefer staying streets living honestly everything seems futile point whats point this bother living all everyone go one day now reason killed coward cant figure painless way go,1 +new yorkers contemporaneous film recall reflective time well cast crew captured america new york city erabr br norman wexlers script delineates different worlds various sub groupings live avildsens direction brings phenomenal performances around peter boyles prodigious talent display never since clearly best character portrayal always likable dennis patrick ever accomplishedbr br what always remember joe feeling virtual state shock coming theater knowing screen portrayed seething surface neighborhoods throughout five boroughs city new yorkbr br this film needs remembered,0 +finally reached karma thank helping achieve goal grateful achieved karma ,0 +many nonasian guys like japananime etc racist towards asian men something weird noticed often look asian men feel superior them obviously lot im asian know people say doesnt exist people noticed too,0 +may horrible making memes atleast tried thanks amazing year here absolutely loving moving facebook reddit ampxb httpspreviewreddittftdmjiffpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsbeddcbfdeefcece,0 +ive seen movie preview recommend watch it minutes long felt like could go hours stories protagonists realistic feel really home movie basically consists dialogs bored minute people really different characters one acted well laugh felt awkward sad still felt happiness movie shows different kinds people society way communicate love changed nowadays handled economic thing dating becomes something similar audition whole audience loved it please watch theres possibility love it,0 +survived last night hurting tonight know alone ive fighting depression life ive moments gotten worse gotten better least expected itit got worse again last night thought could take want diebut want live wrote note thought needed do laid bed turned television funny tv show thought could laugh times would over fought idea back mind want this scared fell asleeptoo tired exhausted worry anymore knew want live thought late me hours later woke up people texted night attempted redflag still responded people reached hadnt responded breathing still am ever want live want get better know changed within me feel hopeful ever had night recognized triggered me made steps stop happening again im healed cured know ill relapses back depressionbut first time feel like im strong enough alone face get it know im faceless person internetbut hurting alone sadthere people love want help want helpand care know feels like devastating hurts physical injury ive ever sustained anyone needs talk wants someone listen promise will pm me post here talk facebook text messaging even phone need hear voice line also skype want see face ,1 +im years old except school never go outside usually spend whole day computer watching videos youtube stuff end day get depressed feel like im wasting life friends also severe social redflag always feel friends putting me feel depressed lonely never spend time friends feel want hang never anything pls reply im alone,1 +like interesting posts rn whats mind lets talk something idk,0 +got pussy tom jerry soo good especially loved blast mars,0 +engaging movie camera early century must figured potential early on good story playboy type needs money inadvertently sells soul satan lot money unfortunately soul double must confront frequently tearing life apart wonderful scenes people fading and course scenes two stage time middle part bit dull faustian story always minds viewer one thing mention general unattractiveness people movie also pretty much shied away much action would least given life thing first made aware movie years ago finally able see it disappointed,0 +keep scrolling post exist forget brush teath,0 +cant get loopyou say im puny little pussy bitch scared life look way find dark tunnel light end survived long tried mind vacation way get control stay hibernation sit day bed watching videos playing games eating junk masturbate single moment get trigger zone tried recklessly got worse situation hence anxietyhence mind vacation again cycle cant seem get im starting believe ending all maybe destined option afterall lonely year old child mom dad dog always believed burden them disappointment studying college later found capacity quit much disappointment would considering money spent college mind vacation often went piss kept seeing glimpses metal blade besides sink casually thought laughingly maybe option cut things go wrong cant get eyes it brought room bathroom feets away desk seriously thinking loosing sleep blood soaked bed picture me mom dad side,1 +got called broski girl im talking fuck got giant ass friendzone,0 +biggest fear going itmy biggest fear killing failure leaving mentally incompetent living pain terrifies me shot rifle inch steel plate yards day dads farm went clean strangely comforting point blank range think theres almost zero chance could live it im still much coward pull trigger ever least know there,1 +hardexpensive live ur started literally everyone know desk bedroom like basic teenager thing dont one also share bedroom two siblings worst part im even poor mom money buy rent better andor bigger house happier comfortable give fuck guess point wanna live really hard that mom wants move another state another country next year year really want wanna go university id stay city live smallest apartment could afford really hard that im afraid id move able it guess could get job kindergarten worked one ny last year would enough also maybe mom lend money im one buy stupid stuff already computer phone clothes bed netflix cook im vegan expensive also university free yeah idk u think olderwiser teenagers sorry readable im aware,0 +im scaredthe last couple months girlfriends cutting gotten worse tells wants kill herself getting worse every day feels like matter tell try best comfort isnt getting better tells shes scared one day might actually moment caught emotions might something shell regret pretty bad anxiety depression something cant relate understand well people try love best her dont want end life single decision isnt thinking through dont know help even help tells im reason live stresses dont know anything working want help get this,1 +cant go back homemy dad love me even though says does scared go home respect me everytime try explain brushes lazy respect me use right pronouns name purpose everything establish dominance put place room clean hes taking away shit try convince it hear any depression crap tells clean room depressed anymore hes taken things make happy im scared hes gonna take away medication im im financial position move out place go deserve respect im given it listen me hes reason depression wanna fucking kill way realize shit help hate him,1 +need bit o help birthday ok so every year get choose want dinner birthday idea want th birthday uhh yall tell favorite foods would nice see make fookin decision,0 +ever lonelyso lonely friends cant manage relationship dont want wake anymore redflag hard want hang myself,1 +anyone stretch marks bad do basically stretch marks caused grow really quickly first back stayed years now recently forming body now looks like someone slashing knife ive whipped ive recently noticed many inner thighs back legs back shoulders lots questionable 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stature were talking creatures would appear like gods simple ugly childeating monstersbr br however human form remains green eyes green teeth appear put sort stress order save world demons demonslayers trained skilled warriors spot defeat every kind demon guard passageway realm hell real world basic premisesbr br the story begins festival local town amid festivities men ride in dressed black seemingly intent harm villagers run excepting demonic nature turn greeneyed try kill them demonslayers end killing majority demons story gets interesting whole essence story begins gate hell fortunetelling demon appears gatekeepers revealing arrival ashura it comes end reign man begins reign demons ashura however requires form birthing process first step occurred opening battle revealed see film demonslayers wise old man powerful yet unprincipled man skilled compassionate warrior immediately see split them old man wanting stop demons powerful one wanting bend increasing ego maniacal wishes third looking stop second along way meets woman begins take fancy to believes special relationship with turn brigand goodnatured sought authorities two finally meet face face places hand shoulder suddenly scathed mark shoulder needless say mark good sign ensues battle earth battle good evil be also good good itselfbr br the point film became something thought would came thinking would either fastpaced action style film demons horror film macabre evil foul creatures likes would seen ringu juon however mistaken best possible way story seemed adaptation old japanese play plays such combining essentially action driven adrenaline scenes great concept amazing narrative style makes compelled think rather sit wallowing gore many scenes painted luxurious dialogue two characters likes never seen hollywood film becomes practically theatrical experience takes breath awaybr br the film makes use immaculate scenery camerawork comparable many great samurai films days adding wellthought classical plot great acting great music thoroughly stunning scenes must watch bookbr br that said need disclaimer everyone cheap thrills horror balls wall action horror style play thats filmed much say takes time so flying face conventional oneliners like japanese plays exchanges characters last many minutes come together quick yet marvelous battle scene enjoy thing masterpiece idea good film slasher flicks little plot excessive nudity easily watch something elsebr br overall film unique amazing one keeps riveted amused good writing good acting good direction solidly great film,0 +dad jealous hot girlfriend like really hot cute girlfriend dad jealous,0 +piece shit fuck mohammed carry whole partner project days suddenly come back three minutes due ask help even myself taking shit isnt excuse days could helped lazy bastard,0 +happy mens day happy international mens day wanna say dont feel like cant express emotions go cry feel like,0 +said deep feelings me suggested meeting another time without booze morning 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almost anything even though work fast effective like said earlier expected me watching tvseries watch like first season get bored forget it tried writing small novell got chapters done got bored forgot it ive tried drawing drawing get bored forget it people tell im creative ive praised extraordinary writerdrawer craftsman never actually enjoy even though im good it comes thing gets most ridiculously bad women even though look good unable speak women all try cases come shy weird annoying get guy world think funny guy want friend comes girls mostly think weird maybe wrong take social awkwardness sign im interested them anyways annoying girlfriend since years old probably get girlfriend rest life still virgin completely convinced never lose unless pay prostitute fuck me do since kind person friends seem convinced tried id get girlfriend instant since seem think glorious beacon selfconfidence success bad selfesteem all know admirable person worthless comes girls ive realized enjoy anything anymore thing want life find someone start family with life would perfect for me could find that even kidding would absolutely perfect life hard time finding job lots friends family loves love back live one safe countries world cant granted one final fucking thing thatd make life best could ever wish for never girlfriend constant reminder life would complete final thing enough driven edge dad owns several weapons ranging hunting rifles shotguns finding pistol end hard also know keeps gunlocker key fact much worse im still suicidal though life good makes feel even worse actually read this salute you thanks listening even anything important say please comment anyways remind people actually read know situation also know certain annoyed even angry fact im thinking blowing head something stupid in eyes insignificant feel free call idiot ungrateful son bitch comments too actually helps little too edit posting realized ive written humongous wall text actually read this salute you love you 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entertainer film entertains carries shoulders like faux leopard wrap never lets drop floorbr br mary superficial party fashionista stealing designer clothing friends closet making someone elses boyfriend deeper level story girl friends careless every sense word including people process learning caring necessary life br br the script beautifully crafted witty performance disappoints aunt role much onedimensional heavy handed nuanced performance her would deepened relationship two but hey comedy surprisingly deep role gives film substance world vision fallafel selling boyfriend lucky one mary one gets away br br i rate great moment film history classic great art all get deeper richer reviewing like desperately seeking susan represents something true time period may become irrelevant time still everything entertaining film needs worth viewing several times clothes alone,0 +pols enabled quik pol removed view pollhttpswwwredditcompollikf,0 +phone use thread collecting data mostly im envious 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bravery shown sequence battle scenes greatest devoted engagement legendary southern cavalry general jeb stuart battle gettysburg leave travels monroe courts elizabeth promises hand matrimony immediately war custer elizabeth bacon marriedbr br with civil war over custer demoted get real command go painstakingly slow process promotion small professional american army starts drink wife intervenes behalf former generalinchief winfield scott custer given command us th cavalry trains elite unit neither custer crazy horse desirous battle greedy businessmen corrupt politicians decide build railroad indian lands clear violation earlier treaties custer explicitly acknowledges justice crazy horses cause rides battle duty soldier exposing conspiracy moneyed interests letter writes eve battlebr br they died boots on though short historical accuracy good war movies westerns s got custer crazy horse played major actors neither indians southern confederacy denigrated courtship scenes beautiful livvy de havilland charming minus thats cant give picture full undercurrent racism portrayal african american servants elizabeths servant callie stereotypical overweight goodnatured superstitious black mammybr br it also interesting movie find fault either custer crazy horse greed railroad companies pressuring washington politicians semicriminal methods breaking assurances given native americans couple years later insinuation american entrepreneurs could even think anything remotely questionable would probably taken hint film makers communist sympathizersbr br needless say they died boots on omits fact custers overly aggressive tactics often bordered foolhardy greatly overstates importance engagement stuart mention lack reconnaissance prior battle little big horn nevertheless custer seen war hero contemporaries spectacular exploits point battles brandy station gettysburg trevilian station others though feats arms decisive civil war they died boots on suggestsbr br in event they died boots on 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around birthday im open converse people comments,1 +ugh need tell people know understand happened relate offer support anything would appreciated ive dealing disease years now worst flashback ive ever had boyfriend long day going sleep me,1 +suicidal thoughts intrusive know stop themi meds anxiety disorder constant anxiety caused feel isolated useless caused depression meds depression never suicidal this thoughts dying constant today cleaned house organized things sort like nesting preparing something feel like everything coming apart need die want leave kids cant seem stop thoughts think stop depression meds seem made things worse stop taking them doctor told month ago need work certain dosage guessing means need wean them want kill meantime heard withdrawals cause suicidal thoughts too,1 +motion sickness goddamit i just want to play minecraft without vomiting,0 +damn covered thorns way horny ,0 +guys good nighr bsrely type cause eyes ar dry allof especially gamerdude,0 +the mentally 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money like everything good clear right now year ago right failing school single jobless car constantly broken down kept chugging along im happy youre thinking giving anything dont get better sooner later ,0 +hit run shattering story starring always wonderful margaret colin society lady has all hits child car leaves scene hence title tragedy goes call help returns frightened away angry passersby think hitter abandoned scene made days everyone cell phone storybr br colins guilt anguish palpable cause act strangely detective gets onto right away lies sink deeper deeper selfloathing hole causing make bad situation worsebr br this thoughtprovoking story one cant help feel ladys pain wishing throughout would simply come cleanbr br as tv movie thanks colin strong script well average tv movie,0 +guys need help someone please lend money please listen me theres reddit user somehow got phone blackmailing me threatens give money reset delete data phone even sd card hes done before hes asking 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end,1 +dunno post here im even suicidal im really anxiousim im still fixed shoud life thats part problem made poor choices past pay it wasted three years college going one area another but never completed anything took year half class graphic design kept working area four year even like it scared death going back school im still now thought time start something interesting begin bachelor degree september im reeaaalllyyyy anxious learned experience usually better jump fire get comfort zone but still tons thing worry about still debt pay related car spend quite bit rent room close university still wage get lower even find high wage job studying time whats really frustrating hear people telling why dropping good job probably kind person boring job life without asking question still find really frustrating part problem always fell akward engage conversation someone else grew loner im scared fear able get know people worked me past volunteer redflag hotline helped build confidence know ill 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fast forward years ive ups downs overall done alright considering circumstances became aware bad habits experience romantic relationships failed community college struggle anxiety even temptation resume cutting despite fact lot going now great job age hope advance developer decent friends boyfriend beyond loving dont drugs party much days im usually happy bubbly working better myself focus largely building whole life social experience others honestly pretty limited regret im reaching help advice anxiety horrible lately hoped creating life myself world people would one way reality totally different experience looking it feel disgusted human nature actions many peers feel like bright bubbly nature based ideal people rather genuine love them sadness im feeling certain moments overpowers feelings happiness im worried im inevitably going fall bad mental state ruin relationships others feel insecure anxious reason boyfriend though best hide it feel like cannot open friends wouldnt understand ive thought seeing counselor feel many issues work out would take life time would never share partner know im truly lucky deserves best only feel selfish embarrassed feeling way do know many worse moment feels possible even logical big picture end life im also aware could fleeting feeling pass ive never felt way before im worried time passes could get worse experienced something similar words wisdom could share would great help comfort id love hear personal experiences well,1 +lets go math teacher finally sick,0 +issue people dont relationships teenagers really imo ur teenager period growth ppl develop different rates ppl insecurities ppl expose hence bullies ppl dont self confidence project girls dont like looks factor youre average somewhere close really matters,0 +isle broken dreamshello stranger good meet you well informally known left fault moved california pursuing acting dream family friends state one friendbut kicking month im worried homeless before why though spend much love feed homeless help everyone can horrible things happen me whats wrong me knowone wants cast me look weird cast anything ampxb nothing works mei dont even energy finish post want explain want helpbut know do,1 +ive eaten drank nothing half litre lucozade energy stomach feels awful slight headache consequences poor decisions cringe,0 +feel like horrible person hey everyone much things going lately making fragile which still lot one big thing happened made sad fragile friend knew childhood spent much time laughing fact big arshole blames everything insults things like that cut every way communciations us still hits hard know someone knew years fact worst turd world known made really sad still cry sometimes background ive class years including girl well call julia so ive class julia years ive built relationship strong friend ive always struggled making friends especially getting bullied th grade even girls knew wanted go further so year ago told her good said yes im fuckng dumbass afraid serious realtionship used really dumb excuse break her still hate that loved her big mistake made month ago led hate myself breakdown today month ago confessed still loved her excused dumbass bcs happened last year bit confident changed class knew one could fall love weeks boi wrong dating guy asked like days started dating so couldve possibly ruined relationship said something lines yeah sorry op but im dating someone love you big blank as bestfriend ampxb oh ok well problem ill go one thats big deal boi wrong cnd time thought bcs relationships last years generaly lasted weeks maybe still chance shell break someday fucking hate thinking that thought still chance girl clearly said no hoped shell break think it disgust today snap story showed boyfriend huging dog saying my babies lt feel like worst human turd things happened lately makes worst want anyone saying thats teenagers story get along really feel bad need vent advices feel like worst human thoughts like this please help,0 +dont know anyone remembers port royale but it captured freight convoy barque thishttpimgurcomgalleryuwxqp,0 +want attention want heart maybe hate thought someone newlala,0 +really really need help this badly pleasemy friend tried commit redflag before failed girlfriend left hes suicidal again love kid want kill himself would destroy me reason suicidal thoughts feels alone cant get job dropped high school family problems top hes black much people admit it people racist ny criminal record anyone mean anyone knows job place go please let know anything keep occupied volunteeringetc also anything say anything mean absolutely anything please come forththank you,1 +idealists dreamers hardly ever good livesto survive society need focus ass moment realisation counted becoming adult accept society never going choose kindness selfishness stfu well cant deal it want jump _breed another slave feel fulfilled live_ bandwagon either hope left,1 +badly want talk it whenever anyone offers talk know sayive never able talk deeply anyone depression thoughts redflag even therapists,1 +continuing declinewith quarantine curfew put place come sad realizations way life even called like so distant family preferring despite bitterly crying every night upon thought deaths wishing could forever lonely am even digital age waking notifications anyone advertisements videos uploaded one even wants speak me psyche hurting badly wishing could get lost die playing idea wouldve legacy died tuesday night remembering one question left hallow completely empty psychologist would feel able see reaction family died apathic response gave resonating silence surrounding me replied would happy watching so impatience awaiting blow end me pushing edge crawl closer closer night sleep someone said do think world abandoned you never took first place mind rotten illusions would cause certain peace sense calm work anymore even critical am fantasy fictitious cause pain depictions echo poor miserable something call life seeing mirror meaning see somebody know recognize depth eyes dumb painting anxiety roof overthink anything everyone says does maybe entertaining focusing am want release death awaiting someone something simply push me hate whatever fuck am,1 +god good doctor good series im rewatching love it yea plot holes inaccuraties good,0 +really want cut myselfive years want it want look like accident want kill myself want feel something different,1 +lately ive seeing posts people looking people vc discord after chat next day forget ever happened mean im curious try idk would ,0 +fuck up supposed park meet girl last minute har babysit cousins uncle stroke im afraid going mad talk her im wondering fucked telling sooner,0 +rconspiracy disappointing expected thought gonna interesting stuff people leaked government documents cia files etc etc said said american elections sides pathetic virus bad anti vaxx good stupid theres barely decent conspiracy even top time picture chinese masacre everyone nows us politics article epsitines death screenshot hillary clintons guy asking help hoe delete email files archive utter shit,0 +whats fucking point anymorei used stay alive friends friends left me body cage redflag key understand left me im ugly fat boring loser lives live know theyre laughing right now wonder theyll laugh find body,1 +cant fucking anymoremost friends hate personality im emotional pathetic wanted nice make people happy im burden want kill constantly reason know quick ways it probably first time tried redflag hanging even failed im much moron tie noose right cabal hurt falling point existence suffering,1 +im scared myselfi live life filled depression go school ignored come home ignored want someone hear me im almost done everything im close breaking point able turn back im tired ignored want hear once,1 +urgent convince mum let stay go vacation basically mum brought tickets benidorm spain leave tommorow first excited gonna family thing aunt year old cousin older male cousin friend uncle gonna fun till gonna leave days uncle friend aswell gonna stay days im anti social type cant make new friends really talk cousins friend im also fan beach going stay cousin mainly ruined im gonna stay middle aged women one little girl yeah shes cute shes years old annoying normally gonna cousin uncle cousins mate one apartment whilst ladies stay another honestly fun last time went holiday boring annoying thing life wanted say mum spent basically cant say dont wanna go cuz spent much arent richest shes disabled women honestly dont know cuz basically gonna ruining summer really wanna stay rn normally leaves country easy someone gonna hard stay friends could invite,0 +ive wanted kill myselfdie since im feeling changeive wanted kill myselfdie since thats realised mum cheating dad went abroad work time even wrote redflag letter tell dad mum wanted overdose painkiller pills ive never done obviously years past dad knows affair parents still stayed together worked feeling still remains want die family went abroad dad started studying foreign language failed courses twice now know different language hard time know put work slacked college university drink much play games much escape reality procrastinate trust therapists even though should know do know want die could never commit redflag cause love family know theyd devastated want die means car accident cancer anything know do currently live england,1 +waiting day endsman life hit hard since th grade got friends kicked curb got cps come house mistake made parents move back country sexual abused likely got aids legit stopped giving fuck anyone around waste time busy ignore im lost sucide attempts dont work alli ask someone pls open ear,1 +everything cruel worldi feel like ive failed it everything makes feel like loser im tired this dont care anymore nobody talk to nobody would understand parents would disappointed look friend dont real friends one person ended bad terms dont think get state mind ever life,1 +cast actors actresses columbo episode beside peter falk julie newmar jeannette nolan martin landau twins anyway old uncle dies mysteriously looks like heart attack bicycle discovered fianc julie newmar plays role deliciously jeannette nolan plays woman house housekeeper prides talents chides columbos sloppy often typical behavior cigar martin landau plays identical twins one accuse murdering uncle money well watch see outcome assure always worth watching one cast crew,0 +feels like summer idk man feels like beginning quarantine again ik thats year passed like ate bag chips exclusively ate summer im rewarding greys everything simple lowkey hope school gets cancelled months,0 +dog extremely sick family know afford vet bills please help way can even cant pay share it every bit important httpswwwgofundmecomfsickdogvettreatmentshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvisrcitya,0 +maybe guess redflag option lefti cannot take anymore done struggling aspergers humiliated it want die nobody nothing me want die want live next years past ills challenges anymore trust anybody entire world always seeking fucking reason go me even done anything them yes times ive done things fuck up least realized apologized it whole world me whole word seeks fucking excuse put tear down deserve better that maybe shall go commit redflag maybe ill give salvation exit pathetic insignificant world no call redflag hotline cops matter called hotline times nothing worked since told go somewhere else try counseling work either everything ive tried cope pain wasted fruitless change please let die ill beg anybody please help die give better life,1 +anyone wanna play scribblio httpsskribbliollpyhoxcuykw,0 +recommending songs till decide stop day touchtone telephone lemon demon,0 +lost grandparents dog friends mental health highschool bootcamp graduations stuck base months bonus taken away told severe acne ruined confidence miles away family remaining friends getting shit lower enlisted pretty epic covid really fucked,1 +car gfbf mayonnaise collection use vlookup command excel,0 +tired living like thisim exhausted cant live way anymore brain makes everything hard every decision one around understands mental illness gets frustrated it wish knew took life would happen pain complications im scared,1 +voluntary committed psychiatric ward asked friendfamily member come supervise fear harming others made it tipping point knew something safety feel likei struggle vague suicidal ideation time time mostly takes form morbid fantasycuriosity driven felt inability manage life desire free it think ive ever reached point ive felt serious urge it thank god gamed could accomplished flirted precariously logic would lead there carrying thought experiments never trouble intellectually grasping sympathizing trains thought could lead someone selfharm but frighteningly im completely unfamiliar emotional experience close danger know warning signs look im afraid recognize feeling or already given depression tends corrupt ones ability reason think clearly would nothing internal prevent following urge want know im ever grips bitching depressive episode anyone keep eye me depend higher cognitive functioning least recognize red flags allowing protect myself hopes collecting data im asking whove flipped kill switch given responsibility safety hospital friend you know feel like,1 +interesting thing miryang secret sunshine actors jeon doyeon lee shinae main character woman young son whose husband died tragic accident leaves seoul live miryang home town young son jeons face changeable girlish flirtatious elegant aged sad desperate joyous terribly isolated turns face film also stars song kangho kim man meets car breaks coming miryang happens run garage town follows around time thereafter despite apparent lack interest attentions song biggest star korea right now renowned work park chanwook bong joonho sympathy mr vengeance memories murder host yet plays throwaway character almost forgotten man course makes interesting curiously appealing essential ballast keep jeons character floating awaybr br lee shinae piano teacher comes new town neutral place kind poormans seoul town just like anywhere else kim says just way like anyone else little boy sprightly little boys are plainly damaged withdrawn times too father used snore misses lies awake pretending snore goes school shinae meets parents students shopkeepers sense place film even though place sense anywhere people speak local dialect everyone knows everything shinaes seoul origin immediately noticed life really harsher here away big city sophistication shinae seems realize danger inbr br something terrible happens shinae necessarily deal best possible way happens must face consequences cant goes pieces perpetrator caught thats consolation eventually becomes despairing relents goes bornagain christian meeting acquaintance pressing attend finds peace release this decides forgive perpetrator go prison tell so experience full ironies destroys again becomes embittered desperate longer finds solace religion gets worse thatbr br jeon doyeon gives extremely demanding protean role lee changdong may good director actor stature song kangho expresses enormous admiration him convincing according scott foundas la weekly lees first three films green fish peppermint candy oasis marked one leading figures countrys recent cinematic renaissance successful film korean directors whose work ive seen yong sangsoo bong joonho prodigiously almost perversely gifted park chanwook may indeed begin foundas says kind asiatic alice live anymore abruptly without warning turns something thriller time nearly bressonian study human suffering progression seems random indigestible film sags loses momentum toward end simply fizzles out sense ending also weaknesses action shinae takes foolish chances son makes bad choices along destined madness like betty jeanjacques beineixs betty blue might explain peculiar mistaken choices something properly developed interesting film certainly disturbing one one leaves one doubtful dissatisfied putting one emotional wringerbr br an official selection new york film festival presented lincoln center an event done right korean filmmakers recent past,0 +gib award plz know youre,0 +wish snowed anyway headache everyday normal,0 +hahaha imsohappyanddefinitelydontwishiwasdead nothing like looking back old photos remind much hate person become,1 +people godamn possessive things one friend whos getting nerves tells song catches listening it literally asked why fuck listening im one told it recent one found small streamer brought stream make fun people fun anyway hes mod f try watch mans stream give bits support smaller streamer bans without reason word word said go find another streamer watch ninja something,0 +never stood chance,1 +fun little story woke rat mouse,0 +mestocked sleeping pills rope thinking staying night watch sunrise one last time hang riverbank already packed things gonna homeless monday point anyways ive dragged on try every year try kill myself,1 +hard give up friends live boyfriend told dad want move another state next year said job want herehe also doesnt believe mental health issues exist all cry gets mad me doesnt comfort me mum died years ago one understands me im sick alone constantly tonight got close ending life work tomorrow cant tomorrow cant take anymore goodbye world,1 +reddit changed downvote color mildly annoyed filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +purple rain cool dad tracking callers minneapolis hudson horstachio prepares ride motorcycle take ride franklin fizzlybear caddy lets go back movie released prince tripped stardom would think hudson horstachio superstar new movie th century fox movie called vp purple rain starring hudson horstachio voiced dan green played maxs dad pokemon gym leader tracks tina turners private dancer billy oceans suddenly headed album prince held concerts time weve pulled plug movies th century fox fans watching anymore kid yells look deer danger mind ralph schuckett composing conducting new movie called vp purple rain released video tom cruise jumps motorcycle brad pitt jumps motorcycle hudson horstachio jumps motorcycle thanks bette midler beaches keyboardists beholding heroic horstachio hudson bart writing i shall watch purple rain chalkboard go bloomington ferry bridge enjoy kids festivities hudson horstachio watching you,0 +already find place im gonna buy rope visit dentist tonightim way graduate months onward feel overwhelmed future job wellbeingness going fulfill parents expectation dad worry loser child longer thanks spoiled brat me,1 +love interest school go school two days week go days want advice approach them im like second around feel weak etc etc want know flirt without awkward,0 +cant anymoreive made many impulsive decisions past hrs lot ruined relationships friends families cant live mental illness anymore think last night alive ,1 +yo tf happened usually around k people online k tf happened,0 +end all years old male living canada dead end job cant stand friends virgin high school diploma family hates treats terribly brother despises mocks friends tells fuck try invite talk spend time together tried many times mend relationship thought could least one friend could family member hobbies interests pretty much skills anything trouble learning focusing notable thing inherited money year ago around k thats thing name really fucking end it even feel pathetic complaining here fuck life,1 +give movie a sheer camp it dietrichs daughter maria riva wrote book mother if one sees garden allah context high camp amusing how laughed delight overwrought score astoundingly ridiculously fantastically melodramatic dialogue viewers whove read accounts boyers toupee it kept coming unstuck heat snicker every time makes appearancebr br dietrich boyer rarely look giving lines instead gaze dreamily distance presumably faces photographed best angle advantageous light if starring turkey might well look good dietrichs costumes world riva notes book dietrich managed steal paramounts travis banton design divine gowns chiffon beige dress capebr br i heartily agree reviewers rave technicolor really hard believe film done color fantasticbr br in short watch garden allah lenient attitude embrace silliness cant help enjoy it,0 +masked beautyi ruined tripped realization come to mean ruined start all never initiated contact felt something never felt before would held back known would become us trip started taking away took far much sat underneath largest resolute tree campus fall new england trees full effect known coming bottom green grass bowl surrounded trees large boulders cold looming brick buildings many many people who us appeared far colder stones earth sat two us existed felt ever since day always two us remained spot morning long past dark holding tightly laughing crying kissing attempt either us leave brought us back sacred spot beneath tree spot still resides her me us two us still lying beneath tree holding onto one another watching sky night unexplainable beauty girl stars still is however consequence resides her holds dazzling image delicately beautiful mind time knows long maybe since day shimmering ideal place dreamscape filled rolling green hills single tree tree wants take acid lie beneath it die wanted come her die side holding tight hope abate pain harbors soul correct one aspect theory pain more transfer known loved graced earth leave infallible hole knew her void cannot filled anything presence one last time since day met her filled void within me one carried life one thought could never whole this saved me made whole become part me many others part that removed would crumble around it shuns me shouldnt she isnt created deep bleeding wound heart isnt ruined delicate existence life sun moon stars wrapped bow tore cosmos apart feel stars pain lives within me although doesnt see way but could she every time cut bleeding drowning deepness all one could pull back up mend wounds regardless caused them tenderness love never known need be need her ever shimmering idealistic place one die comes death rolling fields greens sacred tree grasps frantically at comes death true ceaseless empty void feelings love hate sadness need nothing void creates reduces to nothing although thats wishes become cannot let something ive ever slip fingers disappear obscurity thing differentiates everyone else life weighs heavier heart others would give life instant would anything protect her keep safe whether safety not still blindly clings notion place save her place like doom shed involved with came know love her boy saved many times would never able repay her would live neither free pointless would exist could longer bare absence ripped him would move join her would find there nothing find one search it true deliverance one another two exist theyre together nothing else matters salvation hers needs take hand yet emotions change july weather gone quickly misty morning showers giving way marvelously expansive shining sky lay beneath deeply secluded solitary tree watch skies worlds pass need beside me hands wrapped around neck kissing face whispering ear secrets know stroke back brushing strands raven black hair face eyes may meet reminded till death us part matter happens us coming days always you side holding hand firmly can one ever heart one ive ever loved depths soul fight world together stay strong deep heart believe always meant always meant last forever love beautifully intricately woven eternal threads every fabric heart soul reside every fabric being till death us part never give you see this please wait,1 +im pretty sad bored rn comment funny jokes completely random facts preferably animals,0 +dont know work regretting decisionfinished bottle zopiclone mg already feel nauseous dizzy solid minutes mg total im regretting decision much hate life hope isnt way go,1 +hate this like you responsei finally opened two people past days leading vacation week friend told never thought suicidal like like asking if im sure feelings boyfriend things this like me comfort opened him like me feel like reached out wish didnt ive feelings since freshman high school although goes away sometimes always comes back past months basically daily idk,1 +rudyard kipling wrote god gave people ability love whole world given human heart small size every human special place loves other seems may motto eminent directors today set profess eternal love special place depict situations lives denizens visitors result wonderful collection short films paris je taime guides van sant coixet cuaron payne others take us breathtaking stroll parisian arrondissements human feelings yearnings expectationsbr br always quarter always utterly moving story ordinary people search love parking lot art studio tube station paris je taime vast array loves love ones partner child parent meant world us longer around love needs rekindling serendipitous love stranger eyes meet love meant betoday tomorrow knowsbr br nevertheless film solely love life itself joy pain loneliness confusion everyday ups downs important quality fact soppy all rather warm full hopebr br i give film final section suggests stories might develop thing find missing further development mean specific reference characters future far everything else concerned say captivating makes want leave everything behind you flee paris live little romances yourself,0 +person make better cant thattldr make happy know fact ill never that im hopeless im making feel worse many things im im lazy want lie bed day stress builds stress paralyzes inaction even stress piles im digging hole im making worse ruining life end day fix myself get things done get life order make happy know fact cant that im lazy tired cant focus anything anyone myself im pathetic ill never able find fix even still here stay miserable inevitably kill road im incapable helping nothing ever able fix me me thats scary ill never able help myself cant know fact cant wont im wasting many peoples time reaching dont believe single kind word say dont follow advice im lazy try even started,1 +considered wrong want opt life young ageim years old decided last year alive wont live see year others want prolong suffering wanting continue stay alive im killing thats final,1 +happiness fleeting desire contentmenti usually lurk im dark place helps knowing others relate me wanted share gloomy shower thought hope automod shoot down thats always bummer thanks messed me,1 +hate people dad currently hospital corona looking good know people audacity say virus isint real masks dont work way people horrible cant deal anymore millions people going shit people going keep going inconsiderate assholes,0 +tried commuting redflagi dont know feel fucking think ive pondering idea offing years tonight tied belt bannister listening music leaning belt feet still ground started black music sounded distorted snapped stood up dont know talk please someone fucking help,1 +mother shat wish would thrown long flight stairs wish would bashed head brick whole life felt like belong earth allways gotten bad grades hate work never gf option relive life would not knew holy shit knew through aborted,1 +please let overalright time vent ive bottling shit weeks one trust life talk least anymore youre coherent thought probably going find here seriously dont even know im anymore ive scraping university actually fails passes point im second year pretty sure ive failed every subject semester didnt need to cant help im selfsabotaging destroy life every single fucking time get back track every time finally got great bunch friends called them think acquaintances one friend thought would back shit got rough didnt well surprise much equality problem always talk im spiralling dark place ever me course would im obviously worth time fuck friendship im close friend need support need im even going try talk you seriously fuck friendships im done ill probably fail course surprise dont really personal aptitude university career path sure failing university isnt end world think least me thought existence without purpose drives crazy fail supposed do go find shitty job pay bills live mundane existence alone fucking bother id rather go kill comes point think might actually balls pull off ive always coward theres always glimmer hope fuck dont care anymore everything pointless spent two weeks ignoring world ive reemerged know every knew thinks differently dont know like judgemental assholes getting everything life handed silver platter want end life mine worth enduring longer naught,1 +must ban rban video games making outrageous arguments involving video games cause people watch child porn become neo nazi also use terrible photoshop make youtube videos video game look like nazi propaganda,0 +wish deadi want die sleep im tired everything let die,1 +character customization character customization irl locked behind second dlc messed character creation accidentally skipped,0 +im worried high school awful mental health iwnt good either ive tried good school worthless want drop out issue get job really want good future ill never make it need advice,0 +nothing worthless stupid fucking junkie,1 +soylent green one best disturbing science fiction movies s still persuasive even todays standards although flawed little dated apocalyptic touch environmental premise typical time still feel unsettling thoughtprovoking films qualitylevel surpasses majority contemporary sf flicks strong cast intense sequences personally consider classic new york depressing place alive overpopulation unemployment unhealthy climate total scarcity every vital food product form food available synthetic distributed soylent company charlton heston in great shape plays cop investigating murder one soylents eminent executives stumbles upon scandals dark secrets script little oversentimental times climax really come big surprise still atmosphere tense uncanny riotsequence truly grueling easily one macabre moments s cinema edward g robinson ultimately impressive last role theres great but modest supportive role joseph cotton baron blood the abominable dr phibes sciencefiction book nightmarish inevitable fade humanity fancy spaceships hairy monsters attacking planet,0 +havent sub weeks wondering left long posts starting make remember why,0 +likely last month alivei tired failure nobody help either giving life one last final chance dont job end month walk traffic cant take belittled everyone around me id rather dead live pathetic life another month,1 +im killing self tomorrow valentines dayim gonna kill self tomorrow cant shit anymore im years old boy hate dad depression told parents doesnt help anxiety even im school class seven grade best friend blocked probably hates dont even know reason dont good friends feel fucking lonely day drinked alchol helped little bit smoked cigarettes crush one girl rejected know life goes doesnt feel like like year cant forget wanted friends girls dont give change assholes live really smalltown wanna fucking killmyself dont wanna live anymore help pls,1 +ill probably die cold alone anywayenglish first language years old male even know im posting honest lets give try anyway lose dignity think shred left ive diagnosed years ago severe crohns disease ive symptoms years without able put word it ive surgery couple times far stomach mess scars im immunosuppressive drugs big time every time take spend couple hours nauseating shit blood weekly basis feel weak years old moderate case arthritis spend least hours day sleeping make thru whole day gastroenterologist knows side effects yet absolutely plan managing physical pain id change physician could live shitty province theres specialist hes one whos remotely close live add crap ive never actual girlfriend cant talk girl even life depended and probably point could say im like rahj big bang theory cant speak attractive women without drunk and drinking kind meds im completely forbidden tried spent minutes puking blood rare times girl approaches happens maybe year im luck stutter look like complete idiot cant make complete sentence life me tried meeting girls online meet one usually runs away soon hears medical condition who could blame them ive mental hospitals twice far depression pills far even remotely lifting mood weeks ive seen psychologist left depressed came in know anymore cry sleep every fucking night hard time keep poker face work school whats future physical pain mental pain fucking alone without significant support me id rather end now feel cold empty seen light years ive walking god forsaken path lifeatheist here figure speech please try cheer religious stuff,1 +ui_will_make_u_mad definitely job rn hes making people mad,0 +hi fello people peopleettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +someone said perfect button nose im confused dont know button nose good,0 +turned always completely terrified getting old way let reach i diagnosed clinical depression late s made one serious attempt redflag diagnosed put prozac things started change put law school practiced law number years even years ago told people want live past s absolutely terrified getting old thought maybe terror panic would lessen time gotten worse none friends age fit generation friends years younger me think started really living late moved see friends anymore even that never part group age divorced children nobody relying financial support right now things good ever get amazing job got months ago probably last time incredibly cute year old girl thing me aged well definitely become invisible short time come terms deeper secrets haunted young disclosed secrets closest friends showed complete total acceptance thinking redflag last weeks always wanted children real chance that know cant date much younger women women age like hold attraction me means keep getting older forever alone know would devastate parents siblings think enough keep here whats happening life absolute phobia getting older people cant have nobody would getting older video game terms feel like finished main storyline watched credits left playing optional missions achievements next years try get completion hair starts fall put weight aches pains get worse buddhist think reincarnation pretty likely dead worry me planning running hose tailpipe car tiny garage today may wait week pretty good thing procrastinate on know difficult die method tiny garage starting car cold work biggest fear ending brain damage,1 +wrong know guy edits memes hes done got tired getting messages telling kill himself messages asking nudes got tired idiots completely disrespecting him dont blame him pushed lot it ever could know brought lot joy mornings seeing someone admire every day good time make people happy wasnt quite it every time posted dummy would ask send nudes tell kill himself didnt make happy all reddit way assholes cant bear withstand joy perverts ask nudes teenage boys ask anyone right experienced it afraid stand yourself ask anyone pervert terrorist asking kids die find help find help youre disgusting needs stop,0 +anyone explain spent whole year learning write fancy like get american education system obsolete fuck cmon ever time child needed whole year learn write signature cursive dumb shit makes sense apart public education ridiculous,0 +need big tiddy quirky gf big tiddy squeeze cuddle pillow cuddle funny quirky big booby gf please hold me,0 +taking baby steps kill myselfhi yo male here started contemplating redflag back last months high school mostly due upcoming exams decisions university etc thoughts redflag always shelter pressure would meet every challenge thoughts like ok really kill myself im third try graduate university years university still bachelors degree sight first drop got depressed shit lied parents graduate on thought redflag every single day thoughts really raw like thoughts breaking story building jumping im coward would impossible break in go winter partially submerge river freeze death would able carry fantasies im pussy hurts whole life cant put effort anything hard cant hang im afraid pain on year lied parents graduating university ready kill time plan simple easy plan took days work try one method kill myself would spend days finding right cord strangle not hanging im pussy afraid injure neck every night tighten cord around neck it took nights figure right way at least think right way face gets redpurple head starts tingle blood vessels enlarge seconds much afraid continue see happens keep longer heck even know would enough kill would give terrible headache please pm answer even make dizzy would happy could pass die stopping blood flow brains but know would enough kill me way even know work feel trapped joy living back stabbed parents multiple times for reason even know redflag method work out,1 +yo guys found planet solar system gas uranus,0 +pretty much always depressed like since could remember little always little sad never extreme got older every day gets harder harder teen online schooled whenever get bed if all getting work done last thing mind terrible brain fog trouble processing everything around me room messy barely walk it dirty like gross anything everything scattered across floor tired take care cannot even hold conversation without getting angry medication actually helps quite bit clue would like without it try find therapist whenever go like temporarily trick thinking fine completely refuse go many friends going college energy maintain long distance friendship make new ones falling behind every aspect life try make systems help wish could someone come put pieces back together resume life lost ambition know anymore anyone know do life mess,1 +passively suicidaldoes anyone know help passively suicidal ive dealing years gotten worse recently need beat it,1 +return jedi often remembered wrong rather right shame last chronological installment star wars saga shining example epic storytelling manages wrap story lines previous movies one grand finale convincinglybr br yes ewoks cute cuddly bears arguably served broaden star wars demographic middle movie tends slow bit final hour arguably best piece entire saga luke finally comes face face darth vader recognizable villain movie historybr br return jedi many things right people tend overlook presented incredible conclusion darth vader storyline which went slightly implausible empire strikes back convincing here exciting opening jabbas palace masterful performance ian mcdiarmid emperor luke finally coming own resolution solo leias romance extremely powerful final moments endor moonbr br yes slight annoyances annoyances generation moviegoers whove time nitpick every single scene still magical moving piece cinema also serves great final chapter good movie fantastic,0 +f complete fucking disasteri hate completely hate look personality basically everything get up go gym go work rinse repeat barely leave house friends never even boyfriend everyone else buying houses kids getting marriedhere sucking everything basically exhausted ready give up,1 +hazelnut french vanilla ,0 +fun fact day fun fact sunrise sun set everyday crazy like follow epic knowledge fact,0 +asphalt recruitments hello looking anyone join club asphalt requirements although ask kind respectful club name godspeed club id faca,0 +getting things orderive made list things need do people need see one time one things done recently name trustees beneficiaries various accounts,1 +good evenings entertainment plot unconvincing garrisons affair first lady unreal passionless president cardboard cutout real villains anyway nothing developed explained sufficiently still know wanted kill president mole got involved villains nameless undeveloped never felt involved plot michael douglas kiefer sutherland best inject reality story chase confrontation good kim basinger eva longoria unbelievable roles basinger totally lacked character way could longoria secret service agent could good film somehow missed way many unanswered questions disappointing whole despite good scenes use west wing set white house scenes kept expecting cj charlie appear,0 +want die cant mom diesim going kill know hate reality live knowing potential im even average average nothing special nothing im really good school made feel worse even put effort hard work rewarded end fell college terrible gpa ive worked many different jobs sucked them ive unemployed corona hit living savings ive know fear failing finding suck something else ive move different state move back parents isolate friends could speak mental health im alone parents take personally explain feel mom guilty dying makes feel worse understand though dont want hurt them nothing going years old single years little experience feeling like missed s feeling alone want feel anymore want hurt cry want leave reality reset,1 +movie go one funniest movies history cousins mighty wind spinal tap waiting guffman terrific right best show takes cake br br a movie idiosyncrasies dog owners show dogs competitively intricacies characters make good watching movie times come conclusion weak character actor film little interaction groups characters seems add beauty film br br if watch movie find funny billing as watch again first time saw thought serviceable overly hilarious film grows you defininatly movie find quoting frequently br br characters hamilton meg swan a get dvd check characters born amazing two could hit head find really go script sort made went br br gerry cookie guggleman cookie especially funny fantastic job selling cookie character gerry eugene levy delivers standard stellar performance hilarious discombobulated type weaker half br br stefan vanderhoof scott donalan a find funnier character scott donalan dare you forever typecast character natural seem forced point stefan micheal mckean good well interplay and brief appearance gugglemans goes show always films great actor razor like wit br br harlan pepper b want seem like funny sure solo act cant quite funny others above use dog others idiosyncrasies going himbr br the rest great well weak character see film least twice buy it regret it,0 +yall like steak also say well done objectively wrong,0 +know play piano learn play next accustic guitar original know electric guitar for rockin out harmonica for peak annoyance portability triangle cause time learn another instrument,0 +hows life going pretty simple lost attraction girls within time span like week get like weird feeling pressure chest whenever look guys guess im fucking gay nowhere want die yeah really nothing interesting going on you,0 +third part miikes dead alive trilogy unrelated first two parts other less show aikawa riki takeuchi back lead roles time movie thrusts us forward years future post apocalypsebr br riki plays tough cop enforcer corrupt citys extreme police policies show plays drifter hooks bunch citys oppressed rebels film must shot hong kong rest cast cantonese speakers terence yin josie ho recognisable faces theres also hk stunt crew hand films action sequences cool hkviamiike stylebr br this could fodder dreadful low budget bmovie miikes hands course becomes something interesting quite slow thoughtful film meanders along try force anything viewers throat characters rounded interesting plot interesting fairly loose framework story hung onbr br all fairly low key effort action scenes show miikes increasing prowess directing choreographing nice action watching short making show riki wire rigs really fun tell great time br br the finale film tries tie together dead alive movies quite unnecessary one really self contained miikes explanation connection funny though caps series quite nicelybr br not deep well developed doa outrageous intense doa still another good miike movie though,0 +could right nowi hate feeling like im conducive part world truth dont know go person point dont really want anything get better im know im fulfilling prophecy nothing work out nothings going easy theres knife drawer house didnt care hurting people life id take instant,1 +minecraft cave update finally words cannot describe happiness right now finally fucking here,0 +anyone else get annoyed someone speaking chinese discord spam tienmien square massacre let ccp deal bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot bottom text dumb bot joke pokmon showdown opponent winning,0 +people kill themselvesare ways kill besides hanging gun shot ive recently thought jumping something dont want fall take long regret halfway down would want drift instantly,1 +one brilliant young men went dared make teen romance film actually call that would invoke devil fanson micro budget packed taste sensitiveness maturity peter sollett deserve admiration respectthanks demonstrating powers industry stereotypes flushed toilet one locationa handful rich characters low budgetgood actingand amateursdecent lighting worshippers true indie cinema watch stop watchingwellyou know what,0 +want shove box rusty nails throat childhood selfto childhood self fuck effeminate little boy made easy target could interesting fucking way yet fucking vanilla ass piece shit corner people show shoot shit at thought would make stronger interesting person made quiet boring easier ignore fuck remembering physical emotional abuse dad family fuck letting mom run little experiments body like sort lab rat fuck speaking suffering did going adults really improved life make abusers hate got slaps wrist huh fuck remembering childhood especially bad parts im experiencing again idea sort hell im getting vague memories again fault want dead like want dead want suffer way ever survive experience anymore hold fraction malice horrible wishes anyone you person world deserves suffer ash kill kill me too,1 +take antidepressants trick dad thinking im okive every different kind antidepressant available past years honestly fucking anything think gives dad peace mind really knew wanted legitimately blow brains every second everyday think would fuck up oh well day dies day die to waiting day,1 +might finally able get girl mind wont let thing happening night post tiktok almost year now random stuff comes mind around tiktoks published regulars liking vids among girl looking profile dont know long like added snap texted hours smiling fun talking deeply full feelings fell im sure it least suspicious knew things close friends know possible figured again also shes perfect really adorably beautiful dont trust hidden reason wont tell me making push away dont want that really want time dont know shes after advice,0 +im going tomorrowtheres point waiting shit get better never will theres point trying know full well one miss im free it im pussy im sure ill manage comes ill try best,1 +even possible fix always broken fell apartplease anyone anyone all hear say want feel alone anymore good life far all im beginning think meant feel happiness begin with maybe time go ive never told anyone life detail ive always wanted vent cry know someone else earth knows ive gone through im going through please read need someone know im bad person life female years old parents dropped nanas house day birthday never came back me told want me mom pregnant step dads child wanted start family him dad also girlfriend left reason never got divorced dad ended children several different women know moms kid sister others met briefly fathers funeral mom never liked me look much like dad hated him younger great grandmother forced meet twice week home could get know sister mom would tell sister things like spit face hit me push ask stop without getting yelled at thankfully sister grew older adore now dad hand really know well man shwed nanas house every steal money belongings drug money also liked show drunk wanted fight nana also like much reason kept grandpa loved cherished greatly sadly died first grade angel kept safe everyone else died one protect me nana began telling much despised died pulled hair told devil someday world would know evil was would say son want me something wrong me want either promised me second grade graduated high school longer welcome home would get rid sooner would look bad so uncle worst all always hurt me also man showed wanted money drugs would hurt arms knees leaving bruises gave money great grandmother would give helping around house visited one night around am showed house again banging door nana asleep felt brave night locked deadbolt told leave yelled banged louder refused let in next day saw news night showed home left house immediately went family friends home sadly familys friend opened door unlike me turned uncle high crack night looking money buy drugs with visited man murdered taking money used crowbar man years old man helped nana many many times nothing eat needed something family children us broke heart asked nana going funeral said fault died given son needed instead going funeral sent away days hid uncle house decided turn in man funeral one attended uncle nana girlfriend side entire time people school bad group even claimed nothing wrong represented okay part left time life long event dad used dirty needle drug use got aids take care moved us state gave money since work spent drugs instead homework dad would call drug dealer sort pills look pill using school provided laptop make sure paying for often found bags unknown powders crack hidden room grades started slip point often fell asleep class dad would get high turn lights on pee everywhere scream night felt brave one night asked stop school two hours needed sleep told go hell promised turned kicked house two months later high school graduation idea give tickets ended giving mom sister step dad dad nana program left building looked family see anyone crowd called mom showed up stood looked nana friend mine got phone call her called tell come feel like it instead decided visit uncle prison two hours away thats realized one come one cared enough take hour day me surrounded families yet nothing cried spot friends mother let stay day graduation moved around streets awhile nice police officer offered help contacted grandma mothers side really know thankfully said could stay her tried get college point neither mother father would give information could fill paperwork get financial assistance throughout years developed severe depression anxiety suffered panic attacks daily leave house whole life revolved around fear eventually got help that least temporarily took trip florida grandma first time year later finally felt little bit okay point life two days trip received text blue read youre piece shit dad spoken nana since made leave help schooling paperwork understand done immediately broke tears right there hotel trip ruined five words stole another part me continued therapy psychiatrist tried talking getting disability refused work time no function normal human being goal get better get job wanted prove could make something myself months later night someone knocked door got bed looked window nanas boyfriend opened door asked going on looked second saying your dad died days ago head raced could even respond turned around got car nana left cry yet walked room sent mom text dad died minutes later called pick up sat awhile last words youre piece shit let go cried rest night went another piece me funeral one worst days life showed anxious look sad enough act want go home walked room mom asked go see him want to knew looked like skeleton point hed lost ton weight looked nothing like himself denied went straight nana gave hug may mean knew hurting everyone stared kept whispering thought head nana opened mouth you disappointed him stared wondering meant he suffered lot stole him stole anything anyone understand all he knew bad person everyone knows stood tying keep straight face legs began shake continued i know way are thought would come see died kids came except you even know hospitalized time remember exactly way felt point eyes me filled hate lips started tremble tried speak couldnt kids brothers sisters never knew giving looks like belong there ran room cried turned dad told everyone stealing money bank account never course ive never even bank account myself cousin told hed actually gotten high spent money forgot spent told everyone stole it wanted run explain would never thing im type person would believe know loved him stand chance bad one knew would live that branded waste space long time ago wash away could try harder nothing could stop trying months received hateful messages via facebook ignored everything tore apart inside lost progress id made therapy one night little bit later took bunch pills cut arms legs up nana found kitchen floor called ambulance ended mental facility week though things started look up felt like life mattered facility nice me helped me day discharged went facebook looked old messages deleting people brought down saw several unread messages old highschool friend trying get reply two years replied thinking could use friend years since one eventually hung together since year later mother another child decided move offered live boyfriend old home happily so thinking wed stable living situation is step dad started showing house high saying house car driveway one would steal things would dig trash leave hateful notes door mom stole car began lose weight went pounds pounds bones stuck everywhere looked sick time handle constantly coming around acting crazy drug use mom came one day knocked door opened stuck finger face said raising rent raked yard two weeks told rake broken shwed told leave flipped off got car broke down asked could treat way could act like never acted like mom should asked could steal car yell leaves yard response fuck you flipped backed driveway sank knees front porch panic attack want homeless again id homeless many times before called boyfriend work even speak could cry phone finally able tell happened came home soon could calmed went back work hour later step dad showed up stood scared open door know much could take surprisingly apologized told go mom wrong said realized once high left work felt little bit relief asked small told stressed developed stomach ulcer true wouldnt accept that told knew crack like looked like abusing it never touched drugs life began telling people addicted drugs boyfriend abusing me take anymore boyfriend decided needed get away them longer taking care myself miserable made month knew moving would hard decided anyway brought home boxes work began pack things slowly surely nights later someone banged bedroom window around am began yelling step dad screamed answer door calling police boyfriend jumped answered door step dad burst hit boyfriend friend recognize step dad continued hitting boyfriend head screamed me threw mail floor dug trash said going call police said stealing mail mail actually junk mail cable internet grocery store junk mail step dad shaking terribly spitting boyfriend high again digging though trash again said leave right would call police finally enough told call police knew wouldnt pushed towards door yelled get out finally left another panic attack lived tent that last part gone finally it live camper now working water electricity use old tablet local wifi im far gone point never leave camper bathe brush hair change clothes cant breathe anymore anxiety bad cant go buy groceries cant look people eye im skeleton now im afraid people im afraid everything boyfriend told long ago im strongest person ever met could never dealt this strong im here taking space im not exactly wanted be worthless nothing broke piece piece nothing left fix hope me empty empty nothing nothing,1 +one loves youuntil dead wont even love then important enough love,1 +cooking makes scared bruh turned gas stove make tea first time started making noise scared flames would devoured tea kettle turned everything off lol,0 +mostly need vent im rather confused sadits strange good life im high school good grades ive never experienced death loved one loving family roof head pretty much ideal package kid reason seemingly random times get fucking sad sometimes point fantasize offing myself resorted self harm outside brief faze cut myself know certain ideas first say closer get adulthood see horribly fucking nasty world operations constantly outclass compete others promotions money friends fucking everything one missed payment little slip bam homeless nerve wracking awful guess feel like dealing it life like seem worth living aware plenty time actually go find something like make friends really worth misery one suffers aforementioned aspects thoughts say no another thing really gets im fucking terrible academic skills actually land decent job todays society reason good grades school ludicrously easy get short assignments week want anything pursue job technology engineering mathematics science like seemed get worst possible genetic traits field things im truly good reading writing neither skills get shit real world sure could work hard learn something else like said before whats point much damn effort could well nothing end im also terrible making friends first years life barely got interact kids all taken toll point ive pretty much accepted gone numb too still hurts deep knowing widely incapable forging intimate relationships desperately wish had all powerful feeling within will fail life tools succeed see point trying time loathe thought taking life want coward find wishing daily reason die fantasize often id like admit giving life war any war side care assassinated giving speech murdered trying save loved one mugger them sometimes wonder enlist high school hope death comes swiftly want die want reason it due this guess could say im suicidal yet telling bad could get coming years due think may depressed even though able put aside ignore feelings time thats basically it really need respond feel like though would find pleasant surprise did wanted get chest someone,1 +cleared okay but monday thinking humans brain works tripped got worried thinking brain works would lose sleep did night bad like last time also yesterday sleep bad woke like every hour night like last time got kind scared like last time time think fake life absurd think get really scared think rationally calm down,1 +make laugh shall grant ye thy sliver award,0 +im completely numb think im readyi done everything solve this ive therapy talked fucking oblivion read books taken peoples advice still cant bare idea longer think it im numb completely numb nothing anyone says makes feel better worse im constantly think sign time go,1 +slight existential crisis time read albert camus make crisis productive drown thoughts music hope go away,0 +a slight case murder excellent tv movie defiantly worth price rental william h macy great movie critic accidentally kills mistress try conceal crime although may sound dark film actually quite light hearted funny many memorable lines acting harder thought ever see body heat think owe bill hurt apology personal favourite for next week answer two questions film noir people day always raining film great supporting cast including macys real life wife felcity huffman james cromwell adam arkin must see macy fans,0 +womens shampoo much nicer guys shampoo damn much expensive,0 +spheeris debut must one best music documentaries time far know also one focuses la punk explosion early eighties there great great bands like black flag fear x germs whose names may mean much today whose influence todays alternative rock music overestimated also promoters media first audiences punks portrayed manner makes laugh shudder gasp astonishment energy anger fury youths put music today eighties may sucked big time cames mainstream music underground rocking need proof that watch fears performance decline unmatched great film come available vid ld dvd ps followup decline pt ii hilarious,0 +george floyd karen common cant breathe pls dox ,0 +go user green dot next avatar tf,0 +communist made fail finals ok gonna summed mao ze dong thing china led ccp becoming ruler china becoming communist dictator ship fucked chinas people lead man wuhan china year eating bat covid spread across world order combat covid school went online school went online quality education went way mean wasnt able learn proper stuff test caused fail tldr communist revolution china caused covid caused fail test,0 +take suiciding let people world know im invisiblewhy try redflag car leaving run await death work first time obviously im trying today friday cause right have guts jump shoot like rapist told me days consist painful redflag methods either fail sleep rets of wake try different one hoping fail wake another day fair share trying xyzall failed tired me passively want already least then free this also worry weight amount talking shift mind im become determined this simply versions last diary entries thing drop hard paper name rapist thats need know finally succeed eventually one days might shoot jump im trying go less messy route,1 +anyone else questions ask certain groups people youre scared ask mean certain groups people like gay people something,0 +biden goes sniff sniff ur gf goes oof oof old man got nice teeth good job,0 +imagine dick would totally cringe stupid horny people dicks,0 +join among us code pdeatq filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller filleefillerfillerfillerfiller,0 +advice driving title says all turn idea even grab wheel learn basics basics basics know,0 +see living much longerreally point life two depressive disorders nothing interesting everything painful whats point end soon possible wish could less afraid,1 +im donei cant handle it told do it yea ive heard therapy dont want go considering therapist described many thoughts sleep ive come conclusion therapists waste money time almost everyday think ways kill myself ive heard youll cause pain others people really love you doesnt feel like though im giving piece piece point time thing keeping stabbing stomach pets love dont want without right helping time people could never help through think ive finally though think redflag almost everyday probably wont commit yet think ive lost hope saved yea theres horrible stupid rant you sorry probably wasted time,1 +loved masterpiece quite frankly i found mary poppins although love julie andrews dick vandyke silly sacrinesweet angela lansbury plays character perfection know people think film distorted magical lots fun watch every scene held certain charm got know characters better truly see little thrown together family learn bond other despite age differences thought characters well developed especially charles the age believing mary poppins may popular cherished others little gem one always love cherish,0 +figth today v figth hard figth byt beat one guy,0 +really cant take anymorethrowaway account obvious reasons sometimes writing kind stuff helps calm down say cant take alive longer want die genuinely theres things id miss friends mom thats it important things life theyre still good enough carry anymore failed last semester got put academic probation told id turn around didnt ill get kicked school now ill inevitably lose friends made there im still total fuck wasted dont deserve alive wish every fucking day night happy wasnt depressed bipolar bad manic episode last week id hallucinating difficulty distinguishing reality imaginary friends dont know anything that pulled weird prank facetime freaked fuck bc couldnt tell real wanted literally shoot head stop paranoia spinning head forgave them wouldnt i fault didnt know theyll never know theyll find mom tell killer funeral want go sleep tonight hope god dont wake morning hate life im sick pretending im enjoying it every fucking thing triggers start crying hate life want die im fucking angry it like this know fact ill dead get letter home saying im expelled flunking out cant go back school ill hate life much more home quarantine worst thing couldve happened thought finally getting chance rehabilitate wrong im better without life given point dont care selfish,1 +know anymorethe first time thought ending around felt really guilty thinking like that feel guilty all would i one know cares enough even talk time would care died mom used want put therapy anymore though im pretty sure thinks im going normal teen issues care enough find bad really is turns blind eye it guess refuses acknowledge problem have thinks choose lazy maybe normal teen issues im dramatic know even know im posting here honestly feel like reason live know id kill anyway someday tonight nothing distracts thoughts anymore im tired alive feels like option really tempting right now know im posting instead whatever edit anyone cares im fine now still feel like shit ill kill day ive found adequate materials use feel like getting any oh well guess ill procrastinate redflag like every thing else even life edit holy shit even know im updating need vent somewhere since talked teens helpline thing police went house talked parents found self harm suicidal urges and reacted better thought would relieving im confused nothing feels real,1 +im good enoughim good enough life meaning pain stop love anymore im good enough time keeps passing im tired trying keep up let lay here im good enough let sleep forget me im good enough never was im sorry ruining life im sorry loving know damn well im fucking good enough,1 +feel nothingeverything sucks literally one talk to said friends never there need something me course family treats like trash really make feel accepted safe comfortable all treat brother really well reason im outcast them even though im completely normal ive depression selfharming years now family friends really know care it last year ive met internet person made feel really special time lately person really even know explain feel nothing makes sense everything hurts im mess really wish could end life people waste time someone useless me im typical talentless highschooler really friends hopes fulfilling dreams relating future honestly cant even imagine someone dumb worthless future want end life lately ive really hopeless know sounds like im overreacting anything nothing one stumbled upon reddit community tought id post thoughts birthday days away want commit redflag day,1 +anyone else feel jealous see classmate shiny new phonetablet do ive got fomo sensation pretty much every student class gotten new smartphonetablet classmates due upgrade havent gotten yet,0 +first time busted nut ok like dry humping pillow felt like needed pee like ok ill finish pee finished didnt feel need pee like weird dont need pee anymore said might well go bathroom try pee went pulled pants saw cum didnt know little concerned minutes later older brother comes biggest mistake asked weird peed white sticky liquid remembered little bit shocked face said anything weird thats knew happened said obviously like years ago end,0 +ok heres storyill try keep brief here jist really feel need live anymore days since split girlfriend years totally fault happened feel like biggest shit ever walk planet right now im maybe october time friend mines girlfriend called al st birthday party went girlfriend busy concert night think drunk ended sleeping girls year old mother didnt stop there continued months im young stupid boundries safe say fun fast forward weeks ago friend splits al girl mayb one hottest girls ive ever seen attitude devil himself shes selfish self centered absoutlly centre attention fucking time scumbag decide start messaging alot arrange meet completely unaware banging mother last months mother finds tells al banging al finds pictures mothers phone fully naked tags girlfriend facebook girlfriend found feel like reason living anymore feel absoutly terrible girlfriend brain keeps telling end all ill check back work hours,1 +know created post please talk random stuff,0 +ever since accident heard creepy voiceslong story short hit delivery car riding motor scooter er visit terrifying spasms two hours put surgery guess traumatized something hear voices alone dont music guess im looking help,1 +im giving upi posted earlier seperate account changed one want family members seeing it im running places turn maybe ill find right advice ive suffering depression along side mental health issues since around sudden theyve got worse worst part believe im horrible selfish person feeling way because people around keep reminding me life isnt bad im quite young ive seeing partner almost years great right entirely fight almost every day left flat since got together makes feel he also suffers mental health tries help try help feel trapped flat i dont call home feel like it access accounts including banks relies marijuana i hate stuff driving mad feel like relationship never progress yet cant leave fucking adore man wanted since became mother beautiful happy healthy little girl ray personal sunshine and honesty reason done in yet cant seem provide anything see future can parents pretty much taken parent role hate that im mum try hardest due low ive recently ive even parents suggest let dad take custody her my partner dad cried heart mum balls ask whats wrong brings parents relationship seems disintegrated point return im pretty sure reason tolerate daughter feel like hate want nothing me ive even tell die ditch come funeral little sister best only friend try talk much possible hit teenage phase friends boyfriend important though im happy good social life tearing apart friend seem care think thats also partly parents argue lot apparently solely me gets backlash clue tell people assume bad put sister much growing im grasping straws trying fix it buying gifts art games figurines movies anything could possibly want im trying buy best friendsister back im alone fucking world older sister nothing tearing apart despite different lifestyles weve led not going details made questionable downright terrible choices life position want in parents would give anything love unconditionally shes half sister dads side talent family fiance friends apparently have arent theyre partners friends basically sit around drugs not marijuana dont want around certainly want near daughter berate tell terrible every oppurtunity much slut am ugly am fat despite knowing history bulimia anorexia tendencies stop eating im feeling self conscious stupid am large forehead i got ran result permanent swelling anything else think hurt me kicked college due needing help site support person forgot term person go major issues one guys sexually assulted attended college reported said theyd get help call police got kicked missing much class never got help called police im lost scared alone reason im still holding little sister daughter though even constant struggle wrote redflag note nights ago one found it started cutting completely clean long time theres wound arm partner knows lectures belittles them ive sat thought ways ive attempted before last serious attempt daughter months old almost took away fearing id danger her ive never ever hurt personal sunshine try fail theyd take good family would abandon as theyve already told loose her id nothing go for times ive tried drown partner snatch pills hand nothing dire ever really happened dont know im expecting come this see local mental practitioner hes put meds working reached sexual abuse team replied im even trying contact organisations help self harm suicidal thoughts one replies im stuck ive tried everything nothing one things world truly support sister daughter cats they meow see self harm im breakdown come calm down theyre best feel way yet also feel hollow numb im suffering insomnia sleep sleep hours think bodys way almost dead staying peace long possible im scared need advicea friend anything really cant take life much longer sorry long rambling post,1 +mind could sign petition kid died cause threw sandwich httpchngitfysqxgvv know changeorg might always work still think better nothing,0 +im finally readyas title suggests ive made mind point years ive hurting every single night crying am living miserable life told things get better tried let things get better put there everyone said still enough ive always afraid take life thought terrifies me feeling wanting die genuine ive thought killing almost every second every day course past years way year old live parents already think nothing dad says redflag weak guess right idea much pain in would happy finally let go ive tried telling them care one late sad truth theres many nights ive sat bed rope hands crying wishing id it pain would finally stop ive always afraid whats come im scared anymore sit it terrified feelings overwhelm me cant cry anymore im tired crying hurts awake anymore tonight finally rest,1 +cum secreting balls plz help,0 +girlfriend diagnosed depressionpanic disorder really bad past year so attempted suicide couple times really heartbreaking see like this eventually managed tell mum got involved therapy thought might working sort dipped therapy stopped therapist said working bit confused part anyway mum got doctor involved asked prescribed antidepressants today told doctor said bad enough prescribed ssris tbh infuriated me get it suicide attempts clearly depressed yet bad enough fuck broke cried really could carry like this really heartbreaking see got well nice all really want help get them know do suggestions please thank youtldr girlfriend suicide attempts diagnosed depression dr said bad enough ssris suggestions help please doctor prescribe ssri,1 +took look mirror today big thought was still need alot work im confident before also makes hopeful eventually go ask crush out,0 +late night tired galaxy brain go deal vampire werewolf would use silver stake wooden bullet,0 +feeling like life rut lack better wordsince graduated highschool year ago ive constant depression feeling like im going around around circle every damn day im job hate attempting get working far thats another story friends either moved away plainly talk anymore get see boyfriend week that even were together hes tired hes constantly working nothing exciting anymore cant get school way expensive qualify financial aid ive never seriously considered redflag recently like thought stays back mind cant seem shake theres real way change anything moment feel things make happy slowly slipping fingers honestly know anymore,1 +want everything endim tired people always trying talkto make feel better always wind feeling shittier im class right trying cry cant stand living ever since th grade im almost im tired people telling itll get better when clearly hasnt find things make happy literally nothing makes happy anymore hate much feel bad say envy people actually courage kill,1 +wanna hear something gross turns probably read school book called lolita read internet romance yr girl yr old man ewww,0 +come every weeki come post every week four months keep thinking finally place someone help feel like living something every week write something stupid want advice someone show something stop feeling worthless depressed reason im even bothering husband hate seeing him hes reason im still here feel like im burdening here sad worries makes feel guilty,1 +flirting fucking hard yesterday crush came asked like me panicked said ew fuck no youre like brother issues yes couldve left make sure dug hole deeper,0 +ok teacher got real fucky math let explain right now advanced studiesits class school makes us take fuck knows why now seeing this wonder whats causing low grade think ive well class gives check see ive got one test grade thats zero gradesincluding test grades s im like wtf whats math email teacher it apparently teachers make certain grades weigh others even within testclassworkquiz classifications absolute bullshit like class instead missed one fucking paper grade pulled points one four test grades s someone shoot either whoever decided school system fucking passable ampxb tldr teacher using creative weighting made one missed test grade singlehandedly bring grade points ampxb hate,0 +hey little wavey whyre reddit equally whyre stalking me,0 +here take httpsyoutubextqbngnkmq httpsyoutubeargncnnbwks neither rickrolls good songs,0 +im sorry forgot let catch speed,0 +today birthday thinking ending tonightyears months torment alone im fed everything tried fix life got back music working out help much im tired trying happy trying think people me today didnt even feel like anything important another lonely day think point birthday point here ive complitated months now ive attempted redflag twice already im ready leave enough enough,1 +need help french homework hi frenchunderstand could please help me ive got map metro system paris find start finnish thing listen audio french understand thing except trois thats thing figured out want help would appreciate much friend were really bad french dm help thanks,0 +choosing diei thinking start planning killing myself write abusive parents inherit money give away shit make peace god take overdose see reason choose die,1 +took nap fist nap ive taken months im much nap person remembered lyrics really sad song video watched like twelve floodgates memories watched back cool stuff watched came back me hit hard almost cried kinda wanna rewatch stuff nostalgia sake,0 +mass effect better star wars strike nerve say without mass effect never would gotten star wars battlestar galactica httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvddu_eiasmdw,0 +nothing really mattersi live serve purpose everyone else world person thought different pulling away ive felt things tonight peak might finally courage it,1 +keep thinking dyingwhats happened want sleep never wake feel like absolute garbage weak minded always disappoint lost important time life levels mocks months hope get shit together,1 +always returns autumnevery year without fail thoughts come back fall theyre little whispers around september october hits feel like im inescapable emotional prison want smoke drink starve cut disappear favorite season always means return thoughts matter much prepare feelings thoughts still feels like new excruciating pain every year feel everything except connection empathy every fall feel depressed empty hopeless lost cant even connect around im numb want stop need end im begging want enjoy favorite season again cant stand cavernous feeling chest anymore heart somewhere there abyss,1 +organ donationif necessary paper shit front hospital would able harvest organs ateast could used someone way die,1 + sure exactly got honestly feel cursed god universe whatever forces work felt depressed years now that child felt different weird isolated alienated seeking real help someone university asked have ever considered killing yourself occurred normal major antidepressants hospitalized twice seen countless doctors therapists psychiatrists psychologists still place reached tms ketamine places gotten anywhere tinnitus taken number blows head throughout life never sure related depression supportive family even great wife feel terrible relying much financially emotionally able make progress main problem seems feel like part anything going on understand going on know supposed doing everything seems wrong see chaos confusion honestly trying best survive thrive keeps getting worse went college thought wanted filmmaker barely even enjoy films feels like every idea done knew could network assemble crew necessary things would do ever able make wedding videosand hire maybe person decided stop that got job editing short promos tv shows gave portfolio one seems care about worked local government creating media getting fired voicing concerns noise office sensitive one hiring me go back driving done ever since able work used think driving made feel free could alone music podcasts thoughts want alone thoughts think killing day two years transported dead bodies super depressing work fedex hot noisy extremely strenuous every time someone tries help job prospect leads nowhere point even want accept help rejected many places seems would qualified for look jobs time look really bad pay much process takes much time rejected end want quit job spotty gig work fall back on feel like failure cannot contribute financiallyi feel gratitude things have tried journaling meditation yoga exercise plenty things people suggest do mind stays locked past mistakes cringey moments beat shit day everyday cannot stop compare others get jealous get angry cannot normal successful feels like getting dumber forgetful harder hearing need faculties working well possible seems getting older life gets sad embarrassing barely want leave house sensitive horrible things see situations might end ini know anymore scared getting older could possibly get even worse need help cannot seem get it everything reach everything seems impossible tumbled long time see way back,1 +question finally reached state happy myself around years ago weighted much basically friends today got job programmer year ago i years old moment weight perfect important part many close friends im friends almost every weekend im happy year old boy ,0 +help acquaintance suicidal lives usa live overseas basic info herhere situation facebook social group quite members share common interest tonight one members posted startling message indicated might commit redflag tonight know well friends fb least see city lives in employer family unfortunately live overseas know best course action is sent fb note son grandson expressing concern m worried might seen tried calling employer hours large employer im know would able help called local crisisredflag hotline city spoke counselor understanding asked would worth calling local police seems without specific home address police cannot anything distressing else situation even proper course action would be miles away makes even difficult good handle situation based said take seriously anyone advice could point would greatly appreciate it,1 + song listen sure looking recommendations im bored filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +survived fentanyl months ago overdosed fentanyl thought basic oxycodone randomly time time maybe year offered friend got good deal idea time cartels pressing pills taking one went black matter minutes boyfriend realized something wrong breathing sounded rattling well mouth blue saved extremely peaceful completely unconscious woke felt like removed warm black womb paramedics around asking took mentioning narcan felt dreaming astonished painless was anyways saved two pills reason weeks ago pushed edge bullshit took fleck started hallucinating texted friend doors began chew pill like cookie call mystery suffered horrific hallucinations never want go again need live year old widow two kids need me think redflag legal mentally ill yes im deeply severely depressed diagnosed since age pediatrician two years molested ive suffered shit endure im still here hate even moment weakness hate even considering ending life without caring consequences leaving them fuck ive tried kill many times finally found key bliss could sing anthem mash emphatically through early morning fog see visions things pains withheld realize see redflag painless brings many changes take leave please game life hard play im gonna lose anyway losing card delay say redflag painless brings many changes take leave please sword time pierce skin hurt begins works way pain grows stronger watch burn redflag painless brings many changes take leave please brave man requested answer questions key replied oh ask redflag painless brings many changes take leave i redflag painless brings many changes take leave please redflag painless brings many changes thing please ive attempting redflag since age fucking sucked it things got serious years ago jumped overdoses hanging wrapped fabric around neck testing strength closet knew needed help finally saw psych diagnosed bipolar meds really help therapy really help pisses off ive depressed far long feel like ill never relieved im clamped here stapled obligation people wish things would better believe better spouse kids wont help nothing helps think people get laid cant incels make things better wont like drugs wont anything experience love finally seeing cold pallid corpse living breathing spouse hours ago front you seems almost better died redflag blame daily trust ive fucking lived fuck think easier ugly awkward pain inside less real fuck think means anything mentally ill mentally ill sucks matter fucking what goddamned competition lucky i guess survived resigned silent suffering point longer tell anyone true pain point smiles im going fake talk anonymously ill answer studies etc im done one friend calls plastic smile one careful around fuck it ill die someday redflag not im fucking feel you one you im sorry know suffer alone,1 +parents asked wanted birthdaythis something think chose date seriously though hell supposed ask for candy fancy urn put ashes in asked nothing said no inconspicuously ask something family could get use would,1 +death venice movie need see every ten years always different always different stage lifebr br the movie art beauty longing death scenes painfully slow others simply annoying watch especially seem before yet would want miss single frame music repetitive main theme adagietto mahlers fifth used again yet would want miss single note last image fades last note dies left numb exhaustedbr br this movie monument film making really good movies saturday evening crowd stay away it simply best movie ever,0 +feel alonemaybe head,1 +want anythingi feel like sleeping ask timei want live home want buy car live near anybody time would okay do,1 +reason livei anyone depends me important job do know unpopular but alive thats case seriously whats point suppose took realise matter really close killing myself suicidal thoughts head day night theres two people world stop it think grit teeth despair cos feel trapped theyre still around im sure it,1 +gentlemen lend ears girl peg exchange buying ps would it,0 +im going leave house family th junein early started getting frustrated mad friends started noticing flaws obviously didnt care friendship aspect wanted friends play video games things style never cared actual person friends with struggling emotionally back never asked support obvious wasnt going work eventually dont know started trolling anonymously online didnt recognize first eventually one asked me immediately felt guilty tried delete everything happened immediately snapped back reality realized much hurting them called sick school days left summer shut life idea happened might puberty aspergers ive recently considering hypomanic episode happened next years ive completely isolated havent meaningful social interaction anyone except family ive tried finding friends different schools along places never worked summer ended started second school basically isolated entire summer developed social anxiety got panic attack entering classroom forced work alone another room room got almost nothing done constantly watched youtube phone escapism stayed room breaks therefore didnt meet anyone school year switched another school people given support actual work went okay part almost everyone else school unbearable extremely socially awkward constantly made uncomfortable year half switched school again time constantly longed someone vent never happened majority awake time spent escapism early started fourth school normal state run people werent socially awkward also werent socially anxious anymore everything pointing towards things getting better never did work okay might able get good job im extremely lonely down later day birthday june decided write thoughts notes phone didnt anyone could vent to kept writing almost hours without realizing much time passing done felt happier ive felt years like drank energy drink typing realized one make difference life me everything happens world happens indirect consequence dont do want stop lonely im one fix nothing one else also realized everything okay long one gets hurt it made accept lot things ive ashamed of also found venus project gave goal life hard explain go wwwthevenusprojectcom want find out felt amazing week half felt numb usual point figured might form bipolar probably cyclothymia still contradictions ive still figured key solving every problem world happy im not might sign im faking give feeling control bipolar isnt fun would nice know caused life suck much since still believe figured hypomanic might faking whole thing know aparently common thing think paranoid bipolar subs im going let affect think ive decided im going leave whole family th june get monthly money ill able buy food im gone im sure im going kill im gone im going sleep dont want think now havent planned anything im going gone im turning brain basically cant stand lonely scared faking mental issues leaving house family could escape that longer worry think actions really worry anything kind like temporary redflag dont know right sub dont even know wrote this,1 +took pills im dyinghey ampxb problems long mental illness depersonalizationderealization greatly diminishes cognitive abilities traumatic experience young homosexual dad tried kill suspected might homosexual understand felt way do matter though solve anything isolated decade caused kinds mental problems anyway talked dad changing major collage years ago refused let leave engineering mental illness way going succeed comprehend anything failing changed major without telling him told alright collage beginning semester dad money problems losing mind it told graduating semester lie one semester go now semester thinks im going get degree days now nothing resolved sexuality nothing theres way out im fed everything took pills paracetamol once google search said would see symptoms hours less hours im already seeing symptoms now feel dizzy im vomiting im sorry im making much sense thats barely concentrate feel dizzy anyway hit might going hell im realizing sad shocked mother sisters brother going be let tell you terrifying im sure think do know want stay alive theres nothing want problems could handle think guys think im absolutely losing mind ampxb,1 +guys guys emotional breakdown sub called reatingowncum need know humor reasons people dont really right right right im really worried right actually something people do,0 +trying find reason stayso keep things simple ive suicidal adult life attempted roughly years ago failed swore would wait til im friends family speak of work essentially hours day days week mother found killed myself likely weeks incident shed likely inconvenienced upset thats person would really affect guess point im trying figure stay edit wow thanks downvotes rude messages really helps,1 +whats favourite song need new music kinda tired playlists rn ik might faq need recommendations lol,0 +bro assignments live class assignments meetings today one wednesday one monday sunday extra credit like assignments due yesterday live meetings stressful im glad today chill day also got sleep,0 +anyone wanna dm want someone talk toooooo gtlt,0 +fellow guitarist string ever popped playing mine,0 +makes sensei see could ever benefit society marketable skills pretty sure mental illnesses shy point fuck every social interaction have ive felt way long time seems like stupid fantasy ever wish anything better seem like could achieve anything want much fucking loser am since cant contribute society always fuck up makes sense kill myself,1 +after long ass time it cut myself hurt bad needed feel something want happy never works pain hurts bad never goes away matter do,1 +im kinda sad ive binging walking dead first time watching it finished last episode season shi getting juicy find gotta wait till end april earliest end summer latest come netflix release season already,0 +absolutely wonderful drama ros top notchi highly recommend movie performance opinion academy award material real sad fact universal seen movie ever available video format whether tape dvd ignoring good movie universal little regard library dvd sad get chance see somewhere not sure rarely even run cable see it go story think people would rather opinion film many reviewers spend hours writing story available anywherebr br a ,0 +try hardest feel better positive yet working talk lot people try encourage them listen problems fun yet things make feel guilty like im one fake lying them always feel like dont deserve have feel like hate afraid tell me dont want live like,0 +many things happy about need die urge eating stronger everi think became regular sub im sorry struggling wish could take pain away one go poor parents wished child much showered love affection gave much fucking sorry them last thing want cause pain cant anymore mommy cant love endless ive tried meds ive tried talking want hurt anymore guys wonderful honestly swear wish none go this heart breaks us,1 +madonna rocking boat years comes lot experience obviously lot knowledge never one think yesterday au contraire seemed know going popular tomorrow bravely takes new trends technologies incorporates acts world tours never average madonna performs gives everything bigger better theatrical meaningful takes inspirations east west makes unique everything given deeper meaning confessions tour different beginning find 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allowed go person unfortunately friday last day allowed make final decision wanting stay online person classes feel like im learning anything kinda stressing out person school even stressful would learn more question is stay online go person,0 +actively suicidal actually plan kill get really nervous end itwhy cant mind choose mind say want kill time comes dont want to,1 +tips keeping redflag mindhi cripplingly low self esteem cut still fairly often lately ive leaning towards redflag often im scared might try something know case nearly serious others here wanted know guys tips simply keeping redflag bay,1 +put knife kids throat day felt good filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +know hear joke gets less funny every time life feels appeal completely worn off every day gets stale tried different variations myself worse next best one getting old good begin withdoes anyone else feel way like life show gone many seasons feel like joke gone old,1 +sometimes feel like want die not really urgent please help nonethelessthis first actual post here ive recently discovered subreddit lurking bit commenting times anyways sometimes thought redflag crosses mind kinda want time really want to make sense like wanting die recognize blessings given instead wish parents never gave birth first place know sounds selfish since im middle class poor rich parents love me decent amount friends go several physical deformities make feel insecure even putting aside im insecure begin with social anxiety due bullying ive made friends sometimes grow distant feel like theyre talking pity im hassle burden life whenever try talk them like im waste time know sounds somewhat selfish way knowing tons people way worse do believe genuinely something wrong need advice cope this sometimes isolate completely friends thinking probably hate me need advice,1 +past week phone bill payment process called bank automated recording asked confirm recent transactions attempting pay phone bill confirmed them went through cant catch break though got fixed,1 +lmfao probably wouldnt get along childhood bestfriend saw like years parents met long time see acts weird like dude smirking like stoppp making eye contact meee makes feel awkward anyways talked hes super different used tad bit assholey thought get along got others contact info asked looks dresses talks acts like one eboy jocks tiktok im like nerdy asian guy glasses would probably bully school lmfoaosoa,0 +meteor crashes crater lake heat impact causing prehistoric egg hatchbr br alright plot trash despite obvious low budget comes across one gripping entertaining monsterontheloose films existence also good moments humor age filled socalled monsters laughable meninrubbersuit creations lizards dressed frills forced rip pieces cheap exploitationstyle refreshing discover plesiosaur little gem excellent harryhausenstyle stopmotion creaturebr br quite hard film find worth finding,0 +ate vegetables kid try heckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheckheck,0 +everybody seems want something cant anything wellbeinganybody else feeling like that,1 +hopefully score changed due brilliant stunning review persuades go watch film thereby creating instant chorus s movies true scorebr br as mentioned chris rock king previous going see movie top im banging doors chris rocks website begging take protege film truly funny find movie funny really need therapy humour targets areas society including racepredictably class division love wealth employment dreams stand comedy list goes onbr br there one slight disappointment however going film realise actually remake heaven wait another quite good movie made warren beatty quite surprised watched movie suddenly plot began unravel distinctly similar older movie watched tv weeks ago regardless movie opinion better version two simply different areas covers fact chris rock funnier warren beatty second day week year anyyou get picturebr br well actual plot filmbr br dont spoil experience yourself read plot go watch movie two reviews imdb far raved mad it go see funniest thing would seen long time go see cinema experience leave grumbling ad nauseum cost cinema tickets go see good movie,0 +jojo dnd im making jojo themed dnd would anyone like join dm,0 +low point familyagain rd time life made redundant many options fear little chance getting another job life insurance would support young family runs next months maybe best option family take option financial protection cant provide know young daughters willwould disagree alternative losing house going welfare pretty frightening,1 +guys help crush found like said hell thonk im scared go school tomorrowaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 +need help friendhello everyone friend gay really going tough time also gay unfortunately one people close talk sexuality understand him constantly deal homophobic family relationship parents rough mother father seem at least hes told me edge divorce another big issue depressed seems certain days really upset say least messages like thesehttpimgurcomkqihoai talks self harm become frequent seems getting worse time tend skype lot tell voice hes troubles never depression cant really relate anything going through makes particularly hard me seems tends come needs talk someone time know respond with kills inside coming help someone trusts im sure appears want talk it wondering anyone advice him hate see like this advice would greatly appreciated ,1 +im feelin bit atm get good vibes guys,0 +aaaaand im backit good one week run suicidal help st johns wort supplements quitting coffee anxiety dropped quite bit suicidal thoughts gone week im back utterly miserable im constantly fight flight anymore deeper issues start emerge long lost feelings come surface ive pushed decades want feel way much want stop enough looked old classmates profiles advanced life many found love im stuck traumatic dream land achieved nothing age im defective useless want die please love god put misery,1 +ive told kill myself so im attacked online cause something did group haters photography community trying meet best friend want meet lied best friend said guy named jim wanting meet got one mutual friends fired arrested best friend believed deleted everyone else community facebook going stop uploading pics videos youtube saying want associate others community felt guilty depressed cause called today crying decided reach online help people bashed called terrible person inconsiderate selfish liar people even told kill myself ,1 +basically asexual choicemy penis sex drive killed ssris benzos feel nothing sexually anymore miss anything years going without now makes want rope girl wants guy like me fuuuuuuuuuuuuuckmykife,1 +worst weeki always liked batman comics joker states people one bad day lives ruined something like that finally get it one night fling coworker office party last week mistake work closely together small office things pretty good us last week asked wanted hang weekend wanted get dinner together too today really unloaded made feel terrible initiated encounter party yet blames me think may upset never hung after fear going lose job now top cars check engine light came on apartment randomly sprung dollar bill me happened span day scared within next days ill jobless without working car money thought redflag long time days like today well may make leap feel taken advantage unlucky do,1 +need ask favour someone come hold eyelids open hour thanks x,0 +im sitting outside alone bottle pills im scared im thinking right nowthis closest ive ever right im calm out almost feels like right move make anyway im sitting concrete outside dorm bottle ibuprofen trazodone ive already taken mg latter plan taking super dose mgkg ibuprofen enough get hospital knows whatll happen then maybe people seeing sick want care though ive alone long know am phone mom earlier far knows im fine please help know want it,1 +need get chesti cant stop thinking selling everything own disappearing far away country commit redflag manner body would unidentifiable years old fighting war whole life since may unable fight anymore feel like im waiting miracle death recently put ssris feel like anything cant tell depersonalization talking sometimes late night really good convincing whatever comes death cant worse im living right now wanted say loud thank reading,1 +f hmu im low key bored midnight im bored hmu lmaoo,0 +always end suicidal thoughts even though theyre rationalive suicidal thoughts since remember time things go wrong end going thinking giving up im trans transition going wrong im young bad health studying career like sure help find job future ive going therapy since four years old never talk openly family friends always told suicidal thoughts laziness want work solve problems best thing repress harm people loves me ive spent night crying parents also cry cry cry more im tired think ugly stuff want think kissing boyfriend new cute socks know strength see problems realize life shaped like dead end plan get weapon shooting shot myself thing never unable get weapon fucking hate world munch,1 +im alienatedthe worst part nearly one understands im sure people comment post saying do truth im fucking alone alienated rest world understand im fucking lonely miserable time life direction try talk someone awkward worse cant function everyday social situations save life everyone job thinks im stupid literally heard one complaining boss useless am cant fucking anymore know cringey fuck literally feel like theres place society many people fucking lucky ungrateful things have wish nukes would fly already none shit worth saving,1 +take lot benzos overdose point dyingserious question bc ill,1 +know anymoreive always issues wanting kill ive tried many many times ive gotten point right im happy know change it cant make care pretend to know why lying time crushing know another way stop it cant sleep want cry always wants sex bugs let happen want keep it everything else want something say ill anyway want to everyone believes im happy girl much going her im happy happy years months ago ex broke tore apart forgotten care hurts makes want end everything much take long keep pretending care im left alone one people think im crazy send back hospital,1 +want deadim stuck im really good expressing emotions ive always told show negative emotions parents ive behavioral problems stemming mostly bullying throughout elementary school ive suicidal feelings since grade found easy talk people reason people kept putting harshly tried telling parents problems tell cry get upset got psychiatric help started acting severly public ive made attempts redflag younger mostly trying strangle blankets entered highschool ive learnt supress emotions leads pouring bottled emotion situation came feel way always felt fake always feel like emotions foul mimicries real emotion always feel distant people interact them painful especially bad parents make activites want social activity dad always insists coaching hes tougher kids make think hes giving special treatment immediate family loves tease tell embarrassing stories even im obviously unhappy tell themit makes uncomfortable single pick me recently feelings started getting worse longer supress im alone comes feel awful told parents ive started feeling depressed wanted see psychiatrist dad bringing along public dealing puberty things relate kids feeling sad started telling people outright ive horrible feelings making programs really help started insisting letting work eventually lied told worked talked mom said im mostly exaggerating cause reason sad brought relationship parents school life told face bad others problems reinforced another problem im having see people worse lives feel like im faking attention feel horrible parents never seemed satisfied anything do always encourage better without giving much praise difficult things ive accomplished gave trying since ill never satisfy anyones expectations parents really nice stuff sometimes got gaming setup recently pay lot stuff want feel horrible talk problems like hover me giving much privacy getting upset find things say theyve always said things like ive never loved cant tell love not parents bad experiences ive adults either elementary used punish getting bullied easier even suspended times reason sent summer camps one made calender system rate behaviour grandma recently died point funeral weekend want anything told make excuses gave bad day banned camp trip jungle gym place two teenage girls pushed one elastic spider web tower things hurt got upset told wrong telling cause theyre girls feel like im everything wrong longer live upset hurt people want end badly cant even tell people lying feel guilty dying theyre genuinely concerned wrong cant make anyone happy want kill badly never it im breaking im even sure posting okay selfish,1 +finished first month second year im biggest fan school nice see friends and teachers extension ig idk nice get back sense normality,0 +something wrong me whenever end anime series fell depressed plz someone help ,0 +get date dm date,0 +miss much always you listened helped cared others good humour general awesome talk to still cant believe gone two months im kinda giving hope ill ever see again,0 +long take pass selfhangingive already got rope ive research sources say take seconds others seconds also want die asphyxiation suffer pain put others im drop hanging knowledge long take lose consciousness hanging redflag,1 +ur friend discord asks really emotional question changes name pfp tons times know theyre going tough shit give hug,0 +point living life full time worki turned workforce years now fucking hate it understatement modern day work terribly unfufilling days literally force go even outside daily battle use another sick day something useful time growing people told achieve anything would like adulthood would like travel world sight see would need work away majority life get old enjoy it truly firmly believe life working life away good years old enjoy want enjoy it work full time hours week minimalist expenses still scrapping by worth it wish end could lucky enough gain inheritance actor generally trust fund kid could actually enjoyed life february nd day happily meet end things change within time today nd,1 +anyone else hike get thirsty like way it huge water bottle drink drink finish whole thing thirsty later get even thirsty people still water left end drinking whole hike chug end,0 +a pm would nice maybe friends sub need more,1 +politely deal guy thats probably using me reputation nice kid everyone would ask favors grew nice deeds payed off theres one guy still same found brother got vr set would come class every morning weeks asking trying come over never succeeded time remember would talk hang like regular friends thought changed one outing another friend kept begging us buy gaming gear money food told off wanted use free tickets free privileges famous tourist attraction impress girl gave fair amount would always barter now quarantine talked times ask steam account play fucking rust play though also tournament got cash never hear him still alot fun moments hang doesnt ask money im sick it,0 +im gonna jump building turn im currently honestly cant see living past all kill then ill die something painful like heart attack something,1 +need world peace hard get individual countries would forget selfinterest would able get along other frustrating many man made issues world political oppression economic disparity discrimination we teenagers world resolve work towards cooperative human future,0 +need help cheering gi fr uhh girlf limbo friend hmm well get sorry reposting added tldr basically stalking know recent posts kind weird relationship girl like lot romantically physically talk like were dating technically were friends basically lately pretty sad anxious unknown reason says overthinking things lot overall pretty nervous plus pandemic school making worse her feeling probably kinda scared relationship me even talk online even im okay that would like anxious it could thinking may interested acts way another im sure thats correct thought thats case trying explain like much would pretty hard even slightly think wanting her thats case could guys help understand better whats happening maybe find way help her really want happy tldr gffriend sad anxious probably relationship want help her also idk thats exactly,0 +anyone taken htp hypericum perforatumi dont insurrance anymore prescription ssris trying apply free program would take weeks id set doctors appointment to attempt work want take something now anyone tried drugs hear work depression,1 +crush dedicated song me so problem she problem song song bts i problems bts name song friends so mean feel pretty happy also feel sad well sad feel friendzoned,0 +stop hating keep hurting myselfive hating self years getting worse worse im biggest loser possible regret nearly everything do ive moved house eight times life never keep friend social skills terrible matter hard try improve them eye contact poor intense understand body language little confidence stutter sometimes merge words together avoid even looking girls let alone talking every time makes feel like shit ive tried antidepressants make feel absolutely nothing horrible ive tried various self harm stole boots pharmacy work experience overdosed alone worst night life ive trying completely alone past month stop stupid things regret trying positive ive recently completely lost enthusiasm told anyone this feel keep going route start taking something end killing myself sorry heavy feel like could someone talk you,1 +depression something talk much wanted say men saying females go depression actually makes depressed kind downgraded situation females in saying men times harder comes expressing feelings girl never got express feeling scared depression,1 +ready next realityi enough life wonderful thing heart fractured health gone time return stars came lost everything partner fifteen years left me everyone shunned afraid poor mental health trapped living memories unresolved child abuse living abusor must pretend never happened health poor escape small part still alive pain every day never belonged time go,1 +feel lonely dont know else say dont many people talk nobody important dont know every night feeling lonelyness imagining everyone would forget would disappear dont feel important loved im feeling pretty sad,0 + years old already failed life body dysmorphia cant fit inim year old girl get shit grades im lazy shit ive sexually emotionally physically verbally abused half mom moved mentally fucks across country seen since im tired bottling things up im lot problems accepting body i eating disorder last year sexuality dont know im bi lesbian really like male friend gpa quit cross country feel lost sick around people always act normal though all feel like shit real problems love life im exhausted cant handle going really dizzy euphoria makes hard concentrate loving everyone around month depressed months like since th grade mean im still earth introverted know whats wrong me also feel like stupid shitty holden caulfield im surrounded sheltered people grew fast,1 +hoping better daysi think ending life everyday thing holding back pain family would go through way makes even frustrated knowing option ive depressed past months soul shattering nothing makes sense right now think happy want feel something hurting constant pain chest makes hard even harder eat use love cooking havent made meal months body mind feel weak,1 +tired go sleep will good night sweet dreams others using phones bed,0 +boys even realize boys like,0 +hello bored im dad fellow teenagers from im scotland,0 +know someday happentoday christmas wonderful day friends family looked mirror broke tears know someday matter fate hate am personality annoying hardly friends body chubby good way family fuckin help plewse me family fucking abusive dad raped years mom beat and sane cptsd hate alive lesbian lonely,1 +possible spoilers included nothing critical given awaybr br i watched classic low budget movie video knocked level energy present screen actors proud especially john daniels must see another films movie boast great performances manages stylish sequences like baron throws someone window see shards glass falling swimming pool erupts impact fallen man love way slowmotion photography used s cinema dreamy hypnotic cool witty black dudes spout great one liners slimy seedy lumps white trash come unpleasant ends love it rating ever comes dvd count purchase,0 +long oneim early s student loan tax debt mention owe mom horribly failed apprenticeship parent plus student loans previous education cant afford pay wants move florida retire shes disappointed person ive become im living paycheck paycheck right name might homeless months cant stand sober im eating potato chips dinner tonight make till next paycheck family pretty much written friend verbally abusive put literally one else ive mentioned couple times im feeling suicidal doesnt seem care every relationship ive failed miserably hands debilitating anxiety panic attacks ive unsuccessfully trying treat years im sure milder form autism adhd nobody addressed childhood health insurance get sort diagnosistreatment clean underwear im even able afford god damn laundry stink high heaven dont energy motivation shower whats point anyway fault rough dying seems much easier living im ready leave incapable choosing way go every decision ive ever made adult life bad one god forbid try fail cant fail need one smart decision ever make die fucked that anything hope post makes least feel better situations would make happy dont think ill much longer tried best never good enough bless heart youve read whole thing,1 +friend decided todaya fiend found girlfriend today history substance abuse prone depression remember great sense humor bright smile still cant believe it,1 +im tired want restive depressed since age ten started parents divorce watched father leave went onto middle school bullied three years day day escape sight friends make feel accepted constant abuse suicidal thoughts would start mother moved three brothers back orlando abusive step father wrecking ball family causing pain domestic abuse ive write two police reports actions eventually completely pushed lives went on oldest three brothers single mother household responsibility meant always locked home never close friends know like form close relationship anybody ive always friends throughout high school fact id say always well known liked craved childhood best friend person go with talk anything generally time life with wed eventually move texas man mother seven years steve current step father whilst ive constantly barraged them theyve become bullies im dissapointment son bitch motherfucker bitch dumbass retard devil im atheist mother blames bad things happens single phrase said ounce sarcasm would hear casual friends mean every single time would beat myself literally punching head things went fuzzy got multiple relationships texas try supplement desire loved getting home one happened guy consider bi experience one would scar home life mother saw another reason dissapointment coming senior year heavily restricted when could go friends chose stayed locked home like always been mother would continue treat like shit whilst also coming emotional support stepfather fought eventually met girl made feel wanted finally felt happy even things always great feeling longed for felt loved parents extremely restrictions would damage relationship mother takes large portion pay checks expenditures theyd ground going home simply mistakes forgot lock front door become dictator life source depression girl loved perfect life clinical depression would leave blamed making depression worse depression eating away apparently making worse point hope things would get better ive lived eight years waiting things get better theyve gotten worse suicidal thoughts become much intense fantasize putting gun head driving car id get graduation tree jumping bleachers christian school behind house wake feeling empty go day sad breakdown night repeat urge beat back cut first time two weeks ago since closest thing ever best friend mind went back her trying get help get anybody else would turn away telling find someone else told sorry life basically shit care confessed wanted life end never responded completely abandoning begged help im bad child ive never done drugs never drinked never smoked hang everyone narcissistic football players humble scholars vice versa ive got college payments unt paid without dime pocket goal become police officer grow up nobody knows suffering feel ex girl loved one left shitty life ideal boyfriend mind ive beaten bruised abandoned want die ive carrying weight shoulder eight years im tired cant hold anymore want kill myself willpower to continue grudgingly going life wish someone would kill spare pain cant myself ive moved around thirteen times life know like someone close me sort childhood best friend ill never know thats like lost one person thought with know reason im depressed im longing desire wanted accepted loved moment life gone person willing help continue on im losing hope things get better im waiting life end,1 +reddit helpive tried past weeks include coworkers achievements wall street fucks see httpswwwredditcomraddictioncommentsqcsmyself check history today banned restricted etc else point,1 +cant go anymoreall night drink look ways kill quickly painlessly hate life hate even more one knows feel way make sure always look happy repeats head words kill yourself just end all psychologically im fucked well one knows too want help want life end,1 +prepare roll eyesim dismissed university pittsburgh let go student job thousands dollars student debt behind months worth rent see plain day life over ive worse im tired ive failed many times getting difficult summon strength thankfully time spend failing doors close stars ive shooting come closer ground every time miss attended swanson school engineering whim found depressing city broken people relationships uninspired jobs deadend cant help realize im constant factor superficial interests spend days watching youtube videos ad nauseam think site preys bored depressed alike spend days entertaining myself think maybe secret passion entertaining others im definitely critical maybe writer director even youtuber irresponsibly bought condensor microphone wrote script wanted make someone laugh week struggling release first minute video ive realized anything im going want require hard work feel like me years misery beaten joy life kicked month spicebath salts addiction years ago find im still weak piece garbage waiting next source entertainment id say passions life really passion life feel like trying continue making videos really anything creative help cant express enough feels like im moving quicksand like theres small voice within begging keep going muster expressionless labored movements trouble would cause loved ones would jumped next life seconds hope writing embarrassing whiny drivel ive least shown im authentically unhappy importantly hope forgive taking time thank reading id appreciate feedback really,1 +bi bottoms powerful entities universe light skin n word pass extra attack damage,0 + yo male throughout life feel like peaked really early on either selfinduced calamity circumstance combo came crashing down even though lived long time already experienced long term relationship sex life abroad college recognition realize lucky actually tick moments relationship ended became selfgrandiose deemed settling someone me whatever hell meant time life abroad ended forgot nonchalant file paperwork crucial legal standing realized ba ms degrees even though acquired top universities mean shit apparently thousands software programs mastering instead wasting time passing introduction beer ge course college remember used extremely motivated driven three four years ago always deemed best quality could find motivation within ever since times kept falling away subjective optimal human life be find hard motivated everyday tasks grown dislike people think finally realized superficiality modern society least segment know everything seems extremely pointless job since grad school relationship said breakup might grown lazy might severely depressed lucky leech am expenses are time think paid for make stupid mistakes like getting married adopting baby starting business way add anyone anything payroll could retire small bungalow country meagerly live rest life without working engaging society might grow alcoholic severed lung bet going make posing question here writing seriously thinking past couple months want know opinion it think way vertically thinking change position horizontally ultimately falling radar idk make sense folks tired bored hopeless life thinking retirement,1 +need love advice followed guy like instagram one classes follow back think dm bcus like unsure should dit sry yall dont think im gonna probably wait next school yr see person ever happens,0 +im going redflag next weekend change mindtitle read posts want know whats up,1 +im tiredim tired everything mentally physically every way possible feel like im digging hole taking friends care im sorry cant stop hate hate cant stop depressed suicidal one minute seems like belt burdens drag hard feel like pushing away maybe thats pushing away idk anymore want feel happy long ago feels gone everything else feel things going bad back im hating want cry cant sit stupid songs repeat suck cos cant die people need right want talk things idk express longer blank piece crap maybe demons kill instead wanting kill others want stop much,1 +hey folks made discord server talking people around world around people server already dm wanna join,0 +missed event looking forward years contemplating redflagso event happening today nyc ive wanted go years happens every year ive living abroad go really excited go year somehow got weekends mixed found today missed it ive contemplating killing past two hours finding out one reasons moved nyc wanted go event moved feel like failure missing im really ashamed admit friend missed even thought reminded go three weeks ago ive trying find therapist nyc anyone recommendations go please tell me live brooklyn cant contact pcp one also know need therapist every time feel fine convince im overreacting waste therapists time therapy three years ago felt like wasting time,1 +whats race yes nascar race seven quintillion seven hundred seventyseven quadrillion seven hundred seventyseven trillion seven hundred seventyseven billion seven hundred seventyseven million seven hundred seventyseven thousand seven hundred seventyseven,0 +best username comment gets award best username whether funny story behind it best one gets award,0 +ever babysat house know saw original enjoyed good choice ignoring reviews posted here went ahead rented movie memories original scared teen movie of coursechanged original story relate todays teens babysitter trouble going cell phone minutes take babysitting job pay bill however sticks original story line pretty well relate babysitter knowing house usual pops cracks quite suspenseful killer shown creepy find yelling girl get house never babysat situation like probably able relate like it understanding fear,0 +feel like cant breathe moreive hard life controlled repressed lifetil reached early teens im live mom really christian controlling im wild child wants self broke ankle backand im struggling build strengthand required range motion walk again never go out im introvertlonging be im home schooled week schoolthen work home again im lucky get see brother sister thats friends days want end alli want live want toi need toi know to,1 +obviously one give shitif even get actual helpful comments here get anywhere else either one miss me one care people notice goodbye horrible place time im coming back,1 +think roblox think roblox,0 +it is life life working diei going unlock fantasy superpowers protagonist story going fight demons fly visit unknown worldsit just years working working working then die forgotten it lived nothingi want live sort world want matterbut cannot talents unusual power significant family members ancestors just another body another body system number it ami want live world want kill reborn different world want believe that world just that system workersjust hive beeswe matterwe matter cannot believe,1 +see year bitches fill next year im going leave reddit now,0 +fuck astrology sign tell favorite weeknd album real tell me im curious mines beauty behind madness think theyre amazing,0 +like bread ottom text,0 +recognises me aka legend idk curious ujcttt fucking legend,0 +roast battle post pictures giant roast battle rn balls,0 +known cure heterosexuality would donate help poor souls but gay poor well,0 +maybe soon maybe next week end it im stucknow months almost everyday kind thoughts end all one wants me soon worthless masters degree real friends family job probably never have real working skills years self learning studying software engineering recently got interested hacking one wants hire me even making coffee well could economy stuff every week made pact self win lottery kill self never done it graduation closer closer options getting fewer seems anything offer anyone job people true know shit im social able anything weeks get depressed something always im visiting student health center sent away always saying time room public health center says go student center you responsibility thanks lot fuck them feel really leave city even country find something worth living would again job money place go im really stuck here whats point keep living one cares wants care make much sense since im hysterical crying slept much recently,1 +need me probably trying create happy chemicals think body lost ability produce dopamine,1 +life overi cant even describe happened hurts much bottom line future maybe did anymore really dont want die world beautiful cant live like this wish someone loved mefor am nobody does never wanted be taken away long even knew was never choices need anyone give im exhausted cant stop crying quote dont know live world choices everything gets stripped away cant even watch news wthout wanting die idek bothering post this guess dont anyone left hear me trust hear this probably wont hear again thank listening thank you,1 +dont give upwhoever reading this know youre going tough patch life know feels like getting worse time goes by please remain here think family would react think dogcat suddenly abandoned them think friends wont able share drink hangout them please seek help please talk someone care love you,1 +teacher let bit much talking incest basically english reading poem reference ancient pharoahs egypt lead onto topic lot incest among royal families evolved onto royal families effects incest eventually topic went onto teacher talking reached distant family said researching family tree ended getting touch one distant relatives ended meal together went talk one rd cousins half chinese half australian described young women rephrased young beautiful women idk relavent upper end s may seem bad honest probably isnt time whole class went bit uncomfortable worst possible time say that literally talking incest brings up bit weird,0 +single bad unpopular opinion rlly dont see ppl obsessed abt getting relationship big part love chemicals like even real get horniness could play part personally dont find bad idk maybe im quirky weird oh special,0 +never accepted familyhello random persons decided read this im fucking done im done life everything else thats happening ive officially given up never loved accepted family longer around dont want around me cause im gay ive tried always best fit come out cause knew would happen shit gone fucking drain someone family outed me along time ago affected negatively beyond comprehension trust issues cause it changed drastically person one action im longer happy longer enjoy things used to feel shitty cant anything wanna something family extremely homophobic longer around small children family cause think ill give homosexual disease cant literally wear rainbows anything pastel colored manner thats gay propaganda dislike much cause im gay hurts really does im finally done im gonna relieve burden shoulders mine like gonna miss anyway im gonna finally free finally feel happy time im gonna go find gun shot myself quick painless im gonna buy ammo gun tomorrow made here thanks reading appreciate it love every one you yall better family have thanks supporting goodbye,1 +confess something grade exam super important brought exam home typed questions online found answers put piece paper went back school saying left field trip paper desk excuse put exam back desk without anybody noticing me years later brother grade asked whats story andre told looked showed answers took note im bad man,0 +girls cute sized hoodies cant change mind girl sized hoodie automatically cute,0 +know anymoreim year old male depression mom gone insane kicking year wanna end all mom talk want something go work friend said started yelling because woke morning weve talked days last night texted saying new rules u get silence remainder year come tell heck ur mean everyone house u steal me u sunday morning texted saying actually forgot sunday four years mind ur willing change ur mind set today april th completely done trying parent you u seem things figured out good luck life u may stay ur teen ur responsibility mine cause truth tried fighting never changing u time life need sister sister sure hope turn like urself u wish remain year following ur th birthday it providing month ur special diet longer need want ur help tried keep fighting you health vital twinsgood luck im shaking im contemplating redflag,1 +mods ban bdsm test results posts common knowledge point sub inhabited pedos yes may few posts surely arent helping again sub minors means users way age consent even younger and yes know age consent different different countries rn mostlyuniversal acceptable age going back minors point even though encouraged sub allowing minors talk stuff like bdsm like episode gumball talk bondage something like that short stuff adults only,0 +im im going killmyself tonightim sick life im ending tonight whats best way killmyself,1 +even trained help us explains lothttpswwwusatodaycomindepthnewsnationredflagpreventiontherapistsrarelytrainedtreatsuicidalpeople,1 +pink sparkling heart ,0 +someone send comforting message friend whos considering redflag cheesymacaronihey guys wasnt really sure post this im placing bet here friend whose considering taking life know personally reddit name cheesymacaroni go school close friends want nice redditors pm messages make feel happier help make decision carry living redflag far last thing would ever wanted do talked person today told feeling reddit social media platforms screwing life also problems happening real life one injured leg rugby game wouldnt let go sportsrelated school trips we week long rugby tour south africa im aware heartbroken annoyed realised long leg would take heal couldnt even join us trip quite fun personally missed lot hes one close friends many people school like much hes goodhearted guy deep down know hes sick relatives while well personal issues one highly aware influencing extreme things empathise well fully understand feels way take minutes time send nice messages try persuade keep enjoying life would like decide kill im everything power help prevent it reposted title wasnt clear,1 +feel peace satisfaction imagine noose around neck stabbed stomach the two parts anxiety paralyses mostand like think im crazy feel like death already shown upon meonly way die hands thanks space attention im looking helpi really want itbut feels good express,1 +couple years ago major mental health crisis reached absolute breaking point plan ctb way commit act may way thought grief shame would unfair family reached help instead faced hospitalization demoted job countless conversations reliving experience countless medications nothing ect treatments ketamine treatments talk therapy nothing helps feel worst since crisis still suicidal plans however million questions game teaches share lot plans details share family thus making suffer really tried sake family exhausted even smallest amount redflag triggers me thinking would best execute plan feel like options left pointing direction hopeless lost,1 +okay ill actually go sleep gn everyone earbuds died lmao,0 +almost giving i know die mom grandma sad dont think alternative dont future hope iam big loser genetic mess burden think redflag way ,1 +really wanna relaxmolested age persuaded sending nudes pedophile age got overweight shortly after lost weight means help depression slow suicidal thoughts worked bit im back here im depressed absolutely friends one talk problems left islam without telling family did wouldve disowned live life pretending someone im helping mental health family friends love you please cherish stay around them im male btw,1 +ive tried given many times alreadyim still living home failed high school tried college three times quit time debt ive always weird awkward used bother me im left zero social skills wish could simply talk others like normal person talk someone one one theres another person shut off like cant think response anything even though ive followed conversation fine always feels like people give weird looks want prove idiot am try share interests people act condescending laugh me try showing interest them becomes obvious cant relate all town small mostly people know other theres really anything around here ive learned keep busy music art programming games without anyone share with feels pointless getting harder motivated care anything right now job ive tried find work past gotten two interviews ever one a gas station hired first day manager made bs paperwork fired me found later im white a friend heard talking another manager it worked family before home improvement type stuff ive talked family friends things make feel responses vary from me too see psychiatrist general self help exercise get there stuff little irritating told things im already aware of like know sleepingeating well good you get lot people worse me realizing makes feel guilty im lousy piece shit want kill myself ive plans before saving money improving hygiene this always break give point thinking trying change going failure makes never want anything theres stuff could add gotten long tldr im failure motivation killing seems like option whove felt complete lack giveashit motivates improve yourself,1 +title sometimes wonder ever live normal again feel like see world different way years theres snippets time pass feel like truly enjoy feel like belong friends family think know me dont want scare burden thoughts achieved experienced desired things find back position dont cry anymore cry family friends might never get chance know real me suffer hope constantly draining impact keeps going believe amazing things live life alone im closest myself closest biggest enemy april ,1 +know anymorehi using throwaway boyfriend knows main account want seeing this ampxb tried kill myself take medicine go therapy fun stuff im numerous medications went several therapists better try hard feelings never go away honestly know do,1 +lied myselftwo weeks ago ready give myself im sure decided talk friend see doing asked was told situation suggested see therapist least tell family first week class started feel wear throughout day decided tell brother did promised would call psychiatric department hospital see could get appointment available school hours decided it lady talked real nice told call morning want appointment see free day never called back guess since always kinda like always something ive getting worse barely sleep every day seems less less good idea call happens take medication different be different feel every day mind right now hard remember stuff know like would want do barely drive finish high school im sure part would better suited cant tell like one person mind trying cling onto anything make smile,1 +im trying kill dehydrationwell decided drink anything anymore drank last time yesterday evening now afternoon plus im weak drank afternoon glass ml cola thats all strange cola regret felt mistake im piece shit drank started feeling food again i felt lot food past yea know probably kill ill faint hospital save actually good method noone would think tried kill anytime one time kidneysother organs give therell time noone call emergency sooner later itll kill me pretty neat already started slowly loosing sense reality i cant focus im dizzy etc thats exactly want im ,1 +wellim movie critic something like thatbut opinion moviei think best movie amanda bynesshe played roll look welli watched many moviesthis liked mostwhen watching movieyou relaxcome downand watch ityou try look subtext something like thatyou watch it movie really great maybe liked actressmaybe scenerybut liked itthe whole atmosphere createdin one moment felt like universityin roomit another drama movie made win oscarit nice movie watch free time,0 +really like movie australia chinese movies like never get shown prime time must say one best serious movies ever outlines difference hong kong people mainland chinese really shows theres discomfort two get better hk learning mandarin also showed mainland china indie rock scene exists chinese people know strum guitar get house funking whoever said china ready rock music daniel wu absolutely superb clean crisp voice honest acting total chick magnet recommend movie know much asian people cleanse typical western stereotypes people love chineseasian cinema like myself check out,0 +dae wish could actually get encouragement commit redflag instead bullshit mental health advicebecause honestly im fucking sick able talk freely methods ways acceptance sometimes truly solution know cases is recently rewatched short documentary young woman belgium applied assisted redflag due mental illness probably lot heard seen it youtube search ready die felt jealousy live belgium diy painful way amount positivity change mind kill myself im still scared though really want someone encourage it understand bad die special little snowflakes worthy life life live want it idk might get trouble posting whatever,1 +noi fucking school talked counselor anxiety studied ass week exams started get studying fucking average said good student fuck you talk counselor posted rdepression cant this go days without eating cuz never feel hungry anymore wake thinking killing ending bullshit know what no im going fucking chop fat hoarding head throw fucking dean bitch study teachers act like care issues no fail even though bust balls studying well know what ill give taste motherfuckers still exams tomorrow lost motivation well able still hope id get decent grades kept studying know anymore fuck planet want fall asleep never wake up,1 +yall talking bout asking crush shit completed first bank heist may may payday,0 +long hold hopei plan killing set expiration date self time getting close told wouldnt one thing life worth living for finally something looked got girl made feel like could better fate decided piss me broke needed time think wanted thinks got relationship fast l last break up cant blame hurts night said loved wished good night next morning broke me tore apart inside good thing it worst part blame always blamed self everything sit hope takes back nothing left live for need know long wait long suffer pain hope,1 +may sound stupid really need encouraging wordsi bunch economic problems going right now aside several mental illnesses top that recently seem developed sort lymphoma probably stage ii iii funds treat it bad press onto carotid arterieslarynx constantly way painful help suicidal already moment thinking jumping balcony tonight that bad turned fuck diploma nobody wants hire would give chances solve issues no ask traumatized parents ask get sick even painkillers help pain getting lightheaded constantly pain like pinched constantly cant this,1 +please blame anyone else fact unbelievably lucky make far parents always caring brother sister always wanted best me malfunctioning brain makes unhappy time even happy means something terribly irresponsible stupid hurt close me best thing everyone involved bow now say selfish move couple weeks would rather condemn lifetime misery id like send big fuck guys in case interested still love tessa high school girl called bara met drumming circle summer anonymousps daughters abbey amp zoey never you love much want feel like would fault course not people tend blame themselves guess sticking around love abs lt amp zo lt decided not end life today,1 +choking game vs redflagive read stories lately people mostly teenagers accidentally killed trying get high apparently euphoric state reached right pass hangimg yourself tragic course made wonder bad hanging actually is ive read bunch horror stories terrifying is people accidentally attempt get high seems like couldnt actually bad ive gotten closer recent days actually gotten point reaching euphoric state im curious anyone else has,1 +im giving one yeari think takes get fucking room spend much time panicked state miss kid happy now genius shit together careers need gf yeah admittedly care much people think also know things would nice im privileged pussy,1 +titlelessi staying hotel family want jump window stories would job dont know stayed home instead coming dont belong here least home would quiet way unlike here ive applied gun back home waiting confirmed fucked agreed come went gut stayed,1 +im planning living past like nope sorry ill kill get old growing old biggest fear,0 +want able talk people suicidal thoughts opening would extremely helpful terrified taken away locked mental institution immediately suicidal think lot way mental health collapses want open suicidal thoughts terrified involuntary commitment,1 +turn today enough bottle ibuprofen tablets anxious take scared kill me sick that afraid living dying scouring internet days looking success stories many would like be never thought would me hate become todays birthday want die,1 +thx guys ampxb httpspreviewredditshjklvtpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdcfaafeefabebccdddffa,0 +cheated married pregnant baby gone knows feels hurt lied said never anyone shes type person wears heart sleeve completely trust husband harder thought hard see messaging everyday day soon wakes stays talking phone too hard still want see other,0 +embarrassingi feeling good yesterday even made post everyone nice gone cant wait summers go dont really friends anything dont really know enjoy summer bc cant go anywhere anything cant drive im broke think summer might even worse last summer always look forward summer ends worst period life realize little people want things current friends nice really two theyre nice really feels like dont want anything w feel bad something yeah sorry let guys shouldnt much faith im sorry dont know post stuff anyways guess like anonymous one school sees knows dont know im sorry embarrassing want sleep parents yell whenever try take nap hide basement really cant expect much good life made bucket list tried make reasonable able come like things bc fuck gonna wish reason like,1 +time something depression like idea online doc looking regular online providers brightside lemonade cerebral etc anyone positive experience suggestion specific provider best online psychiatrist ,1 +think new crush via friends got instagram girl never seen irl yet got told like walk distance school hers saw picture cute wow,0 +ill keep short sweet im im smart handsome charming strong fearless cunning top people genuinely like me everyones always wanted succeed ive always gauged standard success pretty fucking dumb made two attempts last monthi put whole life hold care take parents awful children provided lot peoplemyself included long story short project working failed father severe gi bleed came home fast forward years cancer broken femur alzheimers different diagnosable mental fractures im still sitting here world keeps getting worse cant fix it people can wont profitable exploit fumbling pennies final severance serious relationship plus slow tragic decline old age rather expedient yall sucked love ya biaaaaaaaa anyway cant seem shake urge die ive felt whole life well documented think people get better me im thinking getting weird heroine maybe die happy lol tragic part is thats positive always loaded gun still always resort drinking drugs smoke taking breaths stroke think missed boat burnt out feel dumb im glad subsequent generation specific genetic code ever exist again im rush think killing ourselves whats problem little faster im legitimately numb ill talk tomorrow,1 +huge fan camp kitsch so bad good type viewing however really like film fun factor believe innovationbr br the whole thing ring john waters boundlessly enthusiastic superb actors considered direction making slapstick styalised movements billy zane moves incredible expression see scene bus textbook lesson use movement framed unexpected starsbr br you may like film may enjoy it get chance watch it spare time chances end film confused smile face new perspective sense humour big stars highly reccomended,0 +basically gave hints maybe one day could happy someone else mentioned he said want happy someone else respond care replied never said before numb sad surprised life keeps getting worse seems like dealing shit full job damn planet daily routine thought that falling love last time could help me thought time would different not sad quiet lonely shy it empty see that nothing good happens me know heart since kid knew today bones yes nothing good happens get better know yesterday secretly scared boyfriend might like anymore buttoday true know nothing like many facts that conclusion deserve life one bfore never going be nothing drama daily routine,1 +really texts pm shes seems nice like hmmmmm,0 +crazy world is depressed natural reaction unnatural conditions subjected toyour psychiatrist tell chemical imbalance and do come nowhere exception serious mental disorders schizophrenia nothing inherently wrong brain despite claustrophobia inducing billion people planet living quite possibly loneliest era species ever seen spend days going school working s going online day day interacting people may care about truly connect everything advertisers vye attention practically forced compete narcissistic arrogance creating game social media want chance social life bombarded images wealth beauty average person ever hope attain everyone around us tells us okay normal even though usually suffering consequences way life too led believe best way way live simply get fatter live longer ancestors people poorer countries know havehad dont purpose community tranquility instead forests clear rivers rolling green plains crops buildings roads lawns mcmansions cars soaring past mph kardashians corn monocultures instead intact families self confidence hope divorce rate people becoming agoraphobic theyre afraid go public generation people never retire instead children playing outside kind nurturing society accepts cares members kids glued tablets acting like teenagers years ago rising homeless population people excluded society altogether fit status quo meet increasingly competitive standards success educationally economically socially romantically modern world rather preventing crime focus inflicting suffering commit it thrown psych ward medicated deemed threat others depressed pervasively sad generation living memory possibly recorded history state prepared willing come heavy violence anyone challenges beyond simply complaining it hey least weve got big macs average life expectancy years s its years life matter life years reject modernity embrace tradition,1 +got medical condition birth defect almost untreatable live one functioning kidney however kidney getting worse years severe redflag depression see future myself living occupy someone boredom loneliness today life span cut years average kidney could overload taking load one kidney keep mind high blood pressure redflag kidneys itself eventually could kill myself struggle make friends slowly surely trying reunite old friends tampered decided push away thought would help me instead left massive debt loneliness sure get job probably pay back parents spent bit million birth practically save me take care true friend someone love deeply enough supply happy life not sure would like enjoy life knowing end near person loves attention idea love general would love wife kids one day horrified thought would happen left anyways thanks reading another rant good daynight take care dying away,1 +hi get motivated work lost job december working year job hated got laid too never jobcareer liked terrible even tho think good employee awards prove it ever since got laid aside ui medical issues ok actually lost weight gained prev jobs want work ever interviews sabotaged cannot bear thought miserable job miserable moving la interview am tomorrow job got laid could care less it prepped alli justcant know sooner later need something motivated work,1 +wanna play among us care code is abaeeq,0 +running reasonsthere people life would hurt it continue suffer benefit wish would another heart attack one around call time would much easier theres little left hold onto,1 +ugly transgender freak thats amall hatred world doorstep me one wants me everyone hates me im even valued person people kill give world hope world smile one less freak worry about fucking kill myself,1 +got lost walmart today took minutes find gardening section decided put middle cosmetics section splits snacks grocery items puts separate sides store,0 +go boxing lesson todayfeeling pointless right now im ungrateful piece shit cant anything right want apologize someone know family probably cant even right probably even love anyway think over god please help im lost,1 +kinds people still exist physics teacher found mistake httpsimgurcomaqtgxrzhttpsimgurcomaqtgxrz,0 +living rd world religious country sucks ass people get choose marry hindus christen children get bullied school muslim children told islam true religion killed family come gay lesbian anyother sexuality get date likely killed come atheist teachers constantly tell atheists bad people every law country taken shitty year old book wanna leave country,0 +casting jack cassidy ken frankin sheer brilliance cassidy personified arrogance confidence charm wit condescending evil little smirk face opinion jack cassidy far best murderer having appeared three times columbo series particular and first performance favorite columbo episode ever hands down fresh faced steven spielberg amazing camera work yes couple camera shadows actors timescapturing nuances banter different intriguing angles columbo franklin also panoramic tight shots big bear lake ca franklins cabin home impressivebr br if yet seen episode owe true masterpiecebr br jack cassidy talented actor singer charismatic personality highly infectious death age sad indeed tragic surely best years ahead him rest peace jack live eternity great work,0 +im scared ill never find girl me girl ever like me ill pathetic lonely end days,0 +movie two australian girlsdebbie nell schofield sue sue knightand happens become girlfriends two surfer guysbr br i caught art cinema america technically still teenager i interested seeing australian teens acted script wise theres nothing new here shows usual teenage adventures dealing dating sex suicide etc etc always knew going happen never bored found interesting was despite accent changes clothes hair teenagers much different american teens many difficulties hangups also based book real surfer girl true life adventures i heard faithful adaptation it acting ok actors attractive wellmade pretty interesting unsung masterpiece pretty accurate portrayal like teenager trying popular kids give ,0 +hello birthday th birthday please accept,0 +anyone else go bike rides get away parents bullshit no me,0 +road notifications already reached reddit notifications road help commenting post spam dms utrizzuth thanks,0 +almost lost head farted laughing neck cracked really hard,0 +title says feel empty inside feel like everything pointless ambitious person why be finally happy would rather rich sad poor sad cases still sad surface tell things rich successful happy happy get there want suffer maybe happy someday feel sick tired everything makes lazy makes depressed lazy makes lazy endless cycle depression abuse point right feels like nothing get rid emptiness feel inside know feeling pass before questions always back head i anything point feel little better typing though everything feels pointless fake feel empty,1 +assisted redflaghello suffer paranoid schizophrenia medication counseling tried remedy situation last decade without much improvement seeking advice would go traveling country liberal views doctor assisted redflag would apply this help appreciated thank you,1 +im suicidal really fucking beat sadi met girl playing online game years ago knew moment heard voice one wanted with took years met available even close position want date again years later year engaged dropped me quit job gave college put focus making happy bad person resent her planned whole life around us im unemployed missed years college im alone im emotional person every imgur story sappy youtube video sets off cant stop crying want sleep forever decent job interview today hopefully things turn around want someone know im ok think im ever going ok waited right person got thrown away,1 +care anymorei want kill myself feelings matter matter even telling bunch strangers want kill myself stupid im stupid get rid self matter,1 +every day around family innable show emotion home like hot cold yell tell useless guess feel guilty either apologise try changing subject one friend really really care life much complicated feel like shit i cannot help cant amything want commit s unable stop know nothing i nothing nothing thing feel confusion emptyness irritation know happening anymore,1 +sick thisim sick fucking living like this dad killed may worth anymore one feel empty life going nowhere im tired,1 +straight lines parallel lines making straight line difficult ppl right making two straight line even difficult making two straight line parallel even difficult underlining word making two straight line using ruled papers line reference make two straight lines with pen removable assignment like marks thinking could made single straight line instead two one heading need rest assignment fuck even difficult,0 +hopelessi know one care even read this im sad feel hopeless someone betrayed really badly girlfriend hacked social media everyone hates me making think said things say nothing do one believe me choice anymore redflag,1 +really keeps hereive tried couple times chicken last second including last night felt like failure went lay heard daughter whimpering mother sleep im gonna go stung anyways picked stopped crying said thank dad started bawling like baby realized reason cant daughters need dad even people think so even life keeps railing me still deserves best keeps guys around,1 +imagine onlyfans owned ea every picture would blurred out would pay unlock body parts uncensored example would buy leg pack would un censor legs women man picture,0 +serious guys ask one girl like context sophomore high school one beautiful girl always see morning sitting alone school starts problem dont really know dont know approach im really introverted person shes really pretty girl would like take out dont know do advice,0 +late great grade z drivein exploitation filmmaker par excellence al adamson really outdoes gloriously ghastly scifi softcore musical comedy atrocity plumbs deliciously dismal dopey depths sheer celluloid silliness jawdropping stupidity grim totalitarian future sex deemed illegal act big brotherlike impotent bumbling idiot controller an amusingly goofy erwin fuller however sweetnsexy cinderella radiant blonde cutie pie catherine erhardt remains determined change things better help effeminate fairy godfather a flamboyantly campy jay b larson cinderella attends grand gala ball specific plan seducing handsome stud tom prince the dorky vaughn armstrong teaching everyone making love notredflag pleasurable wholly acceptable activitybr br adamson directs ridiculous yarn customary allthumbs incompetence staging incredibly awfulninept song dance sequences totally sidesplitting lack skill flair uproariously abysmal we need love number people absurd animal costumes awkwardly prancing forest hilariously horrendous marvel ditto equally abominable mechnical man routine featuring bunch clumsily cavorting robots louis horvarths crude static cinematography tacky plastic miniatures sparky sugermans groovy throbbing disco score copious gratuitous nudity ravishing brunette hottie sherri coyle warrants special praise particular department brainnumbingly puerile attempts leering lowbrow humor roscoe robot law enforcer especially irritating uniformly terrible performances renee harmons outrageously hammy portrayal cinderellas wicked overbearing stepmother cops big booby prize here enhance strikingly abundant cheesiness savored delectably dreadful doozy,0 +maybe wanting adviceive dealing redflag since high school almost done uni feeling down dont know do would maybe like advice maybe feel better rather recent trend turning alcohol,1 +fuck mei want go sleep never wake,1 +anyone want chat f netherlands idk say apart listen lot music,0 +please give advice use snapchat properly cute girl swim team added snapchat sent picture ceiling didnt know sent picture ceiling sent picture face same sent another picture face again ok like do im good got advice people discord told this want make sure im ok,0 +im selling tall kinda want bf im boys dont like im selling approximately tall interested please pm,0 +guys stay motivated homework schoolwork entered year im getting tons work struggling,0 +im living nightmare want endi feel like living nightmare wanna experience anymore know people way worse me realistically think keep going on couple months ago raped threatened keep secret made mistake waiting long reported go university university decided help keep safe alongside police idea investigate hearing happened however university began investigating created lot controversy case closed twice i repealed recently closed without charges police would take serious whats worse fact roommate rapist rapist harassing spitting ever since case filed roommate close residential assistants boss explaining even acknowledge existence rumors spread saying faked attention despite witness accounts backing mentalprofessionals seek trauma of gave coping mechanisms said beyond care would need seek outside university help people constantly give dirty looks spit me getup move away sit near them romantic connections hadrelationships resulted getting dumped one wants based rumors baggage family support either really much blood family family dead them lots friends stayed situation avoid getting harassed well feel alone like belong anymore this thought childhood trauma everything happened growing would stay past even affecting me nail coffin really feel like cant anymore thank actually read it wanted someone world know going through least someone might understand ampxb tldr raped university buried case people side rapists best friend regarded subhuman people know,1 +lgbt seemingly much creative artistic hate intended lgbt people seem creative straight people,0 +everything better past days even childrens television fraggle rock proves point quite easily time writing comment fourteen years old even teen years cant resist charm fraggle rock indeed living rock haha fraggle rock horde playful goofy creatures called fraggles liveamazinglyin rock theyre creatures rock inhabited many species like hardworking doozers countless living plants outside rock one side live inventorscientist doc dog sprocket who later befriends gobo fraggle side family gorgssupposed rulers universe five main fraggles gobo fearless leader mokey arty peaceful wembley indecisive friend gobo boober a pessimistic domestic god red loves anything sport general feistynessget caught strange situations episode time sing dance cares awaybr br fraggle rock definitely family showthe plots may intricate details infants may follow well songanddance routines hold attention characters strong likable conflicts believable adventures thrilling gorgs frightening doc sprocket enlightening uncle travelling matt hilarious the postcard segments s final episode change address genuinely touching lets go fraggle rock again,0 +ugh feel like garbage right now anyone wanna talk feel super great wanna talk discord profile interested thats fine too,0 +trying minesweeper minesweeper complicated guess im gonna learn im gonna flex hard become chick magnet lets real need lot strategy mindset game lot guessing work bit luck yes,0 + endi particularly rough last couple years want call quits mother live absolute monster even earliest memories dad much worse although work favor separated year old child always craved companionship desperately want feel alone didnt make first friend ended moving year two later back square one fast forward couple years middle school bullied entire time throughout entire school career sexually assaulted th grade shoved rug per usual middle school began dating constant string abusive people today even raped cheated beat ex today since december relationship someone emotionally abusive find especially hard leave emotionally abusive relationships since something physical tend rationalize it thinking head deserve this certainly everyone else point thought so get gaslighted daily accused cheating why would cheat someone ive cheated past berated called names punished dont reply quick enough time frame usually minutes punished able see blatant emotionalmental abuse pretty much everything besides physical abuse make feel completely insane college career stressing point constant knot stomach chest top anxiety afraid boyfriend well living toxic environment mom utterly completely miserable done research best methods committing redflag household cleaners hanging jumping height drowning buying handgun gun show ive thought many options guess im confessing get without people life knowing boyfriend monster last couple days im terrified them mother always drilling school im pain surgery supposed make feel better almost years ago friends isolated harshly end me years months cant handle pain anymore ive made decision,1 +ever happened danger dolan like agree,0 +guns expensivei mean knew reason figured land free tm came plentiful cheap guns finish job turns may plentiful theyre hardly cheap anyone afford kill america anyway came home feeling even sad useless before,1 +question eating water came me different time zones time zones day ahead whats official birthday someone birthday th october mean actually st october someone else,0 +live anymorehonestly im debating ending it friends lovers one fucking cares say theyre lying im stuck dead end job still live parents cant afford move go college cant apply loans ive seriously run reasons get morning see way,1 +really really like getting scared dont ever get scared point cant move makes feel really good like really good dont know really nice,0 +ignore want im ranting poemall wanna sleep man wish id pass away becomes hard deal every passing day people dont get telling pray people saying gets better hold today listen dont want help want advice want forgotten rather dead concise ive living long enough heard say quit telling hold im done trying stay ive heard far fake promises lies one really cares somebody dies dont bother funeral shedding fake tears saying loved friends peers hard express feelings mind always astray guess ill try hold another day edit idk obvious first two lines used powfus song death bed inspiration edit repost different account one friends mightve accidentally found this personal show,1 +goodnight everyone kisses everyone goodnight night night,0 +tomorrow day tonightlove wish luck maxxymax,1 +want drop bad oh god college right choice wasnt ugh sucks bad shouldve done something else,0 +struggling much past months husband left march separated ever since wants divorce not started job labor intensive terrible need work make money left several bills feel alone intrusive thoughts subside dread waking every day pain constant terrible struggled mental illness whole life seems worse lately considering current situation need help cannot afford therapist anyone talk to come reddit want everything different know do,1 +amount money phone number much money would have,0 +yesterday beaming happiness receiving job offer field today job offer rescinded unexpectedly changed work hours which available for received nd dental school rejection today spending applicationi try stay hopeful everything goes south like life teasing good things snatching away me cannot get job dentist hope ever life even living for better end instead continuously tortured try stay hopeful everything going wrong,1 +im feeling overwhelmed right nowfirst all guess necessary say im depressive know of ive never really checked specialist said last months since broke ex girlfriend barely month quarantine ive feel really overwhelmed extremely sad feel like need write see someone read not feel like need take chest last days ive thinking lot redflag particular reason it feel like want end life like worth living anymore course first thing think mom feel like her today got news basically spoiled whole day even week feel like crying lot want cry fall sleep family today siste came visit another city since tomorrow moms birthday hence staying tonight likely sleeping dad sleeping goes plan crying sleep ive obligations cant settle mind them im trying focus stop thinking notice cant makes sad really really want end it know how want talk family it feel like see psychologhist know get appointment one without family noticing know theres nothing wrong seeing mental health specialist know family knows theyre going worry want to weeks ago started talking agan ex even planning hanging past weekend troubles possible even sent food desserts big fool am today minding business trying help something lead get notice asked talk someone trouble having someone basically told used send nudes knows else one closest friends this want talk friends either person sent screenshot conversation friend basically hurt fucking lot chatted person ill call a basically told also boyfriend ex time her told fooled us both called friend mine everyone told never talked boyfriend friend talk all apparently well actually one reasons broke never introduced family friends telling guess makes lot sense confronted her told find out course say lies guess cant believe her also talk friend also denied everything cause yeah going say yes friend fooled gf sorry basically know now im feeling sad want cry want hurt myself want scream know hell do thank apologize anybody read this mean bother people problems figured needed al least write somewhere get chest feel like fool now knows may times may cheated always defend like fucking clown thats am fucking joke ill delete post later want slightest chance friends seeing this,1 +many times day jerk off usually jerk time day maybe times day every couple days want know average,0 +fear friend die day nowone friend always suicidal since met tried best help her unfortunately days saying stuff like these last messages no one help me things like making friends really worried done overdose talks selfharm words cant describe worried anxiety really bad this got understanding issues take lot time understand stuff usually someone simplify things me english even first language talks english makes conversation pretty bad feel like going commit redflag day im sad feel bad feel like help much,1 +german peoplebefinden sich hier auch menschen die deutsch knnen,1 +asshole getting mad got angry moms friend woman moms friend toom night train said terrified thought would sleep room males got angry every man bad rapist get could get scared still find unfair us men sorry bad grammar,0 +friends anymorei live fairly small town england go private school classes tiny meeting new friends option everyone knows everyone everyone groups mine never anything them never meet them often may meet theyll friends outside school matter them me nobody outside locally least go advice hang im bored used to left group whilst regret this old group treated like shit fyi miss fun had cant see happy everything feels like blur therapist fix this theres nothing here help please im fucking alone miserable want die,1 +robbery hand thigh pics please,0 +weak fast multicolorthis valvolines movie fact see always brand oil lot scene real protagonist carsweak performances cage duvall intresting angelina jolie unlikely mechanic lovers dream carlamborghini ferrari all,0 +guy class kills cat hate existence hope fucking burn hell actions every single animal youve huntedyoure scum earth dont know people like youand also fuck hurting friends emotionally also credit umtrx_ giving idea express,0 +dad jokes daily get girlfriend somebody want buy nine rackets tennis many,0 +feeling guilty like dogshit pulling allnighter last night pulled allnighter friends well us did back home feeling like absolute shit im feeling guilty reason cant stop crappy feeling tips,0 +anythingso hello know title seems overdramatic things enough keep living st time courage die live far away family live friend really care unless suits him cat born quite birth defects make hard live daily life that often call work days time gets trouble job cant get doctors note insurance im also trans want transition cant afford that im bedridden right best friend blaming things cant control parents begging come back home reason left really want kill care much hurts go through dont wanna put anyone trauma someone know committing redflag barely see think straight im really considering taking whole bottle sleeping aids letting,1 +anyone needs trans buddy im need someone talk experiences vent im ,0 +girls cute im sorry girls cute cant pretty cute especially blush forget compliment girl today ,0 +dont feel sad contemplating taking lifewhen young raped tortured sexually many times constant flashbacks moments time cause terrible agony im reliving again see man people faces im paranoid might come back hurt again brainwashed mind forever scarred im sick people telling gets better life nightmare long remember mind showing signs healing death way free,1 +want wake anymorei know long continue feel way everyday become struggle sanctuary find asleep lonely friends let alone anyone talk feel person talk ex rarely talk now ive turned drinking too numb pain even limits antidepressants seem working either im tired feeling like this tired feeling worthless hating alive feel guilty thinking ending life people react hear redflag selfish act hurting much inside want stop,1 +guys big butts please fucking stop straight thanks,0 +bruh fuck anyone else parents told super special little really good grades middle school soon got high school realized probably average uninteresting person know promptly started trying change stuff ended getting bad grades nicotine addiction,0 +ex says wants kill frequently idea hes serious dohes always negative person everything happens shit seems incapable finding true joy things sure happy playing starcraft example get idea hes never truly happy even me hes said positive thing ever happened him deserve person like hes messed make happier happy even person loves heart make happy multiple times even broke he broke btw said wants kill himself wished dead blue idea respond that especially weve broke up seems symptoms depression yet want seek help what help could talking shrink do break ive tried support much can hes unemployed keep encouraging send application letters possible next step would write letters him tried make promise least try day write letter he one needs adjusted fit jobs hes applying for response im trying hard kill gtgt serious cry attention since weve broke up ignore force see psychiatrist know world would crash ever kill ps hes im ,1 +nobody knows outive found statement true wait theyll know while,1 +found masturbating actually kinda dangerous definitely personal thing couple days ago was yeah ended holding breath reason honestly idea why held gunpoint nearly blacked out weird probably hasnt happened many people tho people start asking near death experience bringing up,0 +suicide seems fate fate loves irony,1 +daily fact metaphorical way get shot give gunman ammunition example telling someone theyre shithead tell boss called shithead goes around comes around,0 +much coward end itjust left home honestly im edge mother called whore shouted fucking much hates useless im next railway waiting train know im much pussy jump fuck want theres nothing make shit better know fuck fuck fuck fuck,1 +going lie despite looking interesting watched notorious bettie page heard and fairly obvious looking synopsis anything film gretchen mol got naked it never fan mol cannot resist seeing attractive woman taking clothes yes may perverted theme ideal central core movie helps make film lot stronger probably bebr br the film chronicles bettie pages mol life physical sexually abused days kid high school south onto new life new york wants actress pay bills too taking seemingly innocent shots local beach page slowly becomes modeling sensation quickly jumps suggestive photos sexually provocative pinup photographsbr br i feel briefness film just ninety minutes curse blessing it one hand film never overstays welcome get know page within short minutes gets right modeling career look back curses film well never really get chance grasp everything going on kind jumps around modeling shoots controversies create jumping right major senate investigation takes much final act film sit there attempt absorb all comes right you feels like filmmakers wanted summarize much material short film begs longer sequences begs even longer explanations feel rushed feel therebr br another bit fumble although bit curiosity use colour throughout film majority black white frequently splashes sequences colour emerge may done symbolic gesture early on becomes bit distraction continually pops later cutting back black white gets confusing becomes tedious interference anything else film goes onbr br while may fumble bit actions film stays deadon themes page know little nothing about played innocently world exactly same save shady characters teenage years everyone encounters innocent everything innocence it never thought would look full frontal nudity something anything vulgar depraved here truly something marvel at once beautiful innocent even sexually perverted moments film albeit tame compared todays standards innocent angelic feeling them something way mols nude body portrayed strikes different chord nude bodies films feels natural wondrous reason watch film would see spectacular depictions mols body plays bettie pagebr br the reason mol herself page exemplifies s southern belle everyone knows or least imagine despite profession still normal person still looks religious mol plays exactly right amount squeakycleanliness needed make character feel authentically s plays matteroffactness would hardset think mol actually bettie page herselfbr br unfortunately supporting cast little moments shine totally overshadowed mols wonderful performance none anything particularly pleasing none really strength role mol does really fault actors fact much work with many totally recognizable oscarnominee david strathairn in role little close one better performances sarah paulson recent golden globe nominee studio sunset strip character actor lili taylor would hard set really place performance anything okay none characters really developed really stand character cutouts mol runs loops around picks steam brilliant performancebr br really film worthwhile portrayal nudity gretchen mols excellent performance bettie page everything else bit muddled awkward be work done develop supporting characters blast right story film would much better biographical film stands vehicle mol really rise stratosphere popularity actressbr br ,0 +bunch loud bangs outside house past minutes hearing loud bangs sound like gunshots close house whenever think stopped come back love living murica,0 +subjecting watching nexpo right go bed guess sleep tonight im probably actually going sleep another hours still,0 +cannot deal anymore everyday goyou bad game playing game pet goldfish better you doo doo water dog water sister play better you stop playing tell hurting feeling stopeveryday get bullied everyday someone tells easy start panic attack hurts feelings much puts hole hearti want stop keep saying mean things mei want to kill myselfstop saying easy mean hurts feelings nice thing say stop rude experience online,1 +question would work saved enough money hire aftermath redflag forensic clean crew redflag scheduled come day redflagi literally clue works parents already tens thousands dollars debt even though dad really high paying job dont want burden actual redflag does,1 +staying alive mistake die insteadmy entire life ive spoonfed lies stay alive know redflag right answer me ive told missed life value much offer world make people happy staying alive cared yet assertions completely incredulous patently cliche impossible even take seriously absurd it gets better trope basis fact mom obody truly knows person ive asked friends basic facets life favourite food born birthday even know answers thats suggestive people happy staying alive rather completely ignora essential things define me blatant deception addition nobody would notice gone tried disabling various social media accounts see comes looking me months gotten single letter mail single phone call former coworkers socalled friends nobody come house check welfare except mom abused me count proof anything benefit offer world either spent years trying share talents interests people often rejected criticized mocked ridiculed myself indication anything value offer society true individual even assume sake argument something offer society millions people offer thing nothing special worth suffering miserable existence tiny fraction population potentially appreciate continuing stay alive would rather dead likewise reason believe life value live planet billion people could disappear today human civilization would continue before impact anything absence might bring improvement since would longer disrupting societal norms worthless existence checklist incidents given cause reconsider purpose living horrible society a molested mom growing up would always play genitals say fun even would tell stop b boss took transgender pride flag threw floor stomped repeatedly shouted see think shitty tranny people c coworker last year sneaked apartment building asleep threw brand new bike dumpsters practical joke spent months saving buy another bike d spending new bike lock stolen rack outside apartment building two days later never found e general manager previous job told raped even though been said mustve asking since bisexual f boss job always tells im going arrested dress since thinks wearing womans clothes outlawed g crisis worker laughed thought silly smile hide fact im clinically depressed stormed office followed outside started swinging bike racks like little kid h counselor told want end life thinks totally okay recommended going side deserted road putting sleep im ready die i psychiatrist dared go home put plastic bag head think id really able commit redflag j four years ago brutally attacked security guards er attempted leave hospital without signing discharge papers even though crisis worker insisted you wasted everyones time coming here told released k two years ago riding bike downtown teenage boy ran street punched face jumped bike riding circles taunting me called police officer bother file report told since involved minor would criminal charges l banned years local shopping mall wearing womens clothes security officer told crossdressing abnormal n homeless man spit face bus terminal yesterday informed security guards refused take action instead reassured since hes homeless nothing do o ive raped multiple times gay men even kept begging stop repeated i know want it forced sex them p two years ago brought er psych eval sitting calmly one observation rooms hour nurses doctor threatened inject drug calm down refused ordered two security guards put restraints q banned using paypal employee googling name online discovered photos dressed womens clothes abuse department claims violated end user agreement selling pornography never able produce evidence r bullied gay man quora angry posted question sexual orientation relates transgender people even though question way violated quora policies began harassing name gender identity getting moderator delete profile usually tell counselors social workers horrible experiences dismiss you must strong person still alive listen people first all im strong person im damaged person secondly part society caring people think thats fundamental reason human civilization still exists thirdly incidents traumatized less people think me rather act toward me whats particularly frustrating strangers pretend care announce plan kill myself apparently im worth peoples attention im dead maybe people nicer others still living instead waiting inevitable act like life suddenly matters course never forgive forget incidents abused neglected otherwise mistreated mental health system add thousands dollars billed services rendered ie forced psychological trauma certainly charge people raped we forced pay strangled thrown floor pushed wall tied bed forcibly medicated medical professionals guise healthcare health care health torture refuse part society government condones endorses systematic torture mentally ill people accountability even helpless vulnerable state mental health supposed hope healing psychological manipulation financial extortion physical violence taken advantage time time again nothing ever done help me therefore people concerned needed help most obviously concerned now suggest otherwise nothing short patronizing staying alive mistake die instead,1 +bro messed friend made joke bets cocomelon rule search history teacher heard asked said nothing teacher googled cocomelon rule ,0 +tonight year old end life hes metonight kill myself probably hanging past years incredibly depressed going phases happiness last day feel depressed like week think fat ugly stupid etc could go dont care anymore approaching one stressful parts life gcses recieve support parents get negative reinforcement makes feel shit myself sister constantly tells much hates even apart friendship group school despite dont feel like friends them none talk outside school always feels like tagging along talk many times fucked would night always make little snipe comments life gave trust issues lives would better without feel like never liked one friend talk feel knows feel depressed suicidal feel like put much stop needing someone talk to kill problem told english teacher feel lovely understood situation feel guilty tell whole truth like parents suicidal feelings arranged meeting school counseler me great aswell focused future problem rather present feel like really care noucence ive horrible love life first relationship like year understand fully still partially bullied it second lasted weeks broke tried cheat friend time asked girls got rejections friends tease this whenever talk girl think want them hate this feel like never find love feel like bad person think made last voice reason last couple days something snapped voice gone im going kill myself today even bad day school wrong things happened wrong time snipe comments usual said english teacher really needed talk badlyi going tell feel suicidal told come dinner time got there there afterschool finish coursework stopped looked classroom say anything maybe said something like are okay tonight may different read this thank you needed get chest die try change mind want sure im going this pain much,1 +try thisso researched net found slight chance overdose alparazolam xanax combined alcohol plan dont sleep days drink beers like vodka take mg pills hope without pain n shit wanted share maybe some experience xanax something,1 +recently failed graduate diploma program supposed help accelerate career cpai feel defeated knowing put everything program falling short feel like let along everyone around continues support me know cannot bring courage tell bc embarrassedi option go course online working full time scared going enough scared fail againdoes anyone advice words encouragement failing helped future share similar experience turned around failing,1 +know someone said going kill todayits got phone girlfriend one acquaintinces last year college said going kill today minutes ago currently phone redflag prevention hotline sure else do im immediate vicinity either them didnt say going kill herself,1 +tf people going profile commenting post made damn days ago dont see point tf profile anyway,0 +officially afford diesupposed starting new job monday whole new state suppose new chapter reality act avoid family tryna lock psych ward july boyfriend brutally murdered amp ever since ive wanted join him everytime came close ending it thoughts mother finding body amp reaction main thing kept alive chose move plan move pretend fine amp pretend moving on long enough write amp make sure theres enough money bank account family worry money funeral job offers family nice employed days meaning next days finally die fast ward all,1 +really wish atheistthis whole week self pity party ive undiagnosed random illness everyone thought celiac except problems coming reason all new lovely symptom hands feet sweat nonstop disgusting this top tied toilet day really killing self confidence help girlfriend broke week ago someone new every night know were broken up cheating me god hurts think about much even tried make one best friends apparently ok theyre girls im starting college wednesday days now im really finding motivation health issues might cause drop out yes im seeing doctor test find anything yet wish suffering purpose want suffer die it want know theres meaning everything thats happening built karmic exchange soon ill good day matter much people shit me never seem get fucking break problems get worse regardless day spend bed misery keep looking redflag bags people shitty lives die think im probably going group,1 +ive lost ability delusional death want dielike people ive able suppress recognition fact ill die someday everyone course knows theyll die could happen time nobody really accepts it everyone thinks theyre special somehow mom dead cancer soon top dreading loss facing mortality whenever read online people try frame positively once accept death live every day like last thats works me im facing truth everything seems pointless interest anything know distraction attempt think dying decided time cant control anything life except this ending terms want fuck waiting get cancer die car crash shit time go,1 +guys little sister knows smoke weed going stuff idk mustve saw used filters rolling papers like you traitor stuff like asthma acting up honestly really annoyingfunny parents already know smoke mainly started got stash probably figured out plug school still sometimes go stash im running really low moral story keep trash trash also never told parents ik know,0 +reasons guessgrowing up parents addicted pills still alcoholics relatives aunts uncles cousins grandparents etc shunned parents way lived remember always feeling place family gatherings cousins dressed cutest things new game consoles clean houses always talked trips gone on going mall shopping listening felt different im oldest three girl memories infant carrier watching dad beat mom memories toddler baby mom driving find dad cheating leaving car yelled outside window strange drove bar months back friends pulled up memory washed back me clearly remember even parked car seat front facing assume around car seat behind passenger side seat extremely tired mom woke drive left car ran inside bar dozed back off know long woke pushed car window next me parents screaming eachother eventually got car mom sobbed entire way home kept saying things like who women kissing her asking types questions pretended asleep memories like come back there fuzzy clear day like night night punched dad face stealing money moms purse later met guy highschool summer sophomore year year older lost virginity fell love like stupid kids do together years least spent beaten like mother entire time cheated on started using drugs him weed first synthetic marijuana adderall molly finally left met nice guy came back life resorted back toxic life slept him hed changed right came senses got back together nice guy month half us back together found pregnant know father was knew beginning stayed allowed enjoy pregnancy every time near family would ask planned take dna test refused invasive test pregnant get done with driving home hospital awful slept since delivering son lost lot blood doctors monitoring levels discussing blood transfusion regardless tired was made take pitstop way home newborn dna testing center swabbed things seemed better besides normal sleepy life comes new parent results came in saw email closed laptop left days son belong him tried make work guilt pain situation got best us left lived alone one bedroom son that car job relying mom everything found job got car things seemed better job met ex husband clicked well cant even describe it moved slowly filled tiny apartment furniture decor pictures us took car work one dat cheat me cheating continued off swore stopped changed got married years later divorced cheating never really stopped im living room moms sleeping air mattress nothing name account negative cant work enough catch bills im drowning school trying get degree better son trying right struggling bad pass get assignments done time work pay bills good mom spend time top still dealing attacks mental poison ex husband feels like endless loop today birthday wish would done today son reason im alive,1 +whats folks time somewhat regular check rteenagers folk whats going life right now doing,0 +world giving signs kill myselfi terrible night friend called hang did pretty much ignored whole time texting awesome fun cool friends laughing good time them pretty much ignored top dad giving shit day today treating like year old im feeling like shit decided call crisis line got counselor minutes hold terrible want listen made generic actually pretty mean comments like i know would upset you that sound like much big deal seriously told feeling suicidal said mhmmyeah told shift pretty much told terrible person quit job going say wrong things people distress seem care hung me called back right way got put hold hour hour phone rang nobody picked ended call im hold doubt anyone answer someone does bet itll another shitty counselor feeling suicidal right feel like world giving signs it people life treating like matterexist whole crisis line thing feel like sign end life really feel like im worth fuck people keep saying terrible things acting like im even human being really want kill right moment honestly everyone would better without burden lives people keep around feel sorry wasting time hate much cant take pain anymore feel soon im going finish bottle pills go bed,1 +anyone listening suicidal well small ways help yourselfif loneliness invite anyone even slightly want talk to join coffee shop somewhere else wifi super low stress easy spend time another person added benefit hot drinks food playing laptop plenty people would love that boredom join volunteer program never obligated stay get new experiences meet helpful people want travel go wwoof net live almost anywhere world free exchange helping farm toxic people life give people time day thats possible little keeping busy sometimes hard answer may need change scenery away people moving one stressful things work get settled,1 +got christmas books doom eternal im mad like wtf else could wanted lololololo,0 +kill myselfi nothing going me one gives shit me hopefully tomorrow last day,1 +legendary bottle every single time bring water bottle class class every one asks got ask would sell one every time tell ireland i used live im there make sad face like fault bottle wow went thought sorry waisting ur time wanted get back,0 +wish could masturbate feelings also wish feelingsporn masturbate feelings get depressed,0 +tired want courageall want courage ti ended im scared side nothing mostly,1 +dont want slash wrists againanyone know deaths caused something simple alcohol poisoning pill overdose seems like impossible die way sucks cause would simple pharmaceutical drugs arent used be back s could take handful pills whiskey never wake,1 +man american hate early colonial british much next country zulu war super inspirational u know u watch movie zulu really really good,0 +guys might last resorti didnt know hard would get help emailed samaritans response th queue right lifeline crisis chat im alone lost much last year friends son job fear going lose husband next due depression anger sadness im breaking point dont know do,1 +know flip coinwhen air already know side want land on right heads write note it tails go bed well fuck tails im writing anyway,1 +state mandated masks schools wooooooo fuck yes filler text automod fucking dumbads,0 +want someone talk toevery night thoughts come again im going insane literally nibbling away mind its driving crazy hate admit it im weak know many people subreddit probably deserve attention me people suicidal things way bigger me im probably making storm cup water but know want someone chat bullshit life flings me ive really serious argument she kept saying stuff downright ignoring me probably one tamer arguments had mother today feel lonely wanna curl bed wither away guess feel meaningless well reality guess am meaningless im lump flesh blood robotically following day day life feel like im shard was every day continuous cycle waking up nothing going school coming back sleeping world feels grey mother hates me hate mother boyfriend boyfriend anymore everything just sucks want feel like someone care end killing myself know selfish fuck but wanna feel somewhat important like matter someone ive got lotta friends reddit just feel like burden them everyone really im sorry making read this but thanks did appreciate it,1 +feel like im hellprior year burning problems optimism motivation hope quarantine started back march mental started deteriorate stuck inside four walls bedroom first month kinda fun relax chill watch tv play games etc get bored brain starts unearth pain trauma u put deepest depths subconscious realised alone realised nobody loves realised relationships ive exs lust n love realised friendships never authentic realised died today person would keep connected world mother n isnt well suffer hidradenitis suppurativa body constant pain theres cure everyday rest life put burning sensation way since sitting painfull sometimes cant even get bed wonder whats point living way cant even take shirt swim wear certain clothes stings dont emotions left want cry try cope heart cold wont let me feel like hit brick wall every time try thought death went something used scare something gives inner peace dont know something look forward to try tell people feel always response get better im sure turnt pain aslong remember used hold onto hope thinking people go pain find joy later life used optimistic thinking good deeds karma good thats life works dont really know typed feel like life im like red rose wilted feel like everyday earth hell death doesnt phase me dont want live keep going mother im sure,1 +one big mistake ends alldear all like share current feelings way vent everything rages head thuesday last week last working day long planned holiday japan evening became tired temperature rose went bed early temperature rose bit night came back next morning thinking postponing departure roommate pushed go said want expose people perhaps pass virus sure called airline company noted contact gp called gp basis phyiscal complaints coughing sneezing could fly decided go take easy first days thinking could mild cold blocked nose days body tired due end stressfull period work think agreed also based stress level make think clear really called parents advice didnt japan gradually started show flu symptoms although overall felt ok day flu sick could expected day night however realized turn flu im sure off could passed travellers inside airplane study shows passengers vonuerable virusses outside went hospital influenza test showed negative read swab tests reliable according fda im positive flu know hell thinking board plane im stuck hotel rooms exposed people potential lethal disease notes annually ca people die flu related infection attack rate population brings following max average mortality calculation bn population x persons get flu mln although cough sneeze flu also transmittable breath lets presume ive infected persons chance im going responsible someones death im usually responsible person thought responsible someones death unbearable me cant live life idea might killed someone ill never find know whether might infected burden never released im much regret get plane miserable time life ruined want end life even following reasons to im bhuddist therefore redflag negative karma you hurt others unpleasant way exiting life ill lower rebirth next life love mother know devastated many many years cant see little niece nephew grow up tried slow hang wrote goodbye letters family puss stopped getting unconsious days ago major panic attacks calmed bit talked dad yesterday although mention mental state regretted board plane mom said relax also talked friend comforting however lost think future ofcourse say take easy carry burden murderer start eating drinking backup plan redflag dehadration would time tokio ive booked hotelroom week ive time die slowly made stupid choice life never again acted unresponsible must pay sin im much regret cant turn back time maybe someone die ignorance chance haunt rest life prefer end japan waste time bought rope today could wait till im back home easier body could minimize burden parents good life everything could wish for messed never same supposed fun holiday end years life perspective repent stupid life threatening decisions ive made done late now cant turn back time yes chance ive killed someone low noted inluenza deaths seniors chance much needless risk ive endangered people with cant live idea end life over finished grief much want kill asap afraid back last moment unsuccesfull potential brain damage would better back home buy better supplies ive wait weeks that oh mess everything worked well this im sopping hotel room full thoughts feel sorry family friends buddhist dharma says focus future past result caused unintentional harm feel sorry lowereing negative karma use make changes life generate good karma helping others genuine good person cant life grief stupid mistake need carry rest life cant come comfort always question mark many people suffered action thanks reading hope suffering end soon,1 +bad thing say people unattractive attract others inb lmao ok incel whenever somebody says ugly attract people proven due life experience comments noooo need join clubs need shower ignoring fact nearly every person showers daily need put bro drink water get hobby things good things do definitely improve chances make friends overall health attract anyone romantically bad thing science end day humans mammals gravitate towards appealing thing see think people need accept,0 +understand became like this suddenly lights always turned off believe happiness see someone happy understand it believe much depressed like normal course am everyone else acting normal except like this remember wanting people wanting connection wanting make people smile suddenly happened year also fast point almost paralysing good day day eat great day would mean take shower even question ask answer seek fucking want get back normale right fucking now add up angry confused fucking unfair logically know always like this right ,1 +given low budget production limitations movie good plausible realistic shows csikos hungarian horsemen lived plains puszta risked lives save downed american pilot ruthless savage nazis drawn strong feelings young impressionable yet highly courageous boywho admires american pilot looking special effects superman heroes magical endingsthis movie you want feel must like dodge persistent amoral nazis lack compassion enthralled movie truly enjoyed love horses dogs humble helpful people value freedom aspire end movie one remember long time,0 +died didnt,0 +care anymore careim going good life care used dreams give shit anymore everything boring never excel anything care family benefit death feel would better offer right now im depressed know else go even know im posting one last attempt reaching out probably matter guess least archive last attempts continuing think,1 +feel like deal causing much sorrow heart brokenness among loved ones prevented ending pointi know long able watch life going drain long take depression fully engulf family one reasons im still here comfortable causing much pain,1 +so objectively best decision could make end life whatim deep student loan debt unemployed job prospects opening time soon however student loans forgiven event death so best right could hope break even offing myself make sense ill admit ive many drink tonight ive got loaded gun sitting within arms reach could totally it problem goal life help people thats spent much fucking money education looking things way now think best option future call quits someone talk me,1 +best friendi want end all know wife kids better financially do life insurance grew without dad feel ok and almost year old wife thought best friend everything undermine parent time try discipline sons takes wants time try teach something new way always get short end stick love kids want whats best maybe thats gone,1 +im supposed happy wealthyi need pay school fee own pay college parents divorce theyve got big house live im still living age theres food eat legs arms cancer ive happy situation general since born know wanna take life badly im supposed healthy mind know,1 +rebeat fnaf games im bored already beat cant think anything,0 +hopelessi spent last minutes phone national redflag prevention hotline aside asking questions are alone planning hurting yourself etc person talked really repeated said id say health issuesliving situationsrelationship affecting drastically said back was sounds like youre healthfinancialrelationship issues ask repeat literally said afterwards offering words advice even a itll get better kept asking repeat myself towards end call essentially said dont think theres much you okay enough right get phone dont know do feel stuck almost every way be im trying hard get license get job help myself keep uncontrolled seizures im scared ill never able help myself anxiety crippled point dont think ill able get job handle appropriately matter badly want to boyfriend says hes going break finances though doesnt pay anything dollars scrape together give continue home im homeless trying pay insulin food meds seizures hsv medication im trying break every second day disappoint dad ending it feel fucking hopeless scared dont think keep this feel brain deteriorating constant stress sadness anger anxiety memory bad cant even remember key parts conversation morning even with im breaking smallest things ive lost pounds month half dont know do dont want keep living like,1 +hi mental illnesses therapy since february therapist wants go iop get checked psychiatrist since kind limbo happy suicidalhow it know ill able even student still kind considering guessty intensive outpatient questions,1 +republican support whatever bullshit happening dc right letting know republicans support shit ones want support fucking psychopaths fuck em anyone dc thats reading this stay safe,0 +tried commit redflagthis third attempt past month brain feels like explode im going try,1 +anything better redflagis it debate head day day out im disability various mental illnesses since want nothing govt help completely yet ill may never able hold job dream going back college i dropped times getting degree working job meaningful useful putting intelligence work tested iq im genius kinda smart dilemma like or potential be great athlete potentially permanent injury specialists debate diagnosis treatments far failed except brain time sidelines life watching everything go by naturally question whether really would awesome athlete all whether world really needs one more scientist researcher academic lawyer doctor whatever drop metaphor maybe really pathetic waste space like always imagined maybe change even got degrees good job enjoyed even cure search meaning aside ive got standard issue reasons kill well history sexual abuse neglect bullying current social isolation chronic mental illness potential get worse name people and cats would geniunely upset learn death care hurt abused me third therapist im hanging hope things get better im getting really tired back main topic anything really better redflag life im living barely worthy called life live alone work home couple hours day supplement disability food stamps pay rent bills hang w one friend couple times week bathe attend hygiene dishes sometimes smoke weed drink night calm anxiety distract elaborate lethal redflag plans go support groups feel like people dont understand me treatments like cbt much quandary existential level as well regular old psychotic depressionposs schizophreniabipolar unicorn syndrome medication like ssris anti psychotics mood stabilizersanti convulsants tend make worse nothing gotten better used hospital year severely bulimic socially anxious emotionally labile self esteem low ex then bf asked spend night slept floor felt unworthy bed sounds like even know sounds like years since last inpatient eating okay throw up mood stabilized point therapist called levelheaded day i almost choked laughing sleep beds feel sort okay myself still im drain society apartment mess say im absolute best mean it best merely continue living im sure keep going asked therapist chance living normal life told story client pretty much like came in years later hes govt assistance instead shitty jobs still kind miserable joy look forward years hard work obviously everyone different etc least one thing delusions about take long time get better to point normal least enjoyable meaningful life people never do version better looks lot like life now disability review im tempted turn paperwork let deny whatever reason finally catch bus ive waiting stop long time ive watched people get on ive tried couple times either got cold feet right amount change problem now emo tldr shitty life really better death,1 +point going forever aloneim haunted times life bearable family died young given life gets worse age forever alone ive become isolated old friends theyve progressed formed families own im trolley pushing forever alone year old constantly thinks redflag hope future ive become bitter hateful circumstances id rather put misery go living shitty life despising it pray get courage end soon,1 +posting everyday get first kiss day hate mondays fact hate everything,0 +ldr nevermet girlfriend probably going break me nothing want life want againi live uk lives usa met discord group online game became friends could tell wanted days broke boyfriend got couple weeks later begged every day finally gave made mind decided wanted first relationship ever much planned together summer planned week would fly stay everything going perfectly kept telling intent making happen never fallen love someone quickly fallen love me happiest ever felt life last weeks something changed know suddenly became distant became frustrated completely unreasonable would get upset whenever asked going on daily hours calls suddenly stopped would even reject calls completely unlike her began ignoring went talking whenever possibly could sending maybe disjointed unenthusiastic messages day life falling apart past week planning felt us drifting apart days ago showed last remaining ounce love ignoring another day today told things working yet messaged back again hundreds thoughts going head yet still numb offline know back truly feel like end time know would missing without her way whatsoever cope this expect alive time next week,1 +seems patternive dealing mental health issues since age years old born halloween rd generation grandmother great grandmother also born halloween diagnosed major depressive disorder severe recurrent also panic disorder ptsd trauma suffered age self harm regularly unfortunately though done weeks depressive episode came today realized almost christmas lights tree nothing indicate time year mention always celebrated christmas despite fact sister atheist make parents happy honest get joy normally happiness around altar boy young believed knew bible well would become priest lo behold sciencedriven mind landed atheist category know sparks particular depressive episode although several panic attacks today sitting car outside coat thinking googled forums redflag since im already member reddit although post much interested saw called crisis team knew going bad things plan sell harm im sitting confused im upset anyway im truly sorry right get somehow thank,1 +movie fantastic fan bams cky videos jackass show viva la bam cant help like it friends fans enjoyed it others thought great like mostly female friends really appreciate crude humor personally think made movie funny im pretty sure entire movie filmed bams home town includes lot regularly visited locations cast made friends cky buddies also includes big name pro skateboarders too soundtrack phenomenal music him opinion haggard all great plot characters never see anywhere else plenty humor great music cast dedicated project,0 +going school person first time year im happy it also really anxious ive never even seen face majority students much less spoken them one good friends went tiny program biggest school populated county schedule going change they havent told will website use school deleted and me reason couldnt even see assignments theres testing tomorrow top off theres much im really worried something going go wrong social anxiety doesnt help either wont stay much longer get tomorrow might look replies morning miss them,0 +full house wonderful sitcom dad danny tanner whose wife died car crash danny asks brother law jesse katsopolis best friend joey gladstone help raise three girls donna jo dj tanner stephanie tanner michelle tanner favorite show ever watch day long something full house always making laugh sad parts also never dull moment full house main characters played by bob sagetdanny tanner john stamosjesse katsopolis dave coulierjoey gladstone candace camerondj tanner jodie sweetinstephanie tanner marykate ashley olsenmichelle tanner,0 +well final wordsi know simple way die without anything harmful myself dialing number curse eventually die afterwards keypad im ready push shiny green button hoax ill disappointed never prove kill call it so might final words im bitch bye,1 +u lost baby girl god hate fucking movie,0 +moved state boyfriend seriously strugglingi uninsured meds had job benefits lined situation control get job basically got discriminated preemployment physical furiousonly got license state get marketplace plan probably cover treatment need stopped different meds without guidance doctor choicethe job ended taking scheduling every weekend saturday sunday shared days boyfriend friends spend days alonei used hobbies perfectly content alone enjoy anything enough worth effort everything hardi spend lonely days mindlessly scrolling social media bored death want anything nothing appealingi hate working hate days alone hate everything excited new start life kicking face repeatedly angry defeated moved struggling,1 +petition make chips bags less noisy my hungry as sleeping parents dont appreciate noise,0 +life sucksim out ciao,1 +saying love day love ,0 +reddit need help long readim sorry advance long read need advice soon year old male engaged year old female long distance relationship south dakota usa new zealand like said long distance little backstory met online year ago playing league legends call us nerds whatever want dont care really hit off slowly started learning fell love really got know her born south korea moved new zealand years old speaks extremely good english mostly self taught dont know way korean parents raise children quite harsh sometimes strict cases dont care child thinking feeling long living standards parents different get later little backstory her told long dating raped age then current boyfriend planned breaking took mature route wanted person rather phone went house ended it didnt take well said going get pregnant couldnt leave him people could turn family friends didnt feel comfortable telling them family blamed turned away reason idea cruel do started blaming became depressed cut herself smoked packs day one point time even attempted redflag twice happened met her always blamed since matter try say isnt fault still blames herself understand feels way blaming long believes right way used blaming herself might another way say it idk skype time text time we relatively clingy people serious relationship either us had talk sleep every night skype days depressed talking redflag able calm bring thinking like that would always thank tell happy someone like me makes feel good inside back november took loan made trip new zealand visit her days god best days lives proposed there said yes heartbeat never seen happy before expected trip hard us definately took harder depressed more talked planning next visit would come see states felt far away hard stay positive lot depressed keep mind whole time relationship going on getting shit failure daughter would rather disown let wants life stressed weeks ago started new job help raise money next trip also started school week going art school she origionally enrolled psychology hated dropped out needless say parents happy school work even stress hard time meeting new people due past nerve racking her story really starts months since visit still stressed depressed everything going life confessed starting forget felt like next me forgot felt like depressed that sending things hold make feeling go away helped bit never went away completely made friend coworker supportive it happy her told wanted guy like her said even though knew bad wrong wanted things remember felt like me tried best clear thoughts mind weeks ago cheated me confessed everything without say anything own felt terrible feeling wanted remember wasnt there didnt give feeling wanted feelings guy depressed ever hurt me said forgave her still loved her didnt leave honest me justhad weak moment even tho forgiven her still feels terrible stayed depressed it like almost weeks now tonight happened tonight im here im typing right now learned tonight learned victim sexual assault early age schoolboy would touch said told anyone would tell whole school kept silent hadnt told soul told tonight told ages also sexually assaulted brother years older dont remember which started saying curious female body looked like asked show him did said wanted play doctor her would play let surgery down there touched her wont go bunch details made give oral gave oral her behavior stopped long met her also never told anyone before happened next scary voice chatting bed said tired wanted lay down depressed again depressed soft sad voice sounds like cry normally listens talk helps calm down could talk anything really would help would talk would ask question right told things past voice changed soft sad voice loud firm voice almost creepy crisp clear didnt sound sad scared sounded possesed angry dont really know describe it started talking wanted kill parents detail telling stop think like that trying talk calm down started laughing happy laugh demonic laugh almost imagine someone would laugh say would kill parents knew didnt really want that like her know angry doesnt like much still like her kept telling stop getting scared didnt sound like listening all voice changed back soft sad voice said scaring me asked why told idea talking about said scaring started cry told everything would okay said loved other sooner say voice changed back again creepy crisp said didnt believe said loved her started telling ever found another family would find us would slit childrens throats right front would make watch blood spray would move onto wife kill make watch too said would burn me whole thing laughing started crying didnt know think say mild panic attack attack crying breathing became kinda fucked up sounded like run marathon laughing sudden voice changed back soft started crying asking breathing like scaring her told why said why would ever say things you thats horrible kept crying crying didnt remember idea knew telling truth could tell started talking long sounded like fallen asleep i talked sleep enough times know breathing would sound like finally slept said sleep tight tonight creepy voice right dont tell do said wanted help said well arnt good help right now creepy talking me said didnt like talking told hang up refused started laughing saying what going then scared going cry again said that started crying right then laughing calling baby crying real hurtful hear fiance started crying why me deserve this got soft said you didnt anything crying started cry again idea saying me im really freaked out ended falling asleep long after last heard creepy voice sent long text talking happened believe wouldnt remember it woke text back said remembered crying breathing funny scared right asleep idea do dont know think dont know means first time personalities appear looked online found dissociative identity disorder describes multiple personalities apparent amnesia memories prior talks cases reported childhood sexual trauma extreme stress anyone help out tell whats going on give advice tell do im scared her dont know do,1 +thinking overdosing bag asphyxiation bleeding tonight everything planned outi like posting here many places suicidal discussion found active usually taken obscuredif years therapy pills done anything whatsoever know help feel like much shake this eaten days clean system write redflag note thinking overdosing acetaminophendayquil liquicaps count robitussen antihistamines bag asphyxiation severing arteries arm years old pounds born malei transgender felt way since around age able get support whatsoever family aprehensive negative situation would probably take long describe reasons want go this general dealing massive ptsd things happened years ago verbal physical sexual abuse absolute hatred myself feel like absolute stranger home lost first job month due life complications high stress work area license ect heard stock support answers youre young redflag permanent solution temporary problem ect time feeling way taken therapist therapist getting random pills prescribed slipshod way hospitalized redflag attempts everything worked fairly certain want go this failing redflag attempts past think take going back hospital resuming life hell lockdown afraid fail fuck things even worse never overdosed before know combination methods want call redflag numbers want traced want everything end,1 +know bits pieces gullivers travels tiny people yeah sure liliputians giants too us may recall might remember word yahoo comes here thats stops peoplebr br swifts book omnipresent school libraries thats first read it theres lot people read last time treacherously lightly written like many old adventure books children read it still dripping satire black uncompromising thats something think screen writers forget adapt moviebr br this movie remembers however hero ted danson gives credible serious performance worldadjusted man whos thrown mysterious countries like own gullivers travels criticizes everything theists scientists government commonfolk ethnicity humanity itself spared satire fresh todaybr br while faithful story movie also dares adding new angles work well screen writer deserves credit managing balance well time activityits boring isbr br production values way beyond tv movie marketing movie would done well box office fantastic worlds gulliver visits wellmade explained detail often funny much like swifts bookbr br actors pros since british production mary steenburgen stands out along james foxs dr bates chillingly cruel doctor who much like nurse ratched wants patients bestbr br so modest proposal ever get chance get movie so real treat,0 +awkward moment one family waking latest walk room see everyone staring,0 +get kiss make last forever,0 +tiredyeah yeah know everyones tired were tired suicidality makes tired depression makes tired buy im really really tired get feeling chest every time breathe cant fucking stand want die,1 +petition ban teens subreddit feel like majority poor quality posts come them order get posts out shall ban people make them,0 +played piano piece basically rhythm im good,0 +im thinking killing tonight would easy ir feels selfish anyone talk meeh,1 +want alive stupid title fuck offi matter nobody cant stick things promise myself ive made many mistakes spite gone much shit mistakes still end repeating again cannot anymore want quit want end cyanide seems best way bitch get hold of enough place space hang myself idk maybe ill jump tall building something want vent scream just express theres nothing left me part wants get better part wants quit life im constant battle cant seem win fuck shit fuck all,1 +feel scared know life feel stupid pathetic low selfesteem every time feel anxious tend suicidal thoughts find difficult explain feel family get it want see psychologist feel scared every time try need help,1 +im tired everything dont even know explain hate every single thing existing right even myself idk whats going,0 + year old daughter began taking riding lessons started looking horse movies her always heard national velvet never seen it boy glad bought it become favorite mine year old year old shame movies like made anymore,0 +dont know doim gay live utah family deeply religious got kicked house year half ago im going college grand total friends one isnt talking dont know why two best friends one told make depression worse turn help cant talk anyone one ive never even fucking held guys hand fucking life dont know im kind rambling dont know do im lonely dont feel like home ive tried dating couple times guess get head want someone hold cry want old friends back came out feel like life going everyone around seems burdened me reason havent killed best friend one isnt talking me dad committed redflag could never make go again dont know go make life bearable counselor school really like him sessions feel helpful im end week feel like killing again im lost dont see reason dont know find purpose feels pointless im sorry dont mean bother anyone ugh feel like fucking exploding im sorry know people dont like swear words ugh tl dr im lonely piece shit,1 +safe spaces arent safe spaces mei opened experiences sexually assaulted raped women know people said im homophobic didnt enjoy catcalled woman age motherly touching time giving unwanted hugs course wasnt abusing power teacher reach back touch me anything normal middle school teacher would do fuck safe space talk women abused without labelled victim women apparently pure pristine i im girl too world sucks theres good theres people use experiences assholes others never see world changing better everyone becoming selfish caught even stop think second theyre doing everyone cares making look good everyone cares always right always correct always last word everyone cares themselves care too im going fucking kill myself,1 +guys ever act like this youre mentally confused dont even know ironic sincere makes friends concerned,0 +hate respondus bio teacher recently made us start using lockdown quizzes exams thats fine dandy answers quiz fucking available idk fuck got wrong idk need fucking study retake get better fucking grade part problem idek wtf quiz prior taking it said protosomes went ppts canvas one mentioned studied ppt quiz info ppt studied fuckin done this prob gonna cheat via sticky notes next time retake,0 +im gonna fail probably kill myselfyeah know posted last night im back im probably looking attention tried hard last night stayed late looking notes it even focus second math midterm one hour know im gonna fail know im gonna run home know im gonna fucking cry like loser cause loser im stupid pathetic loser say im gonna kill know probably wont never do closest ive ever gotten almost dropping toaster tub god wish badly close im sure today im gonna fucking set im gonna cry ill feel really guilty friend feeling bad ill pussy cause im pussy im gonna sleep wake up fail another midterm repeat im gonna fucking think christmas break hurts god damn much alive energy keep going ill lifeless corpse kind coasting life dont know even bother posting here im gonna end know it im failure every way wish would stop im failure school im disgusting hurts waste time waste flesh im sorry wasting anybodys time shit,1 +im going high school different country im nervous shit tips language barriers anything know anyone there plus whole attitude place different tips help,0 +real onez get joke ,0 +convince friends cries help ironic keep lying make know anything cant fucking anymore im fucking lonely please god stop,0 +much plot movie wealthy baseball team owner dies whose wife going sue hospital neglience much that matterbr br it matter real actors giving dialogue life cast hysterically funny scenes even cracking laughing smile face br br matthau plays charley whose wife recently passed away finds object desire several women hospital delighted taste everything menu available him meets anne atkinson glenda jackson who first patient hospital their first scene together funny meet television panel discussion show disagree nearly every topic discussed br br charley begins like anne viceversa except big monogamy men life her husband cheater decide give shot two weeks faithfulness br br i give away anything else want mention chemistry matthau jackson screen usually first person anyone would think romantic middleaged comedy touch comedy light agreeable matched every step way matthau charming ever play mr sensitive mr macho get girl himself br br art carney riot practically senile doctor scene baseball team owners ashes buried home plate priceless also funny scene parking lot richard benjamin richard much movie often straight man carney matthau role tax considerable talents good time making comedy br br very much recommendedbr br ps fyi matthau presented jackson first best actress oscar jackson presented best actor art carney role harry tonto,0 +kitten got ran month old kitten split truck morning crying past hours do sight traumatized me left unwatched minutes happens please make happy,0 + feel like reason im following redflag mother brother themim middle aged guy single lonely graduate college crappy gpa real hopes life feel within grasp im sick needing scrape others survive motivation shriveled away feel like im taking space education psychology neuroscience ive come figure think quite effective painless ways well frustration mother brother love much would destroy thing so feel trapped cant escape either way im hurting someone makes feel helpless depressed,1 +saw blue vent fcker went vented bloody serious this opened vent ugly blue feet fcking jumped vent ugly blue bastard gonna pay this,0 +slapped shit ex tell im piece shit deserve diei already know,1 +put ean fork put bean spoon need bean fork spoon,0 +everythings falling apartlife constantly throwing shit good days getting rare motivation anything everyone else succeeding im failing im losing friends nothing helps buy its gonna better tomorrowsoon bullshit ive given life far many chances im tired im exhausted want,1 +someone anynomis blessed cow cow way see universe owes cow blessing anyone cow want blessed,0 +name jesus yearold male want dieive thoughts since freshman year highschool dont know much want say part wants bawl lifes story let everything note says hey alive another part wants disappear abyss bother anyone hurt anyone else all ive already let family down let others too theres small part wants live continue hopeful naive fool used be want die always remembered quote friend anthony used say favorite game little the heart may weak sometimes may even give in ive learned that deep down theres light never goes out stopped attempting multiple times now nomatter much want shake die cant ive panic attacks manic episodes years keeping family knowing anything wanna worry them want shun like others opening up dont think life meaningless theres lot things world love family friends significant other music games animals food things cant think deserve this im stubborn opinionated asshole friends openly make fun good fun know lot people care now want die every time try every time resolve myself remember care for dont want hurt them already hurt them want die lived th floor dorms college now roommate differences room myself every night looked window wondering itd like fall never balls it now want die ever ive got word academic suspension university ive poor academic standing continuous threats parents get kicked nowhere stay continue poorly school received threat first term freshman year college since regular panic attacks crying sleep even significant unaware this two former roommates do consider close friends ive here drinking last days knowing talk family im here drinking homemade moonshine friend got late birthday preset wanting close eyes die painless death dont know do talk family keep living every plan thrown window even college education look fiancee confidence finding place together already enough depression anxiety severe own ive pull knife away hands cried tried stab herself theres reason im alive try give happy life cant even that name jesus garcia yearold male former student msoe software engineering program weeks ago someone campus know committed redflag leading week finals failed classes leading go academic suspension want follow suit cant matter much want die cant,1 +day asking everyone filler filler filler poggers filler filler filler,0 +heres tip wearing mask glasses put glasses top mask fog up welcome ,0 +fork outlet rope throat slit pills laylon bag faster,1 +gay asking friend,0 +im fucking done suffering end itlegit eye fucked since sunday im done come home dont shit back hurts arms too eye hurts im writing shit point nothing loose family idc want motherfucking end it end god damn eye pain end constant suffering school anyone tips could end life without anyone close noticing im gone,1 +im sorrytheres many things would take back could think deserve live know world better end now im worse scum cant ask forgiveness,1 +question harm free mean liek ive seen people posting it face value looks pretty easy likejust harm lol also people harming themselve daily basis why coz suicidal thought suicidal people commit redflag harming like lite version comminiting redflag what,0 +im crying buses today full due limited capacity thanks corona important school year ive already missed second day ive asked work teachers still feel like fucking failure,0 +im getting tired holding onmy heart aches every single day anxiety depression hard see end this im hanging on im really trying im tired,1 +said time ago would make years kill self iti said time ago wether would make years kill self it certain time,1 +think witnessed teacher mental breakdown school got quarantined made masks optional everyone got sick already home choice teacher calls us tears eyes using text chat kid playing drums morning bad headache starts eating betty crocker icing nearly crying cat jumps starts spoonfeeding icing uffudjdjdjdfjdndjdjfnfjvjfjf forgot teachers people,0 +relapsing isnt enoughi annoy people probably annoy everyone amount posts ive made ive deleted im sick tired world im going go look tools attempt again cutting bullshit im fed endless cycle goodbye,1 +im doneive therapy years ive gone inpatient ive tried numerous cocktails meds ive got one friend kids time dog cat enough im struggling keep head water interests desires goals responsibilities thing keeping going im tired time get everything order go it,1 +im high kite gotta go home wish luck homies cant let parents find need tdream food alpacas cream like really galaxy stufff man wish luck homies woah,0 +havent talked year he backpedaling dohttpsimgurcomalrxiqa still dont know friend going school im going cuz apparently hates,0 +antifa terrorist organization even full orginazation trump must crack something cause crazy bruh,0 +attempting scary living painful even hate me want part gone back hate wait antidepressants universe laughs uskind words appreciated dearly living painful,1 +riding high success rebel without cause came tidal wave teen movies arguably one best young mcarthur excels really troubled teen story concentrates perceptions delinquency traumatic occurrence supporting cast memorable frankenheimer directs like old pro story young man finds others take actions much seriously,0 +people saying homo like homo no homo,0 +since friday redflag depression bad surpassing meds never wanted kill friday today life never confusing tired never end end day care others want put elderly mother friends family pain it afraid one day get point care anymore eitheri know do struggle bus right now,1 +thinking tonight maybe tomorrowi cant live without him able see killing me depression killing me im scared anymore know whats going happen,1 +clearly reason fim done really really done everything ive trying fake happiness mental stability cant really anymore im slipping im depressed ive ever life know triggered current suicidal thought explosion gotten point frequent cycles suicidal thoughts increasing frequency length means kill myself even quickly ive got gun car could drive mountains drive road somewhere one find end it one clean mess ill make sure tie loose ends itll fine ill free im close it scary thing im trying cry trying relieve tension eyes burning tears fall cant anymore know get better start,1 +cant stop thinking iti live next train tracks trains go fairly often several times hour every time hear sound train going think redflag killing myself like automatically visualize killing jumping front one trains triggers thoughts constantly cant get away since live here im lot distress moment know going try kill right becoming real option im scared want scared feel like giving,1 +lesser known film starring roy thinnes from tvs invaders actually consider lost gem made time story important special effects though effect fairly good time scientist theorizes another world earths orbit directly behind sun since sun always blocks us never see earth roy thinnes selected go mission get world want tell rest plot give rest movie away lets say real surprisesbr br the movie british good british flavor acting tv series like avengers,0 +im useless want dieim useless everyone want anymore im tired everything cant kill myself cant please girlfriend ed years old poor always struggling tired believe religious stuff pray death come way get shot car accident quick painless take away shithole thing ive given called life cant anymore love people ok im not want die feel anything anymore,1 +want die badlyi one nothing want everything end ive ruined life already theres way recover cant live ive done am,1 +think ive fill ready clock outat point life honestly feel like ive lived enough cases squandered time here im point feel like anything worth giving anymore lengthy spat depression ive never felt sense relief deciding finally time working security guard know im easily replaceable live two cats im planning rehoming time theyre well kept ive never considered close family know theyll suffer know move theyre stronger me reason cant pinpoint one exact one could learned parents accident never planned kids leading somewhat neglected child could ive grown despise general public dealt years shitty security job could fact ive read much next generation humans realized cant stand people growing becoming either anxiety ridden messes sjw types whod rather rip apart whatever reason deem rather grow people themselves guess could say hate era in id rather apart suffer it ive already chosen method im sure work need make sure cats safe cared for deserve me,1 +shotgunits bed loaded think daily sometimes multiple times ticket here like insurance policy way reassurance leave time im ready belonged grandfather feel like shitty person willingness use myself again feel like shitty person lot reasons,1 +force stay alive one else sufferlife fair,1 +typing lower case make terrible person typing lower case make terrible person,0 +one watches romantic comedies one knows expect weve seen enough many many years know go theres formula one almost always begets movies become popular genres audience always relation actual quality play around that create something interesting movie suggestion works relatively well instead simply following lead follow skillfully helping unfortunate men lack attractive facade would allow reveal unseen good qualities possess women love with plot follows smith works selfproclaimed difficult case kevin james alongside aid james also follow mendes fed men lie get wantone particular scene inspires great respect smiths character meeting one jerk putting place seeing smith helping disaster james see mendes spite talent helping others messes up badly her making marvelous point love falling love affects us romantic comedy mostly avoids pitfalls suchat times almost bordering feeling like spoof genre though last scenes sweetness emotions type films whether follow formula revealed review pace quite good never really slows down seldom moves fast acting great far pretty much everyone goes characters nicely developed come real people humor always work occasional gags less fortunately executed one two jokes seem forced however part film funny recommend anyone likes romantic comedies anyone love believe love difficult time last scenes ,0 +hate weaki hate weak want strong know takes strong energy im happiest wake cup coffee hour two energy drops feel like theres way make situation better im currently part time employed work small company cleaning houses left disarray go back market need money bank statements negative work hurts dread going back im strong enough it people tell im smart feel like way think look things hurts me know theres beyond universe god reality theatrical everything perception brains soul live ghetto friends understand way think using big words impressive selling drugs idea nobility want go college even money car want learn drive nobody teach free im afraid im nervous driver understand happening several hundred pound vehicle going fast im afraid hurting people like hate drugs theyre escape make worse stopped taking want again child parents put medication rowdy hate now even though try nice me think thats caused chemical imbalance brain hate much it use really fat bullied highschool wanted kill several times afraid feeling afraid almost completely gone now im fat anymore cause moved parents decided could starve myself take effort id skinny am im even called handsome time feel like worked it still feel fat gross inside matter people tell me want love someone im afraid opening up loved someone life relationship gone way teenager think deserve love im burden offer nothing problems want impose someone cared for im tired time thoughts race need distract myself time like going walks listening audiobooks thats way really distract long enough relax liked listening audiobooks gym too cant anymore job hurts body much im barely graduated highschool hated going much ive never job proud feel like ive already proven become anything comforting thoughts redflag id like od mind dying happiest point hurt friends knowledge wanted kill either theyd think reckless want cry think anymore want help one burden me want help think im good enough so,1 +boyfriend broke opened pasti told happened youngster quite serious thing days later dumped me want someone talk hes one told doesent want care anymore,1 +cant kill myselfi know whats stopping me think enough guts it want brave single moment end everything good,1 +apologies advance post long ill try detail words canquick background junior college good home life lot friends intelligent struggles redflag never anything extremein september suffered head injury playing pickup football friends feel serious back game minutes later like nothing happened symptoms kick daysin hindsight probably mild concussion nothing major however idea dealing with treated probably exactly treat it worried constantly pushed school partying etc lot wiggle room comes slowing college life continued try push on ended bad idea symptoms weeks timein late november suddenly crashed everything went shit again sudden course day became totally dissociated brain fog increased tremendously thought nothing symptom flair first eight months later still deal symptoms destroyed lifei done everything seen doctors thought would help nothing given relief constantly dissociated since time brain functions fraction capacity used to makes life fucking terrible live still try things before never enjoy anything due way constantly feel motivation pretty much gone driving feels like life risking activity every time it school next impossible last semester better one coming upthe silver lining think problem worry redflag trapped brain trauma surrounding worrying issue rather injury itself officially diagnosed depression one doctor thought could prolonging issues even knowledge cannot find relief whatsoever struggle tell people first personal second struggle share feelings third always guy light room act want bring peoples moods around me people life know suffering nobody knows suffering deal mentally daily basis hopeless right now wanted get chest anonymously,1 +helpi dont know anymore feel ive reach dead end life cant get rid thought ending life head,1 +thought homework realized skyscrapers made concrete glass things concrete glass made sand skyscrapers tall sandcastles,0 +list favorite users sub,0 +emotions break facade caring hurts mostso might little older you life sucks knew person believe could feel way true happiness often times someone share life with goals fears aspirations anyone like almost years real kicker is im attractive wealthy smart funny etc great qualities mean nothing utterly alone try open couple friends obviously want nothing conversation end instead trying help im gay im single kids relationships one really care much im not happy gets dark point feel ok take sleeping pill go bed even pm ill sit bed long feign sleep stay state waking emotions fully taken grasp awake want sleep mind turned pain even ability watch movie without feeling like shit turn off almost pm think hours late enough take another sleeping pill even though got bed minutes ago life sit million dollar condo sleeping much can sleeping pain away increasing despair day innaction its going long even know get spiral ive crossed event horizon im spinning towards singularity hopefully less pain rest trip wish good advice im cautionary tale things replace people matter have someone pointless,1 +wana something romantic come place build mellenial falcon legos microwave left macroni cheese watch old episodes ninjago build pillow fort sleep bed sounds pretty romantic right,0 +normal shaving razors single edge razorsare razors people use shave body hair ones people usually use self harm with sharper really difference,1 +pseudocatholicism far know real religion completely fictional meant world willian noah pseudocatholicism branch christianity part catholic church however pope declared controversial statements contradicted many beliefs churchgoers large group people separated main head church pope called groups pseudocatholics disappointment happily accepted name stuck newfound subreligion different kinds pseudocatholics part follow rituals practices main church decline autocracy pope believe head church desecration scriptures,0 +alert karen encounter know guys probably dont care heres story dad went run together run way split kept running started go home exercising asthma wasnt wearing maskwhere wear mask ur shopping public transport see going ummm casually running home lady wearing mask comes like kinda close asks u wearing mask say said start shes like and theres global pandemic wear mask anywhere even could make fucking asthma attack lady pulls phone calls police fucking yo going run like wtf,0 +yk tho moment change flair feel hella powerful switching flair mmmmhhmm,0 +fat cry feeling like shit aha ha love,0 +swear friends literally say anything you say joke cant get mad literally got told best friend hot wasnt front group people cant upset joke like ok,0 +finals week going kill mei really cant anymore think im going kill myself im sorry,1 +tell obe reason end all feeling like ahit past years everyone says im faking depression im really depressed gen z fake depression therefore also do ao close ending all tell good reason killing myself care feelings family,0 +sucks suicidalyou know fucking sucks suicidal coward many fucking times felt like shittiest piece trash world cant end it question much really want it question cant build courage fucking end it cutting excessive drinking easy second decide tonights night im done freeze cant it envy people built courage end lives thats ballsy,1 +dads pull game weaki unplanned born underage parents grew dysfunctional family mom often drank pregnancy ive left many neurological issues also dealing gender identity crisis want cut incorrect body parts cant make changes im wish aborted wish dad used fucking condom,1 +recommending songs untill get gf day about girl nirvanahttpsyoutubejixhplxdu,0 +anyone know good site watch movies dont money netflix streaming services page used watching shows movies got taken days ago im searching another one anyone recommend any ,0 +early bitcoin get involved read plans for entrepreneurs sending pi new digital currency developed stanford phds million members worldwide claim pi use username aiawaska invitation,0 +moved away home town want go back feel trapped urge self harmi moved away home town girlfriend want move back doesnt stressed panicking treating badly angry want move back likes live now mental health really bad every day fighting urge self harm kill myself know do wish could kill upset anyone,1 +hate lifemiserable years bother,1 +idk anymoreim trying find reason stay hard dont think ill kms yet im jsut hurting fucking much idk waht do dont see point life anymore,1 +say time heals woundsthen feel broken time ive never meaningful relationship ive never girlfriend ive strung along many years ive never even kissed girl im already thirties want someone love least give chance ive never admitted anyone everyone assumes im normal person thats normal relationships never happened me ive rejected many times cant believe time gone share life someone love im tired trying im tired alone im tired sad im tired alive know im much coward anything it im waste human life,1 +really hope help hereat first want say im suicidal right now though years off dont know right subreddit post hope guys help out heres problem years ago back school met girl fell love moment met started affair able tell one felt fear feelings may returned year sex first time us somehow lost ended talking years time started relationship friend mine got pretty heavy depression got suicidal unrelated went medication even made depression worse leaving body mind shattered anyhow less recovered life went on girl went united states year came back she still friend mine long talk made up unfortunately feelings got really strong started kind affair not physically beginning tried end unable go it ended us sex again time started suffer pretty heavy anorexia mental issues told boyfriend stayed together stopped talking again pretty much hit rock bottom getting depressed suicidal again time started drinking daily basis drugs started relationship girl school trying get something stabilize emotionally kind completely blacked everything related happened years able face emotions relating happened broke girl tried cope emotions result started drinking drugs even least facing emotions trying cope them year less back feet still drinking drugs though worse before realized wasnt able open another person able relationship really worked tried learn open emotionally really made progress too eventually recovered emotionally still suicidal time time able cope less months ago started contact girl realized still big part life still feelings her turned felt way meanwhile also broken boyfriend weeks ago met amazing talked long time found still love decided try relationship really love life her really happy moment relationship amazing anyhow huge fear happen doesnt work out feel would able go afraid would kill self broke up im afraid dont learn control fear sabotage destroy relationship feel without girl nothing live for know life without could go got know wonderful life be realize im kind emotionally depending kind emotionally depending nothing this gave hint feel fear tell everything put much pressure scare away really hope guys help out totally missed subreddit maybe tell go problem thank much reading advice and im sorry bad english hope could point situation though,1 +im failure every measure cant escape realityill try keep short im almost years old im obese ive worked jobs since turned quit within month ghosting them ive heavily relied dad pay bills buy food since turned went community college dropped out im roughly debt credit score skills attention span nonexistent cant even watch movie without pausing every minutes research random thought had im still virgin fact ive never even relationship even elementary school barely friends hate around people avoid eye contact instinct ive met people hold conversation resent theyre annoying me always feel awkward matter situation im in even im friends feel like complete outsider belong thats thats wrong me now problems even good person which im not cannot escape godforsaken town people reside it ive burned bridges many employers im incredibly hard time finding job constantly talk family treated like complete shit younger yet expects everything peaches cream im older give money shit im sick sisters personal babysitter two kids im sock pretending care people care about im sick going stores seeing people absolutely despise hate everything really fucking hate everything single good thing life feel like im reaching end rope see anyway hell ill feel bad redflag may affect dad im sure hell get it going wait felt really bad him new wife hes happy her least support system im done,1 +so facing time prison like years know family behind back already mentioned times mother go ill probably end killing pretty neutral it even though know cares me burden worrying put extra money commissary travel time amp everything else feel like ending things would put everything rest little easier know sad grieve honestly know get passed given years think physically mentally survive prison years currently thought court dates come closer afraid might actually put situation guess venting never scared life facing prison thinking ending it,1 +kind movie people certain age say i think made movies like anymore walter matthau gives usual overthetop performance instead leaving teeth marks scenery leaves endearing grease stains like great uncle know still wears plaid polyester embarrasses everyone still love anywaybr br jack lemmons performance reminds us golden globe nominations anyone else gives truetolife performance basically good ordinary man even milieu farcebr br this film probably appeal people prefer blunt humor designed confront offend appeal people appreciate broad farce played straight facebr br the entire supporting cast excellent ability play absurd characters maintaining reality characterbr br brent spiner gives marvelous performance professional version lounge lizard anyone known professional hosts real life immediately recognize type playing nails type perfectly rendition slime merits study perfect example contrast absurd patheticbr br the plot rather straightforward lets marry rich theme usual results plot theme done thousand times mean dated rather timeless themebr br the rest supporting cast shows happen professionals exhibit skills roles written them instead vying spotlight film even second tier actors shine also obvious enjoyed making filmbr br the plot may standard thin allows performers shinebr br this film true treat people want see professional actors engaging craft plot falls away performers shine,0 +nobody loves me going end allnobody loves me parents doesnt love much homework much stress friend hates me going end one friend hates,1 +assigned sort population earth one side die one side remain alive would divide it theres guarantee side going left alive side could dead exactly could example ,0 +many people ironing shirts like iron shirt every day school notice many people wrinkly ass shirts became something always notice probably favorite insult doesnt matter said pointed yo wrinkly shirt like coming school shirt looking like that,0 +m think might addicted weed can quite often im new zealand expensive cheap stuff like using socialise friends im quite akward irl like weed makes happier makes world nicer warmer vivid place havent smoked week im looking weed posts insta wanna reach screen grab joints see feel affected mental state makes feel relaxed get high i quite severe paranoia sober makes sad life bit happier feel im becoming dependent socially,0 +im collecting pills every day overdosemy family thinks im taking pills regularly im stashing till enough,1 +based book space vampires colin wilson in humble opinion one best pieces scifi horror come eighties effects done ilm still hold todays standards actors mostly british british seem give film greater depth realismbr br film panned critics sadly failed well box office sides atlantic tobe hooper blamed promotional work done release main cause low takings whatever reason still detract fact excellent film great cast wellpaced plotbr br overlooked,0 +im tiredi dissociated years now battling suicidal thoughts constant self harm top nicotine addiction im years old sick ignored parents despite cries help cant live like anymore,1 +need help longhi problem become main source depression nihilistic beliefs past years living sisters although supporting me hard live with mom staying grandpa already caretakers fine however mom refuses get job find us place live move last one tell tell get job keeps saying faith god plan us matter much pray nothing changed begun become frustrated every night go sleep wake knowing cant leave hell living in dont know anymore contemplating redflag someone please help please,1 +never fucking good enoughi hate fucking much wish courage say maybe ill send know truly feel may think love deep hate every fiber being cant see try best never good enough every single time argue hold back feelings wanna hurt feelings im sick tired it cant let live life wanna live stop dictator,1 +fuck u fuck u fuck u fuck u know hate fuck uhttpsredditcomume,0 +lockdown extended another four weeks end august me sucks miss socialising trying enjoy things bring joy life unfortunately done hopefully much longer downdepressed laying bed day nothing miserable lockdown depression,1 +wake feeling really proceed go day feeling really depressed able much curl evenings lie bed feeling like complete crap body never girl want spend half night tears able sleep find really takes toll relationship boyfriend leads fights distant seem uninterestedi really wish could minute peace even activities rarely takes mind dysphoria cope day day gender dysphoria,1 +sidewalk ends deserves better known film directed otto preminger man gave world laura time hes got costars dana andrews gene tierney must said tierney underused amounts supporting role spotlight goes andrewsbr br he plays tough hardened cop used dealing bunch thugs vigorous way one night accidentally kills man process arresting him suspicion falls cab driver tom tully goes along investigation murder starts feel guilt hes love cabbies daughter gene tierney tierney way looks little elegant girl playing seem fit squalid background elements storybr br the story takes grim turn investigation goes deeper discovered murdered man silver plate head service war hero end turns morality tale andrews developing conscience crimebr br its fascinating film noir capable performances strong supporting cast good entry field noir forcefully directed preminger nicely played andrews tierney despite slight miscasting character,0 +everything feels like much effort hate myself everything would better dead want die,1 +dont know life feel motivation slowly slipping away me longer feel enjoyment usually find comfort in ive lost touch friends hurt relationships family started slip school work guess im wondering anyone gone something similar get dark place,0 +film got terrible reviews offbeat critics usually get offbeat films thought id give try unfortunately largely right instancebr br the film awkward feel putting sort feel impossible describe good one confound things script dull aimless thing vaguely interestingbr br the immensely talented thurman drifts mess creating barely impact hurt bracco try vain add something film enthusiastic performance nothing script may less embarrassing merely chosen drift get like thurmanbr br one thing esteemed film critics fail mention however film actually quite funny whether moments accurate satire outrageously weird moments like cowgirls question chase hurt ranch smell unwashedahemfront bottomsbr br because chortles acheived throughout recommend film entertainment watching even cowgirls get blues worthwhile something different,0 +struggling suicidal thoughts years now finally made decision it really want talk anyone happened want something decided car aka carbon monoxide poisoning sitting car diesel powered audi diesel going buy cheap old petrol engine vehicle want attempt successful made decision,1 +f married seeming like unable kids job constantly belittled friends family wants start drama feel like failed life difficulty children really weighing sending dark place feel like everyone perfect lives world punishing me tired feeling like failure,1 +something regret got cyber bullied bullied ignored cant get headim sure right place this ill write anyway months summer something completely regret school surrounded assholes thought money bragged humiliated whoever new trends whatever fuck means see ive always felt lot different others see point competition fashion see point ranking one another based wear always felt like myself good thing true friends though three is one day felt strange like needed something opened eyes thing depressed even think about ever since things changed security cameras outside building it happened knew building part group suspects never trouble principals office one could possibly imagine me fessed via email changed story made sound way innocent harmless believed fucking staff believed me thought it everyone else knew lied knew lied started getting bullied harshly bullied walk anywhere without hearing behind guy the thing got cyber bullied got told go kill myself felt ive felt depressed ever since find enjoyment many things least much used to cant ever cry single tear forcefully make cry moved away still feel horrible did get memories getting worst names treated like absolute garbage felt many different emotions lately regret know do keep thinking negative effect future like ive fucked whole life already made grave mistake know it fucked up know it feel many things anymore know it feel depressed know it something do ive given lot hope hopefully someone read whole thing feels good let someone else know humans hope guys good knowing did really curious please respectfully message get chest hopefully,1 +tried repair phone screen toothpaste broken phone screen toothpaste it,0 +realized expensive phones god damn splurge unless disposable income,0 +got stage want help anymore dont careyeh suffering silence depression years went doctor said couldnt help wait councellor therapist asked medication said wouldnt willing issue it told go away talk family even though said cant talk things ive got stage give up maybe deserve ive ben giving shit life even want help anymore im accepting happiness option anymore accept truly happy forgotten feels like ive started smoking order shorten life die earlier cant stand life people happy theres me shitty sat pushed fucking corner one gives shit about im always blame everything always fault truly give reddit love people try help even though dont know real life never really respect help unfortunately im lost nothing now give up people sad go maybe itll make realise eyes open looked rather fucking time thanks,1 +anyone else sub pet snails lot people love think cute keep them also some,0 +lgbtq situation malaysia im sure saw petition malaysia let clear air punishments denounced previous prime minister cases people punished practising lgbt activities petition made two years ago lesbian couple tried sex car majority malaysia care youre gay not three punishments conducted cuz pas controlled areas pas religious political party imagine church taking country that theres much areas controlled pas religious court responsible punishments polis dont care gay not really holy muslims christians report people religious police yes theres still consequences get reported aunties uncles religious christians muslims please dont spread false information,0 +almost certain going happen likely suicide likely jumping bridgei woke am pt slept maybe hours waking felt like wanted die happens every dayi tired all death depression,1 +fucked real bad accidentally sent picture answers group chat whole class including teachers quiz,0 +happened borrow movie friend knowing nothing it turned outstanding documentary journey ancient vessel across vast expanses ocean thor heyerdahl developed theory ancient incas peru managed travel thousands miles across ocean polynesia based certain relics found places certain types ancient seagoing vessels know available analysis ocean wind currents knowledge incas did fact travel undetermined amount seabr br in order test hypothesis heyerdahl crew construct vessel closely possible ancient incas available using balsa wood materials available time set lima perus capital try reach islands polynesia miles awaybr br his theory like much ancient history impossible prove certainty coverage journey provides strong support right film really little narration footage taken day expedition detailed description like trials tribulations faced often wish academy award winning documentaries easier find one years ago still interesting informative sure first released,0 +im going itmy parents hate life opened opportunities today denied itll consume life im going kill myself,1 +tried kill twice now one quite recent back may cut late night mother woke found me first thought done accident kitchen seemed concerned however told done purpose instantly become upset seem concerned way angry upset way like inconvenient her wounds horrible bad point hospitalization concerning deep mom told put neosporin go back sleep told feel safe asked call someone take somewhere told bleeding one could anything me told fine attention first thought crazy scared right able go maybe subconsciously attention texted cousin next day check doing weird stuff made sad mother continues act like everything normal talk since bring gets mad always says i care grow up move out always tells sensitive emotional reason seeking attention moved away college september parents insisted come back october covid arguments always bring up telling stayed there want leave close moving away next year college seems like closer get leaving worse thoughts become scared might happen me want relationship mom bad really love her seems like want one treats much worse younger sibling hurts bad truly feels like would care want able it know need help difficult form support regular life hate venting friends serious topic want scare burden them making wonder okay ya knowi feel sad time counting days try leave whichever comes first know make better,1 +sadly available dvd yet worth pursuing tcm vhs secretary believes boss wrongly accused murder courageously takes many dangerous characters effort establish truth movie many twists dark alleyways none mention jazz band sequence heroine seeks information killer one erotic scenes hollywood history despite low budget made wwii black white despite low budget long island looks somewhat mountainous movie original style outstanding vision ella raines great actress discovered howard hawks knew much matters casting feistiest women joanne dru hepburn angie dickinson lauren bacall ann sheridan era robert siodmak one several german hungarian czech filmmakers sirk wilder zinnemann lubitsch curtizlang etc migrs relocated hollywood brought highly original fresh vision them sadly ella raines never given great part again eventually ended poorly produced westerns,0 +smartass faked sick fearing gonna get worsenow conscience yesterday nose flood bleeding dlc rare want stay home knows may get worsemy mother avoids untill serious faked stomachache diarrhea want kill math test algebra go bound get f covid situation city resident shitand reason closing shit anything actuallyi really fear reported school second group class positive shitton isolationshould posted aita thing teenagers encountered least,0 +hate hate kind word detestability selfinflict upon myself traitor mind wanting betray heart usurp throne purloined soul left empty vessel take heed salvation fear death fear life mercenary cruel unjust bishop shall condemn purgatory unpayable debt shall never reimburse shall yield shall executioner however fight kick scream writhe like woman labour fateful day shall meet hooded apparition embrace kin shall burned pit unending torment last soldier precipice hope shall defend unending hoard shall clad armour steely stubborn will greaves protect falling ambition chasm inhibition shall wear pair formfitted yet gaped gauntlets wield blade desperation fight inevitable damnation endowed eternal hate knowis fate pessimist disappointed optimist vent poem,1 +guy hesitant watch movie know richard gear likes tear jerker movies would rather watch actionadventuresci fi right movie definitely tear jerker diane tended act times richard brought around made work daughter suppressed teen huge attitude started hating her movie way predictable entertainment purposes masterpiece go rent it see shed tearlol like notebook love one beach scenes immaculately shot even though hurricane scenes little sequence still bit panicy watch react it,0 +best way ask helpive never one ask help one would expect me one knows im suicidal hell one knows im depressed know best way go telling parents get help maybe end shooting gun ever since one person ever felt cared truely left same cant go like this nothing one feel nothing anymore fix this,1 +alright guys tea nothing better nice tea drink tbh,0 +im hungry hungry,0 +really like bc fleeting loveim generally optimistic guy even worst situations recently feel like im losing support system lover ive made throwaway bc weird way im afraid admit im turning this ill first start admitting yes bc girl cant keep wrapping head around ive plenty partners come gone one shes little hope cling onto given ultimatum come stay country x amount weeks through given recent situation fact uni student funded parents really isnt choice make ive offered come days wasnt enough dont want admit refuse continue her helps im lowest everything seems right shes around id keep going feel like ive turned rambling cant really bring write guess id like really talk someone since cant talk her get chest really dont want continue without her,1 +night wasnt great felt ignored guys my bf mutual friend mostly conversations her leaving trail behind thought maybe hosting shes opposite side spectrum compared us in shes things engages things necessarily into interested could hold conversation about anyway course relationship bf would still bring sally occasionally going hang coworkers course im totally okay encourage social can ive met friends always enjoy around except know who enter sally rolls eyes,0 +im tired feeling like thisive battled depression life got worse college started introvert forced go make friends course first person came contact raped me campus police blamed lost motivation scholarships simply couldnt stand school every time think going different college begin shut nothing stop suicidal thoughts really want give up,1 +im gonna start petition lets beat kid rteenagers merch see,0 +mil chesthas anybody else shot purpose survived feel like nobody relate with almost everyone whos shot selves dead makes sense ha fuck,1 +lost job fucked up screwed one thing gave value sick sick fucking worthless depressed long today lost job wish balls end it,1 +raising money funeralif take time day check gofundme page harold franklin would appreciated family gofundme link gfmeurrvtun,1 +afraid bodyi dont like sack flesh feel trapped scared exist forever,1 +jerking listerine use listerine jerk years now enjoy burning sensation hate penis shades lighter compared rest body yall use,0 +end mehi reddit since felt suicidal apparently now terrifying pain ahead feels terrifying too wanna live experience it alone work bawling eyes out cant keep shit together work mom run pharmacy together wanna call ask cover me want hear say like always job would allow this act like adult nobody gave lesiure young love her damn knows undermine me maybe right though im almost weak like this anyways nasty nasty fight husband mean regrettable things said sides mostly his said mean it said sorry like every time knows sensitive yet still this say harsh words anger even less sensitive person would moved fucking shattered anyways hope yesterday showed empathy said want feel like shit this heard thought maybe work it today angry again hurt say hi morning seriously considering divorce needed time calm down angry saying take responsibility mean words expressing saying mean words himself got butthurt told stop talking turned phone even stay together this love him hard get together different circumstances much other separate mean failed again nothing year old loser works mommy decide work deal said deal pain ruined experiences customers keep coming cannot put straight face front anymore takes energy battery drained pharmacy access poisons opportunity fall asleep never wake up one life hate throw away terrified whats it probably nothing terrifying too cant deal anymore failed everybody failed myself please blame husband reasons angry know it holy shit cant anymore please help,1 +deactivate social media commit redflagi done life know lot people indifferent passing would better deactivate facebook everything go make easier forget im gone,1 +lets talk throughi want die tired living tired constant heartache horrible disappointment tragedy loved ones dying me want love leaving someone else suffering feels immeasurable deep marianas trench godawful anxiety pressing chest think past recent distant see pain good outweigh bad tainted pervasive cloud negativity follows wherever go remember laughing laughing laughing best friend loved much bright blue eyes thin sly smile died car accident told facebook message steering wheel crushed heart died instant never loved way loved her loved her dead five years fell love someone else story love way loved them told incapable it theyre dating someone im cut life feel utterly alone im sure relate that no im one those wonder ive sexual partners past relationships end heartbreak abandonment must me something wrong me leave somehow want leave too ive before mental landscape vast emptiness it hissing snakes feet damned oppressive clouds hovering overhead ive even stared barrel mosin nagant shoving barrel mouth daring pull trigger eleven years ago afraid think assumed things would get better didnt keeps getting worse think im afraid more shame really sold rifle instrument fellate pull trigger wipe conscious mind clean reality im afraid dying want suffer unduly methods leave much room error lizardbrain kick scream body survive high caliber gunshot head way it best way barrel mouth point up use shotgun lethal make sure use slug good buckshot closedcasket immediate instant nothingness forever why love me anyone love love me hold close ugly undeserving must be must be must be im hideous nothingcreature crawling mud grasping branch bear feeble claws snaps disgust lets slide suffocate muck overwhelms me crystallizes around hated flesh locks away hell escape none helpless bastard hope one ever love me know it deep frame being incapable loved another especially love first something others capable loving proven me time time again ill die myself forgotten big part wants way want remembered world want remember it,1 +anyone else find life much work worth itim living nothing care money only buy food struggle make friends self esteem issues gf cant get study im living nothing easier end cant even would abousulty destroy mum cba trying fix many issues,1 +first timejust need little rant here also posting depression actually googled many meds take it im feeling hopeless ive asked give time need him happens end fighting building house priority me seeing desperately need him maybe doesnt care mean find couple adult networking sites perhaps someone else lined up three months mom died months ago im torn inside youre reaching love youre ignored find googling ways kill yourself unfortunately world need rethink strategy found nothing helpful appointment physician three different antianxiety depression meds know got issues fuck need emotional support fucking house,1 +hope im strong enough go thisgoodbye cruelest worlds meet someone disguised themself perfect tore apart ripped shreds destroyed me made believe loved anything cruel someone love paint good one one puts effort one keeps trying hard make work im bad you ive manipulated worse even feel guilty it belong world universe cease exist feel peace feel anything exist,1 +please sw give reason reason ive never heard before kill myselfim broke jobless nearly homeless mountain debt see reason keep carrying on death would much easier itd simple really one bottle pills im gone footnote novel life afterthought minds people knew kill right now save trouble,1 +want help anything want put somewhere genuinely hate inside out want end done hate scared die,1 +redflag vs futilityi always debt likely never retire thing doubt ill live long first place also wont able afford health care housing decent food always alone rejected broken society reason commit redflag life already dead end theres nothing noble suffering years avoid killing yourself,1 +someone said tell one time conservatives good guys mean theres many instances conservatives often bad guys go ming dynasty china took mongolian led empire china mongolian empire china progressive changing culture tradition economy china ming took over restored much chinas culture lost generations ruled mongols also reestablished much chinese economy drove brutish mongols out ming dynasty could easily considered golden age china though youll hard time finding times conservatives right also dipshits conservative universal term im saying many people think conservative american term conservatism republican party two different things,0 +feel like belong morejust going threw much right expected strong im edge know family friends listen get wanna feel like anymore wanna wake sleep want life back,1 +see point livinghey so whole bunch things happened recently moved dads im high school still awkward cause cant split rest extended family mom alcoholic albeit functioning one like beats anything now used get drunk would verbally abuse me fucking hate seeing drink makes really really edge tries conceal it too pretty obvious aware life cant talk either cause im barely hanging is cant bring another problem table also probably getting rid horse im sure ill financial means get another one know sounds like stupidest problem horses biggest passion ive put everything learning train raise them goal raise living become olympic rider ive life depressive periods kept going really reason live guess pile everything triggered another depressive episode know know want die theres much stopping me theres nothing hang for gonna say family something along lines brash care people good reason keep living time things change theyre reliable ive got one person might want keep living for happiness feel compare much fucking hate living days everything feels fake real sonot worth it like everything used forseeable would continue living that weird sense describe idea nothing real like real plane genuine feeling nothing genuine like look beautiful sunset something used really make happy notice it feel nothing spent hours night contemplating plan redflag know id do really want die know next,1 +supposed homework school ipad covered tears bruva screen working fuck american school system pointless makes want milk,0 +suicidal ideation gives hopeit relieves burden me like im sad frustrated annoyed think myself itll soon feel lot better anyone else this,1 +wonder movie prices movie lingers soul wonder took paul reiser years finally give talk peter falk idea understand every part it movie make cry tear thousandsbr br story sam kleinman gets letter wife leaving find something else son take road trip find her find something lost friendship family affection other beginning know whats going happen none soever story easy figure beginning end ride father son husband wife wonder took paul reiser years write beautiful romancecomedybr br actors well cant say anything else say hey peter falk it legend everything movies magic use peter falk romancecomedy think get perfect outcome wonder movie perfect many prices son paul reiser excellent job although great actor always mean work actually peter falk paul reiser plays perfect father son rest cast good enough see much say shall get shine even more br br music always work using music sometimes fit thing movie music perfect tune makes movie even compelling part movie shine good parts great soundtrack romancecomedy thats surebr br overall many romancecomedy movies tapes dvds bluray not movie one special ones happen everyday create story like this takes years thinking fact actually took make it great piece bought kept human soul see get old see father old age think movie spark like ever made,0 +oh god literally tired cannot happy feel anything sad numbness sometimes wonder ill end alone motivation anything anymore even want say hi family anymore want anything anymore even want anymore tired existing fatigued,1 +dont think im things rightim single amp living parents dont know go school for dont stable job even wanted to things never work out relationship lasted years honestly say relationship made happiest ive ever been although long distance relationship knew wanted forever legal situation couldnt go see her got tired one able come and problems ultimately broke amp shes happy someone else matter hard fight seems like life always goes south everything goes wrong think alright wondering sort rehab camp something inexpensive sort rebuild myself,1 +rather poorly named western series emmy best syndicated program certainly interesting series produced republic studio action better anyone put best it episode built around real historical figure old west railroad detective named matt clark similar later elliot ness gangsters s s managed become involved almost every notorious western outlaw middle s wwi series best asset jim davis tall rugged ruggedly good looking prime shape authentic western accent great riding skills made utterly convincing action scenes davis every inch western hero teamed two lovely active costars mary castle frankie first season kristine miller jonesy second worked well davisbr br what separated show contemporaries much came later professionalism invested action scenes ace action directer william witney directed episodes franklin adreon rest filmed action polish republics vast store stock footage serials bs utilized give scope level individual episodes rose fell quality guest stars brought play outlaws among really good ones marie windsor belle starr lee van cleef jesse james fess parker grat dalton jean parker cattle kate joe sawyer slim pickins butch cassady the smilin kid cream western comers pickins parker denver pyle james best richard jaeckel honed craft b veterans decades experience belts harry woods glenn strange kenneth macdonald earle hodgkins steve darrell chief yowlachie provided old leather feel vintage westernsbr br the weakness concept many famous western outlaws second season famous figures becoming mite obscure dedicated history buff nevertheless later shows match any due guest stars henry brandon portrayed rustler nate champion former republic star barry outstanding smalltime outlaw milt sharpbr br western fans history buffs want see this,0 +u ever get new book good makes want read fast get know characters plot finished book feel remorse sadness never able experience full magic book ever again already know plot,0 +hurt knowing dad wanted athletic hard working kid liked different stuff instead got hurts,1 +still think funny people got mad simple toy called mrpotato head,0 +really amazed little fame film had think distribution companies etcbr br dont idiots looking good fun take movie nice movie pass hours music greatbr br its well girls boys whats much story movies pulp fiction they nice cute gives good time girls also good looking makes whole movie even enjoyablebr br why gave well story could little convincing middle on point start see events little less reliable small spoiler baby crying father goes tries relax him talking small cry but hysteric cry sec father goes baby sleeping excuse exactly make calm sleep able leave room seconds ignore kind small picking film docudrama fun overlooked,0 +day posting nonamusing fact get laid fact ive ended really bad cold wanna sleep,0 +wish assisted redflag acceptableif could pay someone painlessly drift deal life anymore would heartbeat,1 +dont think im close every day warm ideaguess im lesser situation ppl here advise slide road like early prevention dont think im afraid thought constantly gets more acceptable back head,1 +love girl really mutual dead either today tomorrowi already shared whole story reddit couple times check post history read entirety tldr title wish dead part tries find solutions designed to tired waking tears almost breaking tears read something hear something see something tired contemplating redflag tired looking people seeing happily love others forget girl love know paint good light know im monster know im stereotypical bad guy know decision hurt people still care hope losing entirely better continuous stream knowing suicidal trying help failing maybe blaming willing got better know probably isnt know really hurt wish way tell fault tell blame this anyone mind want ask better could try frame entire thing accident could make classic redflag say goodbyes everyone would cause least pain know sorry everyone read this real mess quite unreadable probably go sleep now,1 +borisaleksey batalovis fight war germans mother russia beloved veronikatatyana samojlovamarries conniving cousin markaleksandr shvorinin moment weakness shortly parents killed air raid moscow various trials betrayals veronika await word letter boris matter long takes holding hope return herbr br powerful piece filmmaking boasts simply incredible photographic work cinematographer sergei urusevsky many magnificently framed moving shots include scene camera follows veronika crowd loved ones saying goodbye rushes mob bodies say goodbye borisand quite reach even watch boris looking impatiently swarm without luck sequence air raid veronika walks standing stairs circulating destroyed building called home scene mark makes lustful move veronika another air raid continues outside building wind rustles curtains flashes light emanate inside two many examples sergei urusevsky shows genius framing images last forever film but without power tragedy story regarding war forever shape destiny couple dearly deeply love other film hold beauty visual alone together however were left amazing filmsimply haunting masterpiece soviet union stalin breathed last breath feel honored beheld great film,0 +girlfriend im pretty sure getting mentally abused parents girlfriend long distance like mentally abused parents long care grades mental status theyve taken phone caring thats way talk me theyve neglected younger sister need actual help friends saying call cps im worried shed lonely foster care abused harsher grandma dont know fix this runs away ill arrested need help please,0 +two tests today maths history idk shit history wtf home rule pls helb,0 +else disappointed whole lotta red sure like wasnt complete trash anything couldve heaps better,0 +must admit one favorite horror films time unique way john carpenter directed picture opening door many mockgenres chill bone whether first time watching fiftieth sound menacing horror michael meyers infamous scream jamie lee curtis gives film instant cult status great start independent era love music love characters familiar yet spooky setting simplistic nature villain random chaos all really rhyme reason killing first film giving us taste michaels true nature insane way brilliant beast question may never truly answered carpenter gives us devotion amazing masterpiecebr br john carpenter master horror lately films caliber see ghosts mars halloween began powerhouse career ultimate film release greats always remember one film caused turn lights beware babysitting check behind closed doors never knew evil would appear next carpenter amazing ability bring world weaves power camera places images meyers places least expected giving perception murderer right next you loved every scene panned back michael watching distance without anyone wiser scary yet utterly brilliant loved scenes carpenter pulled fright nearly thin air would be minding business suddenly horrid mask would appear nowhere like characters thought trick eye carpenter gets you isnt michael ghost human or least think yet stronger mental ability main characters leads really dark themes unexplored symbolism even without that spooky filmbr br then enough michael vaporizing windows house carpenter adds chilling theme music still tapping piano keys mind constantly wondering meyers looking window carpenter found perfect combination visual frights chilling sounds foreshadow may happen unsuspecting victims next lethal done refreshing originality unique thrills anything released todays horror hollywood could muster carpenters halloween breath fresh air midst could rough horror year actual scares replaced paris hilton know quality quite samebr br finally would like say even simplistic nature opening murder film terrifying chilling use clown mask sent shivers spine way filmed elongated one shot using childs mask eyes still one best horror openings ever completely sets tone remainder film babysitter theme childish behavior carries michael throughout film art talent carpenter rolled one could literally speak hours upon hours film instead would rather go watch again worth repeat visit many times br br overall think one outstanding films cinematic history skip foreign films think going chance face movies leave budget tight carpenter slasher film genre singular movie redefined whole generation horror films still continues influence modernday horror treats lethal combination genuinely spooky murderer powerful cinematography events which normally amount much horror films beauty jamie lee curtis exactly makes halloween film rest sure freddy cool feel sympathetic jason michael real troubled loose lusting blood babysitters better br br grade ,0 +fck wrong you ashamed you shameful im donemy mom sent cant take world anymore im complete loser im ready die,1 +frick post text like this miss,0 +im tiredi feel like cant take anymore feel alone need help know hotlines feel like talking someone loud country text chat line cknow im posting im tired lost,1 +penis pocket impeccable product known penis pocket real name frk acquired one those how works penis pocket guessed it pocket penis penis pocket pocket drapes glorious shlong hold number different items like phones coinshttpswwwredditcomrfiftyfiftycommentsbwfkpd_flowerbed_sfw_man_pulls_coins_out_of_hisutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf wallet gum 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classes wanna speak front class coincidence dont know,0 +story lesson young old say may spoil future story but believe say everyone one particular episode soldier deathbr br okay stories one sticks the soldier death point life realized life terminal kidding airing birthday always remember it remember title tonight new synopsis may th br br it always difficult explain death natural part life also difficult adults accept children accept fact living proof currently yrs old children accept fact time time remind adultsbr br i write tears eyes heath ledger wonderful actor age died today kinda reminded many lessons learned life write reminder young old one immune whatever store usbr br i hate say death going happen story first time saw death bad thing part life quite literally story cant help it life changing moment alway bebr br and thatbr br i love jim henson and still remember much work life day died memorial muppet show thank brian henson keeping workshop alive honest thank you coworkers editors internsbr br the stage stage show show imagination create magic forever world knowbr br thank youbr br and doubt me dance magic dance,0 +greetings mlady looking real man treat right well look further found prince,0 +chicken laid egg guys went check chicken coop saw medium brown egg,0 +im pissedi home alome weekend shouldve killed chance means i money go buy rope jump bridge onto train tracks sit around cry watch youtube feel like im going insane want end,1 +girlfriend broke girl came right abusive relationship seeing red flags again kept said wanted break cuz never found physically attractive really feel bad leaving me something concerned about,0 +need ventim suicidal think got hit car tomorrow would okay it year sad yet happy hopeful time im awful rut boyfriend broke last april compatible knew start still remember walking room asking sit downugh cant even think it makes sick felt hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving week later best friend is recently rocky relationship ended good life happy me felt like relationship wasnt good enough her me compared lives time wasnt boyfriend taking dates telling beautiful making plans me two weeks that parents split mom moved out help move things shit talked dad perfect dad whos given world became human mistakes faults put blast trying deal breakup deal parents shit talking other went therapy vented vented analyzed soul searched vented more started feel better ex new girlfriend still friendly ran other hope sadness would stop best friend started repairing relationship parents figured shit got back together feeling much better mean sad about graduated college got job major awesome friends best friend killed december technically november roommate find three days jesus still remember call i tell something hung herself know coldhot feeling stomach drops happened asking wait what why times got phone took deep breath felt numb felt like duty man tell friends ill deal grief later breaking news people strange everyones reaction same lot like own best friend dead person never realized things need do calling friends giving funeral information answering questions meeting family friends heard of etc know lot people sub want end friend wanted end notebook filled much hated herself self conscious was shes far gone help nothing going save according notebook saw different saw her happy soooo beautiful funny best cheering shit previously talked post feel shitty asking doing could know always happy dismissive talking life kept arms reach realize reason much going her much cool shit kept everyone dark hatred herself loved her wake open casket dead weeks time body able put rest know shitty open casket is shitty literally forced view her two best friends mother basically carrying see her needed to know needed to see one last time wanted last memory presence us sushi together laughing shit high school know needed this would done me thats was loyal loving caring life ended day funeral next day blur moving motions watching mother screaming casket lowered forever haunt dreams held people basically trying climb inside daughters casket always thought mother cold interested her buying love shopping trips funeral show that visiting mother funeral show that worst thing happen mother happened memorial sits living room candles friends light visit senior year picture displayed center prayer books dream catchers room small trinkets give peace mind bring flowers cake visit mother cuts slice places next picture eat slices swap funny stories im sure form ptsd two days services cry much long ive heard voice tears streaming write this im sad much going miss on wont around many things wish would around for know thought needed go really wish stayed wish finding happiness peace mean lose her feel hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving,1 +keeps getting better betterbbbb,1 +im like broken record shit latelyim depressed end snapping people care about lose friends droves nobody understands id rather cry almost anything bad long even know depression started probably kid something dunno im trying lose weight cant even obviously ive weight month changes day think dying albeit passively sometimes strong times like loud clear offing think lately,1 +like lasagna like lasagna leave opinion comments,0 +im sorry break yall hentai subreddit snoos rteenagers,0 +title interesting day great life nowhere get useless fucking completely also cool something you read,0 +man love disruptv httpsyoutubesozyblmxc,0 +school ruined poem last year submitted love poem disguised friendship poem annual school magazine wrote poem girl like happens bestie too digital copy magazine released weeks ago went back read poem kid not two lines got merged yeah passing year year without seeing face another line cant recall passing year year distress cant express pissed,0 +nothis it love care someone completely uses you given everything intohim cant give anymore ropelooks much kind,1 +back boo hoohello im back man constant cycle tiring everything ok keep following path suddenly like made wrong turn im following dark path gets darker darker get yanked restarts im tired it im tired everything want anything anymore tiny thing makes upset adds sit dark cry wake swollen eyes again life complete utter bullshit last two posts sad would plan end months wonder im still pussy it want everything end brain scattered anxious want stop trying,1 +drunk ok guys want ask u smth u ever went ur best friends drink party next day waking different city town cuz happen me let coments happened u u case ,0 +rsum dorothy parkerrazors pain you rivers damp acids stain drugs cause cramp guns lawful nooses give gas smells awful might well live,1 +im thirsty every time drink pee wanna drink water bruh torture yall ever think really drinking purified poop pee,0 +feel lowim tired fighting battle im sure im going win cant escape anxiety making ill think im dying chest hurts time barely sleep eat cant stop shaking feel pressure relationships work family cant deal it much need stop,1 +night light slow feel much discomfort care disappear moment know lots beauty sun life smiles everything given you know much last me would willing endure even would problem me hear lot am am things never liked promised myself wanted end myself night sounds like whisper image look like many friends see dream make friends even beautiful forever dreaming stay inside it rains prefer cool it open time enjoy together used laugh together angry make trouble attention mothers reminds me strengthens me sorry never seen forgive me,1 +terrible interpersonal skills start cool liked sooner rather later end liking me like friends always try act like someone ause want be not always put position fail fired alot good jobs this ex wife divorced years ago never gotten losing seeing kids everyday really wish would aneurysm fall dead quick unexpected way noone likes failure,1 +so want kill stop existinglike rn clenching teeth noticed it ive lot lately without realising it chest aches theres piercing pain heaviness around heart feel like im lost abyss emptiness exhaustion pain im falling apart body mind want give up cant escape know fault im slipping away sanity happiness happiness feels far away now im tearing apart inside alone hell around people tiring makes anxious feel lonely empty theres way comforting myself ive pushed everyone away im good anyone just want stop existing asking much no im coward hypocrite fraud truth deserve die im useless waste space,1 +okay single really meant find find soulmates high school itself dont rush dont force yourself perfectly alright sometime workoutstudyimprovisehave fun bros sisshave hobbies maybe anything else love importantly smile,0 +enjoyed criminal intent series law order long time kathryn erbe det alexandra eames female detective rather hard seems bit bitter criminal intent series see side moviebr br this movie shows marvelous soft side talented actresses criminal intent fan movie revelry acting get pretty darn good yarn family hardships southbr br i like albert finneys role movie convincing acting job older southern fellow hard headed intolerant unaccepting change reminds many men youth portrayal divine likely find hard like moviebr br katryn erbe easy like movie recommend star criminal intent law order fans,0 +live mediocre life could dieeveryone proven im simply afterthought burden im ignoring feeling im tired feeling morose,1 +bizzare look als life back still hyper something real home videos al kid great commentary real life parents gives nice glimpse weird al wound screwed is video must devoted alcoholic,0 +nightbreed definitely favorite movie ive worn one tape is makeup awesome story lovely takes different twists quite deep story based cabal clive barker movie adaption stays true source material problem movie producers vain attempts turn teen slasher movie hence changed ending allow sequels eye rolls apparently someday were going getting directors cut i hope clear bit nonsense then id suggest anyone like dark fantasy type horror opposed freddyjasonmicheal type slashers really know would comparable,0 +im poggers poggerser though keep cool enjoy life rn ly,0 +gonna anywayive thought while know im going it im really posting felt need share without anyone trying stop me think anyone cares much me friends family never notice me im young already much regret know going build live itll become unbearable soon im going lose friends college ill alone alone think make friends would i pity ignore use me onell notice gone ill forgotten soon enough hate life everyone dies make sooner,1 +post represents everybody time needignored,1 +moment feeling really hungry put aligners back ughhhhhhhh,0 +going ask crush hope best happenmaybe updatewe see,0 +dont know doive screaming crying help past years im yes people theyll think phase now not wish stupid fucking edgy angsty phase that ive felt way since middle school junior highschool now first time asked parents help asked go therapist feeling depressed nothing asked least times after still help second time ran dad crying told wanted kill myself told loved me told me dont feel way told fine happy good life still got help third time told mom need see therapist need help told right feel way good life loving parents this gave asking help them went school counselor told overwhelmed life wanted everything stop told made sense felt way easy classes workload wasnt heavy tried explain wasnt school everything didnt listen told one friends sad depressed feel told get emo phase screaming help ive tried fucking hard get help know need one listens dont many friends im introverted awkward like many people go one friend tried really friend although dont even really talk anymore feel alone hopeless im ready end it dont know else tried hard find help honestly believe things dont get better within years im gone sooner im sorry wasting time post needed get everything out im fucking hopeless point,1 +film incredible looked high budget felt heartfelt original like indie amazing part film astonishing performances david beazely mark hildreth paul anthony plays main role carried film ease humor charisma balanced huge depth br br the cinematography really beautiful even though subject quite ugly realistic way make larger point really great seeing alan cumming too script tight propelled nicely best acting ive seen whilebr br go see this,0 +im brokenim pretty rough background mom life anymore live college dad talk sports things gerenal feel like really want relationship tend one invite over stepmom nice seems like shes done five minutes talking freshman year never called much interest me grandparents never really life dead friends butt every single fucking joke girlfriend way worse problems tend try hide depressionanxiety friends constantly say im good person problem try hard good try hard help people right thing college study much get cs constantly stressed due money surgery last may reason never healed right combined anytime outside school cant work honestly time extra curriculars i double majoring guess trying hard move abuse used suffer try good person fail theres something wrong me really place belong much wrong me im ugly im smart im good person worth me im short im attracted guys i girlfriend im bi ability attracted guys dad knew would kill him girlfriend would dump me friends would laugh never able see anything else depression anxiety nothing going im worthless broken want fucking anymore one side learned many things correlate usually reason im broken useless piece shit,1 +want kill myself cant though hate iti wish wasnt born sisters aged could leave year old sisters pick school play every day burden one day gone understanding why want exist world feel trapped year old sister depression bipolar disorder cut wrists wants run away tells forces tell nobody im scared her dreams loses mind kills me dont sleep night anymore hate school im always tired friends smart want engineers cant fucking pass grade math test im grade fucking hate every day school pretend sick skip it cant drop dad would lose it cant commit redflag mom already thinks failed parent older sisters doings parents put effort eldest sister keep inside me ive told counselling sessions dad cut thought attention faking it believe me put resources helping ive neglected hate them two younger sisters equation would instantly kill myself even note written laptop containing help explain redflag young kids alongside everything goes friends younger sisters im trapped trapped shitty life joy happiness keep everything inside tell friends want get hit car die accident tbh even know im writing this got here researching efficient ways die want waste space ever work guts leave shitty world take life wish life kick ground keep kicking you like fuck man want die want whatever world contain me wish like immune system infection flushed out im trapped paradox cant want bad hate younger sisters theyre keeping alive love keeping alive know made sense whoever read far jumbled mess thoughts self loathing does wish parents would take school week two mentally try heal reset im danger school want die there could easily run away finish it im goddamn tempted to honest know deep deep dont want die believe exists us least us thats write wish someone somehow internet sees name mojoit goes oh hey thats one friends aliases im going contact stop this feeling deep deep nearly enough save me ive called parents many times ignored take serious enough maybe know meant hate dad most wish saw knew different wants lawyer savant never be sees inferior everyone embarrasses me day family dinner made fun dropping soccer dance due anxiety around it mom forces dance school wont get fat hate it performance tomorrow pretended sick know dances pushing dying tonight know dad comment bad mom disappointed friends calgary met online want go meet cause important way kill would met person im vancouver bc know wrote this maybe feeling talked earlier knows know maybe tonight night theres bleach upstairs tons meds could take dont want make mess go gory knife rought much parents clean up im trapped reddit want never existed im stuck work courage commit wish parents understood im trapped,1 +embracing darknessdo ever one days feel like cant fight anymore day first thought morning wanted cry redflag valid option complete useless fuck human being could sit cry know why,1 +cut sent group chati depressed cut took picture sent group chat bunch friends got worried screen shotted sent gf shes mad do,1 +want love loved fear hurting others want socialize similar reason want face future fear hurting people cannot live past mistakes knowing probably hurt people want isolate cannot hurt people burden anymore die completely alone want hurt anyone,1 +sad put idiots would sad nothinghey reddit name collin im live south us frame reference struggled depression throughout teenage years honestly hoped would grow it somethingapparently cards last summer took first job college really excited first noticed growing distant everyone know now first time life friends hate living south hate job people work none make working conditions horrible anything get along well problem legitimately terrible people part im close mom really ive never known dad never close family call friends talk to either wake every day palpable feeling extreme sadness inside like im verge bursting tears ive even begun day getting harder harder actually get up literally reason keep want keep paying bills lately though ive started wondering bother keeping lights shit going life aside work really want it guys im threatening anything thought mind pretty consistently long time now made one attempt maybe obviously successful tried since though struggled thoughts im scared alone feel completely vulnerable want live life like this see point even when past things sunshine daisies walltowall feel overwhelmingly depressed sad absolutely reason want lifetime know im asking for exactly want hurt anyone taking picture thought redflag actually scares me think im scared living like longer though makes ending everything seem pretty damn appealing ps saw post talking great finally get help op told friends actually felt horrible noticing suicidal great awesome circumstances isolated one gives fuck even alive not thats feel like i am wish one person besides mother lives hours away legitimately cared feelings want feel loved know it started crying desk work bathroom,1 +moment last nighthi all im writing horrible moment last night ive feeling quite time really know why honestly believe boils unhappy career going way want feel like im caught rut last night quite drinks hell broke loose husband asleep really felt like wanted end everything decided wanted sit car garage let engine run instead right thing contacted text message redflag hotline told operator going eventually passed drunk next thing know husband multiple emt workers bedroom checking vitals told fine much drink eventually left fine next morning feel even worse last night feel awful scared husband much did feel horribly embarrassed im sure neighbors saw going on im damn frustrated everything im really sure next move terms recovery this anyone insight,1 +whats best way kill yourselfhello sorry wrong subreddit im using throwaway account obvious reasons really want die live constant state fear misery want end all family shitty friends im also poor fuck dont gun rope hang with anyone know easiest way die dont want risk failing redflag dont want get brain damage besides ill look like complete fool survive redflag id jump tall building dont know tall buildings get one luck ill anything answers thank you i assume using gun best option but like mentioned i unfortunately gun,1 +feel heart even think anything anymore feel in heart heavy second wake second go bed smile laugh friends feel it try distract video games feel it always theresadness much sadness sad fucking sad,1 +friend im chatting rn actually considering redflagwhat im panicking,1 +justice room without room several years basically leaving everything sisters room even slept times live fucking living room need place chill space things looking window instead wait year old sister leave someday buy apartment finally room me family far bad great privacy space place basically room living room im rate moved time get room unless sister leaves do know big deal compared things people go families homes attempt chat people this thanks reading far good person reading random persons complains stuff,0 +day posting lines bee movie every day get so ive never seen close know like outside hive yeah come back,0 +panic captivating blurredgenre film brooding conflicted middle aged hitmans reconciliation infatuation younger uninhibited hairstylist love wife son duty employerfather identity although film nebulous purpose ambiguous ending superb production almost aspects characters clarity sincerity improbable story may fascinate annoy audiences,0 +ive there help extremely suicidal two years months ago timespan made redflag attempts nearsuccessful rest interrupted need help questions please pm comment group discussion redflag answer simple fact shows least part wants helped live life beautiful whether see not,1 +another suicidal nightthere nothing good me im worthless piece shit whos lazy day really want sleep right also cant wish someone appreciate tell special wish could sleep whole day without question releave mind pressure hope next time sleep wake deal everyone caring me everyday feel part soul die,1 +im fucking sick shit want normal meltdowns issues digestive system acid reflux etc sinus issues mucus shit throat guess autism okay meltdowns shit want bloody music career reflux along mucus saliva make difficult well kinda rap id pause reflux fucking constant dont like asshole people want control it fuck anger issues much fucking school work didnt go school fucking pandemic ive working ass that back reflux im sure medication helps ive tried decent amount medication still comes up want lay bed sit it im fucking sick it want physical issues go away point wish didnt want career wish didnt wanna shows too anyone starts worry might suicidal im not doubtful ill try keep hope future want fucking doctors find solution wont deal shit id say judgement lot better mine obviously still isnt life fair dealt wrong fucking cards wish normal dont wanna die like ,0 +i know im still alive maybe honestly killed ages ago tbh really wish redflag attempt worked like honestly wish swear god wish anyways care anymore im going make sure swear life kill end may anyways care lose interest anything finding friends boyfriend anything nobody cares tbh never nobody saved never dead really maybe make sure worry fucking hate humanity everything redflag selfish redflag right answer idc anymore im forever fuck world,1 +okay hear normal person im gonna kill you grrrrr mathematicians im gonna subtract equation thats it,0 +need friendtitle says all im burden so want feel pressured me,1 +hey uh happened utotalpower utotalpower guess ill click username find out ,0 +birthday coming dont know ask for anyone got ideas im music gaming,0 +wasnt redflagmy name xan king anything happen know redflag ive recently stumbled across rituals performed masons know know feeling im watched times fuck fear wont play it u never heard name die u wont hear death know im completely sain posted said dont want end life ive mind never thought shooting myself never wanted hang other belt kid currently want too please ask one person remember case hear my real name starts r u hear name u know me one real subs app need anything please hmu wont say no judgment free please goodnight ps care understand,1 +cat would name burger burger cute name plus name old dead hamster miss burger,0 +okay songs sometimes disturbing lyricses wap takes another level filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +pronouns dont refer anything dont exist simply nothing respect simply nothing,0 +kinds weird ass kinks got mate really idk yet anyone explore sexual desires everyone hates im also minor,0 +really fg hate covid today day supposed go friends birthday party planned months ago looked forward it yesterday day party guess what running high fever still today though much attend party shit im feeling really really disappointed sad angry irritated sorry vent guys much tell someone,0 +know anymore able go like thisi even know say here absolutely destroyed now even know start absolutely nothing right genuinely feel like dying now seen family years due political reasons away wife whos one stop killing myself poor literally choose days week eat on cant get job due country rules live in stuck clinical depression able afford real help friends whatsoever completely destroyed tried everything tried making fiverr get money mental illness tried borrowing people know ever tried gofundme nothing working out honestly cant go much longer need help know find it literally cant find reason stay alive anymore,1 +bruh playing among us phone dude got salty cause got discovered left,0 +hey all creating depression playlist lol songs listen repeat also fuck depression song listen loop,1 +uncreative redditor get karma piece cake,0 +literally cant exist even another day nothing takes away emptiness feel like dont know live exist function like everyone else seems to everyone seems able look past bad lives move on cant guess im weak lazy stupid need others badly need pain go away nothing try make feel alive works even go therapy im still better dont want cause everyone life pain cant keep existing fucking draining painful feel bad hurting them people know would able move on significant could easily find someone else wonderful person loved ones never understand im dead anyway thats reality it ive like almost whole life worse lately cant handle anymore people might try feed bullshit can im strong smart sorry stereotypically suicidal,1 +someday experiencing reloading bullfrog smg know name black ops cold war know nothing fucking guns play call duty things magazine essentially dildo try reloading gun funny me,0 +read book must say movie stays true form think beginning psychological thrillers genre psycho cristina raines gives excellent performance lead burgess meredith gives excellent supporting actor nextdoor neighbor seen movie least twice think going buy book movie collection suspense keeps building climatic end twist never see coming like movies like signs village sentinel classic prelude also interesting actors movieyou would recognize read credits late jerry orbach great commercial director jeff goldblum excellent photographer also beverly dangelo underrated great,0 +someone please help im literally crying watched video opportunity rover mars literally sent entire song rover fucking funeral everything nasa make tears worse end video guy said ever get mars hope get opportunity spirit another rover reunited brought back home fucking crying robot,0 +wants friends gladly flirt best friend idk want feel wanted guy flirty enough cant like her guys like much personality basic,0 +wheres best place show edit made anime edit deku would like share people sub dont know im pretty sure allowed ,0 +last reason stay alive shattered todaythe thing stopping im much pussy it left work bed staring ceiling,1 +idk anymorei cant stop messing up cant stop crying honestly want give up im bills im trying hard find new job cant stop hurting myself even try hardest to cant look legs anymore look awful cuts burns anyway anything silly weird happen yall tell,1 +anyone know free vpn im looking download jet pack joyride live america im kinda screwed anyone know free vpn,0 +ps black ops zombies hey anyone want play zombies black ops ive got cold war im right now im female if even matters yeah dm ,0 +im really upset yesterday wanted buy lightsaber store mom said wasnt allowed buy one sad today looking closet found purple lightsaber think special one knobs look cooler,0 +promise hear without judgement however worse situation is stay long run m feeling lonely redflaged out let us connect,1 +spraypaint artists general oil painters get spraypaint oil paint skin rub germx spot mins rinse still there repeat ap art teacher taught ive using technique ever since,0 +im going catch covid hide park dieim going try intentionally catch covid hide park city hopefully die preexisting respitory condition asthma wait long enough ill hopefully good im piece shit im going flush bow almost everyone life figures im a blackhole sucking joy every situation im complete fucking moron moral constitution offending pedophile boyfriend could even call that caught on short period didnt talk hes realized im social anxious cowardice people pleaser lies others much swear supporting drug habit things definitely gotten worse ive lost mind ive always always be despite declining mental state feel like ive reached point clarity know need do hope theres hell,1 +guys ever feel like want exist anymore like want live want die either,0 +anything remotely confrontational causes dissociate reality threaten take lifesomeone gets red faced angry directs words get hot feeling head feeling irrational desire kill defy feel,1 +ive never worse im scared reach outim suffering im fucked brain time think need meds dont know whats wrong feel trapped alone mind nothing distraction anymore thought art helping hold feel like nothing help now feel like hell find hard talk mum reach truly think im gonna die mental breakdown last night relapsed ctting never hell since then panic attack earlier actually thinking going insane passed almost threw up absolutely one knows whats going brain im mentally sick building longest fucking time much shit brain cant take anymore im struggling ever need stop need something save theres way much going brain wont stop never never will,1 +wish bigger boobies and a bigger dick,0 +family cant afford another visit hospital go lose best friendmy best friend gave ultimatum said go hospital get help cant friends anymore ive already hospital recently cant afford another visit want lose best friend,1 +person wheelchair go stairs fast,0 +dont care youre clinically insane fully spectrum cripple kill child make sure everything power autistic mentally insane ass jail cell deserve hun,0 +thought better turns ive gotten worse denialive struggling depressive thoughts since ive lots bullying mental abuse friends classmates growing up never felt like proper childhood back couldnt figure suicidal thoughts parents pressured getting therapy deep didnt want to didnt feel ready guess first psychologist talked to one doctors office write moments depressing thoughts told try analyse it honestly made feel billion times worse constantly reminding felt like shit day day out determined problem severe sent proper therapy clinic underage time setting diagnose depression decided go kiddy treatment program felt mocked ridiculed young fucking suicidal gave treatment plan named fucking dutch pun absolutely furious treatment involved advanced version writing feelings getting advice help recovering thoughts worst part ive felt ridiculed whole life went gender therapistpsychologist realising trans lowest point life diagnosed treated several traumas still dont think really treatment involved form meditation im convinced anything me that allowed sign transgender clinic still waiting list nearly years better that got first year college found right place found stable job shithole mc donalds found new better friends got extremely close them support trans someone talk needed everything fine fine fuck feel garbage again gotten worse ever before nearly everything could wish for feel goddamn selfish depressed hurt closest friends throwing depressive fit barely control over something extremely wrong dont know anymore dont time money energy go back therapy feel going helped all suicidal thoughts back anger cant accomplish something day fucked feeling everything massive waste time hurting ones care about feel like im end road like never supposed get far life im shutting away friends fear hurting them every time think it feel selfish way sorry long im first time poster badly needed vent,1 +ive picked method placenow need decide date considering making look peaceful trying ol running car garage ive changed mind want results im planning taking either amtrak greyhound new hampshire taking life there nature looks pretty want see myself idk works ill probably go trails deep woods hang myself ill aim making painless honestly point im ready go,1 +saw theater initial release disturbing im sure would still be first part still making rounds towns across america recently massmurder hometown saw man went shooting rampage freshness closetohome event combined dramatized true story made disturbing theatrical experience really brought life excellent acting robert blake scott wilson familiar novel based true event truman capote screenplay direction richard brooks wove event trumans interpretation compelling gritty cinematic adaptation music quincy jones effectively scores story ive seen couple times since real almost like witness crime riding along killers would give possible society desensitized violence crime today probably seems slow tame could viewed less effect anyone hallmark examination criminal psyche,0 +things talk anyone problems wanna talk interesting opinions topics message,0 +asked crush gay sad,0 +going die embarrassment ahhhh ps party crush good time dad barges yelling taken shower yet dont lie yoh hes super cautious covid didnt get chance mute hears ahhhhhhhhhhhh goes nice dad mjjfkampampampamp theres nothing embarrassing dad couldve said,0 +second viewing still wonderful romance is opinion much better film came paired dvd set leo mccarey weepie classic an affair remember yet seems fallen favour slightly only rating imdb dismissed many critics gooey slush sad intelligent romantic drama good work two leads jennifer jones william holden anything film wellremembered gorgeous colour cinematography unforgettable musical score much like valentines day gave excuse watch movie again im glad it still think holdens character death heavily foreshadowed taking suspense final scenes film moving really enjoy it,0 +posting daily til people stop feeling suicidal say psalm something make people feel better ill continue daily posts,0 +someone know boondocks is do know proper website watch on filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +sincerely want canceri depressed years tried everything fix it even including world travel want kill myself feel like cancer would proper way go,1 +im fan art like anything art like paintings sculptures etc movie shows it like lot shows woman wants paint anything art especially naked bodies cant strict family father beginning movie painted naked wanted man paintings family let paint naked men moral even artemisia could paint boyfriend art teacher completely naked falls love art teacher seems art teacher absolutely love too ending sacrifices freedom lying said raped her true artemisia fell love him says suffer lot trial artemisia father art teacher were somebody hurting artistic hands say truth think great movie art artistic love worth watching valentina cervi great artemisia acts well also like performance the portrait lady pansy osmond ,0 +bruh parents put content filter wifi weird first youtube videos went pornhub scared cause xfinity internet page showed like mature content cant watch shit vpn time think theyre idk think maybe little siblings even watch mature videos sites idek,0 +honestly worth painmy mom noticed cuts arm burning skin eraser questioned kid told able that said arm itched used pencil took skin honesty want come clean im self harming see therapist want anymore getting worse im really unhappy call minutes phone cant call hotline cant text either going use friends phone dead really want talk someone hotline,1 +want fucking sleep little ago stupid sisters friends went room sprayed glitter perfume bed lot fucking perfume now im allergic perfume get really itchy touch kind glitter shook washed bedding still fucking there cant sleep bed fucking love sleeping there anyone know get rid glitter im literally misery,0 +lost another jobtied anxiety lack ability function useful way lost another job months even keep together get past pruning phase already spent nearly months psychiatric hospital lead psychiatrist medical team made clear want returning least without actual redflag attempt bolster previous loosehearted attempt continuous feelings sort know anymore feel like abysmal failure incapable keeping even smallest parts life functioning path want sitting home alone day working keep thinking last straw point stop trying everyone care already wasted many resources hours energy trying keep falling apart ive never together begin with,1 +im ready end goodim really bad social anxiety conversation skills toddler never friends relationships never liked anyone main problem life things going shit lately lost savings stock market got fired job moved back parents guy scammed me reversed big payment bank tanked credit it got way repay debts ignore calls im screwed even get cellphone plan let alone place live credit like that ive spent many months psychiatric hospitals redflag attempts past given resources available yet nothing remotely helpful im afraid dying last time hung felt amazing sadly noose broke died think me always silver lining past theres none im fucked,1 +guys gunman shoot me,0 +reason havent attempted family would after mean move back burden themi f start ive never actual attempt ive thought redflag lot even weeks ago researching type pills take specifically ive never done before havent seeked help cant afford im scared hate asking help moved new state parents siblings miles away one best friend within hour live currently live alone recently furloughed left thoughts hardly real distraction like work used provide started dating someone march million red flags ignored believed different still living ex kids kept promising going move soon live hes distant recently today finally admitted wasnt ready leave soon jumped relationship soon break up dont feel way break up ive depressed long time feeling like losing person confide world person thought future sent spiral main question is admit failed growing moving independent move back parents dont kill myself feels cowardly burden like dont know it hope continuing live quarantine,1 +already year time flies fun far learned lot,0 +lost hopehey guys first time posting here im violating rule im sorry cant bear anymore hell week wednesday tried something bad myself im complicated situation study far away home receive scholarship so so cant quit need doctors letter attest health conditions continue studying covid fucked mind shattered past months so know wanna return there know bear alone there and complicate things friday exgf broke me needed support i know great her it know continue life lot pain bear intend go psychiatrist week but meds solve it hope i ,1 +last night decided watched hour fox news odd republican one last night sister mother decided watch republican fox news aka fox and surely something anti blm ad im hispanic still hurt me gun right protection adds mainly telling shoot protesters rioters a soldier therapy ads i think fits republican news outlet was mainly talking election fraud never happened painting trump rioters counting sites screaming stop count banging doors good light lot buzzwords like communism socialism etc forgot im moron,0 +inconsolably upset timei hate much zero skills besides well school useless life im awkward im clueless take everything personal blow every little thing proportion all incompetent cant successful way am successful person matter hard try much work myself totaled car boyfriend business successful kind city market fancy new car able give old one could humiliated cooled four days hating wanting desperately anyone else anyone elses brain even get help another week ive trying schedule appointments months finally one cant wait longer know do,1 +breakup bluesabout month ago girlfriend broke me made mistakes relationship falling love her something ive felt before months still figuring out always easy relationship honest front me also trouble accepting affection talking feelings additionally pediatric resident time pretty limited best navigate everything easy balance needs vs could give entirely worth it outdoorsy smart doctor vibrant social life tons friends close brother teaching cook loved going trips me time spent together realized much meant me also let insecurities past relationship my last gf cheated too overall tough time dating anxious attachment style get way saw insecurity different occasions also desire closer bailed turn end month friends married engaged closer friends moved away many families want dearly thought would now many like girl doctors lawyers work passionate about me bachelors always trouble school managed find solid career marketing im passionate make comfortable living successful way ever foresee dog condo savings still isolated pandemic family job passionate about social circle shrunk girl doctor tons friends vivid life quite honestly saw emotional needy loser end tried save relationship im hollowed out feel like lost hope future seeing woman amazing turn away me second time happened two years crushed me made realize shitty life much failure am pandemic wonder moving would help ive working much i can seeing therapist eating well outside feels hollow depressive episode feel sliding way want to feel stuck down,1 +peace week thoughts back vengeancehello got email drafting company indeed asking apply company ecstatic thats went college for said would train me awesome salary benefits assessment week quick back fourth turned radio silence probably called lowes worked for learned walked out deserve it fucked up cant help think could though go bed hungry nights could afford properly fix car hell even buy new one would able save money retirement could stay late see friends nights could watch football again going happen thats thoughts began turned worse yesterday kavanaugh crap like admitting this voted trump back angry vitriolic nazi hated minorities women piece shit felt nice accepted once ive always outcast comes group people saying welcome fell it luckily since then ive met amazing people slowly poor world views turned around however hand helped put one final nails coffin glorious nation love country really do dead now trump going win reelection well conservative court next couple decades going go military try get shitty situation whats point now fight for die for society fragmented probably irreparable people cant see bigger picture dumbing america succeeded think go back sad ive gotten everything wanted cast vote day that deserve live,1 +need something effectivetried pills long time ago but im idiot vomited work tried slitting wrists enjoyable was get far enough tried hanging myself belt broke soon care die cant keep living life im truly alive need better method need try find gun,1 +lucky enough see horror classics dvd version film mysteriously removed film dvd replaced something else picture sound quality film edition nightmare itself yet version still superior one deluxe dvd treatment reason stated brad fiedels interview segments special edition dvd noted first found striking film use music moments inactivity film leaving moments activity silence thus giving horror scenes stronger feel problem reissue carries extra film score used fill intentional gaps score fiedel complained made clear filler music his music actually sounded lot like howard shores work videodrome sad also major fan film associate twobr br the film managed add interesting realistic elements genre horror film group friends go mountain one inherited mountain confronted family nightmarish secret movie moves along great pace fact every time seen it still find shocked see minutes passed things started really going wrong campersbr br while horror classics version filled many gaps fact score accompanying horror scenes makes film intelligent even superior slasher films ever seen director jeff lieberman made unique horror films previous one making one mainstream yet different mainstream time good fun film surprising acting performances boot new spiffed dvd version worth rent collectors item horror classics version oop worth hunt,0 +til qantas acronym stands queensland northern territory aerial services ive known airline entire life first think airline ive know now know feel ,0 +anyone wanna vibe discord group chat ideally like cause little kids weird im matters,0 +wanted another child much lifei kids ex wanted another one ididnt longest time time went clock started ticking year since past since left still want another child dot want multiple baby mommas dont wamy kids half brothers sisters wanted normal life normal mom dad living together dream shattered life shattered crying type this every night feel like getting closer finally getting ablity ignore fear end lifei hurt mentally physically emotionally right lower leg hurting weeks point lay couch crying heart hurts much hurting bad think maybe miniature heart attacks hope every day heart attack wont call feelings trash try meet women force like someone else real wish would talk me wont hate life done it every day slip closer ending life want end it keep thinking committing crime killed cop dont want earth anymore sad part thought dying makes happy finally get happy think times skirted death wonder why survived ramstein airshow crash caught falling cliff checking castles germany barely missing car wrecks why live life pain dont want live pain want happiness watching smaillville type this watching marriage couples scripted tv course id kill fake relationship her dont cant anyone else right ill die alone ill die without true love die thinking her,1 +fathers last testament gifted bus ticketmy dad dying sometime minute now hes care comfort stage heavily medicated icu always lot firearms hoping pistol willed single shotgun dont really want go way gruesome brutal id rather pistol hang maybe exit bag lot pills drugs mostly psychedelics alprazolam think thats zanax googled wont kill me also thousands mg ibuprofen but suppose thats like normal headache pills dont want vomit death found revolver drawer supposed go another family member id feel bad using it know gf mother id body dont want see gory skull blown apart shotgun love take badly,1 +mad suicidal thoughts recentlyi know go ahead want someone notice,1 +ive challenged friend bought soviet russia flag wear school like cape comes shipping get german flag wear cape challenge fight realized cant fight germany lost russia im danger,0 +ill rouuuuundabout words maaaaake ,0 +yall think weird ghost corner room sleep paralysis demon see us masturbate sleep,0 +society moved past need umegathiccc think time simultaneously push button,0 +yeah sex cool nothing else say drink water stay hydrated,0 +im trying get better editing streaming uploaded new vid today hoping could get specific feedback it stream twitch well use streams vids one hr stream did like min look improve skillz link vid want watch httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpoqkftzyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvpoqkftzy ps please make feedback seem harsh im bit sensitive guess rude mean criticism,0 +day night cycle hear birds need sleep,0 +movie would typically watch morning got stop overbr br shia labeouf demonstrated young actor here could handle demanding roles fact handed roles last two years testament abilitybr br it really movie sure others involved pale comparison rolebr br this time gold reserved privileged victory opened masses much way tiger woods opened golf racesbr br like harry vardon stephen dillane said lord northcliffe peter firth if mr ouimet shia labeouf wins tomorrow hes best is father was much money hes got bloody is ill thank remember that go get charged up,0 +someone talk pleasei friends awake realized need talk someone epiphany life think spiraling failure know im afraid this want kill gets worse care family think feel know depression pass onto kill myself frankly care going difficult think put aside feelings go away blackness ease consider pretty good redflag ive tried failed twice know dos dos know go pawn shop wait background check walk pistol tomorrow walmart hunting store straight gun store want talk maybe convince pull life together fighting hopeless person doubt it also want vent life,1 +decorate room stayed since years want cool vibe im thinking rgb lights stuff anything guys mind do,0 +want die right nowi want dead want live shitty world want released im planning kill later life nobody notice success,1 +streamer friend watch looswaffle twitch httpwwwtwitchtvlooswafflesra so know even right sub friend college student really trying get stream channel ground funny nice would really appreciate give chance im honored invited game never considered fun apparently does thanks guys,0 +lost best friend im lonely shit gtgttheres long story behind this one friend amazing person talked time good stuff depression lot issues lives always talk help shitty times hard type whole story really stressed bad anxietyam also lot insecure started really pressuring later on making shitty mistakes made friendship decline eventually really messed stopped contact me way actually talk im school phone used skype removed that months im going really shitty times really miss them know people might think stupid super saddened this saying things like just move on they true friend know fact fault everything got fucked up pretty much deserve this friends hate screwing things best friend ton issues im really close giving hate vv well thats rant hopefully someone give good advice thankful help,1 +top reasons nintendo fucking sucks refuse acknowledge joycon drift issues charge fucking dollars usd pair joycons brand new fucking joycons stopped working times last hour need reset completely make fucking work sell digital games limited stock sometimes competitive smashsplutoon please ban permanently nintendo systems try literally fucking change character model game doesnt change hitboxes give advantage way nobody see it made console could work incredibly well vr decided make singleplayer shitty games cardboard headset customer support fucking sucks nintendo switch online garbage need wired connection anything barely increases performance stupid fuckers took etika joycons like greedy fucking assholes,0 +struggling year nothing improved anything things gotten worse something clicked inside today think current situation ever improve cannot stand around family understand support me matter many times try explain never understand never help me hate think ever change see way,1 +clue jane austens production youll repeats novels marriage marriage marriage opinion movies made novels bit boring like austens characters certain personality typical sayings like repeat also emma thing makes emma good gwyneth paltrow shes good leading role also fact one characters movie dont seem able think anything get good partner soon married makes movie hilarious,0 +started watch movie vh cringed mtv movies bad wasnt expecting much movie really good liked lot even twist end see movie shows made tv movies good exist,0 +question teens reddit think people subreddit im looking data people see posts,0 +jim varneys performances harem girl au amazingly funnyon level surpassing chaplin keaton linda kash great onceinalifetime role hometown waffle waitress longing adventure unfortunately remaining movie unwatchably bad due atrocious plot makers ernest goes africa rise creative challenges inherent low budget film production worth seeing cable,0 +hey look guy commented rickroll link post someones dog heart attack oh wait realized fucked deleted acc,0 +first saw absolutely riveting documentary initial release back and really profound effect me much bugged several friends see repeat screenings bottom linenone friends walked away disappointed ever stellar film scottish conceptual artist andy goldsworthywho creates absolutely beautiful pieces art using natural materials woodwaterflowersrocksetcto create pieces eventually return natural form a statement temporary state everything get see goldsworthy create several works temporary artas well long term installations major galleries around worldas well pieces natural worldas well german film makerthomas riedelsheimer directsphotographs edits meditation creative process real treat eye ear with ambient musical scorecomposed performed fred frithwhos music generally edgy experimentalnoise textured guitaras well capable ensemble musicians although film available dvd years nowif find cinema highlighting revival fine filmby meansseek its easily film composed large screenwith proficient sound system truly experience film right way mpaa ratingbut contains nothing offend unless live birth sheep screen destined offend disturb,0 +say someone suicidali need help read tons posts saying doesnt help youre suicidal could people saydo would help yo daughter feeling suicidal im scared death everything thank you,1 +im tired hearing gets betteri feel unattractive ugly girl im ever interested always interested friends me ive lost best friend hates everyone knew chose me confidence beaten me feel cool good looking anything im isolated alone cant pursue dreams anymore injury ive lost sense self feel like anymore used different used much this im tired hearing gets better years literally done nothing get worse day day want die,1 +braces got stuck girlfriends sweater ask embarrassing fuck parents help cut free rip sweater since grandma made,0 +dread waking morning days lifeless pointless it nighttime begin feel sense happiness mostly ill get sleep soon escape sooner later decision die get back fight made feel time goes leans towards inevitable suicide isolated desire anything day contemplate suicide means sure actually can practiced motions it matter pulling trigger point,1 +anxiety kicks keep fucking seeing shadow people fuck,0 +pushed away last friend nothing stopping anymoreyet cant it sit look pills ive amassed cant want bad cant im coward wish courage go want pain end want fucking end,1 +movie started wheels spin car entered race fox behind cant get front figure if go out im taking me smash cars parked side road turn hit fox aim bad bang gone back vw smash landed reservoir car lights fire could get wanted shame losing taken you bang car blows up everyone looks despair crying sound siren tells cops coming everyone gets cars bolts leaving burn charred remains cars frame sits there haunting lookers deadbr br this one scenes actually first scene movie many like it enter cockpit fox pimped v ford terry serio crazy gtho many others blast past john clarks masterpiece running empty hell win cost,0 +come secret share b b e,0 +non binary impossible how tell me either boy girl mean whatever want,0 +feeling very offrecently dumped girl years absolutely loved month ago although long still feels surprisingly fresh thought things subsided going alright ever since week ago slow steady weight pushing being wake morning terrified start day spending time staring vacantly wondering things playing out ever since left really realized much best friend me could tell anything intimate her intimacy never treasured enough gone missing sorely could release frustration her starts bottle inside regardless attempts blow steam creative physical vents like said week ago weight started pile up kept growing growing morning got up waited bed while finally made quick breakfast changing work clothes noticed familiar itch behind eyes matter seconds crying crying hard gasping quietly tried push tears push away gentle numbing pain pushed back much harder time able subside went work attacked again home took shower absolutely broke down kept thinking i broken again feel broken feel wrong feel odd fit am close thought close to ever since week ago fantasies killing garnered attention terrifyingly enough vivacity detail one morning found going intros letters head morning happened felt genuinely scared first time maybe telling everything going okay not maybe things going right ive afraid face that terrifying coming full force struggled entire life selfimage issues overweight unfit fact biked miles sometimes see way hate myself hate every action do sit now friends voided self image shattered one person made truly happy another man probably okay feel right god im starting cry again know embarrassing is met friend home earlier today could barely choke words face covered tears glad talk to one friend plus shell get tired hearing incessant whining this honestly cannot promise everything going okay feel right feel odd off know happened know anymore,1 +looking place hang out meet new friends allaround good time so kindly invite join server well organized wellmoderated discord server able fun things meeting new people participating daily gettoknowyou questions generally fun time people world anyone ages kindly welcomed join fun lollygag special places share things made selfies memesmedia even participate minecraft server well safe well organizedmoderated way were looking members going active interact community quite often wed absolutely love community interested please dm comment hope hear soon ,0 +would like join discord cousin discord lots fun stuff wanna join,0 +thought id sharei truly want go current life absolutely toxic live home without work covid folks relationship toxic sometimes question one day mom push father edge buys gun executes everyone father abuses mother anymore murders sleep wanting divorce threatens leave country attempts divorce him father treated mother like dirt since born mother recently started stand herself ive even begun standing her takes extreme throwing things him hitting hits back putting position intervene gotten hurt numerous times almost put prison money would move out cant even find work im antisocial type so moving friends house work dads side family middle east mothers side family psychotic maybe even more im nearly enough money leave friends literally family go therapy money sessions feel options truly redflag,1 +im big fan morgan freeman the shawshank redemption ranks top alltime favorite movies admit often wondered choice roles many titles big budget clichs heart items less marks return freeman role truly showcases considerable acting talentsbr br freeman plays unnamed formerly big time hollywood actor worked several years offered part unspecified indi picture research grocery store poor neighborhood la stranded flaky driver freeman offered ride home checkout girl scarlet paz vega semibefriended take home however scarlet big job interview needs get to freeman agrees tag along exchange ridebr br the movie follows scarlet freeman several locations movie really character piece interactions two freeman quintessential disconnected hollywood type heard target know telephone number even day week is spouts wisdom dalai lama filtered thru the whole world stage mentality repeatedly calls scarlets job interview audition yet way people way affecting extends beyond fame fan humanity studies them asks incessant questions them delights quirks others would simply annoyed scarlet sees stubborn proud loner was sees man used bebr br scarlet part displays fierce pride sharp tongue serve hide insecurities herself vega plays role connection freeman skates line almost daughterly love physical attraction although plays beautifully creepy sounds even feels connection freeman grow scarlet keen eye reality different worlds cuts thru freemans hollywood bullhit sharp pragmatism refuses accept anything truthbr br the movie smart funny well written dialogue simple effective read one imdb review said lines stilted think misinterpretation realistic human speech big soliloquies here deep soul searching moments trick is think show people ordinary everyday life forge connections one another think freeman vega pull beautifully painting picture bond two people glitters like sun ocean ethereal elusive long gone lives memories tantalizing might been ok bit flowery really like performances movie would definitely recommend it,0 +hi hey hello help young know im trans bi people said stuff like youre young know that think cause im sure im id like second opinion,0 +seriously asking much want things nothing more want die forgotten,1 +think im kill myself ive lost love life family week whole world finished put gone cant go without itim going copy paste happened angela came home today dropped huge bomb me said feeling years bisexual started curious gradually shifted preferring women men now says realized lesbian explains lack intimacy rejection past months theres child involved relationship i meant year old little girl ive raised daughter biological child guy previous relationship nothing her love angela mckenna much life ive known planning come crumbling down hurts intensely badly cant even cry ive hardly able draw breath im sitting dark mind racing rage sorrow like that over ill honest idk im going here ive thought staying mckennas life dad honesttogod think strong enough handle that especially mother starts date someone else im thinking remove sake make best decision myself right look well like angela does ive seriously considered redflag multiple times today im falling apart feel torn half regards feel angela one second love anything next feel seething hatred tldr girlfriend told lesbian obviously ends relationship ive father child entire life obligated do wrong look emotional well remove entirely mckenna good around miserable do cant go life anymore im finished,1 +pleasehelpsomeonei seriously cant anymore ill broken lost never thought could get fucking bad year worst year life far fucking tired bs every single day torture need someone talk to,1 +elton elton elton elton elton elton elton elton davis aldridge,0 +movie soooo funny acting wonderful ramones sexy jokes subtle plot every high schooler dreams hisher school absolutely loved soundtrack well carefully placed cynicism like monty python love film movie tad bit greaseesk without annoying songs songs sung likable might even find singing songs movie through musical ranks number two musicals second next blues brothers please think musical per say seeing songs likable hard tell carefully choreographed scene taking place think movie comedy undertones romance reminded like rebellious teenager needless say reminiscing old high school days seeing film highly recommended family since youthful also adults since many jokes funnier age experience,0 +letting fate decideso long story short boyfriend broke back february weve remained friends much weve continued sex honestly indont think ever liked like girlfriend think feels guilty dumping still sometimes hangs around me ignoring weeks end barely talking me wanting hang fine imma let fate decide rejects hanging im gonna it ill postpone either way im going tell need guilt something fault,1 +events wait forspent birthday weekend alone overwhelmed im heartbroken it work dehumanizing covid demoralizing instead ending life things happen future wait instead,1 +helpit time since posted something app need get chest bf toxic cant get away him hes aggressive manipulative hes always pissed makes feel terrible almost lost friends him tells leave them forces leave them want live like thishe told hed kill cheated him never never would im afraid leaving it would hurt me want diei dealing depression gets worse everyday know love manipulative disgusting asshole,1 +never one good friend entire fucking life bullied middle school nobody liked me high school nobody bullies me zero friends hate every single second alone whats point anything cant share stuff anyone worst part friends knowing fun stuff im missing habe friends feel like everyome found group feel alone fuck this,0 +going sleep tell something interesting comments,0 +foods boosts mood read title read title read title,0 +anyone venezuela filler,0 +opening night released tries ambitious production succeeds truly stunning performance gena rowlands character theatre actress myrtle necessarily someone would love real life selfabsorbed often obnoxious makes life miserable around words unlike actresses myrtle also woman edge collapse quite sure demons fighting real imagined although let secret early rowlands obviously well directed love gifted husband actordirector john cassavettes role film well film without flaws overly long last part film myrtle goes stage drunk seems almost cruel improvising dialogue least stage goes way long supporting characters give good performances especially ben gazarra playing myrtles sleazy producer joan blondells character never fully developed never could figure film except placate myrtle see film rowlands alone fascinating throughout tough take eyes her although want times,0 +never felt alone worthless unloveable hopeless life know feel better nothing helps hate everything right now cannot stop crying chest hurts worst person everyone gets sick of help,1 +looking acidentaly news pictures weed web specially working triggered super anxious horrible feeling would take around hour two recover feeling day still suffer this when work important meeting praying computer article marijuana weed suddenly appears newsfeedcan imagine this completly irrational,1 +dad said would look cyberpunk see ok get wish luck boys n girls like seriously rn get phone wish luck tf u still readin need game,0 +scale bad day honest answers mental health check,1 +way outi feel trapped endless loop head long mental state quickly deteriated able find happiness im ive attempted couple times tonight thoughts truly got best scared losing all yet time want it patience wait something good happen either even closest friend said i know asked get help mother help take doctor let even get medication hope one help find way,1 +therapistshas anyone else treated badly therapy place,1 +dowhat saythat make go awaylife already shot bulletcan outpace stayampxbampxba vast draught emotions lay hereto witness pain happiness fearis another day life hold dearampxbampxbis cruel fate design fairyou eventually happy face another evil snareis life supposed make happiness commodity rarewas born wrong time place simply wrong borni know fact likely ever scaredampxbis seconds joy really worth hours painthe answer obvious put toxicity drainbut torment leave upon friends family shall rainampxbso write poem attempt escape braina decision feel right wrong drives insaneuntil final breath thing ishope better day poem wrote thoughts,1 +new category rteenagers seen real rteenagers opinion new category much better hot category,0 +get sort way depressed miserable way get trappedi want end it safe more demons creeping again seeing things corner eye whispers screaming kind screaming sounds like person terrified go away screams heart unsteady ragefilled heart object pedophile nothing real it cant tell cant know sure love family em ive got people never understand me theyre ive got doubt theyre real right nothing real nothing right please forgive me im begging let go death mean think stand alone this blood dripping arms memories peace get cant even anymore savior savior,1 +porn gay porn call gay porn gay porn discriminating gay porn porn porn right lesbian porn called regular porn too reason this,0 +sometimes think killing cold bloodedi mean think im depressed enjoy life pleasures end going die whats purpose living first place ok life gives pleasures end full thorns nothing easy get older older life gets harder harder im trying say is wait death execute choose death universe bringing me experienced pretty heavy shit death would gruesome too highly doubt perishing away die sure something else highly doubt would pleasurable best would existing all,1 +ever since uk large country lockdown thing last year social life gotten worse sometimes cannot even speak know sayrecently getting persistent suicidal thoughts wanting self harm thankfully addiction internet basically saved life found phobias are phobia death pain really saves anything hurt myself though times get serious thoughts try consider good things life turn helpanother problem parents completely different views mental health think looked upon mentally unstable talked more mum nurse thinks knows everything certainly not lastly the worst all dad tells cry annoying redflag stupid thing phase depressed teenager speaking says scared would shout time little sometimes justified time not tells scared understand children supposed scared dadssorry long but next unfortunately subject suicide attempted commit suicide couple months ago bath listening call lucid dreaming sort music family downstairs watching tv nobody checked while since mum always worrying knows struggle self harm thoughts wondering shouting asking okay kind made feel unwanted family laughing downstairs whilst suicidal kid bath could possibly decide like end all suddenly looking back times felt empty realised much feeling numb feeling decided sink beneath water reality set ended surfacing thinking over think people would class attempt think isi know long know sorry lot say cannot say loud going get grief bad things life,1 +love alli become upset depressed occasion sheer scale suffering really puts perspective feelings simply cant comprehend amount sadness grief like notion infinity large understand dont believe god anymore did id praying you love want know im holding heart sounds trite true,1 +im gonna go sleep dream mcdonalds whatcha want filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +ultimate mean ultimate adventure classic plot good versus evil always abundance films depict gray areas enough basic good evil account real cases good evil real world recently film makers tried even odds real life well half situations black white fraction movies make seem way movie best example back white look best seen black white hero worst situation territory man wants murder him among various enemies movie gives feel hopelessly outnumbered cant count help enemy the count numerous resources counts wife forced marriage him knows past history sooner later kill wives hero become allies fall love away could win anyone watching unless person wants contrary brat anyone helps killed escape situation hopeless survive end guess unless read spoilers movie also lot great atmosphere adventure intrigue along lon chaney bad guy boris karloff best role ever decent guy usually cast bad guy karloff best presented complex roles one chaney rarely given complex role although strutted stuff movies of mice men little cameo him still tension never stops suspense danger throughout perfectly written perfectly cast perfectly directed movie bepure escape pure adventure,0 +think im officially friendless now im glad two days ago friday hanging friends which nothing common with pretty much told move on think fact told parents want meet finally got fuck off btw idea flare this,0 +cant think title atmi felt urge search subreddit tonight browsing post others similar issues open eyes sill need get things chest dont know im really suicidal ill ever go killing myself know persisting thoughts death answer problems problems youre probably familiar with jobless social anxiety feeling guilt burdening family living nonexistent selfesteem know things get better eventually long keep taking steps forward try to im quite rejection streak job applications im applying go back college like last gamble hello debt currently dog im emotionally dependent on dont know good thing not hes look forward day kept going lately family says got go hurts know rightsay matter cant support him hes still currently tuesday im going separation anxiety thinking it depresses theyre sending live relative who doesnt understand cant feed dogs certain things like chocolate cooked bones consequences arent little stomachache person also lets dog wander next town contacted shelter found him back previous owner neglected outside i told tied short chain covered feces bringing endless worries dog laid beside every night last half year spent much effort teach basic commands like stay shake roll over greet hugs kisses every time come back home errand point guess obvious whats got riled tonight ill try convince find qualified person take in love family put loser like me cant help feel frustrated doesnt help comments like stop overthinking im not grow up hurry get job support yourself dog dont know im going this,1 +im failure disappointment theres nothing left guilt continueive always said would kill life got hard believe god afterlife always seemed like right thing do life philosophy enjoy myself thats longer possible whats point everything want be im year old college dropout virgin living moms basement working dad buried debt getting high everyday got credit card debt time college im capable making longterm plans incapable following short term gotten better ive spent last two years active goal getting credit card debt im exactly started id worse already hit credit limit im sure money guilt let everyone know love many occasions lost faith me rightly so im flakey promise something might it conscience would let live like that feel terrible every time go back word every time much suspect ive let someone down thing kept going till constant deep feeling guilt way live selfmotivation cant anything unless someones breathing neck it left devices get high play video games masturbate sleep wake up rinse repeat let lizard starve dehydrate point finally tried give water weak drowned it got puppy previous roommate neglected took one day got hit car better fate him two weeks ago skipped entire week work gone work since thanksgiving now im embarrassment dad wants well tries push me respond said word since sunday even tell coming in id feel worse im coward sense responsibility willpower commitments end disappointment guilt myself somewhere along line failed learn basic human social skills cant carry conversation get scared cant describe ideas anyone im reading book ask it give dismissive answer go back reading im asshole scare shit me im terrified touching people anything attentiongetting poke hug hell cant even say peoples names feels wrong this takes huge amount effort even social situations let alone try talk people end isolated choice hating it thats comes to im selfish loathsome person hate it feel nothing guilt selfloathing except im escaping drugs entertainment thing stopping killing figuring best method leave notes for edit drove around today looking good place jump from find one spent rest day weedfueled haze friends house almost entirely quiet drifting consciousness then coming home pulled cemetery spent next hour holding knife throat listing reasons die obviously it called therapist schedule appointment soon possible clearly antidepressant longer cutting it im going talk mom attempt tomorrow morning dad work hope best that thanks everyone posted morning sure last day im sure long ill keep it given strength try longer,1 +hasnt many kinks rejected inderstood could arousing except shit fuck shit turn someone on,0 +it friends youtube channel hit subs dont know allowed heres link httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucjnoplyebefuelcficbw please subscribe,0 +could separate tables separate liesbr br this becomes somewhat involved housekeepers husband killed hit car bicycle culprit turns woman cleans for latter affair friend driving car lover accident occurred complicate matters further housekeeper worked guys parents jailed stealing therefore people hesitate believe car caused accident sounds like wants revengebr br this becomes convoluted housekeeper discovers boss driving car recants testimony much dismay officer working casebr br as enough several months later lover rupert everett becomes terminally ill lady emily watson leaves husband tom wilkinson care himbr br the acting quite good despite neverending peyton place like theme tom wilkinson solicitor tries protect wifebr br the film good one could done without terminal illness well marriage ended anyway,0 +make economics class enjoy obv cant put swear assignment google told as anything meaning ampxb httpspreviewredditczmjicuppngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsdcbabccbbcfbdf,0 +look guys really bad place keep getting sectioned time tried killing toaster bathtub failed electric tripped went mile walk sectioned past months picked could walk back cannot live anymore know tried hard drown demons adage goes know swim damn good struggling guys know probably last port call fair try again life sick joke sick man killing living anyway comes cannot bad it like sure got better shit show currently find everything feels like sitcom power hungry idiots trying hard stay level difficult really someone could help would forever grateful somebody help please,1 +couldntbr br from cutting dialogue super special effects film joy behold throughout immediate feel bitterness antarctic affinity characters built base level real action heats cunning finale combine make one memorable enjoyable films aroundbr br up long list films attempted exploit theme visitors another planet thing comes top laughing forget perfectly timed dialogue chilling special effects special effects lot impressive computer generated images get see today one found enjoyable aspects film way introduced slowly member crew way distinctive character traits senseless bloodbathcomeslasherhorror flick film feeling emotionbr br i truly cant recommend film highly enough yet see anything class comes anywhere near matching let alone bettering near perfect acting timing utilised cunning polymesmeric feat cinema,0 +acting age tiredhi using depressed bitch throwaway cause not act age mean act way older am intentionally garner attention cool i always hated word literally exist like recent trend hating teens acting lot older makes insecure am curse lot smoke thanks family close giving up make sexual jokes mess around guys etc might add well behaved kid good grades stupid shit like wearing provocative clothesposting provocative pics online cause think cheap degrading anyone older am age consent country although playfully flirted older friends absolutely nothing serious ever entered situation theres danger well know well ampxb problem well fucking want fit in want whatever society wants me want fit want every one like me stupid age terrible personality something fucking change tried change personality lot got suicidal instead want people like me see person despite age immature person either take full responsibility anything do reason like whole another shit show itself hit puberty wayyy early got sexually abused mom still getting verbally physically emotionally abused parents lmao cannot act like act like child parents expect they still cannot expect keeps calling condescending way even though well past age knoww want accepted gladly circle friends depression keeps telling need normal need everyone like otherwise worthless ampxb wish could go sui attempt,1 +wanna cuddle uwu like baggy pajamas ac temperature makes us cold also warm lay thicc blanket thicc enough make us sweat fall asleep uwu,0 +silent kid takes step forward see title silent kid me takes step forward realitydont worry m know lockdown took heavy toll me got skinny day day got shy uncomfortable new people around silent kid still afraid talk people school know bout silent kids afraid getting judged already judged neighborhood heavy gamer playing game hrs day clear loneliness stress inside me thought esports could thing future big me grinded game got confused reality fantasy started severe headaches lot things studys dumb student less that dumber dora explorer financial condition great either almighty mercy barely able pay school fees maybe reason afraid lockdown carried year nowdamn want old days back weeks back left gaming cheer bois almighty sympathy thought dothe question whole universe wants know started studying hrs ok guy whos dumber dore explorer easy task grinded books used grind gaming skills got much higher adrenaline rush ever challenges oh man mind completely confused seriously loved it know what started coding man confusing yet amazing maybe afraid people challenges afraid times selfish possibly rudemaybe cringy welltips silent kid want friends silent kid first enter personal space without asking second maybe rude cringy arrogant selfish etc everyone trades mine nobody right judge them quote silent kid even sparkle shine sometimes sparkle things made shine human know many guys lost talents skills learned new skills talents grow much want heart wants took many guys like lets that realise nothing thats mind responsible laziness heart things want even mind still saying big no silent kidwithout m,0 +done overdosed ending life fuck world everything iti renting room aunt lives apartment complex put lease get income get income ssd get month social security ptsd makes unable work car family friends rental history except aunt landlord apartment complex try applying apartment demand rental history means telling landlord apartments live income trying apply apartments elsewhere name trying save car last year saved aunt knew went rented tv furniture store son years old income job issues even national guard army quit contract up refuses work aunt knew trying save car went got tv blackmailed buying tv leave knowing arthritis entire body cant walk miles homeless paid dollar tv went said fuck saved dollars aunt blackmailing savings went bought first car seen dealership turn got scammed engine bad car sold old file lemon law aunt scammed dads car changed leave car instead dad sign telling hospital papers ended getting car gave son tore car up needs dollars mechanic work done it many cracks holes frame body him barely runs now aunt went got jetta vw diesel son taking month give rent putting towards car payment car month car gave him gave mommy aunt dads car still nothing trying apply apartments cant told office income apply apartments want recent landlord use one know getting income either kick sue backpay rent fucked every way go cant leave cant survive streets body arthritis cripples lower back hips knees ankles feet cant get apartment aunt fucking telling landlord income cant get car get enough payment trying save difficult supposed saved nothing saved aunt blackmailed saved past months literally cant take anymore end life good bye cant anymore,1 +cant alone anymoreif goes longer think ill able go on cant even get motivated lonliness might end killing disappointment disappointment life nothing ever get better ones gonna come give hug cuddle me im done,1 +really wanna kill myselflike yeah life tough depression believe bad care people sadly dont care people care much really dont wanna hurt them yes would end suffering dont care that care dont want suffer something did wish things different wish loved wish could happy wish didnt deal this,1 +write notei plan possibly ending life soon but want leave something behind whoever finds me id feel bad dont again necessary lot questions im going keep short,1 +believe reason movie get recognition deserves many misconceptions darwin pro con would say real man depicted without sterility is although movie snapshot man technique storytelling expanded life far beyond years touched movie deep movie pondering modern life way think provoke study man whose thoughts and used him certainly affected lives movies historical context great primary job actors stay way history carried day actors job good work them say,0 +since become target girl bullied relentlessly breast c wrong lead damage self esteem become shut yet weighed less bullys think ugly hard time feeling beautiful since every time happy drags soon stand bad person pretty much everyone calls beautiful cute adorable know suffer low self esteem never tear anyone else make feel better unless girl made fun mine talks shit anyone b cup anyone views prettier complains boys like like boyfriend wtf btw still stuck high school phase wonder people want spend time never problem breast jealous struggling self esteem,1 +ok gotta ask makes bad person im really scaared crush really love despise way dresses im judgmental wish care really makes cringe hard im grossed sometimes even gives second hand embarrassment im even embarresed seen next him dresses badly hes poor something isnt hes mot aware really dont know looks bad every single shirt want burn makes feel like shallow judgmental person really case know im always super harsh decided ask see others say please honest thanks,0 +wow fucking disappointed letter psychiatric ward got released froma metal slab bed cardboard pillow get sleep on whatever selfrespect left stripped walk door seems ironic took three days recover refuge therapy place healing grand total minute seconds one one face time psychiatrist psychologist watch tv shut up eat klonopin feel good enough leave fuck you bullshit,1 +guys isolate pls anyone need company isolate cause one classmates got rona,0 +finally turned today although last months shh,0 +raise one eyebrow itself women please one one ftdfzguxucuhzgftigzfgcivhigvudrqaq edf ggixivob week egg egg th tv guide school time car call convenience school time car phone mom going point get ride airport side road like school time time want days seeing posts facebook,0 +thanks i got back vacation find longer job due covid likely best since suffered permanent damage spine feet serving years still clue im going do get another job serving ill pain due damage also sole caretaker children sole provider husband goes school remain unhopefull ever find another job complies childrens school schedule especially since due covid school home want end all want stop pain want stop burden want stop worrying want stop fighting get mornings want everything stop,1 +posting gnarly space facts run knowledge day hey everyone hope great day far havent perhaps space fact make little better always questions andor topics space me leave comments ill see tomorrow fact saturns north pole hexagon first observed voyager missions s seems top everyones favorite ringed planet lies massive hexagonal cloud pattern kilometers miles diameter twice diameter earth entirely known caused strange storm appear theories ampxb first all mentioned hexagon vortex center it meaning almost certainly caused sort storm second south pole hexagon likely something exclusive saturns northern latitudes current prevailing explanation hexagons origin simply giant current wind similar jet stream earth kind anticlimactic know interesting note current continuously churning decades reason know nasaesa cassini probe revisited hexagon early parts mission find moved continued study another interesting thing cassini found shortly hexagon changes colors original voyager observations hexagon appeared blue began turn brownish color top theory sunlight caused haze form pole due seasonal changes saturn yes even gas giants seasons cassini continued study saturn long could ended mission plunging planets atmosphere rest peace cassini one favorite probes o,0 +im sure post thisi woke today news expect hear mortgage paid months parents i may become homeless ive applying many jobs many jobs contacted one need background check tb test hopefully tomorrow grandpa would move another state siblings live two dogs two dogs give reason wake every day want live without them ive always wondered would happen lost separated them genuinely believe would kill myself ive attempted redflag times before redflag note written last year goodbye right now strongly believe things get better might be wanted go back school try become teacher wanted work towards becoming english teacher japan im lost im scared know do im trying find job really know told sooner,1 +im year old male its long fuck lmaoive never really opened feelings anyone whole life every fucking time someone tries get open end feeling annoyed like im depressed push away im pretty sure parents never taught feelings idea handle shove deep deep deep body one time tried let broke cried family african american brushed little bitch suck honest im used caring dont care anymore thats one problem another thing really dont see making end year graduating young mom found church jesus christ converted mormon ever since would let skip school middle school would create lies avoid school actually believed know sounds like fault definitely smarter really takes church anything including fucking children sucks im really behind school mention parents divorced used argue every single damn day thing brought peace xbox play video games time mindset whenever play games dont worry everything else life also im pretty sure im addicted porn cant stop even though im trying fucking hard stop feeling makes feel like im loved something masturbate lot feel feeling another thing lol feel like loser this tend dwindle past lot times really cared siblings second oldest would expect someone black foot decent looking extroverted fun around complete opposite extremely introverted like alone hate im pretty sure thats like pushing people away really sucks like dont even know real anymore really want feel happy like kid sucks man could playing sports going year college instead im depressed want die badly opening app god want someone save fucking bad even funny,1 +cant iti born raised fortunate family two loving parents brother needs far need him fund late grandparents put college im monster im pedophile discernable source myself years therapy my parents insurance told depression still beast castration extremely expensive covered insurance thus far nogo cant myself owe parents productive life resources theyve poured me owe brother nothing help him hes brother im loss myself many debts cant filch on im among worst category human and no defend pedophilia deserve downvoted set ablaze just do,1 +feeling lonely anyone wanna chat title says basically anyone preferably age wanna chat yo guy interests top post profile also snapchat discord prefer im gonna continue cuddling pillow till get human replacement,0 +know anymorei end rope pain great hard time focusing school work it went counselor enough want end life tell whole story anxiety depression fighting while life actually emotionally mentally abused child finally broke free that found nice guy made feel wonderful myself fast forward almost years broke me unresolved issues engaged years went counselor it that felt pretty alright life going alright finally stop talking ex finding world weeks stopped talking told wanted back loved never would leave again promised never hurt again stupid shit relationship fear another months dating broke again promised time worst isolated world last semester college friends family talk me went back him week almost since break hes already dating someone new loved everything best friend cant take anymore years old suffered much tired hurting tired breaking down tired pain tired effecting everything want die,1 +major depressive disorder spiraling control either one understandor know say stopped telling people scared tired feeling never ending misery scared agony usually felt like past passes rather quickly first time ever residing going weeks now anyways take care all hope well try stay strong sure much longer,1 +want diehi reddit two days ago discharged army decline mental health hospitalized twice self mutilation failed redflag attempt two battle buddies found hanging bathroom post wish found me im angry desire live anymore want therapy want drugs want anything preventing dying want slip away feel completely lost,1 +understand myselfyesterday walked miles degree weather coat middle oncomming holiday traffic two police cars fire truck swerve miss me one stopped one honked every time someone would come close would hope person behind see me time car moving fast enough stepped out matter get car hit me friend found snow bank searching hours remember much world turning beneath feet felt good totally carefree playing chicken cars longer caring hit me legs terrible pain attempt fear may back road try today tomorrow im intelligent person simply way life ive given ive met people say im living dream cant live dream let get it eaten solid food four days feel hungry unfortunatly social services food stamps single guy take medication problems help exsist ive got feeling im go back road wanted talk someone did meh,1 +yeah like wap waffles pancakes still here expecting horny joke smh head,0 +plans graduationim junior highschool terrifying every day panic attacks manic episodes psychiatrist believe im bipolar therapist does mom agrees psychiatrist make matters worse due recent manic depressive episodes getting stuck mental hospital attempting redflag numerous accounts deep self harm overdosing severely track graduating class im failing im becoming alcoholic im mostly loner honestly want live life lackluster me plans college uni plan alive im completely stuck mortal realm sucks ass do want end life ive failed many redflag attempts already fear ill stuck hospital weeks again cant take anymore maybe ill try something effective want alive want make ,1 +already lost lifei lost job third time soon homeless again strength girlfriend left mei addicted xanax alcohol slipped crime became aggressive weeks ago beat man hammermy family hates anything shown several times longer expect support even though never received themin circle acquaintances nothing crackhead sells drugs cheaplyi tried times time ended hospital resolved end today,1 +im back days late clue im talking about click httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentshvgjim_leaving_discord_and_redditutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 +summon power reddit guess lot schools germany want write final exams even though didnt get lot time learn them thats friends started petition exams would help lot could sign petition ampxb httpchngitytvmdyvpdmhttpchngitytvmdyvpdm,0 +lmao ugly im ugly believe pedophile wouldnt come dumb enough fall pedo tricks also pedo thats subreddit stub toe brick care hes shit head,0 +dont know fight anymoreim suicidal thoughts every fucking morning redflag first thing think every day mom needed something hours im waiting try die again isnt funny might get scared halfway stop it well means im gonna try next day dont know fight anymore used depressed suicidal years ago getting hardest thing ive ever done dont think again hope back dont anymore,1 +redflag desireable change mindgive good argument commit redflag following conditions selfish enough ignore pain family membersfriends whatever close person sick tired life dont believe religion,1 +ive obsessed bedrooms window i live th floorever since moved new apartment ive obsessed afraid time bedrooms window point think healthy drives suicidal thoughts im afraid heights panic every single time get close window go balcony every time somebody passes close one two body starts erratically move feel person may slide trip fall abyss every single time look mind fills images falling easy would die jump im writing last night really vivid nightmare cant stop thinking damn window sort creepy weird factor screams danger also calling get closer take look down prevent escalating actual suicidal thoughts,1 +okay film made much later history cinema particularly worthwhile however films infancy almost rather dull real story tellinstead showing normal everyday folks everyday activities seen today almost hopelessly dull very shortoften less one minute long light this short clip movie pretty swell stuff might make laugh two guys miller chimney sweep bump otherfalling throwing flour coal dust tussle thats allthe film know it,0 +fucking bother anymoreim done everything im years old training teacher else im struggling depression anxiety every day every day deal shitty little kids respect me told lessons standard matter long stayed plan put together deal fear failing ive already months due mental illness came back want career also problems home deal constantly fearing money im going finish training whether pass fail always tell im dead man walking redflag way out ive watched videos perfected technique tying noose even hardware store look right rope job even considered booking flight san francisco go golden gate bridge end life ive watched many videos redflag clips livestreams indulge suicidal fantasies im medication problems much every time hear people jokingly talk killing laughing subject redflag wish gun blow head teach lesson im asking pity advice want whoever reads know might live much longer may see lifes fucking hard dont want anymore,1 +biggest reason see movie stars susan swift outstanding alltoounderappreciated actress time travel movies usually interest neither movies witchcraft movie fascinating creepy rely outrageous special effects focus heavily time travel viewer gets lost confused really creative movie kept simple focused great acting all,0 +would like someone talk toon surface live great life year old austrian guy come well family go good school get decent grades well liked known quiet social guy incredibly intelligent seem get along everyone hobbies hiking mountain biking building lego sail boats would considered far average attractiveness terms physical appearance people ampxb problem inside wreck hard even describe really inside recently contemplated redflag couple times get anxious paranoid social settings feel strong emotional bonds anyone spend time head creating idealized versions life people around me real life feel though nobody talk nobody knows would believe me tried talking people class however see outside terrified failure even thoughts sometimes manipulative compulsive liar nobody sees it would anything look good lengths gone so always horrified hindsight ampxb outlook future also depressing see point working hard getting good grades school get university study years work miserable years make money survive live rest life old man use money end making ampxb also daydream fantasize lot would like live know never able achieve ideals short want chat someone know me scared face face maybe stop getting suicidal thoughts,1 +dont itdont people love,1 +want die stupid reasonsi guess first reason stupid grew emotionally abusive manipulative house amp im kinds fucked up next living fact emotionally abused ex around year ago we fucking immature known better feel truly like matured changed one wants near know abuser plus girl still feels like shit amp hates fucking much told kill myself deserve it friends girlfriend feel alone cant even put words much pain feel feeling years know im might sound like im trying edgy truly lost hope life im ungrateful could sick homeless fuck is wrong ,1 +saying n word context bad now know youre probably thinking fuck say n word clarify dont im well aware theres lot debate regarding n word whos shouldnt say it dont see many people talking this example reading something like kill mockingbird n word came up allowed say im white latina context im using derogatory way not dont want accidentally offend someone im naive come conclusion think,0 +everyone lets stand take prayer must pray people enjoy have agree queen james bible blasphemy disrespectful thing bible thank everyone prayed,0 + friends gfany solutions type quietredditornerd problem introvert bad socializing,0 +im tiredpart posting last resort dont know anymore life seems series one struggle another hate pitying way ive wanted die long remember remember writing poem years age ive never felt like anyone ever understood me desire die isnt purely emotional though ive tried hard view situation objective stance death seems logical decision point psychotic may sound ive several clearly unsuccessful redflag attempts first occurred attempted drown rescued friend second incidence happened april took ibuprofen admit time cry help anything taken hospital given charcoal ingest dont think medically necessary procedureit punitive anything therapy recommended time complied found largely ineffective last time four five years agoi forget took advil fell unconscious woke vomiting sleep waited hour two and realizing wasnt going die called ambulance paramedics upon arrival told would probably die told amount ibuprofen ingested admitted hospital d therapy was again recommended time found therapist saw sessions deeming futile im years old born caucasian father multiracial mother who time early forties one older brother seven years senior half sister already years old born parents undiagnosed mental health issues father contracted ulcerative colitis young adult warranted proceeding ileostomya medical procedure removes ilium a part small intestine rest gastrointestinal tract follows it creates stoma essentially hole elimination waste made father extremely self conscious consequently lived entire life without making even single friend translated family living isolation grew up us family friends limited any contact neighbors feel like socialization skills inhibited this wasnt grade school really opportunity interact people outside immediate family painfully shy softspoken little eccentric quickly casted peers teased many things growing upmy multiracial identity voice appearance mother my mother rather overweight time intelligence taciturnity name few around four five family member molested times minor time surprisingly weve talked since felt terrible it doesnt bother anymore used to life ive struggled health elementary school asthma severe hospitalized multiple times every year remember years old coming pneumonia fell unconscious fever escalated nearly degrees prematurely pronounced dead hospitalized time afterward returning school many asthma triggers one grass every day lunch mother picked take home lunch afraid playing grass contributed feelings isolation whats elementary school without playtime fortunately asthma control still get bronchitis every year though immune system rather weak pick colds like magnet used love run cant anymore chronic knee problems luxating patella sides inherited mother sciatica know health problems minor im thankful that life home quiet growing up part since parents s little worn spend much time me siblings far ahead developmentally want play pretend me parents bought whatever toys wanted compensate recall feeling extremely lonely child cant remember time felt lonely brother hit adolescence life home quickly became volatile violent brother so sister got physical fight parents resulted father needing number stitches brother went juvenile hall several months released remember fearful time remember hurt feelings quite bit middle school tumultuous time me befriended become quite close one two classmates past years decided ditch without explanation eventually realized wasnt cool experience repeated repeatedly throughout childhood young adulthood time hurt significantly freshman high school parents got divorce father immediately remarried woman younger sister dad late fifties wife time prison fraud prostitute porn star stripper meth head ultimately released dad took go see her make long story short relationship didnt work out father known stoical became suicidal afterwards remember one night called mothers brother taken mother somewhere likely grocery shopping told jump balcony stole mothers car and without drivers license drove dads house got acted like nothing ever happened time got first relationship lonely desperate time welcomed first person ever show romantic interest relationship stormy one jealous type attempted regulate every aspect life towards end time together longer allowed talk anyone else school him could wear makeup dress up could longer devote time hobbies which time consisted mostly drawingpainting playing video games ironically years later apologized way treated me remains one closest friends day although speak infrequently believe holding grudges shortly that would sophomore year high school performance school began decline younger gate gifted talented education also pulled regular classes given individual attention around reading when nd grade reading th grade level friends wasnt learning anything class began develop record truancy teachers complained bright wasnt applying myself enrolled honors ap classes barely passed rarely attended didnt care anymore graduated barely parents always believed id end stanford ivy league university many ways feel like failure started working junior high school graduation began work fulltime attended local community college time switched majors frequently unable focus single subject long eventually settled business administration subject im passionate about seemed like safe choice would help pay bills eventually transferred mediocre local university transfer student even though im still one class left officially degree failed many classes due inability focus im sure degree even value,1 +want kill im absolutely terrified futurei think counts depression im constantly sad im able find little moments joy im playing video game whatever always planned killing end high school im grade getting scared ive always hated school grades completely plummeted recent years want spend limited time something hate failed classes last year know im destined failure graduate main reason killed yet im middle show im watching want finish die im done im probably gonna it sorry seemed like rambling typing first things came mind,1 +mum called mental health servicesbecause bought equipment kill myself went sisters amazon account ordered last night itll arrive today sister saw email called mother tell her want die such want give stop hurting cry help mum called attention seeker guess am im frightened theyll admit hospital nurse arriving shortly assess me mum wants leave house said days wants out says obviously need help im letting mental illnesd consume want around anymore im lazy dirty disgusting ive crying days im god damn depressed feel completely ruined family going find feel sick guilt shame see way anymore im better dead everyone wish guts end it last night episode calmness made mind killing myself right feel hopeless,1 +hate people think opinions scientific fact theres dickwad controversial today arguing trans people delusional anarchists trying poison childrens minds lying cant actually transition theyve literally proved wrong many times science noooooooo science wrong dont like outcome,0 +fuck essay yesterday test next period didnt study decided nothing last night either two things im mindlessly scrolling thought app everything unfunny reposts funny,0 +good byehello name randall live costa rica wanna die want jus go sleep never wake up im years old feel useless never thing life feel like time running know maybe one first post reddit maybe last,1 +stop nice cos literally fall love hesitation,0 +want alone interest anybody nobody notices,0 +know whats embarrassing saying you too waitress asks enjoy meal saying you too fight mom says fuck you,0 +last wordsim leaving like name scribbled wall something proves existed all longer live feel something inside gone out cant feel joy anymore barely leave room cant hold conversation im thankful meeting great people life ive always always loved matter what hopefully theyll remember that im sad leaving behind late might understand given time tonight im going read favourite book put favourite album drift forever whoever are sincerely hope great life wish best come terms decision im longer scared im going look stars one last time window im going close eyes sleep forever edit im still open speak anyone nearly time im listening nujabes finished reading beowulf im waiting stars become little clearer amazing human interaction last hours care every one hope journey takes new exciting places even im long gone forgotten somehow im still going tomorrow ill let know message comes brief time earth over im religious next life ill put good word you farewell good luck update various kind amazing people talked decision made doubt it logged reddit tried anyway im like that pretty halfhearted attempt method got really high kill me woke feeling like shit im still here update spoke close relation told feeling last night im going doctors seek treatment,1 +isnt sad need male validation life guess dont need it makes life whole lot better time,0 +mostly scared passing timeim f start childhood sucked majority highschool life spend alone sad playing video games day im still havent finished major highly suicidal dont know recently talked psychologist first time didnt work also sessions cant keep fort corona virus every night go bed wishing didnt wake again dont know do paper hours could bothered start since quarantine sleep hours day rarely leave bed unless necessary spend lot time crying contemplating redflag think im ready tried kill highschool think im ready now nothing brings joy anymore reddit great place waste time lurked sub years think time go sincerely hope fellow lurkers make live happy life ill watch wherever go root you thank reddit internet video games music providing comfort lonely life,1 +only serial killer would break house dissect pieces psycho would stab chest im walking,1 +finally found itafter years hating passed months mostly progress last couple weeks though relapsed starting suicidal thoughts again weekend though made stupid decisions ultimately lead one best nights life finally came giant conclusion subreddit helped though wanted put thank you,1 +friend planning redflag know doso basically friend always struggled mentally long history selfharm initiated sort plans before christmas relaxing together mention want commit redflag feel like anything live plans sometime exams finished nobody around decided let go back uni nicer environment thinking perhaps change scene would turn trigger change heart turns isnt case even things order now live shared house next year passed feel powerless single clue abort plan theirs do,1 +reason livei many people life girlfriend rarely friends get friend leave soon after nothing really makes happy anymore thinking reason go on,1 +tips get bad mindset get due anxietypanicthe title basically ive simply going episode it doesnt matter sob whatever becoming bit difficult make go faster tried distracting seemed make worse mostly,1 +tips stay motivatedfocused hey ive gotten pretty behind schoolwork wondering yall tricks staying focusedmotivated get distracted pretty easily often motivate sit like hours work,0 +need help asap im snapping girl said likes me know say since like still dont know say ideas,0 +great softcore sex revealing sexy plenty it ignore ignoramus realize raunchy sexy done right way erotic go watch red shoes diary junk want hot exciting softcore done properly movie watch like explicit skinemax films like one great softcore sex revealing sexy plenty it ignore ignoramus realize raunchy sexy done right way erotic go watch red shoes diary junk want hot exciting softcore done properly movie watch like explicit skinemax films like one,0 +im bored downloading black ops anyone willing teach zombies system ps dlc maps giant,0 +sounds odd however late feeling anythingi used constantly sad bursts motivation fail make even sad feel nothing every time something bad happens realize matter life always shit always disappointment people try get wrong still severely depressed feel like entering stage numb see lot people saying feel nothing anymore even sadness might prolonged state depressionyears told one gotten help all living inside hell silently probably caused severe damage cannot feel emotion anymore momdad usually screams me head hope die later take back feel sorry anymore care die leave that person care me everyone else commit suicide die me depressed world happy conceited depressed depression,1 +quite ways away go fish good films troche bigger budget cast work here film entertaining easy like acting good lots slow burn sexual tensionbr br ,0 +maybe im young think wayim thirteen seventh grade im bipolar really doesnt help situation ive depression problems redflag since around ten really got bad february dating girl two months really abused mentally decided call bad idea lot friends since popular pretty much everyone hated hit friends thought dick pulled school shortly after decided get another online school even though one sixth didnt go well decided start talking old friends also mistake thats first real redflag attempt happened around one am one knew two belts one friends mothers number knew something wrong knew took away belts didnt really care though assumed sudden burst guess contemplating again time lost courage last breaking tears eventually started playing games pc again friends brother introduced his good friends least sometimes would act immature mean ages would brush off like last time home schooled didnt work fucking lazy anything wanted play video games numb mind spiraled talking family anymore even brother poor dad got movie watch fucked defending brother thought dad stern im dumbass mom argue daily hear dads voice dont see face anymore dont talk brother anymore school fucking me wish could die im disgusting fat coward twice opportunity sweet release chickened out cannot buy gun one option bootleg belt noose fan reduce pain noose may finally die,1 +hang folksi feel terrible reading stories here embarrassed thought things bad im early s struggled depression whole life times feeling almost normal always susceptible trough series poor decisions depression flat broke truly awful financial moves very poor career outlook yet worthless certainly feel angry time good friend commit redflag several years ago completely ruined family cant see yet know would easier someone something blame situation stupidity know im prepared unleash family thinking nobody cares nobody miss gone case know buddy feeling way end true all best luck us,1 +need stop procrastinating ok project due next week know wont able finish solely school hours need work home whenever think im like dont feel like right now ill tomorrow need advice make work,0 +enjoyed films like pulp fiction reservoir dogs lock stock two smoking barrels going love two hands type black humor beat keep entertained whole film like pulp fiction wacky scenarios characters get deal them along gallipoli picnic hanging rock one best australian films ive seen also stars young heath ledger got real big statesbr br this terribly underrated movie believe good pulp fiction greats see it,0 +need help asap theres girl really like agreed go date tomorrow first ever date dont know do please help me,0 +damnitgod fucking damn iti really feel like want die god damn it think were really fuckedand feel little bit better,1 +hullo name zach im one wanna friends like music anime dm me,0 +donetaken pills hatch wait,1 +nick crowley inside mind nexpo scaretheater barely sociable mama max max best em great youtube channels check em out cover relatively similar content good inside mind good couple months ago thats theres like good args anymore,0 +every time say like boys blonde hair blue eyes say are hitler bruh true tho blue eyes like curly poofy blonde hair perfect,0 +fresno important city california ok maybe rd important let explain fresno financial hub san joaquin valley productive agricultural region world think farmers getting loans yeah fresno fresno countries alone gdp billion national agriculture rd largest country thats including rest san joaquin valley welcome california raisin california wine part making live city probably financed,0 +th birthday thats is wanted let guys know im old now thanks ,0 +longest call ive ever done someone hours bruh,0 +cant get better ill end itim going start things good wellbeing see things change exercise meditation eating better start old hobbies again things like that ive alone while dont feel connected anyone want cant maybe start better find someone really connect with maybe ill even find girl along way talking doesnt help im lonely im trapped mind,1 +warning herzog filmaker tends bit overly dramatic obsessions closing doors may may real part characters life filmakers dramatic embellishment agreed premiere san francisco herzogs usual fascination character dreams perseverance well suited story first published soldier fortune full length autobiographical book the soldier fortune comment brought loud boos politically correct sf audience filmaker main character ensure audience seen film sofs interest misplaced warning rambo survival,0 +happened gamestop everyone talking something happened happened,0 +idea son suffering suicidal thoughts know jobi feel like im rock hard place son recently discharged hospital threatening kill himself thank god courage wherewithal call lifeline feel guilty husband went holidays idea suffering silence realize note years said planned kill work courage follow it back home im still concerned high risk want go back work new year without income supplement husbands puts us precarious position financially need money ever get professional treatment desperately needs good working relationship boss try flexible anxiety roof leave house reason even short time cried every day slept couple hours night even hindsight honestly say one small warning sign noticed seemed somewhat food never thought much it master facade act perfectly fine front others said would breakdowns car driving alone night poor thing tough life right word go autistic work much harder average growing up said exhausted work hard life suffered relentless bullying school achieved great results senior high school beginning college truly thought getting life order wrong said college broke spirits completely felt like alien found lying time blame him im angry sad suspect lot beneath surface drives sadness hes never date friends lot good qualities shame stuck shell,1 +beyond salvationwhilst nothing inherently wrong sanity excessively deteriorating withering away every mental breakdown endure lack social connections long history depression well suicidal thoughts led extremely destructive environment ive developed psyche long grueling years longer appropriate sense self true self since long buried deep identity manifested endless tribulation consumed being im far gone diagnosed psychotic depression years ago first attempted redflag put medication happy pills pointless therapy sessions never mend external complications im introspective person many years contemplation self reflection ive come know ins outs mind ive insight gain people held proper conversation anyone years now im alone world time nearing end im since long ago desensitized idea redflag question never seem able find answer question im still here guess im hoping miracle come save me,1 +suicidal circumcision barely feel anythingim american young adult circumcised infant aware part genitals modified recently really really hate consent would never fucking agreed this really feel anything masturbating circumcision allegedly reduces male pleasure significantly led hate body reoccurring feelings humiliation redflag spiral overwhelming depression even botched highly suspect would loved keep whole autonomy intact strongly suspect relatively aggressive circumcision reason why lot pleasure zones male body apparently exist me i really feel significant sexual pleasure gripping shaft testicles andor orgasm frenulum apparently entirely gone maybe sex masturbation feel good anyway know feeling way others act it supposed feel really good anything compare it too really hope circumcision reduce male pleasure significantly claimed since masturbation least really anything pleasurable significant extent ill visiting urologist soon verify whats specifically possibly wrong me think might botched minor way although allegedly lose sensation circumcision naturally possible mine went wrong way broke parents this never wanted genitals customized look like dads wanted born with kept parents get it mother simply told sorry upsetting me would never done knew modification would upset me theres nothing allegedly now restore foreskin specific nerves entirely gone true restoration may far future started defending it said doubtful reduces sensations clean implied circumcised penis looks better one undergo cut im still disappointed would found girl would okay foreskin part made angry said ill never know possibly reduced amount sexual pleasure anyway thats big deal told dad circumcised child actually before brought bible saying god command objectively evil action purely good wonder mandated old testament alleged health effects caused stop identifying christian since prayers failed receive response feel betrayed him feels like praying someone let sexually abused except problems masturbation always stop high sex drive im still virgin s waiting marriage kind book job situation circumcision commanded old testament im sure keep living like this ultimately want kill myself wish could fix done me feel powerless anything change soon heard theres rumors form expensive full restoration possibly open public decade two clue old them research area underfunded disorganized taken seriously even worse reductions circumcision rates may ironically reduce motivation companies produce product like that curefull general public may never arrive foreseeable future even anyone angry at doctors parents society theres real clear answer that society really talks circumcision form quick gag joke im wondering much sexual pleasure im actually missing id still mad surgery mainly nonconsensual cosmetic operation genitals started becoming overwhelmingly angry world parents etc theres disputed reports significantly decreases sexual pleasure males wonder thats sex porn masturbation seems boring me barely feel anything watching it ive considered moving place assisted redflag legal really guts go it im afraid afterlife presently june hopeful help destroyed sexual life hope future present happiness ive undergone deconstruction faith hope could fully restored within lifetime sex organs essentially destroyed rest life are know left never consented natural lubrication destroyed never consented sensitivity reduced unknown amount never consented this cant even express feelings anyone feels like ive horribly violated since would never ever removed part genitalia cosmetic reason thats apparently legally happened me since wanted look like father well barely feel anything masturbating too suspect sex little different miss pleasurable human activity someone love whats point going on im so angry done me like gross disfigurement one family understands me friends either always bullied kid wish could escape sex make it want become drug user either ive never point apparently thing feel really good me part genitals removed without consent im so enraged it even live okay modern united states gave right me im forced look hideous mutilation body foreseeable future barely feel anything sexually im much coward go it ive thinking move place legal ive scared afterlife prayers silent far need way cope want die parents ones really care entire life feel like sexually hurt child cant tell that tell that want break hearts know doctor recommended them know enough information question recommendations would give so much happen me sexuality destroyed im enraged world normal wish normal penis,1 +text post weekend over back shitty memes ,0 +tsui hark experiments nothing one withstand him legend zu possibly hours condensed h one understand all like space odyssey also to one feels power film every second every picture extraordinary vision future th art one pioneering astounding rejoicing recent years vital severe masterpiece absolutely perfect isbr br when tsui hark experiments nothing one withstand him legend zu possibly hours condensed h one understand all one feels power film every second every picture extraordinary vision future th art one pioneering astounding rejoicing recent years vital severe masterpiece absolutely perfect is ,0 +depressedhow supposed go life thing keeping alive make family feel bad,1 +failed every job ever redflag cannot even talk people always panic attacks work ugly get girl used look forward watch madrid player weekend nkw shit look forward nothing ever goes way,1 +harrowing masterpiece sheer madness despair war fires plain nobi going everybodys taste war movie truest possible sense term one resorts neither flagwaving patriotism saccharine sentimentality nobi cuts deep ugly tenebrous bleak things ever committed celluloid ever be war behind cannons triumphs heroes moral victories defeats had handful gaunt terriblelooking men strewn across land ravaged war like penitents fleeing great disaster characters defy moral judgment creatures beset great woe woe permit questions moral nature war survival pitting ones others battlefield arena loser simply removed existencebr br tamura soldier japanese imperial army discharged platoon ordered report nearby hospital account coughing blood disliked rest platoon hes told never come back instead commit suicide hand grenade case hospital rejects him does hospital nothing shack made wooden planks hospital surgeon simply tells hes capable walking hes fine shabby excuse hospital one harrowing scenes film takes place area carpet bombed american planes doctors walk sustain flee hospital woods moments hospital blown pieces gaunt crippled figures sick injured crawl every manner posture dressed sickly white robes building kind beast spewing viscera filth upon earthbr br that nobis greatest success stark brooding depiction suffering war simple evocative images without melodrama pseudoheroism soldiers cross marsh wading kneedeep mud move across opposite bank field discover enemy tanks hiding woods lights shining like malignant eyes scan dark procession injured soldiers dirty halfmad crossing road dropping ground sound enemy planes buzzards feasting pile dead bodies abandoned village mad soldier believes buddha sitting tree covered flies excrement offering arm eaten tamura hes dead images kon ichikawa conjures eyes merciless unflinching poignancy honest rawbr br nobi rush get somewhere content follow tamuras travels wartorn land tries reach regrouping center palompa observe madness obscenities war movie wades sludge horror war slow brooding like characters follows final thirty minutes tamura taking refuge two deserters feed monkey meat closest nobi comes adhering conventional narratives theyre less powerful matter strikingly photographed black white great performances cast ichikawas assured direction nobi among best war movies made also among finest japanese cinema,0 +feel like lost causetitle says all ive felt like lost cause lately cant get ex head heart care lot miss like fucking crazy havent heard since last wednesday didnt end bad terms even though cheated hospitalized suicidal thoughts feel hopeless like complete waste time anyone im never lived expectations feel like ive letting everyone down friends tell im strongest person know everything ive endured look back felt think dramatic childish career shit im dead end job live parents feel like im pathetic loser nothing show life ive going therapy even though cant afford days like today know shes working weekend want least talk her edit tldr one seems give shit ghost,1 +missed k earnings stock market cant even think straight go work im upset thinking ending nowtitle im retard watching everyone make gains lose money wish dead might throw money see happens kill self point life rigged,1 +depression anxiety got worseive rough month thought getting better yesterday nowhere depression anxiety hit hard unable anything whole day tonight ive several nightmares im tired pain seeing way healing dont even know do like forever dont think ill able make,1 +flirting easy little wordplay charisma mix together easy,0 +really dont want grow up im right cant stop thinking future gonna life high school wanna go college every day grows near time live independently things im scared feel like wont make world many interest dont know like jobs careers dont know people pick career path stick it im rich cant nothing every day think every day comes inevitable im scared really scared,0 +opinions cinnamon bun girl would love hear ur thoughts cinnamon girl,0 +hate im actually considering iti want yknow know future theres nothing im tired feeling like this im trying hard tell anyone show think im finally getting confidence it almost energy even move recently second get enough energy im done,1 +everythings bleaknow started taking ton medication stopped desire end soon possible still anything gives little purpose life without medication least something work towards even death numb everything pain felt gone replaced anything else know start feeling better least ill probably able wait mother dead myself,1 +yooo im tied thicccums way httpswwwredditcomuserppppie_commentsloemaewho_is_best_user_on_rteenagersutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf,0 +write notei months actually jump might well make note waiting really know put it,1 +cant endure anymoreim sitting unable even complete highschool watch people enjoy life sucess ive already attempted redflag barely managed survive people said theres help get better year later still cant find reason even get bed dont even reason depressed all sometimes feel like im faking it doubt anyone really cares dont evne know im writing here currently hope wont wake tomorrow ill make sure properly time,1 +person gave everything to left mei really dont know do dont know say honest want someone voicechat like minutes please,1 +end tex realitytoday supposed special day universe plans me anything could go wrong did waited hours outside work since told schedule changed today cant go inside wait due covid finally got work finally ready get f degree weather find ac add lot stuff throughout day bad work day driver dropped almost mile away supposed drop off finally get home already almost midnight special day become worst day life get message regarding special day either someone tip iceberg worst betrayed everyone ampxb already fallen mountain im going already got hit car im going well sleep do,1 +want to cantit would easy kill myself could right now easy right could right now cant i mom wasnt hospice dad wasnt unraveling seams would make easier riddled guilt feeling selfish guilty want run away everything scared scared wont see die willfully kill would sent somewhere else cant it cant kill self easy want bad wish didnt care wish guts to wish low didnt care it deserved one died months ago believe that want right wrongs pay fuck life,1 +shoutout bf orgasm without cumming wish lmao,0 +loose ability walk sad lost fell tree vent se doctor doctor said loose ability walk due ligma,0 +f know long going reminder getting hard things againmy parents left house three weeks took care house really long time getting picked nasty moldy bugs anything cleaner this mainly dishes put dishwasher laundry done beds made up etci used taking showers every day right almost every day days boyfriend hang comes here ran full tub water bath almost got last minute decided put clothes back go bed drain tub huge tub master bedroom waste water makes feel badi really gone done anything recently went shopping ago boyfriend within past days went gym one time walked treadmill less mile weights lot less used do later night picked got gas town even get get dressed left ones shirt nike shorts slip shoes even bra even though always put oni really eating normally would eat long time woke around midnight sleeping lot mostly accident point boyfriend saying sure narcolepsy know tirednessmy boyfriend plans go next friday hard time getting motivated even though seem like fun time also move together day time planning stay night burn around city two days get used hard time getting motivated even though sounds like fun himi going college less month already made post feel like fit comments really kind considerate really make feel different besides tad bit glad people feel somewhat cannot even explain fit in beginning hard find motivation,1 +worried pen pali talking pen pal almost year now talk daily lately responses got kind short also noticed liking lot posts instagram page seems glorifying depression redflag know person feels rather isolated frankly worried even posted meme profile jokes when dead find funny way cry help deal this way side world ask this even get honest answer,1 +nothing meim money one talk thanks mom im done years im finally going it bye,1 +imagine trumps covid case actually minor hes hospital tried cure drinking bleach,0 +would sayif someone thoughts committing redflag would say try convince otherwise not itll get better type crap either sob story pleasant upbringing friends family etc yet feel world painful far much suffering continue day brings pain sadness ive never felt like something wrong me world around suffering offers daily seems end sight things continue way forever whether not sometimes seems like itd easier put hose window drift nothingness finally know true calm peace dont know im posting here dont think itll help comments copy pasted dribble want feel something feel nothing finally,1 +knoi wanna touch depressionredflag one quick second fact one thing say it matter suffer depression matter attempted redflag million times matter studied mental illness depth levels possible person committed attempted redflag person currently trying find way depressions dark deep void subject depression conversation kno feel understand go thing fought battle agree literally pure ignorance thing complex human brain comprehension existence our brains included different every piece sand beach every snowflake ever fallen every star ever wished upon comprehension individual experiences completely different one next fucking tired people trying project idea understanding every thing happens anyone world era arrogance swear need go bathroom look mirror take real long look eyes tell aloud i kno shit,1 +downvote guys downvote want get controversial post sub,0 +perhaps tomorrowlong story short life mess taken advantage of abandonment issues child hood lots loneliness rejection finally done bullshit life given fulfill role worlds trash can,1 +told husband felt suicidal said give break go bedso took mg xanax mg valium mg flexeril mg amitriptyline im going bed right also cut leg open else new kids would taken everything medicine cabinet called psychiatrist hours nurse said redflag plan call otherwise call monday,1 +need someoneneed someone talk keep something regrettable,1 +someone actually gifted friend cyberpunk yesterday made this posthttpsireddittevgibajpg friend afford cyberpunk honestly expecting many views did even reached top rall really expecting him to actually get gamehttpspreviewredditemaydgjpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsafdbabbaafcfdfb told us got it stoked were really grateful especially him thank rypta generous person are honestly words except im jealous even game thank reddit early christmas,0 +theres sense crying every mistake keep trying till run cake,0 +yea freinds fear regret eexistential chris in depth conscious none depression self hate someone friend,0 +class always thought life would lead either joining military going college however pandemic hit everything life turned upside down lost friends lost family lost myself starters would go recruiting office every day recruiter would call fat dumb show up remember specifically one day gained pound losing her found one pound put water diet drink liquids however dinner gained weight back point on knew starts lose hope seen talk friends me caught covid could leave bed whole month went back recruiting office saw faker human being moving forward point chat told straight would anything good life said army good thing me night starved june hoping get skinnier show right however found hard way help made weight worse year since starved myself however nothing changed sit family want college try out back plan except met right feedback met feedback made thoughts worsen calling retard getting told never good enough sadly every time try bring up either call names stop conversation hide paperwork colleges sorry long cannot take longer family trouble,1 +got teacher get reddit likes animals stuff showed rstoppedworking loved told reddit downloaded browses cute subreddit like raww,0 + yrs old job friends want go back college fall depressed anything id rather sit bed forever tbh laziest person know,1 +redflagi dont want it im waiting day drop beer open bottle whiskey die sleep thats want it intentionally accidentally,1 +reddit why today th time get downvoted defending pedophile fuck wrong reddit sometimes seems attract hivemind fucked individuals,0 +onlyif never happened spared reprimended affected day nice left alone could couldve succeeded ampxb mind taking life,1 +im really worried mom need helpokay gonna super long and apologies formatting im mobile friday morning mom left work trying sleep utility pole fell house we live trailer park garbage truck got tangled wires decided best idea try gun snapped pole right outside house landed right sleeping didnt come roof cause damage generalized anxiety panic disorder also others matters now well fear trees falling houses wreck pole roof also live wires along ground long story short garbage company refusing pay us stay anywhere else we power s s fahrenheit company would come fix pole cant even appraise monday this happened friday mom i tight budget is trying scrape past two nights heres concern comes from mom obviously depressed past nights im add stress burden im absolute mess cant close eyes without hearing crack bang pole made broke landed cant stop feeling house shake cant stop feeling like run im trying hold dont add stress shes got enough worry is tonight hotel staying at complained able home started crying everything hit once mom told needed quiet tried told ive trying keep together dont want burden going come little bit theres lot going head im really feeling depressed keep flashbacks havent told this told im realizing affecting her feels like wanna kill i checked hospital earlier year due feeling extremely suicidal supposed do drive us bridge wouldnt talk me went bathroom closed door made scared considering said went see okay told leave alone told wasnt going sure going okay said would fine able talk need stop holding stuff making depend her asked meant said crying way threatening hurt kill myself told thats meant all told might meant thinly veiled threat told dont see shes going keep making see im going through never acknowledge shes going through dont know do thought right thing feel like messed everything up want okay need okay trying focus myself able honest say im still completely terrified happened ive never said anything depressed felt suicidal i dont whole time dont know would gotten get bad flashback dont know help her cant fix situation house cant fix myself cant fix either im trying best add pressure stress feel like added ton idk even need helpadvice on dont know said said frustration doesnt make less serious right dont know someone please say something,1 +lightskin boys longish curly hair cute asf need white boys anymore,0 +daughter im gay daughter too daughter im gay dad ok daughter too dad anyone like boys son mom dad,0 +lion king cute story go along lion king basically follows original story lion king couple twists moviee vents explained different characters point view story still original plotbr br as far sequels go disney great making worthwhile ones one third part lion king simbas pride second actually original idea still involving fun first timon pumbaa travel along looking ideal place live searching far wide find place hakuna matata meet small lion named simba go many things parents today go throughbr br i think good movie im happy add collection,0 +therapy expensive completely unpredictable therapist even able healthily provide needs personality therapist shit rambled much life gave toxic advice thought way out three year later still struggling everyone tells go therapy free even done times every time crave thought therapy feel like desperately need it think price immediately pulled off want go therapy price feels like obstacle need constantly passi get people make livelihoods pay quadruple age group make hour talk feelings tell stuff already know people say money make happiness think therapy done hours research trying find cheaper therapist cheapest found like therapy cost much advice thrown everywhere,1 +much karma alot month filler,0 +care anything anybody years therapist says know notmy sister got accident left almost crippled care it fault trusting legally blind bf drive freewaymy mother married alcoholic kidney issues kidneys fucked doctor sent letter stop drinking wants live years read pint hand give fucki care dead grandmother even though raised protected physically abusive mother abusive point almost beat mother protected me grandmother died even call deathbed fuck her never called mei care keeping friendships matter time get tired complainfuck everybodyfuck yoy care,1 +want die please dont read feel sucidali hate since long remember ive never truly happy ive tried kill many times apparently im even good that im family want hurt them yet crave death badly point know give die atleast death wont feel guilt causing much pain life finally peace,1 +im alone one wants methe people give fuck planet parents cant live life parents cant mommys boy whole life friends never serious girlfriend ive one really really short brief moment keep getting passed girls dudes example found girl turned stating interested dating hooking up fucking guy know blow ol confidence im even good enough fuck girl fucked dudes time tinder work out never get matches one two get every never work out fact girl unmatch sent nice little message asking her work shitty job come home parents house go sleep get next day go work weekends typically nothing particular friends girls interested anything me really pathetic existence lead whats point all im unhappy im lonely cant even drown sorrow booze weed face shitty existence called life head way dull pain coworkers tell stories find girls date bang them move on broke girl another one talking within weeks im hearing stories normal male adult life be cant even function adult point this end all die eventually,1 +falsely accuseda couple months ago accused rape female acquaintance im virgin but things way high school ive lost basically every friend ever really trusted able convince people knew situation innocent still realized bad things significant others years feel nothing guilt ive trying make amends however possible nothing working im basically isolation now dont think deserve live feel like passing might make people feel better fucks bad people thought would ever intentionally hurt someone fucks even actually stupid see it dont feel like anymore im scared ill shell forever,1 +posting every day end day live gonna get degrees tonight finally cooler weather ive enough summer,0 +one dark night staple s low budget horror genre filled retro puns clothing scenery odn transports viewer simpler time horror films that horrorbr br nothing intense cant understand whats going on film tells dark fable happens mess dead well acted stable screamqueens fine directorial job tom mcloughlin revels time makes believe hes presenting who done it certainly big twist end straightforward face horror beginning end lot s humor thrown added spice give simply special effects fall short towards end film least cgi perfect film new fans s horror genre anyone looking relive fun night classic horror bliss,0 +anyone wanna join group chat pm comment wanna join terrible site,0 +tried talking girl breakdown ignoring im high school ive crush girl hard enough talk regular people social disorder finally get courage go talk got around min conversation complete breakdown legit started crying said played video games me friends trying get stop crying sitting there friends told give discord completely ignoring me guess nobody wants mental illness breakdown prone bf,0 +hurtsthinking bout lately running reasons keep going cant even manage focus long enough write coherent post guess looking kind encouragement hang chap itll allright kind connection make feel little less alone doesnt matter though life still sucks yadda yadda melodramatic bullshit good expressing feelings asking help probally recovery sight,1 +cant stop thinking iti dont think could go cant stop thinking killing myself comes head every time start stress much shit going plan ive fucked soo much feel like im hole cant get of dont want die keep thinking pistol closet stress would go away make thoughts stop,1 +yall got outta toxic relationships yall got mf mud yall aint take shit nobody mad respect rn aint playin game,0 +miss bestfriend kinda think used cuz moved back japan shes barley tried keep touch considering day sleepovers every weekend thats ouch,0 +ok sub dry bye bye,0 +bruh rn dude like told look like mr e scooby doo mystery inc im gonna fuckin go postal stg,0 +cant take pain anymore fuck lifemy life already full much fucking mental pain agony universe throw me two cavities one wisdom tooth probably get pulled want deal fucking pain hate physical mental pain fucking much id rather blow brains out spend another second piece shit earth,1 +say hit rock bottom rock bottom keeps getting worseeverytime start feeling happier little bit crash burn like decomissioned satellite reentering atmosphere useless forgotten usually worse every time rock bottom gets worse time cant good moods last two fucking days,1 +the movie tells tale prince whose life wonderful evil wizard tells go town disguised beggar wizard locks prince soon becomes shadow ruler baghdad jailed prince meets thief called abu helps escape jail head town called basra meets princess falls madly love with unbeknown evil wizard jafa also love princess tries convince father allow marry her jafa soon learns prince trying win girls heart makes blind turns abu dog leads prince abu going adventure find way defeat jafa restore peace baghdad marry princess journey encounter everything sarcastic genies takes abu flight clouds giant spider thats really hungry flying horse probably gives birth one beautiful sequence old eyes mine ever seenbr br this pure fantasy movie start finish flying horses genies flying carpets wizards actually magic instead hit people staffs cheesy moments love story waste time production designs stunning movie palaces different dangerous traps heroes encounter even though movie years old production design far better crap gets tacked todays cinema music songs also well done anyone sees doubt hail i want sailor sailing seas one great musical moments movies im usually huge fan singing movies since find enjoyable taxes ill happy make exception moviebr br what sells movie sheer fact get see things see everyday life also reason love stuff like two towers silent hill way todays modern fantasy movie came along realistic cgi blow minds movie blew mind without green screen scattered place one favorite shots two towers one see trolls opening black gates main appeal shot seeing great fantasy beings essentially manual labor thats love genie creatures movie theyre trying make living like everyone else gives real feel even though theyre fantasy beingsbr br its literally impossible watch movie notice makers aladdin got inspiration characters movie pretty much characters movie talkative genie right flying carpet entirely bad thing eyes since nice know im one planet deep passionate love amazing movie first saw kid motherland thought greatest thing world upon watching last week still think amazing thats true testament great movie withstand test time sure effects look wee bit outdated cheesy made way back s give break everything looks outdated though since stuff still hold today scrutinized todays standardbr br if ever wanted see live action version aladdin get wish angry cynical bunch probably good avoiding since cup tea,0 +talent use them always option mindi even know subreddit im good explaining especially keyboard ill try understand im feeling senior high school given dream position school announcer monday friday thing boast pretty good teachers students staff thought too made many friends announcer me not surprise anything want throw well autistic year old bullied childhood shown amount love respect appreciation school paradise val halla etc school ends it momentum drive ideas week graduate downstairs family friends party upstairs alone blank mind knowing able something put much work into next day broke cried day legitimately felt useless thought killing myself im wimp know speed things up first job horrible second good hours bad struggling even find job become stressful want job talents interests zero possibilities i looked hard careers zero results escape music lots video games lots meaning spend hours computer day go friends im active like left alone spend day computer sometimes night im posting feel like people lives sort advice someone like me someone life worth living anyone thanks mitchthebadger,1 +school coming back anxiety changed new school year friends went different school lately ive lot anxiety good making friends shy introvert im afraid get bullied last school friends class advices to get less anxious make friends easier please,0 +oops help maybe years ago wrote hate comments tiktok cause yea insecure that checked today saw someone commented bye one didnt really expect deleted course dont agree said back really hope dont know person gonna get cancelled something wrote many things bad things really regret do,0 +im sadim years old dont want live anymore parents voiced inconvenience im losing friends ive become distant family barely even knows anymore boyfriend love dearly feel like hes losing interest doesnt know tell wants end things tried calling redflag hotline left hold long time gave up im stuck dads house january dads new wife makes miserable feel bad sad know people way worse oh gid hurt bad,1 +thats s here im paralyzedall want do do im capable right crying watching shameless attempting resist urge self harm ones taking seriously im seriously scared want die like im scary movie person trying kill also me,1 +tiredwhats point writing know nonody reply,1 +everything say gets deleted but genuinely do really really want kill myself also not live loving life hate horribly cut routine feel now like baths cleans makes less visible family noticeask kill hate,1 +hit once it hit best friend longer alive able celebrate christmas getting presents big smile face wakes cause waking wish could rewind time stop killing himself kills inside asked come coffee day killed said busy happiest person ever clue it guess everything got him feeling way right miss much ,1 +dead assrip mothafuckasssss,1 +goodbye guys im killing myselfmy story weird wanted say lied abt thing story thing age im ,1 +signed nli im going college im excited needed tell someone,0 +yeah im communist listens kpop exist filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +controversialhello everyone title suggests bit crazy question really typical usual self basically normally love life im lucky incredibly lucky clue word make sense one seen terry pratchetts documentary choosing die seen you felt like although know life amazing really bloody isnt anymore know based past experiences knowledge yourself youve messed although youre physically disabled mentally cant cope version youve become would literally saw arm erase shit thats works unfortunately recent experiences made question right die idea trust me wouldnt normally writing thiswe put beautiful pets sleep deem much pain dont fellow human beings odd although arguments idea fairly obvious still seems cruel me live strange world dont want advocate redflag believe least many cases unnecessary could treated people suffering much body gives up ok lovely labrador love heart would like see consuming pain day day out id rather put sleep although would heart wrenching me humans dont option either suffer die naturally resort diy death pay ludicrous amount money visit dignitas switzerland im interested peoples thoughts this course realise problems idea could easily abused yeah people think,1 +seen lot saura films always found amazing way assembles music dance drama great cinema movies ibria shows even better saura dealing multimedia concepts contemporary concept dance music another thing called attention fact that movie dancers musicians dance music equally important camera shows various aspects music interpretation examining technical issues also emotional experience playing interest saura bridge classical contemporary music dance one ingredient turning movie maybe aesthetically exciting among works thats recommend strongly love good cinema good music good dance great art,0 +even love people always bound leave tend screw notredflag even loved themthe pain way much cannot deal anymore someone never felt love before see person loved heart leave owing fault extremely heartbreaking although numb pain now think function properly anymore want talk someone anyone please love exist,1 +mom forget name time dad like y oh sorry dad,0 +know even know im still here love hateit started january last year met american girl online mutual online friends ps things went fast became freinds stuff happened sexually within first week carried weeks i always suspicion lying age always reassured freinds people knew im found birth november argument days talking decided could freinds helping things she suffered depression anxiety bipolar made sort understandable lied age everyone even freinds known years kept silent people knew unfortunately people decided tell people arguments somehow sexual contact happened know even though knew ages happened couple times another argument threatened get police called paedophile sort panicked released screenshots convos sexting etc know illegal released cos angry scared prove original instigator sexual contact gotten worse that started receiving death threats told go police wouldnt started receive death threats i still day worst happened people school found started bully point got really deep depression i eventually take much took tablets enough bed ridden days found thought maybe dead got scared got point think actually cos one heard that want go police already got involved help ive even got contact police usa manassas city care believe fast forward months got really bad always mind always ready it plans everything tried talk close freinds people known years told full story pub days later got message one saying going betray get police things year old panicked somehow already ready again tablets paracetamol full bottle jaeger hospital police interview lied bit police cos frightened still am go everyday waking thinking last thought head sometimes feel like walking police station jumping front tram one day could go either way im scared,1 +want see make d model monster heres stream link httpswwwtwitchtvredmonster_httpswwwtwitchtvredmonster_ come say hi chat ill answer,0 +im im attracted year old kill myselfi havent acted like ill never act still know wrong think die im monster,1 +consent born would recommend hearing lawyers,0 +please give advicei feel like life chance improvement relation family described anything cold downright abusive even though friends support me ive never been despite trying countlessly failing time romantic relationship anybody recently ive trying explore sexual identity probably bisexual come us foreign country given current financial educational surroundings feel chance hopeful future studying studying abroad college us ive spent months preparing best application could failed got defered yesterday dream school turned partly due fault external error one documents entire life feel like make wrong choices courage keep making wrong choices future,1 + hours deadcant handle abuse family anymore girl love hates family cant handle anymore,1 +want lose weight believe im depressed fucked parents overfeeding kid,0 +dealing aftermath best friends redflagoh god jesus fuck me found corpse best friend late april friends house time watching tv lounge hung bedroom right next door never heard thing saw done like meltdown head felt neuro tissue synapses everything snapped screaming like tidal wave ripped body tore every fibre apart months depressed hell feeling alone due wide impact friends present night suffered trauma well anyone rely support ive suppressing it managing best im highpressure postgrad programme year simply option fall cry sleep im angry weepy cold cant talk talk much weirdest thing trauma seems morphed selfloathing depression im paranoid anxious easily distraught feel completely alone keep thinking following killing too sparks redflag cluster everything fucked feel like ill never like disturbed years years come,1 +everything f n eeverything fine im waiting massive amount edibles kick in im watching office boyfriend worried im acting weird really know do im fine pass im attention whore thats people bpd are attention whores cut self harm eating disorders try kill attention thats are attention whores im too sensitive according friends cry drop hat get sad think everyone hates for real reason spoken dad months ahh fuck it im enjoy making around miserable hes narcissistic abusive asshole am spoken grandmother months even though dying cancer hurts much oh im one pain here gotten single positive response housing options somewhere live boyfriend moves here maybe try harder ive worked every day since june th get day th july cant stop binging food gaining weight ive literally gained lbs since january im avoiding mirrors photos checking scale it choice could stop eating wanted want to whatever edibles working now im forgetting im writing guess im fine,1 +doi think anxiety depression last time tried get help made everything worse know feel like cant tell friends cant bear them talk family either last time tried ended really badly made feel worse feel hopeless time want live want die either want cry time whenever start enjoy something get upset know ill feel even worse after,1 +annoys personally hate lot things,0 +serious mom tested positive covid yesterday mom tested positive covid came home egypt wednesday rest family got tested yesterday except twin brother were problems health insurance car oldest sister twin brother noticing symptoms idk im noticing sharp fast stomach pains really mild twice today wait wtf one sentence,0 +ok two followed last time remember looking bam people,0 +hate myselfhey reading like kill im tired constantly fight want fucking die die anyways die know fucking hate ,1 +first think would like movie progressed became better better love music impressed well cage could fake movements playing mandolin son also like movie lot music story way story unfolded slowly showing corelli girls heart acting story well done well directed first corellis bravado irritating soon grew you twists plot intriguing especially relations germans would like see follow side plots also want buy sound track hear music again,0 +moon landing lie true moon still sky landed it ampxb point,0 +bad slowly getting tired everyone everything like want go away couple months maybe would appreciate things people around more pretty sure though them needing time awaysometimes imagine living remote area animals although realistic still imagine sometimes say animals mean like couple dogs raising chickens goats haha guess daydreaming sometimes apologize rant tired everything everyone,1 +pfp show go account reddit super glitchy wondering showing,0 +literally needy ass me hey minutes later wyd minutes later hi seconds later heeeeey,0 +ive made friends freshman older band yeah bad friends thing guess yet make many barelt know people school,0 +struggling redflag depression years now lost loved ones friends drifted never felt alone reason committed suicide know parents cope dad alcoholic mum dependent me support try help anything bring low tell disappointment ashamed medication talking help feel like nothing left could fix me guilt want killing me life lost guilt,1 +sick itwhen things normal wake up go mirror see ugly ass face constantly feel like wanting gym ill see many others look much better do go work teased often dumb come home never speak anyone eat repeat die doubt ill die forever alone im unemployed rn nd dream join military could chance die war im ineligible im unemployed year cant wait,1 +im pretty sure want die im afraid itok so english first language im pretty fucked probably mistakes ampxb fighting anxiety since chronic depression since im now lived good times sure even happy not sure simplified constant sense people think happiness definitely sort happy like lived certain country away mine spent days certain girl thing is good cycles end somehow always end severe depressed again tried everything every fucking thing therapy took lot medication embraced religion good bad jobs good bad girlfriends travelled isolated home got drunk everyday spent times sober even spent days psychiatric hospital last year redflag ideation got really bad called redflag hotlines wrote letters talked parents friends doctors traumas who doesnt even haunt anymore therapist good stuff im committed treatment point is even everything hands always end fucking place last night debate end life not honest times feel like decision already made even plan problem thing takes lot courage think me family friends shit lot friends mental health disorders im afraid get worse know plan do im also afraid attempt fails consequences failed attempted make life even worse for others around me now well fell love friend mine want or anybody fair want relationship all pretty mundane situation know looks like emotions fragile time looks like everytime got heart broken not romantic stuff like something goes wrong friends family professional life breaks harder way like easier fall depression black hole time well sorry little longer expected know do want fucking pain end twelve years long long long time live emotional suffering,1 +john carpenters masterly version the thing released summer panned critics bombed box office audiences handle another bad alien wanted et loss long runbr br i would kill able see great movie big screen movie way ahead time influenced new generation filmmakers showing trail things like seen alien even the x files unceremoniously ripped page page structure eschews character development favour incredible sfx commonplace todays blockbuster flicksbr br carpenter shows skills honed halloween using camera create unsettling claustrophobic atmosphere performances fine ending terrific still unique todaybr br a paranoid masterpiece,0 +lots sunshine gauzy light shadow filtering windows rooms tracking shots moving crowds handheld camera quickpaced editing extreme closeups there photography thing interesting artistically done filmbr br the plot film starts bit fluff beauty contest film begins warm sunday local swimming pool meet lovely lucienne aka lulu played louise brooks bit showoff front gawking men poolside soon decides enter represent france miss europe beauty contest much chagrin jealous stickinthemud fianc a pretty annoying fellow really strutting runway ten contestants display swimsuits winner chosen contestant receives longest applause i wondering girls walk slower prolong length time thus applause catwalk lulu soon chased prince maharaja hotheaded beau like attentions paid men adoring public matter i guess wants house cooking meals staying sight ehbr br louise brooks beautiful charming presence helps enhance film really way photographed held interest most bit distracting odd dubbed sound bit off print version looked clear full nice contrast though watching tried overlook sound problems watch film visually found movie excellent well worth seeing,0 +dohi im name anas depressive since long remember even though thought death long time never thought would consider ending life often find wishing dead looking razor blades case wish fatal disease every occasion make wish fight jump front car every time walk streets imagine head exploding everytime something stupid etc etc thinking getting help year never actually it need right would pause family friends well everyday life getting worse worse many questions one ask go schools counsellor tell parents condition go school counsellor directly er parents know anyway they special program school might lose place miss much school getting harder work grades droping,1 +take mg klonopin ton booze end hospital morgue late work currently taking dayeverything sort falling apart dont like idea leaving reality situation things probably wont get better dont energy current far know boyfriend upset lack sex drive inability change myself work am afternoon avoid crowds people take lexapro anxiety klonopin thyroid disorder often sends obsessive panic attacks im probation cant smoke weed cure sex drive issue and many others thats mostly driven meds got dui car shop addition repairs court fees deal high risk insurance also cut hours retail job june lost employer health insurance by three shifts next six months ive applied places bus range says change normally dont respond well men telling change know issues need fix reality things control im getting tired myself apparently use others punching bag genuinely want things better money help anyone except thats barely hate doctors hate feeling trapped hospital would hell solution seems like easiest limited supply things wouldnt send uncomfortable eyes ears bleeding slumber know limited time probation guess issue really thought person going side regardless issue ive apparently turned pile human garbage drinks watches cartoons day cant apply jobs car wont able pay insurance car get another job low tolerance people without sex drive diminishing pills apparently huge problem college education way pay one im upset asked change repeatedly fuck it,1 +drank strongest bleach could findi ready die already drunk gulps bleach strongest one found store felt nausea burning neck dont feel like im fainting dont feel like im die want die shaking much cant even explain it lot reasons end life reasonable others hurt much tried killing times today dont usually get house today jumped front car way home driver literally flipped called stupid depressed teen left came home took lot pills overdosed lot them then recently drank bleach nope doesnt work either im gonna go sleep soon since evening happen wake up try dehydration since know cant live long without water im prolly gonna regret all since wont feel anything yeah might might last thing ever typed entire life anyways thank reading nice day,1 +while go instagramsnapchat see bunch irl friends reposting things like this user depressed ton depressionmental illness related posts public stories post monthly mood reports happiness level always low redflag level there really try to part thinks faking it though obviously jump conclusions fast also part believes them cannot help envy confidence post things like everyone see give hide feeling every day imagine viewers replying stories like are alright talk frankly makes envious longing someone anyone strangers app talk to makes sick stomach hate it know extremely selfish think way probably suffering much are support not anyone lean on told single person since day started feeling way wish could muster courage tell family member friend thought alone makes sick stomach and probably day die fight depression alone friends confident sharing depression,1 +swimming pool pond water lilies frogs frogs sit water lilies frog water lily parasitic relationship mariepauline acquart water lily synchronized swimming groupie crush floraineadele haenel frog captain team floraines teammates shun leader preternaturally curvy wellproportioned blonde conveys loose persona betrays syncrhronized swimmers mindset conformity discipline floraine secret bombshell bombshell naissance des pieuvres reveals audience visually confides mariebr br floraine never gone say way boybr br at party see doubleimage burgeoning sex bomb checking makeup bathroom mirror lolita fata morgana marie gets know floraines double imitation breaks water lilys heart frog goes motions catching flies appearances sake gets chummy water lily ones looking films startling scene water lily agrees give frog hand losing virginity mechanical act oral stimulation floraine wants boys like her like boys seemingly important frog popular water lily finally kisses frog frog remains frog frog cant transform water lily princess water lily lost frogs respect lips unlock floraine tells marie see easy frogs way equating kiss orgasm friend gave nothing riteofpassage without strings attached floraines beauty burden carries weight meeting boys expectations florence uses marie one final fling fata morgana subjugates imitation closetbr br the water lily frog maries best friend annelouise blachere floraines frustrated boytoy francoiswarren jacobs like water lily frog parasitic relationship too floraine uses marie love francois uses anne sex thats life thats treachery growing up even friend turn good friend opportunity move food chain presents itself mcdonalds water lily chastises water lily bathing extensively frogs afterglow physical beauty currency marie gets call shots anne although far ugly overweight unflattering hairdo anne tries fight back using breasts ample retaliationthe magnifying glass happy meal incidentally comments maries flat chest tadpolemarie thinks better anne better water lily points breasts byproduct fat br br teenaged girls brutal otherbr br later final shot naissance des pieuvres suggests marie double too symbiosis among water lilies potential turn parasitic nearfuture already has teenaged girls brutal way boy could match,0 +older brother persuaded watching once upon time hollywood im traumatized part girl set ablaze cranked feel sick now want puke jus come lol,0 +abuseim sad step dad thing insults pushes mean get mean still said gonna beat death i dont belive would accutaly it hes also called faggot cause im bi normal cause aspergers used affect dont really anything,1 +got huge argument little brother pringles said you ruining life diei know said heat moment kept repeating head hurts bad bc family reason still hereand wanted get knife go bathroom smwand got weird excitedlike feeling stomach surprised kind scared mei sat thinking crying minutesmeanwhile brothers enjoying movie eating pringles probably even remember saidalso thought ab think actually want die yet rn bc want say goodbye first stuffbut want suicide attemptnot like attention family realizes little sadness almost commited pringles,1 +im pissed im fucking switching absolutely boiling freezing top work tell mom tells take ibuprofen ive already one sick day summer fuck that,0 +helpi dont know much longer keep this im afraid die im afraid live dont know,1 +think redflag time want cant put family iti young brother love much unfortunately im done life ive enough want end soon im self harming occasionally frustration myself im cunt,1 +feel sick every symptom cv getting tested option mom get anyone family tested says invasion privacy ive near little brother multiple family members tested positive cv dont know,0 +yall forgotten something years since iconic rick roll came existence,0 +truly truly one best movies love ive ever seen closely followed none before sunset technically another movie all since two people romancebr br this love real world ok thats people intelligent eloquent leads movie reading reviews pleases know many folks crazy dialogbased movies well makes before sunrise good dialog perfect real engaging funny hardly surprise jesse celine fall love coz fall love timebr br my favorite scene one coffee shop pretend phone best friends pretending said best friend perfect brings back moment fell love first time lifebr br i must say choice watch before sunrise watching before sunset like me watched sunset first hard shake feeling pity sadness two young lovers throughout entire showbr br once again greatest romantic movie books wonderful acting excellent script beautiful locations young love best,0 +dispense fun facts comment something ill provide fun fact thing commented disclaimer facts could be not funny and i can always be wrong,0 + wrote following statements imdb message board user wondered best years lives forgotten movie br br watching movie like opening time capsule think many ways the best years lives probably one fascinating character studies holds extremely well look life us mids wwii believe coming home the deer hunter released recent films closest capturing numerous issues military men returning war brought the best years livesbr br what really impressed watching movie entirety college around many college students applauded end moviebr br this movie still packs wallop im happy read posts users feeling movie definitely stand test time br br im happy see movie ranked near top movies imdb afi also though competition eventually became christmas classic wonderful life arguably best years lives oscar wins including best picture welldeserved br br ive seen film almost years best years lives still powerful beautifully acted wellcrafted motion picture,0 +warner brothers produced d extravaganza biggest commercial success westerns guy madison leads band guardhouse soldiers misfits rescue two white women held indians essentially film d format early stages hollywood gimmick compete growing popularity home television effects work well here rescuers make ladies pursued indians white men make stand island creek bed indian weaponry comes audience nonstop throughout spray tobacco juice aimed rattler thrown good measure madison quite popular televisions wild bill hickock good displaced cattle rancher given thankless task army films polish presentation movie made three days,0 +really want help friend know anymore please helpmy friend th redflag attempt and gotten hospital th time last week tells wants die takes pills antidepressants benzodiazepines could call ambulance ironically heavy medocations uses redflag attempts family live another city want move school work city cant move her diagnosed borderline personality disorder bipolar disorder literally clue help anymore talk visit much can give advices wants some try keep occupied sorts activities anything works awhile that gets worse medication destroying her hair falls medical checking bad dizzy verge fainting time hallucinates sometimes sorts things psychiatrist psychologist goes to everytime give medication making feel bad wanting die already changed psychiatrists wants die cant stands rejection someone loves today texted again telling wants overdose again know anymore anyone advice help her,1 +im hyped afmy ballot next week one last thing check checking out,1 +im tears ive bad mood swings lately self riotous realised drive practice today dad argument said bad things thought relationship gonna go shit sat talked said me ive place lately im sorry dad i forgive you held hand bit hugged cried cried forgave me im thankful family ive blessed bless you thank taking time read this love sub long teen,0 +strawby jam hits different,0 +hope iti live dread unknown everyday worry future event may happen may not does able survive it go specifics except involved mistake part psychologically spiritually selfinjurious feel like live right hell fear paranoia sad part even way kill comes that lot time hanging out reason im broke afford method well couple days weeks time maybe afford quick exit strategy even though im happiest person world ive thought redflag before ive never close actually following through even extreme insecurities fear intimacy crippling continue condemn life loneliness may miserable life continues uneventful many previous years continue sake continuing however event fear much comes me choice die fear unknown hellish ive ever experienced came tonight right feel particularly overwhelmed darkness around right now palpable know feel better exit strategy hand enormous relief know final option said really hope come that im religious person care worship dont please pray me im halfway decent person ever hurt myself,1 +im done life im untalented awkward asshole deserve liveim done life future life fucking sucks want anymore anyone wants help me best im done right now im going hang tonight,1 +bro bro bro hmu please go sleep discord samangeline know,0 +everyone thats alone matter are act feel always someone you,0 +failed attempt weeks ago thought id shaken up feel hollowmy brother gifted magnificent vintage rifle years ago one old russian rounds given misfired gave life decided shoot head mouth ive tried explaining story people asked before either received silence return generic responses life get better your meant something greater it meant be referring living right now part wants type series events lead right now another part keeps repeating trying create pity party myself dont know anymore even energy type incredibly long detailed message here hell im entirely sure even know im typing this out set another date though figure least way ill get see family go fullproof method cant fuck like before always read stories redflag survivors always say regretted it well thing regret using old ammunition,1 +mods give free rewards look nice today,0 +start first job tomorrow work subway coworker probably definitely user reddit put hands together called woman culture met atla shirt im excited cool coworker amd cool boss good paying job excited hope life keeps getting little better feels good catch nice break excited something also employee punch number lol first job hope awesome ,0 +celebration earth day disney released film earth stopping far short strident message gloom doom treated excellent footage animals habitats without feeling bad ourselvesbr br the stars show herd elephants family polar bears whale calf narrative begins north pole proceeds south reach tropics introduced denizens various climatic zones traversedbr br global warming mentioned view wanderings polar bear note made shrinking sea ice islands recent years never see bears catch seals fathers desperate search food leads dangerous solutionbr br the aerial shots caribou migrating across tundra one spectacular wildlife shots ever saw another migrating wildfowl enough reward price admission see big screenbr br one disappointments felt otherwise terrific shots great white sharks taking seals filmed slow motion never get sense one characteristic wild animals incredible speed idea slowing film convey great quickness think began or least first recall seeing television show kung fu early seventiesbr br an interesting sidelight credits roll end demonstrations cinematographic techniques employed revealed enough dramatic humorous instructive moments movie make solid choice nature buffs perhaps selective editing sparing us were grisly end preypredator moment fact footage released available dvd solid film right take kidsbr br three stars,0 +anyone support kam kill men anyone supportcontribute kill men movement guess,0 +one please talk memy life turning wanted be moved twice run away problems still hanging head kill anytime im sick waking every day bland life friends men approach me got certification field want work in care less could one thing back would first love lived him hes life almost years hate this im miserable almost time cant keep waking every morning going shit job shit life know do please one talk me f ,1 +best friend hung saturday promise people actually carei dont know post allowed best friend nicest selfless person ever existed promise everyone feeling lost hurt confused theres single person happy isnt around anymore broken girlfriend feeling heart broken wish realised bad feeling told would done everything could dont wait people come you go them tell youre hurting give chance fix things,1 +im going die aloneim lonely time long feel like used im still not im sick feeling way ive trying hard get better im always sad even see point anymore,1 +im scaredim scared mom getting better rage dad im scared going kill him brought hoping gets shot late im scared life,1 +know what really fucking wastewhy people keep insisting things hunkydoory peachy fucking apocalypse tell people oh cheer sir things get better put smile confidence huuurrrrr well guess what get better entire world fucked wave wave genocide thievery government authority liars sociopaths iron fist assholes authoritarians blah blah blah world beyond redemption fucking hipsters talk democracy working together like fucking niave children thinking save world magically well guess what democracy others failed ideologies like communism change world getting result human nature think tweak system turn knobs dials change parameters fix world people good little progressives fucking nuts myself nothing im fat ugly shrill funnysounding fat cretin man virgin as would expect graduating college useless degreei decided grad school mewith nothing tundra directions im trapped emotional frozen desert ive got nothing going life assholes it gets better shout macbook short break making hip cool comments cool obama or maybe ffffuuuu comic chan something despite fact never truly miserable unhappiest time accidentally stepped broke animal collective cd knowing bunch probably dumb techno bullshit regardless stand mouth agape telling things pick out get job nice woman everything goshdarn swell end like that job recluse like get job recluse like connect people want talk big football game small talk nephew farted class got soooo embarrassed one american idol contestant gypped winning shitty pop record deal spineless loser talent get job requires skills people skills weve already established that artistic skills even handwriting mess mechanical skills fix anything cant even fix mess life rest life put yoke collar middle management shall become lord smoothee machine legacy look upon large fries ye mighty despair shall fondly remembered crazy guy washed dishes ugly shit ugly shit mention im virgin oh yes did i would make great virgin sacrifice ive spent many night meating meat mechanical agony getting nice tan glow tv trying sob know get anything even remotely close anyone looked like girls interested me even halfway good im reminded theres ugly girls there ugly women ugly man im attracted them cant attracted people ugly am expect loved even worthy love ive utterly ignored opposite sextheyve told im ugly see start confidence bullshit im like you hipster redditori stutter cum pants girl looks me confidence net girls means provide good looks does literature subject seems agree me confidence explained due ability get girls due physical attraction on so hipster redditor mix cause effect for part continue live world everything equitable progressive works end well take shades its indoors fucking hipster look around you large goodlookin men goodlookin women hot chicks moaning hot studs boning them hollywood joe nerd mclinuxpants fuck cheerleader im spoiled selfish go fat goth girls mommy issues heads filled borderline personality disorder all get im good for shall die without ever getting dick wet even if even find one liked would like me physically repulsive behold loved girl ever complete unity personality knewknewthere mess head incompatible me interests goals desires life wanted lead life without family religious dogmas social dogmas cultural christianity whole average allamerican mediocrity whathaveyou friends one due great life earth fabulous human beings im incapable fulling trusting him anyone else like theres much else worth talking to conversations terrible dude like music too far out love rap what think local_sports_team game last night dude dude xbox love halo miserable stupid shit think im crazytheyre ones believe metaphysical manifestations meaninglessness gods ghosts sorts bullshit make friends people so so beneath you completely beneath me intellectually speaking slight bit interest philosophy continental philosophy philosophy science music urban poetry music good tv good video games allaround creativity step line start become visibly distressed someone place oh praise jesus hallelujah stepped back line back comfort zone american family values midtown usa existence going myself since redflagwatch no today least somewhere road though maybe cold theres long walk snow without wanting collapse let overtake you,1 +everything sinking feel like im worthless think want hang tonightmost life pretty decent least compared others experience hell earth ive grown lovely household caring supportive parents time school would find surrounded really good friends know whats happening recently almost friends gone since couple years ive started isolate room away family cant get bed even feel motivation things used passionate about ex girlfriend reason think still trying wonderful person ive met gone even relationship problem rather external cause made us break up many reasons want mention feel theyre stupid thing crushed about really help either feel way friends view me like source inspiration figure look to away truth feel im truly guy good grades talent art music think me like single aspect body even know kind depression since medical prescription confirms it neither ive spoken people experience it also cant stand thought parents looking hanged lifeless body would devastated want feel im wasting resources living worthless empty life wished awesome family raised fucking failure,1 +know im average dude mean treat like guy ron almighty rat king,0 +fear end nearbeen struggling much work amp anxiety complicated find it flip flop whether im ok im job think days get ok amp maybe bad suicidal ideations lot frequently lately think solace life atm cannabis girl amp unexpectedly tonight found likely end soon also work dads management gonna awkward anywayz know selfish feel like compared peoples pain thinking perfect place jump off,1 +passive aggressive authority without getting trouble no wanna right person dosent use sort tactics lecture damages everyone involved,0 +oh shit forgot day ill spare minuscule details saw cute girl got depressed usual besides cant sleep depressing hours,0 +trouble seeing point anymoreevery single day think even bother carrying anymore least once sometimes like right now gets hard sleep eyes well up life even bad feel like ive earned it attend college study habits horrid ive falsely accused plagiarizing help all hardly ever homework cant fathom it skip class despite always telling need go generally feel like belong anywhere hated every aspect life back home theres way carry facade much longer im taking sign medication working anymore know hell make appreciate without dwelling it,1 +cant even help myselfmy life nothing trainwreck im sitting burning fire thing it depression sucked motivation energy me quick rundown life garbage ive unemployed year now im thousands dollars debt cant pay off im socially isolated im years old still living moms house days consist nothing everything mom orders which pretty much everything would require get couch watching youtube videos browsing social media thats it besides eating going bathroom simply sit room mom telling something her speaking mom tells your life bad everyone depressed nowadays you grateful roof head agree with hard appreciate feel every day underlying sadnessnumbness im starting fail see point continuing live live life nothing pain numbness cant even remember last time actually felt happy want make people laugh happy reason cant get shit together cant even get job mcdonalds try get momentum watching inspirational videos reading become disciplined nothing seems work money get help depressionanxiety honestly last time therapist really help much felt last session going first one im tired trying time fall face again nobody turn to nobody talk issues with said earlier mom dismisses everyone problems tells shit her know hard accomplish goals consist completely independent mom able make others happy boss simply able wake morning hating life thats want really expect make others happy cant even help myself discipline last friends labeled lost cause abandoned me blame for anyways know wrote this guess rant im end rope figuratively soon going literally thanks listening reading hope find way achieve dreams cuz deserve it peace,1 +makes someone interesting person im curious others think,0 +cope pressure performance since little always achieving best possible result top class elementary middle school get good high school en eventually university failed drivers theory exam suprising lots people feel like let also down know sounds like bitch feel every test pressure peform dont know anything else expectations high feel anxiety every test,0 +lost power dont usually lose power anything tonight lost power due thunderstorm guess im gonna sit using last phone battery browse reddit wish luck gamers,0 +almost finishedhello again grown weary existence parents curse life could courtesy abortion sick waking up night close eyes sleep pray whatever chooses must continue may finally eternal rest finally let go tired done everything society suggests become less unhappy well paying job hobbies friends mother father sisters care me sick going on continue them something must broken take medications sit lamp season affective disorder want finished would easy meander car close garage door start vehicle rest pull razor blade keep finally disgusted everything decide end it going back hospitals seen councilors psychiatrists tried coping methods lived long enough tried well living kindness heart giving freely others asking nothing return do time feel nothing truly matters feel little positive emotion rage unhappiness lucky sadness friend killed felt jealous could justify longed long hope peace know wife struggles son will everyone look disgust done rambling want stop hurting,1 +max bench gym chad bench press bar two plates it lbs id say bad,0 +hey think dont need live advice pleaseso syrian lives europe student refuge learned language perfectly still get racist slurs every single day clean record never hurt anyone im open minded accept every human never stick nose doesnt belong work study pay taxes since day never used help got offerd lot nice people im alone europe family friends home country decided finish college go back syria worked hard family died war got girlfriend also syria want come also die really hsve one world point dont want live anymore,1 +im sad rn dog eaten homework,0 +againi went th storey stared minutes so still it im coward,1 +dont know whats nextim started losing hair ive never fully happy people started noticing hair line receding im short im minority south asian im attractive overall ive never girlfriend dont sexual experience wasnt given tools succeed dont see point going on life never want be always feeling good enough id rather die stay lonely forever lower expectations live miserable life opt out im stressed appearance lately want give up,1 +dying fucking hard i tried tried kill multiple ways always somehow survived survived even cyanide poisoning even hanging cant die want anymore ,1 +make longest comment thread sub pls make long comment thread see messages inbox,0 +turning nocturnal fuck timezones mfs making spend less time gf shit,0 +therapist told know help today yup sittings came with feels fucking great let tell ,0 + worst year life lol even joking fucking shitty lmao,0 +parents arent home know means bang pots pans loud possible blasting metal break spoon releasing rage dishes listen soft indy cry rocking back forth fetal position youre worried relationship one earliest friends isnt working,0 +mother frank begins warm amiable comedy middleaged catholic woman frank short francis played sinead cusack shakes doldrums enrolling student sons university friends family horrified least son matthew newton busy falling love best mates girlfriend rose byrne meanwhile frank raised ire disapproving english tutor sam neillbr br matthew newton utterly disarming david relaxed natural role even characters uptight generates valuable goodwill steering audience films awkward broad comedy moments long halfway point firsttime writerdirector mark lamprell expertly steers film darker emotional territory gives cusack real chance shinebr br the supporting cast full familiar welcome faces lynette curran sacha horler nicholas bishop principals including animated usual sam neill excellent meanders little towards end mother frank delivers promises genuine australian crowdpleaser,0 +im literally unemployablemy life beyond repair point im never job zero references use degree actually makes chances finding work even lower try applying anything rd class degree london know whenever look job listings see applying criteria panic attack think looking work going push committing redflag even sooner im told mum keep carrying muscle really know say know itll kill keep going consider suicidal person thought wasting life like beyond depressing choice point,1 +roses red violets blue im kinda lonely probably too,0 +life no every morning wake sleeping six hours cuz spring foward ruatine chug like mean shotgun monster rehab literally use rehab cuz carbination cuz body like f u pain anyways thanks coming ted talk kill ne,0 +want stillim supposed happy got great life job working myself supportive wife cats parents still good health theirs nice house amp mercedes etc ever it thoughts putting gun mouth pulling trigger frequent today crying non stop hours ive sober since new years used pothead trying better man bullshit guess even everything supposed make us happy evil thoughts still creep like poisonous gas makes us feel like cant escape feeling utter loneliness remains sometimes wish dead see wife could free shit,1 +god fucking smite already im done remove me straight get rid,0 +periphery paulo low middleclass dysfunctional hypocrite family teodoro giulio lopes cludia leona cavalli teenager soninha slvia loureno deep secrets religious teodoro indeed hitman hired kill people neighborhood friend waldomiro ailton graa lover devout woman terezinha martha meola wants regenerate going country her cludia young lover jlio ismael de arajo delivers meats fathers butcher shop soninha common sixteen years old teenager periphery active sexual life smoking grass loving heavy metal jlio killed castrated neighborhood lives members family changebr br contra todos great low budget brazilian movie pictures life periphery big brazilian city story real uses usual elements poor area big brazilian cities drug dealers hit men fanatic religious evangelic people hopeless teenagers etc many plot points surprising end characters excellent performances acting natural making story totally believable camera follows characters giving great dynamics film extras dvd director roberto moreira explains screenplay lines description situations partially disclosed one week beginning shootings actors trainings workshops used lots improvisation reason natural acting vote eightbr br title brazil contra todos against everybody,0 +people listened idfwu big seanits explicit song kinda makes feel like king,0 +one taking seriouslyapparently im happy depressed want kill myself want people help,1 +found thet exfriend tried commit redflag know doim halfway across country know help still much care friend know help sent text saying i talked x like said im good situations like ever want need talk anything im anytime else do know current address parents numbers either please let know do,1 +motivation things work weekends anymore whenever get home work next work day cannot come quick enough whenever weekend starts cannot wait finishi use hate work look forward free time found job like seems shown much dislike personal lifefree time talking friends helps cannot take free time up enjoy going work look forward coming home look forward work distracts personal life,1 +react first learned santa fucking real devastated eat sleep three straight days,0 +help need help today saw someone knew familiar staring local target know someone ig want call look like weirdo say ig,0 +tried making post friends got harassed lot disorderit personality disorder did got called disgusting child alter told im lying making up im crying hate much ive spent life dealing diagnosed disorder got called childish disgusting random girl harassed pm others trying cure dont understand ive spent whole life feeling like freak child alter wanted honest disorder front new friends didnt think id get harassed much really hate feel like freak,1 +guy best friends elite talk anything everything would still chill you elite,0 +decidewhether kill myself redflag definitely always wrong make rational choice reason enough im heavy burden friends family contribute anything little hope later im young still doubt ill successful even happy future id rather kill sooner waste fewer resources therapy medication air seeing future,1 +cant fight anymoreim suicidal almost months need get chest cant share anyone know remember depressed since childhood always felt sadness weighing down make sense ignored waited go away past months gotten much handle fighting last year march break exploded years buried sadness came pouring know anymore taking anti depressants since months really helped much weird obsession think anyone would understand let try explain relationship ex lasted years time depression got worse before reason push myself him know stupid naive sounds thats kept going knew could make day would end day fought got better time but last year left another girl life went downhill sadness suppressed many years came bursting take anymore got relationships nothing felt anymore uncertainty always kept haunting me person leaves ill go again pathetic that need love function normally know ill get better find right person worth anymore late now final exams days away depression able study properly ill probably fail even manage pass good college accept student low grades much pressure romantic relationship like basic necessity makes pathetic human being low self esteem sense self want fade away getting harder get bed morning usually sleep till afternoon taking shower seems like much effort shower days imagined life would turn be want fade away forgotten,1 +get subs ill upload new music track d check music herehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkwqxelg thank d,0 +existence earth wont last much longer im happymy brother secretly got gun without parents knowing told tells everything parents shouldnt know know puts access die quick easy death,1 +saw film second feature disc containing previously banned video nasty blood rites blood rites entirely awful really expecting much film actually would seem trash director andy milligan outdone time seeds sin tops blood rites style stands tall adequate slice sick sixties sexploitation plot actually quite similar blood rites focus dysfunctional family unit course inheritance stake film shot black white look feel reminded lot trash classic the curious dr humpp theres barely gore display director seems keener focus sex themes incest hatred seeping through acting typically trashy women get appear nude point despite poor reputation director andy milligan actually seems eye sort thing many sequences film actually quite beautiful plot paper thin film filler music catchy director also surprisingly good job sex scenes themselves somewhat erotic overall great film likely appeal cult fan gets much higher recommendation better known lower quality blood rites,0 +feeling suicidali accidentally killed pet budgie happened right front traumatic still haunts me kicking died pain fault scene still haunts day sometimes dream it cried days row also started skipping classes afterwards exams basically failing college also social anxiety pretty much friends spend time alone pretty sad boring ive going depression shit nearly two months now entire family also pretty much hates treats like shit still living big failure one really cares me life pretty lonely boring friends life future feel tired feel like done life wanna rest ive thinking drinking pills around house even effect weak theyll probably cause kidneys fail,1 +sooni cant handle poor decisions made ugly actions compose past im ending soon im weight may parents sweetheart deserves better im disgusting bitch deserves die suffer wished pure person everyone think am im disgusting pervert piece trash im worthless kill soon bye please comment waste time me,1 +someone please help understand logisticsthe process happens someone attempts redflag brought hospitaldo get put psychiatric hospital indefinitelydo attend therapy continuously watched law enforcement get involved vary depending individual circumstance,1 +bust stigma whine frank know someone else struggling help best can constantly let others know yes drown boat fits way one person reality verbalize things control less you bottom line busting stigma one feel like alone short little list work everyone totally think good reminder people like myselfand hopefully someone else take something away it anything got verbalize awhile,1 +school discord band class started discord im excited feels like dream come true cant wait use nitro memes,0 +lonelythe popup messages get smartphone per day spam emails amazon linkedin kinda chose abandon friends used have open guess fault maybe universes fault constantly punish great misfortune bad luck,1 +really miss gf havent getting responses gf really miss her feel really bad without around,0 +happy christmas thats wanted say enjoy sound happy christmas now,0 +two beers larry came bar every day drink two beers my brothers dying ones him said eyes full tears day same two beers hed go one brother one him hes sad sweet schmo one day orders one brothers dead im thinking asked him replied no me ive given drinking by joanna fuchs,0 +jump rooftop todayi fantasize pf going rooftop jumping mother would care funeral costs ow makes look everybody else father get sister small shell barely remember me friends say love me theyre better without me everyone is im sitting wasted potential im fucking useless cant get anything right could help find cure cancer prestigious thing reserved people potential dont want do maybe could engineer get high school none enough im useless ill always be push people away time fuck want get away jump dont even believe afterlife want give let over dont thoughts drilled head wrong another way dont know listen anymore,1 +one would ever question director leos carax genius wonder is insane genius many people hated film normally first person accuse many french directors making offensive boring disgusting pretentious films such horrible recent film lenfant pointless offensive feux rouges strangely enough actually think pola x amazing film made great skill passion master craft containing remarkable performances film carry melodrama extreme lengths believe ever seen screen before then carax extreme know film also contains consider way overthetop trotskyite anarchist fantasies wetdreams mysterious group young men training fire machine guns bourgeoisie playing scott walkers rather fascinating music band recording sessions abandoned warehouse filled squatters fires burning old steel barrels guillaume depardieu plays rich young man chteau whose stepmother catherine deneuve wanders bathroom naked bath way suddenly snaps completely discovers deceased father famous diplomat fathered illegitimate daughter effectively disposed deneuve inconvenience sister suddenly turns kind romanian refugee wild dishevelled hair expressionless face little ability speak french coherently depardieu transforms class hero far left wants kill destroy family hypocrisy corruption lives squalor extreme poverty scorning vast inheritance commences incestuous sexual relationship halfsister shown explicit sex scene offended many people though objection it think people far hysterical sex especially america apparently never happens intensity acting filming make unlikely scenario come experience powerful depressing hypermelodrama differences carax making extreme film like numerous extreme french films think pretentious disgusting carax excellent filmmaker seriously attempting explore meaningful harrowing extreme emotional condition whereby human disintegrates turns background many would say extreme elements film gratuitous agree believe carax genuine making exploitation picture all difficult defend man goes far who know may complete madman believe deserves defending remarkable cinematic achievement,0 +even cares anymoreim fat cant get fit im sad cant get happy nothing matter years whats even point anything get feeling lasts minutes wish reset button life could different person different family different country probably live see next solar eclipse world turning trash,1 +redflag seen human evolution helpi mean lets honest redflag weakness nobody wants ever commit redflag means bad genes negative needed go away gene pool thus making one person lesser negative gene pool think really want make post story redflag im afraid go unnoticed making angry typing that,1 +tried everything could think of even came close still failed againever since turned legal rights change situation tried everything despite anxiety get situation im currently live one baltic states losing hope thing left probably death friends removed life kept asking help got angry kept telling know help removed all care money fame transgender unable get therapy currently at attempted redflag several times already recently ive done will cant sleep night always sick ive issues body cant afford get checked body feels like living hell sometime mind jail cell ever since parents divorced argued every single night getting worse never almost friends weird kid honestly deserved awful pissed self afraid go bathroom bit toenails nasty stuff know anymore tried escape america get therapy meet friends would helped me visa wrong notice late flight failed left here life ruined wasted almost money spare that mother debt im completely ideas willing escape country europe forced sterilization transgender people im willing work want help mother sister stable want good person help everyone want see everyone happy know go know message more im scared even post message feel like option left die theres point trying want live want push beliefs anyone free hate trans ok im sorry bothering everyone doubt anything done help me feel like end dead matter what apologise bad grammar badly collected thoughts cant think straight anymore want away here,1 +ive attempted redflag twice failed timesi always hear people fail regret afterwards appreciate life again reason dont dont want alive didnt ask this wrong me,1 +wanna speak aboot stuff discussing anything dont care what dm dm idk,0 +best placedoes anyone uk know best place jump front train im talking less security etc thanks,1 +feeling really slow recently eat lot meat twice week drink alcohol eat little affects zinc also auto immune past zinc ok point believe taking mg day perhaps without could low anyway much large spot back tiny spot face can sign zinc felt like zombie cannot think clearly feel starry negative slow thoughts zinc helpful others best dose zinc redflag depression libido,1 +stopped guys blowing brains outcause really need advice right,1 +thats bitch suckin dick bag chips giving head slice bread jaw white claw dome chicharrn top ice pop,0 +wow fantastic film opinion expecting good captivated start finish well made educational film really gives us fascinating insight trials darwin go order convey ideas world chronicling life writes origin species fighting personal demons well ignorant society time order so struggles hard mind body soul personal matters get breaking point even family seems slip awaywhilst rest world stand knows findings literally shake foundations lives culture meaning existence subtle movie not overexaggerated way typical hollywood way bbc produced british film yet thankfully powerful meaning thanks amazing well directed scenes well superb acting bettany connelly acts light supporting role enjoy good expected always chemistry alongside husband definitely strong endearing could feel connection reallife husbandwife bond definitely shines performances star show definitely bettany brilliant job touching performance understood sympathised battled degrading health impending insanity try understand uncovered come terms really means found thinking contradict feelings found losing including wife course firm believer religion strict christian whilst realm science two worlds could see eye eye relationship stake toobr br anyway really good well acted emotional drama dare say shed tear tragic climax truly heartbreaking well beautifully poignant moving film symbolic intellectually artistic well fact cant wait watch lot take first time round missed easily one best films ive seen year,0 +datesso ive made clear since id definitely dead im think im gonna shorten end year actually far oh well course ive attempted multiple times before probably deadline good plans methinks,1 +mod removed post version im sorry getting mad job guess it wasnt necessary tho,0 +good bye everyone fuck world boyfriend broke meam gonna kill self today gonna take foster dads sleeping pills pills alcohol boyfriend broke fucked made mad hea whole fucking world love lost might get adopted foster parents might thrown foster system lose hamster got birthday love fuck ton dont friends boyfriend bestfriend friend bullied abused school teachers dont much anything live anymore lost life twice,1 +fellas do year ago started dating girl friends months beforehand told liked summer kind surprised asked out dated almost year that around marchapril roughly start quarantine idk broke felt like lot ways still kind friends maybe whole quarantine thing good opportunity get clean slate said would stay friends guess kind have dont really talk often friend group part basically friends felt like friends time dating her since then shes started dating guy another school ok happy moved found someone else havent moved yet felt like pretty much whole thing today last night dream her weird since usually dont remember dreams got thinking more memories came back started thinking even though sometimes felt dissatisfied relationship times still made happy glad someone like cared liked deeply remember feeling certain breaking right thing us looking back cant say things gotten better since obviously though cant shouldnt make move seems really happy new boyfriend would crazy tell feel hes senior goes completely different school one way another know hell gone year still feel always give chance hes gone hand girl current friend group im pretty sure likes me im kind weird mindset right now part feels like give chance dont want possibly ruin friendship have sorry rant dont think anything bothered much long time obviously problem thats going fix anytime soon guys think try get her how wait try again try chances someone else hope ill get able relationship someone else say feel really confused ive never posted sub never really talked anyone else yet hasty dont know welcome whatever advice guys me,0 +thanks followers ok fine followers follower reddit equivalent what followers social media,0 +fuck wrong wit legs yesterday ass sore,0 +scott henderson alan curtis meets mystery woman fay helm bar invites see show him agrees condition swap information even names sometimes best kind dates however returns apartment inspector burgess thomas gomez team waiting him scotts wife murdered alibi mystery woman noone remember seeing and result this scott sentenced die murder wife secretary kansas ella raines convinced guilt sets find woman save death penaltybr br this good film viewer behind attempts kansas get truth follow memorable scenes eg pursuit mac bartender andrew tombes night claustrophobic venue cliff drummer elisha cook jr takes hang out drink dance jams friends blatant depiction sexual desire standout part film everyone sweats intensely rhythmically duration scene ella raines good female lead role thomas gomez makes likable policeman alan curtis started well confused innocent man arrested performance took left turn became thoroughly unpleasant kansas reason god knows stuck himbr br the film keep guessing murderer know halfway film matter fact adds tension dramatic development story kansas discover going get hell out good film great scenes although elisha cook jr memorable role never like anything see in someone hand necktie,0 +someone confirm lethal dose isopropanol mlkgseriously im done life plan chug fuckton need know enough yes know slow unpleasant way go seems retard proof option available end traumatising people,1 +anyone got some bean bin noun edible seed typically kidneyshaped growing long pods certain leguminous plants,0 +omfgggg learned accual term like issue getting stuff done executive disfunction apparently im inhumanity unmotivated person brain fucked fun,0 +fail im gonna kill myselfim currently fairly prestigious college paying tuition basically compeltely independant family fucking sucks used perfectionism get school financial situation might force drop out look peers hs didnt even bother hs live parents nothing wonder deal themselves drop school think kill myself ive depressed dealing ocd anorexia years college last attempt obtaining better future myself fail im scared thought would do,1 +movie scared heck kid citizen kane moments arm ripping scene good plot good even characters could something acting put top name people roles see get one shoot edit what little was distribute couple months type movies classic low budget scifi deserves due rated based films genre age,0 +raise handsupvoteswho wants die cant actually it,1 +comforting thoughti think two possibilities die death feeling nothingness afterlife get hang cool people like chester bennington ernest hemingway robin williams etc least someone unterstand there,1 +want die beachi want die beach warm sun body sound waves cool breeze id pull trigger gone peace buy gun state bit slog through ill take trip go cape cod oregon maybe south africa mediterranean hope family friends wont take hard know though hope afterlife forever beach day stress nothing bad pain comes real world life beach know wont like infinitely better life now know wont live college hope die beach worries pain calm tranquility ill probably end dying parking lot gun store sadly one dream,1 +lockdown highlighting everything wrong lifei able ignore going routine going work cooking dinner taking care dogs aa meetings whatever distraction phone provided work figured little working home wonder cut hours something dull job im overqualified for couple friends dated two three years think chance family passed by other much deeper issues im terrified virus going take away everyone love leave alive suffer it cant stop looking news think would destroy family ended tempting right now right things really go hell,1 +sister attempted redflag help hersorry belong here know else post live states away home right now im considering going back see mom second time attempted redflag one knew first attempt second one psychiatric ward feel safe release her going college month attend school far away home school two hour drive hers care person thing earth kind support offer her,1 +itits thinking pretty long time im honeslty fucked mentaly cant would never put family friends horrible thing real im scared one day ill break,1 +brag anything but sit three girls lunch table,0 +wonderful movie good story great humour some great oneliners soundtrack die forbr br ive seen times farbr br the american audiences going love it,0 +miss old account month premium left coins,0 +feel it coming nothing it part even wants it excuse hide world tried good person laughing smiling making plans looking future hope optimism it no world ask try display coming back real me think want stop it coming back,1 +got banned rmemes happen made mistakes honestly deserve whatever reposting meme reposts joke idk,0 +ideathings keep getting worse worse like life im kid early life bad hell hope future wanted actor model cant im fucking ugly repulsive wanted doctor something area medicine cant im dumb af blessed bad teachers teach and know older classmates ended also knowing math im ugly broke talentless skills whatsover im dumb artisticcreative skills less pain still hurts much already cut legs early age keep coming cut more stop ive enough life please stop stop pain im tired suffering much,1 +fucking hate desk sometimes reason sits angle whenever spill soft drink goes back desk drips onto computer cables towels trying clean well dealing sick also spilt like drink well,0 +stop glorifying mental illnesses please see many people social media here ones too making beauty accessory mentally ill fun doesnt make u alt btw indie kids alternative sorrynotsorry dying hair mental breakdown ik people gonna say uh thats tiktok kids cringe that lot people too yeah sad one day doesnt make u depressed stressed doesnt mean u anxiety organized ocd blah blah could go hours resume dont say mental illness youre diagnosed cutter find extremely annoying hear friends say theyre so depressed shit like that im invalidating mental health stuff joke oh also unrelated dont make comments selfharm scars pretty please friends joke like oh cut hahaha theyre depressed seeing scars lie say cat u clue painful is also currently getting medical help dont worry point anyways rant probably makes absolutely sense people probably gonna downvote something well share whats mind,0 +crush thanked today yes thats true crush said thank treated friend today feel happy damn dream nice wake realize probably never gonna happens class clown classmates make fun me suck math,0 +fuck im horny again cuts pp ok fine now,0 +music would killed nowive always described someone potential potential was ive good things dropped them feel hopeless sometimes failure ive never someone regular around talk to hand hold anything common parents talk them feel like friends fake even bother asking ive girlfriend music reason im here know felt wow life incredible feeling nothing else gives it whether im home lying bed listening absolute favourite album time shutting rest surroundings porter robinsons worlds front row concert absolute euphoria always seems pull pain anyone relate,1 +want preempt thisill brief because frankly care anymore within days hours something like that absolute love life going tell feels nothing anymore woke one day everything different mind including me loving mate never fought got along perfectly matched right places deeply madly love opened new worlds one another made life worth living going end anything cause it matter end so question is avoid killing myself like idea antidepressants pointless pride prevents getting therapist ive awful depression almost killed there one already several magnitudes worse even really started yet know do,1 +feel unworthy female compare others well mean dont anyways quite frequently often question worth never got much attention guys past none really bothered past past pretty say look little better often got rejected past changed dyed hair blonde lost weight took better care myself thought guys would finally like changed completely guy would want girl perhaps isnt case guy pays attention me looks way hurts get everyday completely change please others still enough hate rejected never express feelings guys past thats ever happened im afraid rejected tiring knowing ill never good enough clearly guy looks way wear makeup hair dyed body skinny theyll look way im myself hurts nobody wants best many girls school get guys effortlessly adored guys dont even need change anything guys always crushed them feel worthless gross good enough wanna know girls get attention seek dont,0 +bbc series astonishingly good fun id seen minutes knew watch friends recommend anyone prudish almost anyone else going enjoy itfrom cinema snob entertainmenthungry masses lead character lesbian still worth watching thats thingbr br rachael stirling incredible lead role stretches dazzling assortment emotions situations bizarre nature one saw series would ever say cant act makes us laugh cry get turned slap foreheads amazementbr br you cant really compare story anything else rehash style plot entirely beastpart comedy historical drama erotica comingofage tale musical morebr br gotta praise bbc making story cant imagine anyone overly prudish formulaic us ever it so stop reading go buy it,0 +need one person group chatchat room whatever ishas people now one person get perfection number anyone it,0 +emdr sessions great success also want go became severely depressed days following sessions anyone else sharing feeling like maybe sometimes bettereasier go therapy revisit everything try get ahold yourself definitely skill set learned time therapy feel rely right now get worse sure enoughthough hopeful get worse would appreciate feedback whether also share feelings think better return therapy,1 +short story lousy lifei know writings gonna look bit unrefined goddamnit almost car crash last night excuse writings bit edgy moment begin saying around troubles started really want reveal much days suffice say average pokemonplaying doormat went different schools throughout high school recall correctly cant say remember much details tell remember namecalling shoves gropes spitting sheer worthlessness experienced since then got point practically ditch schools age eventually get ged soon brief stint jesuschristridesaraptortype homeschooling program ged however diminish desire go find school records perform jayandsilentbob road trip fuckers fact remains despite much may want perform said trip time resources it wished over id finally able catch fucking break no life kept doling punishment take current job instance right im stuck giving night school classes types motherfuckers made life living hell course people might ask me wouldnt make contemptuous judgemental were maybe hard worry im even able carry conversation lack communication skills unfortunately idiosyncrasy makes life difficult take one instance remember vast amounts data handful names also process data hours end cant stop thinking try sleep get twitches tics tremors feel numb every time see sort gathering top off brain cease remind nearly every gaffe altercation mistake ive experienced last decades biggest source regret though comes inclination following instructions errands wanted do went college told go go parties get action spent time room studied consecutive years like good little boy im supposedly free cant even choose something simple juice flavor again like theres many choices town people talk here places go theres couple bars downtown district life support shopping center walmart crap aggravated fact cant even move money so ive gone thru usual recommendations hear around reddit too go psychiatrist ive gone thru couple psychologists take antidepressants even know taking makes difference also tried going gym six months even became tedious routine try complain though time people would point pettyness problems times happen get useless everything alright bullshit did however manage get something ordeals know life is essence pain know whether want stick around much longer,1 +question girls find overweight obese guys attractive asking friend,0 +parents right blaming fact trouble sleeping lack exercise trouble sleeping semester started parents dont see connection two things flat said physiatrist wouldnt helpdo anything me diagnose lazy trained professional second twin brother said anxiety brought physiatrist quickly also feel like dont believe me say get good sleep wait sec let like one word say oh course didnt constantly getting xgt hours sleep tried waking asking plans never work guys think,0 +hellowho awake,1 +need find something need find tommy gun replica toy use halloween costume well mm pistol mafia times,0 +felt good long time sometimes feel sad sometimes nothing numb do regain live,1 +death even life imprisonment sounds like better deal anxiously working shitty job everydayi tried going work today left minutes felt awkward belong there tried speak words find way mouth it,1 +wanna know theres one single person buying ps ebay lol like rich person care fucking wants ps right lmao otherwise could good gaming pc,0 +speaking megathiccc gc rn isnt funnyinteresting thought,0 +rteenagers mod controversy considerable amount rteenagers users believe moderators subreddit arent best intended job often leading insulted like mods gay stinky mods wont fix anything typically funny make fun someone lot people anonymous dont suffer consequences seen lot posts definitely rteenagers often staying long minutes often users delete receiving backlash even moderators specifically summoned name like fan favourite ugitcommitdie apologies example often dont respond timely fashion tends anger users ask questions like even mod going jobwhich good good point moderators defence im sure arent glued screen refreshing page catch posts even though plenty mods able team work together doesnt happen dont know due to believe time andor laziness majority mods apply abuse power reddit fame often really caring goes get position im sure users self behave most time lol act serious need to two sense im sure lot add im likely incorrect things rteenagers talking about generally shitposts one cares p,0 +portals open choose ur destination,0 +kindness cost anything neither nice today reason ive probably pleasant encounters people online helped me kindness taking time day make sure okay talking issues anyways yea helping people nice world would nicer place everybody like,0 +im i want way thats redflag im weak talk someone person,1 +help available me doi tried kill second time last night took random assortment pills went sleep make left side head throb way actually quite pleasurable second redflag attempt first involuntarily committed mental health hospital it it actually prison ive asked help soooooooo many times ive ever got seek help seek therapy ive tried that hundreds times job cant afford medications cant afford session therapists going anything tell just change thinking im done this im years old ive done nothing life average day involves harming masturbating boredom one favorite things take ruler beat back legs look like ground beef longer interests nothing makes happy drive more late im freakin years old waaaaaay late learn ive always thought autistic since totally get social cues unlucky enough go school time autism totally ignored kid school today id likely placed special education afforded luxury though im paying now im totally socially clueless one willing help im invisible nothing matters nothing ever ever matter want productive human matter people could die right nothing would change certain members family might sad short time theyd go back normal lives im point need constant reassurance im getting any im tired ignored they always ask why men seek help depression know why one cares doctors mental health community going ignore me bother want live more let die already,1 +wanna racist fastest racist,0 +im terrifiedsomeone hold im scared,1 +tomorrow crush hangout part going house seeing really goes well feel like will gut feeling likes back see,0 +one favorite movies time pretty pathetic say well yeah is chris incredibly incredibly funny innocent brilliance comes film films look motel scenes spade gets caught zipper down other just go away love god,0 +pls help old xbox friend username motto hes probably changed now would really nice find him motto seeing this waverunner says hi,0 +important question watch barcelona vs atletico madrid tonight tottenham vs man city,0 +nobody really caressad true least me im done,1 +friend died todayyeah house spider yes pathetic hes always salt lamp crawling there nothing making shadows walls caught flies nats talked him hes spider isnt complex enough understand had loved tickle hand spun prey hand weird made get fear cat swatted late make stop already dead time came room im fucking destroyed lonely dont know do im pathetic fucking stupid loved even called lupin iii thats favorite character third spider became friends with rest let outside garage live away hell couldnt leave lupin im lonely im lost reason even exist anymore miss damn much hes fucjing spider made feel safe woke eating fly probably buzzing around felt thankful im lost,1 +movie great good enjoyable one feels like indie film made play script morgan freeman basically plays himself although director swears script written him small irony actor goes supermarket research film committed yet mean actually made film end watching br br i found dialogue bit notredflag taste refreshing nonetheless film inspires viewer take look lives choose direction go bit much emphasis appearance ask mebr br bottom line nice little film made two weeks basically two actors extras dialogue driven makes morgan freeman look good ,0 +pass application dream college course though still chance admission reconsidereddespite everything feels like crashing down mum console mostly god plan you etc i religious hold similar beliefs end world although feel way especially lack determination things futuremy family aware past attempt guess way reacted college results end worrying them ill still try recover improve despite thoughtstldr failed dream college admission still hope please comment words hope comfort outside religion fate themesthank advanced __ please send words hope comfort,1 +morefemaleredacted hate redacted men ladies at going redacteding weak redacteds need women redacted redacted redactedredactedredacted redacted right seems simple get women redacted redacted redacted redacted wholesome ,0 +want diebut want keep living anymore,1 +birthday years young officially post subreddit,0 +anyone else go phases obsessed fruit like week every couple month like longest time fruit never sounded good tastes kinda plain holy fuck fruit like best thing world cant stop eating it,0 +im insane afraid ask helpi feel like dont belong anywhere nobody really loves me relationship friends family ends bad im terrible person frequent psychotic symptoms im afraid im going kill myself drugs thing make feel ok want stop feeling lonely want overdose sooner later honest im even sure im posting here deep know nothing help time coming up,1 +advice deal lonelyness tldr lonely due lack romantic relationships advice deal covid year old virgin never even came close ever relationship lately effecting way usual feeling lonely worthless someone never find love partialy closely resemble whale human social awarness grace brick thrown window biggest problem is covid even though think trying fix former issue hoping find someone ignore latter pity week give me cause covid dont want go around trying meet strangers point less rambling actual question comes out deal kind lonelyness covid,0 +reached point returnive suffering depression long cant even remember started ever since childhood began notice every years for different triggers enter depressive cycles become literally useless devoid motivation willpower point sabotaging life consciously sortf sick inevitable impulse compare addiction sorry think rn today years old year since entered worst depressive spiral life months ago fired job copy writer home let exboss many times therefore im broke broke boyfriend kicked dog getting tired trying help sustain me best friend speaking one talk ive also turned pathological liar year lied many times trying get better working speaking option anymore im currently days away becoming homeless cannot pay rent buy food seek help turn relatives since live outside home ountry degree practical knowledge know write able land another job even waiter point would think survival instinct would jump motivate think committing redflag want live crappy life even im coward conscious death would affect loved ones write im embarrased become want talk someone ask advice case anyone gone thing time hope live seems pointless like waste give life definitely stop breathing would call redflag prevention line credit phone know im pathetic sorry typos im best write english also know real problems like terminal cancer schizophrenia not judging something like that brain wired backwards guess,1 +bruh thighs pillows ok basically pillows soft hardish kinda soft would thicc thighs hard would skinnier thighs adjusted moved comfortable ur head ever heard pillow fights well beat shit someone legs pillows big small depending youd rather had like big soft pillows boom thats pillows sent gf agrees pillows,0 +emptyness greatness success yet failure busy yet unproductive friend many yet none good person times active weak honest cheat tired oversleeper shallow depth surface understanding tired done,0 +not sure much ill handle anymore,1 +feel empty tired even point living going die anyway trying keep together people loves cuz know going 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thishttpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentspgqi_dont_know_how_to_make_money_and_support_myself paying bills expensive usual done decided head bit car start even car fucking parents car tried hang tie ceiling fan body weight would rip fan ceiling know do cant go hospital insurance right nos think something afford know do even know tell therapist feel like getting hospitalized make things even worse hate alive much good times friends not im definitely smart skilled ways happen ways valued society large im finished it one worst parts even bad im straight white dude usa grateful able use resources better world around me im incapable so fucking fault existence feels redundant way renders unworthy life know get this want die,1 +life hate all energy want live anymore give fuck anything worked three weeks losing much money matter nothing matters somebody please take pain away,1 +happy birthday everyone birthday st october happy birthday everyone birthday st octoberhappy birthday everyone birthday st october,0 +lost dear friendnot redflag cancer struggling suicidal thoughts lot lately things feel different dear friend mine lost long battle leukemia earlier week came remission years last october never gave up never lost hope never stopped fighting thats changed things seeing everyone loves suffer absence given change heart taking life may feel like burden may feel like curse everyone im close to terrible grief share something cannot leave place thank you dear friend everything taught me,1 +stanley iris show triumph human spirit stanley struggle become literate realize potential iris find courage love becoming widow beauty movie dance robert deniro jane fonda together starting stopping skills courage completely trust move on sense nicely gives us good view life often is thus credible unlike reviewers found characters rendered consistent whole picture supporting cast also carefully chosen add depth character main characters get added meaning supporting performances excellent movie best thing take hope,0 +ive disliked long time certain things life recently made spike unprecedentedlyim sick tired liking myself im trying ignore problems sex drugs turns thats dumb im done idk,1 +straight guys wish girl lesbian know sounds stupid im definitely trans fr things much romantic girl it wanna able give someone honest compliment without thinking get laid,0 +pseudocontent existencethe thought always lingered ive never really acted thoughts without thinking over ive never given redflag consideration deserved understand call post sort superficial statement one radical thought id received however thought ive paid attention to ive always considered well off fed clothed sheltered however theres always feeling innate loneliness ive felt life people ask full life encompasses honestly know say people assume wealth humanistic approach life makes one happy watched father leave due lust starting around years old would see around year even world started fall around would outlet anger mother relatively absent life spends time others family believes potential exceed life ever had terms school results slowly decayed think result gain sort attention pathetic right merely exist im wits end honestly wish life away,1 +remember making account one day appeared nowhere apparently made month ago remember know thinking chose username even know means anyway ill stick hope get bored months make new account,0 +helpi cut leg again,1 +someone call apart samaritansanyone else im uk happy elsewhere,1 +october take back october last year everything want gone caused much heartache want here memories left you youre person havent grown tired somber melodies good night sweet prince king one day sweet dreams,0 +thank making bearable god begin think went lot crap year loved ones dying isolation friends family kinda shit show ive suffering mental illness past four years year pushed lot thought could handle therapist dumped beginning year felt lost id working two years part felt like id betrayed bounced around lot different therapists programs everything online really get close enough anyone really feel comfortable working them started new school beginning year transferring senior year difficult especially pandemic cant form kinds tight relationships classmates person burned lot bridges old school found feeling alone hopeless people could interact family lets honest go well constant arguments inability go often id like felt suffocated hopeless everything going hell around you theres one life trust enough talk it option seems like redflag joined reddit year half ago much began spend time home started spend time reddit joined rteenagers maybe two months ago started posting get whole lot interaction posts interaction got enough help get shitty year messaged redditors got added discords commented posts helped remind world small seems alone none us ever truly alone matter finding right communities join thank getting year giving something live for heres less shitty love luisa,0 +pasta yummmy pasta good pasta sweet pasta good enough eat,0 +hurt broke boyfriend nothing holding back anymore wanting years horrible person deserve die probably going run away looks like got kidnapped killed hopefully make less painful family left everything behind soon,1 +ive enough lifethis probably get buried get chest im year old male uk ive depression suicidal thoughts around years started grandmother raised passed away gcse exams put deep depression didnt revise exams led failing nearly every single one went college uk college university got much dropped out ever since then ive bounced jobs even though work full time now minimum wage isnt really something brag about feel fed bad life want end all ridiculous amount insecurities im noticeably skinny despite overeating every day top hair receding ive rejected every girl ive ever tried talk obviously doesnt help friends seem going places feel stuck endless cycle depression ive tried talking people makes worse judged it point dont see option hang,1 +cool people are chilling feels really nice like geez feel calm myself people allow drag state,0 +students lil cousins kids worked withworking guys probably one best parts life say guys keep guys safe happy all little turds helped helped bet made feel like worth something like purpose sort of shit job would able make feel safe happy could manage make smile laugh felt least accomplished something guys always joy around honest sure knew drive crazy sometimes bet guys intentionally trying make upset still loved like little siblings maybe thats good teacher view students like part family well guys never read sure pray dont actually almost none read worries eh quite sure already forgotten since got fired since longer want work church either rely bunch little kids feel belong planet truth is guys make feel important even though truly believed worthless maybe worthless considering keep getting fired nearly every job get oh well know least able make guys happy sometimes feel safe times suppose good something every then none remember know happened me thats good miss guys constantly sucked every time one moved away cousins miss guys time time really wish could spend time yall guys always fun around know writing this sad many things really intended anyone even cousins students sorta rambling now want friend back miss much friends meant world like students did lost many them fuck even saying anymore writing want die hate myself writing deleting things hour believe probably mess fuck it posting mess want die bad,1 +cant get job im tired tryingi graduated finance degree years ago years yet find anything temporary jobs steady job ive taxes im damn good even months year barely support myself parents always feel guilty taking money know always there im fucking tired looking work im fucking exhausted trying put getting nothing back im tired husband tells worry hes also pretty much position steady job hes underpaid way take care us both even guilt would much me thing is know im great worker know great job given chance feel like pattern temp jobs resume keeping people hiring hurts passed much rejection much even know look work anymore,1 + im surprised godzilla httpsyoutuber_jjyuejo s final piece revenge eminem,0 +got idea kept rerolling account gacha game make sure get best starting roster possiblewhenever get bad roll bad family throw account away kill myself start new one got really overpowered unit give story want fair killed hope born better home keep killing successful,1 +medical issues breaking mei many things physically wrong years surgeries pain recent infection tooth a bad one caused half face swell extremely badly cant even look myself im much physical pain see ahead me,1 +makes sense guns illegal californiathe redflag rates would skyrocket,1 +got destroyed mother said know get news faster you say memes reddit mother like social life comeback one,0 +cant believe feel like againi felt suicidal long time teens due parents custody battle mom eventually went jail six months time served killed infant brother yeah still cant believe either fast forward years later shit good shit cash money even know high praise nice apartment nice girlfriend pets baby way hes born incredible lose job due downsizing says move back state family is last week takes child randomly kidnaps police anything files custody child support hours away after man im gonna go almost exactly dad did think redflag bad words pass maybe even read theyll glossed everything continue should evidently missed childs first steps today mutual friends told me posting facebook decided tell me reason id consider killing son cat courts going side mom anyways prolong it even knows cat likes me lmao life fucking awesome sometimes see beauty maybe me missed remember me however great times weird peaceful kind aura feels like washed last days think ive come terms luck amp everything ok gone,1 +hate birthday life looking darker years go bythis literally came mind im turning februaryand dont look forward it first memory birthday parents took movies watch racing stripes honest mischievous child wont sit still ran cinema dad grabbed arm pulled cinema yelling im crying took car locked inside went back finish movie im sitting car crying windows opened went home disciplined me day even remembered said dont care birthday plaster wall we concrete wallsas im crying belt marks back screams dont dare talk back promise you carry die tonight birthday year wanted relax watch tv couldnt even spend whole day brothers project helping doing none friends even called texted happy birthdayon birthday last year high school last time even heard friends one even wished id cards display dob maybe one popular guys im always one getting left out actually found friend group group chat never even knew it birthday year whole day filled yelling swearing violence got angry took myself alone brought back memories self harming used cut burn even tied fish tank tubing stick whipped it im turning next year dont know life going meant finish university next year instead failed repeating it feel like im wasting everyones time money determination drive left im counting days till demons win honestly dont plan live past ,1 +movie considered academy award enjoy movie take seriously wants viewer enjoy ninety mins disappointment enjoy send darth vader villain the breather female batman heroine but much cuter much less costume running joke involves cigarettes police captain thats funny means great cinematic achievement enjoy campy fun worth viewing god help me liked it,0 +know go herei diploma jobs lined finished it living arrangements ready job basically finally shit together life accidentally deleted work clearing space money course again know else do want die stop leeching family everyone know really really want here,1 +hey think movie great great graphics vary glad used final fantasy think game best ever played anyways great movie loved itthey make another one maybe ether use final fantasy final fantasy pretty awesome fromtyler sheena hope email back details another one people anyone else reading suggest see movie animated looks pretty realistic got awesome fighting scenes see fast fighting movie long time game final fantasy also really great good graphics really fun challenging,0 +random post life advice random person todays topic love love many different applications meanings people define different types love ojibwe perspective romantic love love involves two individuals partake romantic actions familial love love defined family familylike bonds admiration love love defines deep special admiration another friendship love love acknowledged friend group bond love humanity love defined special regard people love individual love defined love someone fellowship regard love like previously mentioned love communal love love temporary everlasting depending ones feeling toward immediate community love life love present one understands living people share experience human respectful love brothership love involves individuals committed help hold respectful regards,0 +donemy friend treats like shit family doesnt care worst part dont know kill bedsheet noose,1 +demonicus movie turned video game love story things goes filmit bfilm ofcourse doesnt bother one bit made right music rad horror sword fight freaksbuy movie now,0 +haha exposure covid school get work home oak academy national academy thing history test lined tomorrow im lowkey celebrating rn great,0 +im going kill saturdayactually fuck im going tonight,1 +realise lost someone good you things them gone react,0 +wanna leaveeee like anything anyone,0 +going now lost friend reason too cut hang myself would easier guys opinion maybe way maybe lonely fat ugly alone deserve suffering jealous sucidal mfs friends reasons live have fat fucking ugly piece garbage asshole face keep company fuck going show me abusvie shitbag ex shitty friend group bullies school everyojeni hate lonely,1 +crush said loves talking discord annoying usual said leave said bye said love you said said left think meant seriously,0 +movie everything typical horror movies lack although things far fetched dealing quality snow man engineers preview reveal cant wait jackzilla dare say oscar winner perfect date movie advise men nice romantic surprise see movie special person,0 +whats biggest life lessons learnedjust interested lot led thought patterns come learning life lessons late change,1 +choke like choke choke choke choke want boyfriend choke idk tell hes bottom relationship,0 +im litterally crying nostalgia rn looking old spotify playlists played one classical music it first song plays good all next song nuvole bianche may know piece look trust me just wonderful remembered listening whenever would get ready sleep piece amazing hits different level wow nostalgia,0 +really thinking killing tomorrowmy life shit hole really dont see way out ive hospitals seeing many therapists taking many meds nothing fucking works im done trying miracle things get better im gonna living life dend end job til die life absolutely hope happiness purpose im afraid location go place someone find quickly go place might take weeks months til im found,1 +want family backi thought perfect family thought marriage perfect traded world turns wife pretending everything okay several months finally become much her leaving opportunity try fix wrong considers months hiding feelings trying says already tried daughter able control crying around every time see reminds im going waking school anymore idea losing family much bear hate wife want lose her best friend looks hated years feel alone empty everything me could talk anything thought could hiding truly felt want wake find horrible nightmare ive wanted die much since told way fix this want live life without best friend even talk like friend want give hug let hold way used to right closest thing friend year old concerned daddy crying much think id already killed myself planned shoot yesterday think way without traumatizing anyone idea daughter wife finding witness made impossible know do never even remotely thought possibility marriage weve together almost years happiest years life without struggles years would never give up im fucking alone,1 +young filmmaker talent capturing audience quickly unusual camera work sparse intense scripts concept combining animation live footage remarkably wellexecuted soundtrack goodbr br the decision release movie twelve parts online puts onus director make episode fascinating enough viewer invest buying upcoming episode wish motion pictures kind commitment keeping audiences entertained throughout storiesbr br highly recommended,0 +want kill myself realise factual level probably end line meive poverty entire adult life severe developmental disabilities compounded trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma trauma im trying take inventory remaining options stare one looks appealing dying really working family bank account way ever make money ebegging anymore cant beg life accused scammer stalked rumours spread whatever else people get upset wanting super friendly cheerful everyone want place say live one live anywhere want sense permanence life income home family live hostel visa country runs less week know im going know maybe want kill all ive keeping drunk days days much handle emotionally even drink killing starts look like genuinely viable option table know id rather die put one problems anymore,1 +rappers theae days goin bout guns uzis the real homies remember pulling block pounderhttpsyoutubevbxgylcnxetms,0 +first all english main language try write best cani suicidal thoughts since probably never told anyone know make bullshit like allow alone things like thati psychology treatment year half never told psychologist every day want diebecause tell know professional obligation tell momi also told girlfriend want commit suicide would make panic know is would try call everyone tell want diewhy selfish cannot understand fact willing continue living would tell them going pain asssorry make much sense trying to know write even want help,1 +dad hearing want kill myselfhe basically went list things get trouble subreddit dealing suicidal person anyways im sitting bed crying now,1 +ever get home going somewhere look mirror think ugly disgusting entire time embarrassing harsh reality check mirror painful,1 +covered everything time reliefi know sub prevent redflag admire guys do great believe someone cares ive depressed years cant continue everything anyone normal person could ever want consider lucky bring joy happiness everyday suffer im anti depressants tried talking therapist actually went today knowing final weekend honest tomorrow hopefully last time ever wake up ive made video left financial info passwords contact info ect ive written half notes plan cleaning house making everything easy possible im angry im even sad feel relief knowing over plan cooking favourite meal maybe beer watching movie guess im posting vent somebody want help someone hear understand final thoughts theres one person could save me cant go her dont want make feel trapped responsible fair her love much joy love reason ever found live person make want future ive dated plenty special messed up im ending things no light endless darkness candle go out,1 +days ago swallowed bunch pills thinking would kill me noti drank least cups pesticide kill mei tried cut wrist hurt muchi scared tired waking disappointedi tried drink pipe cleaner end burning mouth mad swallowing it cannot even kill properlyi want call brother scared get annoyed me want bother anymore even speak mouth hurtsi scared tired coward want family stop disappointed me scared,1 +im tired itive given all even pushed nothing left living car went sizes weight process getting job life finds ways screw over wanna anymore im tired fighting,1 +im never going get dream makes life feel fucking meaninglessi idea im going life anymore ive recently moved parents horrible me ive working non stop pay bills ive also practicing like crazy esports father forced sell computer pay bills would understandable didnt make enough money pay himself doesnt even gambling problem anything like waste money hes greedy piece shit anyway ive playing console games like mortal kombat esports recently lack desktop ive gotten plateau makes actually want end life esports biggest dream time focus lose again makes feel like ive wasted much life absolutely nothing im making money it im nowhere near skill level would allow get anywhere dad always told chasing dream stupid didnt raise son loser playing video games point hes right cant go college carrier either moved schools credits got revoked show f transcript im ready give up cant dream dont see point going on,1 +hit rock bottom againi hit rock bottom big time absolutely nothing surviving goodwill others made sure keep firearm kill event instead chose sell licensed dealer use money try relax get shit together again suicidal long incredibly easy choose give give up insanely easy let others tell happy take pill drug fix hurt hollowness easy lay let world run over hard succeed start over harder strong inside close falling apart pressure thoughts past reward without risk one thing need love even now hope something better think hard everyone it good make feel help others way whatsoever can starts get better get bad again get better again go down highs without lows life wanted put post glamorize martyr horribly disadvantaged forgotten wanted put others know theyre end yet things better soon let be smell roses look stars learn read talk enjoy little things build there take one day time feel different tool end life held long feel robbed feel robbed myself feel better it like easy quit button hiding closet me instead theres huge outside world full different possibilities experiences conversations music food pleasures pains know truly religious think truly quite honest think sure afterlife makes time now good bad much valuable take mind add religion cherry top own ever let someone else take away self worth set bar whether low high cool someones eyes looked someone important people others hurt one things kept going knowing others struggling capable culminating negative thoughts though tormented see others give give up much hurts scares them causes huge ripple effect life important experience contrasts bind us ive learned depressed us caring toward others friends new old make things better even telling many little brainwash you remember good others try good yourself rest falls place let it enjoy ride remember laugh might get little direction would prefer see in,1 +another day shitim sick living sick living im also point get tired people trying help me mom desperately wants get better also knows cant get better sat next bed kept talking wanted life always stay bed minutes done told wanted die took grain salt ive told mutliple times didnt wanna live anymore never proceeded doesnt take serious well becauae w im done w shit im done w year old guy education barely finances willpower anything struggling ostomy crohns disease depression anxiety im done im done im done dont kms soon im gonna go mental go shit killing me literally depression going kill dont want happen need kms go crazy thats plan turned weeks ago actually wanted kill st birthday didnt im probably gonna kms either summer end fall beginning winter last year,1 +family thing keeping ending allas soon dead following,1 +living others myselfive diagnosed depression last four years ive felt apathetic fell love made feel like living makes want die even more dated less week break dating someone else someone much dislike yet wanted friends cant say her treats like mistress cuddle comes problems also brings dating him feel horrible basically cheating her whats kept going long wanting hurt people close me imagine sad passing want sad care much less them people closest treat like know care much even feel like living life solely others good all know something holding back since im rather jumping bridge feel like im even living good reasons anymore ever,1 +tips flirt online thru text pandemic goin around kinda hard flirt girl like wearing mask meters away them another way get know better flirt texting idk start conversations people blue text without making seem like crush want closer,0 +really realistic sensible movie ramgopal verma stupidity like songs hindi movies class acting nana patekar br br much similarities real encounters,0 +sometimes keep swimming find way dark ocean,0 +one fucking talk toi one fucking talk to one fucking talk to one fucking talk to one fucking talk to thanks lot people fuck everyone thier bullshit sayings bullshit ignoring me,1 +talkis anyone speak privately redflag,1 +skirt trend isnt dead youre dead,0 +im lonely bet probably gonna like lol same vote say anything predictable actually going try talk anything hate coming reddit friends fucking ghost else,0 +suicidal leaving psych ward nowhey everyone im year old girl recently december rd attempted redflag ended mental hospital month left january th past days ive bad thoughts feeling suicidal again im trying fight want alarm parents friends knowing feel like im going again please help me im loss know myself,1 +wantto feel loved like im actually worth something would lie it lying bed belt around neck thinking wish something anything easy,1 +hate myself hate face looks body looks hate look mirror hate never done anything impactful disappointment parents never able expect me hate try hate less get frustrated hate more decent amount friends majority would even considered fake friends feel like problems good none back honestly back feel comfortable opening them would laugh least laugh behind back one friend feel comfortable opening still many qualities seem toxic two faced everyone cares nice person claim be want block everyone surrounded people feel even alone still feel alone listen music time distract voices head telling worthless am cannot talk anyone feel even act sympathetic know chuckling eager go tell friend pathetic am rant,1 +last year depression went rising steadily every day every choice make comes wrong important people life ignore me feels like permanent headache nothing change anything everything falls apart,1 +hearing suicidal tendencies hurting mother asks honest her continue sharei imagine difficult child much pain want commit redflag time share recent panic attack suicidal thoughtattempt emotional paralysis grief clings face way mother handles discussions commendable although understand cant see the beauty life things improve know sentiments originate love me hurts hurt her urges keep lines communication open do,1 +day one posting daily wisdom bengals win playoff game investing like bar soapthe touch it smaller gets darcy howe,0 +saw commercials thinking no nick nite done taking fresh prince slots well still love fresh prince george lopez surprisingly good show love notstereotypical benny is carmen pretty good character really funny see stupid overemotional sometimes feel bad guy plays max looks much younger actually is max fun character acted well yeah angie little stereotypical funny moments ha ha george big head nah really good too funny show definitely often home improvement,0 +im bored ask random questions want filler,0 +ive made plan head kill mother ever dieshonestly much going right now ive got friends though recently talking pity anything father died couple years born mom sibling family left part growing kid watching mom cry dead husband really takes toll even though im worthless scumbag asshole thought mom crying dead son killed thought thats little much me siblings never really close doubt would affect much distant relatives course distant probably care either basically point moms reason im alive right now know multiple guns could get hands without much trouble figure whats point really ive spent life trying least treat others better treat would really bad one selfish action feel like honestly things would even end neither selfish selfless dont know im bothering even think im fucking god awful person like seriously im worst think id world favor also im posting mainly confession cant think anyone irl would listen let alone give shit im expecting anyone might good read idk oh btw im pretty sure rules anyone tell anyone know exactly aiming kill instantly cause ive seen mouth thing temple sorta head area like aiming brain general like maybe brainstem idk tips would appreciated,1 +desperate getting life back track hi kind people recently leave school handle load things home making everything worse family sorely depended father everything financially parts africa kids raised investments theres mental health available teenagers long time ive depression anxiety panick attacks first know happening googling symptoms seeing professionals confirmed assumption tried self care thinking positively generally trying make moment better yesterday dad recently released work due downsizing weve drastically change lifestyle first born blamed everything goes wrong house surprise got blamed dad getting fired since day worse before unable cope school failed subjects im extremely introverted person hard share anything life anyone kicked home dreams shattered idk do covid pandemic creating graphic designs clients would go local cyber use phone which old slow work im doing im asking kind souls kindly assist raising money getting laptop i found hp elitebook around avid graphic designer upcoming programmer mainly works phone hard cant share email according rules anyone willing help dm ill provide email tldr got kicked out depends phone source generating income kindly asking kind souls help fellow redditor raise around ,0 +reached maximum boredom cant seem find entertainment anyone wanna talk m hmmmm like video games vr youtube twitch dog otamatone lounging bored looking things cant buy thinking attempting buy realizing im lazy um hmmm talking discords fun too,0 +one yearits one year since tried jump rollercoaster year nothing changed family full collapse mother fearfull deep pain father detached everything fault wish died grief better this must be tried medications psychotherapy all depression severe overcome tried hide people mask cracking wish everybody shrugged depression like othing years doctors said could better got medicated time case burden hide people like murderer something cause mental illness mark cain society tried everything cant anymore hope real noose time feel tight enough waiting kick chair one year one useless year older pain hatred pain left ive used abused people years empty shell maybe time get gene pool wanna embrace death silence im tired now bye,1 +one free awards yeah free awards time hand forefinger really mention this damn still ,0 +making fun addicts bad people look drug addicts alcoholics porn addicts etc go like haha look loser nothing life terrible people really think condescending helps anyone try help know trying help always work atleast say tried asshole,0 + year olds sub annoying like think funny reality annoying whiny smh make want this,0 +o brother art thou gleeful retelling homers odyssey set s mississippi rampant splendid quirkiness trademark brothers coen three hapless convicts make escape find treasureand share adventurein delightful film george clooney fine ingenuous form chatty amiable leader trio real acting kudos go john turturro tim blake nelson goofy lovable cohorts dubbed soggy bottom boys clooneys character receive baptism full immersion river three cut record homespun nomdeplume cash unwittingly become overnight sensations veritable rock star status film accompanied enough music songs almost qualify musical incredible feats filmmaking here scene kkk rally real doozy similar scene dorothys friends rescue witchs castle the wizard oz almost amounts cinematic plagiarism amazing work plagiarism is without giving away ending must say climax movie one breathtaking sequences put film recent memory on par spectacular finale magnolia another one favorites o brother mustsee perfect ,0 +guess whos back im back mutha fuckas idk,0 +real nowi know real now know suicidal thoughts becoming real ive stopped sharing thoughts people even though theyre louder every day ive prepared organized little things simplify things whatever happens stuff im three conversations right via text none suspect thing one case opposite im particularly well conversation talking trip next summer know well wont last long im sad know coming im sad come this im sad mental illness stronger am im sad heart cant move past people didnt invest way invested them im sad let heart believe forever actually meant forever though im sad past present enough end future,1 +like title says im rapidly losing motivation recently switched collages closer home could closer family depressive spirals coming often mainly lack work do always end things last damn minute freshman year tried best almost,1 +patrolling rteenagers subreddit almost makes wish nuclear winter filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 + years constant self harm thoughts tired wish way stop thoughts self harm,1 +hello guys gals school project developing private search engine makes user privacy number one priority would highly appreciate could tell wish search engines would better of thanks ,0 +one awkward situations happened yesterday eating lunch family eating usually speaker on random playlist song earthhttpsyoutubepvun_wvfto came on sat silence struggled laugh pig bit came,0 +main character whatever im calling game ampxb httpspreviewredditowtzjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfbdcfceaccdaba httpspreviewredditvassytzjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffecffba,0 +falcon snowman true story two collegeage rich kids la become spies soviet union one played penn already drug smuggler eyeballs trouble other played hutton lands position aerospace firm job man topsecret cable facility learns dirty tricks employed cia foreigners america like forget movie set early s time vietnam watergate appalled hes learned hutton character decides betray country convinces buddy join him neither long brains long theyre way heads way outbr br this thriller rather slowly paced problem you well worth rental,0 +suicidal thoughts please watch video kill hi guys ledgeedge please watch wish someone told please share someone needs help area httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuexnltqqyhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvuexnltqqy,1 +saw film toronto international film festival la pianiste reinforces austriansgrim thesis im formulating isabelle huppert welldeserved best actress award cannes portrayal woman who efforts attain artistic ideal loses humanity trapped talent suppresses emotions sexuality expressed twisted terrifying ways younger student falls love her hopes rise soon dashed realization cannot experience love way others can late her films final harrowing minutes are tellingly devoid beautiful music carried first minutes message seems music enough without life beauty describing,0 +turned its miracle still alive considering ive long depressed thought redflag progress think went worse every single fucking day worthless uthankful piece shit make everything worse hope die car accident something today always,1 +see point anymoreno love family real love anymore daily explosive arguments friends gone nobody actually cares keep thinking keep thinking alone am keep thinking fucking easy would get rid free immense seemingly neverending bullshit pain started hitting walls room stabbing them breaking hands them im hitting myself know matter time something pushes edge give in need freedom killing,1 +someone talk mthis let anyone know im need someone talk to whenever one deserves alone,1 +method im almost readyive decided method im finally ready ill go pharmacy buy bottle insulin inject hundred units ill go hypo never wake up completely painless ive already accidental went hypo before life completely went shit ive lost everything past months think redflag basically every minute every day wish way wish could live life had go back time thats going happen time coming soon,1 +friend gets ass pics girlfriend im struggling make friend thats girl im fucking ugly worthless man,0 +walking cavemen hosted alec baldwin look back hominid thats us species past million years were like died out along interesting scientific look information species walking cavemen also examines makes us human waited several weeks watch this disappointed,0 +long time seen good fantasy movie magic fights even better lotr even considering movie computer special effects movie good plot good acting interesting ideas recommend everybody see it,0 +cannot decide whenmy parents visiting right now wait till friday want husband love thing stops going thinking upset hed be cant hold longer month two now every night close eyes think hanging rope thought soothes lot pain gone wish way reboot myself isnt strength live everyday force wake up get ready go work come back home try live routine life work think alive anymore helps lot solution see ceasing exist begged support difficult taken seriously pretend everything fine externally yearned feeling wanted needed life maybe oversensitive wanted months till time tough love jokes happy around words everyday much mean him fantasize fatal car accident without hurting anyone else course one needs know killed myself easier everyone get it cannot strong anymore sure do it waiting till friday seems impossible now,1 +efforts new group young talent bolstered alan rickman emma thompson extremely gifted actors makes thrilling engrossing evening entertainment might add hal holbrook shines senator movie deserves five stars give ten scale ending perfect constantly amazed ability british actors master american accents convinced actors born louisiana finer locale mystery new orleans big easy also known crescent city permeates every scene writer director sebastian gutierrez deserves high praise,0 +elon musk gives chance move mars but you leave whole family behind probably going back earth stay back take leap,0 +poison wayi feel control feel calm,1 +unfortunately one people thinks death lot weather hands multiple instances varying degrees possibility matter attached detached reality are come find feeling numb perhaps merely trying trick thinking ameither way known afraid deathhowever id like think stronger suicide like think hold world refuse allow kill me truly wants dead dirty work itself save ultimatum actual emergency either save another save completely bleak situation yet time like hypocrite say fully peace unknown death unknown life shakes core still young getting sense world learned far scared hopefully shocked amazed frightened beginning see small everything yet large things appear even little thoughtless actions massive consequences present unknowable future know doexcept always done run hide watch distance talking ghost people never met notes screens light half time freeze that sit hole survive spectate never truly live interact tired know blame world given others actions much many things could done differently honest response scaredand know be want kill sure live,1 +movie amazing funny sexy violent sick holds together brilliant troma rendition romeo juliet mind grossed bit ok lot funny grossed out see movie worth ittheres one level deliver ive seen thrice now still amazing recommend it go get it,0 +eligible old bs also tadd following trends,0 +dad saw google history fuck man watched weird things im gonna get beaten tonight fuck,0 +cant choose die instantlyive depressed edge huge amount time wanted know redflag cant easier hang shoot myself cant snap fingers gone honestly designed shit want finished done life,1 +positivityim feeling low know others well thought id let guys know hope well lets get together wanna send little positivity out love guys lets strong,1 +join subreddit rdogeprime subreddit,0 +whatever happened baby nut got planters ad old mascot happened baby nut never really cared hes fucking pea still anyone know,0 +yall mfs never catch sayinf ever life kinda want baby noooooo want kids ever want kids saw rly cute tik tok today i want baby wahhh helpppp yes im tipsy mind ur business,0 +everything nothingi know begin one could put life table like photoreel might make sense someone got here maybe even id see iit went wrong im depressed credible reason poverty divorce struggle loss etc depression pitiful result privilege laziness perhaps even intelligence time things going well creating music writing fucking reading sleeping exercising socializing etc dying inside everyday another part soul crumbles ash making things pull hole impossible accomplish want things want make money properly want find love loved ive spoiled easy sex beautiful women easy money seems flow faster squander trips shows alcohol blah artistic bullshitthreshold far acute allow create anything anymore things previously could pull depression longer me love dead remember feeling touching womans hand wanting forever even think feel anymore crippling money family money past projects nothing funnel week excursions europe end back home depression meant something something earth brain deserves put work heart deserves loved understand things cant seem anything it gets harder everyday everyone seems find easy wake up latch warm member opposite sex find shitty career get married annoying kids simply spoiledto deathand killing slowly nothing good enough anymore night put jeep th gear gunned hollywood blvd going drive hit wall people crossed street stopped saw little girl holden caulfield moment may saved life realized cant bring kill myself exgirlfriends lives would shattered know want back i deserve it meaningful thing left life taking care poor girls probably depressed paralyzed inside parents would blame themselves brother probably even reason depressed looks greatly would crushed might even commit redflag himself theres way it get tears thinking collateral damage all theres justification living life like everyday goes nowhere thats left passively experience artmedia created people bang exgirlfriends could care less me maybe watch sports teams perform decided ever really feel like ending life going spend time snowboarding surfing friends first since know things cheer up also recognize escapism cant always me fine now spare hotlines plz its want figure thing out,1 +planning unexpected breaki lot redflag contemplation recently came way escape system loop everyday life weeks parents go weekends often weeks preparing moment loneliness head miles around bottles water lot food disused quarrywith tent stay weeks day go walking running working writing latest book this im sureits definitely going happen maybe ill go weeks school break july either way im going staying ill leave note know committed redflag murdered something reason this gets away suffering modern society endless loop misery brings natural world away modern horrors something seek even short amount time post go explain went,1 +im bored ask random shit eat frosting donuts,0 +hate muchi keep trying things keep trying meet people cannot find anyone anything common withampxbthe answer proper human answer change fit everyone else cannot that cannot lie myself maybe autistici years old one ever seen sexually feel like everyone known would laugh idea anyone ever love me have also never met anyone attracted to like mean yeah high standards live standards wrong want spend time someone else works hard towards standardsvaluesampxbbut feel like one ever accept virgin care sexpositivity lgbtetc things things like i pansexual feel like would seen legitimate would laughed room trashed never actually anyoneampxbjust friends missing essential nutrient cannot function amount pushing get going make that ampxband limitampxbi want seen want acknowledged person want exist want actually exist feel like exist one notices me ampxbjust ignored hurts need friendsampxbif died today one would even know like literally single person anywhere would miss me never going friends personal connections people,1 +hello europeans non americans americans sleep super late anyone whos discord server tryna get ppl around world cuz theyre europeans non americans want ppl chat dm linkk d,0 +low key feel like could get though im way outta league feel like kind connection tho ill still wait,0 +phoned actual therapist mostly sat alone chained smoked someone talked tried nice polite simply reminded evidence showed would possible september acting could fuck up left well pretending hopefulness feel everyones well wishes return tomorrow disability paying ride taking train first time really wonderful place,1 +universe cruel uncaring void key happy search meaning keep busy unimportant nonsense eventually dead ,0 +survivedyesterday made post jump ft cliff near house shortly posted remember saying goodbye world slowly falling forwards cliff next thing knew someone found brought hospital gashes body multiple broken bones im still complete shock cant believe made alive much impact body nurses said completely unconscious took hospital maybe something caught falling anyways guess time go im really glad go also cant believe much support got guys previous post feel extremely loved thanks guys support im sorry leave worried me and completely understand extremely mad me know im now im going anywhere,1 +thoughts ed sheeran follow fan accounts hate accounts idk,0 +im straight vibing seasons change love went cold feed flame cause cant let go run away were running circles,0 +never rickrolled thats it thats all im proud,0 +im year old loserim reason completely unable hold job heres story every since sister moved back home town time ive nieces babysitter hours used babysit went work college adhd completely unable focus anything school little complicated sister moved back hometown well nephews babysitter eventually moved sister babysat everyday fun friend lived road babysat would go hangout mind still job ive ever kept babysitting turned started looking jobs id stay places months quit well getting paycheck bucks fucking stupid went back school finished highschool went work shop worked months am pm eventually getting fired working fast enough ended working rd shift meijers moved sisters friends trailer park quit meijers months months later still jobless getting kicked trailer park slept park harsh winter burning stuff keep warm week two later mom found let move first months want get job getting completely absorbed anime staying till am watch read manga took temp jobs summer started quit one first day probably hundred degrees ended getting angry messing bad manager kept coming telling much money costing got fed left took another coffee factory work took another temp job factory actually kinda liked even though repetitive kinda boring liked got listen music temp service pay whole months asked yelled eventually quit took another temp job quit days kinda boring got yet another liked assignment ended leave took job painter like month something ended took job one moms friends ended ended getting job really cool factory people area refused train would throw bus constantly laught call idiot something right cousin also worked get trained area moved around areas bit ended back mine time got orders months early ended month co workers super happy ridicule began months finally got fed oh time trying get aparment friend quit everything got put hold eventually took two jobs speedway sams club weeks quit speedway cause sams better hours pay months later quit sams cause cut hours hours week took temp job step dads ship stay month two extremely boring kinda soul crushing jobless two months feeling like real piece shit buddy money saved appartment added since last job know whats wrong love work hated am till repetitive boring bullshit wish could suck stay place tell need year experience move different shop something seems piss make wanna place anymore guess maybe sometimes look people place years still get shitty pay get scarred get fuck outta soon possible anyway lately ive really depressed suicidal thoughts mind alot usual find looking around items around house could quickly mostly spend time inside head fantasize way wish life like gf trying cook dinner watching stupid shows netflix someone laugh smile joking around stupid settling someone come home lately feel like soul screaming someone let like itd happier makes sense cant really describe feeling know really smile anymore wanna sleep dream day fun anymore even hanging friends space dream used love driving around aimlessly listening new music anymore usually dream fantasy life lately putting gun head emptiness inside cant filled ive drinking keys taken away weekend openly talked crashing car tree kinda dont want live anymore already guess,1 +wish could stop everything momenti like feeling like this wish could go sleep never wake up im tired pretending happy everyone thinks im annoying honestly too im fucking boring person people hate around me wanna kill myself wanna stop everything know do people wanna around think im either annoying boring both feel like people wanna around anytime try talk people seem give fuck would they ever them even try best nice person everyone wants shut up im scared ill something ill regret like scream person really think them tell someone this start talking shit me im scared ill tell one good friends theyll start seeing differently wanna die want someone hug tell everythings gonna right without judging thinking im looking attention wanna die feel like options im scared people think depressed girl anytime try talk someone really want get know usually push away overthink fuck up want everything stop wanna kill myself might another option though anyone else feel like this im sorry needed rant,1 +astronaut steve west alex rebar comrades undertake space mission sees flying rings saturn comrades killed instantly would seem fact lucky ones steve returns earth constantly oozing mass humanoid pulp turns savage killer melting every step way tracked friend dr ted nelson burr debenningbr br this often uproariously funny enough absurd lines situations go around hard believe laughs unintentional seems kind goof lowbudget genre efforts s s such marvelously entertaining movie sequence nurse simply hilarious were even treated split screen sequence really add anything still gas watchbr br writer director william sachs deserves credit coming ingenious idea ultraslimy character memorable one indeed think pacing little off scenes like one elderly couple go little long ultimately delivers solid schlocky bmovie goods degree panache climax especially funbr br arlon obers music enjoyably shuddery yet also amusingly silly moments willy curtiss cinematography creates really great shots times brings rick bakers fantastic convincing makeup effects form highly respectable centerpiece movie right ultimate final meltbr br rebar heavy makeup almost entire movie sachs also gets praise movie hit ground running well enough debenning makes rather oafish silly hero ann sweeney hot either wife myron healey michael alldredge lisle wilson fine support also worth see folk like cheryl rainbeaux smith doing appreciable topless shot janus blythe of tobe hoopers eaten alive wes cravens the hills eyes even director jonathan demme bit partbr br this highly entertaining midnight movie enough gore chills laughs rate worth catching lovers lowgrade scifi horror everywherebr br ,0 +goals literally thing want do kill myself i,1 +feel like need diei messed much life despite long ive lazy ive lied time face think better kill face whatever coming,1 +suicide sounds pretty fucking awesome literally nothing going wondering anyone knows anything could help stop really fucking close idk anything worked anyone avoid,1 +know nobody cares butmy birthday another two days want around anymore ive turned passively thinking redflag actively trying die,1 +im donei feel tired hopeless even slightest reason live im escaping pain over everything breaking life lasts two months im tired feel like cant go futher pointless im tired past fucked up present fucked future fucked up ive also fucked every possible relation anybody one believes nobody realizes close death actually is makes wanna redflag even more prove everyone joking all also get relief,1 +logged snapchat see lad saying girls sexually assaulted deserve leading men literally asleep,0 +yall pray friend nothings wrong him hes idiot,0 +think go onfirst sorry english im fluent im diagnosed ocd always shy child friends growing up knowing science history observing actual world society getting lonely feeling belong world since remember hated myself always thinking worthless unwanted anyone first girl could get life s smashed feelings suffered lot this reinforcing i wish dead feelings ive always had last year diagnosed ocd months thinking depression instead took daily medications ocd finally forgot girl year years suffering her all obsessive passionlove her im getting symptoms depression aside ones ive already had im sorry really hard keep thoughs tell right always though wish dead sometimes kill myself ive never courage myself side job im college was studying electrical engineering quited like almost everything simply cannot think anything future single career yeah ocd probably depression loneliness selfhatred almost friends disdain mankind hope future career dismay anything ive enjoyed courage end alone know anymore cannot stand pain,1 +im sorry cant anymore nobody cares wish died tried last year im gonna tonighti cant keep this im intense pain preventing even reaching anything tried externalize things tried see could make happy making people happy started youtube channel started writing drawing people according people channel crap writing good im good nothing waste space then tried push day even unhappy nobody cares gone nothing would change nothing would fucking change everybody would love like normal effect anybodys life cant even make ripple anybodys life got torn apart yesterday im creating people reddit nothing create good seems nothing good nobody cares me today im going commit redflag im going finally get something right death want die tonight nobody care life go normal kill tonight,1 +caught film late sat night sunday morning brother drinking one best films ripping apart ever seen luxury ocean liner actually roll on roll off ferry complete cast iron everything doors adhesive stickers saying staff seeing door used something else another scene film rocks continuity poor cant help notice it slaps face holes final scene jumps life boat ferry distance cut son new girlfriend the ships pr director knows kungfu used police dismissed things way trueon ferry going fast away explosion then dad hugging them how cares magic one redeeming feature film casino size large bedroom one casino table chased villains one place hide guessed it enter villains who instead checking one table proceed shoot four fruit machines little corner bar a corner bar casino fantastic walk straight past hiding place thus allowing casper get around take outbr br get mates over get drinks in put film howl,0 +sometimes regret killing youngerive depressed seriously long time always thought itd get better instead gets worse wish wouldve ended high school friends give shit years since high school ive managed get worthless degree girlfriend toxic rejected least times ghosted friends countless times im nothing worthless piece shit take hint decade ago suffered it im ugly make family stupid help surrounded friends family care makes feel worse wish theyd let end it,1 +ive really enjoyed adaptation emmai seen many times always looking forward seeing againthough lasts minutes novel plot subplots developed satisfactory way characters wellportrayed dialogues come directly novel silly jokes added emma thompsons sense sensibilitybr br as foreigner particularly appreciate perfect diction actors setting costumes beautiful find version quite par miniseries pride prejudice producer screenwriter same kate beckinsale really good job portraying emma jane austen said would create heroin noone would love snobbish enough youth inexperience still likable mark strong also good portraying mr knightley easy part think though charisma shown colin firths mr darcy pride prejudice even end scene the harvest festival happen novel provides fitting end except shows emma cold almost unpleasant frank churchill whereas novel thoroughly reconciled him even telling would enjoyed duplicity situation strange departure faithfulness otherwise shown throughout film find costumes beautiful elaborate adaptations jane austens novels,0 +hate wholesome posts get loads awardsthey already got happiness event increase meanwhile award sad persons post make happy,1 +something wrong lost virginity didnt feel good thought would went minutes whole time waiting over felt worse masturbait problem,0 +love guys yes thats thanks,0 +wanna end for stupid reason ever,1 +dont know doi found something yesterday ive never felt way ive always struggled anxiety depression addition ocd ptsd feel like need cut skin feel suffocated control im stuck work ,1 +welp im going bed ive gotta wake whatever need much sleep ill fine im hormonal imbalanced right im tired anything are gn ,0 +mom gives privacy ok come shower go upstairs room sometimes like go phone take breath get dressed again comes upstairs quickly barely time get dressed put pants underwear sit chair cause could hardly pull way likeis rosy out dog room could answer pushed door open looked keep mind im shirtless course dick thinks great time get boner said oh sorry walked out mustve looked bad reasons people invented knocking three minutes later comes reason check masturbating im glad wasnt want let room room,0 +feel anything anymorei used love care everything got hurt much used wish could like girls feel anything wish finally came true regret making wish feel anything everything feel somethingcutting smoking sex cannot feel anything anymorei numb cannot cry anymore feel emotionsi wake up work drinki wish could go back back could least feel something numb,1 +reason livethe thing anyone cares making sure people kill themselves even search reason live google get bunch redflag prevention sites redflag hotline numbers think mom could handle died reason im still congratulations google im going kill im still hating every second it reason care life minimum keep breathing make people happy im trying wait mom dies kill tgeres nothing wrong least another years im trying hard wait know years ive tried bunch different medications go therapy therapist tells still feel like shit absolutely reason believe things get better,1 +things say today smu vs tulane byu vs houston astros vs rays u all great day,0 +yay mi birthday really excited year kind sad thanks couldnt done without,0 +cant say embrace romantic comedy found little funny it find endearing entertaining heartwarming terminally sweet witty moments found bittersweet outright comedicbr br i liked one barrymore grown much actress always wonderful catch big screen translates well small screen too fact subsequent viewings like one morebr br if fan romantic comedy may bit put lack comedic effect one romance definitely foundbr br it rates frombr br the fiend ,0 +ive made mistake recently guilt mixing lot pressuresso goofed past weekend something im proud of friends mad me first time theyve seen moral lowest really feels ugly im super ashamed did regret it lifeline friends extremely pissed coupling pressure finals family drama create difficult whirlpool emotions me easily depressed ive while know outside continuing apologize ive done already,1 +hector hammond green lantern movieexcept dont phd tenure play chess i even play grand strategy wargame x games dumb end villainous life fear,1 +woke really happy finally managed tidy room felt nice waking clutter once thought getting better last weeks life improving love friends really sweet boyfriend year searching finally found jobbut crying brother shouting me everyday family make clearer respect human think family treat however want cannot wait leave moving september decided going limit much contact do parents controlling want call every night want visit every holiday happening done feeling guilty wanting cut ties w famuily make feel like shit crying right,1 +would like know anyone know get copy movie thats way world years since ive seen movie would like see again earth wind fire transcend nation globally inspirational music themes unfortunate group take like counterparts early s previously stated racial tension existed united states prohibited equalized exposure african american musical groups good see earth wind fire continuing success would like add movie collection someone please help possible thank attention milton shaw,0 +prefer kissing girls wearing lip gloss girls without weird question im curious,0 +sheer quality performance theater absurd one hard compare anything else world melting early s film made perfect sense then still resonates george scott could never typecast,0 +going therapy making things worsethis great therapist listens hes thoughtful gives small manageable tasks never ever feel condescended minimized but feel worst validation world im things supposed help talk people make feel still horrible towards me what the fuck is wrong with this species fucking awful really are hate humanity ever cant take anymore,1 +curiosityive recently read dont hopeful future curious thats enough ive felt way long time however ive come realize im longer curious thirst knowledge whats come almost completely dissipated reason im still much like others dont want hurt family ive already found slowly cutting friends life think happen year dont set date yet disheartened feel now id still like read something good so made happy late proud calm etc thanks reading,1 +cant cope trust violatedcopied pasted another group since really need advice recently mental health admittedly taken downturn honest friends feeling taking steps work depression anxiety suicidal thoughts pace people knowing conditions makes everything lot worse however put aside anxiety degree receiving online counselling appointment real life counselling spoken gp try medication progress slow progress today randomly got call social services apparently contacted referred several different organisations area never called tell complete stranger everything try make believe called truth essence trust completely violated completely uncomfortable everything mentally got whole lot worse turns called friends arranged behind back even though told want safeguarding call anyone me violated trust consent getting repeated calls different organisations making anxiety suicidial thoughts much worse getting help making path towards recovery recovery feels like halted get understand im human project want continue path understand okay violate consent like that want know get understand journey theres anyway cancel safeguarding knowing personal details got lying makes way anxious before phone calls make anxious anyway could coming anyone anytime not copied pasted mention reddit pages honestly made want end life more idea calls stop theres three far without consent much real issues triggers surrounding consent anyway tell going cant handle it feel like two friends betrayed me theres nothing do cant cope anymore medication makes want be happy even though fake im me happy person cant cry me fake want still even respect fake says,1 +nervousand restless anticipation inevitable demise drink quite heavily enough im actually surprised even years im physically dependant it death seemingly unknown ive heard must peaceful end chose here shall ultimately critique played game ill leaving coming weeks possibly months hopefully sooner still coming terms it everyone to die someday obviously ive decided go early,1 +dont know want helpi want kill fucking badly school daily stress overwhelming me im fuckjng ugly cant disappointment girlfriend one day im afraid like gfs gonna leave shes left apart two cats one likes really dont even think gf people swear finds annoying people go oh care dont kill yourself like sure makes wanna die dont know do one talk talk gf shell get upset me help please,1 +deer americans like legally able get pished ur rum tataty kareoke vrchat meeting cool german austrian also swede honestly voice fire fuck like yeah singer mans slayed love quality song mans hot absolute banger murican legal yeah sucks b u,0 +cant stop crying want overi depressed long remember getting worse last days find randomaly breaking crying alot redflag mind time isnt new thought years thinking more friends ever friends ever online grown real lives arnt computer anymore completely alone now used dog gave sense companionship gone cant get another one asexual virgin never date life never since interested men women live mother dont get along basically share interests ever ever talks tell something gets drunk yell me happens quite bit nothing far career prospects go education besides high school severe test anxiety tried take emr emergency medical responder studied well day day classes got mid term sorts froze flunked wasting feel alone cant stop crying want pain end dont feel like ever change hear bs dont see how pain years death would relief feel deserve,1 +inspirational tales triumph human spirit usually big turnoffs me surprising thing men honor much enjoyed spite myself movie predictable cliched gets works much credit goes exhilarating performances leads perfect role cuba gooding jr whos wonderfully restrained here come expect lot de niro disappoint creates darkly funny portrait director george tillman jr set make oldstyle flick comes winner,0 +know dohey ive struggling high functioning depression anxiety almost two years know started im guessing parents constantly fight dad extreme ocd add refuses go doctor get medication takes everyone else house know love sometimes cant dad constantly tells much disappointment nothing right mom better same feel told im going through believe im traditionally depressed would probably tell people worse need suck up many people days better others days im friends stuff enjoy better soon im home smallest thing happens want curl ball things enjoy painting horseback riding gaming sound engineering parents disapprove make fun about favorite thing job workintern audio engineer church services high school graduations etcetera feel like boss cares family parents christian im deist cant tell them things would different cant lose best friends feel place church even talking youth pastor nice lack faith best friends ever know nothing this family acts perfect seems perfect outside reason havnt ended want put family friends it cant take anymore im freshman hope future maybe time think done sorry rant tldr im high functioning depressive cant deal,1 +work financial problemsim chef fucking killing me cant even move parents house pay im married time end it sick tired life,1 +nobody caresi cant anymore young used fantasize mom realizing dad treated drunk angry shed hug tell deserve things thrown me called things called me threats hurt me way would eavesdrop spy make sure funding help friends didnt probably known life dumb notice care im fucking alone going summer selfharm year clean want continue another summer here want continue another summer,1 +im tiredeverything seems finally coming together feel empty good job money friends family means nothing me easily able pretend everyone fine im okay one knows really feel want die see point money is saving for nothing makes happy aspirations dreams future one person could tell everything to made feel alive gone love friends same right things keep busy eat healthily ive exercise interacting people im tired all im tired feeling awful time carry on,1 +borderline personality disorder lot trauma past big disappointment girl told this last ride enjoy till ends want feel end lot oxycodone right now either night another one ends wanted tell someone serious seek attention want someone know this want kill still gf ends now ends ,1 +days try one hardest days try try try positive healthy better end always backlash return end nothing find old chaotic times tired right cried long wish tried hard let day goes usually goes today tried hurts really hurting right despite even positive trying able achieve anything return got despair feel tired feel exhausted wish never tried much better aware aware emotions mind chaotic disturbing tired,1 +need couragei want dead never wake dont courage kill myself get courage actually kill myself,1 +got kiss girlfriend first time today literally shaking way home house excitement love god damn much,0 +boy boi one better boy boi,0 +citizen kanethe godfather part iidurville martins dolemite single greatest piece celluloid ever created unleashed upon humanity rudy ray moore role transcends academy awards stars dolemite baddest cat universe clearly take jive turkey i unfortunately turkey proves powers rapping pimping karate chopping blaxploitation absolute finest shining example genre low budget continuity errors hatred ratsoup eating honkey expletive expletive true godfather rap not new ali nonsense moore something juxtaposition acting technique somehow managing charismatic awful actor s thats saying something one highly recommended folks oneliners alone,0 + great say true year everyone thought gonna be said that declaring year matter life throws attack back double ferocity conquer me join declare year good things,0 +braids mom came room yell reasons minding business really stressful her get,0 +im gonna end myselfi share bit story might bit long skip end want explaining how born france village countryside mom dad big sis little bro me lived pretty normally friends relatively happy family little shit time always getting hurt stupid shit think it maybe parents thought autistic something always kinda special bit emotional maybe lets carry on th birthday moved place job issue issue make friends again im bit weird thats okay time goes pretty much peacefully house bit unhealthy always getting sick father built new house were moving out new house pretty clean cool and parents divorcing always remember moment two siblings mom dad yelling standing crying well something special lot couple getting divorced consider special case occurrence destroyed me think root mental state today like thought maybe bit emotional mom took us moved another village again seeing dad every two weeks told us dad one wanted divorce multiple times talking dad another school again something different hard keep classes hard time make friends im talking less less peoples nothing special part except two things bit lonely disgusting scutigera living house creeping out hate things finally turned time middle school collge france time make friends and good im even lonely im starting get bullied pretty clich right im weird kid talk much many friends kid nobody wanted team sports always getting trashtalked used it found pornmag ground time furious stroking great times im now highschool time yayyy shit before bully cool im moving dads appartment much closer moms house big sis moving too im now im getting degree baccalaureate im starting electricity technician formation im working gendarmerie the french countryside police force reservist getting bit money holidays im still technician formation there really anything big void want opinion shits going pretty quickly point turns mother cheated father father knew led divorce mother brainwashed siblings years father knew it know truth big sis lil bro believe it big sis confront father yells yells lot big sis packs belongings leave appartment never heard ever again dad saying big sis raped grandpa mother side little fuck going on lil bro attending school anymore hes still mother hostile relation father father going confront lil bro mother smell danger im going him mothers house lil bro pulled knife threatened father me saying things like fault shitty life things like that were leaving place im never going anymore hello depression old friend im tired shit im getting here im getting ground army forces months formation nice months formation sport coach break finger year rehabilitation im fired army going back fathers appartment working pretty far another appartment im alone year total solitude started take opiate medecine fun im bit alcoholic too severe depression suicidal thoughts everyday courage take action end rehabilitation fucking finally fuck ground forces im going air forces im going avionics mechanic job pretty cool bunch im fun formation easier ground forces thats good covidchan incoming months total isolation again days worsening dark thought wanna get up wanna see anybody wanna eat still gotta strong father sad end confinement going back base wanna this want end this getting month holiday weeks base hell going back appartment im tired give shit anymore ampxb ampxb next sentence end it im im tired really tired im alone want meet people anymore even father still make friends never grirlfriend still virgin state mental nothingness feel anything anymore even anger bit money im distributing bit random people without noticing aka mailboxes found random place far away people countryside im packing lot alcool gasoline go place im gonna drink till cant even think anything im gonna set car fire thats want finish let burn want disappear ampxb really badly written sorry like said could go end im still sure take action august thats sure ampxb thanks reading,1 +im going kill tomorrow wish lucknot say really ive crying last hours friends family sleeping want kill finals telling friend love him im sick fuck deserve live im also tired suffering im going kill tomorrow probably lot ibuprofen vodka wish luck guys,1 +spoilers spoilers without doubt best film rainer werner fassbinder ever made even marvelous script film enhanced great performance hanna schygulla film starts maria schygulla hermann braun klaus lowitsch getting married bombs continue fall hermann shipped towards waning days war maria mother sister must scrape survive maria decides get job dancerprostitute club caters american gis meets black army soldier named bill greg eagles start see one another steady basis maria hears husband hermann died war gets serious bill one day getting intimate bill see hermann door died enters room scuffle occurs maria breaks bottle bills head dies hermann takes blame sentenced long term jail maria tells succeed something get out war ended germany must rebuild one day train maria meets karl oswald ivan desny successful businessman textiles uses charms get job maria determined well climbs corporate ladder becomes karls mistress tells never marry love her hermann gets jail goes canada try get everything maria done since locked upbr br spoiler alertbr br one day karl dies leaves maria everything maria buys house hermann finally comes home wife ready start theyre marriage even though married time now maria leaves gas stove house explodes still itbr br there many interesting things film one movies studied talked great lengths like fassbinder films use color used interesting way film begins tones brown gray represent war torn germany maria starts become successful change bright rich colors like red white rebuilding germany sounds construction used backdrop film stays focused exploits maria fassbinder want sounds rebuilding remind us going germany time hanna schygulla never better performance key success film lesser actress would another interesting film schygulla strong performance elevates film elite status schygulla shows maria determined smart time uses beauty femininity get wants embarrassed feel guilty fassbinder wanted show maria woman practically sells soul survive schygulla nominated academy award gave great performance stand test time fassbinder appears film peddler mother lilo pempeit plays frau ehmke heard many things ending film whether maria purposely left gas on later bathroom running water wrist appears sad speculation think im wrong please email me think overly excited hermann home left accident remember putting dress reason read point learns hermann karl become friendly without knowledge think felt everything done nothing thats reason bathroom scene house explodes accident think reason fassbinder ending like show anyone would sell soul business living fassbinder fascinated survivors also incredibly passionate view maria cant ways fascinating film,0 +cant talki cant talk im feeling fcking annoying like im illiterate something everytime start writing roffmychest whatever stupid communitywebsite feels like im fcking stupid cant helped cursed what,1 +im close done lifeit started relationship one exes bad verbally mentally emotionally physically abused me kicked me punched me slapped me throw things me relationship almost killed me th november first time tried kill myself rode dads bike mph head metal container flew meters merely cerebral contusion broken right leg broken right arm fast forward years broke happy couldnt live like anymore last year september met current girlfriend love life started well looked stuff past also bad ex obssessive facebook posted stuff forgot those got pissed still there time passed good moved australia weeks ago dont kill ill late june said shes bad making girl friends understood asked shes okay bringing guys house chill her she got stuck balcony guy found days shes drinking dudes hanging them house house too said topic isnt good talk says ruin vibes ask talk feel like burden cause stress it everytime talk ask gets mad me asked break see ig stories guys post pic boxers underwear snapchat caption up cant take pain said ly thing cause stress pain never done anything good life want kill myself cant take much longer miss much love im willing kill make happy means happy ill anything ill die,1 +hitchcock gave interview said like direct screenplays ordinary person minding business whos accidentally caught awful chain events cant get dastardly plot thats behind troubles resolved way audience feel sympathy hero certainly fine film barry kane trying help fellowman performing acts kindness consideration like helping fry pick letters dropped factory barry even returns lost bill fry later onthat big money barrys acts christian kindness get trouble soon hes wrongly accused sabotage murder likely hang cant clear himself similar steps plot hero travels crosscountry discovers plans acts terrorism fascisistic cells archvillain nobody could believe closetnazi beautiful blonde patricia martin first suspects hates eventually falls love barry kane hitchs trademark touches humor here too patricia billboard model whos various roadside ads help comfort barry hitches ride bad guys way las vegas nyc meet trucker whos oneman comedy act someone convinced wife stylish eat three meals day field employees fascist spy ring grouse forgotten ignored suits working legit enterprise chase scene cinema audience members laugh action schlocky comedygangster flick saboteur cell shoots real good guys accidentially kills guffawing moviepatron awful dead old man funny hitch liked use famous monuments movies best instance statue liberty backdrop ironic icon works even better mt rushmore scene nbnw,0 +another suicidal posthello guys im early s finishing one typical schools country two reasons im writing this dissatisfaction life existencial crisis that let explain deeply real friends gf wanted girlfriend long time feeling loneliness desire loved someone frustrating so problems making connections women so thats selfimage really ok right little bit better hobbies connected computers programming gaming also enjoyed reading books any sometimes try read something really difficult finish book right know fact leave home couldt find person talk something interesting started feel really bad making questions like whats point existence order happy need do following twothree years trying find answers im convinced meaning all were animals without purpose point know create meaning myself work like that cannot create something nothing illusions cannot tried failed cannot try anymore want enter university want earn two dollar hour hard work shitty mcdonalds similar company suicidal attempts pushed harder should afraid heights pain on hard finish im thinking of care anyone like anyone depression cure laziness lack motivation reasons wake morning nothing makes feel good feel anything all expect anyone give right advice ive read many posts topics cant help tell anything know shitty situation serious problems memory focussing things alcohol amp stuff made situation worse sorry mistakes,1 +every time go kill myself psychosis scares awayto start off psychosis sometimes feel presence dark like feeling terror heart tells person blackness going stab death big knife also terrified security cameras apart that completely delusional sometimes get sad go somewhere kill myself feel like completely destroy body brain otherwise agents come reconstruct put use go top multifloor car park go bridge train tracks every time go two places kill myself become terrified someone dark see security camera following walk not sure hallucination become terrified run away think is coincidence think so feel like upset live maybe stress triggers psychosis edit think security cameras actually following me cctv cameras motion tracking right idea seeing things,1 +saw movie years ago subject still infuriates me should anger initiative inspiring would takeover army kill people scene well rebel strong hold never leave mind great film prepared strong subject matter,0 +come hang out play games hey guys friend created discord server meet new people play games with play mainly minecraft maybe among us want find new friends chat daily youre interested dm me,0 +think might answer homework whole night ill finish work early due weeks now goodbye,0 +real relationship yearsi relationship years rejected times month point know never person come home to one ask day was one hold night want basic human contact want cuddle want look deep someones eyes know love me want look eyes let souls talk other know go anymore loneliness going kill me almost ended life times last months time interrupted malfunction sort im afraid might succeed want live loneliness rest life ill end first help me,1 +genuine questions would like opinion multiple peopleim debating killing soon another choice break someone kill myself bad write redflag note one specific got boyfriend almost years write person im contact note know im close enough someone include note,1 +posting get gf day filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +redflag worth itii dont really wanna get problems dont feel like life worth living more usual guess im live turkey ive felt like years ive anger issues since kid ive scared years might kill anger attack something recently though ive thinking redflag calm methodic kind way im really scared right dont know want die yet like fuck yeah life meaningless meaning try give doesnt seem genuine dont think ill ever happy modern society wanted ask redflag worth it obviously guys say nooo dont kill theres much live whats point nothing changes live die maybe cat would miss family would sad friends would clueless actually one would know dont feel like strength keep living seek professional help dont know im scared death feel like death would better living rest ofmy life,1 +im losing itmy fianc left thing world me want feel pain anymore,1 +please help mei want die hate fucking self sleep the peace livingg hell terrifying dreams dying terrible ways want torture end please,1 +join please would quest formless entities ill bring snacks,0 +cant anymoreevery action take trap behind it cant anything even self pity god make looking love raped cant breathe move family done hrs without sleep cant eat guys dont want die,1 +left today taking everything stay alivei toxic one sided relationship til now time gaslighted constantly walking eggshells dealing severe anxiety ive past decade told wanted marry me wanted kids etc right told wasnt working sex makes feel even used know people say isnt good enough reason feel suicidal everyone goes this ive crying drinking day nobody awake im afraid sleep dream wake feeling anxious throw up,1 +need help listened pekoras aquas bgm like minutes im pretty sure brain melted,0 +know whats one best parts autism get say youre autistic actually autism,0 +im afraid im going end one dayive plan killing anytime soon but im afraid im going point ive highs lows throughtout life cannot take anxiety depression longer hate way makes feel im afraid alone idea im left alone nothing one hang with feel unwanted also overthink like crazy end anxiety attack like theres always something mind insignificant distracting things actually matter life im sick tired use drugs escape feeling mean shit im practically killing already amount ive done dont know anymore im tired feeling always coming back reason dont want end things im starting college end august moving completely new location hopefully make new friends,1 +hate every single person everything irritates me want die belong stupid broken worldi fucking hate everything hate life hate work survive hate every classmate sometimes pretend everything fine go happy mode anything productive klinifelter likely autism never express feelings anyone even really want to think im fucking joking normally im happy always laughing making jokes bipolar disorder too nice else have im typing everything comes mind post feel happy content hours good conversation relationship someone rare im fucking unlikable whole class going somewhere everyone pairs im always alone one why im unlikable always talk garbage im anxious always regret everything ive said time think iti think couldve made sound stupid ive tried ignoring everything going flow trying best happy things would enjoy worked while stopped homework lost personality nobody old middle school class likes anymore fucking hate society everything hands nope everything decided chose would born choose family choose kindergarden choose anything would part mental developent personality everything decided anyways fucking hate fucking phone restarts every min feel like would torture alive wish everyone could read mind without trying hard fail misrably express emotion thoughs enjoy anything anymore want play video games anymore want study anymore even dreams wishes anymore wouldve ended could find open roof keep going tthe flow hoping win lottery find someone right me chance cant bring change get happy life working hard,1 +life goal sit room realize life thought passes mind life short want smoke blunt monkey want life probably good years left life least time want smoke monkey thats it chimp little capuchin something like thats it blunt monkey anyone else shares one aspiration,0 +almost got arrested im gonna kill myselfhi im jasmine im years old random old guy screaming today friends tried break abandoned house told im worthless piece shit already crippling depression confirmed everything didnt even fucking try something illegal trying get old house cops showed door im gonna kill self prove point like stubborn asshole am ive tried say goodbye friends one responded messages im worthless yep gonna draw bath slit wrists it bye,1 +im donethe light life burned longer desire continue existing ive tried never successful hope months pass body gives become successful always wish last sleep every night,1 +we strongly emphasize images included extremely graphic suiciderelated images people may feel images disturbing may find triggering information collected kept anonymous,1 +back even though feels like never lefti spent today like ive spent last three days bed thought dog pissed somewhere room morning realized sweaty sheets must smell like sewer academically im mediocre barely scraping by im completely disinterested everything university im deep debt doesnt matter point nothing years now unthinkable last summer cheated girlfriend found earlier week still together hasnt spoken couple days ive agreed relationship counseling dont know itll help anything judge want spend every minute im awake punishing anyway realize ever insufferable live ive alienated friends couple affair with mostly keep myself think time either leave us kill myself ive hurt many people including loved most im monster,1 +heres image mohammed httpswebarchiveorgwebhttpiimgurcomdfoppng,0 +cant find anything live anymoremy depression past months brought new low longer motivated work study order make extra income also sticking around take care mother care either im here family pick slack remember much case memory gone pieces know would sad cant bring care never listens believes me one family does yet ive proven logical one friends never around im crisis talk help give opinion i ask it tell alright thing keeping distracted lately new guy ignores nowadays hes busy apparently deserve here im probably alone long everyone picked im nut job hate life,1 +practices deter support thoughts redflagredflag mind decade getting tougher gobbledygook nowadays keep mind it ive trying better trying stay away substances gradually dependent them im hurting really bad right mentally hope receive help open ear vent get feedback much live strive ive told im starting think im mentally strong thought im tired dont want pursue anything life feels like cant exercise anymore atm get peace life personal things rather mention might place ask advice help im sure else turn turn guidance,1 +need advice trying make things worseive given worthless life accepted things never get better trying make things worse drive redflag think much worse could make life,1 +im scaredwhy cant get right im scared im really scared im gonna harm way cant come back from schools fine decent grades family loves want end bad fucking bad im scared im gonna something able regret,1 +dad moving soon wow ive never though would ever write im bawling eyes out im bodybuilder probably last person youd expect bawl eyes out years house dad moving another house across town dont know holds future anyone tips help keep sane dont know do,0 +hospital work im tired missed finals missing assignments im tiredhavent active last days made and failed redflag attempt tried distracting worked forna nothing sticking im tired,1 +killed upper middle class professional class background failedi fallout middle class least end poor feel bad anymore struggled life despite born privilege feel guilty that awful person wish someone else born privilege say since upper middle class people fear poverty experience succeed much parents thing fear poverty nothing positive me matter still want die sill find difficult workfocus anything way life killed life privileges transferred someone else,1 +wasted life getting useless doctoratei made huge mistake following dream orchestral musician graduated recently doctorate twelve years schooling life guaranteed get worse skills little application outside concert hall cant teach music silly required pay grades people doctoral degrees im trying hand basic physics course prerequisites theres reason able tackle this yet right average might somewhere mid fifties ive accepted fact life going nowhere misery consumes unbearable unwavering every time drive walk bridge think much better id dead seconds fear over financial burden ive placed parents unconscionable chase silly non goal might leave people behind devastated long term better,1 +people strangers friends made smile thank you mostly know know either moments tons them year inspired me motivated me made smile happy stuff happening year year crazy one thing happening another i well easily influenced stuff overall mood people hanged bad tend gloomy time whole month lockdown nothing except eat study school youtube hearing people subreddit others helped realise could made stop thinking do posts rants others pictures still help meso basically trying say thanks lot everyone tldr thanks unknowingly help teenage boy smile tough times usually complemented smile always face time guys put there also merry christmas thought best time post this,0 +reject someone nicely im already dating someone lately ive notice girl class crushing pretty hard im pretty sure going ask pretty soon im already pretty serious relationship want know tell girl im interested hurting her advice,0 +always controversial movies like mixed reviews either love hate it everyone like movie shows perspective killers something personally feel something important consider may hate them may claim understand feel though relate regardless movie make think school shootings different perspectivebr br the movie shot entirely using handheld camera something think works quite well makes realistic told completely killers point view missions family outings leading big day zero day planning massacre school zero day offer answers merely presents glimpse lives two troubled young boys lets audience decide themselves feelings towards boys something mixed sympathy hatred yet left confused two ordinary young boys would thing shown surprisingly normal typical teenage boys leading ordinary lives know planning expect thing they make clear throughout whole movie noone else knows planbr br the acting extremely good considering two actors complete unknowns hope see work future despite fictionalized movie one cannot help notice obvious similarities columbine calvin andre scarily similar eric harris dylan klebold not much looks manner someone researched columbine extensively could see similarities almost certainly based it br br the actual massacre shown surveillance cameras school one chilling things ever seen completely shock seeing it feeling stays around while realistic welldone difficult watchbr br all zero day excellent movie think everyone least check out past always simply branded killers psychopaths assumed either biologically wired disaster media influence zero day shows sometimes motives deeper that never truly understand tragedies school shootings happen seen perspective killers,0 +dont know anymorei feel like havent able properly vent anyone goes next month would yr anniversary wife long story short fucked up something could honestly fix willing work me believes ill stay piece shit didnt cheat anything like that dont want go details doesnt want everything me even kids together makes way feel even worse love wife kids death dont want leave them every single day feels much harder last almost like whole relationship meaningless her even got together ready throw life away feel much worse now,1 +im verge it good luck trying convince iti planned redflag hours feel free try convince highly doubt can,1 +need people talk to ps im high hell might od fronta you wanna help yall im fucked hmuhit looser lmao fuck me ever deserve this h self like legit pleasetake aeay god nanugrandpa daddy im sorry yoy got sepsis possible sepsis dont know im finna live without you grandson ishaan here loves you youre like daddy maybe youre daddyno incest loves failed yes failed nanu failed bad sick year one raised me everything mama nanigrandma struggling aswell im sorry im yo fuck up health went hill year id kever thought id see nanu like this sorry im alpraxz drank booze aswell im low imma kill self soon tho knoe failed nanu ishaan failed failed hard wish son instead mama daddybastard never there nanu youre nos youre old now im proud grandson grandson army officer ill kill vv soon deserve know forgive im crying grandma tough hospital wyou ill die dw soon infact today need mgs juxssss ,1 +oh gosh live kentucky mellisa joan hart came louisville went right neighborhood waved filthy rich wanted look neighborhood oh love rich ways came derby back interest show show makes want point finger something make disappear mean creative love would love show show amazing mean ever came show want give big kiss mean makes feel better im sick makes happy im mad mean someone tells like talk sense ok ok,0 +god fucking hate highschool im last year worst years life litle bit difrente person screwed relate ,0 +dont think possible healthy relationship tbh dont let stop getting filler,0 +give upnot going kill myself think im done living cant motivate anything beneficial life anymore schoolwork working out may even make term care anymore amount help counseling seems changing that,1 +yes ultralow budget movie acting award winning material times action slowpaced filmmakers shooting longer sequences million instants get edited movie film makes outstanding script takes vampirism seriously explains develops full plot it aside vampire story get detailed genetics info legal law enforcement martial arts action philosophical musings good metal music kudos go dylan oleary directorwritermain actor beyond man could fulfilled roles well think appreciate movie wellversed sorts themes see writer lot research knows things great camera work too interesting camera angles one underwater vampire attack something seen before pays homage underwater zombie attack fulcis zombi casting good far sexy female sexy indeed main vampire also looks perfect role female victim looks vulnerable complaint low budget horror flick nudity want see original vampire movie great story flick you im looking forward seeing future projects mr oleary,0 +fuck may becoming little libertarian called friend statist wanting legalize drugs aside weed,0 +please comment whatever want want feel popular,0 +thoroughly enjoyed movie genuine sincerity acting writing topnotch james arness great actor showed here brian keith old davy crockett anyone really play davy fess parkerbr br another great actor move raul julia gave depth santa anna vain complex person led mexico turbulent timesbr br while may think movie slowpaced captured battle unfolded lots tedium followed couple hours horrific terrorbr br what impressed movie made think cause people willing die believe in day age nobody stands anything found refreshing think time people died freedom matter may feel politics time,0 +childhood friend died cancer knew kindergarten went primary school did name jette died cancer end st grade close always supressed sadness comes up ill stop rant surely something better read post,0 +crazy people actually enjoy life arent suicidalhow,1 +disappointed decided goto park close nanas little cousins watch thought hell get climb tree minutes later girl age little sister brother around age i think well walked made joke gonna walk away ended staying attempted talk me got shy didnt really say much back telling went school started pay attention later girl kept looking whenever looked phone thought talk kept getting scared eventually left never got attempt conversation her even though didnt know kinda started like her sitting bed am asleep nonstop thinking her,0 +boyfriends brother covid hung two days ago im really nervous might it ill quarantining obviously im nervous gave brothers parents parents gotten vaccine mom heart problem likely able survive live died im scared,0 +crossfire remembered much fact three stars first name robert one first hollywood films deal antisemitismbr br the story opens murder silhouette man later learn jewish man named joseph samuels sam levene pipe smoking police captain finlay robert young assigned case exsoldier montgomery robert ryan comes upon murder scene learn flashback met samuels bar along soldiers process mustered service following wwiibr br according montgomery pal floyd bowers steve brodie followed samuels cpl arthur mitchell george cooper samuels apartment drinks montgomery tells finlay mitchell left apartment first floyd followed soon samuels still alive wellbr br unable locate mitchell finlay suspects murder enlists sgt peter keeley robert mitchum help locate mitchell mitchell meanwhile wondering streets dazed state meets prostitute ginny gloria grahame bar strikes friendship gives key apartment goes rest unexpectedly man paul kelly turns looking ginny mitchell still daze leaves goes back meet keeley pals keeley manages keep police hides night movie housebr br from mitchells perspective learn montgomery hates jews probably killer finlay begins focus investigation montgomery trying prove guilt arrangers one soldiers kid named leroy william phipps set trap mongomerybr br crossfire considered one best film noire genre fact garnered several academy award nominations including ryan grahame best supporting actors made modest budget three weeksbr br it elements classic film noire shadows low key lighting story playing mostly night requisite femme fatale piece grahames ginny plays minor role nonetheless classic femme fatale unnamed character played paul kelly in excellent bit chewed spit ginny mitchellbr br robert ryan steals picture brutal montgomery although would type cast similar roles years come robert young makes good low key detective robert mitchum little befriend mitchell character others cast jacqueline white mitchells wife lex barker who would go following year play tarzan one mitchums soldier pals richard powers who previously known tom keene finlays assistantbr br director edward dmytryk would shortly run afoul house unamerican committee communist affiliations spend couple years jail,0 +weird feels weird theres girl ive while lets call simplicitys sake ask said shed think itok big deal weeks said shed think realized super close dating change anything us would really lead breakup month finally answer felt way decided stay friends thing is go places together couple shit even though were together im friend upset nothing would change dating except fact wed dating already treat like would together wondering situation seemed odd anyone,0 +idk anymorei feel like much yet enough work hard every day literally anything could possibly want yet feel like isnt enough despite working hours day feel like could productive theres many things id love cant seem find motivation therefore one holding back feel successful age want successful idk feel like everything great idk cant settle have idk burning desire even successful burning desire take everything next level yet hold back idk get around obstacle ive created feel stuck frozen,1 +escapei seriously cant stand experiencing this cant take anymore break give death know do really see redflag something inevitable,1 +whoever beautiful day happy birthday everyone birthday today stay hydrated hope everyone fine got,0 +aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa found pack open condoms parents dresser aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,0 +feel like lost myselfi wake wonder would happen died today bought enough paracetamol ibuprofen kill think use it even stash vodka hidden room note saying drink pills feel like getting life back track finally still want end all cant trust family cause overreact friends think taking piss do,1 +sitting living room listening acdc looking memes weeks school holidays ahead life good,0 +exsitance meme theory element culture system behaviour passed one individual another imitation nongenetic means image video piece text etc typically humorous nature copied spread rapidly internet users often slight variations theory everything meme evolved design one true original god created simplest materials elements concepts time space matter etc mind say anything evolved including life bit changed idea source creator everything immitaion slightly changed original passed humans living non living creatures ever would argue meme funny go look second definition meme says typically funny nature witch suggests exsitance unfunny memes to disprove memes spread trew internet take example inside jokes friends irl saying something specific way achieve funny effect ok gesture etc disprove idea meme something nongeneticwho decided bc understanding genetics precedes modern idea memes mean included new idea memes and even idea genetics precced memes disagree even names nongenetic idea example roman soldier years ago carved dicks near hadrian wall disproveinge genetics part meme definition lets take look genetics genetics study traits inherited trait defined variation physical appearance heritable characteristic seeks understand traits passed generation generation short cells decided continue meme living changing joke bit trew long periods time point theory prove limit meme know everything joke point going include religionafterlife idea point life come continue best fix memes good memelord afterlife get go back original creator live eternal peace ruining good memes depending much ruined go meme purgatory pay unfunny joke meme hell burn eternal fire destructive normie thanks reading,0 +told parents depressioni told parents believe depression go well dad told make choice world god although hed allow seek professional help going work theyll drug therapist much except sit around listen problems told solution best ignore feelings follow christ knows fact god real get worse realize it asked least loved myself lied told little said good would really serious hurt thing keeping going parents telling last resort also said fault feel way fault letting wanted to mom said youre gay you also asked suicidal thoughts lied told no thought could rely time need theyve failed me dont know keep going nothing close giving up,1 +ok yo drink me dated guy started drinking legal age ok really angry overprotective harsh controlling,0 +need talki planning kill right now best way back point last time close could jump down right need someone could talk via dm feel comfortable share whole situation,1 +deal severe depression proving treatment resistant past years rumination redflag totally control tried almost ssrisnris prozac second time antidepressants seemingly nothing me like said rumination redflag totally ruining life benzos thing help cannot prescribed daily use thinking asking doc trying mood stabilizer low dose antipsychotic need slow brain down maybe low dose seroquel would able accomplish that curious meds helped guys get rumination redflag control desperate find something slow thoughts ease redflag thanks help medication helped rumination,1 +im tiredim tired depressed anxiety im broken cant fixed im tired breathing im tired existing im getting better im getting worse cant stand constant weight mere existence,1 +redflag path better lifei know weird hear voices telling jump ceiling hole ground go everyone else already great there keep trying hold reality logic theyre constant im beginning feel might right im wasting someone elses time,1 +found one oldest cartoon video world httpsyoutuberugadnbubmhttpsyoutuberugadnbubm please see tell is,0 +lost hopehello apologize advance mistakes english native tongue sure writing here maybe always liked writing writing way express feelings maybe want someone read thinking even understand me think finally lost hope days ago drove high bridge night little traffic climbed small fence edge look darkness even see bottom jump scared scared die scared fall kill leave crippled already am lot experience hospitals want go back there written redflag note weeks ago put affairs order thought looking deciding jump would end it feel like going back there like inevitable years old first attempt redflag last attempt years ago thought sort thing turns not back started see reason go anymore feel little ashamed tell you survived stage cancer people dont tumors last couple years body looks like war zone asking even bothered put treatment all felt like hell earth feeling even worse want go anymore always one hopeless romantics feel one day meet the one like think fairly smart know silly thought is cant help it feel way maybe say felt met go way always hoped would go first woman ever fell love with idiot always thought would finally meet the one pieces would fall place nothing like that instead relationship pure torture maybe us first course got quickly devastated without hope probably think oh god another one got heart broken thinks world come end get yourself maybe right probably people far worse me change feel though never many friends always outcast used think enjoyed lonely almost given hope find someone met her total surprise could really love someone much kind contradicts statement romantic lonely entire life kind questioned would really find someone all know lost convinced nothing left world nothing good ever happens even find the one another way life kick nuts maybe first redflag attempt fail already hell things happened past years almost sure it guess find finally find courage jump,1 +tf coochie man siblings mentioning lot recently feel like old person coz dont know ya guys help out,0 +guess birthday win gold unlimited attempts delete mins one attempt per comment,0 +thoughts ramblingsnot really sure im writing this guess need get out probably ive never told anyone ive always hated things end without solid conclusion one kids obnoxiously talented time jr olympic team headed olympic team spent two summers training current olympic coach last student took retiring end second summer together told never trained someone reminded much himself compliment id ever heard give well school recruited several colleges life far perfect path achieving biggest dream shit fell apart almost death went numb kept going motions kept competing normally good grades became flawless felt dead inside one day like someone flipped switch every damn emotion id ever suppressed came flooding back vengeance fell hopeless depression getting bed became daily struggle went top five class almost failing school credit teachers everything could keep failing succeeded went top college nation sport although gave scholarship id quit sport struggled throughout first semester college end first semester healthy first time years healthy energetic happy vividly remember stringing lights onto christmas tree plugging wall flickered on like id colorblind suddenly could see again absolutely mesmerizing think one last happy memories have christmas went back second semester school things fine first month got deathly sick hospitalized degree fever strep mono three sinus infections that struggled rest semester ended failing classes mono stripped energy brought back depression worse before weight cycled completely emaciated slightly overweight either stuffing starving myself picked habit picking skin constantly covered scabs scars drank shameful things hid regret weeks afterwards managed finally fail properly sophomore year spiraling depths depression ive never since come up ive gone years numbness ive done cbt hypnotherapy tried every drug could throw me tried specialized diets ect even experimental drugs literally thousands dollars parents money wasted fruitless attempt make feel again im exhausted every part every day internal struggle body haggard breaking down ive slowly extracted every important relationship life could see pain causing around me stand it ive researched ways go plan least organs use people still see joy life deserve keep living wish it,1 +feels difficulti made decision point last years last day life would be less days left now much keep thinking maybe things finally changed havent im still weak exist sake financial security people still require me thing is even feel guilt suffer spike trauma feel like ive given raw deal something former would lie latter even know say to know is people heard plan die theyd simply think idiot maybe true never said wasnt snowball anything now ive let physically decay years hygine intolerably bad ive gone months sometimes even straight year without bathing dentist done anything teeth years theyre cracked yellowed likely beyond repair sleep little barely eat pretty much look like already dead nobody really questions it least me snowball moved idea death can turn around well late now truly consider voluntairly socially retarded im never learned drive attempted find girlfriend let alone lose virginity drink smoke hobbies outside home work pay bills current residence would times id ever bother leave basement suite anymore things myself completely aware that knew knew beyond anything would become anything right now so knowing good could come person like me never found go obtain them final year life right now day th birthday plan die times up point people believe ill around financially bolster themnot support bolster quite obviously capable themselves now problem is needed place let out ive before another name thought maybe things could change said piece time different sure things change said above point feel like takes stop snowball size want now find way let little patiently sit here one year waiting end world one thing though wanted say one last line people truly starting believe this based experiences life listen well possible hero people need make sacrifices people beg times need still lose everything like school specials tell you drugs respect people upstanding citizen still lose whatever do base entire lifetime around needs others fucking easy forget are like now possible never find way get back thats start feeling willingly gave something know what cant ever back,1 +movie basically spoof hitchcocks strangers train thought overrated anyway plot danny devito going see strangers thinking billy crystal wants swap murders crystal murder mother devito murder wife devito crystal great devitos mother devitos directorial debut better war roses,0 +feel worthlessno one fucking cares everyone takes everyone selfish chases goals called friends even family comes make decision choose themselves thats world seems be sit im scared alone nearly everything friends really need someone drop everything help them thats dumb exploitable thats everyone about find idiot exploit need never give back cant anymore got hopes often crash every single time one ever unconditionally take im sorry rant letting crying trick time,1 +day quote till get gf love lifeyeah im sad time im really happy something could make feel sad likeit makes feel alive know makes feel human way could feel sad felt something really good before take bad good guess im feeling like beautiful sadness also something learned u know annoying ass pop thats like undo typing well u accidentally delete something u click undo reappears,0 +want see true thriller rent this director screenwriter scream feature overacting overpaid tv actors passing stars run mill special effects bonanza instead get topnotch edgy strong in violence yet thrilling nailbiter,0 +yo friend super cute laugh side note cat hella overweight,0 +running films rent picked freebird struggled first third movie wondering rest would waste see fortunately really warmed up loved movie quite bit second half movie grinning laughing entire time thankfully although bits cgi included overdone prevalentbr br i would say though actors heavy european accents warned trouble understanding voices cultural humorbr br i really loved movie order copy collection,0 +safe sex survey teenagers only im project safe sex health class please fill following survey honestly possible anonymous still feel like answering personal question to httpsformsglexaredwkmbhspjhttpsformsglexaredwkmbhspj,0 +said yes asked school started today said yes look schedule idiot ,0 +ta dada feeling happy okay bye,0 +feel like need go hospitalim really really close ending it im hard time taking care myself feel like hospital would good place days would safe cared sense would fed people could talk though knowing wouldnt talk them idk maybe dont actually need go im baby either way wouldnt even know go getting hospital without making another attempt im cant check in cant tell patents anyone this idk need help,1 +want cause traumashello im years old girl finland im posting first time thats story started unknown stranger sent friend request facebook know going change life muchwe used chat sometimes years changed shared numbers chat call whatsapp day day texted more fall blindly love him even tho gf country got depressed anxious able go school etc ive missed class even ive anxious going school got worse year ago broke gf told feelings him accepted long distance relationship i never met even lives km away due age change go meet him already wont come meet because studies used text daily hours told loved much able live without me also started force strange shit things said cant born baby him marry him like thathe told cause culture hes tripura decided break him felt hurt sometime came beg him told need born baby need marry shit continues used fight several things become anxious depressed ive totally stopped going school really cant anything anymore ive always worried even money go meet him really poor never get job future yesterday blocked everywhere im never enough him fakes me hate really know im poor kid want die years old littlebro know condition kill myself thats stops me otherwise ive already escape hell fuck sounds stupid probably none understand would cause less traumas brother started act rude make hate first would free kill myself,1 +alright need help decide something hollow knight shovel knight sounds stupid jsampb made think playing shovel knight ive wanting play hollow knight while,0 +hate word utilize like bitch fucking th century use use filler_ _,0 +know handle social media anymorei major depression dealing years stopped using facebook brings worst me ive suicidal bouts past years ive trying different social media platforms maybe give up thing is feel lonely without pathetic is guess reddit really best place either seemed okay discovered hunters jerk pages dedicate time witch hunts voting trolling sake it episodes used cry lot cry all tried counseling going doctors even medication nothing seems work cant take internet cant handle real life anymore either way see things thoughts projected online thoughts people actually real life say them makes want withdraw inside myself got attached hunter page like play character video game overwatch heard it ask advice better everyone started attacking telling bad person playing character cant even ask general advice anymore without attacked put phone played game guy got mic started yelling guy playing character like telling bad aiming feel like theres way bad good world days feel really empty even though im happily married amazing husband loves works hard give fantastic life cant stand taking people feel scared letting people know worry know real theyll start hate me told friends depression accused opportunist started reading differently really hurt especially since waited months tell them opportunist would told much earlier even tell suicidal thoughts please talk me tell im wrong im sitting home alone husband cant talk negativity need help,1 +four moods _ _ _ _ ,0 +hey guys im abt pray fun,0 +well year got interesting drama teacher told us need musical music video terms project far have im okay rick roll cuss word song batman drugs ideas,0 +live fact accidentally sent minute audio recording group chat people ill never know deleted panic whatsapp deleted,0 +fuck police homies hate police especially sting homies despise sting,0 +seen movie years old years ago never forgot movie deeply touched moved brave little boy beautiful eagle believe turned eagle everyone theater thought going diebr br my sister movie asked recently remembered movie saw boy eagle said remembered like saw yesterday mebr br this movie must see br br you never forget like sister me,0 +point seems almost unnecessary state jon bon jovi delivers firm strong seamless performance derek bliss capability actor previously established critical acclaim garnered films the leading man looking back but case anyone still wondering yes jon bon jovi act act well thats come expected him easy separate derek guy belts hits vhbr br i generally would watch horror movie ive come expect focus sensationalistic gore rather dialogue plot pleased film really viable plot moved along gore much become focus film disturbingly realistic quality films higher technical effects budgets so gore fans might disappointed story fans notbr br unlike action film like u dialogue takes back seat bombast get chance know the good guys actually care happens them scenes left unexplained like dereks hallucinations get feeling certain aspects lay foundation sequel unfortunately lack interest shown hollywood film sequel never happen instances forgiveable knowing vampires could continuing seriesbr br is best film ive ever seen life no good way spend two hours entertained yes leave person fears horror movies insomnia leave horror movie lover completely disappointed either somewhere horror genre loather horror genre lover film you reaches happy medium effects story balancing otherbr br ,0 +always heard great miniseries viewed first time week july see started careers many young actors story intriguing gives wonderful insights period civil war cared characters lives evolved period stereotypes still helped see people thought s many historical facts thrown story interesting see history books come life costumes sets gorgeous thoroughly enjoyed watching parts ii part iii disappointment,0 +adviceso came inches away losing boyfriend today im hes yes gay couple death train im sure would reacted actually followed through im torn thinking it little background met online year half ago since dating little year now things seem like going great knew many mental issues going relationship difficult first always seeing dumps sort learned cope new obstacles major anxiety add suicidal tendencies also bipolar depression bit juggle ive done really well point telling something like let know hope him part wants still live alot pain life family life sucks parents divorced remarried many times father verbally emotionally abusing him mother complete alcoholic family always fighting grudges around caught middle surrounded friends similar issues seem help much definitely first attempt im certain going last ive voiced concern invited seek sort help know force going help anything here let know im always due anxiety situation parents lead fear commitment commitment issues makes sense raised around divorced parents watching many failed attempts relationship lose faith love hes seen dealt firsthand far many times another point seeing pain afraid build relationship fear ends much much worse affect still love truely im loss help him losing would hell although tried least prepare worst decide follow through worthwhile advice would appreciated questions ill try best answer all,1 +anyone else dont sense identity like dont really beliefs politically religiously i mean atheism sort belief ig dont feel strongly adamantly it ive never hobby besides sports video games netflix even though ive tried many idea describe personality since many different personalities depending im at morals constantly shift change clear longterm aspirations ambitions basically lack personality charecteristics make someone anyone else relate nornal young hope cause im young,0 +hello all im yrs old male kg cm one year half maybe im suffering from chronic daily headache dull behind left eye pressure like try think remember something seems getting worse,1 +surviving homelessness doritohusseinive homeless greensboro nc since june mental break lost job plant nc using amphetamines survive isane schedule slip fall blacked eating weeks later tried kill crashing highway fortunately admitted behavioral health center unfortunately discharged streets lived car eventually car broke down moved homeless shelter got job city one would accept voucher find apartment tried jump central library last february thrown shelter lost job hospitalized lost bed months later properly diagnosed bipolar ii stayed friends slept bridges use remission since january eventually moved salvation army able secure voucher local housing authority struggle stay compliant meds im making progress now find secure apartment end fucking nitemare ive everywhere around town please help can im fucking exhausted need little light end tunnel,1 +anybody else like kid cudi songs give special vibe cant describe it certain vibe good one,0 +wayi might regret im writing feel like it dont want die really dont want relief something look forward goal want im miserable cant move forward im weak self pity dont anything better change situation hate feel hate became hate situation im in instead grateful think sad worthless future probably wont like anything cant logical strong im avoiding important questions dont know answer regret anything now cant work benefit see big faliure might writing im attention seeking stupid person feel tired,1 +old dreams used dream constantly years ago would consist running away shadow around house shadow looked like ball darkness absolutely terrifying remember feeling small felt like screaming couldnt hard explain dream kind feltknew ball darkness felt like felt like full anger towards me cant get small scared truly felt im glad dont get dream anymore anyone used dream lot,0 +bruh statistics cram hours worth math videos chapter test currently basically pm test due pm context im college courses also babysit siblings including month old baby brother mention depression anxiety much work dont im overwhelmed yeah constant cycle anyway yeah,0 +femur breaker like someone there please let go brrrrrrrrrrhydraulic aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa breathing noises aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa crying sounds old man sounds,0 +hll thr,0 +itim tonight get home fucked amp dog got chocolate hospital cant let happen again cant trusted anything everyone better me especially her im sorry everyone tried hard hurt people tried hard worthwhile loved hard wont let hurt anyone anymore,1 +zero interest wanting live nothing appeals life really see killing future taking matter fact cannot see else mei want fall love want get job want family want hang anyone get pleasure anything except sitting ass day even bored timei know even explaining correctly wish never born could save parents pain losing kidi know going one day said myself i year sure past years time going faster faster sooner later going finish year floating around real world without clue direction told school ends day grows nearer getting overwhelming probably going even life changing decision life changing sure even life make decision want experience life,1 +today sad day ukermitsfatass deleted account point life anymore,0 +enoughmy mom always wanted kids tying tubes met stepfather wants kids him always tells wants more and oh nice would kids intepretations never directly said but fault got tubes tied constantly threatens me hitting grounding aswell taking stuff away like clothes bedding tells easily get rid me dont know handle anymore planned multiple versions redflag one grosser last im still here think dad child horrible would him im worried cats friends want hurt bad cant it cry much get headaches it want enough feel like outsider want feel loved cared for want lifted held someones arms abusive narsistisstic tendincies cant go day school night without crying help me do,1 +cricket anyone anyone follow cricket,0 +im uglyya,1 +fellow teenagers impossible got gf rlly proud thought could share guys,0 +im part two cults one hail giant lobster another ants shows bored people become ,0 +feel like joke person eternally unwanted switch hating humanity realising im problem im piece shit deserved it it think times meanoffensive used butt joke none undone also never taken back ive said before feel like life inside joke im never going let in on starters im fucking years old never kissed believe called mommy issues ever friends used avoid problems ive always painful people pleaser or pushed away truth im fucking garbage put make people feel better compare me fucking great well finally time throw trash trash would otherwise ever amount getting raped ,1 +thoroughly enjoyed gabrielle burtons story mysterious gift effects recipients past present talented burton family five filmmaking sisters author mother dancing dad offer charming plot respectfully edited clarity memorably chosen songs beautifully filmed piece made laugh cry characters vulnerablility invited predicamant farcelike attitude work touching undertones innocent wonder fanatastic,0 +please help meim totally alone,1 +ya fuck itits gonna end anyway theres fucking point trying anymore composure ability im panic fail fuck point anymore result gonna anyway,1 +depression ruining peoples lives point idea start getting better seems like tried everything personally helped manage improve depression redflag anything even seems silly welcome helped manage depression,1 +shitty lifei guess ill never find love im turn november still first kiss yet fault,1 +anyone wanna talk please need friends start chat ban,0 +sorry never liked anyone person cannot get person liked them,1 +online school year would super dope started server something complain talk drama might come online school also think could use group talk cause wont see friends person much,0 +wish good daysive always persistent suicidal thoughts ten fifteen years weeks feel somewhat normal might passing thought times day days occurs every second sleep try silence it ive found taking cold showers day silence everything brief moments working helps times too always helps keep mind quiet live alone rely everything really live anyone else im deathly allergic pets fur companions several oversized plushies feel calm lying floor hugging them good days bad days feel good free feel like god himself days wish someone would kick door end quickly stay away people since im afraid may accidentally hurt someone days overconfidence days self hatred wish could good days bad,1 +concerned teenager subreddit full fake teens child predators people clearly taking advantage state try groom me like need something counter this scary many got today alone vulnerable please please stay safe check account look long person signed up investigate suspicious behavior please immediately report amazing moderators stay safe yall,0 +know mini adrenaline rush see crush first time day god miss that say want coronavirus extending quarentine live keeping schools closed year fucking stupid decision ever miss happy,0 +really feel like killing myselfi dont even know reasons valid im insane really wanna kill myself shit life feels like ive totally enough keep adding best leave cos theres way escape,1 +surprising treat come across late television read brief plot rundown television listing seeing movie would passed idea movie hitmanseeinga shrinkwantingto leavethebusinessandfallinginlovesounds trite film works start movie clear man carries weight shoulders even says word look feel film perfect dark obnoxiously sobr br aside hitman family aspect provides touch surrealism macys character grapples marriage fathers control macy shows repressed sadness bedtime talks young son amazing young boy shows acting skills well beyond years interaction father son natural personal lovingbr br this one best movies ive seen while cant believe came across accident late night television,0 +fear institutionalizationid say ive hundred thoughts involving redflag past two years whats going mind right happen decide attempt follow redflag dont succeed trying od opiate ill put state level psych ward months live pa anyone tell thats practical,1 +often see peole tell depressed people open people trust reach help loved ones exactly that tell parents suffering depression years hiding them even know believe respond positively get mad depressions despite things provided food shelter someone pls tell open people depression,1 +feeling like people abandon feeling alone like ill never someone cuddle withi get feeling people want abandon think peolpe abandoning ill want kill myself want people abandon ignore really want uncared for want kill every time think this im tired alone really want someone cuddle with ill never able actually find someone cuddle would want cuddle year old guy spectrum guess hopeless,1 +im fucking tiredi want live point im useless stupid always be im bad daughter bad friend make nobody happy hate everyone too want end tonight,1 +got driving licence one life goals finally achieved satisfying get finish something thats important wish guys best ,0 +bestfriend depressed girl broke anyway exactly title ive trying cheer process trying make feel better taken advantage kindness insult first day like okay hes hurt frustrated second day like wtf today dude blocked reason wanted hang skating rink watch anime gas up like im going unblock tommorow dude clearly trying screw pulling whole squidward homeless spongebob took care obviously im mad im town weeks im wondering do got couple plans like flirt ex girlfriend ignore days would teens,0 +sure anyone going read this really care box text shouting void reason writing all keep people love see really sweet romantic notredflag tv just breaks heart bittersweet way underneath warmth happiness feel see cold reminder never happen me people always say oh ugly oh annoying like sure objectively objective measurements things overweight adhd statistically likely people going find unattractive annoying not statistically realistic chance never meet anyone loves romantically fat overwhelming something else entirely platonic notredflag even one ever falls love me surely still plenty friends right well know isolation done number me ability form maintain meaningful notredflag talk friends anymore feel comfortable vulnerable people anymore open book miss friends could stop talking to miss open genuine feelings yeah sure highly likely things go away fall back campus thing chief live future experience future experience live right now right now last almost two years felt pretty mediocre ngl feel like ability form maintain healthy notredflag breaking,1 +happened months ago set appointment told him give time pussy think twice big deal usually extremely reticent withholding thoughts general much two d fucking felt great start working it told therapist depression anorexia,1 +would found standing corner room rubber knife,0 +delete reddit account birthday lost bet ask bet was matters lost delete reddit account birthday th october,0 +loser loser real friends actually wanna go anything say blow ignore,0 +need advice pleaseso im currently fulltime university student failing classes parents know cant tell desperately want take summer classes well thing is im depressed suicidal cannot fathom good idea hell tell im suicidal cant even remotely imagine taking summer classes,1 + spent last school year seeing school counsellor every week honestly best greatest support could had helped get diagnosed suckiness parents believing mental illness emailed teachers days checked big tests believed me friday last time see leavingmy question is cope honestly devastating ill losing main support grown admire person also next year problem something happens would normally help with able emergency sessions anymorei know possibly sounding little bit silly helped lot honestly feel really really sad scared ill get funk saying goodbye school counsellor leaving do,1 +talking friend talking loved ones either dead dont love back mean much talking alone life im point nothing hurts anymore people say please wont care started talking also sit room watching netflix i actually alone nobody talk love strays talking current girlfriend ex goes you really need girlfriend brain went did even fucking listen said,0 +low point life want talk someone listen november th former best friend arrested possession marijuana got let easy vehicle weed got dollar fine day blames entire encounter since completely betrayed trust essentially leaving without friends lets put events day aside focus today couple friends state rarely get chance speak them former best friend recently blocked number facebook steam account never gave reason why tormenting month rest former friends made decision exclude cut contact me aware history severe depression anxiety take consideration all ive dealt heartbreak xgirlfriend fairly recently father turning drunkard threatening kill people fear life sometimes close eyes wish would die next time walk outside wish would struck lightning pain anywhere near comparison others im slowly losing live sleep everyday dreams always better reality previous reasons kill family possibly still cares starting disappear favor really want longer part fucked world,1 +funny many people think bad yearso many people agree bad year forced isolation lack employment opportunities anguish knowing make ends meet lack human connection life like lot people way imagine live like rest life lot people would ask early exit really know tell them,1 +idea im life im booking,1 +ok bitchim going fucking sleep still wanna die despite people messaging once night,1 +become apathetici feel much many people tiniest things also gain feelings easily want stop all redflag nogo second best thing turn emotions dont care unhealthy,1 +bruh reddit notifications now always keep filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +booting ol ds least years picture dshttpsimgurcomajddnhqk,0 +takes get adjusted sound sons pioneers thoroughly enjoy it soundtrack would played orchestra like max steiner dmitri tiomkin would lose folkloric character music conducts film everything seems follow rhythm whole cast excellent ben johnson harry carey jr young men guiding caravan ward bond mormon leader joanne dru flirting actress ford able make would ordinary western something totally different original showing us music dances all people,0 +time delete year minecraft survival world accidentally broke netherite shovel made new one instead applying mending it added efficiency instead,0 +someone gifted sub twitch ok literally watching girl like mins dont even follow bored looked notifs someone gifted sub her lmao pointless whatever,0 +helping friend trying toi friend really struggling believe everything going ok hes autistic desperately sad im terrified hes going hurt himself mentioned feel helpless help him suggested conference hotline freaked out seems st time tried calling hotline ended handcuffs forcefully admitted hospital next time tried thing happened im phone now im trying convince tomorrow could better large issues dealing easily resolved keeps telling feel good back hurts emotions hurting every bit much back,1 +battle insidei cut yesterday talked hospital full threatening unfriendly females manipulative little girl inside put happy face explained huge misunderstanding blood pressure high due anxiety didnt like put treated looked none full judgment full disdain full everything someone mental illness despises treated differently locked rooms chairs curtains security guess softer gentler psych wards treating like illness like caged animal needs tamed smiled nodded answered questions correctly politely thoughts violence swirled head yet never came mouth would thought well put together person could dark inside yet come across well spoken joke laugh nurses doesnt meet criteria heard say yes yes know respond okay misunderstanding one really knows meaning periodic suicidal ideation give papers walked doors ubered way home took valium sliced leg pain valium kicked brain shut fuck peaceful silence warmth blood dripping leg medication hit solace shortlived even hours later back vengeance hurt hang die die die dont deserve live children deserve way better mother dont die dont traumatize deserve much better one wants deal talk return calls messages pay people listen pay people care well least broken things left behind broke broken hearts broken dreams broken little girl could much stronger everyone criticizes everyone talks dislike someday someday going win going die,1 +looking forward day eventually bring home girl because idk would tell mom girlfriend what cuddling walk think otherwise i live woods even go itll take long time get,0 +adults like dare get angry publicly humiliated disrespected you,0 +could find house called mom said had to hide itnext week probably ask water might drink much poison apparently cannot even take aspirin,1 +going crazyi know know lot people going crazy whats going on maybe able resonate me im alone cant leave house become im risk catch virus respiratory condition baby im extremely alone depressed anxious one out cant breath cant sleep usually handle emotions certain extent really want hurt myself ive taken drinking since started im spiralling control dont want take time professionals people really really need im struggling afraid im going end it lost sorry wasting time d,1 +sick tired people uploading status sad and mental health diagnosis likes validation etc refuse go therapy loose shit sadfishing making tired,1 +last attempt went unknowntrigger warning redflag attempts people think last attempt boy close one im amazed im still alive lack eloquence reality last april wrote daughter small note telling loved her work tried hang myself worked home house full nobody noticed sobbing nobody noticed red welt around neck wasnt last month anybody knew decided honest medical providers it feels far away yet recent dont exactly dwell know hand ill go,1 +accent speaking skills around years since moved india us us always complimented speaking skills way gave speeches however nowadays become terrible it teachers critiquing accent used quite understandable midwestern accent almost gone speak really feels like im someone different ngl seems like lost part personality,0 +leave noteshould leave note yes put it,1 +cannot tell many times heard parents every time suicidal thoughts next thing know grandparents house celebrating cousin first birthday talking almost dead last easter told wanted die thought going say no lovley life worth living instead said hey everybody else head like wow thanks mom dad totally helps suicidal thoughts saying kind hypocritical fucking sick hearing you get one life live love one killing solve problems depression got worse dad told reproduce told we never truly died offspring carry genes thinking head seriously fucking disappointed want children want get married want die old fucking terrifys fuck honest cannot live forever would rather die young die bed old able move scary fuck told born world works would say l think ok existing need live get one life,1 +dont care youre gay straight bi pan ace otherwise hate,0 +beautiful almost meditative filmthere hardly dialogue it apart narration scenery music compliment perfectly first connect red hair girl fox pointed friend who also red hair almost old fashioned type childrens films saying children nowadays prefer animations like shrek toy story etcbut feel young people introduced beauty wonder nature film certainly does maybe best ever film type certainly excellent relaxing view ages not children,0 +smart isnt blessing fucking curse one second youre taking iq test next youre mostly ap classes sophomore year high school shit sucks miss free time id yall people help them cant that much homework im done it time go school and get homework fucking hate this want quit school isnt beneficial makes depressed wtf wrong education system,0 +fucking mosquitoes mosquitoes hate two bites back neck one toe itch bad especially one toe annoying,0 +axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool axolotls cool,0 +score within standard deviation mean step ck going break girlfriend brutal way can going iti hope hopelessly debt way pay off subpar physician looked classmates rest life end it family left soon enough anyway unfair make girlfriend bear brunt shitty life decisionsi going publicly maybe someone talk terrible med ed systems are take standardized exam next tuesday,1 +year pretentious muck like synecdoche new york film born charlie kaufmans selfindulgence comes film similarly hard watch three times important frownland labor love crew actors filmmaker shot years friends traces man cannot communicate thoroughly authentic real brooklyn world people see step beyond even stylization mumblecore movement real people painfully trapped selfcontained neuroses unwilling change unable real world set delusions film people profoundly touch difficult watch mm filmmaking without proper light money factors would make film slick honesty understated fact would cause room full people dismiss richard linklater give award sxsw remind films like naked best mumblecore film everyone one challenges watch grows longer think it,0 +behind bruised hurts walk google help,0 +drunken redflag attempt cant help stupid shouldve workedlol wondering blood obviously trying get river trying kill minus degrees im dummyyy lol kms,1 +dont shit post piss post,0 +got cans red bull six cans beer cigarettes bottle sleeping pills going going fuck body point return think tonight going night,1 +bad hear bones arm rubbing head arm laying head arm moving arm around reason heard noise like hand goes across window,0 +interesting story me watches ben shapiro religiously hardcore conservative present me hating gender norms means cant wear skirt public funny things work sometimes huh,0 +shows posted cannot find post back allowed post here,1 +got first math today filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +really funny and sexy movie silly great acting kind movie characters entertaining feel like connected everyone theater saw boston film festival found frequently laughing loud everyone else also moved movies serious parts unique movie two doctors want give anything away powerful scenes well really funny ones plus dialogue great wood harris character unique relationship girlfriend zoe saldana brian white mya also funny sexy roles get chance see go disappointed worth seeing again wood harris deserves award,0 +best friend told want friend anymore think really need helpi posted roffmychest please read context httpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentsejlvmy_best_friend_just_told_me_he_doesnt_want_to_be want kill myself simple that best friend thing making happy reason ive live without him ive nothing im completely alone world want die per se just know more im angry ruined friendship confiding him subsequently wallowing selfpity know expect people so know expect give reason so hope someone help me id rather die want live like this,1 +theres something saidtheres something said man thats planning death children grown leading lives own years minimum finally end pain im constantly in problem is nobody believes im much pain blame noticing tend hide things quite well time resolve slowly starting fade day feel clawing psychosis edge mind desire end finally find semblance peace day gets harder harder deal with feel slowly slipping backwards real hope desire stop it ive come accept thing painful so im tired tired visions voices tired demon see mirror tired seeing dead son every day unable touch him matter much want hard try torture torture nobody know could ever hope understand im fragment person used be even wish like this ive seen parents like myself problems inadvertently children grow up son knows something wrong see face looks me happy yet sad time im glad hes still young enough understand never want understand lest hate ive become im going stick rest lives im gone want them them think all im worth remembering day go bed last concious thought hoping never wake again ive thought killing times count ive almost done several times back last minute wife cant understand matter try explain it often cant weather unable refuses cant say long ive come realize want to sad thing love much hurt people ive heard much many times ever question it everybody else right wrong always way even childhood wonder anybody actually even believes me again doubt it show it care frankly theyre better care make easier forget im finally dead cruel heartless ignorant stupid selfish lazy im nothing eyes know me faux friendships serve reinforce beliefs act distraction simply wait years tick by i wish never met wife say anger hatred say feel sorry her stuck monster like bound break even resolute person ive ever known know loves me wish didnt would free this free kids free live life pleases like always wanted to even blame leaving without kids id right take solace fact finally happy thoughts relentless even mind drifts various kitchen knives disposal easy would simply slice open quiet enough could right nobody would know till morning tempting honest myself im problem ive always problem know try deny it im cancer everyone know cancer really one recourse cut out irradiate shit bury deep ground even time forgets it secretly thats want thats want buried forgotten way cant anymore harm love sure pain would feel might considerable somebody like would should forgotten quickly demise celebrated good thing world im nothing poison wish would keel die toxicity possible again something would welcome thing would deserve thing deserve nobody honest though see eyes even mouths never speak words hard miss know deserve too something im argue theyre correct simply deserve die,1 +want know od concerta much need take,1 +anyone tell slanganything related sex drugs best please put slangs means please thank you,0 +started mirtazapine days ago struggle sleep one things made want try heard helps that first nights acted like sleeping pill went straight out seems stopped though long bed taking best dosage help sleep currently mg also increased appetite ever go away mirtazapine,1 +ive said goodbyes nowi didnt really give context people speak even daily basis said wouldnt around needed time alone made mind dont know it leave note it dont want family find me im worried cats honestly dont live alone give adoption honestly hardest part me know im rambling many anxiety attacks last hrs feel like heart wont slow stops one ever taken seriously parents think mental illness self harm bs guess never grew phase mom took years redflag method,1 +engrossing drama four men canoing weekend remote river pacifist ed jon voight adventurous violent lewis burt reynolds obnoxious bobby ned beatty nice guy drew ronny cox first minute greattheres incredible dueling banjos sequence interesting interplay among characters stunning widescreen cinematography vilmos zsigmond two hillbillies attack ed bobby one rapes bobbyand trip becomes nightmarebr br just unbelievable scenery incredibly beautiful yet horrific violence taking place truthful beattys rape never bothered meim aware faked despite good acting movie also shows characters changeed pacifism tested lewis becomes weak bobby violated one people mocked earlier drew tries keep sane direction john boorman also assured sounds forest river help mood immenselybr br the acting mostly good voight ok leadhes better beatty also okbut debut film guts taking risky role cox good especially things start falling apart reynolds superbone best acting jobs ever even nominated academy award escapes me also bill mckinney herbert coward way believable hillbilliesbr br a powerful filmnot children try see uncut versionthe tv version butchered also letterboxed viewing essential capture breathtaking images,0 +people even find bfs irl sad girl hours lol,0 +im backits while ive tried die many times since ive yet im still alive wish wasnt dont want be everyone life wants live dont want live im tired suffering,1 +sorry sinned guys fellow comrades become creepy simp know fairly attractive female posted picture without braces on found mega attractive sudden find texting saying braces suck must relief get offi recently go taken off eventually gave snap foolish mistake probably found creepy replied im btw looks around age im sorry gang simped failed,0 +people born january st know people born january st little cousin us,0 +everybody everybody let us rate reddit avatar edit ayo hold,0 +pretty much constantly depressed since mid may last days actually good feeling good am bed staring wall questioning everything eternity again wtf wrong me,1 +motivation strangers help muchlike many people confided anyone know suicidal tendencies browsing forums messageboards hearing people say things get better happiness possibility helps me confounds me one incident everytime feel like id prefer going away try look groups strangers somewhere internet saying things better are said strangers almost always help me even little bit even theyre actually responding message posted know nothing particular situation still helps human psyche strange reasoned arguments links studies done research large samples anything sort simple hey im sure get better good luck something along lines felt like typing out particularly shit day think ill sit long meditation session now thanks people good luck ,1 +please someone talk me helpi tried everything four psych wards different medications therapist weed meditation cant anymore im blowing constantly so month old three year old fucking depressed want die every single day says hes worried know know help idk help myself please someone tell something worth living,1 +best prank numbers im telling call,0 +sometimes want die reasoni hard life good life parents home go school everyday friends whatever im lonely like it however sometimes really want hurt kill reason actually im frustrated fiding something like doing live video games moment want play anymore lose time suicidal thoughts boredom anyone knows cure,1 +earth update us hello god speaking new update coming us version earth subscriptions people bought paying attention us politics subscription receive daily gifts stupid things people say twitter arguments occasional motivational speech covid event over course year introduced karens event adding several levels add challenge game schools reopening passed complete event likely create lag making harder finish event other we working large change game rendered unplayable people one people impacted this sorry working find solution hope enjoy changes game always find bugs please contact support team,0 +i seen offer world someone trustedim guiltless victim everything hurts much wish world would stop day die pain thoughts stop,1 +movie specially children think enjoy movie older movie great hilary swank played well without movie bad gets ,0 +im addicted child pornever since age s now watching child porn wish myself did cant find way out still cannot break habit matter hard try matter meditation mental exercise do compulsion cannot help ive dug dug still found pray need miracle break free never want hurt child im even attracted children and even think except trying figure break addiction videos unbelievably addictive cant even imagine anything else level hold me problem terrible compared even worst cases rnofap need daily children children cant believe it cant believe real even break finally then past ever live fully cant seem anything cry hate myself matter hard try want risk hurting child need miracle anybody ability give advice way please so use improve grow love thats want,1 +help lmfao im texting girl knows got relationship yet keeps giving real big fucking hints likes flirting shit dont know without rude like shes cool barely talk kinda weird idk,0 +hehe time weekly sunday mental breakdown horrific time stress management skills much homework im ready highschool holy fuck someone please tell gets better,0 +announcement make gaming ampxb thats it thats post,0 +want overeverything life feels wrong bad good know bad levels fine far know lack effort putting means get bad results pointless not care anyway boyfriend moving countries months amount time left gone im going kill myself thought wanted one summer wont able go without him im sick every day feeling alive finish writing notes everyone ill ready,1 +great show make cry group people really loved real life shows time time again email lets chat australia real talk like thisbr br i want enjoy five mile creek pass great stories right wrong friendship kids episodes dvdr collected last years see five mile creek tribute wwwmikeandvickicom hear extended theme music lets talk thembr br these people cool,0 +self hatred driving insanevent cant anymore cant give life ill never never able create genuine relationship cuz keep isolating people hate it idk cant let people cant everytime think want rip apart wish get gun done it dont reason live dont know experience feeling truly care someone always wonder born first placei never asked born know life isnt me even knew wont even worth time cuz im pretty quiet uninteresting most even family would consider that,1 +crying make feel good whenever cry feel way better,0 +without valentine valentines day so come birthday instead well eat cake itll fun,0 +really pleasure see dialogue part absolutely outstanding i thought womens roles little better written nice surprise performances uniformly good too frank gorshin overdoes little goes various cons might overcompensating see weaknesses character written hes good otherwise harry groener similarly well slightly underwritten character tony overdoing characters angrier scenes slightly ursula burton excellent sister theresa really carrying film weaknesses seymour cassel louise fletcher little underused here though liked work always shirley jones wendie malick jill eikenberry faye grant good also i help thinking grant reminded little catherine ohara here cloris leachman rather tears role reasonably good resultsbr br i wish sure hand behind camera though sometimes framing staging seemed bit off awkward closeups seemed overused or erratically used me always go scene scene smoothly wed like tough guy approach federal agent music costuming top well fantasy sequences really work things well done opening sequence set buffalo around example and frankly scenes regarding theresas church work i suspect writer actress liked character lot helps scenes malick eikenberry goodbr br the plot probably bit overcontrived seem many schemes going keep straight times coincidences got little much little bothered ending should really rooting biggest con yet succeed ride along way enjoyable would nice see independent movies like one madebr br ,0 +mom said would rather kill meshe would rather kill committing redflagdoes said make feel better shouldnt talk cause go fucking mad said that,1 +know people draw really well too,0 +world cater people like metheres good place start think best list things life ive noticed give motivation others money so career paths hobbies pets drugs friends family future theres cant think right now im trying say normally keeps people society motivated keep trying whatever theyre doing never interested me ive talked therapists taken medication like im supposed im normal neither changed me people told alright nothing interests me least cant kill would ruin family well reason alive others sad kind life that point need stop existing im close walking woods disappearing thought alone giving excitement ive felt life,1 +im overwhelmed looking options amazon anyone found something works them ideas subreddits redirect question to saw spire many one star reviews customers whose device stopped working one reason another im looking something thats reliable,1 +married japanese woman years ago were still togetherbr br however s would never easybr br life military mined action drama comedy years point mined death mixed relationships gave new ground cover old hat today then marrying asian back meant either owed somebody something freak sort touched possibilities along third maybe love br br brando usual good job garner better job usually does hes good showed good could be umeckichan helluva debut think earned statue really stretch role one overseas would recognized newness corkerbr br the real scene stealer red buttons red best thing film bank it japanese lifestyles shown admirable light wellbr br a classic,0 +im tiredi told lot people love tonight want kill myself friends people life thats enough tired living want stop brain dont know keep going thing keeps alive drugs comedown uppers even worse dont know stop tired want die finally asleep,1 +ayo anyone play valorant here anyone wanna play me play virginia servers pm wanna play together,0 +mom agreed redflag cant beleive itok last night busted crying first time years mom came talked me told everything told everythng guys last post idk guys im talking feel better way trick someone listening me ok told everything first slapped hard whem told redflag told im person life my dad good person family another country dosent anyone truly calmed solid conversation came real good plan going get pipes heater oxygen ran suffocate sleep best idea pain die togheder thats best told needs time somethings next week it idk wierd im soo excited never existed many years life dont know post self redflagwatch im going sw think related idk,1 +whoever programmed wanna delete file uglyassbitchexe believe downloaded wrong file meant put sexyassmfexe instead anyone else problem me,0 +answers anyonei keep thinking family faces would look like stops me cant stand bottomless unrelenting pain longer wish could rationalize state mind temporary emotion true tried climb this life absolutely empty every aspect ive never relationship lasting friendships job prospects binge eating disorder ptsd course clinical depression bad luck course blame rests meive depressed least years grades career relationships suffered it im exhausted death would be grace think brother mom finding me get this,1 +looking karma anything wanted say dont know excited thats all thank time,0 +really not cannot hold job end showing cannot take mental load fucking pathetic working since already burnt mentally really fucking pathetic cannot show anymore something make happy point going bring joy least worth time cannot it also pathetic people offer solutions none solutions want sure would probably help solve problem make happy literally want now want feel something good someone really close killed last weekend even go fucking funeral going make feel better go think ill regret long time tried therapy tried meds dna testing done fucks sake see meds body metabolize best know handful body actually metabolize tried half already either make worse make numb sure id rather have neither want exist anymore guts commit really wish did think gets better,1 +pity liesi hate hear others say youre gonna hurt many people leave bullshitthey dont give fuck im alive makes think theyre gonna give damn im dead theyll probably cry week forget me pity shit people spew dont understand hate place much,1 +best plot world comedy movie rules kelsey grammar wonderful movie another funny guy rob schneider make crack segments ken hudson campbell plays buckman lauren holly plays probably serious character cast lt lake bruce dern great actor movie playing probably serious character movie actor liked toby huss nitro electric shots character takes movie hilariousbr br plot little uneven lt commander tom dodge years wanted command sub finally gets chance instead brand new sub gets rusty wwii diesel sub stingray crew better misfits us navy put series war games shows old diesel engine handle current nuclear navy things still get better finds dive officer actually female officer see women actual subs get commander position wants win war games blow dummy shipbr br the movie fairs quite well fact laughed nonstop saw movie theaters loved silence buckman farts everyones reaction smell hilariousbr br overall movie plain fun watch nice movie like this hate movies try serious,0 +would like someone talk tosomething happend today something fault acted like bitch many emotions feel bad something always helps cutting im bleeding right didnt make feel better im going go take bath razor blade hand maybe run across wrists would better someone talk to someone lets talk feelings without seeming bored like im bothering them hate myself think deserve pain know tell people this feel like im bothering them,1 +story focuses birth defect known fas fetal alcohol syndrome disease diagnosed often among native americans spite downbeat nature drama great script characterizations move story along well arguably smits best performance,0 +organization methods personally try use google calendar put iny classes put homework tasks,0 +going anything need find release talking otherwise releases damaging irreversible please redirect go somewhere elsefirst all im sorry posting here feel like much wrong need something anything im desperate probably cptsd years psychological mild physical abuse father product that psychological abuse traumatised unwell mum short story finished uni years study mum fled dad got free emergency counselling free divorce womens refuge also got listed case needed emergency accommodation mum tried kill several times also fell lot shitty relationships including another abusive one time developed bulimia nearly died mix that depression trying process trauma etc mum also nearly declared bankruptcy sell family house that family years pets rehomed havent seen since including dog baby girl one pets died couldnt afford vet bills even neighbourhood raised money us tried kill self times never able take one step one best friends tried kill self last year uni mum blamed obsessed things gain possibly sexually assaulted first year good friend went lot therapy free private free therapy ran out private therapy became budget im tired guys cant face conflict criticism aggression without feeling like ive gone back steps want end dont know get end im sorry im tired please excuse grammatical spelling errors dont want reread dramatic woeful tale find errors,1 +wonderfulwhen truly place virtual reality bodies sustained suspended minds fed dreams filled whatever heart desires id like think death like cant help feel would like nothingness lack existence hard comprehend existence weve ever known im tired im angry im bitter im hurt want say im numb im things still present im numb joy passion hope never built survive live fantasy world mind everything romanticised everything means something let continue living world til last breath let pretend tell instead tell day even boring tell something like would like matter small like cuddling sofa watching movie rainy day tell healthy passions fantasies,1 +im sorryim sorry everyone reading this im sorry dad im sorry ted im sorry even you mom love you amy know miss all plan tonight hour makes happy knowing everyone know better without me im sorry pain much love you amy,1 +last post wanted see reaction posted random dimensions phone engineering project,0 +looking thru rstreetwear makes wanna fix style time energy hobo fits ftw,0 +yeah sex cool even sex like please someone tell me wanna virginnn,0 +im loser im shit everything im evil im virgin nerd im sickive fantasized killing people done evil things im loser years old disgust many people look act like nerd im shitty everything poor memory use drugs im shit using drugs too,1 +cat died cat strawberry passed honestly dont know think ive never lived cat hes around since have lived good life comfortable end got him moving kentucky back tennessee couple weeks old small black kitten family got car left came running went straight sister time parents decided could keep him ive never lived without him lived long life lived every second it always special always hold special place heart rip old man cat want people know im going through know lot probably dont care im going through do truly thank you,0 +want cool im,0 +severe case loser people deal years,1 +want overhometown friends given even replying now last thing told complaining get anywhere context family money issues cant anything im allowed get job look like bum compared average kid school people keep talking shit more yet family member drop phone like nothing know keep sounding like dick school bag falling apart shoes wear everyday falling apart pairs jeans ripped probs im fatass whatever already think people talking shit me actually say face control cant shit it theres want die posted different thing explaining bit more go read want know little thing guess cant imagine waiting next year ive waiting long little ounce hope nothing happened long whats point sorry annoying want talk someone also please pm me got dude wanting take away shit,1 +contemplating redflaghi im year old boy struggeling severe depression im exam year school make decission ill rest life regarding carreer friends family keep asking want honestly cant awnser question im unsure ill even alive anyway redflag seems option eyes ,1 +question google doesnt tell answer forhow sleep never wake up,1 +yo male good life experiences including backpacking vietnam visited paris barcelona enjoyed cities like nashville boston montreal scottsdale moved fl gf whim successful sales career making six figures since averaged new car every months currently second home owned valued k working opening first business now i wanted include feel people know outside assume would extremely happy life successes anything caused pain loneliness things answer anyones depression also assume people appear good places really mind bandaid problems stuff hide problems ourselvesi struggled depression redflag whole life early rd grade remember pitifully trying strangle balloon string sounds silly unrealistic looking back tried ecstacy handful times never conjunction peaks depression redflag almost years car business definitely worsened depressionredflag significantly left explore start business really took toll myself worsened since took buproprion sertraline months ago losing insurance recently girlfriend decided ecstacy us home extremely therapeutic regard mental health health downsides sure this extremely infrequent use worried downsides helped meto describe mental health state prior to felt empty constantly fight flight little enjoyment anything found breaking crying often breaking point breaking crying felt guilty thinking badly wish could disappear unfair tell sister first child want watch grow tell girlfriend want start life family together would rather gone clarify want hurt kill myself cried even harder also destroyed realizing answer stay feel empty useless sake everyone else meant life pain me winningwhen ecstacy allowed feel assuming seratonin pump allowed appreciate able hold girlfriend feel joy feel much meant much enjoyed presence allowed remember made life worth living happiness like able work thoughts inside fresh palate open mind able address things afraid address think ways able long time shit eating grin entire time felt alive again next day even better much lesser baseline enough get day ability feel good eventually euphoria went away mind ease high stopped still able work thoughts affirm reasoning around unlike drugs likely remember experience ecstacy similar drugs take away thoughts you all stuck place unable crawl out honestly feel controlled experience like may good let revisit life new perspective reason way hole curious hear peoples opinions this either against happy answer questions well anyone use ecstacy depressed experience,1 +exciting documentary far one fun films ive ever seen highly recommend anyone fun look different musical styles exciting people crossroads modern traditional istanbul great cinematography captures beautiful scenes istanbul thrace watching film made want book flight istanbul right awaybr br great footage ceza turkish rapper br br also sister ayben rapping awesomebr br priceless performances amazing turkish musicians orhan gencebay sezen aksu muzeyyen senarbr br the gorgeous voice aynur singing kurdishbr br and amazing clarinet signing romany gypsy group thracebr br last least istanbul bands mixing turkish music rock well trance music baba zula orient expressions duman others,0 +wanna hear lost virginity yeah filler filler filler filler filler,0 +online acquaintance mine threatened commit redflag anything canshould dofirst id like say love community here proud redditors willing chat help folks even theyve never met before past year half so ive involved guild online roleplaying game star wars old republic officers tightknit group people knew previous games one particular found fairly early on biological male identifies female planning transition finish college past ive butted heads individual often acted snippy angry towards members guild minimal provocation always tried give benefit doubt however since straight male identifies male cant imagine emotionally tumultuous could go something like this still never noticed anything serious time went on interest game waned original founders aside one individual quit disappeared months without word again think much it one person started saying things along lines i may dropping grid soon try contact happens night girlfriend also plays us got touch her told rather casually plan killing end month seems ongoing plan while seem pretty determined talked girlfriend several hours failed relationships feeling severe anger friends left gamedisappeared without saying anything things along lines they abandoned me want hurt make miss me indicated sees doctor apparently help interested hotline anything sort im sure authentic protocol is sure know real name live im sure could possibly say already said ive dealt anxiety issues past redflag talk bit comfort zone want inadvertently make things worse anything kill themselves partially responsible ask compassionate redditors would situation try friend even push away call police them give space,1 +fuck shit im hungry back hurts pms bullshit getting me im cold want fucking candy bar fuck bullshit life game,0 +remember st night september love changing minds pretenders chasing clouds away hearts ringing key souls singing danced night remember stars stole night away ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya never cloudy day ba duda ba duda ba duda badu ba duda badu ba duda badu ba duda badu ba duda thoughts holding hands heart see blue talk love remember knew love stay december found love shared september blue talk love remember true love share today ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya never cloudy day ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya golden dreams shiny days bell ringing aha souls singing remember never cloudy day ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya never cloudy day ba de ya say remember ba de ya dancing september ba de ya golden dreams shiny days ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya ba de ya de ya de ya,0 +love movie cant get movie tht like people like movie must richard roeper roger ebert cant believe mr carrey behind makeup sure actors actresses movie made film this new face movie taylor momsen plays cindy lou who opens grinch jim carrey comes hiding causes mean fun whos whoville sicne know whos love christmas grinch like christmas even makes fun little cindy lou taylor momsen daughter towns postmaster bill irwin movie directed ron howard narrtors voice done anthony hopkins jeffrey tambor muppets space cast mayor whoville like talking grinch close christmas time,0 +getting girlfriend honestly isnt great almost broke lock basement door lock expensive,0 +know many need hear this soulja boy ho watch crank it watch roll watch crank dat soulja boy superman ho watch yuuuuuuu crank dat soulja boy watch yuuuuuuu crank dat soulja boy watch yuuuuuuu crank dat soulja boy watch yuuuuuuu crank dat soulja boy watch,0 +epic woke set alarm went back bed woke saw time decided go back bed again basically missed half classes thing happened yesterday too fucking hate online school,0 +feel deserve live anymoreive done something awful cant deal it wrote letter institution doctor saw realize misguided wrong karen move completely understand situation doctor definitely negative reaction it bad place wrote listened wrong people think deserve live really feel im awful person general keep making mistakes ive hurt people ive let money destroy relationships im going hurt people feel coming back things ive done want better try guilt shame eating alive making everyday struggle want worry everyone life cant tell therapist asks im committed killing myself feel cant even talk suicidal thoughts getting day consists trying work job day im worried guilt shame make cant work anymore night talk friends try watch mindless television drink wine know terrible things come one day know move forward,1 +well openminded enough liked barber shop like canadian filmbr br if mind closedminded fort knox give current score br br this film anybody prepared watch films outside racial grounds engaging true life two three occasions lose connections scenes many times especially towards end find tear two eyes simply often mirrors life likebr br i like recommend anyone open minded beyond traditional american film,0 +movie great touched stone cold heart relate racial discrimination antwone experienced im living country guess really hard discriminatedbr br we watched film sociology class new era universityand knew true story thought created intellectual want bring fresh air industry goodbr br the part shocked nadine abused antwone who six sexually shoes could jumped tenstory high building salute strongbr br the scene touched antwone finally saw mother eva face face bitched whateverinstead told achievements got within long years separated i think ill get chance tracing roots,0 +heartbroken year got suicidalso heres story even anyone interested im years old first all thanks parents internet friends helped real friends except one shit started last year time got fashion really helped desocialization started enough selfesteem meet girls got rejected two times met one even met two times freetime everytime asked her told ever anything friendship decided move sad later found cheated ex times yeah fuck her time goes on open heart another girl responded oh ok group people treated really bad called faggot reason time didnt think much passively took selfesteem down started sad them fuck group thought head canceled contact everyone them depressiontypefeeling started growing time goes girl rejected before actually started texting me got time got date perfect everything went fine fun happy even though felt horrible rest time happy something wasnt thing like months wanted happy asked again like yeah parents wont allow imma sneak house hearing awkward nice time first time someone actually interested me day came wasnt allowed go couldnt one week passes time another week passes still time tickets concert fucking time planned one half month ago heard one friends wanted friend forget that important concert me artists helped hard times destroy important moment me no wont friend actually never asked th concert was never bothered me next part life want keep secret hope wont put shit give life last try year didnt find happiness someone important someone love get love back biggest wish long while see sense probably say goodbye im good school see sense loveless life feels good write this thank giving space talk,1 +boys skirts everyone talking,0 +anybody try catch covidjust curious please that,1 +need help hey guys get chest pain getting bed real painful lately figured could ask guys help im male btw,0 +ok school sent email online classes dot number four problems internet please mail school email adress way monitor absence someone teach people please xd cant fucking send email without internet ye xddd im dying stupid guy thought good idea ohhhh im dead xd,0 +brag shortest person friend group,0 +friend agreed officially start dating thats pretty cool guess f fi fil fill fille filler iller ller ler er r,0 +im tempted take propranolol havei two boxes mg enough right,1 +want say goodbyei hate life dont want keep shit dont plan maybe one day head tracks im reason everyones suffering,1 +might seem little selfish think today good thing least meblocking friends best decision made awhile ask tomorrow week statement still holds may not last time really happy things good me think universe way punishing make decisiondecisions bad could end poorly youand rewards make decision aligns best depressive mood swings redflag still much exists still essential isolate myself surround people great negativity like trust gut say people bad them maybe even quite frank trust gut far punished smells bad probably bad feels bad bad kind philosophy go dealing people life kind ask question myself friends never would give anyone stupid advice would dumb enough follow through even goal involved myself let convince selfsabotage win anyways make decision selfless selfish ps started sketching kind forgot much love fucking killer it think good thing today,1 +tom holland twink spread word mother truckers tom holland twink spread word mother truckers,0 +saw advance screening read book heard many good things itbr br the movie absolutely fantastic moving roller coaster emotions totally connect characters shaun toub great complete departure usual roles acting understand persiandari incrediblebr br one thing notes khaled hosseini actually loved film unusual book adaptation movies even seeing movie several times he sobbingbr br also animation intro exquisite names displayed persian calligraphy unique times translation clearly conveying message efficiently great movie,0 +got sick head hurts im always tired even tho sleapt hours sad boy hours hit times harder im hungry time cant focus all ovarall im fucking sufering,0 +girls subreddit like boobs convenience inconvenience would prefer boobs boobs,0 +series produced probably propitious time following events second world war scale value stands far individuals presumption criticizebr br the timing world wars production amounting three decades events war permits accurate relating events manner uncoloured residual propaganda slant passage thirty years allows telling backed impressive fascinating panoply individuals involved ranging highest military political figures field soldiers civilians survivors death camps remained bear witness unimaginable inhumanities civilized humans capable approaching well senior years interviewed subjects enough time reflect experiences instances enough time whatever propaganda fervor may affected past receded away leaving memories saw didbr br the information survivors give strikingly reinforced postures expressions display telling part give stories impact names ira eaker adolph galland louis mountbatten albert speer gertrude junge hitlers personal secretary list far long relate br br today within lifetime survivors enormous lesson hideous price political ambition young people chant sort militaristic nationalistic war promotion led ww dvd series discuss ought comprise core mandatory history subject schools lessons bought horrible cost days wasted taken heart see firsthand terrible pricebr br i almost done watching disk set seen series local tv channel aired years ago lost none poignancy me indeed become even magnificent chronicle darkest days human timesbr br the highest possible rating seems unworthy applied presentation think value series beyond counting,0 +keep hygiene cook clean apartment spend time people love make mw money worthless capitalism won give up pawn asset count every penny make every day sure keep eating making enough point breathing worker working worth anything,1 +regularly cutting back drinking large increments seriously worried might kill went good turkeyone family members told fun better drunk sober get serious focused drive accomplish much socialite start drinking loosen become really friendly outgoing absolutely become life party started noticing drinking more eventually getting shakes sober shakes headaches dark circles eyes irritable coordination sober could motivate bed unless knew could get drink hands immediately felt god damn awfuldecided cut back cut back cut back really well actually remember last time drink think week now keep track beat everytime break get right back wagon determined betterhearing family say fun easier get along though drunk cut deep real deep since decided need want life hearing another human say resume slowly killing entertaining easier going drinking killing,1 +film amazing would recommend child adult alike animation beautiful characters rich interesting story captivating far better anything american studios producing time however couple caveats statement shame disney bought studio ghibli backcatalogue proceeded butcher it main point being disney redubbed film despite original english version impressive new cast van der beek et al ruined took away much attractiveness characters eg pazu sheeta went adventurous companions whiny teenagers original music score also far better disney remix begs question disney make changes seems van der beek et al cast disney draw money fair enough process tainted film still beautiful film would still recommend anyone main beef disney ruined film childhood loved still love lucky enough original japanese import original english dub going guard life,0 +reason done im scared paini live uk access firearms theres really way kill going incredibly unpleasant parents paying stay nice student accommodation attend university last year went classes recently told error booking next year honestly even want deal fixing it im waste space society sit room playing video games watching tv shows anything productive everything paid for wish gun,1 +owe moneyi owe dollars friend thats thing keeping alive soon repay him im gone already job months over,1 +guys mean ive bullied guys girls guys much meaner,0 +great idea youtube rewind full awful things happened komm ssser tod blasting background,0 +movie watchers often say great movies must memorablebr br scenes considered truly great broadcast news havebr br three twice that movie extremely well written bybr br james brooks holly hunter albert brooks never beenbr br better love movie many reasons great itbr br makes laugh makes cry albert brooks severalbr br great lines many unforgettable scenes laughed i canbr br sing read singing read midnight train tobr br georgia playing background laughed telling thebr br william hurt character you really blew lid nookiebr br after watching hurts report daterape cried aaronbr br a brooks finally tells jayne hunter loves shebr br cant end hurts character representsbr br everything journalism jayne finds dispicable finally laughed forget scene aaronbr br anchors weekend newshilarious movie oscar everything love inbr br movies great acting intelligent script even jack nicholsonbr br cameo,0 +find movie best movie ever seen reflects inner strength young girl second world war movie impressive least actually happened reminds story anne frankbr br ,0 +could kill right without ever firsts lifeive never relationship havent first kiss dont car job house im still teenager every day live care less less things im still high school care them dont think trying die sucks want enjoy youth want childhood want know first relationship would like college would pick graduate high school car id buy finally get drivers license instead im stuck trying cry everyday class im wouldbeagradestudent barely gets past gpa semester im trying convince everyday overdose wake wondering today day finally post redflag note online text friends teachers goodbye im tired living dont want die want everything stop feel lonely dont want try text call anyone know feel like ill bother ill add worry plate keep buying things online convince wait arrive fill emptiness materialism short span time sadness sets back in cant talk parents dont understand deal depressed child dont think teachers would really want deal break even though gave numbers case needed talk friends arent serious enough comfort me wouldnt know approach told kill myself im trying hard keep convincing live keep burning ive end rope weeks ill surprised manage live th birthday already surprised lived th,1 +therapist want quit meds want become suicidal im pretty sure already told ive suicidal ideation decadeforgot clarify want suddenly stop meds sorry feel invalidated said meant sound caring makes feel worse want cry sure post im posting here maybe people understand want bring case im wrong tell already would hella awkward,1 +help cant stop drinking gfuel ive scoops today im make th,0 +ah yo guess got doctors appointment me me do put something detailed get attacked bot hope enough,0 +need adviceabout hours ago decided end life took mgs abilify mgs lexapro anxiety meds called busirone something like that mins regretted threw could much ampxb im asking is go hospital time feel okay part kind it,1 +taller siblings brothers sister parents depressed scared joke around like used growing old idk sit right making depressed wish could shrink little kid again please help someone,1 +im ideation againive depressed usual ive thoughts redflag last days feel like display im hurting people care cant let bother them feel like act way call help make vulnerable theyd think im attention seeking know people already think im pathetic empathy compassion agony in feel like committed redflag people would finally know hurt ive been would prove coward really hurt pushed past limit maybe theyd respect following through want people hurt care impact theyve had theyll think im disgusting matter what much want it cant would crush mom dog love depends me im scared forfeit life even much pain causes sometimes wish people really understood level pain going through wish people could see much impact weighing me wish people took seriously wish people hurt would finally understand wounded left me one leave ever attempted ive also thought ending life beating punch could abandon me maybe one day theyll understand,1 +found looking hours finally found box mm luger bought covid like finding bar gold,0 +schoolim currently crying schools bathroom friends like around people like me im shitty girlfriend anything know one remember im gone might well go,1 +ever feel okay againi idea end long sad story incoherent ramble go since age im stopped happy seemingly nowhere became increasingly insecure depressed started hating myself kept problems last year high school essentially nervous breakdown went year intention essentially forgetting everything felt forcing become better purely ignoring obvious mental health issues set incredibly high and unrealistic expectations grades wanted soon burned short amount time cue nervous breakdown saw doctor diagnosed moderate depression anxiety issues counsellor months resulted pretty much actual improvement summer somehow still managed make first choice university completely bombing last year cut semester two stopped going classes completely excessively abused alcohol wild student nights dorm room experienced sexual assault avoided everyone knew days time suffer severe insecurity constant thoughts tell im burden everyone around me one wants life make absolutely contribution surrounding society even read back hate it still suicidal thoughts honest reason acted im scared work deal aftermath all point time im hopeful answer really want learn change perspective want happy want healthy want live life full still feel shred hope start recover unlearn bad habits unhealthy coping mechanisms guess im trying say want fight seems incredibly overwhelming feel scared lonely thought even trying fight back mental health issues want find live want live good life even begin thank read this advice support helpful anecdotes welcome immensely appreciated,1 +hi new guy herecaution big wall text sorry bomb guys this scroll past spoiler unless post really grabs attention ampxb please bear facts chronologically inconsistent wrote almost word essays pressed back phone twice laptopkeyboard guy also morning lonely incredibly lonely also if someone wants move somewhere else please read post once feeling lazy please want look put inline link markdown writing post two fucking hours hi know exactly place introduce myself fact posting sub first time life years lurking say lot itself expect help perhaps venting would make feel better never wanted kill myself least hour still dont blabbering here reason fear death fact thing afterlife thats thing even believe afterlife would ramble here fear would stand side watch fear what will get back later post exactly motivation port storm lets begin yes preamble boy going long post things want tell myself fully functional depressed person diagnosed never went therapy meds support ever son alcoholic man tortured family physically mentally point mother would died killed herself whichever happened first twisted fate happened things hope good thing person hates mankind passion would rarely see seriously weak baby clear would grow mess introvert obvious intj mbt scale rather high iq low eq memory sharp curse thankfully showing signs wear starting memory loss come conservative countryor rather world important piece information add context lot things tell yall degree computer science national level university acceptance rate less stanford without exaggerating make millions this one sake information mean shit me personification fake smile go day break doorway room coming back believe me realize smiles fakeyes real thing reality sinks hits hard biggest overthinker ever know orders magnitude average overthinker lose hours thinking physically abused lot seen women home get abused have however besides mental abuse watching stuff childhood quite bit mental one childhood well adulthood countries moving option young age much used blast music ears hours overpower brain stopping overthinking think acceptable survival option teenager besides drowned voices parents arguing rather father time could understand people already good repressing memories thoughts believe kids get unconscious getting beaten shed tear one them here kickerfirst many post even shit lived whole life never told anyone why fuck telling this tired listening hey everyone problems need focus good this shall pass karen fuck right went half family did would long dead worse starting give hope death permanent respite even this rather prodigious disciple school entering multiple quizzes winning all brain high schooler year old boy recipe disaster took mr humble bragger inside mind always wanted kill me outside number things biggest one girl always come national level exams high school take people people hype it night second exam father stood top house piss drunk made scene oh tell diagnosed severe clinical depression months this exam wanted prove certain someone would stare food hours never eat sleep days outright disobeyed teachers point would even repeat answers them believe many times man threatened family redflag while mother would simply tell us go sleep today either man literally tying noose right pulling shit since early teenage top country fucking exameyeballing it might even higher mean shit thing is everyone knew something wrong expected national topper never meant that bearable mind started killing serious gtlt gti want let cutting chase beginning doubt anyone read thislt gtlt gtgtshit coming points buckle uplt gtso fell girl yes no hair balls waited years telling anyone fucking planetlt gtmessed confession idea hard talk someone scared shitless response scared hands would frozen cold middle summer afternoon seriouslylt gtbecame creeplt gti showed girl even family knows feelings her showed feelings everywherelt gti proved authenticity feelings stood ground think young ones know love never child never allowed childhoodlt gtalways fucked attempting talk her intentions clear language alone loveboy cringed hard word needs two persons know kind talking aboutlt gtboth went uni separate ways fucked colossally neither following attempting reestablish communication always believed bullshit idea going back accomplished something mind every fucking secondlt gtyes every second would dreams life would wake middle night devastated realitylt gti plainly avoided attemptslt gtalso note girl wasis notorious cold careerminded fall love type least others saw believe that believe human immune falling anotherlt gtall trying prove earning potential her showoff way internal pact made myselflt gtthis girl would fall anyone else last saw her heart still believe it yes baseless one standing her someone else saying know best bet life it even years changed anything change things level convictionlt gtso fuck would chase her clearly type sure hell interested nope bad sounds i hope is type second kicker ever liked girl her people would literally catch staring me teachers spotting us catching avoiding others glances whatnotlt gtno girl right mind would let stalker walk home every day unless scared him even would last longer couple days given needed tell someone anyone would dealt with stalker her would walk home many days lt gtit told do care much me different religions parents would never allow it may get killed thought every boy brother ten steps later road given promotiondemotion rank friendlt gtbullshit fall someone nothing stop you period heart always believed make impossible happen least did last saw real reduced online stalker let presence know feelings getting reciprocatedlt gti literally gave doctor dreams close her delayed uni whole yearslt gthold horses say clearly interested you move on let tell somethinglt gti felt her made girl yes possible believe me overthinker says wants someone means thought person interest enough repeatedly wished would either never met never existedlt gti one thing clear mind give everything her let put things points helps getting points acrossfucking unintended punlt gtmy university degree years absolute hell teachers would fail sight friends thousands miles away family girllt gtevery talent have ones know ones dont chess violin archery computer stuff photography knowledge anything else think oflt gtall friends numberslt gteverything ever wanted want italia spyder gadgets gear hobbieslt gtdreams want normal life girllt gti would say life would defeat purpose fucking wall text efforts every comfort have readywilling walk two thousand miles show still given up even eyes meet secondlt gtthat brings us rather close timeline literally went uni one goal come alive got rather good job gave internship company gave fulltime offer would give enough money thought would prove even lovesick brain like mine melt gtshe doctor even job people tell still way average well long run lost hope believe ever succeed want help family always did it reason live reason survivelt gtand want survive whatever wounds time healed see scars skin left lost get morning chainsmoke reds drink whiskey like water smoke enough pot make guy double weight pass out thrice still stop thinking herlt gti often find funny people find soulmates easily sometimes simply look sky wondering done wrong fate smiled even once actually even agolt gti understand even get world or past would change never hoped change brought simple ideology leave family make fate gifted one broken might able confuse anything elselt gti much misfortune life something good happens today get scared know something bad happenlt gtmy college harsh last job horrible evicted lost wallet everything inside it literally calculated pennies attempts save money least give family two thousand miles home two thousand miles herltlt actually wanted let topics apparently woman occupies biggest space head would like write again companionship biggest issue failed list items made deal myself live family fate taking things away one another years left hatred people regrets die right obviously but recently started seeing making past literally verge giving life hoping next one thing exists would better great thing hold to name hope know long stop wanting kill immediately kind see becoming probability near future started believing everyone supposed survive life hope someone understood meant that edit wanted put lovesick section spoilers hide it much work took good hours write want let anymore me,1 +arab teens arab brethren dm want talk fellow arab,0 +i cant stop feeling alone unwanted,1 +get bf breaking ive damn sad wanna cry,0 +need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great,0 +someone smoked weed past get legal trouble im asking question friend f old friends constantly messaging still alive arent surprised isnt dead yetfrom redflag argument bring smoked weed month ago im trying convince fine take schoolpolice shes afraid getting trouble,0 +know handle thisevery day think redflag think id it fantasize it want escape way feel way am feel strong enough keep pressing weight cant sleep barely eat every second torture cant ever seem actually it think thing keeping thought everyone expects stay disappointed heart broken want feel like enough want stay for nothing inside wants exist benefit feels pointless idk feeling pain start therapy next week hope feeling normal know immediately cure me,1 +app wish existed so watching d animated show playing d videogame use filters d models make look like theyre another thing yes use modding videogame case would amazing,0 +need helpim depressed anxious among many things im female single many friends hard time seeing postives stuff feel pretty numb tonight please keep mind sensitive person replies harsh really hurt me,1 +im done class got fucking c science project earthquakes cause too complicated cause went physics earthquakes cause kids class level mean sink level,0 +time come turn today wackiness problems gotta say subreddits one favoritesthis community really great shame leaving it stay safe keep subreddit running cause soon hit ima subreddit,0 +unable accept human horriblei believe wanting learn brings peace sharing information amicably surest path happiness ignorance leads confusion resentment hate even loving family members conflict builds confusion hate pain reconciled often boils omg im sorry didnt know even though trying hard explain it want understood understand inept flesh brains primitive psyches fuck bad every time reflect conflict see lesson learned were continually wrong fail hurt other elevate volatile conflict strangers horrifying humans may able grow beyond stupid primitive hate narrow world views ignorance science take long know life time know learn live are want good others fail hate myself fail me resent hate myself know better shit brain ruins it imagine nuanced clever psychology could years expect ignorant fearful people push back progress delaying even further humans fucking worst fucking hate us much,1 +seriously close redflag idea do real advice neededi canada lots important details dont want get into basically cant continue living way redflag seems likely dealing immense self hatred since entire life also isolated never friends currentlly unemployed pessamistic future incredibly depressed every day painful already tried meds exercise diet cant make friends therapy self help books moving much self hating make friends anyways basically cant anymore need real action platitudes die destroy family miss world live go crazy cant handle it tell authority redflag hotline doctor therapist bad doing hospitalized forcefully medicated ruin life thats option could tell family severely annoyed almost slightly hate parents dont want talk them cant help except try throw money me take guns away guilt living unhelpful annoying option could tell older sister really helpful smart good stuff like this ive spoken immideately told parents really uncool guarantee tell im suicidal tell parents friends talk to poorly poi t also cant wait slow recovery shotgun cant friends anyone real talk to bound happen soon die theres going back dont want die dont want live way living even more feel bad go insane angry believe need die punish myself seriously guys dont want break sisters hearts parents hearts also cant talk see alternative need actual solution fucking happening dont wabt get detail everything thats going on need real world change fuck do die sorry thanks reading,1 +need adviceapologies advance long ampxb so think need advice urgently ampxb planning commiting redflag today almost everything set ready go supposed final and important thing needed attempted became violently ill unable due severe lack sleep food passed seemed window opportunity closed ampxb im really bad shape mentally guess point physically suffer ptsdcptsd utterly consumed life almost every waking moment spiraling nightmare paranoia terror hate even saying that feel like liar feel vile pathetic way am bad cant keep going like this ampxb whats stopped killing fact affairs order even close do even im unable die now next spiral ill one last thing take care way cant even imagine getting there cant imagine getting walking room interacting roommates nothing different go work excuse missed today act nothing changed ampxb another thing im fight roommates speak were speaking were fighting something cant cant explain cant open im longer see react terrified literally reaction could possibly have want horrified sad want angry me anything im terrified past repeat theyll treat contempt scorn theyll tell im suffering none real im pathetic baby needs get it im terrified theyll angry tell felt way want tell them want find out ampxb leave me cant leave go settle final obstacle finally die cant get next morning go work interact nothing wrong dont know current physical state would allow that even cant bear tell roommates faces whats happening me call emergency services itll obviously leave roommates shocked confused without answers itll saddle hospital bill cannot pay poor uninsured fuck state lack medicaid expansion going hospital might make so much worse ive traumatized hospitalsnursesdoctors past last time hospitalized offered support kicked soon possible homeless money ampxb even know theres good advice me going sit utterly paralyzed until until even know thoughts anything im sorry long,1 +it sorta almost broken selfharm record never really gone past week sobriety years hours overcome huge milestone mine im really proud thought shouldve share,0 +im tired need sleep get tmw babysit cant fall asleep going fun deal kids tmw,0 +irani noobs kicked cs go server playing random competitive cs teammates irani professional noobs still winning kills top fragger everything going well start round accidentally attacked teammate said mistake im sorry listen kicked server sometime later checked recent matches guess they fucking lost match part really happy got fucking deserve im also sad wasted time fucking random irani dudes even know play,0 +goodbyei literally reason stay alive cant anymore,1 +broke birthdayive fallen love twice life ive finally found second person dont force feelings towards makes feel alive makes feel something else depression helped get last love happy got him happy cried hyperventilated happy excited first time someone actually love loved back cheated didnt give him gave second chance thought ive done wouldve enough not first person ever cheated on me now birthday today right now long distance relationship came visit me everything went well started asking would hate left me could never hate him left me cant look knowing person friend cant look knowing doesnt love me nothings going right recently lost clean year today lost clean month best friend really suicidal got scammed money barely even feel like alive anymore want zero reasons kill myself want able kill myself want peace need break head going explode,1 + never relationship im couple months jr hs ive never relationshipgf virgin first kiss even fucking hand holding lmao sound douchey cocky def lose vcard first kiss really wanted i want save someone worth alot friends didntdont feel like im missing out even point saving person difference friend like first times suck anyways better person want advice,0 +permanent solution temporary problemi really dont think ive got temporary problem ive got huge big world injustice fuck load people powerful frankly lot smarter stand benefit keeping world unjust ive got ever impending collapse worlds natural resources issue seemingly everyone cares enough actually change behavior ive got storms fires natural forces world laying waste shit like antibodies humanity advanced crushed ive got peer group im totally alienated dont understand normal people well something ive worked whole life cant ive got bad fucked brain cant make chemicals right amounts let see silver lining this im pretty fucking sure issues pretty much fixtures life im afraid now dying living living seeing nothing improve living forces bear witness slow moving apocalypse ending love wake one day older wiser miserable now wishing ended things long time ago fuck,1 +felt like wasteful empty piece shit thought fixing would fix mental statei everything supposed help years workampxbi good dieti exercise every daymy hygeine taken care even comfortable appearancei meditatelow redflag well paying jobfriends family love support mean world mehobbies interestsi go outsidei get enough sleepampxbany yet still feel sameampxbi want die go sleep never wake up experience pain anymore want hurt anymore want sit feeling sorry without even reasonable explanation anymore know do tried fix it really tried want strong care me want hurt them know special everyone struggles would make things worse even dangerous care about here feel guilty it way get better hanging thread way drag this,1 +sister got scammed hi im younger here sister shes amazing person me mom drive meet aunt cousin cousin chill car aunt mom sister go inside get sweet dress also got crown business idk say name not get home takes crown show us second took pop jewel came out touched one time first got today day nothing happened today takes out puts head two gems popped out crown apparently adhesive used sucked shes freaking it likely got scammed,0 +dont want help want get betterit sounds really bad know resources get help actually im getting help right working me agreed friend worried me isnt now never wanted help first place thing want help committing redflag going get better ive told three years counting im tired counting even stop depressed ill always know life pointless matter hard try ill never able give purpose something live for want end worry anything anymore work towards nothing live nothing die nothing ive started enact plan since im minor wont access many things even buying medicine seem suspicious look young pass older anxiety prevents even thinking mere possibility ill asked show id im set two methods since others seem unreliable give way living attempt obviously something want just ive given up know way get cycle die,1 +im really depressed dont know go iti wake feel depressed work school meaningless tried welcoming someone new friend group essentially broke up im lonely school horrible dont know do cant kill dont want people sad feel like make people happy forget myself personality point continuing life,1 +surprised many viewers find symbolism movieits made movie incredible work art story deals saddest content movie could hold yet one best movies ive ever seen need imagination brilliance storylinebr br if pay close attention message there younger brother killed stepfather older brother made story wagon flying way deal pain brothers death would argue would lie children story answer want share ugliness children blocked replaced memory horrific event thought brother flying away safety ive read reviews believe child created younger brother escape deal abuse suffered although interesting idea love imagination used come that think would lied children little brother but find plausible would lied little brothers death however like idea ending much better notion movie symbolism allbr br there many different takes movie take movie face valuetwo brothers creating wagon flies escape abusive stepfather missed brilliance fact able see subtle messages script made movie incredible me requires thought process imagination make workdig deep watch it amazed genius contained film movie ive seen close symbolism subtle messages pleasantvillebut thats comment another movie,0 +understand painfuli good week eating right wellbutrin seemed stopping dark thoughts getting early exercise showering daily keeping routine person live stresses everything just so decided visit somewhere figured would good weekend gone could breathe could relax planning leave place covid financially stuck look forward times gone agreement say returning clean get home used hire maid keep back cant afford it honestly addors eased tension here something done wrong would blame me came back early came back early chance clean way liked got annoyed started cleaning around makes nervous wreck medication kitchen cleaning afraid go there retreat bedroom altercation something place crying asked several times engage meltdown follow room cannot lock even could angry locked door would bad autism scolding crying make stop telling overreacting make stop crying either needed time cool down hate place hate existing hate everything hurts cant function way anyone wants to family anymore help anyone talk to want bad depression closing around me hell even for life feels like sick joke want stop,1 +disgusting head pain moves around head pain super indescribable medication helped months working doctor every second fight pain parents know cope around know really exist anymore now head pain consumed me feel alone pain worried fight pain parents around anymore old age,1 +birthday today birthday sounds stupid ok hold big accomplishment beacuse never thought would make past actually ,0 +miss friendi dont know else post this well half year ago best friend committed redflag still think hourly basis find crying sleep regularly every day feels like night happened want back badly,1 +body wanna check yt channel idk good need feedback fuzzy,0 +anyone wanna chat somethin feeling kinda bored yeah,0 +jerk venting someone clearly worsesorry didnt really know else post this friend gets abused parents badly get abused myself emotional get every way except sexual ptsd side affects abuse including redflag attempts im much fix it im focusing stuff nothing people get therapy encourage honestly want try go alone first personal reasons friend well basically used mention needed therapyventing talk them mention anything life get angry imply im sickening around first assumed maybe vented much kept inside much possible kinda good ive learned keep things inside more whenever vent anything get mocked them last night assumed anxiety making lies basically admitted it whenever said feel like im acting entitled would say yeah are press shrug off begged tell me never said anything ive helped redflag attempts never met irl keep begging visit country keep telling love as friend every day see less less that dont say goodbye anymore unless prompted i still say it barely say like say nice things heartfelt moments usually think someone hates leave alone forever second redflag attempt happened im scared now dont want leave want avoid dying want know asshole venting someone clearly worse quick edit clarification yes listen vents always ask are part reason feel confused theyre angry,1 +change perspective may helpto anyone hasnt given thought changing perspective may change way feelthink act,1 +starting today im cutting everyone life make easier end itive wanted end long one thing stopping friends im private feelings know exactly im going know end least sons feel couldve done more couldntve theyve done everything know that starting today im gonna messaging people checking messages going out many going uni next month theyre gone ill gone well hopefully hit hard now,1 +boys need learn fucking respect im fucking sick girl much negativity get boys every single day girls vs boys memes light hearted think im tired seeing fucking meme throwing girls stereotype called boring whole bitchy fake taking normal thing everyone making seem like boys it play lot video games rarely use voice chat times get fucking told go back kitchen every single time enjoyable funny first time never been cant take dark humour either fun games joking womens rights you apparently we cant take joke get offended harmless shit nah girl talking period pains something jump fucking say oh never gotten kicked balls before seriously man come on get choose wether periods not pain lasts week sometimes bad cant stand up cant compare peoples pain experienced yourself stop treating superior gender none us better anyone else handful stuff myself im sure lot people fed seeing,0 +im donehi im sophomore highschool barely even passing dont know normal ongoing feelings redflag last five years currently everyday night life theres chance im feeling either happy sad im mostly sad school always called weird one always ask person call me im bullied sick tired it absolutely friends friends turned typical backstabbing snakes causing whole entire school turn me including one my boyfriend left simply embarrased love anymore love best fake friend tried talking guidance counselor told suck move on also tried talking parents thinking might problem also like get life even called national redflag hotline planning committing redflag wanted give life one last try lady said wasting time told hang phone cant take anymore feel like let everyone one else talk honestly feel like killed parents spend much money kids school finally one less person stress about want die time dont want give life one last try make huge decision im sorry grammar really need help want know happy again,1 +feel like ive completed role world im ready goi empathize lot robin williams often bring smiles others tend saddest point life decided light world im high functioning suicidal person always try help others compliment others friendly kindness genuine never expect anything return making others smile making others happy makes feel happy feel like role world make little pleasant others time im ready go dont want more im great job generally well liked others every night cry sleep sometimes light crying usually wailing sobs asking im dead yet every day think new ways im getting closer closer achieving really want im stage calm storm feel strangely peace knowing im going meet fate soon,1 +portal gaming hello yes portal good opinion portal ,0 +goodbye world im readyin minutes im going end life friends living family turned today vowed would end life still single never boyfriend never date time turned meantime going live life fully could myself ive done am today still alone never imagined would actually turn way did sometimes things get better regardless statistics show work nerve chatted someone redflag hotline awhile convo definitely helped convince stalling unfair myself ampxb said friends family home rural area work utilities paid six months debt theres good chance body discovered weeks months wanted someone know this know why feels better knowing someone even rando anons reddit know ampxb im disappointed thats goes time this,1 +still living parents aired dutch tv usually one watching movies others caring somehow sat watched movie kinda movie used aired wednesdayevening story woman wholl die soon dies wants make sure many kids best possible fosterparents watching dad emotional four us started cry followed almost immediately long sister mother teared too were totally moved simple heartbreaking story want good cry one you,0 +need hobbies pls assist parents case want get hobby besides video games read lot consider hobby used build legos lot still big lego fan cant really take hobby legos expensive heck im looking forward suggestions,0 +cannot call anyone help want mum samaritans never picked,1 +arms man one shaws funniest plays handled correctly production good enough job helena bonhamcarter prefilm stardom raina daughter military family peacock fianc patrick ryecart shelters soldier enemy pip torrens raid townbr br full colour energy production rips along good pace bonhamcarter patsy kensit maid outshone bit rest cast still hold ground kika markham dinsdale landen parents delightful whole play generally happy onebr br highly recommended,0 +one comedic twilight zones thats actually really good floyd barber andy griffith showthe stock trade old geezer dude many old westernsand lovable old frisby also cool spacecraft interior believe used sci fi classic forbidden planetor else day earth stood sillplus new guys town driving exotic renaulti think sports car back days european automobiles known foreign jobs us whole idea harmonica weapon hootand fact frisbys buddies love despite fact hes total bs artist heartwarming moment,0 +problem one guy friends im typically pretty shy new social settings really like make focus anyones attention unless im comfortable them first met guys like polar opposites met im fairly quiet reserved respectful like think im smart person friends one friend particular loud boorish really rude,0 +prepare familyfriendsmany years ago told redflag would option if age still struggling fallout major depression im months shy birthday another year ends mounting depression symptoms disappointments feel like may truly end planet wondering help prepare friends family death want death implode lives also want continue living life way limit pain experienced redflag family circle friends anything could done make easier you thank you,1 +post dean fuck dean know did,0 +lovely librarian played playboy model kristine debell falls asleep dreams strange world filled extremely uninhibited people people love sing dance fool around alice series sensual adventures among characters br br the film originally shot poem eroticism explicit sex scenes eventually cut theatrical release videocassette versions however original erotic encounters joined end br br for extremely lowbudget picture producers film extremely good job cinematography full life energy dances numbers quite professional acting lovable without doubt one best adult fairy tales around,0 +im going girls sleepover im girl stop karma whores,0 +kill pleasehow find contract killer willing kill me want die want lose health insurance claim please pm resources,1 +ever called redflag hotlineive intrusive thoughts redflag ideation since like ive gotten older gotten harder ignore thoughts convince theyll gone soon ive thought calling hotlines im pretty sure would break sobbing mess whole time even know say could say would help anyone called whats like tia,1 +happens get hospitalizedmy psychiatrist told yesterday wants hospitalize stop anything myself anyone know exactly happens allow to would day look like,1 +world works mysterious waysits late tried sleep something deep inside really want to cant control thoughts im asleep night terrors ive recently enough deterrent keep wanting shut eyes lay there staring ceiling eyes fixated upon bright lights pitying situation trying figure karma bitch feel like everything good person whats point good get taken advantage of light burns out sitting here contemplating giving up watch bright light ive aimlessly staring last minutes give right front me how appropriate think sitting darkness this light burns bright every single day actually appreciated me so gives up now im religious man seriously best time god damned light burn out trying tell me light give too im sorry light paying attention you miss you til left realized much did left would miss me would realize good things them takes appreciated light flickers bit reignites seeing shit late all slept much last week night terrors kept it no sure enough resilience own light watched burn right front eyes shining bright minutes ago oh light wish knew trying tell me hope know always acknowledge it mean appreciate me im happy back importantly im sorry im sorry need need me theres nothing think make happy make light apologize want truly thank you thank light way me done much perhaps even know of light moments left me taught lot need need me light came back maybe knew much needed you people need need them want give them shine them maybe one day someone shine me thanks giving me light,1 +quarantine birthday th turned im uk means could legally drink alcohol fucked up bought jack daniels whiskey drank night good birthday got super drunk dont remember it advice people turning quarantine lives uk make mistake ill next day,0 +movie love canadian movies hire actress like rose understandshe completly useless movie name thats allthe rest cast goodgood enough make little thriller worki surprise plot first time usedbut unknown actors well even jergenim big fan liked movieif got chance see go it,0 +idk im anyway long read willinhidk start male uk really good upbringing sense parents really care me sacrifices make made still blow mind understand stresses emigrating california better future done work put in however grew way fast fault guess ill start major factor jumping gaslit first ever girlfriend feeling love towards someone unrelated also friends someone mentally physically abused abused growing up heavily around drug culture toxins environment holds eventually got corrosive meanwhile im blamed everything im threatened freedom saying shell call police house get arrested stop friends him used anxiety kissing best friend trying cheat party cope in denied week told push bitch would stopped her loneliness honeymoon feeling relationship teen romance bubbling up romance shortlived work fiction lose sidelines illicit substances exchanging them recreational substance abuse intertwined scary ur considering heroin last year smoked weed mdma etc party ones however wound manipulated realizing finally weakened me found prescription painkillers look overdose overdose january th took mg school day academia future stuff like tax sex education getting high school sniffing capsules stools stand brain sober pain emotionally later overdosed realizing happened pull phone realizing whats happened thinking g threshold overdose adults threshold minutes would fallen asleep started go respirotry decompression panicked ashamedfilled guilt hid room hand throat trying throw cus panicked nothing coming literally mean hand throat would burp accept walk bathroom write last words dont want go details ptsd woke up thankfully ampxb traumatised thoughts head christian upbringing question existence heaven mile away devil manifested shoulder felt cold breeze spine heat hells flame my body going extremely hot cold clammy hands would stuck purgatory waiting waiting mother would reacted opening door find son dead sheets peers teachers headlines vessel beautiful soul another statistic fell brain fried suffer tinnitus grainy vision static noise vision driving insane constant reminder flashback feeling train thought running noose around happiness one really knew damaged was looked pale white couldnt eat shit couldnt stand propely cramps couldnt sleep couldnt handle moments silence loading screens video games drove insane sit exam halls complete silence days mock practice tests colleges look at concentrate always edge thought would seize dropdead since common drug that broke two days told mum happened helpline hour verdict go e within hour since might die awful look mother eyes say took overdose etc would question why idea couldnt think could feel like wanted overdose kill me knew never feeling sadness undescribable realised flesh consciousness whats matter meaning life arrive say information school situation supposed wait hour half according tv saying wait times ended waiting gf time found out called junkie always using me im rat phone died broke down non stop crying saw people come whole night get seen me like stuck hell really die bright lights swollen eyes fromc rying causing much pain wrapped longsleeve eyes ampxb get ecg check files drug told blood test since past lethal stage heart seems healthy psychological damage endured past abuse overdose ignored catastrophic told grow stop scarred describing crippiling anxiety tightness chest constant cramps nobody could help reach out would try mental health olympics try make positive it looked like functioning stop asked flashbacks happen conversation withdrew school friendships went fulltime work became hermit paranoia started happen took mdma night group friends eventually saw wasnt bad weird remember much felt like machinist ended sleeping constantly weeks eating eating never feeling full thought weeks passed started think watched wiretapped family it realized paranoia conversations would happen know veil became lifted thge line already distorted ended interview psych ward th morning birthday knew yes questions would get bed love family house lied answers knew id rather get head right home there did problem fix it gradually got better try look back whats happened realize bad things watching perks wallflower hit me sexually exploited child bad kinda basically two older brothers found pleasure ithen made friends online xbox taught porn also another friend mate saying sexual things young u wouldnt understand like putting special mayo food etc one instance stuck me never really understood still dont damages child robbed innocence still unaddressed feel sick damage done cognitive bias manipulated also result ur thoughts manipulating you overdose unlocked problems deal od issues im scared brain switch ill end taking life ampxb cant live activities got involved double narrative life ive lived someone inside im come across mental health support isnt best always thank phone also always distance myself never return calls im scared write back want new life im hypersexual realized someone genuinely called it sickness bacteria taht grow ur darkness stopped growth trying rebuild life skeletons closet even friendliest faces idk typed maybe last nail coffin feeling bad stuff know wrong ignoring it nail really confirm taking back life illness slowly plagued thoughts,1 +think users harsh saw think whole atmosphere preserving i think moderators encourage it kinda unhelpful honestand think moderators shady harsh think resources good mean forum im scared post know else would good ask im taking risk seem prominent forums vulnerable people wanted know anyone else similar thoughts them,1 +want burdeni want die done life im aware death hurt people truly love me see getting anywhere im lazy apathetic found pursuing path others wanted follow feel death way out aware reaching love would right thing do refuse know them know would immediately give anything wanted want that want manipulate others changing actions holding life hostage im good person even loathe idea faling low become manipulator like that want go silence feel want talk tell grateful everything love family friends love see well am always fine that blessed people care me feel enough never enough simply know is want disappear forgotten death accomplish that know will killing feels close enough,1 +wonderful little american propaganda film highly creative openly discusses nazi atrocities entire extent death camps revealed late would reveal evil horrific were film unlike hollywood films date brutally honest film era seen regarding nazi atrocitiesbr br the film begins courtroom futureafter war the film made the war ended may fictitious world court nazi leader tried war crimes wilhelm grimm totally unrepentant one one witnesses called reveal grimms life since series flashbacks first appears film going sympathetic explain grimm pushed join nazis however while becomes apparent grimm sadistic monster episodes amazingly well done definitely hold interest also make film seem less like piece propaganda legitimate dramabr br all all film great job considering film mostly stars secondtier actors many compelling scenes performancesespecially prescient jewish extermination scene towards end cant help bring close tears also interesting around point film supercreative scenes use crosses way might notice first overall mustsee history lovers anyone wants see good filmbr br fyithis meant serious criticism film hitler referred that paper hanger reference myth hitler made money putting wallpaper fact truepreviously hed starving artist homeless person served well german army wwi horrible person yes never paper hanger,0 +dad hates season food cooking hates garlic onion creole old bay pretty much seasoning think about ive cooking pains season food like get salt pepper enough things come now fried chicken day seasoned flour bunch different things got upset seasoned flour asshole ended really liking chicken yalls favorite seasonings things cookeat want get dad try new foods maybe open start liking new things,0 +lets see possible wake six hours seven page essay study math final study whap final stupid hw fall tf asleep around pm,0 +anyone edmentum answer keys tests failing year online need keys find them currently use google look answers well brainly quizlet thkse hit miss,0 +hate muchi hate everyday im really biggest piece shit earth doubt it really dont know continue living aims life really nothing look forward anymore honestly thing prevents im way scared im failure wouldnt loss society anyone else,1 +many days get bed long enough grab food water see people wake early workout chores work socialize after run errandsall one dayi wonderhow hard know it people energy stuff,1 +ive never felt way beforeive never really contemplated redflag happy long time going college well loving boyfriend knew wanted life graduated broke years together know want myself feel like anything anymore was still is love life said loves love me needed time found talking another girl asked why said didnt want talk me says could still talk him yet completely ignore me ive struggling keep busy seems like everything great him hurts much weeks ive feeling like complete piece shit feel stupid keep telling ill leave alone cant go days without trying contact him cry sleep dreams everything good him wake cry again constantly thoughts ever thought would feel way never thought would something like me there lot story obviously want write out anniversary birthday day thats coming up want badly go impossible me moved across country thinking would help working money now planning getting incredibly drunk day calling him large possibility may then know heart hes one me want me want anyone else ive also fantasizing scrapping enough money together flying out going house front him want see hes done me broke me know im asking help know im writing this guess maybe listen me one else know gonna happen next weeks like plan ahead,1 +trigger warning humiliating story sitting tears kill myself crosspost rdepressionthis hard type cant really collect thoughts much anxiety coursing mind right now need get chest im going try try make least complicated possible im going try ramble details much can forgive do past year change suffering depression started way since started develop reveal previously existing ptsd syndromes experienced painful sudden outright abusive breakup end hurt deep never anyone close before mother alcoholic dad physically abused hell kid hes gone now hence ptsd btw leading now year experienced extreme personal trauma abuse important close relationships monthly basis even frequently lately close friends problems romantic relationships nearly started ended because again personal problems these took heaping amounts person abuse berated things hate intentionally saying things knew would hurt really deeply mentally ill people got really vicious terrifying anyway past weeks feeling extremely lonely missing girlfriend still depression hitting rock bottom one nights loneliness went one fuck cam sites girls chat rooms shit kind hung out cute girl whose thumbnail saw honest libido dead hanging really cam girl thing started lot almost every night least couple hours tipped her lot mean i sent girl probably thousand dollars started relate her wasis clearly depressed well seemed struggling life way was wanted supportive told appreciative that would chat privately stuff text day snapchat seemed like getting along weekend night seemed especially sadlonely chatting offered talk needed someone said would help anyway could surprised shit me wasextremely offended like first sort brushed hindsight which tell vague security leaks thought uh ok mean pretty sure going get hacked said oh well chatting secure enough could see reliable program something lost shit said respect boundaries pushing etc meanwhile im loss words told anyway hey sorry meant thought worried hacks etc always talk blah blah seemed cool things down felt uncomfortable point last night got on pmed said hey that said think come back nature personal like pushing back arms length causing good deal pain need move along likeripped half told entitled was shit over like said something stalked whole time im sittingspeechless left got drunk snapchatted something hour later replied something like im sorry mean disrespect you wanted help tell feel sort things feel know value privacy really need help send websites find therapy insurance something ill gladly contribute enough go think good person one thats hurt right now get again promise woke morning got message back yelling me saying piece shit am ignorant am idea im talking about continued go pressing personal info took twitter start publicly bashing me pathetic drone ass fanboys started piling on wellhere are killed me life trauma depression abuse did straw broke camels back cant take anymore big blow knock one cant cant face anymore this im shit piece human scum alone worthless scumbag human being tldr abused entire life emotionally hurt abused constatnly heavily friendsfamily year especially recently started internet friendship camgirl sent thousand dollars to publicly betrayed mocked going kill myself,1 +read reviews middle high schools bored saw comment gus johnson video get bored really entertaining read reviews middle high schools theres lot reviews angry students complaining terrible school is looked reviews high school go lot reviews complaining stairs found one review said if school pokemon would smash ball another one guy talking much loved beekeeping class took there,0 +actual serious post thing hate life hard fix myself hard care thing actively avoid thing emotions fuck emotions like this get jealous feel sad couple time thinking best friends relationship someone get angry im good thing ive never good anything life life started years wasted wasted year work harder try catch cant harder try productive come point hating myself push idea helping myself hhate save myself willingly help myself theres way finally live happy maybe years itll take ages finally get feet im lazy want die rather see fail fail fail again even succeed wont enough ive losing weight year still hate look cant save myself cant people accept people kill themselve want die peacefully theres way ask help death everything disposal yet dont use them hate even seeing friends something life got new car old one broke alot failed mot im nothhing flesh brains value im worthless people need bbe like oh ok useless fucking die would able give resources someone use far better me,0 +friend took sleeping pillslast night received text friend took sleeping pills order end life extremely worried wondering effects stupid decision might be thats enough death im unaware drank alcohol them notified mother responded besides saying me too told worried lives different country im nearby need someone give experience hopefully let know everything okay,1 +care much people thinkjust want day im freaking out whenever talk another person emotions factor anything finally finally enjoy fucking life one day thats need one day gather thoughts anxietyfree much ask please please stop talking me everybody stop talking me cant handle fucking shit,1 +dont get big deal billie eilish photos firstly people need understand vast majority people saying nice things joking laugh theres people said hurtful things meaningfully also fake depressed teen billie fans need stop saying asked posted didnt literally looks normal big issue idk guys shes still good looking im also ,0 +cannot bright moment without taken me idk anymore losing it again try positive help people others take challenge try ruin hurts feel like nothing live,1 +peter otoole one finest actors magnificent reserved school master dedicated teaching young boys meets show girl falls love story one love devotion petula clark adds spirit sensitivity mention remarkable voice enjoy film even though ending might happy one enjoyed it,0 +could make money point next rent check due managed borrow friendsfamily thats get im asking anyone big heart please lend us support like said top understand lot money repay recover blow,1 +know much longer stand herei just know tried september obviously failed feel like belong anywhere fluke something im also type diabetic realized disease alone killed me universe want guess keep thinking cant wait die one talk to talk head day know do really want hug one feel alone,1 +feel ashamed life hardthats,1 +funny people life colleague looks acts exactly like kensuke aida shiftleader planned want get cozy come on seriously take moment appreciate fact work someone looks acts exactly like that lmao,0 +ways kill selfnot asking sympathy advice please bull shit good ways kill myself within hours well,1 +cohortbased course however listicle free online certifications courses wants part creators economy httpsblogcoursesitycomfreecertificationcoursesonlineutm_sourceredditamputm_mediumsocialamputm_campaignredditpostamputm_termfreecertificationhttpsblogcoursesitycomfreecertificationcoursesonlineutm_sourceredditamputm_mediumsocialamputm_campaignredditpostamputm_termfreecertification,0 +depressed least think episodei feel fucking dead insidei feel apathetic literally everythingi cannot sleep well lost job anything physically day anymore want look new jobs job hunting trashi start college fall even find job able work littleparents ass college enrollment best care spending life anything better quick little bursts dopamine like videogames weed sex internet memesi care live tomorrow die right minute could care single heartbeatthe thing keeps alright boyfriend much unhealthy would die ruin relationshipjust fucking dead inside feeling dead inside rant,1 +wish didnt promise best friend wouldnt hurt myselfshes thing preventing ending life right now,1 +questions guys im scared ask irl part ever sent nudes like getting nudes would think less someone found sent nudes,0 +first time considering long time seriouslyi even know start depressed ive maybe ever week now getting months crying time debt shitty job cant catch up cat really sick cant afford vet bills car needs work living government supported apartment feel worthless low self esteem feel eating disorder come back missed wisdom tooth appointment constantly nauseous uncomfortable able sleep months sleeping pills much want take slip away want make sure someone take care cat me feel hopeless giving up even scheduled emergency therapy appointment therapist available person got scheduled told need accept cat might live long told insecurity going drive boyfriend away giving up,1 +feel like trash bagjust everything seems going wrong way out close actual redflag attempt even days ago still feels like gone it lost job money stopped speaking hanging close friends ago reason recently feel like lost fianc huge mess feels like lost know do,1 +sick feeling worthless inferior battling old negative thoughts everyday carry around much guilt shame even shit responsible for care much others think feels oppressive often think killing right thing would mean one less worthless person worthless background earthi feel love liked anyone even think capable so anyone take one look know inferior would settle me would befriend me lowest man earthi want end cried many times going therapy sometimes feel okay seems get worse sick feeling like shit everyday,1 +alonewe hug goodbye airport make way boyfriend waiting upstairs get cab going home break open bags spill presents unto mum boyfriend ill stumble house lay bags one side drop fall bed ill pull covers tight around back mind pretend hug think tomorrow ill need get clean house somehow wonder ill enough strength get cook lunch family takes brunch tell stories trip ill turn tv silence kills me resent people wish alone wish go back empty house time wish someone say welcome home wish google talk home im sick become vulnerable broken body broken spirit loneliness eats even wish could smash everything around me pick shard glass rip skin open let out let every thing inside me pains watch pain flows veins want walk balcony sit rail feel sway wind till find courage let go fall freedom feel wind knocked lungs become empty empty empty darkness inside soul wish skull crack open pavement maybe everyone understand much darkness lives inside brain want breathe in gas slowly seeps away life feel falling asleep last time demons lay me well never wake again demons nip heels make way hell run beside me longer weight shoulders pulling many directions alone tonight wish could last time,1 +suicidal ideation told manipulativei feel awful told someone trying date felt suicidal took ploy manipulation even though feel way lot told found someone died redflag note explain took cries help badly know need seek professional help feel like expressions feeling way taken manipulative regardless real feels me guess matter much need address late feel guilty saying emergency thought like terrible manipulative person thought normal live thoughts long time times worse others hurts lot feeling like must seem faking manipulate feel like thats true dont want hurt real attempt prove wrong think guess im fake all,1 +losing willi went first major bout depression around im now waxed waned never truly gone away im tired first response every problem well could kill yourself draining constantly feel like this effect life relationships studies feel like im wasted potential feel like anyone would miss gone one reach to also deal fairly severe anxiety self confidence issues getting much me know else do every day getting harder could think painless method id done something now ive found brink quite times ive always chickened out even so getting point think im going soon im sorry messed post im new here know else go,1 +watching film light mood also film light end film unexpected leaves long lasting memories ones mindbr br movie starts abhay profession witness registrar marriage soha comes marriage boyfriend doesnt leaving soha alone street cant go back home thing live situation abahy turns helper her base storybr br the rest watchable end story bitter sweet abhay face keeps edge seatbr br dialogues music good songs ok direction good screenplay feel movie slow looking demand story rightbr br a truly watchable especially light mood enjoyed home coke peanuts rating ,0 +dyinghow kill without hurting anyone especially boyfriend,1 +piece shit undeserving life deserve alive better without myself deserve anything,1 +wow danish movie kind content mean actors story pictures efx everything be br br and danish efx house producing vfx wow like nd rd time danish fx produces visual effects qualitybr br spoiler ahead twist ghostly children submarine quite good generally feel big chill would expect ghostmovie end spoilerbr br but anyway danish movie dane proud ofbr br the bad this danish director swedish,0 +im bored anyone wanna chat almost am im bored u cant read flair,0 +know point is attention maybe vent either ways nothing good comes it still depressed ever feel claustrophobic feel exhausted feel totally alone world hate thinking much alone thoughts feel like walking dark room filled dangerous predators locking door behind me know continue post,1 +movie favorite time supposed plot makers wanted people charlie sheen thinkto believe real snuff film exercise visual effects cut away action happens like every film does movies days sound effects leaving visuals made computers cause easier deal cgi blood still movie makers still cant get fake blood look like real thing rape scene point making film seen hills eyes rape scene funny instead shocking although im sure gonzo porn film makers tried marry porn horror since probably suck making films probably able pull off movie baise moi disturbing rape scene actresses actually porn stars show everything even though movie overall sucksbr br its bad movie cant made without thinking money aspect all especially talking ao nc rating im sure eli roth abilitytalent make hostel film series much much better tame get r ratingor least hope movies sucked limitationsbr br watch traces death smashed pumpkins want frills real footage accident crime scenesfootage forget movie made fact film still stand crap made days says lot film would like someone saying bit super mario brothers sucks ps better graphics,0 +dinner tryingeverything worked hard waste im waste wish never here never existed one would even know miss me anyone would go away hope one forget me,1 +need link youtube please parents blocked search browser guys get link youtube get anywhere need please thank,0 +im defeatedive met people life told im loser pathetic ugly going anywhere life theyre right years trying convince better days arrive true thats way is life completely unfair hate theyre correct graduate college year ill kill myself incredibly hard making good friends highschool ive heard hard making life lasting bonds outside school alone long gets hard yourself even talking relationship friendships over days dream someone talk daily ever wanted connect someone one wants get know im poison everyone enters life leaves eventually move onto something better everyone moves something better im left behind alive years nothing show it life added absolutely nothing one better knowing me,1 +alternate timeline id make wonderful mad scientist bad brain timeline ,0 +everything sucksaccess easy ways kill myself pm phone call hurt spend alot waking hours convincing it gets tiring edit oh according conventional wisdom im bipolar refuse get diagnosis due stigma,1 +something positiveidk appropriate post sub since im often wanted say planned end life week ago birthday obviously didnt think blanked day dont remember anything nothings changed im still guess small win me,1 +suicidal also particularly want live im pretty sure heart attack yesterdayso ive struggled thoughts redflag since kid ive strongly convinced want kill myself number reasons im issues figuring think recent events im currently selfemployed uninsured uninsured part stupid know think makes too much difference here given feel this running errand motorcycle yesterday started feeling uncomfortable particular chest feeling tight started feeling weak tried ignore first pretty soon felt like stop get water would pass out pulled fast food place ordered fries got water bites several cups water felt bit better minutes later wanted lay vomit went outside walked nearby parking lot hopefully people wouldnt see me laid pavement threw bit later left arm went numb kinda suspected going point phone told even wasnt heart attack needed go hospital right now heh looked much heart attack costs decided call figured that super pathetic way place die im ok letting go here andafter hour felt ok today felt tired tried going walk chest hurt again head back home im pretty sure survived heart attack yesterday im wrong relatively fine still obviously right thing go doctor get checked out im that heart isnt halfdead thats great really is id rather die face rest life financial ruin guess im struggling figure think this do seems like bunch things think im die even maybe almost died yesterday even heart attack could still also probably live years dont want scare people talking dying also dont want gone unexpectedly opportunity say goodbye make arrangements do,1 +body like browsing reddit felt sleepy turned comfortable awake again,0 +im dreams girl do need therapy im scared good dreams tho,0 +make stopi literally try hard different doctors comminicating changing way think always end wanting ro fucking die wish would stop overdosed janurary entire family hurting amd angry holds me wish succeeded dont wanna breathe dont wanna alive feel trapped theres worth me hurt people really sick feeling guilty alive id rather dead battle one im destined loose,1 +little sister came room got made went outside back mom told look something like room frustrated since annoyed went backyard came back noticed phone missingi know knew password since keep mine remember easieri told mom tell little sister give phonethen little sister shows tell know phone telling give backshe started talking shit normally would ignore depressedbut started talking could hear voice almost sounded like wanted cry kept trying defend myselfmy sister used wayshe used nice everyone liked acting like better everyonesometimes psychotic way tone voice getsmy dad died maybe sleepi everyone since want left alone like looking since rude anythingi know deserve pain long time already hard happy already people acknowledge mental state makes worse embarrassing got hurt little sister,1 +attention rteenagers ulovelamma needs help scrolling looking memes saw one rdankmemes uigotajarofrum saying bad ulovelamma health condition currently suffering right colorectal cancer pls lets make reach eon production ulovelamma get his pls spread word thank time late help thank time pls spread word,0 +boyfriend redflag planive never posted feel loss cant seem find anything online similar figured id post bit backstory boyfriend years called work monday saying checking mental health hospital knew roughly would still shock me wasnt days later opened said made plan chose weapon decided therapy session didnt want anymore weird spot didnt necessarily attempt redflag damn close closer ever could imagined started new job bakery month ago happened ive hard time coping everything told boss probably back following monday fast forward friday get call one friends helped get job saying work team trying understanding think friend thinks im immature irresponsible going work friend even went far enough say maybe strong enough boyfriend since find go work this guess im asking advice friend said work talking cutting hours since ive shown im reliable even though happened never much shown late called out would do feel loss yes realize working know face work especially knowing annoyed me,1 +cant thisim going psychiatrist soon im going put meds cant wait till then feels much know selfish ive much empath life help everyone else myself im done,1 +might finally get independent later month auditions opening states governors school arts bunch artsy stuff like dance drama art creative writing etc whats awesome basically like mini college dorms similar class structure hours away home thats really excites me get meet new people study writing i wanna become writer someday importantly get wear want im nonbinary love skirts fishnet stockings black lipstick grandparents would never let wear them plan audition hopefully get in get job stay schools dorms save money own whats even better two friends also gonna audition means might completely alone get in know lot people probably wont care post im really excited nervous time,0 +really sure expecting this probably cannot harmi m depressed little year feeling suicidal time recently things worsened started cutting feel like edge killing myself really got much feel depressed surface live wealthy part uk got decent family lucky go good enough school opportunities change feel hopeless pretty neglected always quiet reserved one minded much always fine company especially since bullied mercilessly child people know well get humour jolliness strangers almost nobody knows anything actually personal me since always lived fairly far town never really friendships everyone else freedom go make them even teenage years left feeling lonely especially since many friends years simply abandoned me simply put never seem like anyones first choice parents always focused brothers friends really all never been one asked ok last year despite still spending time groups them tried asking help support never know say it always good hiding feelings problems one listens solves peoples problems hey depressed want myself got tips best conversation opener ever heard knew friend described looks got depression became evident friends like wounded animal described felt everyone permanently walking eggshells around him want myself especially since know parents would never let sight knowing suicidalmy boyfriend well start genuinely thought one stupid age sounds know everything going well wonder relationship stopped healthy recently sometimes becomes argumentative angry texting things criticises things me life family quite fair sheer hate rage bordering contempt feel hurts lot time sweet funny never angry person angry episodes online become frequent tried standing little which find difficult general asking kinder me nothing really changes beginning wonder emotionally abusive not hard tell anything anything moment lens depression everything think resisting cognitive distortion hates like everyone else already using lot energyto honest could go night giving tired rants gone wrong life hate myself bore that suffice say got hope left tired going effort living everyday hate reaction anything bad happening urge cut myself wishing death every day time now everyone knew much hurting would probably treat better really point iti decided kill days know yet fear death want live morethank reading got far sorry wrote much sort happened enough,1 +effective wayi know weird question ask subreddit trying prevent redflag wanted ask effectiveleast painful way kill yourself asking question mean want know want kill myself want know later life answering please consider accessibility weapon example eu where live allowed gun like usa,1 +set im living one weeki real desire anything else already cant wait till next thursday,1 +cant stop screwing familys lifetoday got car accident think anybody hurt physically fault insurance damages excess partys vehicle alone even though damage purely cosmetic finally managed pay speeding ticket last month medical disorder keeps working many kinds retail laborintensive job besides traditional office jobs due age lack experience office work kinds places interested me spouse stuck working long hours make fact im piece crap cant even kick jewelry business ive trying get running years now ive contemplating ending life since even got together always thinking nice would alive since day turned thirteen middle traumatic relationship im approaching twentyfive twelve years ive countless abusive relationships scared alone stayed anybody gave kind attention ive miscarried two children biggest achievement graduated high school eleventhhighest gpa fifty people ive never college applied accepted even genuinely wanted go dreams aspirations life im damned letdown act small good thing happens theres always massive bad incident waiting right around corner good stopped outweighing bad long time ago cant even successfully lose weight without falling stairs breaking ankle two weeks diet workout regimen want end it stop screwing life husband daughter car insurance life insurance policy make look like accident somehow theyll still get money plus deal constantly messing making lives much harder be first thing ive done right decade,1 +pointbeing sober hurts,1 +tf society everyone hate,0 +fuck isnt surgerymedicine free us funded entirely government like wtf fund police fire department military science much shit healthcare probably could save lives combined like mental health care surgery prescriptions rehabilitation free paid taxes to extent dont want pay melanias millionth plastic surgery anything like that duty government protect people letting people die theyd rather get buried six feet call cab cant pay infuckingsane idk countries tho really talking us,0 +love mom damn weeks agojust thought posting it talked mom getting tested adhd since ive thought ive while response no one kid like da fuq,0 +heyyy doing fellow british teens haha kidding im american fuck,0 +told family trying overdose medicine told stop even hide box medicines located taking days recommended dose care anymore know feel one,1 +me say makes life piece shitthe constant suffering hardship every front inside every day make life train wreck sign forand want out people say love lifes challenges,1 +another day another reason kill myselfread antilgbt post front page today figured fuck im wanted stay around wanting leave behind want grow old enough ton responsibilities cant even handle life without them im useless im gonna get worse,1 +returning school made realise staying home really suck actually got see people like staying home felt like worth value school people care laugh me realises appreciate friends teachers enough even theyre dicks sometimes im waiting weekend over hate staying home due circumstances cant see anyone classroom oh yeah forget got new timetable got kind teachers lets go,0 +dont mind putting together free hugs stand ill let ya know done also comes free chocolate milk,0 +start apologizing thought first film hilarious mostly brad pitts performance spot onbr br the acting involved quite good brad stole movie atmosphere perfect respects im giant pitt fan got one best roles everbr br brutalhonestgritty good words describe moviebr br i reading previous review person said reasoning behind earlys violence explained explained thankfully go graphic detail get point acrossbr br overall gave every scene bar effective think humor first half perfect movie underrated,0 +feeling pretty lonely extremely depressed would like someone speak toive pretty depressed lately even tried hanging last week want talk someone please thanks,1 +go onthe longer live know terrible person am cant seem stop hurting people care about around enough spiral control want go home work want die know better everyone afterwork im going find place end joke life my redflag note,1 +suffocate duct tapeby taping mouth nose cant breathe,1 +fuck relationships want sex yes took idea hot post here opinion different know deserve people jus waiting turn sex,0 +paranoid subtweeting dont understand anymore,0 +im drawing star wars scene guess complete,0 +dont know much longer thisim stressed time try hard keep motivated cant im close taking bottle pills cutting vein open dont know do havent much motivation anything want lay bed day almost killed last night didnt gets harder every single day dont want leave friends family hurt im suffering much dont really reason kill except friends dont know much take im sorry repetitive really bad words ill probably cut little try sleep god knows ill worse tomorrow,1 +ever blind date da fuck blind date,0 +honestly even know start grandma died last friday week ago abruptly came back home funeral next wednesday truly feel defeated originally come back anyways change id name address told cannot anything name social security gets done backed months name change divorce decree nobody cares feel trapped abusive dead name past abusers truly makes feel like something eating inside every time see it hear it use it cried middle dmv cried middle hospital told need new id first previously told need decree cannot change medical records til ss gets through id get new legal name truly feel defeated burnt out tired mentally empty want able tell someone okay without feeling judged feel like tell partner okay again th day row get tired dealing mei scared point physically safe mentally dead back rock bottom,1 +nothing dull movie held together fully realized characters depth them even hooded torturers body language jannings performance brilliant will want need henry viii must been henny porten is maybe nobler purer anne boleyn plays part written victim caught jaws big huge babybr br sparkuhls cinematography gorgeous restoration tints sensuous lubitsch lets characters breathe reveal corruption tiniest meannesses takes time try patience audience accustomed carried away action time worth spending slow heartbeat watch minor miracle german silent film,0 +good way life implicit negative value sense like life doesnt really make anyones life better didnt exist think world would better off but kill myself pain would inflict would probably make total happiness world go well theres winning,1 +day dad walked room handed thin wooden airplane walked back out,0 +fuck go coming friends basically ive suspicion may trans like years something keeping entire time case regret something point think complete bullshit brain keeping getting happiness skirts wanna tell someone life could easier go it question meme flat saying it,0 +kk slider fan club think would called thinking kk klub pretty sure name wont work obvious reasons,0 +parents taking away car insurance failing grades im well aware failing several classes many us seeing incredibly low performance school year acknowledge entirely fault punishment doesnt exactly make sense im sport athlete parents consistently making late drive theres tons things id like young adult wouldnt possible extremely difficult without car ive failing classes since th grade ive diagnosed adhd parents ignored plausible cause struggles classroom hard focus year incredibly difficult find reasonable motivation actually accomplish work im stupid forced difficult classes havent able get get head game havent helping literally said well gotta focus find motivation wow howd think that anyways ill figure something out think,0 +gets betterif going end minutesthis tale depression im sharing hopes may help people background grew live southern alabama us growing short carefree attitude made great target bullying mention last name included word panty fun that years verbally bullied year physically actually got beat lunch money th grade met girl start love started spending lot time together started dating rock then th grade year mother moved away job another state parents divorced way evil stepmother verbally physically abusive occasion left living grandmother became ill moved aunt far away living house myself working hours week sometimes paying bills still high school least girlfriend high school high gpa decided id go military pay school thought could get base close far away home yeahno far continentally could home two years engagement ring later breaks phone real start all spiral tell friends weeks cause bring accept it finally friend dragged party base ended going home mother twodivorced instead it attached feelings left hanging exfiance new girl date get deployed take break get back continue see official take leave head home couple weeks home course weekend goes meets guy gets engaged weekend tripped fuck out ended sleeping married friend found later became pregnant miscarriage get back leave start cutting myself state feel endorphins kick in real feeling feel fuck head even start oral sex mom whose engaged im sleeping bed her fiance lived couple hours away ask marry work guy classy right saw military psych useless well guessed work got married two step children wife exfiance im still madly love time too new wife tubes tied chance kids find exfiance pregnant another mental blow find friend pregnant child miscarriage another mental blow due force shaping program implemented air force time get transferred reserves back close home uproot step kids wife take washington st lower alabama try fitting wife two kids dog four cats two rats explorer making cross countryso make home finding jobs sucked time hurricane ivan blown job support family would leave weekends reserves hard find family help found job ac heat business worked hospital viral ulcers throat eat drink lost pounds week though changed jobs line cook moved neighboring town relationship got worse got point asked divorced thought yeah wanted make work didnt also around time started hanging high school friends also included exfiancestill love with husband would all including soon exwife go drinking dancing ex would danceslow dance me made think id chance least side wanted anything soon started smoking pot one coworkers help deal it wife left weekend go see new boyfriend virginiawhile still married less gets engaged there leaves two year anniversary bag weednot bad high mention bad anxiety issues pot way deal since insurance money see doctor dated slept around little drugs mdna felt level first time long time exwife left after started hear voice head would say just kill yourself theres reason still alive even worth it many nights alone holding knife wrist got set blind date wife went good started dating shortly that six months relationship need pot anymore things getting better eight months in im pregnant ended getting married year blind date college time finally started college newlyweds kid college financial nightmare started seizures complex partial temporal lobe know place memory is memory sharp anymore took get seizures control failed semester it medical bills piling up luckily mild insurance time seizures control finally move first house mortgage wife dropped college got full time job enter kid number two kids wife mortgage plus full time college student working hrs week anxiety reached high point depression gradually worsened gets bad again would days days days constantly think killing myself bad daysdidnt go classes maintained c avg best could tried see psych college professor sessions pop dollars student talk you useless funny story took one tests know mentally lying stable lol sadly regretfully started affair co worker lady ran pizza joint shopping strip fellow classmate sex classmate made fingered two made hate more wife found classmate confessed know two rough patch got it exfiance would come store worked occasion would still get biggest anxiety attacks hard enough think much less see her finally got contact ago able talk things her even still took several months finally come emotional realization us nine yearsnine years love person unrequitedly good im married someone loves two kids still financial problems steadily working that low emotionally imagine wanting kill myself went bouts could think killing myself held knife wrist many times made small cuts made bigger cuts elsewhere point take decade get better also believe destiny fate life flow let go drift makes nicer ride fight flow like several occasions even times could feel current me wanted control life hard sometimes live life walk far enough desert find oasis,1 +feel like thisi get depressed reason mental health hate it push that stressed cant fix problem cant handle issue stress criticism well spiral control want die disappear would truely care vanished,1 +want talk physical person thingsthe minutes counting down first attempt seeking someone talk face face probably last attempt anyone tempescottsdale area id like hear you want say hour post able respond reddit keeps post blocking me oh well give hour posting time,1 +almost shot myselfi almost shot myself cant help feel like minor issue seek help talk it think people committing redflag feel like major issue immediately addressed thinking lot urge kill still there additionally big selfharming problem therapy appointment soon feel like bring up,1 +moved hourswelp wanna die point life ima kill eventually matter when ughhhhhhhhhhhhh life miserable people happy,1 +sucks im christian ive always thought church ive going past years great teaching generally really good really lost respect whole pandemic mandating masks worn services treating covid like joke mom agree irresponsible were attending person carelessness understand cant decent thing take seriously top first service back building watched online pastor basically shaming people afraid come church mean yes agree together fellowship want people come part make sure safe youth group same wear masks really liked youth group seen people age often past months obviously looking forward would able meet again cant go theyre safe,0 +oh jey look user flairits user flair change day happy flair change day happy flair change day happy flair change day dear pronoobie happy flair change day singing aghhh im lonely ahhhhgh,0 +feel bad sorryi even know start this emotions stirred up even know feel anymore except continuing depressed it so currently little envious friends starting failure back june ive completed ib diploma programme sponsored able continue study abroad met sponsors requirements yet results bad im unable pursue studies overseas thats fine me thing kinda bugs felt left friends able get great results met sponsors requirements felt like pushed away mostly chat boat me recently sort of now already continue studies local universities one friend even without telling all make feel alienated like unwanted like proof convince useless kinda friend am guess useless like trait every day im feeling way always recalled back moment yo get excellent result back primary school final exam causing dad hate me even so family went holiday end year twelve happened unfortunately smashed ceiling light accidentally stick place stayed i kinda swing stick imagining like one guys front marching band light piece really expensive guess dad went mad point shouted something cared back then grow realized left permanent scar inside me shouted born asked mom abort even born know something disappointing like would happen etc bla bla almost years passed since then still remember words dad really conflict sometimes talk not really since mostly listening much mostly busy things mother working feed family yeah cliche is type family looks happy actually kinda broken maybe meh think it want hang noose make things worst im closeted gay religion gay crime live sometimes wondered living pakistan would better since least become hijra no know prefer men must hide sake name really big deal since stay closeted thats really pushing towards depression sense needing keep upon think actually making feel suicidal since small always tendency hide problems others even forced tell problems always ended telling lies cover ups would think ok fine even time people told tell problems no kept myself always comes mind disturb people problem enough handle own then again showing foolish hypocrite selfish egoistical am cant handle pain much more hearing people telling go see someone easy never really knew hard that hard trapped mind bear problems alone hiding even close me feeling alienated im quiet cry alone time thinking stupid silly things wanting suffering end cant im weak worthless useless am sorry long rant sorry taking time sorry everything but thank anyways,1 +im gonna say it im gonna say it better call saul better breaking bad disagree opinion simply wrong good day,0 +let help yall something want age flair go subsgttop right cornergtuser flair nice day ,0 +police kills criminalthey get payedbut kill person steal eraser im psychopath murderer sociedad,0 +depression comes waves know continue lifei go waves ok severe depression want go sleep never wake again really see point life well work fucking cares value person one cares im here one cares me,1 +good jobthats would describe animated scoobydoo adventurethis far best animated scooby movies seeni liked storyi thought depth itthe movie also well pacedit get boring minuteit also interesting group charactersbesides scooby shaggy gangof courseplusthe movie real blasti lot fun watching iti also liked great scottish musicit catchy infectiousnaturallywe know scooby gamg solve mysterybut still fun getting pointthe animation also pretty good moviei would love d animation scooby adventurebut well wait seefor mescoobydoo loch ness monster ,0 +lets see long keep mask onsince middle school ive dealt depression honest gotten progressively worse last yearswhen talk people it always tell gets better reality doesnt hell think ever has survived middle school high school dragging bed every morning class hating there hating people surrounded around by fact anyone talk to felt lonely quite frankly still am confidence shattered longer man used be longer gentle loving confident man was exists hardened shell man exterior containing shattered remains myself im broken man walking around college alone inside out ever since got everything gone downhill me ive barely made friends girlfriend broke me grades complete shit girlfriend thing kept happy best thing thats happened throughout putrid waste life gave fucking reason live ended breaking always busy im mad it now im even worse off hate going home now reason went home truly smile anymore happy faces ive put mask really feel inside hate ever beginning show publicly stopped giving shit happens me want disappear face earth sure people go funeral theyll cry theyll say much care know good never give fuck me years thing happen like friend offed junior year high school even blip radar ill gone world go without me like going without friend now wait chance consumed deaths cold embrace whether hand someone elses end matter,1 +redflag subdidnt used sub people considering redflag people seeking help im looking someone talk me tell anything think help etc im looking quickest painless way ive considered nitrogen based pod expensive maybe similar method less expensive afford couple grand would enough post expenses bought pod considering waiting able afford pod plus expenses would prefer wait long,1 +find useless dealing social redflag others may find easy go work me really redflagful whenever think going work even job find meaningless too wake am am job reaches home pm hours left stuff sleeping early cos got get early next day again goes rest life like all tried sell stuff online support financially working out breadwinner passed on left huge debt housing loan also suffering monthly utilities bills family relatives tell go work income support family others look me since useless slowly losing live want leave go happier world slowly losing survive anymore reasons live on,1 +people right id love talk anyone pm want to really awake rn,0 +guys freak heck new gang new famous whatever sorry ive using reddit like idk couple days please explain im like years old old people dni,0 +getting worsei didnt know could get worse am feel like im losing mind dont know im dont know am good person piece shit ever anything life probably wont live long wish could happy least cope like people do ive lost almost motivation keep going werent little brother sister would already gone im supposed role model im supposed one leads way im furthest behind brother sister plans shes going make it brother smart age support reinforcement ever have im ive done nothing worth nothing all mom told today need get shit together supposed that im like her,1 +dont pass gcses im going kill myself years old fact im suicidal young goes show absolute joke lf country live in fail maths mock tomorrow thats me fuck uk government fuck everything honest know whole life ahead me whole life underpaid hell job thats life want live incompetence government fact think months learning time made less fuck life quit bullshit blame tory education sector,1 +opinion on career option quick note agree blm movement disagree alm movement agree cops people support enforce racist system justice ive seen lot people sharing around posts career option black isnt disagree first part since career choice many people people say career choice people age still live parents never made single cent entire lives definetely live own hand older people youngadultage college students college graduates parttime workers etc never done anything claim career choice why many people depending careers live people say know hard make money make living people work day sunrise till midnight could food eat water drink say career option parents career gives money money live bedroom air conditioner money nice meal times day money cups water day money phone fast internet connection say career option but lot celebrities say career option celebrities make millions dollars single instagram fucking post make millions dollar posting shit instagram course would easy say career option quit jobs still millions dollars bank accounts lot people need constant income live now expect people bombard hate comments and either lazy ass read arguments read whole thing spoiled ass still need money parents make opinions careers dont even job,0 +watched shrek school best class ever,0 +life failure mi honestly never suicidal thoughts life considering now wife left january waiting papers come now learned today passed promotion everybody said sure would get job basically deadend skills move another industry financially im ok whats fuckin point more job thing left life idea continuing move thing even wake for literally friends either moved away got married kids prospect another human really seems far reach right now anybody talk anything aside dad mom sad actually want text exwife somethinganything human contact im going that want reach employees subordinates want worrying knowing feel way feel emptiness now cant describe bad hurts im reaching guys now,1 +slightly overlong set episode previous week paid uncertain terms episode hit heights certain deus ex machina flavour resolution cliffhanger good start that common doctor moral ethical emotional considerations actions centre stage always classic series side issue glossed doctor heat battle regeneration even says sorry cyberman battle episode finally shows mickey embracing heroic side hinted previous episodes journey zero hero complete utterly convincing one scares humour scenes brought lump throat episode everything much consideration finally say new series betters classic series every single respect coming die hard whovian get better recommendation that,0 +anyone else feel like theres ticking clocksometimes feel like im walking gallows like every step take one step closer dying constantly make new plans hanging people delay process almost hear ticking background not literally like time running out terrifies me like either im scared im going hurt im angry im still trying latter never makes sense me anyone get actually angry given up like supervillain comic book anime theyre shouting why still trying give already head constant half brain tells give half shouts even think giving up nothing brings joy anymore favorite things sleeping help hanging friends temporary respite scary used rely fact always wanted family like get married kids even thought things sounds like terrible brain like ugh means wed still alive like im scared even one day im happy behind me ill always think this comes second dying though might make sense hear head sadly feel bones im stuck half wants try keep going depression like no hard get every day things interact even watch tv read books still miserable half like please stop this im terrified sound awful nothing makes sense anymore anyone else wake first thought ugh im still here thought anything makes want die like brain says well clean house dead go work eat anything im looking advice kind recognition im alone like know im alone millions people deal this id like hear specific issues answer questions might get asked ive dealing years yes im medication th times charm right friends family know im okay hard understand im talking doctor this im trying everything nothing working im tired scared sad,1 +honestly know much longer go attempted many times past overdosing sadly survived one biggest reasons still is bc want parents bury me want pass pain onto others really much left me dreams amp goals seem impossible depression draining me amp suicide mind psych ward many times tried many different medications amp seen therapists friends amp family supportive really understand wish already gone cannot keep going,1 +something like free willi think so make sense,1 +last night cousin got together wrote cringey ass poem inspired linkin park yeah cring hell fun reccommend doin that,0 +dont know whats happeningtoday bad stupidly thought cured realise delusional phase again dissociating shower past hours im wrecked shocked im place again anyone else wschizophrenia delusional disorders ever convince theyre sane mind always horrible time delusion breaks ,1 +best analogy school imagine getting beat near death baseball bat person beating asking dollars week sam thing,0 +funni mean able joke making fun someone something works sometimes comes mean sometimes too do help d,0 +guys get wave sadness nowhere know fuckkkkkk feel like want die sudden guys situation anyways guys good day,0 +kill myselfi year old kissless virgin almost done university social life literally spending entire day room feel like nobody would want friends low value male like am might good idea spend less time internet feel like slowly getting corrupted incel reading much stuff like social status rule women go men,1 +truly one golden age hollywood kind make anymore unique fun movie keeps guessing going happen next br br all actors perfectly cast great supporting actors first movie saw ronald colman fan ever since reginald gardiner always favorite supporting actor mine adds certain quality every movie in played different kind character here still added something movie another actor cast character would added,0 +someone cheer pls tell anything idc need distractions stuff going rn,0 +hyrdroxyzine sertraline overdosemy first post im wondering happens overdose zoloft vistaril like pills mg zoloft pills mg vistaril,1 +may biased author novel hungry bachelors club selfpublished screenplay written good friend hungry bachelor fred dresch inspiration character marlon film pleased trailer hope see film entirety comment jorja fox plays delmar youngblood character stellar carries bulk emotional vehicles fine form done better myself looks like real people hardly formula driven thankfully drives statement racial prejudice home gracefully heartfelt,0 +sectioningive feeling suicidal recently feel like whole virus situation going on would benefit seeking help really feel like im unable cope danger wondering would perhaps still section people even pandemic anyone know anything sectioning current times,1 +oddi odd hours ago huge amount painkillers ambulance choking charcol drink fiance holding hand crying mother law outside ambulanc shouting telling everyone came stupid was tookevery pf fibre punch her regardless feel awful fiancee regret move sitting inside e waiting see doctor,1 +upset fought long be genuinely need help good double post,1 +kalm im gonna get sorry ass kicked house screwd parents or legal guardian accessed browsing history like delete browsing history,0 +cant live like anymorei cant anymore ive talked counselors ive talked friends family coworkersi legitimate reason anymore life shit im broke im disabled live shit house shit town people care ones reach toand im forgotten soon close chat window ive hurt people used people ive hurt used ive abused raped assaulted much weight bear anymore cant live it im sorry im sorry,1 +finally asked crush years yesterday came little bit hang me decided watch movie talk eventually conversation topics slowly turned romantic flirty next thing know shes shes wrapped holding tight weve texting since plan meet wednesday thursday wanna surprise big meal ideasadvice,0 +know much longer hold killing myselfive tried overdosing twice past years failed times even though took lot first time pills found around hours later second time several bottles prescription meds including sedativessleeping pills lithium kind slept vomited out people told reason failed ive never believed it moments happiness life last years mostly ive lethargic miserable want leave house ever want get home lie down im really tired cant fall asleep wear out drink much take sleeping meds desire better improve life idid buy new car recently nice happiness purchase short lived resigned never take another partner desire sex cultivate friendships new relationships fear living parents rent house forever im riddled anxiety ive taken many different kinds meds cant even remember all none affect positively recreational drugs illicit poor reactions dont like them like drink almost control im out dont always drink though always drank ive always felt way far back remember like around age im mid s mental health still fucked sure ive made positive changes growth nothing compared massive amount crap going head people always telling seem fine im dramatic try share bad pain is say look act like imhappy well duh im going mopeing around time others looking tried therapy went therapists quit started online therapy ive month really helping tried exercise dieting became unhealthily obsessed stop im nothing baby real hobbies passions dreams goals simply want cease existence im tied fighting feelings want give end all always wanted die still do im thinking buying russian pills online like barbiturates ending life taking ton several gimlets glasses wine maybe weed tub really set mood plus tub would catch vomit easier cleanup family maybe could lay tarp im sure easy get vomit bathtub whatever do really think im gonna time fail keep trying succeed ill buy fucking pistol blow brains hang partial suspension idk want constant suffering with im always paranoid ive tried best get help help me im living nightmare every day every night,1 +nothing left loseim soon homeless entire family moved far away theory finally it boyfriend friend together finally move forward life im thing holding back tired old cycle everyday plenty plans timing im sure of know time say goodbyes,1 +hey mi beary good friendship someone years nownow day feel really far want losesince passed bacaloria exam everyone hit roadnowaday meet seems talk thingit normal thing imagining things something solve friendship dies,1 + suicidali born family fights grew hometown till never probably remember seeing father moved city village things got complicatedi kid never anyone play sister born thought lucky someone play all suddenly lost attention parent felt lonely preferred school home good school things changed hit puberty understanding world changed chaotic lonely time first thoughts suicide getting bad grades family constant fights everything past decided end forced join boys scout really hard someone already controlled environment joining made worse criticised everything could manage school pressure peaks little friends family member would rely on confidence family would even flinch bit disappeared guess what attempted suicide attempts row third time attempted body could handle literal moving dead body months even recovering wished would die planned things cannot even imagine worst part nowhere girl class proposed me shock eventually fell love lived happily year perspective life changed grateful her devastated day said would want anymore would concentrated studiesi mad af threw fights randomly life fkin hope ever live world gone like that got weeks still fkin hope would come back yearsi extreme levels depression still now could talk express emotions trapped self lost interest live addicted suicidal ideation used play songs till made cry desperate love experienced last much anyone would say world hope live could even last till could even experience it destroyed hopes lost want live anymore still alive absolute reason satisfying people alive waiting day courage attempt life worthless nothing loser want die would say suffering would last long happiness forever either wasted life freaking years,1 +um idea do guy told going kill himself basically im trader tf guy added steam trade with backed deal doing fine said this removed ive made decision im prob going so sorry wasting time im actually crate lol problem mate im actually crate wasted none time removed well think kinda innapropriate say im actually crate hm removed im probably going commit redflag im actually crate okay removed so cya removed offline heres steamid removed hes still online know trolling hes serious ive reported account put chat log report update posted thread please direct there httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsmiqso_this_is_my_story,1 +hate shit lifei cant fucking take anymore im tired me im tired familys failure fucking hate it cant fucking picture responsable adult im obviously gonna make past im failing school im alone one cares cant anything im fucking coward tell anyone it im scared commit redflag im fucking stuck here wanna end bad im scared hate,1 +ive dealing lot problem past years childhood present yearsever since little father died years old elementary school ive bullied lot speech disorder weight ive repeat kindergarten speech disorder failed rd grade middle school ive developed anxiety never talk anyone speech disorder ive never friends high school year great stepfather died thats feeling depressed sleep thinking much shit ive through im done anything life anxiety depression cant get relationship maybe im interested attractive trust people since want use me ive throughout life keep thinking negative stupid thoughts like kill myself run away people keep telling think positive shit work though like putting happy mask forgot it,1 +many us read book seen play movie version came terribly disappointed well maybe would one movies saw play too someone never opportunity see stage extremely entertained movie characters funny music great story interesting made feel genuine empathy characters flaws all jonathan silverman good comedic timing lines especially hilarious im going give spoilers nicely done funny movie showing inner workings middle class family wwii never saw play enjoyed neil simon movies held back couple negative reviews seen here own brighton beach memoirs great movie guarantee no money back though,0 +serious note though anybody thought faking death way nobody cares anymore move another country fake name fake passportbasically start new life existing oneis even possible age that faking death moving another country,1 +set goals would weight study get better job keep failing things today point want cry something courage so consistency concentration thingshelp pls fail want,1 +liesive lying lot people really trivial things makes look better anything like that get kick it eating alive recently cant stop love lying people anything cant live lying others breakfast time woke up life based falsification grandeur deserve life think take,1 +say that expecting wick movie blurred surprised notredflag way nice teenager movie kinds situations normal school life say reminded school times sometimes good watch kind movies entertain us travel us back golden years young well lead us think better way must understand children past like want present timetry movie pleasedat time guarantee time wasted,0 +might become femboy one day feel like purpose life,0 +divorcemy wife told me via text morning separating chronic pain sufferer reached point making happy thing gave life meaning im terrible father never developed kind relationship kids have im waiting day end reason dont kill trauma would cause kids get day nothing makes happy anymore things used give joy came physical things cant anymore wife doesnt love anymore,1 +got unbanned days like anime site fucked man couldnt even dispute it stop reporting people downvote please,0 +helpwhat simple way kill self,1 +theres point really triedtried get life together every step forward ten steps back cant anymore especially alone refuse continue live miserably minuscule chance id ever even find friend let alone partner could deal mental illnesses im tired im failure im alone im ready give now,1 +gives butterflies everyone something somebody says gives warm fuzzy feeling literally sitting couch somebody like touching like inch away like also call baby plz,0 +getting award goes wrong template need find template please help explanation template would like someone giving award winner winner gets hands award givers dick want template troll colleague please help,0 +took new job gut feeling ready die now point want kill feel peace,1 +sometimes let noobs win cod free allc know hard new players sometimes let win ,0 +gameis game immensely cause harm purposefully character asking friend,1 +mostly reminder use pill box purchased awhile ago rather taking pills straight bottle felt like needed get somewhere somehow update like me obsessively search forums like one thought id post happened since then took awhile find psychiatrist accepting patients finally saw one yesterday regards strange symptoms result taking nd pill accident said since mg already max dose lexapro taking mg could produce psychotic symptoms,1 +feel almost every week need someone talk toplease pm me edit am went sleep back now thank sw pms love guys,1 +redflag note would like feedbackive written redflag note ive sat weeks thought bounced back antilife always finds way id like critique it maybe another set eyes it im curious people would think im thinking ill post facebook decide jump parking garage im afraid falling regretting decision way dont guns dont want buy either think jumping might best dont want chances regretting past point return is small child thought universe solely existed torture dungeon specifically designed cause universal suffering thought existed solely pain plagued years ago maybe even perhaps even hard say mind gradually changed time since ive made significant lifestyle changes something ive probably times much come always feint feeling hope inside me hope desire change seek life want live become best version myself small hope reality actually something inherently good ive actually worked theory formula proving positive existence reality ive hit pretty big snag time around ive smaller psychological breaks one might one in perhaps depression self destruct mechanism genetically dead ends perhaps someone born without emotional needs met young age perhaps never taught tools form relationships human beings enter self destruct mode depression eventually kill allow resources socialemotional bandwidth better people perhaps people inherently stronger them like form natural selection built right dna perhaps depression redflag isnt abnormal perhaps fact people like born abnormal depression breakdown psyche eventual course correction redflag put another way fact someone depressed natural death assured via psychological natural selection perhaps process supposed happen people like me im error struggled depression since remember probably elementary school even preschool alone entire life preschool id hit kids wouldnt hang me wouldnt hang hit them feel echoes well adulthood maybe im still lonely maybe unloved perhaps never exist first place redflag course correction bloodline perhaps stop here hope ive explained well enough might bit esoteric basically youre suicidal youre supposed die isnt struggle depression youre supposed succumb depression die trying live whats abnormal every time see large group friends usually social media living lives want live happy couple enamored romance im hit intense unending jealousy always wanted loved always wanted apart bigger whole could never alone again since middle school always dreamt wife kids nothing makes happier thinking married life something simple grocery shopping wife playing kids beach seems paradisal me highest pleasure think of isnt meant me kind happiness never mine fought entire life years maybe sign universe telling bow out self destruct mechanism certainly seems like it else born way never consented existence anyways prison isolation ups life ploy effort cause maximum despair im allowed positive life experiences next negative experience crush even harder last process entropy completely crush soul theres shortage young men feel do youre wondering school shootings happen look african proverb takes village raise child village rejects child child burn village feel warmth secret plain day young men things feel isolated unloved uncared for isolation gives way depression jealousy jealously gives way anger anger hatred people technically structure reality mass shootings like twisted way showing god awful feel inside expression dread anything im like though dont hate people love humans anything thats hate home time want surrounded lots people time want one them want human too human enjoy life enjoy compassion love enjoy acceptance reality instead feel cast heaven straight hell love universe never something could have existed torment me depression sign god sign never exist first place ive written past maybe didnt get everything out feel cold alone loveless weak pain im tired sorrow dread tired fighting life im tired working meaningless jobs shit benefits quit job currently community college transfer university cant help feel like ive made huge mistake chasing dreams cant get full time job ive sent apps part time jobs reply im broke money im couch surfing weeks worth oatmeal breakfast lunch dinner healthcare expensive isnt offered part timers im tired living like this thats want end it im genetic error im thing wasnt supposed exist thats ones burden own bow out feel like say thanks everyone whos helped come far dont even know real not maybe one grand illusion maybe life one long nightmare im sorry death causes pain please understand isnt way time say goodbye thank you thats it im totally sold redflag yet feel like close dont think ive included everything here think gets point across,1 +plan killing tomorrownot sure im supposed posting here where dont really fucking know anymore so im ive got many things life could name good make happy guess thats whats gonna make much harder know good life compared people im abused im bullied school dont know feel like this dont know whats wrong me dont want alive dont want exist dont know why im fucking dumb even funny im even smart enough ask questions get smarter dont understand things world work forget stuff much zero motivation almost anything used love drawing hands shake cant make right lines isnt turning right none is cant school work couple weeks im falling behind cant understand material none making sense tomorrows sisters birthday turns dont get see cause shell moms house thought that guess ill end dying birthday know thats gonna suck dont really day could on im gonna miss im gonna miss little brother older sister im gonna miss everyone dont plan life dont want anymore im probably gonna take fuck ton pills doesnt work theres always bunch guns dads closet know anymore im hoping hours wont anymore ive tried medicine counseling anything could imagine end didnt work still wishing dead get ive got many fucking years ahead dont care anymore,1 +someone put eyeliner looks sick im guy fuck gender norms looking pretty badass,0 +im hurting friendsi see reason live cant make friends happy make feel good get irony take life hurt even already made friend love feel bad cant handle that real asshole even though depressed alone excuse make someone feel bad guess got enough shit left me wrote blog leave alone since make feel bad know much hurts hear friend love say make feel bad felt like heart dropped place left long comment telling feel friendship someone said haha fag get shot really hurt agree whomever said it deserve life im hurting people feel like im bad person trying nice others thats im cutting people life worst part friends thinks moved know im suicidal painted picture im happy reality im sad hell feels like months even though days want know understand heartbreak lost friend cared about one friend knows im planing hes leaving country able anything left room like days sit dark rage idiot im eating sleeping stopped talking friends im afraid might hurt scare away gone school long time social service might take away parents force live foster home turn met big problems school like skipping classes inspired try hard get good grades care less grades happens future miss friend really pushes edge know im writing chance get thoughts guess read really change anything even know killed myself even found really think would care bad person isnt hurt bad want anything me live happily like never existed gonna think miss me even surprise already forgotten erased memory promised contact wont even im gonna end life it im get chance come surprise everybody much know friend leaves country one really stop me know well goodbye guess tldr im fucking idiot hurts friends whatever deserve live that,1 +greetings darkness much anticipated twisted comedy writerdirector richard shepard coming party pierce brosnan actor bond guy gone new guy something else entirely read shepard thought brosnan much pretty boy plum role brosnan proves perfect julian noble facilitator anything pretty underestimate twisted humor one go expect punch lines sight gags regarding types sex killing religion sports business anything else might deem politically incorrect brosnan takes excellent script another level marvelous facial gestures physical movements even sitting hotel bed with without sombrero joy beholdbr br greg kinnear straight guy brosnans comic plenty depth comic timing make partnership click hope davis small subtly effective supporting role kinnears wife whats name bean happens get little excited facilitator living roombr br the visuals settings perfect including bullfight racetrack denver suburb often get killers xavier cugat soundtrack one definitely everyone sense humor bit center enjoy risky filmmaking could you,0 +check staging fool absolute dunce hollowminded halfwit fucking buffoon,0 +omg eyes like theyre uneven please dont even care abt look want eyeliner easier,0 +tell tell me why cant happy done be told everything expected me so why tell cant happy continued made bed strove best everything told still left tell me tell now whats wrong me really deserve happy please tell me horrible cruel tell me unlovable fool tell me do make understand tell do shall follow command,1 +god cant wait move go prestigious university big city bunch rich kids fall love billionares son dad lowkey mafia leader son gonna take couple years fall love anyways rival mafia kidnaps order leverage son kills guy saves fall love kids im lawyer even tho im married leader biggest mafia north america thats hot part,0 +research study opportunity still looking participantsour research team florida state university currently conducting study risk factors suicidal thoughts behaviors primary goal study better understand thoughts feelings experiences motivate suicidal thoughts behaviors interested recruiting people use website participate research study participation completely voluntary interested participating complete online screener see qualify participate qualify complete variety questionnaires online study involve four online assessments next month take min complete compensated online gift cards amazon important things know study are study includes questions images regarding selfharm redflag unpleasant images strongly emphasize images included extremely graphic redflagrelated images people may feel images disturbing may find triggering information collected kept anonymous participation completely voluntary link provide send website telling study site decide whether want participate start participate decide longer feel comfortable longer interested stop time provide links treatment resources throughout study study include participants years older please send us private message interested participating contact us send link screening questionnaire see qualify tell study please note participated study point vanderbilt university unfortunately eligible participate again,1 +ive fighting kill two hours now want fight anymorei feel like lost everyone ever mattered either death choice want stop,1 +trying help someoneidk right group ask friend making intentional posts social media saying hes close taking life mom took life last month really helped first weeks id devastated took life makes posts time many friends make big effort involve him really try make feel welcome loved parents adopted child still involved life believe hes even living since wife decided separate relationship due depression hes medical professionals treated depression since ive known him depression seems gotten much worse feel helpless torn trying more amount help hes received continues receive dont think theres anyone do,1 +take privacy granted mom forced put parental controls phone blood boiling rage literally privacy now cant delete browser history much less open incognito tab know know good intentions wants know location case emergency going become much more dad sus heavily it guys listen close never ever take privacy granted enjoy every minute porn enjoy every incognito tab open enjoy every text send one day might come crashing down first probably last post sub please heed advice,0 +trick help memorize things want memorize give award,0 +im guys mental health destroyed life im donewhen everything live for straight as great relationship ivy league college depression anxiety stole all take two years focus mental health finally managed get degree spent next years working minimum wage job im strong enough anything more ivy league degree fucks sake love life beautiful doctor stuck finally broke time shes spent last year calling texting maybe getting back relationship either cancelled every time plans meet anxiety last month started dating guy cant face another day shit medication exercise therapy nothing works bother see hell naturally,1 +hayao miyazaki name became prominent spitied away however often overlooked directors first film efforts remembers spielberg directed duel george lucas directed thx remember seeing fragments movie almost certainly last minutes late s stuck visual lushness design animation found copy well known store resist buy it odd thing last minutes movie tally memory memory funny waybr br viewing movie gained knowledge artists portfolios like jean moebius giraud artwork is assume influence herebr br when pazu catches falling girl sheeta adventure really begins quest laputa reference jonathan swifts overlooked portion gullivers travels healthy references jules verne basic good vs bad chase movie final portion heroes end laputabr br this portion strongest memory pastoral ecological aspect laputa returned nature multitude robots covered moss beneath giant tree is opinion highlight movie views surface laputa opposed mechanised undergroundbr br although dichotomy movie show even technology cannot overcome nature irony last robot tending garden animals ending movie silent running almost exactly samebr br it incredibly stylish would say slick beautiful organic tremendous amount detail buildings airships design look everythingbr br myazaki true master kind japnanese anime buy movie treasure it,0 +im thinking jumping bridge nearby im pretty sure impact kill meive lost hope cant find enjoyment anything ive decided might do think jumping tall place quickest way way need worry second thoughts like medication overdose wish could make meaningful reality ill probably another number another static story matter,1 +dont thoughts like literally ever cant even remember last time thought,0 +shoulda done ittwo weeks ago today planned out wrote note told best friend nice things say her even tried contact ex boyfriend tell hes entirely responsible death around am everything set up gonna hang necktie closet partial suspension hanging put neck loop pushed down felt spooking tighten around neck began feel light headed began pass out it tellyou why reached undid knot around neck psychiatrists ive seen my parents found sent hospital ive ever since told really want die thats total bullshit ive never wanted anything die maybe way cat meowing me scared someone saving me maybe instincts anyways getting tothe point this ive spent every day since regretting choice going it ive miserable thought death since longer stay alive want be made harder alone whole redflag thing write new note since therapist yelled gave mine read truth is nothing changed two weeks ago now except maybe reaffirming choice end everything anyway guess im venting whatever shit still sucks sorry spelling errors im writing ipod,1 +really nothing add comments save this film looked like silent film slowly adapted sound text boards bringing story along reinforced impression suppose along way actors allowed leave stilted theatrelike acting marguerite churchill much looks like typical early silent movie heroine beginning film end allowed finer expressions gus swede reminded comic characters shakespeare plays windy sounded like early donald duckbr br it truly amazed filmed outdoors location even though dust wagons horses cattle obscured view must actually like real settlers also clear many indians must real detect overt racism towards them john wayne looks incredibly young someone became real wayne fan cavalry trilogy john ford thought stage coach waynes first leading star film revelation plot simple reminding silent film grit real indeed amazing film made technique conditions ,0 +memory the last hunt stuck since saw movie far ahead others time addressed treatment natives environment ever present contrast short long term effects greed relevant today cinemagraphic discussion utmost depth relevance top setting beautiful cinematography excellent memory movie end days,0 +mild spoilersbr br and thats top ten time stumbled across two hands accident maybe made special inflated expectations ifc one night believe heard anything it heath ledger getting famous usa im sure available time telling friends film one could find anywhere except occasional ifc showingbr br anyway blackcomedygangster genre fits well favorites everybody film really seems end deserve bryan brown hilarious main gangster makes origami small son plays scrabble henchmen also hilarious quickedit fate random car thief even heath pretty good it time vaguely remembered shortlived series fox called roar hopefully gregor jordan make another hit far im concerned best yet,0 +it turning backi officially going end sad little trainwreck life next friday worked out end,1 +sitting dbt group realizing time end allive tried many means get better therapist reviewing homework another group member talks way much old enough mom cant imagine acting im age ive feeling extremely suicidal since monday sent er doctor said stable enough go home lie er doctor moment fine know draining people anymore time go,1 +really bad heart burn school night trying fix sleeping schedule slap face know heart burn makes things laying fucking hurt fuck you oh whats that need breathe continue already shit existence sucks breathing hurts fuck part like human body trying get speed run redflag took pepto pain medicine done shit sucky thing really tired stand unless want release cocaine feening cthulhu pain chest cavity get wrong standing hurts too calmer pain makes sense,0 +creeping backhi there havent visited sub quite time felt like better guess wrong felt pretty ok months now creeping back me longer afford antidepressants seems like things getting bad again cant shake feeling cant get back im sure do im extremely apathetic exhausted today im trying remain focused work feel like walking running car tree feel bad post guess needed place vent sorry,1 +need confusion stopim severe alcoholic ive drinking since in moderation control week since ive tried stopping get shakes waking cold sweats ive bed past three days ive thinking much better death would compared shit cant go longer days without getting fucked anything im travacalm feel something ive decided change hard everytime fuck life everyone around affected killing doesnt help lie bed sad waste alcohol love life right,1 +constant paini trying remember last time pain years since remember day hurt either pains stomach joint pains theres cure illness either im scared im hoping day never come day im pain wish could its wonderful life it want cause pain others love care me much times wish never existed pain know sounds pathetic planned out scared causing pain sure do im tired,1 +getting motivation something lifei chronic depression social anxiety life long lack motivation thought started getting passion weightlifting would set back right track and felt like awhile ive gone gym like times entire year took time school get better get treatment made depressed isolated im situation made new friend years ive single entire life im going new school soon even though social anxiety makes school miserable experience trying read motivational posts watch videos sucks know way turn life around better start proactive it cant convince even worth it ive depressed long become part me almost like im addicted depressed point effort would take even put slightly better place seems insurmountable cant stop thinking much easier would kill myself desire anything become anything fuck tough like want die time desire better life think lucky sheltered am make feel like im ranting entitled manchild something,1 +byetheres reason live anymore bye,1 +feel like redflag pervasive thought mindhi im female im constantly thinking much easier dying would life life many expectations pressures work hospo jobs final semester uni feel though direction sure average reading writing analytical skills average look jobs online theres always skill im missing good enough at feel like im average everything skills music sing write songs even good theyre average im meant achieving something feel stupid time even im slightly good something never good enough im friends someone never lasts long fuck start rumours ignore like friend feel stop friend makes feel like even like person looks let get close in sense spend lot time together im lonely end leaving anyway recently happened guy close months straight want relationship start tried gave up friendship worth kept ignoring me proper boyfriend either im seeing guy ive seen years still love know end together told that friends become people actively avoid else ill feel even shit myself family distant really feel like one cares ive stopped feeling like friends boyfriend kind future ampxb also really short attention span hinders academic abilities great deal want working stuff care im losing interest things used love every day feels exhausting ampxb really know post become attempted redflag three times past years time take enough pills kill myself want sleep wake im tired thinking feeling me someone please offer advice life worth living not,1 +ignorei feel like life reached point possibility happy cant think anything would make want live theres nothing want nothing look forward to except death course still stay alive makes sense paradox reason redflag rightnow still choose reason nothing stopping im scared death think,1 +everything coming back againi tried kill october stopped parents seeing counselor taking ssris thoughts went away semester made friends life finally getting better going hill again im back never feeling happy feel anything think easily could end life nobody would miss me doubt would even know im gone,1 +want work myself idc myself want love myself hate always like this refuse make step towards bettering myself hope end dead fucking ditch side fucking forgotten country road hate,1 +im talking guy rn sc hes taking long respond making mad really mad im starting think hes getting bored me date monday dont know do,0 +anyone want play video games together f uh im really bored amp need xbox friends feel free text want play video games together,0 +example world war documentary madeusing first hand accounts actual troops civilians participated awful conflictand archived footage gathered around time i caught rerun history channel year half backwith knowledge really second world war timebut enveloped meand consider world war buffwatching reading find itbut nothing comes close landmark documentarydefinitely worth buying boxed set ofbr br this quite simply documentary making highest standard,0 +final goodbye well like first hello last goodbye one ive never posted subreddit now ill teenager hours im banished adulthood grow elder eventually cease together fun lasted ill see dudes side,0 +even guts iti used tell always get ruts one would ever believe amount crap survived fall ten steps back time promised dear pet accidental death nothing promised live prosperous life her really hard cant take crap thats handed meish years it cant remember ive full good year one bothering dumb drama friend backstabbing hurt boy losing job always crap every year cant take anymore knew last one would send edge last friend childhood kept touch hes ignoring lord knows hes behind back think job right feel little suicidal think things get better get job taking long time even get interview finally might getting one soon asked times would available tldr thought never family really depressing cant find guy treat right time especially anything first jerk me,1 +mess words flirting irl kinda sucks innit words slip mouth brain chance process it,0 +im upset biden cant believe democrats stole election trump won cant believe people actually want like venizuala starve higher taxes,0 +i wish could become nothing,1 +give sad indie rock songs cry please im practically begging usual songs getting old im sad,0 +attempted redflag another thing failed atit two weeks since almost died life full almosts pretty much it know redflag fate im pretty sure sure,1 +worst day life hey guys hour ago heard gf in lika month would year anniversary another bf for months now damn im dead seriously dead mean could write fucked im right u imagine it advise go school tomorrow staying bed month crying,0 +concince wash hair two weeks dont even like clean know should please help,0 +wish physical part dying easyim years old friends besides one go work school fee time spent video games nothing better do really hate redflag looked bad yes counter argument redflag selfish hurt anyone physically ive tried standing cliff want die pussy out rate get enough balls jump everything better wish redflag pills legal,1 +repost rdepression need help get suicidal friend fast possiblesome background friend years old know work since years started work company overweight generally shy nice guy due bullying as talked earlier me traits never relationship girl this big issue him however right actually dream job spent around years university studies get degree get job got it thing is attention deficit hyperactivity disorder adhd problem school got extra time studying exams help through get fired bad repute cannot handle job boss told last week ie chance getting second chance anywhere weekend friend drinks invited got tipsydrunk like everyone else took aside said might night commit redflag due everything above left party walk fresh air talk it thing is dont know say ask seek professional help situation seems hopeless him two things right values life loved woman able manage dream job say knowing persona wont find woman tragic thats world works type mental deficiency line work doomed beginning shouldnt allowed study build debt beginning someone stepped right help think really urgent think already means plan know probably contacted afraid going grasping someone say right things im afraid push saying wrong thing im sorry broken english im native english speaker,1 +lost everythingi everything could ask past year based career rule moved halfway across country internationally impactful medical research patient took time make sure prepared success problem is policy change made nearly impossible succeed spent four years life based policy path towards becoming doctor left everything pursue this perfect career path beautiful girlfriend great reputation way completing dreams one step success quit chance getting back debt job available im impossible situation rest cohort gone medical school im stuck parents house settling everything wanted lost it moved halfway across country research experience ended position breeding rats brain surgery subsequently decapitating them went immensely happy individual emergency services experience sociopath breeding killing animals middle nowhere paid masters degree would led medical school classmates projects entailed growing cells petri dishes im intense brain work lab animals left everything go back school policy eliminated absolutely chance success im depressed dysfunctional chubby kid growing worked sixpack great grades world feet someone changed rule warning constant thoughts redflag removed program mental health make worse cant think anymore im trapped past dreams taken me wish something blame sickness took everything me accident simply policy changed destroyed career happiest asshole planet im depressed cant function lost job girlfriend reputation career im immense debt want live want dreams back want health back program complete lesser version prior goals settling less im depressed cant think performance great im alone cant focus depression makes one want around me throughout life ive become bilingual saved lives built houses held every job looking purpose found purpose taken me love was now someone changed rule cant function masters program performing well rule changed started meltdowns mental health caused burn bridges ultimately led suicidal thoughts removed program hastily went another program without seeking proper treatment new program incredibly stressful people failing left right basically hunger games version academics put cherry cake discrepancy application could lead rejection im paranoid someone fuck over im debt im furnace stress want out todays world seems like way redflag memories whatifs shouldhavebeens destroying me first thing think wake up cannot produce anything aside ruminating im dead inside feel like joke everything lost all career ruined someone changing rule id love go something else debt really permit it emergency fund multiple plans redflag im immensely ashamed myself basically got fucked tried patient cost everything im quitter now,1 +left live fori feel like im letting everyone around down mother keeps telling everyone sacrificed much able attend college im selfish dont anything return dont know anymore ive hated put last years finally feel happy want actually start putting mental health first get called selfish dont know please anyone even myself im fucking burden im sitting clutching bottle pills trying decide dying would better worse,1 +situation girlfriend serous problems home contemplating suicide reference life easy parents passed away alcohol homeless recently lost job grandmother living let see finds job next week going kicked out even tho actively trying hardest id move place mom allow it refusing help point afraid going tomorrow morning know do really afraid two siblings lot friends care her know getting people mindset next impossible scared alive tomorrow someone please advice ill take it want live important me girlfriend needs help idk else,1 +day saying random crap relates panic disco decide ask crush point panic disco power trio made brendon urie brendon uries forehead alcoholic puppet beebo nicole dan mike make sure nothing goes horribly wrong also alert sarah urie everything goes shit,0 +advice needed last post give anything go im reposting sent crush picture snapchat get streaks going them day half since responded send pic else,0 +someone said taste sucks like smth humanity dont like lmao stupid tho,0 +betty make assumptions switched homeroom think cause,0 +yoooo maid dress finally arrived comes like bajillion pieces gonna take like hours put lmoa,0 +first day back mediocre lets make tomorrow better ok want less megathiccc nice people less spam less politics,0 +miss french guy added discord fun sharing memes owo stuff chilling talking that didint respect didnt wanted called irl name cus wasnt suposed know it unfrended met reddit btw,0 +life taken turn worsti feel like life keeps getting worse worse hard want kill myself fiance cheated third time stupidly stay hes made believe deserve nothing better wish could fade awaym,1 +real suppleroot hours up weekend gone,0 +discord server howdy anyones interested joining discord server please dm me pretty chill mostly place bored people hang out open suggestions mods pretty nice ask role bot something thanks great day,0 +slip knot hangmans noosewhich correct method,1 +redflag hotline website easily find someone talk toif feel alone suicidal need someone talk understand situation please hesitate use link find real support httpsredflaghotlineorghttpsredflaghotlineorg website detect general ip location point local support line care,1 +one find whats wrong normal enjoy life againi havent brushed teeth showered days go days like time months im low energy joints hurt never go outside cuz cold hurts like old person im bare minimum look good work always feel disgusting dont know customers even nice like job literally kindness prettiness going me feel stupid brain fog malnourishment bad stomach constantly pain constantly scared food feel sick health issue tests coming week cant find something help going lose mind im end rope cut almost everyone close dont realize im preparing death mind literally suffering constantly dont even know tell work anymore call much fear everyone misunderstands thinks im really sick saw gi specialist told look like im perfect health drop university twice classes graduate im sick make class anyone knows knows isnt spent birthday thanksgiving christmas new years day alone room eating crying staring wall one find whats wrong normal enjoy life again,1 +im going end iti hate everything myself look act inner thoughts much anxiety anything im failure theres really reason never good enough never happy want die shouldnt born ,1 +parents admitted hospital assumed going nervous breakdown stay week hell stay hospital triggered psychotic episode would pin give injection buttcheek saw naked also physically aggressive body language male staff threatening triggered lot paranoia me also gave many pills feel like brain become mush now genuinely want live anymore lost positive trait left crying non stop now feel like doomed eternity nothing left world feel like good trait intelligence gone due drugs given even graduated high school yet stay hospital made worse,1 +anime dubbed subtitles important need know,0 +would love one people pull through im notim statistic everyone make it im going one ones doesnt thats fate know it one day probably soon im going pull trigger,1 +my life literally soapopera point story full abandonment emotional manipulationabuse with physical abuse w former stepfather mine honestly remember longterm happiness got put meds shit therapist like one day afford anymore im depressed ive ever been parents shit therefore raised grandparents since covid came around said fuck that grandfather might die grandmother oxygen she was hospitalized thankfully home now ive already promised grandfather dies im going him ive honestly run reasons live hell might even end sooner keep nights like this whats point living makes miserable,1 +shameful revelation probably dont want dieso basically ive lot inner work recently honestly things started turn around come reasonable family reasonable back story honestly nothing big thing anytime see anything reminds possibility redflag self harm becomes overvalued idea cant get rid of im also ashamed realise probably dont want die really want take good long sleep icu wake find everything magically sorted me shame honesty getting quite overwhelming wondering anyone advice regarding shame probably romanticized idea redflag,1 +title says suicide selfish choice,1 +sitting here kill silently feel need tell someone go am like this want people care know feel like tell someone makes sense thinking straight cannot understand likely able respond anyone phone die me wrong me attention seeking,1 +kill know life going end shit im got future social skills never going get betterim loser real close friends care me dont skills courage make friends relationships school either im failing school im uselessness failure wont able get university dont know want life feel hopeless anxiety high idk im honestly considering jumping bridge front car something theres point suffer anymore social life future im meant happy idk im honestly close something dont know anymore exist,1 +today second time past six months put together tools end life ate potatohow fucking stupid that thoughts still there nothing done logic reasoning continues lead want end it sat tools planned methods redflag notes making sure loved ones find first even finding method leave mostly unmutilated corpse figured want go empty stomach hours later sit still here think hate nearly thirty years dealing facets make me well me powerless continue find changing them get wrong know motivations difference nice person asshole pretending nice person year right two decades shortage methods facades put parade function normal human adult developed ive started therapy actually seems going somewhere yet sit medication control little episodes also seem jack shit moment though truly honestly felt like whole person ones surprise fallen love importantly let fall love someone broke off really really try hold gained but well sometimes surrounded wrong kind people almost year half later remain completely shattered constantly questioning people try help me paradoxically feeling painfully alone unable share pain also good bit self inflicted social isolation sucks whole fucking lot lived extrovert whole life naturally kind trust issues added bonus honestly cant figure whether feel valid feel begin with communication takes pretty big fucking hit lost job thanks one almost four years pissed drain skewered relationships bonus and well put spot want end life get talked eating fucking potato see im lucky next time rears retarded head,1 +inferiorim tired feeling down ive always problem envy envy people envy everyone see people way better lives me never get admiration crave never get feeling important anyone way get respected even try best receive admiration help people come life positive advice never get return uplift others let drown agony dignity say no more weak serve others cost well being feel reason self esteem unworthy love respect admiration end,1 +desperately need helpa stranger blackmailing me making admit lot things save relationship someone want lose want hurt theyll stop harassing someone say im one harassing them oh god killing me,1 +failing college want decent jobhello all ampxb made similar post little ago account mainly rehashing untold details im college student studying web development im well classes all im probably going fail academic probation kicked school understand javascript basic stuff html css want get decent paying job able support myself able skills especially get degree tried get job without one ampxb supposedly redflag never answer able basic thing adults able do getting decent job support on point continuing living especially know biggest goal life id rather dead live failure,1 +lonelyim thinking offing moment although ive thought past im sad lonely gone beyond emotional pain gotten point heart physically aches friends helps little video games distract second im alone feel like absolute shit,1 +wow like gaming bought nintendo switch march quarantine im already bored it bought one game tho pokmon sword still think ill excited games imma sell buy good headphones big question is beats bose,0 +today get drunkits months since last time want drink till pass out least forget miserable feel everyday severe depression gonna lie im taking meds really care point something happens alcohol,1 +read pleasei know title this honestly everything life beloved boyfriend dumping seemingly feeling thing after almost year broken me every time something bad happens feel way every time feel like rock bottom im finally going it always manage something else happen sink even lower said feel though timewell closest ive ever redflag keep seeing signs telling right thing hard obviously idk even went er monday told admit id kill myself locked room hours let go haha sign cant even cut anymore feels like end cant even bring cut energy anyone experie ce this,1 +wow suicide hotline put hold eventually hung,1 +tried kill last night woke morning know feel itlast night took entire bottle xanax drank nearly entire bottle gin amp vodka proceeded go sleep ready felt really sick one point blacked out woke hours later covered vomit seems threw xanax really know feel want die dont need everything stop edit probably going try tonight knows may work time,1 +want enddddi feel like mess matter hard try never stop upcoming bpd phases always manage cut anyone close me always vicious cycle cant feel anything forced eat today every bite absolutely nauseating eating hurts much point wanna cry want disappear probably get home ill cut wanna feel hurt thing understand im writing nothing makes coherent sense doesnt matter ill die anyway,1 +liked movie way much problem thought actor playing villain low rent michael ironside corse ironside low rent jack nicholson guess mike busy year highlander quickening sadly beastmaster would much better career move certainly best beastmaster series many ways reminiscent great big screen classic masters universe star incomparable mark singer also features amazing supporting cast specifically second girl sliders uncle phil fresh prince belair evil chick superman rocked world certainly must see anyone social physical outlets beastmaster forever rockn roll,0 + year reddit damn cant believe already year reddit first sub ever part of like damn ive while hey ive enjoyed time plan stay till longer teen thank giving amazing first year reddit,0 +make post something im really bored therws nothing pc shit cant play games youtube boring cant go outside,0 +posting made things worse tbhive posted times throwaway accounts people just idk mean people saying things like get yourself posted made artwork which never said masterpiece time effort felt pointless person gave disregarded it point ask artwork good not since art completely subjective way person acted gave really hurt yet someone decided tell post link painting awful get it also mentioned suicidal simply rejection long list things added up thats one posts ive made ive deleted ones well one mentioned feel like bringing again ask ampxb whole point here thought subreddit people feeling suicidal come ventfind support understand feeling way feel like not somebody tell get tell im allowed hurt happened realize place people invalidate peoples feelings experiences if anything nice say say anything all like get people might like art everybody will tell get art awful therefore person got shitty reaction justified just rude personalized thing specific tastes means meant person gave to mean hurtful matter good bad anyones art person give present throws away right mr art critic seems understood this ampxb feel suicidal want burn painting punch inconsiderate user face disappear,1 +title required mom called unload dishwasher instead calling name yelled starlight theorist im confused,0 +saying goodnight till get gf takers ama ill answer goodnight yous sweet dreams,0 +five years tenko survivors returning home marions doubleedged well thats thatbr br its reunion time gangs here marion bea ulrica kate dorothy christina dominica latecomers maggie alice story unfolds beaut perfectly written acted thoughtprovoking moving original seriesbr br all questions left hanging end series neatly answered here marions family josss health centre everything changed five years everything changed bestbr br a trip dominicas plantation brings plenty shocks truly edgeoftheseat tension theres real sense tragedy disaster as again fate takes women struggle lives dominica finally shows true colours shoutatthetelly moments dramabr br lush location filming singapore opportunity catch group women feel like become friends shame really end could watch again perfection,0 +everytime gets mad takes phone items away tells bought his hes even broke iphone bought long time ago give money want some need good reason why works overnights makes things hard me long island railroad barely runs times even months old would baby go overnight know do im tired feeling trapped helpless,1 +escape alternativesthis bit positive lot reason think killing way boringstressful life used think going mental institute actually going really good place escape suggestions espacism plans driving hours see ex probably healthy,1 +notes mainly read want lulnot really cry help less damn im really thinking good way slip life pass feel like games kept people dont feel great feel like stay long enough dont judge want everyone everything forget feel like got close people dont know want leave dont want bring anyone like anonymous easier way found shit dunno dont like life someone else talking themselfs kills everytime felt accepted want leave pass friend somewhat likes around think reason im want find way soon dont want hurt hard explain would never tell want find dark side would hurt dont want anyone miss im loser doesnt deserve anything life way think look need killed,1 +incase feeling stressed heres amogus,0 +hurting inside know going stop tired,1 +feel like im standing edgerecently ive drastically cut marijuana usage every day twice week days im sober spent stressing keep professional persona work every goal try look forward sounds uninviting days smoke make happy overthink criticize myself become deeply introspective sad much needs fixed apparent found someone least cares shows beauty life worry often depression ruin us connection know rare cant ruin us wonder increasingly stressful days lead growth death,1 +hey im gonna play among us join ill put code comments copy paste in europe ill wait like mins starting oh go public needed i friends please join lol,0 +okay time decide this best group rteenagers group mean age coolio all think already know wont say biased,0 +stave redflagconstant suicidal thoughts without support network futuresome background im extremely isolated physical health abuse trauma anxiety reasons cant connect community lgbt intersex real option survive right camming ive basically surviving willpower alone things need help keep existing getting harder harder maintain anyone talk to last attempts turned really abusive isolating alienating cant see anyone professional engaging people online whether various fandoms my community feels basically impossible tried feel like ive eroded away im loss beat back enough keep living,1 +know might sound wierd need help finding good picture im project school one part needs picture would nice could maybe help find one tysm advance anyway need picture sais basically i lot life a lot bad things basically like yea everyone love died im alone im tired care also bonus female ps remembered rn meme anime girl dont think ill use it,0 +helpits getting hard,1 +rant older sister shes great really fun hang around stuff love kinda shallow whenever go always buy food something without even really thinking im like that dont really expect anything back christmas got things knew shed really love spent fine loved expected didnt get family anything like oh get paid will like oh okay biggie like didnt money goes spends like friends gifts like right really pissed went see guy barely met wanted fuck gave really thoughtful expensive gift put time effort asked wheres gift kept saying didnt money got paid like op look new clothes literally bought whole new wardrobe top that shes getting eyebrows nails done stuff see new guy wednesday dont even care point money wouldve really happy made something puts energy people barely know sucks doesnt even gift wanna spend time like shell like im gonna go beach snow hiking im like go shes like no sucks dont see fuck boys helping clean car comfort shes crying anything,0 +might made mistakehello everyone first post reddit first time feel like ive got something relevant post need get chest go think ive made mistake thinking ahead ive never attempted redflag think lot definitely mind dying actually knew tomorrow day id die try even slightest stop whats more id looking forward it moment cant say im certain commit redflag day neither say im certain it now think went wrong whats often mind friends often make redflag jokes and know ones it supposed mean anything were fooling around however find contemplating redflag really often despite mentioning ironically humorous context day decide kill myself feel like friends might feel guilty anything it start blaming recognizing jokes warning stopping me cant blame them because said many people joke way every single one suicidal friends good people last thing id want feel miserable me honestly thing keeps going feel like ive trapped here recklessly fooling around thingsand regret now things get better able endure longer lose day give decide take life way avoid feeling responsible read whole thing thank ,1 +redflag thing mindi want here im ive started studying levels see future myself started going downhill back april year suffer emetaphobia the fear vomiting social anxiety depression eating disorders suicidal thoughts intentions anxiety whole panicanxiety attacks everyone talk says slow process get process takes long here redflag first thing mind wake last thing mind sleep see future panic time barely eat ive lost stone matter months eating anyone advice,1 +normal able jerk without lube cant all hurts way much theres movement all ive people without lube idk im supposed able,0 +year thats felt like lifeon july th turning years old clinically diagnosed depression recently completely gone away ive felt rather happy free thought felt like normalcy mental state feels foreign evolved significant version myself past two years traveled hyperspeed everything felt short lived rapid like shutter camera havent able live breathe moment true potential would argue say posthigh school crossroad ive stagnant in past two years felt like glitch system life development unlike probably everyone know not im freightened turn im ready ive lost grip train life hundreds miles ahead nothing thats enough close gap feel need move will ive referring saying pass away instead redflag cannot bring say is time yes attempted got freakishly close succeeding way summoned depression thought redflag move scenario hopes creating place here titled thread way think us felt though weve lived several lifetimes want know world put flames want know kind experience trash mental complications want understand importance life worth living natural death ill around cant say many times ive thought passing away never succeeding probably another one times unfortunately,1 +bethesda joke gtbe gtwanna play fallout gt buy steam gt fucking work gtnot compatible windows gtrefund gtmonth later gtgo pirates bay gt fallout gtpirate gtit works bethesda fucking joke mean fallout new vegas compatible windows fallout not fucking joke,0 +dont want anymoreit hurts much want gone,1 +hope mi seriously hope even possible feel empty,1 +mean mom came room tried tuck bed started telling stories toddler would tuck in like u remember said obviously like oh left,0 +whats ur shittiest pickup line surround terrible pick lines heres mine id say beautiful beauty inside know bc inside yet,0 +boredim entirely sure im even writing this im bored life nothing horrific ever happened me im done beauty gone toodaloo,1 +one thing say one thing,0 +user risk believehttpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsuvqdhow_does_somebody_hang_themself_with_a_beltutm_sourceredditandroidhttpswwwredditcomraskredditcommentsuvqdhow_does_somebody_hang_themself_with_a_beltutm_sourceredditandroid also wrote poem recently hanging know else get help im posting here edit herehttpswwwredditcomrddlccommentsutbnxi_will_be_freeutm_sourceredditandroid poem umeemraud,1 +im tired want wild ridegood night sleep well,1 +life redflag attempta week passed since first redflag attempt ive struggling years silence best maintain facade thought finally ending pain relieving moment im still here everything changed terrifying im fearful many things including activities used effortlessly psychiatric hospital attempt three days convincing everyone around okay left still feeling empty wanting live part wants others able see pain im good composing speaking positively convince everyone around opposite real truth feel alone needy feeling hate have im returning work tomorrow far soon sick days terrified possible trigger feel perpetually anxious jittery antidepressants guilty feel much shame surrounding everything never told family major support system dark makes feel lonelier told boyfriend upset worried may affect him everyone always tells honest really mean that find hard believe someone deeply invested well would want hear intimate details demons haunt constant basis,1 +im afraid ill commit redflagim never thought id live long always thought id kill turned that really plan life plan something think get live move mothers house find apartment live in job obviously know that things thats expected me honestly even that im depressed cant imagine life getting better ever happy im still alive boyfriend even acting weird makes feel worse god want die,1 +fuck missingim trying really fucking hard okay ive done nothing try fix im getting fucking worse supposed do im fucked man im fucked dont know do im lost alone scared fuck im ive suicidal years now dont know do nobody knows gave me everybody gave wish didnt miss many people really wish still here dont feel much anymore empty im even sad anymore emptiness hurts sadness wish sad angry dont care anymore ive completely fucking given up im done fuck supposed fucking rigged man matter end worse cant fucking bothered bullshit bullshit everyone much happier deserve im fucking child ive felt dead since man why time anyone shows compassion mother crying me people doctors counsellors get involved yet firste reachecd anad told going tos kill laughed me wont make wont get married wont children wont job car anything meaningful im much lazy depressed cunt anything dream redflag hide room fuck want jump man cant deal it keep slipping things keep looking good moment end again always again fuck,1 +say turning one things look forward tohow spent th birthday weeks ago knee praying hours friend got shot safe makes alive sadly didnt ever since day ive hoping see bigger picture think live grief longer,1 +yall like jojo thats made discord server except jojo adventure dm want crappy jojo memes server,0 +tf write right fountain pen im new fountains pens got today umany help this know probably worst sub ask this idk ask best option,0 +everything slowly getting better me friends plays video games numb pain school starts soon gave ever making good friend playing video games dad walks winning son dad im losing everything play cod one day random says lives state ask lives minites friends hang drive around fun ive forever dad asks playing video games winning son yeah dad,0 + year old guy friends lonely depressed cannot sleep something happened today rlly set cannot stop remembering memories thinking rlly want someone talk comforted one rlly need someone please help,1 +feeling suicidalso im years old male strugling clinical depression anxiety almost years now days better other today instance thinking going home work slice wrists open probably wont tough know idea killing follows eternal everlasting oblivion kinda ofattractive thinking yeasterday cant stand myself bear feeling guilty much myself probably pain think deserve it karma whatever cant take anymore know writing really good needed say something someone vent anyway sorry anything,1 +struggling hold togetherim m literally feel like complete failure life got degree currently unemployed living parents suffering depression years now feel like complete joke never girlfriend struggling see point anything also feel like weak person sick everything lot friends seem making progress life still stuck nothing made numerous changes life multiple times always end miserable matter what got job even depressed unemployed moved different country still miserable zero motivation absolutely hate working withfor people generally pessimistic view humanity despise people cant help this every time try optimistic millions things prove otherwise kid myself abuse alcoholdrugs point blacking times week really care stopping really see point happens end getting boreddepressed sober least hammered forget much failure hours also pretty sure suffering serious mental illness lot people said think mentally unwell need help behavior completely erratic time especially drunk found idealizing redflag recently often think easy would make problems disappear pretty sure doomed miserable anyways point going on reason followed family good people care lot need help,1 +like im depressed anything shit sucks pp,0 +im losingim ive alone life cant stand living like this hope me want kill th birthday,1 +stg fucking tape blood test hurts actual needle,0 +pls tell im aloneam one feels sad time cant tell anyone dont rlly anything much sad well nothing havent able deal past years maybe fact everything bad happens doesnt seem bad seems normal recenly moved schools dont many friends well close ones anyways used cry time ig stopped dont cry sit school anywhere thinking life would like wasnt me didnt grow did didnt constantly make mistakes didnt seem like failure parents also get mad little things idk conrol it know cant get help cant talk family shit idk ig im bit confused things dont rlly anyone guide me,1 +first last posti dont know decided post tonight currently another ongoing mental breakdown im year old female tonight im going end life sis goes bed dad goes work moment im ready ive never felt hopeless ive got takes ive lost friends im burden parents im hooked meth almost month now ive coke times week life ruined options fix it mental states mess im diganosed ocd depression delusions child coming back im experiencing sleep paralysis exploding head syndrome falling asleep hallcuations im start lead something actual tonight end end everyones misery tonightgoodbye,1 +pleas help person rredflaghttpswwwredditcomrasktransgendercommentskvcim_starting_to_plan_my_redflag_tw,1 +pain life know ache know keep awake tonight fills dread hate braces tightened,0 +guess got attention looking formy dumbass thought would good thing get random people raid spanish teachers class shes jerk somehow trace without evidence im pc use vpn things prevent seeing talking expelljuvie go juvie im offing myself wish luck friends mental health problems bitch top hurts me let guys know whats happening later wish luck,1 +post nosleep thought might relevant stories sub supposed truethis guy apparently visits different kinds afterlife dreams night thought story shared one realm particular might help people give up since might even slight possibility existing here ishttpwwwredditcomrnosleepcommentsomy_visit_to_the_woods_of_redflag,1 +although totally agree previous comment regarding marvellous acting toni servillo titta di girolamo would also like add beautiful filming montage turns movie virtually painting young director paolo sorrentino courage experiment different types camera techniques reminded darren aronofsky requiem dream used mtvstyle filming combined modern alternativetechno music making film le consequenze dellamore stand apart crimemafia movies genre even though movie may start slowpaced almost sec compared faster hollywood productions enjoyed cause serenity marvellous character portray splendid ending definitely must see people enjoy europeanitalian cinema ps toni keep acting like need encore,0 +scary thoughtsall think hurting killing myself really exhausted living way,1 +deserve liveim pansexual apparently thats disgusting deserve die deserve die deserve die deserve die,1 +yknow make joke someone takes seriously pier one going business mom buying rugs selling mark ebay made crap ton money joked saying give money literally said willing make deal pending wanted like wait joke idk would spend money new amp guitar bunch shit would cool ahhhh,0 +im italian ive recently looked film astonished beauty first time years old liked it today appreciate adult mind feelings understand masterpiece special season italian cinema pasolini etc time gone br br the hollywood epic films goodfor fun perhaps odyssey english version enough funny suitable popcorn coke audience however suitable homer pathos existentialist reflectionsbr br in italy recently released good dvd version integral excellent colors find file sharing italian only without subtitles bad also dialogs voices film remarkable,0 +theres chance one household members die soon whole family including me covid survival rate us makes survival rate doesnt seem like lot thats chance one us die freaking out,0 +overdosed nearly died anyone want friends support otheri one told dad odd went back sleep told im going er went back sleep thats family talk anything nothing all im glad survived hoping could meet friend support eachother keep hoping find amazing girl makes life worth living again im holding much hope p dont like admit miss ex years left right mom died cancer like day anyone want come rescue kind soul bit broken inside,1 +shes little baby bitch vacation idaho i know shouldnt be didnt say it good time water park leaving sister gave dad drink carrying big bag btw dads girlfriend said come on carry that dad carrying things day not really ok dad said fine drink anyways girlfriend said no shes lazy drink weighs like pound doesnt fucking matter hold care much time talk and time hear talk shes yelling or someone something petty washing dish inside day taking shower soon enough dad ever marries girlfriend i really hope not ive decided never say stepmom anyone dads wife dad isnt strict all might im reacting like this baby think shes immature rant posts things might give context cookie read this half cookie didnt,0 +fastest easiest way redflag pls help,1 +best friend killed himselfand want him sickening never ok this feel responsible dont try tell otherwise,1 +someday youre someday youre bound lose everything everybody around gone final fantasy vii,0 +someone watch dog please think todays day might,1 +book suggestions want read books books would best novels stuff contemporary stuff lives teens stuff mean books specifically lives teenagers teenbased like reasons redflag teenbased,0 +wanna dieeveryone ever loved didnt want left life shatters im sick tired fighting gonna get better nothing left live anymore except beloved cats dont even take care well deserve someone else could offer much tiny messy flat life incredibly painful cant anymore ive past breaking point long time wish someone would love,1 +guys help dont know whats happening usually like chocolate dont eat and sweet things days ive eating way chocolate usual way way more maybe equal chocolate bar day playing games ill disassociate want puke feel limbs theyll get cold,0 +know guts beauty guts virgin crap films hated many im gonna put bus say like em especially guts beauty aka entrails beautiful woman watched night folks pad surprised well actually went overbr br entrails type madcap cheapo horror softcore sleaze epic really find much outside asia specifically japan case basically raperevenge flick reincarnated monster instead silly shotgun murders motorboatpropelled noose even ticked daddy chainsawthat stuffs silly rather see hermaphroditic monster hilarious little snake monster winkybr br perversion factor movie high graphic sometimes wacky rape sequences fake pop shots satisfying masturbation monster sex sequences oughta like like corman nuggets like humanoids deep dunno maybe thats stretch personally think entrails beautiful woman let avid fan asian sleaze bizarro bpicsbr br yeah know sometimes recommendations always everyones cuppa tea even like kind garbage do stand behind one ,0 +kinds movies loved still love growing up unlike big budget movies crate huge plot holes never acknowledge them movie takes stride makes something sit back enjoybr br there film student earlier complained list material point point movie everyone likes huge cgi clich filled movies lot people like movies meant entertain you get much money canbr br besides also nice know good ol bruce dead yet,0 +notice senpaiii huge crush awesome girl met discord nothing realistic unbelievably awesome wanna bad know happen ever always feel excited texts worried might upset annoy maybe im also spamming lil bit im insecure one real crush nothing like it way intense im thinking literally time things could if need advice want get even depressed everything sux,0 +sit face suffocate pleas thank,0 +nothing good live forleaving world tonight,1 +need helpim m never gf before life ive wanted loving relationship unfortunately never found girl willing give chance im shy guy cant approach girls whichever ones approach text couple weeks disappear girls text back get obsessed end thinking every hour day constantly texting them could stop texting know life constantly walk trying find things end loop feel psychotic funds therapist past couple weeks feel like ending all im scared cause feeling getting stronger daily change life around habits incorporate daily routine im desperate try anything become better,1 +might downvoted hell truly care anymore also struggle mental health probably suffers lesser extenthe expressed multiple times want get help despite repeatedly asking to always says selfdeprecating shit like worthless friends hurts feelings friend best it is exhaustingi met old classmates seen awhile felt like weight lifted head worry triggering anyone said listen hate themselves realized lot times conversations depressed friend sucked fucking soul meyesterday respond online messages wanted keep happy feeling little longer today woke saying wanted kll lamenting hard get things necessary want scream fucking inconsiderate might trigger me nice feeling riding plummeted stuck worrying hell make till tomorrow wish tell find another person lay problems to wish tell things says bums out say least wish tell around makes feel worse kind friend would bethese things probably hurt feelings maybe drive edge would never ever want do sick it sick tired sick depressed suicidal friend,1 +casually suicidalnot sure right place post this really knowing expect needed express myself every time bit free time smallest thing bothers me daydream ponder killing myself think when seems come nowhere even massively distressing anymore there know means need help not maybe someone else feels way,1 +theres something wrong medeleted,1 +would willing award award offer best answer,0 +go know going get betterim friends family debt working marginal job getting by worthless college degree old retrain retirement savings working die wage slave something wrong know is like around people ones tolerate feel nothing towards in care never saw people again social situations give anxiety eccentric something odd me disturbing others one reasons trouble finding holding onto real adult job could never forge social relationships get anywhere smart enough skate pure ability bother torture hope suffer endlessly little hope return efforts want die instincts betray me disgusting instinct forces irrationally cling life wish defeat die finally free truth death,1 +nontheist im going comment great mans theory changed world years ago safe say science based evidence religion based blind faith nuff said thenbr br the film produced bbc honest could quite easily shown television acting superb film really worthy full blown cinema release said reaches wider audience way it seen many period style dramas bbc tv well finished standard this expect much big budget thrill ride going see itbr br in ways found movie almost going limb apologise religious fundamentalists attains good sense tension whole way through help wanting get publication origin species much quicker actually youll wait right end that seemed dwell much ever aware darwins struggle wife emma portraying almost kind insane lunatic times hardly true many errors facts missing relation real story lead publication origin too whole premise movie focuses almost entirely difficulty darwin faced domestically book small portion death beloved daughter annie gives film moving scene annie passes away asks one final time hear darwin tell story captive orangutan died pneumonia though probably feel bigger connection primate scene darwins daughterbr br with early controversy apparently surrounding movie usa work well promote ensure many people get see it honest actually little insults mythical godhead hardly headline news theory around years all but fundamental christians and many religions were well aware of like wave placard two whenever possible guess movie good excuse any personally cant see fuss about maybe theyre monkeying around,0 +even know im botheringi dont ive failed everywhere else world cruel full hate world longer wish live in people tell keep trying know why gets worse worse worse trying torture stay alive devil sent fate torture wrongs always been afterthought even parents love think afterthought making fun bipolar people right front me ive got something tell dad environmental factor bipolar means took part making one them im trying pick peaceful way go get final things order want mean make transition easier others everyone failed me failed everyone spiral anyone know benadryl would let fall asleep forever want leave peace peace live never given me,1 +black water one tense films viewed long time story moves fast follows three tourists all great actors swamp tour butch tour guide small boat soon dropping anchor remote area swamp flipped something huge waterbr br hastily three manage make tall tree nearby realize crocodile attacked them throughout next two days desperately try escape crocodiles evil watchful eye seem want go away movie drags tad bit expect setting limited budget much better primeval recent crocodile underwater predator thrillers tension heavy three leads give terrific performances truly chilling movie struck deep chord claustrophobic fear me apparently based true events,0 +people ship even levi eren w h theres like year age difference dont even get along particularly well sont fukin understand,0 +dad slapped facebut completely deserved it piece fucking shit im hopeless pathetic,1 +fuck melife seams like getting worse worse ive got everything share emotions affects others affects me really think ending life might genuine stop this thought id say this maybe someone find im gone,1 +curious people went trough similar experience also sometimes wonder behind blue self inflicted deaths stands similar urgei try make tight possiblei mid twenties married traveling eastern hemisphere stops photography happy life care free lots funone morning woke small appart sidney husband already left work he is photographer wella quiet fairly normal morning remember took coffee first went directly shower showering felt monstrously strong sudden never felt desire grab razor nearby sink cut veins bit prehistory would like give bit depth previous life beautiful calm childhood loving understanding parents sibling adventurous successful early adulthood working enjoying profession still till unpleasant encounter abusive boyfriend four years ago constitute biggest crise ever trough underestimate subsequent redflag enough time help time get it never depressed suicidal time vent happened usual good mood great energy excitement future working really good images remember welltill today cannot figure camestanding shower feeling like possessed fought hard knew real god wildly strong remember strange almost metal like taste mouth stopped shower went front mirror started slapping self strong took minutes urge started dissipate felt stabilized dressed went out walked sunny street nearby shop bought first snickers reason never one previously big one peanuts tasted like heaventhe feeling gone went lab husband printing work told story bit shocked think got truly happened quite afraid urge might hit again never did took years self observation slightest reminder taste else now wonder urge happened dark moment would strength resist much later life sharing moment close friend told story friend his middle aged woman visiting new apartment buy entering salon felt insane desire hang ceiling lustrelampes beyond fear strong barely contained herselfcould explanation sudden suicides ones person happy hours taking hisher lifewhat it hit me precise moment like mental virus externalor encoded brain psychics biding timeif anyone trough similar experience feel like sharing welcome thanks reading totally unexpected desire kill self warning fight mn went happen years ago never came back,1 +ever laugh say hahahahah it yall ever that,0 +agree tube mampms taste much better normal sized ones literally dont know is things literally good never enough,0 +make lasting online friends ive never lasting online friendships know games im playing lack people wanting lasting friendship something else often see posts stories group played together years really know though sometimes want play games people like forest example know get it,0 +cant express emotions face help cant express happiness sadness somehow case good thing really seem anxious talk lessons kinda want know else express them,0 +online friend lets call jim jehovahs witness ive known decade nowadays email thrice year still consider one favorite online friends deep insightful conversations are weve rubbed wrong way past different ideas god raised born christian looking becoming unitarian universalist,0 +kids divorced parents merry christmas part best two days year,0 +boomer called that simple boom sound bomb makes boomers much us dis them,0 +anybody wanna play among us friend code ptvjpq u wanna join wed really appreciate uwu,0 +finally got ltc license carry cardhey guys lurker year never thought open am often think redflag couple years way expect sense depression loss hope rather fear living without pride im doorman luxury apartment boston hate it im happy subjection vain gluttonous wealthy asswipes one complaint jeopardize job cant stand powerless disposable machine bust ass dickhead boss get paid less im worth im saying im happy saying good times many things happy things considered realize could seen ungratefulness narcissism rather choose fulfillment purpose longevity life live life fullest want best others im feel significant tweekers constantly get high wasting away streets feel like shit whats point ampxb owe try fail become stagnate theres point existing all went gun store purchased revolver safe put room took police exam bout weeks ago losing weight getting toned trying increase skillset getting one way other lets hope best,1 +fs dropped excited now know dont move along,0 +im fucking scared im going tell crush love know say try best wish luck,0 +senate weve solved gender inequality think deserve good meme good day fellow kids remember matter,0 +emptyi heard people say empty like feelings dont think true feel empty dont want anything future feel empty one confide in feel empty even everything fine seems pointless feel empty dont see happy scenarios dont want get better dont think can dont understand people still live knowing nothing meaning nothing bad even happened me im fucking made like this want erased want end want go back nothing,1 +triggers wanna diemy meds arent even working anymore keep thinking past days one wants people pushing away triggered possibly one worst fears wanna die dont wanna live hate life much whats point everything sucks,1 +one time favorite cheap corny vampire b movies br br calvin klein underwear modeloh mean stefan good vampire returns transylvania ascend throne vampiric royalty manicureimpaired eternally drooling half brother radu plans killed father vampire king radu sets sights stefan stefans new mortal girlfriend michelle two pretty friends allpowerful bloodstonebr br okay scenery beautiful shot location transylfrickenvania gosh sakes actresses great shakes stefan heroic vampire charming refrigerated fireplace poker cares theres one reason watch movie name radu hes physical homage nosferatu best lines movie spoken raspy voice man smokes ten packs cigarettes day cemetery festival scene one best scenes film radu slowly approaches camera reveals grinning slobbering face world see found cheering collected victims taunted perfect brother maybe im sicko questionable taste men aside highly recommend film vampire enthusiasts original fun radu one best vampires ive seen long timemuch fun stiff tragic whining undead brats endlessly grace horror screens days radu enjoys sadism never apologizes hes vampire be,0 +final exam day tomorrow grandma died days ago also think nearly overdosed ritalin uwu wtf pretty cringe ive never mentally unstable person till ive never anyone know die also ive never failed exam all want play genshin impact watch anime stupid life wont allow ,0 +cant deal life anymorewarning past redflag attempt mention generally fucking annoying combination school living house living ptsd add making want kill myself ive wanted kill since earliest remember clearly imagining to ive already failed redflag twice since family hides resources now theres real me im still looking it permit license yet since failed learners test first time ive constant panic state since pm yesterday almost am studying least time cant focus class fucked ptsd brain yet realistically know much better real world job fine first semester im taking two classes one person online one inpperson class keeps sending anxiety attacks late drop theres weeks cant bring go classes necessary ive already pushed missing class much im cheating assignments get by feel pathetic also family money doubt ill able afford books even attend next semester get job know ill get job skills positive traits nothing im nothing feel pathetic went hospital help would end costing family wasted money time wish right choose die want die cant cope life tried failed again nothing going get better im almost literally part enjoyable besides things bring life like sleep reading time felt true lightheaded relief moments second nearly successful attempt remembered absolutely nothing unsettling things happened hours after want feel like know ill never feel way without taking action come across level happinessrelief reality even way fucking care find unless end story want go happiness going back regular depression pain everything life since miserable comparison wish right choose die were going keep fucking painful horrific ways alone suicidal people get support illusion support years decades making endure therapy medications work,1 +america jewish jonathan safran foer elijah wood collects personal belongings family recollection moments dying grandmother gives old photograph grandfather woman called augustine ukraine jonathan contacts odessa heritage tours family agency ukraine guide location picture taken find augustine together interpreter alex eugene hutz grandfather weird dog travel old car searching missing past jonathans familybr br everything illuminated strange movie weird young man compulsive behavior collecting souvenirs family forget seeks past grandfather understand could life grandfather moved usa bizarre vegetarian character meets dysfunctional ukrainian family owns amateurish travel agency specialized helping jews find missing relatives together almost surrealistic roadtrip country ukraine movie begins like comedy sarcastic black humor ends touching tragic drama recommended specific audiences vote sevenbr br title brazil uma vida iluminada an illuminated life,0 +really today get notifications filled compliments also im girl yknow dont start simping please,0 +fck them therapy get send wall wall long waiting list everything intake examination forget you wating wating wating refer another place waiting intakes waiting organizations same go doctor suicidal thoughts every page suicide stuff says done that would call later not vacation week would back still heard anything called assistent would ask it long story heard back would call monday weeks nothing let us wait another weekend sayyou open up honest suicidal thoughts get help no know medication help right away helps all least someone care little bit health try help you would maybe give hope feel alone feels like one knows do one caresit fucked up physical problem get help right away dad appoinment every weeks forgot one got called is happen me why chance could die therapistsdoctorsetc shocked patient kills themselveampxbi know one many deal country countries mental health care even worse messed up ask help say,1 +vote next server ruler httpsstrawpollcomophkxy pham ui_use_calator vilko upamutaligator sami usamisamisamisamiaaml sean unot_otmels_alt ben uwreckless haden utotalpower yair upookthebannedlegend participate probably end year school lol,0 +one hardest things done help put ceiling up install ceiling fans rewire whole house stepfather you filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +bye worldi tried commiting redflag multiple times past week let say super hard highschooler so,1 +please help me boyfriend suicidalthis post asking help suicidal yo boyfriend we live australia ive boyfriend two half years live together weve two big fights one two months ago one last night two months ago woke morning fight hed accidentally left open private tabs what suicidal searches happened spent time made sure knew loved however morning morning recent fight woke asleep front computer private search tab searched how high jump die browsing forum discussing perfect height kill from im extremely worried love anything help him want get professional help neither us money it anybody similar situation please help me anybody knows anywhere get help australia without going bankrupt please post thankyou help really appreciate it,1 +now whatlink last post herehttpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsduwoi_was_right ive cut contact her deleted number phone removed friend facebook also knew fb password knew resist logging account every while typed string random letters numbers changed password that yeah cant get facebook fuck her feels fine all just im left feeling what fuck now honestly want sleep thats it go work come home dick around internet sleep long can cant stand getting bed anymore hit snooze repeatedly minutes get ready work fall asleep work im driving sitting office matter much sleep get night before think day cant wait get home sleep feel like im living fog nothing feels real anymore know describe it carrying conversation perfectly fine someone never feels right like im dreaming entire thing look object distance first thought thats real none real even though know is physical thing grab feel smell like click more know describe it like constant numbness except still feel pain hurt always want cry never can just want feel something pain again im used someone there someone talk to miss loving someone love returned someone have love me know more ive thought redflag entire life always afraid physical pain would cause died past week shit hit fan care anymore want it want hang myself care much might hurt more want gone please help me,1 +feel lonely want affection relationship never feelings someone please prepare worst sure many people gonna see cares feel alone really want relationship someone never met right person someone never feelings felt connected to mentally prepare worst possible outcome meet person year old guy never feelings someone before finally meeting girl like getting rejected feeling loneliness gets way worse afterwards even months after get hung either find right person eventually advice great people first let feelings build find person likes way save lot pain read things much might look like signals person likes might be basically emotionally invest someone know like back worst case scenario made mistakes already way did remember get past find someone better im also typing reminder make mistakes,0 +decided time get professional help suicidal ideation go need place go tomorrow morning want appointment happen days weeks need walk wherever get kind help making get car go wherever get help now never willwhat kind place person go to reference us go get help,1 +cant cry get it cant cry want cry cant years since last cried ever since even saddest moments life ever shed single tear want fucking cry want able express sorrow without say im really sad understand cant fucking cry,0 +kinda feel bad something days ago found friend rejected something started fortnite dancing shawtys like melody kinda feel bad,0 +increasingly suicidal past months understand it started watched video talking suicidal thoughts said gta lot people visions fantasies would fix problems lives gt gti that really connected that honestly feel wayi really severe crush breakup two half years ago found anyone since one friend entire life talk anymorei never date before even anyone approach give indication interestedi years old pain long think relationship would even fix itif everything changes overnight amazing love life make friends support me get married couple years now carei two half years hell people start notice me nowwhere people needed themgetting one date let alone relationship would defy odds mein reality though nothing special like all people talk dating like buying new pair shoes overi set date unless something miraculous happens least attempt suicide october may die days,1 +mom job stg weeks am mornings work long days raking sand heat full time summer job told boss rolling back weekends prep college fall boss said yeah sure go ahead dad said yeah sure dont care good plan mom got pissed said somehow rude boss roll back hours reason apparently havent made enough money ive working saving past three years year made enough push tax bracket good plan considering barely turned going post secondary knew worked full time gonna crack barrier mom told work full time anyways told it asked feeling summer honest said kinda shit cause program got delayed im working shitty job didnt prom grad everyone know gone looked said youre kidding right apparently thats reason sad im selfish news flash mom ive made past years like god week left place wanna mornings raking sand rest last summer god ive made enough last years,0 +writing got new friend met reddit talking hours ago so responses since message explaining absence girl pay talk me goddamn lonely absent since almost hours ago couple older friends talked while late really quiet nobody responded today closest meaningful conversation came via welcome messages support forum joined alone painfully completely alone want die decided yet done hate world hate fact need people clearly care hate everyone ever tells friend abandons me promise time tomorrow nobody bother pretending anymore relax forget ever darkened inbox pretend never existed all could fun game anyone thinks talk edge little friendship fine after please not need hurt worse need let go please let let go abandonment issues finally won peace out,1 +sick poor livesicknesses blind one eye scarred retina birth hypothyroidism undiagnosed stomach condition told barrettes stomach gastro paresis kidneys arent filtering blood correctly some sort porphyria get nauseated every meal pukedry heave hours sit hot shower turns cold sit cold shower hour nearly hypothermic sometimes hot water dump ice water head body shock sickness away seconds gives terrible colds add misery ended hospital four days became dehydrated kidneys shutting muscles cramping lack sodium given scopolamine zofran morphine stable enough hold bite pancake sent home forty thousand dollar hospital bill recommendation see specialist applied charity assistance hospital seen hospital bill since hope money owed anymore months later lucky enough get decent affordable health insurance used get every test conceivable tests went years never given definitive diagnosis mother end stage copd congestive heart failure oxygen could leave house couldnt even make meal without nearly suffocating death step father throat cancer liver cancer step father radiation treatment throat liver throat cancer came back full laryngectomy came home hospital feeding tube crush pills feed liquid diet feeding tube also needed stoma cleaned suctioned surgical wound opened packed treated also making meals mother store runs laundry cleaning house dealing sickness day th birthday july mother died heart failure step father home hospital one week passed could even speak married years step fathers liver cancer come back fear doesnt long finances work past years moved mother step father got sick work worked well three us past years despite illness still able take care terminally ill parents able survive financially parents disability checks long term settlement check per month two rentals properties owned mortgage as long renters anyway uncles grandfathers exwife which married years passing first wife years complete control ownership two rental units past year sickness subsided somewhat want get back work afraid afraid sickness hit work get fired again afraid get back job market long inherited home mortgage cannot pay property taxes insurance told cannot take mortgage house dont job also inherited per month settlement check run two years enough live pay taxes insurance also hire lawyer order get house checks mothers valid due notarized one witness two per states law still owe lawyer dollars racking penalties taxes yet pay also losing health insurance end month premiums going lowest tier plan extremely difficult try find roommate move house house state disrepair terminally ill step father master bedroom would want move one sick dude one terminally ill dude plus bedrooms tiny two uncles one credit card debt offer help gifted dollars since mothers death cannot ask more idea going pay bills next month owe lawyer medical bills know of student loan debt property taxes accruing penalties dollars month expenses insurance electricwater etc have home valued city would sell maybe due state disrepair per month next two years plan leave hand written valid state leaving house step father acquire small boat kayak load back pack weights travel far east atlantic ocean one night enjoy stars one last sunrise get water wearing backpack hanging edge boat shoot brain way bullet kill water will body sink depths end me clean up coroner funeral gone disappeared world stepfather never super close grown father apart since death mother alone life wanted put someone might read since one talk to,1 +energy live anymorei know redflag would hurt family feel capable supporting loving way im alone big city person planning marry abruptly ended completely destroyed self confidence honestly really know think saying anything worth it ive trying hard stand two feet honestly useless,1 +move us us europeans always wondering us still partially working country today changed opinion part dutch celebrities ill refer bners on cuz thats call them decided wanted become karens said im done went onto social media say stupid things undermine government newsoutlets interviewed didnt arguments disagreement thing bners could really say disappointed income gone given mostly musicians kinda funny started whole war within bners cuz camp gogovernment versus stopgovernment im mostly disappointed stupidity thought existed american karens thank reading rant get system tldr part dutch celebrities turned karens,0 +anyone else absolutely hate situation mean getting scolded parents remaining calm trying explain everything time finally getting annoyed situation exact second turn theyre calm nowhere trying act like nothing happened getting even angry annoyed get instantly happy like second ago,0 +posts chronicle situation regarding relationship struggling basically cry moment wake moment fall asleep ends morning right exception fucking exhausted depressed without best friend world cuddle one hurting lost cannot stop crying exhausted lost,1 +ultimately everything goes shitim currently sophomore college really severe depression th grade late high school series events able get worst it since then ive put zoloft help depression anxiety ive actually going nowhere there mentally least problem im tired things going shit want one thing go smoothly know one biggest things kept going darkest times high school phrase what tomorrow is cheesy might sound like knows tomorrow now feel like matter im end much crap others point cant stand anymore day fantasizing living island myself now want stop cause matter good things get gets ruined im done wanna someone judge scared me tend converse better girls anyone do im damn tired im looking sleep,1 +know gotten bad dream someone cuddling yeh affection depravity real,0 +im overdosing im typing thistoday day im finally gonna end good im taking depression pills whole lot sleeping pills send this wanted say goodbye appreciate support ive got subreddit hopefully way afterlife shortly now love supported helped get far life goodbye goodbye everyone,1 +borni wouldnt suffer never even was parents even make cruel choice fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck,1 +enough karma post test,0 +want trump president ok without trump world would go war biden wins china see usa president dementia go war taiwan cause rd world war one attack nato member means attack member china see weak president focus people military hitler thought president weak go war also thats kaiser wilhelm rd thought guess democracy causes war one war republicans power ton wars democrats power hope change mind,0 +tf get karma new acc cant get karma without posting cant post without karma,0 +heres something really wacky years back disnt reddit atleast people me got reddit lost interest nobody interest since councidence,0 +think time throw toweli well established redditor know lot people person throwaway coincidentally speaking throwing things away thats decided myself life fucked hard recently ive bad since young age brain cancer sexual physical abuse etc think im willing try hang anymore negatives keep piling onto positives way live im done trying fuck life,1 +got old southern advise takes twice long build bridges burn keep nose grindstone pills run far enough youre bound trip around glory fall get knocked sometime gotta hit fence mess bull get horns last one make childhood one ill explain ones dont understand,0 +dont know whats wrong w meok backstory ive recovery long time lately have feeling better breakdown long time tonight and felt suicidal point unintentionally set actual date it like thought im going ___ without realizing it short time suicidal thoughts feelings kinda disappeared wrong me im drunk,1 +tirednot first time posting here first time posting account begin grew narcissisticdysfunctional family bullied school abused first boyfriend years generally messed life didnt really except nervous breakdown last year developed panic disorder eating disorder put therapy along thought one problem things really turning around making moves move new city friend planning moves career art really looking forward healing coronavirus hit united states friend werent ready settle time couldnt get supplies weather shutdown go back family social distancing cant hide usual haunts away family dont friends town thankfully house big enough hide away somewhere day whenever walk room jab something im eating wearing im really tired think im grieving too felt loved heard wanted first time years friend also realized messed background honestly looking forward getting better dont know long quarantine going last dont know long handle this im tired,1 +attempt no gonna try second time die simply drinking eating,1 +help trans guy hi name aki im trans guy ive emotional problems people using birth name anyone could comment something anything saying something name it even hi aki would make happy,0 +crush made happy talking said looked like cute boy patted head rfjhrfrgfjtrgjgnjtgiotgjhtgogjtgoitnjgtgjktgkjtgkjtgkjtgjktr,0 +guys figured reddit hack comment lot new posts eventually one posts make hot youll get lot useless internet points pro gamer moves,0 +common title common topic posted often subreddit reasons list reasons reason reason reason edit edit doesnt add anything,0 +us control lives anymore hours online classes hours homework thats school giving out exams student time things months since ive gaming session literally feel weight eyelids since past weeks know need break aside saturdays sundays holidays even festivals overlooked teachers constantly giving homework soon finish one new one assigned cant really anything trying stay battle one else cares mental health gone point im total wreck really control lives anymore grown ups controlling us constant pressure,0 +like my sassy girl movie based true story posted internet thats similarities end story generally rebellious guy named jihoon kwon sang woo still trying finish high school whose parents hire tutor named suwan kim ha neul woman comes poor background happens age him add obstacles martial arts thugs always jihoon revenge scorned thuggish lovesick girl him proclivity ditching lessons generally guess whole story mention romantic comedy movie good fight scenes great visual humor lot spunk thanks good chemistry kim ha nuel kwon sang woo bring lot energy story romantic elements also work reason and must say id want girlfriend like kim ha nuel girl my sassy girl personalitywise least spunk cute sweet goodhearted way characters already mostly likable so one might say less hill climb my sassy girlan obstacle worked movie credit movie quite clever interesting way story kind sags though way where sort treads familiar standard fare nothing really interesting happens near end picks bit again overall fun cute movie ,0 +must go onim average teenager average life get straight grades school im pretty gotten everything ive ever asked parents for im ever really boastful this ask much anyone help people every chance get yet feel empty one close friend but know seeing someone mental help years feel sort bipolar disorder want escape never positive thought myself ive never really felt anything numbly going motions life considering oding soon feel like id shaming family im waste ugh sorry anyone read giant waste time,1 +clarify i never told anyone wanted die them never something lifebut done realized yesterday something very selfishin past years used tell closest friends ever feelings suicide like felt sad empty wanted catch bus including time engaged selfharm twice but never told something similar also told things people used know internetwhat did unforgivablei put huge burden them think made feel responsible happiness even intention even tried reciprocate things much could damage donethose things told either qualified mental health professionals decades study anonymous forums people similar problems either anonymity professional relationship boundaries ensure person listens end feeling guilty responsiblemaybe main reason ended mostly alone even desperate help asked horrible way could ever donethey moved deserved happy deserved surrounded positive people love them deserved good things worldsomething useless toxic cowardly person like would never able provide even hurt lot even society ended betraying me never asked kind advice them honestly think ever good person all ever since child trouble connecting people way like speak walk express myself pissed much ended bullying punishment slowly ignored got message moved away livesheh thought could hero kind hero thatwhat kind decent human something like thatlike someone told once even never bad intentions towards them final actions ones mattered mostaristotle said friendships based either affinity utility true loveaside exceptions think friendships ever life utility affinity ones based true loveand deep inside core good person explains suffer like punishment think manipulator,1 +learned isnt normal eat leaves strawberry oops,0 +woje early im tired usualy scholl today woke im tired all wierd,0 +im really oki future feel like garbage someone got email somehow sent suicidal messages already feel like far truth future keep waiting platitudes everyone throws around kick in seem want to idk anymore wanna die wanna live even less,1 +feels like matter timehello reddit sorry unloading crap guys feel need let something out easier talk total strangers feels like lived third life away without results every since dad died years ago inherited family business responsibilities became responsible business people mother siblings spectacular things seem fine dawned every one siblings seems way content lives seem effort trying improve involve deeper business around forever take care them one seems mind that asian culture pounded head father responsible everything failure failure gains gains im smart man technical genius invent things business savy make ground breaking deals make top line risky business decisions tough ive made several bad decisions costed me struggled hard every time recover learn mistakes failing recover cost several people jobs number times ive come close getting me married love life years back things ok realize wrong was idiot married social class known life forgiving suffice say last blunder stretched resources thin overestimated capacity feel empty her know theres lot people worse am weight responsibilities many people financial position marriage feels like driving insane really feels like clock ticking me feel im close offing myself cant take this every day feels like another problem need tackle every night wished id never wake morning sorry grammar english first language im far sober,1 + anyone wanna chat im bored asf hey wanna chat meet chill people im bored hw talk anything everyone welcome,0 +suicidioestoy harta de mi vida solo quiero saber la forma de dejar de existir pero de la forma menos dolorosa,1 +im probably getting theretldr depression go crippling levels finished university years ago life pushing towards edge work specific im tired convincing people im dumb basically theres one manager keeps belittling previous experience basically enterprise php engineer im cloud java engineer never codemonkey going year almost even episode introduced feature yet needed laughed overengineering things end ended realizing actually need right make it basically like time go beyond get laughed see actually right decision maybe last part always im fairly sure pretty good engineering systems work code bad best anyways maybe really shitty engineer though knows im depressed theres literally nothing else life work ive started become depressed situation work ive drinking recently got control today im sure anymore im tired fighting healthy whole life like that someone picks time fight back politeness stellar performance helped past scumbag professors university stellar work stopped bullying saw im lazy idiot seem work im asking whether want live life gonna like whole life like things ahead endless suffering bullying come think it maybe life people there someone always bullies you whats funny get bullied school pretty healthy relationship classmates,1 +lonely self motivation post xpost rlonelymy entire life alone separated rest humanity different sure friends girlfriends one ever stood me everyone went away end cry help one answers constant endless suffering depression anxiety loneliness jealousy complex emotions even understand tearing limb limb slowly chipping away left happiness sure may young still emotions still feel pain everyone tried turn to every time try get help get treated like outcast monster day pain worsens become lonely matter with many people around me ever one person never felt slightest bit loneliness around one special girl turned me like everyone else left lied me broke trust destroyed every last bit hope happiness left everyone sees happy one understands feel may physically young could see goes inside head would understand everything complex confusing mind like tangled mess wires everything feels chaotic messy never ends every day proceed live life desolate lonely room pushing forward trying get by hope one day suffering end want happy much ask one day come back see this see bad show myself things get better beat this keep living keep fighting,1 +ik random else feels fat arent im male lbs family tells im skinny bit feel like fact look kids feel much skinnier,0 +changed pfp fb bunch people reacted gah im ugly happening already got enough shit stress wtf going on changed pfp th grade current pic years later stop seeing people fuck,0 +motivation anymore kill kill kill meive anxiety long remember depression diagnosed awhile back though maybe years ago dont feel right anymore tried get help awhile took medicine regularly saw consoler years everything fallen apart medicine gave side effects got scared stopped taking later gained fear taking pills consoler moved another office one insurance didnt cover slowly lost friends friend my girlfriend broke couple months ago said break call two months later decided could never romantically already someone new feels like nobody barley shower get bed anymore cause everything grades terrible im stupid get anything right im talentless passion life used enjoy reading sometimes doodling get mad feel sad mad everyday feel like im going freak punch something hate shitty school consoler hate teachers think im lazy hate mom thinking im lazy im mad mad mad mad mad feel like punching face days feel utterly lonely someone kill,1 +actually answer occupies tiny portion excellent imax movie educates us delicate selves cg special camerasassisted imaxincredibly display inner and outer workings average human adult men women boys girls babies nearly every human body part aspect specifically detailed digestion reproduction featuring marvin gaye hit heart etc especially revealing moments include infant immersed underwater also brains impulses look amazing functionbr br the subject matter skips around awful lot times still learn hell lot bodies required know,0 +theres fall sports pa like hour ago piaa announced fall sports happening theres going winter sports well wrestler im definitely sure do,0 +bored lonely want dieim bored lonely want kill myself nothing do nothing look forward to ive tried take hobbies lost interest ive entire life since child nothing do friends reach spend time im exxagerating friends all feel close enough family spend time them lost interest things interest thing stopping ending dogs even care that do want alone nothing want alone want something even make sense,1 +say something want hug point dm give hug,0 +think cut pretty bad kinda hurts stings lot know gonna hurt much shower tomorrow ,0 +struggling hard thoughts redflag fact one carelately ive thinking redflag lot happened ive hospital months ago starting again im really starting realize meaninglessness existence world feel like matter anyone im always excluded people ask ask hang ask help im always one things feel like im always reaching friends respond gratitude like im cool enough time im loser live home parents like asshole moved living cooler friends never invited hang im not allowed whatever never try accommodate me im one always go are feel like one day im going explode them ive told several times feel inconsiderate changed think im one problems realize actions affecting me leading think matter redflag reasonable option give fuck die right asking me talking me theyre obsessed even though live together tertiary character star show want fucking die feel worthless stupid like loser never like them talked counselor said never say death matter people seemed extremely offended said that truly feel though hurts bad friends know often get suicidal think want deal shit anymore ignore me well die deal fucking problems anymore thanks anybody read this total whine fest im taking space sorry that,1 +keep tossing bottle around thinking finally itmy fear failing want end hospital want end it im little scared possible seizures guess but things reliable things have want hurt oh well ya know say im thinking using want encourage copy cats,1 +id like chat v anyone available questionsim suicidal i want die all im highpriority here questions need answers id like discuss someone preferably someone smart im ready pay reddit gold,1 +remember boys anal sex gay not always ampxb gay boy party girl even yourself ampxb ampxb thats it bye,0 +im aboutim talkative person really enjoy spilling thoughts people topic find hard bring im people care decided go anonymous want go overly detail im average yo male college student go apparent hardships life loving family although parents divorced was finishing highschool old enough negatively impact me plenty supportive friends enjoyed life traveled lot got relationships experienced things many people cant need much longer to extremely strong urge die whenever im alone cant help feel strong pressure chest area describe it feels like anxiety asking girl first time much negative although examined psychiatrist though ive asked come meeting school mental heath test went told im perfectly okay denying anything thew me clearly guess feeling depression feeling keeps telling end everything way make go away battle urge started cutting leg helps although temporarily gives feeling actually killing although im not since im cutting important veins helps ease pressure also makes feel better next days makes feel like im healing reason temporary solution that like drug slowly loses effectiveness times began cutting deeper make it first times basically scraped skin im cutting flesh it ive basically become numb physical pain point mean still feel pain simply care anymore depression going since highschool years already lasted kept finding kind motivation continue despite situation right motivation care wake tomorrow enough feeling constant bickering time im smart enough know easy decision go back on want absolutely sure resolute ive decided basically setup exact timer death based life going bought small glass vials whenever im feeling urge point absolutely needing cut myself fill blood ill kill fill months since came idea filled id guess number id say that pace months live honest im sure feel that moment feel like even last weekend ritual ive set least prevent anything extremely rash however guarantee fill im sure exactly im expecting come post nothing else good look thoughts write out welcome kind feedback even rules just send pm managed go text find funny everyone meet mentions positive cheerful am even current girlfriend says one things attracted positive vibe exact opposite really am feel like im compensating something lack im others putting fake mask pretending someone im not say im confident extroverted reality im extremely insecure cant deal disappointment all,1 +formy almost year old daughter almost year old son id gone long ago whats going happen need anymore,1 +theres one reason killed yet good one cw rapewhen raped boyfriend time hed done something asked ok slept someone else upcoming th birthday something like that disgusted me want sex night no answer liked hear previously id said no got drunk night kept pushing pushing gave in felt like to history abused that family good one knew this also systematically isolated friends knew nobody else life knew gave power cried whole way through even though finish it really started feeling like raping you im rapist erase previous fifteen minutes remember correctly stop me stopped selfimage day person sex with willingly otherwise thats reason killed yet want die knowing person ever fucked me feels like hes winning especially since half decade since happened ive still able someone else feel like thats slowly becoming less less concern though nobody would want anyway life me theres nothing would attract another person recently realised spending several months without friends contacting me could literally already rotting nobody would noticed know ive done it maybe im scared pain failure,1 +uncomfortable ill die lateram one weird coping mechanism like something upsetting uncomfortable happens like someones yelling calling things even something little small awkward situations way dealing repeating head cool could kill later worry anymore ill dead tonight dont even waste energy feeling upset this obviously ive never killed one times unless severe enough situation dont think would knowing end comforting expecting happen makes moment feel less intense anyone else too,1 +want try commit redflag againso um yeah year old girl diagnosed disordered eating insomnia depression anxiety body dysmorphia anger issues tried commit redflag times always failed one overdose which put hospital one jumping bridge aiming rocks land missed tiny bit got sent clinic thinking commiting redflag again really want live painful process life life hard me bullied whole life started smoking weed self harming get pain away thinking killing want die yeah felt better let thanks ,1 +im tiredim tired life im years old feel like ive experienced good experience life im good boyfriend guess relationships like me im much loner off small dick boot sex nothing great want able enjoy peoples company cant cant drink alcohol heart starts racing face turns red fuck eyes feel like theyre going pop head new years eve pretty sad me sat home kind year old goes party drink get invited anything anyways life gets hard people turn substances ease it weed alcohol part yet cant that sober entire life take life without help cold fuck job outside hate cold around fahrenheit day here miserable fuck winter started im lot shitty days im tired life im lonely im good maintaining relationships lot good looking girls never chance talk to im tired,1 +falling love crush round weeks ago got back contact childhood crush started talking went call play games noticed getting feelings again little fight ever since hasnt same dont feel vibe used be feel like im falling love never experienced hope guys might advice me still emotions crush feels bit bland moment guys tips advice might help falling love,0 +st patricks dayim turning st patricks day really want too want die plan right get others wasted one notices slipping pill drink simple easy ive going therapy seem working still really trust anyone everyone cruel guess posting seemed interesting me anyone talk little delete this,1 +wasnt like hours guys another accomplishment missed u guys tho,0 +feel stupid thismy life really crappy parents dead tumors brain spinal cord grandmother raised never fails remind held back things me life would comfortable would able retire already makes feel bad obviously resent saying things me makes feel worse fact people constantly telling im lucky her admirable stepping raise me since young could think much happier shell gone recently bought miniature dachshund puppy really love literally reason get every morning bought shih tzu like dachshund dog misbehaves beats tells it shell yell dog stupid like me gross like me makes feel like hates much hates dog care things important me reason killed yet im afraid happen dog ive always thought throwing busy street done it since im unemployed failure tells everyone too ive thinking different ways mind scares me feel stupid whiny feeling bad something trivial cant stop it,1 +u ask someone prescription adderal one time n sudden ur junkie using truly hate filler filler filler,0 +need reasonif theres god someone there please give reason keep on sick tired life going downhill able control emotions fucks sake please kill now,1 +thinking redflag awhile nowim fifteen year old kid almost live dead end town cant seem happy gun plenty reasons live reasons die always show matter what wish could push struggles waste much time want live without worries high school class grades cant seem shake them love deeply eleven months left her regret every morning wake up see fathers face mirror father prison attempted murder used hit mother younger cant help feel like im reason happened cant help feel like im reason mother crippling addict too lifes complete sht live hell cant shake thought redflag im failing high school peers hate me brother tells always look sky gods always got plan im sure believe anymore,1 +whats gobeing reason were likely thinking thought ending one point anyone ever wondered whats after think after thoughts wonder lot feel like important since believe peace after please hate other accept different views simply say feel think could happenanything might help one us way direction,1 +ive come conclusion entire world hates wants see suffereven many people subreddit hate guts want friends hahaha loser want girlfriend youre entitled that want good job you work it want depressed insert bs fake advice here want kill yourself omg thats selfish i cant believe that crying noises wouldve done anything help meanwhile day called faggot told kill myself want nice people well prepared taken advantage ignored want taken advantage of omg dude dick want dick omg dude dick want wallow depression feel hopeless wow negative person making depressed want sit around nothing thats thing know do well fault depressed then believe x piece advice going help you well clearly want helped act weird public mental illness ewww theres something wrong wtf always fault problem anyone else co workers people bully you boss parents mental illness stupid fucking society you thing thats keeping alive hope one day ill able kill bring entire goddamn planet me,1 +im much debtfirst thing first im little drunk need help depressed moment went holiday spent much money try keep happy im huge debt loan girlfriend car two small loans used help earlier life come conclusion way much debt way kill myself way pay loans plus rent pay girlfriend back im sure do turned drinking im scared girlfriend gets home itll push turn redflag also car registration pay next week dont pay back wont able get work dont know im scared someone give advice please ive asked everyone help pay things dont money spare im worried happen cant pay everything back please help ive come terms redflag best way even though know itll effect everyone love ive talked friends family depression feels like dont understand think im overreacting,1 +doityourself indie horror auteur todd sheets returns another entertainingly atrocious nickelndime shotonvideo clunker thats basically feeble excuse sling around lot watery blood gleaming guts often possible evil demonic scarecrow resurrects dead ravenous rotfaced zombies feast living bunch bickering college kids trio dangerous escaped convicts led vicious slade byron nichodemus hamming outrageous degree two equally savage sleazeball hoodlums trio hottie sisters best survive harrowing ordeal thats needlessly muddled convoluted plot fortunately hilariously horrendous hoot lacks narrative coherence plenty compensates pleasing plethora gloriously grossngraphic gore disgusting highlights include woman fingers chopped off fatal gunshot young gals groin attempted necrophiliac rape evisceration and course repulsive entrail eating shake pile moist intestines at moreover weve also got rough grainy cinematography constantly alternates washedout color grimy black white ineptly staged fight scenes lousy acting uniformly pathetic noname cast jerry angell particular cops top crummy thespic dishonors laughably abysmal histrionics slimy nocount psycho criminal joe bob grating headbanging thrash metal soundtrack generic shiverynominous synthesizer score lets forget ridiculous ending several survivors stumble across vials flesheating bacteria use shambling undead hordes sure flick pure dreck certain endearingly abominable quality turn makes great deal soawfulitsawesome grade z fun hardcore aficionados bad fright fare,0 +one asked wanted born like wtfso hate waking hours spent working working working want get hardly anything cities usa violent crime impoverished shit holes tell best place be see got hiv health conditions find enjoyment life calmly explained parents immoral child much less them world sucks much find horrible,1 +wonderful movie ive seen twice ive looking ever id buy could find it sad shows three things much man love woman hard people want something hard people work overcome limitations,0 +people love care care cant find someone cares hobbies genuinely interested jealous people crushed on ahh wanna talk anyone,0 +bat supposed weapon scare away weird ppl working someone legit dmed said theyre a complete perv asked bra size looked profile regularly posts sub meant micro penises kinda scared ngl,0 +im outcant take it ive lost closest friend dont know get without her im gonna go drive cliff make life decisions left needed most cant deal pain much long already either drive clear head fall will either way spending another night thinking hasnt texted hasnt asked im doing im done sleeping soaked pillow,1 +im doneim fucked continue living ive tried many timesive gave bestbut cant continue anymorei want find peace mind seems cant find life im letting goodbye note reddit thank everyone everything goodbye hope guys great day,1 +tough joba year ago left good tough job oilfield tough mean hour shifts lots heavy manual labor take lots ibuprofen year half body toughened great shape getting burnt out crew got split left float crew crew saved ton money felt like position leave find something better also fudge cdl hours could led losing cdl stressing that soon quit realized huge mistake spiraled depression attempted hang succeed coronavirus happened laid bunch people go back anyways non oilfield job see succeeding it theres chance might able get back oilfield still connections there im shape mental health good want go back mess go pain getting kind shape back weak hurt bad going commit today know hurt lot people,1 +fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckduck said shit instead ship class fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck,0 +told im using makeup contacts stuff im crying yelling yelling shoving broom face tell im taking stuff bathroom shelves cleared off now thing mine bathroom toothbrush tooth paste nbsp i cant live like thisi cant anymore,0 +problem that kind surprised first time hearing cousins name missed dearly spent dollars plane ticket go visit think much it noticed course couple weeks constantly getting snapchats jessica reluctant open front me another thing surprised always would open things front me never problem phone open snapchat jessica kind pulled phone closer see screen noticed phone background one day saw happy birthday card picture drawn it signed jessica,0 +name anyone want hunger games participants,0 +equipment ready im peace idea something urges tell someonehey all havent feeling well lately thats antidepressants the th one ive tried consistently im away college undergrad currently good grades hand intense theoretical high energy physics research could blame covid im feeling reality im exhausted im hypercritical bodyphysical appearance self esteem show it try workout regularly point body feeling like fall apart cant stop im thought id stop giving shit cut things friend my true friend around here grew fond kept triggering episodes trauma dont want go detail childhood saverbal abuse related definitely ties self esteem appearance tools needed fix car leak fumes cabin want night uninterrupted plan concealing anyall reflective surfaces little star gazing go sleep something still urges say something,1 +guys need post life boring af start posting need juicy stories shi,0 +worried cousinim worried yearold female cousin ill call rachael horrible childhood neglectful father emotionally abusive mentally ill mother ruined life drugs died rachael never met rachael wedding family brought us together year ago seemed relatively happy welladjusted given life story although noticed scars wrists cutting which blamed cat caught staring rachael college senior sixth year dropped ton courses changed major many times nobody knows now got load student debt clear career goals began retreat social circle even family believe severely depressed though flatly denies rejects kind help even talking family including me mom sort adopted became mother figure rachael never had even pick phone mom calls rredflagwatch im worried cousin might something stupid history self harm least one redflag family her uncle mothers overdose may intentional too see point view must feel like burden laden debt completely blank future insidious kind self destructive depression kind rationalize know do,1 +cant stop fucking upmy life series terrible decisions ive managed fuck one relationship thats keeping going want hurt much anymore fault everyone would much better exist,1 +thing feel proud got diamond apex legends friend probably double age,0 +u know what ima start saving im tired stuck fucking pc ima start saving cash money buy new computing machinery,0 +people act like liberals arent gay conservatives lmaooooakdkskd laughs loud crazy liberal insane radical leftist like umm anyway,0 +hi im wanting die jsut took lot kloniponii wnat die im jsst sick life now im worried may taken much drank bunch beer too hwere go ehre,1 +diei want die cant seem kill myself decade ive struggled depression fought again exhausted tired climbing hill never get reach peak sliding back down terrible person need change better motivation so broke boyfriend five years let coworker move me let fall love let get heart broken let used used others let anger hatred bubble everything have lost best friends im going lose job everyone hates there loser im im alone broke depressed bitter cant drive rely friends family everything cause problems could ever hope solve never made single persons life better it once suicidal years often thought almost comforting point never wanted die right now im fuckup comes redflag too cant commit access gun im chickenshit take pills try hanging myself work then failed life much would feel like failed death too want die tonight never known wanted clearly this yet feel trapped cowardice always maker nightmares would ever think would different right know point die,1 +redflagii really hate life wish parents could love hey guess wut dont fucking hate probably im autistic,1 +whats wrong wanting permanent solution temporary problemin case temporary ive struggling suicidal thoughts five years already loving parents im attending medical school according standards ive hit lottery life well ill completely honest tell feel like drew short end stick everyday feel like failure feel miserable surrounded people dislike tired living perpetual state anxiety panic cramming head hundreds pages information weekly basis probably life do something enjoy people even understand depression makes unable enjoy things used enjoy then take time school drop medical school altogether already tried taking time away academia worst two years life believe me drop medical school default neet lots money wouldve dropped already parents need grow old stable jobs need become successful member society make proud pay back bullshit theyve went raise me time wish could switch brain stop worry things time im solidified mass depression anxiety panic regret stress,1 +im tired conscious ill go get unconscious eight hours straight,0 +made im officially popular kids among us discord,0 +anal mas tip use hand soap ass fucking burning somebody help,0 +everything choose connor topdrawer especially script proficient work done yearold director writer producer luke eberl talented young man expect great things acting credible dialogue smart theme important loved itbr br saw woodstock film festival screened twice went tremendously audiences coming age movie kid learns hard heartbreaking lesson trust politics the system things really work suit personal agendas powerful positionsbr br i would recommend movie anyone working brain,0 +people get angry shout people video games plz playing apex legends guy starts insulting shouting whilst trying win fight inevitable loss youre situation plz dont yell person v discouraging ,0 +fuck reposts live instead sleeping im browsing reddit see reposts fucking stop stealing peoples posts fucks sake creative make new meme yourself know go sleep cant reason guess ill try sleep tldr fuck reposts especially past midnight good night,0 +thoughts feelings starting creep back ini okay couple weeks even know tbh did reason usual thoughts feelings coming back im constantly bad mood im tired all im miserable idk anymore itd nice someone talk everyone ghosts lmao,1 +last night tried commit self murderlast night tried commit self murder unsuccessful posted overdosing everyone said call ambulance boyfriend knew something ended calling one stuck psych ward lie tell mistake actually try seek help hate every way believe people ill leaving behind better without me feel like nothing helps nothing ever changes nothing actually gets better,1 +killing slef storyi brother always says watch porn always said stuff mom always believes anything says word mine always try kill self stop someone coming upstairs cry everyday try hang,1 +help friends whos feeling wellshe best friend answering or friends since yesterday twitter account wrote two days ago dont want alive wanna day today au revoir goodbye french however days ago wrote demi lovatos tour bcasse shes going happy last week invited home seems happy confident life know broke boyfriend cheated her let dream future together going girl cheated first time two years ago attempted redflag family send hospital went see it birthday called day visited her last month sad exboyfriend tried comfort her told wont tried harm her didnt want go back hospital thought felt better found internship seemed interest her going move sister she lived boyfriend breakingup couldnt afford place alone dont know shes want help her ask sister doesnt know they going move week would see later dont even know came ask help ps pardon english may made typos also dont know post sub im sorry cant edit texted mother shes fine as shes alive breakup still hurts her,1 +wife currently uncontrollable rage caused depression so angry leave house real problems says calm til apologize angry aboutthe problem something really petty actually caused completely understand confused mindset apologize something control ofi know do,1 +vacuums smell good yeah bassically title nothing else ,0 +want give upjesus christ feel like everything slow im mad sad angry time feel like waste space completely worthless everyone around me friends family care continually push away used smart get straight as mostly get bs cs feel like nothing want nothing,1 +tonight nighti want pills different kinds hope works,1 +wish could ever home alone mean sure boring dumbass brother keeps walking grab stuff we share room even hes occupying another room grandma blasting neopolitical podcasts full volume phone dumbass cant bring use earphones turn fucking volume down like bitch let fap peace while cant even homework peace without brother waltzing in rummaging thourgh messy ass shelf finding looking walking back out shits annoying fuck completely ridiculous parents bought flat brother months old decided tear fucking wall rooms became one big room could separate rooms parents spent extra money tearing wall couldnt could even comprehend world tf think would happen mom wed never argue dumbass brother hates core cant anything it tldr parents took wall hate,0 +want doggo best breed ampxb advices,0 +helpfor past year ive writing dates thought committing redflag enough dates make month dates really thought killing myself thought getting car running wall full speed freeway lot more wonder people would affect reason cant help feel would make lives easier im confused ive begun hate dont want go back way days hope wake next morning dont want live pain regret feel cant talk anyone try see talk redflag end day feel alone im fighting myself dates become consistent yelling something cant wrap around feeling happy again dont know do someone please help me,1 +im going kill th birthday havent found girlfriend thenwhats im years old ways wanted get chest im literally never much held hands girl might think kisless virgin meme something doesnt exist nope im one ive one girlfriend brief time apparently didnt quite understand intentions found another boyfriend impression dating friday went date tinder felt went really well nope ghosted ive literally never girl express romantic interest me im physically attractive personality good wouldnt consider overly friendly nice core im good person im welder make stacks cash drive fairly nice car fairly nice place im exceptional regard im good solid guy didnt really get short end stick aspect life dont even necessarily want sex want actual relationship someone bring family think im gay nothing gay people im gay sort annoying people dont understand literally cant get girlfriend matter hard try others get relationships like normal thing cant reason dont get relationship time im fear turn incel nice guy blames women general problems dont want happen therefore killing day th birthday if point relationship even something lasts week call real relationship would satisfactory me unfortunately isnt anything anyone except hope find relationship next two years haha sure im posting first place apologies spelling mistakes drunk monday night writing phone,1 +bittersweet farewell ive long time lurker sub fact ive never posted today know ive silently laughing alongside years now may boy skirt im boy whos turning hour amazing know things go great future youve good times bad want say thank you thank everyone makes community great whose stood last years youll special place heart ill checking back time time see crush said yes not comes another chapter life goodbye everyone keep awesome,0 +covid survey httpsformsglegxlgbkuaqcfvpbznhttpsformsglegxlgbkuaqcfvpbzn making survey understand everyones beliefs covid survey anonymous take less minutes complete appreciate responses thank time,0 +future either mental institution jail nobody reddit anywhere else understands go cant help ive itif want get piece check recent posts ive made ive hada enough get mad everything people stupid cops torture people try protect get away often theyre literally jut tor uin day done feeling like iwant end punish others ignoring causing cant function society like this cant live world dont agree ,1 +asked crush left opened bruh ,0 +whoever tells swankiest story gets hugz award got free awards thingy cant find post suitable entertain something quite swanky indeed,0 +hello everyone thought id say love all happy december lol,0 +every person life supposed love betrayed completely fucked over npd mother grandmother two year relationship npd woman years older completely broke ability trust two faced friendsis me really deserve this alone now one person even much talk to post looking anything venti reaching limit thing capable laying bed drinkinggetting high cannot even watch tv movies nothing interests me one show watch sick itscrolling reddit makes feel like complete shit myself everybody good something cannot even try anymore families abuse made feel worthless shitty cannot even put words feel mentally paralyzed crippled cannot even bare face talk anybody feel worthless ashamed existence really deserve worst part badly want die hurt cannot coward pussy method see scared impossible right access opiates benzos anymore ill continue sit suffer finally get hands need fucking sucks pray kind freak accident terminal illness fucking mercy me fuck life unfair,1 +cant afford get help health insurancei pay month health insurance kick ive spent dollars really need help bad cant financially afford last trip er cost dollars sit around psyche ward hours waiting seen,1 +im gonna ithey writing shitty thoughts reddit cause telling things strangers way easier wanna start over emotions unstable since kid im yo last years every god damn day im thinkin dying well im one sad boi drink bleach types job requires damn high responsibility social stuff talking hundreds people around world everyday trying live normal life last months feel like im gonna loose control jump building thoughts pumping blood veins heart rate goes up actually idea redflag thing makes feel excited yes ive tried taking professional help year stopped seeing psychiatrist lost faith getting better im using maoi stuff years fall asleep death really dont know hell wrong every single fuckin moment body feels like belongs someone else im looking hands trying listen head body feels strange me last months go sleep till fall asleep hear screaming buzzing sounds worst thing almost feelings anymore outside working hanging friends family etc u say that guy damn full life im always energetic talkative laughing person im tired fuckin acting hurt people around me ive talked people know words brings pain would rather keeping myself well apathy peak days fuck feel lame writing website know hell im whatever want someone anyone read words thank spending time survive thank next days well song you farewell httpswwwyoutubecomwatchv_zqmueaz,1 +need hear this need say thought that many years ago grew up stopped bigoted little year old matured thought realised much hate speech slurs could hurt someone wrong far recently said terrible disgraceful things ive found things said hurt one closest friends told lie hate speech free speech told right say wanted want warn believe lies hate speech free speech cannot go around ignorance ourselves believing right just need look ourselves make sure completely certain believe think,0 +family going cruise september cruise boat raped years prior heart tell grandparents ship happenedmy mom boyfriend back dopemy dads th year death anniversary week backmy freinds seem picking getting worsei sh try control worse urgesi sure keep pushing really struggling tn,1 +hate female dating strategy fuck rfemaledatingstrategy saw post saying shit justify hating men wanted share story women me people abused entire life men women people verbally assaulted reason homophobic reasons men women people called friends yet acted like subhuman matter men women person stalked social media accounts men women students bullied relentlessly men women people shamed everything men women teachers punished reason men women know men people felt safe men people made feel accepted men people taught like men first people truly liked men true friends men ampxb brain dead idiot came stupid dog fight analogy saying youve seen dog attacks victim dog attacks even though dogs arent mean reason hate them logic i female think women monsters men friends,0 +pandemic giving dark thoughtsim recently became lawyer pandemic came ruined everything im unemployed lawyer whose title worth anything still lives parents house parents pressuring find job easy find one especially shitty economy girlfriend years hoping get married year know survive anymore end thoughts my life end iit sucksive never felt worthlessi worked hard become lawyer happensnow what kill mepleaseanyone itjust it,1 +honestly want one reasoni cant think single valid reason live me every single aspect life harrowing disgusting putrid want it need find way,1 +give upi dont know fuck do feel fucking useless miserable try make new friends get ghosted time girl know irl ive talking year seemingly blocked number unadded snapchat reason dont know wanna give living done worrying anything,1 +understand feel wayi cant shake notion constantly mind day everyday even im friends enjoying myself theres still looming presence feelings worthlessness depression anxiety want stop cant think way im constant perpetual pain agony never seems end cant catch break im years old school right now friends family think love care much them theyve gotten tired apathy try hardest normal hard getting point even thought people important enough keep thinking redflag plan timeframe want relief please help,1 +yar har diddly dee ship put sea name ship billy tea winds blew bow dipped blow bully boys blow,0 +something seems wrong something seems wrong mind ability function common sense foresight makes feel like could easily manipulated unable read certain red flags signs started feeling way attempted redflag like mind switched turned dull emotionless numb barbie feel partly brain washed feels like mind isnt mine ive nearly completely changed something isnt me idk am feel like wont ever want freaking out feel like im going attempt redflag bc dont want live persona want be ppl dont understand possibility want im going explain answer you,1 +day posting everyday manage get bf gf day double digits baby lol fun fact mcdonalds one point tried make bubblegum flavored broccoli,0 + years im getting wearyive sort depression years now remember first occurrences recall instances id playing friends say you guys like me wish did never said like me never acted like ill damned feel like im bs good do friends parents proud wife adores me spent minutes curled ball bed crying repeating i want die let die im tearing write this cried years age first unofficial girlfriend broke god told getting close she later got pregnant wedlock cant explain that cut wrist first time really knowing doing turned common thing huge what for thing friends started hiding upper arms sleeves thighs later year church group trip six flags way back bus spent time bathroom trying choke self piece rope bathroom long enough people knocking im pretty sure got people though drugs face eyes red church two services second one included services kids teens supposed go teen one id usually walk mcdonalds go park listen patti smith would try break neck shower it looked easy movies eventually came idea ill tape plastic bags head handcuff bed cant stop it sister happened need something handcuffing thwarted plan even week later fight dad exclaimed this tried kill self seen cuts parents knew issues guess pushed edge night came room told taking hospital minute drive cried pleaded entire way take me im tearing again checked remember one orderlys sp telling strip underwear could make sure drugs weapons not saw scars said doing show look like trying much harm day still bothers obviously show walk around naked seriously reduced chance anyone would see week made friends felt home felt safe secure though medicated received heart felt letters siblings friends doctor told ready go home told believed bipolar found medication regimen seemed work me enough time cant remember specific incidents life mentally same ive multiple horrible blowups relationships related jealousy stemming lack self esteem worst prompted first wife tell going leave unless went see psychiatrist as note ive seen multiple psychologists years id seem finewithlife days bad ones id still days id depressed moving even arm seemed like insurmountable task selfesteem feel absolutely worthless want die almost every waking minute almost reason feel way do people tell theyre proud me people respect people like around even though ive sabotaged lot friendships years behaviour even though know medication may help hate idea medicated even wanted im self employed health insurance cant afford pay pocket psychiatrist drugs hate self hate face body think read slow think im dumb think suck anything try do almost everyone around better anything strive do cant compete anything even multiplayer games lose feel like utter failure wife today got high score orbital went feeling fine hearing going room and well led this year old planning growing this moved parents house got good job significant id fine feel successful nothing changed outgrown all months things seem fine think yes over better feel months things good harder crash soon thereafter fearful ever hold pistol hand ill pull trigger ive even considered going shooting range done it words coming feel done post needed someone read someone listen im tired putting depressive weight wife fair her read even respond thanks reading,1 +cant wait get placeso decide kill die peace survive one know wont tell them,1 +currently right grow inches guess point living mean would want live short guy die fuck that going kill june still short,1 +hey heyi got rope ill try friday,1 +futile hopeless invisible looked overno one understands thats basic problem have one knows anything similar ive experienced life absolutely clue one listens im left drowning sea filled hopeless voices wishing someone could hear them try things gotten better since ive hoping hoping hoping putting fight trying keep head water allowing captivated dreams im longer fixated im completely submerged lost fight now years long time wait half life ive lived like this try reach out one cares say care say talk ghosted always ghosted ignored respond obviously read wrote therapists unhelpful worse mean one saw year treated like nuisance like better things speak me phd social activism even psychology university ive hospital multiple times help im small invisible,1 +people care late im sick everything probably drown sea comments please overlook mei accepted people care im gone bad people care all kind like people subreddit posted sub yesterday saying going kill myself decided push another day seemed like chore maybe today ill it maybe day idk yet look see fake humans everywhere cringe nobody truly cares people may shrivel care me ive pushed away ruined bond fake love hurts way bump bruise ended dying yesterday honest someone like use world reason alive ive tried soul searching ive tried looking passion nothing ever work nothing gives joy theres way death least peace im still alive still hate that im good anything never good anything energy anything productive feed peoples lives sleep schedule diet eternally broken mindset never changed im horrible stubborn human cannot change care progressing life get anywhere deeper inside hole suicidal ideation comfort fact always wildcard killing makes relieved feeling low cannot last forever need end point likely end death,1 +wrong think belong darki feel like cant look things without feeling bad them like theyre painfully alive dont know approach them like objects colors close eyes dark feel like belong space eternity feel peace feel trapped world feel something suffocating me expectations responsibilities cannot shake people longer care yet ghosts haunt words expressions expecting waiting real them feel like need die,1 +ive become demonread previous posts details ive found yet another bit hope seemed like another dead end future managed finish hr online course week half actually got good mark reason little time started back june deadline today still managed im proud myself need take courses get uni time rush might even get higher marks comes crashing come back movies friends even hours hear mark mom may already read gone insane showed serious signs distrust came room late night see bag emptied contents spread bed online course book it leave folded sheet academic upgrading it bed unfolded got back whole time seemed like trusted catching on even think mightve crucially slipped one point goes show ive created insane beast distrust even though thought escaped insanity saw grade hard work put week half insane beast distrust my mom dragged right back it cant tell truth believe thing say even believe either her keep lying soon lying help time comes ive resolved becoming demon im going threaten life im going tell drove this im going tell shut trust me ignore cant stand sight me ill forced kill myself im close feel like im close redeeming myself mom keeps adding stress me stress killing me bet reading probably think deserve die do agree you im close want give yet know appropriate writing here feel like definitely kill deserve it also want die two conflicting urges head one telling anything survive telling deserve live messed up whole life messed up,1 +ive set datethe day th birthday almost months away ive planned trip abroad friends then im starting new better job im going meeting therapist soon words given every opportunity change mind then know im posting here guess wanted tell story cant really talk redflag people know weirds out enough trouble keeping friends without baggage so goes estranged parents awful people even awful parents standards made deeply unhappy growing decided remove life years ago alone friendships superficial longterm girlfriends never worked out love once ended badly spontaneously developed chronic medical issues past year body starting break down spent last decade trying improve myself made progress become increasingly clear best self great im depressed symptoms im unhappy cant fixed im likely ever life want gave real honest shot im tired want done it so one day th birthday going kill myself long long time coming delayed years hope think im finally ready go thanks reading,1 +call alberta redflag hotline phone policelooking experiences anyone tried feel fairly rough phone call lead unneeded ride hospital could walk want bother,1 +like u wanna dieeverything feels pointless yanno feel like matter much try nothing way want be possible want it,1 +want end itnothing going right today nothing going right past years fair today saw sexual abuser uncle first time years im falling behind school autoimmune disease back insurance cant afford medication im constant pain universe wants kill myself nothing going right want die,1 +production quality cast premise authentic new england waterbury ct locale lush john williams score resulted star collectors item unfortunately got passable star decent flick mostly memorable tried dobring art house style film mainstream small town locale story ordinary people genre itself well done satisfy grownups jane fonda unable hide braininess enough make character believable wondered post doctorate yale instead working dead end factory job waterbury robert diniros character bit contrived illiterate nice guy loser turns actually be little help janes character version henry ford thomas edisonbr br this genre successfully handled nobodys fool mid s years about schmidt wish main stream studios would try stuff post adolescents reserve couple screens multi cinema complexes effortsbr br ill give a effort,0 +im m destined fail destined die im afraid let anyone know really am theyd abandon betray mea lot days really feel like anything left give certainly find nothing particularly inviting encouraging life general ive worked hard accomplished none real goals life ive seen many opportunities go others im left kids table hopelessly earning little scraps scavenge theres honestly nothing look forward to nothing really optimism feel working towards anything also realized lately real autonomy life bills pay work many things others tell me life own im merely subservient wills demands others soon begin even stray script others written me im beaten back obey again life obeying die sense autonomy free sordid illusion destiny obey die order cant believe audacity people work people live lives thinking anything ever matter today work number things utterly useless totally forgotten months time yet pretend important thing universe person enslaves paycheck laughably thinks so people fool delusions relevancy darkly amuse me life worth living existence fake putting mask makes others believe im happy reality day torture think real friends know enjoy time character im playing honest got know real me theyd hate me im paranoid might let real personality thoughts get them theyd betray me probably inevitable given moment im likely slip theyll see realize instead obedient singleserving irrelevant human being im consumed darkness obsessed death ill nothing even fake relationships barely let hang sanity destined die soon destined discovered betrayed tldr fear may found really am ill nothing left even fake things drag along life,1 +would die instantly sticking fork toaster socketi hear people often but asking,1 +posting every day end day bois ive done it consecutive days posting subreddit nice,0 +ok compare explosive tempo first parts opening sequence visual shock value nor matter melancholic suspense second installment no surprisingly refreshingly different apart course two main actors tongueincheek futuristic scenario drives characters towards across genres languages almost gravitational force moment impactconclusion choice of ashakespearean metaphor life humanity cartoon costume bsublimation violence homoerotics chumorous detonation impossible buildup everything even less unequivocalbr br highly recommended indiscriminate movie buffs mind following foie gras hot dog caution refined palates,0 +friend mine redflag attempt fear might try againseveral weeks ago buddy mine attempted redflag overdosing pills alcohol super close friends figured id reach reddit suggestionsthoughtsgeneral commentsetc basically boiled relationship father dad pretty much put friends brothers pedestal really giving fuck him living with friends quite long time fear still verge possibly another redflag attempt first attempt taken clinic week two still seem like much change friends selfworth in view speak now job cant afford live friends anymore seems like option would go back live dad but course probably good idea roommates said done help out cant support anymore something buddies get right track steer away thoughts thinking possibly getting guys friends people care one place kind intervention perhaps would sort single make feel even worse thoughts,1 +jk rowling transphobic everyone says really found nothing offensive tweets feel like people actually wanting get offended maybe wrong views it record year old straight guy,0 +lamentations wasterthis life whatever make it know need change want results pain loneliness losing every friend family relation drug habit took life privileged complete waste price pay although im fucking miserable cant recover soon get money im high cant enjoy world sober everything try never stick heart nothing do see snakes eyes staring mirror want drift off place world sensitive overthinking junkie connect anyone selfhate locks prison atrocities commit myself never resting incessant thoughts life passing by lost dark hell made inside skull drugs turn everything dead hate selfishness suffering helped one ive tried ultimately im lost empty ive ever been want finally die am trying hard enough wait pain revelation god waiting savior cant anything beyond exist point mindnumbing insanity live ive cut world dad lives me leaves alone im erratic violent sometimes hate everything ive done ive become life bleak really know do i happened upon emergency stash good enough now suicidal thoughts hold life bearable know thinking posting here advice might get would along lines get help stay sober gets better could suboxone dad want pay anything treatment ive rehab three times one year,1 +baked nice fresh shit today smells really good gonna put milk eat minutes yum,0 +rides horses type riding western english bareback fuckung around worst fall mine near concussion riding bareback helmet like fucking eijit whip hard pony goes like bullet jumps a drills spuds go flying friend drag creek make worse supposed riding keep gob shut,0 +previously posted subreddit studies demonstrated beneficial effects turmeric redflag symptoms see url url xb however much good thing turn sour taking anything natural supplemental doses exceed found diet treat drugs,1 +life feels like falling apartmy name jacob graduated college spring without job place live due medicalmental health stuff getting way recruiting found job home town live parents one talk support me met girl developed longdistance relationship first person life truly felt comfortable around could myself could wear piercings express bisexual side felt content was weeks ago stopped texting much much less responsive felt like things falling apart brought said stressed college life weekend planned together last night texted told over longer anyone life talk support me previous relationships ive raped abused dont think capable letting anyone else close me job isnt something enjoy barely pays bills doesnt push me im top university peers making much money jobs love seem fucking happy dont anything anymore motivate get bed morning dont anyone longer comfortable expressing myself removed piercings pride stickers art everything instagram nothing brought joy past year used to games movies photography art music nothing life spiraling past two years kind final straw ive telling life get better doesnt feel like it tried drive bridge today stopped calling redflag hotline want go therapy dont want live forever capable letting another person get close was met her decided im going give one last go someone develop much trust in ive hurt much people trusted rape physicalmental abuse ghosting theft drugging blackmail etc cant put again alone sucks feel like unloveable unwantable im lost dont really want anymore,1 +turned parents handed freedom longer lie age uh certain entertainment sites ey safe birthday still january ,0 +teacher said someone class th best ever compositions ever seen grade yes know him hes me great achievement life ask anything compositions time cheers people see post,0 +want free follower donchu desktop go profile mobile open browser chrome preferably enable desktop tab open reddit account enable old reddit by either replacing www url old click arrow right next name click visit old reddit right side karma count click viewedit snoovatar scroll down right side trophy case option follow usename follow yourself one free follower brag about,0 + indian depressed single life want stab neckif known life going depressing sad would plotted womb demise atleast mother agrees that used say wish killed womb life depressing spend hours toilet done minutes quite certain people around consider ugly social skills wish good communicating emotions also struggle making people smile laugh love people laugh jokes might happened twice life want get married parents trying hard convince arranged love marriage would choice want get married first place think would good husband father know never good son brother friend want end,1 +maybe im doneive found lot bad shit ex past days go much detail gist cheating almost year went prison hurts bit now someone love either decided hate something happened her either way im worried fuck that im broke behind rent car towed last night n way afford get out ive reached friends tried help enough money buy big bag coke chop n fattest line possible untill lights go me say cause sounds like fun way go im sure right now ive always thought stronger reason im breaking edit shit like im considering ending it fuck cares hours later n one says word get shit facebook meaning get nothing facebook ill delete post shortly anyone reads this pay attention people around you cant say need help better way around me got like it yea thank you least dont know miss,1 +want anymoreliving life without father really hard really cant stand knowing hes probably enjoying life familys rotting away somewhere never got love support family material things would make life worse ive probably gotten family short congrats top grade like years grades slowly started getting worse worse family got aggresive insensitive time went on point mentally physically emotionally exhausting me ive tried talking usually works days come back before like friends wholeheartedly trust one slowly drifting away hurts person friend years become love life im close friends trust enough bad enough trust issues too help physically abused throughout childhood without fighting back whole thing badly composed im tired want anything anymore able afford therapy anyway guess end line,1 +im girl btw yes accsualy girl boys pretend guy,0 +people wear black converse weird radiate edge cringe energy black air forces,0 +mess genres mainly based stephen chows genre mashups inspiration theres magic kungfu college romance sports gangster action weepy melodrama topping production excellent pacing fast easy get past many flaws filmbr br a baby abandoned next basketball court homeless man brings shaolin monastery thats middle city along special kung fu manual homeless man somehow cant read old monk teaches boy expires tries master special technique manual school taken phony kung fu master assisted four wacky monks new master gets mad year old boy pretending hurt masters weak punches throws night boy found throwing garbage basket incredible distance man bring gangsters club play darts leads big fight boys expulsion monastery mans decision turn boy college basketball sensationbr br al happens first minutes happening first minutes aside extreme shorthand storytelling first problem little get know main character way movie man uses boy sharply defined time first third over plot follows new ground except insane action climax film im sure easily imagine wacky monks show towards end effects photography stunt work top notch make uninspired plot br br stephen chow much better command plot comedy writing film live shadow thats good reason ignore it quite entertaining even scattershot ending recommended,0 +like keep distance people bc like much become really clingy ill become extremely jealous feel left need know times theyre okay me idk whod wanna around,0 +im scared right ventim scared sanity mental health dreams field mental health cant even control emotions want everything stop second,1 +streaming twitch youre bored filler filller filler rythm gamelike stepmaniaexcept cant figure controls stepmania im using osu yeah ampxb httpswwwtwitchtvlilacalil_httpswwwtwitchtvlilacalil_,0 +guys joke call,0 +allowed posti posted hour half ago nothings showing up moderation sorry ignore test post see shows up ill delete see showing up,1 +wrote poem daydreaming tagged art cause not hope like worst thing dreaming knowing images never become real ill never go destinations create mind ill never meet people spring brain never touch talk see hear world places fiction want want do restrictions within mighty fortress inside head amazing able go anywhere want could fly breathe underwater could swim land walk clouds able things outside mind truly worst thing dreaming,0 +piece subtle art maybe masterpiece doubtlessly special story ambiguity existence tale kafka style impossibility victory surviving perpetual strange world life is film exercise adaptation lesson limits original sin frailty innocence error waysbr br leopold kessle another joseph k images trial ambiguous woman europa symbol basic crisis many aspects like chimeric wars unavailing search truthessencegolden agebr br methaphor parable movie history disappointeds evolution war peace business lie details gelatintime hypocrisy mask love convention sacrifice method hope understanding painful reality,0 +ive always depressed much worse apperent reason ideas whyso ive suffereing depression seven years past months since started senior year much worse idea why girl like however seems much intense liking girl kind depression feels really bad,1 +suppose kill want workworking seem worth me spending significant portion day miserable barely able afford continue living repeat next years feel killing true better adapting something want constantly poor miserable right,1 +ive given decided live parasite diei hope able form work ever feel better im going life run people exploit know selfish wrong thats am pathetic petty person thats life im now even improve things im far lazy put effort ill neet friends leave me ill kill,1 +racing thoughtslast year ambulance came house odd shaking crying uncontrollably paramedic comes room laughs looks eyes said your hurting mother look her looked saw mom crying already felt like absaloute shit man like dont understand cant stop bthinking moment mabye fault mabye thought attention seeker everyone else thinks,1 +remember like phone may change youll eventually become old new models babies get created personality interest hobbies apps may change new ones added might forgotten even think immortal remember heart battery ticks soon break,0 +kill mockingbird movie would much famous gregory peck addicus fitch acting would much lauded william faulkner perhaps kill mockingbird might never written shadowbr br i found movie sadly familiar showed one favorite movies kill mockingbird may original id always thought was perhaps inspired similar movie oh whodunnit different underlying story lone righteous white attorney white southern town defending black man familiar and written woman mockingbird concentrates rape ultimate betrayal woman movie concentrates brother brother hatred rape man feels fraternal betrayalbr br theres depth mockingbird here comfort addicus brings presence left sadness that whether intended lift plot movie not harper lees mockingbird reflects nothing changed years since time may read faulkners book saw movie college alabama unconsciously took later years nothing changed race relations may say nothing changed even now many years laterbr br its sadly familiar one wishes addicus day make right mockingbird leaves hope that rocking arms addicus waiting morning better times movie leaves sad pride black people might equal better pride white people pride either answer allbr br rather answer addicus need comfort flawed frailty mercy pride facing differences,0 +came parents identify trex pronouns shortarms rawr ,0 +ive strangely attracted film since saw showtime sometime early s say strangely rather ludicrous bit softcore fluff genre im particularly interested in dialogue pompously nonsensically philosophical making sense doubt francoitalian producersand plot completely extraneous achieve wonderfully hypnotic thoroughly pleasant mood scenery the beautiful philippines softfocus nudity wonderful score contribute strange extremely watchable exercise sort film making seldom seen today truly one great guilty pleasures fortunate enough find old laserdisc watched times think healthy worthwhile moodpiece,0 +medical panic im sorry im probably overdramatic cut short drank around half gallon water probably minutes stomachs hurting night ive used bathroom multiple times im kinda panicking hypoatremia anyone know whether might not im ft pounds helps,0 +im scared myselfive dealing suicidal thoughts years last year would think would get away redflag death someone knew redflag deterred actually anything year thoughts getting worse redflag mind almost everyday past month ive told friend it think knows deal it especially since friends family think im cheery girl always laughing something hurts try put mask even try act way front friend mentioned ive ignoring past weeks becuase im scared hell dissapointed im better im happier confessed surprised learn thoughts noticed change behavior done much except get another friend check me point mind confused make do ive irregular emotions actions lately sometimes slip mindset kill becuase one care scares me really want someone talk,1 +come rteenagers let people farm karma make post making fun farming karma gets deleted farming karma ridiculous let meme ugh,0 +oh wellwho cares mean it cares family doesnt friends dont cares plenty liquor rounds ammunition dont think ill miss im sorry world normally id try help others subreddit different account different persona sorry jordan sorry dylan rest family sorry goodbye sorry me sorry edit note wrote see soon bye,1 +tf get crushes snap like ask talk little ask like wat,0 +dude keep coming back me thing ended shortly lost feelings stayed friends things got toxic take break even break still toxic stopped talking other one day thanked friend even though things work it happened blue started talking again toxicity far everyones cool other one mad im still going cautious around him im curious keeps coming back me,0 +crippling loneliness unlovablethats me none friends college would miss killed myself theyve got eachother meanwhile sit next annoying shit mum miss me cause pain happiness im rude im stressed im stressed time hit yesterday cousins aunts uncles would miss me im pretty sure ex used kindness gain doubt ever loved me lovable qualities pushed away friends college going hard time back relied spoke problems hate now im pretty sure could try reconnect want bother them people would miss dad brother mean world me things starting really get top feel like ill able change it,1 +im planning killing sooni really dont much live anymore noone relate problems have terrible acne im really shortim male get judged time skin colorim black feel like loser im even crying typing this life awful want kill painless way possible messing ending living life long issuesie paralyzed im thinking trying variety different ways go overdosing pills hanging myself jumping tall building wanted vent wont write proper redflag note one read miss im gone,1 +shit bad im gonna kill myselfi live hong kong theres protests chinese tyranny almost months way government use police force brutally suppress protesters heartbreaking lose kg many sleepless nights months like hk people do heart aches protesters beaten might already killed police also people redflag could stand government anymore tbh sometimes cant see hope things gonna turn out bad thoughts creep up slogan means we cannot lose anyone anymore motivated carry since day protesting wish could share yall thinking ending yourself please remember matter bad things you alone always look help whenever feel like youre drowning sadness cuz eventually someone would care understand pain dont isolate yourself take care,1 +last school year first background meme alice jerk alice cute asian girl bin classes school nice obviously huge crush her weeks working balls ask out get rejected biggie tells girls school harassed ignore became huge jerk me luckily story permeated kids give shit popularity hang crowd stick status quo even seem know exists,0 +cannot get grip wasted everyone time fucked everything up more thanks big sleep soon,1 +wrote words without taking breaks shit get pat back smth write much left arm hurts _ obv context hobby author decided break record today wirting speed wordsminutes i count amp set timers helps write more wrote minutes still count sounds lot see mins pass,0 +think ive decided itive going another bad patch dont know keep going main reason far cant figure without fucking someone else process inevitably someones got find want way thatll quick traumatise someone else think ive figured out least way parents wont know meant deal afterwards another week till can still feel shitty beyond belief least nearly over,1 +emojis means quite simple cream rain hand eggplant simple right,0 +im writing help meltdown help calm everyone everything fucking sucks exists fuck over one fucking loves gives shit matter fuck do im gonna die alone even gonna change fucking thing fuck world fuck universe fuck parents fuck friends fuck whatever god there asshole whole life,0 +dont want get upso sunday im starting go work rather kill myself im ready dont want see anyone always like dont know whats wrong me thinking maybe s kill maybe im going live till next rd birthday shit getting tuffer,1 +dear darknesshey miah meet again grown since last saw you see made friendsyou spoken since hmm mean stayed side time oh thats right there always there blade met dermis sentient me blade kissed dermis times kisses stung first got used it remember white oblong vegetables entered kisses slid voice reason entered once times last remember tummy aches darkness arms tremble tire day store me guess right along one me remember words told me youre beautiful always knew treat me ignore me always ignored you well darkness old friend welcome back life promise me promise time turn gravity may finally free love miah,1 +incel simp incel would rather stay incel simp anyone else share opinion nah,0 +rooms messi moved back parents house years couldnt afford live anymore every time look dirty room thought pops head clean itll easier family myself,1 +cannot anymorebeen extreme dpdr since august already struggling tons shit years cannot anymore think redflag constantly n way continue life like,1 +get chest back used baby sat nanas neighbour sister whos younger me would play kids years older us always picked me neighbour daughters son son nice daughters werent oldest one would push sister snow walking place finally enough told pushed sister snow would hit her went said pushed really hard snow also got back house told mom got trouble crying trying explain really happened fell deaf ears mom told stop crying shell give something cry grabbed arm really hard shoved living room even worse part sister outside playing daughters pop trailer if know please google it trailer drive way super hot day summer opening storage compartments look inside one them super hot could barely breath head also dark inside see arms well feeling something bad going happen put hands edge could push it girls wanted put storage compartment feeling going leave die sister watching anything basically grabbed tried shove somehow able push back get free shoved ground really hard scared started yell asking let put there say anything kept crying thankfully never go again also sorry formatting im writing phone tldr bullied mother daughters one day daughters tried kill shoving small hot storage compartment trailer,0 +want take anna elsa play carnival games mean thats idea fun,0 +domy son came home find best friend hanging sons kitchen got attempted cpr latethey years old night another friend died motorcycle accident less hours previously firefighterfirst responderemt calls call sons house responded alone information sons address year old male found hanging kitchen dead responded alone knowing son victim son refusing return beautiful home worked soooo hard for staying father dont know need him dont want leave alone yet dont want smother make feel like hes living parents again anyone lead right direction saw saw im trained wasnt best friend son also isnt one open up shuts down know wont come mom wont want worry im loss proceed,1 +axellent second installment manages good first br br once again casting wonderful like first second episode nothing common except wit clevernessbr br the second episode funny silly enjoyable first christmas episode woman tormented serial killer dressed santa killed husband like first episode karmabr br the humorous scene tie murder husband phone call first faking fear becomes real,0 +im back day ban,0 +theres pointive failed launch fucked much life im intelligent cant even sit write coherent piece feels like really encompasses want existence over something really feels like coming heart know problem is im able emotionally connect anything outside world anymore even writing theres point going on im never going accomplish anything im never going smart enough good anything particular shit really retain information try learn anyways might well gotten high school diploma like remember shit learned school anyways real clarity cant even remember specifics skills used use previous jobs skills study train for even jobs fucking fuzzy shit all probably damaged brain drugs drinking matter ive stopped now damage done credit bad driving record bad im debt never finished school never got training proper career anyone thinks ive got deal shit make phone calls need make plan im going future need solve issues even definable solutions them got another thing coming life impossible im willing throw water anymore choose sinking swimming even know perfectly well swim im willing deal situation ive gotten in im willing deal mark bad credit im willing deal figure training schooling conjunction im going make ends meet order pay bills im willing deal shit existence pain is interact people pain prove employers pain deal shame situation pain waking every morning pain willing longer ruminate life life shit happy willing try happy reject happiness reject feeling it reject love care compassion ever mask outside world mask wear order get by mask probably accomplish need to still probably look like little retard everyone probably still look like pathetic fucking loser never born earn respect others born derided looked upon people see see better me intelligence skill passion intelligence nothing world courage die exactly need need courage put end shit without feeling afraid still slog on absolute bare minimum somewhat responsible myself know why im still afraid die mean want live life pain life torture get shit together follow life responsibly torture want responsible anything im sick existence way ever happy possible nothing happy about gets harder every day trying keep together public work give shit give shit im fucking unintelligent give shit im fucking unintelligent functioning member society want die sleep wake reality get many hours day shitty fucking brain try make life better pursuit give shit anymore better better alive better see another person ever again better never think one second money ever again better never think legal responsibilities anymore responsibilities myself better never think solve problem better never think going order put better situation better never lift another finger task labor better never learn anything ever again better dead better courage necessary end life quickly painlessly possible,1 +need urgent helpneed something badly need kind escape relief dont want go hospital talk anyone need options else feel though might hurt need options something help relax feel ok right,1 +everything good life still hate wrong lifeim good looking friends girlfriend amazing family phd biological chemistry amazing job great payment amazing work place hate much really want kill soon thing stoping people love me matter cant love even look eye someone please kill im fucking suffering every second want like worked eat healthy everything might help nothing did help,1 +need lay thoughts somewherei cant cry cant i crying good takes away pain reliefs aching soul time feel like crying im walking rain yea love rain much since cry anymore years sounds right pain thoughts overwhelming mind why tried hard really did ended like this love family least hate talking behind back like cant hear acting nice simulating care me pretend like care polite anymore cant help them god want help them wish could mom dad get along better stupid realise stupid honest open talk problems solve them selfish ignorant wanna end like that hate you dad moving us countryside thats grew up putting hard construction work even tho health problems glad now built house back even admit it years im still lazy care silly house course hate cant wait go away asap see crying coz im visiting anymore like dad cant get job you cant get girlfriend unless take one dumb girls village cant go one best friend ever wanted come here im glad decided follow faculty finish leave alone behind shit hate ones made me going insane loosing mind succes way man cant find anyone love sick broken am wanted care ones love help happy happy that consumed drained happiness gave back hatred im full kindness love id anything them stupid me care love them use me im much full hatred hate world cold gave everything you silly girl would still do never ever forced anything comfortable with made sacrifices you waited stood side get better full months day day knew knew told you even say appreciate much im like others urging sex sex yet gave hope one week go back him play broken heart knew fell you knew felt me still love her fall her beautiful smart full life still dumb dumb love smile much eases pain feel like floating bs im you im drowning again full hate full resentment full world fake hypocrites everyone hates me everything going bad gone far god wanna ignorant godcentered person still believe him saved death several times plan me avoided death continue suffering job stupid world take away pain others bear it im strong im breaking down again im lost alone least friend dont know wouldve done without him well know wouldve killed long ago guess delayed it maybe not maybe today still owe life cant throw like that want help problems want ease pain suffering hes like brother fooling kill im afraid die nonexistent feeling feeling nothing ohh yea ive thought countless nights cant even comprehend death like im scared it wish could die wish would die ill keep living guess want rain need rain need cry pain hurts heart neck suffocating me another sleepless night alone hope maybe tomorrow find someone help feel better new reason live someone could make alright someone could exhaust death make happy still happy it today maybe tomorrow wont ive hope many times guess im suffer see world unlike passengers maybe better im poor wouldve surely went drugs try wish could afford something more actually gift something ones matter return im fakehappy guy cares everyone sacrifices others im sad lost cause im miserable be least im feeling bit better now,1 +wish detroit become human universe know im human want drink blue blood see happens,0 +miscarriagei wish mom didnt miscarriage wouldve stopped sister wouldnt born family go hell inside outside family,1 +teens democratleftliberal opinions red states struggles goes triple for black teens white areas queer teens females afab boys i hope worded correctly christian households,0 +cant anymorei never going pretty women fall love with wife beat me destroyed emotionally physically im worthless financially mentally want let go honestly feel world would better place without it,1 +posting song everyday say christian french get least half hour worth songs imma post spotify playlist,0 +emptinessso girl fun makes feel good everything problem appeared months ago misunderstanding started go separate ways started seeing another guy and weeks ago guy cheated her thought would chance start rebuiding had gave hope could together told would need wait finals coming starting could distraction afford finals passed day even speaked me run guy cheated her angry told made feel then told seeing weeks wanted relationship me right im feeling worse piece shit want nasa hire me live iss obligated look peoples face rest life really know killing one options seriously taking account know want pain go away leave here bedroom alone dark,1 +find uselessits like walking empty room filled people like big hole space getting ready jump,1 +getting shit together gets bad even though ive barely teen half year im already starting get stereotypical teen shit sloppy messy room ect also ive going bed am waking made feel terrible today im pulling nighter naps cleaning room keep updated,0 +drifted first time tonight fucking fun even better friends car gassing much even though know drifting definitely wasnt good id never felt good,0 +came parents today walked dad told super straight said to pretty pogchamp,0 +tightly written acted filmed violent much so whoever edited knew exactly wanted portray wasted scene movie the usual suspects superb ensemble acting collection outstanding individual performances rarely buy movies one worth owning,0 +cant deal life anymorei alone afraid sleep well all quiet home loud driving nuts wish someone right fucking cant take anymore shit isolated abandoned adoptive family care money success im fucking edge hanging end misery nothing offer anyone would seem fuck fucking life want die middle night give shit,1 +adulting mean therapist friend feel lost friends moved diff countryamp friends back home understand anymore amp friends america feel take granted look share something vulnerable feel alone time friendships adulting,1 +freezer bruhhhh youre always chilling,0 +french people known great movie producersbr br though amelie scores high points oscars asterix et obelix different film used french great movie especially kids thing boddert spoken french subtiteld normally english spoken movies here netherlands read subtitles french language read understand story self great obelix recall self beng fat also nice details mainly names like brucewillix malcomix know story comic books movie shows slide slide book every thing it sfinx nose braking till pirate red beards lose three ships would say great movie weekend children,0 +ive come really dark place lifei even know begin college started back top full time studentry work hours week pay drumline takes entire fri sat sun moment spare time except last days ive cooped apartment got wisdom teeth out ive abusing pain meds night last overdosed cut wrists call health center one pill left weeks various dental procedures im scared use ill out girlfriend knows seem care likely understand little young really many friends im introverted going never seems appeal staying even though crave social life know go here feel alone edit girlfriend came back town early bits pieces post involve im going open presence suddenly stop responding worry pm im sure im going get day thank reddit edit half depressionanxiety came anticipation telling girlfriend rapedlast night told her response say boys cant raped break me feels bad manthink talked point know,1 +end lying bed majority day sometimes think small compared spacethere billions billions galaxies whole heck lot stars space toocompared me space large cares tiny human like me got finite number years spend yet spending every waking moment enough energy movestrangely enough thought things matter much life motivates move things sometimes nothing really matters get once helps,1 +ventinghey dont anyone say to dont even know say this stumbled across subreddit idk maybe belongs here ill delete whatever much say dont know put words im year old female never felt loved life entire childhood general adolescence experienced extreme bullying large group people ive high school years mental physical trauma left lasting damage honestly dont even know start feel like words cant even express hopelessness hate myself feel never mean anything anyone never accomplish anything serial failure ive never relationship ive never important people considered friends cant even say im afterthought honest im much thought all meaning nothing anybody surprisingly exhausting dont think im ugly im certainly unintelligent love sense humour however never met anybody thinks same dont know act like look like make someone want life dont know interesting someone ive tried buying friends ive tried everything one person like me live somewhere guns arent particularly accessible love family dont want see upset lot deaths family close ones too ive seen experienced sadness losing family member cannot kill without guilt knowing giving parents huge funeral bill also afraid loose ends tied desire kill great wanted since know never significance anyone anything think hurts bad know dont deserve treated way yet treated way every person bring life maybe im bad finding people maybe always starts beautiful promising letting someone get know always mistake dont know im for im asking anything wish knew available would give best result im stupid dont want hurt anyone myself hate myself hate im me want anyone else want desperately love loved know unattainable goal know going get gets better always gotten worse know going get youre young dont energy detail every trauma experienced pattern summed arent good enough know am never be good enough happiness get socializing people online however reminds im likeable youve never met me ive met people ive close online promptly stopped wanting life want kill myself afraid failing im afraid loose ends,1 +theres way im going live thisim a im completely useless severe low self esteem confidence depression generalized anxiety chronic loneliness trust issues im shy quiet person one friend give shit using fulfill desires studied worked along fruitless path im job know drive even move around city public transport im scared call phone ask help let alone search new job single useful skill know listen get paid that im going die know live dying feels natural correct im living parents narcissistic mother alcoholic father im scared everything everyone got gun sleeping pills blame disappearance nerve ask other makes feel better know possession im useless im needed fault going get better time nothing know live,1 +heres brief poem made four half minutes look eyes find kaleidoscope watereddown hurt look eyes see reflection faux tears look eyes discover one last lie told yet look eyes notice bit green special shade hazel,0 +cyberpunk devs receive death threats delaying game game fucking massive doubt found tons bugs fix people shit deserve respect fucking horrendous,0 +banddo play instrument play,0 +losti abroad home return to feel alone father died year half ago girlfriend left me failed exams cant take anymore,1 +got ropenow need courage ups life outweigh downs least life already dead inside physical death better,1 +robin williams national treasure specially cuts loose puts aside maudlin approach drama manages liven usual restrained pacing barry levinson moments film truly shinesbr br as funny elected american president man year williams recaptures hilarity outrageousness used associated him makes appealing humanity likability man lash audience truly loves them too humour like barbed wire yet cathartic makes appealing people film real lifebr br laura linney portraying intelligent woman distress fabulous talented performer think boxed stereotype unfortunately would interesting less recognizable performer case walken pretty much walks thankless role climatic scene snl skit barely floats waterbr br go hilarious moments priceless enjoy williams forget deep moments slow otherwise entertaining movie,0 +think im finally ready dieafter years struggling latching onto false hopes think im finally ready die peace happy accept defeat,1 +everyone everything liei cant stand it everything wrong existence wrong dont anything right good good hate myself please let die disappoint everyone always leave always fall trap think actually finally it worthless afterall,1 +girl rejected got mad said wasnt hitting also said could never friends like used to girl got mad said title things happened led thinking hitting her invited go eat like past meant group didnt think mention last part made clear hitting her said exactly i still like you im hitting you understand me also said wanted friends like used obvious reasons would never able friends like before rejection back then talked way everyday frequently am everything natural always knew liked never rejected me used always go eat group planned go us two covid canceled date ever since rejection things like that gut tells used like back something happened led rejecting me she meet another guy think got scared commitment playing feelings now truly sees friend told even back friend attituded towards says complete opposite tho anyway got mad never apologized still plan to tried talking beginning ignored me weeks far talked all see tuesday know do follow lead mirror way acts me ignored me ignore her etc try talk act getting mad never happened see reacts ps weeks since got mad said months since rejection got close months rejection,0 +think tomorrow last day aliveill home alone tomorrow finally end it im still sure ill courage finally go it im tired see live anymore,1 +someone work got fired shouting testicles intercom said attention shoppers testicles all thank you legend,0 +want kill rn fucked entrance exams received result yet know feel bad parents degrade meby lot always high expectations average parents want kill myself do,0 +canada consequences making redflag attempt recovering long text sorrythis subreddit quiet think question would allowed raskreddit raskcanadian subreddit quiet too hope someone 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difficult time finding psychotherapist seemed right me hesitate say this found unprofessional one spent sessions asking technical computer questions essentially getting paid pester personal support person he drug pusher another working hard academic thesis really narrow focus forcefully tried apply therapy sessions whether made sense not would ignore patient problems issues dream related also drawn paper adamantly refused anything else make tried turned therapy years canadian healthcare might better united states ways theres lot flaws problems too recent days increasingly frequent suicidal thoughts far gone ive holding steady managed find relative talk to resolution even reliable source support pulled back edge also finding this httpswwwcamhcaenhospitalhealth_informationa_z_mental_health_and_addiction_informationredflagpagesdefaultaspx web page centre addiction mental health canada helped slender comfort page explains who risk what warning signs like brief warm sunbeam whoever wrote web page understood exactly feel thank taking time read this hope someone answer questions screwed records attempted redflag locked hospital even admitting wanted die,1 +okay plot shaky ground yeah right randomly inserted song andor dance sequences for example adams concert henris stage act leslie caron cant really um know actbr br but somehow an american paris manages come polished firstrate musicallargely basis gene kellys incredible dancing talent choreography truckloads charm seems importing scene caron he needs to seems a problem emoting br br the accomplished technically aweinspiring number musical obviously minute ballet towards end film stunningly filmed kelly caron dance beautifully favourite number would kellys character singing i got rhythm bunch french schoolchildren breaking array american dances goes prove need special effects got real talentbr br not classics level singin rain pretty high nonetheless worth watch,0 +hey guys hey guys im sad need find stuff stop thinking things give ideas stuff ill ,0 +want fuck right mortal coil something holding back need find eliminate iti living crushing depression interspersed short bursts mania on average probably duty cycle mania depression respectively since making life living hell cant bring things necessary fix situation know even start point far less effort done it,1 +im going go sooni plan set out pretty high chance success im sick life cant take horrible constant intrusive thoughts anymore think depressing violent sexual gross otherwise horrible thoughts disgusting piece shit deserve die,1 +tfw straight vibe big think am listening straight boomer tracks also tell wife im still awake,0 +helpi need somebody talk too im low point life feel like theres nothing really live anymore please somebody help tired feeling like want al end cant feel anything anymore ive struggled depression since young cant afford therapist anymore counselor actually cares annoy since graduated anybody willing talk id grateful,1 +so it finally confessed crush know lots likewise posts here mine different asked someone mind said havent even finished school yet response question like someone felt ready relationship was personal public understand that respect choice nothing heartbroken feelings last five years afraid tell her recently friends convinced confess did regret really sad really thought feelings mutual,0 +stress bad hair falling outmy mood swings horrible attitude towards family shit id take bullet yet im bitch them nothing fucking day dont job graduated last year done nothing since then social anxiety roof point shake verge crying rely mom cant talk strangers adult things im fucking scared pathetic abusive father fucked emotionally psychologically socially whatever ways can im normal im piece shit cant look attractive without automatically wanting slit wrists jump bridge fucking hate myself theres point youre loser,1 +roses red might die good night gamers bed imma lie,0 +reply texted couple hours later reply saved embarrassment didnt go night texted next day ask happened week already since happened texted me,0 +much prozac kill youlong story short told friend suicidal told mom go godawful therapy going psychiatric hospital sucks mom hides everything good use kill taking meds morning forgot hide it counted theres capsules mg mg possesion kill me go go get help it gets better nothing say convince screw give answers,1 + minutes submit this put mm fmj skullhey everyone things considered bad lived energy write again mm semi auto fmj chamber im drunk took xanax no im calling hotlines ive set timer long,1 +impulsively suicidalim years old fractured abusive home life growing up alcoholic stepfather threatened kill regularly also alcoholic absentavoidant mom absenteeabusive real father friends high school bc bad home life fact overweight college lost weight amp fell prey partying empty rich sociopathic girls drained tried alternately abuse control me compulsive liars use people throw away spent way much time college racking debt mediocre job result ive moved seattle recently gotten decent job money isnt enough live comfortably friends ive tried repeatedly make here one ever sticks around dont car cant afford one right now also dont drink bc makes sick depressed clearly also come family alcoholics cuts lot socializing introverted boyfriend year half spend time with car makes twice much amp little debt think hes growing sick me refuses move wants study get another degree amp let know would take time hes working personally think move get away me doesnt really friends either aside coworkers dont really care coworkers bc party drink much family scattered country isnt really communicative two siblings none us married children estranged father nursing hone early onset alcoholinduced dementia mother leads solitary life dog amp financial emotional support give support system seattle one cares me wants friend friends home hometown actively dont like me withered fallen away hate body hate aging think aged poorly severe body dysmorphia cant stand sight myself desire children desire create anything see life getting worse lonelier goes on see world getting uglier goes on might impulsively kill myself pain coursing sometimes intense feels like spine lightning rod want cut myself punish destroy myself feel though ugly accident misfire abomination wasnt meant exist thing would set right would end life,1 +really like someone suicidal thoughts meaningless relationshipim year old guy last year ive gradually come really like girl ive working seeing everyday gotten know well always got impression unhappy popular girl lot extroverted friends goes lot them however seems introverted gives impression cold which think is decided tell felt long time want make working awkward also ended getting back ex bf half way work placement together end placement decided would tell felt hope honest could find happy not ends telling suicidal thoughts certain days really considered commiting redflag also said believed true happiness exist said boyfriend thats way things were thats placed subsequently tried getting talk it told whilst night out wanted talk face face day ended seeing every week next month two nights out conversation would take place eventually told text wanted see following afternoon id wait outside clock tower nearby live would understand turn up ended waiting rain hour turn up saw weeks later night out said needed time think month since then think going get back me problem is told people this said one them friend treated like weirdo suicidal thoughts her bf really anything it hoping would get better im assuming so continue pursue this seeing one else knows trying talk herhelp her let go try move on considering reluctant talk also feelings her tldr girl like suicidal thoughts told two people helped them reluctant talk it stay try help leave it,1 +stopped taking antidepressants need help coping side effects paxil likewise years decided quit weeks ago cold turkey yes zaps uncontrollable crying deal that however cannot deal anger pissed let family treat last decade usually never feel anger anything person mad last years myself want scream punch holes walls send irate emails need someone tell uncontrollable forever honestly think developed coping mechanism anger whatsoever would love hear someone gone thing know done editspelling decide go local group therapy back hours,1 +fires wild shadows tho feels wrong,0 +everyone everyone oh work here saddd,0 +talk discord kittens imapedowkiwemjujijirj,0 +anyone want talk roleplay hold hands listen joji rains poetry,0 +everytime try sleep take meds sleep get tired lay down brain immediately starts screaming get play guitar want sleep brain wants riffs,0 +idki happy right now im not cant fun like friends can always feel alone crowded rooms always exclude purpose cant hang multiple people without genuinely wanting kill every single time people much want cut everyone think ever again think general god think much hate thinking worst part friends love much people love much dont even anything sometimes wish kid disappears background im good her mean im partially really good her make friends reason im alive feel bad dying theres nothing keeping going even though love close ones dearly theres nothing life me nothing makes happy nothing makes feel anything really want lock room never talk anyone ever again would nice maybe disappear while self made mental ward get keep goddamn shoelaces miracle havent cut while think again crave guess arm itching scratch doesnt same isnt dumb metaphor actually like that maybe year year finally end all dont think be since im huge pussy really cant people girl dream guess sad thing look forward too looking forward weekend girlfriend six month anniversary hanging friends im literally right now think may start drugs drinking too ive avoiding eighteen years now dont know long hold anymore dont want feel like anymore really cant keep going like this ive like longer remember hard fucking hard maybe world isnt me thats okay right society isnt me im sick trying change everyone tiring everything tiring waking every morning tiring dont know make life less tiring anymore dont dont even want die dont want wake every morning anymore dont want think want thoughtless happy thats want,1 +gonna go sleep pls comment random stuff seems like friends brother voluntarily charges phone sleep takes full always wonder thinks sees get absolutely notifications youtube post ones know im setting weird comments pls dont,0 +ruhro raggy shaggy scooby doo would literally commit mass homicide ment got half inch long dog bone shaped mediocre tasting cracker afterwards,0 +fuck using guilt usi allowed end life us right selfdetermination cant say oh would motherdogcat gone would feeeeel care none fucking business cant stand emotionally hijacked like that made decision thing standing way fuck constantly invoking it want nothing ive nothing before prerogative sentimental fucking idiots know im posting,1 +update i believe successfully made poisonupdate httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentssfcsi_fell_in_love_theyre_depressedsuicidal got message skype i believe successfully made poison _ _ idk say help im panic attack something,1 +swear im nice person like argue lot like ill take chance debate love shit like want hop onto sub thats homophobic like yo im gay watch chaios go down maybe like im nice im chaotic maybe im nice mean im racist homophobic transphobic sexist argue people push hatefully opinions also something thats bugging me reddit kind girls places oh god makes sound like one crazy femists like want someone stare boobs makes feel unsafe know going do might attack get chance kinda hard get boys understand female use car keys carry pepper spray like body could happy it body could stare it want pleasure you control see girl skirt stare you yea thats mind also want hugs ask time one right ya good day,0 +vegan sausage rolls amazing thats it thats post filler beep beep beep beep,0 +knowi know know deal anymore know know say know want go know purpose thing know want die know know,1 +day electric boogaloo ive left delivered days now suspect maybe shes busyi hope pain,0 +im pretty much doneeverything going soon couple years now everything kept getting worse worse ive finally reached limited know cope anymore im going give up im loser stupid depressed achieve anything life im also disabled makes everything even worse know anything anymore light end tunnel,1 +really feel like never meant alivei really want die gun would certainly shoot head lone thing learned years existence point living without relationships important anyone except maybe parents even dont take seriously feel like one guy office space move desks bunch times stutter one takes seriously one cares feelings friends even things would feel wrong becausei meant fucking loser fucking mother nature finest strongest survive people like told fuck die life worth living somebody please kill,1 +im ready leavei hate cant live longer never find happiness best decision,1 +dont even know nowive sexually abused ages multiple family members assaulted first boyfriend drugged raped camera emotionally physically abused neglected childhood im self esteem literally non existent cant keep friendships person husband married older guy cheated lot long time high school girls promised stopped dont even know father passing away wont see me father abused wouldnt speak forcefully removed care one friend see rarely feel im ugliest person alive lost pounds year starving purging feel still enough things love husband pets people dont believe husband would miss me told spouse dies supposed move on think would okay animals would though would forget feed give shelter cant happen think alive them love them babies ive crying night tonight wanted disappear trying hard hold on,1 +film brilliant cute little dolphins great storyline elijah wood makes great film too acting skills good want good soft family film one watch,0 +suffered long managed keep hidden finally began opening people still depression nest place self care know problem itself come home weekend away already crying walked door mother told relax cup tea go bed come bedroom cleared throuhhh whole room without even telling acknowledge ment done it long term back problem regularly take counter medications doctors surgery believe anything wrong me would hidden handbag toom painkillers anti redflag medication in knocked bedroom door asked told without mentioning anything acting nothing happened complete meltdown tried getting online mental health help nothing open feel overwhelmed cannot look anywhere room without able breath think much longer cannot breathe,1 +abandoned kind feeling ready end all xpost rdepressionlast night tuesday night m best basically only friend f long story told want contact anymore according friendship toxic us thought well least therapy thursday far walk around weeks morning got email saying therapist got sick appointment moved march th idea anymore somebody help get mess life created im alone again happen every time people keep leaving me end it apparently im worth human contact keep living,1 +used clear goals plan achieve overall next years sort planned out try think see years simply cannot think anything really making even anxious used lot friends know happened maybe know explain even myself played lot sports hung friends sit computer day sometimes go short walks outside interest even play games anymore thing pc watch youtube stare fucking desktop know anymore feel lonely even know people care mehopefully confusing ltif ever need buddy play with got nothing vetter,1 +sometimes get sad think itll look friends get married llamas llamas trick,0 +ill get peace diei see option sick tired people fake are much hurt give shit wish could sleep wake tomorrow really want painless death know commit painless redflag want shoot gun quick death dunno ill get,1 +hello angry dart frog whats up frog frog frog frog frog frog frog,0 +cant cope am im evil need stop harmevery day throat closes up every day find somewhere hide feel rising tears start coming sometimes hide sometimes cry silently desk nobody notices go home work little room live shared accommodation never speak anyone close door cry panic attacks random times cant let near people terrified might them twisted evil psychologically manipulative emotionally abusive know get interact world without causing pain ive stopped living constant internal pain chaos nearly two years thing is living like pointless tried move healthily read articles forgive sound fucking stupid idealistic naive ive doctor told im depressed need treatment refused refer me know except killing myself never happy like past chose shit throw away like less nothing severely fucked mentally ill woman years old dark bags eyes entirely grey hair make look years older look like meth addict nobody could love me nobody should whats point toiling awful life ive built evil choices actions im coward know im going bring actually it really want gas im pathetic cant even drive wish somebody would murder me every day wish that please come stab throw deep valley never found,1 +recently mother asked afraid dieing told part truths part told scared death going die time means pain taking medication get day part share actually thoughts ending life daily would act know would traumatise nephew calls best friend another reason scared successful ending trapped body mind working unable communicate wishes somebody else making decisions believe id want reality would want want cancer scare decided getting results would receive treatment personally believe life wasted death scare me scared death,1 +botoxcan die fom ingesting botox,1 +made video last one phone know going do keep picking knives putting down hurts much kind medicine take much afraid hanging myself need die know how two daughters not home moment would never let see melike this want everyone know tried really hard cleaned life things supposed make us happy years cannot forget past assaulted hurts watch guys live lives happy feel disgustingand cannot go on called fat waste life junkie people supposed love most feel stuck thick mud cannot breathe hurts bad old still hurting past traumas want maybe located one day decision easy know kids home soon find maybe hotel tomorrow night cannot go on put name want stopped go phone see this please nobody like me get help late me love daughters love much everyday held you note them,1 +im wretchlike baby stillborn like beast horn torn everyone reached me relate lyrics much you reading please try change perceive myself tried so long hurt many others find purposefully avoiding forming new bonds even though hard to feel alone want hurt anyone else hurts painfully aware machinations mind force cycle toxicity struggle break it try simply withdraw interaction possible continue it yet thought never leaves me never able fully overcome eats away me problems consumed whatever before longer myself husk you reading thank you listening you listened could dare write people contact with,1 +im strait male prefer household chores women typically downvote hell sexist hear cooking cleaning around house typically jobs woman unless youre single guy kinda forced it im strait white male not matters id much rather clean house cook dinner mow lawn something like that love cook end stress cleaning lot anxiety enjoy cleaning writing this im making dinner spaghetti meatballs id anyone curious anyway id like hear options topic sex,0 +hey you people music suggestions ive listening alot system down slipknot nirvana alice chains aerosmith metallica ect lately looking new music suggestion still make fun music taste say somthing else cruel bc appreciate alot,0 +streetfight aka coonskin unique film directed animation pioneer ralph bakshi oddity cinema much worth seeing live action mixed animation seemingly influenced disneys legendary song south almost response flick philip michael thomas later become johnsons sidekick miami vice scatman crothers famous role kubricks shining prison escapees charles gordone barry white yes barry white thomas friends plan help escape prison stuck police roadblock crothers tells thomas story black rabbit bear fox move south harlem order find peaceful existence story animated provides lot wonderous things see like bakshis films annoyed dislike animation true animation lovers forgive clunkiness fall love inventiveness movie violent sexual mostly battles races long time thought watching something extremely important while especially got done watching it started seem like runofthemill blacksploitation flick along lines superfly sloppy really say anything besides bakshi white whatever answer that coonskinstreetfight still much worth watching animation aficionados well cult movie fans ,0 +friend respond im worried shithi ive posted exact friend talking overdosing starving etc anf think things got whole lot worse them respond texts even leave read im seriously worried might done something stupid last time heard late june seems like theyve comepltley dissapeared two instagram handles wwich one seems deleted private accept follow request social media numbers contact at im worried viewed stories either cant see theyre active do wait keep messaging see texts please help,1 +guys finally got girlfriend dumped toxic relationship negative effect wellbeing got help writing text dad said proud dealt it could barely see nice anyway theres loads posts people getting good relationships remember getting bad one impressive,0 +fuckers stole detroit cant detroit,0 +goes good ranch dip extra ranch left pizza im still hungry like need use,0 +idk needs hear need stop smoking wide open fast break lays fucks sake bro gonna cherry pick like bitch least make damn fucking lay swear fuck dime one person miss wide open lay im gonna commit arson fucks sake goes fucking dollars,0 +hey think im finally readyso anyways sister fucking insane drug fueled bender claims sexually assaulted her guess assume im lying say believe women always like girl seeing since im doomed die alone think im finally ready always thought id need gun actually super easy get lethal dose heroin normal person without history opioid abuse od like need get certificate anything way way better killing gun also fun less mess anyway heres list reasons absent one family friends significant etc man kill myself many men engineering politics law running music chess etc literally every interest have theres huge male bias percentage men thats high killing increase percentage women field recreational sports leagues gender requirements women play many want always many guys leagues sometimes feature girls times drive interest guys teams everyone prefers company women women want hang women men want hang women one ever says many women here believe women always rapist therefore deserve public shunning women want around like want men around women races yoga retreats gyms women screenings wonder women etc yes women may like particular men stick around guys really care competition net overall wanted theres many dating women overwhelmed messages guys like cares theres one less guy women trouble finding guys want date apparently anyway longer care anything else except this im pretty excited finally die deserve better exes emotional punching bag finally im gonna look me think writing note fun want guilt anyone issue want people happy given reasons listed obvious existence makes people unhappy anyway survivors hope happy really do want nothing happiness everyone friends family exes enemies whatever were monkeys rock kind other something says fuck guy think better move on anyway hope find happiness find someone love care about,1 +oh dont wanna get back listening earl sweatshirt would mean getting back sadness loop dont wanna get in time music good ugh,0 +anyone helpits fucked thoughts long time were shit situation right lease agreement money situation cant move out broke phone went use old one kicking around found messages another guy called broke up within week arms different guy goes house kid late every night last night never came home still here think would hard keeps leading like work next day acts like hates guys house night child truly hurts ive contemplating ending it not shes convinced child im worthless even like dad anymore family acts nice want money that have eyes kids mom im worthless pos end this bs try hard overcome depression well really long time look got me idk life sucks feel like would easier everyone could rest peace like understand would emotionally difficult first judging way people treat theyd get it live life wondering nobody cares even daughter,1 +im really suicidal right now could helpive depression long term roughly since started bullying getting attacked consistently school appearance i wasnt good looking somewhat chubby riddled acne hair basically skinhead bully called levi who first week started fight me warped school called mum told instigator bully kept antagonising him mum waited come home walked door beat living crap me fat sobbing wreck living room floor birthday came month later forced buy apology gifts birthday money grandad sent since refused get anything year supposed bully forced give someone still making school life misery apology card chocolate well ask forgiveness made situation worse kept beating up expelled friends blamed me started bully group one point arm dislocated one pretend fell bike knew lived year passes mum decides divorce step dad tells hell still dad month later says im kid refuses speak me mum gets relationship drug addicted alcoholic partakes vices picks heavy alcoholism almost daily fight tried stop shed attack call names such step dad comes pick half brother sister one day gives old desk sit stairs taking room asks said anything him didnt accuses loyal calls two faced backstabber says im scum cry take desk upstairs im get idea die dont need keep keep dealing this year old goes bathroom slits wrists doesnt cut deep enough exsanguinate himself goes downstairs ask mum help shows bloody wrists beats trying manipulate her forward another months turn th really feel point celebrating birthday depressed am ask alone say dont care it accuses fishing attention starts hit boyfriend says make list write small list forces write bigger list gets im forced put social media others see see great mum is months abuse boyfriend makes everyone move house boyfriend move home city itll make everyone happier move still abuse other time government lost school coursework get put onto maths band level capped c grade eventually get girlfriend big group friends make feel somewhat human local college informed im good computer science building pcs offer unconditional spot level networking course enrolment day college kyan moving back id failed subjects school bar english maths girlfriend still lived here friends still lived here hadnt experienced issues here broke boyfriend leave get back used live get put resit course college wont accept without gcses higher girlfriend lives miles away cant see often little brother sister allowed come see us every weeks mum irrationally moving much cant take computer science college dont course mum threatens kick leave homeless cannot find job says doesnt care stressful top college ive tried get take doctor refuses thinks depression myth way fix sad going working shes told rest family fear im abusive manipulative couldnt argue back ask threatened kick out life feels meaningless right now feels like im tragedy script authored feel awful times please help,1 +many xans w alcohol kill medont pull none get better bullshit im tryna push limits die die theyre straight mg pressies fillers,1 +time comei personally feel time finally come take oxys slit wrist finally making plans write good byes tonight get ready over cant handle anymore getting much im tired tired time anything look forward life,1 +existenz good film first wondering going on organic pods made mutant reptiles connected players surreal virtual reality game via umbilical cord well seems little oddbr br but gets going pretty good film twists great open ending good aspect weridness throughout film entertaining see sure whats coming nextbr br security personnel throw away metal detectors bone guns ,0 +walked home party crying way back fuck still here,1 +even qualify livemy life always riddled failures depression bad back gotten worse adult im severely lonely everyday repeat previous try distract activities cope loneliness often quit early god damn pandemic helping either im tired wasting away sad lonely world passes matter wanna scream show worth adult i keep composure ive hiding years now ive never told anyone really am usually hide smile like everything fine not im tired worthless piece trash keep saying want die courage it like something always holding back maybe false hope things get better fact die take care father family member back even never told depression bad gotten want burden regardless even qualified keep living im wasting time withering away clock keeps ticking,1 +used group friends used talk play almost every single day years one actually years thought best friend later really demonstrated much really care anyone else group left will rest group last longit almost year sincei already depressed time idk constant feeling loneliness actual friends tried making connections people sometimes meet online games even tried talking create connection never really happens either care even remember next day ghost anyway feel like age someone like least able find connection anyone ever again feel like ever find anyone ever trust again betrayed multiple times many people including friend since kid idk least couple years ago friends feel like nothing,1 +believe wanted series work early departure kevin kilner dealt near death blow season one robert leeshock right part jane heitmeyer admirable job lead series got messy confused point know happened season five mess sometimes time drop red cape stick sword bull know mean consistent thread holding series together amazing performances leni parker anita laselva two taelons quiet idealogical conflict talents wellwritten dialogue would two weird bald manchicks bmovie seriesbr br if series could ended season picked later syfy,0 +getting baited tell baited someone know confesses you someone confessed need pointers make sure theyre playing mean prank commit anything,0 +think done cannot handle waking daily basis monotonous routine kills me want ocean sinking bottom nothing bother going stop feeling like tonight feel real nothing matters anymore,1 +jewish pride month im asking feel like googling it,0 +never thought id post this birthday two days ago im cryingim atrocious im hurt im dumbass im stupid im constantly taunted girl like doesnt like way probably wants ignore im fucking done want end myself im going to know when demons won hope god forgive me,1 +intimate movie sincere girl real world hollywoods cheap fantasy good piece class ashley judd fills role impeccably may appear slow thrill seekers though cool movie calm nightbr br ,0 +right now want die hate meits bad night alone drunk want fucking kill myself reason here mess hurt friends family hurt eerybody cant sleep anymore barely think want fucking die knife hand icut never deep enough leaves ugly scars need die,1 +please helpreddit im good know problems typical time im trouble dealing them im girlfriend year leaving me week ago begging take back didnt im alienated family friends anymore ive quit job start new one turning inside anxiety lot feel like im losing all today hard exactly two year ago best friend roommate killed himself earlier tied belt around doorknob sat almost blacked out real concern die funeral want inconvenience anyone want start again im old want go dates want move home cant pay bills anymore im counting reasons keep going shit one hand im runnning out cant find value anymore really need kind therapy health insurance shell bunch money pay antidepressants every month keep getting like theres much do someone listen feel bad dumping problems onto im living completely inside head cant anymore cant,1 +want kill myselfi hate existence im always tired never get energy fix it people say care end lying everyone know always leaves always fault self harm constantly even try hide one cares anyways im selfish disgusting human deserves alone im allowed sad everyone know worse attention shifts whenever hurting talked friend redflag multiple times whenever need help one help im surrounded people constantly feel alone suicidal months now one cares cant afford therapy not would help parents think attention thats am im disgusting attention hog want die problems would solved along everyone elses im everyones problem mind mess tangled cant fucking untangle it seriously considering taking entire bottle advil whatever shit find fucking ending it im tired eternal sleep seems like answer know anymore need help cant get any im fucking done im tired crying anything besides this,1 +death comes mewhen die hand serene think it end without fear spoke friend day similar state mind commiserated tribulations life mundane existence door close now beckon void,1 +hard work doesnt always pays today realised hard work pays utter bullshit studied exam years worked ass off sacrificed whole lot things everything could used score excellent marks mock tests end ive got average score really difficult accept result,0 +nacho fries tacobell good theyre best advertised product planet ive never them good,0 +literally downloaded reddit could get chest nothing specifically wrong me supportive family amazing so job almost two degrees yet every day think ending all feel like drowning one hear me cannot talk gf want worry put burden her tell parents reason try talk best friend turns shit around like fucking fault depression cannot help it try talk big brother finds way make situation himself idk confused going motions rn fake till make it right going it want to,1 +anyone wanna friends someone talk quarantine,0 +know im anymoreive depressed years getting worse life keeps falling apart wasted years useless college music program even like music anymore even bigger waste years adult high school try get university computer science got in except ive pretty much failed university since demandinggoogle uoft cs post basically need average get second year average figured thats decent mark id go backup plan transferring different university except got rejected feel stupid guess terrible all world want im dumb ambitions left goals im dead end im debt wasted time spent school get shitty minimum wage jobs actually barely even get jobs spent almost year looking shitty job right now oh probably thousands dollars dental work need get done broken teeth cavities im doomed poor forever top friends never girlfriend virgin course one wants friend im depressed negative ugly broken front tooth even smile wanted people would get grossed out extremely skinny since eat im antidepressants seeing social worker going group cognitive behavior therapy thing none stuff working cant fix future ahead me cant even go public more see everyone else enjoying lives get jealous makes angry go home hate myself fuck doing,1 +understand livewhy kill im going die without achieving anything anyway im alive stay room cry would different im dead people expect try life die forgotten about absolutely redeeming qualities im definitely dumb astrophysicist career id want honestly im fucking ugly want cry whenever look mirror im annoying around always ruin mood friends matter much try anything talents one ever love would love ugly talentless unintelligent annoying depressed whore reason live im fucking entitled too eat calories theres entire country dying famine know that theyre literally eating leaves eat slice pizza im selfish worthless stupid whore deserve get raped die fucking hate know im disappointment,1 +crush anxious wrote message crush like want go date second sent it became anxious deleted oh man like that want know im going th grade realschule germany comment,0 +get feeling unpopular opinion literally sick right now recently made come psychiatric medications family member risk losing home able secure move into thought depression before never known emptiness like this feel utterly alone one life even wants bother try help me everyone sick me id say think keeping cat even would okay quietly left absolutely one would miss me get miserable day even mentioning likely permanent damage motor sensory function prescribed half dozen antidepressants less year already issues chronic pain fatigue know could possibly get worse ready fucking quit wish someone call clean whatever mess lifeless body would make upon exit family would deal it know would want to like life one would want deal mess existence would leave behind upon death fuck this suicide accepted redflag act made readily available choose opt life,1 +shocked learn jimmy caan left show anyone know why regard james one alltime greats surprised ended tv better crap see big screen stories slick camera faster speeding bullet forget rest cast james vanessayumnikki molly josh mitch alsocan anyone tell earth theres crap theme tune dvd sets elviss jxl remix little less conversation used initial nbc broadcasts make sense use tune would associate gambling mecca america dvd releases,0 +idealizationi drank last night amp fight so im horrible drinker mental health issues know better amp deeply regret decision today bad anxiety suicidal thoughts im unhappy much love give feel never wanted im stay home mother codependency driving crazy well feel drained thoughts today im embarassed myself im sure get help im scared,1 +life going way fast cant keep upi decided attend elite university clout even though fully aware mediocre student high school got straight first semester im currently going second semester gpa first semester seems great pussied due pandemic took easy classes fulfill general education requirements decided passno pass class instead opting letter grade cuz im shit writing philosophy papers struggled find motivation power classes even though supposed really easy signed technical class required intended major spring thats it rest classes general education requirements one fun im realizing ill need take least technical courses sophomore year order able declare major time decided pussy take hard classes pandemic university attend known hypercompetitive getting grade less a like death sentence hell even a enough cause heart attack dont know future be want go medical school seems near impossible competition here made garbage grades test scores high school taking extracurriculars easy went ghetto high school im pretty reputable university way many students way little resources somehow fight way top havent even made friends first semester uni dread go zoom meetings getting coldcalled professors graduate student instructors dont attend office hours im pussy poor attention span live extremely rowdy house constant arguments im cut university wanna think pandemic thats messing vibe thinking back high school always bare minimum give crap learning wanted grade grade b okay it always crammed information head exam proceed dump finished class repeat process again ask question ill explain incoherently probably even inorrectly well decided something winter break actually prep chemistry class signed for even trying prep chem fucking stoichiometry eating ass thats like one first things teach college chemistry fuck going survive dont know basic fucking math speaking math im doghsit math realize ive going rant far long basically dont know fuck im going life people tell theres always going second chances college whatever got one shot parents getting old cant leech forever cant fail classes need get good enough grades medical school fuck universitys grade deflation competitive fucking place is fuck supposed find internship im fucking dumb dont know anything probably students way smarter know way do fuck come clout shouldve gone smaller school massage big fat ego maybe better chance medical school sorry long rant sorry bitching moaning know ive got way better lot people given pandemic feel bad bitching privileged life,1 +say film simply demonisation catholics misrepresentation history untrue film isbr br what film comment abuses church although could substituted powerful body ways abuse affects people families way many people choose simply allow often participate abuse without thinking themselves fact catholic church wrong simply nature true story film based upon label propaganda catholics seems miss truth catholic church done times history often great something films like highlight needs highlighted yes comment abuses committed organisations remit filmbr br it amazing film brought tears well worth watching if study past bound repeat it,0 +telling parents im suicidalhi f here want die else would here burst tears sports practice theres voice head constantly harassing me fantasize death would affect others every day want people miss me want everybody realize much or little meant them know isnt healthy normal im seeing therapist now neat parents brought therapy request didnt tell for dont want give burden dont want explain feel bad them parents lead busy stressful lives is work law tiring field in family dog sick lethargic right now theyre redoing house make lot decisions theres much stuff plates right now dont want distract add worry about dont want break moms heart ive told felt like want end life quickly took back saying would never hyperbolic months ago getting worse sometimes really think it ideas like hanging basketball hoop structure school tying feet heavy concrete block rock drown pool pop head often im starting get scared really someday gets overwhelming sometimes school spend lunch period crying used blame dumb angsty teenager hurts lot now told therapist my first time going two days ago listened nice thing see like month since schedule busy got worse talked kinda sucks wait may discuss more meeting psychologist medicine im kinda worried about dont want scary side effects knows maybe im dramatic dont really need it dont want tell friends im sure lot deal lives dont want scare away like therapy anyways theyre bound law tell anybody dont know do dont feel good,1 +nthe edge right stepped backi tried put misery days ago stopped myself problem nothing really changed life static due early life crisis see always known wanted writer since childhood ever saw doing th grade entered essay contest overheard head contest talking essay words never good writer said made eye contact lost words moment pretended hear anything next day depressed ever been lost faith skill dream even muster strength go school years later im drop idea want life im angry everyone everything try write im happy anything come with everyone life thinks graduated working getting community college classes want filmmaker tried make short films shit unwatchable truth walk around pretending homeless sleep park benchs tried truly think im going spend rest life like this moment truth realised really want die problem know do cant go back school cant write confidence films trash also late tell friends truth without losing them tldr genuinely lost life redflag answer know is,1 +want join brothers brother hung tuesday absolutely shattered feels like hearts ripped out month best mate overdosed sure im suppose cope want want feel pain horrible,1 +come togetherwe exactly edge past edge wouldnt posting here werent close edge wouldnt post here unimaginable spot dying worst thing do yet obviously is ridiculous that none us figure death fits life us pretend others wonder end us feel like failed whether step edge back away it feel like lose way every way living dead welcome you welcome whatever is whether want say not dealing problem different causes scraping bottom barrel want get means necessary dont want die to isnt crazy always thought death perfect answer felt lucky solution reality dying creates another problem another thing deal with another thing us get wrong convinced dying answer wouldnt debating secondguessing ourselves never know right answer right thing cant trust to others might us weve failed many times cant go like that life death feel equally desirable equally unacceptable feel two opposites right thing weve done failed theres winning us switch words death dying words life living everywhere post message stays same stuck inevitably us find life others find opposite us feel better others feel worse one way another find way out million ways out used live fantasy world much want go back realize never feel felt yesterday feel tomorrow today get worse dont make work making better cant stay edge forever even though might end best place found in racing clock need answers now none us chose edge us want get out let life choose them maybe thats best maybe not enough left want choose myself whether life death happiness apathy frontwards backwards dont want limbo figure right thing do wrong thing know wrong thing feeling even death wouldnt solve problems know wrong thing feeling even life wouldnt solve problems im advocating one thing other dont know answer dont know answer theres right answer theres wrong answer this back forth infinite feeling hopelessness edge overlooks neither life death im sick feeling powerless need go answer need either succeed get past this fail get with feel like feel never forgot it lose like lost never trust yourself never forget loses top that that weve managed create whole new kind unhappiness us whole new level torment type existence takes everything leaves nothing cant happy life cant happy death gives manage create something irrational unrealistic undefinable common struggle took identity take lot granted sure could not losers lost lost losers whatever is pales comparison edge standing on alone weve proven unsuccessful even worse lets take advantage one thing share lets put together experiences perceptions idiosyncrasies things care things dont couldnt alone admit it lets together lets see cant figure together might way remove edge on im going post main account throwaway im serious this no dont plan repeat dont answers want try something new run time could worst thing do dont know could best thing do dont know decide next move lets come together decide need do message text eightfivesix twoeightthree sevenfourtwosix point post express way thinking give idea am want join me join us make happy want less sad try win lose get bottom this,1 +would say film disturbing brutality depicted sick way like psychosis minutes time cruel introspection human behavior scenes ferocious starting butchery horse ending brutal sex scene kitchen every emotion exploited extreme frustration butcher love daughter almost incestuous rage finds abused every feeling natural wrong film delivers truth human nature honest brutal way message film ones life change second consequence ones behavior primitive emotions powerful determine ones acting id loved unique manner filming simplicity brutality accompanied silence inner thoughts pierce through,0 +hate life currently,0 +think title movie describes well looking documentary louis kahn work look somewhere else although covered filmbr br of course eat pretty much anything im fed know much family history revolving around case believed told nathaniel father etcbr br for movie was thought pretty good little slow grabbing attention time wish nathaniel would focused little fathers work family drama although much history interesting louis bit playerbr br this really journey someones life happy tag along experience learning experience me seems filmmaker well br br oh footage kahns work stunning,0 +okay theory day today ive seeing lot coincidences strange things first shoe section ross consisted black red shoes solid colors toowith exception brand markings later noticed every time came intersection light turned red right got making us first line time every time white toyota corola followed blue ford f went taco bellnot choice every seat taken stereotypical family one girl one boy mom dad saw dude staring ground drove first time leave store minutes later yet move lady karen haircut big glasses got broken product walmart didnt complain okay last one joke hear out think matrix updating think something big happen soon earth least near me big thing happens want come back worship new god least praise noticing did,0 +really hate im fcking nicei hate it someone bogus life hard time hating people forgive people easily want people accept me hate feeling disliked even though know im used hate part much,1 +made idiot first day workhey guys imagine lot reading posts im gonna cut short save time work today finished school looking job shortly after im lucky found it felt really good get it however failed first day missunderstood assignment failed entrance exam im going tomorrow feel like shit now thought good smart person failing complete opposite nowhere near person want be never really been top that feel like everyone hates me people tell tons friends none call talk unless call first pretty much thing feel good im pretty good making music hope thats future kill,1 +everyone around horriblefirst manipulative stepmom second nassisist father third creepy stepmom forth mom denied everything next grandma agreed mom sixth best friend took advantage intoxicated seventh person text back left needed most im tired im scared everyone know do going home mom claimed ive lying friends stepdad sexually abusing also blames getting assaulted ive staying dads draining ive guess im less scared school start cant it motivation ive betrayed everyone around me ever wanna make happy feel sick nothing what im gonna die eventually anyway give now mentally fucked ive weird dreams nightmares assault im nervous everything literally imagine blowing brains everyday,1 +friend really good gives hugs im down gives advice help tough situations round great friend always stand me wish people like him,0 +answer yes every comment yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes,0 +watching movie mom sex scene came looked directly smiled whole scene sitting next mom,0 +f feeling less human option feels rightim going act feelings yet theyve lasted consistently weeks now im going lay background whatever else im new suicidal thoughts first thoughts around bullied unhappy school going me accepted early college program schedule full classes interested in things rocky ever started high school fine english class remarkable much else grades reflect sort good used to unsuccessful attempt bad report card grade trouble explaining result started medications anxiety depression back august i know long stretch time between seeing attempt december worked well enough soothe physical symptoms pharmacy always gave mother runaround psychiatrist prescribed basically seldom got filled time issue talked proper change made prior psychiatric involvement schoolbased therapy therapists simply right me know kind stomp negative thoughts breath kind tried therapist facility prescribes medication incompatible one well guessing particular one used younger clients myself pediatric care general feels small age theres much wait kept trying therapists one felt connected leave state permanently early semester care sick family came surprise school even tell left mentally limping hurt shock failing early college program things felt alien have relearning handle high school found going office administrator simply telling me new therapist hired soon after things okay connect recently terminated sessions think covidinduced teletherapy clarified incompatibility general problem connecting people friends talk regularly always feel alien even though mostly lot talk about listen talk favorite actors friends crushes understand it rationalize sympathize like capacity understand thinking someones attractive passing able recognize actors fans work feeling like song saved life ive seldom felt myself though felt however romantic feelings people lasted year more theyre always intense always study person develop feelings along way always talk tend care lot get confused realize feel ive never significant sometimes gets down despite disliking high school relationships play out people shown interest me first time mutual neither us really wanted directly confess switched schools really want hear that approximately month after someone else showed interest feeling same get along things thatd stop relationship one thing im bisexual hes homophobic match made heaven ive never dances never found someone attractive simply looking sure im even capable relationship people even find attractive say passing never hear again throw body image issues wahhh mom understand me nth degree feelings idiot constantly feel crux failing high school despite possibility graduate early play cards right tiny detail get stuck one topic interest talk others long unintentional rudeness blocks text write trying explain myself learned phrase social cue meant pretty much everything making feel worthless tldr like girls teen bad school communicating connecting people cant get date mental health services around suck sorry things jumbled trouble figuring put things proper order,1 +never want die follow easy steps live long want __ say no__ legally allowed die without consent may not work,0 +realise thinfit mine friends went garage managed get unit gap inches wide ribcage hurt skull hurt bit kinda proud ngl,0 +happiest individual alive rn schools closing agian lets go,0 +life hard enough right now holidays make much much worse definitely feel much isolated depressed suicidal today go work tonight hear everyone great holiday going help want life already enough holidays worst,1 +may skirt ketchup mustard marksman bc hit bb shot ft,0 +fg sucky weekendthis weekend awful self esteem demolished really successful month antidepressants want right end it side see hope future side see chemicallycompensated acceptance completely stupid worthless role world needs someone loser life let end im worthless everyone,1 +lives outside group often coming far away go group try friends them feel like theyre going want hang dorky year old idea wed even anyway also tried bumble bff make friends found constant swiping texting really boring depressing theres much bland small talk person make,0 +getting closer everydayeverything capable achieving without luck worth achieving even bother wanna wait miracle anymore people tell always way happy idea life living sure someone worse situation knowing helps bit even know except typing stupid thoughts,1 +really want do life ends anyways ruin everything everything ruin ruined me nothingnobody single reason keep trying yet able stare bottle pills research ways able to know keep trying though eventually atleast make solid attempt hope everything else want never going happen cannot kill,1 +first wet dream really really bad timing st need include background info girlfriend years going college musical theater order get college theres tons auditions go super stressful also job taking relatively difficult classes school knowing this backed settled hanging weekends sometimes every weekend i also taking home learning person relatively little contact us aside nightly calls well nowhere around christmas asked could take break super stressed out said ok said would week tons work do didnt mind want happy well weeks went got thinking happy felt great reason would feel stressed relationship felt guilty cheating approached asked admitted maybe started feeling something one coworkers fuck ok im upset see spending hours someone times week might make feel something towards them especially never see current partner explained wasnt mad didnt tell issue know start spending time her plus im person school ill start seeing talking daily accepted points wanted decide wanted continue start something coworker fuck x well days every single day ive wet dream her wtf never get them now body bring right im hurting most tldr dumb stupid horny teenage brain kicks im note think good chance getting back her weve never big argument treat wonderfully though im hard time competing someone sees frequently also im hoping none friends see this do hi thomas,0 +trashi trash drunk damaged forever broken deserved everything happened me want done already,1 +fucking lifei hate work cant stand it hate myself im still living parents think avpd im tired scared fix life im depressedsuicidal years now addicted weed sometimes alcohol times took ecstasy rave even home depression anxiety much worse since then social skills terrible im lost know do feel detached world im highdrunk time playing videogames listening music room im work cant stop selfdestructive behavior care health wellbeing friends gone im trapped inside head life feels like neverending nightmare years weed made worse too without feel like im dead inside want die nothing matters anymore easy im trapped fucking dystopian society kill soon swear cant stand wage slave life im dumb change it probably want to lost literally hope redflag feels like option left like since high school nothing cant save me know it,1 +im awaiting results medical examination im counting worst want terminali want get somewhere typing text file computer give release want tell anybody know know anybody know handle it im waiting medical results come in though ive never admitted last days realize much want fatal complication life pathetic mess long remember remember happiness contentment feels like im socially anxious handful weeks worth dating experience sexual experience im love girl love ungrateful idiot knows love her hold back letting know much wants guy want return ive trying find fault ever since get her hard nearly every close relationship ive resulted person leaving me always ive let guard expected harm result version protects always anxious outlook things expect worst worst happen relax worst happen soon subconsciously feel way consciously notice stupid is cant make feel differently though spend nights alone writing write lot wish could know steady foundation career know want do making feel even worthless subject redflag think would able bring to means fear pain want desperately something take to want prognosis tests terrible one things actually keeps depressed am think tests likely come back healthy think going hardest me anyway thanks reading this know hoped achieve this except sort release thanks clicking reading,1 +bad dayim terrible week wanted talk nice people relationship trouble job bright future nobody talk to honestly hurtful thing relationship feel like torn apart girlfriends parents still young early twenties different tracks life she goes top university community college student parents concern drag daughter might right weve dating two years always promised would something great life wanted firefighter want microbiologist problem see trying agree well blame her feel like everything futile life like nothing matters want get shit together want able succeed feel like cant im tired im tired trying fucking hard world nothing matters guess im intune society everyone else need newesthottest clothes need mansion servants nice shiny sports car feel like need someone loves me want help others part make world beautiful place live in want good husband son father friend brother desires disappear world go be good person fuck everyone else im get mine guess know want fit in thanks listening,1 +exactly sure ask that better subreddit it let know go there storyi began depression aroud specific reason recall try strangulate death sleep tried asphyxiate car nobody noticed it shot mouth long rifle harder hide family friend finally knew it incredibly lucky since paralysed disfigured little sequels understand biology huge amount luck cannot seem explain though since depressed anymore years downs depending life situation course dark thoughts everyday nothing could make disappear so anybody theory depressed anymore curiosity nothing change find answer manage years thanks clear know incredibly lucky mentally physically course would never ever suggest suicide attempt end depression depressed tried kill myself depressed anymore ,1 +doloim fucked person ive tried attempt redflag multiple times hopeless sometimes felt like soul losing bad shakes core sometimes feel like ive lost realize like phoenix im going rise despite path people want go down hate anger bubbles leaves bad emotional state sometimes wonder even deserve feel good time drugs helpful thats temporary way feel happy im alright temporary happiness right now kind ironic im depressed time yet im antidepressants take awhile kick in ik one reason im really pissed right havent able actually find happiness anything itll come,1 +im really pissed offif people quit pissing saying im crazy im going kill myself really pissing me gun,1 +know get helpso know title comes know get help know need therapist psychiatrist know may need meds again know know i know problem getting help strong one relationship family right now time fall apart financial provider go person fiance easily thrown get emotional cant handle well probably needs support group that family much help friends close me honest pushed away friends depression never really fixed broken bridges life short one confide in im also absolutely sure ive hit point depression complete danger myself stress levels sleepless nights really taking hold me im lucky job go late stay little later make it wake takes almost hours get bed im exhausted im frustrated sometimes cry commute home never used really cry think cutting like used to ache cut arms like used used keep rather stupid mental fantasies death ive tried exercising writing drawing reading gaming working overtime bunch things quiet thoughts work less less year goes by often find thinking dying even stop complete fantasy it losing control im struggling friendships right now need fiancee get day guess depression distanced fiancee emotionally front im her inside ive rotted core feel alone day started deleting people gaming lists social networks im again im going road want really want it know get help without spending much know ask it know hide fiancee family nothing ashamed cant know want feel like idiot like first time happened like feeling never got it know damn answer need hear general reddit sw population options do ive never needy yet afraid ask help like nearly everything wanted life depression swoops right starts eat away fucking hate it,1 +honestly dont knowman im regular white kid smoke weed say whatever fuck want moment cause got months probation literally dont know whats happening brain im depressed anything im sad got anxiety really bad months ago got dirtbike wreck totalled injuries brain one severe trauma ive noticed anger issues went freak tf littlest things im literally insanely frustrated everything govermentmom political shit everything im mad dont want help therapist psychiatrist cause nothing fix,1 +im scared im losing person love life im scared dont know dont know carry without shes slipping away like doesnt care anymore cant anything dont want live without,0 +gunhello everyone write saying head much time want kill myself gun would dead already afraid feeling pain dying thats need gun tbh ive also considered shocking wires dont die instantly that im years old french guy dont feel whole purpose life feel like life simply me hapiness pretty much depends humans dont feel time dont understand keep staying alive nothing stops getting everything dont trust religions death fact not existing heres question exist simply exist keep feeling pain could simply exist red posts people lot troubles lifes felt like problem yo guy supposed nothing compared them mean asking im alive could dead lets admit gotta wait years finaly enjoy life whatever try waiting enjoy simply turn forever think brain sick really mean it dont wanna exist anymore thanks ready far tho,1 +everyone pities looks mental illnesses cannot stand anymore tired labeled weird awkward hurtful disheartening got fired job know outgoing enough took weeks manage courage work took everything go work proud embarrassed looks pity coworkers grouped gossiped left out blank stares people gave something said came wrong annoyed looks people gave could stop fidgeting thought would worth it hey job going comfort zone right well what fuck gain embarrassment confirmation good enough one ever understand accept me rant,1 +improving rejection first english second language sorry miss spell something abaut rejected big time hurt like hell could get her make feel terrible abaut self especially looks never fat extra weight on never tried anything abaut it quarantine hit looked mirror decided make change started running dieting going gym lost kg quarantine ended went back school got showered compliments ever since lost weight love totally changed me depressed hated way look happy look good never ended getting girl got something much better learned best way getover bad things pick hobbies improve person make things easier forget,0 +spoilers ahead first ten minutes star witness were introduced quote typical urban american family unquote nameless city another way saying warner brothers version nyc except young children including charming dickie moore sprightly sally blane theyre pretty dreary lot dinner table conversation tedious wish story would move along bring star walter huston wait folks wait sudden serious gangster movie action breaks out drawing family will baby never lets up theres suspense oscarnominated script good acting everything want old movies beit here question chic sales performance must acquired taste presence turns crucial plot hes treated special status credits warner bros must really high sale corny old man routine fit public something lost me perhaps lost time period unknowable factor moviegoer understand also climax typically melodramatic nevertheless right best release studio year seen far however ive seen eight perhaps thats inconclusive view miss tcm shows it ,0 +im calling girlfriend love,0 +man music really take another place played bts cafe im another cafe,0 +rose noise confusion get glimpse beyond illusion soaring ever higher flew high though eyes could see still blind man though mind could think still mad man hear voices im dreaming hear say,0 +chronic pain redflagis anyone contemplating redflag due chronic pain,1 +deletedont know else post this care think might clinging things understand reinforcing them im suicidal anger problems reckless bad money skilled freelancer cant get work im starting think illusion really reasons angry sad depressed really reason happy except want be maybe want be maybe unfamiliar scary maybe scared everything thats struggle even simplest tidbit bad news maybe awful person like mind tells me im pathetic sad maybe thats used to think dreams dead nothing makes glow anymore inside nothing matters thing get angry angry im hungry is future looming ahead certainly kill us much anger myself everyone much judging anymore judge say should help anything things need trhat would help me scared do grown man scared even wake face bullshit tomorrow brings many people would trade life mine instant selfish spoiled brat deserves internal torture getting know whats real guess one people care im sick myself want someone else possible anymore probably not ideas cling to ideas me ideas people me defines person things head truly sick handle ashamed them know sick people disagree me cling sickness wish many times dead tired shit since little kid fear anxiety shame guilt awkwardness backstabbing know room people good long anyone read now comforts me knowing one give fuck say ironic discovered today cling notion people listen me like infuriates listened to makes sound like huge selfish prick guess am whatever see normally would want defend explain like fuck it like want be see try correct anyone ever let die let hate me hate they deep inside feel like really love everyone world realize awful are awful natural world is awful am come conclusion evil terrible needs destroyed ramble bad things would make better could since cant nothing matters migth well dead stupi dis that stupid much say do stupid normally id sorry say mean it get like this trying protect anyone already doomed world especially protect stupidity least possible thing spent years trying learn communicate well still suck it care anytmore makes sense flapstick jo jo cock lapodoo its going ghet views votes anyway care quite opposite hope one sees it want read later easiest,1 +im trans dad said made want kill myselfan h h matter go modify it beautiful help,1 +hey reddit times gotten harder daysits months since love life committed redflag hands still tremble type this hard keep pretending outside world ive since episodes depression lasting hours others day two none like im going now ive tried kill failed failure something new me ive failing whole life hurts looking people normal life cant it know saying head life like driving car like taking train get direct train buy tickets destination think got one way ticket months ago good reason carry useless existence logical brain telling carry emotions telling ive enough im work im tearing apart inside cant take anymore,1 +actually insane absolutely unproductive ive become like cant even get mobile minutes im constantly distracted anything everything tbh really take much distract,0 +theres second goes dont question existence wanna diemy social academic life turning shit second great news im slipping means im literally gonna die soon whether intentionally not cannot take life anymore im sure im depressed sad anymore im numb like cant feel anything beyond bodys defensive mechanism whatever disconnected world wrong cant fake someone else already lost am dont know im alive till one hate enough kill me probably dont trust ensure die im scared might fail live miracle dont think life let go easy yano death me get amen im religious btw,1 +boi wants get fucked mint mobile fox good taste,0 + brother got drunk broke foot told believe sexual abuse also told get kill when letting live rent bill free dad told fuck walked house pay immediately started attacking verbally incredibly angry quickly nana told today knowing bulimic massive self image issues put weightwhy move away friends moved closer family,1 +dunno anymorei made account this im sure want this want bother anyone want usual pep talks assume people get even exactly know bad ive felt thought year so good friends good family couple heartbreaks last couple years feel like use anyone actually feel like hinder people now taken one friends spiral drink drugs hes tried me shit see him ive fights arguments mother friends think hindsight behaiour hard tell see ive done wrong time think im right hard done by afterthought seeing others go guess see maybe common problem im one always issue causes issues guess depression latest ex tried get see someone it ive never felt id need that fact years ago least likely guy ever that ive always one everyone constant happy guy party guy helping guy guy would pick up guy would take in feel like one wants near me drunk drugs now alone anyone talk to ive thought last hours jumping car fucking finding cliff bridge know really want to might best guess want vent sorry fit here sorry brake rules i read them said want phone number know are thanks reddit,1 +monkeys jumping bed gtgtgtgt,0 +benched kg yesterday know lot skinny big accomplishment especially month bit really know else tell heres normal sized attractive me,0 +im sophomore next year want drop high school andor kill myselfi cant it light end tunnel internet boyfriend cant school im clinically depressed add ask questions want im tired rant huh fuck,1 +fucked headi killed internally years ago coping mechanism giving life hated support group even care try help raised absolute degenerates realised late wanted ive irreparable damage im sure want work hard get place doubt ill content with everyday struggle body despise living situation resent brings misery know escape survive alone want me want die even internal struggle hating exhausting thing fight maintain everyday,1 +boy im wearing pants ampxb abs disappeared last year however get enough comments one ill post yearold image im pool long workouthttpspreviewreddityjyqclirkpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsecfcabcfeaebddbc,0 +american boy jesse took train vienna order take plane usa train met french girl celine although met first time talked like good friends train stopped vienna jesse begged celine accompany tour vienna romantic story unfoldedbr br at first cautious funniest scene listening cd music store peeked other though eyes contact indepth conversation relationship became close saw romantic scene pretended call respective friend deep love expressed completely wordsbr br love strange thing really want it come wished love needs mutual understanding without it love last long spiritual harmony important lovebr br excellent screenplay performance resulted huge success moviebr br one best romance movies ,0 +honestly tired finally gotten help think made things times worse parents overwhelming ill never peace even though trying hard stay alive pointi cannot anything right actually cannot anything all overwhelming feel defeated tired,1 +wanna get something wanna get dont wanna tell anybody irl really hard hide get it,0 +instead handshakes start docking cocks greet eachother way cooler im pretty sure dicks somewhat clearer hands,0 +one time family favorites need laughwe put one laugh way thru like first time weve seen it film good clean family humor pauly shore brilliant plans thanksgiving holiday crawl shore invited spend holiday conservative coed becca crawl big city boy must adjust farm life fall love becca but crawl one learning new things crawl teaches becca parents open feelings accepting others fun viewers ages,0 +dont know come thisi look back past regret complete disregard future wish dead abuse substances feel numb im awake rest time im asleep,1 +well boys got turned downfind last post context basically talking girl week starting catch feelings today pretty much asked got turned down well theres always fish sea know im saying fellas,0 +one help meim yo kissless virgin ive tinder apps nothings working cant enjoy activities like music movies tv friends ive therapist meds mental hospital twice nothing working give you matter somebody loves you itll get better bullshit im going cut tonight watch porn cry sleep one day ill get car crash inserstate going huge concrete pole,1 +rita hayworth right cover girl technicolor film also starring gene kelly phil silvers eve arden lee bowman otto kruger rita plays beautiful showgirl rusty working small club owned man loves danny kelly friday go oysters genius silvers club comedian hate oysters theyre looking pearl find one three good luck believebr br rusty auditions wins role cover girl magazine starts ahead contestants magazine owner kruger sees resemblance rusty girl loved turns rustys grandmother becomes cover girl world opens dreams appearing broadway come true danny wants success time realizes hes lost herbr br cover girl exuberant dance numbers songs jerome kern rita dubbed martha mears rita best playing rusty present grandmother past sexy desirable gorgeous woman apparently insecure always thumb domineering men none ever showed screen fact want movie star one true goddesses brought everything life gene kelly serious role here gets plenty chances dance sing phil silvers amiable funny inhouse comic best friendbr br this good movie dull spots problem idea rusty choose successful career man loves supermodel jinx falkenberg plays film speaks getting married warned boss to necessary modeling business were told rusty continues career goes back work dannys signs seemed point toward brooklyn club both nevertheless cant beat cover girl top entertainment beautiful color lovely music great energy fine performances fabulous asset glorious rita hayworth,0 +helpim new subreddit id rather spend time reading peoples stories supportive wasting time front page people posted here helpful things say helpful,1 +hi everyone i wanted say attempted june suicidal since lately things getting better keep mood tracker days getting better im holding hope future understand looks th emoment likely worst pain youve felt yet feels neverending ends grow lt thank u reading am sleep deprived thoughts uwu,1 +great movie two people different backgrounds social status think nothing offer end needs testament heart knows sometimes wonder one man woman vise versa outward appearances say one thing eye offer within cannot see amazing unexplainable nimi thought matthew nothing offer matthew looking fling because open marriage whis wife jenny end realized could want exist without other worth resist family friends thought society said right other movie kind restores faith love,0 +last post lie still need male names teacher said name racist yeah stupid ik casper change it though people dont think im racist please good names serious names although kinda wanna name dolphin,0 +tried talk people nobody cares better end nownobody loves cares depressing nobody cares im feeling want find peace,1 +wouldnt it see someone wouldi wouldnt it couldnt brother though sometimes feelings emptiness have guilt remorse hopelessness feeling like youll never get better youre stuck get it get someone would it sometimes pain great dont want feel anymore ive personally never thought like it plus couldnt parents another kid no cant wish magic little pill could take make shit inside go away thats go therapy now im trying meditate weird little things try heal know day come feel happy again im looking forward it,1 +suicidal person hands keeps talking taking life idea lives fuck doim trying help this gets far theres way point people direction name anymore ex still give fuck lot people borderlining crisis want step line fuck do help without making worse,1 +mum coming home really angry calm her angry didnt give phone eventhough didnt anything bad,0 +yall ever wanna go back kid birthday days grandpa shows early birthday present nice card cash baby pictures me opened talked couple minutes left opened saw pictures first reaction cry feeling miss kid anyone one else get feeling me,0 +weve much easily toughest break ive ever had notredflag easy get over tldr broke bf anger issues financial issues drug alcohol issues depression redflag unresolved feelings gf died car crash year met me good qualities considerate loyal caring honest gentlemanly supportive makes miss him especially goodbye text,0 +woke morning something stop waves sadness drowning me looking articles support came across this saved morning hope helps you toothe ten minute redflag guidehttpwwwcrackedcomarticle__thetenminuteredflagguidehtml,1 +life always nightmarei know people worse thinking help though im diagnosed gender dysphoria had tranny top this hopes transitioning ive diagnosed chronic depression since barely twelve im almost now ptsd mom drug addict name common street drug tried it also alcoholic badly mentally ill drugs alcohol since whatever base mental illness made hundreds times worse sure has definitely suffers psychosis delusions also abused me yaya surprise there emotional physical excuse bruises falling every day school stereotypical tell elementary school kid me dad really around stop stayed away around other fought constantly always got physically violent other one day took us abuse shelter highly manipulative everyone convinced abuser her including me living fucking horrible way im ever abused again id rather die go one places lost custody siblings yeah thats best estimate hardly think straight hates guts course know dad cares me cared enough basic things like take dentist take doctor go hospital several times throughout life breathing recent doctors ive seen said need see pediatrician get checked asthma care enough make appointment that severe attack really know asthma panic attack ive never panic attack bad kept breathing bad enough hands feet numb chest hurt badly strain two days could care less thats one example mention sister thats years younger acts exactly like mom does extremely abusive destructive tried ruin lives multiple times get way constantly steals things barely clothes right taken nearly them sake family fight it course much worse happened this thats really for reading want kill myself recently ive going sisters amazing escape able go corona chance stay there soon want move bad cant cant leave dog even asked dad could keep days could take back others said no feel trapped thousandth time life might kill myself cant take living here cant handle mental state anymore ive attempted before need courage try again,1 +finally got wish see one cinema id seen fritz langs film video years ago id hoping ideal screening conditions would work magicbr br conditions ideal cinematheque ontario pristine fulllength print intertitles original gothicscript german simultaneous english translation accurate without literal live piano accompaniment idealbr br the films magic sputtered little ultimately failed catch least mebr br this film bears real relation wagners ring cycle already knew may not wagner adapted th c niebelungenlied purposes part fritz langs epic siegfried much familiar listeners wagner howeverbr br kriemhilds revenge story siegfrieds wife kriemhild marriage king etzel attila hun desire revenge hagen gunther rechristened nibelungs murder siegfried spectacular conflagration film presumably evolved expanded wagnerian mythos gtterdmmerung twilight gods end valhalla film remains earthboundbr br most film spectacular massive sets rival cabiria inspired griffiths intolerance decoration sets new benchmark barbaric splendour theres huge cast scarred mangy huns art deco burgundians battles battles never seem end factbr br kriemhild successful plan revenge manages destroy around her loyalty martyred siegfried seems stem much love devotion something closer psychosis lady macbeth cried out unsex here knew emotionally unprepared needed do kriemhild displays normal human emotions certainly nothing one equates feminine principle already top full direst cruelty borrow shakespeares phrase outset margarethe schn director convey glower want exaggerate glower virtually expression ever animate kriemhilds face ultimate onenote performances clearly intentional however simply case poor actingbr br what offer onedimensional sketch avenging fury might see kriemhild empowered heroine see film misogynistic,0 +so realised something realised im bisexual today hardly knew lmao happened,0 +even pressed chargers him unfortunately still found way hooking girls know make sure knew it nothing happened since june im moving far away him struggle every day flashbacks occur still dont expect ever fully go away say survived this,1 +wish scared dying could end painjust saying theres nothing done,1 +steamboat willie often erroneously touted first mickey mouse film though title actually goes plane crazy source fuelling common misconception probably episode the simpsons places origin itchy mouse short called steamboat itchy obviously parody cartoon interestingly steamboat willie parody spoofing latest buster keaton release steamboat bill jr though connection stretches little beyond title general story setting walt disney short mickey mouse takes charge river steamboat much annoyance captain pete cat spitefully casts aside mickey outdone nastiness far removed pleasant wholesome mickey recent generations enjoyed little mouse cares numero uno inflicting pain displeasure series farm animals order provide music amusementbr br first theres laughing parrot cops bucket large potato head goat cranked tail provide music turkey straw guitar swallowed cat swung around tail goose throttled throat piglet viciously booted childrens cartoon steamboat willie directed walt disney ub iwerks certainly meanspirited humour though also noticed similar elements though quite extent later disney shorts like gulliver mickey lets forget minnie mouse course suffers treatment could today sue sexual harassment jokes may crude animation perhaps even so cartoon delivers bucketfull laughs easy see little rodent became one beloved characters cinema history fan mickey mouse disney general one steamboat cant afford miss,0 +feel,0 +good morning extremely moved members sub contributing good society answering call aid last week footage released mentally challenged man germantown philadelphia get sucker punched head ruthless teenagers victim walked away still fell victim another punch fortunately teenagers arrested charged,1 +hey guys im lunch right wanna spam notifications see english class care spam letter want ton,0 +almost feels worse dont reason feel suicidalim college work friends family girlfriend reason want die jesus christ think sometimes obsess past know brain feel like fucking terrible person waste drain people around me fact theres external cause feeling makes feel much helpless went long time thinking everyone went periods think killing one time close friend confided death someone knew first time life thought would like without the friend around hit isnt normal think way fucking time ugh wish would happy want dead,1 +thirty nine counting miss ,0 +usnoochipmunks liar really posts rthathappened content unreal extent he poured piss brothers drink bs course cannot prove anything chance someone slim he thought fridge lame fix basic imagination come valid explanation fridge supposedly years suddenly change flavor ones favorite drink total lack 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perhaps dying reasoned thing stupid life,1 +may sound stupid know guy likes me mean like love way like friend way im asking feel like im annoying want talk me fact may reading help,0 +picked film local library met director film festival late last year curious check out work pleasantly surprisedbr br the film takes fresh look familiar subjects love infidelity friendships jealousy bit talky times never much completely sink film enjoyed watching love story characters clearly belong together watching make conscious decisions rather haphazardly falling something important lovebr br the contrast film average lowbudget shootem black film quite distinct check out lucky copy come copy soundtrack like mine did good stuff,0 +originally saw film working musician musical theatre summer stock ever done work theatre especially summer stock theatre really enjoy filmbr br yes moments really bad writing film overall lovely tribute theatre people love it,0 +please help meplease help please help please 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please help,1 +ever wake suicidal spend day feeling suicidal go bed wishing would never wake again dealing feelings now believe things get better life get easier lately kind feel like worth it go mess feel like might get glimpse happiness far future cannot take anymorei tried talking friends stuff try nice supportive cannot make feel better know seek professional help let us say easy option person circumstances would shoes feel like worth,1 +cant wait kill myselfits almost coming end best,1 +torrenting slow takin multiple hours download gb file although might hardware cuz ive done main pc ryzen gb ram fine im surface quad core atom gb lpddr slow ghz wifi im torrenting linux isos sure ill go,0 +first thing noticed movie well everything set up quality movie round br br i suppose could love film action liked thatbr br this pure thrillerhorror movie offers fullyfleshed script horror films do thought least us version ended brilliantly great throughout story felt honest brutalbr br the film excellent tight script keeps action moving believable characters largely believable situations,0 +seeing thingsso lately ive daydream type things id looking glass water something id see smash head someone elses id backseat car id see us crashingor attacking random person id see store crazy oridk,1 +i person says pogchamp unironically successfully gotten laid seems like key find someone also says pogchamp unironically,0 +sinking feelingmy girlfriend left me id always felt like waste gotten expelled back middle school thats first tried take life swallow pills easily ended taking anywhere near enough hurt myself wailed smacked head floor finally made unconscious one knew except brother found note left page scrabbling shoved couch wanted die on highschool odd time id spent eating lunch alone stairwells horrible student motivation every week wanted die got arrested menace friend parents forbade seeing me became truly alone tried breaking out joined schools football rugby team went denied freshman year starter senior junior talk anyone teams anymore never went parties except athletic award theres way remember years one ever took picture memy parents never came game became cynical faked played cool cat feel drugs drove drunk high times care admit id drive fathers motorcycle near kmh hilly roads countryside regard others id sometimes close eyes hope id veering course it id break crying pretty often randomly things explain it sometimes id look mirror notice frowning intensely tearing up hurt way cant describe feel university rolled around getting high everyday every day failed program first semester ah side garbage current girlfriend ex introduced friend shed room late night floormates would tease locked door time friend told theyd bang id begun lose weight went current past year id think love someone would mean something yelled publically telling me confided in she actually never asked life feeling used talk get him awh man fuck,1 +ive quit weed ive started nightmares again ive diagnosed redflag finally working little try get all ive gone contact dad tim well dad never really respected as never agrees views need sent email tim last november informing cant around anymore,1 +know gonna hate im sorry gti lost gamelt,0 +opinions needed bedtime sister six ten bedtime ten year old brothers almost downtime when phone shuts off while think reasonable parents turned randomly tonight wouldnt tell why guys think reasonable get downtime back miss talking friends writing this weird would usually logging minecraft getting ready idk want downtime back,0 +im doneits th birthday tomorrow surprised im still im excited anything anymore know everyone wanting pretend like like always mean difference today tomorrow legally drink till cant fuckin see idk find ever look people older anymore cant understand still everyone seems pathetic im worse fucking bullshit want pull trigger already look pills take every day change brain chemistry feel false happiness wonder took would even die would end disabled would even pathetic scenario ive weak far cant even find proper way im much pussy go jump bridge dont even know could hang myself dont want anymore wish would end dont want get older one step stupid fucking nothingness,1 +pity doesnt helpim admitted hospital currently work though obviously much longer lady orientation said heart goes redflag ideation patients yall people dont think life worth living hurts heart internal reaction person without realizing b one said life worth living either could literally life would still want die basically point pity helpful less you aside really sucks true even though specific life extremely difficult hard deal cannot imagine possible life would okay apart maybe inheriting couple million dollars not going happen time soon cant think job would okay way life would okay meltdown work tuesday severe anxiety sent home two weeks sort out home week improvement tried find doctor said least week half first app therapist two weeks see psychiatrist dont regular doctor local doctors charge new patient fee top appointment itself husband says take commit tomorrow hospital triggers anxiety good hospital everything suck knowing backside pitying doesnt help makes think life special compared mine maybe us tired suffering resources help ease that,1 +one best best film seen very long time enough action satisfy fan yet plot good really enjoyed filmand hooked start finishbr br added blood gore there brought realistic nature happens front film even tear jerker ending many people thinkbr br it must watch anyone seen many reviews slating film fair films get bad reviews turn best proves againbr br rent film buy film go watch film disappointed,0 +know much longer thingsive always joker group friends always try make people laugh enjoy whenever leave people feel terrible inside feel lonely helpless nothing seem right never want disappoint parents want save embarrassment identifying body im sure cant much longer nothing changes,1 +faq made well written male bi favorite color either black pastel purple go male female pronouns i dont perfer one other look like heres picture mehttpsimgurcomaoxsrni like s numetal music want call name reason use kira occasionally post depressing shite dont worry get sad late night often put lt end messages dont read feel free put questions comments answer lt,0 +debating right whether really worth continuing furtherhonestly idea itll worth continuing going life ive genuinely considering taking life shortly new year scumbag like left rot shitty year like think way im burden everyone already nobody would really miss much people see inconvenience piece shit mostly fault theirs im already miserable enough incredibly depressed like going get better gets worse even christmas theres much negativity well im making post christmas ill probably blind eye doctor fucks surgery theyre cutting eye open correct muscle id rather dead blind like ill contribute society ill average loser joe society going shit anyways rate id rather die terms deal rushed vaccine commit social redflag ive probably already half committed rate im going see folks thats six great reasons commit redflag now reasons shouldnt commit redflag arent many dont even know im gonna yet im probably going decide bit see feel shitty tomorrow hate life,1 +want distance loved onesi feel hopeless future things gotten better years therapy work first time time around impossible even schedule meeting unless want deal time conflicts schooling feel pointless existence think mom loves child think loves person know boyfriend cares me think name friend would realize died beyond showing school might message first time want distance family boyfriend make less painful give kill myself know how know make less painful them cant go like anymore want slowly stop part lives leave room much join mom anything stop talking boyfriend much become less important cause issues distress maybe well break eventually make process much easier want keep living like this,1 +please help me heres deal yesterday mom breakfast table told headache since friday imma make quick stop say literally every single day sick something dont know since father well hes us brought fact shes always sick big mistake went full defensive telling shes pain wont tell shit aches pains picked food plate table rushed room could tell single word mean tried tell mean seem listen ive depressed cant figure wrong shes still mad cant figure say wrong heres post here would greatly appreciate crowd help figure wrong tldr no read whole thing cant summarize this also sorry english bad,0 +reminder downvoting posts asking help sharing much person posts save downvotes truly negligent swcoming two year anniversary sw im looking recent posts suprised see many downvotes postings asking help sharing feelings please save spam opinions songs articles feel inappropriate,1 +survived odonly option cut wrist throat,1 +told excited enthusiastic it let go went friends new years still felt distance new years morning woke up rolled told wanted year really focus us excited keep working getting us good place seem care,0 +hurt confusioni know do theres group people downstairs left right came in still hear talking cant stand it friends want live house anymore year ago did year ago lived somewhere else want live anymore thought id happy here like people live with friends talk them well can long supposed take make someone like you can wrong cant supposed do never know say head feels like cloud chest feels like cave im interesting im funny i go outside comfort zone talk people every day anything comfortable start comfortable everybody get automatic work hard form every word like anyone else get easier gotten harder know need help getting help while felt good youre supposed medicated life else supposed feel good make progress then ever happen need help need someone help me know works know am know anyone else really hurts hate self pity goes circles cant find way out,1 +half tempted make teen discord converse children clue run discord though,0 +literally want die im sick bae ik u see dm b die lets friends,0 +like disrespect yall year olds know yall gay young like broski middle school thinking parkour way tag like bitch im bi didnt truly find till like cuz actually tested out,0 +could use friendso ive feeling pretty bad past weeks think lot holidays really rough weather ive really depressed suicidal could surrounded loved ones feel alone like disappointment feel like burden achievements minuscule people hate me feel like coworkers really like me feel like im close breakdown concerned weight want stop eating again feel beautiful loved slept days nightmares mind racing feel like would better everyone disappeared sometimes even know im sad cry reason breathe want hurt want anyone accidentally see feel like im spiraling control want everyone happy feel like make things worse know do hate myself wanna die sometimes,1 +mom guessed smash bros ultimate character video pretty epic collects retro games interesting do anybody wants watch video go ahead guest fun wasnt sure anybody else would interested httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvhlmxywww,0 +spiralingmy job source depression point mental illness anyone talk even bc want burden past days back feeling like want die contemplating methods again feel really control im scared feel matter life always hits low points really truly feel like life pain never get better want nothing exist,1 +whats point going onive utterly depressed years im sick all go on years seem getting better fact seems get worse get wrong days im content even happy shit certainly ways it cluster fuck atoms bacteria trying survive free concept brain makes decisions even consciously know made it humans designed keep going eating sleeping mating ego personality merely brains collective memories decisions see carry on ive spoke doctors psychologists family friends nothing changes hesitation leaving family behind although longer go easier decision redflag becoming existence pain mr meeksees doubt makes much sense im sure understand life suck balls,1 +look forwardto anything simply feel like empty vessel living day life feeling worthless nights gets bad need drinks knock out wish id never wake up,1 +new york one hot night four famous iconic figures come together professor albert einstein come ny give speech has senator joesph maccarthy back later night gets surprise visitor famous actress marilyn monroe actually wants discuss theories relativity soon ballplaying husband joe dimaggio turns hotel room begging work things crumbling relationship flashbacks childhood important events perceived consequences actions creep show individuals cope despair hidden fear waiting break outbr br now thats oneofakind adapted stageplay terry johnson who would also script screenplay film insignificance odd quirky seductive downright curious fictional popculture gimmick hands director nicolas roeg inspired cerebral experimental effort might rooted stageplay origins feel theatrical action occurs hotel backdrop one main suite cramp look enhanced moody smoky atmosphere new york great effect however limitations cant contain fruitful daring ideas roeg manages randomly storm visually meaningful material way reflects characters who suggestively famous figures without need naming them philosophical journeys interpretations notions stimulating spiritual sense memories gelling present visions showing fears realisations depending seeing either beautiful hauntingly implemented theres plenty food thought hints within verbosely innovative if sometimes awkward script main focus concerning present situation flashbacks gives us personal makeup sex power enlightenment glory makes much burden already demanding lives sure story might lead anything end feel disjointed dreamy vibe intelligent arrangement irons folds makes sure never turns giddy peter hannans sensually fluid photography stanley myers titillatingly oozing blues soundtrack fit snugly roegs stylistically subdue established style directing makes look like hes working something big largescale otherwise thats case small little universe created vintage costumes locations period come fittingly enough made film impressive acting boasted main four theresa russells perky drop dead gorgeous appeal sexy pinup actress growing portrayal definitely held film together along genuinely excellent endearing performance michael emil professor tony curtis marvellously plays witchhunting senator gary busey suitably good stoically gravel manner ballplayer showing minor amusing support roles happen sampson patrick kilpatrickbr br a memorably striking fresh tour de force meditation piece metaphysics linked together four different extremes might find pretentiously estrange talky one wrapped little unique world worry much shortcomings,0 +pretty certainthrowaway account throwaway person im done want ive never wanted something bad u wanted happy youd let go thats truth,1 +whats deal gays attractive,0 +never girlfriendany boat,1 +ok goodbye reddit ill back workout,0 +update suicidal ideationshello posted back thinking committing redflag try mom found went hospital mental unit stayed almost two weeks came much better person still suicidal thoughts depression im dark place first went in also lot people scared put inpatient firstly usually short term weeks tops depending hospital hospitals psych unit every one ive great groups medicine usually also lot free time nurses usually amazing someones report to mine social worker coordinate outside world rent bills pay it really bad optimal ive never experience abuse others said happen im sure happen places would say often think wanted say considering scared help anyways im im going back therapist well partial hospitalization go groups am pm helps much feel like fight this thank everyone messaged commented means much people care thank you ps im mobile sorry weird formatting spelling errors,1 +know whereive looking options think way want go jumping ive looking places seattle cant find anywhere know aurora bridge common place redflag wall makes hard want find good place it,1 +anyone available talki seem luck hotline want talk someone really know go,1 +tf people following google maps didnt even know follow people google maps wtf,0 +bored looking light read check book wrote younger hi everyone younger think preteen age one hobbies writing books based going life recently ive inspired look back old writing reason definitely worthy publishing curious whether would appealed around age protagonist things wrote book extremely unrealistic others quite plausible even looking back years wrote it makes curious would received others synopsis book tenyearold margaret lorie typical preteen girl many ways learning navigate transition child young adult naturally involves many changes story opens meg must cope new addition family via adoption little girl named wayne join megs ups downs navigates unpredictable world middle school friendships meet nice mean girls journey beware girls around age both and course title would suggest meg develops crush boy named max actually fourteen years old friendship develop course story influence meg world around her read max find outhttpsdocsgooglecomdocumentdmqxfiqtfigrpqmfzccmdfbjwibsxftkoedituspsharing,0 +im coming weak straight basically straight except im attracted trans men,0 +im watching naruto shippuden first time asuma shikamaru favorite characters im season ep yay yay yay im fricking happy,0 +find joy life anymoreim smoking weed since beginning last school vacation never found sociable weed helped social life got pretty good abusive use bought money high smoked day enough however around months ago parents found out anti drug listen arguments bad me since talk them accept want live life grades school good smoking influenced education all recently started take phone computer night entertainment since let go evenings shit makes stressed life school less less motivation take seriously see point living im eastern europe opportunities youngs know sounds pathetic thats every night think killing myself parents would supportive would let enjoy life would happy thats case overwhelms me advice would appriciated,1 +literally never talk irl barely ever comment whenever comment anywhere online talk someone irl always get attacked knowing internet norms sarcasm info need know talkative socially attractive person makes feel like shit isolated thoughts getting even rn people attack idea posting this want chest mostly fellow depressed people nice post roffmychest receive hate usual knowing how talk right way st century especially internet always get attacked people,1 +im done hereim likely going end life tonight least try god hope works beyond stressed out unable attend therapy anymore desperately need bpd medicine isnt working months injection im tired living breathing eating awake im tired life feel like empty shell person like one take lifes punches lose little year year girlfriend works tonight want overdose cymbalta hydroxyzine feel hopeless im never going get better especially without therapy dont kill im gonna go dark path goodbye,1 +people seen movie thinks best movie ever made disagree movie good tony bad ass guy knows hes intimidating uses get ahead goes washing dishes huge house office cocaine desk want family movie way go want mobsters vengeance stuff like like it,0 +spoilers spoilers must something air immediate postwar years made night cities attractive settings movies gaggle nocturnal urban films made time america one notable carol reeds odd man out english picture wounded gunman staggering streets belfast america high noon properly high midnight film noirbr br crossfire really film noir trappings noir though uses aims bigotry directed edward dmytryk written john paxton adapted novel richard brooks book concerned murder homosexual movie victim changed jew though filmed like mystery little suspense film fairly obvious murderer early on makes film watchable beautiful evocation city washington dc world war ii gifted craftsmen working films time unlike many night movies crossfire set mostly indoors police stations rooming houses allnight movie theaters soldiers everywhere film itching get back civilian lives yet one senses men meet personalities shaped military experience going tough return old neighborhoods maybe even impossible seem bound one another anything anyone elsebr br yet men never truly bonded anyone military murderer monty one individual one senses never connected civilian life either lone wolf also needs people desperately alone sadistic streak mile wide always needs someone nearby butt jokes man kills harm fact stranger him monty figured mans religion enough really mean kill guy intent merely humiliate beat up quite drunk time montys fists got better him act sets story story motionbr br once movie builds head steam characters come rapidly focus montys opposite number keely another soldier who though introspective like monty somewhat detached harbors resentment toward anyone seems reasonable even amiable guy finley pipesmoking homicide detective dandyish tad effete compared men uniform proves match various mostly recalcitrant soldiers deals with actors plays roles roberts ryan mitchum young give excellent performances different key ryan monty tense paranoid always looking around someone pick on one feel anxiety becoming victim himself keely mitchum lowkey almost nonchalant never raises voice seems say offer permitted script youngs performance often criticized soft find deceptively strong nicely offbeat cuts stereotype hardboiled cop makes character finley bit prince crime detectionbr br there surprises crossfire though script times surprisingly wellwritten even brilliant character actor paul kelly gives one best short performances movies boyfriend woman soldier picks bar kelly may may husband may may live her though seems relaxed enough apartment beauty scenes nothing made clear man seems little confused role is ought be way scenes form thematic core film anomie exception detective men film drifting aimless basically lost seriously others respect crossfire is preaching near end film vagueness identity easily lost warped men drift one bar another film engage sort woozy camaraderie personalities merging kind general american male template something happens something nailed down word mentioned whether jew hillbilly things suddenly turn tense notion individuality identity outside group anyone like them becomes deeply offensive even loathsome then tempers flare whatever stirred resolved forgotten men revert loose nonpersonal group normality order restored,0 +need borrow someones life bit wont long daysor months idk,0 +uh oh go sort new usually sub almost every post words mods pedo opinion situation getting big people,0 +remember joke girls real subreddit best lets go back please would really cool would epic gamer boys could talk like incel things,0 +last film underrated director alberto de martino the antichrist the killer phone truly suspenseful incomprehensibly neglected giallo containing pretty much trademarks makes italian horror sub genre magnificent addictive fans disturbing themes child abuse phony priests loads creepy moments plot twists left right outstanding music last least handful really sadistic murder scenes especially opening sequence kind prologue powerful piece horror ordinary child dolls make creepy anonymous man dressed like priest assaulted little girl broken head doll bounced flight stairs really sent cold shivers spine years later young girl prologue adult woman bound wheelchair inherited lot money uses fortune stimulate fellow handicapped people practice sports remain notredflagminded joanna falls love personal coach get married right away naturally hes money starts terrorizing joanna making relive childhood trauma crippled her repeated images sinister looking priest guided eerie tunes nursery rhyme provide formula murder ton genuine scares alberto de martinos directing resolute acting quite competent david warbeck the beyond the black cat glorious greedy villain role due plot holes lack originality movie might able compete italys best horror efforts definitely deserves attention many formerly obscure unknown italian gialli received marvelous dvdreleases and hopefully formula murder given treatment really soon meantime good luck tracking baby down,0 +bad ptsd attack im edgei triggered cant feel arms im shaking like crazy cant stop crying want instant death right tried reach people didnt work edge im ready drop cant stop sorry,1 +thoughts suicide however trying withstand think themi good connection dad often think much happier would parents together even though split benefit both sad strong connection dad fact really strong connection anyone matter hard try hard want conversation someone goes barely anywhere overall social really tears down also self conscious like looks thoughts actions overall like myself would probably ended still young want harm mom sister close themalso recently sister said know would really made think impact suicide also tried best comfort self harming helped get dark place ini love mother sister dearly reason still here want alive want dead,1 +sad kill myselfive seriously suicidal long sat balcony hour month ago ready jump texting goodbye anyone cared even slightest bit about every reason pussied jumping day gone away cant find reason kill myself fact logically really feel like best decision make without clouded judgment really seriously considering friday monday today tuesday time much stuff happened made feel worse worse worse im honestly sad kill myself know why know makes sense sound like make sense redflag end move sad even want kill myself happen happened anyone else ampxb im sorry formatting bad post often feel like brain tapped friday something stupid it,1 +got suspended bus week cant go school bus driver claims wasnt wearing seatbelt really way could see waist driving instead talking immediately calls dad tells dad im suspended week get home noting happened dad goes cant go school without getting trouble go what goes cant wear seatbelt bus suspended bus week cant go school proceeds beat living hell me neck back hurt like hell now really hate house,0 +bare uncircumcised cock oh nvm cant post images,0 +saw today dollar tree ive depressed years now wasnt lately suicidal thoughts im unemployed failed years college due anxiety depression starting community college freshman age still failing classes right now former bullies high schoolthe reason depression going places got yale dating studying abroad im still stuck hometown dealing trauma everyday adds breaking pointlast night ok ko cartoon show really liked ended final episode talked growing up really hit hard hated stuck mentally still watching kids cartoons scared people watched show hours today first time planned kill myself going wait familys asleep tonight ill entire bottle antidepressant sleeping pills cup coffre soy milk bit afterwards mom told buy stuff dollar tree went saw cashiers wrist know say cutter cut across want attendion cut vertically truly want die like long cuts vertical something scared me help picture dead real thought terrifying also something seeing someone might also going suicial thought made feel like im alone decided kill today,1 +cout ,0 +mark words buy drums thats literally dream buy drums right dont money next years im gonna work study hard make dream come true expect sick drumming videos future,0 +anythingi really need someone tell end,1 +hey ive got new sub called rfattestdogs pics gifs fat big doggos new want get started,0 +got banned made another account report block disgusting pervert,0 +pandemic triggering old trauma responses barely functionim nearly decade sober past years trauma trauma emotional abuse multiple job losses incorrect mental health diagnosis amp medication which months now multiple failed relationships etc understand life ive mentalemotionalspiritual practice many years get things well friends inside outside substance abuse recovery world pandemic triggering otherwise dormant trauma responses memories body reacting accordingly want eat work respond anyone care happens me except really care panic attack feels like im suffocating feel completely alone despite constantly pestered talk roommate friends phone zoom feel trapped ever chose home own know without feeling guilt right since technically know need do feels impossible fix right now feel guilty feeling way many people fighting lives lives others im sorry thank reading,1 +redflag best optioni really feel way killed people would sad feel like would social convention says someone know dies supposed sad really shouldnt be one know enjoys spending time me tell faces way talk much pulling teeth get anyone anything horrible person spend time with everything life seems like shit way always has im still date never girl friend dont care sex wanted girl friends someone might care me basically really considering redflag really want it need build finally rid crap,1 +think life worth itso fear going outdoors started years ago family moved away home town get really paranoid really gone much since like car stuff scared meet new people getting help hard im getting tutoring miss school much think handle anymore used self harm attempted redflag years ago thought fine way lived mind it want help im scared know do,1 +thing want kill myselfnothing enjoyable anymore dont want anything life id rather die right now kill years old currently dont want live world anymore made live purpose alive useful skills life dont want improve myself eat loads junk food regard health dont give shit healthy im going commit redflag anyways,1 +anyone chat im feeling kinda high rn rlly wanna talk abt mbti someone bc irl friend working rn anyone down,0 +mother found twitter account noticed pronouns forcefully removed closet let known felt safe saying whatever tf wanted without fear parents reprimanding guess,0 +terrific little film stars mary astor gogetter works way struggling paper company owner sell health reasons comes scheme employees buy company jerk salesman robert ames front even though brainsbr br of course becomes big success becomes executive secretary basically still running everything teaching class loves dope never catches fools around string bimbos chased married separated man ricardo cortez free society gal catches ames everything goes hellbr br astor wonderful toosmart woman almost makes huge mistake loses man ames good jerk but see him cortez good much do kitty kelly good sidekick dolores charles sellon original owner cather dale owen society babe edna murphy funny daisybr br worth look,0 +cant family think timethis year thought better especially starting meds ive weeks think killing even once lately im sure redflag ideation always abstract kind terrified death really want kill myself wanted things end never thought worth much think it feel like main reason stopping sometimes want cause family kind pain know will theres real point this wanted vent think ive exhausted friends emotional wreckage point fed want anything anymore really anyone else turn to,1 +antidepressants work like shatim sick tired trying medications antidepressants going make happy either make violently ill feel sad stupid tell difference days feel different before want spend rest life hopping medicine horrible side effects wasted money future paying bunch damn medical bills fault anyway due fact even kill right literally ruined everything caused parents get divorce friends know well suicidal stopped giving shit quite time now apparently everyone says it get better you get help dont actually know talking about,1 +lied myselfi told id never get point failed causes follows a failed math part tsi could cause get college program want already took remedial math still failed cant get program literally never happy absolutely want life b fucking bed bugs nasty rash bites c watch husbands family put brothers wives pedestal treat well husband tossed aside religous belief theirs d laws never gave us wedding gift card literally told us happy wedding yet day acted like greatest day life hate fake people e friends live far away jusy drive see starting become extremely lonely f politics g someone thought friend using me h husband family claims family everything yet obviously theyre not family literally bat shit insane cant stand makes sad basically us world im literally tired exhausted cant go on want end right here im tired trying im tired failing im tired feel bad im gone would husband bur time maybe would favor,1 +hey girl wet outside know youre looking somewhere stay well ass you hi guys im selling branded bracelets crisis dollar please buy move moms garage,0 +im asking kinda need hair advice here post selfie asking advice go irl peeps,0 +peace never option filler filler filler bored,0 +want diemy birthday coming feel happy all ive hurt never attempted redflag know anymore family loves me always feel like burden bunch medication dresser tempted overdose right now lonely talent whatsoever im stuck want free,1 +krush again sorry first im bakk ya gitz went bakk skhool yesterday months off turns spoke krush anyone else month period obviously thats good thing maybe puts better chanse ask point month time ask out wussing out sidestepping it ill see happens long live king,0 +finally it wont believe it finally made post fact nobody actually cares posts like these stop making them please,0 +tell things _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______ _______,0 +hey started streaming lately found diamonds minecraft join would fun sorry annoying im live twitch come hang out httpwwwtwitchtvkoolkidsra,0 +bubble wrap 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enjoy,0 +im donemy life nothing nothing wasted life behind fucking screen one cares fault interesting funny fucking waste life,1 +hate rewards know wanted test meme,0 +life seems meaningless people deal lifei cant see future myself im young thought alive even years seems like work goals find enjoyment anything tried many medications nothing seems help feel broken abnormal compared everyone else wants things life feel like im destined kill myself pain id cause family wouldve done already anyone else feel way deal this,1 +want diei think nearly every day it it mother everything me cry does know it think got better w anxiety im sad rn thinking old friend dad hate him touching like wife disgusting hate thights hate whit whole heart then makes hating even more cant wear want proper house hate wearing short clothes bc him hate myself want selfharmsometimes really bad think it cant it cant know do,1 +planning killing one hourive enough stressed anxious feel like living more ive really enough ive felt way years different reason previously lacked will much preferred idea death life due stress anxiety im years old highschool pile work needing done procrastinate hate work need do avoid it ill end forced slap something together hour fail classes either end here spend rest year hating life fail highschool spend rest life shitty job hating life know family hate this understand theyll move on even seen mother years left me spoken father days even talk generic things making attend school really feel scared death im also fairly confident method work plan injecting units rapid acting insulin father diabetic hour ill inject insulin lie die watching one favorite movies fall asleep never wake up actually sounds perfect me really sure im posting this guess want someone talk go it,1 +finally opened therapist cried lol kinda feel bad like dumping much stuff one person fuck person gave much trauma,0 +giving mum grades b e heheheheh,0 +remember seeing film youngster local small theater presented foreign films week daring adventure stayed memory ever sincebr br especially impressionable scene noel purcell old seaman paddy drank much saw heard apparitions died fright cave always kept track noels career even decades later due seeing then theres also youngish cyril cusack leering boatman james designs lovely jean simmons shown emmeline grown upbr br would much like video haunting film refresh memory it send request,0 +think tonight nighti dont think anymore im going end tonight take bunch pills done it maybe wont burden family failures anymore play watch people stream video games online making bigger waste space do want end all,1 +agree mr caruso jr lanzas finest voice god offer could found courage go broke leave hollywood head opera could american caruso everyone says could case fantastic introduction art form bones thats way gonna it see film see mr lanza still come discussion even house someone says pavarotti say mario lanzaas film dvd must restored vhs good enough also lanza film put dvd others right bad boring ,0 +someone asked ever tried cig said say try benefits could even come that like none id rather addiction even ruin lungthroat health thanks asking ig,0 +impossible avoid punishment hispanic parents slipper always catches,0 +ive thinking redflag last couple monthsand honestly keeping anything productive option committing redflag kind weird coping mechanism me result final tomorrow studied think its okay really bad kill myself get idea head all actually find motivation something life want live cant stop thinking ideas im sad get ihaventstudiedatallformyfinalyet hopeless feeling inside guy school jumped one dormitory buildings days ago presumably finals stress makes even unable focus want able something past semester weird limbo motivation anything feel like life may end soon yet part want life end agh,1 +im scared talk best friend social anxiety keeps getting worse day starved afraid leave room talk grandparents i live them used happen every happens almost regularly im starting get panic attacks even talking closes people me months scared text best friend finally managed it seems like went though shit months wanted sleepover parents said okay feel scared like get panic attacks thinking here want nightmare mental illness go away,0 +want say thank youmy brother jin created account struggled depression undiagnosed lurker subreddit took life brother always confident person ever met strived help others way possibly could personal demons took better him always open never thought would go far end life would like thank everyone posted continued support others made cling final year life anyone feels like taking life perspective please speak family express struggle something could help with love baby brother dearly miss every day every day reminded kindness intelligence angry decision annoyed closure issue anyone come help please know bleak outlook may seem people spoke to could help darkness,1 + indias sunny clime use spend time soldier service majesty queen goes famous poem penned rudyard kipling literal foundation upon movie gunga din based fortunate enough watch legendary classic enjoy films way use make them sheer pleasure taken script established novelist poet story humble indian native named gunga din sam jaffe works a regimental beasty british occupation india th century greatest wish become soldier water boy part british calvary contingent threatened death notorious blood cult kali called thuggee three particular soldiers stand company noted bravery comradeship first handsome debonair cary grant playing sgt archibald cutter next victor mclaglen courageous sgt macchesney finally theres flamboyant douglas fairbanks jr sgt thomas ballantine three fellow soldiers surrounded hoard mountain stranglers led fanatical leader called guru eduardo ciannelli amid chaos war brave waterboy hopes earn place army playing bugle found solid story old black white film needs little fanfare anyone looking enjoy classic ,0 +asking help ive come conclusion need help problem thats really draining mentally dont want make big post dont want upset anyone may come across unknowingly dont want hurt anyone bring problem anyone likes picking people apart listening problems please dm processing understanding emotions isnt strong point etc etc need cry need someone blunt real fix problems everyone else wish wonderful day try smile lt,0 +mom doesnt believe adhd wont even let get diagnosed get medication shes gonna one crying grades trash im literally online schooling cant focus smh,0 +know many people special fondness alistair sim version dickens story me version one beat wife copy film vhs watch together every christmas eve often remark could watch halloween too creepy ghost storybr br scotttypecast scroogeis shudderingly mean nasty making transformation miraculous moving think performance patton spirits effective one creepier last watching dark floating skeletal form spirit christmas yet come sends shivers spine every year supporting cast david warner particular top form bob cratchit susannah york wife br br i seem recall version sticks closer original story othersbut may mistaken several years since read it regardless terrific christmas classic,0 +ive said ill say eating pussy elite know personally still elite,0 +okay im apple user but god galaxy z fold looks nice think really good phone,0 +someone brokeni spent many years severely abused still affects me someone abused run normal life tend mess things due retraumatized turning something im not recent incident girlfriend everything ive ever wanted getting message abuser inquering killed yet misplaced anger turned someone know fell love with messed space week know much take everything me cant lose her im trying fix it im getting meds seeing therapist multiple times week proving really know work every time hug trouble letting go feel like leave me kiss hard hoping feel love reciprocate know loves im much cant say her want future it made pain worth it recognize much one person deal try let across her break up prove im broken cant go without even could truly want to already know day comes fault fault pain ive dealt finally reaching me,1 +someone seen followed hartleys public work several years think much used fiction told true stories elevated obscure philosophical mind gamesbr br while entertaining fay grim another step henry fool line thinking movie reflects quality object within movie itself henry fool object memoirs fay grim object encrypted memoirs stolen forged transmutated something obscure cant really make sense ie process script writing filmmaking modern era blockbuster films little mashup past is philosophical sense fay grim about object perhaps tragedy shock clich dull as hinted opening scenes publishers officebr br that said many movie best points lost understand henrys character significance memoirs looked for henry thinly veiled devil first visiting simon modern faust etc without understanding tragic henrys character is much quality fay grims plot story lostbr br and enough detail expressed verbal flashbacks knowing plot henry fool cannot compare feeling quality characters one henry fool think someone walks movie cold minutes so what responses highly constructed dialog thats itbr br however henry fool also least favorite hartley film realized bad putrid infested precisely henry fools confessions bad raunchy dirty inescapably broken henry even proper villain perhaps tragic flaw makes endearing like gollum tolkiens works henry pitiablebr br that come across fay grim although henrys dialog excellent come across entire movie constructed encryption sort molding another plot around ends yet another bad story add henrys confessions interesting twist one cant really digested without viewing first film perhaps showing henry earlier would better publisher describe basic storyline first movie although plot also really first movie unless perhaps one casual observerbr br part encryption hard say little disappointed sex gimmicks though cheesy,0 +mother grandmother fighting something incredibly childish feel horrible it heard shouting upstairs went check going on didnt acknowledge continued screaming otherand asked turned said go back down theyre fighting mom didnt call grandmother meeting anything do im always weary kind fights usually end badly hope doesnt escalate,0 +still rememberi remember tempest smith years later think age i literally shed like me could done same never years later still remember herand cry someone remember you cry well may seem like now someone will stop fighting someday better may take awhile,1 +fucking hilarious found stupid meme seeing people defending opinion yeah im republican thinks teens nowadays snowflakes know thing ever seen meme lol httpswwwredditcomrspecialsnowflakecommentsmugki_miss_the_old_teens_people_are_just_soft_af_nowutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmfamputm_termlink,0 +today finally smiled got happy problems fixed literally yesterday got happy finally found motivation fix them crying never loved family problems get bullied s assignments pending one likes smiling least trying fight back fix everything finally tried putting effort looking everything positively maybe got high today least felt happiness finally felt happy long time found motivation fix everything,1 +never thought id end like thisi would much rather female male know never one im epitome masculine two friends im certain would forget pretty quickly never go way talk me actually puts ease find killed myself hear voices voices stop telling fucked stupid lame am theyre always extremely rude frequent ignore also hear ringing ears lot sort psychotic episode least day ive vivid visions head hurting andor killing people want kill keep danger anybody else hate way look sound hate way made impact anybody hate always sleep really late get anything done hate way talk people im awkward regret whatever say hate beyond obvious im disappointment parents theyd disappointed knew me nobody knows everything me did theyd hate me anyone decides respond post probably hate knowing too im going kill right want wait everyone stops thinking entirely want dark,1 +lost everything everything everyone around me one person keeping alive left stopped talking me played people used me look mom mental abuses talks me always arguments us horrible relationship cannot anything help myself wish could kid feel pain dad left everything anymore stayed night hand full pills wondering live anymore cannot look good things life anymore numb pain point mom care feel help cousin close severely suicidal almost went mental hospital think dying wish wake mornings miss life easy worry anything family homeless half life living people stay room day nothing zero mental energy even get bed even eat one closest friends living tried killing mom police involved actually nothing it even charge him tried calling saying sorry sick person want scream loud kind done living,1 +much love living ina small country it impossible find anything here material things clubs resources specific issue going international school want participate academic competitions get university however assume school prepare guide you well sike even respond emails everything cannot find place internet offer advice resources could use prepare competition high scale small ,0 +want end it im tired hurting everybody lovei left boyfriend broke years major issues untreated mental illness still talked month breakup acting like still together therapy week ago truly left good made really horribly mean comment angry regret saying it every right leave good it years together havent heard since happened telling needs space saying permanently broken wants together need fix our mental illnesses dont know anymore planning get married next yeari regret leaving badly saying things mean literally worthless every man ive ever always left horrible things say know problem think end cant hurt anyone anymore im tired hurting people everyone love always end ruining want go badly want eternal peaceful sleep chicken always ,1 +killing practical thing situationi want kill birthday month wanted said id wait til case things got better got worse going homeless im disabled cant work get situation people like me without friends family disabled always end shittiest situations homeless forced sell things money raped beaten robbed look upon etc dont know want deal kill avoid stress shitty life id end living im homebound means never able leave house ill like sleeping car time scares me dont even blinds windows plan try use towels hot af out makes symptoms worse like ill miserable literally nothing like im already nothing huge waste life hate im lived fucking years waste like somebody else years added life instead boring idk im rambling think im really going kill almost night like easy kill thinking thing gives peace right,1 +realized im gonna year feel old,0 +hate muchi wish someone else alternatively and preferably wish never existed all,1 +tonightwhy not undiagnosed medical condition doctors give shit say head give antianxiety medicine christmas happiest person planet now miserable anxiety causes flank pains cool anxiety causes muscle atrophy nice causes feet move nonstop awesome oh anxiety causes become vitamin deficient fatigued basically bedridden wow oh anxiety causes skin dry shrivel excellent guess what anxiety make piss foam make urine cloudy too also cause nails pit hair become dry basically stop growing theres hope me medical community arrogant lazy care im probably dying want office make money doctors want go home families live american dream suffer tonight,1 +living rated like keep living,1 +announce hungry sing song made up,0 +thank thank still here isnt easy horribly beautiful world easy feel alone easy feel hopeless maybe community gives even smallest semblance togetherness minuscule amount hope still dark clouds dont seem going anywhere thank sitting darkness feels weird write ive browsed awhile reached times new accnt though pain overwhelming sometimes dont know pain hurt heart amp people fail empathize someone truly suffering barely hanging make much worse despite intention thank deep ocean pain going dunno darkness dont flashlight us share experience pain amp maybe something even know intention wanting share id like hope wholesome maybe ego say never shut either thank dark cloud suffering easy mind want compare try amp see itself darkness right used left day silent vipassana meditation retreat agonizing heart feels stronger now thank agonizing human existence depressed amp suicidal years still sometimes deep darkness like before held knife chest didnt push held amp kept saying want die want die mom witnessed fast forward blah blah pain darkness depression youve heard far worse amp maybe worse comparing help us thank confusing unmerciful house dont know id alive someone didnt pull lost someone started really leave darkness darkness baby year old sister dying arms car accident amp almost dying too gave little strength swim up introduced meditation meditation dont like word lot connotations attached it havent thought good replacement word really sitting along movement important like yoga amp qi gong training training bodies minds amp hearts muscles grow amp psychedelics amazing pitfalls thank river sorrow anyway blah blah whats use anything fast forward years path amp am id probably dead without stuff amp wanna invite try smallest things imagine sitting front you feeling terrible right now sitting hunched pain amp take one giant deep breath inhaling pain amp darkness sitting front you amp imagine filling body hold amp breathe cooling soothing relief yourself thank tried amp thank didnt maybe something maybe bullshit like everything else wanna tell one time thank here amp sucked im sorry tried like rest assholes try make worse ,1 +ruined life year ago want outabout months ago decided trans started process even changing name ive never less happy want old self back longer try pass woman already changed name body horrified spend rest life like this see mirror feel sense immense detachment scientific curiosity horror rage regret retrospect life already sucking severely and still am totally empty empty inside nothing else pursue think part wanted make interesting someway research jumped right in nothing lose thought one reasons getting close redflag friends career anything fill void one hobby music hack think im insecure core really make anything resembling art confidence attention span however work basically spend day singing playing recording myself much frustration sound flat awful guitar ever helped weekend planning selling donating gear recently mom came visit stayed motel room live in seemed desperate take back home midwest turn life around go back really hope find way this honest wonder im supposed commit redflag perhaps brain already afflicted chemical imbalance lack stimulation staged rebellion circumstances push brink ive definitely prone selfdestructive behavior past never went something impulsively before,1 +bad situation bank account got freez due excessive transaction money bank says take two around weeks able find loans know now,1 +lost futuremy boyfriend years ended relationship sunday met years always drawn picked girls noticing me fell love best thing world secure planning future together legitimately planning get married family honestly him never saw future never planned it im lost didnt plan live long ive never hurt entire life long time lowest became lifeline isnt eating away im scared swallow whole waited years happiest ive ever been best friend years cousin leaving marines im scared theyre abandoning me,1 + year old aspergers failing grades unexplained attendancesi feel really stupid ignorant probably guessed im year old kid living aspergers syndrome feeling depressed lately grades absolutely suck were working major projects school ive gotten detention twice stupid reasons today first failing get one little detail assignment attendance missed classes spanish teacher absolute psycho total asshole me even gotten point dad extremely pissed im depressed please need feel happy again people reddit help me,1 +ah clichs clichs clichs theyre main part wide variety horror filmsthis one lot themstill stephen king one best masters horror movie really good predictable horror movie stupid people one overcrowded retarded victims practically begging life taken pet semetary found creepy little way everything set really spooky terrifying part acting somewhat believable suspense suspenseful entertainment level set major rank eyes practically glued screenall stephen king fans must see movie anyone else expect okay thriller,0 +favor could give award whoever me thanks,0 +please stop telling guys stop mansplaining manspreading stupid sexist terms give feminazis excuse mistreat men seriously like fact exist mean assholes us true women oppression generations fault ancestors generation like people stop coming new problems like mansplaining manspreading oh yeah manspreading thing called penis sensitive part bodies would ask us move legs instead making big deal would fine people pouring fucking bleach dicks apparently know ask politely ive enough shit thanks listening rant,0 +atoms ashim posting im anonymous molested older sister cover secret played liar entire childhood put bad spot emotionally constantly getting trouble parents school bullied rediculed friends harrassed elementary school students teachers put medication rd grade everyday pulled classroom sit principal office would come home crying everyday mistreatment mom finally enough pulled public school transferred private christian school behind education next year retake rd grade students bullied started fight back aggressively also landed principals office th grade transferred back public school made friends bullies bad kids class want bullied anymore tough guy got girlfriend short lived ended writing notes wanted fuck bunch sexual stuff soon found grandma called principal school tried press charges minor gone puberty yet really understand ramifications saying grip parents tightened medication forced throat th grade teacher slapped across face class shut class still remember bead sweat rolling mustache red angry face slapped me made turn back hardened asshole teachers care school point wanted run away several times could never make friends felt like big fucking joke me fist fights recess involved somebody else typically started kids corned back fence friends said fuck friends need them th grade proceeded get girlfriend become sexually active th grade high school began relationship started take turn eventually ended longest friendship entire life devastating ended began get suicidal depression tried overdose medication class caught red handed taking entire bottle pills became violently ill blacked bathroom found carried nurses office school principal called ambulance contacted mom mom devastated pissed crying uncontrollably lied said accident switched meds antidepressants later stopped taking gag reflex overdose went long term relationship breakups ended cutting arms burning lighter pulled class senior year high school arrested front whole school shooting front school paintball gun night before prank someone would clean charged different things including terrorism absolutely drive become anything life think going live past academically barely graduated high school convinced pull shit together go college failed college blew grant money food diamonds girlfriend relationship ended joined marine corps go die country iraq opf fallujah ex girlfriend came see california led wanted get back knew knew company getting deployed iraq fight real full metal jacket mental breakdown weeks deployed threatened kill bunch people landed hospital diagnosis ptsd bipolar major depression fraudulent enlistment charge given discharge honorable conditions plane ticket home tried go back school failed racked another bill year discharge girlfriend broke up friends considered failure everything let love life walk away soon keep depression control jumped relationship first girl would talk gas station convinced looks everything chick nice funny showed attention wanted cock cake care fucked head son already whose father jail decided would pull shit together roll model later started self medicating weed really cop felt great high time friends wifes friends supplying me temper really chilled smoked manic didnt filled uncontrollable anxietydepression rage often super asshole little man syndrome didnt smoke often thought redflag option stop internal pain instead saying loud would impulsively things hurt myself punched structure point shattered wrist several fingers felt better little bit marriage ended year later point interest forming new relationships anyone tired looking new connects weed moved around different states legal dispensaries soon realized weed helping actually making things worse control anymore desperate plea help sister gave place stay moving sister family found work started busting ass make things work could get place entire focus work smoking weed numb pain living often would isolate away everyone else could smoke weed cigarettes really acceptable lifestyle eventually led renting room house full strangers closer work work roommates knowing weed would go room steal weed play instruments work put huge panic major anxiety depression eventually leave situation move back sister brother law take well year started throwing offensive false accusations sexually since interested dating divorce nephews would repeat said friends friends parents soon everyone treated fucked way made things even worse instead giving getting defensive fucking talking shit decided pack shit leave found cheap place live way woods away everyone else keep myself working employer years started feel little comfortable around coworkers opened little relate mentioned high school paintballing incident normal conversation conflicts employer soon started take place coworker told boss paintballing played sociopath wanted job pay concerned thought boss knew well enough believe later sit boss talk future goals told goal make better future plans start business real grown shit like one bit fact retaliated cutting hours bonus pay singled rest crew made work jobs less time complete pressure unbearable redflag plate everyday every hour constantly mind started feel ill overwhelming uncontrollable feelings panic attack quit job health insurance afford cost housing car payments insurance cellphone bill ended going doctor heart would beat chest throwing every morning years wanted know why turns heart enlarged may diabetes stage hypertension might heart attack stroke cant relieve stress take care myself got way refused take medications instead still self medicating stop weed without losing mind emotionally stopped smoking weedcigs mt dew per doctors request save life anxiety debilitating obsess death cant hold conversation cant share eye contact feel extremely uncomfortable every social situation encounter cant bring back normal feel like normal wanting kill ending existence im running short money bank feel like work people fucking minion worker slave would rather die life completely closed feel though time running out well self control hide painful memories mom traveled miles past slipped said going kill extremely worried depressed feels like lose child even tho ive said nothing recently actually moved woods far away everyone kill myself nobody would find me cant sleep anymore mind always thinking ways go every tree look at see hanging every gun looks see blood scattered wall body slumped over every tall building see body bouncing pavement every light pole see think truck wrapped around body half way hood windshield go jog try clear mind feel urge step front car semi head hurts cant help punch face burn propane torch relieve pain extremely difficult time analyzing events life absolutely hating people theyve done me hating unable forgive forget move on shitty things ive said done people control myself thought redflag might parents kept here feel hard even around family hour without irritated rude hate everything me starting understand everyone else hates too hurtful things go away cannot help desperately want become ash float away space dot planet insignificant every way mankind nothing offer feel ashamed illness feel like waste space oxygen pray god blow heart chest mom dad would live fact son willingly killed himself,1 +break procrastination lol im supposed working video game ive done hour work took minute break get back work ive watching movie browsing reddit minutes lol xd general beat procrastination,0 +three children born exact timeduring lunar eclipsejust th birthday embark killing spreebloody birthday typical slasher early sits pretty average stuff plenty nuditythe evil children never generate menace almost suspensethere also gore scares bloody birthdaybut film mildly entertainingunfortunately real explanation provided kids sudden homicidal maniathe murder scenes quite gruesome example weve got death handgunbaseball batskipping rope shovelso fan early s slasher movies give one look,0 +want boyfriends band rats acid get fans proud them love boyfriend much lead singer bassist band two closest friends band rats acid started releasing music year proud them recently hit monthly spotify listeners recent song like like that streams already popular song love hate inspired murder george floyd k views much love it would love see social media grow much youtube spotify facebook insta twitter ect made subreddit band rratsonacid too would mean world watch boyfriends band fans thank you,0 +im tired living scared redflagive thinking redflag yesr would say like idea hate sid effects since im adult yet cant go buy gun shoot myself seems like easiest way im gonna rant shitty life one cares anyways want talk people feel way,1 +ive suicidal years without ever thinking ill really act apart one two moments always background anyone elsei think worst part knowing itll always part me lingering sense depression ill always able tap into good things life brief distraction from birthday yesterday whole weekend great kinda daydreaming depression scary part casual is causally think redflag like big deal used imagine asking friends kill teenager im midtwenties kinda never left lol wtf im therapist now ironic that,1 +anyone love dogs natural smell weird love way smells takes bath normally,0 +ashanti s sort film precise reminded wild geese way richard burton richard harris roger moore mission africa good film too enjoyed lotbr br david michael caine doctor working africa married beautiful ashanti woman called anansa beverley johnson trained medicine america also doctor theyre doctoring one day snatched slavers working arabic slave trader called suleiman played perfectly peter ustinov people rest film david trying get backbr br michael caine brilliant actor course plays character determined prepared anything get wife back rather hopeless gun action stuff hes helped first englishman campaigning slave trade one acknowledges going rex harrison briefly helicopter pilot william holden arab called malik kabir bedi malik score settle suleiman he intense throughout engaging character rides david find get anansa back involves wonderful scene david fails miserably get camelbr br then theres lots adventure theres also lots moralityquestioning progress story little predictable point liberties taken plotting move things along faster pretty forgivable question is david get anansa peter ustinov sells omar sharif yes course omar sharif it,0 +even know right now am someone really care blocked randomly cant calm thoughts really know do feel like absolute shit none friends awake really anyone go to,0 +wrote short dystopian story looking feedback httpswwwdeviantartcomthedarkgalladeartthelastrestaurantga_submit_newa,0 +cant take nomore time sleep nowdear suicidal self hello close friend cant deal anymore thoughts tooking think comtting redflag dont see way feel caused nothing hurt distruction pain live done nothing life feel never amount anything im borden people friends anything try find way mess im meant life im worthless helpless point im tired feeling way feel time end pain much depression worst living never ending nightmare cant sake cut tights people friends even family even son better love much cant live anymore knowing caused pain never ment cause son know hurt know wasnt fault daddy sick im sorry know good hands amazing mother im nothing never anything wish im sorry family isnt one fault alway felt never fit anywhere dealing feeling thoughts long time dont sad upset im peace dont know got point im scared know matter mins dont wanna live pain anymore yrs anything done failed thing good drugs worthless im ashamed person become embarrassed wanted happy live life unbearable,1 +fuck im getting nic cravings weeks since last vape hit really wanna quit nicotine cravings really hard get through give motivation plz,0 +movie gave recurring nightmares alan rickmans voice representing omnipotent insidious fascist ruler scariest movie ever seen psychological terror powerful anything horror movie ever achieved alan rickmans voice always represent power terror totalitarian state reminiscent orwells movie describes care reality large part current world governments film disturbing way everyone watch description reality one ever experience many do,0 +feel dangerously alonei dunno deserve constantly beat thinking im bad person maybe xyz different people would like me id friends likely case still believe thoroughly friends almost identical pasts thought patterns behavioral patterns hot talented etc get away flaws cannot current friend group operates wholly conditionally things like get attention slip up get boot convinced one friends clinical narcissist needs help id never dare say it cant even say hes hurt feelings flipping without punished feel dangerously alone moved away home friends family near me friends hold bc feel like family shit idk do ill text apologize think ive done something wrong theyll either ignore use me even know anymore took shots alone monday night hands numb nobody dont even real job risked leaving grandma mom sister k miles away career doesnt exist friends gaslight cry dont even give time day theyll give friends time day me never felt lifted inspired one them clear dont want me im dangerously alone amount self care save career theyre gonna keep trying ruin slander ive ever done defend,1 +im sorryim sorry relationships ive ruined im far lonely remain world im hard time keeping people life better way keep apologizing again,1 +people lucid dream it ive trying weeks cant seem figure out ive even tried listened lucid dream triggering music luck,0 +im ive seen lot transphobes homophobes sub anyone feeling down talk to people love you,0 +bliss would die sleep tonighti dont know start turned honestly feel like describing life make want end even honest sorry thats depressing read ive hit huge wall depression past week ive turned life around picking huge breakup dropping school straight community college transferring next fall semester major really want actually now though road success paved one ive let parents see nuisance know sub level love right im burden them made waste k last school dropped out finally scored job unemployed while best friends gone feel like friends see sucks theyve moved im completely alone dont feel close anyone anymore sucks zero emotional support extrovert loneliness dragged deep dark pit feel despair now near impossible make friends classes acquaintances friend groups dont want apart them kids huge gossipers type want around feel alone miss ex year half even though destroyed me connection everything common best friend work regularly physique competitions even gym seems like chore now im miserable feel like every day exactly point want go downtown jump bridge want die sad seeing friends move new closer friends theyve pushed away subtly reject want get closer im downer anything im bit goofy like good time life opposite right now,1 +need help need great day hope great day tell comments responding everyone ,0 +pray boys math test couple minutes gonna take miracle,0 +bitfor first time years suicidal thoughts becoming plans again rather passive theyre becoming staring pills bathroom thinking highest building city im thinking writing note im thinking every single day close dont know much longer left really desperately dont want anymore,1 +want friend talk to step right would love talk lovly peeps feel free dm,0 +might dress like bodyguard go shopping mom make look like important think it would funnt good dumb cringe,0 +ive thinking latelyive thinking lot it dont think id act it needed get chest feel cannot tell anybody around without worrying much,1 +keep fighting dark side always feel verge losing battlefor suicidality never big part recentlything is dont want die dark side wants to able keep bay months nowi somehow able observe distance fear itll come back soon stronger ever feel coming back slowly,1 +one likes meall life ive felt like one likes me work school personal life im always one appreciated like people dont hate dont like either little something would passed completely unseen another coworker me big deal im unlikable im nice always try best everyone reason one likes me im one,1 +got silver award know happens next make laugh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 +im failure family fired job fear girlfriend leave me world disgusting im doneso hello dunno last time using site ever honestly really couldnt care life nothing stupid decisions abuse ive always strived best ive always put others me even hurts me thats way raised love it despise anything like made giant carpet everyone walk over matter hard try stand myself always end thrown even harder eventually stopped really trying stand up would let people whatever go till matter angry frustrated got ive grown used ive become afraid anytype confrontation smoke weed ive terrified tell girlfriend person im supposed trust most makes feel like utter piece shit top accidentally lied big time mini panic attack asked virgin not time started dating girl previous dated small connection current girlfriend panicked said no even though slept ex idea regret fucking much torturing months things turning around blue got let go job weeks ago live apartment one roommate enough money pay one month rent ive start selling things ive havnt even told parents yet know make stress even harder never focus anything positive always negative even think trying help lecture im fucked fault somehow head exploding stress anger frustration best never enough love girlfriend anything abosuluty kills tell asks something cant afford take anywhere anything feel horribly pathetic ive hated self entire life years stuck hell hole ill hopefully free soon planet inhabitants fucked deserve it im disgusted humans done continue other race deserve exist im done now rant over bye tldr family hates me world disgusting girlfriend may leave me lost job fuck existence goodbye sincerely worthless piece trash,1 +kinda sad one talked today like orientation job today kinda exciting sucks cause havent heard friends girlfriend feeling alone,0 +fucking cats thing keeping alivehad one got kitten month ago cant really leave feel deserve better me feel like future worthless fail classes semester im completely fucked feel like never gotten military thought would get better gotten worse know im gonna well semester really friends here family all moved new city connected anyone sick it,1 +wanna chat cant sleep dont want to im talk whatever dont tooooo weird,0 +buy antidepressants without prescriptioni really dont want hour talk doc wanna try see helps,1 +asked crush liked cause liker im scared responded help please aaaahhhhhhhhh im nervous,0 +destroying support systemsits long time coming think last isolation periods redflag scares finally driven last friends away today birthday hear thing people living five months ago even send text hurts also happy going kill soon without them easier never really thought important imso selfish close didnt want say goodbye feel like now so,1 +everyonemy previous post got deleted hadnt read rules properly but hope everyone safe okay please let us know youre okay want vent ask advice anything please leave comment help listen giving support,1 +excuse give spending theres reason ive part time jobs wanted cosplay didnt money money bank account given aunt meant learning driving money cosplay matter getting past parents problem last part cosplay mask something like mascot head costs custom made dress boots satin gloves pretty cheap small amounts deducted bank account could easily passed buying food game currency mask know parents get suspicious see huge amount money deducted dont want another lecture wasting money solid excuses give ask theres huge drop,0 +need smart bfgf im literally fkn stupid talking intelligent cool refreshing like love hearing smart people talk shit v interesting n quite attractive imo plus probably would good job future thats plus,0 +idk reaching foolish limits diei tried bribe medical personnel pharmacy yesterday buy xanax,1 +anyone else hide things solately ive talking less less so ive waves im getting pretty low lately even though repeatedly told tell get bad still keep quiet want burden make feel like more feel like im always one taking time like never listen him feel like im always telling problems lately ive wondering simply breaking would best let date someone thoughts,1 +school bullshit especially neurodivergent people no im teenager im work substitute teachers aide mostly special education im autistic myself say way classes run absolutely piss off especially stimming tell much energy ive lost suppressing stims energy probably would landed decent name tech industry now im placing bets maybe getting hired mr hollywood executive music shit thats energy left system essentially putting shit thats inevitably landing position energy maybe get lucky would even times consider qualified lead teacher position saying lot consider qualified all einstein said if teach fish climb tree live whole life believing stupid cant think better example special education classes ive seen oh god damn irony know guys gonna special ed class too already are also wanna say bad ive seen kids thriving see probably getting really great things future want guys prepared occasions theyre not leave giant rant things might affect solutions one decent way release stims sort divert wrists hands turn bunch times kind like electric tooth brush looks like spinning really releases stims less time also distracting constant leg shaking usually happens hope helps someone btw one noticed pissed ive supressing whole time,0 +im bored need good shows watch im watch anything long entertaining,0 +tried hang ceiling fan failedive contemplating redflag last yearsmy mom died years oldim months ago hanged ceiling fani felt unconscious secondsthere red marks neck breathing almost stoppedunfortunately attempt unsuccessful technique used improper tired putting face everyday living sociopathic dadi friends never girlfriend im short unattractiveeven im dead people would forget months,1 +hello beautiful people im make friends im make friends love talking people could go random topic hours wanna make friends meet new people talk to youre interested feel free dm start conversation id love talk you dont mind dms me long youre comfortable talking im ok talking anyone also cana sk em anything ill answer honestly dont feel uncomfortable easily dm whatever mind,0 +find comfort knowing die eventually mustsometimes appreciating mortality comforting knowing matter eventually me want die glad least know one day ill get want,1 +movies always suppose deep provolking thoughts sometimes theyre simply meant escapes reality sea fits bill perfectly br br a light hearted golden years romantic comedy sea may big budget might able easily tell acting front green screen still much movie worth watching sweet movie needs given break br br this good light hearted fun meant deep movie something worth watching nothing else must see brent spiners humorously stiff uptight rendition oye como va gil character love hate mr spiner pulls perfect evil comic foil two beloved comedy movie gods,0 +fall asleep cant fall asleep easily since suffer anxiety stress every night trapped plaguing thoughts leave alone usually end hours rotating bed still cant fall asleep im always sleepy school need sleep im always sleepy,0 +tell parents i feeling sad might brush say oh sorry tell that scale suicidal happiest day ever today better context feeling thought would pass along find helpful tell support network feeling scale ,1 +im miserable cant even find way ending lifei want try method failproof ways see dropping high place shooting head unfortunately im far access gun money buy one high place jump think bridge around km miles would get there thought hanging woods could survive this want live feel trapped want want parents feel bad life fucking mental prison wish shotgun blast head off,1 +new feature encourage useyou go someones u page drop menu allow give help support probably use time help normally,1 +want get better hardits hard enough able control thoughts actually cant even think thoughts keep interrupting other check th cant leave job need mon need get bett taking long think make next week go psych ward like every doc pushed last resort dyed hair blue even like blue mom said need clean room change litter boxes dad said get years ago still hurts called work days straight hate me friends busy cousin jaedon gets married january better book flight la going hospital get regulated medications im scared away room want roommate far go asking help getting help take freedom away earn parents trust again dad even know going on coping skills need get it cant hard trying might well give in yeah emotionally absent dad disabled mother raised lot today everything fine real world im prisoner head tortured every day good job great friends goals potential cant even get head stop spinning failures point listen said blow brains out defective longer capable functioning society get way really depression something else bug system needs removed make work tomorrow keep taking time off replace realize im weak ass pussy late would help energy anything energy actually follow exercises therapist gave me would it even capable getting better wasting parents money could used move better house moms medical bills keep up enough funeral lol,1 +kill realized probably going slow death stoppedi bed rethinking everything wrong current lifestyle looking ways kill without making seem like google thought passed head suffocate death pillow way theres maybe chance everyone going take dying fell asleep weird position put head pillow started breathing waited running air stopped assume inhaled carbon dioxide seeing started breathing heavily pulled out guess wait much wouldve slow death happened know think right now im probably going waste rest night crying sleep eating garbage smth edit idk call attempt guess ill talk therapist wonder shell say,1 +feeling lost wanting dief throwaway account im tired feeling lost want die dont know want world feel like square peg circle here im first year college im autistic reading comprehension problems originally majoring psychology ever since wanted become clinical psychologist semester scheduled intro psychology intro biology statistics first year seminar scheduled classes didnt realize much overload be much reading comprehension sucks struggled keep psychology reading everything else read pages psychology exam ended withdrawing class last friday feel lost dont know major anymore dont want drop college nothing else life lately feeling wanting kill stronger thought dying actually gives pleasant feeling werent high botched redflag rate also parents would try kill myself,1 +remember child first saw movie first horror movie maybe thats reason still remember parts it remember much acting nude scenes things remember male head blown grenade male dismembered tree male run truck shot head todd schaefer kenny johnson kevin mcparland also remember last scene jennifer mcallister riped killer stomach get keys truck movie gives creep worth look find it download it,0 +spoiled spoiled needy whatever want talk someone anyone even best friend talks hardly ever talks me always feel like burden talk anyone im bothering them dont want alone day ive got nothing else do itll even worse school starts friends actual school im online ill left everything even more best friend asks whats wrong help thing thatd help talking me already feel awful since im bad talking people sit dark crying much lonely piece shit,0 +zero day leads think even rethink two boysyoung men would commit mutual suicide via slaughtering classmates captures must beyond bizarre mode two humans decided withdraw common civility order define ownmutual world via coupled destructionbr br it perfect movie given moneytime filmmaker actors remarkable product terms explaining motives actions two young suicidemurderers better elephant terms film gets rationalistic skin far far better film almost anything likely see br br flawed honest terrible honesty,0 +hit nine hole golf tournament first place,0 +theres lot built dead skin hand broken arm really gross feels kinda nice rub off cant wait take cast nice shower washing off,0 +need good news long since got good news really want hear some somthing good happened general good news,0 +nothing goodso m went back school today i live england hoping would good id something but due covid probably wont able see friends much all im already feeling really shit makes everything way worse cant kms bc would hurt others really want stop existing theres nothing makes happy happen right now love seeing one friends going movie night cant happen really want someone thing kill dont live shit life anymore,1 +favorite minecraft youtubers looking watch minecraft youtubers want know favorite minecraft youtubers whether large channels small channels thanks answer good day matter,0 +want make people happy dont feel anywhere close dont want live eitherit sucks im college studying theatre arts life ive wanted make people happy since last years wont feel like constantly reason sucks dont think ill make even finish degree bad right least wont here,1 +asian fetish hmu ur asian,0 +played first soul calibur dreamcast thought great played second hooked finally soul calibur iii released bought playstation gamebr br this really keep hours huge amount characters loads unlockable content mention great fighting system really greatest fighting game date br br the games strong points foremost vs gameplay two human players battle other either playing one main characters created customized character create character option vast allows player make thousands different combinationsbr br the thing bothers create character uses fighting style grieve edge only kicks wear ridiculous shoes br br this absolutely greatest fighting game one could wish for now im hoping planned movie crap,0 +back bullshitspent whole year trying recover particularly bad ocd episode came back fucking vengeance know im going make one,1 +still use snapchat snap girl thats cute face brightens day every morning way im making move tho im afraid commitment,0 +cant take anymore dietheres constant fear stomach like fear living go away long im alive cant anymore im sick pretending able cope like keep pretending live life want end soon always say think friends family would feel fuck them never thought effects decisions would others plan anytime soon guess incredibly selfish makes easier nothing worth staying for little things mean jackshit could possibly life means nothing college university well paying job wife children means nothing me like bribe keep here want die refuse stay anymore thats say,1 +someone talk toi sad depressed hate it im currently researching ways kill myself really bad thing,1 +seconds thats gonna take gonna take seconds agonizing seconds get agonizing life gonna chicken out cant,0 +well documented previous posters real stars rockstar inxs and indeed sequel rockstar supernova paul mirkovich rafael moreira jim mcgorman nate morton sasha krivtsov know are awesome tight rockin house band whose music savvy talent made show something sad american idol clonebr br remember strings night musical precision perfection ever ive seen it suzie mcneils epic rendition queens bohemian rhapsody ty taylors memorable cover stones you cant always get jd fortune singing suspicious minds common denominator awesome house bandbr br as good inxs prime sadly shadow former selves though jds live performance somewhat breathed new life music show hbbr br memo producers season three if were blessed enough happen rockstar house band get boys good lead singer going places,0 +hi wanna chat ill talk abt anything im still stuck horny jail kinda wanna stay ygm,0 +feeling heart horny shitty ngl guys want theres discord server talk advice getting gfs fun stuff interested checking theres link profile cant post discord links thats fine nice day ,0 +mfs sub like my crush stripped front me said stop think comfortable yet get notice me,0 +want help friendtheres someone im friends school always makes jokes depressed in way use jokes deal it kinda flashed cuts arm people werent looking today gouging hunks flesh little row slits believe planning anything anyway help know going alot want report her school make worse anything say please let know,1 +sure think relief relief demand world puts people relief expectations someone try best good person try best cope stress end cycle ill never able break cycle never fold differ torment every day becomes much one talk to mean one people ive invested everything become another problem cant get of im good want best situations crack pressure cant take anymore want normal wish wasnt right wish negligent world around didnt see big pictures wish didnt understand much understanding torture never avoidable cant turn brain off cant fix world want wake tomorrow peace never happen one answer though world acts do depression much say ive done math ive seen variables set play get always be ill never understand got way why ill never understand point this point constant labor whats end goal someone wakes up works goes home purpose served whats actual purpose horrible existence means end threshold life holds back im smart mean smart yet am understanding chaos existence structured life part designing do say live like this cant force depression down tell everything okay im good start think look whats underneath all pain everyone hides games portray dont feel this dont hurt whose controller whose setting standard life peace always mind reality never let be,1 +fun fact great wall china four times fartherlonger california new york,0 +knowing timelost everything caused doing nothing left tried kms x chicken right passing out plan jumping soon cant take hurt anymore place ive picked one lived jumped anyways,1 +want die vs others think want dieme ptsd go court ex traffickers job troubles panicky attacks years depression feel like burden boyfriend parents let talk brother moved without permission force socialize daily nightmares meds therapy expensive agoraphobia dog died hide life families know hell went im unlovable people attention,1 +seen several comments brando using southern accent felt mistake movie made racism discrimination strong south jim crow laws still effect civil rights infancy could possibly subtle social commentary southern man love woman another race way mash subtle criticism viet nam war thoughtsbr br another comment made myoshi umeki appearing cold anyone japan would understand japanese people least experience tend show emotion front strangers strict social rules especially men meeting single women americans japan totally foreign culture blunt attempts meet women shocking ladies one trait japanese smile embarrassed uncomfortable many american servicemen took sign advances welcomed also remember time represented movie japan defeated occupying forces treated reluctant acceptance think myoshi umeki gave credible performance situation would been watching interaction american actors brought back several memories experiences country able meet pair lovely young ladies who convinced typical american male taught language culture time country,0 +start therapy going planned sit talk things destroying me without getting help got kicked college anxious go classes ruined another friendship energy talk time problematic bring mood down grandma rushed hospital last night blood transfusion health plummeted fucking crushed me mental breakdown know long tired pain ready give up feel like losing life cannot stop it honestly hope could change things around,1 +theres nothing meim jobless living home mother that feel cares dogs child income own measly two friends both live hundreds miles away me car own time im perfectly happy living like this contacting friends via skype putting happy face see sometimes reality catches me hitting like freight train friends better things talk lowlife like me mother keeping roof sense familial obligation that needs someone cooking cleaning dog care instant show emotions around her starts interrogating feel way do everyone else age graduating class job house own able drive ive isolating world more detaching two friends mother ive even thought different ways could take out guts even that theyre either painful take long easily noticed combination three want live world matter even closest me thats all im sorry borderline illegible im exactly best state mind really needed get chest,1 +hey guys please help calculate motion sig digs explain point test coming already c science,0 +sherman set wayback machine for united states climbing worst postwar recession japan enjoying unprecedented industrial boom manufacturing industries still significant part us economy factory workers good example average american word downsizing entered general vocabulary yet everyone knew phenomenon bruce could heard radio singing foreman says jobs going boy aint coming back hometown chrysler bailed uncle sam bumper stickers could seen saying buy american job save may ownbr br gung ho better job capturing mood american industrial workforce popular movie made period certainly movie flaws loose plot threads mediocre acting jobs everyone except michael keaton gedde watanabe story really meeting east west keatons hunt stevenson personifies america brash confident outside yet insecure underneath watanabes kazuhiro personifies japan top heap successful system wondering learned western rivals movies plot flawed is simply provides framework conflict eventually synthesis two personalitiesbr br keatons acting overshadows everyone elses practically makes movie itself ive always admired keaton ability deliver lines feel improvised matter script hes following character hunt stevenson likable affable everyman natural leader wiseass streak fatal flaw common many us want disappoint anyone hell distract crowd inspirational anecdotes even lie rather point ugly truthbr br kazuhiro mirror image stevenson shy introspective also japanese upbringing reluctant bearer bad news scene stevenson first comes kazuhiro employees grievances captures perfectly japanese approach workplace conflict kazuhiro replies stevensons complaints i understand saying refuse requests loud stevenson misinterprets agreement goes away saying okay weve got settled this still problem japaneseamerican business relations st centurybr br ultimately kazuhiro stevenson problem get factory working smoothly meet production goals fulfill responsibility workers them working towards goal take page others book kazuhiros family becoming americanized obvious example also note stevenson thinks odd kazuhiro explains make public apology workers failing yet later movie stevenson exactly himselfbr br the plot resolution little cornball hey comedy overlook movies flaws great story selfrealization openmindedness here,0 +reached breaking point im fed upim done cant take anymore years feeling like shit every day redflag attempts years ago want taken shitty planet reason want shitty fucking rock full dogshit people really want try kill want let friends cant take living anymore wake tired go sleep even tired every day tired cannot take anymore,1 +best friend lost husband redflag months agoshe unfortunately one found suffering ptsd incident switching meds around recently started telling mom anymore feel like cant anything like im helping anymore know do im scared loosing her,1 +aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaim going redflag using foreskin ill make noose tie around light room get stretchy foreskin around neck say last goodbye world,1 +theres much cant stop cryingits new years eve cant help reflect theres much need change myself im overweight shorttempered immature thinkingreactions receive respect siblings friends elders made seriously stupid mistakes past ended less mediocre graduate school seriously affect future career opportunities want wellread want get involved three hobbies im interested in cant cant trying get high marks school make past mistakes crumble weight want take on throw sibling whos clinically depressed brings endless amounts stress torment family severalyear long ldr woman plan marry cant plans us finally one another another years theres much take on ive tried time time make progress balance life change attitude everything falls apart weeks point fall cyclical rut depression lock room days crying regretting hating life live guy like come along much farther have many friends actually theyre excelling fit making huge strides professional personal lives am fat lazy unmotivated moron cant seem make step progress damn direction deal jealousy motivating achieve goals saying everything happens moot several decades live itd nice ended,1 +incase feeling sad heres ternion,0 +holy crap hysterical american comedies written like this anybody thinks comedy dumb wit intelligence six episodes series shelf novels hugh laurie complete hoot believe guy house many great lines gags series could watch show dozens times still pick new things time rowan atkinson hilarious verbose put upon butler edmund favorite blackadder series tony robinson wonderful ever somewhat obtuse heart series the oppressed mass baldrick favorite lines when someone messes wellington really puts foot it baldrick explaining got name cousin macadder the top kipper salesman homicidal swordsman scotland,0 +think mental health condition worst cannot get worse somehow things get even messier next day even feel importance trying make feel better actually work end day alone depression deteriorating mental health persistent redflag losing interest everything talk close ones anymorei things used do right looking ways feel better know point cannot,1 +really wanted happy know something get tired depressed time point even want happy anymore seems like much mess much effort something even last feel like already tried many times happy none worked even people love me friends hobbies life still seemed shit it point stopped attempting accepted never happy life way see end suicide scared either also know hurt people die end feel like trapped nowhere go makes frustrating hate cannot kill feel like even want happy anymore want die instead anything else,1 +hell yeah im cutting fuck yes cant wait bleed haha gonna fun stuff still sit around know one really cares me yeaaaahhh fuck fuck wanna cut wanna die badly dont like really dont fuck idc im gonna cut,0 +bye guessthis throwaway account finally decided enough life going get better grades uni disgusting im failing depression anxiety eating disorder hand friends parents constantly fighting never tried understand going through guess end ill carry one month pills home one month itll finally over live anymore too im happy times really really happy im finally gone,1 +im donei nothing going me money invest music production equipment new phone people house better shit makes feel jealous knowing this also im blind makes everything even worse since cant use apps like tiktok wattpad fanfiction much ease play cool games sighted people seem addicted to also cant watch youtube videos way since listen see im getting full experience makes sense memes gifs instagram feel really excluded everything especially since live era instagram food pics selfies memes reaction gifs feel like punished birth blindness even though thats case all mention im technically high school dropout since never finished senior year was supposed graduate couple months ago quit really isnt hope mei feel like nothings ever going right cant anything change circumstances fucking hate life id rather die keep living misery,1 +anyone want bald girlfriend please im desperate ill let u rub head like lamp aladdin,0 +guys help forgot agenda home nowhere write this guys remind get parents sign syllabus get home thanks,0 +im aloneim alone friends im highschool drop nothing going im alone im room locked away wanna kill self im much pussy cant take anymore one cares one loves ive left rot friends forgotten job talent nothing pain anger death wish heart broken,1 +havent seen movie years remember attack scene horses wearing gasmasks vividly scene ranks way best including beach scene saving private ryan recommend strongly,0 +know where feeling one day pain much end life really painful everything hurts die suicide,1 +helloi even know writei depressed feels worsei know get somehowhow make easierwhat eat feel betterwhat music makes feel betterdo meditateit something readmovies anythingdo easy workout routinesi give anything try cope,1 +hi help guy told would put blenderleave blended mean,0 +people starving starving child really wish food havent eaten days starving child cheer up little timmy across world didnt throw away food starving child holy shit makes everything better,0 +gave up let run around wont desert made cry said goodbye told many lies hurt,0 +everyone always cares late truly caredi dont think id feelings considerations care that make feel like least tried,1 +want put cap head im sick life hate much theres point existence im horrible human being im freak deserves dead energy left end school hate life wanna dead im sick this cant body give already fuck im sorry ,1 +barman wanted make movie wanted to simple that succeeded goal also making wonderful movie especially visually knows use pans slowmotion sequences tracking shots crane shots etc beautiful smooth way gives movie relaxing feel itbr br the story lives different characters nothing common except one thing party attend to also turnpoint movie beauty picture lies question characters effect eachother in comparance similar course better movie like magnolia simply think barmans idea beauty lies different details experiences people go makes breaks lives barman successful telling little stories describe little experiences knows people antwerpbr br the soundtrack movie also excellent surprise know barman also succesful songwriter musician band deus music sometimes hot time relaxing contributes sunny smooth feel movie times hear funky poprockmelodies give scenes strength needbr br theres one flaw thats last half hour runtime breaking up last scenes fresh accurate scenes then cant figure outbr br all beautiful sunny movie lifts belgian cinema upbr br br br its breeze flows girls hair sunny afternoon making even beautiful fresh breeze makes relax passes crowded party someone opens door breeze carries perfume beautiful girl sitting next park met week ago breezebr br ,0 +pola x beautiful adaption herman melvilles pierre or ambiguities comments surprise me makes wonder led overwhelmingly negative reaction br br the shock value least appealing thing film minor detail blown proportion story pierres downfall subsequent destruction around overtly demonstrated features demeanour idiolect dialogue soundtrack set film apart seen turn fundamentally traditional storyline controversial twists unforgettably emotional epicbr br i cant stress enough importance disregarding everything heard film watching did open mind will hope rewarded way was felt edge nervous around halfhour mark however film far scary traditional sense leave thoughts troublesome thrilling know im gushing here feel need make negative perception film best ive seen year,0 +want die never asked life never desire aspiration become anything hurt many times throughout life pain moments everything small talk inevitably useless time spent romantic notredflag implode means nothing end whole make best bullshit something tired hearing depression absolute certainty add little value society yes bpd but lot people want quiet left alone without feeling fucking lonely time know really make sense like welcome brain reason want burden fall onto anyone else like clean mess plan funeral explain it constant fear inconvenient thing keeping alive blah blah blah,1 +made hot rstartrekmemes im hot shit interwebs sweet sweet internet points anything useful life ah life,0 +body grossi really bad eczema skin wrinkly bumpy blotchy obvious anyone eyes affected selfesteem entire life comfortable body like lot girls wear whatever want even compare them watch sidelines awe move freely world always inhibited restrained personality major fear risktaking feel stems disease desperate affection accessible withdrawn let anybody in anybody wants someone looks like me tired let life again im sitting computer trying hard scratch bleed really fucking hard to huge exam coming completely unprepared since cant focus anything look lonely am want end deal anymore,1 +parents divorced many guys wish parents would divorce do im tired,0 +enough shitty placeive enough im sick peoples shit got denied poor peoples health insurance dependents year late slashed budget last year yay adults without dependents get health insurance paid social security number years deal get social security payments years theyre out deny help yay thats great way cut budget costs im sure smarky mba thought budget scheme weasels infinite wisdom lol going stand living world another week longer denied beggar lowest sink to sink lower die now fuck them,1 +nothing live fuck living feel like wanna kill myself anything live anywayi cant even motivate anything ffs fuck life shit grade im shit anything cant fucking motivate learn anything even though im interested try fucking fail everything live dying efficient im living waste resources thing thats keeping killing courage itand ill glad someone could help itbut fuck would thatjust like failed everything cant even manage kms people fucking except us human beings living rock floating space rock eventually hit another floating rock go extinct live happen eventually dying difference way thinking life hope die sleep way would better nobody guilty die peacefully without pain from teen whos depressed suicidal thought existential crisis,0 +one outside family would care killed myselfi thought least one person would maybe care little one person thought would would wont even respond text ask is frankly shouldnt expect care never contacted first years always asking is knows im suicidal too yeah doesnt care dont know im surprised it one else would either would day several days,1 +know handle thiswrote hurry bad spellings n shit so start off ill mention cripling anxiety minute help situation all back guy used close liked metold me know it guess kinda jolly went told friends baring mind pretty confident back then lot awful things happened next months thatnot himand anxiety unspeakably bad grown apartprobably due awkward distantbut hate eachother today school friends randomly came started shouting is true told everyone __ fancied you taken aback like no baring mind telling people happened year im year now know said anything like meant hurt him anyway saying things like ew would like her make rumour tragic bitch know desperate pretty anxious morning everyone shouting brought huge panic attack get them get bad barely function cant even string sentence together trying deny really wanted call bullshitting it said made even worse brain flipped made think things shouldnt say make situation worse ended saying them started taking mick hair looked like front whole class make worse squad joined started laughing even one friends kinda thing with fucking hurt friend laughing too basically made desperate him thanks tomy fucking anxiety froze say anything defend myself people think that anxiety probably made much fucking worse sucks im friends everyone squad think im fucking desperate sounds fucking childish awful fucking time im already facing huge issues need more people already think im weird fake slutty help know face tomorrow theyre lessons sit next guy lessons them feel embarrassed really like him feel like thinks im fucking loser help please,1 +wtf ask christmas mom idea neither i limit im tempted ask vibrating dildo dont think thats appropriate,0 +currently am sad every night miss old times as year ago would hang girl best friends always compared couple not social anymore never hang anymore used go outside stay place watch movie something cant stop thinking moments watching old videos like this life much worse now always sad makes sad idk im posting wanna tell someone,0 +im hella lonely hmu wanna talk filler fuller filler filler filler filler,0 +weird year old date year old need know anyone could give opinion would much appreciated,0 +feel detached even familyit feels like belong family rarely contribute conversation im usually one fucks dynamic could literally disappear notice thing usually would take anger especially mom feels belittling would usually tease aware usual behavior family im hypersensitive comes topics im afraid embarrassed hate sound laughter ringing ears everything hurts lot fault sensitive harmless jokes laughter know feel like could burst tears anxiety whenever topic lands me mom dad told lot times born another family probably wouldve kicked already makes feel like shit brother also told stop sensitive increased selfconsciousness sensitive ironically made sensitive guess childhood kid cries way easily kind fucked up remember crying teased brother mom dad best friend around i think happened like ooh gonna cry second now going cry teasing crying took edge cried front them one tried comfort not even best friend stood laughing pathetic crying teasing me curled blanket hours crying sheets laughed shrugged off waiting sheets one approach none did finally got tired waiting decided come try forget happened play phone laughed again laughter still ringing ear,1 +my synopsis rae christina ricci high school slut nymphomaniac connects ronnie justin timberlake fulfill needs ronnie must report national guard unit leaves rae alone rae alone long town tramp powerful need hookup man party rae taken home friend ends beating half death throws side road next day lazarus samuel l jackson finds rae carries home lazarus gives medical care rae believes also save herself rae like dog heat lazarus puts pound chain around radiator keep going looking men lazarus problems own wife left another man lazarus turns blues music relieve painbr br my comment movie deep meaning get past sex violence film different feel it story raw almost puts movie there pound chain good metaphor symbolic chastity belt give love away anyone keep true love chain could also parallel wife chained kitchen yet rae cook rae wanted sex time whereas wife may not think craig brewer writer director made extraordinary movie samuel l jackson sings mean blues song story emotionally charged tackling subjects race religion music sex one paramount classics run time rated r,0 + months months could get therapy depression cant body physically cant go anymore mind gone head burning rushing noise filling ears lost function properly anymore die redflag soon itll due stress,1 +random nonsence head day russia big ass,0 +many mistakes im able continue like this one solution left warningwall textnot best englishwarningwall textnot best english sorry starts way back early days left home country come us found alien world greatest time life leaving got gone nothing liked one knew went school landed esl almost clueless english stuck people spoke language knew good people soon choice associate slowly drinking lot turned one them stupid kids full hate one them years went taken middle nowhere bullshit gun pointed back head two thought friends knew time leave everything behind soon got got really depressed got somewhat better got involved people school leave behind depression kicked much force before help parents split around time cold dark place years contact anyone except family somehow survived time got little better slowly built courage try meet new people things seemed get better like first people meet here new people greatest either downhill path started wanting alone dark cold place chose stick time went started drugs felt like helping cope reality drugs got far habits kicked hard drugs along people them getting depression third time time little easier cope occasional smoking cannabis fall depression deep two previous times probably thanks smoking little experience depression point lost everything twice lost everyone knew twice experience gained completely sever ties people knew end spending time alone time time hanging smoking cannabis people last pack went time things seemed get better got really close brother time since smoked part enjoyed things years initial people kept contact meet new people everything seemed going well realized brother drugs tried talking tried many different ways make stop cause knew things much numb mind close eyes reality one family knew really tried many different things thought could make stop nothing worked slowly started drift away cause lying drug use still thought best friend things same started hide habits lie lot knew spot signs things knew honest me slowed point pay much attention time went by one day browsing reddit noticed post seemed like written brother redflag amaletter something right though details given right almost sure cause writing style details giving match reality showed sister said probably him hoped right sleep night knowing might lose him hard hard time falling asleep time even slightest sound around house would wake thoughts unthinkable really bothered might false alarm like sister said slowly adjusted back normal started sleeping again time ago meet girl online started talking soon fell head heels retrospect way soon really enjoyed talking seemed enjoy talking me things went really great time probably best since time left home country found motivation things enjoyed life thanks lovely personality really happy first time long time happy find finally thought ill able enjoy share life someone kind sidelined friends family bit guess blinded love one thing learned years things life always turn shit point noticed brother abusing drugs decided something done gotta done now explain close brother tough time knew needs help time sidelined something issues little nothing honest worked first time noticed drugs tried get brother stop taking pills soon found im powerless cant like able first time paying attention fact explain whats going hurt feelings girl made happy lost trust me briefly stopped talking drifted apart other want decided since able anything brother ill let fuck ever wants since hes older responsible tried talking things same hurt feelings trust interested much even honest really hurt feelings since intend cause pain anyone thats unfortunately did depression sets time harder deeper ever before would spend time bed moving anything except looking ceiling would spend hours like days decided im going let depression eat away started self improving myself quit smoking cannabis drinking soon stopped smoking cigarettes smoked cigarettes close years enough power left kick habit likely one hardest things ever accomplished life left feeling achieving something positive thought able maybe ill able something else thats probably hard earn trust girl happy find something thats beyond control unfortunately going give chance redemption lost everything made happier long long time found hatred brother hate let things go way general despair future think continue living way every time find strength get fall harder lower getting really hard find motivation continue senseless existence see one solution way this aware cowardly thing piece peace stay me place cant fall anymore thoughts hurting people seem place head now want thats sure flash thoughts race mind find hard control days go by top cant afford therapy medication since moment uninsured underemployed family getting strangled debt although want admit it going ask help either stood stool belt around neck twice already think go way already found peaceful way go im still fighting this trying fight giving long getting really hard part fucked much messed life lately messing lifes people things said something never spoke anyone left lot mistakes ive made life since want identified stopped decide time go anyone reads this thank you,1 +thanksi everything im unhappy spite that lol feeling ashamed that also feel bad opportunities have cry think suffering world enough think myself know do im basically bad person ive always selfish arrogant live compassion others want love want carefree spread hate sorrow worry nothing help fellow human beings parents siblings many victims doings world even here right live way others suffering yet distribute options ampxb know do ill write new farewell letter take time think end thank listening last selfish act best know long great joy im sorry im sorry could help anyone ive hurt many im sorry im sorry good apologize here even real life please waste time help others here crawl attention,1 +keeps goingnot gonna type wall text im relapsing need kind words difference opinion editthanks everyone input heroes among us may dog child parents good friend sometimesits stranger second edit im feeling much better thank everyone,1 +want die disappearits midnight now im getting suicidal again maybe stress exam maybe frustration rejection know im tired depressed years burden anyone even then think ill able kill myself want disappear somewhere far,1 +dating really hard since im attracted trans girls hmu youre trans ,0 +finding troublesome livetoday driving highway overpass thought redflag traffic opportunity get car overpass jump really high height motivation live life days seems fade work bed want anymore want live anymore,1 +ask people suicidal thoughts much go hospital like everyday feel like ill take life everyday new way id go it find hard look rope hold knifes cooking feel like ill stab least cut more talk doctor everything every week twice week seems going something get put hospital i going anything point writing feels like venting maybe really think scale suicidal thoughts tendencies id place high anyway wonder still alive want never wanted be think one time woke said loud happy alive everyday wake usally say alive come meee hospital times terrible mainly involuntary think voluntary probably would better wonder alive point others humans needed world world matter think humans commit mass suicide everyone pops pill government hands take day time outside public place ofc shutdown nuclear plants anything else could mass destruction maybe buy gun run around shooting killing people someone shoots me going die id take many people animals could well anyway question much sense suicidal thoughts go hospital much question venting,1 +walk weird dad came room told walked weird look videos walk elegantly know walk stumble im underweight anemic go obviously try walk straight stuff years back friend told walk like hobo im insecure dad also told fix posture which true learn sit im humiliated im already insecure everything myself,0 + family members die hard cannot much longer getting worse,1 +rteenagers discord jump in find self chat people great there hear abusive mod hear people making new servers mod finally meet mod starts muting everyone uses memes gifs emojis whenever asked punished entire self chat dies out today mod hops self chat mutes people explaining cough cough winterr incorrectly punished someone get muted collect screenshots send nothing shit discord,0 +high expectations poem me high expectations little timmy got b showed pride gave friends see show hard tried ampxb friends gave congrats getting good score threw toast pats backs brought store ampxb three cheers tim friends say much surprise parents wanted timmy fucking died,0 +post pretty cringe isnt post me wait till is also hope post something fucked up,0 +redflag starvationhave decided finally time think starving taking form amphetamine speed process anyone tried this,1 +asperger misdiagnosis ruined lifenote im saying ableist something neurodiverse people want say experience affected me mean offense anybody else swear gods name note never aspergers instead im neurotypical confirmed brain scan alongside medical exams never thought much mistake would affect me lost almost everything things managed keep tainted well people started treat like child special needs person snowflake stopped taking seriously stopped reaching and were face face choice seldom never try contact different way like texting them talk cooing like voice think im cute never talk nsfw stuff im near say im young it smile forced smiles talk time hello goodbye college stuff like homeworkgroup projects small talk nothing else try reach out im either left seen give short answers trying leave soon can ignore message altogether thats main reason im suicidal wasnt maybe bit depressed now im living hell every single day became extremely paranoid it know aside exceptions truly cares instead either pity obligation sense old high school bullying wounds opened again since traded one hell another peace years able make new friends long time ive losing still left lost social skills isolated myself shown matter im person mostly gets kindness pity obligation know others far worse me cant go like this cant withstand living hell anymore loneliness pity regret indifference rejection fake smiles kindness pissing people off making snap hate me believed psychologists think need love ignore everyone elses words money ive made family waste therapy pills never worked god reality change theres big chance make end decade,1 +merry christmas heres skip youtube ads mobile hit little i bottom left hit stop seeing ad hit yes hit close pc refresh ok merry christmas go jack belle delphine report logan paul,0 +im sorry what no gatekeeping intended post way many cute girls exist rteenagers like what crazy cute girls spend time reddit like wtf many yall feel like definitely real using pics form internet karma im gatekeeping anything anyone allowed here im saying cute girls cant come obviously doubt many girls rteenagers never mind cute girls mean offend anyone post rant offends please let know instead downvoting talk edit remove post stay safe ,0 +hello againfirst all fuck say gets better would like know long ive told that decades im years old gets worse much much worse every time think cant get worse least made it gets worse next anyone recommends exercise as couch potatoes get depressed fuck too went size size look better years feel better feel much much worse honestly theres really much else ive told tried fix this know that like one advice maybe one cares much maybe know lost cause want someone talk to hell even someone sit next talk would fine put bitching hours till get it god itd nice someone could tell need do even better push it help me guide me stop till im there thats much ask someone though know that keep wishing though im probably done wife really ability decide point im trying make break im going lose daughter house ill drop school friends family go to anywhere want go nothing want accomplish cause contribute to lot pain sadness keeps begging end ive seeing therapist tried taking meds done delay bit difference would done before daughter could grown better dad know post here people cant really help wish could cant even last meal tried eating keep down literally painful taste hurts move hurts think hurts even im sitting thinking im pain im afraid know do hurts breath pain lethal even anything id dead years ago guess pain bodys way flipping off by way know piece shit life sucks thought want know that feel like saying thank you even though none ever helped me like thanks trying effort that sometimes think asshole die way people sad know work way thought,1 +class today class today talking underwear dont ask why asked teacher colour underwear ill go history fucking god,0 +person drove far away jumped bridge without leaving note would happenmy parents dont live near me one day would try get hold able to would death ever known,1 +wish would ghostlike damn want see loved ones be,1 +ive officially listed vinyl digital cd music list best worst itll go digital cd vinyl,0 +people star thing never heard them one funniest comedies run across win putz puller prize parody absurd starts dr jeykl snorting powder turning sex fiendhe pursued libido driven nurse early movie one funniest scenes movie pay attention hospital pa system background rather like system mash final scene hyde accepting award laughing years oh busty nurse cassandra peterson went become elvira mistress dark br br if liked mel brooks classic movies blazing saddles etc suspect like onebr br damn shame cant get dvd anywherebr br its available dvd good thing dvds wear use ,0 +safe vs unsafe reasons stay aliveso could really go chugs gasoline at least now think im alright question good things use reasons die things good comprehensive list reasons active bass amplifier tomorrow mom possibly making cookies tomorrow wanna see end clone wars new metallica album may release within next days im morbidly curious coronavirus thing turn hope enjoyed tier list discussion welcome,1 +aug im happy feel like million pounds lifted chest spirit like picking date wedding ,1 +got friend zones dating gave hug said best friend entire world kinda sat there,0 +moment knowyour life over swear joke post guess point redflag gotta laugh can fine fine know middle plotting death moment watching roseanne hysterical roseanne fans episode becky farted end speech student council part dan laughing it laughter lethal problems would over then moment came realized im never gonna that family home love nothing son gone social services took away found suicidal so problems gone son motivation live gone guitar straps perfect hanging got one calling name im alone friends family job even groceries went random acts pizza reddit thinking maybe could eat tonight even let post member long enough funny losing son bad hunger bad money bad future looks bad roseanne looks good ill never that hug kids hey me go kiss goodnight want see son bad hurts ill never see again,1 +anyone else love males lift shirt see tummy,0 +one understandsthe pain im feeling unbearable im scared actually go kill myself need someone talk private message anyone please,1 +never kind person life much done,1 +dear women pokmon real game animal crossing real game sims real game mario real game stardew valley real game mobile games not real games put baby games play something requires challenge skill once sincerely actual gamers,0 +gonna pretty controversial awards stupid filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +friend posted stopped replying methey posted days ago find way contact found phone number theyre florida phone keeps ringing idk,1 +writings sometimes positive day day practice paper maths exam its hours long didnt use notes anything managed get hoping score something similar actual exam,0 +currently bored anxious school sooo ask anything want get mind things,0 +prospects pointi unemployed since summer matters much went school got useless degree history gpa low go back school earning shit money past five years live dad almost career prospects earn decent living dads hospital nd time c diff recovering probably get sick soon leaving hospital like first time mother died cancer years ago family nothing sell home mom died shortsale years later place worth three times parents initially payed it hate people people live there anyone owns home region friends family dog gone soon loving girlfriend whats fucking point friends move lives family dies living life poverty soon cant ask girlfriend stick around cant earn living latch pathetic guy late s lives dad prospects prospects improve since destroyed future useless major low gpa good first years bout depression disillusionment cratered graduation would already done dad dogboth old girlfriend really care friends would think since resent point resent careers money make fact none seen parent waste away cancer rely ever stumble would never stumble made right choices life right major right career one always stumbles fuckup always makes wrong choices maybe finally make one right choice follow footsteps best friend shot years ago really isnt another alternative wont go past zero prospects happen today tomorrow dad dog gone ill spare that fuck everyone else,1 +phone charger broke filler filler filler filler filler,0 +future dauntingfusa week met group people ive known online years now huge high point felt loved like long time went home started feeling really down couple people told felt way want overuse emotional support much support system irl really want burden people around now grew household emotional support whatsoever childhood emotional neglect describes pretty well ive longstanding pattern latching onto one two people using emotional support get tired leave want again one friends met helped yesterday freaking out feel like reaching today really want burden put much him know thats respectful waah waah dont worry me im nothing needs ive learned respect needs little more still nagging feeling like im going ruin friendships needy im afraid live parents right ive never felt comfortable showing emotions around them reading lots books subject realize theyre emotionally immature emotional lives shallow seem okay that even though know why know neither ever able give semblance emotional support need theres still little kid inside crying mom comfort hurts ive always felt like deep black hole inside me also im point potential major choices life grew knowing fuck going life ended getting fairly useless ba school went long depression able find job moved back home continued got job year half really depressing processing disability claims decided quit decision pursue teaching english second language eventually got certificate that job offer vietnam feel paralyzed fear think center this feel like im enough like able stuff set do even want teach vietnam first place another stop what fuck doing train tefl exactly longterm career like fuck going go hate it fucking choices have even vietnam im going one fattest people there part thinks ok maybe ill learn get it know im going get tired it think thats another thing feel tired already always feel tired something like comes up big choice make life jump straight well kill myself fucking daunting thats suicidal ideation pattern whenever get point im like i know do big picture go straight wanting kill myself like intellectually know theres people care all feel like takes succeed life feel like im doomed repeat failures spending years life absolutely nothing like past know im looking posting here wanted get words place might understand thanks,1 +antivax parents charged child abuse think opinion think should,0 +someone please help im fucking close redflagive depressed couple years now one ever helps me counselors therapy even family feel useless worthless ive tried hanging multiple times even wrist scars cry bed every single night girlfriend used money fat shamed front everyone ive hospital multiple times landing purpose catching fights dangerous activities see come close dying im know whole life ahead me already terrible dont want k ow rest like anyone advice me please comment need help could post days saying final goodbyes gun ready another rope even sharpened knives please help me need someone,1 +feel like need tell someone herebefore happened diagnosed bipolar disorder mild depression making whole experience worse swallowed random pills even know were ate them memory happened got half way stairs woke bed hours later terrible pain well everywhere couple hours figure hell going on never told anyone trust issues personal things continued going school whole week grades spiraled down would sit there either sleep play phone told everyone lack interest school anymore im pretty sure believed it recovering it really made progress yet almost everyday im still thoughts trying again never go it completely honest reason tried kill mthe cat gets extremely depressed im gone multiple days tried getting therapy helped all im best confrontation issues none friends really know it well one did gone now moved another state ill add feel like later right seems long sorry format im mobile,1 +s music vibe makes want take shirt get dropped jungle huey fight war,0 +probably best royal rumble yearsbr br match sees edge battle shawn michaels good long match next one worst wrestlers roster heidenreich takes undertaker boring casket match match number sees bradshaw defend wwe title big show kurt angle surprisingly good contest next match sees triple h defending th heavyweight title reign randy orton great match upbr br next royal rumble takes place raw superstars smackdown superstars hit ring try win rumble face champion whoever may wrestlemania highlights included tough enough winner daniel puder getting ass kicked chris benoit eddie guerrero hardcore holly superstars beating crap muhammad hassan raw superstars vs smackdown superstarsbr br not bad ppv allbr br edge vs hbk taker vs heidenreich jbl vs angle vs big show triple h vs orton royal rumble match ,0 +yall shut th frick tiktok minute dont care whether positive negative getting annoying,0 +anyone else think weird perceived differently different people know obvious wanna talk little honestly really small idea self sometimes people say comes shock ive called annoying quiet shy outgoing funny unfunny enigmatic cool smart stupid weird fucking clue really makes sort crisis hearing contradictory stuff me normal would think is course talkative person might think youre quiet comparison quiet person might say youre talkative since dont talk much,0 +boys got base said loves filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +wonder like roll stairs ill go try update guys later,0 +many pills take overdosespecifically ibuprofen aspirin,1 +one lieeverything ive thought anything big delusion know sounds angsty big lie pretending happy everyone thinks im better ever ive never alone empty entire life im still broken im better hiding it sort selfrespect realize friends people life last couple years hate guts completely act like want real yet everything feels empty time worse ever makes fucking sick people tell im good guy anything jerks even ive got really good living complete lie feel like actual self im hollow completely gone ive autopilot long know genuine anymore almost miss dying inside feeling compared dead inside feeling,1 +blew iti missed important deadline senior project college repeat it problem money left needed job help support moms medical bills sister feel like failure cant face family cant handle anymore life feels like series awful events nothing monotony whats point wanted get chest trying im much coward even leave proper note,1 +lets goooo confessed crush likes toooo,0 +beyond helpeveryday severe depressive episode im medications right now ive tried many im honestly afraid tell psychiatrist ones arent helping either im beyond point wanting try harder get better ive lot trauma result ptsd anxiety well hospitalization sounds like nice option im terrified going know nothing it im pretty much afraid anything whats point im going come sort plan end life soon dont care people miss me theyll move on,1 +homework due th am still acts scenes sum,0 +fuck depressed hate myselfi great life generally im med school supportive awesome family friends im smart im good looking reason depressed hate years im thinking redflag ,1 +ive done it ive beaten record gone hours without sleep im going bed,0 +wants kill herself call someonemy roommate really hard time mom kicked house mom claims owed going take roommate court roommate saying mom takes court going kill herself far debt cant afford it got job getting place september mom take court win would very screwed made redflag conditional told thoughts like im going get help freaks said sure call cops theyll put institution ill never able real life sign upset moment still need call call advice appreciated ask questions needed tldr roommate says suicidal gets sued wants say moment conditional im worried ideas,1 +tf still pass online homework despite fact literally electricity context typhoon hit us kinda left lot city without power phone call event emergency teachers apparently still demands pass assignments despite fact literally electricity go random neighbors house begged let gey signal use laptop almost work charge it like students need adjust situation find way jesus fuck,0 +slit wrist end thinking days cannot gather courage want,1 +swap pc ps generation defence pc friends going get ps games like cod minecraft featuring cross play platforms better spec wise long run since ps eventually outdated spec wise struggle run new games could keep upgrading match it technically games infinite amount indie games staying coming pc first things do could play games watch videosmoviestv shows photoshop video edit etc mods ill able play xboxs exclusives like halo gears war keyboard gt controller backwards compatibility games s available variable resolutions refresh rates defence ps im big fan sonys exclusives including spiderman ratchet clank know wont able play pc ssd way faster gbs nvme m gbs currently ps id need keep got pc still play old games games better optimized console meaning long run wont need upgrade long time controller incredibly impressive tons features ill never get pc consoles arguably safer hackers viruses backwards compatibility ps we dont know ps ps ps compatibility prefer physical media discs digital file day current specs are mobo gigabyte bm dsh cpuryzen wstock cooler gpu rx gb ram corsair vengeance gb mhz psu thermaltake smart w fans corsair stock intake fan mm uphere intake fan mm uphere exhaust fans mm case corsair carbide r rgb storage tb sata ssd tb sata hdd,0 +im going kill girlfriend leaves collegeill go along it ill apply colleges too act happy whatnot then gone it box hidden room pills ill take letters ill send out,1 +band things going well us next week start tour record soon that feel incredibly fortunate band love music role playi feel agoraphobic want nothing live alone another country cycle day sleep always want asleep like dead want runaway basically please help want runaway leave everything behind asleep really enjoy solitude cannot socialise want kill,1 +alice enters world wonder kind wonder remember kid mad hatter white rabbit queen others even tweedledee tweedledum show alice things body peoples bodies might quite wonderful tale love lust likes never seenbr br kristine debell appears alice must say s standards may attractive adult actress day believe film moving mainstream work pretty much best possible one could chosen my love things alice secret even better fairy tales which really pornography so muchbr br the songs cheesy fit theme movie one song whats girl like knight like this pretty funny others similar themes going trial towards end well scripted fit nicely world alice logic humor definitely accounted forbr br what say film like this know is people used adult films second leadin sex one going overload plot music but personally think theres something special film hope gets nice dvd release things touched special features if thats even possible see cult film,0 +pretty good made tv flick what if variety in terrorists exploded dirty bomb big city case london lots poking folks say were set event emergency reveal theyre exactly telling full story anyone prepared something like this bet not shows material bombs smuggled country making bombs secrecy double lives people behind lead etc also shows public servants ie firemen giving save people getting help government want send anyone else affected area also shows woefully inadequate preparations occurrence government talks everything stands mouths hanging open tragedy unfolds could happen right good old usa well unless living caves past years something already has extent bet anyone would prepared something nature fairly realistic yes even scary well worth seeing hope nothing like ever really happens ,0 +okwhich like better jelly sticksdonuts stuffed donuts make sure think answering dirty joke,0 +mfs like omg marcus went third base cant believe hes im ive got whole man youre jealous like nah bitch youre victim,0 +cant kill myselfi wrap noose around bed post slide bed vision gets blurry feel numb courage fully succumb pain go unconscious would count redflag attempt wuss,1 +gimme hot takescontroversial opinions please im bored wanna see entertaining things wait irl things,0 +social anxiety redflagi want kill never felt close anyone life come notsodecent family life filled drugs abuse history mental illness developed extreme social anxiety top everything else diagnosed with never felt true human connection closeness growing family felt like bunch strangers me even house none us ever spoke other could go easily week without uttering word eachother moved back home drug issues school think killing family myself social anxiety causing suicidal homicidal ideation slit wrists neck daily day stole one fathers guns loaded it held throat ended shooting open window want disappear get away family live normal life becoming aware possible cant live normal life middleclass job husband kids fucking suburban neighborhood even capable speaking another human without wanting murder myself really want give up whats point going forward therapy shit medication shit mental hospital shit nothing really helps,1 +im starting think im allowed feel okevery single time things going even alright get ruined like god universe something wants fuck me well whatever won long time ago give up wish killed many times even guts attempt it,1 +ukakapantss try make garlic tater tots like garlic bread put butter garlic tater tots instead bread try instead spamming sub garlic bread ukakapantss,0 +lmao im older im probably gonna make lot money scamming tourists selling junk food double price buying corner store touristic area one perks super touristic area never understand many people come there,0 +edge much pain solutionstoday lost last real job offer due communications error family told believe told raped child edge raped school covered up school lawyer convinced family press charges ive stuck living family since got college struggling find fulltime work get money move outits goodwe get along cant communicate weve fighting years fighting mother escalated point hardly talk one another father completely oblivious everything although supportive goes whatever mother says even disagrees posterchild emotionally dominated spouse week ago mother beloved elderly pet rat euthanized without telling town weekend found getting vet bill gets angry mental problems take mental health seriously upon telling ptsd told build bridge get it lied terminally ill cancer years ago for attention actually hoped would die several months ago aggressive harassment took really bad turn causing ptsd get really badduring particularly awful fight took knife kill dared it almost did something stopped me checked mental hospital aftermath causing lose job process stay mental hospital ironically counterproductive mental health too since ive tried stay stable struggled find work managing get job struggling retail chain get breaks get yelled id like friends live far away work long hours get see often successful friends look like im crazy burnout humiliating relationship rest family struggled failed get girlfriend enough times ive given up sexual problems ptsd depression plus im looker i suffer physical deformity hand think scary movie two butler makes finding girlfriend painfully impossible task spend time locked room waiting form unemployed mother leave house she rarely does take handfuls drugs sleep night soon able afford lose insurance coverage ive seen dozen therapists none helpful ive tried talk problems friends problems personal dark want hear it lost know anymore want escape spend lot time thinking dying backing bag fleeing west destination mind know much longer go without completely losing it life string catastrophes since childi know take life kicking ass one time,1 +would anything end life maybeive really hard time depressed every day constantly urge harm kill myself point im forming visualizations ideas head go it last redflag attempt march tied bag around head ive seen many therapists none really helpful except current one telling helping get better lifestyle see point continuing feel like helping really hard open anyone general also really really want kill myself point continue joy pleasure anything every day same sit home pitying thinking ways kill myself want live anymore matter never mattered anyone flashbacks stop want want die edit thinking giving everything job games everything want keep feeling like oxygen thief every day want end keep eating junk food hopes heart attack might happen soon,1 +context remember last time brushed teeth properly know need go dentist cold things sweet things hurt patch two front teeth guessing whatever enamel bc hurts touch hurts brush etc stopped however fucking terrified going dentist want judge me also family dentist scared accidentally say something family know likely going expensive currently unemployed thanks covid idk much going free any make feel self conscious want fix sort scared build courage something,1 +ever get betteri cant take anymore im thinking killing since course theres ups downs overall situation never changed plan im going it honestly want die want get better lost hope would like go doctor even balls make appointment thought calling redflag hotline im anxious also cant talk friends want feel bad me,1 +comment ill draw avatar itll take day two draw wont best itll keep occupied wanna,0 +im perfect try make days better mine cause worth perfectim perfect try make days better mine cause worth perfect,1 +got hugged girl warmest fuzziest feeling years ago,0 +slipping cracks testimony subhuman early twenties slipping cracks introduction first class degree stem subject merit masters degree practical engineering subject whilst university served committee chess society treasurer one year president another cofounded another society also completed work placement part module specifically tailored towards career development throughout four years university diversified academic personal interests significantly developed host transferable skills chose modules gave broad understanding different issues wasnt overspecialised could maintain holistic academic perspective developed practical laboratory field skills took modules statistics spare time read deeply philosophy specifically moral philosophy epistemology philosophy science history studied physics mathematics best amateur ability learned code designed scratch model simulate life cycle stars even began learning another language stop taking lessons became expensive maintain alongside this obtained job far beyond comfort zone cannot sensibly quantify distance chose do retail customer service spent around hours week working job whilst msc running two societies boot whilst working here significantly developed interpersonal skills gained experience working nonacademics real world environment gained small amount supervisory experience time well recap two degrees two societies one completely alien job new language new coding language work experience organised integrated pursuit successful occurring backdrop turbulent personal life boot sacrifices made attended zero social events whilst university busy working never consumed alcohol attended parties indulged anything people normally indulge university years truly believed lie work hard itll pay end result this nothing graduate job passed promotion many times retail job still minimum wage postgraduate opportunities university continuing rejection ignoration quest job deceived denied jobs available field despite repeatedly assured thriving field throughout time university academics industry leaders alike require years experience dont even entertain new graduates catch many graduates familiar with experience loop get experience need experience get experience first place dozens job applications two years number interviews country places didnt bother getting back me justifiably pipped post another job another candidate harbour ill will role would hired longer available business forced restructuring another company offered minimum wage clean factory chimneys carrot stick except theres carrot retail notoriously brutal industry especially bottom ladder often two sources frustration retail workers internal problems being structure role rewards job itself external problems namely treatment receive customers complete lack structure life lets address turn internal problems surprise im good retail job im good it fact saying brag simply stating objective facts ahead every single one coworkers every single measurable key performance indicator store sales value customer response scores metrics every single field ahead rest pack considerable margin many areas including sales sitting double second place had this despite fact worked hours week opposed worked workers never offered fulltime contract company focused bringing schoolleavers apprenticeship schemes applied job excelled worked far far harder done voluntarily worked breaks signal dedication industriousness swapped covered shifts whenever asked make life convenient possible coworkers managers never asked change shifts inconvenience anybody never took holidays unless forced to signal sincerity dedication alone generated least yearly basis annual turnover store parttime contract sheer hard work reward hard work nothing hard work entire year msc concluded never even offered fulltime contract matter hard worked never offered promotion invited interview promotion whilst there working twice hard everybody else around me two coworkers promoted management despite less industrious less efficient me thats okay longer deserve merits another instance one manager left short instead putting onto training program they hired person younger me who never worked company before reward excellence get remain bottom rung minimum wage real responsibility reward absence child worked company roughly one year promoted management kind sick twisted joke inexperienced immature bottom rung slacker neglected duties meaning others life share load regularly took minutes extra breaks ostentatiously avoided shopfloor duties burden falling people would spend substantial periods time talking stockroom avoiding floor duties reward this fasttrack management happen basic level retail apprenticeship equivalent single level age levels two stem two humanities diversify knowledge skills alongside fifth level extended project unfortunately me made mistake a working hard work b working hard university get excellent results two stem degrees dont get anything reward aiming high pushing myself assured repeatedly paths success remain bottom rung people less intelligent less industrious less honest less capable get fasttracked authority chose easier path boss work daily humiliation bossed around her thats now taking orders kids layabouts whilst getting paid minimum wage thanklessly generate figure sums profit store singlehandedly absolutely prospect ascension proportional reward effort perhaps thing stings people work less diligently get rewarded simple fact valuable company pond life rather management or think im saying id best manager think id good one consistently excellent excellence becomes expected norm it extra effort put in take foot pedal fall short usual standards whilst still far exceeding people around you ethic called question almost greater cosmic injustice this rage spite induces almost beyond compare oh yeah forgot mention spent two weeks free time constructing scratch mathematical model ensured company could meet companywide targets key kpis based data painstakingly mined scattered archives result one manager took cursory glance never looked again despite extremely powerful utilitarian potential what exactly need succeed climb ranks people less hardworking less capable less time telling do make sense universe justifiable sensible cant think word exploitation external problems part i terminal misanthropy youve ever worked retail youre close somebody else has familiar deep deep disdain humankind developed line work degree misanthropy succumb varies person person people dont experience misanthropy all middle distribution curve people range minor disdain actively avoiding people unless necessary tail end spectrum people develop pristine fundamental hatred humanity begin treat exposure humans capacity treat exposure radioactive substances deeply unpleasant bad health personally exist somewhere beyond moment time say terminally misanthropic mean sincerest sense spend every waking moment every day apoplectically murderously enraged wallowing abyssal despair hatred disdain felt towards almost everybody around me constant headache this feel perpetually exhausted physical mentally cant even escape indulging sleep sleep luxury retail it possible hours shifts yes hours travel work sleep eat clean hours sleep get beset violent genocidal dreams frankly tiresome displays egregious violence manifestations pure evil hate bore even dont escape pervading misanthropy navigating life worldview metaphysical equivalent swimming hot tar exposed general public hours day makes feel given enough time final destination all youre yet keep working retail inevitably inexorably arrive people terrible perhaps theyre terrible time service environment relationship dynamic customer service provider brings worst traits almost everybody magnifies factor trillion foundations monuments human misgivings constitute average person people dont even see human actual person feelings thoughts interests treat worse would treat dog them nothing automaton made meat exists serve every whim thats it various expressions belief grate immensely first all people dont even deign look speaking you youre speaking them dont even look you looking validates existence much youre even important meaningful enough looked at spoken to small thing aggravating universal consistent predictable quite often ask people help dont even turn around hold item want specify size colour whilst looking wall expect summon hands thats much respect people me secondly people continually interrupt talking them quite often explaining relevant information them return items order items x z interrupt me asking question whose answer literally provided quite often dismissively wave hand agitation youre answering question theyve asked silencing like youre belligerent animal right treat like this thirdly oftentimes ignore outright intrude upon experience consciousness forcibly making existence known them common look disgust existence affront conceited sensibilities theyll often snap something outright tell go away one example is say people give shout want help ill walk away call need me wont pushy overbearing them invite conduct shopping experience terms oftentimes say give sh interrupt yes im fine thank you dont even listen say them fine thanks coherent response hello far people concerned im even human being consequently effectively experience people stop seeing humans begin seeing cattle see tatty chickens pecking barren dirt scraps refuse thats are meat stock things move around make noise nonentities temporary delays universal slide toward entropy meaningless fleeting existences deservedly extinguished long comprehend pointless conditions pathetic existence vermin disgusting parasites deserve suffer eternally agonisingly arrogance conceit fundamental universal cosmic injustice customerprovider relationship cannot captured words experienced experienced youve slipped cracks working customer service based job could find treatment palatable idiot capable nothing else im not fulfilling potential here reason wellpaying impactful stem job im unlucky dont family industry family contacts industry get treated like fucking subhuman inferiors minimum wage despite hard work sacrifices course life external problems part ii nonexistent worklife balance nature retail makes impossible maintain anything resembling worklife balance get two days week rarity days consecutive days change week shifts ordinarily range anywhere am pm increasing pm christmas new year possible work days row finish pm one night start am next morning nothing conducive structured organisable life free time functionally nonexistent although spend hours day workplace additional hours travelling from corruptive tendrils retail slither around every aspect life often free time split two uselessly small fragments beginning end day example shift leaves with arguably free hours absolutely useless antisocial hours little social clubs convene times two hours enough time get invested given activity recreational session mention tired two hour segments limiting options mean means life structure means cant plan ahead commit clubs activities means cant go gym regularly youll either tired enough time go common knowledge routine important building block exercise regime retail permits none all cant say monday go gym tuesday piano lesson wednesday go chess club none options available you understand jobs time demands well jobs indeed prohibit anything pervasive way retail does even youre work youre still trapped within confines consequences this unable commit exercise regime leaves feeling perpetually unhappy body want able work physical fitness look better now cannot top psychological tribulations retail industry also get feel uncomfortable unconfident skin hours day days week want able dedicate time learning piano reading writing possibly even creating youtube channel none things possible because previously mentioned little free time afforded fragmented inconsistently distributed besmirched exhaustion stemming job radioactive fallout get spend spare time working retail get sit often alone wait day end go sleep go back work thats it cant spend time loved ones friends somehow manage either things watch mindless shit tv eat subpar food dont time cook properly let alone cultivate cooking skills first place say existence depressing like saying surface sun warm isnt life living death away every hour life away life youre waiting die retail life courage kill myself would it failure complete failure aware nature scale fact shattering feel unworthy around anybody ashamed exist cant look people eye im embarrassed people might see behind own dont want vocalise thoughts anything justification sprung forth poisoned spring nothing say think important interesting others revealing contents mind expose invasion observation therefore giving others opportunity see corrupted hopeless resentful wretch am havent left wayside yet surely ever peek behind veil accomplished nothing failed fulfil smallest fraction potential feel like jackofalltrades master none write work calculate deduce argue aboveaverage standard yet nothing come fruition gifts systematically failed apply constructive way course entire life combination laziness lack confidence lack worklife balance used gifts navigate undergraduate postgraduate degree ultimately meaningless squandered them feel nothing shame many ways deserve fate somehow despite vast potential landed midtwenties negativestatus minimum wage job absolutely zero prospects future personally professionally passed physical peak shape since years old spending entire adolescence prime fat dumpy doughy dollop man male acutely aware place hierarchy wherever go partially result evolutionary psychology partially women especially attuned hierarchies high resolution evolutionary psychological adaptation weed unworthy men worthy bottom every hierarchy bottom hierarchy workplace women kind men bottom hierarchy doubly occupy higher place hierarchy female superiors work scarcely miss opportunity swing proverbial dicks around face humiliation dehumanisation wherever go still live parents another source shame humiliation parasite burden kind man lives parents man midtwenties prime life still living parents answer would love move out crave independence responsibility keep getting rejected tenancy landlords job isnt good enough minimum salary requirements x monthly rent meet places would like live in continually outcompeted men women surely less intelligent industrious nonetheless another example failure cultivated hobbies skills cant cook properly cant make art make music anything resembling respectable standard thing play video games betterthanaverage standard sought refuge entire life valuable harmful form escapism difficult childhood continue today lost lustre long ago longer feel like edmund pevensie venturing narnia load xbox like wladislaw spilman guzzling rancid foetid water filthy mop bucket longabandoned hospital video games what cares trait pathetic failed man undignified misfire man stage black hole human happiness sap colour every room strip music sound taste food nothing positive say something come mouth normally violently retributive remark that know far exceeds apparent limit sentiment caused occasion adam smith identified mark brute right me feel guilty around people make things worse them everybody better without around basis cause nothing hardship misery wish could realise mould bread cut cast aside strength myself absolutely useless pointless desperately want repay family help given me want able take holiday get new car nice things them cant never able to nothing live for sacrificed youth altar false promises deceptions hard work nothing seems nothing ever change anything ive tried hard things keep getting worse perhaps stinging aspect failure tried tried hard possibly can thrown wall might long possibly isnt even enough make smallest dents pathetic feeble am would feel consoled knew hadnt tried hard make success life talents mercy escapes me tried everything unable get away square one speaks brutally fundamental deficiency being anon birthday st april th november thought death suicide dead daily basis roughly years ups downs across threeyear period weeks think death couple minutes every day often bed night sleeping periods time sit room dark alone think intensely different methods suicide experience like find afterwards like dead three years tended unfortunately toward increasing morbidity hopelessness past months thought death almost constantly course day moment wake moment go sleep even im friends family loved ones im thinking death whether watching film together meal together anything together chances im thinking death im driving road think driving oncoming traffic kmh im top stairwell think jumping it im meal think slitting throat knife im using im bed think suffocating pillow im sitting nothing fantasise hanging myself shooting myself exitbagging myself thinking feel like happen people find me people often tell seem quiet distant tired sometimes increasingly tell im usual self whatever usual self is appears vague distant awareness among people around something isnt quite right me genuinely idea going arent perceptive enough know something seriously wrong lack courage requisite care anything it nobody knows deep pervasive feelings really are recently shocked learn colleagues perceive happy upbeat positive person things surprise me certainly did find hard believe almost everybody inkling going beneath surface merely quiet serious nature corrupted broken caricature be bitter hopeless angry jealous nothing disdain everybody everything world used happy hopeful loving know irreparably broken know golden olive branch extended me would bat away spite psychologically beyond salvation nothing make happy dont know whether aware objective truths nature life general conditions life trapped subjective thought processes dont hold up proportion regret resentment function life simply passed much one person bear either way knots simply cannot disentangled am guess around beginning september plans pull plug finally began crystallise since then thoughts death suicide constant almost hours day dream dying killing getting revenge wronged me awake paralysed lethargy magnetised bed sofa unable summon motivation something basic get drink crippled thoughts death avalanches hopelessness plan decided check april fools day seems like appropriate day it check life darkly hysterical day jokes japes world inside upside down increasingly resembling planetsized freak show end decided quietly graciously exit stage alone life mistake nothing enjoyable grew poverty violent alcoholic parents mercilessly bullied every day school age pupils teachers alike went better lives me lives dont deserve overcame demons excel university work nothing st april april fools day get early around am cycle caf near sea front cup tea scrambled egg toast take bay used play child filled nothing except boundless optimism joy life people climb rocks first last time adult life listen piece music probably chopin music finished playing dive head first cliff onto rocks end abortion existence all,1 +ever fantasize much better world would without youi always think every aspect world effect would improved there like think every possible case every person every little thing improved im part it death net gain everybody imagining world without exciting im looking forward creating it,1 +know long make iti going couple months right birthday last weeks little good still life come crashing down even know make birthday every minute struggle fuck,1 +dude sure personality anymore like always liked male thing think it seems like always wanted girl like little kid yo always dreamt girls turning girl even know trans people are know dude sure gender right know looked like girls outfit spesific items look cool wanna cant sometimes maybe sound strange sometimes sometimes iwhen home alone pick mothers items underwear stuff wear use mi weird know,0 +using sub diary day today great chilled school gave us bio project today math quiz got proud seams like flexing guys accomplishment guys day anything intresting happened biggest accomplishment wee month general,0 +cant escapei debilitating anxiety job keep also love unfortunately forces work person hurt traumatized abused everyone life everyone ive ever loved finding recent abuse cant anymore cant quit job cant afford to cant keep job anywhere else anxiety dont want die dont know anymore im trapped im medicated ive therapy psychologists years nothing makes life easier better solutions arent realistic one help me one turn to go could pay house could least know place livethat would step right direction rate still owe wont paid another years dont know anymore would much easier give up dont know solution quit job become homeless stay job continue miserable cycle die,1 +im gonna kms daysso origianlyl id planned committing redflag june bt thats far ive already tried counselling cant anymore im gonna go early christmas day od a goodbye thanks ppl commented post nice hope u go help ppl,1 +made account post lol yo guy feel like depressed lot friends loving family great grades ok looks get along everyone usually perceived funny happygolucky guy always smiling even though used true anymore diagnosed depression spring wondering anyone similar situationit started back feeling emptiness started feeling like hole inside would go away matter couple months decided get checked surprise surprise depressed lmao ever since life felt like sort blur get bed go work see friends usually smoke weed ease feeling hopelessnesswhich btw gotten kind addicted recently go bed repeat next day like go around feeling sad day feel kind grey like something inside missingfor really trying best fight it try hang friends go bed fairly early workout seeing therapist seem working id super grateful tips guy guys would feel great ti know alone anyone like there,1 +know ive sat taking strong painkillers cutting hour whole life gone shit best friend died september ive loved six years couple yearsxago butvwe stayed best friends ive never felt close anyone life got kicked college lost friends dont think future im sure actually want kill think stop,1 +wanna kill rejection stupidfor first time life fell love girl amazing nice caring pretty intelligent she state competition architectural design good person general fell love girl actually got pretty close emotional standpoint things finally started looking me ive dealt anger issues depression since child self esteem pathetically low girl changed me finally found someone bring best me happier person her finally got courage ask prom said yes condition would friends i however really wanted ask planned prom even asked sister permission bombshell gets dropped lesbian really bother first accepted supported her slowly started creeping conscious started getting really depressed stopped talking her spent summer sleeping eating working time went outside working driving bowling even friends anymore mostly fault one stopped talking knows wanting kill mutual friend told her reached me cant fall love again wanna fall love again,1 +want kill dont ive struggling lot past year ive bullied weight parents would sometimes add that started self harming which immediately regretted mum found out havent therapist cause didnt want school find out started feeling better quarantine got hole again want kill im going cause selfish people love life ahead me pain feel eating inside nobody understands dont want call redflag prevention hotlines speak someone something im going get over thoughts back head thats bugging me im like funny people super sad lol know im going fine,1 +shouldnt advocating teenagers post pictures skirts big website alot creeps advocating giving awards posts increases chance pedophiles seeing it im body positivity wearing want matter gender however place place post nature site post instagram page thats ok people know would see unless set public however year old man browse new see dozens underage boys girls skirts im trying tell anyone do im trying help stay safe frens tldr dont advocate post skirt cause pedos here,0 +hold gotta rant quick sec work ass weeks straight buying journal writing goals working hard everyday hell even played videogame weeks moment take break days get rest dad rides ass need start fucking self improving fuck im looking praise get ridden taking small break dude wtf anyway thanks wanted rant love yall,0 +wanted say thank youi know you likely never will take time listen us struggling thank you still uphill battle me many days trouble motivation im certain myself therefore ill deleting account struggling keep struggling keep embracing pain fear anguish keep human find joy small things can,1 +watching film explore turkish music also explore city istanbul wonderful pictures scenes important regions citythere lots delightful conversations sorts musicians thoughts musicculturethere also discussions mixture east west like istanbul hashow make music see comparing countrys musiciansit consists music cezadumanbaba zulaaynurmzeyyan senarorhan gencebaythe turkish queen music sezen aksuan important work art,0 +think google spying ive checking everywhere room cant find anywhere spying me,0 +hi early s right teen recently depressed borderline suicidal never told anyone scared internalize every negative feeling get which currently working on past year found amazing friend group online love dating one quite issue keep making edgy jokes suicide mind jokes since edgy sometimes gets lot joke hey name go kill something times minute mentioned longer suicidal definitely moments past couple months overwhelmed sadness wanted die either way main issue person partner absolutely love much point jokes like ruin day give extremely much redflag terrified telling want either ruin fun want act different me know mad anything mostly scared something could completely change relationship since would become like emotional baggage and already enough thati mentioned sometimes deal lot redflag used really bad never anything else could possibly tell this try best ignore leave chat goes on tell someone suicidal past,1 +adhdive diagnosed adhd school really hard me put lot effort things do nothing really comes it feel stupid time im sick life stole brothers gun think,1 +cry much whats usually like tears coming eyes now feel anything might eyes dry something yawned withiut realising,0 +people feel need tell others die want diethis includes me understand people want tell others redflag matter random people know it im waiting right moment die right now itll probably happen eventually theres nothing anyone say stop it,1 +went taco bell ass fire jesus christ fucking hurts help,0 +good evening everyone go read,0 +teletubbies creepiest abomination past century today chilling couch brother came watch tv handed remote feeling kinda bored decided watch whatever hes watching hes years old going channels stopped one first understand watching recognized creepy smile creatures teletubbies name creature despise since small ages actually never interest cartoon creepy next level man seriously regret seeing face long time creepy also cringy af sun baby tv bellies turns rubbing ugghhhh bear watching minute so experiences abomination kids show,0 +moms giving old phone phones today good day,0 +like milk nothing else post really like milk,0 +education system would like start saying meant offend anyone needs addressed ampxb education system majorly fucked up frankly im done dealing it im sick part system care me mental health try explain adults life im stressed out life outside school work hit well teenager get it perfect teenager everyone loved you education changed years school much stressful get lot work did stop trying tell im lazy normal stupid know nothing were talking about,0 +ur gonna give free bj homies really ur homies filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +want happyhello im years old title says want feel happy im going major rough patch right now whole laundry list issues backstory ill try condense all tldr bottom start right now moment kill myself much live right now two cats one im owner hes ever bare leave cat behind sister dad mom died us back ill get later since lot this anyway couldnt imagine leaving cat children behind let alone dad sister went grief losing mom also lost dear friend redflag day graduated high school killed sister made swear never that kept around thankfully also friends godda stick around well anywho onto laundry list problems start ive got mild autism used severe mom real cheerleader throughout life got help needed problem couldnt teach socialize like normal child could stop children seeing kinds nasty things hindsight understand perspective quite gross back then still kinda back pretty disgusting haha also socially inept id say lot stupid things stupid things still ive learned somewhat normal functional im transgender born female started transitioning mom basically told phase true finally co worker time told shed end losing believe she trans daughter almost lost reason end mom got together accepted me little know id end losing her onto dead mom subject passed away due liver failure slid alcoholism basically let consume her year slowly drank death liver handle anymore combined prior health issues died got mommy issues godda deal im trying man hard really hard lose one cheerleader life one really gave damn one fought could fight yourself poof gone onto shit im depressed course got lots anxiety im depressed many many reasons weather living familys expectations current position life im currently working of feeling regretful things past cant let go of half boy half girl atrocity in eyes know others see way see trans people way everybodys beautiful im exception lol stuff like that also quit smoking cigs maybe whole thing due know im anxious everything basically finding new stable job going meeting people person etc thats tip iceberg thats suppose haha even get started suicidal ideations stuff think redflag multiple times day whole plan i get here carry out maybe someday im old not get told permanent solution temporary problem believe sometimes time cant think positives come it remember redflag affected friends family one way another hell moms death redflag close drank feelings away never told anybody pain towards end gave up im getting point too mean ill kill myself no wont ill stay im looking forward seeing comments anyone reads this honesty peopleanimals life wouldve ended long time ago rather feel happy current state existance feel unhappy feel depressed even though great life alone even though good family wonderful friends even therapist anxious even though world isnt bad idk im full mess even gotten everything question is why cant happy why life kinds wonderful things life know issues work everyday solvinggetting bottom themmanaging them feel way feel unmotivated anything even though much do feel like cant trust anybody info even though theyre supportive me want feel peace want feel peace head want feel happy havent felt true happiness long miss feeling miss feeling forgetting every care world enjoy moment peace clarity one since like reality poor lower class kid living home single mom overachiever sister black sheep everything am became much worse mom died dad took us show love support get wrong loves supports me hes forward emotions nobody family makes feel bad feel like hiding within me anyway way get bottomless pit hopelessness feel okay again feel form happiness peace within me made far thank you means lot me cant go anybody fear itll get back family threatened take hormones away im hrt breakdown again take care friends tldr depressed autistic trans guy looking happiness inner peace cant find even though nice life,1 +weak become maintain success matter well shoot matter cant defend ballim basically bitch never shit shit now never shit get shitted on,1 +cannot sleep pain many nights nights manage closing eyes sleep makes worse wish stopped one minute remember normal feels like doctors giving answers tests come clear know wish knew treat it meds even help months non stop head pains upper left eyelid pain know live normal life follow dreams pain feel like live strong enough real shit much,1 +whats self post weekend like saturday today theres still memes pics vids posted here dropped,0 +day random questions something immature think parents do,0 +missed weeks classes depressionsuicidal thoughts told im going suspended whats pointi switch anxiety medication weeks ago new one got put lowest ive ever been constant panic attacks depressed suicidal first time life almost ended it talked doctor scheduled multiple therapy visits weeks later im lot better time missed classes times classes times managed pull bed classes first days even get bed therapist told talk adviser campus did told today since im failing classes absences already academic probation im going suspended said since still went class days qualify medical withdrawal broken leg could excuse her actual words exactly something former suicidal person wants hear hurt get excuse feel like total loser hopeless now told write letter what better next time wait committee decide come back even wont eligible financial aid anymore community college cant even afford that feel terrible like efforts get better useless,1 +need homework help come get free tutoring twitch next hour so right bat completely free ask donations want donations committed promised donate money received charity ill post receipt discord prove it thats way hi im arch college graduate waiting get medical school next year want give back little bit community thought tutoring could useful service offer sister teacher told pandemic really hard lot students offering officehoursstyle tutoring twitch figure twitch good way people show ask questions without needing sign lose anonymity neuroscience major minor astronomy means plenty experience core three sciences hopefully help explain difficult concepts need assistance again money karma clout show twenty minutes ask question leave without second glance follow whatever supposed pressure environment students get additional help need it come check want send link friend know struggling something school absolutely personal information required names emails jump twitch ask question chat follow link discord case need post picture problem etc stupid questions ask kind courteous anyone else stream forgive cannot answer question i going homework you want help conceptual issues twitch twitchtvarchexplainshttpstwitchtvarchexplains find information website archexplainsorghttpsarchexplainsorg want resource anyone use quick question depth help ways could improve service please hesitate let know seriously want help know frustrating subjects feel like need teach yourself stumble across later streaming schedule twitch page check next time office hours,0 +fuck shit im finally doneim ending it ive going bullshit day day every single motherfucking day life cry every morning wake up cry day find place alone cry sleep every night friends friends year sociable people want hang me mom verbally psychologically abusive job hates threatens fire time would bills pay pay nowhere go one go to trying make brownies earlier spilled little bit chocolate counter maybe size quarter mom went apeshit telling need take cooking class calling fucking retard saying what deserve child theres chocolate everywhere counter paper towels sink none bullshit fucking true neat freak im slob always try let bother me fuck fucking bothers enough ive decided end life hears crying says fuck you continue cry takes car keys away by force fight her take cell phone away probably try choke done before im years old already feel old this tired feel like im im tearing afraid cry making harder hold in always kinda felt bad thinking killing thinking family would miss me maybe will maybe mom miserable forever want mom always tells family members horrible person lie steal horrible things never done life lies faces front me get lectured every time see something stupid mom told did fuck all fuck everything want open space another child grow decent life theres many people planet anyway thanks listening,1 +watch movie clean ears take away makeup eyes tell girlfriend stop kissing you to picture give warmth enough keep relationship lifelong enough jewrussianukrainianimmigrant yes popularmovieminority ever laugh within memories something else whatever anyway laugh bittersweet memory importance friendship family movie nothing seem strange ever strange may seem still im afraid see movie type picture people watch go movies please humanity forget get soundtrack pleasure,0 +eveningim really never sure im supposed write here think im writing hope someone read say consider it im sure theres anything take consideration doubt anything could taken away reading thoughts anything positive case thank taking time anyway happen reading this feel weighed societal expectations way need speak intonation language expected go life functioning person work voice really small thing always annoys me feels disingenuous like that like im betraying living lie really cant stand it pretty childish way think understand think ill ever get it see dehumanizing factory standard planned mechanical theres warmth there nothing guess complaints living similar vein call deviant contexts theres feels theres point feel life im sitting here desk computer paid money car end day ill freely admit this know im unique far distract myself im going eat food im going go bed ive finished tequila go work company feels nothing people know beside show me enjoy this know fact raised type people who problem anything something working right would fix that immediately taught teach fix things solve problems ive chronic depression entire life nothing feel like fix this problem cant fixed fucking love living idea sensation look universal scale fucking amazing think reason plan see happens create shape view complex patterns shapes experience simple part hearing tones certain order make electricity brain different things special would take involuntary mood swings voices head telling want die parts go away would love it live planet people see things way do people understand basic idea cause effect could apply them people see everyone else perceived wealth ignorance plan sociopathy culturally socially reinforced nihilism understand people could fucking arrogant beautiful gorgeous possibility people ruin it thats see anyway see way change people change situation sorry seems dramatic im glad write thoughts maybe ill go live pond write book it,1 +attempted hang todayi wrapped scarf around neck hung closet woke floor convulsing mustve blacked scarf came undone closet remember waking without realizing awake felt nauseous headache panic flashbacks everything causing commit redflag remember thinking oh movie im glad thats life continuied gain consciousness realized real life lost point yellingcrying why close nooooooo getting really angry remorse mad wasnt able complete mission evening still regrets did believe piece initial blackout probably happiest id long time neck sore red ring around neck headache bruising body think might hit something way down im gonna try tmr belt see works,1 +tomorrow medepression something years everyday like many people fight get bed even get up everyone around tears down never receive compliments goes right negative always everything wrong last weekend thought monday would day killed told wanted one last good weekend saw boyfriend went dinner got hotel argued whole time wanted couple good memories went nothing happy nothing day happy yesterday fell unconscious heard man saying stay me asking what name is could hear wanted let go let go unconsciousness peaceful everything black like blind see anyone anything hear falling falling want feeling time want wake up side note redflag attempt yesterday medical problems sometimes get weak past wherever am really know point post is wanna die want head misery cant anything right barely hold job afford make ends meet everyone talks one tries boost point anymore therapist even told regressing know help anymore im lost,1 +obviously painful way could use counter medicine resulting painlessly death overdose paracetamol cough syrup kill instantly without pain,1 +emoji bad ,0 +hey guys didnt fucking procrastinate today homework days pog proud,0 +run away kill myselfhi im situation really need advice sorry english good really know start ill best explain father alchoolic since remember sometimes fine time pretend normal everything turns shit story deeper this basically good childhood gets drunk usually tells loved mother never loved back prefered uncle never let succed anything and thats excuse nothing today adding father never present alchoolic spent money had think get story could guess learned kids are im years old life lived domestic violence would mother me years lived much fear always good grades want give excuse beat me never anything dramatic like others teenagers home used quiet lonely studying listening music room nowadays recognize fault blame mother never leaving him says money nowhere go truth much proud ask help family keep life ignoring like normal live like this little sister born settled little beat years never let sister wherever tried beat mother would help everyone calm down remember many scenarios livedlike one time even turned gun head remember wishing would could end turned become easier got parents house go college completely alone easy either kind missed home would come back home every weekend mother sister father crisis become often again every weekend gets drunk let us sleep study talking night childhood first would listen felt sorry him recognize sadness him felt alike even reason but decided let got courage talk done me shaking crying much though worth would finally know pretended knew done thought good father apologized thing makes worth fact im afraid anymore talk confront him seems forget everything convenient since im got interested life studies like kind creepy i cant find another word describe asks sex life boyfriend stuff like that always turn subject around really subject bothers even creepy never got interest me never wanted know going good studies liked this spent life invisible house to always felt like one cared everytime tried talk feelings one would hear me learned strong move alone reached limit everytime gets drunk comes asking never let know life never talk ask permition go like mall beach when didnd ask have hate he says hate based i guess fact talk life hes drunk asks the questions sexual life im done this feel like options running away got train disappear but would give college while till got money kill end shit good finally mother would recognize something got change ask help family ask money grandfather sister could live but know would accept got courage so fourth option keep going thisbut know cani feel much damaged inside want come back every weekend sister said want left alone want leave her hard cant handle anymore,1 +ive seen dads browser history dad ipad thats always living room phone charging room searching something chilling couch side bar thing open bookmarks decided jokingly check history full prn nothing prn several days stepdaughter prn thank god doesnt daughter choking prn bunch types prn dont even know time watch it sits downstairs night goes bed mom room cant jack cause always stay later come couple times per night water letting cat backyard bit since quarantine hes never really home alone long enough im disturbed discovery im lying awake bed,0 +redflaghello you sad want redflag dont know it write pls,1 +im going kill mayif even make long want even divisible feel like im mistake talking struggles drags friends alcohol thing helps drink let friends inside inner workings head hate that wish could disappear affect them part enjoys ill made impact people makes feel worse like cant even spare people care pain mistake born made ones life better hope die ruin anybody elses life,1 +feel lonelymy girlfriend left someone else ever since ive felt worst ever wanna die get rid pain unlovablei want loved miss hasnt even given second thought wish didnt exist im mistake ive started planning redflag dont think future anymore wanna talk something dm ill give discord something dont want alone right,1 +original story funny compelling characters went well teen girls slumber party movie times now loved it fun moved quickly boring drawn scenes violent little language though covered up great movie david strickland terrific actor ron eldard gave wonderful performance watch girls every time,0 +sunday july first episode new science fiction series called stargate sg broadcast showtime spinoff sequel film stargate starring kurt russell james spader series begins approximately one year events portrayed film ten seasons chronicled adventures misadventures intrepid team explorers known sg originally series starred richard dean anderson colonel jack oneill two ls michael shanks dr daniel jackson amanda tapping captain samantha carter christopher judge tealc s davis major general george s hammond ten long years watched team battle goauld replicators ori many aggressors time forged alliances asgard tokra rebel jaffa nox tollan saved world less eight times years never gave up death claimed them sometimes even thenbr br as longrunning series numerous cast changes michael shanks left series january end fifth season order broaden horizons actor daniel jacksons successor teams resident archaeologistgeek jonas quinn alien country called kelowna planet langara played corin nemec however shanks returned beginning seventh season june nemec left time unfortunately made one guest appearance character seldom mentioned afterwards s davis left series end seventh season march felt time go shows original star arguably popular actor richard dean anderson starred series throughout first eight seasons participation seventh eight seasons noticeably less earlier seasons finally left sg march order spend time sixyearold daughter jack oneill far favourite character series and truth told never enjoyed last two seasons much earlier episodes reasonbr br the ninth season represented new era programme departure lead actor defeat goauld replicators season eight many fans felt series go high regardless series carried two years ori replacing goauld series main adversaries three new characters brought fill gaps help usher reinvention ben browder came cocky southern air force pilot lt colonel cameron mitchell new leader sg farscape costar lovely claudia black began play prominent role series vivacious sexy hilarious certainly extroverted vala mal doran former goauld host con artist another planet recurring guest star eighth ninth seasons joined cast full time beginning tenth final season rounding cast legendary beau bridges major general hank landry new commander sgc old friend jack oneill general hammond last two years starred alongside sg faithful michael shanks amanda tapping christopher judge became valuable parts made equally valuable contributions stargate franchisebr br alas good things must come end initial broadcast first several episodes season ten ratings dropped considerably resulting cancellation august ten seasons episodes dream finally over march began children gods ended unending series finale made world premiere sky one britain ireland shown scifi channel united states june br br in ten years series air amassed legions fans even eclipsed science fiction series star trek terms popularity certain countries became secondlongest running scifi series world second doctor who longestrunning american produced scifi series surpassed the xfiles months endedbr br stargate sg represents cornerstone stargate franchise success popularity led production spinoff series entitled stargate atlantis regrettably cancelled five seasons episodes august although plans another feature film fell through two directtodvd films stargate ark truth stargate continuum released planned distant future third liveaction series stargate universe also due premiere point next year there was unfortunately animated series stargate infinity ran less said better despite end sg atlantis continuing series future stargate looks bright indeedbr br in conclusion stargate yet gain degree popular recognition major scifi television franchises star trek doctor who still relatively new compared two scifi giants every confidence continue many many years come,0 +sure get you young posting here something like feeling great long time now exactly friends nobodys beat friend feel nobody cares me nobody talks me also school painful me hour day redflag sadness suffering horribly school feel life go crap something worse could happen then ever since went secondary school feel lost everyone actually cared primary school longer energy want eat enough barely get sleep feel sad time redflag way much recently lost friend believe depressed sure anything anymore sometimes feel like jump front car would probably make everyone lifes easier obviously probably big deal overthinking sure st time posting already feel nervous press post felt happiness while,1 +finally told friends feel themi meltdown earlier something asked exfiancee done wanted get number deleted nhs records keep getting appointment confirmation texts them anyway blew facebook im sick getting ignored everyone im sick trying open problems constantly get shrugged one wants know selfharm everyday one friends made smarmy comment blew him told hes part problem cant reach people wanna know explained im reaching whenever ask friends theyre coming xbox live normally say rarely say yes theyll join people instead me reach like way distract bad shit going head im playing game im cutting fucking wrists anyway ive blocked facebook ill ignore xbox bother anymore im gonna sit room myself im used to hopefully balls make cut deep enough kills me,1 +pls help something cuz idk tomorrow im gonna meet gf im really nervous dont know things gonna turn out im also really shy guy general anyone got advice,0 +think im going kill examsidk anymore like im worthless sack nothing school go home sit cut sleep dont really see point anymore,1 +helpim tiered know great things want im mentally damaged even know tell therapist want kill please one tell cleanest way kill always pussy really want live anymore want cleanest way want parents clean huge mess,1 +probably accurate stephen king adaption yet surprising since king wrote screenplay story follows creed family moving beautiful maine house one residents jud pleasant old man knows things area one highway runs right frontyard path leading pet sematary children decades buried animals killed highway soon enough ellie creeds cat church found dead luckily happens family exception louisthe father away thanksgiving jud takes louis another burial ground beyond pet sematary church buried later louis greetednot politely church hes returned appearing chewed way bag buried in maybe buried alive maybe not nothing say without ruining storybr br of king adaptions ive seen would terrifying characters real situations normal mary lambert great job directing proceedings suspense kept fairly high throughout film due part plot development scene gage killed stick mind forever then course conclusion easy determine whats going happen lambert pulls genuinely scary sometimes disturbing momentsbr br overall good film excellent adaption enjoy scared mind haunted occasionally disturbing images pet sematary looking for non horror fans want avoid this,0 +want tell family girlfriend two people know this ways help could muster keep touch try cheer up feel like enough like done help him tried take life past school therapist prescribe meds makes worried even since liable try again ask again help him friend struggling depression help him,1 +need supporti want musician taken every kind lesson pretty much always get told not realistic psychologist even said that hurts depressed even ones close me step thing like music atheistpeople suggest find god know one life point mean anything think lot time end mean anything long anyway whats point suffering giving get nothing it forgotten,1 +kill myself m title states kill myself friends all asked want friend flat ignore me one seems care know dont care probably laugh end committing redflag grab knife cut slice myself destroy life always lived alone die alone redflag initiation ,1 +im really shitty human deserve iti really want end right now ive dark place like hardly life couple times thought slipped mind never acted it im still really doubtful would act really want to went couple abusive relationships met guy nice me really messed ended seeing one abusive exs contacted couple times know stupidest thing could possibly done know making think good idea guy devastated know hes really hurt it good guy finally go back abusive ones know whats wrong feel awful want punish hard can,1 +leave notecan anyone attest whether redflag note helps family get closure something would say note makes ordeal easier harder family maybe effect all positive negative,1 +thought found perfect girl but time ago met cute girl age feeling kind confident talking her actually liked often talking typing thought giving signs likes more like wants friends spoke older brother whos great friend said very very high chances gf one day gathered confidence told her kind shock knew day would come told find hobbys preferations etc similiar thought giving signs turned no nice nice also told lesbian impossible man relationship relation like dead tried maybe type short conversations uhh yeah thats story also selfesteem lol,0 +running outta optionsbeen whole depression thing years god getting hard afraid ask help afraid like im stuck everyday cycle falling asleep break get fuck,1 +sayingmilestones like birthdays new year time reflection im sure cant go round again ive reached absolute limit endurance constant physical pain terrible loneliness equally so painful degenerative bone disease asd massive depression none going away ive attempted redflag past learnt previous mistakes concrete plan several backups im looking help think wanted say it communicate whats going on thanks reading,1 +free awards real email accs mistake yes wont change mind try it gave awards gave myseffffffffffff,0 +american paris wonderful musical american painter living paris inspiration meets rich woman admires paintings street believes get work even popular public eg museum golden globe nominated gene kelly artist jerry mulligan perfect singing especially dancing also meets main girl lise bouvier leslie caron engaged best friend cant help feelings girl even finds engaged to filled nice romance wonderful song dance good musical film may drag slightly dancing dream sequence ie american paris ballet good happy ending oscars best art directionset decoration best cinematography best costume design best music scoring musical picture best writing story screenplay best picture nominated best director vincente minnelli best film editing nominated bafta best film source golden globe best motion picture musicalcomedy nominated best director vincente millenni lizas father gene kelly number movie stars number years stars men i got rhythm number years songs film number years musicals number years passions number years movies number greatest musicals good,0 +ok im scrolling reddit people talk revolution im like fucking revolution never heard gonna revolution help,0 +im lost know anymoreive depressed suicidal ive always able hold together extent right though clue do im college getting degree want late change it ive got great job ive less quit told im welcome back whenever want specialty work outside perfect life mask starting fall apart too ive made lot mistakes hurt lot people hate every single day it ive nearly killed times last minute chickened hated more lost always thought would get shit point know point making progress failed struggle get bed morning struggle fall asleep night lay cry talking another person awhile back im pretty sure committed redflag makes feel even worse volunteer firefightermedical responder help either takes pieces me mask wear around colleagues falling apart late last year one passed away everything builds top little big thing happens cant take anymore,1 +normal teens lives got highly manipulative friendship text every seconds meltdown would occur would normally phone l l h e me anyway since ive gotten that ive literally idea since n hobbies friends cant drive so people normally do,0 +want sex want girl see cock want look vagina want fuck lights off idk im gon do,0 +always boils mental healthin creative endeavors one thing stopping progressing learning always mental health stops exploring sooo many new things try fix worse gets fuck fix mental health fail fucking everything life,1 +feel like ive done much damage world peoplei really actively try good person amend ways help people make things right time think im past point type redemption ampxb reflecting past realize multiple instances someway abusive drunk creep going consent best way allowing emotions cloud judgement relationships end asshole every person ive felt like ive wronged ive reached theyve seemed forgiving or know talking about cant shake deserve lying everyone everyone love everyone loves me ampxb ive trying get therapisthelp town hard get one feel like im end rope world would better without,1 +stuck please helpi go pretty good college nyc everyone hs shocked got proud felt like years suffering hometown finally something good coming gonna prove everyone shit wrong hope keep going school hope id successful torture teasing matter future im junior whos behind credits depression got bad could never go class failed solid friend group genuinely feel like people hang want around gained like lbs since hs try binge eat suicidal thoughts away suck almost classes the one thing good language course got super hard nowhere geared towards people already speak home see point anymore school would take grades tried transfer plus makes sense go worse school cant drop since cant even get job current resume says im good school means id get nowhere drop unemployed came hopes finally feel good become something fucked everything years past point fixing it like universe telling end now want hurt family best friend back home im stuck ending continuing path nothingness sake people care about feel want hurt cant keep going everyone else myself,1 +reposting people awake get feedback humanity settled planet near future planet longer distance sun cant rely solar power slowly mine planet resources flooding atmosphere carbon dioxide keep people leaving planet corporations sign contracts employees promising big land wealth family couple generations down people invent biomekanical beings help work lighter air squid like creatures called carbon scrubbers sent sky eat carbon produce oxygen soon enough everyone starts using biomekanical machines machines need keep atmosphere breathable people needed stay longer perpetuating cycle endless slavery class separation encouraged hint plan slavery people become content knowing machines keeping alive keeping imprisoned,0 +better way get attention say ill wait repeatedly stop talking mean nothing less mushroom cloud stop us quickly,0 +common deal it want apologize make things right things person probably forgot super insignificant want actions hard assume people find jerk theyll hate ill outcast pariah ,1 +best friend years cut completely friends since th grade th recently told girlfriend goes school he moved away recently helping deal stress close everyone always thought dating best friend cant even text bc blocked me canged ps name match could call fruit bowl even texted saying could still talk cant friends like used to yesterday talking friend sister goes she still wont admit likes adam almost started crying bc explain hes even friends anymore go back school tomorrow friends ask im gonna cry idk feel like something cause leave me need new guy best friend,0 +still quite sure tell feel worried ruining friendship saved life wish feel way honestly frustrated vent here started developing feelings girl talked suicide,1 +might im still drinking fanta eating ms cant stop me,0 +according google prostate cancer im girl dang wish luck,0 +execute emergency planthings gotten rather difficult lately hurts much family poking mental weaknesses seem know best seem enjoy seeing worst gun owner makes moments brokenness like especially hard get through heart heavy tired mind clouded im thankful thought clearly enough execute emergency plan hopped car dog drove drive jesus window parked car listening metal wondering theres church small prayer area back obviously closed hour parking lot illuminated beautifully peaceful place dont even belong church church matter spot gives sense tranquility moments horrible thoughts cross mind easily could end things home ill sit car longer tempest mind calms bit looking dog passenger seat helps come least first reason move forward keep trying life think ill get plain cheeseburger leave give second reason stay kind yall,1 +sense making plansmaking plans parents leave watch house take care cats even though clearly said want anymore like alone here give advice leave cant go outside anymore people constantly hitting triggers me cannot risk going anywhere public meet people agoraphobia feeling trapped inside house closes chest makes difficult breathe safe place yet also place family caused physical pain violence city live in alcoholism family abuse plan protect myself free myself harm myself contact law enforcement cause harm long pause typing thoughts turning feelings change thoughts say myself reach better feeling thought gratitude list believe everything always working you take nap cant take nap thoughts never stop arm pain someone play hitting comment made assault someone illegal put jail committing clear crime superpower wherewithall abraham hicks spoke come me lack based focus turn attention could be meditate like trying do shut up fuck inner voice debating angel devil shoulder crap friends talk anymore lost temper car got stolen cant get job hopeless lack stuck trapped fear excitement joy cats man love cats tears streaming face year old man love myself protect people violence already done im still hurting it yoga teacher says healing inevitable long pause typing go back time run away home cant get here long pause typing put facebook event invited people come house parents gone im calling upon support one shows again long pause typing hahaha im stupid,1 +ruined husbands life know else dowell title already explained really ampxb unemployed possibly unemployable pregnant first child husband cant stand anymore together ten years cant keep job motivate study stable within time cost husband career chance hopeful future this believe ever forgive me future looks hopeless terrified tomorrow sent emails everywhere practically begging someone employ least contribute little family finances sending numerous applications received little response im scared im scared future husband hates me scared ive trapped miserable marriage could id make would work fulltime could stay home look kids want think children better me better person me occurred could get husband agree life insurance me could insure lot money female ablebodied otherwise healthy something happen maybe husband could fresh start something else never forgive kill myself hes never going forgive anything else ive done either problem im pregnant think baby deserves die really need help,1 +im fat bro thats insult please love things unholy try again much insult over smh head,0 +guys like asian femboys xd please message cool af like asian smooth femboys would awesome see liked lol,0 +got argument aunt want hang dont like family arguments,0 +kinda stupid but good way hide phone camera boring classes,0 +covid doesnt kill mei sure hell willlll,1 +tireddoes post even matter,1 +stop omg literally soon month passes brain forgets bad end refused listen feelings love bombed made feel like gonna together forever made trust him allowed take back love yous whenever wasnt perfect enough him perfect want love cant make peace someone like that theres use trying every time tried ended getting frustrated bc would talk cute girls apologize things shit talk friends im fucked,0 +point seek professional help degreesbasically im hitting low point life lot small hostility breaks much point crying cutting suicidal thoughts probably second time month ive similar breakdown one cut count it want know really seek help professional expect certain sources ive never called redflag hotline know would akward phone,1 +im tiredi dont know anymore ive depressed since im now im tired dont want anymore doesnt get fucking better even think is doesnt last nothing lasts fucking miss dog miss grandparents miss happy hope dont friends close friends mom love her know shed lose killed myself cant her wish could cut brain out forget everything drugs cutting distractions dont help much anymore nothing really,1 +god need estrogen bad wish easy way get ,0 +gf taking break think shes gonna breakup seriously dont know wrong dont know id without past hours ive felt anxious please send good vibes,0 +sure title onei dont care anymore quit job go school wouldnt work school schedule the first time risked anything something myself cant get another decent job im flat fucking broke also drop school dont hope all dont even try job interviews anymore know wont get itive rejected fair amount im anxious fucking time dont want get hopes spiral deeper depression ive become numb go numb bipolar acting fucking symptoms come shit cant kill family shit dont want anymore keep fucking dont want try anymore fucked cant talk dont want bring people know wont help idk let out maybe someone relate,1 +need friends m dm want chat play interestsnot lot know anime pc videogames like apex overwatch csgo others,0 +posting something turn anyways want villain like politician doesnt support rights minority stuff like that mean need real baddy thinking like dude robot army destroy earth even dude could huge love craftian beast bring havoc earth could anything really long posses real threat literally everyone feel like want villain dont know guess want something unite people together something could hate fear want something people whites blacks left right western eastern sitting standing up agree needs cease yeah,0 +think killing everyday tried hard deny literally truth matter good day think alivei constantly immerse art keep thinking it put happy face family get worried face like past triggering none really care like oh wants kill let find leavegossip doi tend isolate friends know struggle this sad calls everyone laughing back mind literally know severe breakdown hour ago feel like fake sometimes want overwhelm people problems shut upi struggle feel empty matter achieve helpful tons self care matter know happiness feel shift minutesi know disorder strong effect draining hurts live hurts even know sometimes often lose interest whatever comes back leaves cycle feels vicious exhausted,1 +inner monologue making worst enemy change itive least passively suicidal past six months bore details life undergone stressful tumultuous changes since last christmas so selfinflicted result spend day every day calling failure even though know thats necessarily case immediate issues since resolved result selfdestructive thought patterns ive going way spend much time possible around people escape myself makes sense know cant go like much longer besides seeing therapist which ive started doing else change thought patterns,1 +testing see finally post inerfuietbvvbeufbvueatbbuihsetiuiuaerbvvbrouerb bvsjkrbvjbjbvrjnjsdlncdk ckajdcjdncwijdncojwrnvrwjvnwkfj ampvnksijeijceowihfrwiueheuytoijtya tytuytyfieownvvbbfnfivhvbnvbaeievborvbbbvwjeoekdkkdjdiefnowdjwlkddiurutoeoowoqqqjalazzslx fnekfn,0 +dont feel like getting everyday anymoreall life felt like nothing ever worked favor wherever applying job getting trying best college still failing im feel like theres potential me feel like im getting anywhere life always feel like odds every situation girlfriend mother know mental health issues theyre always trying help feel better appreciate feel like cant anymore feels like everyone hates friends want model past years ive worked ass trying get discovered nothing ever happens want give already feel like nobody understands feel like im complaining think want end life already,1 +poster ideas old poster recently ripped dad pestering find new one cant find good one suits interests im nintendo fan xbox fan fan things disney star wars marvel included anyone recommend good posters thx,0 +anyone want friend talk maybe chat room im bored need friends maybe even among us,0 +moved back dad help fight cancer mistake hes ruining lifemy relationship dad never amazing worked hard improve moved out relationship mom similar got lot closer passed away things improved lot dad started actually listening say instead lecturing time seemed care life even though different hes interested in got diagnosed cancer hes scared hes angry hes freaking out hes taking me months ago so ive never felt worthless now im honestly ready end life hes torn everything built moving out overcame depression social anxiety regular anxiety panic attacks become functional adult im back pit despair except im also buried credit card debt income im trying get job hard huge gap employment wonderful supportive girlfriend much became angry frustrated ruined things her left blame leaving right thing take herself something could never do im broke years old one nothing going me cant spend another years rebuilding myself im strong enough im tired hurting im tired pain want over want peace care killing would hurt dad hes fuckhead deserves hurt months ago started hoping either cancer would kill hed go remission hes lined another month cycle chemotherapy one knows means fuck me im lost ive lost myself person awful cant live ive become person today deserve anything good im worthless im hateful im angry im asshole hurt people hurt bend backwards take care asshole father owe anything to wish id moved another country money workfromhome job late life future,1 +self post weekend time hello im thomas asexual new zealand hobbies crushing noobs chess jamming guitar playing among us discord pancakelover feel free add wanna make new friend nice conversation life dms also open everyone,0 +gn homies hope die sleep kisses u gn,0 +absolutely desire live several children want liveper subject dont want live see much pain suffering world sure love kids would rather die continue pain endure everyday every fucking day go trough pain existing tried kill year ago found much ventilation garage saw psychologist gave drugs fuck disposition fuck it dont want live,1 +please save meim much pain think losing mind feel depression eating brain want scream hurts even try articulate brain want confront anything hardly left bed weeks use minimal amount information processing possible get by im losing everything im lonely im fucking lonely im scared im lost im detached wtf this fuck this becoming terrified world people im angry insidiously angry disgusting,1 +rapednone friends believed despite giving police info to already felt like shit want die felt way long time accused lying im not really bad way,1 +got trouble principal day told kid wheelchair go walk,0 +dont need relationship survive see many posts dumb girls dumb boys get message everyone stupid smart stay single youre better place coming someone literally never crush someone never thought need desperately everyone portrays it friends probably like better single anyway,0 +wish friend wish loved meim beginning struggle life reality ive struggling long time im years old always afraid grow up child hood wasnt great either fact something would never wish upon anyone parents married years divorced six years old torn two eventually stopped seeing mum years physically emotionally didnt know felt cant remember good times childhood going school wasnt great either never focused failed every exam thrown cant seem focus anything all interests value life dont see enjoyment wake up hoped die sleep every night never happened years old life took huge turn met love life mean knew something right valued life met her enjoyed conversations meeting her spending time her everything together everything mean everything moved together point planned ahead time future seemed pained clear day least thought move din everything great wanted get careers sorted ensure enough money enjoy life threw us october lost job wasnt able provide anymore became severely depressed didnt seek help while finally seemed help put sertaline nothing me didnt say anything stopped taking tried deal problems myself id stay night contemplate life point redflag impact would everyones life march th girlfriend out home myself went bath room wrapped shower cord around neck put something feet ensure would slip possibility going back girlfriend comes home shower knocked out shower cord must broke left went back out broke admitted messaging people behind back meeting them spending nights them ive tried redflag since continue till something works longer happy im product thats past sell date nobody wants me know this friends seem like strangers try talk make jokes try lighten mood cant handle it dont know do maybe last thing ever write is always love woman broke end fed insecuritys led months made feel special wanted made chance didnt always love her,1 +rejected soulmate cause im fucked upwe dated months before im fucked relationship cant even function normally anymore now stopped eating showering brushing teeth changing washing clothes etc time near isolate get close cant miss much wish could something good him im insecure depressed would likely wanna deal shit baggage bringand much sucidal emotional wreck am thinks im normal cause put act front cant hide forever clue hope finds someone actually wants live personality besides depressionanxiety like me,1 +always bit distrust watching british period films usually find insipid boring screenplays such ones of example vanity fair boleyn girl magnificent production design european landscapes thick british accents make movies suggest artistic value really havefortunately excellent film young victoria fall situation deserves enthusiastic recommendation fascinating story excellent performances emily blunt paul bettany jim broadbent costumes locations unexpectedly make movie pretty rich viewand say unexpectedly usually pay much attention detailsbr br victorian era in humble opinion one key points contemporary civilization social aspect also scientific artistic cultural onesbut honestly know origins era much maybe enjoyed simplification political economic events prepared landing modern era muchi also liked way queen victoria portrayed young intelligent monarch whose decisions always good least inspired good intentionsi also found depiction romance victoria prince albert interesting equally interested combination intellects well emotions evokesthe fail found movie screenwriter julian fellowes used clichs romantic cinema love story something feels bit place screenplaybr br i liked young victoria much really took nice surprise iti hope period films follow example movie costumes landscapes work support interesting story replacement it,0 +aced ap calc midterm got ive never gotten score high test takers good luck,0 +anyone think killing feel peacefuli think redflag feel like im wrapped warm blanket cosy happy,1 +life seems closing downi flunked final examinations always nice student parents expect lot me think going get bad grade parents disappointed cant see pain anguish faces decided finish life light life seems disappear slowly getting depressed day day ive stopped eating drastically lost weight still examination left cant concentrate dying better option,1 +crazy unfortunate life ismy luck actually bad like fucking crazy every day something chance happening always negative seems occur im really mind blown always bad stuff unlikely happen never anything make smile even second,1 +guys hit foot dont newd tippy toes go rollercoaster lets go,0 +hate myselfive become ridicule everyone school every time try something serious friends laugh mock it used hand them exclude hang outs privileges slipping away used work concessions stand school incident longer work there every time hear someone mention it want punch something im thinking head collision end all cant go living like,1 +fuck im going play pool billiards feel like calling,0 + last yeari decided upon exact date turn years old next year figure thats good enough run ive made little go long way ive always behind eight ball lot fault still make idiotic mistakes ive become burden loved ones wife says shed devestated im sure tired failure unemployed husbands shenanigans stuck around longer thought would im done next year cant hold anxiety pain longer,1 +nothing live forim burden everybody dont future look forward to im better dead im stupid thinking anybody would ever care me im stupid thinking even second would important anybody dont want kill myself harms way wouldnt step it,1 +results survey go together response no q joe mama good one q funny please joe mama good one response yes q hes cute like well thank aware q more minecraft know talking ive never posted anything minecraft related response no q because stole wife remember whose wife qdont steal wife u moron know talking,0 +emptyi made alt person life knows regular account gives fuck look it ive long frank conversation guess ex gf better part decade feels future together felt way long time trust wanted get close her called getting close maintains im clingy crush boundaries put some creative boundaries constantly seem run afoul them thing is cant enumerate ive trounced them ive trying hard fuck let friend die cancer could look decided quit eating him busy nursing melancholy even thanks understanding viewpoint just nothing feel empty too like suffer more laboring delusion ive carrying mm round pocket months now told threw away may still need it always think using it lately seems remedy pain mind agony body slowly failing heart busted little pieces ive tried nothing left give took offered threw rest trash wish shed tried least front going let wear trying now temptation step back blow top head seems like last option like ive ground down sequestered friends trying something her let think wanted hate feeling stupid thats feel anymore fuck maybe x parabellum clear mind hate leave mess porch shell space,1 +pushed black friend roof immense disappointment not exageratted swagger black teenager crashed car road,0 +joke everyone dissapointment parents friend hate living scared kill myself disgrace,1 +im depressed mood dont depression always feel depressed time time feel sad time emotionless happy person though every time hearing lovelyby billie eilish khalid makes feel depressed like said dont depression im feeling sad let say message people couldnt me feeling depressed depression good day ,0 +great voices lots adventure clever dialogue make good movie addition character three lead animals gives story lot depth meaning particularly relationship older fellow shadow young hellraiser chance earlier versions film unable give animals real personality motive done perfectly here sally field lovable anything really shines film proud feline sassy great contrast cat dog perspectives life right amount spirit warm fuzzies make plot resolution excellent theres even uplifting score beautiful mountain scenery definitely perfect evening alone kids hats disney,0 +look bee ampxb beehttpspreviewredditmikfzknpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafdfbeebbfafdc,0 +dog killed last night almost entire decade trying parents finally let us keep puppy got birthday gift last month neighbours decided keep him english cocker spaniel small sweet first day wouldnt eat couldnt walk thought parvovirus would die luckily separation anxiety course weeks him went silent teeny puppy lil doggo twice size would eat well run around lot generally sweet friendly last night brother took pee like always kglb german shepard must mistook rabbit brother tried run scoop puppy dog got first brother managed wrestle dog late shocking tragic dont know cry never thought would bury puppy constantly pissed floor yesterday brother brave even hesitating take massive dog dont know hurts much cant stop crying want talk someone,0 +ich danke herr hacke fr den filme mein deutsch ist nicht gut enschuldigen siebr br first all know diverse sound istanbul inspite live turkeyfaith akin alexander hacke made different approach turkish musicnarrating performing seeing istanbul istanbul music foreigner aspect given real meaning music itselfbr br in movie found different ourturkish culture is interesting performers are much respect deserve unfortunately one able serve kind documentary before,0 +anybody wanna play xbox pretty bored last days wondering anybody wanted play xbox gamertag thoughtified got cod modern warfare rainbow six siege red dead redemption dark souls honor minecraft sea thieves shoot dm reddit xbox wanna play,0 +discussion recently this see ideation thinking suicide escape tendency inhibition make plan anyone know better terminology thoughts feel like struggled ideation two decades point suicide ideation vs suicidal tendencies,1 +begotten one unique films ive ever seen more me study sound light dark movement real story type thing see video instillation museum modern art film enjoyed local theater im going try interpret images mother nature beasts cloaks twisted tortured body child things defy interpretation,0 +frick anxiety frick anxiety frick anxiety god hate anxiety much literally nothing happening feel like im life death situation im going break floor powerpoint say frick anxiety,0 +god awkward five morning seven havent done shit internet hear out think mightve discharged wet myself im sure maybe im crazy discharged supposed feel like wetting self maybe pee dunno awkward,0 +friend edgehey guys friend bumpy ride past months one premier individuals fast track fame lost everything lost job girlfriend alienated many friends still support mostly stemming mother trapped basement never leaves bed cant even watch tv painful hallucinates regularly become extremely angry every time sees people becomes angry violent thoughts pent anger frustrated situation loss control loss purpose seems like thing anymore text mother horrible things ready die hes made preparations sends constant updates date time plans it stopped listening everything say uses whiteboard vent run horrible thoughts tried every form treatment mother desperate run therapist therapist psychiatrist psychiatrist severe treatment centers around med therapy compliant nothing seems help one seems understand matter drifts madness hospital before blames hospitals much suffering written notes doctors hospitals blaming anguish and mother know call copshave hospitalized know means stop talking us left alone that anger would inspire would threatening mother loss do im loss shared plans theoretically another months guess cant describe threat immediate im feeling little helpless stuck tracking moods know im guess ive seen community reacts looking guidance,1 +losing continue husbands last violent outburstlike title says already brink husband destroyed trust him really know do,1 +dont know doive hoping death since stepfather died about years ago asshole emotionally fucked every second daily life years killed leaving us heap debt year wrecked mother emotionally afraid kill myself maybe mother would follow soon after sincerely hope best want great things raising sister easy task everything seems hopeless desolate everything society life know dying slowly dont see point feeding anyones bank account forcing go college burying family debt ive thoughts often im seeing scenarios dreams im coward terrified pain suffering ive waiting chance get firearm surefire way think of thing im unsure mother,1 +want itim tired ive spent whole life trying make others happy im worthless dont deserve friend ive met wonderful people would fit better wasnt weighing anymore think im gonna start planning today finally stop bother everyone im sorry,1 + destroyed year improving social skills started courage speak everything came entire year hadnt socialized anyone around age entire time spent home feel like social skills destroyed ive lost lot progress start person fall year im screwed dont improve then,0 +really suicidali mean want die long time attempted end backed out made far maybe everyone right im suicidal looking attention mean want die ive never killed really suicidal,1 +deadpool spiderman full fledged battle think would win think deadpool would tire spiderman win yall think,0 +tired living it feels like burden told partner thinking caring help realize perhaps time move on want disappear,1 +horny af guy brown hair brown eyes football player girls wanna come sext,0 +im girl getting bored one chat,0 +whats pointwhat point living keep going every day dont want anymore dont see anymore imagine future doesnt bring joy makes dread living hundreds days imagine used dream job could care less anymore hobbies mean nothing me weeks behind schoolwork finals starting monday dont see point anymore everything feels miserable,1 +hey guys gals nob binary pals got back watering plants miss,0 +get girlfriend skin dull asf skin dull asf dark circles still get girlfriend,0 +movie based true story christopher boyce friend daunton lee fascinating story takes place around time whitlam dismissal time clerk trw christopher privy classified correspondence admitted cias involvement australian political union circles movie shows several scenes involving gough whitlam transmitted us tv events take place confirm classified documents christopher read previously removal gough whitlam organized cia coup elsewhere film mentioned people idea level deception goes on ultimately ensure us used vehicle promote certain policies behest everyone else current age nothing changedbr br christophers life profoundly affected read shocked knowledge cia shapes foreign democracies including democracies allied nations united states christopher reacted probably best way time selling top secret information soviet union daunton lee acting exchange eventually christopher daunton captured convicted treasonbr br on rd may whilst serving time us prison christopher boyce agreed one interview ray martin minutes australia australian connection profoundly affected him caused furore australian media week went hushedbr br i liked movies symbolism falcon chris called falcon daunton snowman drug connection reality title falcon something used chrisbr br christopher boyce criminal man conscience decidebr br resources httpwwwplayitforwardozcomboycehtml,0 +psa teens america register vote us citizen election register vote check make sure registered eligible vote check friends family members make sure register help register register vote httpswwwusagovregistertovote check voter registration httpswwwusagovconfirmvoterregistration,0 +stem degree really great idea came across video discusses issues stem education httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvyvhnxoasu one issue graduating stem really learn anything cannot learn free via internet one general issue university education typically specialized one field really know working field like assuming get job first place,0 +gets likes literally reinstate austriahungary empire think im kidding everything power make happen,0 +need help anyone want gay ive praying away past three days cant take anymore comment youre interested guess thank time ,0 +homeworks problems a b a b c d e f a b c d a b c a b c d e f g h i,0 +meim mentally unstable terrible memory problems manipulative abusive narcissistic mother constantly embarass pay attention conversations cant even handle talking doctors therapists want help me fuck every single conversation up doctor thinks im faking symptoms get medication im fucking failiure deserve die die laundry detergent powder box please tell want live anymore constantly suffering belong around people mg tablets xanax lexapro take make painless please tell,1 +friend confessed constant visions hanging himselfhe recently failed college rd year architecture rough time drop out consistently told feels inadequate worthy architect failed out hes taking way hard everyone needs formally trained hes actually quite talented bad managing projects due told tonight considering killing himself told extremely upset not that think anything else find good therapist soon please help ive never used subreddit hope help cant sleep thinking die,1 +researching susan harrison the ballerina reference bonanza episode reminded gembr br this episode inspiration dylans all along watch tower hendrixs cover probably well know one best one bestbr br thus episode responsible several bests bad approximately minutes televisionbr br but the twilight zone comment series unnecessarybr br characters typical serling intense dramatic barreling toward end inevitable hindsight surprising first time see itbr br this episode spoiled one sentence good spoil seen itbr br but feel ambushed never listen hendrix ears again,0 +tired struggling mental health always seems like searching help receiving it nothing world makes want live anymore really want kill myself angry forced born emotionally neglected sexually abused child still living trauma extremely hard forced live person abused desperately searching therapists work trauma insurance helping pay it cannot afford pay ot pocket get help need heal shit happened know end life would rather die million times forced live evil worldthe thought going sleep never waking life blessing unlike other life misery,1 +mom jokes correct time rteenagers realised people making jokes go appreciation your mom called mom fat prevent mom dont understood pleasure explanation joking my,0 +feel like ever able escape thishi im mess ive always mess really became mess long time ago mother literally abandoned us came back reason bit left forever absolutely contact mother like people mother recently partner im suspecting narcissist discarded horrible state depression little month ago still feel horrible cant bring go nc even worse struggle ocd ocd narcissistic abuse mix well obsess narcissist myself caused this horrible person obsess people love hating me think much anybody ever loved loves now friends one talk deals issues want add theirs friends busy stuff theyve helped lot feel good enough anybody guess also mention father think going downward spiral ever since mother left ive forced endure feel much family really evil narcissist it feel hindered much feel trapped here time ive brought mental health downplayed father also busy working feel connected father really know anything me anytime ive tried open up seems dismiss me want escape cant know im going fail senior year im never job car much way social skills either feel like creep people out ill forced stay home never able succeed life escape go college pursue want do even think id good enough it feel like piece shit horrible person someone here feel like everybody agree me probably sound like egotistical bag shit cant even fully convey feel here cant even kill means to far know maybe im overreacting im sorry everyone everything,1 +switches bi ppl domsub world im double bi,0 +lets get spooky spoooktoberif guess im little excited halloween love halloween especially spooky soundshttpsiredditlczuldszfrjpg strange vives,0 +aight ualexmaestro made new gif boy snoo gone go,0 +still depressed hard recount deep lows got point would lay bed eat weight eventually differentiation tasks like eating jogging watching tv became laying bed anything else not laying beddid care dressed shoes drove around goal paid bill pure apathy care was long dying oknothing made upset getting point care hair looked awful killing it care looking bad comfortable feel nothing worries would ever bother leavebut end year looked mirror lbs overweight friends hobbies aspirations nothing recognize myself entire year felt like one long day laying bed anybody get point things could say none matters anymore,1 +shawshank godfather pulp fiction good films great films nothing mean nothing lives greatest christmas movie all santa clausbr br the film great many messages cried watching it seriously one movies need watch times see pitch get told eat ice cream see sadness eyes feel deep sorrow wonder bad ice cream implying humans treating ice cream good make us evil think movie makes thinkbr br this movie best rendition santa claus ever unlike santas normal person see imprisoning children spying kids dreams wonder santa believe really good also santa actually mentions christ whole meaning behind christmasbr br you owe watch cinematic masterpiece stop making movies air nothing epic whether christmas not movie gets whoever says movie bad ignorant fool,0 +desperate anything help mei used hopeful shell myself feel hollowness inside body disgustingly strong disconnect world tried make feel urges less spending time mother grandmother apathetic everything relationships slipping away concept future think belong planet ive therapy long depressive episodes keep getting severe want keep going pain feel like losing myself anxious depressive fearful become anything useful taken care me want hurt id lying act like burden dead weight keeps able live want wish family could better daughter me sorry them want better willing try anything pay everyone back burdens created know keep though,1 +wish strength end now alli cant ever anything right feel empty hopeless im exhausted see another day cant see point living everything hurts pain going inevitably grow much more loneliness strangling me darkness clouding heart soul dont feel anything light within put out ever feel true happiness thoughts death accompany everywhere go door leave plane earth here could leave see whats side maybe death next great adventure guts now time comes again time ill ready say goodbye,1 +cant help sorry vent makes sense im ruminatingi cant help myself cant convince want get better just always hopeless nothings going get better living never me know people enjoy it something wired wrong birth develop properly now like this fixed inflexible maladaptive way perceivereact world personality disorders pretty bad prognosis avoidant personality disorder least tends life ive read asked psychiatrist pds passing said actually relatively treatable half get better w treatment something along lines though talking bpd nice hear guess but ha really help hearing way offhanded way psychiatristsnurses talk patients pd behind backs mention multiple lectures weve theyve pretty pessimistic it sat there kept mouth shut thinking well yeah guess knew fucked even this hate it cant kill myself keep telling to logical thing do end it end it cant it humans die easy overdoses especially think im neurotic actually formulate plan method foolproof course main issue know theres lot hope technically all bad could lot worse could still enjoy shit cant talk it comes it cant talk trying feel better either every moment im dead want be me coward shirks away idea im brink really something,1 +george armstrong custer known history inept general led rgiment death battle little big horn they died boots on paints different picture general custer movie portrayed flamboyant soldier whose mistakes misdeeds mostly ue love adventurebr br errol flynn plays george armstrong custer first meet confident recruit west point custer quickily distinguishes cadets beeing poor student always seems trouble somehow never appears bother custer seems confuse genuinely know gets predicaments spite poor standing eventualy graduates becomes officer united states army error custer receives promotion rank corrected leads union regiment battle confederates campaign successful custer becomes unlikely national hero custer returns hometown marries sweetheart libby played olivia de havilland libby supportive understanding wife steadfastly stays side follows frontier assumes leadership seventh regiment cavalry custer becomes man honor strives keep peace native americans prove intentions enters treaty crazy horse leader sioux treaty jeopardized conspiracy spread false rumor gold found black hills custer sacrifices life well lives men command prevent slaughter thousands innocent settlersbr br errol flynn dominates scene appears successfully portrays custer flamboyant arrogant romantic funny depending mood scene olivia de havillands depiction libby bacon custer love life lets us see tender gentle side chemistry dehavilland flynn acted together several movies smooth almost makes viewer feel like playing parts custer wife actors portrayals characters truly enhance performances flynn de havilland anthony quinn crazy horse sidney greenstreet general winfield scott arthur kennedy edward sharp among actors whose roles made movie entertainingbr br the reviewer would rate star movie historically accurate entertaining movie little bit everything adventure comedy romance appeals large variety audiences casting characters excellent actors give believable performances makes forget largely based fiction instead fact reviewer especially likes native americans shown bad guys showed wanting protect sacred landbr br ,0 +film student one thinking becoming one name battleship potemkin resonance sergei eistenstein like silentfilm pioneers like griffith although eisensteins innovations commonplace griffiths murnau impact history cinema course taken granted reason bring film student part point whether like not film professor times show odessa stairs sequence film hard say even best part films several sequences dealing at time current times russian revolution leave impact seen many films showcasing suspense plain montage the untouchables climax comes mindbr br montage eistensteins knack also lifes blood early career often misused present cinema misused improper context story sometimes montage used another device get point point b montage something else eisenstein trying communicate direct way could urgency passions ultimate tragedies russian people time place even one see eisensteins narrative traditional story ideas much grounding kubrick said this one cant deny power seeing ships arriving harbor people stairs soldiers coming every way guns may find hard believe done s power like passion joan arc overpass time remain importance terms technique emotionbr br of course one could go books which written hundreds times over least eisenstein himself film itself battleship potemkin really like dramatized newsreel specific story movie first segment also one great sequences film mutiny plotted captain headups certain ship detailed almost manipulative way somehow extremely effective montage used well spurts energy capture eye times eisenstein content let images speak themselves soldiers grow weary without food water one directors try get sides story is course much early th century russian nothing else honest sees themes style wins endbr br some may want check outside filmschool stairs sequence like one landmarks severe tragedy film displaying ugly side revolution eisenstein may one accessible silentfilm directors montage detail frame nonactors bolshevik themes cup tea truly one must sees lifetime,0 +looking unity game developer artist project were group ish people starting work game were little short devs artists interested private message ill get discord link,0 +getting depressed every day slept hours today getting worse want help legitimately unable bring tell mom wanting tell month bring tell her sure would super compassionate like time tell cannot freeze pretend fine do selfdiagnosed depression,1 +im done goodbyereddit made realize im selfish idiot ill never contribute society whats point living im burden everyone know goodbye,1 +cant go oni want die know right thing im tired feeling bad empty day embarrassign open psychologist want stop bothering people around me really see happiness future made plan kill long ago kept hoping thing would get better everything worse im tired feeling way really want die post here people try stop you man idk anything point want bother anyone know irl,1 +answers test c forensic science teacher gave us form fill our deciding whether pieces evidence class individual aka piece evidence point towards one person group people swear god im next murder suspect yknow why goddamn teacher didnt ask single question answer would individual class evidence thats like giving final exam correct answers c all answers same make doubt like that know im right theres little voice head tells maybe im going insane,0 +brother broke electric toothbrush used masturbating fml need replacement brush,0 + stay chin hurts trying sleep ill get hours think,0 +something say one entirely unproblematic instead spending energy bringing peoples past mistakes obviously learned dont anymore could make feel like youve made world better place maybe try spreading actual positivity want bring someone maybe think good things done instead bad instead bringing someone could help show much good done like brendon urie example yeah said bad things past notice never said anything like again brendon urie also done many amazing things donated m dollars lgbtq charity puts amazing advice help people struggling brendon also talks mental health fans cares people calling racist homophobic isnt that redirected funds highest hopes foundation blm foundations pansexual helps fellow lgbtq members thank coming ted talk,0 +im done thisi cant survive anymore im stressed out live fucking parents im almost certain likes pet me friends im debt help pay bills using money jobs leaves barely enough get gas month wish could die already worry anything anymore fucking sucks cant anymore,1 +snorted tea tree oil sounds like shower tea tree face wash fucking great fucking intense wonder got idea tea tree oil face equates good using face wash inhaled nose wrong moment went stream potent frio flamas shit took train left nasal passage burned like fucking hell holy shit minutes later eyes nose new nasty vomit flavor feeling hurts like shit ugh sticking pinkie length ticonderoga smeller exhaling hard absolutely nothing snorting shower water honking like goose seconds later anything please help burns exaggerating anything pray,0 +sadim really sad dont good reason pathetic feel guilty talking im really really sad ending looks much easier know,1 +im im best cs bs always get yelled bad grade matter hard try matter study hours cant stop getting bad grades get yelled things get taken away sister annoying whatever dog im responsible dont want live like th grade college,1 +byeafter months going doctor taking several different antidepressants counselling seeing psychiatrist waiting something happen know getting ive thinking while im ready now idea dying scary anymore lot left antidepressant pills stopped taking them ive got lots different kinds think im going take lot different ones hopefully kill night time now hope live see sun come up bye,1 +missed shotgun last nightat last second moved firing idk didnt hit myself put hole ceiling wife left me need help im calling psychiatrist today,1 +ive failed im years old ive married second wife eight years cant make love more think im love more beautiful amazing woman least eyes loves much makes feel like monster whenever try confront admit way feel im holding back finding someone truly love without reservation ive unemployed since july going go back school wife finally gotten new job paid well discussed situation decided take opportunity improve could get better job build better future us quit factory job destroying mentally physically enrolled local college set begin classes next semester got fired fourth job lost two years thought one would different since actually used degree helped get instead drop classes start looking job again middle aged ged student seems like higher education something ive wasted chance getting place hiring story everywhere blah blah blah years old retail manufacturing experience skills singing acting nether pay bills im applying anything see qualify pays hr nothing know could walk back last job know strong enough survive another month literally am penniless uneducated side homelessness marriage otherwise good woman cant stay employed loves me love less day though know lucky someone loves me much fool id throw away cant love perform living im officially qualified land decent job let alone career also unable gain education id need change that tldr im tired im tired time cant seem improve life matter do ill never retire ill work shit jobs die young im failure im monster im enriching exactly lives continuing exist,1 +leave nephewniece personal memorytoday middle preparations ultimate day got news brother going child since im never going meet himher leave personal memory something would allow himher know little bit me,1 +worst still trying hold onthe heaviness settling in eyelids heavyonly sleep wanted body heavy acheyeven smallest movement considerable effort mind heavy perception distorted motivation simplest things scarce eating chore ive lost good amount weight physically hurts smile attempts end tears confuses kiddo usually gets bad easier shrug store away past weeks harder getting worse im longer able remain numb ward sadness husband knows something wrong doesnt know help decade feeling helpless understandably hes it kiddo helps keep grounded stay away thoughts guide end pain all lately heaviness making harder mother want her knowing distortion whats making feel like burden everyone completely worthless lighten load,1 +still day got biology teacher use gender reveals example something causes wildfire im pretty proud,0 +became honorary femboy days ago could still post pictures crap posted video onesie another eating icepop talking camera bunch people started calling femboy legit ask meant guess am reason might honorary im actually genderfluid call self femboy tho,0 +dont think ill alive quarantine overtrigger warning csa months ago start quarantine family huge fight uncle called whore junkie loudly front everyone proceeded make lie secretly hard drugs room grandmother despite still love much proceeded back say true lied him left shocked pieces now give context fight triggered nearing th birthday demanded mom privately course uncle present little dinner celebration reason well aware molested around around remember tongue kissing like tv thats said remember took numerous baths together somehow recollection those dont know abuse went past kiss days feel extremely violated wish could remember cant part terrified remembering something awful upon receiving request uncle present birthday mom told learn separate things made little snarky comments front others broke fighting began somehow leading dad yelling top lungs saying dont love anyone parents fighting almost separating as done plenty left feeling completely fault guilty mom said escalated everything might have upset feel like sexual abuse inconvenient everyone like best ignored ever since grandmother uncle havent come visit know mom misses theyre brother mom all even brought recently couple times tell medical procedures whatnot feel like problem stands way everything would much better gone things happened day mentioned before felt like whole family united me feel like root cause all like theres something fundamentally am currently grieving relationship grandmother love much still miss dearly wish could give big hug right tell things time im hurt helped uncle lie order cover abuse wont believe me never apologized made attempts contact either hurts everyday months go im unable anything dont study dont exercise im pretty unbearable around mental health decaying nothing done event anything everyday hate keeping quiet dad comes home drunk another episode ensues mom fighting yelling wont bore details escalated trying push ground two younger siblings bearing witness everything dad saying unable love anyone calling names saying love drama etc in response fact recording whole thing case physical abuse escalated night ended relapsing back old self harm habits clean around year weeks pass pretending nothing happened like everything parents didnt separate per usual say theyll it might sound pretty could witness threats know theyre toxic kids get tired it mom tells happened cause unfaithful ok cut pretty quickly dont want hear it told cheated past i ended feeling guilty like tell dad did slapped across face day turned yes dad took side constantly says im true friend happened anyways brushed off im bringing say problem boundaries also fibromyalgia autoimmune issues ive also made feel guilt years shes recently told shes afraid dying could spread organs im sure feel isnt first time ive told something like this father like her often fall bad habit using problems excuses ive seen attempt redflag twice mustve around saw ambulance take away knew tried do child wasnt sure react think went play friends day unbothered second time different woke go school hear breathing horribly loud room remember came bed middle night crying hugged me cant seem find live anymore said half awake didnt get then mumbled reassurances went back sleep needless say heard breathing heart dropped cpr ambulance came afterwards put intensive care unit induced coma ill never forget seeing tubes nose bloated up laying hospital bed come really close dying so parents throw face sick is hurts like nobody could ever understand bring redflag attempts says im using her fine again lets keep pretending like nothing happened hospitalized redflag attempt went trauma nurses clinic put tube urethra twice mood stabilizers wouldnt let pee bad reaction pretty mean whole thing wanting pee full bladder able torture psychiatrist also went way call manipulative make fun cuts arms im honestly still still trouble peeing today gives little ptsd calm bladder convince body let out today boyfriend two years broke up simply unbearable moody depressed mess sleep time overreact huge fight said im abusive dont get better hes right dont feel manipulative self victimizing even typing following im say but cannot get better cant maybe im meant live yes passing would make people sad ultimately would best common denominator everyone wants stay away fromlash at tried therapy feels pointless ive diagnosed ocd bpd diagnosis well one done current therapist unsure of one feels really accurate times tried treating sense self sadness control like life telling stop trying fault bpd manipulative cant help blame myself love boyfriend want try fix dont want abuser better stay away best friend person really spoke feel truly alone friends rarely talk mostly fault im really bad keeping touch dont think make quarantine phase im getting worse worse dont balls yet hope build eventually maybe another episode happen finally set off maybe longer go without grandmother boyfriend ill finally realize much dont deserve love life myself know cats love nobody dote like do sister love me know will loves enough that even though im pretty crappy sister like everything else dont even know going this feel rotten feel like time go im sorry everyone ive hurt im sorry everything ive caused edits grammar,1 +asked deaf girl date rejected speed light,0 +took klonopini took four klonopin alcohol self harmed im desperate help someone please talk me,1 +anyone think way whenever feel utterly defeated sad which often always think someone else going worse stop bitch pick dont let brain push around get intrusive thoughts tics tourettes life constant thats im gonna say know mean always remember theres someone worse,0 +really hoping someone might insight me couple years ago f befriended one colleagues m working small company also hemorrhaging cash eventually him older coworkers open space office anyway really got along would lunches text evenings weekends often go pub work,0 +lived ontario whole life town marlene moore grew in ive heard stories parents grandparents family members found would filming movie her beginning would shot street house quite close mine excitedbr br if read book rock bye baby marlene moore get quite different image person considered awkwardly beautiful people really chance know exception family frequently abused child exception one brothers also live area intelligent enough listen around knew school find truly wounded even set foot institution always defensive would seem like unwillingness learn school environment actually embarrassment fact unable tobr br marlene deserve life given lack help desperately needed receive government people around aided death attempting understand needs did still find angered put jail selfdefense man tried rape her brother said they know locked away killed her believe heartbr br rest peace marlene deserve much,0 +dont tell cops hacked pp im going give awkward boners worst times still applies girl im powerful,0 +im ready gonot sure im waiting for really need make attempt,1 +still alive convinced going die sti got distracted night someone needed money distracted making sure okay missed deadline lot things happened since dont want talk also delayed it want guys know im done delaying more im killing tonight fail ill try straight tomorrow rather wait week bye reddit,1 +feel like end vacationthe last two months total hell me ive lowest many years ive never felt level stress anxiety depression anger never feel good matter stimulants helps im going big camping trip tomorrow seeing family havent seen bit im hoping ill feel better doubt thatll true im thinking ill try enjoy trip much possible end high note possible id feel terrible parents doubt many would care dont want deal constant self loathing anxiety everything do dont want obsess ex constantly leading toying me saying well try get back together loves goes around fucking random guys dont want worry getting fulls im going university afterwards im tired dragging along people im tired sick life,1 +things slow burn many things overlapped one another pushed finished phd im worn looking it ive realized psychological symptoms redflag display closely aligned racismspecific redflag ive psychotherapy im sure therapist adequately prepared identify it know certain redflag want begin healing im done grad school wherehow start,1 +exclusively comment life lives many say life fair yet part want think is one cope pain one pain much them discuss moral standpoint answer clear existence causes someone suffering ending existence humane course action put pets terminal illnesses cannot cured yet human being suddenly longer case humane course action commit person extensive grueling mental training decrepit underfunded system hopes may change mindset teaches put it improving quality life therefore essentially incurable illness option treatment however someone goes treatment little improvement still believe life worth ending anybody else stop them cruel try keep pushing back mental health system best interest yet deem morally acceptable go far expect people report worrisome behavior professionals people forced treatment existence pain many pain great bear people right end life free stigma resistance society establishment impose mental health system twice hospital personal therapy seen little improvement quality life change mindset tells something take mind issue instead confronting trying solve it cannot deal pain longer logically solution suicide yet time begin set plan get caught frustrates hell people refuse let want life existence pain,1 + know young much shit happened nothing dealing temporary got bunch pills idk else cannot anymore,1 +me want crack skull open big rock fucking badly normal people beach fun sea sandcastles waves excitement,1 +stuck pit foreverim stuck cant seem help myself wanna die cant either fuck im stuck really stuck honestly dont even want get better anymore ill always fall back pit whats point getting accustomed seeing others lead lives waste mine away day day hour hour stuck pit,1 +god bet youre disappointed right nowive started selfharming again thought would never back here nope what years naught cutting chest time round wish didnt stab myself wish could kid again nope gonna happen gonna feel childhood love ever again sound privileged mean really least good was it childhood god dont mean sound weird dont care cant held mothers arms again cant dad lift high shoulders narrate see blessed moments beginning lose sight ive lost ive started conceding reasons want die instead replacing selfloathing help,1 +fucking math fuck math diagnostic today,0 +point lifelove money social status job,1 +abused botched suicidalwas sexually abused family friend age fought hard overcome depression ptsd recovered became strongest happiest ive ever been decided cosmetic procedure badly botched dont even look like deforming scar center face lost job moved home parents me pain way difficult get abused im wearing trauma face everybody see least could put happy face pretend like everything okay could even fun spend time bed crying thinking redflag im terrified feel worthless,1 +real pain talking girl like earlier said see movie sometime hours later texting told couldnt together friend my ex yeah girl ask reject day,0 +life worth losingim articulate please forgive me braindamaging psychiatric drugs specifically chlorpromazine neuroleptics forced upon child moodiness moodiness caused daily physical emotional abuse poverty shrinks love pathologize everything cannot tolerate social situations even around extended family trigger panic attack withdrew school sixth grade mother claimed homeschool status bullshit though continued learning web sat passed new ged battery may collegeready designation transcript yet find employer willing interview me ive submitted thirty job applications and followedup phone calls poverty abuse aspergers syndrome tarnished hope better future nineteen year old feel like fing leech living grandparents thank reading rant truly appreciate time,1 +matterno ones going miss me reason hang anymore im worthless life pointless idea im posting here cant anymore,1 +m decided deadlinenow deadline im rn turn september things dont change kill day turn year three months things get better not say truly gave,1 +son typing difficult me son bright cheerful kid never thought would dealing this automatically default theory lying trying attention want wrong little back ground know relevant want make sure telling whole story anyone reading give honest opinion sons mother high school sweethearts split shortly high school started seeing people two years later single produced little boy together time went knowing would make best it go well got pregnant talked relationship bit clear going able make work son born moved tried them ex made life living hell fast forward years married children ex mostly communicates wife rarely talk two weeks ago son cousins house playing video games something happens game gets frustrated slams controller resulting broken remote uncle tells since enough controllers everyone play sit out uncle leaves room minutes later brother hears kids screaming runs back find son wrapped belt around neck pulling tightly defusing situation brother calls ex explains us happened sons reasoning feels made many mistakes life tired failing thing kid never gets trouble ab student plays football extremely respectful well spoken gets compliments everywhere goes end conversation agree best bring professional let talk someone tell son ask keep us do well goes school tells friends tried commit redflag weekend course prompts call school asked bring back school talked someone monday week ago first appointment dr called us back son sit together room asked series questions answered taking test knew answers clear truthful end appointment clears go back school schedules followup visit another dr office upon returning school son starts talking friends whats going on also tell one teachers happening go talk dr comfortable truthful dr mother decided try take sort action restricted access video games try ensure spending time around family members rather alone room playing games also though would sort incentive get better saw change throughout week went second appointment yesterday mother took appointment ended dr telling needed bring childrens hospital admitted tested done yet neither us believe telling drs nd dr asked lied st dr admitted portion questions st dr asked anything life would like change sons answer lie originally told first dr nothing wanted change questioned nd dr admitted moms house would like milk time play little sister also said house wanted step brother nicer him longer wanted come house thursdays which part custody agreement brings us today loss sure go here mother feel reacted broke controller point feels comes clean trouble want tell want feel like calling liar trying supportive worried seeing attention positive attention driving keep story point stuck advice anyone knows anything offer advice would appreciate it edit update school called wednesday asked return school actually goes hospital gets clean bill health much debate feeling like failing mother brought yesterday committed him im dying inside essentially took son know good feel like complete failure feel protect him kind numb know brought er dr spoke privately im sure told dr warranted action signed pec point take home even wanted to last night first night get call cst check him nurse checked said average stay days failed,1 +really hate sub nonetheless am scrolling sub maybe im looking stupid people,0 +throwback one time felt kinda happy looked cause one girl liked emphasise ,0 +need money fuck lifemy kids dont even know me sure even know exist years old new dad ever able to coming end im dead end go got nothing literally basket clothes box full miscalanous shit money car job house im miles away family members dad wants live life woman dont blame him honestly point better dead ive fucked life im grand debt child support grand liscense owe credit cards combined amount grand owe bank k im fucked money literally way solve problems want able pay family put nice house nice car want able sit worry im gonna pay bills pay things wanna able sit back relax financial problems thats going happen means changing it im fucking pussy kill myself option try rob bank go prison,1 +moved young life experiences man rose high academic world hard life surrounded love close family extended family companion workers created person able succeed world part hispanic culture shown always observed admired hardworking optimistic truly family oriented points religious superstition quite authentic catholic church without doubtthe actress played mother deserves academy award prayers missing son moved tears recommend stunningly thoughtful film friends family,0 +thinkeri feel like might petty others keep thinking life late i amazing gf back broke mutual terms going alot text broke still friends kind added depression job well fun went hell feel tho friends family far close use hang one bestfreinds would tell give face aggg sorry thinking much shows facewhat im saying feel like would easier end day day think impact would ppl around,1 +im girl definitely fact check profile definitely masculine features,0 +production quite surprise me absolutely love obscure early s movies prepared last minutes story if chance convinced first half hang finale course must look blatant racism purely topical fascinating viewing experience think cats paw available videodvd yet watch pbs listings,0 +last night going try overdose took sleeping pills playing minecraft crying bunch eventually told friends said going call police took definitely would killed at least think anyway said would call police long made throw up did went bed sometime middle night woke up super super super dizzy tired could sleep arms also felt really weird kept move usually punching air one point decided going watch youtube could even remember typing things it really weird yeah like th unsuccessful attempt honestly think done trying sucks got love unsuccessful attempts,1 +sleep offjust fucking sleep off least u get peace hours ,1 +mild chest pain days ago posted loss taste smell although seems better morning awoke bit chest pain intolerable still breath fine ive mild symptoms far past days something worry about,0 +im bad place halfway across country know anyone stuck till monday someones sick hurtful gamei may survive night fuck someone,1 +movie must people enjoy soccer art strikes first movie soccer world cup way filmed besides following play like tv broadcast generous footage dedicated follow individual players games brings forward emotions situations men go attempt reach glory todays tv broadcasting style different still inferior quality compared moviebr br the players stars audience referees journalists covering matches environment play central role development today history movie see factors play together explicit way regard todays tv broadcasting style yet reached level quality although much closer beforebr br there several highlighted players maradona argentina elkjaer laudrup denmark francescoli uruguay platini france lineker england rummenigge germany butragueo spain socrates brazil sanchez mexicobr br this movie collection best soccer moves mexico although well covered across movie stress presenting several aspects game competition based progress players teams even cost skipping relevant plays games themselves makes movie interesting uniquebr br because happened referees mexico much comments movie world cup extremely maradonabiased much comments take account referee two linesmen human players abovementioned make mistakes one way other soccer rules allow referees use tv based replays make decisions part referees decide perceive consequence referees play active part development game influence seen several parts moviebr br the sequel movie world cup compared one source bitter disappointment much comes fact became involved game whereas movie tells things distant unbiased point view,0 +sometimes call fight mode extensive martial arts background turned negative adrenalized states inward depressive vulnerability external physical reactivity describe feeling like im fight physiologically though sitting still trying sleep loss fine motor skills hypervigilance scanning surroundings people hit hit back could stretching feel like fight response opposed old flight freeze response effected even emotional aspects attacks,1 +im asshole deserve diethis throwaway know neckbeards unattractive toxic views women thay filled hypocrisy ones reddit constantly denounces im one guys comment it though let resentment towards others boil inside me look perfectly nice men attractive girlfriends resent girlfriend dont attracted instead me look places like rgonewild resent women sexy men wrapped around finger getting attention want im incredibly unattractive get nothing im unjustifiably furious promiscuous women jerking time even get angry lesbians theres way could attracted me again judging criteria every woman lesbian claim laid back liberal kind guy reality im backwards filled resentment everything everyone similarly act tough cool act always time cant even pull act off even get mad like me make derogatory comments towards women deserve them cant keep fucking mouths shut like let rage simmer inside them least keep toxicity myself whatever us born attractive women get attention opposite sex want us born ugly bitter men contribute anything society hate others dont im asshole deserve live know it lot tell one going read care anyway whats point women rredflagwatch im sorry ive made lives worse hope enjoy life spite me,1 +woke nap actually good sleep woke face flat pillow hands numband drooling,0 +watching bob ross brings back memories im rewatching joy painting bob ross bringing back memories bob ross joy painting best,0 +think timeno long lifestory blog post ive depressed suicidal several years and possibly going insane ive heard every story every anecdote every piece advice nothing touched me dropping slight possibility theres something worth living for,1 +movie cable sporadically never really watched it thinking would similar bruce willis film n america usual trite story american freedom etc not much morebr br of course martin sheen excellent i never seen movie loved even script bad talented kathy bates overbearing mom great job real surprise emilio estevez always greatest films also directed movie please stereotype breakfast club movie much better this wish would noncommercial atypical hollywood moviesbr br the film realistic see emilio home vietnam thanksgiving kimberly williams passable sister feels disgraced embarrassed returning soldier brother quite alienated family and especially time us history story relevantbr br i learned great deal posttraumatic stress genuinely empathize character violent journalistic portrayal like platoon example character study leaves us even intrigued concerned effects war especially one considers young age soldiers victims todays violence rare movie causes one genuinely feel sad shed tear it deserves recognition,0 +ur one ticket get questions answered yo boomer ask away,0 +number four three yearsive tried three times time seem still existence life gets worse worse time ten years give take people claim love lying me telling mind ie gaslighting ive spent ten years hoping someone end me lone mugger passing end me used dreams know people seem think level abuse ok anyone suffer through theres always worse get least recognized inhuman get people asking done improve things well talked people ive even told voices head lies could use smooth things over created stories get along ive wanted able honest relationships around me now even body brain nueropragramming family lost me know ill ever get chance open conversation family members tell much mean me even failed every turn least knew loved me pay women closest thing honest relationship therapist eight years recognize ideas reference asked one one question eight years triggering event first time break hes never shown interest things people say me yet im pretty sure knows side story eight years think knows side story ive raped least twice friends family gaslight me think family to forced it course made promises live them probably not think theyd want hear side story since ive never told cant lived side bargain people spreading story ive seen emails mine edited know lying cant prove it cant prove anything ie gaslighting ive people put shit drinks food take money pockets steal clothes fun mess anything everything know why would anyone someone seriously would anyone spend time this whoever took body get lived body get want new one know eleven years indignity upon idnigity ill never know why hardest part knowing one even know know disapear much left unsaid one even know know thoroughly convinced people side story one know theres reason believe ever tell side story theres reason believe ill honest loving relationship for personality ive told people personality takes black out cant tell people side know story is know theres reason me miss mom dad miss much know feel way human anymore know screwed programming much may know that cant without someone,1 +one ever love againhe left much prettier girl boss let go job failure social skills never looked pretty theres way ill ever attract anyone again theres point eating anymore theres point sleeping exercising hanging anyone gone eventually kill myself worthless person loved like gone im good enough,1 +long dayhey guys rough day me feels like cant control anymore im scared im becoming feel powerless change it anyways really could use company tonight,1 +used think isolating people seems like ever people isolating mewhyespecially worst times feel like always people worst never memakes wonder even reach outmakes wonder even try drifting away,1 +another unreasonable waveif check previous post live decent life things bad outside perspective heres selfish perspective ill never happy sure sometimes months go feel great feeling like blood turned lead keeps coming back over particularly think future todays cake walk went second attempt getting masters program deserve it everyone else denying fact would insult hard effort point never get angry anyone makes second interview wonder going another year trying one last time worth it know school one sure fire ways getting work field im aiming for theres support sincerity take time care listen everyone around me one ever shows consideration logically know im lucky country make attempt trying go love fear life every day grow knowledge things start fear unhappiness number one fear alone already feel way even though loved ones around me everyone else want fucking get it able find job one three careers ive trained for get cards people time call want work them businesses interest in im active helper encourager concerned anyones general well being even one fucking friend theyre focused work interested friends theyre married well fly back home tomorrow least afraid flying trip back get like this usually care random accident happens want pm can read sticky post said posters offer im usually debater comes this though im sorry come back reasoning opposing reasoning rebuttals confirmation understanding views also understand people want publicly write embarrassing things like cheesy encouragement thanks hearing got far rant,1 +foster families fakei really hate foster family reason want slice throat open fucking hate much want see dead first years life brought pain suffering never ever heard positive affirmation them make feel like im worthless always mentally abusing cant take anymore im verge harming them cant leave company let please someone help im kill care long see corpse maybe way things going,1 +hard ive known girl since ten really like her told liked met know super well were practically siblings want tell like also dont want make relationship wired,0 +trying stay strong know options want throw life awayive long history depression anxiety usually im able push things stabilize enjoy life next wave hits another wave hit weeks ago one hit hard hard enough first time ive taken action woke next spilt bottle pills vodka dry heaved hour calling work sick next two days scared shit me scared enough touched alcohol past two weeks still feel bad day want whatever snapped inside night happen again six months ago started new job knew would challenge opportunity turn down lately barely make show even fill spot desk know made huge mistake feel stomach tighten up thats feel time depression affecting performance makes feel even worse know people noticing want better cant right now im afraid theyll either find someone better ill drive snap again want feel like failure certainly stupid brain know options are keep grinding im afraid ill snap soon leave ill ruin opportunity possible future ones im leaving months unclear reasons want throw career away never want end couple weeks ago either know right now,1 +feel like deathi straight want die right now feeling bad really bad might ok later right feel like death,1 +think life mei never escape negativity constant self hate goes brain terrible anxiety depression cant enjoy life it cant ive increasing anti depressants years im point care anything every day life im weird mood pathetic fallacy describe sound video game makes character dies everywhere real life humid rainy relaxing want take life fear embarrassment friends finding me family everything else im burden world cant death make even worse,1 +pendulum calls itsomethings wrong cant figure tearing relationship amazing person apart emotions seem unstable dont want argue hurt couldnt stop everythings fault always fault im mess think running away im afraid fixing things cause never works im constantly saying things anger make things work just dont know wrong me stupid doubts fears want go away im tired loophole ive made dont think could ever get it want sleep wake one deal anymore,1 +last years sold beautiful condominium foolish use mind time cats got sick one passed away one week later due move new vet killed got sick needed help given taken mental hospital police vet told police going kill upset state lost job became sick still sick trying see ever recover medical condition m trying keep short go details happy want see therapist read watch tv movies need help finding happiness,1 +girl kept calling cutie girl summer camp kept calling cutie always reacted weirdly told stop idk take compliments inside made happy weeks camp miss want call feel happy again,0 +melancholicim sad depressed depth reason know feel this hard alive every day becoming deeply monotonous everyday wake wait night arrive sleep again feeling negativity started arise lately well feel like existence cause negativity around anyone whos happy around feel negative talking me emotions mostly gone numb feel completely empty wishing get enough courageous end myself fear attempt fails stuck body forever saddest part envy happiness around now makes frustrated see others happy might sounding like sadist wish bad anyone looking feel highly envious feel like ever one may suggest interests me whatever find interesting nothing drives me nothing all dull sad melancholic time never knew would happen me happening ive carry every day convince day pass too till keep fooling myself sometimes feels like feelings happiness joy pretended everyone life feels like mass lie told there understand happening blank empty,1 +rented zero day local video store last week never heard film reservations it looking box knew film indie film therefore quality going less mainstream film br br i tell finished watching zero day immediately started beginning again film clearly following basic outline happened columbine high school april struck believable two lead actors were first time watching film entirely sure watching actual tapes left behind shooters columbine back mind knew watching could real time acting convincing keep giving head shake br br is film disturbing absolutely going see things make question merit film probably think people find disturbing actually feelings two lead characters calvin andre played cal robertson andre keuck problematic people calvin andre planning massacre high school know myself felt immense sadness andre calvin empathy lives come horrific point fallen deeply cracks begun journey road could stopped people around taken notice plight br br zero day phenomenal film gives close personal look events us ever see conclusion news leaves thinking lives involved leaves perplexed people get point week seeing film still think itbr br those seen zero day please keep mind following film independent little budget film shot camcorders material film disturbing mainstream hollywood happy ending br br but put aside zero day film stick maybe help open eyes little,0 +mitras wishes hug gt_gt case need feel like know mitras wants happy unless trying murder innocents,0 +feels like overive always struggled depression suicidal thoughts ever since kid shit gotten much worse years usually get bad something always pulls back out think cats sister friends maybe get scared sit right though im drawing blank cant put finger feels like over like finally end it ended three year long relationship preparation it im school friends motivation completely isolated idk feel like meant happen chapter ready end,1 +guys guess took long time finally turned missing assignments time too quarter wednesday,0 +sure kill myselftrump president lesbian woman disabled shit poor relying ssi bother could wait see happens im sure point would be already much hate going on trump gonna get lot things passed make life go shit want blind hopeoptimism want logical intellectual reasoning hell worth stick around dictator ruins life,1 +omg guys im bad im guy im bad dont trust hoe,0 +im sufferinglife difficult think would better others gone want burden anyone anymore also pain too,1 +leave message wake phone die mean wont see till charge morning goodnight ill reply comments also dont leave commenting ages plz,0 +planning end near futureim usually type make harsh decisions due emotions anything like that ive really depressed since child soon afterwards suicidal reason taken action fear hurting family entire life ive struggling life amp myself see failure cant seem improve myself im usually real optimistic lifeenjoying person maybe thats think im trying seem always put happy mask im alone give everyone much love can never myself things ive loved life cant seem enjoy anymore feel pain regret look mirror achieved done life know leaving world leave people devastated would like think make selfish choice ive watched every motivational video therapist etc every thing heardseen told ages ago nothing really helps lowers feeling just quit anyone experienced anything similar amp got better honestly know do,1 +new ability think cant get post nut clarity anymore,0 +accidentally send hot pic guy barely know ex im uncomfortable even dont know irl feel bad hate getting dick pics kind stuff men dont ask it feel like piece shit im panicking alone room,0 +first probably last post redditi going make post morning allowed day mull over depression reached zenith sorts drove around couple weeks ago looking adequate tree hang disastrous appointment new psychiatrist minutes chit chat threatened involuntarily admitted way go doc triggered one worst panic attacks id ever had threatened call sheriff walked out drove around entire day backroads pacific northwest woods found single tree adequate lateral branches all conifers wheres good elm sycamore need one hiv case worker coming pick tomorrow cant seem make see therapist own cant tell pointless go therapist ill passed away end weekend talking therapist also fruitless since ive learned lesson experience psychiatrist trust one inner thoughts people freak fck out redflag prevention efforts boil blood denies dignity death second thought given euthanize pet yet comes humans force life upon without consideration quality inflicted life hiv childhood trauma induced ptsd major depressive disorder point may even aids since stopped taking hiv meds couple months ago stopped meds people hivaids higher chance cancer compromised immunity least dying cancer people would resign idea impending death could meaningful heartfelt goodbyes friends family instead im denied dignity death keep intentions secret lest friends family stage sort redflag prevention intervention far seldom used logging road ill able rest car painlessly poison carbon monoxide vw golf ill able place small hibachi barbeque hatchback area natural real charcoal not briquettes provide source co bottles wine though rarely drink one certainly adequate several types antianxiety medications facilitate calm relaxed state mind regret cant open honest friends family im denied opportunity thank support generosity throughout years struggles deeply disappoints societally imposed shame redflag somehow disgrace death,1 +fuck everythingi fucking hate life hate much everything shit done,1 +sublimity way reach beauty sublimity stuff film made of best loved bogdanovich moviesbr br this unique masterpiece remind us films director life or be about love lost or failure hope faith charity song films takes title gershwins well known composition film makes impossible true tries make us aware noone able judge anybody lightness comedy timing masterful direction the first ten minutes detectives following ladies almost without line dialogue constructed upon looks views characters with bogdanovich touch based pointofview class cinema language something pb learned well admired directors golden age movies superb cast glorious soundtrack including best sinatras trilogy movie full selfconsciousness compassion far away selfindulgence emptiness as critics wrote deserves better place history american cinema placed long style short substance complex simplicity beautiful absolutely beautiful,0 +feel like ill taken seriously thats talk ramblingi tried getting help therapists physicians reddit places one seems able help posted another account ended deleted account got tired seeing this way long comments responses all want feel good every day gets harder harder tried killing laid couch taking half bottle pills felt really weird taking lots pills arms felt odd pressure them also felt light time exception sharp pain every while yet next day woke lots pain lived want try succeed guess killing harder thought im sure do ive tried taking risks investing stock market purchasing lizards spending thousands them nice chunk change college student do feel like one help me want talk phone risk someone hearing live parents want text talk platform want someone cares parents would sad think continue pain also realize odds anyone replying slim last times posted account it cant get help im going selfish a succeed time want feel better please help me done crappy things life asked forgiveness tried making ammends starting believe attempted redflag actually died currently hell believe im real anymore,1 +hi hopelessthis kind long work dead end job car license cant get better job cant drive cant drive cant afford fix car im stuck bullshit cycle im always poor friend always probably always be ive bumming rides friend get college barely enough money pay gas family getting evicted shut gas ive showering boiling water pot using oz wawa cup everything stained yellow cigarette tar smells like parents sexually abused younger cant forget it im tired tiresome dont know much longer live like this theres point anymore ive thinking killing long time ive thought would it where when id listening would wear things stopping burdening people extreme fear pain want rest,1 +almost called helpline overwhelmed breaths got heavier body weak could barely curl up sat inside walkin closet felt like small matter something like that wished human would pick soon dialed in know probably lot worse problem do really guts it constant thoughts random scenarios dyingdealing bot pressing numbers hold darkest moments sucks could wait turned phone cried sleep walkin closet wonder suicide helplines work,1 +found possible solution problemsthis benefit men suicidal women much link comments,1 +jake speed amusing parody indiana jones adventurer films popular eighties wayne crawford stars jake speed adventurer whos always battling evil doers wherever goes assistant desmond floyd dennis christopher globe trot looking action and decent story lines duo meet young woman named margaret karen kopins whos sister kidnapped evil white slaver trader john hurt find convince jake desmond help rescue siblingbr br a sappy cheesy film pretend something not give one recommendation thats enjoy movies like fun take everything face valuebr br recommended,0 +send unwanted dick pics hour ago put post hard time school people mean im trans pan rando guy told hes transphobic thinks end called gay fg sent dicpic confused happens much gotta ask whether hate like dick picks people hate people send dick picks to why call trnny boom dicks waggin screen also send dick pick thats homo im ftm,0 +society causing feelings invalidationwhen im alone really worry feeling insecure weak yknow generally thinking negative get social media fuck post likes everyone else thousands oh no comments criticisms oh no one friend list online delete social media great isolation think sometimes get retarded idea hey im alright person communicate positively people nope something deeply wrong rotten according everyone else im alone worry soon think friends sharing opinions attempting reach out thats fuck up annoys wastes time,1 +quick question emergencyi met boy weve recently become good friends ive noticed statuses facebook instant messenger always sad depressed end story song quotes ive brought him tell it wanted suggestions guys song like sad cheers up relaxing song makes feel like everything alright also im sure keep prodding answers want annoy want know talk me so song friendship suggestions thanks edit know ended year relationship may could it,1 +honest question whats horny posting title says,0 +better die ruined biosphere starts killing us offto billionaires run canada america rest world giving ultimatum cease operations make efforts give wealth property days numbered know are addresses properties distributed locations homes masses learn give wealth good humanity lives earth rest days numbered spent run living fear ampxb ill either dead imprisoned tomorrow this necessary evil capitalism needs die ampxb hanging myself react deadly force towards anyone attempts restrain prevent redflag ampxb cry attention threat back off cure narcissism materialism actually fucking fight world worth living for ampxb im going end life today tomorrow hanging myself psych wards already destroyed life im ready go,1 +im lonely stressedi stuck subjects high school absolutely hate cannot even change them everyday got school feel isolated everyone even though friends stressful year everyone terms studies dont wanna bother friends problems hate every moment school even though parents supportive point even cant anything worst part brother like best friend recently went away college feel like ive lost person could talk to dont anything look forward career friends future dont think reason apart mother would convince live,1 +picked dvd release movie holiday norway released english subtitlesbr br the film beautifully photographed powerfully acted youngster portraying frits lead character astonishingly open face mirrors painful accuracy tragic events unfold around himbr br early film see father frits loves much mental health problems brought brutal headmaster denies assaulting boy suggests fatherbr br the climactic scene frits refuses show respect headmaster simply standing ground repeating liar brutally assaulted front classmates scene likely forgetbr br the films weak point rather clichd flower power teacher uses every friendly teacher trick book feel sure film really enjoy,0 +going get pinned mentally unstable fine it still bullshit pointless fuck running place pain til die cannot think anything rational this bullshit,1 +point killing feels harder coasting along alivei halfassed tried hang almost three weeks ago day ex broke body kept panicking keep alive succeed since ive coasting last years transferring current college first relationship never defined never knew ended blue shaken core ive friends friends high school kinda drifted even though were still living area hang often talk other went two sets roommates made life hell ive living studio last set anxiety living people became bad again another relationship ex emotionally abusive emotionally abusive way always letting know potential physically violent never actually anything me scared leave least months shortly that ended relationship ended seriously thought love life guess unhappy ended breaking heart right one year anniversary whole year relationship delay graduation plans got sick mono month right getting back life best friend killed month th one year anniversary that right two ds hardest time getting classes knows ill even able graduate spring ive depressed since felt like ive coasting life point theres lot changes happening want nothing them job internship prospects school still retail job enjoy it cant live forever im tired feel worthless want cease existing getting body point let go seems like work putting enough effort get by cried entire way home work last night im parents house tonight went see younger brothers high school band concert im spending night spent part day watching mom freak bills im like i want this want it feel like ive seen enough none seems worth it god damn killing hard work,1 +ive started getting commentshow bad multiple people course weeks feel look ready kill yourself looking general answer one specific me,1 +fuck nnn homies hate porn dont really masturbate often,0 +reddit karma reddit karma karmaand idea im sure,0 +almosti put dads gun head pulled trigger first time im disappointed gun empty,1 +richard condies utter maddness insanity cartoon the big snit trip qwerkyness madness hillarity enjoyable backgrounds melting characters conclusion nearly brings happy tears everytime see itbr br this short seen never tire luckily tape broadcast tv never stops make burst laughter uncontrollably reach depths spirit highlighting greatness human condition br br cause someone says come on lets finish game everything alright world troubles face everyday suddenly realise petty fleeting things fight worry anymore film first seems like simple exercise cartoon slapstick humour far that film hits greater sense spiritual meaning mankind wake everything seems bad trivial br br it flawless every way damn funny br br rating ,0 +final goodbye last post said scared realized redflag isnt bad good im going it everything set need final good bye missed im sorry cant take anymore ,1 +im honestly done life right nowi honestly done rn life stressed mind honestly hate life use friend would help life got tough helped tried kill hates talking reason one help mental problems life tried kill multiple times already one knows even family two friends honestly feel like killing done stress mental problems everything always feel different tell im good anyone feel different one cares like even exist family friends im honestly done life im going figure day im going kill im gonna it done,1 +friend likes ddos people dont know basically friend spent time learning hack ddos quarantine recently showed skills honestly dont know react like good even told likes maliciously please help dont know go house kick ass im questioning it,0 +outlandish troma movie actually good movie known epic best highly rated production version shakespeares play extremely funny usual dose troma nudity gore troma made good gore films one favorites street trash course toxic avenger movies one troma movie terror firmer reputation goriest nastiest movie enjoyed tromeo juliet much need finally watch terror firmer disc collectors version four commentaries many many features tromeo juliet absolute hoot highly recommended,0 +sorry bother cannot take anymore want die crying hour tried slit wrists knife cut hesitating take train ticket lorient throw railroad tracks hang father find body want him know life problems day yesterday tried overdose medication work know turn to psychiatrist trust him going back psychiatric hospital want fall back people used place alone home days afraid something stupid sorry poor language used translator affraid something stupid,1 +im supposed essay think ending itread least doubt get attention cause probably long respond feel like time worth it it probably be wanna make compromise reply read whole thing read last part im senior highschool m every morning struggle thought process every morning first fight leave bed im contemplating shower not finally get bed keep thinking if make throw need go school take swig hydrogen peroxide puke guts out finally end taking shower sit toilet minutes hoping suddenly get sick avoid people hate talking people im listener introvert im fucking place guys gravel road im safe driver really care happens crash crash oh well ive slid road several times serious impacts yet constantly think its straight stretch easily hit mph hit tree depersonalization getting bad again thought gone guess not best friend says probably caused brother also thinks thats reason im cool headed hate arguments try deescalate peoples arguments people say im kindest person theyve ever met never mad anyone longer minutes except myself theres one dislike even theyre total dick me need energy dislike someone theres point causes trouble ive grown treat others want treated ive taken heart thats ive lived life go way help others helping others helps get stuff done example never homework someone asks help theres ill gladly help boost own heres main point post im suicidal years now im supposed writing essay descriptive thats due tomorrow took friends aderall help focus i adhd doctor cant prescribe aderall vyvanse focussed essay family life fucking shit im sure people worse lives complain well am im adopted infant adoptive parents connection with know am know like feel like im living house theres love presence brother nut not bio severe anger issues cause many problems think think home shake badly get depersonalization episode hes months younger me im afraid sleep hes awake past hes woken beating bat throwing rolling chair me weve gotten fist fights hes put blades neck repeatedly like swords knives every single time screamed fucking godamn pussy know balls it hed drop knife run crying caught dragging sister not bio shirt hitting her lost slammed wall punched knuckles bled ran downstairs crying sat bed trying fight back tears came back shotgun stood looked eyes walked him put head tears streaming face im going put fucking slug head feed dogs touch one time turned around said do it hate place fucking much cps cant anything idk theyve tried scar arm pulled knife cut me im done rant read thanks send message comment even bigger thanks oh well least waste time reading it guess ill try stupid essay cut myself cut chase hang myself im done also last part meant chunk this,1 +adviceim scared im going something stupid im scared im actually thinking it ive always thought redflag teenager got lot worse got diagnosed cancer thing always said mum family mum anything put much especially cancer took care love much even thought stopping wanting it want everything stop right sent therapy went remission feel like made everything worse think lot things uncovered although im sure works people thats amazing keep going it think problem start feel better talking one day reminded cant go forever talk cancer time pretty okay felt like taking much time work agreed end there theres fact since monday ive waking feeling throw every morning think thing you right now sisters asleep mums work miss someone talk feelings tell mum im feeling like friend work tells boss,1 +going long day with psychiatrist ive trying new antidepressant weaning high dose another idk related feel horrible todayi barely slept last night im work want leave never seen alive again could scream nobody would hear me feel like alien idk everybody makes feel like one nobody likes act like one whatever doesnt matter cause wont change anything,1 +want someone listen while may speak someone,1 +someone help purify simpage lend strength please comrades,0 +dat posting subreddit im yeah day go almost weeks questions answered always,0 +cleaned desk comment long u think took rate well httpsdrivegooglecomfiledktgaxmtiqqcfgaozcdvyrbhphvlyqviewuspsharinghttpsdrivegooglecomfiledktgaxmtiqqcfgaozcdvyrbhphvlyqviewuspsharing,0 +lose friends alienate people decent comedy bit romantic approachbr br its actually story sidney youngsimon pegg breaking journalist magazine writing business interpreted funny way simon pegg made ok appearance slightly worse usual movie hilarious funny way anything like moments moments really hilariousbr br i recommend fun worth watching american english cream comedy people wanna sit relax enjoy movie is watch movie critical approach pass unless want disappointed start trashing it,0 +dumped someone loved need someone talk toi posted rrelationship_advice want details dumped someone loved depression got much her im occasionally ok sometimes get extremely upset it fault left cant back post httpswwwredditcomrrelationship_advicecommentsjgm_just_got_dumped_by_girlfriend_of_one_year_f gone life maybe thats good happy im happy person im alone lost best friend moving on please help me need advice someone talk to,1 +workouts home lose weight im weigh pounds im doctors right scale said pounds honestly im disappointed myself knew gained weigh recently didnt think pounds thought time lose weight get fit dumbbells home highest pound dumbbells also straight dumbbell bar thats pounds weigh bench home lose weight,0 +want hug recent post may have said otherwise thats im trying fap like make chill im so recent influx horny post horny reddit cant horny school,0 +early feeling particularly empty day reason felt sad emotion felt distant looking sponge bob episode a flea dome saw low quality video sudden started feeling down felt weird nostalgic feeling good one feeling get life goes fast despite fact crying uncontrollably day long like said emotions felt distant feeling pain deep stomach back throat felt like forcefully exaggerate expressions force sadness honestly know explain it felt empty like emotions distant far off felt removed myself idk explain felt empty inside since malmost i sorry explained horribly remember last time cried,1 +goal life kill myselfthats it im longing friendsa partnera career anymore im able make meaningful connections anyone as cliche sounds nobody understands feel im tired surface level bullshit dont start talking depressed soon meet someone new im planning work ass find better job like yeah fill emotional void material things satisfactory feeling doesnt last long anyway survive current salary thats matters me ive enough trauma abuse im curious life offer anymore price ill pay even suffering dont wanna deal depression chronic illness puts pain almost every single day anymore sense purpose dreams besides dying thats way,1 +parents buy phone friends get phone parents buy myself anyone else buy themselves ive euro phone years cant afford new one,0 +paisley ant farms eyes look swedish czech shape color also dumb girl woth really long hair remember shape color,0 +racism online sick tired racist things im seeing online everyone applauding saying theyre spitting straight facts im going say this white people privileged societyin america least lasting effects history saying white people racist saying want minorities would never say that people admit get offended movements like blm counter lives matter racist phrase racist agree lives matter motive behind racist also live place white people privileged compared minorities give you people color right mean seriously cool messed up white person gets offended insults fragile called human feelings minorities all know discrimination feels like matter small would another person,0 +reviewing every dutch episode pat mat dutch version voices think countries first episode hats talk weirdly especially mat classic tbh good all spill water try cut egg fail miserably overall rating ,0 +would date me boy almost kg weight would date me,0 +got rickrolled youtube ad fuck,0 +cant take anymorethe reason ive lasted long im yet find way kill myself yet leave organs intact donor usage want live life people allowed chance someone cant live life fullest given chance feel like im ruining chance existing need let go one way another ill find way preserve body breathe live life longer,1 +film would put typical hollywood tearjerkers shame emotions portrayed subdued understated comfortable fashion plot cliche enough lead role terminal disease this spoiler well established quite early movie method execution somehow unique love stories ever sawnot even kiss exchanged yet feel enormous current love two leads initially assumed restriction emotions something analoguous typical eastern values later decided itbr br this film understated compare movies like cinema paradiso cp would felt overtly manipulative comparison so definitely everyones cup teabr br after watching film strong feeling holly wood love movies or love movies around accurate glorifying romance passion label love sure definitions say qualities mutually exclusive but would venture say movie let wonder added dimension loved onebr br its obvious enjoy movie lot considering fact movie plain appearance paradoxically one cinematic movie saw lately,0 +ever hate personality like always hear people hating looks existence sometimes ill think day get sad realize im good person wanna be anything try better never works im stuck loop lol,0 +miriam hopkins the lady red hair biopic mrs leslie carter also stars claude rains david belasco richard ainley lou payne fine cast supporting players including laura hope crews victor jorybr br miriam hopkins claude rains give wonderful performances hopkins beautiful actress really makes us feel mrs carter rains great flamboyant egotistical producerwriteractorimpresario david belasco one great names theaterbr br though mrs carters second husband lou payne served adviser film poor representation real events mrs carters life true much publicized bitter divorce undoubtedly viewed scandalous character becoming actress however custody son dudley custody battle broke belasco go back and fact started working vaudeville actually made films toward end life indeed marry lou became leading man many productionsbr br the driving force mrs carter beginning film regaining custody son finally realizes time away him thoroughly bonded father film also and im sure true real life traveled mother lived theatrical boarding house gives film added interesting atmospherebr br not bad movie probably depiction greatness either carter belasco one mrs carters famous moments heart maryland wore wig sixfoot tresses offstage fans blew hair hung feet stage clutching center bell keep ringing quite visual,0 +day posting random fun facts everyday forget get bored oldest known domesticated dog remains years old dog died young unlikely much use humans nevertheless buried elaborate grave alongside two humans nice day ,0 +basically bioso years time got told parents separating didnt see dad months accompany mom tribunals fighting tutelage i guess thats word im looking for missed dad much couldnt believe separated tried stab belly kitchen knife spent days hospital next time happened felt useless reason recall anymore drinked bleach whatever thing was pair days hospital back home think time two months later went excursion forest shit got hella pissed girl whatever reason think something activities started yelling her teacher started scolding treating girls like that threw hill scratches broken leg years old lovesick tried cutting wrists bleed death got caught put useless psychologist grab dads cash years old long distance relationship girl visit first time sexual intercourse like raw week went back town started saying afraid pregnant didnt wanted bother s kid blocked everywhere wanted back would loved indeed pregnant kid would definitely meant something wake mornings for able withstand situation going jump bridge gor mugged way police saw half naked street middle night brought back home parents werent home never knew this years old days birthday discussion gf same one blocked thinking pregnant kept going around guy knew cheating even though said guy played league legends with one day flat back living town around minutes walking her sleeping phone started getting messages guy saw basically sext time stuff night went cliff near home jump grabbed behind hugging me nowadays cut wrists bit feel pain sad havent really tried killing myself may change soon im trying find perfect location isolated enough hang tree nobody ever find unless actually looking corpse,1 +spirals keep getting worse hopei keep falling intense depressive spirals lead emotional outbursts make situation worse wife probably going leave cant deal that fallout pornsex addiction helped much either im boring deadend job pays well put geographically somewhere ive wanted years live ocean away close friends im still nowhere musical dreams beginning think never keep screwing everything up ive medication therapy keep falling apart keep losing cool putting marraige gutter leads feeling hopeless know family cares im tired calling worry theres nothing do thinking would losing effectiveness stopping committing redflag im sure anymore know theres future me im trouble feeling beginning think going filled disappointing im broken advice,1 +good videos selflyingon hope may help others here good videos youtube selflying lying others might helped future,1 +really want diefirst id like apologise inane ramblings im writing mostly get feelings there years ive let anxiety depression control me find hard make decisions life ive allowed affect many relationships career opportunities upset closest result feel lonely want nothing kill myself horrible feeling want die die sleep fade away one day would completely fine,1 +anyone else wish could see many hours spent minecraft ive playing since really wish could see long played im going guess around hours lol,0 +thank youi would like say thank people said cared me know are pray live truly prosperous life cant keep safe theres nothing do im sorry redditors good luck keep safe this keep hope hearts always,1 +im bored someone pm like weed gaming music filler filler filler filler filler,0 +need genuine advice theres friend really really like replied three days text ive sent left read even ask leave read left read know part like leave alone want talk one like maybe hates speak anyone ever again know know,0 +look different throughout day morning night aka im tired look like fucking greek god day look like ugly baby got mutated killed zombified,0 +imagine holding gfs hand even though dating whole year could relate unfortunately,0 +feeling extremely suicidali suicidal get feelings atleast weekly fear something impulsively,1 +hello guys walked miles yesterday miles today im eating dinner pub anyone want talk,0 +awkward finally happened longer single man copped one girlfriend mothafuckas,0 +diary isle today super market saw man standing front yogurt section talking someone phone get something next heard went down phone someone asking guy get foragers yogurt things right front him looks dead yogurt says phone person theyre here dont see them hung smirk face devious man,0 +motorcycles raddd so wanted say something im excited about dad gonna getting motorcycle license year try too since expressed excitement interest it said hell teach dad used take motorcycle rallys stuff get patches jackets think really coooool yeah im excited although gotta learn drive car first,0 +weird dad full access school email accesses computer looks school emails he gets updates do see point okay recently asked stop deleting emails they still viewed trash okay plan stop like keep clean inbox feels weird know looking school emails including personal emails students weird overreacting,0 +list things thank attending technology entertainment design speech,0 +came home school basically fell asleep middle day like fully awake seeing got almost hours sleep title like im debating stay up try go bed get another hours little bit both,0 +brutally fucking honest sensitive apparently friend party get invited invited people maybe want include people i barely talk tbh feel kinda hurt thought invited party even go would nice know still wanted include me still need work communication assuming people read mind thats prob problem here need confirmation,0 +reaching breaking point years ago met girl instantly best friends with inseparable together every weekend together every single day summer eventually became friends everything great weeks ago started spending time new person would barely talk me asked this got extremely defensive told doesnt want one person time tried explain felt like replaced going leave would rather tell ghost me insisted wasnt leaving crazy stayed one else entire life days nights revolved around her hurt worse anything anyone else let her found sporadically texting ex throughout entire relationship apparently told wasnt fun relationship year one periods got another girl pregnant broke planning raise child him also talking guys found mom also reason believe went date one them texted days breakup didnt respond hasnt tried contact since shes busy boyfriend new best friend hurts bad years threw away like garbage hurts im hurting doesnt give single solitary fuck feel beyond betrayed lied to ive seen around campus looks directly eyes smirks could someone loved deeply betray like this realize never loved me never saw anything time filler convinced ex get back together her lied face believed her thats hurts most im breaking point barely energy go class anymore mom new boyfriend doesnt care anymore one except best friend lives miles away would probably better without me im tired existing life doesnt get better gets worse alone ive seeing psychologist helping nothing does dont know anymore tldr best friendgirlfriend years betrayed me feeling hopeless,1 +ive never famous entire life started repost chain dude feel like celebrity,0 +anyone else feel like dying another shitty birthdaymy birthday next month literally dreading it last year homeless shelter birthdaythere celebration year probably going same abusive ex put shelter wanted see me said no supposed say yes desperate someone met shelter wanted tell staff said trusted which pretty good since trust issuesmonths later proved gut instincts right shelters job celebrate adults birthdaythey limited resources is nice enough give bed amp thats plenty i want another birthday hope die birthday dying sleep would best birthday present ever children waiting day feel good happy birthday happy birthday im child anymore thought birthday causes fear day feel fear,1 +dont know ill ask family refer theythem pronouns dont bad relationship confusing dont like bring serious topics anything like that example come mom couldnt even say it like minutes wrote piece paper showed her dont know im gonna ask use theythem pronouns referring me really want ask but idk im pretty terrified like everything,0 +im lonely feel like onei feel way though yes may broken fiance month agobut good reason began getting abusive again stood first time promised got back together ever laid hand again id leave good nine months happened drink first time went complete shit feel happy sticking myself feel happy admitting deserve better deserve better hes right really person loved im going alone rest life person liked actually liked back once ive always gotten rejected used sex justmaybe thats im good for im fucking disgusting im weak im fucking stupid crazy fat ugly bitch whos never going fucking go anywhere life im going die alone everyone says oh youre going places going change lives gonna this gonna that feel it know im though think world hates me thats attempts worked maybe im even stupider think im stupid kill myself knows dunno man wanna stay high wanna talk someone though like alone miss taking care someone made feel worth it im down attempt free since april th amp selfharm free since january th i wanna mess againfuck,1 +lyrics hitting hard reason living gone idk much longer keep goinglost important girl months ago depressed suicidal ever since songs nowadays great love badly someone broke someones heart happy love songs kill know ill never sad love songs even worse one broke heart seems like pain lyrics ones relate anymore got feelin im gonna next year so lets laugh little im gone ive dreamin shit got high love me singin songs oh feel much pain got knife back bullet brain im clinically insane walkin home alone see faces rain time go spend gettin high hide lines go now im high fuckin eyes closed fuck more im mind though come fuck mornin blinds closed show everything learned away runnin away me im givin way way see things take away me im givin you way way see things life line fine cause time fadin got five hoes right side wanna die me im tired waitin life line fine cause time fadin got five hoes right side wanna die im tired waitin let know ill go tonight soul sight alone ghost tonight let know scarin girl even wanna fuck right really want could fuck ever put double cup really want could drug aint ever gonna run town imma kill everybody ima bounce ever gotta talk loud everybody get quiet mouse said im crybaby cant lately girl drive crazy amg mercedes speedin highway lookin street lights geekin friday never sleep right knowin hurt you deserve shoulda curved you know im worst boo but could cool too got dance moves got vibe swear perfect ride wanna die too wanna die got vibe swear love gettin high love gettin high too wanna hide find you ill inside im makin music cry oh lonely world know gon get lonely girl thats fo sho oh im lonely boy made lonely boy yeah know oh lonely world know gon get lonely girl thats fo sho oh im lonely boy made lonely boy yeah know nobody wants talk me everyone wants walk always kid maybe live long enough think ima die keep try cry loud wanna lay head chest im close gets heart fall apart start nobody knows me nobody knows one thing everyone doubts but ima make come true know pain go let bleed watch die got golden teeth got bright green eyes fantasy comes night know bout me goes inside ill let feel pain would get high make name break spine im way im lookin pain bitches fuck same matter place okay wanna die momma side tell love brother cry got time compromise need all ima make mine nothing loved dreams still dreamin know im crazy know im crazy yeah yeah yeah remember first time baby last time nothing loved dreams still dreamin know im crazy nothing died day left room tears last time past time wish end like last time past time know wish end like but time put kid map time finished last line cant believe last night last fight hook lil peep told stop car gotta say somethin ive thinkin every single day past months say much ask much got fucked told stop car gotta say somethin ive thinkin every single day past months say much ask much got fucked verse lil peep break heart break heart feel passion start girl life baby wanna play part real gothbois like dark real gothbois like dark feel passion start ever since met wanna apart break heart break heart feel passion start girl life baby wanna play part real gothbois like dark real gothbois like dark feel passion start ever since met wanna apart stopped car need nobody cracks heart ive feelin lonely silver chains heart ive caught take away give left scene heart beatin loud runnin away need right silver chains heart like down like like stopped car need nobody cracks heart ive feelin lonely silver chains heart ive caught take away give left scene heart beatin loud running away need right silver chains heart like down like like told stop car gotta say somethin ive thinkin every single day past months say much ask much got fucked told stop car gotta say somethin life gets hard sometimes know leaning smoking dope see face everywhere go thing reminds home team racing whips roll rolling bean took show young limousine im backseat rider calls phone thinks im dying baby one thats fosho need company ride slow aint want cold girl one know one love cant name one person trust one im one leaving ill go one love cant name one person trust want one ill find leaving ill leave ill leave ill leave you ill leave spent lot time background know spent lot time background everytime together black everytime together tap remember part past remember shit past took pill passed made deal devil know got problems problems know got know got too hold revolver revolver aint lookin they aint lookin you oh girl even bother bother act brand new why act brand new take devil offers offers got nothin lose i got nothin lose fuck songs got crying feeling lonely like always now one truly loved ever wanted with want spend life badly hate messing honestly know ill ever feel normal again suicidal thoughts persistent weeks feel like im getting worse feel alive anymore im living know much longer go merely surviving whats point living ill never happy her,1 +hate myselfim failing half classes mess everything up always try homework find self procrastinating like right it pissed parents much trust want run away kill self,1 +wtf leg hair alredy growing back literally shaved yesterday wtf bs,0 +ended coming mates provided acid turned nbomb cannot see way out nobodys talking me three family members die recently fuck life took bad trip,1 +im suck life need couragemy wife cheated me im broke im short unattractive im loser need little courage take leap free,1 +know youve roasted someone way hard delete snap story asking roasted bi girl whos school said something along lines heard bi ghat didnt luck liking one gender,0 +agree nomad s hvrs comments perfect laid back sunday morning movie humor subtle exact opposite slapstick one misguided commenter notedbr br but always ceases amaze often find wanting come back movie over originally copied movie onto vhs years ago premiered one pay cable free weekend previewshbo maybe never heard previously know marketed well dvds released en mass one first movies replaced great combination cast writing plus back drop montana wilderness hurt things either beautifulbr br its probably type comedy everyone is adam sandler type stuff alley probably cup tea movie needs full attention humor mostly dialogbr br i believe next viewing probably th still know gets scenes like one hoods police cars start blowing off im going loose ed oneills face priceless recommended ,0 +omg almost died now would worst way possible near death experience nice feeling literally thought gonna die walking sidewalk cement truck almost lost control literally hit sleeve missing body inch dont worry truck got control back nobody hurt enjoy life know were gonna die moral story always delete browser history know die would awkward someone browsed phone history still there,0 +hopeless aloneto much going once every one know depressed unhappy life seems able think anything make better try everybody need help one go since htings important life im trying best end ive suicidal six years recently alway least someone there im used gone moved away others mean im worhtless im drowning medical bills frm surgary wher hospital month relized friends left came since sight mind true ive failed everything wasted space woth living one miss time works history proven probably work hard talk anyone know since ust liek disregard it apolizise typos hard see straight though tears ive left lots things happending life interested ask seems hopless never get better hasnt years think reason start,1 +dont option live happy life anymore redflag want needweve drinking friends weekend said nasty thing cant think meeting friends anymore said long talk im sad said even tho never meant sat even saying words like that cant live them worst day life haunt forever dont something,1 +ever see boku hero academia like boku hero mall featuring pall blart mall might,0 +posted yet one caredhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsrvari_know_this_is_some_petty_shit_but_please_just even redflagwatch subreddit people care whats point,1 +keep thinking horrible situations likely happen end hurting feelings seriously sucks im sensitive,0 +sure people feel way do almost pretty much zero experience women never girlfriend first sexual experience past year girl came onto full force dinner party friend threw random evening even realize hitting kissed nowhere next day went house stuff incredibly nervous complete disaster could enjoy moment whatsoever feel sad it ashamed sexual experience disaster fact happened late life lack experience general years really care that really crave affection want loved hold hands kiss hug cuddle subsequently sex role see main focus day spent girl although first sexual experience affection attention part filled void see since then wonderingi spent teens without much care this entering s well always loner good terms that now loneliness starting hit hard see close friends long term notredflag years person already children forming families etc know man successful friendships men women grateful that romantic notredflag polar opposite like dark side want think about want people know tired alone sexually frustrated emotonally frustrated,1 +im growing well happening im growing up got license going first job interview right now almost turning years subreddit kinda helped thing sharing experiences people age ive anxiety complete introvert clearly means relate lot you time go see dim light adulthood thank everyone age sharing experiences ,0 +ms aparna sen maker mr mrs iyer directs movie young girls struggle cope debilitating conditionbr br meethi konkona sen aloof kid ever since childhood shown signs delusion one knows why dormant tendency however slips control job assignment takes neighboring bihar raped political goons resulting trauma also leads episodes manicdepressive psychosis addition schizophrenia careens control years progressively getting worse sinking deeper private worldbr br the juxtaposition unsettled divorced elder sister domineering ways make already bad situation worse indicative fine line abnormal seemingly normal ms sen also makes excellent commentary social alienation individuals social rehab standard therapy along deadly mindaltering drugs poor destitute whore always left fend usually fall waysidebr br the romantic connection dr kunal anu unnecessary also cafeteria scene dr kunal explains anu real world really them redundant anu already know that english dialog bit awkward times though acting compensates that konkona shabana prove reputation every bit worth it waheeda rahul shefali play limited roles well br br extensive research seems done illness evident clear mdp coexist schizophrenia patient sidebyside also early part dr kunal recommends ect shock therapy invalidating fact work schizophrenics extreme mdp suicidal tendencies forms bipolar disorderbr br the ending remarkable story suggestive unknown solution maybe solution movie could ended nicer note since worldwide mentally ill lead balanced fruitful fulfilling lives good medical carebr br nonetheless excellent film made extreme sensitivity subject hats ms sen one india couldve done better,0 +friend may planning redflag yearshi everyone thank advance reading post buddy close friends since ages time showing hints ending life seriously ill young though doctor time saved life suffering leftovers introduced improper treatment resulting in appearance changed since looking like tenyearold his joints aging way faster normal years would live wheelchair means viable kind sport including intense computer gaming would easy find job normal jobs aside suggested freelance artist due common interest art simply refused girlfriend though reads lot feel every word reads reinforces desire end life also close family recently told life worth living anymore feels lonely sees little hope also started spending lot money things likes we used stingy duo theres much signs anymore still goes school meets friends fear calm end worst thing is suffering depression really felt understood wish end feeling still lingers onto me literally know persuade him cant even persuade myself guys really considering redflag might showing signs relieve pain either way anything or friends do thank much reading post hope wonderful day keep happy,1 + m feel life coming end miss her want life backthis year mental health took turn worse im university student realized needed drop current major studying peruse something could realistically study perform well in student high school changed went college lost mothers approval slip grades blames unhappiness tells dog would likely better son i past semester lost girlfriend three years roommate admit mess past semester living situation well drowning anxiety depression want anymore likely dead weight started popping xanax calm would waves anxiety eventually suffered seizure decision so parents learned illicit drug use became mentally disowned child ive spent greater portion summer rehab ive learned support parents return back school ive tried applying student loan get told must consigner approved one cosign me home environment deathly toxic cant live im given constant look failure disappointment miss old girlfriend much wish never left me anchor reason kept pushing life even home breaks want life back want go back campus get life together strong yet cant tears down emotional prison home living verbal abuse makes wish yearn revolver bullet play russian roulette every night come home work heritage india mental health taboo culture correct dosage prozac two weeks support home really get help need want live happy life miss old girlfriend still cant seem get dreams months post disorganized life sake say something anything stay alive tonight im fucking sick melodrama want normal one fucking likes person sits sulks woes one likes person playing victim role wish could surrounded people really supported me wish still girlfriend love much read thanks lot im happy someone could hear voice tldr want die im much pussy think life get better spiraling chaos madness,1 +chances surviving jumping front subway trainand would good way it jump front comes station,1 +deal friends cannot open to someone part life long time every time try talk fact struggling talks tell bad lately like say bad hell go too ramble everything going life tried talk said was well got lot going life right now hope things get better though text anything issues like complain get chest hell ignore call out says lot process busy bad friend wanting listen me hard open feel like care all friends advice,1 +dream hot im going buy merch wank,0 +many american peabrains worship support political halftruths hucksters like michael moore would well sit movie see hypnotic manipulators scare intimidate lie underinformed public get people fear loathe killed spindled mutilated robespierre fine epic kills opposition remote control fit selfrighteous devotion principles get impression robes felt quite justifiable snip opponents heads even sent minions trump false misleading charges state today captains rotting media institutions much sensitive robesthey merely murder character innuendo false charges laid without foundation sources witness dan rathers attempts assassinate ws character eve election constant drumbeat election stolen although constitutional scholars continue scoff irresponsible drivel,0 +got accepted university im going bachelors degree majoring history plan become history teacher ampxb im excited think could did,0 +im suicidalim depressed act okay front everyone im fucking fine im asshole im manipulative ruin everything wish fucking dead keep trying find die cant fucking find anything cant find dosages anything want feel loved cared about feel lost feel alone ive already fallen back self harm anorexia feel so empty please help me cant hospitalized previous hospitalization traumatized me,1 +finally know draw d time execute properly expect sketch next hours,0 +dude made post hugging mom suggested hug mom thank if hugged mom five years first time night came bedroom laid moms bed hugged back started crying thankfully sleeping cant believe cried hugging her feel better now scares forever ill try make best it thank dude made post hugging mom im glad it ill cherish her,0 +recieving ofc female fucking like im sure really mean of course really powerful say fact requested said previously expected validated ugh,0 +happy sophomore dont haul foot backpack anymore,0 +anyone help mei feel broken inside even know say guys ive looked help many places theyve failed me know do know much longer take this,1 +make death painless dog possiblemy dog thing keeping alive throughout many deep pits depression life love much cant get terrible situations dynamics matter hard try constant anxiety gnawing cant escape it failed interview today already lost jobs person im love said want talk right super emotionally unavailable corona cant even bring ask support know even like anymore trying brush off im homeless coronavirus current housing situation tense terrible im always stuck middle toxic atmosphere forced taking care peoples problems waste away inside get anything myself top dog getting older unexpected incident weeks ago randomly attacked another dog im maybe homeless even though im getting training feel like deserves better ive failed much know do ill isolated homeless dog cant around dogs ill probably kill anyway get point point anywhere put could stay kill myself friends redflag letter going mention would honored wanted take care dog also completely fine cant im mostly concerned trying kill place dog see around im also really sad think waiting come home forever ill never come back want know theres anything make better even though hes anchor love much cant live like anymore know way better life without me also want traumatize anyone else might find body really know good way would be know anymore want happy safe miss me ideas,1 +ready diei thinking getting tattoo across chest says do treat ever arrive dying hospital might let me probably least wishes would known going get organ donor card signed probably much left im successful killing way im thinking cant hack it fuck it go hero im here,1 +takei tried last night take kept bleeding bleeding minutes bleeding stopped woozy blood pumping hard put effort cut more think lost like probably almost liter hell lot hours later im still woozy tingly places especially like cross legs ive drinking lot water gatorade ive eating food something better eating drinking still want live im anything point make appointment therapist im going talk worry that keep thinking back feeling losing blood watching fill tub feeling calm like finally coming home know best kind post subreddit yeah im kind mad able way cant feel much anything right now worry right safe just food drink something better get less woozy want go hospital theyre going lock id rather home roommates feel safer around,1 +sedated started laughing today went gastroscopy sedated immediately waking started laughing unconsciously however fact remember laughing reason nurses wondering laughing fact know thats pretty weird,0 +want die want die want diefuck life,1 +selfish hypocrite be nothing encouraging say someone wanting toenditall comment would want one you literally happened block person keep bothering downvoting everything post insensitive someone elsessuicideattempt youalsorecently attemptedsuicide,1 +sometimes think cant fucking believe im theres still many long years fucking joke called life ahead meim trying cope different mindsets philosophies really change fact fucked start people designed happy theyre cowards like need resort waiting natural death guess like tools myself could get shotgun live would likely already dead years ago,1 +ive spent half life trying follow dreams nothing worked ever im ready die ill never accomplish anything matter approach it ive done nothing wasted half life im sick poor advance further hate hate everything life itself everything try work try go back school hundred one reasons cant need medical care well guess free clinic hospital owe fortune first time went make wait waiting room cant stand it get upset call security guard kick out ive never job would pay kind bill ive never place live im getting close fuck life everyone thats it watched best friend go afghanistan contractor come back better shape hes ever fucking rich try job oh cant work here cant pass god damn physical theres always god damn reason there well fuck world give damn anyone thinks anymore im going kill right library front assholes fuck everybody everything ask exist,1 +please vote friend hey guys friend submitted brilliant monologue drama competition needs many votes possible please thing kind redditors httpslunchboxorgzacontestantsandrewingram,0 +you miss every shot take wayne gretzky live words remember whenever opportunity something life give shot work enjoy it remember think ready take again miss shot sport someone makes fun attempt anyway either tell yourself you miss every shot take,0 +alright remembered something fucked happened days ago dad asked like days ago follow bible said yeseven tho really dont say dont get shit man asked think gays jail like thinks like says bible like bruh tf cannot man literally felt like black person someone infront say i hate nwords man odd cannot wait til im ,0 +worst geography teacher ever really bad geography teacher happen year online classes really good teacher start online classes resigned make online classes witch shame new teacher came becasicily class started played music with bad sound quality like michael jackson sand junior wolf time complaining internet half showing video really good geography take fist test made study really hard next one take get angry parents saw think get saw said bad responded studied hard realized test made piece shit why claims question test made sister discovered part text articles news gone relevant brazil newspaper note text relation content class studying remember one test question long text basque country region spain france country answer ireland school fired one test everyone get bad great school create bonus test people need better great new geography teacher inst bad take first test watch class,0 +almost committed im afraid ill againlet preface with im actively planning harm anyone else feel completely hopeless day hope seems slipping away me let try make short im tired reliving it mom got sick october i hospitalized got better sent nursing home physical therapy im even sure needed supposed week kept month mom slowly wasted away there asked could go home convinced hospice best course action know happened scenario told mother staff signed hospice could let home hospice didnt another month is im really ashamed go see her enough seen couple times stopped going either money it far away want go getting hospital next part story stressed angry depressed scared felt hopeless alone went er told thinking redflag kept room three hours guarded one nurses going transfer behavioral hospital tell anyone call mom brother nobody knew mom finally got hold me told thought gotten hurt died crying never heard mother cry way before ended committed going home living day day worries mom called time every single day every single night one day got call telling fall weird patient falls staff usually call happened mom called me time didnt two days went answering phone texts fb messages went little money see her saw something else saw skeletal woman speak recognized me knew was trying tell something couldnt left knowing stayed next morning got call hospice nurse telling mother non responsive took place course week one week utter panic pain fear grandmother brother started going see her like trance snap of didnt got worse worse one cold evening me grandma brother aunt and boyfriend sat mom almost empty room four five hours came home four morning told mother died since mess emotions pain stress financial problems starvation emotional breakdowns more getting bad again im thoughts running away thinking maybe self harm bad know anymore feels like theres way hellish situation im in,1 +giving upshort story ive depressed yrs pretty bad anxiety weight issues thrown mix didnt seek help till may since ive on ciprolex symbalta abilify mertazepine nabilone welbutrin most recent im wondering whats going on take meds like say psychiatrist doctor pretty shocked nothing helped one bit mertazapine didnt help depression anxiety one made feel somewhat ok gained lbs month im wlefare since cannot work trying get odsp better benefits little money guess im trying say feel like im giving up want try medical marijuana doctor psychiatrist heavily it change minds rate ill odsp whole life family doctor tells anxiety medication psychiatrist saying ill depend medication suck up stopped taking welbutrin caused break threw deep anxiety attack made effort go back previous meds mertazipane nabalone hopes anxiety go away before im afraid either doctor psych get mad me wellbutrin made want swallow pills bad end thoughts stuck head dont see family doc till nov hes vacation psych till december rd hopefully feeling goes away know much handle this,1 +mother caught smoking weed hello yrs old student germanylast night smoking joint mom smelled itwhen smelled it immediately got pissed wanted open doorafter hiding things opened door wanted look eyes my eyes looked normalshe asked smoked said cigarette believe meapart smell evidence consumptionnow know please help mwhat doevery advice helps edit folks problem solved spoke mother lied well believed me know bad person need stop smoking weed,0 +cant moving forward life sleep without alcoholhi ive trying get decent job since graduating high school anyway since ive job sucked quit job promising let several others go without supplying reason one half weeks think anxiety disorder depression cannot sleep night want go college without job cannot afford books shit live parents need move apartment cannot sleep without drinking anymore drank lot vodka pass realized slowly killing moving alcoholism make kill myself need help trip gay street bridge ending life seriously considered it im pass vodka please help success cant move forward without getting fucked back was want thingsmwith life im moving forward killing would load off help move forward want success happiness,1 +betrayed hurt leaving nowi feel completely betrayed gave lot time sleep energy someone grew close to found person todl nothing lies almost year now always gave hre benefit doubt even nobody else did stood her nobody else would today tells everything fuckin lie words describe hurt feel took time away family job kids everything laid awake night worryingstories rape cutting redflag drugsyou name it fucking lies made people texting meand her fucking stupid going kill longer believe anyone trust anyone nothign so live point it give up,1 +ok reading couple reviews atlantis lost empire want clear misunderstanding direct rip nadia secret blue water part ripoff nadia pendant nadia pendant atlantis bear much resemblence terms used origins created source life theres doubt copied want consider kida nadia dressed alike could put disney tooit kind wierd nadia kida wear bikini style clothing adventure scifi mention move similar style too anime fan agree theres degree copying minor details even though many ideas original like encryption design wall laputa ancient mask princess mononoke resemblence vehicles garfish submarine nadia etcthe plot believe highly original quite amazing disney pull without use captain nemothe main character jules vernes k leagues sea also main character nadia mylo jean wearing similar style glassesas shown novel lord flies glasses symbol wisdom intelligence think mylo jean main character stargate dozen intelligent characters would look kind unfit role went without glasses submarines submarines fightwith wide blast torpedos really resembles nautilius does want state required element either one atlantis involved plotafter sunken city beneath waters crew charactistical resemblence crew nautilius nadia might artwork sense copyright infringement characters personalities perfectly original me anime fan rated nadia best anime ever watched even today doubts atlantis first saw preview watched movie regained confidence disney high hopes future movies atlantis overall best disney movie yet without shivering sound songs middle movie plus revised cheesy scripts make even better also amazing actually portray bad guys look normal making overly evil beginning i wondering bad guys blonde girl kind resemble looks bad character terms disney draws aka make bad guys look really menacing,0 +think genius lyrics website annotations wondering think annotations,0 +insurance kids reason im still heremy ex cant provide kids thats job mental health problems deemed problematic enough cant see kids little ironic whatever term makes sense,1 + hours buy first car one picked out ive test driven looked car fax it ive looking car months finally found it even dad anything say it nissan altima k miles for know thats good old car already passed emissions safety last class gets get home im going bank get k cash cause fees taxes including registration comes it thats much is all money ive saved since first job pay insurance gas well,0 +hey deadly virus lets still keep kid school hmmm would seem friend may deadly virus hanging around day wouldnt good idea ask parents stay home days oh whats that parents said no damn oh well guess ill risk getting people ill covid__,0 +im tired waiting someone help kill myselffor past year im alone shameoutbursts think someone past shout come help commit redflag diagnosed bipolar disorder observation illness works two ways seeing people get fights with either destructive shitty people absolute saints right i wrong since extremes irrational left conclude are some people actually are treatinghave treated badly inability recognize address correctly making sick head want believe moment simply overthinking result mental illness itself nevertheless feel surrounded normal peoplepeople like youwho immediately recognize treated badly someone deal accordingly convinced inability see anger to least anger valid emotion weakness late fix cant stop thinking guns explosives exhaust pipes fantastic modern ways make quick painless,1 +received dvd accent range label specializes arthouse flics released irreversible range bergmans opusbr br the thing struck alex fraynes strangely titled film modern love impeccable film breathes perfection vision film takes us mind mr joe average replete voices head visions madness set rural redneck australia film trivialise praise folks like many australian movies ie films full loveable rogues people hearts gold etc etc etcbr br not film spirit stanley kubrick looms large here flawless mesmerising attention details romantic streak mood bracing embraceablebr br minor quibblesthe transfer looks faulty front credits sliced fit framebr br also one short films corrupted stops half way,0 +panic never got good theatrical release easily seen much smart audiences would probably difficult time it comparing american beauty probing midlife crisis sopranos analyze study illegal goingson amidst family life though panic may seem derive unoriginal material brommels lifelike characters coupled deft dialogue observant direction make film realistic look undoing middle aged manbr br william h macy stars alex hitman works fathers sutherland contractkilling business leads double life wife ullman son unaware real trade middleage becomes increasingly disgusted done life calm collected facade stirs repressed resentment fathers controlling grasp life meets young womancampbell feels invigored decides time quit family businessbr br the fact writerdirector henry brommel decided make profession main character trying break away contractkilling disposable could easily substituted undesirable profession characters welldeveloped believable scenes handled smoothly realisticly dialogue written insightfully naturally focus falls macys conflicted character rather job hitman brommels script feels like shakespearean tragedy definite theme destiny running throughoutbr br in alex macy creates tragic easily sympathetic character turns yet another brooding great performance always expected donald sutherland also effectively abrasive abusive overbearing father ullmans dramatic turn macys wife welcome change comedian consider scene bicycle shop mood subtly darkens peaks affecting scene emotional confusionbr br henry brommels first feature panic film wellcrafted sincerity firstrate cast plausible script terse dialogue nice direction characterstudy hopefully taste brommels aptness creating characters seem real br br ,0 + months moved really big house next town over times size one burned down mom got fired though nursing caught stealing drugs dad graduated college good job newspaper place understand could afford big house,1 +wished voices head stoppedits hard exercise stop thinking look outside know cant stand thinking anymore,1 +hi hru im longing kind human interaction rn tell ur day,0 +mother lied tried hit multiple times bitch dare defend maximum trying hit afraid idiot father kill lie,0 +dreams give hope fucking worst like go doctor due irritatingly long queue get hospital then meet crush highschool the dream takes place future talk shit go date end one year later living together sharing passions then poof fucking gone wake fuck up samurai fucking hate this,0 +im bad mood want friends tiktoker want come creepy incel harass it supposed this livestreams every then thinklike week im pretty much one chats almost like texting her im incredibly lonely every time try comment vids end breaking im scared want friends lesbianso im trying come romantic plus taken wants block me im eagerly waiting next stream ask know thats gonna work asked qampas deleted questions every time want friends hernothing that never asked thing could make happy think stemmed able talk real friends quarantine stuff commented vids want others see it truly lost get go it im claims bad experiences school target bullying rumorsso probably want talk me fanbase surprisingly smalldespite follower count like count would tell youand thats feel like could get along pen pals something someone big charli damelioi would definitely try get clearly notice me open region lives inso fantasize actually meeting personthough feel like would miraclein sense word like posted feel like guys rteenagers understand better raskreddit would hope come creepy,0 +going attempt soon another failure,1 +first saw movie theater france year ago came went little fanfare enjoyed beauty landscape photography fascinating wildlife footage the story nice really incidental actually thought it way happens could happen real life saw tonight states dvd again gather limited distribution blockbusters one copy it recall ever playing art houses clevelandbr br seen tv photography breathtaking though still beautiful wildlife footage still fascinating story relationship year old child fox even less convincing second time around know headedbr br still said story incidental beautiful film watch like wildlife footage find fascinating,0 +killing cat passesitll while feel like clarity today while im even sad done all accomplished something really big life currently supporting taking care cat bruce hes gone whats point everyone move on wish things worked way wanted life got close,1 +fck ap english butttt power essay got rhetorical analysis essay done minutes im pretty proud,0 +wait wanda vision milf mean children like half real,0 +live redflag cuz die eventuallyjust live,1 +snapchat ok class wanted download snapchat join group ok redditor use normie shit,0 +god love meif love me would feeling way right now alone feeling like everything fault feeling like anxiety panic attacks depression fault you control it says boyfriend plays phone laughs memes im crying side room you choose to god helping me im starting lose faith me never was was would feel like want die would feel much hatred problem peoples lives,1 +imma give hentai shot ruin me idekkkk im nervous usually watch regular porn,0 +oh teachers much students teach different levels yes course switch spanisch sports math french matter hours provide depth look subject required daily assignments yes teachers also struggle way mean discount struggles,0 +wonder universe even supposed beeven whys mom empty minded mom im depressed want rest making dinner tonight logic old lady gaaaarr want orphanage you stupid piece shit,1 +need someone talk toive trying hard keep messing up cant see end this im stuck depressed anxious cant achieve simple goals point me im burden love social system get lasting pleasure interacting people anymore ive rough year like years really already gave flat mate prescription otc pills cant take tonight want call local crisis line really need chat someone know hold tonights bullshit me please,1 +guys messages reach k messages reddit ways get messages reddit message directs btw comments post awards upvoting treding thats it recommend commenting post faster,0 +story maybe itll help outwell people seem nice feel though owe people telling story well is start with important know like kids multiple ways least normal adhd insomniac extremely sympathetic dyslexic but enjoyed reading mormon genetically depressed things made stand apart crowd one way another importance later story anyway place start would elementary school quite frank sucked grew around father blew everything around things exactly go way way began develop well although time went on learned friends made tried best nonconfrontationalthe dyslexia put disadvantage english courses adhd made hard focus class work also prone panic attacks would occur would sob panic things made targeted bullying included but limited to bus would drive by people would lean window flip off cuss out walked home people followed home insult time class sufficient enough kids crowded around force panic attack laugh sobbed tried best suppress anger teachers give crap let happen right front them found dreaded crowds kids would crowd around yelling insults even often friends insulted daily put take nothing say personal were gonna act like jerks want stay cool friends cool life elementary school real friends and real mean assigned teachers friends bullied tears one day th grade snapped back insulted first time thought standing would make things better know like tv nope justified cause insulting even more every bit bullying increased volume forcing panic attacks cursing pushing around ect age became extremely suicidal constant onslaught torment first ill attempt drown knocking unconscious banging head bathroom wall long story short cleaned blood wall repeatedly banging head reported bed sleeping hours normal me i normally slept hours day due insomnia tried taking medication it gave extreme nightmares normal stuff like a clown knife chasing me instead im watching friends tortured raped killed front me later still effect me even though many friends beginning th grade also first grade got beat in kids even know followed home beat crap me kicked hard jaw nearly bit tongue off believe not actually worst either rest th grade basically repeat th grade terms much tortured luckily me began conquer dyslexia able begin well classes mid year th grade people shoved barbed wire fence drug across it leaving long scars picked barbed wire fence vowed better wanted prove could better person better person people made life living hell years following kept myself speaking quietly minding manners still wore shirt entered places like pools want people see long jagged scars across back getting better slowly that sake shortened attention span im going list crap dept list pushed around not close extent two times beat up followed more insulted more framed sexual harassment feel comfortable sharing internet even today middle school thought things would get better joined football thought people would respect got team hoped would gain friends team comrades arms yeah latter true gain friends im still buds today former even close true honesty sucked fast catch thrown me general one smallest kids team two years middle school football included humped head forcefully teabagged cussed out insulted blah blah blah left football less respect even suicidal happening home bad dad firm belief way control family fear surgery adenoids dad would pinch nose therefore giving nose bleed order punish me seldom made contact later years existence instead found much effective route emotionally abusing everyone talked everyone insulted us daily basis play board game twice day would lecture hours putting early grave kills himself would fault made life home he confessed addiction inappropriate pictures your mother affectionate enough this plus things im mentioning sake length left shy sick dreading human contact people church even insulted me wanted die much constant onslaught bullying put much stress me im still dealing medical disorders years later luckily me highschool godsend lots good kids advanced programs took despite learning disorders managing keep ahead people would insult me talking people consisted rambling people thought funny good way found good way talk people jokes puns such able find group friends could with things began turn me despite this still felt suicidal since th grade ive attempts failing really wanted continue life constant fear hanging head things would return way elementary middle school still intense nightmares plague nights hard get up despite fact things beginning turn up looking back reason simple guilt excellent memory helps gain knowledge remember important things price remember every mistake ive made everything people put through piled on making everything chore do take burdens so something unexpected me started date someone let explain unexpected diehard mormon boy nono date felt cause okay for moment want kill myself this course backfired found later girl liked much using boyfriend broke week wanted someone go homecoming with played make think boyfriend girlfriend feeling heartbroken disgusting due fact broke mormon rules defeated went back suicidal i also crush since fiasco previous girl throughout this stayed alive one reason life end vain hurt people love learned mistakes helped people experienced same live friends face pain alone promised always stick them help every bump road called life want help people used anchor life know jumbled kinda written suckily moral story im yall know pain know much hurts stayed alive help people like you got suicidal too need anything cleared because know written finesse mediocre student pm me pm need help okay,1 +believe sixty percent voters voted show ten hell rating five point eight impossible get it totally pathetic mean how anyway show great story great characters interesting definitely ten ten think creatures cool look great wish nimrod great show great cgi hope theres second series lot went unanswered first season nimrod gonna get bigger rest creatures huge rating low votes high br br ,0 +get opening someone guess friend told wanst crying little pussy would feel better,1 +feel trapped inside mindyo sometimes hear voices head encourage harm others sometimes even feel like killing someone im pacifist try even voice opinion chance hurt someone try best resist voices head feel much guilt past actions hurt many feel guilty always quiet person would say anxiety never let stop things make anxious like public speaking meeting new people etc bipolar tendencies ive never let anyone know dont want attention dont want anyone know never want say ive bad life things could much worse lot experiences dont want long read feel awful past actions ive mature earlier life dont blame anyone feel want love everyone life show much love have thinking ending all makes feel awful dont want anyone think fault would really like talk blade ready finally decide need dont feel need intervene im rational guy for part,1 +feel weird ashamed secretly want put mh ward daysi know weird sounds im overworked heart broken depression ive fought years come rushing back full force cant help think maybe put away days wouldnt worst option fact feel like id enjoy speaking total ignorance dont know do parents called everyday theyre scared kill myself goes select friends want go away im also scared theyll keep long time cant accept now im rambling figured would best place vent this,1 +project originally conceived movie version popular japanese manga slamdunk thats something new jay chou made movie debut playing character another wildly popular manga initial d along way decided incorporate kung fu movie hence title even idea original stephen chows shaolin soccer coming mind martial arts ball games combinedbr br however thankfully scenes kung fu actually influenced games kept bare minimum kung fu dunk really quite unnecessary add much plot drum much excitement offered cheap laughs reminisced time stephen chow used kung fu football games jay chou comfortable role martial artist fang shijie since first time fought using martial arts curse golden flower anyone stunt direction ching siutung made look really believable trashes countless gangsters bar seen trailer let know whos bossbr br that almost character made kung fu practitioner fact giving excuse top shot able shoot hoops practically angle eric tsang small time hustler chenli sees potential becomes agent joins university play varsity basketball without initial objection team captain tingwei chen bolin team star xiaolan baron chen bigscreen debut know team members side long combine strengths take adversaries basketball courtbr br and stick neck say movie basketball goal football made sport look good charismatic characters despite dripping much coolness aloofness courts here special effects wirework employed make actors seem like professionals take top side nba league honesty really looked stunning especially mimic various dunking moves performing combomoves thanks technology stunt work actuality kung fu elements really movie stunt work able justify moves theyre quite grounded reality suspend belief boys average height springs feet leap height professional dunkbr br pity number games handful time spent plenty subplots loosely developed flitted story please things like abandoned shijies quest use basketball games get parents one day attend them gangsterism penetrating influencing games love life charlene choi yet another flower vase role look good nothing else everyones acting little cool leaving little room main characters add depth one key themes realization importance teamwork rather individual talent ability could brought much stronger players interacted lot court it competitive games apart highfives friendly passesbr br with us million budget easy see money went effects particular massive fantasy sequence crucial point movie quite flawless nice look probably justifiable quality alone like emphasize even without elements basketball stunts would still make decent movie nifty basketball moves jay chou playing team big boost hopes box office success,0 +hey guys people different races baby biology taken consideration,0 +youtubes really scummy announcing theyre gunna stop community captions like bruh theres people deaf hearing impaired rely understand video better plus people watch channels languages use understand native language youtube really doesnt care platform tbh gunna remove accessibility feature like,0 +dont want go back hospital doi really want go back really really calm really get help tho play games watch movies many kids actual retardation cant miss much school either went july awful idk else doi really want to confused want sleep forever work things worse close almost hang pussied last second know want go back want alone forever sleep god please want die want go school work want anything ever left alone,1 +tired still live home true friends recovering drug addict control much drink given alcohol job money self harm addict person actually cared scared bc told liked them reason anymore cannot handle it mental hospitals work makes better hiding mental illnesses many options tonight ill alone hours time,1 +strange series dean learner really understand guests knew serious whether really unclear becausei guess im stupid know classes spoiler guests real like ali g anything theyre played one man believe love serious look hes got going on like programme sunday morning forget name lol also really like suit moustache thing got going on quite hot hes insensitive one funniest qualities also like way subsections programme makes seem authentic,0 +give myselfive sick myself everytime look mirror im filled disgust want try overdose cut throat stop,1 +world doesnt deserve someone like iti thought long hard them mom always nags tells fair pinpoint depression childhood experiences tried hardest well too bitch look now know problem well gave birth good world didnt even know handle properly dad tried tough love approach always wanted push guess send vibes work wasnt good enough ive honorary school awards got high schools infamous engineering program im list honors student teachers see good boy dad could say eh go that oh yeah also said depression anxiety ones head get find cure real illnesses like cancer fuck him isnt obvious im better couldve ever age im completely different level hell talk me younger brother didnt always get along him ive started like company recent years feels like acquaintance couldnt understand much better am kinda sad even though brothers im clearly nothing like average boy like him other relatives dont care them dont see often however grandma surely someone talk to guess somewhat comprehend superior am school person give good rank books clearly sees respectful light though hes nearly close comes education still say thats hes exceptionally smart hed understand whyd want leave filthy earth probably wont sad died even really dont care school person cant seems realize compared him compared school person hes dumbass hes still called friend group probably wouldnt care died hand hes loaded lot cash spends us without expecting us pay back debt thats respectable school person shes bitchy tries challenge me blatantly obvious im always better wit shes fairly athletic probably fucking dyke lots school people arent worth speaking about thought most teachers easy walk over talk whoever want put respectable act whenever theyre around dote me house pets dog cat wont miss fucking animals dont even know people think pets feel consider redflag therapist parents got therapist went mental clinic got diagnosed npd possibly aspd go fuck herself theres point go trash therapist a person somehow know dont even remember first met her complicates things lot treats like im best person whole world am know already something favorite person makes question superiority everyone realize great am dont makes feel something im sure like it generally dont feel things usually feel rushes excitement something interesting happens get bored pretty quickly shes complete dumbass cant read normal books without getting bored easily reads nothing manga graphic novels shes ok baker breaks stereotype asians decent math b list student dont know even bother know stuff her barely friends follows around everywhere shes obviously love me shes also probably depression used get bullied lot people would tease front everyone else pretty amusing see get laughed at however kept happening dumbass teachers wouldnt anything it even shed cry feelings getting hurt point got tired hearing cry told group boys usually pick piss off backed pretty easily ever since ignore her quiet girls crushes me im asexual interest relationships plain looking annoying bitches however girl makes feel differently dont like it told doesnt care sexual romantic relationships happy me still dont feel shouldnt care find amusement hugging making blush art student guess shes ok painting complemented artwork started crying made happy inspiration art work actually likes it deals suicidal thoughts found talking once itll difficult want live commit redflag shell follow actions actually take life shell one ill write redflag letter to one else deserves last words her think reason seem care actually treats way treated think im starting hate fucks brain makes harder want commit redflag want know do im throwaway account dont embarrass someone know finds realizes someone great like forum like this,1 +ask permeated kissing girl first date ive heard answer yes guys ask girls say no im honestly sure,0 +drafthiii __ im new reddit idk really works yeh hope everybody enjoying time reading wanted vent little bcs im great time contemplating redflag even usual looking life wish background feel real like belong never did matter tried always general image always felt lonely want free skin ever think since wake till knock point daydream death im fake around people nobody would ever suspect wanting end everything yet going ages head feels like constant waves headaches full disordered thoughts want stop existing feel like im real,1 +reached mine piece shit life think could ever kill myself want anymore make stop everyone limits,1 +need help identifying kind music like dont know people ask kind music like never know answer artists like yxngxr guardin convolk joji stuff like group mostly made juice wrld trippe red xxxtentacion ynw melly like dont know would call those im sorry stupid question also sorry thats wrong flair,0 +life unfair fat please help need iti fat life years little opportunitys came why attractive skinny people know make me ever make k year old friends make k k year good life nice vehicles slept many women seen one pair life lost many friends cant afford go out im getting point life unfair fair me true nice guys finish last all,1 +really want die cant matter whatha im failure cant anything want matter is matter simple cant it best friend friend abandoned me bullied life lot people small group friends thought turns sometimes assholes causing trouble football games shit mention never cared alcohol problem one friend actually left me funny thing is said talk anytime weeks later stops answering calls way contact cos use social media anymore helped suicidal doubt decided stop talking willingly started change proud me alcohol problem either somewhat drunk everyday binged drink never felt addicted easy quit found reason reason gone want drink avoid pain,1 +movie never intended bigbudget film cute little picture pretty much anyone could enjoy probably change life certainly charming engagingbr br clifton webb plays curmudgeon thats certainly new tv however ratings failing worried cancellation decides maybe touch kidsas wife none own so volunteers scoutmaster regrets almost immediately remember curmudgeon particularly like kids make things worse one kids really likes follows like lost puppy matter indifferently acts towards kid child wants spend time him kid cute nearly steals show himself br br what happens next twists turns movie something find yourself understand light cute yet cloying movie probably enjoy,0 +dieim planning preparing redflag im either winter hypothermia maybe swim river check cold water weather be could buy ice pour bathtub sleep still dont know im thinking assisted redflag much paperworks take long time die,1 +reddit looks like elementary school talent show right full bad content endless pointless medals,0 +join discord server virgin life itself dm link filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +im end rope want pain endhere finally am miserable sad overwhelmed full grief put things perspective within last six months mom got stage cancer blew money gambling addiction wound getting aggravated dui having leave long term relationship years due shitty people even shittier environment car gets vandalized one gfs fam straight fucks gift car know im upset im sick pain literally keep thinking redflag want experience shit anymore im done shitty people shitty relationships awfulness dealt with im honestly trying work courage pull trigger want shit end cant stand anymore,1 +bar none hilarious movie ever seen beginning four delinquents sent fathers wienberg military academy tone set steadily continues throughout goofball film let secondbr br its tough trying describe film humor elements spot brilliantly concieved upon first look appears nothing stupid s teen lust comedy oh much that fresh minds folks mad magazine academy serves formula style never since seen duplicated funniest offerings come hollywood years past basically film full infantile cornball material might guess writers couple year olds themselves see movie love act immature classic ,0 +want kill im scared painokay first off dont want get comments get better bs want need advice thats all tried get plastic bag head run front fast moving vehicle im scared pain dont know happen survive want painless death more less,1 +nine half weeksits nine half weeks since started think dying death killing myself im going it nine half weeks ago best friend killed herself feel empty worthless want die want put loved ones im going through want feel emptiness nine half weeks life never worse nine half weeks grief escalated grief sort depression theres big part world thats gone everyone keeps moving forward,1 +use notes today sharpie pen normal sharpie pen thin tip normal pen gold accents fancy fancy normal pen thin aesthetically pleasing pic pen pencil black pencil,0 +got first detention maths teacher trying zoom questions board know said press alt f probably tell happened next,0 +recommend game osts usually like games music favs are risk rain ost doom eternal ost,0 +tell therapisti think redflag way much ive considered quite times around year ago idk memory really bad almost hung go i never told anyone go therapy know tell therapist suicidal thoughts tells parents want know also want put medication hate pills feel like every time took would remember why im taking them helpful all advice talk therapist this preferably without telling parents andor getting put medication,1 +saw anatomy came recently bought sequel watch lot foreign films various genres watch movies original language sure annoying know voices belong actors always seem cheerful like whole movie one big long toothpaste commercial something makes otherwise awesome movie seem horrible convert lot friends used think foreign films good north american films hollywood enough also translation never right literal screws vibe movie even basically saying thing watched anatomy week german subtitles roommate laptop want miss parts see subtitles typing mins begged let finish work start movie subtitles loved it movies awesome intellectual horror films kelly,0 +see point anymorelately thinking would kill myself honest see point living another day everyday wake feeling like empty husk keep trying find meaning existence think keep drawing blanks family mess little friends addition recently broke girlfriend honestly feel connection us anymore cant see positive future ive passing days drinking abusing drugs numb even work anymore think might end soon,1 +everything sub boyfriend filler filler filler guy came parents like toi snuggle bf filler filler filler im guy like care bf could chipmunk would care,0 +ever feelthe world so fd up humans destroyed everything good everyone selfish evil good nothing fair worth hanging around often go bed wish never wake up never dependants id im sensitive world wish never dependents id otherwise,1 +feel like going crazy wish things could get better gone mental hospital times feel broken scared future since things seem get worse wish could die sleep,1 +would destroy family committed redflag feel cant go on basically living them eating disorder depression psychosis failure socially awkward ugh loving family alone need life purpose well dont like anything im messed up lonely negative lost everyday get bed parents dont worry getting harder harder fake it,1 +feel completely hopelessi live alone broke got food supposed live remaining euro rest monthi fucked pathethic everything hurtsi haveso much redflag barely sleep nobody ask help freaking muchi tried getting help many ways nothing worked living worst days lifecan someone talk please know,1 +well people spoken heres ultimate alpha male cosmo ampxb family portrait tingzhttpspreviewredditsmyftwpajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsdaadfdcccbe look smilehttpspreviewredditjsrgtwpajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampsedabbadcffbaeee he sure ladies manhttpspreviewredditlvvojgtwpajpgwidthampformatpjpgampautowebpampscbadebecdadccbd,0 +police investigations murder suspicion acquainted movies galore films nowadays deal crime believed involve viewers provide thrilling atmosphere however thrill lovers rather concentrate latest movies sort forgetting older ones yet occurs people may easily misled film entirely based suspicion may interesting despite years oldit garde vue unique movie claude millerbr br is much action really since events presented movie take place considerably short time way executed movies great plus jerome charles martinaud michel serrault investigated inspector gallien lino ventura insector belmont guy marchand new years eve rainy evening accurate meeting yet rape murder two children dawn old year door suspicion must open last words more quoted movie must revealed evil wolf really is achieve this one needs lots effort also lots emotions partiesbr br some people criticize script wordy yet would ask them investigation like many questions and practically much talk wordiness touches roots genre way boring throughout entire film makes you viewer observer involved moreover film contains well made flashbacks stories told much little enough make whole story clearer interesting memorable flashbacks me chantal romy schneider martinauds wife talks one lovely christmas flashbacks also contain views places including infamous beach wonderfully helped keep right pace since saw garde vue always mention film one defenders french cinema accusations mess chaos br br but already mentioned aspects may necessarily appeal many viewers since might like movies still find content execution satisfactory yet garde vue worth seeing also people why sake performances expect praise foremost romy schneider garde vue romy schneider vehicle terrific job mother deeply despair lost child credibly portrays person calm concrete refuse offered cup tea want play words part includes profound talk life duty brilliant credible overly melancholic role elsa la passante de sans souci still acted however romy schneider much time screen practically appears first time minutes credits she wife different viewpoint comes symbolically new year midnight role purely supporting one really rocks lino ventura middle aged inspector antoine gallien wants find truth aware questions missiles towards interlocutor hesitate inspector who married three times perfectly acknowledged womens psyche one regard job game play real service finally person find abnormal sit new years eve michel serrault also fine job expressing fear particularly final scenes movie thumbs mr ventura brilliantbr br as far memorable moments concerned sort film aspect easily analyzed entire film memorable seen felt atmosphere and mentioned before gorgeous music me talk chantal inspector gallien brilliant flawless moment two characters experience states mind go deeper seebr br garde vue interesting film must see thrill lovers connoisseurs artistic performances new year turned andis easier open door find decide see memorably directed movie claude miller ,0 +dont talk strangers complain im introvert ffs,0 +turn weeks wish could say lived good life good life good person id give anything start cannot privileged brat thinks sob story think time stop wasting oxygen fucking stupid think feeling would never come back think it,1 +im definitely ready go amp cant waitthe pain outweighed thought hurting loved ones much carry detail ive through laid detail post history long conversation last night ended sending email amp got heavy bout emotion let emotions run free went well bit end definitely want together whether boyfriend not ive struggling intense feelings inadequacy shame loss amp guilt cant move on feel though reasons broke fixable amp preventable working towards end late already far gone ive always struggled internally made feel like anymore got lazy amp lost her someone else now found seeing picture haunts every single day cant live thoughts anymore ive difficult past amp light life tonight im going take bunch sleeping pills knock out tomorrow ill make real go im happy amp looking forward it need let go cant anymore,1 +really fuck anyone happy right would be sick people trying pretend like reason happy even content city hit highest temperature july also lowest ever year nice global warming fucking pandemic constantly evolving strains housing crisis collapsing economy even ignoring state world mental illnesses complex depression constantly sick way poverty line happy about nothing nothing long humans alive always nothing probably decimate war maybe whatever overtakes us happy never happy depressed option current society happy world ending real mental illness,1 +think im done found rope garage think ive iti quit living,1 +miss her miss watching tiktok gist babe even though use tiktokbut cant cus lives different state,0 +task manager online classes ampxb processing img xyknmoi,0 +brother dog treats teething dogs would get treats drop brother would eat them mom asked doctor bad said fine fed us thats all,0 +change plan kill soon possiblethe thing preventing lack apposite resources and unsurprisingly laziness dont know best organize obligatory list reasons im sold thing definitely dont need life story im temperament go rant would laced expletives lamentations selfloathing sporadically reveal rationale coincidental cipher randomness inelegant although fits mood guess cliff notes fine never want be personality ive dreamt complete fiction even though may stages phases moments life possess ideal qualities im degenerating every respect ive never skill except lost never many begin with never anything except fail quite humiliating catastrophic fashion that im stupid literally dont understand things cognitive powers and use term almost ironically rapidly deteriorating cant talk people anymore cant hold conversation cant make joke there brief period funny guy thats exactly would want summative ascription lose ability funny one redeeming features saving grace one qualities could seize wistful poignant joy say thats mine hard thing im super slow cant respond slur words point people literally cant understand me etc say wrong things instead right things now is manage say anything all somehow manage humiliate even quotidian circumstances unimpressive reticent humorless anonymous forgettable misunderstood make misunderstood external factors exacerbate misery ill name em reaffirm internal ones really ones pushed edge ive making month past months something dont care money id happy poverty line absolute lack financial independence add consonant notes cosmic orchestra playing cant anything e minor fair interview soon first one long time dont expect get it theres direction take except im blocked path pursue except im cut off endeavor undertake except fail mean literally yo im exaggerating almost comical health taken nosedive would bear grace taking toll cant really go like this even stay sane cant eat much anything without arousing sort deleterious disabling mental physical reaction theres nothing gross going on though thank god that going long now dont know began perniciousness accelerating anyway ive kind digressed point real issue things outside self mere horror worldly tribulation might keep depressed fact problem ways insoluble makes suicidal things fundamental immutable qualities changed arent problem biggest challenge existential combustion result solutions problems talking isnt going make back cliff dont think need solutions im writing mainly hopes miracle god one suggests something strikes me moves way partly catharsis partly because even going ultimately solve anything im human sometimes people talking feels good tldr dont want kill myself cant see survivable options change plan ama want too ps im posting real account without privacy browser apparently willing breach manner civility track peoples locations im tech savvy enough stop regardless listen let tell right now dont track me going make feel humiliated thats part led first place please please dont molest anonymity got think youll knight shining armor chivalrously ignoring wishes youre working best interests no no youre villain egotist dont hurt anymore am dont full yourself ____________ thank reading end did wish reward end long arduous journey you take love consolation prize x xoxo,1 +sister found undertale piss porn drawings made th grade fuck sketchbook sitting outside bedroom clearly looked it im scared look it hate year old me want death lord help me,0 +tell getting wave depression whatever called want idk stop happening coming back,1 +m gradate student abusing alcohol little much lately much afford days become routine thing now idk call binge drinking yet long story short cannot thing right career look great whatever happened far hardly friends good thing life mother sure going aruond long feels like nothing life matters except alcohol,1 +therapy use service someone else provides me end changing things still selfloathing piece nothingi seem want get better think late done years ago day long feel empty like something vital left me inner sense wonder wanting try new things gone want job want relationship want money want give up feel like fighting every day now,1 +compartmentalization keeps goingi think thing keeping going summed one word compartmentalization made today one foot front other morning started pretty bad dealt grandparents getting pissed requiring help yet again made known last time like didnt already expect that like needed hear things said ive already considered over perspective im mid thirties thing ive accomplished fucking things worse teens went hostel last resort beyond streets wind streets line im walking probably get thin enough slip off didnt happen application rent month significantly reduced price actually went hour half couldnt believe it singular yet insurmountable barrier today made one step expected to im honest shadows crowding around me ability compartmentalize think letting proceed one step time dont care healthy way deal things literally thing keeping going cracking jokes another subreddit game watching mandalorian witcher walls figuratively burning around me blinders put pretty much it cant think future past whats around me one foot front now today took one step overcame barrier could ended me maybe too also wanted say thank everyone venting sub every minutes theres new post breaks consider that yet messed way helping too,1 +im stuck gym waiting mum hours d im bored someone text me friends busy,0 +social rejectwhat point living life im never friends anyone romantically interested me straight never going different now is find upsetting particularly hopelessness goes it know im right reject society rejected entirely people talk shit all lives matter whatever reality meet certain standards shunned subhuman reason think hate upset family would eventually get selfish expect live every day living hell,1 +hate way lookim tired ever pretty ugly girl group friends guys ever notice accidentally trip me must worst genetics fair many girls get pretty cant cauwe features hate small eyes big nose fat lips hate moon face hate all,1 +promoted posts look promoted posts wonder gave award,0 +spank tank erection middle class hits different one anywhere else suspense knowing point teacher force stand enhances fear factor spank tank going off kill now,0 +sad knowing cant rewrite lifeeveryday think death killing myself tiring depressing want follow plans hate stupid teenage years want reset life change mistakes make depressed hate ever dumbass never change better want die feel sense eternal peace belonging thats im asking for,1 +layla florida here musicpals let know please,0 +john waters made effusively buoyant heartfelt dark personal little film think ive ever seen well maybe fast food fast women comes close second directors vision untaintedthe narrative whimsical characters personal odd reflections family inner life the tone never forced stylistically overarchbr br there pretentious shot design ennui magazine gradingmartha plimpton amazing sistereddie furlong inspired casting grandmother talking mary teabagging recycled clothing yesterdays garbage becomes todays art lesson film important thing value family humble life,0 +never attempted get feelingsi fine reason feel overwhelming irritationhate everything including myself wanting get away ending thoughtsi sit couple minutes passes getting often latelyanyone else relate helps nowhere get urge end,1 +im making quiplash party public due lack friends code zfha unfamiliar go jackboxtv join,0 +told did brother realized situation partner arrived back hours messaged said i didnt mean seem like break up but brother angry kicked out,1 +help person school problems plz ok im th grade small catholic school thats person last year school student council elections stuff last friday wanted go vice nd place prez gets vice ran president couple people friend shea friend evieone really close friends exactly friend group low key gay crush thats kinda irrelevant lmao kinda procrastinating speech came idea chickfila dayonce month get chickfila sell little extra food usually gets votes school haha day speeches elections talking camera livestreamed whole school finished speech pretty short point expressing ideas shea goes speech little long mom liked talked faith promised covid care packages candy stuff evie goes speech also long talked dad proud running starting charity events couple people ran kinda irrelevant wasnt even expecting vp thought evie gonna win afternoon announced shea vice really happy family surprised thought would lose night evie sleepover kelly one best friends younger friends started hating think hates mom went psychotic mom birthday party brother people anyway monday went school william shea kept implying bribed everyone voting me shea willam kinda friends mostly hang evie like haha weird jokes cool went recess saw evie talked kinda cold made joke bribed everyone like ok game started didnt talk all next day asked kelly evie mad like shes mad thinks played rules didnt on student council packet said bribing meant giving candy money since shes really cold looking eyes everything thursday ive told shes mad me shes mad shes mad people keep asking shes mad um help want friend back tldr think friendkinda crush mad thinks bribed everyone electing president kinda ngl proposed chickfila day lmao love dont know people saying annoyed everyone asking shes mad help im begging u,0 +ughive crying past probably minutes thinking should get told even parents dont anything things trying stem academic success always feel worthless like everything would better without me deemed popular im alone actual friends never got form bonds like im thinking itll best fucking die nothing would affected world dying year ago ive tried kill got held couldnt whats point living nothing life everything seems like im burden feel singled time wouldve probably done already something would quick chance dying give life hope why,1 +sincere words whoever needs hear themtoday lost friend almost months since lost another friend one shot one overdosed people shared many laughs with people pleasure working with people cared much always look back regret more maybe couldve said something done something change whatever pain going through keep running head ill never know live strange times struggling cope make feeling alone less real feelings valid ok feel know alone struggled depression suicidal thoughts long remember tell keeps going perhaps waiting see world turns out knows maybe things worth it need hear it love you matter world pain filled place full uncertainty still matter even weve never met love you pain pain together,1 +watches video someone walking abandoned movie theater head touch seats thousands teenagers definitely fucked,0 +funny sick people heated argument racism one guy calles austin making stupid arguments randomly jumped said i read autism austin received lot likes it idk feel this,0 +hate myselfi really know im like this want live know im seriously unmotivated want disappear like long time im stressful feel like im piece trash deserve live many times wanted kill myself im coward pitiful it would like gun quickly die without suffering worst im affortunate lot things feel satisfied me thing like play videogames even know satisfaction long got depressed again attention deficit torture anything feel like im inferior people feel like everyone else things want later ther goes thoughts im trash stupid worthless shuld die hate myself little mistake something demostrate im piece trash sorry english maternal lenguage,1 +time mother work make sure took time take care father deathbed grandpa told landlord face perhaps the latter mothers words mine want daughter granddaughter homeless wanted take care us make sure place live unbeknownst me behind rent know much years later got first job,1 +im pretty bored anyone wanna play truth dare smth im m gay dm nice day everyone,0 +dont phone need verification number discord someone give ur phone number get reply code thanks u dm,0 +see comment why english class boring,0 +know whats worse jeans pockets jeans fake pockets fuck,0 +lets cut chase babyboomer inevitably spent time wondering fact that mccartney gumption drop johns city hermit life spend day him also certainly wondered things went heard exact reports writer film heard johns pauls perspective admit reconstructed meeting pretty much way film does none imaginings could bought tears eyes way incredible piece work acting does found amazingly lifelike perfectly plausible saccharinfree now anyone explain hear masterpiece shown cbc last night mean already three years old goodness sake yes beatles fan mustsee performance even subtle paraphrasing beatles melodies background inspired,0 +im scaredi really want tell someone want kill dont know who im scared anxiety roof im scared,1 +november two weeks ago resulted heavy head bruising another concussion lasted two weeks kneed repeatedly head kicked face well punched several times tried escape tried get away,1 +mom wants talk wtf talked mom weeks want to came house dad told it idk feel this definitely feel good,0 +im art commissions free im feeling generous today ive decided drawing character anime free yes free catch sign up nothing list anime character comments first people list commission done free bit promotion even add custom character anime character choice post reddit username message instagram ill tag commission drawings quality others done take time finish soon possible rules nudity gore must anime count l death note kuroyukihime accel world karma akabane assassination classroom felix re zero en dohedoro done closed thanks submitted commission post soon can,0 +watched kong vs godzilla damn godzilla moveable thats,0 +nothing takes pain awayive taken medsbecame religous even bought self help books absolutely nothing takes away emotional pain im loser work pointless government job im debt cant get date zero friends family talk me significant nothing hell do,1 +know anymoreive living constant sinking feeling inside quite time now approaching two years quite number ups downs life time dunno every time silver lining comes even bigger cloud comes life raining lot shit me ive got people care about people care me yet feel isolated ever ive got beautiful so even her still feel alone unwanted regardless around me connect mentally know even family sucks mother got diagnosed cancer fighting chemotherapy brought family together home feel anymore theres different feeling air everybody seems like sort isolating themselves including myself feel like home anymore im alone too feels like ive got nowhere nobody want kill myself think least times day always plan im going it play around knife bed night thinking could end right wanted to im sure bring it know people care me least think do mind tells dont mind still alone want go it want time know cant think straight anymore think something wrong head scared,1 +dont like alivei tried kill today failed im disappointment,1 +people people scare me pleases me bring forth memes children shall start internal war chose sides chungus sus,0 +yes tap dancing horror thrillerwith shelley debbie goody goody demented campy fun part guignol cycle s leaked s released double feature burt reynolds comedy fuzz mad scare bonkers throughly entertaining like mix day locust baby jane suggest prospective viewer take idea almost meant skewiff sit someone shriek elbow it actually get drunk whilst watch iton cheap champagne again many s film ideas also delusion struggle time better life getting bitter twisted emotional madness falling murder one plain crazy also reminds lot bloody mama de niro winters shlock fest makes film look notredflagly glorious,0 +always made fun germans cant pronounce squirrel cant pronounce eichhrnchen make fun,0 +dont feel real anymorei nearly killed three months ago heres started freshman year highschool came gay family five most peers thought people could trust course highschool started regret decision massively regretted every second every day close people came didnt even speak anymore everytime walked passed one felt heart race body tremble wanted turn back time take back drove deep depression didnt talk anyone outside school gained alot weight sleeping schedule fucked insanely paranoid junior year thought killing every day towards end junior year talked parents decided online homeschooling would best solution better mental health april september started getting fitness lost lbs throughout time felt better ever felt didnt think redflag thought future offer me changed homeschooling started first three days homeschooling isolating spent hours dark empty house work knew something off started getting feelings again knew going work put next three days decided anymore told parents isolation feelings coming back decided maybe could put another year highschool transfer back final thought its senior year everything different fucking wrong first day back highschool okay second day little worse still okay third day worst day life now since homeschooling first three days states schoolyear started missing work first three days highschool problem that but get know me paper teacher im sure know go teacher gives piece paper tells fill class starts work it finish it go hand in teacher tells present class heart starts racing body starts shake little bit start think okay itll fine act like uninterested nobody think anything it sit computer start read paper a little awkwardly noticeably awkward get two words teacher goes up up look hes motioning stand up shit hits fan stand start read voice gets high pitched shaky hands start visibly shaking get little misty eyed hear people giggling background hear someone say something like yo fuck get sit down try hide face whatnot thoughts race like never next minutes class ends everyone goes lunch walk around halls feeling completely hopeless first impression made everyone perception rest year people know im gay im stuck year im gonna make it lose rationale walk side door empty staircase leave building text mother love im sorry start walking towards traintracks pouring rain getting soaking wet care totally desensitized everything around me thing cared ending it start getting closer tracks hear train coming im getting ready die train goes front reach it say fuck cares start walking around thoughts get worse think stepping front car no cant that someone else could get hurt alright ill go home slit wrists im walking home mom calls calmly trys reason tells well figure calm anything hearing voice went home waited later day parents withdrew highschool saw therapist weeks diagnosed severe depression nothing me felt like chore like there felt pathetic theres nothing therapist changing someones sexuality the stem suicidal thoughts positive hang there it gets better shit turned away even more stopped going things cooled bit three months ago dont feel anything anymore time im happy im distracting myself look back pictures kid recognize myself feel like im playing role playing poorly im completely desensitized world around dont see point sticking around whats point living life going end anyway doubt someday im going kill myself everyday thought everytime walk bridge next busy traffic always there cant see living much longer thoughts cant see way thoughts changing even know replies im hoping get posting whatever,1 + magnum head end problems found dads sp revolver ton research ive concluded superb problem solver,0 +im lonelyim sobbing uncontrollably write this attempted drink death last night obviously work ive held captive suicidal depression since im now nearly half life longer stays less less remember life disease need companionship female companionship maybe friends really stretch it none women even though best people know theyve helped best anyone expected hear close friend wants kill i hate making problems everyone elses need real relationship tender intimate love save ive attempted times nothing makes feel lower fucking redflag attempt im terrified rejection feel like keep getting shot ill known loser cant make anyone really anything common anyone age im guitarist who hardly play scales stay rhythm playing years taking lessons teachers whove decades experience along way loves ss psychedelic blues jazz music fucking loathe todays pussy rock music shitty rap everyone know adores guess say march beat drum everyone else proverbial drum line drumming another way crowd notices one rogue drummer cant help feel embarrassed sticking like weirdo feel like alien belong rest humanity could never tell folks itd break hearts cant see happen im trapped purgatory wanting kill feeling selfish knowing ill leave void break mom dads hearts wanting anyone know whats wrong expecting everyone read mind get looking me making college impossible im hesitant see schools therapist friend went northwestern thing benzos coke alcohol making suicidal therapist got cops involved stuck inpatient facility called parents who make haul indiana chicago drop out happening option need professional help parents idea seeing,1 +moving dorm tomorrow move day guys wish luck,0 +heremy world falling apart hypothetical brick hypothetical brick nobody cares either dont friends leave im lonely constantly want reasons go it reasons usual cant anymore dont want dont want exist dont want mortal vessel want die,1 +nothing ignore iti terrible life like ones like alive mean entire existence mistake leaving jokes aside literally broken condom born first place find reason exist aspirations whats point life great live you live once dead worry anything bad bad scared dying enjoy life well congrats you nice love yourself aspirations reason live mean everyone live like life thats selfish sincerely want wake tomorrow well im really expecting replies wanted say this thought nice place like say before totally ignore this sorry anythings bad english first language,1 +whats pointi cant believe tricked thinking friends even remotely cared me like kinda funny ive never good friends anyone soon start well mental health turns shit cut everyone off like keep thinking friends hate blame lmao im shitty person idk anyone even tries anymore think good fucking life still scream parents put much stuff selfish im scared actually kill once would better stopped talking space breath contribute jack shit world literally nothing good coming sorry fucking life,1 +feel like worthless piece shiti keep looking life feel like matter anyone all life feels ruined stuck loop feel ignored alone cant even get help anything let ex slit throat seriously screamed help hate stupid pandemic im stuck narcissistic assholes treat like shit wish past ten years life happen,1 +reviewing water everyday get girlfriend day good water today slightly average still thoroughly enjoyed satisfied thirst well also ive realised fucking lonely,0 +really contemplating redflag moment deepest darkest memory makes want toso back freshman year high school one kid friend tried bully everyone possibly could kids almost everybody hated students mainly probably teachers too memory im referring occurred valentines day wanted ask prettiest girl class annual valentines dance she actually pretty reserved kept herself extremely nice liked much muster courage ask her kindly declines she going bf another school little upset eventually got it bullies let go dayafterday received insults since saw get rejected ignored them one day something inside snapped main bully said insulting remarks sister whos disabled various sexual acts hed perform her now way athlete roughly lbs way fought made seem otherwise charged pushed locker hit head first fell top him unleashed barrage hits across face quick little jabs fullforced punches using strength could muster second bully meanwhile ran go tell teachers kept attack felt like forever even shoved one teachers onto ground tried pull him school security eventually got me even fought like wild animal try break free keep hitting him this landed hospital concussion unrecognizable face remembering horrible disfigured appearance enough make shutter oh way even leave room almost two daysfor anything nothing eat drink whatever sat silence staring wall seeing dads face came pick school dayit look disappointment disbelief also even say anything me,1 +hey u fuck u,0 +every time make mistake takes momi m flawed person frank fuck time specifically life skills underdeveloped parents raised me dad blames playing video games whenever make mistake usually related life small thing particular hell take mom hell yell scream threaten kick smash things hes super angry hurtfully hell degrade mom brother me led brother depressingly low selfesteem selfworth leading becoming cutter brother developing eating disorder want end life often mom doesnt get verbally abused im socially awkward go anywhere life anyways ive done everything ive wanted by age believe not,1 +would nice know someone understands feels get ready hell read lots typos story troubles love one sunny day left city boise go summer bible camp mccall arrived ate bible things soon assimilated group friends even earned nickname sheep curly hair fact name sean shawn sheep old show felt well group one day got tip one girls group one comrades liked me spent next day trying find was told was shock person liked almost two years older me regardless began spending time person found likeable really starting like person gave phone number camp ends next day go home problem right wrong texts person week passes texts comrade month passes text comrade give decide interested thatvis leave it night go bed dream awake realize much missed comrade go little panic attack knowing one contact camp try get comrades contact info go little search finally get it text takes days respond finally talk bit ask out says would like cant im sitting waiting sort response feeling empty try find escape talking someone else feels yearning interrupted go talk crush feel yearning now touch starved child u want fill hunger nothing comes know really thinks ghosting me trying let slow hurt please help thank listening ted talk sean sheep,0 +hi guys want someone talk guess me stuff need friend suppose dm youve got interesting conversation topic im australian time message might asleep ill reply first thing tomorrow,0 +honore de balzacs genuinely bizarre short story loosely based gets unsettling albeit breathtakingly filmed treatment sort forbiddenlove blossoms period time man beast early part nineteenth century thin blonde english actor ben daniels plays role young soldier napoleonic wars gets lost whilst escorting exiled french painter across rugged dangerous landscapes gobi desert literally going around circles two men give ever trying reach civilization again thus decides against better judgment mind you go separate ways promise returning exact spot water source actually found course daniels character comes encounter creature a wild untamed female leopard eventually form seemingly unbreakable bond rather love saves life nearly destroys films end exquisite cinematography minimalist dialog somewhat demented story arguably hints possible bestiality three scenes ultimately lead professional critics pan film pretentious overlong rubbish film exactly tastes mind you find subtle though decidedly leftofcenter mixture fantasy surreal sumptuous atmosphere highlighted fact half flick actor ben daniels forced perform opposite wild animal four leopards actually used opposed one plain common sense slight knowledge theatrics dictates must maddening difficult job managed pull quite brilliantly ask me overall think passion desert takes warm to patient person willing give time fact cast uniquely original spell spite everything unlike platonic human animal relationship stories need require talking pig monkey shaggy dog keep interest throughout ,0 +would actually love physicist knowmath im practical physics side thats even possible,0 +know fix it try make everyone happy stay way always find way fuck things up know fucking anymore know do selfish,1 +dms bored dm horny shit ill try normal super dry,0 +know theres making right know theres changing mindddd love nothing waste time waste me great song btw,0 +dont know doi want commit redflag tried chickened want die minutes without someone knowing die want commit redflag,1 +poem made many really listen enough make happy holding onto single strand strong god ampxb long something long anything keep going keep pushing,0 +ayo ngl man dude right here kinda looks like dababy,0 +moms feminist dont really care may different political views still family support other,0 +love get placed breakout room someone clueless like yes dumb together judgement im dumb u,0 +heres one pleasingly scuzzy s blaxploitation grindhouse items pervasively lowrent pimp opus comes across like sleazier version the mack john daniels studly womanizing hairdresser hero mr jonathan immortal black shampoo gives excellent steely portrayal baron ruthless business savvy forever make allpowerful flesh peddler much dismay bitter brutal italian rivals reigns supreme sunset strip locking horns fellow nocount criminal pals best avoid busted local vice cops daniels leading sweetly average existence standard gardenvariety suburbanite dude complete caring wife loving kids typically humdrum california small townbr br the glaringly absurd premise alone promises toprate trashy greatness decidedly grade b schlock picture variety george theakos deserves kudos hilariously ludicrous script matt cimbers commendably tactless tasteless direction delivers junky goods slimy bucketful thus making film hugely enjoyable serving celluloid grime among assorted squalid delights savored herein plentiful gratuitous female nudity coarse dialogue beautifully gaudy decade threads halter tops felt hats sparkling dayglo jewelry loud seersucker suits intensely funky rb score smoke hopelessly pathetic acting the little old lady lives next door daniels excruciatingly shrill memorably nasty turn patrick wright sadistic goon couple cool action set pieces the climactic slow motion barroom massacre seriously cooks lurid travelogue footage sunset strip shake feather boa said footage allegedly includes the actual hookers blades sunset strip hollywood effectively darkndingy cinematography ken gibb sicko sexual fetish tableaux raw explicit violence a prostitute one breasts cut off amusing supporting performances familiar schlock feature perennials richard kennedy george buck flower pair racist corrupt browbeating police detectives sure movie aint art certainly artless enough qualify deliciously grungy chunk entertainingly sordid cinematic swill,0 +hey listen one send link megadrive file whit ajr neotheater ajr click mp im going month without internet need download music youtube converter mp slow usually doesnt work,0 +please help understandeverything seems pointless well two online courses finish associates degree something name maybe go bachelors saved money thing stopping knowing major want choose want waste money currently job mind going people good often mind staying late help good relations family members keep touch often good friends know me people ask sometimes flattering want relationship guess ive never really wanted one feel close anyone ive tried couple see future want string along relationships everything predictable got tired wouldve rather friend go often meet family members often meals im initiater planner go friend group friends to mainly keep busy stay touch them like board game nights karaoke pick sports games bowling swimming ect social media except facebook go gb data month im almost never phone things like right learning juggle couple minutes day im getting better everyday messing around keyboard acoustic guitar couple minutes hour couple times week take dog dog park walk around neighborhood often often listen focus surroundings walks even general time posses array narcotics never really enjoyed drugs people experience like event planned trip get high whatever see taking future anymore even people think im going throw away give away stopped vigorously exercising became lenient exercise used religious workout routines right actually liquid diet called soylent i eat kinds different foods im people saves money stress eat helps eat excess calories meal plan went doctor physical said blood tests came back normal im healthy weight good blood pressure healthy underlying thought wanting go away like soul wants released body want freedom ultimate freedom want continue living know feel happy sad everything between know failure like know success feels like theres point anymore things middle it often thought im okay died moment actually often get feeling im happy elated state want die happy talking friend asked me what want life answer actually shut down said know stopped talking answering questions stared space changed subject silence exposed desire wanting die course want tell that put spot want life end it im capable anything cant everything im hopeless know potential world help people feel people mostly take advantage ulterior motives relationship know everyone know do almost everything jack trades still learning everything anyone anything trying everything open anything took dialectal behavioral therapy know mindful often use skills come back middle emotions become overwhelming me im seeeing counselor talk stuff week another person trying help another person job maybe right professional councilor enjoy talking her mother wants medication knows thoughts often used prescribed want that want feel again want substances think theyre bad think lot people benefit them personally feel like want altered state mind get it im things trying new things constantly meeting people even moving states soon job things are per say good eyes everyone like want release like im tired tired living see future myself im hopeless know potential want anything anymore want death everything meaningles irrelevant unnecessary ect me know feelings im things always there feeling end near want release expected life feel already foresee get married not kids not employed unemployed everyone else living like said everything predictable turn way expected mind ive thoughts since little theyre occurring becoming increasingly prominent thoughts get older know feel im tired loop like thing interests death know desire death,1 +doin hope people great especially ladies there strong confident cute never let anyone tell differently thank ,0 +guys big f ive talking girl discord video chatted minutes ago said liked me said tiktok even respond first one said tiktok im confused,0 + people active right never seen place active,0 +merry christmas nice christmas im gonna go socialize,0 +one favorite movies long time recently happy see dvd relief watching old grainy vhs versionsbr br i seen years watched today find amazed well movie stands time one rare perfect storms comedy great writing truly funny line truly funny line paired great direction outstanding performances timebr br dudley moore got oscar nomination arthur lost although john gielgud best supporting actor moores performance arthur win best actor oscar its proof comedic actor could ever win title another example gene wilder young frankensteinbr br steve gordon crafts film beautifully keeping true characters warmhearted tone story quite simply imho movie rare gem sad steve gordon passed away year arthur releasedbr br regarding dvd available soso although video quality leap old vhs copies still widescreen version availablebr br the dvd extras nice enough one example commentary director stating greatly wished certain deleted takes scenes could included because hysterical make tough choices final edit dvd perfect format include material certainly offered wellbr br this original arthur classic comedy one books,0 +lately everything feels greyand cant seem shake feeling feels numb cold empty great got back right path everything unpredictable makes afraid wish could shake feeling know get better always do even feel like energy left time bit difficult guess miss friends much cat whenever feel pain much handle idea there waiting me comforts nothing feels quite like used im guessing never im hoping better times us know make everything constantly changing even hard sometimes welcome it im making effort want negative want feel better now hope eventually redflag seems oddly comforting know still fight know heal again know love all,1 +film favorite comedy time seen lot comediesfirst alli film scriptjust storyboardthe dialogue almost completely written actorswhich makes film absolutely hsytericalthe cast one best comedic ensembles ever seethe story mayflower dog show philadelphia contestants themparker posey shines absolutely greatthis one films laughing comes absolute patheticness characters,0 +close people suffering death enough reason to honestlyi want fucking kill would suffer it want continue numb existence others want actual concrete reasons would make me feel better living feeling worse dying want reasons me wanting live further want wake one day think misery one fucking trillion people parents couldve given birth to want look gratitude instead life gift say well could fucking donate soul someone actually wants use truly live would would right fucking now ask here time machine id go back parents met would prevent ever happening feel like fucking mistake feel like im worth air im breathing atoms im occuping even here even feeling alone anymore feeling better described alone whole planet times bigger earth athmosphere crushing everyday bit day im completely broken feel like obnoxious piece sand inside mechanism perfect clock fuck me,1 +fucked bad need excuse submitting assignments real reason bit lately,0 +stop thinking killing myselfi stop thinking killing myself anything power stop thinking including one occasion principle pulled class youtube instead supposed doing even attempts temporary useless end last night scary thought society corrupt could remove crooks could make society perfect wait point serving society yourself everything useless end end since theres point managed scare myself,1 +xmas present suggestions someone tried end allhi nephew summer tried kill got help right time id like get something special boost optimism new year hes something w job likes video games course learning disability read books id like get book simple enough im thinking perhaps graphic novel maybe people might ideas thanks,1 +look back times messed things happening cant stop laughing got jumped bathroom th grade got junk touched second entire school thought raped got pantsed times row many people saw porn addict knife pulled pokmon cards events used haunt shit me laugh them something wrong me,0 +theres point literallylife pointless thing me work hours day days week im years old mom dad family yalk fall back on city im full people care leaving friends passions whenever id like develop interest get home working hours pass exhaustion taught life fucking pointless get work whole life get work family even share life want bring children disgusting world us vs them life nothing stress stress payment payment one loves me everyone gone every one else busy want care me even care me never eat constantly high work so fuck might well get high chance get whats shitter im scared pain anything cry beg die,1 +please talk someone hi um please talk someone giving dont know do im sorry really really badly want attenpt hurt cant even right lost razor please please dont say yes might make worse please really really dont want make anyone else feel bad need someone talk to im sorry,0 +among us friend highly doubt see yay play among us purple name protector white leaf science uniform name jared really cool wanna say hi,0 +whats recomended dose icecream friendzone id like three please,0 +im sure im going turn im tired alive reason stay alive family wont suffer home able get mental help grave wont even say jamie say fucking deadname ill never man ill always be this dont know much longer have might make till next month let alone turning im afraid help please,1 +movie simply awesomeit sensitive issue movie superbthis movie create controversy india as far know publicity also kept lowinitially thought movie would simply waste time since indian directors producers used change theme even though sensitive adds love story original story spoils whole thingmost indian viewers would agree topic remember ashoka mangal pandeyloc etcbr br there many movies india would become milestone mega hits love story part would unnecessarily addedbr br but treatment pretty similar pinjar movie also must watchbr br if counts would like thank anil kapoor producer firoz abbas khan director making great movie,0 +im still need talk hey guys roughly christmas morning am still good hour wrapping do letting know need talk im up ,1 +shitty teenager want kill myself need helphi first time rredflagwatch last tried commit redflag almost times failed them unfortunately years old yes young people feel like young want live surely want to want to shitty childhood shitty everything years old kissless virgin likes videos games animemanga one interested me probably mocked back interesting one ever interested me course reason want kill myself life painful get hurt hurt others useful even am one cares one gives flying fuck please give reasons kill myself already know experience love literally unlikable probably alone single also dying alone want live anymore destroy me erase existence,1 +shoutout anyone remembers still old shadowwood dinnerware stinks really httpswwwreplacementscomsearchqueryhometrendsshadowwoodamppatternmatch,0 +fucking itim sitting here weapon next me three fucking dollars degree english job prospects gas food loan company took last food money bull fucking shit told pay month nobody love nobody hold me weed smoke im typing hard doubt fucking keyboard even last long enough talk so give fucking reason give fucking reason draw one breath fucking games bull shit tell me purpose going much pain crying breaking teeth stress bullied every motherfucker world semblance affluence fucking can why fuck even consider plunging mu throat right fuck now,1 +dont know doim female years old ive suicidal thoughts since life literally unbearable dont know do cant take anymore anyone tried therapy help feel like chemical imbalance brain makes feel worse,1 +first saw movie least thirty years ago remains one alltime faves classic intriguing plot great characters suspense shocking twist ending all set backdrop gorgeous montereybig sur coast never get old roy thinnes portrays johnny brant captivating character grows mysterious true identity unfolds acting great believable viewers get caught web develops workaholic husband disenchanted wife alluring stranger thinnes brant searched copy buy years guess tv movies get released video unfortunately great movie see find it,0 +stupid state taking long finish covid app months since latest news app tested new info since then since live red i prefer call blue state people wont take covid seriously fuck kemp,0 +someone share netflix account share three months deezer account someone share netflix account share three months deezer account maybe find glitch deezer premium trial infinity,0 +feel emptyfirst all want say know im worst person know people would overwhelmed live way do thing is im empty sad feel terribly alone secondly im sure right place vent cant guarantee ill make sense last years ive felt alone numb struggled find light situation went years feeling numb emotion struggle depression anxiety im high alert time exhausting work monday friday barely pays bills money luxuries apartment added stress less bank week end month tips edge sometimes ill sit stare wall go bed im home work frequently urge end all kill myself mean dont feel anyone would care mother shes reason havent im weak know push live life wish could enjoy it,1 +bet guys cant find rare piece internet over youtube videos still say three years ago around hours left,0 +people post secret codes posts by hand shall know glories yourprogeny world made right forever more,0 +logical solution kill myselfbut im coward usually get high pass dont deal next night tonight feels like confirmation suspicions im failure im going die failure,1 +one would believe told anywaysi early s want anymore real disappointing part single lonely all good shape rarely trouble getting date educated two completely different high demand fields traveled met new people money live ok list goes absolutely zero interest anything long remember use activities distract me im running things do years ago diagnosed recurrent brief depression decades high functioning depression taken seriously mental professionals psychiatrist even told people sad one good day every days rushing negative thoughts despair surrounding it ive tried different types medications affect even gone strict vegetarian see would help not definitely someone people would suspected would die redflag even way anticlimatic want out depression worst disease anyone burdened with burden,1 +im going kill get shit grades satshi havent studied all want go college kind of want go college something marine bio marine engineering like physics know anymore fuck me fuck shit life,1 +rteenagers think politics see socially economically political youtubers watch whod vote why politics affect mentally please civil im interested,0 +idk maybe might help someone ok call weeb degenerate watched silent voice made look world little differently great movie watch it life really worth living always petite benefit people also benefit ok selfish helps realize people want affected way people dont someones finding someone cares deeply way know people care willing help need ok asking help even someone cant help directly need accept suggest really want commit redflag one really stop try end depression sickness would really want die curable sickness also things helped me go outside focus making happier could mean anything getting ton money something simple like getting homework week done please keep pushing through believe get sickness like many others can strong sometimes need find strength within sorry formatting im mobile grammar word mistakes also mobile dont want speak check thank reading tho goodbye ,0 +feel nothing ever good again head keeps replaying quote please want badly good things happen,1 +want cut somewhere always visible like face hand want forget want move on comfortable uneasiness melancholy despair someone help please want scar permanently reminder,1 +theres pointevery interaction people leaves feeling like incompetent mess wish never born deal repercussions killing,1 +cure amazing filmso suspenseful real lucky enough catch screening the cure nyc premiere completely blew away also heard award particular festival definitely deserved it first thing struck cinematography eric giovon amazing job shooting style love scene halfway film amazing love scene necessary film jafri got point across also kept scene tasteful giovon jafri make excellent creative team definitely work together future projects judy maiers narration surreal simultaneously heart wrenching made feel main character felt im tough critic must say cure one favorite filmsjust love it seen yet check out,0 +oh god guys asked crush said yes really give awards like every shitty post like rteenagers,0 +ok learning danish duolingo think know enough make pun kvinden mean kvindet far tell because duolingo tell shit two suffixes mean the en et seems en used talking animals people et used talking objects first danish person see instantly going correct this thats seems like so translation is woman human mean woman object takes common joke women less human men makes grammatical thus producing laughter yeah really bad post,0 +feel like italian tried making pasta first time like homemade made dough added pasta sauce everything gave bit mom wait im italian now like good whered get said made said like seriously whered get said made all,0 +yknow grey sweatpants r commonly known kind make certain things guy bit noticeable tf that like tf easier notice guys dickboner grey sweatpants specifically,0 +dad ate skin plate fried onions asked wanted fried onions hes like some theyre extra crispy like fuck ate fucking skin onions,0 +want kill myselfim nearly years old depression years now friends boyfriend perspectives yet feel something missing life therapy medicines dont help me impossible get rid suicidal thoughts haunt often even things supposed improve mood dont know anymore,1 +makes royal family royal,0 +mods gay never destiny many determined few yesterday marks darkest chapter rteenagers multiple recognizable faces megathicc banned rteenagers mods among many other even go far taunt people permanently banned shadow uncompromising tyranny casted good people rteenagers god given duty community overthrow evil shadows overrules taunts us shall fight tyranny all shall fight comments shall fight posts shall fight dms message shall never surrender mods gay,0 +shooting shot today shot shot girl known around years now ok friends never really spoke past year would speak fridays bus stop waiting come home past couple weeks started speaking last long hurt badly kept wondering done something wrong luckily asked said ones fault however still get head years little confidence self finally told felt her hours seen ill update post responds thought would share bottle stuff like hve past also hopefully inspire others shoot shot,0 +please read id appreciate adviceive suicidal thoughts usually every night whilst im trying sleep always around time ignored ages tried getting life like nothing happening sold diazepam last night bari know theyre good bought pack left pub absolutely wasted barely able walk straight got home tried sleep thoughts again felt like worse time turned complete mess maybe drunk lost head opinion reason all anyway seen diazepams said fuck it thought fuck drunk believed would fall asleep never wake up didnt want suffer wanted go point quitely happily took around guess led sofa waited minutes goes head started spinning because alcohol lasted minute projectile vomiting bath assuming tablets came im alive question though that sign ignore thoughts get every night like sick sign say dont try boy question tell dad last night long ago spoke thought depth told need break away town said pay gets bad got bad dad good telling someone bad like wont think bad is advice getting understand if tell whats happened wont tell mum break heart,1 +anyone wanna chat dm along certain squashes pumpkins zucchini belongs species cucurbita pepo dark light green related hybrid golden zucchini deep yellow orange color culinary context zucchini treated vegetable usually cooked presented savory dish accompaniment botanically zucchinis fruits type botanical berry called pepo swollen ovary zucchini flower zucchini like squash originates americas specifically mesoamerica original name nahuatl ayohconetl also variants ayo ayocotzin plural ayococone this concept use zucchini developed northern italy second half th century long introduction cucurbits americas early th century,0 +one else feel thisi usually get replies posts yeah guys ever feel like theres point anything probably going end killing later like meaningless pointless die used hobby enjoyed doing cant find motivation keep practising whats point putting effort im going one days,1 +truly magnificent heartwrenching film ripsteins locations spectacular extremely detailed well lit dialogue extraordinarily garca mrquez doubt it fernando lujn marisa paredes give us outstanding performances colonel wifebr br you must see it,0 +maybe knowing literally cannot afford try keep today insurance cover jack shit expect fighting bills would astronomically harder fighting hospital pay pocket let us assume would able get bills even trytia usa people attempted failed big hospital bill,1 +get betteri first considered redflag th grade reason another ive pussied every time ive got close years depression nothings helped tell gets better high school would get better college would better get better start working get better want get better want over im buying motorcycle seems like accident itll little bit easier everyone else,1 +hey guys text post weekend type something funny ampxb uadripofviolettea,0 +life scares me cant stop thinking know anyone theyd want want tohomelessness mistake accident illness away people almost every week battle deadend front line member staff trying assert miserable fucking right mine around corner disease ill fight get diagnosed treated battle another system full people hell autism low pain tolerance compounded effective lack compassion nhs shows people pain want wait im actually pain stuck hell prepared put that deserve right treatment also deserve right die pain living systems much,1 +absolutely loved film hesitant watch first thought would painful remember hard john shot however watching two us took back happier time still alive hope possibility think writer amazing job depicting might been aidan quinn adorable paul met challenge head on impressed accent mannerisms jared harris also talented quite believable john favorite parts scene park rooftop scene poignant film left sadness satisfaction feel appropriate given circumstances,0 +lose fat quickly lose fat quickly dont want strict diets hard workouts though lbs,0 +kept imagining ending life past monthsevery single day sleep always imagining different ways could kill hurted everyone around me dont even know bad thing good thing since picturing friends mom who perfect anyway keeps trying best raise me cry gets traumatized really makes feel bad also make feels like terrible piece shit cares myself dont think life wouldve gotten better dont really want traumatize kind wonderful people around me also sorry ive said didnt make sense english third language im obviously good it,1 +know would wrestler im gay af sport would make wayyy aroused actually concentrate im,0 +day posting subreddit im yeah day go questions answered always almost vacation,0 +first make laugh wins free wholesome award first make laugh wins free wholesome award,0 +weird kids cool post made weird kid gang filler filer filler filer filler filer,0 +kill myselfpeople think im dangerous live want trust im afraid going hold grudge me want friends girl home keep trying assign diagnoses without psychologist dont agree make feel bad,1 +aight gtg kinda need pay attention class ill see later g,0 +best way disappearim interest ideas commit redflag body disappear forever without anyone traumatized clue happened whatsoever thoughts ideas,1 +redflag nothing get better yall say gets better doesnt,0 +okay hear out depressed never leaving bed good thing right leave ur bed much aint using many ur muscles stuff right getting worn much way old ur muscles used much theyre still kinda fresh live old still stuff well thats assuming depression take first yanno side benefits,0 +hate reddit mobiles new photo posting shit craps annoying af now wanna able open goddamn folder phone scroll hrs find picture wanna post,0 +would buy school market like less food drink something cool,0 +looking someone save meidk want die now every day feel like nothing live for family want someone really truly want live,1 +elitist attitude drink dont abide conservative values youre saving marriage done drugs drank anything before mean youre better anyone else annoying man let vibe without judgement,0 +people internet get salty really really fast sometimes people internet get salty really fast mean theres minor thing bugs theyll like this thing racist maybe think main moral story something unrelated plot itself like dark souls someone internet thought metafore capitalism instead game feedingending cycles even get started people fix fictional characters mean theyre real theyre drawing offend anyone obviously limitation still also anyone gets offended scream me please,0 +alone need helpi see things there miss dead dad dead nowhere miss dead cat blame seeing sick early enough save him abused years sometimes think universe telling things sometimes good sometimes bad thought radio told cut last thursday did ive cutting years idea stop abuse medication almost matter psych put many know really feel world psychiatrist one area seeing new patients talk abuse thinks misery dad dying half session dad overcome illness too whee husband lost job got another time did whole lives changed second last semester grad school starts next week drive three hours total work three hours anything work feel overwhelmed unable focus started taking adderall hands feet always hurt literally backs alignment something weird iono burn inside out take mg gabapentin mg tramadol day manage it still there much less without it could work go school used bad even hold book open also get migraines lot them weekly diagnosis were treating symptoms means cure now theres clonazepam effexor risperidone im still depressed anxious hallucinating though fairly high doses dont work nightmares mom kills repeatedly right telling fault nightmares dad sells sex slavery laughs rape nightmares like every night multiples wake already miserable crystal clear want spend rest life pain grief hurt much know deal stopped eating havent stopped treadmill clears head little bit want die want live either need help currently completely alone right now psych cant see me trust either,1 +im female everyones posting im in,0 +im dying nope im not say hello wish everyone good rest day night goodbye,0 +another good stooge shortchristine mcintyre lovely evil time oneshe great actressthe stooges good especially shemp larrythis good one watch around autumn time,0 +saw film years ago promptly bought soundtrack simply excellent bacharachs music endearing given recognition richly deserves cinematography awesome critics hated it hated home alone too found video welcome anyone find copy,0 +like thiswhy like this think know im feeling sad depressed im relatively successful decent group friends know care me im union electrician drive dreamcar loving family recently feel like im drowning pitch black ocean light coming through think know feelings coming hate it ex girlfriend handful months ago dated probably weeks always pretend perfect spent much time energy unfortunately money her spent everyday weeks staying trying get open talk problems even though wake morning go work try help her do starts dating best fucking friend done anything her drive hours straight pick best friend up spent bucks hotel rooms gas time missed work hurts fucked room paid got hear entire fucking thing worst part reason braking me said mature her accepting understanding her anything serious one worry me feel like needed say something none friends know account sorry wall text formatting first post reddit thanks reading,1 +cant parents understand mental illness me im pretty sure im like severely depressed anxious something please go doctor literally cannot live like need medication something mom oh need get game system pm like literally begging let see someone fucks sakes woman everything phone game system whatever i spent hours minecraft yesterday friend mine seen while normally play long anyway literally cannot get bed morning ive slept classes barely leave room even leave bed im tired clean anything dishes garbage everywhere give shit get kicked school something work im fucking exhausted care anymore ah yes phone ps problem sure always puts facade parentsteachers seems care much mental health shit comes step siblings always oh add take time him overwhelm him oh anxiety thats thatwhile entirely disregards probably have also severe adhd unmedicated despite asking go meds get told instructions way makes sense brain like step brother does get called lazy piece shit needs get act together get good grades else theyre going failure im tired it,0 +think timei want end it right seems everyone know mad me reasons control whole life mess would easier end it guess still cry help here lets see anyone change mind late,1 +sing meme song tay em ang run run nhng anh th c rt anh khng n em l khi anh khng ht ly ung thm vi ly mnh chng khi vui nc thm vi chai v anh em chng khi gp li,0 +attract women cannot disability due mental illness torture would easier chance am could easily die wish sex drive would stop,1 +nobody leftno friends left disowned parents girlfriend wasnt ready relationship everyone told stupid getting sick boyfriend guess kind good thing anyways one biggest things keeping wanting hurt people nobody left hurt nobody turn help feel like could without guilt idk even explain reasons it ive suicidal thoughts since kid maybe bored life always feeling hollow even shit goes south cant cry even want to every day painful breathe honest dont want get better already hated fact people survive bout cancer suicidal fuck like me things considered redflag might biggest accomplishment life wish best goodbye,1 +yes shakespeare would indeed proud laurence fishburne best certainly bad kenneth brannagh hand brilliant scheming wonderful toying audience nice workbr br there times little drama would expected cassios slaying instance bit clouded much happening far apart causing spectator twist head grasp allbr br did mention michael maloney madness striken roderigo unusual annoying evenbr br if seen othello before see this read othello see this heard othello see this do hand favour reading it seeing acted onstage hearing sung too,0 +advice girls boys guy theyre different use fucking search bar see people karma whoring goddamn thing people keep falling girl means obviously theyre expert women please shut up none people ever ever represent entire race nobody gonna give advice get somebody screw actually go outside read stupid reddit post im done sub,0 +thing town ampxb httpspreviewredditxiabhrqcpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfffeaacbeeaad,0 +home alone urgesim alone house block knives spent last sharpening razor fine tips urges roof want end now,1 +like im pounds im girl always considered like little less pounds overweight bc me flat stomach averagedefault always skinny gained weight last year so overweightfat like weight pretty nicely distributed dont really look bad else probably wouldve killed myslef already according bmi chart im fine still im gonna try lose weight anyway tho fine thx reading rant,0 +feeling trappedi feel trapped life know know killed myself anymore wrote redflag note today know ill ever send it want life stop know whats side better this,1 +hey look birthday finally get change fuckin flair,0 +christopher nolans first feature film wowed critics saw first came out shot micro budget student film real class film shot black white features people assume friends nolans appearing movie say bad actors quite good could see jeremy theobald alex haw appearing projects unfortunately since made years agobr br nolans thriller much like memento play chronologically shifts scenes around much like pulp fiction writing fantastic great twisting thriller temporal order film shifted around makes even interesting thought last ten minutes particular everything starts become clear excellentbr br for film small budget recognizable names all good superior hollywood studios offer nolan three films this superior memento quite good still excellent insomnia cemented exciting new talent recent times cant wait batmanbr br this film short sweet certainly great watch professional twists fantastic completely surprising also thought score david julyan also excellent atmospheric chilly quality it gone compose nolans films br br overall would recommend this intend get nolans films low budget gem br br ,0 +nothing sounds appealing never deal problems again care little things care sunrises good food love travel anything want stop conscious point blank would rather think feel anything aspire anything wanted die since seven years old yeah experienced good things life change fact would rather experience anything good bad god wish never born,1 +every day want go back bed nothing cheering me played videogames many hours started get sick it hard enjoy things go auto pilot mode moment enjoy vanish mind feels like born happy hour feel like medication way lying feel like deserve it average right want sleep depression,1 +cant convince go buy gun next weekyou know im honestly amazed quickly average days turn shit ones today honestly took hours time waking time wanted make noose closet day work too thats best part brain loves hit hurts knows weakest points are ill honest though online dating absolutely reason fucking put bullet cranium hell depression online dating one same let know im ugly undesirable boring waste space time cyst societys face made even worse today finally got match one dating app poor girl realize sad fucker matched with know part gets really old too match used yay new person talk to alright lets see badly gonna fucking sting really exhausting beating time well made that pat back luckily live states getting handgun pretty simple honestly need get gun pass basic tests drop couple hundred dollars mean life honestly point feels like im addicted gambling ive lost basically everything mind tell play one handgame win everything back odds stacked whos say im gonna make way back im boring stupid lame scrawny ugly interesting paint drying im everyday wasting earths oxygen course though second paragraph makes sound like incel mean im know everything fault always is blame problems shoulder blame others to fuck selfless guess haha also see therapist week half ill honest think im gonna make it really feel like im gonna run luck then even go her im never bad mood hard honest also mind even mention word redflag shell drop everything cops come throw psych ward although honestly id actually prefer would really drive home point im broken worthless piece shit person anyways im probably gonna spend day touching redflag note today probably thing right im sure ill find way fuck too,1 +everyones daynight hanged friends like hours came home played wow like getting ready new expansion wyd,0 +might really unknown factor dealing certain thing,0 +day day wake miserable matter want disappear since depression comes gos early around january june best time life almost reason even realized around mid march feeling around start july got worse ever spent every day alone went weeks without speaking single person cried almost every night barley ate anything every day felt like lasted forever could enjoy favorite things like music august nd attempted hanging go trough scared knowing nothing else even though though wanted year since started bad single day wake feel live keep telling going away soon friends want anyi hate talking hate seen want feel happy feels like sight know makes since sense gotten much sleep felt like need say head end,1 +ever found strangecreepy websites so id love see them im currently trying look obscure pass time please pretty please something fill thing im making barbecue chicken ngl kinda slapping,0 +think romance movie helps couples develop deeper appreciation other although saw one goof early part movie fairly well done plot make cry think situation enough loved itwatched twice already highly recommend it,0 +yeah sure cheesy zombie bad either beatrice ring huge bonus entertaining good fortune meet fulci later career remained philosophical experience never completely satisfied it well worth search out especially genre fulci fans film far often dismissed hand,0 +use sad depressed literal indifference literal muting strong emotion feel like pill made easier want end itnot going act would end tempting remind try different medicationi thought therapy would accomplish accept shiy childhood done move already dealt abuse suffered depression triggers always backgroundthe abuse problem problem chemicals head tried pot felt like went ride sunken place tried alcohol buzz tiredness even want know anything serious would doi want moments happiness want cloud go away falling old bad habits trying establish unhealthy notredflag atleast make someone else happy might feel like use logically know use argued emotions ends logically know setting pain realize connection others less shallow feel indifferent emotionally speaking stop trying engage sex would enjoy past thing get hard minutes woman feeling good might able steal little satisfaction worki expect sympathy cutting planning would need pretty sure could pills now depression done yet ready give escaping medication eventual life improvement thanks letting vent thoughts time feel like anyone say too well time get embrace indifference honestly pretty useful getting work helping keep new bursts agitation getting out got wellbutrin well sucks,1 +peculiar movie themes end days satan versus jesus treated new fashion jesus want open two last seals satan thwarted attempt get another soul hell armageddon armageddon jehosaphat turns company book life little hard openbr br whats memorable movie slanted image outoffocus shots light effects effective sometimes irritating course donovan great disillusioned jesus trying come terms world people become so see get opportunity,0 +first caught jennifer years ago town showed tv middle night fell asleep ended stuck track down appeal that though theres lot it weaves intriguing atmosphere ida lupino howard duff real life manandwife time display alluring lowkey chemistry lupino plays woman engaged housesit vast california estate whose previous caretaker jennifer disappeared shades jack nicholson shining although instance lupino goes went mad duff guy town manages estates finances takes shine lupino decides play hard get becomes involved say obsessed happened predecessor old dark house full descending stairways locked cellars atmospherics romantic byplay far best part movie viewers likely find resolution bit letdown theres much except little frisson tail end anticipates brian de palmas filmic codas well done and again sticks you extra added attraction film introduced song angel eyes would become part standard repertoire ol blue eyes,0 +plani probably given highly toxic surf next most basing previous symptoms doctor gave med before therapist agrees neither us get chose gives going od kill gives drug take extras make easy me told doc mental health situation happens may post would kill ok,1 +fun time student greece since beginning school year greece think th semptember lot conflict safety covid schools across country masks ministry gave students ridiculously large could easily cover someones entire face it even mention size comparison preschoolers one misstep minister education greece ms kerameus secondly students included put students freaking rathole arse classroom easily meters wide made useless masks hours straight it might sound bad thats worst thing schools cleaned properly result us students rightfully feared safety ones home elderly students decided act country broke schools changed locks started lock up infiltration schools preventing anyone getting standard subjects aka school minister acknowledged situation decided even try least fix situation btch threatened us said open schools would forced online classes participate lock ups would blacklisted joining thus getting absencehow works absences repeat grade school hour absence absent sad fact lot dumbass parents think right thus attacking students forcing school open usually resulting physical violence teachers plain chads totally agree students demands less students per class obeying safety steps thus ratting students absences tldr minister education greece fascist stupid individual resulting many students close schools,0 +long suicidalmonths years gotten worse better,1 +one best nights life bois went haunted trail spooktober separated covid months okay first go house pizza eat talk trail basic haunted trail part heres bloopers night two girls came year old group fyi besides him refuses go calls gay year old tried climb tree one friends says get ass here way made us stereotype alcoholic dad were trail running guy chainsaw one friends goes wait wheres landon were wondering hear screaming trail comes running chainsaw dude right behind absolutely bolt him running lose phone luckily find otherwise make post one friends tries ask one actors turns gay fun night nice day,0 +yeah boi post made popularrrr also check profile fucking awssomeessesdjjdjjejsjemdn,0 +new seasonthis season life end season hard hurts new season arrive dont give up,1 +always knew dr seuss grinch something going fur terrorize kids tall cinematic universe think different personalities theyd work better eachother,0 +gulped three glasses water called quits think id burst stomach open odedcant imagine taking once mad respect folks,1 +meeting ra today say xpost rdepressionso heres brief story last night feeling unnaturally suicidal got far pills lined desk taken much start taking them first always hardest messaged friend never responded still hasnt anyways something stupid forced apartment hall resident advisers room knocked percent prepared opened door tell call police me went back room going swallow lot pills well apartmentmate answered there shit went walk rain calm instead calling cops maybe done long manged go back apartment put away pills get decent nights sleep went bed though messaged ra facebook saying tried reach earlier would like set meeting today question nowwhat say her tell whole truth last night fact going call cops suicidal thoughts all etc im sure feel shell report boss mind im sure much really me thanks reading,1 +im bored wants ok me were strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking get guy wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play ask im feeling tell blind see never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt ooh give up ooh give up never gonna give never gonna give give up never gonna give never gonna give give up weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt still want ok,0 +know sound like much means alot today skated talked girl ive never met im usually social person around people know able go talk girl meant alot me gonna ask wanted friends lost her hey tried ,0 +pathetichere pm writing crying sitting wall tub crying listening juice wrld wishing died stupid fucking father wanted rape older sister felt like living years years since went prison cant believe feel like wouldve open living able experience life way friends instead got taken school im now get experience best years life already liking life nothing anymore hope sisters get sad kill soon oh saying probably give half fuck,1 +another attempt end itseems cant keep dealing lack money want arrested custody help going try kill,1 +yeah sex great thats joke,0 +give reason tothats it kill myself,1 +anyone suicidal fantasies killedive suicidal life sometimes goes far envision actually killed or least seriously hurt someone else accident sort maybe theyre dirty work me wondering anyone ever happen suicidal thought fantasy know fucked up redflag watch sub hopefully yall understand,1 +im tiredi never thought years would enough put knees looks like handle sometimes think im baby trying get comfort tantrum actually thats feel times im sad cause shouldnt know support family couple caring friends decent grades even mind fucked up everything near perfect somehow anxiety always takes maybe dont really love couple friends side pity really wanted could good student ive trying find antidepressant works me im getting tired pills take sleep doesnt seem work anymore come this used depressed functional need least hour leave bed seriously pathetic geez ive trying im getting tired days weeks go by need good day real smile unexpected hug something remind alive sorry horrible grammar puntiation etc gotta blame autocorrector that tho,1 +hope me irreparably broken beyond fucking lostsomehow least continue live bit longer due mother would still feel bad leaving family members deal fallout death be past years tried intensely see could change cope ive multitude therapists prescribed taken numerous medications quit substance using selfmedicate cope things improved become worse worse functional working months nearly never true romantic relationship family situation deteriorated even time ugly fuck lost genetic lottery allow manipulated used abused long end peace death yet feel trapped forced exist others feel bad take life tired even know point posting this pain much,1 +really want permit birth certificate changed yet im anxious name gender use permit goes birth certificate really want dead name drivers permit luckily still like half year get changed im still super anxious it tldr im trans guy gotten birth certificate changed yet im anxious deadname driving permit,0 +sarscovis bad kind want catch virus already lot health conditions die virus oh well tragic get with odds getting pretty high anyway seeing live epicenter us outbreak go public work im already burden everyone around me im inconvenience pain dramatic dont right complain dont want annoy around saying anything accidentally letting something up way feel disproportionate severity problems it dying covid would solve that honestly dont really want die especially suffocation pneumonia feels inevitable right now sorry rant read end good night wash hands maybe itll end thing sooner,1 +bullshit life advice soon m worst days life rn failed romantic situation later turned traumatize regularly going therapist taking meds past months give take thing is happened fine everyone said move on work blah blah exactly that worked out picked hobbies often months depression hit hard failed like myself everything could life gotten worse ruined relationship parents horrible grades college deteriorating social life pretty much isolated one actually talk past months except therapist doesnt reply often tried everything failed make happy bs love first depending anyone happy never wanted partner desperate someone lean on really dk,0 +meeting new people lately ive feeling kind lonely quarantine isnt helping much friends play video games dont im usually left out though meet new people online anyways youre looking someone chat maybe play video games with pm ill send discord nice day,0 +woke morning wood grrrrrrrerr,0 +wish people would respect desiredecision dieits annoying cant talk death without people going nooo dont gets better so many people miss you crap like okay clearly doesnt life awful years ago awful years ago years ago years ago year ago million times worse now despite efforts improve life despite time thats passed gotten significantly worse really wrong want keep putting everyday wish could normal happy life would love happy enjoy life dialysis bpd depression ptsd severe misophonia misophonia literal torture hell live with know seen simply irritated certain noises trust much worse that limits life much cannot stand around people anyone watching tvyoutube impossible passing people walking street cant work cant bear around friends family cant use public transport cant go cinema home life nightmare due neighbours cant go restaurants dialysis fucking nightmare etc every aspect life hell misophonia fight fight response comes noises horrible pain sensations afterwards feel like someone rubbing sandpaper across brain slapping me living headphones really life either would end tinnitus mum hell eat super healthy exercise ive tried countless medications therapies cbd name ive done it life getting worse maybe death really legitimate option,1 +im kind person call bitch something reply yea,0 +grats getting monday days friday yaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyytyyyyy,0 +want die want livei want wake another day knowing hell never know exist worthy loved exactly am one ever will im tired existing like this ive done everything right theres nothing wrong me situation one intervene help me meds therapy electroshock handcuffed psych ward need need support system need family worth knowing one bother hell never know lived im dead makes sad cant change it even redflag hotline chat kicked minutes line fuck it think courage this think do,1 +music recommendations looking new songsartists playlist try anything,0 +texas peeps sheep follow greg abbott said wants people die use much money keep wearing mask protect yourself let evil satanic temple call austin win if get it keep wearing mask im using arguement insane people use coronavirus,0 +life fell apart giving upmy life fell apart short time frame dont know do year ago confident young woman great friends nice apartment wonderful job outstanding university grades skip now friends ditched started dating bf broke boyfriend cheated gave std now forever alone parents divorcing lost home renting dive apartment bad part town lost job due downsizing went highest gpas university poor academic standing failed semester plans graduate studies over dont know life now theres way out help me please tell life worth living go on need something cling to anything please edit holy shit seriously owe guys life last night bad real dark place completely given life made realize things status gave practical advice reminded come this gave hope decided take sleeping pill go sleep instead something rash im alive today new perspective things know life sucks right now need end get really really rough patch guys,1 +im like girls single nice lonely name inigo montoya killed father get ready die,0 +deleting reddit day blow inbox im gone haha sometimes breaks social media arent bad thing know anyways minutes ill log off wanna see first responses yk hehe,0 +mandated reporters get professional helphow get professional help someone go therapist im honest ill reported immediately,1 +ok im gonna productive today im gonna get bed work im chubby im gonna cook something nice probably art im gonna go bed normal time ive gotta pray day goes anyways hope good day lt,0 +feel better donti understand fuck going on moved on didnt probably get fuck here cant fuck place edit set bitcoin address mmvecjxcvzcchvwrsnyyeaeigk,1 +feel hopelesswhats point surviving failing every attempt one wait you,1 +im bored literally ask anything im bored online school stupid,0 +struggling keep hopei wanna believe time effort get better make life worth living im scared wrong struggle ocd eating disorders social anxiety live lonely empty life cant fix it think keep going like this,1 +im kinda bored anyone want talk f,0 +cannot anything feeling indescribable seems like never end cannot even think future horrible moment stop stop one second please depression feels like endless moment pure emptiness,1 +want go anymorei guess ill get right it im gay want be ive known nine months want go away never never will barely say im gay mirror time like live unaccepting environment accept myself want get anxious guys friend group start talking girls want get nervous front guys crushes on hate gay way getting rid im dead im socially awkward hell feel like anywhere feel like im costume trying blend ends failing relationship older brother talk ever used much play together younger weve many arguments feel like relationship beyond repair thinks im dick shitty relationship mother shouts feels like everything do asks chores im shouts me calls selfish lazy fucking get it get wrong loving person outbursts always seem one getting shouted at relationship sister good feels good recently though know accidently outed her go detail ready know gay whenever see tall building fantasise jumping it one jump over something like busy road want live nights cry sleep honestly thing stopping internet friends dog even want live myself sad know think worth mentioning pair scissors kitchen drawer put throat one time felt fucking good theyre sharp enough anything felt good ive done since then despite resisting urge to way could describe say thirsty want get drink water say hypothetically know shouldnt resist urge even though see damn sink tap every day thats feels like scissors draw utensils whenever get spoon fork whatever hard put scissors throat again thanks reading,1 +unconquerable depresionhi people first reddit post may bit long please bare me hoping sort outlet talk depression suicidal thoughts stressfree environment im really stuck unsure do ive onandoff depression two years now last time experienced severe depression basically glued bed avoiding human contact senior year high school im male sophomore college good group friends good grades host extracurriculars occupy time etc recently about two months ago ive randomly gone deep end trigger explicit reason depression came back vengeance really unbearable lack interest lack motivation inability sleep nightmares sleep anxiety negativesuicidal thoughts ive tried everything think of im currently taking mg celexa daily been taking weeks really remember see therapist twice week friend close confidant however suicidal thoughts keep getting worse point basically constant moment woke moment fall asleep follow dreams spend way much time day googling sad shit thats thing focus point ive considered voluntarily going hospital sure would do seems like ive run options stuff try really cant deal shit anymore ive also considered medical leave school cant imagine stuck home make feel different im worried taking leave negatively impact education experiencenot like worrying right now know eventually itll get better capacity beat thing like people do like ive done past moment im really frightened may follow something nothing changes soon anyone similar experience unconquerable depression advice every viable option seemed fail input though words encouragement nice theyre exactly im looking for thanks reading everyone,1 +update girlfriend were still together going great im happy her were helping bunch baggage im happy lucky her last time hung out watched lighthouse kept spooking throughout adorable sadder news end may soon like super smart applied different boarding schools definitely get into different states sad least ill know end is ends going well spend summer like last months alive clue whos going read whos going care wanted put there love stay strong lt,0 +yet another fucking posti even know happened feel bad again swear mood swings easily distinct one closest friends moving end school year whats stupid ive wanted ask now got phone her asked then know didnt thats work never anything substantial take laziest safest worst path andi anything it even know anymore even motivation actually kill good goes show much im actually able put mind it fucking nothing know matter is ive run stuff bitch about theres way explain whats going besides im lazy weak make poor decisions ever try anything fuck it god fucking damnit fucking anymore thats say now know im frustrated im letting mind fingers go wherever feel point im angry reason im eaten nothing living without actual life think worse death im gonna go back school soon motherfucking homework done im gonna go back see friends happy asses gets hard see happy people nowadays comprehend hard hitting keys type this im surprised started crying yet im waste im fucking waste im lump air even thought about im road block people im burden although said many times many motherfucking ways hate god damn self much quick venting fuck hard admit need help ive tried living surviving working out know need need something im running things live for even live anymore exist life me like redflag without redflag part im loss right now wanna go bed want everything okay morning never happen go sleep sad wake sad theres getting around it yknow much useful stuff couldve done time instead typing that thats thing dont care say loss well im loss wanna keep typing find sense self write cant forever unfortunately even want go bed able sleep know ill stay cant anymore thats it need stay up feels like wrote whole nother post comment im things type wish could fast forward part gets better hate part gets worse feels like get worse here theres getting fuck around it ive gone edge theres turning back feels like it rock bottom feels like shame experience young age feels like impulsively scratch floor mind trying get deeper would love build drill something building something takes time motivation none think ive run things type know still comment separate thing every time id flood site want that people need help too guys care me other worthy people need help im gonna take advice anyway im pile shit originally gonna comment reply last post got carried away forgive spelling errors im sure plenty stuff like happens fits whatever fuck feeling is know know hate it fucking heart tldr ignore this im gonna ignore advice anyone gives anyway im wasting everyones time,1 +upon stonenow sit upon rock listening creek walked stuck home could longer resist told parents goals bliss happen one might say youre life beautiful every day beauty ones perspective days like inclined take something dear mine dear others debatable none shown graces attainable pushed far today last life crumbled last longer attempt rebuild broken revealed found owl next stone lifeless cold want fate would like trade theres response expected suffered wished away home sit waiting upon stone,1 +boys wavy hair look like george washington shit try comb it istg frustrating hair uncombed ends looking x better ever look combed,0 +years ago friend got one friends video michael mann film heat it finished movie stand up saw another film after tough cassettes envelope owner write up yet glued back seats distinct opening lacked creditsbr br some two hours later sat wondering could heard masterpiece beforebr br this film europa lars von trier woke film noir dead deconstructed reality intentionally obvious sets yet often haunting similarity postwar german photographs saw tricky cutsbr br the story hardtotake moral odyssey happy end young american pacifist german descent comes postwar germany intent good pay bombs countrymen dropped mostly meets distrust selfdestructive defiance hires zentropa diningandsleepingcar company modeled mitropa whose owner one nazi collaborators occupiers whitewash hero falls love daughter later turns member werewolf nazi postwar terrorists understand world or europeans anymore rage blows railroad bridge train savedbr br as final note historical correctness real world werewolf nowhere important film implies mostly final nazi propaganda coup ss unit assassinated major alliedoccupied aachen two months capitulation nazis announced creation whole legions saboteurs terrorists ready fight behind lines werewolf hundred mostly hitler youth received training two three times deployed murder suspected communists forcedlabourer foreigners bavarian villages imprint lasting fear inhabitants hitlers death wars end fell apartbr br however werewolf propaganda profound effect occupiers feared werewolf everywhere suspected behind serious accident without exception another cause found later ignored recent pseudohistorians example gas main exploded police hq bombedout bremen soviet military commander died motorbike accident berlin effect strongest soviets arrested tens thousands in large part children preemptively suspicion werewolf closed prison camps lot died,0 +anyone else feel like human feel like nothing left inside memy emotions left cannot care anything thing pretend ok always feel empty like mean nothing i one feels like that broken,1 +im strugglinghi im spain im know many kinda feel think time almost over ive always sad dark person even little extemely sensitive emotional im good hiding feelings emotions lost mother cancer person entire life understood loved me still today devastated move moms family started drinking smoking heavily couple years later got relationship current girlfriend everything seemed nice could believe it could see mother sounds kinda wierd know way talked way took care loved me on girlfriend mental problem borderline personality disorder embraced beginning helped much could one had moved back town lives quit studying help her point didnt even money eat still stood side took dinner to cinema try make happy turns out cheated me last summer older guy ambulance driver used go teraphy with could believe it left him knew guy money new car devastated day am cope pain insecurity nothing harmed feel something hurt end all attempted redflag times before btw still relationship her feel free ask anything thank edit story way way deeper written,1 +know else doman moment really contemplating redflag years old male know fuck do give background recently started business best friend year ago one solely dished business money became factor friendship things changed drastically debt this person turned used money purely raves money point know else fucking do wanting move seems still need deal also depressive episodes contribute well being moment want talk someone judge mistakes end bullshit want fucking done,1 +two days uni boyfriend breaks me thirty minutes dissociative behaviour found noose made extension cordsome may seen this post made days agohttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentshyqim_terrified_university_will_push_me_over_the_edgestjmhframpsheaf mentioned scared losing boyfriend last night came true im angry knows suicidal knows im alien environment support network this ruins breaks me found noose around neck made extension cord written redflag notes dont know do feel lost,1 +the first episode saw lost made think thought people crashed get chased giant monster like that far thatbecause monster every episode see lost well getting better every time deserted island underground bunker especially connection people crossed paths crashed thats real secretbr br this series rules cant wait know whats really going hope air last episodes theatersthis series deserves ,0 +im fucking scared mani know do cant get sleep night im distracted day girlfriend unprotected sex condom fitting well pulled even think got precum her im scared pregnant im ready die father cant dad yet itll weeks upon weeks agonizing wait would know sure cant get access plan b already almost late cant raise family think family family would end hating forever wish stayed virgin incels know lucky it,1 +im sitting car waiting go work bruh momentum,0 +always faulthello past never really someone talk to even still hard talk people problems instead ill post relieve sort burden eating past years born parents families mom sons dad children though mom dads family shattered met year later us moved different place fathers work mother father would fight every day resulting father beating mother multiple times knew mother would dumped since married my father still married another woman though cant separate due expensive filled deep regret knowing mother abandoned two children beaten dad everyday would reminded past memories mothers cuts wrists school bullied lots appearance top heart condition made fall deep depression tell mother it thing changed every time finished argument would yell accuse afterwards would hurt angry manner happened time turned age prayed prayed life get better resorts did dad stopped beating mom started good friends me matter try forget couldnt im even think friends mother father abandon still cant help feel like existed familys problems would happened always felt like shit useless individual never tell anyone one knows im like this sorry making long wanted put there thank reading far tho makes feel little better,1 +daily widsom every market africa black market,0 +honestly need find god smth idk kind wanna go like sort religious journey find sort spirituality anyway afterlife afterlife want id kinda want something like reincarnation maybe ill reincarnated viking warrior wholl conquer engand also like idea either given little pocket dimension whatever like getting create universe god of,0 +new husbands son suicidal tendencieshow spend day every day terrified itmy husband family know care anything asked part comfortable staying it least now understand im consumed fear time loved ones someone suicidal treat person like time bomb time cope daily thanks advance,1 +ill never get thisim lazy sack shit fix life ever simply lack discipline drive so whatever good things ill halfassedly worm happening deserved im simply incapable trying best cant even take fucking meds consistently try get therapy bothersome me want live better yet want fucking try live better worst part is im much coward even go deed im dooming life incredible mediocrity ill simply rot away without accomplishing thing thing im good english language im russian something ive learned still drive accomplish things get better something long gone im honestly incredibly pathetic even deserve redflag many people better understandable grave reasons it disgusting apathetic mediocrity,1 +let postive wrestled suicidal thoughts since ten years old figured phase since everyone went and goes sad times soon disappeared would rear ugly heads time time figured something deal life realized something wrong around suffered bullying elementary school felt suicidal then transferred another school bullying got worse new school however safe kind environment found lot new friends found typical firsts first real group friends first girlfriend first outings hangouts classmates things even participated activities representing school like spelling bee oratorical contest great time friends today still ones gained school graduated headed college first directionless took year economics but truth wanted journalism felt miserable look forward day though gained friends close high school friends boredom loneliness started crafting concepts stories became escape lucky survive year economics soon moved another college time journalism course enjoyed time learned lot also gained friends wed hang ice cream parlor grateful time learned lot things life operates graduating college directionless soon found footing still peak life time life felt get better job dj local radio station fun also met girl coworker fellow dj really liked her close essentially shifts right next other felt something romantically something held back expressing truly felt aside though also gym first time loved it watched ate trainer also became like big brother me became confidant life aware troubles well aspirations writer someday indian well point learned lot different cultures experiences world came britain lived singapore married filipino woman experiences shared stories new eyeopening realized phases life lot things would change people would come go would change hairstyle would change manner clothing interests hobbies would sometimes shift something new would always one constant would feel miserable life think even miserable peak gym radio heartbreaking painstaking me soon quit gym radio resorted neetjobless bum year family issues took drastic turn mother resented anything life getting job turn father figure blamed shortcomings mistakes siblings would make firstborn guess things would part life also maybe demons would always part life too ive always called demons ive never doctor get diagnosed something theyd take shape pretend old friends id let every single time falling lies now im english tutor local learning center feel like going work today wanna lie bed slink starve probably die sadly thats something cant life goes demons gnawing away me forced carry like baggage scares realize normal all still here supposed leave looked best gym found good job found girl could with supposed leave never come back happy thought demons manifestations sadness anger misery boredom werent theyd always know are destroying inside out maybe let feel nothing live feel directionless much heading college theres quote movie doctor strange ancient one said learn live demons cant even always crack ground stand on take right them thank anyone would read this needed get out,1 +ive made decision end lifejust need get chest today officially made decision kill myself likely happen later next month things keeping want get personal affairs order im visiting family soon may well see one last time go funny thing life even bad cheesy sounds death waiting doorstep think theres getting around it thats want say right now needed avenue release postdecision musings,1 +hey gamerdude sleep feel like dont lmao,0 +alright alright before everyone start get close leaves really seen coming not really thought would different never even close close someone before even though suck communication rarely talked struggles made soo much easier knowing alone would given life save yours without hesitation would given last penny without hesitation would lost limb without hesitation would lost sensory organ hesitation would lost regular organ hesitation would given car would given bike would given place live mad myself even depression redflag adhd finally drove away fucking terrible communication skills best friend even say hello alone,1 +suicidal greecethree weeks ago posted thread facebook group informing intention commit redflag sometime demand met serious talking facebook group meeting place right left wing liberals communists troll insult mainly politics demand greek state return income tax forced pay years unemployed yes unemployed people greece pay income tax thats want discuss here police arrested drove psychiatric clinic heraklion crete even let change clothes i dressed jobs clothing boots trying make living farming vegetables even let take personal hygiene stuff like toothbrush jailed dirty small enviroment called severe place first thing take cords boots provide slippers pajamas bed corridor small enviroment bedrooms full first thing notice lay bed cables lights ceiling clearly longer cords boots noticed metal thin disc incide bathroom blocked hole already bent ready use redflag enviroment really dirty patients throwing cigarette butts floor even spilling coffees bed which corridor meeting place everyone felt greek state wanted commit redflag pushing even ready it stayed hours weekend want stay anymore opened discussion nurses enviroment there tried serious risking handcuffed bed got scared especially metal disc bathroom saw eyes half hour psychiatrist met office quick discussion took severe place stayed week clinic mainly holidays doctors time evaluate me experience clinic thinking redflag even more wanted commit redflag mainly greek state really sucks taxes unemployed people like psychiatric treatment greek state makes even angry thinking commit redflag want public want post publishing place internet story every kind detail want also blackmail demands clear demand return income tax paid unemployed another demand least director tax agency agios nikolaos crete fired called order state unemployed forced pay income tax income made ironically asked me survive if income might bipolar depressive wrong angry greek state,1 +need advice dont know put sorry that ive friendzoned last week werent right me met one girl interests more like lot different others advice give approach this thanks advance stranger,0 +constantly myselffalling back old habits hurt today havent bruised long time again bad usually used hopelessness getting me lose little hope every day dont think im worth anymore want kill thing thats stopping make parents friends feel scares bad enough break might stop caring that im tired fucking life bringing everyone me dont want burden anymore convinced died tragic way would help everyone realize need live lives feel like death could good everyone want stop hurting bad,1 +confirmed im fucking idiot know kylie jenner lip challenge thing went around internet like years ago like minutes ago completely curious lips look like bigger fucked lips bruised theres purple red dots ill never again hurt ehen left alone stings bite habit have sad part lips looked exact bruises,0 +starting get desperatethis first post here really stand much others problems im now ive depressed years now ive ruminated redflag daily approximately last years ive always tried keep glimmer hope get better really know now feel may locked brain thinking pattern late break ive talked therapists taken medication spent time redflag ward done cognitive group therapy really type progress it things cant change im sure ill ever people able accept that things ive done still dwell now im sure ill ever able shake those cant support now rely parents money hurts much every time need ask more im unable even get look job though ive extremely fortunate parents family grew up ive wasted all many loves interests lifethe arts math people philosophy cooking cant get pursue anything love spend much time sleeping wishing sleeping mind races night thoughts things want do im terrified night going sleep know wake ill want stay bed unable function cant think anything im proud life regret feel completely unable get anything always fantasize violent deaths strength it ive prayed every god take away ive tried selling soul devil return ending life despite fact actually believe things near death experience years ago made wish death actually come wish could write without seeming like emo teenager decade lot though ths life spent wasting time seemingly quixotic task leading happy life could keep trying decades always really worth it better suffer,1 +really getting head againive done much progress self improvement keep getting lows redflag mind again im lonely feels like cant happy need someone talk to dobt know really express person need love feels like ive gone entire life without it im outsider wherever go family school friend group want love jo matter hard feels like work cant get it im important family im important friends im important anyone,1 +already feel dead forgottenive reached every platform possibly get somebody listen talk cannot express discouraged continue existence already everything planned out matter time set date months now ive given plenty warning yet overlooked shrugged everyone cant afford seek professional help im really trying im seeking conversation point genuinely believe mind made moment thanks reading,1 +ways wrath kriemhild surpasses siegfrieds death also loses films greatness plot one cohesive first quite amazing second half actual poem lot sloppier lot harder tread through until is get climactic battle scenes iliads better lang harbou embellished huns poetcompiler nibelungenlied know hun right ball result are less burgundians custom example although poet clearly describes etzel heathen which kriemhilds main concern rudiger tries persuade marry him gets hunland first thing go mass huns clearly heathens theyre almost like caveman depiction hilarious especially verbal jester two marvelous scenes etzels character given weight much formidable bemoan fate original poem lang harbou masterful building suspense especially banquet scene intercut verbals second performance amazing effect however nature half poem films amazing technical accomplishments missing one part except dazzling sequence etzels hall burns nibelungs inside one thing object way harbou changes ending spoilers poem hildebrand captures hagen gunther imprisoned kriemhild visits hagen cell demands reveal hidden horde refuses decapitates brother hagen still refuses decapitates him hildebrand or possibly dietrich disgusted woman would presume murder great warrior he turn decapitates her calling devil woman etzel much weaker poem here says something silly like ah me understand would want keep unity time place hildebrand brings castle retain prison settings two deaths would make film anticlimactic also understand hildebrand kill kriemhild character much reduced here name mentioned once but kriemhild kill herself adopting brynhilds death icelandic sources catering audience instead challenging them point poem kriemhilds wrath goes far beyond realm pure evil here simply die lost love interesting,0 +hours im going psychiatrist cant wait anyone struggles mental health problems please seek help second time im going psychiatrist last time swear felt like first time someone understanding made feel kind light makes sense,0 +say funniest jokes teenager ill start maaan teen rad bro able ollies school pop wheelies bro aint right fellow teens,0 +planning week kill myself hangingits sad dont want it overwhelming depression fear spend next years life earth scary die anyway people die young years old house make six figures business great social life shit dont care make social life better push people away anyway ive three great girls life could married started family with thought hot shit playboy reality wanted alone feel bad let parents down friends people close going disturbed upset this justifying it people deal grief soon dead too religious believe afterlife god think likely scenario blank nothingness never violent person never understood people shoot place kill themselves would never desire that would never hurt anyone anything especially animal dont get wrong dont like people would never think hurting someone didnt deserve it even deserve wouldnt balls im ranting now shame teens early s high aspirations wanted somebody wanted make alot money good things im stuck average severely depressed alone fucked last relationship due depression pushed away thats probably alone forever im sorry parents crush you hope stay strong best people know couldnt asked better parents love you plan hang probably week done dry runs really think it redflag notes written out plan get hotel room know sucks hotel staff cant parents find hanging plan leave hotel staff money least do,1 +short elements great movie every time show friends on dvr love too dialog so real acting superb effectsprops convincing themselves taken everything else shot expertly placedused music haunting perfect kind moment film people hold dear beliefs thoughts shaken core see movie go thats it end blossom new understanding leave movie one word describe itbr br beautiful beauty film also skin deep love fact conflicting views voices voices hear agreeing other conflict time one ending made love more harsh reality sometimes film worthy plot device twist br br wasnt joshua leonard guy blair witch project movie fictitious dead guygreat,0 +weird state really calm feel like redflag way problems lifei really tired betrayed lied to put people mostly mother really tells pathetic talk tells quiet shut up fiance also left year ago stole almost money move parents able pull depression even months seeing psychologist please refrain dont it much live for posts literally help psychological level also please refrain manipulation attempts using strategies like giving affirming redflag option looking somebody talk hopefully issues abusive parents relationships found way build positive environment themselves feel beaten barely get bed morning let alone hold job money get leave wish could do want climb whole feel sinking deeper deeper every day every time told something negative encounter anybody know talking aboutbeen shoes update realized simply need get out head house current mindset go know going embark adventure dog rv trailer see us maybe south america far focused money negative things life need get opposite side things peace love,1 + number mental breakdowns number near mental breakdowns nearly mental breakdown wish someone would understand going head time entry log day ,1 +growing late s s could help become fan science fiction americas space program top gear scifi books movies tv shows comic books fueled imagination opened mind possibilities exist universe farscape unlike scifi show yet ingredients made shows like star trek battlestar gallatica xfiles deep space nine personal favorites one criticisms farscape casual viewer cant jump watch one episode understand going on successful shows used multiple episode story arcs complicated characters one charms show need want story tied neatly end every episode like various incarnations star trek done all farscape wonderful funny characters running storyline says although humans may least evolved advanced intelligent species universe still unique qualities abilitiesbr br unfortunately shortsighted people scifi channel canceled farscapes th season stated cancellation based sagging ratings yet years ago top rated original series critical favorite shame artists help create show unable continue labor love fiscal problems channelcompany made possible first placebr br hey take word it watch show watch reruns make mind help save farscape,0 +certain thing story gold digger viola dana tenement house mother uses take care two brothers loving family although danas character opportunity marry streetcar conductor refuses holds millionaire everyone makes fun fantasy surprised one day really meet millionaire son owner popular abc restaurant chain two marry hastily girls dreams wealth shattered rich father disowns son marrying gold digger however truly loves new husband two unexpectedly successful making ownbr br a rare glimpse movie star viola dana film lot fun danas role accessible natural entertaining displays knack comedy well ability dramabr br the mechanics film lot fun too camera displays sophisticated late silent techniques like mobility title cards also incredibly cleverbr br if like films like best girl it patsy enjoy film,0 +saw movie dallas texas came remember giving prizes showing see movie seeing movie see why movie bad great problem movie tried tell side story created new story new characters tried wrap around masters saga biggest complaint plot second wave robotech masters attacking earth even used scenes master saga different dialogue kid loved movie unfortunately seen adult cant give better review looking back disappointed would love see movie reevaluate stance it said someone please release movie whole world judge love robotech cant wait shadows chronicles,0 +overdosed xanaxalcoholand norcos six years ago nyeit also birthday got diagnosed graves disease yearand thyroid radiated outi abusing drugs hating life foreveronce got diagnosed couldnt get med levels righti gave up ended eating ton pills drinking whole lot gin want live anymorei ended blacking outinstead dying got duicops found passed vehiclei crashed fence outwoke jail memory happened got years probation thing vehicle blow two years ended getting med levels right probation got xanax drugs xanax withdrawal fucking terrible happy nowwhich totally fucking insanemy mom died last yearmy dad brain damagedementiabeing alone dad taking care himwhile dyingis something couldnt dealt withand maybe getting close death made understand others suffering way feel help comfortable diesi every reason world get depressed want go on somehow getting meds right graves diseasegetting medication help anxiety cymbaltaand taking right sleep medication trazadonehas helped able cope better hope someone reads thisthey maybe see somebody got thought worse part lifethought point going livingand still able get could happyand deal things would destroyed years ago pictured finding peace lifebut peoples idea happy meansand must admit thought would like eitheris crazy thoughts peace felt likebut understand nowand hope ideas impossible ever happy lifedont get ramped ideal form happiness isits really reach feelsi really fucked childhood even crazier run drugsdepression panic attacksthings dont go awaybut way deal themand even way think changed forever didnt find religion anything even followtherapy never helped eitherbut knowing almost died would never even got point feeling happyand depressing anything ever went throughand thats saying fucking lot hope one gives living mei sure nothing deathi dont wish felt anybodyi know lots people worse still middle able decide go livingi dont want anybody die sad destroyed lifei hope get iti hope everyone find peace livinginstead dying,1 +answer question yes enjoy excellent movie ive seen couple hours ago paris where action movie takes placeand still feel huge trauma received back eyeswhat visual shock ive never seen beautiful blackwhite photo drastic change way animated movies strongly believe renaissance similarly saw pixar movies akira ghostintheshell experiences real breakthrough small world animated movies hope french initiative a small unknown french studio young folks dream named renaissance receive success recognition deserves vive la france ,0 +plan using now there probably coward try it either try pussy again things continue work me know go made noose closet tonight,1 +want find somewhere die im piece shit world fucked anyway long ventdont even know im posting wall text cant fucking tell anyone else cant weak im even able cry im postgraduate student biomedical science related degree always focused grades told started getting subject choice started hate it like turn back investing much life it think it applied wanted fuck home back high school mom suffered lot grandmother died every day would yell petty things sometimes throw shit around break stuff sometimes take it whenever said something back got worse went full mental breakdown telling hate her love give shit every day three whole years exceptions dad told shut up men like that studied ass able move uni uk back highschool fat nerd liked video games usually got beat humiliated every single day fought back broke someones nose sending guy hospital everyone said overreacted joke principal happy parents believed me happy verdict next time fuck im flying correctional facility bullying got worse everyone calling criminal now even fight back might fuck someone took beatings started skipping classes studying home night went nearby internet cafe classes play video games get high people met there regret it stuff kept killing myself closed id wander aimlessly inadvertently getting trouble occasion also time first cat died getting hit car true friend ever had got pets fine home now black furry little fucker one loved most always help get day day came uk uni good said everyone nice nice never managed fit in never got whole drinking clubbing thing really much disposable income others anyway stayed home studied played video games time relationship parents got better maybe realized left started respect wanted believe sweet lie everything ok get needy wanting always talk id want tell fuck off support home think care fucked way top worst porn addiction ever tried stop many times now cant brain used dopamine rush im im virgin might explain sexual frustration gets me could high sex drive might never know used fat fuck phimosis fixed both im used looking decent confident girl really liked back highschool asked point rejected partly fear might make fun might end getting ridiculed well seen me second one someone met time uni furthest went full makeout session tipsy decided fess said kissing skills horrible bad idea said anymore left straight away contact afterwards thought would pathetic actually tried fapping watching porn sexual frustration gets control managed month went one day period ended trying get phone numbers bar got rejected got shitfaced afterwards thinking decided stay couple drinks bouncer tried kick out flipped shit got fight started pushing me knocked think broke nose fucked right speed light went home wank decided drink frequent bars again recently started postgrad life bad made lot friends somehow im even popular see mask put on even admire fact im mysterious unyielding brick wall even got girls course interested me theyre interested something casual really wanna go risk crap getting out sense im surrounded people yet still fucking alone im thinking going back home join army maybe help find place die reason forgotten im stuck past barely even feel alive wish someone could beat im within inch death maybe ill find reason live never told anyone crap friends family tell reason depressed ive kept shit myself now,1 + left bank account new job pays biweekly means ill starving weeks plan visit local food bank figured might well reach fellow redditors also leave link wishlist bellow guys help would gladly appreciate it,0 +life confessionso im twin best friend world years old used cuddle him im dude problem started getting aroused never directly sexually abused him disgusting didnt understand happening time didnt even know sex was completely wrong looking back innocent idea meant doing got older remembered hates guts lost ability maintain arousal since relationships women ive never relationship dude now im longer function sexually women ive tried every type porn nothing turns now brother turned started making fun people thought friends assumed gay maybe told happened s people really homophobic back big deal embarrassment me gay didnt know whether was got really depressed started dating women ended getting schizophrenia suffered schizophrenia became religious delusional kept dating women sometimes function sometimes not met ex wife son really fulfilling sexual relationship son born birth defects hes beautiful boy love him never independent doesnt speak always wear diapers marriage fell apart developed sex addiction demanding sexually ex wife bordering abusive take full responsibility im shit human being wanted out broke up psychotic episode began addiction prostitutes now im lost function call escorts weekly cant anything them pay letting try im sex addict looking back life realize im scum need die ive always scum,1 +parents say i know everything you really think that theyre likei know everything know like know masturbated yesterday day before so when cant answer joking masterbating btw,0 +feelings comes want end myself know cannot try forcing go out ride scary shit go unstable online talking strangers night feel fucking horrible talk people it like problems even anymore absolutely force tell bothering you think about hell bothering anyway awful bothering me enough discontented life even alright never alright nothing left lost relatives parent close dying hate jinxing shit up life meant fucked anywayi know even want unhappy years ill old regret taking chances life know damn well able things now like sleeping playing games even fun shitty dreadful feeling hanging behind body like wanting take shit cannot think dying fantasizing die days die feels bit better remember kid thinking least id die id leave thousand dollars stacked floor room still imagine sometimes id run away far away golden gate bridge finish life talking people forced,1 +overwhelmed hopelesschristmas kid gamble safety net income tax refund safety net tapped years due transmission repair summer im behind rent electric days loans months car needed brake work tires tune maybe refund cover it im still behind sure ill dig enough stay water next right next going drown me hate living constant uncertainty get happy place experience got failed marriage sure ill things finally give hopefully painless years long enough,1 +want die courage end ityet know im afraid dying staying pain im sure intense intense go day day lay empty bathtub imagining would like bleed out course im afraid pain id put loved ones through cant take anymore,1 +decided wear male thong school today bad decided wear one school today dont know have idk anyone notice thoughts would say anything,0 +started trial nd impeachment donald trump guess funking groundhog day hope irony lost anyonelol,0 +extraordinary film musically made feel awful rodrigues died chance see live know performed marvelous lincoln ctr concert mightve there painful beyond wordsbr br i purchased first amalia recording musical recording fantastic able film see face tremendous expressiveness passion sings songs terrible sadness wonderful sort like seeing face mary cradles jesus arms pieta watching film reminded witness similar extraordinary concert performance mercedes sosa mid s lincoln ctr sat listening mercedes sing felt presence tremendous spiritual musical force contained awesome primal power the art amalias musical segments touching caetano veloso paying tribute amalia singing one songs solo front packed concert hall musical segments also convey incredible international sweep musical repertoire bonds created w fans throughout entire world one segment claims played every single town italy stagebr br in another section amalia talks bout w mouth cancer came nyc commit suicide hotel yet watching fred astaire film videos gradually persuaded life worth living turned away killing herself amazing later film quite bravely directly admits interviewer though mightve conquered world musically personal life one pure sadness admits never happy unbearably sad hear perfectly keeping w singer steeped fado which translates bad destiny bad luck tradition also one longs hear personal life made sad disappointmentsbr br the art amalia little disappointing major areas quibbles show full songs film yet provide english translation last one seems waste unless film intended portuguese speaking audience cant imagine see profound pain face sings understand lyrics let down minuses almost biographical material amalias family background one sec snippet w singing w mother its absolutely grand one short reference parents moving fr countryside lisbon wouldve loved see film footage village came from interviews almost solely w amalia close friends good great subject interview subjects experts fado portuguese culture society get depth understanding musical rootsbr br in short wonderful film everyone interested amalia see perfect definitive work subject,0 +know whether point going seems helpless ill ever mental head space want again free worry getting life seems unrealistic now ever happy,1 +help redflag self harm feel safeteaching ever dreamt growing up absolutely hate it dont know do feel like dreams shattered dont know start over quitting life would safe havent suicidal years dont know move self harm could shower school body would know days,1 +imagine briish accent today boom gear have ampxb hammond kills child jaguar xkr ampxb james may eats sandwich swallows cup o tea ampxb talk,0 +feel horriblei wanna die miserable alive one friends sad dont wanna die shell sad but time pass forget,1 +cant handle pain anymoreive gone lot trauma life im tired pain im going put dog today know right choice pain end hell peace keep thinking cant too mercy end pain cant peace horrible want end suffering know cant family want pain end want peace wish could let go,1 +aint good but ill fineso know feeling pretty run mill around here throwaway instead im lurker recent honestly looking someone help anymore years dealing depression time even succeeded point i still here umpteenth time find sitting alone weeks wondering bother life spent alone worth living really thats legit question know read want comment here thats thing either living life alone long believe anyone help reached out let close fiends know walking line kind enough let know talk needed lol know me reach help like ever fact came looking solace sort warning self also told ready give life conversations naturally led way normally happygolucky kinda guy love make people happy late cant even make smile unless thinking ways get life hard time finding reason continue beyond family seemingly persistent lie things get better tryingwaiting things get better better part decade see point suffering anymore know presently suicidal actions many many thoughts would leave healthy person believe otherwise tired feeling like yesterdays newspaper everyone wants throw trash never think rest lives want someone cared about know ever case,1 +want goat best friends place wanting wait til go sleep leave raped march th tried therapy managed home husband since even though fault anyones fault cant seem recover enough combos meds end shit ive put everyone through regret sooner wouldnt affecting anyone,1 +guys imagine ifi captured aliens post cry help wouldnt funny,0 +morbid catholic writer gerard reve jeroen krabb homosexual alcoholic frequent visions death invited give lecture literature club vlissingen railway station amsterdam feels noncorresponded attraction handsome man embarks another train gerard introduced treasurer club beautician christine halsslag rene soutendijk wealthy widow owns beauty shop sphinx one night stand next morning gerard sees picture christines boyfriend herman thom hoffman recognizes man saw train station suggests bring herman house spend couple days together secret intention seducing man christine travels kln bring boyfriend gerard stays alone house drinks whiskey snoops safe finding three film reels names men decides watch footages discover christine married three guys died tragic accidents later gerard believes christine witch question whether herman doomed fourth husband br br the ambiguous the vierde man another magnificent feature paul verhoeven dutch phase story supported excellent screenplay uses catholic symbols build tension associated smart dialogs magnificent performance jeroen krabb role disturbed alcoholic writer stunning cinematography inconclusive resolution open interpretation like many european movies explore common sense intelligence viewers mediocre directors use front nudity men promote films however paul verhoeven uses nudity gerard reve part plot never aggressive seeking sensationalism last least androgynous beauty sexy rene soutendijk perfectly fits role woman attracts gay writer vote eightbr br title brazil o o homem the th man,0 +girls yall ever laying holdin titty warm,0 +one days im finally iti cannot believe im weak takes bad days im back abyss again staring it slowly swayed gentle calming voice ive limbo far long years since started developing suicidal thoughts cant seem shake off markers suicidal thoughts smoking excessive drinking binge gaming procrastination resources world live life entrepreneur cant productive one day people miss im gone least legacy leave friends love me disappointed mistake mistake mistake keeps piling up im fucking failure life im killing life somewhat meditative writing thoughts bright spots least recognize people life love me work god knows people going right now still breathing many more dark spots life consuming hate it,1 +love movie everything bonnie hunt fantastic job cowriting directing costarring film david duchovny plain hot minnie driver cute ever combine talent david allen grier carol oconnor robert loggia joley richardson jim belushi oscar worthy movie im surprised get one seen it go rent dvd watch put directors commentary onbonnie hunt fabulous,0 +say cannot breathe mask openly admit furries stronger you let sink,0 +love strangewhen love someone wellbeing main thoughts like embodiment soul littlest things smiling one another causing explosion emotions running every cavern body biggest life moments share moment separated creates longing are presence gone like part disappearedvanished though see reunited heart cant keep steady begin hear pounding outside chest even though something hurts allow endure pain means one love happy happiness matters building up supporting one anothers goals dreams rejoicing others accomplishments moments strengthens soul connection ties relationship drives closer closer are truly grateful appreciate you shining light cruel world opening eyes beauty hidden mysteries around us blessing truly wonderful being universe life general funny way making things work out thankful here whether chose read not aint going force nothing going leave message anyone ever felt way life cruel place meet others yes life get tough need grit teeth stand tall know confidence got this initiative pilot life positive outcomes know here alive enjoy alive share positive deeds others around you,1 +dont know helpi really hope everyone gets better life apparently activism isnt allowed want talk im here,1 +absolutely sure bisexual two yearseven depressionbut last month feel sexually attracted something tried watch pornbecause kind worrying attractes anyone lolbut still feel anythingsoperhapsi count asexual please judge mei know sound strange sexual preferences change depression,1 +little quiz whats tall black mysterious gru latex suit fucking degenerate filer filer filer filer filer filer filer filer filer filer filer filer,0 +dumbassesstupid people know much deserve live one die me stfu live great worth it,1 +ptsd really common mean everywhere go get told smth like you might childhood trauma stupid stuff me like crying homework getting bad garde afraid think ptsd really strong word people whove actually bee disturbing shit theres lot people running around saying ptsd that feel like gives less value people whos actually traumatised thing happens depression rape victims dont know understand tbh,0 +appointment tomorrow sure stupid idea go feel empty numb cannot feel emotions feel like shut down tried cry like even capable cry anymore know say psychiatrist asked here thinking hard answer question even know truly bothering me people much worse do yet even see psychiatrist ,1 +im love cozy sweater button undershirt look looks cute comfy see person wearing beanie sweater button undershirt think wow look cute friendly wanna friend,0 +guys found something searching stuff realised flashpoint theyre revamping fireboy watergirl look article httpsyoutubedqwwwgxcq found,0 +family member tried overdose paracetamolthey took paracetamols dont know mg mg sure severity likelihood pull anyone knows,1 +need mc gamers im bored get full affects fire protblast protprojectile prot need one piece armor matter boots cp helm anything idk im seems like cool idea one every situation,0 +heard u get famous literally anything act like famous thing world,0 +want kill nowok got poor evaluation work low raise come home dad yells me family leaves without go fish fry please help feeling dead,1 +im experiencing one darkest periods life amd family thinks better solution always insult meits months life circle shitty things every day wake up watch online classes get insulted parents go sleep think im going crazy okay weekend online classes wake up get insulted go sleep always telling sleep much nothing day everyday same want kill courage yet guess days pass want die do im going run away family time ago covid made every plan escaping impossible,1 +tried killing last nighti tried killing last night xanax alcohol im sure feels worse fact tried fact succeed head messed years living like way live,1 +ive realised dreamworks produced lot animated shows netflix people actually care about stuff like voltron kipo shera turbo fast tales arcadia shows etc never would thought studios behind shrek would behind shows,0 +know diff girl likes u nice you cause honestly dont know im scared ask them since already told crush them,0 +ready goi want kill self seriously dont give fuck anymore im ive spent whole life forcing shit happy always same friends go dont care see anymore force take new things hoping ill find answer push limits comfort zone hoping meet new people fleeting bull shit genuine lasting connections death seems like best option dad says need strong selfless stick around family dont care dont want live feeling like shit tried fucking hard always get shit on wanted find somebody loves understands older get realize thats bull shit try try really fucking hard never works countless attempts know soul never dont kill self ill end alone parents eventually die itll married siblings kids spinning wheels like fucking loser shitty fucking loser get with,1 +spied short dvd best new zealand shorts great french doors amazing starts slow wonder anything going happen relax hum drum home renovation spookiest thing happens br br eeeekkk wanted stop watching glued br br the films dips primal fear dark little any special effects chills right bone simple yet brilliant concept opened memories young dreamt improbably spooky situations br br the film makers visual style bang lead character takes convincingly story quality short seen quite time br br the french doors hallmarks great feature alas finishes ten minutes so never less great ending begs want know more br br loved well done thanks ride new zealanders really turning talentbr br a new fan,0 +dont know doi cant kill cant live either ended life like wanted to would hurt family put burdens them dont want live anymore dont find joy anything nothing matters,1 +crush said yes currently morning india im happy sleep im th grade gf crush since th grade,0 +wish depressedi want get things outs cuz really cant talk anybody this im depressed mean want die im going sure feel sad anything like that want keep living like it enjoy here like feeling belonging say im super happy everything great feel depressed kind wish was last id answer feel way used things grounding keeping ive stopped caring long time ago quit school and thats saying something always a good girl never misbehave stopped caring stopped caring family friends like things used to anything day reason im money pay funeral whatever cheapest idk else say needed get somethings going bed bye guesssss,1 +m need new friends need new best friends long term friendship with things love play video games specifically valorant among us apex legends minecraft java edition programmer working first ever game moment live california would cool could get people well anybody interested please pm me oh also would love people age range also timezone pst thanks ,0 +bruh friends taking bdsm test rice purity test and holy shit man thought bad one thing coming and rest zero kink test rice purity score bruh like many kinks low purity score feel uncomfy innocent lol,0 +im constantly wishing deadhave depression anxiety since teenager medication im f going divorce husband m years hes really screwed lots issues toxic parents coming now im depressed alone new city moved him feel like im losing everything future dont want future dont care anything go day running errands volunteering animal shelter etc wish dead pain would stop,1 +technofailsanyone else feel like technology failures play huge part suicidality sometimes me computer freezes phone kicks website takes sad weepy semifunctional flopped bed sobbing unable get up feel like makers technology realized trigger be maybe theyd make suck less,1 +name junei struggled depression social redflag since gotten worsei exposed internet learned well everything know nowjust diagnosed learning disorder depression social redflag diagnosed struggle severe social redflag depressioni friends years earlier yearthey assholes glad left themin may admitted special ed school forced attending summer camp following weekit terrible one day tell make outi friend online friendmy family could never know would person trust taken away mei struggle suicidal thoughts wanted die since turned hatched plan october never able toi want diethe things keeping alive friend genshin impact lose friend fall apart loud yelling banging screamingit everywhere house loud want everyone shut up family could never understand iti came non binary omnisexual parents early i felt made fun them never ended using correct pronouns me try never actually happensi want kill myself cannot tell anyone elsetldr non binary kid rants abt life want kts lowest point,1 +biggest formal exam couple months could best suggestiontip advice hello guys okay exam couple months actually pretty far away now summer prepare it want guys give advices exams it course ps im talking school examsin maths english on btw really important country really plays important role pass thing able study university,0 +need helpmy girlfriend tried commit redflag last night asleep type one diabetic luckily smell insulin woke up took minutes convince drink sugar fix sugars know support think know got situation would rather say here im loss everything going well guess says otherwise rd time ive stopped ending cant find way make better im trying get get professional help seems think work considering one year previously deeply love want trying get know something worth living time asked let die last night accept that happy world keep stopping selfish know anymore,1 +want cuddle girl sex cuddle want company someone loves me accepts me respects me want hang someone accepts care flaws looks positive side me want lie cuddle girl im comfortable with comfortable me im probably going get called simp hey really want,0 +point life right horrible sibling child friend constantly mean people even accident maybe worst person world maybe kill,1 +dont know doso decided take gap year college seemed like good idea know wanted study mean completely fucked up year bad friends left actually miss high school one normal thing familys dysfunctional gets just bunch narcissists like lash anything say doesnt match opinions ive aunt told kill said believe god one time might lately redflag think,1 +know parties happening like consult want go party,0 +im happy right gt first time posting subreddit post got removedgtgt,0 +free sat class scorer hey guys im gonna free class next week became consistent scorer hit want join want give back sub gave much me,0 +get f chat longer upload images big rip yes used emoji please dont downvote high hell,0 +ive pushed everyone cared awayim scared alone dying alone living along pushed things made feel less lonely scared lonely dont know point feels like end like theres life need help ive asking help people seem care dont notice,1 +please help meive posted didnt get enough replies two weeks ago broke boyfriend got along well loved much thought manipulative evil person told wasnt told would love matter oneday something kind annoying breaks like would understand little annoyed breaking fun didnt make sense god miss much ive thinking hanging last thing life made happy thing could come life make happy dream building portal going anime world everyone tells never accomplish do please need help,1 +thats folksive decided end life birthday two days pretty grim know reality much morose im empty long forgot like happy see faults loneliness went past killing instead keeping alivewell going days,1 +im going jump next weekim going hiking next week im going disconnect safety rope jump im friends talent hate face body parents abusive constantly fight whats even point going anymore live next years complete agony die old horribly depressed memories full abuse self hate whats bet wont even it ill get close edge ill pussy like always do useless piece shit cant even kill properly dont deserve live im fucking coward always been hopefully much longer,1 +feel disconnected causing want kill myselfi turned suffering depression since recently started feel disconnect experience things feel far away them like im simply body depression seems getting worse sometimes also feel may bipolar disorder know sure moment disconnected feeling change feel people still love family death love friends etc feel weird also makes feel guilty guilty feeling do making want end life ive ever wanted to feel like im experiencing anything anymore still get angry laugh cry etc but feel extremely distant all thats it thanks reading,1 +fantasize lot dying gotten point actively trying kill anymore driving fantasize wrecking dying process wish could sleep wake up maybe accidentally hurt badly actively trying die anymore definitely would care happened want die want purpose,1 +chester benningtons redflag put edgeevery single person reached left hanging made attempt july since every single person knew turned eventually theyve cut off stopped talking me told welcome home exactly depressed little empathy compassion world people demonstrated indeed truth im getting closer closer heard chester benningtons redflag first thing said damn brave enough follow through heard chesters redflag reached friend said really bad place said id call fifteen minutes friend answer phone pm phone call never returned response text goodbye last friend thought had,1 +yall thinking dumb shit like meaning life ask important questions taddy girl boy,0 +remember seeing promos show appeared back time age feels weird seen cult show start end look back itthe s sudden seem far away great decade anyway used watch monstervision time huge fan monster flicks horror films like s version chiller theater mstk get dvds joe bobs show least monstervision interesting informative lot joe bobs comments info films hilarious movies shown show b c grade showed lot house films well like hammer films england top notch well many stop motion majesty ray harryhausen many oddball flicks see anywhere else like japanese scifi movies besides course godzilla familiar almost everyone independent movies like metal storm motel hell new decade film preservation independent minded directors think monstervision would good show ifc pick up since already hit ifc grind house show im sure show picked nostalgia reasons day guess wait see thats great television,0 +want learn draw nekked girls maybe clothed ones mostly nekked ive taken ddrawing classes like times school still kinda suck,0 +found biggest pp among boys sure ur supposed w info want,0 +really need someone talk toim much coward come family im afraid found everyone would hate get embarrassed prideful talk friends it would feel like im complaining ive thought redflag death lot lately think would ever actually thought still whatever means,1 +ive never done before yet seems talking anyone pointless friendsmy whole life ive sacrificed love despite jeopardizing stability fruitless theres genuine people look family support joke family ignores cries desperation undermineminimize anything say one takes seriously repeatedly say need friend need answers none family takes seriously merely exist day day cry everyday everyone suggests yells see doctor many times medicated good majority life ill days simply cant settle superficial friendships relations always way ive without actual friend years think know greatly one person effect life me significant genuine person difficult find make anything feel worth it children even motivate something painful admit guilt feasts every single day one listens think dying every single day cant focus anything else ive sacrificed others never amount anything certainly nothing show it idea ultimate sacrifice seems thing left offer anyone world,1 +committing redflagif believe afterlife think happens next punished read many ndes really curious wish could assure ok know family okay without me need know ok mm grapefruit wont hurt,1 +yeahh ima sleep today lol gngn,0 +im sorry guys actually catch feelings crush like yeah theres kids think cute like ive never caught feelings solid crush want relationship bad ive never anyone ive liked lot tried friends with build relationship like guys this i say guys mean boys girls everyone lol,0 +neighbour named new cat anime character ultimate bruh momentum filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +cry help blowing brains sunriseive made decision time leave place,1 +anyone wanna talk oceania bored feeling bit bc leave grandads yesterday sydney go dads island basically swimsurf playstation auckland rip anyone oculus lmk bc able bring w here im lonely looking online friends,0 +bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruhbruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh bruh,0 +think mistakei honestly think mistake im girl sibling trio self confidence lose trust parents every day excuse redeeming quality fact everyone sees crappy drawings likes them overdose anxiety meds,1 +sister law attempted redflag last month please help shall family doesnt happen againmy brother married dec live india arrangedthen loveish marriage brother works job requires live different parts countryso naturally live away us last monththey went holiday destination sisterinlaws friend husband friend always abused husbandalways fights whatnot always say get divorced always lives together husband also big lunatic soas usual fighting resort silsister law tried console them shemy sil also weird personalityshe gets influenced easily friend slaps abuses brother first occurred resort brother slapped stay put started tearing clothes then said u want fight lets go home resolve there want create scene there sil always roaming everywhere friend eventually brother guy always together sil infuriated brother would give attention time went bastard abused bro guy next dayin morning fought brother ran shore somy brother ran save her waves high raining due tropical stormeventually four beach hurled abuses friends husband sameshe slapped guy also slapped times brother interfere fault they came roomand fight broke bro herher friend came acted like kerosene hour big fight started tearing clothes brother gifted her claimed brother smacked guys ass that favor take side instant jumped nd floor resort brother rushed grabbed hands lost grip somehow landed railing st floor fell ground floor ambulance came admitted spoke brother properly days always asked divorcehe always said lets go home get done th th vertebrae column got compressed ankle broke pieces like complete mental breakdown would cry one instantthen said wont leave youthe next moment wanted divorce called best friend attacked brother verbally loser control say much fearing consequences friend husband left place took flight back home brother somehow toiled back train doctor advised complete bed rest permit use plane alsoa complaint police made hospital investigations disposed said everyone fell stairs later leg surgery doctor advised complete bed rest least months let back heal extreme pain sat straight now bit sil done graduation years earlier pursue studies listening best friend instead started preparing competitive exam failedshe problem epilepsy currently ongoing medicine improvement visible seizures around every months approx watch single movietv show hobbynor like readtraveletc sheafter marriage made brother center world like obsessed him importing thing people think her incidentshe told brother tell done injury anyone tell us mother got angry sad told mother sil fought brother told motherthat heart condition watnot earlier also threatened brother would slit wrist celebrate birthday mall brother busy day single second free offered go next day year course father suggested do got enrolled earlier year completely hated course teaching job as well reputed govt jobs she failed qualify for family decided start psycho therapy soon gets better cure depression todaya causal conversation going asked rethink could ended badly nowi told never forget intensity situation shw could diedor paralysis dire consequences brother could go jail things told stop caring people think dont let anyone else come two people influence you still blames brothers fault favor herand bitch friend brainwashed mind accept fault when said if similar fight happens two you would again said no asked not repliedit hurt much time cant imagine hurting body know love body much one stops eatingif finds gm weight increasedshe always go gym one maintains hair personality show everyone want always right think good her ampxb answer worries much thinking past hours hence writing gain insight family next worried brother ampxb please bear english grammatical mistakes,1 +would like offer brothers sisters sorting new free flight a super tucano given chance would you httpspreviewreddittifqhynbrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsaeaeccfafffdebcaaee ampxb httpspreviewredditcjxqenbrpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsafdafcceefe,0 +want lovedtoday asked boyfriend really loved went quiet im done really want loved right now know shouldnt look outside sources happiness really need loved want proven wrong people really love me unconditionally see last post youll see last night wanted die got though mainly distracted happy things like watching shows youtube videos right pain unbearable im sorry ill try make today dont worry haha,1 +uninteresting title text post not optional,0 +think time getting close cant take much longeri assume older here lets say around ish suffered entire life major depression anxiety generally miserable often not ive tried meds therapy effect points life starting teens adult life recent psychiatrist almost year ago broke trust fired shortly lost insurance health problems outside mental health continuous need care feel basically lived life without living last years im married feel like ultimate drag relationship every way really believe death thing make everything else better havent worked probably years due anxiety spouse made decent living cover us recently always horrified get treatment guess spouse somewhat enabled wanted get insurance all reasons wont disclose cannot get ssdi would play system get ssi thats even option year one absolute disaster tired living slow motion train wreck learned darknet got needed finally put end life ive sitting things month think time getting close actually something ive thought checking hospital telling plan perfected mask hides sign going head course life almost reflexively put pretty sure think im lying admit me honest dont think really want admitted really think past helped fixing life long time ago one point hoped admit feelings maybe get emergency coverage somehow dont see possible now want misery,1 +ill answer question want edit question fuck reditmyreddit im lazy make post,0 +driving test anxiety driving test scheduled next week already feel nerves creeping in know drive pressure getting me anyone advice calm nerves test im worried ill sike well,0 +believe months now months since turned back god concluded various reasons cannot loving god therefore hope future miss it miss something could believe in gone now never come back im dark place time hope nobody coming save me end die alone try,0 +film opens director talking camera saying going show story brazilain street kids whose families live poverty must steal kill survive fact main character pixote played actual street kid years old follows one brutal depressing horrifying film ive even seen saw years ago on double bill black orpheus never forgotten it think ever want see againit much br br spoiler ahead scene leave pixote meets prostitute abort fetus see itbut get quick glance got out almost years later recalling scene upsets me spoiler endbr br the movie gets brutal goes along ends way can whats harrowing stories like really happen brazil and still happening todaybr br a harrowing brutal filmbut seen handle it im surprised got r ratingive seen x rated film less graphic ,0 +im okayhello new friends lets say name danny im currently going hardest part life days ago evaded capture police want broke contactprotection order went jail got bond payed bond left jail simple right well im screwed broke order stupid open mouth type n vent cause thank god gave ability feels like cant express feeling unless wanna go jail oppressive n depressing days ago found messed thirsty ass police town went man hunt dark pm n im sitting random parking lot car parked reversed undercover white car sneaks acting sus first drives slowly turns direction n starts pinning react quick didnt know cop soon im pinned realise whats happening n quickly reverse back curb n grass turned quick escaped pin drive around back turns police lights another normal cop entrance blocked hop curb escape n go low speed chase hot ass see stopped mins never mind quit job go jail sit jail months lose ls cant drive probably take car bc texted someone im reported missing n suicidal honestly ive never felt worried sad im sure ima crash car commit days im running money im scared go work cold im sleeping car im rock bottom im hurt hurt young man back square one fight left guys progress gone tears face fuck shit nothing thank u reading may god love way hell love kingdom,1 +anything live forit seems like every day ask question everyday no home parents constantly fighting whether amongst me amount control want insane added social media ask add someone online internet go pm im senior high school course led missing grades handed online late seems reasoning shoot even make argument ive got close friends couple others hang school im never really invited stuff really close friends ive tried leaving people looking people actually close give shit me come avail ive couple relationships ended shittiest way possible first one kinda ghosted ignored confronted them looked like asshole one ended cheating another girl half relationship im cucked one still wants guy treats like actual garbage cheats every day matter much time ive spent talking her trying help her recently looked group play video game competitively found one months lot member grew close take break focus anything said quitting there also lot drama happening want it look here httpsimgurcomazxcu literally everybody ignored message another person left seemed like everybody mom say something like topdog team took break month times like make question even exist head seems like karma world try selfless can somebody asks project them something them find hard say no get pushed lot even inconveniences me still it why believed built enough karma id get back one day seems like never get back sorry long post wanted vent,1 +hey everyone wanted get stuff chest sorry wrong place this hey everyone sorry wrong place wanted chat guess last months ive kept feeling sadder sadder struggle sleeping cant eat without feeling guilty feels like nothing makes happy more think might depression think im qualified make decision feel like im allowed feel sad come middleclass background feel like lot people much less fine living day day lives always feel like im useless thing im good making everyone around sad also feel like everyone judging constantly thats relevant information think now ill add post think anything feel free give advice ask question comments ill respond feel comfortable answering it anyway thanks reading hope nice day,0 +im gonna get snacks stay safe everyone,0 +please someone chat me feel super hopeless want cry cannot feel empty,1 +th birthday today th birthday im drivers test ive stressing past week girlfriend angry stressed tired leave house meet her understand stress gone towards little bit asshole almost every week wanted distract stress seems like wasnt dealing shit much asshole mean started arguments fights arguments stupid shit mean felt like fucks felt like it ive tried tell dont like yet still it started yesterday fucking tired leave house like cmon havent able sleep well yesterday wake am last drivers lesson booked early lesson due school im asshole tired life stressed driving school normal school like like yesterday couldnt come instead well said house boring pack stuff move doesnt allot stuff doesnt pack last two days move usually might end im tired stuff good family plenty pets cats dog yes every family problems ive told im jealous has allot shit relationship recent ones life going well school going well im home alone i live alone due fact parents moving portugal im really lonely due covid aswell friends dont even contact anymore hope pass exam today borrow dads car drive whole night really thankful loving family feel lonely spent days alone sorry long text want ask anything ask ill answer,0 +done much get here financially stable looks fit healthy thought id happy not kept trying think things different thinking it made it enough kept betrayed used feel dumb vulnerable wish anyone myself people like gets sacrificed movies people live better lives nice sin sign people available used abused taken advantage of never learn lesson keep giving people second third chances tired things better years ago time stop trying time end all means lose point it responsible suicide,1 +recommend watching film significant planning romantic evening himher chemistry johnny weissmuller maureen osullivan tarzan jane steamy could fog screenbr br after original film begin see tarzan jane adapted jungle other janes skimpy jungle wear tarzans protest jane covers visitors illuminates romantically also quite sexually lovebr br ones imagination supplement constant touching love talk tarzan jane portray much jane actually teaching tarzan love emotionally romantically sexually janes student embracing also thriving previously untapped sexualitybr br the skin show film charts addition janes twopiece sexy midriff leg hip baring costume also underwater nude swim tarzan although osullivan olympic swimmer josephine mckim doubles scene weissmuller also reveals tremendous body perfect pectorals barely loincloth ladies delight weissmuller emerges water lengthy fight giant crocodile sounds yell water soaked loincloth practically falling hipsbr br its shame overprotective censors toned adult nature tarzan films entry although weissmuller tarzan films would still prosper years come would rarely approach sex appeal movie,0 +lesbian sick tired portrayed movies tv sad person forever vacillating suicide homicide never destined find happiness br br if like me fed hollywoods antilesbian propaganda breathe sigh relief delightful offering bbc nan astley daughter oysterhouse restaurateur wonders cant feel way freddy one local lads eye set her falls falls hard kitty butler male impersonator visiting theatre troupe nan accompanies kitty london dresser br br not everything happens nan pleasant story things squeakyclean either win heart story love triumphant leave beautiful lump throat endbr br if lesbohating macho man homophobic housewife brand religious fundamentalist believes homosexuals die go hell series you heart believe love cry end much did,0 +peoplei idk didmy comment karma times post karmamy comment karma post karma oh wow,0 +mental breakdown front dad people snicker sometimes school one kid called school shooter overreacting feel like,0 +psa attention please every dollar donated church dollar put genetically engineering cat girls for horde,0 +get political anything but dont like trump dont like authoritarianism love guns weed,0 +femboys yall cute lets talk filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +hospital bills make wanna try againisnt funny life works someone calls police you go hospital attempting kill self get hospital bills wanna try succeed fml,1 +yo tho tong feels cut eating lot smarties,0 +anyone work related suicidal feelingsim wired live society structured way cannot old job everyday early morning early evening days week im wired it insane me ive plenty jobs im good im capable im consistent makes working life impossible cannot survive society embarrassing,1 +given christopher nolans string successful films brainer want check filmography watch debut feature shot black white back england running less minutes long done little budget containing hallmarks made master filmmaker storytellerbr br though short film less gripping meandering plot leave guessing premise even scratch surface tale pretty amazing considering depth narratives structure characterization told follow writer wannabe called bill jeremy theobald starts habitual obsession following random people fancies streets voyeuristic manner first could conceived research starts make rules break thembr br he meets charismatic cobb alex haw turns robber peculiar sensibilities modus operandi soon finds hooked hanging go breaking entering speculating victims livelihood pursuit femme fatale blond lucy russell mobsters moll rejects every advancebr br told nonlinear fashion comes scenes quite add beginning sets film multiple viewings study nolan sustains suspense intrigue audience expecting wanting more gets duly delivered enough twists spins film dizzying crescendo loose ends begin come together brilliance stellar story start shine throughbr br its also amazing how first feature shot cheap something clever sophisticated conceived experience burgled nolan involved every stage production writing shooting producing directing worked project year since shoots happen weekends guess heres example successful filmmakers humble roots serve inspiration spur new filmmakers there ill patiently wait christopher nolans inception due later year whose trailer already tease,0 +one thot two thot red thot blue thot going doctor im gonna get flu shot,0 +im gonna gate this fuck it typing song mobile part life jacksepticeye bouncin around speed sound im alone alonecan see me lights around hello hello hello hello light battery might die im beyond words know why god could deactivate deactivate heart made stone of stone life ohooh right ohooh realized might know hell going on fool once fool twice im still gonna try oh im gonna carry on oh break bones mine im still champion life ohooh life life ohooh life play ay ay im say im gonna smack ass major way game game game designed play badly thats game bedown windy river go angsty teen know shadows reality dream even know best be life ohooh right ohooh realized might know hell going on fool once fool twice im still gonna try oh im gonna carry on oh break bones mine im still champion life ohooh life life ohooh life come along run away me fail better feel come me gravity good ol eggs benedict thats me thats me good ol jackseptibenedict thats wanna be eggs benedict theyre fuckin delicious way might need eggs benedict every day every day eggs benedict eggs benedict eggs benedict end day were tryin find eggs benedict life ohooh right ohooh realized might know hell going on fool once fool twice im still gonna try oh im gonna carry on oh break bones mine im still champion life ohooh life life ohooh life probably get back up also jacksepticeye ive already done way songs bad lip reading,0 +mewhy born life shit good parents loving home one suffer life charmed cant beautiful face beautiful body beautiful mind fair want someone choke im dead want shoot head want fucking die fair fair fair,1 +greyim done man im cut it all glock hand im sorry needed tell someone random people ive never met feel family bye yall,1 +judas wtf research pet project im working apparently judas betrayed jesus resulting jesus death via crucifixion thirty silver pieces a bit less modern money say judas wtf wanted kill jesus man theres way little amount money made betray boss again maybe jesus jerk apostles,0 +sometimes feel like cant go onim never kissed woman never relationship thing want ive lost hope ever happening ive tried joining social groups ive tried land job abroad try different country i live third world country people online dating makes things harder however efforts nothingi feel pathetic disgusting seeing every girl ever crush married someone much better myself seeing everybody grew made progress life except myself ect feel like im good enough never born want die im afraid death kinda wish never existed first place see life passing every day despite efforts feel miserable ill never relationship think dead,1 +first thing im going turn go skydiving life long dream hope could friend would make even awesome,0 +happy head like thats impossible mental disorder anything,0 +one think hugs great never hugged life look like people getting really close dont even like people begin might biased look uncomfortable fuck,0 +reasonso go again sitting front restaurant typing phone im drunk hell get point willingly broke promise completely give alcohol first off two months ago relapsed went back rampant alcoholism high school finals girlfriend worried me asked stop it stopped got together her went five years long period depression ended giving alcohol first time i addicted alcohol two months point sneaking alcohol school helped all helped up now weve grown appart suspicion cheating me matter time break up top that dog growing old first half life behind her two last things keeping ending all girlfriend dog now long distance relationship verge breakup dogs last years left nothing look forward to feel years left end life and mom casually talking write this speak english feel like want go on like need help time running out,1 +cant find reason anymoreive miserable whole life cant remember last time happy satisified never truly felt happiness try blame parents divorce happened many people doubt it ive never succeseed anything know doing thought getting girlfriend would help think messed girl up dont know do dont know therapist would help me ive tried didnt help feel like im truly alone feel like friends care feel like im downing dont know want exist please someone help dont know anymore,1 +recentlyit come attention perhaps giving best option havent happy long time see things broken right front heart trust relationships happinessthat tired fixing mending all im always one hurt nowadays think enoughim hollow now want say final goodbyes ones mean dear methis world relentless beating down quite frankly im tired get back anymore,1 +movie took breath away points simply loved it br br i admit character dialogs storyline could done bit better hey simple short story couple guys trying slain dragon theres nothing itbr br the overall design atmosphere beautiful landscapes magical br br theyve put lot love movie character designs great funny bit tim burtonish like recommend movie anyone interested great design displayed simple small lovely story,0 +landscape battle opens escaping prisoners snowy field full fences rather funny movements accompanied vivaldis four seasons touching opening soon enough learn know prisoners mob also treated humouristic burry man alive protagonist stops moment soon engaged finding books turndowned camp caring neighbourbr br the rest film set american camp prisoners released kind semi freedom semi camp perfect set study war criminality american camps polish nationalism catholisism grief human misery generalbr br film makes important turn comes women film changes light colour temper time turns prisoners slaves holocaust think main underlying political theme film must mankinds treatments jews world war nazi exterminations mankind letting happen even forcing europe war emotional level film grief problem letting grief come environment makes grief difficult difficult share grief people different experiences br br but film carpet underlying contradictionshumour irony sudden beauty couple times film gypsy prisoner plays harp emotional tune brutally rejected filmatically speaking protagonist example picks important essence films style theme comes humour comic protagonist constantly looses finds back glasses crowds hay stacks etcbr br its hard understand spielbergs respect wajda see film great treatment light compared spielberg best grunwald intermezzo speaks itself narrativly brings film camp filmatically brings film dream eternity profound beauty anyhow also another scene cant let go without comment christian supper undoubtly ironical simultaneously deeply religious see transsubstantiation moment everybody falling knees protagonist saved isolation priest serve comic altar boy bells mocking scene also gives emotion love nina gets bread sun light falls upon bells ring spheric peak moment filmbr br main actors excellent roles olbrychski perfect wajda protagonist doubting reflecting mind unable put aspects mind emotion life beautiful celinska great body acting debuting character unable express inner proud movementsbr br those try describe everything often unable take nothing consideration wajda manages films either moving deep beautifully shot pays attention lifes societys particularity moment joy one moment irony second moment grief third moment nothing fourthbr br there least two reasons pay attention wajdas films period first remarkable free expression deep political impact country first overthrow communism twenty years later second development filmatic narrative language kusturica rose grandeur,0 +could reincarnated anyone any human time week would why asked raskreddit nobody answered im posting here im bored so,0 +even feel calm relaxed still convinced kill myselfi drink bit night feel calm somewhat serene still thinking killing myself want deal anymore time get drunker goodnight,1 +overweight anxiety body issues good enough acceptable reason want kill myselfim curious guys think context im m senior high school overweight since years old im cm weigh kg fat cant remember time life didnt bulging belly manboobs affected severe depression confidence issues anxiety im overachiever achieved every goal ive set fact gotten fit lean trying years makes feel like complete failure makes ashamed even public theres mantra repeated year fight happiness failed so feel like deserve happy hence deserve life itself feel like ive missed many things highschool due low confidence shit body im terrified happen university day first day uni gets closer feel pressure anxiety getting worse,1 +whats favorite video game character id prefer character actually personality nothing like steve terrarian,0 +spoilersbr br i blown away movie ive renting movielink bit decided check movie out alot boxing movies seem overblow blood movie shows amature level though wish perhaps attention would brought perhaps improving grades movie points problems families face genderbr br i bit concerned ending ending disappointment eitherbr br i think pretty clear title shed win unexpected two got back together sort endbr br loved score scenes highly recommendedbr br br br quality br br entertainment br br replayable ,0 +grammys gramophone award replaced frogs,0 +shes gone nowits fucking stupid werent even together long doesnt care me gone dont want anymore ive never wanted fucking die much fucking life love fucking pointless im going fucking it cant take fucking pain anymore,1 +jokeseriously feel like nobody cares me people like prevent getting girlfriend demanding remain single people pretend understand im talking say you need wait right girl come you thats bullshit phrase reused rehashed thousands years people tell want hear get shut up no want something original something thousands people told already guess happy question im meant single lonely rest fucking life im gonna single im get whore reject im old im im high school nothing show shitty life im still single still fucking virgin people age fucking sex im still struggling get girlfriend maybe im better dead life zero purpose right now im autistic piece shit turned instead moving own moved dads moms easier single father tell constantly five women want date says them mom boyfriend theyve dating year fucking sister even crush someone reason dating hes went socialized couple days ago thought hit someone nope bf too feel like everyones taken makes feel even worse im close giving up make matters worse friends thought three one argues constantly one fucking uses knows cant say one told day id rather stay home nothing hang friend feel like nobody want kill im required stay alive life magically purpose yeah purpose life humiliated rejected nice,1 +need feel better nowi havent good day years want die need feel better right now else cant stay anymore need something start turning life around else end it theres choice cant suffer anymore,1 +feet smell nose far know,0 +think redflag wrong certain contextsin certain situations see redflag logical choice anyone loves you friends job etc choice hurt anyone else whos say hurts you fact is know happens die could hell could nothing could greatest dreams come life risk sure think better current life which maybe do personally feel ethical stopping you keep mind context described above thats mention people terminal illnesses like anyways thoughts going it maybe maybe theres something better maybe ill family loves me maybe ill meet lover best friend again even dont see reason stay anymore ive battling thoughts years think ive finally reached conclusion makes sense,1 +work library expected like movie came years ago well liked parker posey lot shes wonderful actress omar townsend really cute boyfriend he act look like cares movie bad funny cute much anything posey kept movie afloat energy learned dewey decimal system overnight shelves tons books beat music come on also problem way looked became fullfledged librarian endhair bun glasses sense humorcan let stereotype go please worth seeing posey townsend thats it tv series much better,0 +excellent example early bette davis talent production average timeframe cannot understand owners rights film put dvd owners please please release it would buy immediately seen thirty years television remember well,0 +could stop nnn posts like pretty damn annoying joke extremely used point,0 +kill sleepi grew abusive physical mental parents close two decades taken advantage sexually classmate racially discriminated verbally abused almost every day middle high school years remained introverted socially incompetent mess well adulthood grew treated like subhuman way know treated extremely difficult interact society normally without medication even moments ive somehow managed force way toxic relationship family taking gtk student loans recently graduated masters program desperation escape old life gravely underestimated consequences actions k debt unpaid internship foreign policy institute im obviously underqualified for im allowed stay onboard frequently offer help busy work one else time for managed land two parttimes couple local restaurants order pay rent even though going really straining trying balance internship two part times personal fitness goals researching academiccareer pursuits hope might misplaced least things look forward morning earlier today found efforts might gone waste managed get tangled credit fraud card frozen bank account closed managed explain issue customer support agent phone today case review least business days minimal ways sustaining due sudden nature bank accounts closure made realize inadequate functional member society emotionally crippled difficulties navigating obvious situations brain sometimes literally cannot compute basic concepts lot issues originates self perception view world people around me changing difficult im sure worth effort ps case decide end all someone advise way painlessly go sleep living alone peacefully one goal life would love experience it even brief moment die,1 +lost last friend told me depressed sad could friends anymore sweet girl one anymore going try work courage kill myself tired pain want anymore want live anymore lost friends,1 +ive gone beyond wanting liveit feels like certainty point already little world theres nothing were going keep living like this job friends it job changed point barely function cant friends talking zoom takes mental toll point leave feeling worse ive felt like im preparing death month getting closer know whats keeping point honestly,1 +want outhi im im failure everything do motivation much days days seem little brighter comes crashing again today one days know long ive depressed many years sure last proper job months ago father talk anymore hes prick sisters birthday dinner couple days ago kinda pretended exist last relationship ended months ago since ive living moms house ive gotten back together ex months ago decided go month trip another continent everything planned went last week decided wanted be alone find herself called telling contact weekend believe her think wanted fuck someone feel guilty told never wanted see again dont feel like never loved me know is wanted us get back together one ended accept abandonment needed take control one make decision mother told much time hinted would put house soon quite times mocked everytime talked killing myself looks conflict constantly even confidence stand ground today terrible day ive response cv sent then first exgf texted told want listen could get things chest disturbed quite bit second mother came yelling forgot wash plate yelled quite bit sent cvs today told time running every opportunity life lie know fault noone hates myself strength anymore cant pull fucking bootstraps like society demands to want pain wanted anyone go away want die ive looking balcony thinking want it want pain either know do strength anymore anything beaten outof me real friends anymore everyone liked end alienating went away treatment option money wanted write something hopes would calm down want homeless decided kill comes it ive picked spot ill jump comes it im tired lonely sad angry weak im going sleep kill today sorry torrent uncohesive thoughts,1 +easily relate post see here seems like person posting reading mindat moment one things keeping going day day get professional helpi wish best alone alone,1 +bought gunso wife recently left me among things took besides kids rifle closet now im avid hunter even marksman always made feel good gun house gun left possession went online bought smith wesson mm private seller currently sitting dresser little lockbox even shot yet nothing else gives mind peace know way out even im chickenshit ever pull trigger thing keeping unloading sweet year old little girl still love daddy despite distance current living arrangements never fatherfigure growing up despite wifes best efforts want little girl grow without knowing daddy think wanted vent little bit,1 +tell therapist want diethis second time im going see therapist want scape abusive home narcissistic parents everyone telling money scape want honest give single fuck money spent many years unhappy abusive disgusting place give shit sleeping street friends says could live im another city need pay someone get there give single fuck anything feel like nobody understands cant tolerate type abuse anymore want normal everyday hard feel like im never gonna get here tell this find comfort anything want life thought destined someday happy normal young woman im not quarentine never endsand live place time want anymore cant im unhappy place everything window place support weight body could use something like rope belt end everything sorry bad english im really good it everyone screaming house now fuck people tell need do never tell know love like you want here want happy want normal like people age,1 +uneventful short storytime idk call lmao quite meme whatever im engineering class right teacher she southern accent talking one person students said something like i called dean half listening heard im paula deen immediately thought butter butter butter vine burst laughing thank god im mute,0 +movie funniest film ever created greatest hats mr mrs zodsworth rest wacky wacky cast good morning satan want donut see post haste go see now,0 +boy make game freind start develop first game would yall support us nah im gonna assume nah,0 +free award first person comment yuh,0 +im lowest pointmy girlfriend took step back tore heart out hadnt worked months due shoulder issue really came us matter many times try reach rejects says isnt ready respect feelings wants sometimes feel like never work things out means world cant see future without her shes person ever understood dont want move on time sit contemplate ending everything pretty much zero friends left friend group due live changes dont get along well family feels like easiest thing do dont know intend getting post feel good type get chest,1 +catching feelings filler filler filler filler,0 +finally it woohoo finally wiped ass myself im proud,0 +think might morally obligated commit redflagim rapist murderer pedophile anything crazy like that im pretty average person lot issues often cause emotionally depend hurt people bpd know disdained people like dont really blame people it ive often abuser life havent easy life thats excuse way am explanation im emotional leech might call black hole now know bpd get better treatment thats always response get say think kill myself get better disappear relapse symptoms finishing therapy even then finishing therapy take long time sometimes years see improvement youre telling continue live agony causing nothing pain worry others possibly years come even get treatment treatment works me sounds like lot hoops jump get realization theres essentially hope doesnt everyone wish less bad people world hate bad people turn around tell kill myself ive never heard actual good argument redflag dont think ever will feasible morally ambiguous option would isolate others much possible isolation would make kill myself anyway getting harder harder convince isnt right choice,1 +death avenge meif kill tonight parent pretend care love hurt till death get taste medicine worse death them people society looks them destroy entire family get suffer more drive crazy push edge wish dead iwish answers yes mom probably die father live longer ensure everyone suffers more dont get wrong wanna kill regardless would nice payed off,1 +may one best movies ever made overall enjoyable lighthearted piece froth everyone involved seems good time highly recommended feelgood factor alone ok frank sinatras acting leaves lot desired singing great redeeming feature songs fit perfectly romantic atmosphere film sinatra went make many films undoubted acting ability shone this first venture hollywood voice acting main contribution movie ive watched tv still lifts mood much first time saw many many years ago,0 +health issues likely cancer also severe mental health issues cannot take anymore everyone think happens die cease exist agnostic know head arse present world cruel place us lost souls sorry suffering much die,1 +hope never become cynical society appreciate simple beauty movie beautiful look romantic english countryside beautiful message faith loyalty watch children especially young daughters velvet brown wonderful role model girls one daughters favorite filmsbr br the story based best selling book enid bagnold girl velvet whose whole life horse pi singleminded pursuit impossible dream say anymore plot less spoil firsttime viewers lives big loving family small coastal villagebr br this movie made elizabeth taylor star watch film understand why natural actress radiates inner beauty matches outward beauty trusting passionate innocent emotional core moviebr br mickey rooney gives wonderful performance mi young man arrives doorstep one day stays helps velvet train pi one finest performances also standing anne revere velvets mother academy award winning role strong loving wise character understands life much value unless follow dreams were alike i too believe everyone chance breathtaking piece folly life br br i heartily recommend sweet inspiring classic hollywoods golden age,0 +apt description spock allpowerful fop whose clutches fall crew enterprise one sector space starship avoided first sulu kirk simply disappear bridge landing party follows surface unknown planet encounter trelane seemingly aristocratic man dressed attire earth many centuries past demonstrates abilities someone something far beyond human register mccoys medical tricorder officers manage escape back ship but like bad cosmic penny trelane keeps popping up brings back including female companionship continue games dilemma takes elements the dangerous game space theres exasperating even infuriating aspect crews utter helplessness unbridled powerbr br what really makes great episode memorable performance guest star campbell overpowering allknowing alien character obviously early version q introduced years later pilot tng series trelanes confrontation scene spock stands among strange drama unfolds usual kirk quickly begins look possible weaknesses new nemesis despite quite outmatched answers exactly trelane right front us whole time so learn truth makes complete sense view campbells pitchperfect acting indulges constantly preening unknown audience remarking things flair infectious quite right cant quite pin first theres something missing here every minutes tone becomes sinister crew appears serious danger way cant take eyes him always waiting see next actor john de lancie captured similar tone q next generation series,0 +ever fine wave depression hits dont care anything wanna die,0 +feel wayi depression years recently started treat it feel like want kill even depression gone im exhausted putting effort life,1 +rock star way stairway heaven category one best rock films time make jump time time highlevel energy films theme diehard rock group fanatic actually becomes lead singer favorite band story based upon true story happened heavy metal band judas priest think movie filled witty screenplay intellect direction got another thing coming however shook night long fine acting jennifer aniston rock stars devoted girlfriend could say rock star himself mark wahlberg much better porn star rock star enjoy s retrospect journey movie intakes reminded teenage years everything smelled like teen spirit guess film worth viewing better time watching make sure bring along girls girls girls average,0 +whole day bed crying mi cant stand seeing people happy understand wrong me over good student year best im meltdown hope get reincarnated week person before something happened unconsciously and friends would get girlfriend would wonder too monday day test knowledge faculty someone cared much grades someone anything now wanted jump building cutting razor seems best things getting worse every minute miss lot things maybe im kind idiot im favor missed normal family whole life since parents divorced yr old missed someone give advice lot things never happened happen never friends always missed dad never learned make friends remember feeling normal presence kid never sister brother nobody still nobody nothing absolutely nothing worth living except things miss wonder chance would happen,1 +midnight cowboy rated x original release back scenes understand that little movie joe buck jon voight coming texas new york city become hustler sometimes little disturbing dressed cowboy tries live hustler making money act love work planned guy named rico ratso rizzo dustin hoffman first pulled trick stole money become friends live empty filthy apartment ratso gets sick joe try make moneybr br the movie probably rated x main subject way see strange things editing movie great see dream sequences joe ratso interrupted real world nice sometimes funny way dustin hoffman jon voight supporting actors give great performances especially hoffman delivers fine famous lines score done john barry sounds great makes great movie best picture oscar good reason,0 +ever want commit redflag pain life bring feel need start overa years back raped dad adopted me completely messed live trauma brought me cant barely make connections people anymore feel im losing empathy im strong believer reincarnation think maybe could start over usually always believe everybody get better ive attempting better ive realized near impossible is cant live body anymore feel like infected rapists touch think dont kill eventually im going cut skin shave hair get away body im feeling hopeless everyday im sure talk it closest friend isnt great talking serious stuff dont feel comfortable talking stuff anybody else anybody know get rid emption really want live better myself mind keeps cursing thoughts know one day wont enough self control listen them,1 +one call want know anyone alone without feeling alone worth scared dying alone without family homeless,1 +im bored sad anyone interesting fact wanna share want talk feel alone right,0 +inching closer redflageveryday wake life grows pathetic days go on lack sex relationships one reason reasons include mental health issues lack friendships extrovert lack attractiveness every person seem always around whether work family always seem better appearance personality me come point honestly dont care well being dont eat much im happy im tired theres really nothing much tbh live til im ready leave world nobody would hurt leave already know it,1 +always therethe thought always there pops second start yelling gets stuck like record repeats again happens cant stop crying want end want good person good enough person them,1 +going old recordings phone couple years ago made asmr reading wanna fuck johnny joestar copypasta,0 +goodbyegoodbye world nobody cares me im piss wind say care youre lying know im useless nobody never accomplish anything going leech parents forever hate useless much self hatred normal person would literally explode although think about suicidal ideation probably mood swing get mood swings lot like every minute new mood sucks never one mood specific situation goodbye,1 +people talk trash new think without garbage would stuff get hot thats right garbage filter must accept fate,0 +clearly something wrong mei always try kind many people wax poetically world needs kindness yet ever gets shit shoveled face getting used friends whatever whole schtick point ive edged last facebook friends college friends high school friends even family gone numbers deleted phone anyone contacts anyway ive managed scale back social side life barest minimum maintaining decent job yet cant shake discomfort around people especially young women around age frustration almost much bear first girlfriend dumb rocks entirely codependent next turned lesbian next emotionally manipulative latest and significant started developing schizophrenia years in even better thanks way come waves got watch lose mind twice eight months life eggshells hoping return im alone get thinking why nobody around seems worth time i honestly think anymore redflag mind decade long wait sacking it like itll hard,1 +taking ukalshones challenge pushups day months days video profile cant upload videos today,0 +somoene talk im bored filer filkler filelr,0 +biodiversity corresponds variety species living community community gang animals species,0 +gender pants gender ur dad,0 +loved movie cute funny lauren holly wonderful funny believable role costas mandylan also good nice look too brenda vaccaro usual pleasure watch great job character pleasure watching movie funny interesting watched whole family difficult find nice wholesome movies anymore thank goodness hallmark movies wonderful wish could buy it anyone knows could purchase movie please let know purchase several hallmark movies happy them hope buy one,0 +need advice bros group friends plays among us every two days since october im talking like people years older me im one girl call pink talked much among us recently started following every round going around weeks know boys are one girl shows smallest affection full love know girls like playing guys really think pink type whats move guys im really want feed false hopes thanks advance,0 +im sure keep going pointive spent pretty much whole time college getting without barely work think catch me looking really likely ill fail least one classes think theres way graduate despite still cant seem focus work,1 +hurricane say palm tree better hold nutsthis ordinary blowjob,0 +today brother told looked like tired livingi thought good hiding day mind keeps getting clouded gets harder enjoy life back dad got cancer got big depression yes always mild depression getting cancer something else led redflag attempts realizing die live life whatever want thinking fact thay dad got better made happy months think im relapsing mind getting clouded point become self destructive simply care living feel like theres meaning life time want die theres nothing life die become nothingness theres something took life punish it want stop time bed nothing eternity want think want anything want alone eternity way see things two things happen end ending sure nothing life regretting get older want go doctor seek help planning months yet go im afraid im old enough go alone still fear parents finding out brother looking like crazy person like loser yes loser loner putting face meds probably therapy would given sure makes feel worse sorry guys wanted vent bit idk right sub ill play thought seeking help likely delete post later,1 +bad night feels like end sighti wish people could talk nothing interesting,1 +today birthday gotta change flair ,0 +redflag thoughts far long help pleasei year old male chicago grew divorced parents since years old younger brother years younger me parents us split avoid paying money grew father dad untill got arrested molesting children secret now rots prison fully connected moms side family untill dad getting arrested lived mom years drifited around went iowa year came back moved moms sister moms mom year half moved half year couldnt handle moved moms brother half year thats going alot better ever since moved iowa till redflag slowly planting self head huge time meeting others talking people since drifted around much went job job job majority life mostly stick room reality saving money affording own also grew big issue teeth majority teeth half gone taking good care teeth became issue time went pass years started dealing infections loosing teeth infections living antibotics yes know put self problem years tried tried get help wouldnt cost life money hard years pain suffering problems finally found service called dental dondational service recently helpped much im suicidal ive became suicidal depression teeth big factor still im missing teeth front smile im big guy let tell im short white guy health wise like hygeine take good care self bathe eat nicely year ago started aggresive mouth hygene clean mouth since im living bare ends jobs hard time people real life sit rooms rot life away feel life usesless keep going stress struggled past years try better point comfortable like living deal stress dad deal stress teeth worry alone female give chance hell probly money bad teeth even tho think looks im bad looking deal stress cont untill im dead want someone talk people hang resulting social media work dating sites horrible facebook filled selfish people post things get likes also dont drink drugs smoke cigerettes going bars pointless costly chicago really want friend someone really talk enjoy spending time with think nice friendship nice life ligetmitly none course know people dont hang live far away live chicago dont really care hang out im tried living dark thinking way want room life im posting reddit seems people come read things,1 +well went purpose lifejust forget it worthless ever sw,1 +wish people would hate end easieri truly believe life meant die nothing anyone life death matters trick thinking things matter dont someone cared said i wish dead relief would be could finally let go stupid life but forced live hell degeneracy ignorance poverty met single virtuous person long time completely alone redflag next logical step,1 +im bisexual idk tell mum anyone advice so shes homophobe knowledge fine im still scared dont know do anyone advice would much appreciated,0 +im exhausted sufferingthis isnt first post here ive attempts ive posted them obviously didnt work out im tired physically even mentally im tired dealing bullshit ive many things come year ive overcome nearly them theres one havent dont think ever will made best friend january actually best spoke day gave sweetest message birthday super supportive friend always happy help person trusted ended telling everything didnt go well february told attempt failed super supportive said could always vent her said could same did around june began talk less felt fault spoke it said everything fine august second attempt didnt tell mid september didnt drastic reaction since knew okay sent message also told going try get better did started eating sleeping working better october th went shit reasons wont get into night sent long goodbye message almost way remember guess basically telling nothing fault failed again point enough told th couldnt handle anymore become much take herself said wanted become friendly faces rather besties shes trying slowly separate while hurt anything ever heard life havent spoken since im still hurting it understand fully justified reason respect it thats havent pushed talk me hard hearing best friend doesnt wanna friends you especially hard since birthday two days super excited celebrate her says might able get close future now knowing her make feel better miss ton best friend special me one thing kept going time thing ever looked forwards to want die even more nobody lean on lost important person life want tell ever wants talk again can know shell leave read never respond hurt more blocked insta story heard people said got toxic friendship feel hates dont understand why want friend really really do shes kindest soul want tell wont vent anymore burden feel so would think im desperate push away wish dead wouldnt deal this dont think handle much more cant swallow pills knife super dull way jumping window second story thats low guaranteed death dont know anymore thanks reading end ill stop wasting time,1 +everyone expects get better rantyet body pretty much feeling effects stress get waves nausea quite often feel nervous anxious feel like know reconnect mend broken bridges people heh could i social skills horrible realized social isolation reached critical levels ive wasted seven years life stomach cant even handle pills like fighting war entire army own im strong know feel suicidal suffered much compared others yet feel like im time bomb feel like im close snapping someone course care others think me because ive barely accepted life myself tried sincere keep morals life spitted face time time stop fucking cycle stop course ive tried improve get social skills try meet people seldom works always same people want put shoes yet rarely me talk people talk me im always giver people take time time im sorry mom always told love worry friends but sure im fuck up almost every single person met ends forgetting me people take take take,1 +want stab chest right nowpain struggle probably wont real sure tried punching chest hard hoping get knocked die sucks feelings never validated toxic asian parents always think know whats best you wish never born die soon want stab fkg chest right now could roof nobody able find body quite time sorry theres context this im disappointed angry explain things never go way according parents never things right ways best ways im tired tired validated tired manipulated tired existing really dont want live anymore please end this ill chicken trying kms also really dont want live anymore sorry let like this im sorry im sorry,1 +say wrong answer reddit surveys rmemes memes,0 +crush used virtual pets put heart telling liked her got rejected audacity ask pets,0 +put jail countryi want start testosterone im trans gov finds ill put jail years fuck shit wish courage kill myself country even fucking redflag prevention hotline one cares us,1 +tf teachers use simpson ever talking family swear ever damn time,0 +hey guys rly serious would appreciate help lot india working college admissions studying abroad more specifically universities us undergrad absolutely confused go it mention also writing jee need help writing resumes compiling enough data resumes applications could anyone help go also study buddy help concentrate studying help would appreciated and dm wanna help anyone would great help fellow students india would appreciated thanks helping reading this great day,0 +kissed crush god drink delicious makes want kiss more,0 +schools proposal reopen gotten shot states governor lets fucking gooooooo,0 +needed vent mind me fuck tired tired even energy pissed exhausted constantly keep trying bounce back positive mindset damn curveballs quittin,1 + got mah cookies mmmmmmmmmmm cookies best might also go shred cheese lol,0 +films chocolat beau travail others propelled french director claire denis top echelon worlds unique accomplished filmmakers film intruder lintrus adds depth portfolio cinematic poem conveys mood abiding loneliness loss film provides glimpse psyche man deteriorating physically mentally travels various parts globe seeking redemption peace finds hard come by loosely based jeanluc nancys memoir heart transplant intruder film unrelenting opaqueness even two viewings difficult describe subjective impressionistic termsbr br louis trebor michael subor man seventies likely dying heart condition who like professor ingmar bergmans wild strawberries attempts come terms mistakes life time clear physically rugged wealthy seems emotionally drained look face one quiet resignation though see one episode violence gets bed middle night kill intruder sinister sense him might intelligence officer foreign agent hit manbr br whatever case apparently kind surveillance acts like man involved criminal wrongdoing able see consequences facial closeups throughout movie create strong sense isolation lives dogs cabin jura mountains near frenchswiss border estranged son sidney gregoire collin long neglected sidney lives nearby wife antoinette florence loiretcaille two children one telling scene meets father street calls lunatic prevent taking moneybr br when film opens meet antoinette swiss border guard boards van trained dog sniff contraband comes home greeted husband asks tongueincheek anything declare three individuals people circumstances see rest film may exist louis imagination louis three women life meet films first half hour pharmacist bambou prepares medication neighbor batrice dalle dog breeder refuses care dogs goes away trip telling crazy is young russian organ dealer katia golubeva tells wants young mans heartbr br relentlessly stalks throughout film apparently mind last section film louis travels south korea search heart transplant tahiti deliver gift different son one seen many years perhaps never seen heart transplant however appears metaphor man without heart man whose life fascinating ultimately directionless intruding peoples lives little real empathy intruder contains haunting guitar soundtrack stuart staples band tindersticks reminiscent guitar riff jim jarmuschs dead man gorgeous cinematography denis regular agnes godardbr br godard creates memorable images convey mood longing regret heart beating alone snow infant sling looking father good two minutes babys expression gradually turning morose half smile colored streamers blowing newly christened ship massage dark room mysterious korean masseuse vast expanse ocean seen bobbing ship deck intruder frustrating elliptical nature denis forces us respond experience understand images screen personal level theme hint might found opening tells us revealed piecemeal film your worst enemies hiding shadow heart,0 +holy moly batman poggers class me included like man mind boggling well graduating bc junior thought man graduating far away couple trimesterssemesters away like gee willikers batman doubt world prepared us,0 +lost hope lifeso decided post life story went young teenager dreams goals life adult fucked time time hope life lot happened piled one giant mess nobody blame it years old born raised southern california grew playing soccer good grades school paper great life bound successful life unfortunately case right now fact point life giving hope besides sporty person always video games bring met woman november whose name lets pretend name sarah i want names stay anonymous age me online group friends skype played game ever since sarah got added group click us joked around sense humor soon decided start private messaging other next thing know feelings other asked week met little soon possibly started skyping regular basis continued play game met at soon relationship found sarah mature age large maturity gap us started show constantly annoyed even hurt emotionally due immaturity started thing calling ex hot liking models pictures instagram watching porn regularly found hurt it keep mind sent nudes even webcam masturbation sessions skype good reason watch porn months started relationship asked stop watching porn successfully time found watching again july flew ohio lives spent days going back california amazing lot fun really good chemistry going one problem lying watching porn started watching again that continued frustrate differences maturity levels life went though still great times would skype play game together overall good time flew ohio spring break senior year april time found picture woman saved phone saved months completely forgot it hurt her rightfully so still good week together unfortunately still watched couple porn videos within next months lot few get back later graduated high school packed stuff moved ohio live sarah parents first week life great tim went however immaturity gotten sarah point wanting send back california things as able perform basic tasks properly playing video games instead productive things something instantly changed since complaint etc got point believed adhd something never diagnosed with extensive research concluded adhd need go doctor diagnosis something still yet do top that looked search history found searches made top that something wrong haunted ever since admitted her gone way go one friends instagram profile and despite seconds gone intentionally look pictures pleasure scarred still scars day finally decided enough enough stopped looking stuff entirely made sure got self esteem back trust back seemingly worked times would still bring times hurtful still are top this sarah despises parents get along thinks parents controlling mother narcissist sarah anxiety depression mother one point called sarah crazy argument had sarah never let go agree sarah sense parents controlling caused much stress upon sarah along terrible decisions mentioned led discussion us sarahs parents going back california everything happened already stuff packed needed buy plane ticket back california basically whole situation stemmed immaturity stressing everyone family including sarahs brother autistic like annoying character traits well little competitive played video games together one point stress family put sarah family everything built up next thing know sarah grabs bottle ibuprofen runs bathroom get her swallows handful them screamed help someone call immediately outside holding hand crying saying dont want die taken hospital mother entire time luckily okay taken mental health facility said needed hours now gets ugly night right taken mental health facility one doctors said cannot take cell phone her use phones facility person am went one ear other another habit mine sarah gets frustrated by happens often sarahs mother took home first thing worry sarah sent sarah long wall text showing concern love her completely unaware take phone facility next morning started unpack stuff decided give another chance first things unpacked wii laptop backpack moment remember talking mother sarahs mother telling get ready leaving minutes so person am thinking visiting her finish conversation mother even talking first place get ready leave car ride sarah calls mother talk bit talk sarah asked oh youre getting already nice despite everyone else knowing already was mother also asked me disappointing manner asked sarah doing yet answer saying sent long text message showing concern her find never even took phone her sarah got picked returned home sarah saw mess room furious me saying wanted good time want come home stress days incident decided truly best return california bought ticket packed stuff deleted pictures pictures me threw away everything reminded me seemed over sadly obliged returned back california unfortunately us one thing happened sealed deal us still messaged weeks played game together sometimes offered dirty session refused days later offered one remember showering time came back said would like one said already herself days went without sort pleasure decided look something up something homosexually related i bicurious admitted sarah finally fed me days days either ignored me called told much horrible person which wont deny give remarks showing frustration me update yesterday supposed year anniversary sadly cut short furthermore suicidal mistakes well guilt thought scarring her self harmed everal times back here punched face tensions rose punched arms thighs hard before thought starving andor dehydrating never did thought swallowing pills never did now today typing this swallowed mouthful mouthwash hour ago builtup tension us first sen bunch pictures hot girls instagram paid absolutely attention andam interested all continually pressured admit like it proceeded say ex thousand times better person even said next boyfriend hate me hug say hes sorry ever put me particular moment lost control emotions actions ran straight bathroom grabbed listerine bottle swallowed entire mouthful it now refuse tell parents anything refuse go doctor despite wanting help left many questions point desperately seeking help possible adhd try patch relationship stop compulsive liar terms stopping thoughts self harm suicide sarah meant everything me really want future her thought starting someone else sickens stomach feel like never happy again am still single,1 +realised recently hanging pretty loose thread exams thiubht stuff getting better friends noticed getting positive last two three days crashed hard gone back nearly suicidal thoughts progress seems mostly unravelled actually know issue even anymore took snap friends going without me kind ridiculous go two mental breakdowns day ranting infront mirror usual distractions essentially stopped working even worse day today anything pull attention away want basically fast travel skip day thought issues coming fit got fit thought proper schedule rigid schedule thought grades thought socialising thought teenage issues thought trans idea declined rapidly genuinely know even mitigate circumstances let alone go anywhereanyone got advicemy last resort basically now writing thoughts going back creative writing outlet depression diagnosed sometimes doubt real sometimes think might issues total two proper good days felt like everything mostly fine guess family circumstances migt something it butit seems random things get worse,1 +update failed morei finally able talk girlfriends parents conversation ready stick knife chest feels like thousand years passed since death especially since gotten hours sleep since then finally spoke parents disgusted want see ever again also tagged responsible saying worthless save her knew right knew thrown way died knew failed chance good human moment even care anything anymore literally nobody turn to cant stand sight people anymore always somewhat misanthrope perversion humans supposed be people smile laugh feel sick self harmed felt physical pain seen strife others smiled inwardly know typing all probably going end stain civilization hours goodbye hopeful sw community society miss me,1 +suicidal years so last couple daily feelings uselessness misbelonging inadequacy utter self hatred last leg,1 +whos replacing megathiccc ban vote phone,0 +bad place right nowive strong intrusive thoughts addition anxiety panic depression want live like this im afraid losing control suicidal thoughts escape horrible feel every day chronic physical impairments make even harder continue want die want change im afraid getting killed stuck inside head time one friend constantly rely her try talk get things chest i believe bottling things really started mental issues seems help slightly im alone feel terrible mind races cant find peace im afraid leave bed afraid stay it dying seems answer me want to therapy meds much anything all world waiting get better,1 +getting pretty bad planning ending itmy wife kids left months ago wife deal depression lost job month ago im surviving severance pay another couple weeks drinking gallon rum every night exwife begging check hospital helped past im point want help want end k k im going cash maybe take one last vacation plan ending myself ive depressed life last year excruciating worse ever redflag seeming like last option words encouragement im really bad place edit say narcolepsy hours day im feeling energetic enough anything including getting help,1 +one might little differentlately ive feeling alone dont many friends besides gf relationship little messy really supportive family makes think shouldnt feel like this feel like im depressed havent told anyone feel days get feeling gut like wanna end it always tell theres way could depressed bc care people feel like theres way could it thing way would anything gun luckily family locks theres hides key probably good measure also dont go seeking end life anything happened stumble gun feel like would actually it ive never told anyone feel dont know ever will mainly feel like people would think im using like depressed angle attention something like that honestly cant tell thats thats main reason dont think im depressed dont know anymore cant tell head actually messed not,1 +everyone seriously needs make horny posts need see im horny dm m like want cum shit bc keeps subreddit amazing,0 +stressed crying know do trying save money good sudden minecraft realms subscription literally fucking cancelled got charged im mad sad stressed filed chargeback paypal even go microsoft site says cant cancel im assuming already did anyways im breakdown finally something good control got fucking ruined fml,0 +read people easily mean duh go post read comments either obvious simping attention seeking lucky normal comment funny know myself also cringe lot stuff yesterday then proceed downvote me suicidal attention seeking,0 +might die sooni feel guilty feeling happy found might heart problem bulimia might super long time live know shouldnt happy im time ive struggling depression whole life ive hospitalized multiple times seen multiple counselors types medicine nothing ever worked even asked shock treatment said type depression wouldnt work im much coward kill myself might light end tunnel know anyway appreciate always safe place say stuff thank finally feel soon might peace,1 +asdfsfsffsfs state course year absolutely terrible fuck thought good idea super narrow trail switches sand asphalt like feet elevation gain cross country state meet fuck ran like minutes slower,0 +girl kicks guy balls hard one burst removed similarly violating horrible wrong rape unless necessary genuine self defense revenge rape something that view similarly horrible not seriesmovies make light that portray funny big deal deserved girls kick guys kinds bullshit ampxb also know thing obviously not im saying equally violating horrible,0 +whats craziest shit happened school mine years ago lil grade two students grade level fight overpass outside school ended one getting stabbed pocket knife worse able see victim carried security guard noticeable blood splotch uniform eating lunch right next clinic since me friends boy scouts before ordered form line prevent anyone crowd going far clinic shit crazy back then reason ended bloody gruesome brawl fact aggressor the guy knife bullied constantly dude one day altercation dude challenged fight location overpass traverses main road friend got ominous hint aggressor shit went down repeating words angry tone naa koy special weapon bai means english i special weapon dude,0 +staying alive people around mehi sorry short self centred suicidal while family bf know supportive im staying sanity feel torn easing pain redflag staying know bad would break hearts soul im desperate,1 +hi want friends pls idc u r b friend,0 +decided watch fearnet demand free figured well nothing else looks enjoyable turned quite good little horror surprise film serves anthology four urban legends told point view four teenagers whose car breaks middle nowhere decide build campfire woods begin tell spooky stories movie transitions events storiesbr br the honeymoon newlywed couple traveling cross country rv las vegas terrorized park wooded area evil beings hunt full moon i spoil you hook amy smart james marsden probably famous people movie besides beautiful christine taylor play young couple come face face maniac hook hand recognizable shortbr br people lick too probably scariest dark stories young girl chats another girl internet turns actually man obsessed proceeds break house alone really chillingbr br the locket also great story glen quinn jacinda barrett play motorcyclist beautiful mute girl terrorized ghosts previous century mysterious farm house good weakest entriesbr br the group around campfire slowly develop terrifying experience segments stories end movie surprising really awesome overall bonechillingly scary certainly great little guilty pleasure horror fans alike would definitely find worthwhile,0 +know much live for thats makes worsei dont know start this dont know right place me dont think ill kill myself cant write this toddler asleep chest kindergartner asleep next room husband left work feel irreparably broken want stop im getting help im medicated enough im afraid tell doctor enough were running pills try im afraid im broken plan ive plan like fantasy vacation play head go beach leave keys phone shoes sand take pills left swim swim far can fall asleep go under one find clean me im really trying everytime feel like im ok something knocks again tired completely tired keep throwing things hole chest cant fill it medication working self harm burns leg working family loves fucking much working fuck wrong me desperately want ok want happy want ok swimming fall asleep feels like way,1 +guys annoying theres attractive girl guys go rip ur dms simps incoming unattractive girl guys ignore say nothing shut fck up saying someone hot enough get sexually harassed dms offensive fck annoying same simp comment think theyre hot enough simps come them,0 +allsexual means anyone want sex matter want,0 + feel like failed lifes purpose opportunity something could changed life fucking pussy deal guilt find another purpose myself hate overthink every decision comes way cannot fucking smarten get head feel like way cope misery drugs alcohol cannot keep living like without vice give relief fucking failed lifes purpose,1 +point life could really care die hour days life past month getting worse worse fueled alcohol help still care around see point towards here seems pointless waste time seems like form punishment feel shitty care anymore,1 +know nobody cares friend recovered covid hes great thought id share,0 +feel like im snap bit redflagi know right board post in feel like im brink im feel like im going breakdown falling crying kind burn house stab mother death slit wrists kind breakdown one reason already done it thats girlfriend nothing permanent find pleasure anything else her mother insane really pushing edge lately ive always wanted kill her ive restrained years dissociative disorder feel like im really going explode fucking minute end bitchs life take mine wont deal stupid legal shit comes afterwards advice,1 +thank goodness school late start today mondays start rest week start ,0 +saw picturesfuck no tried redflag years ago finally know ive bullied done looks kill myself,1 +leaving reddit reddit really sucks super depressing toxic cesspool circle jerks nice subreddits way shity stay nothing see here cant come back this peace,0 +farewellhow foolish think could even keep one promise myself cant even make birthday heres hoping shitty rope wont fail wont wake brain damage hopefully would adequate punishment,1 +road perdition summed thomas newmans score haunting beautiful aware music similar newmans work listening soundtrack reminded scent woman meeting joe black shawshank redemption reminded films story unfolds screen sullivans drive round america trying escape psychotic hit man think getaway irish gangsters millers crossing whilst subtext guilt redemption summed coppola leones gangster epics despite seen feel taken heavy criticism sam mendes film repeat haunting beautiful flaws work slow opening twenty minutes slightly confused events caused michael sullivan betrayed stop consider much sentimental mess spielberg might made story revolves around father twelve year old son running lives cant help thinking superb director mendes br br road perdition film entire cast give flawless performances ive never keen tom hanks hes every bit good starring role probably better paul newman plays character irish accent point believe watching american screen legend putting false accent newmans performance works due subtle body language character torn guilt newman never milks goes top never upstaging newman gives best performance movie two brit supporting actors craig law also memorable american gangsters law still long career leading actor one wonders daniel craig might progressed character actor decided become james bond role heralds end actors career,0 +guys got orange logo back finally orange logo guys feel that,0 +ulonelyguy ulonelyguyhttpswwwredditcomuserlonelyguy indiansaw screenshots talking hindi obv uwahiyadlaundahttpswwwredditcomuserwahiyadlaunda another assholehis comment history is disturbing also indianindian username reason im saying also indian respected member society refuse claim mfs thats lol,0 +emptinessevery day long drawn battle head everything place hang highest strongest almost fail proof exposed beams house turning back do damn want fuck up still strong fear something go wrong itll fail like previous attempts cant connect anybody around anymore even children cant focus million tasks day want take care anymoreor keep waking up im empty,1 +almost sure christmas might end itmy anxiety got way worse bunch insecurities also brain stop going back embarrassing bad memories dont want really wont christmas family good time dont know might happen,1 +far funniest sitcom ever aired tv seasons dvd literally could watch over anyone find show hilarious heartwarming entertaining laugh loud hysterical crazy kevin james absolutely one talented comedians there boyfriend love going stand comedy shows boston where live seen kevin james twice brother gary valentine danny once unbelievably talented plan smart work many comedians awful kevin gary really show true side real comedy leah remini although snob bitch real life so read amazing actress deserves credit woman sitcoms truly makes showalong jerry stiller show must see get addicted within one two episodes,0 +take crown post highest comments reddit k comments million members post highest comment reddit k comments million members get absurd amount comments take crown ill best reply them heck ill award fav comment,0 +mum coming backmy mum left house tears dripping eyes shouting im coming back gone weeks,1 +want gf u talk girl im sick people asking get gf saying hard even tried,0 +anyone dm physics hw kinda hard learn velocity stuff laptop anyones willing help please dm anyways might go eat bread cause im hungry,0 +nothing interesting thisi dont know site works apologies advance year old indian male means im ugly even indian standards lol grades suck talents severe acne scarring nose makes look like fucking retarded orange ive rejected three times girls led months crushed confidence study hard still pass borderline play guitar write music years still sounds like aural diarrhoea spending fuck tons money acne scar treatment my dad rich im still ugly sin really working dont go result lips kinda fat purse time feel ugly think people staring judging feel inferior even beggars street see well developed features people around supporting kind even parents feel unworthy yesterday embarrassed front entire college went stage guitar played notes froze left feel embarrassed ashamed want die cant go back face anybody tried explain parents want die ready dont feel happy anymore anything havent felt happy years feel embarrassed ugly disappointed want quit please dont pity,1 +need spice life want something happen im getting bored,0 +thing tall girl named ella short get chest,0 +lost splatoon cartridge sad pls send prayers,0 +gimme handim young man looking outlet believe im depressed enticed idea committing redflag kinda wanna know one thinks thats bad choice im pretty lonely demotivated lost redflag become fantasy pleasant one that interested would prefer pm message boards give jeebies wanna talk one one thanks time,1 +wierdmy mental state crumbled far hate world human race come ask question right wrong consequences different ok lets get many people cant handle anymore die either way always wanted kill someone got feeling might question is going someone else pretty sure stop one defenetly going let take jail noone get living,1 +throughout past years stuck rock bottom facing biggest depressive episodes ever deal with recently somehow overcame together started putting life back togetherthat nice good haunting question got years ago creeping back up point wish overly successful life gather achievements want happy happiness never lastsi see reason struggle adversities life nothing gain so fact effort involved probably would get farther away happinessi wish could enjoy world live normal life deep know simply meant be slowly pushing away everyone support network nothing want help myselfi tried everything suicide always ultimate answer afterall never wanted anyway tired pretending do guys cannot see way,1 +something would like tell someone made mistakemy best friends brother committed redflag years ago something unexpected since never gave signs it months later first granddaughter born made wonder event could something like fresh air life would finally lifes present arms new motivation live work highschool student comes vent sadness plans end life always tell story time really wanted die thank god never happened many good things see get see something new something good think anymore theyre behold good things life brings us,1 +i dont access lot things anymore fucked last attempt family taken stuff trying kill going harder days since last attempt life sucks,1 +eyes damn small swear im going cut wider get older oh yeah also make nose sharper,0 +hopefully ill get right timesince attempted take life birthday ive hollow hopeless ive experimenting alcohol combined different types doses pills moms medicine drawer finally keep ever waking up tonight drank pack beer took temazepam tramadol wish luck,1 +m thinking offing half year now nothing brings joy nothing live for job like work smoke drink brain away find hapiness bad nights,1 +movie pleasant surprise me honesty previews looked horrible point emma thompson alan rickman appeared rented reservation thoroughly enjoyed movie great acting good plot twists and course emma thompson alan rickman definitely worth checking out,0 +everyone hate mei always kid everyone made game hiding from switched schools kid even first day everyone hated much picked ended day crying front everyone highschool even worse im friends friends hang pot smoke give place smoke it everyone hate me want good person finally thought found someone belonged with dating girl relationship first real friend best friend hates too everyone does mom dad hate too want die shame would cause family whats point keep everyones punching bag whole life,1 +hate life feel sadits feel nothing feel like empty shell person wish could feel something wish could even feel sad feel nothing reason ever really talk boyfriend feel sad least makes feel something feels like love anymore want me would ever want be im still love feeling love back makes feel pain least something want hold me admire me something show matter him get that emptiness sometimes around mom helps say anything feel knows need her must sixth sense shell cook warm meal take shopping whatever see feel even bit full trust anyone even boyfriend feel like ill judged brushed off whenever try say something feels like throat closing like body physically stopping reaching out one wants talk either even know im hiding something feel like care enough ask feel nothing judgement feels like people always trying defend themselves want wonderfully warm hug someone hold make feel like nothing else matters long meaningful hug something make feel like birds chirping again rain falling slower even sign im still living alive dead inside wish dead around hate life hate myself,1 +feel like im going attempt againso recently left mental recovery center redflag attempts drove previously horribly mental emotional abusive relationship bad drove redflag put mental hospital around weeks reason left early faked way it manipulated never cared destroyed self confidence anything might remotely make feel human soon left recovery center left her hard me friends decided abandon start hating calling whore trying hurt way possible forgive doesnt make sense im horrible explaining situations im feeling destroyed suicidal thoughts constant im afraid work ive missed might repeat freshman year getting hard even stay alive im constantly feeling like im pull trigger myself dont know losing friends getting breakup everything life getting cant handle again think might put back mental hospital dont want go wish everything never happened wish never happened lived constantly wish succeeded attempts didnt go pain im going right now family scared dont know do feel horrible putting this hurt much know may sound like much feels overwhelming im failing school sleep wish dead cant anymore want happy life went back cutting stuff nobody took well im starting therapy long almost every time therapist calls mobile crisis im saying numerous safety plans im nothings helping nothing helps anymore feel dead cant feel happiness anymore feel depression guilt anxiety pain need help need get this,1 +line work occasionally get contacted independent filmmakers trying publicize film can take look lowbudget films often make think future hollywood going dogs while though film born pure passion desire created purpose reminding film industry good movies still possible short film b r k e n directed alex ferrari genuine surprise worth second lookbr br clocking scant minutes b r k e n tries tell compelling but surreal story almost back story audience plopped middle action clue happening young woman samantha jane polay awakens dream hear gunshot subsequently abducted home awakes surrounded group mercenary thugs look like would home comic book nasty guys girls larger life guns knives way outbr br the kicker that despite low budget film play like one beginning feeling b r k e n shot edited produced professionals looks like something quentin tarantino might done day jamming wachowski brothers film sharp cool looks good feels like something bigbr br the acting much better usually see smaller films polay paul gordon who plays head killer duncan well chosen two speaking roles film carry film special effects matter good would saved film bad acting thankfully polay manages convey true fear gordon manages come real psycho limited roles seem filled lesser talent hardly showsbr br the downside b r k e n minutes long story ends twilight zone twist seems bit contrived hardly subtle watching it felt like supposed epiphany feeling much mundane hoped would be film tries hard one puzzles leaves audiences talking hours local coffee shop comes unsatisfying keep thinking first minutes longer filmbr br my rating ,0 +jazz aficionados treasure classic short showing best men jazz thing like watching frills music video todaybr br the jazz men give us additional treat person marie bryant sings classic version sunny side street never heard sing before bryant sounds remarkably like billie holliday thats compliment folksbr br their instrumental work tops well black cinema time fed lot white stereotypes film watched treasured great production values lot good music,0 +guiltin order live world one must accept good bad yes trouble that think many people entirely aware bad theyre accepting maybe care maybe care know im guilty too ampnbsp child father family friend sexually abused me pimped out really cam shows sold pictures me saw children animals corpses sexually abused kinds bizarre degradation purely entertainment truly careless individuals cant describe less crimes humanity humankind indicted complicit mere act existing cost seemed living world ampnbsp left family eventually therapy tried various medications decade temporary distraction truth cant seem escape sum good world worth sum bad discount good world ive seen it ive felt it ive part it theres sunsets symphonies laughter kisses music art friendship love deny it understand significance think worth it ampnbsp good world blot evil balance out make up anything ampnbsp went therapy several kinds fact cbt dbt transpersonal psychodynamic gestalt trauma based schema etc took pills prescribed listened therapists advice homework exercised ate well engaged community made friends read said hopeful little affirmations forgiving gentle others time least ampnbsp frustrating right things still feel way do realized denying know true want live world want breathe air others want community want relationships want happiness want well want saved want alone want die alone ampnbsp good mentioned would trade every happy memory every kindness every moment peace simply remember ignorant mans cruelty would false too exists whether one aware it world greater magnitude fathomable always always be cruelty much human nature kindness thats duality man thats rich tapestry ampnbsp want part it late hate people hurt anyone else evil monstrous other hate exactly same ampnbsp go cowardly way longing death feels like died many years ago young child makes sense way world nothing less hell,1 +the journey romantic version cold war english woman deborah kerr trying smuggle former love hungarian scientist jason robards jr hungary hungary revolt board bus thirteen international people trying get hungary austrian borderbr br of course bus gets stopped russians security check russian officerincharge yul brynner becomes attracted english woman deborah kerrand delays trip course russian officer knows truth hungarian scientist posing british citizen decides arrest scientist waiting english woman come him course sounds absurd fun movie watch despite romantic flow dialogue mr brynner ms kerr seems inappropriate situation in movie becomes suspenseful interesting good acting overrides silly dialogue perhaps people involved hungarian revolt would appreciate movie would consider piece fluff br br this favorite yul brynner role speaks own masculine voice attractive especially becomes vulnerable deborah kerrs second time working yul brynner since made the king i make attractive couple bad never worked again second sexy role ms kerr took since from eternity despite fact ms kerr wearing heavy winter clothes throughout movie beautiful sensual br br the fine supporting cast headed jason robards jr first film role international cast recognizable like instance robert morley england however rest actors never seen since great movie background fun see senta berger one maids speak lines hungarian years later movie cast giant shadow yul brynner leading lady still working today,0 +google meet chat presents bee movie got bored decided copy paste entire bee movie script math classes chat in chunks google meet character limit wow take forever,0 +know movie everyone push opinions you say truth many people feel movieit best ever seen soooooooooooooooooo funny even though scariest movie ever seen kept edge seat know gonna happen next like funny scary movies got see one,0 +comes goesone day ill great time friends playing games days want cut ties everything stop existing,1 +amazing people act attentionseekingly social media people die one reasons wont kill myselfthe subject speaks really cant get many fucking worthless maggots would try make redflag big deal them even afec fact none even cared slightest bit wellbeing f people,1 +step step step step step severe brrain damgblage step yes,0 +nerves exposed loneliness gets painfuli try act tough manly people see it care much way people feel around me think what wrong am even adding anything exciting interesting life struggle socially struggle talk nieces nephews way should see boring im,1 +tf prince philip still alive bruh like seriously see skeleton already queen literally looks lime shes built like tank,0 +passion desert exemplifies spatial grander visual narrative illuminated magnificent cinematography passion filmed location deserts jordan egypt morocco namibia tunisia br br we egypt augustin napoleanic soldier escorting writer artist jeanmichel venture de paradis official mission document measure draw paint cultural landmarks egypt dunes stupendous ruins mysterious people br br but truly document majestic sandscapes fractured edifices wild bedouins truly capture essence egypt nature man timebr br jean augustin become lost mesmerizing glittering gold desert whose vastness overwhelms senses br br you cant get lost egypt theres nile theres sea says dehydrated augustin soon discovers ancient winding cave leads palatial ruin br br delirious neardelusional attempts rest perplexing sound rouses him eyes body emotions become hypnotically locked time stumbles sensual sensory experience br br a wild sleek female leopard stares back him love affair beginsbr br a daring love affair daring film,0 +inconsiderate roommates im living bed bath people currently one roommates friends big advocate blm movement as done work improve allyship beginning year one bipoc friends thought usage word boof which corrected upon immediately called out micro aggression towards claimed aave although would never invalidate lived experience another wasnt shocked person hardly knows didnt address spot deflected roommate figured may shy anxious call someone out completely fine since done lot researching learning mistake however roommate told earlier month would staying place specific timeline shes willing bring table since then weeks girl staying rent utility free bought groceries made us split price shes mutual isnt screaming otp another person middle important final year thank god didnt fail classi constantly hear talking shit much hate allieswhite people although white still whitepassing understand come poc although go communicating roommates need compromise upon rentutility dont think much ask makes deeply uncomfortable corrected addressed white fragility extent feel awkward around even history dont want think microaggressing trying passive aggressive asking due diligence phrase group chat,0 +im epitome stupidityive verge tears today last two classes im stupid hurts im close getting kicked science class im falling way behind math school supposed chance start better getting ds fs throughout middle school dropping years science teacher obviously frustrated feel like crying every time step class hes type moved struggles either get work im smart means feel embarrassed tell everyone ashamed embarrassed meand friend goes easy everything feel horrible perpetual urge crawl hole never come out ive turning many blank hardly done assignments past weeks school session totally humiliatingand im shy ask help feel like burden annoyance get something wrong understand anything cant help cry even embarrassing speaking friendswell one online offline even starting fall group friends starting neglect mewhen say something shell look look awaymaybe im uninteresting ive wanting go mall school busy friends weektoday went library play dampd friend group invited me know play dampd go felt embarrassed itso maybe doing feel like im destined greatnessi friends intelligence confidence social skills job worthy skills family love methanks gaynessi nothing wish anymore im nothing think im meant anything steaming pile garbage mention like entire life story long difficult even begin discussing,1 +scariest experience class freshman time sophomore now independent study think cant remember exactly said remember joke race couple african american kids heard threatened jump me school instead payed apparently going help me point african american kid walked behind writing something put hands around neck started strangling good seconds there right front classmates who nothing literally supervised class teacher notice never reported knew would get trouble too,0 +need help getting though todayi severe physical pain ongoing chronic illness doctors cant fix horrible depression want alive anymore im struggling find housing stay abusive spouse anymore told would months year get housing assistance im unable work physical disabilities income amp k debt,1 +stop spamming bullshit hotlinesthey dont help ive never heard single story someone actually helped random stranger trained call cops say youre suicidal hang say arent fake bullshit want talk real person shitty volunteer people spamming hotlines make wanna die more ask yes ive called one before told wasting time said wasnt suicidal atm fuck shit hotlines fuck you,1 +feeling incrediblydepressedalonemiserablemy fiance moved across country him week later got cancer fighting that terrible genetic disease caused its called nf tumors body anyways k miles away home friends except few doesnt even matter destryoing fiance neediness lonliness cant work lost clothes shoes move many reasons ready die want die going die point anyways serve pain terrible pain worst want die trying hard live brain keeps telling die want wake fiance ask help ive asked enough whats point even writing problems much explain also see therpaist via phone cant see anymore due insurence reasons falling apart cant hold together anymore physically sick emotional sick hate look hideous ugly fat want exist,1 +seriously thinking redflag know balls it crushed student loans know never go away minimum wage job ugly fat shit knowing one want methere point anymore cant get ahead life one want credit score k debt ugly im im done everything fuck it,1 +want let gothe day waiting train standing close end platform considering dealing depression years years since ive dealt suicidal idealization scary im scared think maybe ive depressed whole life people told itd better got older could make decisions change environment therapy medication throughout college chronically miserable long prospects got job another country im still happy think ive ever really happy people told would get better hasnt cant handle prospect hang on longer im tired try nice people help however can someone asks help literally stop im doing possible give every time flip side think people know im struggling know that ive asked people help walked on people taken advantage me want bother anyone im dying kind connection contradictory is even people true friends connections have cannot deal rejection want trying settle days like today get frustrated want talk someone scared send another message ignored know problems big people want someone know work stresses out service job try really hard well think good work evaluation last month along lines great customers say smile enough please smile more cant want to things got bit bad weeks ago friend coworker got drunk sexually assaulted me people saw one anything it talked anyone whos taken seriously feel silly upset because yknow way rape police anything situation even reported it cry shower used look forward since catharsis lately dread wash hair comes clumps probably eating disorder now days im motivated eat one goodsized meal happen usually end puking ive lost much weight replace wardrobe second time eight nine months anyhow im still considered fat country one cares dread work since dealing people dislike people really like helping fake connections wear out im super introvert every day exhausting skills though days like today try study make marketable end crying half day instead im scared ill mess work get gloomy something get fired certainly kill forced go back country savings live family environment terribly toxic lately ive thinking methods like inconviencing people id ideally like arrange affairs unobtrusive again part angry much pain like one cares want everyone know yes bad want people stop think moment maybe even feel little sorry probably much coward go way though people would likely want continue living feel like alive profoundly unhappy perhaps way am persisting problem me like since kid whether working shutin social solitary sides planet got long im sorry appreciate anyone whos read entire thing ive wanted say things long considering next steps,1 +youre ky please dm me havent found single person reddit yet please exist title,0 +too first saw band dismissed straight away without even listening music one day sheer curiosity bought cd fell love it bought video hold onto lunch kids isnt going pretty video excellent great opportunity hear music see promo videos meet bandalthough still dont know cope wearing masks time must fans band fans alternative music general,0 +fiance years leaving me dont want lifeas im writing tears eyes someone love one makes happy leaving me going back home state leaving mine said wanted stay guess huge disappointing lie cant take anymore reddit know sound stupid life would better life without him hes leaving saturday iits way happy reddit dont know way,1 +ireland fact bed that going tired situated ireland,0 +subreddit mods harass women do theyre usually rteenagers y,0 +present poem english class guys give suggestions improve terrible poem poems bad makes mad feel annoyed spark joy let make list poem bad poems bad unlike dad makes sure im warm night project kept night poems bad its boring add making sleep want fall hole deep public speaking thing let literature pull strings id rather science learning wonders universe creations god id rather history learning dead people id rather maths thinking ate lunch last week reading poem help life point poem bad including one rhymes fell apart oh boy glad,0 +didnt text ex week literally every week cave text hated every time it last time last week got day hump experiencing get unrelenting urge text him im proud far,0 +read synopsis plot movie would sound like quite typical one s story would seem quite contrived subject matter maudlin strength beauty film direct earthy performances casti seldom seen jean harlow display range feeling rich subtle nuances float face watch faces wedding ceremony chapel obvious depth feeling principal characters raw emotions sincerely portrayed true final sequence almost unbearably poignant clark gable looks joy surprise son lifts proudly says my kid help remember mr gables son born posthumously one finest examples depression era cinema,0 +dont love know,0 +obese people like like body way is haters keep hating bruh im concerned health sure love body please healthy cant change it blame you really healthy stop stuffing much unhealthy food treating okay control okay,0 +thoughts thisive thinking whats important staying alive repeat process day day out wake up workschool sleep eat dont see anything special that thing one day get married kids work job dont see importance it doesnt make special dont difference anyone else continue that,1 +ed harriss work film usual standard excellence is steals screen away anyone shares it includes formidable sean connery movie bit sanctimonious comes alive scenes harris interrogated attorney another convict breathtaking master class artistic controlbr br the cast members adept connery reliable fishbourne story packs wallop plot depends largely premise black prisoner always mistreated coerced white law enforcement officers engine drives story right wrong makes one feel tad cheated endbr br still worth watching see harris action,0 +instant gratification world lot time feel nobody time otheri feel disconnected disconnected,1 +todayim really hoping todays day everyday lose battle hope today infinally suceed taking life away world wont even notice im gone doesnt even notice im begin with hope today finally die,1 +depressed horny im times,0 +im racist thats slaves demographics basement filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler te filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy xt make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy filler text make auto mod happy,0 +hope die sleep timefuck,1 +friend wants kill theyre suffering life would cruel prevent themif friend suffers multiple mental illnesses helped therapy medication family shit cant work mental illnesses government wont assist getting work money mental ill enough cant go school mental illnesses seems x worse depression let kill himself hes almost tried friend mine called cops upset someone tried help felt bad truly hates life hates living know make life better him want support validate feeling has obviously want die do nothing helps him pessimistic view life everything hes told me ive much worse life him depression anxiety bad enough glass half empty point view cant tell suck up people worse lives becausethats dick move help know show life bad makes think maybe him life badpeople suffering incurable illnesses get assisted redflag end suffering cruel make friend live suffering constantly know people situations want overstep boundaries him want respect wishes,1 +dog insanely attached love much best friend person kill know never able attach anyone way constantly waiting come home wish way kill would traumatize make feel like abandoned him wish way communicate fault come back okay okay love dog much actually cuddling crying type now thought leaving behind alone depression guess lucky god go forgive leaving alone wish could kill without traumatizing abandonimg dog,1 +book nearly done im scared finish it,0 +posted yesterday needing helpi found writing goodbye letter mom yesterday wrote goodbye letter best friend continue write letters form therapy dont know ill ever send them writing helps putting pain somewhere find thoughts day im writing post telling im writing way therapy head im thinking ways could end tonight sorry messy post needed spill thoughts,1 +didnt ask born suffering muchive depressed whole life nothing suffering didnt ask born im forced go school get career survive didnt ask born,1 +brother killed thingthis short version story older brother one always depressed even tried kill self stopped parents happened years ago i ive recently turned one month later somehow got fathers gun shotgun shot self head rushed room saw exploded head since ive never said word im able speak anymore im mute trauma called selective mutism want look up extremely depressed everytime close eyes see image dead brother head blown off multiple panic attacks everyday dont want talk friends familyby talk mean communicate literally talk cant anymore im sitting knife next me dont know it please help,1 +started struggle completing routine tasks especially deadlines somedays want work set schedule though always fail following it time management something become incapable of extremely depressed even suicidal thoughts time management never issue extremely satisfied january thought fought depression time seems fly away know goes keeps running away going faster faster sometimes struggle get bed staring feed phone even feeling content day another aspect noticed chasing excitement thrill without life seems completely boring cannot even seem get bed get excited whenever buy something even completely useless btw remembered need take money book ordered eat lot want eat time keep wasting ordering food food problem getting hand already strict definitions body type rooted brain spent minutes food delivery app trying order something even though hungry kept searching baskin robbins even though knew closed keep opening fridge even though know nothing inside somedays lose ambition completely usually long term goals always keep failing at extremely unlucky something me even smallest tasks attempt become increasingly difficult array problems pop nowhere today get bed hours straight writing rant probably one going bother reading nothing better life cannot even find new music good thought would get excited go day friends people would text meet grown distant too meet anyone text couple people off none real friends anyways make journey bearable sometimeps diagnosed depression unofficially local clinical psychologist last year covid spread way content lockdown even life began get normalized it everything currently normal country effect lockdown never felt like before could depression one forms,1 +another silent love triangle film hitchcock mystery english wellpaced photographed smooth boxer bob corby ian hunter recruits circus boxer one round jack sander carl brisson sparring partner partly keep pretty fickle mabel lilian halldavis nearby lots character actors grotesquesat jack mabels wedding verger standing aisle church registers shock sight tall short men fat lady conjoined twins who course argue side aisle sit wedding feast amusing rest movie jack losing mabel boxing way back heart something like that another era altogether audience evening dress boxers dressing up too ring camera angles pace use symbols cuttingall stylish masterful camerawork editing last boxing match gripping brissons good looks wellused one smiling oblivious whats going around hitchcocks manxman annoying boxers dimples,0 +ive best friendzoned girl months case guys ever feel like love life cant get worse remember this laugh least bad lol,0 +someone help homework please here problems httpsimgurcomgallerytsnopve due like two hours anything helps,0 +love love bot feels really wholesome nice,0 +ted danson great choice play gulliver even though background mostly comedy shows drama well perhaps even better though lot humour this hard turn blind eye american accent especially since character supposed english thats minor thingbr br all villains equally well cast james fox edward fox peter otoole warwick davis john standing etc despite fact either tiny people giants believable everything motivations clear eg lilliputians unremitting suspicion gulliver grildrig giant dwarfs hatred usurping position court jester dr bates attempt gulliver proved insane marry marybr br mary steenburgen great mary gulliver another th century english character american accent never mind deeply tormented character waiting nine years husband return home finally does talking tiny people giants flying island talking horses mary despite strong fantasy element story believable characterbr br the special effects breathtaking especially consider filmed television scale time cgi infancy looks realistic see foot tall man walking city filled people inches tallbr br the cameos great well omar sharif richard wilson sir john gielgud kristin scott thomas ned beatty great actors create strong supporting cast complement dansons superb acting abilitybr br the houynhnhms yahoos probably effective element story satire side things society talking horses possess vices humans yahoos primitive disgusting humans mate forcefully appoint leader depending disgusting is gulliver mistress study also well done displays differences similarities humans yahoosbr br the best version gullivers travels far one best miniseries ever,0 +literally found reason wanna kids earlier today park friends right little seven year old named anthony wanted push swings like pity first getting mad one pushing him yeah start pushing like five minutes holy shit hes adorable bro much fun swings literally made happy see little kid genuinely happy like ten minutes friends im still pushing yes ofc nice cool backwards hat akdjsndbdb beyond adorable istfg okay thats love anthony lt,0 +pro tip watch porn right fall asleep dream last night goddamn good dreams made better lucid dream therefore could feel taste that,0 +cereal milk good cereal water yeah ive said it cereal milk used great like month ago shop low milk theyre yet restock like weeks goto breakfast possibleor thought crazy part brain told fetch bottle water poured cocopops tried out gosh surprisingly good ive found water cereal ive found completely neglecting milk option see difference milk water although milk gives creamy taste softens actual cereal takes away bit taste water all also gives fresh mineral taste bowl cereal plus side get free cup daily water anyway definite win d,0 +im sorrytoo annoyed pain im sorry wont bother gooing pain im sorry good night friends,1 +feel like weekend im gonna end allive sad long time almost years things kind seem pointless girlfriend recently treating poorly friends moved away dont like anymore theres bridge house think weekend ill jump see girlfriend one last time tomorrow think thats deciding factor,1 +absolutely adore isabelle blais cute movie far different role quebecmontreal like maneater think nominated jutra mean syvlie moreau good isabelle far superior imo pelletier done fine work first time out noticed snuck couple buddies rock et belles oreilles guy a lepage andre ducharme fun see this know going appearbr br i think ive seen romantic comedy quebec like one good ive pleasure see states wondering get copy dvd wwwarchambaultca delivered less week,0 +redflag answer meim always wrong even give proof people dont im wrong even burden proof me yet im one gives evidence im wrong cannot right literally impossible give links proving something say im still wrong everyone thinks im pulling stuff ass refuse prove things even though literally every single proof gave dismissed say every single one mean literally everything say dismissed whether prove not redflag answer,1 +couple hours become older one year this goodbye post birthday feel sad really like birthday family cares gets presents stuff im sad time seems going really fast feel like im wasting life away staying inside playing video games like anything else quarantine,0 +hell always feel damn lonely even though im usually surrounded friends dont get it ill friends sudden get really fucking lonely im tired it,0 +hangingwhich easier drop suspension hanging,1 +good morning good morning e,0 +teenagers dreams wondering guysgals age concrete dreams etc mean yall even want life yall wander aimlessly everyday going along flow,0 +first episode immediately gave good impression expect series mysteries waiting solved lot good drama love fact gradually reveal stories concerning characters explaining enough stay excited course show flaws first two series characters reason show third season many characters decent sent there like rose husband hell they happened them maybe return later episodes little inconsistent said lost manages thrilling every episodeespecially first two seasons hard thing do notice third season focus character development mystery aspects show bad thing even saves episodes getting boring one elements considered strength show wonderful characters grow love characters good bad eventually want see mysteries solved get closure danger lost getting canceled due declining ratings near would devastating,0 +need advice anyone willing listeni tried kill last saturday night uncle wake next morning instead me feel like fault feel like responsibility live happy fulfilling life owe him would want to im depressed ever guilt pressure happy like everyone wants getting everything uncle alone cant tell family theyre already grieving want worry more theres much could help already myself bipolar disorder bpd among disorders live with know depressive episode pass worst long time nowhere things got really bad last saturday night found stories top parking deck looking down hours staring crying thinking decided go home overdose instead obviously work throwing feeling like shit days afterwards past redflag attempts ive realized wanted live afterwards ive happy alive time different feel worse ever maybe uncle passing away im sure want disappear think death almost constantly barely bring smile today first day back work since saturday everyone knew something wrong cant even fake anymore day today thought going back parking deck it ive thought going back mental health facility area ive stayed twice things keeping going though health insurance dad lost job weeks ago family lost health benefits theres way could afford pay hospital own family might willing help want put them would also labeled addict forced go recovery program smoke marijuana daily basis really helps depression anxiety mood swings paranoia etc would test positive means theyd make focus addiction problem push mental health problems side ive seen happen people there leave without getting real help need also stopped taking medication months ago stopped seeing psychiatrist therapist that im tired rely medication function like normal person able feel happy im open medication options could find would actually work thats without even considering cost psychiatrist medication hospital theyd force medication throat add list bills anyways going hospital going back therapist psychiatrist whatever doctor option anymore since health insurance cant afford it getting help expensive sad guess im kind loss im feeling nearly suicidal earlier gave cut myself want want die every second im awake best friend told knows want die made angry want die family want die genuinely hate do cant shake feeling im going make christmas year guess im ventingranting expect anyone read respond this know point is,1 +recently saw movie international business class expecting anything another boring documentary not say love documentary ive hard bad luck movies class imagine surprise movie thats actually movie came up br br this film tell cultural differences work place need cooperate get anywhere culture clash shows different world differently perceive someone comes along gives us wake call would highly recommend film anyone business wants laugh yes funny br br well thats it cheers,0 +see shitty post downvote post ignore it shitty post downvote it,0 +carry oni know carry feel like everything crumbling know theres point always try optimistic hope theres much negativity thrown redflag letter want biggest fuck person caused this mom want everything emanate inside mind knows caused it,1 +dont really know title this thank listening way home mom said dad told felt bad way ive talking recently cant tell said jokingish tone not know said her feel really bad kind like worst person alive really love mom fact wasnt speaking right makes feel worse going sit weeks ive really trying stay positive month hard reason feel stressed like im anything right like theres something wrong me got period thats probably helping feel like sound negative speak maybe stop talking together dont feel like im good feel mean dont want mean apologized lot said okay kind said smile still feel bad feel awful didnt mean speak badly feels like much this thank x,0 +created reddit avatar made look like real life the avatar looks like nerd really look like nerd real life oh no,0 +im turning phone tis time grind homeworks require assistance life able reach hopefully next hour ap history work yes sit start two hours ago done absolutely nothing thanks asking,0 +im feeling anything right nowim currently unable feel emotion second time happened me im year old man currently studying but starting hate study job never worked before still live mother girlfriend think im losing her talk nobody enjoy anything daily life last two weeks horrible sister mother got covid grandfather passed away not covid related lived town hrs home seen father brother girlfriend weeks covid everything getting better getting sadder today talked girlfriend feel really sad day crying lot talked im feeling telling feels alone tell also feel alone ended feeling worse got point cant feel anything sad made girlfriend feel like shit im sad care her cant feel anything found friend got engaged happy feel anything im trying cry cant get feel sad work classes feel urge simply feel like it ive feeling like hour straight know do,1 +finally saw nonbeliever ff wow today aunt apparently visited us years visited us maybe mins started complain coronavirus fake made money virus self kill us masks here kind argument saying sterilized surprise virus made kill old ones much money spent way bill motherfucker call him make money point knew shall laugh cringe friend mother corona guess im wrong left shed start talking g ppl really nightmares smh talk mom fucking start acting like joke btw kind nurse germany virus didnt make casualties spring virus kind just kinda tilted,0 +please tell iteverything hurts feel alone cant burden friends roommate went omegle tlak anyone might understand thats first met girl fell love whos put guess thought maybe could happen instead multiple people told kill see im drinking room alone trying numb working im dizzy pain want stop want stop,1 +real life birthday in exactly six months,0 +lot people told math vague last post chance crush reddit so improved it would take total no redditors mil based usernames taken taking male female percentages this posthttpswwwredditcomrdataisbeautifulcommentswtnkdsubreddit_gender_ratios_oc taking males nice females ignoring country wise malefemale percentages sorry nonbinary bros country wise data herehttpswwwstatistacomstatisticsredditglobalactiveuserdistribution would assume variables affect result results in form countrygender chance crush reddit usamale usafemale ukmale ukfemale canadamale canadafemale germanymale germanyfemale australiamale australia female say l lsn lwlsn take data pinch salt countries heres rickrollhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvdqwwwgxcq make post worth time,0 +matter timeive forgotten feel good myself im addict im chronically unhappy im treatment addiction mental health im grossly unhappy relationship nowhere else go nights around much sleep basement building used manage im riddled crippling anxiety im fantasizing killing myself feels like im getting closer passing day im broke medicated unhappy hope know live normal life think even want to want sleep wake up feels like healing worth process anymore,1 +u got android whatsapp ur playing mystic messenger irl fuckin banger send it rn,0 +foundation future lost hopei lost younger brother redflag nowhere last fall strong one future ahead wasted years degree chance succeed interested found out doubts since years still went on alternative live outside us expensive country not scandinavia either get masters degree work minimum wage bare surviving minor alternative formations without uni degree old interested jobs theres branch would interest enough university degree choice limited since brothers death need live parents pain big literally get bed otherwise feel even worse pretty intense agoraphobia meaning practically friends none meet new people with know im strange pretty asocial phobia together intense anxiety disorder depression of make impossible go classes leave alone work hours day hate monotony jobs mostly private life monotone problems leg often immobile cant walk cycle thing making happy giving feeling success currently nothing gives feeling success always phases depression years ago deep ones went away education crumbled health problems got worse soon thrown current education goes complete shit find job pays enough find one all housing expensive home country means living border hours stuck trafficday less life quality practically social security fucked big time masters degree friends girlfriend bright life ahead instead nothing besides end all making parents grandma even worse killing last chance legacy have siblings even cousins see psychologist monday seen therapist weeks ago tell solution redflag prescribed ssri work pill make calm evening makes sleep day might tell psychologist monday break parents kill big trust theyll cancel needed holidays definitely fall real pit now much think go studying get serious pull through chance succeed even try hard possible going downhill sleepy time motiviation anything even enough play video games leave alone study bit exams month tldr see future me family left life sustaining education friends girlfriend uncertain health i already best with failed big time shall besides ending life destroying parents life sorry missing structure anxiety attack again,1 +sorry bother youi usually things like want get know else say it reason im alive father raised belief selfish people kill made terrified selfish tried kill college got really drunk took bottle sleeping pills slept days desperate sleep woke morning realized id done sad still alive loving family good friends wonderful partners live away them hate live im minutes away partners id love live boyfriend want to pay per month apartment hate two roommates stopped liking found polyamorous think gross gossip diseases im barely making enough rent ive trying find new place live costs less scary areas im heartbroken man im living stupid city take although im also aware selfish makes makes hate myself job hated left freelance working hours per day try make ends meet im constantly sad tired feel like every day same im sure im still around for im failing everything anyways im failing life keep going remember id selfish kill cry every morning every night miss family miss best friends want feel home place first time years once im tired,1 +hi guys ive got deadline media coursework end week enough data compete coursework media studies btw itd greatly appreciated could provide data spend hours sifting through httpsformsglefaaszdzjpcuu link here thanks slightly disgruntled students bulburdine xx,0 +family sees source labor driven friends away reclusei much coward myself wish could suddenly stop existing wish could drop face planet,1 +im probably leaving sub idk joined memes arent funny anymore man,0 +want die anythingi literally fucking care how ill take corona cancer shot hit car im literally tall hang myself parents monitor medicine want die theres nothing left me literally pstd last time tried get help nobody hospital cares im source income fucking prison wanna dead ive spent years shithole every day ive wanted end it want dead want kill myself wanna go home hate here never asked born parents horrible people me,1 +need someone talk downive well last couple weeks today worst long time im stuck work now cant call hotline wife also work want make day difficult mine is texting let know feel distract job work suffered severely this cant make happen her basically need someone talk enough make work day much call things crises seems impossible get help timely matter like already need attempt deed get help im half ass cry help when it going real potential help point disappears second appointment therapist wednesday might well years away im feeling feel trapped unable control even smallest aspect life work job worked really hard for frills self hatred coworkers hate promoted fraction time theyve spent employed try make every day difficult possible see fail supervisors cant trust coworkers jobs come every little thing needs get done want quit would mean lose source income insurance wife desperately needs chronic condition would mean able pay loans bills would fall wife parents cover ive already used pto trying cope this able land job anywhere else either despite applying sorts positions even jobs im qualified for still turned away without even phone interview wife threatened offered committed sometimes sound like bad idea im stranded away person love able fall asleep next end day hear laugh stupid jokes thats really thats keeping going past year anyways basically comes feeling trapped helpless change anything guess reading time spare pm something help make day half mind take long lunch go home grab straight razor take swim river really want that think many options left thanks reading,1 +body dysmorphia making suicidalthe past month save last week going well ive made many friends put socially everyday look forward talking laughing really seem enjoy talking me even decided well chose start medication depressive episodes really thought could get happy myself ive even almost completely overcame disordered eating habits havent counted calories two months body dysmorphia one thing cant beat time spend social situations worse gets im exhausted im becoming obsessive controlling behaviors regarding appearance fucking tiring spend hours picking outfits trying on throwing rejected clothes huge piles bed every time wash hair blow dry it straighten it curl it go bathroom multiple times day reapply makeup check appearance spend hours flipping pictures analyze facial asymmetry skipped class today felt thighs chafe naked getting ready mental breakdown wanted kill overwhelmingly sad lonely crave death ill finally free body thoughts self loathing sounds freeing inhabit contorted sack flesh anymore im everything fight this yes therapist yes supportive friends family talk to dont instagram understand psychology behind way feel logically know im attractive girl nice body many nice features body dysmorphia always there dont know else try fight it want release im sick living like this,1 +cant itim pussy cant it im asshole fuck everyone else medication makes want vomit nothing works,1 +hello everyonei pretty upset recently individual read self helpself love blogs constantly reassure okay people successful love value way are but wanted greedier wanted selfish write fanfiction online years seeing people successful hurts online friend recently started writing well successful am understand petty jealous truly feel lot aspects life honest work school hobbies etc wrong want success conditioned believing good successful whatever equates value worth wrong crave success instantly rather waiting future bring dash success later many blogs said talking fame fortune pat head would nice time time accepting fact people successful and talented painful,1 +involve one person help commit redflag information wise okay already decided commit redflag pain unbearable cannot fixed however problem lack necessary valid materials actually commit it want fast painless possible wanted typically firearm exposed carbon monoxide poisoning seem relatively painless easy firearm car etc so consult someones help obtain necessary materials need this friends family probably ask random person school obtain knowledge plan do person point right direction ill rest right still charged assisted redflag even though prior knowledge so,1 +ending life easy found perfect method coward throwaway account obvious reasons found it perfect painless way die want much ive terrible childhood still living abusive parents gay male years old people around always told go hell never considered christian years brainwashing manipulation partly also not good school nuns know scared really eternal suffering death waiting me scared dying itself big deal already almost died hospital bed once know feeling thing stopping hope hope would get better patience run out want hope want live never lonely britney said my loneliness killing meeeeee,1 +finally ittoday last day work ive already sold belongings taken every cent account ive booked three nights casino luxury suite entertainment duration stay sounds like proper send ask me,1 +someone influence wanting kill myself try address themtheres someone know well last time spoke said things really hurt affected me situation complicated lay right now made bad ugly judgementsassessmentsassumptions went everything working try best person others treated like less dirt theres whole story first time actually tried kill myself think it months since ive thinking wanting kill ones fault ultimately ones fault except person me direct outside influence makes want kill myself theyre person influenced wanting kill myself little ive thinking try address problem person not necessary tell what heavily influences wanting kill myself tell wrong affecting me person hates me im doubts it really feel like one things make want kill less try,1 +ok tf express emotions like im sad shit ,0 +repetition helli need kill myself hurts much,1 +try im going end dying anywayi could try try try life might succeed or could die right never worry ever again become successful im going die end anyway ways ill get outcome bother trying,1 +anyone else consumed morbid curiosity im constantly rwatchpeopledie rmorbidreality raccidentalsuicide well sites like death addict best gore documenting reality etc concern myself bragging im phased it savour atrocities feel like must keep consuming them hardly anything fascinates more,1 +stop httpsyoutubeinbrpclifse saw sad,0 +know doi really know go anymore know talk too feel whiny going anywhere anyone im sitting room razor bottle vodka dad today told im worthless regrets able find job years ive cheated woman thought would life sisters want anything friends nothing name except beaten phone got free free wifi im stealing neighbors ive got nothing know go i want pain stop but im afraid i want stop,1 +pickup line confidence use one day oh like raisins date,0 +i lets go beach beach ninkay mijaj,0 +cant deali moments yearn take life scared it guess characteristic trait mine severely depressed serious heavy suicidal ideations strong pull hard black dealt depression since child one would think id uses now imagined razor slitting vein wrist i even researched it happened twice times gave hard jolt back reality present immense fear right situation created almost myself feeling pulls strong almost hard fight wrote final goodbye today children anything else able see kids years taken hidden me thay result depression situation vile human control know happening yanked me no sexual abuse thoughts feeling torturous know strong enough,1 +wouldnt feel really nice crush could sit near river forest watch orange leaves fall autumn weather beautiful wish girl ,0 +horrible parents didnt anything hurt anyonewhat ever wrong why always blaming making suicidal really fucking cant anymore life become living hell me cant even fucking basic human stuff like eating working even sitting ffs fucking bullshit happened last year hell gone plan last year im fucking coward parents things messed brain minute fucking second born never supposed married used fight every single fucking day screaming sometimes even got physical like day fucking one years ago hell messed brain fucking much used think shit normal mother used cry sister saying never wanted marry guy like dad even threatened leave fucking house used pack bags shit almost went door couple times cant really blame though dad fucking sociopath hes never felt affection towards family once hes always coldest rock hard person ive ever met school fucking helping either day still fucking know fucking nd grader knew bully people hard always got bullied one year fucking definitely gonna next bullshit home made sort immune it stuff said always hit harder probably related me time passed somehow last year really got fucking horrible still know happened dad mom turned me still fucking know why used give punishments nothing all fr would come me would sitting nothing all tell im allowing something started telling fat ugly stupid deserve anything providing me know true want anything theirs im fucking coward actually go through top shitty mess sundae life im getting symptoms eating disorder im stopping eating feel disgusting around food deserve it honestly feel happy eat much like im finally listening want seriously feel like people meant live world long im one them im able nice anyone anymore want stay inside day takes much fucking effort find reason wake face shit every single day feel fucking stuck toxic household fucking quarantine know long im gonna wait im fucking coward anymore ampxb make separate acct this friends discovered original acct cant use shit now without judge everything do,1 +still here feel physically closer death tho nice back,1 +fuck mei need advice massive od shoot drowned body never found,1 +hi u bored scrollin like moi sooo friends hav discord server r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us theres ppl console channel ask opposite sex channel relationship advice anime images ppl europe australia asia too stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome teen baby old man loool dm link d,0 +think migraine fuvk cant see clearly head hurts,0 +tf respond crush said how bo boo goddamn,0 +dont know im suicidali actively think killing self aftermath never consider it however consider dying peaceful freeing thing,1 +damn im tryna get laid semester got condoms got room myself need gurl now well lets see goes,0 +help choose minute presentation english dont know topic thinking cars motorcycling audio techequipment movies music think would intere listenwatch ideas also welcome,0 +im sports fan love sports flics so great sports flic one storytelling style finebr br if looking reliably fantastic hours entertainment greatest game qualifies mightily movie moves bill paxton gone director school ron howard aka richie cunningham happy days bad look immense body fine work ron moving behind camerabr br bill like ron great actor superstar director greatest game ever indication things followbr br wonderful cinematography fantastic direction fine acting especially elias koteas shia lebeouf marnie mcphail josh flitter stephen marcus justin ashforthbr br this must see film feelgood sports film good cinema,0 +statistics scare meas middleaged single uneducated white male im likely commit redflag ever imagined age gets likely never fooled thinking life got easier aged fuck think got much worse,1 +day posting quotes nothing else guess always sacrifice like that calling useless meaningless stop treating like dont matter homura akemi madoka magica,0 +stupid super lucky got beautiful wife kids mortgage steady job nearly years turned supposed feel like shit time supposed suicide ideation every second day supposed get point week nearly jumped multi story car park good things feel like meet distractions world slows enough immediately think ending all react negatively everything first response putting unwanted strain notredflag reinforcing idea burden around me see lot posts people shit situations here understand completely feel way feel feel guilty feeling way counts not do still sure turn around hang got lot thankful for still want end all,1 +friends told bunch friends suicidality realy supportive j think ill still go attempt weeks ill chance surviving heads gaver,1 +im tiredi dont know much deal with im tore wanna go soon,1 +umegathiccc umegathicccc havent seen need know doing,0 +slitting wrists hypothetical questionif someone alone night one disturb him successfully slit wrists know im seriously asking help something lol hypothetical question cant someone bleed death hours cutting done correctly,1 +need stop posting death grips shoutouts ujapanesedenim_ nothing theyre coolest mf block shoutout u,0 +right back square one die already a weeks ago posted thishttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsrqaive_become_terrified_of_the_future_and_wish_death things continued go south issue new coworker thought turned trivial head still ashamed approach apologize faux pas help last friday last day work business supposedly slow keep would let know march soon id able return parents business owners know bit hiring laying off believe ive laid completely able return job march period sent email career counselor monday never heard back also posted thishttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentstgohi_want_to_die_i_finally_have_a_better_chance_of went completely unnoticed considering im really sensitive perceived negative social interaction really well feel completely ignored alienated appointment homevisiting psych worker made realize end issues foster home never end license ended renewed anyway bastards continue run ship exact shitty way always have shitty services abusive neglectful behavior home visit appointment also made realize state workers never really intended anything first place blamed cherry picking nitpicking everything fh excuses simply unhappy here mother thought good help turned instead deliberately humiliate things asked do honestly know believe her know im already regaining previous perception her seems think subhuman animal needs kept leash times difference think everyone life thinks way me true is know anymore social worker met weeks ago said end summer would chance move find better living situations intense redflag desires returned stronger before im seriously considering sneaking find good place die already f m l,1 +give one good reasonive benn alienated entire family since probably tough thought would get easier way deal easier till want end years see another option end ,1 +damn chill mother f know christmas better thanksgiving want love mother fuckers,0 +finally got spend entire night cuddling girlfriend im happy im shes happened yesterday girlfriend planning spend night together meant friends birthday party yesterday course boris new rule party got cancelled already planned gonna afterwards decided stick staying night hers yesterday arrives im anxious fuck ive got usual upset stomach pretty awful thoughts go alongside one doesnt want stay night following advice counsellor challenge thoughts end biting bullet sending message asking want stay night course silly donkey fast forward couple hours ive packed bag everything ill need pretty much ready go over ready hours meant headed over get usual hug soon opens door hug different wed extremely stressful week ill falling behind school work never less powered weekend go room lie bed arm wrapped waist head chest arrived werent really sure kill time cuddled next hours deep chats always appreciate find hard speak really am brush peoples questions instead really facing reality one point ended chatting best friend recently came bi im super mega proud know hes got really supportive friendship group surrounding hes got bi girlfriend whos accepted im bi knows wont change thing feel her loads friends super caring supportive ended crying little ive able properly open anyone quite felt really shit guilty school eventually rolls around get hungry plan order pizza eat made slight alteration little brother came us pizza went local marina got back little dinner date which thankfully didnt end us sat outside house pizzas somebody forgot key thanks little bro went room cuddled more teased little bit couldnt much period started watching baby driver fantastic film mind you eventually gets tired decides wants sleep thats do tuck ourself in cuddle wrap arm around waist waiting moment half years finally happening finally cuddling night entire night main reason actually wrapped arm around waist provide comfort also know struggles sleeping sometimes wanted wake up wake several times throughout night time jerk awake slumber give kisses neck hold close falls asleep pretty quickly around am wakes up sits really hot bothered goes gets damp flannel starts trying cool down eventually curls bed sat foot bed facing door right reaches grabs hand squeezes squeeze back whisper love you dont know heard me didnt respond like think did couple minutes shes tossing turning eventually ends settling head thigh curled really tight ball gently stroking leg falls asleep next hour comes around am point knackered stopped awake hours event even whilst slept awake curl next wrap arm around her gets bit weird probably am shuffled away me thought mustve hot didnt follow left be suddenly shot back across bed pinning agains wall body weight seconds relaxed shuffled again super odd also threw teddy head rolling am didnt mind much already awake wake am little cuddle chat get go toilet come back shes laying was get back bed her cuddle reaches across turn fan falls asleep laying top me fall asleep long wake around ish wasnt laying anymore instead rolled looking me turned head try find her spotted left went another cuddle muttered really wish couldve kissed lips pull awake looks eyes kiss lips first time well months amazing film scenes youve seen like that amazing pure loved much night finished even though didnt sex like hoped didnt care end interested spending time her know want fun started become sexually active rona hit long read youve made way want say thank you love all take care milf,0 +cut wrists lot throughout life never deep cuts never really trying kill though knew chance would kill me would considered attempt no counts attempt,1 +made survey psychology class itd awesome could participate issue academic alcohol consumption academic performance all teens surveyhttpsformsglebtznjstkobvda,0 +reason anymore ive thought outi really thought long time now life time low see getting better ive tried everything could people sad theyll get it everyone does care happiness anything end better now cons definitely outweigh pros im going give bit longer see mind changing,1 +sped kachow,0 +film based true story comes first time director long time actor denzel washington denzel washington given us best performances last decade black soldier civil war glory lawyer acclaimed philadelphia course made special notoriety last year academy award best actor training day denzel washington became first african american receive award best actor guess denzel wanted change pace chose direct antwone fisher also stars fisher played derek luke new silver screen made guest appearances television shows king queens appearing upcoming film release biker boyzbr br truly well done film denzel washington considering first time directing undoubtedly denzel felt kind commitment believed real life story antwone fisher antwone fisher young african american man navy constantly gets fights one particular brawl sent see navy psychiatrist named jerome davenport played denzel washington davenport helps antwone deal troubled past learn move life finding birth mother give birth prison makes film good fact overly melodramatic expecting something little like good hunting lot swearing fighting vulgarity like good hunting swearing fighting vulgarity film place quite contrary however antwone fisher true story think washington wanted sensationalize story dramatic affect film get wrong moments see antwone fighting carrying moments seems like world closing him all first session psychiatrist character played washington devenport asks fisher born fishers response is from rock obvious jab pressures waning antwone fishers soul appreciate fact film sensationalized dramatic affect think shows real character part denzel washington deliver realistic story avoid typical clichs common hollywood films even based true stories one point would like bring antwone fisher acting all performances good film great times think bit obvious main characters actors overall complain performances film would ludicrous one actress would like point film viola davis plays antwones mother says barely two sentences movie all much appears end film shock long lost son antwone found her would like point actress lack use her basically character actress seen play really elaborate roles made appearances traffic sight kate leopold two recent films far heaven solaris steven soderbergs remake solaris played scientist doomed space craft orbiting planet film confronted george clooneys character drawn tears clooney tells particular scene first saw solaris remember seeing tear scene thinking wow woman act could feel characters grief brief shot face gave much expression honestly felt sorry characters sadness trouble film think definite potential actress used often perhaps leading roles rather character driven actress nonetheless antwone fisher good movie denzel washington always pulls great performance gives us great directorial debut also derek luke talented actor think antwone fisher bring immense critical fame portrayal troubled man think public popularity increase release biker boyz also stars lawrence fishburn antwone fisher based book finding fish memoir antwone quenton fisher ,0 +me im sitting womens clothing store waiting sister mom girl works walks smiles least times comes compliments shoes comes another time tells need anything let know could mistaken guy store women going need anything right may overthinking seems like shes leaving subtle hints make move idk let know guys ps compliment made feel super good daily reminder compliment someone whenever youre thinking something genuinely nice them may make day made mine,0 +happy asexuality day yall im asexual anything like happy asexuality day lol ron almighty rat king,0 +anyone else like indie pop whatever called rn yeah drop playlists drop even dont heres minehttpsopenspotifycomplaylisthinwxyphmkvbydliccsicetyllydrlghkpbkrjruba,0 +aboveaverage film acting partly spoiled completely predictable story line even music chosen words fit action every time scent pleasantville camp hangs around flick period piece accurate not depiction tragedy company towns lack upward mobility sketchy moving chris cooper turns firstclass performance howards coalminer daddy,0 +managed get eight year depressive phase rather great elated three months lapsed again relapsed alcohol gotten symptoms used to time however become excessively paranoid aggressive waking night seeing things fell friend backhanded something said unlike worriedi need help great need help,1 +promised wouldnt come sub im well rnlmfaooo oh shit go,1 +life meant peoplethe rest us spectators life whats point living work crappy job rather pursuing dream career whats point unattractive women wants date you whats point born short small people push around time keep lying life worth living like this,1 +well guess im waiting right time placei thought promised coming back guess another lie finally found gun waiting right time place technically gun people live better job hiding firearms small revolver understand shot near temple lethal often not yeah guess really it time put shut up speak,1 +slept half second hour atleast im tired anymore clue wtf happened out,0 +love letter youto beautiful you beautiful inside out amazing person greatness within you special uniqueness inside one else has put earth reason times yet know world live strange know hard find light among darkness light light need reason see darkness others cannot gift evolving dont give come far compare others different paths walk reach friend ask help change wrong world love simple act kindness warm anothers heart duplicate another act kindness sharing beautiful light within you light world together give everything have give smile stranger wave driver stopped you give words kindness make someone laugh excess something share light inside grow brighter ignite light others help others overcome darkness may think nothing worthless negative things come believe continue tell yourself simply true dont know you know special days ago spent much time crying worse year feltempty fighting depression anxiety for entire life realised today free freedom invisible chains made believe stuck beneath glass ceiling chains others told chains continued tell had today cut chains within psyche free allow darkness plagues anothers heart effect light within me ask same free willing clock reach dreams nothing nothing holding back hope comprehend deeply really hope decide end life rather stoping clock choose reset clock live life want live recreate yourself forgive yourself move away need to release fear one life live however want dont worry anyone else trys hold back mould think be sometimes you surrounded assholes perhaps asshole regret thats travelled dark road get it honestly do press reset button live life treasure learnt lessons big old world there outgrown childhood town leave go back want to person options search options utilise opportunities arise spread wings fly away wherever want go still here done yet time help recreate world save people ever expanding darkness plagues hearts minds innocent people know mean deepest part heart whoever wherever are important world needs you need others needs you may know true identity hope one day smile stranger might smiling back me beyond happy light shining bright dark days currently experiencing part journey creating true you breaking free chains thought be like phoenix rising ashes write answered question late heart happy hasnt happy long time deeply wish you im new reddit tomorrow delete account wake start new day cut chains negativity im sure delete ill give time see it good night thank taking time read this hope least little bit meaning know im dreamer know what really love myself,1 +various antidepressants decade since cannot remember life without ever feels like diagnosed gad depression recently started considering negative effects medication may contributing life chronic fatigue lack excitement motivation lowered libido etcover entire time therapy cbt talk therapy somatic accrued new skillsi incredibly intrigued could like without medication also absolutely terrified could look like given diagnosis family historywhat experiences going medication instead using natural lifestyle changes deal diagnosed mental illness experience unmedicated anti depressants,1 +mthfrdeplin started wear off magic bullet broken krebs cycle norepinephrine fight flight neurotransmitter far much influence present others im getting tunnel vision worst sort go job fair tomorrow collective voice everyone room agree one thing no matter grades matter credentials matter know know offer genetics ultimately make noncompetitive mthfr made depressed unrelatable everyone else room chipper energetic outgoing guy head full norepinephrine liability image bad bottom line stay away us im considering redflag sense physical death solitary outcome alive shit genetics reputational death nothing offer anyone count lucky enterprise attempted cannot fail loan withdrawn cannot owed reputation born cannot die yet dwell tunnel,1 +want man hug im curled lap let tell problems let cry wish man put head chest run fingers hair listen worries wish could support heck man love care for cant seem find man anywhere,0 +uh im new help bitch hey im transfer tiktok ive decided longer uncultured like help are girls allowed rteenagers whats political consensus johnny depp amber whatever dumb shits side do worry ableist classist shit basically ill watch learn but yeah,0 +cant sleep anyone want chat dm,0 +stuck family gathering help ffs free day next days parents kidnap me tolerance break bring weed ones leaving table cant sneak drinks thing ive sitting scrolling reddit a min talking yos help next hours,0 +cant see point anymoreill ending life next week still days say goodbye everyone good deeds even know ill go hell do im tired cant seem find purpose life college stressing friends anymore since former friends left spread rumors me cant go university anymore everyone secretly judges me even professors family seems make feel im burden think im also hindrance girlfriends goals dreams maybe ill this life would much easier people carry without me im tired life cant even express feel without anyone worrying even judge me im dying got days live,1 +hug like savage mf lmfao,0 +years peter otools brilliant costly giving soul film film last hollywood tosses oscar recentlybr br country dance showed one night late course blew complainant niche alleged life itbr br york also brilliant kind play psychological battleships loaded bearbr br bravo author director cast camera crew wonder nazis lost irish scot english blendsbrutal honesty hurtsback s personally believed honesty pure absolutely vital trust modified edgy extremes settle human warm flaws within othersbr br forgiveness allows humanity reverse gear allows us fix bull headed egos erotic mistakes,0 +so stepbro cant wait till first girlfriend will help everything pay dates gets girl first get girlfriend first life living hell dunno im sadistic sometimes,0 +hi gamers gamerettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d,0 +seen film since came mid s recall realistic portrayal music business right paul simons one trick pony another vastly underrated film imo br br harvey keitel excellent job producer caught music believes commercial tripe record company suits want work withbr br since spent entire career music business composer arranger producer really vouch verisimilitude film possesses br br if ever come dvd uncut id buy it,0 +la maman et la putain beautifulest film time whats moving may relation reality art movie deals with directly inspired prousts a la recherche du temps perdubr br indeed la maman et la putain in search lost time apparently tell story one failure love repeats endlessly first womans name always gilberte second woman appears like twisted deformed double gilberte veronika like whore gilberte beautiful like night whereas gilberte pure beautiful like day failure first love second love begins one like already doomed first one veronika takes place gilberte alexandres life movie progressively eclipses her first time time gilbertes still coming alexandre waits veronikathen totally shows sad story repeating itself unfaithful woman like alexandre says appears endlessly unfaithful proust higher point love makes exist also underlines illusionsbr br art causes passage whats outside illusion love whats inside truth learning truth instance veronika notices strange way alexandre makes bed answers saw movie then movie its made that learn live make bed alexander wants live like film wants life art br br this conception art comes proust eustache shares rejection political art realism art la maman et la putain fights conception art principaly political see example ironical review political movie alexandre like proust says art care proclamations exists silence first all art introspection also realism naturalism rejected art needs transform reality exist proust writes i discover illusion realism lie thats la maman et la putain hide artificiality underlines way actors say text the seem artificial higher go said eustachebr br eustache proust share idea artist translater inner truth but alexandre failed eustache succeed la maman et la putain tells us failure character truly is sens tragedy arise go movie becomes saddest see face alexandre looks like livingdead see fact scenes become longer while nothing happens outside end movie see alexandre writing veronika asking hes writing lifeyou guess hes not even literature failed end movie shows symbolic death alexander smashes heaviness reality tiny nurses room alexandre looks like albertine marcelbr br to explain failure say alexandre balzacs reader forme et signification jean rousset explains that prousts readers balzac swann charlus unable artistic creation theyre stuck reality mistake art see reality art are aware transformations necessarily exist life artist work reality art thats exactly alexandre claims instance loves woman parallel reasons played bressons example hes like swann falls love odette looks like botticellis womanbr br life perhaps vocation thought indeed eustache committed suicide even said alexandre nevertheless difference alexandre eustache eustache absolutely alexandre alexandre like double without art horrible vision artist crystallizes fearsbr br by fallowing veronika end movie alexandre condemned illusions death remind last frames movie face jeanpierre laud well endless pucking veronika maybe already hell describes end like sartes huitclot absolutely like final liberation le temps retrouv eustache read proust alexandre could never finish book always perturbed life veronika tries read apartment cafs la maman et la putain like inverse double in search lost times tells alexander become artist whereas a la recherche du temps perdu tells marcel becomes writer genettebr br if like baudelaire says artiste tells reality light dream nightmare eustache tells us la maman et la putain,0 +went hopeful recovering apathy depressed selfharmingi guess title really says all im feeling suicidal began selfharming year know kickstarted cant change thing want know cope whats going right now anyone words wisdom set mind straight kick selfharming habit get redflag mind start feeling hopeful again,1 +sort hidden gem little promotion fanfare classic status deserves above one great directors cinema fritz lang created real gem excellent western fine cast led randolph scott in probably one greatest performances always sturdy dean jagger robert young surprisingly accomplished dude plus many veteran character actors chill wills slim summerville john carradine barton maclane others exciting zane grey story laying western union cable across country tense drama sprinklings humor great effects reminiscent demille ways yet fritz lang leaves stamp it least damned good western,0 +parents called immature saying heck joke said heck dinner earlier today snapped me sense sound childish using heck substitute hell got yelled at yell using actual words like fuck shit etc sat confused rest night what anyways im done parents said dumbest shit ever tonight,0 +ive decided do f im killing yet yeah everyday sucks feel like lonely depressed blob cant even move unless assignment due next day im lucky parents care me home sister yeah told gave theyre still family still feed love guess tried explain wanted die would go forever basically im stupid compared everyone school theyre geniuses im nothing compared them terrible act score sat score terrible gpa im head one club school least head even get good college cant speak friends theyd look stupid still problems work hard tru talk told get book self confidence ive realized pretending happy much easier called attention whore theres also reasons dont want go right now heres im going do im going keep living ive completely severed ties everyone know die one left way hurt anyone around itd perfect im sure happen im going keep playing along day comes,1 +want thesis worth it mum bitching believe depression dad same istg money would run away fucking hate them dad used abuse physically younger abuse verbally mum would give away info without consent mum wanted doctor groomed one still like medicine sucking life out wet dream reality suppose gave expensive gifts never understand feelings mental health wish dead want sleep want face shit simply want sleep tend anything like forever want floating thing instead human shit sucks tired shit,1 +wish could stop existing moment twim sorry want pour heart right now please read vulnerable right now wish could see counselor sooner itll three weeks meet again flashbacks day every day stupid stupid stay him ended things even meant id die redflag suicidal alone him sure friends nobody knew going inside head him let abuse me let rape me let coerce me let slap me let assault me let him five years fault stupid stupid maybe im liar maybe never happened realized sooner flashbacks day every day taken care house sure kid kid nobody never taught take care house nobody taught clean nobody cleaned disaster slept floor floor see due trash dirty clothes such surrounded insects beetles larvae couldve done something right theres much couldve done stupid whatever done something dog shit everywhere dog piss everywhere nobody took dog out smell ate plastic caused pipes get clogged fault take showers standing shitwater pieces shit floating water ankles remember smell fault fault lived house expensive us fault cried mom said move again even now social anxiety depression anxiety schizotyal disorder fault too social anxiety just try endure it symptoms anxious around people just cant help it anxious around people guess fault just want stop while want black without memories thoughts want disappear want hurt know cant want throw up want cry stop existing im stupid useless im slow im awful cant anything right sorry venting im sad right now,1 +attempted redflag want try againi tried overdose sleeping pills high school exams result well go university im scared work ive quit last three jobs ive staying home since high school ended im now think future im afraid feel alone,1 +tell draw usually animals draw mostly anything dont give like huge stuff,0 +goodnight yall appreciate yous,0 +ending it would hurt familyim staying alive loved ones know much would hurt them would blame themselves wish lived world could kill would consequences think fucking unfair carry living hurt anyone fucking torture fantasize death time wish could kill myself im coward always been always be,1 +happy yearsive lonely years grew abusive father nightmares escaped me want friend,1 +game over im itafter months poisonivy style itching kill myself im finally going it way ever fit world happily sorry family friends please tell imperative include note thanks guys,1 +meme pronounced like mey mey meem mame,0 +ppl bitch everything political everyone talks politics worse ppl talk politics filler filler filler filler seriously know participating politics activily participating politics,0 +seeing gay shit seeing straight shit,0 +cant find reasoni cant find reason stay alive im ruined every relationship ive ever depression make everyones life worse im trying really really hard hang tonight kill cant find reason every time think theres something end ruining alienating everyone theres anyone help see sort lightim begging silver hope cant get own,1 +forcing live exhaustingthe question used will commit redflag matter when im exhausting physically mentally wish could stay alive think life experiences comes beautiful cant live way want keep trying wish hope hold onto everywhere look seem anything there,1 +hello name christian going kill year long texti came broken family mom manipulative narcissistic quick anger caricature mother kind mother whod tell regrets face kind mother say hateful things father breath tell reminded him father better parent far much like provide real help mother right were practically person mannerisms interests even look same happens two people breed respectively money idea raise child get me severally depressed anxiety ridden developmentally stunted jackass morsel self esteem lifetime negative experiences wish early grave ive depressed majority life fact teens completely robbed result it father kicked house disrespectful cant say unjustified angry little shit also sad well due stress life time developed tmj tinnitus biggest devil life music one things ive ever loved make fact ive ever really cared about tinnitus cant enjoy music mine any passion stolen from cant anything it tinnitus long apparently cannot cured this life cannot saved check post history see battle mental health happiness im say ive lost battle ive got plan right exact spot im going shoot at right shotgun model right alcohol ill inebriate wait train hope find peace happiness true love way subreddit much love all,1 +day racist boom twiter,0 +amazing documentary saw original airdate dvd times last years shocked even nominated best documentary oscar year released documentary even comes closebr br it tv recently th anniversary missed added where now segment end except catch tony works hazmat unitbr br ive seen criticism documentary filmmaking list cant see could done different less months assemble get air dvd contains material backgroundbr br im also surprised according imdbcom brother projects four years since doing,0 +life puts much pressure me like would better end problemsits pussying out pain usually post need to keep wondering make alive next years much bullshit want end end complaining parents take initiative education never strong suit especially math every year work gets harder feel stupid left behind boring frustrating fuck eat everyones dust stay behind work parents think laziness legit hard pressure anxiety puts much now live conservative christian house im homoflexible know regular basis hear bash gay people talk burn imaginary place known hell hurts offends me time hear reddit im forced pray closet atheist suppress feelings am wont change anytime soon social anxiety confidence low get headaches feel everyone looking me feel like may ugly effeminate whatever hurtful words called years ago even now friends school year homeschooled thats going change next year still feel alone confidence low im like boys still difficult schoolwork still hide identity survive next year year that god forbid year that cant listen it gets better thats long really hard explain feel wanting get next morning hoping time flies adulthood hope get smarter fit without worrying rejection ridicule feel like much human everyone else feel ugly feel like bitch pervert fucking faggot called rings head feel like things wish could something stop life peace theres reasons alive urge grows grows head bursting want die badly,1 +school year kinda poggers go school am get pm,0 +promise keep thing keeping herei made promise not gonna retype all interested promise feed cant keep it screwed many times burned every one bridges thought done damage irreversible thought would best hurt much okay started talking pain appeared again pain screaming end all made promise ive tried keep it im knife collector see plenty tools cut releasing run blade across arteries arms neck press blade skin till break cant actually cut id break promise time shaking excited end right there single quick push minutes bleeding wouldnt deal anymore im work right one person noticed small cut artery im invisible always good theyd worry theyd watch me wouldnt able get closer breaking free world saying fuck promise dont want break promise dont even reason live person made promise different life track am even worth keeping suffering keep word im sick alone invisible rest world want gone world stop feeling pain im going seek help keep promise till die natural causes damn feels good actually say somewhere,1 +wwii america developed brandnew huge bomber plane lois lane clark kent go cover story plane going first mission lois stows away plane takes off also japanese saboteurs board every intention flying bomber tokyo lois able warn superman thinkbr br fastmoving colorful cartoon animation little jerky much better anything see today color sound beautifully restored two problemsthe lousy music score racism especially title aside pretty good ,0 +earlier today thinking might able this get feeling better stay feeling better would mean could stop bothering couple people turn supportthis evening found one covid getting tested tomorrowi gladly depression return nonstop means okay please let get better would give life time together selfish get feeling better,1 +uod uno uq sn os u n ou bus busn su,0 +want anyone try help want diei want die people give shit would not fuckin life one decides die,1 +every day trick thinking okaybut im left alone everyone asleep comes rushing back nothing changed delude distractions im still fucked repulsive traumatized ruined always was life still worthless im still failure im still empty know try wake every day thinking things different never are get worse,1 +christmas depressionbefore start native english speaker far good guess everyone else problems rly need get chest cos killing me girlfriend years broke half month ago ive super busy work got somewhat depressed again depressed like years now got episodes feel kind ok month ago met another girl start judging me never cheat life felt connected first second lot fun laughed lot couldnt get head even now girlfriend broke up without telling her girl also reason perspective special time year realize lonely am parents deworsed isnt rly anything going xmas means stay home drink day drugs started weeks ago ive addicted youth really looking forward new years eve cos wanted see girl pals live far away here study girl wont here til second january guys arent comming home either means alone again wanted talk girl feel stuff got friendzoned chance react mean bad looking play sunny guy pretty well making jokes fun with seems interested pretty much nothing sad about guess past depressive thoughts fragile mind really hurts me even relationship rarely positiv episodes drank cut daily base really need someone there smart think someone would actually care dont care moment want someone pretend someone hold stop falling point would even love see comment knowing someone wasted time reading this,1 +blade runner deckard replicant br br city lost children augmented senses whatever used abused mostly well giving us far less might dream of andbr br dark city br br these really ought addedbr br for now ive waiting animated film might affect much miyazakis stuff has one stbr br hmm scratch animated part thatbr br i intense lovehate relationship film noir and hey leave must mostly love right but many scifi noir themes totally submerged film wonder watchbr br these people incredible job,0 +spielbergs first dramatic film letdown beautifully made film without flaws life africanamerican woman also proves movies africanamerican ethnicity center story helmed africanamerican directorbr br what love movie spielbergs ability make realistic despite fact based book furthermore danny glover excellent mr usually hes throughout movies this completely branches someone else once but performance de resistance whole film comes whoopi goldberg excellent celie never forget characters seen moviebr br now heard musical version going film well say is hope good one is one film missed,0 +carbon monoxide poisoning questionearlier week about days ago tried kill driving car garage hours car minutes total extreme headache felt dizzy day felt better next couple days however today woke feel extremely sick dizzy symptom carbon monoxide developing cold,1 +trapped lovehi ive got wonderful family three great sister loving mum dad problem hate life want end life cant them im trapped really know else say,1 +dont want live yearsi thing whenever im one nature remind im ive gone much already dont want another years endure life throws me dont want plain simple dont want eat go out talk anybody pursue career etc id rather meet fate sooner later issue accepting life real suffer derealizationdepersonalization disorder say feel like nothing around real really truly mean it feel numb everything around me feel like im one hurdles sheep living world didnt ask get put in dont know mentality anymore,1 +much honda civic worth front bumper totally crumpled accident battery damaged oil tank need know fair price know much offer reference guy im buying bought dollars,0 +going school practicals im going school practicals like hours tell comments reduce thigh fat,0 +broke lava lamp sad finally got room many years lava lamp much enjoyed remained almost years heating almost hour wasnt bubbling around dumbass decided shake little bit fucking ruined lamp wax flaky weird now im disappointed myself lava lamp one decorations had im devastated,0 +greetings fellow teenagers wanted let know amazing hope good day,0 +know anymoreok im even going bother throwaway dont know anymore ive work almost yrs occasional job yo hold daughter over survive barely mean barely weve lived car motels tents notbing gotten better isnt going tk seeable future daughter could amazing easy life grandparents much better could ever offer her everyday want kill havent strictly much now cant keep letting nothing live like this cant provide dont see possibilty able to father absolutely useless children know shell better life grandparents could ever get deserves that me love world kills able anything her cant take life anymore dont know else needed vent,1 +much guys beat off im female probably like twice day guys less,0 +brittle bones nicky crafty shifty,0 +need help quick year old male wanna kill tonight,1 +always happen mei met boy thought scored sweetheart loved fucking much yesterday complete fucking cock me fucking do blocks facebook hes coward knows see eachother soon summer break cant fucking deal anymore im tempted go fill tummy pills fill hole thats there,1 +make life feel interestingfun enough stick around fori depressed teen usual angst bullshit got like people even though im depressed sense word nothing really excites me go hikes alone middle night without cellphone cold snowing outside stuff like go sailing rubber boat storm spice things even really feel alive im sitting computer college fantasize killing alot think probably ive always fantasy anything supernatural im mature enough realize something like never going happen going boring routine rest life like summers work replace college feels pointless dull,1 +finally better concentrating work course make mistake misunderstand assignment plus recent death family placeand got negative feedback boss feel worthless probably upcoming performance evaluation entire day feels pointless bother already messed upanytime start feeling good inevitably something happens ruin it point keep messing feel good,1 +access sodium pentobarbitali heard use something called sodium pentobarbital euthanasia please tell access druginjection im committing redflag yet times comes wanna prepared,1 +day goes break tears point worst lost job aunt stepfather anxiously awaiting results chest xray nerves shot redflaged struggling pay bills keep car road still trying figure going afford new tires need missing payment credit card living away maxed last months starting think everything would better lung cancer gone stop worrying money happiness burden familymy wife talked going on kept lot her sees crying best ignore me sure resents useless waste space gone able find someone actually happy with guilt freei just know guess needed say it expecting advice help wanted get ramblings head feels like alone,1 +goodbye first last posti great girlfriend amazing kindest person besides slight autism perfect some including would argue autism perfects her shapes her amazing lost today flirted girls traded photos responding anymore blame her live anymore took perfect vase scratched nail fragile innocent crushed those friends turned me hate life took sleeping pills whole bottle even sit feel head starting hurt beginning hard time keeping eyes open goodbye p reading this love you always will deserve best sorry me everything world you lost all sorry thought dick love p become know best follow dreams,1 +everyone know would better never existedim biggest fucking burden inconvenience everyone life dont know necessarily want kill makes whole different kind burden many fucking people would much better never deal fucked self,1 +im really fed upthis probably going come sounding whining guess is want someone listen maybe offer advice guess understand im even considering redflag go background sister bitch quite honestly never hated someone much currently hate her months ago feel strongly pretty rough afterall abused long time boyfriend took kids away her tried kill multiple times diagnosed bipolar once took meds redflag attempt punched mother face result understandable given meds still disheartening would mean me boyfriend years took boyfriends work clothes dryer presumably get back us using washer i guess clothes wash told much disliked boyfriend regularly like conflict tried ignore her fast forward months ago moves out permanent road trip boyfriend things great remember life like without her sad is depression fades away however unfortunately gets robbed raped finally gets pregnant comes back home wants garage sale save money get abortion leave take day help move things organize halfway day taking break starts smoking im allergic cigarette smoke could deal however worried two cockatiels downstairs one started hard time breathing asked could please go outside finish cigarette told no started getting irate despite attempts reiterate asking worried birds wellbeing started saying things like i want shoot fucking animals piece shit point lost patience had told get out course upset more came couple inches face tried bait punch her im assuming boyfriend jumps protect gets irate calls socially inept piece shit among things states taking back room which mine moved years ago went upstairs heard banging dad called back downstairs named calling says leaving decided shove back turned if boyfriend catch me might fallen shove physically hurt least finally leaves telling us have fun cleaning yard since garage sale items still outside immediately went upstairs damage pretty extensive gerbil cage rabbit cage flipped couch cat tree well one gerbils injured leg process luckily rabbit cage he outside playing aware of probably would hurt badly was this mother tells come back next day things okay night time late night boyfriend went downstairs get bite eat use bathroom suddenly get yelled at sister decided come back sleep there next morning still there go bite eat come back doors locked literally sitting chair casually smoking cigarette next birds flips us off leave call mom mom tells get fuck out leaves go inside find dead animals bed dead animals rats previously freezer passed away week we horrible virus go around legally needed get death certificate made vet since rescues animals dad goes gets keys made locks us lock house up next day go work get call boyfriend apparently broke in came upstairs threatened boyfriend beat boyfriend she literally broke room staying yelled him naked took shower tried break room again barricaded desks freaks wrench hand protection takes glasses face give back days drive boyfriend work migraine days obvious reasons meantime stayed downstairs like nothing happened finally got back pretty broken still broken day the lens easily repeatedly falls out going get new ones soon that minor conflicts would happen nothing major ones ive previously mentioned one time boyfriend walked downstairs get rat food garage threw ashes face without provocation later said smiled funny way it directed towards all also got tiff mother told could eat pistachios later grabbed couple sister got pissed probably never washed handsneedlesstosay do still living us depression sets in im room time aside work go downstairs im filled mixed emotions hatred anger hopelessness downstairs boyfriend reside limits using old piano bench hold huge tv im pleased about mention used play piano lot cant unless gone rare feel like prisoner go downstairs wash clothes leave work it feels unfair great life right boyfriend rent real chores repercussions things done boyfriend always laughing come downstairs stark difference im feeling inside makes even depressed could happy making life miserable gets watch tv work all make kitchen upstairs buy mini fridge went days without eating fear going downstairs getting hurt ive thought ending multiple times guess im thinking maybe dead would understand wrong could finally peace its even depressing remember like gone fear comfort safety long time ive talked mom this understandably want choose daughters know either tells selfish think redflag im loss know anymore im sure much take,1 +bad mow expecting another film based womens issues pleasantly surprised element suspense sure parts plot pretty hokey part movie kept guessing nut bar connected ex husband somebody tavern guy person cut off daniel magder excellent ive seen moms strike guilt association mows creditable especially way challenges mother way preteen would typically actbr br laura leighton also played typical mother exwife men women relate to frustrated enough seem realbr br see missed it worthwhile,0 +asked crush d girlfriend wasnt happy crush said yes,0 +guess something litteraly anything take guess il respond corect answer,0 +telling nervous feeling work talking wfh privileges ending weeks due covid restrictions ending asked would happy office told always bullied school work want work socialise whatever want task earn pay enjoy free time really like wfh wearing mask hide face people keeping distance never want things end friends ok given try hurt let quite content home ownthey never judged thought understood years pain made wary human beings today said path loneliness looked disappointed maybe even like anymore think tell anything ever again worries thoughts locked inside head forever one person felt safe share things lost trust,1 +damn allergies terrible headache im badly allergic asprin cleaned room aask dust making worse,0 +im thinking deleting reddit running away never coming back feel like ruining mental health like want get rid it i,0 +hey folks wish luck please so im gonna pull performance today srudy halle teacher like real old style music stuff like bing crosby frank sinatra elvis presley sort stuff came concert im gonna song route bing crosby amd andrew sisters mr booze frank sinatra bing crosby dean martin sammy davis jr im gonna end blue moon frank sinatra wish luck ladies gents,0 +mind blank fucking help lmaooooo want hug life annoying yuh ik title nothin wit acutal post cant think properly,0 +want selfishi came bit ago made account post im always finding buttoned lip im sorry that guess wanted say really wish could end all good family best wonderful father many friends always forget many people want lives wonderful boyfriend wed long distance relationship almost years cant take distance anymore agreed open relationship found someone else makes happy felt could better ever could even though hes told thats case told break insisted taking break whats point still someone love nothing told things let together told still loves me honestly pushing away want live anymore believe something like everything like everything long time ago made center universe reason live hed saved emptiness sadness reason get every morning horrible thing do reasons world live basic minimum wage job useless degree whole lot nothing else going me reason im dead know horribly selfish thing amount pain would cause many people unbelievable yet cant stop thinking dying self harmed yesterday first time years keep thinking too done tired want loved person held person touched person cant wait cant wait anymore feel im crazy even want blew job season anyway first counseling appointment th im suppose move place january february told even together still go im okay live now feel like id see together id lose everything would hurt far much probably would able selfish there know do time moves slow days lay awake either sobbing panic attacks eating away ill never find love want love want die sw tell die stop wanting die,1 +want explain fucking terrible feel young y female generally mental health struggles since childhood due diagnosed treated severe clinical depression lots trauma variety areas made friends lacking support systems many misdiagnoses variety adults failed getting dream career joining military know stupid thing sad plans could afford college own starved developed eating disorder still miss inches per standardsi managed recover that somehow managed sit pandemic kind caring even felt like last bit kindness left gotten apartment spent entire year change quarantine yet angry exhausted hurt literally could end think would mind seen people care about feels almost like final time given quiet goodbye hope figure out ready go ready stop peace once ready want die typing unsure anyone care plans matter enough keep here think maybe hurt parents best friend lost important people demon before tired fighting everyday gets stronger hands shake every morning cry wishing would end laying sword down giving up everything bleeding bones broken alone want fight anymore place before real reason keep going time,1 +anyone else feel like thismy childhood terrible parents addicts child bullied throughout school molested traumatic car accident mom driving high oxys died lost contact dad addiction long term notredflag abusivehow fucking hell supposed believe life ever get better literally cannot even imagine it seems like impossibility impossible imagine life ever good now never way,1 +got cheated on im sad started dating girl ive known long time half months ago great made happy dont really feel happy often anymore told that made sure best boyfriend could be caring texted made laugh often could week ago blue ignoring texts day messages saying need talk calls breaks suddenly im pretty shocked sad though everything fine literally days ago gone seen play told amazing job im sad confused one best friends starts acting weird find hes texting were playing dnd kinda rude tells couple days later came onto super hard even broke broke mid flirting make comfortable literally next day fucking confronted said true apologize anything rude saying im confused know feel gave k done never got relationship even tho let know ask horny fucked friend first date see wearing jackets hallways school posts instagram im pissed sad lose someone loved though loved me lost friend valued unfaithful girl years friendship dont post like ever needed get chest,0 +came told mother sister clinically severely depressedand followed saying depression sad could continue cheer up buck up,1 +songs relating workin weekend bbno ajr heavy linkin park die jake hill given linkin park sit inside house day josh heart attack scxrlord,0 +anything life even past teen years yet still feel like trashy useless person want like people want smart charismatic memorable no going another random dude big ambitions went nowhere still confused people see good smart person all want important world think keeping one special person cares me otherwise would gone already feel like failure,1 +last person care dropped mei told last real friend call text anything fo tired depression could act normal would talk again know anymore,1 +sad hey whoevers reading this making post sort rant cant really talk anyone know whatever im posting here feeling shit tbh like every part life thought holidays would help sort everything whatnot nothing tbh hate school im somewhat smart get good marks math science recently theyve decreasing cant stand going tho numerous reasons best friend smart like top student smart parents cant go minute without comparing us im still rly good friends make feel like cutting bonds him social life abysmal mainly bc doing besides friend school like others know dont really care abt me days sit studying watching anime relationship parents really gone hill last year took serious turn worst weeks mother refused talk father talked school work one point mother wanted kick reasons im still unsure led developing unhealthy habits little self harm mainly eating addiction assume put lot weight september started gyming uncles garage would train everyday months making good progress better worse father forced stop wasnt body needed apparently response started eating shit ton again october girl knew months time started dating ended ghosting essentially countrys another lockdown easy her affected pretty badly still think everyday imagine things add pretty sad ive jumped telling suck move saying deserve happy sometimes got rona recently damn get wrong time sit bed day nothing know im feeling sorry post mess thx took time read hope u guys good,0 +free wholesome award give away something wholesome free award play rainbow boys slots free something wholesome edit imma give usnak_hadios frobby frankster,0 +everything alright everything going okay,0 +want kill dont want dieim happy havent really long time ive tried almost everything therapy moving switching jobs new friends even alcohol sports traveling fun activities hobbies medication weird cause know good life dont much complain dont feel like person im forced be feel like dont belong skin particular life dont enjoy fun things anymore feel like im fake happy all the time dont want live life anymore also dont want die needed admit every night go sleep wish either wake someone else someone feel me dont wake all,1 +sucked dick yes prophecy true tasted like fish bit worth it almost broke back it really sore,0 +life soup fork,0 +merry christmas everyone guys epic,0 +really want praise subreddit community im happy forum entirely dedicated offering support watching others worst times lives thank all,1 +redoing first song ever wrote terms songwriting peaked immediately,0 +elf best christmas movie ever made wayyyyyy better thann home alone,0 +day recommending songs like rteenagers game awards edition httpsyoutubeabsohqany ooooooooh elden ring,0 +yo anyone wanna chattttt dm wild potatospecies originating moderndayperu found throughout americas theunited statesto southernchilethe potato originally believed domesticated byindigenous peoples americasindependently multiple locationsbut later genetic testing wide variety ofcultivarsand wild species traced single origin potatoes area presentday southernperuand extreme northwesternbolivia species thesolanum brevicaulecomplex potatoes weredomesticatedapproximately years agoin theandesregion south america species isindigenous close relatives potato cultivated potatoes introduced europe americas second half th century spanish today astaple foodin many parts world integral part much worldsfood supply potatoes worlds fourthlargest food crop aftermaizecornwheat andrice following millennia ofselective breeding different types potatoesover presently cultivated potatoes worldwide descended varieties originated lowlands ofsouthcentral chile importance potato food source culinary ingredient varies region still changing remains essential crop europe especially northern eastern europe whereper capitaproduction still highest world rapid expansion production past decades occurred insouthernandeastern asia china india leading world overall production like thetomato potato anightshadein genussolanum vegetative fruiting parts potato contain toxinsolaninewhich dangerous human consumption normal potato tubers grown stored properly produceglycoalkaloidsin amounts small enough negligible human health green sections plant namely sprouts skins exposed light tuber accumulate high enough concentration glycoalkaloids affect human health,0 +feel like never belonged anywhere people accept surface always obligation reality tell people find weird time judge me told abnormali know brightest person pretty damn stupid survive competitive world also fucking depressed dumb taken advantage people yars sex really depressed suicidal family life mess fucking ashamed never forgive think deserve iti sexually abused kid brother parents knew nothing it mediator parents listening ear argued threw stuff around house threatened kill us all opened bottled anger years ago simply told move keep quiet voice up affect brothers future since let go anger towards entire family love deeplyi friends always one people feel sorry shiti worked ass off got good job despite crippling depression suicide attempts shit grades saved lot money really selfsufficient relying anyone financially exercise everyday still deemed stupid weird enough still suicidal depressed finding wanting od whim still odd one out still dissociate much often without realising still disadvantaged game lifebut still feel worthless fucking tired done really want fucking kill myself want break parents heart done sorry wish born life tiring done fighting zero energy fight longer get fighting hard find constantly disadvantaged burned depressed suicidal life sucks want appear whiny done going attempt soon start self harm cannot wait slice arm vertically bit least try fucking lover fuck shit,1 +friends careliterally reached friends telling im thinking killing tonight suddenly stop talking me point keep trying much easier give many chances tonight,1 +close eyes feel rope around neckiam actually suicial well thought good bad days good days get shit done bad days lay bed want go continue thing is im living actually thogut id like go living everytime close eyes feel rope around neck lay sleep first thoughtimage someone shooting head ampxb know feel this sight something like pro living seems to well slide away fade know do depression therapy parents know suicidal thoughts know im supposed save think am,1 +teens single parents like id assume hell,0 +im fucked quite recently type kid never homework never studied tests still somehow managed get as bs means never learned fucking study next week mock igcse exams usually important practice real exams due virus mock exams might become end year score know study parents try help really cant used were taught things school i live outside home country go international school anyone tips least get basics tests next week,0 +sure submit question professional post first years old actually happy since puberty life seem get ground younger brother married even children see obstacles everywhere friends talk see less less also getting married kids feel connected environment especially people everyone seems concerned winning interested mainly looking friendship people interested transacional friendships bought house noisy regret sensitive noise people think me people seem function kind autopilot know everyday becomes heavy suffering depression know anymore,1 + sure it days ago started keeping track days think it days thought it usually even leave house morning make little voice head telling need stop,1 +dealt depression redflag quite bad past years i f result feel like quite behind life guess left school early beauty course enjoyed thought would like go industry towards end completely lost interest negatively impacted mental health worked hair salon assistant months finished year half ago worked since since finished course did able find sort career interests longer months really puts rut able decide something formulate plan work toward also feels like let down pretty much living life since finished school really many hobbies friends really talk hang with result never leave comfort room really hard go anywhere public one thing think would benefit greatly would getting job never seem keep positive thoughts towards finding one last two months applied which takes lot effort do heard back day apply end major panic attack hoping get call back thought going interview terrifying and sure lot others spoken mum worries supportive grateful helped work resume explained skills things even support still hard find something found reception job seems like alright thing written cover letter talked applying start feel negative thoughts tumbling around already hard find something minimal experience want work hours week i know picky might seem like silly thing diredflaged topic biggest worry would like making money help bills able money spend myself things motivate want job feel stuck like cannot make take steps actually move forward something keeping top supporting myself end spiralling breakdown getting worked about sure really makes sense trying say feeling way afraid something simple applying job think comes applied like getting phone call interview questions ill asked interview meeting new people get job mess like it think part holds back scared normal life things stay home pretty much everyday really much bed read watch tv scary think going something even days week apologies long post id really appreciate advice something even anyone feltfeels anything similar kind rant feel stuck know move forward,1 +need someone know miserable am im damn sure going say anythingim miserable right now plan ace finals head little gun shop town purchase shotgun paint walls apartment brains note warnings clear motive nothing fuck it im taking gauge exit path really want that im fucking done really need someone close help me im going say anything them therapist family friends cant why theyre going ask reason feel like do cant feel like reasons valid that afraid theyll look pity feeling way do reasons do cant that id rather die hate pity hate sympathy hate looked upon pity me fuck you feel sorry me fuck you look me fuck you sure probably look pity me cant sure exactly theyll react say nothing,1 +done everythingdear sw im sick tired mistreated whole life ive good fucking person gotten anywhere life im yr old male im local univ kid grew south major city used get bullied time ive stabbed twice like oh got stabbed small knife like stood myself took switchblade stabbed stomach second time stabbed knee stopped standing myself didnt really try stick got end high school im bad looking kid dated captain cheerleading squad pretty popular nerd somehow fit in dad military moved base base lot turned ten moved base base lot fucking sucked bc person ive ever able call best friend ended hard drugs six years left died overdose know fact wouldnt done im child halfsister dads first child first marriage greedy shit always pesters dad money dad used pay needed support mother and new bf stole dad basically steal able lunch money real young dad found good job right middle school settled down mom got cancer thought going lose her blocked memory section life dont remember iw good son bad son kills me ended surviving one worst portions life smoked weed friends try calm bring back reality never worked every relationship ive im dependent one im always dependent one im looking girl always make happy im looking someone cares equal much care them im good boyfriend know cook i taught growin up used bake stuff shapes hearts write em poems sorts nice things somehow would always get trampled throughout high school people would always start rumors reason dated new girl really liked new friend would say things like oh hes gay something like them tried sports dad forced football three years lacrosse six when middle school_ liked lacrosse didnt like football still made anyways one done anything ever try think me sometimes dad go buy something said wanted never treats like respects son good intentions me always bicker usually starts yelling reason graduated high school thought id start clean slate joined fraternity became best friends great guys helped girls cheating me parental feud sister stealing money savings finally landing scholarship university able decide fate met her met getting another cheated me met friend legitimately fell love first sight like cared girlfriends never understood word love met her never really tossed around word wanted felt it knew it loved weve dating almost year half now shes beautiful fun around shes gone abroad semester told lovedme went away fight me tell loves hangs up tells danced another guy fight makeup tells cant without me next day tells shouldnt together next day tells loves anyone else shes ever loved rinse repeat rinse and fucking repeat im tired it like one thinks me ever one ever places first even theyre in love me parents dont even place first theyre love think other sister doesnt even care loves money best friend sure ive got friends one talk anything lately ive dreams dying dying able anything it im tired all im tired pain im tired even considered im tired objectified thing feel like thats ive ever been matter interesting am people think im constant never worry me dont show im trembling inside wnat die havent lived easiest life havent lived hardest life really cant take it know things better kid things financially easier know dont worry much feel like im utterly obviously neglected want kill myself want end it want someone fucking love like love them want someone loves me anyone guy girl want god damn best friend maybe thats consider girlfriend too best friend thats hurts fight person im love real best friend want end pain im tired pain im tired worried losing someone mother friend passed away girlfriend want lose myself feel like theyd learn dying appreciate everyone around them theyd learn even im smiling may happy theyre driving insane thinking following heart dont even see look pain face completely wash without giving second glance want die dont even want kill myself want end want stop story exist die know theres god friend pronounced dead minute half said didnt see anything didnt feel anything woke back said understood everything knew felt everything turned completely said theres nothing side us havent believed religion since want turn everything want end dont know deal,1 +new music sunday spotify 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httpsopenspotifycomplaylistzjsvdcfhqfgfyflwtsimoqr_vtqcijvlpvqfq hours,0 +im starting give hope im depressed upset last weeks even worse now nightmare feel options left im starting giving life less hours ago cyber bullied others this crying depressed want die really feel worthless feel like nobody loves me hurts much right now,1 +personally find idea one testicle extremely funny hilarious even like person anywhere one testicle,0 +parents ass holes pt yesterday posted thishttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsjjrmmy_parents_are_assholesutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare apparently im expert eating much food im made exercise fat shaming sucks combined parents calling pedo life sucks people ah well years move out thanks listening ted talk,0 +could anyone help friend suicidal felon m florida start clean slate another country overlook check criminal recordforeword riwantout keeps autoremoving post odd reason automods programming aggravating repost instead title riwantout iwantout m suicidal felon florida gt anywhere clean slates expanded title actually hewantsout friend florida considered redflag subtract felony id like guide emigrating felonfriendly country instead matter poor is know emigrate care record body id like think rdworld countries look ask record countries assume could teach english countries make decent living tutor there rebuilding life clean slate crime burglarized car weapons high left something car traced back month later arrested house arrest years or probation years either both hes now posted hes house arrestprobation hell get antique gun apparently hed allowed purchase those forest id like prepare instead leaving country hes house arrestprobation want beeegyoshi know better answers life situation redflag like countries emigrate record id hope could get new name identity passport hes there work reemigrating desirable country gets new identity first host country ditches old identity use clean slate first host country move second host country but first countries exist ones overlook record or check it take anyway felt led anything save life thats im trying help here would help help please thanks know ways possibly get clean slate way shape form,1 +helpi swallowed handful old prescription effexor im shaking bed im passing out im scared tell anyone either,1 +add picture post phone wanna add pictures know,0 +voted first time today vote bluehttpsiimgurcomuafbmjpg,0 +browsing twitter stumbled account clicked red pill reality imploded itself mind undone anyone try red pill lately httpstwittercomchuck_grahamstatuss,0 +lot questions mind buckle dont idc how deal family drama feel started is normal feel like nobody depend on am posting much today ive posted like every hour what r wholesomecute subreddit need something distract nice day hug,0 +okay ill admit kids never would seen film would never see it but considering rotten kids movies seen such spy kids babe pig city significant improvement and enough totally bored skull contemplated suicide something repeatedly two movies sure performances pretty broad plot kinda sillybut kids film and compared films genre definitely better average frankie muniz amanda bines actually appear talent probably continue careers pubertyat least infomercials voiceoversbr br so looking film see kids certainly could lot worse,0 +im alone confused need write get somewherethis going hell post one probably get congratulate apologize anyone does scroll reddit ive never actually made account friend says likes lot found thread somehow really like guidelines lot ive never seen forum even site directive people respond really focuses op think really cool nice really know posts get responses sort rackedmybrainforthelastidea thing really anyone anymore internet friends included context im junior year university really anywhere go anymore feel like im losing it used go grandma mom told my assumption grandma like mentioned something mom it understand peoples mental health problemsproblems general really overwhelming taxing people deal people deal peoples problems cant go family whole problematic child label already im oldest three already hospital multiple times since high school two siblings smart things well i really talents everything pretty mediocre cant talk closest friend i really best friend got mental hospital positive happy anything could potentially affect happy her talk anyone know college family perpetuate entire stigma everyone im dramatic crazy im trying exaggerate talk mental health lot anyways like furthering discussion making sure people informed learning new information always informed best ability talking solutions ways get help im person never ask help people find ive already done something cant take back ask anyone help really ask talk anyone know im girl like five hospital trips scars makes dramatic crazy ive conflicting thoughts freaking negative ones seem concrete past seeing friends response getting hospital feeling renewed plan feeling genuinely better so well genuine definite watched new series reasons read book younger i actually really prefer either show book show entire redflag if anyone per chance reading spoiler thing pretty graphically blatant end saw main characters definiteness everything saw two different forms definite thinking today one positive one negative ruminating inside head im lacking ive always lacked friend saw future positive renewal reason ive never experience definite im going turn life around feeling cannot see future myself nothing im spectacular at things im relatively good theyre also unrealistic build anything one else really believes either thing picture happening graduate university run school im societally expected finish picture happening moving back parents bleak future me started thinking thinking thinking watching cars run past intersection thinking speed would run point cars crossed intersection enough damage least coma realizing desperate opt life form possible feel though might go back self harm done anything year scary scary feel weird calm everything weird calm suicidal thoughts popping brain constantly im scared feel alone apologize long ass awful post know go,1 +updated version story turned film englandreturn frog concerning pursuit police master criminal known frog frog like get bulging eyes etc wearsbr br one good wallace films s solid little entertainment clearly influenced influence restart dr mabuse films frog seems super villain master thief best wallace films worth look would make interesting double feature excellent earlier filmbr br between ,0 +cant stop hurtingi cant stop pain inside turned self harming help deal depression low moods thats turned unhealthy cant stop self harming find pleasurable im fixated going harder deeper cant stop know do whats point all life shit maybe cut deeper find another way relieve pain,1 +redflag hotlines call police ive thought calling redflag hotline but want take risk calling police would make everything worse so hotlines guaranteed call police or would taking risk matter called,1 +iso angel mercyas title says looking someone help pass on recently diagnosed two diseases quality life good now ive lost pounds im getting better cant even stand look mirror diseases killing would prefer go terms read somewhere best way go administer lethal dose morphine sounds peaceful painless two unfamiliar feelings lately want pain stop im tired crying misery help would eternally grateful even better idea thinking of would appreciated well thank taking time read this,1 +guide group projects at least personal experience know pain paired mostly complete strangers communicate improve teamwork abilities something like commonly known group project post im gonna tell advice make group projects little less painful already are deciding actually working anything decide roles group discuss depth one really obvious course dont want close due date get discord call person group ask finished supposed go wait supposed that thought were meetings specific time matches everyones schedule check others progress one also obvious nobody would really want pretty much done part discover teammate barely done anything also check others work avoid group leader dont even know group leader thing basically puts one group members position power group members might make group leader think opinion matters most group leaders group either nothing think opinion matters comes discussing matters dont care people group whenever someone asks whos gonna group leader suggest nobody waste time getting one anyway try avoid arguments costs tiring unnecessary waste time sides unless something actually worth arguing about try make everyone feel included group project group project disasters past pretty much group members making feel included basically indicates person didnt include much group activity theyre pretty useless even tasks really small try splitting equally group members thats pretty much know make group projects painless possible hope least one person found kinda helpful sorry bad english aint native language,0 +finally leaving rredflagwatchfor longest time ridiculously unhappy life knew moment hit rock bottom day woke justdidnt feel happy anymore foreign feeling like lost feeling alive thought feeling would never go away exaggerating much worse this seemed like everything going wrong time life would never joyous again entire plan written ready go note underwent countless revisions reworkings want anyone think fault even gave deadline said things work th birthday im killing myself im yet still months go say certainty days me know happened even realize happened woke one morning thought i mind alive used frequent lot another account months ive slowly juststopped coming yet never officially separated subreddit now time official withdrawing rredflagwatch im ending life tonight im starting again im glad longer feel way im glad longer feel need come anymore im glad feel happy again wish best rest here hoping thing may happen you hope nice rest day wherever are,1 +trying sort things areim sorry sounds whatever need put cards table paper everything looks well swell well educated great parents great family good group friends really feel like phoney im honest friends as friend lie general im life party am feel alone im exist everything seems happen life positive thing leads working out always feel like step forward steps back sorry sound cliched much try tell friends family things arent ok get people believing me people telling suck up really cant cope wake every morning unfortunately first thing think say wake fuck dont know woke go another day woke up really cant cope ive never real gf im king friendzone happens anytime girl me end missing cues time notice late think girl me make move end wrong seen just friend end day im alone feel like always alone wish someone would nonjudgmental want shoot shit know alone im bigger guy take space feel like imposing dont know ps realize rant probably sounds like diatribe need outlet want cry cant need outlet even tear ducts cooperate understand things could worse understand alot people gone alot shit feel helpless know go turn to friends married exist am think packing moving cities would lead to baggage would follow end day know much farther go live strong reason strange want let go cant less me leaving parents sister guilt amazing guilt guilt keep going either way know is eventually raft run air sink im tired im tired putting face im tired waking tired im tired know others feel way is either way wake tomorrow say fuck start day usual make day im tired,1 +want everyone around die wellmaybe selfish kill first want live pain death i understand anyone would care guess anyway same one puts effort fit even want here,1 +limbo also guys reply posti never really wanna commit redflag whenever thoughts whenever think it im much coward go it im financial problems little issues want go it back out want die im coward cant previous fact,1 +fuck itnot sure much longer keep pushing everyday gets shittier shittier loaded shotgun next would hesitate aim upon pull trigger im losing weight lbs down really want change every single night left conclusion im unlovable piece trash probably end ditch somewhere anyways would always scoff people went internet complain girl liked like back get now hardest part trick thinking like you realize possible way could care someone awful you losing weight easy cause quite appetite lately thing ive blaming everything wrong life fat time goes lose more realize truly horrible person noone could care me fat hiding new form would immediately perfect person hiding skeleton matter fit thin ill ever get ill stay unloved rest life maybe bad thing things much easier talk anyone sat room day alone atleast priorities straight atleast care much anyone else liked me fuck im done,1 +diary day everything goodig yeah woke took hot shower started studying ate healthy breakfast bit later worked dad came home work said really proud cause working everyday without rest days mom made surprise gave eurosjust bc good sonwell mby call spoiled think not also day watched twd fell asleep watching also read pagesso day good nothing made sadso yeah guysi really hope enjoy everyday everybody reads thisare happy,0 +im sorry guysive posted lot past everyone really helpful appreciate everyones help hate seeing suffering too hope find way happy day maybe well see side someday bye everyone,1 +intrusive thoughts oh boyrecently feels like distract time else negative feelings catch flood brain tell everything sucks die get close writing redflag note leaving everything behind started days ago found someone thought good terms actually talking shit behind back im hurt feel feel like be im not importantly that im alarmed strongly feel need escape guilty feel want that dont want friends family sad dont want cats think abandoned them life insurance low housemates would move guilt thing thats really making stop think go anything havent told anybody thoughts dont want worry them set therapy appointment next week ive psych ward years ago dont ever ever want go again dont know need tell somebody,1 +anyone else think redflag every secondsits constantly mind matter im doing im work home outside thoughts always there im talking literally every seconds think killing myself,1 +need help im trying figure something friend online idk would fun guess u guys suggestions two people mobile devices exclusively,0 +get girlfriend so trying find someone feel something special sounds cheesy true tried apps find horny people thots so really appreciate good tips,0 +post throwaway oh wellthe past two years life hell every time feel like im making progress life feels like falls apart havent suicidal like months reason today bad feel alone sad looked phone realize one talk to dont want go hospital cause always end hospital wanted january different im struggling find reasons live,1 +hope boyfriend see thisi cant bothered make throwaway account subreddit even though thats safe thing boyfriend reddit risky anyway wanna die point everything going shit everyday even though nothing particular happening guilt things ive done slowly surely creeping intensity little high point reason actually waiting opportunity either blow world someone else literally nothing painlessly kind wake everyday wish would dead point going long time still would stretch telling nice life boyfriend future nowthe world dying wanna die even want future gone care want out unbearable amount consolidation future plans gonna get unless somebody takes fucking place even know im posting wanna bother anyone know anonymity reddit people people subreddit gives comfort cant judged time told one caused this even though true fault im shit nice hear someone tells stupid kid know many things done wrong past immature preadolescent brain actions held time,1 +want peacejust want done want stop godamn coward body aches mind keeps rotting want peaceful sleep,1 +color hair say anything combination idk,0 +recently saw movie hopes seeing accurate portrayal bloodiest battle th century got expected much more think came across movie luck never even heard it german film made suppose cant surprised almost completely unknown modern american audience shame cause really remarkable film dare say good better platoon full metal jacket apocalypse now quiet western front iconic war moviesbr br world war ii full swing nazi germany run mainland europe parts north africa adolf hitler orders full scale invasion soviet union fateful move ultimately dooms nazi germany defeat early stages invasion goes well german armies conquer large sections soviet territory critical battle ensues stalingrad city hold great symbolic strategic value battle soon turns blood bath epic proportions nightmare german russian soldiers fighting verge taking city germans suddenly counter attacked russians end cutting entire german th army inside stalingrad make matters worse russian winter arrives causing incredible suffering germans entire battle seen eyes young german soldiers fighting survival russians harsh winter conditions also sadistic officers care medals glory generals little regard average foot soldierbr br this film going haunt while german soldiers film concentrates young naive humanity sanity stripped really feel sorry cause demonic nazis often portrayed film everything fighting longer important everything believed shattered fighting gruesome battle russians inside stalingrad see deteriorate onset winter causing many freeze death battle winter scenes like horrible nightmare also felt real amazing beginning see strapping young men prime life end shells former selves stripped everything witnessing much carnage men loose live on really sad finally moment hope betrayed hitler ultimately abandons men horrible death another one hitlers crimes abandoning men fought slaughtered russians br br a good antiwar film depicts horrors war thats movie does battle tractor factory sequence closest thing comes hell earth thats really battle stalingrad like german russian soldiers depicted humanity bad apples specifically german side doomed men bottom line film amazing cause see men breakdown physically emotionally war limits men pushed far beyond limits deadly battle time average foot soldier endured stalingrad beyond imagination even survived everything seen done would scarred lifebr br stalingrad shows us war hell exactly hell looks like,0 +need chat someone dm discord mattplaysthedrums chat cool person,0 +taken shower since rape cant brush teeth cant brush hair cant feed myself cant make shower tried morning forgot products lost much weight underwear falls off whats point,1 +artist struggling life sure looking formaybe conversation someone willing talk with advice feeling alone,1 +almost hung morningi never went bed night emotions hitting real hard morning still without sleep decided going kill myself found belt tried around neck see would fit fit really well went hang belt could hold hung moment somewhat clarity ill go sleep i ended getting sleep still going sleep type this still feel way wake fuck decided woke completely forgot happened,1 +tired tired please judgei fighting years manage life point think time check out family left suffering good days life great downs terrible pull together get back work fall apart ending street weekend street again money rent trying put together money week avail odd jobs weather raining helped going kill today want plan painless also shock anyone street weekend want cause trauma police anyone would find me would love go country doctor assisted redflag name need travel like that crisis today done jobs life tried many medications go like powerless boat ocean please judge people may choose end life open answers would better people kill themselves tired pain life good life ways focusing good things sunrises sunsets loves life things experiences good going suffer anymore would appreciate ideas people end life without harming others cause pain myself want final act painful myself suffered enough hope younger people read find answers try trying years find solutions nothing changes young people often find solutions give another years case find answers many do makes sad plan this older s enough enough,1 +going kill tonightnobody cares,1 +mfs like haha dw marcus im one boys aye dont like girls age think im intellectual like bitch know didnt know spell dvd yesterday maddie,0 +even current struggles burdens life still wanna diei shitty childhood born weeks early addicted meth heroin alcohol fetal alcohol syndrome autism bipolar anxiety family mostly made drug addicted rednecks ive lived many roachmold infested trailers stepped many needles broken meth bowls abused family partners bullied ostracized im awkward dont understand social cues learning disability anxiety made keeping stable job hard cried every day waitress hated customer service people hated me ive got great paying warehouse job likenot loveeeeee like it great boyfriend get new car rent house hometown ill closer friendsfamily like im still sad nothing sad about im going wait even longer isolate everyone make easier idk ill go work boyfriend cant keep job anyways gonna od dph alcohol used addicted seems like hellish way go im scared wont work ill go back mental hospital need get gun somehow obviously cant legally buy one due illnesses thinking become daydream sweettt escape ive eating much melatonin benadrylbut enough get high bc obvious stay sleep hours straight sleep minus like min increments hard sleep again im trying hard leave boyfriend without thinking fault hes also depressed hard noose last attempt still sitting yardpeople must think halloween decoration maybe take that go dads woods course hell report missing immediately cant think people actually care hope itll find think ran away maybe itll soften grief,1 +stop posting goddamn karma whoring life stories omg guys ive stopped cutting full month came closet yay karma whoring garbage dont care about great accomplished something isnt rlookatme bet people dont care either want people slobber personal life go somewhere else im sure pedophile gladly you,0 +came nancy drew expecting worstbecause everyone elses bad reviews thought even though read books look anything like nancy drew ive heard of wrong sure carbon copy books make movie something modify become bigscreen entertainment plot enjoyable thrilling lot actual scares thought emma roberts really believable way portraying classic character several funny moments contrary many statements point film nancy come ditz intelligent conservative polite genuine one thing movie also well balance whole thing mix comedy romance suspense heartfelt moments loved movie flick flick wise decide trust go see this prepared scary heck moments was like freaking out go see bumbum let people decide think movie youa mistake almost made love it wanna movie love emma roberts now too like minibree van de kamp dh love it love it,0 +woke thought saturday yeah woke thinking saturday even though today friday convinced thinking saturday checking phone realized friday minutes late school dont remember anything last night yeah confused feels like took drugs something didnt,0 +finest film ever made deal subject aids documentary two men living dying illness film beautiful heartbreaking funny incredibly moving all amazing true love story sure hankies ready watch movieyou need them extraordinary,0 +love american healthcare system especially pains lower right side gotta decide wether want car life saving surgery,0 +effortit effort breathe always really hard time year brother took life years ago dad years that feels yesterday time time believe food others make naive expect next time different people know say yea hardly ever refuse days sex mainly become fat old embarrassment daughters abuser ex fianc words cut skin without even use blade crocodile tears says cry walt burns face dont know im going get depression blackness still suffocating,1 +praying actually productive tomorrow like god please someone beat please,0 +damn bruh horny sad mood anyways gn,0 +amazing conversation go big international school get ton new students every year usually never approach new students begging year year regretted that theres new girl joined class never talked halfway schoolyear btw week ago beach cleanup walking back school decided chat her turns hardcore gamer loves fps games batman deadass minute long conversation overused use batmobile arkahm knight anyway friends frequently talk moral story make effort talk people,0 +need someone rant youre lmk lol,0 +drink water think im dehydrated heres reminder drink water oh also remember eat forgot day horrible headache final piece wisdom sleeppp morning refeweti speelimg spelling errors occurred tiredness regretting life choices,0 +people fickle persons reality upheld judgements made bits information get everything think understand turned upside one contradictory judgement brought another piece information reality relative fluid every experience interpreted determines individual reality like none matters still hold onto kids want ever see emptiness right now realities,1 + year old sister ticking time bombi live privileged family sister gets everything ever asked im unsure year old could incredibly unhappy makes fake personas usually abused boys acts online constantly lying smallest things matter asks sort manner doctors family therapists etc never come forth truth top knowing feeling this acts completely normal home acts like regular happy go lucky year old except maybe bit sensitive actually way sensitive explode break cry shut smallest thing hospital suicidal thoughts weeks ago back again cant change mindset know happen amount reassurance us family amount money amount support give stubborn change youngto realize life beautiful precious might wrong subreddit say feel believe listen anything takes medication depression spiraling downward impulsiveirradiate emotional behavior feel like would take life triggered enough mental hospital today mentioning redflag someone middle school feel hopeless maybe best start mourning now nothing works maybe best stay hospital seem help last time sorry rant rredflagwatch needed get mind maybe someone something similar would year old want take life badly,1 +wanna diehey guys two years since moved canada study engineering university failed couple classes maybe three first two years never felt homesick feels weird cant sleep night way go sleep stay awake long many friends highschool ever since moved ive kinda lost touch still follow instagram whenever see stories hanging fun feel depressed regret moving student loan debt dad pays tuition fee were richwhich makes worse feel guilty told failed classes since poor gpa im stage would kicked engineering im academic probation right now thing stopping ending mom mom loves much move canada half hearted it eventually fine since wanted go wish never moved all cant stop googling easy ways die time think killing myself think mom would feel eventhough lot people love much still feel lonely depressed mean know may going worse stuff might look like big deal trust know highschool heard students killing thought would anyone laughed it hurts bad feel like im disappointment dad even sold one houses could pay tuition fee feel like im failing him also another thing stops things education would became useless even death would fail him mean thought talking therapist something realized im broke insecure talk someone know reason im posting reddit stay anonymous also long distance relationship girl loved much marry even talking scared life whole time loved much threw away coward ghosted months break properly feel like push everyone away everyone cares me extroverted person even feel like talking mom dad even brother wake up attend zoom lectures assignments study think able stop im required discontinue engineering wanted engineer since highschool wanna pass courses eager moved canada wanna die keep telling ever get opportunity die accident take way parents think killed myself know stop feeling way read far well thanks needed tell someone also anyone thinks isnt big deal like wanting die failed college completely get please troll guys whoever reading this thanks listening ps no like redflag note something felt like talking someone,1 +fuck everythingfuck everything fuck it damn hell fuck gets there fuck it fuck everything,1 +thinking checking outbut im feeling defiant fuck life u win continue struggle fight scream cry happiness feeling pain life would know happiness dont know pain give wether get cancer aids god awful disease fight last breath life awful times also great theres always chance things could turn around maybe tommorrow hope hope keeps going thought,1 +best friend punches nothing itthere friend insults hits face hes always laughing me anything it im scared losing person see invisible started hitting thoughts family care want everything over life mess cant something,1 +person m love doesnt love me im well school cant imagine good futureso last girlfriend told wasnt going date anyone rest college unless someone special came along well special person came along went broke boyfriend years fell love me past two months since broke weve dated two times total around weeks says cant get ex theres big things dont common said things consisted extroverted introverted religious not fact wants least kids biggest fan kids feel like found someone really special hurts like hell doesnt feel even though claimed quite often thing hurts difference extrovertedintroverted like introverted im comfortable with im alone constantly want going friend group social ive thought past would girl want date since im anti social im senior large university cant help feel pathetic depressed never go basically friends school gets worse though im senior im going fifth year major aerospace engineering work heavy cant find motivation anything even watch netflix sometimes feels like im close graduating cant see ever point im even sure would want job major rest life also barely communicate family all parents live side us person ever communicate mom havent talked two weeks dread anytime it talk her talk me dont give much detail depressing state dont want worry feel ashamed way live life feel lazy work smoking weed cope depression would feel embarrassed tell mom everything thats going me mom works physicians assistant basically evaluates prescribes drug addicts medicine living sees worst worst comes drug use love much want worry way years since seriously thought it redflag crossing mind good bit past days even get shit together school im sure would like career rest life im sure ill ever get courage social ill introverted whole life im sure ill ever find someone due depressive personality feel fucked want drop,1 +feel like ive tried everything yet died tomorrow say felt like livedso death think of want million split second slips every day,1 +world bitch people suck mean seriously world especially people demands perfection living tear slightest slip nothing forgivable anyones standards people assholes it too never let forget make sure misgivings people see you like wth man infuriating longer things go on longer happens nothing ever gets better im utterly convinced people forgotten decency human kindness knows maybe side friends talking idk point,0 +everyday last three hours days short im even enjoying hours,0 +wrong mei lost years reason ever since little wanted girl grew playing bratz dolls dress dad told stop fag always tried get guy things interest in want go shopping drink venti girls could go examples idk feel way going try start hrt im scared dont understand wanted bad opportunity presented scared away dont know would even explain family cant even explain myself due years suicidal thoughts alienate everyone around me tried make obvious sometimes talk nobody seems notice bitch feelings never ask feel nobody cares me dont even care im scared commit redflag either dont think ever able actually transition even transitioned would fix problems suicidal thoughts dont know im sure id happier dont want regret it hate way look dont know why crossdress feel great pretty top world feel like im trapped current situation im dont want regret im age im still confused deeper source pain giving thoughts dont actually want become female instead want mend mental issues dont know brain like this dont even feel like going anymore seems never ending fight prize unachievable happiness never felt true happiness dont understand im full much pain,1 +nonbinary female getting awards male getting awards need fill empty gap,0 +found ugly people exist keeping thoughts prayers cant imagine must going,0 +much cost us check suicidal urgesmight tomorrow wake suicidal ir bankrupt me insurance,1 +tried mdma best friend first time yesterday bad trip ended telling everything made unhappy life feel like courage commit redflagits along story boring okay dont read it dont mind called happy pills tried girlfriend said nice experience asked wanted try knows sad time convinced easily genuinely excited feel happiness fun time best friend told start one pill but minutes hour later nothing happening took another one later one half minutes later started panicking going heart attack like feeling ten times worse usual going insane lying bed left side clenching muscles felt like eternity couldnt stop rubbing right foot left one ended tearing skin friend starting comfort me telling sorry was shouldve known better genuinely felt bad could tell wasnt clenching teeth telling terrified was kept biting inside cheek hard could almost felt good noticed saw bloody teeth helped drink water told important state two hours kept telling unhappy was wanted happier couldnt disease ruined life wasnt brave enough get help went on always repeating stuff got angry myself told pathetic was said wasnt came out like that something never thought id tell anyone hate much get humiliation well year now somehow turned insecurities sexual pleasure stuff seen porn took seriously hate porn always attracted women think awesome yet cant think woman wouldnt love potentially kill me barely imagine loving relationship anymore see cruel looking woman anything destroy soul like it hate like it would never imagine things wasnt porn dont think women evil never hate them im stupid hate myself im confused let happen years ago womans skin mine sexiest thing think beating nothing hurts much am know isnt wasnt like before remember precisely day lost confidence years old new year school kept thinking hard talk others now used clown making people laugh made happy wanted like everything could make laugh lot friends wanted attention afraid alone friends kids alone always invited play us last year elementary school life going get worse every passing year noticed different thought mature thats dont act like buffoon anymore maybe puberty thats wanted think looking back now dealing mild depression stayed good six years turned happy become adult fucking scared already feeling like wasted teenage years never meeting new people always old stuff couldve couple girlfriends years knew interested me felt exhausting thinking day would break would hurt me cant take rejection big part convinced much love solitude end high school less guy years that hey man wanna come party didnt go couldve met new friends wanna try improv us course not im shy obviously wouldnt good spent high school years group friends loved go restricted cant go auditorium bet well go well even eat everyday cant go sewers chill well matter weird go i even brought girl im good girls didnt seem mind talked pretty long time there im call gentleman cant go rooftop well find way we never did principal hated us always told smart kid whos better this liked comments thought time least bit fun even never really experimented anything else dumbass liked draw wanted become comic book writer artist pretty good never motivated enough become better never stopped writing though in first language french least liked play guitar always mediocre could see performing mean solo front intoxicated overly enthusiastic audience still couldnt practice hard enough get there point simply thought incredibly lazy wish was end high school beginning end me idea wanted do love writing stories used zombies outlandish stuff like assassins anything got movies started watching hundreds thought filmmaker must great goal bring imagination life two years later now im want make movies still write stories never finish them least one character basically me recently wrote man fights underground fight club hes good always win even though wants die hes waiting someone kill him everyday never happens day felt really going die soon his body took much damage time met woman lost dog friend shes nice spunky deep feels lonely man likes keeps winning fights always meet park every night talking dimly lit bench still dies though finally losing fight finally something good hes fundamentally idiot cant make right choices order achieve happiness result hurts woman blames helping him even fault want develop make movie feel like could it wont last two years went cegep some bullshit useless garbage school meant stress fuck damage even emotional level tons work do little people meet one friend there end couldnt even go classes didnt even strength climb stairs kept going library watching whatever netflix job mcdonalds loved people worked night hated others day fucked eventually basically fired even though technically quit still hurts think about date time frame horrible dont know boring her probably me thor ragnarok really wasnt enough bring us together all thats lot failures row got expelled school failing every single classes lost job failed romance hurts bad cant even bring try again back bad trip part yesterday nothing months now anyway event tell friend doesnt judge me even held arms cried still panicking severe depressiondrugs mix dont well drugs told scared dying told would okay went much details humilation thing ill leave that pains think it know awful gross couldve left right there never talk stayed told best friend cares me fell asleep times later apologizing many times next day uncomfortable deeply embarrassed tells shouldnt be hes proud talked feelings wants get professional help asked wanted go see movie clear mind accepted way there everything looked weird almost unreal cant describe it felt like alone world next me got relaxed movie even smiled little dont deserve best friend got back home took shower contemplated cutting veins razor blade die right there want know didnt it didnt want mother find floor naked blood ridiculous ive thinking ways die without upsetting anyone love much could isnt way all id hurt anyway matter die thats hate most im tired fucking tired cant anything zero energy went see movie first time two weeks went outside dont consume nearly enough calories dont exercise anymore cant even finish tv shows loved im convinced wont even final season game thrones fucking love show man sticking around dont understand im like that used watch many movies movie watchlist packed many dont even care watching them want cant even that dont die soon ill vegetable months time go dont belong here hate living theres nothing waiting me live people thats it want something myself now sad pain unbearable cant keep going want read comments made way here dont everyday wanted story written someone understand it cant see alive following weeks ill kill tomorrow fully clothed warm bath look decent find me dont want suffer im cutting veins quickly underwater listening heatmisers christian brothers last song name hugo,1 +sometimes wish gay catholic school want miserable find solace forbidden lover much ask,0 +feeling depressed guy ive liked long liked back wants friends w benefits went many feelings heart broken ruining me want quit part time jobs outside school nothing parents process getting divorced dad keeps drinking much get violent im adult house sometimes im spiritual positive feel like everything always faking it im sad im lonely wanna hurt people love care one cares im crying bed dark ,1 +subreddit disappointmentredflag watch like watch redflag page disappointment,1 +need know add padding ropesi know best place post find anyplace else post it decided take life soon found adding padding rope hang lessen pain factor wondering anyone would know pad rope maybe suggest something enough padding already thank everyone reads post,1 +first appointment psychiatrist gp referred me problem appointment weeks getting worse day day eat barely sleep nothing day every day feels longer one before referred beginning july unable function since may steadily going day day cope wish quiet peace wish could sleep way through cope,1 +definitive top best rappers time lil pump lil xan cardi b jake paul lil uzi vert says yah yah yah ixine lil yachty without autotune kodak black ksi smokepurpp freestyling honorable mentions tupac biggie nas kendrick isnt joke true top rappers list,0 +guys came straight parents super supportive,0 +bf told kill myselfim already suicidal panic attacks frequently knows this broke gives attention two hours fighting tells hopes kill myself told go get dads meds take them knows thats planned it really suicidal last night right dont even feel anything might though dont anything anymore,1 +film follows bunch students nyc high school performing arts theres coco irene cara black singer make top despite everything helped bruno lee curren white musician theres doris maureen teefy wants actressbut shy scared becomes friends motgomery paul mccranepurportedly gay student school romanced raul barry miller theres leroy gene anthony raywho sadly died whos homeless great dancerbut cant read theres various teachers albert hague anne meara stand out trying teach kidsbr br the songs great the title tune out own nominated best songfame won dances energetic young cast shows plenty ambition talent film misses boat drama department many plot lines brought completely left openended end movie coco porno doris raul remain together afterwords either make it montgomerywhat happened him leroy ever graduateand how many long speeches raul two moments lead nothing im assuming cuts scripti cant believe movie left open br br still worth seeing acting and again music theres basically one bad song dances go full force and one point stop trafficliterally favorites fame out here i sing body electric great closing song recommend give the script really needed tie loose endsand didntbr br trivia wanted shot film actual school performing arts get permission dean school read script said way much swearing film truethere lot foul language thats high school kids talk avoid tv version abysmally overdubs it,0 +kill wake minutes later reborn next lifei never believed past lives future lives comes it finally end life come peace rest reborn go bullshit life you again makes angry feel though would luck succeed reborn again im angry thought that terrifying biggest fear commit redflag want rest want go away,1 +trying deepen voice im trying deepen voice sound like year old girl speak got tips,0 +tried commit redflag work helpi need commit redflag im dont future im disgusting trans parents siblings dont accept hyper religious friends school bullied past anxiety talk one even parents depression well person boyfriend leaving random girl irl doesnt like long distance hes had tried hang let dangle time pass out could barely breathe breathe tiny wheeze trying get therapist parents gatekeeping it dont find fun anything anymore one talk to im stupid retarded waste space heart physically aching right now dont know do im going try later parents sleepingnot home time ill kick thing make sure complete it,1 +ya bored son dm imma send discord link,0 +sick tired everything nothing helps anymore even know jm making post honestly becuase going chnage anything horrible pos partner left me mother nothing yell me talks hates wants gone genuinely cannot find anything else live for terribly school rest life going keep painful fucking struggle life want live anymore tired,1 +fucking headache go away please test soon,0 +make coconut milk serious matter need know make coconut milk,0 +sure feel like burden friendshi really know go start it im pretty level headed right now know last long ill constantly shift wanting kill really happy easily excitable feel like come drama queen im melodramatic reach lows really feel nothing unbearable emotional agony ive almost killed times now time im send redflag note break tears cant it rd time even shed tear felt hollow worried ive become desensitized since think detail almost daily past month talking friend it finally broke go it convinced finally throw away noose ive holding onto months thought done it now instead feel even pressured nervous guaranteed easy way anymore im afraid might turn less clean methods get bad enough botch it feeling nothing pain long time dying even dying crippled pain rest life cannot afford help cannot afford medical bills police forces stay hospital will thatd cause finally go life would bill insurance one ripoff plans get fined much putting premium crazy high unreasonable deductible id homeless expenses actually unfortunate enough hit it last night meticulously planned method thing stopping reason need rope chill raise suspicion way approach cold empty calculated kinda unsettling passionate irrational need kill like hit absolute lows im laying bed sobbing uncontrollably moments ill sit for like minutes planning out feel like need kill point problem friends care much me like im insanely lucky thoughtful caring friends are even exgirlfriend still cares deeply friend made mistake coming first time almost went it went quiet days discord called work make sure okay two days ago sitting hospital side world go sexual reassignment surgery something wanting entire life something saved slaved past years entire time ever worked despite that took time day worry me asking okay telling bullshit told fine knew way well bare ruin moment tell up one two closest friends talk daily going lot one addisons disease constantly lot pain always sickly always tired needs hours sleep day feel exhausted thats guarantee friend firsts going lot right now talk personal life lot generally really withdrawn life little could piece together really ill well also rough life puts borderline poverty shame two still worry me comfort im upset understanding people planet make happy theyre around online though friends actually acquaintance coworkers pleasant close friends either way feel selfish going im upset encourage great success feel blessed friends lies issue feel like burden friends actually despite transgendered like friend used date supportive treat like woman ways get person despite knowing understand mood place estrodiol flowing daily i pgml getting increased one even compared moody teenage girl despite support give me feel burdened them nd time bear give redflag note instead left discord group us me one addisons one speak personal life well servers together uninstalled discord phone computer hoping sever ties never burden again started feel worried upsetting them reinstalled phone hours later find one messaged asking okay first told suicidal comforted felt settle those two really good knowing exactly want hear calm feel happier reinvited everything woke up first also told second suicidal know heres part burdening me nd told never leave shed miss dearly made feel loved time made feel obligated stick around sake care deeply theyre two closest friends entire world honestly even think im falling love one them know itd mistake pursue it im also sure already taken someone sweet cannot single unless wants and wanted be change me either way last thing needs bringing already do like want away them justi feel like realize much happier theyd without me since bring im upset almost fucking daily refuse accept im fucking toxic happiness well upset get come confide them sure fun together highs whenever theyre active get talk them highly doubt im enjoyable around worth emotional pain put whenever im sad leave servers now uninstall discord again know ill clawing thought reinstalling level stop dumps know ill keep vicious cycle depressed around up im worried theyll worry me itll upset them care much friends put something like that know im suicidal made mistake telling them theyll think killed myself thats im torn feel like im control anymore stay happy them keep contact them stay alive them know do sorry thoughts place want worry them want upset im sad,1 +walter white john wicks nerdy cousin literally killed countless amount people beans danger one knocks,0 +whats point youre uglylmao imagine growing loser antisocial virgin thats whats gonna happen lot people whats point,1 +one butt kills cigarette stop smoking ill steal lungs,0 +always thought depression jokei depressed large part life never would admit it make excuse anything depression always hidden boredom exhaustion never sadness always saw depressed people pathetic crying time feeling sorry cutting way get pity attention kind people stay bed day always thought fix it stop feeling sorry yourself realize depression comes many forms impacts everyone differently depressed sadness even feel bad mentally life over lost desire participate human being turned august job currently sleeping mothers couch br apartment bouncing living mother sisters decade havent friend since highschool recluse never kept job year currently unemployable due extremely high risk turnover thing get bored quickly leave job never consequences thoughts redflag everyday coward dont balls it thought lately things changed thought anymore feeling feel first time going kill myself almost confidence hear head time even told family got expected result dont care mother told didnt need me older sister said go it dont tell do almost disbelief life come this years bad choices suddenly blindsided seemingly solution worst part is hindsight one decision made highschool started path path long numb it almost like getting fat dont notice happening one day suddenly open eyes say fuck happen dont want kill myself blind options now everything would require apply put forth effort somehow convinced beyond point life opinion isnt worth living miserible everyday even concern would impact family sadness confusion might feel subsided life go them forget move on dead capacity care people knew everything happens death problem selfish thing do life even plan buy shotgun go woods morning hours everyone hustling meaningless jobs pull trigger noone would even hear shot wouldnt found days longer ill leave note telling family decided leave wont even bother trying find me,1 +time hitbr br waqt dir vipul amrutlal shah cast amitabh bachchan akshay kumar priyanka chopra shefali shah rajpal yadav boman irani written by aatish kapadia rating br br eureka weve got it yes ladies gentlemenin vipul shahs waqt probably found years first bona fide hit replete necessary ingredients commercial bollywood fare waqt takes movie click indian audiences kinda film makes distributor feel happy contemplate next phoren visit saga indian emotions then happy familyisnt always three ishwaramitabh bachchan postmanturnedmillionairedont ask howtheres something selling toys delivering letters thatseriously gives damn married sumishefali shah doting father adityaakshay kumar ishwar make serious decision sons careless attitude towards responsibilities life love aditya though results procrastination grave issue however faced situation test race time ishwar alternative throw aditya house hoping new predicament might make conscientious life presumed solution becomes problem itself rift loving fatherson increases fences continue grow br br you rocketscientist realize story provides ample opportunities infuse comedy drama alike so preinterval initially funny later annoying comedy track boman irani rajpal yadav postinterval go kerchief moments aby akki writer aatish kapadiahe also penned original gujarati play aavjo vhala fari malishu film based good job keeping narrative fluid dialogues tend get inconsistent times help songs appear like acne teenage face mar proceedings clearly couple numbers couldve done away with directing front vipul shows possesses natural flair storytelling waqt well earlier debut effort aankhen manage keep interested till last reel personal note seesaw emotions tad jerky me gauging audience reactions working hiltbr br finally waqt performances amount one whole point overall rating amitabh bachchan dependable always energy visible age shefali pitches finely nuanced performance matches superstar every step boman rajpal bring house histrionics priyanka little fulfill perfunctory role heroine boils though waqt akshays vehicle always maintained akki good role suits him put mujhse shaadi karogi hes fantastic bewafaa woefully bad here akki probably best whether comic timing emotional renderings nearperfect theres also action scene fans ironically previous best endeavour aankhen director big b sidebr br waqt means memorable movie one feature better films industry one masses time industry waiting desperately universal hit waqt might trickbr br abhishek bandekarbr br trivia akshay kumars second consecutive film bewafaa performs stage climaxbr br rating br br poor average good good excellentbr br nd april ,0 +got biochem test dislike science im bummed got bad grade dont really care point care dont care teacher doesnt put grades till end weeks need get good grades rest stuff hybrid missing person class kinda difficult learning new info especially assigned like month ago chapter glycoproteins proteoglycans confuses me anyone relate,0 +academic pressures causing cousin consider redflagi wasnt even expecting way confessed weeks ago shes better since shes finally taking break college soon mothermy guardian bought copy resident evil one games shes wanting play ps ampxb still kinda bothering me mean looking much work put projects professor spend less minute check it isnt much spent day night writing everything solving questions lie given numbers studying become civil engineer philippines education system shit like yeah sure u graduate k curriculum skills enough get decent job years go highschool teachers would make things harder students course thats gone through studied hard become teacher hundreds papers handwritten plansideas plates whatever terms use describe engineer stuff discover professor allowed printed ones could imagine much anger hand aches pains shes feeling besides professor didnt even announce it saw classmates bringing printed ones professor checking them anxiety attacks asks support family like dropping hints family would question would suddenly like that say stuff like are making drama again ampxb want know could next time hear say joking manner but could feel seriousness i want jump,1 +feel lonely thoughts redflag looming getting stronger every dayi moved take care mother college could barely pick things get bed able get work home traveling couple times year years depressed learn drive family friends teach me get paid much able save lot series emergencies use active gained weight now face amp teeth messed born prematurely cleft pallet feel lonely every night lost interest movies games want someone hang me brother moved away big fight mother use love playing video games walking downtown watching movies thinking putting craigslist ad wants hang socially awkward ugly broke guy cant drive service like cheap thinking redflag often getting hard fight pain loneliness strong anymore thinking would it hang extension cord drown bath tub throw story apartment building guzzle thing bleach,1 +guys someone tell name white mustached guy absolutely destroys tennis players bamboozles tennis skills ive getting videos recommended lately looks like badass someone tell name could watch videos,0 +whenever get told you life live it get sudden jolt angeris way get pissed whenever somebody tells dont it,1 +born uglyit kills me family attractive im ugly one feel bad me want shoot myself like bought gun cant it,1 +kicked table crush fuckkkkk class ended leave classroom leg got caught desk leg let go swung toward crush somehow accident blocked exiting room made really loud sound teacher got immediately asked bolted math teacher noticed me ruined it anyway days fine hows yalls,0 +whats difference using chip sliding debit card also use them umm im sorry ask dumb question im new buying stuff dont want embarrass use card help would greatly appreciated d,0 +kinda wanna talk art styles dont like gatchahttpsimgurcomgalleryoohyrir first one dont like big head slightly unsettling lmao second tublr stylehttpsimgurcomgallerypqfkau idk style someone know draws legs like that no explanation neededhttpsimgurcomgallerymsvwrj fun heres favorite artstyle httpsimgurcomgalleryljfih leg minimalistic also symmetrical h n httpsimgurcomgallerydtrcloy,0 +worried ill go full columbine misguided attempt helpi made thishttpswwwredditcomrdepressioncommentsrqoa_rantish_thing_i_need_to_get_some_stuff_out_but post rdepression might help explain stuff want die want destroy family friends it nightmare back going end killing everybody know way anybody left sad finally waste myself know do friends help anymore trust anybody tell this therapists obviously question,1 +anyones interested im making discord teens play games chat generalgames like among us,0 +everyone hostile americans like understand disliking government that dont cunt american people didnt shit oh well ancestors owned slaves um family came escape world fucking war one like jesus christ one civil anymore,0 +sure go thisi remember thoughts always felt like struggle like them mean either hating telling shut fuck hating myself rolled pillow tried make stop sure sleeping know going on confused shit night carried morning hear back friends tried getting back ex fearing id made biggest mistake thought could handle leaving him made decision think thought people really needed them didnt needed ex back started questioning everything again felt like mistakes around felt really stupid still dont know believe need ex need friend james could talk james would begging ex break ex thought could james ever even make clear headed decision thought thinking rationally decided break him maybe wasnt mistakes around mistakes around know believe anymore people cant trust cant trust people makes pretty hard get day sometimes think im losing mind help ill find time times think ive already lost it want someone fix want die guess simple mind helping myself ive done lot help myself look like really got anywhere need someone take let turn around ive done many right things im going therapy working stuff own therapy helped anxiety think helping redflag stuff helping knowing believe feel like anxiety one smaller manifestations whats really going on no really know whats going feels bad im afraid ever okay could find someone cares enough make sure im okay maybe id feel better safer least right idea whats going happen feel like im going make it feel like matters probably reality doesnt guess could matter better person stands right now really matter know guess think itd easier died would be everyone talk to guess think think im going get better im always going need someone talk to find people get tired me feel bad it time desperately need them stop talking me find new people think handle helping eventually wear out sometimes im caught feeling bad one care every one times worse whats going happen eventually know bother anything all guess im slightly hopeful come together one day ill better ill good ill find need both one two things happen going really hard every time things feel bad gets harder harder believe either one things happen,1 +fuck it like thoughts matter anyway exist think killing daily realised neurotypical behaviour it,1 +future girldaughter wants treated like princess so means want live dirty castle dont bath married young old creep,0 +need motivation school im adhd learning disabilities absolutely hate school although all got fs classes refused work since im sophomore year theres law called no child left behind something kid get held back stuff want good year graduate get degree not school im adult,0 +confusedlike lot people here idk want die tbh keep trying either wuss attempt doesnt workand try go theres reason must here try again idk anymore im tired broke keep trying life idk live makes sense,1 +feel like failurewhenever try voice hopelessness people around remind failures cant anything better myself strive achieve something get ridiculed used arguments ive job since stopped working second child born still get depressed leaving others childcare people supported decision call lazy useless worthless unaccomplished forgive hurt also fault mine im pathetic dark soul begrudging happiness hated see content im tired sounds ridiculous entire life people mean me husband thought ally mocks telling complex vs world world cant wrong ive attempted redflag honestly love children cant catch break im garbage person cant get away,1 +whelp time best sit down school work lonely,0 +life chipped awayeveryday feel pain tell people need help use situations im happy im never happy im putting happy face know im terrible person doesnt help people say im angel need somewhere painless somewhere dont get bullied punched replaced entire life someone im thought redflag year three sensitive spontaneously start crying eyes hurt want free free pain smart fail everything like jesus christ sports team give wrong medal making last apparently im lying even bother life jumped window ledge finally felt free supposed say hi mum like jumping buildings like seriously bothering life tldr want die,1 +cant post images cant post images ,0 +feel like crying right past week half worst really feeling great right ,0 +brother tried kill himselfidk feel visited days ago kept sighing wanted ask wrong showed absolutely interest tried reaching along siblings shit bad multiple times gave nothing would beat little jealousy stole shit always scared him ive grown downright hate feel like total piece shit gave absolutely nothing years finally make visit ask mom money say nothing me idk maybe came test see anyone cared blew it sent message explaining hope responds probably not thought fucking i attempt recently found time brought hospital siblings counting one living us mom said anything afterwards never happened still dont mention it ive thinking like wow right ol one would notice gone true since ive gotten reckless suicidal person seemed give shit dad found first place didnt say much himself thinking one want help other who right now really wants contact brother tell much love dont want die maybe didnt know dont know regardless sent know felt dont want go,1 +stupid poll stupid idea anyways crush considered popular person quiet person scale quiet kid popular person ever im honestly curious ratio could answer feel comfortable,0 +despise skittles cause slogan lying slogan says ill taste rainbow many colors like bitch skittles come colors red purple orange yellow lime green fucking taste rainbows actual skittles come colors smh fuck skittles,0 +comment worst redditor sub vote,0 +haha im famous money enough talking suck dick,0 +boys girls asked crush felt way happy last years,0 +biggest karma whore universe browsing reddit stumbled upon gem account usmexyredditor apparently survived cancer children got heart surgery while grandpa caught covid also reposts others work like artwork etc hope steps lego psreport acc banned ps turns year old beat cancer posted sub beforez,0 +tell like her crush messaging day yesterday today want tell like ive already told like awhile ago kinda wanna see says wait,0 +really want someone speak honestly totheres nobody life trust anymore talk to ive got fairly long story feel like writing once came group friends care me parents would rather use say ammo other brother told kill myself know much longer ill able take this,1 +dm guess interests include limited to modlesgundam nintendo switchsmash mario kart splatoon sf ect i steam play deciet among us old music s almost everything spooky stuff spooky talesmyths yugioh old games snes nes gameboy gb sp gba n genesis dreamcast i love fighting games im open almost anything,0 +bruh hit s yet im already sick tired life,0 +style emotional release bodywork called amanae or emotional release therapy feel compelled help veterans ways might able get touch organization area see volunteer intense process want know could help people suffering redflag especially veterans dont know would like rattling cage shouldnt rattled exactly right thing treating redflag would volunteer services learn working sufferers,1 +want buy gun year ago asked that id think crazy days im actually seems like decent idea ar bullshit acog scope cod type advanced warshit handgun locked safe case probably revolver cause theyre simple operate stressful situation days george floyd riots crazy shit itd good something protect case shit hit fan im cheap like good one anyway id wait til move out probably tell family,0 +tired difficult love thinking attempt number fourall want friends want mother love me two things cant manage feel like good job treating people like want treated give compliments constantly things make peoples lives easier sacrifice time energy making friends familys lives enjoyable think id rather throw sword stress someone else out feel like im constantly things supposed strengthen relationships focus good listener kind person like matter hard try one seems think im worth effort feel like im always afterthought one ever reaches me one ever nice things me feel like im constantly giving one else loves enough give anything me want occasional hug text asking day going able make plans without flaked on dont understand dont deserve basic acts love kindness dont know whats wrong me ive tried kill three times before time overdose time adjusted medication attended near constant therapy made major life changes try improve circumstances could happy ive worked hard now im miserable night took bottle pain pills bottle xanax try escape feel like always supposed do ive tried every coping skill ive tried taking medicine seeing doctors consistently ive tried inpatient outpatient partial hospitalization every single piece advice ive given try put action im miserable im alone im back zero im graduating college soon know everything going difficult soon money prospects friends im going end living mother hates sister wishes died first time tried way future created myself ive done every single thing right im still stuck dont understand point trying anymore ive rough year sexually assaulted front friends fall one said anything dog died flown interview which cost much didnt have eventually turned dream job turned every job since then im already ugly obese keep gaining weight eating disorder also apparently multitude conditions cause weight gain last depressive episode cost friends support systems place every single day presented another obstacle every conversation ends another inconvenience insult problem find solution for ive always high functioning depressive episodes still class five days week work full time sports three times week upcoming move life upheaval time money prepare for one tell edge every single moment feel like might time feel like supposed die first time fifteen soul rotted inside since thats people avoided loving me maybe tell im supposed loving isnt worth effort feel like maybe im already dead time give let body rest dont know want it remember therapist always saying suicidal thoughts really concern plan dont know believe anymore cant overdose again never works dont right kinds pills im adult psych ward must even terrible im surrounded twelve years olds way juvie ive always wanted slit wrists ive tried cant press deep enough anyway try go walmart buy razors think id wimp out cant jump bridge cliff dark thats scary think would feel alone imagine shooting head every second day time think would freeing taste sweet feeling fun side head seems like relief dont gun dont know buy gun think maybe theyd able tell tried get cant handle shame want go want free dont think ill ever happy think maybe born miserable die maybe im plot point someone elses story dont know wish someone would break apartment right strangle maybe parents would feel bad times put hands around throat could finally go way body wants me dont know keep living like this paper turn class tomorrow morning guess dont time think it,1 +dont care black brown normal long arent purple respect fuck purple people,0 +want get revenge brother good plan ask parents seem insist wear older brothers hand downs problem pants never fit even wear belt keep slipping showing underwear parents listen say your wearing belt fine pull slip years yeah worn something without belt years im getting used used underwear showing time except home ever brother sees always gives massive wedgie ive come plan get revenge wanna ask good idea good enough brothers pants fitbut wears belt time sags pants tbh kinda ive started now times wants look good wears one girlfriend coming hour hell getting smarter clothesso im considering stealing belt embarrassing him leaves giving suprise wedgie telling stole belt good idea,0 +dear rredflagwatch christmas card yousuggested repost rreddit ten years ago almost almost killed girl broke me stood bucket rope around neck chickened out stepped down pathetically wept sleep slip step away dying tonight finished baking pumpkin cheese cake beautiful wife sitting couch wrapped fleece blanket watching christmas story five month old daughter lily asleep crib little red reindeer foot pajamas say babys first christmas tomorrow well wake house own ill cook breakfast well celebrate first christmas together family im newer reddit new internet message boards anonymous friends give us somewhere laugh vent cry scream theyve got really dark times wanted take minutes go bed thank you merry christmas faceless friends hard time gets better love yall valjean,1 +anyone tried kill aspirin like aspirin,1 +anyone else constantly think killing selves places school work front everyonei always fantasize killing lunch hundreds watching,1 +endi know feel like cutting help,1 +lol boys talked on internet past months irl years fucking sucks,0 +bored want join discord im guy the discord server aimed teenagers ran teenagers occasional events chill discussions almost anything link server profile fun whilst server,0 +dm truth dare question matter is answer,0 +guys need help change flair beside name pls hlep,0 +end lifei going break dont think find love given kind person am dont enjoy work due certain reasons cant even quit it even quit somehow dont know next dont good relationship parents anybody think stop wasting time,1 +see sexy women get horny like im teenagers horny watched cardi bs new ig post bikiniand big tits fat ass shes super hotand didnt get horny go watch see im talking about normal lmao,0 +wish euthanasiamy whole life keeps getting worse worse everyday goes by im even yet feels like im old fuck ive work since ive since lost dad one supporting family financially mom barely makes anything ive work live normal life see everyone else age going friends traveling fun im house day bed usually sit outside sun thing gives happiness now go college semester drop couldnt afford one help pay off started working full time job came back home years later quit couldnt take anymore routine everyday physically demanding didnt get paid lot hard work everyone else slacking off tired happening everyday walked never came back regret new job gives hours minute drive dealt stress previous job didnt think would hard get job day every single employer always pick people seem cool attractive ones one cares hard work anymore wont even give chance prove it go someone looks social status feel alone sometimes one talk besides mom little brother even dont want listen sometimes gets awkward since mom never really talked showed emotion feels nice someone physically around you older siblings great life guess forgot me ive asked help think figure own feel helpless wish human euthanasia legal wouldnt feel way everyday dont know im future im scared,1 +wow loved movie love judy marte girl awesome pretty face funny really really talented made laugh many times naturally rough victor desperately hitting her well seeing lot next coming years probably also director peter sollett costar victor rasukbr br raising victor vargas one best film saw long time refreshing true nice funny well filmed got good story good actors good film directionbr br if like simple slow paced real life urban movies like maybe jersey girl kevin smith love victor vargas better,0 +kinda lowkey glad theres normalization wearing face mask like still wanna wear pandemic cause dont wanna show face im shy,0 +miss mom miss great grandma mmshe used vibrant independent tennis player volleyball player dancer swimmer first grade teacher put entire heart job shes epilepsy years doctors found matter brain epilepsy medicine combined lack independence she cant drive swim etc risk seizures changed her shes depressed talks killing wanting live im scared depressed mostly feeling like failure maybe would want live somehow better daughtersisterperson actually am wish siblings enough reason keep striving life great grandma mm died little ten years ago id give anything around right now shed know say taught sew tea parties time,1 +random thoughts feel like get way excited beginning kind friendship people set disappointment also really love thrill meeting new person like genuinely find knowing new things someone total mystery amazing immediately think omg person like me could literally music taste id literally love them crazy theres people that need accept fact theyre twin something theyre completely different need stop fucking excited rush things fast start might super friendly give people impression wanna friends forever bc moment thats feel slowly time lose interest crazy bc one point person everything could think clicked well suddenly interest talking anymore another completely different note also something ive noticed myself treat guys girls equally like talk guy completely way id talk girl im straight btw actually dont know im genuinely interested guy super weird feel like things start getting sexual something theyd lose interest me im afraid theyd wanna get know anymore dont want used like yea friendship anyone cant help see things like would guy talk lot didnt want relationship dont know makes sense feel weird talking guys sometimes bc feels like reason interest bc wanna something might sound crazy idk,0 +whats otters got phone back repair place half posts reference otters im guessing missed something,0 +start texting crush m want start texting crush f know start many conversations besides wishing eachother happy birthday help suggestions welcome free ask questions helps,0 +privacy gone mom downloaded app phone used monitor year olds know navigate internet cant anything without mom seeing it cant delete tha app without getting warning phone locked bypass app without getting alert said bypass deleted concept privacy exist,0 +im watching one criminal minds episode theres woman stuck giant facility find way guy kills her really hope hunch guy correct shes found way kill room knows shes slaughterhouse runs away like dude theres kill room means cattle need get somehow could follow path brought cattle could escape like ten minutes tops least better idea wandering halls aimlessly anyways thats ive needed get chest lady dumb rn shes getting chased dog it,0 +life suckswhys gotta hard fucking kill yourself shit sucks anybody got good method cant get hands gun,1 +hanging soon cani bought rope im writing inside mcdonalds wait ride home wont able tonight plan wednesday afterwards whenever get house i live parents im going hang stairwell really hope works cant afford mess up cant tell friends family want time thanks reading,1 +accidentally spent dads money let us say berated put as always am getting point try spend every minute life working trying sleep deal everyone lonely breakdowns daily,1 +idkive already trying improve years im gotten where im physically fit working management degree trying find internship still feel same honestly feels like waste time enjoyment felt kid making kids laugh know wanted sort positive influence others around profession got ill lost friends confidence went them since ive trying push myself gone events societies try get know people nothing works ive tried good person offering support help wherever still friends know somebody day never see again ampxb ive applied jobs cant even manage strike one those whats point somebody like living normal people live survive shit years rot die seems selfish mundane decades pointless torture ampxb wish bitch could go ahead already fucking hate shit it something plan ahead leave debt behind,1 +page one films madhur bhandarkar makes expose societal filth film compelling but like bhandarkars films onesided overly pessimistic film tabloid journalism gossip celebrities film exposes lives socialites whose lifestyle disastrously boastful peculiar repulsive party care nothing fame plan parties funerals craving money higher reputation anything get due exposure media get names boldly printed daily newspapers social column known page huge photographs center peoples discussions attention seeking salacious hypocrite film industry shown sleazy casting couch common phenomenon among filmmakers thats lovely heroine young social column reporter madhvi sharma thrown people mumbais elite depend articles right person befriend parties want mention article later film learn even madhvis friends different highsociety people tough viewing me although film unquestionably brave issues deals interestingbr br the films music average passable songs kitne ajeeb huzooreala sung two melody queens lata mangeshkar asha bhosle respectively otherwise soundtrack bad one song particularly horrendous filmy filmy films writing quite good second half far better first turns matteroffact exposes much important issues terrorism child abuse thats film applauded sad know people prefer ignore crimes fear konkona sen sharmas characters disappointment easy relate to excellent throughout film acting last scenes particularly impressive atul kulkarnis part small full justice it boman irani solid newspapers editor sandhya mridul lovable madhvis sassy roommate pearl marries older man money honest enough admit it films ending really welldone provides certain sigh relief unimaginably tough proceedings page good film interesting times moving level interest general quality marred exaggerated overly messy negative portrayal rich famous,0 +women confusing asked crush got used like took long make move ive know weeks tf didnt make move,0 +also know cheaperbetter items could add please let know like minefield trying find nonprime pantry items i would also happily accept gift card grocery storerestaurant something another way assist know sure going towards food full disclosure active account months purely using username primarily least months,0 +need someone talk toive feeling suicidal long remember need friend talk to,1 +saying hi reminding drink water every day till get girlfriend day hi hope great remember drink water stay hydrated,0 +bloody fucking failureabout months ago tried kill car garage one thing didnt count fucking neighbor coming see whats happening passed n right almost finally fucking dead n dick head decided call n pull garage fuck ima cut air bags car n crash bitch fucking hate ppl caring let fucking die well third time charm right,1 +help meive suicidal years whilst able distract jobs short term relationships ect feelings always there last years ive looked excuses get rid close ones life right gone im yo male know family friends would deverstated seems one cares right now im included anything am feel bring mood despresive state feel disconected like im im somewhere else dark cant see ive used hotlines chats online help short term alright night weeks tell go gp refered mental health teamim uk find like consending help aww thats good sounding symphetic do hobbies uplifting voice feels forced stopped answering calls know many people blame cause much pain years come time dont want existance ive got feel like im rotting away flat own honestly think would take months anyone would notice gone one regulary checks me contact them spoke pyhcolgist years back proffesional setting someone knew personally time intrusive thoughts asked worried said whenever put plan action although ive gone got rope scares much ive pushed eveyone mattered away making easier something ive also decided wont home wont found while ive recently decided woodland would leave notes paths warn dog walkers go call police im stupid im told im bright quite articular know feeling temporary mindset know recent events made feel way know wont feel like daysweeks also know come back around dont want want long term fix feel im edge im tradgedy argument taunt away goin edge diagnosis acted was violent child screamy self harm would scratch punch self face terorise taunt siblings parents bullied kids too see phycolgists child think whit cheek cleverness convinced otherwise conclusion always hes perfectly normal parents horror think suffer sort phycosis schizofrenia think im bi polar anyone know true bi polar detected balances hormones blood schizofrenia detected test anyone know force doctor tests mentioned never diagnosis ive never given meds dark depresive state also dont think im getting everythink across really feel go speaking doctor mental health team help im looking for know profesional couldnt give diagnosis online written would tell seek profesional indication would really help think could suffering from think medications could help please offer meds advice uk also know need change mindset anyone know books could read change mindset find better way coping understanding things thanks reading support given anyone feeling way talk help even stranger chat hotline everyone else kind world dont judge anyone even drug user thief never know really feeling get state theyre in go nice stranger never know much could make day nicekind even noticing giving warm smile thank you name tom,1 +someone made playlist would kinda neat it want definitely shouldindie rock coollt ignore that,0 +cant keep going like thismy life know essentially ruined feel like ive hit rock bottom week ago point im digging deeper deeper sick tired living absolute isolation sick tired able see friends family person absolutely terrified going forced live rest life without ever seeing friends family ever again thats life want apart of cant keep going like this idea else do,1 +need notice post im check ban lifted fileffilleleleejek,0 +want go sleep wake upi hate existing shit again im trying find reason keep going honestly cant cant remember last time ive actually happy,1 +great ways try get heartbreakredflag option would like know anyway get release pain jogging gyming cant drinking smokinh question becaue quit months ago tried smoking really hurts wanna sleep forever cant now want better heart breaks,1 +crush said yes soft drink talking me probably get checked,0 +anyone want dead tho cant change myself cant choose get social anxiety cant change simply good social interactions cant change face cant change fact im small comparison rest cant change fucked mental health cant change headaches get everyday try nice tho,0 +subreddit go minutes without post holy shit think thats first time ive seen happen,0 +ive laying bed eyes shut trying sleep close literally hours cant it im tired one bit trying get better sleep schedule hard got hours sleep yesterday im probably going stay day sleep time becomes am ill able go bed better cycle,0 +im waitingfor one final straw drive edge finally all ive prepared everything except im going redflag note point dont even want write notetheres nothing want say anybodyits fault born suicidal self harming piece shit,1 +dog would really good poker told barked would dropkick her immediately knew bluffing barked me idk knew bluffing seems really good figuring,0 +hate white rant playing among us met girl called belle pink random match went task date among us rounds argument white annoying lobby pink asked snapchat said yes right put username white fucking kicked game host feel sad now belle reading blue aka kakashi,0 +getting first car soon looking lots early s subaru legacys imprezas cars would guys recommend live rural town school part time job situated main highway traffic lights traffic bad weekends friday afternoons amount beaches accessed going town,0 +girl told look like angel angels actually attractive theyre ugly see real description,0 +coloradokilling soon anyone opiates idk wants also kill wants make look bizarre possible let know could die simultaneously wearing sonic hedgehog costumes side side everyone like but even know other could funny someone,1 +anybody else get text message email link woke morning im like oh sick got text message open link thought maybe university advisory clicked link and saw pussy half asleep,0 +many thoughtsim sure completely qualify posting here seems like best place go ive many bad thoughts lately ive hard time couple years started really break somewhat recently im finishing high school hopefully going college soon im trying hardest go away college living house nightmare know me older sisters antidepressants anti anxiety medication moved out im afraid might stuck ill never able go anywhere life cant keep together mentally much longer want things get point cant fix anything really need someone talk to help would absolutely appreciated,1 +alonemy gf years dumped me grew together every day told loved me friend knew better even family never thought anyone would love way gave hope maybe wouldnt alone rest life shes blocked forms communication told never talk again im done betrayed treated like trash cant function barely sleep let alone function work itd b better killed sav life disappointed know sad sob story hurts bad im alone nobody talk love want around im going die terminal dehydration way least content wasnt spur moment decision,1 +fuck people giving excited awards suicidal postsare excited someone hurting excited someone wants end life cmon guys make sense awards choose lets think actions sensitive sub ffs,1 +good life meant everyone people suffercan live itis worth it laurel worth it life worth it dont know kind question that guess sometimes sometimes not times worth living make ultimately worth living dont understand hurts sometimes one moment im okay next contemplating alive sucks doesnt make sense life got crazy people better others dont go feelings loneliness able connect people family cause family knowing werent related them wouldnt care damn you people see someone worth it used thrown away convenient im living life everyone else living ive learned people use satisfy themselves whether family friends significant others dont even get live lie believing people genuinely care me know women are know friends are know family is maybe ive given shit examples maybe ive given best ones cause know know reason different whether better worse dont know yet know utter worse im least say make feel better people say teenage years best years get live carefree dumb things get live yet havent done things always felt alone always outcast havent got experience life waking day day hoping tomorrow different not still wake hoping maybe today different maybe life change today thinking since middle school nothing changed ive aged gotten worse new experiences turned tragic lessons went severe depression period third nine weeks junior year reasons still dont understand something wrong me must be right oblivious things always face reality situation never trick feeling better certain situation always realize exactly got there exactly reasons happened example met someone felt like connected her freakishly lot stuff common felt like okay finally get person get close romantically boom less months went shit damn pandemic hit lost her instead able oh well life fully understand even happened first place used rebound friend group trashed ex wasnt even him wanted forget wanted hope things would go back him never wanted like felt like me basically went cold turkey me worth talking too dont even care know im alive never could understand this still dont understand this so ask question even like me seen reply do im hurting again except know best know leave im best at severing link say cant this really want someone least like relationship get text although similar got know you knew wouldnt last thats nothing you even bother worth it felt terrible not broke her felt terrible cause really felt could girl say alike still even like me make since even possible many questions wanted answers yet insignificant couldnt even garner response none text none phone calls nothing even drop water even bother dodged bullet anyway maybe hit me best delete number hit forbidden key unfollow months ago whats point anyway done done was am sense changing finding better ways cope am am maybe never meant regular like everyone else experience everyone else experiencing friends family lovers experiences maybe never meant me want continue writing maybe should could write good friend hooked another friend girl mine hasnt talked since initiate contact every time month hasnt even wanted know im alive point many questions go now work ass get nothing return im best shape life source income couple thousand saved still feel place feel worse cause achieved still place choosing live everyday tomorrow,1 +fuck square enix make ffr episodic,0 +complain instagram stealing memes stupid memes supposed spread give shit made meme also watermarks useless nobody goes back original creator page anyways memes art silly jokes stop commenting stolen rsubreddit look ridiculous,0 +depression getting old jesus christjust fucking kill man hell made feelings possible,1 +hey yall made subreddit ever burning question ask someone lives texas head subreddit rasktexanfolks hope people join in little advertising,0 +ask random questions ask random questions im board right,0 +theres many ways could kill right momentive never noticed really scaring me mind absolute chaos right know do everything see potential kill me everything close eyes limitless im young enough people would say much live for feel fake whenever try start conversation depression probably hormones teenager end making halfhearted redflag joke everyone around feels uncomfortable like ive ever diagnosed anything know many people selfharm know real problems struggles lives dont theres always food table money bank may enough money go college definitely privileged person im looking around room right freaking out think im going cry quite honest shouldnt ive crying lot lately im really weak person know much longer this still know could really commit redflag im fake person probably selfharm attention too even though told anyone it really want to would love sit talk talk talk hour straight everything would love tell story start finish see im selfish see many times ive said i im selfish think somethings wrong mind keeps twisting turning think supposed that cant focus anything post getting really hand im sorry cant concentrate much think getting really long im cant go back read edit right cant think properly im sorry tldr completely useless post cant make brain shut up sorry,1 +also get really painful crampsperiods every month share people work want complain think business today asked leave lunch time lot pain terrible cramps actually bled pants embarrassing secretary told problem,0 +think im suicidal need someone talk toguess got big fat dui me did driving road beers leaning arm horn fucked blew bac thats twice legal limit parents bail jail morning could go prison could go jail career over im recent college graduate fucking criminal think hit anyone dont even remember could have someone could dead blacked out im really tough spot know whats going happen terrified fault ruined career acted like monster aghh thats really it want someone talk to feel really terrible right now want die feel like cant live shame actions,1 + year old neet several issuesi year old male struggle depression social anxiety low selfesteem daily suicidal thoughts financially dependent parents job go school many friends never girlfriend family love me hate feeling worthless unwanted hate feeling like disgrace know dad says me fucked driving test got nervous fucked job interviews im scared even apply anymore asked help issues got worse struggle even talking parents know theyll pass off always whenever problem everything fuck up hate feeling rejected hate waking everyday feeling like im nothing always wished never born kid now want end it,1 +got free award im gonna give thats thats whole post pretty epic right lololol,0 +warning nonconsensual support caring liking appreciation met extreme hostility may include doxxing termination traumatization death required ask consent prior engaging activities feelings towards mentioned first sentence asking consent permitted either reply dm agree terms conditions life,1 +music taste hmu immediately httpsopenspotifycomplaylistcbbytzbqqoufkvzbsizjpeqbqxomk_zjrq,0 +convert pain something else long story short someone broke heart ive losing mind things know shouldnt past week want stop,0 +best bit film alan pulled knickers ran cut throat razor bum cheeks around bum hole also brilliant see alans bum going like fiddlers elbow later filmbr br alan tough hell like got annoyed pushed four eyed wimp onto sofabr br ive laughing days cut throat razor bit brilliant idea script writers alan must brought back eastenders peggybr br alan back time hes armed razor watch girl finds pulls knickers down,0 +dont feel like dieim scared cut scared medicine hanging seems awful im afraid heights wtf,1 +go here im last year teenaging got know go here s subreddit,0 +used always feel loved me common fight turned sickly true care much man place shoes feeling pain must feeling alone know sick me stop this shouldnt feel bad right,1 +sorry post againi want use sub place go groan guess im now past couple weeks rough life saying much every thing crumbling around me mind broken afraid pushed dearest friend away ive intense lately many people open to know im much know throw sick weight onto loved ones shoulders ive watching videos people dying redflags favorite especially ones guns ive gotten murder videos freak accidents torture never never liked sort thing seeing hurt always made sick love now soothing pleasurable watch videos release drugsmeds always cheap masks make feel real pleasure watch suffering gore actually calm im filled hatred want hurt everyone crosses me want people hurt every fucking day hurt me always pinning screaming ears cant get quite anywhere everyones feeling forced onto me want stop it want eyes leave me ive never fight believe opportunity ive never hurt anyone want bash break people make feel like complete shit opened friend think scared off even give details needed get back wanted person care know completely breaking whats wrong me lived constant urge end life violence pounding head think really turned friend away me im tired everything loud want good man,1 +everybodys telling lifes short want dieim tired whats point anymore maybe humans meant die,1 +character named evie evie wants good person nice friendly smiles often strangely brutally honest evie also secret idiotsavant sister reciting original poetry getting community excited sister writing unfortunately evies poetry mother starts happy boy next door shows interest evie evie tries figure really wants dobr br what keep mind watching movie evie really is brutally honest person mind telling ivyleague types respect them would seem odd would able pull lie someone happy cheerful quite emotionless comes certain issues character flaws theyre plot development mean lot first seembr br mostly something melodrama character lies characters personalities propel drama relationships held risk terms writing fresh bold acting helps writing along well maybe idiotsavant sister could played better real joy watchbr br the directing cinematography quite good theyre acceptable evies world wreathed color light makes beautiful images consistent really much flaw result low production value within value genuine storytelling real care characters perfect movie certainly enjoyable onebr br polarisdib,0 +gen z culture dms redacted study wrote ago basically overexamination things friend sent me really meant serious enjoy qad quaque alternis die meaning every day direct message send oneonone messages to redacted colloquial english term cum pronounced km reference upandcoming gen z teenage culture subcategory includes interesting phenomenon male teenagers try best increasingly risky terms phrases cum informal expression semen ejaculated man orgasm increasingly popular term within last decade galvanized genzers one many words used disrupt social status quo gen z culture phenomena generally explained early childhood genderdifferentiated social relations clashed middletolatechildhood established sexual social script breakdown ie reassertion ideas formed broader social movements began generally unified gen zers together outside forces phrases terms used widely openly new generation include poggers gamer sus plethora abbreviations bled millennial culture like lol lmao open use terms gen z compounded higher activism rates could imply greater shift away conservative societal views popular term utilized describe still faith older systems boomer play baby boomers ie born likely subscribe conservativebased media january th otherwise noted first time ever redacted finally responded back direct message similar fashion original term recently hard work paid further continuous tirade messages finally received another interesting response january th otherwise known parts world including limited france mexico spain argentina romania redactedd response quite peculiar nae response copied multiple times within seconds known youth culture spam one word phrase constantly sent messaging apps forms media given amount time amounting tens hundreds rapidfire repetitions surprisingly nae actually one meaning older reference hiphoprap artist silents pronounced slnt awardwinning song watch me whichs melodic prose included famous lyrics now watch whip watch nae nae become increasingly popular gen z culture monosyllabistic words gain traction easy say type whip nae nae quickly became popular dance moves filling social media sites flash hopeful dancers took challenge create best videos choreographies unlike grand majority songs watch me forthcoming dance moves continued stay spotlight while stayed part gen zs background continuing affect develop day sense one says nae especially said multiple times could referencing watch mes nae nae dance way expressing satisfaction current situation april chinese artist wowkie zhang released hit song sunshine rainbow white pony rise mandarin pop missed american listeners heard verses nae nia nae nae nia nia nae nae naes accompanying phrase english known long history used racial slur uttering writing someone african american background looked upon conventionally appropriate even nothing american culture however mentioned previously specific subcategory gen z culture includes interesting phenomenon male teenagers try best increasingly risky terms phrases sense nae becomes sort challenge another male teenager likely african american background testing see whether continue phrase redacteds intention truly honored considered one would willing challenge expressional dominance matter type nae redacted referencing oneword response truly illuminates deep gen z culture go even seeminglycommon phrases much deeper vibrant significance youth finally end research appears redacted verge blocking ending means onetoone communication with me multiple dates november th december nd december th redacted stated gf shorthand girlfriend meaning female relationship with went post image twice pressured december th january th reverse image searching pictures learned actually roseanne park better known mononym ros vocalist kpop korean pop group blackpink find doubtful is fact redacteds gf useful continue observe behaviors talking her going far propose suitable mating candidate redacted rejected turned down said to remained loyal supposed gf asked probing questions relationship blackpink vocalist redacted became defensive telling stop leave this stop using experiment ignoring latter hopefully continue probe relationship time goes on gen zs tendency get fictional relationships people positions social power ie famous passed previous generations akin millenials love mariah carey gen xs love ooga booga rocks another category fake love called waifuism lonely males embrace d animated world hold d real world male love animated japanese characters plagued gen z generation almostnormalized millenial rare cases gen x generations well later years may eradicate degeneracy hope pray redacted stays d side spectrum study gen z culture dms redacted ended blocked main messaging platform seen previous entries may take us years entirely learn nuances gen z culture continued immersion means continue learn expand knowledge gen z,0 +thinking much keeps alivewhat mean ive thought multiple ways end myself wierd common thoughts are feels pretty normal decade lost best friend rollover catapulted mental rock bottom state didnt help deployed time stateside anyway years since finding out ive since pushed dozens life became recluse care outside world ive spent countless nights laying awake fantasizing ending all mental exhaustion constant battles inner demons dirt nap sounds good however countless nights planning redflag im also countering thoughts happens fail end vegetable forced stay alive machines bad hurt noose doesnt kill im suffering would pretty awkward situation someone walk seeing like right ive thought slitting wrists id rather kids see aftermath that jumping bridge standing tracks waiting train turn bits popping many pills ive thought up thought failure thats kept attempting it today feeling like im fucking cursed live days death finally takes me typical day wouldnt bother say due disdain society anyone reading feels hopeless dont give up matter hardships enduring keep fighting sometimes gets worse gets better take upon reach out follow another path know definitely alone,1 +lack hope motivation prior lockdown worstenedhello im writing gain sort motivation hope future im year old secondary school student ireland currently final year leaving cert acts access route college based individual performance longest time struggled mental health major anxiety depression redflag ideation lower general motivations immensely coupled add makes harder stay focused topic gain focus first place although taking medication these sertraline mg ritalin mg school always difficult however supports supplied seem quite impossible country lockdown schools closed im left home little motivation anything mother understands mental health challenges however insists blaming academic shortcomings lack motivation such believes right angry this said anger aimed me source problem seems me online classes school whatever reason theres little direct pressure teachers use google classroom thats it know get motivated much anything thoughts escape redflag getting stronger stronger feel alone all sucks want feel like anymore if incoherent im sorry hard put sort thing words me,1 +wish would tell somebody chance moment stopped caring moment realised nothing really mattered anymore maybe thought pass like things used to drowning indifference stuck it things used crave enjoy feel like nothing friendships deep ever wanted them feels like meh fuck going tell anyways want anything really want nothing fuck no either way going same feels like already dead mean sometimes matters springs emotion longer recognize somebody brink suicide hand anything times here maybe meant statistic along thinking eventually going miss night sky think appreciate enough going miss memories two best weeks life people may suffer most sorry or not mean genuinely feel like anymore already,1 +innocent friend made dark joke today talking rasputin dance tiktok yknow shirtless boys said crush would literally die said wouldnt youve already tried didnt succeed youre immortal imma leave,0 +rebels vs empire jihad vs mcworld books video many times empire strike back long china buys subtitled cgi ben barber compiled countless citations tell story rebels vs empire jihad vs mcworld mcdonalds doesnt sell burgers million national citizens every day serve customers gilette ceo record declaring foreign countries longer foreign global market corporations transcended nations dominoes pizza higher annual revenue bolivia twitter power unperson commander chief barber simplifies argument duality pinning corporate imperialism sovereignty form jihad book make question indoctrinated beliefs entitled natural resources forefathers lands ive seen short lifetime alone blowback ignored us govt packaged powerful entrapment tool galvanize young middle eastern radicals barber brings origins american militiamen long lost ideas confederalism speculating fccs ability limit broadcast spectra mtv fell qvc plugged hole representing global conjugation ideas culture prepare go theoretically deep political compasss classic rivalry authoritarianism libertarianism youtube httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvejicigmlahttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvejicigmla itunes httpspodcastsapplecomuspodcastnicksnonfictionidhttpspodcastsapplecomuspodcastnicksnonfictionid soundcloud httpssoundcloudcomusernicksnonfictionjihadvsmcworldhttpssoundcloudcomusernicksnonfictionjihadvsmcworld,0 +taking lethal dose diphenhydramine tonighti depersonalization derealization im convinced im living simulation way death life made shitty nothing real im inside computer feel like thoughts actions arent even mine want end depression feeling tonight taking mg diphenhydramine enough kill me live brain dead bed rest life miserable death option escape,1 +keep bad intrusive thoughts killing sister killing myselfthese thoughts come around couple times month im scared may act one day,1 +feel like failing dog mom every way depression getting worse day time get home work everyday zero patience energy deal him husband month half hes months old hes incredibly rowdy attentionseeking huge sweetheart cannot seem help jerk whenever hes around feel overwhelmed around him cannot help hate hes feet time constantly trying jump lick anywhere skin showing trying train hes progressing rapidly still cannot seem find leftover patiencei always dog person happened mei feel like worst person world feel bad love much want feel loved know do horrible dog mom,1 +something wrote kind express feeling felt like sharing person inside me wants cannot break wall cries loud ever apparent desperation rise paralyzing enclosused imprisoned repression depression hope lost hope gained day day out disassociation confusion worth it strong enough let go weak enough hold on part something bigger prisoner something smaller say words head ring hallow spinning control maybe asking wrong questions maybe right questions maybe right answers maybe subjective maybe purpose purposeless words enough ride myself want break out replace person something better cry help plead affirmation tell alone tell okay tell okay please tell okay get somehow,1 +feel giving enough time feel prayers answered moved abusers house bliss weeks lapses desires hurt worse today one f days keep praying religious time let cry feels prayers get answered given anybody else help sorrows universe truly want brave myself know begin even meditate journal every single day matter nobody knows even tell mei feel horribly alone many people love come help feel absolutely terrified ask help back even could cannot feel like open like that want trauma dump especially tell people stories get disgusted cannot handle it even know dude feel like still suicidal everything perfect is feel praying much cannot take given shut up feel like help coming soon trying find valid suicidal still,1 +shouldnt kill myselfive lost friends family help live,1 +think im suicidal summerive heard seasonal affective disorder thought winter months drag people down ive got backwards apparently never wanna hot humid life always goes crap im backwards whole life mistake give one good reason continue pointless cycle,1 +banned point ive banned strong suspicion people banned least,0 +life hard like cant get hot boy catboy costume choke life gotta hard like smh kill,0 +want alivr anymore think take longer problem feeling hate everytying happening especially breathng want alive thibk kill myself want feeling idk stop it tired,1 +redflag thoughts living aloneas soon turn eighteen would like start living alone start job im afraid day long thoughts ending all want cut myself want hurt myself im afraid alone could really end all live parents sister since think much cutting myself cant stand anymore know could,1 +reasonim serious dire straights one person read today would enough ive come reddit many times seeking help various problems years let keep quick im worst state depression ive ever in theres huge lead past three years ripple effect huge onset panic disorder agoraphobia coming dangerously close developing eating disorder depression bad moment im physical pain im pretty much frowning time whether want not result chronic headaches time cant sleep binged eat im supossed go back uni next week six hours away folks parents desperately trying convince go back think depression get worse ill kill myself worst depressions even probably ever be mom knows suicidal thoughts only recently help ive medication since may much im depressed suicidal usual say suicidal loosely feel like fucking imposter guess feel like id everyone huge fucking favour die think necessarily want die feel like inevitable part future fucking hate im convinced feeling like result eventually killing myself desire grow old ive never anyone im cant keep job keep school im fucking depressed days really wanna something takes everything shit ton pills write redflag note yet again wanna die want pain end cliche sounds pains getting bad think im beyond point fixing this either redflag live rest life barely hanging suffering sometimes wonder suicidal depressed about im reasonably good health wonderful family live safe country never really want anything go good school im fucking ungrateful could many amazing things life motivation deserve achieve things even deserve get better ive tried fucking hard many years beat this ive really really tried get hard work ending exactly place started sometimes worse im fucking alone mom knows anything even know everything friends acquaintances uni many people like honestly think really good people living campus keep telling really care me care died even fucking care depressed fucking deserve this humour anymore dropped killed even want consider dropping choice have amazing friend group even tried hard go along every event every event smile funny go majorly way help get around everything wanted city theyre exchange students ended ditching me tell amount times id crying eyes out talking jumping window full blown panic attack moments headed them nothing excluded plans never replied messages calls but regularly talked group chat ate without we live hall things without constantly quite rude times happy call overly cautious paranoid acted anxiety no didnt know anxiety depression thats fucking shitty thing say anyways trying hard brave expect anything life honestly dont seems matter fucking hard try im piece shit one really likes enjoys around dead friends people life actually care would much better off feel like alien something wrong im different connect anyone im indifferent death im becoming cold fucking hate it ill never good close friends partner future thats possible me big part wants get better going years reasons anyways get better grow old cant even shit remember loved ones bust ass get degree thats gonna get salary thats snatched taxes constantly pussyfoot around others im terrified offending them spend every second life living like this keep going family worst days brain convinces want die ease burden care someone mental illness not true family amazing fucking believe anyways two questions said consider dropping uni this second time do really go back live six hours away folks tiny room friends people rely on im depressed suicidal good idea let folks convince staying home six months finally anyone give reason keep going one fucking reason would enough keep fighting good fight guys,1 +may sound dumb want dio run fade blonde bastard killed dog ruined love jonathan erina i think im starting season one fight stand stone mask know imma die imma it would prefer fight mask stand,0 +thats id sum up said naked gun meets james bond think mine accurate im neutral point o br br this movie kind blast past reminds old movies from s s thats plays time period exact flashback exception mood movie made shows screen main actor who ive told popular homeland france perfect role here hes spy number attached him one character sums movie asking question hes good see watch movie br br very funny indeed like spies mixed comedy old school flair taking anything else matter seriously need watch this o,0 +best way commit redflag,1 +dont want feel way anymorei keep flipping depressed feeling absolutely nothing dont want feel way anymore first appointment get psychiatrist wont march dont know last long im give everything depressed could handle that life numb nothingness feeling whats breaking down dont know anymore,1 +want out feelings coming backhello everyone know name justin vent family treated nicely past couple years able handle heartache stress caused me started loving carefree family mom got addicted prescription medication went hell pretty quickly mom got super addicted them started stealing them using dads credit cards believe maxed forced bankruptcy used money ever had going high school time beaten mom emotionally abused told oh cant tell anyone take away oh want put jail keep straight face go school like nothing ever wrong keep bottled up hidden inside like dirty secret met would shocked thinking truly normal family normal family monster secrets though normal routine high school same get get dressed get yelled beaten go school sat hours trying make good grades trying listen teacher thoughts god want go home today gonna find overdosed floor get home got home shed asleep would cook clean psychically take bed drugged rinse repeat dad back watching tv ignoring me ignoring situation anyone talked would fighting yelling done everyday day long every high school year age present remember finally broke down weekend gone per usual buying drugs year old kid trying damnedest make happy cleaning entire house cooking big meal waiting dinner time come around started cooking thinking perfect time done made happy made love this well got half way cooking accidentally spilled went got burned remember snapped inside started crying floor mental wreck saying freak freak god ever deserve even though looking back fault instant got right back dried tears fixed entire dinner second time got home right appreciate it love dinner took long preparing trying make happy said nothing house said would better cooked dinner end rope trust broken selfesteem shattered everywhere left broken remain former self next day panic attack panic attacks whole week assuming dying watched laughed criticized saying faking get outta school started cutting felt human control darkness creeped behind though start feeling suicidal way out day shoes like currently still like years old graduated high school take get permit go job interviews broken wreck year period self harmed started again days clean today but feel like things going dark going numb cold monster inside like slowly going insane sad really know whats happening know insane crazy making dream like knowing theres going wreck happens suicidal thoughts back want confide friend jeff loving caring knows situation know self harm suicidal thoughts worried scare him let know guys girls think know long ass post get out appreciate read it,1 +lot easier people cry someone funeral ask going every while imagine would answer anything standard i fine one wants hear loneliness existential dread realised something,1 +teensy bit horny okay lied ive horny day posting would tell im bored,0 +someone please wish happy birthdayim worst birthday ever ive celebrating whole day bc nobodys home feel fucking alone right now lmao didnt even get hear happy birthday today fuck feel like crying something really stupid rn mean definitely isnt hoped th birthday go welp guess someone please wish happy birthday feel least little bit happy today would kinda mean world,1 +got link survey sexual intercourse frequency quarantine lmao u guys r sex id lucky even see gf february ,0 +reason dont wanna kill myselfis dont wanna make dad grandmother sad already going lot break heart hard im done everything gave trying nothing ever works me failed,1 +one acquaintances came todayi walking school happened pass asked hey man doing gave typical answer doing okay jokingly replied saying only okay well least hate everything want kill yourself haha know respond gave kind nervous laugh little know,1 +guess whos friends homophobic hell mine yet come feels fucking great knowing anything homosexuality,0 +saw movie night sleep loved searched find would again probably best movie ever seen time even cast full people never seen seems like real life story based nyc kind movie elevates viewing pleasure see it hear feel it moment saw wirey drinking beer watching game imagined must like grow without father many lines movie use daily basis like the personal alone time bathroom drinking beverage great film,0 +were stumbling around together unformed world whose rules objectives largely unknown seemingly indecipherable even possibly nonexistent always verge killed forces understand says ted pikul film people sums life existenz probably film existence real unreal tell difference not last line film superbly ambiguousbr br the film seems like shaggy dog story indeed real shaggy dog it takes along interesting ride full provocative cronenberg touches make look amphibians game pods fish spines bones new light bits quite icky takes place rural setting gas station called gas station chinese restaurant called chinese restaurantthe film engrossing texture leagues away usual big budget science fiction movieyou read many things film repays watching oncebr br the main actors jude law ok jennifer jason leigh great roles suit talented actor good role like unmatchable unconventional beauty fascinating voice suits part allegra looks great short black skirt too familiar actors given much do looks good sounds good howard shore score complements film well cronenberg possibly alfred hitchcock scifihorror genre matter film makes always worth watching,0 +anyone know pills overdose die little pain possible sorry english bad help overdosing,1 +whats problem tornadoes hurricanes america like bitch build house bricks concrete obviously wooden fucking house gonna stay together never heard three little piggies,0 +town mph wind rn watched streetlight fall semi tip side got learners permit today woooo ,0 +messaged crush wish luck bois filler filler filler filler,0 +yes horror anthology film lot fun thats although film clearly horror stories light spiritand even occasionally laughs bad thing sometimes horror films bit stuffy overly serious four stories pretty good one better movies style seenbr br the unifying theme connects story house itself four different stories involve people either rent home investigate happened tenantsbr br the first segment starred denholm elliott horror writer writers block so change scenery rent house almost immediately elliotts block vanishes works steadily tale serial killer amazingly soon block vanishes begins actually see fictional character again psychotic killer appears disappearsmaking seem losing mind might best stories nice twist ending makes story come alivebr br the second bad all probably weakest peter cushing plays bachelor pining girl friend died time ago though picture looked amazingly contemporary enters chamber horrors wax museum town sees wax figure reminds lost lady fascinated scared this later friend joss ackland visits he too sees figure entranced it leads ending that frankly bit letdownbr br christopher lee stars incredibly harsh stern father pathetic little girl segment lee seemed like idiot end understand demeanor though slow one ended wellbr br the fourth segment silliest meant parody genre jon pertwee the third doctor dr television series temperamental actor known portrayals dracula however nothing right film according fit pique stomps set find better props vampire film actually pretty interesting played role seemed like natural christopher lee played dracula vampires bazillion times give take few enjoyed pertwees line basically said lees recent incarnations dracula crap compared bela lugosis perhaps lee take part despite silly moments entertaining funpossibly good better first segmentbr br considering film started ended well excellent acting writing hard like film,0 +wait judge ironically killed family free go,0 +regret starting print d printer going piii bu bzzz next hours,0 +forget milk cereal first yall wash hair body first actually bothering youd better answer correctly,0 +least painful way diecant anymore dont want really painful,1 +im hate life know might seem like every stupid year old kid ive suicidal since would go kitchen late night reenact would slit throught rare dont suicidal thoughts feel like im waste air one loves want im bad school everyone sees failure idk last post reddit good night reddit,1 +world sadim fuckinghurting yall years torment abuse years healing shit alone years always alone get better better im fucking step program im even addicted drugs alcohol though true guess addicted something im fucking trying feel sadness look universe begging hope see pain injustice cant escape im either going die protest maybe death meaning im gonna blow worthless brains end dayfuck life worth this,1 +one best romantic classicteen deviyaan film selecting among equals soft emotionlovethis simple story middle class man came limelight poetic talent charming personality attracted towards three women vice versa one hindi movie star second rich lady third lives neighborhoodbr br the situation put confusion decide one life partnerhe asked days themultimately goes astrologer asked loves mosthis confusion came know lady living neighborhood really cares loves true lovedevanand played lead character fully justified contemporary romantic image,0 +escape fron thismy family believe therapy siblings thinks worthless nowhere go help faraway want end end it,1 +tell someone want dieive suicidal thoughts pretty much everyday past years somehow im still mostly cant boyfriend love much dont know tell im extremely suicidal person breaks least week wishing could take miracle death pill weve dating years knows depression dont think knows bad is feel like cant tell bc die blame knowing cant burden another person anyone relate here dont need convincing stay alive bc im afraid end rn need advice this,1 +silly putty implies serious putty,0 +farewell friend aka adieu lamihonour among thieves perfect neat entertaining thriller sees mismatched demobbed french algerian war veterans alain delon charles bronson trapped basement vault one return stolen bonds clean two million wages sitting christmas weekend naturally things quite simple even open vault leading neat twists turns debit side theres bizarre striptease scene car park bronson irritating fonzielike catchphrase uses inopportune moments brigitte fossey sporting perhaps hideously misconceived hairstyle s it makes look like bald woman whose wig blown back top head high wind something liability ill cook spaghetti ill learn make love well ill read shakespeare speech hysterical wrong ways shame horrible last lineshot otherwise surprisingly entertaining unpretentious number thats worth checking find decent printbr br cinema clubs uk dvd offers english soundtrack since delon voices rest cast fairly well dubbed thats great problem especially since widescreen transfer pretty good quality,0 +anyone hereim sure begin ill start now mother advanced lung cancer step father intellectual incapacities shows word wrong im getting paranoid it im alright everything need someone talk to thoughts self harm redflag thanks,1 +one beautiful moving thought provoking films around good family entertainment time makes think hard issues involved every time see ghost zac riding bike puddle end cant help cry eyes out john thaws performance touching shame longer us gone forgotten outstanding film full marks,0 +whoever says pokemon stupid die movie superlative even shead tear celebei died cry much film touching animated thriller br br in fourth installment pokemon ash friends must stop bad jerk making celebei ultimate evil weapon dark ball time sam celebei travel time continuously hunted game hunters like part double battle sam apricorn pokeball if played pokemon gold silver crystal know isbr br i also enjoyed miramax charge instead warner brothers putting mini movie end great idea pokemon movie come life ever,0 +whats point fighting pain die eventuallyi cant take pain anymore,1 +ive seen many dustin hoffmans movies like straw dogs rain man liked them characters much often calm even shy persons expected movie straw dogs saw totally different person much energetic film kinda reminded al pacino serpico movie interesting beginning end liked way dustin hoffmans character ready everything stay son movie also revealing personally think shows people learn find compromise self without involving people issue,0 +know im going itim going stab taking beautiful view park near live ill start day breaking shit boyfriend ill tell ex cheated her feed favourite foods ill make sure day talked said goodbye friends ill want ill go want ill tell person ive liked years like them then ill go park ill sit one boardwalks its empty night impale myself ill get high fuck it pain problem ill let bleed out ill throw knife water want die ,1 +u guys ever post thirst traps fun like dont even wanna talk anyone ill post occasional thirst trap instagram tiktok feel something,0 +ill keep briefi sexually assaulted last wednesday night want die,1 +cool no why oh understandable pancakeshttpsyoutubeykgqxk_vau watch cringe compilation httpsyoutubebxutezexm playing minecraft httpsyoutubejla_wo fortnite httpsyoutube_avikzo_mq cosplayinghttpsyoutubeegcyymdone overall nerd httpsyoutubeqblhs_jyui talking chemistry physics httpsyoutubeykhwqxcyhi numbers stuff sunrisehttpsyoutubemieiumm seahttpsyoutubedmjgicv_tn show gamer jackethttpsyoutubebmpclhxoxu schoolhttpsyoutubezyugkduz tried killing httpsyoutubekvpkivtboro supposed beautiful dayhttpsyoutubevywpveahapg,0 +bought rope againthe ropes thin though long could cut pieces braid it even know im posting here waste time,1 +im drowning selfloathingim fucking stupid ridiculous literally intelligent thought process goes head given time cant well exams fucking basic even monkey them everyone fucking thinks shit easy dont think makes stupid im god damn stupid im blight upon humanity deserve die hate stupid anyone put misery wish one ever believed keep disappointing people realise im really loser life everyone thinks smart actually biggest fucking piece shit ever sully earth someone please help feel like hyperventilating fucking time think im going die soon,1 +im gonna kill tonightim done feeling pain world collapsing dreams dying family members dying im debt lost car lost job goodbye world,1 +re im losing mindthis supposed response post just deleted think freshly posted received responses the post user seem deleted middle typing response anyhow original poster still reddit reading i hope so quick response alone peak hours right people probably asleep its am california right now im best person offer advice since im quite lost depressed state situation exactly i guess nobody really exact situation i too struggle am feel like ive become enemy people say cant let depression define you im struggling see line drawn anyhowsorry cant offer better words encouragement wanted say alone,1 +went run rained hard shirt soaked white shirt thank god wearing bra even though bright pink embarrassing like check weather going run,0 +deleting sat scores httpsyoutubembqdxcfuehttpsyoutubembqdxcfue,0 +update last post tried talk mom headache soon broached subject ig well try tomorrow lazy check basically hour long mental breakdown prolly undiagnosed bipolar,0 +days great days want kill myselfive attempted redflag once took roxycodone pills xanax klonopin drank half bottle nyquil half bottle dayquil know im explaining but yeah now sometimes day like morningafternoon great night get depressed want kill myself one day ill happy next ill want kill myself happen cant happy always gonna nagging thought fuck up right kill first time,1 +rented movie without heard or read anything it shame movie intelligent witty hilarious fastpaced realistically ridiculous characters manage get developed without relying heavily clichd tired stereotypes refreshing watch help thinking marketing would helped lob notsomainstream movie starvedforintelligentcomedy mainstream quality dialogue ease actors execute huge range awkwardness heartbreak comedy rare daysi felt actors must really enjoyed participating something rich national treasure number one box office three weeks rowit weak many ways mention guess im happy movies like seeing still made somewhere there,0 +im bored ask whatever httpsimgurcomaghpjev dms open want im m,0 +need advice ive wanted date someone two years started talking now tell feel last years keep mouth shut,0 +wish people caredim guy im ive cleft lip whole life made depressed ive actually tried kill couple times it enough courage anymore baby sister im scared life could affected death right feel alone nobody life seems care friends want around make depressed parents mock tried commit redflag think problems typical adults understand passing someone hallway school makes shake im nervous anything productive know nobody permanently help feel better ive always thought back head girlfriend a girl loved was would happy always makes feel extremely guilty everyone tells worry first also doesnt everyone want relationship makes special guess im posting here hopefully nobody say that think thing could help even girl hugged me would make happy long time year ago got hug girl best thing ever joke nobody cares tried times actually know many spent many many months talking girls absolute best patient respectful nice mention depression feel like thats best could do girls even want talk me confidence left embarrassing like said everyone tells im young nothing worry about friends call bitch bit emotional thing done made everyone else happier shutting saying nothing want shut good,1 +playing much games summer quarantine realised cop ambulance vehicles minutes hearing sirens front building,0 +get gf supportive lmao ampxb processing img mkazzfkdi,0 +homelessness like chronic illnessgonna homeless again time expect happen fifth count bunch stuff money storage friends help move did thinking selling ending shit im built paycheck paycheck lifestyle breaking cycle poverty seems impossible wanna leave bed cause going long time till one again,1 +tips better confidence hello need advice confident less shy really sure else say,0 +found cockroaches bed one closet get rid them someone actually help im terrified cockroaches im go bed two climbing crack bed do im going sleep couch bc im genuinely terrified,0 +theres guy thats dick day long wont say names thats rules usually jojosomething theyre shitty person fuckoffdickhead,0 +dont want live anymoreim literally friends since years old im pretty sure mild quiet form bpd also pretty sure social anxiety avoidance personality disorder both im fucking lonely ive always people talk work school ends soon walk door people talk outside work right grandparents mom siblings online friend talked time eventually got tired clingy annoying cut off im lonely physically hurts hate myself cry sleep night wake crying morning dont want anymore,1 +girl school said ugly eyes idea means regular dark brown eyes anyone tell means someone tells youyou ugly eyes least let know im ugly,0 +hi guys story wrote english assignment tell think warning story quite dark standards vaguely mentions physical abuse enjoy the solution ampxb opened eyes didnt help couldnt see thing jolt fear ran me gone blind blinked times slowly could see vague shapes around me tried peer ahead fog gloom impeding vision saw appeared barren desolate muddy wasteland rotting trees looming beside me looked could see sun stars moon dark blanket clouds floating menacingly head descend upon crush me felt holding strange stick right hand looked hand realized wasnt holding stick knife sharp dagger precise dripping blood flung ground shock wiped blood hand onto pants frantically looked around me confused got hold weapon then second thought saw something ground little fog hand walked closer towards mysterious object yes hand hand whole body small girl lay ground arms legs splayed out couldnt older covered blood eyes wide open still unmoving horror staggered away body turned ran stopped again blood bodies piling top other ran again everywhere went found bodies still unmoving finally stopped dropped knees bodies around me felt like suffocating me knees saw dagger again done this could possible become monster slid ground prayed over suddenly huge thunderstrike sounding like gunshot woke sleep wait dream seemed real thought breathed huge sigh relief then almost took back looked around me remembering true reality situation sat up looking far wall bland dark stained wall looked around me walls looking almost identical felt cramped like walls closing me small dim light hanging ceiling home mind wandered thinking got horrible situation brought head take surroundings far end room could see tiny kitchenette appliances sitting bench gathering dust contrast wall behind almost sparkled dim light dozen knives stuck magnetic wall shining bright full moon glimpsed peeking small ivycovered window looking knives brings sense comfort took back childhood collecting knives hobby id spend hours cleaning them sharpening them arranging them escape outside world knife dream too didnt bring comfort felt uneasy almost scared might done kind fear ive feeling since childhood pushed feet walked unsteadily small alcove bathroom facilities were used sleeve sweatstained black hoodie wipe dust mirror peer mirror see holloweyed disheveled stranger staring vacantly back me let become creature staggered shower stripping clothes letting fall onto tiled floor turned water showerhead stuttered spit water out slow first strong flow water hit me stepped back weakened body unprepared sudden impact spray leaned spray temporarily enjoying feeling clean water running hair onto body water splashed onto face remember couldnt breathe greasy palms pressing neck grabbing hair muffled laughter barrier water separating us water continues flow crumple floor head hands flashbacks getting frequent still much done many lives saved innocents needed protection would protector never had needed finish project hair still damp dripped like blood dream shook away impatiently rubbed bloodshot eyes almost finished connected last wires carefully sealed glowing capsule inside airtight lead casing could fulfill purpose could save everyone inevitable pain anguish suffering life brings heaved sigh relief first time months allowed small smile linger haggard face took knife rack strapped side would need hands work first time months eased open door cringed loud creak checked hallway furtively one there dragged burden hallway grimacing unaccustomed weight arrived set creation pressed button done everyone free clutched knife close chest waited doubt lingered late go back become,0 +im giving self monthsidk wanna die ya want live anymore nothing except tears months things change ill livei think anything changei friends really know wanti want anyone im scared human beings every human good actorfake emotions family miss fine happy later on ok heres im posting what three months im anyway gonna die wanna experience stuffhelp out,1 +belong worldi never begin withim tired ive actively passively suicidal since years young thinking taking out want end violent disturbing life was growing up want one find me somewhere forests montana lake colorado always wanted move think thats ill find sort peace love nature ive ever loved anything entire life want surrounded die want given back earth put stupid box thrown ground gift come earth would bring last bit peace able give back it im sorry cant shit more,1 +misfits military school hmmmm sounds funny maybe offensive some characters there arab thief sex crazy teen smart mouth pot smoker forget guy burns things throw strict nonsense sergent homosexual sergent one sexy ammunition teacher makes one crazy film adventurebr br i seen film funny comedy revolved around fact try work together things get donebr br these band misfit students weinberg military school placed because sgt liceman quotes because outcasts embarrassments families communities disgraces one ralph macchios earlier performances karate kid cousin vinny appearances barbara bach well film appeals teens young adultsbr br great soundtrack keeps film moving,0 +tiredi stupid amount money owed various places owed council due fact flatmate initially failed declare tax exemption court hearing said owed money th sept divorcing parents tearing whole family setup farewell abusive husband father mother me flatmate leaving go live someone else expected happen growing tired living could tell hard find work chosen career depression impedes efforts work times have tired feeling dull constant ache throbbing feels being nearly breaking middle supermarkets unable tell people around feel would gladly cease existence oh yes mind long wish around deal aftermath mother stepfather friends such aftermath would horrible note would fix anything brothers sisters fill place know feeling death another leaves open wound empty bare could die affect noone would lovely im throwing hands air shouting one last fuck you jumping front oncoming train want go quietly night nothing more,1 +so look like eboy chromosomes gave curtains shit look like tiktok eboy time get bullied,0 +phrase describe far a series unfortunate events probably goes world thought worst years ever might bad years,0 +please helpthere several thesehttpwwwthinkgeekcomproductbtabs hidden inside house keeps night seriously cant take more nobody takes seriously unable locate them longer hear direction coming several,1 +planned redflag todayi idea anybodys actually going read this know im posting ive tried everything medication help therapy help thought relationship would make happy thought getting dog would make happy thought moving would make happy nothing changed exception brief periods actively wanting die feel like live everything ive done others others done me ive made many mistakes knew could start over would heartbeat cant theres changing ive done think shoulder burden anymore went every option available overdose asphyxiation even shooting myself honestly put thought dinner friday deserve something quick something painless needs hurt deserve hurt happen read this thank you hope better spot right now,1 +new here need helphi guys sorry im breaking rules but ive thinking redflag alot dont think act could ever do family friends etc im dark place need someone anonymous talk to please help,1 +soul mateim years old nearing ive praying death year now always felt like never good enough older brother always better everything parents seemed love always felt like dissapointment got uni met girl fell madly love get insanely well would anything her person makes feel like normal person im away feels like theres nothing left me completes makes feel whole boyfriend really nice guy would get really well way treats makes despise him always late everything unorganized past laughable asked go meal old friends ex recently got engaged girl love want go persisted agreed blew friends go him tells her long shift work go something get known weeks understandably angry went home got pjs meal family finished phoned told meal asked was phone comforting her upset angry said would see evening turned turned hours later said would said apologise would take breakfast late too still forgave him also took girl wanted sleep before see girl loves favourite play theatre understandably upset this somehow convinced unreasonable im always one comfort boyfriend whatever wants everything im left nothing ive desire death met girl found felt human since ive comforted boyfriend many times desire death never greater reason write now help found felt incredibly sad promised would stay around long needed boyfriend visiting since arrived barely says word feel use finally run out stuck girl described worst year life often referred rock always tried hardest make happy put smile face boyfriend long distance relationship btw tried make situation people made feel awful better made worse often forgets consider hard tried last year her continually mentions boyfriend perfect glandular fever thats hard says looked grim glandular fever saw pictures still looked beautiful glorifies everything feel like im becoming worth less less seem need anymore feel getting closer closer redflag even boss work realised something up know do want end,1 +leaving people behindi cant talk stuff anywhere may kill get goal weight want live loose skin disgusting want repulsive unlovable covered rashes wrinkles infections want least achieve goal die see need see scale buy gun time worried people upset die love enough want stick around want hurt all sad sure leave note idea plan this feel sad imagine poor niece missing me confused friends mom husband hope cool okay it just case anyone reads this no money surgery yes even another country,1 +tw moroccan sucide hotline number hhey hey name rayna need help please ive feeling pretty weak mentally physically past last months time would try vent family would simply ignore saying its phase growing up simply took away phone thinking letting talk friends eventually try vent them am writing small message laptop sucide slf hrm mental illnesses are sadly really taboo thing country concidered haram since moroccan people closedminded would like moroccan sucide hotline number even tho doubt theres one thanks taking time read im really sorry possible spelling mistakes english first language im still trying improve,0 +sister reached decision get married guy i say im bi im wearing bridal gown sister going go dress shopping together look fabulous bridal gown,0 +lights new york first alltalking feature film been course jazz singer released oct first feature film incorporating synchronized dialog however film released july virtually unremembered place film history started short gradually tacked clocking minutes accidentally became first alltalking feature film opened grind house run warner bros surprise made million dollars good money back br br the plot quite simple two country barbers naively buy barber shop broadway fronts speakeasy the hawk gangster learn truth cant afford get out younger barber eddie mothers money tied place kitty younger barbers girlfriend gangster hawk wheeler oakman eye turning older girlfriend gladys brockwell newer model chorus girl kittyhelene costello cop killed trying stop hawks men unloading shipment bootleg liquor hawk sees opportunity frame eddie thus getting kitty himselfbr br this early talkie loads fun enthusiast pioneering works sure plot elementary dialog stilted something see much early talkies background musical scoring vitaphone originally used purpose still using musical accompaniment along dialog singing dancing numbers scenes hawks nightclub used opportunity show films could never musical numbers even wildeyed emcee heavy makeup left silent era hoot watchbr br vitaphone could go outdoors point due static camera booths scene park two lovers eddie kitty simulated cheaply greenery looks like something ed wood movie perhaps high school production our town br br gladys brockwell hawks castoff girlfriend delivers lines punch real trooper considering lines deliver hawk so think chicken want throw back deck huh mixed metaphors anyone final lines ive lived ive loved ive lost someone get paid write dialog brockwell making good success talkie career scoring triumphs silent films the evil sister seventh heaven fatal car accident cut career shortbr br then eugene palette older two barbers story frog voice natural delivery lines cuddly appearance gave long career character actor usually appearing putupon family manbusinessman gruff exterior heart gold fact mr palette member cast still notable career films three years movie releasedbr br finally question where microphone hidden microphones still stationary point fun figure theyve hidden it one famous scene though everybody pretty much figure out hawk office talking two henchman seem comprehend slowly talk taking eddie ride watch scene swear phone desk character film front center whole conversation microphone likely planted phonebr br there something heroic pioneers flying blind face new technology sound silent actors accustomed using pantomime expression vaudevillians know play live audience know make impression vitaphone camera booth dialog writers either trying write conversation compactly title cards filling films endless chatter br br check one out boring moves fast loads fun know look for no expect one ever bluray hope folks warner brothers add warner archive soon everyone see it,0 +know might feeling many relate to depression less half life due many different factors things happened throughout lifei used drink alcohol quite frequently even smoke lot weed however quit things completely couple months ago another journey itselfi knew indulging different substances make highdrunk pushed feelings redflag depression aside making disappear forgetting moment came back last couple months completely facing shit unable or say unwilling escape means constantly feeling want cry time little feeling want let floods real got much tension inside know potential would feel much better afterwards time feel empty cannot cry matter hard try feels like emotions somehow trapped deep inside me would need terrible reason able let go pressure instead letting go getting rid it keeps staying is really frustrating want cry cannot,1 + height reveal,0 +ive finally realized somethingfirst all ill apologize errors post submitting mobile doubt many people read anyway im sure im apologizing im even bothering put throwaway nevertheless ive battling severe depression anxiety past eight years now selfharm selfhate like job recently admit needed help finally decided medicate myself intensify feelings ive increasingly paralyzing panic attacks self mutilating almost every day since hate feeling like this honestly like remember like genuinely happy thats realized really want earth anymore yes amazing support system theyre thing keeping here im years old ill graduating college soon ive heart broken truly believe im worth loved hate see every single day look mirror im unpopular even lonely im tired sad time ive missed classes count want get go life thing holding ending knowing badly would hurt others guess ill continue hurt means hurting end im loss guess im really looking answer sort needed let out,1 +try kill real according cruel ultimatumi mean yeah like heavily depends future look like anyways whether not know follow ultimatum still shit might hit fan yeah guess ill happen i hope course,1 +every time happier feel sadder feel after hate feeling happy feels foreign,1 +im probably going kill myself months ago fiance years overjoyed find pregnant told everyone right away weeks later got argument wedding plans threatened get abortion begged to week went snow trip work friends came back told wanted get abortion told got abortion calling wedding would never see again got pregnant intentionally hormones going crazy felt jerked around left night come back week went crazy got hit hard hormones got upset one night punched face hard could several times hungry would reduce tears one thing place sent rage even told one woman pulled close car would rip limb limb violent person im even mean person ive worked customer service entire adult life people would general call really friendly warm person knew pregnancy hormones help it boobs hurting gained lbs crying time fiance asshole meanwhile gotten horrible job hated commuting hours get to get healthcare another months applied dshs denied poverty line found pregnant shitty fiance shitty job healthcare then seemed like stroke luck time got fired practically danced door knowing qualified prenatal care thought apparently working long enough get unemployment prenatal care job fiance healthcare own finally decided pony money ultrasound determined baby fine shockingly calm voice said wed like talk termination shocked thought sure saw baby would change mind said that sort choked know do felt cornered hopeless even job healthcare would own took pills loneliest feeling world told hed stay go work left me bad reaction pills nearly died alone shower ill never forget cold felt awful giant clots blood matter falling me hot water hitting would turn cold got drain body temperature low walk able alert neighbor using nearby broom bang ceiling drove er spent days hospital going home sans baby sans boyfriend sans job sans dignity supposed tell everyone o nevermind know whole were getting married baby well no were not bring it lied told everyone miscarriage still together decided table getting married but explain weve broken up would people break miscarriage meanwhile income help hormones flux think spent first week drunk bed literally leave bed days time even moved liqour bedroom go kitchen finally one night felt good enough go went local bar friend everyone shocked see drinking tell everyone lost it got drunk night went home drank whole bottle wine bottle vicodin bottle benedryl bottle nyquil sometime next night realized back hospital neighbor drove er cd gotten stuck playing came check me got home saw apartment covered vomit blood nyquil literally smeared walls weak clean spent another two weeks bed mother got ticket visit san francisco pretty okay time there really made point trying make nice me mother done pretty shitty things past really saint ways spared expense got massages went pony rides even signed musical therapy class there went bars restaurants parties drank smoked pot went dancing felt lot better got home took week got home little things like cleaning apartment trying make little attempts getting life back tried go dshs get assistance told qualify counseling wanted tell want die think redflag time really going it want take ride ambulance agreed went home got home sat stared matting razors hour pounding beer beer crying miss baby wanted want killed hands feel like monster hate want die want die no really want die seriously cant stand living knowing happened want kill myself mother says severe post partum depression im sure right hormones hit hard but think ive always way never good enough excuse really til now teenager used cut long used self mutilate ways think deep always hated life always hated myself hated child sense helplessness ignorance shame came it hated teenager like child aware shitty everything theres still nothing it ive liked adult part least since but im turning year lost fiance since baby job ambition hope dreams life is over mean say life known it life ive ever wanted gone forever theres getting back always shrouded decaying memory this believe afterlife im going get see baby again believe im going go other side want go dirt never come back hate breathing hate eating hate wiping ass hate knowing me cant bring even look work even want job want die think time dominates everything do already tried oding work im afraid cutting wrists messy im afraid wont work whoever finds find huge gruesome pool blood think im going drive ocean jump cliffs want make sure theres remains time end coming back another apartment full blood vomit nyquil theres nothing left here theres reason pretending like everything going okay turn around tomorrow im going find good job one everyone keeps telling ill pregnant time know know were broken up disaster im disaster failed first attempt havent tried yet days think wont mean think lot think id actually every get screw loose think may it may depends much drink may drink enough ill get courage done ,1 +failed everything matters mei want complete waste life end fucking stupid euthanasia illegal here would give money blow every god damn person company way kill painlessly,1 +believe it want pull trigger cant deal knowing unknown ahead time fucked lolive reading posts forum past weeks breaks heart time get weird feeling comfort knowing one wants commit redflag planning redflag quite based many different events happened life feel really want go it bought gun new sig mm legion guess want go style also want make sure bullet maximum destruction ive read enough human anatomy base brain know want aim gun practiced putting gun mouth pulling trigger however cant get brain accept real bullet condition able pull trigger think im afraid happens next tell next basically nothingness exist anymore thought seems illogical cant comprehend nonexistence anyone else problems way getting past instinctive need survive thanks readinglistening,1 +join discord server chats homework venting hobbies memes gaming politics if that music etc dm interested,0 +tell friendsthrowaway account reasons met vast majority friends internet kill im sure theyd ever know title says tell im killing let slowly forget me,1 +hows everyone checkpoint dont forget save,0 +spoilers aheadbr br it really unfortunate movie well produced turns bebr br such disappointment thought full silly clichs andbr br that basically tried hard br br to american guys there many spend yourbr br time jumping girlfriends bed making monkeybr br sounds married girls many suddenlybr br gone prudes nymphos overnightbut yourbr br husband french would really ask someonebr br being la fac know speak french wouldntbr br you use common word like universit br br i lived france sort know understandbr br europe and love it german roommate found thisbr br pretty insulting overall looked like movie funded thebr br european parliament tried hard basically allbr br sorts differences tried tie together not bad thing inbr br itself result best awkward fact ridiculoustoobr br many clashes really happen end thebr br moviethe last minutesruined rest xavierbr br talk erasmus students meets back paris doesbr br he walk off run away job thatbr br freedom end new europe supposed rest onbr br a bunch people smoke shag day whatbr br its made of br br besides acting pretty horrible cant believe judithbr br godrches role acting made look likebr br emanuelle bart much first thought xavier ok butbr br with retrospect think pretty bad br br and thats really bad technically opening creditsbr br scenes hes asking papers needs reallybr br good except sound editing around british siblings thebr br soundtrack great too form good contentbr br pretty horrible,0 +anyone else ssris feeling like completely blocked creative thinking might coincidence creativity really bad now like cant think things anymoreim prozac btw,0 +inb no trans feel way could choose gender would get birth would love one want die gender,1 +nobody believes ill itive decided give life school relationship girlfriend going shit told ive tried kill thought college thought joking told itd okay went last night told scared losing drifting apart scared felt way girl told thatd wed talk tomorrow stopped talking halfway night still read messages think make day,1 +internet service provider isp make long story short one access isp know u use incognito mode still keeps ur history must figure access plz cox helps all thank you,0 +lets sing songs d comments song title replies lyrics please cooperate ,0 +anyone thoughts this get suicide ideation comes mind benzoheroin od,1 +reasons liveall reasons live people husband son mum sisters best friend none meant walk life them push them weight fact feels like cant breathe,1 +counts redflag attemptif someone take like mg ibuprofen even knew wouldnt kill knew dangerous body weight would count redflag attempt would like self destructive behaviour self harm,1 +found ammo box no messing around drugs knives actually kill now best part missed anyone,1 +redflag planon throwaway account cause cant find post main acc probably time ill post anyway could write whole books worth stuff theres really anytime explain ive set certain intervals time likely end attempting redflag im planning day day im giving years see kind change im pretty sure ill kick bucket cant explain feel life isnt inherently bad im good health mentally cant find anything good myself beat constantly one world cares all im saying cause refuse open anyone longer expect anything good bad happen go motions dont tell anyone feel hold everything hate appearing weak even though im trying hard man try hard stoic void feelings eats soul none friends give shit me dont know anyone irl know one girl every time tried talk gave advice always hear understand itll get better basically means nothing boyfriend sometimes take kind meaningful interaction someone shes normally phone im blabbering idiot nothing offer wish instead understand someone would would instead try lend hand meet me talk me ask day nope redflag becomes tantalizing world disconnected shit im caught middle one would care left it people never say anything face moment die theyll go oh great guy sycophants post social media look like good person im invisible everyone thats price pay existing really want get better somewhere me light follow really hope doesnt come taking well might,1 +whole body hurts head feels swollen chronic pain combined panic attacks depression mix probably going loose job help kids bullying making videos comparing head egg jesus christ feel worthless cannot keep,1 +kinda obvious im hereive dealing bipolar depression years best friend killed around year half ago ive talked mom lot since seeing suffer knowing mom would suffer similarly killed thing preventing it sometimes feel like pressure ironically causes additional duress edit really know im posting here im sitting room alone guess want feel less lonely thoughts bit jumbled turned drugs reddit seeking help,1 +hello want feel less lonely server need you yes you pm link also say frog sent me please really need this lgbt friendly,0 +kyrei eleison ego defeceruntalea iacta est die cast please understand present wish subdued it written letter wanted write little girl decision final she everyone else better without taint regrets adding another failure huge pack sorrow everyone might give damn failing little girl seeing grow up man love babe much reason message ask simple wish thank you thank letting part community this cannot say owe let acta sopa pipa form cencorship prevail keep internet alive free yourselves children future fight bitter end reddit chan gag memebase win cyber war believe all thank you oh small ps favourite movie whos afraid virginia woolf check out roles richard burton elizabeth taylor planted transcend every movie comes today,1 +would guys interested watching like minutes videos forza horzion like first boss response comments filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0 +anime year good swear animes point year,0 +fuck full beard bold defined eyebrows blond hair blue eyes strong jawline big dick athletic still virgin meet western beauty standards men goes show looks everything,0 +im drunkhow vreatve help idk breathw drankw lor od alcohol pleasehelo cant breathe k cant breathe help e,0 +cant get aheadits secret problems pile up grow grow successes quickly fade problem one deal sits there finally fixed cant remember last time ahead problems immediate worries issues future ability plan it prepare instead problem problem lost job little two years ago ive keep head water problems pile up teeth rotten ive unable buy anything relax enjoy like movie video game moms tv broke cant help computer broke phone finally job bit budgeting start improve get tooth pulled save new computer hell maybe one better old one finally get ahead car moms car broke fifty three love her needs taken care of me walk work car jobs forty minutes away needs taken care though working poverty wages whole life one whos taking care past two years stuck payday loans almost four years thought could pay back helping get them maybe help get ahead too piles up cant see end it two incomes poverty wages eventually get cars road eventually get new tv computer occasionally treats along way like video games movies theres hopeful thats nothing goes wrong true two beaters breaking continue run without issue theres accident sudden cancer diagnosis plan get ahead take years much go wrong six months moms entire life already tell going mine too wish librarian fantasy world book shelves ten rows high almost form maze museum section curious artifacts glass containers plaques hours sitting forgotten corner reading book eating lunch thats life wish had instead broken useless self,1 +ever wanted trigger depressionanxiety feel okay little long feel like somethings off itch needs scratched,0 +aita dealing ex girlfriend way didthis whole thing happened seems showed true problems now m started dating old friend rd grade f long distance bother much time sucked able see like young notredflag were something grew around mom military got deployed lot also planning going military week thought bother much would talk phone early hours go school things fine while started acting strange first pay mind right set leave go spend thanksgiving fathers side familybig thing trust mom father mom hated due time military together best friend tells everything going behind back cheated multiple times multiple different guys girls one days birthday rest day before day of day birthday found information sick honestly made upset confused emotions confronted everything huge fight much truly loved girl decided going give second chance believed said would change ended going spending time family honestly overall great time left kind sad moment everything stayed fine while worst part came hit like bus said sent guy photos meaning send genuinely seemed upset apologized it forgave looking back wish ended things found everything her later finds best friend one told everything also forgot mention would tell best friend helped cheating time open relationship found furious called screamed it well asked logins everything gave except one damning all hated going messages time something felt like needed asked give login last piece social media lied saying nothing it oh worse yet come pushed giving login eventually cracked let specifically looking one person deleted messages unadded him well best part go find messages time best friend start scrolling found everything needed screenshot everything messages cheating dates times stamped logs point utterly destroyed especially around time coming prom already bought suit plane ticket out already bought dress hid everything needed evidence needed case tried spin things mefast forward week comes prom feelings period least none like before completely killed side me set forth plane executed almost perfectly flies bring back house things best eyes like nothing wrong guess skill almost whole time darkest times people never knew except best friend well taking prom worst mistake made absolutely ruined me take home days later go take airport leave gets plane cannot talk me blocked everything go contact send everything cheating friends familyreally sent home wanted know exactly kind person daughter friend was cheated ton different guys girls worst part guys friends boyfriends disgusting cousin cheated with went contact found sister tried kill successful simply told problem anymore years later present day seem still bad feelings ended come find dad facebook ended turning okay breakup ended taking life one people left letter told dad sorry lost daughter truly care want letter got upset blew me still haunts me asshole responsible someone taking life sorry long felt like needed give almost whole story left red flags saw sooner change outcome advice would helpful thank taking time read this wrong,1 +sister pro kam sister pro kam do like barely talks dad men thats much hates men,0 +getting worsei used hit head really hard got headaches blurry vision fantasize cutting today threw tantrum scratched arms nails really old best friend dead told rapist fault his wish rapist dead wish new girl friend told rape matter dead happiness makes miserable want kill myself die fault want gone badly hate skin want body back body broken me cant sex without panic attacks cant get aroused easily cant orgasm anymore since started abusing me supportive friends wish dead badly cant keep anymore know im probably going start cutting know thats going lead worse things ive tried get counseling help many times work always tell im depressed refer someone else constant support arms burning much,1 +last visit sonthree years ago wife left taking year old son her parents wealthy money family immediately moved place go family thousand miles away since get days christmastime weeks summer made ultimate mistake trying keep relationship alive friend father summer last ask see okay that man moved far better father figure ever though love ever could decided take last week vacationhe comes weeksand explain mistakes try dad culture shock expects full leniency always visiting friend thing works people children resent you least case resorting this turn teens year old cool friend telling him turning loose surrendering son another man better me boards aircraft tell love him watch plane takeoff head car kiss picture carried key chain since left life beg god watch him ask quarter almighty actions fact believe deserve nothing short hell leave parking lot alive absolutely wanting attention sympathy save one man one long distance father parenting mistakes would worth it kids need parents want parents find friends could stupid cannot step one someone else damn sure will losing child another father something maybe live with cannot pray please good boy got dealt bad dad thank letting tell story,1 +damp garage conversion ruined life need painless way end itwas dpm down dad built rushed ignorant damage caused me years ago used fit healthy confident strong get girls developed awful taste mouth teeth rotting barely breath time stomachs agony everything eat makes worse nothing comes tests get told head tongue always coated nothing gets rid it ive lost friends love life family lived ill months got ignored doctors again got point got angry frustrated much started kicking home got sectioned still toldim deluded put antipsyhcotic drugs came out still nochangestarted kicking sectioned again still help tests still clear family still think im mental got nosupport anyone tried therapy walks treat big detoxes tried spending s health food fitness etc ultimately ive lost everything theres nothing do still kick off im irrationally angry cant keep waking like this ive lost whole personal it mind im still intelligent still aware amo expected live like anymore theres avenues go down,1 +turned rick amp morty high iq copypasta family guy fair high iq understand family guy humour extremely subtle without solid grasp theoretical physics jokes go typical viewers head theres also brian griffins nihilistic outlook deftly woven characterisation personal philosophy draws heavily narodnaya volya literature instance fans understand stuff intellectual capacity truly appreciate depths jokes realise theyre funny say something deep life consequence people dislike family guy truly idiots course appreciate instance humour peters existential catchphrase anything misogynistic towards wife cryptic reference turgenevs russian epic fathers sons im smirking right imagining one addlepated simpletons scratching heads confusion david a goodmans genius wit unfolds television screens fools pity them yes way family guy tattoo no cannot see it ladies eyes only even demonstrate theyre within iq points preferably lower beforehand nothin personnel kid,0 +hate good reason bad things kept happening last year worst one fault girlfriend depressed months got overwhelmed broke worst moment ever since regret fucking day hate myself three weeks break argument blocked again hated even more found covid ive hella worried reached her apologized asked doing fine want hear ever hates hate fucking self would everything fix done see smile fix something like this know do first relationship ever ruined coward find crying everyday yall questions suggestions please let know please go hard me im already broken,0 +finding happiness anythingi happy since girlfriend years broke back ago cannot life find anything makes life worth living really know im trying wish could feel way felt fucking gross incel dude want life back genuinely want stop always miserable theres nothing waiting misery theres nothing pot gold end rainbow want done,1 +mightve eaten live bugs eating look bowl theres fucking half dead bug god felt fucking sick think spat another one bathroom idk ate im scared feel sick im lol edit im scared eat anything rn ive calmed lol,0 +gun redflag questionif killed boyfriends gun would get trouble law im considering option want cause legal problems im gone,1 +whats point living ugly skinny short manlike really point im years old top terrible social skills zero confidence for obvious reasons barely friends never job never girlfriend virgin feel incompetent literally look like year old im certain undiagnosed adhd depression anxiety obvious reasons also eczema asthma atopic dermatitis my scalp eyebrows itch hyperhidrosis thyroid issues plethora food environmental allergies struggle hygiene phimosis a tight foreskin tight frenulum foreskin barely retract try best clean thoroughly smell quite unpleasant times hair gets greasy fucking quickly feet start smell quickly im exactly ugly take care myself would viewed ugly society features compliment other skin part clear high cheekbones chiseled jawline haircut looks good however head small big eyes big nose hump big lips also look horrible smile teeth showing avoid that seems like problems stem ugly short could worse though make suffering better sure things improve life life still fucking suck know need improve life many things want do seems pointless hate course im college im pretty much forced work familys store live them literally dictate life across country even see friends anymore feel weak like alien seriously dealt shitty hand get better see people complain short theyre like fucking short try barely foot literally lose fight year old born attractive eyes society count fucking lucky life seems like endless suffering born attractive talented born rich family genetic lottery also grovel work shitty rest life die drift fantasy world tend dream ideal version appearance wouldve loved have living life likely never able live reality hits im back again ugly short man nobody gives fuck you people say what see instagram facade yeah right people see instagram who even models women men attractive enjoying lives partying travelling constantly updating stories stop trying make feel better even want work normal job as adhd something interest torture life already feels like torture dreams singer even social media star im goodlooking talented enough that hear people age talking partying travelling sorts stuff absolutely nothing understand people care please stop telling us follow suicidal ideations struggles simple getting help especially literally one turn to were still pandemic im actually planning killing myself really would mean hurting family small circle friends have keep telling get better followthrough plans anyone adhd depression know fucking sucks meaningless existence is probably missed stuff life fucking sucks see getting better im lying feel better point,1 +sleep socks onand feel sleeping socks on i tried first time heavy long socks felt really nice woke up benefits according healthline prevent hot flashes women find wearing socks helpful cooling core body temperature improve cracked heels wearing cotton socks moisturize help keep heels drying out increase potential orgasms according the bbchttpsnewsbbccoukhihealthstm researchers accidentally discovered wearing socks increased participants ability achieve orgasm percent decrease chance raynauds attack raynauds disease affected areas skin usually toes fingers lose circulation start throb swell wearing socks night help prevent attack keeping feet warm blood circulating,0 +get k likes awards ill delete account think supposed delete regularly never got attention child im trying make it im going edit out probably,0 +plan dont courageits quite tough put thoughts together maybe thats way move somehow since long time ive struggling intrusive suicidal thoughts whats sometimes connected concrete plans sometimes not course lot periods wasnt bad dont feel saying good okay im good life least others people perspective good job cool place nice living conditions one could say shouldnt complain all feel since quite time something going wrong cant bear anymore nothing specific mind right now thats overwhelms much knowing exactly whats problem would try solve it ive long dont feel makes sense anymore try chase this im sure im writing call help let know plan tried reach help im kind people hundreds friends everywhere spread across europe one neighbourhood more point behaviour wrong relationships buried family also lives quite far away makes contacts difficult really wanted get specialists help felt still made sense didnt enough courage own friend rather ignored fact asked help reaching someone fixed mind thoughts dont make sense try deal own right dont feel anything last days really tough me yesterday went day trip going town always helped felt like existence makes real sense im calling emergency trips doesnt help anymore dont feel neither good bad things nothing mind whatever happens impact me plan simple simpler better bridge call emergency tell something strange happening cant know im calling myself otherwise sure try discourage me dont think cause much trouble people that sure now dont even feel make difference many people around me probably even make everything better last days cleaned open projects easy possible people keep going dont think anything else minimize consequences idea im really writing this sorry keeping long wanted put everything thinking about thanks take care,1 +say mario party ruins friendships obviously none played demotion gun game bo,0 +okay know mrbeast clickbait u check channel livestream scheduled one hour put anything u want moon bucks,0 +guys watch gay porn get rid morning wood since im straight watching gay porn turns sexually find get rid morning wood much faster wait normally suggest anyone try next time need get rid boner,0 +never thought trying play college sport would ruin lifein high school optimistic going played sports clubs generally fun lot really bright future not athletics all decision ruined mentally less two years later dropped quit job second acl tear look back wonder wtf life didnt quit first one id still mental health likely wouldnt retorn it lack motivation do anything ive lost muscle body lay bed parents force get up ive already gained quite bit weight legs feel like shit used hopes dreams reason theyre gone dont care them want knee fixed lack motivation discipline exercise dont want kill myself dying anything like sleep could go that,1 +im probably going commit redflag every day mind,1 +cant cryi cant cry vent feel bad feel numb happy know im happy im probably going kill fucking ass want people know sit like fuck dont give shit anymore ive tried everything people wont care nobody does fuck mr smith fuck system fuck people,1 +nightmares looking mirrorive pretty fascinated recurring nightmares ive past years involve looking mirror seeing someone reflection sometimes even see people already know real life last night dream slightly different looked mirror reflection all kind ironic think able see reflection least dreams considering spend lot time looking mirror soon come home soon wake go bed etc again ive already solved mystery dream turns out see mirror reflection ive spent time socializing people real life words dream trying tell soul im nonexistent entity earth nobody earth acknowledging fact exist theres nobody tell real here you ive socially isolated years im nothing animated piece meat blood bone living dead trapped worlds makes wonder point even dying considering im metaphysically already dead nobody would care nobody ever cared begin with maybe became celebrity things would different id real girl real human then curse goes on guess,1 +first way remake good japanese society quite different plays major part film explained opening narration adds humor well warmth movie slew different supporting characterspersonalities part making movie wonderful movie full comedy vulgar anyway like todays grossout comedies yet still laughing loud reality is real life choice work go school withetc movie truly emphasizes shows natural good people overcome petty differences mention makes great subplot much humor story dance actually story good one that back stories place actually support main storyline truly well written film dancing great too happen fan movie dancing sort aspect however movie goes beyond dance fact that story first happens written dancing japanse society highly recommendedbr br ,0 +wonder much itll hurt stab myselfill bleed death leave miserable world behind,1 +im closei think killing daily basis thoughts past couple months now thing stopping right children say thing really mean thats it sometimes though feel like maybe would better without anyway deserve someone better anyway husband cheated one family members apologized trying hard make me thats even really though family knew never told me lot well almost everyone life completely lied this absolutely one life with exception kids really me care me come big family find life completely change damaging think ways this kids find anyone else think stay sibling come back house hang myself call police one them finds me close think live way anymore cant it,1 +religious ppl here ive thinking religion recently believe god gives faith,0 +online school redflaging much nsw back lockdown month means online learning attended classes except maths far fuck maths gives much redflag fuck ever going use knowledge area parallelogram future need psychology degree knowhow statistics also fuck mood shifts want run away god fucking damn,1 +want die im tired keep strugglingthe title says all life ive struggling make ends meet im poor family certain thirdworld country since little knew need break away poverty need make parents proud despite circumstances born into fast forward years later im studying local university im nowwas rock supports friends helping way can caring them havehad loving girlfriend everyone believes persevere never many friends never used social apps then one month beforei argument girlfriend little know would come bite rear later sooner three days ago final exam semester combinations loneliness due absence life fatigue boxing stress papers yet come anger dissatisfaction seeing friends ones came depend things get rough playing games generally rowdy hit face overcame feelings retreated solitary first friends came check time passed reluctance say anything fear ridiculing thinking feelings started isolate turn even talking day went back respective hometowns first blamed abandoning smoke cleared out realized brought myself blame feels right reasons im still struggling commit redflag thoughts disappointing parents passion boxing sorry long postrant needed vent everything me tldr want live im slowly losing reasons to,1 +admit approached movie sense expectation dread louis de bernieres bestselling novel one favourites anyone read realise way hell screen adaptation faithful br br all way found convincing movie unsuccessful stripped books plot back far render redundant ending however much better novel could stop thinking movie afterwards still plusses john tolls magnificent cinematography stephen warbecks great score etc felt outweigh initial negatives cages miscasting heavily diluted scriptbr br but two days later queuing see corelli although perfect admit movie best anyone could expected cage actually brilliant role even de berniere concerned fully rounded character carefree spirit gives way shattered remorse spot on complements superb double act penelope cruz john hurt perfectly david morrissey quietly effective weber nazi officer trying reconcile feelings newfound italian friends inbred superiority complex around him fine grecoitalian supporting cast bring de bernieres sundrenched world cepholonia dazzlingly alivebr br on leaving cinema second time around finally let go passion novel prevented fully appreciating story ww cepholonia cinematic terms hat goes john madden who despite almost expected critical drubbing receiving british critics any director major success like shakespeare love behind always target moaning ninnieshas managed transfer terrifically difficult book big screen heart verve humanity the core virtues novel fact created another classic love story probably fully appreciated dust settled years nowbr br if fan book like me hard try make mistake initial viewing try erase book mind two hours bathe glorious mediterranean atmosphere discover corelli pelagia mandras dr iannis first time pretend watching something made original screenplay guarantee disappointed br br in fact eagerly waiting copy delightful movie video dvdbr br ,0 +actual point sub even used proper purpose im gonna real here majority posts get attention karma awards things pet died feeling confident posts selfie first time really shitty meme feeling suicidal once sorry know internet majority outright bullshit yet due general age democratic feel need take safest option instead question validity posts believe take advantage genuinely form social mental issue actual services help well dedicated subreddits argument played said person wants support backing peers respect think probably approach situation less wanting attention extravagant pictures stories rather approach discussion conversation joined subreddit thinking would discussing debating issues involving peers accomplish well passive support need directing proper services not filling attention karma take want,0 +thought racism wasnt thing america im disappointed im eastern europe always thought like racist place earth rest world nice accepting saw movies people colours assumed everyone living peace racism simply doesnt exist usa im disappointed right ,0 +pulled first allnighter recently feel anything different till dusk sunrise came felt like intergalactic nova cluster forming eliminating black holes body dunno rn,0 +since puberty comfortable naked males sure exactly why ended using shorts showering mostly physical training seeing naked males makes uncomfortable like girl trapped male body lol,0 +haha im literally failure in im putting much effort can still failing every class failure definition guess doomed follow forgotten middle child stereotype sooner later,0 +day writing something positive happened today went local lake best friend,0 +ive wavering suicidal thoughts since im almost nothing going right im ready give uptitle remember miserable far back consciously remember remember calling redflag hotline hung making excuses everything lady end saying trying help ive loser forever always picked on always forgotten always pushed aside im black sheep family theyre bunch pious christian straight white baptist fanatics im white bisexual atheist mom constantly tells need god tell anything personal dad brushes tells need happy tell anything personal ive downward fucking spiral since graduated high school moved parents got slapped paying stupid amount rent every month failed college programming class lost scholarship flopped around looking jobs dropped out took credit card debt fix car struggled paying rent lease ran out kept flopping around one job next moved back parents crashed car thats mention health issues ive got exact issues mom fibromyalgia though diagnosed benign tumor growing inside femoral neck hip causing suffer basically constant back hip neck pain today im living parents nowhere else go sleeping air mattress relying parents bicker constantly sort travel staffing agency im currently employed work thats within affordable travel range much job interview past months despite efforts send applications even know fuck decided write this think anyone gives shit sure hell dont im ready give put bullet skull even privilege parents firearms wat do,1 +normallyid take meat clever cleverly cut buttholes hour today blessing kill name blowjob cost what damn lost train concentration center none oj pulp like advertised watch reservoir dawgs today lol,1 +keep thinking detailsive suicidal long remember im lately ive thinking little details redflag involves id wipe computerphoneipod clean sell theres money funeral create apology letters close family members friends plan body found method redflag spontaneous thought was,1 +cant sleep anymorea month ago mom passed away arms sudden wouldnt wake still breathing even moved arms flat back whole night always trouble breathing laying back she tube chest kidney dialysis propped head back thats started choking opened eyes grabbing arms stopped breathing awhile cpr minutes waiting ambulance worked seen message help hershe low blood sugar slipped coma normally would awake see message taken new med mood two days prior messaged siblings came visit found pmwhile still alive last thought falling asleep worried dismissing thought thinking itd fine start living myself kids woke crying cant sleep screaming crying numbers pulses cpr cant stop seeing eyes struggling breathe grabs arms siblings also taken unjustly year ago bullied mom lot giving false information make look bad would less chance getting back dead continue get away it proven wrong many times get hoops jump over court judge also called past mom dead risk losing kids forever chance seeing again mom died waiting kids come home also feel like now things happen all feel wrong feeling things mom could saved easily failed neglecting night failing cpr propping neck back making unable breathe people lose people time pretty common therefore stop baby right want die hear see anymore want rest hope somewhere go somewhere,1 +every day im losing moremy mind turning absolute goo word recall shit social skills shit fuck quarantine dont care people die virus never never meet im going insane,1 +ever think made worst mistake remember didnt host gender reveal party burned thousands acres cries poor air quality near me,0 +please dont end ityou may nothing left family could passed abandoned you dog may died im talk need vent always reach me,1 +absolutely notredflagly loved movie saw cant wait come dvd beautifully welldrawn masterpiece always amazed intricately drawn work ghibli studios br br others commented sosuke calling risa first name never calls father first name unless speaking someone else get impression risa mother never even mentioned implied anyone quite obvious stepmother makes promise come home gets upset finds empty car mother must died infant mentions nursed risa coupled father sea lot abandonment issues everyone also talks mature is usually occurs child loses parent,0 +anyone get decent nights sleep last night looking yall since couldnt sleep dog licking balls night,0 +produced little song school project much thought id show guys see think lmk link working httpsdrivegooglecomfiledewy_kvvvilateilgxhfmdfgjiv_qviewhttpsdrivegooglecomfiledewy_kvvvilateilgxhfmdfgjiv_qview school project made feel like wannabe soundcloud producer,0 +cat dying dream live th floor apartment living room windows looking street dream opened window look outside cat jumped window second opened it fell car blood came him ran outside still car sitting suprised shocked foot broken blood paw dreams realistic blood mean deserve this scared,0 +telling jokes corona gone day theres joke today im sorry come back tomorrow edit ok ill tell joke httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslsxetelling_jokes_until_corona_gone_day__theres_a,0 +feel like dyinghi family doctor revealed mother depressed ssri medication im legal adult expected information classified anyways mother told grandmother told uncle told cousins told mutual friends everybody knows im incredibly embarrassed ashamed completely enraged doctor cannot believe information got everyone want kill myself anyone somehow convince might bad seems,1 +part two things normalised accepted mainstream eating discharge using moisturiser ghanaian culture something lot women and men get discharge form women life do many health benefits many people know also makes skin smooth,0 +anyone wish shotgun know end maybe soon,0 +dear humanityits funny life worksit really roll dice people live brilliant successful lives climbing way top people live lives heartache painthey turn art become successful too people ordinary blessed family maybe single parent thrive overcome odds people born terminal illness mental illness disabilities whatever else succeed got people like mepeople tried everything could fought way everything hadonly enough nowhere random reddit page venting see outcome death this treat people well treat people respect treat unfortunate encourage love give boost anyway realize one single species end day planet doesnt belong us belong planet significant otherout arm around say much love never know tomorrow bring make significant food breakfast lunch dinner whatever feel like dobuy flowerstake datesmake smile laugh help feel motivated like anything alllet know always there ignorant arrogant thought could help everyone hate people hurt tried make number one priority help others anyway could thought needed love world took responsibility impossible seen comingbut alas allowed ignorance arrogance blind me fault take ownership foolishness recovering botched surgery killed franki wish did finally got better tried start monthly disabilitynatural disasters struck hometown leaving many home car everything lucky regard day disasters happened car stolenprobably someone desperate isme years oldtried make something happen lifenow failed therefore officially failure want life end figuring way how wish well justdo best world filled hate hostility lies deceit cruelty,1 +sleep p n decent amount physical pain mainly left arm cant sleep side usually would im laying hella uncomfortable unable fall sweet void sleep,0 +tell forget person tell solution problem im gonna give fingers,0 +camhs experiencetoday first assessment camhs child adolescent mental health services officially diagnosed severe depression really want break confidentiality tell parents redflag attempt thoughts really want trust parents would understanding im absolutely terrified theyll call parents let know before do im legally cant tell without breaking consent right dont quite understand works,1 +friend cheated girlfriend really dont know do hes probably closest friend told cheated her also told broke up shes become pretty good part friend group im really sure situation stay friends him need give forgiveness hes said feels like piece shit ive made sure tell as friend really shouldnt again enough much im really confused guess advice welcome,0 +im using reddit lightmode ill use dark mode ill end jail racist,0 +whats effort put something else procrastinating procrastinating homework often procrastinate working stuff needed while example day pretty deeply cleaned room not quite deep clean got rid stuff clean another time photoshoped friend thanos avoiding math assignment whats something put lot effort procrastinating,0 +anybody elses mental health completely destroyed october every year since started depression depression rapidly increases throughout mid late october usually peaking early november anyone else similar issues,0 +parents bought car drive werent looking car yet saw sale much since years old research bought it wanted tell friends couldnt figure word without sounding like bragging because none drive either im putting here,0 +getting worseim still thats alright guess im still dropping regards esteem determination hope left me ive made cheesy post before ill spare tge detail time vent want vent about ive gotten point becoming hard get bed im eating much all nan entire life final stages cant breathe without moan airways expand make things worse take prescription drugs every hours hardly mentally already miss much woman was outlet nobody cares make things worse got midterm im averaging dreams going university shattered well whatever reason keep pushing though landwhale aunt joined pos uncle honestly toxic entire family uncle related nan blood lets stay around kicked once aunt told nan terrible mother abandoning child nothing done though kill im afraid snap late now everything bottled long im breaking point,1 +anticipatory griefis normal anticipatory grief redflag im preparing leaving birthday card fianc every birthday ill gone,1 +america country created europeans get independed hate eurpeans bad thing anything,0 +im done planeteverytime give heart someone crush it im tired trying find love everything shattered front continuously never never happy logical conclusion come taking life thing kept going long hyped game album trivial piece media confuses people try convince people kill theres literally nothing redeeming life least me im really looking sympathy post im mostly explaining im choosing am really plan writing note anything anyone wondering refer post since little ever wanted wife someone love me age ive numerous online relationships ended disaster inb comments saying online relationships work care im going cold approach people public way many false rape accusations hard commit redflag prison cell identify nonbinary make sense someone born male im expected make first move everything lose person receiving end nothing lose world unfair ridiculous really worth it know life relationships thats ive ever really wanted perhaps like ive said post perhaps think incel something stupid like that really care anyone thinks me point nothing lose ive watched devolve super caring nice naive person cold monster cares nothing see reason keep existing theres nothing makes happy except one thing struggle hard obtain point im done trying juice aint worth squeeze were regardless thank taking time read have peace,1 +would appreciate suggestions alternative rredflagwatchthis place advertises,1 +pushups decide to day sets pushups situps,0 +fuck thisi hate much hate life fighting anxiety good could nothing ever changes really dont want hurt family god hate world sick all tomorrow tonight im going take knife cut deep wrist pain nothing compared anxiety hope life god hope tortured way tortured me fuck god,1 +hate myselfwhy mother put world get,1 +goodbyeim years old lowpaying job cant stand girlfriend years k debt k student loans k credit card debt k taxes k various stuff assets crappy car small apartment full crappy furniture real talents skills ive spent last years life dicking around internet watching tv instead socializing learning stuff friends none respect me parents assholes saw therapist finally last week like much canceled appointment week sick literally reason killed years leading want whoever latest girl reject think her im that done,1 +breakthe break fun spending entire time sitting room bed crying door locked looks like head back school i could take knife beside reasons jam throat slide across bleed horrible pain really better two considering go back school guy wants slit throat anyways reasons seriously really want gather enough courage time ill it,1 +rating cokes cokes allowed interested pepsi,0 +anyone gives flying fuck made lyrics made tune yet supposed lofiraphiphop umm think ofit like kaash paiges music u know cocoa butter kisses girl circles kayla think know this loved start think noticed master heart say distance makes heart grow fonder theres lie think last without longer id waited little talk you confront you maybe id fully love saying already before waited wouldve loved even more think possible guess theres always know oh know love love love youuuu know know wish loved respond texts wondered really worth time know little hours seems pretty small know time respond knew half sentence meant much give need baby bring dopamine high self esteem yet always cycle bicycles first ignoring yet say busy second apologizing get tizzy last forgiving cuz else would girl im blind go circles wish true loved,0 +died step sister kicked dad balls rly hard fucking tiktok boys ik feel pain like hours still feel nauseous sick,0 +methodsjust purely theoretic discussion easiest ways out would prefered way least impact family least destruction body course purely theoretical,1 +aging rocker movie mentions heep quo favourite bands ever incredible cast everyone fantastic storyline love piece creative genius cannot recommend highly mick jones added much foreigner lead primary songwriter along greatest rock singer ever lou gramm watched great work times bill nighy voice jimmy nail talent oozes every pore astrid karen could aging rocker ask for bloody brilliantbr br alastair perth western oz originally windsor england,0 +im okayidk post here down havent slept think still want live wish could shake sadness,1 +feel like shit nothings really working cant tell friends im already enough burden theyve dealt shit enoughfuck fuck everyone,1 +back why thought free thoughts guess im hurt cant escape inevitable right leah im complete fucking loser right make fun use cheat taunt right ,1 +im probably going end soontitle says all thought someone know ive tried help worked while tried guilting stay alive work anymore even know ill make christmas wish would end mistake im useless worthless want die tonight,1 +hi hows going you,0 +want kill myself sure wish id stop breathing maybe never wake upgt whats point life hold job yrs life thats life thats fucking sentence god damn prison sentence fucking place like work dear usps understand now people go postal drive fucking hard barely able pay bills fuck you gt mom wish wouldve put adoption keep someone told think could make age done make everything never considering peoples feelings made countless shitty fucking decisions ass hole gt dad whyd worthless know parents teach well parent husband jesus couldve there made better money decisions actually put food table instead mom starving time maybe father hard watching kids now get dad never had gt lauren miss much loved you still do walked door id scoop arms ask start over im sorry know man needed man all wish wouldve told everything open me fucking maze unexpressed emotions thoughts gt myself disappointment try harder stop fucking pushover go things always wanted reach was late tell everything wished wouldve always scared scared setting expectation putting there starting over hate you reason weve always hard fucking man good enough could separate you everything would different gt god there life make sense without beginning eyes you you everything fault mean stepped in given hand taken me im lost need help answers love companionship someone talk to know anymore wish id never born,1 +recently ive eating stomach problems im getting really bad stomach pain im hungry appetite throw little food eat think eating disorder something im sure,0 +told floating whole time without even know heard atoms able touch right mean floating whole time may feel like were touch ground actually,0 +hate working much drives redflag keep fighting alternativesworking years retire living years damaged bones something else die pointless thanks motherfucking piece shit started breeding cycle,1 +liked roman polanskis repulsion probably check the tenant since similar concept polanski stepping playing schizophrenic wacko actually one favorites movies second rosemarys baby course straight forward journey mental collapse man moves former apartment suicide victim residents building flaky sticklers keeping noise level even slightest titter becomes big deal polanski stars becomes increasingly paranoid succumbs loony hallucinations film carries on gets point dressing acting like former tenant realize matter time decides tor reenact fatal leap window film bit slow dawdling while ever seen roman polanski movie know going end bang flick disappoint also best question intricacies premise take descent madness pretty trippy surreal times polanski good timid deranged resident who somehow attracts ever illustrious isabelle adjani also get see running around drag disturbing hilarious time damn makes one ugly chick so polanski fans actually look past thirty yearold pedophile charges enjoy the tenant entertaining psychological headtrip,0 +go school leave new kitten home sitting purring,0 +im sorryim sorry disappointing mom dad know im strong smart kid wanted im weak ugly faggot im sorry gay im sorry ugly im sorry fat im sorry turning like this im worthless know that everyone remembers remind every single day truth cant fight back im sorry weak im sorry hurting tyler really wish turned different im glad still friends wish ruin like everything else im sorry making spend time me im sorry people associate now im sorry way ive changed you im sorry everything ive done friends im sorry making look me im truly sorry everything hope forgive over,1 +parents said want actually spite ig parents said would kill big hassle,1 +unpopular opinion memes better without meme original picturetext seriously like taking joke far add less funny is feel like memes left jokes,0 +give life feeling worthless tbh recently accepted cant move forward life advice support guys give me nothings changed im old old nothing ever change thats fact me honestly feel like im abomination hate body everyone always calls skinny feel embarrassed im made fun body also feel ugly people gave gestures disgust see me one kid even called ugly im going keep playing video games watch youtube im going abandon dreams find new job career heres worthless bye guys good day,0 +pain doesnt stop stop temporary pain isnt,0 +need make thursday oh please help make iti strength left last week made appointment therapist earliest could arrange know bothers it took psychology school know say know do want magical session gives hope want doc say somethign already thought give hope keep going im sitting here thing think is im done want go on want life anymore want lay pass peacefully sleep days lay awake thinking time go wish would come naturally right now keel heart attack aneurism disease seen coming far wake every morning alone give comfort doesnt feel bad cause id leaving behind siblings parents nieces know love me dont cant help think irrelevant really am sure theyd upset theyd live lives eventually hit ends wheels time turn turn dust life would meaningless now need hope something keep going till least thursday cause right now thursday hope have slimmest hope best heart head fabric hurts,1 +cute girl texting friend literally using ssenpai wwill notice isnt responding group chat ima whoop dumb brain doesnt seize opportunity,0 +dont want give inbut need kill myself,1 +anyone else feel worthlessi feel completely useless think anything anybody serve absolutely nothing purpose anyone else feel way,1 +taking girlfriend applications cool even cooler maximum cool cool little less hot ignore cool,0 +really able get emotion out smashing cups stuff punching face inflicting pain trauma choking denial punch face,1 +group members always shit lazy care stuff solo order get marks also get free credits peanuts hate itgive x test exam individual assignment fine it group assignment literally killing inside triggers redflag depression insomnia cannot sleep without thinking will lend hand tomorrow will pass assignmentfuck group assignment every group members ever school group assignment killing,1 +were kinky watched kurzgesagt nutshellhttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvxotdixatfw video learned electrons help build atoms body kinks electron field technically kinky,0 +theres aaaaaa ghost home better bein alone,0 +one minute im stable next minute im planning hanging myselfi bpd utterly exhausting fast mood shift used moods would shift course couple days bounce back forth extremes several dozen times single day yesterday morning woke extremely bad place ive displaying escalating parasuicidal behavior several weeks talking using pellet gun looks much like glock prop try get people acknowledge validate shitty horrible feel also get help dig hole ive dug myself clue climb own ive also extremely manic random mania manic urge hide emotional turmoil pain talking things like getting car driving hundred miles blowing literally savings maxing credit cards fancy hotel ridiculous dinners two weeks also cruising around car tune additional miles hell not manic energy scares me especially combined rapidly cycling moods massive impulse control issues recipe disaster spent day heart heart talks mom best friend phone spent hours talking phone total two them felt better talking them within minutes call ending started feelings despair hopelessness consume again feelings issue urges impulses feel particularly strong wave emotion hits me first thought hanging stepping front bus ive felt urges wash several times today came close giving temptation stepping front bus literally started sweating degree weather close it walked around hours afterwards dazedissociated state silently crying moved new hotel room spent least minutes examining room find best place anchor belt bathrobes belt basically anywhere post night honestly im always scanning surroundings see best path living moment case decide indulge urge like im always planning lay bed ill feel okay minutes thought triggers strong emotion run head next thing know im literally mentally picturing taking necessary steps hang myself minutes later im back calm collected minutes that another triggering thought pops head go back fantasizing ending all rapid oscillation okay one minute ready wrap belt around closet hanger bar next minute exhausting unpleasant unwanted roller coaster ride worst all kinds rapid massive emotional state changes urges increasingly common life level frankly mentally crippling dont want die feel like limited shitty options dying favorable outcome still shitty choice none options staying alive letting go past dearly miss desirable given emotional issues sucks much im beyond exhausted all want stability,1 +comment much hate methink person hate most would make departure world less regrettable,1 +slayer doom eternal,1 +free award time alright simple make laugh tell interesting facts knew get free award wholesome good luck,0 +opinions swim team ive always kinda wondered people thought swim team swimmers like think pssy sport understand like track underwater whats thoughts it im highschool swim always understood nowhere ner popular talked abou football soccer basketball baseball,0 +seriously contemplating death since weekshi everyone first all obligatory throwaway left university decided leave west european country african one find job did truly loved whole situation ended burning sheer amount required work shitty pay burnout came back parents europe im back round now except time think life at exactly unique path ive taken heres thing passion burning desire anything started running year ago officially diagnosed depression due excess stress predisposition i never liked consider depressed always felt something life helps enough never really sportive recreative thing back university took classes based like languages law road specialized wine trade everything fine realized would lead towards unaccomplishing jobs thought wine overrated wait work there everybody becomes extremely uptight overprotective label put bottle is all drink goes tourism event management latter get erase boundaries professional private lives weird hours get that perhaps would fine people shitty pay get paid enough rather get paid enough extremely low maintenance person started saving half salary every month what significant purchase like housing never reach start buying car simply able save anymore insure it repair put fuel it puts salary perspective work ass point destroy mental health least get paid respectable amount especially qualifications i postgrad so would work much thats works get responsibilities travelled much barely good friends left honest theres parents people really care about that life taking much energy like running thats left good consumer care latest high tech equipment food care fashion obviously dig outside tiny bubble theres also current environmental political global issues im used open all probably first time ever do first time actually consider killing myself never really afraid idea dead transition life death medication mg citalopram per day since september seem anything ill sure go see somebody soon obviously know ill ever able change life change things much define me thanks reading hope come across somebody experienced similar thing would love give family grand kids cant wrap head around dragging somebody mental state let alone raising anybody,1 +great british movie screaming good laugh sexy gary stretch too oh lots bikes lovely welsh countrysidebr br members club arrowhead bike trike social club appear extras hooray br br there genuinely hilarious bits good acting good ideabr br met director jon ivay showing wareham dorset great man earth good laugh film must supported great brit movies shouldbr br so please go see can website cinemas showing find one near youbr br i cant wait get dvd biker friends seen film two three times already cant get enough itbr br amanda,0 +love pain cause mei dont know talk to dont know get help without sounding desprate im breaking point consistantly thinking end it im nightmares every single night havent felt like since highschool coming back im scared feel like way out best thing tell story started university moved mothers home protect myself verbally emotionally abusive tried maintain relationship her worked cannot get past issues right before directly moved two friends died moved sibbling hoping would able get closer happened life hell distracted sibbling sure do failing classes cannot focus exactly escaping mother tries control finances bad mouthes anychance get point shes destroying self esteem making family hate me eldest sibling trying help trying keep grounded keep getting wound this since ive moved shes made feel worthless schooing insignificant work insignificant relationship boyfriend doesnt exist says simply want say im someone need attention men daddy issues moved found cheating boyfriend something agreed on camera basement videos boyfriend would shove face make watch them told didnt want to said could never talk anything talked man sex with ended destroying relationship heard boyfriend point hurt didnt love him wanted end thought wouldnt i even though hurt disturbed me concerned him sister got mad me wanting upstairs could time alone saying neglecting family didnt pay enough money live there nothing family something comment wanted relationship me tried talk would ignore act uninterested cheated boyfriend best friend also showed video that want see it told cheat jaded view her much want think badly her hearing warped mind went go see boyfriend christmas lives ways away said isnt real relationship cheat me dangerous stupidest mistake ive ever made lovely felt welcomed happy family regret second time went on lectures wanted housework rent went up fine this personal jabs hurt like mom judging relationship school came summer gave lecture right front him humiliating me talking treated horribly got upset one point hated didnt deserve treated like that why would interfere relationship way shape form offended broke rules rules going upstairs boyfriend came upstairs wake morning asked lay give hug got caught large amount trouble course going break rules im teenager sex wanted together mins response got disrespecting family cared nothing them boyfriend told talk him else would get angry would hit me became scared uncomfortable home called home sisters boyfriend offered massage accepted back massage text afterwards multiple times asking give another massage time clothes full body massage said no said would professional persisted give one thing said first taken no not telling therapest this things shouldnt say talked daughter treat her want honest opinion isnt fantastic isnt horrible child taken away isnt best sister emotionally distanced child constantly loses temper despite fact child hours per night unless day off does child something gets trouble go upstairs father rough doesnt beat things done questionable said therapest taken worst way childrens aid called sister immediatly blamed me worst part peak sat three hours asking called rat living house little bitch morning child woke crying wouldnt listen mom said heard say yeah keep going childrens aid take away used threat call information disclosed meant family did cannot change it speak want speak confirm true reflection treatment child taking place rather reflection me boyfriend speak me side family hates me sister doesnt know do options kicking out moving living hell leave though get kicked out look bad childrens aid know came therapest scapegoat yelled three hours straight chance arises told im horrible person her depite knowing would happen despite feeling broke down cried last night saying sorry didnt mean like this doesnt truly deserve this right wanted us never there remains relationship taken away nothing find impossible cry everytime expects it drains much defend much begin accept shes saying accept fate nightmares wanting dead entire family hating me without family nothing without family person broke this,1 +movie one favorites hard explain why maybe innocence corin nemec awkwardness paired boldness cheryl pollak definitely something soundtrack also characters little lines movements moments amusing themselves finally story one always tugs heartstrings last scene bittersweet all love movie perfect gooey sentimental girls night,0 +itll start getting warmer next week lets fucking goooooooooooo,0 +hi imma go sleep soon u guys comment positive things im depressed wake up,0 +come realisation trying ignore now matter long go without contact one ever reach me feeling like shit ever,1 +mental hospitalso day yesterday night drinking vodka cutting myself looking around house drugs overdose etc felt unknown reason really need help spoke mom awhile finally told asked admitting mental hospital work blah blah trying explain fast possible talks social worker local clinic doctor im suppose see works calls hospital town closest hospital says go today happy insanely nervous drink which im suppose to cant drunk wanna admitted something pack stuff expecting staying awhile really nervous mom calls gp ask valium something help go door hospital get vlium injection go hospital talk doctor nurse room asks lot questions minutes shows bed room people beds could lot people worst nightmare reason thought would room alone past experience mental hospital about years ago great hospital rooms total room own modern obviously liked it time wanted go home asap weeks made think would like that say mom cant stay here asks nurse doctor tells cant go back room im angry now trys convince say wanna go home do point post is like adult mental hospital normally im ireland im guessing different around world anyway advice info would great sorry long,1 +best help could get noosei dealing suicidal thoughts years now im tired making efforts fix maintain shitty life really need give in ive waiting glimmer hope help shrug depression avail ive working professional therapist attempting get sort medication help almost half year ive trying therapists even longer fucking impossible prescribed anything within reasonable time frame everything tried horrible failure relief even done much would smoke weed even dull pain brief while truth helping all nothing left life worth maintaining for family continued treat like tool kin absolutely positive physical relationships people ever get talk even appreciate presence online way helping me venting like near constant life speaking issue never helps despite copious amount research ive done says otherwise everyone talk help either know respond soon abandon quite frankly care would rather hassle things need me ive grown hate everyone else life almost much myself everything ive ever loved faded away lost luster time loved many things loved mathematics sciences loved games learning analyze system loved able support around me cant even derive pleasure sense taste purpose hate myself cant even stand see reflection hear voice want hang like sinful refuse ive proven be top off virtually access methods unlike formerly thought even death good likes me,1 +demons amp voices came visiti feeling lonely confinement guess demons decided knock im kept awake laying bed uncontrollable terrifying thoughts feel lonely yet screams make think wise really want comfort cant sleep im good wanna this im sorry yall cant handle,1 +hopelessness consuming destroying me nsfwthis long post apologize that depression panic disorder i panic attacks rarely gad general anxiety disorder obsessive compulsive disorder premenstrual dysphoric disorder i think officially diagnosed little year ago im day twentysix cycle ive thinking purpose life think help others im sure anymore feel hopeless worthless vagina narrow short tight time even im aroused lubricated cant insert two fingers slide one finger way vagina becomes extremely tight feels like finger going past something hard explain hurts feel angry hopeless one way im glad vagina tight would please partner another way im enraged fact someone would profit pain agony hate people say tight vagina good thing ive users flat tell tighter always better tense vagina feels better ive never abused part disgusted men want tight vagina want profit partners pain suffering like feels good man hurts woman im horrified go in does go way gets extremely tight part vagina ill stop him want take mans pleasure away ruin experience him feel hopeless areas life wish could go sleep never wake up plan harm myself also question sub people feel borderline suicidal arent reported punished right thank reading long post appreciate it,1 + broken land freemy parents make much financial aid work hours week still cant afford college im one year thousands dollars unsubsidized debt less month pay next semester cant even move parents house even though money apartments going get better country shit hard get foothold life all think im done hope america fixes higher education system someday,1 +im tired fighting this want over peace finally find meeveryday fight im tired fighting it want something help me someone hear me small sliver happiness every time nearly manage get one universe beats back miserable dark place beats harder attempt cant keep fighting this fighting alone treated like leper black sheep whenever try teach someone anyone im tired constantly repeating myself reaching out trying find happiness one listens one cares im tired insurmountable guilt feel every day breathing strength mother children need wife husband deserves killed daily guilt knowing much pain theyd id left energy fight anymore cant live guilt knowing id them im tired want fight anymore,1 +another album like httpsopenspotifycomalbumcgwclwskgxkzgyattafdsilzrpdvqtsadchehew,0 +switched ssris feel better like feel stable however although feel better like brain never switch off anxious like developed adhd feel like always need something constantly find near impossible sit lie watch video movie etc say it distract feeling crap like want able relax enjoy things help depression hyperactivityadhd,1 +probably take advice oh well,0 +life over never chanceits like sick joke lets take someone keep bottom barrel cage reach everyone else way cant express anybody else people miss coworkers would really miss work personally im tired working hard trying everything can getting nothing return people meant here one them thus fact life,1 +fool thinking things would oki fool thinking things would ok right now divorce could go smooth truly alone this know believe anymore one cares me,1 +music work anymore lost truly numb music even work anymore,1 +im one disaster away losing sanityover past year felt live continue slip away drive career make world constantly beat gone even spend time trying fun anymore think world one day automated husband means education survive worry bad house bought debate go bankrupt survive allowed place live happens lose job much means get another lucky five years trying low pay ones gone automation learn survive street want try survive permanent damage feet cant afford fix ongoing list medical problems wish one things would hurry end naturally years old feel best life offer already shown me feel never meant make world mental illnesses starting show one day cost job place world someone like cant make own reason ended things trying hold worst comes next time car breaks money house floods anything something happens think deal everything life wants throw me end anything worth fighting even did bother want live see world turn into know done want anymore world seem want take naturally want see make ,1 +come think part today christmas eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve eve context bio part httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsibscome_and_think_of_itutm_sourceshareampamputm_mediumios_appampamputm_nameiossmf,0 +ive done terrible things deserve terrible endfirst all im wrong sub id like apologize search redflag found im years old entire life ive done nothing bad ive prison twice currently parole next years ive hurt everyone ever cared about ruined countless lives remorse since incarceration learned lot im person used be predator hunted children unspeakable things thinking past sickens stomach see reason go here family talk me friends happiness still urges time time act again feel it take life now cant hurt anybody else way always meant be im looking sympathy im looking told change better know ive done life given thrown away selfish actions wish could go back young amazing mother supportive father brother never would thought would give me want go back days young free regrets want take back everything done theres nothing left say lay pool tears reminisce golden days one promise made got prison id stop drinking bottle tequila juice thank reading please hold flaming trust me know,1 +opinion bananas applesround orangesround plumsround pearround peachesround limesround lemonsround coconutsround pomegranatesround onionsround watermelonsround melonsround grapefruitsround tomatosround grapesround roundround bananascurved fuckin fuck bananas round everyone appreciates good round shape bananas different dont they look independent annoying curvy cunts explain cant get round bananas outrageous fruits round bananas need stoned entirely banned britain itself little shits cant put em mouth properly like good apple you doesnt make sense hurts banana hating brain bananas curved look exactly like downwards curve liking bananas banana slices are showing dismembering them make much better thing lets team completely fucking destroy little yellow minion looking extraterrestrial curvy inappropriately shaped pieces trash must alert mods astonishingly gobsmacking situation turn show government utterly eradicate bananas together we this,0 +feeling pretty good right now stark contrast usual sending positive vibes possibly can broke free anxiety bit today ive riding high ive made friends past months theyre truly wonderful people im beyond lucky life ive got roof head access water food etc im leaning back bed hoodie amp sweats pulled dryer ago feeling comfortable hell got lofi filling room totally enhancing good vibe head isnt clouded depression anxiety worry doubt whisked away soft sound music first night long time feel okay hope too not please invite join stopping bit enjoy lofi me herehttpsyoutubelicfmag_a ill hang bit longer talk anyone feels like commenting nobody does thats perfectly fine know whatever youre going through youre alone hope looking sign give up it right here thing believe amp im proud making moment genuinely hope lovely peoples nightsmornings go well find way beat demons probably going doze soon wanted share small victory you love ya,0 +cabinet man came shuffled playlist pls someone say know im talking,0 +im confused distraught life great recently wife kid rising biologist become professor literally dream two years ago though year old diagnosed aggressive cancer given year best devastated wife devout catholic atheist difference religion tore us apart sons last days convinced agree familys christian funeral divorced shortly it fell depression bombed interview sleep landed half ass th grade teaching job last year students give two shits it top got laid last day school parents though treated students like shit past week ive thought son like die feel suicidal keep imagining like exist want worse am want talk somebody help put things perspective also want remain anonymous call john,1 +movie corner stranger things test the stranger things quiz best way fans test knowledge series stranger things test also excellent online contest know much series playing quiz give overview story interested ready go is stranger things testhttpsinquizzcomquizstrangerthingstriviautm_sourceredditamputm_mediumjoniamputm_campaignstrangerthings,0 +thoughti wish could trade places people dying dont want,1 +ruined one chance want go sleepi it finally someone much struggle found someone liked me ruined it desperate insecure fuck head ruined one chance want anymore go longer,1 +goodbye loves ill back,0 +bit young one see it theres excellent music many folks mentioned one seems notice rare appearance angel mostly ignored quite popular musical outfit wearing trademark white outfits grind th century foxes apparently try cram cameras field vision keyboardist gregg giuffria remains bands highlight apparently never gotten much haircut ever cherie currie exrunaways singer begins brief notable acting career here quite memorable alongside jodie foster rest her topless d scenes parasite ufo sighting wavelength kept us watching time br br its masterpiece preserves chunk period gaze upon wonder,0 +earl grey anhedoniabitter tannin sticking tongue palate astringent mouthdrying bergamot earthy sharp flavour gone waste aroma longer dreamy rather harsh making feel nauseous subconsciously choke back gagging feel get lost nothingness put teaspoon honey glistening like amber watch dissolve sound hefty metal clacking pierces ears saccharine golden strings slowly disappearing rich hazel pool bitterness every little touch fragile porcelain numbs hearing set spoon aside drown bittersweet chaotic fantasies loathe it sometimes allow indulge truly wonderful taste earl grey light stove admire pretty flames put kettle lose sight them water boiling put teabag cup contemplate whether put hand piping hot bubbling tasteless liquid daydream pain wounds attention sound pouring water dulcet sizzling steam theyre pleasantly distracting admire rich brown colour slowly creeping tea leaves waiting exactly three minutes pass taking out second longer sweeteners milk distinct smell taste black tea particular robust flavour burning sensation numb tongue matter seconds rest cup feels like nothing tastes grey angers me come get short overwhelming moments extreme emotion end blink eye washed apathy violent urges selfdestructive behaviours hold thin porcelain handle painted pretty swirls gripping tightly suppressing desire throw wall see shatter innumerable shards getting scattered floor making shrill deafening noise collecting broken bits sounds like hassle however imagining razorsharp solid slicing arm open sound bad one vertical swipe takes instead spill tea sink leave cup aside feel nothing harmonic lack equity feels unfair yet justified painfully repetitive everything seems distant foreign whats do sometimes want poison someone someone dear put effort attention making drink best be euphoric floral flavour lethal aftertaste creating masterpiece consume adore last second last sip times want mix something quickly make existence come end bothering people sounds like waltz end injuring me two steps third one breaks legs point death feels like home confusing grey mayhem ive gotten used to bother im way home,1 +faultlong post here feeling lot emotions past months one really talk with ill post see happens ive married almost years february wife got married years dating legal issues rush marriage matter days lawyers advice talked marriage bit before expecting make decision way fast forward around september living together feeling happy feel like girl fell love changed marriage also things learned marriage know before fought lot clear different try talking times reaction always felt complaining her stopped point back september met woman religious community years older at time married kids worked together volunteer initiative community quickly became close month met routine texting every day almost day long fell head heels her made feel special like one ever before made feel like someone truly cared me really friends friend would tell things like would together next life met late life said husband together would together nothing wanted her certain would happy still feel way would share everything other time hiding conversations spouses never physical relationship never wanted that partly married partly emotional connection me continued year around september told pregnant able talk like usual since husband would often she housewife husband would stay home often hurt lot months okay work project kept mind november project over started thinking her ever since ive severely depressed reach her ask talk get treated almost stranger friends always tells time since busy always family always trusted her believe lying kills someone close made feel special could leave alone like pretty much been ive thinking redflag feel happy wife feel like friends feel like source depression something tell anyone know know situation get better think work family none enough make stop thinking ending all expect sympathy anyone know wrong feel whatever happening completely deserved bad person im reaping sow im simply sharing anyone else share with want happy,1 +wanna join pog reddit r rthepogreddit,0 +complaining mainstream music bad nowadays dumb one forcing listen probably wont affect way besides makes song good really subjective,0 +holy shit trying poop heard loud distressed hiss growl think thats kitten take care of hope danger im pretty sure fighting big ass cat hates everyone,0 +im homeless silent feels bad man,0 +im monster im okay iti abuse neglect friends im terrible dad sister im mean cruel cat fucking care life meaningless im going fucking die soon might well make everyone around feel much pain go want whole fucking world burn go everyone feel pain rage feel every fucking day,1 +much overdose citaloprammy boyfriend broke upwith,1 +im old day older yesterday comes much wisdom,0 +girl leaving wanna dieso whats best way commit redflag im thinking car tube exhaust pipe,1 +ive suicidal since eight recently ive thinking actually going iti could post throwaway fuck it censor really feel lss im transgender ftm fully supportive people life tried telling dad would longer see little girl would kick out weve always close accept already breaking mentally friends school completely clueless much hurts someone came constantly gets pronouns corrected still struggle calling preferred name think even fully transition ill feel better body pass male thighs cant accept one accept me also awful body issues everyone live overweight want look them throw food hour eat fear gaining weight also sort undiagnosed mental disorder ive hearing voices i think schizophrenia personalities names since constantly talk sex no subconsious sex makes uncomfortable passion sexually active started talking sex specifically vivid visual hallucinations one voices giving oral others also berate tell here hurt others etc im also pretty sure depression read somewhere hearing voices past trauma hope true unfortunately believe sexually abused family member child family situation awful parents i nmom bipolar dad abusive relationship divorce my sake sometimes want come home bad plus special needs aunt lives us acts like spoiled year old know right wrong blames problems im allowed talk family cut ties them well academically school never could feel like fucked future never asking homeschooling special ed year dad guilts well atleast trying to try cant im fucking difficult feel hopeless already plan date want die im even highschool want become adult find love life cant deal shit anymore cannot go therapy mom hates therapists doctors school counselor would get cps involved ive mentioned borderline child abuse past want call resource line theres people deserving me post update next friday probably went it thanks everything reddit,1 +spanish fart fandom dying updoredacted true pedophile,0 +nobody wants talk person think ugly worth anything wrong nice person deep down misunderstood would love make friends perhaps establish genuine connection people want alone right now would really love friend,1 +tomorrows dayive wanted die time now years life wasted wishing dead ive failed multiple times taking life hospitalized medication therapy name it couple days ago mother uncovered things never supposed know cant go detail bottom line is ive reached final breaking point new issues top everything else deal day day basis finally suffocated me ive wanted years tomorrow day im going go it dont want advice consoling want somebody know thank you reddit see side,1 +want end iti know kill myself overexamine everything even want die want kill tonight cant figure way relatively painlessly none pills cabinent really lethal except tylenol hurts like bitch die from fucking hard,1 +hs girls really like older guys actually date one admire teen heartthrob like harry styles makes sense know typical year old guy girls seem totally others matter age wondering common people think,0 +world fucking cruelit sounds fucking stupid textbooks arriving late getting charged fuck ton money fucking breaking point world fucking cruel nobody cares anybody everyone fucking greedy everyone fucking mean im fucking lonely friends like one loves me mom entirely disgusted reason ive tried getting help wont let me job im limited due transportation bc covid cant fucking find job cant drive keep gaining weight tired it keep going sub ranting ranting never going get better way kill myself would it tried many times always failed take anymore hurts much anyone hurt me wake morning wishing dead make stop much cant this death closest thing peace could ever find shit fucking world,1 +question steal scene expert expert scene stealers walther mathau full furious brilliant grumpy old man mode answer quietly deadpan perfect timing george burns herebr br i know nothing vaudeville remains favourite film two leads hilarious script funny direction pacing fine richard benjamin funny straight man trying get burns window etc even small parts greatbr br there many funny scenes mathau messing commercial burns repeating answers senilebr br a delightbr br enterrrrrr,0 +hope youre fine ups downs wanna say tell friends appreciate them could make day like two weeks ago one friends suddenly said likes hanging hes happy im around im honestly stoked hear someone appreciates even keep telling noone likes me guess tell friends appreciate them let know company means lt,0 +guys names reddit vastly different girls like guys username would epicbigchungus girls would katlynxox idk find strange difference see,0 +old person according redditthanks see ya,1 +tittle suicide tourism switzerland work,1 +im im suicidaluh hi im im suicidal really point dont care life mean care th grade so like cousin commented redflag maybe month later uncle same mom really fucked sorry swearing um well bad drug problem older sister basically mom grandma dad left keep coming back start shit like would say siblings worthless didnt matter uncle died couple days birthday birthday spent funeralalso siblings mom step dad lived grandma grandpas parents would always fight like boom fighting pm fighting times got physical dont like talking summer th grade began cut weird liked it hated pain soon dull blade like blacked different person went awhile till sister found told mom finally stoped month went on christmas great grandma died like second mom like loved much funeral saw corpseit wierd kinda expected wake know didntumm couple months ago moved biological dad mom tried kill front kept screaming wants brother my uncle wierd guess dad cool guess doesnt exactly accept trans ftm honestly dont give shit living want die birds sister honestly anti depressants working think death okay guess thanks reading suppose,1 +guys suffer from im depressed im suicidal im happy life emotional problem disorder im ugly im great academics im great sports suffer trauma daddy mommy issues family problems im poor im lonely many good friends anxiety trouble talking girls im fat im good shape lots hobbies interests enjoy life life always good okay seriously tho normal,0 + followers shitty pick lines wtf tell,0 +almost am im gonna risk take minute nap watch wake up posting good luck,0 +gave ol college try lifes meive trying really have want things stopped thinking negatively telling everythings fine bad im bouncing back anymore every day im closer it chipping away me feel im irrational im depressed want life chose hard path want anymore chose it brought myself many days stretched ahead me nothing look forward to plenty shitty memories look back on keep night punctuate thoughts throughout day repress say im good good things feel might want know never happen try hold ahead me like donkey carrot im even convinced things would fix anymore ive trying distract myself patch emptiness working fact failed effort making worse faking til make working making fake think every day multiple times day usually plan question ability carry out logistically could press button done would stellar im baby cant stand pain complicates things need help another human alive answers im irrational theres rational reason live want to genuinely tried already mean anything unhappy justified mean mental problem depressed dont least tonne htps like candy nothing looks like brain chemicals fine maybe circumstantial circumstances changing time soon think push next several years outcome guaranteed even sure thing change mind anymore really want it ive trying years working decide today waiting years reasonable no death comes everyone grand scheme things shaving yr really change understand people suicidal know theyre going die eventually enjoy journey not thats reason living understandable want to people care im gone regret thats case enough keep anymore im sitting around waiting things get better years surely thats representative timeframe needed get chest suppose someone tell ive made huge glaring errors,1 +reaching friend yes noim much thinking killing myself years getting worse recently realized dead inside life me outside things brought past still present realized even without them nothing want fight help want wait around future would like done one friend weve distant past three months id like reach talk him though even know would about want ask help know want but somehow want let know bad im feeling even let know want continue living problem arises distant emotional problems bad experiences knowing people committed redflag past figure farther away me less talk less killing hurt him reach out cause great distress im gone and after im pretty sure would blame himself think correct answer reach out positive reaching would help alleviate pain distress would selfishly adding his suppose im looking opinions and incredibly appreciate replies else talk this please refrain telling love me killing would waste talents world beautiful none relevant makes feel terribly ill,1 +friend drove away know ever trust someone again fuck feels never anything right,1 +wanting make amends vs knowing kill tw metooi feeling debilitating levels shame metoo coverage recently fixated creepy fucking loser nice guy ways selfishly hurt around me psychiatrist male basically tells im hard myself men news done far worse points lacking experience perspective know wrong want someone take seriously tell without minimizing things yo man dealt major depression since didnt lose virginity technically mention inexperienced socially awkward mentioned somewhat nice guy time good friends woman freshman year college ill call h h started showing interest exciting didnt get much lived dorm h would get bed cuddle watch movies virgin also depressed albeit higher functioning eventually asked liked said yes also told want relationship told ok soon began pestering herasking reconsider months still friends still cuddled became clear becoming less comfortable me kept asking reconsider basically treating like boyfriend months despite feelings felt entitled it told liked me entitled nice guy eventually told could longer friends me told contact her recommended see shrink blocked facebook justice served since graduating spent time alone lot time reflect try better person stayed away dating work entitlement issues anxiety around year ago started thinking h again still blocked wonder subject metoo wonder one reasons psychiatrist isnt taking seriously hes done something worse feel like progress ive made sham whatever good manage never undo selfidentity abuser pain ive caused women people kind enough care me back thinking justice left redflag shamefully selfish worry even bother put effort better person hobbies interests career h reappear life let everyone know manipulative creep many ways still am,1 +idk people complain mask hard wear whatever like legit forget take mask car literally makes difference,0 +edit request someone good editing willing help out ill pay,0 +people get comfortable point makes others uncomfortable comes personality people hating dark humor gotta wake pop ibuprofen numb everyone hurtin feelings mean bully people unless bash making joke cultures food cook something real one gonna eat like yams vagina,0 +im able post memes omg read rules,0 +cant take anymoreno one likes me say it dont person hates know me school killing me work piles upon demands people succeed friends belittle others im singled made fun of im lonely one likes real everyone fake im sure year old boy trapped like this say stupid stuff know why try stop cant cant focus school release games parents like that help me,1 + years leftmade decision tough im im right now friends family surrounded people care get something it drown work im busy working dont time think pain get better next years figure time take hands make change,1 +wanna know whos cool ethan_keith,0 +everyone stalking profile see u bitches,0 +honor dr seuss thought id give guys one favorite quotestoday you truer true one alive youer you,1 +alt care anymorei want already thinking constantly recently school coming soon feels like right time suffer longer,1 +shoutout electriciansrepairmen bring treats excited dogs theyre thing holding world together real mvps,0 +tried checking mental health care facility todayleft said planning hold hours minimum fuck that id rather go back work thank god wasnt professional place couldve trouble trying get filled signed paperwork least know thats option help either haha theres escape hell life,1 +wierd story found looking copypasta garden gnome noggin clontith walking around streets suddenly alleyway finds among us secks anime girl gnome asks wat amung us what among us among us responds saying secks wit anime girl ok said gnome anime girl cummed ok im cumming but wait said gnome there seems someone watching secks besides me points gnome ahh thats kinda sus said among us drip tip finally impostor reveals himslef jerma sus yes me responds evel jerma sus oh no said anime girl cumming every milliseconds hes gonna kill us all said amung us creamping anime girls pussy everything seemed end suddenly hero emerges darkness reciting banishing words said hero pepe frog pepe recited words sus jerma melted cum heres pic extremely gory moment sus jerma dead among us continued cumming inside anime girls mouth pussy anus pepe mighty hero went help people gnome noggin clontith walked home feeling safe hope liked ops story epic it,0 +im doomed life eternal misery death escapeage sexually assaulted first time naivete told dad said go room sleep never addressed it age sexually assaulted second time wiser time age two year long abusive relationship made petrified men loud voices sudden movements would trigger me parents best severely bullied th grade became suicidal mum found suicidal tendencies said go ahead it im watching first fullblown panic attack age parents rubbished it said theres thing panic attack said probably much drink they like people drink theyre orthodox asians im graduated college one best times life became independent anxiety time low well school published newspaper journal found love life professors became closest friends graduated applied eight different places job everyone reverted letter rejection last hope rejected today stuck parents place love controlling me autonomy mental health goes shit become different person nowhere else apply ive exhausted list contacts networks parents debt im exhausted ive realized happiness fleeting cruel joke job got one paid times average sales job interested academia research said wanted follow passion fool im paying it goodbye,1 +must admit reason bought movie big fan gackt huge fan hyde expecting good movie lot shots were shall say pleasing feminine eye slightly cheesy story mean synopsis sounded really there finished watching feel need tell world brilliance hyde gackt gave heartwrenching performances eyes still hot crying lasted throughout last half movie get sucked story really feel characters end element vampirism love easy overdo ruin movie subtly mixed storyline make something merely exotic normal setting rather random unnecessary addition story ranked firstand went back tried think giving last point came nothing ten ten is im much critic fact im bothering write review means either really hate movie really love it tell side im moon child,0 +im tired sufferingonly reason dont commit redflag hurt family im tired actually dont give fuck mental situation im feeling im tired living family would love end pain forever,1 +wtf kissing booth coming next year like bruhhhhh second one came,0 +right cannot feel enjoy anything anymore state cannot even feel love anymore relief anywhere besides sleep drugs think nearing end tracks symptoms severeend stage depression,1 +another text post thing hate times dont know else post weird ass humour to,0 +survey school project hi could take survey views gender equality would super awesome results totally anonymous school project httpsdocsgooglecomformsdefaipqlsfunqhmduxezaaxvxafgfyaunbpzkeydihitdja_djaviewformuspsf_link,0 +attempted suicide third grade why sick parents arguing sick one weird kid school nobody talks too sick seeing family poverty trying raise family course still love parents hate watching struggle needs is split hated seeing single parent cry handed bill christmas tears eyes barely able keep straight i however beyond belief grateful getting never owned much money beforenow comes self insecurities self doubt depressionredflag lovetrust issues spend hours day wondering ugly kid life would much easier dead i know killing look something do insecurities wondering skinny like people seen physical appearance eat enough self doubt good enough burden parents ever suicidal ideation held together want see pain circles around head eventually driving madness causes break tears know love hard time trusting people causing push awayif hard talk feelings peoplereach get help getting understand going inside mind life maybe id different point state mind rant post thoughtslife,1 +want die reason livei want suicidal want die want find things live for anything matter hard look cant find single reason stay couple things need cleaned up finished anything find keep going sad used think could keep pushing going something live back then ups downs suck know something side bad keep climbing mountains scraping valleys anything side cant see point anything could make happy even anything could hurt anymore everything could hurt already happened nothing matters enough even care now want this cant find real reason to one left me one notice much gone short span physical pain seem bad,1 +lifel,1 +every time pain heart hope ill dieto intensely connected someone months go away taken away memories pierce mind every fucking day cant handle it much pain crying pain mind rejection betrayal hate every single moment im alive spent time her messaging eating together making plans talking fucking connection thought would die together turn butterfly went much poverty heroin addiction fights happiness love longer talks me broke up friends something happened left drunk took heroin found strangers respond messages want talk me void void heart id rather electricity thousands volts snapped testicles go this pure emotional torture reality cruel beg god kill please every time pain heart happy maybe maybe heart attack kill me plan yet method sure get idea,1 +im real trouble mom caught fapping do,0 +hospital nearly weeksi hospital month redflag attempt end month felt lot better put different meds antidepressents though going better feel bad tried kill again im thinking everyday know do happy meds took away thought miracle seems last wrote plan next months firm decision feel better everything plan ex still ignores hates everything plan to ill end things then least say gave everything could story truly horrible plan write book end things,1 +cry easily movies admit one brought tears although ms streep fan performance excellent title defines sentence mothers love is first hour like characters changed movie went on movie also explained certain marriages last even though obstacles must see film,0 +worse tipranthi again depression anxiety more mentioned yesterday tried kill myself number one regret life could died grief way things after feel like completely different person way people treat me happy people treating better try kill self make love makes want throw roof mum never really sudden me know im ungrateful come this anyone am could go back time take tablets would hung instead considering redflag tak ibuprofen kill fuck liver kidneys work live life extra misery im undergoing therapy worrying suicidal thoughts ibuprofen answer,1 +wish could fighti fought tried fought hard life beautiful mine ive realized cant fight destiny itll keep destroying born worst luck welp fuck destiny ill leave terms smile face two middle fingers air,1 +maybe time goi got home work tonight nothing bad happened today still felt terrible all dropped college recently im living parents talked friends couple months theyve stopped trying contact me everythings fucked dad asked work went fine asked tomorrow why i want know says but why cant ask one damn question without treating like fucking inquisition jesus well tomorrow work why keep asking that because im dad care you have drinking again why fuck would ask that you never ask im unless want something you drunk you little shit never want hear again never you hear me why fight me i fighting you dont tell that fucking tell that always make bad guy always assume im get you guess whos paying new house last months me guess charged rent year me guess cleans kitchen fuckin basement playing videogames you never ask help you because to dammit grown man pull fuckin weight play dumb me im done playing stupid passiveaggressive game waiting ask help grow up what fuck say me shut your damn mouth this house dad gets chair walks me looks eyes wait start yelling something odd happens whywhy this lucas hes crying why fight me look feet why stop going schoolyour mom wanted succeedand youre what youre person thought would be point dad cant even speak anymore walks stairs slowly still sobbing know drunk know matters heard said heard pain voice saw disappointed look face almost wish wouldve stayed angry would easier deal with tried stop thinking happened watched movie laptop played assassins creed little while pain go away words still echoed mind youre person thought would be see road ahead college dropout degree crappy apartment barely getting by ashamed see family long lonely nights theres light end tunnel over nows good stopping point need end disappoint people life moms already grieving acting like ive died something maybe need finish job,1 +broke glasses broo cannot believe it every single glasses had broke break streak right dumb cant,0 +ate sushi im bored bro omg,0 +copped rteenagers merch ready get beat fuck go back school,0 +guys guys got first compliment like month happy omg facetiming girl friends one said cute happy,0 +dear girls really dont care boobs cm bigger mines devolving here grow different rates different times stop bragging aa cup lookin ass also likes different sizes yeah,0 +wavesmy suicidal thoughts come waves theyre hitting rn work fast food restaurant im currently hiding fact one coworkers sleeping manager hes already starting show favoritism idk weirdly contributing fact feel like everyone hates said shit wanting train job want out im fucking college dropout im failure familys eyes whats point cats even would probably happier roommate dont know want jump fucking bridge,1 +seen lot ppvs past entertaining intense ppv complete dvd ever seen dvd extras worth gives different view wrestlers act show such chris benoit interviewedge interview glimpse monday night wars erathe first match hogan winning tag title gold promotional talk additionally good music videobr br tag team table match bubby ray spike dudley vs eddie guerro chris benoit pretty good intense match start show many holds pure raw physicallity spike hold tables matches guerro benoit gave good pure wrestling skills mat br br wwe crusierweight championship jamie noble w nidia v billy kidman crowd really care either wrestler get interested kidman shooting star press usually people expect lot high flying cruiser weight championship little fact bad noble hit finisher one even cared knew you tell lack cameras flashing ending quick though br br wwe european championship jeff hardy v william regal ive never really liked regal wrestler lacks intensity style hardy impressive really get chance show high flying act although still performed good counters added needed fast pace match ended quickly perfect match br br john cena v chris jericho funny looking back cenas first ppv used act used dress used look watch interview pretty funny good intense match cena showing nice variety holds suplexes counters aerial jericho subpar definitely helped cena launch career cena winsbr br wwe intercontenital championship rvd v brock lesnar intense good match wrestlers styles really matched well screen brocks pure power raw energy vs rvds skill full moves quickness rvd looked great match better later matches edge cenaand entire match fast pace ending worked perfectly still preserved brocks undefeated streak giving rvd desserts home statebr br disqualification match booker v big show another solid match lacked certain intensity rvd match still good follow up although started kinda slow which always big show booker impressive sick move announcers table finisher awesome ending great upset big move booker tbr br wwe tag team championship hogan edge v christian lance storm mediocre match hogan comes like usual huge pop variety moves lacks intensity energy christian exactly greatest athletic abilities himself ended mediocre match best still ok ppv br br triple threat match undisputed championship rock v undertaker v kurt anglebr br easily match year far best triple threat match ever seen close falls plenty finishers stolen finishers raw energy intensity fast pace one could predict would come one going buy dvd would buy strictly match ending watch yourselfbr br overall solid ppv plenty extra goodies keep watching again although hard find i pay little usual dvd definitely worth money,0 +editor voice applications and maybe drawing applications animated explanationhistory video thinking making animated video not moving animation like powerpoint animation need help anyone reading editing talent experience making videos pm talk anyone drawing talent pm see skilled enough get part video digital art only unpaid final video make profit people worked usernames credits questions,0 +pills worki tried multiple times take sleeping pills highest dosage yesterday seem work anybody know why hand every time take them even sleep late rather wake earlier usual would appreciate someone tells reason it note please lecture things really appreciate help answer,1 +never seem write review imdb unless extremely surprised good bad movie is film falls first category every year try see nominees best foreign film oscars even know like as heaven seems fit bill plot sounds sugary sentimental slowfor tastes run towards original dark andor daring foreign cinema michael haneke francois ozon lot modern japanesekorean cinema as heaven sound particularly interestingit get released usa sat watch vcd found singapore preparing cross list dull beginning as heaven becomes rare film really become inspired happening screen weak points characters film pure stock characters wounded dreamer town bully battered wife loose woman yearning love repressed ministerthankfully theyre largely likable bunch well wellwritten wellacted ingela olsson ministers wife inger would nominated oscar performance english strong points music beautiful main song sung gabriella truly dramatic memorable keep eye feisty year old actress playing olga keeping dancing steps well younger ladies discuss ending say makes sense theyre lot emotional things happening last hour film quite sure theyre happening although nothing explained words makes sense movies comes fitting crescendo probably strongest swedish movie ive ever seen,0 +ive seen mystery men cop bit stick press general public take imdb vote instance overall feeling mystery men fun films definitely wittier socalled comedy films nearly cleverbr br the cast superb greg kinnear excellent geoffrey rush tom waits kinnears limo scene ricky jay perfect spoiled movie star imbues character right balance comic book quality realism make workbr br i admit pacing little places visuals certainly flash bang possibly detriment characterisation end day high concept film making little moments whats tiger lily many great ones film make worth repeated viewing,0 +think friend may committed redflag maybe rehab dont knowmy online friend lives florida i live jersey havent responded since saturday days found tried commit redflag thats havent heard thought phone stated broken recent events think maybe committed im really worried first name cant call ask wellness vist info im really scared,1 +new years resolution ill try procrastinate,0 +guys ever bust nut ur head rank felt like ur history absolute best orgasm first ever time think saw god also yw gross post ,0 +wanna killlll mysellfffhelppp,1 +nazarin directed luis bunuel presents extraordinary view religion mexico written director julio alejandro notable collaborator film put mexican cinema international map receiving grand prix cannes year disturbing film mr bunuel delves deep whats wrong churchbr br nazarin reckoning saint young priest seen living life poverty seedy pension city enough himself mind parting coin beggar appears window asking help time takes small room prostitute hurt fight another woman andara woman repays kindness burning room whole building nazarin seen taking countryside begging food andara beatriz two prostitutes old town follow him nazarins life parallels jesus fact saintly figure makes case humilitybr br of coursemr bunuel religion mind mr alejandro took upon create film ironic spain welcomed film released saw showing christian qualities reality acerbic satire catholic church ministersbr br francisco rabal spanish actor makes wonderful nazarin one best roles mr rabal worked extensively native country also mexico argentina rita macedo andara also excellent marga lopez also makes valuable contribution portrayal beatrizbr br a great film one cinemas master film makers luis bunuel,0 +really need somebody talk right nowim lonely fuck desperate anybody talk to struggling big time tonight think im abusive relationship entered way early ending previous one lasting years big troubles communication current partner result storming out leaving hours even days without contact makes suicidal unable think anything else im therapy two months really working at yet im ideas do tonight feels like end relationship feel defeated tried calling mental help hotlines cant reach anybody there know im breaking rules posting im sorry am really need somebody talk guess even know exactly im expecting character me ive never posted reddit before even tho ive lurking like years so obviously throwaway,1 +ching siu tungs tsui harks chinese ghost story aside one greatest wuxia pian films ever made beautiful romantic love story well impressively choreographed martial arts film belong every film lovers collection sorely missed hong kong superstar leslie cheung plays traveling tax collector spends night haunted temple staying temple meets colorful cast characters include swordsmen yin wu ma hsiao hou tree devil beautiful ghost lit sin seen played lovely joey wongbr br to free clutches evil tree devil must reincarnate body travel underworld defeat even powerful demonbr br enough good things cant said film pacing perfect great combination romance action fantasy humor feverishly paced finale leave little chance breathe chemistry wonderfully tragic joey wong leslie cheung whose legendary career ended much soon really allows viewer feel them indeed acting whole vivacious full life would say one fun viewing experiences ive ever had much credit goes wu portrayal mysterious swordsman yin overthetop persona disillusioned swordsman hell bent vanquishing evil leads great moments humor traditional hk drama wonderful score lush cinematography eye popping colors frenetic action pieces courtesy ching siu tung round wonderful film find copy anywhere can ,0 +know girl wants talk me girl talking bit friends weve worked projects together were introverts social weve texting bit pretty sided conversation im sure replying talking rude actually wants talk bit hard read body language emotions text anyone tips determine trying polite like start conversations,0 +constant anxietyi first anxiety attack entire body went numb hard time breathing scared ever time coping fine felt little normal around going lot changes gaining responsibilities work never asked for im also getting paid responsibilities feel like stuck dont belong time feel like dont belong anywhere fantasize going sleep waking up dont like thoughts cant shake them quit talking family friends get drunk almost every night searching something sure exactly want move away now somewhere thats always warm anyone else anxiety advice feel like normal human,1 +gonna lie uslendertrap epic,0 +hate everything day even celebrate day put here fake wishes stupidly cringe posts instagram fake well written messages love makes believe people care me false humiliating want birthday also death day poetically started raining hate hate every day spend earth birthday,1 + more dir barbet schroeder br br for film viewers agreed pretty average im impressed quite many differing interpretations offered it ive scoured web quite briefly ive already informed more is th centurystyle romance allusion story icarus plain film full dull people interest pink floyd completists fair say then critical reception mixed would argue wildly disparate readings barbet schroeders directorial debut proof enough more anything pretty average filmbr br neither masterpiece course approached more easy rider antonionis blowup timecapsule film snapshot era despite differences pace style content movies similar flaws either vague downright unlikeable characters acting seems slightly adrift reality relaxed editing abrupt endings left viewers indignant movies never try persuasive meet audience half way are man problem long left souvenir experience thankfully more offers several truly memorable images sounds suggestions viewer saves itbr br stefan young man arrives paris fresh studies germany first part film follows falls group french hipsters accompanies devastatingly cool selfconscious parties bars meeting estelle two characters become sexually romantically involved promises follow ibiza advice friend charlie icarus thing comes play sun pursuing her may able guess endsbr br ibiza idyll far away bustling urgency overpopulated paris naive stefan knows must good thing estelle remains elusive erratic island less desirable underbelly cared little either characters unfocused pursuit somewhere really free action pared two film becomes poignant quite suddenly one single wistful exchange dialogue remote villa inhabit place volatile love crystallises went watching fading optimism utterly enraptured cant think many films done thisbr br the relationship stefan estelle real human see go lifedefining intimacy disillusionment cruel coldness take lot drugs cavort naked terraces rocks beaches lives revolve around nothing beautiful mediterranean surroundings while situation essence freedom emotional openness experience sake stefan control downfall future ibizabr br pink floyds score perfect fit exoticism intimacy foreboding more one memorable inclusions along mosquito netting around estelles bed hallucinogenic exuberance around windmill which appears soundtrack albums front cover scene take acid escape heroin withdrawal illustrative fundamental flaws couple cannot land without crash maybe theyve come close wantedbr br stefan never makes contact family friends arrival paris left presume idea is s counterculture movies dwell debauchery excess media voyeurism schroeder instead presented us story focused upon one man backs little corner somewhere world quietly disappears,0 +glitch human body really strong ok evening trying cut something knife put left hand opposite side knife keep still pushed knife object hard ik im real dumbass anyways knife eventually went straight object went half way ring finger hit bone finger started dripping shit tone blood weird thing literally felt no pain like pain thankfully nobody kitchen rushed bathroom fast put rushing water sink still pain little bit underwater tested could perfectly move pain could literally see bone meat inside damaged knife too went hospital gave stitches tell think,0 +hate morningsi used love mornings long long time ago and years first seconds waking still bliss yet knowing am am soon awarness comes poweful dull pain around chest everything feels heavy feel sick much resistance anything physically hurts stand up try put autopilot wash face good routine drink glass water too still look forward coffee morning im keeping everything minimum damn hard pointless dress theres point feel much energy could anything get short bursts motivation everything forced feel sick see sunny outaide said would go jogging start crying crying hours now cant stop type tears cry let something cheat pure pain hopelessness venting friend woke stupid complaints know say still thinks allright good person sometimes get angry even people care even though main problems based hard time beong comfortable around people cant enjoy life anymore hurts much cant even enjoy present focus now no know naturemovie plothaving tea beautiful hate cant part it cant turn music chill hurts never fully relaxed sometimes put back little get hopes living loving actually miss something never see future without it see point anything except making otherslife easier fault im like this still hurts like hell want anymore feel trapped false hope theres nothing look forward im much pain could tropical island still feel like this want anywhere actually cant think fulfilling future someone like anymore im passing by,1 +grew southern west virginia im age or maybe year older than homer hickam author the rocket boys book forming truestory basis heartwarming filmbr br and relate closely west virginia coalmining theme stunning effect sputnik time october us rocket boys went make great lives themselves went get degrees physics computer engineering sputnik woke lot young people science gap ussr us cold war daysbr br this wonderful film everyone ages grew west virginia late s itll touch core beingbr br everyone get it watch it recommend friends wholl thank many times,0 +still salty something guys two months ago told guys girl crush ranting feminism eventually led asking question think women allowed walk around top less like men know say said no would made look like misogynist frminism said yes thing rapist asked guys say not one comment hates said know honestly showed much bitch not feminis bitch im glad want anymore seriously supposed say,0 +although alive feel like died long time agoi want anymore wish everyone life never knew existed could go peacefully wish spirit could watch family friends live happy lives without me,1 +wrote notes know how tomorrowive taken care will debts name go husband wrote friend check husband friend find hes good emotionally eventually process it cant let husband find me wrote notes solid plan plenty enough pills various categories one put sleep rest slow breathing ill fall asleep main issue funeral costs want cremated help lessen it weird ive never calm prepared before guess means it wish someone else though happier messed up im im tired guess wanted last words,1 +terrible day weeks months yearstoday favorite holiday worked ditched everyone caresweeks stuck car sullen teens grouchy husband visiting relatives introvert excruciating put smile managed scream anyonemonths prepared foster program trigger past bad prepared adjustments parenthood fucking hate parent every level cannot go back nowyears years struggling working better never enough soul exhausted know anymore empty empty ever life hate everyone regret everythingall want walk away common sense says that would make feel worse long runa stupid meme facebook kept calling sucide hotline felt like this alone world theripist disappointed mei special unique one cares everything nothing,1 +one close friends mad do im assuming shouldnt talk bit tips ,0 +im losing myselfi cant fucking handle anything want throw wood chipper regret after beat piss thighs hands theyll bruise itll hurt walk again scratched hell scalp face fucked hair silently screamed screeched gods name him pent hardly act cant say anyone thats fucking dramatic feel like lunatic stuck head imagining getting ripped apart hurting fucking school work procrastinated fucking due tomorrow end term want eat shotgun shell paint wall red brain phone silently girlfriend couldnt bring say thing despite raving happened hung eat dinner silently stewing half hour even though help words away want beat legs grind crunch hydraulic press want rip hair scalp pieces im losing goddamned mind saw sticker teachers door said god gave life thought youd enjoy it shouldve thought twice end this end me,1 +difference betwen ass fridge fridge doesnt fart take meat,0 +work makes depressed reminds fighting tooth nail till day die wage cannot get close affording rent anywherei affraid work want everything handed me want live want able stay warm eat without worrying money want able buy food necessities without equating price many therapy appointments wasi want live want want live want feel like walking trapi tired seeing articles job makes depressed bigger problem going on want exhausted time want energy despite chronic health issuesi want feel like deserved things adult scam,1 +fuck dick going toaster toaster going bath,0 +die dont fucking mourni fucking hate,1 +went hours without pickingcutting lips honestly proud believe progressing incredibly hard stressful resist must better,0 +holy fuck im old like actual fuck two months im really dont know fuck whole life gone,0 + hollywood map centre cinematic world little decade become site multimillion dollar industry vertically integrated studio system established calmer quarters filmmaking factory taking time little selfreflection last command heart may classic story prestigious man fallen hard times frames tale within bleak look cinema unceremoniously recreates reality production process could mercilessly impersonal written lajos biro scene long enough knowbr br taking centre stage man time among hollywoods celebrated immigrants emil jannings coming states jannings worked mainly comedy master hammy yet hilariously welltimed performance often pompous authority figures doddering old hasbeens makes entrance last command latter first looks another janningss scenerychomping caricatures however story progresses actor gets demonstrate range showing turns delicate frailty serene dignity eventually awesome power presence finale never quite stops blustering exaggeration the german acting tradition knowing nothing subtlety constantly holds attention absolute control every facet performancebr br the director another immigrant albeit one around hollywood bit longer background european film industry nevertheless joseph von sternberg cultivated image artistic imperious teutonic kino meister the von made up way took distinctive approach craft note picture handling pace tone great example first russian flashback scenes open carefullyconstructed chaos movement converging directions audience become part camera pulls back extras dash across screen then jannings arrives everything settles down janningss performance incredibly sedate measured players around begin mirror effect mere presence restored orderbr br sternberg appears show distaste violence allowing grimmest moments take place screen yet implying happened flow images almost poetic fact really seems allround lack interest action scene prisoners revolt sternberg takes aloof objective stance camera eventually retreating flyonthewall position compare following scenes jannings evelyn brent complex medley pointofview shots intense closeups thrusting us right midst interactionbr br as personality set would seem sternberg much like cold callous director played screen william powell fact powells portrayal probably something deliberate parody even sternberg would on unfortunately harsh attitude make easy man work with coupled focus technical resources human ones smaller performances pictures leave little desired jannings displays classic hamming charles laughton mode works dramatically appears noone told costars comedy evelyn brent fairly good giving us good emoting overplaying there performance comes close jannings powell himself little odd see normally amiable star thin man great ziegfeld playing figure stern humourless like male ninotchka good job revealing smouldering emotional intensity beneath hardhearted exteriorbr br the last command could easily ruffled feathers studio offices tends happen disparaging commentary filmmaking process even relatively tame example like this least believe many studio heads would displeased behindthescenes view threatened mystique moviemaking still much alive point turned out impact picture jannings first ever academy award best actor well best writing nomination lajos biro according sources although issue little vague nomination best picture significant since academy tiny institution time first awards ever bit selfindulgent backslapping hollywood elite elite not recognised good material saw it willing reward it,0 +finland fact sauli niinist alpha male,0 +hurtive depressed last years thanks medication supportive surrounding ive managed live it got worse last couple months friendsfamily always managed get killing myself indirectly directly yesterday someone love dearly assumed worst treated terribly say im hurt understatement feel terrible im surrounded supportive friends family just hurts much know possible mentally hurt much physically feel hurt wanna take life stop hurting also send message person hurt me you,1 +sick lifei friends bad relationship parents sister sick feeling depressed sad thought kill kill last week make move tomorrow day life aint me please say think parents care anything do,1 +fuck shit so next house retirement home type thing woth around people living it pretty cramped since ive help chores pre qurantine but last week so havent seen people living there originally thought taking quarantine seriously but turns covid one died yesterday week owners said anything till now worst part is neighbors come put said tests came positive likely due talking people retirement home fuck shit dude fuck owners fuck im pissed,0 +lifes really weird right think like person school like crush know ill fail someone life hate soul seen get angry recently im switching career choice food choices im turning soldier main ive spent tf got weeks school,0 +posted rdepression became aware belongs hereim tired life heading dark road unsure person consider friend shares opinion pretending satisfy feeling accomplishment im tired lies people say make feel better themselves im tired games people play regard feelings others im tired trying make friends someone hear person go misleading accounts obviously fake stories people one else world want partake bullshit stories exaggerations im also tired working ass pay child support woman loved cant afford live im tired trying everyday wish wake disappointed alarm ringing every morning know much handle already want handle anymore it hate became poor life plus decades alive im equipped decent life bent backwards called friends im done trying way tiring,1 +need motivation study homework th grader started online school last week hate cant focus lessons shit comes homework either copy year really important cant get low grades cant bring work need advice motivation helped become better student anything motivate study,0 +really struggling past year girlfriend slowly become distant today found affair older brother past year so lifes hard carry anymore point anybody anything live ready go,1 +girlfriend hiding redflag attempthello all first off thank help community so gf early s lately case blues despite worries assured fine hindsight lot warning signs overly apologetic blaming many things tried get call professional resisted last week confided got really sick drinking assured things peaked felt better less spiteful herself got hill speak ive kept eye spent much time can yesterday found friend actually trying die night actually admitted publicly fact alternate social media accounts brought yet feel like ive probably making things unintentionally worse lately overly available vocal coming problems however brought either sitting together browsing account quickly scrolled post recognized see general communicative feelings im worried confused next let know knowwhat else do,1 +anyone like chili cheese tater tots want know im one,0 +giggity giggity giggity giggity giggity giggity giggity,0 +relief felt realised could itive meds years family built foundation lies ive given dreams practical cant even read book anymore whats point trying make sort future looking field marginal interest in coronavirus struck im stuck home parents welcomed home telling prepare arrival brother biggest abuser reason ive victims mentality got picked everywhere went went online searched final solution saw chemicals ill need readily available am never felt kind relief felt saw that never felt good peaceful used care loved ones seem important anymore know im trying say first message here im superstitious maybe sign,1 +hey everyone ive drifting back toward suicidal thoughts lately really need get something big chesti lot mean lot drugs quite opposite someone age would do ie say drugs never really any thats all thanks reading gonna go drugs,1 +goodbyeokay over im officially defeated things suck always continue get worse never gets better,1 +alonei wake feeling sad go sleep feeling sad repeat try things take medication like should days go social things days go dr therapist days always start end way friends alone apartment probably ruined college ruined relationships alone tired building crash think time fell far think killing almost constantly,1 +robin hood men tights worth watching recently watched ive become cary elwes fan one leadroles moments really made crack hard expect know funny even nd time around still fall chair cast great course especially robin locksley himselfcary blinkin sheriff little john dont let name fool you veryy big lol everyone elsebr br there moments course film tried make comedic scene necessarily laugh it okbr br this second time cary elwes patrick stewart appeared film together way worked lady jane fun see them years later older awwwwbr br its definitely worth watching quite hilarious indeed,0 +im really fitting college even friend group im still one person friend group thats really kind there one person people dont care much about one people rarely acknowledge talk to guy kind hangs back tolerated hate it thats guess,0 +theres point human trash aliveim useless stupid ugly make nobody happy annoy everyone im boring im quiet make everybody hate me im ugly im fat everybody better without deserve die pathetic worthless im massive disappointment failure meant born would want die well knew real life thats okay deserve death pain around pills overdose on want fail end alive liver failure shit,1 +took lot whatever arms reach definitely whole new bottle mg strength ibuprofen along bottle tylenol unsure much lot benadryl oxycodone good news found passed bed hour later from last heard sounded normal taken hospital immediately max hour half passed treatment started doctors really saying actively counteracting medicine get worse gets better labs reflecting getting worse giving indication chances possible long term damage etc know fully come around anyone give real perspective realistic expectations best worst case scenarios please thank you brother overdosed last night,1 +bands lastest song indie kinda prog influenced httpsyoutubeborszg spotify also httpsopenspotifycomtracknlonolzfasrgnxtnsiwfllbcqfukpzuza listening feedback,0 +idk want dominated girl or dominant girl horny times ahead,0 +point idea life lol alittle tired thinking do wanna take break everything abit able to crazy times nice day everyone cheer d,0 +really want kill myselfim questioning long term relationship job friends family go times need physical mental health slowly deteriorating im done it years going nowhere made hit breaking point ive hospitals stayed mental facilities ive therapy ive seen psychiatrists ive exhausted every option life continues drastically go downhill tonight especially hard night one talk even get mind things friends family couldnt even find someone reddit talk to cant even get one person online wanna talk me fuck live for seen zero improvement life many years now im exhausted point think time call quits move onto whatevers waiting side,1 +keep overthinking hesitating ft girl big argument something stupid wish never weeks ago arranged apology explanation everything did checked friends see solid know happened said perfect listen really care shes important dont wanna lose stupid drama misunderstood things felt like everyone hates isnt true fault never went people talked trash always tell defended say nice things always second guesses it talked little bit broke friendship cause knows depressed severely something dont know would still answer im glad does days ago finished apology tried asking ft always told cause busy couldnt asked question around oclock one time think asked like morning something said couldnt wasnt lying think shes starting go bed early now shes active instagram past pm see cause shes insta dms dont know makes hesitant nervous constantly overthink worse happen decline makes even want call her im thinking asking ft like dont know grab attention wanna say something thatll give chance speak her really wanna redeem myself wish could it hesitate dont know though shes instagram non stop day whenever get back something take break little shes always there get feeling chest give courage try least do patient dont like im feeling want talk her,0 +done deserve hellfuck world everyone living it im done,1 +byeif youre reading im either dead kill myself im sorry couldnt find happiness life anymore nothing left tried honestly im done one probably cares goodbye give,1 +generation damn toxic people generations toxic im talking video games kinda irritating someone gets really mad toxic whenever something dont like happens,0 +always loved muppets though childrens entertainment likable muppets was muppets very funny probably likable childrens characters ever br br not muppets show also starred many films muppets christmas carol muppets treasure island first muppets movie muppet movie also like show films excellentbr br the muppet movie got started kermit frog used live swamp one day movie executive tells auditions frogs hollywood kermit takes hollywood along way runs lots people fozzie bear gonzo great miss piggy also evil man trying capture kermitbr br all muppet films highly enjoyable mean funny film many film appearances steve martin mel brooks elliot gould carol kane richard pryor orson welles muppet films enjoyable hear jason segel going star one soon cant wait see it,0 +girlfriend keeps making comments redflagdear rsw girlfriend keeps making comments committing redflag things like i wonder much nail polish remover id drink die i spent hours class today wondering best way die is think best would slit wrists run heavy traffic know do ive told much love much hurts hear things like this keeps saying things recently started pill im worried something exacerbating it brushed suggestion talk doctor stopping pill do get this edit point reference college,1 +females named callie here gf named callie went grandmas couple days ago weird thought,0 +hopeit bad thing sensitive logical see good future eats alive short time ive learned everything fades time hold onto everything everyone leaves,1 +rainy day much do surfing movie network channels found one starting gave chancebr br the watched became engrossed story old story working class underdog trying make sport time think usually played wealthy upper class movie every bit interesting seabiscuit also based true storybr br the acting believable casting brilliant golfers please miss one golf individual sport would serve plot people golf works well story class distinction snobbery seem involve play gamebr br bottom line feel good movie well put together always fun see think better others get taken peg two,0 +great cast great acting great music character movie stories personalities vivid great movie missed,0 +back again tucking inside longlooks like urges die never really go away,1 +sorry thisdo tell tell kids around anymore,1 +friend mostly ignoring week idk say m close friends f years texted pretty much every day much school year usually lot since covid started since stuck home past week taken anywhere hours ignoring texts whole day barely saying anything me long normal text conversations earlier week short conversations snapchat seems fine like theres significant difference snaps even little text serious mental health struggles idk related im generally confused honestly super weird sudden change almost year texting times day every daybasically question text asking shes taking literal days respond shes okay tldr friend basically ignoring many months talking tons every day confused say,0 +tell redflag answeryou cant plain simple life worthless die every single one us whats point prolonging inevitable hell matter die years now might say what loved ones would feel killed yourself well ill tell this nobody really cares anybody else themselves coming place angst truth human beings understand self know long certain self exists put simply parents would upset would feel arbitrary love me even simply love real chemical reaction brains top this every single thing life get rush dopamine literally nothing else throw feel good bullshit me go ahead try convince life worth living,1 +saw film boston internation festival womens cinema last night saddened hear ms troche tell us in qa screening expect see much us distribution due insistence including socalled gay content fantastically entertaining comedy seems american audiences might enjoy much way enjoyed the full monty really unfortunate kind ridiculous shots two boys kissing keeping away mainstream theaters wonderful cast fabulous script course rose troches direction make one funniest films ive seen,0 +dont afraidi wanted let know need help tell someone,1 +australian chat lines closed need talkas title aussie lines closed spent skype minute phone call number lifeline irc here,1 +okay pretty damn good episode much better credit receivesbr br the camera work splendid best yet love final shot atmosphere fantastic costumes great guest cast minus helpless victims strong br br what like episode many things left unexplained change sex whats purpose theyre aliens kind never shown later mythologybr br im giving episode high three stars one favorites yet plot holes bother me still gonna let ruin entertainment,0 +movies made suffer loved it loved it haunted days think erika kind character simultaneously loathe lament terrifying sex scene ever caught film best hanekes work far living director redefine pace since kubrick violence film gorgeous word film selfhatred sentence film trying find love order stop hating finding hopeless hope,0 +someone give reasons live probably edgy cant finde right now someone wanna talk something ,0 +running optionsmy life general going downhill past year started passing uncle felt quite close to suffered panic attacks depression kept calm outside people assumed ok around end may learned girlfriend almost two years cheating another guy ended honestly ended cruel treated poorly would try nice still maintained conversation month around june sister suffered cerebral palsy passed away really took turn worse recovered decently uncle passing handle sister passing hide emotions anymore exgirlfriend tried comfort me pushed away cruel her became cynical rude asshole today developed horrible anger issues still cant cope stress either break take anger went agnostic fullblown atheist pushed away lot people close friends understand wasam going put it feel reason friends cynical normally people like us fast forward little month ago august early december missed exgirlfriend attempts reconcile ended poorly me decided actually try work emotions anger issues believed changed approximately months worked weeks anger issues came back realized stopped worked together help me thursday left stating still need change honestly came surprise everything going quite well made new steps together even plans near future want talk all talks planning together future last thing kept going ive lost her,1 +f wishi think hate black sades mm gaming headsets microphone noise cancellation music headphones blackgreen ps new xbox one laptop tablet pc mobile phones wired headphone bgic cause wish sucks,1 +got sexually abusedi cant take anymore ive literally treatment depression whole life guy forced sexual acts kind promise relationship said want full on sex later literally feel like stabbing knife throat,1 +fuck environment people go thru shit n im still going thru shit sorry u dont like except im not,0 +pros cons dating me pros cons youll date,0 +gender sexuality even need label ive crisis last hour kind realized things used think im bi preference women thinking realized im specific genderers like feminity im attracted girls trans girls femboys really care whole gender stuff also even tho im biologicaly girl almost completly happy it sometimes feel like crossdressing basically trying boy even day would make feel bit better im sorry offended anyone im confused keep looking answers ignore labels me,0 +woman talk cbt phone minutes information,0 +nightsit seems like nights im completely alone worst much time think one would care killed myself ill never anything life hurts breathe want go,1 +cpu aio cooling leak know water cooling systems pc often fail quite easily planning water cool cpu aio wanted know risk leakage aio problem full water cooled system,0 +killing tonight im sorryim sorry mom wanted strong cant anymore today lost everything someone looked to friends person loved everyone left fucking sooner keep looking something bright nothing here fucking die already,1 +strangely version open eyes mature nuanced aided hindsight crowes screenplay lot tighter fleshed amenabars original spanish filmmaker get credit thinking story first theres doubt crowe improved slightly notice idea lead open eyes know almost everything lead vanilla sky thats mean fleshed out,0 +ive wasted hours life nothing today school received grades mine pretty good mediocre failed one angry teachers given worse grades deserved hate me means hours genuinely spent studying putting effort nothing afternoons nothing weekends lost nothing maybe youre asking yourself hey least passed majority classes although thats true parents dont seem understand worked ass trimester decent grades parents like asian parent stereotype european,0 +important discussion opinion men,0 +scrolling reddit am asleep idk im tired playing much crash team racing today need sleep,0 +almost killed myselfi loaded ruger mm head cold barrel tempting wife would fine kids tells every day shit help way hate myself life joke thinking funeral today people would would wifes family would feel obligated people want day work paid day work everyone redflag living twelve pounds force trigger needs pulled put lbs force mine close think ill start saving bullets see many times get close first time ive close like this tried hang tree limb broke ive also taken handful oxy ended throwing up documentary saw redflag forest japan base mt fuji bet view amazing ive always wanted go japan one way ticket sound bad maybe ill go actually it,1 +sure might taught turning light car meant certain death werent also taught rolling window really fast would make car fucking implode,0 +matador hitman movie liteif say hitman movie violence never really shown often introduced first scared another retread mids gangsterhitmanhipsterdark comedy happily surprised realized sweet humorous story friendship nothing terribly exciting happens film every bit kept grinning three leads best chemistry big screen offered recent years looks like great time making film together writing sharp though times felt script adapted stage play one set dialog scenes good film probably remember long time complete joy good film,0 +teacher stopped using protection accident started using protection again however damage done feel used protection like did wouldnt situation people say using protection embarrassing say safe plus relatively inexpensive dont see wouldnt want use protection iphone xs pristine weeks ago took case screen protector confident wouldnt drop it did back phone cracked corner since then started using case again wont change fact phone damaged ive always fan protection every phone collection iphone oldest phone own pride joy iphone xs max drop rated case tempered glass screen protector id rather deal damaged casescreen protector damaged phone,0 +mentally ill continue living much damage already done realistically sort opportunities even have plethora mental illnesses progressively getting worse worse abilities function work drive focus things conversations taken nosedive physical health started take tumble well metabolism noticeably slowed down im exhausted frequently moments brain fog forgetfulness im unable distract pacify entertainment im uninsured unable get type treatment issues almost went broke seeking therapy previously work slightest cannot afford type medication type hospital visit certainly insurance im danger losing job despite looking jobs place cant find would pay well plenty work experience relevant skills im underqualified real jobs aforementioned mental illnesses inability drive also major factor this due faculties getting worse im unable learn things learn skills ive tried number different creative hobbies avail ive tried getting computer programming music writing among things avail friends family relative parent live also mentally ill treats im sort highfunctioning special needs child im stuck toxic relationship draining energy me making exhausted anxious perpetual fear partner im getting old ive fraction life experiences knowledge people years younger do im constantly embarrassed age ive achieved amounted nothing compared peers compared teenagers point im sexually broken unable fully enjoy intimacy this relationship strained im deathly afraid prospect finding another relationship know nobody want deal someone like situation especially considered problems everything getting much worse short span time,1 +ending tomorrowi diagnosed depression anxiety years ago professional help work always say shit nothing changed feel even worse addicted xanax plan killing tomorrow see change anything wanted say goodbye feel like best place it,1 +buddy manucciroy scheider solid chance leading roleheads secret undercover police squad called sevenups whose tactics necessarily follow exact ways law get job done way without anything leaked press gives freedom expand means getting criminals working detectives policeman nab buddy pal childhood named vitotony lo biancowho swaps information regarding mob types shysters working streets nyc buddy know vito hatching scheme using names buddys check listhe book open taking notes provided vito know friend copied names written within mindto set mob families series mob kidnappings eliciting cash thanks two copposers moonthe alwaysvillainous richard lynchand bobill hickmanworking him scheme goes awry one sevenups killed vito becomes fearful knows buddy hes doggedly someoneespecially one murderedbr br extremely underrated cop flick thrilling car chase new york city buddy follows kidnapping copimposters trying get killing partner film overly complex plot setup realize ringleader scheming mobsters scheider never given credit deserves fine lead actor emotional range see losing cop friend takes toll him film briskly paced good action sequences sets interesting plot betrayal friends greed comes childhood friendship seems like smooth crimespree evil mob families get cops killed,0 +know im able that since tell doctor truth begin with say doctor clearly believe follow appointment bf waiting room admit anything teary eyed however anyones experience worth go police,1 +need support dealing lot stupid shit piling again worst problems head injury years ago still fucking day day basis get exhausted easily mentally physically cannot remember shit always pain unless take prescribed drugs drink people making feel bad it nothing do seeing neurologist friday right now need uplifting words please depressed today,1 +successful lifea typical life work hard go school get good job usually means sitting cubicle day life like robot live paycheck paycheck get married couple kids send school can become drones tax revenue soon retire promise great life youve hoping for go florida live years unable much body worn die losing touch family along way lucky take week year get little piece experience a vacation beforehand fight little nuances struggle worry whole way through life constantly beating down life worth fighting for really easy change go different path some yes many others either gifted intelligence athleticism etc lucky,1 +afraid brother he will kill andor othersmy brother severe depression years comes room eat tv dinners day go bathroom exception goes charter school twice week grades good failing dropped hobbies past months begun breaking treasured possions random room locks door smashes things hours refusing open even id pound scream outside door refused stop punching wall eventually taken emergency room broken hand contantly says future going kill himself also talks killing mother spanked him screamed him poured soup mouth form punishment when little mother refuses aknowledge anything abusive still live parents year old unemployed college student trying get job applied jobs week family friends financial resources parents brother refuse professional help live constant fear one day knock door refuses answer killed himself do,1 +humiliated ballet class lay stretches ballet class girl approached got hold legs spread apart proceeded stomp testicles girls class heard groaning gathered round watch audience watching crush nuts ,0 +spoilers film sniper undoubtedly based exploits legendary us marine sniper carlos gunny hathcock unassuming softspoken mister rogers lookalike ran score much confirmed unconfirmed vietcong north vietnamese military kills two tours namwhich shows deadly effective trained military sniper really isbr br tom berenger cool clam deadly sgtthomas beckett whos end career top us marine sniper later movie realizes life civilian pointless since theres nothing outside skills learned us marines unless decides become mob hitman backett reluctantly accepts fate lifetime professional killer countrybr br the story film sniper focused sgtbeckett assistance former sharp shooting silver medalist us government agent richard miller billy zane sent deep inside panamanian jungle two snipers take rebel general miguel alveraze frederick miraglittoa colombian drug kingpin raul ochoa carlos alveraze whos supporting planned military takeover country br br we see earlier movie sgt beckett scope take rebel leader feel best scene sniper shows step step sgt beckett help spotter cpt papich aden young job theres also subplot later aborted movie rebel sniper desilva eward wiley stalking beckett later killed papich waiting lifted jungle military helicopter would thought deadly cat mouse played two would culminate movie ended sgt beckett trouble dispatching desilva early film using unsuspecting miller baitbr br what hurt movie ironically last fifteen minutes story went one shot one kill sniper movie rambolike ending sgt beckett agent miller fighting entire battalion rebels bullets flying thick london fogbr br sniper still well worth watching fact tells story person really glamorized war movies solitary killer kills precision skill master diamond cutter accomplished neurosurgeon total secrecy,0 +suffering depression redflag years made even basic daily activities interactions feel like chore since life going haywire finally decided seek professional help ecounselling sessions possibleare free online counselling services available india provide counsellings via calls emails video chats yes anyone help them also opt free counselling online rather paid ones which pretty expensive considering undergrad rn seeking help,1 +day random questions socks off u get mean,0 +let explain happened today fight mom nowhere said if killed nobody would cry funeral already made post life anyway hearing went roof started crying screaming talking unfair treatment life given me new city friends nothing nobody talk to really want let hatred consume maybe already did really know lost,1 +ive set goal help motivate myselfi need something help motivate myself ive spent last months feeling basically lost time change that next months intend save least obtain sort employment provide least income annually surgery repair hip heart diagnosed treated get shape including regaining pack cutting body fat increasing total weight least lbs accomplish goal intend reward trip country love travel ive always wanted it always reason though whether financial otherwise im going put aside reasons go im going go it spend new years eve another country matter takes preferably someone accompany me,1 +id like help seclet say consider current high risk redflag want advice things cant talk anyone know about year ago really bad place really want go detail lets say rejected everyone everything mattered time set deadline within month so number things didnt go way would go end it consider rational person spur moment thing taken months internal debate decide it extremely detailed plan avoid failure correct type pills place wouldnt found done forth was point least completely ready die obviously see things turned around theyre miles better still remember feeling planned death certain done deal cant describe feels exactly almost physical coldness thats need advice stop feeling like this,1 +dont readi really sorry survived last time one knew tried ones leaving behind one could done anything fault trust better im gone one less idiot thats way repair things destroyed humans destroyed hope feels better without me course sorry changes nothing hope god tells take care loved ones,1 +attempted first uproots wins im playing dont vote anyone elseyou win medal im easily bribed edit make rules downvote didnt want easy,0 +end mei cannot cannot fucking it another year fuck fuck fuck social redflag friends redflag skipping lunch want seen eating alone fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck senior year starts month,1 +energy left meim almost thirty since graduated high school fucked everything life job job job moving over one fucked relationship another depressed lately today latest relationship disintegrated im steam thought ending everything seems like relief freeing,1 +fragglerock excellent way schindlers list excellent great watch children adults genders big noses seen hinting towards phallic symbols way hr puff n stuff hinted towards marijuana smoking kids love movie enjoyed much child father showed movie child enjoyed well pointed exaggerated noses phallic symbols although time clue were movie comedy adventure storyline wacky cheerful shall enjoy together,0 +comically large spoon im afraid using gt,0 +want kill myself know really matter lowvalue male individualit nothing testement much wolrd wants shut feeling certain way want oversaturated mind logic point longer allowed feel emotions point kill yourself logical nothing works end life sense empowering too point empowerment emotions positive emotion ive allowed feel,1 +might run post voice subreddit wanna know good commentating voice actually,0 +alright waited long enough get egg nog time year get nog even kills damn it,0 +fuck u covid dad lost job im fuckin livid dudes working company years way even born today told theyre letting go im fucking worried dad able support brothers tuition would make ask help mom whos already struggling support tuition fucking hell man know im lucky guy want expense others least good thing father finished house got fired yeah mom dad unofficially divorced living separately,0 +well time day tell deep story rdr is probably one best story gaming history extremely tragic end,0 + weeks pregnant bipolar suicidalhi nd pregnancy contemplated terminating early depression bad seemingly perfect life wonderful fianc beautiful year old nice house suburbs bipolar wrecks havoc that months ago spun control went manic cheated wonderful man broke a month wedding called quits got back together august immediately decided still getting married wanted another baby tries conceived baby boy lost severe depression point redflagi struggle whether want baby im thinking quite often redflagbut want hurt unborn child,1 +movie one favorite comedies time dialog crisp pace fast clever comedy interesting look goes behind scenes television news businessbr br there many funny linesa couple favoritesbr br ernie merriman sarcastically must nice always believe know better always think smartest person room jane seriously no not awfulbr br aaron must good looking jane know that aaron one invites bad looking idiot roombr br the performances holly hunter albert brooks william hurt absolutely brilliant even years later remember movie well often forgotten wonderfully funny joan cusack love scene newsroom personnel racing beat deadline many funny scenes hard pick favorite highly recommend film,0 +pornhub recommend gay porn bitch im ladies fellas stop showing pp plz,0 +reason im really shaky sudden dont even feel weird bad all maybe little cold nothing else yet upper body shaking lot maybe im tired idek,0 +reason im good mood today tell you loooong time good mood,0 +nothing like hit random crying spells thoughts suicide excuse communal areas house extended family mocks behavior suck man want try anymore want die defeated man disease ruined me skipped everything fear cannot keep friends anymore believe ever right mindset children struggling handle school cope drugs alcohol half person used be absolute loser disappointment want disappear sure much longer point five years cannot even work nerve kill selfgod help tell disappointment family,1 +sorry vent one tell to lost friends week fucked huge way inner turmoil bad things like lie broke trust spoke poorly them know actions warrant losing them loved them somehow despite this alone right scary painful know consequence actions hurts much know do recently broke boyfriend chest head feels like going explode went hospital earlier week get admitted inpatient scared try get help afraid failing ill feel hopeless now feel like redeeming myself want get better want change hard one along way one talk to tried reaching people life circumstances prevent us talking scared feel getting desperate cannot see way feeling like,1 +never proper doctors could diagnose me theres long story there suffer redflag abused entire life physically abused teacher years old mother physically mentally emotionally abused me left house ,1 +stucki feel like im backed wall painfully aware devastating effects redflag family friends due young family member recently succeeding attempt mess before seems happen every year half really thought position could control myself im losing it recently move flat apparent friend got bed asleep woke touching me spiralled since become isolated old friends social group feel like cant trust anyone anymore ive move back parents im sleeping sofa personal space ive jumped every hoop know previous episodes depression ive signed work feel like wondering ive weeks cant breathe house staying boyfriends every night get away went holiday today line support referred psychologist cut session short said felt like becoming stressed suggestions help me im back stage one run fight feels like noone help me feel like grounding know life state emotional distress im acute ever experienced feels unjustified ive seen gp theyve swapping pills around try get back feet im adult mother grew unstable breathes neck first sign especially loss said family member feel absolutely suffocated planned trip away day tomorrow know option go hospital admit danger myself know ill end facility absolutely cant stand thought family becoming aware severity situation numbers im supposed call im surrounded people way that snowballing months im exhausted im becoming massive drain boyfriend feel like cant breathe escape route going end know awake painfully unbearable right boyfriend carry becoming pathetic im scared myself really know do,1 +bees smol one bee swarm one giant bee heck one chezit chezthem,0 +well much say film except truly wonderful film natalie portman absolutely fantastic daughter lovely motherdaughter relationship film br br beautiful film,0 +crying knife againevery night feel lonely im useless nothing working friends left dirt one friend left doesnt reply often im usually room wanted feel anything dont took whole bottle medicine nothing happenedi already knew didnt work ive taking since january ive felt worse im crying bed knife tonight ready see blood hope maybe one day ill strong enough cut throat open instead legs,1 +weird way feel close death strangely nicesometimes theres tension air im feeling lethargic sad go kitchen open draw get knife put neck start feel better sometimes bleeds sometimes get scar thought death close could swipe weird yes is care,1 +great example good dumb movie no high art means script anywhere close woody allen mel brooks what killer tomatoes series four movies cartoon series basically goodnatured romps gleefully trampling kind territory zuckers ruled switched making serious flicksbr br as title suggests fourth installment killer tomatoes trilogy deals killer tomatoes plot france case professor gangrene john astins rd time role plan rule france ancient prophecy return rightful king france steve lundquist returns igor humanoid tomato wants sportscaster happens dead ringer longlost true king france obviously also plays aforementioned ll k f happily skewering french languagebr br opposing fearless fuzzy tomato like others ft introduced second film would main character cartoon human allies mark price recently unemployed result conclusion family ties series plays thinly disguised version himself passing michael j fox way win girl dreams angela visser dream marie gleefully bouncing unabashed virginal sexuality borderline psychosis oh former miss netherlands film career another returning member killer tomatoes stock company rick rockwell now best known hapless title subject who wants marry millionaire like cocreator john de bello rockwell works front behind camera seriesbr br what say jon de bello much really except singular vision managed pull and done that apparently dropped obscurity john ever see this thanks giving us killer tomatoesbr br the script heavily obnoxiously aware movie like return killer tomatoes action occasionally veers set middle film crew mark price funny forum complain lack success compared former costar michael j fox biggest budgeted killer tomatoes flicks nice sendoff series okay show moved fox kids cartoon series which also quite clever cartoons same,0 +m looking f need someone sing alto quartet pls send tryout tapes,0 +wanna sleep aint got social warmth kind affection make fall asleep instead keep browsing reddit cuz fills dopamine even im extremely tired,0 +happens mix ammoniaalcohol bleachi dont feel like anything live anymore ive abused alienated frowned upon sexually harassed quickly would die,1 +whole homo sapien social creature thing messed upupfront apologies walls text multitude reasons shouldnt thinking this family frustrations them cares overall sister always looked me love death like line work overall include coworkers ive met lot interesting people last years all im poor dont chronic health problems im completely honest lot people would kill life guess thats much different sentiment could always worse though am go court restraining order days ive broken mended heart times before different werent together long didnt take long get hurt still bruises part hand still numb antibiotics bite almost with remember screaming help realizing could actually loud knowing noone would answer chilling even moreso chilling knowing everyone taken story face value deep down im actually believed probably because great disgust im male like slowly one one ive shared trans mtf variety close me everyone listens doesnt get it still say hehim still deadname me dont look prototypically female im military present male almost everyday havent hrt long enough dont sound female hormones dont change it self taught shit hard challenge ill rise to find even closest dear wont care fact noone outright pushed away little comfort fact noone embraced old new either im here stray cat hold together time everyone gets along with greater arms length distance social shell confusing anyone crack flavor anxiety native close relationships cant name describe different psychiatrists one one becoming perplexed absolving responsibility almost always choosing run risks loneliness familiar pain ability precious somethingsomeone come from daydream affection persistent cant find anywhere did her abuse price im meant pay ive got howwhenwhere settled dont end it survive this could even come wiser resilient it im humbly bowing existence ive part play said much already anyone read this thank you wish well,1 +forget from color among us hat one im cyan wear leaf hat backup color lime,0 +wanna dieim shitty feel shitty time constantly make people feel shitty somehow cant fix fucked mentality take take take never give back im impossible yet people still put fucking time one unselfish thing make sure never deal stupid ugly horrid toxic ass ever even worst point cant bring go process ending all im bitch pain wish button could push would make go poof anymore shitty fucking world seems hurt aaaaaaaaaaaaaa god wanna feel like know true way stop breathing medication time therapy work long im back horrid mindset brain craves seratonin bad cannot fucking function own im broken fucked mess one deserves put with ive resorted yelling internet hopes what knows fuck hate this hate myself,1 +sleep stay awake last night decided stay day fix sleep schedule bc ducked start school days pm rn im feeling kinda tired sleep atleast take nap stay awake,0 +back school guess ive coop goat farm quad today last day next week march break that back actual school back schoolwork back sitting class praying nobody looks me back uniforms back getting bus every morning am back heart race every time male teacher purposely walks behind stairs uniform kilts fucking short asscheeks almost hanging short back literally wear kilts pants designed fit female bodies back around racisttransphobic people back hearing awful shittalking bathroom back vice principal aggressively asking im every time sees hall back teachers singling out back teachers penalizing work isnt good neurotypicalnon learningdisabled students back forced speak infront class nobody knows me back new kid school back seeing peers great friends years ago cannot stand presence anymore back parents texting everyday needing know im school dont live anymore back grade s grade s back seniors looking like child back freshmensophomores gawking constantly back little hell fucking town,0 +hell sounds better heaven heaven pray shit hell demon girls hellhounds and sinners go big sexy time orgy sex also afraid heights heaven would torture,0 +posting everyday people stop caring religion matter private thing allowed share it force others also people treated diferently religions belief pearson stopped seeks harm humans care others religions,0 +okay definetly need hear guys opinion ive pretty much love one best friends now im m shes f met lot summer pretty much always asked wanted meet always wanted never asked me also slow responds messages shes slow reply others too know asked friends think forgets reply sometimes asked one mutual friends ask interested something hung much said saw friend didnt speak month half got snap asking could call me said yes course talked school random stuff minutes since called talked least every week started answering texts quickly started send snaps time begged hang bored hung really felt great like connection point felt great hope went weeks completely stopped everything went back normal takes like days reply messages thats normally takes friends too get another vibe the got like this thats right feel like shit im planning tell feelings week want hear guys think behavior also need help ways tell dont want become much distances herself dont want make weird us thanks help ,0 +cant get dog think ill kill myselfthe last thing im holding for yup first two applications didnt work already received many one looking for sent third one different place dont hopes high up,1 +whats point princess bridei really think like wesley said pb life pain ampxb life sucks hurts live get better joy temporary think people happy successful fulfilled lives thats cards me wish dead every day keep wishing dead go bed wanting wake up think various ways commit redflag looks like accident ive settled single vehicle car accident bridge brick wall telephone pole note cant say suicde accident hiking mountain live lot mountains hiking places accidently fall of already like hike bc suspicious ampxb look like accident insurance reasons kids want thinking okay ampxb hate passionately want die,1 +got nudes person might might know snapchat do ok chick dont know added snap sent something opened nudes dont even know person thought might know school couldnt find yearbook im sure wrong person actually knows me cuz idea is looks age im tf respond this,0